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A SET OF SIX
By Joseph Conrad
Les petites marionnettes
Font, font, font,
Trois
petits tours
Et puis s’en vont.
—NURSERY RHYME
The little puppets
Make, make, make,
Three little turns
And then they go away.
—NURSERY RHYME
TO MISS M. H. M. CAPES
Contents
AUTHOR’S NOTE
The six stories in this volume are the result of some three or four years of occasional work. The dates of their writing are far apart, their origins are various. None of them are connected directly with personal experiences. In all of them the facts are inherently true, by which I mean that they are not only possible but that they have actually happened. For instance, the last story in the volume, the one I call Pathetic, whose first title is Il Conde (misspelt by-the-by) is an almost verbatim transcript of the tale told me by a very charming old gentleman whom I met in Italy. I don’t mean to say it is only that. Anybody can see that it is something more than a verbatim report, but where he left off and where I began must be left to the acute discrimination of the reader who may be interested in the problem. I don’t mean to say that the problem is worth the trouble. What I am certain of, however, is that it is not to be solved, for I am not at all clear about it myself by this time. All I can say is that the personality of the narrator was extremely suggestive quite apart from the story he was telling me. I heard a few years ago that he had died far away from his beloved Naples where that “abominable adventure” did really happen to him.
The six stories in this collection are the result of about three or four years of occasional work. The dates when they were written vary widely, and their origins are diverse. None of them are directly linked to personal experiences. All of them are fundamentally true, meaning that they are not just possible but have actually occurred. For example, the last story in the collection, which I call Pathetic, originally titled Il Conde (spelled incorrectly, by the way), is almost a verbatim account of a tale I heard from a very charming old gentleman I met in Italy. I don’t mean to suggest it’s just that. Anyone can tell it’s more than a straightforward report, but where he ended and where I began is something for the discerning reader to figure out if they’re interested in that issue. I’m not claiming that it’s worth the effort. What I do know for sure is that it can’t be solved, as I’m still not clear on it myself. All I can say is that the personality of the narrator was incredibly compelling, separate from the story he was sharing. I heard a few years ago that he passed away far from his beloved Naples, where that “abominable adventure” actually took place.
Thus the genealogy of Il Conde is simple. It is not the case with the other stories. Various strains contributed to their composition, and the nature of many of those I have forgotten, not having the habit of making notes either before or after the fact. I mean the fact of writing a story. What I remember best about Gaspar Ruiz is that it was written, or at any rate begun, within a month of finishing Nostromo; but apart from the locality, and that a pretty wide one (all the South American Continent), the novel and the story have nothing in common, neither mood, nor intention and, certainly, not the style. The manner for the most part is that of General Santierra, and that old warrior, I note with satisfaction, is very true to himself all through. Looking now dispassionately at the various ways in which this story could have been presented I can’t honestly think the General superfluous. It is he, an old man talking of the days of his youth, who characterizes the whole narrative and gives it an air of actuality which I doubt whether I could have achieved without his help. In the mere writing his existence of course was of no help at all, because the whole thing had to be carefully kept within the frame of his simple mind. But all this is but a laborious searching of memories. My present feeling is that the story could not have been told otherwise. The hint for Gaspar Ruiz the man I found in a book by Captain Basil Hall, R.N., who was for some time, between the years 1824 and 1828, senior officer of a small British Squadron on the West Coast of South America. His book published in the thirties obtained a certain celebrity and I suppose is to be found still in some libraries. The curious who may be mistrusting my imagination are referred to that printed document, Vol. II, I forget the page, but it is somewhere not far from the end. Another document connected with this story is a letter of a biting and ironic kind from a friend then in Burma, passing certain strictures upon “the gentleman with the gun on his back” which I do not intend to make accessible to the public. Yet the gun episode did really happen, or at least I am bound to believe it because I remember it, described in an extremely matter-of-fact tone, in some book I read in my boyhood; and I am not going to discard the beliefs of my boyhood for anybody on earth.
So, the family history of Il Conde is straightforward. The same can't be said for the other stories. Many influences went into their creation, and I've forgotten the details of quite a few, since I never got into the habit of taking notes before or after writing. By writing a story, I mean. What I remember most about Gaspar Ruiz is that it was written, or at least started, about a month after finishing Nostromo; but aside from the setting, which is quite broad (the entire South American continent), the novel and the story have nothing in common—neither the mood nor the intention, and definitely not the style. The style is mainly that of General Santierra, and I’m pleased to point out that this old warrior stays true to himself throughout. Looking back now at the different ways this story could have been told, I honestly don't believe the General is unnecessary. It's him, an old man reminiscing about his youth, who shapes the entire narrative and gives it a sense of reality that I doubt I could have captured without his influence. In terms of writing, his existence didn’t help much at all, because everything had to fit within the bounds of his straightforward perspective. But all of this is just a tedious digging through memories. Right now, I feel that the story could only have been told this way. The idea for Gaspar Ruiz came from a book by Captain Basil Hall, R.N., who was the senior officer of a small British Squadron on the West Coast of South America between 1824 and 1828. His book, published in the 1830s, gained some fame and I assume it can still be found in some libraries. Those curious who might doubt my imagination are directed to that printed document, Vol. II, I can’t remember the page, but it’s somewhere near the end. Another document related to this story is a letter filled with biting irony from a friend of mine who was in Burma at the time, critiquing “the gentleman with the gun on his back,” which I don’t intend to share publicly. Still, the gun incident really happened, or at least I have to believe it did because I remember it being described in a very straightforward manner in a book I read as a boy; I’m not going to dismiss the beliefs of my youth for anyone on earth.
The Brute, which is the only sea-story in the volume, is, like Il Conde, associated with a direct narrative and based on a suggestion gathered on warm human lips. I will not disclose the real name of the criminal ship but the first I heard of her homicidal habits was from the late Captain Blake, commanding a London ship in which I served in 1884 as Second Officer. Captain Blake was, of all my commanders, the one I remember with the greatest affection. I have sketched in his personality, without however mentioning his name, in the first paper of The Mirror of the Sea. In his young days he had had a personal experience of the brute and it is perhaps for that reason that I have put the story into the mouth of a young man and made of it what the reader will see. The existence of the brute was a fact. The end of the brute as related in the story is also a fact, well-known at the time though it really happened to another ship, of great beauty of form and of blameless character, which certainly deserved a better fate. I have unscrupulously adapted it to the needs of my story thinking that I had there something in the nature of poetical justice. I hope that little villainy will not cast a shadow upon the general honesty of my proceedings as a writer of tales.
The Brute, the only sea story in this collection, is similar to Il Conde in that it’s based on a straightforward narrative and draws on a suggestion from warm human experiences. I won’t reveal the true name of the criminal ship, but I first learned about its murderous tendencies from the late Captain Blake, who was in charge of a London ship where I served as Second Officer in 1884. Of all my captains, Captain Blake is the one I remember most fondly. I sketched his character, without naming him, in the first piece of The Mirror of the Sea. In his younger days, he had personal experience with the brute, which is probably why I chose to tell the story through the perspective of a young man. The existence of the brute was real, and the conclusion of the brute’s story, as told here, is also a fact well-known at the time, although it actually happened to another beautiful and honorable ship that definitely deserved a better fate. I’ve adapted it without hesitation to fit my narrative, believing I found a sort of poetic justice in it. I hope this minor misdeed won’t overshadow the overall integrity of my efforts as a storyteller.
Of The Informer and An Anarchist I will say next to nothing. The pedigree of these tales is hopelessly complicated and not worth disentangling at this distance of time. I found them and here they are. The discriminating reader will guess that I have found them within my mind; but how they or their elements came in there I have forgotten for the most part; and for the rest I really don’t see why I should give myself away more than I have done already.
Of The Informer and An Anarchist, I won’t say much. The background of these stories is really complicated and not worth untangling after all this time. I found them, and here they are. A discerning reader might guess that I discovered them in my mind; however, most of how they or their elements got there is a blur to me, and honestly, I don’t see why I should reveal more than I already have.
It remains for me only now to mention The Duel, the longest story in the book. That story attained the dignity of publication all by itself in a small illustrated volume, under the title, “The Point of Honour.” That was many years ago. It has been since reinstated in its proper place, which is the place it occupies in this volume, in all the subsequent editions of my work. Its pedigree is extremely simple. It springs from a ten-line paragraph in a small provincial paper published in the South of France. That paragraph, occasioned by a duel with a fatal ending between two well-known Parisian personalities, referred for some reason or other to the “well-known fact” of two officers in Napoleon’s Grand Army having fought a series of duels in the midst of great wars and on some futile pretext. The pretext was never disclosed. I had therefore to invent it; and I think that, given the character of the two officers which I had to invent, too, I have made it sufficiently convincing by the mere force of its absurdity. The truth is that in my mind the story is nothing but a serious and even earnest attempt at a bit of historical fiction. I had heard in my boyhood a good deal of the great Napoleonic legend. I had a genuine feeling that I would find myself at home in it, and The Duel is the result of that feeling, or, if the reader prefers, of that presumption. Personally I have no qualms of conscience about this piece of work. The story might have been better told of course. All one’s work might have been better done; but this is the sort of reflection a worker must put aside courageously if he doesn’t mean every one of his conceptions to remain for ever a private vision, an evanescent reverie. How many of those visions have I seen vanish in my time! This one, however, has remained, a testimony, if you like, to my courage or a proof of my rashness. What I care to remember best is the testimony of some French readers who volunteered the opinion that in those hundred pages or so I had managed to render “wonderfully” the spirit of the whole epoch. Exaggeration of kindness no doubt; but even so I hug it still to my breast, because in truth that is exactly what I was trying to capture in my small net: the Spirit of the Epoch—never purely militarist in the long clash of arms, youthful, almost childlike in its exaltation of sentiment—naively heroic in its faith.
I only need to mention The Duel now, the longest story in the book. That story was published on its own in a small illustrated volume called “The Point of Honour.” That was many years ago. It has since been restored to its rightful place, which is where it appears in this volume, in all the later editions of my work. Its background is quite simple. It comes from a ten-line paragraph in a small regional paper from the South of France. This paragraph was about a fatal duel involving two well-known personalities from Paris, and for some reason, it referenced the “well-known fact” that two officers in Napoleon’s Grand Army had fought a series of duels amid major wars over some pointless pretext. The pretext was never revealed. So, I had to create it; and I believe that, considering the characters of the two officers I had to invent as well, I've made it convincing enough simply through its absurdity. Truthfully, I see the story as a serious attempt at historical fiction. I heard a lot about the great Napoleonic legend during my childhood. I genuinely felt I would connect with it, and The Duel is the outcome of that feeling, or, if the reader prefers, that assumption. Personally, I don’t feel guilty about this work. Of course, the story could have been told better. Everything can always be improved, but that’s something a creator has to set aside if they don’t want every idea to remain just a private vision or a fleeting dream. I’ve seen plenty of those visions fade away in my time! However, this one has stayed, a testament, if you will, to my courage or evidence of my recklessness. What I like to remember most is the feedback from some French readers who kindly suggested that in those hundred pages or so, I captured the spirit of the entire era “wonderfully.” Perhaps that was an exaggeration of their kindness; still, I cherish it because that’s exactly what I aimed to capture in my small net: the Spirit of the Epoch—never purely militaristic during the long struggle, youthful, almost childlike in its exaltation of sentiment—naively heroic in its faith.
1920. J. C.
1920. J. C.
A SET OF SIX
GASPAR RUIZ
I
I
A revolutionary war raises many strange characters out of the obscurity which is the common lot of humble lives in an undisturbed state of society.
A revolutionary war brings out many unusual individuals from the obscurity that usually defines the everyday lives of ordinary people in a stable society.
Certain individualities grow into fame through their vices and their virtues, or simply by their actions, which may have a temporary importance; and then they become forgotten. The names of a few leaders alone survive the end of armed strife and are further preserved in history; so that, vanishing from men’s active memories, they still exist in books.
Some individuals gain fame through their flaws and strengths, or just by their actions, which may only matter for a short time; eventually, they are forgotten. Only a handful of leaders are remembered after conflicts end and are kept alive in history, so that while they fade from people's immediate memories, they continue to exist in books.
The name of General Santierra attained that cold paper-and-ink immortality. He was a South American of good family, and the books published in his lifetime numbered him amongst the liberators of that continent from the oppressive rule of Spain.
The name of General Santierra achieved a lasting legacy. He was a South American from a respectable family, and the books published during his lifetime recognized him as one of the liberators of the continent from the oppressive rule of Spain.
That long contest, waged for independence on one side and for dominion on the other, developed in the course of years and the vicissitudes of changing fortune the fierceness and inhumanity of a struggle for life. All feelings of pity and compassion disappeared in the growth of political hatred. And, as is usual in war, the mass of the people, who had the least to gain by the issue, suffered most in their obscure persons and their humble fortunes.
That long battle for independence on one side and control on the other evolved over the years and through the ups and downs of changing circumstances into an intense and brutal fight for survival. All feelings of pity and compassion vanished as political hatred grew. As often happens in war, the general population, who had the least to gain from the outcome, suffered the most in their everyday lives and modest circumstances.
General Santierra began his service as lieutenant in the patriot army raised and commanded by the famous San Martin, afterwards conqueror of Lima and liberator of Peru. A great battle had just been fought on the banks of the river Bio-Bio. Amongst the prisoners made upon the routed Royalist troops there was a soldier called Gaspar Ruiz. His powerful build and his big head rendered him remarkable amongst his fellow-captives. The personality of the man was unmistakable. Some months before he had been missed from the ranks of Republican troops after one of the many skirmishes which preceded the great battle. And now, having been captured arms in hand amongst Royalists, he could expect no other fate but to be shot as a deserter.
General Santierra started his service as a lieutenant in the patriot army led by the famous San Martin, who later became the conqueror of Lima and the liberator of Peru. A major battle had just taken place on the banks of the Bio-Bio River. Among the prisoners taken from the defeated Royalist troops was a soldier named Gaspar Ruiz. His strong build and large head made him stand out among the other captives. The man’s presence was unmistakable. A few months earlier, he had gone missing from the Republican troops after one of the many skirmishes that happened before the great battle. Now, having been captured with weapons in hand among the Royalists, he could expect no outcome other than to be executed as a deserter.
Gaspar Ruiz, however, was not a deserter; his mind was hardly active enough to take a discriminating view of the advantages or perils of treachery. Why should he change sides? He had really been made a prisoner, had suffered ill-usage and many privations. Neither side showed tenderness to its adversaries. There came a day when he was ordered, together with some other captured rebels, to march in the front rank of the Royal troops. A musket had been thrust into his hands. He had taken it. He had marched. He did not want to be killed with circumstances of peculiar atrocity for refusing to march. He did not understand heroism but it was his intention to throw his musket away at the first opportunity. Meantime he had gone on loading and firing, from fear of having his brains blown out at the first sign of unwillingness, by some non-commissioned officer of the King of Spain. He tried to set forth these elementary considerations before the sergeant of the guard set over him and some twenty other such deserters, who had been condemned summarily to be shot.
Gaspar Ruiz, however, was not a deserter; his mind wasn't really active enough to see the advantages or dangers of betrayal. Why would he switch sides? He had truly been captured, endured mistreatment, and faced many hardships. Neither side showed kindness to its enemies. One day, he was ordered, along with some other captured rebels, to march at the front of the Royal troops. A musket was shoved into his hands. He took it. He marched. He didn’t want to be killed in a particularly brutal way for refusing to march. He didn't grasp the concept of heroism, but he intended to throw his musket away at the first chance he got. In the meantime, he kept loading and firing, scared that if he showed any reluctance, some non-commissioned officer of the King of Spain would blow his brains out. He tried to express these basic thoughts to the sergeant in charge of him and about twenty other supposed deserters, who had been sentenced to be shot without trial.
It was in the quadrangle of the fort at the back of the batteries which command the roadstead of Valparaiso. The officer who had identified him had gone on without listening to his protestations. His doom was sealed; his hands were tied very tightly together behind his back; his body was sore all over from the many blows with sticks and butts of muskets which had hurried him along on the painful road from the place of his capture to the gate of the fort. This was the only kind of systematic attention the prisoners had received from their escort during a four days’ journey across a scantily watered tract of country. At the crossings of rare streams they were permitted to quench their thirst by lapping hurriedly like dogs. In the evening a few scraps of meat were thrown amongst them as they dropped down dead-beat upon the stony ground of the halting-place.
It was in the courtyard of the fort at the back of the batteries that overlook the harbor of Valparaiso. The officer who had identified him walked away without listening to his protests. His fate was sealed; his hands were tied tightly behind his back, and his body ached all over from the many blows with sticks and musket butts that had pushed him along the painful journey from where he was captured to the fort's gate. This was the only kind of consistent attention the prisoners received from their escort during a four-day trip across a sparsely watered area. At the crossings of the rare streams, they were allowed to satisfy their thirst by drinking quickly like dogs. In the evening, a few scraps of meat were tossed among them as they collapsed, exhausted, onto the rocky ground at their resting place.
As he stood in the courtyard of the castle in the early morning, after having been driven hard all night, Gaspar Ruiz’s throat was parched, and his tongue felt very large and dry in his mouth.
As he stood in the castle courtyard in the early morning, having been pushed hard all night, Gaspar Ruiz's throat was dry, and his tongue felt huge and dry in his mouth.
And Gaspar Ruiz, besides being very thirsty, was stirred by a feeling of sluggish anger, which he could not very well express, as though the vigour of his spirit were by no means equal to the strength of his body.
And Gaspar Ruiz, besides being very thirsty, felt a dull anger that he couldn't quite express, as if the energy of his spirit didn't match the strength of his body.
The other prisoners in the batch of the condemned hung their heads, looking obstinately on the ground. But Gaspar Ruiz kept on repeating: “What should I desert for to the Royalists? Why should I desert? Tell me, Estaban!”
The other prisoners in the group of condemned men hung their heads, stubbornly staring at the ground. But Gaspar Ruiz kept repeating, "Why should I desert to the Royalists? What would I gain from it? Tell me, Estaban!"
He addressed himself to the sergeant, who happened to belong to the same part of the country as himself. But the sergeant, after shrugging his meagre shoulders once, paid no further attention to the deep murmuring voice at his back. It was indeed strange that Gaspar Ruiz should desert. His people were in too humble a station to feel much the disadvantages of any form of government. There was no reason why Gaspar Ruiz should wish to uphold in his own person the rule of the King of Spain. Neither had he been anxious to exert himself for its subversion. He had joined the side of Independence in an extremely reasonable and natural manner. A band of patriots appeared one morning early, surrounding his father’s ranche, spearing the watch-dogs and ham-stringing a fat cow all in the twinkling of an eye, to the cries of “Viva la Libertad!” Their officer discoursed of Liberty with enthusiasm and eloquence after a long and refreshing sleep. When they left in the evening, taking with them some of Ruiz, the father’s, best horses to replace their own lamed animals, Gaspar Ruiz went away with them, having been invited pressingly to do so by the eloquent officer.
He turned to the sergeant, who happened to be from the same part of the country as he was. But the sergeant, after shrugging his thin shoulders once, ignored the deep murmuring voice behind him. It was indeed strange that Gaspar Ruiz would desert. His family was too humble to feel the drawbacks of any type of government. There was no reason for Gaspar Ruiz to feel the need to support the rule of the King of Spain. Nor had he been eager to help overthrow it. He had joined the side of Independence in a very reasonable and natural way. A group of patriots showed up one early morning, surrounding his father’s ranch, spearing the guard dogs and hamstringing a fat cow in the blink of an eye, shouting “Viva la Libertad!” Their officer spoke about Liberty with enthusiasm and eloquence after a long, refreshing sleep. When they left in the evening, taking some of Ruiz, the father's, best horses to replace their own injured animals, Gaspar Ruiz went with them, having been strongly invited to do so by the persuasive officer.
Shortly afterwards a detachment of Royalist troops coming to pacify the district, burnt the ranche, carried off the remaining horses and cattle, and having thus deprived the old people of all their worldly possessions, left them sitting under a bush in the enjoyment of the inestimable boon of life.
Shortly after, a group of Royalist soldiers arrived to bring peace to the area, burned down the ranch, took away the last of the horses and cattle, and having stripped the elderly of all their belongings, left them sitting under a bush, simply grateful for the precious gift of life.
II
II
Gaspar Ruiz, condemned to death as a deserter, was not thinking either of his native place or of his parents, to whom he had been a good son on account of the mildness of his character and the great strength of his limbs. The practical advantage of this last was made still more valuable to his father by his obedient disposition. Gaspar Ruiz had an acquiescent soul.
Gaspar Ruiz, sentenced to death for desertion, wasn't thinking about his hometown or his parents, to whom he had been a good son due to his gentle nature and strong physique. The practical benefit of his strength was further appreciated by his father because of his willing attitude. Gaspar Ruiz had a compliant spirit.
But it was stirred now to a sort of dim revolt by his dislike to die the death of a traitor. He was not a traitor. He said again to the sergeant: “You know I did not desert, Estaban. You know I remained behind amongst the trees with three others to keep the enemy back while the detachment was running away!”
But now he felt a kind of quiet rebellion because he didn’t want to die like a traitor. He wasn’t a traitor. He said again to the sergeant: “You know I didn’t desert, Estaban. You know I stayed behind with three others among the trees to hold off the enemy while the rest of the group was running away!”
Lieutenant Santierra, little more than a boy at the time, and unused as yet to the sanguinary imbecilities of a state of war, had lingered near by, as if fascinated by the sight of these men who were to be shot presently—“for an example”—as the Commandante had said.
Lieutenant Santierra, still just a kid back then and not yet accustomed to the brutal foolishness of war, had hung around, almost entranced by the sight of the men who were about to be shot—“to set an example,” as the Commandante had put it.
The sergeant, without deigning to look at the prisoner, addressed himself to the young officer with a superior smile.
The sergeant, without bothering to look at the prisoner, spoke to the young officer with a condescending smile.
“Ten men would not have been enough to make him a prisoner, mi teniente. Moreover, the other three rejoined the detachment after dark. Why should he, unwounded and the strongest of them all, have failed to do so?”
“Ten men wouldn’t have been enough to capture him, Lieutenant. Besides, the other three came back to the group after dark. Why would he, unhurt and the strongest among them, not have done the same?”
“My strength is as nothing against a mounted man with a lasso,” Gaspar Ruiz protested, eagerly. “He dragged me behind his horse for half a mile.”
“My strength is useless against a guy on horseback with a lasso,” Gaspar Ruiz said, anxious. “He pulled me behind his horse for half a mile.”
At this excellent reason the sergeant only laughed contemptuously. The young officer hurried away after the Commandante.
At this, the sergeant just laughed scornfully. The young officer quickly followed after the Commandante.
Presently the adjutant of the castle came by. He was a truculent, raw-boned man in a ragged uniform. His spluttering voice issued out of a flat yellow face. The sergeant learned from him that the condemned men would not be shot till sunset. He begged then to know what he was to do with them meantime.
Currently, the castle's adjutant stopped by. He was a gruff, lanky man in a tattered uniform. His stammering voice came from a flat yellow face. The sergeant found out from him that the condemned men wouldn't be executed until sunset. He then asked what he was supposed to do with them in the meantime.
The adjutant looked savagely round the courtyard and, pointing to the door of a small dungeon-like guardroom, receiving light and air through one heavily barred window, said: “Drive the scoundrels in there.”
The adjutant scanned the courtyard angrily and, pointing to the door of a small, dungeon-like guardroom that got light and air through a single heavily barred window, said: “Get those scoundrels in there.”
The sergeant, tightening his grip upon the stick he carried in virtue of his rank, executed this order with alacrity and zeal. He hit Gaspar Ruiz, whose movements were slow, over his head and shoulders. Gaspar Ruiz stood still for a moment under the shower of blows, biting his lip thoughtfully as if absorbed by a perplexing mental process—then followed the others without haste. The door was locked, and the adjutant carried off the key.
The sergeant, gripping the stick he held because of his rank, carried out this order quickly and eagerly. He struck Gaspar Ruiz, who was moving sluggishly, on his head and shoulders. Gaspar Ruiz paused for a moment under the barrage of blows, biting his lip as if deep in thought—then joined the others without rushing. The door was locked, and the adjutant took the key.
By noon the heat of that vaulted place crammed to suffocation had become unbearable. The prisoners crowded towards the window, begging their guards for a drop of water; but the soldiers remained lying in indolent attitudes wherever there was a little shade under a wall, while the sentry sat with his back against the door smoking a cigarette, and raising his eyebrows philosophically from time to time. Gaspar Ruiz had pushed his way to the window with irresistible force. His capacious chest needed more air than the others; his big face, resting with its chin on the ledge, pressed close to the bars, seemed to support the other faces crowding up for breath. From moaned entreaties they had passed to desperate cries, and the tumultuous howling of those thirsty men obliged a young officer who was just then crossing the courtyard to shout in order to make himself heard.
By noon, the heat in that cramped, vaulted space had become unbearable. The prisoners gathered around the window, pleading with their guards for a drop of water, but the soldiers lounged in lazy positions wherever they could find some shade against the wall. Meanwhile, the sentry leaned against the door, smoking a cigarette and occasionally raising his eyebrows with a philosophical air. Gaspar Ruiz had pushed his way to the window with force that couldn't be resisted. His broad chest craved more air than the others; his large face, resting with its chin on the ledge and pressed against the bars, seemed to support the other faces crowding in for breath. Their moans of plea had turned into desperate cries, and the chaotic wailing of those thirsty men forced a young officer crossing the courtyard to shout just to be heard.
“Why don’t you give some water to these prisoners?”
“Why don’t you give some water to these inmates?”
The sergeant, with an air of surprised innocence, excused himself by the remark that all those men were condemned to die in a very few hours.
The sergeant, looking genuinely surprised, explained that all those men were going to be executed in just a few hours.
Lieutenant Santierra stamped his foot. “They are condemned to death, not to torture,” he shouted. “Give them some water at once.”
Lieutenant Santierra stamped his foot. “They’re sentenced to death, not to torture,” he yelled. “Give them some water right away.”
Impressed by this appearance of anger, the soldiers bestirred themselves, and the sentry, snatching up his musket, stood to attention.
Impressed by this display of anger, the soldiers sprang into action, and the sentry, grabbing his rifle, stood at attention.
But when a couple of buckets were found and filled from the well, it was discovered that they could not be passed through the bars, which were set too close. At the prospect of quenching their thirst, the shrieks of those trampled down in the struggle to get near the opening became very heartrending. But when the soldiers who had lifted the buckets towards the window put them to the ground again helplessly, the yell of disappointment was still more terrible.
But when a couple of buckets were found and filled from the well, it turned out they couldn’t fit through the bars because they were too close together. As the people hoped to quench their thirst, the screams of those trampled in the rush to get close to the opening became extremely heartbreaking. But when the soldiers who had lifted the buckets toward the window put them back down helplessly, the cry of disappointment was even more terrible.
The soldiers of the army of Independence were not equipped with canteens. A small tin cup was found, but its approach to the opening caused such a commotion, such yells of rage and pain in the vague mass of limbs behind the straining faces at the window, that Lieutenant Santierra cried out hurriedly, “No, no—you must open the door, sergeant.”
The soldiers in the army of Independence didn’t have canteens. A small tin cup was discovered, but when it was brought near the opening, it caused such a stir, with screams of anger and pain from the confused group of limbs behind the tense faces at the window, that Lieutenant Santierra quickly shouted, “No, no—you need to open the door, sergeant.”
The sergeant, shrugging his shoulders, explained that he had no right to open the door even if he had had the key. But he had not the key. The adjutant of the garrison kept the key. Those men were giving much unnecessary trouble, since they had to die at sunset in any case. Why they had not been shot at once early in the morning he could not understand.
The sergeant shrugged and said he had no right to open the door, even if he had the key. But he didn’t have the key. The adjutant of the garrison kept it. Those guys were causing a lot of unnecessary hassle since they had to die at sunset anyway. He couldn’t understand why they hadn’t just been shot first thing in the morning.
Lieutenant Santierra kept his back studiously to the window. It was at his earnest solicitations that the Commandante had delayed the execution. This favour had been granted to him in consideration of his distinguished family and of his father’s high position amongst the chiefs of the Republican party. Lieutenant Santierra believed that the General commanding would visit the fort some time in the afternoon, and he ingenuously hoped that his naive intercession would induce that severe man to pardon some, at least, of those criminals. In the revulsion of his feeling his interference stood revealed now as guilty and futile meddling. It appeared to him obvious that the general would never even consent to listen to his petition. He could never save those men, and he had only made himself responsible for the sufferings added to the cruelty of their fate.
Lieutenant Santierra turned his back to the window. It was at his sincere requests that the Commandante had postponed the execution. This favor was granted to him because of his prominent family and his father's high standing among the leaders of the Republican party. Lieutenant Santierra thought that the General in charge would visit the fort later in the afternoon, and he naively hoped that his innocent plea would persuade that stern man to pardon at least some of those criminals. However, in a moment of reflection, he realized that his interference was nothing but guilty and pointless meddling. It became clear to him that the general would never even consider hearing his request. He could never save those men, and all he had done was take responsibility for the additional suffering on top of the cruelty they already faced.
“Then go at once and get the key from the adjutant,” said Lieutenant Santierra.
“Then go right away and get the key from the assistant,” said Lieutenant Santierra.
The sergeant shook his head with a sort of bashful smile, while his eyes glanced sideways at Gaspar Ruiz’s face, motionless and silent, staring through the bars at the bottom of a heap of other haggard, distorted, yelling faces.
The sergeant shook his head with a shy smile, while his eyes glanced sideways at Gaspar Ruiz’s face, which was motionless and silent, staring through the bars at the bottom of a pile of other tired, distorted, shouting faces.
His worship the adjutant de Plaza, the sergeant murmured, was having his siesta; and supposing that he, the sergeant, would be allowed access to him, the only result he expected would be to have his soul flogged out of his body for presuming to disturb his worship’s repose. He made a deprecatory movement with his hands, and stood stock-still, looking down modestly upon his brown toes.
His honor, the adjutant de Plaza, the sergeant muttered, was taking his nap; and assuming that he, the sergeant, would be permitted to see him, the only outcome he anticipated would be to have his spirit beaten out of him for daring to interrupt his honor’s rest. He made a gesture of apology with his hands and stood frozen, looking down bashfully at his brown toes.
Lieutenant Santierra glared with indignation, but hesitated. His handsome oval face, as smooth as a girl’s, flushed with the shame of his perplexity. Its nature humiliated his spirit. His hairless upper lip trembled; he seemed on the point of either bursting into a fit of rage or into tears of dismay.
Lieutenant Santierra frowned with anger but hesitated. His attractive oval face, as smooth as a girl’s, turned red with the shame of his confusion. Its nature embarrassed him. His hairless upper lip quivered; he looked ready to either explode with rage or break down in tears of distress.
Fifty years later, General Santierra, the venerable relic of revolutionary times, was well able to remember the feelings of the young lieutenant. Since he had given up riding altogether, and found it difficult to walk beyond the limits of his garden, the general’s greatest delight was to entertain in his house the officers of the foreign men-of-war visiting the harbour. For Englishmen he had a preference, as for old companions in arms. English naval men of all ranks accepted his hospitality with curiosity, because he had known Lord Cochrane and had taken part, on board the patriot squadron commanded by that marvellous seaman, in the cutting out and blockading operations before Callao—an episode of unalloyed glory in the wars of Independence and of endless honour in the fighting tradition of Englishmen. He was a fair linguist, this ancient survivor of the Liberating armies. A trick of smoothing his long white beard whenever he was short of a word in French or English imparted an air of leisurely dignity to the tone of his reminiscences.
Fifty years later, General Santierra, the esteemed relic of revolutionary times, could easily recall the feelings of the young lieutenant. Since he had completely given up riding and found it hard to walk beyond his garden, the general’s greatest joy was entertaining the officers of foreign warships visiting the harbor. He had a particular fondness for the English, seeing them as old comrades in arms. Naval officers from England of all ranks accepted his hospitality with curiosity because he had known Lord Cochrane and had participated, on board the patriot squadron led by that remarkable seaman, in the cutting out and blockading operations before Callao—an episode of pure glory in the wars of Independence and endless honor in the fighting tradition of the English. He was quite a good linguist, this ancient survivor of the Liberating armies. A habit of smoothing his long white beard whenever he was searching for a word in French or English added an air of relaxed dignity to the tone of his stories.
III
III
“Yes, my friends,” he used to say to his guests, “what would you have? A youth of seventeen summers, without worldly experience, and owing my rank only to the glorious patriotism of my father, may God rest his soul. I suffered immense humiliation, not so much from the disobedience of that subordinate, who, after all, was responsible for those prisoners; but I suffered because, like the boy I was, I myself dreaded going to the adjutant for the key. I had felt, before, his rough and cutting tongue. Being quite a common fellow, with no merit except his savage valour, he made me feel his contempt and dislike from the first day I joined my battalion in garrison at the fort. It was only a fortnight before! I would have confronted him sword in hand, but I shrank from the mocking brutality of his sneers.
“Yes, my friends,” he used to say to his guests, “what do you want? A youth of seventeen summers, without any real-life experience, and who owes his position solely to the glorious patriotism of my father, may God rest his soul. I went through a lot of humiliation, not just because of the disobedience of that subordinate, who was ultimately responsible for those prisoners; but I felt it because, like the boy I was, I was terrified of going to the adjutant for the key. I had experienced his rough and cutting words before. Being just an ordinary guy, with no other merit than his brutal courage, he made me feel his contempt and disdain from the very first day I joined my battalion at the fort. It was only two weeks ago! I would have faced him with my sword drawn, but I was put off by the mocking cruelty of his taunts.
“I don’t remember having been so miserable in my life before or since. The torment of my sensibility was so great that I wished the sergeant to fall dead at my feet, and the stupid soldiers who stared at me to turn into corpses; and even those wretches for whom my entreaties had procured a reprieve I wished dead also, because I could not face them without shame. A mephitic heat like a whiff of air from hell came out of that dark place in which they were confined. Those at the window who had heard what was going on jeered at me in very desperation: one of these fellows, gone mad no doubt, kept on urging me volubly to order the soldiers to fire through the window. His insane loquacity made my heart turn faint. And my feet were like lead. There was no higher officer to whom I could appeal. I had not even the firmness of spirit to simply go away.
“I don’t remember ever being this miserable in my life before or since. The pain of my sensitivity was so intense that I wished for the sergeant to drop dead at my feet, and for the stupid soldiers staring at me to turn into corpses. I even wanted those unfortunate people, for whom my pleas had earned a reprieve, to die too, because I couldn't face them without feeling ashamed. A foul heat, like a breath from hell, came from the dark place where they were locked up. Those at the window who had heard what was happening mocked me out of desperation: one of these guys, clearly mad, kept urging me frantically to order the soldiers to fire through the window. His insane chatter made my heart sink. My feet felt like lead. There was no higher officer I could turn to. I didn’t even have the strength of mind to just walk away."
“Benumbed by my remorse, I stood with my back to the window. You must not suppose that all this lasted a long time. How long could it have been? A minute? If you measured by mental suffering it was like a hundred years; a longer time than all my life has been since. No, certainly, it was not so much as a minute. The hoarse screaming of those miserable wretches died out in their dry throats, and then suddenly a voice spoke, a deep voice muttering calmly. It called upon me to turn round.
“Frozen by my guilt, I stood with my back to the window. You shouldn't think this went on for very long. How long could it have actually been? A minute? If you judged by the mental pain, it felt like a hundred years; longer than my entire life has been since then. No, it definitely wasn't even a minute. The hoarse cries of those poor souls faded away in their dry throats, and then suddenly a voice spoke, a deep voice calmly murmuring. It urged me to turn around.”
“That voice, senores, proceeded from the head of Gaspar Ruiz. Of his body I could see nothing. Some of his fellow-captives had clambered upon his back. He was holding them up. His eyes blinked without looking at me. That and the moving of his lips was all he seemed able to manage in his overloaded state. And when I turned round, this head, that seemed more than human size resting on its chin under a multitude of other heads, asked me whether I really desired to quench the thirst of the captives.
“That voice, gentlemen, came from the head of Gaspar Ruiz. I couldn’t see his body at all. Some of his fellow captives had climbed onto his back. He was supporting them. His eyes blinked without making any eye contact with me. That and the movement of his lips were all he seemed capable of in his overloaded state. And when I turned around, this head, which appeared larger than a human head resting on its chin beneath a crowd of other heads, asked me if I truly wanted to satisfy the thirst of the captives."
“I said, ‘Yes, yes!’ eagerly, and came up quite close to the window. I was like a child, and did not know what would happen. I was anxious to be comforted in my helplessness and remorse.
“I said, ‘Yes, yes!’ eagerly, and got right up to the window. I felt like a child, not knowing what would happen next. I was desperate to find comfort in my helplessness and guilt.
“‘Have you the authority, Senor teniente, to release my wrists from their bonds?’ Gaspar Ruiz’s head asked me.
“‘Do you have the authority, Lieutenant, to free my wrists from these bonds?’ Gaspar Ruiz’s head asked me.
“His features expressed no anxiety, no hope; his heavy eyelids blinked upon his eyes that looked past me straight into the courtyard.
“His face showed no worry, no expectation; his heavy eyelids blinked over his eyes that gazed beyond me straight into the courtyard.
“As if in an ugly dream, I spoke, stammering: ‘What do you mean? And how can I reach the bonds on your wrists?’
“As if in a bad dream, I spoke, stammering: ‘What do you mean? And how can I get to the ties on your wrists?’”
“‘I will try what I can do,’ he said; and then that large staring head moved at last, and all the wild faces piled up in that window disappeared, tumbling down. He had shaken his load off with one movement, so strong he was.
“‘I’ll give it a shot,’ he said; and then that big, staring head finally moved, and all the wild faces stacked up in that window vanished, crashing down. He had shaken off his burden with one powerful move.”
“And he had not only shaken it off, but he got free of the crush and vanished from my sight. For a moment there was no one at all to be seen at the window. He had swung about, butting and shouldering, clearing a space for himself in the only way he could do it with his hands tied behind his back.
“And he not only shook it off, but he broke free from the crowd and disappeared from my view. For a moment, no one could be seen at the window. He had turned around, pushing and shoving, making space for himself in the only way he could with his hands tied behind his back.
“Finally, backing to the opening, he pushed out to me between the bars his wrists, lashed with many turns of rope. His hands, very swollen, with knotted veins, looked enormous and unwieldy. I saw his bent back. It was very broad. His voice was like the muttering of a bull.
“Finally, leaning back to the opening, he pushed his wrists through the bars toward me, wrapped tightly with multiple turns of rope. His hands, extremely swollen with bulging veins, appeared huge and awkward. I noticed his hunched back. It was quite broad. His voice sounded like a bull’s low grumbling.”
“‘Cut, Senor teniente. Cut!’
“‘Cut, Lieutenant. Cut!’”
“I drew my sword, my new unblunted sword that had seen no service as yet, and severed the many turns of the hide rope. I did this without knowing the why and the wherefore of my action, but as it were compelled by my faith in that man. The sergeant made as if to cry out, but astonishment deprived him of his voice, and he remained standing with his mouth open as if overtaken by sudden imbecility.
“I drew my sword, my new, sharp sword that had never been used before, and sliced through the many twists of the hide rope. I did this without really understanding why, but I felt driven by my trust in that man. The sergeant seemed like he was going to shout, but shock left him speechless, and he just stood there with his mouth open, as if he had suddenly lost his wits.”
“I sheathed my sword and faced the soldiers. An air of awestruck expectation had replaced their usual listless apathy. I heard the voice of Gaspar Ruiz shouting inside, but the words I could not make out plainly. I suppose that to see him with his arms free augmented the influence of his strength: I mean by this, the spiritual influence that with ignorant people attaches to an exceptional degree of bodily vigour. In fact, he was no more to be feared than before, on account of the numbness of his arms and hands, which lasted for some time.
“I sheathed my sword and faced the soldiers. A sense of awe and expectation had replaced their usual indifferent attitude. I could hear Gaspar Ruiz shouting inside, but I couldn’t make out the words clearly. I suppose seeing him with his arms free boosted his presence: I mean the kind of spiritual influence that ignorant people tend to associate with someone who has exceptional physical strength. In reality, he was no more intimidating than before, because his arms and hands were still numb, and that lasted for quite a while.”
“The sergeant had recovered his power of speech. ‘By all the saints!’ he cried, ‘we shall have to get a cavalry man with a lasso to secure him again, if he is to be led to the place of execution. Nothing less than a good enlazador on a good horse can subdue him. Your worship was pleased to perform a very mad thing.’
“The sergeant had regained his ability to speak. ‘By all the saints!’ he exclaimed, ‘we’re going to need a cavalry man with a lasso to catch him again, if he’s going to be taken to the execution site. Nothing short of a skilled roper on a good horse can handle him. You, sir, did something really reckless.’”
“I had nothing to say. I was surprised myself, and I felt a childish curiosity to see what would happen next. But the sergeant was thinking of the difficulty of controlling Gaspar Ruiz when the time for making an example would come.
“I had nothing to say. I was surprised myself, and I felt a childlike curiosity about what would happen next. But the sergeant was focused on the challenge of managing Gaspar Ruiz when the time came to set an example.”
“‘Or perhaps,’ the sergeant pursued, vexedly, ‘we shall be obliged to shoot him down as he dashes out when the door is opened.’ He was going to give further vent to his anxieties as to the proper carrying out of the sentence; but he interrupted himself with a sudden exclamation, snatched a musket from a soldier, and stood watchful with his eyes fixed on the window.”
“‘Or maybe,’ the sergeant continued, irritated, ‘we’ll have to shoot him as he rushes out when the door opens.’ He was about to express more of his concerns about properly executing the sentence, but he cut himself off with a sudden shout, grabbed a musket from a soldier, and stood alert with his eyes locked on the window.”
IV
IV
“Gaspar Ruiz had clambered up on the sill, and sat down there with his feet against the thickness of the wall and his knees slightly bent. The window was not quite broad enough for the length of his legs. It appeared to my crestfallen perception that he meant to keep the window all to himself. He seemed to be taking up a comfortable position. Nobody inside dared to approach him now he could strike with his hands.
“Gaspar Ruiz had climbed up onto the windowsill and sat there with his feet against the thick wall and his knees slightly bent. The window wasn’t quite wide enough for the length of his legs. It looked to my disheartened view that he intended to claim the window for himself. He seemed to be settling into a comfortable position. Nobody inside dared to approach him now that he could strike with his hands.”
“‘Por Dios!’ I heard the sergeant muttering at my elbow, ‘I shall shoot him through the head now, and get rid of that trouble. He is a condemned man.’
“‘For God’s sake!’ I heard the sergeant muttering next to me, ‘I’m going to shoot him in the head now and be done with that problem. He’s a dead man anyway.’”
“At that I looked at him angrily. ‘The general has not confirmed the sentence,’ I said—though I knew well in my heart that these were but vain words. The sentence required no confirmation. ‘You have no right to shoot him unless he tries to escape,’ I added, firmly.
“At that, I shot him an angry look. ‘The general hasn’t confirmed the sentence,’ I said—even though I knew in my heart that those were just empty words. The sentence didn’t need confirmation. ‘You can’t shoot him unless he tries to escape,’ I added, firmly.”
“‘But sangre de Dios!’ the sergeant yelled out, bringing his musket up to the shoulder, ‘he is escaping now. Look!’
“‘But sangre de Dios!’ the sergeant shouted, raising his musket to his shoulder, ‘he's getting away now. Look!’”
“But I, as if that Gaspar Ruiz had cast a spell upon me, struck the musket upward, and the bullet flew over the roofs somewhere. The sergeant dashed his arm to the ground and stared. He might have commanded the soldiers to fire, but he did not. And if he had he would not have been obeyed, I think, just then.
“But I, as if that Gaspar Ruiz had put a spell on me, raised the musket, and the bullet soared over the rooftops somewhere. The sergeant slammed his arm down and stared. He could have ordered the soldiers to fire, but he didn’t. And even if he had, I don't think they would have obeyed at that moment.”
“With his feet against the thickness of the wall and his hairy hands grasping the iron bar, Gaspar sat still. It was an attitude. Nothing happened for a time. And suddenly it dawned upon us that he was straightening his bowed back and contracting his arms. His lips were twisted into a snarl. Next thing we perceived was that the bar of forged iron was being bent slowly by the mightiness of his pull. The sun was beating full upon his cramped, unquivering figure. A shower of sweat-drops burst out of his forehead. Watching the bar grow crooked, I saw a little blood ooze from under his finger-nails. Then he let go. For a moment he remained all huddled up, with a hanging head, looking drowsily into the upturned palms of his mighty hands. Indeed he seemed to have dozed off. Suddenly he flung himself backwards on the sill, and setting the soles of his bare feet against the other middle bar, he bent that one, too, but in the opposite direction from the first.
“With his feet pressed against the thick wall and his hairy hands gripping the iron bar, Gaspar sat still. It was a stance. Nothing happened for a while. Then, out of nowhere, we realized he was straightening his hunched back and pulling his arms in. His lips twisted into a snarl. The next thing we noticed was that the forged iron bar was slowly bending under the force of his pull. The sun was beating down on his tense, unmoving figure. A stream of sweat dripped from his forehead. As I watched the bar curve, I saw a little blood seep from under his fingernails. Then he released it. For a moment, he stayed all hunched over, head drooping, drowsily staring at the upturned palms of his powerful hands. He really seemed to doze off. Suddenly, he threw himself backward onto the sill, pressing the soles of his bare feet against the other middle bar, bending that one too, but in the opposite direction from the first.”
“Such was his strength, which in this case relieved my painful feelings. And the man seemed to have done nothing. Except for the change of position in order to use his feet, which made us all start by its swiftness, my recollection is that of immobility. But he had bent the bars wide apart. And now he could get out if he liked; but he dropped his legs inwards, and looking over his shoulder beckoned to the soldiers. ‘Hand up the water,’ he said. ‘I will give them all a drink.’
“His strength eased my painful feelings. The man appeared to have done nothing. Aside from the quick movement he made to use his feet, which surprised us all, my memory is one of stillness. But he had pulled the bars wide apart. Now he could escape if he wanted, but he dropped his legs inward and looked back, signaling to the soldiers. ‘Pass me the water,’ he said. ‘I’ll give them all a drink.’”
“He was obeyed. For a moment I expected man and bucket to disappear, overwhelmed by the rush of eagerness; I thought they would pull him down with their teeth. There was a rush, but holding the bucket on his lap he repulsed the assault of those wretches by the mere swinging of his feet. They flew backwards at every kick, yelling with pain; and the soldiers laughed, gazing at the window.
“He was obeyed. For a moment, I expected both the man and the bucket to vanish, completely overwhelmed by the surge of excitement; I thought they would drag him down with their teeth. There was a rush, but by holding the bucket on his lap, he pushed back against the attack from those wretches with just the swinging of his feet. They flew backward with every kick, screaming in pain; and the soldiers laughed, watching from the window."
“They all laughed, holding their sides, except the sergeant, who was gloomy and morose. He was afraid the prisoners would rise and break out—which would have been a bad example. But there was no fear of that, and I stood myself before the window with my drawn sword. When sufficiently tamed by the strength of Gaspar Ruiz they came up one by one, stretching their necks and presenting their lips to the edge of the bucket which the strong man tilted towards them from his knees with an extraordinary air of charity, gentleness, and compassion. That benevolent appearance was of course the effect of his care in not spilling the water and of his attitude as he sat on the sill; for, if a man lingered with his lips glued to the rim of the bucket after Gaspar Ruiz had said ‘You have had enough,’ there would be no tenderness or mercy in the shove of the foot which would send him groaning and doubled up far into the interior of the prison, where he would knock down two or three others before he fell himself. They came up to him again and again; it looked as if they meant to drink the well dry before going to their death; but the soldiers were so amused by Gaspar Ruiz’s systematic proceedings that they carried the water up to the window cheerfully.
They all laughed, holding their sides, except for the sergeant, who was downcast and gloomy. He feared the prisoners would rebel and escape—which would set a bad precedent. But there was no real threat of that, and I stood in front of the window with my drawn sword. Once sufficiently subdued by Gaspar Ruiz's strength, they approached one by one, stretching their necks and presenting their lips to the edge of the bucket, which the strong man tilted toward them from his knees with an extraordinary sense of charity, gentleness, and compassion. That kind appearance was simply due to his carefulness in not spilling the water and his posture sitting on the sill; because if a man lingered with his lips stuck to the rim of the bucket after Gaspar Ruiz had said, ‘You’ve had enough,’ there would be no kindness in the shove of the foot that would send him groaning and doubled over far into the depths of the prison, where he would knock over two or three others before he fell himself. They kept coming back to him again and again; it seemed like they wanted to drink the well dry before facing their fate; but the soldiers were so entertained by Gaspar Ruiz’s methodical actions that they happily carried the water up to the window.
“When the adjutant came out after his siesta there was some trouble over this affair, I can assure you. And the worst of it was that the general whom we expected never came to the castle that day.”
“When the assistant came out after his nap, there was some trouble over this situation, I can assure you. And the worst part was that the general we were expecting never came to the castle that day.”
The guests of General Santierra unanimously expressed their regret that the man of such strength and patience had not been saved.
The guests of General Santierra all expressed their sorrow that a man with such strength and patience hadn't been saved.
“He was not saved by my interference,” said the General. “The prisoners were led to execution half an hour before sunset. Gaspar Ruiz, contrary to the sergeant’s apprehensions, gave no trouble. There was no necessity to get a cavalry man with a lasso in order to subdue him, as if he were a wild bull of the campo. I believe he marched out with his arms free amongst the others who were bound. I did not see. I was not there. I had been put under arrest for interfering with the prisoner’s guard. About dusk, sitting dismally in my quarters, I heard three volleys fired, and thought that I should never hear of Gaspar Ruiz again. He fell with the others. But we were to hear of him nevertheless, though the sergeant boasted that as he lay on his face expiring or dead in the heap of the slain, he had slashed his neck with a sword. He had done this, he said, to make sure of ridding the world of a dangerous traitor.
"He wasn’t saved by my interference," said the General. "The prisoners were taken to their execution half an hour before sunset. Gaspar Ruiz, against the sergeant’s fears, didn’t cause any trouble. There was no need to call in a cavalryman with a lasso to control him, as if he were a wild bull from the plains. I believe he walked out with his arms free among the others who were tied up. I didn’t see it. I wasn’t there. I had been arrested for interfering with the prisoner’s escort. Around dusk, sitting gloomily in my quarters, I heard three gunshots and thought I would never hear about Gaspar Ruiz again. He fell with the others. But we were going to hear about him again, even though the sergeant bragged that as he lay face down, either dying or dead in the pile of bodies, he had cut his throat with a sword. He did this, he said, to make sure he eliminated a dangerous traitor."
“I confess to you, senores, that I thought of that strong man with a sort of gratitude, and with some admiration. He had used his strength honourably. There dwelt, then, in his soul no fierceness corresponding to the vigour of his body.”
“I confess to you, gentlemen, that I felt a kind of gratitude and some admiration for that strong man. He had used his strength honorably. Therefore, there was no fierceness in his soul that matched the power of his body.”
V
V
Gaspar Ruiz, who could with ease bend apart the heavy iron bars of the prison, was led out with others to summary execution. “Every bullet has its billet,” runs the proverb. All the merit of proverbs consists in the concise and picturesque expression. In the surprise of our minds is found their persuasiveness. In other words, we are struck and convinced by the shock.
Gaspar Ruiz, who could easily bend the heavy iron bars of the prison apart, was brought out with others for a quick execution. “Every bullet has its billet,” goes the saying. The value of proverbs lies in their succinct and vivid expression. Their persuasive power comes from the surprise they create in our minds. In other words, we are stunned and convinced by the impact.
What surprises us is the form, not the substance. Proverbs are art—cheap art. As a general rule they are not true; unless indeed they happen to be mere platitudes, as for instance the proverb, “Half a loaf is better than no bread,” or “A miss is as good as a mile.” Some proverbs are simply imbecile, others are immoral. That one evolved out of the naive heart of the great Russian people, “Man discharges the piece, but God carries the bullet,” is piously atrocious, and at bitter variance with the accepted conception of a compassionate God. It would indeed be an inconsistent occupation for the Guardian of the poor, the innocent, and the helpless, to carry the bullet, for instance, into the heart of a father.
What surprises us is the style, not the content. Proverbs are art—cheap art. Generally, they aren't true; unless they happen to be just clichés, like “Half a loaf is better than none,” or “A miss is as good as a mile.” Some proverbs are just foolish, while others are immoral. The one that came from the innocent heart of the great Russian people, “Man pulls the trigger, but God carries the bullet,” is disturbingly pious and stands in stark contrast to the widely accepted idea of a compassionate God. It would certainly be an inconsistent role for the Protector of the poor, the innocent, and the helpless, to carry the bullet, for example, into the heart of a father.
Gaspar Ruiz was childless, he had no wife, he had never been in love. He had hardly ever spoken to a woman, beyond his mother and the ancient negress of the household, whose wrinkled skin was the colour of cinders, and whose lean body was bent double from age. If some bullets from those muskets fired off at fifteen paces were specifically destined for the heart of Gaspar Ruiz, they all missed their billet. One, however, carried away a small piece of his ear, and another a fragment of flesh from his shoulder.
Gaspar Ruiz was childless, had no wife, and had never been in love. He had barely ever talked to a woman, apart from his mother and the elderly Black woman who worked in their home, whose wrinkled skin resembled ashes and whose thin body was hunched over from age. If any bullets from those muskets fired at fifteen paces were aimed specifically at Gaspar Ruiz's heart, they all missed their target. One, however, took off a small chunk of his ear, and another tore a piece of flesh from his shoulder.
A red and unclouded sun setting into a purple ocean looked with a fiery stare upon the enormous wall of the Cordilleras, worthy witnesses of his glorious extinction. But it is inconceivable that it should have seen the ant-like men busy with their absurd and insignificant trials of killing and dying for reasons that, apart from being generally childish, were also imperfectly understood. It did light up, however, the backs of the firing party and the faces of the condemned men. Some of them had fallen on their knees, others remained standing, a few averted their heads from the levelled barrels of muskets. Gaspar Ruiz, upright, the burliest of them all, hung his big shock head. The low sun dazzled him a little, and he counted himself a dead man already.
A red, clear sun setting into a purple ocean gazed intently at the massive wall of the Cordilleras, worthy witnesses to his glorious end. But it’s hard to believe it noticed the tiny men busy with their ridiculous and insignificant struggles of killing and dying for reasons that, while generally childish, were also only partially understood. However, it did illuminate the backs of the firing squad and the faces of the condemned men. Some had fallen to their knees, others stood, a few turned their heads away from the aimed muskets. Gaspar Ruiz, standing tall as the strongest of them all, hung his large, tousled head. The low sun dazzled him a bit, and he considered himself already a dead man.
He fell at the first discharge. He fell because he thought he was a dead man. He struck the ground heavily. The jar of the fall surprised him. “I am not dead apparently,” he thought to himself, when he heard the execution platoon reloading its arms at the word of command. It was then that the hope of escape dawned upon him for the first time. He remained lying stretched out with rigid limbs under the weight of two bodies collapsed crosswise upon his back.
He fell at the first shot. He fell because he believed he was a dead man. He hit the ground hard. The impact of the fall caught him off guard. “I’m not dead, apparently,” he thought to himself when he heard the firing squad reloading their weapons at the command. It was then that the hope of escape began to emerge for the first time. He stayed there, lying flat with stiff limbs under the weight of two bodies lying across his back.
By the time the soldiers had fired a third volley into the slightly stirring heaps of the slain, the sun had gone out of sight, and almost immediately with the darkening of the ocean dusk fell upon the coasts of the young Republic. Above the gloom of the lowlands the snowy peaks of the Cordilleras remained luminous and crimson for a long time. The soldiers before marching back to the fort sat down to smoke.
By the time the soldiers had fired a third round into the barely moving piles of the dead, the sun had disappeared, and almost immediately with the darkening of the sky, dusk settled over the shores of the young Republic. Above the darkness of the lowlands, the snowy peaks of the mountains glowed brilliantly and red for a long time. Before heading back to the fort, the soldiers took a seat to smoke.
The sergeant with a naked sword in his hand strolled away by himself along the heap of the dead. He was a humane man, and watched for any stir or twitch of limb in the merciful idea of plunging the point of his blade into any body giving the slightest sign of life. But none of the bodies afforded him an opportunity for the display of this charitable intention. Not a muscle twitched amongst them, not even the powerful muscles of Gaspar Ruiz, who, deluged with the blood of his neighbours and shamming death, strove to appear more lifeless than the others.
The sergeant, holding a bare sword, walked away by himself past the pile of dead bodies. He was a compassionate man and looked for any signs of movement in the hope of using his blade on anyone showing even the slightest hint of life. But none of the bodies gave him a chance to demonstrate this kind intention. Not a muscle moved among them, not even the strong muscles of Gaspar Ruiz, who, covered in the blood of his neighbors and pretending to be dead, worked hard to seem more lifeless than the rest.
He was lying face down. The sergeant recognized him by his stature, and being himself a very small man, looked with envy and contempt at the prostration of so much strength. He had always disliked that particular soldier. Moved by an obscure animosity, he inflicted a long gash across the neck of Gaspar Ruiz, with some vague notion of making sure of that strong man’s death, as if a powerful physique were more able to resist the bullets. For the sergeant had no doubt that Gaspar Ruiz had been shot through in many places. Then he passed on, and shortly afterwards marched off with his men, leaving the bodies to the care of crows and vultures.
He was lying face down. The sergeant recognized him by his build, and being a very small man himself, he looked at the fallen strength with envy and disdain. He had always disliked that particular soldier. Driven by a vague animosity, he sliced a long wound across Gaspar Ruiz's neck, with some unclear idea of ensuring that strong man’s death, as if a powerful body could withstand bullets better. The sergeant was certain that Gaspar Ruiz had been shot in several places. Then he moved on, and shortly after, marched away with his men, leaving the bodies to the care of crows and vultures.
Gaspar Ruiz had restrained a cry, though it had seemed to him that his head was cut off at a blow; and when darkness came, shaking off the dead, whose weight had oppressed him, he crawled away over the plain on his hands and knees. After drinking deeply, like a wounded beast, at a shallow stream, he assumed an upright posture, and staggered on light-headed and aimless, as if lost amongst the stars of the clear night. A small house seemed to rise out of the ground before him. He stumbled into the porch and struck at the door with his fist. There was not a gleam of light. Gaspar Ruiz might have thought that the inhabitants had fled from it, as from many others in the neighbourhood, had it not been for the shouts of abuse that answered his thumping. In his feverish and enfeebled state the angry screaming seemed to him part of a hallucination belonging to the weird, dreamlike feeling of his unexpected condemnation to death, of the thirst suffered, of the volleys fired at him within fifteen paces, of his head being cut off at a blow. “Open the door!” he cried. “Open in the name of God!”
Gaspar Ruiz held back a scream, even though it felt like his head had been chopped off in one strike; and when darkness fell, shaking off the dead weight that had pinned him down, he crawled across the plain on his hands and knees. After gulping water like a wounded animal from a shallow stream, he stood up and staggered on, dizzy and disoriented, as if he were lost among the stars in the clear night sky. A small house appeared to rise up from the ground in front of him. He stumbled onto the porch and pounded on the door with his fist. There wasn't a flicker of light. Gaspar Ruiz might have thought the people had fled, like in many other homes in the area, if it weren't for the angry shouts that responded to his banging. In his feverish and weakened state, the shouting felt to him like part of a hallucination, connected to the bizarre, dreamlike sensation of his sudden death sentence, the thirst he endured, the shots fired at him from just fifteen paces away, and the feeling of having his head chopped off in one blow. “Open the door!” he shouted. “Open in the name of God!”
An infuriated voice from within jeered at him: “Come in, come in. This house belongs to you. All this land belongs to you. Come and take it.”
An angry voice from inside taunted him: “Come in, come in. This house is yours. All this land is yours. Come and take it.”
“For the love of God,” Gaspar Ruiz murmured.
“For the love of God,” Gaspar Ruiz murmured.
“Does not all the land belong to you patriots?” the voice on the other side of the door screamed on. “Are you not a patriot?”
“Doesn't all the land belong to you patriots?” the voice on the other side of the door shouted. “Aren't you a patriot?”
Gaspar Ruiz did not know. “I am a wounded man,” he said, apathetically.
Gaspar Ruiz didn’t know. “I’m a hurt man,” he said, disinterested.
All became still inside. Gaspar Ruiz lost the hope of being admitted, and lay down under the porch just outside the door. He was utterly careless of what was going to happen to him. All his consciousness seemed to be concentrated in his neck, where he felt a severe pain. His indifference as to his fate was genuine. The day was breaking when he awoke from a feverish doze; the door at which he had knocked in the dark stood wide open now, and a girl, steadying herself with her outspread arms, leaned over the threshold. Lying on his back, he stared up at her. Her face was pale and her eyes were very dark; her hair hung down black as ebony against her white cheeks; her lips were full and red. Beyond her he saw another head with long grey hair, and a thin old face with a pair of anxiously clasped hands under the chin.
Everything inside went quiet. Gaspar Ruiz gave up hope of being let in and lay down under the porch just outside the door. He didn't care at all about what was going to happen to him. All his awareness seemed to focus on his neck, which was hurting badly. His indifference to his fate was real. As dawn broke, he woke up from a restless doze; the door he had knocked on in the dark was now wide open, and a girl, steadying herself with her outstretched arms, leaned over the threshold. As he lay on his back, he looked up at her. Her face was pale, and her eyes were very dark; her hair fell down black as ebony against her white cheeks, and her lips were full and red. Behind her, he saw another person with long gray hair and a thin, worried face, with hands clasped anxiously under the chin.
VI
VI
“I knew those people by sight,” General Santierra would tell his guests at the dining-table. “I mean the people with whom Gaspar Ruiz found shelter. The father was an old Spaniard, a man of property ruined by the revolution. His estates, his house in town, his money, everything he had in the world had been confiscated by proclamation, for he was a bitter foe of our independence. From a position of great dignity and influence on the Viceroy’s Council he became of less importance than his own negro slaves made free by our glorious revolution. He had not even the means to flee the country, as other Spaniards had managed to do. It may be that, wandering ruined and houseless, and burdened with nothing but his life, which was left to him by the clemency of the Provisional Government, he had simply walked under that broken roof of old tiles. It was a lonely spot. There did not seem to be even a dog belonging to the place. But though the roof had holes, as if a cannon-ball or two had dropped through it, the wooden shutters were thick and tight-closed all the time.
“I recognized those people,” General Santierra would say to his guests at the dinner table. “I’m talking about the people Gaspar Ruiz took shelter with. The father was an old Spaniard, a property owner who was ruined by the revolution. His lands, his house in town, his money—everything he had was taken away by decree because he was a staunch opponent of our independence. From a position of great dignity and influence on the Viceroy’s Council, he had become less significant than his own freed black slaves due to our glorious revolution. He didn’t even have the means to escape the country like other Spaniards had. It's possible that, wandering around destitute and without a home, burdened only by his life—left to him by the mercy of the Provisional Government—he simply walked under that shattered roof of old tiles. It was a desolate place. There didn’t seem to be even a dog around. But even though the roof had holes, as if a cannonball or two had fallen through it, the wooden shutters were thick and tightly closed all the time.”
“My way took me frequently along the path in front of that miserable rancho. I rode from the fort to the town almost every evening, to sigh at the window of a lady I was in love with, then. When one is young, you understand. . . . She was a good patriot, you may believe. Caballeros, credit me or not, political feeling ran so high in those days that I do not believe I could have been fascinated by the charms of a woman of Royalist opinions. . . .”
"My path often led me past that rundown ranch. I rode from the fort to town almost every evening, just to sigh at the window of a lady I was in love with back then. You know how it is when you're young... She was a good patriot, believe me. Gentlemen, whether you believe it or not, political feelings ran so deep in those days that I don't think I could have been enchanted by the charms of a woman with Royalist views..."
Murmurs of amused incredulity all round the table interrupted the General; and while they lasted he stroked his white beard gravely.
Murmurs of amused disbelief spread around the table, interrupting the General; and while they continued, he stroked his white beard seriously.
“Senores,” he protested, “a Royalist was a monster to our overwrought feelings. I am telling you this in order not to be suspected of the slightest tenderness towards that old Royalist’s daughter. Moreover, as you know, my affections were engaged elsewhere. But I could not help noticing her on rare occasions when with the front door open she stood in the porch.
“Gentlemen,” he protested, “a Royalist was a nightmare to our heightened emotions. I'm saying this so I'm not seen as having even a hint of affection for that old Royalist’s daughter. Besides, as you know, my heart was set on someone else. But I couldn't help but notice her on the rare occasions when she stood in the porch with the front door open.”
“You must know that this old Royalist was as crazy as a man can be. His political misfortunes, his total downfall and ruin, had disordered his mind. To show his contempt for what we patriots could do, he affected to laugh at his imprisonment, at the confiscation of his lands, the burning of his houses, and at the misery to which he and his womenfolk were reduced. This habit of laughing had grown upon him, so that he would begin to laugh and shout directly he caught sight of any stranger. That was the form of his madness.
“You should know that this old Royalist was as crazy as they come. His political failures, his complete downfall, and ruin had messed with his mind. To show his disdain for what we patriots could do, he pretended to laugh at his imprisonment, the seizure of his lands, the burning of his houses, and the misery he and his family were living through. This habit of laughing took hold of him, so that he would start laughing and shouting the moment he saw any stranger. That was his form of madness.”
“I, of course, disregarded the noise of that madman with that feeling of superiority the success of our cause inspired in us Americans. I suppose I really despised him because he was an old Castilian, a Spaniard born, and a Royalist. Those were certainly no reasons to scorn a man; but for centuries Spaniards born had shown their contempt of us Americans, men as well descended as themselves, simply because we were what they called colonists. We had been kept in abasement and made to feel our inferiority in social intercourse. And now it was our turn. It was safe for us patriots to display the same sentiments; and I being a young patriot, son of a patriot, despised that old Spaniard, and despising him I naturally disregarded his abuse, though it was annoying to my feelings. Others perhaps would not have been so forbearing.
“I just ignored the noise from that madman, feeling superior because of the success of our cause as Americans. I guess I really looked down on him because he was an old Castilian, a Spaniard by birth, and a Royalist. Those definitely weren’t good reasons to scorn someone, but for centuries, Spaniards had shown their contempt for us Americans, who were just as well-born as they were, simply because we were what they called colonists. We had been kept in a position of submission and made to feel inferior in social situations. And now it was our turn. It was safe for us patriots to show the same feelings; and as a young patriot, the son of a patriot, I looked down on that old Spaniard, and by despising him, I naturally ignored his insults, even though they were frustrating to me. Others might not have been so tolerant.”
“He would begin with a great yell—‘I see a patriot. Another of them!’ long before I came abreast of the house. The tone of his senseless revilings, mingled with bursts of laughter, was sometimes piercingly shrill and sometimes grave. It was all very mad; but I felt it incumbent upon my dignity to check my horse to a walk without even glancing towards the house, as if that man’s abusive clamour in the porch were less than the barking of a cur. Always I rode by preserving an expression of haughty indifference on my face.
“He would start with a big shout—‘I see a patriot. Another one of them!’ long before I was even close to the house. His meaningless insults, mixed with bursts of laughter, were sometimes sharply shrill and sometimes serious. It was all quite insane; but I felt it was important for my dignity to slow my horse to a walk without even looking at the house, as if that guy's loud ranting on the porch was less than the barking of a mutt. I always rode by with a look of haughty indifference on my face.
“It was no doubt very dignified; but I should have done better if I had kept my eyes open. A military man in war time should never consider himself off duty; and especially so if the war is a revolutionary war, when the enemy is not at the door, but within your very house. At such times the heat of passionate convictions passing into hatred, removes the restraints of honour and humanity from many men and of delicacy and fear from some women. These last, when once they throw off the timidity and reserve of their sex, become by the vivacity of their intelligence and the violence of their merciless resentment more dangerous than so many armed giants.”
“It was definitely very dignified; but I would have done better if I had kept my eyes open. A military person during wartime should never think they’re off duty; especially if it’s a revolutionary war, where the enemy isn’t just at the door but right inside your house. During such times, the intensity of strong beliefs turning into hatred removes the limits of honor and humanity from many men, and the delicacy and fear from some women. These women, once they shake off the timidity and reserve of their gender, become through their sharp intelligence and fierce resentment more dangerous than a bunch of armed giants.”
The General’s voice rose, but his big hand stroked his white beard twice with an effect of venerable calmness. “Si, Senores! Women are ready to rise to the heights of devotion unattainable by us men, or to sink into the depths of abasement which amazes our masculine prejudices. I am speaking now of exceptional women, you understand. . . .”
The General’s voice got louder, but he calmly stroked his white beard twice with a sense of calm authority. “Yes, gentlemen! Women are ready to reach levels of devotion that we men can’t even imagine, or to fall into depths of humiliation that shock our masculine biases. I'm talking about exceptional women, you get what I mean...”
Here one of the guests observed that he had never met a woman yet who was not capable of turning out quite exceptional under circumstances that would engage her feelings strongly. “That sort of superiority in recklessness they have over us,” he concluded, “makes of them the more interesting half of mankind.”
Here, one of the guests noted that he had never met a woman who wasn't capable of being quite extraordinary in situations that really stirred her emotions. “That kind of fearlessness they have compared to us,” he concluded, “makes them the more intriguing half of humanity.”
The General, who bore the interruption with gravity, nodded courteous assent. “Si. Si. Under circumstances. . . . Precisely. They can do an infinite deal of mischief sometimes in quite unexpected ways. For who could have imagined that a young girl, daughter of a ruined Royalist whose life was held only by the contempt of his enemies, would have had the power to bring death and devastation upon two flourishing provinces and cause serious anxiety to the leaders of the revolution in the very hour of its success!” He paused to let the wonder of it penetrate our minds.
The General, who took the interruption seriously, nodded politely. “Yes. Yes. Given the circumstances... Exactly. They can cause a lot of trouble in really unexpected ways. Who would have thought that a young girl, the daughter of a ruined Royalist whose life depended on the hatred of his enemies, could bring death and destruction to two thriving provinces and make the leaders of the revolution anxious at the very moment of their success!” He paused to let the shock of it sink in.
“Death and devastation,” somebody murmured in surprise: “how shocking!”
“Death and destruction,” someone whispered in shock: “that’s unbelievable!”
The old General gave a glance in the direction of the murmur and went on. “Yes. That is, war—calamity. But the means by which she obtained the power to work this havoc on our southern frontier seem to me, who have seen her and spoken to her, still more shocking. That particular thing left on my mind a dreadful amazement which the further experience of life, of more than fifty years, has done nothing to diminish.” He looked round as if to make sure of our attention, and, in a changed voice: “I am, as you know, a republican, son of a Liberator,” he declared. “My incomparable mother, God rest her soul, was a Frenchwoman, the daughter of an ardent republican. As a boy I fought for liberty; I’ve always believed in the equality of men; and as to their brotherhood, that, to my mind, is even more certain. Look at the fierce animosity they display in their differences. And what in the world do you know that is more bitterly fierce than brothers’ quarrels?”
The old General glanced toward the murmuring and continued. “Yes. That is, war—disaster. But the way she gained the power to cause this destruction on our southern border strikes me, having seen and spoken to her, as even more shocking. That specific incident left me with a terrible amazement that more than fifty years of life experience hasn’t lessened.” He looked around as if to ensure we were paying attention, and in a changed voice said, “I am, as you know, a republican, the son of a Liberator,” he declared. “My amazing mother, may she rest in peace, was a Frenchwoman, the daughter of a passionate republican. As a boy, I fought for freedom; I’ve always believed in the equality of all people; and as for their brotherhood, that seems to me even more certain. Look at the fierce hostility they show in their disagreements. And what do you know that is more bitterly intense than the quarrels between brothers?”
All absence of cynicism checked an inclination to smile at this view of human brotherhood. On the contrary, there was in the tone the melancholy natural to a man profoundly humane at heart who from duty, from conviction, and from necessity, had played his part in scenes of ruthless violence.
All lack of cynicism kept him from smiling at this view of human brotherhood. Instead, there was in his tone the sadness typical of a deeply compassionate person who, out of duty, belief, and necessity, had played his role in brutal acts of violence.
The General had seen much of fratricidal strife. “Certainly. There is no doubt of their brotherhood,” he insisted. “All men are brothers, and as such know almost too much of each other. But”—and here in the old patriarchal head, white as silver, the black eyes humorously twinkled—“if we are all brothers, all the women are not our sisters.”
The General had witnessed a lot of brotherly conflict. “Absolutely. There's no doubt about their brotherhood,” he insisted. “All men are brothers, and because of that, they know almost too much about each other. But”—and here, the old patriarch, with hair as white as silver, had black eyes that twinkled with humor—“if we’re all brothers, then not all the women are our sisters.”
One of the younger guests was heard murmuring his satisfaction at the fact. But the General continued, with deliberate earnestness: “They are so different! The tale of a king who took a beggar-maid for a partner of his throne may be pretty enough as we men look upon ourselves and upon love. But that a young girl, famous for her haughty beauty and, only a short time before, the admired of all at the balls in the Viceroy’s palace, should take by the hand a guasso, a common peasant, is intolerable to our sentiment of women and their love. It is madness. Nevertheless it happened. But it must be said that in her case it was the madness of hate—not of love.”
One of the younger guests was heard quietly expressing his approval of the situation. But the General continued, with serious intent: “They are so different! The story of a king who took a beggar girl as his queen might seem charming from our perspective on ourselves and love. But the idea that a young girl, known for her striking beauty and, not long ago, the center of attention at the Viceroy’s palace balls, would choose to take the hand of a common peasant is unacceptable to our views on women and their love. It's insane. Yet, it did happen. However, it must be noted that in her case, it was the madness of hate—not love.”
After presenting this excuse in a spirit of chivalrous justice, the General remained silent for a time. “I rode past the house every day almost,” he began again, “and this was what was going on within. But how it was going on no mind of man can conceive. Her desperation must have been extreme, and Gaspar Ruiz was a docile fellow. He had been an obedient soldier. His strength was like an enormous stone lying on the ground, ready to be hurled this way or that by the hand that picks it up.
After giving this excuse with a sense of noble fairness, the General stayed quiet for a bit. “I rode past the house almost every day,” he continued, “and this is what was happening inside. But no one can truly understand how it was happening. Her desperation must have been intense, and Gaspar Ruiz was an adaptable guy. He had been a loyal soldier. His strength was like a massive stone lying on the ground, ready to be thrown this way or that by the hand that lifts it.”
“It is clear that he would tell his story to the people who gave him the shelter he needed. And he needed assistance badly. His wound was not dangerous, but his life was forfeited. The old Royalist being wrapped up in his laughing madness, the two women arranged a hiding-place for the wounded man in one of the huts amongst the fruit trees at the back of the house. That hovel, an abundance of clear water while the fever was on him, and some words of pity were all they could give. I suppose he had a share of what food there was. And it would be but little: a handful of roasted corn, perhaps a dish of beans, or a piece of bread with a few figs. To such misery were those proud and once wealthy people reduced.”
“It’s clear that he would share his story with the people who provided him the shelter he desperately needed. And he really needed help. His wound wasn’t life-threatening, but his life was at stake. The old Royalist, caught up in his own madness, had the two women arrange a hiding spot for the injured man in one of the huts among the fruit trees in the back of the house. That hut, with plenty of fresh water while the fever took hold of him, and some sympathetic words, were all they could offer. I assume he got some of the food that was available. And it wouldn’t have been much: maybe a handful of roasted corn, a bowl of beans, or a piece of bread with a few figs. Such was the misery to which those proud and once wealthy people had been reduced.”
VII
VII
General Santierra was right in his surmise. Such was the exact nature of the assistance which Gaspar Ruiz, peasant son of peasants, received from the Royalist family whose daughter had opened the door of their miserable refuge to his extreme distress. Her sombre resolution ruled the madness of her father and the trembling bewilderment of her mother.
General Santierra was correct in his assumption. That was precisely the kind of help that Gaspar Ruiz, a peasant from a long line of peasants, got from the Royalist family whose daughter had welcomed him into their shabby shelter during his time of great trouble. Her serious determination controlled her father's madness and her mother's fearful confusion.
She had asked the strange man on the doorstep, “Who wounded you?”
She asked the strange man at the door, “Who hurt you?”
“The soldiers, senora,” Gaspar Ruiz had answered, in a faint voice.
“The soldiers, ma'am,” Gaspar Ruiz had replied, in a weak voice.
“Patriots?”
"Patriots?"
“Si.”
"Yes."
“What for?”
"What's the purpose?"
“Deserter,” he gasped, leaning against the wall under the scrutiny of her black eyes. “I was left for dead over there.”
“Deserter,” he gasped, leaning against the wall under the intensity of her black eyes. “I was left for dead over there.”
She led him through the house out to a small hut of clay and reeds, lost in the long grass of the overgrown orchard. He sank on a heap of maize straw in a corner, and sighed profoundly.
She took him through the house to a small hut made of clay and reeds, tucked away in the tall grass of the overgrown orchard. He sat down on a pile of maize straw in one corner and sighed deeply.
“No one will look for you here,” she said, looking down at him. “Nobody comes near us. We, too, have been left for dead—here.”
“No one will search for you here,” she said, looking down at him. “Nobody comes close to us. We've also been abandoned—here.”
He stirred uneasily on his heap of dirty straw, and the pain in his neck made him groan deliriously.
He shifted restlessly on his pile of dirty straw, and the pain in his neck made him groan in a daze.
“I shall show Estaban some day that I am alive yet,” he mumbled.
"I'll show Estaban someday that I'm still alive," he mumbled.
He accepted her assistance in silence, and the many days of pain went by. Her appearances in the hut brought him relief and became connected with the feverish dreams of angels which visited his couch; for Gaspar Ruiz was instructed in the mysteries of his religion, and had even been taught to read and write a little by the priest of his village. He waited for her with impatience, and saw her pass out of the dark hut and disappear in the brilliant sunshine with poignant regret. He discovered that, while he lay there feeling so very weak, he could, by closing his eyes, evoke her face with considerable distinctness. And this discovered faculty charmed the long, solitary hours of his convalescence. Later on, when he began to regain his strength, he would creep at dusk from his hut to the house and sit on the step of the garden door.
He accepted her help without a word, and the many days of pain went by. Her visits to the hut brought him comfort and became linked to the feverish dreams of angels that surrounded him; for Gaspar Ruiz was knowledgeable about the mysteries of his religion and had even been taught to read and write a bit by the priest of his village. He waited for her with eagerness and watched her exit the dark hut, disappearing into the bright sunshine with a deep sense of longing. He found that, while he lay there feeling so weak, he could picture her face quite clearly by simply closing his eyes. This newfound ability made the long, lonely hours of his recovery more enjoyable. Later on, as he started to regain his strength, he would sneak out at dusk from his hut to the house and sit on the step of the garden door.
In one of the rooms the mad father paced to and fro, muttering to himself with short, abrupt laughs. In the passage, sitting on a stool, the mother sighed and moaned. The daughter, in rough threadbare clothing, and her white haggard face half hidden by a coarse manta, stood leaning against the side of the door. Gaspar Ruiz, with his elbows propped on his knees and his head resting in his hands, talked to the two women in an undertone.
In one of the rooms, the crazy father paced back and forth, muttering to himself with short, abrupt laughs. In the hallway, the mother sat on a stool, sighing and moaning. The daughter, dressed in worn-out clothes, with her pale, haggard face partially hidden by a rough shawl, leaned against the side of the door. Gaspar Ruiz, with his elbows on his knees and his head in his hands, spoke quietly to the two women.
The common misery of destitution would have made a bitter mockery of a marked insistence on social differences. Gaspar Ruiz understood this in his simplicity. From his captivity amongst the Royalists he could give them news of people they knew. He described their appearance; and when he related the story of the battle in which he was recaptured the two women lamented the blow to their cause and the ruin of their secret hopes.
The shared suffering of poverty would have made a cruel joke out of a strong focus on social differences. Gaspar Ruiz got this in his straightforward way. From his time as a prisoner among the Royalists, he was able to share news about people they knew. He described what they looked like, and when he told the story of the battle where he was recaptured, the two women mourned the setback to their cause and the destruction of their secret hopes.
He had no feeling either way. But he felt a great devotion for that young girl. In his desire to appear worthy of her condescension, he boasted a little of his bodily strength. He had nothing else to boast of. Because of that quality his comrades treated him with as great a deference, he explained, as though he had been a sergeant, both in camp and in battle.
He felt indifferent overall. But he had a deep admiration for that young girl. Wanting to seem deserving of her attention, he bragged a bit about his physical strength. That was all he had to brag about. Because of that quality, his friends treated him with as much respect as if he were a sergeant, both in camp and in battle.
“I could always get as many as I wanted to follow me anywhere, senorita. I ought to have been made an officer, because I can read and write.”
"I could always get as many people as I wanted to follow me around, miss. I should have been made an officer because I can read and write."
Behind him the silent old lady fetched a moaning sigh from time to time; the distracted father muttered to himself, pacing the sala; and Gaspar Ruiz would raise his eyes now and then to look at the daughter of these people.
Behind him, the quiet old lady let out a soft, moaning sigh from time to time; the distracted father mumbled to himself while pacing the living room; and Gaspar Ruiz would occasionally lift his gaze to look at the daughter of these people.
He would look at her with curiosity because she was alive, and also with that feeling of familiarity and awe with which he had contemplated in churches the inanimate and powerful statues of the saints, whose protection is invoked in dangers and difficulties. His difficulty was very great.
He would look at her with curiosity because she was alive, and also with that sense of familiarity and awe he felt when he gazed at the powerful, inanimate statues of saints in churches, whose protection is called upon in times of danger and trouble. His struggle was intense.
He could not remain hiding in an orchard for ever and ever. He knew also very well that before he had gone half a day’s journey in any direction, he would be picked up by one of the cavalry patrols scouring the country, and brought into one or another of the camps where the patriot army destined for the liberation of Peru was collected. There he would in the end be recognized as Gaspar Ruiz—the deserter to the Royalists—and no doubt shot very effectually this time. There did not seem any place in the world for the innocent Gaspar Ruiz anywhere. And at this thought his simple soul surrendered itself to gloom and resentment as black as night.
He couldn’t keep hiding in an orchard forever. He also knew that before he had traveled half a day in any direction, he would be caught by one of the cavalry patrols searching the area and taken to one of the camps where the patriot army gathering to free Peru was stationed. There, he would eventually be recognized as Gaspar Ruiz—the deserter who joined the Royalists—and would likely be executed very efficiently this time. It felt like there was no place in the world for the innocent Gaspar Ruiz. This thought made his simple heart sink into a darkness filled with despair and bitterness.
They had made him a soldier forcibly. He did not mind being a soldier. And he had been a good soldier as he had been a good son, because of his docility and his strength. But now there was no use for either. They had taken him from his parents, and he could no longer be a soldier—not a good soldier at any rate. Nobody would listen to his explanations. What injustice it was! What injustice!
They had forced him into being a soldier. He didn’t mind the role. He had been a good soldier just like he had been a good son, thanks to his obedience and strength. But now, neither of those traits mattered. They had ripped him away from his parents, and he could no longer be a soldier—not a good one, anyway. No one would hear his side of the story. What an injustice it was! What an injustice!
And in a mournful murmur he would go over the story of his capture and recapture for the twentieth time. Then, raising his eyes to the silent girl in the doorway, “Si, senorita,” he would say with a deep sigh, “injustice has made this poor breath in my body quite worthless to me and to anybody else. And I do not care who robs me of it.”
And with a sad whisper, he would recount the tale of his capture and escape for the twentieth time. Then, lifting his gaze to the quiet girl in the doorway, “Yes, miss,” he would say with a heavy sigh, “injustice has made this poor breath in my body feel completely worthless to me and to anyone else. And I don’t care who takes it from me.”
One evening, as he exhaled thus the plaint of his wounded soul, she condescended to say that, if she were a man, she would consider no life worthless which held the possibility of revenge.
One evening, as he expressed the pain of his wounded soul, she casually mentioned that if she were a man, she wouldn't think any life was worthless if it had the chance for revenge.
She seemed to be speaking to herself. Her voice was low. He drank in the gentle, as if dreamy sound with a consciousness of peculiar delight of something warming his breast like a draught of generous wine.
She appeared to be talking to herself. Her voice was soft. He soaked in the calming, almost dreamlike sound, feeling a unique pleasure warming his heart like a glass of fine wine.
“True, Senorita,” he said, raising his face up to hers slowly: “there is Estaban, who must be shown that I am not dead after all.”
“That's true, Senorita,” he said, slowly lifting his face toward hers. “There’s Estaban, who needs to see that I’m not dead after all.”
The mutterings of the mad father had ceased long before; the sighing mother had withdrawn somewhere into one of the empty rooms. All was still within as well as without, in the moonlight bright as day on the wild orchard full of inky shadows. Gaspar Ruiz saw the dark eyes of Dona Erminia look down at him.
The mutterings of the crazy father had stopped long ago; the sighing mother had retreated into one of the empty rooms. Everything was quiet both inside and outside, with the moonlight shining as bright as day on the wild orchard filled with dark shadows. Gaspar Ruiz saw Dona Erminia's dark eyes looking down at him.
“Ah! The sergeant,” she muttered, disdainfully.
“Ugh! The sergeant,” she said, with contempt.
“Why! He has wounded me with his sword,” he protested, bewildered by the contempt that seemed to shine livid on her pale face.
“Why! He has hurt me with his sword,” he protested, confused by the contempt that seemed to glare on her pale face.
She crushed him with her glance. The power of her will to be understood was so strong that it kindled in him the intelligence of unexpressed things.
She overwhelmed him with her gaze. The intensity of her desire to be understood was so powerful that it sparked an awareness in him of things that had gone unsaid.
“What else did you expect me to do?” he cried, as if suddenly driven to despair. “Have I the power to do more? Am I a general with an army at my back?—miserable sinner that I am to be despised by you at last.”
“What else did you expect me to do?” he shouted, feeling completely hopeless. “Do I have the ability to do anything more? Am I a general with an army behind me?—what a pathetic sinner I am to be looked down upon by you in the end.”
VIII
VIII
“Senores,” related the General to his guests, “though my thoughts were of love then, and therefore enchanting, the sight of that house always affected me disagreeably, especially in the moonlight, when its close shutters and its air of lonely neglect appeared sinister. Still I went on using the bridle-path by the ravine, because it was a short cut. The mad Royalist howled and laughed at me every evening to his complete satisfaction; but after a time, as if wearied with my indifference, he ceased to appear in the porch. How they persuaded him to leave off I do not know. However, with Gaspar Ruiz in the house there would have been no difficulty in restraining him by force. It was now part of their policy in there to avoid anything which could provoke me. At least, so I suppose.
“Gentlemen,” the General told his guests, “even though I was thinking about love back then, which made it all feel magical, the sight of that house always upset me, especially in the moonlight, when its closed shutters and lonely, neglected vibe looked ominous. Still, I kept using the bridle-path by the ravine because it was a shortcut. The crazy Royalist howled and laughed at me every evening, seemingly delighted; but after a while, as if tired of my indifference, he stopped showing up on the porch. I have no idea how they convinced him to stop. However, with Gaspar Ruiz in the house, they could have easily restrained him by force. It was now part of their strategy there to avoid anything that might provoke me. At least, that’s what I think.”
“Notwithstanding my infatuation with the brightest pair of eyes in Chile, I noticed the absence of the old man after a week or so. A few more days passed. I began to think that perhaps these Royalists had gone away somewhere else. But one evening, as I was hastening towards the city, I saw again somebody in the porch. It was not the madman; it was the girl. She stood holding on to one of the wooden columns, tall and white-faced, her big eyes sunk deep with privation and sorrow. I looked hard at her, and she met my stare with a strange, inquisitive look. Then, as I turned my head after riding past, she seemed to gather courage for the act, and absolutely beckoned me back.
"Even though I was taken with the brightest pair of eyes in Chile, I noticed the old man's absence after a week or so. A few more days went by. I started to think maybe these Royalists had gone somewhere else. But one evening, as I hurried toward the city, I saw someone on the porch again. It wasn't the madman; it was the girl. She was holding on to one of the wooden columns, tall and pale, her big eyes deeply sunk with hardship and sorrow. I looked at her intently, and she returned my gaze with a strange, curious look. Then, as I turned my head after riding past, she seemed to find the courage to beckon me back."
“I obeyed, senores, almost without thinking, so great was my astonishment. It was greater still when I heard what she had to say. She began by thanking me for my forbearance of her father’s infirmity, so that I felt ashamed of myself. I had meant to show disdain, not forbearance! Every word must have burnt her lips, but she never departed from a gentle and melancholy dignity which filled me with respect against my will. Senores, we are no match for women. But I could hardly believe my ears when she began her tale. Providence, she concluded, seemed to have preserved the life of that wronged soldier, who now trusted to my honour as a caballero and to my compassion for his sufferings.
“I followed her instructions, gentlemen, almost without thinking, my astonishment overwhelming. It was even greater when I heard what she had to say. She began by thanking me for being patient with her father's frailty, which made me feel ashamed. I had meant to show disdain, not patience! Each word must have burned her lips, but she maintained a gentle and sorrowful dignity that forced me to respect her. Gentlemen, we are no match for women. But I could hardly believe my ears when she started her story. In the end, she said, it seemed like fate had spared the life of that wronged soldier, who now relied on my honor as a gentleman and my compassion for his suffering.
“‘Wronged man,’ I observed, coldly. ‘Well, I think so, too: and you have been harbouring an enemy of your cause.’
“‘Wronged man,’ I said, coldly. ‘Well, I agree: and you've been harboring an enemy of your cause.’”
“‘He was a poor Christian crying for help at our door in the name of God, senor,’ she answered, simply.
“‘He was a needy Christian begging for help at our door in God's name, sir,’ she replied, simply.
“I began to admire her. ‘Where is he now?’ I asked, stiffly.
“I started to admire her. 'Where is he now?' I asked, rigidly.”
“But she would not answer that question. With extreme cunning, and an almost fiendish delicacy, she managed to remind me of my failure in saving the lives of the prisoners in the guardroom, without wounding my pride. She knew, of course, the whole story. Gaspar Ruiz, she said, entreated me to procure for him a safe-conduct from General San Martin himself. He had an important communication to make to the commander-in-chief.
“But she wouldn’t answer that question. With remarkable cunning and an almost cruel delicacy, she found a way to remind me of my failure in saving the lives of the prisoners in the guardroom, without hurting my pride. She knew the whole story, of course. Gaspar Ruiz, she said, begged me to get him a safe-conduct from General San Martin himself. He had an important message to deliver to the commander-in-chief.”
“Por Dios, senores, she made me swallow all that, pretending to be only the mouthpiece of that poor man. Overcome by injustice, he expected to find, she said, as much generosity in me as had been shown to him by the Royalist family which had given him a refuge.
“Seriously, guys, she made me swallow all that, acting like she was just the mouthpiece for that poor guy. Overwhelmed by injustice, he thought he would find, she said, as much generosity in me as the Royalist family that had given him a place to stay had shown him.”
“Ha! It was well and nobly said to a youngster like me. I thought her great. Alas! she was only implacable.
“Ha! That was a great and noble thing to say to a kid like me. I thought she was amazing. Unfortunately, she was just unyielding.”
“In the end I rode away very enthusiastic about the business, without demanding even to see Gaspar Ruiz, who I was confident was in the house.
“In the end, I rode away very excited about the business, without even asking to see Gaspar Ruiz, who I was sure was in the house."
“But on calm reflection I began to see some difficulties which I had not confidence enough in myself to encounter. It was not easy to approach a commander-in-chief with such a story. I feared failure. At last I thought it better to lay the matter before my general-of-division, Robles, a friend of my family, who had appointed me his aide-de-camp lately.
“But after some careful thinking, I started to see challenges that I didn’t have enough confidence in myself to face. It wasn't easy to approach a commander-in-chief with that kind of story. I was afraid of failing. Eventually, I decided it would be better to discuss the matter with my division commander, Robles, a family friend who had recently appointed me as his aide-de-camp.”
“He took it out of my hands at once without any ceremony.
“He took it out of my hands right away without any fuss.
“‘In the house! of course he is in the house,’ he said contemptuously. ‘You ought to have gone sword in hand inside and demanded his surrender, instead of chatting with a Royalist girl in the porch. Those people should have been hunted out of that long ago. Who knows how many spies they have harboured right in the very midst of our camps? A safe-conduct from the Commander-in-Chief! The audacity of the fellow! Ha! ha! Now we shall catch him to-night, and then we shall find out, without any safe-conduct, what he has got to say, that is so very important. Ha! ha! ha!’
“‘In the house! Of course he’s in the house,’ he said with contempt. ‘You should have gone in with your sword drawn and demanded his surrender, instead of chatting with a Royalist girl on the porch. Those people should have been kicked out a long time ago. Who knows how many spies they’ve been hiding right in the middle of our camps? A safe-conduct from the Commander-in-Chief! The nerve of that guy! Ha! ha! Now we’ll catch him tonight, and then we’ll find out, without any safe-conduct, what he has to say that’s so important. Ha! ha! ha!’
“General Robles, peace to his soul, was a short, thick man, with round, staring eyes, fierce and jovial. Seeing my distress he added:
“General Robles, peace to his soul, was a short, stocky man, with round, wide-open eyes, both fierce and cheerful. Noticing my distress, he said:
“‘Come, come, chico. I promise you his life if he does not resist. And that is not likely. We are not going to break up a good soldier if it can be helped. I tell you what! I am curious to see your strong man. Nothing but a general will do for the picaro—well, he shall have a general to talk to. Ha! ha! I shall go myself to the catching, and you are coming with me, of course.’
“‘Come on, buddy. I promise you he’ll be fine if he doesn’t put up a fight. And that’s unlikely. We’re not going to ruin a good soldier if we can avoid it. I’ll tell you something! I’m eager to meet your tough guy. Only a general will do for the trickster—well, he’ll get a general to chat with. Ha! Ha! I’ll go myself to catch him, and you’re coming with me, of course.’”
“And it was done that same night. Early in the evening the house and the orchard were surrounded quietly. Later on the General and I left a ball we were attending in town and rode out at an easy gallop. At some little distance from the house we pulled up. A mounted orderly held our horses. A low whistle warned the men watching all along the ravine, and we walked up to the porch softly. The barricaded house in the moonlight seemed empty.
“And it was done that same night. Early in the evening, the house and the orchard were quietly surrounded. Later on, the General and I left a party we were attending in town and rode out at a leisurely pace. A short distance from the house, we stopped. A mounted orderly held our horses. A low whistle alerted the men watching along the ravine, and we made our way to the porch quietly. The barricaded house in the moonlight looked empty.
“The General knocked at the door. After a time a woman’s voice within asked who was there. My chief nudged me hard. I gasped.
“The General knocked on the door. After a moment, a woman's voice inside asked who it was. My boss nudged me hard. I gasped.”
“‘It is I, Lieutenant Santierra,’ I stammered out, as if choked. ‘Open the door.’
“‘It’s me, Lieutenant Santierra,’ I stammered, as if I was choking. ‘Open the door.’”
“It came open slowly. The girl, holding a thin taper in her hand, seeing another man with me, began to back away before us slowly, shading the light with her hand. Her impassive white face looked ghostly. I followed behind General Robles. Her eyes were fixed on mine. I made a gesture of helplessness behind my chief’s back, trying at the same time to give a reassuring expression to my face. None of us three uttered a sound.
“It opened slowly. The girl, holding a thin candle in her hand, saw another man with me and started to back away slowly, shielding the light with her hand. Her emotionless white face looked ghostly. I followed behind General Robles. Her eyes were locked on mine. I made a gesture of helplessness behind my chief’s back, while trying to look reassuring. None of us three said a word.
“We found ourselves in a room with bare floor and walls. There was a rough table and a couple of stools in it, nothing else whatever. An old woman with her grey hair hanging loose wrung her hands when we appeared. A peal of loud laughter resounded through the empty house, very amazing and weird. At this the old woman tried to get past us.
“We found ourselves in a room with bare floors and walls. There was a rough table and a couple of stools in it, and nothing else at all. An old woman with her gray hair hanging loose wrung her hands when we showed up. A loud peal of laughter echoed through the empty house, which was surprising and strange. At this, the old woman tried to get past us.”
“‘Nobody to leave the room,’ said General Robles to me.
“‘No one is allowed to leave the room,’ General Robles said to me.”
“I swung the door to, heard the latch click, and the laughter became faint in our ears.
“I closed the door, heard the latch click, and the laughter faded in our ears.
“Before another word could be spoken in that room I was amazed by hearing the sound of distant thunder.
“Before anyone could say anything else in that room, I was amazed to hear the sound of distant thunder.”
“I had carried in with me into the house a vivid impression of a beautiful clear moonlight night, without a speck of cloud in the sky. I could not believe my ears. Sent early abroad for my education, I was not familiar with the most dreaded natural phenomenon of my native land. I saw, with inexpressible astonishment, a look of terror in my chief’s eyes. Suddenly I felt giddy. The General staggered against me heavily; the girl seemed to reel in the middle of the room, the taper fell out of her hand and the light went out; a shrill cry of ‘Misericordia!’ from the old woman pierced my ears. In the pitchy darkness I heard the plaster off the walls falling on the floor. It is a mercy there was no ceiling. Holding on to the latch of the door, I heard the grinding of the roof-tiles cease above my head. The shock was over.
“I walked into the house with a vivid memory of a gorgeous, clear moonlit night, not a cloud in the sky. I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. Sent away for my education, I wasn’t used to the most terrifying natural event from my homeland. I saw, with shocking disbelief, a look of fear in my chief’s eyes. Suddenly, I felt dizzy. The General leaned heavily against me; the girl seemed to sway in the center of the room, the candle slipped from her hand and the light went out; a sharp cry of ‘Misericordia!’ from the old woman pierced my ears. In the complete darkness, I heard the plaster from the walls crashing to the floor. Thank goodness there was no ceiling. Holding onto the door latch, I noticed the sound of the roof tiles grinding to a halt above me. The shock was over.
“‘Out of the house! The door! Fly, Santierra, fly!’ howled the General. You know, senores, in our country the bravest are not ashamed of the fear an earthquake strikes into all the senses of man. One never gets used to it. Repeated experience only augments the mastery of that nameless terror.
“‘Get out of the house! To the door! Run, Santierra, run!’ shouted the General. You see, gentlemen, in our country, the bravest aren't afraid to admit the fear that an earthquake instills in every fiber of a person's being. You never get used to it. Going through it multiple times only increases the grip of that indescribable terror.”
“It was my first earthquake, and I was the calmest of them all. I understood that the crash outside was caused by the porch, with its wooden pillars and tiled roof projection, falling down. The next shock would destroy the house, maybe. That rumble as of thunder was approaching again. The General was rushing round the room, to find the door perhaps. He made a noise as though he were trying to climb the walls, and I heard him distinctly invoke the names of several saints. ‘Out, out, Santierra!’ he yelled.
“It was my first earthquake, and I was the calmest of everyone. I realized that the crash outside was from the porch, with its wooden pillars and tiled roof, collapsing. The next shock could take down the house, maybe. That rumble like thunder was coming again. The General was running around the room, probably looking for the door. He sounded like he was trying to climb the walls, and I clearly heard him calling out the names of several saints. ‘Get out, get out, Santierra!’ he shouted.”
“The girl’s voice was the only one I did not hear.
“The girl’s voice was the only one I didn’t hear.
“‘General,’ I cried, I cannot move the door. We must be locked in.’
“‘General,’ I shouted, ‘I can't open the door. We must be locked in.’”
“I did not recognize his voice in the shout of malediction and despair he let out. Senores, I know many men in my country, especially in the provinces most subject to earthquakes, who will neither eat, sleep, pray, nor even sit down to cards with closed doors. The danger is not in the loss of time, but in this—that the movement of the walls may prevent a door being opened at all. This was what had happened to us. We were trapped, and we had no help to expect from anybody. There is no man in my country who will go into a house when the earth trembles. There never was—except one: Gaspar Ruiz.
“I didn’t recognize his voice in the shout of curses and hopelessness he let out. Gentlemen, I know many men in my country, especially in the provinces most prone to earthquakes, who won’t eat, sleep, pray, or even sit down to play cards with closed doors. The danger isn’t in wasting time but in this—that the shifting walls might prevent any door from opening at all. That’s what happened to us. We were trapped, and we had no help to expect from anyone. There’s no man in my country who will enter a house when the earth shakes. There never was—except one: Gaspar Ruiz.
“He had come out of whatever hole he had been hiding in outside, and had clambered over the timbers of the destroyed porch. Above the awful subterranean groan of coming destruction I heard a mighty voice shouting the word ‘Erminia!’ with the lungs of a giant. An earthquake is a great leveller of distinctions. I collected all my resolution against the terror of the scene. ‘She is here,’ I shouted back. A roar as of a furious wild beast answered me—while my head swam, my heart sank, and the sweat of anguish streamed like rain off my brow.
“He had emerged from wherever he had been hiding outside and climbed over the wreckage of the destroyed porch. Above the terrible underground rumble of impending destruction, I heard a powerful voice yelling the name ‘Erminia!’ with the force of a giant. An earthquake truly levels all distinctions. I gathered all my courage against the horror of the scene. ‘She is here,’ I shouted back. A roar like that of an angry wild animal responded to me—while my head spun, my heart plummeted, and the sweat of distress poured off my forehead like rain.”
“He had the strength to pick up one of the heavy posts of the porch. Holding it under his armpit like a lance, but with both hands, he charged madly the rocking house with the force of a battering-ram, bursting open the door and rushing in, headlong, over our prostrate bodies. I and the General picking ourselves up, bolted out together, without looking round once till we got across the road. Then, clinging to each other, we beheld the house change suddenly into a heap of formless rubbish behind the back of a man, who staggered towards us bearing the form of a woman clasped in his arms. Her long black hair hung nearly to his feet. He laid her down reverently on the heaving earth, and the moonlight shone on her closed eyes.
He had the strength to pick up one of the heavy posts from the porch. Holding it under his arm like a lance, but with both hands, he charged wildly at the swaying house with the force of a battering ram, smashing open the door and rushing in, headfirst, over our fallen bodies. The General and I picked ourselves up and bolted out together, not looking back until we reached the other side of the road. Then, clinging to each other, we watched as the house suddenly collapsed into a pile of debris behind a man who was staggering toward us, cradling the form of a woman in his arms. Her long black hair nearly touched the ground. He laid her down gently on the trembling earth, and the moonlight illuminated her closed eyes.
“Senores, we mounted with difficulty. Our horses getting up plunged madly, held by the soldiers who had come running from all sides. Nobody thought of catching Gaspar Ruiz then. The eyes of men and animals shone with wild fear. My general approached Gaspar Ruiz, who stood motionless as a statue above the girl. He let himself be shaken by the shoulder without detaching his eyes from her face.
“Gentlemen, we struggled to get on our horses. They jumped up wildly, held back by soldiers rushing in from all directions. No one thought about capturing Gaspar Ruiz at that moment. The eyes of both men and animals were filled with frantic fear. My general walked over to Gaspar Ruiz, who stood frozen like a statue above the girl. He allowed himself to be shaken by the shoulder without taking his eyes off her face.
“‘Que guape!’ shouted the General in his ear. ‘You are the bravest man living. You have saved my life. I am General Robles. Come to my quarters to-morrow if God gives us the grace to see another day.’
“‘How brave!’ shouted the General in his ear. ‘You are the bravest man alive. You have saved my life. I am General Robles. Come to my quarters tomorrow if God grants us the grace to see another day.’”
“He never stirred—as if deaf, without feeling, insensible.
“He never moved—like he was deaf, unresponsive, and numb."
“We rode away for the town, full of our relations, of our friends, of whose fate we hardly dared to think. The soldiers ran by the side of our horses. Everything was forgotten in the immensity of the catastrophe overtaking a whole country.”
“We rode away toward the town, surrounded by our family and friends, their fate too frightening to consider. The soldiers ran alongside our horses. Everything faded away in the overwhelming disaster swallowing an entire nation.”
. . . . . . .
. . . . . . .
Gaspar Ruiz saw the girl open her eyes. The raising of her eyelids seemed to recall him from a trance. They were alone; the cries of terror and distress from homeless people filled the plains of the coast remote and immense, coming like a whisper into their loneliness.
Gaspar Ruiz saw the girl open her eyes. The lifting of her eyelids seemed to pull him out of a trance. They were alone; the cries of fear and suffering from homeless people filled the vast, desolate plains of the coast, reaching them like a faint whisper in their solitude.
She rose swiftly to her feet, darting fearful glances on all sides. “What is it?” she cried out low, and peering into his face. “Where am I?”
She quickly got up, casting worried looks around her. “What’s going on?” she whispered, trying to see his expression. “Where am I?”
He bowed his head sadly, without a word.
He lowered his head sadly, without saying a word.
“. . . Who are you?”
“. . . Who are you?”
He knelt down slowly before her, and touched the hem of her coarse black baize skirt. “Your slave,” he said.
He slowly knelt down in front of her and touched the edge of her rough black skirt. “Your servant,” he said.
She caught sight then of the heap of rubbish that had been the house, all misty in the cloud of dust. “Ah!” she cried, pressing her hand to her forehead.
She saw the pile of debris that used to be the house, all hazy in the dust cloud. “Oh!” she exclaimed, putting her hand to her forehead.
“I carried you out from there,” he whispered at her feet.
“I carried you out from there,” he whispered at her feet.
“And they?” she asked in a great sob.
“And they?” she asked through a deep sob.
He rose, and taking her by the arms, led her gently towards the shapeless ruin half overwhelmed by a landslide. “Come and listen,” he said.
He stood up, and taking her by the arms, guided her gently toward the formless wreckage partially buried by a landslide. “Come and listen,” he said.
The serene moon saw them clambering over that heap of stones, joists and tiles, which was a grave. They pressed their ears to the interstices, listening for the sound of a groan, for a sigh of pain.
The calm moon watched them scramble over the pile of stones, beams, and tiles that formed a grave. They leaned in close to the gaps, straining to hear a groan or a sigh of pain.
At last he said, “They died swiftly. You are alone.”
At last he said, “They died quickly. You are alone.”
She sat down on a piece of broken timber and put one arm across her face. He waited—then approaching his lips to her ear: “Let us go,” he whispered.
She sat down on a broken piece of wood and put one arm across her face. He waited—then leaned in close to her ear: “Let’s go,” he whispered.
“Never—never from here,” she cried out, flinging her arms above her head.
“Never—never from here,” she shouted, throwing her arms up above her head.
He stooped over her, and her raised arms fell upon his shoulders. He lifted her up, steadied himself and began to walk, looking straight before him.
He leaned down towards her, and her raised arms rested on his shoulders. He picked her up, steadied himself, and started to walk, keeping his eyes fixed straight ahead.
“What are you doing?” she asked, feebly.
“What are you doing?” she asked weakly.
“I am escaping from my enemies,” he said, never once glancing at his light burden.
“I’m running away from my enemies,” he said, not once looking at his light load.
“With me?” she sighed, helplessly.
"With me?" she sighed, defeated.
“Never without you,” he said. “You are my strength.”
“Never without you,” he said. “You are my strength.”
He pressed her close to him. His face was grave and his footsteps steady. The conflagrations bursting out in the ruins of destroyed villages dotted the plain with red fires; and the sounds of distant lamentations, the cries of Misericordia! Misericordia! made a desolate murmur in his ears. He walked on, solemn and collected, as if carrying something holy, fragile, and precious.
He pulled her close to him. His expression was serious and his steps firm. The fires blazing in the wreckage of ruined villages scattered red lights across the plain, and the distant sounds of mourning, the cries of Mercy! Mercy! created a sorrowful echo in his ears. He moved forward, serious and composed, as if he was carrying something sacred, delicate, and valuable.
The earth rocked at times under his feet.
The ground occasionally shook beneath his feet.
IX
IX
With movements of mechanical care and an air of abstraction old General Santierra lighted a long and thick cigar.
With careful movements and a sense of detachment, old General Santierra lit a long, thick cigar.
“It was a good many hours before we could send a party back to the ravine,” he said to his guests. “We had found one-third of the town laid low, the rest shaken up; and the inhabitants, rich and poor, reduced to the same state of distraction by the universal disaster. The affected cheerfulness of some contrasted with the despair of others. In the general confusion a number of reckless thieves, without fear of God or man, became a danger to those who from the downfall of their homes had managed to save some valuables. Crying ‘Misericordia’ louder than any at every tremor, and beating their breast with one hand, these scoundrels robbed the poor victims with the other, not even stopping short of murder.
“It took us several hours to send a team back to the ravine,” he told his guests. “We discovered that a third of the town was devastated, while the rest was shaken up; the residents, both rich and poor, were equally lost in confusion because of the widespread disaster. The false cheerfulness of some stood in stark contrast to the despair of others. Amid the chaos, a number of brazen thieves, with no fear of God or man, posed a threat to those who had managed to salvage some valuables from their destroyed homes. Shouting ‘Misericordia’ louder than anyone during each tremor, and beating their chests with one hand, these scoundrels robbed the unfortunate victims with the other, not even stopping short of murder.
“General Robles’ division was occupied entirely in guarding the destroyed quarters of the town from the depredations of these inhuman monsters. Taken up with my duties of orderly officer, it was only in the morning that I could assure myself of the safety of my own family. My mother and my sisters had escaped with their lives from that ballroom, where I had left them early in the evening. I remember those two beautiful young women—God rest their souls—as if I saw them this moment, in the garden of our destroyed house, pale but active, assisting some of our poor neighbours, in their soiled ball-dresses and with the dust of fallen walls on their hair. As to my mother, she had a stoical soul in her frail body. Half-covered by a costly shawl, she was lying on a rustic seat by the side of an ornamental basin whose fountain had ceased to play for ever on that night.
“General Robles’ division was completely focused on protecting the ruined parts of the town from the attacks of these inhumane monsters. Since I was busy with my duties as an orderly officer, it wasn’t until morning that I could check on the safety of my own family. My mother and sisters had survived the ballroom where I had left them earlier in the evening. I can still vividly remember those two beautiful young women—God rest their souls—as if I were seeing them right now, in the garden of our destroyed home, pale but active, helping some of our poor neighbors, still in their soiled ball gowns with dust from the fallen walls in their hair. My mother, with her strong spirit housed in a fragile body, was half-covered by an expensive shawl, lying on a rustic seat next to an ornamental basin whose fountain had stopped flowing forever that night.”
“I had hardly had time to embrace them all with transports of joy when my chief, coming along, dispatched me to the ravine with a few soldiers, to bring in my strong man, as he called him, and that pale girl.
“I barely had a moment to hug them all out of sheer happiness when my boss came over and sent me to the ravine with a few soldiers to bring in my strong guy, as he called him, and that pale girl.”
“But there was no one for us to bring in. A landslide had covered the ruins of the house; and it was like a large mound of earth with only the ends of some timbers visible here and there—nothing more.
“But there was no one for us to bring in. A landslide had covered the ruins of the house; and it looked like a large mound of dirt with just the ends of some beams visible here and there—nothing more.
“Thus were the tribulations of the old Royalist couple ended. An enormous and unconsecrated grave had swallowed them up alive, in their unhappy obstinacy against the will of a people to be free. And their daughter was gone.
“Thus were the struggles of the elderly Royalist couple over. A huge and unmarked grave had taken them in, alive, due to their stubborn refusal to accept the people's desire for freedom. And their daughter was gone.”
“That Gaspar Ruiz had carried her off I understood very well. But as the case was not foreseen, I had no instructions to pursue them. And certainly I had no desire to do so. I had grown mistrustful of my interference. It had never been successful, and had not even appeared creditable. He was gone. Well, let him go. And he had carried off the Royalist girl! Nothing better. Vaya con Dios. This was not the time to bother about a deserter who, justly or unjustly, ought to have been dead, and a girl for whom it would have been better to have never been born.
“I completely understood that Gaspar Ruiz had taken her away. But since this situation wasn't expected, I had no orders to go after them. And honestly, I didn't want to. I had become doubtful of my meddling. It had never been effective and didn’t even seem respectable. He was gone. Fine, let him go. And he had taken the Royalist girl! Nothing better. Good riddance. This wasn’t the time to worry about a deserter who, rightfully or wrongfully, should have been dead, and a girl who would have been better off never being born.”
“So I marched my men back to the town.
“So I marched my men back to the town.
“After a few days, order having been re-established, all the principal families, including my own, left for Santiago. We had a fine house there. At the same time the division of Robles was moved to new cantonments near the capital. This change suited very well the state of my domestic and amorous feelings.
“After a few days, order was restored, and all the main families, including mine, headed to Santiago. We had a nice house there. At the same time, Robles' division was relocated to new camps near the capital. This shift worked perfectly for my personal and romantic feelings.”
“One night, rather late, I was called to my chief. I found General Robles in his quarters, at ease, with his uniform off, drinking neat brandy out of a tumbler—as a precaution, he used to say, against the sleeplessness induced by the bites of mosquitoes. He was a good soldier, and he taught me the art and practice of war. No doubt God has been merciful to his soul; for his motives were never other than patriotic, if his character was irascible. As to the use of mosquito nets, he considered it effeminate, shameful—unworthy of a soldier. I noticed at the first glance that his face, already very red, wore an expression of high good-humour.
“One night, pretty late, I was summoned to see my boss. I found General Robles in his room, relaxed, with his uniform off, sipping straight brandy from a glass—he used to say it was a precaution against the sleeplessness caused by mosquito bites. He was a good soldier and taught me the skills and strategies of war. Without a doubt, God has been kind to his soul because his intentions were always patriotic, even if his temper was short. As for using mosquito nets, he saw it as weak and shameful—beneath a soldier. I noticed right away that his already red face had a look of cheerful good humor.
“‘Aha! Senor teniente,’ he cried, loudly, as I saluted at the door. ‘Behold! Your strong man has turned up again.’
“‘Aha! Lieutenant,’ he shouted, as I greeted him at the door. ‘Look! Your strong man has shown up again.’”
“He extended to me a folded letter, which I saw was superscribed ‘To the Commander-in-Chief of the Republican Armies.’
“He handed me a folded letter, which I could see was addressed ‘To the Commander-in-Chief of the Republican Armies.’
“‘This,’ General Robles went on in his loud voice, ‘was thrust by a boy into the hand of a sentry at the Quartel General, while the fellow stood there thinking of his girl, no doubt—for before he could gather his wits together the boy had disappeared amongst the market people, and he protests he could not recognize him to save his life.’
“‘This,’ General Robles continued in his loud voice, ‘was handed over by a boy to a guard at the Quartel General, while the guy stood there probably thinking about his girlfriend—because before he could collect his thoughts, the boy vanished into the crowd, and he insists he couldn’t identify him to save his life.’”
“‘My chief told me further that the soldier had given the letter to the sergeant of the guard, and that ultimately it had reached the hands of our generalissimo. His Excellency had deigned to take cognizance of it with his own eyes. After that he had referred the matter in confidence to General Robles.
“‘My boss told me that the soldier gave the letter to the sergeant of the guard, and it eventually made its way to our general. His Excellency took the time to look at it himself. After that, he discreetly passed the matter on to General Robles.
“The letter, senores, I cannot now recollect textually. I saw the signature of Gaspar Ruiz. He was an audacious fellow. He had snatched a soul for himself out of a cataclysm, remember. And now it was that soul which had dictated the terms of his letter. Its tone was very independent. I remember it struck me at the time as noble—dignified. It was, no doubt, her letter. Now I shudder at the depth of its duplicity. Gaspar Ruiz was made to complain of the injustice of which he had been a victim. He invoked his previous record of fidelity and courage. Having been saved from death by the miraculous interposition of Providence, he could think of nothing but of retrieving his character. This, he wrote, he could not hope to do in the ranks as a discredited soldier still under suspicion. He had the means to give a striking proof of his fidelity. He had ended by proposing to the General-in-Chief a meeting at midnight in the middle of the Plaza before the Moneta. The signal would be to strike fire with flint and steel three times, which was not too conspicuous and yet distinctive enough for recognition.
"The letter, gentlemen, I can’t remember word for word right now. I saw Gaspar Ruiz’s signature. He was a bold guy. He had pulled a soul out of disaster, remember. And now that soul was what dictated the terms of his letter. Its tone was very independent. At the time, I thought it was noble—dignified. Now I shudder at the depth of its deceit. Gaspar Ruiz was made to complain about the injustice he had suffered. He called upon his past record of loyalty and bravery. After being saved from death by the miraculous intervention of fate, he could think of nothing but restoring his reputation. He wrote that he couldn’t hope to do that as a discredited soldier still under suspicion. He had the means to provide a clear proof of his loyalty. He eventually proposed a meeting with the General-in-Chief at midnight in the middle of the Plaza before the Moneta. The signal would be to strike fire with flint and steel three times, which wouldn’t be too obvious yet distinctive enough for recognition."
“San Martin, the great Liberator, loved men of audacity and courage. Besides, he was just and compassionate. I told him as much of the man’s story as I knew, and was ordered to accompany him on the appointed night. The signals were duly exchanged. It was midnight, and the whole town was dark and silent. Their two cloaked figures came together in the centre of the vast Plaza, and, keeping discreetly at a distance, I listened for an hour or more to the murmur of their voices. Then the General motioned me to approach; and as I did so I heard San Martin, who was courteous to gentle and simple alike, offer Gaspar Ruiz the hospitality of the headquarters for the night. But the soldier refused, saying that he would be not worthy of that honour till he had done something.
“San Martin, the great Liberator, admired people who were bold and brave. He was also fair and kind. I shared with him everything I knew about the man’s story, and he asked me to join him that night. The signals were exchanged as planned. It was midnight, and the entire town was dark and quiet. Their two cloaked figures met in the center of the large Plaza, and while keeping a respectful distance, I listened for over an hour to the soft sound of their conversation. Then the General signaled me to come closer; as I approached, I heard San Martin, who treated everyone with respect, invite Gaspar Ruiz to stay at headquarters for the night. But the soldier declined, saying he wouldn't deserve that honor until he had achieved something.”
“‘You cannot have a common deserter for your guest, Excellency,’ he protested with a low laugh, and stepping backwards merged slowly into the night.
“'You can't have a common deserter as your guest, Excellency,' he protested with a quiet laugh, then stepped back and slowly faded into the night.”
“The Commander-in-Chief observed to me, as we turned away: ‘He had somebody with him, our friend Ruiz. I saw two figures for a moment. It was an unobtrusive companion.’
“The Commander-in-Chief said to me as we walked away, ‘He had someone with him, our friend Ruiz. I saw two figures for a moment. It was a discreet companion.’”
“I, too, had observed another figure join the vanishing form of Gaspar Ruiz. It had the appearance of a short fellow in a poncho and a big hat. And I wondered stupidly who it could be he had dared take into his confidence. I might have guessed it could be no one but that fatal girl—alas!
“I also noticed another person join the disappearing figure of Gaspar Ruiz. They looked like a short guy in a poncho and a large hat. I stupidly wondered who he could have trusted. I should have guessed it was only that doomed girl—unfortunately!”
“Where he kept her concealed I do not know. He had—it was known afterwards—an uncle, his mother’s brother, a small shopkeeper in Santiago. Perhaps it was there that she found a roof and food. Whatever she found, it was poor enough to exasperate her pride and keep up her anger and hate. It is certain she did not accompany him on the feat he undertook to accomplish first of all. It was nothing less than the destruction of a store of war material collected secretly by the Spanish authorities in the south, in a town called Linares. Gaspar Ruiz was entrusted with a small party only, but they proved themselves worthy of San Martin’s confidence. The season was not propitious. They had to swim swollen rivers. They seemed, however, to have galloped night and day out-riding the news of their foray, and holding straight for the town, a hundred miles into the enemy’s country, till at break of day they rode into it sword in hand, surprising the little garrison. It fled without making a stand, leaving most of its officers in Gaspar Ruiz’ hands.
“Where he kept her hidden, I do not know. He had—this was later discovered—an uncle, his mother’s brother, who was a small shopkeeper in Santiago. Maybe it was there that she found shelter and food. Whatever it was, it was meager enough to upset her pride and fuel her anger and hate. It’s certain she didn’t go with him on the dangerous mission he was first set to accomplish. It was nothing less than the destruction of a stash of war supplies secretly gathered by the Spanish authorities in the south, in a town called Linares. Gaspar Ruiz was given a small team, but they proved themselves worthy of San Martin’s trust. The season wasn’t favorable. They had to swim through swollen rivers. However, they seemed to have galloped day and night, outpacing the news of their raid, heading straight for the town, a hundred miles into enemy territory, until at dawn they charged in, swords drawn, surprising the small garrison. It fled without putting up a fight, leaving most of its officers in Gaspar Ruiz’s hands.”
“A great explosion of gunpowder ended the conflagration of the magazines the raiders had set on fire without loss of time. In less than six hours they were riding away at the same mad speed, without the loss of a single man. Good as they were, such an exploit is not performed without a still better leadership.
“A massive explosion of gunpowder ended the fire in the warehouses that the raiders had ignited right away. In less than six hours, they were galloping away at the same wild speed, without losing a single man. As skilled as they were, such a feat doesn’t happen without even better leadership.”
“I was dining at the headquarters when Gaspar Ruiz himself brought the news of his success. And it was a great blow to the Royalist troops. For a proof he displayed to us the garrison’s flag. He took it from under his poncho and flung it on the table. The man was transfigured; there was something exulting and menacing in the expression of his face. He stood behind General San Martin’s chair and looked proudly at us all. He had a round blue cap edged with silver braid on his head, and we all could see a large white scar on the nape of his sunburnt neck.
“I was eating at the headquarters when Gaspar Ruiz himself brought the news of his success. It was a significant blow to the Royalist troops. As proof, he showed us the garrison’s flag. He pulled it out from under his poncho and tossed it onto the table. The man was transformed; there was something both triumphant and threatening in the expression on his face. He stood behind General San Martin’s chair and looked proudly at all of us. He wore a round blue cap trimmed with silver braid, and we could all see a large white scar on the back of his sunburned neck.
“Somebody asked him what he had done with the captured Spanish officers.
“Someone asked him what he had done with the captured Spanish officers.
“He shrugged his shoulders scornfully. ‘What a question to ask! In a partisan war you do not burden yourself with prisoners. I let them go—and here are their sword-knots.’
“He shrugged his shoulders dismissively. ‘What a ridiculous question! In a partisan war, you don’t take on the burden of prisoners. I let them go—and here are their sword knots.’”
“He flung a bunch of them on the table upon the flag. Then General Robles, whom I was attending there, spoke up in his loud, thick voice: ‘You did! Then, my brave friend, you do not know yet how a war like ours ought to be conducted. You should have done—this.’ And he passed the edge of his hand across his own throat.
“He threw a bunch of them on the table over the flag. Then General Robles, whom I was there to assist, spoke up in his loud, thick voice: ‘You did! Then, my brave friend, you still don’t understand how a war like ours should be fought. You should have done—this.’ And he gestured across his own throat with the edge of his hand.”
“Alas, senores! It was only too true that on both sides this contest, in its nature so heroic, was stained by ferocity. The murmurs that arose at General Robles’ words were by no means unanimous in tone. But the generous and brave San Martin praised the humane action, and pointed out to Ruiz a place on his right hand. Then rising with a full glass he proposed a toast: ‘Caballeros and comrades-in-arms, let us drink the health of Captain Gaspar Ruiz.’ And when we had emptied our glasses: ‘I intend,’ the Commander-in-Chief continued, ‘to entrust him with the guardianship of our southern frontier, while we go afar to liberate our brethren in Peru. He whom the enemy could not stop from striking a blow at his very heart will know how to protect the peaceful populations we leave behind us to pursue our sacred task.’ And he embraced the silent Gaspar Ruiz by his side.
“Sadly, gentlemen! It was unfortunately true that on both sides this battle, which was meant to be so heroic, was tainted by violence. The reactions to General Robles’ words were anything but harmonious. However, the noble and courageous San Martin praised the compassionate action and pointed out a spot to Ruiz on his right. Then, standing up with a full glass, he proposed a toast: ‘Gentlemen and comrades-in-arms, let’s raise a glass to Captain Gaspar Ruiz.’ And after we had finished our drinks, the Commander-in-Chief continued, ‘I plan to give him the duty of guarding our southern border while we go far away to free our brothers in Peru. He, whom the enemy couldn’t prevent from striking a blow at his very heart, will know how to protect the peaceful people we leave behind as we carry out our sacred mission.’ And he embraced the quiet Gaspar Ruiz at his side.”
“Later on, when we all rose from table, I approached the latest officer of the army with my congratulations. ‘And, Captain Ruiz,’ I added, ‘perhaps you do not mind telling a man who has always believed in the uprightness of your character what became of Dona Erminia on that night?’
“Later, when we all got up from the table, I went over to the newest officer in the army to congratulate him. ‘And, Captain Ruiz,’ I said, ‘maybe you wouldn’t mind telling someone who has always believed in your integrity what happened to Dona Erminia that night?’”
“At this friendly question his aspect changed. He looked at me from under his eyebrows with the heavy, dull glance of a guasso—of a peasant. ‘Senor teniente,’ he said, thickly, and as if very much cast down, ‘do not ask me about the senorita, for I prefer not to think about her at all when I am amongst you.”
“At this friendly question, his expression changed. He looked at me from beneath his eyebrows with the heavy, dull stare of a farmworker—of a peasant. ‘Sir Lieutenant,’ he said slowly, sounding quite downcast, ‘please don’t ask me about the young lady, because I’d rather not think about her at all when I’m around you.’”
“He looked, with a frown, all about the room, full of smoking and talking officers. Of course I did not insist.
“He looked around the room, frowning, at the officers who were smoking and talking. Of course, I didn’t push it.”
“These, senores, were the last words I was to hear him utter for a long, long time. The very next day we embarked for our arduous expedition to Peru, and we only heard of Gaspar Ruiz’ doings in the midst of battles of our own. He had been appointed military guardian of our southern province. He raised a partida. But his leniency to the conquered foe displeased the Civil Governor, who was a formal, uneasy man, full of suspicions. He forwarded reports against Gaspar Ruiz to the Supreme Government; one of them being that he had married publicly, with great pomp, a woman of Royalist tendencies. Quarrels were sure to arise between these two men of very different character. At last the Civil Governor began to complain of his inactivity and to hint at treachery, which, he wrote, would be not surprising in a man of such antecedents. Gaspar Ruiz heard of it. His rage flamed up, and the woman ever by his side knew how to feed it with perfidious words. I do not know whether really the Supreme Government ever did—as he complained afterwards—send orders for his arrest. It seems certain that the Civil Governor began to tamper with his officers, and that Gaspar Ruiz discovered the fact.
“These, gentlemen, were the last words I would hear him say for a long, long time. The very next day we set off for our challenging expedition to Peru, and we only heard about Gaspar Ruiz's actions amidst our own battles. He had been named the military guardian of our southern province. He formed a militia. But his leniency towards the defeated enemy frustrated the Civil Governor, who was a formal, anxious man, filled with suspicions. He sent reports against Gaspar Ruiz to the Supreme Government; one of them claimed that he had publicly married, with great fanfare, a woman with Royalist sympathies. Conflicts were bound to happen between these two very different men. Eventually, the Civil Governor started to complain about his lack of action and suggested treachery, which, he wrote, would not be surprising in a man with such a background. Gaspar Ruiz heard about this. His anger flared up, and the woman by his side knew just how to stoke it with deceitful words. I don’t know if the Supreme Government ever did—as he later claimed—send orders for his arrest. It seems clear that the Civil Governor started to influence his officers, and that Gaspar Ruiz found out about it.
“One evening, when the Governor was giving a tertullia, Gaspar Ruiz, followed by six men he could trust, appeared riding through the town to the door of the Government House, and entered the sala armed, his hat on his head. As the Governor, displeased, advanced to meet him, he seized the wretched man round the body, carried him off from the midst of the appalled guests, as though he were a child, and flung him down the outer steps into the street. An angry hug from Gaspar Ruiz was enough to crush the life out of a giant; but in addition Gaspar Ruiz’ horsemen fired their pistols at the body of the Governor as it lay motionless at the bottom of the stairs.”
“One evening, while the Governor was hosting a gathering, Gaspar Ruiz, accompanied by six trusted men, rode into town to the Government House and walked into the room armed, his hat on his head. As the displeased Governor approached him, Gaspar seized the unfortunate man, lifted him as if he were a child, and threw him down the outer steps into the street. A fierce embrace from Gaspar Ruiz could crush the life out of a giant; in addition, Gaspar Ruiz’s riders shot their pistols at the Governor's lifeless body lying at the bottom of the stairs.”
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“After this—as he called it—act of justice, Ruiz crossed the Rio Blanco, followed by the greater part of his band, and entrenched himself upon a hill. A company of regular troops sent out foolishly against him was surrounded, and destroyed almost to a man. Other expeditions, though better organized, were equally unsuccessful.
“After this—what he called—act of justice, Ruiz crossed the Rio Blanco, followed by most of his group, and set up defenses on a hill. A unit of regular troops sent out against him was foolishly surrounded and almost entirely wiped out. Other expeditions, although better organized, also failed.
“It was during these sanguinary skirmishes that his wife first began to appear on horseback at his right hand. Rendered proud and self-confident by his successes, Ruiz no longer charged at the head of his partida, but presumptuously, like a general directing the movements of an army, he remained in the rear, well mounted and motionless on an eminence, sending out his orders. She was seen repeatedly at his side, and for a long time was mistaken for a man. There was much talk then of a mysterious white-faced chief, to whom the defeats of our troops were ascribed. She rode like an Indian woman, astride, wearing a broad-rimmed man’s hat and a dark poncho. Afterwards, in the day of their greatest prosperity, this poncho was embroidered in gold, and she wore then, also, the sword of poor Don Antonio de Leyva. This veteran Chilian officer, having the misfortune to be surrounded with his small force, and running short of ammunition, found his death at the hands of the Arauco Indians, the allies and auxiliaries of Gaspar Ruiz. This was the fatal affair long remembered afterwards as the ‘Massacre of the Island.’ The sword of the unhappy officer was presented to her by Peneleo, the Araucanian chief; for these Indians, struck by her aspect, the deathly pallor of her face, which no exposure to the weather seemed to affect, and her calm indifference under fire, looked upon her as a supernatural being, or at least as a witch. By this superstition the prestige and authority of Gaspar Ruiz amongst these ignorant people were greatly augmented. She must have savoured her vengeance to the full on that day when she buckled on the sword of Don Antonio de Leyva. It never left her side, unless she put on her woman’s clothes—not that she would or could ever use it, but she loved to feel it beating upon her thigh as a perpetual reminder and symbol of the dishonour to the arms of the Republic. She was insatiable. Moreover, on the path she had led Gaspar Ruiz upon, there is no stopping. Escaped prisoners—and they were not many—used to relate how with a few whispered words she could change the expression of his face and revive his flagging animosity. They told how after every skirmish, after every raid, after every successful action, he would ride up to her and look into her face. Its haughty calm was never relaxed. Her embrace, senores, must have been as cold as the embrace of a statue. He tried to melt her icy heart in a stream of warm blood. Some English naval officers who visited him at that time noticed the strange character of his infatuation.”
“It was during these bloody skirmishes that his wife first started to appear on horseback at his side. Proud and self-assured from his victories, Ruiz no longer charged at the front of his group; instead, like a general directing an army, he stayed in the back, well-mounted and still on a hill, giving out his orders. She was often seen next to him and was mistaken for a man for quite some time. There was a lot of talk about a mysterious white-faced leader, to whom the defeats of our troops were attributed. She rode like an Indigenous woman, sitting astride, wearing a broad-brimmed man’s hat and a dark poncho. Later, at the height of their success, this poncho was embellished with gold, and she also wore the sword of poor Don Antonio de Leyva. This veteran Chilean officer, unfortunately surrounded with his small force and running low on ammunition, met his end at the hands of the Arauco Indians, who were Gaspar Ruiz's allies. This was the tragic event long remembered as the ‘Massacre of the Island.’ The sword of the unfortunate officer was given to her by Peneleo, the Araucanian chief; for these Indians, captivated by her appearance, the ghostly pallor of her face—which no weather seemed to affect—and her serene indifference under gunfire, viewed her as a supernatural being or at least a witch. This superstition greatly enhanced Gaspar Ruiz's prestige and authority among these uneducated people. She must have relished her revenge fully on the day she strapped on Don Antonio de Leyva's sword. It never left her unless she put on her woman’s clothes—not that she would or could ever use it, but she loved to feel it resting against her thigh as a constant reminder and symbol of the dishonor to the Republic’s arms. She was insatiable. Moreover, on the path she had set Gaspar Ruiz upon, there was no turning back. Escaped prisoners—and they were few—would tell how, with just a few whispered words, she could change the expression on his face and rekindle his waning anger. They recounted how after every skirmish, every raid, every victory, he would ride up to her and gaze into her face. Its proud calm was never broken. Her embrace, gentlemen, must have felt as cold as that of a statue. He tried to warm her icy heart with a flow of warm blood. Some British naval officers who visited him at that time noticed the strange nature of his obsession.”
At the movement of surprise and curiosity in his audience General Santierra paused for a moment.
At the moment of surprise and curiosity in his audience, General Santierra paused for a second.
“Yes—English naval officers,” he repeated. “Ruiz had consented to receive them to arrange for the liberation of some prisoners of your nationality. In the territory upon which he ranged, from sea coast to the Cordillera, there was a bay where the ships of that time, after rounding Cape Horn, used to resort for wood and water. There, decoying the crew on shore, he captured first the whaling brig Hersalia, and afterwards made himself master by surprise of two more ships, one English and one American.
“Yes—English naval officers,” he repeated. “Ruiz had agreed to receive them to organize the release of some prisoners from your nationality. In the area he operated, from the coast to the Andes, there was a bay where ships of that time, after rounding Cape Horn, would stop for wood and water. There, luring the crew ashore, he first captured the whaling brig Hersalia, and then surprised and took over two more ships, one English and one American.”
“It was rumoured at the time that he dreamed of setting up a navy of his own. But that, of course, was impossible. Still, manning the brig with part of her own crew, and putting an officer and a good many men of his own on board, he sent her off to the Spanish Governor of the island of Chiloe with a report of his exploits, and a demand for assistance in the war against the rebels. The Governor could not do much for him; but he sent in return two light field-pieces, a letter of compliments, with a colonel’s commission in the royal forces, and a great Spanish flag. This standard with much ceremony was hoisted over his house in the heart of the Arauco country. Surely on that day she may have smiled on her guasso husband with a less haughty reserve.
“It was rumored back then that he dreamed of creating his own navy. But that was obviously impossible. Still, manning the brig with part of its own crew and placing an officer along with several of his men on board, he sent it off to the Spanish Governor of the island of Chiloe with a report of his achievements and a request for help in the war against the rebels. The Governor wasn’t able to do much for him; however, he sent back two light field-pieces, a letter of compliments, a colonel’s commission in the royal forces, and a large Spanish flag. This standard was ceremoniously raised over his house in the heart of Arauco country. Surely on that day, she might have looked at her guasso husband with a bit less pride.”
“The senior officer of the English squadron on our coast made representations to our Government as to these captures. But Gaspar Ruiz refused to treat with us. Then an English frigate proceeded to the bay, and her captain, doctor, and two lieutenants travelled inland under a safe-conduct. They were well received, and spent three days as guests of the partisan chief. A sort of military barbaric state was kept up at the residence. It was furnished with the loot of frontier towns. When first admitted to the principal sala, they saw his wife lying down (she was not in good health then), with Gaspar Ruiz sitting at the foot of the couch. His hat was lying on the floor, and his hands reposed on the hilt of his sword.
“The senior officer of the English squadron on our coast spoke to our Government about these captures. But Gaspar Ruiz wouldn’t negotiate with us. Then an English frigate came to the bay, and her captain, doctor, and two lieutenants traveled inland under a safe-conduct. They were welcomed and spent three days as guests of the partisan chief. A sort of military, uncivilized atmosphere was maintained at the residence. It was decorated with loot from frontier towns. When they first entered the main room, they saw his wife lying down (she wasn’t well at the time), with Gaspar Ruiz sitting at the foot of the couch. His hat was on the floor, and his hands were resting on the hilt of his sword."
“During that first conversation he never removed his big hands from the sword-hilt, except once, to arrange the coverings about her, with gentle, careful touches. They noticed that whenever she spoke he would fix his eyes upon her in a kind of expectant, breathless attention, and seemingly forget the existence of the world and his own existence, too. In the course of the farewell banquet, at which she was present reclining on her couch, he burst forth into complaints of the treatment he had received. After General San Martin’s departure he had been beset by spies, slandered by civil officials, his services ignored, his liberty and even his life threatened by the Chilian Government. He got up from the table, thundered execrations pacing the room wildly, then sat down on the couch at his wife’s feet, his breast heaving, his eyes fixed on the floor. She reclined on her back, her head on the cushions, her eyes nearly closed.
“During that first conversation, he never took his large hands off the sword-hilt, except once, to gently adjust the coverings around her with careful touches. They noticed that whenever she spoke, he would focus his gaze on her with a kind of eager, breathless attention, seemingly forgetting the world around him and even his own existence. During the farewell banquet, where she was lying on her couch, he suddenly erupted with complaints about how he had been treated. After General San Martin left, he had been surrounded by spies, slandered by civil officials, his contributions overlooked, and his freedom and even his life threatened by the Chilean Government. He stood up from the table, shouted curses while pacing the room wildly, then sat down on the couch at his wife's feet, his chest heaving and his eyes fixed on the floor. She lay on her back, her head on the cushions, her eyes nearly closed."
“‘And now I am an honoured Spanish officer,’ he added in a calm voice.
“‘And now I’m an honored Spanish officer,’ he added in a calm voice.
“The captain of the English frigate then took the opportunity to inform him gently that Lima had fallen, and that by the terms of a convention the Spaniards were withdrawing from the whole continent.
“The captain of the English frigate then took the chance to gently inform him that Lima had fallen and that, as per an agreement, the Spaniards were withdrawing from the entire continent.”
“Gaspar Ruiz raised his head, and without hesitation, speaking with suppressed vehemence, declared that if not a single Spanish soldier were left in the whole of South America he would persist in carrying on the contest against Chile to the last drop of blood. When he finished that mad tirade his wife’s long white hand was raised, and she just caressed his knee with the tips of her fingers for a fraction of a second.
“Gaspar Ruiz lifted his head and, without hesitation, spoke passionately, declaring that even if not a single Spanish soldier remained in all of South America, he would continue the fight against Chile to the very last drop of blood. When he finished that furious outburst, his wife’s long white hand reached out and gently brushed his knee with the tips of her fingers for just a moment.”
“For the rest of the officers’ stay, which did not extend for more than half an hour after the banquet, that ferocious chieftain of a desperate partida overflowed with amiability and kindness. He had been hospitable before, but now it seemed as though he could not do enough for the comfort and safety of his visitors’ journey back to their ship.
“For the rest of the officers’ stay, which lasted no more than half an hour after the banquet, that fierce leader of a desperate group was overflowing with friendliness and kindness. He had been welcoming before, but now it felt like he couldn't do enough to ensure the comfort and safety of his guests' journey back to their ship.”
“Nothing, I have been told, could have presented a greater contrast to his late violence or the habitual taciturn reserve of his manner. Like a man elated beyond measure by an unexpected happiness, he overflowed with good-will, amiability, and attentions. He embraced the officers like brothers, almost with tears in his eyes. The released prisoners were presented each with a piece of gold. At the last moment, suddenly, he declared he could do no less than restore to the masters of the merchant vessels all their private property. This unexpected generosity caused some delay in the departure of the party, and their first march was very short.
“Nothing, I’ve been told, could have shown a greater contrast to his recent violence or the usual quietness of his demeanor. Like a man incredibly overjoyed by unexpected happiness, he was filled with goodwill, friendliness, and attention. He hugged the officers like brothers, nearly in tears. The freed prisoners were each given a piece of gold. At the last moment, he suddenly announced that he could do no less than return all the personal property to the owners of the merchant ships. This unexpected generosity caused some delays in the group’s departure, and their first march was quite short.”
“Late in the evening Gaspar Ruiz rode up with an escort, to their camp fires, bringing along with him a mule loaded with cases of wine. He had come, he said, to drink a stirrup cup with his English friends, whom he would never see again. He was mellow and joyous in his temper. He told stories of his own exploits, laughed like a boy, borrowed a guitar from the Englishmen’s chief muleteer, and sitting cross-legged on his superfine poncho spread before the glow of the embers, sang a guasso love-song in a tender voice. Then his head dropped on his breast, his hands fell to the ground; the guitar rolled off his knees—and a great hush fell over the camp after the love-song of the implacable partisan who had made so many of our people weep for destroyed homes and for loves cut short.
“Late in the evening, Gaspar Ruiz arrived with a group of guards at their campfires, bringing along a mule loaded with cases of wine. He said he had come to share a drink with his English friends, whom he would never see again. He was in a relaxed and cheerful mood. He shared stories about his own adventures, laughed like a young man, borrowed a guitar from the Englishmen’s chief muleteer, and sitting cross-legged on his fine poncho spread before the flickering embers, sang a love song in a soft voice. Then his head drooped onto his chest, his hands fell to the ground; the guitar slipped from his knees—and a deep silence fell over the camp after the love song of the relentless fighter who had caused so many of our people to grieve for lost homes and interrupted loves.”
“Before anybody could make a sound he sprang up from the ground and called for his horse.
“Before anyone could say anything, he jumped up from the ground and called for his horse.
“‘Adios, my friends!’ he cried. ‘Go with God. I love you. And tell them well in Santiago that between Gaspar Ruiz, colonel of the King of Spain, and the republican carrion-crows of Chile there is war to the last breath—war! war! war!’
“‘Goodbye, my friends!’ he shouted. ‘Go with God. I love you. And let them know in Santiago that between Gaspar Ruiz, colonel of the King of Spain, and the republican scavengers of Chile, there is war to the last breath—war! war! war!’”
“With a great yell of ‘War! war! war!’ which his escort took up, they rode away, and the sound of hoofs and of voices died out in the distance between the slopes of the hills.
“With a loud shout of ‘War! war! war!’ that his escort joined in, they rode away, and the sound of hooves and voices faded in the distance between the hills.”
“The two young English officers were convinced that Ruiz was mad. How do you say that?—tile loose—eh? But the doctor, an observant Scotsman with much shrewdness and philosophy in his character, told me that it was a very curious case of possession. I met him many years afterwards, but he remembered the experience very well. He told me, too, that in his opinion that woman did not lead Gaspar Ruiz into the practice of sanguinary treachery by direct persuasion, but by the subtle way of awakening and keeping alive in his simple mind a burning sense of an irreparable wrong. Maybe, maybe. But I would say that she poured half of her vengeful soul into the strong clay of that man, as you may pour intoxication, madness, poison into an empty cup.
The two young English officers were sure that Ruiz was crazy. How do you say that?—half-baked—right? But the doctor, an observant Scotsman with a lot of insight and wisdom in his character, told me it was a very interesting case of possession. I ran into him many years later, but he remembered the experience very well. He also shared that, in his opinion, that woman didn’t push Gaspar Ruiz into committing violent treachery through direct influence, but by subtly awakening and nurturing in his simple mind a deep sense of an irreversible wrong. Maybe, maybe. But I would argue that she poured half of her vengeful soul into the strong spirit of that man, like you might pour intoxication, madness, or poison into an empty cup.
“If he wanted war he got it in earnest when our victorious army began to return from Peru. Systematic operations were planned against this blot on the honour and prosperity of our hardly won independence. General Robles commanded, with his well-known ruthless severity. Savage reprisals were exercised on both sides and no quarter was given in the field. Having won my promotion in the Peru campaign, I was a captain on the staff. Gaspar Ruiz found himself hard pressed; at the same time we heard by means of a fugitive priest who had been carried off from his village presbytery and galloped eighty miles into the hills to perform the christening ceremony, that a daughter was born to them. To celebrate the event, I suppose, Ruiz executed one or two brilliant forays clear away at the rear of our forces, and defeated the detachments sent out to cut off his retreat. General Robles nearly had a stroke of apoplexy from rage. He found another cause of insomnia than the bites of mosquitoes; but against this one, senores, tumblers of raw brandy had no more effect than so much water. He took to railing and storming at me about my strong man. And from our impatience to end this inglorious campaign I am afraid that all we young officers became reckless and apt to take undue risks on service.
“If he wanted war, he certainly got it when our victorious army started returning from Peru. We planned systematic operations against this stain on the honor and prosperity of our hard-won independence. General Robles, known for his ruthless severity, was in command. Savage reprisals were carried out on both sides, and no quarter was given in the field. Having earned my promotion during the Peru campaign, I was a captain on the staff. Gaspar Ruiz found himself under heavy pressure; at the same time, we learned from a fleeing priest who had been taken from his village presbytery and galloped eighty miles into the hills to perform a baptism, that a daughter was born to them. To celebrate the event, I suppose, Ruiz executed one or two spectacular raids far behind our lines and defeated the detachments sent to cut off his escape. General Robles nearly had a stroke from rage. He discovered another cause for his insomnia beyond the bites of mosquitoes, but against this one, gentlemen, tumblers of raw brandy had as much effect as plain water. He started to rant and storm at me about my strong man. And out of our impatience to end this shameful campaign, I’m afraid all of us young officers became reckless and prone to taking unnecessary risks during service.
“Nevertheless, slowly, inch by inch as it were, our columns were closing upon Gaspar Ruiz, though he had managed to raise all the Araucanian nation of wild Indians against us. Then a year or more later our Government became aware through its agents and spies that he had actually entered into alliance with Carreras, the so-called dictator of the so-called republic of Mendoza, on the other side of the mountains. Whether Gaspar Ruiz had a deep political intention, or whether he wished only to secure a safe retreat for his wife and child while he pursued remorselessly against us his war of surprises and massacres, I cannot tell. The alliance, however, was a fact. Defeated in his attempt to check our advance from the sea, he retreated with his usual swiftness, and preparing for another hard and hazardous tussle, began by sending his wife with the little girl across the Pequena range of mountains, on the frontier of Mendoza.”
"Still, bit by bit, our forces were closing in on Gaspar Ruiz, even though he had managed to rally the entire Araucanian nation of wild Indians against us. Then, a year or so later, our Government learned through its agents and spies that he had actually formed an alliance with Carreras, the so-called dictator of the so-called republic of Mendoza, on the other side of the mountains. It's unclear whether Gaspar Ruiz had a grand political plan or if he just wanted to secure a safe escape for his wife and child while he continued his relentless campaign of surprise attacks and massacres against us. Regardless, the alliance was real. After being defeated in his attempt to stop our advance from the sea, he quickly retreated and, preparing for another tough and risky fight, started by sending his wife and little girl across the Pequena mountain range, on the border of Mendoza."
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XI
“Now Carreras, under the guise of politics and liberalism, was a scoundrel of the deepest dye, and the unhappy state of Mendoza was the prey of thieves, robbers, traitors, and murderers, who formed his party. He was under a noble exterior a man without heart, pity, honour, or conscience. He aspired to nothing but tyranny, and though he would have made use of Gaspar Ruiz for his nefarious designs, yet he soon became aware that to propitiate the Chilian Government would answer his purpose better. I blush to say that he made proposals to our Government to deliver up on certain conditions the wife and child of the man who had trusted to his honour, and that this offer was accepted.
“Now Carreras, pretending to be all about politics and liberalism, was a total scoundrel, and the troubled state of Mendoza was at the mercy of thieves, robbers, traitors, and murderers who formed his group. Beneath his noble facade, he was a man without heart, compassion, honor, or conscience. He only aimed for tyranny, and while he would have used Gaspar Ruiz for his wicked plans, he quickly realized that currying favor with the Chilean Government served his interests better. I’m ashamed to say that he made offers to our Government to surrender, under certain conditions, the wife and child of the man who had trusted in his honor, and that this offer was accepted.”
“While on her way to Mendoza over the Pequena Pass she was betrayed by her escort of Carreras’ men, and given up to the officer in command of a Chilian fort on the upland at the foot of the main Cordillera range. This atrocious transaction might have cost me dear, for as a matter of fact I was a prisoner in Gaspar Ruiz’ camp when he received the news. I had been captured during a reconnaissance, my escort of a few troopers being speared by the Indians of his bodyguard. I was saved from the same fate because he recognized my features just in time. No doubt my friends thought I was dead, and I would not have given much for my life at any time. But the strong man treated me very well, because, he said, I had always believed in his innocence and had tried to serve him when he was a victim of injustice.
“While on her way to Mendoza over the Pequena Pass, she was betrayed by her escort of Carreras’ men and handed over to the officer in charge of a Chilian fort at the foot of the main Cordillera range. This terrible act could have serious consequences for me, as I was actually a prisoner in Gaspar Ruiz’s camp when he got the news. I had been captured during a reconnaissance mission, and my few troopers were speared by his Indian bodyguards. I was spared from the same fate because he recognized me just in time. No doubt my friends thought I was dead, and I wouldn’t have given much for my life at any moment. But the strong man treated me very well because, he said, I had always believed in his innocence and had tried to help him when he was a victim of injustice.”
“‘And now,’ was his speech to me, ‘you shall see that I always speak the truth. You are safe.’
“‘And now,’ he said to me, ‘you’ll see that I always tell the truth. You’re safe.’”
“I did not think I was very safe when I was called up to go to him one night. He paced up and down like a wild beast, exclaiming, ‘Betrayed! Betrayed!’
“I didn’t feel very safe when I was summoned to see him one night. He was pacing back and forth like a wild animal, shouting, ‘Betrayed! Betrayed!’”
“He walked up to me clenching his fists. ‘I could cut your throat.’
“He walked up to me with his fists clenched. ‘I could cut your throat.’”
“‘Will that give your wife back to you?’ I said as quietly as I could.
“‘Will that give your wife back to you?’ I said as softly as I could.
“‘And the child!’ he yelled out, as if mad. He fell into a chair and laughed in a frightful, boisterous manner. ‘Oh, no, you are safe.’
“‘And the kid!’ he shouted, almost like he was losing it. He collapsed into a chair and laughed in a wild, loud way. ‘Oh, no, you’re fine.’”
“I assured him that his wife’s life was safe, too; but I did not say what I was convinced of—that he would never see her again. He wanted war to the death, and the war could only end with his death.
“I assured him that his wife’s life was safe, too; but I didn’t mention what I was sure of—that he would never see her again. He wanted a fight to the finish, and the battle could only end with his death.”
“He gave me a strange, inexplicable look, and sat muttering blankly, ‘In their hands. In their hands.’
“He gave me a weird, unexplainable look and sat there muttering absently, ‘In their hands. In their hands.’”
“I kept as still as a mouse before a cat.
“I stayed as still as a mouse in front of a cat.
“Suddenly he jumped up. ‘What am I doing here?’ he cried; and opening the door, he yelled out orders to saddle and mount. ‘What is it?’ he stammered, coming up to me. ‘The Pequena fort; a fort of palisades! Nothing. I would get her back if she were hidden in the very heart of the mountain.’ He amazed me by adding, with an effort: ‘I carried her off in my two arms while the earth trembled. And the child at least is mine. She at least is mine!’
“Suddenly he jumped up. ‘What am I doing here?’ he shouted, and opening the door, he yelled out orders to saddle up and get ready to ride. ‘What’s going on?’ he stammered as he approached me. ‘The Pequena fort; a fort made of logs! Nothing. I would get her back even if she were hidden deep in the mountain.’ He surprised me by adding, with some effort: ‘I carried her off in my arms while the ground shook. And the child at least is mine. She’s mine!’”
“Those were bizarre words; but I had no time for wonder.
“Those were strange words; but I had no time for questions.
“‘You shall go with me,’ he said, violently. ‘I may want to parley, and any other messenger from Ruiz, the outlaw, would have his throat cut.’
“‘You’re coming with me,’ he said forcefully. ‘I might need to negotiate, and any other messenger from Ruiz, the outlaw, would get his throat cut.’”
“This was true enough. Between him and the rest of incensed mankind there could be no communication, according to the customs of honourable warfare.
“This was true enough. Between him and the rest of angry humanity, there could be no communication, according to the rules of just warfare.
“In less than half an hour we were in the saddle, flying wildly through the night. He had only an escort of twenty men at his quarters, but would not wait for more. He sent, however, messengers to Peneleo, the Indian chief then ranging in the foothills, directing him to bring his warriors to the uplands and meet him at the lake called the Eye of Water, near whose shores the frontier fort of Pequena was built.
“In less than half an hour, we were in the saddle, racing through the night. He only had twenty men with him at his camp, but he wouldn’t wait for more. He did send messengers to Peneleo, the Indian chief who was then in the foothills, telling him to bring his warriors to the uplands and meet him at the lake called the Eye of Water, near which the frontier fort of Pequena was built.”
“We crossed the lowlands with that untired rapidity of movement which had made Gaspar Ruiz’ raids so famous. We followed the lower valleys up to their precipitous heads. The ride was not without its dangers. A cornice road on a perpendicular wall of basalt wound itself around a buttressing rock, and at last we emerged from the gloom of a deep gorge upon the upland of Pequena.
“We crossed the lowlands with the same unstoppable speed that made Gaspar Ruiz’s raids so legendary. We followed the lower valleys all the way to their steep peaks. The ride wasn’t without its hazards. A narrow road clung to a sheer wall of basalt as it wrapped around a supporting rock, and finally, we broke free from the darkness of a deep gorge and reached the upland of Pequena.
“It was a plain of green wiry grass and thin flowering bushes; but high above our heads patches of snow hung in the folds and crevices of the great walls of rock. The little lake was as round as a staring eye. The garrison of the fort were just driving in their small herd of cattle when we appeared. Then the great wooden gates swung to, and that four-square enclosure of broad blackened stakes pointed at the top and barely hiding the grass roofs of the huts inside seemed deserted, empty, without a single soul.
“It was a plain covered in wiry green grass and sparse flowering bushes; but high above us, patches of snow clung to the folds and crevices of the towering rock walls. The small lake was as round as a staring eye. The fort's garrison was just herding in their small group of cattle when we arrived. Then the large wooden gates closed, and that square enclosure made of broad, jagged stakes barely concealing the grass roofs of the huts inside looked deserted, empty, with not a single soul in sight.”
“But when summoned to surrender, by a man who at Gaspar Ruiz’ order rode fearlessly forward those inside answered by a volley which rolled him and his horse over. I heard Ruiz by my side grind his teeth. ‘It does not matter,’ he said. ‘Now you go.’
“But when they were called to surrender by a man who, at Gaspar Ruiz’s command, rode confidently forward, the people inside responded with a volley that knocked him and his horse over. I heard Ruiz next to me gritting his teeth. ‘It doesn’t matter,’ he said. ‘Now you go.’”
“Torn and faded as its rags were, the vestiges of my uniform were recognized, and I was allowed to approach within speaking distance; and then I had to wait, because a voice clamouring through a loophole with joy and astonishment would not allow me to place a word. It was the voice of Major Pajol, an old friend. He, like my other comrades, had thought me killed a long time ago.
“Torn and faded as its rags were, the remnants of my uniform were recognized, and I was allowed to come within speaking distance; and then I had to wait, because a voice shouting through a gap with joy and disbelief wouldn’t let me say a word. It was the voice of Major Pajol, an old friend. He, like my other comrades, had thought I was dead a long time ago."
“‘Put spurs to your horse, man!’ he yelled, in the greatest excitement; ‘we will swing the gate open for you.’
“‘Hurry up and get your horse moving!’ he shouted, full of excitement; ‘we'll open the gate for you.’”
“I let the reins fall out of my hand and shook my head. ‘I am on my honour,’ I cried.
“I let the reins drop from my hand and shook my head. ‘I swear I’m telling the truth,’ I shouted.
“‘To him!’ he shouted, with infinite disgust.
“‘To him!’ he shouted, with total disgust.
“‘He promises you your life.’
"‘He promises you your life.’"
“‘Our life is our own. And do you, Santierra, advise us to surrender to that rastrero?’
“‘Our lives belong to us. And you, Santierra, think we should give in to that lowlife?’”
“‘No!’ I shouted. ‘But he wants his wife and child, and he can cut you off from water.’
“‘No!’ I shouted. ‘But he wants his wife and child, and he can cut you off from water.’”
“‘Then she would be the first to suffer. You may tell him that. Look here—this is all nonsense: we shall dash out and capture you.’
“‘Then she would be the first to suffer. You can tell him that. Look, this is all ridiculous: we’re going to rush out and catch you.’”
“‘You shall not catch me alive,’ I said, firmly.
“‘You won’t catch me alive,’ I said, confidently.
“‘Imbecile!’
"‘Idiot!’"
“‘For God’s sake,’ I continued, hastily, ‘do not open the gate.’ And I pointed at the multitude of Peneleo’s Indians who covered the shores of the lake.
“‘For God’s sake,’ I continued quickly, ‘do not open the gate.’ And I pointed at the crowd of Peneleo’s Indians who filled the shores of the lake.
“I had never seen so many of these savages together. Their lances seemed as numerous as stalks of grass. Their hoarse voices made a vast, inarticulate sound like the murmur of the sea.
“I had never seen so many of these wild people together. Their lances seemed as numerous as blades of grass. Their rough voices created a huge, unintelligible noise like the sound of the ocean.”
“My friend Pajol was swearing to himself. ‘Well, then—go to the devil!’ he shouted, exasperated. But as I swung round he repented, for I heard him say hurriedly, ‘Shoot the fool’s horse before he gets away.’
“My friend Pajol was cursing under his breath. ‘Well, then—go to hell!’ he yelled, frustrated. But as I turned around, he changed his mind, because I heard him quickly say, ‘Shoot the idiot’s horse before he escapes.’”
“He had good marksmen. Two shots rang out, and in the very act of turning my horse staggered, fell and lay still as if struck by lightning. I had my feet out of the stirrups and rolled clear of him; but I did not attempt to rise. Neither dared they rush out to drag me in.
“He had skilled marksmen. Two shots fired, and as I was turning, my horse staggered, fell, and lay still as if hit by lightning. I got my feet out of the stirrups and rolled away from him, but I didn’t try to get up. They didn’t dare rush out to pull me in either.”
“The masses of Indians had begun to move upon the fort. They rode up in squadrons, trailing their long chusos; then dismounted out of musket-shot, and, throwing off their fur mantles, advanced naked to the attack, stamping their feet and shouting in cadence. A sheet of flame ran three times along the face of the fort without checking their steady march. They crowded right up to the very stakes, flourishing their broad knives. But this palisade was not fastened together with hide lashings in the usual way, but with long iron nails, which they could not cut. Dismayed at the failure of their usual method of forcing an entrance, the heathen, who had marched so steadily against the musketry fire, broke and fled under the volleys of the besieged.
The crowds of Indians started to advance on the fort. They arrived in groups, trailing their long chusos; then dismounted just out of range of the muskets and, shedding their fur cloaks, charged towards the attack, stomping their feet and shouting in rhythm. Flames erupted three times along the fort's face without stopping their steady advance. They pressed right up to the stakes, waving their broad knives. But this palisade wasn’t held together with the usual hide lashings; it was secured with long iron nails, which they couldn't cut. Disheartened by the failure of their usual tactic to break in, the warriors who had marched so steadily against the gunfire turned and fled from the defenders' volleys.
“Directly they had passed me on their advance I got up and rejoined Gaspar Ruiz on a low ridge which jutted out upon the plain. The musketry of his own men had covered the attack, but now at a sign from him a trumpet sounded the ‘Cease fire.’ Together we looked in silence at the hopeless rout of the savages.
“Once they had passed me in their advance, I got up and rejoined Gaspar Ruiz on a low ridge that stuck out over the plain. The gunfire from his own men had covered the attack, but now, at his signal, a trumpet sounded the ‘Cease fire.’ Together we silently watched the hopeless retreat of the savages.”
“‘It must be a siege, then,’ he muttered. And I detected him wringing his hands stealthily.
“‘It must be a siege, then,’ he muttered. And I noticed him nervously wringing his hands.”
“But what sort of siege could it be? Without any need for me to repeat my friend Pajol’s message, he dared not cut the water off from the besieged. They had plenty of meat. And, indeed, if they had been short he would have been too anxious to send food into the stockade had he been able. But, as a matter of fact, it was we on the plain who were beginning to feel the pinch of hunger.
“But what kind of siege could it be? Without needing me to repeat my friend Pajol’s message, he was too scared to cut off the water supply to those under siege. They had enough meat. In fact, if they had been running low, he would have been too worried to send food into the stockade if he could have. But the truth is, we out on the plain were starting to feel the sting of hunger.”
“Peneleo, the Indian chief, sat by our fire folded in his ample mantle of guanaco skins. He was an athletic savage, with an enormous square shock head of hair resembling a straw beehive in shape and size, and with grave, surly, much-lined features. In his broken Spanish he repeated, growling like a bad-tempered wild beast, that if an opening ever so small were made in the stockade his men would march in and get the senora—not otherwise.
“Peneleo, the Indian chief, sat by our fire wrapped in his large guanaco skin cloak. He was a strong man, with a huge square head of hair that looked like a straw beehive in shape and size, and his serious, stern face was full of lines. In his broken Spanish, he grumbled, like an angry wild animal, that if even the smallest opening was made in the stockade, his men would rush in and take the señora—not any other way.”
“Gaspar Ruiz, sitting opposite him, kept his eyes fixed on the fort night and day as it were, in awful silence and immobility. Meantime, by runners from the lowlands that arrived nearly every day, we heard of the defeat of one of his lieutenants in the Maipu valley. Scouts sent afar brought news of a column of infantry advancing through distant passes to the relief of the fort. They were slow, but we could trace their toilful progress up the lower valleys. I wondered why Ruiz did not march to attack and destroy this threatening force, in some wild gorge fit for an ambuscade, in accordance with his genius for guerilla warfare. But his genius seemed to have abandoned him to his despair.
“Gaspar Ruiz, sitting across from him, kept his eyes locked on the fort day and night, in complete silence and stillness. Meanwhile, messages from the lowlands that arrived almost every day told us about the defeat of one of his lieutenants in the Maipu valley. Scouts sent from far away brought news of a group of infantry moving through distant passes to support the fort. They were slow, but we could see their laborious progress through the lower valleys. I wondered why Ruiz didn’t march out to attack and eliminate this threatening force in some wild gorge that would be perfect for an ambush, given his skill in guerrilla warfare. But his talent seemed to have deserted him, leaving him in despair.”
“It was obvious to me that he could not tear himself away from the sight of the fort. I protest to you, senores, that I was moved almost to pity by the sight of this powerless strong man sitting on the ridge, indifferent to sun, to rain, to cold, to wind; with his hands clasped round his legs and his chin resting on his knees, gazing—gazing—gazing.
“It was clear to me that he couldn’t pull himself away from looking at the fort. I swear to you, gentlemen, that I was almost filled with pity at the sight of this helpless strong man perched on the ridge, unaffected by the sun, rain, cold, or wind; with his hands wrapped around his legs and his chin resting on his knees, staring—staring—staring.”
“And the fort he kept his eyes fastened on was as still and silent as himself. The garrison gave no sign of life. They did not even answer the desultory fire directed at the loopholes.
“And the fort he was watching was as quiet and silent as he was. The troops inside showed no signs of life. They didn’t even respond to the random gunfire aimed at the openings.”
“One night, as I strolled past him, he, without changing his attitude, spoke to me unexpectedly. ‘I have sent for a gun,’ he said. ‘I shall have time to get her back and retreat before your Robles manages to crawl up here.’
“One night, as I walked past him, he, without shifting his position, spoke to me out of the blue. ‘I’ve called for a gun,’ he said. ‘I’ll have time to get her back and get away before your Robles manages to make it up here.’”
“He had sent for a gun to the plains.
“He had sent for a gun to the plains.
“It was long in coming, but at last it came. It was a seven-pounder field gun. Dismounted and lashed crosswise to two long poles, it had been carried up the narrow paths between two mules with ease. His wild cry of exultation at daybreak when he saw the gun escort emerge from the valley rings in my ears now.
“It took a while, but it finally arrived. It was a seven-pound field gun. Dismounted and strapped crosswise to two long poles, it had been easily carried up the narrow paths by two mules. His wild shout of joy at daybreak when he saw the gun escort come out of the valley still echoes in my ears now.”
“But, senores, I have no words to depict his amazement, his fury, his despair and distraction, when he heard that the animal loaded with the gun-carriage had, during the last night march, somehow or other tumbled down a precipice. He broke into menaces of death and torture against the escort. I kept out of his way all that day, lying behind some bushes, and wondering what he would do now. Retreat was left for him, but he could not retreat.
“But, gentlemen, I can't find the words to describe his shock, his anger, his despair, and his distraction when he found out that the animal carrying the gun carriage had somehow fallen down a cliff during the night march. He started threatening the escort with death and torture. I stayed out of his sight all day, hiding behind some bushes and wondering what he would do next. Retreat was an option for him, but he couldn’t back down.”
“I saw below me his artillerist, Jorge, an old Spanish soldier, building up a sort of structure with heaped-up saddles. The gun, ready loaded, was lifted on to that, but in the act of firing the whole thing collapsed and the shot flew high above the stockade.
“I saw below me his artillerist, Jorge, an old Spanish soldier, building up a kind of structure with stacked saddles. The gun, fully loaded, was placed on top of that, but when it fired, the whole thing fell apart and the shot went way above the stockade.”
“Nothing more was attempted. One of the ammunition mules had been lost, too, and they had no more than six shots to fire; ample enough to batter down the gate providing the gun was well laid. This was impossible without it being properly mounted. There was no time nor means to construct a carriage. Already every moment I expected to hear Robles’ bugle-calls echo amongst the crags.
“Nothing more was attempted. One of the ammo mules had been lost too, and they had no more than six shots left; enough to break down the gate if the gun was aimed correctly. This was impossible without it being properly set up. There was no time or resources to build a carriage. I was already anticipating Robles’ bugle calls echoing among the cliffs at any moment.
“Peneleo, wandering about uneasily, draped in his skins, sat down for a moment near me growling his usual tale.
“Peneleo, pacing around restlessly, wrapped in his furs, sat down for a moment beside me, grumbling his usual story.
“‘Make an entrada—a hole. If make a hole, bueno. If not make a hole, then vamos—we must go away.’
“‘Make an entrance—a hole. If you make a hole, great. If you don’t make a hole, then let’s go—we have to leave.’”
“After sunset I observed with surprise the Indians making preparations as if for another assault. Their lines stood ranged in the shadows of the mountains. On the plain in front of the fort gate I saw a group of men swaying about in the same place.
“After sunset, I was surprised to see the Indians getting ready as if for another attack. Their lines were lined up in the shadows of the mountains. On the plain in front of the fort gate, I noticed a group of men swaying around in the same spot.
“I walked down the ridge disregarded. The moonlight in the clear air of the uplands was bright as day, but the intense shadows confused my sight, and I could not make out what they were doing. I heard the voice of Jorge, the artillerist, say in a queer, doubtful tone, ‘It is loaded, senor.’
“I walked down the ridge unnoticed. The moonlight in the clear air of the uplands was as bright as day, but the deep shadows messed with my vision, and I couldn’t tell what they were doing. I heard Jorge, the artilleryman, say in a strange, uncertain tone, ‘It’s loaded, sir.’”
“Then another voice in that group pronounced firmly the words, ‘Bring the riata here.’ It was the voice of Gaspar Ruiz.
“Then another voice in that group said firmly, ‘Bring the rope here.’ It was Gaspar Ruiz's voice.
“A silence fell, in which the popping shots of the besieged garrison rang out sharply. They, too, had observed the group. But the distance was too great and in the spatter of spent musket-balls cutting up the ground, the group opened, closed, swayed, giving me a glimpse of busy stooping figures in its midst. I drew nearer, doubting whether this was a weird vision, a suggestive and insensate dream.
“A silence settled in, broken only by the sharp sound of gunfire from the trapped garrison. They had noticed the group as well. But the distance was too far, and amidst the scattering of spent musket balls hitting the ground, the group shifted, opened, and closed, giving me a brief view of busy, hunched figures in the middle. I moved closer, unsure if this was a bizarre sight, a vivid yet senseless dream.”
“A strangely stifled voice commanded, ‘Haul the hitches tighter.’
“A strangely subdued voice ordered, ‘Tighten the hitches.’”
“‘Si, senor,’ several other voices answered in tones of awed alacrity.
"‘Yes, sir,’ several other voices responded with eager respect."
“Then the stifled voice said: ‘Like this. I must be free to breathe.’
“Then the muffled voice said: ‘Like this. I need to be free to breathe.’”
“Then there was a concerned noise of many men together. ‘Help him up, hombres. Steady! Under the other arm.’
“Then there was a worried sound from a lot of men together. ‘Help him up, guys. Easy! Support him under the other arm.’”
“That deadened voice ordered: ‘Bueno! Stand away from me, men.’
“That dull voice commanded: ‘Good! Stand away from me, guys.’”
“I pushed my way through the recoiling circle, and heard once more that same oppressed voice saying earnestly: ‘Forget that I am a living man, Jorge. Forget me altogether, and think of what you have to do.’
“I pushed my way through the shrinking circle and heard again that same strained voice saying earnestly: ‘Forget that I’m a living man, Jorge. Completely forget me, and think about what you need to do.’”
“‘Be without fear, senor. You are nothing to me but a gun-carriage, and I shall not waste a shot.’
“‘Don’t be afraid, sir. You’re nothing to me but a gun carriage, and I won’t waste a shot.’”
“I heard the spluttering of a port-fire, and smelt the saltpetre of the match. I saw suddenly before me a nondescript shape on all fours like a beast, but with a man’s head drooping below a tubular projection over the nape of the neck, and the gleam of a rounded mass of bronze on its back.
“I heard the sputtering of a flare and smelled the saltpeter of the match. Suddenly, I saw an indistinct figure on all fours like an animal, but with a man's head drooping beneath a tubular protrusion at the back of its neck, and a shiny rounded mass of bronze on its back.
“In front of a silent semicircle of men it squatted alone, with Jorge behind it and a trumpeter motionless, his trumpet in his hand, by its side.
“In front of a silent semicircle of men, it sat alone, with Jorge behind it and a trumpeter standing still, his trumpet in hand, next to it."
“Jorge, bent double, muttered, port-fire in hand: ‘An inch to the left, senor. Too much. So. Now, if you let yourself down a little by letting your elbows bend, I will . . .’
“Jorge, hunched over, whispered, flare in hand: ‘An inch to the left, sir. Too much. There. Now, if you lower yourself a bit by bending your elbows, I will . . .’”
“He leaped aside, lowering his port-fire, and a burst of flame darted out of the muzzle of the gun lashed on the man’s back.
“He jumped to the side, lowering his torch, and a burst of flame shot out of the barrel of the gun strapped to the man’s back.
“Then Gaspar Ruiz lowered himself slowly. ‘Good shot?’ he asked.
“Then Gaspar Ruiz slowly lowered himself. ‘Good shot?’ he asked.
“‘Full on, senor.’
"Going all in, dude."
“‘Then load again.’
"Then reload."
“He lay there before me on his breast under the darkly glittering bronze of his monstrous burden, such as no love or strength of man had ever had to bear in the lamentable history of the world. His arms were spread out, and he resembled a prostrate penitent on the moonlit ground.
“He lay there before me on his stomach beneath the darkly shining bronze of his huge burden, something no love or strength of man had ever had to carry in the sad history of the world. His arms were spread out, and he looked like a fallen penitent on the moonlit ground.”
“Again I saw him raised to his hands and knees and the men stand away from him, and old Jorge stoop glancing along the gun.
“Again, I saw him on his hands and knees while the men stood away from him, and old Jorge was bent over, looking along the gun.”
“‘Left a little. Right an inch. Por Dios, senor, stop this trembling. Where is your strength?’
“‘Move a little to the left. Shift right an inch. For God's sake, sir, stop shaking. Where is your strength?’”
“The old gunner’s voice was cracked with emotion. He stepped aside, and quick as lightning brought the spark to the touch-hole.
“The old gunner’s voice was filled with emotion. He stepped aside and, quick as lightning, lit the touch-hole.”
“‘Excellent!’ he cried, tearfully; but Gaspar Ruiz lay for a long time silent, flattened on the ground.
“‘Awesome!’ he exclaimed, tearfully; but Gaspar Ruiz remained silent for a long time, lying flat on the ground.
“‘I am tired,’ he murmured at last. ‘Will another shot do it?’
“‘I’m tired,’ he said finally. ‘Will another shot help?’”
“‘Without doubt,’ said Jorge, bending down to his ear.
“‘No doubt about it,’ said Jorge, leaning down to his ear.
“‘Then—load,’ I heard him utter distinctly. ‘Trumpeter!’
“‘Then—load,’ I heard him say clearly. ‘Trumpeter!’”
“‘I am here, senor, ready for your word.’
“‘I’m here, sir, ready for your command.’”
“‘Blow a blast at this word that shall be heard from one end of Chile to the other,’ he said, in an extraordinarily strong voice. ‘And you others stand ready to cut this accursed riata, for then will be the time for me to lead you in your rush. Now raise me up, and you, Jorge—be quick with your aim.’
“‘Sound a horn at this word that everyone in Chile will hear,’ he said in a powerful voice. ‘And you all be ready to cut this cursed rope, because that will be the moment for me to lead you in your charge. Now lift me up, and you, Jorge—hurry with your aim.’”
“The rattle of musketry from the fort nearly drowned his voice. The palisade was wreathed in smoke and flame.
“The sound of gunfire from the fort almost drowned out his voice. The palisade was surrounded by smoke and fire.”
“‘Exert your force forward against the recoil, mi amo,’ said the old gunner, shakily. ‘Dig your fingers into the ground. So. Now!’
“‘Push your weight forward against the kick, my love,’ said the old gunner, trembling. ‘Dig your fingers into the ground. There you go! Now!’”
“A cry of exultation escaped him after the shot. The trumpeter raised his trumpet nearly to his lips and waited. But no word came from the prostrate man. I fell on one knee, and heard all he had to say then.
“A shout of joy burst from him after the shot. The trumpeter lifted his trumpet almost to his lips and paused. But no sound came from the fallen man. I dropped to one knee and heard everything he had to say then.”
“‘Something broken,’ he whispered, lifting his head a little, and turning his eyes towards me in his hopelessly crushed attitude.
“‘Something broken,’ he whispered, lifting his head slightly and turning his eyes toward me in his utterly defeated posture.
“‘The gate hangs only by the splinters,’ yelled Jorge.
“‘The gate is barely hanging on by the splinters,’ yelled Jorge.
“Gaspar Ruiz tried to speak, but his voice died out in his throat, and I helped to roll the gun off his broken back. He was insensible.
“Gaspar Ruiz tried to speak, but his voice faded in his throat, and I helped to roll the gun off his broken back. He was unconscious.
“I kept my lips shut, of course. The signal for the Indians to attack was never given. Instead, the bugle-calls of the relieving force for which my ears had thirsted so long, burst out, terrifying like the call of the Last Day to our surprised enemies.
“I kept my lips shut, of course. The signal for the Indians to attack was never given. Instead, the bugle calls of the relieving force that I had been waiting to hear for so long blared out, terrifying like the call of Judgment Day to our surprised enemies.
“A tornado, senores, a real hurricane of stampeded men, wild horses, mounted Indians, swept over me as I cowered on the ground by the side of Gaspar Ruiz, still stretched out on his face in the shape of a cross. Peneleo, galloping for life, jabbed at me with his long chuso in passing—for the sake of old acquaintance, I suppose. How I escaped the flying lead is more difficult to explain. Venturing to rise on my knees too soon some soldiers of the 17th Taltal regiment, in their hurry to get at something alive, nearly bayoneted me on the spot. They looked very disappointed, too, when, some officers galloping up drove them away with the flat of their swords.
“A tornado, folks, a real storm of panicking men, wild horses, and mounted Native Americans, swept over me as I huddled on the ground next to Gaspar Ruiz, who was still lying face down in a cross shape. Peneleo, racing for his life, poked at me with his long spear as he passed—just for old times, I guess. How I dodged the flying bullets is tougher to explain. When I dared to get up on my knees too soon, some soldiers from the 17th Taltal regiment, in their rush to get to something living, almost stabbed me right there. They looked pretty let down, too, when some officers rode up and drove them off with the flat of their swords.”
“It was General Robles with his staff. He wanted badly to make some prisoners. He, too, seemed disappointed for a moment. ‘What! Is it you?’ he cried. But he dismounted at once to embrace me, for he was an old friend of my family. I pointed to the body at our feet, and said only these two words:
“It was General Robles with his staff. He really wanted to take some prisoners. He also looked disappointed for a moment. ‘What! Is it you?’ he exclaimed. But he got off his horse right away to hug me, since he was an old family friend. I pointed to the body at our feet and said just these two words:
“‘Gaspar Ruiz.’
“Gaspar Ruiz.”
“He threw his arms up in astonishment.
“He threw his arms up in surprise.
“‘Aha! Your strong man! Always to the last with your strong man. No matter. He saved our lives when the earth trembled enough to make the bravest faint with fear. I was frightened out of my wits. But he—no! Que guape! Where’s the hero who got the best of him? ha! ha! ha! What killed him, chico?’
“‘Aha! Your strong guy! Always sticking up for your strong guy. No problem. He saved our lives when the ground shook hard enough to make even the bravest people faint with fear. I was scared out of my mind. But he—no way! What a stud! Where's the hero who could beat him? Ha! Ha! Ha! What took him down, kid?’”
“‘His own strength, General,’ I answered.”
“‘His own strength, General,’ I replied.”
XII
XII
“But Gaspar Ruiz breathed yet. I had him carried in his poncho under the shelter of some bushes on the very ridge from which he had been gazing so fixedly at the fort while unseen death was hovering already over his head.
"But Gaspar Ruiz was still alive. I had him carried in his poncho under the cover of some bushes on the very ridge from which he had been staring so intensely at the fort while an unseen death was already looming over him."
“Our troops had bivouacked round the fort. Towards daybreak I was not surprised to hear that I was designated to command the escort of a prisoner who was to be sent down at once to Santiago. Of course the prisoner was Gaspar Ruiz’ wife.
“Our troops had set up camp around the fort. As dawn approached, I wasn’t surprised to hear that I was chosen to lead the escort for a prisoner who was to be sent down to Santiago immediately. Naturally, the prisoner was Gaspar Ruiz’s wife.”
“‘I have named you out of regard for your feelings,’ General Robles remarked. ‘Though the woman really ought to be shot for all the harm she has done to the Republic.’
“‘I named you out of consideration for your feelings,’ General Robles commented. ‘Even though the woman really should be shot for all the damage she has caused to the Republic.’”
“And as I made a movement of shocked protest, he continued:
“And as I reacted in shocked protest, he kept going:
“‘Now he is as well as dead, she is of no importance. Nobody will know what to do with her. However, the Government wants her.’ He shrugged his shoulders. ‘I suppose he must have buried large quantities of his loot in places that she alone knows of.’
“‘Now he's pretty much dead, so she doesn't matter. No one will know what to do with her. But the Government wants her.’ He shrugged. ‘I guess he must have buried a lot of his stash in places that only she knows about.’”
“At dawn I saw her coming up the ridge, guarded by two soldiers, and carrying her child on her arm.
“At dawn I saw her coming up the hill, accompanied by two soldiers, and holding her child in her arms."
“I walked to meet her.
"I walked to see her."
“‘Is he living yet?’ she asked, confronting me with that white, impassive face he used to look at in an adoring way.
“‘Is he alive yet?’ she asked, facing me with that pale, expressionless face he used to gaze at with adoration.”
“I bent my head, and led her round a clump of bushes without a word. His eyes were open. He breathed with difficulty, and uttered her name with a great effort.
“I lowered my head and guided her around a group of bushes in silence. His eyes were open. He was breathing laboriously and struggled to say her name.”
“‘Erminia!’
'Erminia!'
“She knelt at his head. The little girl, unconscious of him, and with her big eyes looking about, began to chatter suddenly, in a joyous, thin voice. She pointed a tiny finger at the rosy glow of sunrise behind the black shapes of the peaks. And while that child-talk, incomprehensible and sweet to the ear, lasted, those two, the dying man and the kneeling woman, remained silent, looking into each other’s eyes, listening to the frail sound. Then the prattle stopped. The child laid its head against its mother’s breast and was still.
She knelt by his head. The little girl, unaware of him, with her big eyes wandering around, suddenly started chatting in a joyful, high-pitched voice. She pointed a tiny finger at the rosy glow of sunrise behind the dark shapes of the peaks. While her sweet, incomprehensible chatter filled the air, the dying man and the kneeling woman remained silent, gazing into each other’s eyes and listening to the delicate sounds. Then the chatter stopped. The child rested her head against her mother’s chest and grew quiet.
“‘It was for you,’ he began. ‘Forgive.’ His voice failed him. Presently I heard a mutter and caught the pitiful words: ‘Not strong enough.’
“‘It was for you,’ he started. ‘Please forgive me.’ His voice trailed off. Soon, I heard a murmur and picked up the sorrowful words: ‘Not strong enough.’”
“She looked at him with an extraordinary intensity. He tried to smile, and in a humble tone, ‘Forgive me,’ he repeated. ‘Leaving you . . .’
“She looked at him with an intense gaze. He attempted to smile and, in a humble tone, said, ‘Forgive me,’ he repeated. ‘Leaving you . . .’”
“She bent down, dry-eyed and in a steady voice: ‘On all the earth I have loved nothing but you, Gaspar,’ she said.
“She bent down, dry-eyed and in a steady voice: ‘I have loved nothing on this earth but you, Gaspar,’ she said.
“His head made a movement. His eyes revived. ‘At last!’ he sighed out. Then, anxiously, ‘But is this true . . . is this true?’
“His head moved. His eyes came to life. ‘Finally!’ he sighed. Then, with worry, ‘But is this real . . . is this real?’”
“‘As true as that there is no mercy and justice in this world,’ she answered him, passionately. She stooped over his face. He tried to raise his head, but it fell back, and when she kissed his lips he was already dead. His glazed eyes stared at the sky, on which pink clouds floated very high. But I noticed the eyelids of the child, pressed to its mother’s breast, droop and close slowly. She had gone to sleep.
“‘As true as there’s no mercy or justice in this world,’ she replied to him, with deep emotion. She leaned over his face. He tried to lift his head, but it fell back, and when she kissed his lips, he was already gone. His lifeless eyes gazed at the sky, where pink clouds floated far above. But I saw the eyelids of the child, resting against its mother’s chest, slowly droop and close. She had fallen asleep.”
“The widow of Gaspar Ruiz, the strong man, allowed me to lead her away without shedding a tear.
“The widow of Gaspar Ruiz, the strong man, let me take her away without crying.”
“For travelling we had arranged for her a sidesaddle very much like a chair, with a board swung beneath to rest her feet on. And the first day she rode without uttering a word, and hardly for one moment turning her eyes away from the little girl, whom she held on her knees. At our first camp I saw her during the night walking about, rocking the child in her arms and gazing down at it by the light of the moon. After we had started on our second day’s march she asked me how soon we should come to the first village of the inhabited country.
“For traveling, we arranged for her a sidesaddle that was quite like a chair, with a board underneath for her to rest her feet on. On the first day, she rode without saying a word, hardly taking her eyes off the little girl she held on her lap. At our first camp, I saw her walking around at night, rocking the child in her arms and looking down at it in the moonlight. After we started our second day’s march, she asked me how soon we would reach the first village in the inhabited area.”
“I said we should be there about noon.
“I said we should be there around noon.
“‘And will there be women there?’ she inquired.
“‘And will there be women there?’ she asked.
“I told her that it was a large village. ‘There will be men and women there, senora,’ I said, ‘whose hearts shall be made glad by the news that all the unrest and war is over now.’
“I told her that it was a big village. ‘There will be men and women there, ma'am,’ I said, ‘whose hearts will be filled with joy by the news that all the unrest and war is over now.’”
“‘Yes, it is all over now,’ she repeated. Then, after a time: ‘Senor officer, what will your Government do with me?’
“‘Yes, it’s all over now,’ she repeated. Then, after a moment: ‘Mr. Officer, what will your government do with me?’”
“‘I do not know, senora,’ I said. ‘They will treat you well, no doubt. We republicans are not savages and take no vengeance on women.’
“I don’t know, ma’am,” I said. “They’ll treat you well, no doubt. We republicans are not savages and don’t take revenge on women.”
“She gave me a look at the word ‘republicans’ which I imagined full of undying hate. But an hour or so afterwards, as we drew up to let the baggage mules go first along a narrow path skirting a precipice, she looked at me with such a white, troubled face that I felt a great pity for her.
“She gave me a look at the word ‘republicans’ that I imagined was full of undying hate. But about an hour later, as we stopped to let the baggage mules go first along a narrow path by a cliff, she looked at me with such a pale, troubled face that I felt a deep pity for her.
“‘Senor officer,’ she said, ‘I am weak, I tremble. It is an insensate fear.’ And indeed her lips did tremble while she tried to smile, glancing at the beginning of the narrow path which was not so dangerous after all. ‘I am afraid I shall drop the child. Gaspar saved your life, you remember. . . . Take her from me.’
“‘Officer,’ she said, ‘I feel weak, I’m shaking. It’s an irrational fear.’ And indeed her lips were quivering while she attempted to smile, looking at the start of the narrow path that wasn’t as dangerous as she thought. ‘I’m scared I might drop the child. Gaspar saved your life, you remember... Please take her from me.’”
“I took the child out of her extended arms. ‘Shut your eyes, senora, and trust to your mule,’ I recommended.
“I took the child from her outstretched arms. ‘Close your eyes, ma'am, and trust your mule,’ I suggested.
“She did so, and with her pallor and her wasted, thin face she looked deathlike. At a turn of the path where a great crag of purple porphyry closes the view of the lowlands, I saw her open her eyes. I rode just behind her holding the little girl with my right arm. ‘The child is all right,’ I cried encouragingly.
“She did so, and with her pale skin and her thin, worn face, she looked like a ghost. At a bend in the path where a huge crag of purple porphyry blocked the view of the lowlands, I saw her open her eyes. I rode just behind her, holding the little girl with my right arm. ‘The child is fine,’ I called out encouragingly.
“‘Yes,’ she answered, faintly; and then, to my intense terror, I saw her stand up on the foot-rest, staring horribly, and throw herself forward into the chasm on our right.
“‘Yes,’ she answered quietly; and then, to my utter horror, I saw her stand up on the footrest, staring in shock, and throw herself forward into the abyss on our right.
“I cannot describe to you the sudden and abject fear that came over me at that dreadful sight. It was a dread of the abyss, the dread of the crags which seemed to nod upon me. My head swam. I pressed the child to my side and sat my horse as still as a statue. I was speechless and cold all over. Her mule staggered, sidling close to the rock, and then went on. My horse only pricked up his ears with a slight snort. My heart stood still, and from the depths of the precipice the stones rattling in the bed of the furious stream made me almost insane with their sound.
“I can’t describe the sudden and overwhelming fear that hit me at that terrible sight. It was a fear of the void, a fear of the cliffs that seemed to lean toward me. My head was spinning. I pressed the child to my side and kept my horse as still as a statue. I was speechless and felt cold all over. Her mule stumbled, edging closer to the rock, and then moved on. My horse only perked up his ears with a slight snort. My heart stopped, and from the bottom of the gorge, the stones rattling in the angry stream drove me almost insane with their noise.”
“Next moment we were round the turn and on a broad and grassy slope. And then I yelled. My men came running back to me in great alarm. It seems that at first I did nothing but shout, ‘She has given the child into my hands! She has given the child into my hands!’ The escort thought I had gone mad.”
“Next moment we were around the bend and on a wide grassy slope. And then I yelled. My guys came running back to me in a panic. It seems that at first I just kept shouting, ‘She has given the child to me! She has given the child to me!’ The escort thought I had lost my mind.”
General Santierra ceased and got up from the table. “And that is all, senores,” he concluded, with a courteous glance at his rising guests.
General Santierra stopped and got up from the table. “And that’s all, gentlemen,” he finished, giving a polite glance at his departing guests.
“But what became of the child. General?” we asked.
“But what happened to the child, General?” we asked.
“Ah, the child, the child.”
“Ah, the kid, the kid.”
He walked to one of the windows opening on his beautiful garden, the refuge of his old days. Its fame was great in the land. Keeping us back with a raised arm, he called out, “Erminia, Erminia!” and waited. Then his cautioning arm dropped, and we crowded to the windows.
He walked to one of the windows overlooking his beautiful garden, the refuge of his older days. Its reputation was well-known in the area. Holding us back with a raised arm, he called out, “Erminia, Erminia!” and waited. Then his cautioning arm dropped, and we rushed to the windows.
From a clump of trees a woman had come upon the broad walk bordered with flowers. We could hear the rustle of her starched petticoats and observed the ample spread of her old-fashioned black silk skirt. She looked up, and seeing all these eyes staring at her stopped, frowned, smiled, shook her finger at the General, who was laughing boisterously, and drawing the black lace on her head so as to partly conceal her haughty profile, passed out of our sight, walking with stiff dignity.
From a group of trees, a woman stepped onto the wide path lined with flowers. We could hear the rustle of her stiff petticoats and saw the wide spread of her old-fashioned black silk skirt. She looked up, and noticing all the eyes on her, she stopped, frowned, smiled, shook her finger at the General, who was laughing loudly, and adjusted the black lace on her head to partially hide her proud profile before walking away with an air of stiff dignity.
“You have beheld the guardian angel of the old man—and her to whom you owe all that is seemly and comfortable in my hospitality. Somehow, senores, though the flame of love has been kindled early in my breast, I have never married. And because of that perhaps the sparks of the sacred fire are not yet extinct here.” He struck his broad chest. “Still alive, still alive,” he said, with serio-comic emphasis. “But I shall not marry now. She is General Santierra’s adopted daughter and heiress.”
“You've seen the guardian angel of the old man—and the one to whom you owe everything that's nice and comfortable in my hospitality. Somehow, gentlemen, even though the flame of love was ignited early in my heart, I've never gotten married. Maybe because of that, the sparks of that sacred fire are still not gone here.” He struck his broad chest. “Still alive, still alive,” he said, with a serious yet humorous tone. “But I won’t marry now. She is General Santierra’s adopted daughter and heiress.”
One of our fellow-guests, a young naval officer, described her afterwards as a “short, stout, old girl of forty or thereabouts.” We had all noticed that her hair was turning grey, and that she had very fine black eyes.
One of our fellow guests, a young naval officer, later described her as a “short, stocky, older woman of about forty.” We had all noticed that her hair was going grey and that she had very striking black eyes.
“And,” General Santierra continued, “neither would she ever hear of marrying any one. A real calamity! Good, patient, devoted to the old man. A simple soul. But I would not advise any of you to ask for her hand, for if she took yours into hers it would be only to crush your bones. Ah! she does not jest on that subject. And she is the own daughter of her father, the strong man who perished through his own strength: the strength of his body, of his simplicity—of his love!”
"And," General Santierra continued, "she would never consider marrying anyone. What a tragedy! She's good, patient, and devoted to the old man. A truly simple soul. But I wouldn't recommend any of you to ask for her hand, because if she took yours, it would only be to crush your bones. Ah! She's serious about that. And she is the daughter of her father, the strong man who met his end due to his own strength: the strength of his body, his simplicity—his love!"
THE INFORMER
AN IRONIC TALE
Mr. X came to me, preceded by a letter of introduction from a good friend of mine in Paris, specifically to see my collection of Chinese bronzes and porcelain.
Mr. X came to me with a letter of introduction from a good friend of mine in Paris, specifically to see my collection of Chinese bronzes and porcelain.
“My friend in Paris is a collector, too. He collects neither porcelain, nor bronzes, nor pictures, nor medals, nor stamps, nor anything that could be profitably dispersed under an auctioneer’s hammer. He would reject, with genuine surprise, the name of a collector. Nevertheless, that’s what he is by temperament. He collects acquaintances. It is delicate work. He brings to it the patience, the passion, the determination of a true collector of curiosities. His collection does not contain any royal personages. I don’t think he considers them sufficiently rare and interesting; but, with that exception, he has met with and talked to everyone worth knowing on any conceivable ground. He observes them, listens to them, penetrates them, measures them, and puts the memory away in the galleries of his mind. He has schemed, plotted, and travelled all over Europe in order to add to his collection of distinguished personal acquaintances.
“My friend in Paris is a collector, too. He doesn’t collect porcelain, bronzes, pictures, medals, stamps, or anything that could be sold off profitably at an auction. He would genuinely be surprised if you called him a collector. But he really is, by nature. He collects acquaintances. It’s a delicate job. He approaches it with the patience, passion, and determination of a true collector of curiosities. His collection doesn’t include any royal figures. I don’t think he finds them rare or interesting enough; but aside from that, he has met and talked to everyone worth knowing for any reason. He observes them, listens to them, understands them, measures them, and stores the memory away in his mind’s galleries. He has planned, strategized, and traveled all over Europe to expand his collection of notable personal acquaintances.
“As he is wealthy, well connected, and unprejudiced, his collection is pretty complete, including objects (or should I say subjects?) whose value is unappreciated by the vulgar, and often unknown to popular fame. Of trevolte of modern times. The world knows him as a revolutionary writer whose savage irony has laid bare the rottenness of the most respectable institutions. He has scalped every venerated head, and has mangled at the stake of his wit every received opinion and every recognized principle of conduct and policy. Who does not remember his flaming red revolutionary pamphlets? Their sudden swarmings used to overwhelm the powers of every Continental police like a plague of crimson gadflies. But this extreme writer has been also the active inspirer of secret societies, the mysterious unknown Number One of desperate conspiracies suspected and unsuspected, matured or baffled. And the world at large has never had an inkling of that fact! This accounts for him going about amongst us to this day, a veteran of many subterranean campaigns, standing aside now, safe within his reputation of merely the greatest destructive publicist that ever lived.”
“As he is wealthy, well-connected, and open-minded, his collection is quite extensive, featuring items (or should I say subjects?) whose value goes unrecognized by the masses, and is often unknown to popular fame. Of the turmoil of modern times. The world knows him as a revolutionary writer whose biting irony has exposed the corruption of even the most respected institutions. He has taken down every revered figure and has decimated, with his wit, every accepted opinion and every established principle of behavior and policy. Who doesn’t remember his fiery red revolutionary pamphlets? Their sudden appearance used to overwhelm every Continental police force like a plague of crimson flies. But this extreme writer has also been the active motivator of secret societies, the mysterious unknown Number One of desperate conspiracies, both known and unknown, developed or thwarted. And the general public has never had any idea of this! This explains why he still walks among us today, a veteran of many covert campaigns, now resting safely within his reputation as simply the greatest destructive publicist who ever lived.”
Thus wrote my friend, adding that Mr. X was an enlightened connoisseur of bronzes and china, and asking me to show him my collection.
Thus wrote my friend, adding that Mr. X was a knowledgeable expert in bronzes and china, and asking me to show him my collection.
X turned up in due course. My treasures are disposed in three large rooms without carpets and curtains. There is no other furniture than the etagres and the glass cases whose contents shall be worth a fortune to my heirs. I allow no fires to be lighted, for fear of accidents, and a fire-proof door separates them from the rest of the house.
X showed up eventually. My treasures are arranged in three big rooms with no carpets or curtains. The only other furniture are the shelves and the glass cases, which will be worth a fortune to my heirs. I don't allow any fires to be lit, to avoid accidents, and a fireproof door separates them from the rest of the house.
It was a bitter cold day. We kept on our overcoats and hats. Middle-sized and spare, his eyes alert in a long, Roman-nosed countenance, X walked on his neat little feet, with short steps, and looked at my collection intelligently. I hope I looked at him intelligently, too. A snow-white moustache and imperial made his nutbrown complexion appear darker than it really was. In his fur coat and shiny tall hat that terrible man looked fashionable. I believe he belonged to a noble family, and could have called himself Vicomte X de la Z if he chose. We talked nothing but bronzes and porcelain. He was remarkably appreciative. We parted on cordial terms.
It was a freezing cold day. We kept our overcoats and hats on. Medium height and lean, his alert eyes set in a long, Roman-nosed face, X walked on his neat little feet with short steps and looked at my collection thoughtfully. I hoped I looked at him thoughtfully, too. A snow-white mustache and goatee made his brown complexion seem darker than it actually was. In his fur coat and shiny tall hat, that imposing man looked stylish. I believe he came from a noble family and could have called himself Vicomte X de la Z if he wanted. We talked only about bronzes and porcelain. He was incredibly appreciative. We parted on friendly terms.
Where he was staying I don’t know. I imagine he must have been a lonely man. Anarchists, I suppose, have no families—not, at any rate, as we understand that social relation. Organization into families may answer to a need of human nature, but in the last instance it is based on law, and therefore must be something odious and impossible to an anarchist. But, indeed, I don’t understand anarchists. Does a man of that—of that—persuasion still remain an anarchist when alone, quite alone and going to bed, for instance? Does he lay his head on the pillow, pull his bedclothes over him, and go to sleep with the necessity of the chambardement general, as the French slang has it, of the general blow-up, always present to his mind? And if so how can he? I am sure that if such a faith (or such a fanaticism) once mastered my thoughts I would never be able to compose myself sufficiently to sleep or eat or perform any of the routine acts of daily life. I would want no wife, no children; I could have no friends, it seems to me; and as to collecting bronzes or china, that, I should say, would be quite out of the question. But I don’t know. All I know is that Mr. X took his meals in a very good restaurant which I frequented also.
I don't know where he was staying. I imagine he must have been a lonely guy. Anarchists, I guess, don't have families—not in the traditional sense, anyway. Family organization may fulfill a need in human nature, but ultimately it's based on law, and that must be something repulsive and impossible for an anarchist. But honestly, I don’t get anarchists. Does a person with that—belief still consider himself an anarchist when he’s alone, completely alone, like when he goes to bed? Does he lay his head on the pillow, pull up the covers, and drift off to sleep while the thought of a complete upheaval, as the French slang goes, the general blow-up, is always in the back of his mind? And if that’s the case, how does he manage it? I’m sure that if such a belief (or fanaticism) took over my mind, I wouldn’t be able to calm myself enough to sleep, eat, or do any of the daily routines. I wouldn’t want a wife or kids; I couldn’t have friends, it seems to me; and as for collecting bronzes or china, that would be totally out of the question. But I don’t know. All I know is that Mr. X had his meals at a really nice restaurant that I also went to.
With his head uncovered, the silver top-knot of his brushed-up hair completed the character of his physiognomy, all bony ridges and sunken hollows, clothed in a perfect impassiveness of expression. His meagre brown hands emerging from large white cuffs came and went breaking bread, pouring wine, and so on, with quiet mechanical precision. His head and body above the tablecloth had a rigid immobility. This firebrand, this great agitator, exhibited the least possible amount of warmth and animation. His voice was rasping, cold, and monotonous in a low key. He could not be called a talkative personality; but with his detached calm manner he appeared as ready to keep the conversation going as to drop it at any moment.
With his head bare, the silver top-knot of his slicked-back hair completed the look of his face, which had all bony ridges and hollow cheeks, maintaining a perfectly expressionless demeanor. His thin brown hands, emerging from large white cuffs, moved back and forth breaking bread, pouring wine, and so on, with quiet mechanical precision. His head and body above the tablecloth were rigidly still. This troublemaker, this great activist, showed the least amount of warmth and emotion. His voice was harsh, cold, and monotone. He wasn't really a chatty person; but with his detached calm, he seemed just as ready to keep the conversation going as he was to end it at any moment.
And his conversation was by no means commonplace. To me, I own, there was some excitement in talking quietly across a dinner-table with a man whose venomous pen-stabs had sapped the vitality of at least one monarchy. That much was a matter of public knowledge. But I knew more. I knew of him—from my friend—as a certainty what the guardians of social order in Europe had at most only suspected, or dimly guessed at.
And his conversation was far from ordinary. Honestly, I found it thrilling to quietly chat over dinner with a man whose sharp writings had drained the strength from at least one monarchy. That much was well known. But I knew more. I knew about him—from my friend—as a certainty that the protectors of social order in Europe had only suspected or vaguely guessed.
He had had what I may call his underground life. And as I sat, evening after evening, facing him at dinner, a curiosity in that direction would naturally arise in my mind. I am a quiet and peaceable product of civilization, and know no passion other than the passion for collecting things which are rare, and must remain exquisite even if approaching to the monstrous. Some Chinese bronzes are monstrously precious. And here (out of my friend’s collection), here I had before me a kind of rare monster. It is true that this monster was polished and in a sense even exquisite. His beautiful unruffled manner was that. But then he was not of bronze. He was not even Chinese, which would have enabled one to contemplate him calmly across the gulf of racial difference. He was alive and European; he had the manner of good society, wore a coat and hat like mine, and had pretty near the same taste in cooking. It was too frightful to think of.
He had what I can call his underground life. And as I sat, night after night, facing him at dinner, curiosity about that naturally grew in my mind. I’m a quiet and peaceful product of civilization, and I know no passion other than the passion for collecting things that are rare, which must remain exquisite even if they verge on the monstrous. Some Chinese bronzes are incredibly valuable. And here (from my friend’s collection), I had in front of me a kind of rare monster. It’s true that this monster was polished and in a way even exquisite. His beautiful, unruffled manner was that. But he wasn’t made of bronze. He wasn’t even Chinese, which would have allowed me to contemplate him calmly from the distance of racial difference. He was alive and European; he had the manner of good society, wore a coat and hat like mine, and had nearly the same taste in cooking. It was too frightening to think about.
One evening he remarked, casually, in the course of conversation, “There’s no amendment to be got out of mankind except by terror and violence.”
One evening, he casually mentioned in the conversation, “You won’t get any change from humanity except through fear and violence.”
You can imagine the effect of such a phrase out of such a man’s mouth upon a person like myself, whose whole scheme of life had been based upon a suave and delicate discrimination of social and artistic values. Just imagine! Upon me, to whom all sorts and forms of violence appeared as unreal as the giants, ogres, and seven-headed hydras whose activities affect, fantastically, the course of legends and fairy-tales!
You can picture how shocking it would be to hear such a phrase from a man like that, especially for someone like me, whose entire approach to life revolved around a refined and careful understanding of social and artistic values. Just think about it! For me, all kinds of violence seemed as unreal as the giants, ogres, and seven-headed monsters that play fantastical roles in legends and fairy tales!
I seemed suddenly to hear above the festive bustle and clatter of the brilliant restaurant the mutter of a hungry and seditious multitude.
I suddenly seemed to hear, above the lively hustle and noise of the bright restaurant, the murmurs of a hungry and rebellious crowd.
I suppose I am impressionable and imaginative. I had a disturbing vision of darkness, full of lean jaws and wild eyes, amongst the hundred electric lights of the place. But somehow this vision made me angry, too. The sight of that man, so calm, breaking bits of white bread, exasperated me. And I had the audacity to ask him how it was that the starving proletariat of Europe to whom he had been preaching revolt and violence had not been made indignant by his openly luxurious life. “At all this,” I said, pointedly, with a glance round the room and at the bottle of champagne we generally shared between us at dinner.
I guess I’m sensitive and imaginative. I had a disturbing image of darkness, filled with lean jaws and wild eyes, amidst the hundreds of electric lights in the place. But somehow, this vision also made me angry. The sight of that man, so calm, tearing pieces of white bread, frustrated me. And I had the nerve to ask him how it was that the starving working class in Europe, to whom he had been preaching revolution and violence, hadn’t been outraged by his openly lavish lifestyle. “Look at all this,” I said pointedly, glancing around the room and at the bottle of champagne we usually shared at dinner.
He remained unmoved.
He stayed unfazed.
“Do I feed on their toil and their heart’s blood? Am I a speculator or a capitalist? Did I steal my fortune from a starving people? No! They know this very well. And they envy me nothing. The miserable mass of the people is generous to its leaders. What I have acquired has come to me through my writings; not from the millions of pamphlets distributed gratis to the hungry and the oppressed, but from the hundreds of thousands of copies sold to the well-fed bourgeoisie. You know that my writings were at one time the rage, the fashion—the thing to read with wonder and horror, to turn your eyes up at my pathos . . . or else, to laugh in ecstasies at my wit.”
“Do I benefit from their hard work and suffering? Am I a speculator or a capitalist? Did I take my fortune from starving people? No! They know this very well. And they don’t envy me at all. The struggling masses are generous to their leaders. What I’ve gained has come from my writing; not from the millions of pamphlets handed out for free to the hungry and oppressed, but from the hundreds of thousands of copies sold to the well-off bourgeoisie. You know that my writings were once all the rage—the must-read that inspired wonder and horror, making people roll their eyes at my pathos... or laugh in delight at my wit.”
“Yes,” I admitted. “I remember, of course; and I confess frankly that I could never understand that infatuation.”
"Yes," I said. "I remember, of course; and I honestly admit that I could never grasp that obsession."
“Don’t you know yet,” he said, “that an idle and selfish class loves to see mischief being made, even if it is made at its own expense? Its own life being all a matter of pose and gesture, it is unable to realize the power and the danger of a real movement and of words that have no sham meaning. It is all fun and sentiment. It is sufficient, for instance, to point out the attitude of the old French aristocracy towards the philosophers whose words were preparing the Great Revolution. Even in England, where you have some common-sense, a demagogue has only to shout loud enough and long enough to find some backing in the very class he is shouting at. You, too, like to see mischief being made. The demagogue carries the amateurs of emotion with him. Amateurism in this, that, and the other thing is a delightfully easy way of killing time, and feeding one’s own vanity—the silly vanity of being abreast with the ideas of the day after to-morrow. Just as good and otherwise harmless people will join you in ecstasies over your collection without having the slightest notion in what its marvellousness really consists.”
“Don't you know yet,” he said, “that a lazy and self-centered class loves to see chaos unfold, even if it comes at its own expense? Their lives are just about appearances and gestures, so they can't grasp the impact and the risk of a genuine movement or words that actually mean something. It's all just for fun and sentiment. For example, look at how the old French aristocracy viewed the philosophers whose ideas were laying the groundwork for the Great Revolution. Even in England, where there's some common sense, a demagogue just has to yell loud enough and long enough to find support from the very class he is targeting. You, too, enjoy watching chaos happen. The demagogue brings along those who crave emotional experiences. This amateur involvement in various things is a wonderfully easy way to pass the time and boost one’s own ego—the silly ego of wanting to stay current with the ideas of the near future. Just like good and otherwise harmless people will rave about your collection without having the faintest idea of what makes it truly amazing.”
I hung my head. It was a crushing illustration of the sad truth he advanced. The world is full of such people. And that instance of the French aristocracy before the Revolution was extremely telling, too. I could not traverse his statement, though its cynicism—always a distasteful trait—took off much of its value to my mind. However, I admit I was impressed. I felt the need to say something which would not be in the nature of assent and yet would not invite discussion.
I lowered my head. It was a painful reminder of the harsh reality he was pointing out. The world is filled with people like that. And that example of the French aristocracy before the Revolution was very revealing, too. I couldn't argue against his point, even though its cynicism—something I always find off-putting—diminished its worth in my eyes. Still, I have to admit I was intrigued. I felt the urge to say something that wouldn’t agree with him, but wouldn’t open the door for a debate either.
“You don’t mean to say,” I observed, airily, “that extreme revolutionists have ever been actively assisted by the infatuation of such people?”
“You can’t be serious,” I said casually, “that extreme revolutionaries have ever been helped by the obsession of people like that?”
“I did not mean exactly that by what I said just now. I generalized. But since you ask me, I may tell you that such help has been given to revolutionary activities, more or less consciously, in various countries. And even in this country.”
“I didn’t mean that exactly by what I just said. I was being general. But since you asked, I can tell you that that kind of help has been given to revolutionary activities, whether consciously or not, in different countries. And even here in this country.”
“Impossible!” I protested with firmness. “We don’t play with fire to that extent.”
“That's impossible!” I insisted strongly. “We don’t mess around with fire like that.”
“And yet you can better afford it than others, perhaps. But let me observe that most women, if not always ready to play with fire, are generally eager to play with a loose spark or so.”
“And yet you can probably handle it better than others. But let me say that most women, even if they’re not always ready to take big risks, typically love to flirt with a little danger.”
“Is this a joke?” I asked, smiling.
“Is this a joke?” I asked with a smile.
“If it is, I am not aware of it,” he said, woodenly. “I was thinking of an instance. Oh! mild enough in a way . . .”
“If it is, I’m not aware of it,” he said, stiffly. “I was thinking of an example. Oh! pretty mild in a way . . .”
I became all expectation at this. I had tried many times to approach him on his underground side, so to speak. The very word had been pronounced between us. But he had always met me with his impenetrable calm.
I became filled with anticipation at this. I had attempted many times to connect with him on his underground side, so to speak. The very term had been exchanged between us. But he had always responded with his unshakeable calm.
“And at the same time,” Mr. X continued, “it will give you a notion of the difficulties that may arise in what you are pleased to call underground work. It is sometimes difficult to deal with them. Of course there is no hierarchy amongst the affiliated. No rigid system.”
“And at the same time,” Mr. X continued, “it will give you an idea of the difficulties that can come up in what you refer to as underground work. Sometimes it’s tough to handle them. Of course, there's no hierarchy among the affiliated. No strict system.”
My surprise was great, but short-lived. Clearly, amongst extreme anarchists there could be no hierarchy; nothing in the nature of a law of precedence. The idea of anarchy ruling among anarchists was comforting, too. It could not possibly make for efficiency.
My surprise was intense but brief. Clearly, among extreme anarchists, there could be no hierarchy; nothing resembling a law of precedence. The idea of anarchy governing anarchists was reassuring, too. It couldn't possibly lead to efficiency.
Mr. X startled me by asking, abruptly, “You know Hermione Street?”
Mr. X surprised me by suddenly asking, “Do you know Hermione Street?”
I nodded doubtful assent. Hermione Street has been, within the last three years, improved out of any man’s knowledge. The name exists still, but not one brick or stone of the old Hermione Street is left now. It was the old street he meant, for he said:
I nodded unsure agreement. Hermione Street has changed beyond recognition in the last three years. The name still exists, but not a single brick or stone from the old Hermione Street remains. It was the old street he was referring to, as he said:
“There was a row of two-storied brick houses on the left, with their backs against the wing of a great public building—you remember. Would it surprise you very much to hear that one of these houses was for a time the centre of anarchist propaganda and of what you would call underground action?”
“There was a line of two-story brick houses on the left, with their backs against the side of a huge public building—you remember. Would it shock you to know that one of these houses was, for a while, the hub of anarchist propaganda and what you’d consider underground activity?”
“Not at all,” I declared. Hermione Street had never been particularly respectable, as I remembered it.
“Not at all,” I said. Hermione Street had never really been considered respectable, as I recalled.
“The house was the property of a distinguished government official,” he added, sipping his champagne.
“The house belonged to a prominent government official,” he added, sipping his champagne.
“Oh, indeed!” I said, this time not believing a word of it.
“Oh, really!” I said, this time not believing a single word of it.
“Of course he was not living there,” Mr. X continued. “But from ten till four he sat next door to it, the dear man, in his well-appointed private room in the wing of the public building I’ve mentioned. To be strictly accurate, I must explain that the house in Hermione Street did not really belong to him. It belonged to his grown-up children—a daughter and a son. The girl, a fine figure, was by no means vulgarly pretty. To more personal charm than mere youth could account for, she added the seductive appearance of enthusiasm, of independence, of courageous thought. I suppose she put on these appearances as she put on her picturesque dresses and for the same reason: to assert her individuality at any cost. You know, women would go to any length almost for such a purpose. She went to a great length. She had acquired all the appropriate gestures of revolutionary convictions—the gestures of pity, of anger, of indignation against the anti-humanitarian vices of the social class to which she belonged herself. All this sat on her striking personality as well as her slightly original costumes. Very slightly original; just enough to mark a protest against the philistinism of the overfed taskmasters of the poor. Just enough, and no more. It would not have done to go too far in that direction—you understand. But she was of age, and nothing stood in the way of her offering her house to the revolutionary workers.”
“Of course he wasn’t living there,” Mr. X continued. “But from ten to four, he sat next door in his nice private room in the wing of the public building I mentioned. To be precise, I should explain that the house on Hermione Street didn’t actually belong to him. It belonged to his adult children—a daughter and a son. The girl, who was striking, wasn’t conventionally pretty. She had a charm that went beyond just youth; she also exuded enthusiasm, independence, and thoughtful bravery. I suppose she presented herself this way just like she wore her stylish outfits, to assert her individuality at any cost. You know, women will go to great lengths for such a purpose. She went quite far. She had adopted all the right gestures of revolutionary beliefs—expressions of pity, anger, and indignation against the inhumane vices of the very social class she belonged to. All of this complemented her strong personality as well as her slightly unique clothing. Very slightly unique; just enough to make a statement against the shallow values of the overindulgent oppressors of the poor. Just enough, and no more. It wouldn’t have been wise to go too far in that direction—you understand. But she was of age, and nothing prevented her from offering her house to the revolutionary workers.”
“You don’t mean it!” I cried.
“You can’t be serious!” I exclaimed.
“I assure you,” he affirmed, “that she made that very practical gesture. How else could they have got hold of it? The cause is not rich. And, moreover, there would have been difficulties with any ordinary house-agent, who would have wanted references and so on. The group she came in contact with while exploring the poor quarters of the town (you know the gesture of charity and personal service which was so fashionable some years ago) accepted with gratitude. The first advantage was that Hermione Street is, as you know, well away from the suspect part of the town, specially watched by the police.
“I assure you,” he said, “that she made a very practical move. How else could they have gotten it? The cause isn’t wealthy. Plus, there would have been issues with any regular real estate agent, who would have required references and all that. The group she interacted with while checking out the poorer areas of town (you remember that gesture of charity and personal service that was so trendy a few years back) accepted it gratefully. The first benefit is that Hermione Street is, as you know, far from the shady part of town, which is especially monitored by the police.
“The ground floor consisted of a little Italian restaurant, of the flyblown sort. There was no difficulty in buying the proprietor out. A woman and a man belonging to the group took it on. The man had been a cook. The comrades could get their meals there, unnoticed amongst the other customers. This was another advantage. The first floor was occupied by a shabby Variety Artists’ Agency—an agency for performers in inferior music-halls, you know. A fellow called Bomm, I remember. He was not disturbed. It was rather favourable than otherwise to have a lot of foreign-looking people, jugglers, acrobats, singers of both sexes, and so on, going in and out all day long. The police paid no attention to new faces, you see. The top floor happened, most conveniently, to stand empty then.”
The ground floor had a small, rundown Italian restaurant. It was easy to buy out the owner. A woman and a man from the group took it over. The man used to be a cook. The group could eat there without drawing attention among the other customers. This was an added bonus. The first floor was taken up by a shabby Variety Artists’ Agency—a place for performers in second-rate music halls, you know. There was a guy named Bomm, if I remember correctly. He wasn’t bothered. It was actually beneficial to have a bunch of foreign-looking people—jugglers, acrobats, male and female singers—coming and going all day. The police ignored unfamiliar faces, you see. The top floor just happened to be vacant at that time.
X interrupted himself to attack impassively, with measured movements, a bombe glacee which the waiter had just set down on the table. He swallowed carefully a few spoonfuls of the iced sweet, and asked me, “Did you ever hear of Stone’s Dried Soup?”
X paused his thoughts to calmly dig into a bombe glacée that the waiter had just placed on the table. He took a few careful spoonfuls of the cold dessert and asked me, “Have you ever heard of Stone’s Dried Soup?”
“Hear of what?”
"What are you talking about?"
“It was,” X pursued, evenly, “a comestible article once rather prominently advertised in the dailies, but which never, somehow, gained the favour of the public. The enterprise fizzled out, as you say here. Parcels of their stock could be picked up at auctions at considerably less than a penny a pound. The group bought some of it, and an agency for Stone’s Dried Soup was started on the top floor. A perfectly respectable business. The stuff, a yellow powder of extremely unappetizing aspect, was put up in large square tins, of which six went to a case. If anybody ever came to give an order, it was, of course, executed. But the advantage of the powder was this, that things could be concealed in it very conveniently. Now and then a special case got put on a van and sent off to be exported abroad under the very nose of the policeman on duty at the corner. You understand?”
“It was,” X continued, calmly, “a food product that was once heavily advertised in the newspapers, but for some reason, it never caught on with the public. The business eventually collapsed, as you would say here. Boxes of their stock could be found at auctions for much less than a penny a pound. The group bought some of it, and they set up an agency for Stone’s Dried Soup on the top floor. A perfectly legitimate business. The product, a yellow powder that looked very unappealing, was packaged in large square tins, with six tins in each case. Whenever someone came to place an order, it was, of course, fulfilled. But the advantage of the powder was that it was very easy to hide things in it. Every now and then, a special case would be loaded onto a van and sent off to be exported abroad right under the nose of the police officer on duty at the corner. Do you understand?”
“I think I do,” I said, with an expressive nod at the remnants of the bombe melting slowly in the dish.
“I think I do,” I said, nodding towards the bits of the bombe slowly melting in the dish.
“Exactly. But the cases were useful in another way, too. In the basement, or in the cellar at the back, rather, two printing-presses were established. A lot of revolutionary literature of the most inflammatory kind was got away from the house in Stone’s Dried Soup cases. The brother of our anarchist young lady found some occupation there. He wrote articles, helped to set up type and pull off the sheets, and generally assisted the man in charge, a very able young fellow called Sevrin.
“Exactly. But the cases were useful in another way, too. In the basement, or in the cellar at the back, there were two printing presses set up. A lot of highly provocative revolutionary literature was smuggled out of the house in Stone’s Dried Soup cases. The brother of our anarchist young lady found some work there. He wrote articles, helped set up the type, and assisted with printing the sheets, generally supporting the man in charge, a very skilled young guy named Sevrin.”
“The guiding spirit of that group was a fanatic of social revolution. He is dead now. He was an engraver and etcher of genius. You must have seen his work. It is much sought after by certain amateurs now. He began by being revolutionary in his art, and ended by becoming a revolutionist, after his wife and child had died in want and misery. He used to say that the bourgeoisie, the smug, overfed lot, had killed them. That was his real belief. He still worked at his art and led a double life. He was tall, gaunt, and swarthy, with a long, brown beard and deep-set eyes. You must have seen him. His name was Horne.”
“The driving force behind that group was a passionate advocate for social change. He’s gone now. He was an incredibly talented engraver and etcher. You’ve probably seen his work; it’s highly sought after by some collectors today. He started off as a revolutionary in his art and eventually became a revolutionary in life after his wife and child suffered and died in poverty. He used to say that the bourgeoisie, the self-satisfied, well-fed crowd, were responsible for their deaths. That was his true belief. He continued to create art while living a double life. He was tall, thin, and dark-skinned, with a long brown beard and deep-set eyes. You must have seen him. His name was Horne.”
At this I was really startled. Of course years ago I used to meet Horne about. He looked like a powerful, rough gipsy, in an old top hat, with a red muffler round his throat and buttoned up in a long, shabby overcoat. He talked of his art with exaltation, and gave one the impression of being strung up to the verge of insanity. A small group of connoisseurs appreciated his work. Who would have thought that this man. . . . Amazing! And yet it was not, after all, so difficult to believe.
At this, I was really shocked. Years ago, I used to run into Horne around town. He looked like a strong, rugged gypsy, wearing an old top hat, a red scarf around his neck, and a long, worn-out overcoat. He spoke about his art with great passion and gave off the vibe of someone on the edge of madness. A small group of art lovers appreciated his work. Who would have thought this man... Amazing! And yet, it wasn't so hard to believe after all.
“As you see,” X went on, “this group was in a position to pursue its work of propaganda, and the other kind of work, too, under very advantageous conditions. They were all resolute, experienced men of a superior stamp. And yet we became struck at length by the fact that plans prepared in Hermione Street almost invariably failed.”
“As you see,” X continued, “this group was in a position to carry out its propaganda efforts, along with other work, under very favorable conditions. They were all determined, experienced men of a high caliber. And yet, we were eventually taken aback by the fact that plans made on Hermione Street almost always failed.”
“Who were ‘we’?” I asked, pointedly.
“Who were ‘we’?” I asked, directly.
“Some of us in Brussels—at the centre,” he said, hastily. “Whatever vigorous action originated in Hermione Street seemed doomed to failure. Something always happened to baffle the best planned manifestations in every part of Europe. It was a time of general activity. You must not imagine that all our failures are of a loud sort, with arrests and trials. That is not so. Often the police work quietly, almost secretly, defeating our combinations by clever counter-plotting. No arrests, no noise, no alarming of the public mind and inflaming the passions. It is a wise procedure. But at that time the police were too uniformly successful from the Mediterranean to the Baltic. It was annoying and began to look dangerous. At last we came to the conclusion that there must be some untrustworthy elements amongst the London groups. And I came over to see what could be done quietly.
“Some of us in Brussels—at the center,” he said quickly. “Whatever strong actions were taken in Hermione Street seemed doomed to fail. Something always happened to disrupt the best-laid plans across Europe. It was a time of widespread activity. You shouldn't think that all our failures are loud, with arrests and trials. That’s not the case. Often, the police operate quietly, almost secretly, undermining our efforts through clever counter-plots. No arrests, no noise, no alarming the public or stirring up passions. It's a smart approach. But at that time, the police were consistently successful from the Mediterranean to the Baltic. It was frustrating and started to seem dangerous. Eventually, we concluded that there must be some unreliable elements among the London groups. So, I came over to see what could be done discreetly.”
“My first step was to call upon our young Lady Amateur of anarchism at her private house. She received me in a flattering way. I judged that she knew nothing of the chemical and other operations going on at the top of the house in Hermione Street. The printing of anarchist literature was the only ‘activity’ she seemed to be aware of there. She was displaying very strikingly the usual signs of severe enthusiasm, and had already written many sentimental articles with ferocious conclusions. I could see she was enjoying herself hugely, with all the gestures and grimaces of deadly earnestness. They suited her big-eyed, broad-browed face and the good carriage of her shapely head, crowned by a magnificent lot of brown hair done in an unusual and becoming style. Her brother was in the room, too, a serious youth, with arched eyebrows and wearing a red necktie, who struck me as being absolutely in the dark about everything in the world, including himself. By and by a tall young man came in. He was clean-shaved with a strong bluish jaw and something of the air of a taciturn actor or of a fanatical priest: the type with thick black eyebrows—you know. But he was very presentable indeed. He shook hands at once vigorously with each of us. The young lady came up to me and murmured sweetly, ‘Comrade Sevrin.’
“My first step was to visit our young Lady Amateur of anarchism at her home. She welcomed me warmly. I could tell she had no idea about the chemical and other activities happening at the top of the house on Hermione Street. The printing of anarchist literature was the only ‘activity’ she seemed aware of. She was showing the typical signs of intense enthusiasm and had already written several sentimental articles with fierce conclusions. I could see she was thoroughly enjoying herself, full of dramatic gestures and expressions of serious commitment. They suited her expressive big eyes, broad forehead, and the elegant way her head sat on her shoulders, topped off by a stunning mane of brown hair styled in a unique and flattering way. Her brother was in the room too, a serious young guy with arched eyebrows and a red necktie, who struck me as completely clueless about everything going on in the world, including himself. Eventually, a tall young man entered. He was clean-shaven with a strong jawline and had the vibe of a quiet actor or a zealous priest: the type with thick black eyebrows—you know the look. But he was quite presentable. He shook hands enthusiastically with each of us. The young lady approached me and softly said, ‘Comrade Sevrin.’”
“I had never seen him before. He had little to say to us, but sat down by the side of the girl, and they fell at once into earnest conversation. She leaned forward in her deep armchair, and took her nicely rounded chin in her beautiful white hand. He looked attentively into her eyes. It was the attitude of love-making, serious, intense, as if on the brink of the grave. I suppose she felt it necessary to round and complete her assumption of advanced ideas, of revolutionary lawlessness, by making believe to be in love with an anarchist. And this one, I repeat, was extremely presentable, notwithstanding his fanatical black-browed aspect. After a few stolen glances in their direction, I had no doubt that he was in earnest. As to the lady, her gestures were unapproachable, better than the very thing itself in the blended suggestion of dignity, sweetness, condescension, fascination, surrender, and reserve. She interpreted her conception of what that precise sort of love-making should be with consummate art. And so far, she, too, no doubt, was in earnest. Gestures—but so perfect!
“I had never seen him before. He didn’t have much to say to us, but he sat down next to the girl, and they quickly got into a serious conversation. She leaned forward in her deep armchair and cradled her beautifully rounded chin in her lovely white hand. He looked intently into her eyes. It was the posture of love-making, serious and intense, as if they were on the edge of something significant. I guess she thought it was necessary to enhance her image of having progressive ideas and a rebellious spirit by pretending to be in love with an anarchist. And this guy, I’ll say again, was quite impressive despite his intense, brooding look. After a few quick glances in their direction, I was sure he was sincere. As for the woman, her movements were captivating—better than the real thing—in their mixture of dignity, sweetness, condescension, allure, surrender, and restraint. She expressed her vision of what that type of love-making should be with remarkable skill. So far, she was also undoubtedly genuine. Her gestures—so flawless!
“After I had been left alone with our Lady Amateur I informed her guardedly of the object of my visit. I hinted at our suspicions. I wanted to hear what she would have to say, and half expected some perhaps unconscious revelation. All she said was, ‘That’s serious,’ looking delightfully concerned and grave. But there was a sparkle in her eyes which meant plainly, ‘How exciting!’ After all, she knew little of anything except of words. Still, she undertook to put me in communication with Horne, who was not easy to find unless in Hermione Street, where I did not wish to show myself just then.
“After I was left alone with our Lady Amateur, I carefully shared the reason for my visit. I hinted at our suspicions. I wanted to see what she would say and half expected some unintentional disclosure. All she said was, ‘That’s serious,’ looking genuinely concerned and serious. But there was a glimmer in her eyes that clearly suggested, ‘How exciting!’ After all, she didn’t know much about anything except for words. Still, she agreed to help me get in touch with Horne, who was hard to find unless he was in Hermione Street, where I didn’t want to be seen at that moment.”
“I met Horne. This was another kind of a fanatic altogether. I exposed to him the conclusion we in Brussels had arrived at, and pointed out the significant series of failures. To this he answered with irrelevant exaltation:
“I met Horne. He was a completely different type of fanatic. I shared with him the conclusions we had reached in Brussels and highlighted the notable series of failures. In response, he replied with unrelated enthusiasm:
“‘I have something in hand that shall strike terror into the heart of these gorged brutes.’
“‘I have something that will strike fear into the hearts of these gluttonous beasts.’”
“And then I learned that, by excavating in one of the cellars of the house, he and some companions had made their way into the vaults under the great public building I have mentioned before. The blowing up of a whole wing was a certainty as soon as the materials were ready.
“And then I found out that, by digging in one of the cellars of the house, he and a few friends had gotten into the vaults beneath the big public building I mentioned earlier. It was guaranteed that they would blow up an entire wing as soon as the materials were ready.”
“I was not so appalled at the stupidity of that move as I might have been had not the usefulness of our centre in Hermione Street become already very problematical. In fact, in my opinion it was much more of a police trap by this time than anything else.
“I wasn't as shocked by the foolishness of that move as I might have been if the value of our center on Hermione Street hadn't already become quite uncertain. Actually, I thought it was more of a police setup by this point than anything else."
“What was necessary now was to discover what, or rather who, was wrong, and I managed at last to get that idea into Horne’s head. He glared, perplexed, his nostrils working as if he were sniffing treachery in the air.
“What was needed now was to figure out what, or rather who, was wrong, and I finally succeeded in getting that idea into Horne’s head. He glared, confused, his nostrils flaring as if he were sensing betrayal in the air.
“And here comes a piece of work which will no doubt strike you as a sort of theatrical expedient. And yet what else could have been done? The problem was to find out the untrustworthy member of the group. But no suspicion could be fastened on one more than another. To set a watch upon them all was not very practicable. Besides, that proceeding often fails. In any case, it takes time, and the danger was pressing. I felt certain that the premises in Hermione Street would be ultimately raided, though the police had evidently such confidence in the informer that the house, for the time being, was not even watched. Horne was positive on that point. Under the circumstances it was an unfavourable symptom. Something had to be done quickly.
“And here comes something that might seem like a theatrical trick. But what else could’ve been done? The challenge was to identify the untrustworthy member of the group. Yet, no one could really be singled out as suspicious. Keeping an eye on all of them wasn’t very realistic. Plus, that approach often fails. In any case, it takes time, and the threat was urgent. I was convinced that the place on Hermione Street would eventually get raided, even though the police clearly had such faith in the informant that the house wasn’t even being watched for now. Horne was certain about that. Given the circumstances, it was a bad sign. Something needed to be done quickly.”
“I decided to organize a raid myself upon the group. Do you understand? A raid of other trusty comrades personating the police. A conspiracy within a conspiracy. You see the object of it, of course. When apparently about to be arrested I hoped the informer would betray himself in some way or other; either by some unguarded act or simply by his unconcerned demeanour, for instance. Of coarse there was the risk of complete failure and the no lesser risk of some fatal accident in the course of resistance, perhaps, or in the efforts at escape. For, as you will easily see, the Hermione Street group had to be actually and completely taken unawares, as I was sure they would be by the real police before very long. The informer was amongst them, and Horne alone could be let into the secret of my plan.
“I decided to organize a raid myself on the group. Do you get it? A raid with other trusted friends pretending to be police. A conspiracy within a conspiracy. You see the goal of it, right? When it looked like I was about to be arrested, I hoped the informant would reveal himself somehow; either through an unguarded action or just by his relaxed attitude, for example. Of course, there was the risk of total failure and the even greater risk of a serious accident during the resistance or while trying to escape. Because, as you can easily see, the Hermione Street group had to be completely caught off guard, as I was sure they would be by the real police soon. The informant was among them, and only Horne could know my plan.
“I will not enter into the detail of my preparations. It was not very easy to arrange, but it was done very well, with a really convincing effect. The sham police invaded the restaurant, whose shutters were immediately put up. The surprise was perfect. Most of the Hermione Street party were found in the second cellar, enlarging the hole communicating with the vaults of the great public building. At the first alarm, several comrades bolted through impulsively into the aforesaid vault, where, of course, had this been a genuine raid, they would have been hopelessly trapped. We did not bother about them for the moment. They were harmless enough. The top floor caused considerable anxiety to Horne and myself. There, surrounded by tins of Stone’s Dried Soup, a comrade, nick-named the Professor (he was an ex-science student) was engaged in perfecting some new detonators. He was an abstracted, self-confident, sallow little man, armed with large round spectacles, and we were afraid that under a mistaken impression he would blow himself up and wreck the house about our ears. I rushed upstairs and found him already at the door, on the alert, listening, as he said, to ‘suspicious noises down below.’ Before I had quite finished explaining to him what was going on he shrugged his shoulders disdainfully and turned away to his balances and test-tubes. His was the true spirit of an extreme revolutionist. Explosives were his faith, his hope, his weapon, and his shield. He perished a couple of years afterwards in a secret laboratory through the premature explosion of one of his improved detonators.
“I won’t go into all the details of my preparations. It wasn’t easy to set up, but it was done really well and had a convincing effect. The fake police stormed into the restaurant, and the shutters went up immediately. The surprise was total. Most of the group from Hermione Street was found in the second cellar, widening the hole connecting to the vaults of the grand public building. At the first alarm, several friends rushed impulsively into the vault, where, had this been a real raid, they would have been completely trapped. We didn’t worry about them for the moment. They were harmless enough. The top floor made Horne and me quite anxious. There, surrounded by cans of Stone’s Dried Soup, a comrade nicknamed the Professor (he was a former science student) was busy perfecting some new detonators. He was an absent-minded, self-assured, pale little guy with big round glasses, and we were concerned that he might mistakenly blow himself up and bring the whole place down around us. I rushed upstairs and found him already at the door, alert, listening to what he called ‘suspicious noises down below.’ Before I could finish explaining what was happening, he shrugged disdainfully and turned back to his scales and test tubes. He truly embodied the spirit of an extreme revolutionary. Explosives were his faith, hope, weapon, and shield. He died a few years later in a secret lab when one of his improved detonators exploded prematurely.”
“Hurrying down again, I found an impressive scene in the gloom of the big cellar. The man who personated the inspector (he was no stranger to the part) was speaking harshly, and giving bogus orders to his bogus subordinates for the removal of his prisoners. Evidently nothing enlightening had happened so far. Horne, saturnine and swarthy, waited with folded arms, and his patient, moody expectation had an air of stoicism well in keeping with the situation. I detected in the shadows one of the Hermione Street group surreptitiously chewing up and swallowing a small piece of paper. Some compromising scrap, I suppose; perhaps just a note of a few names and addresses. He was a true and faithful ‘companion.’ But the fund of secret malice which lurks at the bottom of our sympathies caused me to feel amused at that perfectly uncalled-for performance.
Hurrying down again, I found a striking scene in the dim light of the big cellar. The man pretending to be the inspector (he was obviously familiar with the role) was speaking harshly, giving fake orders to his fake subordinates for the removal of his prisoners. Clearly, nothing useful had happened so far. Horne, serious and dark-skinned, waited with his arms crossed, and his patient, moody expectation had an air of stoicism that suited the situation perfectly. I noticed in the shadows one of the Hermione Street group secretly chewing and swallowing a small piece of paper. Probably some compromising scrap; maybe just a note with a few names and addresses. He was a true and loyal ‘companion.’ But the hidden malice that lies at the bottom of our sympathies made me feel amused at that completely unnecessary act.
“In every other respect the risky experiment, the theatrical coup, if you like to call it so, seemed to have failed. The deception could not be kept up much longer; the explanation would bring about a very embarrassing and even grave situation. The man who had eaten the paper would be furious. The fellows who had bolted away would be angry, too.
“In every other way, the risky experiment, the theatrical stunt, if you want to call it that, seemed to have failed. The deception couldn’t last much longer; the explanation would lead to a very awkward and possibly serious situation. The guy who had eaten the paper would be furious. The guys who had run off would be angry too.”
“To add to my vexation, the door communicating with the other cellar, where the printing-presses were, flew open, and our young lady revolutionist appeared, a black silhouette in a close-fitting dress and a large hat, with the blaze of gas flaring in there at her back. Over her shoulder I perceived the arched eyebrows and the red necktie of her brother.
“To add to my frustration, the door leading to the other cellar, where the printing presses were, swung open, and our young lady revolutionary appeared, a dark figure in a fitted dress and a big hat, with the bright gas light flaring behind her. Over her shoulder, I noticed the arched eyebrows and the red necktie of her brother.”
“The last people in the world I wanted to see then! They had gone that evening to some amateur concert for the delectation of the poor people, you know; but she had insisted on leaving early, on purpose to call in Hermione Street on the way home, under the pretext of having some work to do. Her usual task was to correct the proofs of the Italian and French editions of the Alarm Bell and the Firebrand.” . . .
“The last people I wanted to see at that moment! They had gone to some amateur concert that evening to entertain the less fortunate, you know; but she had insisted on leaving early, just so they could stop by Hermione Street on the way home, pretending she had some work to do. Her usual job was to proofread the Italian and French editions of the Alarm Bell and the Firebrand.” . . .
“Heavens!” I murmured. I had been shown once a few copies of these publications. Nothing, in my opinion, could have been less fit for the eyes of a young lady. They were the most advanced things of the sort; advanced, I mean, beyond all bounds of reason and decency. One of them preached the dissolution of all social and domestic ties; the other advocated systematic murder. To think of a young girl calmly tracking printers’ errors all along the sort of abominable sentences I remembered was intolerable to my sentiment of womanhood. Mr. X, after giving me a glance, pursued steadily.
“Oh my!” I whispered. I had been shown a few copies of these publications before. In my opinion, nothing could be less appropriate for a young lady's eyes. They were the most extreme examples of their kind; I mean, they went way beyond what is reasonable and decent. One of them promoted breaking down all social and family ties; the other encouraged systematic killing. The thought of a young girl calmly identifying printing mistakes in those kinds of terrible sentences I remembered was unbearable to my sense of womanhood. Mr. X, after giving me a look, continued on without hesitation.
“I think, however, that she came mostly to exercise her fascinations upon Sevrin, and to receive his homage in her queenly and condescending way. She was aware of both—her power and his homage—and enjoyed them with, I dare say, complete innocence. We have no ground in expediency or morals to quarrel with her on that account. Charm in woman and exceptional intelligence in man are a law unto themselves. Is it not so?”
“I think, though, that she mostly came to captivate Sevrin and to receive his admiration in her regal and patronizing manner. She was aware of both—her power and his admiration—and enjoyed them with, I’d say, complete innocence. We have no reason in practicality or ethics to argue with her about that. Charm in a woman and exceptional intelligence in a man are a law unto themselves. Isn’t that right?”
I refrained from expressing my abhorrence of that licentious doctrine because of my curiosity.
I held back from showing how much I disliked that immoral belief because I was curious.
“But what happened then?” I hastened to ask.
"But what happened next?" I quickly asked.
X went on crumbling slowly a small piece of bread with a careless left hand.
X continued to crumble a small piece of bread slowly with a casual left hand.
“What happened, in effect,” he confessed, “is that she saved the situation.”
“What happened, really,” he admitted, “is that she fixed the situation.”
“She gave you an opportunity to end your rather sinister farce,” I suggested.
“She gave you a chance to stop your pretty creepy act,” I suggested.
“Yes,” he said, preserving his impassive bearing. “The farce was bound to end soon. And it ended in a very few minutes. And it ended well. Had she not come in, it might have ended badly. Her brother, of course, did not count. They had slipped into the house quietly some time before. The printing-cellar had an entrance of its own. Not finding any one there, she sat down to her proofs, expecting Sevrin to return to his work at any moment. He did not do so. She grew impatient, heard through the door the sounds of a disturbance in the other cellar and naturally came in to see what was the matter.
“Yes,” he said, keeping a straight face. “The farce was bound to end soon. And it ended in just a few minutes. And it ended well. If she hadn’t come in, it might have turned out badly. Her brother, of course, didn’t matter. They had slipped into the house quietly a little while before. The printing cellar had its own entrance. Not finding anyone there, she sat down with her proofs, expecting Sevrin to return to his work at any moment. He didn’t. She became impatient, heard some commotion in the other cellar through the door, and naturally came in to see what was going on.”
“Sevrin had been with us. At first he had seemed to me the most amazed of the whole raided lot. He appeared for an instant as if paralyzed with astonishment. He stood rooted to the spot. He never moved a limb. A solitary gas-jet flared near his head; all the other lights had been put out at the first alarm. And presently, from my dark corner, I observed on his shaven actor’s face an expression of puzzled, vexed watchfulness. He knitted his heavy eyebrows. The corners of his mouth dropped scornfully. He was angry. Most likely he had seen through the game, and I regretted I had not taken him from the first into my complete confidence.
“Sevrin had been with us. At first, he seemed the most shocked of the whole group. He looked momentarily frozen in disbelief. He stood there, motionless. A single gaslight flickered near his head; all the other lights had gone out at the first sign of trouble. From my dark corner, I noticed a look of confused, irritated vigilance on his clean-shaven actor's face. He frowned deeply. The corners of his mouth turned down in contempt. He was upset. Most likely, he had figured out the situation, and I regretted not having fully trusted him from the beginning.”
“But with the appearance of the girl he became obviously alarmed. It was plain. I could see it grow. The change of his expression was swift and startling. And I did not know why. The reason never occurred to me. I was merely astonished at the extreme alteration of the man’s face. Of course he had not been aware of her presence in the other cellar; but that did not explain the shock her advent had given him. For a moment he seemed to have been reduced to imbecility. He opened his mouth as if to shout, or perhaps only to gasp. At any rate, it was somebody else who shouted. This somebody else was the heroic comrade whom I had detected swallowing a piece of paper. With laudable presence of mind he let out a warning yell.
But when the girl showed up, he looked really alarmed. It was obvious. I could see it growing. His expression changed quickly and shockingly. I didn't understand why. The reason never crossed my mind. I was just amazed by how drastically the man’s face changed. Of course, he hadn’t noticed her in the other cellar; but that didn’t explain the shock her arrival caused him. For a moment, he seemed completely out of it. His mouth opened as if he was about to shout, or maybe just to gasp. At any rate, someone else did shout. This someone else was the brave friend I had seen swallowing a piece of paper. With impressive quick thinking, he let out a warning yell.
“‘It’s the police! Back! Back! Run back, and bolt the door behind you.’
“‘It’s the police! Get back! Hurry back, and lock the door behind you.’”
“It was an excellent hint; but instead of retreating the girl continued to advance, followed by her long-faced brother in his knickerbocker suit, in which he had been singing comic songs for the entertainment of a joyless proletariat. She advanced not as if she had failed to understand—the word ‘police’ has an unmistakable sound—but rather as if she could not help herself. She did not advance with the free gait and expanding presence of a distinguished amateur anarchist amongst poor, struggling professionals, but with slightly raised shoulders, and her elbows pressed close to her body, as if trying to shrink within herself. Her eyes were fixed immovably upon Sevrin. Sevrin the man, I fancy; not Sevrin the anarchist. But she advanced. And that was natural. For all their assumption of independence, girls of that class are used to the feeling of being specially protected, as, in fact, they are. This feeling accounts for nine tenths of their audacious gestures. Her face had gone completely colourless. Ghastly. Fancy having it brought home to her so brutally that she was the sort of person who must run away from the police! I believe she was pale with indignation, mostly, though there was, of course, also the concern for her intact personality, a vague dread of some sort of rudeness. And, naturally, she turned to a man, to the man on whom she had a claim of fascination and homage—the man who could not conceivably fail her at any juncture.”
“It was a great hint; but instead of backing off, the girl kept moving forward, followed by her long-faced brother in his knickerbocker suit, where he had been singing funny songs for the amusement of a joyless working class. She moved not as if she didn’t understand—the word ‘police’ is pretty clear—but rather as if she couldn’t help herself. She didn’t walk with the confident stride and commanding presence of an esteemed amateur anarchist among struggling professionals, but with slightly raised shoulders and her elbows tucked close to her body, as if trying to hide away. Her eyes were fixed unblinkingly on Sevrin. Sevrin the man, I think; not Sevrin the anarchist. But she kept moving forward. And that was to be expected. Despite their pretense of independence, girls from that background are accustomed to feeling specially protected, which, in reality, they are. This feeling explains most of their bold actions. Her face had turned completely pale. Terrifying. Imagine being reminded so harshly that she was the kind of person who must run away from the police! I think she was pale with indignation mostly, although there was also a concern for her preserved identity, a vague fear of some kind of humiliation. And naturally, she turned to a man—the man on whom she had a claim of fascination and respect—the man who could never possibly let her down in any situation.”
“But,” I cried, amazed at this analysis, “if it had been serious, real, I mean—as she thought it was—what could she expect him to do for her?”
“But,” I exclaimed, astonished by this insight, “if it had been serious, real, I mean—as she believed it was—what did she expect him to do for her?”
X never moved a muscle of his face.
X never moved a muscle in his face.
“Goodness knows. I imagine that this charming, generous, and independent creature had never known in her life a single genuine thought; I mean a single thought detached from small human vanities, or whose source was not in some conventional perception. All I know is that after advancing a few steps she extended her hand towards the motionless Sevrin. And that at least was no gesture. It was a natural movement. As to what she expected him to do, who can tell? The impossible. But whatever she expected, it could not have come up, I am safe to say, to what he had made up his mind to do, even before that entreating hand had appealed to him so directly. It had not been necessary. From the moment he had seen her enter that cellar, he had made up his mind to sacrifice his future usefulness, to throw off the impenetrable, solidly fastened mask it had been his pride to wear—”
“Who knows? I imagine this charming, generous, and independent person had never really had a genuine thought in her life; I mean, not a single thought that wasn't tied to petty human vanities or didn't come from some conventional idea. All I know is that after taking a few steps, she reached out her hand toward the still Sevrin. And that was no mere gesture. It was a natural reaction. As for what she hoped he would do, who can say? The impossible. But whatever she expected, I can say with certainty it didn't compare to what he had already decided to do, even before her pleading hand had reached out to him so directly. It wasn't necessary. From the moment he had seen her enter that cellar, he had resolved to sacrifice his future usefulness, to cast off the impenetrable, tightly fixed mask he had once prided himself on wearing—”
“What do you mean?” I interrupted, puzzled. “Was it Sevrin, then, who was—”
“What do you mean?” I interrupted, confused. “Was it Sevrin, then, who was—”
“He was. The most persistent, the most dangerous, the craftiest, the most systematic of informers. A genius amongst betrayers. Fortunately for us, he was unique. The man was a fanatic, I have told you. Fortunately, again, for us, he had fallen in love with the accomplished and innocent gestures of that girl. An actor in desperate earnest himself, he must have believed in the absolute value of conventional signs. As to the grossness of the trap into which he fell, the explanation must be that two sentiments of such absorbing magnitude cannot exist simultaneously in one heart. The danger of that other and unconscious comedian robbed him of his vision, of his perspicacity, of his judgment. Indeed, it did at first rob him of his self-possession. But he regained that through the necessity—as it appeared to him imperiously—to do something at once. To do what? Why, to get her out of the house as quickly as possible. He was desperately anxious to do that. I have told you he was terrified. It could not be about himself. He had been surprised and annoyed at a move quite unforeseen and premature. I may even say he had been furious. He was accustomed to arrange the last scene of his betrayals with a deep, subtle art which left his revolutionist reputation untouched. But it seems clear to me that at the same time he had resolved to make the best of it, to keep his mask resolutely on. It was only with the discovery of her being in the house that everything—the forced calm, the restraint of his fanaticism, the mask—all came off together in a kind of panic. Why panic, do you ask? The answer is very simple. He remembered—or, I dare say, he had never forgotten—the Professor alone at the top of the house, pursuing his researches, surrounded by tins upon tins of Stone’s Dried Soup. There was enough in some few of them to bury us all where we stood under a heap of bricks. Sevrin, of course, was aware of that. And we must believe, also, that he knew the exact character of the man. He had gauged so many such characters! Or perhaps he only gave the Professor credit for what he himself was capable of. But, in any case, the effect was produced. And suddenly he raised his voice in authority.
“He was. The most persistent, the most dangerous, the cleverest, the most systematic of informers. A genius among betrayers. Luckily for us, he was one of a kind. The man was a fanatic, as I told you. Fortunately, again for us, he had fallen in love with that girl’s charming and innocent gestures. An actor deeply committed to his role, he must have believed in the true meaning of conventional signs. As for the gross nature of the trap he fell into, it’s clear that two feelings of such overwhelming power cannot coexist in one heart. The threat from that other, unconscious actor clouded his vision, his insight, and his judgment. In fact, it initially took away his composure. But he got that back because he felt an urgent need to do something immediately. To do what? Well, to get her out of the house as quickly as he could. He was incredibly eager to do that. I’ve told you he was terrified. It wasn’t about himself. He was caught off guard and annoyed by a premature and unexpected move. I might even say he was furious. He was used to orchestrating the final act of his betrayals with a deep, subtle skill that left his revolutionary reputation intact. But it seems clear to me that he also intended to make the best of things, to keep up his facade. It was only when he discovered she was in the house that everything—the forced calm, the restraint of his fanaticism, the mask—all fell away in a sort of panic. Why panic, you ask? The answer is quite simple. He remembered—or perhaps he never forgot—the Professor alone at the top of the house, working on his research, surrounded by cans and cans of Stone’s Dried Soup. There was enough in some of them to bury us all right where we stood under a pile of bricks. Sevrin, of course, knew that. And we must also believe he understood exactly who the Professor was. He had sized up so many characters like that! Or maybe he just credited the Professor with what he himself was capable of. But in either case, the effect was real. And suddenly he raised his voice authoritatively.”
“‘Get the lady away at once.’
“‘Get the lady out of here right now.’”
“It turned out that he was as hoarse as a crow; result, no doubt, of the intense emotion. It passed off in a moment. But these fateful words issued forth from his contracted throat in a discordant, ridiculous croak. They required no answer. The thing was done. However, the man personating the inspector judged it expedient to say roughly:
“It turned out that he was as hoarse as a crow; no doubt a result of the intense emotion. It passed quickly. But those fateful words came out of his constricted throat in a harsh, ridiculous croak. They didn’t need a response. The deed was done. However, the man pretending to be the inspector thought it was best to say roughly:
“‘She shall go soon enough, together with the rest of you.’
“‘She'll be leaving soon enough, along with the rest of you.’”
“These were the last words belonging to the comedy part of this affair.
“These were the final words related to the comedic aspect of this situation.
“Oblivious of everything and everybody, Sevrin strode towards him and seized the lapels of his coat. Under his thin bluish cheeks one could see his jaws working with passion.
“Unaware of everything and everyone, Sevrin walked up to him and grabbed the lapels of his coat. Beneath his thin, pale cheeks, you could see his jaw working with intensity.”
“‘You have men posted outside. Get the lady taken home at once. Do you hear? Now. Before you try to get hold of the man upstairs.’
“‘You have guys stationed outside. Get the lady home right away. Do you hear me? Now. Before you try to grab the guy upstairs.’”
“‘Oh! There is a man upstairs,’ scoffed the other, openly. ‘Well, he shall be brought down in time to see the end of this.’
“‘Oh! There's a man upstairs,’ the other said mockingly. ‘Well, he’ll be brought down in time to see the end of this.’”
“But Sevrin, beside himself, took no heed of the tone.
“But Sevrin, frantic, paid no attention to the tone.
“‘Who’s the imbecile meddler who sent you blundering here? Didn’t you understand your instructions? Don’t you know anything? It’s incredible. Here—’
“‘Who’s the clueless meddler who sent you stumbling here? Didn’t you understand your instructions? Don’t you know anything? It’s unbelievable. Here—’
“He dropped the lapels of the coat and, plunging his hand into his breast, jerked feverishly at something under his shirt. At last he produced a small square pocket of soft leather, which must have been hanging like a scapulary from his neck by the tape whose broken ends dangled from his fist.
“He let the lapels of the coat fall and, reaching into his chest, pulled frantically at something under his shirt. Finally, he brought out a small square pocket made of soft leather, which must have been hanging like a scapular from his neck by the tape whose frayed ends hung from his grip.”
“‘Look inside,’ he spluttered, flinging it in the other’s face. And instantly he turned round towards the girl. She stood just behind him, perfectly still and silent. Her set, white face gave an illusion of placidity. Only her staring eyes seemed bigger and darker.
“‘Look inside,’ he yelled, throwing it in the other’s face. And instantly he turned to the girl. She stood just behind him, completely still and silent. Her rigid, pale face appeared calm. Only her wide, dark eyes looked even larger and more intense.”
“He spoke rapidly, with nervous assurance. I heard him distinctly promise her to make everything as clear as daylight presently. But that was all I caught. He stood close to her, never attempting to touch her even with the tip of his little finger—and she stared at him stupidly. For a moment, however, her eyelids descended slowly, pathetically, and then, with the long black eyelashes lying on her white cheeks, she looked ready to fall down in a swoon. But she never even swayed where she stood. He urged her loudly to follow him at once, and walked towards the door at the bottom of the cellar stairs without looking behind him. And, as a matter of fact, she did move after him a pace or two. But, of course, he was not allowed to reach the door. There were angry exclamations, a short, fierce scuffle. Flung away violently, he came flying backwards upon her, and fell. She threw out her arms in a gesture of dismay and stepped aside, just clear of his head, which struck the ground heavily near her shoe.
“He spoke quickly, with a nervous confidence. I clearly heard him promise her that he would make everything perfectly clear soon. But that was all I caught. He stood close to her, never even trying to touch her with the tip of his finger—and she stared at him blankly. For a moment, though, her eyelids slowly drooped, pathetically, and then, with her long black eyelashes resting on her pale cheeks, she looked like she might faint. But she didn’t even wobble where she was. He loudly urged her to follow him at once and walked toward the door at the bottom of the cellar stairs without looking back. And, in fact, she did move after him a step or two. But, of course, he wasn’t allowed to reach the door. There were angry shouts and a brief, intense struggle. Thrown back violently, he came tumbling toward her and fell. She threw her arms out in a gesture of shock and stepped aside, just clear of his head, which hit the ground hard near her shoe.
“He grunted with the shock. By the time he had picked himself up, slowly, dazedly, he was awake to the reality of things. The man into whose hands he had thrust the leather case had extracted therefrom a narrow strip of bluish paper. He held it up above his head, and, as after the scuffle an expectant uneasy stillness reigned once more, he threw it down disdainfully with the words, ‘I think, comrades, that this proof was hardly necessary.’
“He grunted in shock. By the time he picked himself up, slowly and dazed, he was aware of what was happening. The man he had handed the leather case to pulled out a narrow strip of bluish paper. He held it up over his head, and as an expectant, uneasy silence fell again after the scuffle, he threw it down dismissively, saying, ‘I think, guys, that this proof wasn’t really needed.’”
“Quick as thought, the girl stooped after the fluttering slip. Holding it spread out in both hands, she looked at it; then, without raising her eyes, opened her fingers slowly and let it fall.
“Quick as a thought, the girl bent down to grab the fluttering piece of paper. Holding it out in both hands, she examined it; then, without looking up, slowly opened her fingers and let it drop.”
“I examined that curious document afterwards. It was signed by a very high personage, and stamped and countersigned by other high officials in various countries of Europe. In his trade—or shall I say, in his mission?—that sort of talisman might have been necessary, no doubt. Even to the police itself—all but the heads—he had been known only as Sevrin the noted anarchist.
“I looked over that strange document later. It had the signature of a very high-ranking official and was stamped and countersigned by other top officials from different countries in Europe. In his line of work—or should I say, in his mission?—that kind of talisman was probably essential. Even the police, except for the higher-ups, only knew him as Sevrin the infamous anarchist.”
“He hung his head, biting his lower lip. A change had come over him, a sort of thoughtful, absorbed calmness. Nevertheless, he panted. His sides worked visibly, and his nostrils expanded and collapsed in weird contrast with his sombre aspect of a fanatical monk in a meditative attitude, but with something, too, in his face of an actor intent upon the terrible exigencies of his part. Before him Horne declaimed, haggard and bearded, like an inspired denunciatory prophet from a wilderness. Two fanatics. They were made to understand each other. Does this surprise you? I suppose you think that such people would be foaming at the mouth and snarling at each other?”
“He hung his head, biting his lower lip. A shift had come over him, a sort of thoughtful, focused calmness. Still, he was panting. His sides visibly heaved, and his nostrils flared and contracted in strange contrast to his serious demeanor, like a fanatical monk in a meditative state, but also resembling an actor fully engaged in the intense demands of his role. In front of him, Horne spoke passionately, haggard and bearded, like an inspired prophet denouncing from the wilderness. Two fanatics. They were made to understand each other. Does this surprise you? I bet you think people like that would be foaming at the mouth and snarling at one another?”
I protested hastily that I was not surprised in the least; that I thought nothing of the kind; that anarchists in general were simply inconceivable to me mentally, morally, logically, sentimentally, and even physically. X received this declaration with his usual woodenness and went on.
I quickly insisted that I wasn’t surprised at all; that I thought nothing of the sort; that anarchists, in general, were completely unimaginable to me mentally, morally, logically, sentimentally, and even physically. X took this statement in with his usual stiffness and continued.
“Horne had burst out into eloquence. While pouring out scornful invective, he let tears escape from his eyes and roll down his black beard unheeded. Sevrin panted quicker and quicker. When he opened his mouth to speak, everyone hung on his words.
“Horne had launched into a passionate speech. While unleashing a stream of scornful insults, he let tears fall from his eyes and flow down his black beard without care. Sevrin was breathing faster and faster. When he finally opened his mouth to speak, everyone listened intently to what he had to say.
“‘Don’t be a fool, Horne,’ he began. ‘You know very well that I have done this for none of the reasons you are throwing at me.’ And in a moment he became outwardly as steady as a rock under the other’s lurid stare. ‘I have been thwarting, deceiving, and betraying you—from conviction.’
“‘Don’t be an idiot, Horne,’ he started. ‘You know very well that I didn’t do this for any of the reasons you’re accusing me of.’ And in an instant, he became as steady as a rock under the other’s intense glare. ‘I have been blocking, lying to, and betraying you—because I believe it’s right.’”
“He turned his back on Horne, and addressing the girl, repeated the words: ‘From conviction.’
“He turned away from Horne and, looking at the girl, repeated the words: ‘From conviction.’”
“It’s extraordinary how cold she looked. I suppose she could not think of any appropriate gesture. There can have been few precedents indeed for such a situation.
"It’s amazing how cold she seemed. I guess she couldn't come up with any fitting gesture. There probably aren't many examples for a situation like this."
“‘Clear as daylight,’ he added. ‘Do you understand what that means? From conviction.’
“‘Clear as day,’ he added. ‘Do you get what that means? From conviction.’”
“And still she did not stir. She did not know what to do. But the luckless wretch was about to give her the opportunity for a beautiful and correct gesture.
“And still she did not move. She didn’t know what to do. But the unfortunate person was about to give her the chance for a beautiful and right gesture.
“‘I have felt in me the power to make you share this conviction,’ he protested, ardently. He had forgotten himself; he made a step towards her—perhaps he stumbled. To me he seemed to be stooping low as if to touch the hem of her garment. And then the appropriate gesture came. She snatched her skirt away from his polluting contact and averted her head with an upward tilt. It was magnificently done, this gesture of conventionally unstained honour, of an unblemished high-minded amateur.
“‘I know I can convince you,’ he insisted passionately. He lost himself in the moment; he took a step toward her—maybe he tripped. To me, it looked like he was bending down, almost as if to touch the edge of her dress. And then the perfect response came. She pulled her skirt away from his tainted touch and turned her head away with an upward tilt. It was beautifully executed, this act of traditionally pure honor, from an untainted, noble amateur.
“Nothing could have been better. And he seemed to think so, too, for once more he turned away. But this time he faced no one. He was again panting frightfully, while he fumbled hurriedly in his waistcoat pocket, and then raised his hand to his lips. There was something furtive in this movement, but directly afterwards his bearing changed. His laboured breathing gave him a resemblance to a man who had just run a desperate race; but a curious air of detachment, of sudden and profound indifference, replaced the strain of the striving effort. The race was over. I did not want to see what would happen next. I was only too well aware. I tucked the young lady’s arm under mine without a word, and made my way with her to the stairs.
“Nothing could have been better. He seemed to think so, too, because once again he turned away. But this time he didn’t face anyone. He was panting heavily, fumbling quickly in his waistcoat pocket, then raising his hand to his lips. There was something secretive about this movement, but soon after, his demeanor changed. His labored breathing made him look like someone who had just run a hard race; yet a strange air of detachment, a sudden and deep indifference, replaced the tension of his effort. The race was over. I didn’t want to see what would happen next. I knew all too well. I took the young lady’s arm under mine without a word and led her to the stairs.
“Her brother walked behind us. Half-way up the short flight she seemed unable to lift her feet high enough for the steps, and we had to pull and push to get her to the top. In the passage she dragged herself along, hanging on my arm, helplessly bent like an old woman. We issued into an empty street through a half-open door, staggering like besotted revellers. At the corner we stopped a four-wheeler, and the ancient driver looked round from his box with morose scorn at our efforts to get her in. Twice during the drive I felt her collapse on my shoulder in a half faint. Facing us, the youth in knickerbockers remained as mute as a fish, and, till he jumped out with the latch-key, sat more still than I would have believed it possible.
“Her brother walked behind us. Halfway up the short flight of stairs, she seemed unable to lift her feet high enough for the steps, and we had to push and pull her to get her to the top. In the hallway, she dragged herself along, clinging to my arm, helplessly bent like an old woman. We stepped out onto an empty street through a half-open door, staggering like drunken revelers. At the corner, we stopped a cab, and the old driver looked back from his seat with a disdainful expression at our attempts to get her inside. Twice during the ride, I felt her lean against me in a half-faint. Facing us, the young man in knickerbockers sat as silent as a fish, and until he jumped out with the key, he remained more still than I would have thought possible."
“At the door of their drawing-room she left my arm and walked in first, catching at the chairs and tables. She unpinned her hat, then, exhausted with the effort, her cloak still hanging from her shoulders, flung herself into a deep armchair, sideways, her face half buried in a cushion. The good brother appeared silently before her with a glass of water. She motioned it away. He drank it himself and walked off to a distant corner—behind the grand piano, somewhere. All was still in this room where I had seen, for the first time, Sevrin, the anti-anarchist, captivated and spellbound by the consummate and hereditary grimaces that in a certain sphere of life take the place of feelings with an excellent effect. I suppose her thoughts were busy with the same memory. Her shoulders shook violently. A pure attack of nerves. When it quieted down she affected firmness, ‘What is done to a man of that sort? What will they do to him?’
At the door of their living room, she let go of my arm and walked in first, grabbing onto chairs and tables for support. She took off her hat, and then, feeling exhausted, still wearing her cloak, she collapsed into a deep armchair sideways, her face half-buried in a cushion. Her brother quietly came up to her with a glass of water. She waved it away. He drank it himself and walked off to a distant corner—somewhere behind the grand piano. The room was completely silent, where I had first seen Sevrin, the anti-anarchist, captivated and mesmerized by the practiced, hereditary expressions that stand in for real feelings in certain social circles to great effect. I guess her thoughts were focused on the same memory. Her shoulders shook intensely. Just a pure nervous breakdown. When she calmed down, she pretended to be firm, asking, “What happens to a man like that? What are they going to do to him?”
“‘Nothing. They can do nothing to him,’ I assured her, with perfect truth. I was pretty certain he had died in less than twenty minutes from the moment his hand had gone to his lips. For if his fanatical anti-anarchism went even as far as carrying poison in his pocket, only to rob his adversaries of legitimate vengeance, I knew he would take care to provide something that would not fail him when required.
“‘Nothing. They can’t do anything to him,’ I assured her, completely honestly. I was pretty sure he had died in less than twenty minutes from the moment his hand went to his lips. If his extreme anti-anarchism went as far as carrying poison in his pocket, just to deny his opponents legitimate revenge, I knew he would make sure to have something that wouldn’t fail him when he needed it.”
“She drew an angry breath. There were red spots on her cheeks and a feverish brilliance in her eyes.
“She took a sharp breath. Her cheeks were flushed red, and her eyes shone with a feverish intensity.
“‘Has ever any one been exposed to such a terrible experience? To think that he had held my hand! That man!’ Her face twitched, she gulped down a pathetic sob. ‘If I ever felt sure of anything, it was of Sevrin’s high-minded motives.’
“‘Has anyone ever gone through such a terrible experience? To think that he held my hand! That man!’ Her face twitched, and she swallowed down a sad sob. ‘If I ever felt certain about anything, it was Sevrin’s noble intentions.’”
“Then she began to weep quietly, which was good for her. Then through her flood of tears, half resentful, ‘What was it he said to me?—“From conviction!” It seemed a vile mockery. What could he mean by it?’
“Then she started to cry quietly, which was good for her. Through her tears, feeling half resentful, she thought, ‘What was it he said to me?—“From conviction!” It felt like a cruel joke. What could he mean by that?’”
“‘That, my dear young lady,’ I said, gently, ‘is more than I or anybody else can ever explain to you.’”
“‘That, my dear young lady,’ I said softly, ‘is more than I or anyone else can ever explain to you.’”
Mr. X flicked a crumb off the front of his coat.
Mr. X flicked a crumb off the front of his coat.
“And that was strictly true as to her. Though Horne, for instance, understood very well; and so did I, especially after we had been to Sevrin’s lodging in a dismal back street of an intensely respectable quarter. Horne was known there as a friend, and we had no difficulty in being admitted, the slatternly maid merely remarking, as she let us in, that ‘Mr Sevrin had not been home that night.’ We forced open a couple of drawers in the way of duty, and found a little useful information. The most interesting part was his diary; for this man, engaged in such deadly work, had the weakness to keep a record of the most damnatory kind. There were his acts and also his thoughts laid bare to us. But the dead don’t mind that. They don’t mind anything.
“And that was strictly true regarding her. Though Horne, for example, understood very well; and so did I, especially after we visited Sevrin’s place in a dreary back street of a very respectable neighborhood. Horne was recognized there as a friend, and we had no trouble getting in, the untidy maid simply mentioning, as she let us in, that ‘Mr. Sevrin hadn’t been home that night.’ We pried open a couple of drawers out of duty and found some useful information. The most intriguing part was his diary; for this man, involved in such dangerous work, had the flaw of keeping a record of the most incriminating type. There were his actions as well as his thoughts laid bare to us. But the dead don’t care about that. They don’t care about anything.”
“‘From conviction.’ Yes. A vague but ardent humanitarianism had urged him in his first youth into the bitterest extremity of negation and revolt. Afterwards his optimism flinched. He doubted and became lost. You have heard of converted atheists. These turn often into dangerous fanatics, but the soul remains the same. After he had got acquainted with the girl, there are to be met in that diary of his very queer politico-amorous rhapsodies. He took her sovereign grimaces with deadly seriousness. He longed to convert her. But all this cannot interest you. For the rest, I don’t know if you remember—it is a good many years ago now—the journalistic sensation of the ‘Hermione Street Mystery’; the finding of a man’s body in the cellar of an empty house; the inquest; some arrests; many surmises—then silence—the usual end for many obscure martyrs and confessors. The fact is, he was not enough of an optimist. You must be a savage, tyrannical, pitiless, thick-and-thin optimist, like Horne, for instance, to make a good social rebel of the extreme type.
“‘From conviction.’ Yes. A vague but intense humanitarianism drove him in his youth to the harshest extremes of denial and rebellion. Later, his optimism wavered. He started to doubt and became disoriented. You’ve heard of converted atheists. They often turn into dangerous fanatics, but the essence remains unchanged. After he met the girl, you can find some very odd political and romantic musings in his diary. He took her serious expressions with utmost seriousness. He desired to change her beliefs. But all this might not interest you. Also, I don't know if you remember—it’s been many years now—the media sensation of the ‘Hermione Street Mystery’; the discovery of a man’s body in the basement of an abandoned house; the inquest; some arrests; many theories—then silence—the usual fate for many obscure martyrs and advocates. The truth is, he wasn’t optimistic enough. You have to be a ruthless, tyrannical, unyielding optimist, like Horne, for example, to be a truly effective social rebel of the extreme kind.”
“He rose from the table. A waiter hurried up with his overcoat; another held his hat in readiness.
“He got up from the table. A waiter rushed over with his overcoat; another held his hat ready.”
“But what became of the young lady?” I asked.
“But what happened to the young lady?” I asked.
“Do you really want to know?” he said, buttoning himself in his fur coat carefully. “I confess to the small malice of sending her Sevrin’s diary. She went into retirement; then she went to Florence; then she went into retreat in a convent. I can’t tell where she will go next. What does it matter? Gestures! Gestures! Mere gestures of her class.”
“Do you really want to know?” he said, carefully buttoning his fur coat. “I admit to the petty cruelty of sending her Sevrin’s diary. She withdrew for a while; then she went to Florence; then she took refuge in a convent. I can’t predict where she’ll go next. What does it matter? Just gestures! Gestures! Simply gestures from her kind.”
“He fitted on his glossy high hat with extreme precision, and casting a rapid glance round the room, full of well-dressed people, innocently dining, muttered between his teeth:
“He put on his shiny top hat with careful precision and quickly glanced around the room, filled with well-dressed people enjoying their meals, muttered under his breath:
“And nothing else! That is why their kind is fated to perish.”
“And nothing more! That’s why their kind is doomed to disappear.”
“I never met Mr. X again after that evening. I took to dining at my club. On my next visit to Paris I found my friend all impatience to hear of the effect produced on me by this rare item of his collection. I told him all the story, and he beamed on me with the pride of his distinguished specimen.
“I never saw Mr. X again after that evening. I started eating at my club. On my next trip to Paris, I found my friend eagerly waiting to hear how I reacted to this unique piece from his collection. I shared the whole story with him, and he smiled at me with pride over his impressive specimen.
“‘Isn’t X well worth knowing?’ he bubbled over in great delight. ‘He’s unique, amazing, absolutely terrific.’
“‘Isn’t X amazing to know?’ he exclaimed with great excitement. ‘He’s one of a kind, incredible, absolutely fantastic.’”
“His enthusiasm grated upon my finer feelings. I told him curtly that the man’s cynicism was simply abominable.
“His enthusiasm rubbed me the wrong way. I told him sharply that the man’s cynicism was just terrible.”
“‘Oh, abominable! abominable!’ assented my friend, effusively. ‘And then, you know, he likes to have his little joke sometimes,’ he added in a confidential tone.
“‘Oh, terrible! terrible!’ agreed my friend, enthusiastically. ‘And then, you know, he enjoys making his little jokes sometimes,’ he added in a private tone.”
“I fail to understand the connection of this last remark. I have been utterly unable to discover where in all this the joke comes in.”
“I don’t get the point of this last comment. I’ve been completely unable to figure out where the joke is in all of this.”
THE BRUTE
AN INDIGNANT TALE
Dodging in from the rain-swept street, I exchanged a smile and a glance with Miss Blank in the bar of the Three Crows. This exchange was effected with extreme propriety. It is a shock to think that, if still alive, Miss Blank must be something over sixty now. How time passes!
Dodging in from the rain-soaked street, I shared a smile and a glance with Miss Blank at the bar of the Three Crows. This exchange was done with great decorum. It’s surprising to think that, if she were still alive, Miss Blank would be over sixty now. How quickly time flies!
Noticing my gaze directed inquiringly at the partition of glass and varnished wood, Miss Blank was good enough to say, encouragingly:
Noticing my curious stare at the glass and polished wood partition, Miss Blank kindly said, encouragingly:
“Only Mr. Jermyn and Mr. Stonor in the parlour with another gentleman I’ve never seen before.”
“Only Mr. Jermyn and Mr. Stonor are in the parlor with another man I've never seen before.”
I moved towards the parlour door. A voice discoursing on the other side (it was but a matchboard partition), rose so loudly that the concluding words became quite plain in all their atrocity.
I walked over to the parlor door. A voice talking on the other side (it was just a thin wooden wall) got so loud that the last words became completely clear in all their horror.
“That fellow Wilmot fairly dashed her brains out, and a good job, too!”
“That guy Wilmot really smashed her brains out, and that’s a good thing, too!”
This inhuman sentiment, since there was nothing profane or improper in it, failed to do as much as to check the slight yawn Miss Blank was achieving behind her hand. And she remained gazing fixedly at the window-panes, which streamed with rain.
This harsh feeling, since there was nothing vulgar or inappropriate about it, didn’t even manage to stop Miss Blank from yawning slightly behind her hand. She continued to stare intently at the window, which was streaked with rain.
As I opened the parlour door the same voice went on in the same cruel strain:
As I opened the parlor door, the same voice continued in the same harsh tone:
“I was glad when I heard she got the knock from somebody at last. Sorry enough for poor Wilmot, though. That man and I used to be chums at one time. Of course that was the end of him. A clear case if there ever was one. No way out of it. None at all.”
“I was happy to hear she finally got the boot from someone. It’s a shame for poor Wilmot, though. That guy and I used to be good friends back in the day. Of course, that was the end for him. A definite case if there ever was one. No escaping it. Not at all.”
The voice belonged to the gentleman Miss Blank had never seen before. He straddled his long legs on the hearthrug. Jermyn, leaning forward, held his pocket-handkerchief spread out before the grate. He looked back dismally over his shoulder, and as I slipped behind one of the little wooden tables, I nodded to him. On the other side of the fire, imposingly calm and large, sat Mr. Stonor, jammed tight into a capacious Windsor armchair. There was nothing small about him but his short, white side-whiskers. Yards and yards of extra superfine blue cloth (made up into an overcoat) reposed on a chair by his side. And he must just have brought some liner from sea, because another chair was smothered under his black waterproof, ample as a pall, and made of three-fold oiled silk, double-stitched throughout. A man’s hand-bag of the usual size looked like a child’s toy on the floor near his feet.
The voice belonged to a man Miss Blank had never seen before. He had his long legs stretched out on the hearthrug. Jermyn, leaning forward, held his pocket handkerchief spread out in front of the fireplace. He glanced back sadly over his shoulder, and as I moved behind one of the small wooden tables, I nodded to him. On the other side of the fire, sitting imposingly calm and large, was Mr. Stonor, squeezed tightly into a big Windsor armchair. The only small thing about him was his short, white sideburns. A large amount of extra fine blue fabric (made into an overcoat) rested on a chair next to him. He must have just brought something in from the sea because another chair was piled high with his black waterproof coat, big enough to be a shroud, and made of three-fold oiled silk, double-stitched all over. A man’s handbag of the usual size looked like a child's toy on the floor near his feet.
I did not nod to him. He was too big to be nodded to in that parlour. He was a senior Trinity pilot and condescended to take his turn in the cutter only during the summer months. He had been many times in charge of royal yachts in and out of Port Victoria. Besides, it’s no use nodding to a monument. And he was like one. He didn’t speak, he didn’t budge. He just sat there, holding his handsome old head up, immovable, and almost bigger than life. It was extremely fine. Mr. Stonor’s presence reduced poor old Jermyn to a mere shabby wisp of a man, and made the talkative stranger in tweeds on the hearthrug look absurdly boyish. The latter must have been a few years over thirty, and was certainly not the sort of individual that gets abashed at the sound of his own voice, because gathering me in, as it were, by a friendly glance, he kept it going without a check.
I didn’t nod to him. He was too big to be acknowledged in that parlor. He was a senior Trinity pilot and only bothered to take his turn in the cutter during the summer months. He had often been in charge of royal yachts coming in and out of Port Victoria. Plus, there’s no point in nodding to a statue. And he was like one. He didn’t speak or move. He just sat there, holding his impressive old head high, immovable, and almost larger than life. It was quite something. Mr. Stonor’s presence made poor old Jermyn look like a mere shabby wisp of a man and made the chatty stranger in tweeds on the hearthrug seem ridiculously young. The latter must have been a few years past thirty and definitely wasn’t the kind of person who gets flustered by the sound of his own voice because he kept the conversation going smoothly, as if drawing me in with a friendly glance.
“I was glad of it,” he repeated, emphatically. “You may be surprised at it, but then you haven’t gone through the experience I’ve had of her. I can tell you, it was something to remember. Of course, I got off scot free myself—as you can see. She did her best to break up my pluck for me tho’. She jolly near drove as fine a fellow as ever lived into a madhouse. What do you say to that—eh?”
“I was glad of it,” he said firmly. “You might be surprised, but you haven’t gone through what I have with her. Let me tell you, it was unforgettable. Of course, I came out of it just fine—as you can see. She really tried to wear me down, though. She almost drove one of the best guys around to a breakdown. What do you think of that—huh?”
Not an eyelid twitched in Mr. Stonor’s enormous face. Monumental! The speaker looked straight into my eyes.
Not a single eyelid moved on Mr. Stonor’s massive face. Impressive! The speaker stared directly into my eyes.
“It used to make me sick to think of her going about the world murdering people.”
“It used to make me feel sick to think about her traveling the world and killing people.”
Jermyn approached the handkerchief a little nearer to the grate and groaned. It was simply a habit he had.
Jermyn moved the handkerchief a bit closer to the fireplace and groaned. It was just a habit he had.
“I’ve seen her once,” he declared, with mournful indifference. “She had a house—”
“I’ve seen her once,” he said, with sad indifference. “She had a house—”
The stranger in tweeds turned to stare down at him, surprised.
The stranger in tweeds turned to look down at him, surprised.
“She had three houses,” he corrected, authoritatively. But Jermyn was not to be contradicted.
“She had three houses,” he corrected, confidently. But Jermyn was not going to be contradicted.
“She had a house, I say,” he repeated, with dismal obstinacy. “A great, big, ugly, white thing. You could see it from miles away—sticking up.”
“She had a house, I tell you,” he repeated, with a gloomy stubbornness. “A huge, ugly, white thing. You could see it from miles away—standing out.”
“So you could,” assented the other readily. “It was old Colchester’s notion, though he was always threatening to give her up. He couldn’t stand her racket any more, he declared; it was too much of a good thing for him; he would wash his hands of her, if he never got hold of another—and so on. I daresay he would have chucked her, only—it may surprise you—his missus wouldn’t hear of it. Funny, eh? But with women, you never know how they will take a thing, and Mrs. Colchester, with her moustaches and big eyebrows, set up for being as strong-minded as they make them. She used to walk about in a brown silk dress, with a great gold cable flopping about her bosom. You should have heard her snapping out: ‘Rubbish!’ or ‘Stuff and nonsense!’ I daresay she knew when she was well off. They had no children, and had never set up a home anywhere. When in England she just made shift to hang out anyhow in some cheap hotel or boarding-house. I daresay she liked to get back to the comforts she was used to. She knew very well she couldn’t gain by any change. And, moreover, Colchester, though a first-rate man, was not what you may call in his first youth, and, perhaps, she may have thought that he wouldn’t be able to get hold of another (as he used to say) so easily. Anyhow, for one reason or another, it was ‘Rubbish’ and ‘Stuff and nonsense’ for the good lady. I overheard once young Mr. Apse himself say to her confidentially: ‘I assure you, Mrs. Colchester, I am beginning to feel quite unhappy about the name she’s getting for herself.’ ‘Oh,’ says she, with her deep little hoarse laugh, ‘if one took notice of all the silly talk,’ and she showed Apse all her ugly false teeth at once. ‘It would take more than that to make me lose my confidence in her, I assure you,’ says she.”
“So you could,” the other agreed quickly. “That was old Colchester’s idea, though he kept threatening to give her up. He said he couldn’t take her noise anymore; it was too much for him. He would wash his hands of her if he never got another— and so on. I think he might have actually let her go, but—believe it or not—his wife wouldn’t allow it. Funny, right? But with women, you can’t predict how they’ll react, and Mrs. Colchester, with her mustache and bushy eyebrows, acted like she was as strong-minded as they come. She would walk around in a brown silk dress, with a big gold chain hanging loosely around her neck. You should have heard her say things like, ‘Rubbish!’ or ‘Nonsense!’ I bet she knew she had it good. They had no kids and never really set up home anywhere. When they were in England, she just made do in some cheap hotel or boarding house. I imagine she liked getting back to the comforts she was used to. She knew she wouldn’t benefit from any change. Plus, Colchester, while a great guy, wasn’t exactly young anymore, and maybe she thought he wouldn’t easily find someone else (as he liked to say). Anyway, for one reason or another, it was ‘Rubbish’ and ‘Nonsense’ for the good lady. I once overheard young Mr. Apse say to her confidentially, ‘I assure you, Mrs. Colchester, I’m starting to feel quite worried about the reputation she’s getting.’ ‘Oh,’ she replied with her raspy little laugh, ‘if we paid attention to all the silly gossip,’ and she flashed her ugly false teeth. ‘It would take more than that to shake my confidence in her, I assure you,’ she said.”
At this point, without any change of facial expression, Mr. Stonor emitted a short, sardonic laugh. It was very impressive, but I didn’t see the fun. I looked from one to another. The stranger on the hearthrug had an ugly smile.
At this point, without changing his expression, Mr. Stonor let out a короткий, sarcastic laugh. It was quite striking, but I didn’t find it funny. I glanced back and forth between them. The stranger on the hearthrug had a nasty smile.
“And Mr. Apse shook both Mrs. Colchester’s hands, he was so pleased to hear a good word said for their favourite. All these Apses, young and old you know, were perfectly infatuated with that abominable, dangerous—”
“And Mr. Apse shook both Mrs. Colchester’s hands, he was so pleased to hear something nice said about their favorite. All these Apses, young and old, you know, were completely obsessed with that awful, risky—”
“I beg your pardon,” I interrupted, for he seemed to be addressing himself exclusively to me; “but who on earth are you talking about?”
“I’m sorry to interrupt,” I said, since he seemed to be talking only to me; “but who on earth are you talking about?”
“I am talking of the Apse family,” he answered, courteously.
“I’m talking about the Apse family,” he replied politely.
I nearly let out a damn at this. But just then the respected Miss Blank put her head in, and said that the cab was at the door, if Mr. Stonor wanted to catch the eleven three up.
I almost swore at this. But just then, the esteemed Miss Blank popped her head in and said the cab was at the door if Mr. Stonor wanted to catch the 11:03 train.
At once the senior pilot arose in his mighty bulk and began to struggle into his coat, with awe-inspiring upheavals. The stranger and I hurried impulsively to his assistance, and directly we laid our hands on him he became perfectly quiescent. We had to raise our arms very high, and to make efforts. It was like caparisoning a docile elephant. With a “Thanks, gentlemen,” he dived under and squeezed himself through the door in a great hurry.
Suddenly, the senior pilot stood up in all his massive size and started to put on his coat, creating quite a scene. The stranger and I quickly rushed to help him, and as soon as we touched him, he completely relaxed. We had to lift our arms really high and put in some effort. It felt like dressing a calm elephant. With a “Thanks, gentlemen,” he ducked down and hurriedly squeezed himself through the door.
We smiled at each other in a friendly way.
We shared friendly smiles.
“I wonder how he manages to hoist himself up a ship’s side-ladder,” said the man in tweeds; and poor Jermyn, who was a mere North Sea pilot, without official status or recognition of any sort, pilot only by courtesy, groaned.
“I wonder how he manages to climb up a ship's side ladder,” said the man in tweeds; and poor Jermyn, who was just a North Sea pilot, without any official status or recognition, a pilot only by courtesy, groaned.
“He makes eight hundred a year.”
“He makes eight hundred a year.”
“Are you a sailor?” I asked the stranger, who had gone back to his position on the rug.
“Are you a sailor?” I asked the stranger, who had returned to his spot on the rug.
“I used to be till a couple of years ago, when I got married,” answered this communicative individual. “I even went to sea first in that very ship we were speaking of when you came in.”
“I used to be until a couple of years ago, when I got married,” replied this talkative person. “I even went to sea first on that very ship we were talking about when you walked in.”
“What ship?” I asked, puzzled. “I never heard you mention a ship.”
“What ship?” I asked, confused. “I never heard you talk about a ship.”
“I’ve just told you her name, my dear sir,” he replied. “The Apse Family. Surely you’ve heard of the great firm of Apse & Sons, shipowners. They had a pretty big fleet. There was the Lucy Apse, and the Harold Apse, and Anne, John, Malcolm, Clara, Juliet, and so on—no end of Apses. Every brother, sister, aunt, cousin, wife—and grandmother, too, for all I know—of the firm had a ship named after them. Good, solid, old-fashioned craft they were, too, built to carry and to last. None of your new-fangled, labour-saving appliances in them, but plenty of men and plenty of good salt beef and hard tack put aboard—and off you go to fight your way out and home again.”
“I just told you her name, my dear sir,” he replied. “The Apse Family. Surely you’ve heard of the well-known firm of Apse & Sons, shipowners. They had quite a large fleet. There was the Lucy Apse, the Harold Apse, and then Anne, John, Malcolm, Clara, Juliet, and so many more—no shortage of Apses. Every brother, sister, aunt, cousin, wife—and grandmother, too, for all I know—of the firm had a ship named after them. They were good, solid, old-fashioned vessels, built to carry cargo and last a long time. None of those modern, labor-saving gadgets on board, just plenty of crew and lots of good salt beef and hardtack loaded up—and off you go to battle your way back home again.”
The miserable Jermyn made a sound of approval, which sounded like a groan of pain. Those were the ships for him. He pointed out in doleful tones that you couldn’t say to labour-saving appliances: “Jump lively now, my hearties.” No labour-saving appliance would go aloft on a dirty night with the sands under your lee.
The miserable Jermyn made a sound that seemed like a groan of pain. Those were the ships for him. He pointed out in a sad tone that you couldn’t tell labor-saving devices: “Jump to it, my friends.” No labor-saving device would go up in a dirty night with the sand beneath you.
“No,” assented the stranger, with a wink at me. “The Apses didn’t believe in them either, apparently. They treated their people well—as people don’t get treated nowadays, and they were awfully proud of their ships. Nothing ever happened to them. This last one, the Apse Family, was to be like the others, only she was to be still stronger, still safer, still more roomy and comfortable. I believe they meant her to last for ever. They had her built composite—iron, teak-wood, and greenheart, and her scantling was something fabulous. If ever an order was given for a ship in a spirit of pride this one was. Everything of the best. The commodore captain of the employ was to command her, and they planned the accommodation for him like a house on shore under a big, tall poop that went nearly to the mainmast. No wonder Mrs. Colchester wouldn’t let the old man give her up. Why, it was the best home she ever had in all her married days. She had a nerve, that woman.
“No,” agreed the stranger, winking at me. “The Apses didn’t believe in them either, apparently. They treated their people well—better than people get treated nowadays—and they were incredibly proud of their ships. Nothing ever happened to them. This last one, the Apse Family, was supposed to be like the others, but even stronger, safer, and more spacious and comfortable. I think they intended for her to last forever. They had her built with a mix of materials—iron, teak, and greenheart—and her dimensions were just incredible. If any ship was built out of pride, it was this one. Everything was top-notch. The commodore captain in charge was going to command her, and they designed his quarters like a house on land, under a big, tall poop deck that nearly reached the mainmast. No wonder Mrs. Colchester wouldn’t let the old man give her up. It was the best home she ever had during her marriage. That woman had guts.”
“The fuss that was made while that ship was building! Let’s have this a little stronger, and that a little heavier; and hadn’t that other thing better be changed for something a little thicker. The builders entered into the spirit of the game, and there she was, growing into the clumsiest, heaviest ship of her size right before all their eyes, without anybody becoming aware of it somehow. She was to be 2,000 tons register, or a little over; no less on any account. But see what happens. When they came to measure her she turned out 1,999 tons and a fraction. General consternation! And they say old Mr. Apse was so annoyed when they told him that he took to his bed and died. The old gentleman had retired from the firm twenty-five years before, and was ninety-six years old if a day, so his death wasn’t, perhaps, so surprising. Still Mr. Lucian Apse was convinced that his father would have lived to a hundred. So we may put him at the head of the list. Next comes the poor devil of a shipwright that brute caught and squashed as she went off the ways. They called it the launch of a ship, but I’ve heard people say that, from the wailing and yelling and scrambling out of the way, it was more like letting a devil loose upon the river. She snapped all her checks like pack-thread, and went for the tugs in attendance like a fury. Before anybody could see what she was up to she sent one of them to the bottom, and laid up another for three months’ repairs. One of her cables parted, and then, suddenly—you couldn’t tell why—she let herself be brought up with the other as quiet as a lamb.
“The commotion that happened while that ship was being built! Let’s make this a bit stronger, and that a bit heavier; and shouldn’t that other part be swapped for something a little thicker? The builders really got into it, and there she was, transforming into the clumsiest, heaviest ship of her size right in front of their eyes, without anyone really noticing. She was supposed to be 2,000 tons, or a little over; no less, no way. But look what happened. When they measured her, she came out to 1,999 tons and a fraction. Total shock! They say old Mr. Apse was so upset when they told him that he went to bed and died. The old man had retired from the company twenty-five years earlier and was ninety-six years old, so his death wasn’t exactly a surprise. Still, Mr. Lucian Apse was sure his father would have lived to a hundred. So let's put him at the top of the list. Next is the poor shipwright who got caught and crushed as she launched. They called it the launch of a ship, but I’ve heard people say that, judging by the wailing, yelling, and scrambling to get out of the way, it was more like unleashing a demon on the river. She snapped all her checks like thread and charged at the tugs waiting nearby like a wild beast. Before anyone could figure out what she was doing, she sent one of them to the bottom and put another out of commission for three months. One of her cables broke, and then, out of nowhere—you couldn’t figure out why—she calmed down and let herself be brought in as peacefully as a lamb.
“That’s how she was. You could never be sure what she would be up to next. There are ships difficult to handle, but generally you can depend on them behaving rationally. With that ship, whatever you did with her you never knew how it would end. She was a wicked beast. Or, perhaps, she was only just insane.”
"That’s just how she was. You could never predict what she would do next. There are ships that are tough to manage, but usually, you can count on them to act reasonably. With that ship, no matter what you did with her, you never knew how it would turn out. She was a wicked creature. Or maybe she was just plain crazy."
He uttered this supposition in so earnest a tone that I could not refrain from smiling. He left off biting his lower lip to apostrophize me.
He said this assumption with such serious intent that I couldn't help but smile. He stopped biting his lower lip to address me directly.
“Eh! Why not? Why couldn’t there be something in her build, in her lines corresponding to—What’s madness? Only something just a tiny bit wrong in the make of your brain. Why shouldn’t there be a mad ship—I mean mad in a ship-like way, so that under no circumstances could you be sure she would do what any other sensible ship would naturally do for you. There are ships that steer wildly, and ships that can’t be quite trusted always to stay; others want careful watching when running in a gale; and, again, there may be a ship that will make heavy weather of it in every little blow. But then you expect her to be always so. You take it as part of her character, as a ship, just as you take account of a man’s peculiarities of temper when you deal with him. But with her you couldn’t. She was unaccountable. If she wasn’t mad, then she was the most evil-minded, underhand, savage brute that ever went afloat. I’ve seen her run in a heavy gale beautifully for two days, and on the third broach to twice in the same afternoon. The first time she flung the helmsman clean over the wheel, but as she didn’t quite manage to kill him she had another try about three hours afterwards. She swamped herself fore and aft, burst all the canvas we had set, scared all hands into a panic, and even frightened Mrs. Colchester down there in these beautiful stern cabins that she was so proud of. When we mustered the crew there was one man missing. Swept overboard, of course, without being either seen or heard, poor devil! and I only wonder more of us didn’t go.
“Why not? Why couldn’t there be something about her build, her lines that correspond to—What’s madness? It’s just a tiny bit off in the way your brain is wired. Why shouldn’t there be a crazy ship—I mean crazy in a ship-like way, so that you could never be sure she’d do what any other sensible ship would naturally do for you? There are ships that steer wildly, and ships that you can’t always trust to stay on course; others need careful watching when riding out a storm; and then, there’s the ship that struggles in every little gust. But you expect that from her; you accept it as part of her character, like you acknowledge a man’s quirks when dealing with him. But with her, you couldn’t. She was unpredictable. If she wasn’t mad, then she was the most malicious, sneaky, savage beast that ever sailed. I’ve seen her handle a heavy gale flawlessly for two days, and on the third, capsize twice in the same afternoon. The first time she threw the helmsman completely over the wheel, but since she didn’t succeed in killing him, she gave it another shot about three hours later. She flooded herself from bow to stern, ripped all the sails we had up, threw the crew into a panic, and even scared Mrs. Colchester down there in those beautiful stern cabins she was so proud of. When we gathered the crew, one man was missing. Swept overboard, of course, without anyone seeing or hearing him, the poor guy! I only wonder why more of us didn’t go overboard too.”
“Always something like that. Always. I heard an old mate tell Captain Colchester once that it had come to this with him, that he was afraid to open his mouth to give any sort of order. She was as much of a terror in harbour as at sea. You could never be certain what would hold her. On the slightest provocation she would start snapping ropes, cables, wire hawsers, like carrots. She was heavy, clumsy, unhandy—but that does not quite explain that power for mischief she had. You know, somehow, when I think of her I can’t help remembering what we hear of incurable lunatics breaking loose now and then.”
“Always something like that. Always. I once heard an old friend tell Captain Colchester that he was so afraid to give any orders that he kept his mouth shut. She was just as scary in the harbor as she was at sea. You could never be sure what would set her off. At the slightest provocation, she would start snapping ropes, cables, and wire haws like they were nothing. She was heavy, clumsy, and difficult to handle—but that doesn’t really capture the trouble she could cause. You know, whenever I think of her, I can’t help but remember stories about incurable lunatics breaking free from time to time.”
He looked at me inquisitively. But, of course, I couldn’t admit that a ship could be mad.
He looked at me curiously. But, of course, I couldn’t admit that a ship could be crazy.
“In the ports where she was known,” he went on,’ “they dreaded the sight of her. She thought nothing of knocking away twenty feet or so of solid stone facing off a quay or wiping off the end of a wooden wharf. She must have lost miles of chain and hundreds of tons of anchors in her time. When she fell aboard some poor unoffending ship it was the very devil of a job to haul her off again. And she never got hurt herself—just a few scratches or so, perhaps. They had wanted to have her strong. And so she was. Strong enough to ram Polar ice with. And as she began so she went on. From the day she was launched she never let a year pass without murdering somebody. I think the owners got very worried about it. But they were a stiff-necked generation all these Apses; they wouldn’t admit there could be anything wrong with the Apse Family. They wouldn’t even change her name. ‘Stuff and nonsense,’ as Mrs. Colchester used to say. They ought at least to have shut her up for life in some dry dock or other, away up the river, and never let her smell salt water again. I assure you, my dear sir, that she invariably did kill someone every voyage she made. It was perfectly well-known. She got a name for it, far and wide.”
“In the ports where she was known,” he continued, “people feared her. She didn't think twice about smashing away twenty feet or so of solid stone off a quay or tearing off the end of a wooden dock. She must have lost miles of chain and hundreds of tons of anchors over time. When she collided with some unsuspecting ship, it was a huge hassle to get her off again. And she never got seriously damaged herself—just a few scratches now and then. They wanted her to be tough. And she was. Tough enough to crash into Polar ice. From the day she was launched, she never went a year without killing someone. I think the owners became quite concerned about it. But all these Apses were a stubborn bunch; they wouldn't admit there was anything wrong with the Apse Family. They wouldn’t even change her name. ‘Nonsense,’ as Mrs. Colchester used to say. They should have at least confined her for life in some dry dock upstream and never let her near salt water again. I assure you, my dear sir, that she always ended up killing someone every voyage she took. It was well-known. She earned a reputation for it, far and wide.”
I expressed my surprise that a ship with such a deadly reputation could ever get a crew.
I was surprised that a ship with such a deadly reputation could ever find a crew.
“Then, you don’t know what sailors are, my dear sir. Let me just show you by an instance. One day in dock at home, while loafing on the forecastle head, I noticed two respectable salts come along, one a middle-aged, competent, steady man, evidently, the other a smart, youngish chap. They read the name on the bows and stopped to look at her. Says the elder man: ‘Apse Family. That’s the sanguinary female dog’ (I’m putting it in that way) ‘of a ship, Jack, that kills a man every voyage. I wouldn’t sign in her—not for Joe, I wouldn’t.’ And the other says: ‘If she were mine, I’d have her towed on the mud and set on fire, blame if I wouldn’t.’ Then the first man chimes in: ‘Much do they care! Men are cheap, God knows.’ The younger one spat in the water alongside. ‘They won’t have me—not for double wages.’
“Then, you don’t know what sailors are, my dear sir. Let me just show you with an example. One day in the dock at home, while hanging out on the bow, I saw two respectable sailors walk by, one a middle-aged, competent, steady guy, and the other a smart, younger fellow. They looked at the name on the bow and stopped to take a look at her. The older man said, ‘Apse Family. That’s the bloody ship’ (I’m saying it that way) ‘that kills a man every trip, Jack. I wouldn’t sign on her—not for anything, I wouldn’t.’ Then the other guy said, ‘If she were mine, I’d have her towed to the mud and set on fire, you bet I would.’ Then the first guy added, ‘Do they care? Men are cheap, God knows.’ The younger one spat into the water next to him. ‘They won’t have me—not for double wages.’”
“They hung about for some time and then walked up the dock. Half an hour later I saw them both on our deck looking about for the mate, and apparently very anxious to be taken on. And they were.”
“They lingered for a while and then strolled up the dock. Half an hour later, I spotted them both on our deck looking for the mate, clearly eager to be hired. And they were.”
“How do you account for this?” I asked.
“How do you explain this?” I asked.
“What would you say?” he retorted. “Recklessness! The vanity of boasting in the evening to all their chums: ‘We’ve just shipped in that there Apse Family. Blow her. She ain’t going to scare us.’ Sheer sailorlike perversity! A sort of curiosity. Well—a little of all that, no doubt. I put the question to them in the course of the voyage. The answer of the elderly chap was:
“What would you say?” he shot back. “Irresponsibility! The silliness of bragging at night to all their friends: ‘We just brought in that Apse Family. Bring it on. She’s not going to intimidate us.’ Total sailor-like stubbornness! A kind of curiosity. Well—a bit of all that, for sure. I asked them during the journey. The answer from the older guy was:
“‘A man can die but once.’ The younger assured me in a mocking tone that he wanted to see ‘how she would do it this time.’ But I tell you what; there was a sort of fascination about the brute.”
“‘A man can die but once.’ The younger guy mocked me, saying he wanted to see ‘how she would do it this time.’ But honestly, there was something kind of fascinating about the brute.”
Jermyn, who seemed to have seen every ship in the world, broke in sulkily:
Jermyn, who appeared to have seen every ship in the world, interrupted grumpily:
“I saw her once out of this very window towing up the river; a great black ugly thing, going along like a big hearse.”
“I saw her once out of this very window moving up the river; a big black ugly thing, going along like a huge hearse.”
“Something sinister about her looks, wasn’t there?” said the man in tweeds, looking down at old Jermyn with a friendly eye. “I always had a sort of horror of her. She gave me a beastly shock when I was no more than fourteen, the very first day—nay, hour—I joined her. Father came up to see me off, and was to go down to Gravesend with us. I was his second boy to go to sea. My big brother was already an officer then. We. got on board about eleven in the morning, and found the ship ready to drop out of the basin, stern first. She had not moved three times her own length when, at a little pluck the tug gave her to enter the dock gates, she made one of her rampaging starts, and put such a weight on the check rope—a new six-inch hawser—that forward there they had no chance to ease it round in time, and it parted. I saw the broken end fly up high in the air, and the next moment that brute brought her quarter against the pier-head with a jar that staggered everybody about her decks. She didn’t hurt herself. Not she! But one of the boys the mate had sent aloft on the mizzen to do something, came down on the poop-deck—thump—right in front of me. He was not much older than myself. We had been grinning at each other only a few minutes before. He must have been handling himself carelessly, not expecting to get such a jerk. I heard his startled cry—Oh!—in a high treble as he felt himself going, and looked up in time to see him go limp all over as he fell. Ough! Poor father was remarkably white about the gills when we shook hands in Gravesend. ‘Are you all right?’ he says, looking hard at me. ‘Yes, father.’ ‘Quite sure?’ ‘Yes, father.’ ‘Well, then good-bye, my boy.’ He told me afterwards that for half a word he would have carried me off home with him there and then. I am the baby of the family—you know,” added the man in tweeds, stroking his moustache with an ingenuous smile.
“Something was definitely off about her looks, right?” said the man in tweeds, glancing down at old Jermyn with a friendly look. “I’ve had a sort of fear of her for a long time. She shocked me really badly when I was just fourteen, on the very first day—no, the very hour—I joined her. Dad came to see me off and was supposed to go down to Gravesend with us. I was his second son to go to sea. My older brother was already an officer by then. We boarded around eleven in the morning and found the ship ready to pull out of the basin, going backward. She hadn’t even moved three times her own length when, with a little nudge from the tug to enter the dock gates, she took off like a wild animal and put so much strain on the check rope—a new six-inch hawser—that the crew up front couldn’t ease it in time, and it snapped. I saw the broken end shoot up into the air, and in the next moment, that beast slammed her rear against the pier head with such force that it knocked everyone on her decks off balance. She didn’t injure herself, of course! But one of the boys the mate had sent up the mizzen to do something crashed down onto the poop deck—thud—right in front of me. He wasn’t much older than I was. We had been smiling at each other just a few minutes before. He must have been careless, not expecting to get yanked like that. I heard his startled shout—Oh!—in a high pitch as he felt himself going, and looked up just in time to see him go limp as he fell. Ough! Poor Dad looked really pale when we shook hands in Gravesend. ‘Are you okay?’ he asked, studying me intently. ‘Yes, Dad.’ ‘Absolutely sure?’ ‘Yes, Dad.’ ‘Well then, goodbye, my boy.’ He told me later that he almost took me home with him right then and there. I’m the baby of the family—you know,” the man in tweeds added, stroking his mustache with an innocent smile.
I acknowledged this interesting communication by a sympathetic murmur. He waved his hand carelessly.
I responded to this interesting conversation with a thoughtful murmur. He waved his hand nonchalantly.
“This might have utterly spoiled a chap’s nerve for going aloft, you know—utterly. He fell within two feet of me, cracking his head on a mooring-bitt. Never moved. Stone dead. Nice looking little fellow, he was. I had just been thinking we would be great chums. However, that wasn’t yet the worst that brute of a ship could do. I served in her three years of my time, and then I got transferred to the Lucy Apse, for a year. The sailmaker we had in the Apse Family turned up there, too, and I remember him saying to me one evening, after we had been a week at sea: Isn’t she a meek little ship?’ No wonder we thought the Lucy Apse a dear, meek, little ship after getting clear of that big, rampaging savage brute. It was like heaven. Her officers seemed to me the restfullest lot of men on earth. To me who had known no ship but the Apse Family, the Lucy was like a sort of magic craft that did what you wanted her to do of her own accord. One evening we got caught aback pretty sharply from right ahead. In about ten minutes we had her full again, sheets aft, tacks down, decks cleared, and the officer of the watch leaning against the weather rail peacefully. It seemed simply marvellous to me. The other would have stuck for half-an-hour in irons, rolling her decks full of water, knocking the men about—spars cracking, braces snapping, yards taking charge, and a confounded scare going on aft because of her beastly rudder, which she had a way of flapping about fit to raise your hair on end. I couldn’t get over my wonder for days.
“This could have completely ruined a guy’s confidence for climbing up high, you know—totally. He dropped just two feet from me, hitting his head on a mooring-bitt. Never moved. Stone dead. He was a nice-looking kid. I had just been thinking we would be great friends. Still, that wasn’t even the worst that brutal ship could do. I spent three years on her, and then I got transferred to the Lucy Apse for a year. The sailmaker we had in the Apse Family ended up there too, and I remember him saying to me one evening after we’d been at sea for a week: Isn’t she a sweet little ship? No wonder we thought the Lucy Apse was a dear, sweet, little ship after getting away from that big, wild, savage brute. It felt like heaven. Her officers seemed to be the most relaxed group of men on earth. To me, who had known only the Apse Family, the Lucy felt like a magical ship that did what you wanted it to do without needing any help. One evening, we got caught aback pretty sharply from right ahead. In about ten minutes, we had her back on course, sheets aft, tacks down, decks cleared, and the officer of the watch casually leaning against the weather rail. It seemed simply amazing to me. The other would have struggled for half an hour, rolling her decks full of water, throwing the men around—spars cracking, braces snapping, yards going wild, and a crazy panic happening aft because of her irritating rudder, which had a way of flapping about that could really get your heart racing. I couldn’t stop marveling for days.
“Well, I finished my last year of apprenticeship in that jolly little ship—she wasn’t so little either, but after that other heavy devil she seemed but a plaything to handle. I finished my time and passed; and then just as I was thinking of having three weeks of real good time on shore I got at breakfast a letter asking me the earliest day I could be ready to join the Apse Family as third mate. I gave my plate a shove that shot it into the middle of the table; dad looked up over his paper; mother raised her hands in astonishment, and I went out bare-headed into our bit of garden, where I walked round and round for an hour.
“Well, I finished my last year of apprenticeship on that cheerful little ship—she wasn't so little either, but after that other heavy one, she felt more like a toy to handle. I completed my time and passed; and just as I was planning to enjoy three weeks of real leisure on land, I got a letter at breakfast asking me about the earliest day I could be ready to join the Apse Family as a third mate. I pushed my plate, sending it flying to the center of the table; Dad looked up from his paper; Mom raised her hands in surprise, and I went out without a hat into our small garden, where I walked in circles for an hour.
“When I came in again mother was out of the dining-room, and dad had shifted berth into his big armchair. The letter was lying on the mantelpiece.
“When I came in again, Mom was out of the dining room, and Dad had moved to his big armchair. The letter was sitting on the mantelpiece.”
“‘It’s very creditable to you to get the offer, and very kind of them to make it,’ he said. ‘And I see also that Charles has been appointed chief mate of that ship for one voyage.’
“‘It’s impressive that you got the offer, and really nice of them to make it,’ he said. ‘And I also noticed that Charles has been named chief mate of that ship for one voyage.’”
“There was, over leaf, a P.S. to that effect in Mr. Apse’s own handwriting, which I had overlooked. Charley was my big brother.
“There was, on the next page, a P.S. to that effect in Mr. Apse’s own handwriting, which I had missed. Charley was my older brother.”
“I don’t like very much to have two of my boys together in one ship,’ father goes on, in his deliberate, solemn way. ‘And I may tell you that I would not mind writing Mr. Apse a letter to that effect.’
“I don’t really like having both of my boys on the same ship,” father continues, in his slow, serious manner. “And I might mention that I wouldn’t mind writing Mr. Apse a letter about that.”
“Dear old dad! He was a wonderful father. What would you have done? The mere notion of going back (and as an officer, too), to be worried and bothered, and kept on the jump night and day by that brute, made me feel sick. But she wasn’t a ship you could afford to fight shy of. Besides, the most genuine excuse could not be given without mortally offending Apse & Sons. The firm, and I believe the whole family down to the old unmarried aunts in Lancashire, had grown desperately touchy about that accursed ship’s character. This was the case for answering ‘Ready now’ from your very death-bed if you wished to die in their good graces. And that’s precisely what I did answer—by wire, to have it over and done with at once.
“Dear old dad! He was an amazing father. What would you have done? Just the thought of going back (and as an officer, too), to be stressed out and constantly on edge because of that jerk made me feel nauseous. But she wasn’t a ship you could afford to avoid. Plus, you couldn’t give the most legitimate excuse without seriously upsetting Apse & Sons. The company, and I think the whole family down to the old unmarried aunts in Lancashire, had become extremely sensitive about that cursed ship’s reputation. You had to answer ‘Ready now’ even from your deathbed if you wanted to die in their good graces. And that’s exactly what I did answer—by wire, to get it over with right away.”
“The prospect of being shipmates with my big brother cheered me up considerably, though it made me a bit anxious, too. Ever since I remember myself as a little chap he had been very good to me, and I looked upon him as the finest fellow in the world. And so he was. No better officer ever walked the deck of a merchant ship. And that’s a fact. He was a fine, strong, upstanding, sun-tanned, young fellow, with his brown hair curling a little, and an eye like a hawk. He was just splendid. We hadn’t seen each other for many years, and even this time, though he had been in England three weeks already, he hadn’t showed up at home yet, but had spent his spare time in Surrey somewhere making up to Maggie Colchester, old Captain Colchester’s niece. Her father, a great friend of dad’s, was in the sugar-broking business, and Charley made a sort of second home of their house. I wondered what my big brother would think of me. There was a sort of sternness about Charley’s face which never left it, not even when he was larking in his rather wild fashion.
The idea of being shipmates with my big brother really lifted my spirits, although it also made me a bit nervous. Since I could remember as a little kid, he had always been really good to me, and I thought he was the greatest guy in the world. And he truly was. No better officer ever walked the deck of a merchant ship—that's for sure. He was a strong, handsome young guy with sun-kissed skin, curly brown hair, and a hawk-like gaze. He was just awesome. We hadn’t seen each other in years, and even though he had been in England for three weeks already, he still hadn’t come home, spending his time somewhere in Surrey pursuing Maggie Colchester, the niece of old Captain Colchester. Her father, a close friend of Dad’s, was in the sugar-broking business, and Charley practically made their house his second home. I wondered what my big brother would think of me. There was a certain seriousness about Charley’s face that never went away, not even when he was joking around in his wild way.
“He received me with a great shout of laughter. He seemed to think my joining as an officer the greatest joke in the world. There was a difference of ten years between us, and I suppose he remembered me best in pinafores. I was a kid of four when he first went to sea. It surprised me to find how boisterous he could be.
“He welcomed me with a loud burst of laughter. He seemed to think my joining as an officer was the funniest thing ever. There was a ten-year age difference between us, and I guess he remembered me best in my little dresses. I was just four when he first went to sea. I was surprised by how rowdy he could be.
“‘Now we shall see what you are made of,’ he cried. And he held me off by the shoulders, and punched my ribs, and hustled me into his berth. ‘Sit down, Ned. I am glad of the chance of having you with me. I’ll put the finishing touch to you, my young officer, providing you’re worth the trouble. And, first of all, get it well into your head that we are not going to let this brute kill anybody this voyage. We’ll stop her racket.’
“‘Now we’ll see what you’re really made of,’ he shouted. He held me by the shoulders, punched me in the ribs, and pushed me into his cabin. ‘Sit down, Ned. I’m glad to have you here with me. I’ll help you finish your training, my young officer, if you’re worth the effort. And first things first, remember that we’re not going to let this monster harm anyone on this trip. We’ll put an end to her noise.’”
“I perceived he was in dead earnest about it. He talked grimly of the ship, and how we must be careful and never allow this ugly beast to catch us napping with any of her damned tricks.
“I could see he was absolutely serious about it. He talked seriously about the ship and how we had to be careful and never let this ugly beast catch us off guard with any of her damn tricks.
“He gave me a regular lecture on special seamanship for the use of the Apse Family; then changing his tone, he began to talk at large, rattling off the wildest, funniest nonsense, till my sides ached with laughing. I could see very well he was a bit above himself with high spirits. It couldn’t be because of my coming. Not to that extent. But, of course, I wouldn’t have dreamt of asking what was the matter. I had a proper respect for my big brother, I can tell you. But it was all made plain enough a day or two afterwards, when I heard that Miss Maggie Colchester was coming for the voyage. Uncle was giving her a sea-trip for the benefit of her health.
“He gave me a regular lecture on special seamanship for the use of the Apse Family; then, changing his tone, he started talking freely, rattling off the wildest, funniest nonsense until my sides hurt from laughing. I could tell he was in really high spirits. It couldn’t be because of my arrival—not to that degree. But, of course, I wouldn’t have dreamed of asking what was going on. I had a healthy respect for my big brother, let me tell you. But it all became clear a day or two later when I heard that Miss Maggie Colchester was joining us for the voyage. Uncle was giving her a sea trip to help with her health.
“I don’t know what could have been wrong with her health. She had a beautiful colour, and a deuce of a lot of fair hair. She didn’t care a rap for wind, or rain, or spray, or sun, or green seas, or anything. She was a blue-eyed, jolly girl of the very best sort, but the way she cheeked my big brother used to frighten me. I always expected it to end in an awful row. However, nothing decisive happened till after we had been in Sydney for a week. One day, in the men’s dinner hour, Charley sticks his head into my cabin. I was stretched out on my back on the settee, smoking in peace.
“I don’t know what could have been wrong with her health. She had a beautiful complexion and a ton of fair hair. She didn’t care at all about wind, rain, spray, sun, rough seas, or anything. She was a blue-eyed, cheerful girl of the very best kind, but the way she teased my big brother used to scare me. I always thought it would end in a huge argument. However, nothing significant happened until after we had been in Sydney for a week. One day, during the men’s dinner hour, Charley sticks his head into my cabin. I was lying on my back on the couch, smoking in peace.
“‘Come ashore with me, Ned,’ he says, in his curt way.
“‘Come ashore with me, Ned,’ he says in his blunt manner.
“I jumped up, of course, and away after him down the gangway and up George Street. He strode along like a giant, and I at his elbow, panting. It was confoundedly hot. ‘Where on earth are you rushing me to, Charley?’ I made bold to ask.
“I jumped up, of course, and ran after him down the gangway and up George Street. He walked ahead like a giant, and I was right beside him, out of breath. It was incredibly hot. ‘Where on earth are you rushing me to, Charley?’ I dared to ask.
“‘Here,’ he says.
"‘Here,’ he says."
“‘Here’ was a jeweller’s shop. I couldn’t imagine what he could want there. It seemed a sort of mad freak. He thrusts under my nose three rings, which looked very tiny on his big, brown palm, growling out—
“‘Here’ was a jeweler’s shop. I couldn’t understand what he could want there. It seemed like a crazy thing to do. He shoved three rings under my nose, which looked really small on his large, brown palm, grumbling out—
“‘For Maggie! Which?’
“‘For Maggie! Which one?’”
“I got a kind of scare at this. I couldn’t make a sound, but I pointed at the one that sparkled white and blue. He put it in his waistcoat pocket, paid for it with a lot of sovereigns, and bolted out. When we got on board I was quite out of breath. ‘Shake hands, old chap,’ I gasped out. He gave me a thump on the back. ‘Give what orders you like to the boatswain when the hands turn-to,’ says he; ‘I am off duty this afternoon.’
“I got a bit of a scare from this. I couldn’t make a sound, but I pointed at the one that sparkled white and blue. He put it in his waistcoat pocket, paid for it with a bunch of sovereigns, and rushed out. When we got on board, I was completely out of breath. ‘Shake hands, buddy,’ I gasped. He gave me a pat on the back. ‘Give whatever orders you want to the boatswain when the crew comes on deck,’ he said; ‘I’m off duty this afternoon.’”
“Then he vanished from the deck for a while, but presently he came out of the cabin with Maggie, and these two went over the gangway publicly, before all hands, going for a walk together on that awful, blazing hot day, with clouds of dust flying about. They came back after a few hours looking very staid, but didn’t seem to have the slightest idea where they had been. Anyway, that’s the answer they both made to Mrs. Colchester’s question at tea-time.
“Then he disappeared from the deck for a bit, but soon he came out of the cabin with Maggie, and the two of them walked across the gangway in front of everyone, going for a walk together on that terrible, scorching hot day, with dust flying everywhere. They returned a few hours later looking quite serious, but they didn’t seem to have a clue about where they had been. Anyway, that’s the response they both gave to Mrs. Colchester’s question at tea time.”
“And didn’t she turn on Charley, with her voice like an old night cabman’s! ‘Rubbish. Don’t know where you’ve been! Stuff and nonsense. You’ve walked the girl off her legs. Don’t do it again.’
“And didn’t she snap at Charley, with her voice like an old taxi driver’s! ‘That’s nonsense. No idea where you’ve been! Nonsense and rubbish. You’ve worn the girl out. Don’t let it happen again.’”
“It’s surprising how meek Charley could be with that old woman. Only on one occasion he whispered to me, ‘I’m jolly glad she isn’t Maggie’s aunt, except by marriage. That’s no sort of relationship.’ But I think he let Maggie have too much of her own way. She was hopping all over that ship in her yachting skirt and a red tam o’ shanter like a bright bird on a dead black tree. The old salts used to grin to themselves when they saw her coming along, and offered to teach her knots or splices. I believe she liked the men, for Charley’s sake, I suppose.
“It’s surprising how mild-mannered Charley could be around that old woman. Only once, he whispered to me, ‘I’m really glad she isn’t Maggie’s aunt, except by marriage. That’s not a real relationship.’ But I think he let Maggie have too much freedom. She was bouncing all over that ship in her yachting skirt and a red tam o’ shanter, looking like a bright bird on a dead black tree. The old sailors used to grin to themselves when they saw her coming and offered to teach her knots or splices. I think she liked the men, probably for Charley’s sake.”
“As you may imagine, the fiendish propensities of that cursed ship were never spoken of on board. Not in the cabin, at any rate. Only once on the homeward passage Charley said, incautiously, something about bringing all her crew home this time. Captain Colchester began to look uncomfortable at once, and that silly, hard-bitten old woman flew out at Charley as though he had said something indecent. I was quite confounded myself; as to Maggie, she sat completely mystified, opening her blue eyes very wide. Of course, before she was a day older she wormed it all out of me. She was a very difficult person to lie to.
“As you can imagine, the dark tendencies of that cursed ship were never mentioned on board. Not in the cabin, at least. Only once on the way home, Charley carelessly said something about bringing all her crew back this time. Captain Colchester immediately looked uncomfortable, and that hardened old woman snapped at Charley as if he had said something inappropriate. I was completely taken aback myself; as for Maggie, she sat there utterly confused, her blue eyes wide open. Of course, before the day was over, she managed to get the whole story out of me. She was someone it was really hard to lie to.”
“‘How awful,’ she said, quite solemn. ‘So many poor fellows. I am glad the voyage is nearly over. I won’t have a moment’s peace about Charley now.’
“‘How terrible,’ she said, very seriously. ‘So many unfortunate guys. I’m relieved the trip is almost done. I won’t have a moment’s peace about Charley now.’”
“I assured her Charley was all right. It took more than that ship knew to get over a seaman like Charley. And she agreed with me.
“I assured her Charley was fine. It took more than that ship knew to take down a sailor like Charley. And she agreed with me."
“Next day we got the tug off Dungeness; and when the tow-rope was fast Charley rubbed his hands and said to me in an undertone—
“Next day we got the tug off Dungeness; and when the tow-rope was secure Charley rubbed his hands and said to me in a low voice—
“‘We’ve baffled her, Ned.’
“‘We’ve confused her, Ned.’”
“‘Looks like it,’ I said, with a grin at him. It was beautiful weather, and the sea as smooth as a millpond. We went up the river without a shadow of trouble except once, when off Hole Haven, the brute took a sudden sheer and nearly had a barge anchored just clear of the fairway. But I was aft, looking after the steering, and she did not catch me napping that time. Charley came up on the poop, looking very concerned. ‘Close shave,’ says he.
“‘Looks like it,’ I said, grinning at him. The weather was beautiful, and the sea was as smooth as glass. We navigated up the river without any issues, except once, when near Hole Haven, the boat suddenly veered and nearly hit a barge that was anchored just off the fairway. But I was at the back, focused on steering, so I wasn't caught off guard that time. Charley came up on the deck, looking really worried. ‘Close call,’ he said.
“‘Never mind, Charley,’ I answered, cheerily. ‘You’ve tamed her.’
“‘No worries, Charley,’ I replied cheerfully. ‘You’ve got her under control.’”
“We were to tow right up to the dock. The river pilot boarded us below Gravesend, and the first words I heard him say were: ‘You may just as well take your port anchor inboard at once, Mr. Mate.’
“We were supposed to tow straight to the dock. The river pilot came on board just below Gravesend, and the first thing I heard him say was: ‘You might as well bring your port anchor inboard right now, Mr. Mate.’”
“This had been done when I went forward. I saw Maggie on the forecastle head enjoying the bustle and I begged her to go aft, but she took no notice of me, of course. Then Charley, who was very busy with the head gear, caught sight of her and shouted in his biggest voice: ‘Get off the forecastle head, Maggie. You’re in the way here.’ For all answer she made a funny face at him, and I saw poor Charley turn away, hiding a smile. She was flushed with the excitement of getting home again, and her blue eyes seemed to snap electric sparks as she looked at the river. A collier brig had gone round just ahead of us, and our tug had to stop her engines in a hurry to avoid running into her.
"This happened while I was moving forward. I saw Maggie on the bow enjoying the activity, and I asked her to come to the back, but she completely ignored me, of course. Then Charley, who was busy with the gear, spotted her and shouted in his loudest voice, 'Get off the bow, Maggie. You're in the way here.' In response, she made a funny face at him, and I noticed poor Charley turn away, trying to hide a smile. She was glowing with the excitement of coming home, and her blue eyes seemed to spark with energy as she looked at the river. A coal ship had just passed ahead of us, and our tug had to quickly shut off its engines to avoid crashing into it."
“In a moment, as is usually the case, all the shipping in the reach seemed to get into a hopeless tangle. A schooner and a ketch got up a small collision all to themselves right in the middle of the river. It was exciting to watch, and, meantime, our tug remained stopped. Any other ship than that brute could have been coaxed to keep straight for a couple of minutes—but not she! Her head fell off at once, and she began to drift down, taking her tug along with her. I noticed a cluster of coasters at anchor within a quarter of a mile of us, and I thought I had better speak to the pilot. ‘If you let her get amongst that lot,’ I said, quietly, ‘she will grind some of them to bits before we get her out again.’
"In a moment, as usually happens, all the ships in the area seemed to get into a hopeless mess. A schooner and a ketch had a small collision right in the middle of the river. It was exciting to watch, and meanwhile, our tug just sat there. Any other ship besides that one could have been nudged to go straight for a couple of minutes—but not her! She immediately veered off course and started drifting down, taking her tug along with her. I noticed a group of smaller vessels anchored about a quarter of a mile away, so I thought I should let the pilot know. ‘If you let her get in among them,’ I said calmly, ‘she’ll smash some of them to pieces before we can get her out again.’"
“‘Don’t I know her!’ cries he, stamping his foot in a perfect fury. And he out with his whistle to make that bothered tug get the ship’s head up again as quick as possible. He blew like mad, waving his arm to port, and presently we could see that the tug’s engines had been set going ahead. Her paddles churned the water, but it was as if she had been trying to tow a rock—she couldn’t get an inch out of that ship. Again the pilot blew his whistle, and waved his arm to port. We could see the tug’s paddles turning faster and faster away, broad on our bow.
“‘I know her!’ he shouts, stomping his foot in a complete rage. He pulls out his whistle to make that annoying tug turn the ship’s head around as quickly as possible. He blew like crazy, waving his arm to the left, and soon we could see that the tug's engines had started moving forward. Her paddles churned the water, but it was like she was trying to tow a rock—she couldn’t budge that ship an inch. Once more, the pilot blew his whistle and waved his arm to the left. We could see the tug’s paddles spinning faster and faster away, broad in front of us.
“For a moment tug and ship hung motionless in a crowd of moving shipping, and then the terrific strain that evil, stony-hearted brute would always put on everything, tore the towing-chock clean out. The tow-rope surged over, snapping the iron stanchions of the head-rail one after another as if they had been sticks of sealing-wax. It was only then I noticed that in order to have a better view over our heads, Maggie had stepped upon the port anchor as it lay flat on the forecastle deck.
“For a moment, the tug and ship were frozen in a sea of moving vessels, and then the incredible pressure that that cruel, cold-hearted brute always applied to everything ripped the towing-chock right out. The tow-rope whipped over, breaking the iron supports of the head-rail one after another as if they were just sticks of sealing wax. It was only then that I noticed Maggie had stepped onto the port anchor, which was lying flat on the forecastle deck, to get a better view over our heads.”
“It had been lowered properly into its hardwood beds, but there had been no time to take a turn with it. Anyway, it was quite secure as it was, for going into dock; but I could see directly that the tow-rope would sweep under the fluke in another second. My heart flew up right into my throat, but not before I had time to yell out: ‘Jump clear of that anchor!’
“It had been secured properly into its hardwood beds, but there hadn't been time to adjust it. Still, it was safe enough as it was for coming into dock, but I could see right away that the tow-rope was about to get caught under the fluke in a second. My heart raced into my throat, but not before I had the chance to shout: ‘Jump clear of that anchor!’”
“But I hadn’t time to shriek out her name. I don’t suppose she heard me at all. The first touch of the hawser against the fluke threw her down; she was up on her feet again quick as lightning, but she was up on the wrong side. I heard a horrid, scraping sound, and then that anchor, tipping over, rose up like something alive; its great, rough iron arm caught Maggie round the waist, seemed to clasp her close with a dreadful hug, and flung itself with her over and down in a terrific clang of iron, followed by heavy ringing blows that shook the ship from stem to stern—because the ring stopper held!”
"But I didn't have time to shout her name. I doubt she heard me at all. The first touch of the hawser against the fluke knocked her down; she sprang back up as fast as lightning, but she was on the wrong side. I heard a horrible, scraping sound, and then that anchor, tipping over, rose up like something alive; its large, rough iron arm wrapped around Maggie's waist, seemed to hold her tightly in a terrifying embrace, and then it swung her over and down in a deafening clang of iron, followed by heavy ringing blows that shook the ship from bow to stern—because the ring stopper held!"
“How horrible!” I exclaimed.
"That's awful!" I exclaimed.
“I used to dream for years afterwards of anchors catching hold of girls,” said the man in tweeds, a little wildly. He shuddered. “With a most pitiful howl Charley was over after her almost on the instant. But, Lord! he didn’t see as much as a gleam of her red tam o’ shanter in the water. Nothing! nothing whatever! In a moment there were half-a-dozen boats around us, and he got pulled into one. I, with the boatswain and the carpenter, let go the other anchor in a hurry and brought the ship up somehow. The pilot had gone silly. He walked up and down the forecastle head wringing his hands and muttering to himself: ‘Killing women, now! Killing women, now!’ Not another word could you get out of him.
“I used to dream for years afterward about anchors grabbing hold of girls,” said the man in tweeds, a bit wildly. He shuddered. “With a terrible cry, Charley was after her almost immediately. But, man! he didn’t see even a glimpse of her red tam o’ shanter in the water. Nothing! absolutely nothing! In a moment, there were half a dozen boats around us, and he got pulled into one. I, along with the boatswain and the carpenter, let go of the other anchor quickly and managed to bring the ship up somehow. The pilot had lost his mind. He walked back and forth on the forecastle head, wringing his hands and mumbling to himself: ‘Killing women, now! Killing women, now!’ You couldn’t get another word out of him.”
“Dusk fell, then a night black as pitch; and peering upon the river I heard a low, mournful hail, ‘Ship, ahoy!’ Two Gravesend watermen came alongside. They had a lantern in their wherry, and looked up the ship’s side, holding on to the ladder without a word. I saw in the patch of light a lot of loose, fair hair down there.”
“Dusk settled in, followed by a pitch-black night; as I looked over the river, I heard a quiet, sorrowful call, ‘Ship, ahoy!’ Two watermen from Gravesend pulled up alongside. They had a lantern in their boat and silently gazed up at the ship’s side, clinging to the ladder. In the small patch of light, I noticed a tangle of loose, fair hair down there.”
He shuddered again.
He shivered again.
“After the tide turned poor Maggie’s body had floated clear of one of them big mooring buoys,” he explained. “I crept aft, feeling half-dead, and managed to send a rocket up—to let the other searchers know, on the river. And then I slunk away forward like a cur, and spent the night sitting on the heel of the bowsprit so as to be as far as possible out of Charley’s way.”
“After the tide changed, poor Maggie’s body had floated away from one of those big mooring buoys,” he explained. “I crept back, feeling half-dead, and managed to send up a flare—to let the other searchers know, on the river. Then I slipped away to the front like a coward, and spent the night sitting on the edge of the bowsprit to be as far as possible from Charley.”
“Poor fellow!” I murmured.
"Poor guy!" I murmured.
“Yes. Poor fellow,” he repeated, musingly. “That brute wouldn’t let him—not even him—cheat her of her prey. But he made her fast in dock next morning. He did. We hadn’t exchanged a word—not a single look for that matter. I didn’t want to look at him. When the last rope was fast he put his hands to his head and stood gazing down at his feet as if trying to remember something. The men waited on the main deck for the words that end the voyage. Perhaps that is what he was trying to remember. I spoke for him. ‘That’ll do, men.’
“Yes. Poor guy,” he said thoughtfully. “That jerk wouldn’t let him—not even him—rob her of her catch. But he secured her at the dock the next morning. He did. We hadn’t said a word—not even exchanged a glance, for that matter. I didn’t want to look at him. When the last rope was secured, he put his hands on his head and stood staring at his feet like he was trying to remember something. The guys waited on the main deck for the words that signal the end of the journey. Maybe that’s what he was trying to remember. I spoke up for him. ‘That’ll do, men.’”
“I never saw a crew leave a ship so quietly. They sneaked over the rail one after another, taking care not to bang their sea chests too heavily. They looked our way, but not one had the stomach to come up and offer to shake hands with the mate as is usual.
“I never saw a crew leave a ship so quietly. They slipped over the rail one by one, being careful not to slam their sea chests too hard. They glanced our way, but not one had the guts to step up and offer to shake hands with the mate like they usually do.
“I followed him all over the empty ship to and fro, here and there, with no living soul about but the two of us, because the old ship-keeper had locked himself up in the galley—both doors. Suddenly poor Charley mutters, in a crazy voice: ‘I’m done here,’ and strides down the gangway with me at his heels, up the dock, out at the gate, on towards Tower Hill. He used to take rooms with a decent old landlady in America Square, to be near his work.
“I followed him all over the empty ship, back and forth, here and there, with no one else around but the two of us, because the old shipkeeper had locked himself in the galley—both doors. Suddenly, poor Charley mutters in a shaky voice, ‘I’m done here,’ and marches down the gangway with me right behind him, up the dock, out at the gate, and towards Tower Hill. He used to rent a room from a nice old landlady in America Square to be close to his job.”
“All at once he stops short, turns round, and comes back straight at me. ‘Ned,’ says he, I am going home.’ I had the good luck to sight a four-wheeler and got him in just in time. His legs were beginning to give way. In our hall he fell down on a chair, and I’ll never forget father’s and mother’s amazed, perfectly still faces as they stood over him. They couldn’t understand what had happened to him till I blubbered out, ‘Maggie got drowned, yesterday, in the river.’
“All of a sudden, he stops, turns around, and comes back straight at me. ‘Ned,’ he says, ‘I’m going home.’ I was lucky enough to spot a taxi and got him in just in time. His legs were starting to buckle. In our hallway, he collapsed onto a chair, and I’ll never forget the shocked, completely still expressions on my dad's and mom's faces as they stood over him. They couldn’t figure out what had happened to him until I blurted out, ‘Maggie drowned yesterday in the river.’”
“Mother let out a little cry. Father looks from him to me, and from me to him, as if comparing our faces—for, upon my soul, Charley did not resemble himself at all. Nobody moved; and the poor fellow raises his big brown hands slowly to his throat, and with one single tug rips everything open—collar, shirt, waistcoat—a perfect wreck and ruin of a man. Father and I got him upstairs somehow, and mother pretty nearly killed herself nursing him through a brain fever.”
“Mom let out a small gasp. Dad glanced between him and me, and then back at him, as if he was comparing our faces—because, honestly, Charley looked totally different. No one moved; and the poor guy slowly raised his big brown hands to his throat and with one swift pull ripped everything open—collar, shirt, waistcoat—a complete wreck of a man. Dad and I somehow got him upstairs, and Mom nearly exhausted herself taking care of him through a brain fever.”
The man in tweeds nodded at me significantly.
The man in a tweed jacket nodded at me meaningfully.
“Ah! there was nothing that could be done with that brute. She had a devil in her.”
“Ah! there was nothing that could be done with that beast. She had a demon in her.”
“Where’s your brother?” I asked, expecting to hear he was dead. But he was commanding a smart steamer on the China coast, and never came home now.
“Where’s your brother?” I asked, expecting to hear he was dead. But he was commanding a sleek steamer on the China coast and never came home now.
Jermyn fetched a heavy sigh, and the handkerchief being now sufficiently dry, put it up tenderly to his red and lamentable nose.
Jermyn let out a heavy sigh, and with the handkerchief now dry enough, gently held it to his red and miserable nose.
“She was a ravening beast,” the man in tweeds started again. “Old Colchester put his foot down and resigned. And would you believe it? Apse & Sons wrote to ask whether he wouldn’t reconsider his decision! Anything to save the good name of the Apse Family.’ Old Colchester went to the office then and said that he would take charge again but only to sail her out into the North Sea and scuttle her there. He was nearly off his chump. He used to be darkish iron-grey, but his hair went snow-white in a fortnight. And Mr. Lucian Apse (they had known each other as young men) pretended not to notice it. Eh? Here’s infatuation if you like! Here’s pride for you!
“She was a wild beast,” the man in tweeds began again. “Old Colchester stood his ground and resigned. And can you believe it? Apse & Sons wrote to ask if he would reconsider his decision! Anything to protect the good name of the Apse Family.’ Old Colchester then went to the office and said that he would take charge again, but only to sail her out into the North Sea and sink her there. He was nearly losing it. He used to have dark iron-grey hair, but it turned snow-white in just two weeks. And Mr. Lucian Apse (they had known each other since they were young men) pretended not to notice. Huh? Here’s what you call infatuation! Here’s pride for you!
“They jumped at the first man they could get to take her, for fear of the scandal of the Apse Family not being able to find a skipper. He was a festive soul, I believe, but he stuck to her grim and hard. Wilmot was his second mate. A harum-scarum fellow, and pretending to a great scorn for all the girls. The fact is he was really timid. But let only one of them do as much as lift her little finger in encouragement, and there was nothing that could hold the beggar. As apprentice, once, he deserted abroad after a petticoat, and would have gone to the dogs then, if his skipper hadn’t taken the trouble to find him and lug him by the ears out of some house of perdition or other.
“They jumped at the first guy they could find to take her, fearing the scandal of the Apse Family not being able to find a captain. He was a fun-loving guy, I think, but he was tough and serious about her. Wilmot was his second mate. A reckless guy, acting like he looked down on all the girls. The truth is, he was actually pretty shy. But if just one of them so much as lifted her little finger to encourage him, he would be all over the place. As an apprentice, he once ran off abroad after a girl and would have gone completely off the rails if his captain hadn’t bothered to find him and drag him out of some hole or another.
“It was said that one of the firm had been heard once to express a hope that this brute of a ship would get lost soon. I can hardly credit the tale, unless it might have been Mr. Alfred Apse, whom the family didn’t think much of. They had him in the office, but he was considered a bad egg altogether, always flying off to race meetings and coming home drunk. You would have thought that a ship so full of deadly tricks would run herself ashore some day out of sheer cussedness. But not she! She was going to last for ever. She had a nose to keep off the bottom.”
“It was rumored that someone at the firm once expressed a hope that this awful ship would get lost soon. I can hardly believe that story, unless it was Mr. Alfred Apse, who the family didn’t think much of. They had him in the office, but he was considered a bad seed, always darting off to horse races and coming home drunk. You’d think a ship packed with deadly tricks would end up running aground someday just out of pure stubbornness. But not her! She was built to last forever. She had a way of staying off the bottom.”
Jermyn made a grunt of approval.
Jermyn let out a grunt of approval.
“A ship after a pilot’s own heart, eh?” jeered the man in tweeds. “Well, Wilmot managed it. He was the man for it, but even he, perhaps, couldn’t have done the trick without the green-eyed governess, or nurse, or whatever she was to the children of Mr. and Mrs. Pamphilius.
“A ship after a pilot’s own heart, right?” mocked the man in tweeds. “Well, Wilmot pulled it off. He was the right guy for it, but even he probably couldn’t have done it without the green-eyed governess, or nurse, or whatever she was to Mr. and Mrs. Pamphilius's kids.
“Those people were passengers in her from Port Adelaide to the Cape. Well, the ship went out and anchored outside for the day. The skipper—hospitable soul—had a lot of guests from town to a farewell lunch—as usual with him. It was five in the evening before the last shore boat left the side, and the weather looked ugly and dark in the gulf. There was no reason for him to get under way. However, as he had told everybody he was going that day, he imagined it was proper to do so anyhow. But as he had no mind after all these festivities to tackle the straits in the dark, with a scant wind, he gave orders to keep the ship under lower topsails and foresail as close as she would lie, dodging along the land till the morning. Then he sought his virtuous couch. The mate was on deck, having his face washed very clean with hard rain squalls. Wilmot relieved him at midnight.
“Those people were passengers with her from Port Adelaide to the Cape. Well, the ship went out and anchored just off the coast for the day. The captain—such a warm-hearted guy—hosted a farewell lunch for a lot of town guests—as he usually did. It was five in the evening by the time the last small boat got away from the side, and the weather looked rough and dark in the gulf. There was no real reason for him to set sail. However, since he had told everyone he was leaving that day, he thought it would be proper to go anyway. But since he wasn't keen on navigating the straits in the dark after all the festivities, with only a light wind, he ordered the ship to stay under lower topsails and foresail, skirting along the coast until morning. Then he headed off to his well-deserved rest. The mate was on deck, having his face thoroughly washed by the heavy rain squalls. Wilmot took over from him at midnight.”
“The Apse Family had, as you observed, a house on her poop . . .”
“The Apse Family had, as you noticed, a house on her back . . .”
“A big, ugly white thing, sticking up,” Jermyn murmured, sadly, at the fire.
“A big, ugly white thing, sticking up,” Jermyn murmured, sadly, at the fire.
“That’s it: a companion for the cabin stairs and a sort of chart-room combined. The rain drove in gusts on the sleepy Wilmot. The ship was then surging slowly to the southward, close hauled, with the coast within three miles or so to windward. There was nothing to look out for in that part of the gulf, and Wilmot went round to dodge the squalls under the lee of that chart-room, whose door on that side was open. The night was black, like a barrel of coal-tar. And then he heard a woman’s voice whispering to him.
"That's it: a space for the cabin stairs and a kind of combined chart room. The rain was hitting hard on the sleepy Wilmot. The ship was slowly heading south, close-hauled, with the coast about three miles to windward. There wasn't much to keep an eye out for in that part of the gulf, so Wilmot moved around to avoid the squalls under the shelter of that chart room, whose door was open on that side. The night was pitch black, like a barrel of coal tar. And then he heard a woman's voice whispering to him."
“That confounded green-eyed girl of the Pamphilius people had put the kids to bed a long time ago, of course, but it seems couldn’t get to sleep herself. She heard eight bells struck, and the chief mate come below to turn in. She waited a bit, then got into her dressing-gown and stole across the empty saloon and up the stairs into the chart-room. She sat down on the settee near the open door to cool herself, I daresay.
“That annoying green-eyed girl from the Pamphilius people had put the kids to bed a long time ago, but it seems she couldn’t fall asleep herself. She heard the clock strike eight bells, and the chief mate came down to turn in. She waited for a bit, then put on her dressing gown and quietly walked across the empty salon and up the stairs into the chart room. She sat down on the couch near the open door to cool off, I suppose.”
“I suppose when she whispered to Wilmot it was as if somebody had struck a match in the fellow’s brain. I don’t know how it was they had got so very thick. I fancy he had met her ashore a few times before. I couldn’t make it out, because, when telling the story, Wilmot would break off to swear something awful at every second word. We had met on the quay in Sydney, and he had an apron of sacking up to his chin, a big whip in his hand. A wagon-driver. Glad to do anything not to starve. That’s what he had come down to.
“I think when she whispered to Wilmot, it was like someone had lit a spark in his brain. I have no idea how they got so close. I guess he had seen her a few times before on land. I couldn't figure it out because, when he told the story, Wilmot kept interrupting himself to swear like crazy at every other word. We met at the dock in Sydney, and he was wearing a sack apron up to his chin, holding a big whip. Just a wagon driver. Happy to do anything to avoid starving. That’s where he ended up.”
“However, there he was, with his head inside the door, on the girl’s shoulder as likely as not—officer of the watch! The helmsman, on giving his evidence afterwards, said that he shouted several times that the binnacle lamp had gone out. It didn’t matter to him, because his orders were to ‘sail her close.’ ‘I thought it funny,’ he said, ‘that the ship should keep on falling off in squalls, but I luffed her up every time as close as I was able. It was so dark I couldn’t see my hand before my face, and the rain came in bucketfuls on my head.’
“However, there he was, with his head inside the door, probably on the girl’s shoulder—watch officer! The helmsman, when he gave his statement later, said that he shouted several times that the binnacle lamp had gone out. It didn’t matter to him, because his orders were to ‘sail her close.’ ‘I found it strange,’ he said, ‘that the ship kept drifting in the squalls, but I turned her into the wind as best as I could. It was so dark I couldn’t see my hand in front of my face, and the rain was pouring down on me.’”
“The truth was that at every squall the wind hauled aft a little, till gradually the ship came to be heading straight for the coast, without a single soul in her being aware of it. Wilmot himself confessed that he had not been near the standard compass for an hour. He might well have confessed! The first thing he knew was the man on the look-out shouting blue murder forward there.
“The truth was that with every gust, the wind shifted a bit to the rear, until gradually the ship ended up heading straight for the coast, with no one on board realizing it. Wilmot himself admitted that he hadn't checked the compass in over an hour. He could definitely admit that! The first thing he knew was the lookout shouting loudly up ahead.”
“He tore his neck free, he says, and yelled back at him: ‘What do you say?’
“He pulled his neck away, he says, and shouted back at him: ‘What did you say?’”
“‘I think I hear breakers ahead, sir,’ howled the man, and came rushing aft with the rest of the watch, in the ‘awfullest blinding deluge that ever fell from the sky,’ Wilmot says. For a second or so he was so scared and bewildered that he could not remember on which side of the gulf the ship was. He wasn’t a good officer, but he was a seaman all the same. He pulled himself together in a second, and the right orders sprang to his lips without thinking. They were to hard up with the helm and shiver the main and mizzen-topsails.
“‘I think I hear waves crashing ahead, sir,’ shouted the man, rushing aft with the rest of the crew, in the ‘most blinding downpour that ever fell from the sky,’ according to Wilmot. For a moment, he was so frightened and confused that he couldn't remember which side of the gulf the ship was on. He wasn’t a great officer, but he was still a sailor. He got himself together quickly, and the right commands came to him without thinking. They were to steer hard to leeward and reduce the main and mizzen-topsails.”
“It seems that the sails actually fluttered. He couldn’t see them, but he heard them rattling and banging above his head. ‘No use! She was too slow in going off,’ he went on, his dirty face twitching, and the damn’d carter’s whip shaking in his hand. ‘She seemed to stick fast.’ And then the flutter of the canvas above his head ceased. At this critical moment the wind hauled aft again with a gust, filling the sails and sending the ship with a great way upon the rocks on her lee bow. She had overreached herself in her last little game. Her time had come—the hour, the man, the black night, the treacherous gust of wind—the right woman to put an end to her. The brute deserved nothing better. Strange are the instruments of Providence. There’s a sort of poetical justice—”
“It seemed like the sails were actually fluttering. He couldn’t see them, but he heard them rattling and banging above his head. ‘No use! She was too slow to take off,’ he continued, his dirty face twitching, and the damn carter’s whip shaking in his hand. ‘She seemed to be stuck.’ Then the fluttering of the canvas above him stopped. At that critical moment, the wind picked up again with a gust, filling the sails and propelling the ship hard against the rocks on her lee bow. She had pushed her luck in her last little game. Her time had come—the hour, the man, the dark night, the treacherous gust of wind—the right woman to put an end to her. The brute deserved nothing less. How strange are the instruments of Providence. There’s a kind of poetic justice—”
The man in tweeds looked hard at me.
The guy in tweeds stared at me intently.
“The first ledge she went over stripped the false keel off her. Rip! The skipper, rushing out of his berth, found a crazy woman, in a red flannel dressing-gown, flying round and round the cuddy, screeching like a cockatoo.
“The first ledge she went over knocked the false keel off her. Rip! The skipper, rushing out of his cabin, found a frantic woman in a red flannel robe running around the cabin, screaming like a cockatoo.
“The next bump knocked her clean under the cabin table. It also started the stern-post and carried away the rudder, and then that brute ran up a shelving, rocky shore, tearing her bottom out, till she stopped short, and the foremast dropped over the bows like a gangway.”
“The next bump tossed her right under the cabin table. It also damaged the stern-post and broke the rudder, and then that beast ran up a sloping, rocky shore, ripping out her bottom, until she came to a sudden stop, and the foremast collapsed over the bows like a gangway.”
“Anybody lost?” I asked.
“Is anyone lost?” I asked.
“No one, unless that fellow, Wilmot,” answered the gentleman, unknown to Miss Blank, looking round for his cap. “And his case was worse than drowning for a man. Everybody got ashore all right. Gale didn’t come on till next day, dead from the West, and broke up that brute in a surprisingly short time. It was as though she had been rotten at heart.” . . . He changed his tone, “Rain left off? I must get my bike and rush home to dinner. I live in Herne Bay—came out for a spin this morning.”
“No one, except that guy, Wilmot,” the gentleman replied, who Miss Blank didn’t know, as he looked around for his cap. “And his situation was worse than drowning for a man. Everyone else made it to shore fine. The gale didn’t show up until the next day, coming hard from the west, and it took that beast down in no time. It was like she was already falling apart inside.” . . . He shifted his tone, “Has the rain stopped? I need to grab my bike and hurry home for dinner. I live in Herne Bay—just came out for a ride this morning.”
He nodded at me in a friendly way, and went out with a swagger.
He gave me a friendly nod and walked out confidently.
“Do you know who he is, Jermyn?” I asked.
“Do you know who he is, Jermyn?” I asked.
The North Sea pilot shook his head, dismally. “Fancy losing a ship in that silly fashion! Oh, dear! oh dear!” he groaned in lugubrious tones, spreading his damp handkerchief again like a curtain before the glowing grate.
The North Sea pilot shook his head, sadly. “Can you believe we lost a ship in such a ridiculous way! Oh, no! oh no!” he groaned in a mournful voice, spreading his damp handkerchief again like a curtain in front of the glowing fireplace.
On going out I exchanged a glance and a smile (strictly proper) with the respectable Miss Blank, barmaid of the Three Crows.
On my way out, I shared a glance and a smile (completely appropriate) with the respectable Miss Blank, the barmaid at the Three Crows.
AN ANARCHIST
A DESPERATE TALE
That year I spent the best two months of the dry season on one of the estates—in fact, on the principal cattle estate—of a famous meat-extract manufacturing company.
That year, I spent the best two months of the dry season on one of the estates—in fact, the main cattle estate—of a well-known meat-extract manufacturing company.
B.O.S. Bos. You have seen the three magic letters on the advertisement pages of magazines and newspapers, in the windows of provision merchants, and on calendars for next year you receive by post in the month of November. They scatter pamphlets also, written in a sickly enthusiastic style and in several languages, giving statistics of slaughter and bloodshed enough to make a Turk turn faint. The “art” illustrating that “literature” represents in vivid and shining colours a large and enraged black bull stamping upon a yellow snake writhing in emerald-green grass, with a cobalt-blue sky for a background. It is atrocious and it is an allegory. The snake symbolizes disease, weakness—perhaps mere hunger, which last is the chronic disease of the majority of mankind. Of course everybody knows the B. O. S. Ltd., with its unrivalled products: Vinobos, Jellybos, and the latest unequalled perfection, Tribos, whose nourishment is offered to you not only highly concentrated, but already half digested. Such apparently is the love that Limited Company bears to its fellowmen—even as the love of the father and mother penguin for their hungry fledglings.
B.O.S. Bos. You’ve probably seen the three magic letters in magazine and newspaper ads, in the windows of grocery stores, and on the calendars you get in the mail every November. They also distribute pamphlets written in an overly enthusiastic style in multiple languages, featuring enough statistics about slaughter and violence to make anyone feel queasy. The "art" that accompanies that "literature" shows, in bright and striking colors, a large, angry black bull stomping on a yellow snake writhing in emerald-green grass, with a cobalt-blue sky in the background. It’s awful, and it’s an allegory. The snake represents disease, weakness—maybe even just hunger, which is a chronic issue for most people. Of course, everyone knows B.O.S. Ltd. and its unmatched products: Vinobos, Jellybos, and the latest marvel, Tribos, whose nourishment is not only highly concentrated but also already partially digested. Such is the affection that this Limited Company has for its fellow humans—similar to the care of penguin parents for their hungry chicks.
Of course the capital of a country must be productively employed. I have nothing to say against the company. But being myself animated by feelings of affection towards my fellow-men, I am saddened by the modern system of advertising. Whatever evidence it offers of enterprise, ingenuity, impudence, and resource in certain individuals, it proves to my mind the wide prevalence of that form of mental degradation which is called gullibility.
Of course, the capital of a country should be used productively. I have nothing against the company. However, as someone who cares about my fellow humans, I feel disheartened by the modern advertising system. While it showcases the enterprise, creativity, boldness, and resourcefulness of some individuals, it also highlights the widespread issue of gullibility.
In various parts of the civilized and uncivilized world I have had to swallow B. O. S. with more or less benefit to myself, though without great pleasure. Prepared with hot water and abundantly peppered to bring out the taste, this extract is not really unpalatable. But I have never swallowed its advertisements. Perhaps they have not gone far enough. As far as I can remember they make no promise of everlasting youth to the users of B. O. S., nor yet have they claimed the power of raising the dead for their estimable products. Why this austere reserve, I wonder? But I don’t think they would have had me even on these terms. Whatever form of mental degradation I may (being but human) be suffering from, it is not the popular form. I am not gullible.
In different parts of both the civilized and uncivilized world, I've had to take B. O. S. with varying degrees of benefit to myself, although not much enjoyment. When prepared with hot water and plenty of pepper to enhance the taste, this extract isn’t really that bad. But I've never bought into its advertisements. Maybe they don't go far enough. As far as I can remember, they don't promise eternal youth to B. O. S. users, nor do they claim to have the power to raise the dead with their highly regarded products. I wonder why this strict approach? But I doubt they would have convinced me even with those offerings. Whatever kind of mental decline I might be experiencing (being human and all), it's not the typical kind. I'm not easily fooled.
I have been at some pains to bring out distinctly this statement about myself in view of the story which follows. I have checked the facts as far as possible. I have turned up the files of French newspapers, and I have also talked with the officer who commands the military guard on the Ile Royale, when in the course of my travels I reached Cayenne. I believe the story to be in the main true. It is the sort of story that no man, I think, would ever invent about himself, for it is neither grandiose nor flattering, nor yet funny enough to gratify a perverted vanity.
I've worked hard to make this statement about myself clear, considering the story that follows. I've verified the facts as much as possible. I dug through French newspapers and spoke with the officer in charge of the military guard on Ile Royale when I traveled to Cayenne. I believe the story is mostly true. It's the kind of story that no one would make up about themselves because it's neither impressive nor flattering, nor is it amusing enough to satisfy a twisted sense of vanity.
It concerns the engineer of the steam-launch belonging to the Maranon cattle estate of the B. O. S. Co., Ltd. This estate is also an island—an island as big as a small province, lying in the estuary of a great South American river. It is wild and not beautiful, but the grass growing on its low plains seems to possess exceptionally nourishing and flavouring qualities. It resounds with the lowing of innumerable herds—a deep and distressing sound under the open sky, rising like a monstrous protest of prisoners condemned to death. On the mainland, across twenty miles of discoloured muddy water, there stands a city whose name, let us say, is Horta.
It’s about the engineer of the steam launch owned by the Maranon cattle estate of the B. O. S. Co., Ltd. This estate is also an island—an island as large as a small province, located in the mouth of a major South American river. It's wild and not particularly beautiful, but the grass on its flatlands seems to have especially rich and flavorful qualities. The sound of countless herds fills the air—a deep and disturbing noise under the open sky, like a monstrous outcry from prisoners facing execution. On the mainland, twenty miles across the murky, muddy water, there’s a city we’ll call Horta.
But the most interesting characteristic of this island (which seems like a sort of penal settlement for condemned cattle) consists in its being the only known habitat of an extremely rare and gorgeous butterfly. The species is even more rare than it is beautiful, which is not saying little. I have already alluded to my travels. I travelled at that time, but strictly for myself and with a moderation unknown in our days of round-the-world tickets. I even travelled with a purpose. As a matter of fact, I am—“Ha, ha, ha!—a desperate butterfly-slayer. Ha, ha, ha!”
But the most interesting thing about this island (which feels like a kind of prison for condemned cattle) is that it’s the only known home of an incredibly rare and beautiful butterfly. This species is even rarer than it is beautiful, which says a lot. I've mentioned my travels before. I traveled back then, but only for myself and with a level of restraint that's unheard of in our age of around-the-world tickets. I even traveled with a purpose. In fact, I am—"Ha, ha, ha!—a relentless butterfly hunter. Ha, ha, ha!”
This was the tone in which Mr. Harry Gee, the manager of the cattle station, alluded to my pursuits. He seemed to consider me the greatest absurdity in the world. On the other hand, the B. O. S. Co., Ltd., represented to him the acme of the nineteenth century’s achievement. I believe that he slept in his leggings and spurs. His days he spent in the saddle flying over the plains, followed by a train of half-wild horsemen, who called him Don Enrique, and who had no definite idea of the B. O. S. Co., Ltd., which paid their wages. He was an excellent manager, but I don’t see why, when we met at meals, he should have thumped me on the back, with loud, derisive inquiries: “How’s the deadly sport to-day? Butterflies going strong? Ha, ha, ha!”—especially as he charged me two dollars per diem for the hospitality of the B. O. S. Co., Ltd., (capital L1,500,000, fully paid up), in whose balance-sheet for that year those monies are no doubt included. “I don’t think I can make it anything less in justice to my company,” he had remarked, with extreme gravity, when I was arranging with him the terms of my stay on the island.
This was the tone Mr. Harry Gee, the manager of the cattle station, used when he talked about my interests. He seemed to think I was the biggest joke in the world. On the other hand, the B. O. S. Co., Ltd., represented to him the pinnacle of 19th-century achievement. I believe he even slept in his leggings and spurs. He spent his days riding across the plains, followed by a group of half-wild horsemen who called him Don Enrique and had no real understanding of the B. O. S. Co., Ltd., that paid their wages. He was a great manager, but I don’t understand why, when we met at meals, he would slap me on the back with loud, mocking questions: “How’s the exciting sport today? Butterflies going strong? Ha, ha, ha!”—especially since he charged me two dollars a day for the hospitality of the B. O. S. Co., Ltd., (capital L1,500,000, fully paid up), which surely included that money in its balance sheet for the year. “I don’t think I can make it any less out of fairness to my company,” he had said very seriously when I was discussing the terms of my stay on the island with him.
His chaff would have been harmless enough if intimacy of intercourse in the absence of all friendly feeling were not a thing detestable in itself. Moreover, his facetiousness was not very amusing. It consisted in the wearisome repetition of descriptive phrases applied to people with a burst of laughter. “Desperate butterfly-slayer. Ha, ha, ha!” was one sample of his peculiar wit which he himself enjoyed so much. And in the same vein of exquisite humour he called my attention to the engineer of the steam-launch, one day, as we strolled on the path by the side of the creek.
His jokes would have been harmless enough if engaging with him without any genuine friendship wasn’t so off-putting. Besides, his humor wasn’t very funny. It was just the annoying repetition of descriptive phrases about people followed by a loud laugh. “Desperate butterfly-slayer. Ha, ha, ha!” was one example of his unique brand of humor that he found hilarious. In the same vein of so-called cleverness, he pointed out the engineer of the steam-launch one day while we were walking along the path by the creek.
The man’s head and shoulders emerged above the deck, over which were scattered various tools of his trade and a few pieces of machinery. He was doing some repairs to the engines. At the sound of our footsteps he raised anxiously a grimy face with a pointed chin and a tiny fair moustache. What could be seen of his delicate features under the black smudges appeared to me wasted and livid in the greenish shade of the enormous tree spreading its foliage over the launch moored close to the bank.
The man’s head and shoulders popped up above the deck, where various tools and some machinery were scattered around. He was working on repairing the engines. When he heard our footsteps, he anxiously looked up with a dirty face, a pointed chin, and a small blond mustache. What I could see of his delicate features underneath the black smudges looked pale and drained in the greenish shade of the massive tree spreading its leaves over the launch tied up near the bank.
To my great surprise, Harry Gee addressed him as “Crocodile,” in that half-jeering, half-bullying tone which is characteristic of self-satisfaction in his delectable kind:
To my great surprise, Harry Gee called him “Crocodile,” using that half-mocking, half-intimidating tone typical of someone who is smug in their enjoyable way:
“How does the work get on, Crocodile?”
"How's work going, Crocodile?"
I should have said before that the amiable Harry had picked up French of a sort somewhere—in some colony or other—and that he pronounced it with a disagreeable forced precision as though he meant to guy the language. The man in the launch answered him quickly in a pleasant voice. His eyes had a liquid softness and his teeth flashed dazzlingly white between his thin, drooping lips. The manager turned to me, very cheerful and loud, explaining:
I should have mentioned earlier that the friendly Harry had picked up a version of French somewhere—in one of the colonies—and he spoke it with an unpleasant, overly precise accent as if he intended to mock the language. The guy in the launch responded to him quickly in a friendly tone. His eyes had a soft, watery quality, and his teeth were shockingly white against his thin, drooping lips. The manager turned to me, very upbeat and loud, explaining:
“I call him Crocodile because he lives half in, half out of the creek. Amphibious—see? There’s nothing else amphibious living on the island except crocodiles; so he must belong to the species—eh? But in reality he’s nothing less than un citoyen anarchiste de Barcelone.”
“I call him Crocodile because he lives half in, half out of the creek. Amphibious—get it? There’s nothing else amphibious living on the island except crocodiles, so he must belong to that species—right? But really, he’s nothing less than an anarchist citizen from Barcelona.”
“A citizen anarchist from Barcelona?” I repeated, stupidly, looking down at the man. He had turned to his work in the engine-well of the launch and presented his bowed back to us. In that attitude I heard him protest, very audibly:
“A citizen anarchist from Barcelona?” I repeated, stupidly, looking down at the man. He had gone back to his work in the engine compartment of the boat and turned his hunched back to us. In that position, I heard him protest, quite clearly:
“I do not even know Spanish.”
"I don’t even know Spanish."
“Hey? What? You dare to deny you come from over there?” the accomplished manager was down on him truculently.
“Hey? What? You really think you can deny that you came from over there?” the tough manager confronted him aggressively.
At this the man straightened himself up, dropping a spanner he had been using, and faced us; but he trembled in all his limbs.
At this, the man straightened up, dropping the wrench he had been using, and faced us; but he was shaking all over.
“I deny nothing, nothing, nothing!” he said, excitedly.
“I deny nothing, nothing, nothing!” he said, excitedly.
He picked up the spanner and went to work again without paying any further attention to us. After looking at him for a minute or so, we went away.
He picked up the wrench and got back to work without looking at us again. After watching him for a minute or so, we left.
“Is he really an anarchist?” I asked, when out of ear-shot.
“Is he actually an anarchist?” I asked, once we were out of earshot.
“I don’t care a hang what he is,” answered the humorous official of the B. O. S. Co. “I gave him the name because it suited me to label him in that way, It’s good for the company.”
“I don’t care at all what he is,” replied the funny official of the B. O. S. Co. “I gave him that name because it worked for me to label him that way. It’s good for the company.”
“For the company!” I exclaimed, stopping short.
“For the company!” I shouted, coming to a sudden halt.
“Aha!” he triumphed, tilting up his hairless pug face and straddling his thin, long legs. “That surprises you. I am bound to do my best for my company. They have enormous expenses. Why—our agent in Horta tells me they spend fifty thousand pounds every year in advertising all over the world! One can’t be too economical in working the show. Well, just you listen. When I took charge here the estate had no steam-launch. I asked for one, and kept on asking by every mail till I got it; but the man they sent out with it chucked his job at the end of two months, leaving the launch moored at the pontoon in Horta. Got a better screw at a sawmill up the river—blast him! And ever since it has been the same thing. Any Scotch or Yankee vagabond that likes to call himself a mechanic out here gets eighteen pounds a month, and the next you know he’s cleared out, after smashing something as likely as not. I give you my word that some of the objects I’ve had for engine-drivers couldn’t tell the boiler from the funnel. But this fellow understands his trade, and I don’t mean him to clear out. See?”
“Aha!” he exclaimed triumphantly, tilting up his hairless pug face and straddling his thin, long legs. “That surprises you. I have to do my best for my company. They have huge expenses. Our agent in Horta tells me they spend fifty thousand pounds every year on advertising all over the world! You can't be too thrifty when running the show. Now listen up. When I took over here, the estate had no steam launch. I requested one and kept asking in every mail until I got it; but the guy they sent out with it quit after two months, leaving the launch just sitting at the pontoon in Horta. He found a better screw at a sawmill up the river—blast him! And it’s been the same story ever since. Any Scottish or American drifter that wants to call himself a mechanic out here earns eighteen pounds a month, and next thing you know, he’s gone, often after breaking something. I swear some of the people I’ve had as engine drivers couldn’t tell the boiler from the funnel. But this guy knows his stuff, and I don't plan on letting him leave. Got it?”
And he struck me lightly on the chest for emphasis. Disregarding his peculiarities of manner, I wanted to know what all this had to do with the man being an anarchist.
And he tapped me gently on the chest for emphasis. Ignoring his odd behavior, I wanted to know what all of this had to do with him being an anarchist.
“Come!” jeered the manager. “If you saw suddenly a barefooted, unkempt chap slinking amongst the bushes on the sea face of the island, and at the same time observed less than a mile from the beach, a small schooner full of niggers hauling off in a hurry, you wouldn’t think the man fell there from the sky, would you? And it could be nothing else but either that or Cayenne. I’ve got my wits about me. Directly I sighted this queer game I said to myself—‘Escaped Convict.’ I was as certain of it as I am of seeing you standing here this minute. So I spurred on straight at him. He stood his ground for a bit on a sand hillock crying out: ‘Monsieur! Monsieur! Arretez!’ then at the last moment broke and ran for life. Says I to myself, ‘I’ll tame you before I’m done with you.’ So without a single word I kept on, heading him off here and there. I rounded him up towards the shore, and at last I had him corralled on a spit, his heels in the water and nothing but sea and sky at his back, with my horse pawing the sand and shaking his head within a yard of him.
“Come on!” the manager mocked. “If you suddenly saw a barefoot, scruffy guy sneaking around the bushes on the beach of the island, and then noticed a small schooner full of people leaving in a hurry less than a mile from shore, you wouldn’t think that guy just fell out of nowhere, right? It could only be that or Cayenne. I’ve got my wits about me. As soon as I spotted this strange situation, I thought to myself, ‘Escaped convict.’ I was as sure of it as I am of seeing you right here. So I charged straight at him. He held his ground for a moment on a little sand hill yelling, ‘Sir! Sir! Stop!’ but at the last second, he took off running for his life. I told myself, ‘I’ll catch you before I’m done.’ So without saying a word, I kept at it, cutting him off here and there. I pushed him toward the shore until he was backed up against the water, with nothing but the sea and sky behind him, my horse digging into the sand and shaking his head just a yard away from him.
“He folded his arms on his breast then and stuck his chin up in a sort of desperate way; but I wasn’t to be impressed by the beggar’s posturing.
“He crossed his arms over his chest and stuck his chin up in a somewhat desperate way; but I wasn’t going to be impressed by the beggar’s act.”
“Says I, ‘You’re a runaway convict.’
“Says I, ‘You’re an escaped convict.’”
“When he heard French, his chin went down and his face changed.
“When he heard French, his chin dropped and his expression shifted.”
“‘I deny nothing,’ says he, panting yet, for I had kept him skipping about in front of my horse pretty smartly. I asked him what he was doing there. He had got his breath by then, and explained that he had meant to make his way to a farm which he understood (from the schooner’s people, I suppose) was to be found in the neighbourhood. At that I laughed aloud and he got uneasy. Had he been deceived? Was there no farm within walking distance?
“‘I’m not denying anything,’ he said, still catching his breath because I had kept him moving around in front of my horse pretty quickly. I asked him what he was doing there. By then, he had caught his breath and explained that he had intended to head to a farm that he heard about (probably from the people on the schooner) was nearby. I laughed out loud, and he became uneasy. Had he been misled? Was there really no farm within walking distance?”
“I laughed more and more. He was on foot, and of course the first bunch of cattle he came across would have stamped him to rags under their hoofs. A dismounted man caught on the feeding-grounds hasn’t got the ghost of a chance.
“I laughed harder and harder. He was on foot, and of course the first group of cattle he ran into would have trampled him to shreds under their hooves. A dismounted guy caught in the feeding grounds doesn't stand a chance.”
“‘My coming upon you like this has certainly saved your life,’ I said. He remarked that perhaps it was so; but that for his part he had imagined I had wanted to kill him under the hoofs of my horse. I assured him that nothing would have been easier had I meant it. And then we came to a sort of dead stop. For the life of me I didn’t know what to do with this convict, unless I chucked him into the sea. It occurred to me to ask him what he had been transported for. He hung his head.
“‘Running into you like this has definitely saved your life,’ I said. He replied that maybe that was the case; but he thought I might have actually wanted to run him over with my horse. I told him that nothing would have been simpler if I had intended it. Then we hit a sort of standstill. Honestly, I had no idea what to do with this convict, except maybe throw him into the sea. It crossed my mind to ask him what he had been sent here for. He hung his head.
“‘What is it?’ says I. ‘Theft, murder, rape, or what?’ I wanted to hear what he would have to say for himself, though of course I expected it would be some sort of lie. But all he said was—
“‘What’s going on?’ I asked. ‘Theft, murder, rape, or something else?’ I was curious to hear his explanation, although I expected it would just be a lie. But all he said was—
“‘Make it what you like. I deny nothing. It is no good denying anything.’
“‘Make it whatever you want. I don’t deny anything. There's no point in denying anything.’”
“I looked him over carefully and a thought struck me.
“I examined him closely and a thought came to me.
“‘They’ve got anarchists there, too,’ I said. ‘Perhaps you’re one of them.’
“‘They have anarchists there, too,’ I said. ‘Maybe you’re one of them.’”
“‘I deny nothing whatever, monsieur,’ he repeats.
“I don’t deny anything, sir,” he repeats.
“This answer made me think that perhaps he was not an anarchist. I believe those damned lunatics are rather proud of themselves. If he had been one, he would have probably confessed straight out.
“This answer made me think that maybe he wasn't an anarchist. I think those crazy people are pretty proud of themselves. If he had been one, he would have probably admitted it right away.”
“‘What were you before you became a convict?’
“‘What were you before you became a criminal?’”
“‘Ouvrier,’ he says. ‘And a good workman, too.’
“Ouvrier,” he says. “And a good worker, too.”
“At that I began to think he must be an anarchist, after all. That’s the class they come mostly from, isn’t it? I hate the cowardly bomb-throwing brutes. I almost made up my mind to turn my horse short round and leave him to starve or drown where he was, whichever he liked best. As to crossing the island to bother me again, the cattle would see to that. I don’t know what induced me to ask—
“At that moment, I started to think he might actually be an anarchist. That’s mostly where they come from, right? I can’t stand those cowardly bomb-throwing thugs. I nearly decided to turn my horse around and leave him to starve or drown, whichever he preferred. As for crossing the island to annoy me again, the cattle would take care of that. I’m not sure why I even asked—
“‘What sort of workman?’
“‘What kind of worker?’”
“I didn’t care a hang whether he answered me or not. But when he said at once, ‘Mecanicien, monsieur,’ I nearly jumped out of the saddle with excitement. The launch had been lying disabled and idle in the creek for three weeks. My duty to the company was clear. He noticed my start, too, and there we were for a minute or so staring at each other as if bewitched.
“I didn’t care at all whether he answered me or not. But when he immediately said, ‘Mecanicien, monsieur,’ I nearly jumped out of the saddle with excitement. The launch had been sitting disabled and unused in the creek for three weeks. My duty to the company was clear. He noticed my reaction, too, and there we were for a minute or so staring at each other as if we were under a spell.”
“‘Get up on my horse behind me,’ I told him. ‘You shall put my steam-launch to rights.’”
“‘Get on my horse behind me,’ I said to him. ‘You’re going to help me fix my steam-launch.’”
These are the words in which the worthy manager of the Maranon estate related to me the coming of the supposed anarchist. He meant to keep him—out of a sense of duty to the company—and the name he had given him would prevent the fellow from obtaining employment anywhere in Horta. The vaqueros of the estate, when they went on leave, spread it all over the town. They did not know what an anarchist was, nor yet what Barcelona meant. They called him Anarchisto de Barcelona, as if it were his Christian name and surname. But the people in town had been reading in their papers about the anarchists in Europe and were very much impressed. Over the jocular addition of “de Barcelona” Mr. Harry Gee chuckled with immense satisfaction. “That breed is particularly murderous, isn’t it? It makes the sawmills crowd still more afraid of having anything to do with him—see?” he exulted, candidly. “I hold him by that name better than if I had him chained up by the leg to the deck of the steam-launch.
These are the words with which the respected manager of the Maranon estate told me about the arrival of the so-called anarchist. He intended to keep him—out of a sense of responsibility to the company—and the name he had given him would stop the guy from getting a job anywhere in Horta. The workers on the estate, when they took their time off, spread the news all over town. They didn’t really know what an anarchist was or what Barcelona represented. They called him Anarchisto de Barcelona, as if it were his first and last name. But the townspeople had been reading about anarchists in Europe in their newspapers and were quite impressed. Mr. Harry Gee chuckled with great delight at the funny addition of “de Barcelona.” “That type is especially violent, isn’t it? It makes the sawmill workers even more afraid to have anything to do with him—get it?” he boasted openly. “I have him under that name better than if I had him chained to the deck of the steam-launch.”
“And mark,” he added, after a pause, “he does not deny it. I am not wronging him in any way. He is a convict of some sort, anyhow.”
“And note,” he added, after a pause, “he doesn’t deny it. I’m not misrepresenting him at all. He’s a convict of some kind, anyway.”
“But I suppose you pay him some wages, don’t you?” I asked.
“But I guess you pay him some wages, right?” I asked.
“Wages! What does he want with money here? He gets his food from my kitchen and his clothing from the store. Of course I’ll give him something at the end of the year, but you don’t think I’d employ a convict and give him the same money I would give an honest man? I am looking after the interests of my company first and last.”
“Wages! What does he need money for? He gets his meals from my kitchen and his clothes from the store. Sure, I’ll give him something at the end of the year, but do you really think I’d hire a convict and pay him the same as an honest man? I’m putting my company’s interests first and foremost.”
I admitted that, for a company spending fifty thousand pounds every year in advertising, the strictest economy was obviously necessary. The manager of the Maranon Estancia grunted approvingly.
I acknowledged that, for a company spending fifty thousand pounds every year on advertising, being as economical as possible was clearly essential. The manager of the Maranon Estancia nodded in agreement.
“And I’ll tell you what,” he continued: “if I were certain he’s an anarchist and he had the cheek to ask me for money, I would give him the toe of my boot. However, let him have the benefit of the doubt. I am perfectly willing to take it that he has done nothing worse than to stick a knife into somebody—with extenuating circumstances—French fashion, don’t you know. But that subversive sanguinary rot of doing away with all law and order in the world makes my blood boil. It’s simply cutting the ground from under the feet of every decent, respectable, hard-working person. I tell you that the consciences of people who have them, like you or I, must be protected in some way; or else the first low scoundrel that came along would in every respect be just as good as myself. Wouldn’t he, now? And that’s absurd!”
“And let me tell you,” he went on, “if I was sure he’s an anarchist and had the nerve to ask me for money, I’d kick him to the curb. But I’ll give him the benefit of the doubt. I’m completely willing to believe he hasn’t done anything worse than stab someone—under some circumstances—French style, you know. But that messed-up idea of getting rid of all law and order drives me crazy. It totally undermines every decent, hardworking person out there. I swear, the consciences of people who have them, like you and me, need to be protected somehow; otherwise, the first lowlife that comes along would be seen as just as good as me. Right? And that’s just ridiculous!”
He glared at me. I nodded slightly and murmured that doubtless there was much subtle truth in his view.
He shot me a dirty look. I nodded a bit and quietly said that he was probably right and there was a lot of truth in his perspective.
The principal truth discoverable in the views of Paul the engineer was that a little thing may bring about the undoing of a man.
The main truth found in Paul the engineer's perspective was that a small action can lead to a person's downfall.
“Il ne faut pas beaucoup pour perdre un homme,” he said to me, thoughtfully, one evening.
“It doesn't take much to lose a man,” he said to me, thoughtfully, one evening.
I report this reflection in French, since the man was of Paris, not of Barcelona at all. At the Maranon he lived apart from the station, in a small shed with a metal roof and straw walls, which he called mon atelier. He had a work-bench there. They had given him several horse-blankets and a saddle—not that he ever had occasion to ride, but because no other bedding was used by the working-hands, who were all vaqueros—cattlemen. And on this horseman’s gear, like a son of the plains, he used to sleep amongst the tools of his trade, in a litter of rusty scrap-iron, with a portable forge at his head, under the work-bench sustaining his grimy mosquito-net.
I share this thought in French because the man was from Paris, not Barcelona at all. He lived at the Maranon, away from the station, in a small shed with a metal roof and straw walls, which he called my workshop. He had a workbench there. They had given him a few horse blankets and a saddle—not that he ever rode, but because the working hands, who were all cattlemen, used no other bedding. And on this horseman’s gear, like a true cowboy, he would sleep among the tools of his trade, in a jumble of rusty scrap metal, with a portable forge at his head, beneath the workbench that held up his grimy mosquito net.
Now and then I would bring him a few candle ends saved from the scant supply of the manager’s house. He was very thankful for these. He did not like to lie awake in the dark, he confessed. He complained that sleep fled from him. “Le sommeil me fuit,” he declared, with his habitual air of subdued stoicism, which made him sympathetic and touching. I made it clear to him that I did not attach undue importance to the fact of his having been a convict.
Now and then I would bring him a few leftover candle stubs saved from the limited supply at the manager’s house. He was really grateful for these. He admitted that he didn’t like lying awake in the dark. He complained that sleep kept escaping him. “Sleep runs away from me,” he said, with his usual calm attitude, which made him both relatable and moving. I made it clear to him that I didn’t think too much of the fact that he had been a convict.
Thus it came about that one evening he was led to talk about himself. As one of the bits of candle on the edge of the bench burned down to the end, he hastened to light another.
Thus it happened that one evening he started talking about himself. As one of the candles on the edge of the bench burned down to the end, he quickly lit another.
He had done his military service in a provincial garrison and returned to Paris to follow his trade. It was a well-paid one. He told me with some pride that in a short time he was earning no less than ten francs a day. He was thinking of setting up for himself by and by and of getting married.
He had completed his military service at a local garrison and came back to Paris to continue his trade. It was a well-paying job. He told me with some pride that in a little while, he was earning at least ten francs a day. He was considering starting his own business eventually and getting married.
Here he sighed deeply and paused. Then with a return to his stoical note:
Here he let out a deep sigh and paused. Then, returning to his calm tone:
“It seems I did not know enough about myself.”
“It seems I didn't know enough about myself.”
On his twenty-fifth birthday two of his friends in the repairing shop where he worked proposed to stand him a dinner. He was immensely touched by this attention.
On his twenty-fifth birthday, two of his friends from the repair shop where he worked offered to treat him to dinner. He was really touched by their thoughtfulness.
“I was a steady man,” he remarked, “but I am not less sociable than any other body.”
“I was a calm guy,” he said, “but I'm no less friendly than anyone else.”
The entertainment came off in a little cafe on the Boulevard de la Chapelle. At dinner they drank some special wine. It was excellent. Everything was excellent; and the world—in his own words—seemed a very good place to live in. He had good prospects, some little money laid by, and the affection of two excellent friends. He offered to pay for all the drinks after dinner, which was only proper on his part.
The entertainment took place in a small cafe on the Boulevard de la Chapelle. At dinner, they enjoyed some special wine. It was fantastic. Everything was fantastic; and the world—in his own words—seemed like a really good place to live. He had promising prospects, some savings, and the support of two great friends. He offered to cover all the drinks after dinner, which was only right of him.
They drank more wine; they drank liqueurs, cognac, beer, then more liqueurs and more cognac. Two strangers sitting at the next table looked at him, he said, with so much friendliness, that he invited them to join the party.
They had more wine; they had liqueurs, cognac, beer, and then more liqueurs and more cognac. Two strangers at the next table looked at him, he said, with such friendliness that he invited them to join the party.
He had never drunk so much in his life. His elation was extreme, and so pleasurable that whenever it flagged he hastened to order more drinks.
He had never drunk this much in his life. His excitement was intense, and so enjoyable that whenever it started to fade, he quickly ordered more drinks.
“It seemed to me,” he said, in his quiet tone and looking on the ground in the gloomy shed full of shadows, “that I was on the point of just attaining a great and wonderful felicity. Another drink, I felt, would do it. The others were holding out well with me, glass for glass.”
“It felt to me,” he said in a soft voice, staring at the ground in the dark shed filled with shadows, “that I was about to reach a great and wonderful happiness. I sensed that another drink would get me there. The others were keeping up with me, drink for drink.”
But an extraordinary thing happened. At something the strangers said his elation fell. Gloomy ideas—des idees noires—rushed into his head. All the world outside the cafe; appeared to him as a dismal evil place where a multitude of poor wretches had to work and slave to the sole end that a few individuals should ride in carriages and live riotously in palaces. He became ashamed of his happiness. The pity of mankind’s cruel lot wrung his heart. In a voice choked with sorrow he tried to express these sentiments. He thinks he wept and swore in turns.
But an amazing thing happened. At something the strangers said, his excitement faded. Dark thoughts rushed into his mind. The whole world outside the café looked to him like a miserable, evil place where a multitude of poor souls had to work and struggle just so a few people could ride in carriages and live wildly in palaces. He felt embarrassed by his happiness. The suffering of humanity’s cruel fate broke his heart. In a voice filled with sadness, he tried to express these feelings. He thinks he cried and swore alternately.
The two new acquaintances hastened to applaud his humane indignation. Yes. The amount of injustice in the world was indeed scandalous. There was only one way of dealing with the rotten state of society. Demolish the whole sacree boutique. Blow up the whole iniquitous show.
The two new acquaintances quickly applauded his genuine anger. Yes. The level of injustice in the world was indeed outrageous. There was only one way to handle the terrible state of society. Tear down the entire corrupt system. Blow up the whole unfair spectacle.
Their heads hovered over the table. They whispered to him eloquently; I don’t think they quite expected the result. He was extremely drunk—mad drunk. With a howl of rage he leaped suddenly upon the table. Kicking over the bottles and glasses, he yelled: “Vive l’anarchie! Death to the capitalists!” He yelled this again and again. All round him broken glass was falling, chairs were being swung in the air, people were taking each other by the throat. The police dashed in. He hit, bit, scratched and struggled, till something crashed down upon his head. . . .
Their heads were leaned over the table. They whispered to him smoothly; I don’t think they really expected what happened next. He was completely hammered—totally wasted. With a shout of anger, he suddenly jumped onto the table. Kicking over the bottles and glasses, he shouted, “Long live anarchy! Death to the capitalists!” He shouted this again and again. All around him, glass was shattering, chairs were flying through the air, and people were grabbing each other by the neck. The police rushed in. He hit, bit, scratched, and fought back, until something crashed down on his head. . . .
He came to himself in a police cell, locked up on a charge of assault, seditious cries, and anarchist propaganda.
He woke up in a police cell, locked up on charges of assault, inciting unrest, and promoting anarchist ideas.
He looked at me fixedly with his liquid, shining eyes, that seemed very big in the dim light.
He stared at me intently with his shiny, expressive eyes that appeared quite large in the dim light.
“That was bad. But even then I might have got off somehow, perhaps,” he said, slowly.
"That was bad. But even then I might have managed to escape somehow, maybe," he said, slowly.
I doubt it. But whatever chance he had was done away with by a young socialist lawyer who volunteered to undertake his defence. In vain he assured him that he was no anarchist; that he was a quiet, respectable mechanic, only too anxious to work ten hours per day at his trade. He was represented at the trial as the victim of society and his drunken shoutings as the expression of infinite suffering. The young lawyer had his way to make, and this case was just what he wanted for a start. The speech for the defence was pronounced magnificent.
I doubt it. But any chance he had was eliminated by a young socialist lawyer who offered to take on his defense. In vain, he assured him that he wasn't an anarchist; that he was a quiet, respectable mechanic, eager to work ten hours a day at his job. He was portrayed at the trial as a victim of society, and his drunken outbursts were seen as a sign of deep suffering. The young lawyer was looking to make a name for himself, and this case was exactly what he needed to get started. The defense speech was considered magnificent.
The poor fellow paused, swallowed, and brought out the statement:
The poor guy paused, swallowed, and stated:
“I got the maximum penalty applicable to a first offence.”
“I received the highest penalty possible for a first offense.”
I made an appropriate murmur. He hung his head and folded his arms.
I made a suitable sound of agreement. He looked down and crossed his arms.
“When they let me out of prison,” he began, gently, “I made tracks, of course, for my old workshop. My patron had a particular liking for me before; but when he saw me he turned green with fright and showed me the door with a shaking hand.”
“When they let me out of prison,” he started softly, “I headed straight for my old workshop. My patron used to have a soft spot for me, but when he saw me, he turned pale with fear and showed me the door with a trembling hand.”
While he stood in the street, uneasy and disconcerted, he was accosted by a middle-aged man who introduced himself as an engineer’s fitter, too. “I know who you are,” he said. “I have attended your trial. You are a good comrade and your ideas are sound. But the devil of it is that you won’t be able to get work anywhere now. These bourgeois’ll conspire to starve you. That’s their way. Expect no mercy from the rich.”
While he stood in the street, feeling uneasy and unsettled, a middle-aged man approached him and introduced himself as an engineer’s fitter as well. “I know who you are,” he said. “I attended your trial. You’re a good comrade, and your ideas are solid. But the problem is that you won’t be able to find work anywhere now. These bourgeois will conspire to starve you. That’s how they operate. Don’t expect any mercy from the rich.”
To be spoken to so kindly in the street had comforted him very much. His seemed to be the sort of nature needing support and sympathy. The idea of not being able to find work had knocked him over completely. If his patron, who knew him so well for a quiet, orderly, competent workman, would have nothing to do with him now—then surely nobody else would. That was clear. The police, keeping their eye on him, would hasten to warn every employer inclined to give him a chance. He felt suddenly very helpless, alarmed and idle; and he followed the middle-aged man to the estaminet round the corner where he met some other good companions. They assured him that he would not be allowed to starve, work or no work. They had drinks all round to the discomfiture of all employers of labour and to the destruction of society.
Being spoken to so kindly on the street had really comforted him. He seemed to be the kind of person who needed support and sympathy. The thought of not being able to find work had completely overwhelmed him. If his patron, who knew him well as a quiet, orderly, and capable worker, wanted nothing to do with him now—then surely no one else would. That was obvious. The police, keeping an eye on him, would quickly warn any employer considering giving him a chance. He felt suddenly very helpless, scared, and unproductive; and he followed the middle-aged man to the café around the corner where he met some other good friends. They assured him that he would not be allowed to starve, work or no work. They raised their glasses all around to the embarrassment of all employers of labor and to the downfall of society.
He sat biting his lower lip.
He sat there biting his lower lip.
“That is, monsieur, how I became a compagnon,” he said. The hand he passed over his forehead was trembling. “All the same, there’s something wrong in a world where a man can get lost for a glass more or less.”
“That is, sir, how I became a companion,” he said. The hand he ran over his forehead was shaking. “Still, there’s something off about a world where a man can get lost over one drink, give or take.”
He never looked up, though I could see he was getting excited under his dejection. He slapped the bench with his open palm.
He never looked up, but I could tell he was getting excited beneath his sadness. He slapped the bench with his open hand.
“No!” he cried. “It was an impossible existence! Watched by the police, watched by the comrades, I did not belong to myself any more! Why, I could not even go to draw a few francs from my savings-bank without a comrade hanging about the door to see that I didn’t bolt! And most of them were neither more nor less than housebreakers. The intelligent, I mean. They robbed the rich; they were only getting back their own, they said. When I had had some drink I believed them. There were also the fools and the mad. Des exaltes—quoi! When I was drunk I loved them. When I got more drink I was angry with the world. That was the best time. I found refuge from misery in rage. But one can’t be always drunk—n’est-ce pas, monsieur? And when I was sober I was afraid to break away. They would have stuck me like a pig.”
“No!” he shouted. “It was an impossible life! Watched by the police, watched by my comrades, I didn’t belong to myself anymore! I couldn't even go withdraw some cash from my savings account without a comrade lurking around to make sure I didn't run off! And most of them were nothing more than thieves. The smart ones, I mean. They stole from the rich; they claimed they were just getting back what was theirs. When I had a few drinks, I believed them. Then there were the idiots and the crazies. The fanatics—ugh! When I was drunk, I loved them. But when I drank more, I got furious with the world. That was the best time. I found escape from misery in anger. But you can’t stay drunk all the time—right, sir? And when I was sober, I was too scared to break free. They would have slaughtered me.”
He folded his arms again and raised his sharp chin with a bitter smile.
He crossed his arms again and lifted his chin with a sarcastic smile.
“By and by they told me it was time to go to work. The work was to rob a bank. Afterwards a bomb would be thrown to wreck the place. My beginner’s part would be to keep watch in a street at the back and to take care of a black bag with the bomb inside till it was wanted. After the meeting at which the affair was arranged a trusty comrade did not leave me an inch. I had not dared to protest; I was afraid of being done away with quietly in that room; only, as we were walking together I wondered whether it would not be better for me to throw myself suddenly into the Seine. But while I was turning it over in my mind we had crossed the bridge, and afterwards I had not the opportunity.”
“Eventually, they told me it was time to get to work. The job was to rob a bank. After that, a bomb would be thrown to destroy the place. My beginner’s role would be to keep watch on a street in the back and take care of a black bag with the bomb inside until it was needed. After the meeting where the plan was set, a trusted comrade stayed close to me. I hadn’t dared to object; I was afraid I would be dealt with quietly in that room. Still, as we walked together, I wondered if it would be better for me to suddenly jump into the Seine. But while I was considering it, we crossed the bridge, and after that, I didn’t have the chance.”
In the light of the candle end, with his sharp features, fluffy little moustache, and oval face, he looked at times delicately and gaily young, and then appeared quite old, decrepit, full of sorrow, pressing his folded arms to his breast.
In the light of the candle end, with his sharp features, fluffy little moustache, and oval face, he sometimes seemed delicately and cheerfully young, and at other times appeared very old, frail, full of sorrow, pressing his folded arms to his chest.
As he remained silent I felt bound to ask:
As he stayed quiet, I felt I had to ask:
“Well! And how did it end?”
“Well! And how did it wrap up?”
“Deportation to Cayenne,” he answered.
"Deportation to Cayenne," he replied.
He seemed to think that somebody had given the plot away. As he was keeping watch in the back street, bag in hand, he was set upon by the police. “These imbeciles,” had knocked him down without noticing what he had in his hand. He wondered how the bomb failed to explode as he fell. But it didn’t explode.
He seemed to think someone had spilled the beans about the plan. While he was keeping an eye on the back street, bag in hand, the police jumped him. “These idiots,” he thought, as they knocked him down without noticing what he was holding. He wondered how the bomb didn’t go off when he fell. But it didn’t explode.
“I tried to tell my story in court,” he continued. “The president was amused. There were in the audience some idiots who laughed.”
“I tried to share my story in court,” he continued. “The president found it funny. There were some fools in the audience who laughed.”
I expressed the hope that some of his companions had been caught, too. He shuddered slightly before he told me that there were two—Simon, called also Biscuit, the middle-aged fitter who spoke to him in the street, and a fellow of the name of Mafile, one of the sympathetic strangers who had applauded his sentiments and consoled his humanitarian sorrows when he got drunk in the cafe.
I hoped that some of his friends had been caught as well. He shuddered a little before telling me that there were two—Simon, also known as Biscuit, the middle-aged mechanic who talked to him in the street, and a guy named Mafile, who was one of the kind strangers that had supported his views and comforted him during his drunken moments in the café.
“Yes,” he went on, with an effort, “I had the advantage of their company over there on St. Joseph’s Island, amongst some eighty or ninety other convicts. We were all classed as dangerous.”
“Yes,” he continued, with some effort, “I had the company of them over on St. Joseph’s Island, along with about eighty or ninety other convicts. We were all labeled as dangerous.”
St. Joseph’s Island is the prettiest of the Iles de Salut. It is rocky and green, with shallow ravines, bushes, thickets, groves of mango-trees, and many feathery palms. Six warders armed with revolvers and carbines are in charge of the convicts kept there.
St. Joseph’s Island is the most beautiful of the Iles de Salut. It's rocky and green, featuring shallow ravines, bushes, thickets, groves of mango trees, and plenty of feathery palms. Six guards armed with revolvers and carbines are responsible for overseeing the convicts held there.
An eight-oared galley keeps up the communication in the daytime, across a channel a quarter of a mile wide, with the Ile Royale, where there is a military post. She makes the first trip at six in the morning. At four in the afternoon her service is over, and she is then hauled up into a little dock on the Ile Royale and a sentry put over her and a few smaller boats. From that time till next morning the island of St. Joseph remains cut off from the rest of the world, with the warders patrolling in turn the path from the warders’ house to the convict huts, and a multitude of sharks patrolling the waters all round.
An eight-oared boat maintains communication during the day across a channel that's a quarter of a mile wide, connecting to Ile Royale, where there's a military post. It makes its first trip at six in the morning. By four in the afternoon, its service ends, and it's pulled up into a small dock on Ile Royale, where a guard is stationed over it and a few smaller boats. From that point until the next morning, the island of St. Joseph is cut off from the rest of the world, with guards taking turns patrolling the path from the guardhouse to the convict huts, while a number of sharks patrol the waters surrounding it.
Under these circumstances the convicts planned a mutiny. Such a thing had never been known in the penitentiary’s history before. But their plan was not without some possibility of success. The warders were to be taken by surprise and murdered during the night. Their arms would enable the convicts to shoot down the people in the galley as she came alongside in the morning. The galley once in their possession, other boats were to be captured, and the whole company was to row away up the coast.
Under these circumstances, the inmates planned a rebellion. This had never happened in the prison's history before. However, their plan had a chance of succeeding. The guards were to be caught off guard and killed during the night. Their weapons would allow the inmates to shoot the people on the boat as it approached in the morning. Once they took control of the boat, they intended to seize other vessels and the entire group would then row away up the coast.
At dusk the two warders on duty mustered the convicts as usual. Then they proceeded to inspect the huts to ascertain that everything was in order. In the second they entered they were set upon and absolutely smothered under the numbers of their assailants. The twilight faded rapidly. It was a new moon; and a heavy black squall gathering over the coast increased the profound darkness of the night. The convicts assembled in the open space, deliberating upon the next step to be taken, argued amongst themselves in low voices.
At dusk, the two guards on duty gathered the inmates like always. Then they went to check the huts to make sure everything was in order. In the second hut they entered, they were suddenly attacked and completely overwhelmed by the sheer number of their assailants. The twilight quickly disappeared. It was a new moon, and a heavy black storm gathering over the coast made the night even darker. The inmates gathered in the open space, discussing their next move, quietly arguing among themselves.
“You took part in all this?” I asked.
“You were involved in all this?” I asked.
“No. I knew what was going to be done, of course. But why should I kill these warders? I had nothing against them. But I was afraid of the others. Whatever happened, I could not escape from them. I sat alone on the stump of a tree with my head in my hands, sick at heart at the thought of a freedom that could be nothing but a mockery to me. Suddenly I was startled to perceive the shape of a man on the path near by. He stood perfectly still, then his form became effaced in the night. It must have been the chief warder coming to see what had become of his two men. No one noticed him. The convicts kept on quarrelling over their plans. The leaders could not get themselves obeyed. The fierce whispering of that dark mass of men was very horrible.
“No. I knew what was going to happen, of course. But why should I kill these guards? I had nothing against them. But I was scared of the others. No matter what happened, I couldn’t escape from them. I sat alone on a tree stump with my head in my hands, heartbroken at the thought of a freedom that would only be a joke to me. Suddenly, I was startled to see a man’s silhouette on the nearby path. He stood completely still, then his figure faded into the night. It must have been the chief guard checking on his two men. No one noticed him. The convicts continued arguing over their plans. The leaders couldn’t get anyone to follow them. The low murmurs of that dark group of men were really unsettling.
“At last they divided into two parties and moved off. When they had passed me I rose, weary and hopeless. The path to the warders’ house was dark and silent, but on each side the bushes rustled slightly. Presently I saw a faint thread of light before me. The chief warder, followed by his three men, was approaching cautiously. But he had failed to close his dark lantern properly. The convicts had seen that faint gleam, too. There was an awful savage yell, a turmoil on the dark path, shots fired, blows, groans: and with the sound of smashed bushes, the shouts of the pursuers and the screams of the pursued, the man-hunt, the warder-hunt, passed by me into the interior of the island. I was alone. And I assure you, monsieur, I was indifferent to everything. After standing still for a while, I walked on along the path till I kicked something hard. I stooped and picked up a warder’s revolver. I felt with my fingers that it was loaded in five chambers. In the gusts of wind I heard the convicts calling to each other far away, and then a roll of thunder would cover the soughing and rustling of the trees. Suddenly, a big light ran across my path very low along the ground. And it showed a woman’s skirt with the edge of an apron.
“At last, they split into two groups and moved off. Once they passed me, I got up, feeling tired and hopeless. The path to the guard's house was dark and quiet, but the bushes on either side rustled slightly. Then, I noticed a faint light ahead. The chief guard, followed by three of his men, was approaching carefully. However, he hadn’t closed his dark lantern properly. The convicts spotted that faint gleam too. There was a terrifying, wild yell, chaos on the dark path, shots fired, blows exchanged, groans: and with the sound of crashing bushes, the shouts of the pursuers, and the screams of the pursued, the manhunt, the guard hunt, rushed past me into the depths of the island. I was alone. And I assure you, sir, I felt indifferent to everything. After standing still for a moment, I continued along the path until I kicked something hard. I bent down and picked up a guard’s revolver. I felt with my fingers that it had five bullets in it. In the gusts of wind, I heard the convicts calling to each other far away, and then a roll of thunder would drown out the rustling of the trees. Suddenly, a bright light swept across my path very low to the ground. It revealed a woman’s skirt with the edge of an apron.
“I knew that the person who carried it must be the wife of the head warder. They had forgotten all about her, it seems. A shot rang out in the interior of the island, and she cried out to herself as she ran. She passed on. I followed, and presently I saw her again. She was pulling at the cord of the big bell which hangs at the end of the landing-pier, with one hand, and with the other she was swinging the heavy lantern to and fro. This is the agreed signal for the Ile Royale should assistance be required at night. The wind carried the sound away from our island and the light she swung was hidden on the shore side by the few trees that grow near the warders’ house.
“I realized that the person holding it must be the wife of the head guard. It seems they had completely forgotten about her. A shot echoed from deep inside the island, and she yelled out to herself as she ran. She moved on, and I followed until I saw her again. She was tugging at the rope of the large bell that hangs at the end of the landing pier with one hand, while swinging the heavy lantern back and forth with the other. This is the agreed signal for Ile Royale if they need help at night. The wind carried the sound away from our island, and the light she was swinging was obscured on the shore side by a few trees growing near the guards' house.
“I came up quite close to her from behind. She went on without stopping, without looking aside, as though she had been all alone on the island. A brave woman, monsieur. I put the revolver inside the breast of my blue blouse and waited. A flash of lightning and a clap of thunder destroyed both the sound and the light of the signal for an instant, but she never faltered, pulling at the cord and swinging the lantern as regularly as a machine. She was a comely woman of thirty—no more. I thought to myself, ‘All that’s no good on a night like this.’ And I made up my mind that if a body of my fellow-convicts came down to the pier—which was sure to happen soon—I would shoot her through the head before I shot myself. I knew the ‘comrades’ well. This idea of mine gave me quite an interest in life, monsieur; and at once, instead of remaining stupidly exposed on the pier, I retreated a little way and crouched behind a bush. I did not intend to let myself be pounced upon unawares and be prevented perhaps from rendering a supreme service to at least one human creature before I died myself.
I approached her from behind. She continued on without stopping or looking around, as if she were completely alone on the island. A brave woman, sir. I tucked the revolver inside my blue blouse and waited. A flash of lightning and a clap of thunder temporarily silenced and darkened the signal, but she didn’t hesitate, pulling the cord and swinging the lantern like it was a machine. She was a pretty woman, about thirty—no older. I thought, ‘This is pointless on a night like this.’ I decided that if any of my fellow convicts came down to the pier—which was bound to happen soon—I would shoot her in the head before I shot myself. I knew the "comrades" well. This thought gave me a reason to live, sir; and instead of stupidly exposing myself on the pier, I backed off a bit and crouched behind a bush. I didn’t want to be caught off guard and miss the chance to do something for at least one other person before I died.
“But we must believe the signal was seen, for the galley from Ile Royale came over in an astonishingly short time. The woman kept right on till the light of her lantern flashed upon the officer in command and the bayonets of the soldiers in the boat. Then she sat down and began to cry.
“But we have to believe the signal was spotted, because the ship from Ile Royale arrived in record time. The woman continued until the light from her lantern lit up the officer in charge and the soldiers' bayonets in the boat. Then she sat down and started to cry.”
“She didn’t need me any more. I did not budge. Some soldiers were only in their shirt-sleeves, others without boots, just as the call to arms had found them. They passed by my bush at the double. The galley had been sent away for more; and the woman sat all alone crying at the end of the pier, with the lantern standing on the ground near her.
“She didn’t need me anymore. I didn’t move. Some soldiers were only in their shirt sleeves, others without boots, just as the call to arms had found them. They rushed past my bush. The boat had been sent away for more, and the woman sat all alone crying at the end of the pier, with the lantern on the ground beside her.”
“Then suddenly I saw in the light at the end of the pier the red pantaloons of two more men. I was overcome with astonishment. They, too, started off at a run. Their tunics flapped unbuttoned and they were bare-headed. One of them panted out to the other, ‘Straight on, straight on!’
“Then suddenly I saw in the light at the end of the pier the red pants of two more guys. I was overwhelmed with surprise. They also took off running. Their shirts flapped open and they were bare-headed. One of them gasped to the other, ‘Keep going, keep going!’”
“Where on earth did they spring from, I wondered. Slowly I walked down the short pier. I saw the woman’s form shaken by sobs and heard her moaning more and more distinctly, ‘Oh, my man! my poor man! my poor man!’ I stole on quietly. She could neither hear nor see anything. She had thrown her apron over her head and was rocking herself to and fro in her grief. But I remarked a small boat fastened to the end of the pier.
“Where on earth did they come from, I wondered. Slowly, I walked down the short pier. I saw the woman’s figure shaking with sobs and heard her moaning more and more clearly, ‘Oh, my man! my poor man! my poor man!’ I crept up quietly. She couldn’t hear or see anything. She had thrown her apron over her head and was rocking back and forth in her sorrow. But I noticed a small boat tied to the end of the pier.”
“Those two men—they looked like sous-officiers—must have come in it, after being too late, I suppose, for the galley. It is incredible that they should have thus broken the regulations from a sense of duty. And it was a stupid thing to do. I could not believe my eyes in the very moment I was stepping into that boat.
“Those two guys—they looked like junior officers—must have gotten in after missing the kitchen, I guess. It's crazy that they broke the rules like that out of a sense of duty. And it was a dumb move. I couldn't believe my eyes as I was stepping into that boat.”
“I pulled along the shore slowly. A black cloud hung over the Iles de Salut. I heard firing, shouts. Another hunt had begun—the convict-hunt. The oars were too long to pull comfortably. I managed them with difficulty, though the boat herself was light. But when I got round to the other side of the island the squall broke in rain and wind. I was unable to make head against it. I let the boat drift ashore and secured her.
“I paddled along the shore slowly. A dark cloud loomed over the Iles de Salut. I heard gunfire and shouting. Another hunt had started—the convict hunt. The oars were too long to use comfortably. I struggled with them, even though the boat itself was light. But when I reached the other side of the island, the storm hit with rain and wind. I couldn't make any progress against it. I let the boat drift to shore and tied her up.”
“I knew the spot. There was a tumbledown old hovel standing near the water. Cowering in there I heard through the noises of the wind and the falling downpour some people tearing through the bushes. They came out on the strand. Soldiers perhaps. A flash of lightning threw everything near me into violent relief. Two convicts!
“I knew the place. There was a rundown old shack by the water. Hiding in there, I heard over the sound of the wind and pouring rain some people crashing through the bushes. They emerged onto the beach. Maybe soldiers. A flash of lightning illuminated everything around me sharply. Two convicts!”
“And directly an amazed voice exclaimed. ‘It’s a miracle!’ It was the voice of Simon, otherwise Biscuit.
“And right away, an amazed voice exclaimed, ‘It’s a miracle!’ It was Simon, also known as Biscuit.”
“And another voice growled, ‘What’s a miracle?’
“And another voice growled, ‘What’s a miracle?’
“‘Why, there’s a boat lying here!’
“‘Hey, there’s a boat right here!’”
“‘You must be mad, Simon! But there is, after all. . . . A boat.’
“‘You must be crazy, Simon! But there is, after all... a boat.’”
“They seemed awed into complete silence. The other man was Mafile. He spoke again, cautiously.
“They seemed completely speechless. The other man was Mafile. He spoke again, carefully.”
“‘It is fastened up. There must be somebody here.’
“‘It’s locked up. There has to be someone here.’”
“I spoke to them from within the hovel: ‘I am here.’
“I spoke to them from inside the shack: ‘I’m here.’”
“They came in then, and soon gave me to understand that the boat was theirs, not mine. ‘There are two of us,’ said Mafile, ‘against you alone.’
“They came in then, and soon made it clear that the boat was theirs, not mine. ‘There are two of us,’ said Mafile, ‘against you alone.’”
“I got out into the open to keep clear of them for fear of getting a treacherous blow on the head. I could have shot them both where they stood. But I said nothing. I kept down the laughter rising in my throat. I made myself very humble and begged to be allowed to go. They consulted in low tones about my fate, while with my hand on the revolver in the bosom of my blouse I had their lives in my power. I let them live. I meant them to pull that boat. I represented to them with abject humility that I understood the management of a boat, and that, being three to pull, we could get a rest in turns. That decided them at last. It was time. A little more and I would have gone into screaming fits at the drollness of it.”
“I stepped out into the open to avoid them, afraid I might get a sudden hit to the head. I could have shot both of them right there. But I stayed quiet. I held back the laughter bubbling up inside me. I made myself really humble and asked if I could leave. They talked in low voices about what to do with me, while I had my hand on the revolver tucked in my blouse, holding their lives in my hands. I chose to let them live. I wanted them to row the boat. I pleaded with them, showing all the humility I could muster, that I knew how to handle a boat and that with three of us rowing, we could take turns resting. That finally convinced them. It was about time. Just a little longer, and I would have burst into fits of laughter at how ridiculous it all was.”
At this point his excitement broke out. He jumped off the bench and gesticulated. The great shadows of his arms darting over roof and walls made the shed appear too small to contain his agitation.
At that moment, his excitement exploded. He jumped off the bench and waved his arms around. The large shadows of his arms flickered over the roof and walls, making the shed seem too small to hold his energy.
“I deny nothing,” he burst out. “I was elated, monsieur. I tasted a sort of felicity. But I kept very quiet. I took my turns at pulling all through the night. We made for the open sea, putting our trust in a passing ship. It was a foolhardy action. I persuaded them to it. When the sun rose the immensity of water was calm, and the Iles de Salut appeared only like dark specks from the top of each swell. I was steering then. Mafile, who was pulling bow, let out an oath and said, ‘We must rest.’
“I don’t deny anything,” he exclaimed. “I was thrilled, sir. I experienced a kind of happiness. But I kept quiet about it. I took my turns rowing all night. We headed for the open sea, hoping to catch a passing ship. It was a reckless move. I convinced them to go for it. When the sun came up, the vast expanse of water was calm, and the Iles de Salut looked like dark dots on top of each wave. I was steering then. Mafile, who was at the front, swore and said, ‘We need to take a break.’”
“The time to laugh had come at last. And I took my fill of it, I can tell you. I held my sides and rolled in my seat, they had such startled faces. ‘What’s got into him, the animal?’ cries Mafile.
“The time to laugh had finally arrived. And I really enjoyed it, I can tell you. I was holding my sides and rolling in my seat; their faces were so shocked. ‘What’s gotten into him, the animal?’ Mafile exclaimed.”
“And Simon, who was nearest to me, says over his shoulder to him, ‘Devil take me if I don’t think he’s gone mad!’
“And Simon, who was closest to me, says over his shoulder to him, ‘Devil take me if I don’t think he’s gone crazy!’”
“Then I produced the revolver. Aha! In a moment they both got the stoniest eyes you can imagine. Ha, ha! They were frightened. But they pulled. Oh, yes, they pulled all day, sometimes looking wild and sometimes looking faint. I lost nothing of it because I had to keep my eyes on them all the time, or else—crack!—they would have been on top of me in a second. I rested my revolver hand on my knee all ready and steered with the other. Their faces began to blister. Sky and sea seemed on fire round us and the sea steamed in the sun. The boat made a sizzling sound as she went through the water. Sometimes Mafile foamed at the mouth and sometimes he groaned. But he pulled. He dared not stop. His eyes became blood-shot all over, and he had bitten his lower lip to pieces. Simon was as hoarse as a crow.
“Then I pulled out the revolver. Aha! In an instant, they both had the coldest stares you can imagine. Ha, ha! They were scared. But they kept pulling. Oh, yes, they pulled all day long, sometimes looking frantic and sometimes appearing weak. I didn’t miss a moment of it because I had to keep my eyes on them constantly, or else—crack!—they would have been right on top of me in a heartbeat. I rested my revolver hand on my knee, ready, and steered with the other. Their faces began to blister. The sky and sea looked like they were on fire around us, and the sea was steaming in the sun. The boat made a sizzling noise as it moved through the water. Sometimes Mafile was foaming at the mouth, and other times he groaned. But he kept pulling. He couldn’t afford to stop. His eyes went bloodshot, and he had chewed his lower lip to pieces. Simon was as hoarse as a crow.”
“‘Comrade—’ he begins.
“‘Buddy—’ he begins.
“‘There are no comrades here. I am your patron.’
“‘There are no friends here. I am your supporter.’”
“‘Patron, then,’ he says, ‘in the name of humanity let us rest.’
“‘Patron, then,’ he says, ‘for the sake of humanity let’s take a break.’”
“I let them. There was a little rainwater washing about the bottom of the boat. I permitted them to snatch some of it in the hollow of their palms. But as I gave the command, ‘En route!’ I caught them exchanging significant glances. They thought I would have to go to sleep sometime! Aha! But I did not want to go to sleep. I was more awake than ever. It is they who went to sleep as they pulled, tumbling off the thwarts head over heels suddenly, one after another. I let them lie. All the stars were out. It was a quiet world. The sun rose. Another day. Allez! En route!
“I let them. There was some rainwater sloshing around at the bottom of the boat. I allowed them to scoop some up in the palms of their hands. But as I shouted, ‘Let’s go!’ I caught them exchanging knowing looks. They thought I would have to fall asleep eventually! Aha! But I didn't want to sleep. I was more awake than ever. It was they who dozed off as they paddled, tumbling off the seats one after another. I let them be. All the stars were out. It was a quiet world. The sun rose. Another day. Let’s go!
“They pulled badly. Their eyes rolled about and their tongues hung out. In the middle of the forenoon Mafile croaks out: ‘Let us make a rush at him, Simon. I would just as soon be shot at once as to die of thirst, hunger, and fatigue at the oar.’
“They struggled badly. Their eyes were wild and their tongues were hanging out. In the middle of the morning, Mafile shouted, ‘Let’s make a run for it, Simon. I’d rather be shot right now than die from thirst, hunger, and exhaustion at the oar.’”
“But while he spoke he pulled; and Simon kept on pulling too. It made me smile. Ah! They loved their life these two, in this evil world of theirs, just as I used to love my life, too, before they spoiled it for me with their phrases. I let them go on to the point of exhaustion, and only then I pointed at the sails of a ship on the horizon.
“But while he was talking, he kept pulling, and Simon kept pulling too. It made me smile. Ah! These two loved their lives in this messed-up world of theirs, just like I used to love my life before they ruined it for me with their words. I let them go on until they were exhausted, and only then did I point at the sails of a ship on the horizon.”
“Aha! You should have seen them revive and buckle to their work! For I kept them at it to pull right across that ship’s path. They were changed. The sort of pity I had felt for them left me. They looked more like themselves every minute. They looked at me with the glances I remembered so well. They were happy. They smiled.
“Aha! You should have seen them come back to life and get back to work! I kept them going to pull right across the ship's path. They were transformed. The pity I had felt for them was gone. They seemed more like their true selves with every passing minute. They looked at me with the familiar glances I remembered so well. They were happy. They smiled.
“‘Well,’ says Simon, ‘the energy of that youngster has saved our lives. If he hadn’t made us, we could never have pulled so far out into the track of ships. Comrade, I forgive you. I admire you.’
“‘Well,’ says Simon, ‘that kid's energy has saved our lives. If he hadn't pushed us, we could never have gone so far into the shipping lane. Buddy, I forgive you. I admire you.’”
“And Mafile growls from forward: ‘We owe you a famous debt of gratitude, comrade. You are cut out for a chief.’
“And Mafile growls from the front: ‘We owe you a huge debt of gratitude, comrade. You’re definitely made for a leader.’”
“Comrade! Monsieur! Ah, what a good word! And they, such men as these two, had made it accursed. I looked at them. I remembered their lies, their promises, their menaces, and all my days of misery. Why could they not have left me alone after I came out of prison? I looked at them and thought that while they lived I could never be free. Never. Neither I nor others like me with warm hearts and weak heads. For I know I have not a strong head, monsieur. A black rage came upon me—the rage of extreme intoxication—but not against the injustice of society. Oh, no!
“Comrade! Monsieur! Ah, what a great word! But these men had turned it into something cursed. I looked at them and remembered their lies, their promises, their threats, and all my days of suffering. Why couldn't they have just left me alone after I got out of prison? I looked at them and thought that as long as they were alive, I could never be free. Never. Neither I nor others like me, with warm hearts and weak minds. I know I don't have a strong mind, monsieur. A dark rage washed over me—the rage of extreme intoxication—but not against the unfairness of society. Oh, no!
“‘I must be free!’ I cried, furiously.
“I have to be free!” I shouted, angrily.
“‘Vive la liberte!” yells that ruffian Mafile. ‘Mort aux bourgeois who send us to Cayenne! They shall soon know that we are free.’
“‘Long live freedom!’ yells that troublemaker Mafile. ‘Death to the bourgeois who send us to Cayenne! They will soon learn that we are free.’”
“The sky, the sea, the whole horizon, seemed to turn red, blood red all round the boat. My temples were beating so loud that I wondered they did not hear. How is it that they did not? How is it they did not understand?
“The sky, the sea, the entire horizon, appeared to turn red, blood red all around the boat. My temples were pounding so loudly that I wondered if they could hear it. How is it that they didn’t? How is it that they didn’t understand?”
“I heard Simon ask, ‘Have we not pulled far enough out now?’
“I heard Simon ask, ‘Haven't we gone far enough out now?’”
“‘Yes. Far enough,’ I said. I was sorry for him; it was the other I hated. He hauled in his oar with a loud sigh, and as he was raising his hand to wipe his forehead with the air of a man who has done his work, I pulled the trigger of my revolver and shot him like this off the knee, right through the heart.
“‘Yeah. That's far enough,’ I said. I felt sorry for him; it was the other guy I hated. He pulled in his oar with a loud sigh, and as he was lifting his hand to wipe his forehead like a man who's done his job, I pulled the trigger on my revolver and shot him like this off the knee, right through the heart.
“He tumbled down, with his head hanging over the side of the boat. I did not give him a second glance. The other cried out piercingly. Only one shriek of horror. Then all was still.
“He fell down, with his head hanging over the side of the boat. I didn’t look at him again. The other person screamed loudly. Just one shout of terror. Then everything went quiet.”
“He slipped off the thwart on to his knees and raised his clasped hands before his face in an attitude of supplication. ‘Mercy,’ he whispered, faintly. ‘Mercy for me!—comrade.’
“He slid off the seat onto his knees and lifted his clasped hands in front of his face in a gesture of pleading. ‘Please, have mercy,’ he whispered faintly. ‘Have mercy on me!—my friend.’
“‘Ah, comrade,’ I said, in a low tone. ‘Yes, comrade, of course. Well, then, shout Vive l’anarchie.’
“‘Ah, comrade,’ I said quietly. ‘Yes, comrade, of course. Well, then, shout Long live anarchy.’”
“He flung up his arms, his face up to the sky and his mouth wide open in a great yell of despair. ‘Vive l’anarchie! Vive—’
“He threw his arms up, his face towards the sky and his mouth wide open in a huge shout of despair. ‘Long live anarchy! Long live—’”
“He collapsed all in a heap, with a bullet through his head.
“He collapsed in a heap, with a bullet in his head.
“I flung them both overboard. I threw away the revolver, too. Then I sat down quietly. I was free at last! At last. I did not even look towards the ship; I did not care; indeed, I think I must have gone to sleep, because all of a sudden there were shouts and I found the ship almost on top of me. They hauled me on board and secured the boat astern. They were all blacks, except the captain, who was a mulatto. He alone knew a few words of French. I could not find out where they were going nor who they were. They gave me something to eat every day; but I did not like the way they used to discuss me in their language. Perhaps they were deliberating about throwing me overboard in order to keep possession of the boat. How do I know? As we were passing this island I asked whether it was inhabited. I understood from the mulatto that there was a house on it. A farm, I fancied, they meant. So I asked them to put me ashore on the beach and keep the boat for their trouble. This, I imagine, was just what they wanted. The rest you know.”
“I threw both of them overboard. I tossed the revolver away too. Then I sat down quietly. I was finally free! At last. I didn’t even look back at the ship; I didn’t care. In fact, I think I must have fallen asleep because suddenly there were shouts, and I found the ship almost on top of me. They pulled me on board and tied the boat at the back. They were all Black, except for the captain, who was a mixed-race. He was the only one who knew a few words of French. I couldn’t figure out where they were going or who they were. They fed me every day, but I didn't like how they talked about me in their language. Maybe they were discussing whether to throw me overboard to keep the boat for themselves. How would I know? As we were passing this island, I asked if it was inhabited. From what the mixed-race captain told me, there was a house on it. I guessed they meant a farm. So I asked them to drop me off on the beach and keep the boat for their trouble. This, I think, was exactly what they wanted. The rest you know.”
After pronouncing these words he lost suddenly all control over himself. He paced to and fro rapidly, till at last he broke into a run; his arms went like a windmill and his ejaculations became very much like raving. The burden of them was that he “denied nothing, nothing!” I could only let him go on, and sat out of his way, repeating, “Calmez vous, calmez vous,” at intervals, till his agitation exhausted itself.
After saying these words, he suddenly lost all control over himself. He started pacing back and forth quickly, and eventually broke into a run; his arms flailed around like a windmill and his outbursts sounded almost like madness. The main point of his rants was that he “denied nothing, nothing!” I could only let him continue and stayed out of his way, occasionally repeating, “Calm down, calm down,” until his agitation wore itself out.
I must confess, too, that I remained there long after he had crawled under his mosquito-net. He had entreated me not to leave him; so, as one sits up with a nervous child, I sat up with him—in the name of humanity—till he fell asleep.
I have to admit that I stayed there long after he had crawled under his mosquito net. He asked me not to leave him, so like someone who stays up with a nervous child, I stayed up with him—in the name of compassion—until he fell asleep.
On the whole, my idea is that he was much more of an anarchist than he confessed to me or to himself; and that, the special features of his case apart, he was very much like many other anarchists. Warm heart and weak head—that is the word of the riddle; and it is a fact that the bitterest contradictions and the deadliest conflicts of the world are carried on in every individual breast capable of feeling and passion.
Overall, I think he was more of an anarchist than he admitted to me or even to himself; and aside from the unique aspects of his situation, he resembled many other anarchists. A warm heart and a weak mind—that’s the essence of the puzzle; and it’s true that the harshest contradictions and deadliest conflicts in the world happen within every individual who is capable of feeling and passion.
From personal inquiry I can vouch that the story of the convict mutiny was in every particular as stated by him.
From my own investigation, I can confirm that the story of the convict mutiny was exactly as he described.
When I got back to Horta from Cayenne and saw the “Anarchist” again, he did not look well. He was more worn, still more frail, and very livid indeed under the grimy smudges of his calling. Evidently the meat of the company’s main herd (in its unconcentrated form) did not agree with him at all.
When I returned to Horta from Cayenne and saw the “Anarchist” again, he didn't look well. He appeared more worn out, even more fragile, and was definitely very pale under the dirty marks of his work. Clearly, the meat from the company’s main herd (in its unprocessed state) did not sit well with him at all.
It was on the pontoon in Horta that we met; and I tried to induce him to leave the launch moored where she was and follow me to Europe there and then. It would have been delightful to think of the excellent manager’s surprise and disgust at the poor fellow’s escape. But he refused with unconquerable obstinacy.
It was on the floating dock in Horta that we met; and I tried to persuade him to leave the boat tied up where it was and come with me to Europe right then and there. It would have been great to imagine the excellent manager’s surprise and frustration at the poor guy’s departure. But he stubbornly refused.
“Surely you don’t mean to live always here!” I cried. He shook his head.
“Surely you don’t mean to live here forever!” I said. He shook his head.
“I shall die here,” he said. Then added moodily, “Away from them.”
“I’m going to die here,” he said. Then he added gloomily, “Far away from them.”
Sometimes I think of him lying open-eyed on his horseman’s gear in the low shed full of tools and scraps of iron—the anarchist slave of the Maranon estate, waiting with resignation for that sleep which “fled” from him, as he used to say, in such an unaccountable manner.
Sometimes I picture him lying wide awake on his horseman’s gear in the small shed full of tools and bits of iron—the anarchist slave of the Maranon estate, waiting resignedly for that sleep which “fled” from him, as he used to say, in such a strange way.
THE DUEL
A MILITARY TALE
I
I
Napoleon I., whose career had the quality of a duel against the whole of Europe, disliked duelling between the officers of his army. The great military emperor was not a swashbuckler, and had little respect for tradition.
Napoleon I, whose career was like a duel against all of Europe, disliked dueling among the officers in his army. The great military emperor wasn't a show-off, and he had little respect for tradition.
Nevertheless, a story of duelling, which became a legend in the army, runs through the epic of imperial wars. To the surprise and admiration of their fellows, two officers, like insane artists trying to gild refined gold or paint the lily, pursued a private contest through the years of universal carnage. They were officers of cavalry, and their connection with the high-spirited but fanciful animal which carries men into battle seems particularly appropriate. It would be difficult to imagine for heroes of this legend two officers of infantry of the line, for example, whose fantasy is tamed by much walking exercise, and whose valour necessarily must be of a more plodding kind. As to gunners or engineers, whose heads are kept cool on a diet of mathematics, it is simply unthinkable.
Nevertheless, a story of dueling, which became legendary in the army, runs through the epic of imperial wars. To the surprise and admiration of their peers, two officers, like crazy artists trying to gild gold or paint a lily, engaged in a private rivalry amidst years of widespread carnage. They were cavalry officers, and their connection with the spirited but whimsical horses that carry men into battle seems especially fitting. It would be hard to picture two infantry officers in this legendary role, for instance, whose imaginations are grounded by long marches, and whose bravery naturally has to be more methodical. As for gunners or engineers, whose minds are focused on numbers, it's simply inconceivable.
The names of the two officers were Feraud and D’Hubert, and they were both lieutenants in a regiment of hussars, but not in the same regiment.
The names of the two officers were Feraud and D’Hubert, and they were both lieutenants in different hussar regiments.
Feraud was doing regimental work, but Lieut. D’Hubert had the good fortune to be attached to the person of the general commanding the division, as officier d’ordonnance. It was in Strasbourg, and in this agreeable and important garrison they were enjoying greatly a short interval of peace. They were enjoying it, though both intensely warlike, because it was a sword-sharpening, firelock-cleaning peace, dear to a military heart and undamaging to military prestige, inasmuch that no one believed in its sincerity or duration.
Feraud was doing his regimental duties, but Lieutenant D’Hubert was lucky to be assigned to the general commanding the division as an aide-de-camp. This took place in Strasbourg, where they were both really enjoying a brief moment of peace in this pleasant and crucial garrison. They relished it, even though they were both very much in a military mindset, because it was a sort of peace that involved sharpening swords and cleaning firearms—something that resonated with military pride and didn't harm their reputation, since no one thought it was genuine or would last long.
Under those historical circumstances, so favourable to the proper appreciation of military leisure, Lieut. D’Hubert, one fine afternoon, made his way along a quiet street of a cheerful suburb towards Lieut. Feraud’s quarters, which were in a private house with a garden at the back, belonging to an old maiden lady.
Under those historical circumstances, which were perfect for appreciating military downtime, Lieutenant D’Hubert, one fine afternoon, walked down a quiet street in a pleasant suburb toward Lieutenant Feraud’s quarters, located in a private house with a garden in the back, owned by an old maid.
His knock at the door was answered instantly by a young maid in Alsatian costume. Her fresh complexion and her long eyelashes, lowered demurely at the sight of the tall officer, caused Lieut. D’Hubert, who was accessible to esthetic impressions, to relax the cold, severe gravity of his face. At the same time he observed that the girl had over her arm a pair of hussar’s breeches, blue with a red stripe.
His knock on the door was quickly answered by a young maid in Alsatian attire. Her fresh complexion and long eyelashes, lowered shyly at the sight of the tall officer, made Lieut. D’Hubert, who was sensitive to aesthetic impressions, soften the cold, serious expression on his face. At the same time, he noticed that the girl had a pair of hussar's pants, blue with a red stripe, draped over her arm.
“Lieut. Feraud in?” he inquired, benevolently.
“Is Lieut. Feraud in?” he asked kindly.
“Oh, no, sir! He went out at six this morning.”
“Oh, no, sir! He left at six this morning.”
The pretty maid tried to close the door. Lieut. D’Hubert, opposing this move with gentle firmness, stepped into the ante-room, jingling his spurs.
The pretty maid tried to close the door. Lieutenant D’Hubert, gently but firmly stopping her, stepped into the foyer, the sound of his spurs jingling.
“Come, my dear! You don’t mean to say he has not been home since six o’clock this morning?”
“Come on, my dear! You can’t be serious that he hasn’t been home since six this morning?”
Saying these words, Lieut. D’Hubert opened without ceremony the door of a room so comfortably and neatly ordered that only from internal evidence in the shape of boots, uniforms, and military accoutrements did he acquire the conviction that it was Lieut. Feraud’s room. And he saw also that Lieut. Feraud was not at home. The truthful maid had followed him, and raised her candid eyes to his face.
Saying this, Lieutenant D’Hubert casually opened the door to a room that was so tidy and well-organized that he could only infer from the boots, uniforms, and military gear that it belonged to Lieutenant Feraud. He also noticed that Lieutenant Feraud wasn’t home. The honest maid had followed him and looked up at him with her clear eyes.
“H’m!” said Lieut. D’Hubert, greatly disappointed, for he had already visited all the haunts where a lieutenant of hussars could be found of a fine afternoon. “So he’s out? And do you happen to know, my dear, why he went out at six this morning?”
“H’m!” said Lieut. D’Hubert, really disappointed, because he had already checked all the places where a hussar lieutenant might be on a nice afternoon. “So he’s out? And do you know, my dear, why he left at six this morning?”
“No,” she answered, readily. “He came home late last night, and snored. I heard him when I got up at five. Then he dressed himself in his oldest uniform and went out. Service, I suppose.”
“No,” she replied quickly. “He came home late last night and snored. I heard him when I got up at five. Then he put on his oldest uniform and left. Probably for work.”
“Service? Not a bit of it!” cried Lieut. D’Hubert. “Learn, my angel, that he went out thus early to fight a duel with a civilian.”
“Service? Not at all!” exclaimed Lieut. D’Hubert. “Just so you know, my dear, he went out this early to duel with a civilian.”
She heard this news without a quiver of her dark eyelashes. It was very obvious that the actions of Lieut. Feraud were generally above criticism. She only looked up for a moment in mute surprise, and Lieut. D’Hubert concluded from this absence of emotion that she must have seen Lieut. Feraud since the morning. He looked around the room.
She heard this news without a flutter of her dark eyelashes. It was clear that Lieut. Feraud's actions were mostly beyond reproach. She glanced up for a brief moment in silent surprise, and Lieut. D’Hubert gathered from her lack of emotion that she must have seen Lieut. Feraud since the morning. He scanned the room.
“Come!” he insisted, with confidential familiarity. “He’s perhaps somewhere in the house now?”
“Come on!” he urged, with a friendly tone. “He might be somewhere in the house right now?”
She shook her head.
She shook her head.
“So much the worse for him!” continued Lieut. D’Hubert, in a tone of anxious conviction. “But he has been home this morning.”
“So much the worse for him!” continued Lieut. D’Hubert, with a tone of worried certainty. “But he was home this morning.”
This time the pretty maid nodded slightly.
This time, the pretty maid gave a small nod.
“He has!” cried Lieut. D’Hubert. “And went out again? What for? Couldn’t he keep quietly indoors! What a lunatic! My dear girl—”
“He has!” cried Lieut. D’Hubert. “And went out again? What for? Couldn’t he just stay quietly indoors! What a lunatic! My dear girl—”
Lieut. D’Hubert’s natural kindness of disposition and strong sense of comradeship helped his powers of observation. He changed his tone to a most insinuating softness, and, gazing at the hussar’s breeches hanging over the arm of the girl, he appealed to the interest she took in Lieut. Feraud’s comfort and happiness. He was pressing and persuasive. He used his eyes, which were kind and fine, with excellent effect. His anxiety to get hold at once of Lieut. Feraud, for Lieut. Feraud’s own good, seemed so genuine that at last it overcame the girl’s unwillingness to speak. Unluckily she had not much to tell. Lieut. Feraud had returned home shortly before ten, had walked straight into his room, and had thrown himself on his bed to resume his slumbers. She had heard him snore rather louder than before far into the afternoon. Then he got up, put on his best uniform, and went out. That was all she knew.
Lieut. D’Hubert’s natural kindness and strong sense of camaraderie enhanced his observational skills. He softened his voice to a gentle tone and, glancing at the hussar’s breeches draped over the girl’s arm, he appealed to her concern for Lieut. Feraud’s comfort and happiness. He was persistent and persuasive. He used his kind and attractive eyes to great effect. His eagerness to immediately reach out to Lieut. Feraud, for Feraud’s own good, seemed so sincere that it eventually convinced the girl to talk. Unfortunately, she didn’t have much to share. Lieut. Feraud had come home just before ten, walked straight into his room, and thrown himself on his bed to continue sleeping. She heard him snoring louder than before well into the afternoon. Then he got up, put on his best uniform, and went out. That was all she knew.
She raised her eyes, and Lieut. D’Hubert stared into them incredulously.
She lifted her gaze, and Lieut. D’Hubert looked into her eyes in disbelief.
“It’s incredible. Gone parading the town in his best uniform! My dear child, don’t you know he ran that civilian through this morning? Clean through, as you spit a hare.”
“It’s amazing. He’s out showing off in his best uniform! My dear child, don’t you know he took out that civilian this morning? Just like you’d shoot a hare.”
The pretty maid heard the gruesome intelligence without any signs of distress. But she pressed her lips together thoughtfully.
The pretty maid heard the shocking news without showing any signs of upset. But she pressed her lips together in thought.
“He isn’t parading the town,” she remarked in a low tone. “Far from it.”
“He's not showing off in town,” she said quietly. “Not at all.”
“The civilian’s family is making an awful row,” continued Lieut. D’Hubert, pursuing his train of thought. “And the general is very angry. It’s one of the best families in the town. Feraud ought to have kept close at least—”
“The civilian’s family is making a terrible noise,” continued Lieut. D’Hubert, following his train of thought. “And the general is really upset. It’s one of the best families in town. Feraud should have at least stayed close—”
“What will the general do to him?” inquired the girl, anxiously.
“What will the general do to him?” the girl asked nervously.
“He won’t have his head cut off, to be sure,” grumbled Lieut. D’Hubert. “His conduct is positively indecent. He’s making no end of trouble for himself by this sort of bravado.”
“He definitely won’t get his head chopped off,” grumbled Lieut. D’Hubert. “His behavior is downright inappropriate. He’s creating endless trouble for himself with this kind of show-off attitude.”
“But he isn’t parading the town,” the maid insisted in a shy murmur.
“But he isn’t showing off around town,” the maid insisted in a soft voice.
“Why, yes! Now I think of it, I haven’t seen him anywhere about. What on earth has he done with himself?”
“Actually, now that I think about it, I haven’t seen him anywhere around. What on earth has he been up to?”
“He’s gone to pay a call,” suggested the maid, after a moment of silence.
“He's gone to visit,” suggested the maid, after a moment of silence.
Lieut. D’Hubert started.
Lieutenant D’Hubert started.
“A call! Do you mean a call on a lady? The cheek of the man! And how do you know this, my dear?”
“A call! Are you talking about a visit to a lady? How rude of him! And how do you know this, my dear?”
Without concealing her woman’s scorn for the denseness of the masculine mind, the pretty maid reminded him that Lieut. Feraud had arrayed himself in his best uniform before going out. He had also put on his newest dolman, she added, in a tone as if this conversation were getting on her nerves, and turned away brusquely.
Without hiding her disdain for the male mindset, the pretty maid pointed out that Lieutenant Feraud had put on his best uniform before heading out. She also mentioned, in a tone that suggested the conversation was starting to annoy her, that he had worn his newest dolman, and she turned away sharply.
Lieut. D’Hubert, without questioning the accuracy of the deduction, did not see that it advanced him much on his official quest. For his quest after Lieut. Feraud had an official character. He did not know any of the women this fellow, who had run a man through in the morning, was likely to visit in the afternoon. The two young men knew each other but slightly. He bit his gloved finger in perplexity.
Lieut. D’Hubert, while not doubting the correctness of the conclusion, didn’t see how it would help him much in his official search. His search for Lieut. Feraud had an official purpose. He was unaware of any women this guy, who had stabbed a man earlier that day, might be planning to see later. The two young men were only slightly acquainted. He bit his gloved finger in confusion.
“Call!” he exclaimed. “Call on the devil!”
“Call!” he shouted. “Call on the devil!”
The girl, with her back to him, and folding the hussars breeches on a chair, protested with a vexed little laugh:
The girl, facing away from him and folding the hussar's pants on a chair, expressed her irritation with a frustrated little laugh:
“Oh, dear, no! On Madame de Lionne.”
“Oh, no! Not Madame de Lionne.”
Lieut. D’Hubert whistled softly. Madame de Lionne was the wife of a high official who had a well-known salon and some pretensions to sensibility and elegance. The husband was a civilian, and old; but the society of the salon was young and military. Lieut. D’Hubert had whistled, not because the idea of pursuing Lieut. Feraud into that very salon was disagreeable to him, but because, having arrived in Strasbourg only lately, he had not had the time as yet to get an introduction to Madame de Lionne. And what was that swashbuckler Feraud doing there, he wondered. He did not seem the sort of man who—
Lieut. D’Hubert whistled softly. Madame de Lionne was the wife of a high-ranking official who ran a well-known salon and had a reputation for sophistication and elegance. Her husband was an older civilian, but the guests at the salon were young and military. Lieut. D’Hubert whistled, not because the thought of chasing Lieut. Feraud into that salon bothered him, but because he had just arrived in Strasbourg and hadn’t had the chance to get introduced to Madame de Lionne yet. And what was that brash Feraud doing there, he wondered. He didn’t seem like the kind of man who—
“Are you certain of what you say?” asked Lieut. D’Hubert.
“Are you sure of what you’re saying?” asked Lieut. D’Hubert.
The girl was perfectly certain. Without turning round to look at him, she explained that the coachman of their next door neighbours knew the maitre-d’hotel of Madame de Lionne. In this way she had her information. And she was perfectly certain. In giving this assurance she sighed. Lieut. Feraud called there nearly every afternoon, she added.
The girl was completely sure. Without turning around to look at him, she explained that the coachman of their neighbors next door knew the maitre d' of Madame de Lionne. That was how she got her information. And she was completely sure. As she gave this assurance, she sighed. Lieutenant Feraud stopped by there almost every afternoon, she added.
“Ah, bah!” exclaimed D’Hubert, ironically. His opinion of Madame de Lionne went down several degrees. Lieut. Feraud did not seem to him specially worthy of attention on the part of a woman with a reputation for sensibility and elegance. But there was no saying. At bottom they were all alike—very practical rather than idealistic. Lieut. D’Hubert, however, did not allow his mind to dwell on these considerations.
“Ugh, whatever!” D’Hubert said sarcastically. His impression of Madame de Lionne dropped several points. Lieutenant Feraud didn't seem particularly deserving of attention from a woman known for her sensitivity and grace. But who knows? Deep down, they were all pretty much the same—more practical than idealistic. Still, Lieutenant D’Hubert didn’t let himself focus on these thoughts.
“By thunder!” he reflected aloud. “The general goes there sometimes. If he happens to find the fellow making eyes at the lady there will be the devil to pay! Our general is not a very accommodating person, I can tell you.”
“By thunder!” he said, thinking out loud. “The general goes there sometimes. If he catches that guy checking out the lady, there will be hell to pay! Our general is not very easy to deal with, I can tell you.”
“Go quickly, then! Don’t stand here now I’ve told you where he is!” cried the girl, colouring to the eyes.
“Go quickly, then! Don’t just stand here now that I’ve told you where he is!” the girl shouted, blushing bright red.
“Thanks, my dear! I don’t know what I would have done without you.”
“Thanks, my dear! I don’t know what I would have done without you.”
After manifesting his gratitude in an aggressive way, which at first was repulsed violently, and then submitted to with a sudden and still more repellent indifference, Lieut. D’Hubert took his departure.
After showing his gratitude in a forceful manner, which was initially met with strong rejection and then accepted with a sudden and even more unwelcoming indifference, Lieutenant D’Hubert left.
He clanked and jingled along the streets with a martial swagger. To run a comrade to earth in a drawing-room where he was not known did not trouble him in the least. A uniform is a passport. His position as officier d’ordonnance of the general added to his assurance. Moreover, now that he knew where to find Lieut. Feraud, he had no option. It was a service matter.
He rattled and jangled down the streets with a confident stride. Tracking down a comrade in a drawing-room where he wasn’t recognized didn’t bother him at all. A uniform is like a VIP pass. His role as the general's aide boosted his confidence. Besides, now that he knew where to find Lieutenant Feraud, he had no choice. It was a matter of duty.
Madame de Lionne’s house had an excellent appearance. A man in livery, opening the door of a large drawing-room with a waxed floor, shouted his name and stood aside to let him pass. It was a reception day. The ladies wore big hats surcharged with a profusion of feathers; their bodies sheathed in clinging white gowns, from the armpits to the tips of the low satin shoes, looked sylph-like and cool in a great display of bare necks and arms. The men who talked with them, on the contrary, were arrayed heavily in multi-coloured garments with collars up to their ears and thick sashes round their waists. Lieut. D’Hubert made his unabashed way across the room and, bowing low before a sylph-like form reclining on a couch, offered his apologies for this intrusion, which nothing could excuse but the extreme urgency of the service order he had to communicate to his comrade Feraud. He proposed to himself to return presently in a more regular manner and beg forgiveness for interrupting the interesting conversation . . .
Madame de Lionne's house looked impressive. A servant in uniform opened the door to a large drawing-room with a shiny floor, announced his name, and stepped aside to let him in. It was a reception day. The ladies wore large hats adorned with lots of feathers; their bodies draped in fitted white dresses, from the armpits to the tips of their low satin shoes, looked graceful and cool, showcasing a lot of bare necks and arms. The men talking to them, on the other hand, were dressed heavily in colorful outfits with high collars and thick sashes around their waists. Lieut. D'Hubert confidently crossed the room and, bowing low before a graceful figure lounging on a couch, apologized for his interruption, which nothing could justify except the urgent service order he needed to deliver to his comrade Feraud. He planned to come back later in a more proper way and ask for forgiveness for cutting into their interesting conversation...
A bare arm was extended towards him with gracious nonchalance even before he had finished speaking. He pressed the hand respectfully to his lips, and made the mental remark that it was bony. Madame de Lionne was a blonde, with too fine a skin and a long face.
A bare arm reached out to him with casual grace even before he finished speaking. He pressed the hand respectfully to his lips and thought to himself that it felt bony. Madame de Lionne was a blonde, with delicate skin and a long face.
“C’est ca!” she said, with an ethereal smile, disclosing a set of large teeth. “Come this evening to plead for your forgiveness.”
“That's it!” she said, with a dreamy smile, showing off a set of large teeth. “Come this evening to ask for your forgiveness.”
“I will not fail, madame.”
“I won't fail, ma'am.”
Meantime, Lieut. Feraud, splendid in his new dolman and the extremely polished boots of his calling, sat on a chair within a foot of the couch, one hand resting on his thigh, the other twirling his moustache to a point. At a significant glance from D’Hubert he rose without alacrity, and followed him into the recess of a window.
In the meantime, Lieutenant Feraud, looking sharp in his new uniform and his highly polished boots, sat in a chair just a foot away from the couch. One hand rested on his thigh while the other twirled his mustache to a point. At a meaningful look from D’Hubert, he stood up reluctantly and followed him into the corner by the window.
“What is it you want with me?” he asked, with astonishing indifference. Lieut. D’Hubert could not imagine that in the innocence of his heart and simplicity of his conscience Lieut. Feraud took a view of his duel in which neither remorse nor yet a rational apprehension of consequences had any place. Though he had no clear recollection how the quarrel had originated (it was begun in an establishment where beer and wine are drunk late at night), he had not the slightest doubt of being himself the outraged party. He had had two experienced friends for his seconds. Everything had been done according to the rules governing that sort of adventures. And a duel is obviously fought for the purpose of someone being at least hurt, if not killed outright. The civilian got hurt. That also was in order. Lieut. Feraud was perfectly tranquil; but Lieut. D’Hubert took it for affectation, and spoke with a certain vivacity.
"What do you want from me?" he asked, with surprising indifference. Lieutenant D’Hubert couldn’t believe that Lieutenant Feraud, in his heart’s innocence and straightforward conscience, viewed their duel without any remorse or real understanding of the consequences. He couldn’t quite remember how the argument had started (it had begun in a place where people drank beer and wine late into the night), but he had no doubt he was the one who had been wronged. He had brought along two experienced friends as his seconds. Everything had been done according to the rules for these kinds of situations. And a duel is obviously meant for someone to get at least hurt, if not killed outright. The civilian got hurt. That was all part of it. Lieutenant Feraud seemed completely calm; however, Lieutenant D’Hubert thought that was just an act, and he spoke with a certain energy.
“I am directed by the general to give you the order to go at once to your quarters, and remain there under close arrest.”
“I’ve been instructed by the general to tell you to go straight to your quarters and stay there under close arrest.”
It was now the turn of Lieut. Feraud to be astonished. “What the devil are you telling me there?” he murmured, faintly, and fell into such profound wonder that he could only follow mechanically the motions of Lieut. D’Hubert. The two officers, one tall, with an interesting face and a moustache the colour of ripe corn, the other, short and sturdy, with a hooked nose and a thick crop of black curly hair, approached the mistress of the house to take their leave. Madame de Lionne, a woman of eclectic taste, smiled upon these armed young men with impartial sensibility and an equal share of interest. Madame de Lionne took her delight in the infinite variety of the human species. All the other eyes in the drawing-room followed the departing officers; and when they had gone out one or two men, who had already heard of the duel, imparted the information to the sylph-like ladies, who received it with faint shrieks of humane concern.
Now it was Lieut. Feraud's turn to be shocked. “What on earth are you telling me?” he murmured weakly, falling into such deep amazement that he could only mechanically follow Lieut. D’Hubert's movements. The two officers—one tall with an interesting face and a mustache the color of ripe corn, the other short and sturdy with a hooked nose and a thick head of black curly hair—approached the lady of the house to say their goodbyes. Madame de Lionne, a woman with eclectic tastes, smiled at these armed young men with impartial interest. She took delight in the endless variety of humanity. All the other eyes in the drawing room followed the departing officers, and when they had left, one or two men who had already heard about the duel shared the news with the delicate ladies, who reacted with faint shrieks of concern.
Meantime, the two hussars walked side by side, Lieut. Feraud trying to master the hidden reason of things which in this instance eluded the grasp of his intellect, Lieut. D’Hubert feeling annoyed at the part he had to play, because the general’s instructions were that he should see personally that Lieut. Feraud carried out his orders to the letter, and at once.
Meantime, the two hussars walked side by side, Lieutenant Feraud trying to understand the underlying reasons behind things that, in this case, were out of his reach, while Lieutenant D’Hubert felt annoyed at the role he had to play since the general had instructed him to personally ensure that Lieutenant Feraud followed his orders exactly and immediately.
“The chief seems to know this animal,” he thought, eyeing his companion, whose round face, the round eyes, and even the twisted-up jet black little moustache seemed animated by a mental exasperation against the incomprehensible. And aloud he observed rather reproachfully, “The general is in a devilish fury with you!”
“The chief seems to recognize this creature,” he thought, looking at his companion, whose chubby face, wide eyes, and even twisted little black moustache seemed filled with a frustration towards the baffling situation. Then he said somewhat reproachfully, “The general is really furious with you!”
Lieut. Feraud stopped short on the edge of the pavement, and cried in accents of unmistakable sincerity, “What on earth for?” The innocence of the fiery Gascon soul was depicted in the manner in which he seized his head in both hands as if to prevent it bursting with perplexity.
Lieut. Feraud halted abruptly at the curb and exclaimed with genuine sincerity, “What on earth for?” The innocence of his passionate Gascon spirit was clear as he clutched his head with both hands, as if to keep it from exploding with confusion.
“For the duel,” said Lieut. D’Hubert, curtly. He was annoyed greatly by this sort of perverse fooling.
“For the duel,” said Lieut. D’Hubert, shortly. He was really annoyed by this kind of ridiculous teasing.
“The duel! The . . .”
“The duel! The . . .”
Lieut. Feraud passed from one paroxysm of astonishment into another. He dropped his hands and walked on slowly, trying to reconcile this information with the state of his own feelings. It was impossible. He burst out indignantly, “Was I to let that sauerkraut-eating civilian wipe his boots on the uniform of the 7th Hussars?”
Lieut. Feraud went from one shock to another. He dropped his hands and walked slowly, trying to make sense of this news with how he felt. It was impossible. He exclaimed angrily, “Was I supposed to let that sauerkraut-eating civilian wipe his boots on the uniform of the 7th Hussars?”
Lieut. D’Hubert could not remain altogether unmoved by that simple sentiment. This little fellow was a lunatic, he thought to himself, but there was something in what he said.
Lieut. D’Hubert couldn't stay completely unaffected by that simple sentiment. This little guy was a lunatic, he thought to himself, but there was some truth in what he said.
“Of course, I don’t know how far you were justified,” he began, soothingly. “And the general himself may not be exactly informed. Those people have been deafening him with their lamentations.”
“Of course, I don’t know how justified you were,” he started, trying to be calming. “And the general himself may not have the full picture. Those people have been overwhelming him with their complaints.”
“Ah! the general is not exactly informed,” mumbled Lieut. Feraud, walking faster and faster as his choler at the injustice of his fate began to rise. “He is not exactly . . . And he orders me under close arrest, with God knows what afterwards!”
“Ah! The general doesn't really have all the facts,” mumbled Lieut. Feraud, walking faster and faster as his anger at the injustice of his situation started to build. “He doesn't really... And he puts me under close arrest, with who knows what comes next!”
“Don’t excite yourself like this,” remonstrated the other. “Your adversary’s people are very influential, you know, and it looks bad enough on the face of it. The general had to take notice of their complaint at once. I don’t think he means to be over-severe with you. It’s the best thing for you to be kept out of sight for a while.”
“Don’t get worked up like this,” the other person said. “Your opponent’s team is really powerful, you know, and it already looks bad. The general had to address their complaint immediately. I don’t think he plans to be too harsh with you. It’s really best for you to stay out of the spotlight for a bit.”
“I am very much obliged to the general,” muttered Lieut. Feraud through his teeth. “And perhaps you would say I ought to be grateful to you, too, for the trouble you have taken to hunt me up in the drawing-room of a lady who—”
“I really owe a lot to the general,” Lieut. Feraud grumbled under his breath. “And maybe you think I should be thankful to you as well, for the effort you made to find me in the drawing-room of a lady who—”
“Frankly,” interrupted Lieut. D’Hubert, with an innocent laugh, “I think you ought to be. I had no end of trouble to find out where you were. It wasn’t exactly the place for you to disport yourself in under the circumstances. If the general had caught you there making eyes at the goddess of the temple . . . oh, my word! . . . He hates to be bothered with complaints against his officers, you know. And it looked uncommonly like sheer bravado.”
“Honestly,” interrupted Lieutenant D’Hubert with a light laugh, “I think you should be. I had a ton of trouble finding out where you were. It really wasn’t the right place for you to be hanging out given the situation. If the general had seen you flirting with the goddess of the temple... oh my gosh! He really hates dealing with complaints about his officers, you know. And it definitely looked like pure arrogance.”
The two officers had arrived now at the street door of Lieut. Feraud’s lodgings. The latter turned towards his companion. “Lieut. D’Hubert,” he said, “I have something to say to you, which can’t be said very well in the street. You can’t refuse to come up.”
The two officers had now reached the front door of Lieut. Feraud’s apartment. Feraud turned to his companion. “Lieut. D’Hubert,” he said, “I need to talk to you about something that isn’t suited for the street. You have to come up.”
The pretty maid had opened the door. Lieut. Feraud brushed past her brusquely, and she raised her scared and questioning eyes to Lieut. D’Hubert, who could do nothing but shrug his shoulders slightly as he followed with marked reluctance.
The pretty maid had opened the door. Lieutenant Feraud pushed past her roughly, and she looked up at Lieutenant D'Hubert with scared and questioning eyes, who could only shrug his shoulders slightly as he followed along with noticeable reluctance.
In his room Lieut. Feraud unhooked the clasp, flung his new dolman on the bed, and, folding his arms across his chest, turned to the other hussar.
In his room, Lieutenant Feraud unfastened the clasp, tossed his new dolman onto the bed, and, crossing his arms over his chest, faced the other hussar.
“Do you imagine I am a man to submit tamely to injustice?” he inquired, in a boisterous voice.
“Do you think I’m the kind of guy who will just accept injustice?” he asked, in a loud voice.
“Oh, do be reasonable!” remonstrated Lieut. D’Hubert.
“Oh, come on, be reasonable!” protested Lieut. D’Hubert.
“I am reasonable! I am perfectly reasonable!” retorted the other with ominous restraint. “I can’t call the general to account for his behaviour, but you are going to answer me for yours.”
“I’m perfectly reasonable! I really am!” the other replied with a warning calmness. “I can’t hold the general responsible for his actions, but you’re going to answer for yours.”
“I can’t listen to this nonsense,” murmured Lieut. D’Hubert, making a slightly contemptuous grimace.
“I can’t listen to this nonsense,” murmured Lieut. D’Hubert, making a slightly disdainful face.
“You call this nonsense? It seems to me a perfectly plain statement. Unless you don’t understand French.”
“You think this is nonsense? To me, it seems like a perfectly straightforward statement. Unless you don’t understand French.”
“What on earth do you mean?”
“What do you mean?”
“I mean,” screamed suddenly Lieut. Feraud, “to cut off your ears to teach you to disturb me with the general’s orders when I am talking to a lady!”
“I mean,” shouted Lieut. Feraud suddenly, “I’ll cut off your ears to teach you not to interrupt me with the general’s orders when I’m talking to a lady!”
A profound silence followed this mad declaration; and through the open window Lieut. D’Hubert heard the little birds singing sanely in the garden. He said, preserving his calm, “Why! If you take that tone, of course I shall hold myself at your disposition whenever you are at liberty to attend to this affair; but I don’t think you will cut my ears off.”
A deep silence followed this crazy declaration, and through the open window, Lieutenant D’Hubert heard the little birds chirping normally in the garden. He said, keeping his cool, “Well! If you’re going to talk like that, then of course I’ll be available whenever you’re free to deal with this matter; but I don’t think you’ll actually cut my ears off.”
“I am going to attend to it at once,” declared Lieut. Feraud, with extreme truculence. “If you are thinking of displaying your airs and graces to-night in Madame de Lionne’s salon you are very much mistaken.”
“I’m going to take care of it right now,” declared Lieut. Feraud, with a lot of aggression. “If you think you’re going to show off in Madame de Lionne’s salon tonight, you’re seriously mistaken.”
“Really!” said Lieut. D’Hubert, who was beginning to feel irritated, “you are an impracticable sort of fellow. The general’s orders to me were to put you under arrest, not to carve you into small pieces. Good-morning!” And turning his back on the little Gascon, who, always sober in his potations, was as though born intoxicated with the sunshine of his vine-ripening country, the Northman, who could drink hard on occasion, but was born sober under the watery skies of Picardy, made for the door. Hearing, however, the unmistakable sound behind his back of a sword drawn from the scabbard, he had no option but to stop.
“Really!” said Lieut. D’Hubert, who was starting to feel annoyed, “you’re an impossible guy. The general ordered me to put you under arrest, not to chop you into pieces. Good morning!” And as he turned his back on the little Gascon, who, always sober when it came to drinking, seemed like he was born under the intoxication of the sunshine in his grape-growing homeland, the Northman, who could drink heavily when he wanted to but was raised sober in the rainy skies of Picardy, walked towards the door. However, upon hearing the unmistakable sound of a sword being drawn from its scabbard behind him, he had no choice but to stop.
“Devil take this mad Southerner!” he thought, spinning round and surveying with composure the warlike posture of Lieut. Feraud, with a bare sword in his hand.
"To hell with this crazy Southerner!" he thought, turning around and calmly assessing the aggressive stance of Lieutenant Feraud, who held a drawn sword in his hand.
“At once!—at once!” stuttered Feraud, beside himself.
“At once!—at once!” stammered Feraud, beside himself.
“You had my answer,” said the other, keeping his temper very well.
“You had my answer,” said the other, staying pretty calm.
At first he had been only vexed, and somewhat amused; but now his face got clouded. He was asking himself seriously how he could manage to get away. It was impossible to run from a man with a sword, and as to fighting him, it seemed completely out of the question. He waited awhile, then said exactly what was in his heart.
At first, he was just annoyed and a bit amused, but now his expression turned serious. He was really thinking about how he could escape. It was impossible to run from someone with a sword, and fighting him seemed totally out of the question. After a moment, he said exactly what he was feeling.
“Drop this! I won’t fight with you. I won’t be made ridiculous.”
“Leave this! I’m not going to argue with you. I won’t be humiliated.”
“Ah, you won’t?” hissed the Gascon. “I suppose you prefer to be made infamous. Do you hear what I say? . . . Infamous! Infamous! Infamous!” he shrieked, rising and falling on his toes and getting very red in the face.
“Ah, you won’t?” hissed the Gascon. “I guess you’d rather be made notorious. Do you hear what I’m saying? . . . Notorious! Notorious! Notorious!” he shouted, rising and falling on his toes and getting very red in the face.
Lieut. D’Hubert, on the contrary, became very pale at the sound of the unsavoury word for a moment, then flushed pink to the roots of his fair hair. “But you can’t go out to fight; you are under arrest, you lunatic!” he objected, with angry scorn.
Lieut. D'Hubert, on the other hand, turned very pale at the mention of the unpleasant word for a moment, then his face flushed pink all the way to the roots of his fair hair. “But you can’t go out to fight; you’re under arrest, you idiot!” he protested, filled with anger and disdain.
“There’s the garden: it’s big enough to lay out your long carcass in,” spluttered the other with such ardour that somehow the anger of the cooler man subsided.
“There’s the garden: it’s big enough to stretch out your long body in,” spluttered the other with such intensity that somehow the anger of the calmer man faded away.
“This is perfectly absurd,” he said, glad enough to think he had found a way out of it for the moment. “We shall never get any of our comrades to serve as seconds. It’s preposterous.”
“This is totally ridiculous,” he said, feeling relieved to think he had figured out a way out of it for the moment. “We’ll never get any of our friends to act as seconds. It’s insane.”
“Seconds! Damn the seconds! We don’t want any seconds. Don’t you worry about any seconds. I shall send word to your friends to come and bury you when I am done. And if you want any witnesses, I’ll send word to the old girl to put her head out of a window at the back. Stay! There’s the gardener. He’ll do. He’s as deaf as a post, but he has two eyes in his head. Come along! I will teach you, my staff officer, that the carrying about of a general’s orders is not always child’s play.”
“Seconds! Damn the seconds! We don’t want any seconds. Don’t worry about any seconds. I’ll let your friends know to come and bury you when I’m done. And if you want any witnesses, I’ll tell the old girl to stick her head out of a window in the back. Wait! There’s the gardener. He’ll do. He’s as deaf as a post, but he’s got two eyes in his head. Come on! I’m going to show you, my staff officer, that delivering a general’s orders isn’t always a walk in the park.”
While thus discoursing he had unbuckled his empty scabbard. He sent it flying under the bed, and, lowering the point of the sword, brushed past the perplexed Lieut. D’Hubert, exclaiming, “Follow me!” Directly he had flung open the door a faint shriek was heard and the pretty maid, who had been listening at the keyhole, staggered away, putting the backs of her hands over her eyes. Feraud did not seem to see her, but she ran after him and seized his left arm. He shook her off, and then she rushed towards Lieut. D’Hubert and clawed at the sleeve of his uniform.
While talking, he unbuckled his empty scabbard and tossed it under the bed. Lowering his sword, he brushed past the confused Lieut. D’Hubert, shouting, “Follow me!” As soon as he threw open the door, a faint scream was heard, and the pretty maid, who had been eavesdropping at the keyhole, staggered back, covering her eyes with the backs of her hands. Feraud didn’t seem to notice her, but she ran after him and grabbed his left arm. He shook her off, and then she rushed toward Lieut. D’Hubert and clutched at the sleeve of his uniform.
“Wretched man!” she sobbed. “Is this what you wanted to find him for?”
“Poor guy!” she cried. “Is this why you wanted to find him?”
“Let me go,” entreated Lieut. D’Hubert, trying to disengage himself gently. “It’s like being in a madhouse,” he protested, with exasperation. “Do let me go! I won’t do him any harm.”
“Let me go,” begged Lieut. D’Hubert, trying to free himself gently. “It’s like being in a crazy house,” he stated, frustrated. “Please let me go! I won’t hurt him.”
A fiendish laugh from Lieut. Feraud commented that assurance. “Come along!” he shouted, with a stamp of his foot.
A wicked laugh from Lieutenant Feraud responded to that confidence. “Come on!” he shouted, stomping his foot.
And Lieut. D’Hubert did follow. He could do nothing else. Yet in vindication of his sanity it must be recorded that as he passed through the ante-room the notion of opening the street door and bolting out presented itself to this brave youth, only of course to be instantly dismissed, for he felt sure that the other would pursue him without shame or compunction. And the prospect of an officer of hussars being chased along the street by another officer of hussars with a naked sword could not be for a moment entertained. Therefore he followed into the garden. Behind them the girl tottered out, too. With ashy lips and wild, scared eyes, she surrendered herself to a dreadful curiosity. She had also the notion of rushing if need be between Lieut. Feraud and death.
And Lieutenant D’Hubert followed. He had no other choice. Yet, to show he was sane, it should be noted that as he passed through the hallway, the idea of opening the front door and running away crossed his mind. He quickly dismissed it, though, knowing that the other would pursue him without any shame or guilt. The thought of one hussar officer being chased down the street by another hussar officer waving a drawn sword was not something he could entertain for even a moment. So, he went into the garden. Behind them, the girl stumbled out as well. With pale lips and wide, frightened eyes, she gave in to a horrifying curiosity. She also considered rushing to stand between Lieutenant Feraud and death if it came to that.
The deaf gardener, utterly unconscious of approaching footsteps, went on watering his flowers till Lieut. Feraud thumped him on the back. Beholding suddenly an enraged man flourishing a big sabre, the old chap trembling in all his limbs dropped the watering-pot. At once Lieut. Feraud kicked it away with great animosity, and, seizing the gardener by the throat, backed him against a tree. He held him there, shouting in his ear, “Stay here, and look on! You understand? You’ve got to look on! Don’t dare budge from the spot!”
The deaf gardener, completely unaware of the approaching footsteps, continued watering his flowers until Lieut. Feraud slammed his hand on his back. When he suddenly saw an angry man wielding a big sword, the old man shook with fear and dropped the watering pot. Immediately, Lieut. Feraud kicked it away with intense anger and grabbed the gardener by the throat, pushing him against a tree. He held him there, yelling in his ear, “Stay right here and watch! Do you understand? You have to watch! Don’t even think about moving from this spot!”
Lieut. D’Hubert came slowly down the walk, unclasping his dolman with unconcealed disgust. Even then, with his hand already on the hilt of his sword, he hesitated to draw till a roar, “En garde, fichtre! What do you think you came here for?” and the rush of his adversary forced him to put himself as quickly as possible in a posture of defence.
Lieut. D’Hubert walked slowly down the path, unbuttoning his coat with clear disgust. Even then, with his hand already on the hilt of his sword, he hesitated to draw it until he heard a shout, “En garde, damn it! What do you think you came here for?” The rush of his opponent forced him to quickly get into a defensive stance.
The clash of arms filled that prim garden, which hitherto had known no more warlike sound than the click of clipping shears; and presently the upper part of an old lady’s body was projected out of a window upstairs. She tossed her arms above her white cap, scolding in a cracked voice. The gardener remained glued to the tree, his toothless mouth open in idiotic astonishment, and a little farther up the path the pretty girl, as if spellbound to a small grass plot, ran a few steps this way and that, wringing her hands and muttering crazily. She did not rush between the combatants: the onslaughts of Lieut. Feraud were so fierce that her heart failed her. Lieut. D’Hubert, his faculties concentrated upon defence, needed all his skill and science of the sword to stop the rushes of his adversary. Twice already he had to break ground. It bothered him to feel his foothold made insecure by the round, dry gravel of the path rolling under the hard soles of his boots. This was most unsuitable ground, he thought, keeping a watchful, narrowed gaze, shaded by long eyelashes, upon the fiery stare of his thick-set adversary. This absurd affair would ruin his reputation of a sensible, well-behaved, promising young officer. It would damage, at any rate, his immediate prospects, and lose him the good-will of his general. These worldly preoccupations were no doubt misplaced in view of the solemnity of the moment. A duel, whether regarded as a ceremony in the cult of honour, or even when reduced in its moral essence to a form of manly sport, demands a perfect singleness of intention, a homicidal austerity of mood. On the other hand, this vivid concern for his future had not a bad effect inasmuch as it began to rouse the anger of Lieut. D’Hubert. Some seventy seconds had elapsed since they had crossed blades, and Lieut. D’Hubert had to break ground again in order to avoid impaling his reckless adversary like a beetle for a cabinet of specimens. The result was that misapprehending the motive, Lieut. Feraud with a triumphant sort of snarl pressed his attack.
The sound of battle filled the once-quiet garden, which had only known the gentle noise of pruning shears before. Soon, an older woman leaned out of an upstairs window, waving her arms above her white cap and scolding in a high-pitched voice. The gardener stood frozen by the tree, his toothless mouth agape in dumbfounded shock, while a pretty girl further down the path seemed trapped in a small patch of grass, running a few steps back and forth, wringing her hands and muttering to herself. She didn’t rush between the fighters; the ferocity of Lieutenant Feraud's attacks intimidated her. Lieutenant D’Hubert, fully focused on defending himself, had to use all his skill and fencing techniques to block his opponent's assaults. He had already been forced to retreat twice and was frustrated to feel the ground beneath him shifting with the dry gravel rolling under his hard-soled boots. He thought that this was the worst possible ground to be on, keeping a wary, narrowed gaze shaded by his long eyelashes fixed on the intense stare of his stocky opponent. This ridiculous situation could ruin his reputation as a sensible, well-mannered, and promising young officer. It would negatively impact his immediate prospects and jeopardize his relationship with his general. These concerns were probably misdirected considering the seriousness of the situation. A duel, whether seen as a ritual of honor or simply a form of manly sport, required a focused mindset and a serious attitude. However, this deep worry about his future began to stir Lieutenant D’Hubert's anger. About seventy seconds had passed since their blades met, and he had to step back again to avoid skewering his reckless opponent like a bug for a collection. Misunderstanding D’Hubert's retreat, Lieutenant Feraud sneered triumphantly and redoubled his attack.
“This enraged animal will have me against the wall directly,” thought Lieut. D’Hubert. He imagined himself much closer to the house than he was, and he dared not turn his head; it seemed to him that he was keeping his adversary off with his eyes rather more than with his point. Lieut. Feraud crouched and bounded with a fierce tigerish agility fit to trouble the stoutest heart. But what was more appalling than the fury of a wild beast, accomplishing in all innocence of heart a natural function, was the fixity of savage purpose man alone is capable of displaying. Lieut. D ‘Hubert in the midst of his worldly preoccupations perceived it at last. It was an absurd and damaging affair to be drawn into, but whatever silly intention the fellow had started with, it was clear enough that by this time he meant to kill—nothing less. He meant it with an intensity of will utterly beyond the inferior faculties of a tiger.
“This enraged animal is going to have me cornered,” thought Lieut. D’Hubert. He pictured himself much closer to the house than he really was, and he didn’t dare turn his head; it felt like he was keeping his opponent at bay more with his gaze than with his weapon. Lieut. Feraud crouched and leaped with a fierce, tiger-like agility that could scare the bravest of hearts. But what was more terrifying than the ferocity of a wild animal, innocently performing a natural instinct, was the unwavering, savage determination that only a human can show. In the midst of his worldly worries, Lieut. D’Hubert finally recognized it. It was a ridiculous and dangerous situation to be involved in, but whatever foolish intentions this guy had started with, it was clear now that he meant to kill—nothing less. He was committed to it with a level of willpower far beyond what a tiger could muster.
As is the case with constitutionally brave men, the full view of the danger interested Lieut. D’Hubert. And directly he got properly interested, the length of his arm and the coolness of his head told in his favour. It was the turn of Lieut. Feraud to recoil, with a bloodcurdling grunt of baffled rage. He made a swift feint, and then rushed straight forward.
Just like any truly courageous person, Lieut. D’Hubert was fully aware of the danger. As soon as he became genuinely focused, his reach and calm demeanor worked to his advantage. It was Lieut. Feraud's turn to back off, letting out a chilling grunt of frustration. He made a quick fake move and then charged straight ahead.
“Ah! you would, would you?” Lieut. D’Hubert exclaimed, mentally. The combat had lasted nearly two minutes, time enough for any man to get embittered, apart from the merits of the quarrel. And all at once it was over. Trying to close breast to breast under his adversary’s guard Lieut. Feraud received a slash on his shortened arm. He did not feel it in the least, but it checked his rush, and his feet slipping on the gravel he fell backwards with great violence. The shock jarred his boiling brain into the perfect quietude of insensibility. Simultaneously with his fall the pretty servant-girl shrieked; but the old maiden lady at the window ceased her scolding, and began to cross herself piously.
“Ah! So you would, huh?” Lieutenant D’Hubert thought. The fight had gone on for almost two minutes, long enough for anyone to become resentful, regardless of the reason for the conflict. Then, just like that, it was over. Trying to get close to his opponent, Lieutenant Feraud caught a slash on his shortened arm. He didn’t feel it at all, but it halted his charge, and as his feet slipped on the gravel, he fell backwards with a heavy crash. The impact knocked his racing mind into a complete blank. At the same moment he fell, the pretty servant-girl screamed; however, the elderly lady at the window stopped her scolding and began to cross herself devoutly.
Beholding his adversary stretched out perfectly still, his face to the sky, Lieut. D’Hubert thought he had killed him outright. The impression of having slashed hard enough to cut his man clean in two abode with him for a while in an exaggerated memory of the right good-will he had put into the blow. He dropped on his knees hastily by the side of the prostrate body. Discovering that not even the arm was severed, a slight sense of disappointment mingled with the feeling of relief. The fellow deserved the worst. But truly he did not want the death of that sinner. The affair was ugly enough as it stood, and Lieut. D’Hubert addressed himself at once to the task of stopping the bleeding. In this task it was his fate to be ridiculously impeded by the pretty maid. Rending the air with screams of horror, she attacked him from behind and, twining her fingers in his hair, tugged back at his head. Why she should choose to hinder him at this precise moment he could not in the least understand. He did not try. It was all like a very wicked and harassing dream. Twice to save himself from being pulled over he had to rise and fling her off. He did this stoically, without a word, kneeling down again at once to go on with his work. But the third time, his work being done, he seized her and held her arms pinned to her body. Her cap was half off, her face was red, her eyes blazed with crazy boldness. He looked mildly into them while she called him a wretch, a traitor, and a murderer many times in succession. This did not annoy him so much as the conviction that she had managed to scratch his face abundantly. Ridicule would be added to the scandal of the story. He imagined the adorned tale making its way through the garrison of the town, through the whole army on the frontier, with every possible distortion of motive and sentiment and circumstance, spreading a doubt upon the sanity of his conduct and the distinction of his taste even to the very ears of his honourable family. It was all very well for that fellow Feraud, who had no connections, no family to speak of, and no quality but courage, which, anyhow, was a matter of course, and possessed by every single trooper in the whole mass of French cavalry. Still holding down the arms of the girl in a strong grip, Lieut. D’Hubert glanced over his shoulder. Lieut. Feraud had opened his eyes. He did not move. Like a man just waking from a deep sleep he stared without any expression at the evening sky.
Seeing his opponent lying completely still, face up to the sky, Lieutenant D’Hubert thought he had killed him instantly. The memory of having struck with enough force to cut the man in two lingered with him for a while, inflated by the good intention he had put into the blow. He quickly dropped to his knees beside the fallen body. Realizing that not even the arm was severed, a slight sense of disappointment mixed with relief. The guy deserved the worst. But honestly, he didn’t want that sinner dead. The situation was already messy enough, and Lieutenant D’Hubert immediately focused on stopping the bleeding. To make matters worse, he was comically hindered by the young maid. Screaming in horror, she attacked him from behind, grabbing his hair and pulling his head back. He couldn’t understand why she chose to obstruct him at that moment. He didn’t bother trying. It all felt like a very wicked and annoying dream. Twice, to avoid being pulled over, he had to get up and throw her off. He did this stoically, without saying a word, quickly kneeling down again to continue his work. But the third time, once he finished, he grabbed her and held her arms pinned to her body. Her cap was half off, her face was flushed, and her eyes blazed with wild defiance. He looked calmly into her eyes while she repeatedly called him a wretch, a traitor, and a murderer. He was more annoyed by the realization that she had managed to scratch his face quite a bit. Ridicule would add to the scandal of the situation. He imagined the embellished story making its way through the garrison, spreading throughout the entire army on the frontier, with every possible distortion of motive and feeling, casting doubt on his judgment and taste even to the ears of his esteemed family. It was easy for that guy Feraud, who had no connections, no family to speak of, and no quality except for courage, which was a given and possessed by every single soldier in the entire French cavalry. Still holding the girl’s arms firmly, Lieutenant D’Hubert glanced over his shoulder. Lieutenant Feraud had opened his eyes. He didn’t move. Like someone just waking from a deep sleep, he stared blankly at the evening sky.
Lieut. D’Hubert’s urgent shouts to the old gardener produced no effect—not so much as to make him shut his toothless mouth. Then he remembered that the man was stone deaf. All that time the girl struggled, not with maidenly coyness, but like a pretty, dumb fury, kicking his shins now and then. He continued to hold her as if in a vice, his instinct telling him that were he to let her go she would fly at his eyes. But he was greatly humiliated by his position. At last she gave up. She was more exhausted than appeased, he feared. Nevertheless, he attempted to get out of this wicked dream by way of negotiation.
Lieut. D’Hubert's urgent calls to the old gardener didn't have any effect—he couldn't even get him to close his toothless mouth. Then he remembered that the man was completely deaf. All that time, the girl struggled, not with shy embarrassment, but like a furious little thing, kicking his shins every now and then. He kept holding her like she was in a vise, his instincts telling him that if he let her go, she would lunge for his eyes. But he felt deeply embarrassed by his situation. Finally, she gave up. He feared she was more worn out than satisfied. Still, he tried to escape this nightmare through negotiation.
“Listen to me,” he said, as calmly as he could. “Will you promise to run for a surgeon if I let you go?”
“Listen to me,” he said, as calmly as he could. “Will you promise to run for a surgeon if I let you go?”
With real affliction he heard her declare that she would do nothing of the kind. On the contrary, her sobbed out intention was to remain in the garden, and fight tooth and nail for the protection of the vanquished man. This was shocking.
With genuine distress, he heard her say that she wouldn’t do anything like that. On the contrary, her tearful intention was to stay in the garden and fight fiercely to protect the defeated man. This was unbelievable.
“My dear child!” he cried in despair, “is it possible that you think me capable of murdering a wounded adversary? Is it. . . . Be quiet, you little wild cat, you!”
“My dear child!” he exclaimed in despair, “do you really think I'm capable of murdering a wounded opponent? Is it... Be quiet, you little wildcat, you!”
They struggled. A thick, drowsy voice said behind him, “What are you after with that girl?”
They struggled. A deep, sleepy voice called out behind him, “What do you want with that girl?”
Lieut. Feraud had raised himself on his good arm. He was looking sleepily at his other arm, at the mess of blood on his uniform, at a small red pool on the ground, at his sabre lying a foot away on the path. Then he laid himself down gently again to think it all out, as far as a thundering headache would permit of mental operations.
Lieut. Feraud propped himself up on his good arm. He was sleepily staring at his other arm, at the blood smeared on his uniform, at a small red puddle on the ground, and at his sword resting a foot away on the path. Then he carefully lay back down to think it all through, as much as his pounding headache allowed for any clear thinking.
Lieut. D’Hubert released the girl who crouched at once by the side of the other lieutenant. The shades of night were falling on the little trim garden with this touching group, whence proceeded low murmurs of sorrow and compassion, with other feeble sounds of a different character, as if an imperfectly awake invalid were trying to swear. Lieut. D’Hubert went away.
Lieut. D’Hubert let go of the girl, who immediately crouched next to the other lieutenant. The darkness was setting in on the small, tidy garden with this moving group, where soft whispers of grief and empathy emerged, along with some weak, different sounds, as if a half-awake patient was trying to curse. Lieut. D’Hubert walked away.
He passed through the silent house, and congratulated himself upon the dusk concealing his gory hands and scratched face from the passers-by. But this story could by no means be concealed. He dreaded the discredit and ridicule above everything, and was painfully aware of sneaking through the back streets in the manner of a murderer. Presently the sounds of a flute coming out of the open window of a lighted upstairs room in a modest house interrupted his dismal reflections. It was being played with a persevering virtuosity, and through the fioritures of the tune one could hear the regular thumping of the foot beating time on the floor.
He walked through the quiet house, congratulating himself that the dusk was hiding his bloody hands and scratched face from people passing by. But this story couldn’t be kept a secret. More than anything, he feared the shame and mockery, and he painfully felt like he was sneaking through the back streets like a murderer. Just then, the sound of a flute coming from an open window of a lit upstairs room in a modest house broke his gloomy thoughts. It was being played with impressive skill, and amid the embellishments of the tune, you could hear a steady foot tapping along with the rhythm on the floor.
Lieut. D’Hubert shouted a name, which was that of an army surgeon whom he knew fairly well. The sounds of the flute ceased, and the musician appeared at the window, his instrument still in his hand, peering into the street.
Lieut. D’Hubert shouted a name, which was that of an army surgeon he knew pretty well. The music from the flute stopped, and the musician came to the window, still holding his instrument, looking into the street.
“Who calls? You, D’Hubert? What brings you this way?”
“Who’s calling? You, D’Hubert? What brings you here?”
He did not like to be disturbed at the hour when he was playing the flute. He was a man whose hair had turned grey already in the thankless task of tying up wounds on battlefields where others reaped advancement and glory.
He didn’t like to be interrupted when he was playing the flute. He was a man whose hair had already turned grey from the thankless job of tending to wounds on battlefields where others gained promotions and fame.
“I want you to go at once and see Feraud. You know Lieut. Feraud? He lives down the second street. It’s but a step from here.”
“I want you to go see Feraud right away. You know Lieutenant Feraud? He lives down the second street. It's just a short walk from here.”
“What’s the matter with him?”
"What's wrong with him?"
“Wounded.”
"Injured."
“Are you sure?”
“Are you certain?”
“Sure!” cried D’Hubert. “I come from there.”
“Sure!” shouted D’Hubert. “I’m from there.”
“That’s amusing,” said the elderly surgeon. Amusing was his favourite word; but the expression of his face when he pronounced it never corresponded. He was a stolid man. “Come in,” he added. “I’ll get ready in a moment.”
“That’s funny,” said the old surgeon. Funny was his favorite word; but the look on his face when he said it never matched. He was a serious man. “Come in,” he added. “I’ll be ready in a minute.”
“Thanks! I will. I want to wash my hands in your room.”
“Thanks! I will. I want to wash my hands in your room.”
Lieut. D’Hubert found the surgeon occupied in unscrewing his flute, and packing the pieces methodically in a case. He turned his head.
Lieut. D’Hubert found the surgeon busy taking apart his flute and carefully putting the pieces away in a case. He turned his head.
“Water there—in the corner. Your hands do want washing.”
“Water’s over there—in the corner. You really should wash your hands.”
“I’ve stopped the bleeding,” said Lieut. D’Hubert. “But you had better make haste. It’s rather more than ten minutes ago, you know.”
“I’ve stopped the bleeding,” said Lieut. D’Hubert. “But you should hurry. It’s been more than ten minutes already, you know.”
The surgeon did not hurry his movements.
The surgeon was thorough.
“What’s the matter? Dressing came off? That’s amusing. I’ve been at work in the hospital all day but I’ve been told this morning by somebody that he had come off without a scratch.”
“What’s the matter? Did the dressing come off? That’s funny. I’ve been working at the hospital all day, but someone told me this morning that he came off without a scratch.”
“Not the same duel probably,” growled moodily Lieut. D’Hubert, wiping his hands on a coarse towel.
“Probably not the same duel,” grumbled Lieutenant D’Hubert, wiping his hands on a rough towel.
“Not the same. . . . What? Another. It would take the very devil to make me go out twice in one day.” The surgeon looked narrowly at Lieut. D’Hubert. “How did you come by that scratched face? Both sides, too—and symmetrical. It’s amusing.”
“Not the same. . . . What? Another? It would take the devil himself to make me go out twice in one day.” The surgeon scrutinized Lieut. D’Hubert. “How did you get that scratched face? Both sides are scratched too—and it’s symmetrical. It’s quite amusing.”
“Very!” snarled Lieut. D’Hubert. “And you will find his slashed arm amusing, too. It will keep both of you amused for quite a long time.”
“Absolutely!” snarled Lieut. D’Hubert. “And you’ll find his slashed arm entertaining, too. It’ll keep both of you entertained for quite a while.”
The doctor was mystified and impressed by the brusque bitterness of Lieut. D’Hubert’s tone. They left the house together, and in the street he was still more mystified by his conduct.
The doctor was puzzled and struck by the sharp bitterness in Lieutenant D’Hubert’s tone. They left the house together, and on the street, he was even more confused by his behavior.
“Aren’t you coming with me?” he asked.
“Aren’t you coming with me?” he asked.
“No,” said Lieut. D’Hubert. “You can find the house by yourself. The front door will be standing open very likely.”
"No," said Lieut. D'Hubert. "You can find the house on your own. The front door will probably be wide open."
“All right. Where’s his room?”
“All right. Where’s his room?”
“Ground floor. But you had better go right through and look in the garden first.”
“Ground floor. But you should go ahead and check out the garden first.”
This astonishing piece of information made the surgeon go off without further parley. Lieut. D’Hubert regained his quarters nursing a hot and uneasy indignation. He dreaded the chaff of his comrades almost as much as the anger of his superiors. The truth was confoundedly grotesque and embarrassing, even putting aside the irregularity of the combat itself, which made it come abominably near a criminal offence. Like all men without much imagination, a faculty which helps the process of reflective thought, Lieut. D’Hubert became frightfully harassed by the obvious aspects of his predicament. He was certainly glad that he had not killed Lieut. Feraud outside all rules, and without the regular witnesses proper to such a transaction. Uncommonly glad. At the same time he felt as though he would have liked to wring his neck for him without ceremony.
This shocking bit of information made the surgeon leave without saying another word. Lieut. D’Hubert returned to his quarters feeling a hot and uneasy anger. He dreaded his friends' teasing almost as much as the wrath of his superiors. The truth was incredibly absurd and embarrassing, even without considering the irregularity of the fight itself, which brought it disturbingly close to being a crime. Like many people without much imagination—a trait that aids in reflective thinking—Lieut. D’Hubert felt overwhelmed by the obvious aspects of his situation. He was definitely relieved that he hadn’t killed Lieut. Feraud outside the rules and without the usual witnesses necessary for such an event. Really relieved. At the same time, he felt like he would have liked to wring his neck without any formalities.
He was still under the sway of these contradictory sentiments when the surgeon amateur of the flute came to see him. More than three days had elapsed. Lieut. D’Hubert was no longer officier d’ordonnance to the general commanding the division. He had been sent back to his regiment. And he was resuming his connection with the soldiers’ military family by being shut up in close confinement, not at his own quarters in town, but in a room in the barracks. Owing to the gravity of the incident, he was forbidden to see any one. He did not know what had happened, what was being said, or what was being thought. The arrival of the surgeon was a most unexpected thing to the worried captive. The amateur of the flute began by explaining that he was there only by a special favour of the colonel.
He was still caught up in these mixed feelings when the surgeon who played the flute came to visit him. More than three days had passed. Lieutenant D’Hubert was no longer the aide-de-camp to the general in charge of the division. He had been sent back to his regiment. Now he was reconnecting with the soldiers' military family by being confined, not in his own quarters in town, but in a room at the barracks. Due to the seriousness of the situation, he was not allowed to see anyone. He had no idea what had happened, what was being said, or what people were thinking. The arrival of the surgeon was a complete surprise to the anxious captive. The flute-playing amateur started by explaining that he was there only because of a special favor from the colonel.
“I represented to him that it would be only fair to let you have some authentic news of your adversary,” he continued. “You’ll be glad to hear he’s getting better fast.”
“I suggested to him that it would only be fair to give you some real news about your opponent,” he continued. “You’ll be happy to hear he’s recovering quickly.”
Lieut. D’Hubert’s face exhibited no conventional signs of gladness. He continued to walk the floor of the dusty bare room.
Lieut. D’Hubert’s face showed no usual signs of happiness. He kept pacing the floor of the dusty, empty room.
“Take this chair, doctor,” he mumbled.
“Take this chair, doc,” he mumbled.
The doctor sat down.
The doctor took a seat.
“This affair is variously appreciated—in town and in the army. In fact, the diversity of opinions is amusing.”
“This situation is viewed differently by people in town and the army. In fact, the range of opinions is quite entertaining.”
“Is it!” mumbled Lieut. D’Hubert, tramping steadily from wall to wall. But within himself he marvelled that there could be two opinions on the matter. The surgeon continued.
“Is it!” mumbled Lieut. D’Hubert, walking back and forth. But deep down, he was amazed that there could be two different views on the issue. The surgeon kept talking.
“Of course, as the real facts are not known—”
“Of course, since the actual facts are unknown—”
“I should have thought,” interrupted D’Hubert, “that the fellow would have put you in possession of facts.”
"I would have thought," D'Hubert interrupted, "that the guy would have filled you in on the facts."
“He said something,” admitted the other, “the first time I saw him. And, by the by, I did find him in the garden. The thump on the back of his head had made him a little incoherent then. Afterwards he was rather reticent than otherwise.”
“He said something,” the other admitted, “the first time I saw him. And, by the way, I did find him in the garden. The knock on the back of his head made him a little incoherent at that moment. Afterward, he was more reserved than anything else.”
“Didn’t think he would have the grace to be ashamed!” mumbled D’Hubert, resuming his pacing while the doctor murmured, “It’s very amusing. Ashamed! Shame was not exactly his frame of mind. However, you may look at the matter otherwise.”
“Didn’t think he would have the grace to be ashamed!” D’Hubert mumbled, starting to pace again while the doctor said quietly, “It’s quite amusing. Ashamed! Shame wasn’t really how he was feeling. Still, you could see it another way.”
“What are you talking about? What matter?” asked D’Hubert, with a sidelong look at the heavy-faced, grey-haired figure seated on a wooden chair.
“What are you talking about? What’s the matter?” asked D’Hubert, glancing at the heavy-faced, gray-haired figure sitting on a wooden chair.
“Whatever it is,” said the surgeon a little impatiently, “I don’t want to pronounce any opinion on your conduct—”
“Whatever it is,” said the surgeon, a bit impatiently, “I don’t want to judge your actions—”
“By heavens, you had better not!” burst out D’Hubert.
“By heavens, you better not!” exclaimed D’Hubert.
“There!—there! Don’t be so quick in flourishing the sword. It doesn’t pay in the long run. Understand once for all that I would not carve any of you youngsters except with the tools of my trade. But my advice is good. If you go on like this you will make for yourself an ugly reputation.”
“There!—there! Don’t be so quick to brandish the sword. It doesn’t pay off in the long run. Understand once and for all that I wouldn’t carve any of you young ones except with the tools of my trade. But my advice is solid. If you keep this up, you’ll end up with a terrible reputation.”
“Go on like what?” demanded Lieut. D’Hubert, stopping short, quite startled. “I!—I!—make for myself a reputation. . . . What do you imagine?”
“Go on like what?” demanded Lieut. D’Hubert, stopping abruptly, clearly taken aback. “I!—I!—build a reputation for myself. . . . What do you think?”
“I told you I don’t wish to judge of the rights and wrongs of this incident. It’s not my business. Nevertheless—”
“I told you I don’t want to judge the rights and wrongs of this incident. It’s not my place. However—”
“What on earth has he been telling you?” interrupted Lieut. D’Hubert, in a sort of awed scare.
“What on earth has he been telling you?” interrupted Lieut. D’Hubert, sounding both scared and amazed.
“I told you already, that at first, when I picked him up in the garden, he was incoherent. Afterwards he was naturally reticent. But I gather at least that he could not help himself.”
“I already told you that at first, when I found him in the garden, he was all over the place. Later, he was pretty reserved. But I understand that he just couldn’t help it.”
“He couldn’t?” shouted Lieut. D’Hubert in a great voice. Then, lowering his tone impressively, “And what about me? Could I help myself?”
“He couldn’t?” shouted Lieut. D’Hubert loudly. Then, lowering his voice dramatically, “And what about me? Could I stop myself?”
The surgeon stood up. His thoughts were running upon the flute, his constant companion with a consoling voice. In the vicinity of field ambulances, after twenty-four hours’ hard work, he had been known to trouble with its sweet sounds the horrible stillness of battlefields, given over to silence and the dead. The solacing hour of his daily life was approaching, and in peace time he held on to the minutes as a miser to his hoard.
The surgeon stood up. His mind was fixed on the flute, his constant companion with its soothing melody. Near the field ambulances, after twenty-four hours of hard work, he had been known to fill the haunting silence of the battlefields with its sweet sounds, which were left in silence and stillness. The comforting hour of his daily life was nearing, and in peacetime he clung to those minutes like a miser holding onto his treasure.
“Of course!—of course!” he said, perfunctorily. “You would think so. It’s amusing. However, being perfectly neutral and friendly to you both, I have consented to deliver his message to you. Say that I am humouring an invalid if you like. He wants you to know that this affair is by no means at an end. He intends to send you his seconds directly he has regained his strength—providing, of course, the army is not in the field at that time.”
“Of course!—of course!” he said, dismissively. “You might think so. It’s funny. Anyway, being totally neutral and friendly to both of you, I’ve agreed to pass on his message. Call it a favor to someone who’s unwell if you want. He wants you to understand that this situation is far from over. He plans to send you his seconds as soon as he feels better—assuming, of course, that the army isn’t out in the field when that happens.”
“He intends, does he? Why, certainly,” spluttered Lieut. D’Hubert in a passion.
“He plans to, does he? Well, of course,” stammered Lieut. D’Hubert in a fit of anger.
The secret of his exasperation was not apparent to the visitor; but this passion confirmed the surgeon in the belief which was gaining ground outside that some very serious difference had arisen between these two young men, something serious enough to wear an air of mystery, some fact of the utmost gravity. To settle their urgent difference about that fact, those two young men had risked being broken and disgraced at the outset almost of their career. The surgeon feared that the forthcoming inquiry would fail to satisfy the public curiosity. They would not take the public into their confidence as to that something which had passed between them of a nature so outrageous as to make them face a charge of murder—neither more nor less. But what could it be?
The reason for his frustration wasn’t obvious to the visitor; however, this strong emotion reinforced the surgeon’s growing belief that a serious conflict had developed between the two young men, something significant enough to create an air of mystery, a matter of utmost seriousness. To resolve their urgent disagreement about this issue, the two young men had risked being ruined and disgraced right at the start of their careers. The surgeon worried that the upcoming inquiry wouldn’t satisfy the public’s curiosity. They wouldn’t share the details of what had happened between them, which was so outrageous it led them to face a murder charge—neither more nor less. But what could it possibly be?
The surgeon was not very curious by temperament; but that question haunting his mind caused him twice that evening to hold the instrument off his lips and sit silent for a whole minute—right in the middle of a tune—trying to form a plausible conjecture.
The surgeon wasn't naturally curious, but that question nagging at him made him pause twice that evening, holding the instrument away from his lips and sitting in silence for a full minute—right in the middle of a song—trying to come up with a sensible guess.
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He succeeded in this object no better than the rest of the garrison and the whole of society. The two young officers, of no especial consequence till then, became distinguished by the universal curiosity as to the origin of their quarrel. Madame de Lionne’s salon was the centre of ingenious surmises; that lady herself was for a time assailed by inquiries as being the last person known to have spoken to these unhappy and reckless young men before they went out together from her house to a savage encounter with swords, at dusk, in a private garden. She protested she had not observed anything unusual in their demeanour. Lieut. Feraud had been visibly annoyed at being called away. That was natural enough; no man likes to be disturbed in a conversation with a lady famed for her elegance and sensibility. But in truth the subject bored Madame de Lionne, since her personality could by no stretch of reckless gossip be connected with this affair. And it irritated her to hear it advanced that there might have been some woman in the case. This irritation arose, not from her elegance or sensibility, but from a more instinctive side of her nature. It became so great at last that she peremptorily forbade the subject to be mentioned under her roof. Near her couch the prohibition was obeyed, but farther off in the salon the pall of the imposed silence continued to be lifted more or less. A personage with a long, pale face, resembling the countenance of a sheep, opined, shaking his head, that it was a quarrel of long standing envenomed by time. It was objected to him that the men themselves were too young for such a theory. They belonged also to different and distant parts of France. There were other physical impossibilities, too. A sub-commissary of the Intendence, an agreeable and cultivated bachelor in kerseymere breeches, Hessian boots, and a blue coat embroidered with silver lace, who affected to believe in the transmigration of souls, suggested that the two had met perhaps in some previous existence. The feud was in the forgotten past. It might have been something quite inconceivable in the present state of their being; but their souls remembered the animosity, and manifested an instinctive antagonism. He developed this theme jocularly. Yet the affair was so absurd from the worldly, the military, the honourable, or the prudential point of view, that this weird explanation seemed rather more reasonable than any other.
He didn’t achieve his goal any better than the rest of the garrison or society as a whole. The two young officers, who hadn’t been of much importance until then, gained attention due to everyone’s curiosity about the reason for their fight. Madame de Lionne’s salon became the hub of creative speculation; she herself was bombarded with questions because she was the last person known to have talked to these unfortunate and reckless young men before they went out together from her house to a brutal duel with swords, at dusk, in a private garden. She insisted that she hadn’t noticed anything out of the ordinary in their behavior. Lieutenant Feraud had been clearly irritated at being interrupted. That was understandable; no man likes to be pulled away from a conversation with a woman known for her elegance and sensitivity. But in reality, the topic bored Madame de Lionne, as her reputation could not be linked to this incident through any reckless gossip. It annoyed her to hear suggestions that there might have been a woman involved. This irritation came not from her elegance or sensitivity, but from a more instinctual part of her nature. Eventually, it grew so intense that she firmly forbade anyone from discussing the matter in her home. Close to her couch, people respected the ban, but further out in the salon, the heavy silence continued to be occasionally broken. A man with a long, pale face, resembling that of a sheep, posited, shaking his head, that it was a long-standing feud that had become more toxic over time. Others pointed out that the men themselves were too young for such a backstory. They were also from different and distant parts of France. There were other physical impossibilities, too. A sub-commissary of the Intendence, an amiable and cultured bachelor in fine trousers, Hessian boots, and a blue coat embroidered with silver lace, who liked to believe in the transmigration of souls, suggested that perhaps the two had encountered each other in a previous life. The feud was from a forgotten past. It might have been something completely unimaginable in their current lives, but their souls remembered the hostility and exhibited an instinctive animosity. He joked about this idea. Yet the situation was so ridiculous from a worldly, military, honorable, or practical perspective that this strange explanation seemed more reasonable than any other.
The two officers had confided nothing definite to any one. Humiliation at having been worsted arms in hand, and an uneasy feeling of having been involved in a scrape by the injustice of fate, kept Lieut. Feraud savagely dumb. He mistrusted the sympathy of mankind. That would, of course, go to that dandified staff officer. Lying in bed, he raved aloud to the pretty maid who administered to his needs with devotion, and listened to his horrible imprecations with alarm. That Lieut. D’Hubert should be made to “pay for it,” seemed to her just and natural. Her principal care was that Lieut. Feraud should not excite himself. He appeared so wholly admirable and fascinating to the humility of her heart that her only concern was to see him get well quickly, even if it were only to resume his visits to Madame de Lionne’s salon.
The two officers hadn’t shared anything specific with anyone. Lieut. Feraud felt humiliated after being defeated despite having fought bravely, and he was also bothered by the feeling that fate had pulled him into a mess. This made him sullen and distrustful of other people’s sympathy. Naturally, that would go to the stylish staff officer. Lying in bed, he vented his frustrations loudly to the pretty maid who took care of him with dedication, and she listened to his angry rants with concern. It seemed fair and natural to her that Lieut. D’Hubert should be made to "pay for it." Her main worry was that Lieut. Feraud wouldn’t work himself up too much. He seemed completely admirable and fascinating to her humble heart, and all she cared about was making sure he recovered quickly, even if it was just so he could start visiting Madame de Lionne’s salon again.
Lieut. D’Hubert kept silent for the immediate reason that there was no one, except a stupid young soldier servant, to speak to. Further, he was aware that the episode, so grave professionally, had its comic side. When reflecting upon it, he still felt that he would like to wring Lieut. Feraud’s neck for him. But this formula was figurative rather than precise, and expressed more a state of mind than an actual physical impulse. At the same time, there was in that young man a feeling of comradeship and kindness which made him unwilling to make the position of Lieut. Feraud worse than it was. He did not want to talk at large about this wretched affair. At the inquiry he would have, of course, to speak the truth in self-defence. This prospect vexed him.
Lieut. D’Hubert stayed quiet because there was no one to talk to, except for a clueless young soldier serving him. He also realized that the situation, while serious in his career, had a comedic side. When he thought about it, he still felt like he wanted to wring Lieut. Feraud’s neck. But that feeling was more figurative than literal, reflecting his state of mind rather than a real desire to harm. At the same time, he felt a sense of camaraderie and kindness for that young man, making him hesitant to worsen Lieut. Feraud’s situation. He didn't want to discuss this miserable incident. During the inquiry, he would have to tell the truth to protect himself, and the thought of that annoyed him.
But no inquiry took place. The army took the field instead. Lieut. D’Hubert, liberated without remark, took up his regimental duties; and Lieut. Feraud, his arm just out of the sling, rode unquestioned with his squadron to complete his convalescence in the smoke of battlefields and the fresh air of night bivouacs. This bracing treatment suited him so well, that at the first rumour of an armistice being signed he could turn without misgivings to the thoughts of his private warfare.
But no investigation happened. The army went into action instead. Lieutenant D’Hubert, released without comment, resumed his regimental duties; and Lieutenant Feraud, his arm just out of the sling, rode without question with his squadron to finish his recovery in the chaos of battlefields and the fresh air of nighttime camps. This challenging approach suited him so well that at the first hint of a truce being signed, he could easily shift his focus to his personal conflicts.
This time it was to be regular warfare. He sent two friends to Lieut. D’Hubert, whose regiment was stationed only a few miles away. Those friends had asked no questions of their principal. “I owe him one, that pretty staff officer,” he had said, grimly, and they went away quite contentedly on their mission. Lieut. D’Hubert had no difficulty in finding two friends equally discreet and devoted to their principal. “There’s a crazy fellow to whom I must give a lesson,” he had declared curtly; and they asked for no better reasons.
This time it was going to be an all-out war. He sent two friends to Lieutenant D’Hubert, whose regiment was only a few miles away. Those friends didn’t ask any questions. “I owe him one, that handsome staff officer,” he said grimly, and they left satisfied with their task. Lieutenant D’Hubert had no trouble finding two friends who were just as discreet and loyal to him. “There’s a crazy guy I need to teach a lesson to,” he stated flatly; and they didn’t need any further explanation.
On these grounds an encounter with duelling-swords was arranged one early morning in a convenient field. At the third set-to Lieut. D’Hubert found himself lying on his back on the dewy grass with a hole in his side. A serene sun rising over a landscape of meadows and woods hung on his left. A surgeon—not the flute player, but another—was bending over him, feeling around the wound.
On these grounds, a duel was scheduled for one early morning in a nearby field. By the third match, Lieutenant D’Hubert found himself lying on his back on the wet grass with a hole in his side. A calm sun rose over a landscape of meadows and woods to his left. A surgeon—not the flute player, but another one—was leaning over him, examining the wound.
“Narrow squeak. But it will be nothing,” he pronounced.
“Narrow escape. But it will be nothing,” he stated.
Lieut. D’Hubert heard these words with pleasure. One of his seconds, sitting on the wet grass, and sustaining his head on his lap, said, “The fortune of war, mon pauvre vieux. What will you have? You had better make it up like two good fellows. Do!”
Lieut. D’Hubert heard these words with pleasure. One of his seconds, sitting on the wet grass and resting his head on his lap, said, “The luck of war, my poor old friend. What can you do? You should just make up like two good guys. Go ahead!”
“You don’t know what you ask,” murmured Lieut. D’Hubert, in a feeble voice. “However, if he . . .”
“You don’t know what you’re asking,” Lieutenant D’Hubert murmured weakly. “But if he . . .”
In another part of the meadow the seconds of Lieut. Feraud were urging him to go over and shake hands with his adversary.
In another part of the meadow, Lieutenant Feraud's seconds were encouraging him to go over and shake hands with his opponent.
“You have paid him off now—que diable. It’s the proper thing to do. This D’Hubert is a decent fellow.”
“You've settled with him now—what the heck. It's the right thing to do. This D’Hubert is a good guy.”
“I know the decency of these generals’ pets,” muttered Lieut. Feraud through his teeth, and the sombre expression of his face discouraged further efforts at reconciliation. The seconds, bowing from a distance, took their men off the field. In the afternoon Lieut. D’Hubert, very popular as a good comrade uniting great bravery with a frank and equable temper, had many visitors. It was remarked that Lieut. Feraud did not, as is customary, show himself much abroad to receive the felicitations of his friends. They would not have failed him, because he, too, was liked for the exuberance of his southern nature and the simplicity of his character. In all the places where officers were in the habit of assembling at the end of the day the duel of the morning was talked over from every point of view. Though Lieut. D’Hubert had got worsted this time, his sword play was commended. No one could deny that it was very close, very scientific. It was even whispered that if he got touched it was because he wished to spare his adversary. But by many the vigour and dash of Lieut. Feraud’s attack were pronounced irresistible.
“I know what these generals’ pets are like,” muttered Lieut. Feraud through gritted teeth, and the grim look on his face discouraged any further attempts at making peace. The seconds, bowing from a distance, took their men off the field. In the afternoon, Lieut. D’Hubert, well-liked as a good comrade with great bravery and a friendly, even temperament, had many visitors. It was noted that Lieut. Feraud didn’t, as usual, make many appearances to accept congratulations from his friends. They wouldn’t have let him down, as he was also liked for his lively southern nature and straightforward personality. In all the spots where officers usually gathered at the end of the day, the morning’s duel was discussed from every angle. Although Lieut. D’Hubert came out on the losing side this time, his swordsmanship was praised. No one could deny that it was very close and very skillful. Some even whispered that if he ended up getting hit, it was because he wanted to spare his opponent. However, many argued that the energy and flair of Lieut. Feraud’s attack were hard to resist.
The merits of the two officers as combatants were frankly discussed; but their attitude to each other after the duel was criticised lightly and with caution. It was irreconcilable, and that was to be regretted. But after all they knew best what the care of their honour dictated. It was not a matter for their comrades to pry into over-much. As to the origin of the quarrel, the general impression was that it dated from the time they were holding garrison in Strasbourg. The musical surgeon shook his head at that. It went much farther back, he thought.
The merits of the two officers as fighters were openly discussed, but their attitude towards each other after the duel was lightly criticized and approached with caution. It was irreconcilable, which was unfortunate. But in the end, they understood what their honor required. It wasn't something for their comrades to dig into too deeply. Regarding the cause of the quarrel, the general feeling was that it started while they were stationed in Strasbourg. The musical surgeon disagreed and believed it went back much further.
“Why, of course! You must know the whole story,” cried several voices, eager with curiosity. “What was it?”
“Of course! You have to tell us everything,” several voices exclaimed, bursting with curiosity. “What happened?”
He raised his eyes from his glass deliberately. “Even if I knew ever so well, you can’t expect me to tell you, since both the principals choose to say nothing.”
He slowly lifted his gaze from his glass. “Even if I knew for sure, you can’t expect me to share, since both parties have chosen to stay quiet.”
He got up and went out, leaving the sense of mystery behind him. He could not stay any longer, because the witching hour of flute-playing was drawing near.
He got up and went out, leaving the mystery behind him. He couldn’t stay any longer because the magical hour of flute-playing was coming up.
After he had gone a very young officer observed solemnly, “Obviously, his lips are sealed!”
After he left, a very young officer observed seriously, “Clearly, he’s not saying anything!”
Nobody questioned the high correctness of that remark. Somehow it added to the impressiveness of the affair. Several older officers of both regiments, prompted by nothing but sheer kindness and love of harmony, proposed to form a Court of Honour, to which the two young men would leave the task of their reconciliation. Unfortunately they began by approaching Lieut. Feraud, on the assumption that, having just scored heavily, he would be found placable and disposed to moderation.
Nobody doubted the accuracy of that remark. It somehow made the situation even more impressive. Several senior officers from both regiments, motivated solely by kindness and a desire for peace, suggested forming a Court of Honour, where the two young men could turn to for their reconciliation. Unfortunately, they started by reaching out to Lieutenant Feraud, believing that since he had just achieved a big win, he would be amenable and open to compromise.
The reasoning was sound enough. Nevertheless, the move turned out unfortunate. In that relaxation of moral fibre, which is brought about by the ease of soothed vanity, Lieut. Feraud had condescended in the secret of his heart to review the case, and even had come to doubt not the justice of his cause, but the absolute sagacity of his conduct. This being so, he was disinclined to talk about it. The suggestion of the regimental wise men put him in a difficult position. He was disgusted at it, and this disgust, by a paradoxical logic, reawakened his animosity against Lieut. D’Hubert. Was he to be pestered with this fellow for ever—the fellow who had an infernal knack of getting round people somehow? And yet it was difficult to refuse point blank that mediation sanctioned by the code of honour.
The reasoning made sense. However, the decision ended up being unfortunate. In that moment of relaxed morals caused by the comfort of stroking his own ego, Lieutenant Feraud had secretly reconsidered the situation and even started to doubt not just the fairness of his cause but the wisdom of his actions. Because of this, he didn’t want to discuss it. The suggestion from the regimental sages put him in an awkward spot. He felt disgusted by it, and this disgust, in a strange twist of logic, reignited his resentment towards Lieutenant D’Hubert. Was he going to have to deal with this guy forever—the guy who had a terrible talent for charming people somehow? Yet, it was hard to outright refuse that mediation approved by the code of honor.
He met the difficulty by an attitude of grim reserve. He twisted his moustache and used vague words. His case was perfectly clear. He was not ashamed to state it before a proper Court of Honour, neither was he afraid to defend it on the ground. He did not see any reason to jump at the suggestion before ascertaining how his adversary was likely to take it.
He faced the challenge with a tough demeanor. He fiddled with his mustache and spoke in vague terms. His position was straightforward. He wasn't embarrassed to present it in front of a proper Court of Honor, nor was he scared to defend it in the open. He didn’t see any reason to react to the suggestion without figuring out how his opponent was likely to respond.
Later in the day, his exasperation growing upon him, he was heard in a public place saying sardonically, “that it would be the very luckiest thing for Lieut. D’Hubert, because the next time of meeting he need not hope to get off with the mere trifle of three weeks in bed.”
Later in the day, growing more and more frustrated, he was overheard in a public place saying sarcastically, “it would be the absolute best luck for Lieut. D’Hubert, because next time they meet he won’t be able to expect to get away with just three weeks in bed.”
This boastful phrase might have been prompted by the most profound Machiavellism. Southern natures often hide, under the outward impulsiveness of action and speech, a certain amount of astuteness.
This bragging remark may have been influenced by deep Machiavellian principles. People from the South often conceal, beneath their outward impulsiveness in actions and words, a degree of cleverness.
Lieut. Feraud, mistrusting the justice of men, by no means desired a Court of Honour; and the above words, according so well with his temperament, had also the merit of serving his turn. Whether meant so or not, they found their way in less than four-and-twenty hours into Lieut. D’Hubert’s bedroom. In consequence Lieut. D’Hubert, sitting propped up with pillows, received the overtures made to him next day by the statement that the affair was of a nature which could not bear discussion.
Lieutenant Feraud, distrustful of human justice, didn't want a Court of Honour at all; the words mentioned above resonated with his character and also served his purpose. Whether intentional or not, they reached Lieutenant D’Hubert’s bedroom in under twenty-four hours. As a result, Lieutenant D’Hubert, propped up with pillows, received the next day's proposals with the declaration that the matter was not something that could be discussed.
The pale face of the wounded officer, his weak voice which he had yet to use cautiously, and the courteous dignity of his tone had a great effect on his hearers. Reported outside all this did more for deepening the mystery than the vapourings of Lieut. Feraud. This last was greatly relieved at the issue. He began to enjoy the state of general wonder, and was pleased to add to it by assuming an attitude of fierce discretion.
The pale face of the injured officer, his faint voice that he used carefully, and the polite dignity in his tone had a strong impact on those listening. Everything reported from outside added to the mystery more than the ramblings of Lieutenant Feraud did. The latter felt a huge sense of relief at the outcome. He started to enjoy the overall sense of wonder and was happy to contribute to it by adopting a stance of intense discretion.
The colonel of Lieut. D’Hubert’s regiment was a grey-haired, weather-beaten warrior, who took a simple view of his responsibilities. “I can’t,” he said to himself, “let the best of my subalterns get damaged like this for nothing. I must get to the bottom of this affair privately. He must speak out if the devil were in it. The colonel should be more than a father to these youngsters.” And indeed he loved all his men with as much affection as a father of a large family can feel for every individual member of it. If human beings by an oversight of Providence came into the world as mere civilians, they were born again into a regiment as infants are born into a family, and it was that military birth alone which counted.
The colonel of Lieutenant D’Hubert’s regiment was a gray-haired, weathered warrior who had a straightforward outlook on his responsibilities. “I can’t,” he thought to himself, “let the best of my junior officers get hurt like this for no reason. I need to get to the bottom of this situation privately. He has to speak up, no matter how difficult it is. The colonel should be more than just a father to these young men.” And indeed, he cared for all his soldiers with as much affection as a father feels for each member of a large family. If, by some twist of fate, people entered the world as mere civilians, they were reborn into a regiment just as infants are born into a family, and it was that military birth alone that truly mattered.
At the sight of Lieut. D’Hubert standing before him very bleached and hollow-eyed the heart of the old warrior felt a pang of genuine compassion. All his affection for the regiment—that body of men which he held in his hand to launch forward and draw back, who ministered to his pride and commanded all his thoughts—seemed centred for a moment on the person of the most promising subaltern. He cleared his throat in a threatening manner, and frowned terribly. “You must understand,” he began, “that I don’t care a rap for the life of a single man in the regiment. I would send the eight hundred and forty-three of you men and horses galloping into the pit of perdition with no more compunction than I would kill a fly!”
At the sight of Lieutenant D'Hubert standing in front of him, looking pale and hollow-eyed, the old warrior felt a real pang of compassion. All his affection for the regiment—that group of men he had the power to send forward or hold back, who fed his pride and filled his thoughts—seemed to focus for a moment on the most promising young officer. He cleared his throat in a threatening way and frowned fiercely. “You need to understand,” he began, “that I don’t give a damn about the life of a single man in the regiment. I would send all eight hundred and forty-three of you, along with the horses, charging into the pit of hell without a second thought, just like I would swat a fly!”
“Yes, Colonel. You would be riding at our head,” said Lieut. D’Hubert with a wan smile.
“Yes, Colonel. You will be leading us,” said Lieut. D’Hubert with a faint smile.
The colonel, who felt the need of being very diplomatic, fairly roared at this. “I want you to know, Lieut. D’Hubert, that I could stand aside and see you all riding to Hades if need be. I am a man to do even that if the good of the service and my duty to my country required it from me. But that’s unthinkable, so don’t you even hint at such a thing.” He glared awfully, but his tone softened. “There’s some milk yet about that moustache of yours, my boy. You don’t know what a man like me is capable of. I would hide behind a haystack if . . . Don’t grin at me, sir! How dare you? If this were not a private conversation I would . . . Look here! I am responsible for the proper expenditure of lives under my command for the glory of our country and the honour of the regiment. Do you understand that? Well, then, what the devil do you mean by letting yourself be spitted like this by that fellow of the 7th Hussars? It’s simply disgraceful!”
The colonel, who felt the need to be very diplomatic, practically shouted at this. “I want you to know, Lieutenant D’Hubert, that I could watch you all ride straight to hell if necessary. I’m the kind of man who would do even that if it was required for the good of the service and my duty to my country. But that’s out of the question, so don’t even suggest it.” He glared fiercely, but his tone softened. “You still have a lot to learn, my boy. You have no idea what someone like me is capable of. I would hide behind a haystack if... Don’t smirk at me, sir! How dare you? If this weren’t a private conversation, I would... Listen! I am responsible for the proper use of lives under my command for the glory of our country and the honor of the regiment. Do you understand that? Then what on earth do you mean by letting yourself get skewered like this by that guy from the 7th Hussars? It’s simply shameful!”
Lieut. D’Hubert felt vexed beyond measure. His shoulders moved slightly. He made no other answer. He could not ignore his responsibility.
Lieut. D’Hubert felt extremely frustrated. His shoulders shifted slightly. He didn’t say anything else. He couldn't ignore his responsibility.
The colonel veiled his glance and lowered his voice still more. “It’s deplorable!” he murmured. And again he changed his tone. “Come!” he went on, persuasively, but with that note of authority which dwells in the throat of a good leader of men, “this affair must be settled. I desire to be told plainly what it is all about. I demand, as your best friend, to know.”
The colonel hid his gaze and lowered his voice even further. “This is terrible!” he whispered. Then he shifted his tone. “Come on!” he said, in a persuasive yet authoritative manner that good leaders often have, “we need to resolve this. I want to be told clearly what’s going on. As your best friend, I need to know.”
The compelling power of authority, the persuasive influence of kindness, affected powerfully a man just risen from a bed of sickness. Lieut. D’Hubert’s hand, which grasped the knob of a stick, trembled slightly. But his northern temperament, sentimental yet cautious and clear-sighted, too, in its idealistic way, checked his impulse to make a clean breast of the whole deadly absurdity. According to the precept of transcendental wisdom, he turned his tongue seven times in his mouth before he spoke. He made then only a speech of thanks.
The strong power of authority and the convincing influence of kindness really impacted a man who had just gotten out of bed after being sick. Lieutenant D’Hubert’s hand, which was holding onto his cane, shook a little. But his northern temperament, both sentimental and careful, yet clear-headed in its idealistic way, held him back from revealing the entire ridiculous situation. Following the advice of transcendental wisdom, he thought carefully before he spoke. He then only gave a brief thank-you speech.
The colonel listened, interested at first, then looked mystified. At last he frowned. “You hesitate?—mille tonnerres! Haven’t I told you that I will condescend to argue with you—as a friend?”
The colonel listened, initially intrigued, then appeared confused. Finally, he frowned. “You’re hesitating?—for heaven's sake! Haven’t I told you that I’m willing to debate with you—as a friend?”
“Yes, Colonel!” answered Lieut. D’Hubert, gently. “But I am afraid that after you have heard me out as a friend you will take action as my superior officer.”
“Yes, Colonel!” replied Lieut. D’Hubert softly. “But I'm afraid that once you've listened to me as a friend, you'll act as my superior officer.”
The attentive colonel snapped his jaws. “Well, what of that?” he said, frankly. “Is it so damnably disgraceful?”
The watchful colonel snapped his jaws. “Well, what about that?” he said, straightforwardly. “Is it really that disgraceful?”
“It is not,” negatived Lieut. D’Hubert, in a faint but firm voice.
“It’s not,” Lieutenant D’Hubert replied, in a soft but steady voice.
“Of course, I shall act for the good of the service. Nothing can prevent me doing that. What do you think I want to be told for?”
“Of course, I’ll act in the best interest of the service. Nothing can stop me from doing that. What do you think I’m looking to be told for?”
“I know it is not from idle curiosity,” protested Lieut. D’Hubert. “I know you will act wisely. But what about the good fame of the regiment?”
“I know it’s not just out of idle curiosity,” protested Lieut. D’Hubert. “I trust you will make the right decision. But what about the reputation of the regiment?”
“It cannot be affected by any youthful folly of a lieutenant,” said the colonel, severely.
“It can't be influenced by any youthful foolishness of a lieutenant,” the colonel said sternly.
“No. It cannot be. But it can be by evil tongues. It will be said that a lieutenant of the 4th Hussars, afraid of meeting his adversary, is hiding behind his colonel. And that would be worse than hiding behind a haystack—for the good of the service. I cannot afford to do that, Colonel.”
“No. It can't be. But it can be spread by malicious gossip. It will be said that a lieutenant of the 4th Hussars, scared to face his opponent, is hiding behind his colonel. And that would be worse than hiding behind a haystack—for the sake of the service. I can't let that happen, Colonel.”
“Nobody would dare to say anything of the kind,” began the colonel very fiercely, but ended the phrase on an uncertain note. The bravery of Lieut. D’Hubert was well known. But the colonel was well aware that the duelling courage, the single combat courage, is rightly or wrongly supposed to be courage of a special sort. And it was eminently necessary that an officer of his regiment should possess every kind of courage—and prove it, too. The colonel stuck out his lower lip, and looked far away with a peculiar glazed stare. This was the expression of his perplexity—an expression practically unknown to his regiment; for perplexity is a sentiment which is incompatible with the rank of colonel of cavalry. The colonel himself was overcome by the unpleasant novelty of the sensation. As he was not accustomed to think except on professional matters connected with the welfare of men and horses, and the proper use thereof on the field of glory, his intellectual efforts degenerated into mere mental repetitions of profane language. “Mille tonnerres! . . . Sacre nom de nom . . .” he thought.
“Nobody would dare to say anything like that,” the colonel started off fiercely but finished with uncertainty. Everyone knew how brave Lieut. D’Hubert was. However, the colonel also knew that the courage needed for dueling, for one-on-one combat, is often seen as a different kind of bravery. It was crucial that an officer in his regiment exhibited every type of courage—and actually proved it. The colonel pouted and stared off into the distance with a glazed look. This was his way of showing his confusion—an expression that was almost unknown among his regiment; after all, confusion isn’t really something you associate with the rank of cavalry colonel. The colonel himself was taken aback by this unwelcome feeling. Since he usually only thought about professional matters related to the welfare of men and horses and how to use them properly on the battlefield, his mental efforts ended up just being repetitive thoughts of foul language. “Mille tonnerres! . . . Sacre nom de nom . . .” he thought.
Lieut. D’Hubert coughed painfully, and added in a weary voice: “There will be plenty of evil tongues to say that I’ve been cowed. And I am sure you will not expect me to pass that over. I may find myself suddenly with a dozen duels on my hands instead of this one affair.”
Lieut. D’Hubert coughed painfully and said in a tired voice, “There will be plenty of people eager to say I’ve backed down. And I’m sure you don’t expect me to just ignore that. I might suddenly find myself facing a dozen duels instead of just this one situation.”
The direct simplicity of this argument came home to the colonel’s understanding. He looked at his subordinate fixedly. “Sit down, Lieutenant!” he said, gruffly. “This is the very devil of a . . . Sit down!”
The straightforward nature of this argument hit home for the colonel. He stared at his subordinate intensely. “Sit down, Lieutenant!” he said, gruffly. “This is quite the situation... Sit down!”
“Mon Colonel,” D’Hubert began again, “I am not afraid of evil tongues. There’s a way of silencing them. But there’s my peace of mind, too. I wouldn’t be able to shake off the notion that I’ve ruined a brother officer. Whatever action you take, it is bound to go farther. The inquiry has been dropped—let it rest now. It would have been absolutely fatal to Feraud.”
“Colonel,” D’Hubert started again, “I’m not scared of gossip. There’s a way to put an end to it. But I also care about my peace of mind. I wouldn’t be able to get past the idea that I’ve harmed a fellow officer. Whatever you decide to do, it’s only going to escalate things. The investigation has been closed—let’s just leave it. It would have been completely disastrous for Feraud.”
“Hey! What! Did he behave so badly?”
“Hey! What! Did he act that poorly?”
“Yes. It was pretty bad,” muttered Lieut. D’Hubert. Being still very weak, he felt a disposition to cry.
“Yes. It was pretty bad,” muttered Lieut. D’Hubert. Still feeling very weak, he had the urge to cry.
As the other man did not belong to his own regiment the colonel had no difficulty in believing this. He began to pace up and down the room. He was a good chief, a man capable of discreet sympathy. But he was human in other ways, too, and this became apparent because he was not capable of artifice.
As the other man wasn't from his regiment, the colonel easily believed this. He started to pace back and forth in the room. He was a good leader, someone who could offer thoughtful sympathy. But he was also human in other ways, and this showed because he wasn't able to be manipulative.
“The very devil, Lieutenant,” he blurted out, in the innocence of his heart, “is that I have declared my intention to get to the bottom of this affair. And when a colonel says something . . . you see . . .”
“The very devil, Lieutenant,” he blurted out, in the innocence of his heart, “is that I’ve declared my intention to get to the bottom of this matter. And when a colonel says something . . . you see . . .”
Lieut. D’Hubert broke in earnestly: “Let me entreat you, Colonel, to be satisfied with taking my word of honour that I was put into a damnable position where I had no option; I had no choice whatever, consistent with my dignity as a man and an officer. . . . After all, Colonel, this fact is the very bottom of this affair. Here you’ve got it. The rest is mere detail. . . .”
Lieut. D’Hubert interjected earnestly: “Please, Colonel, trust me when I say I was in a terrible position where I had no choice; I had to act in a way that upheld my dignity as a man and an officer. . . . Ultimately, Colonel, this is the crux of the matter. Here it is. The rest is just details. . . .”
The colonel stopped short. The reputation of Lieut. D’Hubert for good sense and good temper weighed in the balance. A cool head, a warm heart, open as the day. Always correct in his behaviour. One had to trust him. The colonel repressed manfully an immense curiosity. “H’m! You affirm that as a man and an officer. . . . No option? Eh?”
The colonel paused abruptly. The reputation of Lieutenant D’Hubert for common sense and a pleasant demeanor carried significant weight. He was composed, warm-hearted, and transparent. Always behaved correctly. One had to trust him. The colonel stifled a compelling curiosity. “Hmm! You claim that as a man and an officer... No other choice? Right?”
“As an officer—an officer of the 4th Hussars, too,” insisted Lieut. D’Hubert, “I had not. And that is the bottom of the affair, Colonel.”
“As an officer—an officer of the 4th Hussars, too,” insisted Lieut. D’Hubert, “I hadn’t. And that’s the crux of the matter, Colonel.”
“Yes. But still I don’t see why, to one’s colonel. . . . A colonel is a father—que diable!”
“Yes. But still I don’t see why, to one’s colonel. . . . A colonel is like a father—what the hell!”
Lieut. D’Hubert ought not to have been allowed out as yet. He was becoming aware of his physical insufficiency with humiliation and despair. But the morbid obstinacy of an invalid possessed him, and at the same time he felt with dismay his eyes filling with water. This trouble seemed too big to handle. A tear fell down the thin, pale cheek of Lieut. D’Hubert.
Lieut. D’Hubert shouldn't have been allowed out yet. He was becoming aware of his physical shortcomings with humiliation and despair. But he was stubborn like an invalid, and at the same time, he felt with dismay that his eyes were welling up with tears. This situation felt too overwhelming to deal with. A tear rolled down the thin, pale cheek of Lieut. D’Hubert.
The colonel turned his back on him hastily. You could have heard a pin drop. “This is some silly woman story—is it not?”
The colonel quickly turned his back on him. You could have heard a pin drop. “This is just some ridiculous woman story, right?”
Saying these words the chief spun round to seize the truth, which is not a beautiful shape living in a well, but a shy bird best caught by stratagem. This was the last move of the colonel’s diplomacy. He saw the truth shining unmistakably in the gesture of Lieut. D’Hubert raising his weak arms and his eyes to heaven in supreme protest.
Saying these words, the chief turned around to grasp the truth, which isn’t a pretty form hidden in a well, but a timid bird that’s best caught with clever tactics. This was the final step of the colonel’s diplomacy. He recognized the truth clearly in the gesture of Lieut. D’Hubert raising his frail arms and his eyes to the sky in a powerful protest.
“Not a woman affair—eh?” growled the colonel, staring hard. “I don’t ask you who or where. All I want to know is whether there is a woman in it?”
“Not a woman thing—eh?” growled the colonel, glaring intently. “I’m not asking you who or where. All I want to know is if there’s a woman involved?”
Lieut. D’Hubert’s arms dropped, and his weak voice was pathetically broken.
Lieut. D’Hubert’s arms fell, and his weak voice was sadly fractured.
“Nothing of the kind, mon Colonel.”
"Not at all, Colonel."
“On your honour?” insisted the old warrior.
“Do you promise?” insisted the old warrior.
“On my honour.”
“On my word.”
“Very well,” said the colonel, thoughtfully, and bit his lip. The arguments of Lieut. D’Hubert, helped by his liking for the man, had convinced him. On the other hand, it was highly improper that his intervention, of which he had made no secret, should produce no visible effect. He kept Lieut. D’Hubert a few minutes longer, and dismissed him kindly.
“Alright,” the colonel said, deep in thought, and bit his lip. The points made by Lieutenant D’Hubert, along with his fondness for the guy, had convinced him. On the other hand, it seemed really inappropriate that his intervention, which he hadn’t hidden, should have no obvious impact. He kept Lieutenant D’Hubert for a few more minutes and sent him off kindly.
“Take a few days more in bed. Lieutenant. What the devil does the surgeon mean by reporting you fit for duty?”
“Take a few more days in bed, Lieutenant. What on earth does the surgeon mean by saying you’re fit for duty?”
On coming out of the colonel’s quarters, Lieut. D’Hubert said nothing to the friend who was waiting outside to take him home. He said nothing to anybody. Lieut. D’Hubert made no confidences. But on the evening of that day the colonel, strolling under the elms growing near his quarters, in the company of his second in command, opened his lips.
As Lieut. D’Hubert left the colonel’s quarters, he didn’t say a word to his friend waiting outside to take him home. He didn’t talk to anyone. Lieut. D’Hubert kept everything to himself. However, later that evening, the colonel, walking under the elms near his quarters with his second in command, finally spoke up.
“I’ve got to the bottom of this affair,” he remarked. The lieut.-colonel, a dry, brown chip of a man with short side-whiskers, pricked up his ears at that without letting a sign of curiosity escape him.
“I've figured this whole thing out,” he said. The lieutenant colonel, a dry, brown chip of a man with short sideburns, perked up at that without showing any sign of curiosity.
“It’s no trifle,” added the colonel, oracularly. The other waited for a long while before he murmured:
“It’s not a small matter,” the colonel added, with a wise tone. The other person paused for a long moment before he quietly said:
“Indeed, sir!”
“Absolutely, sir!”
“No trifle,” repeated the colonel, looking straight before him. “I’ve, however, forbidden D’Hubert either to send to or receive a challenge from Feraud for the next twelve months.”
“No joke,” the colonel repeated, looking straight ahead. “I’ve, however, told D’Hubert not to send or accept any challenges from Feraud for the next twelve months.”
He had imagined this prohibition to save the prestige a colonel should have. The result of it was to give an official seal to the mystery surrounding this deadly quarrel. Lieut. D’Hubert repelled by an impassive silence all attempts to worm the truth out of him. Lieut. Feraud, secretly uneasy at first, regained his assurance as time went on. He disguised his ignorance of the meaning of the imposed truce by slight sardonic laughs, as though he were amused by what he intended to keep to himself. “But what will you do?” his chums used to ask him. He contented himself by replying “Qui vivra verra” with a little truculent air. And everybody admired his discretion.
He thought this ban was meant to protect the dignity a colonel should have. But it ended up giving an official stamp to the mystery surrounding this deadly feud. Lieutenant D’Hubert shut down all attempts to get the truth from him with a stoic silence. Lieutenant Feraud, initially feeling a bit uneasy, regained his confidence as time went on. He masked his confusion about the meaning of the enforced truce with slight sardonic laughs, as if he found it amusing while keeping it to himself. “But what will you do?” his friends would ask him. He simply replied, “Qui vivra verra,” with a bit of a defiant look. And everyone admired his discretion.
Before the end of the truce Lieut. D’Hubert got his troop. The promotion was well earned, but somehow no one seemed to expect the event. When Lieut. Feraud heard of it at a gathering of officers, he muttered through his teeth, “Is that so?” At once he unhooked his sabre from a peg near the door, buckled it on carefully, and left the company without another word. He walked home with measured steps, struck a light with his flint and steel, and lit his tallow candle. Then snatching an unlucky glass tumbler off the mantelpiece he dashed it violently on the floor.
Before the end of the truce, Lieutenant D’Hubert received his troop. The promotion was well-deserved, but somehow no one really expected it. When Lieutenant Feraud heard about it at an officers' gathering, he muttered through clenched teeth, “Is that so?” Immediately, he unhooked his sabre from a peg near the door, buckled it on carefully, and left the group without saying another word. He walked home with steady steps, struck a match with his flint and steel, and lit his tallow candle. Then, snatching an unfortunate glass tumbler off the mantelpiece, he smashed it violently on the floor.
Now that D’Hubert was an officer of superior rank there could be no question of a duel. Neither of them could send or receive a challenge without rendering himself amenable to a court-martial. It was not to be thought of. Lieut. Feraud, who for many days now had experienced no real desire to meet Lieut. D’Hubert arms in hand, chafed again at the systematic injustice of fate. “Does he think he will escape me in that way?” he thought, indignantly. He saw in this promotion an intrigue, a conspiracy, a cowardly manoeuvre. That colonel knew what he was doing. He had hastened to recommend his favourite for a step. It was outrageous that a man should be able to avoid the consequences of his acts in such a dark and tortuous manner.
Now that D’Hubert was a higher-ranking officer, there could be no chance of a duel. Neither of them could send or accept a challenge without risking a court-martial. It was out of the question. Lieutenant Feraud, who for many days had felt no real urge to confront Lieutenant D’Hubert with weapons in hand, was irritated once again by the unfairness of fate. “Does he think he can get away from me like this?” he thought, angered. He saw this promotion as a scheme, a conspiracy, a cowardly trick. That colonel knew exactly what he was doing. He had rushed to recommend his favorite for a promotion. It was outrageous that someone could evade the consequences of their actions in such a sneaky and twisted way.
Of a happy-go-lucky disposition, of a temperament more pugnacious than military, Lieut. Feraud had been content to give and receive blows for sheer love of armed strife, and without much thought of advancement; but now an urgent desire to get on sprang up in his breast. This fighter by vocation resolved in his mind to seize showy occasions and to court the favourable opinion of his chiefs like a mere worldling. He knew he was as brave as any one, and never doubted his personal charm. Nevertheless, neither the bravery nor the charm seemed to work very swiftly. Lieut. Feraud’s engaging, careless truculence of a beau sabreur underwent a change. He began to make bitter allusions to “clever fellows who stick at nothing to get on.” The army was full of them, he would say; you had only to look round. But all the time he had in view one person only, his adversary, D’Hubert. Once he confided to an appreciative friend: “You see, I don’t know how to fawn on the right sort of people. It isn’t in my character.”
Of a carefree nature and with a temperament more aggressive than military, Lieutenant Feraud had been happy to give and take blows just for the thrill of combat, without much thought of climbing the ranks; but now a strong desire to move up had emerged in him. This fighter by profession decided he needed to seize flashy opportunities and win over the good opinion of his superiors like any ordinary person. He knew he was as brave as anyone and never questioned his own charm. Still, neither his bravery nor his charm seemed to be making a quick impact. Lieutenant Feraud’s charming, carefree aggression began to shift. He started making bitter comments about “clever people who will do anything to get ahead.” The army was full of them, he claimed; you just had to look around. Yet all the while, he was focused on one person only: his rival, D’Hubert. Once, he confided to a friend who understood him, “You know, I don't know how to flatter the right kinds of people. It’s just not in my nature.”
He did not get his step till a week after Austerlitz. The Light Cavalry of the Grand Army had its hands very full of interesting work for a little while. Directly the pressure of professional occupation had been eased Captain Feraud took measures to arrange a meeting without loss of time. “I know my bird,” he observed, grimly. “If I don’t look sharp he will take care to get himself promoted over the heads of a dozen better men than himself. He’s got the knack for that sort of thing.”
He didn’t get his promotion until a week after Austerlitz. The Light Cavalry of the Grand Army had a lot on their plate for a little while. As soon as the demands of work eased up, Captain Feraud quickly set up a meeting. “I know my guy,” he said sternly. “If I don’t act fast, he’ll make sure to get promoted over a dozen more qualified men than he is. He’s really good at that sort of thing.”
This duel was fought in Silesia. If not fought to a finish, it was, at any rate, fought to a standstill. The weapon was the cavalry sabre, and the skill, the science, the vigour, and the determination displayed by the adversaries compelled the admiration of the beholders. It became the subject of talk on both shores of the Danube, and as far as the garrisons of Gratz and Laybach. They crossed blades seven times. Both had many cuts which bled profusely. Both refused to have the combat stopped, time after time, with what appeared the most deadly animosity. This appearance was caused on the part of Captain D’Hubert by a rational desire to be done once for all with this worry; on the part of Captain Feraud by a tremendous exaltation of his pugnacious instincts and the incitement of wounded vanity. At last, dishevelled, their shirts in rags, covered with gore and hardly able to stand, they were led away forcibly by their marvelling and horrified seconds. Later on, besieged by comrades avid of details, these gentlemen declared that they could not have allowed that sort of hacking to go on indefinitely. Asked whether the quarrel was settled this time, they gave it out as their conviction that it was a difference which could only be settled by one of the parties remaining lifeless on the ground. The sensation spread from army corps to army corps, and penetrated at last to the smallest detachments of the troops cantoned between the Rhine and the Save. In the cafes in Vienna it was generally estimated, from details to hand, that the adversaries would be able to meet again in three weeks’ time on the outside. Something really transcendent in the way of duelling was expected.
This duel took place in Silesia. If it didn’t end completely, it certainly reached a stalemate. The weapon used was the cavalry saber, and the skills, science, energy, and determination shown by the fighters impressed everyone watching. It became a hot topic on both sides of the Danube and even reached the garrisons of Gratz and Laybach. They clashed blades seven times. Both sustained numerous cuts that bled heavily. They repeatedly refused to stop the fight, showing what seemed like intense hatred. This appearance came from Captain D’Hubert’s practical desire to put an end to this hassle once and for all, and from Captain Feraud’s heightened fighting instincts and wounded pride. Eventually, disheveled, with torn shirts, covered in blood, and barely able to stand, they were forcefully taken away by their astonished and horrified seconds. Later, when pressed for details by curious comrades, these gentlemen claimed they couldn’t let that kind of fighting continue indefinitely. When asked if the quarrel was settled this time, they expressed their belief that it could only be resolved by one of them lying lifeless on the ground. The news spread from army corps to army corps, reaching even the smallest detachments of troops located between the Rhine and the Save. In the cafes of Vienna, it was generally estimated, based on the available details, that the opponents could meet again in about three weeks at the latest. Something truly extraordinary in the realm of dueling was anticipated.
These expectations were brought to naught by the necessities of the service which separated the two officers. No official notice had been taken of their quarrel. It was now the property of the army, and not to be meddled with lightly. But the story of the duel, or rather their duelling propensities, must have stood somewhat in the way of their advancement, because they were still captains when they came together again during the war with Prussia. Detached north after Jena, with the army commanded by Marshal Bernadotte, Prince of Ponte Corvo, they entered Lubeck together.
These expectations were dashed by the demands of the service that separated the two officers. No official action was taken regarding their argument. It had now become a matter for the army and shouldn't be handled casually. However, the story of the duel, or rather their tendency to duel, likely hindered their promotion since they were still captains when they reunited during the war with Prussia. After Jena, they were assigned to the northern front with the army commanded by Marshal Bernadotte, Prince of Ponte Corvo, and they entered Lubeck together.
It was only after the occupation of that town that Captain Feraud found leisure to consider his future conduct in view of the fact that Captain D’Hubert had been given the position of third aide-de-camp to the marshal. He considered it a great part of a night, and in the morning summoned two sympathetic friends.
It was only after the town was occupied that Captain Feraud found the time to think about what to do next, especially since Captain D’Hubert had been appointed as the third aide-de-camp to the marshal. He spent a large part of the night thinking about it, and in the morning, he called in two supportive friends.
“I’ve been thinking it over calmly,” he said, gazing at them with blood-shot, tired eyes. “I see that I must get rid of that intriguing personage. Here he’s managed to sneak on to the personal staff of the marshal. It’s a direct provocation to me. I can’t tolerate a situation in which I am exposed any day to receive an order through him. And God knows what order, too! That sort of thing has happened once before—and that’s once too often. He understands this perfectly, never fear. I can’t tell you any more. Now you know what it is you have to do.”
“I’ve been thinking it over calmly,” he said, staring at them with bloodshot, weary eyes. “I realize I need to get rid of that intriguing character. He’s somehow managed to worm his way onto the personal staff of the marshal. It’s a direct challenge to me. I can’t stand the thought of being in a situation where I might receive an order through him. And God knows what that order could be! That kind of thing has happened before—and once is already too much. He knows this perfectly well, so don’t worry. I can’t say any more. Now you know what you need to do.”
This encounter took place outside the town of Lubeck, on very open ground, selected with special care in deference to the general sentiment of the cavalry division belonging to the army corps, that this time the two officers should meet on horseback. After all, this duel was a cavalry affair, and to persist in fighting on foot would look like a slight on one’s own arm of the service. The seconds, startled by the unusual nature of the suggestion, hastened to refer to their principals. Captain Feraud jumped at it with alacrity. For some obscure reason, depending, no doubt, on his psychology, he imagined himself invincible on horseback. All alone within the four walls of his room he rubbed his hands and muttered triumphantly, “Aha! my pretty staff officer, I’ve got you now.”
This meeting happened outside the town of Lubeck, on very open ground, chosen carefully to respect the feelings of the cavalry division in the army corps, which believed that this time the two officers should meet on horseback. After all, this duel was a cavalry matter, and continuing to fight on foot would seem like a disrespect to one's own branch of the military. The seconds, surprised by the unusual suggestion, quickly referred to their principals. Captain Feraud jumped at the chance eagerly. For some unclear reason, likely tied to his mindset, he believed he was unbeatable on horseback. All alone in his room, he rubbed his hands together and muttered triumphantly, “Aha! My clever staff officer, I’ve got you now.”
Captain D’Hubert on his side, after staring hard for a considerable time at his friends, shrugged his shoulders slightly. This affair had hopelessly and unreasonably complicated his existence for him. One absurdity more or less in the development did not matter—all absurdity was distasteful to him; but, urbane as ever, he produced a faintly ironical smile, and said in his calm voice, “It certainly will do away to some extent with the monotony of the thing.”
Captain D’Hubert, after staring intently at his friends for a long time, shrugged his shoulders slightly. This situation had hopelessly and unreasonably complicated his life. One more absurdity in the mix didn’t really matter—all absurdity was irritating to him; but, ever the gentleman, he managed a faintly ironic smile and said in his calm voice, “It certainly will help break the monotony of it all.”
When left alone, he sat down at a table and took his head into his hands. He had not spared himself of late and the marshal had been working all his aides-decamp particularly hard. The last three weeks of campaigning in horrible weather had affected his health. When over-tired he suffered from a stitch in his wounded side, and that uncomfortable sensation always depressed him. “It’s that brute’s doing, too,” he thought bitterly.
When he was left alone, he sat down at a table and put his head in his hands. He hadn’t taken it easy lately, and the marshal had been pushing all his aides-de-camp especially hard. The last three weeks of campaigning in terrible weather had taken a toll on his health. When he was overly tired, he experienced a sharp pain in his wounded side, and that uncomfortable feeling always brought him down. “It’s that monster’s fault, too,” he thought bitterly.
The day before he had received a letter from home, announcing that his only sister was going to be married. He reflected that from the time she was nineteen and he twenty-six, when he went away to garrison life in Strasbourg, he had had but two short glimpses of her. They had been great friends and confidants; and now she was going to be given away to a man whom he did not know—a very worthy fellow no doubt, but not half good enough for her. He would never see his old Leonie again. She had a capable little head, and plenty of tact; she would know how to manage the fellow, to be sure. He was easy in his mind about her happiness but he felt ousted from the first place in her thoughts which had been his ever since the girl could speak. A melancholy regret of the days of his childhood settled upon Captain D’Hubert, third aide-de-camp to the Prince of Ponte Corvo.
The day before, he had received a letter from home announcing that his only sister was getting married. He thought about how, since she was nineteen and he was twenty-six when he left for military life in Strasbourg, he had only seen her twice for a short time. They had been close friends and confidants; now she was being given away to a man he didn’t know—a very good guy, no doubt, but not nearly good enough for her. He would never see his old Leonie again. She had a smart little head and plenty of tact; she would know how to handle him, for sure. He felt at ease about her happiness, but he also felt pushed out from the top spot in her thoughts, which had been his ever since she could speak. A wistful regret for his childhood settled over Captain D’Hubert, third aide-de-camp to the Prince of Ponte Corvo.
He threw aside the letter of congratulation he had begun to write as in duty bound, but without enthusiasm. He took a fresh piece of paper, and traced on it the words: “This is my last will and testament.” Looking at these words he gave himself up to unpleasant reflection; a presentiment that he would never see the scenes of his childhood weighed down the equable spirits of Captain D’Hubert. He jumped up, pushing his chair back, yawned elaborately in sign that he didn’t care anything for presentiments, and throwing himself on the bed went to sleep. During the night he shivered from time to time without waking up. In the morning he rode out of town between his two seconds, talking of indifferent things, and looking right and left with apparent detachment into the heavy morning mists shrouding the flat green fields bordered by hedges. He leaped a ditch, and saw the forms of many mounted men moving in the fog. “We are to fight before a gallery, it seems,” he muttered to himself, bitterly.
He tossed aside the congratulatory letter he had started to write because he felt obligated, but without any excitement. He grabbed a new piece of paper and wrote the words: “This is my last will and testament.” Looking at those words, he fell into unpleasant thoughts; a nagging feeling that he would never see the places of his childhood dampened Captain D’Hubert's normally steady mood. He jumped up, pushed his chair back, and let out a big yawn to show he didn't care about those feelings. Throwing himself onto the bed, he went to sleep. Throughout the night, he occasionally shivered without waking up. In the morning, he rode out of town with his two seconds, chatting about unimportant things while casually glancing around into the thick morning fog covering the flat green fields lined with hedges. He jumped over a ditch and saw the silhouettes of many horsemen moving through the mist. “Looks like we’re going to fight in front of an audience,” he muttered bitterly to himself.
His seconds were rather concerned at the state of the atmosphere, but presently a pale, sickly sun struggled out of the low vapours, and Captain D’Hubert made out, in the distance, three horsemen riding a little apart from the others. It was Captain Feraud and his seconds. He drew his sabre, and assured himself that it was properly fastened to his wrist. And now the seconds, who had been standing in close group with the heads of their horses together, separated at an easy canter, leaving a large, clear field between him and his adversary. Captain D’Hubert looked at the pale sun, at the dismal fields, and the imbecility of the impending fight filled him with desolation. From a distant part of the field a stentorian voice shouted commands at proper intervals: Au pas—Au trot—Charrrgez! . . . Presentiments of death don’t come to a man for nothing, he thought at the very moment he put spurs to his horse.
His seconds were quite worried about the mood in the air, but soon a weak, sickly sun broke through the low mist, and Captain D’Hubert spotted three horsemen a bit apart from the others in the distance. It was Captain Feraud and his seconds. He drew his saber and made sure it was securely strapped to his wrist. Then, the seconds, who had been huddled together with their horses' heads close, moved apart at a relaxed canter, creating a large, clear space between him and his opponent. Captain D’Hubert glanced at the pale sun, the bleak fields, and felt a sense of hopelessness about the upcoming fight. From a far part of the field, a booming voice shouted commands at regular intervals: “Walk—Trot—Charge!…” He thought to himself that ominous feelings of death don’t come to someone for no reason, just as he urged his horse forward.
And therefore he was more than surprised when, at the very first set-to, Captain Feraud laid himself open to a cut over the forehead, which blinding him with blood, ended the combat almost before it had fairly begun. It was impossible to go on. Captain D’Hubert, leaving his enemy swearing horribly and reeling in the saddle between his two appalled friends, leaped the ditch again into the road and trotted home with his two seconds, who seemed rather awestruck at the speedy issue of that encounter. In the evening Captain D’Hubert finished the congratulatory letter on his sister’s marriage.
And so he was more than surprised when, at the very first duel, Captain Feraud exposed himself to a cut over the forehead, which blinded him with blood and ended the fight almost before it had really started. It was impossible to continue. Captain D’Hubert, leaving his opponent swearing violently and staggering in the saddle between his two shocked friends, jumped the ditch again onto the road and rode home with his two seconds, who looked a bit stunned by how quickly that encounter had ended. In the evening, Captain D’Hubert finished the congratulatory letter for his sister’s marriage.
He finished it late. It was a long letter. Captain D’Hubert gave reins to his fancy. He told his sister that he would feel rather lonely after this great change in her life; but then the day would come for him, too, to get married. In fact, he was thinking already of the time when there would be no one left to fight with in Europe and the epoch of wars would be over. “I expect then,” he wrote, “to be within measurable distance of a marshal’s baton, and you will be an experienced married woman. You shall look out a wife for me. I will be, probably, bald by then, and a little blase. I shall require a young girl, pretty of course, and with a large fortune, which should help me to close my glorious career in the splendour befitting my exalted rank.” He ended with the information that he had just given a lesson to a worrying, quarrelsome fellow who imagined he had a grievance against him. “But if you, in the depths of your province,” he continued, “ever hear it said that your brother is of a quarrelsome disposition, don’t you believe it on any account. There is no saying what gossip from the army may reach your innocent ears. Whatever you hear you may rest assured that your ever-loving brother is not a duellist.” Then Captain D’Hubert crumpled up the blank sheet of paper headed with the words “This is my last will and testament,” and threw it in the fire with a great laugh at himself. He didn’t care a snap for what that lunatic could do. He had suddenly acquired the conviction that his adversary was utterly powerless to affect his life in any sort of way; except, perhaps, in the way of putting a special excitement into the delightful, gay intervals between the campaigns.
He finished it late. It was a long letter. Captain D’Hubert let his imagination run wild. He told his sister that he would feel rather lonely after this big change in her life; but then the day would come for him, too, to get married. In fact, he was already thinking about the time when there would be no one left to fight in Europe and the era of wars would be over. “I expect then,” he wrote, “to be close to a marshal’s baton, and you will be an experienced married woman. You should find me a wife. I will probably be bald by then and a little jaded. I’ll need a young girl, of course pretty and with a large fortune, which should help me end my glorious career in the splendor that fits my high rank.” He wrapped up by saying that he had just taught a bothersome, quarrelsome guy who thought he had a reason to be angry with him. “But if you, way out there in your province,” he continued, “ever hear that your brother is a troublemaker, don’t believe it for a second. You never know what gossip from the army might reach your innocent ears. Whatever you hear, you can be sure that your ever-loving brother is not a duelist.” Then Captain D’Hubert crumpled up the blank sheet of paper that said, “This is my last will and testament,” and tossed it into the fire, laughing at himself. He didn’t care at all about what that lunatic could do. He had suddenly become convinced that his opponent was completely powerless to affect his life in any way; except, maybe, by adding a special thrill to the fun, carefree moments between campaigns.
From this on there were, however, to be no peaceful intervals in the career of Captain D’Hubert. He saw the fields of Eylau and Friedland, marched and countermarched in the snow, in the mud, in the dust of Polish plains, picking up distinction and advancement on all the roads of North-eastern Europe. Meantime, Captain Feraud, despatched southwards with his regiment, made unsatisfactory war in Spain. It was only when the preparations for the Russian campaign began that he was ordered north again. He left the country of mantillas and oranges without regret.
From that point on, there were no more peaceful moments in Captain D’Hubert's career. He experienced the battlefields of Eylau and Friedland, marching back and forth through snow, mud, and the dust of Polish plains, earning recognition and promotions all over North-eastern Europe. Meanwhile, Captain Feraud, sent south with his regiment, was having a frustrating time in the war in Spain. It was only when preparations for the Russian campaign started that he was ordered back north. He left the land of mantillas and oranges without a second thought.
The first signs of a not unbecoming baldness added to the lofty aspect of Colonel D’Hubert’s forehead. This feature was no longer white and smooth as in the days of his youth; the kindly open glance of his blue eyes had grown a little hard as if from much peering through the smoke of battles. The ebony crop on Colonel Feraud’s head, coarse and crinkly like a cap of horsehair, showed many silver threads about the temples. A detestable warfare of ambushes and inglorious surprises had not improved his temper. The beak-like curve of his nose was unpleasantly set off by a deep fold on each side of his mouth. The round orbits of his eyes radiated wrinkles. More than ever he recalled an irritable and staring bird—something like a cross between a parrot and an owl. He was still extremely outspoken in his dislike of “intriguing fellows.” He seized every opportunity to state that he did not pick up his rank in the ante-rooms of marshals. The unlucky persons, civil or military, who, with an intention of being pleasant, begged Colonel Feraud to tell them how he came by that very apparent scar on the forehead, were astonished to find themselves snubbed in various ways, some of which were simply rude and others mysteriously sardonic. Young officers were warned kindly by their more experienced comrades not to stare openly at the colonel’s scar. But indeed an officer need have been very young in his profession not to have heard the legendary tale of that duel originating in a mysterious, unforgivable offence.
The first signs of an unflattering baldness added to the grand look of Colonel D’Hubert’s forehead. This feature was no longer white and smooth like in his youth; the friendly, open gaze of his blue eyes had hardened a bit, as if from staring through the smoke of battles. The dark hair on Colonel Feraud’s head, rough and curly like a horsehair cap, had many gray strands at the temples. A nasty series of ambushes and disgraceful surprises had not improved his temper. The hooked shape of his nose was unpleasantly highlighted by deep creases on each side of his mouth. The round shapes of his eyes showed a lot of wrinkles. More than ever, he resembled an irritable, wide-eyed bird—something like a mix between a parrot and an owl. He was still very vocal about his dislike for “intriguing fellows.” He took every chance to emphasize that he didn’t earn his rank in the back rooms of marshals. Anyone, civilian or military, who asked him about the noticeable scar on his forehead, hoping to be friendly, was surprised to find themselves dismissed in various ways, some simply rude and others mysteriously sarcastic. Young officers were kindly advised by their more seasoned colleagues not to openly stare at the colonel’s scar. But honestly, an officer would have had to be quite new in his career not to have heard the legendary story of that duel sparked by a mysterious, unforgivable offense.
III
III
The retreat from Moscow submerged all private feelings in a sea of disaster and misery. Colonels without regiments, D’Hubert and Feraud carried the musket in the ranks of the so-called sacred battalion—a battalion recruited from officers of all arms who had no longer any troops to lead.
The retreat from Moscow drowned all personal emotions in a wave of disaster and despair. Colonels without regiments, D’Hubert and Feraud, carried their muskets in the ranks of the so-called sacred battalion—a battalion made up of officers from all branches who no longer had any troops to command.
In that battalion promoted colonels did duty as sergeants; the generals captained the companies; a marshal of France, Prince of the Empire, commanded the whole. All had provided themselves with muskets picked up on the road, and with cartridges taken from the dead. In the general destruction of the bonds of discipline and duty holding together the companies, the battalions, the regiments, the brigades, and divisions of an armed host, this body of men put its pride in preserving some semblance of order and formation. The only stragglers were those who fell out to give up to the frost their exhausted souls. They plodded on, and their passage did not disturb the mortal silence of the plains, shining with the livid light of snows under a sky the colour of ashes. Whirlwinds ran along the fields, broke against the dark column, enveloped it in a turmoil of flying icicles, and subsided, disclosing it creeping on its tragic way without the swing and rhythm of the military pace. It struggled onwards, the men exchanging neither words nor looks; whole ranks marched touching elbow, day after day and never raising their eyes from the ground, as if lost in despairing reflections. In the dumb, black forests of pines the cracking of overloaded branches was the only sound they heard. Often from daybreak to dusk no one spoke in the whole column. It was like a macabre march of struggling corpses towards a distant grave. Only an alarm of Cossacks could restore to their eyes a semblance of martial resolution. The battalion faced about and deployed, or formed square under the endless fluttering of snowflakes. A cloud of horsemen with fur caps on their heads, levelled long lances, and yelled “Hurrah! Hurrah!” around their menacing immobility whence, with muffled detonations, hundreds of dark red flames darted through the air thick with falling snow. In a very few moments the horsemen would disappear, as if carried off yelling in the gale, and the sacred battalion standing still, alone in the blizzard, heard only the howling of the wind, whose blasts searched their very hearts. Then, with a cry or two of “Vive l’Empereur!” it would resume its march, leaving behind a few lifeless bodies lying huddled up, tiny black specks on the white immensity of the snows.
In that battalion, promoted colonels acted as sergeants; the generals led the companies; a marshal of France, Prince of the Empire, commanded the whole unit. Everyone had armed themselves with muskets they found along the way and cartridges taken from the dead. In the chaos that broke down the discipline and duty binding together the companies, battalions, regiments, brigades, and divisions of the armed forces, this group of men took pride in maintaining some level of order and formation. The only stragglers were those who fell behind, surrendering their exhausted souls to the frost. They trudged on, and their passage didn’t disrupt the eerie silence of the plains, shining under the pale light of snow against a sky the color of ashes. Whirlwinds swept across the fields, crashed against the dark column, enveloping it in a swirl of flying icicles, then receded, revealing it creeping along its tragic path without the usual military rhythm. It pressed forward, the men exchanging neither words nor glances; whole ranks marched shoulder to shoulder, day after day, never lifting their eyes from the ground, as if lost in despairing thoughts. In the silent, dark pine forests, the only sound they heard was the cracking of overloaded branches. Often from dawn to dusk, no one spoke in the entire column. It felt like a grim march of struggling corpses toward a distant grave. Only the threat of Cossacks could bring back some martial spirit to their eyes. The battalion turned around and formed up or created a square under the endless fluttering of snowflakes. A cloud of horsemen in fur caps leveled long lances and shouted “Hurrah! Hurrah!” around their threatening stillness, from which muffled detonations sent hundreds of dark red flames shooting through the snow-filled air. In just a few moments, the horsemen would vanish, as if swept away by the wind, and the sacred battalion stood alone in the blizzard, hearing only the howling wind, whose blasts pierced their very hearts. Then, with a few cries of “Vive l’Empereur!” it would continue its march, leaving behind a few lifeless bodies huddled together, tiny black specks in the vast white expanse of snow.
Though often marching in the ranks, or skirmishing in the woods side by side, the two officers ignored each other; this not so much from inimical intention as from a very real indifference. All their store of moral energy was expended in resisting the terrific enmity of nature and the crushing sense of irretrievable disaster. To the last they counted among the most active, the least demoralized of the battalion; their vigorous vitality invested them both with the appearance of an heroic pair in the eyes of their comrades. And they never exchanged more than a casual word or two, except one day, when skirmishing in front of the battalion against a worrying attack of cavalry, they found themselves cut off in the woods by a small party of Cossacks. A score of fur-capped, hairy horsemen rode to and fro, brandishing their lances in ominous silence; but the two officers had no mind to lay down their arms, and Colonel Feraud suddenly spoke up in a hoarse, growling voice, bringing his firelock to the shoulder. “You take the nearest brute, Colonel D’Hubert; I’ll settle the next one. I am a better shot than you are.”
Even though they often marched in ranks or fought side by side in the woods, the two officers ignored each other; this wasn’t due to any hatred but rather a genuine indifference. All their moral energy was used up battling the harshness of nature and the overwhelming feeling of inevitable disaster. Until the end, they were among the most active and least discouraged in the battalion; their robust vitality made them appear as a heroic duo in the eyes of their comrades. They rarely exchanged more than a casual word or two, except one day when they were skirmishing in front of the battalion against a troublesome cavalry attack and found themselves trapped in the woods by a small group of Cossacks. About twenty fur-capped, bearded horsemen rode back and forth, brandishing their lances in eerie silence; but the two officers had no intention of surrendering, and Colonel Feraud suddenly spoke up in a rough, growling voice, bringing his rifle up to his shoulder. “You take the closest one, Colonel D’Hubert; I’ll handle the next. I’m a better shot than you.”
Colonel D’Hubert nodded over his levelled musket. Their shoulders were pressed against the trunk of a large tree; on their front enormous snowdrifts protected them from a direct charge. Two carefully aimed shots rang out in the frosty air, two Cossacks reeled in their saddles. The rest, not thinking the game good enough, closed round their wounded comrades and galloped away out of range. The two officers managed to rejoin their battalion halted for the night. During that afternoon they had leaned upon each other more than once, and towards the end, Colonel D’Hubert, whose long legs gave him an advantage in walking through soft snow, peremptorily took the musket of Colonel Feraud from him and carried it on his shoulder, using his own as a staff.
Colonel D’Hubert nodded as he aimed his musket. Their shoulders were pressed against the trunk of a large tree; in front of them, huge snowdrifts shielded them from a direct charge. Two carefully aimed shots rang out in the icy air, and two Cossacks swayed in their saddles. The rest, deciding it wasn't worth the risk, gathered around their injured comrades and galloped away out of reach. The two officers managed to rejoin their battalion, which had stopped for the night. Throughout that afternoon, they had leaned on each other more than once, and near the end, Colonel D’Hubert, with his long legs giving him an advantage in the soft snow, firmly took Colonel Feraud's musket from him and carried it over his shoulder, using his own as a staff.
On the outskirts of a village half buried in the snow an old wooden barn burned with a clear and an immense flame. The sacred battalion of skeletons, muffled in rags, crowded greedily the windward side, stretching hundreds of numbed, bony hands to the blaze. Nobody had noted their approach. Before entering the circle of light playing on the sunken, glassy-eyed, starved faces, Colonel D’Hubert spoke in his turn:
On the edge of a village buried in snow, an old wooden barn burned with a bright and massive flame. A sacred group of skeletons, wrapped in rags, crowded eagerly on the windward side, reaching out with hundreds of cold, bony hands toward the fire. No one had noticed them coming. Before stepping into the circle of light illuminating the sunken, glassy-eyed, starved faces, Colonel D’Hubert spoke up:
“Here’s your musket, Colonel Feraud. I can walk better than you.”
“Here’s your musket, Colonel Feraud. I can walk better than you can.”
Colonel Feraud nodded, and pushed on towards the warmth of the fierce flames. Colonel D’Hubert was more deliberate, but not the less bent on getting a place in the front rank. Those they shouldered aside tried to greet with a faint cheer the reappearance of the two indomitable companions in activity and endurance. Those manly qualities had never perhaps received a higher tribute than this feeble acclamation.
Colonel Feraud nodded and moved toward the warmth of the intense flames. Colonel D’Hubert was more careful but just as determined to secure a spot in the front row. The people they pushed aside attempted to greet the return of the two resilient friends with a weak cheer, recognizing their strength and perseverance. Those qualities probably never received a greater honor than this faint applause.
This is the faithful record of speeches exchanged during the retreat from Moscow by Colonels Feraud and D’Hubert. Colonel Feraud’s taciturnity was the outcome of concentrated rage. Short, hairy, black faced, with layers of grime and the thick sprouting of a wiry beard, a frost-bitten hand wrapped up in filthy rags carried in a sling, he accused fate of unparalleled perfidy towards the sublime Man of Destiny. Colonel D’Hubert, his long moustaches pendent in icicles on each side of his cracked blue lips, his eyelids inflamed with the glare of snows, the principal part of his costume consisting of a sheepskin coat looted with difficulty from the frozen corpse of a camp follower found in an abandoned cart, took a more thoughtful view of events. His regularly handsome features, now reduced to mere bony lines and fleshless hollows, looked out of a woman’s black velvet hood, over which was rammed forcibly a cocked hat picked up under the wheels of an empty army fourgon, which must have contained at one time some general officer’s luggage. The sheepskin coat being short for a man of his inches ended very high up, and the skin of his legs, blue with the cold, showed through the tatters of his nether garments. This under the circumstances provoked neither jeers nor pity. No one cared how the next man felt or looked. Colonel D’Hubert himself, hardened to exposure, suffered mainly in his self-respect from the lamentable indecency of his costume. A thoughtless person may think that with a whole host of inanimate bodies bestrewing the path of retreat there could not have been much difficulty in supplying the deficiency. But to loot a pair of breeches from a frozen corpse is not so easy as it may appear to a mere theorist. It requires time and labour. You must remain behind while your companions march on. Colonel D’Hubert had his scruples as to falling out. Once he had stepped aside he could not be sure of ever rejoining his battalion; and the ghastly intimacy of a wrestling match with the frozen dead opposing the unyielding rigidity of iron to your violence was repugnant to the delicacy of his feelings. Luckily, one day, grubbing in a mound of snow between the huts of a village in the hope of finding there a frozen potato or some vegetable garbage he could put between his long and shaky teeth, Colonel D’Hubert uncovered a couple of mats of the sort Russian peasants use to line the sides of their carts with. These, beaten free of frozen snow, bent about his elegant person and fastened solidly round his waist, made a bell-shaped nether garment, a sort of stiff petticoat, which rendered Colonel D’Hubert a perfectly decent, but a much more noticeable figure than before.
This is the accurate account of the conversations that took place during the retreat from Moscow between Colonels Feraud and D’Hubert. Colonel Feraud's silence was a result of his intense anger. Short, hairy, with a dark face covered in grime and a thick wiry beard, and with a frostbitten hand wrapped in filthy rags carried in a sling, he blamed fate for an unprecedented betrayal against the great Man of Destiny. Colonel D’Hubert, with long mustaches hanging icicles on either side of his cracked blue lips and his eyelids red from the glare of the snow, mostly dressed in a sheepskin coat scavenged with difficulty from the frozen body of a camp follower found in an abandoned cart, had a more reflective perspective on the situation. His once handsome features, now reduced to mere bony lines and hollow cheeks, peered out from a woman’s black velvet hood, topped with a cocked hat forcibly jammed on, picked up from under the wheels of an empty army wagon that must have once carried a general's luggage. The sheepskin coat was too short for his tall frame, ending very high up, exposing his frostbitten legs through the tattered remains of his trousers. Under these circumstances, there were no jeers or pity; no one cared how anyone else felt or looked. Colonel D’Hubert, accustomed to the cold, mainly struggled with feelings of self-respect due to the shame of his outfit. One might think that with so many lifeless bodies scattered along the retreat, it wouldn't be too hard to find a replacement. But taking a pair of pants from a frozen corpse isn't as easy as it sounds to someone who hasn't tried it. It takes time and effort. You have to remain behind while your comrades move on. Colonel D’Hubert had his scruples about falling out of line. Once he stepped aside, he couldn’t be sure he’d ever catch up with his battalion again, and the disturbing thought of wrestling with the frozen dead who were rigid as iron was unpleasant to him. Fortunately, one day while digging in a snowbank between the huts of a village in search of a frozen potato or some vegetable scraps to chew on, Colonel D’Hubert found a couple of mats used by Russian peasants to line their carts. Once he shook off the frozen snow and wrapped those around his waist, they formed a bell-shaped skirt, a sort of stiff petticoat, making Colonel D’Hubert a much more decent, but noticeably more conspicuous figure than before.
Thus accoutred, he continued to retreat, never doubting of his personal escape, but full of other misgivings. The early buoyancy of his belief in the future was destroyed. If the road of glory led through such unforeseen passages, he asked himself—for he was reflective—whether the guide was altogether trustworthy. It was a patriotic sadness, not unmingled with some personal concern, and quite unlike the unreasoning indignation against men and things nursed by Colonel Feraud. Recruiting his strength in a little German town for three weeks, Colonel D’Hubert was surprised to discover within himself a love of repose. His returning vigour was strangely pacific in its aspirations. He meditated silently upon this bizarre change of mood. No doubt many of his brother officers of field rank went through the same moral experience. But these were not the times to talk of it. In one of his letters home Colonel D’Hubert wrote, “All your plans, my dear Leonie, for marrying me to the charming girl you have discovered in your neighbourhood, seem farther off than ever. Peace is not yet. Europe wants another lesson. It will be a hard task for us, but it shall be done, because the Emperor is invincible.”
Dressed like this, he kept retreating, never doubting his own escape but filled with other worries. The early excitement he had about the future was gone. If the path to glory involved such unexpected turns, he wondered—since he was thoughtful—whether the guide was really reliable. It was a patriotic sadness mixed with some personal concern, quite different from the blind anger against people and things that Colonel Feraud felt. After recovering his strength in a small German town for three weeks, Colonel D’Hubert was surprised to find a newfound appreciation for rest. His returning energy was oddly peaceful in its hopes. He quietly contemplated this strange shift in his mood. No doubt many of his fellow field officers experienced the same moral struggle. But these weren't the times to discuss it. In one of his letters home, Colonel D’Hubert wrote, “All your plans, my dear Leonie, to marry me off to the lovely girl you’ve found in your neighborhood seem further away than ever. Peace isn’t here yet. Europe needs another lesson. It will be a tough task for us, but it will be done because the Emperor is invincible.”
Thus wrote Colonel D ‘Hubert from Pomerania to his married sister Leonie, settled in the south of France. And so far the sentiments expressed would not have been disowned by Colonel Feraud, who wrote no letters to anybody, whose father had been in life an illiterate blacksmith, who had no sister or brother, and whom no one desired ardently to pair off for a life of peace with a charming young girl. But Colonel D ‘Hubert’s letter contained also some philosophical generalities upon the uncertainty of all personal hopes, when bound up entirely with the prestigious fortune of one incomparably great it is true, yet still remaining but a man in his greatness. This view would have appeared rank heresy to Colonel Feraud. Some melancholy forebodings of a military kind, expressed cautiously, would have been pronounced as nothing short of high treason by Colonel Feraud. But Leonie, the sister of Colonel D’Hubert, read them with profound satisfaction, and, folding the letter thoughtfully, remarked to herself that “Armand was likely to prove eventually a sensible fellow.” Since her marriage into a Southern family she had become a convinced believer in the return of the legitimate king. Hopeful and anxious she offered prayers night and morning, and burnt candles in churches for the safety and prosperity of her brother.
Thus wrote Colonel D'Hubert from Pomerania to his married sister Leonie, who lived in the south of France. The feelings expressed wouldn’t have been disavowed by Colonel Feraud, who didn’t write letters to anyone, whose father had been an uneducated blacksmith, who had no siblings, and whom no one passionately wished to pair off with a charming young girl for a peaceful life. But Colonel D'Hubert’s letter also included some philosophical thoughts on the uncertainty of personal hopes when they're completely tied to the prestigious fortune of one impressively great, yet still just a man in his greatness. This perspective would have seemed like outright heresy to Colonel Feraud. Any cautious expressions of military-related melancholy would have been labeled nothing less than high treason by Colonel Feraud. But Leonie, Colonel D'Hubert's sister, read them with deep satisfaction and, folding the letter thoughtfully, remarked to herself that "Armand was likely to turn out to be a sensible guy." Since marrying into a Southern family, she had become a firm believer in the return of the legitimate king. Hopeful and anxious, she offered prayers morning and night, and lit candles in churches for her brother’s safety and success.
She had every reason to suppose that her prayers were heard. Colonel D’Hubert passed through Lutzen, Bautzen, and Leipsic losing no limb, and acquiring additional reputation. Adapting his conduct to the needs of that desperate time, he had never voiced his misgivings. He concealed them under a cheerful courtesy of such pleasant character that people were inclined to ask themselves with wonder whether Colonel D’Hubert was aware of any disasters. Not only his manners, but even his glances remained untroubled. The steady amenity of his blue eyes disconcerted all grumblers, and made despair itself pause.
She had every reason to believe that her prayers were answered. Colonel D’Hubert went through Lutzen, Bautzen, and Leipsic without losing a limb and gaining more fame. Adapting his behavior to the demands of that desperate time, he never expressed his doubts. He hid them behind a cheerful politeness that was so pleasant that people found themselves wondering if Colonel D’Hubert knew about any disasters. Not just his manners, but even his looks remained calm. The steady friendliness in his blue eyes unsettled all the complainers and made even despair hesitate.
This bearing was remarked favourably by the Emperor himself; for Colonel D’Hubert, attached now to the Major-General’s staff, came on several occasions under the imperial eye. But it exasperated the higher strung nature of Colonel Feraud. Passing through Magdeburg on service, this last allowed himself, while seated gloomily at dinner with the Commandant de Place, to say of his life-long adversary: “This man does not love the Emperor,” and his words were received by the other guests in profound silence. Colonel Feraud, troubled in his conscience at the atrocity of the aspersion, felt the need to back it up by a good argument. “I ought to know him,” he cried, adding some oaths. “One studies one’s adversary. I have met him on the ground half a dozen times, as all the army knows. What more do you want? If that isn’t opportunity enough for any fool to size up his man, may the devil take me if I can tell what is.” And he looked around the table, obstinate and sombre.
This reputation caught the attention of the Emperor himself because Colonel D’Hubert, who was now part of the Major-General’s staff, came under the Emperor's gaze several times. However, it frustrated the more sensitive nature of Colonel Feraud. While passing through Magdeburg on duty, he gloomily told the Commandant de Place during dinner, "This man doesn’t love the Emperor," and his remark was met with silence from the other guests. Colonel Feraud, disturbed by the severity of his accusation, felt the need to support it with solid reasoning. "I should know him," he exclaimed, adding some curses. "One studies their enemy. I’ve faced him on the battlefield half a dozen times, as everyone in the army knows. What more do you need? If that’s not enough opportunity for any fool to get a read on their opponent, then I don’t know what is." He scanned the table with a defiant and dark expression.
Later on in Paris, while extremely busy reorganizing his regiment, Colonel Feraud learned that Colonel D’Hubert had been made a general. He glared at his informant incredulously, then folded his arms and turned away muttering, “Nothing surprises me on the part of that man.”
Later on in Paris, while he was really busy reorganizing his regiment, Colonel Feraud found out that Colonel D’Hubert had been promoted to general. He stared at the person who told him this in disbelief, then crossed his arms and turned away, muttering, “Nothing surprises me when it comes to that guy.”
And aloud he added, speaking over his shoulder, “You would oblige me greatly by telling General D’Hubert at the first opportunity that his advancement saves him for a time from a pretty hot encounter. I was only waiting for him to turn up here.”
And he said, looking back, “It would really help me if you could tell General D’Hubert at the first chance that his promotion keeps him safe for now from a pretty tough confrontation. I was just waiting for him to show up here.”
The other officer remonstrated.
The other officer protested.
“Could you think of it, Colonel Feraud, at this time, when every life should be consecrated to the glory and safety of France?”
“Can you believe it, Colonel Feraud, at a time like this, when every life should be dedicated to the glory and safety of France?”
But the strain of unhappiness caused by military reverses had spoiled Colonel Feraud’s character. Like many other men, he was rendered wicked by misfortune.
But the strain of unhappiness from military setbacks had damaged Colonel Feraud’s character. Like many other men, he was made bitter by misfortune.
“I cannot consider General D’Hubert’s existence of any account either for the glory or safety of France,” he snapped viciously. “You don’t pretend, perhaps, to know him better than I do—I who have met him half a dozen times on the ground—do you?”
“I can’t see how General D’Hubert matters at all for the glory or safety of France,” he shot back angrily. “You don’t actually think you know him better than I do—I who have met him half a dozen times on the field—do you?”
His interlocutor, a young man, was silenced. Colonel Feraud walked up and down the room.
His conversation partner, a young man, fell silent. Colonel Feraud paced the room.
“This is not the time to mince matters,” he said. “I can’t believe that that man ever loved the Emperor. He picked up his general’s stars under the boots of Marshal Berthier. Very well. I’ll get mine in another fashion, and then we shall settle this business which has been dragging on too long.”
“This isn’t the time to beat around the bush,” he said. “I can’t believe that man ever loved the Emperor. He earned his general’s stars by following Marshal Berthier’s orders. Fine. I’ll earn mine another way, and then we’ll finally resolve this situation that’s been going on for too long.”
General D’Hubert, informed indirectly of Colonel Feraud’s attitude, made a gesture as if to put aside an importunate person. His thoughts were solicited by graver cares. He had had no time to go and see his family. His sister, whose royalist hopes were rising higher every day, though proud of her brother, regretted his recent advancement in a measure, because it put on him a prominent mark of the usurper’s favour, which later on could have an adverse influence upon his career. He wrote to her that no one but an inveterate enemy could say he had got his promotion by favour. As to his career, he assured her that he looked no farther forward into the future than the next battlefield.
General D’Hubert, indirectly aware of Colonel Feraud’s attitude, waved away an annoying person. His mind was occupied with more serious concerns. He hadn’t had time to visit his family. His sister, whose royalist hopes were growing stronger every day, although proud of her brother, felt a bit regretful about his recent promotion, as it marked him with a visible sign of the usurper’s favor, which could later negatively affect his career. He wrote to her that only a determined enemy could claim he got his promotion through favoritism. Regarding his career, he assured her that he looked no further ahead than the next battlefield.
Beginning the campaign of France in this dogged spirit, General D’Hubert was wounded on the second day of the battle under Laon. While being carried off the field he heard that Colonel Feraud, promoted this moment to general, had been sent to replace him at the head of his brigade. He cursed his luck impulsively, not being able at the first glance to discern all the advantages of a nasty wound. And yet it was by this heroic method that Providence was shaping his future. Travelling slowly south to his sister’s country home under the care of a trusty old servant, General D’Hubert was spared the humiliating contacts and the perplexities of conduct which assailed the men of Napoleonic empire at the moment of its downfall. Lying in his bed, with the windows of his room open wide to the sunshine of Provence, he perceived the undisguised aspect of the blessing conveyed by that jagged fragment of a Prussian shell, which, killing his horse and ripping open his thigh, saved him from an active conflict with his conscience. After the last fourteen years spent sword in hand in the saddle, and with the sense of his duty done to the very end, General D’Hubert found resignation an easy virtue. His sister was delighted with his reasonableness. “I leave myself altogether in your hands, my dear Leonie,” he had said to her.
Beginning the campaign in France with determination, General D’Hubert was wounded on the second day of the battle near Laon. While being carried off the field, he heard that Colonel Feraud, recently promoted to general, had been sent to take his place at the head of his brigade. He cursed his luck in frustration, unable to immediately see the benefits of such an unpleasant injury. Yet, it was through this heroic twist that fate was shaping his future. Traveling slowly south to his sister’s country home with the help of a trusted old servant, General D’Hubert was spared the embarrassing encounters and the confusing actions that troubled the men of Napoleon’s empire at the time of its collapse. Lying in his bed, with the windows wide open to the sunshine of Provence, he realized the clear blessing brought by that jagged piece of a Prussian shell, which, while killing his horse and tearing open his thigh, saved him from an active conflict with his conscience. After spending the last fourteen years with his sword in hand and fulfilling his duty to the very end, General D’Hubert found resignation to be an easy virtue. His sister was pleased with his calmness. “I’m completely in your hands, my dear Leonie,” he had said to her.
He was still laid up when, the credit of his brother-in-law’s family being exerted on his behalf, he received from the royal government not only the confirmation of his rank, but the assurance of being retained on the active list. To this was added an unlimited convalescent leave. The unfavourable opinion entertained of him in Bonapartist circles, though it rested on nothing more solid than the unsupported pronouncement of General Feraud, was directly responsible for General D’Hubert’s retention on the active list. As to General Feraud, his rank was confirmed, too. It was more than he dared to expect; but Marshal Soult, then Minister of War to the restored king, was partial to officers who had served in Spain. Only not even the marshal’s protection could secure for him active employment. He remained irreconcilable, idle, and sinister. He sought in obscure restaurants the company of other half-pay officers who cherished dingy but glorious old tricolour cockades in their breast-pockets, and buttoned with the forbidden eagle buttons their shabby uniforms, declaring themselves too poor to afford the expense of the prescribed change.
He was still recovering when, thanks to the influence of his brother-in-law’s family, he received from the royal government not only confirmation of his rank but also assurance that he would remain on the active list. He was also granted unlimited convalescent leave. The negative opinion held about him in Bonapartist circles, though based solely on the unsupported claims of General Feraud, was directly responsible for General D’Hubert’s retention on the active list. As for General Feraud, his rank was confirmed as well. It was more than he had dared to hope for; however, Marshal Soult, who was the Minister of War for the restored king, favored officers who had served in Spain. Still, not even the marshal’s protection could secure him a position. He remained unapproachable, idle, and brooding. He sought out obscure restaurants to find the company of other half-pay officers who clung to tattered but proud old tricolour cockades in their breast pockets and wore uniforms adorned with forbidden eagle buttons, claiming they were too broke to afford the required changes.
The triumphant return from Elba, an historical fact as marvellous and incredible as the exploits of some mythological demi-god, found General D’Hubert still quite unable to sit a horse. Neither could he walk very well. These disabilities, which Madame Leonie accounted most lucky, helped to keep her brother out of all possible mischief. His frame of mind at that time, she noted with dismay, became very far from reasonable. This general officer, still menaced by the loss of a limb, was discovered one night in the stables of the chateau by a groom, who, seeing a light, raised an alarm of thieves. His crutch was lying half-buried in the straw of the litter, and the general was hopping on one leg in a loose box around a snorting horse he was trying to saddle. Such were the effects of imperial magic upon a calm temperament and a pondered mind. Beset in the light of stable lanterns, by the tears, entreaties, indignation, remonstrances and reproaches of his family, he got out of the difficult situation by fainting away there and then in the arms of his nearest relatives, and was carried off to bed. Before he got out of it again, the second reign of Napoleon, the Hundred Days of feverish agitation and supreme effort, passed away like a terrifying dream. The tragic year 1815, begun in the trouble and unrest of consciences, was ending in vengeful proscriptions.
The triumphant return from Elba, a historical fact as amazing and unbelievable as the adventures of some mythological demigod, found General D’Hubert still completely unable to ride a horse. He also couldn’t walk very well. Madame Leonie considered these disabilities quite fortunate, as they helped keep her brother out of any trouble. She noted with concern that his state of mind at that time was far from reasonable. This general officer, still threatened by the possibility of losing a leg, was discovered one night in the chateau's stables by a groom, who, seeing a light, raised an alarm about thieves. His crutch was half-buried in the straw, and the general was hopping on one leg in a loose box around a snorting horse he was trying to saddle. Such were the effects of imperial influence on a calm temperament and a thoughtful mind. Surrounded by the light of stable lanterns and the tears, pleas, anger, protests, and accusations of his family, he escaped the awkward situation by fainting right there in the arms of his closest relatives, and was carried off to bed. Before he got up again, Napoleon's second reign, the Hundred Days of frantic activity and ultimate effort, had passed like a frightening dream. The tragic year 1815, which began in turmoil and unrest of conscience, was ending in ruthless proscriptions.
How General Feraud escaped the clutches of the Special Commission and the last offices of a firing squad he never knew himself. It was partly due to the subordinate position he was assigned during the Hundred Days. The Emperor had never given him active command, but had kept him busy at the cavalry depot in Paris, mounting and despatching hastily drilled troopers into the field. Considering this task as unworthy of his abilities, he had discharged it with no offensively noticeable zeal; but for the greater part he was saved from the excesses of Royalist reaction by the interference of General D’Hubert.
How General Feraud managed to escape the grip of the Special Commission and the final fate of a firing squad is something he never understood. It was partly because of the low rank he held during the Hundred Days. The Emperor never gave him real command but kept him busy at the cavalry depot in Paris, preparing and sending out hastily trained soldiers into the field. He considered this duty beneath him and performed it with a notable lack of enthusiasm; however, for the most part, he was protected from the harshness of Royalist retaliation by the intervention of General D’Hubert.
This last, still on convalescent leave, but able now to travel, had been despatched by his sister to Paris to present himself to his legitimate sovereign. As no one in the capital could possibly know anything of the episode in the stable he was received there with distinction. Military to the very bottom of his soul, the prospect of rising in his profession consoled him from finding himself the butt of Bonapartist malevolence, which pursued him with a persistence he could not account for. All the rancour of that embittered and persecuted party pointed to him as the man who had never loved the Emperor—a sort of monster essentially worse than a mere betrayer.
This last person, still on recovery leave but now able to travel, had been sent by his sister to Paris to present himself to his rightful ruler. Since no one in the capital could possibly know about the incident in the stable, he was received with honor there. Being military to the core, the idea of advancing in his career comforted him despite being targeted by Bonapartist hostility, which he couldn't quite understand. All the bitterness of that troubled and hunted faction was focused on him as the one who had never loved the Emperor—a kind of monster seen as worse than just a traitor.
General D’Hubert shrugged his shoulders without anger at this ferocious prejudice. Rejected by his old friends, and mistrusting profoundly the advances of Royalist society, the young and handsome general (he was barely forty) adopted a manner of cold, punctilious courtesy, which at the merest shadow of an intended slight passed easily into harsh haughtiness. Thus prepared, General D’Hubert went about his affairs in Paris feeling inwardly very happy with the peculiar uplifting happiness of a man very much in love. The charming girl looked out by his sister had come upon the scene, and had conquered him in the thorough manner in which a young girl by merely existing in his sight can make a man of forty her own. They were going to be married as soon as General D’Hubert had obtained his official nomination to a promised command.
General D’Hubert shrugged his shoulders without getting angry at this intense bias. Rejected by his old friends and deeply suspicious of the advances from Royalist society, the young and attractive general (who was just under forty) adopted a style of cold, meticulous courtesy that could easily turn into harsh arrogance at the slightest hint of an insult. With this mindset, General D’Hubert went about his business in Paris, feeling inwardly very happy with the unique uplift that comes from being deeply in love. The charming girl picked out by his sister had entered his life, and she had captivated him in the absolute way that a young girl can claim a man of forty just by being present. They were going to get married as soon as General D’Hubert received his official nomination for a promised command.
One afternoon, sitting on the terrasse of the Cafe Tortoni, General D’Hubert learned from the conversation of two strangers occupying a table near his own, that General Feraud, included in the batch of superior officers arrested after the second return of the king, was in danger of passing before the Special Commission. Living all his spare moments, as is frequently the case with expectant lovers, a day in advance of reality, and in a state of bestarred hallucination, it required nothing less than the name of his perpetual antagonist pronounced in a loud voice to call the youngest of Napoleon’s generals away from the mental contemplation of his betrothed. He looked round. The strangers wore civilian clothes. Lean and weather-beaten, lolling back in their chairs, they scowled at people with moody and defiant abstraction from under their hats pulled low over their eyes. It was not difficult to recognize them for two of the compulsorily retired officers of the Old Guard. As from bravado or carelessness they chose to speak in loud tones, General D’Hubert, who saw no reason why he should change his seat, heard every word. They did not seem to be the personal friends of General Feraud. His name came up amongst others. Hearing it repeated, General D’Hubert’s tender anticipations of a domestic future adorned with a woman’s grace were traversed by the harsh regret of his warlike past, of that one long, intoxicating clash of arms, unique in the magnitude of its glory and disaster—the marvellous work and the special possession of his own generation. He felt an irrational tenderness towards his old adversary and appreciated emotionally the murderous absurdity their encounter had introduced into his life. It was like an additional pinch of spice in a hot dish. He remembered the flavour with sudden melancholy. He would never taste it again. It was all over. “I fancy it was being left lying in the garden that had exasperated him so against me from the first,” he thought, indulgently.
One afternoon, sitting on the terrace of Café Tortoni, General D’Hubert overheard two strangers at a nearby table talking about General Feraud, who was among the high-ranking officers arrested after the king's return and was at risk of facing the Special Commission. Lost in his daydreams like many hopeful lovers, imagining a future with his fiancée, he was only jolted from his thoughts by the loud mention of his ongoing rival's name. He glanced around. The strangers were in civilian clothes, lean and weathered, slouching in their chairs, scowling at passersby with a moody defiance beneath hats pulled low over their eyes. It was easy to recognize them as two retired officers from the Old Guard. Speaking loudly, perhaps out of bravado or indifference, General D’Hubert heard every word, without feeling the need to change his seat. They didn’t appear to be friends of General Feraud; his name came up along with others. Hearing it, General D’Hubert's sweet visions of a future filled with a woman's grace were interrupted by the harsh pangs of his war-torn past, that long, exhilarating conflict marked by both glory and disaster—an extraordinary chapter unique to his generation. He felt an unexpected fondness for his old rival and emotionally grasped the absurdity that their rivalry had brought into his life. It was like an added kick of spice in a hot meal. He recalled the taste with sudden sadness. He’d never experience it again. It was all behind him. “I guess it was being left in the garden that had made him so bitter towards me from the start,” he thought indulgently.
The two strangers at the next table had fallen silent after the third mention of General Feraud’s name. Presently the elder of the two, speaking again in a bitter tone, affirmed that General Feraud’s account was settled. And why? Simply because he was not like some bigwigs who loved only themselves. The Royalists knew they could never make anything of him. He loved The Other too well.
The two strangers at the next table had gone quiet after the third mention of General Feraud’s name. Eventually, the older one spoke again in a harsh tone, stating that General Feraud’s situation was resolved. And why? Because he wasn’t like other influential people who only cared about themselves. The Royalists understood they could never get anywhere with him. He cared too much for The Other.
The Other was the Man of St. Helena. The two officers nodded and touched glasses before they drank to an impossible return. Then the same who had spoken before, remarked with a sardonic laugh, “His adversary showed more cleverness.”
The Other was the Man of St. Helena. The two officers nodded and clinked their glasses before they toasted to a return that would never happen. Then the one who had spoken earlier said with a sarcastic laugh, “His opponent was smarter.”
“What adversary?” asked the younger, as if puzzled.
“What opponent?” asked the younger one, sounding confused.
“Don’t you know? They were two hussars. At each promotion they fought a duel. Haven’t you heard of the duel going on ever since 1801?”
“Don’t you know? They were two hussars. Every time one of them got a promotion, they fought a duel. Haven’t you heard about the duel that’s been happening since 1801?”
The other had heard of the duel, of course. Now he understood the allusion. General Baron D’Hubert would be able now to enjoy his fat king’s favour in peace.
The other had heard about the duel, of course. Now he got the reference. General Baron D’Hubert would now be able to enjoy his king’s favor in peace.
“Much good may it do to him,” mumbled the elder. “They were both brave men. I never saw this D’Hubert—a sort of intriguing dandy, I am told. But I can well believe what I’ve heard Feraud say of him—that he never loved the Emperor.”
“Hope it helps him,” mumbled the elder. “They were both brave men. I never saw this D’Hubert—a bit of a fancy dandy, I’ve heard. But I can totally believe what I’ve heard Feraud say about him—that he never loved the Emperor.”
They rose and went away.
They got up and left.
General D’Hubert experienced the horror of a somnambulist who wakes up from a complacent dream of activity to find himself walking on a quagmire. A profound disgust of the ground on which he was making his way overcame him. Even the image of the charming girl was swept from his view in the flood of moral distress. Everything he had ever been or hoped to be would taste of bitter ignominy unless he could manage to save General Feraud from the fate which threatened so many braves. Under the impulse of this almost morbid need to attend to the safety of his adversary, General D’Hubert worked so well with hands and feet (as the French saying is), that in less than twenty-four hours he found means of obtaining an extraordinary private audience from the Minister of Police.
General D’Hubert felt the shock of a sleepwalker who, waking from a comfortable dream of activity, realizes he's walking through a muddy bog. A strong sense of disgust for the ground beneath his feet overtook him. Even the image of the lovely girl vanished from his mind in the rush of moral turmoil. Everything he had ever been or dreamed of becoming would feel like bitter shame unless he could find a way to save General Feraud from the fate that threatened so many brave men. Driven by this almost obsessive need to ensure his opponent's safety, General D’Hubert worked so diligently that within twenty-four hours, he managed to secure an extraordinary private meeting with the Minister of Police.
General Baron D’Hubert was shown in suddenly without preliminaries. In the dusk of the Minister’s cabinet, behind the forms of writing-desk, chairs, and tables, between two bunches of wax candles blazing in sconces, he beheld a figure in a gorgeous coat posturing before a tall mirror. The old conventionnel Fouche, Senator of the Empire, traitor to every man, to every principle and motive of human conduct. Duke of Otranto, and the wily artizan of the second Restoration, was trying the fit of a court suit in which his young and accomplished fiancee had declared her intention to have his portrait painted on porcelain. It was a caprice, a charming fancy which the first Minister of Police of the second Restoration was anxious to gratify. For that man, often compared in wiliness of conduct to a fox, but whose ethical side could be worthily symbolized by nothing less emphatic than a skunk, was as much possessed by his love as General D’Hubert himself.
General Baron D’Hubert was brought in unexpectedly. In the dim light of the Minister’s office, around desks, chairs, and tables, and between two clusters of wax candles glowing in sconces, he saw a figure in a fancy coat striking a pose in front of a tall mirror. The old politician Fouche, Senator of the Empire, traitor to everyone, to every principle and motive of human behavior: Duke of Otranto, and the cunning architect of the second Restoration, was trying on a formal suit for which his young and talented fiancée had expressed her desire to have his portrait painted on porcelain. It was a whim, a delightful fancy that the first Minister of Police of the second Restoration was eager to fulfill. For that man, often compared in cleverness to a fox, whose moral side could be aptly represented by nothing less than a skunk, was just as driven by love as General D’Hubert was.
Startled to be discovered thus by the blunder of a servant, he met this little vexation with the characteristic impudence which had served his turn so well in the endless intrigues of his self-seeking career. Without altering his attitude a hair’s-breadth, one leg in a silk stocking advanced, his head twisted over his left shoulder, he called out calmly, “This way, General. Pray approach. Well? I am all attention.”
Startled to be caught like this by a servant's mistake, he faced this minor annoyance with the same boldness that had helped him in the countless schemes of his self-serving career. Without changing his posture at all, one leg in a silk stocking stepped forward, his head turned over his left shoulder, and he called out calmly, “This way, General. Please come closer. So? I’m all ears.”
While General D’Hubert, ill at ease as if one of his own little weaknesses had been exposed, presented his request as shortly as possible, the Duke of Otranto went on feeling the fit of his collar, settling the lapels before the glass, and buckling his back in an effort to behold the set of the gold embroidered coat-skirts behind. His still face, his attentive eyes, could not have expressed a more complete interest in those matters if he had been alone.
While General D’Hubert, feeling uncomfortable as if one of his own flaws had been revealed, made his request as brief as possible, the Duke of Otranto continued to adjust his collar, straighten his lapels in front of the mirror, and straighten his back to see how the gold embroidered coat-tails looked from behind. His impassive face and focused eyes couldn’t have shown more interest in those details if he had been alone.
“Exclude from the operations of the Special Court a certain Feraud, Gabriel Florian, General of brigade of the promotion of 1814?” he repeated, in a slightly wondering tone, and then turned away from the glass. “Why exclude him precisely?”
“Are we excluding a certain Feraud, Gabriel Florian, Brigadier General of the class of 1814 from the Special Court's operations?” he asked, sounding a bit puzzled, before turning away from the mirror. “Why exactly exclude him?”
“I am surprised that your Excellency, so competent in the evaluation of men of his time, should have thought worth while to have that name put down on the list.”
“I’m surprised that you, being so skilled at judging people of your time, found it worthwhile to have that name added to the list.”
“A rabid Bonapartist!”
"A crazy Bonapartist!"
“So is every grenadier and every trooper of the army, as your Excellency well knows. And the individuality of General Feraud can have no more weight than that of any casual grenadier. He is a man of no mental grasp, of no capacity whatever. It is inconceivable that he should ever have any influence.”
“So is every grenadier and every soldier in the army, as you know well, Your Excellency. The individuality of General Feraud carries no more significance than that of any random grenadier. He is a man with no understanding, with no ability whatsoever. It’s hard to believe he could ever have any influence.”
“He has a well-hung tongue, though,” interjected Fouche.
“He has a well-hung tongue, though,” Fouche chimed in.
“Noisy, I admit, but not dangerous.”
"Noisy, I’ll admit, but not harmful."
“I will not dispute with you. I know next to nothing of him. Hardly his name, in fact.”
“I won’t argue with you. I barely know anything about him. I hardly even know his name, to be honest.”
“And yet your Excellency has the presidency of the Commission charged by the king to point out those who were to be tried,” said General D’Hubert, with an emphasis which did not miss the minister’s ear.
“And yet your Excellency is in charge of the Commission appointed by the king to identify those who should be put on trial,” said General D’Hubert, emphasizing his words to ensure the minister heard him.
“Yes, General,” he said, walking away into the dark part of the vast room, and throwing himself into a deep armchair that swallowed him up, all but the soft gleam of gold embroideries and the pallid patch of the face—“yes, General. Take this chair there.”
“Yes, General,” he said, walking into the shadowy area of the large room, and sinking into a deep armchair that engulfed him, leaving only the soft glow of the gold embroidery and the pale spot of his face—“yes, General. Move this chair there.”
General D’Hubert sat down.
General D'Hubert took a seat.
“Yes, General,” continued the arch-master in the arts of intrigue and betrayals, whose duplicity, as if at times intolerable to his self-knowledge, found relief in bursts of cynical openness. “I did hurry on the formation of the proscribing Commission, and I took its presidency. And do you know why? Simply from fear that if I did not take it quickly into my hands my own name would head the list of the proscribed. Such are the times in which we live. But I am minister of the king yet, and I ask you plainly why I should take the name of this obscure Feraud off the list? You wonder how his name got there! Is it possible that you should know men so little? My dear General, at the very first sitting of the Commission names poured on us like rain off the roof of the Tuileries. Names! We had our choice of thousands. How do you know that the name of this Feraud, whose life or death don’t matter to France, does not keep out some other name?”
“Yes, General,” continued the master manipulator of deception and betrayal, whose dishonesty sometimes felt unbearable to his self-awareness, found relief in moments of cynical honesty. “I did rush the formation of the proscribing Commission, and I took its leadership. And do you know why? Simply out of fear that if I didn’t take control quickly, my own name would be at the top of the proscribed list. Such are the times we live in. But I am still the king's minister, and I ask you directly why I should remove this obscure Feraud from the list? You’re surprised his name is there! Can it be that you know people so little? My dear General, at the very first meeting of the Commission, names flooded us like rain pouring off the roof of the Tuileries. Names! We had our pick of thousands. How do you know that the name of this Feraud, whose life or death doesn’t matter to France, isn’t keeping another name off the list?”
The voice out of the armchair stopped. Opposite General D’Hubert sat still, shadowy and silent. Only his sabre clinked slightly. The voice in the armchair began again. “And we must try to satisfy the exigencies of the Allied Sovereigns, too. The Prince de Talleyrand told me only yesterday that Nesselrode had informed him officially of His Majesty the Emperor Alexander’s dissatisfaction at the small number of examples the Government of the king intends to make—especially amongst military men. I tell you this confidentially.”
The voice from the armchair paused. Across from General D’Hubert sat still, shadowy, and silent. Only his saber made a slight clinking sound. The voice in the armchair started again. “And we also need to meet the demands of the Allied Sovereigns. Just yesterday, Prince de Talleyrand told me that Nesselrode officially informed him of Emperor Alexander’s unhappiness with the few examples the king's government plans to set—particularly among military personnel. I’m sharing this with you in confidence.”
“Upon my word!” broke out General D’Hubert, speaking through his teeth, “if your Excellency deigns to favour me with any more confidential information I don’t know what I will do. It’s enough to break one’s sword over one’s knee, and fling the pieces. . . .”
“Honestly!” General D’Hubert exclaimed, his teeth clenched, “if your Excellency gives me any more private information, I don’t know what I’ll do. It’s enough to snap my sword in half and throw the pieces away…”
“What government you imagined yourself to be serving?” interrupted the minister, sharply.
“What government did you think you were going to serve?” interrupted the minister, sharply.
After a short pause the crestfallen voice of General D’Hubert answered, “The Government of France.”
After a brief pause, the defeated voice of General D’Hubert replied, “The Government of France.”
“That’s paying your conscience off with mere words, General. The truth is that you are serving a government of returned exiles, of men who have been without country for twenty years. Of men also who have just got over a very bad and humiliating fright. . . . Have no illusions on that score.”
"That's just paying your conscience off with empty words, General. The reality is that you're serving a government of exiles who have been without a country for twenty years. These are also men who have just recovered from a very bad and humiliating scare... Don't kid yourself about that."
The Duke of Otranto ceased. He had relieved himself, and had attained his object of stripping some self-respect off that man who had inconveniently discovered him posturing in a gold-embroidered court costume before a mirror. But they were a hot-headed lot in the army; it occurred to him that it would be inconvenient if a well-disposed general officer, received in audience on the recommendation of one of the Princes, were to do something rashly scandalous directly after a private interview with the minister. In a changed tone he put a question to the point: “Your relation—this Feraud?”
The Duke of Otranto stopped. He had calmed down and had managed to strip away some of the self-respect from that man who had inconveniently caught him posing in a gold-embroidered court outfit in front of a mirror. But the troops were quite hot-headed; he thought it would be problematic if a well-meaning general officer, recommended by one of the Princes, acted rashly or scandalously right after a private meeting with the minister. Changing his tone, he asked directly, “Your relative—this Feraud?”
“No. No relation at all.”
"Nope. No relation at all."
“Intimate friend?”
“Close friend?”
“Intimate . . . yes. There is between us an intimate connection of a nature which makes it a point of honour with me to try . . .”
“Close . . . yes. We share a close connection that makes it a point of pride for me to try . . .”
The minister rang a bell without waiting for the end of the phrase. When the servant had gone out, after bringing in a pair of heavy silver candelabra for the writing-desk, the Duke of Otranto rose, his breast glistening all over with gold in the strong light, and taking a piece of paper out of a drawer, held it in his hand ostentatiously while he said with persuasive gentleness: “You must not speak of breaking your sword across your knee, General. Perhaps you would never get another. The Emperor will not return this time. . . . Diable d’homme! There was just a moment, here in Paris, soon after Waterloo, when he frightened me. It looked as though he were ready to begin all over again. Luckily one never does begin all over again, really. You must not think of breaking your sword, General.”
The minister rang a bell without waiting for the end of the sentence. After the servant left, having brought in a pair of heavy silver candelabra for the writing desk, the Duke of Otranto stood up, his chest shining with gold in the bright light. He took a piece of paper out of a drawer and held it in his hand prominently as he said gently, “You can’t think about breaking your sword over your knee, General. You might not get another one. The Emperor isn’t coming back this time... Damn man! There was a moment here in Paris, right after Waterloo, when he really scared me. It seemed like he was ready to start all over again. Luckily, we never really do start over. You mustn’t think about breaking your sword, General.”
General D’Hubert, looking on the ground, moved slightly his hand in a hopeless gesture of renunciation. The Minister of Police turned his eyes away from him, and scanned deliberately the paper he had been holding up all the time.
General D’Hubert, staring at the ground, made a slight, hopeless gesture with his hand as if giving up. The Minister of Police looked away from him and carefully examined the paper he had been holding the entire time.
“There are only twenty general officers selected to be made an example of. Twenty. A round number. And let’s see, Feraud. . . . Ah, he’s there. Gabriel Florian. Parfaitement. That’s your man. Well, there will be only nineteen examples made now.”
“There are only twenty general officers chosen to be made an example of. Twenty. A clean number. And let’s see, Feraud. . . . Ah, he’s there. Gabriel Florian. Exactly. That’s your guy. Well, now there will only be nineteen examples made.”
General D’Hubert stood up feeling as though he had gone through an infectious illness. “I must beg your Excellency to keep my interference a profound secret. I attach the greatest importance to his never learning . . .”
General D’Hubert stood up feeling as if he had just recovered from a bad illness. “I must request your Excellency to keep my involvement a strict secret. It's extremely important to me that he never learns . . .”
“Who is going to inform him, I should like to know?” said Fouche, raising his eyes curiously to General D’Hubert’s tense, set face. “Take one of these pens, and run it through the name yourself. This is the only list in existence. If you are careful to take up enough ink no one will be able to tell what was the name struck out. But, par exemple, I am not responsible for what Clarke will do with him afterwards. If he persists in being rabid he will be ordered by the Minister of War to reside in some provincial town under the supervision of the police.”
“Who’s going to let him know, I’d like to know?” said Fouche, looking curiously at General D’Hubert’s tense, rigid face. “Take one of these pens and cross out the name yourself. This is the only list in existence. If you carefully dip it in enough ink, no one will be able to see which name was crossed out. But, for example, I’m not responsible for what Clarke will do with him later. If he keeps being a nuisance, the Minister of War will order him to live in some provincial town under police supervision.”
A few days later General D’Hubert was saying to his sister, after the first greetings had been got over: “Ah, my dear Leonie! it seemed to me I couldn’t get away from Paris quick enough.”
A few days later, General D’Hubert was telling his sister, after they had exchanged their first greetings, “Ah, my dear Leonie! It felt like I couldn’t leave Paris fast enough.”
“Effect of love,” she suggested, with a malicious smile.
“Effect of love,” she said, with a wicked smile.
“And horror,” added General D’Hubert, with profound seriousness. “I have nearly died there of . . . of nausea.”
“And horror,” added General D’Hubert, with deep seriousness. “I almost died there from... from nausea.”
His face was contracted with disgust. And as his sister looked at him attentively he continued, “I have had to see Fouche. I have had an audience. I have been in his cabinet. There remains with one, who had the misfortune to breathe the air of the same room with that man, a sense of diminished dignity, an uneasy feeling of being not so clean, after all, as one hoped one was. . . . But you can’t understand.”
His face twisted in disgust. As his sister watched him closely, he went on, “I had to meet with Fouche. I had an audience with him. I was in his office. Anyone who has had the misfortune of being in the same room as that man is left with a feeling of reduced dignity, an uncomfortable sense that they’re not as clean as they thought. . . . But you wouldn’t understand.”
She nodded quickly several times. She understood very well, on the contrary. She knew her brother thoroughly, and liked him as he was. Moreover, the scorn and loathing of mankind were the lot of the Jacobin Fouche, who, exploiting for his own advantage every weakness, every virtue, every generous illusion of mankind, made dupes of his whole generation, and died obscurely as Duke of Otranto.
She nodded several times in quick agreement. She understood perfectly, in fact. She knew her brother very well and accepted him for who he was. Besides, the disdain and hatred of people were the fate of the Jacobin Fouche, who, taking advantage of every weakness, every virtue, and every noble illusion of humanity, tricked his entire generation and died in obscurity as the Duke of Otranto.
“My dear Armand,” she said, compassionately, “what could you want from that man?”
“My dear Armand,” she said, with compassion, “what do you want from that guy?”
“Nothing less than a life,” answered General D’Hubert. “And I’ve got it. It had to be done. But I feel yet as if I could never forgive the necessity to the man I had to save.”
“Nothing less than a life,” replied General D’Hubert. “And I’ve got it. It needed to happen. But I still feel like I could never forgive the situation to the man I had to save.”
General Feraud, totally unable (as is the case with most of us) to comprehend what was happening to him, received the Minister of War’s order to proceed at once to a small town of Central France with feelings whose natural expression consisted in a fierce rolling of the eye and savage grinding of the teeth. The passing away of the state of war, the only condition of society he had ever known, the horrible view of a world at peace, frightened him. He went away to his little town firmly convinced that this could not last. There he was informed of his retirement from the army, and that his pension (calculated on the scale of a colonel’s rank) was made dependent on the correctness of his conduct, and on the good reports of the police. No longer in the army! He felt suddenly strange to the earth, like a disembodied spirit. It was impossible to exist. But at first he reacted from sheer incredulity. This could not be. He waited for thunder, earthquakes, natural cataclysms; but nothing happened. The leaden weight of an irremediable idleness descended upon General Feraud, who having no resources within himself sank into a state of awe-inspiring hebetude. He haunted the streets of the little town, gazing before him with lacklustre eyes, disregarding the hats raised on his passage; and people, nudging each other as he went by, whispered, “That’s poor General Feraud. His heart is broken. Behold how he loved the Emperor.”
General Feraud, completely unable (like most of us) to understand what was happening to him, received the Minister of War’s order to immediately go to a small town in Central France. His emotions showed in a fierce rolling of the eyes and savage grinding of the teeth. The end of the state of war, the only life he had ever known, and the terrifying sight of a peaceful world, scared him. He left for the little town, firmly believing this situation couldn't last. There, he found out about his retirement from the army, and that his pension (based on the rank of a colonel) depended on his behavior and the police’s good reports. No longer in the army! He suddenly felt out of place, like a disembodied spirit. It seemed impossible to live. Initially, he reacted with sheer disbelief. This couldn't be true. He waited for thunder, earthquakes, or natural disasters; but nothing happened. The heavy burden of an unavoidable idleness weighed down on General Feraud, who, having no inner resources, sank into a state of profound stupor. He roamed the streets of the little town, staring ahead with dull eyes, ignoring the hats tipped in his direction, while people nudged each other as he passed and whispered, “That’s poor General Feraud. His heart is broken. Look at how he loved the Emperor.”
The other living wreckage of Napoleonic tempest clustered round General Feraud with infinite respect. He, himself, imagined his soul to be crushed by grief. He suffered from quickly succeeding impulses to weep, to howl, to bite his fists till blood came, to spend days on his bed with his head thrust under the pillow; but these arose from sheer ennui, from the anguish of an immense, indescribable, inconceivable boredom. His mental inability to grasp the hopeless nature of his case as a whole saved him from suicide. He never even thought of it once. He thought of nothing. But his appetite abandoned him, and the difficulty he experienced to express the overwhelming nature of his feelings (the most furious swearing could do no justice to it) induced gradually a habit of silence—a sort of death to a southern temperament.
The other survivors of the Napoleonic chaos gathered around General Feraud with deep respect. He believed his soul was crushed by grief. He was hit by sudden urges to cry, to scream, to bite his fists until he bled, to spend days lying in bed with his head buried in the pillow; but these feelings came from sheer boredom, from the pain of an immense, indescribable, unimaginable boredom. His inability to fully understand the hopelessness of his situation kept him from considering suicide. He never even thought about it. He thought about nothing. But he lost his appetite, and the struggle to express the intensity of his emotions (not even the most intense swearing could capture it) gradually led him to a habit of silence—a sort of death for someone of his passionate nature.
Great, therefore, was the sensation amongst the anciens militaires frequenting a certain little cafe; full of flies when one stuffy afternoon “that poor General Feraud” let out suddenly a volley of formidable curses.
Great was the sensation among the old soldiers hanging out at a certain little café; buzzing with flies on a hot afternoon when “that poor General Feraud” suddenly unleashed a stream of fierce curses.
He had been sitting quietly in his own privileged corner looking through the Paris gazettes with just as much interest as a condemned man on the eve of execution could be expected to show in the news of the day. “I’ll find out presently that I am alive yet,” he declared, in a dogmatic tone. “However, this is a private affair. An old affair of honour. Bah! Our honour does not matter. Here we are driven off with a split ear like a lot of cast troop horses—good only for a knacker’s yard. But it would be like striking a blow for the Emperor. . . . Messieurs, I shall require the assistance of two of you.”
He had been sitting quietly in his own nice corner, reading the Paris newspapers with about as much interest as a condemned man on the night before his execution could be expected to show in the day's news. “I’ll find out soon enough that I’m still alive,” he said firmly. “But this is a private matter. An old matter of honor. Ugh! Our honor doesn't really matter. Here we are, kicked out like a bunch of worn-out horses—fit only for the slaughterhouse. But it would feel like striking a blow for the Emperor... Gentlemen, I will need the help of two of you.”
Every man moved forward. General Feraud, deeply touched by this demonstration, called with visible emotion upon the one-eyed veteran cuirassier and the officer of the Chasseurs a Cheval who had left the tip of his nose in Russia. He excused his choice to the others.
Every man stepped forward. General Feraud, clearly moved by this gesture, called out with visible emotion to the one-eyed veteran cuirassier and the officer of the Chasseurs a Cheval who had lost the tip of his nose in Russia. He justified his choice to the others.
“A cavalry affair this—you know.”
"This is a cavalry thing—you know."
He was answered with a varied chorus of “Parfaitement, mon General . . . . C’est juste. . . . Parbleu, c’est connu. . . .” Everybody was satisfied. The three left the cafe together, followed by cries of “Bonne chance.”
He was met with a mix of responses like "Exactly, my General . . . . That's right. . . . Of course, it's well-known. . . ." Everyone was happy. The three of them left the café together, followed by shouts of "Good luck."
Outside they linked arms, the general in the middle. The three rusty cocked hats worn en bataille with a sinister forward slant barred the narrow street nearly right across. The overheated little town of grey stones and red tiles was drowsing away its provincial afternoon under a blue sky. The loud blows of a cooper hooping a cask reverberated regularly between the houses. The general dragged his left foot a little in the shade of the walls.
Outside, they linked arms, with the general in the middle. The three worn cocked hats, tilted forward ominously, blocked the narrow street almost completely. The overheated little town of gray stones and red tiles was dozing through its provincial afternoon under a blue sky. The loud thuds of a cooper shaping a cask echoed regularly between the houses. The general dragged his left foot slightly in the shade of the walls.
“This damned winter of 1813 has got into my bones for good. Never mind. We must take pistols, that’s all. A little lumbago. We must have pistols. He’s game for my bag. My eyes are as keen as ever. You should have seen me in Russia picking off the dodging Cossacks with a beastly old infantry musket. I have a natural gift for firearms.”
“This cursed winter of 1813 has gotten into my bones for good. No matter. We just need to grab the pistols, that’s all. A bit of back pain. We must have pistols. He’s up for my challenge. My eyesight is as sharp as ever. You should have seen me in Russia picking off the evasive Cossacks with a terrible old infantry musket. I have a natural talent for firearms.”
In this strain General Feraud ran on, holding up his head, with owlish eyes and rapacious beak. A mere fighter all his life, a cavalry man, a sabreur, he conceived war with the utmost simplicity, as, in the main, a massed lot of personal contests, a sort of gregarious duelling. And here he had in hand a war of his own. He revived. The shadow of peace passed away from him like the shadow of death. It was the marvellous resurrection of the named Feraud, Gabriel Florian, engage volontaire of 1793, General of 1814, buried without ceremony by means of a service order signed by the War Minister of the Second Restoration.
In this moment, General Feraud kept going, holding his head high, with big eyes and a sharp nose. He had been a fighter his whole life, a cavalryman, a swordsman, and he viewed war in a very straightforward way—as mainly a bunch of personal battles, a kind of group duel. And now, he was in control of his own war. He felt revitalized. The weight of peace lifted from him like the shadow of death. It was the incredible comeback of Gabriel Florian Feraud, volunteer of 1793, General of 1814, who had been buried without ceremony through a service order signed by the War Minister of the Second Restoration.
IV
IV
No man succeeds in everything he undertakes. In that sense we are all failures. The great point is not to fail in ordering and sustaining the effort of our life. In this matter vanity is what leads us astray. It hurries us into situations from which we must come out damaged; whereas pride is our safeguard, by the reserve it imposes on the choice of our endeavour as much as by the virtue of its sustaining power.
No one succeeds in everything they try. In that way, we’re all failures. The key is not to fail in organizing and maintaining the efforts of our lives. In this regard, vanity can mislead us. It rushes us into situations where we come out worse off; on the other hand, pride protects us, both by keeping us reserved in our choices and by having the strength to support our efforts.
General D’Hubert was proud and reserved. He had not been damaged by his casual love affairs, successful or otherwise. In his war-scarred body his heart at forty remained unscratched. Entering with reserve into his sister’s matrimonial plans, he had felt himself falling irremediably in love as one falls off a roof. He was too proud to be frightened. Indeed, the sensation was too delightful to be alarming.
General D’Hubert was proud and reserved. He had not been hurt by his casual love affairs, whether they were successful or not. In his war-scarred body, his heart at forty remained untouched. As he cautiously engaged in his sister’s wedding plans, he found himself falling hopelessly in love, like falling off a roof. He was too proud to feel scared. In fact, the sensation was too delightful to be alarming.
The inexperience of a man of forty is a much more serious thing than the inexperience of a youth of twenty, for it is not helped out by the rashness of hot blood. The girl was mysterious, as young girls are by the mere effect of their guarded ingenuity; and to him the mysteriousness of that young girl appeared exceptional and fascinating. But there was nothing mysterious about the arrangements of the match which Madame Leonie had promoted. There was nothing peculiar, either. It was a very appropriate match, commending itself extremely to the young lady’s mother (the father was dead) and tolerable to the young lady’s uncle—an old emigre lately returned from Germany, and pervading, cane in hand, a lean ghost of the ancien regime, the garden walks of the young lady’s ancestral home.
The inexperience of a man in his forties is a much bigger deal than the inexperience of a twenty-year-old, because it isn't balanced out by youthful impulsiveness. The girl had an air of mystery, which young girls often have due to their natural cleverness; to him, her mysteriousness seemed unique and intriguing. But there was nothing mysterious about the arrangements of the engagement that Madame Leonie had organized. There was nothing unusual, either. It was a very suitable match, one that the young lady’s mother (since her father had passed away) fully approved of and that was acceptable to the young lady’s uncle—an old émigré recently back from Germany, who wandered around the grounds of the young lady’s ancestral home like a thin ghost from the old regime, cane in hand.
General D’Hubert was not the man to be satisfied merely with the woman and the fortune—when it came to the point. His pride (and pride aims always at true success) would be satisfied with nothing short of love. But as true pride excludes vanity, he could not imagine any reason why this mysterious creature with deep and brilliant eyes of a violet colour should have any feeling for him warmer than indifference. The young lady (her name was Adele) baffled every attempt at a clear understanding on that point. It is true that the attempts were clumsy and made timidly, because by then General D’Hubert had become acutely aware of the number of his years, of his wounds, of his many moral imperfections, of his secret unworthiness—and had incidentally learned by experience the meaning of the word funk. As far as he could make out she seemed to imply that, with an unbounded confidence in her mother’s affection and sagacity, she felt no unsurmountable dislike for the person of General D’Hubert; and that this was quite sufficient for a well-brought-up young lady to begin married life upon. This view hurt and tormented the pride of General D’Hubert. And yet he asked himself, with a sort of sweet despair, what more could he expect? She had a quiet and luminous forehead. Her violet eyes laughed while the lines of her lips and chin remained composed in admirable gravity. All this was set off by such a glorious mass of fair hair, by a complexion so marvellous, by such a grace of expression, that General D’Hubert really never found the opportunity to examine with sufficient detachment the lofty exigencies of his pride. In fact, he became shy of that line of inquiry since it had led once or twice to a crisis of solitary passion in which it was borne upon him that he loved her enough to kill her rather than lose her. From such passages, not unknown to men of forty, he would come out broken, exhausted, remorseful, a little dismayed. He derived, however, considerable comfort from the quietist practice of sitting now and then half the night by an open window and meditating upon the wonder of her existence, like a believer lost in the mystic contemplation of his faith.
General D’Hubert wasn’t the kind of guy to be satisfied just with a woman and wealth—when it came down to it. His pride (and pride always aims for real success) would only be fulfilled by love. But since true pride excludes vanity, he couldn't imagine why this mysterious girl with deep, brilliant violet eyes would have feelings for him stronger than indifference. The young lady (her name was Adele) eluded all attempts to clarify that. It’s true that his attempts were awkward and timid because by then General D’Hubert had become sharply aware of his age, his wounds, his many moral flaws, and his hidden sense of unworthiness—and he had learned through experience what it meant to feel anxious. As far as he could tell, she seemed to suggest that, with complete faith in her mother’s love and wisdom, she didn’t feel any overwhelming dislike for General D’Hubert; and that was enough for a well-brought-up young lady to start married life on. This perspective hurt and tortured General D’Hubert’s pride. Yet he wondered, with a kind of sweet despair, what more could he really expect? She had a calm, radiant forehead. Her violet eyes sparkled while her lips and chin maintained a wonderfully serious expression. All this was complemented by such a beautiful mass of fair hair, an incredible complexion, and such graceful expressions that General D’Hubert never found the chance to step back and analyze the lofty demands of his pride. In fact, he became hesitant to explore that line of thought since it had once or twice led him to a crisis of solitary passion, during which he realized he loved her enough to kill her rather than lose her. After such experiences, not uncommon for men in their forties, he emerged feeling broken, exhausted, remorseful, and a bit overwhelmed. However, he found a lot of comfort in the calming practice of sitting by an open window for half the night now and then, contemplating the miracle of her existence, like a believer immersed in the mystic reflection of his faith.
It must not be supposed that all these variations of his inward state were made manifest to the world. General D ‘Hubert found no difficulty in appearing wreathed in smiles. Because, in fact, he was very happy. He followed the established rules of his condition, sending over flowers (from his sister’s garden and hot-houses) early every morning, and a little later following himself to lunch with his intended, her mother, and her emigre uncle. The middle of the day was spent in strolling or sitting in the shade. A watchful deference, trembling on the verge of tenderness was the note of their intercourse on his side—with a playful turn of the phrase concealing the profound trouble of his whole being caused by her inaccessible nearness. Late in the afternoon General D ‘Hubert walked home between the fields of vines, sometimes intensely miserable, sometimes supremely happy, sometimes pensively sad; but always feeling a special intensity of existence, that elation common to artists, poets, and lovers—to men haunted by a great passion, a noble thought, or a new vision of plastic beauty.
It shouldn't be assumed that all these changes in his inner state were obvious to everyone. General D 'Hubert had no trouble putting on a cheerful face. In reality, he was very happy. He followed the usual customs for his situation, sending fresh flowers (from his sister's garden and greenhouses) every morning, and a little later, he would join his fiancée, her mother, and her emigre uncle for lunch. He spent the middle of the day walking or relaxing in the shade. His interactions were marked by a watchful respect that teetered on the edge of affection, with a playful twist of words hiding the deep turmoil within him caused by her elusive closeness. In the late afternoon, General D 'Hubert walked home through the vineyards, sometimes feeling intensely miserable, sometimes extremely happy, and sometimes pensively sad; but he always experienced a unique intensity of life, that thrill shared by artists, poets, and lovers—by those consumed by great passion, noble ideas, or fresh visions of beauty.
The outward world at that time did not exist with any special distinctness for General D’Hubert. One evening, however, crossing a ridge from which he could see both houses, General D’Hubert became aware of two figures far down the road. The day had been divine. The festal decoration of the inflamed sky lent a gentle glow to the sober tints of the southern land. The grey rocks, the brown fields, the purple, undulating distances harmonized in luminous accord, exhaled already the scents of the evening. The two figures down the road presented themselves like two rigid and wooden silhouettes all black on the ribbon of white dust. General D’Hubert made out the long, straight, military capotes buttoned closely right up to the black stocks, the cocked hats, the lean, carven, brown countenances—old soldiers—vieilles moustaches! The taller of the two had a black patch over one eye; the other’s hard, dry countenance presented some bizarre, disquieting peculiarity, which on nearer approach proved to be the absence of the tip of the nose. Lifting their hands with one movement to salute the slightly lame civilian walking with a thick stick, they inquired for the house where the General Baron D’Hubert lived, and what was the best way to get speech with him quietly.
The outside world at that time didn't really stand out for General D’Hubert. One evening, though, as he crossed a ridge where he could see both houses, he noticed two figures far down the road. The day had been beautiful. The festive colors of the fiery sky cast a soft glow on the muted tones of the southern landscape. The grey rocks, brown fields, and purple rolling hills came together in a bright harmony, already giving off the scents of evening. The two figures on the road looked like two stiff, wooden silhouettes, completely black against the ribbon of white dust. General D’Hubert recognized the long, straight military coats buttoned up to the black stocks, the cocked hats, and the lean, carved, brown faces—old soldiers—vieilles moustaches! The taller one had a black patch over one eye; the other’s tough, dry face had a strange, unsettling feature that, upon closer inspection, turned out to be the tip of his nose missing. Raising their hands in a single motion to salute the slightly lame civilian walking with a thick stick, they asked for the house where General Baron D’Hubert lived and the best way to speak with him quietly.
“If you think this quiet enough,” said General D’Hubert, looking round at the vine-fields, framed in purple lines, and dominated by the nest of grey and drab walls of a village clustering around the top of a conical hill, so that the blunt church tower seemed but the shape of a crowning rock—“if you think this spot quiet enough, you can speak to him at once. And I beg you, comrades, to speak openly, with perfect confidence.”
“If you think it’s quiet enough here,” said General D’Hubert, glancing around at the grape fields, outlined in purple, and dominated by the grey and drab walls of a village clustered at the top of a conical hill, where the blunt church tower looked like just another rock—“if you think this place is quiet enough, you can talk to him right now. And I urge you, friends, to speak freely and with complete confidence.”
They stepped back at this, and raised again their hands to their hats with marked ceremoniousness. Then the one with the chipped nose, speaking for both, remarked that the matter was confidential enough, and to be arranged discreetly. Their general quarters were established in that village over there, where the infernal clodhoppers—damn their false, Royalist hearts!—looked remarkably cross-eyed at three unassuming military men. For the present he should only ask for the name of General D’Hubert’s friends.
They stepped back at this and raised their hands to their hats in a very formal way. Then the guy with the chipped nose, speaking for both, pointed out that the situation was confidential and needed to be handled discreetly. Their main base was in that village over there, where those annoying clodhoppers—damn their fake Royalist hearts!—gave three unassuming soldiers a suspicious look. For now, he would just ask for the names of General D’Hubert’s friends.
“What friends?” said the astonished General D’Hubert, completely off the track. “I am staying with my brother-in-law over there.”
“What friends?” said the surprised General D’Hubert, completely confused. “I’m staying with my brother-in-law over there.”
“Well, he will do for one,” said the chipped veteran.
“Well, he’ll do for now,” said the worn-out veteran.
“We’re the friends of General Feraud,” interjected the other, who had kept silent till then, only glowering with his one eye at the man who had never loved the Emperor. That was something to look at. For even the gold-laced Judases who had sold him to the English, the marshals and princes, had loved him at some time or other. But this man had never loved the Emperor. General Feraud had said so distinctly.
“We’re friends of General Feraud,” chimed in the other guy, who had been quiet until now, just glaring with his one eye at the man who had never liked the Emperor. That was quite a sight. Because even the gold-laced traitors who had sold him to the English, the marshals and princes, had loved him at some point. But this guy had never loved the Emperor. General Feraud made that very clear.
General D’Hubert felt an inward blow in his chest. For an infinitesimal fraction of a second it was as if the spinning of the earth had become perceptible with an awful, slight rustle in the eternal stillness of space. But this noise of blood in his ears passed off at once. Involuntarily he murmured, “Feraud! I had forgotten his existence.”
General D’Hubert felt a sudden jolt in his chest. For the briefest moment, it was like he could actually sense the earth spinning with a disturbing, faint rustle in the endless quiet of space. But that sound of blood in his ears faded away immediately. Involuntarily, he muttered, “Feraud! I had forgotten about him.”
“He’s existing at present, very uncomfortably, it is true, in the infamous inn of that nest of savages up there,” said the one-eyed cuirassier, drily. “We arrived in your parts an hour ago on post horses. He’s awaiting our return with impatience. There is hurry, you know. The General has broken the ministerial order to obtain from you the satisfaction he’s entitled to by the laws of honour, and naturally he’s anxious to have it all over before the gendarmerie gets on his scent.”
“Right now, he’s uncomfortably hanging out in that notorious inn filled with savages up there,” said the one-eyed cuirassier dryly. “We got here an hour ago on post horses. He’s eagerly waiting for us to come back. There’s a rush, you see. The General has ignored the ministerial order to get from you the satisfaction he’s owed by the laws of honor, and understandably, he wants to finish this before the gendarmerie catches onto him.”
The other elucidated the idea a little further. “Get back on the quiet—you understand? Phitt! No one the wiser. We have broken out, too. Your friend the king would be glad to cut off our scurvy pittances at the first chance. It’s a risk. But honour before everything.”
The other clarified the idea a bit more. “Stay under the radar—you get it? Phitt! No one will be the wiser. We’ve broken free, too. Your friend the king would love to cut off our pathetic scraps at the first opportunity. It’s a risk. But honor is more important than anything.”
General D’Hubert had recovered his powers of speech. “So you come here like this along the road to invite me to a throat-cutting match with that—that . . .” A laughing sort of rage took possession of him. “Ha! ha! ha! ha!”
General D’Hubert had regained his ability to speak. “So you show up here on the road to challenge me to a fight with that—that . . .” He was overtaken by a kind of laughable rage. “Ha! ha! ha! ha!”
His fists on his hips, he roared without restraint, while they stood before him lank and straight, as though they had been shot up with a snap through a trap door in the ground. Only four-and-twenty months ago the masters of Europe, they had already the air of antique ghosts, they seemed less substantial in their faded coats than their own narrow shadows falling so black across the white road: the military and grotesque shadows of twenty years of war and conquests. They had an outlandish appearance of two imperturbable bonzes of the religion of the sword. And General D’Hubert, also one of the ex-masters of Europe, laughed at these serious phantoms standing in his way.
With his fists on his hips, he roared without holding back, while they stood before him, tall and stiff, as if they had just popped up through a trap door in the ground. Just twenty-four months ago, they were the masters of Europe, but now they seemed like ancient ghosts. They appeared less solid in their worn-out coats than their own narrow shadows stretching darkly across the white road: the military and absurd shadows of twenty years of war and conquests. They looked bizarre, like two unflappable monks of the sword. General D’Hubert, another one of the former masters of Europe, laughed at these serious specters in his way.
Said one, indicating the laughing General with a jerk of the head: “A merry companion, that.”
Said one, nodding toward the laughing General, “What a fun guy he is.”
“There are some of us that haven’t smiled from the day The Other went away,” remarked his comrade.
“There are some of us who haven’t smiled since The Other left,” his friend said.
A violent impulse to set upon and beat those unsubstantial wraiths to the ground frightened General D’Hubert. He ceased laughing suddenly. His desire now was to get rid of them, to get them away from his sight quickly before he lost control of himself. He wondered at the fury he felt rising in his breast. But he had no time to look into that peculiarity just then.
A sudden urge to charge at and beat those insubstantial phantoms to the ground scared General D’Hubert. He stopped laughing abruptly. What he wanted now was to get rid of them, to make them disappear from his sight quickly before he lost control. He was surprised by the anger rising in his chest. But he didn’t have time to analyze that feeling right then.
“I understand your wish to be done with me as quickly as possible. Don’t let us waste time in empty ceremonies. Do you see that wood there at the foot of that slope? Yes, the wood of pines. Let us meet there to-morrow at sunrise. I will bring with me my sword or my pistols, or both if you like.”
“I get that you want to wrap this up with me as fast as you can. Let’s not waste time on formalities. Do you see that grove of trees at the bottom of that hill? Yeah, the pine trees. Let's meet there tomorrow at sunrise. I'll bring my sword or my pistols, or both if you prefer.”
The seconds of General Feraud looked at each other.
The seconds of General Feraud exchanged glances.
“Pistols, General,” said the cuirassier.
“Guns, General,” said the cuirassier.
“So be it. Au revoir—to-morrow morning. Till then let me advise you to keep close if you don’t want the gendarmerie making inquiries about you before it gets dark. Strangers are rare in this part of the country.”
“Alright then. Goodbye—see you tomorrow morning. Until then, I suggest you stay close if you don’t want the police asking questions about you before it gets dark. Strangers are uncommon in this area.”
They saluted in silence. General D’Hubert, turning his back on their retreating forms, stood still in the middle of the road for a long time, biting his lower lip and looking on the ground. Then he began to walk straight before him, thus retracing his steps till he found himself before the park gate of his intended’s house. Dusk had fallen. Motionless he stared through the bars at the front of the house, gleaming clear beyond the thickets and trees. Footsteps scrunched on the gravel, and presently a tall stooping shape emerged from the lateral alley following the inner side of the park wall.
They nodded silently. General D’Hubert, turning his back on their retreating figures, stood still in the middle of the road for a long time, biting his lower lip and staring at the ground. Then he started walking straight ahead, retracing his steps until he found himself in front of the park gate of his intended's house. Dusk had fallen. He stood motionless, staring through the bars at the front of the house, which gleamed clearly beyond the bushes and trees. Footsteps crunched on the gravel, and soon a tall, hunched figure appeared from the side alley running along the park wall.
Le Chevalier de Valmassigue, uncle of the adorable Adele, ex-brigadier in the army of the Princes, bookbinder in Altona, afterwards shoemaker (with a great reputation for elegance in the fit of ladies’ shoes) in another small German town, wore silk stockings on his lean shanks, low shoes with silver buckles, a brocaded waistcoat. A long-skirted coat, a la francaise, covered loosely his thin, bowed back. A small three-cornered hat rested on a lot of powdered hair, tied in a queue.
Le Chevalier de Valmassigue, the uncle of the lovely Adele, a former brigadier in the army of the Princes, started out as a bookbinder in Altona and later became a shoemaker (known for his elegant fit of ladies’ shoes) in another small German town. He wore silk stockings on his skinny legs, low shoes with silver buckles, and a brocaded waistcoat. A long coat, in the French style, draped loosely over his thin, bent back. A small three-cornered hat sat atop his powdered hair, which was tied in a queue.
“Monsieur le Chevalier,” called General D’Hubert, softly.
“Monsieur le Chevalier,” General D’Hubert called softly.
“What? You here again, mon ami? Have you forgotten something?”
“What? You're here again, my friend? Did you forget something?”
“By heavens! that’s just it. I have forgotten something. I am come to tell you of it. No—outside. Behind this wall. It’s too ghastly a thing to be let in at all where she lives.”
“By heavens! That’s exactly it. I’ve forgotten something. I came to tell you about it. No—outside. Behind this wall. It’s too horrifying to be allowed in at all where she lives.”
The Chevalier came out at once with that benevolent resignation some old people display towards the fugue of youth. Older by a quarter of a century than General D’Hubert, he looked upon him in the secret of his heart as a rather troublesome youngster in love. He had heard his enigmatical words very well, but attached no undue importance to what a mere man of forty so hard hit was likely to do or say. The turn of mind of the generation of Frenchmen grown up during the years of his exile was almost unintelligible to him. Their sentiments appeared to him unduly violent, lacking fineness and measure, their language needlessly exaggerated. He joined calmly the General on the road, and they made a few steps in silence, the General trying to master his agitation, and get proper control of his voice.
The Chevalier immediately responded with that kind, accepting attitude some older people have toward the chaos of youth. Being twenty-five years older than General D’Hubert, he secretly viewed him as just a bit of a troublesome young guy in love. He understood his cryptic words perfectly but didn’t think much of what a mere forty-year-old, so deeply affected, might do or say. The mindset of the generation of Frenchmen who grew up during his years in exile was almost incomprehensible to him. Their feelings seemed overly intense, lacking subtlety and balance, and their language felt unnecessarily dramatic. He calmly joined the General on the path, and they walked a few steps in silence, the General working to control his agitation and steady his voice.
“It is perfectly true; I forgot something. I forgot till half an hour ago that I had an urgent affair of honour on my hands. It’s incredible, but it is so!”
“It’s completely true; I forgot something. I only remembered half an hour ago that I had an urgent matter of honor to deal with. It’s unbelievable, but that’s how it is!”
All was still for a moment. Then in the profound evening silence of the countryside the clear, aged voice of the Chevalier was heard trembling slightly: “Monsieur! That’s an indignity.”
All was quiet for a moment. Then, in the deep evening silence of the countryside, the clear, old voice of the Chevalier was heard, trembling slightly: “Sir! That’s an insult.”
It was his first thought. The girl born during his exile, the posthumous daughter of his poor brother murdered by a band of Jacobins, had grown since his return very dear to his old heart, which had been starving on mere memories of affection for so many years. “It is an inconceivable thing, I say! A man settles such affairs before he thinks of asking for a young girl’s hand. Why! If you had forgotten for ten days longer, you would have been married before your memory returned to you. In my time men did not forget such things—nor yet what is due to the feelings of an innocent young woman. If I did not respect them myself, I would qualify your conduct in a way which you would not like.”
It was his first thought. The girl born during his exile, the posthumous daughter of his poor brother who was killed by a group of Jacobins, had become very dear to him since his return, filling his old heart that had been starving for affection for so many years. “This is unbelievable! A man should sort these things out before thinking about asking for a young girl’s hand. Honestly! If you had forgotten for just ten more days, you would have been married before you remembered. Back in my time, men didn't forget such matters—nor what was right for an innocent young woman’s feelings. If I didn't respect them myself, I would describe your behavior in a way that you wouldn’t like.”
General D’Hubert relieved himself frankly by a groan. “Don’t let that consideration prevent you. You run no risk of offending her mortally.”
General D’Hubert let out a groan. “Don’t let that stop you. You won’t risk offending her seriously.”
But the old man paid no attention to this lover’s nonsense. It’s doubtful whether he even heard. “What is it?” he asked. “What’s the nature of . . . ?” “Call it a youthful folly, Monsieur le Chevalier. An inconceivable, incredible result of . . .” He stopped short. “He will never believe the story,” he thought. “He will only think I am taking him for a fool, and get offended.” General D’Hubert spoke up again: “Yes, originating in youthful folly, it has become . . .”
But the old man ignored this lover's nonsense. It's unclear if he even heard it. “What is it?” he asked. “What’s the nature of . . .?” “Call it a youthful mistake, Monsieur le Chevalier. An unimaginable, unbelievable result of . . .” He paused. “He’ll never buy the story,” he thought. “He’ll just think I’m trying to make a fool of him and get offended.” General D’Hubert spoke up again: “Yes, starting from youthful folly, it has become . . .”
The Chevalier interrupted: “Well, then it must be arranged.”
The Chevalier interrupted: “Well, then it needs to be sorted out.”
“Arranged?”
"Set up?"
“Yes, no matter at what cost to your amour propre. You should have remembered you were engaged. You forgot that, too, I suppose. And then you go and forget your quarrel. It’s the most hopeless exhibition of levity I ever heard of.”
“Yeah, it doesn’t matter what it costs your self-esteem. You should have remembered you were engaged. I guess you forgot that too. And then you go and forget your argument. It’s the most frustrating display of carelessness I’ve ever seen.”
“Good heavens, Monsieur! You don’t imagine I have been picking up this quarrel last time I was in Paris, or anything of the sort, do you?”
“Good heavens, sir! You don’t seriously think I’ve been stirring up this argument the last time I was in Paris, or anything like that, do you?”
“Eh! What matters the precise date of your insane conduct,” exclaimed the Chevalier, testily. “The principal thing is to arrange it.”
“Hey! What does the exact date of your crazy behavior matter?” the Chevalier said, annoyed. “The main thing is to sort it out.”
Noticing General D’Hubert getting restive and trying to place a word, the old emigre raised his hand, and added with dignity, “I’ve been a soldier, too. I would never dare suggest a doubtful step to the man whose name my niece is to bear. I tell you that entre galants hommes an affair can always be arranged.”
Noticing General D’Hubert becoming restless and trying to say something, the old emigre raised his hand and added with dignity, “I’ve been a soldier, too. I would never dream of suggesting a questionable action to the man whose name my niece will carry. I tell you that among gentlemen, a matter can always be handled.”
“But saperiotte, Monsieur le Chevalier, it’s fifteen or sixteen years ago. I was a lieutenant of hussars then.”
“But you know, Monsieur le Chevalier, that was fifteen or sixteen years ago. I was a lieutenant in the hussars back then.”
The old Chevalier seemed confounded by the vehemently despairing tone of this information. “You were a lieutenant of hussars sixteen years ago,” he mumbled in a dazed manner.
The old Chevalier looked bewildered by the intensely despairing tone of this news. “You were a lieutenant of hussars sixteen years ago,” he mumbled, sounding dazed.
“Why, yes! You did not suppose I was made a general in my cradle like a royal prince.”
"Of course! You didn't think I was born a general like a royal prince, did you?"
In the deepening purple twilight of the fields spread with vine leaves, backed by a low band of sombre crimson in the west, the voice of the old ex-officer in the army of the Princes sounded collected, punctiliously civil.
In the deepening purple twilight of the fields covered with vine leaves, backed by a low strip of dark crimson in the west, the voice of the old ex-officer from the army of the Princes sounded calm and carefully polite.
“Do I dream? Is this a pleasantry? Or am I to understand that you have been hatching an affair of honour for sixteen years?”
“Am I dreaming? Is this a joke? Or should I take it that you’ve been planning an honorable affair for sixteen years?”
“It has clung to me for that length of time. That is my precise meaning. The quarrel itself is not to be explained easily. We met on the ground several times during that time, of course.”
“It has stuck with me for that long. That’s exactly what I mean. The argument itself isn’t easy to explain. We met in person several times during that time, of course.”
“What manners! What horrible perversion of manliness! Nothing can account for such inhumanity but the sanguinary madness of the Revolution which has tainted a whole generation,” mused the returned emigre in a low tone. “Who’s your adversary?” he asked a little louder.
“What manners! What a terrible distortion of manliness! Nothing can explain such inhumanity except the bloody madness of the Revolution that has corrupted an entire generation,” the returned emigre reflected softly. “Who’s your opponent?” he asked a bit louder.
“My adversary? His name is Feraud.”
"My opponent? His name is Feraud."
Shadowy in his tricorne and old-fashioned clothes, like a bowed, thin ghost of the ancien regime, the Chevalier voiced a ghostly memory. “I can remember the feud about little Sophie Derval, between Monsieur de Brissac, Captain in the Bodyguards, and d’Anjorrant (not the pock-marked one, the other—the Beau d’Anjorrant, as they called him). They met three times in eighteen months in a most gallant manner. It was the fault of that little Sophie, too, who would keep on playing . . .”
Dressed in a tricorne and old-fashioned clothes, looking like a thin, bowed ghost from the old regime, the Chevalier shared a haunting memory. “I remember the feud over little Sophie Derval, between Monsieur de Brissac, a Captain in the Bodyguards, and d’Anjorrant (not the pock-marked one, the other one—the Beau d’Anjorrant, as they called him). They faced off three times in eighteen months in a very dashing way. It was also little Sophie’s fault for always playing . . .”
“This is nothing of the kind,” interrupted General D’Hubert. He laughed a little sardonically. “Not at all so simple,” he added. “Nor yet half so reasonable,” he finished, inaudibly, between his teeth, and ground them with rage.
“This is nothing like that,” interrupted General D’Hubert. He laughed a little sarcastically. “It’s not simple at all,” he added. “And it’s definitely not half as reasonable,” he finished, silently grinding his teeth in anger.
After this sound nothing troubled the silence for a long time, till the Chevalier asked, without animation: “What is he—this Feraud?”
After this sound, nothing disturbed the silence for a long time, until the Chevalier asked, without any energy: “What is he—this Feraud?”
“Lieutenant of hussars, too—I mean, he’s a general. A Gascon. Son of a blacksmith, I believe.”
“Lieutenant of hussars, too—I mean, he’s a general. A Gascon. Son of a blacksmith, I think.”
“There! I thought so. That Bonaparte had a special predilection for the canaille. I don’t mean this for you, D’Hubert. You are one of us, though you have served this usurper, who . . .”
“There! I knew it. That Bonaparte had a special liking for the common people. I don’t mean this for you, D’Hubert. You are one of us, even though you have served this usurper, who . . .”
“Let’s leave him out of this,” broke in General D’Hubert.
“Let’s leave him out of this,” interrupted General D’Hubert.
The Chevalier shrugged his peaked shoulders. “Feraud of sorts. Offspring of a blacksmith and some village troll. See what comes of mixing yourself up with that sort of people.”
The Chevalier shrugged his sharp shoulders. “Feraud, in a way. Kid of a blacksmith and some village troll. See what happens when you get mixed up with that kind of people.”
“You have made shoes yourself, Chevalier.”
“You've made your own shoes, Chevalier.”
“Yes. But I am not the son of a shoemaker. Neither are you, Monsieur D’Hubert. You and I have something that your Bonaparte’s princes, dukes, and marshals have not, because there’s no power on earth that could give it to them,” retorted the emigre, with the rising animation of a man who has got hold of a hopeful argument. “Those people don’t exist—all these Ferauds. Feraud! What is Feraud? A va-nu-pieds disguised into a general by a Corsican adventurer masquerading as an emperor. There is no earthly reason for a D’Hubert to s’encanailler by a duel with a person of that sort. You can make your excuses to him perfectly well. And if the manant takes into his head to decline them, you may simply refuse to meet him.”
“Yes. But I’m not the son of a shoemaker. Neither are you, Monsieur D’Hubert. You and I have something that your Bonaparte’s princes, dukes, and marshals don’t have because there’s no power on earth that could give it to them,” replied the émigré, growing more animated as he found an encouraging argument. “Those people don’t exist—all these Ferauds. Feraud! What is Feraud? A guy in rags turned into a general by a Corsican con artist pretending to be an emperor. There’s no good reason for a D’Hubert to lower himself to duel with someone like that. You can excuse yourself to him just fine. And if the peasant decides to reject your excuses, you can simply refuse to meet him.”
“You say I may do that?”
“You say I can do that?”
“I do. With the clearest conscience.”
“I do. With a clear conscience.”
“Monsieur le Chevalier! To what do you think you have returned from your emigration?”
“Monsieur le Chevalier! What do you think you’ve come back to after your time away?”
This was said in such a startling tone that the old man raised sharply his bowed head, glimmering silvery white under the points of the little tricorne. For a time he made no sound.
This was said in such a surprising tone that the old man quickly lifted his bowed head, shining silvery white under the tips of the little tricorne. For a moment, he said nothing.
“God knows!” he said at last, pointing with a slow and grave gesture at a tall roadside cross mounted on a block of stone, and stretching its arms of forged iron all black against the darkening red band in the sky—“God knows! If it were not for this emblem, which I remember seeing on this spot as a child, I would wonder to what we who remained faithful to God and our king have returned. The very voices of the people have changed.”
“God knows!” he finally said, pointing slowly with a serious gesture at a tall cross by the roadside, set on a block of stone, its arms of black forged iron standing out against the darkening red sky—“God knows! If it weren’t for this symbol, which I remember seeing here as a child, I’d question what we who stayed true to God and our king have come back to. Even the voices of the people have changed.”
“Yes, it is a changed France,” said General D’Hubert. He seemed to have regained his calm. His tone was slightly ironic. “Therefore I cannot take your advice. Besides, how is one to refuse to be bitten by a dog that means to bite? It’s impracticable. Take my word for it—Feraud isn’t a man to be stayed by apologies or refusals. But there are other ways. I could, for instance, send a messenger with a word to the brigadier of the gendarmerie in Senlac. He and his two friends are liable to arrest on my simple order. It would make some talk in the army, both the organized and the disbanded—especially the disbanded. All canaille! All once upon a time the companions in arms of Armand D’Hubert. But what need a D’Hubert care what people that don’t exist may think? Or, better still, I might get my brother-in-law to send for the mayor of the village and give him a hint. No more would be needed to get the three ‘brigands’ set upon with flails and pitchforks and hunted into some nice, deep, wet ditch—and nobody the wiser! It has been done only ten miles from here to three poor devils of the disbanded Red Lancers of the Guard going to their homes. What says your conscience, Chevalier? Can a D’Hubert do that thing to three men who do not exist?”
“Yes, France has changed,” said General D’Hubert. He seemed to have regained his composure. His tone was a bit ironic. “So, I can’t take your advice. Besides, how do you refuse to be bitten by a dog that’s determined to bite? It’s impossible. Trust me—Feraud isn’t someone who will be stopped by apologies or refusals. But there are other options. For instance, I could send a messenger with a message to the brigadier of the gendarmerie in Senlac. He and his two friends could easily be arrested on my simple order. That would create quite a stir in the army, both the active and the disbanded—especially the disbanded. All common people! Once upon a time, they were all comrades of Armand D’Hubert. But why should a D’Hubert care what non-existent people think? Or, even better, I could ask my brother-in-law to call for the mayor of the village and give him a hint. That would be enough to have the three ‘brigands’ attacked with flails and pitchforks and driven into some nice, deep, wet ditch—and nobody would be the wiser! It’s been done only ten miles from here to three unfortunate former Red Lancers of the Guard heading home. What do you think, Chevalier? Can a D’Hubert do such a thing to three men who don’t exist?”
A few stars had come out on the blue obscurity, clear as crystal, of the sky. The dry, thin voice of the Chevalier spoke harshly: “Why are you telling me all this?”
A few stars had appeared in the clear blue darkness of the sky. The Chevalier's dry, thin voice spoke sharply: “Why are you telling me all this?”
The General seized the withered old hand with a strong grip. “Because I owe you my fullest confidence. Who could tell Adele but you? You understand why I dare not trust my brother-in-law nor yet my own sister. Chevalier! I have been so near doing these things that I tremble yet. You don’t know how terrible this duel appears to me. And there’s no escape from it.”
The General grabbed the old, withered hand tightly. “Because I trust you completely. Who else could tell Adele but you? You know why I can't trust my brother-in-law or even my own sister. Chevalier! I've been so close to going through with this that I'm still shaking. You have no idea how horrifying this duel is to me. And there's no way out of it.”
He murmured after a pause, “It’s a fatality,” dropped the Chevalier’s passive hand, and said in his ordinary conversational voice, “I shall have to go without seconds. If it is my lot to remain on the ground, you at least will know all that can be made known of this affair.”
He whispered after a moment, “It’s just fate,” released the Chevalier’s limp hand, and said in his usual tone, “I’ll have to skip seconds. If it’s my destiny to stay behind, you’ll at least know everything there is to know about this situation.”
The shadowy ghost of the ancien regime seemed to have become more bowed during the conversation. “How am I to keep an indifferent face this evening before these two women?” he groaned. “General! I find it very difficult to forgive you.”
The ghostly memory of the old regime seemed to grow more somber during the conversation. “How am I supposed to stay neutral tonight in front of these two women?” he sighed. “General! I really struggle to forgive you.”
General D ‘Hubert made no answer.
General D 'Hubert didn't reply.
“Is your cause good, at least?”
“Is your cause at least good?”
“I am innocent.”
"I'm innocent."
This time he seized the Chevalier’s ghostly arm above the elbow, and gave it a mighty squeeze. “I must kill him!” he hissed, and opening his hand strode away down the road.
This time he grabbed the Chevalier’s ghostly arm above the elbow and squeezed it tightly. “I have to kill him!” he said angrily, and letting go, he walked away down the road.
The delicate attentions of his adoring sister had secured for the General perfect liberty of movement in the house where he was a guest. He had even his own entrance through a small door in one corner of the orangery. Thus he was not exposed that evening to the necessity of dissembling his agitation before the calm ignorance of the other inmates. He was glad of it. It seemed to him that if he had to open his lips he would break out into horrible and aimless imprecations, start breaking furniture, smashing china and glass. From the moment he opened the private door and while ascending the twenty-eight steps of a winding staircase, giving access to the corridor on which his room opened, he went through a horrible and humiliating scene in which an infuriated madman with blood-shot eyes and a foaming mouth played inconceivable havoc with everything inanimate that may be found in a well-appointed dining-room. When he opened the door of his apartment the fit was over, and his bodily fatigue was so great that he had to catch at the backs of the chairs while crossing the room to reach a low and broad divan on which he let himself fall heavily. His moral prostration was still greater. That brutality of feeling which he had known only when charging the enemy, sabre in hand, amazed this man of forty, who did not recognize in it the instinctive fury of his menaced passion. But in his mental and bodily exhaustion this passion got cleared, distilled, refined into a sentiment of melancholy despair at having, perhaps, to die before he had taught this beautiful girl to love him.
The caring attention of his loving sister had given the General complete freedom to move around the house where he was staying. He even had his own entrance through a small door in one corner of the orangery. This way, he didn't have to hide his agitation that evening in front of the calm ignorance of the other people in the house. He was relieved about it. He felt that if he had to speak, he might explode into terrible, random curses and start breaking furniture, smashing dishes and glassware. From the moment he opened the private door and while climbing the twenty-eight steps of a winding staircase leading to the corridor where his room was, he imagined a horrifying and humiliating scene where a furious madman with bloodshot eyes and a foaming mouth wreaked unimaginable chaos on everything in a well-furnished dining room. When he opened the door to his apartment, the fit had passed, and he was so physically exhausted that he had to grab the backs of the chairs as he crossed the room to reach a low, wide divan, where he collapsed heavily. His emotional fatigue was even greater. The intense feelings he experienced, which he had only known when charging at the enemy with his saber drawn, surprised this forty-year-old man, who didn’t recognize it as the instinctive fury of his threatened desires. But through his mental and physical exhaustion, this desire became clear, distilled, and refined into a sense of melancholy despair at the thought that he might die before teaching this beautiful girl to love him.
That night, General D’Hubert stretched out on his back with his hands over his eyes, or lying on his breast with his face buried in a cushion, made the full pilgrimage of emotions. Nauseating disgust at the absurdity of the situation, doubt of his own fitness to conduct his existence, and mistrust of his best sentiments (for what the devil did he want to go to Fouche for?)—he knew them all in turn. “I am an idiot, neither more nor less,” he thought—“A sensitive idiot. Because I overheard two men talking in a cafe. . . . I am an idiot afraid of lies—whereas in life it is only truth that matters.”
That night, General D’Hubert lay on his back with his hands over his eyes, or facedown on a cushion, going through a rollercoaster of emotions. He felt a sickening disgust at the ridiculousness of the situation, uncertainty about his ability to manage his life, and doubt about his best feelings (why on earth did he want to see Fouche?). He experienced all these feelings in turn. “I’m such an idiot, nothing more, nothing less,” he thought. “A sensitive idiot. All because I overheard two guys talking in a café... I’m an idiot scared of lies—when in reality, it’s only the truth that matters.”
Several times he got up and, walking in his socks in order not to be heard by anybody downstairs, drank all the water he could find in the dark. And he tasted the torments of jealousy, too. She would marry somebody else. His very soul writhed. The tenacity of that Feraud, the awful persistence of that imbecile brute, came to him with the tremendous force of a relentless destiny. General D’Hubert trembled as he put down the empty water ewer. “He will have me,” he thought. General D’Hubert was tasting every emotion that life has to give. He had in his dry mouth the faint sickly flavour of fear, not the excusable fear before a young girl’s candid and amused glance, but the fear of death and the honourable man’s fear of cowardice.
Several times he got up and, walking in his socks to avoid making noise for anyone downstairs, drank as much water as he could find in the dark. And he felt the pain of jealousy, too. She would marry someone else. His entire being was in turmoil. The stubbornness of that Feraud, the awful persistence of that foolish brute, hit him with the overwhelming force of an inescapable fate. General D’Hubert shook as he set down the empty water pitcher. “He will take me,” he thought. General D’Hubert was experiencing every emotion that life had to offer. He had in his dry mouth the faint, sickly taste of fear, not the excusable fear in front of a young girl’s innocent and amused gaze, but the fear of death and the honorable man’s fear of cowardice.
But if true courage consists in going out to meet an odious danger from which our body, soul, and heart recoil together, General D’Hubert had the opportunity to practise it for the first time in his life. He had charged exultingly at batteries and at infantry squares, and ridden with messages through a hail of bullets without thinking anything about it. His business now was to sneak out unheard, at break of day, to an obscure and revolting death. General D’Hubert never hesitated. He carried two pistols in a leather bag which he slung over his shoulder. Before he had crossed the garden his mouth was dry again. He picked two oranges. It was only after shutting the gate after him that he felt a slight faintness.
But if true courage means facing a terrible danger that makes our body, soul, and heart recoil in fear, General D’Hubert was about to experience it for the first time in his life. He had confidently charged at cannons and infantry units, riding through a storm of bullets without a second thought. Now, his task was to sneak out quietly at dawn to meet an obscure and horrifying death. General D’Hubert never wavered. He carried two pistols in a leather bag slung over his shoulder. By the time he crossed the garden, his mouth was dry again. He picked two oranges. It was only after he closed the gate behind him that he felt a slight wave of faintness.
He staggered on, disregarding it, and after going a few yards regained the command of his legs. In the colourless and pellucid dawn the wood of pines detached its columns of trunks and its dark green canopy very clearly against the rocks of the grey hillside. He kept his eyes fixed on it steadily, and sucked at an orange as he walked. That temperamental good-humoured coolness in the face of danger which had made him an officer liked by his men and appreciated by his superiors was gradually asserting itself. It was like going into battle. Arriving at the edge of the wood he sat down on a boulder, holding the other orange in his hand, and reproached himself for coming so ridiculously early on the ground. Before very long, however, he heard the swishing of bushes, footsteps on the hard ground, and the sounds of a disjointed, loud conversation. A voice somewhere behind him said boastfully, “He’s game for my bag.”
He staggered on, ignoring it, and after walking a few yards regained control of his legs. In the flat and clear dawn, the pine trees stood out sharply with their columns of trunks and dark green canopy against the gray hillside rocks. He kept his eyes fixed on it, sucking on an orange as he walked. That laid-back, good-natured confidence in the face of danger that made him a well-liked officer among his men and respected by his superiors was gradually coming back. It felt like going into battle. When he reached the edge of the woods, he sat down on a boulder, holding the other orange in his hand, and reproached himself for arriving so ridiculously early. However, it wasn't long before he heard the rustling of bushes, footsteps on the hard ground, and the sounds of a loud, scattered conversation. A voice from somewhere behind him boasted, “He’s game for my bag.”
He thought to himself, “Here they are. What’s this about game? Are they talking of me?” And becoming aware of the other orange in his hand, he thought further, “These are very good oranges. Leonie’s own tree. I may just as well eat this orange now instead of flinging it away.”
He thought to himself, “Here they are. What’s this about a game? Are they talking about me?” And noticing the other orange in his hand, he thought further, “These are really good oranges. Leonie’s own tree. I might as well eat this orange now instead of tossing it away.”
Emerging from a wilderness of rocks and bushes, General Feraud and his seconds discovered General D’Hubert engaged in peeling the orange. They stood still, waiting till he looked up. Then the seconds raised their hats, while General Feraud, putting his hands behind his back, walked aside a little way.
Emerging from a wild area of rocks and bushes, General Feraud and his seconds found General D’Hubert peeling an orange. They stood still, waiting for him to look up. Then the seconds tipped their hats, while General Feraud, placing his hands behind his back, stepped aside a little.
“I am compelled to ask one of you, messieurs, to act for me. I have brought no friends. Will you?”
“I need to ask one of you, gentlemen, to act on my behalf. I didn’t bring any friends. Will you?”
The one-eyed cuirassier said judicially, “That cannot be refused.”
The one-eyed cuirassier said seriously, “That can’t be denied.”
The other veteran remarked, “It’s awkward all the same.”
The other veteran said, “It’s still awkward no matter what.”
“Owing to the state of the people’s minds in this part of the country there was no one I could trust safely with the object of your presence here,” explained General D’Hubert, urbanely.
“Owing to how people think around here, there wasn’t anyone I could trust with the reason for your visit,” General D’Hubert explained smoothly.
They saluted, looked round, and remarked both together:
They greeted each other, looked around, and said simultaneously:
“Poor ground.”
“Bad ground.”
“It’s unfit.”
"It’s not suitable."
“Why bother about ground, measurements, and so on? Let us simplify matters. Load the two pairs of pistols. I will take those of General Feraud, and let him take mine. Or, better still, let us take a mixed pair. One of each pair. Then let us go into the wood and shoot at sight, while you remain outside. We did not come here for ceremonies, but for war—war to the death. Any ground is good enough for that. If I fall, you must leave me where I lie and clear out. It wouldn’t be healthy for you to be found hanging about here after that.”
“Why worry about the ground, measurements, and all that? Let’s keep it simple. Load up the two pairs of pistols. I’ll take General Feraud’s, and he can take mine. Or even better, let’s just mix them up. One from each pair. Then we’ll head into the woods and shoot on sight, while you stay outside. We didn’t come here for formalities, but for a fight—fight to the death. Any place is fine for that. If I go down, you need to leave me where I fall and get out of here. It won’t be safe for you to stick around after that.”
It appeared after a short parley that General Feraud was willing to accept these conditions. While the seconds were loading the pistols, he could be heard whistling, and was seen to rub his hands with perfect contentment. He flung off his coat briskly, and General D ‘Hubert took off his own and folded it carefully on a stone.
It seemed that after a brief discussion, General Feraud was ready to agree to these terms. While the seconds were loading the pistols, he could be heard whistling and was seen rubbing his hands with complete satisfaction. He quickly took off his coat, while General D’Hubert removed his own and neatly folded it on a stone.
“Suppose you take your principal to the other side of the wood and let him enter exactly in ten minutes from now,” suggested General D’Hubert, calmly, but feeling as if he were giving directions for his own execution. This, however, was his last moment of weakness. “Wait. Let us compare watches first.”
“Let’s say you take your boss to the other side of the woods and have him go in exactly ten minutes from now,” suggested General D’Hubert, calmly, but feeling like he was giving instructions for his own execution. This, however, was his last moment of weakness. “Hold on. Let’s check our watches first.”
He pulled out his own. The officer with the chipped nose went over to borrow the watch of General Feraud. They bent their heads over them for a time.
He pulled out his own. The officer with the chipped nose went over to borrow General Feraud's watch. They leaned in close to look at them for a while.
“That’s it. At four minutes to six by yours. Seven to by mine.”
"That's it. It's four minutes to six by your clock. Seven minutes to six by mine."
It was the cuirassier who remained by the side of General D’Hubert, keeping his one eye fixed immovably on the white face of the watch he held in the palm of his hand. He opened his mouth, waiting for the beat of the last second long before he snapped out the word, “Avancez.”
It was the cuirassier who stayed next to General D’Hubert, keeping his one eye steadily on the white face of the watch he held in his palm. He opened his mouth, waiting for the final second to pass before he shouted, “Advance.”
General D’Hubert moved on, passing from the glaring sunshine of the Provencal morning into the cool and aromatic shade of the pines. The ground was clear between the reddish trunks, whose multitude, leaning at slightly different angles, confused his eye at first. It was like going into battle. The commanding quality of confidence in himself woke up in his breast. He was all to his affair. The problem was how to kill the adversary. Nothing short of that would free him from this imbecile nightmare. “It’s no use wounding that brute,” thought General D’Hubert. He was known as a resourceful officer. His comrades years ago used also to call him The Strategist. And it was a fact that he could think in the presence of the enemy. Whereas Feraud had been always a mere fighter—but a dead shot, unluckily.
General D’Hubert moved on, stepping out of the bright Provencal morning into the cool, fragrant shade of the pines. The ground was clear between the reddish trunks, which leaned at slightly different angles, initially confusing his vision. It felt like going into battle. The strong sense of confidence in himself stirred within him. He was fully focused on his mission. The challenge was how to eliminate the opponent. Nothing less would free him from this ridiculous nightmare. “It’s pointless to just wound that brute,” thought General D’Hubert. He was known as a resourceful officer. His comrades had called him The Strategist years ago. He could think clearly in the presence of the enemy, while Feraud had always been just a fighter—but a dead shot, unfortunately.
“I must draw his fire at the greatest possible range,” said General D’Hubert to himself.
“I need to get him to shoot at me from as far away as possible,” General D’Hubert said to himself.
At that moment he saw something white moving far off between the trees—the shirt of his adversary. He stepped out at once between the trunks, exposing himself freely; then, quick as lightning, leaped back. It had been a risky move but it succeeded in its object. Almost simultaneously with the pop of a shot a small piece of bark chipped off by the bullet stung his ear painfully.
At that moment, he spotted something white moving in the distance between the trees—the shirt of his opponent. He immediately stepped out from behind the trunks, exposing himself completely; then, as quick as lightning, he jumped back. It was a risky move, but it achieved its purpose. Almost at the same time as he heard the shot, a small piece of bark that was hit by the bullet stung his ear painfully.
General Feraud, with one shot expended, was getting cautious. Peeping round the tree, General D’Hubert could not see him at all. This ignorance of the foe’s whereabouts carried with it a sense of insecurity. General D’Hubert felt himself abominably exposed on his flank and rear. Again something white fluttered in his sight. Ha! The enemy was still on his front, then. He had feared a turning movement. But apparently General Feraud was not thinking of it. General D’Hubert saw him pass without special haste from one tree to another in the straight line of approach. With great firmness of mind General D’Hubert stayed his hand. Too far yet. He knew he was no marksman. His must be a waiting game—to kill.
General Feraud, having already fired one shot, was becoming cautious. Looking around the tree, General D’Hubert couldn’t see him at all. This lack of knowledge about the enemy’s position created a feeling of insecurity. General D’Hubert felt completely vulnerable on his sides and behind. Then something white caught his eye again. Ah! The enemy was still in front of him. He had worried about a flanking maneuver. But it seemed General Feraud wasn’t considering that. General D’Hubert watched him move, without hurry, from one tree to another along a straight path. With great resolve, General D’Hubert held back. Not quite yet. He knew he wasn’t a marksman. His strategy had to be to wait—to kill.
Wishing to take advantage of the greater thickness of the trunk, he sank down to the ground. Extended at full length, head on to his enemy, he had his person completely protected. Exposing himself would not do now, because the other was too near by this time. A conviction that Feraud would presently do something rash was like balm to General D’Hubert’s soul. But to keep his chin raised off the ground was irksome, and not much use either. He peeped round, exposing a fraction of his head with dread, but really with little risk. His enemy, as a matter of fact, did not expect to see anything of him so far down as that. General D’Hubert caught a fleeting view of General Feraud shifting trees again with deliberate caution. “He despises my shooting,” he thought, displaying that insight into the mind of his antagonist which is of such great help in winning battles. He was confirmed in his tactics of immobility. “If I could only watch my rear as well as my front!” he thought anxiously, longing for the impossible.
Wishing to take advantage of the trunk's greater thickness, he sank down to the ground. Lying flat, facing his enemy, he had his body completely protected. Exposing himself now would be unwise since the other was too close at this point. The belief that Feraud would soon do something reckless was comforting to General D’Hubert. However, keeping his chin off the ground was annoying and not very useful either. He peeked around, nervously exposing a bit of his head but faced with little real risk. His enemy didn’t actually expect to see anything of him positioned so low. General D’Hubert caught a quick glance of General Feraud cautiously moving between the trees again. “He underestimates my marksmanship,” he thought, showing an understanding of his opponent’s mindset, which is crucial in winning battles. He was reassured in his strategy of staying still. “If only I could keep an eye on my back as well as my front!” he thought anxiously, yearning for the impossible.
It required some force of character to lay his pistols down; but, on a sudden impulse, General D’Hubert did this very gently—one on each side of him. In the army he had been looked upon as a bit of a dandy because he used to shave and put on a clean shirt on the days of battle. As a matter of fact, he had always been very careful of his personal appearance. In a man of nearly forty, in love with a young and charming girl, this praiseworthy self-respect may run to such little weaknesses as, for instance, being provided with an elegant little leather folding-case containing a small ivory comb, and fitted with a piece of looking-glass on the outside. General D’Hubert, his hands being free, felt in his breeches’ pockets for that implement of innocent vanity excusable in the possessor of long, silky moustaches. He drew it out, and then with the utmost coolness and promptitude turned himself over on his back. In this new attitude, his head a little raised, holding the little looking-glass just clear of his tree, he squinted into it with his left eye, while the right kept a direct watch on the rear of his position. Thus was proved Napoleon’s saying, that “for a French soldier, the word impossible does not exist.” He had the right tree nearly filling the field of his little mirror.
It took some inner strength to set down his pistols, but on a sudden impulse, General D’Hubert did so very gently—one on each side of him. In the army, he was seen as a bit of a dandy because he would shave and wear a clean shirt on battle days. In reality, he had always been very mindful of his appearance. For a man nearing forty, who was in love with a young and charming girl, this admirable self-respect could lead to small quirks, like carrying an elegant leather folding case with a small ivory comb and a piece of mirror on the outside. With his hands free, General D’Hubert searched his pants pockets for this harmless vanity tool, fitting for someone with long, silky mustaches. He pulled it out and then, with complete calm and quickness, rolled onto his back. In this new position, with his head slightly raised, he held the little mirror just above the tree and squinted into it with his left eye, while keeping his right eye focused on the rear of his position. This confirmed Napoleon’s saying that “for a French soldier, the word impossible does not exist.” He had the right tree nearly filling his small mirror’s view.
“If he moves from behind it,” he reflected with satisfaction, “I am bound to see his legs. But in any case he can’t come upon me unawares.”
“If he moves from behind it,” he thought with satisfaction, “I’m definitely going to see his legs. But either way, he can’t catch me by surprise.”
And sure enough he saw the boots of General Feraud flash in and out, eclipsing for an instant everything else reflected in the little mirror. He shifted its position accordingly. But having to form his judgment of the change from that indirect view he did not realize that now his feet and a portion of his legs were in plain sight of General Feraud.
And sure enough, he saw General Feraud's boots flash in and out, momentarily blocking out everything else reflected in the small mirror. He adjusted its position accordingly. But since he had to judge the change from that indirect view, he didn’t realize that now his feet and part of his legs were clearly visible to General Feraud.
General Feraud had been getting gradually impressed by the amazing cleverness with which his enemy was keeping cover. He had spotted the right tree with bloodthirsty precision. He was absolutely certain of it. And yet he had not been able to glimpse as much as the tip of an ear. As he had been looking for it at the height of about five feet ten inches from the ground it was no great wonder—but it seemed very wonderful to General Feraud.
General Feraud had increasingly been impressed by the impressive way his enemy was staying hidden. He had zeroed in on the right tree with ruthless accuracy. He was completely sure of it. Yet, he hadn’t been able to catch even a glimpse of an ear. Considering he was searching at a height of about five feet ten inches from the ground, it wasn’t too surprising—but it felt quite remarkable to General Feraud.
The first view of these feet and legs determined a rush of blood to his head. He literally staggered behind his tree, and had to steady himself against it with his hand. The other was lying on the ground, then! On the ground! Perfectly still, too! Exposed! What could it mean? . . . The notion that he had knocked over his adversary at the first shot entered then General Feraud’s head. Once there it grew with every second of attentive gazing, overshadowing every other supposition—irresistible, triumphant, ferocious.
The first sight of those feet and legs sent a surge of blood to his head. He literally staggered back behind his tree and had to brace himself against it with his hand. The other person was lying on the ground, then! On the ground! Completely still, too! Exposed! What could it mean? . . . The idea that he had taken down his opponent with the first shot suddenly entered General Feraud's mind. Once it was there, it grew stronger with every second of focused staring, overshadowing every other thought—irresistible, triumphant, fierce.
“What an ass I was to think I could have missed him,” he muttered to himself. “He was exposed en plein—the fool!—for quite a couple of seconds.”
“What an idiot I was to think I could have missed him,” he muttered to himself. “He was out in the open—the fool!—for a good few seconds.”
General Feraud gazed at the motionless limbs, the last vestiges of surprise fading before an unbounded admiration of his own deadly skill with the pistol.
General Feraud stared at the lifeless limbs, the last hints of surprise disappearing into an overwhelming admiration for his own lethal skill with the pistol.
“Turned up his toes! By the god of war, that was a shot!” he exulted mentally. “Got it through the head, no doubt, just where I aimed, staggered behind that tree, rolled over on his back, and died.”
“Turned up his toes! By the god of war, that was a shot!” he celebrated in his mind. “Got him in the head, no doubt, exactly where I aimed, staggered behind that tree, rolled over on his back, and died.”
And he stared! He stared, forgetting to move, almost awed, almost sorry. But for nothing in the world would he have had it undone. Such a shot!—such a shot! Rolled over on his back and died!
And he just stared! He stared, forgetting to move, almost in awe, almost regretful. But he wouldn't change it for anything. What a shot!—what a shot! Rolled over on his back and died!
For it was this helpless position, lying on the back, that shouted its direct evidence at General Feraud! It never occurred to him that it might have been deliberately assumed by a living man. It was inconceivable. It was beyond the range of sane supposition. There was no possibility to guess the reason for it. And it must be said, too, that General D’Hubert’s turned-up feet looked thoroughly dead. General Feraud expanded his lungs for a stentorian shout to his seconds, but, from what he felt to be an excessive scrupulousness, refrained for a while.
For it was this helpless position, lying on his back, that clearly showed General Feraud the truth! It never crossed his mind that it might have been intentionally taken on by a living person. It was unthinkable. It was beyond what any rational person could assume. There was no way to guess the reason for it. And it should also be mentioned that General D’Hubert’s turned-up feet looked completely lifeless. General Feraud took a deep breath to prepare for a loud shout to his seconds, but, feeling overly cautious, held off for a moment.
“I will just go and see first whether he breathes yet,” he mumbled to himself, leaving carelessly the shelter of his tree. This move was immediately perceived by the resourceful General D’Hubert. He concluded it to be another shift, but when he lost the boots out of the field of the mirror he became uneasy. General Feraud had only stepped a little out of the line, but his adversary could not possibly have supposed him walking up with perfect unconcern. General D’Hubert, beginning to wonder at what had become of the other, was taken unawares so completely that the first warning of danger consisted in the long, early-morning shadow of his enemy falling aslant on his outstretched legs. He had not even heard a footfall on the soft ground between the trees!
“I’m just going to check if he’s breathing,” he muttered to himself, leaving the shelter of his tree without a care. This action caught the sharp eye of General D’Hubert. He thought it was just another trick, but when he lost sight of the boots in the reflection of the mirror, he started to feel uneasy. General Feraud had only moved slightly out of line, but his opponent couldn't possibly think he was approaching without any concern. As General D’Hubert began to wonder what had happened to the other man, he was completely taken by surprise. The first sign of danger was the long, early-morning shadow of his enemy falling across his outstretched legs. He hadn’t even heard a sound on the soft ground between the trees!
It was too much even for his coolness. He jumped up thoughtlessly, leaving the pistols on the ground. The irresistible instinct of an average man (unless totally paralyzed by discomfiture) would have been to stoop for his weapons, exposing himself to the risk of being shot down in that position. Instinct, of course, is irreflective. It is its very definition. But it may be an inquiry worth pursuing whether in reflective mankind the mechanical promptings of instinct are not affected by the customary mode of thought. In his young days, Armand D’Hubert, the reflective, promising officer, had emitted the opinion that in warfare one should “never cast back on the lines of a mistake.” This idea, defended and developed in many discussions, had settled into one of the stock notions of his brain, had become a part of his mental individuality. Whether it had gone so inconceivably deep as to affect the dictates of his instinct, or simply because, as he himself declared afterwards, he was “too scared to remember the confounded pistols,” the fact is that General D’Hubert never attempted to stoop for them. Instead of going back on his mistake, he seized the rough trunk with both hands, and swung himself behind it with such impetuosity that, going right round in the very flash and report of the pistol-shot, he reappeared on the other side of the tree face to face with General Feraud. This last, completely unstrung by such a show of agility on the part of a dead man, was trembling yet. A very faint mist of smoke hung before his face which had an extraordinary aspect, as if the lower jaw had come unhinged.
It was too much even for his composure. He jumped up impulsively, leaving the pistols on the ground. The natural instinct of an ordinary person (unless completely overwhelmed by confusion) would have been to bend down for his weapons, putting himself at risk of being shot in that position. Instinct, of course, is unthinking. That’s its very definition. But it might be worth considering whether the mechanical prompts of instinct in reflective people are influenced by their usual way of thinking. In his younger days, Armand D’Hubert, the thoughtful, promising officer, had voiced the opinion that in warfare one should “never look back on the lines of a mistake.” This idea, defended and expanded in many discussions, had settled into one of the standard notions of his mind, becoming part of his mental identity. Whether it had sunk so deeply that it affected his instinctive reactions, or simply because, as he later stated, he was “too scared to remember the damned pistols,” the fact is that General D’Hubert never tried to reach for them. Instead of revisiting his mistake, he grabbed the rough trunk with both hands and swung himself behind it with such force that, just as the pistol shot rang out, he appeared on the other side of the tree, face to face with General Feraud. The latter, completely rattled by such a display of agility from what he thought was a dead man, was still trembling. A very faint wisp of smoke lingered before his face, which looked extraordinary, as if his lower jaw had come unhinged.
“Not missed!” he croaked, hoarsely, from the depths of a dry throat.
“Not missed!” he rasped, hoarsely, from the depths of a dry throat.
This sinister sound loosened the spell that had fallen on General D’Hubert’s senses. “Yes, missed—a bout portant,” he heard himself saying, almost before he had recovered the full command of his faculties. The revulsion of feeling was accompanied by a gust of homicidal fury, resuming in its violence the accumulated resentment of a lifetime. For years General D ‘Hubert had been exasperated and humiliated by an atrocious absurdity imposed upon him by this man’s savage caprice. Besides, General D’Hubert had been in this last instance too unwilling to confront death for the reaction of his anguish not to take the shape of a desire to kill. “And I have my two shots to fire yet,” he added, pitilessly.
This eerie sound broke the spell that had taken hold of General D’Hubert’s senses. “Yes, missed—a direct hit,” he heard himself say, almost before he fully regained control of his thoughts. The wave of disgust was paired with a burst of violent anger, channeling the accumulated resentment of his entire life. For years, General D’Hubert had been frustrated and humiliated by the ridiculous absurdity forced upon him by this man’s brutal whims. Moreover, in this last moment, General D’Hubert had been too reluctant to face death for his anguish not to transform into a desire to kill. “And I still have my two shots to fire,” he added, without remorse.
General Feraud snapped-to his teeth, and his face assumed an irate, undaunted expression. “Go on!” he said, grimly.
General Feraud clenched his teeth, and his face took on an angry, determined look. “Go on!” he said, grimly.
These would have been his last words if General D’Hubert had been holding the pistols in his hands. But the pistols were lying on the ground at the foot of a pine. General D’Hubert had the second of leisure necessary to remember that he had dreaded death not as a man, but as a lover; not as a danger, but as a rival; not as a foe to life, but as an obstacle to marriage. And behold! there was the rival defeated!—utterly defeated, crushed, done for!
These would have been his last words if General D’Hubert had been holding the pistols. But the pistols were lying on the ground at the base of a pine tree. General D’Hubert had just enough time to remember that he had feared death not as a man, but as a lover; not as a threat, but as a rival; not as an enemy to life, but as a barrier to marriage. And look! There was the rival defeated!—completely defeated, crushed, done for!
He picked up the weapons mechanically, and, instead of firing them into General Feraud’s breast, he gave expression to the thoughts uppermost in his mind, “You will fight no more duels now.”
He picked up the weapons automatically, and instead of shooting them into General Feraud's chest, he voiced the thoughts dominating his mind, "You won't be fighting any more duels now."
His tone of leisurely, ineffable satisfaction was too much for General Feraud’s stoicism. “Don’t dawdle, then, damn you for a cold-blooded staff-coxcomb!” he roared out, suddenly, out of an impassive face held erect on a rigidly still body.
His tone of laid-back, indescribable satisfaction was too much for General Feraud’s composure. “Don’t waste time, then, you cold-blooded staff jerk!” he suddenly shouted, from an expressionless face held high on a stiff, unmoving body.
General D’Hubert uncocked the pistols carefully. This proceeding was observed with mixed feelings by the other general. “You missed me twice,” the victor said, coolly, shifting both pistols to one hand; “the last time within a foot or so. By every rule of single combat your life belongs to me. That does not mean that I want to take it now.”
General D’Hubert carefully uncocked the pistols. The other general watched this with mixed feelings. “You missed me twice,” the victor said coolly, shifting both pistols to one hand. “The last time was within a foot or so. By every rule of single combat, your life belongs to me. That doesn’t mean I want to take it now.”
“I have no use for your forbearance,” muttered General Feraud, gloomily.
“I don't need your patience,” General Feraud muttered darkly.
“Allow me to point out that this is no concern of mine,” said General D’Hubert, whose every word was dictated by a consummate delicacy of feeling. In anger he could have killed that man, but in cold blood he recoiled from humiliating by a show of generosity this unreasonable being—a fellow-soldier of the Grande Armee, a companion in the wonders and terrors of the great military epic. “You don’t set up the pretension of dictating to me what I am to do with what’s my own.”
"Let me make it clear that this is none of my business," said General D’Hubert, whose every word was guided by a deep sensitivity. In a fit of anger, he could have killed that man, but in a calm state, he drew back from humiliating this unreasonable individual by displaying generosity—an comrade from the Grande Armee, a partner in the awe and fear of the epic military journey. "You don’t have the right to tell me what I should do with what’s mine."
General Feraud looked startled, and the other continued, “You’ve forced me on a point of honour to keep my life at your disposal, as it were, for fifteen years. Very well. Now that the matter is decided to my advantage, I am going to do what I like with your life on the same principle. You shall keep it at my disposal as long as I choose. Neither more nor less. You are on your honour till I say the word.”
General Feraud looked surprised, and the other continued, “You've put me in a position where I have to keep my life ready for you for fifteen years. Fine. Now that things have turned out in my favor, I'm going to do what I want with your life using the same logic. You'll keep it available for me as long as I want. No more, no less. You’re on your honor until I say otherwise.”
“I am! But, sacrebleu! This is an absurd position for a General of the Empire to be placed in!” cried General Feraud, in accents of profound and dismayed conviction. “It amounts to sitting all the rest of my life with a loaded pistol in a drawer waiting for your word. It’s—it’s idiotic; I shall be an object of—of—derision.”
“I am! But, for heaven's sake! This is a ridiculous situation for a General of the Empire to be in!” shouted General Feraud, with deep dismay. “It’s like sitting my whole life with a loaded gun in a drawer, just waiting for your command. It’s—it’s stupid; I’ll be an object of—of—ridicule.”
“Absurd?—idiotic? Do you think so?” queried General D’Hubert with sly gravity. “Perhaps. But I don’t see how that can be helped. However, I am not likely to talk at large of this adventure. Nobody need ever know anything about it. Just as no one to this day, I believe, knows the origin of our quarrel. . . . Not a word more,” he added, hastily. “I can’t really discuss this question with a man who, as far as I am concerned, does not exist.”
“Absurd?—idiotic? Do you really think so?” asked General D’Hubert with a smirk. “Maybe. But I don’t see how that can be avoided. Anyway, I’m not going to go on and on about this adventure. No one needs to know anything about it. Just like I don’t think anyone to this day knows what started our argument... Not a word more,” he added quickly. “I really can’t talk about this with a guy who, as far as I’m concerned, doesn’t even exist.”
When the two duellists came out into the open, General Feraud walking a little behind, and rather with the air of walking in a trance, the two seconds hurried towards them, each from his station at the edge of the wood. General D’Hubert addressed them, speaking loud and distinctly, “Messieurs, I make it a point of declaring to you solemnly, in the presence of General Feraud, that our difference is at last settled for good. You may inform all the world of that fact.”
When the two duelists stepped out into the open, General Feraud trailing slightly behind and looking somewhat dazed, their seconds rushed toward them from their spots at the edge of the woods. General D’Hubert spoke to them clearly and loudly, “Gentlemen, I want to formally declare to you, in front of General Feraud, that our disagreement is finally settled for good. You can let everyone know about this.”
“A reconciliation, after all!” they exclaimed together.
“A reconciliation, after all!” they said together.
“Reconciliation? Not that exactly. It is something much more binding. Is it not so, General?”
“Reconciliation? Not exactly that. It's something much more binding. Isn't that right, General?”
General Feraud only lowered his head in sign of assent. The two veterans looked at each other. Later in the day, when they found themselves alone out of their moody friend’s earshot, the cuirassier remarked suddenly, “Generally speaking, I can see with my one eye as far as most people; but this beats me. He won’t say anything.”
General Feraud just nodded his head in agreement. The two veterans exchanged glances. Later that day, when they were alone and out of their grumpy friend's earshot, the cuirassier suddenly said, “Generally speaking, I can see as far as most people with my one eye, but this has me stumped. He won’t say a word.”
“In this affair of honour I understand there has been from first to last always something that no one in the army could quite make out,” declared the chasseur with the imperfect nose. “In mystery it began, in mystery it went on, in mystery it is to end, apparently.”
“In this matter of honor, I understand there has always been something that no one in the army could quite figure out from start to finish,” declared the chasseur with the imperfect nose. “It began in mystery, continued in mystery, and apparently, it's going to end in mystery.”
General D’Hubert walked home with long, hasty strides, by no means uplifted by a sense of triumph. He had conquered, yet it did not seem to him that he had gained very much by his conquest. The night before he had grudged the risk of his life which appeared to him magnificent, worthy of preservation as an opportunity to win a girl’s love. He had known moments when, by a marvellous illusion, this love seemed to be already his, and his threatened life a still more magnificent opportunity of devotion. Now that his life was safe it had suddenly lost its special magnificence. It had acquired instead a specially alarming aspect as a snare for the exposure of unworthiness. As to the marvellous illusion of conquered love that had visited him for a moment in the agitated watches of the night, which might have been his last on earth, he comprehended now its true nature. It had been merely a paroxysm of delirious conceit. Thus to this man, sobered by the victorious issue of a duel, life appeared robbed of its charm, simply because it was no longer menaced.
General D’Hubert walked home with quick, long strides, not at all feeling triumphant. He had won, but it didn't feel like he gained much from his victory. The night before, he had resented the risk to his life, which he thought had been a grand chance to win a girl's love. There had been moments when, through a strange illusion, that love seemed to be his already, and his life being at stake felt like an even greater chance for devotion. Now that his life was safe, it suddenly lost its former grandeur and instead seemed alarmingly like a trap revealing his unworthiness. As for the wonderful illusion of love that had briefly graced him during the nervous hours of the night, which could have been his last on earth, he now saw it for what it truly was: just a fit of delirious arrogance. So, for this man, sobered by winning a duel, life seemed stripped of its allure simply because it was no longer in danger.
Approaching the house from the back, through the orchard and the kitchen garden, he could not notice the agitation which reigned in front. He never met a single soul. Only while walking softly along the corridor, he became aware that the house was awake and more noisy than usual. Names of servants were being called out down below in a confused noise of coming and going. With some concern he noticed that the door of his own room stood ajar, though the shutters had not been opened yet. He had hoped that his early excursion would have passed unperceived. He expected to find some servant just gone in; but the sunshine filtering through the usual cracks enabled him to see lying on the low divan something bulky, which had the appearance of two women clasped in each other’s arms. Tearful and desolate murmurs issued mysteriously from that appearance. General D’Hubert pulled open the nearest pair of shutters violently. One of the women then jumped up. It was his sister. She stood for a moment with her hair hanging down and her arms raised straight up above her head, and then flung herself with a stifled cry into his arms. He returned her embrace, trying at the same time to disengage himself from it. The other woman had not risen. She seemed, on the contrary, to cling closer to the divan, hiding her face in the cushions. Her hair was also loose; it was admirably fair. General D’Hubert recognized it with staggering emotion. Mademoiselle de Valmassigue! Adele! In distress!
Approaching the house from the back, through the orchard and the kitchen garden, he didn’t notice the turmoil happening out front. He didn’t encounter anyone. Only as he walked quietly down the corridor did he realize that the house was awake and noisier than usual. He could hear names of servants being called out in a chaotic mix of coming and going. With some worry, he noticed that his own room's door was slightly open, though the shutters hadn’t been drawn back yet. He had hoped his early outing would go unnoticed. He expected to find a servant who had just come in; instead, the sunlight streaming through the usual cracks revealed something large lying on the low couch, which looked like two women holding each other tightly. Tearful and sorrowful murmurs emanated mysteriously from that scene. General D’Hubert yanked open the nearest set of shutters violently. One of the women then sprang up. It was his sister. She stood for a moment with her hair down and arms raised high above her head, then threw herself with a stifled cry into his arms. He returned her hug while trying to pull away from it. The other woman remained on the couch, seeming to cling tighter to it, hiding her face in the cushions. Her hair was also loose and an exquisite shade of fair. General D’Hubert recognized it with overwhelming emotion. Mademoiselle de Valmassigue! Adele! In trouble!
He became greatly alarmed, and got rid of his sister’s hug definitely. Madame Leonie then extended her shapely bare arm out of her peignoir, pointing dramatically at the divan. “This poor, terrified child has rushed here from home, on foot, two miles—running all the way.”
He became very alarmed and firmly pushed his sister away. Madame Leonie then extended her elegantly bare arm out of her robe, dramatically pointing at the couch. “This poor, terrified child has run all the way here from home, a distance of two miles—she was running the entire time.”
“What on earth has happened?” asked General D’Hubert in a low, agitated voice.
“What on earth has happened?” asked General D’Hubert in a quiet, anxious voice.
But Madame Leonie was speaking loudly. “She rang the great bell at the gate and roused all the household—we were all asleep yet. You may imagine what a terrible shock. . . . Adele, my dear child, sit up.”
But Madame Leonie was speaking loudly. “She rang the big bell at the gate and woke up the whole house—we were all asleep. You can imagine what a terrible shock that was. . . . Adele, my dear, sit up.”
General D’Hubert’s expression was not that of a man who “imagines” with facility. He did, however, fish out of the chaos of surmises the notion that his prospective mother-in-law had died suddenly, but only to dismiss it at once. He could not conceive the nature of the event or the catastrophe which would induce Mademoiselle de Valmassigue, living in a house full of servants, to bring the news over the fields herself, two miles, running all the way.
General D’Hubert didn’t have the look of someone who easily comes up with ideas. However, he did manage to pull from the chaos of speculation the thought that his future mother-in-law had died unexpectedly, but quickly rejected it. He couldn’t wrap his head around the kind of situation or disaster that would prompt Mademoiselle de Valmassigue, who lived in a house packed with servants, to run all the way over the fields for two miles to deliver the news herself.
“But why are you in this room?” he whispered, full of awe.
“But why are you in this room?” he whispered, amazed.
“Of course, I ran up to see, and this child . . . I did not notice it . . . she followed me. It’s that absurd Chevalier,” went on Madame Leonie, looking towards the divan. . . . “Her hair is all come down. You may imagine she did not stop to call her maid to dress it before she started. . . Adele, my dear, sit up. . . . He blurted it all out to her at half-past five in the morning. She woke up early and opened her shutters to breathe the fresh air, and saw him sitting collapsed on a garden bench at the end of the great alley. At that hour—you may imagine! And the evening before he had declared himself indisposed. She hurried on some clothes and flew down to him. One would be anxious for less. He loves her, but not very intelligently. He had been up all night, fully dressed, the poor old man, perfectly exhausted. He wasn’t in a state to invent a plausible story. . . . What a confidant you chose there! My husband was furious. He said, ‘We can’t interfere now.’ So we sat down to wait. It was awful. And this poor child running with her hair loose over here publicly! She has been seen by some people in the fields. She has roused the whole household, too. It’s awkward for her. Luckily you are to be married next week. . . . Adele, sit up. He has come home on his own legs. . . . We expected to see you coming on a stretcher, perhaps—what do I know? Go and see if the carriage is ready. I must take this child home at once. It isn’t proper for her to stay here a minute longer.”
"Of course, I rushed over to see, and this child... I didn’t notice it... she followed me. It’s that ridiculous Chevalier,” Madame Leonie continued, glancing at the couch. “Her hair is completely down. You can imagine she didn’t bother to call her maid to fix it before she left. . . Adele, my dear, sit up. . . . He spilled everything to her at half-past five in the morning. She woke up early, opened her windows to get some fresh air, and saw him slumped on a garden bench at the end of the long path. At that hour—you can imagine! The night before, he had said he wasn’t feeling well. She quickly got dressed and rushed down to him. Anyone would worry about less. He loves her, but not very thoughtfully. He had been up all night, fully dressed, the poor man, completely worn out. He wasn’t in any shape to come up with a believable story. . . . What a confidant you chose! My husband was furious. He said, ‘We can’t interfere now.’ So we just sat there waiting. It was terrible. And this poor girl running around with her hair down like this in public! Some people saw her out in the fields. It’s stirred up the whole household, too. It’s embarrassing for her. Luckily, you’re getting married next week. . . . Adele, sit up. He came home on his own. . . . We were half-expecting to see you being carried in on a stretcher—who knows? Go check if the carriage is ready. I need to take this child home right away. It’s not right for her to stay here another minute."
General D’Hubert did not move. It was as though he had heard nothing. Madame Leonie changed her mind. “I will go and see myself,” she cried. “I want also my cloak.—Adele—” she began, but did not add “sit up.” She went out saying, in a very loud and cheerful tone: “I leave the door open.”
General D’Hubert didn’t move. It was as if he hadn’t heard anything. Madame Leonie changed her mind. “I’ll go see for myself,” she exclaimed. “I also want my cloak.—Adele—” she started, but didn’t finish with “sit up.” She left, saying in a very loud and cheerful voice: “I’m leaving the door open.”
General D’Hubert made a movement towards the divan, but then Adele sat up, and that checked him dead. He thought, “I haven’t washed this morning. I must look like an old tramp. There’s earth on the back of my coat and pine-needles in my hair.” It occurred to him that the situation required a good deal of circumspection on his part.
General D’Hubert moved toward the couch, but then Adele sat up, freezing him in place. He thought, “I didn’t wash this morning. I must look like a bum. There’s dirt on the back of my coat and pine needles in my hair.” He realized that the situation needed him to be very cautious.
“I am greatly concerned, mademoiselle,” he began, vaguely, and abandoned that line. She was sitting up on the divan with her cheeks unusually pink and her hair, brilliantly fair, falling all over her shoulders—which was a very novel sight to the general. He walked away up the room, and looking out of the window for safety said, “I fear you must think I behaved like a madman,” in accents of sincere despair. Then he spun round, and noticed that she had followed him with her eyes. They were not cast down on meeting his glance. And the expression of her face was novel to him also. It was, one might have said, reversed. Those eyes looked at him with grave thoughtfulness, while the exquisite lines of her mouth seemed to suggest a restrained smile. This change made her transcendental beauty much less mysterious, much more accessible to a man’s comprehension. An amazing ease of mind came to the general—and even some ease of manner. He walked down the room with as much pleasurable excitement as he would have found in walking up to a battery vomiting death, fire, and smoke; then stood looking down with smiling eyes at the girl whose marriage with him (next week) had been so carefully arranged by the wise, the good, the admirable Leonie.
“I’m really worried, mademoiselle,” he started, vaguely, and then dropped that line. She was sitting up on the couch with unusually pink cheeks and her beautifully fair hair cascading over her shoulders—which was a very new sight for him. He walked away across the room and, looking out the window for safety, said, “I’m afraid you must think I acted like a madman,” with genuine despair in his voice. Then he turned around and noticed she was watching him. Her gaze didn’t drop when she met his eyes. The look on her face was new to him too. It was, you could say, the opposite of what he expected. Her eyes met his with serious thoughtfulness, while the delicate curve of her mouth seemed to hold back a smile. This change made her ethereal beauty feel much less mysterious and more understandable to him. An incredible sense of calm washed over him—and even a bit of confidence. He walked down the room with as much excitement as he would have felt moving toward a cannon blasting death, fire, and smoke; then he stood looking down with a smile in his eyes at the girl whose marriage to him (next week) had been so carefully arranged by the wise, the good, the admirable Leonie.
“Ah! mademoiselle,” he said, in a tone of courtly regret, “if only I could be certain that you did not come here this morning, two miles, running all the way, merely from affection for your mother!”
“Ah! miss,” he said, with a tone of polite regret, “if only I could be sure that you didn’t come here this morning, two miles, running all the way, just out of love for your mother!”
He waited for an answer imperturbable but inwardly elated. It came in a demure murmur, eyelashes lowered with fascinating effect. “You must not be mechant as well as mad.”
He waited for a response, calm on the outside but happy on the inside. It came in a soft voice, her eyelashes lowered in an intriguing way. “You must not be rude as well as crazy.”
And then General D’Hubert made an aggressive movement towards the divan which nothing could check. That piece of furniture was not exactly in the line of the open door. But Madame Leonie, coming back wrapped up in a light cloak and carrying a lace shawl on her arm for Adele to hide her incriminating hair under, had a swift impression of her brother getting up from his knees.
And then General D’Hubert made an assertive move toward the couch that nothing could stop. The piece of furniture wasn’t exactly positioned in the path of the open door. But Madame Leonie, returning wrapped in a light cloak and holding a lace shawl on her arm for Adele to conceal her revealing hair, quickly noticed her brother getting up from his knees.
“Come along, my dear child,” she cried from the doorway.
“Come on, my dear child,” she called from the doorway.
The general, now himself again in the fullest sense, showed the readiness of a resourceful cavalry officer and the peremptoriness of a leader of men. “You don’t expect her to walk to the carriage,” he said, indignantly. “She isn’t fit. I shall carry her downstairs.”
The general, feeling like himself again in every way, displayed the quick thinking of a skilled cavalry officer and the decisiveness of a strong leader. “You can’t expect her to walk to the carriage,” he said, offended. “She’s not able to. I’ll carry her downstairs.”
This he did slowly, followed by his awed and respectful sister; but he rushed back like a whirlwind to wash off all the signs of the night of anguish and the morning of war, and to put on the festive garments of a conqueror before hurrying over to the other house. Had it not been for that, General D ‘Hubert felt capable of mounting a horse and pursuing his late adversary in order simply to embrace him from excess of happiness. “I owe it all to this stupid brute,” he thought. “He has made plain in a morning what might have taken me years to find out—for I am a timid fool. No self-confidence whatever. Perfect coward. And the Chevalier! Delightful old man!” General D’Hubert longed to embrace him also.
He did this slowly, with his amazed and respectful sister following him; but he rushed back like a whirlwind to wash away all the signs of the night of pain and the morning of conflict, and to put on the festive clothes of a victor before hurrying over to the other house. If it weren’t for that, General D’Hupert felt ready to hop on a horse and chase after his former opponent just to hug him out of sheer happiness. “I owe it all to this stupid brute,” he thought. “He has shown me in one morning what might have taken me years to understand—for I am a timid fool. Zero self-confidence. Total coward. And the Chevalier! What a delightful old man!” General D’Hupert also wanted to hug him.
The Chevalier was in bed. For several days he was very unwell. The men of the Empire and the post-revolution young ladies were too much for him. He got up the day before the wedding, and, being curious by nature, took his niece aside for a quiet talk. He advised her to find out from her husband the true story of the affair of honour, whose claim, so imperative and so persistent, had led her to within an ace of tragedy. “It is right that his wife should be told. And next month or so will be your time to learn from him anything you want to know, my dear child.”
The Chevalier was in bed. For several days, he had been feeling really unwell. The men of the Empire and the young ladies post-revolution were too much for him. He got out of bed the day before the wedding and, being curious, took his niece aside for a private conversation. He urged her to ask her husband about the real story behind the honor affair, which had almost led her to tragedy. “It’s important that his wife knows the truth. And next month or so will be your chance to learn anything you want to know, my dear.”
Later on, when the married couple came on a visit to the mother of the bride, Madame la Generale D’Hubert communicated to her beloved old uncle the true story she had obtained without any difficulty from her husband.
Later on, when the married couple visited the bride's mother, Madame la Generale D’Hubert shared with her beloved old uncle the true story she had easily gotten from her husband.
The Chevalier listened with deep attention to the end, took a pinch of snuff, flicked the grains of tobacco from the frilled front of his shirt, and asked, calmly, “And that’s all it was?”
The Chevalier listened intently to the end, took a pinch of snuff, brushed the tobacco off the frilled front of his shirt, and asked, calmly, “Is that all there was?”
“Yes, uncle,” replied Madame la Generale, opening her pretty eyes very wide. “Isn’t it funny? C’est insense—to think what men are capable of!”
“Yes, uncle,” replied Madame la Generale, opening her beautiful eyes very wide. “Isn’t it funny? It’s crazy—to think about what men are capable of!”
“H’m!” commented the old emigre. “It depends what sort of men. That Bonaparte’s soldiers were savages. It is insense. As a wife, my dear, you must believe implicitly what your husband says.”
“H’m!” said the old emigre. “It depends on what kind of men we’re talking about. Bonaparte’s soldiers were brutal. It’s absurd. As a wife, my dear, you have to trust completely what your husband says.”
But to Leonie’s husband the Chevalier confided his true opinion. “If that’s the tale the fellow made up for his wife, and during the honeymoon, too, you may depend on it that no one will ever know now the secret of this affair.”
But to Leonie’s husband, the Chevalier shared his true thoughts. “If that’s the story the guy created for his wife, and during the honeymoon, too, you can be sure that no one will ever find out the secret of this situation.”
Considerably later still, General D’Hubert judged the time come, and the opportunity propitious to write a letter to General Feraud. This letter began by disclaiming all animosity. “I’ve never,” wrote the General Baron D’Hubert, “wished for your death during all the time of our deplorable quarrel. Allow me,” he continued, “to give you back in all form your forfeited life. It is proper that we two, who have been partners in so much military glory, should be friendly to each other publicly.”
Much later, General D’Hubert decided it was the right time and opportunity to write a letter to General Feraud. This letter started by stating that he held no grudges. "I’ve never," wrote General Baron D’Hubert, "wished for your death during our unfortunate conflict. Please allow me," he continued, "to formally return your life that you’ve lost. It’s important that we, who have shared so much military glory, should be on friendly terms in public.”
The same letter contained also an item of domestic information. It was in reference to this last that General Feraud answered from a little village on the banks of the Garonne, in the following words:
The same letter also included a piece of home news. It was regarding this last point that General Feraud responded from a small village alongside the Garonne, saying the following:
“If one of your boy’s names had been Napoleon—or Joseph—or even Joachim, I could congratulate you on the event with a better heart. As you have thought proper to give him the names of Charles Henri Armand, I am confirmed in my conviction that you never loved the Emperor. The thought of that sublime hero chained to a rock in the middle of a savage ocean makes life of so little value that I would receive with positive joy your instructions to blow my brains out. From suicide I consider myself in honour debarred. But I keep a loaded pistol in my drawer.”
“If one of your son's names had been Napoleon—or Joseph—or even Joachim, I could happily congratulate you on the occasion. Since you've chosen to name him Charles Henri Armand, I'm convinced that you never loved the Emperor. The idea of that great hero being trapped on a rock in the middle of a wild ocean makes life feel so worthless that I'd gladly accept your orders to end it all. I believe I’m too honorable to consider suicide. But I do keep a loaded pistol in my drawer.”
Madame la Generale D’Hubert lifted up her hands in despair after perusing that answer.
Madame la Generale D’Hubert raised her hands in despair after reading that response.
“You see? He won’t be reconciled,” said her husband. “He must never, by any chance, be allowed to guess where the money comes from. It wouldn’t do. He couldn’t bear it.”
“You see? He won’t be able to accept it,” said her husband. “He must never, under any circumstances, be allowed to find out where the money comes from. It wouldn’t be good. He couldn’t handle it.”
“You are a brave homme, Armand,” said Madame la Generale, appreciatively.
“You're a brave man, Armand,” said Madame la Generale, with admiration.
“My dear, I had the right to blow his brains out; but as I didn’t, we can’t let him starve. He has lost his pension and he is utterly incapable of doing anything in the world for himself. We must take care of him, secretly, to the end of his days. Don’t I owe him the most ecstatic moment of my life? . . . Ha! ha! ha! Over the fields, two miles, running all the way! I couldn’t believe my ears! . . . But for his stupid ferocity, it would have taken me years to find you out. It’s extraordinary how in one way or another this man has managed to fasten himself on my deeper feelings.”
“My dear, I had every right to take him out; but since I didn’t, we can’t let him go hungry. He’s lost his pension and is completely unable to take care of himself. We need to look after him, quietly, for the rest of his days. Don’t I owe him the most amazing moment of my life? . . . Ha! ha! ha! Running through the fields, two miles, all the way! I could hardly believe my ears! . . . If it weren’t for his stupid rage, it would’ve taken me ages to figure you out. It’s incredible how this man has somehow attached himself to my deeper feelings.”
IL CONDE
A PATHETIC TALE
“Vedi Napoli e poi mori.”
“See Naples and then die.”
The first time we got into conversation was in the National Museum in Naples, in the rooms on the ground floor containing the famous collection of bronzes from Herculaneum and Pompeii: that marvellous legacy of antique art whose delicate perfection has been preserved for us by the catastrophic fury of a volcano.
The first time we talked was at the National Museum in Naples, in the rooms on the ground floor that house the famous collection of bronzes from Herculaneum and Pompeii: that amazing gift of ancient art whose delicate beauty has been preserved for us by the devastating force of a volcano.
He addressed me first, over the celebrated Resting Hermes which we had been looking at side by side. He said the right things about that wholly admirable piece. Nothing profound. His taste was natural rather than cultivated. He had obviously seen many fine things in his life and appreciated them: but he had no jargon of a dilettante or the connoisseur. A hateful tribe. He spoke like a fairly intelligent man of the world, a perfectly unaffected gentleman.
He spoke to me first, over the famous Resting Hermes that we had been admiring together. He commented appropriately on that truly admirable piece. Nothing deep. His taste was more instinctive than refined. It was clear he had seen many beautiful things in his life and appreciated them; however, he didn't have the pretentious language of a hobbyist or an expert. An annoying group. He spoke like a reasonably intelligent person, completely down-to-earth and gracious.
We had known each other by sight for some few days past. Staying in the same hotel—good, but not extravagantly up to date—I had noticed him in the vestibule going in and out. I judged he was an old and valued client. The bow of the hotel-keeper was cordial in its deference, and he acknowledged it with familiar courtesy. For the servants he was Il Conde. There was some squabble over a man’s parasol—yellow silk with white lining sort of thing—the waiters had discovered abandoned outside the dining-room door. Our gold-laced door-keeper recognized it and I heard him directing one of the lift boys to run after Il Conde with it. Perhaps he was the only Count staying in the hotel, or perhaps he had the distinction of being the Count par excellence, conferred upon him because of his tried fidelity to the house.
We had recognized each other by sight for a few days now. Staying in the same hotel—nice, but not overly modern—I had seen him in the lobby coming and going. I figured he was a longtime and valued guest. The hotel manager greeted him with warm respect, and he returned the gesture with friendly acknowledgment. To the staff, he was Il Conde. There was some fuss over a man's parasol—yellow silk with a white lining—that the waiters found left outside the dining room door. Our gold-laced doorman recognized it, and I heard him telling one of the elevator boys to chase after Il Conde with it. Maybe he was the only Count at the hotel, or maybe he had the special title of Count par excellence, given to him for his loyalty to the place.
Having conversed at the Museo—(and by the by he had expressed his dislike of the busts and statues of Roman emperors in the gallery of marbles: their faces were too vigorous, too pronounced for him)—having conversed already in the morning I did not think I was intruding when in the evening, finding the dining-room very full, I proposed to share his little table. Judging by the quiet urbanity of his consent he did not think so either. His smile was very attractive.
Having talked at the museum—(by the way, he mentioned that he didn't like the busts and statues of Roman emperors in the marble gallery: their faces were too intense, too defined for him)—having already chatted in the morning, I didn't think I was being intrusive when, in the evening, I noticed the dining room was quite crowded, and I suggested sharing his small table. From the calm politeness of his agreement, it seemed he didn’t think so either. His smile was really charming.
He dined in an evening waistcoat and a “smoking” (he called it so) with a black tie. All this of very good cut, not new—just as these things should be. He was, morning or evening, very correct in his dress. I have no doubt that his whole existence had been correct, well ordered and conventional, undisturbed by startling events. His white hair brushed upwards off a lofty forehead gave him the air of an idealist, of an imaginative man. His white moustache, heavy but carefully trimmed and arranged, was not unpleasantly tinted a golden yellow in the middle. The faint scent of some very good perfume, and of good cigars (that last an odour quite remarkable to come upon in Italy) reached me across the table. It was in his eyes that his age showed most. They were a little weary with creased eyelids. He must have been sixty or a couple of years more. And he was communicative. I would not go so far as to call it garrulous—but distinctly communicative.
He had dinner wearing an evening waistcoat and what he called a "smoking" jacket, along with a black tie. Everything fit well, not new—just how these things should be. He was always appropriately dressed, whether it was morning or night. I have no doubt that his whole life had been proper, well-organized, and conventional, untouched by any shocking events. His white hair, brushed back off a high forehead, gave him the look of an idealist, an imaginative man. His white mustache was thick but neatly trimmed, with a subtle golden yellow tint in the middle. A faint scent of high-quality perfume and good cigars (which was quite a rare smell to find in Italy) wafted over to me from across the table. His age was most visible in his eyes, which looked a bit tired with creased eyelids. He must have been sixty or maybe a few years older. He was talkative, not quite garrulous, but definitely friendly and open in conversation.
He had tried various climates, of Abbazia, of the Riviera, of other places, too, he told me, but the only one which suited him was the climate of the Gulf of Naples. The ancient Romans, who, he pointed out to me, were men expert in the art of living, knew very well what they were doing when they built their villas on these shores, in Baiae, in Vico, in Capri. They came down to this seaside in search of health, bringing with them their trains of mimes and flute-players to amuse their leisure. He thought it extremely probable that the Romans of the higher classes were specially predisposed to painful rheumatic affections.
He had tried various climates, like those in Abbazia, the Riviera, and other places too, as he told me, but the only one that worked for him was the climate of the Gulf of Naples. The ancient Romans, he noted, were really good at enjoying life and knew exactly what they were doing when they built their villas on these shores, in Baiae, Vico, and Capri. They came down to the seaside for health, bringing along their entertainers and flute players to keep themselves entertained. He thought it was very likely that the wealthy Romans were particularly prone to painful rheumatic issues.
This was the only personal opinion I heard him express. It was based on no special erudition. He knew no more of the Romans than an average informed man of the world is expected to know. He argued from personal experience. He had suffered himself from a painful and dangerous rheumatic affection till he found relief in this particular spot of Southern Europe.
This was the only personal opinion I heard him share. It wasn't based on any special knowledge. He knew no more about the Romans than an average educated person is expected to know. He spoke from personal experience. He had suffered from a painful and serious rheumatic condition until he found relief in this specific area of Southern Europe.
This was three years ago, and ever since he had taken up his quarters on the shores of the gulf, either in one of the hotels in Sorrento or hiring a small villa in Capri. He had a piano, a few books: picked up transient acquaintances of a day, week, or month in the stream of travellers from all Europe. One can imagine him going out for his walks in the streets and lanes, becoming known to beggars, shopkeepers, children, country people; talking amiably over the walls to the contadini—and coming back to his rooms or his villa to sit before the piano, with his white hair brushed up and his thick orderly moustache, “to make a little music for myself.” And, of course, for a change there was Naples near by—life, movement, animation, opera. A little amusement, as he said, is necessary for health. Mimes and flute-players, in fact. Only unlike the magnates of ancient Rome, he had no affairs of the city to call him away from these moderate delights. He had no affairs at all. Probably he had never had any grave affairs to attend to in his life. It was a kindly existence, with its joys and sorrows regulated by the course of Nature—marriages, births, deaths—ruled by the prescribed usages of good society and protected by the State.
This was three years ago, and since then he had settled on the shores of the gulf, either in one of the hotels in Sorrento or renting a small villa in Capri. He had a piano and a few books, making short-term friends for a day, week, or month among the stream of travelers from all over Europe. You can picture him going out for walks in the streets and alleys, getting to know beggars, shopkeepers, children, and locals; chatting amiably over the walls with the farmers—and returning to his rooms or villa to sit at the piano, with his white hair neatly styled and his thick, tidy mustache, “to make a little music for myself.” And, of course, for a change, there was Naples nearby—filled with life, activity, and opera. A little fun, as he said, is necessary for health. Mimes and flute players, in fact. Unlike the powerful figures of ancient Rome, he had no city affairs pulling him away from these simple pleasures. He had no responsibilities at all. He probably had never had any serious matters to deal with in his life. It was a gentle existence, with its joys and sorrows governed by the rhythms of Nature—marriages, births, deaths—shaped by the accepted norms of good society and safeguarded by the State.
He was a widower; but in the months of July and August he ventured to cross the Alps for six weeks on a visit to his married daughter. He told me her name. It was that of a very aristocratic family. She had a castle—in Bohemia, I think. This is as near as I ever came to ascertaining his nationality. His own name, strangely enough, he never mentioned. Perhaps he thought I had seen it on the published list. Truth to say, I never looked. At any rate, he was a good European—he spoke four languages to my certain knowledge—and a man of fortune. Not of great fortune evidently and appropriately. I imagine that to be extremely rich would have appeared to him improper, outre—too blatant altogether. And obviously, too, the fortune was not of his making. The making of a fortune cannot be achieved without some roughness. It is a matter of temperament. His nature was too kindly for strife. In the course of conversation he mentioned his estate quite by the way, in reference to that painful and alarming rheumatic affection. One year, staying incautiously beyond the Alps as late as the middle of September, he had been laid up for three months in that lonely country house with no one but his valet and the caretaking couple to attend to him. Because, as he expressed it, he “kept no establishment there.” He had only gone for a couple of days to confer with his land agent. He promised himself never to be so imprudent in the future. The first weeks of September would find him on the shores of his beloved gulf.
He was a widower, but during July and August, he decided to cross the Alps for six weeks to visit his married daughter. He shared her name with me, which belonged to a very aristocratic family. She had a castle, I believe, in Bohemia. This was as close as I ever got to figuring out his nationality. Oddly enough, he never mentioned his own name. Maybe he thought I would have seen it on the published list. To be honest, I never checked. In any case, he was a good European—he spoke four languages, as far as I knew—and a man of means. Not an enormous fortune, clearly, but appropriately sufficient. I think being extremely wealthy would have seemed to him improper, outrageous—too obvious altogether. And it was clear that his wealth wasn’t something he had earned himself. Making a fortune often involves some harshness. It’s a matter of character. His nature was too gentle for conflict. During our conversation, he casually mentioned his estate in relation to that painful and troubling rheumatic condition. One year, he had stayed too long beyond the Alps until mid-September and ended up bedridden for three months in that lonely country house, with only his valet and the caretaker couple to look after him. Because, as he put it, he “didn’t have any staff there.” He had only gone for a couple of days to meet with his land agent. He promised himself he would never be so careless again. By the first weeks of September, he would be by the shores of his beloved gulf.
Sometimes in travelling one comes upon such lonely men, whose only business is to wait for the unavoidable. Deaths and marriages have made a solitude round them, and one really cannot blame their endeavours to make the waiting as easy as possible. As he remarked to me, “At my time of life freedom from physical pain is a very important matter.”
Sometimes when traveling, you encounter lonely men whose only job is to wait for what’s inevitable. Deaths and marriages have created a solitude around them, and you can’t really blame their efforts to make the waiting as bearable as possible. As he told me, “At my age, being free from physical pain is very important.”
It must not be imagined that he was a wearisome hypochondriac. He was really much too well-bred to be a nuisance. He had an eye for the small weaknesses of humanity. But it was a good-natured eye. He made a restful, easy, pleasant companion for the hours between dinner and bedtime. We spent three evenings together, and then I had to leave Naples in a hurry to look after a friend who had fallen seriously ill in Taormina. Having nothing to do, Il Conde came to see me off at the station. I was somewhat upset, and his idleness was always ready to take a kindly form. He was by no means an indolent man.
You shouldn’t think he was a boring hypochondriac. He was actually too well-mannered to be a bother. He noticed the small flaws in people, but he did so in a good-natured way. He was a relaxing, easy-going, pleasant companion for those hours between dinner and bedtime. We spent three evenings together, and then I had to leave Naples suddenly to look after a friend who had gotten seriously ill in Taormina. With nothing else to do, Il Conde came to see me off at the station. I was feeling a bit upset, and his laid-back attitude was always kind. He was definitely not an idle person.
He went along the train peering into the carriages for a good seat for me, and then remained talking cheerily from below. He declared he would miss me that evening very much and announced his intention of going after dinner to listen to the band in the public garden, the Villa Nazionale. He would amuse himself by hearing excellent music and looking at the best society. There would be a lot of people, as usual.
He walked along the train, looking into the carriages to find me a good seat, and then stayed below, chatting happily. He said he would really miss me that evening and mentioned that he planned to go after dinner to listen to the band in the public garden, the Villa Nazionale. He would entertain himself by enjoying great music and watching the best crowd. There would be a lot of people, as always.
I seem to see him yet—his raised face with a friendly smile under the thick moustaches, and his kind, fatigued eyes. As the train began to move, he addressed me in two languages: first in French, saying, “Bon voyage”; then, in his very good, somewhat emphatic English, encouragingly, because he could see my concern: “All will—be—well—yet!”
I can still picture him—his lifted face with a warm smile beneath his thick mustache and his kind, tired eyes. As the train started to move, he spoke to me in two languages: first in French, saying, “Have a good trip”; then, in his very good, slightly emphatic English, reassuringly, since he noticed my worry: “Everything will be fine!”
My friend’s illness having taken a decidedly favourable turn, I returned to Naples on the tenth day. I cannot say I had given much thought to Il Conde during my absence, but entering the dining-room I looked for him in his habitual place. I had an idea he might have gone back to Sorrento to his piano and his books and his fishing. He was great friends with all the boatmen, and fished a good deal with lines from a boat. But I made out his white head in the crowd of heads, and even from a distance noticed something unusual in his attitude. Instead of sitting erect, gazing all round with alert urbanity, he drooped over his plate. I stood opposite him for some time before he looked up, a little wildly, if such a strong word can be used in connection with his correct appearance.
My friend’s illness had taken a turn for the better, so I returned to Naples on the tenth day. I can't say I thought much about Il Conde while I was away, but when I entered the dining room, I looked for him in his usual spot. I figured he might have gone back to Sorrento for his piano, books, and fishing. He was good friends with all the boatmen and often fished from a boat. But I spotted his white head in the crowd and, even from a distance, noticed something unusual about how he was sitting. Instead of sitting up straight, looking around with his usual alertness, he slumped over his plate. I stood across from him for a bit before he looked up, slightly startled, if that's the right way to describe his usually composed appearance.
“Ah, my dear sir! Is it you?” he greeted me. “I hope all is well.”
“Ah, my dear sir! Is that you?” he greeted me. “I hope everything is good.”
He was very nice about my friend. Indeed, he was always nice, with the niceness of people whose hearts are genuinely humane. But this time it cost him an effort. His attempts at general conversation broke down into dullness. It occurred to me he might have been indisposed. But before I could frame the inquiry he muttered:
He was really kind about my friend. In fact, he was always kind, with that warmth of people who are truly compassionate. But this time it seemed to take effort. His attempts at casual conversation fell flat and became boring. I wondered if he might have been unwell. But before I could ask, he muttered:
“You find me here very sad.”
"You find me here very sad."
“I am sorry for that,” I said. “You haven’t had bad news, I hope?”
“I’m sorry to hear that,” I said. “I hope you didn’t get any bad news?”
It was very kind of me to take an interest. No. It was not that. No bad news, thank God. And he became very still as if holding his breath. Then, leaning forward a little, and in an odd tone of awed embarrassment, he took me into his confidence.
It was really nice of me to show interest. No. That wasn't it. No bad news, thank God. And he got very quiet, almost like he was holding his breath. Then, leaning forward a bit, and in a strange tone of shy awe, he decided to confide in me.
“The truth is that I have had a very—a very—how shall I say?—abominable adventure happen to me.”
“The truth is that I have had a really—a really—how should I put it?—terrible adventure happen to me.”
The energy of the epithet was sufficiently startling in that man of moderate feelings and toned-down vocabulary. The word unpleasant I should have thought would have fitted amply the worst experience likely to befall a man of his stamp. And an adventure, too. Incredible! But it is in human nature to believe the worst; and I confess I eyed him stealthily, wondering what he had been up to. In a moment, however, my unworthy suspicions vanished. There was a fundamental refinement of nature about the man which made me dismiss all idea of some more or less disreputable scrape.
The intensity of the nickname was surprisingly shocking for a man with such moderate feelings and a restrained way of speaking. I would have thought that the word "unpleasant" would have more than covered the worst experience someone like him could face. And an adventure, too. Unbelievable! But it's human nature to assume the worst; I have to admit I watched him quietly, curious about what he had been doing. However, in a moment, my unworthy suspicions faded away. There was a fundamental refinement about the man that made me dismiss any idea of him being involved in some sort of shady situation.
“It is very serious. Very serious.” He went on, nervously. “I will tell you after dinner, if you will allow me.”
“It’s really serious. Very serious.” He continued, nervously. “I’ll tell you after dinner, if that’s okay.”
I expressed my perfect acquiescence by a little bow, nothing more. I wished him to understand that I was not likely to hold him to that offer, if he thought better of it later on. We talked of indifferent things, but with a sense of difficulty quite unlike our former easy, gossipy intercourse. The hand raising a piece of bread to his lips, I noticed, trembled slightly. This symptom, in regard to my reading of the man, was no less than startling.
I showed my complete agreement with a slight bow, nothing more. I wanted him to get that I wasn’t going to hold him to that offer if he changed his mind later. We chatted about random topics, but it felt awkward compared to our previous easy, chatty conversations. I noticed his hand shaking slightly as he brought a piece of bread to his lips. This was a surprising sign, considering my impression of him.
In the smoking-room he did not hang back at all. Directly we had taken our usual seats he leaned sideways over the arm of his chair and looked straight into my eyes earnestly.
In the smoking room, he didn't hold back at all. As soon as we settled into our usual seats, he leaned over the arm of his chair and looked straight into my eyes earnestly.
“You remember,” he began, “that day you went away? I told you then I would go to the Villa Nazionale to hear some music in the evening.”
“You remember,” he started, “the day you left? I told you I would go to the Villa Nazionale to listen to some music in the evening.”
I remembered. His handsome old face, so fresh for his age, unmarked by any trying experience, appeared haggard for an instant. It was like the passing of a shadow. Returning his steadfast gaze, I took a sip of my black coffee. He was systematically minute in his narrative, simply in order, I think, not to let his excitement get the better of him.
I remembered. His handsome face, surprisingly fresh for his age and free from any signs of tough experiences, looked tired for a moment. It was like a shadow passing by. Meeting his steady gaze, I took a sip of my black coffee. He was very detailed in his story, I think, just to keep his excitement in check.
After leaving the railway station, he had an ice, and read the paper in a cafe. Then he went back to the hotel, dressed for dinner, and dined with a good appetite. After dinner he lingered in the hall (there were chairs and tables there) smoking his cigar; talked to the little girl of the Primo Tenore of the San Carlo theatre, and exchanged a few words with that “amiable lady,” the wife of the Primo Tenore. There was no performance that evening, and these people were going to the Villa also. They went out of the hotel. Very well.
After leaving the train station, he had an ice cream and read the paper at a café. Then he went back to the hotel, got dressed for dinner, and enjoyed a good meal. After dinner, he relaxed in the lounge (with chairs and tables) while smoking his cigar; he chatted with the little girl of the leading tenor from the San Carlo theater and exchanged a few words with the "friendly lady," the tenor's wife. There was no show that evening, and these people were heading to the Villa too. They exited the hotel. All good.
At the moment of following their example—it was half-past nine already—he remembered he had a rather large sum of money in his pocket-book. He entered, therefore, the office and deposited the greater part of it with the book-keeper of the hotel. This done, he took a carozella and drove to the seashore. He got out of the cab and entered the Villa on foot from the Largo di Vittoria end.
At the time he was about to follow their example—it was already 9:30—he remembered he had a decent amount of cash in his wallet. So, he went into the office and deposited most of it with the hotel clerk. After that, he took a carriage and drove to the beach. He got out of the cab and walked into the Villa from the Largo di Vittoria side.
He stared at me very hard. And I understood then how really impressionable he was. Every small fact and event of that evening stood out in his memory as if endowed with mystic significance. If he did not mention to me the colour of the pony which drew the carozella, and the aspect of the man who drove, it was a mere oversight arising from his agitation, which he repressed manfully.
He looked at me intensely. And at that moment, I realized just how impressionable he was. Every little detail and event from that evening stood out in his memory as if it held some deep significance. If he didn’t mention the color of the pony that pulled the carriage or the appearance of the man who drove it, it was simply an oversight caused by his nervousness, which he was trying hard to hide.
He had then entered the Villa Nazionale from the Largo di Vittoria end. The Villa Nazionale is a public pleasure-ground laid out in grass plots, bushes, and flower-beds between the houses of the Riviera di Chiaja and the waters of the bay. Alleys of trees, more or less parallel, stretch its whole length—which is considerable. On the Riviera di Chiaja side the electric tramcars run close to the railings. Between the garden and the sea is the fashionable drive, a broad road bordered by a low wall, beyond which the Mediterranean splashes with gentle murmurs when the weather is fine.
He then entered the Villa Nazionale from the Largo di Vittoria side. The Villa Nazionale is a public park filled with grassy areas, bushes, and flowerbeds located between the buildings of the Riviera di Chiaja and the bay. Tree-lined paths stretch along its entire length, which is quite extensive. On the Riviera di Chiaja side, electric trams run right next to the fences. Between the garden and the sea is the popular roadway, a wide street lined with a low wall, beyond which the Mediterranean gently splashes and murmurs when the weather is nice.
As life goes on late at night in Naples, the broad drive was all astir with a brilliant swarm of carriage lamps moving in pairs, some creeping slowly, others running rapidly under the thin, motionless line of electric lamps defining the shore. And a brilliant swarm of stars hung above the land humming with voices, piled up with houses, glittering with lights—and over the silent flat shadows of the sea.
As life continues late at night in Naples, the wide road was alive with a bright flurry of carriage lights moving in pairs, some creeping slowly while others raced quickly beneath the thin, still line of electric lights outlining the shore. And a brilliant cluster of stars hung over the bustling land, filled with voices, stacked with houses, gleaming with lights—and over the quiet, flat shadows of the sea.
The gardens themselves are not very well lit. Our friend went forward in the warm gloom, his eyes fixed upon a distant luminous region extending nearly across the whole width of the Villa, as if the air had glowed there with its own cold, bluish, and dazzling light. This magic spot, behind the black trunks of trees and masses of inky foliage, breathed out sweet sounds mingled with bursts of brassy roar, sudden clashes of metal, and grave, vibrating thuds.
The gardens aren’t very well lit. Our friend moved ahead in the warm darkness, his eyes focused on a distant glowing area that stretched almost the entire width of the Villa, as if the air there glowed with its own cold, bluish, and dazzling light. This magical spot, hidden behind the dark trunks of trees and thick masses of shadowy leaves, emitted sweet sounds mixed with bursts of harsh noise, sudden clashes of metal, and deep, vibrating thuds.
As he walked on, all these noises combined together into a piece of elaborate music whose harmonious phrases came persuasively through a great disorderly murmur of voices and shuffling of feet on the gravel of that open space. An enormous crowd immersed in the electric light, as if in a bath of some radiant and tenuous fluid shed upon their heads by luminous globes, drifted in its hundreds round the band. Hundreds more sat on chairs in more or less concentric circles, receiving unflinchingly the great waves of sonority that ebbed out into the darkness. The Count penetrated the throng, drifted with it in tranquil enjoyment, listening and looking at the faces. All people of good society: mothers with their daughters, parents and children, young men and young women all talking, smiling, nodding to each other. Very many pretty faces, and very many pretty toilettes. There was, of course, a quantity of diverse types: showy old fellows with white moustaches, fat men, thin men, officers in uniform; but what predominated, he told me, was the South Italian type of young man, with a colourless, clear complexion, red lips, jet-black little moustache and liquid black eyes so wonderfully effective in leering or scowling.
As he walked on, all these noises blended together into an intricate piece of music whose smooth melodies came through the chaotic murmur of voices and the sound of feet shuffling on the gravel of that open space. A massive crowd, immersed in electric light like a bath of some radiant and delicate fluid pouring down from glowing globes above their heads, moved in the hundreds around the band. Hundreds more sat on chairs arranged in somewhat concentric circles, taking in the powerful waves of sound that flowed out into the darkness. The Count moved through the crowd, swaying with it in calm enjoyment, listening and observing the faces. All were people of good society: mothers with their daughters, parents and children, young men and women all chatting, smiling, and nodding to one another. Many pretty faces and stylish outfits were noticeable. There were certainly various types present: flamboyant old men with white mustaches, overweight men, skinny men, officers in uniform; but what stood out the most, he told me, was the South Italian type of young man, with a pale, clear complexion, red lips, a small jet-black mustache, and deep black eyes that were incredibly expressive, whether leering or scowling.
Withdrawing from the throng, the Count shared a little table in front of the cafe with a young man of just such a type. Our friend had some lemonade. The young man was sitting moodily before an empty glass. He looked up once, and then looked down again. He also tilted his hat forward. Like this—
Withdrawing from the crowd, the Count sat at a small table outside the cafe with a young man who fit that description perfectly. Our friend had some lemonade. The young man sat there gloomily in front of an empty glass. He glanced up once, then quickly looked down again. He also pulled his hat down over his eyes. Like this—
The Count made the gesture of a man pulling his hat down over his brow, and went on:
The Count pulled his hat down over his eyes and continued:
“I think to myself: he is sad; something is wrong with him; young men have their troubles. I take no notice of him, of course. I pay for my lemonade, and go away.”
“I think to myself: he seems upset; something’s bothering him; young guys have their issues. I don’t pay attention to him, of course. I pay for my lemonade and leave.”
Strolling about in the neighbourhood of the band, the Count thinks he saw twice that young man wandering alone in the crowd. Once their eyes met. It must have been the same young man, but there were so many there of that type that he could not be certain. Moreover, he was not very much concerned except in so far that he had been struck by the marked, peevish discontent of that face.
Strolling around the area near the band, the Count thought he spotted that young man wandering alone in the crowd twice. Once their eyes met. It had to be the same guy, but there were so many like him there that he couldn't be sure. Besides, he wasn't very invested, except that he was struck by the distinct, sulky discontent on that face.
Presently, tired of the feeling of confinement one experiences in a crowd, the Count edged away from the band. An alley, very sombre by contrast, presented itself invitingly with its promise of solitude and coolness. He entered it, walking slowly on till the sound of the orchestra became distinctly deadened. Then he walked back and turned about once more. He did this several times before he noticed that there was somebody occupying one of the benches.
Currently, feeling tired of the constriction that comes with being in a crowd, the Count stepped away from the band. A dark alley, in stark contrast, appeared inviting with its promise of solitude and coolness. He entered it, walking slowly until the music from the orchestra faded significantly. Then he walked back and turned around again. He repeated this several times before he noticed that someone was sitting on one of the benches.
The spot being midway between two lamp-posts the light was faint.
The spot was halfway between two lamp posts, so the light was dim.
The man lolled back in the corner of the seat, his legs stretched out, his arms folded and his head drooping on his breast. He never stirred, as though he had fallen asleep there, but when the Count passed by next time he had changed his attitude. He sat leaning forward. His elbows were propped on his knees, and his hands were rolling a cigarette. He never looked up from that occupation.
The man slouched in the corner of the seat, his legs stretched out, arms crossed, and his head resting on his chest. He didn't move, as if he had dozed off there, but when the Count walked by again, he had shifted his posture. Now he was leaning forward, elbows on his knees, rolling a cigarette. He didn’t take his eyes off what he was doing.
The Count continued his stroll away from the band. He returned slowly, he said. I can imagine him enjoying to the full, but with his usual tranquillity, the balminess of this southern night and the sounds of music softened delightfully by the distance.
The Count kept walking away from the band. He said he would come back slowly. I can picture him fully enjoying, yet with his usual calmness, the warmth of this southern night and the music fading beautifully in the distance.
Presently, he approached for the third time the man on the garden seat, still leaning forward with his elbows on his knees. It was a dejected pose. In the semi-obscurity of the alley his high shirt collar and his cuffs made small patches of vivid whiteness. The Count said that he had noticed him getting up brusquely as if to walk away, but almost before he was aware of it the man stood before him asking in a low, gentle tone whether the signore would have the kindness to oblige him with a light.
Now, he approached for the third time the man sitting on the garden bench, still leaning forward with his elbows on his knees. It was a downcast posture. In the dim light of the alley, his high shirt collar and cuffs stood out as bright white patches. The Count said he had seen him get up suddenly as if to leave, but almost before he realized it, the man was standing in front of him, asking in a soft, gentle tone if the gentleman would be kind enough to provide him with a light.
The Count answered this request by a polite “Certainly,” and dropped his hands with the intention of exploring both pockets of his trousers for the matches.
The Count replied to the request with a polite, “Sure,” and lowered his hands to check both pockets of his pants for the matches.
“I dropped my hands,” he said, “but I never put them in my pockets. I felt a pressure there—”
“I dropped my hands,” he said, “but I never put them in my pockets. I felt a pressure there—”
He put the tip of his finger on a spot close under his breastbone, the very spot of the human body where a Japanese gentleman begins the operations of the Harakiri, which is a form of suicide following upon dishonour, upon an intolerable outrage to the delicacy of one’s feelings.
He placed the tip of his finger on a spot just below his breastbone, the exact point on the human body where a Japanese gentleman begins the procedure for Harakiri, a form of suicide that follows dishonor or an unbearable violation of one's feelings.
“I glance down,” the Count continued in an awestruck voice, “and what do I see? A knife! A long knife—”
“I look down,” the Count continued in a amazed voice, “and what do I see? A knife! A long knife—”
“You don’t mean to say,” I exclaimed, amazed, “that you have been held up like this in the Villa at half-past ten o’clock, within a stone’s throw of a thousand people!”
“You can’t be serious,” I said, shocked, “that you’ve been stuck like this in the Villa at half-past ten, just a short distance from a thousand people!”
He nodded several times, staring at me with all his might.
He nodded a few times, looking at me intensively.
“The clarionet,” he declared, solemnly, “was finishing his solo, and I assure you I could hear every note. Then the band crashed fortissimo, and that creature rolled its eyes and gnashed its teeth hissing at me with the greatest ferocity, ‘Be silent! No noise or—‘”
“The clarinet,” he said seriously, “was finishing its solo, and I promise you I could hear every note. Then the band erupted at full volume, and that thing rolled its eyes and bared its teeth, hissing at me with all its ferocity, ‘Be quiet! No noise or—‘”
I could not get over my astonishment.
I couldn't believe my eyes.
“What sort of knife was it?” I asked, stupidly.
“What kind of knife was it?” I asked, foolishly.
“A long blade. A stiletto—perhaps a kitchen knife. A long narrow blade. It gleamed. And his eyes gleamed. His white teeth, too. I could see them. He was very ferocious. I thought to myself: ‘If I hit him he will kill me.’ How could I fight with him? He had the knife and I had nothing. I am nearly seventy, you know, and that was a young man. I seemed even to recognize him. The moody young man of the cafe. The young man I met in the crowd. But I could not tell. There are so many like him in this country.”
“A long blade. A stiletto—maybe a kitchen knife. A long, narrow blade. It shined. And his eyes shined too. His white teeth, as well. I could see them. He looked really fierce. I thought to myself: ‘If I hit him, he will kill me.’ How could I fight him? He had the knife, and I had nothing. I’m almost seventy, you know, and that was a young guy. I even thought I recognized him. The moody young man from the café. The young man I saw in the crowd. But I couldn’t be sure. There are so many like him in this country.”
The distress of that moment was reflected in his face. I should think that physically he must have been paralyzed by surprise. His thoughts, however, remained extremely active. They ranged over every alarming possibility. The idea of setting up a vigorous shouting for help occurred to him, too. But he did nothing of the kind, and the reason why he refrained gave me a good opinion of his mental self-possession. He saw in a flash that nothing prevented the other from shouting, too.
The shock of that moment was clear on his face. He must have felt completely frozen with surprise. But his mind was racing. He considered calling out for help, but he didn’t do that. The fact that he held back made me respect his calmness. He quickly realized that nothing stopped the other person from shouting, either.
“That young man might in an instant have thrown away his knife and pretended I was the aggressor. Why not? He might have said I attacked him. Why not? It was one incredible story against another! He might have said anything—bring some dishonouring charge against me—what do I know? By his dress he was no common robber. He seemed to belong to the better classes. What could I say? He was an Italian—I am a foreigner. Of course, I have my passport, and there is our consul—but to be arrested, dragged at night to the police office like a criminal!”
“That young man could have easily tossed aside his knife and claimed I was the one attacking him. Why not? He could have said I assaulted him. Why not? It was one unbelievable story against another! He could have said anything—made some shameful accusation against me—how would I know? From his clothing, he didn’t look like a typical thief. He seemed to come from a higher social class. What could I say? He was Italian—I’m a foreigner. Sure, I have my passport, and we have our consul—but to be arrested and dragged at night to the police station like a criminal!”
He shuddered. It was in his character to shrink from scandal, much more than from mere death. And certainly for many people this would have always remained—considering certain peculiarities of Neapolitan manners—a deucedly queer story. The Count was no fool. His belief in the respectable placidity of life having received this rude shock, he thought that now anything might happen. But also a notion came into his head that this young man was perhaps merely an infuriated lunatic.
He shuddered. It was in his nature to avoid scandal, much more so than to fear death. And for many people, this would definitely have always been—considering some quirks of Neapolitan culture—a ridiculously strange story. The Count wasn't naïve. After this rude awakening to the reality of life, he realized that anything could happen now. But he also started to think that this young man might just be an angry lunatic.
This was for me the first hint of his attitude towards this adventure. In his exaggerated delicacy of sentiment he felt that nobody’s self-esteem need be affected by what a madman may choose to do to one. It became apparent, however, that the Count was to be denied that consolation. He enlarged upon the abominably savage way in which that young man rolled his glistening eyes and gnashed his white teeth. The band was going now through a slow movement of solemn braying by all the trombones, with deliberately repeated bangs of the big drum.
This was the first sign for me of his attitude towards this adventure. In his overly sensitive nature, he believed that no one’s self-esteem should be impacted by what a madman might decide to do. However, it soon became clear that the Count would not have that comfort. He went on about the incredibly savage way that young man rolled his shiny eyes and bared his white teeth. The band was now going through a slow movement of solemn braying from all the trombones, with deliberately repeated thumps from the bass drum.
“But what did you do?” I asked, greatly excited.
"But what did you do?" I asked, feeling really excited.
“Nothing,” answered the Count. “I let my hands hang down very still. I told him quietly I did not intend making a noise. He snarled like a dog, then said in an ordinary voice:
“Nothing,” replied the Count. “I let my hands hang down very still. I told him quietly that I didn’t intend to make any noise. He growled like a dog, then said in a regular voice:
“‘Vostro portofolio.’”
“Your portfolio.”
“So I naturally,” continued the Count—and from this point acted the whole thing in pantomime. Holding me with his eyes, he went through all the motions of reaching into his inside breast pocket, taking out a pocket-book, and handing it over. But that young man, still bearing steadily on the knife, refused to touch it.
“So I naturally,” continued the Count—and from this point acted the whole thing out in pantomime. Holding my gaze, he went through all the motions of reaching into his inside breast pocket, pulling out a wallet, and handing it over. But that young man, still firmly pressing the knife, refused to take it.
He directed the Count to take the money out himself, received it into his left hand, motioned the pocketbook to be returned to the pocket, all this being done to the sweet thrilling of flutes and clarionets sustained by the emotional drone of the hautboys. And the “young man,” as the Count called him, said: “This seems very little.”
He instructed the Count to take the money out himself, accepted it into his left hand, and signaled for the pocketbook to be returned to his pocket, all while being accompanied by the sweet sound of flutes and clarinets supported by the emotional drone of the oboes. And the “young man,” as the Count referred to him, said: “This seems really small.”
“It was, indeed, only 340 or 360 lire,” the Count pursued. “I had left my money in the hotel, as you know. I told him this was all I had on me. He shook his head impatiently and said:
“It was really only 340 or 360 lire,” the Count continued. “I had left my money at the hotel, as you know. I told him this was all I had on me. He shook his head impatiently and said:
“‘Vostro orologio.’”
"Your watch."
The Count gave me the dumb show of pulling out his watch, detaching it. But, as it happened, the valuable gold half-chronometer he possessed had been left at a watch-maker’s for cleaning. He wore that evening (on a leather guard) the Waterbury fifty-franc thing he used to take with him on his fishing expeditions. Perceiving the nature of this booty, the well-dressed robber made a contemptuous clicking sound with his tongue like this, “Tse-Ah!” and waved it away hastily. Then, as the Count was returning the disdained object to his pocket, he demanded with a threateningly increased pressure of the knife on the epigastrium, by way of reminder:
The Count gave me a mock display of pulling out his watch and taking it off. But, as luck would have it, the valuable gold half-chronometer he owned was at the watchmaker’s for cleaning. That evening, he was wearing the Waterbury fifty-franc watch he usually took with him on fishing trips, secured with a leather guard. Noticing the nature of this prize, the well-dressed thief made a dismissive clicking sound with his tongue, like this, “Tse-Ah!” and waved it away quickly. Then, as the Count was putting the rejected item back into his pocket, the robber pressed his knife more forcefully against the Count's stomach to remind him:
“‘Vostri anelli.’”
"Your rings."
“One of the rings,” went on the Count, “was given me many years ago by my wife; the other is the signet ring of my father. I said, ‘No. That you shall not have!’”
“One of the rings,” continued the Count, “was given to me many years ago by my wife; the other is my father’s signet ring. I said, ‘No. You can’t have that!’”
Here the Count reproduced the gesture corresponding to that declaration by clapping one hand upon the other, and pressing both thus against his chest. It was touching in its resignation. “That you shall not have,” he repeated, firmly, and closed his eyes, fully expecting—I don’t know whether I am right in recording that such an unpleasant word had passed his lips—fully expecting to feel himself being—I really hesitate to say—being disembowelled by the push of the long, sharp blade resting murderously against the pit of his stomach—the very seat, in all human beings, of anguishing sensations.
Here the Count mimicked the gesture that matched that declaration by clapping one hand against the other and pressing both against his chest. It was moving in its acceptance. “You won’t have that,” he repeated firmly and closed his eyes, fully expecting—I’m not sure if I should say this unpleasant word had left his lips—fully expecting to feel himself being—I really hesitate to say—being disemboweled by the thrust of the long, sharp blade resting threateningly against the pit of his stomach—the very center, in all humans, of agonizing feelings.
Great waves of harmony went on flowing from the band.
Great waves of harmony kept flowing from the band.
Suddenly the Count felt the nightmarish pressure removed from the sensitive spot. He opened his eyes. He was alone. He had heard nothing. It is probable that “the young man” had departed, with light steps, some time before, but the sense of the horrid pressure had lingered even after the knife had gone. A feeling of weakness came over him. He had just time to stagger to the garden seat. He felt as though he had held his breath for a long time. He sat all in a heap, panting with the shock of the reaction.
Suddenly, the Count felt the nightmare pressure lift from the sensitive spot. He opened his eyes. He was alone. He likely hadn’t heard anything, and “the young man” must have left quietly some time ago, but the awful pressure lingered even after the knife was gone. A wave of weakness washed over him. He barely managed to stagger to the garden seat. It felt like he had been holding his breath for a long time. He sat down in a heap, gasping from the shock of the aftermath.
The band was executing, with immense bravura, the complicated finale. It ended with a tremendous crash. He heard it unreal and remote, as if his ears had been stopped, and then the hard clapping of a thousand, more or less, pairs of hands, like a sudden hail-shower passing away. The profound silence which succeeded recalled him to himself.
The band was playing the complicated finale with great confidence. It ended with a huge crash. He heard it as if it were distant and unreal, like his ears were blocked, and then the loud applause of about a thousand hands, like a sudden hailstorm passing by. The deep silence that followed brought him back to reality.
A tramcar resembling a long glass box wherein people sat with their heads strongly lighted, ran along swiftly within sixty yards of the spot where he had been robbed. Then another rustled by, and yet another going the other way. The audience about the band had broken up, and were entering the alley in small conversing groups. The Count sat up straight and tried to think calmly of what had happened to him. The vileness of it took his breath away again. As far as I can make it out he was disgusted with himself. I do not mean to say with his behaviour. Indeed, if his pantomimic rendering of it for my information was to be trusted, it was simply perfect. No, it was not that. He was not ashamed. He was shocked at being the selected victim, not of robbery so much as of contempt. His tranquillity had been wantonly desecrated. His lifelong, kindly nicety of outlook had been defaced.
A tram that looked like a long glass box, with people inside illuminated brightly, zipped by within sixty yards of where he had been robbed. Then another one whizzed past, followed by yet another heading in the opposite direction. The crowd around the band had dispersed, breaking into small groups as they entered the alley, chatting among themselves. The Count sat up straight and tried to calmly process what had just happened to him. The awfulness of it took his breath away again. From what I can gather, he was disgusted with himself. I don’t mean his behavior. In fact, if his exaggerated portrayal of it for my sake was anything to go by, it was just perfect. No, it wasn't that. He wasn’t ashamed. He was shocked at being the chosen target, not so much of theft but of disdain. His sense of peace had been wantonly violated. His lifelong, gentle perspective had been tarnished.
Nevertheless, at that stage, before the iron had time to sink deep, he was able to argue himself into comparative equanimity. As his agitation calmed down somewhat, he became aware that he was frightfully hungry. Yes, hungry. The sheer emotion had made him simply ravenous. He left the seat and, after walking for some time, found himself outside the gardens and before an arrested tramcar, without knowing very well how he came there. He got in as if in a dream, by a sort of instinct. Fortunately he found in his trouser pocket a copper to satisfy the conductor. Then the car stopped, and as everybody was getting out he got out, too. He recognized the Piazza San Ferdinando, but apparently it did not occur to him to take a cab and drive to the hotel. He remained in distress on the Piazza like a lost dog, thinking vaguely of the best way of getting something to eat at once.
Nevertheless, at that point, before the pain had a chance to really sink in, he managed to calm himself down a bit. As his anxiety eased, he realized he was extremely hungry. Yes, hungry. The stress had made him completely ravenous. He got up from his seat and, after wandering for a while, found himself outside the gardens in front of a stopped tram, without really knowing how he had gotten there. He boarded as if in a daze, almost by instinct. Luckily, he discovered a coin in his trouser pocket to pay the conductor. Then the tram stopped, and as everyone else was getting off, he did too. He recognized the Piazza San Ferdinando, but it didn’t seem to cross his mind to catch a cab to the hotel. He stood there in distress in the Piazza like a lost dog, vaguely considering how to quickly get something to eat.
Suddenly he remembered his twenty-franc piece. He explained to me that he had that piece of French gold for something like three years. He used to carry it about with him as a sort of reserve in case of accident. Anybody is liable to have his pocket picked—a quite different thing from a brazen and insulting robbery.
Suddenly, he remembered his twenty-franc coin. He told me he had that piece of French gold for about three years. He used to carry it around as a sort of backup in case of emergencies. Anyone could get their pocket picked—it's a totally different situation from a bold and disrespectful robbery.
The monumental arch of the Galleria Umberto faced him at the top of a noble flight of stairs. He climbed these without loss of time, and directed his steps towards the Cafe Umberto. All the tables outside were occupied by a lot of people who were drinking. But as he wanted something to eat, he went inside into the cafe, which is divided into aisles by square pillars set all round with long looking-glasses. The Count sat down on a red plush bench against one of these pillars, waiting for his risotto. And his mind reverted to his abominable adventure.
The grand arch of the Galleria Umberto greeted him at the top of a majestic flight of stairs. He quickly climbed them and made his way to Cafe Umberto. All the tables outside were filled with people enjoying drinks. But since he was looking for something to eat, he went inside the cafe, which was divided into sections by square pillars surrounded by long mirrors. The Count sat down on a red plush bench by one of these pillars, waiting for his risotto. His thoughts drifted back to his terrible adventure.
He thought of the moody, well-dressed young man, with whom he had exchanged glances in the crowd around the bandstand, and who, he felt confident, was the robber. Would he recognize him again? Doubtless. But he did not want ever to see him again. The best thing was to forget this humiliating episode.
He thought about the brooding, sharply dressed young man he had exchanged looks with in the crowd around the bandstand, and who he was sure was the robber. Would he recognize him again? Probably. But he didn't ever want to see him again. The best option was to forget this embarrassing episode.
The Count looked round anxiously for the coming of his risotto, and, behold! to the left against the wall—there sat the young man. He was alone at a table, with a bottle of some sort of wine or syrup and a carafe of iced water before him. The smooth olive cheeks, the red lips, the little jet-black moustache turned up gallantly, the fine black eyes a little heavy and shaded by long eyelashes, that peculiar expression of cruel discontent to be seen only in the busts of some Roman emperors—it was he, no doubt at all. But that was a type. The Count looked away hastily. The young officer over there reading a paper was like that, too. Same type. Two young men farther away playing draughts also resembled—
The Count looked around nervously for his risotto, and there, to the left against the wall, sat the young man. He was at a table by himself, with a bottle of some kind of wine or syrup and a carafe of iced water in front of him. His smooth olive skin, red lips, little jet-black mustache turned up playfully, and fine black eyes were slightly heavy, framed by long eyelashes. That unique expression of cruel discontent, reminiscent of certain Roman emperors—it was definitely him. But that was just a type. The Count quickly looked away. The young officer over there, reading a newspaper, looked like that too. Same type. Two young guys farther away, playing checkers, also resembled—
The Count lowered his head with the fear in his heart of being everlastingly haunted by the vision of that young man. He began to eat his risotto. Presently he heard the young man on his left call the waiter in a bad-tempered tone.
The Count bowed his head, feeling terrified at the thought of being haunted forever by the image of that young man. He started to eat his risotto. Soon, he heard the young man to his left calling the waiter in an annoyed tone.
At the call, not only his own waiter, but two other idle waiters belonging to a quite different row of tables, rushed towards him with obsequious alacrity, which is not the general characteristic of the waiters in the Cafe Umberto. The young man muttered something and one of the waiters walking rapidly to the nearest door called out into the Galleria: “Pasquale! O! Pasquale!”
At the call, not just his own waiter, but two other idle waiters from a completely different row of tables hurried over to him with eager enthusiasm, which isn't typically how the waiters at Cafe Umberto behave. The young man mumbled something, and one of the waiters quickly walked to the nearest door and shouted into the Galleria: “Pasquale! O! Pasquale!”
Everybody knows Pasquale, the shabby old fellow who, shuffling between the tables, offers for sale cigars, cigarettes, picture postcards, and matches to the clients of the cafe. He is in many respects an engaging scoundrel. The Count saw the grey-haired, unshaven ruffian enter the cafe, the glass case hanging from his neck by a leather strap, and, at a word from the waiter, make his shuffling way with a sudden spurt to the young man’s table. The young man was in need of a cigar with which Pasquale served him fawningly. The old pedlar was going out, when the Count, on a sudden impulse, beckoned to him.
Everyone knows Pasquale, the scruffy old guy who shuffles between the tables, selling cigars, cigarettes, postcards, and matches to the cafe customers. In many ways, he’s a charming rogue. The Count saw the gray-haired, unshaven man walk into the cafe, the glass display hanging from his neck by a leather strap, and, at the waiter’s signal, shuffle quickly over to the young man’s table. The young man needed a cigar, which Pasquale eagerly provided. Just as the old vendor was about to leave, the Count suddenly waved him over.
Pasquale approached, the smile of deferential recognition combining oddly with the cynical searching expression of his eyes. Leaning his case on the table, he lifted the glass lid without a word. The Count took a box of cigarettes and urged by a fearful curiosity, asked as casually as he could—
Pasquale came over, his smile of respectful acknowledgment mixed strangely with the cynical look in his eyes. He leaned his case on the table and opened the glass lid silently. The Count grabbed a box of cigarettes and, driven by a nervous curiosity, asked as casually as possible—
“Tell me, Pasquale, who is that young signore sitting over there?”
“Hey, Pasquale, who’s that young guy sitting over there?”
The other bent over his box confidentially.
The other leaned over his box in a confidential manner.
“That, Signor Conde,” he said, beginning to rearrange his wares busily and without looking up, “that is a young Cavaliere of a very good family from Bari. He studies in the University here, and is the chief, capo, of an association of young men—of very nice young men.”
“Listen, Signor Conde,” he said, starting to organize his items quickly without looking up, “that’s a young gentleman from a well-respected family in Bari. He studies at the university here and is the leader of a group of young men—very nice young men.”
He paused, and then, with mingled discretion and pride of knowledge, murmured the explanatory word “Camorra” and shut down the lid. “A very powerful Camorra,” he breathed out. “The professors themselves respect it greatly . . . una lira e cinquanti centesimi, Signor Conde.”
He took a moment, then, with a mix of caution and a sense of pride in his knowledge, quietly said the word “Camorra” and closed the lid. “A very powerful Camorra,” he said softly. “Even the professors hold it in high regard . . . one lira and fifty cents, Sir Count.”
Our friend paid with the gold piece. While Pasquale was making up the change, he observed that the young man, of whom he had heard so much in a few words, was watching the transaction covertly. After the old vagabond had withdrawn with a bow, the Count settled with the waiter and sat still. A numbness, he told me, had come over him.
Our friend paid with a gold coin. While Pasquale was counting out the change, he noticed that the young man, who he had heard so much about in just a few words, was secretly watching the transaction. After the old beggar left with a bow, the Count settled the bill with the waiter and sat quietly. He told me that he felt a numbness come over him.
The young man paid, too, got up, and crossed over, apparently for the purpose of looking at himself in the mirror set in the pillar nearest to the Count’s seat. He was dressed all in black with a dark green bow tie. The Count looked round, and was startled by meeting a vicious glance out of the corners of the other’s eyes. The young Cavaliere from Bari (according to Pasquale; but Pasquale is, of course, an accomplished liar) went on arranging his tie, settling his hat before the glass, and meantime he spoke just loud enough to be heard by the Count. He spoke through his teeth with the most insulting venom of contempt and gazing straight into the mirror.
The young man paid, got up, and walked over, seemingly to check himself out in the mirror attached to the pillar nearest the Count's seat. He was dressed all in black with a dark green bow tie. The Count looked around and was taken aback by the vicious glance coming from the corners of the other's eyes. The young Cavaliere from Bari (according to Pasquale; but Pasquale is, of course, a skilled liar) continued adjusting his tie and fixing his hat in front of the mirror, and in the meantime, he spoke just loud enough for the Count to hear. He spoke through his teeth with the most insulting tone of contempt, staring straight into the mirror.
“Ah! So you had some gold on you—you old liar—you old birba—you furfante! But you are not done with me yet.”
“Ah! So you had some gold on you—you old liar—you old rascal—you scoundrel! But you’re not finished with me yet.”
The fiendishness of his expression vanished like lightning, and he lounged out of the cafe with a moody, impassive face.
The wickedness in his expression disappeared in an instant, and he slouched out of the café with a brooding, emotionless face.
The poor Count, after telling me this last episode, fell back trembling in his chair. His forehead broke into perspiration. There was a wanton insolence in the spirit of this outrage which appalled even me. What it was to the Count’s delicacy I won’t attempt to guess. I am sure that if he had been not too refined to do such a blatantly vulgar thing as dying from apoplexy in a cafe, he would have had a fatal stroke there and then. All irony apart, my difficulty was to keep him from seeing the full extent of my commiseration. He shrank from every excessive sentiment, and my commiseration was practically unbounded. It did not surprise me to hear that he had been in bed a week. He had got up to make his arrangements for leaving Southern Italy for good and all.
The poor Count, after sharing this last episode, slumped back in his chair, trembling. Sweat broke out on his forehead. There was a shocking arrogance in the spirit of this outrage that even I found disturbing. I can't imagine how it affected the Count’s sensibilities. I'm sure that if he weren't too refined to do something as blatantly crass as dying of a stroke in a café, he would have had one right then and there. Irony aside, my challenge was to hide the full extent of my sympathy from him. He recoiled from any extreme sentiment, and my sympathy was practically limitless. It didn't surprise me to learn he had been in bed for a week. He had gotten up to make arrangements to leave Southern Italy for good.
And the man was convinced that he could not live through a whole year in any other climate!
And the man was sure that he couldn't survive a whole year in any other climate!
No argument of mine had any effect. It was not timidity, though he did say to me once: “You do not know what a Camorra is, my dear sir. I am a marked man.” He was not afraid of what could be done to him. His delicate conception of his dignity was defiled by a degrading experience. He couldn’t stand that. No Japanese gentleman, outraged in his exaggerated sense of honour, could have gone about his preparations for Hara-kiri with greater resolution. To go home really amounted to suicide for the poor Count.
No argument I made had any effect. It wasn’t fear, though he did tell me once: “You don’t know what a Camorra is, my dear sir. I’m a marked man.” He wasn’t afraid of what might happen to him. His sensitive idea of dignity was tarnished by a humiliating experience. He couldn’t tolerate that. No Japanese gentleman, insulted in his heightened sense of honor, could have prepared for Hara-kiri with more determination. Going home truly felt like suicide for the poor Count.
There is a saying of Neapolitan patriotism, intended for the information of foreigners, I presume: “See Naples and then die.” Vedi Napoli e poi mori. It is a saying of excessive vanity, and everything excessive was abhorrent to the nice moderation of the poor Count. Yet, as I was seeing him off at the railway station, I thought he was behaving with singular fidelity to its conceited spirit. Vedi Napoli! . . . He had seen it! He had seen it with startling thoroughness—and now he was going to his grave. He was going to it by the train de luxe of the International Sleeping Car Company, via Trieste and Vienna. As the four long, sombre coaches pulled out of the station I raised my hat with the solemn feeling of paying the last tribute of respect to a funeral cortege. Il Conde’s profile, much aged already, glided away from me in stony immobility, behind the lighted pane of glass—Vedi Napoli e poi mori!
There’s a saying among Neapolitan patriots, meant to impress foreigners, I guess: “See Naples and then die.” Vedi Napoli e poi mori. It’s a saying full of arrogance, and everything excessive repulsed the Count's sense of moderation. But as I was saying goodbye to him at the train station, I thought he was embodying that boastful spirit in a striking way. Vedi Napoli! . . . He had seen it! He had seen it with remarkable detail—and now he was heading to his grave. He was taking the first-class train from the International Sleeping Car Company, through Trieste and Vienna. As the four long, dark coaches left the station, I tipped my hat with a solemn feeling, as if paying my last respects to a funeral procession. The Count’s profile, already showing age, moved away from me in stillness, behind the lit window—Vedi Napoli e poi mori!
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