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THE AUTOBIOGRAPHY
of
St. Ignatius
EDITED BY
J. F. X. O'CONOR, S.J.
New York, Cincinnati, Chicago
BENZIGER BROTHERS
Printers to the Holy Apostolic See
1900
Imprimatur.
Approval.
✠ MICHAEL AUGUSTINE,
Archbishop of New York.
✠ MICHAEL AUGUSTINE,
NY Archbishop.
Nihil obstat.
Nihil obstat.
Edwardus I. Purbrick, S.J.,
Præpositus Provincialis Provinciæ
Marylandiæ Neo-Eboracensis.
Edward I. Purbrick, S.J.,
Provincial Superior of the
Maryland-New York Province.
Jacobus J. Casey, S.J.,
Censor Deputatus.
Jacobus J. Casey, S.J.,
Deputy Censor.
New York, Dec. 14, 1899.
New York, Dec. 14, 1899.
Copyright, 1900, by Benziger Brothers.
Copyright, 1900, by Benziger Brothers.





Editor's Preface
This account of the life of St. Ignatius, dictated by himself, is considered by the Bollandists the most valuable record of the great Founder of the Society of Jesus. The editors of the Stimmen Aus Maria Laach, the German review, as well as those of the English magazine, The Month, tell us that it, more than any other work, gives an insight into the spiritual life of St. Ignatius. Few works in ascetical literature, except the writings of St. Teresa and St. Augustine, impart such a knowledge of the soul.
This account of the life of St. Ignatius, dictated by him, is regarded by the Bollandists as the most valuable record of the great Founder of the Society of Jesus. The editors of the Stimmen Aus Maria Laach, a German review, along with those of the English magazine, The Month, inform us that this work, more than any other, provides insight into St. Ignatius's spiritual life. Few works in ascetical literature, aside from the writings of St. Teresa and St. Augustine, offer such a deep understanding of the soul.
To understand fully the Spiritual Exercises, we should know something of the man who wrote them. In this life of St. Ignatius, told in his own words, we acquire an intimate knowledge of the author of the[Pg 6] Exercises. We discern the Saint's natural disposition, which was the foundation of his spiritual character. We learn of his conversion, his trials, the obstacles in his way, the heroism with which he accomplished his great mission.
To fully understand the Spiritual Exercises, we should know a bit about the man who created them. In this life of St. Ignatius, described in his own words, we gain a close understanding of the author of the[Pg 6] Exercises. We see the Saint's natural temperament, which was the basis of his spiritual identity. We discover his conversion, his struggles, the challenges he faced, and the bravery with which he completed his great mission.
This autobiography of St. Ignatius is the groundwork of all the great lives of him that have been written.
This autobiography of St. Ignatius is the foundation of all the great biographies about him that have been written.
Bartoli draws from it, Genelli develops it, the recent magnificent works of Father Clair, S.J., and of Stewart Rose are amplifications of this simple story of the life of St. Ignatius.
Bartoli takes from it, Genelli expands on it, and the recent remarkable works of Father Clair, S.J., and Stewart Rose are elaborations of this straightforward account of St. Ignatius's life.
The Saint in his narrative always refers to himself in the third person, and this mode of speech has here been retained. Many persons who have neither the time, nor, perhaps, the inclination, to read larger works, will read, we trust, with pleasure and profit this autobiography.
The Saint in his story always talks about himself in the third person, and this way of speaking has been kept. Many people who don’t have the time, or maybe the interest, to read longer works will hopefully find this autobiography enjoyable and worthwhile.
Ignatius, as he lay wounded in his brother's house, read the lives of the saints to while away the time. Touched by grace, he cried, "What St. Francis and St. Dominic have done, that, by God's grace, I will do." May this little book, in like manner, inspire its readers with the desire of imitating St. Ignatius.
Ignatius, while he was injured in his brother's home, read stories about the saints to pass the time. Moved by grace, he exclaimed, "What St. Francis and St. Dominic have done, I will do, with God's help." May this small book, similarly, inspire its readers to want to follow in St. Ignatius's footsteps.
THE EDITOR.
THE EDITOR.
Easter, 1900.
College of St. Francis Xavier,
New York.
Easter, 1900.
College of St. Francis Xavier,
New York.
Preface of the Writer
Jesus, Mary. In the year 1553, one Friday morning, August 4, the eve of the feast of Our Lady of the Snows, while St. Ignatius was in the garden, I began to give him an account of my soul, and, among other things, I spoke to him of how I was tempted by vain glory. The spiritual advice he gave me was this: "Refer everything that you do to God; strive to offer Him all the good you find in yourself, acknowledging that this comes from God, and thank Him for it." The advice given to me on this occasion [Pg 10]was so consoling to me that I could not refrain from tears. St. Ignatius then related to me that for two years he had struggled against vain glory; so much so, indeed, that when he was about to embark for Jerusalem at Barcelona he did not dare to tell any one where he was going. He told me, moreover, that since that time his soul had experienced great peace in regard to this matter.
Jesus, Mary. In 1553, on a Friday morning, August 4, the night before the feast of Our Lady of the Snows, while St. Ignatius was in the garden, I started sharing my spiritual journey with him, and I mentioned how I was struggling with vanity. His advice was: "Put everything you do in God’s hands; try to give Him all the good you see in yourself, recognizing that it comes from Him, and thank Him for it." His words [Pg 10] were so comforting that I couldn't help but cry. St. Ignatius also shared that he had fought against vanity for two years; in fact, when he was about to leave for Jerusalem from Barcelona, he didn't dare tell anyone where he was going. He added that since then, he had found great peace around this issue.
An hour or two later we went to dinner, and, while Master Polancus and I were dining with him, St. Ignatius said that Master Natalis and others of the Society had often asked him to give a narrative of his life, but he had never as yet decided to do so. On this occasion, however, after I had spoken to him, he reflected upon it alone. He was favorably inclined toward it. From the way he spoke, it was evident God had enlightened him. He had resolved to manifest [Pg 11]the main points of his interior life up to the present, and had concluded that I was the one to whom he would make these things known.
An hour or two later, we went to dinner, and while Master Polancus and I were eating with him, St. Ignatius mentioned that Master Natalis and others from the Society had often asked him to share his life story, but he had never decided to do it until now. However, after I spoke with him, he reflected on it alone. He was feeling positive about it. From the way he talked, it was clear that God had inspired him. He decided to reveal [Pg 11] the key aspects of his inner life up to that point and concluded that I was the right person to whom he would share these details.
At that time St. Ignatius was in very feeble health. He did not promise himself one day of life, but, on the contrary, if any one were to say, "I shall do that within two weeks or a week," St. Ignatius was accustomed to say: "How is that? Do you think you are going to live that long?" However, on this occasion, he said he hoped to live three or four months to finish the narrative. The next day when I asked him when he wished to begin, he answered that I should remind him every day until he had an opportunity for it. As he could not find time, partly on account of his many occupations, he told me to remind him of it every Sunday. In the following September he called me, and began to relate his whole [Pg 12]life clearly and distinctly with all the accompanying circumstances. Afterward, in the same month, he called me three or four times, and told me the history of his life up to the time of his dwelling at Manresa. The method followed by St. Ignatius is so clear that he places vividly before our eyes the events of the past.
At that time, St. Ignatius was in very poor health. He didn’t expect to live for even a day, and often, if someone said, "I’ll do that in two weeks or a week," St. Ignatius would reply, "How can you be so sure? Do you really think you'll be around that long?" However, on this occasion, he expressed hope that he might live for three or four months to finish his story. The next day, when I asked him when he wanted to start, he told me to remind him every day until he had the chance to do it. Since he couldn’t find the time, partly due to his many responsibilities, he asked me to remind him every Sunday. The following September, he called me and began to narrate his entire [Pg 12]life clearly and distinctly, with all the accompanying details. Later that month, he called me three or four times and shared the story of his life up to the time he was living in Manresa. St. Ignatius’ method is so clear that he vividly brings the events of the past to life for us.
It was not necessary to ask him anything, as nothing important was omitted. I began to write down certain points immediately, and I afterward filled out the details. I endeavored to write nothing that I did not hear from him. So closely did I adhere to his very words that afterward I was unable to explain the meaning of some of them. This narrative I wrote, as I have indicated above, up to September, 1553. From that time until the 18th of October, 1554, when Father Natalis came, St. Ignatius did not continue the narrative, but pleaded excuse [Pg 13]on account of infirmities or other business, saying to me, "When such and such a business is settled, remind me of it." When that work was done, I recalled it to his memory. He replied, "Now I have that other affair on hand; when it is finished remind me."
It wasn’t necessary to ask him anything, because nothing important was left out. I started writing down certain points right away, and later, I added in the details. I tried to write only what I heard from him. I was so true to his exact words that later on, I couldn’t explain the meaning of some of them. I wrote this account, as I mentioned above, up to September 1553. From then until October 18, 1554, when Father Natalis arrived, St. Ignatius didn’t continue the account, citing reasons like illness or other matters, telling me, "When such and such a matter is settled, remind me." Once that work was done, I brought it back to his attention. He said, "Now I have that other matter to deal with; when that’s finished, remind me."
Father Natalis was overjoyed that a beginning had been made, and told me to urge St. Ignatius to complete it, often saying to me, "In no other way can you do more good to the Society, for this is fundamentally the Society." He himself spoke to St. Ignatius about it, and I was told to remind him of it when the work in regard to the founding of the college was finished. And when it was over, and the business with Prester John settled and the courier had departed, we continued the history on the 9th of March, 1555. About this time Pope Julius became ill, and died on the 23d of the [Pg 14]same month. The narrative was then postponed until the election of the new Pope, who died soon after his election. Our work remained untouched until Pope Paul mounted the papal throne. On account of the great heat and many occupations, the biography did not make much progress until the 21st of September, when there was question of sending me to Spain. And so he appointed the morning of the 22d for a meeting in the red tower. After saying Mass I went to him to ask him if it were the time. He told me to go and wait for him in the red tower. Supposing that I should have to wait a long while, I delayed on the porch, talking with a brother who asked me about something. When St. Ignatius came he reprimanded me because, contrary to obedience, I had not waited for him in the appointed place, and he would not do anything that day.[Pg 15] Then we urged him very earnestly to continue. So he came to the red tower, and, according to his custom, dictated while walking.
Father Natalis was thrilled that we had made a start, and he told me to encourage St. Ignatius to finish it, often saying, "You can't do more good for the Society in any other way, because this is essential to the Society." He spoke to St. Ignatius about it, and I was instructed to remind him once we had wrapped up the work on founding the college. After we finished and settled the matters with Prester John and the courier had left, we picked up the history again on the 9th of March, 1555. Around this time, Pope Julius fell ill and died on the 23rd of the [Pg 14] same month. We had to pause the narrative until a new Pope was elected, who also passed away shortly after taking office. Our work sat idle until Pope Paul ascended the papal throne. Due to the intense heat and numerous other duties, the biography didn’t progress much until the 21st of September, when the plan came up to send me to Spain. He scheduled a meeting for the morning of the 22nd in the red tower. After saying Mass, I went to him to see if the time had come. He instructed me to go wait for him in the red tower. Thinking I might have to wait a while, I lingered on the porch, chatting with a brother who had asked me something. When St. Ignatius arrived, he scolded me for not waiting in the designated spot as instructed, and he decided not to proceed with anything that day.[Pg 15] Then we strongly encouraged him to continue. So, he went to the red tower and, as was his habit, dictated while walking.
While taking these notes I tried to see his face, and kept drawing near to him. He said to me, "Keep your rule." And as I approached again, and looked at him a second and a third time, he repeated what he had said and then went away. Finally, after some time, he returned to the red tower to complete the dictation. As I was about starting on my journey, and St. Ignatius spoke to me the day before my departure, I could not write out the narrative in full at Rome. At Genoa where I went I had no Spanish secretary, so I dictated in Latin the points I had brought with me, and finished the writing at Genoa in December, 1555.
While I was taking these notes, I tried to see his face and kept getting closer to him. He told me, "Stick to the rules." When I approached again and looked at him a second and third time, he repeated what he had said and then walked away. Eventually, after a while, he returned to the red tower to finish the dictation. As I was about to start my journey, and since St. Ignatius spoke to me the day before I left, I couldn't write out the full narrative in Rome. When I got to Genoa, I didn't have a Spanish secretary, so I dictated the points I had brought with me in Latin and completed the writing in Genoa in December 1555.
Contents
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His Military Life—He is wounded at the Siege of Pampeluna—His Cure—Spiritual Reading—The Apparition—The Gift of Chastity—His Longing for the Journey to Jerusalem and for a Holier Life
His Military Life—He gets injured during the Siege of Pampeluna—His Recovery—Spiritual Reading—The Vision—The Gift of Chastity—His Desire for the Journey to Jerusalem and a Holier Life
Ignatius leaves his Native Land—What he did at Montserrat and Manresa
Ignatius leaves his homeland—What he did at Montserrat and Manresa
Scruples—Heavenly Favors—Journey to Barcelona
Scruples—Heavenly Favors—Trip to Barcelona
His Journey to Rome, Venice, Jerusalem, and the Holy Land
His journey to Rome, Venice, Jerusalem, and the Holy Land
The Arrival in Apulia, Venice, Ferrara, and Genoa—He is apprehended as a Spy—He is despised as a Fool—His Studies at Barcelona and Alcala
The Arrival in Apulia, Venice, Ferrara, and Genoa—He is caught as a Spy—He is looked down on as a Fool—His Studies at Barcelona and Alcala
The Prisons at Alcala and Salamanca
The Prisons at Alcala and Salamanca
His Studies in Paris, and Other Incidents of his Life
His Studies in Paris and Other Life Events
His Arrival in his Native Land and the Virtues practised there—His Journey into Spain and Italy—The Famous Apparition and his Life in the Same Place
His Arrival in his Home Country and the Values practiced there—His Trip to Spain and Italy—The Famous Vision and his Life in the Same Place
The Autobiography of St. Ignatius
The Account of his Life dictated to Father Gonzalez by St. Ignatius
CHAPTER I
HIS MILITARY LIFE—HE IS WOUNDED AT THE SIEGE OF PAMPELUNA—HIS CURE—SPIRITUAL READING—THE APPARITION—THE GIFT OF CHASTITY—HIS LONGING FOR THE JOURNEY TO JERUSALEM AND FOR A HOLIER LIFE
HIS MILITARY LIFE—HE IS INJURED AT THE SIEGE OF PAMPELUNA—HIS RECOVERY—SPIRITUAL READING—THE VISION—THE GIFT OF CHASTITY—HIS DESIRE FOR THE JOURNEY TO JERUSALEM AND FOR A MORE HOLY LIFE
Up to his twenty-sixth year the heart of Ignatius was enthralled by the vanities of the world. His special delight was in the military life, and he seemed led by a strong and empty desire of gaining for himself a great name. The citadel of Pampeluna was held in siege by the[Pg 20] French. All the other soldiers were unanimous in wishing to surrender on condition of freedom to leave, since it was impossible to hold out any longer; but Ignatius so persuaded the commander, that, against the views of all the other nobles, he decided to hold the citadel against the enemy.
Up to his twenty-sixth year, Ignatius was captivated by the superficiality of the world. His greatest passion was the military life, driven by a strong but hollow desire to achieve fame for himself. The citadel of Pampeluna was under siege by the[Pg 20] French. All the other soldiers wanted to surrender, insisting on the condition that they could leave freely, as it was no longer possible to defend the citadel. However, Ignatius convinced the commander so effectively that, against the wishes of all the other nobles, he decided to continue resisting the enemy.
When the day of assault came, Ignatius made his confession to one of the nobles, his companion in arms. The soldier also made his to Ignatius. After the walls were destroyed, Ignatius stood fighting bravely until a cannon ball of the enemy broke one of his legs and seriously injured the other.
When the day of the attack arrived, Ignatius confessed to one of the nobles, who was his fellow soldier. The soldier also confessed to Ignatius. After the walls were destroyed, Ignatius fought valiantly until an enemy cannonball shattered one of his legs and severely injured the other.
When he fell, the citadel was surrendered. When the French took possession of the town, they showed great admiration for Ignatius. After twelve or fifteen days at Pampeluna, where he received the best care from the physicians [Pg 21]of the French army, he was borne on a litter to Loyola. His recovery was very slow, and doctors and surgeons were summoned from all parts for a consultation. They decided that the leg should be broken again, that the bones, which had knit badly, might be properly reset; for they had not been properly set in the beginning, or else had been so jostled on the journey that a cure was impossible. He submitted to have his flesh cut again. During the operation, as in all he suffered before and after, he uttered no word and gave no sign of suffering save that of tightly clenching his fists.
When he fell, the citadel was surrendered. When the French took control of the town, they showed great admiration for Ignatius. After twelve or fifteen days in Pampeluna, where he received excellent care from the physicians [Pg 21] of the French army, he was carried on a litter to Loyola. His recovery was very slow, and doctors and surgeons were called in from all around for a consultation. They decided that the leg needed to be broken again so that the bones, which hadn't knitted properly, could be reset; they had either been misaligned initially or had been jostled during the journey to the point where healing was impossible. He agreed to have his flesh cut again. During the operation, as in all the suffering he went through before and after, he said nothing and didn’t show any signs of pain except for tightly clenched fists.
In the meantime his strength was failing. He could take no food, and showed other symptoms of approaching death. On the feast of St. John the doctors gave up hope of his recovery, and he was advised to make his confession. Having received the sacraments on the eve of [Pg 22]the feasts of Sts. Peter and Paul, toward evening the doctors said that if by the middle of the night there were no change for the better, he would surely die. He had great devotion to St. Peter, and it so happened by the goodness of God that in the middle of the night he began to grow better.
In the meantime, his strength was fading. He couldn’t eat anything and was showing other signs that death was near. On the feast of St. John, the doctors lost hope for his recovery and suggested he make his confession. After receiving the sacraments on the eve of [Pg 22]the feasts of Sts. Peter and Paul, the doctors said that if he didn’t improve by midnight, he would definitely die. He had a strong devotion to St. Peter, and by God’s grace, he began to get better in the middle of the night.
His recovery was so rapid that in a few days he was out of danger. As the bones of his leg settled and pressed upon each other, one bone protruded below the knee. The result was that one leg was shorter than the other, and the bone causing a lump there, made the leg seem quite deformed. As he could not bear this, since he intended to live a life at court, he asked the doctors whether the bone could be cut away. They replied that it could, but it would cause him more suffering than all that had preceded, as everything was healed, [Pg 23]and they would need space in order to cut it. He determined, however, to undergo this torture.
His recovery was so quick that within days he was out of danger. As the bones in his leg settled and pressed against each other, one bone stuck out below the knee. This made one leg shorter than the other, and the bone created a lump, making the leg look quite misshapen. Unable to accept this, especially since he planned to live a life at court, he asked the doctors if they could remove the bone. They said they could, but it would cause him more pain than everything he’d been through so far, as everything was healed, [Pg 23]and they would need to create space to cut it. Nevertheless, he decided to go through with this painful procedure.
His elder brother looked on with astonishment and admiration. He said he could never have had the fortitude to suffer the pain which the sick man bore with his usual patience. When the flesh and the bone that protruded were cut away, means were taken to prevent the leg from becoming shorter than the other. For this purpose, in spite of sharp and constant pain, the leg was kept stretched for many days. Finally the Lord gave him health. He came out of the danger safe and strong with the exception that he could not easily stand on his leg, but was forced to lie in bed.
His older brother watched in shock and admiration. He said he could never have had the strength to endure the pain that the sick man handled with his usual patience. After the flesh and bone that were sticking out were removed, steps were taken to prevent the leg from becoming shorter than the other one. For this reason, despite the sharp and constant pain, the leg was kept stretched for many days. In the end, the Lord restored his health. He came out of danger safe and strong, except that he couldn’t stand on his leg easily and had to lie in bed.
As Ignatius had a love for fiction, when he found himself out of danger he asked for some romances to pass away [Pg 24]the time. In that house there was no book of the kind. They gave him, instead, "The Life of Christ," by Rudolph, the Carthusian, and another book called the "Flowers of the Saints," both in Spanish. By frequent reading of these books he began to get some love for spiritual things. This reading led his mind to meditate on holy things, yet sometimes it wandered to thoughts which he had been accustomed to dwell upon before.
As Ignatius loved fiction, once he was out of danger, he asked for some novels to help pass the time [Pg 24]. However, there were no such books in that house. Instead, they gave him "The Life of Christ" by Rudolph, the Carthusian, and another book called "The Flowers of the Saints," both in Spanish. By reading these books often, he started to develop a love for spiritual matters. This reading encouraged him to think about holy things, although sometimes his mind wandered back to thoughts he used to focus on.
Among these there was one thought which, above the others, so filled his heart that he became, as it were, immersed and absorbed in it. Unconsciously, it engaged his attention for three and four hours at a time. He pictured to himself what he should do in honor of an illustrious lady, how he should journey to the city where she was, in what words he would address [Pg 25]her, and what bright and pleasant sayings he would make use of, what manner of warlike exploits he should perform to please her. He was so carried away by this thought that he did not even perceive how far beyond his power it was to do what he proposed, for she was a lady exceedingly illustrious and of the highest nobility.
Among these thoughts, there was one that dominated his mind so much that he became completely absorbed in it. Without realizing it, he spent three or four hours focused on it at a time. He imagined what he would do to honor a distinguished lady, how he would travel to the city where she was, the words he would use to address [Pg 25]her, and the charming and uplifting things he would say, as well as the heroic deeds he would undertake to please her. He was so caught up in this thought that he didn't even notice how impossible it was to achieve his ambitions, since she was an exceptionally distinguished lady of the highest nobility.
In the meantime the divine mercy was at work substituting for these thoughts others suggested by his recent readings. While perusing the life of Our Lord and the saints, he began to reflect, saying to himself: "What if I should do what St. Francis did?" "What if I should act like St. Dominic?" He pondered over these things in his mind, and kept continually proposing to himself serious and difficult things. He seemed to feel a certain readiness for doing them, with no other reason except this thought:[Pg 26] "St. Dominic did this; I, too, will do it." "St. Francis did this; therefore I will do it." These heroic resolutions remained for a time, and then other vain and worldly thoughts followed. This succession of thoughts occupied him for a long while, those about God alternating with those about the world. But in these thoughts there was this difference. When he thought of worldly things it gave him great pleasure, but afterward he found himself dry and sad. But when he thought of journeying to Jerusalem, and of living only on herbs, and practising austerities, he found pleasure not only while thinking of them, but also when he had ceased.
In the meantime, divine mercy was at work, replacing his earlier thoughts with ideas from his recent readings. While reading about the life of Our Lord and the saints, he began to reflect, saying to himself: "What if I did what St. Francis did?" "What if I acted like St. Dominic?" He pondered these things in his mind, constantly presenting himself with serious and challenging ideas. He felt a certain readiness to pursue them, driven only by this thought: [Pg 26] "St. Dominic did this; I will do it too." "St. Francis did this; so I will do it." These heroic resolutions lasted for a while, but then were followed by other empty and worldly thoughts. This back-and-forth of thoughts occupied him for a long time, swinging between God and worldly matters. But there was a difference in these thoughts. Thinking about worldly things brought him great pleasure, but he found himself feeling empty and sad afterward. Conversely, when he thought about going to Jerusalem, living only on herbs, and practicing austerities, he found joy not just while thinking about them, but even after he stopped.
This difference he did not notice or value, until one day the eyes of his soul were opened and he began to inquire the reason of the difference. He learned by experience that one train of thought left [Pg 27]him sad, the other joyful. This was his first reasoning on spiritual matters. Afterward, when he began the Spiritual Exercises, he was enlightened, and understood what he afterward taught his children about the discernment of spirits. When gradually he recognized the different spirits by which he was moved, one, the spirit of God, the other, the devil, and when he had gained no little spiritual light from the reading of pious books, he began to think more seriously of his past life, and how much penance he should do to expiate his past sins.
He didn’t notice or appreciate this difference until one day when he became aware and started questioning why it existed. Through experience, he realized that one way of thinking made him sad, while the other made him joyful. This was his first reflection on spiritual matters. Later, when he began the Spiritual Exercises, he gained insight and understood what he would eventually teach his children about discerning spirits. As he gradually recognized the different influences at play, one being the spirit of God and the other the devil, and as he gained significant spiritual insight from reading religious books, he started to reflect more seriously on his past life and consider how much penance he needed to do to atone for his previous sins.
Amid these thoughts the holy wish to imitate saintly men came to his mind; his resolve was not more definite than to promise with the help of divine grace that what they had done he also would do. After his recovery his one wish was to make a pilgrimage to Jerusalem. He fasted frequently and scourged himself to [Pg 28]satisfy the desire of penance that ruled in a soul filled with the spirit of God.
Amid these thoughts, the sacred desire to emulate saintly people entered his mind; his determination was no stronger than a promise, with divine grace to help, that he would do what they had done. After he recovered, his only wish was to go on a pilgrimage to Jerusalem. He often fasted and whipped himself to [Pg 28]fulfill the longing for penance that resided in a soul filled with the spirit of God.
The vain thoughts were gradually lessened by means of these desires—desires that were not a little strengthened by the following vision. While watching one night he plainly saw the image of the Blessed Mother of God with the Infant Jesus, at the sight of which, for a considerable time, he received abundant consolation, and felt such contrition for his past life that he thought of nothing else. From that time until August, 1555, when this was written, he never felt the least motion of concupiscence. This privilege we may suppose from this fact to have been a divine gift, although we dare not state it, nor say anything except confirm what has been already said. His brother and all in the house recognized from what appeared externally how great a change had taken place in his soul.
The vain thoughts began to fade away due to these desires—desires that were greatly strengthened by the vision he experienced. One night, he saw a clear image of the Blessed Mother of God with the Infant Jesus. This sight brought him so much comfort for a long time and made him feel such deep remorse for his past life that it occupied all his thoughts. From that moment until August 1555, when this was written, he never experienced the slightest stir of desire. We might think of this privilege as a divine gift, although we hesitate to say it outright and will only confirm what has already been mentioned. His brother and everyone in the house could see the incredible change that had occurred in his soul.
He continued his reading meanwhile, and kept the holy resolution he had made. At home his conversation was wholly devoted to divine things, and helped much to the spiritual advancement of others.
He kept reading and stuck to the sacred commitment he had made. At home, he focused entirely on spiritual topics in his conversations, which greatly benefited the spiritual growth of those around him.
CHAPTER II
IGNATIUS LEAVES HIS NATIVE LAND—WHAT HE DID AT MONTSERRAT AND AT MANRESA
IGNATIUS LEAVES HIS HOMELAND—WHAT HE DID AT MONTSERRAT AND AT MANRESA
Ignatius, starting from his father's house, set out upon his journey on horseback. About this time he began his habit of taking the discipline every night. His brother desired to accompany him as far as Ogna, and during the journey was persuaded by the Saint to pass one night of watching at the shrine of Our Blessed Lady at Aruncuz. Having prayed some time at the shrine for new strength for his journey, leaving his brother at Ogna at the house of their sister, to whom he paid a short visit, he journeyed on to Navarre. Remembering that an official [Pg 31]in the Duke's palace owed him some money, he collected it by sending in a written account to the treasurer, and distributed it among persons to whom he felt indebted. A portion of the money he devoted to the restoration of a picture of the Blessed Virgin. Then dismissing his two remaining servants, he rode forth alone from Navarre in the direction of Montserrat, a mountain town of Catalonia in the northern part of Spain.
Ignatius, leaving his father's house, set out on his journey on horseback. Around this time, he started the practice of taking the discipline every night. His brother wanted to travel with him as far as Ogna, and during the journey, the Saint convinced him to spend a night in prayer at the shrine of Our Blessed Lady at Aruncuz. After praying for some time at the shrine for renewed strength for his journey, he left his brother at Ogna at their sister's house, where he paid a brief visit, and then continued on to Navarre. Remembering that an official [Pg 31] in the Duke's palace owed him some money, he collected it by sending a written account to the treasurer and distributed it among those he felt he owed. He dedicated part of the money to restoring a picture of the Blessed Virgin. After that, he dismissed his two remaining servants and rode alone from Navarre toward Montserrat, a mountain town in Catalonia in northern Spain.
It will not be amiss to recall an event that occurred during this journey, to show the manner in which God directed him. Although filled with an ardent desire of serving God, yet his knowledge of spiritual things was still very obscure. He had undertaken to perform extraordinary penances, not so much with a view to satisfy for his sins as with the intention of doing something pleasing to his Lord. He declared indeed that though filled with [Pg 32]the liveliest abhorrence of his past sins, he could not assure himself that they were forgiven; yet in his austerities so intense was his desire to do great things for Christ that he did not think of his sins. When he recalled the penances practised by holy persons, his whole mind was bent on doing something to equal and even surpass them. In this holy ambition he found his consolation, for he had no interior motive for his penances, knowing as yet very little about humility or charity or patience, for to obtain these many holy men have led austere lives. He knew still less the value of discretion, which regulates the practice of these virtues. To do something great for the glory of his God, to emulate saintly men in all that they had done before him—this was the only object of Ignatius in his practices of external mortification.
It’s worth mentioning an event that took place during this journey to illustrate how God guided him. Although he had a strong desire to serve God, his understanding of spiritual matters was still quite limited. He had committed to performing extraordinary penances, not so much to atone for his sins, but to do something that would please his Lord. He admitted that even though he felt a deep hatred for his past sins, he couldn’t be certain that they were forgiven; still, his intense desire to achieve great things for Christ kept him from dwelling on his sins. When he thought of the penances practiced by holy people, his mind was focused on doing something to match and even surpass them. In this holy ambition, he found his comfort, as he had no deeper motivation for his penances, knowing very little about humility, charity, or patience, which many holy men have cultivated through austere lives. He understood even less the importance of discretion, which guides the practice of these virtues. His sole aim in his acts of external mortification was to do something great for the glory of his God and to emulate the saintly men who had come before him.
While he journeyed on, a Saracen [Pg 33]mounted on a horse came up with him. In the course of the conversation mention was made of the Blessed Virgin. The stranger remarked that though he admitted that the Mother of Christ had conceived without detriment to her virginal purity, yet he could not believe that after the conception of her divine Son she was still a virgin. He was so obstinate in holding this opinion, that no amount of reasoning on the part of Ignatius could force him to abandon it. Shortly afterward the Saracen rode on, leaving the pilgrim to his own reflections. These were not of the most peaceful nature. He was sorely troubled as he thought over the conduct of his recent fellow-traveler, and felt that he had but poorly acquitted himself of his duty of honoring the Mother of God. The longer his mind thought upon the matter, the more his soul was filled with indignation against [Pg 34]himself for having allowed the Saracen to speak as he had done of the Blessed Virgin, and for the lack of courage he fancied he had shown in not at once resenting the insult. He consequently felt impelled by a strong impulse to hasten after him and slay the miscreant for the insulting language he had used. After much internal conflict with these thoughts, he still remained in doubt, nor could he decide what course to follow. The Saracen, who had ridden on, had mentioned to him that it was his intention to proceed to a town not far distant from the highroad. At length, Ignatius, wearied by his inward struggle and not arriving at any determination, decided to settle all his doubts in the following novel way: he would give free rein to his horse, and if, on coming to the cross-road, his horse should turn into the path that led to the destination of the Moor, he would pursue him and kill him; [Pg 35]but if his horse kept to the highroad he would allow the wretch to escape. Having done as he had decided, it happened through the Providence of God that his horse kept to the highroad, though the place was distant only about thirty or forty yards, and the way leading to it was very wide and easy.
While he traveled on, a Saracen [Pg 33] on horseback caught up with him. During their conversation, they talked about the Blessed Virgin. The stranger said that while he admitted that the Mother of Christ had conceived without losing her virginity, he just couldn't believe that she remained a virgin after conceiving her divine Son. He was so stubborn in this belief that no amount of reasoning from Ignatius could change his mind. Shortly after, the Saracen rode on, leaving the pilgrim with his thoughts. These thoughts were not very peaceful. He felt deeply troubled as he reflected on the behavior of his recent traveling companion and realized that he had not done a good job of honoring the Mother of God. The more he thought about it, the more angry he became with himself for allowing the Saracen to speak that way about the Blessed Virgin and for the lack of courage he believed he showed by not immediately responding to the insult. He felt a strong urge to chase after him and punish him for his disrespectful words. Despite a lot of internal conflict, he still had doubts and couldn't decide what to do next. The Saracen had mentioned that he planned to head to a town not far from the main road. Eventually, Ignatius, exhausted from his inner struggle and still unable to make a decision, decided to settle his doubts in a rather unusual way: he would let his horse choose. If, when reaching the crossroads, his horse went down the path to where the Moor was headed, he would pursue and kill him; [Pg 35] but if his horse stayed on the main road, he would let the scoundrel escape. Following his plan, it turned out, by God's Providence, that his horse stayed on the main road, even though the destination was only about thirty or forty yards away, and the path leading to it was very wide and easy.
Arriving at a large village situated a short distance from Montserrat, he determined to procure a garment to wear on his journey to Jerusalem. He therefore bought a piece of sackcloth, poorly woven, and filled with prickly wooden fibres. Of this he made a garment that reached to his feet. He bought, also, a pair of shoes of coarse stuff that is often used in making brooms. He never wore but one shoe, and that not for the sake of the comfort to be derived from it, but because, as he was in the habit of wearing a cord tied below the knee by way of mortification, [Pg 36]this leg would be very much swollen at night, though he rode all day on horseback. For this reason, he felt he ought to wear a shoe on that foot. He provided himself also with a pilgrim's staff and a gourd to drink from. All these he tied to his saddle.
Arriving at a big village located not far from Montserrat, he decided to get some clothing for his journey to Jerusalem. He bought a piece of sackcloth, poorly woven and filled with prickly wooden fibers. From this, he made a garment that reached his feet. He also bought a pair of shoes made from coarse material often used for making brooms. He only wore one shoe, not for comfort, but because he usually tied a cord below his knee as a form of self-discipline; [Pg 36]this leg would swell a lot at night, even though he rode all day on horseback. For this reason, he thought he should wear a shoe on that foot. He also got a pilgrim's staff and a gourd to drink from, which he tied to his saddle.
Thus equipped, he continued on his way to Montserrat, pondering in his mind, as was his wont, on the great things he would do for the love of God. And as he had formerly read the stories of Amadeus of Gaul and other such writers, who told how the Christian knights of the past were accustomed to spend the entire night, preceding the day on which they were to receive knighthood, on guard before an altar of the Blessed Virgin, he was filled with these chivalric fancies, and resolved to prepare himself for a noble knighthood by passing a night in vigil before an altar of Our Lady at Montserrat. He would [Pg 37]observe all the formalities of this ceremony, neither sitting nor lying down, but alternately standing and kneeling, and there he would lay aside his worldly dignities to assume the arms of Christ.
Thus equipped, he continued on his journey to Montserrat, thinking, as he often did, about the great things he would do for the love of God. He remembered how he had read the stories of Amadeus of Gaul and other writers who described how Christian knights in the past would spend the entire night before their knighthood vigilantly guarding an altar of the Blessed Virgin. Inspired by these tales of chivalry, he decided to prepare himself for a noble knighthood by spending a night in vigil before an altar of Our Lady at Montserrat. He would [Pg 37]follow all the rituals of this ceremony, neither sitting nor lying down, but alternating between standing and kneeling, and there he would set aside his worldly honors to take on the arms of Christ.
When he arrived at Montserrat, he passed a long time in prayer, and with the consent of his confessor he made in writing a general confession of his sins. Three whole days were employed in this undertaking. He begged and obtained leave of his confessor to give up his horse, and to hang up his sword and his dagger in the church, near the altar of the Blessed Virgin. This confessor was the first to whom he unfolded his interior, and disclosed his resolution of devoting himself to a spiritual life. Never before had he manifested his purpose to anybody.
When he got to Montserrat, he spent a lot of time in prayer, and with permission from his confessor, he wrote out a general confession of his sins. This took him three full days. He asked his confessor for permission to give up his horse and to hang his sword and dagger in the church, near the altar of the Blessed Virgin. This confessor was the first person he opened up to and shared his decision to dedicate himself to a spiritual life. He had never revealed his intention to anyone before.
The eve of the Annunciation of Our Blessed Lady in the year 1522 was the time he chose to carry out the project he [Pg 38]had formed. At nightfall, unobserved by any one, he approached a beggar, and taking off his own costly garments gave them to the beggar. He then put on the pilgrim's dress he had previously bought, and hastened to the church, where he threw himself on his knees before the altar of the Blessed Mother of God, and there, now kneeling, now standing, with staff in hand, he passed the entire night.
The night before the Annunciation of Our Blessed Lady in 1522 was when he decided to execute the plan he [Pg 38]had made. As night fell, unnoticed by anyone, he approached a beggar and took off his expensive clothes to give them to him. He then put on the pilgrim’s outfit he had bought earlier and rushed to the church, where he knelt before the altar of the Blessed Mother of God. There, now kneeling and now standing with his staff in hand, he spent the entire night.
After receiving the Blessed Sacrament, to avoid recognition he left the town at daybreak. He did not go by the direct route that leads to Barcelona, as he might have met those who knew him and would honor him, but he took a byway that led him to a town called Manresa. Here he determined to remain a few days in the hospital and write out some notes in his little book, which for his own consolation he carefully carried about with him. At [Pg 39]about a league's distance from Montserrat, he was overtaken by a man who had ridden after him at a rapid pace. This man accosted him and inquired if he had given certain garments to a poor man, as the latter had declared. Ignatius answered that it was true that he had given them to a beggar. On learning that the latter had been ill-treated because he was suspected of having stolen the clothes, the eyes of Ignatius filled with tears, in pity for the poor man.
After receiving the Blessed Sacrament, he left the town at dawn to avoid being recognized. Instead of taking the direct route to Barcelona, where he might encounter people who knew him and would show him respect, he chose a back road that led him to a town called Manresa. He decided to stay at the hospital for a few days and write some notes in his small book, which he carefully carried for his own comfort. At [Pg 39], about a league away from Montserrat, he was caught up by a man who had hurried after him. This man approached him and asked if he had given certain clothes to a poor man, as the man had claimed. Ignatius replied that it was true he had given them to a beggar. When he learned that the beggar had been mistreated because he was suspected of stealing the clothes, Ignatius' eyes filled with tears out of compassion for the man.
Although he had fled so anxiously from the praise of men, he did not remain long at Manresa before many marvellous things were narrated of him. This fame arose from what had occurred at Montserrat. His reputation increased day by day. Men vied with each other in adding some particulars about his sanctity, declaring that he had abandoned immense revenues, and other wonderful things without much regard to real facts.
Although he had hurriedly escaped from the praise of people, he didn’t stay long in Manresa before many amazing stories about him began to circulate. This fame stemmed from what had happened at Montserrat. His reputation grew stronger each day. People competed with one another to add details about his holiness, claiming that he had given up vast wealth and other incredible things, often disregarding the truth.
At Manresa he lived on the alms that he daily begged. He never ate meat nor partook of wine, though they were offered him. On Sundays, however, he never fasted, and if wine were offered him, he drank of it sparingly. In former days he had been very careful of his hair, which he had worn, and, indeed, not unbecomingly, in the fashionable manner of the young men of his age; but now he determined to cease to care for it, neither to comb it nor to cut it, and to dispense with all covering for his head both day and night. To punish himself for the too great nicety which he had formerly had in the care of his hands and feet, he now resolved to neglect them.
At Manresa, he survived on the donations he begged for every day. He never ate meat or drank wine, even when it was offered to him. However, on Sundays, he didn't fast, and if wine was offered, he would drink it sparingly. In the past, he was very particular about his hair, which he styled in the trendy way of young men at that time; but now he decided to stop caring about it, neither combing it nor cutting it, and to go without any head covering both day and night. To punish himself for being too meticulous about the care of his hands and feet in the past, he now resolved to neglect them.
It was while he was living at the hospital at Manresa that the following strange event took place. Very frequently on a clear moonlight night there appeared in the courtyard before him an [Pg 41]indistinct shape which he could not see clearly enough to tell what it was. Yet it appeared so symmetrical and beautiful that his soul was filled with pleasure and joy as he gazed at it. It had something of the form of a serpent with glittering eyes, and yet they were not eyes. He felt an indescribable joy steal over him at the sight of this object. The oftener he saw it, the greater was the consolation he derived from it, and when the vision left him, his soul was filled with sorrow and sadness.
It was while he was staying at the hospital in Manresa that a strange event happened. Often, on a clear, moonlit night, an indistinct shape appeared in the courtyard in front of him, which he couldn’t see clearly enough to identify. Yet it looked so symmetrical and beautiful that he felt a sense of pleasure and joy as he stared at it. It resembled a serpent with shimmering eyes, but they weren’t really eyes. He experienced an indescribable joy wash over him at the sight of this figure. The more he saw it, the more comfort he gained from it, and when the vision disappeared, his soul was filled with sorrow and sadness.
Up to this period he had remained in a constant state of tranquillity and consolation, without any interior knowledge of the trials that beset the spiritual life. But during the time that the vision lasted, sometimes for days, or a little previous to that time, his soul was violently agitated by a thought that brought him no little uneasiness. There flashed [Pg 42]upon his mind the idea of the difficulty that attended the kind of life he had begun, and he felt as if he heard some one whispering to him, "How can you keep up for seventy years of your life these practices which you have begun?" Knowing that this thought was a temptation of the evil one, he expelled it by this answer: "Can you, wretched one, promise me one hour of life?" In this manner he overcame the temptation, and his soul was restored to peace. This was his first trial besides what has already been narrated, and it came upon him suddenly one day as he was entering the church. He was accustomed to hear Mass daily, and to assist at Vespers and Compline—devotions from which he derived much consolation. During Mass, he always read over the history of the Passion, and his soul was filled with a joyful feeling of uninterrupted calm.
Up to this point, he had been in a constant state of peace and comfort, unaware of the challenges that come with spiritual life. However, during the vision, which lasted for days, or right before it, his soul was shaken by a thought that caused him significant distress. The idea struck him that maintaining the kind of life he had started would be difficult, and he felt as if someone was whispering to him, "How can you keep up these practices for seventy years?" Recognizing this thought as a temptation from the devil, he pushed it away with the response: "Can you, miserable one, promise me even one hour of life?" In this way, he overcame the temptation, and his soul was restored to peace. This was his first trial aside from what he had already experienced, and it hit him suddenly one day as he was entering the church. He had a daily habit of attending Mass and participating in Vespers and Compline—spiritual practices that brought him great comfort. During Mass, he always read the account of the Passion, and his soul was filled with a joyful sense of unbroken serenity.
Shortly after the temptation just spoken of, he began to experience great changes in his soul. At one time he was deprived of all consolation, so that he found no pleasure in vocal prayer, in hearing Mass, or in any spiritual exercise. At another, on the contrary, he suddenly felt as if all sorrow and desolation were taken from him, experiencing the relief of one from whose shoulders a heavy cloak had suddenly been lifted. On noticing all this, he was surprised, wondering what could be the import of these changes which he had never before experienced, and he said to himself, "What new kind of life is this upon which I am entering?"
Shortly after the temptation mentioned earlier, he began to feel significant changes in his soul. At times, he felt completely stripped of all comfort, finding no joy in vocal prayer, attending Mass, or any spiritual activities. At other moments, however, he suddenly felt as if all his sorrow and despair had been lifted away, like someone who has had a heavy burden taken off their shoulders. Observing all this, he was surprised and wondered what these changes could mean, something he had never experienced before. He said to himself, "What new kind of life am I stepping into?"
At this time he became acquainted with some holy persons who manifested great confidence in him, and gladly conversed with him; for though he had, as yet, little knowledge of spiritual things, still he spoke with great fervor on religious subjects, [Pg 44]and incited his hearers to make greater progress in the way of God's service. Among those holy persons who dwelt at Manresa, there was one lady well advanced in years who had long been given to the service of God, and who was so well known in many places in Spain that his Catholic Majesty, the King of Spain, had desired her presence on one occasion in order to take counsel with her about certain projects that he had in his mind. This lady, speaking one day to our new soldier of Christ, said to him, "Would that the Lord Jesus might appear to you some day!" Ignatius, wondering at her words, understood in a literal sense, and asked her, "What would He look like if He were to show Himself to me?"
At this time, he met some holy people who had a lot of trust in him and enjoyed talking with him. Even though he knew little about spiritual matters, he spoke passionately about religious topics, [Pg 44]encouraging those who listened to deepen their commitment to serving God. Among the holy individuals living in Manresa, there was an older woman who had dedicated a long time to serving God and was well-known in many parts of Spain. Even the King of Spain wanted her advice on some ideas he was considering. One day, this lady spoke to our new soldier of Christ and said, "I hope the Lord Jesus appears to you one day!" Ignatius, surprised by her words, took them literally and asked her, "What would He look like if He showed Himself to me?"
He always persevered in his custom of approaching the Sacraments of Confession and Holy Communion every week. But [Pg 45]herein he found a great source of anxiety on account of the scruples with which he was annoyed. For though he had written out his general confession at Montserrat, and with great diligence and care had tried to make it complete, yet he always felt that he had forgotten something in his confession, and this caused him much anxiety. Even though he should now confess it again, he received no consolation. He tried then to find a spiritual person, who could give him relief in his trouble, but he found no one. Finally, a certain doctor who had experience in spiritual things, and who was a preacher in the church, advised him to write down anything he remembered and feared that he had not confessed. He obeyed, and even after he had confessed these sins, his scruples still continued to fill his soul, and he was constantly recalling minor details that he had not confessed. In this [Pg 46]way he was cruelly tormented. He knew well that these scruples caused no little harm to the spiritual life, and that it was most expedient to get rid of them, yet they continued to torture him. At times it occurred to him that it would be well if he could have his confessor command him in the name of the Lord Jesus not again to confess anything of his past sins; and he inwardly prayed that his confessor would give him some such command, but he could not bring himself to ask him to do so.
He always stuck to his routine of going to Confession and receiving Holy Communion every week. But [Pg 45]this brought him a lot of anxiety because of the scruples that troubled him. Even though he had carefully written out his general confession at Montserrat and tried hard to make it thorough, he always had the feeling that he had forgotten something during his confession, which stressed him out. Even if he confessed it again, he found no relief. He then tried to find someone spiritual who could help ease his worries, but he couldn't find anyone. Finally, a doctor experienced in spiritual matters, who also preached at the church, suggested that he write down anything he remembered and feared he hadn't confessed. He followed this advice, but even after confessing those sins, his scruples kept tormenting him, and he constantly remembered minor details he hadn't confessed. In this [Pg 46]way, he was cruelly tormented. He knew full well that these scruples harmed his spiritual life and that it was crucial to get rid of them, yet they continued to torture him. Sometimes he thought it would be good if his confessor would command him, in the name of the Lord Jesus, not to confess anything about his past sins again; he inwardly prayed for this command but couldn’t bring himself to ask for it.
CHAPTER III
SCRUPLES—HEAVENLY FAVORS—JOURNEY TO BARCELONA
SCRUPLES—DIVINE BLESSINGS—TRIP TO BARCELONA
At last his confessor, without any suggestion on the part of the penitent, commanded him to confess nothing of his past life, except what was very clear and evident. But as he regarded everything of the past as evident, the confessor's order did not help him at all. He was in constant anxiety. At that time he lived in the Dominican monastery, in a little cell which the Fathers had allotted to him. He kept up his usual custom of praying on bended knees for seven hours a day, and scourged himself three times a day and during the night. But all this did not remove his scruples, which had [Pg 48]been tormenting him for months. One day, when terribly tormented, he began to pray. During his prayer, he cried out to God in a loud voice: "O Lord, help me, for I find no remedy among men, nor in any creature! If I thought I could find one, no labor would seem too great to me. Show me some one! O Lord! where may I find one? I am willing to do anything to find relief."
At last, his confessor, without any prompting from the penitent, instructed him to confess only what was clear and obvious. However, since he considered everything from his past to be obvious, the confessor's advice didn’t help him at all. He was in a constant state of anxiety. At that time, he lived in the Dominican monastery, in a small cell that the Fathers had given him. He maintained his usual routine of praying on his knees for seven hours a day, and he whipped himself three times a day and at night. But none of this alleviated his scruples, which had [Pg 48] been tormenting him for months. One day, when he was in great distress, he started to pray. During his prayer, he cried out to God in a loud voice: "O Lord, help me, for I find no remedy among men, nor in any creature! If I thought I could find one, no effort would seem too great to me. Show me someone! O Lord! Where can I find someone? I am willing to do anything to find relief."
While tortured by these thoughts, several times he was violently tempted to cast himself out of the large window of his cell. This window was quite near the place where he was praying. But since he knew that it would be a sin to take his own life, he began to pray, "O Lord, I will not do anything to offend Thee." He repeated these words frequently with his former prayer, when there came to his mind the story of a certain holy man, who, to obtain of God some favor which [Pg 49]he ardently desired, spent many days without food, until he obtained the favor he asked. He determined to do the same. He resolved in his heart neither to eat nor drink until God should look upon him in mercy, or until he should find himself at the point of death; then only should he eat.
While tormented by these thoughts, he was repeatedly tempted to throw himself out of the large window in his cell. This window was close to where he was praying. But knowing that taking his own life would be a sin, he began to pray, "O Lord, I will not do anything to offend You." He often repeated these words alongside his earlier prayer, when the story of a certain holy man came to mind. This man, to gain a favor from God that he desperately wanted, spent many days without food until he received the favor he sought. He decided to do the same. He resolved in his heart not to eat or drink until God looked upon him with mercy, or until he found himself on the brink of death; then only would he eat.
This resolution was taken on a Sunday after communion, and for a whole week he neither ate nor drank anything; in the meantime he practised his usual penances, recited the Divine Office, prayed on bended knees at the appointed times, and rose at midnight. On the following Sunday, when about to make his usual confession, as he had been in the habit of making known to his confessor everything he had done, even the smallest detail, he told him that he had not eaten anything during the past week. Hereupon his confessor bade him break his [Pg 50]fast. Although he felt that he still had sufficient strength to continue without food, nevertheless he obeyed his confessor, and on that day and the next he was free from scruples. On the third day, however, which was Tuesday, while standing in prayer, the remembrance of his sins came back to him. One suggested another, until he passed in review, one after another, all his past sins. He then thought he ought to repeat his general confession. After these thoughts a sort of disgust seized him, so that he felt an inclination to give up the life he was leading. While in this state, God was pleased to arouse him as it were from sleep, and to relieve him of his trouble. As he had acquired some experience in the discernment of spirits, he profited by the lessons he had learned of God, and began to examine how that spirit had entered into possession of his soul; then he resolved [Pg 51]never again to speak of his past sins in confession. From that day he was free from scruples, and felt certain that it was the will of our merciful Lord to deliver him from his trouble of soul.
This decision was made on a Sunday after communion, and for an entire week he didn’t eat or drink anything; during that time, he continued his usual penances, recited the Divine Office, prayed on his knees at the scheduled times, and got up at midnight. The following Sunday, when he was about to make his usual confession, as he typically shared everything he had done, even the smallest details, he told his confessor that he hadn’t eaten anything during the past week. His confessor then instructed him to break his [Pg 50]fast. Even though he felt he still had the strength to continue without food, he obeyed his confessor, and on that day and the next, he was free from any scruples. However, on the third day, which was Tuesday, while he was praying, the memory of his sins returned to him. One sin led to another until he reviewed all his past sins one by one. He then thought he should repeat his general confession. After reflecting on this, he felt a sort of disgust and an urge to abandon the life he was living. In this state, God chose to awaken him, as if from sleep, and to ease his troubles. Having gained some experience in discerning spirits, he took the lessons he had learned from God to heart and began to examine how that spirit had taken hold of his soul; then he resolved [Pg 51]never to mention his past sins in confession again. From that day on, he was free from scruples and felt certain that it was the will of our merciful Lord to relieve him of his spiritual struggles.
Besides the seven hours devoted to prayer, he spent a portion of his time in assisting souls who came to him for advice. During the rest of the day he gave his thoughts to God, pondering on what he had read or meditated that day. When he retired, it often happened that wonderful illuminations and great spiritual consolations came to him, so that he abridged the short time he had already allotted to sleep. Once while thinking over this matter he concluded that he had given sufficient time for conversation with God, and that moreover the whole day was also given to Him. Then he began to doubt whether these illuminations were from the Good Spirit. Finally [Pg 52]he came to the conclusion that it would be better to give up a portion and to give sufficient time to sleep. This he did.
Besides the seven hours spent in prayer, he also dedicated some of his time to helping people who came to him for guidance. During the rest of the day, he focused his thoughts on God, reflecting on what he had read or meditated on that day. When he went to bed, it often happened that amazing insights and deep spiritual comfort would come to him, leading him to shorten the little time he had set aside for sleep. Once, while contemplating this issue, he decided that he had devoted enough time to talking with God, and that the entire day was also given to Him. However, he began to question whether these insights were genuinely from the Good Spirit. Ultimately, [Pg 52] he concluded that it would be wiser to sacrifice some of that time and ensure he got enough sleep. So he did.
While he persevered in his resolution to abstain from meat, it happened on a certain morning after rising, that a dish of cooked meat seemed to be set before him. He appeared to see it with his eyes, although he had felt no previous craving for it. At the same time he afterward experienced within himself a certain movement of the will, urging him to eat meat. Although the remembrance of his former resolution came to mind, he had no doubt about determining to eat meat. When he made this known to his confessor, the latter advised him to consider whether it was a temptation or not. Pondering over it, he felt certain that he was right. At that period God dealt with him as a teacher instructing [Pg 53]a pupil. Was this on account of his ignorance or dulness, or because he had no one else to teach him? Or on account of the fixed resolve he had of serving God, with which God Himself had inspired him, for the light given him could not possibly be greater? He was firmly convinced, both then and afterward, that God had treated him thus because it was the better spiritual training for him. The five following points will prove what he says:—
While he stuck to his decision to avoid meat, one morning after getting up, a dish of cooked meat seemed to appear in front of him. He thought he saw it, even though he hadn’t felt any previous craving for it. At the same time, he felt an internal urge pushing him to eat meat. Even though he remembered his earlier resolution, he had no doubt about wanting to eat meat. When he talked about this with his confessor, the confessor suggested he consider whether it was a temptation or not. After thinking it over, he was sure he was right. At that time, God treated him like a teacher guiding a student. Was this because of his ignorance or dullness, or because he had no one else to teach him? Or maybe it was because of his strong commitment to serving God, which God Himself had inspired in him, as the understanding he received couldn't have been clearer? He was firmly convinced, both then and later, that God acted this way because it was the best spiritual training for him. The five points that follow will demonstrate what he claims:—
In the first place, he had a great devotion to the Blessed Trinity. Every day he prayed to each of the three Persons and to the whole Trinity. While thus praying to the Blessed Trinity, the thought came of how to offer fourfold prayers to the Divinity. This thought, however, caused him little or no trouble. Once, while reciting on the steps of the monastery the little hours in honor of [Pg 54]the Blessed Virgin, his vision carried him beyond the earth. He seemed to behold the Blessed Trinity in the form of a lyre or harp; this vision affected him so much that he could not refrain from tears and sighs. On the same day he accompanied the procession from the church, but even up to the time of dinner he could not withhold his tears, and after dinner his joy and consolation were so great that he could speak of no subject except the Blessed Trinity. In these conversations he made use of many different comparisons to illustrate his thoughts. Such an impression was made on him on that occasion that during his after life, whenever he prayed to the Blessed Trinity, he experienced great devotion.
In the first place, he was deeply devoted to the Blessed Trinity. Every day he prayed to each of the three Persons and to the whole Trinity. While praying to the Blessed Trinity, he thought about how to offer prayers in four different ways to the Divine. This thought, however, troubled him very little. One day, while reciting the little hours in honor of [Pg 54] the Blessed Virgin on the steps of the monastery, he felt his spirit rise beyond the earth. He seemed to see the Blessed Trinity represented as a lyre or harp; this vision moved him so profoundly that he couldn’t hold back his tears and sighs. Later that day, he joined the procession from the church, but even until dinner, he couldn't stop crying, and after dinner, his joy and comfort were so immense that he talked about nothing but the Blessed Trinity. In these discussions, he used various comparisons to express his thoughts. That experience left such a strong impression on him that throughout his life, whenever he prayed to the Blessed Trinity, he felt great devotion.
At another time, to his great joy, God permitted him to understand how He had created this world. This vision presented to him a white object, with [Pg 55]rays emanating from it. From this object God sent forth light. However, he could not clearly explain this vision, nor could he recall the illuminations given to him by God on that occasion. During his stay of about a year at Manresa, after he had begun to receive from God consolations, and fruitful lights for the direction of others, he gave up his former rigorous penances. At that time he trimmed his nails and hair. During the time of his residence at Manresa, while assisting at Mass, he had another vision in the church of the monastery. At the elevation of the body of Christ Our Lord he beheld, with the eyes of his soul, white rays descending from above. Although he cannot, after so long an interval, explain the details of this vision, still the manner in which Our Lord Jesus Christ is present in the Blessed Sacrament was clearly and vividly stamped upon his [Pg 56]mind. Often in prayer, and even during a long space of time, did he see the humanity of Christ with the eyes of the soul. The form under which this vision appeared was that of a white body, neither large nor small; besides, there seemed to be no distinction of members in His body. This vision appeared to him often at Manresa, perhaps twenty or even forty times, once at Jerusalem, and once when he was at Padua. He saw the Blessed Virgin under the same form, without any distinction of members. These visions gave him such strength that he often thought within himself, that even though Scripture did not bear witness to these mysteries of faith, still, from what he had seen, it would be his duty to lay down his life for them.
At another time, to his great joy, God allowed him to understand how He created this world. This vision showed him a white object, with [Pg 55]rays coming from it. From this object, God sent out light. However, he couldn’t clearly explain this vision, nor could he recall the insights given to him by God at that time. During his nearly year-long stay in Manresa, after he started receiving consolations from God and helpful insights for guiding others, he abandoned his previous strict penances. At that point, he cut his nails and hair. While he was at Manresa, during a Mass, he had another vision in the monastery church. At the moment the body of Christ Our Lord was lifted, he saw with the eyes of his soul white rays coming down from above. Although he can't recall the details of this vision after so much time, the way Our Lord Jesus Christ is present in the Blessed Sacrament was clearly and vividly marked in his [Pg 56]mind. Often in prayer, even for extended periods, he saw the humanity of Christ with the eyes of his soul. The vision took the shape of a white body, neither large nor small; besides, there was no distinction of limbs in His body. This vision appeared to him frequently at Manresa, perhaps twenty or even forty times, once in Jerusalem, and once while he was in Padua. He also saw the Blessed Virgin in the same form, without any distinction of limbs. These visions gave him such strength that he often thought to himself that even if Scripture didn't testify to these mysteries of faith, based on what he had seen, it would still be his duty to lay down his life for them.
One day he went to the Church of St. Paul, situated about a mile from Manresa. Near the road is a stream, [Pg 57]on the bank of which he sat, and gazed at the deep waters flowing by. While seated there, the eyes of his soul were opened. He did not have any special vision, but his mind was enlightened on many subjects, spiritual and intellectual. So clear was this knowledge that from that day everything appeared to him in a new light. Such was the abundance of this light in his mind that all the divine helps received, and all the knowledge acquired up to his sixty-second year, were not equal to it.
One day, he went to the Church of St. Paul, located about a mile from Manresa. Near the road, there’s a stream, [Pg 57], where he sat on the bank, watching the deep waters flow by. While he was there, his soul was awakened. He didn’t have any specific vision, but his mind was opened to many spiritual and intellectual topics. The clarity of this knowledge was so profound that from that day on, everything looked different to him. The insight he gained was so great that all the divine assistance he had received and all the knowledge he had accumulated until his sixty-second year didn’t compare to it.
From that day he seemed to be quite another man, and possessed of a new intellect. This illumination lasted a long time. While kneeling in thanksgiving for this grace, there appeared to him that object which he had often seen before, but had never understood. It seemed to be something most beautiful, and, as it were, gleaming with many eyes. This [Pg 58]is how it always appeared. There was a cross near which he was praying, and he noticed that near the cross the vision had lost some of its former beautiful color. He understood from this that the apparition was the work of the devil, and whenever the vision appeared to him after that, as it did several times, he dispelled it with his staff.
From that day on, he seemed like a completely different person, filled with new understanding. This enlightenment lasted a long time. While kneeling in gratitude for this gift, he saw that familiar object he had often encountered but never comprehended. It appeared to be something incredibly beautiful, almost shimmering with many eyes. This [Pg 58]is how it always looked. There was a cross nearby where he was praying, and he noticed that near the cross, the vision had lost some of its previous vibrant color. From this, he realized that the apparition was a trick of the devil, and whenever it appeared to him after that, as it did several times, he drove it away with his staff.
During a violent fever at Manresa, he thought he was near his death. The thought then came to his mind that he was already justified before God. Calling to mind his sins, he tried to combat the thought, but could not overcome it, and this struggle to overcome the temptation caused him much more suffering than the fever itself. After the fever had somewhat abated, and he was out of danger, he cried out to some noble ladies who had come to visit him, and asked them for the love of God, to cry out aloud the [Pg 59]next time they should find him near death, "O sinner!" and "Remember the sins by which you have offended God."
During a severe fever in Manresa, he believed he was close to death. The idea came to him that he was already forgiven by God. Remembering his sins, he tried to fight against this thought, but couldn't shake it, and this struggle to resist the temptation caused him more pain than the fever itself. Once the fever had eased a bit and he was out of danger, he called out to some noble ladies who had come to visit him, asking them for the love of God, to shout out the [Pg 59] the next time they found him near death, "O sinner!" and "Remember the sins by which you have offended God."
On another occasion, while sailing from Valencia to Italy, in the midst of a violent storm, the rudder was broken, and he and every one on board were convinced that the ship must founder unless help came from above. Then, as he examined his conscience and prepared for death, he had no dread on account of past sins, nor fear of eternal punishment, but he experienced intense shame and sorrow at the thought of not having made a good use of the favors and graces which God had bestowed upon him. Again, in the year 1550, he was dangerously ill, and in his own judgment and that of others he was about to die. This time, however, whenever he thought of death, such consolation poured into his soul that he wept [Pg 60]tears of joy. He continued in this state so long that he often had to divert his mind from the thought of death, lest he should find in the thought too much consolation.
On another occasion, while sailing from Valencia to Italy, in the middle of a violent storm, the rudder broke, and he and everyone on board were convinced that the ship would sink unless help came from above. As he reflected on his life and prepared for death, he felt no fear about his past sins or worry about eternal punishment, but he was filled with intense shame and sorrow at the thought of not having made good use of the gifts and blessings God had given him. Again, in 1550, he fell dangerously ill, and both he and others thought he was about to die. However, this time, whenever he thought about death, such comfort filled his soul that he cried tears of joy. He remained in this state for so long that he often had to distract himself from thoughts of death, fearing he would find too much comfort in them. [Pg 60]
In the beginning of another winter he became very ill, and was placed under the care of the father of a man named Ferrera, who afterward entered the service of Balthasar Faria. Here he was very carefully attended. Several ladies of the highest rank were very devoted to him, and came every night to watch beside him. When he began to recover, he was still extremely weak, and suffered from severe pains in the stomach. These two causes, together with the intense cold and the entreaties of his attendants, induced him to wear shoes, warmer clothing, and a cap. He was obliged to accept two small coats of coarse grayish stuff, and a small cap of the same color. During that illness his constant [Pg 61]wish was to speak of spiritual things, and to find some one who could talk upon such subjects. Meanwhile the time which he had determined upon for his journey to Jerusalem was approaching.
At the start of another winter, he fell seriously ill and was taken care of by the father of a man named Ferrera, who later joined Balthasar Faria's service. He received attentive care, and several high-ranking ladies devoted themselves to him, coming by every night to watch over him. As he began to recover, he was still very weak and experienced severe stomach pains. These factors, along with the harsh cold and the pleas of his caregivers, led him to wear shoes, warmer clothes, and a cap. He had to put on two small coats made of coarse grayish fabric and a small cap in the same color. During that illness, his constant [Pg 61]wish was to discuss spiritual matters and to find someone to talk about such topics. Meanwhile, the time he had set for his journey to Jerusalem was drawing near.
In the beginning of the year 1523, therefore, he set out for Barcelona. Many offered to accompany him, but he refused, as he wished to go alone. He expected to derive great advantage from placing his whole trust in God alone. Several were very earnest, and insisted that as he knew neither Latin nor Italian, he should not go alone, but should take with him a certain companion whom they praised very much. Ignatius replied that even were he the son or brother of the Duke of Cordova, he would not take him as a companion, as he wished only three virtues,—Faith, Hope, and Charity. If he took a companion, when hungry he would look to his companion for food; if exhausted, [Pg 62]he would call on his companion for help; and so he would confide in his companion, and have some affection for him: whereas he wished to place all this confidence, hope, and affection in God alone. These words were not a mere expression of the lips, but they were the true sentiments of his heart. For these reasons he wished to embark not only alone, but even without any provision for the voyage. When he arranged about his passage, the captain agreed to take him free, as he had no money; but on condition that he should take with him as much sailors' bread as would suffice for his sustenance. Were it not for this condition imposed by the captain, Ignatius would have refused to take with him any provision at all.
At the start of the year 1523, he set off for Barcelona. Many people offered to join him, but he declined because he wanted to go alone. He believed he would gain a lot by putting his complete trust in God. Several were quite insistent, arguing that since he didn’t know Latin or Italian, he shouldn’t travel alone and should bring along a particular companion they spoke highly of. Ignatius responded that even if he were the son or brother of the Duke of Cordova, he wouldn’t take him as a companion because he only sought three virtues—Faith, Hope, and Charity. If he had a companion, when he was hungry, he would look to that person for food; when exhausted, he would call on them for help; and he would end up relying on this companion and feeling some affection for them: whereas he wanted to place all his trust, hope, and affection in God alone. These weren’t just words; they reflected the true feelings of his heart. For these reasons, he wanted to set out not only alone but without any supplies for the journey. When arranging his passage, the captain agreed to take him for free since he had no money, but on the condition that he would bring enough sailors' bread for his sustenance. If it weren’t for this condition set by the captain, Ignatius would have refused to take any supplies at all.
When he thought of procuring bread, he was much troubled with scruples. "Is this your hope and faith in God, who, you [Pg 63]were sure, would not fail you?" The force and violence of the temptation were such that he was greatly distressed. Good reasons on both sides presented themselves. Finally, in his perplexity, he determined to leave the matter to his confessor. He told him first of his great desire to go to Jerusalem, and to do everything for the greater glory of God. Then he gave the reasons for not taking provisions for the voyage. His confessor decided that he ought to beg what was necessary and take it with him. He went to a lady of rank to ask for what he needed. When she asked where he was going, he hesitated a little about telling his final destination, and replied that he was going to Italy and Rome. She was somewhat astonished at this, and replied: "To Rome? Why, as to those who go there—well, I do not like to say what they are when they return." She meant [Pg 64]by this that as most of those who went to Rome did not go through motives of piety and devotion, when they returned they were not much better. The reason of his not openly declaring that he intended to go to the holy city of Jerusalem was his dread of yielding to vain glory. In fact, he was so much troubled by this fear that he was afraid to make known even the place of his birth or the name of his family. When he had secured the bread, before going on board he took care to leave behind him, on a bench on the wharf, five or six Spanish coins, which had been given to him as alms.
When he thought about getting bread, he was really worried and had doubts. "Is this your hope and faith in God, who, you [Pg 63]were sure, would not let you down?" The intensity of the temptation was such that it caused him great distress. He saw good reasons on both sides. Ultimately, feeling confused, he decided to leave it up to his confessor. He first told him about his strong desire to go to Jerusalem and to do everything for God's greater glory. Then, he explained his reasons for not bringing provisions for the journey. His confessor determined that he should ask for what he needed and take it with him. He approached a lady of high status to ask for assistance. When she inquired about his destination, he hesitated for a moment before saying he was going to Italy and Rome. She was a bit surprised and responded, "To Rome? Well, I don’t want to say what happens to those who go there when they come back." What she meant [Pg 64]was that most people who traveled to Rome didn’t go out of piety and devotion, so when they returned, they weren't much improved. The reason he didn’t openly say he was headed to the holy city of Jerusalem was his fear of falling into vanity. In fact, he was so troubled by this fear that he was hesitant to even reveal his birthplace or family name. After he got the bread, before boarding the ship, he made sure to leave five or six Spanish coins, which had been given to him as alms, on a bench at the wharf.

He was obliged to remain at Barcelona more than twenty days before the ship was ready to sail. During that time, in accordance with his custom, in order to speak with spiritual men about his soul, he sought them out even though dwelling in hermitages at a long distance from the [Pg 65]city. But neither then, nor during the whole time of his stay at Manresa, could he find any one who could help him to advance as he wished. He met one woman, however, who seemed to be thoroughly acquainted with the spiritual life. She promised to pray to Jesus Christ and to ask Him to appear to Ignatius in person. In consequence of this promise, after leaving Barcelona, he gave up all anxiety about finding souls advanced in the spiritual life.
He had to stay in Barcelona for over twenty days before the ship was ready to leave. During that time, as was his habit, he looked for spiritual people to talk to about his soul, even though they were living in hermitages far from the [Pg 65]city. But neither then nor at any point during his time in Manresa could he find anyone who could help him progress as he wanted. He did meet one woman, though, who seemed to really understand the spiritual life. She promised to pray to Jesus Christ and ask Him to appear to Ignatius personally. Because of that promise, after leaving Barcelona, he stopped worrying about finding people with more experience in spiritual matters.
CHAPTER IV
HIS JOURNEY TO ROME, VENICE, JERUSALEM, AND THE HOLY LAND
HIS JOURNEY TO ROME, VENICE, JERUSALEM, AND THE HOLY LAND
After a voyage of five days and nights the vessel in which they set out from Barcelona reached Gaeta, and the pilgrim disembarked and started for Rome, although there was danger there on account of the plague. After reaching the city, he found the gates closed. He spent the night in a damp church, and in the morning sought to enter the city, but could not obtain permission. As no alms could be obtained outside of the city, he wished to go on to a neighboring village, but for sheer weakness, the pilgrim could go no farther. On that day it happened that a great procession came out of the [Pg 67]city. On inquiry the pilgrim learned that the Duchess was in the throng. He approached her, told her that his malady was simply the effect of weakness, and asked permission to enter the city to get relief. She readily consented. He was successful and his strength returned, and two days later he resumed his journey, reaching Rome on Palm Sunday.
After a journey of five days and nights, the ship they took from Barcelona arrived in Gaeta, and the pilgrim got off and headed for Rome, even though there was a risk due to the plague. Upon reaching the city, he found the gates shut. He spent the night in a damp church, and in the morning he tried to enter the city, but couldn't get permission. Since he couldn’t collect any alms outside the city, he wanted to continue to a nearby village, but he was too weak to go any further. That day, a large procession left the [Pg 67]city. When he asked what was happening, he learned that the Duchess was in the crowd. He approached her, explained that his sickness was just from weakness, and asked if he could enter the city for help. She agreed without hesitation. He was able to enter, regained his strength, and two days later, he continued his journey, arriving in Rome on Palm Sunday.
Those whom he met at Rome knew he had no money for his journey to Jerusalem. They tried to dissuade him from his undertaking, alleging that such a journey was impossible without money. He felt assured, however, that everything needed for his voyage would be at hand when required. Accordingly, on the octave of Easter, he received the blessing of Adrian VI and left Rome for Venice. He had in his possession six or seven pieces of gold which they had given him to pay his passage from Venice as far as[Pg 68] Jerusalem. He had taken this money with him from Venice only because they had convinced him that without it he could not reach Jerusalem. On the third day from the time he set out from Rome, he realized that this fear had come from a want of confidence, and was sorry he had accepted the money, and was deliberating about giving it away. Finally, however, he determined to spend it on those he met, who were chiefly beggars. The result was that when he came to Venice he had only four coins left, and these were necessary for his lodging that night.
Those he met in Rome knew he didn't have money for his journey to Jerusalem. They tried to talk him out of it, claiming that such a trip was impossible without funds. However, he was confident that everything he needed for his journey would come together when the time was right. So, on the eighth day of Easter, he received the blessing of Adrian VI and left Rome for Venice. He had six or seven gold coins given to him to cover his passage from Venice to [Pg 68] Jerusalem. He only took this money from Venice because they convinced him he wouldn't make it to Jerusalem without it. Three days into his journey from Rome, he realized that this fear stemmed from a lack of confidence, and he regretted accepting the money, debating whether to give it away. In the end, he chose to spend it on those he encountered, mainly beggars. As a result, by the time he reached Venice, he was left with only four coins, which he needed for his accommodation that night.
On this journey to Venice, on account of sentinels placed around the cities, he was obliged to sleep outside the walls. The dread of the pestilence was so great that one morning on rising he saw a man fleeing from him in terror. Pursuing his journey, he reached Chizoa with several others who had joined him on the road.[Pg 69] There he learned that he would not be allowed to enter the city. He then proceeded with his companions to Padua, to get the testimony of a notary that the party was not stricken with the plague. Ignatius could not, on account of his weakness, keep pace with the others, and was left alone in an open field. Then Christ appeared to him, as He had appeared on former occasions. By this vision he was greatly strengthened and consoled. The next morning, filled with new courage, he came to the gate of the city, and although provided with no certificate, entered unquestioned by the guard. In the same way he left the city unquestioned. His companions were surprised at this, for they had to present a certificate, which he had taken no pains to procure. At Venice they begged their food, and slept in St. Mark's Square. Ignatius refused to go to the house of the Ambassador, [Pg 70]and although he made no effort to get money for his voyage to Jerusalem, he felt sure nevertheless that God would provide him with means.
On his journey to Venice, due to sentinels positioned around the cities, he had to sleep outside the walls. The fear of the plague was so intense that one morning, when he woke up, he saw a man running away from him in panic. Continuing on his path, he reached Chizoa with a few others who had joined him along the way.[Pg 69] There, he found out that he wouldn't be allowed to enter the city. He then went with his companions to Padua to get a notarized statement verifying that they weren't affected by the plague. Ignatius couldn't keep up with the others because of his weakness and was left alone in an open field. Then, Christ appeared to him, as He had before. This vision gave him great strength and comfort. The next morning, filled with new determination, he arrived at the city's gate, and although he didn't have any certificate, he entered without being questioned by the guard. He left the city the same way, without any questions. His companions were surprised by this since they had to show proof, which he had made no effort to obtain. In Venice, they begged for food and slept in St. Mark's Square. Ignatius declined to go to the Ambassador's house,[Pg 70] and even though he didn't try to gather funds for his trip to Jerusalem, he was confident that God would provide for him.
One day he met a rich Spaniard, who asked him whither he was going, and having learned his intention, brought him to dine at his house. Here he remained for several days. From the time he left Manresa, Ignatius, while seated at table with others, had made it a practice never to speak except to give a brief answer to questions. However, he heard all that was said, and took occasion after dinner to give the conversation a spiritual turn. His host and all his family were so filled with admiration for him that they tried to induce him to remain with them, and introduced him to the Doge of Venice. The latter offered him accommodations on the government ship about to sail for Cyprus. Many pilgrims had assembled [Pg 71]at Venice to go to Jerusalem, but the greater part hesitated through fear, as the Island of Rhodes had fallen into the hands of the Turks. Thirteen sailed in the pilgrims' ship, which was the first to weigh anchor. The government ship carried eight or nine. About the time of departure Ignatius was taken ill with a fever, which lasted several days. On the day of sailing he took the prescribed medicine, and asked the doctor if he could go. The doctor replied he could if he wished the vessel to be his tomb. Nevertheless he went on board, and after a fit of illness soon recovered.
One day, he met a wealthy Spaniard who asked him where he was headed, and after learning his plans, invited him to have dinner at his home. He ended up staying for several days. Since leaving Manresa, Ignatius had made it a habit not to speak at the dinner table except to give short answers to questions. However, he listened to everything that was said and took the opportunity after dinner to steer the conversation in a spiritual direction. His host and his entire family were so impressed by him that they tried to convince him to stay with them and introduced him to the Doge of Venice. The Doge offered him a place on the government ship that was about to set sail for Cyprus. Many pilgrims had gathered [Pg 71] in Venice to travel to Jerusalem, but most were hesitant out of fear since the Island of Rhodes had fallen into Turkish hands. Thirteen people sailed on the pilgrims' ship, which was the first to leave. The government ship had about eight or nine on board. Around the time of departure, Ignatius fell ill with a fever that lasted several days. On the day of sailing, he took the prescribed medicine and asked the doctor if he could go. The doctor replied he could if he wanted the ship to be his grave. Nevertheless, he boarded the ship and after a bout of illness, he soon recovered.
The licentious conduct of those on board Ignatius severely censured. The Spaniards advised him not to do this, as the rest thought of abandoning him on an island. But the wind quickly conveyed them to Cyprus. From Cyprus they went to another port called Salinae, ten [Pg 72]leagues distant. Here he went on board the ship of the pilgrims, with no other provision than his hope in Providence. During all that voyage, the Lord often appeared to him, and gave him great consolation. The visions seemed to take the form of something large, round, and golden. The travelers reached Joppa, and seated on asses, after the custom of that region, they journeyed to Jerusalem. A noble Spanish gentleman, named Didacus Minez, as the pilgrims came in sight of the city, recommended silence and recollection.
The inappropriate behavior of those on the ship was heavily criticized by Ignatius. The Spaniards warned him against this, as the others were considering leaving him on an island. But the wind quickly carried them to Cyprus. From Cyprus, they headed to another port called Salinae, which was ten [Pg 72] leagues away. Here, he boarded the ship of the pilgrims, with nothing but his faith in Providence. Throughout the journey, the Lord often appeared to him, providing him with great comfort. The visions appeared to him as something large, round, and golden. The travelers reached Joppa and, following the local custom, rode on donkeys to Jerusalem. A distinguished Spanish gentleman named Didacus Minez suggested silence and reflection as the pilgrims approached the city.
All followed his suggestion, and when they saw a monk approaching with a crucifix, dismounted. On beholding the city, Ignatius was deeply affected, and the rest affirmed that they experienced a sort of heavenly joy. He always felt this same devotion whenever he visited the holy places. He decided to remain in[Pg 73] Jerusalem, in order to visit the holy places often. For this purpose he had taken with him letters of recommendation to the Father Guardian. On presenting them, he said that he intended to remain there to satisfy his own devotion, but said nothing of his purpose of helping others. The Father Guardian told him he did not see how this could be possible, as his house was not even capable of providing for his own Religious, and he intended to send some away from the Holy Land. Ignatius said he wished him merely to hear his confession, since he had come to make it. The Father Guardian said this could be done, but he should wait for the arrival of the Provincial, who was then at Bethlehem. Relying on this promise, Ignatius began to write letters to spiritual persons at Barcelona. He had written some on the day before he was to depart, when he was [Pg 74]summoned in the name of the Father Guardian and the Provincial. Then the Provincial, addressing him kindly, said he had heard of his pious determination to remain in the holy places, and had given it serious thought. Many others had the same desire, some had died, others had been taken prisoners, and to his Order was left the work of ransoming captives, wherefore he should prepare himself to resume his journey with the pilgrims on the following day. To this Ignatius answered that his resolution was very fixed, and he did not think that anything would keep him from executing it. If the precept did not bind him under pain of sin, he would not allow any fear to keep him from carrying out his desire. The Provincial said he had authority from the Holy See to detain those he thought fit, and to even excommunicate those who would not obey when stopped [Pg 75]by him, and he thought in this case it was better for him not to remain. When he wished to show the pontifical papers giving him power to excommunicate, Ignatius said there was no need, as he believed his word. If they had the authority, he would obey.
Everyone followed his suggestion, and when they saw a monk coming with a crucifix, they got off their horses. Upon seeing the city, Ignatius was deeply moved, and the others said they felt a kind of heavenly joy. He always felt this same devotion whenever he visited the holy places. He decided to stay in[Pg 73] Jerusalem so he could visit the holy sites often. For this, he brought letters of recommendation to the Father Guardian. When he presented them, he said he wanted to stay there to fulfill his own devotion but said nothing about his intent to help others. The Father Guardian told him he didn’t see how that could be possible since his house couldn’t even support its own Religious, and he planned to send some away from the Holy Land. Ignatius replied that he simply wanted him to hear his confession, since he had come to do so. The Father Guardian said that could be arranged, but he should wait for the Provincial, who was then in Bethlehem. Trusting this promise, Ignatius started writing letters to spiritual people in Barcelona. He wrote some on the day before he was set to leave when he was[Pg 74] summoned in the name of the Father Guardian and the Provincial. The Provincial, speaking to him kindly, mentioned he had heard about his pious wish to remain in the holy places and had thought about it seriously. Many others shared the same wish; some had died, others had been captured, and his Order was responsible for ransoming captives, so he should prepare to continue his journey with the pilgrims the next day. Ignatius replied that his decision was very firm, and he didn’t think anything would stop him from following through. If the rule didn’t bind him under penalty of sin, he wouldn’t let any fear prevent him from pursuing his desire. The Provincial said he had authority from the Holy See to detain those he deemed fit and even excommunicate those who wouldn’t comply when stopped[Pg 75] by him, and he thought in this case it was better for him not to stay. When he was about to show the papal documents giving him the power to excommunicate, Ignatius said there was no need, as he believed his word. If they had the authority, he would comply.
After this, returning to where he was before, he was seized with a great longing to visit Mount Olivet again before he departed, since the Divine Will would not suffer him to remain in those holy places. On that mountain is a rock from which Our Lord ascended to heaven, on which even now His footprints are visible. And this is what he wished to see again. Therefore, without telling any one, and without a guide, although it was a dangerous thing to go without a Turkish guard, secretly withdrawing he went to Mount Olivet alone. As the guards would not allow him to enter, he [Pg 76]gave them his knife. After great consolation in prayer he desired to go to Bethphage. When he reached that place, he thought that on Mount Olivet he had not noticed the position of the right foot of Our Lord and that of the left. He came a second time, and gave his scissors to the guards to allow him to enter. Afterward when at the monastery it was discovered he had gone without a guide, a great search was made for him. Coming down from Mount Olivet he met a girdled Christian, those who are bound to wear a girdle to distinguish them from the Mussulmans; this man, pretending to be very angry, threatened him with a large stick, and approaching, firmly grasped him by the arm. He allowed himself to be led, but the good man once he had hold of him did not let him go. In the meantime, as he was thus led along a captive, he was visited with great [Pg 77]consolation, as he seemed to see Christ walking above him. And this continued until he reached the monastery.
After this, going back to where he was before, he felt a strong desire to visit Mount Olivet again before he left, since the Divine Will wouldn’t let him stay in those holy places. On that mountain is a rock where Our Lord ascended to heaven, and even now His footprints can still be seen. This is what he wanted to see again. So, without telling anyone and without a guide—though it was dangerous to go without a Turkish guard—he secretly set off to Mount Olivet alone. Since the guards wouldn’t let him enter, he gave them his knife. After finding great comfort in prayer, he wanted to go to Bethphage. When he got there, he realized that on Mount Olivet he hadn’t paid attention to the position of Our Lord's right and left feet. He came back a second time and gave his scissors to the guards to let him in. Later, when it was discovered at the monastery that he had gone without a guide, a big search was launched for him. Coming down from Mount Olivet, he encountered a Christian bound by a girdle, which distinguishes them from the Muslims; this man, pretending to be very angry, threatened him with a large stick, and as he approached, firmly grabbed him by the arm. He allowed himself to be led, but the good man who had captured him wouldn’t let him go. Meanwhile, as he was being led along like a captive, he experienced great consolation, as he seemed to see Christ walking above him. And this continued until he reached the monastery.
CHAPTER V
HIS ARRIVAL IN APULIA, VENICE, FERRARA, AND GENOA—HE IS APPREHENDED AS A SPY—HE IS DESPISED AS A FOOL—HIS STUDIES AT BARCELONA AND ALCALA
HIS ARRIVAL IN APULIA, VENICE, FERRARA, AND GENOA—HE IS CAPTURED AS A SPY—HE IS HATED AS AN IDIOT—HIS STUDIES AT BARCELONA AND ALCALA
On the following day the pilgrims took their departure, and arriving at Cyprus, were assigned to different vessels. In the harbor of that place were three or four ships bound for Venice. Of these one belonged to some Turks; another was too small; but the third, the property of a wealthy Venetian, was very large and strong.
On the next day, the pilgrims set out, and upon reaching Cyprus, they were assigned to different ships. In the harbor there were three or four vessels heading to Venice. One was owned by some Turks; another was too small; but the third, owned by a wealthy Venetian, was very large and sturdy.
Some of the band asked the captain of this last to take the pilgrim aboard; but, finding that no pay was to be offered, he refused, in spite of the fact that many [Pg 79]begged him and were loud in their praises of the pilgrim. His reply was, that if the pilgrim were indeed a holy man, he might cross the sea as St. James did.
Some members of the band asked the captain of the last ship to take the pilgrim on board; however, when he realized that no payment would be offered, he refused, despite the fact that many [Pg 79] pleaded with him and praised the pilgrim loudly. His response was that if the pilgrim was truly a holy man, he could cross the sea just like St. James did.
The favor they asked was easily obtained of the captain of the smaller ship.
The favor they requested was easily granted by the captain of the smaller ship.
On a certain day they set sail with a favorable wind, but toward evening a storm arose, which tossed the vessels about in different directions. The large ship, whose captain had refused to take Ignatius, was driven by the tempest against the Island of Cyprus, and dashed to pieces. A like fate overtook the Turkish vessel. The small ship, however, though for a long time severely tried by wind and waves, finally reached the shores of Apulia in safety.
On a certain day, they set sail with a good wind, but by evening a storm came up that tossed the ships around in different directions. The large ship, whose captain had declined to take Ignatius, was battered by the storm and crashed against the Island of Cyprus, breaking apart. The same fate hit the Turkish vessel. However, the small ship, while greatly challenged by the wind and waves for a long time, finally safely reached the shores of Apulia.
Although the winter had set in with intense cold and a heavy fall of snow, Ignatius had no garments save a pair of knee-breeches of a very rough texture, [Pg 80]leaving the legs naked, a black waistcoat open and quite ragged about his shoulders, a light cloak made of coarse hair, and a pair of shoes. He arrived at Venice about the middle of January, having spent a good part of the preceding month and all of November aboard the ship which carried him from Cyprus.
Although winter had come in with intense cold and a heavy snowfall, Ignatius had no clothes except for a pair of rough knee-breeches that left his legs bare, a black waistcoat that was open and quite ragged around his shoulders, a light cloak made of coarse hair, and a pair of shoes. He arrived in Venice around mid-January, having spent much of the previous month and all of November aboard the ship that brought him from Cyprus.
At Venice, he met a friend who had been kind to him on his way to Jerusalem. From him he received alms and some cloth, which he wrapped about his body as a protection against the intense cold.
At Venice, he met a friend who had been nice to him on his way to Jerusalem. From him, he received some money and some fabric, which he wrapped around himself to protect against the extreme cold.
When Ignatius understood that God did not wish him to remain at Jerusalem, he began to consider what he should do. The plan he approved and adopted was to enter upon a course of study in order to be better fitted to save souls. For this purpose he determined to go to[Pg 81] Barcelona, and setting out from Venice he traveled toward Genoa.
When Ignatius realized that God didn't want him to stay in Jerusalem, he started thinking about what to do next. The plan he agreed on was to pursue an education so he could better help save souls. With that in mind, he decided to head to[Pg 81] Barcelona, and he set out from Venice, traveling toward Genoa.
While praying at the principal church of Ferrara, he gave five or six coins to a beggar who asked an alms. To a second beggar he was equally generous. As soon as the beggars saw him so prodigal of his alms, they flocked around him, until he had spent all the money that he had; so when others approached to ask for assistance, he excused himself on the plea that he had nothing left.
While praying at the main church of Ferrara, he gave five or six coins to a beggar who asked for charity. He was just as generous to a second beggar. As soon as the beggars saw him being so generous with his donations, they crowded around him until he had spent all the money he had; so when others came up to ask for help, he said he couldn't give anything because he had nothing left.
While proceeding from Ferrara to Genoa, he met some Spanish soldiers, who treated him kindly, and who were not a little surprised at his choosing such a route, since by so doing he was compelled to pass through the very midst of the armies of France and Spain. They entreated him therefore to take a safer road, which they would point out to him, and to withdraw from the highway.
While traveling from Ferrara to Genoa, he met some Spanish soldiers who were kind to him and were quite surprised that he chose such a route, as it meant he had to go right through the heart of the armies of France and Spain. They urged him to take a safer road that they could show him, and to get off the main highway.
Not following their counsel, however, he kept straight on until he came to a town fortified by strong walls. Seized as a spy, the guards cast him into a small house not far from the gate, and, as is customary in such suspicious times, closely questioned him. On all points, however, he professed the greatest ignorance. Finally they searched his clothes and shoes to see if he bore any messages, and finding nothing, they led him into the presence of the captain. They deprived him of his cloak, leaving him only his waistcoat and knee-breeches.
Not taking their advice, he continued on until he reached a town surrounded by strong walls. Mistaken for a spy, the guards threw him into a small house near the gate and, as is common during suspicious times, interrogated him closely. However, he claimed to know nothing about anything. Eventually, they searched his clothes and shoes to check for any messages, but finding nothing, they took him before the captain. They stripped him of his cloak, leaving him only in his waistcoat and knee-breeches.
As he was compelled to go about in this condition, he recalled to mind the thought of Christ led about as a captive. Although he was forced to walk through the three principal streets of the town, he did so, not with sadness, but feeling great joy and consolation.
As he had to go about in this condition, he remembered the image of Christ being led as a captive. Even though he was made to walk through the three main streets of the town, he did so not with sadness, but with great joy and comfort.
In addressing others he was in the habit [Pg 83]of saying "you," employing no other word either of reverence or dignity, believing that such was the simplicity as well of the Apostles as of Christ Himself.
In talking to others, he usually said "you," using no other terms of respect or dignity, believing that this reflected the simplicity of both the Apostles and Christ Himself.
While being conducted through the different streets, it occurred to him that it would be well to depart somewhat from his ordinary custom, and to show greater respect to the commander of the place. Such a thought was by no means the outcome of the fear of any punishment which they might inflict. He felt, however, that this was a temptation; he said, "In that case I'll neither address him as a person of dignity, nor bend the knee as a mark of respect, nor even remove my hat in his presence."
While walking through the different streets, he realized that it might be a good idea to stray a bit from his usual behavior and show more respect to the leader of the area. This thought didn't come from fear of any punishment they might impose. However, he felt that this was a challenge; he said, "In that case, I won't address him as someone important, nor will I kneel as a sign of respect, nor will I even take off my hat in front of him."
Having reached the residence of the commander, he was made to wait some time in the courtyard before being summoned into his presence. Then, without manifesting the slightest degree of civility, [Pg 84]he so paused after each word he spoke as to be taken for a fool by the commander, who said to his captors, "This man is an idiot; restore what belongs to him and send him away."
Having arrived at the commander's house, he was made to wait in the courtyard for a while before being called in to see him. Then, without showing any hint of politeness, [Pg 84] he paused after every word he spoke, leading the commander to think he was an idiot. The commander told his captors, "This guy is a fool; give him back what’s his and send him away."
A certain Spaniard met Ignatius coming from the house of the commander, led him home, just as he was, and gave him food and whatever was necessary for that night.
A Spaniard ran into Ignatius as he was leaving the commander's house, took him home, just as he was, and provided him with food and everything else he needed for the night.
The next morning he resumed his journey until toward evening, when, espied by the soldiers of a fort, he was seized and brought to the commander of the French forces. The latter, among other things, asked where he came from. When Ignatius answered, "Guipuscoa," the officer said, "I also come from near that place;" and immediately he ordered Ignatius to be conducted within to supper and to be treated with great kindness.
The next morning, he continued his journey until late in the day when soldiers from a fort spotted him, captured him, and brought him to the commander of the French forces. The commander asked him where he was from. When Ignatius said, "Guipuscoa," the officer replied, "I’m from around there too," and immediately ordered that Ignatius be taken inside for dinner and treated with great kindness.
At Genoa, he was recognized by a Cantabrian, [Pg 85]who had spoken with him elsewhere, when in the army of his Catholic Majesty. Through his influence, he was taken on a ship bound for Barcelona. He came very near being taken captive by Andrea Dorea, who was at that time in the service of the French, and gave chase to the vessel.
At Genoa, he was recognized by a Cantabrian, [Pg 85], who had talked to him before while serving in the army of his Catholic Majesty. Because of his influence, he was allowed on a ship headed for Barcelona. He almost got captured by Andrea Dorea, who was then working for the French and chased after the ship.
At Barcelona, he was enabled to study through the assistance of a noble and very pious lady, Isabel Roser, and a teacher, named Ardebal. Both highly approved his plan, Ardebal promising to give him instruction free, while Isabel generously offered to provide him with everything necessary.
At Barcelona, he was able to study thanks to the help of a noble and incredibly pious woman, Isabel Roser, and a teacher named Ardebal. Both fully supported his plan, with Ardebal promising to teach him for free and Isabel generously offering to supply everything he needed.
At Manresa, there was a very holy monk, of the Order of St. Bernard, with whom Ignatius wished to remain, as well for his own personal guidance as to prepare himself to direct others. He accordingly accepted the offer of his two generous [Pg 86]friends on condition that what he sought could not be obtained at Manresa. Finding, however, that the monk had died, he returned to Barcelona and applied himself to study. In this, however, he was destined to meet with some difficulties. In his studies, the principles of grammar caused new spiritual thoughts and tastes to arise so abundantly, as to render him incapable of committing anything to memory, and though he strove hard, he could not dispel these thoughts.
At Manresa, there was a very devout monk from the Order of St. Bernard, with whom Ignatius wanted to stay, both for his own guidance and to prepare himself to lead others. So, he accepted the offer from his two generous [Pg 86]friends on the condition that he couldn't find what he needed at Manresa. However, upon discovering that the monk had passed away, he went back to Barcelona and focused on studying. In this pursuit, he faced some challenges. In his studies, the principles of grammar sparked so many new spiritual thoughts and cravings that he found it impossible to memorize anything, and despite his efforts, he couldn't shake these thoughts.
Noticing, however, that while praying at Mass he did not experience similar thoughts, he considered this a temptation. Accordingly, after praying for some time, he asked his teacher to come to the Church of Blessed Mary of the Sea, not far from the professor's house, and there to listen to what he would tell him. Ignatius faithfully made known the whole state of his mind, and why he had as yet learned so [Pg 87]little. "But," he said, "I promise not to be wanting in attention in school during these two years, provided that at Barcelona I may be able to find bread and water."
Noticing that he didn't have similar thoughts while praying at Mass, he saw this as a temptation. After praying for a while, he asked his teacher to come to the Church of Blessed Mary of the Sea, which was close to the professor's house, so that he could share his thoughts. Ignatius openly expressed the entire state of his mind and why he had learned so little so far. "But," he said, "I promise to stay focused in school during these two years, as long as I can find bread and water in Barcelona."
Such an acknowledgment was of the greatest efficacy, and he never after experienced that temptation. The pains of the stomach, which afflicted him at Manresa, ceased, and, in fact, they did not trouble him from the time he set out for Jerusalem.
Such acknowledgment was incredibly effective, and he never faced that temptation again. The stomach pains that troubled him at Manresa went away, and, in fact, they didn't bother him from the moment he set out for Jerusalem.
While studying at Barcelona, he wished to practise his former penances. Accordingly, making a hole in the soles of his shoes, he tore them, little by little, until nothing but the upper portion was left.
While studying in Barcelona, he wanted to continue his old disciplines. So, he made holes in the soles of his shoes and gradually tore them apart until only the tops remained.
His two years of study being completed, in which, they say, he greatly advanced, he was advised by his master to go to Alcala to study philosophy, as he was deemed ready for it.
His two years of study were completed, during which, they say, he made significant progress. His mentor recommended that he go to Alcala to study philosophy, as he was thought to be prepared for it.
Before setting out, however, he wished to be examined by a certain theologian. As he also gave him the same advice, Ignatius, unaccompanied, started for Alcala. Here he began to beg and live upon alms. After ten or twelve days, this kind of life drew upon him the contempt of a priest and of some others. They began to insult him as one who preferred to live on alms, although quite able to support himself.
Before heading out, he wanted to be checked by a particular theologian. After receiving the same advice, Ignatius set off alone for Alcala. There, he began to beg and rely on charity. After about ten or twelve days, this way of living attracted the disdain of a priest and a few others. They started to insult him for choosing to live on handouts, even though he could take care of himself.
The superior of a new hospital, seeing him thus rudely treated, took him home, placed him in a room, and liberally provided for his needs.
The head of a new hospital, witnessing him being treated so harshly, took him home, put him in a room, and generously took care of his needs.
The time of his arrival at Barcelona was about Lent of the year 1524; and as he remained there upwards of two years, we do not find him at Alcala until the year 1526. At the latter place he spent his time in studying the works of Scotus, Albertus, Alcuin, and the Master of the[Pg 89] Sentences. He was diligent also in giving the Spiritual Exercises and explaining the Christian doctrine, by which he gave great glory to God, as very many were thereby led to a knowledge and taste of spiritual things. Many, however, fell victims to various temptations, an example of which is to be seen in one who was unable to scourge himself, because, as he fancied, his hand was held by some invisible agent. Because of such affairs, and especially by reason of the great crowd of men coming to him when he explained the Christian doctrine, various rumors began to spread among the people.
The time he arrived in Barcelona was around Lent in 1524, and since he stayed there for over two years, we don't see him in Alcala until 1526. During his time in Alcala, he focused on studying the works of Scotus, Albertus, Alcuin, and the Master of the [Pg 89] Sentences. He was also dedicated to giving the Spiritual Exercises and explaining Christian doctrine, which brought great glory to God, as many people were led to a deeper understanding and appreciation of spiritual matters. However, many faced various temptations, as illustrated by one person who couldn't scourge himself because he believed some invisible force was holding his hand. Because of these situations, and especially due to the large crowds coming to hear him explain Christian doctrine, various rumors began to circulate among the people.
When he first came to Alcala a friendship sprang up between him and one Didacus Guya, who lived with his brother, a painter. Through that friendship, Ignatius was abundantly supplied with all that was necessary; hence he would bestow upon the poor the alms that he himself [Pg 90]obtained, and besides three other pilgrims stayed with him.
When he first arrived in Alcala, he formed a friendship with Didacus Guya, who lived with his brother, an artist. Thanks to this friendship, Ignatius had all he needed; therefore, he would generously give the money he received as alms to the poor, and in addition, three other pilgrims stayed with him.
One day Ignatius went to Didacus to ask for alms in order to assist some poor people. He replied that he had no money. Opening, however, a chest which belonged to him, he took from it trappings of various colors, candlesticks, and other objects, which he gave to Ignatius, who distributed them to the poor.
One day, Ignatius went to Didacus to ask for donations to help some poor people. Didacus replied that he had no money. However, he opened a chest that belonged to him and took out various colorful items, candlesticks, and other objects, which he gave to Ignatius, who then distributed them to the poor.
Many rumors, as was stated above, became widespread in Alcala, and reached the ears even of the Inquisitors who were at Toledo, and who, as their host testified, styled Ignatius and his associates, Legati or Illuminati, and threatened him with capital punishment.
Many rumors, as mentioned earlier, spread widely in Alcala and even reached the Inquisitors in Toledo, who, as their host reported, referred to Ignatius and his associates as Legati or Illuminati, and threatened him with severe punishment.
The Inquisitors who had come to Alcala to investigate their actions left the entire affair in the hands of the Vicar Figueroa, who was then negotiating with the Emperor, and returned to Toledo [Pg 91]without having even once summoned them. Figueroa granted them the right to continue the work in which they were engaged, and the Inquisitors, after mature deliberation, discovered error neither in their doctrines nor in their manner of life.
The Inquisitors who had come to Alcala to look into their actions left the whole situation in the hands of Vicar Figueroa, who was negotiating with the Emperor at the time, and returned to Toledo [Pg 91]without even having summoned them once. Figueroa allowed them to keep working on their tasks, and the Inquisitors, after careful consideration, found no errors in their teachings or their way of life.
They did not, however, favor their custom of dressing alike, as they were not Religious. Ignatius replied that the wish of the Vicar would be obeyed, but he added: "I do not see the fruit of these examinations, since but a few days ago a certain priest refused holy communion to one, on the plea that he had communicated but eight days before; and to me, indeed, he gave it very reluctantly. We would like to know whether or not we have been guilty of any heresy?" "None," replied Figueroa, "else you would have been led to the stake." "And they would likewise have led you to the stake," responded[Pg 92] Ignatius, "had you been convicted of heresy."
They didn’t, however, like their tradition of dressing the same, since they weren’t religious. Ignatius responded that the Vicar's wish would be followed, but he added: “I don’t see the benefit of these evaluations, since just a few days ago, a certain priest denied someone holy communion, claiming it was only eight days since their last one; and he gave it to me very reluctantly. We’d like to know if we’ve committed any heresy?” “No,” replied Figueroa, “otherwise you would have been burned at the stake.” “And they would have done the same to you,” Ignatius replied, “if you had been found guilty of heresy.”
The dress was changed according to the wish of Figueroa, who also desired that the pilgrim should not go around barefooted for at least fifteen or twenty days. This command was also obeyed.
The dress was changed as Figueroa wanted, who also insisted that the pilgrim shouldn’t walk around barefoot for at least fifteen or twenty days. This order was also followed.
Four months after, Figueroa, a second time, brought the Inquisition to bear upon them, influenced, as I think, by the fact that a certain married woman of rank, who chanced to be singularly devoted to the pilgrim, went in disguise at daybreak to visit Ignatius at the hospital where he was staying. But even on this occasion Ignatius was not summoned to appear before the Inquisition; nor was any sentence pronounced against him.
Four months later, Figueroa once again brought the Inquisition down on them, influenced, I believe, by the fact that a certain noblewoman, who was notably devoted to the pilgrim, went in disguise at dawn to visit Ignatius at the hospital where he was staying. However, even this time, Ignatius was not called to appear before the Inquisition, nor was any sentence issued against him.
CHAPTER VI
THE PRISONS AT ALCALA AND SALAMANCA
THE PRISONS AT ALCALA AND SALAMANCA
After the space of four months, Ignatius, who did not remain at the hospital, was taken from his lodging by a public officer, who cast him into prison, with the command not to depart until otherwise ordered.
After four months, Ignatius, who had not stayed at the hospital, was taken from his room by a public officer, who locked him in prison with the order not to leave until told otherwise.
This took place during the summer months, and as the discipline of the prison was not very strict, an opportunity of visiting him was afforded many persons, to whom he explained the principles of Christian faith and the Exercises, as was his wont when enjoying perfect freedom.
This happened during the summer, and since the prison was not very strict, many people had the chance to visit him. During these visits, he shared the principles of the Christian faith and the Exercises, just like he used to do when he had complete freedom.
Many persons of rank were anxious to help him, but he did not wish to avail himself of their offers. One person especially,[Pg 94] Lady Teresa de Cardena, sent frequently, offering to deliver him from prison. He replied in these words, "He, for whose love I am imprisoned, will free me when it may be His good pleasure."
Many people of high status were eager to help him, but he didn’t want to take advantage of their offers. One person in particular, [Pg 94] Lady Teresa de Cardena, often reached out, offering to free him from prison. He responded with these words, "The one for whose love I am imprisoned will set me free when it is His good pleasure."
He passed seventeen days in prison,—yet was totally ignorant of the cause,—when Figueroa came to question him. Among other things, he asked whether he commanded the observance of the Sabbath.
He spent seventeen days in prison—yet had no idea why—when Figueroa came to question him. Among other things, he asked if he expected people to observe the Sabbath.
Among those who had frequently come to see Ignatius were two persons, a mother and daughter, the latter of whom was young and beautiful. These, especially the daughter, had made great progress in the spiritual life, and although ladies of rank, had determined to make a pilgrimage alone and on foot, and beg their way to the shrine of Veronica, in the city of Jaen.
Among those who often visited Ignatius were two people, a mother and her daughter, who was young and beautiful. These two, especially the daughter, had made significant strides in their spiritual journey, and despite being women of high status, they decided to undertake a pilgrimage alone and on foot, begging for assistance along the way to the shrine of Veronica in the city of Jaen.
This occasioned so great a sensation [Pg 95]throughout the city of Alcala that Dr. Giruellus, who was the guardian of the two women, thinking that Ignatius was the cause of their action, ordered him to be cast into prison.
This caused such a huge stir [Pg 95] throughout the city of Alcala that Dr. Giruellus, who was in charge of the two women, believed Ignatius was responsible for their actions and had him thrown into prison.
As the Vicar was willing to be fully informed, Ignatius said: "These women made known to me their desire of going about from place to place to assist the poor they found in the different hospitals. I, however, disapproved of their design, on account of the daughter, who was quite young and beautiful, representing to them at the same time that if they felt strongly urged to assist the poor, Alcala presented a broad enough field for their labors, and they could satisfy their devotion by accompanying the Blessed Sacrament as it was being carried to the sick." When Ignatius had finished his account, Figueroa and the notary departed, after writing down what had taken place.
As the Vicar wanted to be fully informed, Ignatius said: "These women told me they wanted to travel around to help the poor in different hospitals. However, I disapproved of their plan because the daughter was very young and beautiful. I suggested that if they felt strongly about helping the poor, Alcala had plenty of opportunities for their efforts, and they could express their devotion by accompanying the Blessed Sacrament as it was taken to the sick." After Ignatius finished his account, Figueroa and the notary left after recording what had happened.
Calisto, a companion of Ignatius, and who on recovering from a severe illness had heard of the imprisonment of Ignatius, hastened from Segovia, where he was staying, and came to Alcala, that he, too, might be cast into prison.
Calisto, a friend of Ignatius, and who after recovering from a serious illness had heard about Ignatius's imprisonment, quickly left Segovia, where he was staying, and went to Alcala so that he could also be thrown into prison.
Ignatius advised him to go to the Vicar, who received him kindly, and promised to send him to prison. It was necessary, he said, for him to be detained until the return of the women. It could then be seen whether or not their account agreed with what he and Ignatius had stated.
Ignatius told him to see the Vicar, who welcomed him warmly and promised to send him to jail. He explained that it was important for him to be held until the women returned. Then it could be determined whether their story matched what he and Ignatius had said.
As the confinement was undermining Calisto's health, Ignatius, through the intervention of a professor who was a friend of his, obtained his liberation.
As the confinement was taking a toll on Calisto's health, Ignatius, with the help of a professor who was his friend, got him released.
When Ignatius had been in prison forty-two days, the women returned. He was once more visited by the notary, who made known to him the condition on which he was to regain his freedom. It [Pg 97]was this: He and his companions should wear the same style of clothing as the other students, and refrain from preaching the truths of faith until they had finished four more years of study. Ignatius, indeed, had made more progress in his studies than the rest, yet he confessed that he had not been solidly grounded. And this he was always wont to say whenever he was questioned.
When Ignatius had been in prison for forty-two days, the women came back. He was once again visited by the notary, who informed him of the conditions he needed to meet to regain his freedom. It [Pg 97]was this: He and his companions had to dress like the other students and avoid preaching their faith until they completed four more years of study. Ignatius had indeed progressed further in his studies than the others, but he admitted that he wasn't fully grounded in the knowledge. He would always say this whenever someone asked him.
When Ignatius heard the judgment passed upon himself and his companions, he was at a loss what to do, for he saw very little chance of advancing the salvation of souls, hindered as he was for no other reason than that of not having completed a full course of study.
When Ignatius heard the judgment made about him and his friends, he felt completely confused about what to do, as he saw very few opportunities to help save souls, held back only because he hadn’t finished a full course of study.
He finally resolved to trust the entire affair to the good sense and judgment of Fonseca, Archbishop of Toledo, whom, after leaving Alcala, he found at Valladolid.
He finally decided to leave the whole matter to the good sense and judgment of Fonseca, the Archbishop of Toledo, whom he found in Valladolid after leaving Alcala.
To the Archbishop, then, he made known everything with the utmost fidelity, and said that, although it was not a matter pertaining either to his court or judgment, he determined to act as the Archbishop should advise.
To the Archbishop, he fully disclosed everything and said that, even though it wasn’t a matter related to his court or judgment, he planned to act according to the Archbishop's advice.
The Archbishop received him cordially, approving his intention of going to Salamanca, and assuring him that he would find friends there. Supplying him with everything necessary for his journey, he dismissed him.
The Archbishop welcomed him warmly, supporting his plan to go to Salamanca and assuring him that he would meet friends there. Providing him with everything needed for his trip, he sent him on his way.
When sentence had been pronounced against them at Alcala, Ignatius promised obedience, but at the same time observed that they were too poor to provide themselves with new clothing. Hearing this, the Vicar himself supplied what they needed, and they set out for Alcala.
When the sentence was handed down against them at Alcala, Ignatius promised to obey, but at the same time noted that they were too broke to afford new clothes. Hearing this, the Vicar himself provided what they needed, and they headed out for Alcala.
Four of his companions had already taken up their abode at Salamanca. When he reached the city Ignatius went [Pg 99]to church to pray, and was recognized by a pious lady, who, asking his name, conducted him to his companions. About ten or twelve days after their arrival at Salamanca, a Dominican monk, to whom Ignatius had made his confession, pressed him to visit the convent, as some of the Religious wished to see him.
Four of his friends had already settled in Salamanca. When he arrived in the city, Ignatius went [Pg 99]to church to pray and was recognized by a devout woman who asked his name and took him to his friends. About ten or twelve days after they got to Salamanca, a Dominican monk, to whom Ignatius had confessed, urged him to visit the convent since some of the monks wanted to see him.
Ignatius accepting the invitation "in the name of the Lord," his confessor thought it well for him to come to dine the Sunday following, at the same time adding that many questions would be put to him. On Sunday, therefore, as was appointed, the pilgrim came in company with Calisto.
Ignatius accepted the invitation "in the name of the Lord," and his confessor thought it was a good idea for him to come to dinner the following Sunday, while also mentioning that he would be asked many questions. So, on the appointed Sunday, the pilgrim arrived with Calisto.
When dinner was over, the Superior, together with the confessor and others, conducted Ignatius to a chapel, and after expressing his pleasure at the good account received of him and his apostolic zeal, manifested a desire of hearing a [Pg 100]more full and exact account of his teaching.
When dinner was done, the Superior, along with the confessor and others, took Ignatius to a chapel, and after sharing his satisfaction about the positive reports of Ignatius and his commitment to his mission, expressed a wish to hear a [Pg 100]more detailed and accurate account of his teachings.
He was first questioned in reference to his studies. Ignatius answered that he had spent more time in studying than his companions, yet he confessed that his knowledge was not very extensive, as he had never laid a solid foundation.
He was first asked about his studies. Ignatius replied that he had spent more time studying than his peers, but he admitted that his knowledge wasn’t very broad since he had never built a strong foundation.
"Why, then, do you preach?" broke in the monk. "We do not preach," replied Ignatius; "we are wont to talk familiarly about divine things with some, in much the same as after dinner we converse with our host."
"Why do you preach, then?" interrupted the monk. "We don't preach," Ignatius replied; "we usually have casual conversations about spiritual matters with some people, just like we chat with our host after dinner."
"About what divine things?" continued the monk; "this is the very point upon which we wish information."
"About what divine things?" the monk continued. "This is exactly what we want to know."
"About different virtues and vices," rejoined Ignatius, "endeavoring to inculcate a love of virtue and a detestation of vice."
"About different virtues and vices," Ignatius responded, "trying to teach a love for virtue and a hatred for vice."
"How comes it," said the monk, "that [Pg 101]you who are not learned should presume to converse upon virtue and vice? No one is wont to engage in such a task unless he has acquired knowledge or has been taught by the Holy Ghost. You confess ignorance of letters; it follows then that He has been your director. We wish to learn, therefore, what He has been pleased to make known to you."
"How is it," said the monk, "that [Pg 101]you, who aren’t educated, feel you can talk about virtue and vice? Usually, only those who have gained knowledge or have been taught by the Holy Spirit take on such discussions. You admit that you don't know letters; that means He must be guiding you. We want to know what He has revealed to you."
Ignatius at first made no reply, as he felt such reasoning was without value. Soon, however, breaking the silence, he remarked that there seemed no reason why he should say more upon the subject. As the monk still pressed him, giving as a reason the fact that many were once more thrusting forward the erroneous doctrine of Erasmus and others, Ignatius answered, "I will add no more to what has already been said, unless questioned by those who have a right to expect an account from me."
Ignatius didn't respond at first, thinking that the reasoning was pointless. However, after a moment of silence, he said that there was no reason for him to say anything more on the topic. When the monk continued to press him, arguing that many were once again promoting the mistaken teachings of Erasmus and others, Ignatius replied, "I won't add anything more to what has already been said, unless asked by those who have the right to expect an explanation from me."
Previous to the present proceedings the monk wished to know why Calisto was so strangely clothed, for, although of tall stature, he went about almost barelegged, holding a staff in his hand, and wearing a cloak much too short, and a hat of enormous size. The whole costume formed a rather ludicrous picture.
Before the current events, the monk wanted to understand why Calisto was dressed so oddly. Even though he was tall, he walked around nearly barelegged, carrying a staff, wearing a cloak that was far too short, and sporting a huge hat. The entire outfit created a rather comical appearance.
Ignatius replied that although at Alcala they were ordered to dress as the other students, Calisto had charitably given his clothes to a poor priest.
Ignatius replied that even though they were told to dress like the other students at Alcala, Calisto had generously given his clothes to a poor priest.
The monk showed himself displeased at this, remarking, "Charity begins at home."
The monk expressed discontent with this, saying, "Charity starts at home."
But to return to our former narrative. When the monk saw Ignatius fixed in his resolution, "You shall remain here," he said, "and we shall easily find a way of compelling you to make everything known." Immediately all the monks withdrew, the subprior signifying his [Pg 103]wish that Ignatius should remain in the chapel. The matter was then laid before the judges. Both Ignatius and Calisto remained three days in the monastery, taking their meals with the community, before any decision of the judges was made known to them. During this time the Religious frequently visited their cells, and Ignatius never failed to speak with them in his accustomed manner. This caused the monks to be divided in their opinion of him, and many, indeed, showed themselves very kindly disposed.
But let's go back to the story. When the monk saw that Ignatius was determined, he said, "You will stay here, and we'll easily find a way to make you reveal everything." Right away, all the monks left, with the subprior indicating his [Pg 103] wish for Ignatius to stay in the chapel. The issue was then presented to the judges. Both Ignatius and Calisto stayed at the monastery for three days, sharing meals with the community, before the judges' decision was revealed to them. During this time, the monks often visited their cells, and Ignatius always spoke to them as he usually did. This led to mixed opinions about him among the monks, and many, in fact, were quite friendly toward him.
On the third day a notary came to conduct them to prison. They were not put with the common criminals, but their place of confinement was nevertheless very repulsive. In the centre of the cell there was a pillar to which was attached a chain but a few feet in length, and so riveted to the prisoners that when either [Pg 104]moved the other was obliged to follow him. They passed that night without any sleep. On the following day, however, the report spread that they were prisoners. The people then hastened to supply them with all they needed.
On the third day, a notary came to take them to prison. They weren't placed with common criminals, but their confinement was still very unpleasant. In the middle of the cell, there was a pillar with a chain a few feet long attached to it, so that when one of them [Pg 104]moved, the other had to follow. They spent the night without any sleep. The next day, news spread that they were prisoners. People quickly rushed to provide them with everything they needed.
Ignatius, as may readily be supposed, lost no opportunity of speaking upon spiritual things with those who came to see them.
Ignatius, as you might expect, took every chance to discuss spiritual matters with those who visited him.
They were each separately examined by a friar, to whom Ignatius delivered all his writings. Among these were his Spiritual Exercises, that it might be seen whether or not they contained any false doctrine. When asked about his other companions, he told who and where they were. They were arrested also, and confined in separate apartments from that in which Ignatius was placed.
They were each examined by a friar, to whom Ignatius handed over all his writings. Included among these were his Spiritual Exercises, so it could be determined if they contained any false teachings. When asked about his other companions, he explained who they were and where they were located. They were also arrested and held in separate rooms from where Ignatius was kept.
Although help was offered on this occasion, he declined to accept it.
Although help was offered this time, he chose not to accept it.
After a few days he was called into the presence of the judges and professors, who made him answer many questions, not only on his Spiritual Exercises, but even on articles of faith, as, for example, the Trinity and the Blessed Sacrament, requiring him to explain these mysteries.
After a few days, he was summoned before the judges and professors, who asked him a lot of questions, not just about his Spiritual Exercises, but also about articles of faith, like the Trinity and the Blessed Sacrament, requiring him to explain these mysteries.
So clear and exact was his explanation that his examiners could not find the least flaw in his doctrine. He was equally correct in the answer to the friar who proposed a difficulty in Canon Law.
So clear and precise was his explanation that his examiners couldn't find even the slightest flaw in his doctrine. He was also spot on in his response to the friar who raised a challenge regarding Canon Law.
In every case he said that he did not know the decision of the professors.
In every case, he stated that he was unaware of the professors' decision.
When ordered to speak on the first commandment, he gave so full and exhaustive an explanation as to leave to his hearers no further chance of questioning him.
When asked to talk about the first commandment, he provided such a thorough and detailed explanation that his audience had no room left to question him.
Although he had not completed his studies, he frequently showed the difference between a mortal and a venial sin [Pg 106]of thought. While speaking about his Exercises, he was closely questioned. To their questions, however, he replied, "What I say is either false or true; if false, condemn it." The doctrine remained uncondemned.
Although he hadn't finished his studies, he often highlighted the difference between a mortal and a venial sin [Pg 106]of thought. When discussing his Exercises, he was asked a lot of questions. In response, he said, "What I'm saying is either false or true; if it's false, then reject it." The teaching was not rejected.
Francis de Mendoza, afterward Cardinal of Valencia, was one of those who came to the prison to visit Ignatius. One day, while accompanied with the friar, he asked him whether the prison and chains were not insupportable. "I shall give," said Ignatius, "the reply made to-day to a woman who bewailed my lot. For the love of Jesus Christ, I gladly would wear all the handcuffs and chains that could be found in Salamanca. And if you consider this an evil, you show that as yet you are not desirous of suffering imprisonment for the love of Our Lord."
Francis de Mendoza, later Cardinal of Valencia, was one of the visitors who came to the prison to see Ignatius. One day, while with the friar, he asked him if the prison and chains weren't unbearable. "I'll share," Ignatius replied, "the answer I gave today to a woman who was lamenting my situation. For the love of Jesus Christ, I would gladly wear all the handcuffs and chains that could be found in Salamanca. And if you think this is a bad thing, it shows that you are not yet eager to endure imprisonment for the love of Our Lord."
About this time it happened that all [Pg 107]the inmates of the prison managed to escape, leaving only Ignatius and his companions. When this became known it caused a reaction in their favor, and they were placed for the time in a large building adjoining the prison.
About this time, all the inmates of the prison managed to escape, leaving only Ignatius and his friends. When this became known, it created support for them, and they were temporarily housed in a large building next to the prison.
On the twenty-second day of their imprisonment they were summoned to hear their sentence.
On the twenty-second day of their imprisonment, they were called in to hear their sentence.
Although they were declared to be free from reproach both in their lives and their doctrines, and were allowed to continue their work of teaching the Christian doctrine and of speaking on spiritual subjects, yet they were forbidden to draw any distinction between mortal and venial sin, until they should have spent four more years in study.
Although they were said to be free from criticism in both their lives and their teachings, and were permitted to keep teaching Christian doctrine and discussing spiritual matters, they were still not allowed to make any distinction between mortal and venial sin until they completed four more years of study.
Although Ignatius was unwilling to accept the sentence, because, though condemned in no respect, he was nevertheless prevented from assisting his neighbor, [Pg 108]he declared that he would submit as long as he remained in Salamanca.
Although Ignatius was reluctant to accept the sentence because, although not guilty of anything, he was still unable to help his neighbor, [Pg 108] he stated that he would comply as long as he stayed in Salamanca.
Recommending the affair to God, Ignatius began to deliberate on his future plan of action. He considered it a waste of time to remain at Salamanca, as the restriction laid upon him prevented him from assisting those for whose salvation he wished to labor.
Recommending the situation to God, Ignatius started to think about his next steps. He thought it was a waste of time to stay in Salamanca since the restrictions on him kept him from helping those he wanted to save.
He resolved, accordingly, to set out for Paris for the purpose of there continuing his studies.
He decided to head to Paris to continue his studies there.
While studying at Barcelona, Ignatius was in doubt whether, after completing his studies, he should enter some Religious Order, or go from place to place, according to his custom.
While studying in Barcelona, Ignatius was uncertain whether, after finishing his studies, he should join a Religious Order or continue his usual practice of traveling from place to place.
He decided to enter upon the religious life. His next step was to find some Order where the primitive fervor had not relaxed, as he felt that there he would be more sure of satisfying his desire of suffering [Pg 109]and assisting others spiritually by bearing, for the love of God, any injury or insult to which he might be subjected.
He decided to pursue a religious life. His next step was to find an Order where the original enthusiasm hadn't faded, as he felt he would be more likely to fulfill his desire for suffering [Pg 109] and help others spiritually by enduring, for the love of God, any harm or disrespect he might face.
Even while at Salamanca these desires were ever present to him. To this end he directed all his studies, endeavoring at the same time to persuade others to adopt a like course, and to strengthen in their good resolutions those who had already embraced it.
Even while he was at Salamanca, these desires were always on his mind. To this end, he focused all his studies, while also trying to convince others to take a similar path and to support those who had already made good resolutions.
When he had resolved to go to Paris, he communicated his design to his companions, telling them to remain where they were, until he could find a means of helping them in their studies.
When he decided to go to Paris, he told his friends to stay where they were until he could figure out a way to help them with their studies.
Many persons of rank endeavored to dissuade him from departing, but all to no purpose.
Many people of high status tried to convince him not to leave, but it was all in vain.
Placing the few books he possessed upon a little ass, he took leave of his companions about fifteen or twenty days after they came out of prison.
Placing the few books he had on a small donkey, he said goodbye to his friends around fifteen or twenty days after they were released from prison.
Those who met him at Barcelona sought to deter him from going to France, as at that time the war between the two countries was raging with great fierceness. Notwithstanding the many acts of cruelty inflicted by the French upon the Spaniards, many of whom had been impaled, he persevered in his intention.
Those who met him in Barcelona tried to dissuade him from going to France, as there was a fierce war between the two countries at that time. Despite the many cruel acts the French had committed against the Spaniards, many of whom had been impaled, he remained determined to go.
CHAPTER VII
HIS STUDIES IN PARIS, AND OTHER INCIDENTS OF HIS LIFE
HIS STUDIES IN PARIS, AND OTHER EVENTS IN HIS LIFE
He left for Paris on foot and alone, and, according to his own reckoning, arrived there toward the beginning of February, 1528. While in prison, the Prince of Spain was born, and from this event we can determine the date of what preceded and followed. At Paris he lived with some Spaniards, and attended the lectures given at the College of Montaigu. As he had been advanced too rapidly to the higher studies, he returned to those of a lower grade, because he felt that in great part he lacked the proper groundwork. He therefore studied in a class with children. When he first came [Pg 112]to Paris, he received from a merchant twenty-five gold crowns on an order sent from Barcelona. These he put for safekeeping in the hands of one of the Spaniards with whom he lived. This latter very soon appropriated them for his own use, and when called upon, could not restore them. The result was that when Lent was over Ignatius found himself unprovided for, partly on account of the loss mentioned, and partly on account of other expenses. In consequence, he was forced to seek his livelihood by begging, and to leave the house where he lived.
He left for Paris on foot and alone, and, by his own estimate, arrived there around the beginning of February 1528. While he was in prison, the Prince of Spain was born, and from this event, we can determine the timeline of what came before and after. In Paris, he lived with some Spaniards and attended lectures at the College of Montaigu. Since he had progressed too quickly to higher studies, he went back to a lower level because he felt he lacked the proper foundation. As a result, he studied in a class with children. When he first arrived [Pg 112] in Paris, he received twenty-five gold crowns from a merchant based on an order sent from Barcelona. He entrusted these to one of the Spaniards he was living with for safekeeping. However, this person quickly misappropriated the funds for personal use and, when asked, could not return them. Consequently, when Lent ended, Ignatius found himself without resources, partly due to this loss and partly because of other expenses. As a result, he was forced to rely on begging for a living and to leave the house where he had been staying.
Afterward he was received into the Hospital of St. James, near the Church of the Holy Innocents. This residence proved no slight hindrance to his studies. The hospital was at a great distance from the college, and while he could not gain admission at night unless he returned before the sound of the Angelus, in the [Pg 113]morning he was not allowed to depart before daylight. He could not, in consequence, be present at, nor give his time to, the lectures with profit. He found another hindrance, also, in loss of the time needed in getting alms wherewith to purchase food.
Afterward, he was admitted to the Hospital of St. James, near the Church of the Holy Innocents. This place made it difficult for him to study. The hospital was far from the college, and he couldn’t come back at night unless he returned before the Angelus bell rang. In the [Pg 113] morning, he wasn’t allowed to leave until it was daylight. As a result, he couldn’t attend lectures or dedicate time to them effectively. He also faced another challenge: he lost valuable time collecting alms to buy food.
As he had not experienced interior spiritual suffering for almost five years, he mortified himself by austere fasts and penances. After he had spent some time in this way, living in the hospital and begging his food, he noticed that his progress in letters was not rapid. He then considered what course to follow. He had observed that many who lived as servants of the lecturers in the colleges had abundant time for study. He resolved to seek some one whom he might serve in the same way. He weighed the matter well, and not without consolation thought of it as follows: "I shall imagine [Pg 114]that my master is Christ, and I shall call one of the students Peter, another John, and to the rest I shall give the names of the remaining Apostles. Then, when my master gives me a command, I shall think, that Christ commands me. When any one else gives orders, I shall think that the order comes from St. Peter or some other Apostle." He was very diligent in seeking a master, and spoke of the matter to a bachelor and to a Carthusian monk, who knew many masters, and to others, but he was never able to find one.
As he hadn't felt any inner spiritual pain for nearly five years, he disciplined himself with strict fasting and penances. After spending some time this way, living in the hospital and begging for food, he realized that his progress in his studies wasn't fast. He then thought about what to do next. He had seen that many who worked as servants for the college lecturers had plenty of time to study. He decided to look for someone to serve in the same way. He considered this carefully and, feeling some comfort, thought: "I'll picture my master as Christ, and I’ll name one of the students Peter, another John, and the rest will have the names of the other Apostles. Then, when my master gives me a task, I'll think that Christ is giving me the command. When anyone else gives orders, I'll see it as coming from St. Peter or another Apostle." He was very eager in searching for a master and talked about it with a bachelor and a Carthusian monk, who knew many masters, as well as others, but he was never able to find one.
Deprived of every resource, he was told by a Spanish monk that it would be a wise step for him to go every year to Flanders, and there in two months he could procure enough for the whole year. He approved of the plan, after recommending the matter to God. On adopting this plan, he brought back yearly from Flanders whatever he needed for his [Pg 115]maintenance. Once even he passed over into England, and from there brought greater alms than he had gathered in the previous years.
Deprived of every resource, he was advised by a Spanish monk that it would be smart for him to go to Flanders every year, where in just two months he could gather enough for the whole year. He liked the idea and prayed about it. Implementing this plan, he returned each year from Flanders with everything he needed for his [Pg 115]maintenance. Once, he even went over to England and brought back more donations than he had collected in the previous years.
When he first returned from Flanders he began to devote himself earnestly to spiritual work. About the same time he gave the Exercises to three persons,—to Peralta, to Castro, a friend who dwelt at Sorbonne, and to a Cantabrian who lived in the College of St. Barbara, by name Amator. A great change was made in the lives of these men. At once they gave to the poor whatever they had, even their books, while they themselves began to live on the alms they begged, and to dwell in the Hospital of St. James, where Ignatius had previously dwelt, and which he left as stated above. This incident aroused a great outcry in the University of Paris, because the two first were very famous men. The other Spaniards at once undertook [Pg 116]to oppose them, but unable to persuade them by any argument to return to the university, a great crowd went armed to the hospital and led, or rather dragged, them away.
When he first came back from Flanders, he started focusing seriously on spiritual work. Around the same time, he guided three people through the Exercises—Peralta, Castro, a friend who lived at the Sorbonne, and a Cantabrian named Amator, who resided at the College of St. Barbara. This led to a significant change in their lives. They immediately gave away everything they had to the poor, even their books, and began to live off the donations they begged for, choosing to stay at the Hospital of St. James, where Ignatius had previously lived. This caused quite a stir at the University of Paris since the first two were very well-known figures. Other Spaniards quickly took it upon themselves to oppose them, but when they couldn't convince them to return to the university, a large crowd went to the hospital armed and forcibly took them away.
On coming to the university they agreed with their captors to complete their course of studies, and afterward to follow out their determination. Castro went afterward to Spain, and after preaching for a while at Burgos, joined the Order of the Carthusians at Valencia. Peralta undertook a journey to Jerusalem on foot and after the fashion of a pilgrim. In this garb he was seized in Italy by a military leader, his relative, who found a pretext for bringing him before the Sovereign Pontiff, from whom he obtained a command for Peralta to return to Spain. All these events did not occur then, but years afterward. Exaggerated reports arose against Ignatius at Paris, especially among [Pg 117]the Spaniards. De Govea was wont to say that Amator, who remained in his college, had been brought by Ignatius to the verge of insanity. He therefore made up his mind that as soon as Ignatius came to the College of St. Barbara, he would give him a public whipping as a seducer of the pupils.
When they arrived at the university, they made an agreement with their captors to finish their studies and then pursue their own plans. Castro later went to Spain, and after preaching for a while in Burgos, he joined the Carthusian Order in Valencia. Peralta took a pilgrimage to Jerusalem on foot. Dressed as a pilgrim, he was captured in Italy by a military leader who was a relative of his. This leader found a way to bring him before the Pope, who then ordered Peralta to return to Spain. These events didn't happen right away but occurred years later. Exaggerated rumors about Ignatius began spreading in Paris, particularly among [Pg 117] the Spaniards. De Govea often claimed that Amator, who stayed at his college, had been driven nearly insane by Ignatius. Therefore, he decided that as soon as Ignatius arrived at the College of St. Barbara, he would publicly whip him as a seducer of the students.
Now the Spaniard who had spent the money of Ignatius and had not paid him, had set out to journey to Spain and fallen sick. As soon as Ignatius learned of this, he was seized with a longing to visit and help him, hoping by this to lead him to abandon the world and give himself wholly to God. And indeed to accomplish this he wished to make the journey barefooted, without food or drink. While praying for this purpose, he felt himself seized with great fear until, entering the Church of St. Dominic, he resolved to make the journey in this manner. The [Pg 118]fear that it might be tempting God then left him; on the morning of the following day, upon arising, so great a fear seized him that it seemed to him that he could not even put on his clothes. In this interior strife he left the house and went out of the city, and the fear did not leave him till he was nine miles from Paris. At this distance there is a village which the inhabitants call Argenteuil, where the Holy Coat of Our Lord is said to be preserved. As he left this place in great trouble of spirit, a feeling of great consolation and strength filled his soul with such joy that he began to shout aloud and to talk with God as he walked through the fields. That night, having completed forty-five miles, he went to rest with a beggar in a hospital. On the next day toward nightfall he lodged in a straw-thatched cabin. On the third day he arrived on foot. According to his resolve, [Pg 119]he took neither food nor drink. Upon his arrival he consoled the sick man, helped him on board a vessel which was about to sail for Spain, and gave him letters to his companions, Calisto, Caceres, and Artiaga, who were in Salamanca. Here we may dwell for a moment on the fate of these companions. While Ignatius was at Paris he often sent them letters, telling them of the little hope left of calling them to Paris for their studies. Still he urged by letter Donna Leonora de Mascarenas to use her influence with the King of Portugal for Calisto, that he might receive one of the burses which the King had established. A certain yearly aid is called a burse. Donna Leonora gave Calisto a mule and money to take him to the court of the King of Portugal. He set out, but never reached that place. He came back afterward to Spain and went to India. He returned rich, to the great [Pg 120]surprise of all at Salamanca, who had known him in former days. Caceres, after returning to Segovia, his native city, began to grow unmindful of his former purpose and life. Artiaga was first made a magistrate. Afterward, when the Society was established at Rome, a bishopric was given to him. He wrote to Ignatius, "I wish this bishopric to be given to one of the Society." But as soon as the answer came that this was not to be done, he went to India, was made bishop, and died there a strange death. While sick it chanced that two phials of liquid were placed in water to cool, one containing a medicine ordered for him by the doctor, the other a diluted poison called Sollimanus. His attendant gave him by mistake the poisoned draught, which he drank, and thus ended his life.
Now the Spaniard who had spent Ignatius's money and hadn’t paid him back had set out for Spain but fell sick. As soon as Ignatius heard about this, he felt a strong urge to visit and help him, hoping to steer him away from worldly matters and dedicate himself completely to God. In fact, he wanted to make the journey barefoot, without any food or drink. While praying for this, he was overcome with great fear until he entered the Church of St. Dominic and decided to go on the journey this way. The fear of it possibly being a test of God left him; however, the next morning, when he woke up, he was so fearful that he felt like he couldn’t even dress himself. In this internal struggle, he left his house and went out of the city, and the fear didn’t leave him until he was nine miles from Paris. At that distance, there’s a village called Argenteuil, where it’s said the Holy Coat of Our Lord is kept. As he left this place in great distress, a wave of consolation and strength filled his soul with such joy that he began shouting and talking with God as he walked through the fields. That night, after covering forty-five miles, he rested with a beggar in a hospital. The next day, by nightfall, he stayed in a straw-thatched cabin. On the third day, he arrived on foot. True to his resolve, he took no food or drink. Upon arriving, he comforted the sick man, helped him board a ship that was about to sail for Spain, and gave him letters for his friends, Calisto, Caceres, and Artiaga, who were in Salamanca. Here, we should take a moment to consider what happened to these friends. While Ignatius was in Paris, he often sent them letters, expressing little hope of bringing them to Paris for their studies. Still, he wrote to Donna Leonora de Mascarenas, asking her to influence the King of Portugal to help Calisto so he could receive one of the scholarships the King had established. A scholarship is a yearly aid known as a burse. Donna Leonora provided Calisto with a mule and money to reach the King of Portugal's court. He set off but never made it there. He later returned to Spain and went to India, coming back wealthy, much to the amazement of everyone in Salamanca who remembered him from before. Caceres, after going back to Segovia, his hometown, started to forget his earlier intentions and life. Artiaga initially became a magistrate, and later, when the Society was established in Rome, he was given a bishopric. He wrote to Ignatius, saying, "I want this bishopric to go to someone from the Society." But when the reply came back saying that couldn’t happen, he went to India, became a bishop, and met a strange end. While he was ill, two vials of liquid were placed in water to cool, one containing a medicine prescribed by the doctor, and the other a diluted poison called Sollimanus. His attendant mistakenly gave him the poisoned drink, and he drank it, which led to his death.
Returning to Paris Ignatius heard many rumors connecting his name with that of[Pg 121] Caceres and Peralta, and learned that he had been summoned before the judge. As he did not wish to remain in doubt, he went of his own accord to the Inquisitor, a Dominican friar. "I heard that I had been sought for, and I now present myself." During the conversation he asked the Inquisitor to terminate the matter speedily. He had determined to begin his course in arts on the approaching feast of St. Remigius, and therefore wished all other business completed in order to apply himself to his studies with greater profit. The Inquisitor on his part told him that it was true that certain charges had been made against him, but he allowed him to depart, and did not summon him again.
Returning to Paris, Ignatius heard many rumors linking his name with that of[Pg 121] Caceres and Peralta, and found out that he had been called before the judge. Since he didn’t want to be in doubt, he went on his own to see the Inquisitor, a Dominican friar. "I heard that I was wanted, and I’m here now," he said. During their conversation, he asked the Inquisitor to wrap things up quickly. He had planned to start his studies in the arts on the upcoming feast of St. Remigius, and he wanted to finish all other business so he could focus better on his studies. The Inquisitor confirmed that certain charges had indeed been made against him, but he let him go and didn’t call him back again.
Toward the first of October, the feast of St. Remigius, he began his course under the preceptor Master John Pegna, with the intention of fostering the vocations [Pg 122]of those who wished to serve God. He intended to add others in order the more freely to give his mind to his studies. He followed the lectures in philosophy, and experienced the same temptations with which he had been assailed when studying grammar at Barcelona. During the lectures he was troubled by so many spiritual thoughts that he could not listen attentively. Accordingly, as he saw he was making but little progress in his studies, he spoke to his preceptor and promised to attend the lectures, as long as he could find bread and water enough to keep him alive. After making this promise, all these untimely devotions ceased to disturb him, and he quietly pursued his studies. He was at this period a friend of Peter Faber and Francis Xavier, whom he afterward led to the service of God by giving them the Exercises. During the last years he was not persecuted as at first.[Pg 123] Speaking of this to him one day, Doctor Fragus remarked that he was surprised that no one molested him. Ignatius replied: "This is owing to the fact that I do not speak on religious topics. But when the course is completed, we shall act as formerly."
Toward the beginning of October, during the feast of St. Remigius, he started his studies under Master John Pegna, intending to support the vocations [Pg 122] of those who wanted to serve God. He planned to add more subjects so that he could focus more on his studies. He attended philosophy lectures and faced the same temptations that had troubled him while studying grammar in Barcelona. During the lectures, he was overwhelmed by so many spiritual thoughts that he couldn’t concentrate. Realizing he was making little progress, he talked to his teacher and promised to keep attending the lectures as long as he had enough bread and water to survive. After making this promise, all those distracting devotions stopped bothering him, and he quietly continued his studies. During this time, he became friends with Peter Faber and Francis Xavier, whom he later guided to serve God by introducing them to the Exercises. In his final years, he wasn’t persecuted as he had been at first.[Pg 123] One day, Dr. Fragus mentioned that he was surprised no one bothered him anymore. Ignatius replied, "That's because I don't discuss religious topics. But once the course is over, we'll act as we did before."
During the course of this conversation a monk approached Doctor Fragus and begged his aid in visiting a house, in which there were many corpses of those whom he thought died of the plague. At that time the plague was beginning to spread in Paris. Doctor Fragus and Ignatius wished to visit the house, and procured the aid of a woman who was very skilful in detecting the disease. After she had entered the house she answered that the plague was certainly there. Ignatius, also, entered and consoled and revived a sick man he found lying there. When he had touched the wounds with his hand,[Pg 124] Ignatius departed alone. His hand began to cause him great pain, and it seemed as if he had caught the disease. The fear that came upon him was so great that he was unable to vanquish and drive it away, until with a great effort he placed his fingers in his mouth, and for a long time kept them there, saying, "If you have the plague in your hand, you will also have it in your mouth." As soon as this was done, the illusion left him and the pain he had felt in his hand ceased.
During this conversation, a monk approached Doctor Fragus and asked for help in visiting a house where he believed there were many bodies of those who had died from the plague. At that time, the plague was starting to spread in Paris. Doctor Fragus and Ignatius wanted to check out the house, so they got help from a woman who was very skilled at identifying the illness. After she entered the house, she confirmed that the plague was definitely present. Ignatius also went in and comforted a sick man he found lying there. After he touched the wounds with his hand,[Pg 124] Ignatius left alone. His hand started to hurt badly, and it felt like he had caught the disease. The fear that overcame him was so intense that he couldn't shake it off until, with great effort, he put his fingers in his mouth and kept them there for a long time, saying, "If you have the plague in your hand, you will also have it in your mouth." As soon as he did this, the illusion vanished and the pain in his hand stopped.
He was not allowed to enter the College of St. Barbara where he was then living, for all fled from him when they learned that he had entered a house infected with the plague. He was obliged to remain several days outside of the college.
He wasn't allowed to enter the College of St. Barbara where he was living, because everyone avoided him when they found out he had been in a house with the plague. He had to stay outside the college for several days.
At Paris it is customary for those who follow the philosophical studies to receive in their third year the Petra, as it is called, in order to obtain the bachelor's degree.[Pg 125] Now those who are very poor are unable to comply with this custom, as it costs a gold crown. While Ignatius was in great hesitation, he submitted the matter to the judgment of his preceptor. The latter advised him to receive it. He did so, but not without a complaint on the part of some, especially of a certain Spaniard who had taken note of the fact.
In Paris, it's a tradition for students studying philosophy to receive what’s called the Petra in their third year to earn their bachelor's degree.[Pg 125] However, those who are very poor can't afford this, as it costs a gold crown. While Ignatius was in a dilemma, he asked his teacher for advice. His teacher encouraged him to go ahead and receive it. He did, but not without some complaints from others, particularly a certain Spaniard who had noticed the situation.
While in Paris he suffered great pains of the stomach for several days. On the twenty-fifth day, for the space of an hour, a very severe pain seized him, bringing with it a fever. One day the pains lasted for sixteen or seventeen hours. At that time he had already concluded his course, had spent some years in the study of theology, and had collected his companions.
While in Paris, he experienced severe stomach pains for several days. On the twenty-fifth day, he had a particularly intense pain that lasted for an hour and came with a fever. One day, the pain lasted for sixteen or seventeen hours. By that point, he had already completed his studies, spent several years studying theology, and had gathered his companions.
As the disease grew worse day by day, and the many remedies employed brought no relief, the doctors said that the only one left for him was to revisit his native [Pg 126]land, as nothing but his native air could cure him. His companions gave him the same advice. By this time all had determined on their future conduct, namely, to go first to Venice, and then to Jerusalem, where they would pass their whole life in helping souls. If, however, they should not be allowed to remain in Jerusalem, they were to return to Rome and offer themselves to the Sovereign Pontiff, Christ's Vicar, that he might use their aid as he thought would be for God's glory and the salvation of souls. They also agreed to wait one year at Venice for ships to carry them to the Holy Land; but if during the year no ship were at hand, they should be absolved from the vow, and go to the Sovereign Pontiff. Finally Ignatius yielded to the advice of his companions, in order to attend to their business in Spain. It was agreed among them, that after the recovery of [Pg 127]his health he should settle their affairs and they should go to Venice, and there await him.
As the illness worsened day by day, and the various treatments provided no relief, the doctors said that the only option left for him was to return to his home [Pg 126]land, as only the air there could heal him. His friends gave him the same advice. By this time, everyone had decided on their future plans: first to go to Venice, and then to Jerusalem, where they would spend their lives helping souls. However, if they weren’t allowed to stay in Jerusalem, they would return to Rome and offer themselves to the Pope, Christ's representative, so he could use their help as he felt would honor God and save souls. They also agreed to wait a year in Venice for ships to take them to the Holy Land; if no ship arrived within that year, they would be released from their vow and would go see the Pope. Finally, Ignatius agreed to his friends' advice to handle their business in Spain. It was decided that after [Pg 127]recovered his health, he should manage their affairs and they would wait for him in Venice.
He left Paris in the year 1535, but according to the agreement his companions were to leave two years afterward on the feast of the conversion of St. Paul. However, owing to the wars, they were obliged to anticipate that time, and to set out from Paris in the month of November in the year 1536. On the very eve of his departure, as Ignatius had heard that an accusation had been made against him before the Inquisitor, while no summons had as yet been served, he went to that official and stated what he had heard. At the same time he told him that he had several companions, and that he himself was about to travel to Spain, and requested that sentence should be passed upon him. The Inquisitor admitted that the accusation had been made, but that he [Pg 128]did not think it worthy of consideration. He said that he wished merely to see the writings of Ignatius, meaning the Exercises. Having seen these he approved of them very highly, and begged Ignatius to give him a copy. Ignatius complied with his request, but insisted that his trial be brought to an end, and that judgment be passed. As his request met with a refusal, he brought a notary and witnesses to the Inquisitor's house, and received their testimony in writing concerning his innocence of the charges.
He left Paris in 1535, but as per the agreement, his companions were supposed to leave two years later on the feast of the conversion of St. Paul. However, due to the wars, they had to leave earlier and departed from Paris in November 1536. Just before he was set to leave, Ignatius learned that an accusation had been made against him before the Inquisitor, although he hadn't received any summons yet. He went to see the Inquisitor and shared what he had heard. He also mentioned that he had several companions and that he was about to travel to Spain, requesting that a decision be made about him. The Inquisitor acknowledged that the accusation had been made but didn’t consider it important. He said he just wanted to see Ignatius's writings, specifically the Exercises. After reviewing them, he was very impressed and asked Ignatius for a copy. Ignatius agreed to provide it but insisted that his trial be completed and a judgment rendered. When his request was denied, he brought a notary and witnesses to the Inquisitor's house and obtained their written testimony regarding his innocence of the charges.
CHAPTER VIII
HIS ARRIVAL IN HIS NATIVE LAND AND THE VIRTUES PRACTISED THERE—HIS JOURNEY INTO SPAIN AND ITALY—THE FAMOUS APPARITION AND HIS LIFE IN THE SAME PLACE
HIS ARRIVAL IN HIS NATIVE LAND AND THE VIRTUES PRACTICED THERE—HIS JOURNEY INTO SPAIN AND ITALY—THE FAMOUS APPARITION AND HIS LIFE IN THE SAME PLACE
After the event related in the last chapter, Ignatius mounted the little horse which his companions had purchased for him, and began his journey toward his native land. Even on the way he found his health improving. As soon as he arrived in the province of Guipuscoa, his native country, abandoning the common highway he followed a road through the mountains because it was less frequented. He had advanced a short distance by this path when he saw two armed men approaching. The place was famous as the haunt of murderers. The [Pg 130]men passed him a little and then turning, hurried after him. He was not a little frightened, but still, addressing them, he learned that they were his brother's servants sent to meet him. For he had reason to believe that a warning of his coming was sent to his brother from Bayonne in France, where he had been recognized by several persons. Still Ignatius kept on in the direction he had taken, and shortly before he arrived in the town he met some priests coming to meet him. They wished to bring him to his brother's home; but their efforts were unavailing. He went to a public hospital, and afterward, at a suitable time, begged for alms through the town.
After the event described in the last chapter, Ignatius got on the little horse that his friends had bought for him and started his journey back to his homeland. Even during the trip, he felt his health getting better. As soon as he reached Guipuscoa, his homeland, he left the main road and took a less-traveled path through the mountains. After he had gone a short distance on this trail, he saw two armed men approaching. This area was notorious for being a hideout for murderers. The [Pg 130]men got a bit ahead of him before turning around and hastening after him. He was quite scared, but when he spoke to them, he found out they were his brother's servants sent to look for him. He believed his brother had been warned of his arrival from Bayonne in France, where several people had recognized him. Nonetheless, Ignatius continued on his chosen path, and just before he arrived in town, he encountered some priests who came to greet him. They wanted to take him to his brother's house, but their attempts were unsuccessful. He eventually went to a public hospital and later, at an appropriate time, asked for alms around town.
Many came to see him in the hospital. He spoke to them, and through God's grace gathered no little fruit. Upon his arrival, he resolved to teach the Christian doctrine to children every day. His [Pg 131]brother objected to this, and assured him that no one would come. In answer Ignatius said, "One is enough for me." However, as soon as he began to teach, many came regularly, his brother among the number. In addition to this, on Sundays and feast days, he also preached to the people with great fruit, and thousands came many miles to hear him. He labored also for the removal of many abuses, and through God's grace good results were obtained in many cases. To give an example: By his representations to the governor he obtained an order forbidding gambling and other disorders, under great penalties. He took means that the poor should be provided for publicly and regularly, and that thrice a day, morning, noon, and evening, according to the Roman custom, a signal should be given by ringing a bell for the recital of the Angelus by the people.
Many people came to see him in the hospital. He spoke to them, and through God's grace achieved significant results. Upon his arrival, he decided to teach the Christian doctrine to children every day. His [Pg 131]brother disagreed and insisted that no one would show up. In response, Ignatius said, "One is enough for me." However, once he began to teach, many came regularly, including his brother. Additionally, on Sundays and feast days, he also preached to the people with great success, and thousands traveled many miles to hear him. He also worked to eliminate many abuses, and through God's grace, positive outcomes were achieved in many cases. For example, by appealing to the governor, he secured an order that prohibited gambling and other disorders, with severe penalties. He also made provisions for the poor to be supported publicly and regularly, and arranged for a bell to be rung three times a day—morning, noon, and evening—according to Roman custom, signaling the people to recite the Angelus.
Although at first he enjoyed good health, he afterward fell seriously ill. For this reason, after his recovery, he determined to depart in order to accomplish the business which he had undertaken for his companions. He resolved to set out on foot and without money. His brother was grieved at this, and looked on it as a disgrace to himself. Ignatius concluded to yield this point, and at last, toward evening, he consented to be carried to the boundary of the province in company with his brother and relatives.
Although he was in good health at first, he later became seriously ill. Because of this, after he got better, he decided to leave to take care of the task he had promised his friends. He made up his mind to go by foot and without any money. His brother was upset about this and considered it a disgrace. Ignatius decided to give in on this issue, and finally, by the end of the day, he agreed to be taken to the edge of the province with his brother and family.
But as soon as he had left the province, he dismounted and without receiving any sustenance for the journey he set out for Pampeluna and thence to Almazonus, the birthplace of Father Laynez. Then he traveled on to Siguensa and to Toledo, and afterward from Toledo to Valencia. In all these cities, the birthplaces of his companions, he would receive nothing [Pg 133]from their parents and relations, although they offered him a great many things, and begged him to accept them. At Valencia he had a conversation with Castro. When ready to embark at Valencia to sail to Genoa, several of his well-wishers dissuaded him, because, as they asserted, the Barbary pirates were on the sea with many large ships. However, though they said a great deal to inspire fear, still he did not hesitate. Having gone aboard a vessel, a great storm arose during the voyage. This was mentioned before, where Ignatius describes the three occasions on which he was in danger of death. On this journey he suffered a great deal, as I shall now relate. One day after landing he wandered from his path and followed a road which ran along the bank of a river. The road was high, while far below was the river deep and sluggish. The farther he advanced, the narrower grew the road.[Pg 134] At last he came to a spot where he could neither go forward nor backward. He then began to advance on hands and feet and continued thus for a long time, full of fear. For as often as he moved it seemed to him that he would fall into the river. This was the greatest of all the bodily labors that he ever experienced. At last he escaped, but just as he was entering Bologna he fell from a little bridge and was so wet and dirty from the mud and water as to afford much laughter to a great crowd who observed the accident. From his entrance into Bologna until his departure he begged for alms, and though he went through the whole city, he did not receive so much as a farthing. As he was ill, he rested for a while at Bologna. Thence he directed his steps toward Venice, traveling always in the same way. At Venice he spent his time in giving the Exercises and in other [Pg 135]spiritual works. Those to whom he gave the Exercises were Peter Contarenus, Gaspar a Doctis, Rozes a Spaniard, and another Spaniard named Hozes, who, like the pilgrim, was a great friend of the bishop. Hozes at first would not make the Exercises, although he felt drawn to do so. At last he resolved to undertake the work, and on the third or fourth day he opened his mind to Ignatius. He said that he had feared that by the Exercises his mind might be imbued with false doctrines. Indeed, he had been persuaded by a man to be on his guard, and for this reason he had brought along with him a book to use in case he were imposed on. He made great progress in the Exercises, and finally embraced that manner of life which Ignatius had established. He was the first of the companions of the Saint to die.
But as soon as he left the province, he got off his horse and, without stopping for anything to eat for the journey, set out for Pampeluna and then to Almazonus, where Father Laynez was born. After that, he traveled to Siguensa and Toledo, and then from Toledo to Valencia. In each of these cities, the hometowns of his companions, he refused any help from their parents and relatives, even though they offered him many things and urged him to accept. In Valencia, he had a conversation with Castro. When he was about to leave Valencia to sail to Genoa, several of his supporters tried to convince him not to go, claiming that the Barbary pirates were out at sea with many large ships. However, despite their warnings, he didn’t hesitate. Once he boarded a ship, a terrible storm broke out during the journey. This was mentioned earlier when Ignatius talked about the three times he faced death. He suffered greatly on this journey, as I will now explain. One day after landing, he strayed from his path and followed a road that ran alongside a river. The road was high above, with the river deep and sluggish far below. As he moved forward, the road got narrower. Eventually, he found himself in a spot where he couldn’t go either forward or back. He then started crawling on his hands and knees and continued that way for a long time, filled with fear, because every time he moved, he felt like he would fall into the river. This was the hardest physical labor he ever experienced. Eventually, he escaped, but just as he was entering Bologna, he fell off a small bridge and got so wet and muddy that it made a large crowd laugh at his misfortune. From the moment he entered Bologna until he left, he begged for alms, and though he walked all over the city, he didn’t receive a single coin. He rested for a bit in Bologna since he was unwell. After that, he headed toward Venice, continuing in the same way. In Venice, he spent his time giving the Spiritual Exercises and doing other spiritual work. Those he worked with included Peter Contarenus, Gaspar a Doctis, Rozes, a Spaniard, and another Spaniard named Hozes, who, like the pilgrim, was a close friend of the bishop. At first, Hozes didn’t want to do the Exercises, despite feeling drawn to them. Eventually, he decided to participate, and on the third or fourth day, he opened up to Ignatius. He said he was worried that the Exercises might lead him to adopt false doctrines. Indeed, he had been advised by someone to be cautious, which is why he brought a book with him to refer to just in case. He made significant progress in the Exercises and ultimately embraced the way of life that Ignatius had established. He was the first of the Saint’s companions to die.
At Venice another persecution was [Pg 136]stirred up against Ignatius. Some asserted that he had been burned in effigy both in Spain and in Paris. The matter went so far that he was brought to trial, but obtained a favorable sentence. At the beginning of the year 1538 the nine companions came to Venice and were scattered about the city in various hospitals to minister to the sick. After two or three months all journeyed to Rome to receive the Pope's blessing before going to Jerusalem. Ignatius, however, did not go to Rome on account of Doctor Ortiz and the Theatine Cardinal recently raised to that dignity. The companions on their return brought the value of two or three hundred gold crowns which had been given to them as alms for their projected journey to Jerusalem. They would accept it only in the form of bills, and when they were unable to make the voyage to Jerusalem they returned it to those [Pg 137]who had made the gift. They returned to Venice in the same manner that they had set out for Rome. They traveled on foot and begging, divided into three parties, as they were of different nationalities. Those who were not priests were ordained at Venice, having received faculties from the Nuncio, who was then in that city and who was afterward called Cardinal Verallus. They were promoted to the priesthood sub titulo paupertatis, having made vows of poverty and chastity. That year no ships left for the East, on account of the breach of the treaty between the Venetians and Turks. When, therefore, they saw their hopes deferred, they dispersed into various parts of the Venetian territory, with the understanding that they should wait one year, as they had previously resolved; when that time had elapsed, they were to return to Rome if it was not possible to make the [Pg 138]voyage. Vicenza fell to the lot of Ignatius. His companions were Faber and Laynez. Outside of the city they found a house that had neither door nor windows. Here they lived, sleeping on a little straw which they had brought with them. Two of the three entered the city twice daily, in the morning and evening, to ask for alms. They returned with so little that it hardly sufficed for their nourishment. Their usual food was bread, when they could get it. The one who chanced to remain at home did the baking. In this way they spent forty days, intent upon nothing but prayer.
At Venice, another wave of persecution was [Pg 136] ignited against Ignatius. Some claimed that he had been burned in effigy in both Spain and Paris. The situation escalated to the point where he was put on trial, but he received a favorable verdict. At the start of 1538, the nine companions arrived in Venice and were spread across the city in various hospitals to care for the sick. After two or three months, they all traveled to Rome to seek the Pope's blessing before heading to Jerusalem. However, Ignatius did not go to Rome due to Doctor Ortiz and the recently appointed Theatine Cardinal. The companions, upon their return, brought back two or three hundred gold crowns given to them as donations for their intended journey to Jerusalem. They would only accept it in the form of bills, and when they were unable to make the journey, they returned the funds to those who had given the gifts. They returned to Venice just as they had set out for Rome—traveling on foot and begging, divided into three groups based on their nationalities. Those who were not priests were ordained in Venice, having received permission from the Nuncio, who was then in the city and later became known as Cardinal Verallus. They were ordained to the priesthood sub titulo paupertatis, having taken vows of poverty and chastity. That year, no ships sailed to the East due to a breakdown in the treaty between the Venetians and the Turks. Seeing their hopes dashed, they scattered across different parts of the Venetian territory, agreeing to wait a year as they had previously decided; if it was not possible to make the [Pg 138] journey after that time, they would return to Rome. Vicenza was assigned to Ignatius, along with his companions Faber and Laynez. Outside the city, they found a house without doors or windows. They lived there, sleeping on a little straw they had brought with them. Two of the three entered the city twice daily, in the morning and evening, to beg for alms. They returned with so little that it barely covered their needs. Their usual food was bread, when they could get it. The one who stayed behind took care of baking. In this way, they spent forty days focused solely on prayer.
After the forty days were over, Master John Codurus arrived, and the four determined to begin preaching. On the same day and at the same hour, in different squares, all began to preach, having first uttered a great cry, and having waved their hats with their hands to call the people.[Pg 139] These sermons caused great talk in the city, and led many citizens to a devout life. Now the needed nourishment was supplied to them more abundantly. While the pilgrim was at Vicenza, he had many spiritual visions. Consolations were sent to him in great number. This was especially so at Venice, while he was preparing for the priesthood and for celebrating Mass. On all his journeys, he received great supernatural visitations, like those which he had been wont to receive at Manresa.
After the forty days were up, Master John Codurus arrived, and the four decided to start preaching. On the same day and at the same hour, in different squares, they all began to preach, first letting out a loud cry and waving their hats to gather the crowd.[Pg 139] These sermons stirred up a lot of conversation in the city and encouraged many citizens to live a devout life. Now, the necessary nourishment was provided to them more abundantly. While the pilgrim was in Vicenza, he experienced many spiritual visions. He received numerous consolations, especially in Venice, while he was preparing for the priesthood and for celebrating Mass. Throughout all his travels, he had significant supernatural encounters, similar to those he used to have in Manresa.
While still at Venice he learned that one of his companions was sick unto death at Bassanum. He was himself ill with fever, still he undertook the journey, and walked so rapidly that Faber, his companion, was unable to keep up with him. On the way he received an assurance from God that his companion would not die of this illness. As soon as they arrived [Pg 140]at Bassanum, the sick man was very much consoled, and not long after grew better. After this, all returned to Vicenza, and there the ten tarried for a while, some going about the neighboring towns to beg for alms.
While still in Venice, he found out that one of his friends was gravely ill in Bassanum. Although he was suffering from a fever himself, he decided to make the journey and walked so quickly that Faber, his companion, struggled to keep up. Along the way, he received a sign from God that his friend wouldn’t die from this illness. As soon as they arrived [Pg 140] in Bassanum, the sick man felt much better, and shortly after, he recovered. After that, they all returned to Vicenza, where the ten stayed for a while, with some going to nearby towns to ask for donations.
In the year that passed, as no means could be had of journeying to Jerusalem, they set out on their way to Rome, divided into three or four parties. On the journey Ignatius experienced singular visitations from God. After his reception of the priesthood, he had resolved to put off the offering of his first Mass for one year, in order to prepare himself better, and to ask the Most Blessed Virgin to place him near her Son. One day, when he was a few miles from Rome, he entered a church to pray, and there felt his soul so moved and changed, and saw so clearly that God the Father placed him with Christ His Son, that he did not dare to doubt it.[Pg 141] When Ignatius was told that several other details were related by Laynez, he replied: "Whatever Laynez said about the matter is true. For my part, I do not remember the particulars; but," he added, "I know for certain that when I related what happened I told nothing but the truth." These were his words about the vision. He referred me to Laynez to verify what he narrated.
In the year that passed, since there was no way to travel to Jerusalem, they set out for Rome, splitting into three or four groups. During the journey, Ignatius had remarkable experiences with God. After becoming a priest, he decided to postpone his first Mass for a year to prepare himself better and to ask the Most Blessed Virgin to bring him closer to her Son. One day, a few miles from Rome, he entered a church to pray, where he felt his soul deeply moved and transformed. He clearly saw that God the Father placed him with Christ His Son, and he didn’t dare to doubt it.[Pg 141] When Ignatius was told that Laynez mentioned several other details, he replied, "Whatever Laynez said about it is true. I don’t remember the specifics, but," he added, "I know for sure that when I shared what happened, I spoke nothing but the truth." These were his words regarding the vision. He referred me to Laynez to confirm what he described.
Once Ignatius left Rome for Monte Cassino, to give the Exercises to Doctor Ortiz, and spent forty days there. One day, at a certain hour, in a vision, he saw Hozes entering heaven. In this vision he shed abundant tears of consolation. He saw this so clearly that if he were to say the contrary, it would seem to him as if he were telling a lie. He brought with him from Monte Cassino Francis Strada. After his return to Rome, he labored for the help of souls, and gave [Pg 142]the Exercises to two different persons, one of whom dwelt near the Sixtine Bridge, the other near the Church of St. Mary Major. Soon the people began to persecute Ignatius and his companions. Michael was the first of all to be troublesome and to speak wickedly of Ignatius, and had him summoned before the governor for trial. Ignatius showed the governor a letter written by the same Michael, in which he commended Ignatius very highly. The governor examined Michael, and the result was that he was exiled from Rome. After him followed Mindarra and Berrera, who said that Ignatius and his companions were fugitives from Spain, Paris, and Venice. Finally, however, in the presence of the governor and ambassador then at Rome, both acknowledged that they had nothing which they could say against them with regard to their doctrines or their [Pg 143]lives. The ambassador ordered this lawsuit to be abandoned. Ignatius objected, saying that he wished the sentence to be made clear and public. This did not please the ambassador and the governor, nor even those who had previously taken sides with Ignatius. A few months afterward the Roman Pontiff returned. While he was at Tusculum Ignatius was admitted to an audience with the Holy Father, and having given some of his reasons, he obtained what he wished. The Pope ordered sentence to be passed, and it was given in favor of Ignatius and his companions.
Once Ignatius left Rome for Monte Cassino to give the Exercises to Doctor Ortiz, he spent forty days there. One day, at a certain hour, he had a vision where he saw Hozes entering heaven. In this vision, he cried tears of comfort. He saw this so clearly that if he were to say otherwise, it would feel like he was lying. He brought back Francis Strada from Monte Cassino. After returning to Rome, he worked to help souls and gave the Exercises to two different people, one living near the Sixtine Bridge and the other near the Church of St. Mary Major. Soon, people began to persecute Ignatius and his companions. Michael was the first to be bothersome and spoke badly of Ignatius, getting him summoned before the governor for trial. Ignatius showed the governor a letter written by Michael, in which he praised Ignatius highly. The governor questioned Michael, leading to his exile from Rome. Following him were Mindarra and Berrera, who claimed that Ignatius and his companions were fugitives from Spain, Paris, and Venice. Eventually, in front of the governor and ambassador present in Rome, they acknowledged that they had nothing to accuse them of regarding their teachings or their lives. The ambassador ordered the case to be dropped. Ignatius objected, stating that he wanted the ruling to be clear and public. This didn't sit well with the ambassador or the governor, nor with those who had previously supported Ignatius. A few months later, when the Roman Pontiff returned, Ignatius was granted an audience with the Holy Father while he was in Tusculum. After presenting some of his reasons, he got what he wanted. The Pope ordered a ruling to be issued, and it was in favor of Ignatius and his companions.
Through the labors of Ignatius and his companions, certain pious works were established at Rome, as that of Catechumens, that of St. Martha, and that of the Orphans. Master Natalis can tell the rest.
Through the efforts of Ignatius and his companions, some religious programs were set up in Rome, like the one for Catechumens, the one for St. Martha, and the one for Orphans. Master Natalis can fill in the details.
APPENDIX
ST. IGNATIUS AND HIS WORK FOR EDUCATION
In the kingdom of Navarre, in the north of Spain, among those mountains whence the armorers of Toledo drew their metal and forged for the world their trenchant steel, in a region where the generous, passionate, valiant people seemed to have formed their character on the austere grandeur of nature itself, St. Ignatius was born.
In the kingdom of Navarre, in northern Spain, among the mountains where the armorers of Toledo sourced their metal and crafted their sharp steel for the world, in a place where the generous, passionate, and brave people appeared to have shaped their character based on the majestic beauty of nature, St. Ignatius was born.
The world represents him as a man of few and stern words, in appearance severe and dark, and yet a man in whom intellect is ever prominent, but intellect elevated by the grandeur of a soul of chivalry and by an exquisite delicacy of charity—this was the real character [Pg 146]of St. Ignatius. This will be seen in the brief glimpse given of his life and his spirit of charity, his absorbing love for souls, in his work of founding missions, his greatness of mind and heart, in the work originated by him, and carried on by his followers, in the cause of higher education.
The world describes him as a man of few, serious words, looking strict and dark, but he's also a person whose intellect always stands out, elevated by the nobility of a chivalrous soul and a refined sense of charity—this was the true character [Pg 146] of St. Ignatius. This will be evident in the brief overview of his life and his spirit of charity, his deep love for souls, his mission founding efforts, his broad-mindedness and kindness, and the work he started that continues through his followers in the pursuit of higher education.
His character stands prominently on the horizon of history. He cannot be ignored, nor is his existence or his work ignored.
His character stands out clearly in the record of history. He can't be overlooked, and neither his existence nor his contributions can be overlooked.
His enemies have not passed him by without notice, and his friends, the friends of God, have rejoiced that, as God sent him forth to teach and produce fruit that the fruit might remain, the fruit has remained.
His enemies have definitely taken notice of him, and his friends, the friends of God, have celebrated that, as God sent him out to teach and bear fruit that would last, the fruit has indeed lasted.
St. Ignatius sends his voice down the centuries as a great individuality. He has spoken as a man of God, as a man of ideas, a man of energy. He has made his influence felt throughout the universe, [Pg 147]not only in the civilized world, but in the uncivilized portion, to bring it into civilization, or to bear to it the advantages of civilization.
St. Ignatius's voice resonates through the centuries as a remarkable individual. He has spoken as a man of God, a thinker, and a person full of energy. His influence has been felt across the globe, [Pg 147] not just in the civilized parts, but also in the uncivilized areas, striving to bring them into civilization or share the benefits of civilization with them.
Other great men have spoken and have sent forth their influence. Theirs has been a message to the civilized world; it has been limited to one point of view. It has been prowess on the battlefield or on the seas, work in the ship of state or in the fields of science. But Ignatius has not been limited to any one of these. He is the founder of a Religious Order that has sent pioneers into all these fields and forests of valor or research; he is the writer of the Spiritual Exercises that have won a fame gained by but few authors; he is the father of many saints; he is the educator of generations; he is the inspirer of scientific, literary, theological, philosophical investigation, and the promoter of discoverers and of pioneer missionaries in the Old and the New World.
Other great individuals have spoken and have made their mark. Their message has reached the civilized world; it has focused on one perspective. It's been about achievements on the battlefield or at sea, governance in politics, or advancements in science. But Ignatius hasn't been restricted to any single area. He founded a Religious Order that has sent pioneers into all these realms of courage and inquiry; he authored the Spiritual Exercises, which have achieved recognition that few writers have attained; he is the father of many saints; he has educated generations; he inspires scientific, literary, theological, and philosophical exploration, and he promotes innovators and pioneering missionaries in both the Old and New Worlds.
Ignatius was born, in 1491, at the château of Loyola, and at fifteen years of age he was a page in the court of King Ferdinand, and then a soldier under the Duke of Navarre, his relative. The army of Francis I penetrated into Navarre, and, at the siege of Pampeluna, Ignatius, Captain of Infantry, was wounded by a cannon ball. His life is given in the preceding pages.
Ignatius was born in 1491 at the château of Loyola. At fifteen, he served as a page in the court of King Ferdinand and later became a soldier under his relative, the Duke of Navarre. When Francis I's army invaded Navarre, Ignatius, who was Captain of Infantry, was wounded by a cannonball during the siege of Pampeluna. His life is detailed in the previous pages.
I shall refer only briefly to it, and to his conversion. He was a young knight fond of gayety and feats of arms, and for some time after he received the wound he was confined to his bed while his broken leg was set; and while awaiting his slow recovery he read the lives of the saints and of Christ, as these were the books given to him in place of the novels he had asked for, as no others were in the house.
I will only mention it briefly, along with his conversion. He was a young knight who loved revelry and accomplishments in battle. After he was injured, he was stuck in bed for a while while his broken leg healed. During his slow recovery, he read the lives of the saints and Christ, as those were the books given to him instead of the novels he had requested, since there were no other books in the house.
In reading the lives of the saints his heart was touched. His eyes were opened to the vanity of life and the reality of [Pg 149]eternity compared with the worldliness of the life he had been leading. Inspired with enthusiasm at the lives of the saints, he said, "What they have done, I can do." The event of his life proved the earnestness of his purpose.
In reading about the lives of the saints, he felt moved. He realized the emptiness of life and the truth of [Pg 149]eternity compared to the worldly life he had been living. Filled with inspiration from the saints' lives, he declared, "What they achieved, I can achieve." The events of his life demonstrated how serious he was about his intentions.
He resolved to undertake a life of penance and self-denial, and, while occupied with these holy resolutions, he wrote in a book the principal events of the life of Christ and His glorious Mother. It was at this time that Our Lord sent him a vision to strengthen and console him. He beheld one night, as he was holding his vigils, the glorious Queen of the angels, who appeared to him holding in her arms her Blessed Son, enlightening him with the splendor of glory and charming him by her sweet presence.
He decided to live a life of penance and self-denial, and while focused on these sacred commitments, he wrote down the key events from the lives of Christ and His glorious Mother in a book. During this time, Our Lord sent him a vision to strengthen and comfort him. One night, as he was keeping watch, he saw the glorious Queen of angels appearing before him, holding her Blessed Son in her arms, illuminating him with radiant glory and enchanting him with her sweet presence.
To her he ascribes the inspiration of the Spiritual Exercises, and his Order, imitating its founder, has shown the most [Pg 150]unbounded affection and devoted filial love toward the Virgin Mother of Christ.
To her, he credits the inspiration for the Spiritual Exercises, and his Order, following its founder's example, has demonstrated the most [Pg 150]unlimited affection and devoted love for the Virgin Mother of Christ.
At Alcala St. Ignatius studied, and there won for the Society of Jesus, Laynez, Salmeron, and Babadilla. He afterward founded there a college where Vasquez, Suarez, and St. Francis Borgia expounded the Holy Scriptures. St. Ignatius sent Father de Torres to Salamanca to found the famous college where the illustrious professors, Cardinal de Lugo, Francis Suarez, Maldonatus, Gregory of Valencia, Francis Ribera, and many other illustrious men were professors.
At Alcala, St. Ignatius studied and recruited Laynez, Salmeron, and Babadilla for the Society of Jesus. He later established a college there where Vasquez, Suarez, and St. Francis Borgia taught the Holy Scriptures. St. Ignatius sent Father de Torres to Salamanca to set up the renowned college where notable professors like Cardinal de Lugo, Francis Suarez, Maldonatus, Gregory of Valencia, Francis Ribera, and many other distinguished individuals taught.
At the University of Paris, in 1534, on the 14th of March, St. Ignatius received the degree of Master of Arts and Doctor of Philosophy, having received the degree of Bachelor of Arts two years before. The University of Paris had the honor of having as pupils St. Ignatius, St. Francis[Pg 151] Xavier, Peter Faber, Claude le Jay, Simon Rodriguez, John Codura, Paschasius, Brouet, Martin Olave, all honored with the academic degree.
At the University of Paris, on March 14, 1534, St. Ignatius earned his Master of Arts and Doctor of Philosophy degrees, having previously received his Bachelor of Arts two years earlier. The University of Paris was proud to have had as students St. Ignatius, St. Francis[Pg 151] Xavier, Peter Faber, Claude le Jay, Simon Rodriguez, John Codura, Paschasius, Brouet, and Martin Olave, all of whom were distinguished with academic degrees.
Among the earlier colleges founded by St. Ignatius were the following:—
Among the first colleges established by St. Ignatius were the following:—
In 1542 the College of Coimbra, in Portugal, arose. In 1546 St. Francis Borgia founded the College of Gandia. In 1556 the College of Ingolstadt was founded. In 1552 a college was founded at Vienna, and in 1556 one at Prague. In 1553 the Roman College was fully founded. And in 1568 the colleges at Lima, Peru.
In 1542, the College of Coimbra was established in Portugal. In 1546, St. Francis Borgia founded the College of Gandia. In 1556, the College of Ingolstadt was created. In 1552, a college was established in Vienna, and in 1556, one was established in Prague. The Roman College was fully established in 1553. Finally, in 1568, colleges were founded in Lima, Peru.
The German College founded in Rome by St. Ignatius produced many remarkable men.
The German College, established in Rome by St. Ignatius, has produced many exceptional individuals.
From it came 1 pope, Gregory XV, 24 cardinals, 6 electors of the Empire, 19 princes, 21 archbishops, 121 titular bishops, 100 bishops in partibus infidelium,[Pg 152] 6 abbots or generals of religious orders, 11 martyrs of faith, 13 martyrs of charity, and 55 others, conspicuous for piety and learning.
From it came 1 pope, Gregory XV, 24 cardinals, 6 electors of the Empire, 19 princes, 21 archbishops, 121 titular bishops, 100 bishops in partibus infidelium,[Pg 152] 6 abbots or leaders of religious orders, 11 martyrs of faith, 13 martyrs of charity, and 55 others, notable for their piety and knowledge.
This was at the end of the eighteenth century. In our own time in one classroom Father Cardella counted seventeen different orders of all different nationalities present at the lectures of theology in the Roman College.
This was at the end of the eighteenth century. In our own time, in one classroom, Father Cardella counted seventeen different orders from various nationalities present at the theology lectures in the Roman College.
The Roman College was the type of the Jesuit College. It was begun by Francis Borgia, in 1551, at the foot of the Capitol in Rome, with fourteen members of the Order and Father John Peltier, a Frenchman, as Superior.
The Roman College was the model for Jesuit Colleges. It was established by Francis Borgia in 1551 at the base of the Capitol in Rome, with fourteen members of the Order and Father John Peltier, a Frenchman, as the Superior.
The professors taught rhetoric and three languages,—Hebrew, Greek, and Latin. There were present there at a given time 2107 students, 300 in theology. The most eminent professors filled the chairs: theologians like Suarez [Pg 153]and Vasquez; commentators such as Cornelius à Lapide and Maldonatus; founders of national history schools, as Mariana and Pallavicini; Clavius, reformer of the Gregorian Calendar; Kircher, universal in the exact sciences, while the other colleges throughout the world remained provided with their own required forces and maintained their own prestige.
The professors taught rhetoric and three languages: Hebrew, Greek, and Latin. At one point, there were 2,107 students there, with 300 studying theology. The most distinguished professors held the chairs: theologians like Suarez [Pg 153] and Vasquez; commentators such as Cornelius à Lapide and Maldonatus; founders of national history schools like Mariana and Pallavicini; Clavius, who reformed the Gregorian Calendar; and Kircher, a master of the exact sciences, while other colleges around the world had their own required staff and maintained their own prestige.
From this college came forth distinguished men in every line of intellectual life, and general eminence, men of elevated thought and of noble and generous minds. In particular three characters came—young men that were to fill with admiration of their greatness the succeeding century.
From this college emerged outstanding individuals in every area of intellectual life and general prominence, men of high thinking and noble, generous minds. In particular, three young men stood out—individuals who were destined to inspire admiration for their greatness in the following century.
Stanislaus Kostka, a Polish noble who died at seventeen years of age; Aloysius Gonzaga, an Italian prince of twenty-three; and John Berchmans, a Flemish townsman of twenty-two.
Stanislaus Kostka, a Polish noble who died at the age of seventeen; Aloysius Gonzaga, an Italian prince who was twenty-three; and John Berchmans, a Flemish townsman who was twenty-two.
Among some of the famous men educated by the Jesuits we find Bossuet, Corneille, Molière, Tasso, Fontenelle, Diderot, Voltaire, and Bourdaloue, himself a Jesuit.
Among some of the famous men educated by the Jesuits are Bossuet, Corneille, Molière, Tasso, Fontenelle, Diderot, Voltaire, and Bourdaloue, who was also a Jesuit.
When Père Porée replied to the remark that he was not one of the great poets, he said, "At least you may grant that I have been able to make some of them." A few others were Descartes, Buffon, Justus Lipsius, Muratori the historian, Calderon, and Vico, the author of "Ideas of History," Richelieu, Tilly, Malesherbes, Don John of Austria, Luxembourg, Esterhazy, Choiseul, St. Francis de Sales, Lambertini, afterward Benedict XIV, the most learned of the popes, and the present Pontiff, Pope Leo XIII, renowned for his learning and wisdom.
When Père Porée responded to the comment that he wasn’t one of the great poets, he said, "At least you can admit that I’ve been able to make some of them." A few others included Descartes, Buffon, Justus Lipsius, the historian Muratori, Calderon, and Vico, the author of "Ideas of History," along with Richelieu, Tilly, Malesherbes, Don John of Austria, Luxembourg, Esterhazy, Choiseul, St. Francis de Sales, Lambertini, later known as Benedict XIV, the most educated of the popes, and the current Pontiff, Pope Leo XIII, famous for his knowledge and wisdom.
Nearly all the Jesuit writers had been Jesuit professors, with almost no exception, and nearly all had taught humanities, [Pg 155]belles-lettres, and rhetoric. Father Southwell in 1676 numbers 2240 authors, and Father de Backer in 1876 counts 11,100.
Nearly all the Jesuit writers were Jesuit professors, with hardly any exceptions, and almost all taught humanities, [Pg 155]
AUTHORS
We find some remarkable authors among the Jesuit writers. Foremost come the Bollandists, renowned throughout the world for their monumental work, the "Acta Sanctorum." Similar gigantic works were carried on by Fathers de Backer, Sommervogel, and Pachtler. In the various branches of learning we need mention a few of the greater writers.
We discover some impressive authors among the Jesuit writers. First and foremost are the Bollandists, famous worldwide for their monumental work, the "Acta Sanctorum." Similar massive projects were undertaken by Fathers de Backer, Sommervogel, and Pachtler. In the different fields of study, we should highlight a few of the more notable writers.
In astronomy, we find Ricci, Perry, De Vico, Secchi, Curley, Sestini.
In astronomy, we have Ricci, Perry, De Vico, Secchi, Curley, Sestini.
In mathematics, Hagen, Algué.
In math, Hagen, Algué.
In naval tactics, "The Jesuit's Book."
In naval tactics, "The Jesuit's Book."
In archæology, Garucci, Marchi, the master of De Rossi.
In archaeology, Garucci, Marchi, the master of De Rossi.
In Oriental languages, Strassmaier, Harvas, Maas, Van den Gheyn.
In Eastern languages, Strassmaier, Harvas, Maas, Van den Gheyn.
In theology, Suarez, Vasquez, Toletus, Maldonatus, Franzelin.
In theology, Suarez, Vasquez, Toletus, Maldonatus, Franzelin.
In philosophy, Cominbricenses, Liberatore.
In philosophy, Cominbricenses, Liberatore.
In moral philosophy, Busenbaum, Gury, Toledo, Ballerini, Layman, Lehmkuhl, Genicot.
In moral philosophy, Busenbaum, Gury, Toledo, Ballerini, Layman, Lehmkuhl, Genicot.
In asceticism, Alvarez de Paz, Gaudier, Rodriguez, Scaramelli, Grou.
In asceticism, Alvarez de Paz, Gaudier, Rodriguez, Scaramelli, Grou.
The Spiritual Exercises comprise a whole library. Father Watragan has written a work merely to record the editions and commentaries on these Exercises.
The Spiritual Exercises make up an entire library. Father Watragan has written a book just to document the editions and commentaries on these Exercises.
THE EDUCATIONAL PLAN OF ST. IGNATIUS
St. Ignatius had gathered about him a body of picked men. The Roman College, the type of colleges of Jesuit education, would have for its professors only those who had been doctors of the University of Paris.
St. Ignatius had assembled a group of chosen people around him. The Roman College, which is representative of Jesuit educational institutions, would have as its professors only those who had earned their doctorate from the University of Paris.
The outline of the course of education was given by St. Ignatius. It was completed and developed by Aquaviva. The work was still more perfected by Father Laynez, of whom it is said,—
The outline of the education course was provided by St. Ignatius. It was completed and expanded by Aquaviva. The work was further refined by Father Laynez, of whom it is said,—
"St. Ignatius praised him not only on account of other great merits, but particularly for devising and arranging the system of colleges."
"St. Ignatius admired him not just for his other significant accomplishments, but especially for creating and organizing the college system."
As to the number of students found under a unified method of thorough teaching, it will be interesting to take them in review.
As for the number of students who experienced a consistent approach to comprehensive teaching, it will be interesting to look back on them.
In Rome in 1584, the twenty colleges attending classes in the Roman College numbered 2108 students, in Poland there were 10,000 young men chiefly of the nobility, at Rome 2000, at La Flèche 1700. In the seventeenth century at the College of Louis le Grand, in Paris, the number varied between 2000 and 3000. In 1627 the Province of Paris had in fourteen colleges 13,195 students.
In Rome in 1584, the twenty colleges at the Roman College had 2,108 students, while in Poland there were 10,000 young men, mostly from the nobility. Rome had 2,000 students, and La Flèche had 1,700. In the seventeenth century, the College of Louis le Grand in Paris had a student count that fluctuated between 2,000 and 3,000. In 1627, the Province of Paris had 13,195 students spread across fourteen colleges.
The papal seminaries under Gregory XIII, at Vienna, Dillengen, Fulda, Prague, Grätz, Olmütz, Wilna, as well as in Japan, were directed by the Fathers, as also that of Pius V and of St. Charles Borromeo at Milan.
The papal seminaries under Gregory XIII, in Vienna, Dillengen, Fulda, Prague, Grätz, Olmütz, Wilna, and also in Japan, were led by the Fathers, just like those of Pius V and St. Charles Borromeo in Milan.
Taking an average, there were more than two hundred thousand students being educated in these educational institutions.
Taking an average, there were over two hundred thousand students being educated in these institutions.
A comparison could be made on this basis of the work done by the Order and that which is accomplished by Oxford.
A comparison could be made based on the work done by the Order and what is accomplished by Oxford.
If Oxford spends annually a revenue of $2,500,000 to supply facilities for higher education to two thousand of the nobility and gentry, how much would be required to educate a quarter of a million students,—not two thousand, but two hundred and fifty thousand?
If Oxford spends $2,500,000 each year to provide facilities for higher education to two thousand noble and wealthy individuals, how much would it take to educate a quarter of a million students—not two thousand, but two hundred and fifty thousand?
The fundamental principles in the educational institute of St. Ignatius were these:—
The basic principles at the St. Ignatius educational institute were these:—
First, solidity and thoroughness.
First, reliability and thoroughness.
The first condition of all higher studies as well as of lower studies was such that, as St. Ignatius said, "It was useless to begin at the top, as the edifice without a good foundation would never stand."
The first requirement for all advanced studies, as well as for basic studies, was that, as St. Ignatius said, "It was pointless to start at the top, because a building without a solid foundation would never stand."
Let literature and philosophy be gone through with satisfactorily, and then theology may be approached.
Let literature and philosophy be thoroughly explored, and then theology can be tackled.
Literature must come first of all. St. Ignatius provides for law and medicine, but by professors of law and medicine outside of the Order; but no professors of the Order were sent for work outside of Jesuit institutions. If the younger men were sent abroad, the younger generation would be deprived of that type; and if eminent men were sent forth without a permanent Jesuit College, the work would not be that of the Order, but of scattered individuals, and would soon perish.
Literature must come first. St. Ignatius allows for law and medicine, but through professors of law and medicine who are not part of the Order; however, no professors from the Order were sent to work outside of Jesuit institutions. If younger members were sent abroad, the younger generation would miss out on that education; and if distinguished members were sent out without a permanent Jesuit College, their efforts wouldn't reflect the Order's mission, but rather that of isolated individuals, which would quickly fade away.
In the cause of education St. Ignatius had placed in his charter the watchwords "Defence and Advance." As a leader of [Pg 160]a military type he had gathered about him the flower of youth and of mature age, from college and university, from doctor's chair and prince's throne, and in fifteen years from the foundation of the Order left one hundred colleges and houses in Portugal, Spain, Italy, Sicily, Germany, France, Brazil, and the East Indies. Xavier traveled from India and Ceylon, in the west, to Malucca, Japan, and the coast of China on the east. Wherever the energy and activity of Apostolic zeal penetrated it was with the purpose, and usually the result, of permanent Apostolic work in the foundation of educational institutions. Father de Backer says,—
In the realm of education, St. Ignatius included the guiding principles "Defense and Advance" in his charter. As a military-style leader, he surrounded himself with the brightest youth and accomplished individuals from colleges and universities, from medical professionals to royalty. In just fifteen years after founding the Order, he established one hundred colleges and houses across Portugal, Spain, Italy, Sicily, Germany, France, Brazil, and the East Indies. Xavier journeyed from India and Ceylon in the west to Malacca, Japan, and the coast of China in the east. Wherever the drive and passion of Apostolic zeal reached, it aimed, and often succeeded, in creating lasting Apostolic efforts through the establishment of educational institutions. Father de Backer says,—
"Wherever a Jesuit set his foot, wherever there was founded a house, a college, a mission, there too came apostles of another class, who labored, who taught, who wrote."
"Wherever a Jesuit stepped, wherever a house, a college, or a mission was established, there also arrived apostles of a different kind, who worked, who taught, who wrote."
This is true even to our day where in the Rocky Mountains, beside the mission [Pg 161]house of Spokane Falls, rises the Jesuit College of Spokane.
This is still true today, where in the Rocky Mountains, next to the mission [Pg 161]house of Spokane Falls, stands the Jesuit College of Spokane.
Sixty years later than the time of St. Ignatius there were 272 colleges, and in 150 years the collegiate and university houses of education numbered 769.
Sixty years after St. Ignatius, there were 272 colleges, and in 150 years, the number of collegiate and university educational institutions reached 769.
"Looking at these seven hundred institutions of secondary and superior education," says Father Thomas Hughes in his work on Loyola, "in their scope of legislative executive power we find they were not so much a plurality of institutions as a single one.
"Looking at these seven hundred secondary and higher education institutions," says Father Thomas Hughes in his work on Loyola, "in terms of their legislative and executive authority, we see that they were not so much a collection of institutions as a single entity."
"If we look at the 92 colleges in France, although the University of Paris was in one quarter of the city, and in that sense materially one,—although including 50 colleges,—yet in the formal and essential bond these 92 Jesuit colleges were vastly more of a unit as an identical educational power than any faculty existing. No faculty at Paris, Rome, Salamanca, or Oxford ever preserved the control over [Pg 162]its 50, 20, or 8 colleges that each Provincial exercised over his 10, 20, or 30 colleges, or the general of the Order over the 700 colleges, with 22,126 members in the Order."
"If we consider the 92 colleges in France, even though the University of Paris was located in just one quarter of the city and consisted of 50 colleges, these 92 Jesuit colleges were much more unified as a single educational force than any faculty. No faculty at Paris, Rome, Salamanca, or Oxford ever maintained the level of control over [Pg 162] its 50, 20, or 8 colleges that each Provincial had over their 10, 20, or 30 colleges, or that the general of the Order had over the 700 colleges with 22,126 members in the Order."
At the present day we find the Jesuit colleges in almost every part of the known world. In Rome and in China, in South Africa and North America, in the Philippine Islands as well as in Ceylon and Egypt, in Australia and Cuba, as well as in Syria and the city of New York.
At present, we see Jesuit colleges in nearly every corner of the world. In Rome and China, in South Africa and North America, in the Philippines as well as in Sri Lanka and Egypt, in Australia and Cuba, and also in Syria and New York City.
We may glance briefly at the colleges scattered over the world, containing to-day 52,692 Jesuit pupils.
We can take a quick look at the colleges around the world, which today have 52,692 Jesuit students.
This is a larger number than those taught at Oxford and Cambridge and Glasgow and Harvard or Yale or Princeton or in Paris and Edinburgh.
This is a bigger number than those taught at Oxford, Cambridge, Glasgow, Harvard, Yale, Princeton, or in Paris and Edinburgh.
In the Jesuit College at Rome there are 2082 students.
In the Jesuit College in Rome, there are 2,082 students.
In Brazil, | 757 |
Naples, | 960 |
Denver, | 100 |
Sicily, | 376[Pg 163] |
Turin, | 516 |
California, | 850 |
Rocky Mountains, | 72 |
Venice, | 520 |
Mangalore (India), | 483 |
Austria, | 1746 |
Egypt, | 500 |
Toulouse, | 1581 |
Madura, | 1800 |
Aragon, | 1414 |
Manila, | |
Philippine Islands, | |
Municipal Atheneum, | 1123 |
Normal School, | 680 |
Chili and Paraguay, | 4913 |
Castile, | 2073 |
Cuba, Havana, and Cienfuegos, | 397 |
Colombia, | 766 |
Portugal, | 560 |
Belgium, | 6658 |
Bengal, | 983 |
Ceylon, | 35 |
Galicia, | 474 |
Germany, | 3443 |
Holland, | 613 |
France, | 3384 |
China, | 122 |
Lyons, | 2191 |
Syria, | 608 |
Mexico, | 684 |
Toledo, | 782 |
Ecuador and Peru, | 820 |
England, | 1454 |
Zambesi, | 64 |
Ireland, | 883 |
Australia, | 447 |
New York and Maryland, | 2815 |
Jamaica, West Indies, | 60 |
Missouri, | 2061 |
B. Honduras, | 2122 |
Canada, | 511 |
New Orleans, | 504 |
Thus the total number of students—studying with professors of the Society of Jesus under one university system in all parts of the known world—is 52,692.
Thus the total number of students—learning from professors of the Society of Jesus under one university system all over the world—is 52,692.
There has been no going back. Fifty years ago, when the groundwork of rebuilding the 700 institutions that had been destroyed by the suppression had to be commenced all over again, there were but 15,000, to-day there are 52,692.
There’s no turning back. Fifty years ago, when we had to start over to rebuild the 700 institutions that were destroyed by the suppression, there were only 15,000; today, there are 52,692.
St. Ignatius was born in 1491. The first College of Coimbra was founded in 1542. From 1542 to 1773 is a period of 231 years. The suppression lasted from 1773 to 1814 (41 years). The new work continued from 1814 to 1899, a period of 85 years.
St. Ignatius was born in 1491. The first College of Coimbra was founded in 1542. From 1542 to 1773, that’s a period of 231 years. The suppression lasted from 1773 to 1814 (41 years). The new work continued from 1814 to 1899, which is a period of 85 years.
Among the colleges founded in the chief cities of the world are Loyola College, at Loyola in Spain; St. Omer's College, in Belgium, the link between Europe and America; Stonyhurst College, in England; Clongoes Wood, Ireland; Mangalore, in[Pg 165] India, the only first-grade college in the district; Melbourne, Australia; St. Ignatius College, California, the pioneer of Pacific coast missions and of the Rocky Mountains; at Kansas City the only boarding college in the far West; St. Ignatius, at Cleveland, Ohio, one of the latest Western colleges; Spring Hill College, at Mobile, Alabama; Georgetown College, at Washington, D.C.; Holy Cross College, at Worcester, Massachusetts; St. John's College, at Fordham, New York; St. Francis Xavier's College, in New York City.
Among the colleges established in major cities around the world are Loyola College in Loyola, Spain; St. Omer's College in Belgium, serving as a connection between Europe and America; Stonyhurst College in England; Clongoes Wood in Ireland; Mangalore in [Pg 165] India, the only top-tier college in the area; Melbourne in Australia; St. Ignatius College in California, the first to serve Pacific coast missions and the Rocky Mountains; the only boarding college in the far West located in Kansas City; St. Ignatius in Cleveland, Ohio, one of the newest Western colleges; Spring Hill College in Mobile, Alabama; Georgetown College in Washington, D.C.; Holy Cross College in Worcester, Massachusetts; St. John's College in Fordham, New York; and St. Francis Xavier's College in New York City.
In the proportion mentioned above, in the same period (that is, a period of 231 years), there will be in the Jesuit colleges 263,690 pupils.
In the same proportion mentioned above, over the same period (that is, a period of 231 years), there will be 263,690 students in the Jesuit colleges.
St. Ignatius died July 31, 1556. He was sixty-five years of age. At the age of thirty he hung up his sword at Montserrat, and, with ready mind and heart and pen, in thirty-five years he achieved the gigantic work of the founding and [Pg 166]developing the Order. The educational work was projected and advanced in a brief period of fifteen years, from 1542 to 1556.
St. Ignatius died on July 31, 1556, at the age of sixty-five. At thirty, he laid down his sword at Montserrat, and with a focused mind, heart, and pen, he accomplished the enormous task of founding and [Pg 166]developing the Order in thirty-five years. The educational initiatives were planned and progressed in a short span of fifteen years, from 1542 to 1556.
He was a man of prudence and deliberation, and of unswerving decision.
He was a careful and thoughtful man, and his decisions were steady and resolute.
Vigilant and patient, whenever he appeared account had to be taken of the man; and so with his Order, whenever it appears it is to be recognized either by foes to oppose it or friends to love it and forward its work. It has its churches—its missions—its colleges. In its churches it is faithful to the teaching of Christ and His Church, loyal ever to the Vicar of Christ; in its missions, unbounded in zeal and personal self-sacrifice; in its colleges, it aims ever at the solid and thorough training of complete Christian education. Ignatius of Loyola made his Order to go on without him, and it goes on just as he made it.
Vigilant and patient, whenever he showed up, people had to pay attention to the man; and similarly, with his Order, whenever it appears, it should be acknowledged either by its enemies who oppose it or by its friends who support it and help advance its mission. It has its churches, its missions, and its colleges. In its churches, it remains committed to the teachings of Christ and His Church, always loyal to the Vicar of Christ; in its missions, it is boundless in zeal and personal sacrifice; in its colleges, it consistently strives for a solid and comprehensive Christian education. Ignatius of Loyola established his Order to continue without him, and it continues just as he intended.
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