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THE MESSAGE


"I saw that Queen of Ancient Britons at the Head of Her Wild, Shaggy Legions" (See page __A_TAG_PLACEHOLDER_0__)

The Message

By A. J. DAWSON

Author of "Hidden Manna," "African Nights Entertainments,"
"Daniel Whyte," "God's Foundling,"
"Ronald Kestrel," etc.
Illustrated from Color Sketches
By H. M. BROCK
DANA ESTES & COMPANY, BOSTON
E. GRANT RICHARDS, LONDON

Copyright, April 17, 1907
By Dana Estes & Company

Copyright, April 17, 1907
By Dana Estes & Company

All rights reserved

All rights reserved

Entered at Stationers' Hall

Registered at Stationers' Hall

COLONIAL PRESS
Electrotyped and Printed by C. H. Simonds & Co.
Boston, U.S.A.

COLONIAL PRESS
Electrotyped and printed by C. H. Simonds & Co.
Boston, U.S.A.


CONTENTS

PART I.—THE DESCENT
CHAPTERPAGE
I.In the Making3
II.At the Water's Edge12
III.An Interlude17
IV.The Launching29
V.A Journalist's Equipment41
VI.A Journalist's Surroundings53
VII.A Girl and Her Faith66
VIII.A Stirring Week78
IX.A Step Down90
X.Facilis Descensus Averni101
XI.Morning Callers111
XII.Saturday Night in London121
XIII.The Demonstration in Hyde Park131
XIV.The News143
XV.Sunday Night in London153
XVI.A Personal Revelation163
XVII.One Step Forward168
XVIII.The Dear Loaf177
XIX.The Tragic Week188
XX.Black Saturday198
XXI.England Asleep208
PART II.—THE AWAKENING
I.The First Days221
II.Ancient Lights228
III.The Return to London237[vi]
IV.The Conference243
V.My Own Part257
VI.Preparations262
VII.The Sword of the Lord271
VIII.The Preachers291
IX.The Citizens301
X.Small Figures on a Great Stage312
XI.The Spirit of the Age317
XII.Blood Is Thicker than Water330
XIII.One Summer Morning338
XIV."For God, Our Race, and Duty"343
XV."Single Heart and Single Sword"352
XVI.Hands Across the Sea360
XVII.The Penalty366
XVIII.The Peace374
XIX.The Great Alliance383
XX.Peace Hath Her Victories389

LIST OF ILLUSTRATIONS

PAGE
"I saw that Queen of Ancient Britons at the
Head of Her Wild, Shaggy Legions"
Frontispiece
The Roaring City40
"Rivers ushered in Miss Constance Grey"114
"I was on My Knees and Kissing the Nerveless
Hand"
212

PART I
THE DESCENT

Non his juventus orta parentibus infecit aequor sanguine Punico.—Horace.

Non his juventus orta parentibus infecit aequor sanguine Punico.—Horace.


THE MESSAGE

I
IN THE MAKING

"Such as I am, sir—no great subject for a boaster, I admit—you see in me a product of my time, sir, and of very worthy parents, I assure you."—Ezekiel Joy.

"Just like I am, sir—I'm not really someone to brag about, I know—you see in me a result of my era, sir, and I promise you, of very respectable parents."—Ezekiel Joy.

As a very small lad, at home in Tarn Regis, I had but one close chum, George Stairs, and he went off with his father to Canada, while I was away for my first term at Elstree School. Then came Rugby, where I had several friends, but the chief of them was Leslie Wheeler. Just why we should have been close friends I cannot say, but I fancy it was mainly because Leslie was such a handsome fellow, and always seemed to cut a good figure in everything he did; while I, on the other hand, excelled in nothing, and was not brilliant even in the expression of my discontent, which was tolerably comprehensive. Withal, in other matters beside discontent, I was a good deal of an extremist, and by no means lacking in enthusiasm.

When I was just a small kid at home in Tarn Regis, I had only one close friend, George Stairs, and he left with his dad for Canada while I was away for my first term at Elstree School. Then I went to Rugby, where I made several friends, but my closest one was Leslie Wheeler. I’m not sure why we became such good friends, but I think it was mostly because Leslie was really good-looking and always seemed to excel at everything he did; meanwhile, I didn't stand out in any way and wasn’t even particularly good at complaining, which I did a fair amount of. In other areas beyond my complaints, I was quite passionate and definitely had my extremes.

My father, too, was an enthusiast in his quiet way. His was the enthusiasm of the student, and his work as historian and archæologist absorbed, I must suppose,[4] a great deal more of his interest and energy than was ever given to his cure of souls. He was rector of Tarn Regis, in Dorset, before I was born, and at the time of his death, to be present at which I was called away in the middle of the last term of my third year at Cambridge. I was to have spent four years at the University; but, as the event proved, I never returned there after my hurried departure, three days prior to my father's death.

My dad was an enthusiast in his own quiet way. His enthusiasm was that of a student, and I can only assume that his work as a historian and archaeologist occupied much more of his interest and energy than his role in caring for his congregation. He was the rector of Tarn Regis in Dorset before I was born, and when he passed away, I was pulled away in the middle of my last term of my third year at Cambridge. I was supposed to spend four years at the university, but as it turned out, I never went back after my rushed departure three days before my dad's death.

The personal tie between my father and those among whom he lived and worked was not a very close or intimate bond. His contribution to the Cambridge History was greatly appreciated by scholars, and his archæological research won him the respect and esteem of his peers in that branch of study. But I cannot pretend that his loss was keenly felt by his parishioners, with most of whom his relations had been strictly professional rather than personal. A good man and true, without a trace of anything sordid or self-seeking in his nature, my father was yet singularly indifferent to everything connected with the daily lives and welfare of his fellow creatures.

The personal connection between my father and the people he lived and worked with wasn't very close or intimate. Scholars greatly appreciated his contribution to the Cambridge History, and his archaeological research earned him the respect and esteem of his peers in that field. However, I can't pretend that his loss was deeply felt by his parishioners, as his relationships with most of them had been mostly professional rather than personal. A good and genuine man, without a hint of anything sordid or self-serving in his nature, my father was still surprisingly indifferent to everything related to the daily lives and well-being of those around him.

In this he was typical of a considerable section of the country clergy of the time. I knew colleagues of his who were more pronounced examples of the type. One in particular I call to mind (whose living was in the gift of a Cambridge college, like my father's), who, though a good fellow and a clean-lived gentleman, was no more a Christian than he was a Buddhist—less, upon the whole. Among scholarly folk he made not the slightest pretence of regarding the fundamental tenets of the Christian faith in the light[5] of anything more serious than interesting historical myths, notable sections in the mosaic of folk-lore, which it was his pride and delight to study and understand.

In this regard, he was typical of a significant part of the rural clergy at the time. I knew colleagues of his who were even more obvious examples of this type. One in particular comes to mind (his position was awarded by a Cambridge college, just like my father's), who, although a decent guy and a morally upright gentleman, was no more a Christian than he was a Buddhist—actually, even less so. Among academics, he didn’t pretend to take the core beliefs of Christianity any more seriously than he would interesting historical myths, important pieces in the tapestry of folklore, which he took pride in studying and understanding.

Such men as A—— R—— and my father (and there were many like them, and more who shared their aloofness while lacking half their virtues) lived hard-working, studious lives, in which the common kinds of self-indulgence played but a very small part. Honourable, kindly at heart, gentle, rarely consciously selfish, these worthy men never gave a thought to the current affairs of their country, to their own part as citizens, or to the daily lives of their fellow countrymen. Indeed, they exhibited a kind of gentle intolerance and contempt in all topical concerns; and though they preached religion and drew stipends as expounders of Christianity, they no more thought of "prying" or "interfering," as they would have said, into the actual lives and hearts and minds of those about them, than of thrusting their hands into their parishioners' pockets.

Men like A—— R—— and my father (and there were many like them, as well as others who were distant but didn’t possess half their qualities) led hard-working, studious lives where typical forms of self-indulgence played a minimal role. Honorable, genuinely kind, gentle, and rarely thinking of themselves, these good men never considered the current events of their country, their role as citizens, or the everyday lives of their fellow countrymen. In fact, they showed a sort of gentle disdain for all topical issues; even though they preached religion and received salaries as speakers of Christianity, they thought no more about "prying" or "interfering"—as they would have put it—into the actual lives and hearts and minds of those around them than they would about reaching into their parishioners' pockets.

Stated in this bald way the thing may sound incredible, but those whose recollections carry them back to the opening years of the century will bear me out in saying that this was far from being either the most distressing or the most remarkable among the outworkings of what was then extolled as a broad spirit of tolerance. Our "tolerance," our vaunted "cosmopolitanism," were far more dangerous factors of our national life, had we but known it, than either the insularity of our sturdy forbears or the strength of our enemies had ever been.[6]

Stating it plainly may sound unbelievable, but those who can remember the early years of the century will agree that this was far from being the most distressing or the most noteworthy example of what was then praised as a broad spirit of tolerance. Our "tolerance," our bragged-about "cosmopolitanism," were far more dangerous aspects of our national life, if we had only realized it, than the isolation of our strong ancestors or the power of our enemies ever was.[6]

Even my dear mother did not, I think, feel the shock of her bereavement so much as might have been supposed. One may say, without disrespect, that the loss of my father gave point and justification to my mother's attitude toward life. Kind, gentle soul that she was, my mother was afflicted with what might be called the worrying temperament; a disposition characteristic of that troublous time. My memory seems to fasten upon the matter of domestic labour as representing the crux and centre of my dear mother's grievances and topics of lament prior to my father's death. The subject may seem to border upon the ridiculous, as an influence upon one's general point of view; but at that time it was really more tragic than farcical, and I know that what was called "the servant question"—as such it was gravely treated in books and papers, and even by leader-writers and lecturers—formed the basis of a great deal of my mother's conversation, just as I am sure that it coloured her outlook upon life, and strengthened her tendency to worry over everything, from the wear-and-tear of house-linen to the morality of the people. All this was incomprehensible and absurd to my father, though, had he but thought of it, it was really more human than his own attitude; for certainly my mother was interested and concerned in the daily lives of her fellow creatures, though not in a cheering or illuminating manner perhaps.

Even my dear mother didn't, I think, feel the shock of her loss as much as one might expect. It's fair to say, without disrespect, that my father's death gave meaning and justification to her view of life. While she was a kind, gentle soul, my mother had what you might call a worrying temperament; a mindset typical of that troubled time. I can't help but remember how the issue of household chores seemed to be at the heart of her grievances and complaints before my father's passing. This topic might sound silly as an influence on someone's overall perspective, but at that time it felt more tragic than comedic. The so-called "servant question"—which was taken very seriously in books, articles, and even by columnists and speakers—was a huge part of my mother's conversations, and I’m sure it affected her outlook on life, reinforcing her tendency to worry about everything, from the wear and tear on linens to the morals of people. This all seemed incomprehensible and absurd to my father, but had he paused to think about it, it was actually more human than his own perspective; my mother cared about the daily lives of those around her, though perhaps not in a particularly uplifting or enlightening way.

But, as I say, the deprecatory, worrying attitude had become second nature with my mother long years before her widowhood, and had lined and seamed her poor forehead and silvered her hair before my Rugby[7] days were over. Bereavement merely gave point to a mood already well established.

But, as I said, my mother's negative, anxious attitude had become second nature long before she became a widow, and it had wrinkled her forehead and grayed her hair before my time at Rugby[7] was over. Losing my father just intensified a mood that was already well established.

That I should not return to Cambridge was decided as a matter of course within the week of my father's funeral, when we learned that the little he had left behind him would not even pay for the dilapidations of the rectory. There was practically nothing, when my father's affairs were put in order, beyond my mother's little property, a recent legacy, the investment of which in Canadian railway stocks brought in about a hundred and fifty a year.

That I wouldn't go back to Cambridge was decided pretty quickly within the week of my father's funeral, when we found out that what little he left behind wouldn't even cover the repairs needed for the rectory. When my father's financial matters were sorted out, there was hardly anything left, except for my mother's small property, which was a recent inheritance. The investment in Canadian railway stocks brought in about one hundred fifty dollars a year.

Thus I found myself confronted with a sufficiently serious situation for a young man whose training so far had no more fitted him for taking part in any particular division of the battle of life, where the prize sought is an income, than for the administration of the planet Mars. Rugby was better than some of the great public schools in this respect, for a lad with definite purposes and ambitions, but its curriculum had far less bearing upon the working life of the age than it had upon its games and pastimes and the affairs of nations and peoples long since passed away. Yet Rugby belonged to a group of schools that were admittedly the best, and certainly the most outrageously costly, of the educational establishments of the period.

So, I found myself facing a serious situation for a young man whose training up to that point hadn’t really prepared him to take on any specific role in the battle of life, where the goal is to earn an income, any more than it had prepared him to administer the planet Mars. Rugby was better than some of the elite public schools in this regard, since it was good for a guy with clear goals and ambitions, but its curriculum was much less relevant to the working life of the time than it was to its games, pastimes, and the issues of nations and peoples that were long gone. Still, Rugby was part of a group of schools that were known to be the best and definitely the most ridiculously expensive educational institutions of the time.

I think my sister Lucy was more shocked than any one else by the death of our father. I say shocked, because I am not certain whether or not the word grieved would apply accurately. For one thing, Lucy had never before seen any dead person. Neither had I, for that matter; but Lucy was more affected[8] by the actual presence in the house of Death, than I was. Twice a day for years she had kissed our father's forehead. Now and again she had sat upon the arm of his chair and stroked his thin hair. These demonstrations were connected, I believe, with the quest of favours—permission, money, and so forth; but doubtless affection played a part in them.

I think my sister Lucy was more shocked than anyone else by our father's death. I say shocked because I'm not sure if the word grieved really fits. For one thing, Lucy had never seen anyone dead before. I hadn't either, but Lucy was more impacted by the actual presence of Death in the house than I was. Twice a day for years, she had kissed our father's forehead. Occasionally, she had sat on the arm of his chair and stroked his thin hair. I believe these gestures were tied to her asking for favors—like permission, money, and so on—but I'm sure affection played a part too.[8]

As for Lucy's home life, a little conversation I recall on the occasion of her driving me to the station when I was leaving for what proved my last term at Cambridge, seems to me to throw some light. I had but recently learned of Lucy's engagement to marry Doctor Woodthrop, of Davenham Minster, our nearest market-town. I had found Woodthrop a decent fellow enough, but thirty-four as against Lucy's twenty-one, inclining ominously to corpulence, and as flatly prosaic and unadventurous a spirit as a small country town could produce. Now, as Lucy seemed to me to have hankerings in the direction of social pleasures and the like, with a penchant for brilliancy and daring, I was a little puzzled about her engagement, for Woodthrop was one who kept a few conversational pleasantries on hand, as a man keeps old pipes on a rack, for periodical use at suitable times.

As for Lucy's home life, I remember a conversation we had when she drove me to the station, right before I left for what turned out to be my last term at Cambridge. I had just found out about Lucy's engagement to marry Doctor Woodthrop from Davenham Minster, our closest market town. I thought Woodthrop was a decent guy, but he was thirty-four while Lucy was only twenty-one, leaning towards being overweight, and as dull and unadventurous as you can get in a small country town. Since Lucy seemed to have an interest in social events and a taste for excitement, I was a bit confused about her engagement, considering Woodthrop was the type to have a few small talk topics ready, like a guy keeping old pipes for occasional use.

"So you are actually going to be married, Loo?" I said.

"So you're actually getting married, Loo?" I said.

"Oh, well, engaged, Dick," she replied, with a little blush.

"Oh, well, engaged, Dick," she said, with a slight blush.

"With a view, I presume. Then I suppose it follows that you are in love—h'm?"

"With a view, I guess. So, I take it you’re in love—hmm?"

"Why, Dick, what a cross-examiner you are!" The blush increased.[9]

"Why, Dick, you're such a tough interrogator!" The blush deepened.[9]

"Well, my dear girl, surely it's a natural assumption, is it not?"

"Well, my dear girl, it's definitely a natural assumption, isn't it?"

"Oh, I suppose so. But——"

"Oh, I guess so. But——"

"Yes?"

"Yep?"

"Well, I don't think in real life it's the same thing that you read about in novels, do you, Dick?"

"Well, I don't think real life is the same as what you read about in novels, do you, Dick?"

"What? Being in love?"

"What? Falling in love?"

"Yes."

"Yep."

"Well, perhaps not; but I imagine it ought to be something pretty pronounced, you know, even in such a pale reflection of the novels as real life. I gather that it ought to be; seriously, Loo, I think it ought to be. I suppose you do love Woodthrop, don't you?"

"Well, maybe not; but I think it should be something pretty noticeable, you know, even in such a weak reflection of novels as real life. I believe it should be; honestly, Loo, I think it should be. I guess you do love Woodthrop, right?"

My sister looked a little distressed, and I half-regretted having put so direct a question. I was sufficiently the product of my day to be terribly afraid of any kind of interference with my fellow creatures. Our apotheosis of individual liberty had made any such action anathema, "bad form," a sin more resented in the sinner than cowardice or dishonesty, or than any kind of wickedness which was strictly personal and, as you might say, self-contained. Our one object of universal reverence and respect was the personal equation.

My sister seemed a bit upset, and I kind of regretted asking such a direct question. I was definitely shaped by my time to be really afraid of interfering with others. Our idolization of personal freedom had turned any such action into a serious taboo, "bad form," a sin that was more despised in the wrongdoer than cowardice, dishonesty, or any sort of personal wrongdoing that was, as you might say, contained. The one thing we universally admired and respected was individualism.

"There, Loo," I said, "I didn't mean to tease you." Thus, in accordance with my traditions, I brushed aside and apologized for my natural interest in her well-being in the same way that my poor father and his like brushed away all matters of topical import, and the average man of the period brushed aside all concern with his fellow men, all responsibility for the common weal.[10]

"There, Loo," I said, "I didn’t mean to tease you." So, following my usual ways, I brushed off and apologized for my genuine concern about her well-being, just like my father and others like him ignored important issues, and the average person at that time dismissed any care for their fellow human beings, overlooking their responsibility for the greater good.[10]

"No," she said, "I know you didn't. And, indeed, Dick, I suppose I don't love Herbert as well as I ought; but—but, Dick, you don't know what it is to be a girl. You can go off to Cambridge, and presently you will go out into the world and live your own life in your own way. But it's different for me, Dick. A girl is not supposed to want to live her own life; she is just part of the home, and the home——. Well, Dick, you know father's life, and mother—poor mother——"

"No," she said, "I know you didn't. And honestly, Dick, I suppose I don't love Herbert as much as I should; but—but, Dick, you don't understand what it’s like to be a girl. You can go off to Cambridge, and soon you'll head out into the world and live your own life on your own terms. But it’s different for me, Dick. A girl isn’t expected to want to live her own life; she’s just part of the home, and the home——. Well, Dick, you know about father’s life, and mother—poor mother——"

"Yes," I said, "that's so."

"Yep," I said, "that's right."

"Well, Dick, I'm afraid it seems pretty selfish, but I do want to live my own way, and I do get terribly tired of—of——"

"Well, Dick, I’m sorry if this sounds selfish, but I really want to live my own way, and I get really tired of—of——"

"Of the 'servant question,' for instance."

"Of the 'servant question,' for example."

"Exactly."

"Exactly."

"And you think you can live your own life with Woodthrop?"

"And you really think you can live your own life with Woodthrop?"

"Why, I think he is very kind and good, Dick, and he says there's no reason why I shouldn't hunt, if I can manage with one mount, and we can have friends of mine to stay, and—and so on."

"Honestly, I think he's really nice and good, Dick, and he says there's no reason I can't go hunting if I can handle it with just one horse, plus we can have some of my friends over, and so on."

"Yes, I see. You will be mistress of a house."

"Yes, I understand. You will be the lady of the house."

"And, of course, I like him very much, Dick; he really is good."

"And, of course, I like him a lot, Dick; he really is good."

"Yes."

"Yep."

That was how Lucy felt about her marriage. There seemed to me to be a good deal lacking; but then I was rather given to concentrating my attention upon flaws and gaps. And when I was next at home, at the time of my father's death, I could not help feeling that the engagement was something to be[11] thankful for. A hundred and fifty a year would mean a good deal of pinching for my mother alone, as things went then; but for mother and Lucy together it would have been painfully short commons. Life, even in the country, was an expensive business at that time despite the current worship of cheapness and of "free" trade, as our Quixotic fiscal policy was called. The sum total of our wants and fancied wants had been climbing steadily, while our individual capability in domestic and other simple matters had been on the decline for a long while.

That was how Lucy felt about her marriage. I noticed a lot of things were missing, but I tended to focus on the flaws and gaps. When I was home next, during my father's death, I couldn't help but feel that the engagement was something to be thankful for. A hundred and fifty a year would mean a lot of scrimping for my mother alone, given the circumstances; but for both my mother and Lucy together, it would have been painfully insufficient. Life, even in the countryside, was expensive back then, despite the current obsession with cheapness and "free" trade, as our misguided fiscal policy was called. The total of our needs and imagined needs had been rising steadily, while our ability to handle everyday life had been declining for quite some time.

In the end we decided that my mother and Lucy should establish themselves in apartments on the outskirts of Davenham Minster, which apartments would serve my mother permanently, with the relinquishment of a single room after Lucy's marriage. I saw them both established, gathered my few personal belongings in a trunk and a couple of bags, and started for London on a brilliantly fine morning toward the end of June.

In the end, we decided that my mom and Lucy should move into apartments on the outskirts of Davenham Minster. These apartments would be my mom's permanent home, with one room being given up after Lucy got married. I saw them both settled in, packed my few personal things into a trunk and some bags, and headed to London on a beautifully sunny morning at the end of June.

At that time a young man went to London as a matter of course, when launching out for himself. It was not that folk liked living in the huge city (though, curiously enough, many did), but they gravitated toward it because the great aim, always, and in those conditions necessarily, was to make money. There was more money "knocking about," so people said, in London than anywhere else; so that was the place for which one made.

At that time, a young man naturally headed to London when starting out on his own. It wasn't that people loved living in the huge city (though, interestingly, many did), but they were drawn to it because the main goal, as always, and in those circumstances inevitably, was to make money. There was more money "floating around," as people said, in London than anywhere else; so that was the place to aim for.

I started for London with a capital of precisely eleven guineas over and above my railway fare—and left it again on the same day.

I set out for London with exactly eleven guineas, not including my train fare—and I left the city again on the same day.


II
AT THE WATER'S EDGE

"Now a little before them, there was on the left-hand of the Road, a Meadow, and a Stile to go over into it, and that Meadow is called By-Path-Meadow."—The Pilgrim's Progress.

"Now just ahead of them, on the left side of the road, there was a meadow with a stile to cross into it, and that meadow is called By-Path-Meadow."—The Pilgrim's Progress.

My friend, Leslie Wheeler, had left Cambridge a few months before my summons home, in order to enter his father's office in Moorgate Street. His father was of the mysteriously named tribe of "financial agents," and had evidently found it a profitable calling.

My friend, Leslie Wheeler, had left Cambridge a few months before I was called back home to join his father's office on Moorgate Street. His dad was in the interestingly named field of "financial agents," and it was clear that he had made a good living at it.

As I never understood anything of even the nomenclature of finance, I will not attempt to describe the business into which my friend had been absorbed; but I remember that it afforded occupation for dozens of gentlemanly young fellows, the correctness of whose coiffure and general appearance was beyond praise. These beautifully groomed young gentlemen sat upon high stools at desks of great brilliancy. They used an ingenious arrangement of foolscap paper to protect their shirt-cuffs from contact with baser things, and one of the reasons for the evident care lavished upon the disposition of their hair may have been the fact that they made it a point of honour to go hatless when taking the air or out upon business during the day. Their general appearance and deportment in the office and outside always conveyed to me the[13] suggestion that they were persons of some wealth and infinite leisure; but I have been assured that they were hard-working clerks, whose salaries, even in these simpler days, would not be deemed extravagant. These salaries, I have been told, worked out at an average of perhaps £120 or £130 a year.

As I never understood anything about the terminology of finance, I won’t try to describe the business my friend got involved in; but I remember it provided jobs for dozens of well-dressed young men, whose impeccable hairstyles and overall appearance were commendable. These sharply dressed young men sat on high stools at desks that gleamed. They used a clever setup of foolscap paper to keep their shirt cuffs clean from dirt, and one reason for the obvious care put into their hairstyles might have been that they made it a point of pride to go without hats while enjoying fresh air or conducting business during the day. Their overall look and behavior in the office and outside always gave me the impression that they were wealthy and had plenty of free time; however, I’ve been told that they were hard-working clerks, whose salaries, even in these simpler times, would not be considered extravagant. I’ve heard these salaries averaged about £120 or £130 a year.

Now London meant no more to me at that time than a place where, upon rare occasions, one dined in splendour, went to a huge and gilded music-hall, cultivated a bad headache, and presently sought to ease it by eating a nightmarish supper, and eating it against time. My allowance at Cambridge had, no doubt fortunately for my digestion, allowed of but few excursions to the capital; but my friend Wheeler lived within twenty miles of it, and I figured him already burgeoning as a magnate of Moorgate Street. Therefore I had of course written to him of my proposed descent upon the metropolis, and had been very kindly invited to spend a week at his father's house in Weybridge before doing anything else. Accordingly then, having reached Waterloo by a fast train, I left most of my effects in the cloak-room there, and taking only one bag, journeyed down to Weybridge.

Now London meant nothing to me at that time except a place where, on rare occasions, you dined in style, went to a big, fancy music hall, developed a terrible headache, and then tried to soothe it by having a frightening late-night snack, all while racing against the clock. My allowance at Cambridge had, thankfully for my stomach, allowed for only a few trips to the capital; however, my friend Wheeler lived about twenty miles away, and I imagined him already thriving as a big shot on Moorgate Street. So, of course, I had written to him about my plans to visit the city, and he had kindly invited me to spend a week at his dad’s place in Weybridge before doing anything else. Thus, after arriving at Waterloo on a fast train, I left most of my things in the cloakroom there and took only one bag for the trip to Weybridge.

My friend welcomed me in person in the hall of his father's big and rather showy house, he having returned from the City earlier than usual for that express purpose. I had already met his mother and two sisters upon four separate occasions at Cambridge. Indeed, I may say that I had almost corresponded with Leslie's second sister, Sylvia. At all events, we had exchanged half a dozen letters, and I had even[14] begged, and obtained, a photograph. At Cambridge I thought I had detected in this delicately pretty, soft-spoken girl, some sympathy and fellow-feeling in the matter of my own crude gropings toward a philosophy of life. You may be sure I did not phrase it in that way then. The theories upon which my discontent with the prevailing order of things was based, seemed to me then both strong and practical; a little ahead of my time perhaps, but far from crude or unformed. As I see it now, my creed was rather a protest against indifference, a demand for some measure of activity in social economy. That my muse was socialistic seems to me now to have been mainly accidental, but so it was, and its nutriment had been drawn largely from such sources as Carpenter's Civilization: its Cause and Cure, in addition to the standard works of the Socialist leaders.

My friend greeted me personally in the foyer of his father's large and somewhat flashy house, as he had returned from the City earlier than usual just for that reason. I had already met his mother and two sisters four times in Cambridge. In fact, I can say that I had almost corresponded with Leslie's second sister, Sylvia. We exchanged about half a dozen letters, and I had even[14]requested and received a photograph. While at Cambridge, I thought I had sensed some connection and understanding in this gently charming, soft-spoken girl regarding my own awkward attempts to figure out a philosophy of life. You can bet I didn’t express it like that back then. The ideas behind my dissatisfaction with the existing order of things felt both solid and practical to me then; perhaps a bit ahead of their time, but certainly not crude or half-formed. Looking back, I now see my beliefs as more of a protest against apathy, a call for some degree of engagement in social economics. It seems to me now that my inspiration was largely accidental in being socialistic, but that’s how it was, and its influence came mainly from sources like Carpenter's Civilization: its Cause and Cure, along with the standard works of Socialist leaders.

It is quite possible that one of the reasons of my continued friendship with Leslie Wheeler was the fact that, in his agreeable manner, he represented in person much of the butterfly indifference to what I considered the serious problems of life, against which my fulminations were apt to be directed. I may have clung to him instinctively as a wholesome corrective. At all events, he submitted, in the main good-humouredly, to my frequently personal diatribes, and, by his very complaisance and merry indifference, supplied me again and again with point and illustration for my sermons.

It’s very likely that one reason I stayed friends with Leslie Wheeler was that, with his easygoing nature, he embodied much of the carefree attitude I viewed as dismissive toward what I saw as life’s serious issues, which my rants often targeted. I might have instinctively held on to him as a healthy balance. In any case, he mostly took my frequent personal criticisms in stride and, with his agreeable attitude and cheerful indifference, consistently gave me examples and support for my lectures.

Leslie's elder sister, Marjory, was his counterpart in petticoats; merry, frivolous, irresponsible, devoted to the chase of pleasure, and obdurately bent upon[15] sparing neither thought nor energy over other interests; denying their very existence indeed, or good-humouredly ridiculing them when they were forced upon her. She was a very handsome girl; I was conscious of that; but, perhaps because I could not challenge her as I did her brother, her character made no appeal to me. But Sylvia, on the other hand, with her big, spiritual-looking eyes, transparently fair skin, and earnest, even rapt expression; Sylvia stirred my adolescence pretty deeply, and was assiduously draped by me in that cloth of gold and rose-leaves which every young man is apt to weave from out of his own inner consciousness for the persons of those representatives of the opposite sex in whom he detects sympathy and responsiveness.

Leslie's older sister, Marjory, was his equivalent in skirts; cheerful, carefree, irresponsible, dedicated to the pursuit of fun, and stubbornly focused on it, not bothering to think about or invest energy in anything else; in fact, outright denying their existence or joking about them when she couldn't avoid them. She was a very beautiful girl; I knew that; but, maybe because I couldn't challenge her the way I could her brother, her personality didn’t appeal to me. But Sylvia, on the other hand, with her big, spiritual-looking eyes, clear fair skin, and serious, even entranced expression; Sylvia impacted my teenage years quite profoundly, and I eagerly adorned her in that fabric of gold and rose petals that every young man tends to create from his own imagination for those members of the opposite sex with whom he feels a connection and understanding.

Mrs. Wheeler spoke in a kind and motherly way of my bereavement, and the generosity of youth somehow prevented my appreciation of this being dulled by the fact that, until reminded, she had forgotten whether I had lost a father or a mother. Indeed, though not greatly interested in other folk's affairs, I believe that while the good soul's eyes rested upon the supposed sufferer, or his story, she was sincerely sorry about any kind of trouble, from her pug's asthma to the annihilation of a multitude in warfare or disaster. She had the kindest heart, and no doubt it was rather her misfortune than her fault that she could not clearly realize any circumstance or situation which did not impinge in some way upon her own small circle.

Mrs. Wheeler spoke kindly and like a mother about my loss, and the optimism of youth somehow kept me from noticing that, until pointed out, she had forgotten whether I had lost a father or a mother. In fact, although I wasn't very interested in other people's lives, I think that while her caring eyes were on the supposed sufferer or their story, she genuinely felt bad about any kind of trouble, whether it was her pug's asthma or the devastation caused by war or disaster. She had the kindest heart, and it was probably more her misfortune than her fault that she couldn't clearly understand any situation that didn't somehow relate to her own small world.

I met Leslie's father for the first time at dinner that evening. One could hardly have imagined him sparing time for visits to Cambridge. He was a fine,[16] soldierly-looking man, with no trace of City pallor in his well-shaven, purple cheeks. Purple is hardly the word. The ground was crimson, I think, and over that there was spread a delicate tracery, a sort of netted film, of some kind of blue. The eyes had a glaze over them, but were bright and searching. The nose was a salient feature, having about it a strong predatory suggestion. The forehead was low, surmounted by exquisitely smooth iron-gray hair. Mr. Wheeler was scrupulously fine in dress, and used a single eye-glass. He gave me hearty welcome, and I prefer to think that the apparent chilling of his attitude to me after he had learned of my financial circumstances was merely the creation of some morbid vein of hyper-sensitiveness in myself.

I met Leslie's dad for the first time at dinner that evening. One could hardly picture him making time for visits to Cambridge. He was a distinguished, soldierly-looking man, with no hint of City paleness in his well-shaven, reddish cheeks. Reddish is hardly the right term. The ground was crimson, I think, and over that, there was a delicate pattern, a sort of netted film, of some shade of blue. His eyes had a glaze over them, but they were bright and curious. The nose was a prominent feature, giving off a strong predatory vibe. His forehead was low, topped with exquisitely smooth iron-gray hair. Mr. Wheeler dressed impeccably and used a single eyeglass. He gave me a warm welcome, and I prefer to think that the apparent cooling of his attitude towards me after he learned about my financial situation was just my own heightened sensitivity.

At all events, we were all very jolly together that evening, and I went happily to bed, after what I thought a hint of responsive pressure in my handshake with Sylvia, and several entertaining anecdotes from Mr. Wheeler as to the manner in which fortunes had been made in the purlieus of Throgmorton Street. Launching oneself upon a prosperous career in London seemed an agreeably easy process at the end of that first evening in the Wheeler's home, and the butterfly attitude toward life appeared upon the whole less wholly blameworthy than before. What a graceful fellow Leslie was, and how suave and genial the father when he sat at the head of his table toying with a glass of port! And these were capable men, too, men of affairs. Doubtless their earnestness was strong enough below the surface, I thought—for that night.

We were all having a great time together that evening, and I went to bed feeling happy after what I thought was a hint of a meaningful connection in my handshake with Sylvia, along with several entertaining stories from Mr. Wheeler about how fortunes were made in the shady areas of Throgmorton Street. Starting a successful career in London seemed like a pleasantly easy process after that first evening at the Wheelers' home, and the carefree attitude toward life seemed less blameworthy overall. Leslie was such a charming guy, and his father was suave and friendly as he sat at the head of the table, casually enjoying a glass of port! And these were capable men, too, men of substance. I figured their seriousness ran deep beneath the surface, at least for that night.


III
AN INTERLUDE

"To the observations we make ourselves,
"We become more biased for the observer's benefit."
Pope.

Though in no sense unfriendly or lacking in sympathy, I noticed that Leslie Wheeler showed no inclination to be drawn into intimate discussion of my prospects. I was not inclined to blame my friend for this, but told myself that he probably acted upon paternal instructions. For me, however, it was impossible to lay aside for long, thoughts regarding my immediate future. I was aware that a nest-egg of eleven or twelve pounds was not a very substantial barrier between oneself and want. Mr. Wheeler told no more stories of fortunes built out of nothing in the City, but he did take occasion to refer casually to the fact that City men did not greatly care for the products of public schools and universities, as employees.

Although not unfriendly or unsympathetic, I noticed that Leslie Wheeler didn’t seem interested in having a deep conversation about my future. I didn’t blame my friend for this and figured he was probably following some fatherly advice. For me, though, it was hard to put aside my worries about what was coming next. I knew that having eleven or twelve pounds saved up wasn’t a solid shield against financial hardship. Mr. Wheeler didn't share any more stories about people making fortunes from scratch in the City, but he did casually mention that people in the City didn’t have a high regard for graduates from public schools and universities when it came to hiring.

I was more than half-inclined to ask why, in this case, Leslie had been sent to Rugby and Cambridge, but decided to avoid the personal application of his remark. It was, after all, no more than the expression of a commonly accepted view, striking though it seems as a comment upon the educational system of the period, when one remembers the huge proportion of the middle and upper-class populace which was absorbed[18] by commercial callings of one kind or another.

I almost asked why Leslie had been sent to Rugby and Cambridge, but I chose to steer clear of making it personal. It was just a reflection of a widely held opinion, striking as it is regarding the education system of the time, especially considering the large number of middle and upper-class people who were drawn into various commercial jobs. [18]

There was practically no demand for physical prowess or aptitude, outside the field of sport and games, nor even for those qualities which are best served by a good physical training. One need not, therefore, be greatly surprised that the public schools should have given no physical training outside games, and that even of the most perfunctory character, the majority qualifying as interested spectators merely, of the prowess of the minority. But it certainly is remarkable, that no practical business training, nor studies of a sort calculated to be of use in later business training, should have been given in the schools most favoured by those for whom business was a life's calling. In this, as in so many other matters, I suppose we were guided and directed entirely by habit and tradition; the line of least resistance.

There was almost no need for physical skill or ability, except in sports and games, nor for qualities best developed through good physical training. Therefore, it’s not surprising that public schools provided little physical training outside of games, and most students were only casual spectators of the skills displayed by a few. However, it is quite striking that there was no practical business training or subjects that could help with future business training offered in the schools favored by those whose life work was in business. In this, as in many other areas, I guess we were completely led by habit and tradition, following the path of least resistance.

When I talked of my prospects with handsome Leslie Wheeler—his was his father's face, unblemished and unworn—our conversation was always three parts jocular, at all events upon his side. I was to recast society and mould our social system anew by means of my pen, and of journalism. I was to provide "the poor blessed poor" with hot-buttered rolls and devilled kidneys for breakfast, said Leslie, and introduce old-age pensions for every British workman who survived his twenty-first birthday.

When I discussed my future with good-looking Leslie Wheeler—who had his father's unmarked, youthful face—our chats were usually three-quarters lighthearted, at least on his part. I was supposed to reshape society and rebuild our social system through my writing and journalism. I was to serve "the poor blessed poor" hot-buttered rolls and devilled kidneys for breakfast, Leslie joked, and make sure every British worker who made it past their twenty-first birthday got old-age pensions.

I would not be understood to suggest that this sort of facetiousness indicated the average attitude of the period with regard to the horrible fact that the country contained millions of people permanently in a[19] state of want and privation. But it was a quite possible attitude then. Such people as my friend could never have mocked the sufferings of an individual. But with regard to the state of affairs, the pitiful millions, as an abstract proposition, indifference was the rule, a tone of light cynicism was customary, and "the poor we have always with us," quoted with a deprecatory shrug, was an accepted conversational refuge, even among such people as the clergy and charitable workers.

I’m not suggesting that this kind of joking attitude represented how most people felt about the terrible reality that there were millions of people in this country always living in a[19] state of need and deprivation. However, it was a common perspective back then. People like my friend would never have made fun of someone's suffering. But when it came to the overall situation, the unfortunate millions, people tended to be indifferent; a tone of light cynicism was normal, and saying, "the poor we have always with us," with a dismissive shrug, was a typical fallback in conversation, even among those in the clergy and charitable work.

And this, if one comes to think of it, was inevitable. The life and habits and general attitude of the period would have been absolutely impossible, in conjunction with any serious face-to-face consideration of a situation which embraced, for example, such preposterously contradictory elements as these:

And this, if you think about it, was bound to happen. The lifestyle, habits, and overall mindset of the time would have been completely unthinkable alongside any serious in-person assessment of a situation that included, for instance, such absurdly contradictory elements as these:

The existence of huge and growing armies of absolutely unemployed men; the insistence of the populace, and particularly the business people, upon the disbandment of regiments, and upon great naval and military reductions, involving further unemployment; the voting of considerable sums for distribution among the unemployed; violent opposition to the mere suggestion of State aid to enable the unemployed of England to migrate to those parts of the Empire which actually needed their labour; the increasing difficulty of the problem which was wrapped up in the question of "What to do with our sons"; the absolute refusal of the nation to admit of universal military service; the successive closing by tariff of one foreign market after another against British manufactures, and the hysterical refusal of[20] the people to protect their own markets from what was graphically called the "dumping" into them of the surplus products of other peoples.

The presence of huge and increasing numbers of completely unemployed men; the insistence of the public, especially business people, on disbanding regiments and making significant cuts to the navy and military, which would lead to even more unemployment; the allocation of large sums for distribution to the unemployed; strong opposition to even the idea of government assistance to help the unemployed in England migrate to parts of the Empire that actually needed their labor; the growing difficulty surrounding the issue of "What to do with our sons"; the complete refusal of the nation to accept universal military service; the repeated closing of one foreign market after another to British goods due to tariffs, and the frenzied unwillingness of[20] the public to protect their own markets from what was vividly referred to as the "dumping" of surplus products from other countries.

It is a queer catalogue, with a ring of insanity about it; but these were the merest commonplaces of life at that time, and the man who rebelled against them was a crank. My friend Leslie's attitude was natural enough, therefore; and, with a few exceptions, it was my own, for, curiously enough, the political school I favoured was, root and branch, opposed to the only possible remedies for this situation. Liberals, Radicals, Socialists, and the majority of those who arrogated to themselves the title of Social Reformers; these were the people who insisted, if not upon the actual evils and sufferings indicated in this illustrative note of social contradictions, then upon violent opposition to their complements in the way of mitigation and relief. And I was keenly of their number.

It’s a strange list, almost insane; but these were just the everyday realities of life back then, and anyone who challenged them was seen as a weirdo. My friend Leslie's perspective was totally understandable, and, with a few exceptions, it mirrored my own. Interestingly, the political beliefs I supported were completely against the only real solutions to this situation. Liberals, Radicals, Socialists, and most people who called themselves Social Reformers were the ones who insisted, if not on acknowledging the actual problems and suffering highlighted in this note about social contradictions, then on strongly opposing solutions to alleviate them. And I was definitely among them.

Many of these matters I discussed, or perhaps I should say, dilated upon, in conversation with Sylvia, while her brother and father were in London. We would begin with racquets in the tennis-court, and end late for some meal, after long wanderings among the pines. And in Sylvia, as it seemed to me, I found the most delightfully intelligent responsiveness, as well as sympathy. My knowledge of feminine nature, its extraordinary gifts of emotional and personal intuition, was of the scantiest, if it had any existence at all. But my own emotional side was active, and my mind an inchoate mass of ideals and more or less sentimental longings for social betterment. And so,[21] with Sylvia's gentle acquiescence, I rearranged the world.

Many of these topics I talked about, or maybe I should say, elaborated on, in conversations with Sylvia while her brother and father were in London. We would start with tennis on the court and end up late for meals after long walks among the pines. I found in Sylvia the most wonderfully intelligent understanding and sympathy. My knowledge of women and their incredible abilities for emotional and personal insight was minimal, if it existed at all. But my emotional side was active, and my mind was a tangled mix of ideals and various sentimental wishes for social improvement. And so,[21] with Sylvia's gentle agreement, I reshaped the world.

Much I have forgotten, and am thus spared the humiliation of recounting. But, as an example of what I recall, I remember a conversation which arose from our passing a miniature rifle-range which some local resident—"Some pompous Jingo of retrogressive tendencies," I called him—had erected with a view to tempting young Weybridge into marksmanship; a tolerably forlorn prospect at that time.

Much I have forgotten, which saves me from the embarrassment of sharing. But, as an example of what I remember, there's a conversation that came up when we walked by a little rifle range that some local resident—“Some arrogant nationalist with outdated ideas,” I called him—had set up to entice young Weybridge into shooting; a pretty hopeless venture back then.

"Is it not pathetic," I said, "in twentieth-century England, to see such blatant attacks upon progress as that?"

"Isn't it sad," I said, "in twentieth-century England, to witness such obvious attacks on progress like that?"

Sylvia nodded gravely; sweetly sympathetic understanding, as I saw it. And, after all, why not? Understanding of my poor bubbling mind, anyhow, and—Nature's furnishing of young women's minds is a mighty subtle business, not very much more clearly understood to-day than in the era of knight-errantry.

Sylvia nodded seriously; with a kind and sympathetic understanding, as I saw it. And really, why not? An understanding of my chaotic thoughts, anyway, and—Nature's way of shaping young women's minds is a really complex thing, not any clearer today than it was back in the days of chivalry.

Sylvia nodded gravely, as I spurned the turf by the range.

Sylvia nodded seriously as I kicked the grass by the range.

"Here we are surrounded by quagmires of poverty, injustice, social anomalies, and human distress, and this poor soul—a rich pork-butcher, angling for the favours of a moribund political party, I dare say—lavishes heaven knows how many pounds over an arrangement by which young men are to be taught how to kill each other with neatness and despatch at a distance of half a mile! It is more tragical than farcical. It is enough to make one despair of one's fellow countrymen, with their silly bombast about[22] 'Empire,' and their childish waving of flags. 'Empire,' indeed; God save the mark! And our own little country groaning, women and children wailing, for some measure of common-sense internal reform!"

"Here we are surrounded by messes of poverty, injustice, social issues, and human suffering, and this poor guy—a wealthy butcher, trying to win the support of a dying political party, I must say—spends who knows how many pounds on a scheme to teach young men how to kill each other neatly from half a mile away! It’s more tragic than funny. It’s enough to make you lose hope in your fellow countrymen, with their silly bragging about 'Empire' and their childish flag-waving. 'Empire,' really; God help us! Meanwhile, our own little country is suffering, with women and children crying out for some real common-sense reform!"

"It is dreadful, dreadful," said Sylvia. My heart leapt out to meet the gentle goodness of her. "But still, I suppose there must be soldiers," she added. Of course, this touched me off as a spark applied to tinder.

"It’s terrible, really terrible," said Sylvia. My heart raced at her kindness. "But still, I guess there have to be soldiers," she added. Naturally, this ignited something in me like a spark hitting dry grass.

"But that is just the whole crux of the absurdity, and as long as so unreal a notion is cherished we can never be freed from the slavery of these huge armaments. Soldiers are only necessary if war is necessary, and war can only be necessary while men are savages. The differences between masters and men are far more vital and personal than the differences between nations; yet they have long passed the crude stage of thirsting for each other's destruction as a means of settling quarrels. War is a relic of barbarous days. So long as armies are maintained, unscrupulous politicians will wage war. If we, who call ourselves the greatest nation in Christendom, would even deserve the credit of plain honesty, we must put away savagery, and substitute boards of arbitration for armies and navies."

"But that's the whole point of the absurdity. As long as we cling to such an unrealistic idea, we'll never escape the burden of these massive weapons. Soldiers are only necessary if war is necessary, and war is only necessary as long as humans behave like savages. The differences between those in power and the general population are much more important and personal than the differences between countries; yet we’ve long moved past the primitive desire to destroy each other to settle disputes. War is an outdated remnant of barbaric times. As long as we keep armies, unscrupulous politicians will continue to wage war. If we, who call ourselves the greatest nation in Christendom, want to earn even a shred of honesty, we must abandon brutality and replace armies and navies with boards of arbitration."

"Yes, I see," said Sylvia, her face alight with interest, "I feel that must be the true, the Christian view. But suppose the other nations would not agree to arbitration?"

"Yes, I get it," said Sylvia, her face glowing with interest. "I believe that must be the true, Christian perspective. But what if the other nations refuse to agree to arbitration?"

"But there is not a doubt they would. Can you suppose that any people are so insensate as really to[23] like war, carnage, slaughter, for their own sake, when peaceful alternatives are offered?"

"But there’s no doubt they would. Can you really think that any people are so out of touch as to actually enjoy war, violence, and killing for its own sake when peaceful options are presented?"

"No, I suppose not; and, indeed, I feel that all you say is true, Mr. Mordan."

"No, I guess not; and honestly, I think everything you say is true, Mr. Mordan."

"Please don't say 'Mr. Mordan,' Sylvia. Even your mother and sister call me Dick. No, no, the other nations would be only too glad to follow our lead, and we, as the greatest Power, should take that lead. What could their soldiers do to a soldierless people, anyhow; and even if we lost at the beginning, why, 'What shall it profit a man if he gain the whole world and lose his own soul?' Of what use is the dominion of a huge, unwieldy empire when even a tiny country like this is so administered that a quarter of its population live always on the verge of starvation? Let the Empire go, let Army and Navy go, let us concentrate our energies upon the arts of peace, science, education, the betterment of the conditions of life among the poor, the right division of the land among those that will till it. Let us do that, and the world would have something to thank us for, and we should soon hear the last of these noisy, ranting idiots who are eternally waving flags like lunatics and mouthing absurd phrases about imperialism and patriotism, national destiny, and rubbish of that sort. Our duty is to humanity, and not to any decayed symbols of feudalism. The talk of patriotism and imperialism is a gigantic fraud, and the tyranny of it makes our names hated throughout the world. We have no right to enforce our sway upon the peace-loving farmers and the ignorant blacks of South Africa. They rightly hate us for it, and so do the millions[24] of India, upon whom our yoke is held by armies of soldiers who have to be maintained by their victims. It casts one down to think of it, just as the sight of those ridiculous rifle-butts and the thought of the diseased sentiment behind them depresses one."

"Please don't call me 'Mr. Mordan,' Sylvia. Even your mom and sister call me Dick. No, no, other countries would be happy to follow our example, and we, as the biggest Power, should take that lead. What could their soldiers do against a people without soldiers, anyway? And even if we lost at first, remember, 'What good is it for a man to gain the whole world but lose his soul?' What’s the point of ruling a huge, clumsy empire when even a small country like this is run so poorly that a quarter of its people are always on the brink of starvation? Let the Empire go, let the Army and Navy go, let’s focus our energy on peace, science, education, improving the lives of the poor, and fairly dividing the land among those who will farm it. If we do that, the world would actually be grateful to us, and we’d soon stop hearing from those noisy, ranting idiots who keep waving flags like crazies and shouting ridiculous phrases about imperialism, patriotism, national destiny, and nonsense like that. Our responsibility is to humanity, not to any outdated symbols of feudalism. The talk of patriotism and imperialism is a massive fraud, and the oppression of it makes our names hated all over the world. We have no right to impose our control on the peaceful farmers and the uninformed people of South Africa. They have every reason to hate us for it, and so do the millions of people in India, who are kept under our control by armies of soldiers that depend on their victims for maintenance. It’s disheartening to think about, just like seeing those absurd rifle butts and the sickly sentiment behind them brings you down."

"It all seems very mad and wrong, but—but I wish you would not take it so much to heart," said Sylvia.

"It all seems really crazy and unfair, but—I just wish you wouldn't let it affect you so much," said Sylvia.

"That is very sweet of you," I told her; "and, indeed, there is not so much real cause to be downhearted. The last elections showed clearly enough that the majority of our people are alive to all this. The leaven of enlightenment is working strongly among the people, and the old tyranny of Jingoism is dying fast. One sees it in a hundred ways. Boer independence has as warm friends in our Parliament as on the veld. The rising movements of internationalism, of Pan-Islam, the Swadeshi movement, the rising toward freedom in India; all these are largely directed from Westminster. The Jingo sentiment toward Germany, a really progressive nation, full of natural and healthy ambitions, is being swept away by our own statesmen; by their courteous and friendly attitude toward the Kaiser, who delights to honour our present Minister of War. Also, the work of disarmament has begun. The naval estimates are being steadily pruned, and whole regiments have been finally disbanded. And all this comes from within. So you see we have some grounds for hopefulness. It is a great step forward, for our own elected leaders to show the enthusiastic and determined opposition they are showing to the old brutal pretensions of[25] England to sway the world by brute strength. But, forgive me! Perhaps I tire you with all this—Sylvia."

"That's really sweet of you," I told her; "and honestly, there's not much reason to feel down. The last elections made it clear that the majority of our people are aware of everything going on. The influence of enlightenment is growing strong among the people, and the old tyranny of Jingoism is fading fast. You can see it in a hundred ways. Boer independence has just as many supporters in our Parliament as it does on the veld. The rising movements of internationalism, Pan-Islam, the Swadeshi movement, and the fight for freedom in India; all of these are largely guided from Westminster. The Jingo sentiment towards Germany, a truly progressive nation with natural and healthy ambitions, is being dismantled by our own leaders; through their courteous and friendly approach to the Kaiser, who takes pleasure in honoring our current Minister of War. Also, disarmament has begun. The naval budgets are being steadily reduced, and entire regiments have been permanently disbanded. And all of this is coming from within. So, you see, we have some reasons to feel hopeful. It's a significant step forward for our elected leaders to show the enthusiastic and determined opposition they're showing to the old brutal pretensions of[25] England trying to dominate the world by sheer force. But, forgive me! I hope I'm not boring you with all this—Sylvia."

"No, no, indeed you don't—Dick, I—I think it is beautiful. It—it seems to make everything bigger, more kind and good. It interests me, immensely."

"No, no, you really don’t—Dick, I—I think it’s beautiful. It—it seems to make everything bigger, kinder, and better. I’m genuinely interested."

And I knew perfectly well that I had not tired her—wearisome though the recital of it all may be now. For I knew instinctively how the personal note told in the whole matter. I had been really heated, and perfectly sincere, but a kind of subconscious cunning had led me to utilize the heat of the moment in introducing between us, for example, the use of first names. Well I knew that I was not wearying Sylvia. But coldly recited now, I admit the rhodomontade to be exceedingly tiresome. My excuse for it is that it serves to indicate the sort of ideas that were abroad at the time, the sort of sentiments which were shaping our destiny.

And I knew very well that I hadn't worn her out—annoying as going through it all might be now. I understood instinctively how personal it was in the whole situation. I had been genuinely passionate and completely sincere, but some subconscious cleverness had prompted me to use the intensity of the moment to introduce, for instance, the use of first names. I knew I wasn't exhausting Sylvia. But now, when recounted detachedly, I admit that it sounds incredibly tedious. My justification for it is that it shows the kind of ideas that were in circulation at the time, the kind of feelings that were shaping our future.

After all, I was an educated youth. Many of my hot statements, too, were of fact, and not merely of opinion and feeling. It is a fact that the sentiment called anti-British had come to be served more slavishly in England than in any foreign land. The duration of our disastrous war in South Africa was positively doubled, as the result of British influence, by Boer hopes pinned upon the deliberate utterances of British politicians. In Egypt, South Africa, India, and other parts of the Empire, all opposition to British rule, all risings, attacks upon our prestige, and the like, were aided, and in many cases fomented, steered, and brought to a successful issue—not by[26] Germans or other foreigners, but by Englishmen, and by Englishmen who had sworn allegiance at St. Stephens. It is no more than a bare statement of fact to say that, in the very year of my arrival in London, the party which ruled the State was a party whose members openly avowed and boasted of their opposition to British dominion, and that in terms, not less, but far more sweeping than mine in talking to Sylvia among the pines at Weybridge.

After all, I was a well-educated young person. Many of my bold statements were based on facts, not just opinions or feelings. It’s a fact that the sentiment labeled anti-British was more passionately supported in England than in any foreign country. The length of our disastrous war in South Africa was actually extended, thanks to British influence, because the Boers had high hopes based on the deliberate statements of British politicians. In Egypt, South Africa, India, and other parts of the Empire, all opposition to British rule, all uprisings, attacks on our reputation, and similar issues, were supported, and in many cases instigated, guided, and led to successful outcomes—not by Germans or other foreigners, but by Englishmen, and by Englishmen who had sworn loyalty at St. Stephens. It’s simply a statement of fact to say that in the very year I arrived in London, the ruling party was one whose members openly declared and bragged about their opposition to British rule, and in terms that were not just as sweeping, but far more so than mine when talking to Sylvia among the pines at Weybridge.

But if Sylvia appreciated and sympathized in the matter of my sermonizing, the rest of the family neither approved the sermons nor Sylvia's interest in them. I was made to feel in various ways that no import must be attached to my attentions to Sylvia. Marjory began to shadow her sister in the daytime, and, as she was frankly rather bored by me, I could not but detect the parental will in this.

But if Sylvia appreciated and empathized with my preaching, the rest of the family neither supported my sermons nor Sylvia's interest in them. I was made to feel in different ways that my attention to Sylvia shouldn’t mean much. Marjory started to follow her sister around during the day, and since she clearly found me pretty boring, I couldn’t help but sense the influence of our parents in this.

Then with regard to my social and political views, Mr. Wheeler joined with his son in openly deriding them. In Leslie's case the thing never went beyond friendly banter. Leslie had no political opinions; he laughed joyously at the mere notion of bothering his head about such matters for a moment. And, in his way, he represented an enormous section of the younger generation of Englishmen in this. The father, on the other hand, was equally typical of his class and generation. This was how he talked to me over his port:—

Then, regarding my social and political views, Mr. Wheeler teamed up with his son to openly ridicule them. In Leslie's case, it never went beyond friendly teasing. Leslie didn’t have any political opinions; he laughed happily at the idea of wasting even a moment thinking about such things. In his way, he represented a huge part of the younger generation of Englishmen in this. The father, on the other hand, was just as typical of his class and generation. This is how he spoke to me over his port:—

"I tell you what it is, you know, Mordan: you're a regular firebrand, you know; by Jove, you are; an out-and-out Socialistic Radical: that's what you are. By gad, sir, I don't mince my words. I consider that—er—opinions[27] like yours are a danger to the country; I do, indeed; a danger to the country, and—er—to the—to the Empire. I do, by gad. And as for your notions about disarmament and that, why, even if our army reductions are justifiable, which, upon my word, I very much doubt, it's ridiculous to suppose we can afford to cut down our Navy. No, sir, the British Navy is Britain's safeguard, and it ought not to be tampered with. I'm an out-and-out Imperialist myself, and—er—I can tell you I have no patience with your Little Englandism."

"I'll tell you straight, Mordan: you're a real firecracker, you know; by gosh, you really are; an outright Socialist Radical: that's what you are. Honestly, I don't hold back. I believe that—uh—views like yours pose a threat to the country; they really do; a threat to the country and—uh—to the— to the Empire. I truly believe that. And as for your ideas about disarmament and all that, well, even if our army cuts are justifiable, which I highly doubt, it's absurd to think we can afford to reduce our Navy. No, sir, the British Navy is Britain's protection, and it shouldn't be messed with. I'm a staunch Imperialist myself, and—uh—I can tell you I have no patience for your Little Englandism."

I am not at all sure whether the class Mr. Wheeler belonged to was not almost the most dangerous class of all. The recent elections showed this class to be a minority. Of course, this section had its strong men, but that it also included a large number of men like Leslie's father was a fact—a fact which yielded pitiful evidence of its weakness. These men called themselves "out-and-out Imperialists," and had not a notion of even the meaning of the word they used. Still less had they any notion of accepting any rôle which involved the bearing of responsibilities, the discharge of civic and national duties.

I’m not really sure if the class Mr. Wheeler belonged to was one of the most dangerous classes of all. The recent elections showed that this class was a minority. Sure, this group had some strong individuals, but it also included many men like Leslie's father, which clearly highlighted its weaknesses. These men called themselves "hardcore Imperialists," but they didn’t even understand what the term meant. Even less did they have any idea of taking on any role that involved facing responsibilities or fulfilling civic and national duties.

Mr. Wheeler's aim in life was to make money and to enjoy himself. He would never have exercised his right to vote if voting had involved postponing dinner. He liked to talk of the British Empire, but he did not even know precisely of what countries it consisted, and I think he would cheerfully have handed Canada to France, Australia to Germany, India to Russia, and South Africa to the Boers, if by so doing he could have escaped the paying of income-tax.[28]

Mr. Wheeler's goal in life was to make money and have a good time. He wouldn't have bothered to vote if it meant delaying dinner. He liked to discuss the British Empire, but he didn’t even know exactly which countries it included, and I believe he would gladly have handed Canada to France, Australia to Germany, India to Russia, and South Africa to the Boers, just to avoid paying income tax.[28]

On Sunday night, my last night at Weybridge, I walked home from church alone with Sylvia. Marjory was in bed with a sore throat, and whatever their notions as to my undesirability, neither Mr. nor Mrs. Wheeler were inclined to attend evening service. Leslie was not home from golf at Byfleet. We were late for dinner, Sylvia and I, and during our walk she promised to write to me regularly, and I promised many things, and suggested many things, and was only deterred from actual declaration by the thought of the poor little sum which stood between me and actual want.

On Sunday night, my last night at Weybridge, I walked home from church alone with Sylvia. Marjory was in bed with a sore throat, and despite their opinions about my unpopularity, neither Mr. nor Mrs. Wheeler wanted to go to evening service. Leslie hadn’t returned from golfing at Byfleet. Sylvia and I were late for dinner, and during our walk, she promised to write to me regularly, and I made many promises and suggestions, only held back from actually stating my feelings because of the small amount of money I had that kept me from real financial trouble.

Next morning I went up to town with Leslie and his father to open my campaign in London. As a first step toward procuring work, I was to present a letter of introduction from a Cambridge friend to the editor of the Daily Gazette. After that, as Leslie said, I was to "reform England inside out."

Next morning, I went into town with Leslie and his dad to kick off my campaign in London. The first step to getting work was to hand over a letter of introduction from a friend at Cambridge to the editor of the Daily Gazette. After that, as Leslie put it, I was going to "reform England inside out."


IV
THE LAUNCHING

"O Friend! I don't know which direction I should look
For comfort, as I am feeling overwhelmed To think that now our life is just dressed For display; skillful work of a craftsman, cook,
Or groom!—We must shine like a sparkling stream
In the bright sunlight, or we are unlucky; The richest person among us is the best; No grandeur now in nature or in books. Delight us...
Wordsworth.

Looking back now upon that lonely launch of mine in London, I see a very curious and sombre picture. In the living I am sure there must have been mitigations, and light as well as shade. In the retrospect it seems one long disillusion. I see myself, and the few folk with whom my relations were intimate, struggling like ants across a grimy stage, in the midst of an inferno of noise, confusion, pointless turmoil, squalor, and ultimate cataclysm. The whole picture is lurid, superhuman in its chaotic gloom; but in the living, I know there were gleams of sunlight. The tragic muddle of that period was so monstrous, that even we who lived through it are apt in retrospect to see only the gloom and confusion. It is natural, therefore, that those who did not live through it should be utterly unable to discern any glimpse of[30] relief in the picture. And that leads to misconception.

Looking back now on that lonely start of mine in London, I see a strange and somber scene. I’m sure there were ups and downs in real life, with both light and shadow. In hindsight, it feels like one long disillusionment. I see myself and the few people I was close to, struggling like ants across a dirty stage, surrounded by a chaos of noise, confusion, pointless turmoil, squalor, and ultimate disaster. The whole image is vivid and almost otherworldly in its chaotic darkness; but I know there were moments of sunlight in the reality. The tragic mess of that time was so overwhelming that even we who lived through it tend to only remember the gloom and confusion. It’s only natural that those who didn’t experience it would be completely unable to see any hint of relief in the scene. And that leads to misunderstanding.

As a fact, I found very much to admire in London when I sallied forth from the obscure lodging I had chosen in a Bloomsbury back street, on the morning which brought an end to my stay with the Wheelers at Weybridge. Also, it was not given to me at that time to recognize as such one tithe of the madness and badness of the state of affairs. Some wholly bad features were quite good in my eyes then.

As a fact, I found a lot to admire in London when I stepped out of the small place I had picked in a Bloomsbury back street, on the morning that marked the end of my stay with the Wheelers at Weybridge. Also, at that time, I wasn’t able to see even a fraction of the craziness and negativity of the situation. Some completely negative aspects actually seemed good to me back then.

London still clung to its "season," as it was called, though motor-cars and railway facilities had entirely robbed this of its sharply defined nineteenth-century limits. Very many people, even among the wealthy, lived entirely in London, spending their week-ends in this or that country or seaside resort, and devoting the last months of summer with, in many cases, the first months of autumn, to holiday-making on the Continent, or in Scotland, or on the English moors or coasts.

London still held on to its "season," as it was called, even though cars and trains had totally blurred the clear boundaries that defined it in the nineteenth century. Many people, even among the wealthy, lived entirely in London, spending their weekends at various country or seaside spots, and dedicating the last months of summer and, in many cases, the first months of autumn, to vacationing on the Continent, in Scotland, or on the English moors or coasts.

The London season was not over when I reached town, and in the western residential quarters the sun shone brightly upon many-coloured awnings and beautiful decorative plants and flowers. The annual rents paid by people who lived behind these flowers and awnings frequently ran into thousands of pounds, with ten shillings in each pound additional by way of rates and taxes. To live at all, in this strata, would cost a man and his wife perhaps eighty to a hundred pounds a week, without anything which would have been called extravagance.

The London season wasn't over when I got to the city, and in the western residential areas, the sun shone brightly on the colorful awnings and lovely decorative plants and flowers. The yearly rents paid by those living behind these flowers and awnings often amounted to thousands of pounds, plus an additional ten shillings for each pound in rates and taxes. To live in this class at all would cost a man and his wife around eighty to a hundred pounds a week, without anything that would be considered extravagant.

Hundreds of people who lived in this way had[31] neighbours within a hundred yards of their front doors who never had enough to eat. Even such people as these had to pay preposterous rents for the privilege of huddling together in a single wretched room. But many of their wealthy neighbours spent hundreds, and even thousands of pounds a year over securing comfort and happiness for such domestic animals as horses, dogs, cats, and the like. Amiable, kindly gentlefolk they were, with tender hearts and ready sympathies. Most of them were interested in some form of charity. Many of them specialized, and these would devote much energy to opposing the work of other charitable specialists. Lady So-and-so, who advocated this panacea, found herself bitterly opposed by Sir So-and-so, who wanted all sufferers to be made to take his nostrum in his special way. Then sometimes poor Lady So-and-so would throw up her panacea in a huff, and concentrate her energies upon the work of some society for converting Jews, who did not want to be converted, or for supplying red flannel petticoats for South Sea Island girls, who infinitely preferred cotton shifts and floral wreaths. Even these futile charities were permitted to overlap one another to a bewilderingly wasteful extent.

Hundreds of people living like this had[31]neighbors within a hundred yards of their front doors who never had enough to eat. Even these individuals had to pay outrageous rents for the privilege of cramming into a single miserable room. Meanwhile, many of their wealthy neighbors spent hundreds or even thousands of pounds a year ensuring comfort and happiness for their pets like horses, dogs, and cats. They were nice, caring people with compassionate hearts and sympathetic natures. Most of them were involved in some kind of charity. Many had their specific focus, and they would put a lot of energy into opposing the efforts of other charitable groups. Lady So-and-so, who promoted this miracle cure, found herself strongly opposed by Sir So-and-so, who believed all those in need should take his remedy in his particular way. Occasionally, poor Lady So-and-so would give up on her miracle cure in frustration and shift her focus to some society aimed at converting Jews, who didn’t want to be converted, or providing red flannel petticoats for South Sea Island girls, who overwhelmingly preferred cotton shifts and floral wreaths. Even these pointless charities were allowed to overlap in a bewilderingly wasteful way.

But the two saddest aspects of the whole gigantic muddle so far as charitable work went, were undoubtedly these: The fact that much of it went to produce a class of men and women who would not do any kind of work because they found that by judicious sponging they could live and obtain alcohol and tobacco in idleness; and the fact that where charitable endeavour infringed upon vested interests, licit or[32] illicit, it was savagely opposed by the persons interested.

But the two saddest aspects of the whole massive mess regarding charitable work were definitely these: The fact that much of it helped create a group of men and women who wouldn't do any kind of work because they discovered that by skillfully taking advantage of others, they could live comfortably and get alcohol and tobacco while being idle; and the fact that when charitable efforts clashed with vested interests, whether legal or illegal, they were fiercely opposed by those involved.

The discipline of the national schools was slack, intermittent, and of short reach. There was positively no duty to the State which a youth was bound to observe. Broadly, it might be said that at that time discipline simply did not enter at all into the life of the poor of the towns, and charity of every conceivable and inconceivable kind did enter into it at every turn.

The discipline in the national schools was loose, inconsistent, and limited in effectiveness. There was absolutely no obligation to the State that a young person had to follow. Generally speaking, it could be said that during that time, discipline was completely absent from the lives of the urban poor, while all kinds of charity, both expected and unexpected, were present at every corner.

The police service was excellent and crime exceedingly difficult of accomplishment. The inevitable result was the evolution in the towns of a class of men and women, but more especially of men, who, though compact of criminal instincts of every kind, yet committed no offence against criminal law. They committed nothing. They simply lived, drinking to excess when possible, determined upon one point only: that they never would do anything which could possibly be called work. It is obvious that among such people the sense of duty either to themselves, to each other, or to the State, was merely non-existent.

The police service was excellent, making it incredibly hard to commit crimes. As a result, a group of men and women evolved in the towns, especially men, who, despite having all kinds of criminal instincts, never broke any laws. They did nothing wrong. They simply lived, drinking excessively whenever they could, focused on one thing only: they would never do anything that could be considered work. It's clear that among these people, the sense of duty to themselves, to each other, or to the state was basically non-existent.

London had long since earned the reputation of being the most charitable city in the world. Its share in the production of an immense loafer class formed one sad aspect of London's charity when I first came to know the city. Another was the opposition of vested interests—the opposition of the individual to the welfare of the mass. One found it everywhere. An instance I call to mind (it happened to be brought sharply home to me) struck at the root of the terribly rapid production of degenerates, by virtue of its relation[33] to pauper children—that is, the children to whom the State, through its boards of guardians, stood in the light of parents, because their natural parents were dead, or in prison, or in lunatic asylums, or hopelessly far gone in the state of criminal inactivity which qualified so many for all three estates.

London had long been recognized as the most charitable city in the world. One sad aspect of London’s charity, when I first got to know the city, was the large number of idle people it produced. Another issue was the resistance from vested interests—the conflict between individual benefit and the well-being of the community. You could see it everywhere. One situation that stands out to me (it impacted me directly) struck at the heart of the alarming increase in people struggling with serious issues, particularly concerning impoverished children—that is, those kids for whom the State, through its boards of guardians, acted as parents, because their biological parents were dead, incarcerated, in mental hospitals, or so far gone into a state of despondency that they qualified for all three conditions.

Huge institutions were built at great expense for the accommodation of these little unfortunates. Here they were housed in the most costly manner, the whole work of the establishment being carried on by a highly paid staff of servants and officials. The children were not allowed to do anything at all, beyond the learning by rote of various theories which there was no likelihood of their ever being able to apply to any reality of life with which they would come in contact.

Huge institutions were built at great cost to accommodate these unfortunate kids. They were housed in the most expensive way, with everything run by a highly paid staff of servants and officials. The children weren't allowed to do anything at all, other than memorizing various theories that they would likely never be able to apply to any real-life situations they would encounter.

They listened to lectures on the making of dainty dishes in the best style of French cookery, and in many cases they never saw a box of matches. They learned to repeat poetry as parrots might, but did not know the difference between shavings and raw coffee. They learned vague smatterings of Roman history, but did not know how to clean their boots or brush their hair. It was as though experts had been called upon to devise a scheme whereby children might be reared into their teens without knowing that they were alive or where they lived, and this with the greatest possible outlay of money per child. Then, at a given age, these children were put outside the massive gates of the institutions and told to run away and become good citizens.

They attended lectures on how to make fancy dishes in the finest French cooking style, and many of them never even saw a box of matches. They memorized poetry like parrots but didn’t know the difference between wood shavings and raw coffee. They picked up some random facts about Roman history, but couldn’t figure out how to clean their boots or brush their hair. It was as if experts had been asked to create a system where kids could grow into their teenage years without realizing they were alive or where they lived, all while spending as much money as possible per child. Then, at a certain age, these kids were sent outside the big gates of the institutions and told to go away and become good citizens.

It followed as a matter of course that most of them[34] fell steadily and rapidly into the pit; the place occupied by the criminally inactive, the "public-house props." So they returned poor, heavy-laden creatures, by way of charity, to the institutions of the "rates," thus completing the vicious circle of life forced upon them by an incredibly wrong-headed, topsyturvy administration.

It was only natural that most of them[34] ended up quickly and consistently in the pit; the space taken by those who did nothing, the "public-house props." So they were sent back, miserable and burdened, as a form of charity, to the institutions funded by the "rates," thus completing the destructive cycle of life imposed on them by a completely misguided, upside-down administration.

For the maintenance of this vicious circle enormous sums of public money were required. Failing such vast expenditure, Nature unaided would have righted matters to some extent, and the Poor Law guardians would have become by so much the less wielders of power and influence, dispensers of public money. Some of these Poor Law guardians gave up more or less honest trades to take to Poor Law guardianship as a business; and they waxed fat upon it.

To keep this vicious cycle going, a huge amount of public money was needed. Without such massive spending, nature would have corrected things to some degree, and the Poor Law guardians would have had less power and influence, as well as less public money to manage. Some of these Poor Law guardians left more or less honest jobs to become Poor Law guardians as their main business, and they profited greatly from it.

Every now and again came disclosures. Guardians were shown to have paid ten shillings a score for such and such a commodity this year, and next year to have refused a tender for the supply of the same article at 9s. 8d. a score, in favour of the tender of a relative or protégé of one of their number at 109s. 8d. a score. I remember the newspapers showing up such cases as these during the week of my arrival in London. The public read and shrugged shoulders.

Every now and then, revelations surfaced. Guardians were reported to have paid ten shillings for a certain commodity this year, only to turn down a bid for the same item at 9s. 8d. next year, choosing instead the bid of a relative or protégé of one of their own at 109s. 8d. I recall the newspapers highlighting cases like this during the week I arrived in London. The public read about it and shrugged their shoulders.

"Rascally thieves, these guardians," said the Public; and straightway forgot the whole business in the rush of its own crazy race for money.

"Those sneaky thieves, these protectors," said the Public; and immediately forgot the entire situation in the frenzy of its own wild chase for money.

"But," cried the Reformer to the Public, "this is really your business. It is your duty as citizens to stop this infamous traffic. Don't you see how you yourselves are being robbed?"[35]

"But," shouted the Reformer to the public, "this is really your responsibility. It's your duty as citizens to put an end to this disgraceful trade. Can't you see how you are being cheated?"[35]

You must picture our British Public of the day as a flushed, excited man, hurrying wildly along in pursuit of two phantoms—money and pleasure. These he desired to grasp for himself, and he was being furiously jostled by millions of his fellows, each one of whom desired just the same thing, and nothing else. Faintly, amidst the frantic turmoil, came the warning voices in the wilderness:

You should imagine our British public today as a flushed, excited person, rushing frantically in search of two illusions—money and pleasure. He wanted to seize them for himself, and he was being roughly pushed aside by millions of others, each one wanting exactly the same thing, and nothing more. Faintly, amidst the frantic chaos, came the warning voices in the wilderness:

"This is your business. It is your duty as citizens," etc.

This is your business. It's your responsibility as citizens,

Over his shoulder, our poor possessed Public would fling his answer:

Over his shoulder, our poor controlled Public would throw back his response:

"Leave me alone. I haven't time to attend to it. I'm too busy. You mustn't interrupt me. Why the deuce don't the Government see to it? Lot of rascals! Don't bother me. I represent commerce, and, whatever you do, you must not in any way interfere with the Freedom of Trade."

"Leave me alone. I don't have time to deal with this. I'm too busy. You shouldn't interrupt me. Why on earth doesn't the government handle it? What a bunch of rascals! Don't bother me. I represent business, and whatever you do, you must not interfere with the freedom of trade in any way."

The band of the reformers was considerable, embracing as it did the better, braver sort of statesmen, soldiers, sailors, clergy, authors, journalists, sociologists, and the whole brotherhood of earnest thinkers. But the din and confusion was frightful, the pace at which the million lived was terrific; and, after all, the cries of the reformers all meant the same thing, the one thing the great, sweating public was determined not to hear, and not to act on. They all meant:

The group of reformers was significant, including the best and bravest politicians, soldiers, sailors, clergy, writers, journalists, sociologists, and the entire community of serious thinkers. But the noise and chaos were overwhelming, and the speed at which the masses lived was intense; ultimately, the demands of the reformers all conveyed the same message, the one thing the exhausted public was set on ignoring and refusing to respond to. They all meant:

"Step out from your race a moment. Your duties are here. You are passing them all by. Come to your duties."

"Take a moment to step away from the hustle. Your responsibilities are right here. You're overlooking them all. Focus on your duties."

It was like a Moslem call to prayer; but, alas! it was directed at a people who had sloughed all pretensions[36] to be ranked among those who respond to such calls, to any calls which would distract them from their objective in the pelting pursuit of money and pleasure.

It was like a Muslim call to prayer; but unfortunately, it was aimed at people who had shed all claims to be part of those who respond to such calls, or any calls that would distract them from their relentless pursuit of money and pleasure.[36]

But I am digressing—the one vice which, unfortunately for us, we never indulged or condoned at the time of my arrival in London. I wanted to give an instance of that aspect of charity and attempted social reform which aroused the opposition of vested interests and chartered brigands in the great money hunt. It was this: A certain charitable lady gave some years of her life to the study of those conditions in which, as I have said, the criminally inactive, the hopelessly useless, were produced by authorized routine, at a ruinous cost in money and degeneracy, and to the great profit of an unscrupulous few.

But I’m getting off track—the one flaw that, unfortunately for us, we never engaged in or approved of at the time I arrived in London. I wanted to highlight an example of that facet of charity and attempted social reform that sparked the backlash of established interests and legalized thieves in the massive pursuit of wealth. It was this: A certain charitable woman dedicated several years of her life to understanding the conditions in which, as I mentioned, the criminally passive and the hopelessly unproductive were created by sanctioned routines, at a tremendous cost in money and decay, and to the significant benefit of a ruthless few.

This lady then gave some further years, not to mention money, influence, and energy, to the evolution of a scheme by which these pauper children could really be made good and independent citizens, and that at an all-round cost of about one-fifth of the price of the guardians' method for converting them into human wrecks and permanent charges upon the State. The wise practicability of this lady's system was admitted by independent experts, and denied by nobody. But it was swept aside and crushed, beaten down with vicious, angry thoroughness, in one quarter—the quarter of vested interest and authority; quietly, passively discouraged in various other quarters; and generally ignored, as another interrupting duty call, by the rushing public.

This woman then dedicated several more years, along with money, influence, and energy, to developing a plan that could genuinely transform these impoverished children into self-sufficient and productive citizens, all at about one-fifth the cost of the guardians' method, which turned them into lifelong burdens on the State. The practicality of this woman's approach was recognized by independent experts and was not disputed by anyone. However, it was dismissed and silenced, thoroughly crushed in one area—the realm of vested interests and authority; quietly and passively discouraged in various other areas; and generally overlooked, regarded as just another distraction, by the hurried public.

Here, then, were three kinds of opposition—the[37] first active and deadly, the other two passive and fatal, because they withheld needed support. The reason of the first, the guardians' opposition, was frankly and shamelessly admitted in London at the time of my arrival there. The guardians said:

Here, then, were three types of resistance—the[37] first being active and dangerous, while the other two were passive and harmful because they withheld essential support. The reason for the first, the opposition from the guardians, was openly and unabashedly acknowledged in London when I arrived. The guardians said:

"This scheme would reduce the rates. We want more rates. It would reduce the amount of money at our disposal. We aim at increasing that. It would divert certain streams of cash from our own channel into other channels in other parts of the Empire. We won't have it." But their words were far less civil and more heated than these, though the sense of them was as I have said.

"This plan would lower the rates. We want higher rates. It would reduce the funds we have available. We aim to increase those. It would redirect certain sources of income from our own channel to other channels in different parts of the Empire. We refuse to accept it." But their words were much less polite and more intense than this, though the meaning was as I've mentioned.

The quiet, passive opposition was that of other workers in charity and reform. They said in effect:

The quiet, passive opposition came from other workers in charity and reform. They essentially said:

"Yes, the scheme is all right—an excellent scheme. But why do you take it upon yourself to bring it forward in this direct manner? Are you not aware of the existence of our B—— nostrum for pauper children, or our C—— specific for juvenile emigration? Your scheme, admirable as it is, ignores both these, and therefore you must really excuse us if we—— Quite so! But, of course, as co-workers in the good cause, we wish you well——", and so forth.

"Yes, the plan is perfectly fine—an excellent plan. But why do you feel the need to present it so directly? Are you not aware of our B—— solution for underprivileged kids, or our C—— approach for youth emigration? Your plan, as great as it is, overlooks both of these, so you’ll have to excuse us if we—— Right! But, of course, as partners in a good cause, we wish you all the best——", and so on.

The opposition of the general public I have explained. It was not really opposition. It was simply a part of the disease of the period; the dropsical, fatty degeneration of a people. But the mere fact that the reformers sent forth their cries and still laboured beside the public's crowded race-course; that such people as the lady I have mentioned existed—and[38] there were many like her—should show that London as I found it was not all shadow and gloom, as it seems when one looks back upon it from the clear light of better days.

The public's opposition that I've talked about wasn't really opposition at all. It was just a symptom of the times; a swelling, unhealthy stagnation of society. The simple fact that the reformers were out there shouting for change and still working alongside the bustling crowd at the racecourse; that people like the woman I mentioned actually existed—and there were many like her—shows that London, as I experienced it, wasn’t just darkness and despair, even if it feels that way when looking back from the brightness of better times.[38]

The darkness, the confusion, and the din, were not easy to see and hear through then. From this distance they are more impenetrable; but I know the light did break through continually in places, and good men and women held wide the windows of their consciousness to welcome it, striving their utmost to carry it into the thick of the fight. Many broke their hearts in the effort; but there were others, and those who fell had successors. The heart of our race never was of the stuff that can be broken. It was the strongest thing in all that tumultuous world of my youth, and I recall now the outstanding figures of men already gray and bowed by long lives of strenuous endeavour, who yet fought without pause at this time on the side of those who strove to check the mad, blind flight of the people.

The darkness, confusion, and noise were hard to see and hear through back then. From this distance, they feel even more impenetrable; but I know that light did break through continually in places, and good men and women kept their minds open to welcome it, doing their best to bring it into the thick of the fight. Many broke their hearts in the effort; but there were others, and those who fell had successors. The heart of our race has never been easy to break. It was the strongest thing in all that chaotic world of my youth, and I now remember the notable figures of men who were already gray and hunched from long lives of hard work, yet fought without pause at this time alongside those who tried to stop the mad, blind rush of the people.

London, as I entered it, was a battle-field; the perverse waste of human energy and life was frightful; but it was not quite the unredeemed chaos which it seems as we look back upon it.

London, as I entered it, was a battlefield; the shocking waste of human energy and life was terrifying; but it wasn't entirely the unredeemed chaos that it appears when we look back on it.

The Roaring City

Even in the red centre of the stampede (Fleet Street is within the City boundaries) men in the race took time for the exercise of human kindliness, when opportunity was brought close enough to them. The letter I took to the editor of the Daily Gazette was from an old friend of his who knew, and told him, of my exact circumstances. This gentleman received me kindly and courteously. He and his like were among[39] the most furiously hurried in the race, but their handling of great masses of diffuse information gave them, in many cases, a wide outlook, and where, as often happened, they were well balanced as well as honest, I think they served their age as truly as any of their contemporaries, and with more effect than most.

Even in the thick of the stampede (Fleet Street is within the city limits), people in the rush took a moment for some human kindness when the opportunity arose. The letter I delivered to the editor of the Daily Gazette was from an old friend of his who was aware of my situation and informed him about it. This gentleman welcomed me warmly and politely. He and others like him were among the busiest in the frenzy, but their ability to handle vast amounts of information gave them a broad perspective. When they were both well-balanced and honest, which often happened, I believe they served their time as genuinely as any of their peers, and were often more effective than most.

This gentleman talked to me for ten minutes, during which time he learned most of all there was to know about my little journalistic and debating experience at Cambridge, and the general trend of my views and purposes. I do not think he particularly desired my services; but, on the other hand, I was not an absolute ignoramus. I had written for publication; I had enthusiasm; and there was my Cambridge friend's letter.

This guy talked to me for ten minutes, during which he found out pretty much everything there was to know about my limited journalism and debate experience at Cambridge, as well as my general views and goals. I don’t think he really wanted me to work for him, but on the flip side, I wasn’t completely clueless. I had written pieces for publication; I had passion; and I had that letter from my friend at Cambridge.

"Well, Mr. Mordan," he said, turning toward a table littered deep with papers, and cumbered with telephones and bells, "I cannot offer you anything very brilliant at the moment; but I see no reason why you should not make a niche for yourself. We all have to do that, you know—or drop out to make way for others. You probably know that in Fleet Street, more perhaps than elsewhere, the race is to the swift. There are no reserved seats. The best I can do for you now is to enter you on the reporting staff. It is stretching a point somewhat to make the pay fifty shillings a week for a beginning. That is the best I can do. Would you care to take that?"

"Well, Mr. Mordan," he said, turning toward a table covered with papers and cluttered with phones and bells, "I can’t offer you anything particularly exciting right now; but I don’t see why you can’t carve out a spot for yourself. We all have to do that, or else step aside for others. You probably know that in Fleet Street, more than anywhere else, the competition is fierce. There are no reserved seats. The best I can do for you is to get you on the reporting staff. It’s a bit of a stretch to start you at fifty shillings a week. That’s the most I can offer. Would you like to take it?"

"Certainly," I told him; "and I'm very much obliged to you for the chance."

"Of course," I said to him; "and I really appreciate you giving me the opportunity."

"Right. Then you might come in to-morrow. I[40] will arrange with the news-editor. And now——" He looked up, and I took my hat. Then he looked down again, as though seeking something on the floor. "Well, I think that's all. Of course, it rests with you to make your own place, or—or lose it. I sympathize with what you have told me of your views—of course. You know the policy of the paper. But you must remember that running a newspaper is a complex business. One's methods cannot always be direct. Life is made up of compromises, and—er—at times a turn to the left is the shortest way to the right—er—Good night!"

"Okay. Then you can come in tomorrow. I[40] will coordinate with the news editor. And now——" He glanced up, and I grabbed my hat. Then he looked down again, as if searching for something on the floor. "Well, I think that's it. Ultimately, it's up to you to carve out your own space, or—or miss out. I understand what you've shared about your views—of course. You know the paper's policy. But keep in mind that running a newspaper is complicated. Sometimes, you can't be straightforward. Life is made up of compromises, and—uh—sometimes a detour to the left is the quickest way to the right—uh—Good night!"

Thus I was given my chance within a few hours of my descent upon the great roaring City. I was spared much. Even then I knew by hearsay, as I subsequently learned for myself, that hundreds of men of far wider experience and greater ability than mine were wearily tramping London's pavements at that moment, longing, questing bitterly for work that would bring them half the small salary I was to earn.

Thus, I got my chance within a few hours of arriving in the bustling City. I was fortunate. Even then, I had heard, and later found out myself, that hundreds of men with much more experience and talent than I had were trudging through London's streets at that moment, desperately searching for jobs that would pay them a fraction of the small salary I was about to earn.

I wrote to Sylvia that night, from my little room among the cat-infested chimney-pots of Bloomsbury; and I am sure my letter did not suggest that London was a very gloomy place. My hopes ran high.

I wrote to Sylvia that night from my small room among the cat-filled chimney pots of Bloomsbury, and I'm sure my letter didn’t make London seem like a really depressing place. I was feeling very optimistic.


V
A JOURNALIST'S EQUIPMENT

"... Violence, greed, spending,
This is idolatry; and these are what we worship:
Simple living and lofty thinking are gone: The simple beauty of the good old cause
Is gone; our peace, our naive innocence,
"And pure religion guiding family rules."
Wordsworth.

Acting on the instructions I had received overnight, I presented myself at the office of the Daily Gazette in good time on the morning after my interview with the editor. A pert boy showed me into the news-editor's room, after an interval of waiting, and I found myself confronting the man who controlled my immediate destiny. He was dictating telegrams to a shorthand writer, and, for the moment, took no notice whatever of me. I stood at the end of his table, hat in hand, wondering how so young-looking a man came to be occupying his chair.

Performance on the instructions I got the night before, I arrived at the office of the Daily Gazette promptly the morning after my interview with the editor. A cheeky young boy led me into the news editor's room after I had waited for a bit, and I found myself face-to-face with the man who held my immediate fate in his hands. He was dictating telegrams to a shorthand writer and, for the moment, completely ignored me. I stood at the end of his desk, hat in hand, wondering how such a young-looking guy ended up in his position.

He looked about my age, but was a few years older. His face was as smooth as the head of a new axe, and had something else chopper-like about it. He reminded me of pictures I had seen in the advertisement pages of American magazines; pictures showing a wedge-like human face, from the lips of which some such an assertion as "It's you I want!" was supposed[42] to be issuing. I subsequently learned that this Mr. Charles N. Pierce had spent several years in New York, and that he was credited with having largely increased the circulation of the Daily Gazette since taking over his present position. He suddenly raised the even, mechanical tone in which he dictated, and snapped out the words:

He looked about my age, but was a few years older. His face was as smooth as a new axe head, and it had a slightly chopper-like quality to it. He reminded me of the images I had seen in the ads of American magazines; pictures showing a wedge-shaped face, from which a statement like "It's you I want!" was supposed[42] to be coming. I later found out that this Mr. Charles N. Pierce had spent several years in New York and was credited with significantly boosting the circulation of the Daily Gazette since taking on his current role. He suddenly raised the even, mechanical tone in which he dictated and snapped out the words:

"Right. Get on with those now, and come back in five minutes."

"Alright. Get started on those now and come back in five minutes."

Then he switched his gaze on to me, like a searchlight.

Then he turned his gaze toward me, like a spotlight.

"Mr. Mordan, I believe?"

"Are you Mr. Mordan?"

I admitted the charge with my best smile. Mr. Pierce ignored the smile, and said:

I acknowledged the accusation with my biggest smile. Mr. Pierce ignored the smile and said:

"University man?"

"University student?"

Accepting his cue as to brevity, I said: "Yes. Corpus Christi, Cambridge."

Accepting his hint to keep it short, I said: "Yes. Corpus Christi, Cambridge."

He pursed his thin lips. "Ah well," he said, "you'll get over that."

He pressed his thin lips together. "Oh well," he said, "you'll move on from that."

In his way he was perfectly right; but his way was as coldly offensive as any I had ever met with.

In his own way, he was completely right; but his approach was just as harshly offensive as any I had ever encountered.

"Well, Mr. Mordan, I've only three things to say. Reports for this paper must be sound English; they must be live stories; they must be short. You might ask a boy to show you the reporters' room. You'll get your assignment presently. As a day man, you'll be here from ten to six. That's all."

"Alright, Mr. Mordan, I have just three things to say. Reports for this paper need to be well-written in English; they should be engaging stories; and they must be brief. You can ask a guy to show you the reporters' room. You'll receive your assignment shortly. As a day worker, you'll be here from ten to six. That's it."

And his blade of a face descended into the heart of a sheaf of papers. As I reached the door the blade rose again, to emit a kind of thin bark:

And his sharp face dipped into the pile of papers. As I got to the door, the sharpness lifted again, letting out a sort of thin bark:

"Ah!"

"Wow!"

I turned on my heel, waiting.[43]

I turned on my heel, waiting.[43]

"Do you know anything about spelling?"

"Do you know anything about spelling?"

I tried to look pleasant, as I said I thought I was to be relied on in this.

I tried to appear friendly, as I mentioned I believed I could be depended on for this.

"Well, ask my secretary for tickets for the meeting at Memorial Hall to-day; something to do with spelling. Don't do more than thirty or forty lines. Right."

"Well, ask my assistant for tickets to the meeting at Memorial Hall today; it's about spelling. Keep it to no more than thirty or forty lines. Got it."

And the blade fell once more, leaving me free to make my escape, which I did with a considerable sense of relief. I found the secretary a meek little clerk, with a curious hidden vein of timid facetiousness. He supplied me with the necessary ticket and a hand-bill of particulars. Then he said:

And the blade came down again, giving me the chance to escape, which I did with a great sense of relief. The secretary was a quiet little clerk, with a strangely subtle sense of humor. He gave me the ticket I needed and a handout with details. Then he said:

"Mr. Pierce is quite bright and pleasant this morning."

"Mr. Pierce is looking quite cheerful and friendly this morning."

"Oh, is he?" I said.

"Oh, really?" I said.

"Yes, very—for him. He's all right, you know, when you get into his way. Of course, he's a real hustler—cleverest journalist in London, they say."

"Yeah, totally—for him. He’s fine, you know, once you figure him out. Of course, he’s a real go-getter—supposedly the smartest journalist in London."

"Really!" I think I introduced the right note of admiration. At all events, it seemed to please this little pale-eyed rabbit of a man, who, as I found later, was reverentially devoted to his bullying chief, and positively took a kind of fearful joy in being more savagely browbeaten by Pierce than any other man in the building. A queer taste, but a fortunate one for a man in his particular position.

"Really!" I think I hit the right note of admiration. At any rate, it seemed to make this small, pale-eyed man happy, who, as I later found out, was deeply devoted to his overbearing boss and seemed to take a strange kind of pleasure in getting bullied by Pierce more than anyone else in the office. A strange preference, but a lucky one for someone in his particular position.

For myself, I was at once repelled and gagged by Pierce's manner. I believe the man had ability, though I think this was a good deal overrated by himself, and by others, at his dictation; and I dare say he was a good enough fellow at heart. His[44] manner was aggressive and feverish enough to be called a symptom of the disease of the period. If the blood in his veins sang any song at all to Mr. Pierce, the refrain of that song must have been, "Hurry, hurry, hurry!" He and his like never stopped to ask "Whither?" or "Why?" They had not time. And further, if pressed for reasons, destination, and so forth, they would have admitted, to themselves at all events, that there could be no other goal than success; and that success could mean no other thing than the acquisition of money; and that the man who thought otherwise must be a fool—a fool who would soon drop out altogether, to go under, among those who were broken by the way.

For me, I was simultaneously put off and overwhelmed by Pierce's manner. I believe the guy had talent, although I think he definitely overrated it, as did others at his insistence; and I imagine he was a decent enough guy at heart. His[44] demeanor was aggressive and anxious enough to be seen as a sign of the times. If the blood in his veins sang any tune at all, the chorus of that song must have been, "Hurry, hurry, hurry!" He and others like him never paused to ask "Where to?" or "Why?" They didn't have the time. Moreover, if asked for reasons, goals, and so on, they would have admitted, at least to themselves, that there could be no other aim than success; and that success could only mean the accumulation of wealth; and that anyone who thought differently must be a fool—a fool who would soon be cast aside, left behind among those who were worn out along the way.

My general aim and purpose in journalistic work, at the outset, was the serving of social reform in everything that I did. As I saw it, society was in a parlous state indeed, and needed awaking to recognition of the fact, to the crying need for reforms in every direction. That attitude was justifiable enough in all conscience. The trouble was that I was at fault, first, in my diagnosis; second, in my notions as to what kind of remedies were required; and third, as to the application of those remedies.

My main goal in journalism from the start was to promote social reform in everything I did. I believed that society was in a pretty bad state and needed to wake up to the urgent need for changes in all areas. That viewpoint seemed reasonable enough. The problem was that I was mistaken, first, in my understanding of the issues; second, in my ideas about what kind of solutions were needed; and third, in how those solutions should be applied.

Like the rest of the minority whose thoughts were not entirely occupied by the pursuit of pleasure and personal gain, I saw that the greatest obstacle in the path of the reformer was public indifference. But with regard to the causes of that indifference, I was entirely astray. I clung still to the nineteenth-century attitude, which had been justifiable enough during a good portion of that century, but had absolutely[45] ceased to be justifiable before its end came. This was the attitude of demanding the introduction of reforms from above, from the State.

Like others in the minority who weren’t solely focused on pleasure and personal gain, I noticed that the biggest hurdle for reformers was public apathy. However, I was completely mistaken about what caused that indifference. I still held on to the nineteenth-century mindset, which was reasonable enough for a good part of that century, but had completely[45] ceased to be justifiable by the time it ended. This mindset insisted on reforms being imposed from above, by the State.

Though I fancied myself in advance of my time in thought, when I joined the staff of the Daily Gazette, I really was essentially of it. Even my obscure work as reporter very soon brought me into close contact with some of the dreadful sores which disfigured the body social and politic at that time. But do you think they taught me anything? No more than they taught the blindest racer after money in all London. They moved me, moved me deeply; they stirred the very foundations of my being; for I was far from being insensitive. But not even in the most glaringly obvious detail did they move me in the right direction. They merely filled me with resentment, and a passionate desire to bring improvement, aid, betterment; a desire to force the authorities into some action. Never once did it occur to me that the movement must come from the people themselves.

Although I believed I was ahead of my time in thinking when I joined the staff of the Daily Gazette, I was really just a part of it. Even my low-profile work as a reporter quickly got me close to some of the horrifying issues that were damaging society and politics back then. But do you think I learned anything from them? No more than the most clueless gambler chasing money in all of London. They affected me, deeply moved me; they shook the very core of my being; I was far from indifferent. But even in the most painfully obvious detail, they didn’t guide me in the right direction. They just filled me with anger and a passionate desire for improvement, help, and progress; a desire to push the authorities into taking action. It never once crossed my mind that the change had to come from the people themselves.

Poverty, though frequently a dreadful complication, was far from being at the root of all the sores. The average respectable working-class wage-earner with a wife and family, who earned from 25s. to 35s. or 40s. a week, would spend a quarter of that wage upon his own drinking; thereby not alone making saving for a rainy day impossible, but docking his family of some of the real necessities of life. But this was accepted as a matter of course. The man wanted the beer; he must have it. The State made absolutely no demand whatever upon such a man. But it did for him and his, more than he did for himself[46] and his family. And, giving positively nothing to the State, he complainingly demanded yet more from it.

Poverty, while often a terrible issue, wasn't the sole cause of all the problems. The average respectable working-class person with a spouse and kids, earning between 25s. to 35s. or 40s. a week, would spend a quarter of that income on drinking. This not only made it impossible to save for emergencies but also deprived his family of some basic needs. Yet, this was taken for granted. The man wanted his beer; he had to have it. The State placed no demands on him at all. But it did more for him and his family than he did for them. And, while contributing nothing to the State, he still complained and asked for more.[46]

These were respectable men. A large number of men spent a half, and even three-quarters of their earnings in drink. The middle class spent proportionately far less on liquor, and far more upon display of one kind and another; they seldom denied themselves anything which they could possibly obtain. The rich, as a class, lived in and for indulgence, in some cases refined and subtle, in others gross; but always indulgence. The sense of duty to the State simply did not exist as an attribute of any class, but only here and there in individuals.

These were respectable men. Many men spent half, or even three-quarters, of their earnings on alcohol. The middle class spent significantly less on drinks and more on various displays; they rarely denied themselves anything they could get their hands on. The wealthy, as a group, lived for pleasure, sometimes in a sophisticated way, other times in a more crude manner; but it was always about indulgence. The sense of duty to the State was virtually absent as a characteristic of any group, appearing only occasionally in individuals.

I believe I am strictly correct in saying that in half a century, while the population increased by seventy-five per cent., lunacy had increased by two hundred and fifty per cent.

I believe I'm absolutely right in saying that in fifty years, while the population grew by seventy-five percent, the number of people with mental illness increased by two hundred and fifty percent.

Yet the majority rushed blindly on, paying no heed to any other thing on earth than their own gratification, their own pursuit of the money for the purchase of pleasure. One of the tragic fallacies of the period was this crazy notion that not alone pleasure, but happiness, could be bought with money, and in no other way. And the few who were stung by the prevailing suffering and wretchedness into recognition of our parlous state, we, for the most part, cherished my wild delusion, and insisted that the trouble could be remedied if the State would contract and discharge new obligations. We clamoured for more rights, more help, more liberty, more freedom from this and that; never seeing that our trouble was our incomplete[47] comprehension of the rights and privileges we had, with their corresponding obligations.

Yet the majority rushed ahead blindly, paying no attention to anything else on earth except their own gratification and pursuit of money for pleasure. One of the tragic misconceptions of the time was this insane idea that not just pleasure, but happiness, could be bought with money, and in no other way. And the few who were affected by the widespread suffering and misery enough to recognize our dire situation mostly held onto my wild delusion, insisting that the problem could be solved if the State would take on and fulfill new obligations. We clamored for more rights, more help, more liberty, more freedom from this and that; never realizing that our issue was our incomplete[47] understanding of the rights and privileges we already had, along with their corresponding obligations.

Though I knew them not, and as a Daily Gazette reporter was little likely to meet them, there were men who strove to open the eyes of the people to the truth, and strove most valiantly. I call to mind a great statesman and a great general, both old men, a great pro-consul, a great poet and writer, a great editor, and here and there politicians with elements of greatness in them, who fought hard for the right. But these men were lonely figures as yet, and I am bound to say of the people's leaders generally, at the time of my journalistic enterprise, that they were a poor, truckling, uninspired lot of sheep, with a few clever wolves among them, who saw the people's madness and folly and preyed upon it masterfully by every trick within the scope of their ingenuity.

Though I didn't know them personally, and as a Daily Gazette reporter was unlikely to meet them, there were men who worked hard to open people's eyes to the truth, and they fought valiantly for it. I remember a great statesman and a great general, both older men, a prominent pro-consul, a renowned poet and writer, a great editor, and a few politicians with real potential for greatness, who fought tirelessly for what was right. However, these men were still lonely figures at the time, and I must say that the leaders of the people during my time as a journalist were a poor, sycophantic, uninspired bunch, with a handful of clever opportunists among them, who recognized the people's madness and folly and skillfully exploited it with every trick they could come up with.

Even those who were honourable, disinterested, and, for such a period, unselfish, were for the most part the disciples of tradition and the slaves of that life-sapping curse of British politics: the party spirit, which led otherwise honourable men to oppose with all their strength the measures of their party opponents, even in the face of their country's dire need.

Even those who were honorable, unbiased, and, during that time, selfless were mostly followers of tradition and victims of that draining curse of British politics: party loyalty, which pushed otherwise honorable people to fiercely oppose the actions of their political rivals, even when their country desperately needed unity.

Then there was the anti-British faction, a party which spread fast-growing shoots from out the then Government's very heart and root. The Government's half-hearted supporters were not anti-British, but they were not readers of the Daily Gazette; they were not, in short, whole-hearted Government supporters. They were Whigs, as the saying went. My party, the readers of the Gazette, the out-and-out[48] Government party, to whom I looked for real progress, real social reform; they were unquestionably riddled through and through with this extraordinary sentiment which I call anti-British, a difficult thing to explain nowadays.

Then there was the anti-British faction, a group that quickly sprouted from the very core of the Government at that time. The Government's lukewarm supporters weren’t anti-British, but they didn’t read the Daily Gazette; in short, they weren’t fully committed supporters of the Government. They were Whigs, as the saying went. My group, the readers of the Gazette, the staunch Government supporters, who I hoped would drive real progress and genuine social reform; they were undeniably filled with this strange sentiment I call anti-British, which is hard to explain these days.

With the newly and too easily acquired rights and liberties of the nineteenth century, with its universal spread of education, cheap literature, and the like, there came, of course, increased knowledge, a wider outlook. No discipline came with it, and one of its earliest products was a nervous dread of being thought behind the time, of being called ignorant, narrow-minded, insular. People would do anything to avoid this. They went to the length of interlarding their speech and writings with foreign words often in ignorance of the meaning of those words. Broad-minded, catholic, tolerant, cosmopolitan—those were the descriptive adjectives which all desired to earn for themselves. It became a perfect mania, particularly with the young and clever, the half-educated, the would-be "smart" folk.

With the newly and easily gained rights and freedoms of the nineteenth century, along with the widespread education and affordable literature, came, of course, increased knowledge and a broader perspective. However, there was no accompanying discipline, and one of its earliest effects was a nervous fear of being seen as outdated or being labeled ignorant, narrow-minded, or insular. People would do anything to avoid this. They even went so far as to mix their speech and writing with foreign words, often without understanding their meanings. Open-minded, cultured, tolerant, cosmopolitan—these were the adjectives everyone wanted to claim for themselves. It became a complete obsession, especially among the young and intelligent, the partially educated, and those trying to appear "smart."

But it was also the honest ambition of many very worthy people, who truly desired broad-minded understanding and the avoidance of prejudice. This sapped the bulldog qualities of British pluck and persistence terribly. You can see at a glance how it would shut out a budding Nelson or a Wellington. But its most notable effect was to be seen among politicians, who were able to claim Fox for a precedent.

But it was also the genuine ambition of many admirable people, who really wanted open-minded understanding and to avoid prejudice. This seriously drained the bulldog spirit of British courage and determination. You can easily see how it would block the rise of a future Nelson or Wellington. But its most significant impact was seen among politicians, who could use Fox as an example.

To believe in the superiority of the British became vulgar, a proof of narrow-mindedness. But, by that token, to enlarge upon the inferiority of the British[49] indicated a broad, tolerant spirit, and a wide outlook upon mankind and affairs. From that to the sentiment I have called anti-British was no more than a step. Many thoroughly good, honourable, benevolent people took that step unwittingly, and all unconsciously became permeated with the vicious, suicidal sentiment, while really seeking only good. Such people were saved by their natural goodness and sense from becoming actual and purposeful enemies of their country. But as "Little Englanders"—so they were called—they managed, with the best intentions, to do their country infinite harm.

Believing in the superiority of the British became seen as crass and a sign of narrow-mindedness. On the flip side, emphasizing the inferiority of the British[49] was viewed as a sign of a broad, tolerant mindset and a wide perspective on humanity and global affairs. It was only a small step from that attitude to what I’ve labeled anti-British sentiment. Many genuinely good, honorable, and kind people unknowingly took that step and became unwittingly filled with this harmful, self-destructive sentiment while only intending to do good. Fortunately, their natural kindness and sense prevented them from becoming actual, intentional enemies of their country. However, as "Little Englanders"—as they were called—they ended up, with the best intentions, causing significant harm to their nation.

But there were others, the naturally vicious and unscrupulous, the morbid, the craven, the ignorant, the self-seeking; these were the dangerous exponents of the sentiment. With them, Little Englandism progressed in this wise: "There are plenty of foreigners just as good as the British; their rule abroad is just as good as ours." Then: "There are plenty of foreigners far better than the British; their rule abroad is better than ours." Then: "Let the people of our Empire fend for themselves among other peoples; our business is to look after ourselves." Then: "We oppose the people of the Empire; we oppose British rule; we oppose the British." From that to "We befriend the enemies of the British" was less than a step. It was the position openly occupied by many, in and out of Parliament.

But there were others, the naturally cruel and dishonest, the morbid, the cowardly, the uninformed, the self-serving; these were the dangerous supporters of the sentiment. With them, Little Englandism progressed like this: "There are plenty of foreigners just as good as the British; their rule abroad is just as good as ours." Then: "There are plenty of foreigners who are far better than the British; their rule abroad is better than ours." Then: "Let the people of our Empire take care of themselves among other nations; our job is to look after our own." Then: "We oppose the people of the Empire; we oppose British rule; we oppose the British." From there to "We support the enemies of the British" was just a small step. This was the stance openly taken by many, both inside and outside of Parliament.

"We are for you, for the people; and devil take Flag, Empire, and Crown!" said these ranters; drunken upon liberties they never understood, freedom[50] they never earned, privileges they were not qualified to hold.

"We're here for you, for the people; and to hell with the Flag, Empire, and Crown!" said these loudmouths; intoxicated by freedoms they never understood, liberties they never earned, and privileges they were unqualified to possess.

There were persons among them who spat upon the Flag that protected their worthless lives, and cut it down; sworn servants of the State who openly proclaimed their sympathy with the State's enemies; carefully protected, highly privileged subjects of the Crown, who impishly slashed at England's robes, to show her nakedness to England's foes.

There were people among them who spit on the flag that protected their insignificant lives and tore it down; sworn servants of the state who openly declared their support for the state's enemies; carefully protected, highly privileged subjects of the Crown, who mischievously slashed at England's robes to expose her vulnerability to England's foes.

And these were supporters, members, protégés of the Government, and readers of the Daily Gazette, upheld in all things by that organ. And I, the son of an English gentleman and clergyman, graduate of an English university, I looked to this party, the Liberal Government of England, as the leaders of reform, of progress, of social betterment. And so did the country; the British public. Errors of taste and judgment we regretted. That was how we described the most ribald outbursts of the anti-British sentiment.

And these were supporters, members, and protégés of the Government, and readers of the Daily Gazette, backed in everything by that publication. And I, the son of an English gentleman and clergyman, a graduate of an English university, looked to this party, the Liberal Government of England, as the leaders of reform, progress, and social improvement. And so did the country; the British public. We regretted errors in taste and judgment. That’s how we referred to the most outrageous expressions of anti-British sentiment.

It is hard to find excuse or palliation. Instinct must have told us that the demands, the programme, of such diseased creatures, could only aggravate the national ills instead of healing them. Yes, it would seem so. I can only say that comparatively few among us did see it. Perhaps disease was too general among us for the recognition of symptoms.

It’s difficult to find an excuse or justification. Our instincts should have warned us that the demands and agenda of such troubled individuals could only worsen the national issues instead of fixing them. Yes, that seems to be the case. I can only say that relatively few of us actually recognized it. Maybe the widespread nature of the problems made it hard to identify the signs.

This then was the mental attitude with which I approached my duties as a reporter on the staff of a London daily newspaper of old standing and good progressive traditions. And my notion was that in every line written for publication, the end of social reform should be served, directly or indirectly. My[51] idea of attaining social reformation was that the people must be taught, urged, spurred into extracting further gifts from the State; that the public must be shown how to make their lives easier by getting the State to do more for them. That was as much as my education and my expansive theorizing had done for me. Assuredly I was a product of my age.

This was the mindset I had when I took on my duties as a reporter for a well-established daily newspaper in London with a strong progressive tradition. I believed that every piece I wrote for publication should help advance social reform, either directly or indirectly. My idea of achieving social change was that people needed to be educated, motivated, and encouraged to demand more support from the government; the public had to learn how to improve their lives by getting the State to do more for them. That was all my education and broad theories had led me to. I was definitely a reflection of my time.

I had forgotten one thing, however, and that was the thing which Mr. Charles N. Pierce began now to drill into me, by analogy, and with a good deal more precision and directness than I had ever seen used at Rugby or Cambridge. This one thing was that the Daily Gazette was not a philanthropic organ, but a people's paper; and that the people did not want instructing but interesting.

I had overlooked one thing, though, and that was the point Mr. Charles N. Pierce started driving home to me, using analogies and with much more clarity and straightforwardness than I had ever encountered at Rugby or Cambridge. This crucial point was that the Daily Gazette wasn’t a charitable organization, but a paper for the people; and that the people didn’t want to be taught, but entertained.

"But," I pleaded, "surely, for their own sakes, in their own interests——"

"But," I begged, "surely, for their own good, in their own best interest——"

"Damn their own sakes!"

"Damn their own interests!"

"Well, but——"

"Well, but..."

"There's no 'but' about it. The public is an aggregation of individuals. This paper must interest the individual. The individual doesn't care a damn about the people. He cares about himself. He is very busy making money, and when he opens his paper he wants to be amused and interested; and he is not either interested or amused by any instruction as to how the people may be served. He doesn't want 'em served. He wants himself served and amused. That's your job."

"There's no doubt about it. The public is made up of individuals. This paper needs to engage the individual. The individual doesn't care about the collective. He cares about himself. He is focused on making money, and when he picks up his paper, he wants to be entertained and intrigued; he is not interested or entertained by any information on how the collective may be helped. He doesn't want them helped. He wants himself entertained and engaged. That's your job."

I believe I had faint inclinations just then to wonder whether, after all, there might not be something[52] to be said for the bloated Tories: the opponents of progress, as I always considered them. My thoughts ran on parties, in the old-fashioned style, you see. Also I was thinking, as a journalist, of the characteristics which distinguished different newspapers.

I think I had a moment then to consider whether there might actually be some valid points about the bloated Tories, the ones I always saw as opponents of progress. My thoughts were focused on political parties, in a traditional sense, you know. I was also reflecting, as a journalist, on the features that set different newspapers apart.

I cordially hated Mr. Charles N. Pierce, but he really had more discernment than I had, for he said:

I totally hated Mr. Charles N. Pierce, but he really had more insight than I did, because he said:

"Don't you worry about teaching the people to grab more from the State. They'll take fast enough; they'll take quite as much as is good for 'em, without your assistance. But, for giving, the angel Gabriel and two advertisement canvassers wouldn't make 'em give a cent more than they're obliged."

"Don’t worry about teaching people to take more from the government. They’ll do that quickly enough; they’ll take as much as is good for them, without your help. But when it comes to giving, even the angel Gabriel and two salespeople wouldn’t be able to get them to part with a single cent more than they have to."


VI
A JOURNALIST'S SURROUNDINGS

"Religion honors the statesman and the individual,
The only source of public and private peace.
Young.

I am bound to suppose that I must have been a tolerably tiring person to have to do with during my first year in London. The reason of this was that I could never concentrate my thoughts upon intimate, personal interests, either my own or those of the people I met. My thoughts were never of persons, but always of the people; never of affairs, but always of tendencies, movements, issues, ultimate ends. Probably my crude unrest would have made me tiresome to any people. It must have been peculiarly irritating to my contemporaries at that period, who, whatever they may have lacked, assuredly possessed in a remarkable degree the faculty of concentration upon their own individual affairs, their personal part in the race for personal gain.

I'm sure I must have been a pretty exhausting person to be around during my first year in London. The reason for this was that I could never focus my thoughts on personal interests, whether my own or those of the people I met. My thoughts were never about individuals, but always about the collective; never about specific situations, but always about trends, movements, issues, and ultimate goals. My restless nature probably made me annoying to everyone. It must have been especially frustrating for my peers at that time, who, no matter what else they may have lacked, certainly had a strong ability to focus on their own individual matters and their personal role in the race for personal success.

I remember that I talked, even to the poor, overworked servant at my lodging, rather of the prospects of her class and order than of anything more intimate or within her narrow scope. Poor Bessie! She was of the callously named tribe of lodging-house "slaveys"; and what gave me some interest in her personality, apart from the type she represented,[54] was the fact that she had come from the Vale of Blackmore, a part of Dorset which I knew very well. I even remembered, for its exceptional picturesqueness and beauty of situation, the cottage in which Bessie had passed her life until one year before my arrival at the fourth-rate Bloomsbury "apartments" house in which she now toiled for a living. There was little enough of the sap of her native valley left in Bessie's cheeks now. She had acquired the London muddiness of complexion quickly, poor child, in the semi-subterranean life she led.

I remember that I talked, even to the poor, overworked servant at my place, more about the future of her class and situation than anything more personal or within her limited experience. Poor Bessie! She belonged to the insensitively labeled group of lodging-house "slaveys"; what intrigued me about her beyond the stereotype she represented,[54] was that she came from the Vale of Blackmore, a part of Dorset I knew quite well. I even recalled, for its unique charm and beautiful setting, the cottage where Bessie had lived until a year before I arrived at the rundown Bloomsbury "apartments" where she now worked for a living. There was hardly any trace of her native valley left in Bessie’s cheeks now. Poor girl, she had quickly picked up the London pallor in the semi-subterranean life she was leading.

I was moved to inquire as to what had led her to come to London, and gathered that she had been anxious to "see a bit o' life." Certainly she saw life, of a kind, when she entered her horrible underground kitchen of a morning, for, as a chance errand once showed me, its floor was a moving carpet of black-beetles until after the gas was lighted. In Bloomsbury, Bessie's daily work began about six o'clock—there were four stories in the house, and coals and food and water required upon every floor—and ended some seventeen hours later. Occasionally, an exacting lodger would make it eighteen hours—the number of Bessie's years in the world—but seventeen was the normal.

I was curious about what brought her to London and learned that she was eager to "see a bit of life." She certainly experienced life, in a way, when she stepped into her awful underground kitchen each morning because, as a chance visit once revealed, its floor was a writhing mass of cockroaches until the gas was turned on. In Bloomsbury, Bessie's daily routine started around six o'clock—there were four floors in the house, and coal, food, and water were needed on each level—and ended about seventeen hours later. Sometimes, a demanding lodger would stretch it to eighteen hours—the same as Bessie's age—but seventeen was the usual.

The trains which every day came rushing in from the country to the various railway termini of London were almost past counting. The "rural exodus," as it was called, was a sadly real movement then. Every one of them brought at least one Bessie, and one of her male counterparts, with ruddy cheeks, a tin box, and bright eyes straining to "see life." Insatiable[55] London drew them all into its maw, and, while sapping the roses from their cheeks, enslaved many of them under one of the greatest curses of that day: the fascination of the streets.

The trains that rushed in daily from the countryside to various train stations in London were nearly countless. The "rural exodus," as it was called, was a tragically real phenomenon back then. Each train brought at least one Bessie and one of her male counterparts, both with rosy cheeks, a tin box, and bright eyes eager to "experience life." Insatiable[55] London pulled them all in, draining the color from their cheeks and trapping many of them under one of the biggest curses of that time: the allure of the streets.

So terrible a power was exercised by this unwholesome passion that men and women became paralyzed by it, and incapable of plucking up courage enough to enable them to leave the streets. I talked with men—poor, sodden creatures, whose greasy black coats were buttoned to their stubbly chins to hide the absence of collar and waistcoat—who supported a wretched existence in the streets, between begging, stealing, opening cab-doors, and the like, in constant dread of police attention. Among these I found many who had refused again and again offers of help to lead an honest, self-dependent life, for the sole reason that these offers involved quitting the streets.

So strong a hold did this unhealthy passion have that men and women became frozen by it, unable to gather the courage to leave the streets. I spoke with men—poor, weary individuals, whose greasy black coats were buttoned up to their stubbly chins to hide the lack of a collar and waistcoat—who lived a miserable existence on the streets, begging, stealing, opening cab doors, and constantly fearing police scrutiny. Among these, I found many who had turned down offer after offer of help to live an honest, independent life, solely because those offers required them to leave the streets.

The same creeping paralysis of the streets kept men from emigration to parts of the Empire in which independent prosperity was assured for the willing worker. They would not leave the hiving streets, with their chances, their flaunting vice, their incessant bustle, and their innumerable drinking bars.

The same slow paralysis of the streets prevented people from moving to areas of the Empire where hard work guaranteed independent success. They were reluctant to leave the busy streets, full of opportunities, open vices, constant activity, and countless pubs.

The disease did not stop at endowing the streets with fascination for these poor, undisciplined, unmanned creatures; it implanted in them a lively fear, hard to comprehend, but very real to them, of all places outside the streets, with their familiar, pent noises and enclosed strife.

The disease didn't just make the streets intriguing for these poor, undisciplined, lost beings; it created in them a strong, almost irrational fear of everything outside the streets, with their familiar, muffled sounds and contained conflicts.

I met one old gentleman, the head of an important firm of printers, who, being impressed with the squalid[56] wretchedness of the surroundings in which his work-people lived, decided to shift his works into the country. He chose the outskirts of a charmingly situated garden city, then in course of formation. He gave his people a holiday and entertained them at a picnic party upon the site of his proposed new works. He set before them plans and details of pleasant cottages he meant to build for them, with good gardens, and scores of conveniences which they could never know in the dingy, grimy tenements for which they paid extortionate rents in London.

I met an older guy, who was the head of a major printing company, and he was really struck by the terrible living conditions of his workers. So, he decided to move his business out to the countryside. He picked the edge of a beautiful garden city that was being developed at the time. He gave his workers a day off and hosted a picnic on the site of his planned new factory. He showed them plans for nice little houses he wanted to build for them, complete with good gardens and many conveniences that they could never have in the dirty, run-down apartments they were renting for outrageous prices in London.

There were four hundred and thirty-eight of these work-people. Twenty-seven of them, with some hesitation, expressed their willingness to enter into the new scheme for their benefit. The remaining four hundred and eleven refused positively to leave their warrens in London for this garden city, situated within an hour's run of the metropolis.

There were four hundred and thirty-eight of these workers. Twenty-seven of them, after some hesitation, said they were willing to join the new plan for their benefit. The other four hundred and eleven firmly refused to leave their homes in London for this garden city, which was just an hour's journey from the city.

Figure to yourself the attitude of such people, where the great open uplands of the Empire were concerned: the prairie, the veld, the bush. Consider their relation to the elements, or to things elemental. We went farther than "Little Englandism" in those days; we produced little street and alley men by the hundred thousand; and then we bade them exercise their rights, their imperial heritage, and rule an Empire. As for me, I was busy in my newspaper work trying to secure more rights for them; for men whose present freedom from all discipline and control was their curse.

Imagine the mindset of those people regarding the vast open lands of the Empire: the prairie, the veld, the bush. Think about how they related to nature and fundamental things. We went beyond “Little Englandism” back then; we created hundreds of thousands of individuals from the streets and alleys, and then we encouraged them to exercise their rights, their imperial legacy, and govern an Empire. As for me, I was focused on my newspaper work, trying to secure more rights for them—for men whose current lack of discipline and control was their downfall.

The reporters' room at the office of the Daily Gazette was the working headquarters of five other men[57] besides myself. One was a Cambridge man, one had been at Oxford, one came from Cork, and the other two were products of Scotch schools. Two of the five would have been called gentlemen; four of them were good fellows; the fifth had his good points, but perhaps he had been soured by a hard upbringing. One felt that the desire for money—advancement, success, or whatever you chose to call it; it all meant the one thing to Dunbar—mastered every feeling, every instinct even, in this young man, and made him about as safe and agreeable a neighbour as a wolf might be for a kennel of dogs.

The reporters' room at the office of the Daily Gazette was the main base for five other guys besides me[57]. One was a Cambridge guy, one had been to Oxford, one was from Cork, and the other two were from Scottish schools. Two of the five would be considered gentlemen; four of them were decent guys; the fifth had his good traits, but maybe he had become bitter because of a tough upbringing. You could tell that the drive for money—whether you called it advancement, success, or whatever; it all meant the same thing to Dunbar—overpowered every feeling and instinct in this young man, making him about as safe and friendly a neighbor as a wolf would be for a pack of dogs.

A certain part of our time was devoted to waiting in the reporters' room for what Mr. Pierce called our "assignments," to this or that reporting task. Also, we did our writing here, and a prodigious amount of talking. The talk was largely of Fleet Street, the ruffianism of Mr. Pierce, the fortunes of our own and other journals, the poorness of our pay, the arduousness of our labours, the affairs of other newspaper offices, and the like. But at other times we turned to politics, and over our pipes and copy paper would readjust the concert of Europe and the balance of world power. More often we dealt with local politics, party intrigue, and scandals of Parliament; and sometimes—more frequently since my advent, it may be—we entered gaily upon large abstractions, and ventilated our little philosophies and views of the eternal verities.

A certain part of our time was spent waiting in the reporters' room for what Mr. Pierce called our "assignments," which were tasks for reporting. We also wrote here and talked a lot. The conversations mostly revolved around Fleet Street, Mr. Pierce's roughness, the fortunes of our own and other newspapers, our low pay, the difficulty of our work, the happenings at other newspaper offices, and similar topics. But at other times, we switched to politics, and while smoking our pipes and surrounded by copy paper, we would revisit the dynamics of Europe and the balance of global power. More often, we focused on local politics, party intrigue, and parliamentary scandals; and sometimes—more often since I joined, it might be said—we enthusiastically dove into big ideas, sharing our little philosophies and perspectives on eternal truths.

By my recollection of those queer confused days, my colleagues were cynically anarchical in their political views, unconvinced and unconvincing Socialists,[58] and indifferent Agnostics. I am not quite sure that we believed in anything very thoroughly—except that things were in a pretty bad way. Earnest belief in anything was not a feature of the period. I recall one occasion when consideration of some tyrannical act of our immediate chief, the news-editor, led our talk by way of character and morality to questions of religion. The Daily Gazette, I should mention, was a favourite organ with the most powerful religious community—the Nonconformists. Campbell, one of the two Scotch reporters, hazarded the first remark about religion, if I remember aright: something it was to the effect that men like Pierce had neither religion nor manners. Brown, the Cambridge man, took this up.

By my memory of those strange, confusing days, my colleagues had a cynical, chaotic approach to politics, were unconvincing Socialists, and indifferent Agnostics. I’m not really sure we believed in anything strongly—except that things were pretty messed up. A genuine belief in anything wasn’t common at that time. I remember one instance when talking about some oppressive action by our boss, the news editor, led our conversation from character and morality to issues of religion. I should point out that the Daily Gazette was a popular choice among the most influential religious group—the Nonconformists. Campbell, one of the two Scottish reporters, made the first comment about religion, if I recall correctly: it was something like that people like Pierce had neither religion nor good manners. Brown, the Cambridge guy, picked up on this.

"Well now," he said, "that's a queer thing about religion. I'd like you to tell me what anybody's religion is in London."

"Well now," he said, "that's a strange thing about religion. I'd like you to tell me what anyone's religion is in London."

"It's the capital of a Christian country, isn't it?" said Dunbar.

"It's the capital of a Christian country, right?" said Dunbar.

"Yes," admitted Brown. "That's just it. We're officially and politically Christian. It's a national affair. We're a Christian people; but who knows a Christian individual? Ours is a Christian newspaper, Christian city, Christian country, and all the rest of it. There's no doubt about it. All England believes; but no single man I ever meet admits that he believes. I suppose it's different up your way, Campbell. One gathers the Scotch are religious?"

"Yes," said Brown. "That's exactly it. We're officially and politically Christian. It's a national issue. We're a Christian people; but who actually knows a Christian person? We've got a Christian newspaper, a Christian city, a Christian country, and all that. There's no doubt about it. Everyone in England believes, but no single person I meet ever admits that they believe. I guess it's different where you are, Campbell. I've heard that Scots are religious?"

"H'm! I won't answer for that," growled Campbell. "As a people, yes, as you say; but as individuals—well,[59] I don't know. But my father's a believer; I could swear to it."

"H'm! I won't take responsibility for that," Campbell grumbled. "As a society, sure, as you mentioned; but as individuals—well, [59] I’m not sure. But my dad believes; I could swear to it."

"Ah, yes; so's mine. But I'm not talking of fathers. I mean our generation."

"Ah, yes; same here. But I'm not referring to fathers. I mean our generation."

"Well," I began, "for my part, I'm not so sure of the fathers."

"Well," I started, "as for me, I'm not really convinced about the fathers."

"Oh, we can count you out," said Kelly, the Irishman. "All parsons' sons are atheists, as a matter of course; and bad hats at that."

"Oh, we can count you out," said Kelly, the Irishman. "All preacher's sons are atheists, of course; and troublemakers at that."

"Rather a severe blow at our Christianity, isn't it?" said Brown.

"Isn't that quite a blow to our Christianity?" said Brown.

I had no more to say on this point, not wishing to discuss my father. But I knew perfectly well that that good, kind man had cherished no belief whatever in many of what were judged to be the vital dogmas of Christianity.

I had nothing else to add on this matter, not wanting to talk about my father. But I completely knew that that good, kind man didn't believe at all in many of what were seen as the essential beliefs of Christianity.

"Well, I've just been thinking," said Campbell, "and upon my soul, Brown—if I've got one—I believe you're right. I don't know any one of our generation who believes. Every one thinks every one else believes, and everybody is most careful not to be disrespectful about the belief everybody else is supposed to hold. But, begad, nobody believes himself. We all wink at each other about it; accepting the certainty of every one else's belief, and only recognizing as a matter of course that you and me—we've got beyond that sort of thing."

"Well, I've just been thinking," said Campbell, "and honestly, Brown—if I even have a soul—I think you might be right. I don't know anyone from our generation who actually believes in anything. Everyone assumes that everyone else believes, and everyone is super careful not to be disrespectful about the beliefs that everyone else is supposed to have. But honestly, nobody really believes it themselves. We all give each other knowing looks about it; accepting the certainty of everyone else's beliefs, and just acknowledging that you and I—we've moved past all that."

"Well, I've often thought of it," said Brown. "I'll write an article about it one of these days."

"Well, I've thought about it a lot," said Brown. "I'll write an article about it someday."

"Who'll you get to publish it?"

"Who are you going to get to publish it?"

"H'm! Yes, that's a fact. And yet, hang it,[60] you know, how absurd! Who is there in this office that believes?"

"H'm! Yes, that's true. And yet, damn it,[60] you know, how ridiculous! Who in this office actually believes?"

"Echo answers, 'who?'"

"Echo replies, 'who?'"

"I happen to know that both Rainham and Baddeley go to church," said Dunbar, naming a proprietor and a manager.

"I happen to know that both Rainham and Baddeley go to church," said Dunbar, naming a owner and a manager.

"I don't see the connection," said Brown.

"I don't see the connection," Brown said.

"Because there isn't any," said Campbell. "But Dunbar sees it, and so does the British public, begad. That's the kernel of the whole thing. That's why every one thinks every one else, except himself, believes. Rainham and Baddeley think their wives, and sons, and servants, and circle generally believe, and therefore would be shocked if Rainham and Baddeley didn't go to church. And every one else thinks the same. So they all go."

"Because there isn’t any," Campbell said. "But Dunbar sees it, and so does the British public, for sure. That’s the heart of the whole issue. That's why everyone thinks everyone else, except for themselves, believes. Rainham and Baddeley think their wives, kids, servants, and social circle generally believe, and so they would be appalled if Rainham and Baddeley didn’t go to church. And everyone else thinks the same way. So they all go."

"But, my dear chap, they don't all go. The parsons are always complaining about it. The women do, but the men don't—not as a rule, I mean; particularly when they've got motors, and golf, and things. You know they don't. Here's six of us here. Does any one of us ever go to church?"

"But, my dear friend, not everyone goes. The clergymen are always grumbling about it. The women do, but the men generally don't—especially when they have cars, golf, and other activities to enjoy. You know that's true. Here are six of us. Does any one of us ever go to church?"

Dunbar, looking straight down over his nose, said: "I do—often."

Dunbar, looking straight down his nose, said: "I do—often."

"You're a fine fellow, Dunbar, sure enough," said Campbell; "and I believe you'll be a newspaper proprietor in five years. You've got your finger on the pulse. Can you look me in the face and say you believe?"

"You're a great guy, Dunbar, no doubt about it," said Campbell; "and I truly think you'll own a newspaper in five years. You know what's happening. Can you look me in the eye and honestly say you believe?"

Dunbar smiled in his knowing way and wobbled. "I certainly believe it's a good thing to go to church occasionally," he said.[61]

Dunbar smiled knowingly and swayed a bit. "I definitely think it's nice to go to church every once in a while," he said.[61]

"And I believe you'll make a fortune in Fleet Street, my son."

"And I believe you'll make a fortune in Fleet Street, my son."

"Well, in my humble opinion," said Kelly, "the trouble with you people in England is not so much that you don't believe; a good many believe, in a kind of a way, like they believe in ventilation, without troubling to act on it. They believe, but they don't think about it; they don't care, it isn't real. The poor beggars 'ld go crazy with fear of hell-fire, if the sort of armchair belief they have was real to 'em. It isn't real to 'em, like business, and money, and that, or like patriotism is in Japan."

"Well, in my opinion," said Kelly, "the problem with you people in England isn't so much that you don't believe; quite a few do believe, in a way, like they believe in ventilation, without actually doing anything about it. They believe, but they don’t think about it; they don’t care, it isn’t real. The poor folks would go crazy with fear of hellfire if the kind of armchair belief they have was real to them. It isn’t real to them, like business, money, or how patriotism is in Japan."

"Well, it really is a rum thing," said Brown, with an affectation of pathos, "that in all this Christian country I shouldn't know a single believer of my generation."

"Well, it really is a weird thing," said Brown, with a touch of sadness, "that in all this Christian country I don't know a single believer from my generation."

"It's a devilish bad thing for the country," said Campbell. And even then, with all my fundamentally rotten sociological nostrums, I had a vague feeling that the Scotchman was right there.

"It's a really bad thing for the country," said Campbell. And even then, with all my basically flawed social theories, I had a nagging feeling that the Scotsman was right about that.

"Well, then, that's why it's good to go to church," said Dunbar, with an air of finality.

"Well, that’s why it’s good to go to church," Dunbar said, sounding certain.

"I still don't see the connection," murmured Brown.

"I still don't see the connection," Brown murmured.

"Because it still isn't there. But, of course, it's perfectly obvious. That's why Dunbar sees it, and why he'll presently run a paper." Then Campbell turned to Dunbar, and added slowly, as though speaking to a little child: "You see, my dear, it's not their not going to church that's bad; it's their not believing."

"Because it still isn't there. But, of course, it's perfectly obvious. That's why Dunbar sees it, and why he'll soon write a paper." Then Campbell turned to Dunbar and added slowly, as if talking to a small child: "You see, my dear, it's not that they don't go to church that's the problem; it's that they don't believe."

If I remember rightly, Mr. Pierce ended the conversation,[62] through his telephone, by assigning to Brown the task of reporting a clerical gathering at Exeter Hall. Brown was credited with having a particularly happy touch in the reporting of religious meetings. He certainly had an open mind, for I remember his saying that day that he thought Christianity was perhaps better adapted to a skittish climate like ours than Buddhism, and that Ju-Ju worship in London would be sure to cause friction with the County Council.

If I remember correctly, Mr. Pierce wrapped up the conversation,[62] over the phone, by giving Brown the job of covering a clerical meeting at Exeter Hall. Brown was known for his knack for reporting religious events. He definitely had an open mind, because I recall him saying that day that he thought Christianity might be more suitable for a temperamental climate like ours than Buddhism, and that Ju-Ju worship in London would likely lead to issues with the County Council.

As I see it now, there was a terribly large amount of truth in the view taken by Brown and Campbell and Kelly about belief in England, and more particularly in London. But there were devout men of all ages who did not happen to come within their circle of acquaintance. I met Salvation Army officers occasionally, who were both intelligent, self-denying, and hard-working; and I suppose that with them belief must have been at least as powerful a motive as devotion to their Army, their General, and the work of reclamation among the very poor. Also, there were High Church clergymen, who toiled unceasingly among the poor. Symbolism was a great force with them; but there must have been real belief there. Also, there were some fine Nonconformist missions. I recall one in West London, the work of which was a great power for good in such infected warrens as Soho. But it certainly was not an age of faith or of earnest beliefs. The vast majority took their Christianity, with the national safety and integrity, for granted—a thing long since established[63] by an earlier generation; a matter about which no modern could spare time for thought or effort.

As I see it now, there was a huge amount of truth in the views held by Brown, Campbell, and Kelly about belief in England, especially in London. However, there were devoted people of all ages who didn’t fall within their circle. I occasionally met Salvation Army officers who were both smart, selfless, and hardworking; and I believe that for them, belief was at least as strong a motivator as their commitment to their Army, their General, and their work with the very poor. There were also High Church clergymen who worked tirelessly among the poor. Symbolism was a big deal for them, but there had to be real belief there as well. Additionally, there were some excellent Nonconformist missions. I remember one in West London, whose work brought a lot of good to the troubled areas like Soho. But it certainly wasn’t an age of faith or deep beliefs. The vast majority took their Christianity, along with national safety and integrity, for granted—something that had been established long ago by a previous generation; a topic no modern person had time to think about or engage with.

I believe it was on the day following this particular conversation in the reporters' room that I met Leslie Wheeler by appointment at Waterloo, and went down to Weybridge with him for the week-end. My friend was in even gayer spirits than usual, and laughingly told me that I must "Work up a better Saturday face than that" before we got to Weybridge.

I think it was the day after that conversation in the reporters' room when I met Leslie Wheeler as planned at Waterloo, and we headed down to Weybridge for the weekend. My friend was in even better spirits than usual and jokingly told me I needed to "put on a better Saturday face than that" before we got to Weybridge.

I had known Leslie Wheeler since our school-days; and I remember lying awake in the room next his own at Weybridge that night, and wondering why in the world it was I felt so out of touch with my high-spirited friend. During that Saturday afternoon and evening I had been pretty much preoccupied in securing as much as possible of Sylvia's attention. But the journey down had been made with Leslie alone, and when his father had gone to bed, we two had spent another half-hour together in the billiard-room, smoking and sipping whiskey and soda. Leslie was in the vein most usual with him, of "turning to mirth all things on earth"; and I was conscious, upon my side, of a notable absence of reciprocal feeling, of friendly rapport. And I could find no explanation for this, as I lay thinking of it in bed.

I had known Leslie Wheeler since our school days, and I remember lying awake in the room next to his at Weybridge that night, wondering why I felt so disconnected from my lively friend. During that Saturday afternoon and evening, I had been mostly focused on getting as much of Sylvia's attention as I could. But the trip down had been just me and Leslie, and after his dad went to bed, we spent another half-hour together in the billiard room, smoking and sipping whiskey and soda. Leslie was in his usual mood of “turning everything into laughter,” but I felt a significant lack of mutual connection and friendly vibe. I couldn’t figure out why, as I lay there thinking about it in bed.

Looking backward, I see many causes which probably contributed to my feeling of lost touch. I had only been about a month in London, but it had been a busy month, and full of new experiences, of intimate touch with realities of London life, sordid and otherwise. It was all very unlike Rugby and Cambridge;[64] very unlike the life of the big luxurious Weybridge house, and even more unlike lichen-covered Tarn Regis. In those days I took little stock of such mundane details as bed and board. But these things count; I had been made to take note of them of late.

Looking back, I can see several reasons that probably contributed to my feeling of disconnect. I had only been in London for about a month, but it was a hectic month filled with new experiences and a close look at the realities of London life, both grim and otherwise. It was all very different from Rugby and Cambridge; [64] very different from the life at the big, luxurious house in Weybridge, and even more different from the lichen-covered Tarn Regis. Back then, I didn’t pay much attention to practical details like food and accommodations. But these things matter; I had been forced to notice them lately.

I paid 12s. 6d. a week for my garret, and 7s. a week for my breakfast, 1s. for lighting, and 1s. for my bath. That left me with 28s. 6d. a week for daily lunch and dinner, clothes, boots, tobacco, and the eternal penny outgoings of London life. The purchase of such a trifle as a box of sweets for Sylvia made a week's margin look very small. Already I had begun to note the expensiveness of stamps, laundry work, omnibus fares, and such matters. My training had not been a hopeful one, so far as small economies went. Leslie twitted me with neglecting golf, and failing to attend the Inter-'Varsity cricket match. He found economy, like all other things under heaven, and in heaven for that matter, suitable subjects for the exercise of his tireless humour. But I wondered greatly that his incessant banter should jar upon me; that I should catch myself regarding him with a coldly appraising eye. Indeed, it troubled me a good deal; and the more so when I thought of Sylvia.

I paid 12s. 6d. a week for my tiny room, and 7s. a week for my breakfast, 1s. for lighting, and 1s. for my bath. That left me with 28s. 6d. a week for lunch and dinner, clothes, shoes, tobacco, and the constant little expenses of life in London. Buying something as simple as a box of sweets for Sylvia made a week's budget seem really tight. I had already started to notice how expensive stamps, laundry, bus fares, and other things were. My training hadn’t prepared me well for saving money. Leslie teased me for skipping golf and missing the Inter-'Varsity cricket match. He treated saving money, like everything else, as a perfect subject for his endless jokes. But I was surprised that his constant teasing bothered me; I found myself looking at him with a critical eye. It troubled me quite a bit, especially when I thought about Sylvia.

I flatly declined to admit that London had affected my feeling for Sylvia. Whatever one's view, her big violet eyes were abrim with gentle sympathy. I watched her as I sat by her side in church, and thought of our irreverent talk at the office. Here was sincere piety, at all events, I thought. Mediævalism[65] never produced a sweeter devotee, a worshipper more rapt. I could not follow her into the place of ecstasy she reached. But, I told myself, I could admire from without, and even reverence. Could I? Well, I was somewhat strengthened in the belief that very Sunday night by Sylvia's father.

I flatly refused to admit that London had changed how I felt about Sylvia. No matter what people think, her big violet eyes were filled with gentle sympathy. I watched her while sitting next to her in church and thought about our irreverent conversations at the office. At least, I thought, this was genuine piety. The medieval era never produced a sweeter devotee or a more captivated worshipper. I couldn't follow her into the state of ecstasy she reached. But I told myself I could admire from a distance, and even hold it in reverence. Could I? Well, I felt somewhat reassured in that belief every Sunday night by Sylvia's father.


VII
A GIRL AND HER FAITH

"If faith doesn’t lead to actions, I see
"That faith is not a living tree."
Hannah More.

During that Sunday at Weybridge I saw but little of my friend Leslie. It was only by having obtained special permission from the Daily Gazette office that I was able to remain away from town that day. My leisure was brief, my chances few, I felt; and that seemed to justify the devoting of every possible moment to Sylvia's company.

During that Sunday at Weybridge, I barely saw my friend Leslie. I was only able to stay away from town that day because I got special permission from the Daily Gazette office. My free time was short, and my opportunities limited, so it felt right to spend every possible moment with Sylvia.

Sylvia's church was not the family place of worship. When Mrs. Wheeler and Marjory attended service, it was at St. Mark's, but Sylvia made her devotions at St. Jude's, a church famous in that district for its high Anglicanism and stately ritual.

Sylvia's church wasn't the family's place of worship. When Mrs. Wheeler and Marjory went to services, they attended St. Mark's, but Sylvia practiced her faith at St. Jude's, a church known in the area for its high Anglicanism and formal rituals.

The incumbent of St. Jude's, his Reverence, or Father Hinton, as Sylvia always called him, was a tall, full-bodied man, with flashing dark eyes, and a fine, dramatic presence. I believe he was an indefatigable worker among the poor. I know he had a keen appreciation of the dramatic element in his priestly calling, and in the ritual of his church, with its rich symbolism and elaborate impressiveness. Even from my brief glimpses of the situation, I realized that this priest (the words clergyman and[67] vicar were discouraged at St. Jude's) played a very important, a vital part, in the scheme of Sylvia's religion. I think Sylvia would have said that the personality of the man was nothing; but she would have added that his office was much, very much to her.

The current priest at St. Jude's, known as Father Hinton (or just "his Reverence," as Sylvia always referred to him), was a tall, sturdy man with bright dark eyes and a commanding presence. I believe he worked tirelessly for the poor. He had a strong appreciation for the dramatic aspects of his role as a priest and the rituals of his church, which were rich in symbolism and quite impressive. Even from my limited view of the situation, I could see that this priest (the terms clergyman and [67] vicar were not used at St. Jude's) played a crucial and essential role in the context of Sylvia's faith. I think Sylvia would claim that the man's character didn't matter much, but she would agree that his position meant a great deal to her.

She may have been right, though not entirely so, I think. But it is certain that, in the case of Father Hinton, the dramatic personality of the man did nothing to lessen the magnitude of his office in the minds of such members of his flock as Sylvia. I gathered that belief in the celibacy of the clergy was, if not an article of faith, at least a part of piety at St. Jude's.

She might have been right, but not completely, I think. However, it's clear that in the case of Father Hinton, his dramatic personality didn’t diminish the significance of his role in the eyes of some members of his congregation, like Sylvia. I gathered that belief in the celibacy of the clergy was, if not a core belief, at least part of the piety at St. Jude's.

Before seven o'clock on Sunday morning I heard footsteps on the gravel under my window, and, looking out, saw Sylvia, book in hand, leaving the house. She was exquisitely dressed, the distinguishing note of her attire being, as always in my eyes, a demure sort of richness and picturesqueness. Never was there another saint so charming in appearance, I thought. Her very Prayer Book, or whatever the volume might be, had a seductive, feminine charm about its dimpled cover.

Before seven in the morning on Sunday, I heard footsteps on the gravel under my window and, looking out, saw Sylvia, book in hand, leaving the house. She was beautifully dressed, and the standout feature of her outfit was, as always in my eyes, a modest kind of elegance and charm. I thought no other saint could be as lovely in appearance. Even her Prayer Book, or whatever the book was, had a tempting, feminine appeal with its dimpled cover.

I hurried over my dressing and was out of the house by half-past seven and on my way to St. Jude's. Breakfast was not until half-past nine, I knew. The morning was brilliantly sunny; and life in the world, despite its drawbacks and complexities, as seen from Fleet Street, seemed an admirably good thing to me as I strode over a carpet of pine-needles, and watched the slanting sun-rays turning the tree trunks to burnished copper.[68]

I rushed through getting dressed and was out of the house by 7:30, heading to St. Jude's. I knew breakfast wasn't until 9:30. The morning was brilliantly sunny, and life in the world, despite its challenges and complexities, looked really good to me as I walked over a carpet of pine needles, watching the sunlight make the tree trunks shine like burnished copper.[68]

The service was barely over when I tiptoed into a seat beside the door at St. Jude's. At this period the appurtenances of ritual in such churches as St. Jude's—incense, candles, rich vestments, and the like—rivalled those of Rome itself. I remember that, fresh from the dewy morning sunshine without, these symbols rather jarred upon my senses than otherwise, with a strong hint of artificiality and tawdriness, the suggestion of a theatre seen by daylight. But they meant a great deal to many good folks in Weybridge, for, despite the earliness of the hour, there were fifty or sixty women present, besides Sylvia, and half a dozen men.

The service had just finished when I quietly slipped into a seat by the door at St. Jude's. At that time, the elements of ritual in churches like St. Jude's—incense, candles, elaborate vestments, and so on—were just as impressive as those in Rome. I remember that, coming in from the fresh morning sun outside, these symbols felt more jarring than anything else, giving off a strong sense of artificiality and cheapness, like a theater seen in daylight. But they held a lot of meaning for many good people in Weybridge, because, even though it was early, there were fifty or sixty women there, in addition to Sylvia, and a handful of men.

I could see Sylvia distinctly from my corner by the door, and I was made rather uneasy by the fact that she remained in her place when every one else had left the building. Five, ten minutes I waited, and then walked softly up the aisle to her place. I did not perceive, until I reached her side, that she was kneeling, or I suppose I should have felt obliged to refrain from disturbing her. As it was, Sylvia heard me, and, having seen who disturbed her, rose, with the gravest little smile, and, with a curtsy to the altar, walked out before me.

I could see Sylvia clearly from my spot by the door, and I felt a bit uneasy because she stayed behind when everyone else had left the building. I waited for five, then ten minutes, and finally walked quietly up the aisle to her. I didn’t notice until I reached her side that she was kneeling; otherwise, I would have felt I should leave her alone. As it was, Sylvia heard me and, seeing who had disturbed her, stood up with the most serious little smile and, with a curtsy to the altar, walked out in front of me.

I found that Sylvia generally stayed on in the church for the eight o'clock service; and I was duly grateful when she yielded to my solicitations and set out for a walk with me instead. I had taken a few biscuits from the dining-room and eaten them on my way out; but I learned later, rather to my distress, that Sylvia had not broken her fast. I must suppose she was accustomed to such practices, for she seemed[69] to enjoy almost as much as I did our long ramble in the fresh morning air.

I found that Sylvia usually stayed in the church for the eight o'clock service, and I was really grateful when she agreed to go for a walk with me instead. I had grabbed a few biscuits from the dining room and eaten them on my way out, but I later learned, much to my disappointment, that Sylvia hadn’t eaten anything. I guess she was used to such practices because she appeared to enjoy our long stroll in the fresh morning air almost as much as I did.

I learned a good deal during that morning walk, and the day that followed it, the greater part of which I spent by Sylvia's side. Upon the whole, I was perturbed and made uneasy; but I continued to assure myself, perhaps too insistently for confidence or comfort, that Sylvia was wholly desirable and sweet. It was perhaps unfortunate for my peace of mind that the day was one of continuous religious exercises. The fact tinged all our converse, and indeed supplied the motive of most of it.

I learned a lot during that morning walk, and the day that followed, most of which I spent with Sylvia. Overall, I felt anxious and uneasy; however, I kept telling myself, maybe too much for my own confidence or comfort, that Sylvia was completely charming and wonderful. It was probably not great for my peace of mind that the day was filled with religious activities. This fact affected all our conversations and actually drove most of them.

I did not at the time realize exactly what chilled and disturbed me, but I think now that it was what I might call the inhumanity of Sylvia's religion. I dipped into one of her sumptuous little books at some time during the day, and I remember this passage:

I didn't quite understand what unnerved me back then, but I think now it was the coldness of Sylvia's beliefs. I flipped through one of her beautifully designed books at some point during the day, and I remember this passage:

"To this end spiritual writers recommend what is called a 'holy indifference' to all created things, including things inanimate, place, time, and the like. Try as far as possible to be indifferent to all things. Remember that the one thing important above all others to you is the salvation of your own soul. It is the great work of your life, far greater than your work as parent, child, husband, wife, or friend."

"With this in mind, spiritual authors suggest developing what’s known as 'holy indifference' toward all created things, including inanimate objects, places, times, and similar matters. Strive to be as indifferent as possible to everything. Keep in mind that the most important thing for you above all else is the salvation of your own soul. This is the main purpose of your life, much more important than your roles as a parent, child, spouse, or friend."

It was a reputable sort of a book this, and fathered by a respected Oxford cleric.

It was a well-regarded book, created by a respected Oxford scholar.

There was singularly little of the mystic in my temperament. My mind, as you have seen, was surcharged with crude but fervent desires for the material betterment of my kind. I was nothing if not interested in human well-being, material progress,[70] mortal ills and remedies. Approaching Sylvia's position and outlook from this level then, I thrust my way through what I impatiently dismissed as the "flummery"; by which I meant the poetry, the picturesqueness, the sacrosanct glamour surrounding his Reverence and St. Jude's; and found, or thought I found, that Sylvia's religion was at worst a selfish gratification of the senses of the individual worshipper, and at best a devout and pious ministration to the worshipper's own soul; in which the loving of one's neighbour and caring for one another seemed to play precisely no part at all.

There was hardly any mysticism in my personality. My mind, as you’ve seen, was filled with raw but passionate desires for improving the material conditions of my fellow humans. I was deeply invested in human well-being, material progress, [70] and finding solutions to mortal problems. Looking at Sylvia's perspective from this angle, I pushed through what I quickly dismissed as "nonsense"; by that, I meant the poetry, the imagery, the sacred allure surrounding his Reverence and St. Jude's; and discovered, or thought I discovered, that Sylvia's religion was, at worst, a selfish indulgence of the individual worshipper's senses, and at best, a sincere and devout attention to the worshipper's own soul; in which loving one’s neighbor and caring for one another seemed to have no role whatsoever.

True it was, as I already knew, that in the East End of London, and elsewhere, some of the very High Church clergy were carrying on a work of real devotion among the poor, and that with possibly a more distinguished measure of success than attended the efforts of any other branch of Christian service. They did not influence anything like the number of people who were influenced by dissenting bodies, but those who did come under their sway came without reservation.

It was true, as I already knew, that in the East End of London and elsewhere, some of the high-church clergy were genuinely devoted to helping the poor, and they might have had more noticeable success than any other branch of Christian service. They didn’t impact nearly as many people as dissenting groups did, but those who were influenced by them did so without hesitation.

But the point which absorbed me was the question of how this particular aspect of religion affected Sylvia. In this, at all events, it seemed to me a far from helpful or wholesome kind of religion. Sylvia liked early morning services because so few people attended them. It was "almost like having the church to oneself." The supreme feature of religious life for Sylvia had for its emblem the tinkle of the bell at the service she always called Mass. The coming of the Presence—that was the C Major[71] of life for Sylvia. For the rest, meditation, preferably in the setting provided by St. Jude's, with its permanent aroma of incense and its dim lights—the world shut out by stained glass—this, with prayer, genuflections, and the ecstasy of long thought upon the circumstances of the supreme act of Christ's life upon earth, seemed to me to represent the sum total of Sylvia's religion.

But what really caught my attention was how this specific aspect of religion impacted Sylvia. To me, it clearly seemed like a rather unhelpful and unhealthy kind of faith. Sylvia enjoyed early morning services because so few people showed up. It was "almost like having the church to herself." The most important part of her religious life symbolized by the ringing of the bell at the service she always referred to as Mass. The arrival of the Presence—that was the C Major[71] of life for Sylvia. Other than that, meditation, especially in the atmosphere of St. Jude's, with its constant scent of incense and muted lighting—the outside world blocked out by stained glass—this, along with prayer, kneeling, and the deep contemplation of the circumstances surrounding Christ's greatest act on earth, seemed to sum up Sylvia's faith.

But, over and above what was to me the chilling negativeness of all this, its indifference to the human welfare of all other mortals, there was in Sylvia's religion something else, which I find myself unable, even now, to put into words. Some indication of it, perhaps, is given by the little passage I have quoted from one of her books. It was the one thing positive which I found in my lady's religion; all the rest was to me a beautiful, intricate, purely artificial negation of human life and human interest.

But beyond what felt like a cold indifference to the well-being of others, there was something about Sylvia's beliefs that I still can't quite express. Maybe a hint of it can be seen in the short excerpt I shared from one of her books. It was the only clear aspect I found in her beliefs; everything else seemed to me like a beautiful, complex, entirely artificial rejection of human life and human interests.

This one thing positive struck into my vitals with a chill premonition, as of something unnatural and, to me, unfathomable. It was a sentiment which I can only call anti-human. Even as those of Sylvia's persuasion held that the clergy should be celibate, so it seemed to me they viewed all purely human loves, ties, emotions, sentiments, and interests generally with a kind of jealous suspicion, as influences to be belittled as far as possible, if not actually suppressed.

This one thing hit me hard with a cold feeling, like something unnatural and, to me, impossible to understand. It was a feeling I can only describe as anti-human. Just as those who supported Sylvia believed that clergy should remain celibate, it seemed to me they looked at all purely human loves, bonds, emotions, feelings, and interests with a kind of jealous suspicion, as things to be downplayed as much as possible, if not outright suppressed.

Puritanism, you say? But, no; the thing had no concern with Puritanism, for it lacked the discipline, the self-restraint that made Cromwell's men invincible. There was no Puritanism in the influence which could make women indifferent to the earthly[72] ties of love and sentiment, to children, to the home and domesticity, while at the same time implanting in them an almost feverish appreciation of incense, rich vestments, gorgeous decorations, and the whole paraphernalia of such a service as that of St. Jude's, Weybridge. This religion, or, as I think it would be more just to say, Sylvia's conception of this religion, did not say:

Puritanism, you say? But no; it had nothing to do with Puritanism, because it lacked the discipline and self-restraint that made Cromwell's followers unbeatable. There was no Puritan influence that could make women indifferent to the earthly connections of love and sentiment, to children, to home and domestic life, while at the same time instilling in them an almost feverish appreciation for incense, lavish garments, stunning decorations, and the entire setup of services like that at St. Jude's, Weybridge. This religion, or rather, Sylvia's idea of this religion, didn’t say:

"Deny yourself this or that."

"Give up this or that."

It said:

It said:

"Deny yourself to the rest of your kind. Deny all other mortals. Wrap yourself in yourself, thinking only of your own soul and its relation to its Maker and Saviour."

"Deny yourself to everyone else. Forget about all other people. Focus on yourself, thinking only about your own soul and its connection to its Creator and Savior."

This was how I saw Sylvia's religion, and, though she was sweetly kind and sympathetic to me, Dick Mordan, I was strangely chilled and perturbed by realization of the fact that nothing human really weighed with her, unless her own soul was human; that the people, our fellow men and women, of whose situation and welfare I thought so much, were far less to Sylvia than the Early Fathers and the Saints; that humanity had even less import for her, was less real, than to me, was the fascination of St. Jude's incense-laden atmosphere.

This is how I viewed Sylvia's beliefs, and even though she was incredibly kind and understanding toward me, Dick Mordan, I felt a strange chill and unease realizing that nothing human truly mattered to her unless her own soul was involved; that the people, our fellow men and women, whom I cared so deeply about, meant much less to Sylvia than the Early Fathers and the Saints did; that humanity was even less significant for her, less real, than the captivating atmosphere filled with incense at St. Jude's.

Sylvia's dainty person had an infinite charm for me; the personality which animated and informed it chilled and repelled me as it might have been a thing uncanny. When I insisted upon the dear importance of some one of humanity's claims, the faraway gaze of her beautiful eyes, with their light that never was on sea or land, her faintly superior smile—all[73] this thrust me back, as might a blow, and with more baffling effect.

Sylvia's delicate presence had an endless charm for me; the personality that brought it to life felt cold and off-putting, almost like something eerie. When I emphasized the vital importance of some human concern, the distant look in her beautiful eyes—eyes that seemed to hold a light not found anywhere on earth—her slightly condescending smile—all this pushed me away, like a blow, but with an even more confusing impact.

And then the accidental touch of her little hand would bring me back, with pulses fluttering, and the warm blood in my veins insisting that sweet Sylvia was adorable; that everything would be well lost in payment for the touch of her lips. So, moth-like, I spent that pleasant Sabbath day, attached to Sylvia by ties over which my mind had small control; by bonds which, if the truth were known, were not wholly dissimilar, I believe, from the ties which drew her daily to the heavy atmosphere of the sanctuary rails of St. Jude's.

And then the accidental touch of her little hand would pull me back, with my heart racing, and the warm blood in my veins insisting that sweet Sylvia was amazing; that everything would be worth it just for the feel of her lips. So, like a moth drawn to a flame, I spent that lovely Sunday, attached to Sylvia by connections that my mind had little control over; by bonds that, if we're being honest, were not all that different, I think, from the ties that pulled her daily to the heavy atmosphere of the sanctuary railings of St. Jude's.

In the evening Mr. Wheeler asked me to come and smoke a cigar with him in his private room, and the invitation was not one to be evaded. I was subconsciously aware that it elicited a meaning exchange of glances between Marjory and her mother.

In the evening, Mr. Wheeler invited me to come smoke a cigar with him in his private room, and I couldn’t turn it down. I noticed a meaningful exchange of glances between Marjory and her mother.

"Well, Mordan, I hope things go well with you in Fleet Street," said Mr. Wheeler, when his cigar was alight and we were both seated in his luxurious little den.

"Well, Mordan, I hope everything goes well for you in Fleet Street," said Mr. Wheeler, once his cigar was lit and we were both settled in his cozy little study.

"Oh, tolerably," I said. "Of course, I am quite an obscure person there as yet; quite on the lowest rungs, you know."

"Oh, it's okay," I said. "Of course, I’m still pretty unknown there; I’m right at the bottom, you know."

"Quite so; quite so; and from all I hear, competition is as keen there as in the City, though the rewards are—rather different, of course."

"Exactly, exactly; and from everything I’ve heard, the competition is just as intense there as in the City, although the rewards are—well, quite different, of course."

I nodded, and we were silent for a few moments. Then he flicked a little cigar-ash into a tray and looked up sharply, with quite the Moorgate Street expression, I remember thinking.[74]

I nodded, and we stayed quiet for a few moments. Then he flicked a little cigar ash into a tray and looked up sharply, and I remember thinking he had that classic Moorgate Street expression.[74]

"I think you are a good deal attracted by my youngest girl, Mordan?" he said; and his tone demanded a reply even more than his words.

"I think you're quite taken with my youngest girl, Mordan?" he said, and his tone asked for a response even more than his words did.

"Yes, I certainly admire her greatly," I said, more than a little puzzled by the wording of the question; more than a little fluttered, it may be; for it seemed to me a welcoming sort of question, and I was keenly aware of my ineligibility as a suitor.

"Yes, I definitely admire her a lot," I said, feeling a bit confused by how the question was phrased; maybe a little flustered too; because it felt like a friendly kind of question, and I was very aware of my ineligibility as a potential partner.

"Exactly. That is no more than I expected to hear from you. Indeed, I think anything less would—well, I shouldn't have been at all pleased with anything less."

"Exactly. That’s just what I expected to hear from you. Honestly, I think anything less would—well, I wouldn’t have been happy with anything less."

His complaisance quite startled me. Somehow, too, it reminded me of my many baffled retirements of that day, before the elements in Sylvia's character which chilled and repelled me. I was almost glad that I had not committed myself to any warmer or more definite declaration. Mr. Wheeler weighed his cigar with nice care.

His willingness to please really surprised me. In some way, it also brought to mind the many confusing moments I had that day, facing the aspects of Sylvia's character that made me feel uncomfortable and distant. I was almost relieved that I hadn't expressed any stronger or clearer feelings. Mr. Wheeler thoughtfully considered his cigar.

"Yes," he continued. "If you had disputed the attraction—the attachment, I should perhaps say—I should have found serious ground for criticizing your—your behaviour to my girl. As it is, of course, the thing is natural enough. You have been attracted; the child is attractive; and you have paid her marked attentions—which is what any young man might be expected to do."

"Yes," he went on. "If you had questioned the attraction—the connection, I guess I should say—I would have had valid reasons to criticize your behavior towards my daughter. But as it stands, it’s pretty normal. You’ve been drawn to her; she is charming; and you’ve shown her clear interest—which is what any young man would likely do."

"If he is going to suggest an engagement," I thought, "I must be very clear about my financial position, or want of position." Mr. Wheeler continued thoughtfully to eye his cigar.

"If he’s going to propose an engagement," I thought, "I need to be very clear about my financial situation, or lack of it." Mr. Wheeler kept thoughtfully looking at his cigar.

"Yes, it is perfectly natural," he said; "and you[75] will probably think, therefore, that what I am going to say is very unnatural and unkind. But you must just bear in mind that I am a good deal older than you, and, also, I am Sylvia's father."

"Yes, it’s completely natural," he said; "and you[75] will probably think that what I’m about to say is really unnatural and unkind. But you need to remember that I’m quite a bit older than you, and I’m also Sylvia's father."

I nodded, with a new interest.

I nodded, feeling a newfound interest.

"Well, now, Mordan, let me say first that I know my girls pretty well, and I am quite satisfied that Sylvia is not fitted to be a poor man's wife. You would probably think her far better fitted for that part than her sister, because Marjory is a lot more gay and frivolous. Well, you would be wrong. They are neither of them really qualified for the post, but Sylvia is far less so than Marjory. In point of fact she would be wretched in it, she would fail in it; and—I may say that the fact would not make matters easier for her husband."

"Well, Mordan, let me start by saying that I know my daughters pretty well, and I'm confident that Sylvia isn't suited to be a poor man's wife. You might think she's a better fit for that role than her sister, since Marjory is a lot more cheerful and carefree. But you'd be mistaken. Neither of them is truly qualified for the position, but Sylvia is much less so than Marjory. In fact, she would be miserable in that role; she would struggle, and I can say that wouldn't make things any easier for her husband."

There did not seem to me any need for a reply, but I nodded again; and Mr. Wheeler resumed, after a long draw at his cigar. He smoked a very excellent, rather rich Havana.

There didn’t seem to be any need for a response, but I nodded again; and Mr. Wheeler continued after taking a long drag from his cigar. He was smoking a really good, fairly rich Havana.

"Yes, girls are different now from the girls I sweethearted with; and girls like mine must have money. I dare say you think Sylvia dresses very prettily, in a simple way. My dear fellow, her laundry bill alone would bankrupt a newspaper reporter."

"Yes, girls are different now from the girls I dated; and girls like mine must have money. I bet you think Sylvia dresses very nicely, in a simple way. My dear friend, her laundry bill alone would wipe out a newspaper reporter's salary."

I may have indicated before, that Mr. Wheeler was not a person of any particular refinement. He had made the money which provided a tolerably costly upbringing for his children, but his own education I gathered had been of a much more exiguous character. There was, as I know, a good deal of truth in what he said of the girl of the period.[76]

I might have mentioned earlier that Mr. Wheeler wasn't someone particularly refined. He earned enough money to give his children a pretty comfortable upbringing, but it seemed his own education was quite limited. There was, I know, a lot of truth in what he said about the girls of his time.[76]

"Well, now, I put it to you, Mordan, whether, admitting that what I say about Sylvia is true—and you may take it from me that it is true—whether it would be very kind or fair on my part to allow you to go on paying attention to her at the rate of—say to-day's. Do you think it would be wise or kind of me to allow it? I say nothing about your side in the matter, because—well, because I still have some recollection of how a young fellow feels in such a case. But would it be wise of me to allow it?"

"Well, let me ask you, Mordan, if what I’m saying about Sylvia is true—and trust me, it is true—do you think it would be kind or fair of me to let you keep paying attention to her at the rate of—let’s say, today? Do you think it would be wise or considerate of me to allow that? I’m not saying anything about your side of this, because—well, because I still remember how a young guy feels in situations like this. But would it be wise for me to let it happen?"

He was a shrewd man, this father of Sylvia, and of my old friend; and I have no doubt that the tactics I found so disarming had served him well before that day in the City. At the same time, instinct seemed to forbid complete surrender on my side.

He was a clever guy, this father of Sylvia and my old friend; and I’m sure the tactics I found so charming had worked well for him before that day in the City. However, my instincts seemed to prevent me from fully giving in.

"It is just consideration of the present difficulties of my position which has made me careful to avoid seeking to commit Sylvia in any way," I said.

"It’s just thinking about the current challenges I’m facing that has made me careful to avoid involving Sylvia in any way," I said.

It was probably an unwise remark. At all events, it struck the note of opposition, of contumacy, which it seemed my host had been anticipating; and he met it with a new inflection in his voice, as who should say: "Well, now to be done with explanations and the velvet glove. Have at you!" What he actually said was:

It was probably an unwise comment. In any case, it hit the tone of resistance and defiance that my host seemed to have been expecting; and he responded with a different tone in his voice, as if to say: "Alright, enough with the explanations and the soft approach. Let’s get to it!" What he actually said was:

"Ah, there's a deal of mischief to be done without a declaration, my friend. But, however, I don't expect that you should share my view. I only suggested it on the off chance because—well, I suppose, because that would be the easiest way out for me, as host. But I don't know that I should have thought much of you if you had met me half-way. So now[77] let me do my part and get it over, for it's not very pleasant. I have shown you my reasons, which, however they may seem to you, are undeniable to me. Now for my wishes in the matter, as a father; I am sure there is no need for me to say 'instructions,' so I say 'wishes.' They are simply that for the time—for a year or two, anyhow—you should not give me the pleasure of being your host, and that you should not communicate in any way with Sylvia. There, now it's said, and done, and I think we might leave it at that; for I don't think it's much more pleasant for me than for you. I'm sure I hope we shall have many a pleasant evening together—er—after a few years have passed. Now, what do you say—shall we have another cigar, or go in to the ladies?"

"Ah, there's plenty of trouble to be stirred up without making a formal announcement, my friend. But, honestly, I don't expect you to agree with my perspective. I only brought it up randomly because—well, I guess it would be the easiest way out for me as the host. Yet, I’m not sure I would have thought much of you if you had met me halfway. So now, let me do my part and get this over with, as it’s not very pleasant. I've shown you my reasons, which, no matter how they appear to you, are undeniable to me. Now for my wishes regarding this, as a father; I’m sure it's unnecessary for me to say 'instructions,' so I’ll say 'wishes.' They are simply that, for the time being—for a year or two at least—you should not give me the pleasure of being your host, and you should not communicate with Sylvia in any way. There, now it’s said and done, and I think we should leave it at that, as I don’t find it much more enjoyable for me than for you. I truly hope we can have many pleasant evenings together—um—after a few years have gone by. So, what do you think—should we have another cigar, or head inside to join the ladies?"

I flatter myself that, with all my shortcomings, I was never a sulky fellow. At all events, I elected to join the ladies; but my reward was not immediately apparent, for it seemed that Sylvia had retired for the night. At least, we did not meet again until breakfast-time next morning, when departure was imminent, and the week's work had, so to say, begun.

I like to think that, despite my flaws, I was never a moody guy. In any case, I chose to hang out with the ladies; however, my reward wasn’t obvious right away, since it seemed that Sylvia had gone to bed. At least, we didn’t see each other again until breakfast the next morning, when it was almost time to leave, and the week’s activities were, so to speak, underway.


VIII
A STIRRING WEEK

Hey! we would each gladly drive At random, without following any specific rules.
Weakness! And worse, weakness is meaningless. Winds from our side tear apart the unsuitable partner. We speed past shores where we would gladly stay; A person cannot, no matter how much they want to, live as a fool of chance.

Even so, we leave behind,
As if authorized by some unknown forces,
We navigate through life's sea at night.
The joys that weren't meant for our use; The friends we had no natural claim to,
The houses that were never meant to be ours.
Matthew Arnold.

It goes without saying that Mr. Wheeler's attitude, and my being practically forbidden the house at Weybridge, strengthened and sharpened my interest in Sylvia. Nothing else so fans the flame of a young man's fancy as being forbidden all access to its object. Accordingly, in the weeks which followed that Sunday at Weybridge, I began an ardent correspondence with Sylvia, after inducing her to arrange to call for letters at a certain newspaper shop not far from the station.

It goes without saying that Mr. Wheeler's attitude, and my being practically forbidden from the house at Weybridge, increased and intensified my interest in Sylvia. Nothing sparks a young man's imagination quite like being denied access to the person he desires. So, in the weeks that followed that Sunday at Weybridge, I started an enthusiastic correspondence with Sylvia, after convincing her to set up a way to collect letters at a newspaper shop not far from the station.

It was a curious correspondence in many ways. Some of my long, wordy epistles were indited from[79] the reporters' room at the Daily Gazette office, in the midst of noisy talk and the hurried production of "copy." Others, again, were produced, long after—for my health's sake—I should have been in bed; and these were written on a corner of my little chest of drawers in the Bloomsbury lodging-house. I was a great reader of the poet Swinburne at the time, and I doubt not my muse was sufficiently passionate seeming. But, though I believe my phrases of endearment were alliteratively emphatic, and even, as I afterwards learned, somewhat alarming to their recipient, yet the real mainspring of my eloquence was the difference between our respective views of life, Sylvia's and mine.

It was a strange exchange in many ways. Some of my long, detailed letters were written from[79] the reporters' room at the Daily Gazette office, surrounded by loud conversations and the frantic creation of "copy." Others, however, were penned long after I should have been in bed for my health; these were written on the edge of my little chest of drawers in the Bloomsbury lodging-house. I was really into the poet Swinburne at the time, and I have no doubt my writing sounded pretty passionate. But while I think my affectionate phrases were quite emphatic and even, as I later found out, a bit alarming to the person receiving them, the real driving force behind my words was the difference between Sylvia's perspective on life and mine.

In short, before very long my letters resolved themselves into fiery and vehement denunciation of Sylvia's particular and chosen metier in religion, and equally vehement special pleading on behalf of the claims of humanity and social reform, as I saw them. I find the thing provocative of smiles now, but I was terribly in earnest then, or thought so, and had realized nothing of the absolute futility of pitting temperament against temperament, reason against conviction, argument against emotional belief.

In short, before too long, my letters turned into passionate and intense criticisms of Sylvia's specific choice of religion, along with equally intense arguments for the importance of humanity and social reform, as I saw it. I find the situation amusing now, but I was dead serious back then, or at least I thought I was, and I hadn’t yet understood the complete uselessness of battling temperament with temperament, reason with belief, or logic with emotional conviction.

We had some stolen meetings, too, in the evenings, I upon one side of a low garden wall, Sylvia upon the other. Stolen meetings are apt to be very sweet and stirring to young blood; but the sordid consideration of the railway fare to Weybridge forbade frequent indulgence, and such was my absorption in social questions, such my growing hatred of Sylvia's anti-human form of religion, that even here I could not[80] altogether forbear from argument. Indeed, I believe I often left poor Sylvia weary and bewildered by the apparently crushing force of my representations, which, while quite capable of making her pretty head to ache, left her mental and emotional attitude as completely untouched as though I had never opened my lips.

We also had some secret meetings in the evenings, me on one side of a low garden wall and Sylvia on the other. Secret meetings tend to be really sweet and exciting for young people; however, the unfortunate reality of the train fare to Weybridge kept us from doing it too often. I was so caught up in social issues and my growing dislike for Sylvia's anti-human beliefs that even then, I couldn’t help but argue. In fact, I think I often left poor Sylvia tired and confused by the overwhelming force of my arguments, which could easily make her pretty head ache, yet left her mental and emotional stance completely unchanged as if I had never spoken at all.

Wrought up by means of my own eloquence, I would make my way back to London in a hot tremor of exaltation, which I took to be love and desire of Sylvia. And then, as like as not, I would receive a letter from my lady-love the next day, the refrain of which would be:

Wrought up by my own charm, I would head back to London in a rush of excitement, which I believed was love and longing for Sylvia. And then, just as likely, I would get a letter from my beloved the next day, the message of which would be:

"How strange you are. How you muddle me! Indeed, you don't understand; and neither, perhaps, do I understand you. It seems to me you would drag sacred matters down to the dusty level of your politics."

"How strange you are. You completely confuse me! Honestly, you don’t get it; and maybe I don’t get you either. It feels like you want to bring important things down to the dirty level of your politics."

The dusty level of my politics! That was it. The affairs of the world, of mortal men, they were as the affairs of ants to pretty Sylvia. A lofty and soaring view, you say? Why, no; not that exactly, for what remained of real and vital moment in her mind, to the exclusion of all serious interest in humanity? There remained, as a source of much gratification, what I called the daily dramatic performance at St. Jude's; and there remained as the one study worthy of serious devotion and interest—Sylvia Wheeler's own soul. She never sought to influence the welfare of another person's soul. Indeed, as she so often said to me, with a kind of plaintiveness which should have softened my declamatory ardour but did not, she did not[81] like speaking of such matters at all; she regarded it as a kind of desecration.

The level of my politics was pretty low! That was it. The world’s issues and the lives of people were like the problems of ants to pretty Sylvia. A high-minded perspective, you might say? Not really; because what truly mattered to her, aside from any serious interest in humanity? What remained, providing her a lot of satisfaction, was what I called the daily drama at St. Jude's; and there was one thing she found worthy of serious attention—Sylvia Wheeler's own soul. She never tried to influence anyone else's soul. In fact, as she often told me, with a kind of sadness that should have softened my passionate speeches but didn’t, she really didn’t like discussing such things at all; she saw it as a kind of disrespect.

No, it did not seem to me a lofty and inspiring view that Sylvia took. On the contrary, it exercised a choking effect upon me, by reason of what I regarded as its intense littleness and narrowness. The too often bitter and sordid realities of the struggle of life, as I saw it in London, had the effect upon me of making Sylvia's esoteric exclusiveness of interest seem so petty as to be an insult to human intelligence. I would stare out of the train windows, on my way back from Weybridge, at the countless lights, the endless huddled roofs of London; and, seeing in these a representation of the huge populace of the city, I would stretch out my arms in an impotent embrace, muttering:

No, I didn't think Sylvia had a grand and uplifting perspective. On the contrary, it felt suffocating to me because of its intense smallness and narrowness. The often harsh and grim realities of life, as I experienced them in London, made Sylvia's elitist interests seem so trivial that it felt like an insult to human intelligence. I would look out of the train windows on my way back from Weybridge, at the countless lights and the endless rows of rooftops in London; and seeing these as a representation of the massive population of the city, I would stretch out my arms in a futile embrace, muttering:

"Yes, indeed, you are real; you are more important than any other consideration; you are not the mere shadows she thinks you; your service is of more moment than any miracle, or than any nursing of one's own soul!"

"Yes, you are real; you are more important than anything else; you are not just the shadows she believes you to be; your support matters more than any miracle or taking care of one's own soul!"

And so I would make my way to Fleet Street, where I forced myself to believe I served the people by teaching them to despise patriotism, to give nothing, but to organize and demand, and keep on demanding and obtaining, more and more, from a State whose business it was to give, and to ask nothing in return. I was becoming known, and smiled at mockingly, for my earnest devotion to the extreme of the Daily Gazette's policy, which, if it made for anything, made, I suppose, for anti-nationalism, anti-militarism, anti-Imperialism, anti-loyalty, and anti-everything[82] else except State aid—by which was meant the antithesis of aid of the State.

And so I headed to Fleet Street, where I convinced myself that I was serving the people by teaching them to hate patriotism, to give nothing, but to organize and demand, and keep on demanding more and more from a government that was supposed to give without wanting anything in return. I was gaining a reputation and was smirked at for my serious commitment to the extreme stance of the Daily Gazette, which, if it stood for anything, stood, I guess, for anti-nationalism, anti-militarism, anti-imperialism, anti-loyalty, and anti-everything else except for government assistance—by which I meant the opposite of assistance from the State.[82]

"I've got quite a good job for you this afternoon, Mordan—something quite in your line," said Mr. Charles N. Pierce one morning. "A lot of these South African firebrands are having a luncheon at the Westminster Palace Hotel, and that fellow John Crondall is to give an address afterwards on 'Imperial Interests and Imperial Duties.' I'll give you your fling on this up to half a column—three-quarters if it's good enough; but, be careful. A sort of contemptuous good humour will be the best line to take. Make 'em ridiculous. And don't forget to convey the idea of the whole business being plutocratic. You know the sort of thing: Park Lane Israelites, scooping millions, at the expense of the overtaxed proletariat in England. Jingoism, a sort of swell bucket-shop business—you know the tone. None of your heroics, mind you. It's got to be news; but you can work in the ridicule all right."

"I have a pretty good assignment for you this afternoon, Mordan—something right up your alley," said Mr. Charles N. Pierce one morning. "A bunch of these South African hotshots are having a lunch at the Westminster Palace Hotel, and that guy John Crondall is set to give a talk afterward on 'Imperial Interests and Imperial Duties.' I’ll let you write up to half a column on this—three-quarters if it’s really good; but be cautious. A kind of mocking good humor will be the best approach. Make them look ridiculous. And don’t forget to get across the idea that the whole affair is elitist. You know the vibe: wealthy investors from Park Lane, raking in millions at the expense of the overtaxed working class in England. Jingoism, like a fancy front for a low-tier operation—you know the tone. No heroics, okay? It needs to be newsworthy, but you can definitely add in the mockery."

I always think of that luncheon as one of the stepping-stones in my life. However crude and mistaken I had been up till then, I had always been sincere. My report of that function went against my own convictions. The writing of it was a painful business; I knew I was being mean and dishonest. Not that what I heard there changed my views materially. No; I still clung to my general convictions, which fitted the policy of the Daily Gazette. But the fact remained that in treating that gathering as I did, on the lines laid down by my news-editor, I knew[83] that I was being dishonest, that I was conveying an untrue impression.

I always think of that lunch as one of the key moments in my life. No matter how blunt and misguided I may have been until then, I had always been genuine. Writing my report on that event went against my beliefs. It was a painful task; I knew I was being petty and dishonest. It's not like what I heard there changed my views significantly. No; I still held on to my general beliefs, which aligned with the policy of the Daily Gazette. But the truth is that by covering that gathering the way I did, based on my news editor's instructions, I knew[83] I was being dishonest and that I was giving an inaccurate impression.

In this feeling, as in most of a young man's keen feelings, the personal element played a considerable part. I was introduced to the speaker, John Crondall, by a Cambridge man I knew, who came there on behalf of a Conservative paper, which had recently taken a new lease of life in new hands, and become the most powerful among the serious organs of the Empire party. It is a curious thing, by the way, that overwhelming as was the dominance of the anti-national party in politics, the Imperialist party could still claim the support of the greatest and most thoughtfully written newspapers.

In this emotion, as with most of a young man's intense feelings, the personal element played a significant role. I was introduced to the speaker, John Crondall, by a guy from Cambridge I knew, who came there representing a Conservative paper that had recently revived under new management and become the most influential among the serious publications of the Empire party. It's interesting to note that despite the strong dominance of the anti-national party in politics, the Imperialist party could still count on the backing of the leading and most thoughtfully written newspapers.

John Crondall had no time to spare for more than a very few words with so obscure a person as myself; but in two minutes he was able to produce a deep impression upon me, as he did upon most people who met him. John Crondall had a great deal of personal charm, but the thing about him which bit right into my consciousness that afternoon was his earnest sincerity. As Crewe, the man who introduced me to him, said afterwards:

John Crondall didn’t have much time to chat with someone as unremarkable as me; but in just two minutes, he left a strong impression on me, as he did on most people he met. John Crondall had a lot of personal charm, but what struck me deeply that afternoon was his genuine sincerity. As Crewe, the guy who introduced me to him, said later:

"There isn't one particle of flummery in Crondall's whole body."

"There isn't a single bit of nonsense in Crondall's whole being."

It was an obviously truthful criticism. You might agree with the man or not, but no intelligent human being could doubt his honesty, the reality of his convictions, the strength and sincerity of his devotion to the cause of those convictions. It was perfectly well known then that Crondall had played a capable third or fourth fiddle in the maintenance, so far, of the[84] Imperial interest in South Africa. His masterful leader, the man who, according to report, had inspired all his fiery earnestness in the Imperialist cause, was dead. But John Crondall had relinquished nothing of his activity as a lieutenant, and continued to spend a good share of his time in South Africa, while, wherever he was, continuing to devote his energies to the same cause.

It was a clearly valid criticism. You might agree with the man or not, but no smart person could doubt his honesty, the truth of his beliefs, or the strength and sincerity of his commitment to the cause he believed in. At that time, it was well known that Crondall had played a capable supporting role in maintaining the[84] Imperial interest in South Africa. His impressive leader, the one who reportedly inspired all his passionate commitment to the Imperialist cause, was dead. But John Crondall hadn’t slowed down at all; he continued to spend a significant amount of time in South Africa, while, no matter where he was, he kept dedicating his efforts to the same cause.

As for his material interests, Crewe assured me that Crondall knew no more of business, South African or otherwise, than a schoolboy. He had inherited property worth about a couple of thousand a year, and had rather decreased than added to it. For, though he had acted as war correspondent in the Russo-Japan war, and through one or two "little wars," in outlying parts of the British Empire, circumstances had prevented such work being of profit to him. In the South African war he had served as an irregular, and achieved distinction in scouting and guiding work.

As for his financial interests, Crewe told me that Crondall knew just as much about business, whether in South Africa or elsewhere, as a schoolboy. He had inherited property worth around a couple of thousand a year and had actually decreased its value rather than increased it. Even though he worked as a war correspondent during the Russo-Japanese war and a few other “small conflicts” in remote areas of the British Empire, his circumstances meant he never made any money from that work. During the South African war, he served as an irregular and gained recognition for his scouting and guiding skills.

John Crondall's life, I gathered, had been the very opposite of my own sheltered progress from Dorset village to school, from school to University, and thence to my present street-bound routine in London. His views were clearly no less opposite to that vague tumult of resentment, protest, and aspiration which represented my own outlook upon life. Indeed, his speech that day was an epitome of the sentiment and opinions which I had chosen to regard with the utmost abhorrence.

John Crondall's life, as I understood it, had been the complete opposite of my own safe journey from a village in Dorset to school, from school to university, and now to my current routine in London. His beliefs were clearly just as different from the vague mix of anger, protest, and hopes that defined my own view of life. In fact, what he said that day perfectly summarized the feelings and opinions that I had chosen to view with intense disdain.

With Crondall, every other consideration hinged upon and was subservient to the Imperialist idea of[85] devotion to the bond which united all British possessions under one rule. The maintenance and furtherance of that tie, the absorption of all parts into that great whole, the subordination of all other interests to this: that I took to be John Crondall's great end in life. By association I had come to identify myself, and my ideals of social reform, entirely with those to whom mere mention of the rest of the Empire, or of the ties which made it an Empire, was as a red rag to a bull.

With Crondall, everything else depended on and was secondary to the Imperialist idea of[85] loyalty to the bond that connected all British territories under one authority. Upholding and promoting that connection, integrating all parts into that larger whole, and prioritizing everything else below this: that was what I believed to be John Crondall's main purpose in life. Through association, I had come to see myself, and my vision for social reform, as completely aligned with those who reacted strongly against any mention of the wider Empire or the ties that made it an Empire.

I have tried to explain something of the causes for this extraordinary attitude, but I am conscious that at the present time it cannot really be explained. It was there, however. We might interest ourselves in talk of Germany, we might enthusiastically admire and even model ourselves upon the conduct of a foreign people; but mention of the outside places of our own Empire filled us with anger, resentment, scorn, and contempt. It amounted to this: that we regarded as an enemy the man who sought to serve the Empire. He cannot do that without opposing us, we said in effect; as one who should say: You cannot cultivate my garden, or repair my fences, without injuring my house and showing yourself an enemy to my family. A strange business; but so it was.

I’ve tried to explain some of the reasons for this unusual attitude, but I know that right now, it’s hard to fully explain. Still, it existed. We could get caught up in discussions about Germany, we could enthusiastically admire and even imitate the actions of a foreign people; but just mentioning our own Empire's distant places filled us with anger, resentment, scorn, and contempt. It boiled down to this: we viewed as an enemy anyone who tried to serve the Empire. We were effectively saying, “You can’t tend my garden or fix my fences without damaging my house and showing yourself as a threat to my family.” A strange situation, but that’s how it was.

Therefore, John Crondall's speech that day found me full enough of opposition, and not at all inclined to be sympathetic. But the thing of it was, I knew him for an honest and disinterested man; a man alight with high inspiration and lofty motive; a man immeasurably above sordid or selfish ends. And it[86] was my task, first, to ridicule him; and, second, to attach sordidness and self-interest to him. That was the thing which made the day eventful for me.

Therefore, John Crondall's speech that day found me full of opposition, and not at all inclined to be sympathetic. But the thing was, I knew him to be an honest and selfless man; a person filled with high inspiration and noble intentions; a person far above selfish or greedy goals. And it[86] was my job, first, to mock him; and, second, to associate him with greed and self-interest. That was what made the day significant for me.

John Crondall talked of British rule and British justice, as he had known them in the world's far places. He drew pictures of Oriental rule, Boer rule, Russian rule, savage rule; and, again, of the methods and customs of foreign Powers in their colonial administration. When he claimed this and that for British rule, and the Imperial unity which must back it, as such, sneers came naturally to me. The anti-British sentiment covered that. My qualms began, when he based his plea upon the value of British administration to all concerned, the danger to civilization, to mankind, of its being allowed to weaken.

John Crondall spoke about British rule and British justice, as he had experienced them in distant parts of the world. He painted a picture of Oriental rule, Boer rule, Russian rule, and brutal rule; and also discussed the approaches and customs of foreign powers in their colonial governance. When he argued for the merits of British rule and the Imperial unity that should support it, I couldn't help but respond with skepticism. The anti-British sentiment overshadowed that. My doubts began when he argued that British administration was beneficial for everyone involved, and that allowing it to weaken posed a danger to civilization and humanity.

Remember, he spoke in pictures, and in the first person; not of imaginings, but of what he had seen: how a single anti-British speech in London, meant a month's prolongation of bloody strife in one country, or an added weight of cruel oppression in another. Right or wrong, John Crondall carried you with him; for he dealt with men and things as he had brothered and known them, before ever he let loose, in a fiery peroration, that abstract idea of Empire patriotism which ruled his life.

Remember, he spoke in images and in the first person; not about fantasies, but about what he had witnessed: how a single anti-British speech in London could mean a month of bloody conflict in one country, or an added burden of harsh oppression in another. Right or wrong, John Crondall drew you in; because he talked about people and things as he had known and connected with them, before he unleashed, in a fiery conclusion, that abstract concept of Empire patriotism that dominated his life.

But it was not all this that made my paltry journalistic task a hard one. It was my certainty of Crondall's lofty sincerity. From that afternoon I date the beginning of the end of my Daily Gazette engagement. Some men in my shoes would have moved to success from this point; gaining from it either complete unscrupulousness, or the bold decision[87] which would have made them important as friends or enemies. For my part I was simply slackened by the episode. I met John Crondall several times again. He chaffed me in the most generous fashion over my abominably unfair report of the luncheon gathering. He influenced me greatly, though my opinions remained untouched, so far as I knew.

But it wasn’t all of this that made my small journalistic job so difficult. It was my firm belief in Crondall’s genuine sincerity. From that afternoon, I mark the beginning of the end of my Daily Gazette involvement. Some people in my position would have leveraged this moment to succeed, either becoming completely ruthless or making bold choices that would have made them significant as friends or foes. As for me, I was just held back by the experience. I ran into John Crondall several more times. He playfully teased me in the most generous way about my shockingly unfair report on the lunch gathering. He had a big impact on me, even though my views remained unchanged, as far as I could tell.

I cannot explain just how John Crondall influenced me, but I am very conscious that he had a broadening effect on me—he enlarged my horizon. If he had remained in London things might have gone differently with me. One cannot tell. Among other things, I know his influence mightily reduced the number and length of my letters to Weybridge. In my mind I was always fighting John Crondall. It was my crowded millions of England against his lonely, sun-browned men and women outside—his world interests. The war in my heart was real, unceasing. And then there was pretty Sylvia and her little soul, and her meditations, and her daily miracles. The pin-point, bright as it was, became too tiny for me to concentrate upon it, when contrasted with these other tumultuous concerns.

I can’t really explain how John Crondall affected me, but I’m very aware that he broadened my perspective—he expanded my outlook on life. If he had stayed in London, things might have turned out differently for me. It’s impossible to say. For one thing, I know his influence significantly decreased the number and length of my letters to Weybridge. In my mind, I was always battling John Crondall. It was my crowded millions in England against his lonely, sun-baked men and women out there—his worldly interests. The conflict in my heart was genuine and never-ending. And then there was the lovely Sylvia with her little soul, her reflections, and her everyday miracles. The pinpoint of focus, as bright as it was, became too small for me to concentrate on when compared to these other chaotic matters.

Then came a crowded, confused week, in which I saw John Crondall depart by the South African boat-train from Waterloo. The first lieutenant of his dead leader out there had cabled for Crondall to come and hold his broad shoulders against the side of some political dam. My eyes pricked when John Crondall wrung my hand.

Then came a chaotic, busy week, during which I watched John Crondall leave on the South African boat train from Waterloo. The first lieutenant of his deceased leader out there had sent a cable for Crondall to come and help support some political issues. My eyes stung when John Crondall squeezed my hand.

"You're all right, sonny," he said. "Don't you suppose I have the smallest doubt about you."[88]

"You're okay, kid," he said. "Do you really think I have any doubt about you?"[88]

I had never given him anything but sneers and opposition—I, a little unknown scrub of a reporter; he a man who helped to direct policies and shape States. Here he was rushing off to the other side of the earth at his own expense, sacrificing his own interests and engagements at home, in the service of an Idea, an abstract Tie, a Flag. My philosophy had seemed spacious beside, say, Sylvia's: to secure better things for those about me, instead of for my own soul only. But what of Crondall? As I say, my eyes pricked, even while I framed some sentence in my mind expressing regret for his wrong-headedness. Ah, well!

I had only given him scorn and resistance—I, a little unknown reporter; he, a man who helped direct policies and shape nations. Here he was, hurrying off to the other side of the world at his own expense, sacrificing his own interests and commitments at home for an Idea, an abstract Connection, a Flag. My philosophy had seemed grand compared to, say, Sylvia's: to secure better things for those around me, rather than just for myself. But what about Crondall? As I said, I felt a sting in my eyes, even while I tried to think of something to say that would convey my regret for his misguided choices. Ah, well!

The same week—the same day—brought me the gentlest little note of dismissal from Sylvia. Her duty to her father, and—my ideas seemed too much for her peace of mind; so bewildering. "I am no politician, you know; and truth to tell, these matters which seem so much to you that you would have them drive religion from me, they seem to me so infinitely unimportant. Forgive me!"

The same week—the same day—brought me a brief note from Sylvia letting me go. She felt it was her duty to her father, and my ideas were too overwhelming for her peace of mind; they were so confusing. "I'm not a politician, you know, and to be honest, these issues that matter so much to you to the point of pushing religion away from me seem so unimportant to me. Please forgive me!"

No doubt my vanity was wounded, but I will not pretend that I was very seriously hurt. Neither could I ponder long upon the matter, because another letter, received by the same post, claimed my attention. Sylvia's letter threw out a hint of better things for us in a year or two's time. Her notion of a break between us was "for the present." There were references to "later on, when you can come here again, and we need not hide things." But my other letter made more instant claims. It was type-written, and ran thus:[89]

No doubt my ego was bruised, but I won’t pretend that I was really hurt. I also couldn’t dwell on it for long because another letter that came in the same mail demanded my attention. Sylvia's letter hinted at better things for us in a year or two. She considered the break between us to be "for now." There were mentions of "later on, when you can come here again, and we won’t have to hide things." But my other letter had more urgent demands. It was typewritten and said:[89]

"Dear Mr. Mordan:—Mr. Chas. N. Pierce directs me to inform you that after the expiration of the present month your services will no longer be required by the editor of the Daily Gazette.

Dear Mr. Mordan:—Mr. Chas. N. Pierce asks me to let you know that after the end of this month, your services will no longer be needed by the editor of the Daily Gazette.

"I am, Sir,
Yours faithfully,
James Martin,
Secretary."

"I am, Sir,
Yours sincerely,
James Martin,
Secretary."

I pictured the little pale-eyed rabbit of a man typing the dictum of his Napoleon, his hero, and wondering in his amiable way how "Mr. Mordan" would be affected thereby, and how he had managed to displease the great man. As for "the editor of the Daily Gazette," I had not seen him since the day of my engagement. But I recalled now various recent signs of chill disapproval of my work on Mr. Pierce's part. And, indeed, I was aware myself of a slackness in my work, a kind of reckless, windmill-tilting tendency in my general attitude.

I imagined the small, pale-eyed man typing out the orders of his hero, Napoleon, and wondering in his friendly way how "Mr. Mordan" would react to it, and how he had managed to upset the important figure. As for "the editor of the Daily Gazette," I hadn't seen him since my engagement day. But now I recalled various recent signs of cool disapproval from Mr. Pierce regarding my work. In fact, I was aware myself of a drop in my performance, a sort of reckless, Don Quixote-like attitude in how I approached things.

Meantime, there was the fact that I had recently encroached twice upon my tiny nest-egg; once to buy a wedding present for my sister Lucy, and once for a piece of silly extravagance.

Meantime, there was the fact that I had recently dipped into my small savings twice; once to buy a wedding gift for my sister Lucy, and once for a silly splurge.

It was quite a notable week.

It was a pretty significant week.


IX
A STEP DOWN

"Cosmopolitanism is nonsense; the cosmopolite is a cipher, worse than a cipher; outside of nationality there is neither art, nor truth, nor life; there is nothing."—Ivan Turgenieff.

"Cosmopolitanism is ridiculous; the cosmopolite is meaningless, even worse than meaningless; without nationality, there is no art, no truth, no life; there is nothing."—Ivan Turgenev.

I have mentioned a piece of reckless extravagance; it was reckless in view of my straightened circumstances. And the reason I mention this apparent trifle is that it and its attendant circumstances influenced me in my conduct after the abrupt termination of the Daily Gazette engagement.

I have mentioned a bit of reckless spending; it was reckless considering my tight financial situation. The reason I bring up this seemingly minor detail is that it and the surrounding circumstances affected my actions after the sudden end of the Daily Gazette job.

One of my fellow knights of the reporters' room introduced me in a certain Fleet Street wine-bar to one of the characters of that classic highway—a man named Clement Blaine, who edited and owned a weekly publication called The Mass. I hasten to add that this journal had nothing whatever to do with any kind of religious observance. Its title referred to the people, or rather, to the section of the public which, at that time, we still described by the quaintly misleading phrase, "the working classes," as though work were a monopoly in the hands of the manual labourer.

One of my fellow reporters introduced me at a Fleet Street wine bar to a character from that classic era—a man named Clement Blaine, who edited and owned a weekly publication called The Mass. I want to clarify that this magazine had nothing to do with any religious practices. Its title referred to the people, or more specifically, to the group we still called, somewhat inaccurately, "the working classes," as if work was solely the domain of manual laborers.

The Mass was a journal which had quite a vogue at that time. This was brought about, I suppose,[91] by the wave of anti-nationalism which, in 1906, established the notorious administration which subsequently became known as "The Destroyers." It was maintained largely, I fancy, by Clement Blaine's genius for getting himself quoted in other journals of every sort and standing.

The Mass was a magazine that was really popular back then. I think this was due to the wave of anti-nationalism that, in 1906, led to the infamous administration later known as "The Destroyers." It was mainly supported, I believe, by Clement Blaine's talent for getting himself mentioned in other types of publications across the board.

The existence of The Mass, and the popularity which it earned by outraging every civic and national decency, stands in my mind as a striking example of the extraordinary laxity and slackness of moral which had grown out of our boasted tolerance, broad-mindedness, and cosmopolitanism. We had waxed drunken upon the parrot-like asseveration of "rights," which our fathers had won for us, and we had no time to spare for their compensating duties. This misguided apotheosis of what we considered freedom and broad-mindedness, produced the most startling and anomalous situations in our national life, including the almost incredible fact that, while nominally at peace with the world, the State was being bitterly warred against by cliques and parties among its own subjects.

The existence of The Mass and the popularity it gained by shocking every civic and national decency stands out to me as a clear example of the extreme moral laxity that resulted from our claimed tolerance, open-mindedness, and cosmopolitanism. We had become intoxicated by the repetitive claims of "rights" that our forefathers secured for us, leaving us no time to consider their corresponding responsibilities. This misguided idolization of what we thought was freedom and open-mindedness led to some of the most surprising and unusual situations in our national life, including the almost unbelievable fact that, while we were officially at peace with the world, the State was being fiercely attacked by factions and groups among its own citizens.

For instance, in any other State than our own, my new acquaintance, Clement Blaine, would have been safely disposed in a convenient prison cell, and his flamingly seditious journal would have been promptly and effectually squashed. In England the man was free as the Prime Minister, and a Department of State, the Post Office, was engaged in the distribution of the journal which he devoted exclusively to stirring up animosity against that State, and traitorous opposition to its constitution.[92]

For example, in any other state besides ours, my new friend, Clement Blaine, would have been locked up in a comfortable prison cell, and his outrageously rebellious journal would have been quickly and effectively shut down. In England, he was as free as the Prime Minister, and a government department, the Post Office, was involved in distributing the journal that he entirely dedicated to inciting hatred against that government and encouraging treasonous opposition to its constitution.[92]

Further, Mr. Blaine's vitriolic outpourings, his unnatural defilement of his own nest, were gravely quoted in every newspaper in the Kingdom, without a hint of recognition of the fact that they were fundamentally criminal and a public offence. The sacrosanct "liberty of the subject" was involved; and though Mr. Blaine would have been forcibly restrained if he had shown any tendency to injure lamp-posts, or to lay hands upon his own worthless life, he was given every facility in his self-appointed task of inciting the public to all sorts of offences against the State, and to a variety of forms of national suicide.

Further, Mr. Blaine's vicious rants and his bizarre self-sabotage were reported in every newspaper across the Kingdom, without any acknowledgement that they were essentially criminal and a public offense. The sacred "liberty of the subject" was at stake; and even though Mr. Blaine would have been forcibly stopped if he tried to damage lamp-posts or harm himself, he was given every opportunity in his self-assigned mission of encouraging the public to commit various crimes against the State and engage in different kinds of national self-destruction.

It was the commonest thing for a Member of Parliament, a man solemnly sworn and consecrated to the loyal service of the Crown and State, to fill a signed column of Clement Blaine's paper, with an article or letter the whole avowed end of which would be the championing of some national enemy or rival, or the advocacy of means whereby a shrewd blow might be struck against British rule or British prestige in some part of the world.

It was very common for a Member of Parliament, a man officially sworn in to serve the Crown and State, to fill a signed column in Clement Blaine's paper with an article or letter that openly aimed to support some national enemy or rival, or to suggest ways to hit back at British rule or British prestige in some part of the world.

I recall one long and scurrilous article by a Member of Parliament, urging rebellious natives in South Africa to take heart of grace and pursue with ever-increasing vigour their attacks upon the small and isolated white populace which upheld British rule in that part of the Continent. I remember a long and venomous letter from another Member of Parliament (a strong advocate of the State payment of members) defending in the most ardently sympathetic manner both the action and the sentiments of a municipal[93] official who had torn down and destroyed the Union Jack upon an occasion of public ceremony.

I remember a lengthy and harsh article by a Member of Parliament, encouraging rebellious locals in South Africa to find courage and ramp up their efforts against the small, isolated white population that supported British rule in that area of the continent. I also recall a lengthy and spiteful letter from another Member of Parliament (a strong supporter of state-funded members) passionately defending both the actions and feelings of a municipal[93] official who had taken down and destroyed the Union Jack during a public ceremony.

We called this sort of thing British freedom in those chaotic days; and when our Continental rivals were not jeering at the grotesqueness of it, they were lauding this particular form of madness to the skies, as well they might, seeing that our insensate profligacy and incontinence meant their gain. The cause of a foreigner, good, bad, or indifferent—that was the cause Clement Blaine most loved to champion in his journal. An attack upon anything British, though the author of it might be the basest creature ever outlawed from any community—that was certain of ready and eager hospitality in the columns of The Mass.

We referred to this kind of thing as British freedom during those chaotic times; and when our competitors from the Continent weren't mocking its absurdity, they were praising this particular brand of madness to the heavens, which made sense, considering our reckless wastefulness and indulgence worked to their advantage. The cause of any foreigner, whether good, bad, or indifferent—that was the cause Clement Blaine loved to support in his journal the most. An attack on anything British, even if the author was the most despicable outcast from any society—that was sure to receive a warm and enthusiastic welcome in the pages of The Mass.

I can conceive of no infamy which that journal was not ready to condone, no offence it would not seek to justify—save and except the crime of patriotism, loyalty, avowed love of Britain. And this obscene, mad-dog policy, so difficult even to imagine at this time, was by curious devious ways identified with Socialism. The Mass was called a Socialist organ. The fact may have been a libel upon Socialism, if not upon Socialists; but so it was.

I can’t think of any scandal that journal was unwilling to excuse, no wrongdoing it wouldn’t try to justify—except for the crime of patriotism, loyalty, and openly loving Britain. And this outrageous, reckless policy, which is hard to even fathom today, was bizarrely linked to Socialism. The Mass was labeled a Socialist publication. It might have been a slander against Socialism, if not against Socialists; but that’s how it was.

Be it said that at Cambridge I had rather surprised the evangelical section of my college (Corpus Christi) by the part I played in founding a short-lived institution called the Anonymous Society, the choicest spirits in which affected canvas shirts and abstention from the use of neckties. As Socialists, we invited the waiters of the college to a soirée, at which a judicious blend of revolutionary economics and bitter[94] beer was relied upon to provide a flow of reasonable and inexpensive entertainment. The society lapsed after a time, chiefly owing, if I remember rightly, to an insufficiency of funds for refreshments. But I had remained rather a person to be reckoned with at the Union.

I should mention that at Cambridge, I surprised the evangelical group in my college (Corpus Christi) with my role in starting a short-lived organization called the Anonymous Society. The select members of this group wore canvas shirts and avoided neckties. As Socialists, we invited the college waiters to a gathering, where we hoped a mix of revolutionary economics and cheap beer would offer a steady stream of entertaining and affordable options. The society eventually faded away, mainly due to, if I recall correctly, a lack of funds for refreshments. However, I still became someone considered important at the Union.

I regarded my meeting with Clement Blaine as something of an event, and I very cheerfully and quite gratuitously contributed an article to his journal dealing with some form of government subvention which I held to be a State duty. (We wasted few words over the duties of the citizen in those days.) It was as a result of that article that I was invited to a Socialist soirée in which the moving spirit, at all events in the refreshment-room, was Mr. Clement Blaine. Here I met a variety of queer fish who called themselves Socialists. They were of both sexes, and upon the whole they were a silly, inconsequent set. Their views rather wearied me, despite my predisposition to favour them.

I viewed my meeting with Clement Blaine as quite an occasion, and I happily and willingly wrote an article for his journal about some type of government support that I believed was a responsibility of the State. (We didn't spend much time discussing the responsibilities of citizens back then.) Because of that article, I was invited to a Socialist gathering where Mr. Clement Blaine was the main figure, at least in the refreshment room. There, I encountered a variety of odd characters who called themselves Socialists. They were both men and women, and overall, they were a silly, inconsistent group. Their opinions honestly bored me, even though I was inclined to support them.

They were a kind of tepid, ineffectual anarchists, unconvinced and wholly unconvincing. Broadly speaking, theirs was a policy of blind reversal. They were not constructive, but they were opposed vaguely to the existing order of things, and, particularly, to everything British. They pinned their faith to the foreigner in all things, even though the foreigner's whole energies might be devoted to the honest endeavour to raise conditions in his country to a level approaching the British standard. Any contention against the existing order, and, above all, anything[95] against Britain, appealed directly to these rather tawdry people.

They were a kind of half-hearted, ineffective anarchists, unsure and totally unconvincing. Generally speaking, their approach was just to oppose everything without any real direction. They weren’t constructive but had a vague opposition to the current state of affairs, especially anything British. They placed their trust in foreigners for everything, even if those foreigners were genuinely trying to improve conditions in their own countries to match British standards. Any argument against the status quo, and especially anything against Britain, resonated with these rather shabby individuals.

In this drab, ineffective gathering, I found one point of colour, like a red rose on a dingy white tablecloth. This was Beatrice, the daughter of Clement Blaine. I believe the man had a wife. One figures her as a worn household drudge. In any case, she made no appearance in any of the places in which I met Blaine, or his handsome daughter. Beatrice Blaine was a new type to me. One had read of such girls, but I had never met them. And I suppose novelty always has a certain charm for youth. One felt that Beatrice had crossed the Rubicon. Mentally, at all events, one gathered that she had thrown her bonnet over the windmill.

In this dull, unproductive gathering, I found one bright spot, like a red rose on a dirty white tablecloth. That was Beatrice, the daughter of Clement Blaine. I think the man had a wife. You can imagine her as a tired housewife. In any case, she never showed up in any of the places where I met Blaine or his attractive daughter. Beatrice Blaine was a new kind of person for me. I had read about girls like her, but I had never actually met one. And I guess novelty always has a special appeal for young people. It felt like Beatrice had crossed a significant boundary. Mentally, at least, it seemed like she had thrown caution to the wind.

Physically, materially, I have no doubt that Beatrice was perfectly well qualified to take care of herself. But here was a very handsome girl who was entirely without reticence or reserve. With her, many things usually treated with respect were—"all rot." Beatrice's aim in life was pleasure, and she not merely admitted, but boasted of the fact. She did not think much of her father's friends as individuals. She probably objected to their dinginess. But she acclaimed herself a thoroughgoing Socialist, I think because she believed that Socialism meant the provision of plenty in money, dresses, pleasures, and so forth, for all who were short of these commodities.

Physically and materially, I have no doubt that Beatrice was fully capable of taking care of herself. But here was a stunning girl who had no shame or reservations. For her, many things that are usually treated seriously were—"all nonsense." Beatrice's goal in life was enjoyment, and she not only accepted this but bragged about it. She didn’t think much of her father’s friends as people. She probably found them dull. However, she proudly identified as a committed Socialist, I think because she believed that Socialism meant ensuring that everyone had access to plenty of money, clothes, fun, and so on, especially for those who lacked these things.

Perhaps I was a shade less dingy than the others. At all events, Beatrice honoured me with her favour upon this occasion, and talked to me of pleasure. So far as recollection serves me she connected pleasure[96] chiefly with theatres, restaurants, the habit of supping in public, and the use of hansom cabs. At all events, within the week I squandered two whole sovereigns out of my small hoard on giving this young pagan what she called a "fluffy" evening. It reminded me more than a little of certain rather frantic undergraduate excursions from Cambridge. But Beatrice quoted luscious lines of minor poetry, and threw a certain glamour over a quarter of the town which was a warren of tawdry immorality; the hunting-ground of a pallid-faced battalion of alien pimps and parasites.

Maybe I was a bit less shabby than the others. In any case, Beatrice favored me this time and chatted with me about enjoyment. As far as I can remember, she mostly linked enjoyment[96] to theaters, restaurants, the habit of dining out, and taking hansom cabs. Regardless, within a week, I blew two whole sovereigns from my small stash to give this young woman what she called a "fluffy" evening. It reminded me somewhat of some rather wild outings during my time at Cambridge. But Beatrice quoted beautiful lines from lesser-known poetry and added a certain charm to a part of the city that was a maze of tacky immorality; a hunting ground for a pale-faced group of shady pimps and hangers-on.

England was then the one civilized country in the world which still welcomed upon its shores the outcast, rejected, refuse of other lands; and, as a matter of course, when foreign capitals became positively too hot for irreclaimable characters, they flocked into Whitechapel and Soho, there to indulge their natural bent for every kind of criminality known to civilization, save those involving physical risk or physical exertion for the criminal. There were then whole quarters of the metropolis out of which every native resident had gradually been ousted, in which the English language was rarely heard, except during a police raid.

England was then the only civilized country in the world that still welcomed the outcasts, the rejected, and the dispossessed from other lands; and, naturally, when foreign cities became too dangerous for irredeemable characters, they flocked to Whitechapel and Soho, ready to indulge their tendencies toward all kinds of crime known to civilization, except for those that involved physical risk or effort for the criminal. At that time, there were entire neighborhoods in the city from which every local resident had gradually been driven out, where the English language was rarely heard, except during police raids.

Tens of thousands of these unclassed, denationalized foreigners lived and waxed fat by playing upon the foibles and pandering to the weaknesses of the great city's native population. Others, of a higher class, steadily ousted native labour in the various branches of legitimate commerce. We know now, to our cost, something of the malignant danger these[97] foreigners represented. In indirect ways one would have supposed their evil influence was sufficiently obvious then. But I remember that the parties represented by such organs as the Daily Gazette prided themselves upon their furious opposition to any hint of precautions making for the restriction of alien immigration.

Tens of thousands of these unclassified, denationalized foreigners lived well by exploiting the quirks and catering to the weaknesses of the city's native population. Others, from a higher social class, gradually replaced local workers in various legitimate businesses. We now know, to our regret, just how dangerous these foreigners were. In indirect ways, one might have thought their harmful influence was quite clear back then. However, I recall that the groups represented by publications like the Daily Gazette took pride in their intense opposition to any suggestions for limiting foreign immigration.

England was the land of the free, they said. Yet, while boasting that England was the refuge of the persecuted (as well as the rejected) of all lands, we were so wonderfully broad-minded that we upheld anything foreign against anything British, and were intolerant only of English sentiment, English rule, English institutions. I believe Beatrice's conviction of the superiority of the Continent and of foreigners generally was based upon the belief that:

England was the land of the free, they claimed. Yet, while proudly stating that England was the safe haven for the persecuted and rejected from all over the world, we were so incredibly open-minded that we supported anything foreign over anything British and were only intolerant of English feelings, English authority, and English institutions. I think Beatrice's belief in the superiority of the Continent and foreigners in general was based on the idea that:

"On the Continent people can really enjoy themselves. There's none of our ridiculous English puritanism, and early closing, and rubbish of that sort there."

"On the Continent, people can truly have a great time. There's none of our silly English puritanism, and early closing, and nonsense like that there."

I am rather surprised that the crude hedonism of Beatrice should have appealed to me, for my weaknesses had never really included mere fleshly indulgence. But, as I have said, the girl had the charm of novelty for me. I remember satirically assuring myself that, upon the whole, her frank concentration upon worldly pleasure was more natural and pleasing than Sylvia's rapt concentration upon other kinds of self-ministration. Ours was a period of self-indulgence. Beatrice was, after all, only a little more naïve and outspoken than the majority in her thirst[98] for pleasure. And she was quite charming to look upon.

I’m pretty surprised that Beatrice’s blatant hedonism appealed to me, since I’ve never really been one for just indulging in physical pleasures. But, as I mentioned, there was something refreshingly new about her. I remember ironically telling myself that, overall, her honest focus on enjoying life was more natural and appealing than Sylvia’s intense focus on other forms of self-care. We were living in a time of self-indulgence. Beatrice was simply a bit more naïve and straightforward than most people in her desire for pleasure. Plus, she was very easy on the eyes.

Almost the first man to whom I spoke regarding my dismissal from the staff of the Daily Gazette was Clement Blaine. I met him in Fleet Street, and was asked in to his cupboard of an office.

Almost the first person I talked to about my firing from the staff of the Daily Gazette was Clement Blaine. I ran into him on Fleet Street, and he invited me into his tiny office.

"You are a man who knows every one in Fleet Street," I said. "I wish you would keep an eye lifting for a journalistic billet for me."

"You know everyone in Fleet Street," I said. "I wish you would keep an eye out for a journalism job for me."

And then I told him that I was leaving the Daily Gazette, and spoke of the work I had done, and of my little journalistic experiences at Cambridge.

And then I told him that I was leaving the Daily Gazette, and talked about the work I had done, and my small journalism experiences at Cambridge.

He combed his glossy black beard with the fingers of one hand; a white hand it was, save where cigarettes had browned the first and second fingers; a hand that had never known physical toil, though its owner always addressed "working" men as one of themselves. He wore a fiery red necktie, and a fiery diamond on the little finger of the hand that combed his beard. A self-indulgent life in the city was telling on him, but Clement Blaine was still rather a fine figure of a man, in his coarse, bold way. He had a varnished look, and, dressed for the part, would have made a splendid stage pirate.

He ran his fingers through his shiny black beard with one hand; it was a white hand, except for where the cigarettes had stained the first and second fingers. This was a hand that had never experienced hard labor, even though its owner always spoke to "working" men as if he was one of them. He wore a bright red necktie and a flashy diamond ring on the little finger of the hand that combed his beard. A life of indulgence in the city was starting to show on him, but Clement Blaine was still quite an impressive man, in a rough and bold way. He had a polished appearance and, if dressed for it, would have made a great stage pirate.

"It's odd you should have come to me to-day," he said. "Look here!"

"It's strange that you came to me today," he said. "Look here!"

He handed me a cutting from a daily paper.

He handed me a clipping from a newspaper.

At Holloway, yesterday afternoon, an inquest was held on the body of a man named Joseph Cartwright, who is said to have been a journalist. This man was found dead upon his bed, fully[99] dressed, on Tuesday morning. The medical evidence showed death to be due to heart failure, and indicated alcoholism as the predisposing cause. A verdict was returned in accordance with the medical evidence.

At Holloway yesterday afternoon, an inquest was held for a man named Joseph Cartwright, who was reportedly a journalist. He was found dead in his bed, fully dressed, on Tuesday morning. The medical evidence indicated that he died of heart failure, with alcoholism being a contributing factor. A verdict was reached based on the medical evidence.

"He was my assistant editor," said Clement Blaine, as I looked up from my perusal of this sorry tale.

"He was my assistant editor," said Clement Blaine, as I looked up from my reading of this unfortunate story.

"Really?" I said.

"Seriously?" I said.

"Yes, a clever fellow; most accomplished journalist, but——" And Mr. Blaine raised his elbow with a significant gesture, by which he suggested the act of drinking.

"Yeah, a smart guy; very skilled journalist, but——" And Mr. Blaine lifted his elbow with a meaningful gesture that implied drinking.

Within the hour I had accepted an engagement as assistant editor of The Mass with the magnificent sum of two pounds a week by way of remuneration.

Within the hour, I had taken a job as assistant editor of The Mass, earning a stunning two pounds a week.

"It's poor pay," said Blaine. "And I only wish I could double it. But that's all it will run to at present, and—well, of course, it counts for something to be working for the cause as directly as we do in The Mass."

"It's low pay," said Blaine. "And I only wish I could double it. But that's all we can offer right now, and—well, of course, it matters to be working for the cause as directly as we do in The Mass."

I nodded, not without qualms. My education made it impossible for me to accept unreservedly the most scurrilous features of the journal. But the cause was good—I was assured of that; and I would introduce improvements, I thought. I was still very inexperienced. Meantime, I was not to know the carking anxiety of the out-of-work. I could still pay my way at the Bloomsbury lodging. This was something.

I nodded, not without hesitation. My education made it hard for me to fully accept the most outrageous aspects of the journal. But I knew the cause was good—I was sure of that; and I thought I would make improvements. I was still very inexperienced. In the meantime, I didn’t know the constant worry of being unemployed. I could still afford my place in Bloomsbury. That was something.

Beatrice expressed herself as delighted. I was to accumulate large sums in various vague ways, and enjoy innumerable "fluffy" evenings with her.

Beatrice said she was thrilled. I was supposed to gather a lot of money through unclear means and have countless enjoyable evenings with her.

What a queer mad jumble of a shut-in world our[100] London was, and how blindly self-centred we all were in our pursuit of immediate gain, in our absolute indifference to the larger outside movements, the shaping of national destinies, the warring of national interests! I remember that we were quite triumphant, in our little owlish way, that year; for the weight of socialistic and anti-national, anti-responsible feeling had forced a time-serving Cabinet into cutting down our Navy by a quarter at one stroke. The hurried scramblers after money and pleasure were much gratified.

What a bizarre, chaotic shut-in world our[100] London was, and how blind we all were to our own selfishness in chasing quick profits, completely ignoring the bigger events happening outside, like the direction of our nation’s future and international conflicts! I remember feeling pretty smug, in our little wise-guy way, that year; because the pressure from socialist and anti-national sentiments had pushed a self-serving government to slash our Navy by a quarter in one go. The frantic seekers of wealth and enjoyment were quite pleased.

"We can make defensive alliances with other Powers," they said. "Meantime—retrench, reduce, cut down, and give us more freedom in our race. Freedom, freedom—that's the thing; and peace for the development of commerce."

"We can form defensive alliances with other countries," they said. "In the meantime—cut back, reduce, and give us more freedom in our efforts. Freedom, freedom—that’s what’s important; and peace for the growth of commerce."

Undoubtedly, as a people, we were fey.

Undoubtedly, as a group, we were magical.


X
FACILIS DESCENSUS AVERNI

Love your land, with love that is deeply felt. From the legendary past, and used In the moment, but changed Through future time by the power of thought.
True love revolves around steady foundations,
Love that lasts without any dirty motives,
For English people, freemen, friends,
Your brothers and immortal souls.
But don't indulge a rushed moment,
Nor feed with wild fantasies The herd, bold spirits and fragile wings
That every sophist can trick.
Do not hand over the tasks of power To weakness, don't hide the light. From those who can see and are waiting for daylight,
Though sitting surrounded by uncertain light.
Tennyson.

And now, as assistant editor of The Mass, I entered a period of my life upon which I look back as one might who, by chance rather than by reason of any particular fitness for survival, had won safely through a whirlpool. The next few years were a troublous time, a stormy era of transition, for most English people. For many besides myself[102] the period was a veritable maelstrom of confusion, of blind battling with unrecognized forces, of wasted effort, neglected duty, futile struggles, and slavish inertia.

And now, as the assistant editor of The Mass, I look back on this time in my life as if I had surprisingly navigated a whirlpool, rather than earned my way through it. The next few years were a tumultuous period, a stormy time of change for most English people. For many, including myself[102], this era felt like a true whirlwind of confusion, unrecognized challenges, wasted efforts, neglected responsibilities, pointless struggles, and a paralyzing inertia.

At an early stage I learned to know Clement Blaine for a sweater of underpaid labour, a man as grossly self-indulgent as he was unprincipled, as much a charlatan as he was, in many ways, an ignoramus. Yet I see now, more clearly than then, that even Clement Blaine was not all bad. He was not even completely a charlatan. He believed he was justified in making all the money he could, in any way that was possible. It must be remembered, however, that at that time most people really thought, whatever they might say, that the first and most obvious duty in life was to make money for themselves.

At an early stage, I got to know Clement Blaine as a slacker who exploited underpaid workers, a guy who was as indulgent as he was unprincipled, as much of a fraud as he was, in many ways, clueless. Yet I see now, more clearly than back then, that even Clement Blaine wasn't completely bad. He wasn't entirely a fraud either. He believed he had every right to make as much money as he could, by any means necessary. It’s important to remember, though, that at that time, most people truly believed, no matter what they said, that the primary duty in life was to make money for themselves.

Then, too, I think Blaine really believed that the sort of anti-national, socialistic theories he advocated would make for the happiness of the people; for the profit and benefit of the majority. He was blinded by lack of knowledge of history and of human nature. He was an extreme example, perhaps, but, after all, his mistaken idea that happiness depended upon personal possession of this and that, upon having and holding, was very generally accepted at that time. The old saving sense of duty, love of country, national responsibility, and pride of race, had faded and become unreal to a people feverishly bent upon personal gain only. Nelson's famous signal and watchword was kept alive, in inscriptions; in men's hearts and minds it no longer had any meaning; it made no appeal. This is to speak broadly, of course,[103] and of the majority. We had some noble exceptions to the rule.

Then again, I believe Blaine genuinely thought that the kind of anti-national, socialist ideas he promoted would lead to the happiness of the people, benefiting the majority. He was blinded by his ignorance of history and human nature. He might have been an extreme case, but his mistaken belief that happiness relied on personal possessions, on having and owning things, was widely accepted at that time. The old sense of duty, love for one’s country, national responsibility, and pride in one’s race had faded, and people became feverishly focused on personal gain alone. Nelson's famous signal and motto were preserved in inscriptions; however, in people's hearts and minds, it no longer held any meaning and didn’t resonate. This is a generalization, of course, [103] and it applies to the majority. We did have some noble exceptions to this trend.

In looking back now upon that period, it seems to me, as I suppose to all who lived through it, such a tragedy of confusion, of sordidness, and of futility, that one is driven to take too sweepingly pessimistic a view of the time. I have said a good deal of the anti-national sentiment, because it was undoubtedly in the ascendant then. As history shows us, this sentiment ruled; by it the ship of state was steered; by it the defences of the Empire were cut down and down to the ultimate breaking point. We call the administration of that period criminally unpatriotic. As such "The Destroyers" must always figure in history. But we must not forget that then, as now, we English people had as good a Government as we deserved. The spirit of selfish irresponsibility was not confined to Whitehall.

Looking back on that time now, it feels to me, as it does to everyone who lived through it, like a tragedy filled with confusion, greed, and hopelessness. This makes it easy to have an overly negative view of that era. I’ve talked a lot about the anti-national sentiment, which was definitely on the rise back then. History shows us that this sentiment took control; it guided the government; it weakened the Empire's defenses until they were at a breaking point. We call the administration of that time criminally unpatriotic. As such, "The Destroyers" will always be remembered in history. But we mustn't forget that, just like today, we English people had the kind of Government we deserved. The attitude of selfish irresponsibility wasn’t limited to Whitehall.

On the other hand, it must not be supposed that no patriotic party existed. There was a patriotic party, and the exigencies of the time inspired some of its leaders nobly. But the sheer weight of numbers, of indifference, and of selfishness to which this party was opposed was too much for it. The best method of realizing this nowadays is by the study of the newspaper files for the early years of the century. From these it will be seen that even the people and journals in whom devoted patriotism survived, even the leaders who gave up their time and energy (politics gave us such a man, the Army another, the Navy another, literature another, and journalism gave us an editor in whom the right fire burned brightly) to the task of[104] warning and adjuring the public, and seeking to awaken the nation to the lost sense of its dangers, its duties, and its responsibilities; even these were forced by the weight of public selfishness into using an almost apologetic tone, with reference to the common calls of patriotism and Imperial unity.

On the other hand, it shouldn't be assumed that there was no patriotic party. There was a patriotic party, and the urgent needs of the time inspired some of its leaders in admirable ways. But the overwhelming numbers of indifference and selfishness against which this party struggled were too much to overcome. The best way to understand this today is by looking at newspaper archives from the early years of the century. From these, it’s clear that even among the people and publications where true patriotism survived, even the leaders who dedicated their time and energy (politics gave us one, the Army another, the Navy another, literature another, and journalism provided an editor with a burning passion) to warn and urge the public, and to try to awaken the nation to the dangers, duties, and responsibilities it had lost; even they were forced by the pressure of public selfishness into adopting an almost apologetic tone regarding the usual calls for patriotism and Imperial unity.

People dismissed an obvious challenge of the national conscience with a hurried and impatient wave of the hand. They were tired of this; they had heard enough of the other; they were occupied with local interests of the moment, and could not be bothered with this or that consideration affecting the welfare of the world-wide shores of greater outside Britain. And, accordingly, we find that the most patriotic and public-spirited journal was obliged, for its life, to devote more attention to a football match at the Crystal Palace than to a change of public policy affecting the whole commercial future of a part of the Empire twenty times greater than Britain. There were other journals, organs of the self-centred majority, that would barely even mention an Imperial development of that sort, and then but casually, as a matter of no particular interest to their readers; as indeed it was.

People brushed off a clear issue of national importance with a quick and impatient gesture. They were fed up with it; they had heard enough about other topics; they were focused on current local interests and couldn't be bothered with anything affecting the welfare of areas far beyond Britain. As a result, the most patriotic and community-minded newspaper had to prioritize coverage of a football match at the Crystal Palace over a shift in public policy that could impact the entire economic future of a part of the Empire that was twenty times larger than Britain. Other publications, representing the self-absorbed majority, would hardly even mention such an Imperial development, and when they did, it was only casually, as if it held no real significance for their readers; which, in fact, it didn’t.

I do not think that retrospection has coloured my view too darkly when I say that my brief experience in Fleet Street made me feel that the Daily Gazette party, the supporters of "The Destroyers" (as naval folk had named the Government of the day) consisted of a mass of smugly hypocritical self-seekers; and that the party I served under Clement Blaine were a mass of blatantly frank self-seekers.[105] Such generalizations can never be quite just, however. There were earnest and devoted men in every section of the community. But, as a generalization, as indicating the typical characteristics of the parties, I fear that my view has been proved correct.

I don’t think my looking back has distorted my view too much when I say that my brief time in Fleet Street made me feel that the Daily Gazette crowd, the supporters of "The Destroyers" (as navy people called the Government of the day), were a bunch of smugly hypocritical self-centered individuals; and that the party I worked for under Clement Blaine was made up of overtly self-serving people.[105] Of course, such generalizations can never be completely fair. There were dedicated and sincere individuals in every part of the community. But, as a generalization, reflecting the typical traits of the parties, I worry that my view has been proven right.

It would be quite a mistake to suppose that in the political world the shortcomings were all on one side. Writers like myself, even men like Clement Blaine, had only too much justification for the contempt they poured upon the Conservative party. Selfishness, indolence, and the worship of the fossilized party spirit, had eaten into the very vitals of this section of the political world. The form of madness we called party loyalty made the best men we had willing to sacrifice national to personal interests. So-and-so must retain his place; loyalty to the party demands our support there and there. We must give it, whatever the consequences. The thing is not easy to understand; but it was so, and the strongest and best men of the day were culpable in this.

It would be a big mistake to think that all the failures in politics came from one side. Writers like me, and even people like Clement Blaine, had plenty of reason to look down on the Conservative party. Selfishness, laziness, and an obsession with outdated party loyalty had deeply affected this part of the political landscape. The kind of madness we called party loyalty led our best people to prioritize personal interests over national ones. So-and-so needs to keep his position; loyalty to the party requires our support here and here. We had to give it, no matter the consequences. It's not easy to grasp, but that was the reality, and the strongest and best people of the time were part of this fault.

The farther my London experiences took me, the greater became the mass of my shattered illusions, broken ideals, and lost hopes. I remember my reflections during a brief visit I paid to my mother in Dorset, when I had spent an evening talking with my sister Lucy's husband. Doctor Woodthrop was a good fellow enough, and my sister seemed happier with him than one would have expected, remembering that it was rather the desire for freedom, than love, which gave her to him.

The more time I spent in London, the more my shattered illusions, broken ideals, and lost hopes piled up. I remember reflecting on this during a short visit to my mom in Dorset, after spending an evening talking with my sister Lucy's husband. Doctor Woodthrop was a decent guy, and my sister seemed happier with him than I would have thought, considering it was more about her desire for freedom than love that led her to be with him.

Woodthrop was popular, honest, steady-going; a fine, typical Englishman of the period, I suppose.[106] In politics he was as his father before him, though the name had changed from Tory to Conservative. He talked politics for a week at election time. I would not say that he ever thought politics. I know that he had no knowledge, and less interest, where the affairs of his country were concerned, when I met and talked with him during that visit. The country's defences were actually of far less importance in his eyes than the country's cricket averages. As for either social reform interests in England, or the affairs of the Empire outside England, he simply could not be induced to give them even conversational breathing space. They were as exotic to my sister's husband as the ethics of esoteric Buddhism. But he was a thick and thin Conservative. To be sure, he would have said, nothing would cause him to waver in that.

Woodthrop was popular, honest, and laid-back; a great example of a typical Englishman of his time, I suppose.[106] In politics, he was just like his father before him, even though the name had shifted from Tory to Conservative. He discussed politics for a week during election season. I wouldn't say he ever really thought about politics. I could tell he had no knowledge and even less interest in his country's affairs when I met and talked with him during that visit. To him, the country's defenses were far less important than its cricket averages. When it came to social reform issues in England or matters related to the Empire outside England, he simply refused to even engage in conversation about them. They were as foreign to my sister's husband as the ethics of obscure Buddhism. But he was a staunch Conservative. He definitely would have said that nothing would ever make him change his mind about that.

As for myself, I defended the anti-national party in its repudiation of Imperial responsibility by arguing that the domestic needs of the country were too urgent and great to admit of any kind of expenditure, in money or energy, upon outside affairs. We did not recognize that internal reform and content were absolutely incompatible with shameless neglect of fundamental duties.

As for me, I defended the anti-national party's rejection of Imperial responsibility by arguing that the country's immediate needs were too urgent and significant to allow any spending, whether in money or energy, on external issues. We failed to see that internal reform and satisfaction were completely incompatible with the blatant neglect of our basic responsibilities.

We were as sailors who should concentrate upon drying and cleaning their cabin, seeking at all hazards to make that comfortable, while refusing to spare time for the ship's pumps, though the water was rising in her hold from a score of external fissures. Our anti-nationalists and Little Englanders were little cabin-dwellers, shirkers from the open deck, careless of the ship's hull, and masts, and sails, busily[107] bent only upon the enrichment of their particular divisions among her saloons.

We were like sailors who should focus on drying and cleaning their cabin, determined to make it comfortable at all costs, while ignoring the ship's pumps, even though water was rising in the hold through several external leaks. Our anti-nationalists and Little Englanders were like little cabin dwellers, avoiding the open deck, unconcerned with the ship's hull, masts, and sails, solely focused on benefiting their specific groups within the lounges.

In the early days of my engagement as assistant editor of The Mass, I think I may claim that I worked hard and with honest intent to make the paper represent truly what I conceived to be the good and helpful side of Socialism, of social progress and reform. But, if I am to be frank, I fear I must admit that within six months of my first engagement by Clement Blaine, I had ceased to entertain any sincere hope or ambition in this direction. And yet I remained assistant editor of The Mass.

In the early days of my role as assistant editor of The Mass, I believe I can say that I worked hard and with good intentions to truly reflect what I thought was the positive and beneficial side of Socialism, social progress, and reform. However, to be honest, I must admit that within six months of starting with Clement Blaine, I had completely lost any genuine hope or ambition in this area. Still, I continued as the assistant editor of The Mass.

The two statements doubtless redound to my discredit, and I have little excuse to offer. The work represented bread and butter for me, and that counted for something, of course. But I will admit that I think I could have found some more worthy employment, and should have done so but for Beatrice Blaine, my employer's daughter.

The two statements definitely reflect poorly on me, and I have little defense to give. The job provided for me, and that mattered, of course. But I have to admit that I believe I could have found some more fulfilling work, and I would have done so if it weren't for Beatrice Blaine, my employer's daughter.

Time and time again my gorge rose at being obliged to play my part—very often, as a writer, the principal part—in what I knew to be an absolutely dishonest piece of journalism. Once I remember refusing to write a grossly malicious and untrue representation of certain actions of John Crondall's in the Transvaal. But I am ashamed to say I revised the proofs of the lying thing, and saw it to press, when a hireling of Clement Blaine's had prepared it. The man was a discharged servant of Crondall's, a convicted thief, as I afterwards learned, as well as a most abandoned liar. But his scurrilous fabrication, after publication in The Mass, was quoted at length[108] by the Daily Gazette, and by the journals of that persuasion throughout the country.

Time and again I felt sick having to play my part—often, as a writer, the leading role—in what I knew was a completely dishonest piece of journalism. I remember once refusing to write a blatantly malicious and false account of certain actions by John Crondall in the Transvaal. But I'm ashamed to admit that I revised the proofs of that lying piece and sent it to press after a lackey of Clement Blaine had prepared it. This guy was a former servant of Crondall's, a convicted thief, as I later found out, and a complete liar. But his disgusting fabrication, after being published in The Mass, was quoted extensively[108] by the Daily Gazette and by similar journals across the country.

I hardly know how to explain my relations with Blaine's daughter. I suppose the main point is she was beautiful, in the sense that certain cats are beautiful. I rarely heard of my Weybridge friends now, and never, directly, of Sylvia. My life seemed infinitely remote from that of the luxurious Wheeler ménage. When I chanced to earn a few guineas with my pen outside the littered office of The Mass (where the bulk of the editorial work fell to me), the money was almost invariably devoted to the entertainment of Beatrice. She was in several ways not unlike a kitten, or something feline, of larger growth: the panther, for example, in Balzac's thrilling story, "A Passion in the Desert."

I can hardly explain my relationship with Blaine's daughter. The main thing is that she was beautiful, in the way some cats are beautiful. I rarely heard from my friends in Weybridge now, and never directly about Sylvia. My life felt incredibly distant from the luxurious Wheeler household. Whenever I managed to earn a few guineas with my writing outside the messy office of The Mass (where most of the editorial work was my responsibility), I usually spent the money on entertaining Beatrice. In many ways, she reminded me of a kitten, or something feline but larger: like the panther in Balzac's exciting tale, "A Passion in the Desert."

I have never, before or since, met any woman so totally devoid of the moral sense as Beatrice. Yet she had a heart that was not bad; indeed it was a tender heart. But there was no moral sense to guide and balance her.

I have never, before or since, met any woman so completely lacking in moral judgment as Beatrice. Yet she had a heart that wasn’t bad; in fact, it was a kind heart. But there was no moral compass to guide and balance her.

I think of Beatrice as very much a product of that time. Her own personal enjoyment, pleasure, indulgence; these formed alike the centre and the limit of her thoughts and aims. And the suggestion that serious thought or energy should be given to any other end, struck Beatrice as necessarily insincere and absurd. As for duty, the word had no more real application to her own life as Beatrice saw it than the counsels of old-time chivalry for the pursuit of the Holy Grail.

I see Beatrice as really being a product of her time. Her focus on personal enjoyment, pleasure, and indulgence defined both her thoughts and her goals. The idea that she should put serious thought or effort into anything else seemed to her completely insincere and ridiculous. When it came to duty, the term had no more relevance to her life as she understood it than the old chivalric ideals about chasing the Holy Grail.

Soberly considered, this is doubtless very grievous.[109] But it must be said that if Beatrice was singular in this, her singularity lay rather in her frank disclosure of her attitude than in the attitude itself. I am not sure that morally her absorption in such crude pleasures as she knew, was a whit more culpable than the equal absorption of nine people out of ten at that time, in money-getting, in sport, in society functions, or in sheer idleness. The same oblivion to the sense of duty was very generally characteristic; though in other matters, no doubt, the moral sense was more active. In Beatrice it simply was not present at all.

Looking at it realistically, this is definitely very serious.[109] But it's important to note that if Beatrice was unique in this, her uniqueness was more about her openness about her views than the views themselves. I’m not sure that her excessive focus on such simple pleasures as she experienced was any more wrong than the similar focus of nine out of ten people at that time on making money, playing sports, attending social events, or just being lazy. This same disregard for a sense of duty was pretty common; though in other areas, the moral sense was usually more engaged. In Beatrice, it just wasn't there at all.

All this was tolerably clear to me even then; but I will not pretend that it interfered much with the physical and emotional attraction which Beatrice had for me. Apart from her my life was very drab in colour. I had no recreations. In my time at Rugby and at Cambridge we either practically ignored sport (so far, at all events, as actual participation in it went), or lived for it. I had very largely ignored it. Now, Beatrice Blaine represented, not exactly recreation, perhaps—no, not that I think—but gaiety. The hours I spent in her company were the only form of gaiety that entered into my life.

All of this was pretty clear to me even back then; but I won’t pretend it really affected the physical and emotional pull Beatrice had on me. Without her, my life was pretty dull. I didn’t have any hobbies. During my time at Rugby and Cambridge, we either mostly ignored sports (at least in terms of actually participating) or we lived for it. I mostly ignored it. Now, Beatrice Blaine represented, not exactly recreation, I suppose—not that, really—but joy. The hours I spent with her were the only moments of joy that entered my life.

My feeling for Beatrice was not serious love, not at all a grand passion; but denying myself the occasional pleasure of ministering to her appetite for little outings would have been a harder task for me than the acceptation of Sylvia Wheeler's dismissal. My attentions to Beatrice were very much those of Balzac's Provençal to his panther, after he had overcome his first terrors.

My feelings for Beatrice weren't serious love or anything like a grand passion, but not letting myself enjoy the occasional pleasure of indulging her desire for little outings would have been much harder for me than accepting Sylvia Wheeler's rejection. My attention toward Beatrice was very much like Balzac's Provençal toward his panther after he got over his initial fears.

There were times when her acceptance of gifts or[110] compliments from another man made me believe myself really in love with Beatrice. Then some peculiarly distasteful aspect of my journalistic work would be forced upon me; I would receive some striking illustration of the hopelessly sordid character of Blaine and his circle, of the policy of The Mass, of the general trend of my life; and, seeing Beatrice's indifferent acceptance of all this venality, I would turn from her with a certain sense of revulsion—for three days. After that, I would return to handsome Beatrice, with her feline graces and her warm colouring, as a chilly, tired man turns from his work to his fireside.

There were times when her accepting gifts or[110] compliments from another guy made me think I was really in love with Beatrice. Then some particularly unpleasant aspect of my journalistic work would hit me; I'd get a stark reminder of how grim and sleazy Blaine and his crowd were, the approach of The Mass, the overall path of my life; and seeing Beatrice's indifferent acceptance of all this corruption, I'd feel a certain revulsion towards her—for three days. After that, I’d go back to attractive Beatrice, with her graceful charm and warm complexion, like a cold, tired person returning to their cozy fireplace.

In short, as time went on, I became as indifferent to ends and aims as the most callous among those at whose indifference to matters of real moment I had once girded so vehemently. And I lacked their excuse. I cut no figure at all in the race for money and pleasure; unless my clinging to Beatrice be accounted pursuit of pleasure. Certainly it lacked the rapt absorption which characterized the multitude really in the race. I fear I was rapidly degenerating into a common type of Fleet Street hack; into nothing more than Clement Blaine's assistant. And then a quite new influence came into my life.

In short, over time, I became just as indifferent to goals and purposes as the most heartless people I once criticized for being apathetic about important issues. And I had no excuse. I didn't stand out at all in the pursuit of money and pleasure, unless my attachment to Beatrice could be seen as chasing after pleasure. But it certainly lacked the intense focus that defined the many who were truly in the race. I was worried I was quickly turning into just another typical hack from Fleet Street; nothing more than Clement Blaine's assistant. Then, a completely new influence entered my life.


XI
MORNING CALLERS

A woman made of such fine elements
That was when all virtue and religion were gone. She would create them anew, being who she was.
George Eliot.

A sandy-haired youth-of-all-work, named Rivers, spent his days in the box we called the front office; a kind of lobby really, by which one entered the tolerably large and desperately untidy room in which Blaine and myself compiled each issue of The Mass. Blaine spent a good slice of all his days in keeping appointments, usually in Fleet Street bars.

A sandy-haired person young man doing various jobs, named Rivers, spent his days in the front office, which was more like a lobby, leading into the fairly large and extremely messy room where Blaine and I put together each issue of The Mass. Blaine spent a lot of his time making appointments, often in bars on Fleet Street.

My days were spent in the main office of the paper, among the files, the scissors and paste, the books of reference, and the three Gargantuan waste-paper baskets. Here at different times I interviewed men of every European nationality and every known calling, besides innumerable followers of no recognized trade or profession. Among them all I cannot call to mind more than two or three who, by the most charitable stretch of imagination, could have been called gentlemen.

My days were spent in the main office of the paper, surrounded by files, scissors, glue, reference books, and three huge waste-paper baskets. During this time, I interviewed men from every European nationality and various professions, along with countless individuals without any recognized trade or profession. Out of all of them, I can hardly remember more than two or three who, even with the most generous interpretation, could be considered gentlemen.

Most of them were obviously, and in all ways seedy, shady characters—furtive, wordy creatures, full of[112] vague, involved grievances. The greater proportion were foreigners; scallywags from the mean streets of every Continental capital; men familiar with prisons; men who talked of the fraternity of labour, and never did any work; men full of windy plans for the enrichment of humanity, who themselves must always borrow and never repay—money, food, shelter, and the other things for which honest folk give their labour.

Most of them were clearly shady characters—sneaky, chatty individuals, full of[112] vague, complicated complaints. The majority were foreigners; con artists from the rough streets of every European capital; men who knew their way around prisons; men who talked about the brotherhood of labor but never actually did any work; men brimming with grand ideas for improving humanity, yet always needing to borrow and never giving back—money, food, shelter, and other things that honest people work hard to earn.

If an English Cabinet Minister had offered us an explanation of any political development we should have had small use for his contribution in The Mass, unless as an advertisement of our importance. For their teaching, for the text they gave us in our fulminations, we greatly preferred the rancorous and generally scurrilous vapourings of some unknown alien dumped upon our shores for the relief and benefit of his own country.

If an English Cabinet Minister had given us an explanation of any political development, we wouldn't have found his input very useful in The Mass, unless it was just to show how important we are. For the lessons they provided, for the material we used in our outbursts, we much preferred the bitter and often nasty rants of some unknown outsider who had been dropped on our shores for the sake of his own country.

We wanted no information from Admiralty Lords about the Navy, from commanding officers about the Army, from pro-Consuls about the Colonies, or from the Foreign Office about foreign relations. But a deserter or a man dismissed from either of the Services, a broker ne'er-do-well rejected as unfit by one of the Colonies, or a foreign agitator with stories to tell of Britain's duplicity abroad; these were all welcome fish for our net, and folk whom it was my duty to receive with respectful attention. From their perjured lips it became my mechanical duty to extract and publish wisdom for the use of our readers in the guidance of their lives and the exercise of their rights as citizens and ratepayers. I became adept at the[113] work, and in the end accomplished it daily without interest, and with only occasional qualms of conscience. It was my living.

We didn’t want any updates from the Admiralty Lords about the Navy, from commanding officers about the Army, from pro-Consuls about the Colonies, or from the Foreign Office about international affairs. But a deserter or someone fired from either military branch, a broker deemed unfit by a Colony, or a foreign activist with tales of Britain’s deceit abroad; these were all valuable sources for us, and it was my job to listen to them with respect. From their dishonest mouths, I had the mechanical task of extracting and publishing insights for our readers to help them navigate their lives and understand their rights as citizens and taxpayers. I became skilled at this work, and eventually did it daily without real interest, aside from occasional pangs of guilt. It was my job.

On a sunshiny morning in June, which I remember very well, the sandy-haired Rivers brought me a visiting-card upon which I read the name of "Miss Constance Grey." In one corner of the card the words "Cape Town" had been crossed out and a London address written over them.

On a sunny morning in June, which I remember clearly, the sandy-haired Rivers handed me a visiting card that had the name "Miss Constance Grey" on it. In one corner of the card, the words "Cape Town" were crossed out and a London address was written over them.

I was engaged at the time with a large, pale, fat man from Stettin, whose mission it was to show me that the socialist working men of the Fatherland dearly loved their comrades in England, and that the paying of taxes for the defence of these islands was a preposterously absurd thing, for the reason that the Socialists would never allow Germany to go to war with England or with any other country. "The Destroyers," in their truckling to Demos, had already cut down Naval and Army estimates by more than one-half since their rise to power, and our Stettin ambassador was priming me regarding a demand for further reductions, prior to actual disarmament, to provide funds for the fixing of a minimum day's pay and a maximum day's work.

I was dealing at the time with a large, pale, overweight man from Stettin, whose job was to convince me that the socialist workers in the Fatherland really cared about their comrades in England, and that paying taxes for the defense of these islands was completely ridiculous, because the Socialists would never let Germany go to war with England or any other country. "The Destroyers," in their attempts to please the public, had already cut Naval and Army budgets by more than half since coming to power, and our ambassador from Stettin was preparing me for a request for further cuts before actual disarmament, to allocate funds for setting a minimum day's pay and a maximum day's work.

"Rivers ushered in Miss Constance Grey"

The gentleman from Stettin was to provide us with material for a special article and a leading article. His proposals were to be made a "feature." However, I thought I had gone far enough with him at this time; and so, looking from his pendulous jowl to the card in my hand, I told Rivers to ask the lady to wait for two minutes, and to say that I would see her then. I remember Herr Mitmann found the occasion[114] opportune for the airing of what I suppose he would have called his sense of humour. His English and his front teeth were equally badly broken, and his taste in jokes was almost as swinishly gross as his appearance. But I was able to be quit of him at length, and then Rivers ushered in Miss Constance Grey.

The guy from Stettin was supposed to give us material for a special piece and a main article. His ideas were meant to be a "highlight." However, I thought I had dealt with him long enough for now; so, glancing from his saggy jowls to the card in my hand, I told Rivers to ask the lady to wait for two minutes and to let her know I would see her then. I remember Herr Mitmann took the opportunity to share what I think he would have called his sense of humor. His English and his front teeth were both in bad shape, and his taste in jokes was almost as crude as his looks. But I finally managed to get rid of him, and then Rivers brought in Miss Constance Grey.

As I rose to provide my visitor with a chair, I received the impression that she was a young and quietly well-dressed woman, with a notable pair of dark eyes. I thought of her as being no more than five-and-twenty years of age and pleasant to look upon. But her eyes were the feature that seized one's attention. They produced an impression of light and brilliancy, of vigour, intelligence, and charm.

As I stood up to offer my visitor a chair, I got the sense that she was a young woman, quietly stylish, with striking dark eyes. I guessed she was around twenty-five and quite pleasant to look at. But it was her eyes that really captured your attention. They gave off a vibe of brightness and brilliance, energy, intelligence, and charm.

"I called to see you at the office of the Daily Gazette, Mr. Mordan, and this was the only address of yours they could give me, or I should have hesitated about intruding on you in working hours. I bring you an introduction from John Crondall."

"I came by your office at the Daily Gazette, Mr. Mordan, and this was the only address they could provide me, or I would have thought twice about interrupting you during work hours. I have a referral from John Crondall."

And with that she handed me a letter in Crondall's writing, and nodded in a friendly way when I asked permission to read it at once.

And with that, she gave me a letter written by Crondall and nodded amicably when I asked if I could read it right away.

"Please do," she said.

"Go ahead," she said.

She had no particular accent, but yet her speech differed slightly from that of the conventional Englishwoman of her class—the refined and well-educated Englishwoman, that is. I suppose the difference was rather one of expression, tone, and choice of phrase than a matter of accent. I doubt if one could easily find an example of it nowadays, increased communication having so much broadened our own colloquial[115] diction that many of its conventional peculiarities have disappeared. But it existed then, and after a time I learned to place it as characteristic of the speech of Greater Britain, as distinguished from the English of those of us who lived always in this capital centre of the Empire.

She didn't have a specific accent, but her speech was slightly different from that of the typical refined and well-educated Englishwoman of her class. I think the difference was more about expression, tone, and word choice rather than accent. I doubt you could easily find an example of it these days, as increased communication has greatly expanded our everyday language, causing many of its conventional quirks to fade away. But it was present back then, and over time, I recognized it as a characteristic of the speech from Greater Britain, unlike the English of those of us who lived constantly in this central hub of the Empire.[115]

Miss Grey had the Colonial directness and vividness of speech; a larger, freer diction upon the whole than that of the Londoner born and bred; more racy, less clipped and formal, but, in certain ways, more correct. The society cliche, and the society fads of abbreviation and accent, were missing; and in their place was an easy, idiomatic directness, distinctly noticeable to a man like myself who had actually never been out of England. This it was that first struck me about Miss Grey; this and the warm brilliance of her eyes: a graphic, moving speech, a frank, compelling gaze; both indicative, as it seemed to me, of broadly sympathetic understanding.

Miss Grey had the straightforwardness and vividness of speech typical of a colonial; her overall language was larger and freer than that of someone raised in London. It was more refreshing, less formal and clipped, yet in some ways, more correct. The social clichés and trends of abbreviation and accent were absent; instead, there was a natural, idiomatic clarity that stood out to someone like me who had never left England. This was what first caught my attention about Miss Grey, along with the warm brilliance of her eyes: a lively, engaging way of speaking and a sincere, compelling look; both hinted at a deeply sympathetic understanding.

I read John Crondall's kindly letter with a good deal of interest, moved by the fact that his terse, friendly phrases recalled to me a phase of my own life which, though no more than a couple of years past, seemed to me wonderfully remote. I had been new to London and to Fleet Street then, full of aspirations, of earnestness, of independent aims and hopes; fresh from the University and the more leisured days of my life as the son of the rector of Tarn Regis. I had had glimpses of much that was sordid and squalid in London life, at the period John Crondall's letter recalled, but as yet there had been no sordidness in my own life. All that was far otherwise[116] now, I felt. Cambridge and Dorset were a long way from the office of The Mass. I thought of the greasy Teuton nondescript for whom I had kept Miss Grey waiting, and I felt colour rise in my face as I read John Crondall's letter:

I read John Crondall's nice letter with a lot of interest, touched by the fact that his brief, friendly words reminded me of a time in my life that, although just a couple of years ago, felt incredibly distant. Back then, I was new to London and Fleet Street, filled with aspirations, seriousness, and personal goals and hopes; freshly graduated from university and coming off the more relaxed days of being the rector's son in Tarn Regis. I had seen quite a bit of the grim and rough side of London life during the time John Crondall's letter brought back, but my own life hadn’t been grim yet. I sensed that all of that was very different now[116]. Cambridge and Dorset felt far away from the office of The Mass. I thought of the sketchy German guy for whom I had kept Miss Grey waiting, and I felt heat rise in my cheeks as I read John Crondall's letter:

"I expect you have been burgeoning mightily since I left London, and I should not be surprised to learn that you have put the Daily Gazette and its kind definitely behind you. You remember our talks? Tut, my dear fellow, Liberalism, Conservatism, Radicalism—it's of not the slightest consequence, and they're all much of a muchness. The thing is to stand to one's duty as a citizen of the Empire, not as a member of this or that little tin coterie; and if we stick honourably to that, nothing else matters. You will like Constance Grey; that is why I have asked her to look you up. She's sterling all through; her father's daughter to the backbone. And he was the man of whom Talbot said: 'Give me two Greys, and'—and a couple of other men he mentioned—'and a free hand, and Whitehall could go to sleep with its head on South Africa, and never be disturbed again.'"—When Crondall quoted his dead chief, the man whose personality had dominated British South Africa, one felt he had said his utmost.—"The principal thing that takes her to London now, I believe, is detail connected with a special series she has been engaged upon for The Times; fine stuff, from what I have seen of it. It is marvellous the grip this one little bit of a girl has of South African affairs."

"I expect you’ve been thriving a lot since I left London, and I wouldn’t be surprised to find out that you’ve completely moved past the Daily Gazette and its kind. Remember our conversations? Honestly, my friend, Liberalism, Conservatism, Radicalism—they’re all pretty much the same and don’t matter much. The key is to fulfill your duty as a citizen of the Empire, not just as part of some small group; and if we commit to that, nothing else really counts. You’ll like Constance Grey; that’s why I asked her to visit you. She’s solid all the way through; just like her father. He was the person Talbot said: ‘Give me two Greys, and’—and a couple of other men he mentioned—‘and a free hand, and Whitehall could go to sleep thinking about South Africa and never be disturbed again.’—When Crondall quoted his late boss, the man who had a huge influence in British South Africa, it felt like he had given his all.—“The main reason she’s heading to London now, I believe, is to handle details for a special series she’s been working on for The Times; it’s great stuff, from what I’ve seen. It’s amazing how much this one girl knows about South African affairs.”

"Yes," I thought, now the fact was mentioned, "I suppose she is small."[117]

"Yeah," I thought, now that it’s been brought up, "I guess she is small."[117]

"I hope the articles will be well read, for there's a heap of the vitals of South Africa in them; and even if they are to cut us adrift altogether, it's as well 'The Destroyers' should know a little about us, and the country. Constance Grey's name and introductions will take her anywhere in London, or I would have asked your help in that way."

"I hope the articles get a good readership because they contain a lot about the essentials of South Africa; and even if they end up leaving us completely, it's important that 'The Destroyers' learn a bit about us and the country. Constance Grey's name and connections will open doors for her in London, or I would have asked for your help in that regard."

I thought of Clement Blaine's friends, my own Fleet Street circle, and shifted uncomfortably in my chair.

I thought about Clement Blaine's friends, my own group from Fleet Street, and shifted awkwardly in my chair.

"As it is, the boot may be rather on the other leg, and she may be of some service to you. But in any case, I want you to know each other, because you are a good chap, and will interest her, I know; and because she is of the bigger Britain and will interest you. Things political are, of course, looking pretty blue for us all, and your particular friends—I rather hope perhaps they're not so much your friends by now—are certainly doing their level best to cut all moorings. But one must keep pegging away. The more cutting for them, the more splicing for us. But I do wish we could blindfold Europe until these 'Destroyers' had got enough rope, and satisfactorily hanged themselves; for if they go much farther, their hanging will come too late to save the situation. Well, salue!"

"As it is, the boot might be on the other foot, and she might be helpful to you. But anyway, I want you two to meet because you're a good guy, and I know you'll interest her; and because she's from Britain and will interest you. Things politically are looking pretty bleak for all of us, and your so-called friends—I’m kind of hoping they’re not really your friends anymore—are definitely working hard to cut all ties. But we have to keep pushing forward. The more they cut, the more we have to fix. I just wish we could blindfold Europe until these 'Destroyers' have enough rope and hang themselves properly; because if they go much further, their hanging will come too late to save the situation. Well, cheers!"

I allowed my eyes to linger over the tail-end of the letter, while I thought. I was sensible of a very real embarrassment. There seemed a kind of treachery to John Crondall, a kind of unfairness to Miss Grey, in my receiving her there at all. By this time one had no illusions left regarding Clement Blaine and his[118] circle, nor about The Mass. I knew that, at heart, I was ashamed, and with good reason, of my connection with both. Still, there I was; it was my living; and—I suppose my eyes must have wandered from the letter. At all events, evidently seeing that I had finished reading it, my visitor spoke.

I let my eyes linger on the end of the letter as I thought. I felt a real embarrassment. It felt like I was betraying John Crondall and being unfair to Miss Grey by even meeting her. By now, I had no illusions left about Clement Blaine and his[118] group, or about The Mass. Deep down, I knew I was ashamed—and for good reason—of my association with both. Still, there I was; it was my livelihood; and—I guess my eyes must have drifted from the letter. In any case, noticing that I had finished reading it, my visitor spoke.

"I had an introduction to the editor of the Daily Gazette, so I took advantage of being there this afternoon to see him. A nice man, I thought, though I don't care for his paper. He remembered you as soon as I mentioned your name, and told me you—you were here. He seemed quite sorry you had left his paper; but I am sure I can understand the attraction of a position in which the whole concern is more or less in one's own hands. Mr. Delaney found me a copy of The Mass; so I have been studying you before calling. Perhaps you have inadvertently done so much by me, through The Times—a rather high and dry old institution, isn't it?"

"I got an intro to the editor of the Daily Gazette, so I decided to drop by and see him this afternoon. He seemed like a nice guy, even though I'm not a fan of his paper. He recognized your name right away and mentioned that you were here. He looked a bit sorry that you had left his paper, but I totally get the appeal of a job where you have a lot of control. Mr. Delaney found me a copy of The Mass, so I’ve been studying you before reaching out. Maybe you’ve unintentionally influenced me a lot through The Times—that's quite an old and stuffy publication, isn’t it?"

Naturally I had punctuated these remarks of hers, here and there. She had a very bright, alert way in talking, and now she added, easily, a sentence or two to the effect that it would be a dull world if we all held precisely the same views. She did the thing well, and in a few minutes I found myself chatting away with her in the most friendly manner. She managed with the utmost deftness to remove all ground for my embarrassment regarding my position. She talked for a while of South Africa, and the life she had lived there prior to her father's death; but she touched no topic which contained any controversial[119] element. It seemed her aunt, a sister of her father's, had accompanied her to England, and she said:

Naturally, I had occasionally added my own comments to what she was saying. She had a very lively and attentive way of speaking, and now she easily included a sentence or two about how boring the world would be if we all shared exactly the same opinions. She handled it all so well, and within minutes, I found myself chatting with her in a friendly way. She skillfully eliminated any discomfort I felt about my situation. She talked for a while about South Africa and her life there before her father's death, but she avoided any topics that could spark controversy. It seemed her aunt, her father's sister, had come with her to England, and she remarked:

"I promised my aunt, Mrs. Van Homrey, that I would induce you to spare us an evening soon. She loves meeting friends of John Crondall. We dine at eight, but would fix any other hour if it suited you better."

"I promised my aunt, Mrs. Van Homrey, that I would convince you to join us for an evening soon. She loves meeting John Crondall's friends. We usually have dinner at eight, but we can adjust to any other time if that works better for you."

The end of it was I promised to dine with Miss Grey and her aunt in South Kensington on the following evening, and, after a quarter of an hour's very pleasant chat (twice interrupted by Rivers, who had people in his cupboard waiting to see me) my visitor rose to take her departure, with apologies for having trespassed upon a busy man's time. I told her with some warmth that the loss of my time was of no importance, and, with a thought as to the nature of my petty routine, I repeated the assurance. She smiled:

The conclusion was that I agreed to have dinner with Miss Grey and her aunt in South Kensington the next evening. After about fifteen minutes of enjoyable conversation—twice interrupted by Rivers, who had people in his office waiting to meet me—my guest stood up to leave, apologizing for taking up a busy man's time. I told her sincerely that my time didn’t matter, and reflecting on my trivial daily schedule, I reassured her again. She smiled:

"Ah, that's just the masculine insincerity of your gallantry," she said, "unworn, I see, by working with women. John Crondall would have sent me packing."

"Ah, that's just the fake charm of your gallantry," she said, "clearly untouched by actually working with women. John Crondall would have kicked me out."

"No doubt his time is of more value—better occupied."

"No doubt his time is more valuable—better spent."

I had a mental vision of Clement Blaine (who grew stouter and slacker day by day) sitting drinking with Herr Mitmann of Stettin, in a favourite bar, within fifty yards of the office.

I imagined Clement Blaine (who grew thicker and lazier each day) sitting and drinking with Herr Mitmann from Stettin, in a favorite bar just fifty yards from the office.

"Still the insincerity of politeness," she laughed. "You forget I have read The Mass. I find you a terribly earnest partisan; very keenly occupied, I should say. Till to-morrow evening, then!"[120]

"Still the insincerity of politeness," she laughed. "You forget I’ve read The Mass. I find you a really serious supporter; very intensely focused, I’d say. Until tomorrow evening, then!"[120]

And she was gone, and Rivers was leading in, like a bear on a cord, a tousled Polish Jew named Kraunski, who was teaching us how the Metropolitan Police Force should be run, and how tyrannically its wicked myrmidons oppressed worthy citizens of Houndsditch, like Mr. Kraunski—quite a good Mass feature.

And she was gone, and Rivers was coming in, like a bear on a leash, dragging along a disheveled Polish Jew named Kraunski, who was explaining how the Metropolitan Police Force should be managed and how ruthlessly its evil enforcers mistreated the good people of Houndsditch, like Mr. Kraunski—really a good Mass feature.

So I stepped back again, feeling as though Constance Grey had carried away the pale London sunlight with her when she left my littered den.

So I stepped back again, feeling like Constance Grey had taken the pale London sunlight with her when she left my messy room.


XII
SATURDAY NIGHT IN LONDON

"Corrupted freemen are the worst of slaves."—David Garrick.

"Corrupted freemen are the worst kind of slaves."—David Garrick.

I remember that the evening of the day following my dinner engagement with Miss Grey and her aunt was consecrate, by previous arrangement, to Beatrice Blaine. I had received seven guineas a couple of days before for a rather silly and sensational descriptive article, the subject of which had been suggested by Beatrice. Indeed, she had made me write it, and liked the thing when it appeared in print. It described certain aspects of the quarter of London which stood for pleasure in her eyes; the quarter bounded by Charing Cross and Oxford Street, Leicester Square and Hyde Park Corner.

I remember that the evening after my dinner with Miss Grey and her aunt was set aside, as planned, for Beatrice Blaine. A couple of days before, I had received seven guineas for a somewhat pointless and sensational article that Beatrice had suggested. In fact, she had pushed me to write it and was pleased with how it turned out in print. The article described certain areas of London that represented pleasure for her; the area surrounded by Charing Cross and Oxford Street, Leicester Square and Hyde Park Corner.

I think I would gladly have escaped the evening with Beatrice if I could have done so fairly. Seeing that I could not do this, and that my mood seemed chilly, I plunged with more than usual extravagance, and sought to work up all the gaiety I could. I had a vague feeling that I owed so much to Beatrice; that the occasion in some way marked a crisis in our relations. I did not mentally call it a last extravagance,[122] but yet I fancy that must have been the notion at the back of my mind; from which one may assume, I think, that Constance Grey had already begun to exercise some influence over me.

I think I would have happily left the evening with Beatrice if I could have done so without any fuss. Since I couldn’t do that, and my mood felt off, I threw myself into being more extravagant than usual and tried to bring out as much cheer as I could. I had a vague sense that I owed this much to Beatrice; that this occasion somehow marked a turning point in our relationship. I didn’t explicitly think of it as a final extravagance,[122] but I suspect that idea was in the back of my mind; which suggests, I think, that Constance Grey had already started to influence me.

With the seven guineas clinking in the pockets of my evening clothes—here, at all events, was a link with University days, for these seldom-worn garments bore the name of a Cambridge tailor—I drove to the corner of the road beside Battersea Park in which the Blaines lived, and there picked up Beatrice, in all her vivid finery, by appointment. She loved bright colours and daring devices in dress. That I should come in a cab to fetch her was an integral part of her pleasure, and, if funds could possibly be stretched to permit it, she liked to retain the services of the same cab until I brought her back to her own door.

With seven guineas jingling in my evening clothes pocket—at least this connected me to my university days, since these rarely worn outfits were made by a Cambridge tailor—I drove to the corner by Battersea Park where the Blaines lived, and there picked up Beatrice, all decked out in her colorful attire, as planned. She loved bright colors and bold styles in her clothing. The fact that I arrived in a cab to pick her up was a key part of her enjoyment, and if I could possibly afford it, she preferred to keep the same cab until I brought her back to her doorstep.

We drove to a famous showy restaurant close to Piccadilly Circus, where Beatrice accomplished the kind of entrance which delighted her heart, with attendants fluttering about her, and a messenger posting back to the cab for a forgotten fan, and a deal of bustle and rustle of one sort and another. A quarter of an hour was devoted to the choice of a menu in a dining-room which resembled the more ornate type of music-hall, and was of about the same size. The flashing garishness of it all delighted Beatrice, and the heat of its atmosphere suited both her mood and her extremely décolleté toilette.

We drove to a trendy restaurant near Piccadilly Circus, where Beatrice made an entrance that thrilled her, with staff swirling around her and a messenger rushing back to the cab for a forgotten fan, creating quite a scene. We spent fifteen minutes picking a menu in a dining room that looked like an elaborate music hall and was roughly the same size. The flashy decor excited Beatrice, and the warm atmosphere matched her mood and her very low-cut outfit.

I remember beginning to speak of my previous evening's engagement while Beatrice sipped the rather sticky champagne, which was the first item of the[123] meal to reach us. But a certain sense of unfitness or disinclination stopped me after a few sentences, and I did not again refer to my new friends; though I had been thinking a good deal of Constance Grey and her plain-faced, plain-spoken aunt. I felt strangely out of key with my environment in that glaring place, and the strains of an overloud orchestra, when they came crashing through the buzz of talk and laughter, and the clatter of glass and silver, were rather a relief to me as a substitute for conversation. I drank a great deal of champagne, and resented the fact that it seemed to have no stimulating effect upon me. But Beatrice was in a purring stage of contentment, her colour high, her passionate eyes sparkling, and low laughter ever atremble behind her full, red lips.

I remember starting to talk about my plans from the night before while Beatrice enjoyed the overly sweet champagne, which was the first part of the[123] meal that we received. But a feeling of discomfort or reluctance made me stop after a few sentences, and I didn’t bring up my new friends again; even though I had been thinking a lot about Constance Grey and her straightforward aunt. I felt strangely out of sync with my surroundings in that bright place, and the loud orchestra, when it crashed through the noise of conversation and laughter, along with the clinking of glass and silver, was somewhat of a relief for me instead of having to engage in talk. I drank a lot of champagne and felt annoyed that it didn’t seem to have any energizing effect on me. But Beatrice was in a contented mood, her cheeks flushed, her passionate eyes sparkling, and a soft laughter always hovering behind her full, red lips.

After the dinner we drove to another place exactly like the restaurant, all gilding and crimson plush, and there watched a performance, which for dulness and banality it would be difficult to equal anywhere. It was more silly than a peep-show at a country fair, but it was all set in a most gorgeous and costly frame. The man who did crude and ancient conjuring tricks was elaborately finely dressed, and attended by monstrous footmen in liveries of Oriental splendour. What he did was absurdly tame; the things he did it with, his accessories, were barbarously gorgeous.

After dinner, we drove to another place just like the restaurant, all gilded and decked out in crimson velvet, and there we watched a performance that was hard to match for dullness and cliché. It was sillier than a peep-show at a fair, but it was all presented in a stunning and lavish setting. The guy doing the old-fashioned magic tricks was dressed to the nines, accompanied by massive footmen in extravagant outfits. What he performed was laughably boring; the props he used were ridiculously extravagant.

This was not one of the great "Middle Class Halls," as they were called during their first year of existence, but an old-established haunt of those who aimed at "seeing life"—a great resort of ambitious young bloods about town. Not very long[124] before this time, a powerful trust had been formed to confer the stuffy and inane delights of the "Hall" upon that sturdily respectable suburban middle class—the backbone of London society—which had hitherto, to a great extent, eschewed this particular form of dissipation. The trust amassed wealth by striking a shrewd blow at our national character. Its entertainments were to be all refinement—"fun without vulgarity"; the oily announcements were nauseating. But they answered their purpose only too well. The great and still religious bourgeois class was securely hooked; and then the name of "Middle Class Halls" was dropped, and the programme provided in these garish palaces became simply an inexpensive and rather amateurish imitation of those of the older halls, plus a kind of prudish, sentimental, and even quasi-religious lubricity, which made them altogether revolting, and infinitely deleterious.

This wasn’t one of the famous "Middle Class Halls," as they were called in their first year, but rather an old hangout for those wanting to "see life"—a hotspot for ambitious young people around town. Not long[124] before this, a powerful trust had been established to bring the stuffy and pointless pleasures of the "Hall" to the solidly respectable suburban middle class—the backbone of London society—which had largely avoided this type of entertainment until then. The trust made money by cleverly tapping into our national character. Its shows aimed for all refinement—"fun without vulgarity"; the overly slick promotions were sickening. But they achieved their goal all too well. The affluent and still religious middle class was easily caught; then the term "Middle Class Halls" was dropped, and the offerings in these flashy venues became just a cheap and somewhat amateurish imitation of those in the older halls, mixed with a kind of prudish, sentimental, and even quasi-religious lewdness that made them completely off-putting and incredibly harmful.

But our choice upon this occasion had fallen upon the most famous of the old halls. Of the performance I remember a topical song which evoked enthusiastic applause. It was an incredibly stupid piece of doggerel about England's position in the world; and the shiny-faced exquisite who declaimed it strutted to and fro like a bantam cock at each fresh roar of applause from the heated house. When he used the word "fight" he waved an imaginary sword and assumed a ridiculous posture, which he evidently connected with warlike exercises of some kind. The song praised the Government—"A Government er business men; men that's got sense"—and told how this wonderful Government had stopped the pouring[125] out of poor folks' money upon flag-waving, to devote it to poor folks' needs. It alluded to the title that Administration had earned: "The Destroyers"; and acclaimed it a proud title, because it meant the destruction of "gold-laced bunkcombe," and of "vampires that were preying on the British working man."

But our choice this time was the most famous of the old halls. I remember a topical song that got a huge round of applause. It was an incredibly silly piece of nonsense about England's place in the world; and the well-dressed performer who sang it strutted back and forth like a little rooster with each new wave of cheers from the enthusiastic audience. When he said the word "fight," he waved an imaginary sword and struck a ridiculous pose that he clearly thought was connected to some kind of military exercise. The song praised the Government—"A Government of business people; people who have sense"—and explained how this amazing Government had stopped wasting poor people's money on flag-waving to focus on the needs of the poor. It mentioned the title that Administration had earned: "The Destroyers"; and celebrated it as a proud title because it meant the end of "fancy nonsense" and of "vampires that were sucking the life out of the British working man."

But the chorus was the thing, and the perspiring singer played conductor with all the airs and graces of a spangled showman in a booth, while the huge audience yelled itself hoarse over this. I can only recall two lines of it, and these were to the effect that: "They"—meaning the other Powers of civilization—"will never go for England, because England's got the dibs."

But the chorus was the highlight, and the sweating singer acted like a conductor with all the flair of a flashy performer in a booth, while the large audience shouted themselves hoarse over it. I can only remember two lines of it, which went something like: "They"—referring to the other civilized powers—"won’t ever go after England, because England’s got the money."

It was rather a startling spectacle; that vast auditorium, in which one saw countless flushed faces, tier on tier, gleaming through a haze of tobacco smoke; their mouths agape as they roared out the vapid lines of this song. I remember thinking that the doggerel might have been the creation of my fat contributor from Stettin, Herr Mitmann, and that if the music-hall public had reached this stage, I must have been oversensitive in my somewhat hostile and critical attitude toward the writings of that ponderous Teuton. I thought that for once The Mass would almost lag behind its readers; though in the beginning I had regarded Herr Mitmann's proposals as going beyond even our limits.

It was quite a shocking sight; that huge auditorium, where you could see countless flushed faces, layer upon layer, shining through a haze of cigarette smoke; their mouths wide open as they shouted out the meaningless lines of this song. I remember thinking that the cheesy lyrics could have been written by my overweight contributor from Stettin, Herr Mitmann, and that if the music-hall audience had reached this point, I must have been overly sensitive in my somewhat critical stance toward the work of that heavy Teuton. I thought that for once The Mass would almost lag behind its readers; even though at first I had seen Herr Mitmann's ideas as pushing our limits too far.

We left the hall while its roof echoed the jingling tail-piece of another popular ditty, which tickled Beatrice's fancy hugely. In it the singer expressed,[126] without exaggeration and without flattery, a good deal of the popular London attitude toward the pursuit of pleasure and the love of pleasure resorts. I recall phrases like: "Give my regards to Leicester Square—Greet the girls in Regent Street—Tell them in Bond Street we'll soon meet"—and, "Give them my love in the Strand."

We left the hall while the ceiling echoed the jingling tail end of another popular song that really amused Beatrice. In it, the singer conveyed, [126] without any exaggeration or flattery, a lot of the common attitude in London towards enjoying life and the love for entertainment spots. I remember lines like: "Say hi to Leicester Square—Wave to the girls on Regent Street—Let them know in Bond Street we’ll meet up soon"—and, "Send my love to everyone in the Strand."

The atmosphere reeked now of spirits, smoke, and overheated humanity. The voice of the great audience was hoarse and rather bestial in suggestion. The unescorted women began to make their invitations dreadfully pressing. Doubtless my mood coloured the whole tawdry business, but I remember finding those last few minutes distinctly revolting, and experiencing a genuine relief when we stepped into the outer air.

The atmosphere now stank of alcohol, smoke, and overheated bodies. The crowd’s voice was rough and somewhat primal. The unaccompanied women started to make their invitations increasingly insistent. My mood probably affected my view of the whole tacky scene, but I distinctly remember finding those last few minutes pretty disgusting and feeling a real sense of relief when we stepped outside into the fresh air.

But the lights were just as brilliant outside, the pavements as thronged as the carpeted promenade, its faces almost as thickly painted as those of the lady who wished her "regards" given to Leicester Square, or the gentleman who had assured us that nobody wanted to fight England, because England had the "dibs."

But the lights outside were just as bright, the sidewalks as packed as the carpeted walkway, with faces almost as heavily made-up as the woman who asked to send her "regards" to Leicester Square, or the man who told us that nobody wanted to pick a fight with England because England had the "dibs."

Beatrice was now in feverishly high spirits. She no longer purred contentment; rather it seemed to me she panted in avid excitement, while pouring out a running fire of comment upon the dress and appearance of passers-by, as we drove to another palace of gilt and plush—a sort of magnified Pullman car, with decorations that made one's eyes ache. Here we partook of quite a complicated champagne supper. I dare say fifty pounds was spent in that room[127] after the gorgeously uniformed attendants had begun their chant of "Time, gentlemen, please; time!" which signified that the closing hour had arrived.

Beatrice was now in an incredibly high mood. She wasn't just purring with happiness; it felt like she was panting with eager excitement, as she went on and on about the outfits and looks of people passing by while we drove to another lavish palace—like an oversized Pullman car, with decorations that made my eyes hurt. Here, we had a pretty elaborate champagne dinner. I would guess we spent around fifty pounds in that room[127] after the impeccably dressed staff started their chant of "Time, gentlemen, please; time!" which meant that closing time had come.

Beatrice kept up her excitement—or perhaps the champagne did this for her—until our cab was half-way across Chelsea Bridge. Then she lay back in her corner, and, I suppose, began to feel the grayness of the as yet unseen dawn of a new day. But as I helped her out of the cab in Battersea, she said she had thoroughly enjoyed her "fluffy" evening, and thanked me very prettily. I returned in the cab as far as Westminster, and there dismissed the man with the last of my seven guineas, having decided to walk from there to my Bloomsbury lodging.

Beatrice kept her excitement going—or maybe it was the champagne—until we were halfway across Chelsea Bridge. Then she leaned back in her seat, and I guess she started to feel the dullness of the yet-to-come dawn of a new day. But when I helped her out of the cab in Battersea, she said she had thoroughly enjoyed her "fluffy" evening and thanked me very sweetly. I took the cab back as far as Westminster, then paid the driver with the last of my seven guineas, deciding to walk from there to my place in Bloomsbury.

For a Socialist, my conduct was certainly peculiar. There were two of us. We had had two meals, one of which was as totally unnecessary as the other was overelaborate. And we had spent an hour or two in watching an incredibly stupid and vulgar performance. And over this I had spent a sum upon which an entire family could have been kept going for a couple of months. But there were scores of people in London that night—some of them passed me in cabs and carriages, as I walked from the Abbey toward Fleet Street—who had been through a similar programme and spent twice as much over it as I had. It was an extraordinarily extravagant period; and it seemed that the less folk did in the discharge of their national obligations as citizens, the more they demanded, and the more they spent, in the name of pleasure.

For a Socialist, my behavior was definitely odd. There were two of us. We had two meals, one of which was completely unnecessary and the other was way too fancy. We had also spent a couple of hours watching an incredibly stupid and vulgar performance. I had spent an amount that could have supported an entire family for a couple of months. But there were tons of people in London that night—some of them passed me in cabs and carriages as I walked from the Abbey toward Fleet Street—who had gone through a similar routine and spent twice as much as I did. It was an incredibly extravagant time; it seemed that the less people did to fulfill their duties as citizens, the more they demanded and the more they spent in the name of enjoyment.

The people who passed me, as I made my way eastward,[128] were mostly in evening dress, pale and raffish-looking. Many, particularly among the couples in hansoms, were intoxicated, and making a painful muddle of such melodies as those we had listened to at the music hall. Overeaten, overdrunken, overexcited, overextravagant, in all ways figures of incontinence, these noisy Londoners made their way homeward, pursued by the advancing gray light of a Sabbath dawn in midsummer.

The people who passed me as I headed eastward,[128] were mostly dressed up for the evening, looking pale and a bit disheveled. Many of them, especially the couples in horse-drawn carriages, were drunk and struggling to piece together the tunes we had heard at the music hall. Overindulged, overly drunk, overly excited, overly extravagant—all in all, these loud Londoners were a mess as they made their way home, chased by the creeping gray light of a Sunday dawn in midsummer.

And Beatrice loved everything foreign, because the foreigners had none of our stupid British Puritanism! And the British public was mightily pleased with its Government, "The Destroyers," because they were cutting down to vanishing point expenditure upon such superfluous vanities as national defence, in order to devote the money to improving the conditions in which the public lived, and to the reducing of their heavy burdens as citizens of a great Empire. Money could not possibly be spared for such ornamentation as ships and guns and bodies of trained men. We could not afford it!

And Beatrice loved everything foreign because foreigners didn’t have our ridiculous British Puritanism! And the British public was really happy with its Government, "The Destroyers," because they were slashing unnecessary spending on things like national defense to focus on improving the public’s living conditions and reducing the heavy burdens of being citizens in a huge Empire. There was no way we could spend money on things like ships, guns, and trained soldiers. We just couldn’t afford it!

As I passed the corner of Agar Street a drunken cabdriver, driving two noisily intoxicated men in evening dress, brought his cab into collision with a gaunt, wolf-eyed man who had been scouring the gutter for scraps of food. He was one of an army prowling London's gutters at that moment: human wolves, questing for scraps of refuse meat. The space between each prowler was no more than a few yards. This particular wretch was knocked down by the cab, but not hurt. Cabby and his fares roared out drunken laughter. The horse was never checked.[129] But in the midst of their laughter one of the passengers threw out a coin, upon which the human wolf pounced like a bird of prey. I saw the glint of the coin. It was a sovereign; very likely the twentieth those men had spent that night. For that sum, four hundred of the gaunt, gutter-prowling wolves might have been fed and sheltered.

As I passed the corner of Agar Street, a drunken cab driver, transporting two loud, tipsy men in formal wear, crashed his cab into a thin, hungry-looking man who had been searching the gutter for food scraps. He was one of many people scavenging London's gutters at that moment: desperate souls looking for leftover food. The distance between each scavenger was no more than a few yards. This particular unfortunate got knocked down by the cab but was unharmed. The driver and his passengers erupted in drunken laughter. The horse never slowed down. [129] In the midst of their laughter, one of the passengers tossed out a coin, which the hungry man grabbed like a predator. I saw the shine of the coin. It was a sovereign; probably the twentieth one those men had spent that night. With that amount, four hundred of the hungry, gutter-scrounging souls could have been fed and sheltered.

Entering Holborn I ran against a man I knew, named Wardle, one of the sub-editors of a Sunday newspaper, then on his way home from Fleet Street. Wardle was tired and sleepy, but stopped to exchange a few words of journalistic gossip.

Entering Holborn, I bumped into a guy I knew, named Wardle, one of the sub-editors of a Sunday newspaper, on his way home from Fleet Street. Wardle looked tired and sleepy but stopped to chat a bit about some journalistic gossip.

"Rather sickening about the wind-up of the East Anglian Pageant," he said, "isn't it? Did you hear of it?"

"Pretty sickening about the conclusion of the East Anglian Pageant," he said, "don't you think? Did you hear about it?"

I explained that I had not been in Fleet Street that night, and had heard nothing.

I explained that I hadn't been on Fleet Street that night and hadn't heard anything.

"Why, there was to be no end of a tumashi for the Saturday evening wind-up, you know, and we were featuring it. We sent a special man up yesterday to help the local fellow. Well, just as we'd got in about a couple of hundred words of his introductory stuff, word came through that the wires were interrupted, and not another blessed line did we get. I tell you there was some tall cursing done, and some flying around in the editorial 'fill-up' drawers. We were giving it first place—three columns. One blessing, we found the stoppage was general. No one else has got a line of East Anglian stuff to-night. Ours was the last word from the submerged city of Ipswich. But it really is rather an odd breakdown. No sign of rough weather; and, mind you there are[130] a number of different lines of communication. But they're all blocked, telegraph and telephone. Our chief tried to get through viâ the Continent, just to give us something to go on. But it was no go. Odd, isn't it?"

"Well, there was supposed to be a big deal for the Saturday night wrap-up, and we were in charge of it. We sent someone special up yesterday to assist the local guy. Just when we managed to write about a couple hundred words of his introductory material, we heard that the wires were down, and we didn't receive another single line. Let me tell you, there was a lot of swearing and some chaos in the editorial ‘fill-up’ drawers. We were giving it top priority—three columns. One good thing was that we discovered the outage was widespread. No one else has any news from East Anglia tonight. Ours was the last update from the submerged city of Ipswich. But it's really a strange failure. No signs of bad weather, and keep in mind there are multiple lines of communication. But they’re all down, both telegraph and telephone. Our boss even tried to connect through the Continent just to give us something to work with. But that didn't work either. Strange, right?"

"Very," I agreed, as we turned; and I added, rather inanely: "One hears a lot about East Anglian coast erosion."

"Definitely," I agreed, as we turned; and I added, somewhat foolishly: "You hear a lot about the erosion of the East Anglian coast."

Wardle yawned and grinned.

Wardle yawned and smiled.

"Yes, to be sure. Perhaps East Anglia is cruising down Channel by now. Or perhaps the Kaiser's landed an army corps and taken possession. That Mediterranean business on Tuesday was pretty pronounced cheek, you know, and, by all accounts, the result of direct orders from Potsdam. Only the Kaiser's bluff, I suppose, but I'm told it's taken most of the Channel Fleet down into Spanish waters."

"Yes, for sure. Maybe East Anglia is already making its way down the Channel. Or maybe the Kaiser has landed an army corps and taken control. That Mediterranean incident on Tuesday was pretty bold, you know, and, by all accounts, it came directly from Potsdam. Just the Kaiser trying to bluff, I guess, but I've heard it’s taken most of the Channel Fleet down into Spanish waters."

I smiled at the activity of Wardle's journalistic imagination, and thought of the music-hall crowd.

I smiled at Wardle's creative journalism and thought about the lively music-hall crowd.

"Ah, well," I said, "'They'll never go for England, because England's got the dibs'!"

"Ah, well," I said, "'They'll never choose England, because England's got the advantage'!"

"What ho!" remarked Wardle, with another yawn. And this time he was really off.

"What’s up!" said Wardle, with another yawn. And this time he actually fell asleep.

And so I walked home alone to my lodgings, and climbed into bed, thinking vaguely of Constance Grey, and what she would have thought of my night's work; this, as the long, palely glinting arms of the Sabbath dawn thrust aside the mantle of summer night from Bloomsbury.

And so I walked home by myself to my place, climbed into bed, and think a bit about Constance Grey and what she might have thought of what I did that night; this, as the long, pale fingers of Sunday morning pushed away the cover of summer night from Bloomsbury.


XIII
THE DEMONSTRATION IN HYDE PARK

Winds of the World, give your answer! They are whispering back and forth—
And what should they know about England who only know England? —
The poor little kids raised on the streets who complain, get angry, and show off, They are raising their heads in the quiet to bark at the English flag.
Rudyard Kipling.

As was usually the case on the day following one of Beatrice's "fluffy" evenings, I descended to my never very tempting lodging-house breakfast on that Sunday morning feeling the reverse of cheerful, and much inclined to take the gloomiest view of everything life had to offer me.

As often happened the morning after one of Beatrice's "fluffy" nights, I walked down to my not-so-appealing lodging-house breakfast on that Sunday morning feeling quite the opposite of cheerful and very much inclined to see everything in life in the bleakest way possible.

Sunday was generally a melancholy day for me. It was my only day out of Fleet Street, and, though I had long since taken such steps as I thought I could afford toward transforming my bedroom into a sitting-room, there was nothing very comfortable or homelike about it. I had dropped the habit of churchgoing after the first few months of my London life, without any particular thought or intention, but rather, I think, as one kind of reflex action—a subconscious reflection of the views and habits of those among whom I lived and worked.[132]

Sunday was usually a sad day for me. It was my only day away from Fleet Street, and even though I had tried to turn my bedroom into a living room, it still didn't feel very comfortable or like home. I had stopped going to church after the first few months of living in London, not really with any specific thought or intention, but more as a kind of automatic response—a subconscious reflection of the views and habits of the people I lived and worked with.[132]

Hearing a newsboy crying a "special" edition of some paper, I threw up the window and bought a copy, across the area railings. It was the paper for which Wardle worked. I found in it no particular justification for any special issue, and, as a fact, the probability is the appearance of this edition was merely a device to increase circulation, suggested mainly by the fact that the ordinary issue had been delayed by the East Anglian telegraphic breakdown. Regarding this, I found the following item of editorial commentary:

Hearing a newsboy shouting about a "special" edition of some newspaper, I opened the window and bought a copy across the area railings. It was the paper for which Wardle worked. I didn't find any specific reason for a special issue, and in fact, it seems this edition was just a ploy to boost sales, mainly because the regular issue had been delayed by a telecommunications failure in East Anglia. In relation to this, I found the following piece of editorial commentary:

"As is explained elsewhere, a serious breakdown of telegraphic communication has occurred between London and Harwich, Ipswich and East Anglia generally, as a result of which our readers are robbed of special despatches regarding last night's conclusion of the East Anglian Pageant. It is thought that the breakdown is due to some electrical disturbance of the atmosphere resulting in a fusion of wires.

"As explained elsewhere, there has been a significant failure in telegraphic communication between London and Harwich, Ipswich, and generally East Anglia. Because of this, our readers are missing out on special reports about last night's end of the East Anglian Pageant. It's believed that the failure is caused by some electrical disturbance in the atmosphere that has resulted in wires fusing."

"But as an example of the ridiculous lengths to which the national defence cranks will go in their hatching of alarmist reports, a rumour was actually spread in Fleet Street at an early hour this morning that this commonplace accident to the telegraph wires was caused by an invading German army. This ridiculous canard is reminiscent of some of the foolish scares which frightened our forefathers a little more than a century ago, when the Corsican terrorized Europe. But our rumour-mongers are too far out of date for this age. It is unfortunate that the advocates of militarism should receive parliamentary[133] support of any kind. The Opposition is weakly and insignificant enough in all conscience, without courting further unpopularity by floating British public feeling in this way, and encouraging the cranks among its following to bring ridicule upon the country.

"But as an example of the absurd lengths to which national defense enthusiasts will go in creating alarmist stories, a rumor was actually spread in Fleet Street early this morning that a routine accident to the telegraph wires was caused by an invading German army. This ridiculous canard is reminiscent of some of the silly scares that worried our ancestors a little over a century ago when the Corsican was terrorizing Europe. But our rumor-spreaders are outdated for this time. It's unfortunate that militarism advocates should receive any kind of parliamentary support. The Opposition is weak and insignificant enough as it is, without seeking further unpopularity by sensationalizing British public sentiment in this way, and encouraging the oddballs among their supporters to bring ridicule upon the country."

"The absurd canard to which we have referred is maliciously ill-timed. It will doubtless be reported on the Continent, and may injure us there. But we trust our friends in Germany will do us the justice of recognizing at once that this is merely the work of an irresponsible and totally unrepresentative clique, and in no sort a reflection of any aspect of public feeling in this country. We are able to state with certainty that last Tuesday's regrettable incident in the Mediterranean has been satisfactorily and definitely closed. Admiral Blennerhaustein displayed characteristic German courtesy and generosity in his frank acceptance of the apology sent to him from Whitehall; and the report that our Channel Fleet had entered the Straits of Gibraltar is incorrect. A portion of the Channel Fleet had been cruising off the coast of the Peninsula, and is now on its way back to home waters. Our relations with His Imperial Majesty's Government in Berlin were never more harmonious, and such a canard as this morning's rumour of invasion is only worthy of mention for the sake of a demonstration of its complete absurdity. If, as was stated, the author of this puerile invention is a Navy League supporter, who reached London in a motor-car from Harwich soon after daylight this morning, our advice to him is to devote the rest[134] of the day to sleeping off the effects of an injudicious evening in East Anglia."

The ridiculous rumor we mentioned is alarmingly ill-timed. It will likely be reported across Europe and could hurt our reputation there. However, we trust our friends in Germany will quickly recognize that this is just the work of a reckless and completely unrepresentative group, and not a reflection of public sentiment in this country. We can confidently say that last Tuesday's unfortunate incident in the Mediterranean has been satisfactorily and conclusively resolved. Admiral Blennerhaustein showed his usual German courtesy and generosity by openly accepting the apology sent from Whitehall; and the report that our Channel Fleet has entered the Straits of Gibraltar is incorrect. Part of the Channel Fleet had been patrolling off the coast of the Peninsula and is now returning to home waters. Our relationship with His Imperial Majesty's Government in Berlin has never been better, and this morning's rumor of invasion is only worth mentioning to highlight its utter ridiculousness. If, as stated, the creator of this childish fabrication is a Navy League supporter who drove into London from Harwich shortly after dawn today, our advice to him is to spend the rest[134] of the day recovering from the effects of a poor choice of evening in East Anglia.

Failing the East Anglian Pageant, the paper's "first feature," I noticed, consisted of a lot of generously headed particulars regarding the big Disarmament Demonstration to be held in Hyde Park that afternoon. It seemed that this was to be a really big thing, and I decided to attend in the interests of The Mass. The President of the Local Government Board and three well-known members on the Government side of the House were to speak. The Demonstration had been organized by the National Peace Association for Disarmament and Social Reform, of which the Prime Minister had lately been elected President. Delegates, both German and English, of the Anglo-German Union had promised to deliver addresses. Among other well-known bodies who were sending representatives I saw mention of the Anti-Imperial and Free Tariff Society, the Independent English Guild, the Home Rule Association, the Free Trade League, and various Republican and Socialist bodies. The paper said some amusement was anticipated from a suggested counter demonstration proposed by a few Navy League enthusiasts; but that the police would take good care that no serious interruptions were allowed.

Failing the East Anglian Pageant, the paper's "first feature" that I noticed was a lot of details about the big Disarmament Demonstration happening in Hyde Park that afternoon. It looked like this was going to be a major event, so I decided to attend for the sake of The Mass. The President of the Local Government Board and three prominent members of the Government were set to speak. The Demonstration had been organized by the National Peace Association for Disarmament and Social Reform, which the Prime Minister had recently been elected President of. Delegates from both Germany and England of the Anglo-German Union had committed to giving speeches. Among other well-known groups sending representatives, I spotted mentions of the Anti-Imperial and Free Tariff Society, the Independent English Guild, the Home Rule Association, the Free Trade League, and various Republican and Socialist groups. The paper mentioned that some amusement was expected from a proposed counter-demonstration by a few Navy League supporters; however, the police would ensure that no serious disruptions occurred.

As the Demonstration was fixed for three o'clock in the afternoon, I decided to go up the river by steamboat to Kew after my late breakfast. It was a gloriously fine morning, and on the river I began to feel a little more cheerful. As we passed Battersea Park I thought of Beatrice, who always suffered[135] from severe depressions after her little outings. Her spirits were affected; in my case, restaurant food, inferior wine, and the breathing of vitiated air was paid for by nothing worse than a headache and a morning's discomfort.

As the Demonstration was set for three o'clock in the afternoon, I decided to take a steamboat up the river to Kew after my late breakfast. It was a beautifully sunny morning, and on the river, I started to feel a bit more cheerful. As we passed Battersea Park, I thought of Beatrice, who always faced severe mood swings after her little outings. Her spirits were affected; in my case, the restaurant food, cheap wine, and stale air only resulted in a headache and some discomfort in the morning.

(One of the curses of the time, which seemed to grow more acute as the habit of extravagance and the thirst for pleasure increased, was the outrageous adulteration of all food-stuffs, and more particularly of all alcoholic liquors, which prevailed not alone in the West End of London, but in every city. Home products could only be obtained in clubs and in the houses of the rich. Their quantity was insufficient to admit of their reaching the open markets. In the cities we lived entirely upon foreign products, and their adulteration had reached a most amazing limit of badness.)

(One of the major problems of the time, which seemed to get worse as people became more extravagant and eager for pleasure, was the shocking adulteration of all food products, especially alcoholic beverages. This was not just an issue in the West End of London, but in every city. You could only find genuine products in clubs and wealthy people’s homes. There just wasn’t enough to make it to the public markets. In the cities, we relied entirely on foreign products, and their quality had deteriorated to an unbelievable extent.)

My thought of Beatrice was brief that morning, but I continued during most of my little excursion to dwell upon my new friends in South Kensington. I wondered how Constance Grey spent Sunday in London, and whether the confinement of the town oppressed her after the spacious freedom of the South African life she had described to me. I remembered that I had promised to call upon her and her aunt very soon, and wondered whether that afternoon, after the Demonstration, would be too soon. I mentally decided that it would, but that I would go all the same.

My thoughts of Beatrice were fleeting that morning, but I spent most of my little outing thinking about my new friends in South Kensington. I wondered how Constance Grey was spending her Sunday in London and if being in the city felt stifling to her after the wide-open freedom of the South African life she had told me about. I recalled that I had promised to visit her and her aunt soon and pondered if that afternoon, after the Demonstration, would be too soon. I mentally concluded it would be, but I decided I would go anyway.

And then, suddenly, as the steamer passed under Hammersmith Bridge, a thought went through me like cold steel:[136]

And then, all of a sudden, as the steamer went under Hammersmith Bridge, a thought struck me like cold steel:[136]

"She will very soon return to that freer, wider life out there in South Africa."

"She will soon return to that freer, broader life out there in South Africa."

How I hated the place. South Africa! I had always associated it with Imperialism, militarism—"empireism," as I called it in my own mind: the strange, outside interests, which one regarded as opposing home interests, social reform, and the like. Though I did not know that any political party considerations influenced me one atom, I was in reality, like nearly every one else at that time, mentally the slave and creature of party feeling, party tradition, party prejudice. But now I had a new cause for hating those remote uplands of Empire, those outside places.

How I loathed that place. South Africa! I had always linked it with imperialism, militarism—“empireism,” as I referred to it in my mind: the strange, external interests that seemed to clash with local interests, social reforms, and similar issues. Even though I didn’t think political party views affected me at all, I was, like almost everyone else back then, mentally a slave to party sentiment, party tradition, and party bias. But now I had a fresh reason to despise those distant highlands of Empire, those foreign lands.

Sitting under a tree in Kew Gardens, I had leisure in which to browse over the matter, and, upon reflection, I was astonished that this sudden thought of mine should have struck so shrewdly, so violently, into my peace of mind. I tried to neutralize its effect by reminding myself that I had met Constance Grey only twice; that she was in many ways outside my purview; that she was the intimate friend of people who had helped to make history, the special contributor to The Times, with her introductions to ex-Cabinet Ministers in England and her other relations with great people; that such a woman could never play an intimate part in my life. Her friendliness could not be the prelude to friendship with the assistant editor of The Mass; it probably meant no more than a courteous deference to John Crondall's whim, I told myself. But I would call at the South Kensington flat, certainly; it would be boorish to refrain,[137] and—there was no denying I should have been mightily perturbed if any valid reason had appeared against my going to see Constance Grey after doing my duty by the Demonstration.

Sitting under a tree in Kew Gardens, I had some time to think, and upon reflecting, I was amazed that this sudden thought of mine impacted my peace of mind so sharply, so intensely. I tried to lessen its effect by reminding myself that I had only met Constance Grey twice; that she was largely outside my circle; that she was close friends with people who had shaped history, a special contributor to The Times, with her connections to former Cabinet Ministers in England and her associations with influential people; that a woman like her could never have a personal role in my life. Her friendliness couldn't signal a potential friendship with the assistant editor of The Mass; it likely only reflected a polite acknowledgment of John Crondall's inclination, I told myself. But I would definitely visit the South Kensington flat; it would be rude not to, [137] and—I had to admit, I would have been seriously unsettled if any solid reason had come up against my visit with Constance Grey after fulfilling my obligation to the Demonstration.

The newsboys were putting a good deal of feeling into their crying of special editions when I reached the streets again; but I was not inclined to waste further pence upon the Sunday News' moralizings over the evolution of canards. I took a mess of some adulterated pottage at a foreign restaurant in Notting Hill, as I had no wish to return to Bloomsbury before the Demonstration. The waiter—either a Swiss or a German—asked me:

The newsboys were really putting a lot of emotion into their shouting about special editions when I hit the streets again; but I wasn't interested in spending any more money on the Sunday News' sermons about the rise of fake news. I grabbed a bowl of some questionable soup at a foreign restaurant in Notting Hill, since I didn't want to head back to Bloomsbury before the Demonstration. The waiter—who seemed to be either Swiss or German—asked me:

"Vad you sink, sare, of ze news from ze country?"

"Well, what do you think, sir, about the news from the country?"

I asked him what it was, and he handed me a fresh copy of the Sunday News, headed: "Special Edition. Noon."

I asked him what it was, and he handed me a fresh copy of the Sunday News, with the headline: "Special Edition. Noon."

"By Jove!" I thought; "no Sunday dinner for Wardle! They couldn't have printed this in the small hours."

"Wow!" I thought; "no Sunday dinner for Wardle! They couldn't have published this early in the morning."

But the only new matter in this issue was a short announcement, headed in poster type, as follows:

But the only new content in this issue was a brief announcement, written in bold letters, as follows:

"EAST ANGLIA'S ISOLATION
RAILWAY COMMUNICATION STOPPED
STRANGE SUPPORT OF INVASION CANARD
IS THIS A TORY HOAX?
(SPECIAL)

"The preposterous rumour of a German invasion of England is receiving mysterious support. We hear from a reliable source that some Imperialist and Navy[138] League cranks have organized a gigantic hoax by way of opposition to the Disarmament Demonstration. If the curious breakdown of communication with the east coast does prove to be the work of political fanatics, we think, and hope, that these gentry may shortly be convinced, in a manner they are never likely to forget, that, even in this land of liberty, the crank is not allowed to interfere with the transaction of public business.

"The absurd rumor of a German invasion of England is getting strange backing. We've heard from a reliable source that some Imperialist and Navy League extremists have organized a huge hoax to oppose the Disarmament Demonstration. If the strange disruption of communication with the east coast turns out to be the actions of political fanatics, we believe, and hope, that these individuals may soon be taught, in a way they'll never forget, that even in this land of freedom, crazies are not allowed to disrupt public affairs."

"No trains have reached Liverpool Street from the northeast this morning, and communication cannot be established beyond Chelmsford. Whatever the cause of this singular breakdown may be, our readers will soon know it, for, in order finally to dispel any hint of credence which may be attached in some quarters to the absurd invasion report, we have already despatched two representatives in two powerful motor-cars, northeastward from Brentwood, with instructions to return to that point and telegraph full particulars directly they can discover the cause of the stoppage of communication.

"No trains have arrived at Liverpool Street from the northeast this morning, and we can't communicate beyond Chelmsford. Whatever the reason for this unusual disruption may be, our readers will soon find out. To eliminate any lingering belief in the ridiculous invasion report that may exist in some circles, we've already sent two representatives in two fast motor cars, headed northeast from Brentwood, with instructions to return to that location and telegraph the full details as soon as they can find out the reason for the communication breakdown."

"Further special editions will be issued when news is received from East Anglia."

"More special editions will be released when we get updates from East Anglia."

"Yes," I said to the waiter; "it's a curious affair."

"Yeah," I told the waiter; "it's an interesting situation."

"You believe him, sare—zat Shermany do it?"

"You believe him, sir—did Germany do it?"

"Eh? No; certainly not. Do you?"

"Really? No; definitely not. Do you?"

"Me? Oh, sare, I don' know nozzing. Vaire shstrong, sare, ze Sherman Armay."

"Me? Oh, sir, I don't know anything. Very strong, sir, the Sherman Army."

The fellow's face annoyed me in some way. It, and his grins and gesticulations, had a sinister seeming. My trade brought me into contact with so[139] many low-class aliens. I told myself I was getting insular and prejudiced, and resumed my meal with more thought for myself and my tendencies and affairs than for the East Anglian business. I have wondered since what the waiter thought about while I ate; whether he thought of England, Germany, and of myself, as representing the British citizen. But, to be sure, for aught I know, his thoughts may have been ordered for him from Berlin.

The guy's face bothered me for some reason. His smirks and hand motions had a creepy vibe. My job put me in touch with so[139] many low-class outsiders. I told myself I was becoming closed-minded and biased, so I went back to my meal, thinking more about myself and my issues than about the East Anglian business. I've wondered since what the waiter was thinking about while I ate; whether he thought of England, Germany, and me as representing a British citizen. But honestly, for all I know, his thoughts might have been dictated from Berlin.

The Demonstration drew an enormous concourse of people to Hyde Park. The weather being perfect, a number of people made an outing of the occasion, and one saw whole groups of people who clearly came from beyond Whitechapel, the Borough, Shepherd's Bush, and Islington. As had been anticipated, a few well-dressed people endeavoured to run a counter-demonstration under a Navy League banner; but their following was absurdly small, and the crowd gave them nothing but ridicule and contempt.

The demonstration attracted a huge crowd to Hyde Park. With the weather being perfect, many people turned it into a day out, and you could see groups that obviously came from places beyond Whitechapel, the Borough, Shepherd's Bush, and Islington. As expected, a few well-dressed individuals tried to hold a counter-demonstration under a Navy League banner, but their crowd was ridiculously small, and the main crowd responded with nothing but mockery and disdain.

The President of the Local Government Board received a tremendous ovation. For some minutes after his first appearance that enormous crowd sang, "He's a jolly good fellow!" with great enthusiasm. Then, when this member of the Government at last succeeded in getting as far as: "Mr. Chairman, ladies and gentlemen," some one started the song with the chorus containing the words: "They'll never go for England, because England's got the dibs." This spread like a line of fire in dry grass, and in a moment the vast crowd was rocking to the jingling rhythm of the song, the summer air quivering to the volume of its thousand-throated voice.[140]

The President of the Local Government Board got a huge cheer. For a few minutes after he first showed up, that massive crowd sang, "He's a jolly good fellow!" with great excitement. Then, when this government member finally managed to get to: "Mr. Chairman, ladies and gentlemen," someone started the song with the chorus that included: "They'll never go for England, because England's got the dibs." This spread like wildfire, and in no time, the huge crowd was swaying to the catchy rhythm of the song, the summer air vibrating with its thousand-voiced chorus.[140]

The President of the Local Government Board had been rather suspected of tuft-hunting recently, and his appearance in the stump orator's rôle, and in the cause of disarmament, was wonderfully popular. In his long career as Labour agitator, Socialist, and Radical, he had learned to know the popular pulse remarkably well; and now he responded cleverly to the call of the moment. His vein was that of the heavy, broad bludgeoning sarcasm which tickles a crowd, and his theme was not the wickedness, but the stupidity and futility of all "Jingoism," "spread-eagleism," "tall-talk," and "gold-lace bunkcombe."

The President of the Local Government Board had recently been somewhat suspected of trying to associate with the upper class, and his role as a stump speaker for the disarmament cause became hugely popular. Throughout his long career as a labor activist, socialist, and radical, he had learned to understand what the public felt remarkably well; now he cleverly responded to the prevailing sentiment. His style was characterized by heavy, blunt sarcasm that resonated with an audience, and his topic was not the evil of “Jingoism,” “spread-eagleism,” “tall-talk,” or “gold-lace nonsense,” but rather the stupidity and futility of all of it.

"I am told my honourable friends of the opposition," he said, with an ironical bow in the direction of the now folded Navy League banner, "have played some kind of a practical joke in the eastern counties to-day. Well, children will be children; but I am afraid there will have to be spankings if half that I hear is true. They have tried to frighten you into abandoning this Demonstration with a pretended invasion of England. Well, my friends, it does not look to me as though their invasion had affected this Demonstration very seriously. I seem to fancy I see quite a number of people gathered together here. (It is estimated that over sixty thousand people were trying to hear his words.) But all I have to say on this invasion question is just this: If our friends from Germany have invaded East Anglia, let us be grateful for their enterprise, and, as a nation of shopkeepers should, let us make as much as we can out of 'em. But don't let us forget our hospitality.[141] If our neighbours have dropped in in a friendly way, why, let's be sure we've something hot for supper. Perhaps a few sausages wouldn't be taken amiss. (The laughter and applause was so continuous here that for some moments nothing further could be heard.) No, my friends, this invasion hoax should now be placed finally upon the retired list. It has been on active service now since the year 1800, and I really think it's time our spread-eagle friends gave us a change. Let me for one moment address you in my official capacity, as your servant and a member of the Government. This England of ours is about as much in danger of being invaded as I am of becoming a millionaire, and those of you——"

"I’ve heard that my esteemed friends in the opposition," he said, with a sarcastic bow toward the now folded Navy League banner, "have pulled some kind of prank in the eastern counties today. Well, kids will be kids; but I’m afraid there will need to be consequences if even half of what I hear is true. They’ve tried to scare you into canceling this Demonstration with a fake invasion of England. Well, my friends, it doesn’t seem to me like their invasion has significantly impacted this Demonstration. I can see quite a few people gathered here. (It’s estimated that over sixty thousand people were trying to hear his words.) But all I want to say about this invasion issue is this: If our friends from Germany have shown up in East Anglia, let’s appreciate their initiative, and as a nation of shopkeepers should, let’s make the most of it. But let’s not forget our hospitality.[141] If our neighbors have dropped by in a friendly way, let’s make sure we have something warm for dinner. Maybe a few sausages wouldn’t go amiss. (The laughter and applause were so continuous here that for some moments nothing further could be heard.) No, my friends, this invasion hoax should finally be put to rest. It’s been around since 1800, and I really think it’s time our patriotic friends give us a break. Let me take a moment to address you in my official role, as your servant and a member of the Government. This England of ours is about as likely to be invaded as I am to become a millionaire, and those of you——"

The speaker's next words never reached me, being drowned by a great roar of laughter and applause. Just then I turned round to remonstrate with a man who was supporting himself upon my right shoulder. I was on the edge of the one narrow part of the crowd, against some iron railings. As I turned I noticed a number of boys tearing along in fan-shaped formation, and racing toward the crowd from the direction of Marble Arch. My eyes followed the approaching boys, and I forgot the fellow who had been plaguing me. The lads were all carrying bundles of papers, and now, as they drew nearer, I could see and hear that they were yelling as they ran.

The speaker's next words never reached me, drowned out by a loud roar of laughter and applause. Just then, I turned to confront a guy leaning on my right shoulder. I was on the edge of the narrow part of the crowd, against some iron railings. As I turned, I noticed a group of boys sprinting in a fan-shaped formation, racing toward the crowd from Marble Arch. I followed the boys with my eyes and forgot about the guy bothering me. The lads were all carrying bundles of papers, and as they got closer, I could see and hear that they were shouting as they ran.

"Another special edition," I thought. "No sort of a Sunday for poor Wardle."

"Another special edition," I thought. "No relaxing Sunday for poor Wardle."

The President of the Local Government Board had resumed his speech, and I could hear his clean-cut words distinctly. He had a good incisive delivery.[142] Across his words now the hoarse yell of an approaching newsboy smote upon my ears:

The President of the Local Government Board had started his speech again, and I could clearly hear his sharp words. He had a strong, clear delivery.[142] Suddenly, the raspy shout of a nearby newsboy cut through the air:

"Extry speshul! Sixpence! German Army Corps in England! Speshul! Invashen er Sufferk! Speshul—sixpence! German Army Corps—sixpence! Invashen!"

"Extra special! Sixpence! German Army Corps in England! Special! Invasion or Suffering! Special—sixpence! German Army Corps—sixpence! Invasion!"

"By Jove!" I thought. "That's rough on our disarmament feature from Herr Mitmann!"

"Wow!" I thought. "That's tough on our disarmament focus from Mr. Mitmann!"

I very well remember that that precisely was my thought.

I clearly remember that was exactly what I was thinking.


XIV
THE NEWS

He couldn't hear Death's rattle at the door,
He was so caught up in his foolishness.
Turner.

The chance of my position on the edge of the crowd nearest to Marble Arch caused me to be among those who secured a paper, and at the comparatively modest price of sixpence. Two minutes later, I saw a member of the committee of the Demonstration hand over half-a-crown for one of the same limp sheets, all warm and smeary from the press. And in two more minutes the newsboys (there must have been fifty of them) were racing back to Marble Arch, feverishly questing further supplies, and, I suppose, reckoning as they ran their unaccustomed gains.

The chance that I was standing on the edge of the crowd closest to Marble Arch allowed me to be one of those who got a paper for the relatively low price of sixpence. Just two minutes later, I saw a member of the demonstration committee pay half-a-crown for one of those same flimsy sheets, still warm and smeary from the press. In another two minutes, the newsboys (there must have been around fifty of them) were racing back to Marble Arch, eagerly looking for more copies, probably calculating their unexpected earnings as they ran.

The news, mostly in poster type, was only a matter of a few lines of comment, and a few more lines of telegraphic despatch from Brentwood:

The news, mainly in poster format, consisted of just a few lines of commentary, along with a few additional lines of telegraph dispatch from Brentwood:

"Telegraphic communication with Chelmsford has now been cut off, but one of our special representatives, who succeeded in obtaining a powerful six-cylinder motor-car, has reached Brentwood, after a racing tour to the northeastward. We publish his despatch under all possible reserve. He is a journalist of high repute, but we venture to say with confidence[144] that he has evidently been imposed upon by the promoters of the most abominably wicked hoax and fraud ever perpetrated by criminal fanatics upon a trusting public. We have very little doubt that a number of these rabid advocates of that spirit of militarism to which the British public will never for one moment submit, will be cooling their heated brains in prison cells before the night is out."

"Telegraphic communication with Chelmsford is now cut off, but one of our special representatives, who managed to get a powerful six-cylinder car, has reached Brentwood after a fast trip to the northeast. We publish his report with caution. He is a well-respected journalist, but we confidently say[144] that he has clearly been misled by the promoters of the most atrocious hoax and fraud ever committed by criminal fanatics against a trusting public. We’re quite sure that some of these extreme advocates of militarism, which the British public will never accept, will be cooling off in prison cells before the night is over."

And then followed the despatch from Brentwood, which said:

And then came the message from Brentwood, which said:

"Roads, railways, communication of all kinds absolutely blocked. Coastal regions of Suffolk and South Norfolk, and possibly Essex, are occupied by German soldiers. A cyclist from near Harwich says the landing was effected last evening, the most elaborate preparations and arrangements having been made beforehand. My car was fired at near Colchester. Chelmsford is now occupied by German cavalry, cyclist and motor corps. Have not heard of any loss of life, but whole country is panic-stricken. Cannot send further news. Telegraph office closed to public, being occupied in official business."

"All roads, railways, and communications are completely blocked. The coastal areas of Suffolk and South Norfolk, and possibly Essex, are taken over by German soldiers. A cyclist from near Harwich reports that the landing happened last night, with extensive preparations made in advance. My car was shot at near Colchester. Chelmsford is now occupied by German cavalry, cyclists, and motor units. I haven't heard of any casualties, but the entire country is in a state of panic. I can't send any more news. The telegraph office is closed to the public, as it is busy with official matters."

That was all. As my eyes rose from the blurred surface of the news-sheet the picture of the crowd absorbed me, like a stage-spectacle. There were from forty to sixty thousand people assembled, of all ages and classes. Among them were perhaps one thousand, perhaps two thousand, copies of the newspaper. Some ten thousand people were craning necks and straining eyes to read those papers. The rest were making short, hoarse, frequently meaningless ejaculations.[145]

That was it. As my gaze lifted from the blurred surface of the newspaper, the image of the crowd captivated me, like a performance on stage. There were between forty and sixty thousand people gathered, from all ages and backgrounds. Among them were maybe one thousand, maybe two thousand copies of the newspaper. About ten thousand people were craning their necks and straining their eyes to read those papers. The rest were making short, hoarse, often meaningless exclamations.[145]

I saw one middle-aged man, who might have been a grocer, and a deacon in his place of worship, fold up his paper after reading it and thrust it, for future reference, in the tail-pocket of his sombre Sunday coat. But his neighbours in the crowd would not have that. A number of outstretched hands suddenly surrounded him. I saw his face pale. "Give us a look!" was all the sense I grasped from a score of exclamations. The grocer's paper was in fragments on the grass ten seconds later, and its destroyers were reaching out in other directions.

I saw a middle-aged man, who looked like he might be a grocer and a deacon at his church, fold up his newspaper after reading it and tuck it into the back pocket of his dark Sunday coat for later. But the people around him in the crowd wouldn’t let that happen. A bunch of hands suddenly reached out toward him. I noticed his face go pale. "Let us see it!" was all I understood from the chorus of shouts. Ten seconds later, the grocer's newspaper lay in pieces on the grass, and the crowd was reaching out for more.

"It's abominable," I heard the grocer muttering to himself; and his hands shook as though he had the palsy.

"It's terrible," I heard the grocer mumbling to himself; and his hands trembled as if he had a shaking disorder.

But in other cases the papers passed whole from hand to hand, and their holders read the news aloud. I think the entire crowd had grasped the gist of it inside of four minutes; and their exclamatory comments were extraordinary, grotesque.

But in other cases, the papers were passed around completely from one person to another, and those holding them read the news out loud. I think the entire crowd understood the main point within four minutes, and their shocked reactions were incredible and bizarre.

"My God!" and "My Gawd!" reached my ears frequently. But they were less representative than were short, sharp bursts of laughter, harsh and staccato, like a dog's bark, and, it may be, half-hysterical. And, piercing these snaps of laughter, one heard the curious, contradictory yapping of such sentences as: "I sye; 'ow about them 'ot sossiges?" "'Taint true, Bill, is it?" "Disgraceful business; perfectly disgraceful!" "Wot price the Kaiser? Not arf!" "Anything to sell the papers, you know!" "What? No. Jolly lot of rot!" "Johnny get yer gun, get yer gun!" "Some one must be punished for this. Might have caused a[146] panic, you know." "True? Good Lord, no! What would our Navy be doing?" "Well, upon my word, I don't know." "Nice business for the fish trade!" "Well, if that's it, I shall take the children down to their Aunt Rebecca's." "Wot price Piccadilly an' Regent Street to-night?" "Come along, my dear; let's get home out of this." "Absolute bosh, my dear boy, from beginning to end—doing business with 'em every day o' my life!" And then a hoarse snatch of song: "'They'll never go for England'—not they! What ho! 'Because England's got the dibs!'"

"Oh my God!" and "Oh my Gawd!" were common sounds I heard. But they represented less than the quick, sharp bursts of laughter that were harsh and staccato, like a dog's bark, maybe even a bit hysterical. And cutting through these laughs was the strange, contradictory chatter that included sentences like: "I say; how about those hot sausages?" "That's not true, is it, Bill?" "What a disgraceful situation; absolutely disgraceful!" "What about the Kaiser? Not at all!" "Anything to sell the papers, you know!" "What? No. Just a bunch of nonsense!" "Johnny, get your gun, get your gun!" "Someone has to be punished for this. It could have caused a[146] panic, you know." "Really? Good Lord, no! What would our Navy be doing?" "Well, I truly don't know." "A nice situation for the fish trade!" "Well, if that's the case, I'm taking the kids to their Aunt Rebecca's." "What about Piccadilly and Regent Street tonight?" "Come on, dear; let's get home away from this." "Complete nonsense, my dear boy, from start to finish—I've been doing business with them every day of my life!" And then a raspy snippet of a song: "'They'll never fight for England'—not a chance! What ho! 'Because England's got the cash!'"

Suddenly then, above and across the thousand-voiced small talk, came the trained notes of the voice of the President of the Local Government Board.

Suddenly, above and across the thousand conversations, the clear voice of the President of the Local Government Board cut through.

"My friends, the whole story is a most transparent fraud. It's a shameful hoax. I tell you the thing is physically and morally impossible. It couldn't have been done in the time; and it is all a lie, anyhow. I beg to propose a hearty vote of thanks to our chairman for——"

"My friends, the entire story is a blatant fraud. It's a disgraceful hoax. I’m telling you, it’s physically and morally impossible. It couldn't have been done in that time; and it’s all a lie, in any case. I’d like to propose a big vote of thanks to our chairman for——"

The crowd had listened attentively enough to the old agitator's comment on the news. They liked his assurances on that point. But they were in no mood for ceremonial. Thousands were already straggling across the grass toward Marble Arch and down to Hyde Park Corner. The speaker's further words were drowned in a confused hubbub of applause, cheers, laughter, shouts of "Are we downhearted?" raucous answers in the negative, and cries of "Never mind the chairman!" and "He's a jolly good fellow!"[147]

The crowd had paid enough attention to the old speaker’s remarks about the news. They appreciated his reassurances on that issue. But they weren’t in the mood for anything formal. Thousands were already making their way across the grass toward Marble Arch and down to Hyde Park Corner. The speaker's additional comments were lost in a chaotic mix of applause, cheers, laughter, shouts of "Are we downhearted?" with loud replies of "No!" and calls of "Forget the chairman!" and "He's a really great guy!"[147]

In ten minutes that part of the park seemed to have been stripped naked, and the few vehicles, tables, and little platforms which had formed the centre of the Demonstration appeared, like the limbs of a tree suddenly bereft of foliage, looking curiously small and bare. I am told that restaurants and refreshment places did an enormous trade during the next few hours. When the public-houses opened they were besieged, and, in many cases, closed again after a few hours, sold out.

In ten minutes, that part of the park looked completely stripped bare, and the few vehicles, tables, and small platforms that had made up the center of the Demonstration appeared, like the branches of a tree suddenly losing its leaves, looking oddly small and exposed. I heard that restaurants and snack shops did a huge business in the next few hours. When the bars opened, they were overwhelmed, and in many cases, closed again after a few hours because they ran out of supplies.

For my part, I made at once, and without thinking, for Constance Grey's flat in South Kensington. The crowds in the streets were not only much larger, but in many ways different from the usual run of Sunday crowds. The people wore their Sunday clothes, but they had doffed the Sunday manners and air. There was more of a suggestion of Saturday night in the streets; the suggestion that a tremendous number of people were going to enjoy a "spree" of some kind. A kind of noisy hilarity, combined with a general desire for cigars, drinks, singing, and gaiety, seemed to be ruling the people.

For my part, I headed straight to Constance Grey's apartment in South Kensington without thinking twice. The crowds in the streets were not only much bigger but also quite different from the typical Sunday crowd. People were in their Sunday best, but they had lost the usual Sunday etiquette and vibe. It felt more like Saturday night out there, with the hint that a huge number of people were gearing up for some kind of fun. A lively buzz, mixed with a shared craving for cigars, drinks, singing, and a good time, seemed to take over the crowd.

At the upper end of Sloane Street a German band was blaring out the air of "The Holy City," and people stood about in groups laughing and chatting noisily. The newspaper boys had some competitors now, and the Bank Holiday flavour of the streets was added to by a number of lads and girls who had appeared from nowhere, with all sorts of valueless commodities for sale, such as peacocks' feathers, paper fans, and streamers of coloured paper.

At the top of Sloane Street, a German band was blasting "The Holy City," and people were gathered in groups, laughing and chatting loudly. The newspaper boys had some competition now, as the festive Bank Holiday atmosphere was enhanced by a bunch of boys and girls who seemed to appear out of nowhere, selling all sorts of worthless items like peacock feathers, paper fans, and colorful streamers.

Why these things should have been wanted I cannot[148] say; but their sellers knew their business very well. The demand was remarkably brisk. Indeed, I noticed one of three young men, who walked abreast, purchase quite a bunch of the long feathers, only to drop them beside the curb a few moments later, whence another vendor promptly plucked them, and sold them again. I suppose that by this time the vast majority of the people had no doubt whatever about the news being a monstrous hoax; but there was no blinking the fact that the public had been strongly moved.

Why anyone wanted these things, I can’t say; but the sellers definitely knew what they were doing. The demand was really high. In fact, I saw one of three young men walking together buy a bunch of the long feathers, only to drop them by the curb a few moments later, from where another vendor quickly grabbed them and sold them again. I guess by now, most people were convinced that the news was a huge trick; but there was no denying that the public had been deeply affected.

It was with a distinct sense of relief that I learned from a servant that Miss Grey was at home—had just come in, as a matter of fact. It was as though I had some important business to transact with this girl from South Africa, with her brilliant dark eyes, and alert, thoughtful expression. I felt that it would have been serious if she should have been away, if I had missed her. It was not until I heard her step outside the door of the little drawing-room into which I had been shown, that I suddenly became conscious that I had no business whatever with Constance Grey, and that this call, on Sunday, within forty-eight hours of my dining there, might perhaps be adjudged a piece of questionable taste.

It was with a distinct sense of relief that I learned from a servant that Miss Grey was at home—she had just arrived, in fact. It felt like I had some important reason to meet this girl from South Africa, with her striking dark eyes and engaged, thoughtful expression. I realized it would have been serious if she had been out, if I had missed her. It wasn’t until I heard her step outside the door of the small drawing-room where I had been shown in that I suddenly became aware that I had no real reason to be visiting Constance Grey, and that this visit, on a Sunday and just two days after I’d had dinner there, might be seen as somewhat inappropriate.

A minute later, and, if I had thought again of the matter at all, I should have known that Constance Grey wasted no time over any such petty considerations. She entered to me with a set, grave face, taking my hand mechanically, as though too much preoccupied for such ceremonies.

A minute later, and if I had thought about it again at all, I would have realized that Constance Grey didn’t spend time on any trivial matters. She came to me with a serious, solemn expression, taking my hand automatically, as if she were too absorbed in her thoughts for such formalities.

"What do you think of the news?" she said, without[149] a word of preliminary greeting. I felt more than a little abashed at this; for, truth to tell, I really had given no serious thought to the news. I had observed its reception by the public as a spectator might. But, in the first place, I had been early warned that it was all a hoax; and then, too, like so many of my contemporaries, I was without the citizen feeling altogether, so far as national interests were concerned. I had grown to regard citizenship as exclusively a matter of domestic politics and social progress, municipal affairs, and the like. I never gave any thought to our position as a people and a nation in relation to foreign Powers.

"What do you think of the news?" she said, without[149] any initial greeting. I felt more than a bit embarrassed by this; to be honest, I hadn’t really thought seriously about the news. I had watched how the public reacted like a spectator. First, I had been warned early on that it was all a hoax; plus, like many of my peers, I completely lacked any sense of civic duty regarding national interests. I had come to see citizenship as solely about local politics and social issues, city matters, and similar topics. I never considered our position as a people and a nation in relation to foreign powers.

"Oh, well," I said, "it's an extraordinary business, isn't it? I have just come from the Demonstration in Hyde Park. It was practically squashed by the arrival of the special editions. The people seemed pretty considerably muddled about it, so I suppose those who arranged it all may be said to have scored their point."

"Oh, well," I said, "it's quite a strange situation, isn't it? I just came from the demonstration in Hyde Park. It was almost overshadowed by the arrival of the special editions. People seemed really confused about it, so I guess you could say that those who organized it have made their point."

"So you don't believe it?"

"So you don’t believe that?"

"Well, I believe it is generally admitted to be a gigantic hoax, is it not?"

"Well, I think it’s widely accepted that it’s a huge scam, right?"

"But, my dear Mr. Mordan, how—how wonderful English people are! You, your own self; what do you think about it? But forgive me for heckling. Won't you sit down? Or will you come into the study? Aunt is in there."

"But, my dear Mr. Mordan, how—how wonderful English people are! You, yourself; what do you think about it? But forgive me for nagging. Won't you sit down? Or will you come into the study? Aunt is in there."

We went into the study, a cheerful, bright room, with low wicker chairs, and a big, littered writing-table.[150]

We walked into the study, a bright and cheerful room, with low wicker chairs and a large, messy writing table.[150]

"Mr. Mordan doesn't believe it," said Constance Grey, when I had shaken hands with her aunt.

"Mr. Mordan doesn't believe it," Constance Grey said after I shook hands with her aunt.

"Doesn't he?" said that strong, plain-spoken woman. "Well, I fancy there are a good many more by the same way of thinking, who'll have their eyes opened pretty widely by this time to-morrow."

"Doesn't he?" said that strong, straightforward woman. "Well, I think there are a lot more people who feel the same way, and they'll have their eyes opened pretty wide by this time tomorrow."

"Then you take the whole thing seriously?" I asked them.

"Then you really take the whole thing seriously?" I asked them.

Somehow, my own thoughts had become active in the presence of these women, and were racing over everything that I had seen and heard that day, from the moment of my chat with Wardle, before sunrise, in Holborn.

Somehow, my thoughts had kicked into gear around these women and were racing through everything I had seen and heard that day, starting with my conversation with Wardle before sunrise in Holborn.

"I don't see any other way to take it," said Mrs. Van Homrey, with laconic emphasis. "Do you?" she added.

"I don’t see any other way to take it," Mrs. Van Homrey said, emphasizing her point. "Do you?" she added.

"Well, you see, I did not begin by taking your view. My first word of it was just before dawn this morning, from a newspaper man in Holborn; and, somehow—well, you know, the general idea seems to be that the whole thing is an elaborate joke worked up by the Navy League, or somebody, as a counter-stroke to the Disarmament Demonstration—to teach us a lesson, and all that, you know."

"Well, you see, I didn't start by agreeing with your perspective. My first info about it came just before dawn this morning from a journalist in Holborn; and, somehow—well, you know, the general idea seems to be that the whole thing is an elaborate prank engineered by the Navy League, or someone, as a response to the Disarmament Demonstration—to teach us a lesson, and all that, you know."

I had to remind myself that I was addressing two ladies who were sure to be whole-hearted supporters of the Navy League and all other Imperialist organizations. Constance Grey seemed to me to be appraising me. I fancied those brilliant eyes of hers were looking right into me with grave criticism, and discovering me unworthy. My heart sickened at the thought. I should have been more distressed had not[151] a vague, futile anger crept into my mind. After all, I thought, what right had this girl from South Africa to criticize me? I was a man. I knew England better than she did. I was a journalist of experience. Bah! My twopenny thoughts drooped and fainted as they rose.

I had to remind myself that I was talking to two women who were definitely strong supporters of the Navy League and all other Imperialist organizations. Constance Grey seemed to be judging me. I imagined those bright eyes of hers were looking right through me with serious criticism and finding me lacking. The thought made my heart sink. I would have felt worse if a vague, pointless anger hadn’t crept into my mind. After all, I thought, what right did this girl from South Africa have to criticize me? I was a man. I knew England better than she did. I was an experienced journalist. Ugh! My cheap thoughts faded away as quickly as they came.

"But perhaps you are better informed?" I said, weakly. "Perhaps you have other information?"

"But maybe you know more?" I said weakly. "Maybe you have different information?"

Constance Grey looked straight at me, and as I recall her gaze now, it was almost maternal in its yearning gravity.

Constance Grey looked right at me, and as I think back on her gaze now, it felt almost like a mother's in its deep longing.

"I think it's going to be a lesson all right," she said. "What cuts me to the heart is the fear that it may have come too late."

"I think it's definitely going to be a lesson," she said. "What really hurts me is the fear that it might have come too late."

Never have I heard such gravity in a young woman's voice. Her words overpowered me almost by the weight of prescient meaning she gave them. They reached me as from some solemn sanctuary, a fount of inspiration.

Never have I heard such seriousness in a young woman’s voice. Her words nearly overwhelmed me with the heavy, prophetic meaning she infused into them. They felt like they came from a sacred place, a source of inspiration.

"We haven't any special information," said Mrs. Van Homrey. "We have only read, like every one else, that East Anglia is occupied by German soldiers, landed last night; that the East Anglian Pageant has been made the cloak of most elaborate preparations for weeks past; that the Mediterranean incident last week was a deliberate scheme to draw the Channel Fleet south; and that the whole dreadful business has succeeded so far, like—like perfect machinery; like the thing it is: the outcome of perfect discipline and long, deliberate planning. We have heard no more; but the only hoaxing that I can see is done by the purblind people who have[152] made the public think it a hoax—and that is not conscious hoaxing, of course; they are too bemuddled with their disarmament farce for that."

"We don't have any special information," said Mrs. Van Homrey. "We’ve just read, like everyone else, that German soldiers landed in East Anglia last night; that the East Anglian Pageant has served as a cover for some major preparations happening for weeks; that the Mediterranean incident last week was a planned move to draw the Channel Fleet south; and that this entire terrible situation has been executed flawlessly, like—like a well-oiled machine; like what it is: the result of perfect discipline and careful planning. We haven't heard anything more; but the only deception I can see is from the shortsighted people who have made the public believe it’s a hoax—and that isn’t intentional deception, of course; they’re too confused with their disarmament nonsense for that."

"More tragedy than farce, aunt, I'm afraid," said Constance Grey. And then, turning to me, she said: "We lunched at General Penn Dicksee's to-day; and they have no doubt about the truth of the news. The General has motored down to Aldershot. They will begin some attempt at mobilizing at once, I believe. But it seemed impossible to get into touch with headquarters. All the War Office people are away for the week-end. In fact, they say the Minister's in Ipswich, and can't get away. General Penn Dicksee says they have practically no material to work with for any immediate mobilization purposes. He says that under the present system nothing can be done in less than a week. He thinks the most useful force will be the sailors from the Naval Barracks. But I should suppose they would be wanted for the ships—if we have any ships left fit for sea. The General thinks there may be a hundred thousand German soldiers within twenty or thirty miles of London by to-morrow."

"More tragic than funny, aunt, I'm afraid," said Constance Grey. Then, turning to me, she said, "We had lunch at General Penn Dicksee's today, and they have no doubt about the truth of the news. The General drove down to Aldershot. They’ll start trying to mobilize right away, I believe. But it seems impossible to get in touch with headquarters. All the people at the War Office are away for the weekend. In fact, they say the Minister is in Ipswich and can't get away. General Penn Dicksee says they virtually have no resources to work with for immediate mobilization. He mentions that under the current system, nothing can be accomplished in less than a week. He thinks the most useful force will be the sailors from the Naval Barracks. But I suppose they’ll be needed for the ships—if we have any ships left that are fit for sea. The General thinks there could be a hundred thousand German soldiers within twenty or thirty miles of London by tomorrow."

"Yes," said Mrs. Van Homrey, "it doesn't seem easy to take it any other way than seriously; not if one's on the British side. And, for the matter of that, if I know the Teuton, they are taking it pretty seriously in East Anglia, and—and in Berlin."

"Yes," said Mrs. Van Homrey, "it doesn’t seem easy to view it any other way than seriously; not if you're on the British side. And, for that matter, if I know the German mentality, they’re taking it pretty seriously in East Anglia, and—and in Berlin."

And up till now, I had been thinking of the extra Sunday work for Wardle, and the way they had started selling peacocks' feathers and things, in the streets!

And up until now, I had been thinking about the extra Sunday work for Wardle, and how they had started selling peacock feathers and stuff in the streets!


XV
SUNDAY NIGHT IN LONDON


"Ah," they cry, "Destiny," Extend the moment!
"Time, stand still here!"
The strict Goddess Shakes her head, frowning; Time gives his hourglass Its due reversal; Their time is up.
Matthew Arnold.

I stayed to dinner at the flat in South Kensington, and after dinner, when I spoke of leaving, Constance Grey asked if I would care to accompany her into Blackfriars. She wanted to call at Printing House Square, and ascertain what further news had arrived. The implied intimacy and friendliness of the suggestion gave me a pleasurable thrill; it came as something of a reinstatement for me, and compensated for much. Constance Grey's views of me had in some way become more important to me than anything else. I was even now more concerned about that than about the news.

I hung out for dinner at the flat in South Kensington, and after dinner, when I mentioned leaving, Constance Grey asked if I'd like to join her in Blackfriars. She wanted to stop by Printing House Square to see what new updates had come in. The warmth and friendliness of her suggestion gave me a nice thrill; it felt like a kind of reinstatement for me and made up for a lot. Constance Grey's opinion of me had somehow become more significant than anything else. I was even more worried about that than about the news.

We made the journey by omnibus. I suggested a cab, as in duty bound, but, doubtless with a thought of my finances, my companion insisted upon the[154] cheaper way. We had some trouble to get seats, but found them at last on a motor omnibus bound for Whitechapel. The streets were densely crowded, and the Bank Holiday spirit which I had remarked before was now general, and much more marked.

We took the bus for our trip. I suggested a cab because it was the right thing to do, but thinking about my budget, my friend stuck with the[154] cheaper option. We had some trouble finding seats, but eventually got them on a motor bus heading to Whitechapel. The streets were packed, and the Bank Holiday vibe I noticed earlier was now widespread and even more intense.

"It reminds me exactly of 'Mafeking Night,'" I said, referring to that evening of the South African war during which London waxed drunk upon the news of the relief of Mafeking.

"It reminds me exactly of 'Mafeking Night,'" I said, referring to that evening of the South African war when London celebrated wildly upon hearing the news of the relief of Mafeking.

"Was it as bad even then?" said my companion. And her question showed me, what I might otherwise have overlooked, that a good deal of water had passed under the bridges since South African war days. We had been a little ashamed of our innocent rowdiness over the Mafeking relief. We had become vastly more inconsistent and less sober since then. I think the "Middle Class Music Halls" had taken their share in the progress, by breaking down much of the staid reserve and self-restraint of the respectable middle class. But, of course, one sees now that the rapid growth among us of selfish irresponsibility and repudiation of national obligations was the root cause of that change in public behaviour which I saw clearly enough, once it had been suggested to me by Constance Grey's question.

"Was it really that bad back then?" my friend asked. Her question made me realize something I might have missed: a lot had changed since the days of the South African War. We had felt a bit embarrassed about our naive excitement over the Mafeking relief. We had become much more inconsistent and less serious since then. I believe the "Middle Class Music Halls" played a role in this change, breaking down much of the traditional reserve and self-control of the respectable middle class. But now, it's clear that the rapid rise of selfish irresponsibility and rejection of national responsibilities was the fundamental reason behind the shift in public behavior that I recognized once Constance Grey raised her question.

I saw that, among the tens of thousands of noisy promenaders of both sexes who filled the streets, and impeded traffic at all crossings, the class which had always been rowdily inclined was now far more rowdy, and that its ranks were reinforced, doubled in strength, by recruits from a class which, a few years before, had been proverbially noted for its decorous[155] and decent reserve. And this was Sunday Night. I learned afterwards that the clergy had preached to practically empty churches. A man we met in The Times office told us of this, and my companion's comment was:

I noticed that, among the tens of thousands of loud people of all genders crowding the streets and blocking traffic at every intersection, the group that had always been prone to rowdiness was now even more unruly, and its numbers had surged, doubled in strength, by newcomers from a group that, just a few years earlier, had been known for its polite behavior and reserved demeanor. And this was Sunday night. I later found out that the churches had been almost empty during services. A guy we ran into at The Times office shared this with us, and my friend’s response was:

"Yes, even their religion has less meaning for them than their pleasure; and, with religion a dead letter, the spirit that won Trafalgar and armed the Thames against Napoleon, must be dead and buried."

"Yes, even their religion matters less to them than their enjoyment; and, with religion just empty words, the spirit that achieved victory at Trafalgar and defended the Thames against Napoleon must be completely gone."

The news we received at The Times office was extraordinary. It seemed there was no longer room for the smallest doubt that a large portion of East Anglia was actually occupied by a German army. Positive details of information could not be obtained.

The news we got at The Times office was incredible. It seemed there was no longer any doubt that a significant part of East Anglia was actually held by a German army. We couldn't get any specific details.

"The way the coastal districts have been hermetically sealed against communication, and the speed and thoroughness with which the occupation has been accomplished, will remain, I believe, the most amazing episode in the history of warfare," said the solemn graybeard, to whom I had been presented by Constance Grey. (If he had known that I was the assistant editor of The Mass, I doubt if this Mr. Poole-Smith would have consented to open his mouth in my presence. But my obscurity and his importance combined to shelter me, and I was treated with confidence as the friend of a respected contributor.)

"The way the coastal areas have been completely sealed off from communication, and the speed and effectiveness with which the occupation has been carried out, will, I believe, be remembered as one of the most incredible events in the history of warfare," said the serious older man I was introduced to by Constance Grey. (If he had known I was the assistant editor of The Mass, I doubt Mr. Poole-Smith would have agreed to speak in front of me. But my anonymity and his status allowed me to be treated with trust as the friend of a respected contributor.)

"Already we know enough to be certain that the enemy has received incalculably valuable assistance from within. I am afraid there will presently be only too much evidence of the blackest kind of treachery from British subjects, members of one or other among the anti-National coteries. But in the meantime,[156] we hear of extraordinary things accomplished by aliens employed in this country, many of them in official capacities. We have learned through the Great Eastern Railway Company, and through one or two shipping houses, of huge consignments of stores, and, I make very little doubt, of munitions of war. The thing must have been in train on this side for many months—possibly for years. Here, for instance, is an extraordinary item, which is hardly likely to be only coincidence: Out of one hundred postmasters within a sixty-mile radius of Harwich, eighty-one have obtained their positions within the last two years, and of those sixty-nine bear names which indicate German nationality or extraction. But that is only one small item. An analysis of the Eastern Railway employees, and of the larger business firms between here and Ipswich, will tell a more startling tale, unless I am greatly mistaken."

"Already we know enough to be certain that the enemy has received incredibly valuable help from within. I’m afraid we’ll soon see plenty of evidence of the worst kind of treachery from British citizens, members of various anti-National groups. But in the meantime,[156] we’re hearing about extraordinary things accomplished by foreigners working in this country, many in official positions. We’ve learned through the Great Eastern Railway Company and a couple of shipping firms about large shipments of supplies, and I have little doubt that they include weapons. This must have been happening on this side for many months—maybe even for years. For example, here’s an astonishing detail that’s unlikely to be mere coincidence: out of one hundred postmasters within a sixty-mile radius of Harwich, eighty-one have gotten their jobs in the past two years, and of those, sixty-nine have names that suggest German nationality or heritage. But that’s just one small detail. An analysis of the employees at the Eastern Railway and the larger businesses between here and Ipswich will reveal an even more shocking story, unless I’m very mistaken."

But to me, I think the part of the news we gathered which seemed most startling was the fact that a tiny special issue of The Times, then being sold in the streets, contained none of the information given to us, but only a cautiously worded warning to the public that the news received from East Anglia had been grossly exaggerated, and that no definite importance should be attached to it, until authoritative information, which would appear in the first ordinary issue of The Times on Monday, had been considered. It was all worded very pompously, and vaguely, in a deprecating tone, which left it open for the reader to conclude that The Times supported the generally accepted hoax theory. And we found that all the[157] daily papers of repute and standing had issued similar bulletins to the public. Asked about this, our grave informant stroked his whiskers, and alluded distantly to "policy decided upon in consultation with representatives of the Crown."

But for me, the most shocking part of the news we gathered was that a small special issue of The Times, which was being sold on the streets, didn't include any of the information we received. Instead, it contained a carefully worded warning to the public stating that the news from East Anglia had been greatly exaggerated and that no real importance should be attached to it until the official information, which would be published in the first regular issue of The Times on Monday, had been taken into account. It was all phrased very grandly and vaguely, in a dismissive tone, leaving the reader to conclude that The Times supported the widely held hoax theory. We also discovered that all the reputable daily papers had issued similar bulletins to the public. When we asked our serious informant about this, he stroked his whiskers and vaguely mentioned "policy decided upon in consultation with representatives of the Crown."

"For one thing, you see, London is extraordinarily full of Germans, though we have already learned that vast numbers of them went to swell the attendance at the East Anglian Pageant, and may now, for all we know, be under arms. Then, too, anything in the nature of a panic on a large scale, and that before the authorities have decided upon any definite plan of action, would be disastrous. Unfortunately our reports from correspondents at the various southern military depôts are all to the effect that mobilization will be a slow business. As you know, the regulars in England have been reduced to an almost negligible minimum, and the mobilization of the 'Haldane Army' involves the slow process of drawing men out of private life into the field. What is worse, it means in many cases Edinburgh men reporting themselves at Aldershot, and south-country men reporting themselves in the north. And then their practical knowledge so far leaves them simply men in the street.

"For one thing, you see, London has a lot of Germans, even though we’ve already learned that many of them attended the East Anglian Pageant and may now, for all we know, be in military service. Plus, any large-scale panic before the authorities have figured out a clear plan would be disastrous. Unfortunately, our reports from correspondents at various southern military bases all say that mobilization will take time. As you know, the regular army in England has been reduced to almost nothing, and mobilizing the 'Haldane Army' requires the slow process of bringing men out of civilian life into the military. To make matters worse, it often means that men from Edinburgh have to report to Aldershot, and men from the south have to report up north. And right now, their practical experience is pretty much just that—they’re ordinary people on the street."

"But the great trouble is that the Government and the official heads of departments have been at loggerheads this long time past, and now are far from arriving at any definite policy of procedure. Of course, the majority of the leaders are out of town. You will understand that every possible precaution must be taken to avoid unduly alarming the public, or provoking[158] panic. We hope to be able to announce something definite in the morning. The sympathy of all the Powers will undoubtedly be with us, for every known tenet of international law has been outraged by this entirely unprovoked invasion."

"But the real issue is that the Government and the heads of departments have been in conflict for a long time, and they still haven't reached any clear plan of action. As you can imagine, most of the leaders are out of town. You should know that we must take every possible precaution to avoid unnecessarily alarming the public or causing[158] panic. We hope to be able to announce something concrete in the morning. The support of all the Powers will definitely be with us, as every known principle of international law has been violated by this completely unprovoked invasion."

"And what do you think will be the practical effect and use of their sympathy, Mr. Poole-Smith?" asked Constance Grey.

"And what do you think will be the real impact and use of their sympathy, Mr. Poole-Smith?" asked Constance Grey.

"Well," said our solemn friend, caressing his whiskers, "as to its practical effect, my dear Miss Grey, why, I am afraid that in such bitter matters as these the practical value of sympathy, or of international law, is—er—cannot very easily be defined."

"Well," said our serious friend, stroking his beard, "when it comes to its practical effect, my dear Miss Grey, I’m afraid that in such harsh situations like this, the practical value of sympathy, or of international law, is—uh—hard to define."

"Quite so. Exactly as I thought. It would not make one pennyworth of difference, Mr. Poole-Smith. The British public is on the eve of learning the meaning of brave old Lord Roberts's teaching: that no amount of diplomacy, of 'cordiality,' of treaties, or of anything else in the répertoire of the disarmament party, can ever counterbalance the uses of the rifle in the hands of disciplined men. Their twentieth-century notions will avail us pitifully little against the advance of the Kaiser's legions. The brotherhood of man and the sacred arts of commerce and peace will have little in the way of reply to machine guns. If only our people could have had even one year of universal military training! But no; they would not even pay for the maintenance of such defence force as they had when it took three years to beat the Boers; and now—didn't some man write a book called 'The Defenceless Isles'? We live in them."

"Exactly. Just as I thought. It wouldn’t make any difference, Mr. Poole-Smith. The British public is about to understand the lesson from brave old Lord Roberts: that no amount of diplomacy, 'cordiality,' treaties, or anything else in the disarmament group's playbook can ever compete with the effectiveness of rifles in the hands of trained soldiers. Their modern ideas won’t help us much against the advance of the Kaiser’s forces. The brotherhood of man and the noble pursuits of trade and peace won’t offer much against machine guns. If only our people could have had even one year of universal military training! But no; they wouldn’t even support the maintenance of the defense forces they had when it took three years to defeat the Boers; and now—didn’t someone write a book called 'The Defenceless Isles'? Here we are living in them."

"But that is not the worst, Miss Grey," said our[159] friend. "These are now not only defenceless, but invaded isles."

"But that isn't the worst, Miss Grey," said our[159] friend. "These places are now not only defenseless, but also invaded."

"Ah! How long before they become surrendered isles, Mr. Poole-Smith?"

"Ah! How long until they become surrendered islands, Mr. Poole-Smith?"

"The answer to that is with a higher Power than any in Printing House Square, Miss Grey. But, let me say this, in strict confidence, please. You wonder, and perhaps are inclined to condemn our—well, our reticence about this news. Do you know my fear? It is that if, in its present mood, suddenly, the British public, and more especially the London public, were allowed to realize clearly both what has happened in East Anglia, and the monumental unfitness of our authorities and defences to meet and cope with such an emergency—that then we should see England torn in sunder by the most terrible revolution of modern times. We should see statesmen hanging from lamp-posts in Whitehall; 'The Destroyers' would be destroyed; the Crown would be in danger, as well as its unworthy servants. And the Kaiser's machine-like army would find it had invaded a ravaged inferno, occupied by an infuriated populace hopelessly divided against itself, and already in the grip of the deadliest kind of strife. That, I think, is a danger to be guarded against, so far as it is possible, at all or any cost."

"The answer to that lies with a higher Power than anyone in Printing House Square, Miss Grey. But, please, let me say this in strict confidence. You’re wondering, and maybe you’re inclined to criticize our—well, our silence about this news. Do you know what I fear? It’s that if, in its current mood, the British public, especially the London public, were suddenly made to fully grasp what has happened in East Anglia and how completely unprepared our authorities and defenses are to handle such an emergency—then we could witness England torn apart by the worst revolution of modern times. We could see politicians hanging from lamp-posts in Whitehall; 'The Destroyers' would face their own destruction; the Crown would be in jeopardy, along with its unworthy servants. And the Kaiser’s methodical army would find that it had invaded a devastated hell, occupied by an enraged populace hopelessly divided against itself, already caught up in the deadliest kind of conflict. That, I believe, is a danger we need to guard against, as much as possible, at any cost."

One could not but be impressed by this rather pompous, but sincere and earnest man's words.

One couldn't help but be impressed by this somewhat arrogant, yet genuine and earnest man's words.

"I see that very clearly, Mr. Poole-Smith," said Constance Grey. "But can the thing be done? Can the public be deluded for more than a few hours?"

"I see that very clearly, Mr. Poole-Smith," Constance Grey said. "But can it actually be done? Can the public be fooled for more than a few hours?"

"Not altogether, my dear young lady, not altogether.[160] But, as we learn early in journalism, life is made up of compromises. We hope to school them to it, and give them the truth gradually, with as little shock as may be."

"Not completely, my dear young lady, not completely.[160] But, as we learn early in journalism, life is full of compromises. We aim to teach them that and present the truth slowly, with as little shock as possible."

Soon after this we left the great office, and, as we passed out into the crowded streets, Constance Grey said to me:

Soon after this, we left the big office, and as we headed out into the busy streets, Constance Grey said to me:

"Thank God, The Times managed to win clear of the syndicate's clutches when it did. There is moral and strength of purpose there now. I think the Press is behaving finely—if only the public can be made to do as well. But, oh, 'The Destroyers'—what a place they have cut out for themselves in history!"

"Thank God, The Times managed to break free from the syndicate's control when it did. There is now moral integrity and determination there. I think the Press is doing a great job—if only the public could step up as well. But, oh, 'The Destroyers'—what a mark they've left on history!"

But for the glorious summer weather, one could have fancied Christmas at hand from the look of Ludgate Hill. From the Circus we took a long look up at Paul's great dome, massive and calm against the evening sky. But between it and us was a seething crowd, promenading at the rate of a mile an hour, and served by two solid lines of vendors of useless trifles and fruit, and so forth.

But with the beautiful summer weather, one could have mistaken it for Christmas just by looking at Ludgate Hill. From the Circus, we took a long glance up at St. Paul’s huge dome, solid and serene against the evening sky. However, between it and us was a throng of people, strolling at about a mile an hour, surrounded by two steady lines of vendors selling pointless trinkets, fruits, and other stuff.

Crossing Ludgate Circus, as we fought our way to the steps of an omnibus, was a band of youths linked arm in arm, and all apparently intoxicated. There must have been forty in a line. As they advanced, cutting all sorts of curious capers, they bawled, in something like unison, the melancholy music-hall refrain:

Crossing Ludgate Circus, as we made our way to the steps of a bus, there was a group of young guys linked arm in arm, all looking pretty drunk. There had to be about forty of them in a line. As they moved forward, doing all sorts of goofy antics, they shouted, almost in harmony, the sad music-hall chorus:

"They'll never go for England, because England's got the dibs."

"They'll never choose England, because England's got the upper hand."

The crowd caught up the jingle as fire licks up grass, and narrow Fleet Street echoed to the monstrous[161] din of their singing. I began to feel anxious about getting Constance safely to her flat. Six out of the fourteen people on the top of our omnibus were noticeably and noisily tipsy.

The crowd picked up the jingle like flames consuming grass, and narrow Fleet Street echoed with the loud noise of their singing. I started to feel worried about getting Constance safely to her apartment. Six out of the fourteen people on top of our bus were clearly and loudly drunk.

"Ah me, Dick, where, where is their British reserve? How I hate that beloved word cosmopolitan!"

"Ah man, Dick, where, where is their British restraint? How I hate that beloved word cosmopolitan!"

She looked at me, and perhaps that reminded her of something.

She glanced at me, and maybe that triggered a memory.

"Forgive my familiarity," she said. "John Crondall spoke of you as Dick Mordan. It's rather a way we have—out there."

"Excuse my familiarity," she said. "John Crondall mentioned you as Dick Mordan. It's just a way we do things—out there."

I do not remember my exact reply, but it earned me the friendly short name from her for the future; and, with England tumbling about our ears, for aught we knew, that, somehow, made me curiously happy. But it was none the less with a sigh of relief that I handed her in at the outer door of the mansions in which their flat was situated. We paused for a moment at the stairs' foot, the first moment of privacy we had known that evening, and the last, I thought, with a recollection of Mrs. Van Homrey waiting in the flat above.

I don't remember my exact response, but it got me a friendly nickname from her for the future; and with England falling apart around us, for whatever reason, that somehow made me oddly happy. Still, I let out a sigh of relief as I helped her through the outer door of the building where their apartment was. We stopped for a moment at the bottom of the stairs, the first moment of privacy we had that evening, and I thought it would be the last, remembering Mrs. Van Homrey waiting in the apartment above.

I know I was deeply moved. My heart seemed full to bursting. Perhaps the great news of that day affected me more than I knew. But yet it seemed I had no words, or very few. I remember I touched the sleeve of her dress with my finger-tips. What I said was:

I know I was really touched. It felt like my heart was going to burst. Maybe the amazing news of that day impacted me more than I realized. Still, it felt like I had no words, or barely any. I remember gently touching the sleeve of her dress with my fingertips. What I said was:

"You know I am—you know I am at your orders, don't you?"

"You know I am—you know I’m here to serve you, right?"

And she smiled, with her beautiful, sensitive mouth,[162] while the light of grave watching never flickered in her eyes.

And she smiled, with her beautiful, sensitive mouth,[162] while the serious look in her eyes never wavered.

"Yes, Dick; and thank you!" she said, as we began to mount the stairs.

"Yes, Dick; and thank you!" she said as we started to go up the stairs.

Yet I was still the assistant editor of The Mass—Clement Blaine's right hand.

Yet I was still the assistant editor of The Mass—Clement Blaine's right hand.


XVI
A PERSONAL REVELATION

The thorns I have gathered are from the tree
I planted; they have shattered me, and I bleed.
I should have realized what kind of fruit would come from that seed.
Byron.

That Sunday night was not one of London's black nights that have been so often described. The police began to be a little sharp with the people after nine or ten o'clock, and by midnight the streets were getting tolerably clear. For the great majority, I believe it had been a day of more or less pleasurable excitement and amusement. For the minority, who were better informed, it was a day and night of curious bewilderment and restless anxiety.

That Sunday night wasn't one of those dark nights in London that people often talk about. The police started to crack down a bit on people after nine or ten o'clock, and by midnight, the streets were becoming reasonably clear. For most, I think it had been a day filled with some fun and excitement. For the few who knew better, it was a day and night of strange confusion and constant worry.

I looked in at several newspaper offices on my way home from South Kensington, but found that subordinate members of the staffs had no information to give, and that their superiors maintained an attitude of strict reticence. As I passed the dark windows of my own office I thought of our "feature" for the coming week: the demand for disarmament, in order that naval and military expenditure might be diverted into labour reform channels; Herr Mitmann's voluble assurances of the friendliness of the German people; of the ability and will of the German Socialists[164] to make German aggression impossible, for the sake of their brother workers in England.

I stopped by several newspaper offices on my way home from South Kensington, but the junior staff had no information to share, and their bosses were tight-lipped. As I passed the dark windows of my own office, I thought about our upcoming "feature": the push for disarmament so that military spending could be redirected toward labor reforms; Herr Mitmann's enthusiastic claims about the friendliness of the German people; the capability and willingness of German Socialists to prevent German aggression for the sake of their fellow workers in England.[164]

I thought of these things, and wished I could spurn under foot my connection with The Mass. Then, sitting at the window of my little bed-sitting-room in Bloomsbury, I looked into my petty finances. If I left Clement Blaine I had enough to subsist upon for six or eight weeks. It was a risky business. Then I pictured myself casually mentioning to Constance Grey that I was no longer connected with The Mass. I fancied that I saw the bright approval in her eyes. Before blowing my light out, I had composed the little speech to Blaine which, in the morning, should set a period to our connection.

I thought about these things and wished I could completely cut ties with The Mass. Then, sitting by the window of my small studio in Bloomsbury, I looked over my limited finances. If I left Clement Blaine, I had enough to get by for six to eight weeks. It was a risky move. Then I imagined casually telling Constance Grey that I was no longer part of The Mass. I could almost see the glowing approval in her eyes. Before I blew out my light, I had crafted a short speech for Blaine that would formally end our connection in the morning.

And then I thought of Beatrice. It was barely twenty-four hours since we had parted beside Battersea Park (though it seemed more like twenty-four days), and recollection showed me Beatrice in her rather rumpled finery, with the bleakness of the gray hour that follows such pleasures as most appealed to her, beginning to steal over her handsome face, sapping its warm colour, thinning and sharpening its ripe, smooth contours. Beatrice would pout when she heard of my leaving her father. The thought showed me her full red lips, and the little even white teeth they so often disclosed.

And then I thought of Beatrice. It had barely been twenty-four hours since we had said goodbye by Battersea Park (though it felt more like twenty-four days), and I remembered Beatrice in her slightly messy fancy clothes, with the dullness of the gray hour that follows such enjoyable moments, starting to creep over her beautiful face, draining its warm color, and making its smooth, rounded features look sharper and thinner. Beatrice would sulk when she found out I was leaving her father. The thought made me visualize her full red lips and the little even white teeth that she often showed.

The curves of Beatrice's mouth were of a kind that have twisted many men's lives awry; and those men have thought straightness well lost for such red lips. Yes, Beatrice was good to look upon. She had a way of throwing her head back, and showing the smooth, round whiteness of her throat when she laughed, that[165] had thrilled me time and again. And how often, and how gaily she laughed.

The curves of Beatrice's mouth had a way of turning many men's lives upside down, and those men believed that being straight-laced was a fair trade for such red lips. Yes, Beatrice was truly beautiful. She had a way of tossing her head back and revealing the smooth, round whiteness of her neck when she laughed, which had thrilled me over and over. And how often and how joyfully she laughed.

In the midst of a picture of Beatrice, laughing at me across a restaurant table with a raised glass in her hand, I had a shadowy vision of Constance Grey beside the foot of the stairs in South Kensington. There was no laughter in her face. I had gathered, when I dined there, that Constance did not care for wine. She had said: "I don't care for anything that makes me feel as though I couldn't work if I wanted to." How Beatrice would have scoffed at that! And then, how Constance would have smiled over Beatrice's ideals—her "fluffy" evenings—in a kind of regretful, wondering way; almost as she had smiled when she first called me "Dick," in asking what had become of our staid English reserve; as she watched the noisy crowd in Fleet Street, singing its silly doggerel about England's security and England's "dibs."

In the midst of a picture of Beatrice, laughing at me across a restaurant table with a raised glass in her hand, I had a vague image of Constance Grey standing at the bottom of the stairs in South Kensington. There was no joy on her face. I had noticed, during my dinner there, that Constance didn't like wine. She had said, "I don’t like anything that makes me feel like I couldn’t work if I wanted to." How Beatrice would have ridiculed that! And then, how Constance would have smiled at Beatrice's ideals—her "fluffy" evenings—in a sort of regretful, curious way; almost as she had smiled when she first called me "Dick," asking what had happened to our reserved English nature; as she watched the noisy crowd in Fleet Street, singing its silly rhymes about England's safety and England's "dibs."

And then, suddenly, my picture-making thoughts swept out across low Essex flats to the only part of East Anglia with which I was familiar, and gave me a vision of burning farmhouses, and terror-smitten country-folk fleeing blindly before a hail of bullets, and the pitiless advance of legions of fair-haired men in long coats of a kind of roan-gray, buttoned across the chest with bright buttons arranged to suggest the inward curve to an imaginary waist-line. The faces of the soldiers were all the same; they all had the face of Herr Mitmann of Stettin. And a hot wave of angry resentment and hatred of these machine-like invaders of a peaceful unprotected[166] countryside pulsed through my veins. Could they dare—here on English soil? My fists clenched under the bed-clothes. If it was true, by heavens, there was work for Englishmen toward!

And then, suddenly, my creative thoughts spread out over the flatlands of Essex to the only part of East Anglia that I knew, and I saw burning farmhouses and terrified country people fleeing blindly from a barrage of bullets, chased by relentless waves of fair-haired men in long coats of a grayish color, buttoned up across the chest with shiny buttons arranged to create the illusion of a curvy waist. The faces of the soldiers all looked the same; they all had the face of Herr Mitmann from Stettin. A hot surge of angry resentment and hatred for these machine-like invaders of a peaceful, unprotected countryside flowed through my veins. Could they really dare to do this—here on English soil? My fists clenched under the bedcovers. If this were true, by heavens, there was work for Englishmen to do!

My blood was hot at the thought. It was perhaps the first swelling of a patriotic emotion I had known; the first hint of any larger citizenship than that which claims and demands, without thought of giving. And, immediately, it was succeeded by a sharp chill, a chill that ushered me into one of the bitterest moments of humiliation that I can remember. The thought accompanying that chill was this:

My blood ran hot at the thought. It was maybe the first surge of patriotic feeling I had ever felt; the first hint of being part of something bigger than just taking and demanding, without considering giving. And then, just as quickly, it was followed by a coldness, a coldness that led me into one of the most humiliating moments I can recall. The thought that came with that chill was this:

"What can you do? What are you fit for? What boy's part, even, can you take, though the roof were being burned over your mother's head? What of Constance, or Beatrice? Could you strike a blow for either? Work for Englishmen, forsooth! Yes, for those of them who have ever learned a man's part in such work. But you—you have never had a gun in your hand. What have you done? You have poured out for your weekly wage so many thousands of words; words meaning—what? Why, they have meant what the roadside beggar means: 'Give! Give! Give!' They have urged men to demand more from the State, and give the State nothing; to rob the State of even its defences, for the sake of adding to their own immediate ease. And you have ridiculed, as a survival of barbarous times, the efforts of such men as the brave old Field Marshal who gave his declining years to the thankless task of urging England to make some effort of preparation to fend off just that very crisis which has now come upon her,[167] and found her absolutely unprepared. That is how you have earned your right to live, a citizen of the freest country in the world, a subject of the greatest Empire the world has ever seen. And when you have had leisure and money to spend, you have devoted it to overeating and drinking, and helping to fill the tills of alien parasites in Soho. That has been your part. And now, now that the fatal crisis has arrived, you, whose qualification is that you can wield the pen of a begging letter-writer, who is also scurrilous and insolent—you lie in bed and clench your useless hands, and prate of work for Englishmen!"

"What can you do? What are you capable of? What role can you take on, even if the roof is literally burning over your mother's head? What about Constance or Beatrice? Could you fight for either of them? Work for the English, really? Yes, for those who have ever learned how to contribute to that effort. But you—you’ve never even held a gun. What have you accomplished? You’ve written countless words for your paycheck; words that mean—what? They’ve meant what a roadside beggar means: 'Give! Give! Give!' They’ve encouraged people to demand more from the State while offering nothing in return; to strip the State of its defenses to enjoy their own immediate comfort. And you’ve mocked, as a relic of barbaric times, the efforts of brave men like the old Field Marshal who spent his later years pleading with England to prepare for the very crisis that has now hit us, leaving her utterly unready. That’s how you’ve earned your right to live as a citizen of the freest country in the world, a subject of the greatest Empire ever known. And when you’ve had time and money to spare, you’ve used it to indulge in excess and to line the pockets of foreign opportunists in Soho. That’s been your contribution. And now, now that the fatal crisis has come, you, whose only skill is to wield the pen like a beggar, who is also rude and contemptuous—you lie in bed and clench your useless hands, talking about work for Englishmen!"

That was the thought that came to me with a sudden chill that night; and I suppose I was one of the earliest among millions doomed to writhe under the impotent shame of such a thought. I shall never forget that night in my Bloomsbury lodging. It was my ordeal of self-revelation. I suppose I slept a little toward morning; but I rose early with a kind of vague longing to escape from the company of the personality my thought had shown me in the night.

That was the thought that hit me with a sudden chill that night; and I guess I was one of the first among millions destined to suffer the helpless shame of such a realization. I’ll never forget that night in my Bloomsbury place. It was my moment of self-discovery. I think I slept a bit toward morning; but I got up early with a sort of vague desire to get away from the person my thoughts had revealed to me during the night.

It is natural that the awakening of an individual should be a more speedy process than the awakening of a people—a nation. I regard my early rising on that Monday morning as the beginning of my first real awakening to life as an Englishman. I had still far to go—I had not even crossed the threshold as yet.

It’s normal for a person’s awakening to happen faster than that of a whole nation. I see my early rise on that Monday morning as the start of my first real awakening to life as an Englishman. I still had a long way to go—I hadn’t even crossed the threshold yet.


XVII
ONE STEP FORWARD

Thy trust, thy honours, these were great; the greater now thy shame, for thou hast proved both unready and unfit, unworthy offspring of a noble sire!—Merrow's Country Tales.

Your trust and your honors were significant; now your shame is even greater, for you have shown yourself to be both unprepared and unworthy, a disappointing descendant of a noble parent!—Merrow's Country Tales.

Five minutes after Clement Blaine reached the office of The Mass that morning, he had lost the services of his assistant editor, and I felt that I had taken one step upward from a veritable quagmire of humiliation.

Five minutes after Clement Blaine got to the office of The Mass that morning, he had lost his assistant editor, and I felt like I had taken a step up from a true mess of embarrassment.

Blaine was almost too excited about the news of the day to pay much heed to my little speech of resignation. The morning paper to which he subscribed—a Radical journal of pronounced tone—had observed far less reticence than most of its contemporaries, and, in its desire to lend sensational interest to its columns, had not minimized in any way the startling character of such intelligence as it had received.

Blaine was so excited about the news of the day that he barely paid attention to my short resignation speech. The morning paper he subscribed to—a bold, progressive publication—was much more direct than most of its peers, and in its effort to make its articles more exciting, it didn’t downplay the shocking nature of the information it had received.

"The bloodthirsty German devils!" said Blaine, the erstwhile apostle of internationalism and the socialistic brotherhood of man. "By God, the Admiralty and the War Office ought to swing for this! Here are we taxed out of house and home to support their wretched armies and navies, and German soldiers marching on London, they say, with never a sign of a hand raised to oppose 'em—damn them![169] Nice time you choose to talk of leaving. By God, Mordan, you may be leaving from against a wall with a bullet through your head, next thing you know. These German devils don't wear kid gloves, I fancy. They're not like our tin-pot army. Army!—we haven't got one—lot of gold-laced puppets!"

"The bloodthirsty German devils!" Blaine shouted, once a supporter of internationalism and the idea of universal brotherhood. "For real, the Admiralty and the War Office should pay for this! Here we are, taxed until we're broke to support their miserable armies and navies, and they say German soldiers are marching on London with no one even trying to stop them—damn them![169] What a time to talk about leaving. Seriously, Mordan, you could be leaving with a bullet in your head before you know it. These German devils don’t take it easy, that’s for sure. They’re nothing like our pathetic excuse for an army. Army!—we don’t even have one—just a bunch of gold-laced puppets!"

That was how Clement Blaine was moved by the news. Last week: "Bloated armaments," "huge battalions of idle men eating the heart out of the nation through its revenues." This week, we had no army, and because of it the Admiralty and the War Office ought to "swing." In Blaine's ravings I had my foretaste of public opinion on the crisis.

That was how Clement Blaine reacted to the news. Last week: "Oversized weapons," "massive groups of idle men draining the nation's resources through its finances." This week, we had no army, and because of that, the Admiralty and the War Office should "be held accountable." In Blaine's rants, I got a glimpse of public opinion on the crisis.

On the previous day I had listened to a prominent Member of Parliament urging that our children should be preserved from the contamination of contact with those who taught the practice of the "hellish art" of shooting.

On the previous day, I had heard a well-known Member of Parliament insisting that we should protect our children from the harmful influence of those who taught the "hellish art" of shooting.

The leading daily papers of this Monday morning admitted the central fact that England had been invaded during Saturday night, and even allowed readers to assume that portions of the eastern counties were then occupied by "foreign" troops. But they used the word "raid" in place of "invasion," and generally qualified it with such a word as "futile." The general tone was that a Power with whom we had believed ourselves to be upon friendly terms had been guilty of rash and provocative action toward us, which it would speedily be made to regret. It was an insult, which would be promptly avenged; full atonement for which would be demanded and obtained at once. It was even suggested that some[170] tragic misunderstanding would be found to lie at the root of the whole business; and in any case, things were to be set right without delay. One journal, the Standard, did go so far as to say that the British public was likely to be forced now into learning at great cost a lesson which had been offered daily as a free gift since the opening of the century, and as steadily repudiated or ignored.

The leading daily papers of this Monday morning acknowledged the central fact that England had been invaded during Saturday night, and even allowed readers to think that parts of the eastern counties were then occupied by "foreign" troops. But they used the term "raid" instead of "invasion," and often qualified it with a word like "futile." The overall tone was that a Power with whom we thought we had friendly relations had committed a reckless and provocative act against us, which they would quickly come to regret. It was an insult that would be avenged promptly; full compensation for it would be demanded and obtained immediately. It was even suggested that some[170] tragic misunderstanding was at the root of the whole situation, and in any case, things were to be corrected without delay. One journal, the Standard, went so far as to say that the British public would likely be forced to learn at great cost a lesson that had been offered daily as a free gift since the beginning of the century, and which had been consistently rejected or ignored.

"Two things it should teach England," said this journal; "never to invite insult and contempt by a repetition of Sunday's Disarmament Demonstration or enunciation of its fallacious and dangerous teaching; and the necessity for paying instant heed to the warnings of the advocates of universal military training for purposes of home defence."

"Two things it should teach England," said this journal; "never to invite insult and contempt by repeating Sunday’s Disarmament Demonstration or promoting its misleading and dangerous ideas; and the need to quickly pay attention to the warnings from supporters of universal military training for home defense."

But at that time the nicknames of the "The Imperialist Banner" and "The Patriotic Pulpit," applied by various writers and others to this great newspaper, were scornful names, applied with opprobrious intent; and London was still full of people whose only comment upon this sufficiently badly-needed warning would be: "Oh, of course, the Standard!"

But back then, the nicknames "The Imperialist Banner" and "The Patriotic Pulpit," given by different writers and others to this major newspaper, were used in a mocking way, meant to belittle it; and London was still full of people whose only reaction to this much-needed warning would be: "Oh, of course, the Standard!"

But the policy of reticence, though I have no doubt that it did save London from some terrible scenes of panic, was not to be tenable for many hours. Within half an hour of noon special editions of a halfpenny morning paper, and an evening paper belonging to the same proprietors, were issued simultaneously with a full, sensational, and quite unreserved statement of all the news obtainable from East Anglia. A number of motor-cyclists had been employed in the quest of[171] intelligence, and one item of the news they had to tell was that Colchester had offered resistance to the invaders, and as a result had been shelled and burned to the ground. A number of volunteers and other civilians had been found bearing arms, and had been tried by drum-head court martial and shot within the hour, by order of the Commander-in-Chief of the German forces.

But the policy of keeping quiet, although I’m sure it saved London from some awful scenes of panic, wasn’t going to last for long. Within half an hour of noon, special editions of a cheap morning paper and an evening paper, both owned by the same company, were released simultaneously with a full, sensational, and completely open statement of all the news available from East Anglia. A number of motorcyclists had been sent out to gather information, and one piece of news they brought back was that Colchester had resisted the invaders, and as a result had been shelled and burned to the ground. Several volunteers and other civilians were found with weapons, and they were tried by a quick court martial and executed within the hour, under orders from the Commander-in-Chief of the German forces.

Another sensational item was a copy of a proclamation issued by the German Commander-in-Chief. This proclamation was dated from Ipswich, and I think it struck more terror into the people than any other single item of intelligence published during that eventful day. It was headed with the Imperial German Arms, and announced the establishment of German military jurisdiction in England. It announced that the penalty of immediate death would be inflicted without any exception upon any British subject not wearing and being entitled to wear British military uniform who should be found:

Another shocking piece of news was a copy of a proclamation issued by the German Commander-in-Chief. This proclamation was dated from Ipswich, and I believe it instilled more fear in the people than any other single piece of information released during that significant day. It was titled with the Imperial German Arms and declared the establishment of German military jurisdiction in England. It stated that anyone who was a British subject, not wearing and not entitled to wear British military uniform, would face the immediate penalty of death without exception if found:

1. Taking arms against the invaders.

1. Fighting back against the invaders.

2. Misleading German troops.

Misleading German soldiers.

3. Injuring in any manner whatever any German subject.

3. Causing injury to any German citizen in any way.

4. Injuring any road, rail, or waterway, or means of communication.

4. Damaging any road, rail, or waterway, or any form of communication.

5. Offering resistance of any kind whatsoever to the advance and occupation of the German Army.

5. Resisting in any form the advance and occupation of the German Army.

Then followed peremptory details of instructions as to the supplies which every householder must furnish for the German soldiers quartered in his neighbourhood, and an announcement as to the supreme[172] and inviolable authority of the German officer in command of any given place.

Then came strict instructions about the supplies that every homeowner needed to provide for the German soldiers stationed in their area, along with an announcement about the ultimate[172] and absolute authority of the German officer in charge of any specific location.

Nothing else yet published brought home to the public the realization of what had happened as did this coldly pompous and, in the circumstances, very brutal proclamation. And no item in it so bit into the hearts of the bewildered Londoners who read it as did the clear incisive statement to the effect that a British subject who wore no military uniform would be shot like a dog if he raised a hand in the defence of his country or his home. He must receive the invader with open arms, and provide him food, lodging, and assistance of every kind, or be led out and shot. There were hundreds of thousands of men in London that day who would have given very much for the right to wear a uniform which they had learned almost to despise of late years; a uniform many of them had wished to abolish altogether, as the badge of a primitive and barbarous trade, a "hellish art."

Nothing else published at the time conveyed to the public the reality of what had happened as effectively as this coldly arrogant and, under the circumstances, very harsh proclamation. And nothing in it struck the hearts of the bewildered Londoners who read it more than the clear and direct statement that a British citizen who wore no military uniform would be shot like a dog if he tried to defend his country or his home. He was expected to welcome the invader with open arms and provide him with food, shelter, and all kinds of assistance, or face execution. There were hundreds of thousands of men in London that day who would have given a lot for the chance to wear a uniform they had come to almost loathe over the years; a uniform many of them had wanted to completely eliminate, seeing it as a symbol of a primitive and barbaric profession, a "hellish art."

We had talked glibly enough of war, of its impossibility in England, and of the childish savagery of the appeal to arms; just as, a few years earlier, before the naval reductions, we had talked of England's inviolability, secured her by her unquestioned mastery of the sea. We had written and spoken hundreds of thousands of fine words upon these subjects; and, within the last forty-eight hours, we had demonstrated with great energy the needlessness of armed forces for England. For and against, about it and about, we had woven a mazy network of windy platitudes and catch-phrases, all devised to hide the manifest[173] and manly duties of citizenship; all intended to justify the individual's exclusive concentration upon his own personal pleasures and aggrandizement, without waste of time or energy upon any claims of the commonwealth.

We had talked easily about war, about how it couldn't happen in England, and about the childish brutality of resorting to violence; just like, a few years earlier, before the cuts in naval spending, we had talked about England's safety, secured by its undeniable dominance of the sea. We had written and spoken countless well-crafted words on these topics; and in the last forty-eight hours, we had vigorously shown that armed forces were unnecessary for England. For and against, we had spun a complicated web of empty ideas and slogans, all created to disguise the obvious and responsible duties of citizenship; all meant to justify focusing solely on our own personal pleasures and benefits, without wasting time or effort on the needs of the community.

And now, in a few score of short, sharp words, in a single brief document, peremptorily addressed to the fifty million people of these islands, a German soldier had brought an end to all our vapourings, all our smug, self-interested theories, and shattered the monstrous fabric of our complaisance, as it were, with a rattle of his sword-hilt. Never before in history had a people's vanity been so shaken by a word.

And now, in just a few dozen concise words, in one brief document, a German soldier had abruptly put an end to all our empty talk, all our self-satisfied theories, and shattered the huge facade of our complacency, so to speak, with a clank of his sword-hilt. Never before in history had a people's pride been so shaken by a single word.

In the early afternoon an unavoidable errand took me to a northeastern suburb. I made my return to town as one among an army of refugees. The people had begun flocking into London from as far north and east as Brentwood. The Great Eastern Railway was disorganized. The northern highways leading into London were occupied by unbroken lines of people journeying into the city for protection—afoot, in motor-cars, on cycles, and in every kind of horse-drawn vehicle, and carrying with them the strangest assortment of personal belongings.

In the early afternoon, I had to run an unavoidable errand in a northeastern suburb. As I came back to the city, I felt like one of many refugees. People were pouring into London from as far north and east as Brentwood. The Great Eastern Railway was a mess. The northern highways leading into London were filled with endless lines of people heading into the city for safety—on foot, in cars, on bicycles, and in all sorts of horse-drawn vehicles, carrying the most bizarre assortment of personal belongings.

At the earliest possible hour I made my way toward South Kensington. I told myself there might be something I could do for Constance Grey. Beyond that there was the fact that I craved another sight of her, and I longed to hear her comment when she knew I had finished with The Mass.

At the earliest opportunity, I headed to South Kensington. I thought there might be something I could do for Constance Grey. Besides that, I really wanted to see her again, and I was eager to hear her thoughts once she knew I had finished with The Mass.

A porter on the Underground Railway told me that the Southwestern and Great Western termini were[174] blocked by feverish crowds of well-to-do people, struggling, with their children, for places in trains bound south and west. Huge motor-cars of the more luxurious type whizzed past one in the street continuously, their canopies piled high with bags, their bodies full of women and children, their chauffeurs driving hard toward the southern and western highways.

A porter on the Underground Railway told me that the Southwestern and Great Western terminals were[174] packed with anxious crowds of affluent people, struggling with their kids for spots on trains heading south and west. Large luxury cars zoomed by in the street nonstop, their roofs stacked high with bags, their interiors filled with women and children, their drivers racing toward the southern and western highways.

Outside South Kensington station I had my first sight of a Royal Proclamation upon the subject of the invasion. Evidently the Government realized that, prepared or unprepared, the state of affairs could no longer be hidden from the public. The King was at Buckingham Palace that day I knew, and it seemed to me that I read rather his Majesty's own sentiments than those of his Cabinet in the Proclamation. I gathered that the general public also formed this impression.

Outside South Kensington station, I saw my first Royal Proclamation regarding the invasion. Clearly, the Government understood that, whether ready or not, they could no longer keep the situation from the public. I knew the King was at Buckingham Palace that day, and it felt like I was reading his own thoughts more than those of his Cabinet in the Proclamation. I sensed that the general public felt the same way.

There is no need for me to reproduce a document which forms part of our history. The King's famous reference to the Government—"The Destroyers"—"Though admittedly unprepared for such a blow, my Government is taking prompt steps for coping in a decisive manner," etc.; and again, the equally famous reference to the German Emperor, in the sentence beginning: "This extraordinary attack by the armed forces of my Royal and Imperial nephew." These features of a nobly dignified and restrained Address seemed to me to be a really direct communication from their Sovereign to the English people. Whatever might be said of the position of "The Destroyers" in Whitehall, it became evident, even at this early stage, that the Throne was in no danger—that[175] the sanctity pertaining to the person of the Monarch who, as it were in despite of his Government, had done more for the true cause of peace than any other in Europe, remained inviolate in the hearts of the people.

There’s no need for me to reproduce a document that’s a part of our history. The King’s famous mention of the Government—“The Destroyers”—“Although we were clearly unprepared for such a blow, my Government is taking quick steps to respond decisively,” and again, the similarly famous mention of the German Emperor, starting with: “This extraordinary attack by the armed forces of my Royal and Imperial nephew.” These elements of a nobly dignified and restrained address felt to me like a really direct message from their Sovereign to the English people. Whatever might be said about the role of “The Destroyers” in Whitehall, it became clear, even at this early stage, that the Throne was in no danger—that[175] the sanctity associated with the person of the Monarch, who, in spite of his Government, had done more for the true cause of peace than anyone else in Europe, remained secure in the hearts of the people.

For the rest, the Proclamation was a brief, simple statement of the facts, with an equally simple but very heart-stirring appeal to every subject of the Crown to concentrate his whole energies, under proper guidance, upon the task of repelling "this dastardly and entirely unprovoked attack upon our beloved country."

For everyone else, the Proclamation was a short, straightforward declaration of the facts, along with a clear but deeply moving appeal to every subject of the Crown to focus all their efforts, under appropriate guidance, on the task of pushing back against "this cowardly and completely unprovoked attack on our cherished country."

I heard many deeply significant and interesting comments from the circle of men and women who were reading this copy of the Proclamation. The remarks of two men I repeat here because in both cases they were typical and representative. The first remark was from a man dressed as a navvy, with a short clay pipe in his mouth. He said:

I heard a lot of really meaningful and interesting comments from the group of men and women reading this copy of the Proclamation. I’ll repeat the remarks of two men because they were both typical and representative. The first comment came from a guy dressed like a laborer, with a short clay pipe in his mouth. He said:

"Oh, yus; the King's all right; Gawd bless un! No one 'ld mind fightin' for 'im. It's 'is blighted Gov'nment wot's all bloomin' wrong—blast 'em!"

"Oh, yes; the King's fine; God bless him! No one would mind fighting for him. It's his messed-up government that's all wrong—curse them!"

The reply came from a young man evidently of sedentary occupation—a shop-assistant or clerk:

The response came from a young man clearly in a desk job—a shop assistant or clerk:

"You're all right, too, old sport; but don't you forget the other feller's proclamation. If you 'aven't got no uniform, your number's up for lead pills, an' don't you forget it. A fair fight an' no favour's all right; but I'm not on in this blooming execution act, thank you. Edward R. I. will have to pass me, I can see."

"You're okay too, my friend; but don't forget about the other guy's warning. If you don’t have a uniform, you’re in for it, and don’t forget that. A fair fight without favoritism is fine; but I’m not participating in this ridiculous execution, thanks. I can see that Edward R. I. will have to let me go."

"Well, 'e won't lose much, matey, when all's said.[176] But you're English, anyway; that seems a pity. Why don't yer run 'ome ter yer ma, eh?"

"Well, he won't lose much, buddy, when it’s all said and done.[176] But you're English, anyway; that seems unfortunate. Why don't you go home to your mom, huh?"

"Go it, old sport. You're a blue-blooded Tory; an Imperialist, aren't you?"

"Go for it, old sport. You're a privileged Tory; an Imperialist, right?"

"Not me, boy; I'm only an able-bodied man."

"Not me, man; I'm just a healthy guy."

"What ho! Got a flag in your pocket, have you? You watch the Germans don't catch you fer sausage meat."

"What’s up? Got a flag in your pocket, do you? Make sure the Germans don’t catch you for sausage meat."

And then I passed on, heading for Constance Grey's flat. I reflected that I had done my share toward forming the opinions, the mental attitude of that young clerk or shop-assistant. The type was familiar enough. But I had had no part nor lot in the preservation of that navvy's simple patriotism. Rather, by a good deal, had the tendency of all I said and wrote been toward weakening the sturdy growth, and causing it to be deprecated as a thing archaic, an obstacle in the way of progress.

And then I moved on, heading to Constance Grey's apartment. I thought about how I had influenced the opinions and mindset of that young clerk or shop assistant. The type was familiar enough. But I hadn’t contributed at all to maintaining that laborer’s straightforward patriotism. In fact, much of what I said and wrote had leaned towards undermining that strong sense of loyalty, making it seem outdated and a barrier to progress.

Progress! The expounding of Herr Mitmann of Stettin! That Monday was a minor day of judgment for others beside myself.

Progress! Herr Mitmann from Stettin had a lot to say! That Monday was a small day of reckoning for more people than just me.


XVIII
THE DEAR LOAF

A third of the people, then, in the event of war, would immediately be reduced to starvation: and the rest of the thirty-eight million would speedily be forced thither.—L. Cope Cornford's The Defenceless Islands (London, 1906).

A third of the people would quickly face starvation in the event of a war, and the remaining thirty-eight million would soon be in the same situation.—L. Cope Cornford’s The Defenceless Islands (London, 1906).

I saw Constance Grey only for a few minutes during that day. She had passed the stage of shocked sorrow and sad fear in which I had found her on Sunday, and was exceedingly busy in organizing a corps of assistant nurses, women who had had some training, and were able to provide a practical outfit of nursing requisites. She had the countenance of the Army Medical authorities, but her nursing corps was to consist exclusively of volunteers.

I saw Constance Grey only for a few minutes that day. She had moved past the stunned sadness and anxious fear I had seen in her on Sunday and was now extremely busy organizing a team of assistant nurses—women who had received some training and could put together a practical set of nursing supplies. She had the support of the Army Medical authorities, but her nursing team was meant to consist entirely of volunteers.

The organizing ability this girl displayed was extraordinary. She spared five minutes for conversation, and warmed my heart with her appreciation of my severance of The Mass connection. And then, before I knew what had happened, she had me impressed, willingly enough, in her service, and I was off upon an errand connected with the volunteer nursing corps. News had arrived of some wounded refugees in Romford, unable to proceed on their way into London; and a couple of motor-cars, with nurses and medical comforts, were despatched at once.[178]

The organizing skills this girl showed were amazing. She took five minutes to chat and really touched my heart with her gratitude for my breaking off the connection with The Mass. And then, before I even realized it, she had me on board, happily enough, working for her, and I was off on a mission related to the volunteer nursing corps. We got word about some wounded refugees in Romford who couldn’t make it to London, so a couple of cars, loaded with nurses and medical supplies, were sent out immediately.[178]

Detailed news of the sacking of Colchester showed this to have been a most extraordinarily brutal affair for the work of a civilized army. The British regular troops at Colchester represented the whole of our forces of the northeastern division, and included three batteries of artillery. The regiments of this division had been reduced to three, and for eighteen months or more these had been mere skeletons of regiments, the bulk of the men being utilized to fill other gaps caused by the consistently followed policy of reduction which had characterized "The Destroyers'" régime.

Detailed news of the attack on Colchester revealed that it was an incredibly brutal event for what should have been a civilized army. The British regular troops in Colchester represented all of our forces from the northeastern division and included three artillery batteries. The regiments in this division had been cut down to just three, and for over eighteen months, they had mostly been just remnants of what they once were, with most of the men being used to fill shortages created by the ongoing policy of downsizing that marked "The Destroyers'" administration.

A German spy who had been captured in Romford and brought to London, said that the Commander-in-Chief of the German forces in England had publicly announced to his men that the instructions received from their Imperial master were that the pride of the British people must be struck down to the dust; that the first blows must be crushing; that the British people were to be smitten with terror from which recovery should be impossible.

A German spy who had been captured in Romford and taken to London said that the Commander-in-Chief of the German forces in England had publicly announced to his men that the orders received from their Emperor were that the pride of the British people must be brought low; that the first blows must be devastating; and that the British people were to be filled with terror from which they couldn't recover.

Be this as it may, the sacking of Colchester was a terrible business. A number of citizens had joined the shockingly small body of regulars in a gallant attempt at defence. The attempt was quite hopeless; the German superiority in numbers, discipline, metal, and material being quite overwhelming. But the German commander was greatly angered by the resistance offered, and, as soon as he ascertained that civilians had taken part in this, the town was first shelled and then stormed. It was surrounded by a cordon of cavalry, and—no prisoners were taken.[179]

Be that as it may, the sacking of Colchester was a terrible event. Several citizens had joined the alarmingly small group of regular soldiers in a brave attempt to defend the town. The effort was completely futile; the German superiority in numbers, discipline, weaponry, and resources was just too overwhelming. However, the German commander was furious about the resistance they faced, and as soon as he realized that civilians were involved, the town was first shelled and then attacked. It was encircled by a line of cavalry, and—no prisoners were taken.[179]

The town was burned to the ground, though many valuable stores were first removed from it; and those of the inhabitants who had not already fled were literally mown down in their native streets, without parley or quarter—men, women, and children being alike regarded as offenders against the edict forbidding any civilian British subject, upon pain of death, to offer any form of resistance to German troops. I myself spoke to a man in Knightsbridge that evening who had definite news that his nineteen-year-old daughter, a governess in the house of a Colchester doctor, was among those shot down in the streets of the town while endeavouring to make her escape with two children. The handful of British regulars had been shot or cut to pieces, and the barracks and stores taken over by the Germans.

The town was completely destroyed by fire, but many valuable items were removed first; those residents who hadn’t already escaped were brutally killed in their own streets, without any negotiation or mercy—men, women, and children were all considered offenders against the order that prohibited any civilian British subject from resisting German troops under the threat of death. I spoke to a man in Knightsbridge that evening who had confirmed information that his nineteen-year-old daughter, a governess for a doctor in Colchester, was among those killed in the streets while trying to escape with two children. The few British soldiers had been shot or mutilated, and the barracks and supplies were seized by the Germans.

As I left Constance Grey's flat that evening I passed a small baker's shop, before which an angry crowd was engaged in terrifying a small boy in a white apron, who was nervously endeavouring to put up the window shutters. I asked what the trouble was, and was told the baker had refused to sell his half-quartern loaves under sevenpence, or his quartern loaves under a shilling.

As I left Constance Grey's apartment that evening, I walked by a small bakery, where an angry crowd was scaring a young boy in a white apron who was nervously trying to put up the window shutters. I asked what was going on, and they told me the baker had refused to sell his half-quartern loaves for less than seven pence, or his quartern loaves for less than a shilling.

"It's agin the law, so it is," shouted an angry woman. "I'm a policeman's wife, an' I know what I'm talking about. I'll have the law of the nasty mean hound, so I will, with his shillin' for a fivepenny loaf, indeed!"

"It's against the law, it is," shouted an angry woman. "I'm a policeman's wife, and I know what I'm talking about. I'll make sure the law gets that nasty mean dog, I will, with his shilling for a fivepenny loaf, indeed!"

Long before this time, and while Britain still held on to a good proportion of her foreign trade, it had been estimated by statisticians that in the United[180] Kingdom some ten to twelve million persons lived always upon the verge of hunger. But since then the manufacturers of protected countries, notably Germany and the United States, had, as was inevitable in the face of our childish clinging to what we miscalled "free" trade, crowded the British manufacturer out of practically every market in the world, except those of Canada. Those also must of necessity have been lost, but for the forbearing and enduring loyalty of the Canadian people, who, in spite of persistent rebuffs, continued to extend and to increase their fiscal preference for imports from the Mother-country.

Long before this time, when Britain still had a significant share of its foreign trade, statisticians estimated that around ten to twelve million people in the United[180] Kingdom were always on the brink of hunger. Since then, manufacturers in protected countries, especially Germany and the United States, inevitably pushed British manufacturers out of almost every market in the world, except for Canada. Those markets would have been lost too, if it weren't for the patience and steadfast loyalty of the Canadian people, who, despite facing constant setbacks, continued to prioritize and increase their preference for imports from the Mother country.

But, immense as Canada's growth was even then, no one country could keep the manufacturers of Britain busy; and I believe I am right in saying that at this time the number of those who lived always on the verge of hunger had increased to at least fifteen millions. Cases innumerable there were in which manufacturers themselves had gone to swell the ranks of the unemployed and insufficiently employed; the monstrous legion of those who lived always close to the terrifying spectre of hunger.

But, as huge as Canada's growth was back then, no single country could keep Britain's manufacturers busy; and I think I'm correct in saying that at this time, the number of people who were always on the brink of hunger had risen to at least fifteen million. There were countless instances where manufacturers themselves had joined the ranks of the unemployed and underemployed; the massive group of people living constantly near the frightening reality of hunger.

If the spirit of Richard Cobden walked the earth at that time, even as his obsessions assuredly still cumbered it, it must have found food for bitter reflection in the hundreds of empty factories, grass-grown courtyards, and broken-windowed warehouses, which a single day's walk would show one in the north of England.

If Richard Cobden's spirit was on Earth during that time, even with his obsessions still weighing it down, it likely would have found plenty to reflect on bitterly in the hundreds of empty factories, overgrown courtyards, and broken-windowed warehouses that a single day’s walk would reveal in northern England.

You may be sure I thought of those things as I walked away from that baker's shop in South Kensington.[181] A journalist, even though he be only the assistant of a man like Blaine, is apt to see the conditions of life in his country fairly plainly, because he has a wider vision of them than most men. Into Fleet Street, each day brings an endless stream of "news items," not only from all parts of the world, but from every town and city in the kingdom. And your journalist, though he may have scant leisure for its digestion, absorbs the whole of this mass of intelligence each day in the process of conveying one-tenth part of it, in tabloid form, to the public.

You can be sure I thought about those things as I walked away from that bakery in South Kensington.[181] A journalist, even if he’s just the assistant to someone like Blaine, tends to see the realities of life in his country quite clearly because he has a broader perspective than most people. Every day, Fleet Street receives an endless flow of news reports, not just from all over the world, but from every town and city in the country. And your journalist, although he has little time to fully absorb it all, takes in this entire mass of information every day while managing to convey just a tiny fraction of it, in condensed form, to the public.

If one assumes for the moment that only twelve million people in Great Britain were living on hunger's extreme edge at that time, the picture I had of the sullen, angry crowd outside the baker's shop remains a sufficiently sinister one. As a matter of fact, I believe that particular baker was a shade premature, or a penny or two excessive, in his advance of prices. But I know that by nightfall you could not have purchased a quartern loaf for elevenpence halfpenny within ten miles of Charing Cross. The Bakers' Society had issued its mandates broadcast. Shop-windows were stoned that night in south and east London; but twenty-four hours later the price of the quartern loaf was 1s. 3d., and a man offering 1s. 2d. would go empty away.

If we assume for a moment that only twelve million people in Great Britain were living on the edge of hunger at that time, the image I had of the sullen, angry crowd outside the bakery still seems pretty grim. In fact, I think that particular baker was a bit too quick or a penny or two pricey in raising his prices. But by nightfall, you couldn’t have bought a quartern loaf for eleven and a half pence within ten miles of Charing Cross. The Bakers' Society had sent out their orders all over the place. Shop windows were smashed that night in south and east London; but twenty-four hours later, the price of the quartern loaf was 1s. 3d., and a man offering 1s. 2d. would go home empty-handed.

And with the same loaf selling at one-third the price, twelve million persons at least had lived always on the verge of hunger. I mention the staple food only, but precisely the same conditions applied to all other food-stuffs with the exception of dairy produce, the price of which was quadrupled by Tuesday afternoon,[182] and fish, the price of which put it at once beyond the reach of all save the rich, and all delicacies, the prices of which became prohibitive. Twelve million persons had lived on the verge of hunger, before, under normal conditions, and when the country's trade had been far larger and more prosperous than of late. Now, with the necessities of life standing at fully three times normal prices, a large number of trades employing many thousands of work-people were suddenly shut down upon, and rendered completely inoperative.

And with the same loaf selling for one-third the price, at least twelve million people had always lived on the edge of hunger. I’m only mentioning the staple food, but the same situation applied to all other food items, except for dairy products, which had their prices quadrupled by Tuesday afternoon, [182] and fish, which became affordable only for the wealthy, as well as all luxuries, whose prices became unaffordable. Twelve million people were living on the brink of hunger before, under normal circumstances, when the country’s trade was much larger and more prosperous than it has been lately. Now, with the basics of life priced at fully three times the normal rates, many businesses employing thousands of workers were suddenly shut down and rendered completely inactive.

It must be borne in mind that we had been warned again and again that matters would be precisely thus and not otherwise in the event of war, and we had paid no heed whatever to the telling.

It’s important to remember that we had been warned time and time again that things would be just like this and nothing different in the event of war, and we didn’t pay any attention to the warning.

Historians have explained for us that the primary reason of the very sudden rise to famine rates of the prices of provisions was the persistent rumour that the effective bulk of the Channel Fleet had been captured or destroyed on its way northward from Spanish waters. German strategy had drawn the Fleet southward, in the first place, by means of an international "incident" in the Mediterranean, which was clearly the bait of what rumour called a death-trap. Once trapped, it was said, German seamanship and surprise tactics had done the rest.

Historians have told us that the main reason for the sudden spike in famine rates and food prices was the ongoing rumor that most of the Channel Fleet had been captured or destroyed while heading north from Spanish waters. German strategy had drawn the Fleet south initially through an international "incident" in the Mediterranean, which was obviously a trap, as rumor suggested. Once trapped, it was said that German seamanship and surprise tactics took care of the rest.

The crews of the Channel Fleet ships (considerably below full strength) had been rushed out of shore barracks, in which discipline had fallen to a terribly low ebb, to their unfamiliar shipboard stations, at the time of the Mediterranean scare. Beset by the flower of the German Navy, in ships manned by crews who[183] lived afloat, it was asserted that the Channel Fleet had been annihilated, and that the entire force of the German Navy was concentrated upon the task of patrolling English waters.

The crews of the Channel Fleet ships, which were significantly below full strength, had been quickly taken from shore barracks where discipline had seriously declined, to their unfamiliar positions on the ships during the Mediterranean scare. They were confronted by the best of the German Navy, on ships crewed by sailors who lived at sea. It was claimed that the Channel Fleet had been destroyed and that the entire German Navy was focused on patrolling British waters.

We know that men and horses, stores and munitions of war, were pouring steadily and continuously into East Anglia from Germany during this time, escorted by German cruisers and torpedo-boats, and uninterrupted by British ships. There was yet no report of the Channel Fleet, the ships of which were already twenty-four hours overdue at Portsmouth.

We know that men and horses, supplies and weaponry for war, were flowing steadily into East Anglia from Germany during this time, protected by German cruisers and torpedo boats, and not hindered by British ships. There was still no update from the Channel Fleet, whose ships were already twenty-four hours late at Portsmouth.

Two things, more than any others, had influenced the British Navy during the Administration of "The Destroyers": the total cessation of building operations, and the withdrawal of ships and men from sea service. The reserve ships had long been unfit to put to sea, the reserve crews had, for all practical purposes, become landsmen—landsmen among whom want of sea-going discipline had of late produced many mutinous outbreaks.

Two things, more than anything else, had influenced the British Navy during the Administration of "The Destroyers": the complete halt of building operations and the removal of ships and personnel from sea service. The reserve ships had long been unfit for the sea, and the reserve crews had, for all practical purposes, become land-based—land-based among whom the lack of sea-going discipline had recently led to many mutinous incidents.

It had been said by the most famous admiral of the time, and said without much exaggeration, that, within twelve months of "The Destroyers'" abandonment of the traditional two-Power standard of efficiency, the British Navy had "fallen to half-Power standard." The process was quickened, of course, by the unprecedented progress of the German Navy during the same period. It was said that at the end of 1907 the German Government had ships of war building in every great dockyard in the world. It is known that the entire fleet of the "Kaiser" class[184] torpedo-boats and destroyers was built and set afloat at the German Emperor's own private expense.

It was claimed by the most renowned admiral of the time, and without much exaggeration, that within a year of "The Destroyers" abandoning the traditional two-Power standard of efficiency, the British Navy had "dropped to a half-Power standard." This decline was accelerated, of course, by the unprecedented advancements of the German Navy during the same period. It was said that by the end of 1907, the German Government had warships being constructed in every major shipyard in the world. It's known that the entire fleet of "Kaiser" class[184] torpedo boats and destroyers was built and launched at the German Emperor's own personal expense.

Then there were the "Well-borns," as they were called—vessels of no great weight of metal, it is true, but manned, armed, officered, and found better perhaps than any other war-ships in the world; entirely at the instigation of the German Navy League, and out of the pockets of the German nobility. The majority of our own wealthy classes preferred sinking their money in German motor-cars and German pleasure resorts; or one must assume so, for it is well known that our Navy League had long since ceased to exert any active influence, because it was unable to raise funds enough to pay its office expenses.

Then there were the "Well-borns," as they were called—ships that didn’t carry much heavy metal, but were manned, armed, and staffed better than almost any other warships in the world; all thanks to the German Navy League and funded by the German nobility. Most of our wealthy class preferred to invest their money in German cars and vacation spots; or at least that’s what we have to assume, because it’s well known that our Navy League had long stopped having any real impact since it couldn’t raise enough money to cover its office expenses.

Our Navy might have had a useful reserve to draw upon in the various auxiliary naval bodies if these had not, one by one, been abolished. The Mercantile Marine was not in a position to lend much assistance in this respect, for our ships at that time carried eighty-seven thousand foreign officers and men, three parts of whom were Teutons. These facts were presumably all well known to the heads and governing bodies of the various trades, and, that being so, the extremely pessimistic attitude adopted by them, directly the fact of invasion was established, is scarcely to be wondered at.

Our Navy could have had a useful backup from the various auxiliary naval units if they hadn't all been eliminated one by one. The Mercantile Marine couldn’t offer much help either since our ships then had eighty-seven thousand foreign officers and crew members, three-quarters of whom were Teutons. These facts were likely well known to the leaders and governing bodies of the different trades, so it’s not surprising that they took a very pessimistic stance as soon as the invasion was confirmed.

In banking, insurance, underwriting, stock and share dealing, manufacturing, and in every branch of shipping the lead of the bakers were followed, and in many cases exceeded. The premiums asked in insurance and underwriting, and the unprecedented advance in the bank-rate, corresponding as it did[185] with a hopeless "slump" in every stock and share quoted on the Stock Exchange, from Consols to mining shares, brought business to a standstill in London on Monday afternoon.

In banking, insurance, underwriting, stock and share trading, manufacturing, and every area of shipping, others followed and often surpassed the bakers' lead. The premiums requested in insurance and underwriting, along with the unprecedented rise in the bank rate, which aligned with a hopeless drop in every stock and share listed on the Stock Exchange—from Consols to mining shares—brought business to a standstill in London on Monday afternoon.

On Tuesday entire blocks of offices remained unopened. In business, more perhaps than in any other walk of life, self-preservation and self-advancement were at that time, not alone the first, but the only fixed law. With bread at 1s. 4d. a loaf, great ship-owners in England were cabling the masters of wheat ships in both hemispheres to remain where they were and await orders.

On Tuesday, whole blocks of offices stayed closed. In the business world, more than in any other area of life, self-preservation and self-promotion weren't just the top priorities; they were the only rule that mattered. With bread priced at 1s. 4d. per loaf, major ship owners in England were sending messages to the captains of wheat ships in both hemispheres to stay put and wait for orders.

This last fact I learned from Leslie Wheeler, whom I happened to meet hurrying from the City to Waterloo, on his way down to Weybridge. His family were leaving for Devonshire next morning, to stay with relatives there.

This last fact I learned from Leslie Wheeler, whom I happened to meet rushing from the City to Waterloo, on his way down to Weybridge. His family was leaving for Devonshire the next morning to stay with relatives there.

"But, bless me!" I said, when he told me that friends of his father, shipping magnates, had despatched such cable messages that morning, "surely that's a ruffianly thing to do, when the English people are crying out for bread?"

"But, wow!" I said, when he told me that friends of his dad, shipping tycoons, had sent such cable messages that morning, "that’s pretty ruthless when the English people are begging for bread?"

Leslie shrugged his smartly-clad shoulders. "It's the English people's own affair," he said.

Leslie shrugged his well-dressed shoulders. "It's the English people's business," he said.

"How's that?"

"How's that going?"

"Why, you see it's all a matter of insurance. All commerce is based on insurance, in one form or another. The cost of shipping insurance to-day is absolutely prohibitive; in other words, there isn't any. We did have a permanent and non-fluctuating form of insurance of a kind one time. But you Socialist chaps—social reform, Little England for the English,[186] and all that—you swept that away. Wouldn't pay for it; said it wasn't wanted. Now it's gone, and you're feeling the pinch. The worst of it is, you make the rest of us feel it, too. I'm thankful to say the dad's pulling out fairly well. He told me yesterday he hadn't five hundred pounds in anything British. Wise old bird, the dad!"

"Look, it all comes down to insurance. Every business relies on insurance, in one way or another. The cost of shipping insurance today is completely unaffordable; in other words, it’s nonexistent. We used to have a reliable and stable form of insurance once. But you Socialist guys—social reform, Little England for the English,[186] and all that—you got rid of it. You wouldn't pay for it; you said it wasn't necessary. Now it's gone, and you’re feeling the effects. The worst part is, you’re making the rest of us feel it too. I’m grateful to say that my dad is doing fairly well. He told me yesterday he doesn't have five hundred pounds in anything British. Wise old bird, my dad!"

My friend's "You Socialist chaps" rather wrang my withers; its sting not being lessened at all by my knowledge of its justice. I asked after the welfare of the Wheeler family generally, but it was only as Leslie was closing the door of the cab he hailed that I mentioned Sylvia.

My friend's "You socialist guys" really got under my skin; the sting wasn't lessened at all by the fact that I knew it was true. I asked about the overall well-being of the Wheeler family, but it was only as Leslie was closing the door of the cab he hailed that I brought up Sylvia.

"Yes, Sylvia's all right," he said, as he waved me good-bye; "but she won't come away with the rest of us—absolutely refuses to budge."

"Yeah, Sylvia's fine," he said, waving me goodbye; "but she won't leave with the rest of us—she absolutely refuses to move."

And with that he was off, leaving me wondering about the girl who had at one time occupied so much of my mind, but of late had had so little of it. During the next few hours I wove quite a pretty story round Sylvia's refusal to accompany her family. I even thought of her as joining Constance Grey's nursing corps.

And with that, he was gone, leaving me thinking about the girl who had once taken up so much of my thoughts but had recently taken up so little. Over the next few hours, I created a nice story about Sylvia's decision not to go with her family. I even imagined her joining Constance Grey's nursing corps.

The thought of this development of Sylvia Wheeler's character interested me so much that I wrote to her that evening, tentatively sympathizing with her determination not to be frightened away from her own place. The whole thing was a curious misapprehension on my part; but Sylvia's reply (explaining that it was her particular place of worship she refused to leave, and that she was staying "with his[187] Reverence's sister"), though written within twenty-four hours, did not reach me until after many days—days such as England will never face again.

The idea of this development in Sylvia Wheeler's character fascinated me so much that I wrote to her that evening, cautiously expressing my support for her decision not to be scared off from her own home. The whole situation was a strange misunderstanding on my part; however, Sylvia's response (which explained that she was unwilling to leave her specific place of worship and that she was staying "with his[187] Reverence's sister") was written within twenty-four hours but didn't reach me until many days later—days that England will never experience again.


XIX
THE TRAGIC WEEK

England can never have an efficient army during peace, and she must, therefore, accept the rebuffs and calamities which are always in store for the nation that is content to follow the breed of cowards who usually direct her great affairs. The day will come when she will violently and suddenly lose her former fighting renown to such an unmistakable extent that the plucky fishwives will march upon Downing Street, and if they can catch its usual inmates, will rend them. One party is as bad as the other, and I hope and pray that when the national misfortune of a great defeat at sea overtakes us, followed by the invasion of England, that John Bull will turn and rend the jawers and talkers who prevent us from being prepared to meet invasion.—From a letter written by Lord Wolsley, ex-Commander-in-Chief of the British Army, to Lord Wemyss, and published, and ignored by the public, in the year 1906.

England can never maintain an effective army during peacetime, and so she must accept the setbacks and disasters that always await a nation willing to follow the cowardly leaders who typically manage her important affairs. The day will come when she will abruptly and drastically lose her former military reputation to such a degree that the determined fishwives will march on Downing Street, and if they catch its usual occupants, they will tear them apart. One side is just as bad as the other, and I hope and pray that when the national tragedy of a significant defeat at sea strikes us, followed by the invasion of England, John Bull will rise up and tear apart the loudmouths and talkers who are stopping us from being ready to face an invasion.—From a letter written by Lord Wolsley, ex-Commander-in-Chief of the British Army, to Lord Wemyss, and published, and ignored by the public, in the year 1906.

It is no part of my intention to make any attempt to limp after the historians of the Invasion. The Official History, the half-dozen of standard military treatises, and the well-known works of Low, Forster, Gordon, and others, have allowed few details of the Invasion to escape unrecorded. But I confess it has always seemed to me that these writers gave less attention to the immediate aftermath of the Invasion than that curious period demanded. Yet here was surely a case in which effect was of vastly more importance than cause, and aftermath than crisis. But perhaps I take that view because I am no historian.[189]

I don’t intend to follow in the footsteps of the historians of the Invasion. The Official History, along with the handful of standard military texts and the well-known works of Low, Forster, Gordon, and others, have captured almost all the details of the Invasion. However, I’ve always felt that these authors paid less attention to the immediate aftermath of the Invasion than that fascinating period warranted. Here, the effects seemed far more significant than the causes, and the aftermath more critical than the crisis. But maybe that’s just my perspective since I’m not a historian.[189]

To the non-expert mind, the most bewildering and extraordinary feature of that disastrous time was the amazing speed with which crisis succeeded crisis, and events, each of themselves epoch-making in character, crashed one upon another throughout the progress toward Black Saturday. We know now that much of this fury of haste which was so bewildering at the time, which certainly has no parallel in history, was due to the perfection of Germany's long-laid plans. Major-General Farquarson, in his "Military History of the Invasion," says:

To anyone not familiar with the details, the most confusing and remarkable aspect of that terrible time was how quickly one crisis followed another. Each event was significant on its own, yet they piled on top of one another as we moved closer to Black Saturday. We now understand that much of this overwhelming rush, which was so disorienting back then and has no equivalent in history, was caused by Germany's meticulously prepared plans. Major-General Farquarson, in his "Military History of the Invasion," says:

"It may be doubted whether in all the history of warfare anything so scientifically perfect as the preparations for this attack can be found. It is safe to say that every inch of General von Füchter's progress was mapped out in Berlin long months before it came to astound and horrify England. The maps and plans in the possession of the German staff were masterpieces of cartographical science and art. The German Army knew almost to a bale of hay what provender lay between London and the coast, and where it was stored; and certainly their knowledge of East Anglia far exceeded that of our own authorities. The world has never seen a quicker blow struck; it has seldom seen a blow so crushingly severe; it has not often seen one so aggressively unjustifiable. And, be it noted, that down to the last halter and the least fragment of detail, the German Army was provided with every conceivable aid to success—in duplicate.

"It may be questioned whether there's ever been anything as perfectly planned in the history of warfare as the preparations for this attack. It's safe to say that every step of General von Füchter's advance was mapped out in Berlin many months before it shocked and horrified England. The maps and plans in the German staff's possession were remarkable works of cartography and art. The German Army knew almost exactly where every bit of supplies was stored between London and the coast, even down to the smallest details, and their understanding of East Anglia far surpassed that of our own authorities. The world has never seen a quicker strike; it has seldom witnessed a blow so devastating; and it rarely sees one so aggressively unjustified. And, it should be noted, that down to the last strap and every minor detail, the German Army was equipped with every possible resource for success—in duplicate.

"Never in any enterprise known to history was less left to chance. The German War Office left nothing at all to chance, not even its conception—a[190] certainty really—of Britain's amazing unreadiness. And the German Army took no risks. A soldier's business, whether he be private or Field Marshal, is, after all, to obey orders. It would be both foolish and unjust to blame General von Füchter. But the fact remains that no victorious army ever risked less by generosity than the invading German Army. Its tactics were undoubtedly ruthless; they were the tactics necessitated by the orders of the Chief of the Army. They were more severe, more crushing, than any that have ever been adopted even by a punitive expedition under British colours. They were successful. For that they were intended. Swiftness and thoroughness were of the essence of the contract.

"Never in any venture known to history was less left to chance. The German War Office left nothing to chance, not even its understanding—a[190] certainty really—of Britain's incredible unpreparedness. And the German Army took no risks. A soldier's job, whether a private or a Field Marshal, is, after all, to follow orders. It would be both foolish and unfair to blame General von Füchter. But the truth is that no victorious army ever took fewer risks in generosity than the invading German Army. Its tactics were undoubtedly ruthless; they were the tactics required by the orders of the Chief of the Army. They were harsher, more crushing, than any adopted even by a punitive expedition under British colors. They were effective. That was the goal. Speed and thoroughness were essential to the mission."

"With regard to their humanity or morality I am not here concerned. But it should always be remembered by critics that British apathy and neglect made British soil a standing temptation to the invader. The invasion was entirely unprovoked, so far as direct provocation goes. But who shall say it was entirely undeserved, or even unforeseen, by advisers whom the nation chose to ignore? This much is certain: Black Saturday and the tragic events leading up to it were made possible, not so much by the skill and forethought of the enemy, which were notable, as by a state of affairs in England which made that day one of shame and humiliation, as well as a day of national mourning. No just recorder may hope to escape that fact."

"Regarding their humanity or morality, I'm not concerned here. But critics should always keep in mind that British indifference and neglect turned British territory into a tempting target for invaders. The invasion was completely unprovoked, in terms of direct actions. But who can say it was entirely undeserved, or even unexpected, by advisers that the nation chose to overlook? What’s clear is this: Black Saturday and the tragic events leading up to it were enabled, not so much by the enemy’s skill and planning, which were remarkable, but by a situation in England that turned that day into one of shame and humiliation, as well as a day of national mourning. No fair observer can avoid acknowledging that fact."

In London, the gravest aspect of that tragic week was the condition of the populace. It is supposed that over two million people flocked into the capital[191] during the first three days. And the prices of the necessities of life were higher in London than anywhere else in the country. The Government measures for relief were ill-considered and hopelessly inadequate. But, in justice to "The Destroyers," it must be remembered that leading authorities have said that adequate measures were impossible, from sheer lack of material.

In London, the most serious part of that tragic week was the condition of the people. It’s estimated that over two million individuals flooded into the capital[191] during the first three days. The prices of basic necessities were higher in London than anywhere else in the country. The government’s relief efforts were poorly thought out and completely insufficient. However, to be fair to "The Destroyers," it should be noted that leading experts have stated that proper measures were impossible due to a complete lack of resources.

During one day—I think it was Wednesday—huge armies of the hungry unemployed—nine-tenths of our wage-earners were unemployed—were set to work upon entrenchments in the north of London. But there was no sort of organization, and most of the men streamed back into the town that night, unpaid, unfed, and sullenly resentful.

During one day—I think it was Wednesday—large groups of hungry unemployed people—nine out of ten of our wage-earners were jobless—were assigned to work on trenches in the north of London. But there was no real organization, and most of the men returned to the city that night, unpaid, unfed, and feeling angry and resentful.

Then, like cannon shots, came the reports of the fall of York, Bradford, Leeds, Halifax, Hull, and Huddersfield, and the apparently wanton demolition of Norwich Cathedral. The sinking of the Dreadnought near the Nore was known in London within the hour. Among the half-equipped regulars who were hurried up from the southwest, I saw dozens of men intercepted in the streets by the hungry crowds, and hustled into leaving their fellows.

Then, like cannon fire, came the news about the fall of York, Bradford, Leeds, Halifax, Hull, and Huddersfield, along with the seemingly senseless destruction of Norwich Cathedral. The sinking of the Dreadnought near the Nore reached London in under an hour. Among the barely prepared regulars who were rushed in from the southwest, I saw dozens of men stopped in the streets by desperate crowds and forced to abandon their comrades.

Then came Friday's awful "surrender riot" at Westminster, a magnificent account of which gives Martin's big work its distinctive value. I had left Constance Grey's flat only half an hour before the riot began, and when I reached Trafalgar Square there was no space between that and the Abbey in which a stone could have been dropped without falling upon a man or a woman. There were women in[192] that maddened throng, and some of them, crying hoarsely in one breath for surrender and for bread, were suckling babies.

Then came Friday's terrible "surrender riot" at Westminster, which Martin's major work captures in a way that gives it unique significance. I had left Constance Grey's apartment only half an hour before the riot started, and when I got to Trafalgar Square, there wasn't a single space between that and the Abbey where a stone could have been dropped without hitting a person. There were women in[192] that chaotic crowd, and some of them, shouting hoarsely for both surrender and bread in the same breath, were nursing babies.

No Englishman who witnessed it could ever forget that sight. The Prime Minister's announcement that the surrender should be made came too late. The panic and hunger-maddened incendiaries had been at work. Smoke was rising already from Downing Street and the back of the Treasury. Then came the carnage. One can well believe that not a single unnecessary bullet was fired. Not to believe that would be to saddle those in authority with a less than human baseness. But the question history puts is: Who was primarily to blame for the circumstances which led up to the tragic necessity of the firing order?

No Englishman who saw it could ever forget that scene. The Prime Minister's announcement about the surrender came too late. Panic and hunger-fueled arsonists had already started their work. Smoke was rising from Downing Street and the back of the Treasury. Then came the massacre. It's easy to believe that not a single unnecessary shot was fired. To think otherwise would mean placing a cruel blame on those in charge. But the question history asks is: Who was mainly responsible for the situation that led to the tragic need for the firing order?

Posterity has unanimously laid the blame upon the Administration of that day, and assuredly the task of whitewashing "The Destroyers" would be no light or pleasant one. But, again, we must remind ourselves that the essence of the British Constitution has granted to us always, for a century past at least, as good a Government as we have deserved. "The Destroyers" may have brought shame and humiliation upon England. Unquestionably, measures and acts of theirs produced those effects. But who and what produced "The Destroyers" as a Government? The only possible answer to that is, in the first place, the British public; in the second place, the British people's selfish apathy and neglect, where national duty and responsibility were concerned, and blindly selfish absorption, in the matter of its own individual interests and pleasures.[193]

Posterity has unanimously blamed the Administration of that time, and it’s clear that trying to clear the name of "The Destroyers" would be a tough and unpleasant job. However, we need to remind ourselves that the core of the British Constitution has granted us, for at least the past century, as good a government as we deserved. "The Destroyers" may have brought shame and humiliation upon England. No doubt, their actions and policies caused those effects. But who and what created "The Destroyers" as a government? The only reasonable answer is, first, the British public; and second, the selfish apathy and neglect of the British people when it came to national duty and responsibility, along with a blind focus on their own individual interests and pleasures.[193]

One hundred and thirty-two men, women, and children killed, and three hundred and twenty-eight wounded; the Treasury buildings and the official residence of the Prime Minister gutted; that was the casualty list of the "Surrender Riot" at Westminster. But the figures do not convey a tithe of the horror, the unforgettable shame and horror, of the people's attack upon the Empire's sanctuary. The essence of the tragedy lay in their demand for immediate and unconditional surrender; the misery of it lay in "The Destroyers'" weak, delayed, terrified response, followed almost immediately by the order to those in charge of the firing parties—an order flung hysterically at last, the very articulation of panic.

One hundred thirty-two men, women, and children were killed, and three hundred twenty-eight were wounded; the Treasury buildings and the official residence of the Prime Minister were destroyed; that was the casualty list from the "Surrender Riot" at Westminster. But those numbers don’t capture even a fraction of the horror, the unforgettable shame and terror, of the people’s attack on the Empire’s sanctuary. The heart of the tragedy was in their demand for immediate and unconditional surrender; its misery stemmed from "The Destroyers'" weak, delayed, terrified reaction, quickly followed by the frantic order given to those in charge of the firing teams—an order delivered in a panic-fueled frenzy.

No one is likely to question Martin's assertion that Friday's tragedy at Westminster must be regarded—"not alone as the immediate cause of Black Saturday's national humiliation, but also as the crucial phase, the pivot upon which the development of the whole disastrous week turned." But the Westminster Riot at least had the saving feature of unpremeditation. It was, upon the one side, the outcry of a wholly undisciplined, hungry, and panic-smitten public; and, upon the other side, the irresponsible, more than half-hysterical action of a group of terrified and incompetent politicians. These men had been swept into great positions, which they were totally unfitted to fill, by a tidal wave of reactionary public feeling, and of the blind selfishness of a decadence born of long freedom from any form of national discipline; of liberties too easily won and but half-understood;[194] of superficial education as to rights, and abysmal ignorance as to duties.

No one is likely to question Martin's claim that Friday's tragedy at Westminster should be seen—"not just as the immediate cause of Black Saturday's national embarrassment, but also as the key moment, the turning point upon which the entire disastrous week hinged." However, the Westminster Riot at least had the redeeming quality of being spontaneous. On one side, it was the outcry of a completely undisciplined, hungry, and panicked public; on the other side, it was the reckless, more than half-hysterical actions of a group of scared and incompetent politicians. These men had been thrust into high positions, which they were entirely unqualified for, by a wave of reactionary public sentiment and the blind selfishness of a decline that came from a long period of freedom from any form of national discipline; liberties that were too easily gained and only partially understood; a superficial education about rights, and a deep ignorance of duties.[194]

But, while fully admitting the soundness of Martin's verdict, for my part I feel that my experiences during that week left me with memories not perhaps more shocking, but certainly more humiliating and disgraceful to England, than the picture burnt into my mind by the Westminster Riot. I will mention two of these.

But, while completely agreeing with Martin's decision, I personally feel that my experiences during that week left me with memories that might not be more shocking, but are definitely more humiliating and disgraceful for England than the image etched in my mind from the Westminster Riot. I'll mention two of these.

By Wednesday a large proportion of the rich residents of Western London had left the capital to take its chances, while they sought the security of country homes, more particularly in the southwestern counties. Such thoroughfares as Piccadilly, Regent Street, and Bond Street were no longer occupied by well-dressed people with plenty of money to spend. Their usual patrons were for the most part absent; but, particularly at night, they were none the less very freely used—more crowded, indeed, than ever before. The really poor, the desperately hungry people, had no concern whatever with the wrecking of the famous German restaurants and beer-halls. They were not among the Regent Street and Piccadilly promenaders.

By Wednesday, a large number of wealthy residents from Western London had left the city to take their chances, looking for safety in their country homes, especially in the southwestern counties. Streets like Piccadilly, Regent Street, and Bond Street were no longer filled with well-dressed people eager to spend money. Their usual crowd was mostly missing; however, especially at night, these areas were still very busy—more crowded than ever before. The truly poor, the desperately hungry, had no interest in the destruction of the famous German restaurants and beer halls. They were not part of the crowds on Regent Street and Piccadilly.

The Londoners who filled these streets at night—the people who sacked the Leicester Square hotel and took part in the famous orgy which Blackburn describes as "unequalled in England since the days of the Plague, or in Europe since the French Revolution"; these people were not at all in quest of food. They were engaged upon a mad pursuit of pleasure and debauchery and drink. "Eat, drink, and be[195] vicious; but above all, drink and be vicious; for this is the end of England!" That was their watchword.

The Londoners who filled these streets at night—the people who looted the Leicester Square hotel and took part in the infamous orgy that Blackburn describes as "unmatched in England since the days of the Plague, or in Europe since the French Revolution"; these people weren’t searching for food at all. They were on a wild chase for pleasure, excess, and drinking. "Eat, drink, and be[195] reckless; but above all, drink and be reckless; for this is the end of England!" That was their motto.

I have no wish to repeat Blackburn's terrible stories of rapine and bestiality, of the frenzy of intoxication, and the blind savagery of these Saturnalias. In their dreadful nakedness they stand for ever in the pages of his great book, a sinister blur, a fiery warning, writ large across the scroll of English history. I only wish to say that scenes I actually saw with my own eyes (one episode in trying to check the horror of which I lost two fingers and much blood), prove beyond all question to me that, even in its most lurid and revolting passages, Blackburn's account is a mere record of fact, and not at all, as some apologists have sought to show, an exaggerated or overheated version of these lamentable events.

I don’t want to go over Blackburn’s awful stories of violence and brutality, of intoxicated madness, and the mindless savagery of these chaotic times. In their horrific nakedness, they remain forever in the pages of his great book, a dark blur, a fiery warning, clearly written across the scroll of English history. I just want to say that the scenes I witnessed with my own eyes (one incident in trying to stop the horror from which I lost two fingers and a lot of blood) prove beyond a doubt to me that, even in its most shocking and disgusting moments, Blackburn's account is just a record of facts, and not at all, as some defenders have tried to argue, an exaggerated or sensationalized version of these tragic events.

Regarded as an indication of the pass we had reached at this period of our decadence, this stage of our trial by fire, the conduct of the crowds in Western London during those dreadful nights, impressed me more forcibly than the disaster which Martin considers the climax and pivot of the week's tragedy.

Regarded as a sign of how far we had fallen by this point during our decline, this stage of our intense struggle, the behavior of the crowds in Western London during those terrible nights struck me more powerfully than the disaster that Martin sees as the turning point and highlight of the week's tragedy.

One does not cheerfully refer to these things, but, to be truthful, I must mention the other matter which produced upon me, personally, the greatest sense of horror and disgrace.

One doesn't happily talk about these things, but, to be honest, I have to bring up the other matter that caused me, personally, the most intense feeling of horror and shame.

Military writers have described for us most fully the circumstances in which General Lord Wensley's command was cut and blown to pieces in the Epping and Romford districts. Authorities are agreed that the records of civilized warfare have nothing more[196] horrible to tell than the history of that ghastly butchery. As a slaughter, there was nothing exactly like it in the Russo-Japanese war—for we know that there were less than a hundred survivors of the whole of Lord Wensley's command. But those who mourned the loss of these brave men had a consolation of which nothing could rob them; the consolation which is graven in stone upon the Epping monument; a consolation preserved as well in German as in English history. Germany may truthfully say of the Epping shambles that no quarter was given that day. England may say, with what pride she may, that none was asked. The last British soldier slaughtered in the Epping trenches had no white flag in his hand, but a broken bayonet, and, under his knee, the Colours of his regiment.

Military writers have thoroughly detailed the circumstances surrounding General Lord Wensley's command being cut down and destroyed in the Epping and Romford areas. Experts agree that the records of civilized warfare have nothing more horrific to recount than the story of that dreadful massacre. There was nothing quite like it in the Russo-Japanese war, as we know that fewer than a hundred men survived from Lord Wensley's entire command. However, those who mourned their loss had a comfort that nothing could take away; the comfort that is etched in stone on the Epping monument; a comfort noted in both German and English history. Germany can honestly claim about the Epping slaughter that no mercy was shown that day. England can assert, with whatever pride it may have, that none was requested. The last British soldier killed in the Epping trenches held no white flag, but a broken bayonet, and beneath his knee lay the Colors of his regiment.

The British soldiers in those blood-soaked trenches were badly armed, less than half-trained, under-officered, and of a low physical standard. But these lamentable facts had little or nothing to do with their slaughter. There were but seven thousand of them, while the German force has been variously estimated at between seventy thousand and one hundred thousand horse and foot, besides artillery. One need not stop to question who should bear the blame for the half-trained, vilely equipped condition of these heroic victims. The far greater question, to which the only answer can be a sad silence of remorse and bitter humiliation, bears upon the awful needlessness of their sacrifice.

The British soldiers in those blood-soaked trenches were poorly armed, less than half-trained, had too few officers, and were not in great physical shape. But these unfortunate facts had little to do with their slaughter. There were only seven thousand of them, while the German forces were estimated to be between seventy thousand and one hundred thousand soldiers, not counting the artillery. There's no need to dwell on who should be blamed for the poorly trained and badly equipped state of these brave victims. The much larger issue, which can only be answered with a painful silence of regret and deep humiliation, is the horrific unnecessary nature of their sacrifice.

The circumstances have been described in fullest detail from authentic records. The stark fact which[197] stands out before the average non-expert observer is that Lord Wensley was definitely promised reinforcements to the number of twenty thousand horse and foot; that after the Westminster Riot not a single man or horse reached him; and he was never informed of the Government's forced decision to surrender.

The circumstances have been described in full detail from authentic records. The undeniable fact that stands out to the average non-expert observer is that Lord Wensley was definitely promised reinforcements of twenty thousand soldiers; that after the Westminster Riot not a single man or horse arrived for him; and he was never informed of the Government's forced decision to surrender.

And thus those half-trained boys and men laid down their lives for England within a dozen miles of Westminster, almost twelve hours after a weak-kneed, panic-stricken Cabinet had passed its word to the people that England would surrender.

And so those partly trained boys and men gave their lives for England just a few miles from Westminster, almost twelve hours after a cowardly, panic-stricken Cabinet had told the public that England would give up.

That, to my thinking, was the most burning feature of our disgrace; that, as an indication of our parlous estate, is more terrible than Martin's "pivot" of the tragic week.

That, to me, was the most distressing part of our shame; that, as a sign of our precarious situation, is more terrifying than Martin's "turning point" of the tragic week.


XX
BLACK SATURDAY

Milton! You should be alive at this moment:
England needs you: she is a marsh. Of still waters: altar, sword, and pen,
By the fireside, the grand riches of the hall and the bower, Have given up their traditional English dowry
Of inner happiness. We are selfish people.
Wordsworth.

In the afternoon of Black Saturday, General von Füchter, the Commander-in-Chief of the German Army in England, took up his quarters, with his staff, in the residence of the German Ambassador to the Court of St. James in Carlton House Terrace, and, so men said, enjoyed the first sleep he had had for a week. (The German Ambassador had handed in his credentials, and been escorted out of England on the previous Monday.)

In the afternoon of Black Saturday, General von Füchter, the Commander-in-Chief of the German Army in England, settled in with his staff at the residence of the German Ambassador to the Court of St. James on Carlton House Terrace, and, or so people said, finally got some sleep for the first time in a week. (The German Ambassador had submitted his credentials and was escorted out of England the previous Monday.)

Throughout the small hours of Saturday morning I was at work near Romford as one of the volunteer bearers attached to Constance Grey's nursing corps. That is one reason why the memory of the north of London massacre will never leave me. One may assume that the German Army had no wish to kill nurses, but, as evidence of the terrible character of the onslaught on the poor defences of London, I may recall the fact that three of our portable nursing[199] shelters were blown to pieces; while of Constance Grey's nurses alone five were killed and fourteen were badly wounded.

Throughout the small hours of Saturday morning, I was working near Romford as one of the volunteer bearers for Constance Grey's nursing corps. That’s one reason the memory of the north London massacre will never leave me. One might assume that the German Army didn’t want to hurt nurses, but as evidence of the horrible nature of the attack on the fragile defenses of London, I can recall that three of our portable nursing shelters were destroyed; among Constance Grey's nurses alone, five were killed and fourteen were seriously injured.

Myself, I had much to be thankful for, my only wound being the ploughing of a little furrow over the biceps of my right arm by a bullet that passed out through the back of my coat. But a circumstance for which my gratitude was more deeply moved was the fact that Constance Grey, despite a number of wonderfully narrow escapes, was entirely uninjured.

Myself, I had a lot to be thankful for, the only injury being a small wound from a bullet that grazed my right bicep and exited through the back of my coat. However, what really made me grateful was that Constance Grey, despite several incredibly close calls, came out completely unharmed.

The actual entry of General von Füchter and his troops into London has been so often described that nothing remains for me to say about that. Also, I am unable to speak as an eye witness, since Constance Grey and myself were among those who returned to London, in the rear of the German troops, with the ambulances. The enemy's line of communications stretched now from the Wash to London, and between Brentwood and London there were more Germans than English. I believe the actual number of troops which entered London behind General von Füchter was under forty-eight thousand; but to the northward, northeast, and northwest the huge force which really invested the capital was spread in careful formation, and amply provided with heavy artillery, then trained upon central London from all such points as the Hampstead heights.

The entry of General von Füchter and his troops into London has been described so many times that there's really nothing new for me to add. I also can’t speak from personal experience, since Constance Grey and I were among those who returned to London, following the German troops with the ambulances. The enemy's supply lines now stretched from the Wash to London, and between Brentwood and London, there were more Germans than English. I believe the number of troops that entered London behind General von Füchter was under forty-eight thousand; however, to the north, northeast, and northwest, the large force that truly surrounded the capital was strategically spread out and well-equipped with heavy artillery, aimed at central London from various points like the Hampstead heights.

Although a formal note of surrender had been conveyed to General von Füchter at Romford, after the annihilation of our entrenched troops, occasional shots were fired upon the enemy as they entered London.[200] Indeed, in the Whitechapel Road, one of the General's aides-de-camp, riding within a few yards of his chief, was killed by a shot from the upper windows of a provision shop. But the German reprisals were sharp. It is said that fifty-seven lives paid the penalty for the shooting of that aide-de-camp. Several streets of houses in northeast London were burned.

Although a formal note of surrender had been sent to General von Füchter in Romford, after the destruction of our entrenched troops, occasional shots were fired at the enemy as they entered London.[200] In fact, on Whitechapel Road, one of the General's aides-de-camp, riding just a few yards away from his boss, was killed by a shot from the upper windows of a grocery store. But the German retaliation was swift. It’s reported that fifty-seven lives were lost as a result of the shooting of that aide-de-camp. Several streets of houses in northeast London were set on fire.

By this time the Lord Mayor of London had been notified that serious results would accrue if any further opposition were offered to the German acceptance of London's surrender; and proclamations to that effect were posted everywhere. But the great bulk of London's inhabitants were completely cowed by hunger and terror. Practically, it may be said that, throughout, the only resistance offered to the Army of the invaders was that which ended so tragically in the trenches beyond Epping and Romford, with the equally tragical defence of Colchester, and some of the northern towns captured by the eighth German Army Corps.

By this time, the Lord Mayor of London had been informed that serious consequences would follow if there was any more resistance to the German acceptance of London’s surrender; and announcements to that effect were posted everywhere. However, most of London’s residents were completely broken by hunger and fear. Essentially, the only resistance to the invading Army was the tragic events that unfolded in the trenches beyond Epping and Romford, along with the equally tragic defense of Colchester and some northern towns taken by the eighth German Army Corps.

In London the people's demand from the first had been for unconditional surrender. It was this demand which had culminated in the Westminster Riot. The populace was so entirely undisciplined, so completely lacking in the sort of training which makes for self-restraint, that even if the Government had been possessed of an efficient striking force for defensive purposes, the public would not have permitted its proper utilization. The roar of German artillery during Friday night and Saturday morning, with the news of the awful massacre in the northern entrenchments,[201] had combined to extinguish the last vestige of desire for resistance which remained in London.

In London, the people had always demanded unconditional surrender. This demand led to the Westminster Riot. The crowd was completely unruly, lacking the kind of training needed for self-control, so even if the Government had an effective defense force, the public wouldn’t have allowed it to be used properly. The booming of German artillery on Friday night and Saturday morning, along with the news of the terrible massacre in the northern trenches,[201] wiped out any remaining desire for resistance in London.

Almost all the people with money had left the capital. Those remaining—the poor, the refugees from northward, irresponsibles, people without a stake of any kind; these desired but the one thing: food and safety. The German Commander-in-Chief was wise. He knew that if time had been allowed, resistance would have been organized, even though the British regular Army had, by continuous reductions in the name of "economy," practically ceased to exist as a striking force. And therefore time was the one thing he had been most determined to deny England.

Almost all the wealthy people had left the capital. Those who stayed—the poor, those fleeing from the north, people acting recklessly, and those with nothing to lose—only wanted one thing: food and safety. The German Commander-in-Chief was smart. He realized that if he gave it time, resistance would form, even though the British regular Army had practically become ineffective due to constant cuts in the name of "economy." So, time was the one thing he was most determined to deny England.

It is said that fatigue killed more German soldiers than fell to British bullets; and the fact may well be believed when we consider the herculean task General von Füchter had accomplished in one week. His plan of campaign was to strike his hardest, and to keep on striking his hardest, without pause, till he had the British Government on its knees before him; till he had the British public—maddened by sudden fear, and the panic which blows of this sort must bring to a people with no defensive organization, and no disciplinary training—cowed and crying for quarter.

It’s said that exhaustion claimed more German soldiers than British gunfire did; and this seems reasonable when we think about the enormous challenge General von Füchter took on in just one week. His strategy was to hit hard and keep hitting hard, without stopping, until the British Government was brought to its knees; until the British public—driven crazy by sudden fear and the panic that such attacks create in a nation without a solid defense and proper training—was subdued and begging for mercy.

The German Commander has been called inhuman, a monster, a creature without bowels. All that is really of small importance. He was a soldier who carried out orders. His orders were ruthless orders. The instrument he used was a very perfect one. He carried out his orders with the utmost precision and thoroughness; and his method was the surest, quickest,[202] and, perhaps, the only way of taking possession of England.

The German Commander has been labeled inhuman, a monster, a heartless being. In reality, that’s not very significant. He was a soldier who followed orders. His orders were brutal orders. The tool he used was extremely effective. He executed his orders with outstanding precision and thoroughness; and his approach was the most reliable, fastest, [202] and maybe the only way to take control of England.

At noon precisely, the Lord Mayor of London was brought before the German Commander-in-Chief in the audience chamber of the Mansion House, and formally placed under arrest. A triple cordon of sentries and two machine-gun parties were placed in charge of the Bank of England, and quarters were allotted for two German regiments in the immediate vicinity. Two machine-guns were brought into position in front of the Stock Exchange, and all avenues leading from the heart of the City were occupied by mixed details of cavalry and infantry, each party having one machine-gun.

At exactly noon, the Lord Mayor of London was brought before the German Commander-in-Chief in the Mansion House's audience chamber and officially placed under arrest. A triple line of guards and two machine-gun teams were assigned to the Bank of England, and accommodations were set up for two German regiments nearby. Two machine guns were set up in front of the Stock Exchange, and all routes leading from the center of the City were secured by mixed teams of cavalry and infantry, with each group having one machine gun.

My acquaintance, Wardle, of the Sunday News, was in the audience chamber of the Mansion House at this time, and he says that he never saw a man look more exhausted than General von Füchter, who, according to report, had not had an hour's sleep during the week. But though the General's cheeks were sunken, his chin unshaven, and his eyes blood-red, his demeanour was that of an iron man—stern, brusque, taciturn, erect, and singularly immobile.

My acquaintance, Wardle, from the Sunday News, was in the audience chamber of the Mansion House at that time, and he says he had never seen a man look more worn out than General von Füchter, who, by all accounts, hadn’t slept for a single hour all week. However, even though the General's cheeks were hollow, his chin was unshaven, and his eyes were bloodshot, he carried himself like an iron man—serious, gruff, quiet, upright, and remarkably still.

Food was served to this man of blood and iron in the Mansion House, while the Lord Mayor's secretary proceeded to Whitehall, with word to the effect that the Commander-in-Chief of the German forces in England awaited the sword and formal surrender of the British Commander, before proceeding to take up quarters in which he would deal with peace negotiations.

Food was served to this man of blood and iron in the Mansion House, while the Lord Mayor's secretary headed to Whitehall with the message that the Commander-in-Chief of the German forces in England was waiting for the sword and formal surrender of the British Commander before moving into quarters where he would handle peace negotiations.

Forster's great work, "The Surrender," gives the[203] finest description we have of the scene that followed. The Field Marshal in command of the British forces had that morning been sent for by a Cabinet Council then being held in the Prime Minister's room at the House of Commons. With nine members of his staff, the white-haired Field Marshal rode slowly into the City, in full uniform. His instructions were for unconditional surrender, and a request for the immediate consideration of the details of peace negotiations.

Forster's great work, "The Surrender," provides the[203] best account we have of what happened next. The Field Marshal in charge of the British forces had been summoned earlier that morning for a Cabinet Council taking place in the Prime Minister's office at the House of Commons. Accompanied by nine staff members, the elderly Field Marshal rode slowly into the city, dressed in full uniform. His orders were for unconditional surrender and a request to discuss the details of peace negotiations right away.

The Field Marshal had once been the most popular idol of the British people, whom he had served nobly in a hundred fights. Of late years he himself had been as completely disregarded, as the grave warnings, the earnest appeals, which he had bravely continued to urge upon a neglectful people. The very Government which now despatched him upon the hardest task of his whole career, the tendering of his sword to his country's enemy, had for long treated him with cold disfavour. The general public, in its anti-national madness, had sneered at this great little man, their one-time hero, as a Jingo crank.

The Field Marshal had once been the most beloved figure among the British people, whom he had honorably served in countless battles. In recent years, he had been completely ignored, just like the serious warnings and sincere appeals he had courageously continued to make to an indifferent public. The very Government that now assigned him the toughest task of his entire career, offering his sword to his country’s enemy, had long treated him with cold indifference. The general public, in its misguided frenzy, had mocked this great little man, their former hero, as a jingoistic fanatic.

(As an instance of the lengths to which the public madness went in this matter, the curious will find in the British Museum copies of at least one farcical work of fiction written and published with considerable success, as burlesques of that very invasion which had now occurred, of the possibility of which this loyal servant in particular had so earnestly and so unavailingly warned his countrymen.)

(As an example of how crazy the public got over this situation, those interested can find at the British Museum copies of at least one ridiculous work of fiction that was written and published successfully, mocking that very invasion that had now happened, which this loyal servant in particular had tried so hard and unsuccessfully to warn his fellow countrymen about.)

Now, the blow he had so often foreshadowed had fallen; the capital of the British Empire was actually[204] in possession of an enemy; and the British leader knew himself for a Commander without an Army.

Now, the blow he had often predicted had hit; the capital of the British Empire was actually[204] in the hands of an enemy; and the British leader recognized himself as a Commander without an Army.

He had long since given his only son to the cause of Britain's defence. The whole of his own strenuous life had been devoted to the same cause. His declining years had known no ease by reason of his unceasing and thankless striving to awaken his fellow countrymen to a sense of their military responsibilities. Now he felt that the end of all things had come for him, in the carrying out of an order which snapped his life's work in two, and flung it down at the feet of England's almost unopposed conqueror.

He had long ago given his only son to the cause of defending Britain. His entire hard-working life had been dedicated to that same cause. In his later years, he hadn’t experienced any rest because of his constant and thankless efforts to inspire his fellow citizens to recognize their military duties. Now he sensed that the end of everything had arrived for him, as he carried out an order that shattered his life’s work and cast it down at the feet of England's almost unchallenged conqueror.

The understanding Englishman has forgiven General von Füchter much, by virtue of his treatment of the noble old soldier, who with tear-blinded eyes and twitching lips tendered him the surrender of the almost non-existent British Army. No man ever heard a speech from General von Füchter, but the remark with which he returned our Field Marshal's sword to him will never be forgotten in England. He said, in rather laboured English, with a stiff, low bow:

The understanding Englishman has forgiven General von Füchter a lot because of how he treated the noble old soldier, who, with tear-filled eyes and trembling lips, offered him the surrender of the nearly nonexistent British Army. No one has ever heard a speech from General von Füchter, but the comment he made when he returned our Field Marshal's sword will always be remembered in England. He said, in somewhat awkward English, with a stiff, low bow:

"Keep it, my lord. If your countrymen had not forgotten how to recognize a great soldier, I could never have demanded it of you."

"Keep it, my lord. If your fellow countrymen hadn’t forgotten how to recognize a great soldier, I would never have asked it of you."

And the man of iron saluted the heart-broken Chief of the shattered British Army.

And the man of iron greeted the heartbroken Chief of the defeated British Army.

We prefer not to believe the report that this, the German Commander's one act of gentleness and magnanimity in England, was subsequently paid for by the loss of a certain Imperial decoration. But, if the story was true, then the decoration it concerned was well lost.[205]

We don’t want to believe the rumor that this, the German Commander’s only act of kindness and generosity in England, resulted in him losing a certain Imperial decoration. But if the story is true, then the decoration was definitely not worth keeping.[205]

It was a grim, war-stained procession that followed General von Füchter when, between two and three o'clock, he rode with his staff by way of Ludgate Hill and the Strand to Carlton House Terrace. But the cavalry rode with drawn sabres, the infantry marched with fixed bayonets, and, though weariness showed in every line of the men's faces, there was as yet no sign of relaxed tension.

It was a grim, war-torn procession that followed General von Füchter when, between two and three o'clock, he rode with his staff through Ludgate Hill and the Strand to Carlton House Terrace. The cavalry had their sabres drawn, the infantry marched with bayonets fixed, and even though weariness was evident in every line of the men's faces, there was still no sign of tension easing.

Throughout that evening and night the baggage wagons rumbled through London, without cessation, to the two main western encampments in Hyde Park. The whole of Pall Mall and Park Lane were occupied by German officers that night, few of the usual occupants of the clubs in the one thoroughfare, or the residences in the other, being then in London.

Throughout that evening and night, the baggage wagons rolled continuously through London, making their way to the two main western camps in Hyde Park. All of Pall Mall and Park Lane were taken over by German officers that night, with very few of the usual clubgoers in one area or residents in the other being in London at that time.

By four o'clock General von Füchter's terms were in the hands of the Government which had now completed its earning of the title of "The Destroyers." The Chief Commissioner of Police and the principal municipal authorities of greater London had all been examined during the day at the House of Commons, and were unanimous in their verdict that any delay in the arrangement of peace and the resumption of trade, ashore and afloat, could mean only revolution. Whole streets of shops had been sacked and looted already by hungry mobs, who gave no thought to the invasion or to any other matter than the question of food supply. A great, lowering crowd of hungry men and women occupied Westminster Bridge and the southern embankment (no German soldiers had been seen south of the Thames) waiting for the news of the promised conclusion of peace terms.[206]

By four o'clock, General von Füchter's terms were in the hands of the Government, which had now earned the title of "The Destroyers." The Chief Commissioner of Police and the main municipal authorities of Greater London had all been questioned during the day at the House of Commons, and they all agreed that any delay in arranging peace and restarting trade, both on land and at sea, could only lead to revolution. Entire streets of shops had already been raided and looted by desperate crowds, who were focused solely on food supplies, ignoring the invasion and any other concerns. A large, restless crowd of hungry men and women gathered on Westminster Bridge and the southern embankment (no German soldiers had been seen south of the Thames), waiting for news of the promised peace agreement.[206]

There is not wanting evidence that certain members of the Government had already bitterly repented of their suicidal retrenchment and anti-defensive attitude in the past. But repentance had come too late. The Government stood between a hungry, terrified populace demanding peace and food, and a mighty and victorious army whose commander, acting upon the orders of his Government, offered peace at a terrible price, or the absolute destruction of London. For General von Füchter's brief memorandum of terms alluded threateningly to the fact that his heavy artillery was so placed that he could blow the House of Commons into the river in an hour.

There is plenty of evidence that some members of the Government had already deeply regretted their reckless cutbacks and anti-defensive stance in the past. But their remorse came too late. The Government was caught between a hungry, terrified population demanding peace and food, and a powerful, victorious army whose commander, following the orders of his Government, offered peace at a terrible price or the complete destruction of London. General von Füchter's brief memorandum of terms ominously hinted that his heavy artillery was positioned to demolish the House of Commons in an hour.

At six o'clock the German terms were accepted, a provisional declaration of peace was signed, and public proclamations to that effect, embodying reference to the deadly perils which would be incurred by those taking part in any kind of street disorder, were issued to the public. As to the nature of the German terms, it must be admitted that they were as pitiless as the German tactics throughout the invasion, and as surely designed to accomplish their end and object. Berlin had not forgotten the wonderful recuperative powers which enabled France to rise so swiftly from out of the ashes of 1870. Britain was to be far more effectually crippled.

At six o'clock, the German terms were accepted, a temporary peace declaration was signed, and public announcements regarding this were issued, warning about the serious dangers of participating in any kind of street disorder. Regarding the German terms, it's clear they were as ruthless as their strategies during the invasion, designed to achieve their goals effectively. Berlin hadn't forgotten the remarkable ability of France to bounce back quickly from the devastation of 1870. Britain would be dealt with much more severely.

The money indemnity demanded by General von Füchter was the largest ever known: one thousand million pounds sterling. But it must be remembered that the enemy already held the Bank of England. One hundred millions, or securities representing that amount, were to be handed over within twenty-four[207] hours. The remaining nine hundred millions were to be paid in nine annual instalments of one hundred millions each, the first of which must be paid within three months. Until the last payment was made, German troops were to occupy Glasgow, Cardiff, Portsmouth, Devonport, Chatham, Yarmouth, Harwich, Hull, and Newcastle. The Transvaal was to be ceded to the Boers under a German Protectorate. Britain was to withdraw all pretensions regarding Egypt and Morocco, and to cede to Germany, Gibraltar, Malta, Ceylon, and British West Africa.

The money indemnity demanded by General von Füchter was the largest ever known: one billion pounds sterling. But it’s important to remember that the enemy already controlled the Bank of England. One hundred million, or securities representing that amount, had to be handed over within twenty-four[207] hours. The remaining nine hundred million would be paid in nine annual installments of one hundred million each, with the first due within three months. Until the last payment was made, German troops would occupy Glasgow, Cardiff, Portsmouth, Devonport, Chatham, Yarmouth, Harwich, Hull, and Newcastle. The Transvaal would be given to the Boers under a German Protectorate. Britain would withdraw all claims regarding Egypt and Morocco, and cede Gibraltar, Malta, Ceylon, and British West Africa to Germany.

It is not necessary for me to quote the few further details of the most exacting demands a victor ever made upon a defeated enemy. There can be no doubt that, in the disastrous circumstances they had been so largely instrumental in bringing about, "The Destroyers" had no choice, no alternative from their acceptance of these crushing terms.

It’s not necessary for me to mention the few additional details of the tough demands a winner ever placed on a defeated foe. There’s no doubt that, in the unfortunate situation they had played a big role in creating, “The Destroyers” had no choice but to accept these harsh terms.

And thus it was that—not at the end of a long and hard-fought war, as the result of vast misfortunes or overwhelming valour on the enemy's side, but simply as the result of the condition of utter and lamentable defencelessness into which a truckling Government and an undisciplined, blindly selfish people had allowed England to lapse—the greatest, wealthiest Power in civilization was brought to its knees in the incredibly short space of one week, by the sudden but scientifically devised onslaught of a single ambitious nation, ruled by a monarch whose lack of scruples was more than balanced by his strength of purpose.

And so it happened that—not after a long and hard-fought war, due to great misfortunes or extraordinary bravery from the enemy, but simply because of the total and unfortunate helplessness into which a submissive government and a selfish, undisciplined population had allowed England to fall—the greatest, wealthiest power in civilization was brought down in the incredibly short span of one week by the sudden, yet carefully planned attack from a single ambitious nation, led by a monarch whose lack of ethics was more than offset by his determination.


XXI
ENGLAND ASLEEP

Evil arises, blossoms, and yields no seed,
And nourishes the green earth with its rapid decay,
Leaving it better for the pursuit of truth.
Lowell.

General von Füchter and his splendidly trained troops were not the only people in England for whom the mere fatigue of that week was something not easily to be forgotten. My impression of its last three days is that they brought no period of rest for any one. I know that there were as many people in the streets by night as by day. The act of going within doors or sitting down, seemed in some way to be a kind of cowardice, a species of shirking, or disloyalty.

General von Füchter and his well-trained soldiers weren't the only ones in England who found the fatigue of that week hard to shake off. From what I remember of the last three days, there was no chance for anyone to rest. I noticed that there were just as many people on the streets at night as during the day. Going inside or sitting down felt like a kind of cowardice, a way to avoid responsibility, or even disloyalty.

I remember Constance Grey assuring me that she had lain down for an hour on Thursday. I can say with certainty that we were both of us on our feet from that time until after the terms of the surrender were made known on Saturday evening. I can also say that no thought of this matter of physical weariness occurred to me until that period of Saturday evening—soon after seven o'clock it was—when the proclamations were posted up in Whitehall, and the special issues of the newspapers containing the peace announcements began to be hawked.[209]

I remember Constance Grey telling me that she had rested for an hour on Thursday. I can say for sure that we were both on our feet from that time until after the terms of the surrender were revealed on Saturday evening. I can also say that I didn't think about being physically exhausted until that Saturday evening—shortly after seven o'clock—when the proclamations were put up in Whitehall, and the special editions of the newspapers announcing the peace started being sold. [209]

An issue of the Standard, a single sheet, with broad black borders, was the first press announcement to reach the public; and it contained a grave, closely reasoned address from the most famous statesman of the Opposition, urging upon the public the need vital of exercising the utmost cautiousness and self-restraint.

An issue of the Standard, a single sheet with wide black borders, was the first press announcement to reach the public. It included a serious, well-reasoned address from the most famous opposition politician, urging the public to exercise extreme caution and self-restraint.

"England has been stricken to the earth," said this dignified statement. "Her condition is critical. If the injury sustained is not to prove mortal, the utmost circumspection is required at this moment. The immediate duty of every loyal subject is quietly to concentrate his energies for the time upon the restoration of normal conditions. In that way only can our suffering country be given that breathing space which is the first step toward recuperation. For my part, I can conceive of no better, quicker method for the individual of serving this end than for him to make the speediest possible return to the pursuit of his ordinary avocation in life. It is to be hoped that, bearing in mind our urgent need, all employers of labour will do their utmost to provide immediate occupation for their work-people. It is not in the tragic catastrophe of the past week, but in the ordeal of this moment, of the coming days, that the real test of England's endurance lies. Never before was her need so great; never before has Nelson's demand had so real and intimate a message for each and every one of us. I pray God the response may ring true. 'England expects that every man will do his duty!'"

"England has been brought to its knees," the dignified statement said. "Her situation is critical. If the injuries sustained aren't fatal, we need to be extremely careful right now. The immediate duty of every loyal citizen is to focus their efforts on restoring normal conditions. Only in this way can our struggling country get the breathing room it needs to start recovering. Personally, I can't think of a better or faster way for individuals to contribute to this than by returning as quickly as possible to their regular jobs. It is hoped that, considering our urgent need, all employers will do everything they can to provide immediate work for their employees. The real test of England's endurance lies not in the tragic events of the past week, but in the challenges of this moment and the days to come. Never has her need been so great; never has Nelson's call had such a genuine and personal meaning for all of us. I pray the response will be strong. 'England expects that every man will do his duty!'"

I must not omit my tribute to those responsible for[210] the salient fact that this important issue of the journal whose unwavering Imperialism had been scoffed at in the mad times before the Invasion, was not sold, but distributed. Employment was found for hundreds of hungry men, women, and children in its free distribution; their wage being the thing they most desired: bread, with soup, which, as I learned that night, was prepared in huge coppers in the foundry of the printing works.

I can’t forget to acknowledge those who were behind[210] the important fact that this significant issue of the journal, whose steadfast Imperialism had been mocked during the chaotic times before the Invasion, was not sold but given away. Jobs were created for hundreds of hungry men, women, and children through its free distribution; their payment was the thing they wanted most: bread, with soup, which, as I learned that night, was made in large pots at the printing works.

I was with Constance Grey in Trafalgar Square when the news of the accepted terms of peace reached us. We had just secured admission into Charing Cross Hospital—not without considerable difficulty, for its wards were crowded—for two wounded nurses from Epping. Together we read the news, and when the end was reached it seemed to me that the light of life and energy passed suddenly out of my companion. She seemed to suffer some bodily change and loss, to be bereft of her spring and erectness.

I was with Constance Grey in Trafalgar Square when we got the news about the accepted terms of peace. We had just managed to get into Charing Cross Hospital—not without a lot of trouble, since the wards were packed—for two injured nurses from Epping. Together we read the news, and when it was over, it felt like all the light and energy suddenly faded from my companion. She seemed to go through some kind of physical change and loss, losing her vitality and uprightness.

"Ah, well," she said, "I am very tired, Dick; and, do you know, it occurs to me I have had nothing to eat since yesterday afternoon. I wonder can we get away from these men, anywhere?"

"Ah, well," she said, "I’m really tired, Dick; and, you know, I just realized I haven't eaten anything since yesterday afternoon. I wonder if we can get away from these guys, somewhere?"

The streets between Victoria and Hyde Park were lined by German cavalry men, who sat motionless on their chargers, erect and soldierly, but, in many cases, fast asleep.

The streets between Victoria and Hyde Park were lined with German cavalrymen, who sat still on their horses, straight and soldierly, but, in many cases, fast asleep.

We began to walk eastward, looking for some place in which we could rest and eat. But every place seemed to be closed.[211]

We started walking east, searching for a spot where we could take a break and grab a bite. But everywhere we looked seemed to be closed.[211]

"How long have you been on your feet?" said Constance, as we passed the Law Courts.

"How long have you been standing?" Constance asked as we walked by the Law Courts.

"Only since Thursday evening," I said. "I had a long rest in that cart, you remember—the one I brought the lint and bandages in."

"Only since Thursday evening," I said. "I had a long rest in that cart, you remember—the one I brought the gauze and bandages in."

Just then we passed a tailor's shop-window, and, in a long, narrow strip of mirror I caught a full-length reflection of myself. I positively turned swiftly to see who could have cast that reflection. Four days without shaving and without a change of collar; two days without even washing my hands or face; four days without undressing, and eight hours' work beside the North London entrenchments—these experiences had made a wild-looking savage of me, and, until that moment, I had never thought of my appearance.

Just then, we walked by a tailor's shop window, and in a long, narrow strip of mirror, I caught a full-length reflection of myself. I quickly turned to see who could have cast that reflection. Four days without shaving and without a change of collar; two days without even washing my hands or face; four days without undressing, and eight hours of work beside the North London entrenchments—these experiences had turned me into a wild-looking mess, and until that moment, I hadn't thought about my appearance at all.

Smoke, earth, and blood had worked their will upon me. My left hand, from which two fingers were missing, was swathed in blackened bandages. My right coat-sleeve had been cut off by a good-natured fellow who had bandaged the flesh wound in my arm to stop its bleeding. My eyes glinted dully in a black face, with curious white fringes round them, where their moisture had penetrated my skin of smoked dirt. And here was I walking beside Constance Grey!

Smoke, dirt, and blood had taken their toll on me. My left hand, missing two fingers, was wrapped in charred bandages. A kind person had cut off my right coat sleeve and bandaged the wound on my arm to stop the bleeding. My eyes had a dull shine in a blackened face, with strange white edges around them, where the moisture had soaked into my smoke-stained skin. And here I was walking next to Constance Grey!

Then I realized, for the first time, that Constance herself bore many traces of these last few terrible days. In some mysterious fashion her face and collar seemed to have escaped scot free; but her dress was torn, ragged, and stained; and the intense weariness of her expression was something I found it hard to bear.[212]

Then I realized, for the first time, that Constance herself showed many signs of these last few awful days. In some strange way her face and collar seemed to have come through unscathed; but her dress was torn, tattered, and stained; and the deep weariness in her expression was something I found hard to endure.[212]

"I was on My Knees and Kissing the Nerveless Hand"

Just then we met Wardle of the Sunday News, and he told us of the bread and soup distribution in the Standard office. Something warned me that Constance had reached the limit of her endurance, and, in another moment, she had reeled against me and almost fallen. I took her in my arms, and Wardle walked beside me, up a flight of stairs and into the office of the great newspaper. There I walked into the first room I saw—the sanctum of some managerial bashaw, for aught I knew—and placed Constance comfortably in a huge easy chair of green leather.

Just then we ran into Wardle from the Sunday News, and he told us about the bread and soup distribution happening in the Standard office. I sensed that Constance had reached her breaking point, and in a moment, she leaned against me and nearly collapsed. I caught her in my arms, and Wardle walked beside me up a flight of stairs and into the office of the big newspaper. I stepped into the first room I saw—the private office of some high-ranking manager, for all I knew—and settled Constance comfortably into a large green leather armchair.

Wardle brought some water, for Constance was in a fainting state still; but I hurried him off again to look for bread and soup. Meantime I lowered Constance to the floor, having just remembered that in such a case the head should be kept low. Her face was positively deathly—lips, cheeks, all alike gray-white, save for the purple hollows under both eyes. One moment I was taking stock of these things, as a doctor might; the next I was on my knees and kissing the nerveless hand at her side, all worn and bruised and stained as it was from her ceaseless strivings of the past week. I knew then that, for me, though I should live a hundred years and Constance should never deign to speak to me again, there was but one woman in the world.

Wardle brought some water because Constance was still fainting, but I quickly sent him off again to find bread and soup. In the meantime, I lowered Constance to the floor, remembering that in situations like this, her head should be kept low. Her face looked completely lifeless—lips, cheeks, all grayish-white, except for the dark circles under her eyes. One moment I was assessing her condition like a doctor; the next, I was on my knees, kissing her limp hand, worn, bruised, and stained from her endless struggles over the past week. I realized then that, for me, even if I lived a hundred years and Constance never spoke to me again, there was only one woman in the world.

I am afraid Wardle found me at the same employ; but, though I remember vaguely resenting his fresh linen and normally smart appearance, he was a good fellow, and knew when to seem blind. All he said was:

I’m afraid Wardle caught me in the same job; but, even though I vaguely remember being annoyed by his clean clothes and generally sharp look, he was a decent guy and knew when to look the other way. All he said was:

"Here's the soup!"

"Here's your soup!"

[213] He had brought a small wash-hand basin full to the brim, and a loaf of warm, new bread. As the steam of the hot soup reached me, I realized that I was a very hungry animal, whatever else I might be besides. It may have been the steam of the soup that rallied Constance. I know that within two minutes I was feeding her with it from a cracked teacup. It is a wonderful thing to watch the effect of a few mouthfuls of hot soup upon an exhausted woman, whose exhaustion is due as much to lack of food as need of rest. There was no spoon, but the teacup, though cracked, was clean, and I found a tumbler in a luxurious little cabinet near the chair one felt was dedicated to the Fleet Street magnate whose room we had invaded. A tumbler is almost as convenient to drink soup from as a cup, but requires more careful manipulation when hot. If the side of the tumbler becomes soupy, it can easily be wiped with the crumb of new bread.

[213] He had brought a small basin filled to the top, and a loaf of warm, fresh bread. As the steam from the hot soup reached me, I realized that I was a very hungry person, whatever else I might be. It might have been the steam from the soup that helped Constance recover. I know that within two minutes, I was feeding her with it from a chipped teacup. It's amazing to see the effect of a few spoonfuls of hot soup on an exhausted woman, whose tiredness comes as much from not eating as from needing rest. There wasn't a spoon, but the teacup, though cracked, was clean, and I found a glass in a fancy little cabinet near the chair that seemed dedicated to the Fleet Street big shot whose room we had taken over. A glass is almost as convenient for drinking soup as a cup, but it requires more careful handling when it's hot. If the side of the glass gets soupy, it can easily be wiped with the crust of fresh bread.

Wardle seemed to be as sufficiently nourished as he was neatly dressed; but he found a certain vicarious pleasure, I think, in watching Constance and myself at the bowl. We sat on the Turkey carpet, and used the seat of the green chair as a table—a strange meal, in strange surroundings; but a better I never had, before or since. There was a physical gratification, a warmth and a comfort to me, in watching the colour flowing gradually back into Constance's face; a singularly beautiful process of nature I thought it. Presently the door of the room opened with a jerk, and a tallish man wearing a silk hat looked in.

Wardle looked well-fed and well-dressed, but I think he took some pleasure in watching Constance and me at the bowl. We sat on the Turkish carpet, using the seat of the green chair as a table—a strange meal in unusual surroundings; yet it was the best I’ve ever had, before or since. There was something satisfying, a warmth and comfort for me, in seeing color slowly return to Constance's face; I thought it was a uniquely beautiful natural process. Suddenly, the door to the room swung open, and a tall man wearing a silk hat peeked in.

"H'm!" he said brusquely. "Beg pardon!"[214] And he was gone. I learned afterwards that the room belonged to him, and that he came direct from a conference of newspaper pundits called together at Westminster by the Home Secretary. I do not know where he took refuge, but as for us we went on with our soup and bread till repletion overtook us, as it quickly does after long fasts, and renewed strength brought sighs of contentment.

"Hmm!" he said sharply. "Sorry about that!"[214] And then he was gone. I found out later that the room was his and that he had just come from a meeting of newspaper experts gathered at Westminster by the Home Secretary. I’m not sure where he went, but we continued with our soup and bread until we were full, which happens fast after being hungry for a while, and the renewed strength brought sighs of satisfaction.

"Wardle," I remember saying to my journalistic friend, with absurd earnestness, "have you anything to smoke?"

"Wardle," I remember saying to my journalist friend, with ridiculous seriousness, "do you have anything to smoke?"

"I haven't a thing but my pipe," he said. "But wait a moment! There used to be—yes. Look here!"

"I don’t have anything except my pipe," he said. "But hold on! There used to be—yeah. Check this out!"

There was a drawer in a side-table near the great writing-table, and one division of it was half-full of cigarettes, the other of Upman's "Torpedoes."

There was a drawer in a side table next to the large writing desk, and one section of it was half full of cigarettes, while the other held Upman's "Torpedoes."

"I will repay thee," I murmured irreverently, as I helped myself to one of each, and lit the cigarette, having obtained permission from Constance. It was the first tobacco I had tasted for forty-eight hours, and I was a very regular smoker. I had not known my need till then, a fact which will tell much to smokers.

"I'll pay you back," I said casually as I took one of each and lit a cigarette, having gotten the go-ahead from Constance. It was the first tobacco I had had in forty-eight hours, and I usually smoked regularly. I hadn't realized how much I needed it until that moment, something that will resonate with smokers.

"And now?" said Constance. Her eyelids were drooping heavily.

"And now?" Constance asked. Her eyelids were feeling really heavy.

"Now I am going to take you straight out to South Kensington, and you are going to rest."

"Now I'm going to take you right out to South Kensington, and you’re going to relax."

I had never used quite that tone to Constance before. I think, till now, hers had been the guiding and directing part. Yet her influence had never been stronger upon me than at that moment.[215]

I had never spoken to Constance in that way before. I believe, until now, she had been the one guiding and directing things. Yet her influence was never stronger on me than it was at that moment.[215]

"Well, of course, there are no cabs or omnibuses," said Wardle, "but a man told me the Underground was running trains at six o'clock."

"Well, of course, there aren't any cabs or buses," said Wardle, "but a guy told me the Underground is running trains at six o'clock."

We had a long, long wait at Blackfriars' station, but a train came eventually, and we reached the flat in South Kensington as a neighbouring church clock struck ten. The journey was curious and impressive from first to last. Fleet Street had been very much alive still when we left it; and we saw long files of baggage wagons rumbling along between Prussian lancers. But Blackfriars was deserted, the ticket collector slept soundly on his box; the streets in South Kensington were silent as the grave.

We had a really long wait at Blackfriars station, but eventually a train showed up, and we got to the flat in South Kensington just as a nearby church clock struck ten. The journey was interesting and impressive from start to finish. Fleet Street was still bustling when we left it, and we saw long lines of baggage wagons rumbling between Prussian lancers. But Blackfriars was empty; the ticket collector was sound asleep on his box, and the streets in South Kensington were as quiet as a graveyard.

London slept that night for the first time in a week. I learned afterwards how the long lines of German sentries in Pall Mall, Park Lane, and elsewhere slept solidly at their posts; how the Metropolitan police slept on their beats; how thousands of men, women, and children slept in the streets of South London, whither they had fled panic-stricken that morning. Conquerors and conquered together, the whole vast city slept that night as never perhaps before or since. After a week of terror, of effort, of despair, and of debauchery, the sorely stricken capital of the British Empire lay that night like a city of the dead. England and her invaders were worn out.

London finally got some rest that night for the first time in a week. I later found out how the long rows of German soldiers in Pall Mall, Park Lane, and other places slept soundly at their posts; how the Metropolitan police dozed off on their beats; and how thousands of men, women, and children slept in the streets of South London, where they had fled in panic that morning. Conquerors and the conquered alike, the entire sprawling city slept that night like never before or since. After a week of terror, struggle, despair, and debauchery, the battered capital of the British Empire lay that night like a ghost town. England and her invaders were completely worn out.

At the flat we found Mrs. Van Homrey placidly knitting.

At the apartment, we found Mrs. Van Homrey calmly knitting.

"Well, young folk," she said cheerily; "I've had all the news, and there's nothing to be said; and—there's bath and bed waiting for you, Conny. I shall bring you something hot in your room."[216]

"Well, kids," she said happily, "I’ve got all the updates, and there’s really nothing to mention; and—there’s a bath and bed waiting for you, Conny. I’ll bring you something warm to your room."[216]

Ah, the kindly comfort of that motherly soul's words! It was but a few hours since her "Conny" had stood by my side on ground that was literally blood-soaked. Since the previous night we had both seen Death in his most terrible guise; Death swinging his dripping scythe through scores of lives at a stroke. We had been in England's riven heart throughout the day of England's bitterest humiliation; and Mrs. Van Homrey had bed and bath waiting, with "something hot" for Constance to take in her room.

Ah, the comforting words of that caring mother! It had only been a few hours since her "Conny" stood beside me on ground that was literally soaked with blood. Since the night before, we had both faced Death in his most horrifying form; Death swinging his bloody scythe through countless lives all at once. We had been in the heart of England’s greatest suffering all day; and Mrs. Van Homrey had a bed and bath ready, along with "something hot" for Constance to have in her room.

"But, Aunty, if you could have seen——"

"But, Aunty, if you could have seen——"

"Dear child, I know it all." She patted her niece's shoulder, and I noticed the rings and the shiny softness of her fingers. She saw at a glance—indeed, had seen beforehand, in anticipation—the wrought-up, exhausted condition Constance had reached. "I know it all, dear," she said soothingly. "But the time has come for rest now. Nothing else is any good till that is done with. Come, child. God will send better days for England. First, we must rest."

"Dear child, I understand everything." She patted her niece's shoulder, and I noticed the rings and the soft shine of her fingers. She recognized immediately—actually, she had anticipated—the exhausted state Constance was in. "I understand everything, dear," she said gently. "But now it's time to rest. Nothing else will work until that's taken care of. Come, child. God will bring better days for England. First, we need to rest."

So Constance turned to leave the room.

So Constance turned to leave the room.

"And you?" she said to me.

"And you?" she asked.

"I will see to him. You run along, my dear," said her aunt. So Constance took my hand.

"I'll take care of him. You go on, my dear," said her aunt. So Constance took my hand.

"Good night, Dick. You have been very good and kind, and—patient. Good night!"

"Good night, Dick. You've been really good and nice, and—patient. Good night!"

There was no spare bedroom in that little flat, but the dear old lady had actually made up a bed for me on a couch in the drawing-room, and before she retired for the night she made me free of the bathroom,[217] and supplied me with towels and such like matters, and gave me cake and cocoa; a delicious repast I thought it. And so, while crushed and beaten London lay sleeping off its exhaustion, I slept under Constance Grey's roof, full of gratitude, and of a kind of new hope and gladness, very foreign, one would have said, to my gruesome experiences of the past forty-eight hours.

There wasn't a spare bedroom in that little flat, but the kind old lady actually set up a bed for me on a couch in the living room. Before she went to bed, she let me use the bathroom,[217] gave me towels and other essentials, and offered me cake and cocoa, which I thought was a delicious treat. So, while the tired city of London rested from its exhaustion, I slept under Constance Grey's roof, feeling grateful and filled with a sense of new hope and happiness, something very different from my grim experiences over the past forty-eight hours.

England, the old victorious island kingdom, bequeathed to us by Raleigh, Drake, Nelson; the nineteenth-century England of triumphant commercialism; England till then inviolate for a thousand years; rich and powerful beyond all other lands; broken now under the invader's heel—that ancient England slept.

England, the old victorious island kingdom passed down to us by Raleigh, Drake, and Nelson; the nineteenth-century England of triumphant commercialism; England that had remained untouched for a thousand years; rich and powerful beyond all other lands; now broken under the invader's heel—that ancient England lay in slumber.


PART II
THE AWAKENING

Exoriare aliquis de nostris ex ossibus ultor.—Virgil.

Exoriare algún vengador de nuestros huesos. —Virgil.


I
THE FIRST DAYS

The river flows at its own pace. Dear God! The houses look like they're asleep; And that strong heart is lying still!

Without you, what is all the morning's richness? Come, blessed boundary between day and day,
Dear Mother of new ideas and good health!
Wordsworth.

It is safe to say that England's exhausted sleep on the night of Black Saturday marked the end of an era in British history. It was followed by a curious, quiescent half-consciousness during Sunday. For the greater part of that day I should suppose that more than half London's populace continued its sleep.

It is safe to say that England's tired rest on the night of Black Saturday marked the end of a chapter in British history. This was followed by a strange, quiet half-awareness throughout Sunday. I would guess that for most of that day, more than half of London’s population kept on sleeping.

One of the first things I realized after Monday morning's awakening in my Bloomsbury lodging was that I must find wages and work speedily, since I possessed no more than a very few pounds. As a fact, upon that and several subsequent days I found plenty of work, if nothing noticeable in the way of wages. I was second in command of one of the food and labour bureaux which Constance Grey helped to organize, and all the workers in these bureaux were volunteers.[222]

One of the first things I realized after waking up Monday morning in my Bloomsbury place was that I needed to find a job and some income fast, since I had very little money left. In fact, over that and several following days, I found plenty of work, although the pay wasn’t anything impressive. I was the second in charge of one of the food and labor bureaus that Constance Grey helped set up, and all the workers in these bureaus were volunteers.[222]

Another of my first impressions after the crisis was a sense of my actual remoteness, in normal circumstances, from Constance. Her father had left Constance a quite sufficient income. Mrs. Van Homrey was in her own right comfortably well-to-do. But, despite the exiguous nature of my own resources, it was not the money question which impressed me most in this connection, but rather the fact that, while my only acquaintances in London were of a more or less discreditable sort, Constance seemed to have friends everywhere, and these in almost every case people of standing and importance. Her army friends were apt to be generals, her political friends ex-Ministers, her journalistic friends editors, and so forth. And I—— But you have seen my record up to this point.

Another one of my first impressions after the crisis was a realization of how disconnected I actually was from Constance under normal circumstances. Her father had left her a pretty decent income. Mrs. Van Homrey was well-off on her own. But, despite my limited resources, what struck me most wasn’t the money situation, but rather the fact that while my only acquaintances in London were somewhat questionable, Constance seemed to have friends everywhere, and almost all of them were people of significant status and importance. Her army friends tended to be generals, her political friends were former ministers, her journalist friends were editors, and so on. And I—well, you’ve seen my track record up to this point.

Nobody could possibly want Constance so much as I did, I thought. But an astonishing number of persons of infinitely more consequence than myself seemed to delight to honour her, to obtain her coöperation. And I loved her. There was no possibility of my mistaking the fact. I had been used to debate with myself regarding Sylvia Wheeler. There was no room for debate where my feeling for Constance was concerned. The hour of her breakdown in Fleet Street on Black Saturday had taught me so much.

Nobody could possibly want Constance as much as I did, I thought. But a surprising number of people far more important than me seemed to take pleasure in honoring her and getting her to collaborate. And I loved her. There was no chance I could misinterpret that. I had often debated with myself about Sylvia Wheeler. But there was no room for debate when it came to my feelings for Constance. The moment she broke down on Fleet Street on Black Saturday had taught me so much.

In the face of my circumstances just then, the idea of making any definite disclosure of my feelings to Constance seemed impracticable. Yet there was one intimate passage between us during that week, the nature of which I cannot precisely define. I know I conveyed some hint to Constance of my feeling toward[223] her, and I was made vaguely conscious that anything like a declaration of love would have seemed shocking to her at that time. She held that, at such a juncture, no merely personal interests ought to be allowed to weigh greatly with any one. The country's call upon its subjects was all-absorbing in the eyes of this "one little bit of a girl from South Africa," as Crondall had called her. It made me feel ashamed to realize how far short I fell (even after the shared experiences culminating in Black Saturday) of her personal standard of patriotism. Even now, my standing in her eyes, my immediate personal needs, loomed nearer, larger in my mind than England's fate. I admitted as much with some shamefacedness, and Constance said:

Given my situation at that time, the thought of expressing my feelings to Constance seemed impractical. However, there was one intimate moment we shared that week, which I can’t clearly define. I know I hinted to Constance about my feelings for her, and I realized that anything resembling a confession of love would have shocked her back then. She believed that, at such a critical time, no personal interests should weigh heavily on anyone. The country’s call for duty was all-encompassing in the eyes of this “little girl from South Africa,” as Crondall had called her. It made me feel ashamed to recognize how far I fell short— even after what we experienced together on Black Saturday—of her personal standard of patriotism. Even now, my standing in her eyes and my immediate needs felt more significant to me than England’s fate. I acknowledged this with some embarrassment, and Constance said:

"Ah, well, Dick, I suspect that is a natural part of life lived entirely in England, the England of the past. There was so little to arouse the other part in one. All the surrounding influences were against it. My life has been different. Once one has lived, in one's own home, through a native rising, for instance, purely personal interests never again seem quite so absorbing. The elemental things had been so long shut out of English life. Why, do you know——?" And she began to tell me of one of the schemes in which she was interested; in connection with which I learned of a cable message she had received that day telling that John Crondall was then on his way to England.

"Well, Dick, I think that's just a natural part of life in England, especially the England of the past. There was so little to spark the other side of someone. Everything around was against it. My life has been different. Once you’ve experienced a native uprising in your own home, for example, personal interests never feel quite as engaging. The basic elements of life had been shut out of English society for so long. You know what? —" And she started to tell me about one of the projects she was involved in, during which I found out about a cable message she received that day saying that John Crondall was on his way to England.

The least forgiving critics of "The Destroyers" have admitted that they did their best and worked well during those strange weeks which came immediately[224] after the invasion. One reason of this was that party feeling in politics had been scotched. The House of Commons met as one party. There was no longer any real Opposition, unless one counted a small section of rabid anti-Britishers, who were incapable of learning a lesson; and even they carped but feebly, while the rest of the House devoted its united energies to the conduct of the country's shattered business with the single aim of restoring normal conditions. Throughout the country two things were tacitly admitted. That the Government in power must presently answer for its doings to the public before ceasing to be a Government; and that the present was no time for such business as that of a general election.

The harshest critics of "The Destroyers" have acknowledged that they did their best and worked effectively during those strange weeks right after the invasion. One reason for this was that political party loyalties had been set aside. The House of Commons operated as a single unit. There was no real Opposition anymore, except for a small group of extreme anti-British individuals who were unable to learn from their mistakes; and even they only criticized weakly, while the rest of the House focused its combined efforts on managing the country's disrupted affairs with the sole goal of restoring normalcy. Across the nation, two things were understood. First, that the current Government must soon answer to the public for its actions if it wanted to remain in power; and second, that now was not the time for a general election.

And so we had the spectacle of a Government which had entirely lost the confidence of the electors, a Government anathematized from the Orkneys to Land's End, carrying on its work with a unison and a complete freedom from opposition such as had not been known before, even by the biggest majority or the most popular Administration which had ever sat at Westminster. For the first time, and by no effort of our own, we obtained the rule of an Imperial Parliament devoted to no other end than the nation's welfare. The House of Commons witnessed many novel spectacles at that time—such as consultations between the leading members of the Government and the Opposition. Most of its members learned many valuable lessons in those first weeks of the new régime. It is to be supposed that the Surrender Riot had taught them something.

And so we had the unusual situation of a government that had completely lost the trust of the voters, a government criticized from the Orkneys to Land's End, continuing its work with a unity and total lack of opposition that hadn’t been seen before, even by the largest majority or the most popular administration that had ever been in Westminster. For the first time, and without any effort on our part, we gained the leadership of an Imperial Parliament focused solely on the nation's welfare. The House of Commons saw many new situations at that time—like discussions between the key members of the government and the opposition. Most of its members learned many important lessons during those first weeks of the new regime. It can be assumed that the Surrender Riot had taught them something.

It must also be admitted that General, or, as he[225] now was, General Baron von Füchter, accomplished some fine work during this same period. It has been said that he was but consulting the safety of his Imperial master's armed forces; but credit may safely be given the General for the discretion and despatch he used in distributing the huge body of troops at his command, without hitch or friction, to the various centres which it was his plan to occupy. His was a hand of iron, but he used it to good purpose; and the few errors of his own men were punished with an even more crushing severity than he showed where British offences were concerned.

It should also be acknowledged that General, or now General Baron von Füchter, did some impressive work during this time. Some say he was just looking out for the safety of his Imperial master's armed forces, but credit can definitely be given to the General for the careful and quick way he managed the massive number of troops under his control, without any problems, to the various locations he intended to occupy. He had a strong hand, but he used it effectively; and the few mistakes made by his own troops were punished even more harshly than he dealt with British offenses.

The task of garrisoning those English ports with German soldiers was no light or easy one; no task for a light or gentle hand. In carrying out this undertaking a very little weakness, a very small display of indecision, might easily have meant an appalling amount of bloodshed. As it was, the whole business was completed in a wonderfully short while, and with remarkable smoothness. The judicial and municipal administration of these centres was to remain English; but supreme authority was vested in the officer commanding the German forces in each place, and the heads of such departments as the postal and the police, were German. No kind of public gathering or demonstration was permissible in these towns, unless under the auspices of the German officer in command, who in each case was given the rank of Governor of the town.

The job of stationed German soldiers at those English ports was no small or easy task; it wasn't something for a gentle touch. Carrying this out required strength, as even a slight weakness or hint of indecision could have led to a massive amount of bloodshed. As it turned out, the entire process was completed in a surprisingly short time and went remarkably smoothly. The judicial and municipal administration in these areas was to stay English, but ultimate authority was held by the officer in charge of the German forces at each location, and the heads of departments like the postal service and police were German. No public gatherings or demonstrations were allowed in these towns unless authorized by the German officer in command, who was given the title of Governor of the town in each case.

We had learned by this time that the Channel Fleet had not been entirely swept away. But a portion of it was destroyed, and the remaining ships had[226] been entrapped. It was strategy which had kept British ships from our coasts during the fatal week of the invasion. "The Destroyers" were responsible for our weak-kneed concessions to Berlin some years earlier, in the matter of wireless telegraphy. In the face of urgent recommendations to the contrary from experts, the Government had yielded to German pressure in the matter of making our own system interchangeable, and had even boasted of their diplomacy in thus ingratiating themselves with Germany. As a consequence, the enemy had been able to convey messages purporting to come from the British Admiralty and ordering British commanders to keep out of home waters.

We had found out by this time that the Channel Fleet hadn’t been completely wiped out. But some of it was destroyed, and the remaining ships had[226] been trapped. It was strategy that kept British ships away from our coasts during the disastrous week of the invasion. "The Destroyers" were to blame for our weak concessions to Berlin a few years earlier regarding wireless telegraphy. Despite strong recommendations against it from experts, the Government had given in to German pressure about making our own system interchangeable, and even bragged about their diplomacy in trying to win favor with Germany. As a result, the enemy was able to send messages that seemed to come from the British Admiralty, ordering British commanders to stay out of home waters.

That these messages should have been conveyed in secret code form was a mystery which subsequent investigations failed to solve. Some one had played traitor. But the history of the invasion has shown us that we had very many traitors among us in those days; and there came a time when the British public showed clearly that it was weary of Commissions of Inquiry. Where so many, if not indeed all of us, were at fault, where the penalty was so crushing, it was felt that there were other and more appropriate openings for official energy and public interest than the mere apportioning of blame and punishment, however well deserved.

That these messages were sent in secret code was a mystery that later investigations couldn’t figure out. Someone had betrayed us. But the history of the invasion has shown that we had quite a few traitors among us back then; eventually, the British public made it clear that they were tired of Commissions of Inquiry. When so many, if not all of us, were at fault and the consequences were so severe, people felt there were better ways for officials to focus their efforts and for the public to engage than just assigning blame and punishment, no matter how justified.

The issue of what was called the "Invasion Budget" was Parliament's first important act, after the dispersal of the German forces in England, and the termination of the Government distribution of food supplies. The alterations of customs tariff were[227] not particularly notable. The House had agreed that revenue was the objective to be considered, and fiscal adjustments with reference to commerce were postponed for the time. The great change was in the income-tax. The minimum income to be taxed was £100 instead of, as formerly, £160. The scale ran like this: sixpence in the pound upon incomes of between £100 and £150, ninepence from that to £200, one shilling from that to £250, one and threepence from that to £500, one and sixpence from that to £1,000, two shillings upon all incomes of between £1,000 and £5,000, and four shillings in the pound upon all incomes of over £5,000.

The issue known as the "Invasion Budget" was Parliament's first significant action after the German forces were dispersed in England and the Government stopped distributing food supplies. The changes to the customs tariff were[227] not particularly noteworthy. The House agreed that revenue was the main goal to focus on, and adjustments regarding commerce were put off for now. The major change was in the income tax. The minimum income to be taxed was £100, down from the previous £160. The tax rates were as follows: sixpence on incomes between £100 and £150, ninepence from £150 to £200, one shilling from £200 to £250, one shilling and threepence from £250 to £500, one shilling and sixpence from £500 to £1,000, two shillings on all incomes between £1,000 and £5,000, and four shillings on all incomes over £5,000.

It was on the day following that of the Invasion Budget issue that I received a letter from my sister Lucy, in Davenham Minster, telling me of my mother's serious illness, and asking me to come to her at once. And so, after a hurried visit to the South Kensington flat to explain my absence to Constance, I turned my back upon London, for the first time in a year, and journeyed down into Dorset.

It was the day after the Invasion Budget issue when I got a letter from my sister Lucy in Davenham Minster, telling me about our mother's serious illness and asking me to come immediately. So, after a quick visit to the flat in South Kensington to explain my absence to Constance, I left London for the first time in a year and traveled down to Dorset.


II
ANCIENT LIGHTS

Then the offspring that springs From the forests of our country,
Equipped with thunder and wearing wings,
Shall a broader world lead.
Regions Caesar never knew Your descendants will rule.

Cowper.

In the afternoon of a glorious summer's day, exactly three weeks after leaving London, I stood beside the newly filled grave of my mother in the moss-grown old churchyard of Davenham Minster.

In the afternoon of a beautiful summer day, exactly three weeks after leaving London, I stood next to my mother's freshly filled grave in the moss-covered old churchyard of Davenham Minster.

My dear mother was not one of those whose end was hastened by the shock of England's disaster. Doctor Wardle gave us little hope of her recovery from the first. The immediate cause of death was pneumonia; but I gathered that my mother had come to the end of her store of vitality, and, it may be, of desire for life. I have sometimes thought that her complete freedom from those domestic cares of housekeeping, which had seemed to be the very source and fountainhead of continuous worry for her, may actually have robbed my mother of much of her hold upon life. In these last days I had been almost continuously[229] beside her, and I know that she relinquished her life without one sigh that spelt regret.

My dear mother was not one of those whose life was cut short by the shock of England's disaster. Doctor Wardle gave us little hope for her recovery from the start. The immediate cause of death was pneumonia, but I sensed that my mother had reached the end of her strength, and perhaps her desire to live. I've sometimes thought that her complete escape from the domestic responsibilities of housekeeping, which had seemed to be the very source of her constant worry, might have actually taken away much of her will to live. In these last days, I had been almost continuously[229] by her side, and I know that she let go of her life without a single sigh of regret.

Standing there at the edge of her grave in the hoary churchyard of the Minster, I was conscious of the loss of the last tie that bound me to the shelter of youth: the cared-for, irresponsible division of a man's life. The England of my youth was no more. Now, in the death of my mother, it seemed as if I had stepped out of one generation into another. I had entered a new generation, and was alone in it.

Standing there at the edge of her grave in the old churchyard of the Minster, I felt the loss of the last connection that tied me to the comfort of my youth: the looked-after, carefree phase of a man's life. The England of my youth was gone. Now, with my mother's death, it felt like I had stepped from one generation into another. I had entered a new generation and was alone in it.

I was to sleep at my sister's house that night, but I had no wish to go there now. Doctor Wardle's forced gravity, his cheerful condolences, rather worried me. So it happened that I set out to walk from the churchyard, and presently found myself upon the winding upland road that led out of the rich Davenham valley, over the Ridgeway, and into the hilly Tarn Regis country, where I was born.

I was supposed to sleep at my sister's house that night, but I really didn't want to go there now. Doctor Wardle's forced seriousness and his cheerful sympathy kind of unsettled me. So I ended up walking away from the churchyard and soon found myself on the winding uphill road that led out of the lush Davenham valley, over the Ridgeway, and into the hilly Tarn Regis area, where I was born.

I drank a mug of cider in the quaint little beerhouse kept by Gammer Joy in Tarn Regis, and read again the doggerel her grandfather had painted on its sign-board, in which the traveller was advised of the various uses of liquor, taken in moderation, and the evil effects of its abuse. Taken wisely, I remember, it was suggested that liquor proved the best of lubricants for the wheels of life. Mrs. Joy looked just as old and just as active and rosy as she had always looked for so long as I could remember; and she hospitably insisted upon my eating a large slab of her dough cake with my cider—a very excellent comestible it was.

I sipped a mug of cider in the cozy little beerhouse run by Gammer Joy in Tarn Regis and read again the poem her grandfather had painted on the signboard, advising travelers about the various benefits of liquor when enjoyed in moderation and the negative effects of overindulgence. It suggested that, taken wisely, liquor was the best lubricant for the wheels of life. Mrs. Joy looked just as old, lively, and cheerful as I remembered her being for as long as I could recall, and she warmly insisted that I have a big slice of her dough cake with my cider—a truly delicious treat it was.

The old dame's mood was cheerfully pessimistic—that[230] is to say, she was garrulous, and spoke cheerily of generally downward tendencies. Thus, the new rector, by her way of it, was of a decadent modern type, full of newfangled "Papish" notions as to church vestments and early services, and neglectful of traditional responsibilities connected with soup and coal and medical comforts. Cider was no longer what it used to be, I gathered, since the big brewers took it in hand, and spoiled the trade of those who had hand-presses. As for farming, Gammer Joy held that it was not near so good a trade for master or man with land at fifteen shillings the acre, as much of it was thereabouts, as it had been with rents up to two or three pounds, and food twice as dear as now.

The old lady had a cheerfully pessimistic outlook—she talked a lot and happily about all the negative trends. In her opinion, the new rector was a modern type who was out of touch, full of trendy "Papish" ideas about church outfits and early services, and ignored traditional duties related to food and heating. I gathered that cider wasn’t what it used to be since the big breweries took over and ruined the business for those who pressed it themselves. As for farming, Gammer Joy believed it wasn’t nearly as profitable for either landowners or workers with land going for fifteen shillings an acre, which was the case around there, as it had been when rents were two or three pounds, and food was twice as expensive as it is now.

"But there, Master Dick," said the old lady; "I suppose we be all Germans now—so they do tell me, however; an' if we be no better nor furriners here in Darset, why I doan't know as't matters gertly wha' cwomes to us at all. But I will say things wor different in your feyther's time, Master Dick—that they was. Ah doan't believe he'd ha' put up wi' this German business for a minute, that ah doan't."

"But there, Master Dick," said the old lady; "I guess we're all Germans now – that's what they keep telling me. And if we’re no better than foreigners here in Dorset, I don’t see how it matters much what happens to us at all. But I will say things were different in your father's time, Master Dick – that they were. I really don’t believe he would have put up with this German situation for a minute, I really don’t."

I gathered that the new rector was an earnest young man and a hard worker; but, evidently, those of Gammer Joy's generation preferred my father's aloofness in conjunction with his regular material dispensations, and his habit of leaving folk severely to themselves, so far as their thoughts and feelings were concerned.

I figured that the new rector was a serious young guy and a diligent worker; however, it was clear that people from Gammer Joy's generation liked my father's distant approach combined with his usual material support, and his tendency to leave people mostly to their own thoughts and feelings.

The cottagers with whom I talked that summer's evening cherished a monumental ignorance regarding[231] the real significance of the events which had shaken England to its very roots since I had last seen Tarn Regis. Gammer Joy's view seemed to be fairly typical. We had become German; England belonged to Germany; the Radicals had sold us to the Kaiser—and so forth. But no German soldiers had been seen in Dorset. The whole thing was shadowy, academic, a political business; suitable enough for the discussion of Londoners, no doubt, but, after all, of small bearing upon questions of real and intimate interest, such as the harvest, the weather, and the rate of wages.

The cottagers I spoke with on that summer evening had a significant misunderstanding about[231] the true importance of the events that had shaken England to its core since I last saw Tarn Regis. Gammer Joy's perspective seemed pretty typical. We had become German; England belonged to Germany; the Radicals had sold us out to the Kaiser—and so on. But no German soldiers had been spotted in Dorset. The whole situation felt vague, theoretical, a matter of politics; likely suitable for discussion among Londoners, but ultimately not very relevant to real, personal concerns like the harvest, the weather, and wages.

"Sims queer, too, that us should be born again like, and become Germans," said one man to me; "but ah doan't know as it meakes much odds to the loike o' we; though ah hev heerd as how Farmer Jupp be thinkin' o' gettin' shut o' his shartharn bull that won the prize to Davenham, an' doin' wi' fower men an' a b'y, in place o' sevin. Well, o' course, us has to keep movin' wi' the times, as sayin' is; an' 'tis trew them uplan' pastures o' Farmer Jupp's they do be mos' onusual poor an' leery, as you med say."

"Sims, it’s strange that we should be born again like this and become Germans," one man said to me; "but I don't know if it really matters much to people like us; though I have heard that Farmer Jupp is thinking about getting rid of his shorthorn bull that won the prize at Davenham and managing with four men and a boy instead of seven. Well, of course, we have to keep moving with the times, as they say; and it's true those upland pastures of Farmer Jupp's are mostly unusually poor and tricky, as you might say."

Twilight already held the land in its grave embrace when I made my way along Abbott's Lane (my father had devoted months to the task of tracing the origin of that name) and began the ascent of Barebarrow, by crossing which diagonally one reaches the Davenham turnpike from Tarn Regis, a shorter route by nearly a mile than that of the road past the mill and over the bridge. And so, presently, my feet were treading turf which had probably been turf before the Christian era. Smooth and vast against the sky-line,[232] Barebarrow lay above me, like a mammoth at rest.

Twilight had already wrapped the land in its quiet embrace when I walked along Abbott's Lane (my dad had spent months figuring out where that name came from) and started to climb Barebarrow. By crossing it diagonally, you can reach the Davenham turnpike from Tarn Regis, which is almost a mile shorter than the route past the mill and over the bridge. Soon enough, I was stepping on grass that had likely been there since before the Christian era. Smooth and expansive against the skyline,[232] Barebarrow loomed above me, like a giant at rest.

On its far side was our Tarn Regis giant, a famous figure cut in the turf, and clearly visible from the tower of Davenham Minster. Long ago, in my earliest childhood, village worthies had given me the story of this figure—how once upon a time a giant came and slew all the Tarn Regis flocks for his breakfast. Then he lay down to sleep behind Barebarrow, and while he slept the enraged shepherds and work-folk bound him with a thousand cart-ropes, and slew him with a thousand scythes and forks and other homely implements. And then, that posterity might know his fearsome bulk, they cut out the turf all round his form, and eke the outline of the club beside him, and left the figure there to commemorate their valour and the loss of their flocks. Some three hundred feet long it was, I think, with a club the length of a tall pine-tree. In any case, the Tarn Regis lad who would excel in feats of strength had but to spend the night of Midsummer's Eve in the crook of the giant's arm (as some one or two did every year), and other youths of the countryside could never stand a chance with him.

On its far side was our Tarn Regis giant, a well-known figure carved into the grass, clearly visible from the tower of Davenham Minster. Long ago, when I was just a child, the village elders shared the story of this figure—how a giant once came and killed all the Tarn Regis sheep for his breakfast. Then he lay down to sleep behind Barebarrow, and while he slept, the angry shepherds and workers tied him up with a thousand cart ropes and killed him with a thousand scythes, forks, and other everyday tools. To ensure future generations would remember his enormous size, they cut the grass around his body and even outlined the club beside him, leaving the figure there to honor their bravery and the loss of their sheep. I think it was about three hundred feet long, with a club the length of a tall pine tree. In any case, the Tarn Regis boy who wanted to be the strongest just had to spend the night of Midsummer's Eve in the crook of the giant's arm (which some people did every year), and no other young men in the area would stand a chance against him.

I paused on the ledge below the barrow beside a ruined shepherd's hut, and recalled the fact that here my father had unearthed sundry fragments of stone and pieces of implements which the Dorchester Museum curator had welcomed as very early British relics. They went back, I remembered, to long before the Roman period; to days possibly more remote than those of ancient Barebarrow himself. If you[233] refer to a good map you will find this spot surrounded by such indications of immemorial antiquity as "Tumuli," "British Village," and the like. The Roman encampment on the other side of Davenham Minster was modernity itself, I thought, compared with this ancient haunt of the neolithic forerunners of the early Briton; this resting-place of men whose doings were a half-forgotten story many centuries before the birth of Julius Cæsar.

I stopped on the ledge below the barrow next to a ruined shepherd's hut and remembered that my father had dug up various fragments of stone and tools that the curator of the Dorchester Museum had excitedly accepted as very early British artifacts. I recalled they dated back long before the Roman period, possibly to times even more distant than those of ancient Barebarrow himself. If you[233] check a good map, you'll see this spot surrounded by signs of ancient history like "Tumuli," "British Village," and so on. The Roman camp on the other side of Davenham Minster felt like modern times compared to this ancient place where the neolithic ancestors of early Britons once roamed; this resting place of people whose stories were nearly forgotten centuries before Julius Caesar was born.

I sat down on the grassy ledge and looked out across the lichen-covered roofs and squat, rugged church tower of Tarn Regis; and pictures rose in my mind, pictures to some extent inspired, perhaps, by scraps I had read of learned essays written by my father. He had loved this ancient ground; he had been used to finger the earth hereabouts as a man might finger his mistress's hair. I do not know what period my twilit fancy happened upon, but it was assuredly a later one than that of Barebarrow, for I saw shaggy warriors with huge pointless swords, their hilts decorated with the teeth of wild beasts—a Bronze Age vision, no doubt. I saw rude chariots of war, with murderous scythe-blades on their wheels—and, in a flash then, the figure of Boadicea: that valiant mother of our race, erect and fearless in her chariot—

I sat down on the grassy edge and looked out over the lichen-covered roofs and stout, worn church tower of Tarn Regis; and images filled my mind, images somewhat inspired, perhaps, by bits I had read of scholarly essays written by my father. He had cherished this ancient land; he would touch the ground around here as a man might caress his partner's hair. I’m not sure what time period my twilight thoughts wandered to, but it was definitely later than that of Barebarrow, because I saw shaggy warriors with massive, dull swords, their hilts adorned with the teeth of wild animals—a vision from the Bronze Age, no doubt. I saw crude war chariots with deadly scythe blades on their wheels—and then, in an instant, the figure of Boadicea: that brave mother of our people, standing tall and fearless in her chariot—

Regions Caesar never knew,
Your descendants will prevail!

"Thy posterity shall sway!" If you repeat the lines to yourself you may see the outline of my vision. There at the foot of Barebarrow I saw that Queen of ancient Britons at the head of her wild, shaggy[234] legions. "The Roman Army can never withstand the shouts and clamour of so many thousands, far less their shock and fury," said the Queen. I saw her lead her valiant horde upon Colchester, and for me the ancient rudeness of it all was shot through and through with glimpses of the scientific sacking of Colchester, as I had read of it but a few weeks ago. I saw the advance of the Roman Governor; the awful slaughter of the British; the end of the brave Queen who could not brook defeat: the most heart-stirring episode in English history.

"Your descendants will rule!" If you repeat those lines to yourself, you might grasp the essence of my vision. There at the base of Barebarrow, I saw that Queen of ancient Britons leading her wild, shaggy[234] legions. "The Roman Army can never withstand the cries and chaos of so many thousands, let alone their charge and rage," said the Queen. I watched her lead her fearless warriors against Colchester, and for me, the ancient rawness of it all was intertwined with glimpses of the scientific pillaging of Colchester, as I had read about just a few weeks ago. I saw the Roman Governor advancing; the horrific slaughter of the British; the end of the brave Queen who could not accept defeat: the most stirring moment in English history.

"Thy posterity shall sway!" I recalled the solemn splendour of another great Queen's passing—that which I had seen with my own eyes while still a lad at Rugby: the stately gathering of the great ships at Spithead; the end of Victoria the Good. No more than a step it seemed from my vision of the unconquerable Boadicea. But to that other onslaught upon Colchester—to General von Füchter's slaughter of women and children and unarmed men in streets of houses whose ashes must be warm yet—O Lord, how far! I thought. Could it really be that a thousand years of inviolability had been broken, ended, in those few wild days; ended for ever?

"Your descendants will prevail!" I remembered the solemn grandeur of another great Queen's funeral—that which I had witnessed with my own eyes while still a kid at Rugby: the impressive assembly of the great ships at Spithead; the passing of Victoria the Good. It felt like only a step from my vision of the unstoppable Boadicea. But to that other attack on Colchester—to General von Füchter's massacre of women, children, and unarmed men in streets lined with houses whose ashes must still be warm—oh Lord, what a distance! I wondered. Could it really be that a thousand years of safety had been shattered, ended, in those few chaotic days; ended forever?

Lights twinkled now among the nestling houses of the little place where I was born. They made me think of torches, the clash of arms, the spacious mediæval days when Davenham Minster supported a great monastery, whose lordly abbot owned the land Tarn Regis stood upon.

Lights twinkled now among the cozy houses of the small town where I was born. They reminded me of torches, the sound of clashing weapons, and the grand medieval days when Davenham Minster housed a large monastery, whose powerful abbot owned the land that Tarn Regis stood on.

And then the little lights grew misty and dim in my eyes as glimpses came of my own early days; of[235] play on that very ridge-side where I sat now, where I had then romantically sworn friendship with George Stairs on the eve of my departure for Elstree School, and his leaving with his father for Canada. How had I kept my vow? Where was George Stairs now? There was not a foot of that countryside we had not roamed together. My eyes pricked as I looked and listened. Exactly so, I thought, the sheep-bells had sounded below Barebarrow when I had lain listening to them in that low-pitched back bedroom of the Rectory which I had been proud to hear called "Dick's Room," after my first experience of sleeping alone.

And then the little lights blurred and faded in my eyes as memories of my own childhood flashed before me; of[235] playing on that same hillside where I sat now, where I had once dramatically promised friendship to George Stairs on the night before I left for Elstree School, and he left with his dad for Canada. How had I kept my promise? Where was George Stairs now? There wasn’t a part of that countryside we hadn’t explored together. My eyes stung as I looked and listened. Just like that, I thought, the sheep bells sounded below Barebarrow when I lay there listening in that low-ceilinged back bedroom of the Rectory, which I had been proud to call "Dick's Room" after my first time sleeping alone.

Then for a space my mind was blank as the dark valley beyond the village—until thoughts and pictures of recent happenings began to oust the gentler memories, and I lived over again the mad, wild, tragic week which culminated in the massacre of the North London trenches. But in the light of my previous musings I saw these happenings differently, more personally, than in the actual experience of them. It seemed now that not my country only, but myself, had been struck down and humbled to the dust by the soldiers of the Kaiser. I saw the broad fair faces of the German cavalry as they had sat their horse in Whitehall on the evening of Black Saturday. I heard again the clank of their arms, the barking of guttural orders. Could it be that they had mastered England? that for nine long years we were to be encircled by their garrisons? Nine years of helotry!

Then for a moment my mind was blank like the dark valley beyond the village—until thoughts and images of recent events started to push out the softer memories, and I relived the crazy, wild, tragic week that ended with the massacre in the North London trenches. But in light of my earlier reflections, I viewed these events differently, more personally, than when I actually lived through them. It felt like not just my country, but I myself had been struck down and brought low by the soldiers of the Kaiser. I recalled the broad, fair faces of the German cavalry as they sat on their horses in Whitehall on the night of Black Saturday. I could hear again the clanking of their weapons, the harsh commands. Could it be that they had conquered England? That for nine long years we would be surrounded by their garrisons? Nine years of servitude!

A sudden coolness in the air reminded me of the lateness of the hour, and I rose and began to cross Barebarrow.[236]

A sudden chill in the air reminded me of how late it was, so I got up and started to cross Barebarrow.[236]

But this ancient land was British in every blade of its grass, I thought—root and crop, hill and dale, above and beneath, no single sod of it but was British. Surely nothing could alter that. Nine years of helotry! I heard again the confused din of the Westminster Riot; the frantic crowd's insistent demand for surrender, for unconditional surrender. And now the nation's word was pledged. Our heads were bowed for nine years long.

But this old land was British in every blade of grass, I thought—root and crop, hill and valley, above and below, not a single piece of it that wasn’t British. Surely nothing could change that. Nine years of servitude! I heard again the chaotic noise of the Westminster Riot; the frantic crowd's relentless demand for surrender, for unconditional surrender. And now the nation had committed. Our heads were bowed for nine long years.

Suddenly, then, as I descended upon the turnpike, a quite new thought came to me. The invasion had overridden all law, all custom, all understandings. The invasion was an act of sheer lawless brutality. No surrender could bind a people to submission in the face of such an outrage as that. The Germans must be driven out; the British people must rise and cast them out, and overthrow for ever their insolent dominion. But too many of the English people were—like myself! Well, they must learn; we must all learn; every able-bodied man must learn; for a blow had to be struck that should free England for ever. The country must be awakened to realization of that need. We owed so much to the brave ones who gave us England; so much could be demanded of us by those that came after. The thing had got to be.

Suddenly, as I was approaching the turnpike, a new thought hit me. The invasion had ignored all laws, customs, and understandings. The invasion was an act of pure lawless brutality. No surrender could force a people into submission in the face of such an outrage. The Germans had to be driven out; the British people needed to rise up and expel them, permanently ending their arrogant rule. But far too many English people were—like me! Well, they had to wake up; we all had to wake up; every able-bodied man had to step up; a decisive blow had to be struck to free England forever. The country needed to realize this urgent necessity. We owed so much to those brave individuals who established England; we had a responsibility to do so much for those who would come after us. This had to happen.

I walked fast, I remember, and singing through my head as I entered Davenham Minster, long after my sister's supper hour, were the lines to which I had never till then paid any sort of heed:

I walked quickly, I remember, and the lyrics that I had never really paid attention to played in my head as I entered Davenham Minster, long after my sister's dinner time:

Regions Caesar never knew,
Your descendants will rule!

III
THE RETURN TO LONDON

Oh! It's easy
To create great achievements; but in the process of nurturing them—
The threading in cold blood every single detail,
And furze brake of somewhat relevant circumstance—
There is the self-denial.
Charles Kingsley.

I spent but one other day in Dorset after my walk out to Tarn Regis, and then took train in the morning for London.

I spent just one more day in Dorset after my walk to Tarn Regis, and then I took the train to London in the morning.

I believe I have said before that Doctor Wardle, my sister's husband, was prosperous and popular. The fact made it natural for me to accept my mother's disposition of her tiny property, which, in a couple of sentences, she had bequeathed solely to me. My sister had no need of the hundred and fifty pounds a year that was derived from my mother's little capital, which had been invested in Canadian securities and was unaffected by England's losses. Thus I was now possessed of means sufficient to provide me with the actual necessities of life; and, though I had not thought of it before, realization of this came to me while I attended to the winding up of my mother's small affairs, bringing with it a certain sense of comfort and security.

I think I've mentioned before that Doctor Wardle, my sister's husband, was successful and well-liked. This made it easy for me to accept my mother's decision about her small property, which she had left entirely to me in a few short sentences. My sister didn’t need the one hundred and fifty pounds a year that came from my mother's small investments in Canadian securities, which weren't affected by England's losses. So now I had enough resources to cover the basic necessities of life; and even though I hadn't realized it before, this hit me while I was wrapping up my mother's minor affairs, bringing a certain sense of comfort and security.

It was with a strongly hopeful feeling, a sense[238] almost of elation, that I stepped from the train at Waterloo. My quiet days and nights in Dorset had taught me something; and, particularly, I had gained much, in conviction and in hope, from the evening spent by Barebarrow. I cannot say that I had any definite plans, but I was awake to a genuine sense of duty to my native land, and that was as strange a thing for me as for a great majority of my fellow countrymen. I was convinced that a great task awaited us all, and I determined upon the performance of my part in it. I suppose I trusted that London would show me the particular form that my effort should take. Meanwhile, as a convert, the missionary feeling was strong in me.

I stepped off the train at Waterloo feeling really hopeful and almost elated. My quiet days and nights in Dorset had taught me a lot, especially from the evening I spent by Barebarrow. I can’t say I had any specific plans, but I felt a genuine sense of duty to my homeland, which was as unusual for me as it was for a lot of my fellow countrymen. I was convinced that a big task was ahead of us all, and I was determined to do my part. I figured that London would show me exactly how I could contribute. In the meantime, I felt a strong missionary spirit as a new convert.

I might have made shift to afford better quarters, perhaps, but it was to my original lodging in Bloomsbury that I drove from Waterloo. Some few belongings of mine were there, and I entertained a friendly sort of feeling for my good-hearted but slatternly landlady, and for poor, overworked Bessie, with her broad, generally smutty face, and lingering remains of a Dorset accent. The part of London with which I was familiar had resumed its normal aspect now, and people were going about their ordinary avocations very much as though England never had been invaded.

I might have managed to find a nicer place to stay, but I headed back to my old spot in Bloomsbury from Waterloo. I had a few of my things there, and I felt a friendly connection to my well-meaning but messy landlady and to poor, overworked Bessie, with her broad, usually dirty face and hints of a Dorset accent. The part of London I knew had returned to its usual appearance now, and people were going about their daily routines as if England had never been invaded.

But in the north and east of the capital were streets of burned and blackened houses, and the Epping and Romford districts were one wilderness of ruins, and of graves; while across East Anglia, from the coast to the Thames, the trail of the invaders was as the track of a locust plague, but more terrible by reason[239] of its blood-soaked trenches, its innumerable shallow graves, and its charred remains of once prosperous towns. Hundreds of ruined farmers and small landholders were working as navvies at bridge and road and railway repairs.

But in the north and east of the capital, there were streets lined with burned and blackened houses, and the Epping and Romford areas were a complete wasteland of ruins and graves. Across East Anglia, from the coast to the Thames, the path of the invaders resembled the trail of a locust swarm, but was even more horrifying because of its blood-soaked trenches, countless shallow graves, and the charred remnants of once-thriving towns. Hundreds of devastated farmers and small landowners were working as laborers on bridge, road, and railway repairs.

A great many people had been ruined during those few nightmare days of the invasion, and every man in England was burdened now with a scale of taxation never before known in the country. But business had resumed its sway, and London looked very much as ever. The need there was for a general making good, from London to the Wash, provided a great deal of employment, and the Government had taken such steps as it could to make credit easy. But Consols were still as low as sixty-eight; prices had not yet fallen to the normal level, and money was everywhere scarce.

A lot of people had been devastated during those few terrible days of the invasion, and now every man in England was weighed down by a level of taxation never seen before in the country. But business had picked up again, and London seemed pretty much the same as always. The demand for rebuilding, from London to the Wash, created a lot of jobs, and the Government had done what it could to make borrowing easier. However, Consols were still low at sixty-eight; prices hadn’t yet returned to normal, and money was hard to come by everywhere.

In the middle afternoon I set out for South Kensington to see Constance Grey, to whom I had written only once during my absence, and then only to tell her of my mother's death. She had replied by telegraph, a message of warm and friendly sympathy. I knew well that she was always busy, and, like most moderns who have written professionally, I suppose we were both bad correspondents. Now there was much of which I wanted to talk with Constance, and it was with a feeling of sharp disappointment that I learned from the servant at the flat that she was not at home. Mrs. Van Homrey was in, however, and in a few moments I was with her in the little drawing-room where I had passed the night of London's exhausted sleep on Black Saturday.[240]

In the early afternoon, I headed to South Kensington to see Constance Grey. I had only written to her once during my time away, and that was just to inform her about my mother’s passing. She responded with a telegram, expressing warm and heartfelt sympathy. I knew she was usually busy, and like many modern people who write professionally, I guess we were both terrible at keeping in touch. There was so much I wanted to discuss with Constance, so I felt a sharp disappointment when the servant at her flat told me she wasn't home. However, Mrs. Van Homrey was in, and within a few moments, I was with her in the little drawing room where I had spent the night of London’s weary sleep on Black Saturday.[240]

"Yes, you have just missed my niece," said Mrs. Van Homrey, after a kindly reference to the strip of crepe on my arm. "She has gone in to Victoria Street to a 'conference of the powers' of John Crondall's convening. Oh, didn't you know he was here again? Yes, he arrived last week, and, as usual, is up to his neck in affairs already, and Constance with him. I verily believe that child has discovered the secret of perpetual motion."

"Yes, you just missed my niece," Mrs. Van Homrey said, kindly mentioning the strip of crepe on my arm. "She went to Victoria Street for a 'conference of the powers' that John Crondall organized. Oh, didn't you know he was back? Yes, he arrived last week and, as usual, is already knee-deep in business, and Constance is with him. I honestly believe that girl has figured out the secret to perpetual motion."

At first mention of John Crondall's name my heart had warmed to its recollection of the man, and a pleasurable thought of meeting him again. And immediately then the warm feeling had been penetrated by a vague sense of disquiet, when Mrs. Van Homrey spoke of his affairs—"and Constance with him." But I was not then conscious of the meaning of my momentary discomfort, though, both then and afterwards, I read emphasis and meaning into Mrs. Van Homrey's coupling of the two names. I asked what the "conference" was about, but gathered that Mrs. Van Homrey was not very fully informed.

At the mention of John Crondall's name, my heart warmed at the thought of the man and the pleasure of possibly seeing him again. But just as quickly, that warm feeling was interrupted by a vague sense of unease when Mrs. Van Homrey brought up his situation—“and Constance with him.” At the time, I didn’t fully understand why I felt that momentary discomfort, yet both then and later, I could sense emphasis and meaning in Mrs. Van Homrey's linking of the two names. I asked what the “conference” was about, but I figured out that Mrs. Van Homrey didn't have all the details.

"I know they are to meet these young Canadian preachers who are so tremendously praised by the Standard—— What are their names, again? Tcha! How treacherous my memory grows! You know the men I mean. John Crondall met them the day after their arrival last week, and is enthusiastic about them."

"I know they're supposed to meet those young Canadian preachers who are so highly praised by the Standard—— What are their names again? Ugh! My memory is getting so unreliable! You know who I’m talking about. John Crondall met them the day after they arrived last week and is really enthusiastic about them."

I felt very much out of the movement. During the few days immediately preceding my mother's death, and since then, I had not even seen a newspaper, and, being unusually preoccupied, not only[241] over the events of my stay at Davenham Minster, but by developments in my own thoughts, I seemed to have lost touch with current affairs.

I felt completely disconnected from everything. In the days right before my mom passed away, and ever since, I hadn't even looked at a newspaper. I was so caught up in my own thoughts—not just reflecting on my time at Davenham Minster but also on my own mental struggles—that I felt like I had lost touch with what was happening around me.

"And what does John Crondall think of the outlook?" I asked.

"And what does John Crondall think about the situation?" I asked.

"Well, I think his fear is that people in the country—outside East Anglia, of course—may fail to realize all that the invasion has meant and will mean; and that Londoners and townsfolk generally may slip back into absorption in business and in pleasure as soon as they can afford that again, and forget the fact that England is practically under Germany's heel still."

"Well, I think his fear is that people in the country—outside East Anglia, of course—might not fully understand what the invasion has meant and will continue to mean. He worries that Londoners and people in towns might quickly get caught up in work and leisure again as soon as they can afford to, forgetting that England is still pretty much under Germany's control."

"The taxes will hardly allow them to do that, surely," I said.

"The taxes will barely let them do that, for sure," I said.

"Well, I don't know. The English are a wonderful people. The invasion was so swift and sudden; the opposition to it was so comparatively trifling; surrender and peace came so soon, that really I don't know but what John is right. He generally is. You must remember that millions of the people have not seen a German soldier. They have had no discipline yet. Even here in London, as soon as the people spoke decidedly, peace followed. They did not have to strike a blow. They did not feel a blow. They were not with you and Conny, remember, at those awful trenches. Anyhow, John thinks the danger is lest they forget again, and regard the whole tragic business as a new proof of England's ability to 'muddle through' anything, without any assistance from them. Of course, England's wealth is still great, and her recuperative powers are wonderful;[242] but John Crondall holds that, in spite of that, submission to nine years of German occupation and German tribute-paying will mean the end of the British Empire."

"Well, I don't know. The English are wonderful people. The invasion was so quick and unexpected; the resistance was so relatively minor; surrender and peace came so soon that I really can't say that John isn't right. He usually is. You have to remember that millions of people haven't seen a German soldier. They haven't experienced any discipline yet. Even here in London, as soon as the people spoke clearly, peace followed. They didn't have to fight. They didn't feel the impact. They weren’t with you and Conny in those terrible trenches. Anyway, John thinks the danger is that they might forget again and see the whole tragic affair as just more evidence of England's ability to 'muddle through' anything without their help. Of course, England's wealth is still significant, and her recovery skills are amazing; [242] but John Crondall believes that, despite that, enduring nine years of German occupation and paying tribute to them will signify the end of the British Empire."

"And he feels that the people must be stirred into seeing that and acting on it?" I said, recalling my own thoughts during the night walk from Barebarrow.

"And he thinks the people need to be motivated to see that and take action?" I said, remembering my own thoughts from the night walk back from Barebarrow.

"Yes, I suppose that is his view. But, now I come to think of it, why should you waste your time in talking to an old woman who can only give you echoes? It is only half an hour since Conny started. Why not hurry on to John Crondall's place, and join them there? He has often spoken of you, Conny tells me."

"Yes, I guess that’s his opinion. But now that I think about it, why bother spending time talking to an old woman who can only repeat what others say? It’s only been half an hour since Conny left. Why not rush over to John Crondall's place and meet up with them there? He’s mentioned you a few times, Conny tells me."

This seemed to me too good a suggestion to neglect, and ten minutes later I was on my way to St. James's Park by underground railway. I bought an evening paper on my way, and read an announcement to the effect that General Baron von Füchter, after returning to Portsmouth from his visit to Berlin, had definitely decided that Portsmouth and Devonport could no longer remain British naval bases, and that no British sailors or soldiers in uniform could in future be admitted into any of the towns in England now occupied by Germany.

This seemed like too good an idea to pass up, so ten minutes later, I was on my way to St. James's Park via the subway. I picked up an evening paper on the way and read an announcement saying that General Baron von Füchter, after returning to Portsmouth from his trip to Berlin, had made a definite decision that Portsmouth and Devonport could no longer serve as British naval bases, and that no British sailors or soldiers in uniform would be allowed in any towns in England now occupied by Germany.


IV
THE CONFERENCE

Every person and nation faces a moment to make a choice,
In the battle between Truth and Falsehood, for either the good or the bad side; Some important cause, God's new Messiah providing everyone with either growth or decay,
Put the goats on the left side and the sheep on the right side; And the choice goes on forever between that darkness and that light.
James Russell Lowell.

A few seconds after his servant had shown me into the dining-room of John Crondall's flat, the man himself entered to me with a rush, as his manner was, both hands outstretched to welcome me.

A couple seconds after his servant had shown me into the dining room of John Crondall's apartment, he came rushing in to greet me, as was his style, with both arms open wide to welcome me.

"Good man!" he said. "I've had fine news of you from Constance Grey, and now you're here to confirm it. Splendid!"

"Great to see you!" he said. "I’ve heard great things about you from Constance Grey, and now you're here to back it up. Awesome!"

And then, with sudden gravity, and a glance at my coat sleeve: "I heard of your loss. I know what it means. I lost my mother when I was in Port Arthur, and I know London looked different because of it when I got back. It's a big wrench; one we've all got to face."

And then, with a serious look and a glance at my coat sleeve: "I heard about your loss. I know what it means. I lost my mom when I was in Port Arthur, and I noticed London felt different when I got back. It's a tough blow; one we all have to deal with."

"Yes. I think my mother died without regret; she was very tired."

"Yeah. I think my mom died without any regrets; she was really tired."

There was a pause, and then I said:

There was a pause, and then I said:

"But I may have chosen my time badly, to-day.[244] Mrs. Van Homrey said you had a conference. If you——"

"But I might have picked a bad time today.[244] Mrs. Van Homrey mentioned you had a meeting. If you——"

"Tut, tut, man! Don't talk nonsense. I was just going to say how well you'd timed things. I don't know about a conference, but Constance is here, and Varley, and Sir Herbert Tate—he took on the secretaryship of the Army League, you know, after Gilbert chucked it—and Winchester. You know Winchester, the Australian rough-rider, who did such fine work with his bushman corps in the South African war—and—let me see! And Forbes Thompson, the great rifle clubman, you know; and the Canadian preachers—splendid fellows, by Jove! Simply splendid they are, I can tell you. I look for great things from those two. Stairs is English, of course, but he's been nearly all his life in British Columbia and the Northwest, and he's got all the eternal youth, the fire and grit and enthusiasm of the Canadian, with—somehow, something else as well—good. His chum, Reynolds, is an out-and-out Canadian, born in Toronto of Canadian parents. Gad, there's solid timber in that chap, I can tell you. But, look here! Come right in, and take a hand. I'm awfully glad you came. I heard all about The Mass and that; but, bless me, I can see in your eye that that's all past and done with for ever. By the way, I heard last night that your Mr. Clement Blaine had got a job after his own heart, in the pay of the Germans at Chatham—interpreter in the passport office, or some such a thing. What a man! Well, come along in, my dear chap, and give us the benefit of your wisdom."[245]

"Come on, man! Don’t talk nonsense. I was just about to say how perfectly you timed things. I’m not sure about a conference, but Constance is here, and Varley, and Sir Herbert Tate—he took over the secretary role for the Army League after Gilbert quit it—and Winchester. You know Winchester, the Australian roughrider, who did amazing work with his bushman corps in the South African war—and—let me think! And Forbes Thompson, the big-name rifle club guy, you know; and the Canadian preachers—great guys, by the way! They really are impressive, I can tell you. I expect great things from those two. Stairs is English, of course, but he’s spent most of his life in British Columbia and the Northwest, and he has all the youthful energy, fire, grit, and enthusiasm of a Canadian, along with—something else too—something good. His buddy, Reynolds, is a true Canadian, born in Toronto to Canadian parents. Let me tell you, that guy has solid character. But hey! Come right in and join the fun. I’m really glad you showed up. I heard all about The Mass and all that; but honestly, I can see in your eyes that it’s all behind you now. By the way, I heard last night that your Mr. Clement Blaine landed a job he loves, working for the Germans at Chatham—interpreter in the passport office, or something like that. What a guy! Well, come on in, my friend, and share your insights." [245]

We were leaving the room now.

We are leaving the room now.

"I knew you'd like Constance," he said. "She's the real thing, isn't she?"

"I knew you'd like Constance," he said. "She's the real deal, isn't she?"

I despised myself for the hint of chill his words brought me. What right had I to suspect or resent? And in any case John Crondall spoke in his customary frank way, with never a hint of afterthought.

I hated myself for the slight chill his words gave me. What right did I have to suspect or feel resentful? And anyway, John Crondall spoke in his usual straightforward manner, without a hint of second-guessing.

"Yes," I said; "she's splendid."

"Yes," I said; "she's amazing."

"And such a head-piece, my boy. By Jove, she has a better head for business than—— Here we are, then."

"And what a headpiece, my boy. Honestly, she has a better head for business than— Here we are, then."

Constance Grey was naturally the first to greet me in the big room where John Crondall did his work and met his friends. There was welcome in her beautiful eyes, but, obviously, Constance was very much preoccupied. Then I was presented to Sir Morell Strachey, Sir Herbert Tate, and Forbes Thompson, and then to the Canadian parson, the Rev. George Stairs. I had paid no attention to the name when Crondall had mentioned it in the other room. Now, as he named the parson again, I looked into the man's face, and——

Constance Grey was naturally the first to greet me in the spacious room where John Crondall worked and entertained his friends. There was warmth in her beautiful eyes, but it was clear that Constance was quite distracted. Then I was introduced to Sir Morell Strachey, Sir Herbert Tate, and Forbes Thompson, followed by the Canadian pastor, the Rev. George Stairs. I hadn’t really paid attention to the name when Crondall mentioned it earlier. Now, as he mentioned the pastor again, I looked into the man's face, and——

"Mordan? Why, not Dick Mordan, of Tarn Regis?" said the parson.

"Mordan? You mean Dick Mordan from Tarn Regis?" said the parson.

"By gad! George Stairs! I was thinking of you on the side of Barebarrow the night before last."

"Wow! George Stairs! I was thinking about you on the side of Barebarrow the night before last."

"And I was thinking of you, Dicky Mordan, yesterday afternoon, when I met the present rector of Tarn Regis at a friend's house."

"And I was thinking about you, Dicky Mordan, yesterday afternoon when I ran into the current rector of Tarn Regis at a friend's house."

It was a long strong handshake that we exchanged. Sixteen years on the young side of thirty is a considerable[246] stretch of time, and all that had passed since I had last seen my old Tarn Regis playmate.

It was a firm, solid handshake that we shared. Being sixteen years shy of thirty is a significant[246] amount of time, and everything that had happened since I last saw my childhood friend from Tarn Regis.

Stairs introduced me to his friend, Reynolds, and I learned the curious fact that this comrade and chum of my old friend's was also a parson, but not of Stairs's church. Reynolds had qualified at a theological training college in Ontario, and had been Congregational minister in the parish of which Stairs had been vicar for the last three years.

Stairs introduced me to his friend, Reynolds, and I learned an interesting fact: this buddy of my old friend's was also a pastor, but not from Stairs's church. Reynolds had trained at a theological college in Ontario and had been a Congregational minister in the parish where Stairs had been the vicar for the last three years.

There was a big table in the middle of the room, littered over with papers and writing materials. About this table we presently all found seats.

There was a large table in the center of the room, covered with papers and writing supplies. We all took our seats around this table.

"Now look here, my friends," said John Crondall, "this is no time for ceremoniousness, apologies, and the rest of it, and I'm not going to indulge in any. No doubt we've all of us got special interests of our own, but there's one we all share; and it comes first with all of us, I think. We all want the same thing for England and the Empire, and we all want to do what we can to help. It's because of that I dismiss the ceremonies, and don't say anything about the fear of boring you, and all that. I don't even make exceptions of you, Stairs, or you, Reynolds. I tell you quite frankly I want to poke and pry into your plans. I want to know all about 'em. I've sense enough to see that you wield a big influence. I am certain I have your sympathy in my aims. And I want to find out how far I can make your aims help my aims. All I know is that you have addressed three meetings, each bigger than the last; and that your preaching is the real right thing. Now I want[247] you to tell us as much as you will about your plans. You know we are all friends here."

"Now listen up, everyone," said John Crondall, "this isn’t the time for formalities, apologies, or any of that stuff, and I’m not going to engage in any. We all have our own specific interests, but there’s one we all share, and I think it comes first for all of us. We all want the same thing for England and the Empire, and we all want to do what we can to help. That's why I'm skipping the formalities and not worrying about boring you and all that. I’m not even making exceptions for you, Stairs, or you, Reynolds. Honestly, I want to dig into your plans. I want to know everything about them. I have enough sense to see that you have a significant influence. I’m sure you support my goals. And I want to figure out how far your goals can benefit mine. All I know is that you’ve spoken at three meetings, each bigger than the last, and your message is exactly what we need. Now, I want you to share as much as you’re willing about your plans. You know we’re all friends here."

Stairs looked at Reynolds, and Reynolds nodded at Stairs.

Stairs looked at Reynolds, and Reynolds nodded back at Stairs.

"Well," said the latter, smiling, first at Crondall, and then at me, "our plans are simplicity itself. In Canada we have not risen yet to the cultivation of much diplomacy. We don't understand anything of your high politics, and we don't believe in roundabout methods. For instance, I suppose here in England you don't find parsons of one denomination working in partnership much with parsons of another denomination. Well, now, when I took over from my predecessor at Kootenay, I found my friend Reynolds doing a fine work there, among the farmers and miners, as Congregational minister. He was doing precisely the work I wanted to do; but there was only one of him. Was I to fight shy of him, or set to work, as it were, in opposition to him? Well, anyhow, that didn't seem to me the way. We had our own places of worship; but, for the rest, both desiring the one thing—the Christian living of the folk in our district—we worked absolutely shoulder to shoulder. There were a few worthy folk who objected; but when Reynolds and I came to talk it over, we decided that these had as much religion as was good for them already, and that we could afford rather to ignore them, if by joint working we could rope in the folk who had next to none at all—— You must forgive my slang, Miss Grey."

"Well," said the latter, smiling first at Crondall and then at me, "our plans are really simple. In Canada, we haven't really developed a lot of diplomacy yet. We don't understand your complex politics, and we don't believe in beating around the bush. For example, I guess here in England, you don't see ministers from one denomination partnering up much with ministers from another, right? Well, when I took over from my predecessor at Kootenay, I found my friend Reynolds doing great work there among the farmers and miners as a Congregational minister. He was doing exactly the work I wanted to do, but there was only one of him. Should I avoid him or try to do my own thing in opposition to him? That didn’t seem like the right approach to me. We had our own places of worship, but since we both wanted the same thing—the Christian well-being of the folks in our area—we worked completely side by side. A few people objected, but when Reynolds and I discussed it, we decided that those individuals had as much religion as was good for them already, and we could afford to overlook them if working together could bring in those who had almost none at all—You have to forgive my slang, Miss Grey."

Constance smiled across at the parson.[248]

Constance smiled at the pastor. [248]

"You forget, Mr. Stairs, I grew up on the veld," she said.

"You forget, Mr. Stairs, I grew up on the open grasslands," she said.

"Ah, to be sure; I suppose one is as close to the earth and the realities there as in Canada."

"Yeah, for sure; I guess you’re as connected to the earth and reality there as you are in Canada."

"Quite," said Crondall. "And, anyhow, we are not doing any apologies to-day; so please go ahead."

"Sure," said Crondall. "And anyway, we’re not making any apologies today, so just go for it."

"Well," continued George Stairs, "we often talked over Old Country affairs, Reynolds and I. Reynolds had only spent three months over here in his life, but I fancy I learned more from him than he from me."

"Well," George Stairs continued, "Reynolds and I often discussed things from the Old Country. Even though Reynolds had only spent three months here in his life, I think I learned more from him than he did from me."

"That's a mistake, of course," said Reynolds. "He had the facts and the knowledge. I merely supplied a fresh point of view—home-grown Canadian."

"That's a mistake, obviously," said Reynolds. "He had the facts and the knowledge. I just provided a fresh perspective—locally sourced Canadian."

"Ah, well, we found ourselves very much in agreement, anyhow, about Home affairs and about the position of the Anglican Church in Canada; the need there is for less exclusiveness and more direct methods. The idea of coming Home and preaching through England, a kind of pilgrimage—that was entirely Reynolds's own. I would have come with him gladly, when we had our district in good going order out there. But, you see, I had no money. My friend had a little. Then my father died. He had been ailing for a long time, and I verily think the news of the invasion broke his heart. He died in the same week that it reached him, and left his two farms, with some small house property, to me.

"Well, we found ourselves really agreeing on the home issues and the role of the Anglican Church in Canada; there’s a need for less exclusivity and more straightforward approaches. The idea of coming home and preaching across England, like a pilgrimage—that was totally Reynolds's idea. I would have happily joined him once we had our district up and running out there. But, you see, I didn’t have any money. My friend had a little. Then my father passed away. He had been sick for a long time, and I honestly think the news of the invasion broke his heart. He died in the same week that he heard the news and left me his two farms, along with some small property."

"My father's death meant for me a considerable break. The news from England shocked me inexpressibly. It was such a terrible realization of the very fears that Reynolds and myself had so often discussed—the[249] climax and penalty of England's mad disregard of duty; of every other consideration except pleasure, easy living, comfort, and money-making."

"My father's death was a huge blow for me. The news from England shocked me beyond words. It was such a horrific manifestation of the very fears that Reynolds and I had talked about so often—the [249] climax and consequence of England's crazy neglect of duty; focusing only on pleasure, an easy life, comfort, and making money."

"This is the pivot of the whole business, that duty question," interposed Crondall. "It was your handling of that on Tuesday that burdened you with my acquaintance. I listened to that, and I said, 'Mr. George Stairs and you have got to meet, John Crondall!' But I didn't mean to interrupt."

"This is the key part of the whole situation, this duty question," Crondall interrupted. "It was how you dealt with that on Tuesday that brought you into contact with me. I heard that, and I thought, 'Mr. George Stairs and you need to meet, John Crondall!' But I didn't mean to interrupt."

"Well, as I say, I found myself rather at a parting of the ways, and then came my good friend here, and he said, 'What about these farms and houses of yours, Stairs? They represent an income. What are you going to do about it?' And—well, you see, that settled it. We just packed our bags and came over."

"Well, like I said, I found myself at a crossroads, and then my good friend showed up and said, 'What about your farms and houses, Stairs? They bring in money. What are you planning to do about it?' And—well, that made up my mind. We just packed our bags and came over."

"And now that you are here?" said John Crondall.

"And now that you're here?" said John Crondall.

"Well, you heard what we had to say the other afternoon?"

"Well, you heard what we talked about the other afternoon?"

"I did—every word of it."

"I did—every single word."

"Well, that's what we are here for. Our aim is to take that message to every man and woman in this country; and we believe God will give us zest and strength enough to bring it home to them—to make them feel the truth of it. Your aim, naturally, is political and patriotic. I don't think you can have any warmer sympathizers than Reynolds and myself. But our part, as you see, is another one, and outside politics. We believe the folk at Home have lost their bearings; their compasses want adjusting. I say[250] here what I should not venture to admit to a less sympathetic and indulgent audience: Reynolds and myself aim at arousing, by God's will, the sleeping sense of duty in our kinsmen here at Home. We have no elaborate system, no finesse, no complicated issues to consider. Our message is simply: 'You have forgotten Duty; and the Christian life is not possible while Duty remains forgotten or ignored.' Our purpose is just to give the message; to prove it; make it real; make it felt."

"Well, that's why we're here. Our goal is to share that message with everyone in this country; and we believe God will give us the energy and strength to really connect with them—to help them feel the truth of it. Your goal, of course, is political and patriotic. I don't think you can find warmer supporters than Reynolds and me. But our role, as you can see, is different, and it’s outside the realm of politics. We believe the folks back home have lost their way; their compasses need realigning. I'll say[250] here what I wouldn’t dare admit to a less understanding and forgiving audience: Reynolds and I are trying to wake up, by God’s will, the dormant sense of duty in our relatives back home. We don’t have a complicated plan, no tricks, no intricate issues to sort out. Our message is simply: 'You’ve forgotten Duty; and the Christian life isn’t possible while Duty remains overlooked or ignored.' Our purpose is just to deliver the message; to prove it; to make it real; to make it felt."

Crondall had been looking straight at the speaker while he listened, his face resting between his two hands, his elbows planted squarely on the table. Now he seemed to pounce down upon Stairs's last words.

Crondall had been staring directly at the speaker as he listened, his face supported by his two hands, with his elbows firmly on the table. Now he seemed to pounce on Stairs's last words.

"And yet you say your part is another one than ours. But why not the same? Why not the very essence and soul of our part, Stairs?"

"And yet you say your role is different from ours. But why can't it be the same? Why not the very essence and heart of our role, Stairs?"

"Gad—he's right!" said Sir Herbert Tate, in an undertone. Reynolds leaned forward in his chair, his lean, keen face alight.

"Gosh—he's right!" said Sir Herbert Tate, quietly. Reynolds leaned forward in his chair, his slim, sharp face glowing.

"Why not the very soul of our part, Stairs—the essential first step toward our end? Our part is to urge a certain specific duty on them—a duty we reckon urgent and vital to the nation. But we can't do that unless we, or you, can first do your part—rousing them to the sense of duty—Duty itself. Man, but your part is the foundation of our part—foundation, walls, roof, corner-stone, complete! We only give the structure a name. Why, I give you my word, Stairs, that that address of yours on Tuesday was the finest piece of patriotic exhortation I ever listened to."[251]

"Why not the very essence of our role, Stairs—the crucial first step toward our goal? Our role is to push a specific duty on them—a duty we believe is urgent and essential for the nation. But we can't do that unless we, or you, can first fulfill your role—awakening them to the sense of duty—Duty itself. Man, your role is the foundation of our role—foundation, walls, roof, cornerstone, all of it! We only give the structure a name. Honestly, Stairs, that speech of yours on Tuesday was the best piece of patriotic encouragement I’ve ever heard."[251]

"But—it's very kind of you to say so; but I never mentioned King or country."

"But—thank you for saying that; but I never brought up the King or the country."

"Exactly! You gave them the root of the whole matter. You cleared a way into their hearts and heads which is open now for news of King and country. It's as though I had to collect some money for an orphanage from a people who'd never heard of charity. Before I see the people you teach 'em the meaning and beauty of charity—wake the charitable sense in them. You needn't bother mentioning orphanages; but if I come along in your rear, my chances of collecting the money are a deal rosier than if you hadn't been there first—what?"

"Exactly! You got to the heart of the matter. You opened their hearts and minds to news about the King and our country. It's like I had to raise money for an orphanage from people who have never heard of charity. Before I talk to them, you teach them the meaning and beauty of charity—awaken their sense of compassion. You don’t have to bring up orphanages; but if I come along after you, my chances of collecting the money are much better than if you hadn't been there first—right?"

"I see—I see," said Stairs, slowly.

"I get it—I get it," said Stairs, slowly.

"Mr. Crondall, you ought to have been a Canadian," said Reynolds, in his dry way. His use of the "Mr.," even to a man who had no hesitation in calling him plain "Reynolds," was just one of the tiny points of distinction between himself and Stairs.

"Mr. Crondall, you should have been a Canadian," said Reynolds, in his straightforward manner. His use of "Mr." even with someone who had no problem calling him simply "Reynolds," highlighted one of the subtle differences between him and Stairs.

"Oh, Canada has taught me something; and so have South Africa and India; and so have you and Stairs, with your mission, or pilgrimage, or whatever it is—your Message."

"Oh, Canada has taught me something; and so have South Africa and India; and so have you and Stairs, with your mission, or pilgrimage, or whatever it is—your Message."

"Well," said Stairs, "it seems to me your view of our pilgrimage is a very kindly, and perhaps flattering one; and as I have said, your aims as a citizen of the Empire and a lover of the Old Country could not have warmer sympathizers than Reynolds and myself; but——"

"Well," said Stairs, "it seems to me that your perspective on our journey is quite generous, and maybe a bit flattering; and as I mentioned, your goals as a citizen of the Empire and a fan of the Old Country couldn't have more supportive allies than Reynolds and me; but——"

"Mind, I'm not trying to turn your religious teaching to any ignoble purpose," said Crondall,[252] quickly. "I am not asking you to introduce a single new word or thought into it for my sake."

"Just to be clear, I'm not trying to twist your religious teachings for any bad purpose," said Crondall,[252] quickly. "I'm not asking you to add a single new word or idea to it just for me."

"That's so," said Reynolds, his eye upon Stairs.

"That's true," said Reynolds, looking at Stairs.

"Quite so, quite so," said Stairs. "And, of course, I am with you in all you hope for; but you know, Crondall, religion is perhaps a rather different matter to a parson from what it is to you. Forgive me if I put it clumsily, but——"

"Exactly, exactly," said Stairs. "And of course, I support all your hopes; but you know, Crondall, religion is probably a bit different for a pastor than it is for you. Sorry if I say this awkwardly, but—"

And now, greatly daring, I ventured upon an interruption, speaking upon impulse, without consideration, and hearing my voice as though it were something outside myself.

And now, feeling bold, I took the chance to interrupt, speaking impulsively, without thinking, and hearing my voice as if it were something outside of myself.

"George Stairs," I said—and I fancy the thoughts of both of us went back sixteen years—"what was it you thought about the Congregational minister when you took over your post at Kootenay? How did you decide to treat him? Did you ever regret the partnership?"

"George Stairs," I said—and I think both of us were reminded of sixteen years ago—"what did you think about the Congregational minister when you started your job at Kootenay? How did you decide to handle things with him? Did you ever regret partnering with him?"

"Now if that isn't straight out Western fashion!" murmured Reynolds. Constance beamed at me from her place beside John Crondall.

"Now if that isn't straight out of Western fashion!" murmured Reynolds. Constance smiled at me from her spot next to John Crondall.

"I leave it at that," said our host.

"I'll just leave it at that," said our host.

"A palpable bull's-eye," said Forbes Thompson.

"A clear target," said Forbes Thompson.

I hardly needed George Stairs's friendly clap on the shoulder, nor the assurance of his:

I barely needed George Stairs's friendly pat on the back, nor his reassurance:

"You are right, Dick. You have shown me my way in three words."

"You’re right, Dick. You’ve shown me my path in three words."

"Good," said Reynolds. "Well, now I don't mind saying what I wouldn't have said before, that among the notes we drew up nearly three years ago——"

"Good," said Reynolds. "Well, now I don't mind saying what I wouldn't have said before, that among the notes we drew up nearly three years ago——"

"You drew up, my friend," said Stairs.

"You pulled up, my friend," said Stairs.

"Among the notes we drew up, I say, on this question[253] of neglected duty, were details as to the citizen's obligations regarding the defence of his home and native land, with special reference to the callous neglect of Lord Roberts's campaign of warning and exhortation. Now, Stairs, you know as well as I do, you wrote with your own hand the passage about the Englishman's sphere of duty being as much wider than his country as Greater Britain was wider than Great Britain. You know you did."

"Among the notes we put together, I say, on this issue[253] of neglected responsibility, were details about a citizen's obligations to defend his home and homeland, especially regarding the blatant neglect of Lord Roberts's campaign of warning and encouragement. Now, Stairs, you know as well as I do, you wrote by your own hand the part about the Englishman's duty being as much broader than his country as Greater Britain is broader than Great Britain. You know you did."

"Oh, you can count me in, all right, Reynolds; you know I'm not one for half-measures."

"Oh, you can definitely count me in, Reynolds; you know I'm not one to do things halfway."

"Well, now, my friends, I believe I see daylight. By joining hands I really believe we are going to accomplish something for England." Crondall looked round the table at the faces of his friends. "We are all agreed, I know, that the present danger is the danger Kipling tried to warn us about years and years ago."

"Well, now, my friends, I think I see a way forward. I truly believe that by coming together, we can achieve something for England." Crondall glanced around the table at his friends' faces. "We all agree, I know, that the current threat is the one Kipling warned us about many years ago."

"'Lest we forget!'" quoted Sir Herbert quietly.

"'Lest we forget!'" quoted Sir Herbert softly.

"Exactly. There are so many in England who have neither seen nor felt anything of the blow we have had."

"Exactly. There are so many people in England who have neither seen nor felt any of the impact we've experienced."

And here I told them something of what I had seen and heard in Dorset; how remote and unreal the whole thing was to folk there.

And here I shared with them some of what I had seen and heard in Dorset; how distant and surreal the entire experience felt to the people there.

"That's it, exactly," continued Crondall. "That's one difficulty which has just got to be overcome. Another is the danger that, among those who did see and feel something of it, here in London, and even in East Anglia, the habit of apathy in national matters, and the calls of business and pleasure may mean forgetting, indifference—the old fatal neglect. You[254] see, we must remember that, crushing as the blow was, it did not actually reach so very many people. It did not force them to get up and fight for their lives. It was all over so soon. Directly they cried out, 'The Destroyers' answered with surrender, and so helped to strengthen the fatal delusion they had cherished so long, that everything is a matter of pounds, shillings, and pence."

"That's right," Crondall continued. "That's one challenge we have to tackle. Another is the risk that, for those who did notice or feel something of it, here in London and even in East Anglia, the habit of being indifferent to national issues and the distractions of work and leisure might lead to forgetfulness and apathy—the same old dangerous neglect. You[254] see, we need to keep in mind that, as devastating as the blow was, it didn’t actually affect too many people. It didn’t force them to stand up and fight for their lives. It was over so quickly. As soon as they cried out, 'The Destroyers,' they just surrendered, which only helped to reinforce the dangerous illusion they've held onto for so long, that everything comes down to pounds, shillings, and pence."

"'They'll never go for England, because England's got the dibs,'" quoted Forbes Thompson, with a nod of assent.

"'They'll never choose England because England has the upper hand,'" quoted Forbes Thompson, nodding in agreement.

"Yes, yes. 'Make alliances, and leave me to my business!' One knows it all so well. But, mind you, even to the blindest of them, the invasion has meant something."

"Yeah, yeah. 'Form alliances and let me handle my work!' It’s all so familiar. But, you know, even for those who are completely unaware, the invasion has had an impact."

"And the income-tax will mean something to 'em, too," said Sir Morell Strachey.

"And the income tax will mean something to them, too," said Sir Morell Strachey.

"Yes. But the English purse is deep, and the Englishman has long years of money-spinning freedom from discipline behind him. Still, here is this brutal fact of the invasion. Here we are actually condemned to nine years of life inside a circle of German encampments on English soil, with a hundred millions a year of tribute to pay for the right to live in our own England. Now my notion is that the lesson must not be lost. The teaching of the thing must be forced home. It must be burnt into these happy-go-lucky countrymen of ours—if Stairs and Reynolds are to achieve their end, or we ours."

"Yes. But the English purse is deep, and the Englishman has enjoyed many years of financial freedom without discipline. Still, we face this harsh reality of the invasion. We are now stuck living for nine years among German camps on our own English soil, paying a hundred million a year in tribute just to exist in our own country. My belief is that we can't let this lesson slip away. The importance of this situation needs to be driven home. It has to be ingrained into our carefree countrymen—if Stairs and Reynolds are to reach their goals, or if we are to reach ours."

"Our aim is to awake the sense of duty which seems to us to have become atrophied, even among the professedly religious," said Stairs.[255]

"Our goal is to reignite the sense of duty that appears to have faded, even among those who are openly religious," said Stairs.[255]

"And ours," said Crondall, sharp as steel, "is to ram home your teaching, and to show them that the nearest duty to their hand is their duty to the State, to the Race, to their children—the duty of freeing England and throwing over German dominion."

"And ours," said Crondall, sharp as steel, "is to reinforce your teaching and demonstrate to them that their most immediate responsibility is to the State, to their community, to their children—the responsibility of liberating England and ending German control."

"To render unto Cæsar the things which are Cæsar's," said Reynolds. And Stairs nodded agreement.

"To give to Caesar what belongs to Caesar," said Reynolds. And Stairs nodded in agreement.

"Now, by my way of it, Stairs and Reynolds must succeed before we can succeed," said Crondall. "That is my view, and because that is so, you can both look to me, up till the last breath in me, for any kind of support I can give you—for any kind of support at all. But that's not all. Where you sow, I mean to reap. We both want substantially the same harvest—mine is part of yours. I know I can count on you all. You, Stairs, and you, Reynolds, are going to carry your Message through England. I propose to follow in your wake with mine. You rouse them to the sense of duty; I show them their duty. You make them ready to do their duty; I show it them. I'll have a lecturer. I'll get pictures. They shall feel the invasion, and know what the German occupation means. You shall convert them, and I'll enlist them."

"Listen, for us to succeed, Stairs and Reynolds have to succeed first," Crondall said. "That’s how I see it, and because of that, you can count on my support until my last breath—for anything you need. But that’s not all. Where you sow, I plan to reap. We both want pretty much the same outcome—mine is part of yours. I know I can rely on all of you. Stairs, you and Reynolds are going to spread your Message across England. I’ll follow close behind with mine. You’ll inspire them to feel a sense of duty; I’ll show them what that duty is. You’ll prepare them to act on their duty; I’ll demonstrate it to them. I'll bring in a speaker. I'll get visuals. They will feel the impact of the invasion and understand what German occupation really means. You’ll convert them, and I’ll recruit them."

"Enlist them! By Jove! that's an idea," said Forbes Thompson. "A patriotic league, a league of defenders, a nation in arms."

"Get them on board! Wow, that's a great idea," said Forbes Thompson. "A patriotic league, a league of defenders, a nation ready to fight."

"The Liberators!"

"The Liberators!"

"Ah! Yes, the Liberators."

"Ah! Yes, the Liberators."

"Or the Patriots, simply?"

"Or just the Patriots?"

"I would enrol them just as citizens," said Crondall.[256] "By that time they should have learned the meaning of the word."

"I would enroll them just like any other citizens," Crondall said.[256] "By then, they should have learned what that word means."

"Yes, by Jove! it is good enough—just 'The Citizens,'" said Sir Morell Strachey.

"Yes, by gosh! it is good enough—just 'The Citizens,'" said Sir Morell Strachey.

And then a servant came in with a message for Forbes Thompson, and we realized that dinner-time had come and almost gone. But we were in no mood for separating just then, and so every one welcomed John Crondall's invitation to dine with him at a neighbouring hotel.

And then a servant came in with a message for Forbes Thompson, and we realized that dinner time had come and almost gone. But we weren’t ready to split up just then, so everyone happily accepted John Crondall's invitation to have dinner with him at a nearby hotel.


V
MY OWN PART

Free people work freely; Anyone who fears God is afraid to be complacent.
E. B. Browning.

Constance Grey and myself were the last of John Crondall's guests to leave him on that evening of the conference. As soon as we three were alone, Constance turned to Crondall, and said:

Constance Gray and I were the last of John Crondall's guests to say goodbye that evening after the conference. Once it was just the three of us, Constance faced Crondall and said:

"You must expect to have me among your camp followers if I find Aunt Mary can stand the travelling. I dare say there will be little things I can do."

"You can expect me to join your camp if I see that Aunt Mary can handle the travel. I’m sure there will be small tasks I can help with."

"Things you can do! By George, I should think so!" said Crondall. "I shall look to you to capture the women; and if we get the women, it will surprise me if we don't get the men as well. Besides, don't you fancy I have forgotten your prowess as a speaker in Cape Town and Pretoria. You remember that meeting of your father's, when you saved him from the wrath of Vrow Bischoff? Why, of course, I reckon on you. We'll have special women's meetings."

"Things you can do! Of course, I believe that!" said Crondall. "I’m counting on you to win over the women; and if we get the women, it wouldn’t surprise me if we get the men too. And don’t think I’ve forgotten how good you are at speaking in Cape Town and Pretoria. Remember that meeting your dad had, when you saved him from Vrow Bischoff’s anger? Of course I’m relying on you. We’ll hold special meetings just for women."

"And where do I come in?" I asked, with an assumed lightness of tone which was far from expressing my feeling.[258]

"And where do I fit into this?" I asked, trying to sound casual, but my tone didn’t reflect how I really felt.[258]

"Yes," said Crondall, eying me thoughtfully; "I've been thinking of that."

"Yeah," Crondall said, looking at me thoughtfully; "I've been thinking about that."

As he said that, I had a swift vision of myself and my record, as both must have appeared to a man like Crondall, whose whole life had been spent in patriotic effort. The vision was a good corrective for the unworthy shafts of jealousy—for that no doubt they were—which had come to me with John Crondall's references to Constance. I was admitted cordially into the confidences of these people from whom, on my record, I scarcely deserved common courtesy. It was with a distinctly chastened mind that I gave them both some outline of the thoughts and resolutions which had come to me during my evening beside Barebarrow, overlooking sleepy little Tarn Regis.

As he said that, I quickly imagined how I must look to someone like Crondall, who had dedicated his entire life to serving his country. This vision helped balance the feelings of jealousy—because that’s definitely what they were—that I felt when John Crondall mentioned Constance. I was welcomed warmly into the trust of these people, even though, based on my past, I barely deserved even basic respect. With a noticeably humbled mindset, I shared with them some of the thoughts and decisions that had come to me while I was by Barebarrow, looking out over the quiet little Tarn Regis.

"It's a kind of national telepathy," said Crondall. "God send it's at work in other counties besides Dorset."

"It’s like a shared instinct among the nation," Crondall said. "I hope it’s happening in other counties besides Dorset."

"It had need be," I told them; "for all those that I spoke to in Dorset accepted the German occupation like a thing as absolutely outside their purview as the movements of the planets."

"It had to be," I told them; "because everyone I spoke to in Dorset saw the German occupation as something completely beyond their control, just like the movements of the planets."

"Yes, they want a lot of stirring, I know; but I believe we shall stir 'em all right. But about your part in the campaign. Of course, I recognize that every one has to earn his living, just as much now as before. But yet I know you'd like to be in this thing, Dick Mordan, and I believe you can help it a lot. What I thought of was this: I shall want a secretary, and want him very badly. He will be the man who will do half my work. On the other hand, I can't pay him much, for every cent of my income will[259] be wanted in the campaign, and a good deal more besides. The thing is, would you tackle it, for the sake of the cause, for a couple of hundred a year? Of course, I should stand all running expenses. What do you think? It's not much of an offer, but it would keep us all together?"

"Yes, they want a lot of excitement, I know; but I believe we’ll get them excited for sure. But let's talk about your role in the campaign. Of course, I understand that everyone has to make a living, just like before. Still, I know you'd want to be part of this, Dick Mordan, and I believe you could contribute a lot. What I had in mind is this: I really need a secretary, and I need one badly. He’ll be the person who does half my work. On the flip side, I can't pay him much, since every penny of my income will[259] be needed for the campaign, and even more beyond that. The question is, would you take it on, for the sake of the cause, for a couple of hundred a year? Of course, I would cover all running expenses. What do you think? It’s not a great offer, but it would keep us all together?"

Constance looked expectantly at me, and I realized with a sudden thrill the uses of even such small means as I now possessed.

Constance looked at me with anticipation, and I suddenly felt a rush as I understood the potential of even the little resources I had.

"Well, no," I said; "I couldn't agree to that." The pupils of John Crondall's eyes contracted sharply, and a pained, wondering look crept into the face I loved, the vivid, expressive face of Constance Grey. "But what I would put my whole heart and soul into, would be working as your secretary for the sake of the cause, as long as you could stand the running expense, and—and longer."

"Well, no," I said; "I can't agree to that." The pupils of John Crondall's eyes narrowed sharply, and a pained, confused expression appeared on the face I loved, the vibrant, expressive face of Constance Grey. "But what I would truly dedicate my whole heart and soul to would be working as your secretary for the cause, as long as you could cover the expenses, and—and longer."

I think the next minute was the happiest I had ever known. I dare say it seems a small enough matter, but it was the only thing of the kind I had ever been able to do. These friends of mine had always given so much to our country's cause. I had felt myself so far beneath them in this. Now, as John Crondall's strong hand came down on my shoulder, and Constance's bright eyes shone upon me in affectionate approval, my heart swelled within me, with something of the glad pride which should be the possession of every man, as it indubitably is of every true citizen and patriot.

I think the next minute was the happiest I had ever experienced. It might seem like a minor thing, but it was the only time I had ever done anything like that. My friends had always given so much to our country's cause. I had always felt inferior to them in this regard. Now, as John Crondall's strong hand rested on my shoulder, and Constance's bright eyes looked at me with warm approval, my heart swelled with a kind of joyful pride that every man should feel, just like every true citizen and patriot does.

"You see," I explained deprecatingly, as Crondall swayed my shoulder affectionately to and fro in his firm grip; "I have become a sort of a minor capitalist.[260] I have about a hundred and fifty a year coming in, and so I'm as free as I am glad to work with you, and—there'll be two hundred more for the campaign, you see."

"You see," I said with a hint of self-deprecation, as Crondall affectionately swayed my shoulder back and forth in his strong grip; "I've become a bit of a minor capitalist.[260] I have around one hundred and fifty coming in each year, so I'm as free as I am happy to work with you, and—there will be two hundred more for the campaign, you know."

"God bless you, old chap! You and Constance and I, we'll move mountains—even the great mountain of apathy—between us. Sir Herbert offers a thousand pounds toward expenses, and Forbes Thompson and Varley are ready to speak for us anywhere we like, and Winchester has a pal who he says will work wonders as a kind of advance agent. I'm pretty sure of Government help, too—or Opposition help; they'll be governing before Christmas, you'll find. Now, we all meet here again the day after to-morrow. We three will see each other to-morrow, I expect. I must write a stack of letters before the midnight post."

"God bless you, my friend! You, Constance, and I will overcome anything—even the huge obstacle of apathy—between us. Sir Herbert is offering a thousand pounds for expenses, and Forbes Thompson and Varley are ready to back us up wherever we need them. Winchester has a friend who he says will do wonders as a sort of advance agent. I'm pretty sure we can count on support from the government too—or even the opposition; they’ll be in charge by Christmas, you’ll see. Now, we’ll all meet here again the day after tomorrow. I expect the three of us will see each other tomorrow. I need to write a bunch of letters before the midnight post."

"Well, can I lend a hand?" I asked.

"Can I help out?" I asked.

"No, not to-night, Mr. Secretary Dick, thank you! But it's late. Will you take Constance home? I'll get my fellow to whistle up a cab."

"No, not tonight, Mr. Secretary Dick, thank you! But it's late. Will you take Constance home? I'll have my friend call a cab."

Ten minutes earlier I should have been chilled by his implied guardianship of Constance; but now I had that within which warmed me through and through: the most effectual kind of protection against chill. So all was settled, and we left John Crondall to his letters. And, driving out to South Kensington, we talked over our hopes, Constance and I, as partners in one cause.

Ten minutes ago, I would have felt uneasy about his unspoken protection of Constance; but now I had something inside me that warmed me completely: the most effective kind of defense against feeling cold. So everything was decided, and we left John Crondall to his letters. On our way to South Kensington, Constance and I discussed our hopes as partners in the same cause.

"This is the beginning of everything for me, Constance," I said, when we parted in the hall below her flat.[261]

"This is the start of everything for me, Constance," I said as we said goodbye in the hall below her apartment.[261]

"It is going to be the beginning of very much for a good many," she said, as she gave me her hand.

"It’s going to be the start of a lot for many people," she said, as she offered me her hand.

"I wonder if you know how much—for me!"

"I wonder if you know how much that means to me!"

"I think so. I am tremendously glad about it all."

"I think so. I'm really glad about it all."

But she did not know, could not know, just how much it meant to me.

But she didn't know, couldn't know, just how much it meant to me.

"Good night, my patriotic Muse!" I said.

"Good night, my patriotic Muse!" I said.

"Good night, Mr. Secretary Dick!"

"Good night, Mr. Secretary!"

And so we parted on the night of my return to London.

And so we said goodbye on the night I got back to London.


VI
PREPARATIONS

We were dreamers, dreaming big, in the town that suffocates men;
We longed past the horizon where the unfamiliar roads lead down. The Whisper arrived, the Vision appeared, the Power came, along with the Need,
Until the soul that is not a human soul was given to us to guide.

Follow behind—follow behind—for the harvest is planted:
By the bones by the roadside, you will find your own!
Rudyard Kipling.

Never before had I known days so full, so compact of effort and achievement, as were those of the week following the conference in John Crondall's rooms. I could well appreciate Winchester's statement when he said that: "John Crondall is known through three Continents as a glutton for work."

Never before had I experienced days so full and packed with effort and accomplishment as those in the week after the conference in John Crondall's rooms. I could totally understand Winchester's comment when he said, "John Crondall is known across three continents as a workaholic."

Our little circle represented Canada, South Africa, Australia, and the Mother Country; and, while I admit that my old friend, George Stairs, and his Canadian-born partner, Reynolds, could give points to most people in the matter of unwearying energy, yet I am proud to report that the member of our circle who, so to say, worked us all to a standstill was John Crondall, an Englishman born and bred. I said as much in the presence of them all, and when[263] my verdict was generally endorsed, John Crondall qualified it with the remark:

Our little group represented Canada, South Africa, Australia, and the UK; and while I admit that my old friend, George Stairs, and his Canadian-born partner, Reynolds, could outlast most people when it comes to energy, I’m proud to say that the member of our group who really pushed us to our limits was John Crondall, an Englishman through and through. I mentioned this in front of everyone, and when[263] my opinion was widely agreed upon, John Crondall added his own comment:

"Well, I can only say that pretty nearly all I know about work I learned in the Colonies."

"Well, I can only say that almost everything I know about work I learned in the Colonies."

And I learned later on to realize the justice of this qualification. Colonial life does teach directness and concentration. Action of any sort in England was at that time hedged about by innumerable complications and cross issues and formalities, many of which we have won clear from since then. Perhaps it was the strength of our Colonial support which set the pace of our procedure. Whatever the cause, I know I never worked harder, or accomplished more; and I had never been so happy.

And I later learned to understand the fairness of this point. Living in a colony really does teach you to be direct and focused. At that time, taking action in England was surrounded by countless complications, conflicting issues, and formalities, many of which we've managed to overcome since then. Maybe it was the strength of our colonial backing that influenced our approach. Whatever the reason, I know I never worked harder or achieved more, and I had never been so happy.

I think John Crondall must have interviewed from two to three hundred prominent politicians and members of the official world during that week. I have heard it said by men who should know, that the money Crondall spent in cable messages to the Colonies that week was the price of the first Imperial Parliament ever assembled in Westminster Hall. I use these words in their true sense, their modern sense, of course. Nominally, the House of Commons had long been the "Imperial" Parliament.

I think John Crondall must have interviewed about two to three hundred important politicians and officials during that week. I've heard from reliable sources that the money Crondall spent on cable messages to the Colonies that week was equivalent to the cost of the first Imperial Parliament ever held in Westminster Hall. I mean this in its true, modern sense, of course. Officially, the House of Commons had long been referred to as the "Imperial" Parliament.

I know that week's work established The Citizens as an already powerful organization, with a long list of names famous in history among its members, with a substantial banking account, and with volunteer agents in every great centre in the kingdom. The motto and watchword of The Citizens, as engraved upon a little bronze medal of membership, was:[264] "For God; our Race; and Duty." The oath of enrolment said:

I know that week’s work established The Citizens as a powerful organization, with a long list of historically significant members, a substantial bank account, and volunteer agents in every major center in the kingdom. The motto and watchword of The Citizens, as engraved on a small bronze membership medal, was:[264] "For God; our Race; and Duty." The enrollment oath stated:

"I —— do hereby undertake and promise to do my duty to God, to our Race, and to the British Empire to the utmost limit of my ability, without fear and without compromise, so help me God!"

"I — do hereby promise to fulfill my duty to God, to our people, and to the British Empire to the best of my ability, without fear and without compromise, so help me God!"

John Crondall interviewed the editors of most of the leading London newspapers during that week, and thereby earned a discreet measure of journalistic support for his campaign. There was a great need of discretion here, for our papers were carefully studied in Berlin, as well as by the German Generals commanding the various English towns now occupied by the Kaiser's troops. It was, of course, most important that no friction should be caused at this stage.

John Crondall interviewed the editors of many of the top London newspapers that week, earning a careful amount of journalistic backing for his campaign. Discretion was crucial here, as our papers were closely analyzed in Berlin and by the German Generals overseeing the various English towns now occupied by the Kaiser’s troops. It was, of course, very important to avoid causing any friction at this stage.

But it was with regard to the preaching pilgrimage of the two Canadian parsons that Crondall's friends of the Press rendered us the greatest possible service. Here no particular reticence was called for, and the Press could be, and was, unreservedly helpful and generous. In estimating the marvellous achievements of the two preachers, I do not think enough weight has been attached to the great services rendered to their mission by such journals as the great London daily which published each morning a column headed, "The New Evangel," and, indeed, by all the newspapers both in London and the provinces.

But when it came to the preaching journey of the two Canadian ministers, Crondall's friends in the press provided us with invaluable support. Here, there was no need for any special discretion, and the press could be, and was, completely open and generous. In evaluating the incredible accomplishments of the two preachers, I believe not enough emphasis has been placed on the significant contributions made to their mission by newspapers like the major London daily that featured a column every morning called, "The New Evangel," as well as by all the papers both in London and the regions.

We were not directly aiming, during that first week, at enrolling members. No recruiting had been done. Yet when, at the end of the week, a meeting[265] of the executive committee was held at the Westminster Palace Hotel, the founder, John Crondall, was able to submit a list of close upon six hundred sworn members of The Citizens; and, of these, I suppose fully five hundred were men of high standing in the world of politics, the Services, commerce, and the professions. Among them were three dukes, twenty-three peers, a Field Marshal, six newspaper proprietors, eleven editors, seven of the wealthiest men in England, and ninety-eight prominent Members of Parliament. And, as I say, no systematic recruiting had been done.

We weren't specifically trying to enroll members during that first week. No recruiting had taken place. However, by the end of the week, when the executive committee met at the Westminster Palace Hotel, the founder, John Crondall, was able to present a list of nearly six hundred sworn members of The Citizens. Of these, I believe about five hundred were respected figures in politics, the military, business, and various professions. Among them were three dukes, twenty-three peers, a Field Marshal, six newspaper owners, eleven editors, seven of the richest men in England, and ninety-eight notable Members of Parliament. And as I said, no organized recruiting had happened.

At that meeting of the executive a great deal of important business was transacted. John Crondall was able to announce a credit balance of ten thousand pounds, with powers to overdraw under guarantee at the Bank of England. A simple code of membership rules and objects was drawn up for publication, and a short code of secret rules was formed, by which every sworn member was to be bound. These rules stipulated for implicit obedience to the decision and orders of the executive, and by these every member was bound to take a certain course of rifle drill, and to respond immediately to any call that should be made for military service within the British Isles during a period of twelve months from the date of enrolment. John Crondall announced that there was every hope of The Citizens obtaining from the Government a grant of one service rifle and one hundred rounds of ammunition for every member who could pass a simple medical examination.

At that executive meeting, a lot of important business was conducted. John Crondall was able to announce a credit balance of ten thousand pounds, along with authorization to overdraw under guarantee at the Bank of England. A straightforward set of membership rules and objectives was created for publication, and a brief set of secret rules was established, to which every sworn member was required to adhere. These rules demanded complete obedience to the decisions and orders of the executive, and every member was obligated to follow a specific course of rifle training and to respond immediately to any requests for military service within the British Isles during a twelve-month period from the date of enrollment. John Crondall announced that there was every hope of The Citizens receiving a grant from the Government of one service rifle and one hundred rounds of ammunition for every member who could pass a simple medical exam.

"We may not actually secure this grant until after[266] the general election," Crondall explained; "but it can be regarded as a certain asset."

"We might not actually get this grant until after[266] the general election," Crondall explained; "but it can be considered a definite asset."

It was decided that, officially, there should be no connection between the Canadian preachers, as every one called them, and the propaganda of The Citizens. But it was also privately agreed that steps should be taken to follow the Canadians throughout their pilgrimage with lectures and addresses, and meetings at which members could be enrolled upon the roster of The Citizens, including volunteer instructors in rifle drill. My friend Stairs attended this meeting with Reynolds, and, after discussion, it was agreed that, for the present, they should not visit the towns occupied by the Germans.

It was decided that, officially, there should be no connection between the Canadian preachers, as everyone called them, and the propaganda of The Citizens. However, it was also privately agreed that steps should be taken to follow the Canadians during their journey with lectures, talks, and meetings where members could sign up for the roster of The Citizens, including volunteer instructors for rifle training. My friend Stairs attended this meeting with Reynolds, and after some discussion, it was decided that, for now, they should not visit the towns held by the Germans.

"The people there have their lesson before them every day and all day long," said John Crondall. "The folk we want to reach are those who have not yet learned their lesson. My advice is to attack London first. Enlist London on your side, and on that go to the provinces."

"The people there have their lesson in front of them every day and all day long," said John Crondall. "The ones we want to reach are those who haven't learned their lesson yet. My advice is to go after London first. Get London on your side, and from there, move on to the provinces."

There was a good deal of discussion over this, and finally an offer John Crondall made was accepted by Stairs and Reynolds, and our meeting was brought to a close. What Crondall said was this:

There was a lot of discussion about this, and finally, an offer made by John Crondall was accepted by Stairs and Reynolds, and our meeting came to an end. What Crondall said was this:

"To-day is Monday. There is still a great deal of detail to be attended to. Officially, there must be no connection between Stairs and Reynolds and The Citizens. Actually, we know the connection is vital. Give me the rest of this week for arrangements, and I promise that we shall all gain by it. I will not appear in the matter, and I will see you each evening[267] for consultation. Your pilgrimage shall begin on Sunday, and ours within a day or so of that."

"Today is Monday. There's still a lot to take care of. Officially, there can’t be any connection between Stairs and Reynolds and The Citizens. But we know that connection is crucial. Give me the rest of this week to make arrangements, and I promise we will all benefit from it. I won’t be involved directly, and I’ll meet with you each evening[267] for consultations. Your journey will start on Sunday, and ours will begin shortly after."

Then followed another week of tense effort. Stairs and Reynolds both addressed minor gatherings during the week, and met John Crondall every evening for consultation. On Wednesday the principal Imperialistic newspaper in London appeared with a long leading article and three columns of descriptive exposition of "The New Evangel." On the same day the papers published despatches telling of the departure from their various homes of the Premiers, and two specially elected representatives of all the British Colonies, who were coming to England for an Imperial Conference at Westminster. The Government's resignation was expected within the month, and writs for the election were to be issued immediately afterwards.

Then came another week of tense effort. Stairs and Reynolds both spoke at small gatherings throughout the week and met with John Crondall every evening for consultations. On Wednesday, the main Imperialistic newspaper in London published a lengthy leading article along with three columns describing "The New Evangel." On the same day, the papers released reports about the Premiers leaving their various homes and two specially elected representatives from all the British Colonies who were headed to England for an Imperial Conference at Westminster. The Government's resignation was anticipated within the month, and writs for the election were set to be issued right after.

On Wednesday evening and Thursday morning the newspapers of London alone published one hundred and thirteen columns of matter regarding the message and the pilgrimage of the Rev. George Stairs and the Rev. Arthur J. Reynolds. During the latter part of the week all London was agog over the Canadian preachers. As yet, very little had appeared in print regarding The Citizens.

On Wednesday evening and Thursday morning, the newspapers in London published one hundred and thirteen columns about the message and pilgrimage of Rev. George Stairs and Rev. Arthur J. Reynolds. By the end of the week, all of London was buzzing about the Canadian preachers. So far, very little had been published regarding The Citizens.

On Sunday morning at three o'clock John Crondall went into his bedroom to sleep, and I slept in the room he had set aside for me in his flat—too tired out to undress. Even Crondall's iron frame was weary that night, and he admitted to me before retiring from a table at which we had kept three typewriters[268] busy till long after midnight, that he had reached his limit and must rest.

On Sunday morning at three o'clock, John Crondall went to his bedroom to sleep, and I crashed in the room he had set up for me in his apartment—too worn out to get undressed. Even Crondall's strong build was exhausted that night, and he told me before heading to bed from the table where we had kept three typewriters[268] running until long after midnight that he had reached his limit and needed to rest.

"I couldn't stand another hour of it—unless it were necessary, you know," was his way of putting it.

"I couldn't handle another hour of it—unless it was necessary, you know," was his way of saying it.

By my persuasion he kept his bed during a good slice of Sunday morning, and lunched with me at Constance Grey's flat. He always said that Mrs. Van Homrey was the most restful tonic London could supply to any man. I went to the morning service at Westminster Abbey that day with Constance, and listened to a magnificent sermon from the Bishop of London, whose text was drawn from the sixth chapter of Exodus: "And I will take you to me for a people, and I will be to you a God."

By my urging, he stayed in bed for a good part of Sunday morning and had lunch with me at Constance Grey's apartment. He always mentioned that Mrs. Van Homrey was the most soothing balm London could offer to any man. That day, I attended the morning service at Westminster Abbey with Constance and listened to a brilliant sermon from the Bishop of London, whose text was taken from the sixth chapter of Exodus: "And I will take you to me for a people, and I will be to you a God."

The Bishop struck a strong note of hopefulness, but there was also warning and exhortation in his discourse. He spoke of sons of our race who had gone into far countries, and, carrying our Faith and traditions with them, had preserved these and wrought them into a finer fabric than the original from which they were drawn. And now, when a great affliction had come upon the people of England, their sons of the Greater Britain oversea were holding out kindly hands of friendship and support. But it was not alone in the material sense that we should do well to avail ourselves of the support offered us from the outside places. These wandering children of the Old Land had cherished among them a strong and simple godliness, a devout habit of Christian morality, from which we might well draw spiritual sustenance.

The Bishop conveyed a strong sense of hope, but his message also included warnings and encouragement. He talked about members of our community who had traveled to distant lands, taking our Faith and traditions with them, preserving these values and turning them into something even richer than the originals. Now, as England faced a significant hardship, the descendants of those who had moved abroad were reaching out with friendly offers of help and support. However, it wasn't just in a material way that we should benefit from the assistance coming from these distant places. These wandering children of the Old Land had embraced a genuine and simple devotion, a sincere practice of Christian values, from which we could draw spiritual nourishment.

"You have all heard of the Canadian preachers,[269] and I hope you will all learn a good deal more of their Message this very afternoon at the Albert Hall, where I am to have the honour of presiding over a meeting which will be addressed by these Christian workers from across the sea."

"You’ve all heard about the Canadian preachers,[269] and I hope you’ll learn a lot more about their Message this afternoon at Albert Hall, where I have the honor of leading a meeting that will feature these Christian workers from overseas."

We found John Crondall a giant refreshed after his long sleep.

We found John Crondall as a giant who felt rejuvenated after his long rest.

"I definitely promise you a seat this afternoon, Mrs. Van Homrey," he said, as we all sat down to lunch in the South Kensington flat, "but that's as much as I can promise. You and I will have to keep our feet, Dick, and you will have to share Lady Tate's seat, Constance. If every ticket-holder turns up this afternoon, there won't be a single vacant seat in the whole of that great hall."

"I definitely promise you a seat this afternoon, Mrs. Van Homrey," he said as we all sat down for lunch in the South Kensington flat, "but that's all I can guarantee. You and I will have to stay alert, Dick, and you will need to share Lady Tate's seat, Constance. If every ticket-holder shows up this afternoon, there won't be a single empty seat in that huge hall."

"You earned your Sunday morning in, John," said Mrs. Van Homrey. "Is the Prime Minister coming?"

"You earned your Sunday morning, John," said Mrs. Van Homrey. "Is the Prime Minister coming?"

"No, he has failed me at the last, but half the members of the last Government will be there, and I have promises from prominent representatives of every religious denomination in England. There will be sixty military officers above captain's rank, in uniform, and forty-eight naval officers in uniform. There will be many scores of bluejackets and private soldiers, a hundred training-ship lads, fifty of the Legion of Frontiersmen, and a number of volunteers all in full uniform. There will be a tremendous number of society people, but the mass will be leavened, and I should say one-half the people will be middle-class folk. For to-night, no tickets have been issued. The attendance will depend to some extent on the[270] success of this afternoon, but, to judge from the newspapers and the talk one hears, I should say it would be enormous."

"No, he let me down in the end, but half of the previous Government will be there, and I have commitments from key representatives of every religious group in England. There will be sixty military officers above the rank of captain in uniform, along with forty-eight naval officers in uniform. There will be many dozens of sailors and private soldiers, a hundred training ship boys, fifty members of the Legion of Frontiersmen, and several volunteers all in full uniform. A huge number of society folks will be present, but the crowd will have a good mix, and I’d say about half of the attendees will be middle-class individuals. For tonight, no tickets have been issued. The turnout will depend somewhat on the[270] success of this afternoon, but judging by the newspapers and the buzz I've heard, I’d say it will be massive."

Just before we left the flat Crondall told us a secret.

Just before we left the apartment, Crondall shared a secret with us.

"You know they have a volunteer choir of fifty voices?" he said. "It was Stairs's idea, and he has carried it out alone. The choir consists entirely of bluejackets, soldiers, volunteers, Red Cross nurses, and boys from the Army bands."

"You know they have a volunteer choir of fifty voices?" he said. "It was Stairs's idea, and he's done it all himself. The choir is made up entirely of sailors, soldiers, volunteers, Red Cross nurses, and boys from the Army bands."


VII
THE SWORD OF THE LORD

Stern Daughter of the Voice of God!
O Duty! if you love that name You are a light to guide, a rod To correct the mistakes and provide feedback; You who are victory and law When empty fears overwhelm; From empty temptations, you set free,
And you soothe the tired struggles of weak humanity!
Wordsworth's Ode to Responsibility.

I have always been glad that I was able to attend that first great service of the Canadian preachers; and so, I think, has every one else who was there. Other services of theirs may have been more notable in certain respects—indeed, I know they were; but this one was the beginning, the first wave in a great tide. And I am glad that I was there to see that first grand wave rise upon the rock of British apathy.

I have always been happy that I got to be part of that first major service of the Canadian preachers; and I believe everyone else who attended feels the same way. Other services might have been more impressive in certain ways—actually, I know they were; but this one marked the start, the initial wave in a powerful movement. And I'm grateful that I was there to witness that first impressive wave crash against the rock of British indifference.

I have said something of the audience, but a book might well be devoted to its description, and, again, a sentence may serve. It was a representative English gathering, in that it embraced a member of the Royal Family, a little group of old men and women from an asylum for the indigent, and members of every grade of society that comes between. Also, it[272] was a very large gathering—even for the Albert Hall.

I’ve talked a bit about the audience, but you could easily write a whole book about them, or just sum it up in a sentence. It was a typical English gathering, featuring a member of the Royal Family, a small group of elderly folks from a shelter for the needy, and people from all different levels of society in between. Plus, it[272] was a really big crowd—especially for the Albert Hall.

It should be remembered that not many weeks prior to this Sunday afternoon, the people of London, maddened by hunger, fear, and bewildered panic, had stormed Westminster to enforce their demand for surrender, and had seen Von Füchter with his bloodstained legions take possession of the capital of the British Empire. Fifty Londoners had been cut down, almost in as many seconds, within two miles of the Mansion House. In one terrible week London had passed through an age of terror and humiliation, the end of which had been purchased in panic and disorder by means of a greater humiliation than any. Now England had to pay the bill. Some, in the pursuit of business and pleasure, were already forgetting; but the majority among the great concourse of Londoners who sat waiting in the Albert Hall that afternoon, clothed in their Sunday best, were still shrewdly conscious of the terrible severity of the blow which had fallen upon England.

It should be remembered that just a few weeks before this Sunday afternoon, the people of London, driven mad by hunger, fear, and confusion, had stormed Westminster to demand surrender, and had witnessed Von Füchter and his bloodstained army take over the capital of the British Empire. Fifty Londoners had been killed, almost in as many seconds, within two miles of the Mansion House. In just one terrible week, London had experienced an era of terror and humiliation, the aftermath of which was marked by panic and disorder resulting in an even greater humiliation. Now England had to face the consequences. Some, in their pursuit of business and pleasure, were already forgetting; but the majority of the large crowd of Londoners who sat waiting in the Albert Hall that afternoon, dressed in their Sunday best, were still acutely aware of the terrible impact of the blow that had struck England.

Having found Constance her half-seat with Lady Tate, I stood beside one of the gangways below the platform, which lead to the dressing-rooms and other offices. Beside me was a table for Press representatives. There, with their pencils, I noted Campbell, of the Daily Gazette, and other men I knew, including Carew, for the Standard, who had an assistant with him. He told me that somewhere in the hall his paper had a special descriptive writer as well.

Having found Constance her half-seat with Lady Tate, I stood next to one of the aisles below the stage, which led to the dressing rooms and other offices. Next to me was a table for press representatives. There, with their pencils, I noticed Campbell from the Daily Gazette and other guys I recognized, including Carew from the Standard, who had an assistant with him. He told me that somewhere in the hall, his paper had a special descriptive writer as well.

Looking up and down that vast building, from dome to amphitheatre, I experienced, as it were vicariously,[273] something of the nervousness of stage fright. Londoners were not simple prairie folk, I thought. How should my friend George Stairs hold that multitude? Two plain men from Western Canada, accustomed to minister to farmers and miners, what could they say to engage and hold these serried thousands of Londoners, the most blasé people in England? I had never heard either of the preachers speak in public, but—I looked out over that assemblage, and I was horribly afraid for my friends. A Church of England clergyman and a Nonconformist minister from Canada, and I told myself they had never had so much as an elocution lesson between them!

Looking up and down that huge building, from the dome to the amphitheater, I felt, in a way, the nervousness of stage fright.[273] Londoners weren’t just simple folks from the prairie, I realized. How would my friend George Stairs connect with that crowd? Two regular guys from Western Canada, used to speaking to farmers and miners, what could they say to capture the attention of these packed thousands of Londoners, the most jaded people in England? I had never heard either of the preachers talk in public, but—I looked out over that gathering, and I was seriously worried for my friends. A Church of England clergyman and a Nonconformist minister from Canada, and I reminded myself they hadn’t even taken a single public speaking lesson!

And then the Bishop of London appeared on the crowded platform, followed by George Stairs and Arthur Reynolds; and a dead silence descended upon the hall. In the forefront of the platform was a plain table with a chair at either end of it, and a larger one in the middle. Here the Bishop and the two preachers placed themselves. Then the Bishop rose with right hand uplifted, and said solemnly:

And then the Bishop of London stepped onto the crowded stage, followed by George Stairs and Arthur Reynolds; and a hushed silence fell over the hall. At the front of the stage was a simple table with a chair at each end and a bigger one in the middle. The Bishop and the two preachers took their places here. The Bishop then stood up with his right hand raised and said solemnly:

"May God bless to us all the Message which His two servants have brought us from oversea; for Christ's sake, Amen."

"May God bless all of us with the Message that His two servants have brought us from abroad; for Christ's sake, Amen."

George Stairs remained kneeling at his end of the table. But as the Bishop resumed his seat Arthur Reynolds stepped forward, and, pitching his voice well, said:

George Stairs stayed kneeling at his end of the table. But as the Bishop took his seat again, Arthur Reynolds stepped forward and, raising his voice appropriately, said:

"My friends, let us sing the British Anthem."

"My friends, let’s sing the British Anthem."

And at that the great organ spoke, and the choir of sailors, soldiers, and nurses led the singing of the National Anthem. The first bar was sung by the[274] choir alone, but by the time the third bar was reached thousands among the standing congregation were singing with them, and the volume of sound was most impressive. I think that a good many people besides myself found this solemn singing of the Anthem, from its first line to its last, something of a revelation. It made "God Save the King" a real prayer instead of a musical intimation that hats might be felt for and carriages ordered. It struck a note which the Canadian preachers desired to strike. They began with a National Hymn which was a prayer for King and Country. The people were at first startled, and then pleased, and then stirred by a departure from all customs known to them. And that this should be so was, I apprehend, the deliberate intention of the Canadian preachers.

And then the grand organ played, and the choir of sailors, soldiers, and nurses led the singing of the National Anthem. The first line was sung only by the choir, but by the time the third line came around, thousands in the standing crowd were singing along, and the sound was truly impressive. I think quite a few people besides me found this solemn singing of the Anthem, from the first line to the last, to be somewhat of a revelation. It turned "God Save the King" into a genuine prayer rather than just a musical hint for hats to be removed and carriages to be called. It hit the note that the Canadian preachers wanted to hit. They started with a National Hymn that was a prayer for King and Country. At first, the people were surprised, then pleased, and then moved by this break from all the customs they knew. And I believe this was the intentional aim of the Canadian preachers.

Still George Stairs knelt at his end of the bare table.

Still, George Stairs knelt at his end of the bare table.

As the last note of the organ accompaniment died away, Arthur Reynolds stepped to the front.

As the last note of the organ faded away, Arthur Reynolds moved to the front.

"Will you all pray, please?" he said. He closed his eyes and extended one hand.

"Could everyone please pray?" he said. He closed his eyes and held out one hand.

I cannot tell you what simple magic the man used. I know those were his words. But the compelling appeal in them was most remarkable. There was something childlike about his simple request. I do not think any one could have scoffed at the man. After a minute's silence, he prayed aloud, and this is what he said:

I can't describe the simple magic the man used. I know those were his words. But the way he said them was really striking. There was something innocent about his basic request. I don't think anyone could have mocked the man. After a minute of silence, he prayed out loud, and this is what he said:

"Father in Heaven, give us strength to understand our duty and to do it. Thou knowest that two of the least among Thy servants have crossed the sea[275] to give a Message to their kinsmen in England. Our kinsmen are a great and proud people, and we, as Thou knowest, are but very simple men. But our Message is from Thee, and with Thee all things are possible. Father, have pity upon our weakness to-day. Open to us the hearts of even the proudest and the greatest of our kinsmen. Do not let them scorn us. And, O Father of all men, gentle and simple, breathe Thou upon us that we may have a strength not of ourselves; a power worthy of the Message we bring, which shall make its truth to shine so that none may mistake it. For Christ's sake. Amen."

"Father in Heaven, give us the strength to understand our duty and to fulfill it. You know that two of the least among Your servants have crossed the sea[275] to deliver a Message to their relatives in England. Our relatives are a great and proud people, and we, as You know, are just very simple men. But our Message is from You, and with You, all things are possible. Father, have compassion on our weakness today. Open the hearts of even the proudest and greatest of our relatives. Don’t let them scorn us. And, O Father of all people, gentle and simple, breathe upon us that we may have a strength that is not our own; a power worthy of the Message we bring, which will make its truth shine so clearly that none may mistake it. For Christ's sake. Amen."

Arthur Reynolds resumed his seat, and a great Australian singer, a prima donna of world-wide repute, stepped forward very simply and sang as a solo the hymn beginning:

Arthur Reynolds took his seat again, and a famous Australian singer, a prima donna known around the world, stepped forward calmly and sang the hymn that started with:

Church of the Living God,
Foundation of truth,
Keep the old paths the ancestors traveled. In your bright youth.

The prayer had softened all hearts by its simplicity, its humility. The exquisitely rendered hymn attuned all minds to thoughts of ancient, simple piety, and the traditions which guided and inspired our race in the past. When it was ended, and not till then, George Stairs rose from his knees, and stepped forward to where a little temporary extension jutted out beyond the rest of the platform. He stood there with both hands by his side, and a Bible held in one of them. His head inclined a little forward. It was an attitude suggestive rather of[276] submission to that great assembly, or to some Power above it, than of exhortation. Watching him as he stood there, I realized what a fine figure of a man George was, how well and surely Canadian life had developed him. His head was massive, his hair thick and very fair; his form lithe, tall, full of muscular elasticity.

The prayer had touched everyone's hearts with its simplicity and humility. The beautifully sung hymn connected all minds to thoughts of ancient, straightforward faith, and the traditions that guided and inspired our people in the past. Once it was over, and not before, George Stairs rose from his knees and stepped forward to a small temporary extension that stuck out from the rest of the platform. He stood there with both hands at his sides, holding a Bible in one of them, and his head slightly inclined forward. It looked more like he was submitting to that great assembly or to a higher Power than urging them on. As I watched him there, I realized what a remarkable man George was and how well Canadian life had shaped him. His head was large, his hair thick and very light in color; his body was lean, tall, and full of muscular flexibility.

He stood so, silent, for a full minute, till I began to catch my breath from nervousness. Then he opened the Bible, and:

He stood there, silent, for a full minute, until I started to catch my breath from being nervous. Then he opened the Bible, and:

"May I just read you a few verses from the Bible?" he said.

"Can I read you a few verses from the Bible?" he asked.

There was the same directness, the same simple, almost childlike appeal that had touched the people in Reynolds's prayer. He read some verses from the First Book of Samuel. I remember:

There was the same straightforwardness, the same simple, almost childlike charm that had moved the people in Reynolds's prayer. He read some verses from the First Book of Samuel. I remember:

"'And did I choose him out of all the tribes of Israel to be my priest, to offer upon mine altar, to burn incense, to wear an ephod before me? And did I give unto the house of thy father all the offerings made by fire of the children of Israel? Wherefore kick ye at my sacrifice and at mine offering, which I have commanded in my habitation; and honouredst thy sons above me to make yourselves fat with the chiefest of all the offerings of Israel, my people? Wherefore the Lord God of Israel saith, I said indeed that thy house and the house of thy father should walk before me for ever; but now the Lord saith, be it far from me; for them that honour me I will honour, and them that despise me shall be lightly esteemed. Behold the day is come, that I will cut off thine arm, and the arm of thy father's house, and[277] there shall not be an old man in my house. And thou shalt see an enemy in my habitation, in all the wealth which God shall give Israel.... And I will raise me up a faithful priest, that shall do according to that which is in mine heart and in my mind....'"

"'Did I choose him from all the tribes of Israel to be my priest, to offer sacrifices at my altar, to burn incense, and to wear an ephod before me? Did I give the house of your father all the offerings made by fire from the children of Israel? Why do you kick against my sacrifices and offerings that I commanded in my dwelling, and honor your sons more than me, making yourselves fat with the best of all the offerings of Israel, my people? Therefore, the Lord God of Israel says, I indeed said that your house and your father's house would serve me forever; but now the Lord says, that will not happen; for those who honor me I will honor, and those who despise me will be lightly esteemed. Look, the day is coming when I will cut off your strength, and the strength of your father's house, and[277] there will not be an old man in my house. You will see an enemy in my dwelling, in all the wealth that God will give Israel... And I will raise up for myself a faithful priest who will do what is in my heart and mind...'"

There was a pause, and then the preacher read a passage from Judges, ending with the famous war-cry: "The Sword of the Lord and of Gideon." He looked up then, and, without reference to the Bible in his hand, repeated several verses:

There was a pause, and then the preacher read a passage from Judges, ending with the famous war cry: "The Sword of the Lord and of Gideon." He looked up then, and, without referring to the Bible in his hand, repeated several verses:

"'And by thy sword thou shalt live, and shalt serve thy brother: and it shall come to pass when thou shalt have the dominion, that thou shalt break his yoke from off thy neck.'

"'And you will live by your sword and serve your brother. But when you gain power, you will break his burden from your neck.'"

"'He that hath no sword, let him sell his garment and buy one.'

"'If you don't have a sword, sell your cloak and buy one.'"

"'For he beareth not the sword in vain: for he is the minister of God, a revenger to execute wrath upon him that doeth evil.'

"'For he does not carry the sword for nothing: he is the servant of God, a punisher to bring wrath upon those who do evil.'"

"'And take the helmet of salvation, and the Sword of the Spirit, which is the Word of God.'

"'And wear the helmet of salvation, and the Sword of the Spirit, which is the Word of God.'"

"'Think not that I am come to send peace on earth; I came not to send peace but a sword.' Not the peace of indolence and dishonour; not the fatted peace of mercenary well-being; but a Sword; the Sword of the Lord, the Sword of Duty, which creates, establishes, and safeguards the only true peace—the peace of honourable peoples."

"'Don't think that I came to bring peace to the earth; I didn’t come to bring peace but a sword.' Not the peace of laziness and dishonor; not the comfortable peace of selfish interests; but a sword; the sword of the Lord, the sword of duty, which creates, establishes, and protects the only real peace—the peace of honorable people."

I remember his slow turning of leaves in his Bible, and I remember:

I remember how he slowly turned the pages of his Bible, and I remember:

"'Let us hear the conclusion of the whole matter: Fear God, and keep His commandments, for this is[278] the whole duty of man—' the whole duty—— Yes, 'but isn't Duty rather an early Victorian sort of business, and a bit out of date, anyhow?' That was what a young countryman of mine—from Dorset, he came—said to me in Calgary, last year. I told him that, according to my reading of history, it had come down a little farther than early Victorian days. I remember I mentioned Rorke's Drift; and he rather liked that. But, of course, I knew what he meant."

"'Let us hear the conclusion of the whole matter: Fear God, and keep His commandments, for this is[278] the whole duty of man—' the whole duty— Yes, 'but isn't Duty kind of an old-fashioned Victorian concept, and a bit outdated, anyway?' That’s what a young guy from my area—a country boy from Dorset—said to me in Calgary last year. I told him that, according to my understanding of history, it has persisted a bit longer than just the early Victorian era. I remember mentioning Rorke's Drift; he seemed to like that. But, of course, I understood what he meant."

It was in this very simple strain, without a gesture, without a trace of dramatic appeal, that George Stairs began to address that great gathering. Much has been said and written of the quality of revelation which was instinct in that first address; of its compelling force, its inspired strength, the convincing directness of it all. And I should be the last to deny to my old friend's address any of the praises lavished upon it by high and low. But what I would say of it is that, even now, sufficient emphasis and import are never attached to the most compelling quality of all in George Stairs's words: their absolutely unaffected simplicity. I think a ten-year-old child could have followed his every word with perfect understanding.

It was in this very straightforward manner, without any gestures or dramatic flair, that George Stairs began to speak to that large crowd. A lot has been said and written about the quality of insight present in that first speech; its powerful impact, its inspired strength, and its convincing clarity. I wouldn't deny my old friend's speech any of the compliments it received from everyone. But what I want to emphasize is that, even now, the most important quality of all in George Stairs's words is often overlooked: their completely natural simplicity. I believe a ten-year-old could have understood every word he said perfectly.

Nowadays we take a fair measure of simplicity for granted. Anything less would condemn a man as a fool or a mountebank. But be it remembered that the key-note and most striking feature of all recent progress has been the advance toward simplicity in all things. At the period of George Stairs's first exposition of the new evangel in the Albert Hall, we were not greatly given to simplicity. It was scarcely[279] noticeable at that time even among tillers of the earth. Not to put too fine a point upon it, we were a tinselled lot of mimes, greatly given to apishness, and shunning naked truth as though it were the plague. Past masters in compromise and self-delusion, we had stripped ourselves of simplicity in every detail of life, and, from the cradle to the grave, seemed willingly to be hedged about with every kind of complexity. We so maltreated our physical palates that they responded only to flavours which would have alarmed a plain-living man; and, metaphorically, the same thing held good in every concern of our lives, until simplicity became non-existent among us, and was forgotten. There were men and women in that Sunday afternoon gathering at the Albert Hall whose very pleasures were a complicated and laborious art, whose pastimes were a strain upon the nervous system, whose leisure was quite an arduous business.

Nowadays, we take a good amount of simplicity for granted. Anything less would make someone seem foolish or like a charlatan. But it's important to remember that the main theme and most notable feature of all recent progress has been the move toward simplicity in everything. When George Stairs first presented the new ideas at the Albert Hall, we weren't very focused on simplicity. It was barely noticeable back then, even among farmers. To put it bluntly, we were a gaudy bunch, prone to mimicry, and avoiding raw truth as if it were contagious. Experts at compromise and self-deception, we had stripped simplicity from every aspect of our lives, and from birth to death, we seemed willingly surrounded by all sorts of complications. We treated our taste buds so poorly that they only responded to flavors that would have shocked someone with simpler tastes; metaphorically, the same was true for every aspect of our lives until simplicity became nonexistent and forgotten. There were men and women in that Sunday afternoon gathering at the Albert Hall whose very joy was a complex and exhausting art, whose hobbies were stressful, and whose downtime felt like hard work.

This it was which gave such striking freshness, such compelling strength, to the simple, forthright directness, the unaffected earnestness and modesty of the Message brought us by the Canadian preachers. The most bumptious and self-satisfied Cockney who ever heard the ringing of Bow Bells, would have found resentment impossible after George Stairs's little account of his leaving Dorset as a boy of twelve, and picking up such education as he had, while learning how to milk cows, bed down horses, split fire-wood, and perform "chores" generally, on a Canadian farm. Even during his theological course, vacations had found him in the harvest field.

This is what gave such striking freshness and compelling strength to the simple, straightforward directness, the genuine seriousness, and modesty of the message brought to us by the Canadian preachers. Even the most arrogant and self-satisfied Cockney who ever heard the Bow Bells would have found it impossible to feel resentment after George Stairs's little story about leaving Dorset at the age of twelve and getting whatever education he could while learning to milk cows, take care of horses, chop firewood, and do general chores on a Canadian farm. Even during his theology studies, he spent his vacations working in the harvest fields.

"You may guess my diffidence, then," he said, "in[280] lifting up my voice before such a gathering as this, here in the storied heart of the Empire, the city I have reverenced my life long as the centre of the world's intelligence. But there is not a man or woman here to-day who would chide a lad who came home from school with tidings of something he had learned there. That is my case, precisely. I have been to one of our outside schools, from my home here in this beloved island. Home and school alike, they are all part of our family heritage—yours and mine. I only bring you your own word from another part of our own place. That is my sole claim to stand before you to-day. Yet, when I think of it, it satisfies me; it safeguards me from the effect of misunderstanding or offence, so long as my hearers are of my kin—British."

"You can imagine my nervousness," he said, "in[280] speaking out in front of such a crowd as this, here in the historic heart of the Empire, the city I have cherished my whole life as the center of the world's knowledge. But there’s not a single person here today who would scold a young person coming back from school with news of something they learned. That’s exactly my situation. I’ve attended one of the schools outside my home here on this dear island. Home and school are both part of our shared heritage—yours and mine. I’m just bringing you your own words from another part of our own land. That’s the only reason I’m standing in front of you today. Still, when I think about it, it gives me peace; it protects me from the chance of misunderstanding or offense, as long as my audience is of my kind—British."

His description of Canada and the life he had lived there occupied us for no more than ten minutes, at the outside. It has appeared in so many books that I will not attempt to quote that little masterpiece of illumination. But by no means every reproduction of this passage adds the simple little statement which divided it from its successor.

His description of Canada and the life he lived there took us no more than ten minutes, at most. It's been featured in so many books that I won’t try to quote that little masterpiece of insight. However, not every version of this passage includes the simple statement that set it apart from the next one.

"That has been my life. No brilliant qualities are demanded of a man in such a life. The one thing demanded is that he shall do his duty. You remember that passage in Ecclesiastes—'The conclusion of the whole matter'?"

"That has been my life. No exceptional qualities are expected of a person in such a life. The only thing that’s required is that he fulfills his responsibilities. Do you recall that line in Ecclesiastes—'The conclusion of the whole matter'?"

And then came the story of Edward Hare. That moved the people deeply.

And then the story of Edward Hare came along. It touched the hearts of the people.

"My first curacy was in Southern Manitoba. When I was walking from the church to the farmhouse[281] where I lodged, after morning service, one perfect day in June, I passed a man called Edward Hare, sitting at the edge of a little bluff, on a rising piece of ground. I had felt drawn toward this man. He was a Londoner, and, in his first two years, had had a tough fight. But he had won through, and now had just succeeded in adding a hundred and sixty acres to his little farm, which was one of the most prosperous in the district.

"My first curacy was in Southern Manitoba. One perfect day in June, after the morning service, I was walking from the church to the farmhouse[281] where I stayed, and I passed a man named Edward Hare. He was sitting at the edge of a small bluff on a rising piece of land. I felt a connection to this man. He was from London and had faced a tough struggle in his first two years. But he had made it through and had just managed to add a hundred and sixty acres to his small farm, which was one of the most successful in the area."

"'I didn't see you at church this morning, Hare,' I said, after we had chatted a minute or two.

"'I didn't see you at church this morning, Hare,' I said, after we had chatted for a minute or two."

"'No,' said he; 'I wasn't at church. I've been here by this bluff since breakfast, and—Parson!' he said, with sudden emphasis, 'I shall give up the farm. I'm going back Home.'

"'No,' he said; 'I wasn't at church. I've been here by this cliff since breakfast, and—Parson!' he said, with sudden emphasis, 'I’m giving up the farm. I'm going back Home.'"

"Well, of course, I was surprised, and pressed him for reasons. 'Well,' he said, 'I don't know as I can make much of a show of reasons; but I'm going. Did you notice anything special about the weather, or—or that, this morning, Parson?' I told him I had only noticed that it was a very sweet, clear, happy sort of a morning. 'That's just it, Parson,' he said; 'sweet and clear and clean it is; and I don't believe there's any sweeter, cleaner thing than this morning on my farm—no, not in heaven, Parson,' he said. 'And that's why I'm going back Home to London; to Battersea; that's where I lived before I came here.'

"Well, of course, I was surprised and pressed him for reasons. 'Well,' he said, 'I don't know how to explain it well, but I'm leaving. Did you notice anything special about the weather this morning, Parson?' I told him I had only noticed that it was a really nice, clear, cheerful kind of morning. 'That's just it, Parson,' he said; 'sweet and clear and clean it is; and I don't think there's anything sweeter or cleaner than this morning on my farm—no, not even in heaven, Parson,' he said. 'And that's why I'm going back home to London; to Battersea; that's where I lived before I came here.'"

"I waited for him to tell me more, and presently he said: 'You know, Parson, I was never what you might call a drunkard, not even at Home, where drinking's the regular thing. But I used to get through a tidy lot of liquor, one way and another,[282] and most generally two or three pints too many of a Saturday night. Then, of a Sunday morning, the job was waiting for the pubs to open. Nobody in our street ever did much else of a Sunday. I suppose you don't happen to have ever been down the Falcon Road of a Sunday morning, Parson? No? Well, you see, the street's a kind of market all Saturday night, up till long after midnight—costers' barrows with flare-lights, gin-shops full to the door, and all the fun of the fair—all the fun of the fair. Mothers and fathers, lads and sweethearts, babies in prams, and toddlers in blue plush and white wool; you see them all crowding the bars up till midnight, and they see—well, they see Battersea through a kind of a bright gaze. Then comes Sunday, and a dry throat, and waiting for the pubs to open. The streets are all a litter of dirty newspaper and cabbage-stumps, and worse; and the air's kind of sick and stale.'

"I waited for him to share more, and soon he said: 'You know, Parson, I was never really a drunk, not even back Home, where drinking's pretty common. But I used to get through quite a bit of alcohol, one way or another,[282] usually two or three pints too many on Saturday nights. Then, on Sunday mornings, it was all about waiting for the pubs to open. Nobody in our street ever did much else on Sundays. I guess you’ve never been down Falcon Road on a Sunday morning, have you, Parson? No? Well, you see, the street is like a market all Saturday night, way past midnight—costers’ barrows with flare lights, gin shops packed to the doors, and all the excitement of the fair—all the excitement of the fair. Mothers and fathers, guys and sweethearts, babies in prams, and toddlers in blue plush and white wool; you see them all crowding the bars until midnight, and they see—well, they see Battersea through a sort of bright haze. Then Sunday rolls around, and there’s a dry throat, and waiting for the pubs to open. The streets are littered with dirty newspapers and cabbage stumps, and worse; and the air feels kind of sick and stale.'

"At that Hare stopped talking, and looked out over the prairie on that June morning. Presently he went on again: 'Well, Parson, when I came out here this morning—I haven't tasted beer for over three years—I sat down and looked around; and, somehow, I thought I'd never seen anything so fine in all my life; so sweet and clean; the air so bright, like dew; and green—well, look at it, far as your eye can carry! And all this round, away to the bluff there, and the creek this way; it's mine, every foot of it. Well, after a bit, I was looking over there to the church, and what d'ye think I saw, all through the pretty sunlight? I saw the Falcon Road, a pub[283] I know there, and a streak of sunshine running over the wire blinds into the bar, all frowsy and shut in, with the liquor stains over everything. And outside, I saw the pasty-faced crowd waiting to get in, and all the Sunday litter in the road. Parson, I got the smell of it, the sick, stale smell of it, right here—in Paradise; I got the frowsy smell of it, and heard the waily children squabbling, and—I can't tell you any more of what I saw. If you'd ever seen it, you'd know.'

"At that point, the Hare stopped talking and looked out over the prairie on that June morning. After a moment, he continued, 'Well, Parson, when I came out here this morning—I haven't had beer in over three years—I sat down and took a look around; and, somehow, I thought I had never seen anything so beautiful in my entire life; everything so sweet and clean; the air so bright, like dew; and the green—well, just look at it, as far as you can see! And all this around, stretching to the bluff over there, and the creek this way; it's mine, every inch of it. A little while later, I was looking over toward the church, and guess what I saw, shining in the lovely sunlight? I saw the Falcon Road, a pub I know, and a stream of sunlight pouring through the wire blinds into the bar, all messy and closed in, with liquor stains everywhere. And outside, I saw the pale-faced crowd waiting to get in, along with all the Sunday trash in the street. Parson, I caught a whiff of it, the sick, stale smell, right here—in Paradise; I got the musty smell and heard the wailing children arguing, and—I can't tell you any more of what I saw. If you'd ever seen it, you'd understand.'"

"And there he stopped again, until I moved. Then he said: 'Parson, if you saw a fellow starving on a bit of land over there that wouldn't feed a prairie-chick, and you knew of a free homestead across the creek, where he could raise five and twenty bushels to the acre and live like a man, would you leave him to rot on his bare patch? Not you. That's why I'm going Home—to Battersea.'

"And there he stopped again, until I moved. Then he said: 'Preacher, if you saw someone starving on a patch of land over there that couldn't even feed a bird, and you knew about a free homestead across the creek, where they could grow twenty-five bushels an acre and have a decent life, would you just leave them to suffer on their useless land? Not a chance. That's why I'm going Home—to Battersea.'"

"If Hare had been a married man I might have advised him otherwise. But he was married only to the farm he had wrought so well, and it did not seem to me part of my business to come between a man and his duty—as he saw it. That man came Home, and took the cheapest lodging he could get in Battersea. He had sold his farm well. Now he took to street preaching, and what he preached was, not religion, but the prairie. 'Lord sake, young folk!' he used to say to the lads and girls when they turned toward the public-houses. 'Hold on! Wait a minute! I want to tell you something!' And he would tell them what four years' clean work had given him in Canada.[284]

"If Hare had been married, I might have advised him differently. But he was only committed to the farm he had worked so hard on, and it didn’t seem right for me to interfere with a man’s sense of duty—as he understood it. That man returned home and found the cheapest place to stay in Battersea. He had sold his farm for a good price. Now he started street preaching, and what he preached wasn’t religion, but the prairie. 'For heaven's sake, young folks!' he would say to the kids when they headed toward the pubs. 'Hold on! Wait a minute! I want to tell you something!' And he would share what four years of hard work had earned him in Canada.[284]

"He got into touch with various emigration agencies. The money he had lasted him, living as he did, for five years. In that time he was the means of sending nine hundred and twenty men and five hundred and forty women and girls to a free and independent life in Canada. Just before his money was exhausted, England's affliction, England's chastisement, came upon her like God's anger in a thunderbolt. Hare had meant to return to Canada to make another start, and earn money enough to return to his work here. Instead of that, my friends, instead of what he called Paradise in Manitoba, God took him straight into Heaven. He left his body beside the North London entrenchments, where, so one of his comrades told me, he fought like ten men for England, knowing well that, if captured, he would be shot out of hand as a civilian bearing arms. One may say of Edward Hare, I think, that he saw his duty very clearly—and did it.

"He got in touch with several emigration agencies. The money he had lasted him, living as he did, for five years. During that time, he helped send nine hundred and twenty men and five hundred and forty women and girls to a free and independent life in Canada. Just before his money ran out, England's suffering, England's punishment, hit her like a bolt from God. Hare intended to return to Canada to make a fresh start and earn enough money to come back to his work here. Instead, my friends, instead of what he called Paradise in Manitoba, God took him straight to Heaven. He left his body by the North London defenses, where, as one of his comrades told me, he fought like ten men for England, fully aware that if he was captured, he would be executed as a civilian carrying arms. One can say of Edward Hare, I think, that he saw his duty very clearly—and fulfilled it."


"But what of us? What of you, and I, my friends? How do we stand regarding Duty?"

"But what about us? What about you and me, my friends? Where do we stand when it comes to Duty?"

I never heard such questions in my life. He had been speaking smoothly, evenly, calmly, and without gesticulation. With the questions, his body was bent as though for a leap; his hands flung forward. These questions left him like bullets. It was as though that great hall had been in blackest darkness, and with a sudden movement the speaker had switched on ten thousand electric lights. I saw men rise to a[285] half-erect posture. I heard women catch their breath. The air of the place seemed all aquiver.

I had never heard questions like that in my life. He had been speaking smoothly, evenly, calmly, and without any gestures. But with those questions, his body was tense, like he was about to spring into action; his hands shot forward. Those questions hit him like bullets. It was as if that huge hall was completely dark, and suddenly the speaker flipped on ten thousand bright lights. I saw men rise to a[285] half-standing position. I heard women gasp. The atmosphere felt electric.

"My friends, will you please pray with me?"

"My friends, can you please pray with me?"

He leaned forward, an appeal in every line of his figure, addressed confidentially to each soul present. Then his right hand rose:

He leaned forward, appealing to everyone there with his posture. Then his right hand went up:

"Please God, help me to give my Message! Please God, open London's heart to hear my Message! Please God, give me strength to tell it—now! For Christ's sake. Amen!"

"Please God, help me share my Message! Please God, open London's heart to receive my Message! Please God, give me the strength to speak it—now! For Christ's sake. Amen!"

One heard a low, emphatic, and far-carrying "Amen!" from the lips of London's Bishop; and I think that, too, meant something to the great congregation of Londoners assembled there.

One heard a low, powerful, and far-reaching "Amen!" from the lips of London's Bishop; and I think that also meant something to the large gathering of Londoners assembled there.

Immediately then, it was, while the electric thrill of his questions and the simple prayer still held all his audience at high tension, that George Stairs plunged into the famous declaration of the new evangel of Duty and Simplicity. If any man in the world has learned for himself that prayer is efficacious, that man is the Rev. George Stairs. For it is now universally admitted that such winged words as those of his first great exposition of the doctrine of Duty and simple living, the doctrine which has placed the English-speaking peoples in the forefront of Christendom, had never before thrilled an English audience.

Immediately, at that moment, while the excitement of his questions and the simple prayer still kept everyone on edge, George Stairs dove into the famous declaration of the new movement of Duty and Simplicity. If there’s anyone in the world who has proven that prayer works, it’s the Rev. George Stairs. It is now widely accepted that the powerful words from his first major presentation on the principles of Duty and simple living—the principles that have put English-speaking nations at the forefront of Christianity—had never before captivated an English audience.

His own words were a perfect example of the invincible virtue of simplicity; his presence there was a glowing evidence of the force of Duty. It is quite certain that the knowledge shown in his flashing summary of nineteenth-century English history was not knowledge based upon experience. But neither[286] the poets, nor the most learned historians, nor the most erudite of naval experts, has ever given a picture so instantly convincing as the famous passage of his oration which showed us, first, the British Fleet on the morning of Trafalgar; then, Nelson going into action; then, the great sailor's dying apotheosis of Duty; and, finally, England's reception of her dead hero's body. The delivery of this much-quoted passage was a matter of moments only, but from where I stood I saw streaming eyes in women's faces, and that stiff, unwinking stare on men's faces which indicates tense effort to restrain emotion.

His own words perfectly showcased the unbeatable power of simplicity; his presence there was compelling evidence of the strength of Duty. It's clear that the insights reflected in his quick overview of nineteenth-century English history weren't derived from personal experience. However, neither[286] the poets, the most knowledgeable historians, nor the most learned naval experts have ever painted such an instantly convincing picture as the famous part of his speech that first depicted the British Fleet on the morning of Trafalgar; then, Nelson going into battle; followed by the great sailor's final tribute to Duty; and, ultimately, England's reception of her fallen hero's body. Delivering this much-cited passage took only moments, but from where I stood, I could see tears streaming down women's faces and that rigid, unblinking gaze on men's faces that signals a struggle to hold back emotion.

And so, with a fine directness and simplicity of progress, he carried us down through the century to its stormy close, with vivid words of tribute for the sturdy pioneers of Victorian reform who fought for and built the freest democracy in the world, and gave us the triumphant enlightenment which illumined Victoria's first Jubilee.

And so, with a clear and straightforward approach, he guided us through the century to its turbulent end, with heartfelt words of appreciation for the determined pioneers of Victorian reform who fought for and established the freest democracy in the world, and gave us the victorious enlightenment that lit up Victoria's first Jubilee.

"'But isn't Duty a rather early Victorian sort of business, and out of date, anyhow?' said my young countryman in Calgary. To the first half of his question there can be no answer but 'Yes.' To deny it were to slander our fathers most cruelly. But what of the question's second half? Our fathers have no concern with the answering of that. Is Duty 'out of date,' my friends? If so, let us burn our churches. If so, let the bishops resign their bishoprics. If so, let us lower for ever the flag which our fathers made sacred from pole to pole. If so, let Britain admit—as well first as last—that she has retired for ever from her proud place among the nations, and is no[287] more to be accounted a Power in Christendom; for that is no place for a people with whom Duty is out of date.

"'But isn't Duty a pretty old-fashioned Victorian thing, and irrelevant anyway?' said my young countryman in Calgary. To the first part of his question, the only answer is 'Yes.' To deny it would be to insult our forefathers in the worst way. But what about the second part of the question? Our forefathers have no role in answering that. Is Duty 'out of date,' my friends? If it is, let’s tear down our churches. If it is, let the bishops resign their positions. If it is, let’s forever lower the flag that our forefathers made sacred from coast to coast. If it is, let Britain acknowledge—now or later—that she has permanently stepped down from her proud position among the nations and is no[287] longer to be considered a Power in Christendom; for that is not a place for a people who see Duty as outdated.

"'And did I choose him out of all the tribes of Israel to be my priest, to offer upon mine altar?... But now the Lord saith, Be it far from me, for them that honour me I will honour, and them that despise me shall be lightly esteemed. Behold the days come that I will cut off thine arm!'"

"'And did I choose him from all the tribes of Israel to be my priest, to offer on my altar?... But now the Lord says, Far from me; for those who honor me I will honor, and those who despise me will be lightly regarded. Look, the days are coming when I will cut off your strength!'"

It was almost unbearable. No one had guessed the man had such a voice. He had recited that passage quietly. Then came the rolling thunder of the: "Behold the days come that I will cut off thine arm!" A woman in the centre of the hall cried aloud, upon a high note. The roar of German artillery in North London never stirred Londoners as this particular sentence of God's Word stirred them in the Albert Hall.

It was nearly unbearable. No one had realized the man had such a voice. He had recited that passage softly. Then came the booming thunder of: "Behold, the days are coming when I will cut off your arm!" A woman in the center of the hall shouted at a high pitch. The sound of German artillery in North London never affected Londoners like this particular line from God's Word affected them in the Albert Hall.

And then, in a voice keyed down again to calm and tender wisdom, the words of the Scriptural poet stole out over the heads of the perturbed people, stilling their minds once more into the right receptive vein: "'Let us hear the conclusion of the whole matter: Fear God and keep His commandments, for this is the whole duty of man.'"

And then, in a voice softened to calm and gentle insight, the words of the Scriptural poet floated above the troubled crowd, quieting their minds again to be open and receptive: "'Let us hear the conclusion of the whole matter: Fear God and keep His commandments, for this is the whole duty of man.'"

Like balm, the stately words fell upon the people, as a light to lighten their darkness, as an end and a solution to a situation found intolerable. But, though calm resolve was in George Stairs's gift that day, he suffered no complaisance; and, by this time, he held that great assembly in the hollow of his hand. It was then he dealt with the character of our own century,[288] as distinguished from that of the Victorian era. It was then his words taught me, personally, more than all he had said besides.

Like a soothing balm, the powerful words washed over the people, shining a light in their darkness and providing an end and solution to a situation they found unbearable. But even though George Stairs was calm and composed that day, he didn't show any complacency; by then, he had the whole assembly in the palm of his hand. It was at that moment that he discussed the character of our own century,[288] contrasting it with the Victorian era. That’s when his words taught me more personally than everything he had said before.

I will not quote from a passage which has been incorporated in hundreds of school-books. It is generally admitted that the end and purpose underlying the civil and national code of our age has never since been more admirably stated than on the day of its first enunciation in the Albert Hall by George Stairs. His words were glowing when he showed us how the key-note of our fathers' age had been the claiming and establishing of rights and privileges. His words stung like whip-thongs when he depicted our greedy, self-satisfied enjoyment of those rights and privileges, with never a thought, either of the various obligations pertaining to them, or of our plain duty in the conservation for our children of all that had been won for us. Finally, his words were living fire of incentive, red wine of stimulation, when he urged upon us the twentieth-century watchword of Duty, and the loyal discharge of obligations.

I won’t quote from a passage that’s been included in countless school books. It’s generally accepted that the essence and purpose behind the civil and national code of our time has never been expressed more beautifully than on the day it was first presented in the Albert Hall by George Stairs. His words were powerful as he illustrated how the main theme of our forebears' era was the assertion and establishment of rights and privileges. His words hit hard when he illustrated our greedy, self-satisfied enjoyment of those rights and privileges, with no regard for the various responsibilities that come with them, or for our clear duty to preserve for our children all that has been gained for us. Finally, his words ignited passion, serving as both inspiration and motivation when he urged us to embrace the twentieth-century motto of Duty, and to faithfully fulfill our obligations.

"Theirs, an age crowned by well-won triumph, was the century of claimant demand; ours is the century of grateful obedience. Theirs was the age of claims; ours the age of Duty. Theirs the century of rights; ours the century of Duty. Theirs the period of brave, insistent constructive effort; ours the period of Duty—Duty—Duty!

"Their era, marked by well-earned success, was the century of demands for rights; ours is the century of grateful obedience. Theirs was the time for claims; ours is the time for Duty. Theirs was the century of rights; ours is the century of Duty. Theirs was the period of courageous, persistent constructive effort; ours is the period of Duty—Duty—Duty!"

"In fighting to obtain all that they won for us, our fathers pledged themselves—and us—to be fit recipients, true freemen. For a moment, misled by the glare of wealth and pleasure, we have played the[289] caitiff's part; grasped freemen's privileges, without thanks, and with repudiation of the balancing duties and obligations without which no rights can survive. And—'Behold, the days come that I will cut off thine arm!'

"In fighting to achieve everything they secured for us, our ancestors committed themselves—and us—to be worthy recipients, true free people. For a brief time, misled by the allure of wealth and pleasure, we have played the coward's role; claimed the rights of free individuals without gratitude, and rejected the responsibilities and duties that are essential for any rights to endure. And—'Look, the days are coming when I will cut off your arm!'"

"The God of our fathers trusted them, in our behalf; and we played traitor. So God smote England, through the arrogant war-lords of another people. That blow, self-administered, is Heaven's last warning to England. In truth, the blow was ours, yours and mine; we ourselves it was who played the traitor and struck a cruel blow at Britain's heart. Unworthy sons of valiant sires, we snatched our wages and shirked our work; seized the reward and refused the duty. God in His mercy gave us many warnings; but we hid our faces and pursued our selfish ends. 'Behold, the days come——'

"The God of our ancestors trusted them on our behalf; and we betrayed that trust. So God punished England through the proud warlords of another nation. That strike, self-inflicted, is Heaven's final warning to England. In reality, that strike was ours, yours and mine; we were the ones who betrayed and dealt a cruel blow to Britain's heart. Unworthy descendants of brave fathers, we took our rewards and avoided our responsibilities; we grabbed the benefits and ignored our duties. God, in His mercy, gave us many warnings; but we turned away and pursued our selfish ambitions. 'Behold, the days come——'

"But God stayed His hand. England lies bloody but unbroken. There can be no more warnings. The time for warnings has gone by. There can be no more paltering. Now is the day of final choice. Will ye be men—or helots and outcasts? Will you choose Duty, and the favour of God's appointed way for us, of progress and of leadership; or will you choose—pleasure, swift decay, annihilation? Upon your heads be it! Our fathers nobly did their part. Upon your choice hangs the future of our race, the fate of your children, the destiny of God's chosen people, who have paltered with strange gods, blasphemed the true faith, and stepped aside from the white path—the Only Way: Duty!"

"But God held back His hand. England is wounded but still standing. There can be no more warnings. The time for warnings has passed. There can be no more hesitation. Now is the day of final choice. Will you be men—or slaves and outcasts? Will you choose Duty, and the favor of God's appointed path for us, of progress and leadership; or will you choose—pleasure, rapid decay, annihilation? The choice is yours! Our ancestors bravely did their part. Your choice will determine the future of our race, the fate of your children, the destiny of God's chosen people, who have turned to foreign gods, disrespected the true faith, and strayed from the righteous path—the Only Way: Duty!"

He turned, raising one hand, and the notes of the[290] great organ rose and swelled mightily, filling the hall with the strains of the British National Anthem. Every soul in the building stood erect, and following the choir's lead, that great gathering sang the British hymn as it was never sung before. As the last note throbbed into silence in the hall's dome, George Stairs, who had knelt through the singing of the anthem, advanced, with hand uplifted.

He turned, raising one hand, and the notes of the[290] great organ rose and swelled powerfully, filling the hall with the sounds of the British National Anthem. Everyone in the building stood tall, and following the choir's lead, that huge crowd sang the British hymn like never before. As the last note faded into silence in the hall's dome, George Stairs, who had knelt through the anthem, stepped forward, hand raised.

"God helping us, as, if we choose aright, He surely will help us, do we choose Duty, or pleasure? Choose, my kinsmen! Is it Duty, or is it pleasure?"

"With God’s help, and if we make the right choice, He will definitely assist us. So, do we pick duty or pleasure? Make your choice, my kin! Is it duty, or is it pleasure?"

It was a severe test to put to such an assembly, to a congregation of all classes of London society. There was a moment of silence in which I saw George Stairs's face, white and writhen, through a mist which seemed to cloud my vision. And then the answer came, like a long, rolling clap of thunder:

It was a tough challenge to present to such a gathering, to a group made up of all sections of London society. There was a pause during which I saw George Stairs's face, pale and twisted, through a haze that blurred my sight. And then the response came, like a distant, rumbling clap of thunder:

"Duty!"

"Responsibility!"

And I saw George Stairs fall upon his knees in prayer, as the Bishop dismissed the people with a benediction, delivered somewhat brokenly, in a hoarse voice.

And I saw George Stairs drop to his knees in prayer as the Bishop sent off the crowd with a blessing, spoken somewhat haltingly in a rough voice.


VIII
THE PREACHERS

There are those who don't ask if your eye Be with them; those who are in love and honesty. Where there’s no doubt, rely In the warm spirit of youth:
Joyful hearts! free from blame or stain,
Who does your work and doesn't know it:
Oh! if through misplaced confidence They fail, your saving arms, terrifying Power! surround them.
Ode to Responsibility.

It was with something of a shock that I learned, while endeavouring to make my way through a dense crowd to the Canadian preacher's dressing-room, that my friend, George Stairs, was lying unconscious in a fainting fit. But my anxiety was not long-lived. Several doctors had volunteered their services, and from one of them I learned that the fainting fit was no more than the momentary result of an exceptional strain of excitement.

It was quite a shock to discover, while I was trying to navigate through a thick crowd to reach the Canadian preacher's dressing room, that my friend, George Stairs, was lying unconscious from a fainting spell. However, my worry didn't last long. Several doctors had stepped in to help, and one of them informed me that the fainting was just a temporary response to an unusual level of excitement.

Within half an hour, Stairs and Reynolds were both resting comfortably in a private sitting-room at a neighbouring hotel, and there I visited them, with Constance Grey and Mrs. Van Homrey, and John Crondall. Stairs assured us that his fainting was of no consequence, and that he felt perfectly fit and well again.[292]

Within half an hour, Stairs and Reynolds were both relaxing in a private sitting room at a nearby hotel, and I went to see them with Constance Grey, Mrs. Van Homrey, and John Crondall. Stairs assured us that his fainting spell was nothing to worry about and that he felt completely fine again.[292]

"You see it was something of an ordeal for me, a nobody from nowhere, to face such an assembly."

"You see, it was quite a struggle for me, a nobody from nowhere, to face such a crowd."

"Well," said John Crondall, "I suppose that at this moment there is not a man in London who is much more a somebody, and less a nobody from nowhere."

"Well," said John Crondall, "I guess right now there isn't a man in London who is much more of a somebody and less of a nobody from nowhere."

"You think we succeeded, then?"

"You think we made it, then?"

"My dear fellow! I think your address of this afternoon was the most important event England has known this century. Mark my words, that great thunder of 'Duty!' that you drew from them—from a London audience, mind—is to have more far-reaching results for the British Empire than the acquisition of a continent."

"My dear friend! I believe your speech this afternoon was the most significant event England has experienced this century. Mark my words, that powerful call of 'Duty!' that you ignited in them—from a London audience, remember—is going to have more far-reaching consequences for the British Empire than the acquisition of a continent."

"No, no, my dear Crondall, you surely overrate the thing," said Stairs, warm colour spreading over his pale face.

"No, no, my dear Crondall, you're definitely overestimating it," said Stairs, a warm flush spreading over his pale face.

"Well, you can take my deliberate assurance that in my opinion you achieved more for your country this afternoon than it has been my good fortune to achieve in the whole of a rather busy life."

"Well, you can take my sincere assurance that, in my opinion, you accomplished more for your country this afternoon than I have been fortunate enough to achieve in my whole rather busy life."

Stairs protested, blushing like a girl. But we know now that, so far at all events as his remarks were prophetic, John Crondall was absolutely right; though whether or not the new evangel could have achieved what it did without the invasion is another matter.

Stairs objected, turning red like a girl. But we know now that, at least in terms of his predictions, John Crondall was completely correct; whether the new movement could have succeeded as it did without the invasion is a different issue.

Myself, I believe nothing could have been more triumphantly successful, more pregnant with great possibilities for good, than the event of that afternoon. Yet I was assured that fully two thousand five hundred more people crowded into the hall for[293] the evening service than had been there to hear Stairs's address. And I had thought the huge place crowded in the afternoon. As before, the service began and ended with the National Anthem; but in the evening the great assembly was thrilled to its heart by the Australian prima donna's splendid singing of Wordsworth's Ode to Duty in the setting specially composed for this occasion by Doctor Elgar.

I believe nothing could have been more successful or full of great potential for good than what happened that afternoon. Yet, I was told that an additional two thousand five hundred people packed into the hall for the evening service compared to those who came to hear Stairs's speech. I had thought the large space was full in the afternoon. As before, the service began and ended with the National Anthem; but in the evening, the large crowd was deeply moved by the Australian prima donna's amazing performance of Wordsworth's Ode to Duty in the arrangement specially created for this occasion by Doctor Elgar.

I saw very many faces that I had seen at the first service, but I believe that there was a far greater proportion of poorer folk present than there had been in the afternoon. The President of the Congregational Union presided, and the address was delivered by Arthur Reynolds.

I saw a lot of familiar faces from the first service, but I think there were many more people from low-income backgrounds present than there had been in the afternoon. The President of the Congregational Union led the meeting, and Arthur Reynolds gave the speech.

As with Stairs, so with Reynolds, Duty was the gist and heart of the Message delivered—Duty, plain living, simplicity; these they both urged to be the root of the whole matter. Both men gave substantially the same Message, there can be no doubt of that; but there were differences, and upon the whole I am inclined to think that Reynolds's address was more perfectly adapted to his hearers than Stairs's would have been if his had been given that evening. Reynolds's diction in public speaking was not quite his conversational speech, because nothing like slang, nothing altogether colloquial crept into it, but its simplicity was notable; it was the diction of a frank, earnest child. There were none of the stereotyped phrases of piety; yet I never heard a more truly pious and deeply religious discourse.

As with Stairs, so with Reynolds, Duty was the essence and core of the Message delivered—Duty, straightforward living, simplicity; these were both emphasized as the foundation of the whole matter. Both men conveyed essentially the same Message, there's no doubt about that; but there were differences, and overall, I tend to think that Reynolds's speech was better suited to his audience than Stairs's would have been if it had been delivered that evening. Reynolds's language in public speaking was not quite the same as his everyday conversation, because it didn't include slang or anything overly casual, but its simplicity stood out; it was the language of a sincere, earnest child. There were none of the clichéd phrases of piety; yet I never heard a more genuinely pious and deeply religious talk.

The social and political aspects of Duty were more cursorily treated by Reynolds than its moral and[294] religious aspect. There was nothing heterodox in the view put forward by this preacher from oversea. A man may find salvation in this world and the next through love and faith, he said in effect; but the love and faith must be of the right sort. The redemption of the world was the world's greatest miracle; but it did not offer mankind salvation in return for a given measure of psalm-singing, sentimentalizing, and prayerful prostrations. Christianity was something which had to be lived, not merely contemplated. Love and faith were all-sufficient, but they must be the true love and faith, of which Duty was the legitimate offspring. The man who thought that any form of piety which permitted the neglect of Duty, would win him either true peace in this life or salvation in the next, was as pitifully misled as the man who indulged himself in a vicious life with a view to repentance when he should be too near his demise to care for indulgence.

The social and political aspects of Duty were only briefly addressed by Reynolds compared to its moral and religious angle. There was nothing unconventional in the ideas presented by this preacher from abroad. He essentially said that a person can find salvation in this world and the next through love and faith, but that love and faith must be genuine. The world's redemption was its greatest miracle, but it didn’t promise salvation in exchange for just a little bit of singing, sentimentality, and prayer. Christianity was meant to be lived out, not just thought about. Love and faith are everything, but they must be true love and faith, which Duty rightfully supports. Anyone who believes that any kind of piety that allows neglecting Duty will bring them true peace in this life or salvation in the next is just as sadly mistaken as someone who leads a sinful life, hoping to repent when it's too late to care about indulgence.

"But, even if one could put aside all thought of God and the life compared with which this life is but an instant of time; even then there would be nothing left really worth serious consideration besides Duty. Dear friends, you who listen so kindly to the man who comes to you from across the sea, I ask you to look about you in the streets and among the people you know, and to tell me if the majority are really happy. In this connection I dare not speak of the land of my birth, because, though it is yours as truly as it is mine, and we are all blood-brothers, yet I might be thought guilty of a vain partiality. But I do say that I cannot think the majority of the people of[295] England are really happy. I do not believe the majority of Londoners are happy. I am sure that the majority of those who spend an immense amount of money here in the West End of London, are not one whit happier than the average man who works hard for a few pounds a week.

"But even if you could put aside all thoughts of God and the life that makes this life seem like just a brief moment; even then, there would be nothing truly worth serious consideration other than Duty. Dear friends, you who listen so kindly to the man who comes to you from across the sea, I ask you to look around you in the streets and among the people you know, and tell me if most of them are truly happy. In this context, I won’t speak of the land where I was born because, although it belongs to you just as much as it does to me, and we are all blood brothers, I might be seen as biased. But I will say that I can’t believe most of the people in [295] England are genuinely happy. I don’t think most Londoners are happy. I’m sure that most of those who spend a huge amount of money in the West End of London are no happier than the average person who works hard for a few pounds a week."

"If I am certain of anything in this world, I am certain that the pursuit of pleasure never yet brought real happiness to any intelligent human being, and never will. True, I have met some happy people in London, even now, when England lies wounded from a cruel blow—a blow which I believe may prove the greatest blessing England ever knew. But those happy people are not running after pleasure or concentrating their intelligence upon their own gratification. No, no; those happy people are strenuously, soberly striving to do the whole of their duty as Christians and British citizens. They are happy because of that.

"If I’m sure of anything in this world, it’s that chasing pleasure has never brought true happiness to any intelligent person, and it never will. Sure, I’ve met some happy people in London, even now, while England is reeling from a harsh blow—a blow that I believe might turn out to be the greatest blessing England has ever received. But those happy people aren’t chasing after pleasure or focusing their intelligence on their own satisfaction. No, those happy people are earnestly and seriously striving to fulfill their duties as Christians and British citizens. They are happy because of that."

"Oh, my dear friends, do please believe me, that, even apart from God's will and the all-sacrificing love of His Son, there is absolutely no real happiness in this world outside the clean, sweet way of Duty. If you profess you love a woman, but shirk your duty by her, of what worth is such love? Is God of less importance to you? Is Eternity of less importance? Are King and Country, and the future of our race and the millions who depend on us for light and guidance and protection, of less importance? As God hears me, nothing is of any importance, beside the one thing vital to salvation, to happiness, to honour, to life, here and hereafter. That one thing is Duty."[296]

"Oh, my dear friends, please believe me when I say that, even beyond God's will and the all-giving love of His Son, there is truly no real happiness in this world outside the pure, noble path of Duty. If you say you love a woman but neglect your responsibilities toward her, what value does that love hold? Is God less important to you? Is Eternity less significant? Are King and Country, along with the future of our people and the millions who rely on us for guidance and protection, less important? As God hears me, nothing matters more than the one thing essential for salvation, happiness, honor, and life, both now and forever. That one thing is Duty."[296]

The evening congregation was more demonstrative than that of the afternoon, and though I do not think the impression produced by Reynolds's address was deeper or stronger than that made by Stairs—it could hardly have been that—its effects were more noticeable. The great crowd that streamed out of the hall after the Benediction had been pronounced, testified in a hundred ways to the truth of John Crondall's assertion that the Canadian preachers had stirred the very depths of London's heart as no other missioners had ever stirred them.

The evening crowd was more expressive than the one in the afternoon, and while I don’t believe Reynolds's speech left a deeper or stronger impression than Stairs's—it really couldn’t have—the effects were more apparent. The large crowd that poured out of the hall after the Benediction was given showed in many ways that John Crondall was right: the Canadian preachers had touched the very core of London's heart like no other missionaries ever had.

By George Stairs's invitation, Mrs. Van Homrey, Constance, Crondall, myself, Sir Herbert Tate, and Forbes Thompson, joined the preachers that evening, quite informally, at their very modest supper board. It must have been a little startling to a bon vivant like Sir Herbert to find that the men who had stormed London, supped upon bread and cheese and celery and cold rice pudding, and, without a hint of apology, offered their guests the same Spartan entertainment. But it was quite a brilliant function so far as mental activity and high spirits were concerned. We were discussing the possibilities of the Canadian preachers' pilgrimage, and Crondall said:

By George Stairs's invitation, Mrs. Van Homrey, Constance, Crondall, me, Sir Herbert Tate, and Forbes Thompson joined the preachers that evening, very casually, at their humble supper table. It must have been a bit surprising for a bon vivant like Sir Herbert to see the men who had taken London enjoying a simple meal of bread, cheese, celery, and cold rice pudding, and, without any hint of embarrassment, serving their guests the same Spartan fare. But it was quite an impressive gathering when it came to intellectual exchange and lively conversations. We were discussing the possibilities of the Canadian preachers' pilgrimage when Crondall said:

"I know that some of you think I take too sanguine a view, but, mark my words, these meetings to-day are the beginning of the greatest religious, moral, and national revival that the British people have ever seen. I am certain of it. Your blushes are quite beside the point, Stairs; they are wholly irrelevant; so is your modesty. Why, my dear fellow, you couldn't help it if you tried. You two men are the[297] mouthpiece of the hour. The hour having come, you could not stay its Message if you tried, nor check the tide of its effect. I know my London. In a matter of this kind—a moral movement—London is the hardest place in the kingdom to move, because its bigness and variety make it so many-sided. Having achieved what you have achieved to-day in London, I say nothing can check your progress. My counsel is for no more than a week in London; two days more in the west, three in the east, and one in the south; and then a bee-line due north through England, with a few days in all big centres."

"I know some of you think I'm being too optimistic, but believe me, these meetings today mark the start of the greatest religious, moral, and national revival that the British people have ever experienced. I'm sure of it. Your embarrassment is completely irrelevant, Stairs; so is your modesty. Honestly, there's nothing you can do about it. You two are the[297]voice of the moment. Now that the moment has arrived, you couldn't stop its message if you tried, nor could you hold back its impact. I know my London. For a matter like this—a moral movement—London is the toughest place in the country to influence, because its size and diversity make it incredibly complex. Having accomplished what you have today in London, I believe nothing can hinder your progress. I suggest spending no more than a week in London; two more days in the west, three in the east, and one in the south; and then a straight shot north through England, with several days in all major cities."

"Well," said Reynolds, "whatever happens after to-night, I just want to say what George Stairs has more than once said to me, and that is, that to-day's success is three parts due to Mr. Crondall for every one part due to us."

"Well," said Reynolds, "whatever happens after tonight, I just want to say what George Stairs has told me more than once, and that is, that today's success is three-quarters thanks to Mr. Crondall for every quarter that’s on us."

"And to his secretary," said Stairs. "It really is no more than bare truth. Without you, Crondall, there would have been no Albert Hall for us."

"And to his secretary," Stairs said. "It's really just the plain truth. Without you, Crondall, we wouldn't have had Albert Hall."

"And no Bishop," added Reynolds.

"And no Bishop," added Reynolds.

"And no great personages."

"And no important people."

"And no columns and columns of newspaper announcements."

"And no endless rows of newspaper announcements."

"In point of fact, there would have been none of the splendid organization which made to-day possible. I recognize it very clearly. If this is to prove the beginning of a really big movement, then it is a beginning in which The Citizens and their founder have played a very big part. You won't find that we shall forget that; and I know Reynolds is with me when I say that we shall leave no word unsaid, or act[298] undone, which could make our pilgrimage helpful to The Citizens' campaign. I tell you, standing before that vast assembly to-day, it was borne in upon me as I had not felt it before, that your aims and ours are inseparable. We cannot succeed without your succeeding, nor you without our succeeding. Our interpretation of Christianity, our Message, is Duty and simple living, and unless the people will accept that Message they will never achieve what you seek of them. On the other hand, if they will answer your call they will be going a long way toward accepting and acting upon our Message."

"In fact, none of the amazing organization that made today possible would have existed. I see that very clearly. If this is the start of a truly significant movement, then it’s one where The Citizens and their founder have played a huge role. You can be sure we won’t forget that; and I know Reynolds agrees with me when I say that we will leave no word unsaid or action[298] undone that could make our journey helpful to The Citizens' campaign. Standing in front of that huge crowd today, it hit me like never before that your goals and ours are connected. We can’t succeed without your success, and you can’t succeed without ours. Our view of Christianity, our Message, is Duty and simple living, and unless people embrace that Message, they’ll never achieve what you want them to. Conversely, if they respond to your call, they will be taking significant steps toward embracing and acting on our Message."

"I am mighty thankful that has come home to you, Stairs," said Crondall. "I felt it very strongly when I first asked you to come and talk things over. Your pilgrimage is going to wake up England, morally. It will be our business to see that newly waked England choose the right direction for the first outlay of its energy. The thing will go far—much farther than I have said, and far beyond England's immediate need. But, of course, we mustn't lose sight of that immediate need. If I am not greatly mistaken, one of the first achievements of this movement will be the safe steering of the British public through the General Election. With the New Year I hope to see a real Imperial Parliament sitting. By that I mean a strong Government administering England from the House of Commons, while some of its members sit in an Imperial Chamber—Westminster Hall—and help elected representatives of every one of the Colonies to govern the Empire. My belief is there will be no such thing as an Opposition in the House.[299] Why should England continue to waste its time and energy over pulling both ways in every little job its legislators have to tackle? It sterilizes the efforts of the good men, and gives innumerable openings to the fools and cranks and obstructionists. You will find the very names of the old futile cross-purposes of party warfare will fall into the limbo which has swallowed up the pillory, the stocks, and Little Englandism. With deference to the cloth present in the person of our reverend friends here, let me quote you what to me is one of the most strikingly interesting passages in the Bible: 'The vile person shall be no more called liberal.' It will become clear to all men that the only possible party, the only people who can possibly stand for progress, movement, advance, are those who stand firm for Imperial Federation."

"I am really grateful that you’ve come home, Stairs," said Crondall. "I felt that very strongly when I first invited you to come and discuss things. Your journey is going to awaken England, morally. It will be our job to ensure that this newly awakened England chooses the right direction for its initial efforts. This will go far—much farther than I've mentioned, and far beyond England's immediate needs. But, of course, we can’t overlook those immediate needs. If I’m not mistaken, one of the first successes of this movement will be to guide the British public safely through the General Election. With the New Year, I hope to see a real Imperial Parliament in session. By that, I mean a strong Government leading England from the House of Commons, while some of its members sit in an Imperial Chamber—Westminster Hall—and assist elected representatives from each of the Colonies in governing the Empire. I believe there will be no such thing as an Opposition in the House.[299] Why should England keep wasting time and energy pulling in different directions on every small task its legislators have to deal with? It undermines the efforts of the good people and opens the door for fools, cranks, and obstructionists. You’ll see that the very names of the old pointless conflicts of party politics will disappear like the pillory, the stocks, and Little Englandism. With respect to the clergy present here, let me quote what I find to be one of the most compelling passages in the Bible: 'The vile person shall be no more called liberal.' It will become clear to everyone that the only possible party, the only people who can truly represent progress, movement, and advancement, are those who firmly support Imperial Federation."

"And then?" said Constance, leaning forward, her face illumined by her shining eyes. Crondall drew a long breath.

"And then?" Constance asked, leaning in, her face lit up by her bright eyes. Crondall took a deep breath.

"And then—then Britain will have something to say to the Kaiser."

"And then—then Britain will have something to say to the Kaiser."

As we rose from the table, George Stairs laid his hand on Reynolds's shoulder.

As we got up from the table, George Stairs put his hand on Reynolds's shoulder.

"Deep waters these, my friend," said he, "for simple parsons from the backwoods. But our part is plain, and close at hand. Our work is to make the writing on the wall flame till all can read and feel: Duty first, last, and all the time. 'The conclusion of the whole matter.'"

"These are deep waters, my friend," he said, "for simple preachers from the backwoods. But our role is clear and right in front of us. Our job is to make the writing on the wall shine brightly until everyone can read it and feel its meaning: Duty comes first, last, and all the time. 'The conclusion of the whole matter.'"

"Yes, yes; that's so," said Reynolds, thoughtfully. And then he added, as it were an afterthought: "But was that remark about vile people no more[300] being called liberal really scriptural, I wonder—I wonder!"

"Yeah, that's true," said Reynolds, pondering. Then he added, almost as an afterthought: "But was that comment about disgusting people not being called liberal really from the scriptures, I wonder—I wonder!"

"Without a doubt," said Crondall, with a broad grin. "You look up Isaiah XXXII. 5. You will find it there, written maybe three thousand years ago, fitting to-day's situation like a glove."

"Definitely," Crondall said with a wide grin. "Look up Isaiah XXXII. 5. You'll find it there, written around three thousand years ago, perfectly matching today's situation."

On the way out to South Kensington, where I accompanied the ladies, I asked Constance what she thought of my old chum, George Stairs.

On the way to South Kensington, where I was with the ladies, I asked Constance what she thought of my old friend, George Stairs.

"Why, Dick," she said, "he makes me feel that an English village can still produce the finest type of man that walks the earth. But, as things have been, in our time, I'm glad this particular man didn't remain in his native village—aren't you?"

"Why, Dick," she said, "he makes me feel that an English village can still produce the best kind of man that walks the earth. But given how things have been in our time, I'm glad this particular man didn't stay in his hometown—aren't you?"

"Yes," I agreed, with a half-sad note I could not keep out of my voice. "I suppose Colonial life has taught him a lot."

"Yeah," I agreed, with a hint of sadness I couldn't hide in my voice. "I guess Colonial life has taught him a lot."

"Oh, he is magnificent!"

"Oh, he's amazing!"

"And look at John Crondall!"

"And check out John Crondall!"

"Ah, John is a wonderful man; Empire-taught, is John."

"Ah, John is a great guy; educated by the Empire, John is."

"And I suppose the man who has never lived the outside life in the big, open places can never——"

"And I guess the person who has never experienced life outside in vast, open spaces can never——"

And then I think she saw what had brought the twinge of sadness to me; for she touched my arm, her bright eyes gleamed upon me, and—

And then I think she realized what had caused the twinge of sadness in me; she touched my arm, her bright eyes shining at me, and—

"You're a terribly impatient man, Dick," she said, with a smile. "It seems to me you've trekked a mighty long way from The Mass office in—how many weeks is it?"

"You're really impatient, Dick," she said with a smile. "It seems to me you've traveled a long way from The Mass office in—how many weeks has it been?"


IX
THE CITIZENS

Our days will be calm and bright. And our nature will be happy. When love is a guiding light,
And joy is its own security. And they can follow a happy path
Even now, who, not unreasonably brave,
Live in the spirit of this belief,
But discover that additional strength, based on what they need.
Ode to Responsibility.

Charles Corbett's History of the Revival is to my mind the most interesting book of this century. There are passages in it which leave me marvelling afresh each time I read them, that any writer, however gifted, could make quite so intimate a revelation, without personal knowledge of the inside workings of the movement he describes so perfectly. But it is a fact that Corbett never spoke with Stairs or Reynolds, or Crondall; neither, I think, was he personally known to any member of the executive of The Citizens. Yet I know from my own working experience of the Revival, both in connection with the pilgrimage of the Canadian preachers and the campaign of The Citizens, that Corbett's descriptions are marvellously accurate and lifelike, and that the conclusions he draws could not have been made more correct[302] and luminous if they had been written by the leaders of the great joint movement themselves.

Charles Corbett’s History of the Revival is, in my opinion, the most fascinating book of this century. Some parts of it leave me amazed every time I read them, thinking that any writer, no matter how talented, could make such an intimate revelation, without personally knowing the inner workings of the movement he describes so thoroughly. However, it’s true that Corbett never spoke with Stairs or Reynolds, or Crondall; and I don’t believe he was personally acquainted with anyone on the executive of The Citizens. Yet, based on my own experience working with the Revival, related to both the pilgrimage of the Canadian preachers and the campaign of The Citizens, I can say that Corbett's depictions are incredibly accurate and vivid, and the conclusions he reaches couldn't have been more correct and clear if they had been written by the leaders of this significant joint movement themselves.[302]

The educational authorities were certainly well advised in making Corbett's great work the base from which the contemporary history text-books for use in the national schools were drawn. Your modern students, by the way, would find it hard to realize that, even at the time of the Revival, our school-children were obliged to waste most of the few hours a week which were devoted to historical studies, to the wearisome memorizing of dates and genealogies connected with the Saxon Heptarchy. As a rule they had no time left in which to learn anything whatever of the progress of their own age, or the nineteenth-century development of the Empire. At that time a national schoolboy destined to earn his living as a soldier or a sailor, or a tinker or a tailor, sometimes knew a little of the Saxon kings of England, or even a few dates connected with the Norman Conquest, and the fact that Henry VIII. had six wives. But he had never heard of the Reform Bill, and knew nothing whatever of the incorporation of India, Australia, South Africa, or Canada.

The education authorities definitely made a smart choice by using Corbett's extensive work as the foundation for the modern history textbooks used in national schools. Today's students would probably find it hard to believe that back during the Revival, schoolchildren had to spend most of the few hours each week allocated to history memorizing tedious dates and genealogies related to the Saxon Heptarchy. Usually, they had no time left to learn anything about the advancements of their own time or the 19th-century growth of the Empire. At that time, a national schoolboy expected to become a soldier, sailor, tinker, or tailor might have known a bit about the Saxon kings of England or a few dates related to the Norman Conquest, and that Henry VIII had six wives. But he had never even heard of the Reform Bill and knew absolutely nothing about the incorporation of India, Australia, South Africa, or Canada.

I suppose the most notable and impressive intimation received by the British public of the fact that a great religious, moral, and social revival had begun among them, was contained in Monday morning's newspapers, after the first great Albert Hall services. The recognized chief among imperialistic journals became from the beginning the organ of the new movement. Upon that Monday morning I remember that this journal's first leading article was devoted[303] to the Message of the Canadian preachers, its second to the coming of the various Colonial delegates for the Westminster Hall Conference. For the rest, the centre of the paper was occupied by a four-page supplement, with portraits, describing fully, and reporting verbatim the Albert Hall services. The opening sentences of the leading article gave the public its cue:

I think the biggest and most impressive hint given to the British public that a major religious, moral, and social revival had started among them was found in Monday morning's newspapers after the first big services at Albert Hall. The leading imperial newspaper quickly became the voice of this new movement. I remember that on that Monday morning, the first editorial was dedicated[303] to the message from the Canadian preachers, and its second was about the arrival of various Colonial delegates for the Westminster Hall Conference. Meanwhile, the main part of the paper featured a four-page supplement, complete with portraits, fully describing and reporting verbatim on the services at Albert Hall. The opening lines of the editorial set the tone for the public:

"There can be little doubt, we think, that yesterday's services at the Albert Hall mark the inauguration of a national movement in morals, which, before it has gone far, is as likely to earn the name of the Revolution as that of Revival. A religious, moral, and social revolution is what we anticipate as the result of the mission of the Canadian preachers. Never before has London been so stirred to its moral and emotional depths. In such a movement the provincial centres are not likely to prove less susceptible than the metropolis."

"There can be little doubt, we believe, that yesterday's services at the Albert Hall mark the start of a national movement in morals, which, before long, might be called both a Revolution and a Revival. We expect a religious, moral, and social revolution as a result of the work of the Canadian preachers. Never before has London been so deeply moved on a moral and emotional level. In such a movement, the provincial centers are likely to be just as affected as the capital."

As a matter of fact, I had occasion to know that Mr. James Bryanstone, the preachers' secretary (in whose name John Crondall had carried out the whole work of organization, while I served him as secretary and assistant) received during that Monday no fewer than thirty-four separate telegraphic invitations from provincial centres subsequently visited by Stairs and Reynolds. It was, as Crondall had said: The time was ripe, and the Canadian preachers were the mouthpiece of the hour. Their Message filled them, and England was conscious of its need of that Message.

Actually, I learned that Mr. James Bryanstone, the preachers' secretary (in whose name John Crondall had managed the entire organization while I acted as his secretary and assistant) received as many as thirty-four separate telegraphic invitations that Monday from various provincial centers later visited by Stairs and Reynolds. As Crondall had pointed out, the time was right, and the Canadian preachers were the voice of the moment. Their Message inspired them, and England recognized its need for that Message.

On Monday and Tuesday the afternoon and evening services at the Albert Hall were repeated.[304] Thousands of people were unable to obtain admission upon each occasion. Some of these people were addressed by friends of John Crondall's and The Citizens, within the precincts of the hall. On Tuesday morning, sunrise found a great throng of people waiting to secure places when the hall should open. On both days members of the Royal Family were present, and on Tuesday the Primate of England presided over the service addressed by Stairs.

On Monday and Tuesday, the afternoon and evening services at the Albert Hall were repeated.[304] Thousands of people couldn’t get in each time. Some of these individuals were approached by friends of John Crondall and The Citizens outside the hall. On Tuesday morning, a large crowd was already waiting at sunrise to grab seats when the hall opened. On both days, members of the Royal Family attended, and on Tuesday, the Primate of England led the service that Stairs spoke at.

During all this time, John Crondall was working night and day, and I was busy with him in organizing the recruiting campaign of The Citizens. The Legion of Frontiersmen, and the members of some scores of rifle clubs, had been enrolled en bloc as members, and applications were pouring in upon us by every post from men who had seen service in different parts of the world, and from men able to equip themselves either as mounted or foot riflemen. On Tuesday evening the Canadian preachers announced that their next day services would be held at the People's Palace, in the East End. But I fancy that, among the packed thousands who attended The Citizens' first public meeting at the Albert Hall on Wednesday afternoon, many came under the impression that they were to hear the Canadian preachers.

During this time, John Crondall was working day and night, and I was busy with him organizing the recruitment campaign for The Citizens. The Legion of Frontiersmen and members from numerous rifle clubs had been signed up as members, and we were receiving applications daily from men who had seen service in various parts of the world, as well as from those who could equip themselves as either mounted or foot riflemen. On Tuesday evening, the Canadian preachers announced that their services the next day would be held at the People's Palace in the East End. However, I believe that among the packed thousands who attended The Citizens' first public meeting at the Albert Hall on Wednesday afternoon, many came expecting to hear from the Canadian preachers.

The man of all others in England most fitted for the office, presided over that first meeting, in full review uniform, and wearing the sword which had been returned to him by General Baron von Füchter, after the historic surrender at the Mansion House on Black Saturday. The great little Field Marshal rose at three o'clock and stood for full five minutes, waiting[305] for the tempest of cheering which greeted him to subside, before he could introduce John Crondall to that huge audience. Even when the Field Marshal began to speak he could not obtain complete silence. As one burst of cheering rumbled to its close, another would rise from the hall's far side like approaching thunder, swelling as it came.

The man in England most suited for the role led that first meeting, dressed in full review uniform, sporting the sword that General Baron von Füchter had returned to him after the historic surrender at the Mansion House on Black Saturday. The great little Field Marshal got up at three o'clock and waited for a full five minutes for the storm of cheering that welcomed him to die down before he could introduce John Crondall to the massive crowd. Even when the Field Marshal started to speak, he couldn't get complete silence. As one wave of cheering died down, another would rise from the far side of the hall like thunder approaching, growing louder as it came.

It seemed the London public was trying to make up to its erstwhile hero for its long neglect of his brave endeavours to warn them against the evils which had actually befallen. At last, not to waste more time, the little Field Marshal drew his sword, and waved it above his head till a penetrant ray of afternoon sunlight caught and transformed the blade into a streak of living flame.

It looked like the people of London were trying to make amends with their former hero for their long disregard of his brave efforts to warn them about the real dangers that had happened. Finally, not wanting to waste any more time, the little Field Marshal drew his sword and waved it above his head until a sharp ray of afternoon sunlight hit the blade, turning it into a streak of living flame.

"There is a stain on it!" he shouted, shaking the blade. "It belongs to you—to England—and there's a stain on it; got on Black Saturday. Now silence, for the man who's for wiping out all stains. Silence!"

"There’s a stain on it!" he shouted, shaking the blade. "It belongs to you—to England—and there’s a stain on it; it got on Black Saturday. Now silence, for the man who’s here to wipe out all stains. Silence!"

It was long since the little man had delivered himself of such a roar, as that last "Silence!" There were one or two Indian veterans in the hall who remembered the note. It had its effect, and John Crondall stood, presently, before an entirely silent and eagerly expectant multitude, when he began his explanation of the ends and aims of The Citizens. I remember he began by saying:

It had been a while since the little man had let out such a loud "Silence!" There were a couple of Indian veterans in the hall who recalled that sound. It made an impact, and soon John Crondall stood before a completely silent and eagerly waiting crowd as he started his explanation of the goals and purposes of The Citizens. I remember he started by saying:

"I cannot pretend to be a Canadian preacher—I wish I could." And here there was another demonstration of cheering. One realized that afternoon that the Canadians had lighted a fire in London that[306] would not easily be put out. "No, I am a native of your own London," said Crondall; "but I admit to having learned most of the little I know in Canada, South Africa, India, and Australia. And if there is one thing I have learned very thoroughly in those countries, it is to love England. She has no braver or more devoted sons and lovers within her own shores than our kinsmen oversea. You will find we shall have fresh proofs of that very soon. Meantime, just in passing, I want to tell you this: You have read something in the papers of The Citizens, the organization of Britishers who are sworn to the defence of Britain. I am here to tell you about them. Well, in the past fortnight, I have received two hundred and forty cable messages from representative citizens in Canada, South Africa, Australia, India, and other parts of the Empire, claiming membership, and promising support through thick and thin, from thousands of our kinsfolk oversea. So, before I begin, I give you the greeting of men of our blood from all the ends of the earth. They are with us heart and hand, my friends, and eager to prove it. And now I am going to tell you something about The Citizens."

"I can't pretend to be a Canadian preacher—I wish I could." This was met with another round of cheers. That afternoon, it became clear that the Canadians had sparked a fire in London that[306] wouldn't easily be extinguished. "No, I'm a native of London," said Crondall; "but I admit I've learned most of what I know from Canada, South Africa, India, and Australia. And if there's one thing I've really learned in those countries, it's to love England. She has no braver or more devoted sons and lovers within her own borders than our kinsmen overseas. You'll see fresh evidence of that very soon. Meanwhile, I just want to mention this: You may have read something in the papers about The Citizens, the organization of Britishers dedicated to defending Britain. I'm here to talk to you about them. In the past two weeks, I've received two hundred and forty cable messages from representative citizens in Canada, South Africa, Australia, India, and other parts of the Empire, claiming membership and promising support through thick and thin from thousands of our relatives overseas. So, before I start, I bring you greetings from men of our blood from all corners of the earth. They stand with us wholeheartedly, my friends, and are eager to prove it. Now, let me tell you something about The Citizens."

But before that last sentence had left Crondall's lips, we were in the thick of another storm of cheering. The religious character of the Canadian preachers' meetings had been sufficient to prevent these outbursts of popular feeling; but now the public seemed to welcome the secular freedom of The Citizens' gathering, as an opportunity for giving their feelings vent. I am not sure that it was John[307] Crondall's message from the Colonies that they cheered. They were moved, I am sure, by a vague general approval of the idea of a combination of citizens for British defence. But their cheering I take to have been produced by feelings they would have been hard put to it to define in any way. They had been deeply stirred by the teaching of the Canadian preachers. In short, they had been seized by the fundamental tenets of the simple faith which has since come to be known to the world as "British Christianity"; and they were eager to find some way in which they could give tangible expression to the faith that was burgeoning within them; stirring them as young mothers are stirred, filling them with resolves and aspirations, none the less real and deep-seated because they were as yet incoherent and shapeless.

But before that last sentence had left Crondall's lips, we found ourselves caught in another wave of cheering. The religious nature of the Canadian preachers' meetings had been enough to keep these displays of public emotion in check; but now the crowd seemed to embrace the freedom of The Citizens' gathering as a chance to express their feelings. I’m not sure if it was John[307] Crondall's message from the Colonies that they cheered for. They were definitely reacting to a general approval of the idea of citizens coming together for British defense. But their cheers seemed rooted in an emotion they might struggle to articulate. They had been truly inspired by the teachings of the Canadian preachers. In short, they had been touched by the basic principles of what has since become known as "British Christianity"; and they were eager to find some way to express the faith that was growing within them, stirring them like young mothers, filling them with determination and dreams, which were no less real and profound, even though they remained unclear and undefined.

I am only quoting the best observers of the time in this description of public feeling when John Crondall made his great recruiting speech for The Citizens. The event proved my chief to have been absolutely right in his reckoning, absolutely sound in his judgment. He had urged from the beginning that The Citizens and the Canadian preachers had a common aim. "But you teach a general principle," he had said to George Stairs, "while we supply the particular instance. We must reap where you sow; we must glean after you; we must follow you, as night follows day, as accomplishment follows preparation—because you arouse the sense of duty, you teach the sacredness of duty, while we give it particular direction. It's you who will make them Citizens, my[308] dear fellow—for what you mean by a true Christian is what I mean by a true citizen—our part is to swear them in. Or, as you might say, you prepare, and we confirm. Those that won't come up to your standard as Christians, won't be any use to us as Citizens."

I’m only quoting the best observers of the time in this description of public feeling when John Crondall gave his big recruiting speech for The Citizens. The event proved my leader to be completely right in his calculations and totally sound in his judgment. He had emphasized from the start that The Citizens and the Canadian preachers shared a common goal. "But you teach a general principle," he said to George Stairs, "while we provide the specific example. We must reap where you plant; we must gather after you; we must follow you, just like night follows day, as achievement follows preparation—because you inspire the sense of duty, you teach the importance of duty, while we give it specific direction. It's you who will make them Citizens, my[308] dear friend—for what you mean by a true Christian is what I mean by a true citizen—our role is to swear them in. Or, as you might say, you prepare, and we confirm. Those who don’t meet your standard as Christians won’t be any good to us as Citizens."

Just how shrewdly John Crondall had gauged the matter perhaps no one else can realize, even now, so clearly as those who played a recorder's part in the recruiting campaign, as I did from that first day in the Albert Hall, with Constance Grey's assistance, and, later on, with the assistance of many other people. At a further stage, and in other places, we made arrangements for enrolling members after every meeting. Upon this occasion we were unable to face the task, and, instead, a card was given to every applicant, for subsequent presentation at The Citizens' headquarters in Victoria Street, where I spent many busy hours, with a rapidly growing clerical staff, swearing in new members, and booking the full details of each man's position and capabilities, for registration on the roster.

Just how cleverly John Crondall understood the situation maybe no one else can really appreciate, even now, as much as those of us who played a vital role in the recruiting campaign—like I did from that first day in the Albert Hall, with Constance Grey's help, and later with the support of many others. At a later stage, in other locations, we set up a system to enroll members after every meeting. On this occasion, we couldn't handle that task, so instead, we gave a card to every applicant for later submission at The Citizens' headquarters on Victoria Street, where I spent many busy hours with a quickly expanding clerical team, swearing in new members and recording the full details of each person's position and skills for the roster.

We had no fees of any kind, but every new member was invited to contribute according to his means to The Citizens' equipment fund. During the twenty-four hours following that first meeting at the Albert Hall, over twenty-seven thousand pounds was received in this way from new members. But we enrolled many who contributed nothing; and we enrolled a few men to whom we actually made small payments from a special fund raised privately for that purpose. All this last-named minority, and a[309] certain proportion of other members, went directly into camp training on the estates of various wealthy members, who themselves were providing camp equipment and instructors, while, in many cases, arranging also for employment which should make these camps as nearly as might be self-supporting.

We didn't charge any fees, but we invited every new member to contribute to The Citizens' equipment fund based on what they could afford. In the twenty-four hours after that first meeting at Albert Hall, we received over twenty-seven thousand pounds from new members this way. However, we also signed up many who didn't contribute anything, and we added a few individuals who we actually paid small amounts from a special fund we raised privately for that purpose. All of this minority and a[309] certain proportion of other members went straight into camp training on the estates of various wealthy members, who were also supplying camp equipment and instructors, and in many cases, arranging employment to help make these camps as self-sustaining as possible.

Among the list of people who agreed to deliver addresses at our meetings we now included many of the most eloquent speakers, and some of the most famous names in England. But I am not sure that any of them ever evoked the same storms of enthusiasm, the same instant and direct response that John Crondall earned by his simple speeches. Heart and soul, John Crondall was absorbed in the perfection and furtherance of the organization he had founded, and when he sought public support he was irresistible.

Among the people who agreed to speak at our meetings, we now had many of the most eloquent speakers and some of the most famous names in England. But I'm not sure any of them ever stirred up the same level of enthusiasm or the same immediate and genuine response that John Crondall achieved with his simple speeches. John Crondall was wholeheartedly dedicated to perfecting and advancing the organization he had founded, and when he asked for public support, he was unstoppable.

In those first days of the campaign there were times when John Crondall was so furiously occupied, that his bed hardly knew the touch of him, and I could not exchange a word with him outside the immediate work of our hands. This was doubtless one reason why I took a certain idea of mine to Constance Grey, instead of to my chief. Together, she and I interviewed Brigadier-General Hapgood, of the Salvation Army, and, on the next day, the venerable chief of that remarkable organization, General Booth. The proposition we put before General Booth was that he should join hands with us in dealing with that section of our would-be members who described themselves as unemployed and without resources.

In those early days of the campaign, there were times when John Crondall was so intensely busy that his bed hardly felt his presence, and I couldn’t exchange a word with him outside of our immediate tasks. This was probably one reason why I took a certain idea of mine to Constance Grey instead of to my boss. Together, she and I met with Brigadier-General Hapgood from the Salvation Army, and the following day, we spoke with the long-time leader of that amazing organization, General Booth. The proposal we presented to General Booth was that he collaborate with us in reaching out to that group of our potential members who identified themselves as unemployed and without resources.

For five minutes the old General stroked his beard, and offered occasional ejaculatory interrogations. I[310] pointed out that the converts of the Canadian preachers (for whom the General expressed unbounded admiration and respect) flocked to our standard, full of genuine eagerness to carry out the gospel of duty and simple living. Suddenly, in the middle of one of my sentences, this commander-in-chief of an army larger than that of any monarch in Christendom made up his mind, and stopped me with a gesture.

For five minutes, the old General stroked his beard and occasionally shot out questions. I[310] pointed out that the converts from the Canadian preachers (who the General admired and respected greatly) gathered around our banner, eager to spread the message of duty and simple living. Then, in the middle of one of my sentences, this commander-in-chief of an army larger than any monarch's in Christendom made up his mind and interrupted me with a gesture.

"We will do it," he said. "Yes, yes, I see what you would say. Yes, yes, to be sure, to be sure; that is quite so. We will do it. Come and see me again, and I will put a working plan before you. Good day—God bless you!"

"We'll do it," he said. "Yeah, yeah, I get what you're saying. Sure, that’s right; absolutely. We'll do it. Come back and see me, and I’ll present a working plan to you. Have a good day—God bless!"

And we were being shown out. It was all over in a few minutes; but that was the beginning of the connection between the Salvation Army and that section of The Citizens whose members lacked both means and employment. According to a safe and conservative estimate, we are told that the total number of sworn Citizens subsequently handled by the Salvation Army was six hundred and seventy-five thousand. We supplied the instructors, officers, and all equipment; the Salvation Army carried out all the other work of control, organization, and maintenance, and made their great farm camps so nearly self-supporting as to be practically no burden upon The Citizens' funds. The effect upon the men themselves was wholly admirable. Every one of them was a genuinely unemployed worker, and the way they all took their training was marvellous.

And then we were being shown out. It all happened in just a few minutes; but that was the start of the relationship between the Salvation Army and that part of The Citizens whose members didn’t have money or jobs. According to a safe and conservative estimate, we’re told that the total number of sworn Citizens later assisted by the Salvation Army was six hundred and seventy-five thousand. We provided the instructors, officers, and all the equipment; the Salvation Army managed all the other work of control, organization, and maintenance, making their large farm camps almost self-sustaining and practically not a burden on The Citizens' funds. The impact on the men themselves was truly impressive. Every one of them was genuinely unemployed, and the way they embraced their training was remarkable.

I think Constance Grey was as pleased as I was with the praise we won from John Crondall over this.[311] A little while before this time I should have felt jealous pangs when I saw her sweet face lighten and glow at a word of commendation from John Crondall. But my secretaryship was teaching me many things. No other woman could ever mean to me one tithe of all that Constance Grey meant. Of that I was very sure. To think of such women as handsome Beatrice Blaine or Sylvia Wheeler, in a vein of comparison, was for me like comparing the light of a candle in a distant window with the moon herself. The mere sound of Constance's voice thrilled me as nothing else could. But I am glad to remember now that I no longer knew so small an emotion as jealousy where she was concerned.

I think Constance Grey was just as happy as I was with the praise we received from John Crondall about this.[311] A little while ago, I would have felt jealous when I saw her sweet face light up at a compliment from John Crondall. But my role as her secretary was teaching me a lot. No other woman could ever mean as much to me as Constance Grey did. I was certain of that. Comparing women like the attractive Beatrice Blaine or Sylvia Wheeler to her felt like comparing the glow of a distant candle to the moon. Just hearing Constance's voice thrilled me like nothing else could. I'm glad to remember that I no longer felt such a small emotion as jealousy where she was concerned.

John Crondall was the strongest man of all the men I knew; Constance was the sweetest woman. Here was a natural and fitting comradeship. I thought of my chief as the mate of the woman I loved. My heart ached at times. But I am glad and proud that I had no jealousy.

John Crondall was the strongest guy I knew; Constance was the sweetest woman. They had a natural and perfect connection. I thought of my boss as the partner of the woman I loved. My heart would ache sometimes. But I'm glad and proud that I felt no jealousy.


X
SMALL FIGURES ON A GREAT STAGE

I, loving freedom and new experiences, No sport from every random breeze,
Yet being a guide to myself,
I have trusted too naively; And often, when I heard in my heart Your prompt order, I postponed The task, in easier paths to wander,
But I would like to serve you more strictly now, if I can.
Ode to Responsibility.

It has often been said of the Canadian preachers that they conferred the gift of eloquence upon all their converts. It is certainly a fact that long before Stairs and Reynolds had traversed half the length of England, disciples of theirs were winning converts to "British Christianity"—as the religion of Duty and simple living came to be called—in every county in the kingdom.

It has often been said that Canadian preachers gave the gift of eloquence to all their followers. It's certainly true that long before Stairs and Reynolds had traveled halfway across England, their disciples were gaining converts to "British Christianity"—the term used for the religion of Duty and simple living—in every county in the kingdom.

In the same way, the progress of The Citizens' recruiting campaign was made marvellously rapid and triumphant in character by reason of the enthusiastic activity of all new adherents. During the second of John Crondall's great meetings in Birmingham, for example, we received telegraphic greeting from the chairmen presiding over one hundred and ninety-eight other meetings then being held for the furtherance of our cause in different parts of the[313] country. And, in many cases, those who addressed these meetings were among the most famous public speakers in England.

In the same way, the progress of The Citizens' recruiting campaign was impressively quick and successful due to the enthusiastic efforts of all the new members. During the second of John Crondall's major meetings in Birmingham, for example, we received telegrams of support from the chairpersons leading one hundred and ninety-eight other meetings happening simultaneously across the[313] country to promote our cause. Additionally, in many cases, those who spoke at these meetings were some of the most renowned public speakers in England.

In most towns we spent no more than twenty-four hours, in others no more than twelve hours, and in some we stayed only a third of that time. In one memorable day we addressed immense gatherings in four different towns, and travelled one hundred and thirty miles to boot. But in each one of those towns, as in every centre visited, we left a properly organized committee at work, with arrangements for frequent meetings, and the swearing in of new members.

In most towns, we spent no more than twenty-four hours, in others no more than twelve, and in some we stayed only a third of that time. On one unforgettable day, we spoke to huge crowds in four different towns and traveled a hundred and thirty miles too. But in each of those towns, like in every place we visited, we left a well-organized committee in charge, setting up regular meetings and bringing in new members.

The Canadian preachers spent only one day in many of the places they visited. But in large centres they stayed longer, because, after the first week of the pilgrimage, the attendances at their meetings became unmanageably large, owing to the arrangements made by railway companies, who ran special trains to tap the outlying parts of every district visited. Advance agents—a hard-working band, many of whom were well-to-do volunteers—prepared the way in every detail for the progress of both the Canadians and ourselves, and local residents placed every possible facility at our disposal.

The Canadian preachers spent just one day in most of the places they visited. However, they stayed longer in larger cities because, after the first week of the pilgrimage, the turnout at their meetings became overwhelming, thanks to the arrangements made by train companies that ran special trains to reach the outlying areas of each district visited. Advance agents—a dedicated group, many of whom were wealthy volunteers—handled every detail to ensure everything went smoothly for both the Canadians and us, and local residents provided us with every possible resource.

Never in the history of religious revivals in England has anything been known to equal the whole-souled enthusiasm with which the new evangel of Duty was welcomed as the basis of our twentieth-century national life. The facts that the Canadian preachers were rarely seen apart, and that the teaching of each was identical with that of the other, combined with the general knowledge that one represented[314] the Church of England and the other a great Nonconformist body; these things divested the pilgrimage of any suggestion of denominationalism, and lent it the same urgent strength of appeal for members of all sects, and members of none. This seems natural enough to us now, ours being a Christian country. But it was regarded then as a wonderful testimony to the virtue of the new teaching, because at that time sectarian differences, animosities even, were very clearly marked, and led far more naturally to opposition and hostility between the representatives of different denominations than to anything approaching united effort in a common cause.

Never in the history of religious revivals in England has there been anything like the heartfelt enthusiasm with which the new movement centered on Duty was embraced as the foundation of our national life in the twentieth century. The fact that the Canadian preachers were rarely seen separately and that their teachings were identical—combined with the general awareness that one represented the Church of England and the other a major Nonconformist group—removed any implication of denominationalism from the movement. This made it appealing to members of all faiths and even those with no affiliation at all. This seems perfectly normal to us now, given that we live in a Christian country. However, at the time, it was viewed as a remarkable indication of the strength of the new teachings because sectarian differences and even animosities were very pronounced, often leading to more opposition and hostility among representatives of different denominations rather than any form of united effort for a common cause.

It was during the day we spent in York that chance led to my witnessing an incident which greatly affected me. My relations with my chief, John Crondall, were not such as to call for the observance of much ceremony between us. Accordingly, it was with no thought of interference with his privacy that I blundered into my chief's sitting-room to announce the number of new members we had enrolled after the meeting. John Crondall was standing on the hearth-rug, his right hand was resting on Constance Grey's shoulder, his lips were touching her forehead.

It was on the day we spent in York that I happened to witness an incident that really impacted me. My relationship with my boss, John Crondall, didn't require us to be overly formal with each other. So, I entered my boss's sitting room without any intention of invading his privacy to share the number of new members we had signed up after the meeting. John Crondall was standing on the rug, his right hand resting on Constance Grey's shoulder, his lips touching her forehead.

For an instant I thought of retreat. But the thing seemed too clumsy. Accordingly, having turned to close the door, with deliberation, I advanced into the room with some awkward remark about having thought my chief was alone, and produced my figures of the enrolment of new members. After a few moments Constance left us, referring to some errand she had in view. I did not look at her, and John[315] Crondall plunged at once into working talk. As for me, I was acutely conscious that I had seen Crondall kiss Constance; but my chief made no sign to show me whether or not he was aware that I had seen this.

For a moment, I thought about backing out. But it felt too awkward. So, after closing the door carefully, I stepped into the room and awkwardly mentioned that I thought my boss was alone, and I presented my figures for the new member enrollments. After a few minutes, Constance excused herself, mentioning she had something to take care of. I didn’t look at her, and John[315] Crondall immediately got into work talk. As for me, I was acutely aware that I had seen Crondall kiss Constance; however, my boss didn’t give any indication of whether or not he noticed that I had seen it.

Although I thought I had accustomed myself to the idea of these two being predestined mates, I realized now that no amount of reasoning would ever really reconcile me to the practical outworking of the idea. Of course, my feeling about it would be described as jealousy pure and simple. Perhaps it was; but I cherish the idea that it was some more kindly shade of feeling. I know it brought no hint of resentment or weakening in my affection for John Crondall; and most assuredly I harboured no unkind thought of Constance. But I loved her; every pulse in me throbbed love and longing at her approach. Again and again I had demonstrated to myself my own unworthiness of such a woman; the natural affinity between Constance and Crondall. Yet now, the sight of that kiss was as the sound of a knell in my heart; it filled me with an aching lament for the death of——of something which had still lived in me, whether admitted or not, till then.

Although I thought I had gotten used to the idea of these two being destined partners, I realized now that no amount of reasoning would ever truly make me accept the reality of it. Of course, my feelings about it would be seen as pure jealousy. Maybe it was; but I prefer to think it was a kinder form of emotion. I know it didn’t bring any resentment or weaken my affection for John Crondall; and I definitely had no bad feelings towards Constance. But I loved her; every part of me throbbed with love and longing when she was near. Time and again, I had proven to myself that I was unworthy of such a woman; the natural connection between Constance and Crondall. Yet now, the sight of that kiss felt like a death knell in my heart; it filled me with a deep ache for the loss of——of something that had still existed in me, whether I admitted it or not, until that moment.

For days after that episode of the kiss I lived in hourly expectation of a communication from John Crondall. Our relations were so intimate that I felt certain he would not withhold his confidence for long. But day succeeded day in our strenuous, hurried life, and no word came to me from my chief regarding any other thing than our own work. Indeed, I thought I detected a certain new sternness in John Crondall's demeanour, an extra rigid concentration[316] upon work, which carried with it, for me, a suggestion of his being unwilling to meet one upon any other than the working footing. I was surprised and a little hurt about this, because of late there had been no reservations in the confidence with which my chief treated me. Also, I could not see any possible reason for secrecy in such a matter; it might as well be told first as last, I thought. And I watched Constance with a brooding eye for signs she never made, for a confidence which did not come from either of my friends.

For days after that kiss, I lived in constant anticipation of hearing from John Crondall. Our relationship was so close that I was sure he wouldn't keep anything from me for long. But day after day went by in our busy, hectic lives, and I didn't receive any word from my boss about anything other than our work. In fact, I thought I noticed a new seriousness in John Crondall's behavior, an even stricter focus on work, which suggested to me that he was unwilling to engage with me on any level other than a professional one. I was surprised and a little hurt by this, especially since he had previously been so open with me. I also couldn't understand why he would keep something like this a secret; it could just as easily be shared now as later, I thought. And I watched Constance with a thoughtful eye for signs that never appeared, hoping for a confidence that didn't come from either of my friends.

The thing possessed my mind, and must, I fear, have interfered materially with my work. But after a time the idea came to me that these two had decided to allow our joint work to take precedence of their private happiness, and to put aside their own affairs until the aims of The Citizens had been attained. I recalled certain little indications I myself had received from Constance before John Crondall's return from South Africa, to the effect that personal feeling could have no great weight with her, while our national fate hung in the balance. And, by dulling the edge of my expectancy, this conclusion somehow eased the ache which had possessed me since the day of the kiss to which chance had made me a witness. But it did not altogether explain to me the new reserve, the hint of stiffness in John Crondall's manner; and, rightly or wrongly, I knew when I took Constance's hand in mine, or met the gaze of her shining eyes, that I did so as a devout lover, and not merely as a friend.

The thought consumed my mind and, I worry, probably affected my work. After a while, I realized that these two had chosen to prioritize our joint effort over their personal happiness and set aside their own matters until the goals of The Citizens were achieved. I remembered some small hints I had picked up from Constance before John Crondall came back from South Africa, suggesting that personal feelings weren't a big deal for her while our national fate was at stake. This conclusion somehow softened the ache I felt since witnessing the kiss, dulling my anticipation. However, it didn’t fully clarify the new distance, the hint of formality in John Crondall’s demeanor; and whether rightly or wrongly, I knew that when I took Constance’s hand in mine or met her bright eyes, I was acting as a devoted lover, not just a friend.


XI
THE SPIRIT OF THE AGE

Without any disruption to my soul
Or a strong urge within me created,
I pray for your control; But in the silence of contemplation: This uncharted freedom tires me; I feel the burden of random desires:
My hopes no longer need to change their name;
I long for a peace that is always the same.
Ode to Responsibility.

From the first, the courtesy of the Press was securely enlisted in The Citizens' favour by John Crondall. For many months the Standard, now firmly established as the principal organ of the reform movement, devoted an entire page each day to the progress of our campaign and the pilgrimage of our forerunners—the Canadian preachers. John Crondall had gone thoroughly into the matter at the beginning with the editor of this journal, and the key-note thus given was taken by the Press of the whole country.

From the start, the support of the Press was solidly secured for The Citizens' by John Crondall. For many months, the Standard, which had now firmly established itself as the leading voice of the reform movement, dedicated an entire page each day to the progress of our campaign and the journey of our pioneers—the Canadian preachers. John Crondall had fully engaged with the editor of this journal from the beginning, and the tone set by him was adopted by the Press across the whole country.

The essence of our treatment by the newspapers lay in their careful avoidance of all matter which would be likely to earn for the movement the hostility of Germany, or of the officers in command of the German forces in England. Our language took on[318] a new and special meaning in the columns of the newspapers, where reports of our campaign were concerned. Such adjectives as "social," "moral," and the like were made to cover quite special meanings, as applied to the organization of The Citizens. So ably was all this done, that the German authorities regarded the whole movement as social and domestic, with a direct bearing upon the General Election, perhaps, but none whatever upon international politics or Anglo-German relations.

The way the newspapers treated us was all about their careful avoidance of anything that might provoke the hostility of Germany or the German commanders in England. Our language took on a new and unique significance in the newspaper reports about our campaign. Adjectives like "social," "moral," and similar terms were given specific meanings related to the organization of The Citizens. This was done so skillfully that the German authorities viewed the entire movement as social and domestic, possibly related to the General Election, but having no impact on international politics or Anglo-German relations.

In Elberfeld's ponderous history we are given the text of a despatch to the Kaiser in which General Baron von Füchter assured his Imperial master that any interference with The Citizens and their meetings would be gratuitous and impolitic:

In Elberfeld's heavy history, we find the text of a message to the Kaiser in which General Baron von Füchter assured his Imperial master that any interference with The Citizens and their meetings would be unnecessary and unwise:

"Their aims being purely social and domestic, and those of a quasi-religious Friendly Society, resembling something between their 'Band of Hope' and their 'Antediluvian Buffaloes.' The English have a passion for this kind of child's play, and are absurdly impatient of official surveillance. Their incorrigible sentimentality is soothed by such movements as those of the Canadian preachers and The Citizens; but even the rudiments of discipline or efficient coördination are lacking among them. Combination against us would be impossible for them, for this is a country of individualists, among whom the matter of obligations to the State is absolutely not recognized. There is no trace of military feeling among the people, and in my opinion the invasion might safely have been attempted five, if not ten years, before it was. The absence of any note of resentment in their newspapers[319] against our occupation has been quite marked since their preoccupation with the Canadian preachers and The Citizens. The people accept it in the most matter-of-course manner, and are already entirely absorbed once more in their own affairs, and even in their sports. British courage and independence have been no more than a myth for many years past—a bubble which your Majesty's triumphantly successful policy has burst for ever."

"Their goals are purely social and domestic, resembling a kind of quasi-religious Friendly Society that is a mix between their 'Band of Hope' and their 'Antediluvian Buffaloes.' The English have a strong passion for this type of childlike activity and are absurdly impatient with official oversight. Their unmanageable sentimentality is calmed by movements like those of the Canadian preachers and The Citizens; however, they lack even the basics of discipline or effective coordination. They would find it impossible to unite against us because this is a country of individualists, where the concept of obligations to the State is completely ignored. There is no sense of military spirit among the people, and I believe an invasion could have safely happened five, if not ten years, earlier than it did. The lack of any negative sentiment in their newspapers[319] regarding our occupation has been noticeable since they became preoccupied with the Canadian preachers and The Citizens. The people accept it quite casually and are already fully engaged once again in their own business and even their sports. British courage and independence have been nothing more than a myth for many years now—a bubble that your Majesty's incredibly successful policy has popped for good."

Another important feature, alike of our campaign and the pilgrimage of the preachers, was their positively non-party and non-sectarian character. John Crondall had been firm upon this point from the beginning. I remember his saying at the first meeting of the executive of The Citizens:

Another important aspect, similar to our campaign and the journey of the preachers, was their completely non-partisan and non-sectarian nature. John Crondall had been adamant about this from the start. I remember him saying at the first meeting of the executive of The Citizens:

"Our party government, party conflict, here in England, have sapped the vitality of the British Empire long enough. I believe the invasion has scotched the thing, and we must be very careful to do nothing that might help to bring it to life again. A Radical, as such, is neither better nor worse than a Conservative. It does not matter two pins what becomes of the Conservative organization, or the Liberal party, as parties. I should be delighted never to hear of either again. Our business is the Empire's business; and we want the people of the Empire with us—the whole lot of them—as one solid party."

"Our current party government and the conflicts between them in England have drained the strength of the British Empire for too long. I believe the invasion has put an end to it, and we need to be very careful not to do anything that could revive it. A Radical is neither better nor worse than a Conservative. It doesn’t matter at all what happens to the Conservative organization or the Liberal party as groups. I would be happy never to hear about either again. Our focus should be on the Empire's needs; we want all the people of the Empire united with us—as one cohesive group."

Accordingly, no mention of any political party was ever heard at our meetings. We made no appeal to any given section of the community, but only to the British public as a whole. We aimed at showing that there could be no division in national affairs, save the[320] division which separates citizens and patriots from men worthy of neither name. And that is why Maurice Hall, in his famous British Renaissance, was able to write that:

Accordingly, no political party was ever mentioned at our meetings. We didn’t appeal to any specific part of the community, but only to the British public as a whole. We aimed to demonstrate that there shouldn’t be any division in national issues, except for the[320] division that separates true citizens and patriots from those who deserve neither title. That’s why Maurice Hall, in his famous British Renaissance, was able to write that:

"The General Elections of the invasion year were practically directed and decided by two forces: the influence of The Citizens and the influence of the Canadian preachers' Duty teaching. Political opinions and traditions, as previously understood, played no part whatever."

"The General Elections of the invasion year were basically controlled and determined by two forces: the influence of The Citizens and the impact of the Canadian preachers' Duty teaching. Political opinions and traditions, as they were understood before, had no role at all."

Of course, it seems natural enough now that the British public should be united in matters of national and imperial import; but those whose memories are long enough will bear me out in saying that in previous elections nine voters in ten had been guided, not by any question of the needs of the country or the Empire, but by their support of this party or of that, of this colour or of that. Our politicians had strenuously supported the preposterous faction system, and fanned party rivalry in every way, because they recognized that it gave them personal power and aggrandizement, which they had long placed before any consideration of the common weal. By this they had brought shame and disaster upon the nation, in precisely the same manner that the same results had been produced by the same means, when these were used by the oligarchs of the Dutch Republic, prior to the downfall of the Netherlands.

Of course, it seems perfectly normal now for the British public to be united on issues of national and imperial importance; however, those with long memories will agree that in previous elections, nine out of ten voters were influenced not by the needs of the country or the Empire, but by their allegiance to this party or that, this ideology or that. Our politicians have actively supported the ridiculous party system and encouraged party rivalry in every way possible because they understood it gave them personal power and advancement, which they prioritized over any consideration for the common good. As a result, they brought shame and disaster upon the nation, just like the same outcomes occurred when the same methods were employed by the oligarchs of the Dutch Republic before the decline of the Netherlands.

Indeed, for some time before the invasion our politicians might have been supposed to be modelling their lives and policy entirely upon those of the Dutch Republic in the eighteenth century; particularly[321] with regard to their mercenary spoliation of the nation's defence forces, and their insane pertinacity in clinging to the policy of "cheapness," which killed both the manufacturing and the agricultural industries of the country, by allowing other properly protected nations to oust our producers from all foreign markets, and to swamp our home markets with their surplus stocks. Down to the minutest detail, the same causes and actions had produced the same results a century earlier in the Netherlands; and even as, first, King William of Prussia, and then revolutionary France, had devastated the Netherlands, so had the Kaiser's legions overrun England. It was not for lack of warning that our politicians had blindly followed so fatal a lead. "The Destroyers" were still being warned most urgently at the very time of the invasion by public speakers, and in such lucid works as Ellis Barker's The Rise and Decline of the Netherlands.

Indeed, for some time before the invasion, our politicians seemed to be modeling their lives and policies entirely on those of the Dutch Republic in the eighteenth century; especially[321] regarding their reckless exploitation of the nation’s defense forces and their crazy insistence on the policy of “cheapness.” This approach destroyed both the manufacturing and agricultural industries in the country by letting other well-protected nations push our producers out of foreign markets and flood our home markets with their excess stock. Up to the tiniest detail, the same causes and effects had led to the same results a century earlier in the Netherlands; and just as King William of Prussia and then revolutionary France had ravaged the Netherlands, so had the Kaiser’s forces invaded England. Our politicians followed such a disastrous path not for lack of warnings. "The Destroyers" were still being urgently cautioned at the very time of the invasion by public speakers and in clear writings like Ellis Barker’s The Rise and Decline of the Netherlands.

In spite of the emphatically non-party character of The Citizens' campaign, John Crondall kept in close touch throughout with all his political friends, and very many members of Parliament were among our leading workers. My chief's idea was that, when the elections drew near, we should cease to map out our movements in accordance with those of the Canadian preachers, and allow them to be guided by the exigencies of the electoral campaign; bringing all our influence to bear wherever we saw weakness in the cause of patriotism and reform.

Despite the clearly non-partisan nature of The Citizens' campaign, John Crondall stayed closely connected with all his political allies, and many members of Parliament were among our key supporters. My boss's idea was that, as the elections approached, we should stop planning our actions based on the Canadian preachers' strategies and instead let them be directed by the needs of the election campaign; using all our influence wherever we noticed weaknesses in the cause of patriotism and reform.

Already we had arrangements made for leading members of The Citizens to address meetings[322] throughout the elections at a good many centres. But, before the electioneering had gone far, it became evident that more had already been accomplished than we supposed. Candidates who came before their constituents with any kind of party programme were either angrily howled down or contemptuously ignored. Old supporters of "The Destroyers," who ventured upon temporizing tactics, were peremptorily faced with demands for straight-out declarations of policy upon the single issue of patriotic reform and duty to the State. With a single exception, the actual members of the Cabinet in "The Destroyers'" Administration refrained from any attempt to secure reëlection.

We had already set up plans for key members of The Citizens to speak at various meetings during the elections in many locations. However, before the campaigning gained much momentum, it became clear that more had been achieved than we realized. Candidates who presented any kind of party platform were either met with loud protests or completely ignored. Longtime supporters of "The Destroyers" who tried to play both sides were firmly confronted with demands for clear statements on their policies regarding patriotic reform and responsibility to the State. With one exception, the current members of the Cabinet in "The Destroyers'" Administration didn’t make any efforts to secure reelection.

Such an electoral campaign had never before been known in England. Candidates who, even inadvertently, used such words as "Conservative," "Radical," or "Liberal," were hissed into silence. Even the word "Labour" was taboo, so far as it referred to any political party. "Duty," "Patriotism," "Defence," "Citizenship," "United Empire," "British Federation," and, again, ringing loudly above all other cries, "Duty"—those were the watchwords and the platforms of the invasion year elections. The candidate who promised relief from taxation was laughed at. The candidate who promised legislation directed toward the citizen's defence of the citizen's hearth and home, was cheered to the echo.

Such an election campaign had never been seen before in England. Candidates who even accidentally used words like "Conservative," "Radical," or "Liberal" were silenced with hisses. Even the term "Labour" was off-limits when it came to any political party. "Duty," "Patriotism," "Defense," "Citizenship," "United Empire," "British Federation," and, above all, the rallying cry of "Duty"—these were the slogans and platforms of the election year during the invasion. The candidate who promised to reduce taxes was mocked. The candidate who promised laws aimed at protecting the citizen's home and family received loud cheers.

The one member of "The Destroyers'" Administration who sought reëlection, found it well to assert the claims of his youth by making a public recantation[323] of all his previously expressed views and policy, and seeking to outdo every one else in the direction of patriotic reform. Though he gulled nobody, he was listened to good-humouredly, and defeated with great ease by Abel Winchester, the Australian, who saw years of work before him, in conjunction with Forbes Thompson, in the supervision of village rifle corps throughout the country.

The one member of "The Destroyers'" Administration who wanted re-election found it necessary to assert his youthful claims by publicly taking back everything he had said before regarding his views and policies, trying to outdo everyone else in patriotic reform. Although no one was fooled by him, people listened with good humor, and he was easily defeated by Abel Winchester, the Australian, who saw years of work ahead with Forbes Thompson in overseeing village rifle corps across the country.[323]

In many ways the country had never known a Parliamentary election so constructive; in one respect it was absolutely destructive. It destroyed all previously existing political parties. No single member was returned as the representative of a previously existing party. The voters of Britain had refused to consider any other than the one issue of patriotic reform: the all-British policy, as it was called; and the consequence was, that when Parliament assembled it was found that the House of Commons could no longer boast possession of an Opposition.

In many ways, the country had never experienced a Parliamentary election so constructive; however, in one aspect, it was completely destructive. It wiped out all previously existing political parties. No single member was elected as a representative of any existing party. The voters of Britain refused to consider anything other than the single issue of patriotic reform: the all-British policy, as it was called. As a result, when Parliament met, it became clear that the House of Commons no longer had an Opposition.

The members of that assembly had been sent to St. Stephens to busy themselves, in unison, with the accomplishment of a common end; and if one among them should waste the time of the House by any form of obstruction, he could only do so by breaking the pledges upon the strength of which he had been elected. This fact was clearly set forth in the Speech from the Throne, delivered by the King in person. The business of Parliament was in full swing before its second sitting was far advanced. Though then an aged man, the famous statesman to whom the King had entrusted the task of forming a new Cabinet bore himself with the vigour of early manhood, and no[324] Prime Minister had ever faced Parliament with so great a driving power behind him of unity, confidence, and national sympathy. The fact that for years his name had been most prominently associated with every movement making for unity within the Empire; that he had striven valiantly for many years against the anti-British forces of disintegration; this was admitted to augur well for the success of the Conference of Colonial representatives then holding its first sitting in historic Westminster Hall.

The members of that assembly had been sent to St. Stephens to work together towards a common goal; and if anyone among them wasted the House's time by obstructing, they could only do so by breaking the commitments that got them elected. This point was clearly stated in the Speech from the Throne, delivered by the King himself. Parliament was fully operational before its second sitting was well underway. Even though he was an older man, the renowned statesman tasked by the King to form a new Cabinet carried himself with the energy of youth, and no Prime Minister had ever faced Parliament with such strong support of unity, confidence, and national backing. His name had been closely linked to every effort for unity within the Empire for years; he had fought bravely for many years against anti-British forces of division; this was seen as a positive sign for the success of the Conference of Colonial representatives that was holding its first session in historic Westminster Hall.

Meantime, the patriotic enthusiasm of the general public seemed to have been greatly heightened by the result of the general elections. By common consent a note of caution, of warning, took the place of the stirring note of appeal and stimulation which had formerly characterized every public address delivered under the auspices of The Citizens. Almost without invitation now the cream of the country's manhood flocked into our travelling headquarters for enrolment on the roster of The Citizens; and: "Hasten slowly—and silently," became John Crondall's counsel to all our supporters.

Meantime, the patriotic enthusiasm of the general public seemed to have increased significantly after the general elections. By mutual agreement, a sense of caution and warning replaced the inspiring call to action that used to define every public speech delivered under the banner of The Citizens. Almost without needing to ask, the best men in the country rushed to our traveling headquarters to sign up for The Citizens; and John Crondall's advice to all our supporters was: "Hasten slowly—and silently."

The effect upon the whole public of this counsel of caution and restraint was one of the most remarkable features of that period; and it showed, more clearly, I think, than anything else, the amazing depth and strength of the influence exerted by the Canadian preacher's Duty teaching. Our relations with the Power to which we were in effect a people in vassalage, and payers of tribute, demanded at this stage the exercise of the most cautious restraint; and finely the people responded to this demand. In his History[325] of the Revival, Charles Corbett says, with good reason:

The impact of this advice for caution and restraint on the public was one of the most notable aspects of that time. It clearly demonstrated, I believe more than anything else, the profound depth and strength of the influence from the Canadian preacher's Duty teachings. Our relationship with the power to which we were essentially a subservient people, paying tribute, required us to exercise extreme caution at this point; and impressively, the people responded to this call. In his History[325] of the Revival, Charles Corbett remarks, with good reason:

"It was the time of waiting, of cautious preparation, of enthusiasm restrained and harnessed to prudence, which must really be regarded as the probationary era of the Revival. It is in no sense a depreciation of the incalculable value of the work done by the Canadian apostles of the new faith, to say that their splendid efforts might well have proved of no more than transitory effect, but for that stern, silent period of repression, of rigid, self-administered discipline, which followed the access to office of the first Free Government.[1] That period may be regarded as the crucible in which British Christianity was tested and proven; in which the steel of the new patriotism was tempered and hardened to invincible durability. The Canadian preachers awakened the people; The Citizens set them their task; the period of waiting schooled them in the spirit of the twentieth century, the key-note of which is discipline, the meaning of which is Duty."

"It was a time of waiting, careful preparation, and enthusiasm kept in check by practicality. Thisshould really be seen as the trial period of the Revival. Acknowledging the huge value of the work done by the Canadian pioneers of the new faith does not diminish the fact that their remarkable efforts could have easily proven to be short-lived if not for that tough, quiet period of suppression, and strict self-discipline that followed the rise of the first Free Government.[1] That time can be considered the testing ground where British Christianity was challenged and validated, and where the strength of the new patriotism was refined and solidified into lasting resilience. The Canadian preachers inspired the community; The Citizens gave them their mission; the waiting period taught them the mindset of the twentieth century, which centers around discipline and embodies the concept of Duty."

[1] This title, applied by the Prince of Wales in a speech delivered at the Guildhall to the first Parliament which met without an Opposition, remained in use for a number of years afterwards.

[1] This title, used by the Prince of Wales in a speech at the Guildhall to the first Parliament that met without an Opposition, continued to be used for several years afterwards.

I do not regard that as a statement of more than the truth; and I do not think it would be easy to overrate, either the value of the period or the excellence of the response to the demand it made upon them. The only dissatisfied folk were the publicans and the theatre and music-hall lessees. The special journals which represented the interests of this class—caterers for public amusement and public dissipation—were[326] full of covert raillery against what they called the new Puritanism. Their raillery was no more than covert, however; the spirit of the time was too strong to permit more than that, and I do not think it produced any effect worth mentioning.

I don’t see that as anything more than the truth; and I don’t think it would be easy to overestimate either the importance of the time or the quality of the response to the demand it created. The only people who were unhappy were the pub owners and the theatre and music hall operators. The specialized magazines that represented their interests—those who provided entertainment and distractions for the public—were[326] full of subtle mockery towards what they referred to as the new Puritanism. Their mockery was only subtle, though; the spirit of the time was too strong for anything more than that, and I don’t think it had any significant impact.

Here again our difficulties proved real blessings in disguise. The burden of invasion taxation was heavy; all classes felt the monetary pinch of it, apart altogether from the humiliation of the German occupation; and this helped very materially in the development of common sense ideals regarding economy and simple living. Not for nothing had John Crondall called the Canadian preachers the mouthpiece of the hour. One saw very plainly, in every walk of life, a steadily growing love of sobriety. The thing was perhaps most immediately noticeable in the matter of the liquor traffic. Throughout the country, those public-houses and hotels which were in reality only drinking-shops were being closed up by the score, or converted into other sorts of business premises, for lack of custom in their old misery-breeding trade. The consumption of spirits, and of all the more expensive wines, decreased enormously. It is true there was a slight increase in the consumption of cider, and the falling off of beer sales was slight. But this was because a large number of people, who had been in the habit of taking far less wholesome and more costly beverages, now made use of both beer and cider. It was not at all evidence that the consumption of alcohol among the poorer classes maintained its old level. The sales of gin, for[327] example, fell to less than half the amounts used in the years before the invasion.

Here again, our challenges turned out to be real blessings in disguise. The burden of invasion taxes was heavy; all classes felt the financial strain, apart from the humiliation of the German occupation. This significantly contributed to the development of practical ideals about frugality and simple living. John Crondall was right to call the Canadian preachers the voice of the moment. You could clearly see a growing appreciation for sobriety in every aspect of life. This was especially noticeable in the liquor trade. Across the country, pubs and hotels that were really just bars were being shut down by the dozens or repurposed for different businesses due to a lack of customers in their old misery-inducing trade. The consumption of spirits and all the pricier wines dropped significantly. It's true that there was a slight increase in cider consumption, and beer sales only fell a little. But that was because many people who used to drink less healthy and more expensive beverages started opting for beer and cider. It didn’t indicate that alcohol consumption among the poorer classes stayed the same. For example, gin sales dropped to less than half of what they were in the years before the invasion.

And this was no more than one aspect of the great national progress toward realization of the ideals of Duty and simple living. Extravagance of every sort became, not merely unpopular, but hated and despised, as evidence of unpatriotic feeling. In this, I think, the women of England deserve the greater meed of gratitude and respect. The change they wrought in domestic economy was not less than wonderful when one realizes how speedily it was brought about, and how great was the change. For in the years immediately preceding the invasion the women had been sad offenders in this respect, particularly, perhaps, in their vulgar and ostentatious extravagance in matters of dress. Now, the placards of the British Commercial Union, exhorting the public to "Buy British Empire Goods only," became out of date almost as soon as they were printed, their advice being no longer needed.

And this was just one part of the huge national movement towards achieving the ideals of responsibility and simple living. All types of extravagance became not just unpopular, but hated and looked down upon as a sign of unpatriotic feelings. In this, I believe, the women of England deserve more gratitude and respect. The change they made in household spending was nothing short of amazing when you consider how quickly it happened and how significant the transformation was. In the years right before the invasion, women were particularly bad offenders in this regard, especially with their showy and pretentious spending on clothing. Now, the posters from the British Commercial Union urging the public to "Buy British Empire Goods only" became outdated almost immediately after they were printed, as their advice was no longer necessary.

No more could one see the wives and daughters of England competing with their unfortunate sisters of the demi-monde in the extravagance of their attire. One of the first evidences of the effect of the Canadian preachers' teaching that I can remember was the notable access of decorum and simplicity in dress which dominated the fashion of our clothes. In this, as in sundry other matters, I think we were helped by the unprecedented number of Colonials who began to flock into England at this time from Canada, South Africa, and Australia. But, despite the general desire for economy, it is certain that from that[328] time on the middle-class folk at all events began to wear better clothes and buy better commodities generally—articles which lasted longer, and were better worth using. The reason of this was all a part of the same teaching, the same general tendency. Shoddy goods, representing the surplus output of German and American firms, could no longer be sold in England, however low the prices at which they were offered; and shopkeepers soon found that they lost standing when they offered such goods to the public. Thus true economy and true patriotism were served at one and the same time.

No longer could the wives and daughters of England compete with their unfortunate counterparts in the demi-monde in terms of extravagant clothing. One of the first signs of the impact of the Canadian preachers' teachings I remember was the noticeable rise in modesty and simplicity in dress that influenced our fashion. In this matter, as in several others, I think we were aided by the extraordinary influx of people from Canada, South Africa, and Australia coming to England at this time. However, despite the widespread desire for frugality, it became clear that from that[328] point on, middle-class people began to wear better clothing and purchase higher-quality items generally—goods that lasted longer and were more worthwhile. This shift was all part of the same teachings and overarching trend. Inferior products, representing leftover stock from German and American companies, could no longer be sold in England, no matter how low the prices were; shopkeepers soon discovered they lost reputation when they offered such items to consumers. Thus, true frugality and genuine patriotism were achieved simultaneously.

Extravagance in eating, dress, entertainment, and the like, became that year more disgraceful than drunkenness had been a year before in the public eye. In the same way we attained to clearer vision and a saner sense of proportion in very many matters of first-rate social importance. I remember reading that the market for sixty and seventy horse-power touring motor-cars had almost ceased to exist, while the demand for industrial motor-vehicles, and for cars of something under twenty horse-power, had never been so flourishing.

Extravagance in food, clothing, entertainment, and similar things became even more shameful that year than drunkenness had been the year before in the eyes of the public. Similarly, we gained clearer insight and a more reasonable perspective on many issues of significant social importance. I remember reading that the market for sixty and seventy horsepower touring cars had nearly disappeared, while the demand for industrial vehicles and cars with less than twenty horsepower had never been better.

Before this time we had fallen into incredible extravagance in our attitude toward all the parasitical occupations, and paid absurd tributes of respect to many of those who waxed fat upon pandering to our weaknesses. This passed away now, like a single night's dream, and incidentally gave rise to a certain amount of complaining from those who suffered by it. But the public was no more inclined to heed these complainings than it was to fritter away its time and[329] substance in drinking-bars or in places of amusement. The famous "Middle-class Music-halls" faded quickly into the limbo of forgotten failures, and the most popular of public performers were those—and they were not a few—who forsook grease-paint for khaki, and posturing on stages for exercising on rifle-ranges and drill-grounds.

Before this time, we had developed a ridiculous extravagance in how we viewed all the parasitic occupations, and we extended absurd respect to many who grew wealthy by catering to our weaknesses. This notion faded away now, like a fleeting dream, which led to some complaints from those affected by it. However, the public was not any more willing to listen to these complaints than it was to waste its time and resources in bars or amusement venues. The well-known "Middle-class Music-halls" quickly disappeared into the realm of forgotten failures, and the most popular performers were those—and there were quite a few—who traded in grease paint for army uniforms and performances on stage for training on rifle ranges and drill grounds.

The word "Puritanism" was still a term of reproach then, by virtue of its old associations; but, as we see things nowadays, there is room only for gladness in admitting that the wave of feeling which swept through the homes of England in the wake of the Canadian preachers, The Citizens, and the organizers of the village rifle corps, was in very truth a mighty revival of Puritanism, backed by the newly awakened twentieth-century spirit of Imperial patriotism, with its recognition of the duty of loyalty, not alone to country, but to race and Empire. Yes, it was true Puritanism—stern, unfaltering Puritanism; and it came to England not a day too soon. Without it, we could never have been purged of our insensate selfishness; without it, the loose agglomeration of states, then called the British Empire, could never have been welded into the State; without it, the great events of that year would have been impossible, and the dominion of the English-speaking peoples must, ere this, have become no more than a matter of historical interest.

The term "Puritanism" was still seen as an insult back then because of its historical connotations; however, from our perspective today, it's a source of joy to recognize that the surge of emotion that swept through homes in England after the Canadian preachers, The Citizens, and the organizers of the village rifle corps, was truly a significant revival of Puritanism. This revival was supported by the newly energized 20th-century spirit of Imperial patriotism, which acknowledged the responsibility of loyalty, not just to our country, but to our race and Empire. Yes, it was real Puritanism—strict, unwavering Puritanism; and it arrived in England just in time. Without it, we could never have rid ourselves of our mindless selfishness; without it, the loose collection of states then known as the British Empire could never have been united into a nation; without it, the major events of that year wouldn't have been possible, and the influence of English-speaking peoples would have long since become merely a historical footnote.


XII
BLOOD IS THICKER THAN WATER

Strict lawmaker! yet you wear The Godhead's most generous grace; We don't know anything as beautiful. Just like the smile on your face: Flowers smile at you from their beds,
And fragrance follows your footsteps; You protect the Stars from harm;
And the oldest heavens, through you, are vibrant and powerful.
Ode to Responsibility.

I suffered no change so far as Constance Grey's demeanour to me was concerned; but certainly John Crondall had altered since the day upon which I had so inopportunely entered his room when Constance was with him. At times I fancied his change was toward me personally, and I thought it curiously unlike the man to cherish any sort of unkindness over an accident. But then, again, at odd times, I watched him with other men among our now considerable train, and the conclusion was borne in upon me that the change had nothing to do with me, but was general in its character. He was more stern, less cheery, and far more reserved than before.

I didn't notice any change in Constance Grey's behavior towards me; however, John Crondall had definitely changed since the day I awkwardly walked into his room when Constance was there. Sometimes I thought his change was directed at me personally, and it seemed strange for him to hold onto any kind of resentment over a misfortune. But then, at random moments, I observed him with other men in our now sizable group, and I realized that his change didn’t have anything to do with me but was more of a general shift. He became more serious, less cheerful, and much more reserved than he used to be.

And this I thought most strange, for it seemed to me that, even though Constance and my chief might have agreed that nothing like an engagement between[331] them must come till our work was done, yet the understanding which could lead to the kiss I had seen was surely warrant enough for a change of quite another character than this one. I thought of it whenever I took Constance's hand in greeting her; and I think my eyes must sometimes have told her what my heart always felt: that in me, this right to do as Crondall had done would have seemed an entry into Paradise, let circumstances and conditions be what they might. And with such a thought I would recall what, to me, would never be the least of Black Saturday's events: that once Constance Grey had lain in my arms—unconsciously, it was true; and that upon the same occasion I had kissed her, and known in that moment that never again could she be as other women for me.

And I found this really strange because it seemed to me that even though Constance and my boss might have agreed that they shouldn't be engaged until our work was done, the connection that led to the kiss I had seen should definitely allow for something much different. I thought about it every time I took Constance's hand to greet her, and I think my eyes sometimes showed her what my heart always felt: that for me, having the right to do what Crondall had done would have felt like entering Paradise, no matter what the circumstances were. With that thought, I remembered what, for me, would always be a significant moment from Black Saturday: that once Constance Grey had been in my arms—unconsciously, it's true; and on that same occasion, I had kissed her and realized in that moment that she could never again be just like other women for me.

I was often tempted to speak to Constance of the change I saw in John Crondall, and one day in Carlisle I yielded to the temptation. At one and the same time I both craved and dreaded definite news of the understanding between the woman I loved and the man I liked and respected more than any other. I wanted Constance's confidence; yet I felt as though my life would be stripped bare by definite knowledge that she was betrothed. So, moth-like, I hovered about the perilous subject, with a nervous endeavour to lend natural composure to my voice.

I often felt tempted to talk to Constance about the change I noticed in John Crondall, and one day in Carlisle, I gave in to that temptation. At that moment, I both wanted and feared to get clear news about the relationship between the woman I loved and the man I admired more than anyone else. I wanted Constance to trust me, but I felt like my life would be completely exposed by the harsh truth that she was engaged. So, like a moth drawn to a flame, I circled around this risky topic, trying nervously to sound calm.

"Do you notice any particular change in John Crondall of late?" I asked. And it seemed to me that Constance flushed slightly as she answered me:

"Have you noticed any specific change in John Crondall lately?" I asked. It seemed to me that Constance blushed a bit as she replied:

"Change? No. Has he changed?"

"Change? No. Has he evolved?"

"Well, he does not seem to be nearly so happy as——" And there I broke away from a dangerous[332] comparison, and substituted—"as he was awhile back."

"Well, he doesn't seem to be nearly as happy as——" And there I cut off a risky[332] comparison, and replaced it with—"as he was some time ago."

"Really? But what makes you think that?"

"Seriously? What makes you believe that?"

"I fancy he is much more reserved—less frank and more preoccupied; not so jolly, in fact, as he always was. I have thought so for several weeks."

"I think he seems much more reserved—less open and more distracted; not as cheerful, in fact, as he always was. I've felt this way for several weeks."

"I am sorry, very sorry; and I do hope you are mistaken. Of course he is overworked—we all are; but that never hurt him before; and with things going so splendidly—— Oh, I hope you are mistaken."

"I’m really sorry, truly sorry; and I really hope you’re wrong. Of course he’s overwhelmed—we all are; but that’s never bothered him before; and with everything going so wonderfully—— Oh, I really hope you’re wrong."

"Perhaps so," I said. "Certainly I think he has every reason to be happy—to be happy and proud; every reason."

"Maybe so," I said. "I definitely think he has every reason to be happy—happy and proud; every reason."

And I stopped at that; but Constance made no sign to me; and I wondered she did not, for we were very intimate, and she was sweetly kind to me in those days. Indeed, once when I looked up sharply at her with a question from some work we were engaged upon, I saw a light in her beautiful eyes which thrilled my very heart with strange delight. Her expression had changed instantly, and I told myself I had no sort of business to be thrilled by a look which was obviously born of reverie, of thoughts about John Crondall. Such a sweet light of love her eyes held! I told myself for the hundredth time that no consideration should ever cloud the happiness of the man who was so fortunate as to inspire it—to have won the heart which looked out through those shining eyes.

And I stopped at that; but Constance didn’t give me any signals; and I was surprised that she didn't, because we were very close, and she was really kind to me back then. In fact, once when I glanced at her with a question about some work we were doing, I noticed a spark in her beautiful eyes that filled my heart with an unusual joy. Her expression changed instantly, and I reminded myself that I shouldn’t feel thrilled by a look that clearly came from daydreaming, from thoughts about John Crondall. There was such a lovely light of affection in her eyes! I told myself for the hundredth time that nothing should ever overshadow the happiness of the man who was lucky enough to inspire it—to have won the heart that shone through those bright eyes.

But it must not be supposed that I had much leisure for this sort of meditation. My feeling for Constance[333] certainly dominated me. Indeed, it accounted for everything of import in my life—for my general attitude of mind and, I make no doubt, for my being where I was and playing the part I did play in The Citizens' campaign. But our life was not one that admitted of emotional preoccupation of any sort. We were too close to the working mechanism of national progress. There never was more absorbing work than the making and enrolment of Citizens at such a juncture in the history of one's country.

But you shouldn't think I had a lot of free time for that kind of thinking. My feelings for Constance[333] really took over my mind. In fact, they were behind everything significant in my life—shaping my overall mindset and, I'm sure, leading me to be where I was and to play the role I did in The Citizens' campaign. But our life didn't allow for any kind of emotional distraction. We were too involved in the workings of national progress. There was no more engaging work than organizing and enrolling Citizens at such a crucial time in our country's history.

The spirit of our work, no less than that of the Canadian preachers' teaching, was actually in the air at that time. It dominated English life, from the mansions of the great landholders to the cottages of the field-labourers and the tenements of the factory-hands. It affected every least detail of the people's lives, and coloured all thought and action in England—a process which I am sure was strengthened by the remarkable growth of Colonial sentiment throughout the country at this time. The tide of emigration seemed to have been reversed by some subtle process of nature: the strong ebb of previous years had become a flow of immigration. Everywhere one met Canadians, Australians, South Africans, and an unusual number of Anglo-Indians.

The spirit of our work, just like the teachings of Canadian preachers, was truly in the air at that time. It influenced English life, from the grand homes of wealthy landowners to the cottages of farm workers and the apartments of factory workers. It impacted every small detail of people's lives and shaped all thoughts and actions in England—a process that I believe was amplified by the significant rise of colonial sentiment across the country during this period. The trend of emigration seemed to have shifted due to some subtle natural process: the strong decline of previous years turned into a wave of immigration. Everywhere you looked, you encountered Canadians, Australians, South Africans, and an unusually high number of Anglo-Indians.

"We've been doing pretty well of late," said one of the Canadians to me when I commented to him upon this influx into the Old Country of her Colonial sons; "and I reckon we can most of us spare time to see things through a bit at Home. The way our folk look at it on the other side is this: They reckon we've got to worry through this German business[334] somehow and come out the right way up on the other side, and a good deal more solid than we went in. We don't reckon there's going to be any more 'Little Englandism' or Cobdenism after this job's once put through; and that's a proposition we're mighty keenly interested in, you see. We put most of our eggs into the Empire basket, away back, while you people were still busy giving Africa to the Boers, and your Navy to the dogs, and your markets to Germany, and your trade and esteem to any old foreigner that happened along with a nest to feather. I reckon that's why we're most of us here; and maybe that's why we mostly bring our cartridge-belts along. A New South Wales chap told me last night you couldn't get up a cricket match aboard a P. and O. or Orient boat, not for a wager—nothing but shooting competitions and the gentle art of drill. You say 'Shun!' to the next Colonial you meet, and listen for the click of his heels! Not that we set much store by that business ourselves, but we learned about the Old Country taste for it in South Africa, and it's all good practice, anyhow, and good discipline."

"We've been doing pretty well lately," one of the Canadians said to me when I mentioned the increase of her Colonial sons coming back to the Old Country; "and I think most of us can take the time to see things through a bit at Home. The way our folks see it on the other side is this: They think we need to navigate this German situation[334] somehow and come out stronger on the other side than we were when we entered. We don’t expect there to be any more 'Little Englandism' or Cobdenism after this is all done; and that’s something we’re really interested in, you see. We put most of our resources into the Empire basket long ago, while you all were busy giving Africa to the Boers, your Navy to shambles, and your markets to Germany, as well as your trade and reputation to any foreigner who came along with an agenda. I think that’s why most of us are here; and maybe that’s why we often bring our cartridge belts along. A guy from New South Wales told me last night you couldn’t set up a cricket match on a P. and O. or Orient ship—not for a bet—only shooting contests and military drills. You say 'Shun!' to the next Colonial you meet, and listen for the click of his heels! Not that we really care much for that ourselves, but we learned about the Old Country’s taste for it in South Africa, and it’s all good practice, anyhow, and good discipline."

But, whatever the motives and causes behind their coming, it is certain that an astonishingly large number of our oversea kinsmen were arriving in England each week; and I believe every one of them joined The Citizens. Their presence and the part they played in affairs had a marked effect upon the spirit of the time. All sorts and conditions of people, whose thoughts in the past had never strayed far from their own parishes, now talked[335] familiarly of people, things, and places Colonial. The idea of our race being one big tribe, though our homes might be hemispheres apart, seemed to me to take root for the first time in the minds of the general public at about this period. I spoke of it to John Crondall, and reminded him how he had urged this idea upon us years before in Westminster with but indifferent success.

But no matter the reasons behind their arrival, it’s clear that an astonishingly large number of our overseas relatives were coming to England each week; and I believe every single one of them joined The Citizens. Their presence and the roles they played had a significant impact on the spirit of the time. People from all walks of life, who in the past had never looked beyond their own neighborhoods, were now casually discussing Colonial people, things, and places. The notion of our race being one big tribe, despite our homes being hemispheres apart, seemed to take root in the minds of the general public for the first time during this period. I mentioned this to John Crondall and reminded him how he had tried to promote this idea to us years ago in Westminster, with only limited success.

"Ah, well," he said, "they have come to it of their own accord now; and that means they'll get a better grip of it than any one could ever have given them. That's part of our national character, and not a bad part."

"Well," he said, "they've figured it out on their own now; and that means they'll understand it better than anyone could have taught them. That's part of our national identity, and not a bad part."

We were heading southward through Lancashire, when the news reached us of that extension of the British Constitution which first gave us a really Imperial Parliament. The country received the news with a deep-seated and sober satisfaction. Perhaps the majority hardly appreciated at once the full significance of this first great accomplishment of the Free Government. But the published details showed the simplest among us that by this act the congeries of scattered nations we had called the British Empire were now truly welded into an Imperial State. It showed us that we English, and all those stalwart kinsmen of ours across the Atlantic and on the far side of the Pacific—north, south, east, and west, wherever the old flag flew—were now actually as well as nominally subjects of one Government, and that that Government would for the future be composed of men chosen as their representatives by the people of every country in the Empire; men drawn[336] together under one historic roof by one firm purpose—the service and administration of a great Imperial State.

We were heading south through Lancashire when we heard the news about the extension of the British Constitution that finally gave us a truly Imperial Parliament. The country received the news with deep and sober satisfaction. Maybe most people didn’t immediately grasp the full significance of this major achievement of the Free Government. But the published details made it clear even to the simplest among us that this act had truly united the scattered nations we called the British Empire into one Imperial State. It showed us that we English, along with our strong relatives across the Atlantic and on the other side of the Pacific—north, south, east, and west, wherever the old flag flew—were now actually, as well as nominally, subjects of one Government. This Government would from now on be made up of men elected as representatives by the people of every country in the Empire; men brought together under one historic roof with a single purpose—the service and administration of a great Imperial State.

As I say, the realization produced deep-seated satisfaction. Of late we had learned to take things soberly in England; but there was no room for doubt about the effect of this news upon the public. The events of the past half-year, the pilgrimage of the Canadian preachers, the new devotion to Duty (which seemed almost a new religion though it was actually but an awakening to the religion of our fathers), the influx among us of Colonial kinsmen, and the campaign of The Citizens; these things combined to give us a far truer and more keen appreciation of the news than had been possible before.

As I said, the realization brought a deep sense of satisfaction. Recently, we had learned to be serious in England; however, there was no doubt about how this news would affect the public. The events of the last six months, the journey of the Canadian preachers, the new commitment to Duty (which felt almost like a new religion, even though it was really just a return to the beliefs of our ancestors), the arrival of our Colonial relatives, and the campaign of The Citizens; all these things combined gave us a much clearer and sharper understanding of the news than we had before.

Indeed, looking back upon my experience in Fleet Street, I must suppose the whole thing would have been impossible before. I could imagine how my Daily Gazette colleagues would have scoffed at the Imperial Parliament's first executive act, which was the devising of an Imperial Customs Tariff to give free trade within the Empire, and complete protection so far as the rest of the world was concerned, with strictly reciprocatory concessions to such nations as might choose to offer these to us, and to no others.

Indeed, looking back on my time in Fleet Street, I think the whole thing would have been impossible before. I can picture how my Daily Gazette colleagues would have mocked the first executive action of the Imperial Parliament, which was creating an Imperial Customs Tariff to promote free trade within the Empire, while providing full protection against the rest of the world, with strictly reciprocal concessions to any nations that might choose to offer them to us, and to no one else.

Truly Crondall had said that the Canadian preachers accomplished more than they knew. The sense of duty, individual and national, burned in England for the first time since Nelson's day: a steady, white flame. The acceptance by all classes of the community of the Imperial Parliament's programme of work proved this. The public had been shown that our[337] duty to the whole Empire, and to our posterity, demanded this thing. That was enough. Five years before, one year before, the country had been shown very clearly where its duties lay; and the showing had not moved five men in a hundred from their blind pursuit of individual pleasure and individual gain. Army, Navy, Colonies, Imperial prestige—all might go by the board.

Truly, Crondall had said that the Canadian preachers achieved more than they realized. The sense of duty, both personal and national, ignited in England for the first time since Nelson's era: a steady, bright flame. The acceptance of the Imperial Parliament's work program by all segments of the community demonstrated this. The public had been made aware that our[337] obligation to the entire Empire and to future generations required this action. That was enough. Five years ago, just a year ago, the country had been clearly shown where its responsibilities lay; and that message had not shifted five out of a hundred people from their self-serving pursuit of personal pleasure and profit. The Army, Navy, Colonies, Imperial prestige—all could be disregarded.

But now, all that was changed. My old friend, Stairs, with Reynolds, and their following, had given meaning and application to the teaching of our national chastisement. Religion ruled England once more; and it was the religion, not of professions and asseverations, but of Duty. The House of Commons and, more even than our first Free Government, the Imperial Parliament in Westminster Hall had behind them the absolute confidence of a united people. If England could have been convinced at that time that Duty demanded a barefoot pilgrimage to Palestine, I verily believe Europe would have speedily been dissected by a thousand-mile column of marching Britishers.

But now, everything had changed. My old friends, Stairs, Reynolds, and their followers, had given meaning and purpose to the lessons of our national punishment. Religion was once again central in England; it was a religion focused not on empty words and promises, but on Duty. The House of Commons, and even more so our initial Free Government, the Imperial Parliament in Westminster Hall, had the unwavering support of a united people. If England had been convinced at that moment that Duty required a barefoot journey to Palestine, I sincerely believe Europe would have quickly been traversed by a thousand-mile line of marching Brits.

But the Canadian preachers taught a far more practical faith than that; and, behind them, John Crondall and his workers opened the door upon a path more urgent and direct than that of any pilgrimage; the path to be trodden by all British citizens who respected the white hairs of their fathers, and the innocent trust of their children; the path of Duty to God and King and Empire; the path for all who could hear and understand the call of our own blood.

But the Canadian preachers taught a much more practical faith than that; and, behind them, John Crondall and his team opened the door to a path more urgent and direct than any pilgrimage; the path to be followed by all British citizens who honored the wisdom of their elders and the innocent trust of their children; the path of Duty to God, King, and Empire; the path for all who could hear and understand the call of our own heritage.


XIII
ONE SUMMER MORNING

To humbler tasks, terrible Power!
I call you: I commend myself From this moment on, with your guidance; Oh, let my weakness come to an end!
Grant me, made humbly wise,
The spirit of selflessness; The confidence of reason gives; In the light of Truth, let me live as your servant.
Ode to Responsibility.

Winter rushed past us like a tropical squall that year, and, before one had noted the beautiful coming of spring, young summer was upon the land. For me, serving as I did the founder and leader of The Citizens, life was filled as never before. I had never even dreamed of a life so compact of far-reaching action, of intimate relation with great causes.

Winter rushed by us like a tropical storm that year, and before anyone noticed the lovely arrival of spring, young summer had taken over the land. For me, as the founder and leader of The Citizens, life was more fulfilling than ever. I had never even imagined a life so packed with impactful action and close connections to significant causes.

I know now that the speed and strenuousness of it was telling upon all of us. But we did not realize it then. John Crondall seemed positively tireless. The rest of us had our moments of exhaustion, but never, I think, of depression. Our work was too finely productive and too richly rewarded for that. But we were thin, and a little fine-drawn, like athletes somewhat overtrained.[339]

I realize now that the pace and intensity of it was affecting all of us. But we didn't see it at the time. John Crondall seemed completely tireless. The rest of us had our moments of fatigue, but I don’t think we ever felt depressed. Our work was too rewarding and fulfilling for that. But we were lean and a bit frazzled, like athletes who had trained too hard.[339]

Published records have analyzed our progress through the country, the Canadian preachers' and our own; but nothing I have read, or could tell, gives more than a pale reflection of that triumphal progress, as we lived it. In our wake, harlots forsook harlotry to learn something of nursing by doing the rough domestic work of hospitals; famous misers and money-grubbers gave fortunes to The Citizens' cause, and peers' sons left country mansions to learn defensive arts, in the ranks; drunkards left their toping for honest work, and actresses sold their wardrobes to provide funds for village rifle corps.

Published records have analyzed our progress across the country, from the Canadian preachers to our own efforts; however, nothing I’ve read or could explain captures more than a faint reflection of that victorious journey as we experienced it. In our wake, prostitutes abandoned their work to learn nursing by taking on the tough domestic tasks in hospitals; notorious misers and hoarders donated fortunes to The Citizens' cause, and the sons of nobility left their country estates to learn self-defense alongside us; alcoholics traded their drinking for honest labor, and actresses sold their clothing to raise money for local rifle teams.

There was no light sentiment, no sort of hysteria, at the back of these miracles. Be it remembered that the streets of English towns had never been so orderly; public-houses and places of amusement had never been so empty; churches and chapels had never been one-half so full. During that year, as the records show, it became the rule in many places for curates and deacons to hold services outside the churches and chapels, while packed congregations attended the services held within. And it was then that, for the first time, we saw parsons leading the young men of their flocks to the rifle-ranges, and competing with them there.

There was no lighthearted feeling, no kind of hysteria, behind these miracles. It's worth noting that the streets of English towns had never been so orderly; pubs and entertainment venues had never been so empty; churches and chapels had never been so packed. During that year, as the records indicate, it became common in many places for curates and deacons to hold services outside the churches and chapels, while full congregations attended services inside. And it was then that, for the first time, we saw priests taking the young men from their communities to the rifle ranges and competing with them there.

The lessons we learned in those days will never, I suppose, seem so wonderful to any one else as to those of us who had lived a good slice of our lives before the lessons came; before the need of them was felt or understood. "For God, our Race, and Duty!" Conceive the stirring wonder of the watchword, when it was no more than a month old![340]

The lessons we learned back then will probably never seem as amazing to anyone else as they do to those of us who had already lived a good part of our lives before those lessons came; before we even felt or understood the need for them. "For God, our Race, and Duty!" Just imagine the exciting power of that rallying cry when it was only a month old![340]

The seasons rushed by us, as I said. But one short conversation served to mark for me the coming of summer. We had reached the Surrey hills in our homeward progress toward London. On a Saturday night we held a huge meeting in Guildford, and very early on Sunday morning I woke with a curiously insistent desire to be out in the open. Full of this inclination I rose, dressed, and made my way down to the side entrance of the hotel, where a few servants were moving about drowsily. As I passed out under a high archway into the empty, sunny street, with its clean Sabbath hush, Constance Grey stepped out from the front entrance to the pavement.

The seasons flew by, as I mentioned. But one brief conversation really signaled to me that summer was approaching. We had reached the Surrey hills on our way back to London. On a Saturday night, we held a big meeting in Guildford, and very early on Sunday morning, I woke up with a strong urge to be outside. Driven by this feeling, I got up, got dressed, and headed down to the hotel’s side entrance, where a few staff members were moving around sleepily. As I walked out through a tall archway into the quiet, sunny street, which had a peaceful Sunday stillness, Constance Grey stepped out from the front entrance onto the pavement.

"I felt such a longing to be out in the open this morning," she said, when we had exchanged greeting. "It's months since I had a walk for the walk's sake, and now I mean to climb that hill that we motored over from Farnham—the Hog's Back, as they call it."

"I really wanted to be outside this morning," she said after we greeted each other. "It's been months since I took a walk just for the sake of walking, and now I plan to climb that hill we drove past from Farnham—the Hog's Back, as they call it."

We both thought it deserved some more beautiful name, when we turned on its crest and looked back at Guildford in the hollow, shining in summer morning haze.

We both agreed it deserved a more beautiful name when we reached its peak and looked back at Guildford in the valley, shining in the summer morning haze.

"Now surely that's King Arthur's Camelot," said Constance.

"That’s definitely King Arthur's Camelot," Constance said.

And then we looked out over the delectable valley toward the towers of Charterhouse, across the roofs of two most lovable hamlets, from which blue smoke curled in delicate spirals up from the bed of the valley, through a nacreous mist, to somewhere near our high level.[341]

And then we looked out over the beautiful valley toward the towers of Charterhouse, across the rooftops of two charming villages, from which blue smoke curled in gentle spirals up from the valley floor, through a pearly mist, to somewhere near our elevated position.[341]

We gazed our fill, and I only nodded when Constance murmured:

We stared as long as we wanted, and I just nodded when Constance said:

"It's worth a struggle, isn't it?"

"It’s worth the effort, right?"

I knew her thought exactly. It was part of our joint life, of the cause we both were serving. I had been pointing to some object across the valley, and as my hand fell it touched Constance's hand, which was cool and fresh as a flower. Mine was moist and hot. I never was more at a loss for words. I took her hand in mine and held it. So we stood, hand in hand, like children, looking out over that lovely English valley. My heart was all abrim with tenderness; but I had no words. I had been a good deal moved by the curious instance of telepathic sympathy or understanding which had brought me from my bed that morning and led to our meeting.

I understood her thoughts perfectly. They were part of our shared life, part of the cause we were both committed to. I had been pointing at something across the valley, and as my hand fell, it accidentally brushed against Constance's hand, which felt cool and fresh like a flower. Mine was warm and sweaty. I was completely at a loss for words. I took her hand in mine and held it. So we stood there, hand in hand, like kids, gazing out at that beautiful English valley. My heart was overflowing with tenderness, but I had no words. I was quite moved by the strange instance of telepathic connection that had pulled me out of bed that morning and brought us together.

"You have given me so much, taught me so much, Constance," I said at last.

"You've given me so much and taught me so much, Constance," I finally said.

"No, no; I am no teacher," she said. "But I do think God has taught all of us a good deal lately—all our tribe—Dick."

"No, no; I'm not a teacher," she said. "But I do think God has taught all of us quite a bit lately—all our people—Dick."

There was a rare hint of nervousness in her voice; and I felt I knew the cause. I felt she must be thinking of John Crondall. And yet, if my life had depended on it, I could not help saying:

There was a rare hint of nervousness in her voice, and I felt I knew why. I was sure she must be thinking about John Crondall. And yet, if my life had depended on it, I couldn’t help saying:

"It is love that taught me."

"Love taught me that."

Constance drew her hand away gently.

Constance gently pulled her hand back.

"Would not the Canadian preachers say we meant the same thing?" she said. I had my warning; but, though haltingly, the words would come, now.

"Wouldn't the Canadian preachers say we were saying the same thing?" she said. I had my warning; but, even though it was hesitant, the words would come now.

"Ah, Constance, it is love of you, I mean—love of you. Oh, yes, I know," I hurried on now. "I[342] know. Have no fear of me. I understand. But it is love of you, Constance, that rules every minute of my life. I couldn't alter that if I tried; and—and I would not alter it if I had to die for it. But—you must forgive me. Tell me you do not want me to stop loving you, Constance. You see, I do not ask any more of you. I understand. But—let me go on loving you, dear heart, because that means everything to me. It has guided me in everything I have done since that day you came to me in The Mass office. Constance, you do not really want me to stop loving you?"

"Ah, Constance, it’s my love for you, I mean—love for you. Oh, yes, I know," I rushed to add now. "I [342] know. Don’t worry about me. I get it. But it’s my love for you, Constance, that dominates every moment of my life. I couldn't change that even if I tried; and—and I wouldn’t change it even if it meant I had to die for it. But—you have to forgive me. Please tell me you don’t want me to stop loving you, Constance. You see, I’m not asking for anything more from you. I understand. But—let me keep loving you, dear heart, because that means everything to me. It has guided me in everything I’ve done since the day you came to me in The Mass office. Constance, you really don’t want me to stop loving you?"

I was facing her now; kneeling to her, in my mind, though not in fact. Her head was bowed toward me. Then she raised her glorious eyes, and gave to me the full tender sweetness of them.

I was facing her now; kneeling to her in my mind, even if not in reality. Her head was tilted down toward me. Then she lifted her beautiful eyes and gave me their complete tender sweetness.

"No, Dick," she said, quite firmly, but soft and low; "I don't want you ever to stop loving me."

"No, Dick," she said, quite firmly, but softly and quietly; "I never want you to stop loving me."

Whatever else Fate brings or takes from me, I shall never lose the lovely music of those words. That is mine for ever.

Whatever else life gives or takes away from me, I will never lose the beautiful music of those words. That is mine forever.


XIV
"FOR GOD, OUR RACE, AND DUTY"

Soldiers, get ready! Our mission is for Heaven;
Soldiers, get ready! Live up to our cause:
Get ready to meet our heavenly fathers:
Get ready, O troops that are set to fall today!
Get ready, get ready.
Alfred will smile and make his harp sing with joy; The Norman William, and the knowledgeable Clerk,
And Lion-Heart and black-browed Edward, with His loyal queen will rise and greet us!
Get ready, get ready.
Blake.

We had two other meetings before finally taking train for London; but virtually our campaign was brought to an end at Guildford. Our peregrination ended there, but the Canadian preachers continued their pilgrimage till long afterwards. Scores of rich men were anxious to finance these expounders of the new teaching, and even to build them churches. But Stairs and Reynolds were both agreed in wanting no churches. Their mission was to the public as a whole.

We had two more meetings before finally taking the train to London; but basically, our campaign came to an end at Guildford. Our journey finished there, but the Canadian preachers kept on with their mission for a long time after. Many wealthy individuals were eager to fund these proponents of the new teachings and even to provide them with churches. However, Stairs and Reynolds both wanted no churches. Their mission was to reach the public as a whole.

When we returned to our headquarters in London, the membership of The Citizens stood within a few hundreds of three million and a half of able-bodied men. And still new members were being sworn in[344] every day. Some few of these members had contributed as much as five thousand pounds to our funds. Very many had contributed a fifth of that sum, and very many more had given in hundreds of pounds. There were some who gave us pence, and they were very cordially thanked, giving as they did from the slenderest of purses. There were women who had sold dresses and jewels for us, hundreds of them; and there were little children whose pocket-money had helped to swell the armament and instruction funds. Joseph Farquharson, the well-known coal and iron magnate, who had been famous for his "Little England" sentiments—a man who had boasted of his parochialism—must have learned very much from the invasion and the teaching of the new movement. He gave one hundred thousand pounds to The Citizens after John Crondall's first address in Newcastle.

When we got back to our headquarters in London, the membership of The Citizens was just a few hundred shy of three and a half million able-bodied men. And new members were still being sworn in[344] every day. Some of these members had contributed as much as five thousand pounds to our funds. Many had donated a fifth of that amount, and even more had given hundreds of pounds. There were some who contributed pennies, and they were warmly thanked for giving from their modest means. There were women who sold dresses and jewelry for us, hundreds of them; and there were little kids whose allowance had helped boost the armament and instruction funds. Joseph Farquharson, the well-known coal and iron magnate famous for his "Little England" views—a man who had prided himself on his localism—must have learned a great deal from the invasion and the lessons of the new movement. He donated one hundred thousand pounds to The Citizens after John Crondall's first speech in Newcastle.

When Crondall attended the famous Council at the War Office, he did so as the founder and representative of the most formidable organization ever known in England. He had no official standing at the Council: he took his seat there as an unofficial commoner. Yet, in a sense, he held the defensive strength of Britain in his hand. But several of the Ministers and officials who formed that Council were members of our Executive, and our relations with the Government were already well defined and thoroughly harmonious. It was from the War Office that we received the bronze badge which was supplied to every sworn Citizen and bore our watchword—"For God, our Race, and Duty"; and the Government had given substantial aid in the matter of equipment and instruction.[345] But now John Crondall represented three million and a half of British men, all sworn to respond instantly to his call as President of the Executive. And every Citizen had some training—was then receiving some training.

When Crondall went to the famous Council at the War Office, he did so as the founder and representative of the most powerful organization ever known in England. He had no official status at the Council; he sat there as an unofficial commoner. Yet, in a way, he held the defensive strength of Britain in his hands. Many of the Ministers and officials at that Council were members of our Executive, and our relationship with the Government was already well established and completely harmonious. We received the bronze badge from the War Office, which was given to every sworn Citizen and carried our motto—"For God, our Race, and Duty"; and the Government provided significant support with equipment and training.[345] But now John Crondall represented three and a half million British men, all sworn to respond immediately to his call as President of the Executive. And every Citizen had some training—was currently receiving some training.

"The Canadian preachers waked and inspired the people; we swore them in," said John Crondall modestly. "Their worth is the faith in them, and their faith spells Duty. That's what makes The Citizens formidable."

"The Canadian preachers woke and inspired the people; we committed to them," said John Crondall modestly. "Their value is the faith we have in them, and that faith means Duty. That's what makes The Citizens powerful."

"The grace of God," Stairs called it; and so did many others.

"The grace of God," Stairs called it; and so did many others.

Crondall bowed to that, and added a line from his favourite poet: "Then it's the grace of God in those 'Who are neither children nor gods, but men in a world of men!'" he said.

Crondall agreed with that and quoted a line from his favorite poet: "Then it's the grace of God in those 'Who are neither children nor gods, but men in a world of men!'" he said.

No wise man has ever doubted, so far as I know, that simple piety, simple religion, "British Christianity," was the motive force at work behind the whole of the revival movement. Without that foundation, the enduring results achieved must have been impossible. But this was entirely unlike any previously known religious revival, in that it supplied no emotional food whatever. There was no room for sentimentality, still less for hysteria, in the acceptation of George Stairs's message from that "Stern Daughter of the Voice of God," whose name is Duty. Tears and protestations were neither sought nor found among converts to the faith which taught all to be up and doing in Duty's name.

No wise person has ever doubted, as far as I know, that genuine faith, straightforward religion, "British Christianity," was the driving force behind the entire revival movement. Without that foundation, the lasting results achieved would have been impossible. However, this was completely different from any previous religious revival, as it offered no emotional support whatsoever. There was no space for sentimentality, let alone hysteria, in the acceptance of George Stairs's message from that "Stern Daughter of the Voice of God," known as Duty. Tears and expressions of emotion were neither sought nor found among those who embraced the faith that encouraged everyone to take action in Duty's name.

From the records, I know that eight weeks passed after the famous Council at the War Office before[346] England spoke. When I say that during that time I acted as my chief's representative in controlling an office of over ninety clerks (all drilled men and fair shots), besides several times traversing the length and breadth of the kingdom on special missions, it will be understood that the period was to me a good deal more like eight days. During that time, too, I was able to help Constance Grey in her organization of the women helpers' branch of The Citizens, in which over nine thousand members were enrolled. Constance had an executive committee of twenty-five volunteer workers, who spent money and energy ungrudgingly in helping her.

From the records, I know that eight weeks passed after the famous Council at the War Office before [346] England spoke. When I say that during that time I acted as my chief's representative in managing an office with over ninety clerks (all skilled men and good marksmen), plus traveling across the country on special missions several times, it will be clear that those eight weeks felt more like eight days to me. During that time, I also helped Constance Grey with her organization of the women helpers' branch of The Citizens, which had over nine thousand members. Constance had an executive committee of twenty-five volunteers who generously contributed their time and resources to support her efforts.

We kept in close touch with the heads of provincial committees during the whole of that period, and several times we communicated by means of printed circular letters, franked gratis for us by the War Office, with every single Citizen.

We stayed in close contact with the heads of provincial committees throughout that time, and several times we reached out through printed circular letters, sent for free by the War Office, to every single Citizen.

Then came the day of the now historic telegram which the Post Office was authorized to transmit to every sworn Citizen in the kingdom:

Then came the day of the now historic telegram that the Post Office was authorized to send to every sworn Citizen in the kingdom:

"Be ready! 'For God, our Race, and Duty.'"

"Get ready! 'For God, our Nation, and Duty.'"

This was signed by John Crondall, and came after some days of detailed instruction and preparation.

This was signed by John Crondall, following several days of thorough instruction and preparation.

It has been urged by some writers that the Government was at fault in the matter of its famous declaration of war with Germany. It has been pointed out that for the sake of a point of etiquette, the Government had no right to yield a single advantage to an enemy whose conduct toward us had shown neither mercy nor courtesy. There is a good deal to be said for this criticism; but, when all is said and done, I[347] believe that every Englishman is glad at heart that our Government took this course. I believe it added strength to our fighting arm; I believe it added weight and consequence to the first blows struck.

It has been argued by some writers that the government messed up with its famous declaration of war against Germany. They've pointed out that, for the sake of a minor etiquette issue, the government shouldn’t have given any advantages to an enemy that had shown us neither mercy nor courtesy. There's a lot of merit to this criticism; however, when everything is considered, I[347] believe that every Englishman truly feels relieved that our government chose this path. I think it strengthened our military effort; I believe it gave more impact and significance to the first strikes made.

Be that as it may, there was no sign of hesitancy or weakness in the action of the Government when the declaration had once been made; and it speaks well for the deliberate thoroughness of all preparations that, twenty-four hours after the declaration, every one of the nine German garrisons in the kingdom was hemmed in by land and by sea. On the land side the Germans were besieged by more than three million armed men. Almost the whole strength of the British Navy was then concentrated upon the patrolling of our coasts generally, and the blockading of the German-garrisoned ports particularly. Thirty-six hours had not passed when the German battle-ships Hohenzollern and Kaiserin, and the cruisers Elbe and Deutschland, were totally destroyed off Portsmouth and Cardiff respectively; Britain's only loss at that time being the Corfe Castle, almost the smallest among the huge flotilla of armed merchantmen which had been subsidized and fitted out by the Government that year.

Be that as it may, there was no sign of hesitation or weakness in the Government's actions once the declaration was made; and it shows the careful thoroughness of all preparations that, twenty-four hours after the declaration, every one of the nine German garrisons in the kingdom was surrounded by land and sea. On the land side, the Germans were besieged by more than three million armed men. Almost the entire strength of the British Navy was focused on patrolling our coasts in general and blockading the German-held ports specifically. Not even thirty-six hours had passed when the German battleships Hohenzollern and Kaiserin, along with the cruisers Elbe and Deutschland, were completely destroyed off Portsmouth and Cardiff, respectively; Britain's only loss at that time was the Corfe Castle, which was almost the smallest among the large flotilla of armed merchant ships that had been subsidized and outfitted by the Government that year.

I believe all the authorities had admitted that, once it was known that our declaration had reached Berlin, the British tactics could not have been excelled for daring, promptitude, and devastating thoroughness. It is true that Masterman, in his well-known History of the War, urges that much loss of life might have been spared at Portsmouth and Devonport "if more deliberate and cautious tactics had[348] been adopted, and the British authorities had been content to achieve their ends a little less hurriedly." But Masterman is well answered by the passage in General Hatfield's Introduction to Low's important work, which tells us that:

I believe all the authorities agreed that, once it was known our declaration had reached Berlin, the British tactics couldn’t have been better in terms of boldness, speed, and thoroughness. It’s true that Masterman, in his famous History of the War, argues that many lives could have been saved at Portsmouth and Devonport "if a more deliberate and cautious approach had[348] been taken, and the British authorities had been willing to achieve their goals a bit more slowly." But Masterman is effectively countered by the section in General Hatfield's Introduction to Low's significant work, which states that:

"The British plan of campaign did not admit of leisurely tactics or great economy. Britain was striking a blow for freedom, for her very life. Failure would have meant no ordinary loss, but mere extinction. The loss of British life in such strongly armed centres as Portsmouth was very great. It was the price demanded by the immediate end of Britain's war policy, which was to bring the enemy to terms without the terrible risks which delay would have represented, for the outlying and comparatively defenceless portions of our own Empire. When the price is measured and analyzed in cold blood, the objective should be as carefully considered. The price may have been high; the result purchased was marvellous. It should be borne in mind, too, that Britain's military arm, while unquestionably long and strong (almost unmanageably so, perhaps), was chiefly composed of what, despite the excellent instructive routine of The Citizens, must, from the technical standpoint, be called raw levies. Yet that great citizen army, by reason of its fine patriotism, was able in less than one hundred hours from the time of the declaration, to defeat, disarm, and extinguish as a fighting force some three hundred thousand of the most perfectly trained troops in the world. That was the immediate objective of Britain's war policy; or, to be exact, the accomplishment of[349] that in one week was our object. It was done in four days; and, notwithstanding the unexpected turn of events afterwards, no military man will ever doubt that the achievement was worth the price paid. It strengthened Britain's hand as nothing else could have strengthened it. It gave us at the outset that unmistakable lead which, in war as in a race, is of incalculable value to its possessors."

"The British campaign plan didn’t allow for slow tactics or big savings. Britain was fighting for freedom, for its very survival. Failure would not just mean a normal loss, but total extinction. The casualties in well-fortified places like Portsmouth were very high. This was the price paid for the immediate goal of Britain’s war policy, which was to bring the enemy to submit without the severe risks that delays would have posed for the distant and relatively defenseless parts of our own Empire. When we evaluate the cost coldly, the goal should be just as carefully considered. The cost may have been steep; the outcome achieved was incredible. It’s also important to remember that Britain’s military force, while undeniably extensive and powerful (perhaps almost unmanageable), was mainly made up of what, despite the excellent training methods of The Citizens, must be technically referred to as inexperienced recruits. Yet this great citizen army, fueled by its impressive patriotism, was able to defeat, disarm, and eliminate around three hundred thousand of the best-trained troops in the world in less than a hundred hours from the declaration of war. That was the immediate goal of Britain’s war policy; to be precise, accomplishing that in one week was our aim. It was achieved in four days; and, despite the unexpected developments that followed, no military expert will ever doubt that the achievement was worth the cost. It strengthened Britain’s position in a way that nothing else could have. It gave us a crucial lead right from the start, which, in war as in a race, is of immeasurable value for those who hold it."

And, the General might have added, as so many other writers have, that no civilized and thinking men ever went more cheerfully and bravely to their deaths, or earned more gladly the eternal reward of Duty accomplished, than did The Citizens, the "raw levies," with their stiffening of regulars, who fell at Portsmouth and Devonport. They were not perfectly disciplined men, in the professional sense, or one must suppose they would have paid some heed to General Sir Robert Calder's repeated orders to retire. But they were British citizens of as fine a calibre as any Nelson or Wellington knew, and they carried the Sword of Duty that day into the camp of an enemy who, with all his skill, had not learned, till it was written in his blood for survivors to read, that England had awakened from her long sleep. For my part, if retrospective power were mine, I would not raise a finger to rob those stern converts of their glorious end.

And, the General might have added, like many other writers have, that no civilized and thoughtful men ever faced their deaths more courageously and willingly, or earned the eternal reward of Duty fulfilled more gladly, than the Citizens, the "raw levies," along with their backbone of regulars, who fell at Portsmouth and Devonport. They weren't perfectly trained soldiers, by the professional standard, or they would have listened to General Sir Robert Calder's repeated orders to retreat. But they were British citizens of as fine a quality as any Nelson or Wellington ever knew, and they carried the Sword of Duty that day into the enemy's camp who, despite all his skill, had not learned, until it was written in his blood for the survivors to understand, that England had awakened from her long slumber. For my part, if I had the power to look back, I wouldn’t do anything to take away from those brave souls their glorious end.

It is easy to be wise after the event, but no Government could have foretold the cynical policy adopted by Berlin. No one could have guessed that the German Government would have said, in effect, that it was perfectly indifferent to the fate of nearly three[350] hundred thousand of its own loyal subjects and defenders, and that Britain might starve or keep them at her own pleasure. After all, the flower of the German Army was in England, and only a Government to the last degree desperate, unscrupulous, and cynical could have adopted Germany's callous attitude at this juncture.

It’s easy to be wise after something happens, but no government could have predicted the ruthless policy taken by Berlin. No one could have imagined that the German government would essentially say it was completely indifferent to the fate of nearly three[350] hundred thousand of its own loyal subjects and defenders, and that Britain could either let them starve or keep them as it saw fit. After all, the best of the German Army was in England, and only a government that was extremely desperate, unscrupulous, and cynical could have taken Germany's heartless stance at this moment.

Britain's aim was not at all the annihilation of Germany, but the freeing of her own soil; and it was natural that our Government should have acted on the assumption that this could safely be demanded when we held a great German army captive, by way of hostage. The British aim was a sound one, and it was attained. That it did not bring about the results anticipated was due to no fault in our Government, nor even to any lack of foresight upon their part; but solely to the cynical rapacity of a ruler whose ambition had made him fey, or of a Court so far out of touch with the country which supported it as to have lost its sense of honour.

Britain's goal wasn't to completely destroy Germany, but to reclaim its own territory; it made sense for our Government to assume that we could safely demand this while we had a large German army captured as leverage. The British objective was a valid one, and it was achieved. The fact that it didn't lead to the expected outcomes wasn't because of any failure on the part of our Government or a lack of foresight; it was entirely due to the greedy nature of a ruler whose ambition had clouded his judgment or a Court so disconnected from the country that supported it that it had lost its sense of honor.

In the meantime, though saddled with a huge army of prisoners, and the poorer by her loss of eighteen thousand gallant citizens, Britain had freed her shores. In an even shorter time than was occupied over the invasion, the yoke of the invader had been torn in sunder, and not one armed enemy was left in England. And for our losses—the shedding of that British blood partook of the nature of a sacrament; it was life-giving. By that fiery jet we were baptized again. England had found herself. Once more His people had been found worthy to bear the Sword of the Lord. Britain that had slept, was wide-eyed and[351] fearless again, as in the glorious days which saw the rise of her Empire. Throughout the land one watchword ran: "For God, our Race, and Duty!" We had heard and answered to the poet's call:

In the meantime, even though burdened with a large army of prisoners and grieving the loss of eighteen thousand brave citizens, Britain had liberated her shores. In an even shorter time than it took for the invasion, the oppressor’s hold was broken, and not a single armed enemy remained in England. As for our losses—the shedding of that British blood felt almost sacred; it was life-giving. We were reborn through that fiery trial. England had discovered her spirit again. Once more, her people were deemed worthy to wield the Sword of the Lord. Britain, which had been asleep, was now alert and fearless again, just like in the glorious days that marked the rise of her Empire. Across the country, one rallying cry echoed: "For God, our Race, and Duty!" We had heard and responded to the poet's call:

Strike—for your altars and your fires; Strike—for the green graves of your ancestors;
God, and your homeland!

I find it easy to believe and read between the lines of the grim official record which told us that outside Portsmouth "white-haired men smiled over the graves of their sons, and armed youths were heard singing triumphant chants while burying their fathers."

I find it easy to believe and read between the lines of the grim official record that told us that outside Portsmouth, "gray-haired men smiled over the graves of their sons, and armed young men were heard singing triumphant songs while burying their fathers."

Meantime, simple folk in the southern country lanes of Dorset and of Hampshire (Tarn Regis yokels among them, no doubt) heard the dull, rumbling thunder of great guns at sea, and the talk ran on naval warfare.

Meantime, regular folks in the southern country lanes of Dorset and Hampshire (Tarn Regis locals among them, for sure) heard the low, rumbling thunder of big guns at sea, and the conversation shifted to naval warfare.


XV
"SINGLE HEART AND SINGLE SWORD"

Yes, even though we sinned—and our leaders strayed from what is right—
Even though we were deeply dishonorable, we stained the hem of our garments.

Hold onto the Faith—the Faith our ancestors passed down to us; Don't waste time with impractical dreams—too clever and too worn out. Unless you pay the Lord
Single heart and single sword,
He will ask your children in their bondage for a threefold account!
Rudyard Kipling.

The learned German, Professor Elberfeld, has told the world, in sentences of portentous length and complication, that "the petty trader's instincts which form the most typical characteristic of the British race" came notably to the fore in our treatment of the German prisoners of war who were held under military surveillance in the British ports which they had garrisoned.

The knowledgeable German, Professor Elberfeld, has informed the world, in long and complicated sentences, that "the minor trader's instincts, which are the most typical characteristic of the British race," became especially evident in how we treated the German prisoners of war who were kept under military watch in the British ports they had occupied.

The learned professor notes with bitter contempt that no wines, spirits, cigars, or "other customary delicacies" were supplied to our prisoners, and that the German officers received very little more than the rations served to their men. The professor makes no mention of one or two other pertinent facts in this connection; as, for example, that none of these "customary[353] delicacies" were supplied to the British troops. We may endure his reproaches with the more fortitude, I think, when we remember that the German Government absolutely ignored our invitation to send weekly shipments of supplies under a white flag for the towns they had garrisoned on British soil.

The knowledgeable professor expresses bitter disdain that our prisoners were given no wine, spirits, cigars, or "other usual treats," while German officers received only slightly better rations than their soldiers. The professor fails to mention a couple of other relevant points; for instance, that none of these "usual treats" were given to the British troops either. I think we can handle his criticisms with more resilience when we consider that the German Government completely disregarded our offer to send weekly shipments of supplies under a white flag for the towns they occupied on British territory.

It is known that the officers in command of the German forces in England had previously maintained a very lavish and luxurious scale of living; in the same way that, since the invasion of England, extravagance was said to have reached unparallelled heights in Germany itself. But the British Government which had reached depletion of our own supplies, by assisting our prisoners to maintain a luxurious scale of living while held as hostages, would certainly have forfeited the confidence of the public, and justly so. Upon the whole, it is safe to say that German sneers at British parsimony and Puritanism may fairly be accepted as tribute, and, as such, need in no sense be resented.

It’s clear that the officers in charge of the German forces in England had previously lived a very extravagant and luxurious lifestyle; similarly, since the invasion of England, it’s said that excess has reached unprecedented levels in Germany itself. However, the British Government, which had depleted its own resources, by allowing our prisoners to enjoy a lavish lifestyle while held as hostages, would certainly have lost the public's trust, and rightly so. Overall, it's safe to say that German mockery of British frugality and Puritan values can be seen as a form of respect, and therefore shouldn’t be taken negatively.

As soon as we received Germany's cynical reply to Britain's demand for a complete withdrawal of all the invasion claims, it became evident that the war was to be a prolonged and bitter one, and that no further purpose could be served by the original British plan of campaign, which, as its object had been the freeing of our own soil, had been based on the assumption that the defeat and capture of the invader's forces would be sufficient. Troops had to be despatched at once to South Africa, where German overlordship had aroused the combined opposition of the Boers and the British. This opposition burst at once into[354] open hostility immediately the news of England's declaration of war reached South Africa. While the Boers and the British, united in a common cause, were carrying war into German Southwest Africa, troops from German East Africa were said to have landed in Delagoa Bay, and to be advancing southward.

As soon as we received Germany's sarcastic response to Britain's demand for a complete withdrawal of all invasion claims, it became clear that the war would be long and intense. The original British campaign plan, which was aimed at reclaiming our territory, was based on the assumption that defeating and capturing the enemy's forces would be enough. We had to send troops immediately to South Africa, where German control had sparked a united opposition from both the Boers and the British. This opposition quickly turned into open conflict as soon as the news of England's declaration of war reached South Africa. While the Boers and the British joined forces to wage war against German Southwest Africa, it was reported that troops from German East Africa had landed in Delagoa Bay and were advancing southward.

In all this, the British cause was well served by Germany's initial blunder; by the huge mistake which cost her four-fifths of her naval strength at a blow. This mistake in Germany's policy was distinctly traceable to one cause: the national arrogance which, since the invasion, had approached near to madness; which had now led Germany into contemptuously underrating the striking power still remaining in the British Navy. It was true that, prior to the invasion, our Navy had been consistently starved and impoverished by "The Destroyers." It was that, of course, which had first earned them their title. But Germany herself, when she struck her great blow at England, hardly wounded the British Navy at all. Her cunning had drawn our ships into a Mediterranean impasse when they were sadly needed upon our coasts, and her strategy had actually destroyed one British line of battle-ship, one cruiser, and two gunboats. But that was the whole extent of the naval damage inflicted by her at the time of the invasion. But the lesson she gave at the same time was of incalculable value to us. The ships she destroyed had been manned by practically untrained, short-handed crews, hurriedly rushed out of Portsmouth barracks. Yet German arrogance positively inspired Berlin with the impression that the Navies of the two countries had[355] tried conclusions, and that our fleet had been proved practically ineffective.

In all this, the British cause benefited from Germany's early mistake; the huge error that cost her four-fifths of her naval strength in one blow. This blunder in Germany's strategy could be traced back to one reason: the national arrogance that had bordered on madness since the invasion. This attitude had led Germany to underestimate the remaining strength of the British Navy. It was true that, before the invasion, our Navy had been consistently neglected and weakened by "The Destroyers." That was, of course, what earned them their title. However, when Germany delivered her major strike against England, she hardly inflicted any damage on the British Navy at all. Her strategy managed to lure our ships into a Mediterranean deadlock when they were urgently needed along our coasts, and she actually destroyed one British battleship, one cruiser, and two gunboats. But that was the full extent of the naval damage caused by her at the time of the invasion. However, the lesson learned was immensely valuable to us. The ships she sank had been crewed by practically untrained, understaffed sailors, hastily sent out from Portsmouth barracks. Yet German arrogance led Berlin to believe that the navies of both countries had faced off, and that our fleet had been shown to be basically ineffective.

Prior to the invasion our Navy had indeed reached a low ebb. Living always in barracks, under the pernicious system gradually forced upon the country by "The Destroyers" in the name of economy, our bluejackets had fallen steadily from their one high standard of discipline and efficiency into an incompetent, sullen, half-mutinous state, due solely to the criminal parsimony and destructive neglect of an Administration which aimed at "peace at any price," and adopted, of all means, the measures most calculated to provoke foreign attack. But, since the invasion, an indescribable spirit of emulation, a veritable fury of endeavour, had welded the British fleet into a formidable state of efficiency.

Before the invasion, our Navy had really hit rock bottom. Always stuck living in barracks, under the harmful system gradually imposed on the country by "The Destroyers" in the name of saving money, our sailors had fallen from their previously high standards of discipline and efficiency into a state of incompetence, resentment, and near-mutiny, all because of the reckless stinginess and neglect of an Administration focused on achieving "peace at any price," which chose the most provocative actions likely to invite foreign attacks. However, since the invasion, an incredible spirit of competition and a genuine drive to succeed have transformed the British fleet into a powerful and efficient force.

First "The Destroyers," actuated by a combination of panic and remorse, and then the first Free Government, representing the convinced feeling of the public, had lavished liberality upon the Navy since the invasion. Increased pay, newly awakened patriotism, the general change in the spirit of the age, all had combined to fill the Admiralty recruiting offices with applicants. Almost all our ships had been kept practically continuously at sea. "The Destroyers'" murderous policy in naval matters had been completely reversed, and our fleet was served by a great flotilla of magnificently armed leviathans of the Mercantile Marine, including two of the fastest steamships in the world, all subsidized by Government.

First, "The Destroyers," motivated by a mix of panic and regret, and then the first Free Government, reflecting the strong sentiment of the public, had generously supported the Navy since the invasion. Increased pay, a newfound sense of patriotism, and a general shift in the spirit of the times all contributed to a surge of applicants at the Admiralty recruiting offices. Nearly all our ships had been kept almost continuously at sea. "The Destroyers'" aggressive policies in naval affairs had been completely overturned, and our fleet was now backed by a vast flotilla of well-armed giants from the Mercantile Marine, including two of the fastest steamships in the world, all funded by the Government.

We know now that exact official records of these[356] facts were filed in the Intelligence Department at Berlin. But German arrogance prohibited their right comprehension, and Britain's declaration of war was instantly followed by an Imperial order which, in effect, divided the available strength of the German Navy into eight fleets, and despatched these to eight of the nine British ports garrisoned by German troops, with orders of almost childish simplicity. These ports were to be taken, and British insurrection crushed, ashore and afloat.

We now know that accurate official records of these[356] facts were filed in the Intelligence Department in Berlin. However, German arrogance prevented a proper understanding, and Britain’s declaration of war was quickly followed by an Imperial order that effectively divided the available strength of the German Navy into eight fleets. These fleets were sent to eight of the nine British ports manned by German troops, with orders that were almost ridiculously simple. The goal was to seize these ports and suppress British uprisings, both on land and at sea.

If the German Navy had been free of its Imperial Commander-in-Chief, and of the insensate arrogance of his entourage, it could have struck a terrible blow at the British Empire, while almost the whole fighting strength of our Navy was concentrated upon the defence of England. As it was, this fine opportunity was flung aside, and with it the greater part of Germany's fleet. Divided into eight small squadrons, their ships were at the mercy of our concentrated striking force. Our men fell upon them with a Berserker fury born of humiliation silently endured, and followed by eight or nine months of the finest sort of sea-training which could possibly be devised.

If the German Navy had been independent from its Imperial Commander-in-Chief and the ridiculous arrogance of his team, it could have dealt a serious blow to the British Empire, especially while most of our naval strength was focused on defending England. Instead, this great opportunity was wasted, taking much of Germany's fleet with it. Divided into eight small squadrons, their ships were completely at the mercy of our concentrated attacking force. Our men charged at them with a fierce rage fueled by the humiliation they had quietly endured, along with eight or nine months of the best sea training that could be imagined.

The few crippled ships of the German fleet which survived those terrible North Sea and Channel engagements must have borne with them into their home waters a bitter lesson to the ruler whom they left, so far as effective striking power was concerned, without a Navy.

The few damaged ships of the German fleet that made it through those brutal North Sea and Channel battles must have brought back a harsh lesson to the leader they left behind, as far as actual military power was concerned, without a Navy.

Here, again, critics have said that our tactics showed an extravagant disregard of cost, both as to men and material. But here also the hostile critics[357] overlook various vital considerations. The destruction of Germany's sea-striking power at this juncture was worth literally anything that Britain could give; not perhaps in England's immediate interest, but in the interests of the Empire, without which England would occupy but a very insignificant place among the powers of civilization.

Here, again, critics have argued that our tactics displayed a reckless disregard for cost, in terms of both personnel and resources. However, these critical voices[357] overlook several important factors. The aim of destroying Germany's naval power at this moment was worth anything Britain could provide; not necessarily for England's immediate benefit, but for the sake of the Empire, without which England would hold a very minor position among the powers of civilization.

Then, too, the moral of our bluejackets has to be considered. Since the invasion and the sinking of the Dreadnought, ours had become a Navy of Berserkers. The Duty teaching, coming after the invasion, made running fire of our men's blood. They fought their ships as Nelson's men fought theirs, and with the same invincible success. It was said the Terrible's men positively courted the penalty of mutiny in time of war by refusing to turn in, in watches, after forty-two hours of continuous fighting. There remained work to be done, and the "Terribles" refused to leave it undone.

Then, there's also the attitude of our sailors to think about. After the invasion and the sinking of the Dreadnought, our Navy had turned into a group of warriors. The training on Duty that came after the invasion pumped adrenaline into our men. They fought their ships like Nelson's crew did, and with the same unbeatable success. It was said that the crew of the Terrible actually embraced the risk of mutiny during wartime by refusing to take breaks after forty-two hours of nonstop fighting. There was still work to be done, and the "Terribles" wouldn't let it go unfinished.

The commander who had lessened the weight of the blow struck by Britain's Navy, in the interests of prudence or economy, would have shown himself blind to the significance of the new spirit with which England's awakening had endowed her sons; the stern spirit of the twentieth-century faith which gave us for watchword, "For God, our Race, and Duty!"

The commander who had softened the impact of the attack by Britain's Navy, whether for reasons of caution or budget, would have revealed himself as unaware of the importance of the new energy with which England's revival had inspired her people; the strong spirit of the twentieth-century belief that gave us the motto, "For God, our Race, and Duty!"

With the major portion of our Navy still in fighting trim, and twenty-five-knot liners speeding southward laden with British troops, it speedily became evident that Germany's chance of landing further troops in South Africa was hardly worth serious consideration, now that her naval power was gone. On[358] the other hand, it was known that the enemy had already massed great bodies of troops in East and Southwest Africa, and it became the immediate business of the British Admiralty to see that German oversea communications should be cut off.

With most of our Navy still ready for battle and twenty-five-knot liners rushing south filled with British troops, it quickly became clear that Germany’s chances of landing more troops in South Africa were barely worth considering now that their naval strength was diminished. On[358] the flip side, it was known that the enemy had already gathered large groups of troops in East and Southwest Africa, so it became the top priority for the British Admiralty to ensure that German overseas communications were severed.

Further, we had to face ominous news of German preparations for aggression in the Pacific and in the near East, with persistent rumours of a hurriedly aggressive alliance with Russia for action in the Far East. The attitude of Berlin itself was amazingly cynical, as it had been from the very time of the unprovoked invasion of our shores. In effect, the Kaiser said:

Further, we had to deal with alarming news of German preparations for aggression in the Pacific and the Near East, along with ongoing rumors of a quickly formed aggressive alliance with Russia for action in the Far East. Berlin's stance was remarkably cynical, just as it had been since the unprovoked invasion of our shores. Essentially, the Kaiser said:

"You hold a German Army as prisoners of war, and you have destroyed my Navy; but you dare not invade my territory, and I defy you to hit upon any other means of enforcing your demands. You can do nothing further."

"You have captured a German Army as prisoners of war, and you’ve wrecked my Navy; but you don’t have the guts to invade my land, and I challenge you to come up with any other way to enforce your demands. You can’t do anything more."

The British demands, made directly the German troops in England were in our hands, were, briefly, for the complete withdrawal of the whole of claims enforced by Germany at the time of the invasion.

The British demands, made directly to the German troops while they were in our control in England, were, in short, for the total withdrawal of all claims imposed by Germany at the time of the invasion.

That, then, was the position when I returned to our London headquarters from a journey I had undertaken for my chief in connection with the work of drafting large numbers of Citizens back from the camps into private life. Various questions had to be placed in writing before every Citizen as to his attitude in the matter of possible future calls made upon his services. I had only heard of seven cases of men physically fit failing to express perfect readiness to respond to any future call for active service at home[359] or abroad, in case of British need. Here was a shield of which I knew both sides well. The thing impressed me more than I can tell, or most folk would understand nowadays. I knew so well how the god of business (which served to cover all individual pursuit of money or pleasure) would have been invoked to prove the utter impracticability of this—one short year before. I looked back toward my Fleet Street days, and I thanked God for the awakening of England, which had included my own awakening.

That was the situation when I got back to our London headquarters after a trip I took for my boss to handle the task of bringing a lot of Citizens back from the camps into everyday life. We had to put various questions in writing to each Citizen about their willingness to respond to any future calls for their services. I had only come across seven cases of men who were fit but didn’t express complete readiness to answer any future call for active service, whether at home[359] or abroad, in case Britain needed them. This was a situation I understood both sides of well. It impressed me more than I can explain, or most people would get nowadays. I recalled how the pursuit of business (which covered all individual quests for money or pleasure) would have been used to argue against this just one short year before. I reflected on my days in Fleet Street, and I thanked God for the awakening of England, which included my own awakening.

My return to London was a matter of considerable personal interest to me, for Constance Grey was there, having been recalled by John Crondall from her active superintendence of nursing at Portsmouth.

My return to London was very important to me because Constance Grey was there, having been called back by John Crondall from her active role in nursing at Portsmouth.


XVI
HANDS ACROSS THE SEA

There is a Pride whose Father is Understanding, whose Mother is Humility, whose Business is the Recognition and Discharge of Duty. That is the true Pride.—Merrow's Essays of the Time.

There is a pride that comes from understanding, with humility as its foundation, focused on recognizing and fulfilling duties. That is true pride.—Merrow's Essays of the Time.

I was impatient to reach London, but I should have been far more impatient if I had known that Constance Grey stood waiting to meet me on the arrival platform at Waterloo.

I was eager to get to London, but I would have been even more eager if I had known that Constance Grey was waiting to meet me on the arrival platform at Waterloo.

"They told me your train at the office," she said, as I took one of her hands in both of mine, "and I could not resist coming to give you the news. Don't say you have had it!"

"They told me about your train at the office," she said, as I took one of her hands in both of mine, "and I couldn't help but come to share the news with you. Please don't say you've missed it!"

"No," I told her. "My best news is that Constance has come to meet me, and that I am alive to appreciate the fact very keenly. Another trifling item is that, so far as I can tell, practically every member of The Citizens would respond to-morrow to a call for active service in Timbuctoo—if the call came. I tell you, Constance, this is not reform, it's revolution that has swept over England. We call our membership three and a half millions; it's fifty millions, really. They're all Citizens, every mother's son of them; and every daughter, too."

"No," I said to her. "The best news I have is that Constance has come to see me, and I'm very aware of how grateful I am to be alive. Another small detail is that, as far as I can tell, almost every member of The Citizens would answer a call for active duty in Timbuktu tomorrow—if the call was made. I tell you, Constance, this isn’t just reform; it’s a revolution that has swept across England. We claim to have three and a half million members; in reality, it’s fifty million. They’re all Citizens, every last one of them, and every daughter too."

We were in a cab now.

We were in a taxi now.

"But what about my news?" said Constance.[361]

"But what about my news?" Constance asked.[361]

"Yes, tell me, do. And isn't it magnificent about the Navy? How about those 'Terrible' fellows? Constance, do you realize how all this must strike a man who was scribbling and fiddling about disarmament a year ago? And do you realize who gave that man decent sanity?"

"Yes, go ahead and tell me. Isn't it amazing what the Navy is doing? What about those 'Terrible' guys? Constance, can you imagine how all of this must impact someone who was busy writing and messing around with disarmament just a year ago? And do you know who brought that person some common sense?"

"Hush! It wasn't a person, it was a force; it was the revolution that brought the change."

"Hush! It wasn't a person, it was a force; it was the revolution that brought the change."

"Ah, well, God bless you, Constance! I wish you'd give me the news."

"Well, God bless you, Constance! I wish you'd tell me the news."

"I will, directly you give me a chance to get in a word. Well, John is at Westminster, in consultation with the Foreign Office people, and nothing definite has been done yet; but the great point is, to my thinking, that the offer should ever have been made."

"I will, as soon as you give me a chance to speak. Well, John is at Westminster, meeting with the Foreign Office people, and nothing definite has been decided yet; but the main point, in my opinion, is that the offer should have been made at all."

"Why, Constance, whatever has bewitched you? I never knew you to begin at the end of a thing before."

"Why, Constance, what has you so enchanted? I’ve never seen you start at the end of something before."

And indeed it was unlike Constance Grey. She was in high spirits, and somehow this little touch of illogical weakness in her struck me as being very charming. She laughed, and said it was due to my persistent interruptions. And then she gave me the news.

And it really wasn't like Constance Grey. She was in great spirits, and somehow this little bit of illogical weakness in her seemed very charming to me. She laughed and said it was because of my constant interruptions. And then she shared the news with me.

"America has offered to join hands with us."

"America has offered to work together with us."

"Never!"

"Not a chance!"

"Yes. The most generous sort of defensive alliance, practically without conditions, and—'as long as Great Britain's present need endures.' Isn't it splendid? John Crondall regards it as the biggest thing that has happened; but he is all against accepting the offer."[362]

"Yes. It's the most generous kind of defense agreement, almost without conditions, and—'as long as Great Britain's current need lasts.' Isn't it great? John Crondall thinks it's the biggest thing to happen, but he's completely against accepting the offer."[362]

There had been vague rumours at the time of the invasion, and again, of a more pointed sort, when Britain declared war. But every one had said that the pro-German party and the ultra-American party were far too strong in the United States to permit of anything beyond expressions of good-will. But now, as I gathered from the copy of the Evening Standard which Constance gave me:

There were some unclear rumors during the invasion, and more specific ones when Britain declared war. But everyone said that the pro-German group and the extreme American group were too powerful in the United States to allow for anything more than good-will statements. But now, as I learned from the copy of the Evening Standard that Constance gave me:

"The heart of the American people has been deeply stirred by two considerations: Germany's unwarrantable insolence and arrogance, and Britain's magnificent display of patriotism, ashore and afloat, in fighting for her independence. The patriotic struggle for independence—that is what has moved the American people to forgetfulness of all jealousies and rivalries. The rather indiscreet efforts of the German sections of the American public have undoubtedly hastened this offer, and made it more generous and unqualified. The suggestion that any foreign people could hector them out of generosity to the nation from whose loins they sprang, finally decided the American public; and it is fair to say that the President's offer of alliance is an offer from the American people to the British people."

"The heart of the American people has been deeply affected by two main things: Germany's outrageous arrogance and Britain's amazing display of patriotism, both on land and at sea, in fighting for their independence. The patriotic struggle for independence has made the American people forget their jealousies and rivalries. The somewhat reckless actions of the German community in America have definitely pushed this offer along, making it more generous and straightforward. The idea that any foreign country could bully them out of their generosity toward the nation from which they came ultimately convinced the American public; and it’s fair to say that the President's offer of alliance is an offer from the American people to the British people."

"But how about the Monroe Doctrine?" I said to Constance, after running through the two-column telegram from Washington, of which this passage formed part.

"But what about the Monroe Doctrine?" I asked Constance, after reviewing the two-column telegram from Washington, of which this passage was a part.

"I don't know about that; but you see, Dick, this thing clearly comes from the American people, not her politicians and diplomatists only. That is what gives it its tremendous importance, I think."[363]

"I’m not sure about that; but you see, Dick, this really comes from the American people, not just their politicians and diplomats. That’s what makes it so significant, in my opinion."[363]

"Yes; to be sure. And why does John Crondall want the offer declined?"

"Of course. But why does John Crondall want the offer turned down?"

"Oh, he hadn't time to explain to me; but he said something about its being necessary for the new Britain to prove herself, first; our own unity and strength. 'We must prove our own Imperial British alliance first,' he said."

"Oh, he didn't have time to explain it to me; but he mentioned that it was important for the new Britain to establish itself first; our own unity and strength. 'We need to demonstrate our own Imperial British alliance first,' he said."

"I see; yes, I think I see that. But it is great news, as you say—great news."

"I get it; yeah, I think I get that. But it’s amazing news, like you said—amazing news."

How much John Crondall's view had to do with the Government's decision will never be known, but we know that England's deeply grateful Message pointed out that, in the opinion of his Majesty's Imperial Government, the most desirable basis for an alliance between two great nations was one of equality and mutual respect. While in the present case there could be nothing lacking in the affection and esteem in which Great Britain held the United States, yet the equality could hardly be held proven while the former Power was still at war with a nation which had invaded its territory. The Message expressed very feelingly the deep sense of grateful appreciation which animated his Majesty's Imperial Government and the British people, which would render unforgettable in this country the generous magnanimity of the American nation. And, finally, the Message expressed the hope, which was certainly felt by the entire public, that those happier circumstances which should equalize the footing of the two nations in the matter of an alliance would speedily come about.

How much John Crondall's opinion influenced the Government's decision will never be known, but we do know that England's deeply thankful message stated that, according to His Majesty's Imperial Government, the best foundation for an alliance between two great nations is based on equality and mutual respect. While Great Britain held the United States in high affection and esteem, it was difficult to prove equality while the former was still at war with a nation that had invaded its land. The message conveyed a heartfelt sense of grateful appreciation from His Majesty's Imperial Government and the British people, ensuring that the American nation's generous spirit would never be forgotten in this country. Finally, the message expressed a hope, widely shared by the public, that the more favorable circumstances needed to equalize the partnership of the two nations would soon come to pass.

To my thinking, our official records contain no document more moving or more worthy of a great[364] nation than that Message, which, as has so frequently been pointed out, was in actual truth a Message from the people of one nation to the people of another nation—from the heart of one country to the heart of another country. The Message of thanks, no less than the generous offer itself, was an assertion of blood-kinship, an appeal to first principles, a revelation of the underlying racial and traditional tie which binds two great peoples together through and beneath the whole stiff robe of artificial differences which separated them upon the surface and in the world's eyes.

In my opinion, our official records have no document that is more powerful or more deserving of a great[364] nation than that Message, which, as has often been noted, was truly a Message from the people of one nation to the people of another—from the heart of one country to the heart of another. The Message of thanks, just like the generous offer itself, was a declaration of shared heritage, an appeal to fundamental principles, a revelation of the deeper racial and traditional bond that connects two great peoples through and beneath all the superficial differences that separate them in the eyes of the world.

The offer stands for all time a monument to the frank generosity and humanity of the American people. And in the hearts of both peoples there is, in my belief, another monument to certain sturdy qualities which have gone to the making and cementing of the British Empire. The shape that monument takes is remembrance of the Message in which that kindly offer was for the time declined.

The offer is a lasting symbol of the genuine generosity and humanity of the American people. I believe there’s also a lasting tribute in the hearts of both nations to the strong qualities that have contributed to the creation and unity of the British Empire. That tribute is the memory of the Message in which that generous offer was temporarily rejected.

The declining of the American offer has been called the expression of a nation's pride. It was that, incidentally. First and foremost—and this, I think, is the point which should never be forgotten—it was the expression of a nation's true humility. Pride we had always with us in England, of the right sort and the wrong sort; of the sort that adds to a people's stature, and sometimes, of late, of the gross and senseless sort that leads a people into decadence. But in the past year we had learned to know and cherish that true pride which has its foundations in the rock of Duty, and is buttressed all about and crowned by[365] that quality which St. Peter said earned the grace of God—humility.

The decline of the American offer has been seen as a sign of national pride. It was, in a way. But more importantly—and this is a point that should never be overlooked—it was a true expression of a nation's humility. In England, we have always had pride, both the good kind and the bad kind; the kind that elevates a people's standing and, more recently, the kind that drags a people down into decay. However, over the past year, we have come to understand and value the true pride that is built on the solid foundation of Duty, surrounded and crowned by[365] that quality which St. Peter said earned God's grace—humility.

For my part, I see in that Message the ripe fruit of the Canadian preachers' teaching; the crux and essence of the simple faith which came to be called "British Christianity." I think the spirit of it was the spirit of the general revival in England that came to us with the Canadian preachers; even as so much other help, spiritual and material, came to us from our kinsmen of the greater Britain overseas, which, before that time, we had never truly recognized as actually part, and by far the greater part, of our State.

For my part, I see that message as the result of the teachings of Canadian preachers; the core and essence of the simple faith that became known as "British Christianity." I believe its spirit embodied the broader revival in England that arrived with the Canadian preachers; just like so much other help, both spiritual and material, that came to us from our relatives in Greater Britain across the ocean, which before that time, we had never fully acknowledged as being truly part, and by far the larger part, of our State.


XVII
THE PENALTY

We can’t all be leaders, nor can all leaders be masters. Cannot be genuinely followed.
Othello.

It would be distinctly a work of supererogation for me to attempt to tell the story of the Anglo-German war—of all modern wars the most remarkable in some ways, and certainly the war which has been most exhaustively treated by modern historians. A. Low says in the concluding chapter of his fine history:

It would definitely be an extra effort for me to try to tell the story of the Anglo-German war—of all modern wars, the most remarkable in some ways, and certainly the war that has been most thoroughly examined by contemporary historians. A. Low states in the concluding chapter of his excellent history:

"Putting aside the fighting in South Africa, and after the initial destruction of both the German Navy and its Army in England (as effective forces), we must revert to the wars of more than a century ago to find parallels for this remarkable conflict. There can be no doubt that at the time of the invasion of England Germany's effective fighting strength was enormous. Its growth had been very rapid; its decline must be dated from General von Füchter's occupation of London on Black Saturday.

"Putting aside the fighting in South Africa, and after the initial destruction of both the German Navy and its Army in England (as effective forces), we must look back to the wars from over a century ago to find parallels for this remarkable conflict. There’s no doubt that at the time of the invasion of England, Germany’s effective fighting strength was massive. Its growth had been very rapid; its decline can be traced back to General von Füchter's occupation of London on Black Saturday."

"At that moment everything appeared to bode well for the realization of the Emperor's ambition to be Dictator of Europe, as the ruler of by far the greatest Power in the Old World. From that moment the German people, but more particularly the German[367] official and governing class, and her naval and military men, would appear to have imbibed of some distillation of their Emperor's exaggerated pride, and found it too heady an elixir for their sanity. It would ill become us to dilate at length upon the extremes into which their arrogance and luxuriousness led them. With regard, at all events, to the luxury and indulgence, we ourselves had been very far from guiltless. But it may be that our extravagance was less deadly, for the reason that it was of slower growth. Certain it is, that before ever an English shot was fired the fighting strength of Germany waned rapidly from the period of the invasion. By some writers this has been attributed to the insidious spread of Socialism. But it must be remembered that the deterioration was far more notable in the higher than in the lower walks of life; and most of all it was notable among the naval and military official nobility, who swore loudest by lineage and the divine privileges of ancient pedigrees.

"At that moment, everything seemed to point toward the Emperor's ambition to become the Dictator of Europe, as the leader of the greatest power in the Old World. From that moment on, the German people, especially the German official and ruling class, as well as their naval and military leaders, seemed to have absorbed some essence of their Emperor's inflated pride, and found it to be a dangerously intoxicating mix for their sanity. It wouldn't be fitting for us to elaborate extensively on the extremes their arrogance and luxury led them to. In terms of luxury and indulgence, we ourselves were not without fault. However, it might be that our excesses were less harmful because they developed more gradually. Certainly, before any English shot was fired, Germany's fighting strength rapidly declined following the invasion. Some writers have attributed this to the stealthy spread of Socialism. But it should be noted that the decline was far more pronounced among the upper classes than in the lower ones; most conspicuously, it was evident among the naval and military elite, who were the loudest in their loyalty to lineage and the supposed divine rights of ancient heritage."

"When the German army of occupation in England was disarmed, prisoners in barracks and camps, and the German Navy had, to all intents and purposes, been destroyed, the Imperial German Government adopted the extraordinary course of simply defying England to strike further blows. Germany practically ceased to fight (no reinforcements were ever landed in South Africa, and the German troops already engaged there had no other choice than to continue fighting, though left entirely without Imperial backing), but emphatically refused to consider the extremely moderate terms offered by Britain,[368] which, at that time, did not even include an indemnity. But this extraordinary policy was not so purely callous and cynical as was supposed. Like most things in this world, it had its different component parts. There was the cynical arrogance of the Prussian Court upon the one side; but upon the other side there was the ominous disaffection of the lesser German States, and the rampant, angry Socialism of the lower and middle classes throughout the Empire, which had become steadily more and more virulent from the time of the reactionary elections of the early part of 1907, in which the Socialists felt that they had been tricked by the Court party. In reality Germany had two mouthpieces. The Court defied Britain; the people refused to back that defiance with action."

"When the German army occupying England was disarmed, the prisoners in barracks and camps, and the German Navy had, for all practical purposes, been destroyed, the Imperial German Government took the unusual step of openly challenging England to take further action. Germany essentially stopped fighting (no reinforcements were ever sent to South Africa, and the German troops already there had no choice but to keep fighting, completely unsupported by the Empire), but strongly refused to consider the very moderate terms offered by Britain,[368] which at that time didn't even include any compensation. However, this unusual policy wasn't as heartless and cynical as it might have seemed. Like most things, it had various underlying factors. On one side was the cynical arrogance of the Prussian Court; on the other, there was the troubling discontent from the smaller German States and the growing, angry Socialism among the lower and middle classes throughout the Empire, which had become increasingly intense since the reactionary elections in early 1907, where the Socialists felt tricked by the Court party. In reality, Germany had two voices. The Court defied Britain; the people refused to support that defiance with action."

For a brief summary of the causes leading up to the strange half-year which followed our receipt of the American offer of assistance, I think we have nothing more lucid than this passage of Low's important work. That the forces at work in Germany, which he described from the vantage-point of a later date, were pretty clearly understood, even at that time, by our Government, is proved, I think, by the tactics we adopted throughout that troublous period.

For a quick overview of the reasons behind the unusual six months that followed our acceptance of the American offer for help, I believe we can't find anything clearer than this excerpt from Low's significant work. The factors at play in Germany, which he talked about from a later perspective, were pretty well understood by our Government even then, which I think is evident from the strategies we employed during that challenging time.

In South Africa our troops, though amply strong, never adopted an aggressive line. They defended our frontiers, and that defence led to some heavy fighting. But, after the first outbreak of hostilities, our men never carried the war into the enemy's camp. There was a considerable party in the House of Commons which favoured an actively aggressive policy in the[369] matter of seizing the Mediterranean strongholds ceded to Germany at the time of the invasion. It was even suggested that we should land a great Citizen army in Germany and enforce our demands at the point of the sword.

In South Africa, our troops, while sufficiently strong, never took an aggressive stance. They defended our borders, and that defense resulted in some intense fighting. However, after the initial outbreak of conflict, our soldiers never took the fight to the enemy's territory. There was a significant group in the House of Commons that supported a more aggressive approach regarding the seizing of the Mediterranean strongholds that Germany received during the invasion. It was even proposed that we should send a large citizen army into Germany and force our demands through military action.

In this John Crondall rendered good service to the Government by absolutely refusing to allow his name to be used in calling out The Citizens for such a purpose. But, in any case, wiser counsels prevailed without much difficulty. There was never any real danger of our returning to the bad old days of a divided Parliament. The gospel of Duty taught by the Canadian preachers, and the stern sentiment behind The Citizens' watchword, had far too strong a hold upon the country for that.

In this situation, John Crondall did a great job for the Government by completely refusing to let his name be used to mobilize The Citizens for such a task. However, wiser minds quickly took over without much hassle. There was never any real threat of going back to the bad old days of a divided Parliament. The message of Duty preached by Canadian leaders and the strong sentiment behind The Citizens' motto had too much influence on the country for that to happen.

Accordingly, the Government policy had free play. No other policy could have been more effective, more humane, or more truly direct and economical. In effect, the outworking of it meant a strictly defensive attitude in Africa, and in the north a naval siege of Germany.

Accordingly, the government policy had free reign. No other approach could have been more effective, more humane, or more genuinely direct and cost-effective. Essentially, the outcome of it meant a strictly defensive stance in Africa, and in the north, a naval blockade of Germany.

Germany had no Navy to attack, and, because they believed England would never risk landing an army in Germany, the purblind camarilla who stood between the Emperor's arrogance and the realities of life assumed that England would be powerless to carry hostilities further. Or if the Imperial Court did not actually believe this, it was ostensibly the Government theory, the poor sop they flung to a disaffected people while filling their official organs with news of wonderful successes achieved by the German forces in South Africa.[370]

Germany didn't have a navy to launch an attack, and since they thought England would never risk sending an army to Germany, the short-sighted clique that separated the Emperor's arrogance from reality assumed that England would be unable to escalate the conflict. Even if the Imperial Court didn’t truly believe this, it was the official government stance, the flimsy excuse they offered to a dissatisfied public while inundating their official channels with reports of the amazing victories achieved by German forces in South Africa.[370]

But within three months our Navy had taught the German people that the truth lay in quite another direction. The whole strength of the British Navy which could be spared from southern and eastern bases was concentrated now upon the task of blocking Germany's oversea trade. Practically no loss of life was involved, but day by day the ocean-going vessels of Germany's mercantile marine were being transferred to the British flag. The great oversea carrying trade, whose growth had been the pride of Germany, was absolutely and wholly destroyed during that half-year. The destruction of her export trade spelt ruin for Germany's most important industries; but it was the cutting off of her imports which finally robbed even the German Emperor of the power to shut his eyes any longer to the fact that his Empire had in reality ceased to exist.

But within three months, our Navy had shown the German people that the truth was quite different. The entire strength of the British Navy that could be spared from southern and eastern bases was now focused on blocking Germany's overseas trade. There was practically no loss of life involved, but day by day, Germany's ocean-going vessels were being transferred to the British flag. The vast overseas carrying trade, which had been Germany's pride, was completely and utterly destroyed during that half-year. The destruction of her export trade spelled disaster for Germany's most important industries; however, it was the cutting off of her imports that ultimately stripped even the German Emperor of the ability to ignore the reality that his Empire had effectively ceased to exist.

The actual overthrow of monarchical government in Prussia was not accomplished without scenes of excess and violence in the capital. But, in justice to the German people as a whole, it should be remembered that the revolution was carried out at remarkably small cost; that the people displayed wonderful patience and self-control, in circumstances of maddening difficulty, which were aggravated at every turn by the Emperor's arbitrary edicts and arrogant obtrusion of his personal will, and by the insolence of the official class. One must remember that for several decades Germany had been essentially an industrial country, and that a very large proportion of her population were at once strongly imbued with Socialistic theories, and wholly dependent upon industrial[371] activity. Bearing these things in mind, one is moved to wonder that the German people could have endured so long as they did the practically despotic sway of a Ruler who, in the gratification of his own insensate pride, allowed their country to be laid waste by the stoppage of trade, and their homes to be devastated by the famine of an unemployed people whose communications with the rest of the world were completely severed.

The actual overthrow of the monarchy in Prussia wasn't without scenes of excess and violence in the capital. However, it's important to acknowledge that the revolution was achieved at a remarkably low cost; the people showed incredible patience and self-control in extremely difficult circumstances, which were made worse by the Emperor's arbitrary decrees and his insistence on imposing his personal will, as well as the arrogance of the officials. One must remember that for several decades, Germany had been primarily an industrial nation, and a large portion of its population was both strongly influenced by socialist ideas and completely dependent on industrial activity. Keeping this in mind, it's surprising that the German people were able to endure the nearly despotic rule of a leader who, in his own senseless pride, allowed their country to be devastated by disrupted trade and their homes to suffer due to the famine affecting the unemployed, whose connections to the rest of the world were completely cut off.

That such a ruler and such a Court should have met with no worse fate than deposition, exile, and dispersal is something of a tribute to the temperate character of the Teutonic race. Bavaria, Württemberg, Saxony, and the southern Grand Duchies elected to retain their independent forms of government under hereditary rule; and to this no objection was raised by the new Prussian Republic, in which all but one of the northern principalities were incorporated.

That a ruler and a court like this faced no worse outcome than being removed from power, exiled, and scattered is a bit of a testament to the moderate nature of the Teutonic people. Bavaria, Württemberg, Saxony, and the southern Grand Duchies chose to keep their independent governments under hereditary rule; and the new Prussian Republic, which incorporated almost all of the northern principalities, raised no objections to this.

Within, forty-eight hours of the election of Dr. Carl Möller to the Presidency of the new Republic, hostilities ceased between Great Britain and Germany, and three weeks later the Peace was signed in London and Berlin. Even hostile critics have admitted that the British terms were not ungenerous. The war was the result of Germany's unprovoked invasion of our shores. The British terms were, in lieu of indemnity, the cession of all German possessions in the African continent to the British Crown, unreservedly. For the rest, Britain demanded no more than a complete and unqualified withdrawal of all German claims and pretensions in the matter of the Peace terms enforced[372] after the invasion by General Baron von Füchter, including, of course, the immediate evacuation of all those points of British territory which had been claimed in the invasion treaty, an instrument now null and void.

Within forty-eight hours of Dr. Carl Möller's election as President of the new Republic, fighting stopped between Great Britain and Germany, and three weeks later, peace was signed in London and Berlin. Even critics who were initially hostile acknowledged that the British terms were quite fair. The war was sparked by Germany's unprovoked invasion of our shores. The British terms required, instead of compensation, that all German territories in Africa be ceded unconditionally to the British Crown. Additionally, Britain demanded nothing more than a complete and unconditional withdrawal of all German claims and pretensions regarding the peace terms that were imposed after the invasion by General Baron von Füchter, which included the immediate evacuation of all British territories claimed in the invasion treaty, an agreement that is now considered null and void.

The new Republic was well advised in its grateful acceptance of these terms, for they involved no monetary outlay, and offered no obstacle to the new Government's task of restoration. At that early stage, at all events, the Prussian Republic had no colonial ambitions, and needed all its straitened financial resources for the rehabilitation of its home life. (In the twelve months following the declaration of war between Great Britain and Germany, the number of Germans who emigrated reached the amazing total of 1,134,378.)

The new Republic made a wise decision in gratefully accepting these terms, as they required no financial expenditure and posed no hindrance to the Government's task of rebuilding. At that early point, the Prussian Republic had no colonial ambitions and needed all its limited financial resources for improving life at home. (In the twelve months following the declaration of war between Great Britain and Germany, the number of Germans who emigrated reached an astonishing total of 1,134,378.)

To me, one of the most interesting and significant features of the actual conclusion of the Peace—which added just over one million square miles to Britain's African possessions, and left the Empire, in certain vital respects, infinitely richer and more powerful than ever before in its history—is not so much as mentioned in any history of the war I have ever read, though it did figure, modestly, in the report of the Commissioner of Police for that year. As a sidelight upon the development of our national character since the arrival of the Canadian preachers and the organization of The Citizens, this one brief passage in an official record is to my mind more luminous than anything I could possibly say, and far more precious than the fact of our territorial acquisitions:

To me, one of the most interesting and significant aspects of the Peace's actual conclusion—which added just over one million square miles to Britain's African territories, leaving the Empire, in some crucial ways, incredibly richer and more powerful than ever before—is hardly mentioned in any war history I’ve read, although it was noted, albeit modestly, in that year's report from the Commissioner of Police. As a reflection of the development of our national character since the arrival of the Canadian preachers and the formation of The Citizens, this brief passage in an official record is, in my opinion, more illuminating than anything I could possibly express, and far more valuable than our territorial gains:

"The news of the signature of the Peace was published[373] in the early editions of the evening papers on Saturday, 11 March. Returns show that the custom of the public-houses and places of entertainment during the remainder of that day was 37½ per cent. below the average Saturday returns. Divisional reports show that the streets were more empty of traffic, both vehicular and pedestrian, than on any ordinary week-day. Police-court cases on the following Monday were 28½ per cent. below the average, and included, in the metropolitan area, only five cases of drunkenness or disorderly conduct. All reports indicate the prevalence throughout the metropolitan area of private indoor celebrations of the Peace. All London churches and chapels held Thanksgiving Services on Sunday, 12 March, and the attendances were abnormally large."

"The news of the signing of the Peace was published[373] in the early editions of the evening papers on Saturday, March 11. Reports indicate that the activity in pubs and entertainment venues that day was 37½ percent below the usual Saturday figures. Divisional reports show that the streets were less crowded with both vehicles and pedestrians than on any regular weekday. The number of police-court cases on the following Monday was 28½ percent below average, and in the metropolitan area, there were only five cases of drunkenness or disorderly conduct. All reports suggest there were many private indoor celebrations of the Peace across the metropolitan area. All London churches and chapels held Thanksgiving Services on Sunday, March 12, and attendance was unusually high."

Withal, I am certain that the people of London had never before during my life experienced a deeper sense of gladness, a more general consciousness of rejoicing. Not for nothing has "British Christianity" earned its Parisian name of "New Century Puritanism." As the President of the French Republic said in his recent speech at Lyons: "It is the 'New Century Puritanism' which leads the new century's civilization, and maintains the world's peace."

With that, I am sure that the people of London have never before in my lifetime felt a deeper sense of happiness or a broader awareness of joy. It's no coincidence that "British Christianity" has earned the Parisian nickname of "New Century Puritanism." As the President of the French Republic mentioned in his recent speech in Lyon: "It is the 'New Century Puritanism' that guides the new century's civilization and keeps the world's peace."


XVIII
THE PEACE

Our future looks bright—how wonderful is our legacy!
(Humble yourselves, my people, and be cautious in your joy!)
For our Lord God Most High He has made the deep dry,
He has created a path for us to the ends of the earth.
Rudyard Kipling.

At a very early stage of the war with Germany, before the end of the first month, in fact, it became evident that, our own soil having once been freed, this was to be a maritime and not a land war. A little later on it was made quite clear that there would be no need to draw further upon our huge reserve force of Citizen defenders. It was then that John Crondall concentrated his efforts upon giving permanent national effect to our work of the previous year.

At a very early stage of the war with Germany, before the end of the first month, in fact, it became clear that, now that our soil had been cleared, this would be a maritime and not a land war. A little later, it became obvious that there would be no need to rely further on our large reserve force of Citizen defenders. It was then that John Crondall focused his efforts on establishing lasting national significance for our work from the previous year.

Fortunately, the Government recognized that it would be an act of criminal wastefulness and extravagance to allow so splendid a defensive organization as ours to lapse because its immediate purpose had been served. Accordingly, special legislation, which was to have been postponed for another session, was now hurried forward; and long before the German Revolution and the conclusion of the Peace, England[375] was secure in the possession of that permanent organization of home defence which, humanly speaking, has made these shores positively impregnable, by converting Great Britain, the metropolis and centre of the Empire, into a nation in arms. There is no need for me to enlarge now upon the other benefits, the mental, moral, and physical advancement which this legislation has given us. Our doctors and schoolmasters and clergymen have given us full and ample testimony upon these points.

Fortunately, the government recognized that it would be a huge waste and extravagance to let such a fantastic defensive organization as ours fall apart just because its immediate goal had been met. So, special legislation that was supposed to be delayed for another session was fast-tracked; and long before the German Revolution and the end of the Peace, England[375] was secured with a permanent home defense organization that, realistically speaking, has made our shores nearly invulnerable, turning Great Britain, the heart and center of the Empire, into a nation ready to defend itself. There’s no need for me to elaborate on the other benefits, the mental, moral, and physical progress this legislation has provided us. Our doctors, teachers, and clergy have provided plenty of evidence on these matters.

Prior to the passing of the National Defence Act, which guaranteed military training as a part of the education of every healthy male subject, the great majority of The Citizens had returned to private life. Yet, with the exception of some few hundreds of special cases, every one of The Citizens remained members of the organization. And it was that fact which provided incessant employment, not alone for John Crondall and myself, and our headquarters staff, during the progress of the war, but for our committees throughout the country.

Before the National Defence Act was passed, which ensured that every healthy male citizen would receive military training as part of their education, the vast majority of The Citizens had gone back to civilian life. Still, with a few hundred exceptions, every one of The Citizens stayed a member of the organization. This was the reason there was constant work, not just for John Crondall, myself, and our headquarters staff during the war, but also for our committees across the country.

Before reëntering private life, every Citizen was personally interviewed and given the opportunity of being resworn under conditions of permanent membership. The new conditions applied only to home defence, but they included specific adherence to our propaganda for the maintenance of universal military training. They included also a definite undertaking upon the part of every Citizen to further our ends to the utmost of his ability, and, irrespective of State legislation, to secure military training for his own sons, and to abide by The Citizens' Executive in whatever[376] steps it should take toward linking up our organization, under Government supervision, with the regular national defence force of the country.

Before going back to private life, every Citizen had a personal interview and was given the chance to take a new oath under the terms of permanent membership. The new terms applied only to home defense but included a specific commitment to support our campaign for universal military training. They also required every Citizen to do everything possible to promote our goals, and regardless of state laws, ensure military training for his own sons, and to follow The Citizens' Executive in any steps it takes to connect our organization, under government supervision, with the regular national defense force of the country.

It should be easy to understand that this process involved a great deal of work. But it was work that was triumphantly rewarded, for, upon the passage into law of the Imperial Defence Act, which superseded the National Defence Act, after the peace had been signed, we were able to present the Government with a nucleus consisting of a compact working organization of more than three million British Citizens. These Citizens were men who had undergone training and seen active service. They were sworn supporters of universal military training, and of a minimum of military service as a qualification for the suffrage.

It should be clear that this process required a lot of effort. However, it was effort that paid off, because when the Imperial Defence Act was passed, replacing the National Defence Act after peace was agreed, we were able to provide the Government with a core group made up of a solid organization of over three million British Citizens. These Citizens were men who had received training and had experienced active service. They were dedicated supporters of universal military training and believed that a minimum length of military service should be a requirement for voting rights.

All political writers have agreed that the knowledge of what was taking place in England, with regard to our organization, greatly strengthened the hands of the Imperial Parliament in its difficult task of framing and placing upon the Statute Book those two great measures which have remained the basis of politics and defence throughout the Empire: the Imperial Defence Act and the Imperial Parliamentary Representation Act. At the time there were not wanting critics who held that a short reign of peace would bring opposition to legislation born of a state of war; but if I remember rightly we heard the last of that particular order of criticism within twelve months of the peace, it being realized once and for all then, that the maintenance of an adequate defence system was to be regarded, not so much as a preparation for[377] possible war, as the one and only means of preventing war.

All political writers agree that understanding what was happening in England regarding our organization significantly strengthened the Imperial Parliament as it worked to draft and enact two major laws that have been the foundation of politics and defense across the Empire: the Imperial Defence Act and the Imperial Parliamentary Representation Act. At that time, some critics believed that a brief period of peace would lead to opposition against legislation created during wartime. However, if I remember correctly, we heard the last of that type of criticism within a year after the peace, as it became clear that maintaining a proper defense system should be viewed not just as preparation for a possible war, but as the only way to prevent war.

Constance Grey worked steadily throughout the progress of the war, and it was owing almost entirely to her efforts that the Volunteer Nursing Corps, which she had organized under Citizens' auspices, was placed on a permanent footing. Admirable though this organization was as a nursing corps, its actual value to the nation went far beyond the limits of its nominal scope. By her tireless activity, and as a result of her own personal enthusiasm, Constance was able before the end of the war to establish branches of her corps in every part of the country, with a committee and headquarters in all large centres. Meetings were held regularly at all these headquarters, every one of which was visited in turn by Constance herself; and in the end The Citizens' Nursing Corps, as this great league of Englishwomen was always called, became a very potent force, an inexhaustible spring of what the Prime Minister called "the domestic patriotism of Britain."

Constance Grey worked tirelessly throughout the war, and it was mainly due to her efforts that the Volunteer Nursing Corps, which she organized under Citizens' oversight, was established on a permanent basis. While this organization was commendable as a nursing corps, its true value to the nation extended well beyond its stated purpose. Through her relentless dedication and personal enthusiasm, Constance was able to set up branches of her corps across the country before the war ended, with committees and headquarters in all major cities. Regular meetings were held at each of these headquarters, all of which were visited by Constance herself in rotation; ultimately, The Citizens' Nursing Corps, as this large network of Englishwomen was always known, became a powerful force, an endless source of what the Prime Minister referred to as "the domestic patriotism of Britain."

In the earliest stage of this work of hers Constance had to cope with a certain inertia on the part of her supporters, due to the fact that no active service offered to maintain their enthusiasm. But Constance's watchword was, "Win mothers and sisters, and the fathers and brothers cannot fail you." It was in that belief that she acted, and before long the Nursing Corps might with equal justice have been called The Women Citizens. It became a great league of domestic patriots, and it would not be easy[378] to overstate the value of its influence upon the rising generation of our race.

In the earliest stage of her work, Constance had to deal with some indifference from her supporters because there was no ongoing activity to keep their enthusiasm alive. But Constance's motto was, "Win over the mothers and sisters, and the fathers and brothers will follow." It was with this belief that she acted, and soon enough, the Nursing Corps could just as easily have been called The Women Citizens. It became a powerful group of committed patriots, and it wouldn’t be easy[378] to overstate how much it influenced the upcoming generation of our people.

War has always been associated in men's minds with distress and want, and that with some reason. But after the first few months of the Anglo-German war it became more and more clearly apparent that this war, combined with the outworking of the first legislation of the Imperial Parliament, was to produce the greatest commercial revival, the greatest access of working prosperity, Britain had ever known. Two main causes were at work here; and the first of them, undoubtedly, was the protection afforded to our industries by Imperial preference. The time for tinkering with half-measures had gone by, and, accordingly, the fiscal belt with which the first really Imperial Parliament girdled the Empire was made broad and strong. The effect of its application was gradual, but unmistakable; its benefits grew daily more apparent as the end of the war approached.

War has always been linked in people's minds to suffering and scarcity, and there's some truth to that. However, after the initial months of the Anglo-German war, it became increasingly clear that this conflict, along with the implementation of the first laws from the Imperial Parliament, would lead to the biggest commercial revival and the greatest boost in working prosperity that Britain had ever experienced. Two main factors contributed to this; the first was definitely the protection our industries received through Imperial preference. The time for half-hearted measures had passed, so the fiscal framework that the first truly Imperial Parliament established for the Empire was made broad and strong. The impact of its implementation was gradual but unmistakable; its advantages became more obvious as the end of the war neared.

Factories and mills which had long lain idle in the North of England were hastily refitted, and they added every day to the muster-roll of hands employed. Our shipping increased by leaps and bounds, but even then barely kept pace with the increased rate of production. The price of the quartern loaf rose to sixpence, in place of fivepence; but the wages of labourers on the land rose by nearly 25 per cent., and the demand exceeded the supply. Thousands of acres of unprofitable grass-land and of quite idle land disappeared under the plough to make way for corn-fields. Wages rose in all classes of work; but that was not of itself the most important advance.[379] The momentous change was in the demand for labour of every kind. The statistics prove that while wages in all trades showed an average increase of 19½ per cent., unemployment fell during the year of the Peace to a lower level than it had ever reached since records were instituted.

Factories and mills that had been sitting unused in the North of England were quickly updated, and every day more workers were added to the payroll. Our shipping grew rapidly, but even then it barely kept up with the rising production rates. The price of a loaf of bread went up to sixpence from fivepence, but the wages for farm laborers increased by nearly 25%, and demand outstripped supply. Thousands of acres of unproductive grassland and completely idle land were turned into corn fields. Wages rose in all types of jobs, but that wasn't the most significant change. The crucial development was the rising demand for all kinds of labor. Statistics show that while wages in all industries had an average increase of 19½ percent, unemployment dropped to its lowest level ever recorded during the year of Peace.[379]

In that year the cost of living among working people was 5½ per cent. higher than it had been five years previously. The total working earnings for the year were 38½ per cent. greater than in any previous year. Since then, as we know, expenditure has fallen considerably; but wages have never fallen, and the total earnings of our people are still on the up grade.

In that year, the cost of living for working people was 5.5% higher than it had been five years earlier. The total earnings for the year were 38.5% greater than in any previous year. Since then, as we know, spending has dropped significantly; but wages have never decreased, and the total earnings of our people are still increasing.

Another cause of the unprecedented access of prosperity which changed the face of industrial and agricultural England, was the fact that some seven-tenths of the trade lost by Germany was now not only carried in British ships, but held entirely in British hands. Germany's world markets became Britain's markets, just as the markets of the whole Empire became our own as the result of preference, and just as the great oversea countries of the Empire found Britain's home markets, with fifty million customers, exclusively their own. The British public learned once and for all, and in one year, the truth that reformers had sought for a decade to teach us—that the Empire was self-supporting and self-sufficing, and that common-sense legislative and commercial recognition of this fundamental fact spelt prosperity for British subjects the world over.

Another reason for the unprecedented wave of prosperity that transformed industrial and agricultural England was that about seventy percent of the trade lost by Germany was not only carried by British ships but was entirely in British hands. Germany's global markets became Britain's markets, just as the markets of the entire Empire became ours due to preference, and just as the vast overseas countries of the Empire found Britain's domestic markets, with fifty million customers, exclusively their own. The British public learned once and for all, and in just a year, the truth that reformers had been trying to teach us for a decade—that the Empire was self-supporting and self-sufficient, and that recognizing this essential fact through practical legislative and commercial measures meant prosperity for British subjects all over the world.

But, as John Crondall said in the course of the[380] Guildhall speech of his which, as has often been said, brought the Disciplinary Regiments into being, "We cannot expect to cure in a year ills that we have studiously fostered through the better part of a century." There was still an unemployed class, though everything points to the conclusion that before that first year of the Peace was ended this class had been reduced to those elements which made it more properly called "unemployable." There were the men who had forgotten their trades and their working habits, and there were still left some of those melancholy products of our decadent industrial and social systems—the men who were determined not to work.

But, as John Crondall mentioned during his[380] Guildhall speech, which has often been credited with creating the Disciplinary Regiments, "We can't expect to fix problems in a year that we've deliberately nurtured for most of a century." There was still an unemployed group, although it seemed clear that by the end of the first year of Peace, this group had been narrowed down to those who could be more accurately labeled as "unemployable." This included men who had forgotten their trades and work habits, as well as some of the unfortunate outcomes of our failing industrial and social systems—the men who refuse to work.

In a way, it is as well that these ills could not be swept aside by the same swift, irresistible wave which gave us "British Christianity," The Citizens' watchword, Imperial Federation, and the beginning of great prosperity. It was the continued existence of a workless class that gave us the famous Discipline Bill. At that time the title "Disciplinary Regiments" had a semidisgraceful suggestion, connected with punishment. In view of that, I shared the feeling of many who said that another name should be chosen. But now that the Disciplinary Regiments have earned their honourable place as the most valuable portion of our non-professional defence forces, every one can see the wisdom of John Crondall's contention that not the name, but the public estimate of that name, had to be altered. Theoretically the value and necessity of discipline was, I suppose, always recognized. Actually, people had come to connect the word, not with education, not with the equipment[381] of every true citizen, but chiefly with punishment and disgrace.

In a way, it’s a good thing that these problems couldn’t be ignored by the same fast, unstoppable wave that brought us "British Christianity," The Citizens' motto, Imperial Federation, and the start of great prosperity. It was the ongoing presence of a jobless class that led to the famous Discipline Bill. Back then, the name "Disciplinary Regiments" had a slightly shameful connotation, tied to punishment. Because of that, I shared the sentiment of many who thought a different name should be picked. But now that the Disciplinary Regiments have proven to be the most valuable part of our non-professional defense forces, everyone can see the wisdom in John Crondall's argument that it’s not the name itself, but how the public perceives that name, that needed to change. Theoretically, the importance and necessity of discipline were always acknowledged. In reality, people had come to associate the word not with education or the training of every true citizen, but mainly with punishment and disgrace.

At first there was considerable opposition to the law, which said, in effect: No able-bodied man without means shall live without employment. Indeed, for a few days there was talk of the Government going to the country on the question. But in the end the Discipline Act became law without this, and I know of no other single measure which has done more for the cause of social progress. Its effects have been far-reaching. Among other things, it was this measure which led to the common-sense system which makes a soldier of every mechanic and artisan employed upon Government work. It introduced the system which enables so many men to devote a part of their time to soldiering, and the rest to various other kinds of Government work. But, of course, its main reason of existence is the triumphant fact that it has done away with the loafer, as a class, and reduced the chances of genuine employment to a minimum. Some of the best mechanics and artisans in England to-day are men who learned their trade, along with soldiering and general good citizenship, in one of the Disciplinary Regiments.

At first, there was a lot of pushback against the law, which essentially stated: No able-bodied man without resources can live without work. In fact, for a few days, there was talk about the Government taking this issue to the public. But in the end, the Discipline Act was passed without this, and I don’t know of any single measure that has done more for social progress. Its impact has been extensive. Among other things, this law led to a practical system that turns every mechanic and artisan working on Government projects into a soldier. It established a framework that allows many men to spend part of their time in military service and the rest in various types of Government jobs. However, its main purpose is the undeniable fact that it has eliminated the loafer as a class and greatly reduced the chances of genuine employment. Some of the best mechanics and artisans in England today are those who learned their trade, along with soldiering and good citizenship, in one of the Disciplinary Regiments.

Despite the increase of population, the numerical strength of our police force throughout the kingdom is 30 per cent. lower to-day than it was before the Anglo-German war; while, as is well known, the prison population has fallen so low as to have led to the conversion of several large prisons into hospitals. The famous Military Training School at Dartmoor was a convict prison up to three years after the war.[382] There can be no doubt that, but for the Discipline Bill, our police force would have required strengthening and prisons enlarging, in place of the reverse process of which we enjoy the benefit to-day.

Despite the increase in population, the number of police officers in our kingdom is 30 percent lower today than it was before the Anglo-German war. Meanwhile, it's well known that the prison population has dropped so much that several large prisons have been converted into hospitals. The famous Military Training School at Dartmoor was a convict prison until three years after the war.[382] There's no doubt that if it weren't for the Discipline Bill, our police force would have needed to be strengthened and prisons expanded, instead of the opposite situation that we benefit from today.

Its promoters deserve all the credit which has been paid them for the introduction of this famous measure; and I take the more pleasure in admitting this by token that the chief among them has publicly recorded his opinion that the man primarily responsible for the introduction of the Discipline Bill was John Crondall. At the same time it should not be forgotten that we have John Crondall's own assurance that the Bill could never have been made law but for that opening and awakening of the hearts and minds of the British people which followed the spreading of the gospel of Duty by the Canadian preachers.

Its supporters deserve all the credit they've received for bringing in this well-known measure; and I'm pleased to acknowledge this, especially since the main advocate has publicly stated that the person primarily responsible for introducing the Discipline Bill was John Crondall. At the same time, we shouldn't forget that John Crondall himself assured us that the Bill could never have become law without the opening and awakening of the hearts and minds of the British people that followed the spread of the gospel of Duty by the Canadian preachers.


XIX
THE GREAT ALLIANCE

You truly come from a noble lineage; quicker to curse than to praise; Little would rarely lay down at anyone's command.

Deeper than words, our love is stronger than life itself; But we don't hug or kiss when we meet up.

Now, tie the threefold knot securely on the ninefold bands, And the laws you create will be the law according to the rules of your lands.
Rudyard Kipling.

During all this time I was constantly with John Crondall, and saw a good deal of Constance Grey; yet the announcement that I had once expected every day, the announcement which seemed the only natural sequence to the kiss of which I had been an unwilling witness, never came. Neither did any return come, in John Crondall, of his old frank gaiety of manner. There remained always the shadow of reserve, of gravity, and of a certain restraint, which dated in my mind from the day of my inadvertent intrusion upon the scene between himself and Constance.

During all this time, I was constantly with John Crondall and spent quite a bit of time with Constance Grey. Still, the announcement I used to expect every day—the one that seemed like the only natural follow-up to the kiss I had unwittingly witnessed—never came. John Crondall didn’t return to his old, cheerful self either. There was always a lingering shadow of reserve, seriousness, and a certain restraint that I associated with the day I accidentally interrupted the moment between him and Constance.

Knowing John Crondall as I knew him then, it was not possible for me to think ill of him; but he perplexed me greatly at times. For at times it did seem to me that I read in Constance's face, when we three[384] were together, a look that was almost an appeal to my chief—a half-sorrowful, half-abashed appeal. Then I would recall that kiss, and in my puzzlement I would think: "John Crondall, if you were any other man, I should say you——"

Knowing John Crondall the way I did back then, I couldn't bring myself to think poorly of him; but he often left me confused. Sometimes, it felt like I could see in Constance's expression, when the three of us[384] were together, a look that was almost a plea directed at my friend—a mix of sadness and embarrassment. Then I would remember that kiss, and in my confusion I would think: "John Crondall, if you were just another guy, I'd say you——"

And there my thought would stop short. Of what should I accuse him? There was the kiss, the long silence, John Crondall's stiffness, and then this look of distress, this hint of appeal, in the face of Constance. Well! And then my intimate knowledge of my chief would silence me, giving me assurance that I should never be a good enough man justly to reproach John Crondall. But it was all very puzzling, and more, to me, loving Constance as I loved her.

And there my thoughts would come to a halt. What could I even accuse him of? There was the kiss, the long silence, John Crondall's stiffness, and then this look of distress, this hint of appeal, on Constance's face. Well! My deep understanding of my boss held me back, reassuring me that I could never be good enough to justly criticize John Crondall. But it was all very confusing, especially since I loved Constance as much as I did.

You may judge, then, of my surprise when Crondall came into my room at The Citizens' headquarters office one morning and said:

You can imagine my surprise when Crondall walked into my room at The Citizens' headquarters one morning and said:

"You have been the real secretary for some time, Dick, not only mine, but The Citizens'; so there's no need for me to worry about how you'll manage. I'm going to America."

"You've actually been the real secretary for a while, Dick, not just for me, but for The Citizens'; so I don't need to stress about how you’ll handle things. I'm heading to America."

"Going to America! Why—when?"

"Going to America! Why now?"

"Well, on Friday, I believe I sail. As to why, I'm afraid I mustn't tell you about that just yet. I've undertaken a Government mission, and it's confidential."

"Well, on Friday, I think I’m setting sail. As for the reason, I’m afraid I can’t share that with you just yet. I’ve taken on a Government mission, and it’s classified."

"I see. And how long will you be away?"

"I get it. So, how long will you be gone?"

"Oh, not more than two or three months, I hope."

"Oh, I hope it's no more than two or three months."

That simplified the thing somewhat. My chief's tone had suggested at first that he was going to live in the United States. Even as it was, however, surely, I thought, he would tell me something now about himself[385] and Constance. But though I made several openings, he told me nothing.

That made things a bit clearer. At first, my boss's tone had made it seem like he was planning to live in the United States. Even so, I figured he would share something about himself[385] and Constance. But despite my attempts to start a conversation, he didn’t tell me anything.

While John Crondall was away a new State Under-Secretaryship was created. It was announced that for the future the Government would include an Under-Secretary of State for the Civilian Defence Forces, whose chief would be the Secretary of State for War. A few days later came the announcement that the first to hold this appointment would be John Crondall. I had news of this a little in advance of the public, for my work in connection with The Citizens' organization brought me now into frequent contact with the War Office, particularly with regard to supplies and general arrangements for our different village rifle-ranges.

While John Crondall was away, a new position of State Under-Secretary was created. It was announced that moving forward, the Government would have an Under-Secretary of State for the Civilian Defence Forces, who would report to the Secretary of State for War. A few days later, it was revealed that John Crondall would be the first to hold this position. I got wind of this a bit before the public did, as my work with The Citizens' organization often had me in touch with the War Office, especially regarding supplies and general arrangements for our various village rifle ranges.

This piece of news seemed tolerably important to Constance Grey and myself, and we talked it over with a good deal of interest and enthusiasm. But before many weeks had passed this and every other item of news was driven out of our minds by a piece of intelligence which, in different ways, startled and excited the whole civilized world, for the reason that it promised to affect materially the destiny of all the nations of civilization. Every newspaper published some kind of an announcement on the subject, but the first full, authoritative statement was that contained in the great London Daily which was now the recognized principal organ of Imperial Federation. The opening portion of this journal's announcement read in this way:

This news seemed pretty important to Constance Grey and me, and we discussed it with a lot of interest and enthusiasm. But within a few weeks, this and every other piece of news was pushed out of our minds by information that, in different ways, shocked and excited the entire civilized world, because it promised to significantly impact the fate of all nations. Every newspaper published some sort of announcement about it, but the first complete, official statement came from the great London Daily, which was now the recognized main source for Imperial Federation. The opening part of this journal's announcement read as follows:

"We are able to announce, upon official authority, the completion of a defensive and commercial Alliance[386] between the British Empire and the United States of America, which amounts for all practical purposes to a political and commercial Federation of the English-speaking peoples of the world.

"We are pleased to announce, with official approval, the completion of a defensive and commercial alliance[386] between the British Empire and the United States of America, which effectively serves as a political and commercial federation of English-speaking countries around the globe."

"Rumours have been current for some time of important negotiations pending between London and Washington, and, as we pointed out some time ago, Mr. John Crondall's business in Washington has been entirely with our Ambassador there.

"Rumors have been circulating for a while about important negotiations happening between London and Washington. As we mentioned some time ago, Mr. John Crondall's dealings in Washington have been solely with our Ambassador there."

"The exact terms of the new Alliance will probably be made public within the next week. In the meantime, we are able to say that the Alliance will be sufficiently comprehensive to admit United States trade within the British Empire upon practically British terms—that is to say, the United States will, in almost every detail, share in Imperial Preference.

"The specific details of the new Alliance will likely be announced within the next week. In the meantime, we can say that the Alliance will be broad enough to allow United States trade within the British Empire on almost entirely British terms—that is to say, the United States will, in nearly every aspect, benefit from Imperial Preference."

"Further, in the event of any foreign Power declaring war with either the British Empire or the United States, both nations would share equally in the conduct of subsequent hostilities, unless the war were the direct outcome of an effort upon the part of either of the high contracting parties in the direction of territorial expansion. The United States will not assist the British Empire to acquire new territory, but will share from first to last the task of defending existing British territory against the attack of an enemy. Precisely the same obligations will bind the British Empire in the defence of the United States.

"Also, if any foreign power declares war on either the British Empire or the United States, both nations will equally handle the ensuing military actions, unless the war results directly from attempts by either party to expand their territory. The United States will not help the British Empire gain new territory, but will fully take on the responsibility of defending existing British territory from enemy attacks. The British Empire will have the same obligations in defending the United States."

"It would scarcely be possible to exaggerate the importance to Christendom of this momentous achievement of diplomacy; and future generations are little likely to forget the act or the spirit to which this[387] triumph may be traced: the United States' offer of assistance to Britain during the late war.

"It would be hard to overstate how important this significant diplomatic achievement is for Christendom; future generations are unlikely to forget either the act or the spirit behind this[387] triumph: the United States' offer of help to Britain during the recent war."

"The advantages of the Alliance to our good friends and kinsmen across the Atlantic are obviously great, for they are at once given free entry into a market which has four hundred and twenty millions of customers, and is protected by the world's greatest Navy and the world's greatest citizen defence force. Upon our side we are given free entry into the second richest and most expansive market in the world, with eighty million customers, and an adequate defence force. Upon a preferential footing, such as the Alliance will secure to both contracting Powers, the United States offer us the finest market in the world as an extension of our own. In our own markets we shall meet the American producer upon terms of absolute equality, to our mutual advantage, where a couple of years ago we met him at a cruel disadvantage, to our great loss.

"The benefits of the Alliance for our good friends and relatives across the Atlantic are clearly significant, as they gain free access to a market with four hundred and twenty million consumers, protected by the world’s strongest Navy and the best civilian defense force. On our side, we gain free access to the second richest and most expansive market in the world, with eighty million customers and a sufficient defense force. With a preferential arrangement that the Alliance will ensure for both parties, the United States provides us with the best market as an extension of our own. In our own markets, we will engage with American producers on equal terms, which is to our mutual benefit, especially considering that just a couple of years ago, we faced a significant disadvantage, which cost us dearly."

"We have said enough to indicate the vast and world-wide importance of the Alliance we are able to announce. But we have left untouched its most momentous aspect. The new Alliance is a guarantee of peace to that half of the world which is primarily concerned; it renders a breach of the peace in the other half of the world far more unlikely than it ever was before. As a defensive Alliance between the English-speaking peoples, this should represent the beginning of an era of unexampled peace, progress, and prosperity for the whole civilized world."

"We’ve said enough to highlight the huge and global significance of the Alliance we’re announcing. However, we haven’t addressed its most critical aspect. The new Alliance guarantees peace for half of the world that is most affected; it makes a disruption of peace in the other half far less likely than ever before. As a defensive Alliance among English-speaking nations, this should mark the start of an unprecedented era of peace, progress, and prosperity for the entire civilized world."

Before I had half-digested this tremendous piece of news, and with never a thought of breakfast, I found[388] myself hurrying in a hansom to Constance Grey's flat. In her study I found Constance, her beautiful eyes full of shining tears, poring over the announcement.

Before I had even fully processed this huge piece of news, and without even thinking about breakfast, I found myself rushing in a cab to Constance Grey's apartment. In her study, I found Constance, her beautiful eyes filled with tears of joy, absorbed in the announcement.


XX
PEACE HATH HER VICTORIES

Yet I have no doubt that throughout the ages, there is one continuous purpose that runs,
The thoughts of people expand with the movement of the suns.
Tennyson.

I had hoped to be the bearer of the Alliance news to Constance, and seeing how deeply she was moved by it made me the more regretful that I had not arrived at the flat before her morning paper. Constance had been the first to give me the news of the American offer of help at the beginning of the war; she had been the first to give me any serious understanding of the invasion, there in that very room of the little South Kensington flat, on the fateful Sunday of the Disarmament Demonstration. Now she raised her gleaming eyes to me as I entered:

I had hoped to be the one to share the Alliance news with Constance, and seeing how deeply it affected her made me wish even more that I had gotten to the flat before her morning paper. Constance was the first to tell me about the American offer for help at the start of the war; she was also the first to give me a real understanding of the invasion, right there in that small South Kensington flat, on that fateful Sunday of the Disarmament Demonstration. Now she lifted her shining eyes to me as I walked in:

"A thing like this makes up for all the ills one's ever known, Dick," she said, and dropped one hand on the paper in her lap.

"A moment like this makes up for all the troubles you’ve ever had, Dick," she said, dropping one hand onto the paper in her lap.

"Yes, it's something like a piece of news, is it not? I had hoped to bring it you, but I might have known you would be at your paper betimes."

"Yeah, it's kind of like a piece of news, right? I wanted to share it with you, but I should have guessed you'd be busy with your work early on."

"Oh, it's magnificent, Dick, magnificent! I have no words to tell you how glad I am about this. I see John Crondall's hand here, don't you?"[390]

"Oh, it's amazing, Dick, amazing! I can't even express how happy I am about this. I see John Crondall's touch here, don't you?"[390]

"Yes," I said; and thought: "Naturally! You see John Crondall everywhere."

"Yeah," I said, thinking, "Of course! You see John Crondall everywhere."

"He was dead against any sort of an Alliance while we were under a cloud. And he was right. The British people couldn't afford to enter any compact upon terms of less than perfect equality and independence. But now—why, Dick, it's a dream come true: the English-speaking peoples against the world. It's Imperial Federation founded on solid rock. No! With its roots in the beds of all the seven seas. And never a hint of condescension, but just an honourable pact between equals of one stock."

"He was completely opposed to any kind of Alliance while we were in a tough spot. And he was right. The British people couldn't agree to any arrangement on terms that weren't based on absolute equality and independence. But now—wow, Dick, it’s a dream come true: the English-speaking nations united against the rest of the world. It’s an Imperial Federation built on a solid foundation. No! With its roots in the depths of all seven seas. And not a hint of being patronizing, just a respectable agreement between equals of the same heritage."

"Yes; and a couple of years ago——"

"Yes; and a few years ago——"

"A couple of years ago, there were Englishmen who spat at the British Flag."

"A few years back, there were English people who spat on the British flag."

"There was a paper called The Mass."

"There was a paper called The Mass."

Constance smiled up at me. "Do you remember the Disarmament Demonstration?" she said.

Constance smiled up at me. "Do you remember the Disarmament Demonstration?" she asked.

"Do you remember going down Fleet Street into a wretched den, to call on the person who was assistant editor of The Mass?"

"Do you remember walking down Fleet Street into a grim place to meet with the person who was the assistant editor of The Mass?"

"The person! Come! I found him rather nice."

"The person! Come here! I think he's pretty nice."

"Ah, Constance, how sweet you were to me!"

"Ah, Constance, how sweet you are to me!"

"Now, there," she said, with a little smile, "I think you might have changed your tense."

"Okay, there," she said, with a slight smile, "I think you might have changed your tense."

"But I was talking of two years ago, before—— Well, you see, I thought of you, then, as just an unattached angel from South Africa."

"But I was talking about two years ago, before—— Well, you see, I thought of you back then as just a free-spirited angel from South Africa."

"And now you have learned that my angelic qualities never existed outside your imagination. Ah, Dick, your explanations make matters much worse."

"And now you've realized that my angelic qualities only existed in your imagination. Ah, Dick, your explanations make everything much worse."

"But, no; I didn't say you were the less an angel;[391] only that I thought of you as unattached, then—you see."

"But no, I didn’t say you were any less of an angel;[391] I just thought of you as single back then—you see."

Constance looked down at her paper, and a silence fell between us. The silence was intolerable to me. I was standing beside her chair, and I cannot explain just what I felt in looking down at her. I know that the very outline of her figure and the loose hair of her head seemed at once intimately familiar and inexpressibly sacred and beautiful to me. Looking down upon them caused a kind of mist to rise before my eyes. It was as though I feared to lose possession of my faculties. That must end, I felt, or an end would come to all reserve and loyalty to John Crondall. And yet—yet something in the curve of her cheek—she was looking down—held me, drew me out of myself, as it might be into a tranced state in which a man is moved to contempt of all risks.

Constance looked down at her paper, and a silence fell between us. The silence was unbearable for me. I was standing next to her chair, and I can't quite explain what I felt as I looked down at her. I know that the outline of her figure and the loose hair on her head felt both intimately familiar and profoundly sacred and beautiful to me. Looking down at them made a kind of mist rise in my eyes. It was as if I feared losing my grip on reality. I knew that had to stop, or I would lose all my restraint and loyalty to John Crondall. Yet—yet something in the curve of her cheek—she was looking down—held me, pulled me out of myself, as if I were in a trance where a person is tempted to disregard all risks.

"Dear, I loved you, even then," I said; "but then I thought you free."

"Dear, I loved you, even back then," I said; "but at that time, I thought you were free."

"So I was." She did not look at me, and her voice was very low; but there was some quality in it which thrilled me through and through, as I stood at her side.

"So I was." She didn't look at me, and her voice was very quiet; but there was something about it that excited me completely as I stood next to her.

"But now, of course, I know—— But why have you never told me, Constance?"

"But now, of course, I know—but why have you never told me, Constance?"

"I am just as free now as then, Dick."

"I’m just as free now as I was back then, Dick."

"Why, Constance! But, John Crondall?"

"Why, Constance! But John Crondall?"

"He is my friend, just as he is yours."

"He’s my friend, just like he is yours."

"But I—but he——"

"But I—but he—"

"Dick, I asked him if I might tell you, and he said, yes. John asked me to marry him, and when I said I couldn't, he asked me to wait till our work was done,[392] and let him ask me again. Can't you see, Dick, how hard it was for me? And John is—he is such a splendid man. I could not deny him, and—that was when you came into the room—don't you remember—Dick?"

"Dick, I asked him if I could tell you, and he said yes. John proposed to me, and when I said I couldn’t, he asked me to wait until our work was done,[392] and let him ask me again. Can’t you see, Dick, how difficult it was for me? And John is—he's such an amazing man. I couldn't turn him down, and—that was when you walked into the room—don’t you remember—Dick?"

The mist was thickening about me; it seemed my mind swam in clouds. I only said: "Yes?"

The fog was getting denser around me; it felt like my mind was lost in the haze. I just said, "Yes?"

"Oh, Dick, I am ashamed! You know how I respect him—how I like him. He did ask me again, before he went to America."

"Oh, Dick, I'm embarrassed! You know how much I respect him—how much I like him. He asked me again before he left for America."

"And now—now, you——"

"And now—now, you—"

"It hurt dreadfully; but I had to say no, because——"

"It hurt a lot; but I had to say no, because——"

And there she stopped. She was not engaged to John Crondall. She had refused him—refused John Crondall! Yet I knew how high he stood in her eyes. Could it be that there was some one else—some one in Africa? The suggestion spelled panic. It seemed to me that I must know—that I could not bear to leave her without knowing.

And there she paused. She wasn't engaged to John Crondall. She had turned him down—turned down John Crondall! But I knew how much she thought of him. Could it be that there was someone else—someone in Africa? The thought made me anxious. I felt I had to find out—I couldn't leave her without knowing.

"Forgive me, Constance," I said, "but is there some one else who—is there some one else?" To see into her dear face, I dropped on one knee beside her chair.

"Forgive me, Constance," I said, "but is there someone else— is there someone else?" To look into her lovely face, I knelt beside her chair.

"I—I thought there was," she said very sweetly. And as she spoke she raised her head, and I saw her beautiful eyes, through tears. It was there I read my happiness. I am not sure that any words could have given it me, though I found it sweeter than anything else I had known in my life to have her tell me afterwards in words. It was an unforgettable morning.[393]

"I—I thought there was," she said very sweetly. And as she spoke, she lifted her head, and I saw her beautiful eyes, glistening with tears. That’s where I found my happiness. I'm not sure any words could have given it to me, although I found it sweeter than anything else I'd experienced in my life to hear her express it in words later. It was a morning I would never forget.[393]

Why did she love him? You silly fool! Just be quiet; Is human love the development of human will?

John Crondall was my best man, as he has been always my best friend. He insisted on my taking over the permanent secretaryship of The Citizens when he went to the War Office. And since then I hope I have not ceased to take my part in making our history; but it is true that there is not much to tell that is not known equally well to everybody.

John Crondall was my best man, and he has always been my best friend. He insisted that I take over as the permanent secretary of The Citizens when he went to the War Office. Since then, I hope I haven't stopped doing my part in shaping our history, but it's true that there's not much to share that isn't already known to everyone.

Assuredly peace hath her victories. Our national life has been a daily succession of victories since we fought for and won real peace and overcame the slavish notion that mere indolent quiescence could ever give security. Our daily victory as a race is the triumph of race loyalty over individual self-seeking; and I can conceive of no real danger for the British Empire unless the day came, which God forbid, when Englishmen forgot the gospel of our "New Century Puritanism"—the Canadian preachers' teaching of Duty and simple living. And that day can never come while our Citizens' watchword endures:

Surely peace has its victories. Our national life has been a constant series of victories since we fought for and achieved true peace and overcame the lazy idea that mere complacency could ever provide security. Our daily victory as a race is the success of loyalty to our race over individual selfishness; and I can’t imagine any real danger for the British Empire unless the day comes, which God forbid, when Englishmen forget the principles of our "New Century Puritanism"—the Canadian preachers' teachings of Duty and simple living. And that day can never come as long as our Citizens' watchword endures:

"For God, our Race, and Duty!"

"For God, our Nation, and our Duty!"

For me, I feel that my share of happiness, since those sombre days of our national chastisement, since those stern, strenuous months of England's awakening to the new life and faith of the twentieth century, has been more, far more, than my deserts. But I think we all feel that in these days; I hope we do. If we should ever again forget, punishment would surely come. But it is part of my happiness to believe[394] that, at long last, our now really united race, our whole family, four hundred and twenty millions strong, has truly learned the lesson which our great patriot poet tried to teach in the wild years before discipline came to us, in the mailed hand of our one-time enemy:

For me, I feel that my share of happiness, since those dark days of our national punishment, since those tough, intense months of England's awakening to the new life and faith of the twentieth century, has been much more than I deserve. But I think we all feel that these days; I hope we do. If we ever forget again, punishment will surely follow. But it makes me happy to believe[394] that, at long last, our now truly united race, our whole family, four hundred and twenty million strong, has genuinely learned the lesson that our great patriotic poet tried to teach us in the chaotic years before discipline came to us, delivered by the iron hand of our former enemy:

God of our ancestors, recognized from ancient times,
Lord of our distant battlefront,
Under Whose terrible hand we stand
Control over palm and pine—
Lord God of Hosts, stay with us still,
Never forget—never forget!
The noise and chaos fade away; The captains and the leaders leave:
Your ancient sacrifice still stands,
A humble and contrite heart.
Lord God of Hosts, stay with us once more,
Never forget—never forget!

For a non-believing heart that places its trust
In a stinking tube and metal fragment,
All brave dust that creates more dust,
And guarding, doesn't call You to guard,
For hasty bragging and silly talk— Your Mercy on Your People, Lord!

Amen!

Amen!

Transcriber's Note: Minor spelling and typographical errors have been corrected without note. Archaic, dialect and variant spellings remain as printed.



        
        
    
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