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ROSE IN BLOOM
A Sequel to “Eight Cousins”
By Louisa May Alcott
Preface
As authors may be supposed to know better than anyone else what they intended to do when writing a book, I beg leave to say that there is no moral to this story. Rose is not designed for a model girl, and the Sequel was simply written in fulfillment of a promise, hoping to afford some amusement, and perhaps here and there a helpful hint, to other roses getting ready to bloom.
As authors are often seen as the best judges of their own intentions when writing a book, I’d like to clarify that there’s no moral to this story. Rose isn’t meant to be a role model, and the Sequel was written just to keep a promise, aiming to provide some entertainment and maybe a few useful tips for other roses getting ready to bloom.
L. M. Alcott
Louisa May Alcott
September 1876
September 1876
Chapter 1 COMING HOME
Three young men stood together on a wharf one bright October day awaiting the arrival of an ocean steamer with an impatience which found a vent in lively skirmishes with a small lad, who pervaded the premises like a will-o'-the-wisp and afforded much amusement to the other groups assembled there.
Three young men stood together on a dock one bright October day, eagerly waiting for an ocean steamer to arrive. Their impatience showed in playful skirmishes with a little boy, who darted around the area like a firefly and provided a lot of entertainment for the other groups gathered there.
“They are the Campbells, waiting for their cousin, who has been abroad several years with her uncle, the doctor,” whispered one lady to another as the handsomest of the young men touched his hat to her as he passed, lugging the boy, whom he had just rescued from a little expedition down among the piles.
“They're the Campbells, waiting for their cousin, who's been overseas for several years with her uncle, the doctor,” whispered one woman to another as the most handsome of the young men tipped his hat to her while passing by, carrying the boy he had just saved from a little adventure among the stacks.
“Which is that?” asked the stranger.
“Which one is that?” asked the stranger.
“Prince Charlie, as he's called a fine fellow, the most promising of the seven, but a little fast, people say,” answered the first speaker with a shake of the head.
“Prince Charlie, as they call him, is a great guy, the most promising of the seven, but a bit reckless, people say,” replied the first speaker, shaking his head.
“Are the others his brothers?”
"Are the others his siblings?"
“No, cousins. The elder is Archie, a most exemplary young man. He has just gone into business with the merchant uncle and bids fair to be an honor to his family. The other, with the eyeglasses and no gloves, is Mac, the odd one, just out of college.”
“No, cousins. The older one is Archie, a truly admirable young man. He has just started a business with our uncle the merchant and is likely to bring honor to his family. The other one, wearing glasses and no gloves, is Mac, the quirky one who just graduated from college.”
“And the boy?”
"And the kid?"
“Oh, he is Jamie, the youngest brother of Archibald, and the pet of the whole family. Mercy on us he'll be in if they don't hold on to him!”
“Oh, he is Jamie, the youngest brother of Archibald, and the favorite of the whole family. God help him if they don't keep an eye on him!”
The ladies' chat came to a sudden end just there, for by the time Jamie had been fished out of a hogshead, the steamer hove in sight and everything else was forgotten. As it swung slowly around to enter the dock, a boyish voice shouted, “There she is! I see her and Uncle and Phebe! Hooray for Cousin Rose!” And three small cheers were given with a will by Jamie as he stood on a post waving his arms like a windmill while his brother held onto the tail of his jacket.
The ladies' conversation came to an abrupt stop right there, because by the time Jamie was pulled out of a barrel, the steamer appeared on the horizon and everything else was forgotten. As it slowly turned to enter the dock, a boyish voice shouted, “There she is! I see her, Uncle, and Phebe! Hooray for Cousin Rose!” And Jamie, standing on a post and waving his arms like a windmill while his brother held onto the back of his jacket, cheered enthusiastically with three small cheers.
Yes, there they were Uncle Alec swinging his hat like a boy, with Phebe smiling and nodding on one side and Rose kissing both hands delightedly on the other as she recognized familiar faces and heard familiar voices welcoming her home.
Yes, there was Uncle Alec swinging his hat like a kid, with Phebe smiling and nodding on one side and Rose joyfully kissing both hands on the other as she recognized familiar faces and heard familiar voices welcoming her home.
“Bless her dear heart, she's bonnier than ever! Looks like a Madonna doesn't she? with that blue cloak round her, and her bright hair flying in the wind!” said Charlie excitedly as they watched the group upon the deck with eager eyes.
“Bless her heart, she’s prettier than ever! She looks like a Madonna, doesn’t she? With that blue cloak around her and her bright hair blowing in the wind!” said Charlie excitedly as they watched the group on the deck with eager eyes.
“Madonnas don't wear hats like that. Rose hasn't changed much, but Phebe has. Why, she's a regular beauty!” answered Archie, staring with all his might at the dark-eyed young woman with the brilliant color and glossy black braids shining in the sun.
“Madonnas don’t wear hats like that. Rose hasn’t changed much, but Phebe has. Wow, she’s a real beauty!” replied Archie, staring as hard as he could at the dark-eyed young woman with the vibrant color and glossy black braids shining in the sun.
“Dear old Uncle! Doesn't it seem good to have him back?” was all Mac said, but he was not looking at “dear old uncle” as he made the fervent remark, for he saw only the slender blond girl nearby and stretched out his hands to meet hers, forgetful of the green water tumbling between them.
“Dear old Uncle! Isn’t it great to have him back?” was all Mac said, but he wasn’t looking at “dear old uncle” when he made the heartfelt remark, as he was only seeing the slender blonde girl nearby and reached out his hands to meet hers, forgetting about the green water rushing between them.
During the confusion that reigned for a moment as the steamer settled to her moorings, Rose looked down into the four faces upturned to hers and seemed to read in them something that both pleased and pained her. It was only a glance, and her own eyes were full, but through the mist of happy tears she received the impression that Archie was about the same, that Mac had decidedly improved, and that something was amiss with Charlie. There was no time for observation, however, for in a moment the shoreward rush began, and before she could grasp her traveling bag, Jamie was clinging to her like an ecstatic young bear. She was with difficulty released from his embrace to fall into the gentler ones of the elder cousins, who took advantage of the general excitement to welcome both blooming girls with affectionate impartiality. Then the wanderers were borne ashore in a triumphal procession, while Jamie danced rapturous jigs before them even on the gangway.
During the brief moment of confusion as the steamer docked, Rose looked down at the four faces turned up to hers and sensed something that both made her happy and sad. It was just a fleeting glance, and her own eyes were filled with tears, but through the haze of joy, she noticed that Archie looked about the same, Mac seemed to have definitely improved, and something seemed off with Charlie. However, there wasn't time for observations, as the push toward the shore began, and before she could grab her travel bag, Jamie was clinging to her like an excited young bear. She was finally freed from his embrace and fell into the softer hugs of her older cousins, who took advantage of the excitement to welcome both blooming girls with loving fairness. Then, the travelers were carried ashore in a celebratory procession, while Jamie performed joyous dances in front of them even on the gangway.
Archie remained to help his uncle get the luggage through the Custom House, and the others escorted the damsels home. No sooner were they shut up in a carriage, however, than a new and curious constraint seemed to fall upon the young people, for they realized, all at once, that their former playmates were men and women now. Fortunately, Jamie was quite free from this feeling of restraint and, sitting bodkinwise between the ladies, took all sorts of liberties with them and their belongings.
Archie stayed behind to help his uncle with the luggage at Customs, while the others took the young women home. As soon as they were settled in the carriage, a strange and awkward tension seemed to come over the group, as they suddenly understood that their former playmates were now grown-ups. Luckily, Jamie was unaffected by this sense of awkwardness and, sitting comfortably between the ladies, playfully teased them and their things.
“Well, my mannikin, what do you think of us?” asked Rose, to break an awkward pause.
“Well, my little guy, what do you think of us?” asked Rose, to break an awkward pause.
“You've both grown so pretty, I can't decide which I like best. Phebe is the biggest and brightest-looking, and I was always fond of Phebe, but somehow you are so kind of sweet and precious, I really think I must hug you again,” and the small youth did it tempestuously.
“You've both grown so beautiful, I can't choose which one I like more. Phebe is the tallest and has the brightest appearance, and I’ve always had a soft spot for her, but somehow you’re just so sweet and lovable that I really think I have to hug you again,” and the young boy did it with enthusiasm.
“If you love me best, I shall not mind a bit about your thinking Phebe the handsomest, because she is. Isn't she, boys?” asked Rose, with a mischievous look at the gentlemen opposite, whose faces expressed a respectful admiration which much amused her.
“If you love me the most, I won’t mind at all if you think Phebe is the prettiest, because she is. Isn’t she, guys?” asked Rose, with a playful look at the gentlemen across from her, whose faces showed a polite admiration that greatly entertained her.
“I'm so dazzled by the brilliancy and beauty that has suddenly burst upon me, I have no words to express my emotions,” answered Charlie, gallantly dodging the dangerous question.
“I'm so amazed by the brightness and beauty that has suddenly come my way, I have no words to express my feelings,” answered Charlie, skillfully avoiding the tricky question.
“I can't say yet, for I have not had time to look at anyone. I will now, if you don't mind.” And, to the great amusement of the rest, Mac gravely adjusted his eyeglasses and took an observation.
"I can't say right now because I haven't had a chance to look at anyone. I will now, if you don't mind." And, to the great amusement of everyone else, Mac seriously adjusted his glasses and took a look.
“Well?” said Phebe, smiling and blushing under his honest stare, yet seeming not to resent it as she did the lordly sort of approval which made her answer the glance of Charlie's audacious blue eyes with a flash of her black ones.
“Well?” Phebe asked, smiling and blushing under his sincere gaze, yet not seeming to mind it like she did the haughty kind of approval that made her respond to Charlie's bold blue eyes with a spark from her dark ones.
“I think if you were my sister, I should be very proud of you, because your face shows what I admire more than its beauty truth and courage, Phebe,” answered Mac with a little bow full of such genuine respect that surprise and pleasure brought a sudden dew to quench the fire of the girl's eyes and soothe the sensitive pride of the girl's heart.
“I think if you were my sister, I would be really proud of you, because your face shows what I admire even more than its beauty—truth and courage, Phebe,” Mac replied with a slight bow full of such genuine respect that surprise and joy brought a sudden tear to cool the fire in the girl's eyes and soothe her sensitive pride.
Rose clapped her hands just as she used to do when anything delighted her, and beamed at Mac approvingly as she said: “Now that's a criticism worth having, and we are much obliged. I was sure you'd admire my Phebe when you knew her, but I didn't believe you would be wise enough to see it at once, and you have gone up many pegs in my estimation, I assure you.”
Rose clapped her hands like she always did when something made her happy, and smiled at Mac with approval as she said: “Now that’s a criticism worth having, and we really appreciate it. I was sure you’d admire my Phebe once you got to know her, but I didn’t think you’d be smart enough to see it right away, and you’ve really moved up in my book, I assure you.”
“I was always fond of mineralogy you remember, and I've been tapping round a good deal lately, so I've learned to know precious metals when I see them,” Mac said with his shrewd smile.
“I've always been into mineralogy, remember? I've been exploring a lot lately, so I’ve gotten pretty good at recognizing precious metals when I see them,” Mac said with a clever smile.
“That is the latest hobby, then? Your letters have amused us immensely, for each one had a new theory or experiment, and the latest was always the best. I thought Uncle would have died of laughter over the vegetarian mania it was so funny to imagine you living on bread and milk, baked apples, and potatoes roasted in your own fire,” continued Rose, changing the subject again.
"Is that your latest hobby? Your letters have been so entertaining for us, since each one had a new idea or experiment, and the most recent was always the best. I thought Uncle would burst out laughing over your vegetarian phase; it was so funny to picture you surviving on bread and milk, baked apples, and potatoes cooked over your own fire,” Rose said, shifting the topic again.
“This old chap was the laughingstock of his class. They called him Don Quixote, and the way he went at windmills of all sorts was a sight to see,” put in Charlie, evidently feeling that Mac had been patted on the head quite as much as was good for him.
“This old guy was the joke of his class. They called him Don Quixote, and the way he charged at windmills of all kinds was a sight to behold,” Charlie added, clearly thinking that Mac had been patted on the back just as much as was reasonable.
“But in spite of that the Don got through college with all the honors. Oh, wasn't I proud when Aunt Jane wrote to us about it and didn't she rejoice that her boy kept at the head of his class and won the medal!” cried Rose, shaking Mac by both hands in a way that caused Charlie to wish “the old chap” had been left behind with Dr. Alec.
“But despite that, the Don graduated college with all the honors. Oh, wasn’t I proud when Aunt Jane wrote to us about it, and didn’t she celebrate that her boy stayed at the top of his class and won the medal!” cried Rose, shaking Mac by both hands in a way that made Charlie wish “the old chap” had been left behind with Dr. Alec.
“Oh, come, that's all Mother's nonsense. I began earlier than the other fellows and liked it better, so I don't deserve any praise. Prince is right, though. I did make a regular jack of myself, but on the whole I'm not sure that my wild oats weren't better than some I've seen sowed. Anyway, they didn't cost much, and I'm none the worse for them,” said Mac placidly.
“Oh, come on, that's just Mom's nonsense. I started earlier than the other guys and enjoyed it more, so I don't deserve any credit. Prince is right, though. I did make a total fool of myself, but overall I'm not convinced that my wild times were worse than some I've seen. Anyway, they didn't cost me much, and I'm not worse off for them,” said Mac calmly.
“I know what 'wild oats' means. I heard Uncle Mac say Charlie was sowing 'em too fast, and I asked Mama, so she told me. And I know that he was suspelled or expended, I don't remember which, but it was something bad, and Aunt Clara cried,” added Jamie all in one breath, for he possessed a fatal gift of making malapropos remarks, which caused him to be a terror to his family.
“I know what 'wild oats' means. I heard Uncle Mac say Charlie was sowing them too fast, and I asked Mom, so she told me. And I know he was suspended or expelled, I don’t remember which, but it was something bad, and Aunt Clara cried,” added Jamie all in one breath, for he had a terrible knack for making inappropriate comments, which made him a constant source of worry for his family.
“Do you want to go on the box again?” demanded Prince with a warning frown.
“Do you want to go on the box again?” Prince asked, giving a warning frown.
“No, I don't.”
“Nope.”
“Then hold your tongue.”
"Then be quiet."
“Well, Mac needn't kick me, for I was only...” began the culprit, innocently trying to make a bad matter worse.
“Well, Mac doesn’t need to kick me, because I was just...” began the culprit, innocently trying to make a bad situation worse.
“That will do,” interrupted Charlie sternly, and James subsided, a crushed boy, consoling himself with Rose's new watch for the indignities he suffered at the hands of the “old fellows” as he vengefully called his elders.
“That’s enough,” Charlie interrupted firmly, and James quieted down, feeling defeated, finding comfort in Rose's new watch for the humiliations he faced from the “old guys,” as he resentfully referred to his elders.
Mac and Charlie immediately began to talk as hard as their tongues could wag, bringing up all sorts of pleasant subjects so successfully that peals of laughter made passersby look after the merry load with sympathetic smiles.
Mac and Charlie immediately started chatting as fast as they could, bringing up all kinds of fun topics so successfully that their laughter made people passing by turn and smile at their joyful energy.
An avalanche of aunts fell upon Rose as soon as she reached home, and for the rest of the day the old house buzzed like a beehive. Evening found the whole tribe collected in the drawing rooms, with the exception of Aunt Peace, whose place was empty now.
A flood of aunts swarmed Rose as soon as she got home, and for the rest of the day, the old house buzzed like a beehive. By evening, the entire family gathered in the drawing rooms, except for Aunt Peace, whose spot was now empty.
Naturally enough, the elders settled into one group after a while, and the young fellows clustered about the girls like butterflies around two attractive flowers. Dr. Alec was the central figure in one room and Rose in the other, for the little girl, whom they had all loved and petted, had bloomed into a woman, and two years of absence had wrought a curious change in the relative positions of the cousins, especially the three elder ones, who eyed her with a mixture of boyish affection and manly admiration that was both new and pleasant.
Naturally, the older folks gathered in one group after some time, while the young men surrounded the girls like butterflies drawn to two beautiful flowers. Dr. Alec was the main focus in one room, and Rose was in the other, as the little girl they had all adored and spoiled had blossomed into a woman. Two years apart had also shifted the dynamics among the cousins, especially the three older ones, who looked at her with a blend of youthful affection and grown-up admiration that felt both fresh and enjoyable.
Something sweet yet spirited about her charmed them and piqued their curiosity, for she was not quite like other girls, and rather startled them now and then by some independent little speech or act which made them look at one another with a sly smile, as if reminded that Rose was “Uncle's girl.”
Something sweet yet lively about her attracted them and sparked their curiosity, because she wasn’t quite like other girls, and occasionally surprised them with some bold comment or action that made them exchange knowing smiles, as if to remind each other that Rose was “Uncle's girl.”
Let us listen, as in duty bound, to what the elders are saying first, for they are already building castles in air for the boys and girls to inhabit.
Let's listen, as we should, to what the elders are saying first, because they are already creating dreams for the boys and girls to live in.
“Dear child how nice it is to see her safely back, so well and happy and like her sweet little self!” said Aunt Plenty, folding her hands as if giving thanks for a great happiness.
“Dear child, it’s so wonderful to see her back safe, happy, and just like her sweet self!” said Aunt Plenty, folding her hands as if to give thanks for such a great joy.
“I shouldn't wonder if you found that you'd brought a firebrand into the family, Alec. Two, in fact, for Phebe is a fine girl, and the lads have found it out already if I'm not mistaken,” added Uncle Mac, with a nod toward the other room.
“I wouldn't be surprised if you realized you brought a troublemaker into the family, Alec. Two, actually, because Phebe is a great girl, and the guys have already noticed that if I'm right,” added Uncle Mac, with a nod toward the other room.
All eyes followed his, and a highly suggestive tableau presented itself to the paternal and maternal audience in the back parlor.
All eyes followed his, and a very suggestive scene unfolded for the parents in the back parlor.
Rose and Phebe, sitting side by side on the sofa, had evidently assumed at once the places which they were destined to fill by right of youth, sex, and beauty, for Phebe had long since ceased to be the maid and become the friend, and Rose meant to have that fact established at once.
Rose and Phebe, sitting next to each other on the couch, had clearly taken on the roles they were meant to hold because of their youth, gender, and attractiveness. Phebe had long stopped being just a maid and had become a friend, and Rose intended to make that clear right away.
Jamie occupied the rug, on which Will and Geordie stood at ease, showing their uniforms to the best advantage, for they were now in a great school, where military drill was the delight of their souls. Steve posed gracefully in an armchair, with Mac lounging over the back of it, while Archie leaned on one corner of the low chimneypiece, looking down at Phebe as she listened to his chat with smiling lips and cheeks almost as rich in color as the carnations in her belt.
Jamie was on the rug, while Will and Geordie stood comfortably, showing off their uniforms because they were in an amazing school where military drills thrilled them. Steve posed elegantly in an armchair, with Mac slouching over the back of it, while Archie leaned against one corner of the low fireplace, looking down at Phebe as she listened to him with a smile, her cheeks nearly as vibrant as the flowers in her belt.
But Charlie was particularly effective, although he sat upon a music stool, that most trying position for any man not gifted with grace in the management of his legs. Fortunately Prince was, and had fallen into an easy attitude, with one arm over the back of the sofa, his handsome head bent a little, as he monopolized Rose, with a devoted air and a very becoming expression of contentment on his face.
But Charlie was really effective, even though he was sitting on a music stool, which is a tough spot for anyone not naturally graceful with their legs. Luckily, Prince was graceful and had settled into a relaxed position, with one arm draped over the back of the sofa, his attractive head tilted slightly as he focused on Rose, looking devoted and genuinely content.
Aunt Clara smiled as if well pleased; Aunt Jessie looked thoughtful; Aunt Jane's keen eyes went from dapper Steve to broad-shouldered Mac with an anxious glance; Mrs. Myra murmured something about her “blessed Caroline”; and Aunt Plenty said warmly, “Bless the dears! Anyone might be proud of such a bonny flock of bairns as that.”
Aunt Clara smiled, clearly pleased; Aunt Jessie appeared thoughtful; Aunt Jane’s sharp eyes shifted from stylish Steve to burly Mac with a worried look; Mrs. Myra softly mentioned her “sweet Caroline”; and Aunt Plenty said affectionately, “Bless the kids! Anyone would be proud of such a lovely bunch of children.”
“I am all ready to play chaperon as soon as you please, Alec, for I suppose the dear girl will come out at once, as she did not before you went away. My services won't be wanted long, I fancy, for with her many advantages she will be carried off in her first season or I'm much mistaken,” said Mrs. Clara, with significant nods and smiles.
“I’m all set to play chaperone whenever you’re ready, Alec, since I assume the lovely girl will come out right away, just like she did before you left. I don’t think my services will be needed for long, because with all her great qualities, she’ll get swept away in her first season, or I’m really mistaken,” said Mrs. Clara, with knowing nods and smiles.
“You must settle all those matters with Rose. I am no longer captain, only first mate now, you know,” answered Dr. Alec, adding soberly, half to himself, half to his brother, “I wonder people are in such haste to 'bring out' their daughters, as it's called. To me there is something almost pathetic in the sight of a young girl standing on the threshold of the world, so innocent and hopeful, so ignorant of all that lies before her, and usually so ill prepared to meet the ups and downs of life. We do our duty better by the boys, but the poor little women are seldom provided with any armor worth having, and sooner or later they are sure to need it, for every one must fight her own battle, and only the brave and strong can win.”
"You have to figure all that out with Rose. I'm not the captain anymore, just the first mate now, you know," Dr. Alec replied, speaking thoughtfully, partly to himself and partly to his brother. "I really don’t get why people are so eager to 'debut' their daughters, as they say. There’s something almost sad about seeing a young girl standing at the edge of the world, so innocent and full of hope, completely unaware of what’s ahead, and usually not really prepared for the ups and downs of life. We do a better job preparing the boys, but the poor girls are rarely given any real protection, and sooner or later, they’re going to need it, because everyone has to fight their own battles, and only the brave and strong can come out on top."
“You can't reproach yourself with neglect of that sort, Alec, for you have done your duty faithfully by George's girl, and I envy you the pride and happiness of having such a daughter, for she is that to you,” answered old Mac, unexpectedly betraying the paternal sort of tenderness men seldom feel for their sons.
“You can't blame yourself for neglecting that, Alec, because you’ve taken good care of George's daughter, and I envy you for the pride and happiness that comes from having a daughter like her,” replied old Mac, surprisingly showing a fatherly kind of affection that men rarely express for their sons.
“I've tried, Mac, and I am both proud and happy, but with every year my anxiety seems to increase. I've done my best to fit Rose for what may come, as far as I can foresee it, but now she must stand alone, and all my care is powerless to keep her heart from aching, her life from being saddened by mistakes, or thwarted by the acts of others. I can only stand ready to share her joy and sorrow and watch her shape her life.”
“I've tried, Mac, and I feel both proud and happy, but with each passing year, my anxiety seems to grow. I've done my best to prepare Rose for what might come, as far as I can see it, but now she has to stand on her own, and all my efforts can't protect her heart from hurting, her life from being weighed down by mistakes, or from being affected by the actions of others. I can only be here to share in her joy and sorrow and watch her create her own life.”
“Why, Alec, what is the child going to do that you need look so solemn?” exclaimed Mrs. Clara, who seemed to have assumed a sort of right to Rose already.
“Why, Alec, what is the kid going to do that you look so serious?” exclaimed Mrs. Clara, who seemed to have taken some kind of ownership of Rose already.
“Hark! And let her tell you herself,” answered Dr. Alec, as Rose's voice was heard saying very earnestly, “Now, you have all told your plans for the future, why don't you ask us ours?”
“Listen! And let her speak for herself,” replied Dr. Alec, as Rose's voice was heard saying very seriously, “Now that you’ve all shared your plans for the future, why don’t you ask us about ours?”
“Because we know that there is only one thing for a pretty girl to do break a dozen or so hearts before she finds one to suit, then marry and settle,” answered Charlie, as if no other reply was possible.
“Because we know that there's only one thing a pretty girl can do—break about a dozen hearts before she finds the right one, then get married and settle down,” Charlie replied, as if there were no other answer.
“That may be the case with many, but not with us, for Phebe and I believe that it is as much a right and a duty for women to do something with their lives as for men, and we are not going to be satisfied with such frivolous parts as you give us,” cried Rose with kindling eyes. “I mean what I say, and you cannot laugh me down. Would you be contented to be told to enjoy yourself for a little while, then marry and do nothing more till you die?” she added, turning to Archie.
"That might be true for many, but not for us, because Phebe and I believe that it's just as much a right and a responsibility for women to do something meaningful with their lives as it is for men. We’re not going to settle for the trivial roles you assign us,” Rose exclaimed, her eyes lighting up. “I mean every word, and you can't just laugh me off. Would you be happy if someone told you to have a little fun, then get married and do nothing else for the rest of your life?” she added, looking over at Archie.
“Of course not that is only a part of a man's life,” he answered decidedly.
“Of course not, that’s just one part of a man's life,” he replied confidently.
“A very precious and lovely part, but not all,” continued Rose. “Neither should it be for a woman, for we've got minds and souls as well as hearts; ambition and talents as well as beauty and accomplishments; and we want to live and learn as well as love and be loved. I'm sick of being told that is all a woman is fit for! I won't have anything to do with love till I prove that I am something besides a housekeeper and baby-tender!”
“A very valuable and beautiful part, but not all,” Rose continued. “It shouldn’t be for a woman, because we have minds and souls as well as hearts; ambition and talents along with beauty and skills; and we want to live and learn just as much as we want to love and be loved. I’m tired of being told that’s all a woman is meant for! I won’t do anything with love until I can show that I’m more than just a housekeeper and caregiver!”
“Heaven preserve us! Here's woman's rights with a vengeance!” cried Charlie, starting up with mock horror, while the others regarded Rose with mingled surprise and amusement, evidently fancying it all a girlish outbreak.
“Good heavens! Here’s women’s rights with a twist!” shouted Charlie, jumping up in fake shock, while the others looked at Rose with a mix of surprise and amusement, clearly thinking it was just a silly outburst from a girl.
“Ah, you needn't pretend to be shocked you will be in earnest presently, for this is only the beginning of my strong-mindedness,” continued Rose, nothing daunted by the smiles of good-natured incredulity or derision on the faces of her cousins. “I have made up my mind not to be cheated out of the real things that make one good and happy and, just because I'm a rich girl, fold my hands and drift as so many do. I haven't lived with Phebe all these years in vain. I know what courage and self-reliance can do for one, and I sometimes wish I hadn't a penny in the world so that I could go and earn my bread with her, and be as brave and independent as she will be pretty soon.”
“Hey, you don’t have to act surprised—you'll see I’m serious soon enough, because this is just the start of my determination,” Rose continued, completely unfazed by the amused disbelief or mockery on her cousins' faces. “I’ve decided that I won’t let anything rob me of the real things that make life good and happy. Just because I’m a rich girl doesn’t mean I’m going to sit back and let life happen to me like so many people do. I haven’t lived with Phebe all these years for nothing. I know what courage and self-reliance can achieve, and sometimes I wish I didn’t have any money at all so that I could go out and earn my living with her and be as brave and independent as she’s going to be very soon.”
It was evident that Rose was in earnest now, for as she spoke she turned to her friend with such respect as well as love in her face that the look told better than any words how heartily the rich girl appreciated the virtues hard experience had given the poor girl, and how eagerly she desired to earn what all her fortune could not buy for her.
It was clear that Rose was serious now, because as she spoke, she looked at her friend with a mix of respect and love that expressed more than words ever could. The look showed just how much the wealthy girl valued the qualities that hard experience had given the less fortunate girl, and how desperately she wanted to achieve what all her riches couldn't provide her.
Something in the glance exchanged between the friends impressed the young men in spite of their prejudices, and it was in a perfectly serious tone that Archie said, “I fancy you'll find your hands full, Cousin, if you want work, for I've heard people say that wealth has its troubles and trials as well as poverty.”
Something in the look exchanged between the friends caught the young men's attention despite their biases, and in a completely serious tone, Archie said, “I think you’ll find you’ve got your hands full, Cousin, if you’re looking for work, because I’ve heard people say that wealth comes with its own troubles and challenges just like poverty does.”
“I know it, and I'm going to try and fill my place well. I've got some capital little plans all made, and have begun to study my profession already,” answered Rose with an energetic nod.
“I know it, and I'm going to do my best to fit in. I have some great plans ready, and I've already started studying my profession,” Rose replied with an enthusiastic nod.
“Could I ask what it is to be?” inquired Charlie in a tone of awe.
“Can I ask what it is to be?” Charlie asked in a tone of awe.
“Guess!” and Rose looked up at him with an expression half-earnest, half-merry.
“Guess!” Rose said, looking up at him with a look that was part serious, part playful.
“Well, I should say that you were fitted for a beauty and a belle, but as that is evidently not to your taste, I am afraid you are going to study medicine and be a doctor. Won't your patients have a heavenly time though? It will be easy dying with an angel to poison them.”
"Well, I have to say you were made for beauty and to be a standout, but since that's clearly not what you want, I guess you're going to study medicine and become a doctor. Your patients are going to have a wonderful experience, right? It will be easy to pass away with an angel like you to take care of them."
“Now, Charlie, that's base of you, when you know how well women have succeeded in this profession and what a comfort Dr. Mary Kirk was to dear Aunt Peace. I did want to study medicine, but Uncle thought it wouldn't do to have so many M.D.'s in one family, since Mac thinks of trying it. Besides, I seem to have other work put into my hands that I am better fitted for.”
“Now, Charlie, that’s low of you, especially knowing how successful women have been in this field and how comforting Dr. Mary Kirk was to dear Aunt Peace. I did want to study medicine, but Uncle thought it wouldn’t be good to have too many M.D.s in one family, since Mac is considering it. Besides, it seems like I have other responsibilities that I'm more suited for.”
“You are fitted for anything that is generous and good, and I'll stand by you, no matter what you've chosen,” cried Mac heartily, for this was a new style of talk from a girl's lips, and he liked it immensely.
“You're made for all things generous and good, and I'll support you, whatever you choose,” Mac exclaimed enthusiastically, as this was a fresh way of speaking coming from a girl, and he really liked it.
“Philanthropy is a generous, good, and beautiful profession, and I've chosen it for mine because I have much to give. I'm only the steward of the fortune Papa left me, and I think, if I use it wisely for the happiness of others, it will be more blest than if I keep it all for myself.”
“Philanthropy is a generous, good, and beautiful profession, and I've chosen it for mine because I have much to give. I'm just the steward of the fortune Dad left me, and I believe that if I use it wisely for the happiness of others, it will be more blessed than if I keep it all for myself.”
Very sweetly and simply was this said, but it was curious to see how differently the various hearers received it.
Very sweetly and simply was this said, but it was interesting to see how differently the various listeners received it.
Charlie shot a quick look at his mother, who exclaimed, as if in spite of herself, “Now, Alec, are you going to let that girl squander a fine fortune on all sorts of charitable nonsense and wild schemes for the prevention of pauperism and crime?”
Charlie glanced at his mother, who exclaimed, almost against her will, “Now, Alec, are you really going to let that girl waste a great fortune on all kinds of charitable nonsense and crazy ideas to prevent poverty and crime?”
“'They who give to the poor lend to the Lord,' and practical Christianity is the kind He loves the best,” was all Dr. Alec answered, but it silenced the aunts and caused even prudent Uncle Mac to think with sudden satisfaction of certain secret investments he had made which paid him no interest but the thanks of the poor.
“They who give to the poor lend to the Lord,' and practical Christianity is the kind He loves the most,” was all Dr. Alec said, but it quieted the aunts and made even sensible Uncle Mac think with unexpected satisfaction of some secret investments he had made that earned him no interest except for the gratitude of the poor.
Archie and Mac looked well pleased and promised their advice and assistance with the enthusiasm of generous young hearts. Steve shook his head, but said nothing, and the lads on the rug at once proposed founding a hospital for invalid dogs and horses, white mice, and wounded heroes.
Archie and Mac looked happy and offered their advice and help with the enthusiasm of generous young hearts. Steve shook his head but didn’t say anything, and the guys on the rug immediately suggested starting a hospital for sick dogs and horses, white mice, and injured heroes.
“Don't you think that will be a better way for a woman to spend her life than in dancing, dressing, and husband-hunting, Charlie?” asked Rose, observing his silence and anxious for his approval.
“Don't you think that would be a better way for a woman to spend her life than dancing, dressing up, and looking for a husband, Charlie?” asked Rose, noticing his silence and eager for his approval.
“Very pretty for a little while, and very effective too, for I don't know anything more captivating than a sweet girl in a meek little bonnet going on charitable errands and glorifying poor people's houses with a delightful mixture of beauty and benevolence. Fortunately, the dear souls soon tire of it, but it's heavenly while it lasts.”
“Very pretty for a little while, and very effective too, because I don’t know anything more captivating than a sweet girl in a cute little bonnet doing charitable work and brightening up poor people's homes with a lovely combination of beauty and kindness. Thankfully, the dear souls soon get tired of it, but it’s wonderful while it lasts.”
Charlie spoke in a tone of mingled admiration and contempt, and smiled a superior sort of smile, as if he understood all the innocent delusions as well as the artful devices of the sex and expected nothing more from them. It both surprised and grieved Rose, for it did not sound like the Charlie she had left two years ago. But she only said, with a reproachful look and a proud little gesture of head and hand, as if she put the subject aside since it was not treated with respect: “I am sorry you have so low an opinion of women. There was a time when you believed in them sincerely.”
Charlie spoke in a mix of admiration and disdain, wearing a condescending smile, as if he understood both the innocent misconceptions and the clever tricks of women, expecting nothing more from them. This surprised and saddened Rose because it didn't sound like the Charlie she had known two years ago. But she simply said, with a disapproving look and a proud little gesture with her head and hand, as if dismissing the topic since it wasn't being treated with respect: “I'm sorry you think so little of women. There was a time when you truly believed in them.”
“I do still, upon my word I do! They haven't a more devoted admirer and slave in the world than I am. Just try me and see,” cried Charlie, gallantly kissing his hand to the sex in general.
“I really do, I swear I do! There's no more devoted fan and servant in the world than I am. Just test me and see,” Charlie exclaimed, gallantly kissing his hand to all the women.
But Rose was not appeased, and gave a disdainful shrug as she answered with a look in her eyes that his lordship did not like, “Thank you. I don't want admirers or slaves, but friends and helpers. I've lived so long with a wise, good man that I am rather hard to suit, perhaps, but I don't intend to lower my standard, and anyone who cares for my regard must at least try to live up to it.”
But Rose was not satisfied and gave a dismissive shrug as she replied with a look in her eyes that his lordship found unpleasant, “Thanks, but I don't want admirers or servants; I want friends and partners. I've spent so much time with a wise, good man that I might be a bit hard to please, but I refuse to lower my standards. Anyone who wants my respect has to at least make an effort to meet it.”
“Whew! Here's a wrathful dove! Come and smooth her ruffled plumage, Mac. I'll dodge before I do further mischief,” and Charlie strolled away into the other room, privately lamenting that Uncle Alec had spoiled a fine girl by making her strong-minded.
“Wow! Here’s an angry dove! Come and calm her down, Mac. I’ll step back before I cause any more trouble,” and Charlie walked into the other room, secretly feeling that Uncle Alec had ruined a great girl by turning her into a strong-minded one.
He wished himself back again in five minutes, for Mac said something that produced a gale of laughter, and when he took a look over his shoulder the “wrathful dove” was cooing so peacefully and pleasantly he was sorely tempted to return and share the fun. But Charlie had been spoiled by too much indulgence, and it was hard for him to own himself in the wrong even when he knew it. He always got what he wanted sooner or later, and having long ago made up his mind that Rose and her fortune were to be his, he was secretly displeased at the new plans and beliefs of the young lady, but flattered himself that they would soon be changed when she saw how unfashionable and inconvenient they were.
He wished he could go back in five minutes because Mac said something that made everyone laugh, and when he glanced over his shoulder, the “wrathful dove” was cooing so peacefully that he felt really tempted to join in on the fun. But Charlie had been spoiled by too much pampering, and it was hard for him to admit he was wrong even when he knew it. He always got what he wanted eventually, and having decided long ago that Rose and her fortune were meant for him, he was secretly annoyed by her new ideas and beliefs, though he convinced himself they would change once she saw how outdated and impractical they were.
Musing over the delightful future he had laid out, he made himself comfortable in the sofa corner near his mother till the appearance of a slight refection caused both groups to melt into one. Aunt Plenty believed in eating and drinking, so the slightest excuse for festivity delighted her hospitable soul, and on this joyful occasion she surpassed herself.
Thinking about the wonderful future he had planned, he got cozy in the sofa corner next to his mother until a small reflection brought everyone together. Aunt Plenty loved to eat and drink, so any excuse for a celebration made her generous spirit happy, and on this cheerful occasion, she went above and beyond.
It was during this informal banquet that Rose, roaming about from one admiring relative to another, came upon the three younger lads, who were having a quiet little scuffle in a secluded corner.
It was during this casual gathering that Rose, moving around from one adoring relative to another, stumbled upon the three younger boys, who were having a playful little fight in a hidden corner.
“Come out here and let me have a look at you,” she said enticingly, for she predicted an explosion and public disgrace if peace was not speedily restored.
“Come out here and let me see you,” she said enticingly, as she anticipated an outburst and public embarrassment if peace wasn’t quickly restored.
Hastily smoothing themselves down, the young gentlemen presented three flushed and merry countenances for inspection, feeling highly honored by the command.
Hastily straightening their clothes, the young men showed off three flushed and cheerful faces for inspection, feeling quite honored by the request.
“Dear me, how you two have grown! You big things how dare you get head of me in this way!” she said, standing on tiptoe to pat the curly pates before her, for Will and Geordie had shot up like weeds, and now grinned cheerfully down upon her as she surveyed them in comic amazement.
“Wow, you two have really grown! How dare you get so much taller than me!” she said, standing on her tiptoes to pat the curly heads in front of her, because Will and Geordie had shot up like weeds and were now beaming down at her as she looked at them in funny disbelief.
“The Campbells are all fine, tall fellows, and we mean to be the best of the lot. Shouldn't wonder if we were six-footers like Grandpa,” observed Will proudly, looking so like a young Shanghai rooster, all legs and an insignificant head, that Rose kept her countenance with difficulty.
“The Campbells are all great, tall guys, and we plan to be the best of the bunch. I wouldn't be surprised if we ended up six feet tall like Grandpa,” Will said proudly, looking just like a young rooster from Shanghai, all legs and a tiny head, which made it hard for Rose to keep a straight face.
“We shall broaden out when we get our growth. We are taller than Steve now, a half a head, both of us,” added Geordie, with his nose in the air.
“We'll expand once we grow more. We're both taller than Steve now, by half a head,” Geordie added, with his nose in the air.
Rose turned to look at Steve and, with a sudden smile, beckoned to him. He dropped his napkin and flew to obey the summons, for she was queen of the hour, and he had openly announced his deathless loyalty.
Rose turned to look at Steve and, with a sudden smile, waved him over. He dropped his napkin and rushed to respond, because she was the queen of the moment, and he had openly declared his unwavering loyalty.
“Tell the other boys to come here. I've a fancy to stand you all in a row and look you over, as you did me that dreadful day when you nearly frightened me out of my wits,” she said, laughing at the memory of it as she spoke.
“Tell the other guys to come over here. I want to line you all up and check you out, just like you did to me that awful day when you nearly scared me out of my mind,” she said, laughing at the memory as she spoke.
They came in a body and, standing shoulder to shoulder, made such an imposing array that the young commander was rather daunted for a moment. But she had seen too much of the world lately to be abashed by a trifle, and the desire to see a girlish test gave her courage to face the line of smiling cousins with dignity and spirit.
They came together and, standing side by side, presented such an impressive sight that the young commander felt a bit intimidated for a moment. But she had experienced too much of the world recently to be thrown off by something minor, and the urge to witness a girlish challenge gave her the courage to face the line of smiling cousins with confidence and energy.
“Now, I'm going to stare at you as you stared at me. It is my revenge on you seven bad boys for entrapping one poor little girl and enjoying her alarm. I'm not a bit afraid of you now, so tremble and beware!”
“Now, I’m going to look at you the way you looked at me. It’s my revenge on you seven troublemakers for trapping one poor little girl and getting a kick out of her panic. I’m not scared of you at all now, so shake in your boots and watch out!”
As she spoke, Rose looked up into Archie's face and nodded approvingly, for the steady gray eyes met hers fairly and softened as they did so a becoming change, for naturally they were rather keen than kind.
As she talked, Rose looked up into Archie's face and nodded in agreement, because his steady gray eyes met hers honestly and softened in a nice way, since they were usually more sharp than gentle.
“A true Campbell, bless you!” she said, and shook his hand heartily as she passed on.
“A true Campbell, bless you!” she said, shaking his hand warmly as she walked by.
Charlie came next, and here she felt less satisfied, though scarcely conscious why, for, as she looked, there came a defiant sort of flash, changing suddenly to something warmer than anger, stronger than pride, making her shrink a little and say, hastily, “I don't find the Charlie I left, but the Prince is there still, I see.”
Charlie came next, and here she felt less satisfied, though she wasn’t quite sure why. As she looked, there was a defiant flash that quickly shifted to something warmer than anger and stronger than pride, making her shrink back a little and say quickly, “I don’t see the Charlie I left, but I can still see the Prince.”
Turning to Mac with a sense of relief, she gently took off his “winkers,” as Jamie called them, and looked straight into the honest blue eyes that looked straight back at her, full of a frank and friendly affection that warmed her heart and made her own eyes brighten as she gave back the glasses, saying, with a look and tone of cordial satisfaction, “You are not changed, my dear old Mac, and I'm so glad of that!”
Turning to Mac with a sense of relief, she gently took off his "winkers," as Jamie called them, and looked straight into his honest blue eyes that looked straight back at her, full of a sincere and friendly affection that warmed her heart and made her own eyes light up as she handed back the glasses, saying, with a look and tone of genuine satisfaction, "You haven't changed, my dear old Mac, and I'm so glad about that!"
“Now say something extra sweet to me, because I'm the flower of the family,” said Steve, twirling the blond moustache, which was evidently the pride of his life.
“Now say something really sweet to me, because I'm the flower of the family,” said Steve, twirling his blond mustache, which was clearly the pride of his life.
Rose saw at a glance that Dandy deserved his name more than ever, and promptly quenched his vanities by answering, with a provoking laugh, “Then the name of the flower of the family is Cockscomb.”
Rose instantly realized that Dandy lived up to his name more than ever, and quickly put his egotism in check by responding with a teasing laugh, “So that makes the flower of the family a Cockscomb.”
“Ah, ha! who's got it now?” jeered Will.
“Ha! Who has it now?” mocked Will.
“Let us off easy, please,” whispered Geordie, mindful that their turn came next.
“Please, let us off easy,” whispered Geordie, aware that it was their turn next.
“You blessed beanstalks! I'm proud of you only don't grow quite out of sight, or even be ashamed to look a woman in the face,” answered Rose, with a gentle pat on the cheek of either bashful young giant, for both were red as peonies, though their boyish eyes were as clear and calm as summer lakes.
“You wonderful beanstalks! I’m so proud of you, just don’t grow so tall that you disappear from sight, and don’t be shy about looking a woman in the eye,” Rose said, giving a gentle pat on the cheek of each shy young giant, both of whom were as red as peonies, even though their youthful eyes were as clear and calm as summer lakes.
“Now me!” and Jamie assumed his manliest air, feeling that he did not appear to advantage among his tall kinsmen. But he went to the head of the class in everyone's opinion when Rose put her arms around him, saying, with a kiss, “You must be my boy now, for all the others are too old, and I want a faithful little page to do my errands for me.”
“Now it’s my turn!” Jamie declared, trying to project his bravest demeanor, aware that he didn't quite measure up next to his taller relatives. But he won everyone over when Rose wrapped her arms around him and said, giving him a kiss, “You have to be my boy now, because all the others are too grown-up, and I need a loyal little page to run my errands.”
“I will, I will I'll marry you too, if you'll just hold on till I grow up!” cried Jamie, rather losing his head at this sudden promotion.
“I will, I will! I’ll marry you too if you just wait until I grow up!” Jamie cried, somewhat losing his composure at this unexpected proposal.
“Bless the baby, what is he talking about?” laughed Rose, looking down at her little knight as he clung about her with grateful ardor.
“Bless the baby, what is he talking about?” laughed Rose, looking down at her little knight as he clung to her with grateful enthusiasm.
“Oh, I heard the aunts say that you'd better marry one of us, and keep the property in the family, so I speak first, because you are very fond of me, and I do love curls.”
“Oh, I heard the aunts say that you should marry one of us to keep the property in the family, so I'm speaking first, because you really like me, and I do love curls.”
Alas for Jamie! This awful speech had hardly left his innocent lips when Will and Geordie swept him out of the room like a whirlwind, and the howls of that hapless boy were heard from the torture hall, where being shut into the skeleton case was one of the mildest punishments inflicted upon him.
Alas for Jamie! This terrible speech had barely escaped his innocent lips when Will and Geordie whisked him out of the room like a whirlwind, and the cries of that unfortunate boy echoed from the torture hall, where being locked in the skeleton case was one of the lighter punishments dealt to him.
Dismay fell upon the unfortunates who remained, but their confusion was soon ended, for Rose, with a look which they had never seen upon her face before, dismissed them with the brief command, “Break ranks the review is over,” and walked away to Phebe.
Dismay fell upon the unfortunate ones who stayed behind, but their confusion was quickly resolved, as Rose, with an expression they had never seen on her face before, dismissed them with a simple command, “Break ranks, the review is over,” and walked away to Phebe.
“Confound that boy! You ought to shut him up or gag him!” fumed Charlie irritably.
“Damn that kid! You should really put him in time-out or shut him up!” Charlie said irritably.
“He shall be attended to,” answered poor Archie, who was trying to bring up the little marplot with the success of most parents and guardians.
“He’ll be taken care of,” replied poor Archie, who was trying to raise the little troublemaker with the typical success of most parents and guardians.
“The whole thing was deuced disagreeable,” growled Steve, who felt that he had not distinguished himself in the late engagement.
“The whole thing was really unpleasant,” grumbled Steve, who thought he hadn’t done well in the recent confrontation.
“Truth generally is,” observed Mac dryly as he strolled away with his odd smile.
“Truth usually is,” Mac remarked dryly as he walked away with his quirky smile.
As if he suspected discord somewhere, Dr. Alec proposed music at this crisis, and the young people felt that it was a happy thought.
As if he sensed tension nearby, Dr. Alec suggested music at this moment, and the young people thought it was a great idea.
“I want you to hear both my birds, for they have improved immensely, and I am very proud of them,” said the doctor, twirling up the stool and pulling out the old music books.
“I want you to listen to both my birds, as they’ve made huge progress, and I’m really proud of them,” said the doctor, spinning the stool around and pulling out the old music books.
“I had better come first, for after you have heard the nightingale you won't care for the canary,” added Rose, wishing to put Phebe at her ease, for she sat among them looking like a picture, but rather shy and silent, remembering the days when her place was in the kitchen.
“I should probably come first, because once you’ve heard the nightingale, you won’t be as interested in the canary,” Rose added, trying to make Phebe feel more comfortable, since she was sitting with them looking like a painting, but she seemed a bit shy and quiet, thinking about the times when she used to be in the kitchen.
“I'll give you some of the dear old songs you used to like so much. This was a favorite, I think,” and sitting down she sang the first familiar air that came, and sang it well in a pleasant, but by no means finished, manner.
“I'll share some of the beloved old songs you used to enjoy so much. I think this was a favorite,” and sitting down, she sang the first familiar tune that came to mind, and sang it well in a pleasant, but definitely not polished, way.
It chanced to be “The Birks of Aberfeldie,” and vividly recalled the time when Mac was ill and she took care of him. The memory was sweet to her, and involuntarily her eye wandered in search of him. He was not far away, sitting just as he used to sit when she soothed his most despondent moods astride of a chair with his head down on his arms, as if the song suggested the attitude. Her heart quite softened to him as she looked, and she decided to forgive him if no one else, for she was sure that he had no mercenary plans about her tiresome money.
It turned out to be “The Birks of Aberfeldie,” and it brought back memories of when Mac was sick and she took care of him. The memory was sweet for her, and without thinking, her gaze searched for him. He wasn’t far away, sitting just like he used to when she comforted his most gloomy moments, perched on a chair with his head resting on his arms, as if the song had inspired that pose. Her heart warmed for him as she looked, and she decided to forgive him, at least for herself, because she was confident he didn’t have any ulterior motives regarding her annoying money.
Charlie had assumed a pensive air and fixed his fine eyes upon her with an expression of tender admiration, which made her laugh in spite of all her efforts to seem unconscious of it. She was both amused and annoyed at his very evident desire to remind her of certain sentimental passages in the last year of their girl- and boy-hood, and to change what she had considered a childish joke into romantic earnest. Rose had very serious ideas of love and had no intention of being beguiled into even a flirtation with her handsome cousin.
Charlie had taken on a thoughtful look and focused his striking eyes on her with an expression of genuine admiration that made her laugh despite her efforts to act like she didn’t notice. She was both entertained and irritated by his clear desire to bring up certain sentimental moments from the last year of their childhood and to turn what she had thought was a silly joke into something serious. Rose had strong opinions about love and was determined not to be led into even a flirtation with her attractive cousin.
So Charlie attitudinized unnoticed and was getting rather out of temper when Phebe began to sing, and he forgot all about himself in admiration of her. It took everyone by surprise, for two years of foreign training added to several at home had worked wonders, and the beautiful voice that used to warble cheerily over pots and kettles now rang out melodiously or melted to a mellow music that woke a sympathetic thrill in those who listened. Rose glowed with pride as she accompanied her friend, for Phebe was in her own world now a lovely world where no depressing memory of poorhouse or kitchen, ignorance or loneliness, came to trouble her, a happy world where she could be herself and rule others by the magic of her sweet gift.
So Charlie sulked unnoticed and was getting pretty frustrated when Phebe started to sing, and he completely forgot about himself while admiring her. Everyone was taken by surprise because two years of training abroad, along with several years at home, had worked wonders. The beautiful voice that used to cheerfully sing over pots and pans now rang out melodiously or melted into a rich sound that stirred a sympathetic thrill in those listening. Rose beamed with pride as she accompanied her friend, since Phebe was now in her own beautiful world, a place where no painful memories of the poorhouse or kitchen, ignorance or loneliness, could disturb her—a joyful world where she could be herself and enchant others with the magic of her sweet talent.
Yes, Phebe was herself now, and showed it in the change that came over her at the first note of music. No longer shy and silent, no longer the image of a handsome girl but a blooming woman, alive and full of the eloquence her art gave her, as she laid her hands softly together, fixed her eye on the light, and just poured out her song as simply and joyfully as the lark does soaring toward the sun.
Yes, Phebe was herself now, and it was clear in the transformation that occurred at the first sound of music. No longer shy and quiet, she was no longer just a beautiful girl but a vibrant woman, full of life and expressing herself with the passion her art provided. With her hands gently clasped, her gaze fixed on the light, she sang out her song as simply and joyfully as a lark soaring toward the sun.
“My faith, Alec that's the sort of voice that wins a man's heart out of his breast!” exclaimed Uncle Mac, wiping his eyes after one of the plaintive ballads that never grow old.
“My faith, Alec, that’s the kind of voice that wins a man’s heart!” exclaimed Uncle Mac, wiping his eyes after one of those timeless, heartfelt ballads.
“So it would!” answered Dr. Alec delightedly.
“So it would!” Dr. Alec replied happily.
“So it has,” added Archie to himself; and he was right, for just at that moment he fell in love with Phebe. He actually did, and could fix the time almost to a second, for at a quarter past nine, he merely thought her a very charming young person; at twenty minutes past, he considered her the loveliest woman he ever beheld; at five and twenty minutes past, she was an angel singing his soul away; and at half after nine he was a lost man, floating over a delicious sea to that temporary heaven on earth where lovers usually land after the first rapturous plunge.
“So it has,” Archie said to himself, and he was right, because at that moment, he fell for Phebe. He really did, and he could pinpoint the moment almost exactly: at a quarter past nine, he thought she was just a very charming young woman; at twenty minutes past, he saw her as the most beautiful woman he had ever seen; at twenty-five minutes past, she became an angel singing away his soul; and by half past nine, he was a lost man, drifting on a blissful sea to that temporary paradise on earth where lovers usually find themselves after that first exhilarating dive.
If anyone had mentioned this astonishing fact, nobody would have believed it; nevertheless, it was quite true, and sober, businesslike Archie suddenly discovered a fund of romance at the bottom of his hitherto well-conducted heart that amazed him. He was not quite clear what had happened to him at first, and sat about in a dazed sort of way, seeing, hearing, knowing nothing but Phebe, while the unconscious idol found something wanting in the cordial praise so modestly received because Mr. Archie never said a word.
If anyone had brought up this incredible fact, no one would have believed it; yet, it was completely true, and practical, businesslike Archie suddenly realized there was a romantic side to his previously well-behaved heart that surprised him. He wasn't quite sure what had happened to him at first and just sat around in a daze, seeing, hearing, and knowing nothing but Phebe, while the unaware idol sensed something was missing in the warm compliments that were so humbly accepted because Mr. Archie never said a word.
This was one of the remarkable things which occurred that evening. Another was that Mac paid Rose a compliment, which was such an unprecedented fact, it produced a great sensation, though only one person heard it.
This was one of the amazing things that happened that evening. Another was that Mac complimented Rose, which was so unexpected that it caused quite a stir, even though only one person heard it.
Everybody had gone but Mac and his father, who was busy with the doctor. Aunt Plenty was counting the teaspoons in the dining room, and Phebe was helping her as of old. Mac and Rose were alone he apparently in a brown study, leaning his elbows on the chimneypiece, and she lying back in a low chair looking thoughtfully at the fire. She was tired, and the quiet was grateful to her, so she kept silence and Mac respectfully held his tongue. Presently, however, she became conscious that he was looking at her as intently as eyes and glasses could do it, and without stirring from her comfortable attitude, she said, smiling up at him, “He looks as wise as an owl I wonder what he's thinking about?”
Everyone had left except for Mac and his father, who was busy with the doctor. Aunt Plenty was counting the teaspoons in the dining room, and Phebe was helping her just like before. Mac and Rose were alone; he was apparently lost in thought, resting his elbows on the mantelpiece, while she reclined in a low chair, gazing thoughtfully at the fire. She was tired, and the calm was appreciated, so she stayed silent, and Mac respectfully kept quiet. After a while, though, she noticed that he was looking at her as intently as his eyes and glasses could manage. Without changing her comfortable position, she smiled up at him and said, “He looks as wise as an owl. I wonder what he's thinking about?”
“You, Cousin.”
“You, cousin.”
“Something good, I hope?”
"Something good, I hope?"
“I was thinking Leigh Hunt was about right when he said, 'A girl is the sweetest thing God ever made.'”
“I thought Leigh Hunt was spot on when he said, 'A girl is the sweetest thing God ever made.'”
“Why, Mac!” and Rose sat bolt upright with an astonished face this was such an entirely unexpected sort of remark for the philosopher to make.
“Why, Mac!” Rose sat up straight, stunned. This was such an entirely unexpected thing for the philosopher to say.
Evidently interested in the new discovery, Mac placidly continued, “Do you know, it seems as if I never really saw a girl before, or had any idea what agreeable creatures they could be. I fancy you are a remarkably good specimen, Rose.”
Evidently intrigued by the new discovery, Mac calmly continued, “You know, it feels like I’ve never really seen a girl before or understood how enjoyable they could be. I think you’re a truly great example, Rose.”
“No, indeed! I'm only hearty and happy, and being safe at home again may make me look better than usual perhaps, but I'm no beauty except to Uncle.”
“No, really! I'm just feeling good and happy, and being back home safe might make me look better than usual, but I'm not exactly a beauty except to Uncle.”
“'Hearty and happy' that must be it,” echoed Mac, soberly investigating the problem. “Most girls are sickly or silly, I think I have observed, and that is probably why I am so struck with you.”
“'Hearty and happy'—that must be it,” Mac said, thoughtfully considering the issue. “Most girls are either frail or foolish, and I think that’s probably why I find you so striking.”
“Of all the queer boys you are the queerest! Do you really mean that you don't like or notice girls?” asked Rose, much amused at this new peculiarity of her studious cousin.
“Of all the quirky guys, you’re the quirkiest! Do you really mean you don’t like or notice girls?” asked Rose, finding her studious cousin’s new trait quite amusing.
“Well, no, I am only conscious of two sorts noisy and quiet ones. I prefer the latter, but, as a general thing, I don't notice any of them much more than I do flies, unless they bother me, then I'd like to flap them away, but as that won't do, I hide.”
“Well, no, I'm only aware of two types: noisy and quiet. I prefer the quiet ones, but generally, I don't pay much attention to either, just like I don't notice flies unless they annoy me. Then I'd want to swat them away, but since that doesn't work, I just hide.”
Rose leaned back and laughed until her eyes were full. It was so comical to hear Mac sink his voice to a confidential whisper at the last words and see him smile with sinful satisfaction at the memory of the tormentors he had eluded.
Rose leaned back and laughed until her eyes were teary. It was so funny to hear Mac lower his voice to a secretive whisper at the end and to see him grin with guilty pleasure at the thought of the bullies he had escaped.
“You needn't laugh it's a fact, I assure you. Charlie likes the creatures, and they spoil him. Steve follows suit, of course. Archie is a respectful slave when he can't help himself. As for me, I don't often give them a chance, and when I get caught I talk science and dead languages till they run for their lives. Now and then I find a sensible one, and then we get on excellently.”
“You don’t have to laugh, it’s true, I promise you. Charlie loves the animals, and they totally spoil him. Steve does the same, of course. Archie is a respectful slave when he can’t help it. As for me, I don’t usually give them a chance, and when I do get caught, I start talking science and dead languages until they can’t take it anymore. Every now and then, I come across one who’s sensible, and then we get along really well.”
“A sad prospect for Phebe and me,” sighed Rose, trying to keep sober.
“A sad situation for Phebe and me,” sighed Rose, trying to stay serious.
“Phebe is evidently a quiet one. I know she is sensible, or you wouldn't care for her. I can see that she is pleasant to look at, so I fancy I shall like her. As for you, I helped bring you up, therefore I am a little anxious to see how you turn out. I was afraid your foreign polish might spoil you, but I think it has not. In fact, I find you quite satisfactory so far, if you don't mind my saying it. I don't quite know what the charm is, though. Must be the power of inward graces, since you insist that you have no outer ones.”
“Phebe is clearly a quiet person. I know she's sensible, or you wouldn't be interested in her. I can tell she's nice to look at, so I think I’ll like her. As for you, I helped raise you, so I'm a bit curious to see how you turn out. I was worried that your foreign sophistication might spoil you, but I don't think it has. In fact, I find you quite impressive so far, if you don't mind me saying that. I’m not entirely sure what the appeal is, though. It must be the strength of your inner qualities, since you insist that you have no outer ones.”
Mac was peering at her with a shrewd smile on his lips, but such a kindly look behind the glasses that she found both words and glance very pleasant and answered merrily, “I am glad you approve of me, and much obliged for your care of my early youth. I hope to be a credit to you and depend on your keeping me straight, for I'm afraid I shall be spoilt among you all.”
Mac was looking at her with a clever smile on his lips, but there was such a friendly expression behind his glasses that she found both his words and his gaze very pleasant. She replied cheerfully, “I’m glad you approve of me, and I really appreciate your guidance during my younger years. I hope to make you proud and I’m counting on you to keep me in line because I’m worried I might get spoiled around all of you.”
“I'll keep my eye on you upon one condition,” replied the youthful mentor.
“I'll keep an eye on you under one condition,” replied the young mentor.
“Name it.”
"Say its name."
“If you are going to have a lot of lovers around, I wash my hands of you. If not, I'm your man.”
“If you’re going to have a bunch of lovers around, I’m done with you. If not, I’m all yours.”
“You must be sheep dog and help keep them away, for I don't want any yet awhile and, between ourselves, I don't believe I shall have any if it is known that I am strong-minded. That fact will scare most men away like a yellow flag,” said Rose, for, thanks to Dr. Alec's guardianship, she had wasted neither heart nor time in the foolish flirtations so many girls fritter away their youth upon.
“You need to be a protective friend and help keep them away because I’m not ready for any of that yet. Honestly, I don’t think I’ll have any chance if people know I’m independent. That’ll freak most guys out like a warning sign,” said Rose, since, thanks to Dr. Alec's guidance, she hadn’t wasted her heart or time on the silly flirting that many girls throw away their youth on.
“Hum! I rather doubt that,” muttered Mac as he surveyed the damsel before him.
“Hum! I'm not so sure about that,” muttered Mac as he looked over the young woman in front of him.
She certainly did not look unpleasantly strong-minded, and she was beautiful in spite of her modest denials. Beautiful with the truest sort of beauty, for nobility of character lent its subtle charm to the bloom of youth, the freshness of health, the innocence of a nature whose sweet maidenliness Mac felt but could not describe. Gentle yet full of spirit, and all aglow with the earnestness that suggests lovely possibilities and makes one hope that such human flowers may have heaven's purest air and warmest sunshine to blossom in.
She definitely didn't come off as overly strong-minded, and she was beautiful despite her humble denials. She had the truest kind of beauty, as her noble character added a subtle charm to her youthful bloom, the freshness of her health, and the innocence of a nature that Mac sensed but couldn't put into words. She was gentle yet full of spirit, radiating an earnestness that hinted at lovely possibilities and made one hope that such human beauties could thrive in heaven's purest air and warmest sunshine.
“Wait and see,” answered Rose; then, as her uncle's voice was heard in the hall, she held out her hand, adding pleasantly, “The old times are to begin again, so come soon and tell me all your doings and help me with mine just as you used to do.”
“Wait and see,” Rose replied; then, as her uncle's voice echoed in the hall, she reached out her hand and added with a smile, “The good old days are about to start again, so come by soon and share everything you’ve been up to and help me with mine like you used to.”
“You really mean it?” And Mac looked much pleased.
“You really mean it?” Mac looked really pleased.
“I really do. You are so little altered, except to grow big, that I don't feel at all strange with you and want to begin where we left off.”
"I really do. You've changed so little, except to grow taller, that I don't feel strange at all with you and want to pick up where we left off."
“That will be capital. Good night, Cousin,” and to her great amazement, he gave her a hearty kiss.
"That will be great. Good night, Cousin," and to her shock, he gave her a warm kiss.
“Oh, but that is not the old way at all!” cried Rose, stepping back in merry confusion while the audacious youth assumed an air of mild surprise as he innocently asked: “Didn't we always say good night in that way? I had an impression that we did and were to begin just as we left off.”
“Oh, but that’s not the old way at all!” Rose exclaimed, stepping back in cheerful confusion while the bold young man feigned mild surprise as he innocently asked, “Didn’t we always say goodnight like that? I thought we did and were going to pick up where we left off.”
“Of course not. No power on earth would have bribed you to do it, as you know well enough. I don't mind the first night, but we are too old for that sort of thing now.”
“Of course not. No one on earth could have bribed you to do it, as you well know. I don't mind the first night, but we're too old for that kind of thing now.”
“I'll remember. It was the force of habit, I suppose, for I'm sure I must have done it in former times, it seemed so natural. Coming, Father!” and Mac retired, evidently convinced he was right.
“I'll remember. I guess it was just a habit because I'm pretty sure I must have done it before; it felt so natural. Coming, Dad!” and Mac left, clearly convinced he was right.
“Dear old thing! He is as much a boy as ever, and that is such a comfort, for some of the others have grown up very fast,” said Rose to herself, recalling Charlie's sentimental airs and Archie's beatified expression while Phebe sang.
“Dear old thing! He’s still just as much a boy as ever, and that’s such a relief, because some of the others have grown up really quickly,” Rose said to herself, thinking about Charlie's overly sentimental behavior and Archie's blissful expression while Phebe sang.
Chapter 2 OLD FRIENDS WITH NEW FACES
“It is so good to be home again! I wonder how we ever made up our minds to go away!” exclaimed Rose as she went roaming about the old house next morning, full of the satisfaction one feels at revisiting familiar nooks and corners and finding them unchanged.
“It feels so great to be home again! I can't believe we ever decided to leave!” Rose exclaimed as she wandered through the old house the next morning, filled with the joy of revisiting familiar nooks and crannies and seeing that they hadn’t changed.
“That we might have the pleasure of coming back again,” answered Phebe, walking down the hall beside her little mistress, as happy as she.
"That we can enjoy coming back again," replied Phebe, walking down the hall next to her young mistress, just as happy as she was.
“Everything seems just as we left it, even to the rose leaves we used to tuck in here,” continued the younger girl, peeping into one of the tall India jars that stood about the hall.
“Everything looks exactly how we left it, even the rose leaves we used to tuck in here,” the younger girl said, looking into one of the tall Indian jars that stood around the hall.
“Don't you remember how Jamie and Pokey used to play Forty Thieves with them, and how you tried to get into that blue one and got stuck, and the other boys found us before I could pull you out?” asked Phebe, laughing.
“Don't you remember how Jamie and Pokey used to play Forty Thieves with us, and how you tried to get into that blue one and got stuck, and the other boys found us before I could pull you out?” asked Phebe, laughing.
“Yes, indeed, and speaking of angels, one is apt to hear the rustling of their wings,” added Rose, as a shrill whistle came up the avenue accompanied by the clatter of hoofs.
“Yes, definitely, and speaking of angels, you can't help but hear the rustling of their wings,” added Rose, as a sharp whistle echoed down the avenue, accompanied by the sound of hooves clattering.
“It is the circus!” cried Phebe gaily as they both recalled the red cart and the charge of the clan.
“It’s the circus!” Phebe exclaimed happily as they both remembered the red cart and the rush of the clan.
There was only one boy now, alas, but he made noise enough for half a dozen, and before Rose could run to the door, Jamie came bouncing in with a “shining morning face,” a bat over his shoulder, a red and white jockey cap on his head, one pocket bulging with a big ball, the other overflowing with cookies, and his mouth full of the apple he was just finishing off in hot haste.
There was only one boy now, unfortunately, but he made enough noise for six, and before Rose could run to the door, Jamie came bouncing in with a “shining morning face,” a bat over his shoulder, a red and white jockey cap on his head, one pocket stuffed with a big ball, the other overflowing with cookies, and his mouth full of the apple he was just finishing off in a hurry.
“Morning! I just looked in to make sure you'd really come and see that you were all right,” he observed, saluting with bat and doffing the gay cap with one effective twitch.
“Morning! I just stopped by to make sure you actually came and to check that you’re all right,” he said, waving with his bat and taking off his colorful cap with a quick motion.
“Good morning, dear. Yes, we really are here, and getting to rights as fast as possible. But it seems to me you are rather gorgeous, Jamie. What do you belong to a fire company or a jockey club?” asked Rose, turning up the once chubby face, which now was getting brown and square about the chin.
“Good morning, dear. Yes, we're really here and getting everything sorted as quickly as we can. But I must say, you look rather stunning, Jamie. Are you part of a fire department or a jockey club?” asked Rose, tilting up the once-chubby face, which was now becoming tanned and square around the chin.
“No, ma'am! Why, don't you know? I'm captain of the Base Ball Star Club. Look at that, will you?” And, as if the fact were one of national importance, Jamie flung open his jacket to display upon his proudly swelling chest an heart-shaped red flannel shield decorated with a white cotton star the size of a tea plate.
“No, ma'am! Don't you know? I'm the captain of the Baseball Star Club. Look at this!” And, as if it were of national significance, Jamie threw open his jacket to proudly show off a heart-shaped red flannel badge adorned with a white cotton star the size of a plate.
“Superb! I've been away so long I forgot there was such a game. And you the captain?” cried Rose, deeply impressed by the high honor to which her kinsman had arrived.
“Awesome! I’ve been gone so long I forgot there was such a game. And you’re the captain?” exclaimed Rose, really impressed by the high honor her relative had achieved.
“I just am, and it's no joke you'd better believe, for we knock our teeth out, black our eyes, and split our fingers almost as well as the big fellows. You come down to the Common between one and two and see us play a match, then you'll understand what hard work it is. I'll teach you to bat now if you'll come out on the lawn,” added Jamie, fired with a wish to exhibit his prowess.
“I just am, and it’s no joke, you’d better believe it. We get our teeth knocked out, our eyes blackened, and our fingers split just like the big guys do. You should come down to the Common between one and two and watch us play a match; then you’ll see how hard we work. I can teach you to bat now if you want to come out on the lawn,” added Jamie, excited to show off his skills.
“No, thank you, captain. The grass is wet, and you'll be late at school if you stay for us.”
“No, thank you, captain. The grass is wet, and you'll be late for school if you stay for us.”
“I'm not afraid. Girls are not good for much generally, but you never used to mind a little wet and played cricket like a good one. Can't you ever do that sort of thing now?” asked the boy, with a pitying look at these hapless creatures debarred from the joys and perils of manly sports.
“I'm not afraid. Generally, girls aren't worth much, but you used to enjoy getting a little wet and played cricket really well. Can't you do that kind of thing anymore?” the boy asked, looking pityingly at these unfortunate girls who were missing out on the fun and excitement of sports.
“I can run still and I'll get to the gate before you, see if I don't.” And, yielding to the impulse of the moment, Rose darted down the steps before astonished Jamie could mount and follow.
“I can still run, and I’ll reach the gate before you, just watch me.” And, giving in to the urge of the moment, Rose rushed down the steps before a stunned Jamie could get up and follow.
He was off in a moment, but Rose had the start, and though old Sheltie did his best, she reached the goal just ahead, and stood there laughing and panting, all rosy with fresh October air, a pretty picture for several gentlemen who were driving by.
He took off in an instant, but Rose had the jump on him, and even though old Sheltie tried his hardest, she got to the finish line just before him. She stood there laughing and breathing heavily, her cheeks flushed from the crisp October air, a charming sight for a few gentlemen driving by.
“Good for you, Rose!” said Archie, jumping out to shake hands while Will and Geordie saluted and Uncle Mac laughed at Jamie, who looked as if girls had risen slightly in his opinion.
“Good for you, Rose!” said Archie, jumping out to shake hands while Will and Geordie waved, and Uncle Mac laughed at Jamie, who seemed to think a little more highly of girls now.
“I'm glad it is you, because you won't be shocked. But I'm so happy to be back I forgot I was not little Rose still,” said Atalanta, smoothing down her flying hair.
“I'm glad it's you because you won't be surprised. But I'm so happy to be back that I forgot I wasn't little Rose anymore,” said Atalanta, smoothing her wild hair.
“You look very like her, with the curls on your shoulders in the old way. I missed them last night and wondered what it was. How are Uncle and Phebe?” asked Archie, whose eyes had been looking over Rose's head while he spoke toward the piazza, where a female figure was visible among the reddening woodbines.
“You look just like her, with your curls on your shoulders like they used to be. I missed them last night and couldn't figure out why. How are Uncle and Phebe?” asked Archie, whose eyes had been searching over Rose's head as he spoke toward the porch, where a woman was visible among the reddening woodbines.
“All well, thanks. Won't you come up and see for yourselves?”
“All good, thanks. Why not come up and see for yourselves?”
“Can't, my dear, can't possibly. Business, you know, business. This fellow is my right-hand man, and I can't spare him a minute. Come, Arch, we must be off, or these boys will miss their train,” answered Uncle Mac, pulling out his watch.
“Can’t, my dear, can’t possibly. Business, you know, business. This guy is my right-hand man, and I can’t spare him for a second. Come on, Arch, we’ve got to go, or these boys will miss their train,” answered Uncle Mac, pulling out his watch.
With a last look from the light-haired figure at the gate to the dark-haired one among the vines, Archie drove away and Jamie cantered after, consoling himself for his defeat with apple number two.
With one last glance from the light-haired person at the gate to the dark-haired one among the vines, Archie drove away and Jamie rode after, comforting himself for his loss with his second apple.
Rose lingered a moment, feeling much inclined to continue her run and pop in upon all the aunts in succession, but, remembering her uncovered head, was about to turn back when a cheerful “Ahoy! ahoy!” made her look up to see Mac approaching at a great pace, waving his hat as he came.
Rose paused for a moment, really wanting to keep running and visit all the aunts one after another, but remembering her bare head, she was about to turn back when a cheerful “Hey! Hey!” made her look up to see Mac coming towards her quickly, waving his hat as he approached.
“The Campbells are coming, thick and fast this morning, and the more the merrier,” she said, running to meet him. “You look like a good boy going to school, and virtuously conning your lesson by the way,” she added, smiling to see him take his finger out of the book he had evidently been reading, and tuck it under his arm, just as he used to do years ago.
“The Campbells are coming in droves this morning, and the more, the merrier,” she said, running to meet him. “You look like a good kid heading to school, and dutifully studying your lesson on the way,” she added, smiling as she saw him pull his finger out of the book he had clearly been reading and tuck it under his arm, just like he used to do years ago.
“I am a schoolboy, going to the school I like best,” he answered, waving a plumy spray of asters as if pointing out the lovely autumn world about them, full of gay hues, fresh airs, and mellow sunshine.
“I’m just a student, heading to my favorite school,” he replied, waving a fluffy bunch of asters as if highlighting the beautiful autumn scenery around them, filled with vibrant colors, fresh air, and warm sunshine.
“That reminds me that I didn't get a chance to hear much about your plans last night the other boys all talked at once, and you only got a word now and then. What have you decided to be, Mac?” asked Rose as they went up the avenue side by side.
“That reminds me that I didn't get a chance to hear much about your plans last night. The other guys all talked at once, and you only got in a word here and there. What have you decided to do, Mac?” asked Rose as they walked up the avenue side by side.
“A man first, and a good one if possible. After that, what God pleases.”
“A man first, and a good one if possible. After that, whatever God wants.”
Something in the tone, as well as the words, made Rose look up quickly into Mac's face to see a new expression there. It was indescribable, but she felt as she had often done when watching the mists part suddenly, giving glimpses of some mountaintop, shining serene and high against the blue.
Something in the tone, along with the words, made Rose look up quickly into Mac's face to notice a new expression there. It was hard to describe, but she felt as she often did when watching the mists suddenly clear, revealing glimpses of a mountaintop, shining peacefully and high against the blue sky.
“I think you will be something splendid, for you really look quite glorified, walking under this arch of yellow leaves with the sunshine on your face,” she exclaimed, conscious of a sudden admiration never felt before, for Mac was the plainest of all the cousins.
“I think you're going to be something amazing because you truly look so radiant, walking under this arch of yellow leaves with the sunshine on your face,” she exclaimed, feeling a sudden admiration she had never experienced before, since Mac was the plainest of all the cousins.
“I don't know about that, but I have my dreams and aspirations, and some of them are pretty high ones. Aim at the best, you know, and keep climbing if you want to get on,” he said, looking at the asters with an inward sort of smile, as if he and they had some sweet secret between them.
“I don't know about that, but I have my dreams and goals, and some of them are pretty lofty. Aim for the best, you know, and keep climbing if you want to succeed,” he said, looking at the asters with a subtle smile, as if he and they shared some sweet secret.
“You are queerer than ever. But I like your ambition, and hope you will get on. Only mustn't you begin at something soon? I fancied you would study medicine with Uncle that used to be our plan, you know.”
“You're more unique than ever. But I admire your ambition and hope you succeed. Just don't you think you should start something soon? I thought you were going to study medicine with Uncle; that used to be our plan, remember?”
“I shall, for the present at least, because I quite agree with you that it is necessary to have an anchor somewhere and not go floating off into the world of imagination without ballast of the right sort. Uncle and I had some talk about it last night and I'm going to begin as soon as possible, for I've mooned long enough,” and giving himself a shake, Mac threw down the pretty spray, adding half aloud:
“I will, for now at least, because I completely agree with you that it’s important to have something to hold on to and not drift off into the world of imagination without the right support. Uncle and I talked about it last night and I'm going to start as soon as I can, because I’ve daydreamed long enough,” and giving himself a shake, Mac threw down the pretty spray, adding half aloud:
“Chide me not, laborious band, For the idle flowers I brought: Every aster in my hand Goes home laden with a thought.”
“Don't scold me, hardworking group, For the carefree flowers I brought: Every aster in my hand Returns home filled with a thought.”
Rose caught the words and smiled, thinking to herself, “Oh, that's it he is getting into the sentimental age and Aunt Jane has been lecturing him. Dear me, how we are growing up!”
Rose caught the words and smiled, thinking to herself, “Oh, that’s it, he’s entering the sentimental phase, and Aunt Jane has been giving him lectures. Wow, we’re really growing up!”
“You look as if you didn't like the prospect very well,” she said aloud, for Mac had rammed the volume of Shelley into his pocket and the glorified expression was so entirely gone, Rose fancied she had been mistaken about the mountaintop behind the mists.
“You look like you’re not too thrilled about what’s ahead,” she said out loud, for Mac had stuffed the book of Shelley into his pocket and the vibrant expression had completely faded, making Rose think she had misjudged the mountaintop behind the fog.
“Yes, well enough I always thought the profession a grand one, and where could I find a better teacher than Uncle? I've got into lazy ways lately, and it is high time I went at something useful, so here I go,” and Mac abruptly vanished into the study while Rose joined Phebe in Aunt Plenty's room.
“Yes, I've always thought this profession was a great one, and where else could I find a better teacher than Uncle? I've been getting lazy lately, and it's about time I got to something useful, so here I go,” and Mac quickly disappeared into the study while Rose joined Phebe in Aunt Plenty's room.
The dear old lady had just decided, after long and earnest discussion, which of six favorite puddings should be served for dinner, and thus had a few moments to devote to sentiment, so when Rose came in she held out her arms, saying fondly: “I shall not feel as if I'd got my child back again until I have her in my lap a minute. No, you're not a bit too heavy, my rheumatism doesn't begin much before November, so sit here, darling, and put your two arms round my neck.”
The sweet old lady had just made up her mind, after a long and serious talk, about which of her six favorite puddings would be served for dinner, and so she had a few moments to share some affection. When Rose walked in, she opened her arms and said warmly, “I won't feel like I've really gotten my child back until I have you in my lap for a minute. No, you're not too heavy at all; my rheumatism doesn’t usually kick in until November, so come here, darling, and wrap your arms around my neck.”
Rose obeyed, and neither spoke for a moment as the old woman held the young one close and appeased the two years' longing of a motherly heart by the caresses women give the creatures dearest to them. Right in the middle of a kiss, however, she stopped suddenly and, holding out one arm, caught Phebe, who was trying to steal away unobserved.
Rose complied, and they were both silent for a moment as the older woman hugged the younger one tightly, satisfying the two years of yearning from a motherly heart with the affectionate touches women give to those they love most. However, just as she was about to kiss her again, she suddenly stopped, extended one arm, and caught Phebe, who was trying to slip away unnoticed.
“Don't go there's room for both in my love, though there isn't in my lap. I'm so grateful to get my dear girls safely home again that I hardly know what I'm about,” said Aunt Plenty, embracing Phebe so heartily that she could not feel left out in the cold and stood there with her black eyes shining through the happiest tears.
“Don’t go, there’s room for both in my heart, even if there isn’t in my lap. I’m so grateful to have my dear girls back home safe that I hardly know what to do,” said Aunt Plenty, hugging Phebe so warmly that she didn’t feel left out and stood there with her dark eyes shining through her happiest tears.
“There, now I've had a good hug, and feel as if I was all right again. I wish you'd set that cap in order, Rose I went to bed in such a hurry, I pulled the strings off it and left it all in a heap. Phebe, dear, you shall dust round a mite, just as you used to, for I haven't had anyone to do it as I like since you've been gone, and it will do me good to see all my knickknacks straightened out in your tidy way,” said the elder lady, getting up with a refreshed expression on her rosy old face.
“There, now I've had a nice hug, and I feel like I'm okay again. I wish you'd fix that cap, Rose. I went to bed in such a rush that I pulled the strings off it and left it in a mess. Phebe, sweetheart, you should tidy up a bit, just like you used to, because I haven't had anyone to do it the way I like since you’ve been gone, and it will make me happy to see all my little things organized in your neat way,” said the older lady, getting up with a renewed look on her rosy old face.
“Shall I dust in here too?” asked Phebe, glancing toward an inner room which used to be her care.
“Should I dust in here too?” asked Phebe, looking over at an inner room that used to be her responsibility.
“No, dear, I'd rather do that myself. Go in if you like, nothing is changed. I must go and see to my pudding.” And Aunt Plenty trotted abruptly away with a quiver of emotion in her voice which made even her last words pathetic.
“No, sweetheart, I’d prefer to handle that on my own. Go ahead if you want, nothing has changed. I need to check on my pudding.” And Aunt Plenty hurried off suddenly, her voice trembling with emotion that made even her last words sound poignant.
Pausing on the threshold as if it was a sacred place, the girls looked in with eyes soon dimmed by tender tears, for it seemed as if the gentle occupant was still there. Sunshine shone on the old geraniums by the window; the cushioned chair stood in its accustomed place, with the white wrapper hung across it and the faded slippers lying ready. Books and basket, knitting and spectacles, were all just as she had left them, and the beautiful tranquility that always filled the room seemed so natural, both lookers turned involuntarily toward the bed, where Aunt Peace used to greet them with a smile. There was no sweet old face upon the pillow now, yet the tears that wet the blooming cheeks were not for her who had gone, but for her who was left, because they saw something which spoke eloquently of the love which outlives death and makes the humblest things beautiful and sacred.
Pausing at the doorway as if it were a sacred place, the girls looked inside with eyes soon blurred by gentle tears, for it felt like the kind occupant was still there. Sunshine lit up the old geraniums by the window; the cushioned chair was in its usual spot, with the white wrapper draped over it and the faded slippers waiting nearby. The books, basket, knitting, and glasses were all just as she had left them, and the lovely calm that always filled the room felt so natural that both girls turned involuntarily toward the bed, where Aunt Peace used to greet them with a smile. There was no sweet old face on the pillow now, yet the tears that stained their blooming cheeks were not for her who had passed, but for her who remained, because they saw something that spoke powerfully of the love that outlives death and makes the simplest things beautiful and sacred.
A well-worn footstool stood beside the bed, and in the high-piled whiteness of the empty couch there was a little hollow where a gray head nightly rested while Aunt Plenty said the prayers her mother taught her seventy years ago.
A worn footstool stood next to the bed, and in the fluffy white piles of the empty couch, there was a little indentation where a gray head rested each night while Aunt Plenty said the prayers her mother had taught her seventy years ago.
Without a word, the girls softly shut the door. And while Phebe put the room in the most exquisite order, Rose retrimmed the plain white cap, where pink and yellow ribbons never rustled now, both feeling honored by their tasks and better for their knowledge of the faithful love and piety which sanctified a good old woman's life.
Without saying a word, the girls quietly closed the door. As Phebe arranged the room beautifully, Rose adjusted the plain white cap, which no longer had pink and yellow ribbons rustling. Both felt proud of their tasks and uplifted by their understanding of the devoted love and faith that blessed the life of a good old woman.
“You darling creature, I'm so glad to get you back! I know it's shamefully early, but I really couldn't keep away another minute. Let me help you I'm dying to see all your splendid things. I saw the trunks pass and I know you've quantities of treasures,” cried Annabel Bliss all in one breath as she embraced Rose an hour later and glanced about the room bestrewn with a variety of agreeable objects.
“You sweet thing, I’m so happy to have you back! I know it’s really early, but I couldn’t stay away for another minute. Let me help you; I’m so excited to see all your amazing stuff. I saw the trunks go by, and I know you have tons of treasures,” Annabel Bliss exclaimed in one breath as she hugged Rose an hour later and looked around the room filled with a mix of delightful items.
“How well you are looking! Sit down and I'll show you my lovely photographs. Uncle chose all the best for me, and it's a treat to see them,” answered Rose, putting a roll on the table and looking about for more.
“How great you look! Sit down and I’ll show you my beautiful photos. Uncle picked out all the best ones for me, and it’s a joy to see them,” replied Rose, placing a roll on the table and looking around for more.
“Oh, thanks! I haven't time now one needs hours to study such things. Show me your Paris dresses, there's a dear I'm perfectly aching to see the last styles,” and Annabel cast a hungry eye toward certain large boxes delightfully suggestive of French finery.
“Oh, thanks! I don’t have time right now; it takes hours to study things like that. Show me your Paris dresses, please! I’m really eager to see the latest styles,” and Annabel looked hungrily at some large boxes that promisingly hinted at French elegance.
“I haven't got any,” said Rose, fondly surveying the fine photographs as she laid them away.
“I don’t have any,” Rose said, lovingly looking at the beautiful photographs as she put them away.
“Rose Campbell! You don't mean to say that you didn't get one Paris dress at least?” cried Annabel, scandalized at the bare idea of such neglect.
“Rose Campbell! You can’t be serious that you didn’t get at least one dress from Paris?” exclaimed Annabel, shocked at the mere thought of such oversight.
“Not one for myself. Aunt Clara ordered several, and will be charmed to show them when her box comes.”
“Not one for me. Aunt Clara ordered several, and she’ll be happy to show them when her package arrives.”
“Such a chance! Right there and plenty of money! How could you love your uncle after such cruelty?” sighed Annabel, with a face full of sympathy.
“Such an opportunity! Right there and so much money! How could you still love your uncle after such cruelty?” sighed Annabel, her face filled with sympathy.
Rose looked puzzled for a minute, then seemed to understand, and assumed a superior air which became her very well as she said, good-naturedly opening a box of laces, “Uncle did not forbid my doing it, and I had money enough, but I chose not to spend it on things of that sort.”
Rose looked confused for a moment, then seemed to get it and took on a self-assured attitude that suited her perfectly as she said, kindly opening a box of laces, “Uncle didn’t stop me from doing it, and I had enough money, but I chose not to spend it on things like that.”
“Could and didn't! I can't believe it!” And Annabel sank into a chair, as if the thought was too much for her.
“Could have and didn't! I can't believe it!” And Annabel collapsed into a chair, as if the thought was too overwhelming for her.
“I did rather want to at first, just for the fun of the thing. In fact, I went and looked at some amazing gowns. But they were very expensive, very much trimmed, and not my style at all, so I gave them up and kept what I valued more than all the gowns Worth every made.”
“I really wanted to at first, just for the fun of it. In fact, I went and checked out some amazing dresses. But they were super expensive, very embellished, and not my style at all, so I decided against them and held onto what I valued more than all the dresses Worth ever made.”
“What in the world was it?” cried Annabel, hoping she would say diamonds.
“What on earth was it?” cried Annabel, wishing she would say diamonds.
“Uncle's good opinion,” answered Rose, looking thoughtfully into the depths of a packing case, where lay the lovely picture that would always remind her of the little triumph over girlish vanity, which not only kept but increased “Uncle's good opinion.”
“Uncle's good opinion,” replied Rose, gazing thoughtfully into a packing box, where the beautiful picture rested that would always remind her of the small victory over her youthful vanity, which not only preserved but also strengthened “Uncle's good opinion.”
“Oh, indeed!” said Annabel blankly, and fell to examining Aunt Plenty's lace while Rose went on with a happy smile in her eyes as she dived into another trunk.
“Oh, really!” said Annabel blankly, and started looking at Aunt Plenty's lace while Rose continued with a joyful smile in her eyes as she dove into another trunk.
“Uncle thinks one has no right to waste money on such things, but he is very generous and loves to give useful, beautiful, or curious gifts. See, all these pretty ornaments are for presents, and you shall choose first whatever you like.”
“Uncle believes that wasting money on such things is not right, but he’s very generous and loves giving useful, beautiful, or interesting gifts. Look, all these lovely ornaments are for presents, and you can pick whatever you want first.”
“He's a perfect dear!” cried Annabel, reveling in the crystal, filigree, coral, and mosaic trinkets spread before her while Rose completed her rapture by adding sundry tasteful trifles fresh from Paris.
“He's such a sweetheart!” exclaimed Annabel, delighting in the beautiful crystal, delicate filigree, coral, and mosaic trinkets laid out in front of her while Rose heightened her excitement by adding various stylish little items just arrived from Paris.
“Now tell me, when do you mean to have your coming-out party? I ask because I've nothing ready and want plenty of time, for I suppose it will be the event of the season,” asked Annabel a few minutes later as she wavered between a pink coral and a blue lava set.
“Now tell me, when are you planning to have your coming-out party? I’m asking because I don’t have anything ready and need plenty of time, since I assume it will be the event of the season,” Annabel asked a few minutes later as she debated between a pink coral set and a blue lava set.
“I came out when I went to Europe, but I suppose Aunty Plen will want to have some sort of merry-making to celebrate our return. I shall begin as I mean to go on, and have a simple, sociable sort of party and invite everyone whom I like, no matter in what 'set' they happen to belong. No one shall ever say I am aristocratic and exclusive so prepare yourself to be shocked, for old friends and young, rich and poor, will be asked to all my parties.”
“I came out when I went to Europe, but I guess Aunty Plen will want to throw some kind of celebration for our return. I’ll start off how I mean to continue and have a casual, friendly party, inviting everyone I like, regardless of what social group they belong to. No one will ever say I’m snobby or exclusive, so get ready to be surprised, because both old friends and new, as well as rich and poor, will be invited to all my parties.”
“Oh, my heart! You are going to be odd, just as Mama predicted!” sighed Annabel, clasping her hands in despair and studying the effect of three bracelets on her chubby arm in the midst of her woe.
“Oh, my heart! You’re going to be strange, just as Mom predicted!” sighed Annabel, clasping her hands in despair and examining how three bracelets looked on her chubby arm amid her sadness.
“In my own house I'm going to do as I think best, and if people call me odd, I can't help it. I shall endeavor not to do anything very dreadful, but I seem to inherit Uncle's love for experiments and mean to try some. I daresay they will fail and I shall get laughed at. I intend to do it nevertheless, so you had better drop me now before I begin,” said Rose with an air of resolution that was rather alarming.
“In my own home, I’m going to do what I think is best, and if people consider me strange, that’s their problem. I’ll try not to do anything too terrible, but I think I’ve inherited Uncle’s love for experiments and plan to try some out. I know they’ll probably fail and I’ll get laughed at, but I’m going to do it anyway, so you might as well walk away now before I start,” Rose said with a determination that was a bit unsettling.
“What shall you wear at this new sort of party of yours?” asked Annabel, wisely turning a deaf ear to all delicate or dangerous topics and keeping to matters she understood.
“What are you going to wear to this new kind of party of yours?” asked Annabel, wisely ignoring all delicate or risky subjects and sticking to topics she was familiar with.
“That white thing over there. It is fresh and pretty, and Phebe has one like it. I never want to dress more than she does, and gowns of that sort are always most becoming and appropriate to girls of our age.”
"That white thing over there. It's new and cute, and Phebe has one just like it. I never want to wear more than she does, and dresses like that are always flattering and perfect for girls our age."
“Phebe! You don't mean to say you are going to make a lady of her!” gasped Annabel, upsetting her treasures as she fell back with a gesture that made the little chair creak again, for Miss Bliss was as plump as a partridge.
“Phebe! You can’t be serious about trying to make her a lady!” gasped Annabel, knocking over her treasures as she leaned back with a movement that made the little chair creak again, since Miss Bliss was as plump as a partridge.
“She is one already, and anybody who slights her slights me, for she is the best girl I know and the dearest,” cried Rose warmly.
“She’s already one of us, and anyone who disrespects her disrespects me, because she’s the best girl I know and the one I care about the most,” Rose said passionately.
“Yes, of course I was only surprised you are quite right, for she may turn out to be somebody, and then how glad you'll feel that you were so good to her!” said Annabel, veering around at once, seeing which way the wind blew.
“Yes, of course I was just surprised you’re completely right, because she could become someone important, and then how happy you’ll be that you were so nice to her!” said Annabel, quickly changing direction as she sensed the situation.
Before Rose could speak again, a cheery voice called from the hall, “Little mistress, where are you?”
Before Rose could say anything else, a cheerful voice called out from the hallway, “Little mistress, where are you?”
“In my room, Phebe, dear,” and up came the girl Rose was going to “make a lady of,” looking so like one that Annabel opened her china-blue eyes and smiled involuntarily as Phebe dropped a little curtsey in playful imitation of her old manner and said quietly: “How do you do, Miss Bliss?”
“In my room, Phebe, dear,” and up came the girl Rose was going to “make a lady of,” looking so much like one that Annabel opened her light blue eyes and smiled without thinking as Phebe dropped a little curtsy in a playful imitation of her old self and said quietly, “How do you do, Miss Bliss?”
“Glad to see you back, Miss Moore,” answered Annabel, shaking hands in a way that settled the question of Phebe's place in her mind forever, for the stout damsel had a kind heart in spite of a weak head and was really fond of Rose. It was evidently “Love me, love my Phebe,” so she made up her mind on the spot that Phebe was somebody, and that gave an air of romance even to the poorhouse.
“Glad to see you back, Miss Moore,” Annabel said, shaking hands in a way that settled her thoughts about Phebe's place for good, because the heavyset girl had a kind heart despite not being the brightest and genuinely cared for Rose. It was clear that it was “Love me, love my Phebe,” so Annabel decided right then and there that Phebe was special, which brought a touch of romance even to the poorhouse.
She could not help staring a little as she watched the two friends work together and listened to their happy talk over each new treasure as it came to light, for every look and word plainly showed that years of close companionship had made them very dear to one another. It was pretty to see Rose try to do the hardest part of any little job herself still prettier to see Phebe circumvent her and untie the hard knots, fold the stiff papers, or lift the heavy trays with her own strong hands, and prettiest of all to hear her say in a motherly tone, as she put Rose into an easy chair: “Now, my deary, sit and rest, for you will have to see company all day, and I can't let you get tired out so early.”
She couldn't help but stare a bit as she watched the two friends work together and listened to their cheerful chatter about each new treasure that was uncovered, since every look and word clearly showed that years of close friendship had made them very dear to each other. It was nice to see Rose trying to handle the hardest parts of any little task herself, but even nicer to see Phebe step in and untie the tough knots, fold the stiff papers, or lift the heavy trays with her own strong hands. And the nicest of all was hearing her say in a motherly tone as she settled Rose into a comfy chair: “Now, my dear, sit and relax, because you'll be hosting company all day, and I can't let you wear yourself out so soon.”
“That is no reason why I should let you either. Call Jane to help or I'll bob up again directly,” answered Rose, with a very bad assumption of authority.
"That's not a good reason for me to let you either. Get Jane to help, or I'll show up again right away," Rose responded, trying to sound more in charge than she really was.
“Jane may take my place downstairs, but no one shall wait on you here except me, as long as I'm with you,” said stately Phebe, stooping to put a hassock under the feet of her little mistress.
“Jane can take my spot downstairs, but nobody will wait on you here except me, as long as I'm with you,” said the dignified Phebe, bending down to place a footrest under the feet of her young mistress.
“It is very nice and pretty to see, but I don't know what people will say when she goes into society with the rest of us. I do hope Rose won't be very odd,” said Annabel to herself as she went away to circulate the depressing news that there was to be no grand ball and, saddest disappointment of all, that Rose had not a single Paris costume with which to refresh the eyes and rouse the envy of her amiable friends.
“It looks really nice and pretty, but I wonder what people will think when she joins the rest of us in society. I really hope Rose doesn’t act too strangely,” Annabel thought to herself as she walked off to spread the upsetting news that there wouldn’t be a grand ball and, the saddest disappointment of all, that Rose didn’t have a single Paris outfit to impress and stir up the envy of her friendly peers.
“Now I've seen or heard from all the boys but Charlie, and I suppose he is too busy. I wonder what he is about,” thought Rose, turning from the hall door, whither she had courteously accompanied her guest.
“Now I've seen or heard from all the guys except Charlie, and I guess he’s just too busy. I wonder what he’s up to,” thought Rose, turning away from the hall door, where she had politely seen off her guest.
The wish was granted a moment after, for, going into the parlor to decide where some of her pictures should hang, she saw a pair of brown boots at one end of the sofa, a tawny-brown head at the other, and discovered that Charlie was busily occupied in doing nothing.
The wish was granted just a moment later because, when she walked into the living room to figure out where to hang some of her pictures, she spotted a pair of brown boots at one end of the couch, a tawny-brown head at the other, and realized that Charlie was busy doing nothing.
“The voice of the Bliss was heard in the land, so I dodged till she went upstairs, and then took a brief siesta while waiting to pay my respects to the distinguished traveler, Lady Hester Stanhope,” he said, leaping up to make his best bow.
“The voice of the Bliss was heard in the land, so I dodged until she went upstairs, and then took a quick nap while waiting to pay my respects to the distinguished traveler, Lady Hester Stanhope,” he said, jumping up to make his best bow.
“The voice of the sluggard would be a more appropriate quotation, I think. Does Annabel still pine for you?” asked Rose, recalling certain youthful jokes upon the subject of unrequited affections.
“The voice of the lazy person would be a better quote, I think. Does Annabel still miss you?” asked Rose, remembering some childish jokes about unreturned love.
“Not a bit of it. Fun has cut me out, and the fair Annabella will be Mrs. Tokio before the winter is over if I'm not much mistaken.”
“Not at all. Fun has left me behind, and the lovely Annabella will be Mrs. Tokio before winter is over if I'm not mistaken.”
“What, little Fun See? How droll it seems to think of him grown up and married to Annabel of all people! She never said a word about him, but this accounts for her admiring my pretty Chinese things and being so interested in Canton.”
“What, little Fun See? How funny it is to think of him all grown up and married to Annabel of all people! She never mentioned him, but this explains her admiration for my beautiful Chinese items and her interest in Canton.”
“Little Fun is a great swell now, and much enamored of our fat friend, who will take to chopsticks whenever he says the word. I needn't ask how you do, Cousin, for you beat that Aurora all hollow in the way of color. I should have been up before, but I thought you'd like a good rest after your voyage.”
“Little Fun is doing really well now, and is quite taken with our hefty friend, who grabs chopsticks as soon as he says the word. I won't bother asking how you're doing, Cousin, because you completely outshine that Aurora when it comes to color. I should have come by earlier, but I figured you’d appreciate a good rest after your trip.”
“I was running a race with Jamie before nine o'clock. What were you doing, young man?”
"I was running a race with Jamie before nine o'clock. What were you up to, young man?"
“'Sleeping I dreamed, love, dreamed, love, of thee,'” began Charlie, but Rose cut him short by saying as reproachfully as she could, while the culprit stood regarding her with placid satisfaction: “You ought to have been up and at work like the rest of the boys. I felt like a drone in a hive of very busy bees when I saw them all hurrying off to their business.”
“'While I was sleeping, I dreamed of you, my love,'” Charlie started, but Rose interrupted him, trying to sound as reproachful as she could while the offender looked at her with calm satisfaction. “You should have been up and working like the other guys. I felt like a slacker in a hive full of busy bees when I saw them all rushing off to their jobs.”
“But, my dear girl, I've got no business. I'm making up my mind, you see, and do the ornamental while I'm deciding. There always ought to be one gentleman in a family, and that seems to be rather my line,” answered Charlie, posing for the character with an assumption of languid elegance which would have been very effective if his twinkling eyes had not spoilt it.
“But, my dear girl, I don't have any work. I'm trying to figure things out, you see, and I do the decorative stuff while I decide. There should always be one gentleman in a family, and that seems to be my role,” answered Charlie, striking a pose for the character with an air of lazy elegance that would have been quite impressive if his sparkling eyes hadn't ruined it.
“There are none but gentlemen in our family, I hope,” answered Rose, with the proud air she always wore when anything was said derogatory to the name of Campbell.
“There are only gentlemen in our family, I hope,” Rose replied, with the proud attitude she always displayed when anything negative was said about the name Campbell.
“Of course, of course. I should have said gentleman of leisure. You see it is against my principles to slave as Archie does. What's the use? Don't need the money, got plenty, so why not enjoy it and keep jolly as long as possible? I'm sure cheerful people are public benefactors in this world of woe.”
“Of course, of course. I should have said someone who's financially secure. You see, it’s against my principles to work as hard as Archie does. What’s the point? I don’t need the money, I have plenty, so why not enjoy life and stay cheerful for as long as I can? I believe happy people are a blessing in this world of misery.”
It was not easy to object to this proposition, especially when made by a comely young man who looked the picture of health and happiness as he sat on the arm of the sofa smiling at his cousin in the most engaging manner. Rose knew very well that the Epicurean philosophy was not the true one to begin life upon, but it was difficult to reason with Charlie because he always dodged sober subjects and was so full of cheery spirits, one hated to lessen the sort of sunshine which certainly is a public benefactor.
It was hard to disagree with this suggestion, especially coming from a handsome young guy who looked perfectly healthy and happy as he sat on the arm of the sofa, smiling at his cousin in the most charming way. Rose knew that the Epicurean philosophy wasn't the best way to start life, but it was tough to have a serious conversation with Charlie since he always brushed off serious topics and was so full of positive energy that it felt wrong to dim the kind of brightness that truly benefits everyone.
“You have such a clever way of putting things that I don't know how to contradict you, though I still think I'm right,” she said gravely. “Mac likes to idle as well as you, but he is not going to do it because he knows it's bad for him to fritter away his time. He is going to study a profession like a wise boy, though he would much prefer to live among his beloved books or ride his hobbies in peace.”
“You have such a smart way of expressing things that I don’t know how to argue with you, even though I still believe I’m right,” she said seriously. “Mac enjoys lounging around just like you do, but he isn’t going to because he knows wasting his time isn’t good for him. He’s going to pursue a profession like a sensible kid, even though he would much rather be surrounded by his favorite books or enjoy his hobbies in peace.”
“That's all very well for him, because he doesn't care for society and may as well be studying medicine as philandering about the woods with his pockets full of musty philosophers and old-fashioned poets,” answered Charlie with a shrug which plainly expressed his opinion of Mac.
"That's great for him since he doesn't care about society and might as well be studying medicine instead of wandering around the woods with his pockets full of dusty philosophers and outdated poets," Charlie replied with a shrug that clearly showed what he thought of Mac.
“I wonder if musty philosophers, like Socrates and Aristotle, and old-fashioned poets, like Shakespeare and Milton, are not safer company for him to keep than some of the more modern friends you have?” said Rose, remembering Jamie's hints about wild oats, for she could be a little sharp sometimes and had not lectured “the boys” for so long it seemed unusually pleasant.
“I wonder if dusty philosophers, like Socrates and Aristotle, and old-school poets, like Shakespeare and Milton, are safer company for him than some of the more modern friends you have?” said Rose, recalling Jamie's comments about wild oats, as she could be a bit sharp sometimes and hadn’t lectured “the boys” for so long that it felt unusually pleasant.
But Charlie changed the subject skillfully by exclaiming with an anxious expression: “I do believe you are going to be like Aunt Jane, for that's just the way she comes down on me whenever she gets the chance! Don't take her for a model, I beg she is a good woman but a mighty disagreeable one in my humble opinion.”
But Charlie skillfully changed the subject by saying with a worried look, “I really think you’re going to be like Aunt Jane because that’s exactly how she treats me whenever she gets the chance! Please don’t model yourself after her; I mean, she’s a good person, but honestly, she’s pretty unpleasant in my opinion.”
The fear of being disagreeable is a great bugbear to a girl, as this artful young man well knew, and Rose fell into the trap at once, for Aunt Jane was far from being her model, though she could not help respecting her worth.
The fear of being unpopular is a big worry for a girl, as this clever young man understood perfectly, and Rose immediately fell for it, because Aunt Jane was far from being her role model, even though she couldn’t help but respect her value.
“Have you given up your painting?” she asked rather abruptly, turning to a gilded Fra Angelico angel which leaned in the sofa corner.
“Have you given up on your painting?” she asked quite abruptly, turning to a gilded Fra Angelico angel that was propped up in the corner of the sofa.
“Sweetest face I ever saw, and very like you about the eyes, isn't it?” said Charlie, who seemed to have a Yankee trick of replying to one question with another.
“Sweetest face I’ve ever seen, and very much like yours in the eyes, right?” said Charlie, who seemed to have a knack for answering one question with another.
“I want an answer, not a compliment,” and Rose tried to look severe as she put away the picture more quickly than she had taken it up.
“I want an answer, not a compliment,” Rose said, attempting to look stern as she put the picture away faster than she had picked it up.
“Have I given up painting? Oh, no! I daub a little in oils, slop a little in watercolors, sketch now and then, and poke about the studios when the artistic fit comes on.”
“Have I stopped painting? Oh, no! I mess around with oils a bit, splash some watercolor, sketch occasionally, and wander through the studios when the creative urge hits.”
“How is the music?”
"How's the music?"
“More flourishing. I don't practice much, but sing a good deal in company. Set up a guitar last summer and went troubadouring round in great style. The girls like it, and it's jolly among the fellows.”
“More thriving. I don't practice much, but I sing a lot with friends. I got a guitar last summer and went around performing in style. The girls enjoy it, and it's fun with the guys.”
“Are you studying anything?”
“Are you studying something?”
“Well, I have some lawbooks on my table good, big, wise-looking chaps and I take a turn at them semioccasionally when pleasure palls or parents chide. But I doubt if I do more than learn what 'a allybi' is this year,” and a sly laugh in Charlie's eye suggested that he sometimes availed himself of this bit of legal knowledge.
“Well, I have some law books on my table—good, big, wise-looking ones—and I look at them every now and then when I'm bored or my parents get on my case. But I doubt I learn much more than what 'an alibi' is this year,” and a mischievous glint in Charlie's eye hinted that he sometimes used this little bit of legal knowledge.
“What do you do then?”
“What do you do next?”
“Fair catechist, I enjoy myself. Private theatricals have been the rage of late, and I have won such laurels that I seriously think of adopting the stage as my profession.”
“Lovely teacher, I’m having a great time. Amateur theater has been really popular lately, and I’ve gained such recognition that I’m seriously considering making acting my career.”
“Really!” cried Rose, alarmed.
“Seriously!” cried Rose, alarmed.
“Why not? If I must go to work, isn't that as good as anything?”
"Why not? If I have to go to work, isn't that just as good as anything?"
“Not without more talent than I think you possess. With genius one can do anything without it one had better let the stage alone.”
“Not without more talent than I think you have. With genius, you can do anything; without it, you’d be better off staying away from the stage.”
“There's a quencher for the 'star of the goodlie companie' to which I belong. Mac hasn't a ray of genius for anything, yet you admire him for trying to be an M.D.,” cried Charlie, rather nettled at her words.
“There's a way to cool off the 'star of the good company' I’m part of. Mac doesn’t have an ounce of talent for anything, yet you admire him for trying to be a doctor,” Charlie exclaimed, a bit annoyed by her words.
“It is respectable, at all events, and I'd rather be a second-rate doctor than a second-rate actor. But I know you don't mean it, and only say so to frighten me.”
“It’s respectable, anyway, and I’d rather be a second-rate doctor than a second-rate actor. But I know you don’t really mean it, and you just say that to scare me.”
“Exactly. I always bring it up when anyone begins to lecture and it works wonders. Uncle Mac turns pale, the aunts hold up their hands in holy horror, and a general panic ensues. Then I magnanimously promise not to disgrace the family and in the first burst of gratitude the dear souls agree to everything I ask, so peace is restored and I go on my way rejoicing.”
“Exactly. I always bring it up when anyone starts lecturing, and it works like a charm. Uncle Mac goes pale, the aunts gasp in shock, and total chaos breaks out. Then I generously promise not to embarrass the family, and in their first wave of relief, those dear souls agree to everything I ask, so harmony is restored and I go on my way celebrating.”
“Just the way you used to threaten to run off to sea if your mother objected to any of your whims. You are not changed in that respect, though you are in others. You had great plans and projects once, Charlie, and now you seem to be contented with being a 'jack of all trades and master of none'”.
“Just like how you used to threaten to run away to sea whenever your mom disagreed with your wants. You haven't changed in that way, although you have in others. You once had big dreams and ambitions, Charlie, and now you seem okay with just being a 'jack of all trades and master of none.'”
“Boyish nonsense! Time has brought wisdom, and I don't see the sense of tying myself down to one particular thing and grinding away at it year after year. People of one idea get so deucedly narrow and tame, I've no patience with them. Culture is the thing, and the sort one gets by ranging over a wide field is the easiest to acquire, the handiest to have, and the most successful in the end. At any rate, it is the kind I like and the only kind I intend to bother myself about.”
"That’s just childish nonsense! Time has given me wisdom, and I don't see the point of dedicating myself to one specific thing and working at it year after year. People who cling to a single idea become annoyingly narrow-minded and dull; I can’t stand them. Culture is what matters, and the kind you gain by exploring a broad range of experiences is the easiest to attain, the most useful to possess, and the most rewarding overall. In any case, that's the type I enjoy, and it’s the only kind I'm going to concern myself with."
With this declaration, Charlie smoothed his brow, clasped his hands over his head, and, leaning back, gently warbled the chorus of a college song as if it expressed his views of life better than he could:
With this declaration, Charlie smoothed his brow, clasped his hands over his head, and, leaning back, softly sang the chorus of a college song as if it conveyed his outlook on life better than he could:
“While our rosy fillets shed Blushes o'er each fervid head, With many a cup and many a smile The festal moments we beguile.”
“While our rosy fillets cast Blushes on each eager head, With plenty of cups and lots of smiles We enjoy these festive moments.”
“Some of my saints here were people of one idea, and though they were not very successful from a worldly point of view while alive, they were loved and canonized when dead,” said Rose, who had been turning over a pile of photographs on the table and just then found her favorite, St. Francis, among them.
“Some of my saints here were people with a single focus, and even though they weren't very successful by worldly standards while they were alive, they were loved and recognized as saints after they died,” said Rose, who had been going through a pile of photographs on the table and had just found her favorite, St. Francis, among them.
“This is more to my taste. Those worn-out, cadaverous fellows give me the blues, but here's a gentlemanly saint who takes things easy and does good as he goes along without howling over his own sins or making other people miserable by telling them of theirs.” And Charlie laid a handsome St. Martin beside the brown-frocked monk.
“This is more my style. Those tired, ghostly guys really bring me down, but here’s a classy saint who takes it easy and does good along the way without whining about his own mistakes or making others feel bad by reminding them of theirs.” And Charlie placed a nice St. Martin next to the brown-robed monk.
Rose looked at both and understood why her cousin preferred the soldierly figure with the sword to the ascetic with his crucifix. One was riding bravely through the world in purple and fine linen, with horse and hound and squires at his back; and the other was in a lazar-house, praying over the dead and dying. The contrast was a strong one, and the girl's eyes lingered longest on the knight, though she said thoughtfully, “Yours is certainly the pleasantest and yet I never heard of any good deed he did, except divide his cloak with a beggar, while St. Francis gave himself to charity just when life was most tempting and spent years working for God without reward. He's old and poor, and in a dreadful place, but I won't give him up, and you may have your gay St. Martin if you want him.”
Rose looked at both and understood why her cousin preferred the soldierly figure with the sword over the ascetic with his crucifix. One was bravely riding through the world in purple and fine linen, with a horse, hound, and squires behind him; the other was in a hospice, praying over the dead and dying. The contrast was striking, and the girl's eyes lingered longest on the knight, though she said thoughtfully, “Yours is definitely the more pleasant one, yet I’ve never heard of any good deeds he’s done, except for sharing his cloak with a beggar, while St. Francis dedicated himself to charity when life was at its most tempting and spent years serving God without reward. He’s old and poor, stuck in a terrible place, but I won’t give him up, and you can keep your flashy St. Martin if you want him.”
“No, thank you, saints are not in my line but I'd like the golden-haired angel in the blue gown if you'll let me have her. She shall be my little Madonna, and I'll pray to her like a good Catholic,” answered Charlie, turning to the delicate, deep-eyed figure with the lilies in its hand.
“No, thanks, saints aren’t really my thing, but I’d love the golden-haired angel in the blue dress if you don’t mind. She’ll be my little Madonna, and I’ll pray to her like a good Catholic,” Charlie said, turning to the delicate, deep-eyed figure holding the lilies.
“With all my heart, and any others that you like. Choose some for your mother and give them to her with my love.”
"With all my heart, and any others you want. Pick some for your mom and give them to her with my love."
So Charlie sat down beside Rose to turn and talk over the pictures for a long and pleasant hour. But when they went away to lunch, if there had been anyone to observe so small but significant a trifle, good St. Francis lay face downward behind the sofa, while gallant St. Martin stood erect upon the chimneypiece.
So Charlie sat down next to Rose to chat about the pictures for a long and enjoyable hour. But when they went off to lunch, if anyone had been there to notice such a small but meaningful detail, good St. Francis lay face down behind the sofa, while brave St. Martin stood upright on the mantel.
Chapter 3 MISS CAMPBELL
While the travelers unpack their trunks, we will pick up, as briefly as possible, the dropped stitches in the little romance we are weaving.
While the travelers unpack their bags, we'll quickly revisit the unfinished threads in the little story we're creating.
Rose's life had been a very busy and quiet one for the four years following the May day when she made her choice. Study, exercise, housework, and many wholesome pleasures kept her a happy, hearty creature, yearly growing in womanly graces, yet always preserving the innocent freshness girls lose so soon when too early set upon the world's stage and given a part to play.
Rose's life was busy yet calm for the four years after that May day when she made her choice. Studying, exercising, doing housework, and enjoying many good hobbies kept her happy and healthy, and each year she developed more feminine qualities while still maintaining the innocent freshness that girls often lose too quickly when they step onto the world’s stage too soon and are given a role to play.
Not a remarkably gifted girl in any way, and far from perfect; full of all manner of youthful whims and fancies; a little spoiled by much love; rather apt to think all lives as safe and sweet as her own; and, when want or pain appealed to her, the tender heart overflowed with a remorseful charity which gave of its abundance recklessly. Yet, with all her human imperfections, the upright nature of the child kept her desires climbing toward the just and pure and true, as flowers struggle to the light; and the woman's soul was budding beautifully under the green leaves behind the little thorns.
Not an exceptionally gifted girl in any way, and far from perfect; full of all sorts of youthful whims and fancies; a little spoiled by too much love; rather likely to think all lives are as safe and sweet as her own; and when faced with need or pain, her tender heart overflowed with a remorseful generosity that gave without restraint. Yet, despite all her human imperfections, the child's upright nature kept her desires reaching for what is just, pure, and true, like flowers striving for the light; and the woman’s soul was beautifully budding beneath the green leaves behind the small thorns.
At seventeen, Dr. Alec pronounced her ready for the voyage around the world, which he considered a better finishing off than any school could give her. But just then Aunt Peace began to fail and soon slipped quietly away to rejoin the lover she had waited for so long. Youth seemed to come back in a mysterious way to touch the dead face with lost loveliness, and all the romance of her past to gather around her memory. Unlike most aged women, her friends were among the young, and at her funeral the grayheads gave place to the band of loving girls who made the sweet old maiden ready for her rest, bore her pall, and covered her grave with the white flowers she had never worn.
At seventeen, Dr. Alec declared her ready for the journey around the world, which he thought was a better way to finish her education than any school could provide. But just then, Aunt Peace started to decline and soon passed away quietly to reunite with the lover she had waited for so long. Youth seemed to mysteriously return, bringing a lost beauty to her lifeless face, and all the romance of her past surrounded her memory. Unlike most elderly women, her friends were young, and at her funeral, the older folks stepped aside for the group of loving girls who prepared the sweet old maid for her final rest, carried her casket, and adorned her grave with the white flowers she had never worn.
When this was over poor Aunt Plenty seemed so lost without her lifelong charge that Dr. Alec would not leave her, and Rose gladly paid the debt she owed by the tender service which comforts without words. But Aunt Plenty, having lived for others all her days, soon rebelled against this willing sacrifice, soon found strength in her own sincere piety, solace in cheerful occupation, and amusement in nursing Aunt Myra, who was a capital patient, as she never died and never got well.
When this was over, poor Aunt Plenty seemed so lost without her lifelong responsibility that Dr. Alec wouldn't leave her side, and Rose gladly repaid her debt through the kind of care that comforts without needing words. However, Aunt Plenty, who had dedicated her whole life to others, quickly resisted this kind of selfless help, soon discovered strength in her own genuine faith, found comfort in staying busy, and enjoyed taking care of Aunt Myra, who was an excellent patient because she never got worse or better.
So at last the moment came when, with free minds, the travelers could set out, and on Rose's eighteenth birthday, with Uncle Alec and the faithful Phebe, she sailed away to see and study the big, beautiful world which lies ready for us all if we only know how to use and enjoy it.
So finally, the time arrived when the travelers, feeling free, could set off. On Rose's eighteenth birthday, with Uncle Alec and the loyal Phebe, she departed to explore and learn about the vast, beautiful world that awaits us all if we just know how to appreciate and enjoy it.
Phebe was set to studying music in the best schools, and while she trained her lovely voice with happy industry, Rose and her uncle roamed about in the most delightful way till two years were gone like a dream and those at home clamored for their return.
Phebe was busy studying music at the best schools, and while she worked hard to train her beautiful voice, Rose and her uncle explored in the most enjoyable way until two years passed by like a dream, and those at home called for them to come back.
Back they came, and now the heiress must make ready to take her place, for at twenty-one she came into possession of the fortune she had been trying to learn how to use well. Great plans fermented in her brain, for, though the heart was as generous as ever, time had taught her prudence and observation shown her that the wisest charity is that which helps the poor to help themselves.
Back they came, and now the heiress had to prepare to take her place, because at twenty-one she would inherit the fortune she had been trying to learn how to use wisely. Big plans were forming in her mind, because, although her heart was as generous as ever, time had taught her to be cautious, and experience had shown her that the best kind of charity is the one that helps the poor help themselves.
Dr. Alec found it a little difficult to restrain the ardor of this young philanthropist who wanted to begin at once to endow hospitals, build homes, adopt children, and befriend all mankind.
Dr. Alec found it a bit challenging to hold back the enthusiasm of this young philanthropist who wanted to start right away with funding hospitals, building homes, adopting kids, and helping all of humanity.
“Take a little time to look about you and get your bearings, child. The world you have been living in is a much simpler, honester one than that you are now to enter. Test yourself a bit and see if the old ways seem best after all, for you are old enough to decide, and wise enough to discover, what is for your truest good, I hope,” he said, trying to feel ready to let the bird escape from under his wing and make little flights alone.
“Take a moment to look around and get your bearings, kid. The world you’ve been living in is much simpler and more straightforward than the one you’re about to enter. Challenge yourself a bit and see if the old ways truly seem best after all, because you’re old enough to make your own choices and wise enough to figure out what’s really good for you, I hope,” he said, trying to feel ready to let the bird fly free from under his wing and take little flights on its own.
“Now, Uncle, I'm very much afraid you are going to be disappointed in me,” answered Rose with unusual hesitation yet a very strong desire visible in her eyes. “You like to have me quite honest, and I've learned to tell you all my foolish thoughts so I'll speak out, and if you find my wish very wrong and silly, please say so, for I don't want you to cast me off entirely, though I am grown up. You say, wait a little, test myself, and try if the old ways are best. I should like to do that, and can I in a better way than leading the life other girls lead? Just for a little while,” she added, as her uncle's face grew grave.
“Now, Uncle, I’m really afraid you’re going to be disappointed in me,” Rose replied with some hesitation, but there was a strong desire in her eyes. “You want me to be completely honest, and I’ve learned to share all my silly thoughts, so I’ll be straightforward. If you think my wish is really wrong or foolish, please let me know, because I don’t want you to completely cast me aside, even though I’m grown up. You say to wait a bit, to test myself, and see if the old ways are still the best. I’d like to do that, but isn’t there a better way than living the way other girls do? Just for a little while,” she added, noticing her uncle’s serious expression.
He was disappointed, yet acknowledged that the desire was natural and in a moment saw that a trial of this sort might have its advantages. Nevertheless, he dreaded it, for he had intended to choose her society carefully and try to keep her unspoiled by the world as long as possible, like many another fond parent and guardian. But the spirit of Eve is strong in all her daughters forbidden fruit will look rosier to them than any in their own orchards, and the temptation to take just one little bite proves irresistible to the wisest. So Rose, looking out from the safe seclusion of her girlhood into the woman's kingdom which she was about to take possession of, felt a sudden wish to try its pleasures before assuming its responsibilities, and was too sincere to hide the longing.
He felt let down, but he recognized that the desire was natural and, in that moment, realized that facing a challenge like this could have its benefits. Still, he was apprehensive because he wanted to carefully choose her social circle and keep her sheltered from the world for as long as possible, just like many loving parents and guardians do. However, the spirit of Eve is strong in all her daughters—forbidden fruit will always seem more appealing than what's available to them, and even the wisest among us can’t resist the temptation of taking just one little bite. So, Rose, peering out from the safe haven of her girlhood into the realm of womanhood she was about to enter, suddenly longed to experience its pleasures before taking on its responsibilities, and she was too genuine to hide that desire.
“Very well, my dear, try it if you like, only take care of your health be temperate in your gaiety and don't lose more than you gain, if that is possible,” he added under his breath, endeavoring to speak cheerfully and not look anxious.
“Alright, my dear, go ahead if you want, just take care of your health, be moderate in your fun, and don’t lose more than you gain, if that’s possible,” he said quietly, trying to sound cheerful and not appear worried.
“I know it is foolish, but I do want to be a regular butterfly for a little while and see what it is like. You know I couldn't help seeing a good deal of fashionable life abroad, though we were not in it, and here at home the girls tell me about all sorts of pleasant things that are to happen this winter, so if you won't despise me very much, I should like to try it.”
“I know it sounds silly, but I really want to be a regular butterfly for a little while and see what it's like. You know I got to see quite a bit of fashionable life abroad, even though we weren't a part of it, and here at home the girls are telling me about all sorts of fun things that are planned for this winter. So, if you won't think poorly of me, I'd love to give it a try.”
“For how long?”
“How long?”
“Would three months be too long? New Year is a good time to take a fresh start. Everyone is going to welcome me, so I must be gay in spite of myself, unless I'm willing to seem very ungrateful and morose,” said Rose, glad to have so good a reason to offer for her new experiment.
“Would three months be too long? New Year's is a great time to start fresh. Everyone's going to welcome me, so I have to be cheerful despite how I feel, unless I want to come off as really ungrateful and downcast,” said Rose, happy to have such a good reason for her new adventure.
“You may like it so well that the three months may become years. Pleasure is very sweet when we are young.”
"You might enjoy it so much that three months could turn into years. Pleasure feels so good when we're young."
“Do you think it will intoxicate me?”
“Do you think it will get me drunk?”
“We shall see, my dear.”
“We'll see, my dear.”
“We shall!” And Rose marched away, looking as if she had taken a pledge of some sort, and meant to keep it.
“We will!” And Rose strode off, looking like she had made some kind of promise and intended to stick to it.
It was a great relief to the public mind when it became known that Miss Campbell was really coming out at last, and invitations to Aunt Plenty's party were promptly accepted. Aunt Clara was much disappointed about the grand ball she had planned, but Rose stood firm, and the dear old lady had her way about everything.
It was a huge relief to everyone when it became known that Miss Campbell was finally making her debut, and invitations to Aunt Plenty's party were quickly accepted. Aunt Clara was really disappointed about the fancy ball she had planned, but Rose stood her ground, and the sweet old lady got her way in everything.
The consequence was a delightfully informal gathering of friends to welcome the travelers home. Just a good, old-fashioned, hospitable housewarming, so simple, cordial, and genuine that those who came to criticize remained to enjoy, and many owned the charm they could neither describe nor imitate.
The result was a wonderfully casual get-together of friends to welcome the travelers back home. Just a good, old-fashioned housewarming, so simple, warm, and genuine that even those who came to criticize ended up enjoying themselves, and many admitted to the charm they couldn't quite describe or replicate.
Much curiosity was felt about Phebe, and much gossip went on behind fans that evening, for those who had known her years ago found it hard to recognize the little housemaid in the handsome young woman who bore herself with such quiet dignity and charmed them all with her fine voice. “Cinderella has turned out a princess,” was the general verdict, and Rose enjoyed the little sensation immensely, for she had had many battles to fight for her Phebe since she came among them, and now her faith was vindicated.
There was a lot of curiosity about Phebe, and plenty of gossip circulated behind fans that evening. Those who had known her years earlier found it difficult to recognize the little housemaid in the beautiful young woman who carried herself with such quiet dignity and captivated everyone with her amazing voice. “Cinderella has become a princess,” was the overall opinion, and Rose loved the spotlight on Phebe. She had fought many battles for her since she joined them, and now her belief was proven right.
Miss Campbell herself was in great demand and did the honors so prettily that even Miss Bliss forgave her for her sad neglect of Worth, though she shook her head over the white gowns, just alike except that Phebe wore crimson and Rose, blue trimmings.
Miss Campbell was in high demand and hosted everything so charmingly that even Miss Bliss overlooked her neglect of Worth, although she did shake her head at the white gowns, which were identical except that Phebe wore crimson and Rose had blue trimmings.
The girls swarmed eagerly around their recovered friend, for Rose had been a favorite before she went away and found her throne waiting for her now. The young men privately pronounced Phebe the handsomest “But then you know there's neither family nor money, so it's no use.” Phebe, therefore, was admired as one of the ornamental properties belonging to the house and left respectfully alone.
The girls eagerly gathered around their friend who had just returned, since Rose had been a favorite before she left and now her place was waiting for her. The young men secretly declared Phebe the prettiest, saying, “But then you know she doesn’t have family or money, so it’s pointless.” So, Phebe was admired as a nice part of the house but was left alone out of respect.
But bonny Rose was “all right,” as these amiable youths expressed it, and many a wistful eye followed the bright head as it flitted about the rooms as if it were a second Golden Fleece to be won with difficulty, for stalwart kinsmen hedged it round, and watchful aunts kept guard.
But pretty Rose was “all good,” as these friendly guys put it, and many a longing gaze followed her bright head as it moved around the rooms like it was a second Golden Fleece to be won with some trouble, because strong relatives surrounded her, and watchful aunts stood guard.
Little wonder that the girl found her new world an enchanting one and that her first sip of pleasure rather went to her head, for everybody welcomed and smiled on her, flattered and praised, whispered agreeable prophecies in her ear, and looked the compliments and congratulations they dared not utter till she felt as if she must have left her old self somewhere abroad and suddenly become a new and wonderfully gifted being.
No surprise that the girl thought her new world was magical and that her first taste of happiness went straight to her head. Everyone welcomed her with smiles, flattered and praised her, whispered nice things in her ear, and conveyed their compliments and congratulations with their looks, making her feel like she must have left her old self behind and magically transformed into a new and incredibly talented person.
“It is very nice, Uncle, and I'm not sure I mayn't want another three months of it when the first are gone,” she whispered to Dr. Alec as he stood watching the dance she was leading with Charlie in the long hall after supper.
“It’s really nice, Uncle, and I’m not sure I won’t want another three months of it when the first ones are over,” she whispered to Dr. Alec as he stood watching the dance she was leading with Charlie in the long hall after dinner.
“Steady, my lass, steady, and remember that you are not really a butterfly but a mortal girl with a head that will ache tomorrow,” he answered, watching the flushed and smiling face before him. “I almost wish there wasn't any tomorrow, but that tonight would last forever it is so pleasant, and everyone so kind,” she said with a little sigh of happiness as she gathered up her fleecy skirts like a white bird pluming itself for flight.
“Easy there, girl, easy, and keep in mind that you’re not really a butterfly but a regular girl who will have a headache tomorrow,” he replied, looking at her flushed and smiling face. “I almost wish there was no tomorrow and that tonight could last forever because it's so nice and everyone is so sweet,” she said with a small sigh of happiness as she picked up her fluffy skirts like a white bird getting ready to take off.
“I'll ask your opinion about that at two A.M.,” began her uncle with a warning nod.
"I'll ask for your opinion on that at two A.M.," her uncle said with a cautionary nod.
“I'll give it honestly,” was all Rose had time to say before Charlie swept her away into the particolored cloud before them.
“I'll be honest,” was all Rose had time to say before Charlie pulled her into the colorful cloud ahead of them.
“It's no use, Alec train a girl as wisely as you choose, she will break loose when the time comes and go in for pleasure as eagerly as the most frivolous, for ''tis their nature to,'” said Uncle Mac, keeping time to the music as if he would not mind “going in” for a bit of pleasure himself.
“It's pointless, Alec, no matter how wisely you train a girl, she'll break free when the time comes and seek pleasure as eagerly as anyone else, because that's just how they are,” said Uncle Mac, keeping rhythm with the music as if he wouldn't mind indulging in a little pleasure himself.
“My girl shall taste and try, but unless I'm much mistaken, a little bit of it will satisfy her. I want to see if she will stand the test, because if not, all my work is a failure and I'd like to know it,” answered the doctor with a hopeful smile on his lips but an anxious look in his eyes.
“My girl will sample it, but unless I’m really wrong, just a small amount will be enough for her. I want to see if she can handle it, because if she can't, all my efforts are pointless, and I’d like to know,” replied the doctor, smiling hopefully but looking anxious.
“She will come out all right bless her heart! so let her sow her innocent wild oats and enjoy herself till she is ready to settle down. I wish all our young folks were likely to have as small a crop and get through as safely as she will,” added Uncle Mac with a shake of the head as he glanced at some of the young men revolving before him.
“She'll be just fine, bless her heart! Let her have her fun and enjoy herself until she's ready to settle down. I wish all our young people could get through this stage with as little trouble as she will,” Uncle Mac added, shaking his head as he looked at some of the young men moving around him.
“Nothing amiss with your lads, I hope?”
“Everything okay with your guys, I hope?”
“No, thank heaven! So far I've had little trouble with either, though Mac is an odd stick and Steve a puppy. I don't complain, for both will outgrow that sort of thing and are good fellows at heart, thanks to their mother. But Clara's boy is in a bad way, and she will spoil him as a man as she has as a boy if his father doesn't interfere.”
“No, thank goodness! So far I've had little trouble with either of them, though Mac is a bit strange and Steve is like a puppy. I don't mind, because they'll both grow out of that and are good guys at heart, thanks to their mom. But Clara's son is in a bad situation, and she will ruin him as a man just like she has as a boy if his dad doesn't step in.”
“I told brother Stephen all about him when I was in Calcutta last year, and he wrote to the boy, but Clara has got no end of plans in her head and so she insisted on keeping Charlie a year longer when his father ordered him off to India,” replied the doctor as they walked away.
“I told brother Stephen all about him when I was in Calcutta last year, and he wrote to the boy, but Clara has a million plans in her head, so she insisted on keeping Charlie for another year when his father sent him off to India,” replied the doctor as they walked away.
“It is too late to 'order' Charlie is a man now, and Stephen will find he has been too easy with him all these years. Poor fellow, it has been hard lines for him, and is likely to be harder, I fancy, unless he comes home and straightens things out.”
“It’s too late to ‘order’ Charlie around; he’s a man now, and Stephen will realize he’s been too lenient with him all these years. Poor guy, it’s been tough for him, and it’s probably going to get even tougher, I think, unless he comes home and sorts things out.”
“He won't do that if he can help it. He has lost all his energy living in that climate and hates worry more than ever, so you can imagine what an effort it would be to manage a foolish woman and a headstrong boy. We must lend a hand, Mac, and do our best for poor old Steve.”
“He's not going to do that if he can avoid it. He’s completely worn out from living in that climate and hates stress more than ever, so you can imagine how hard it would be to deal with a silly woman and a stubborn boy. We need to help out, Mac, and do our best for poor old Steve.”
“The best we can do for the lad is to marry and settle him as soon as possible.”
“The best we can do for the kid is to get him married and settled down as soon as we can.”
“My dear fellow, he is only three and twenty,” began the doctor, as if the idea was preposterous. Then a sudden change came over him as he added with a melancholy smile, “I forget how much one can hope and suffer, even at twenty-three.”
“My dear friend, he's only twenty-three,” the doctor started, as if the idea was ridiculous. Then a sudden shift happened as he added with a sad smile, “I forget how much one can hope and endure, even at twenty-three.”
“And be all the better for, if bravely outlived,” said Uncle Mac, with his hand on his brother's shoulder and the sincerest approval in his voice. Then, kindly returning to the younger people, he went on inquiringly, “You don't incline to Clara's view of a certain matter, I fancy?”
“And you’ll be all the better for it if you bravely get through,” said Uncle Mac, with his hand on his brother's shoulder and genuine approval in his voice. Then, kindly turning back to the younger people, he asked curiously, “I assume you don’t share Clara’s opinion on a certain matter, do you?”
“Decidedly not. My girl must have the best, and Clara's training would spoil an angel,” answered Dr. Alec quickly.
“Definitely not. My girl deserves the best, and Clara's training would ruin even an angel,” Dr. Alec replied swiftly.
“But we shall find it hard to let our little Rose go out of the family. How would Archie do? He has been well brought up and is a thoroughly excellent lad.”
“But we will find it tough to let our little Rose leave the family. How would Archie handle it? He has been raised well and is a truly great kid.”
The brothers had retired to the study by this time and were alone, yet Dr. Alec lowered his voice as he said with a tender sort of anxiety pleasant to see: “You know I do not approve of cousins marrying, so I'm in a quandary, Mac, for I love the child as if she were my own and feel as if I could not give her up to any man whom I did not know and trust entirely. It is of no use for us to plan, for she must choose for herself yet I do wish we could keep her among us and give one of our boys a wife worth having.”
The brothers had settled into the study by this point and were alone, but Dr. Alec dropped his voice as he said with a kind of anxious tenderness that was nice to see: “You know I don’t agree with cousins marrying, so I’m in a tough spot, Mac, because I love that girl as if she were my own and I honestly don’t think I could hand her over to any man I didn’t know and trust completely. It’s pointless for us to make plans since she has to make her own choice, yet I really wish we could keep her close and find one of our boys a wife who’s truly worth having.”
“We must, so never mind your theories but devote yourself to testing our elder lads and making one of them a happy fellow. All are heart-whole, I believe, and, though young still for this sort of thing, we can be gently shaping matters for them, since no one knows how soon the moment may come. My faith it is like living in a powder mill to be among a lot of young folks nowadays! All looks as calm as possible till a sudden spark produces an explosion, and heaven only knows where we find ourselves after it is over.”
“We need to stop theorizing and focus on getting our older guys tested and making one of them happy. I believe they're all free and clear, and even though they’re still young for this kind of thing, we can start gently guiding them, because no one knows how soon the moment might arrive. Honestly, being around a bunch of young people today feels like living in a powder mill! Everything seems calm until a sudden spark ignites an explosion, and who knows where we'll end up once it's all over.”
And Uncle Mac sat himself comfortably down to settle Rose's fate while the doctor paced the room, plucking at his beard and knitting his brows as if he found it hard to see his way.
And Uncle Mac settled in comfortably to decide Rose's fate while the doctor walked around the room, tugging at his beard and furrowing his brows as if he was struggling to figure things out.
“Yes, Archie is a good fellow,” he said, answering the question he had ignored before. “An upright, steady, intelligent lad who will make an excellent husband if he ever finds out that he has a heart. I suppose I'm an old fool, but I do like a little more romance in a young man than he seems to have more warmth and enthusiasm, you know. Bless the boy! He might be forty instead of three or four and twenty, he's so sober, calm, and cool. I'm younger than he is, and could go a-wooing like a Romeo if I had any heart to offer a woman.”
“Yes, Archie is a great guy,” he said, finally addressing the question he had previously ignored. “He’s an honest, dependable, smart young man who would be a wonderful husband if he ever realizes he has feelings. I guess I’m an old fool, but I prefer a bit more romance in a young man than he seems to have—more warmth and enthusiasm, you know. Bless the boy! He might as well be forty instead of just twenty-three; he’s so serious, calm, and collected. I’m younger than he is and could pursue a girl like Romeo if I had any feelings to offer a woman.”
The doctor looked rather shamefaced as he spoke, and his brother burst out laughing. “See here, Alec, it's a pity so much romance and excellence as yours should be lost, so why don't you set these young fellows an example and go a-wooing yourself? Jessie has been wondering how you have managed to keep from falling in love with Phebe all this time, and Clara is quite sure that you waited only till she was safe under Aunt Plenty's wing to offer yourself in the good old-fashioned style.”
The doctor looked a bit embarrassed as he spoke, and his brother couldn't help but laugh. “Listen, Alec, it’s a shame to let all that romance and greatness of yours go to waste, so why don’t you show these young guys how it’s done and go after someone yourself? Jessie has been curious about how you’ve managed to avoid falling in love with Phebe all this time, and Clara is convinced that you were just waiting until she was looked after by Aunt Plenty before making your move in the old-school way.”
“I!” And the doctor stood aghast at the mere idea, then he gave a resigned sort of sigh and added like a martyr, “If those dear women would let me alone, I'd thank them forever. Put the idea out of their minds for heaven's sake, Mac, or I shall be having that poor girl flung at my head and her comfort destroyed. She is a fine creature and I'm proud of her, but she deserves a better lot than to be tied to an old fellow like me whose only merit is his fidelity.”
“I!” The doctor was shocked by the very thought, then let out a resigned sigh and added like a martyr, “If those sweet women would just leave me alone, I’d be grateful forever. For heaven's sake, Mac, get that idea out of their heads, or I’ll end up with that poor girl thrown at me, and her happiness ruined. She’s a wonderful person and I’m proud of her, but she deserves a better fate than being tied to an old guy like me whose only virtue is his loyalty.”
“As you please, I was only joking,” and Uncle Mac dropped the subject with secret relief. The excellent man thought a good deal of family and had been rather worried at the hints of the ladies. After a moment's silence he returned to a former topic, which was rather a pet plan of his. “I don't think you do Archie justice, Alec. You don't know him as well as I do, but you'll find that he has heart enough under his cool, quiet manner. I've grown very fond of him, think highly of him, and don't see how you could do better for Rose than to give her to him.”
“As you wish, I was just kidding,” Uncle Mac said, dropping the subject with a sense of relief. The good man cared a lot about family and had been a bit worried about the ladies' hints. After a moment of silence, he returned to a previous topic that he was quite passionate about. “I don’t think you’re giving Archie enough credit, Alec. You don’t know him as well as I do, but you’ll see that he has plenty of heart beneath his calm, reserved exterior. I’ve grown really fond of him, think highly of him, and I can’t see how you could find anyone better for Rose than him.”
“If she will go,” said the doctor, smiling at his brother's businesslike way of disposing of the young people.
“If she’s going to go,” said the doctor, smiling at his brother's practical approach to handling the young people.
“She'll do anything to please you,” began Uncle Mac in perfect good faith, for twenty-five years in the society of a very prosaic wife had taken nearly all the romance out of him.
“She'll do anything to please you,” Uncle Mac said genuinely, as twenty-five years with a very practical wife had drained almost all the romance out of him.
“It is of no use for us to plan, and I shall never interfere except to advise, and if I were to choose one of the boys, I should incline to my godson,” answered the doctor gravely.
“It’s pointless for us to make plans, and I won’t get involved unless to give advice, and if I had to choose one of the boys, I would lean towards my godson,” the doctor replied seriously.
“What, my Ugly Duckling!” exclaimed Uncle Mac in great surprise.
“What, my Ugly Duckling!” exclaimed Uncle Mac in great surprise.
“The Ugly Duckling turned out a swan, you remember. I've always been fond of the boy because he's so genuine and original. Crude as a green apple now, but sound at the core, and only needs time to ripen. I'm sure he'll turn out a capital specimen of the Campbell variety.”
“The Ugly Duckling turned out to be a swan, you remember. I've always liked the boy because he's so genuine and unique. He’s rough around the edges right now, but he has a good core and just needs time to mature. I'm sure he'll turn out to be a great example of the Campbell variety.”
“Much obliged, Alec, but it will never do at all. He's a good fellow, and may do something to be proud of by and by, but he's not the mate for our Rose. She needs someone who can manage her property when we are gone, and Archie is the man for that, depend upon it.”
“Thanks a lot, Alec, but that just won’t work at all. He’s a good guy and might achieve something to be proud of eventually, but he’s not the right match for our Rose. She needs someone who can handle her property when we're not around, and Archie is definitely the guy for that.”
“Confound the property!” cried Dr. Alec impetuously. “I want her to be happy, and I don't care how soon she gets rid of her money if it is going to be a millstone round her neck. I declare to you, I dreaded the thought of this time so much that I've kept her away as long as I could and trembled whenever a young fellow joined us while we were abroad. Had one or two narrow escapes, and now I'm in for it, as you can see by tonight's 'success' as Clara calls it. Thank heaven I haven't many daughters to look after!”
“Damn the money!” Dr. Alec exclaimed impulsively. “I want her to be happy, and I don't care how quickly she gets rid of her wealth if it's going to be a burden. I swear, I dreaded this moment so much that I've kept her away as long as possible and felt uneasy whenever a young guy joined us while we were abroad. We had a couple of close calls, and now I’m in for it, as you can see by tonight's ‘success,’ as Clara puts it. Thank goodness I don’t have many daughters to worry about!”
“Come, come, don't be anxious take Archie and settle it right up safely and happily. That's my advice, and you'll find it sound,” replied the elder conspirator, like one having experience.
“Come on, don’t be worried. Take Archie and get it all sorted out safely and happily. That’s my advice, and you’ll find it solid,” replied the older conspirator, speaking from experience.
“I'll think of it, but mind you, Mac, not a word of this to the sisters. We are a couple of old fools to be matchmaking so soon but I see what is before me and it's a comfort to free my mind to someone.”
“I'll think about it, but just so you know, Mac, don't breathe a word of this to the sisters. We’re a couple of old fools trying to play matchmaker so soon, but I see what’s ahead of us and it feels good to share my thoughts with someone.”
“So it is. Depend on me not a breath even to Jane,” answered Uncle Mac, with a hearty shake and a sympathetic slap on the shoulder.
“So it is. You can count on me not to breathe a word to Jane,” Uncle Mac replied, giving a hearty shake and a friendly slap on the shoulder.
“Why, what dark and awful secrets are going on here? Is it a Freemason's Lodge and those the mystic signs?” asked a gay voice at the door; and there stood Rose, full of smiling wonder at the sight of her two uncles hand in hand, whispering and nodding to one another mysteriously.
“Why, what dark and terrible secrets are happening here? Is this a Freemason's Lodge with those secret signs?” asked a cheerful voice at the door; and there stood Rose, full of smiling curiosity at the sight of her two uncles hand in hand, whispering and nodding to each other in a mysterious way.
They stared like schoolboys caught plotting mischief and looked so guilty that she took pity on them, innocently imagining the brothers were indulging in a little sentiment on this joyful occasion, so she added quickly, as she beckoned, without crossing the threshold, “Women not allowed, of course, but both of you dear Odd Fellows are wanted, for Aunt Plenty begs we will have an old-fashioned contra dance, and I'm to lead off with Uncle Mac. I chose you, sir, because you do it in style, pigeon wings and all. So, please come and Phebe is waiting for you, Uncle Alec. She is rather shy you know, but will enjoy it with you to take care of her.”
They looked at each other like kids who got caught planning pranks and seemed so guilty that she felt sorry for them, naively thinking the brothers were just getting a little sentimental on this happy occasion. So she quickly added, while waving them over without stepping inside, “Sorry, no women allowed, but both you dear Odd Fellows are needed, because Aunt Plenty insists we have an old-fashioned contra dance, and I'm supposed to start off with Uncle Mac. I picked you, sir, because you do it in style, pigeon wings and all. So please come, and Phebe is waiting for you, Uncle Alec. She’s a bit shy, but she’ll have a great time if you look out for her.”
“Thank you, thank you!” cried both gentlemen, following with great alacrity.
“Thank you, thank you!” exclaimed both gentlemen, responding with great enthusiasm.
Unconscious, Rose enjoyed that Virginia reel immensely, for the pigeon wings were superb, and her partner conducted her through the convolutions of the dance without a fault, going down the middle in his most gallant style. Landing safely at the bottom, she stood aside to let him get his breath, for stout Uncle Mac was bound to do or die on that occasion and would have danced his pumps through without a murmur if she had desired it.
Unconscious, Rose really enjoyed that Virginia reel, because the movements were amazing, and her partner skillfully guided her through the twists and turns of the dance without a hitch, striding down the middle in his most dashing style. After safely reaching the end, she stepped aside to let him catch his breath, since sturdy Uncle Mac was determined to keep going no matter what and would have danced his shoes off without a complaint if she wanted him to.
Leaning against the wall with his hair in his eyes, and a decidedly bored expression of countenance, was Mac, Jr., who had been surveying the gymnastics of his parent with respectful astonishment.
Leaning against the wall with his hair over his eyes and a pretty bored look on his face was Mac, Jr., who had been watching his parent’s gymnastics with respectful amazement.
“Come and take a turn, my lad. Rose is fresh as a daisy, but we old fellows soon get enough of it, so you shall have my place,” said his father, wiping his face, which glowed like a cheerful peony.
“Come and have a go, my boy. Rose is bright as a daisy, but us old guys get tired of it pretty quickly, so you can take my spot,” said his father, wiping his face, which looked as bright as a happy peony.
“No, thank you, sir I can't stand that sort of thing. I'll race you round the piazza with pleasure, Cousin, but his oven is too much for me,” was Mac's uncivil reply as he backed toward the open window, as if glad of an excuse to escape.
“No, thank you, sir. I really can’t handle that kind of thing. I’ll happily race you around the plaza, Cousin, but that guy’s oven is too much for me,” was Mac’s rude answer as he stepped back toward the open window, seemingly glad for a reason to get away.
“Fragile creature, don't stay on my account, I beg. I can't leave my guests for a moonlight run, even if I dared to take it on a frosty night in a thin dress,” said Rose, fanning herself and not a bit ruffled by Mac's refusal, for she knew his ways and they amused her.
“Delicate soul, please don't feel obligated to stay because of me, I insist. I can’t abandon my guests for a moonlit stroll, even if I were brave enough to attempt it on a chilly night in such a light dress,” Rose said, fanning herself and not the least bit upset by Mac's refusal, as she understood his habits and found them entertaining.
“Not half so bad as all this dust, gas, heat, and noise. What do you suppose lungs are made of?” demanded Mac, ready for a discussion then and there.
“Not nearly as bad as all this dust, gas, heat, and noise. What do you think lungs are made of?” asked Mac, eager for a conversation right then and there.
“I used to know, but I've forgotten now. Been so busy with other things that I've neglected the hobbies I used to ride five or six years ago,” she said, laughing.
“I used to know, but I've forgotten now. I've been so busy with other things that I've neglected the hobbies I used to enjoy five or six years ago,” she said, laughing.
“Ah, those were times worth having! Are you going in for much of this sort of thing, Rose?” he asked with a disapproving glance at the dancers.
“Ah, those were moments to remember! Are you into this kind of thing, Rose?” he asked, giving the dancers a disapproving look.
“About three months of it, I think.”
“Probably about three months of it, I guess.”
“Then good-bye till New Year.” And Mac vanished behind the curtains.
“Then goodbye until New Year.” And Mac disappeared behind the curtains.
“Rose, my dear, you really must take that fellow in hand before he gets to be quite a bear. Since you have been gone he has lived in his books and got on so finely that we have let him alone, though his mother groans over his manners. Polish him up a bit, I beg of you, for it is high time he mended his odd ways and did justice to the fine gifts he hides behind them,” said Uncle Mac, scandalized at the bluntness of his son.
“Rose, my dear, you really need to take that guy in hand before he becomes a total bear. Since you’ve been away, he’s been buried in his books and has been doing so well that we’ve left him alone, even though his mother complains about his manners. Please give him a bit of polish, because it’s high time he fixed his quirky ways and made the most of the great talents he hides behind them,” Uncle Mac said, shocked by his son’s bluntness.
“I know my chestnut burr too well to mind his prickles. But others do not, so I will take him in hand and make him a credit to his family,” answered Rose readily.
“I know my chestnut burr too well to be bothered by his prickles. But others don’t, so I’ll take charge and make him a credit to his family,” Rose replied without hesitation.
“Take Archie for your model he's one of a thousand, and the girl who gets him gets a prize, I do assure you,” added Uncle Mac, who found matchmaking to his taste and thought that closing remark a deep one.
“Consider Archie as your example; he's one in a thousand, and the girl who wins him earns a prize, I promise you,” added Uncle Mac, who enjoyed playing matchmaker and thought that last comment was very insightful.
“Oh, me, how tired I am!” cried Rose, dropping into a chair as the last carriage rolled away somewhere between one and two.
“Oh, I’m so tired!” Rose exclaimed, sinking into a chair as the last carriage disappeared into the distance around one or two.
“What is your opinion now, Miss Campbell?” asked the doctor, addressing her for the first time by the name which had been uttered so often that night.
“What do you think now, Miss Campbell?” asked the doctor, referring to her by the name that had been said so many times that night.
“My opinion is that Miss Campbell is likely to have a gay life if she goes on as she has begun, and that she finds it very delightful so far,” answered the girl, with lips still smiling from their first taste of what the world calls pleasure.
“My opinion is that Miss Campbell is likely to have a fun life if she keeps it up, and that she finds it really delightful so far,” answered the girl, with lips still smiling from their first taste of what the world calls pleasure.
Chapter 4 THORNS AMONG THE ROSES
For a time everything went smoothly, and Rose was a happy girl. The world seemed a beautiful and friendly place, and fulfillment of her brightest dreams appeared to be a possibility. Of course this could not last, and disappointment was inevitable, because young eyes look for a Paradise and weep when they find a workaday world which seems full of care and trouble till one learns to gladden and glorify it with high thoughts and holy living.
For a while, everything went well, and Rose was a happy girl. The world seemed beautiful and friendly, and achieving her biggest dreams felt possible. Of course, this couldn’t last, and disappointment was bound to come because young eyes seek a paradise and cry when they discover a mundane world that appears full of worry and hardship until one learns to brighten and elevate it with positive thoughts and meaningful living.
Those who loved her waited anxiously for the disillusion which must come in spite of all their cherishing, for till now Rose had been so busy with her studies, travels, and home duties that she knew very little of the triumphs, trials, and temptations of fashionable life. Birth and fortune placed her where she could not well escape some of them, and Dr. Alec, knowing that experience is the best teacher, wisely left her to learn this lesson as she must many another, devoutly hoping that it would not be a hard one.
Those who cared for her waited nervously for the disappointment that was bound to come despite all their love, because until now Rose had been so wrapped up in her studies, travels, and family responsibilities that she knew very little about the successes, challenges, and temptations of high society. Her background and wealth put her in a position where she couldn't completely avoid some of them, and Dr. Alec, knowing that experience is the best teacher, wisely allowed her to learn this lesson like so many others, sincerely hoping it wouldn't be a difficult one.
October and November passed rapidly, and Christmas was at hand, with all its merry mysteries, home gatherings, and good wishes.
October and November flew by, and Christmas was just around the corner, bringing all its joyful surprises, family get-togethers, and warm wishes.
Rose sat in her own little sanctum, opening from the parlor, busily preparing gifts for the dear five hundred friends who seemed to grow fonder and fonder as the holidays drew near. The drawers of her commode stood open, giving glimpses of dainty trifles, which she was tying up with bright ribbons.
Rose sat in her own little space, connected to the living room, happily getting gifts ready for the dear five hundred friends who seemed to grow more and more dear as the holidays approached. The drawers of her dresser were open, revealing lovely little things that she was wrapping up with bright ribbons.
A young girl's face at such moments is apt to be a happy one, but Rose's was very grave as she worked, and now and then she threw a parcel into the drawer with a careless toss, as if no love made the gift precious. So unusual was this expression that it struck Dr. Alec as he came in and brought an anxious look to his eyes, for any cloud on that other countenance dropped its shadow over his.
A young girl's face is usually happy during such moments, but Rose's was very serious as she worked. Every now and then, she casually tossed a package into the drawer, as if there was nothing special about the gift. This unusual expression caught Dr. Alec's attention when he entered, bringing a worried look to his eyes, because any frown on her face cast a shadow over his.
“Can you spare a minute from your pretty work to take a stitch in my old glove?” he asked, coming up to the table strewn with ribbon, lace, and colored papers.
“Can you take a minute away from your beautiful work to fix a stitch in my old glove?” he asked, walking over to the table covered in ribbon, lace, and colored paper.
“Yes, Uncle, as many as you please.”
“Yes, Uncle, as many as you want.”
The face brightened with sudden sunshine; both hands were put out to receive the shabby driving glove, and the voice was full of that affectionate alacrity which makes the smallest service sweet.
The face lit up with sudden sunlight; both hands reached out to take the worn driving glove, and the voice was filled with that warm enthusiasm that makes even the smallest gesture feel special.
“My Lady Bountiful is hard at work, I see. Can I help in any way?” he asked, glancing at the display before him.
“My Lady Bountiful is really busy, I see. Can I do anything to help?” he asked, looking at the setup in front of him.
“No, thank you, unless you can make me as full of interest and pleasure in these things as I used to be. Don't you think preparing presents a great bore, except for those you love and who love you?” she added in a tone which had a slight tremor in it as she uttered the last words.
“No, thanks, unless you can make me as excited and happy about these things as I used to be. Don’t you think getting ready for gifts is pretty boring, except for the ones you care about and who care about you?” she added, her voice slightly shaking as she said the last words.
“I don't give to people whom I care nothing for. Can't do it, especially at Christmas, when goodwill should go into everything one does. If all these 'pretties' are for dear friends, you must have a great many.”
“I don't give to people I don't care about. I can't do it, especially at Christmas, when kindness should be present in everything we do. If all these 'pretty gifts' are for dear friends, you must have a lot of them.”
“I thought they were friends, but I find many of them are not, and that's the trouble, sir.”
"I thought they were my friends, but I realize that many of them aren't, and that's the problem, sir."
“Tell me all about it, dear, and let the old glove go,” he said, sitting down beside her with his most sympathetic air.
“Tell me everything, sweetheart, and forget about the old glove,” he said, sitting down next to her with his most understanding expression.
But she held the glove fast, saying eagerly, “No, no, I love to do this! I don't feel as if I could look at you while I tell what a bad, suspicious girl I am,” she added, keeping her eyes on her work.
But she held the glove tightly, saying eagerly, “No, no, I love doing this! I don't feel like I can look at you while I talk about how bad and suspicious I am,” she added, keeping her eyes on her work.
“Very well, I'm ready for confessions of any iniquity and glad to get them, for sometimes lately I've seen a cloud in my girl's eyes and caught a worried tone in her voice. Is there a bitter drop in the cup that promised to be so sweet, Rose?”
“Alright, I'm ready to hear any confessions of wrongdoing and I'm happy to listen, because lately I've noticed a cloud in my girl's eyes and a worried tone in her voice. Is there something bitter in the cup that was supposed to be so sweet, Rose?”
“Yes, Uncle. I've tried to think there was not, but it is there, and I don't like it. I'm ashamed to tell, and yet I want to, because you will show me how to make it sweet or assure me that I shall be the better for it, as you used to do when I took medicine.”
“Yes, Uncle. I’ve tried to convince myself that it isn’t there, but it is, and I don’t like it. I’m embarrassed to talk about it, yet I want to because you can help me make it better or promise me that I’ll come out stronger, just like you used to when I took medicine.”
She paused a minute, sewing swiftly; then out came the trouble all in one burst of girlish grief and chagrin.
She stopped for a moment, sewing quickly; then all her troubles came out in a sudden rush of youthful sadness and disappointment.
“Uncle, half the people who are so kind to me don't care a bit for me, but for what I can give them, and that makes me unhappy, because I was so glad and proud to be liked. I do wish I hadn't a penny in the world, then I should know who my true friends were.”
“Uncle, half the people who are so nice to me don’t care about me at all, just for what I can give them, and that makes me sad because I was so happy and proud to be liked. I really wish I didn’t have a penny to my name; then I would know who my real friends are.”
“Poor little lass! She has found out that all that glitters is not gold, and the disillusion has begun,” said the doctor to himself, adding aloud, smiling yet pitiful, “And so all the pleasure is gone out of the pretty gifts and Christmas is a failure?”
“Poor little girl! She’s realized that not everything that sparkles is gold, and the disappointment has started,” the doctor said to himself, then added aloud, smiling but feeling sorry for her, “So all the joy is gone from the lovely gifts, and Christmas is a bust?”
“Oh, no not for those whom nothing can make me doubt! It is sweeter than ever to make these things, because my heart is in every stitch and I know that, poor as they are, they will be dear to you, Aunty Plen, Aunt Jessie, Phebe, and the boys.”
“Oh, no, not for those whom nothing can make me doubt! It’s sweeter than ever to create these things because my heart is in every stitch, and I know that, as simple as they are, they will be cherished by you, Aunty Plen, Aunt Jessie, Phebe, and the boys.”
She opened a drawer where lay a pile of pretty gifts, wrought with loving care by her own hands, touching them tenderly as she spoke and patting the sailor's knot of blue ribbon on one fat parcel with a smile that told how unshakable her faith in someone was. “But these,” she said, pulling open another drawer and tossing over its gay contents with an air half sad, half scornful, “these I bought and give because they are expected. These people care only for a rich gift, not one bit for the giver, whom they will secretly abuse if she is not as generous as they expect. How can I enjoy that sort of thing, Uncle?”
She opened a drawer that held a pile of beautiful gifts, carefully made by her own hands, touching them gently as she spoke and patting the sailor's knot of blue ribbon on one large package with a smile that showed her unwavering faith in someone. “But these,” she said, pulling open another drawer and tossing aside its cheerful contents with a mix of sadness and disdain, “these I bought and give because they’re expected. These people only care about an expensive gift, not at all about the giver, who they will secretly criticize if she’s not as generous as they want. How can I enjoy that kind of thing, Uncle?”
“You cannot, but perhaps you do some of them injustice, my dear. Don't let the envy or selfishness of a few poison your faith in all. Are you sure that none of these girls care for you?” he asked, reading a name here and there on the parcels scattered about.
“You can’t, but maybe you’re being unfair to some of them, my dear. Don’t let the jealousy or selfishness of a few ruin your trust in all of them. Are you absolutely sure that none of these girls care about you?” he asked, glancing at a name here and there on the parcels spread around.
“I'm afraid I am. You see I heard several talking together the other evening at Annabel's, only a few words, but it hurt me very much, for nearly everyone was speculating on what I would give them and hoping it would be something fine. 'She's so rich she ought to be generous,' said one. 'I've been perfectly devoted to her for weeks and hope she won't forget it,' said another. 'If she doesn't give me some of her gloves, I shall think she's very mean, for she has heaps, and I tried on a pair in fun so she could see they fitted and take a hint,' added a third. I did take the hint, you see.” And Rose opened a handsome box in which lay several pairs of her best gloves, with buttons enough to satisfy the heart of the most covetous.
"I'm really sorry to say that I am. You see, I overheard a few people talking the other evening at Annabel's. It was only a few words, but it really hurt me because almost everyone was speculating about what I would give them, hoping it would be something nice. 'She's so rich; she should be generous,' said one person. 'I've been completely devoted to her for weeks and hope she won't forget that,' said another. 'If she doesn't give me some of her gloves, I’ll think she’s really stingy since she has so many, and I tried on a pair just for fun to show her they fit and drop a hint,' added a third. I definitely got the hint, you see.” And Rose opened a beautiful box containing several pairs of her best gloves, with enough buttons to satisfy the most greedy heart.
“Plenty of silver paper and perfume, but not much love went into that bundle, I fancy?” And Dr. Alec could not help smiling at the disdainful little gesture with which Rose pushed away the box.
“Lots of silver paper and perfume, but not much love went into that bundle, I guess?” And Dr. Alec couldn’t help smiling at the dismissive little gesture with which Rose pushed the box away.
“Not a particle, nor in most of these. I have given them what they wanted and taken back the confidence and respect they didn't care for. It is wrong, I know, but I can't bear to think all the seeming goodwill and friendliness I've been enjoying was insincere and for a purpose. That's not the way I treat people.”
“Not a single bit, nor most of these. I’ve given them what they wanted and taken back the confidence and respect they didn’t value. I know it’s wrong, but I can’t stand the thought that all the apparent goodwill and friendliness I’ve been experiencing was fake and for their own agenda. That’s not how I treat people.”
“I am sure of it. Take things for what they are worth, dear, and try to find the wheat among the tares, for there is plenty if one knows how to look. Is that all the trouble?”
“I’m sure of it. Take things for what they are, dear, and try to find the good among the bad, because there’s plenty if you know how to look. Is that all the trouble?”
“No, sir, that is the lightest part of it. I shall soon get over my disappointment in those girls and take them for what they are worth as you advise, but being deceived in them makes me suspicious of others, and that is hateful. If I cannot trust people I'd rather keep by myself and be happy. I do detest maneuvering and underhanded plots and plans!”
“No, sir, that's the easiest part of it. I'll soon get over my disappointment in those girls and see them for what they are, as you suggest, but being misled by them makes me wary of others, and that's frustrating. If I can't trust people, I'd rather be alone and be happy. I absolutely hate scheming and sneaky plots!”
Rose spoke petulantly and twitched her silk till it broke, while regret seemed to give place to anger as she spoke.
Rose spoke sulkily and tugged at her silk until it tore, while regret seemed to turn into anger as she talked.
“There is evidently another thorn pricking. Let us have it out, and then I'll kiss the place to make it well as I used to do when I took the splinters from the fingers you are pricking so unmercifully,” said the doctor, anxious to relieve his pet patient as soon as possible.
“There’s clearly another thorn making you uncomfortable. Let’s address it, and then I’ll kiss it better like I used to when I removed the splinters from your fingers that you’re poking so mercilessly,” said the doctor, eager to help his favorite patient as quickly as possible.
Rose laughed, but the color deepened in her cheeks as she answered with a pretty mixture of maidenly shyness and natural candor.
Rose laughed, but her cheeks turned a deeper shade as she responded with a charming blend of youthful shyness and honesty.
“Aunt Clara worries me by warning me against half the young men I meet and insisting that they want only my money. Now that is dreadful, and I won't listen, but I can't help thinking of it sometimes, for they are very kind to me and I'm not vain enough to think it is my beauty. I suppose I am foolish, but I do like to feel that I am something besides an heiress.”
“Aunt Clara makes me anxious by cautioning me against almost every young man I meet and insisting that they only want my money. That’s just terrible, and I refuse to believe it, but I can’t help thinking about it sometimes, because they are really kind to me, and I’m not arrogant enough to think it’s because of my looks. I guess I’m being silly, but I like to feel that I’m more than just an heiress.”
The little quiver was in Rose's voice again as she ended, and Dr. Alec gave a quick sigh as he looked at the downcast face so full of the perplexity ingenuous spirits feel when doubt first mars their faith and dims the innocent beliefs still left from childhood. He had been expecting this and knew that what the girl just began to perceive and try modestly to tell had long ago been plain to worldlier eyes. The heiress was the attraction to most of the young men whom she met. Good fellows enough, but educated, as nearly all are nowadays, to believe that girls with beauty or money are brought to market to sell or buy as the case may be.
The slight tremor returned to Rose's voice as she finished speaking, and Dr. Alec let out a quick sigh as he looked at her downcast face, filled with the confusion that innocent souls experience when doubt first disrupts their faith and clouds the pure beliefs they still hold from childhood. He had seen this coming and understood that what the girl was just beginning to realize and try to express had long been obvious to those more experienced. The heiress was a catch for most of the young men she encountered. They were decent guys, but like most people nowadays, they had been taught to think that girls with beauty or wealth are just commodities to be traded.
Rose could purchase anything she liked, as she combined both advantages, and was soon surrounded by many admirers, each striving to secure the prize. Not being trained to believe that the only end and aim of a woman's life was a good match, she was a little disturbed, when the first pleasing excitement was over, to discover that her fortune was her chief attraction.
Rose could buy whatever she wanted, as she had both advantages, and soon found herself surrounded by many admirers, each trying to win her over. Not having been raised to think that a woman's sole purpose in life was to find a good match, she felt a bit unsettled, once the initial excitement faded, to realize that her wealth was her main appeal.
It was impossible for her to help seeing, hearing, guessing this from a significant glance, a stray word, a slight hint here and there, and the quick instinct of a woman felt even before it understood the self-interest which chilled for her so many opening friendships. In her eyes love was a very sacred thing, hardly to be thought of till it came, reverently received and cherished faithfully to the end. Therefore, it is not strange that she shrank from hearing it flippantly discussed and marriage treated as a bargain to be haggled over, with little thought of its high duties, great responsibilities, and tender joys. Many things perplexed her, and sometimes a doubt of all that till now she had believed and trusted made her feel as if at sea without a compass, for the new world was so unlike the one she had been living in that it bewildered while it charmed the novice.
It was impossible for her not to notice, hear, or infer things from a significant glance, a casual word, a subtle hint here and there, and the quick instinct of a woman that sensed self-interest, which often cooled her many budding friendships. In her eyes, love was something very sacred, not to be casually mentioned until it arrived—something to be received with reverence and cherished faithfully until the end. So, it's no surprise that she recoiled from hearing it discussed so lightly and from seeing marriage treated as a deal to be negotiated, with little consideration for its profound responsibilities, significant obligations, and tender joys. Many things confused her, and sometimes a doubt about everything she had believed and trusted made her feel adrift, like being at sea without a compass, as the new world was so different from the one she had known, leaving her both bewildered and enchanted.
Dr. Alec understood the mood in which he found her and did his best to warn without saddening by too much worldly wisdom.
Dr. Alec picked up on her mood and tried to give her a heads-up without bringing her down with too much advice.
“You are something besides an heiress to those who know and love you, so take heart, my girl, and hold fast to the faith that is in you. There is a touchstone for all these things, and whatever does not ring true, doubt and avoid. Test and try men and women as they come along, and I am sure conscience, instinct, and experience will keep you from any dire mistake,” he said, with a protecting arm about her and a trustful look that was very comforting.
“You're more than just an heiress to those who know and love you, so stay strong, my girl, and hold on to the belief within you. There’s a way to measure all these things, and whatever doesn’t feel right, question and steer clear of it. Evaluate the people you meet as they come into your life, and I’m sure your conscience, instincts, and experiences will prevent you from making any serious mistakes,” he said, with a reassuring arm around her and a trusting look that was very comforting.
After a moment's pause she answered, while a sudden smile dimpled around her mouth and the big glove went up to hide her telltale cheeks: “Uncle, if I must have lovers, I do wish they'd be more interesting. How can I like or respect men who go on as some of them do and then imagine women can feel honored by the offer of their hands? Hearts are out of fashion, so they don't say much about them.”
After a brief moment, she replied, a sudden smile appearing around her mouth as she lifted her big glove to cover her revealing cheeks: “Uncle, if I have to have lovers, I really wish they were more interesting. How can I like or respect men who behave like some of them do and then think women would feel honored by their proposals? Hearts are out of style, so they don’t say much about them.”
“Ah, ha! That is the trouble, is it? And we begin to have delicate distresses, do we?” said Dr. Alec, glad to see her brightening and full of interest in the new topic, for he was a romantic old fellow, as he had confessed to his brother.
“Ah, I see! Is that the problem? And we're starting to feel sensitive distress, are we?” said Dr. Alec, pleased to see her perk up and engaged in the new topic, for he was a sentimental old guy, as he had admitted to his brother.
Rose put down the glove and looked up with a droll mixture of amusement and disgust in her face. “Uncle, it is perfectly disgraceful! I've wanted to tell you, but I was ashamed, because I never could boast of such things as some girls do, and they were so absurd I couldn't feel as if they were worth repeating even to you. Perhaps I ought, though, for you may think it proper to command me to make a good match, and of course I should have to obey,” she added, trying to look meek.
Rose set the glove aside and looked up with a wry mix of amusement and disgust on her face. “Uncle, this is absolutely disgraceful! I've wanted to tell you, but I was embarrassed because I can’t brag about these things like some girls do, and they seemed so ridiculous that I didn’t feel they were worth mentioning, even to you. Maybe I should, though, since you might think it’s fitting to insist that I make a good match, and of course I’d have to comply,” she added, attempting to appear submissive.
“Tell, by all means. Don't I always keep your secrets and give you the best advice, like a model guardian? You must have a confidant, and where find a better one than here?” he asked, tapping his waistcoat with an inviting gesture.
“Go ahead, tell me. Don’t I always keep your secrets and give you the best advice, just like a perfect guardian? You need a trusted friend, and where can you find a better one than here?” he asked, tapping his waistcoat with an inviting gesture.
“Nowhere so I'll tell all but the names. I'd best be prudent, for I'm afraid you may get a little fierce you do sometimes when people vex me,” began Rose, rather liking the prospect of a confidential chat with Uncle, for he had kept himself a good deal in the background lately.
“Nowhere, so I'll tell all but the names. I’d better be careful because I’m worried you might get a bit intense like you sometimes do when people annoy me,” Rose started, enjoying the idea of having a private conversation with Uncle, since he had been mostly out of the spotlight lately.
“You know our ideas are old-fashioned, so I was not prepared to have men propose at all times and places with no warning but a few smiles and soft speeches. I expected things of that sort would be very interesting and proper, not to say thrilling, on my part but they are not, and I find myself laughing instead of crying, feeling angry instead of glad, and forgetting all about it very soon. Why, Uncle, one absurd boy proposed when we'd met only half a dozen times. But he was dreadfully in debt, so that accounted for it perhaps.” And Rose dusted her fingers, as if she had soiled them.
“You know our ideas are old-fashioned, so I wasn’t expecting guys to propose at any moment and in any place with just a few smiles and sweet talk. I thought those moments would be really interesting and proper, even a bit thrilling for me, but they’re not. I find myself laughing instead of crying, feeling upset instead of happy, and forgetting all about it pretty quickly. I mean, Uncle, one ridiculous guy proposed after we’d only met about six times. But he was in a ton of debt, so maybe that explains it.” And Rose brushed off her fingers, as if they were dirty.
“I know him, and I thought he'd do it,” observed the doctor with a shrug.
“I know him, and I thought he would do it,” the doctor said with a shrug.
“You see and know everything, so there's no need of going on, is there?”
“You see and know everything, so there’s no point in continuing, right?”
“Do, do! Who else? I won't even guess.”
“Go ahead, who else? I won't even try to guess.”
“Well, another went down upon his knees in Mrs. Van's greenhouse and poured forth his passion manfully, with a great cactus pricking his poor legs all the while. Kitty found him there, and it was impossible to keep sober, so he has hated me ever since.”
"Well, another guy got down on his knees in Mrs. Van's greenhouse and poured out his feelings boldly, with a big cactus poking his poor legs the whole time. Kitty found him there, and it was impossible to stay serious, so he has resented me ever since."
The doctor's “Ha! Ha!” was good to hear, and Rose joined him, for it was impossible to regard these episodes seriously, since no true sentiment redeemed them from absurdity.
The doctor's “Ha! Ha!” was nice to hear, and Rose laughed along with him, because it was impossible to take these moments seriously, since there was no genuine feeling that made them anything but ridiculous.
“Another sent me reams of poetry and went on so Byronically that I began to wish I had red hair and my name was Betsy Ann. I burnt all the verses, so don't expect to see them, and he, poor fellow, is consoling himself with Emma. But the worst of all was the one who would make love in public and insisted on proposing in the middle of a dance. I seldom dance round dances except with our boys, but that night I did because the girls laughed at me for being so 'prudish,' as they called it. I don't mind them now, for I found I was right, and felt that I deserved my fate.”
“Another guy sent me tons of poetry and went on so dramatically that I started wishing I had red hair and my name was Betsy Ann. I burned all the verses, so don’t expect to see them, and he, poor guy, is trying to cheer himself up with Emma. But the worst of all was the one who would flirt in public and insisted on proposing in the middle of a dance. I usually don't dance around dances except with our boys, but that night I did because the girls teased me for being so 'prudish,' as they put it. I don’t care about that now, because I realized I was right and felt that I deserved my fate.”
“Is that all?” asked her uncle, looking “fierce,” as she predicted, at the idea of his beloved girl obliged to listen to a declaration, twirling on the arm of a lover.
“Is that it?” her uncle asked, looking “fierce,” just as she expected, at the thought of his beloved girl having to listen to a declaration while twirling on the arm of a lover.
“One more but him I shall not tell about, for I know he was in earnest and really suffered, though I was as kind as I knew how to be. I'm young in these things yet, so I grieved for him, and treat his love with the tenderest respect.”
“One more person I won't mention, because I know he was sincere and really struggled, even though I was as kind as I could be. I'm still young in these matters, so I felt sad for him and treat his love with the utmost respect.”
Rose's voice sank almost to a whisper as she ended, and Dr. Alec bent his head, as if involuntarily saluting a comrade in misfortune. Then he got up, saying with a keen look into the face he lifted by a finger under the chin: “Do you want another three months of this?”
Rose's voice dropped to almost a whisper as she finished, and Dr. Alec leaned his head slightly, as if instinctively acknowledging a fellow sufferer. Then he stood up, looking intently into her face as he lifted her chin with a finger: “Do you want to go through another three months of this?”
“I'll tell you on New Year's Day, Uncle.”
“I'll let you know on New Year's Day, Uncle.”
“Very well. Try to keep a straight course, my little captain, and if you see dirty weather ahead, call on your first mate.”
“Okay. Try to stay on track, my little captain, and if you see bad weather coming, call on your first mate.”
“Aye, aye, sir. I'll remember.”
"Yes, sir. I'll remember."
Chapter 5 PRINCE CHARMING
The old glove lay upon the floor forgotten while Rose sat musing, till a quick step sounded in the hall and a voice drew near, tunefully humming.
The old glove was left on the floor, forgotten, while Rose sat lost in thought until she heard a quick step in the hall and a voice approaching, happily humming.
“As he was walkin' doun the street The city for to view, Oh, there he spied a bonny lass, The window lookin' through.” “Sae licht he jumpèd up the stair, And tirled at the pin; Oh, wha sae ready as hersel' To let the laddie in?”
“As he was walking down the street To see the city, Oh, there he spotted a pretty girl, Looking through the window.” “So lightly he jumped up the stairs, And knocked at the door; Oh, who was as quick as she To let the guy in?”
sang Rose as the voice paused and a tap came at the door.
sang Rose as the voice paused and a knock came at the door.
“Good morning, Rosamunda, here are your letters, and your most devoted ready to execute any commissions you may have for him,” was Charlie's greeting as he came in looking comely, gay, and debonair as usual.
“Good morning, Rosamunda, here are your letters, and your most devoted servant is ready to handle any tasks you may have for him,” was Charlie's greeting as he came in looking charming, cheerful, and stylish as always.
“Thanks. I've no errands unless you mail my replies, if these need answering, so by your leave, Prince,” and Rose began to open the handful of notes he threw into her lap.
“Thanks. I don’t have any tasks unless you send my replies, if they need answering, so with your permission, Prince,” and Rose started to open the bunch of notes he tossed into her lap.
“Ha! What sight is this to blast mine eyes?” ejaculated Charlie, as he pointed to the glove with a melodramatic start, for, like most accomplished amateur actors, he was fond of introducing private theatricals into his daily talk and conversation.
“Ha! What a sight is this to shock my eyes?” exclaimed Charlie, as he pointed to the glove with a dramatic flair, for, like many skilled amateur actors, he enjoyed incorporating theatrical moments into his everyday dialogue.
“Uncle left it.”
“Uncle gave it to me.”
“'Tis well. Methought perchance a rival had been here,” and, picking it up, Charlie amused himself with putting it on the head of a little Psyche which ornamented the mantelpiece, softly singing as he did so, another verse of the old song:
“It's fine. I thought maybe a rival had been here,” and, picking it up, Charlie entertained himself by placing it on the head of a small Psyche that adorned the mantelpiece, gently singing another verse of the old song as he did so:
“He set his Jenny on his knee, All in his Highland dress; For brawly well he kenned the way To please a bonny lass.”
“He placed his Jenny on his knee, All in his Highland outfit; For he certainly knew how To make a pretty girl happy.”
Rose went on reading her letters, but all the while was thinking of her conversation with her uncle as well as something else suggested by the newcomer and his ditty.
Rose continued reading her letters, but throughout, she was reflecting on her conversation with her uncle as well as something else brought to mind by the newcomer and his song.
During the three months since her return she had seen more of this cousin than any of the others, for he seemed to be the only one who had leisure to “play with Rose,” as they used to say years ago. The other boys were all at work, even little Jamie, many of whose play hours were devoted to manful struggles with Latin grammar, the evil genius of his boyish life. Dr. Alec had many affairs to arrange after his long absence; Phebe was busy with her music; and Aunt Plenty still actively superintended her housekeeping. Thus it fell out, quite naturally, that Charlie should form the habit of lounging in at all hours with letters, messages, bits of news, and agreeable plans for Rose. He helped her with her sketching, rode with her, sang with her, and took her to parties as a matter of course, for Aunt Clara, being the gaiest of the sisters, played chaperon on all occasions.
During the three months since her return, she had spent more time with this cousin than any of the others, since he seemed to be the only one who had the time to "play with Rose," as they used to say years ago. The other boys were all busy working, even little Jamie, who spent many of his play hours wrestling with Latin grammar, the bane of his childhood. Dr. Alec had a lot of matters to sort out after his long absence; Phebe was occupied with her music; and Aunt Plenty was still actively managing her household. As a result, it was only natural that Charlie would develop the habit of dropping by at all hours with letters, messages, bits of news, and fun plans for Rose. He helped her with her sketching, rode with her, sang with her, and took her to parties without a second thought, since Aunt Clara, being the most cheerful of the sisters, acted as chaperone on all occasions.
For a time it was very pleasant, but, by and by, Rose began to wish Charlie would find something to do like the rest and not make dawdling after her the business of his life. The family was used to his self-indulgent ways, and there was an amiable delusion in the minds of the boys that he had a right to the best of everything, for to them he was still the Prince, the flower of the flock, and in time to be an honor to the name. No one exactly knew how, for, though full of talent, he seemed to have no especial gift or bias, and the elders began to shake their heads because, in spite of many grand promises and projects, the moment for decisive action never came.
For a while, it was very nice, but eventually, Rose started to hope that Charlie would find something to do like everyone else and stop making chasing after her his main goal in life. The family was used to his indulgent behavior, and the boys held a charming misconception that he deserved the best of everything, as to them, he was still the Prince, the standout of the group, and destined to bring honor to the family name. No one really knew how this was supposed to happen because, despite being talented, he didn’t seem to have any particular skill or passion, and the older family members began to shake their heads since, despite many grand promises and ideas, the moment for taking real action never came.
Rose saw all this and longed to inspire her brilliant cousin with some manful purpose which should win for him respect as well as admiration. But she found it very hard, for though he listened with imperturbable good humor, and owned his shortcomings with delightful frankness, he always had some argument, reason, or excuse to offer and out-talked her in five minutes, leaving her silenced but unconvinced.
Rose saw all this and wanted to inspire her brilliant cousin with a strong purpose that would earn him respect as well as admiration. But she found it challenging, because even though he listened with unshakeable good humor and openly admitted his shortcomings, he always had some argument, reason, or excuse to bring up, out-talking her in five minutes and leaving her quiet but unconvinced.
Of late she had observed that he seemed to feel as if her time and thoughts belonged exclusively to him and rather resented the approach of any other claimant. This annoyed her and suggested the idea that her affectionate interest and efforts were misunderstood by him, misrepresented and taken advantage of by Aunt Clara, who had been most urgent that she should “use her influence with the dear boy,” though the fond mother resented all other interference. This troubled Rose and made her feel as if caught in a snare, for, while she owned to herself that Charlie was the most attractive of her cousins, she was not ready to be taken possession of in this masterful way, especially since other and sometimes better men sought her favor more humbly.
Lately, she had noticed that he acted like her time and thoughts belonged only to him and seemed to resent anyone else trying to get her attention. This annoyed her and led her to think that he misunderstood her affectionate interest and efforts, which Aunt Clara had been trying to manipulate by insisting that she “use her influence with the dear boy,” even though Rose's loving mother was against any other interference. This situation troubled Rose and made her feel trapped, because while she admitted to herself that Charlie was the most appealing of her cousins, she didn’t want to be claimed in such a controlling way, especially when other, often better, men were pursuing her more respectfully.
These thoughts were floating vaguely in her mind as she read her letters and unconsciously influenced her in the chat that followed.
These thoughts were drifting vaguely in her mind as she read her letters and unconsciously affected her during the conversation that followed.
“Only invitations, and I can't stop to answer them now or I shall never get through this job,” she said, returning to her work.
“Just invitations, and I can't take the time to respond to them now or I'll never finish this job,” she said, going back to her work.
“Let me help. You do up, and I'll direct. Have a secretary, do now, and see what a comfort it will be,” proposed Charlie, who could turn his hand to anything and had made himself quite at home in the sanctum.
“Let me help. You get ready, and I'll take charge. Get a secretary now, and see how much easier it will be,” suggested Charlie, who was skilled at many things and had made himself quite comfortable in the space.
“I'd rather finish this myself, but you may answer the notes if you will. Just regrets to all but two or three. Read the names as you go along and I'll tell you which.”
“I'd prefer to wrap this up on my own, but feel free to respond to the notes if you'd like. Just regrets to all but two or three. Read the names as you encounter them, and I'll let you know which ones.”
“To hear is to obey. Who says I'm a 'frivolous idler' now?” And Charlie sat down at the writing table with alacrity, for these hours in the little room were his best and happiest.
“To hear is to obey. Who’s calling me a 'frivolous slacker' now?” And Charlie sat down at the writing table eagerly, because those hours in the little room were his best and happiest.
“Order is heaven's first law, and the view a lovely one, but I don't see any notepaper,” he added, opening the desk and surveying its contents with interest.
“Order is heaven's first law, and it looks great, but I don't see any notepaper,” he added, opening the desk and looking through its contents with interest.
“Right-hand drawer violet monogram for the notes, plain paper for the business letter. I'll see to that, though,” answered Rose, trying to decide whether Annabel or Emma should have the laced handkerchief.
“Right-hand drawer violet monogram for the notes, plain paper for the business letter. I'll take care of that,” Rose replied, trying to figure out if Annabel or Emma should get the laced handkerchief.
“Confiding creature! Suppose I open the wrong drawer and come upon the tender secrets of your soul?” continued the new secretary, rummaging out the delicate notepaper with masculine disregard of order.
“Trusting creature! What if I open the wrong drawer and discover the tender secrets of your soul?” continued the new secretary, digging out the delicate notepaper with a careless attitude toward order.
“I haven't got any,” answered Rose demurely.
“I don’t have any,” answered Rose shyly.
“What, not one despairing scrawl, one cherished miniature, one faded floweret, etc., etc.? I can't believe it, Cousin,” and he shook his head incredulously.
“What, not a single desperate scribble, one prized little picture, one dried flower, etc., etc.? I can't believe it, Cousin,” and he shook his head in disbelief.
“If I had, I certainly should not show them to you, impertinent person! There are a few little souvenirs in that desk, but nothing very sentimental or interesting.”
“If I had any, I definitely wouldn’t show them to you, rude person! There are a few small keepsakes in that desk, but nothing very sentimental or interesting.”
“How I'd like to see 'em! But I should never dare to ask,” observed Charlie, peering over the top of the half-open lid with a most persuasive pair of eyes.
“How I’d love to see them! But I could never bring myself to ask,” Charlie said, looking over the top of the half-open lid with a very convincing pair of eyes.
“You may if you want to, but you'll be disappointed, Paul Pry. Lower left-hand drawer with the key in it.”
“You can if you want, but you’ll be disappointed, Paul Pry. The key is in the lower left-hand drawer.”
“'Angel of goodness, how shall I requite thee? Interesting moment, with what palpitating emotions art thou fraught!'” And, quoting from the “Mysteries of Udolpho,” he unlocked and opened the drawer with a tragic gesture.
“'Angel of goodness, how should I repay you? What an interesting moment, filled with such intense emotions!'” And, quoting from the “Mysteries of Udolpho,” he unlocked and opened the drawer with a dramatic gesture.
“Seven locks of hair in a box, all light, for 'here's your straw color, your orange tawny, your French crown color, and your perfect yellow' Shakespeare. They look very familiar, and I fancy I know the heads they thatched.”
“Seven locks of hair in a box, all light, for 'here's your straw color, your orange tawny, your French crown color, and your perfect yellow' Shakespeare. They look really familiar, and I think I know the heads they came from.”
“Yes, you all gave me one when I went away, you know, and I carried them round the world with me in that very box.”
“Yes, you all gave me one when I left, you know, and I took them with me around the world in that very box.”
“I wish the heads had gone too. Here's a jolly little amber god with a gold ring in his back and a most balmy breath,” continued Charlie, taking a long sniff at the scent bottle.
“I wish the heads had gone too. Here's a cheerful little amber figure with a gold ring in his back and a very pleasant scent,” continued Charlie, taking a long sniff from the bottle.
“Uncle brought me that long ago, and I'm very fond of it.”
“Uncle gave me that a long time ago, and I really love it.”
“This now looks suspicious man's ring with a lotus cut on the stone and a note attached. I tremble as I ask, who, when, and where?”
“This now looks like a suspicious man’s ring with a lotus cut on the stone and a note attached. I tremble as I ask, who, when, and where?”
“A gentleman, on my birthday, in Calcutta.”
“A gentleman, on my birthday, in Kolkata.”
“I breathe again it was my sire?”
“I breathe again; was it my father?”
“Don't be absurd. Of course it was, and he did everything to make my visit pleasant. I wish you'd go and see him like a dutiful son, instead of idling here.”
"Don't be ridiculous. Of course it was, and he did everything to make my visit enjoyable. I wish you'd go and see him like a good son, instead of just hanging around here."
“That's what Uncle Mac is eternally telling me, but I don't intend to be lectured into the treadmill till I've had my fling first,” muttered Charlie rebelliously.
“That's what Uncle Mac always tells me, but I don't plan on being pushed onto the treadmill until I've had my fun first,” Charlie muttered defiantly.
“If you fling yourself in the wrong direction, you may find it hard to get back again,” began Rose gravely.
“If you throw yourself in the wrong direction, it might be tough to find your way back,” Rose began seriously.
“No fear, if you look after me as you seem to have promised to do, judging by the thanks you get in this note. Poor old governor! I should like to see him, for it's almost four years since he came home last and he must be getting on.”
“No worries, if you take care of me like you seem to promise based on the thanks you received in this note. Poor old governor! I’d like to see him, as it’s been nearly four years since he came home last and he must be getting older.”
Charlie was the only one of the boys who ever called his father “governor,” perhaps because the others knew and loved their fathers, while he had seen so little of his that the less respectful name came more readily to his lips, since the elder man in truth seemed a governor issuing requests or commands, which the younger too often neglected or resented.
Charlie was the only one of the boys who ever called his father "governor," maybe because the others knew and cared about their dads, while he had spent so little time with his that the less respectful term came more easily to him. To him, his father truly seemed like a governor giving orders or requests that he often ignored or resented.
Long ago Rose had discovered that Uncle Stephen found home made so distasteful by his wife's devotion to society that he preferred to exile himself, taking business as an excuse for his protracted absences.
Long ago, Rose found out that Uncle Stephen disliked home so much because his wife was so dedicated to social events that he preferred to isolate himself, using work as an excuse for his long absences.
The girl was thinking of this as she watched her cousin turn the ring about with a sudden sobriety which became him well; and, believing that the moment was propitious, she said earnestly: “He is getting on. Dear Charlie, do think of duty more than pleasure in this case and I'm sure you never will regret it.”
The girl was thinking about this as she watched her cousin twist the ring with a seriousness that suited him well; and, believing the moment was right, she said earnestly, “He’s making progress. Dear Charlie, please consider duty more than pleasure in this situation, and I’m sure you won’t regret it.”
“Do you want me to go?” he asked quickly.
“Do you want me to leave?” he asked quickly.
“I think you ought.”
"You should."
“And I think you'd be much more charming if you wouldn't always be worrying about right and wrong! Uncle Alec taught you that along with the rest of his queer notions.”
“And I think you'd be a lot more charming if you didn’t always worry about what's right and wrong! Uncle Alec taught you that along with all his other strange ideas.”
“I'm glad he did!” cried Rose warmly, then checked herself and said with a patient sort of sigh, “You know women always want the men they care for to be good and can't help trying to make them so.”
“I'm so glad he did!” Rose exclaimed warmly, then paused and added with a weary sigh, “You know, women always want the men they care about to be good and can’t help but try to make them that way.”
“So they do, and we ought to be a set of angels, but I've a strong conviction that, if we were, the dear souls wouldn't like us half as well. Would they now?” asked Charlie with an insinuating smile.
“So they do, and we should be a group of angels, but I really believe that if we were, the dear souls wouldn’t like us nearly as much. Would they?” asked Charlie with a teasing smile.
“Perhaps not, but that is dodging the point. Will you go?” persisted Rose unwisely.
“Maybe not, but that’s not the issue. Are you going?” Rose pressed on foolishly.
“No, I will not.”
“No, I won't.”
That was sufficiently decided and an uncomfortable pause followed, during which Rose tied a knot unnecessarily tight and Charlie went on exploring the drawer with more energy than interest.
That was settled, and an awkward silence ensued, during which Rose tied a knot way too tight while Charlie continued to rummage through the drawer with more effort than enthusiasm.
“Why, here's an old thing I gave you ages ago!” he suddenly exclaimed in a pleased tone, holding up a little agate heart on a faded blue ribbon. “Will you let me take away the heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh?” he asked, half in earnest, half in jest, touched by the little trinket and the recollections it awakened.
“Wow, look at this old thing I gave you a long time ago!” he suddenly said with a happy tone, holding up a small agate heart on a worn blue ribbon. “Can I take away your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh?” he asked, half serious, half joking, moved by the little trinket and the memories it brought back.
“No, I will not,” answered Rose bluntly, much displeased by the irreverent and audacious question.
“No, I won’t,” Rose replied flatly, clearly annoyed by the disrespectful and bold question.
Charlie looked rather abashed for a moment, but his natural lightheartedness made it easy for him to get the better of his own brief fits of waywardness and put others in good humor with him and themselves.
Charlie looked a bit embarrassed for a moment, but his natural lightheartedness helped him overcome his brief moments of mischief and put others in a good mood with him and themselves.
“Now we are even let's drop the subject and start afresh,” he said with irresistible affability as he coolly put the little heart in his pocket and prepared to shut the drawer. But something caught his eye, and exclaiming, “What's this? What's this?” he snatched up a photograph which lay half under a pile of letters with foreign postmarks.
“Now we're even, so let's drop the topic and start fresh,” he said with a charming smile as he calmly put the little heart in his pocket and got ready to close the drawer. But something caught his attention, and exclaiming, “What's this? What's this?” he grabbed a photograph that was partially buried under a pile of letters with foreign postmarks.
“Oh! I forgot that was there,” said Rose hastily.
“Oh! I completely forgot about that,” Rose said quickly.
“Who is the man?” demanded Charlie, eyeing the good-looking countenance before him with a frown.
“Who is the guy?” asked Charlie, looking at the handsome face in front of him with a scowl.
“That is the Honorable Gilbert Murray, who went up the Nile with us and shot crocodiles and other small game, being a mighty hunter, as I told you in my letters,” answered Rose gaily, though ill pleased at the little discovery just then, for this had been one of the narrow escapes her uncle spoke of.
"That's the Honorable Gilbert Murray, who traveled up the Nile with us and hunted crocodiles and other small game—he's quite a skilled hunter, as I mentioned in my letters," Rose answered cheerfully, even though she was slightly annoyed by the recent revelation, since this had been one of the close calls her uncle had talked about.
“And they haven't eaten him yet, I infer from the pile of letters?” said Charlie jealously.
“And they haven't eaten him yet, I guess from the stack of letters?” said Charlie, feeling jealous.
“I hope not. His sister did not mention it when she wrote last.”
“I hope not. His sister didn’t mention it when she wrote last.”
“Ah! Then she is your correspondent? Sisters are dangerous things sometimes.” And Charlie eyed the packet suspiciously.
“Ah! So she’s your correspondent? Sisters can be pretty dangerous sometimes.” And Charlie looked at the packet with suspicion.
“In this case, a very convenient thing, for she tells me all about her brother's wedding, as no one else would take the trouble to do.”
“In this case, it's really helpful because she shares everything about her brother's wedding, which no one else would bother to do.”
“Oh! Well, if he's married, I don't care a straw about him. I fancied I'd found out why you are such a hard-hearted charmer. But if there is no secret idol, I'm all at sea again.” And Charlie tossed the photograph into the drawer as if it no longer interested him.
“Oh! Well, if he's married, I don't care at all about him. I thought I figured out why you’re such a heartless charmer. But if there’s no secret crush, I’m completely lost again.” And Charlie tossed the photograph into the drawer as if it no longer mattered to him.
“I'm hard-hearted because I'm particular and, as yet, do not find anyone at all to my taste.”
“I'm tough because I'm picky and haven't found anyone I like yet.”
“No one?” with a tender glance.
“No one?” she said with a gentle look.
“No one” with a rebellious blush, and the truthful addition “I see much to admire and like in many persons, but none quite strong and good enough to suit me. My heroes are old-fashioned, you know.”
“No one,” she said with a rebellious blush, and added honestly, “I see a lot to admire and like in many people, but none who are quite strong and good enough for me. My heroes are old-fashioned, you know.”
“Prigs, like Guy Carleton, Count Altenberg, and John Halifax I know the pattern you goody girls like,” sneered Charlie, who preferred the Guy Livingston, Beauclerc, and Rochester style.
“Prigs, like Guy Carleton, Count Altenberg, and John Halifax, I know the type you goody girls like,” mocked Charlie, who favored the Guy Livingston, Beauclerc, and Rochester style.
“Then I'm not a 'goody girl,' for I don't like prigs. I want a gentleman in the best sense of the word, and I can wait, for I've seen one, and know there are more in the world.”
“Then I'm not a 'good girl,' because I can't stand uptight people. I want a gentleman in the truest sense of the word, and I can wait because I've seen one and know there are more out there.”
“The deuce you have! Do I know him?” asked Charlie, much alarmed.
"The heck you do! Do I know him?" asked Charlie, feeling very alarmed.
“You think you do,” answered Rose with a mischievous sparkle in her eye.
“You think you do,” Rose replied with a playful glint in her eye.
“If it isn't Pem, I give it up. He's the best-bred fellow I know.”
“If it's not Pem, I'm done. He's the most well-bred guy I know.”
“Oh, dear, no! Far superior to Mr. Pemberton and many years older,” said Rose, with so much respect that Charlie looked perplexed as well as anxious.
“Oh, no way! Way better than Mr. Pemberton and a good few years older,” said Rose, with so much respect that Charlie looked both confused and worried.
“Some apostolic minister, I fancy. You pious creatures always like to adore a parson. But all we know are married.”
“Probably some apostolic minister. You devout people always love to worship a clergy member. But all we know is that they're all married.”
“He isn't.”
"He's not."
“Give a name, for pity's sake I'm suffering tortures of suspense,” begged Charlie.
“Just give me a name, for goodness' sake! I'm going through so much suspense,” begged Charlie.
“Alexander Campbell.”
“Alex Campbell.”
“Uncle? Well, upon my word, that's a relief, but mighty absurd all the same. So, when you find a young saint of that sort, you intend to marry him, do you?” demanded Charlie much amused and rather disappointed.
“Uncle? Well, I can’t believe it, that's a relief, but pretty ridiculous at the same time. So, when you come across a young saint like that, you plan to marry him, right?” Charlie asked, feeling quite entertained and a bit let down.
“When I find any man half as honest, good, and noble as Uncle, I shall be proud to marry him if he asks me,” answered Rose decidedly.
“When I find any guy half as honest, good, and noble as Uncle, I’ll be proud to marry him if he asks me,” Rose replied firmly.
“What odd tastes women have!” And Charlie leaned his chin on his hand to muse pensively for a moment over the blindness of one woman who could admire an excellent old uncle more than a dashing young cousin.
“What strange preferences women have!” And Charlie rested his chin on his hand, thinking thoughtfully for a moment about the puzzling nature of one woman who could appreciate a great old uncle more than a charming young cousin.
Rose, meanwhile, tied up her parcels industriously, hoping she had not been too severe, for it was very hard to lecture Charlie, though he seemed to like it sometimes and came to confession voluntarily, knowing that women love to forgive when the sinners are of his sort.
Rose, in the meantime, busily tied up her packages, hoping she hadn’t been too harsh, because it was really tough to lecture Charlie. Even though he sometimes seemed to enjoy it and came to confession on his own, he knew that women love to forgive when the sinners are like him.
“It will be mail time before you are done,” she said presently, for silence was less pleasant than his rattle.
“It will be mail time before you’re done,” she said now, because the silence was less enjoyable than his chatter.
Charlie took the hint and dashed off several notes in his best manner. Coming to the business letter, he glanced at it and asked, with a puzzled expression: “What is all this? Cost of repairs, etc., from a man named Buffum?”
Charlie picked up on the hint and quickly wrote several notes in his best style. Looking at the business letter, he glanced at it and asked, with a confused look: “What’s all this? Repair costs, etc., from someone named Buffum?”
“Never mind that I'll see to it by and by.”
“Don’t worry, I’ll take care of it eventually.”
“But I do mind, for I'm interested in all your affairs, and though you think I've no head for business, you'll find I have if you'll try me.”
“But I do care, because I’m interested in all your matters, and even if you think I’m not good with business, you’ll see that I am if you give me a chance.”
“This is only about my two old houses in the city, which are being repaired and altered so that the rooms can be let singly.”
“This is just about my two old houses in the city, which are being fixed up and changed so that the rooms can be rented out individually.”
“Going to make tenement houses of them? Well, that's not a bad idea such places pay well, I've heard.”
“Are you going to turn them into apartment buildings? Well, that's not a bad idea; I’ve heard those places make good money.”
“That is just what I'm not going to do. I wouldn't have a tenement house on my conscience for a million dollars not as they are now,” said Rose decidedly.
"That's exactly what I'm not going to do. I wouldn't take on a tenement building for a million dollars, not with the way they are now," Rose said firmly.
“Why, what do you know about it, except that people live in them and the owners turn a pretty penny on the rents?”
“Why, what do you really know about it, other than that people live in them and the owners make a good profit from the rents?”
“I know a good deal about them, for I've seen many such, both here and abroad. It was not all pleasure with us, I assure you. Uncle was interested in hospitals and prisons, and I sometimes went with him, but they made me sad so he suggested other charities that I could be of help about when we came home. I visited infant schools, working women's homes, orphan asylums, and places of that sort. You don't know how much good it did me and how glad I am that I have the means of lightening a little some of the misery in the world.”
“I know quite a bit about them because I've seen many like them, both here and abroad. It wasn’t all fun for us, I assure you. My uncle was interested in hospitals and prisons, and I sometimes went with him, but they made me sad, so he suggested other charities where I could help when we got home. I visited daycare centers, working women's shelters, orphanages, and places like that. You have no idea how much good it did me and how grateful I am that I can help ease some of the suffering in the world.”
“But, my dear girl, you needn't make ducks and drakes of your fortune trying to feed and cure and clothe all the poor wretches you see. Give, of course everyone should do something in that line and no one likes it better than I. But don't, for mercy's sake, go at it as some women do and get so desperately earnest, practical, and charity-mad that there is no living in peace with you,” protested Charlie, looking alarmed at the prospect.
“But, my dear girl, you don't have to waste your fortune trying to feed, cure, and clothe every poor soul you come across. Of course, everyone should help out in some way, and I enjoy it more than anyone. But please, for heaven's sake, don't throw yourself into it like some women do, becoming so intense, practical, and obsessed with charity that it's impossible to live in peace with you,” protested Charlie, looking concerned about the possibility.
“You can do as you please. I intend to do all the good I can by asking the advice and following the example of the most 'earnest,' 'practical,' and 'charitable' people I know so, if you don't approve, you can drop my acquaintance,” answered Rose, emphasizing the obnoxious words and assuming the resolute air she always wore when defending her hobbies.
“You can do whatever you want. I'm planning to do as much good as I can by seeking the advice and following the example of the most 'serious,' 'practical,' and 'kind-hearted' people I know, so if you don't like it, you can end our friendship,” replied Rose, stressing the annoying words and adopting the determined attitude she always had when defending her interests.
“You'll be laughed at.”
"You'll get laughed at."
“I'm used to that.”
“I’m accustomed to that.”
“And criticized and shunned.”
“Criticized and shunned.”
“Not by people whose opinion I value.”
“Not by people whose opinion I care about.”
“Women shouldn't go poking into such places.”
“Women shouldn’t be going into places like that.”
“I've been taught that they should.”
“I’ve been taught that they should.”
“Well, you'll get some dreadful disease and lose your beauty, and then where are you?” added Charlie, thinking that might daunt the young philanthropist.
“Well, you'll catch some terrible disease and lose your looks, and then where will you be?” added Charlie, hoping that would scare the young philanthropist.
But it did not, for Rose answered, with a sudden kindling of the eyes as she remembered her talk with Uncle Alec: “I shouldn't like it. But there would be one satisfaction in it, for when I'd lost my beauty and given away my money, I should know who really cared for me.”
But it didn’t, because Rose replied, her eyes lighting up as she recalled her conversation with Uncle Alec: “I wouldn’t like it. But there would be one good thing about it—when I’ve lost my beauty and given away my money, I’d know who really cared about me.”
Charlie nibbled his pen in silence for a moment, then asked, meekly, “Could I respectfully inquire what great reform is to be carried on in the old houses which their amiable owner is repairing?”
Charlie chewed on his pen quietly for a moment, then asked, shyly, “Can I politely ask what big changes are going to happen in the old houses that their friendly owner is fixing up?”
“I am merely going to make them comfortable homes for poor but respectable women to live in. There is a class who cannot afford to pay much, yet suffer a great deal from being obliged to stay in noisy, dirty, crowded places like tenement houses and cheap lodgings. I can help a few of them and I'm going to try.”
“I’m just going to create comfortable homes for poor but respectable women to live in. There are people who can’t afford to pay much but really struggle with having to stay in noisy, dirty, crowded places like tenement houses and cheap hotels. I can help a few of them, and I'm going to try.”
“May I humbly ask if these decayed gentlewomen are to inhabit their palatial retreat rent-free?”
“Can I politely ask if these fallen women get to live in their lavish home for free?”
“That was my first plan, but Uncle showed me that it was wiser not make genteel paupers of them, but let them pay a small rent and feel independent. I don't want the money, of course, and shall use it in keeping the houses tidy or helping other women in like case,” said Rose, entirely ignoring her cousin's covert ridicule.
"That was my first plan, but Uncle showed me that it was smarter not to turn them into genteel beggars, but to let them pay a small rent and feel independent. I don’t want the money, of course, and I'll use it to keep the houses tidy or help other women in similar situations," said Rose, completely ignoring her cousin's subtle mockery.
“Don't expect any gratitude, for you won't get it; nor much comfort with a lot of forlornities on your hands, and be sure that when it is too late you will tire of it all and wish you had done as other people do.”
“Don’t expect any thanks, because you won’t get it; nor much comfort with a bunch of sadness on your plate, and just know that when it’s too late, you’ll get fed up with it all and wish you had done things the way other people do.”
“Thanks for your cheerful prophecies, but I think I'll venture.”
“Thanks for your optimistic predictions, but I think I’ll go for it.”
She looked so undaunted that Charlie was a little nettled and fired his last shot rather recklessly: “Well, one thing I do know you'll never get a husband if you go on in this absurd way, and by Jove! you need one to take care of you and keep the property together!”
She seemed so unfazed that Charlie felt a bit irritated and shot back recklessly: “Well, one thing I know for sure is you’ll never find a husband if you keep acting like this, and honestly! You really need one to look after you and manage the property!”
Rose had a temper, but seldom let it get the better of her; now, however, it flashed up for a moment. Those last words were peculiarly unfortunate, because Aunt Clara had used them more than once when warning her against impecunious suitors and generous projects. She was disappointed in her cousin, annoyed at having her little plans laughed at, and indignant with him for his final suggestion.
Rose had a temper, but she rarely let it take control; now, though, it flared up for a moment. Those last words were particularly unfortunate because Aunt Clara had used them more than once when warning her about broke suitors and overly ambitious ideas. She felt let down by her cousin, irritated that her small plans were mocked, and angry with him for his final suggestion.
“I'll never have one, if I must give up the liberty of doing what I know is right, and I'd rather go into the poorhouse tomorrow than 'keep the property together' in the selfish way you mean!”
"I'll never have one if it means giving up the freedom to do what I know is right, and I'd rather end up in the poorhouse tomorrow than 'keep the property together' in the selfish way you're suggesting!"
That was all but Charlie saw that he had gone too far and hastened to make his peace with the skill of a lover, for, turning to the little cabinet piano behind him, he sang in his best style the sweet old song:
That was all, but Charlie realized he had gone too far and quickly tried to smooth things over with the charm of a lover. Turning to the small cabinet piano behind him, he sang in his best style the sweet old song:
“Oh were thou in the cauld blast,”
“Oh, if you were in the cold wind,”
dwelling with great effect, not only upon the tender assurance that “My plaid should shelter thee,”
dwelling with great effect, not only on the gentle promise that “My plaid will keep you safe,”
but also that, even if a king,
but also that, even if a king,
“The brightest jewel in my crown Wad be my queen, wad be my queen.”
“The brightest jewel in my crown would be my queen, would be my queen.”
It was very evident that Prince Charming had not gone troubadouring in vain, for Orpheus himself could not have restored harmony more successfully. The tuneful apology was accepted with a forgiving smile and a frank “I'm sorry I was cross, but you haven't forgotten how to tease, and I'm rather out of sorts today. Late hours don't agree with me.”
It was clear that Prince Charming's efforts weren't wasted, as Orpheus himself couldn't have brought back harmony any better. The melodious apology was met with a forgiving smile and a straightforward, “I'm sorry I was upset, but you haven't forgotten how to tease, and I'm feeling a bit off today. Late nights don’t suit me.”
“Then you won't feel like going to Mrs. Hope's tomorrow, I'm afraid,” and Charlie took up the last note with an expression of regret which was very flattering.
“Then you probably won't want to go to Mrs. Hope's tomorrow, I'm afraid,” and Charlie picked up the last note with a look of regret that was quite flattering.
“I must go, because it is made for me, but I can come away early and make up lost sleep. I do hate to be so fractious,” and Rose rubbed the forehead that ached with too much racketing.
“I have to leave because it’s meant for me, but I can head out early and catch up on sleep. I really hate to be so irritable,” and Rose rubbed her forehead that throbbed from too much noise.
“But the German does not begin till late I'm to lead and depend upon you. Just stay this once to oblige me,” pleaded Charlie, for he had set his heart on distinguishing himself.
“But the German doesn’t start until late. I’m supposed to lead and count on you. Just stay this once to help me,” Charlie pleaded, as he was determined to make a name for himself.
“No I promised Uncle to be temperate in my pleasures and I must keep my word. I'm so well now, it would be very foolish to get ill and make him anxious not to mention losing my beauty, as you are good enough to call it, for that depends on health, you know.”
“No, I promised Uncle to be moderate in my pleasures, and I have to stick to my word. I feel so good now; it would be really foolish to get sick and worry him, not to mention losing my looks, as you kindly put it, since that depends on being healthy, you know.”
“But the fun doesn't begin till after supper. Everything will be delightful, I assure you, and we'll have a gay old time as we did last week at Emma's.”
“But the fun doesn’t start until after dinner. Everything will be amazing, I promise, and we’ll have a blast like we did last week at Emma’s.”
“Then I certainly will not, for I'm ashamed of myself when I remember what a romp that was and how sober Uncle looked as he let me in at three in the morning, all fagged out my dress in rags, my head aching, my feet so tired that I could hardly stand, and nothing to show for five hours' hard work but a pocketful of bonbons, artificial flowers, and tissue-paper fool's caps. Uncle said I'd better put one on and go to bed, for I looked as though I'd been to a French bal masque. I never want to hear him say so again, and I'll never let dawn catch me out in such a plight anymore.”
“Then I definitely won’t, because I feel embarrassed when I think about what a crazy night that was and how serious Uncle looked when he let me in at three in the morning. I was worn out, my dress was in tatters, my head was pounding, my feet were so sore that I could barely stand, and all I had to show for five hours of hard work was a pocketful of candy, fake flowers, and tissue paper party hats. Uncle said I should put one on and head to bed, because I looked like I had just come back from a wild masquerade ball. I never want to hear him say that again, and I won’t let dawn find me in such a state anymore.”
“You were all right enough, for mother didn't object and I got you both home before daylight. Uncle is notional about such things, so I shouldn't mind, for we had a jolly time and we were none the worse for it.”
“You were fine with it since mom didn’t mind and I got you both home before dawn. Uncle is particular about stuff like that, but I shouldn’t worry, because we had a great time and we weren’t worse off for it.”
“Indeed we were, every one of us! Aunt Clara hasn't gotten over her cold yet. I slept all the next day, and you looked like a ghost, for you'd been out every night for weeks, I think.”
“Yeah, we all were! Aunt Clara still hasn't shaken off her cold yet. I slept all day the next day, and you looked so pale, because you've been out every night for weeks, I think.”
“Oh, nonsense! Everyone does it during the season, and you'll get used to the pace very soon,” began Charlie, bent on making her go, for he was in his element in a ballroom and never happier than when he had his pretty cousin on his arm.
“Oh, come on! Everyone does it during the season, and you’ll get used to the pace really quickly,” Charlie said, determined to make her go, because he felt right at home in a ballroom and was never happier than when he had his pretty cousin by his side.
“Ah! But I don't want to get used to it, for it costs too much in the end. I don't wish to get used to being whisked about a hot room by men who have taken too much wine, to turn day into night, wasting time that might be better spent, and grow into a fashionable fast girl who can't get along without excitement. I don't deny that much of it is pleasant, but don't try to make me too fond of gaiety. Help me to resist what I know is hurtful, and please don't laugh me out of the good habits Uncle has tried so hard to give me.”
“Ah! But I don’t want to get used to it, because it ends up costing too much. I don’t want to get used to being dragged around a hot room by guys who’ve had too much to drink, turning day into night and wasting time that could be spent better, and becoming a trendy girl who can’t live without excitement. I won’t deny that a lot of it is fun, but don’t try to make me too attached to the party scene. Help me fight against what I know is harmful, and please don’t laugh at me for trying to hold onto the good habits Uncle has worked so hard to instill in me.”
Rose was quite sincere in her appeal, and Charlie knew she was right, but he always found it hard to give up anything he had set his heart on, no matter how trivial, for the maternal indulgence which had harmed the boy had fostered the habit of self-indulgence, which was ruining the man. So when Rose looked up at him, with a very honest desire to save him as well as herself from being swept into the giddy vortex which keeps so many young people revolving aimlessly, till they go down or are cast upon the shore, wrecks of what they might have been, he gave a shrug and answered briefly: “As you please. I'll bring you home as early as you like, and Effie Waring shall take your place in the German. What flowers shall I send you?”
Rose was completely sincere in her plea, and Charlie knew she was right, but he always found it hard to let go of anything he cared about, no matter how small. The maternal indulgence that had harmed the boy had also nurtured the habit of self-indulgence that was ruining the man. So when Rose looked up at him with a genuine wish to save both him and herself from getting caught up in the dizzying chaos that keeps so many young people spinning aimlessly until they either crash or wash up on shore as shadows of what they could have been, he shrugged and replied curtly: “As you wish. I’ll bring you home whenever you want, and Effie Waring can take your spot in the German. What flowers should I send you?”
Now, that was an artful speech of Charlie's, for Miss Waring was a fast and fashionable damsel who openly admired Prince Charming and had given him the name. Rose disliked her and was sure her influence was bad, for youth made frivolity forgivable, wit hid want of refinement, and beauty always covers a multitude of sins in a man's eyes. At the sound of Effie's name, Rose wavered, and would have yielded but for the memory of the “first mate's” last words. She did desire to “keep a straight course”; so, though the current of impulse set strongly in a southerly direction, principle, the only compass worth having, pointed due north, and she tried to obey it like a wise young navigator, saying steadily, while she directed to Annabel the parcel containing a capacious pair of slippers intended for Uncle Mac: “Don't trouble yourself about me. I can go with Uncle and slip away without disturbing anybody.”
That was quite a clever speech from Charlie, considering Miss Waring was a trendy and popular girl who openly admired Prince Charming and had given him that name. Rose disliked her and believed her influence was negative because youth made frivolous behavior acceptable, sharp wit disguised a lack of refinement, and beauty often covered up many flaws in a man’s eyes. When she heard Effie’s name, Rose hesitated and nearly gave in, but she recalled the “first mate's” last words. She really wanted to “stay on course”; so even though the urge was pulling her strongly in the wrong direction, her principles—her true compass—pointed her the right way, and she tried to follow it like a smart young navigator, saying firmly, while handing Annabel the package containing a large pair of slippers meant for Uncle Mac: “Don’t worry about me. I can go with Uncle and slip away without bothering anyone.”
“I don't believe you'll have the heart to do it,” said Charlie incredulously as he sealed the last note.
"I don't think you have the guts to do it," said Charlie, incredulously, as he sealed the last note.
“Wait and see.”
"Just wait and see."
“I will, but I shall hope to the last.” And kissing his hand to her, he departed to post her letters, quite sure that Miss Waring would not lead the German.
“I will, but I’ll hope until the end.” He kissed her hand and then left to mail her letters, completely confident that Miss Waring wouldn’t go for the German.
It certainly looked for a moment as if Miss Campbell would, because she ran to the door with the words “I'll go” upon her lips. But she did not open it till she had stood a minute staring hard at the old glove on Psyche's head; then like one who had suddenly gotten a bright idea, she gave a decided nod and walked slowly out of the room.
It definitely seemed for a moment like Miss Campbell would, because she rushed to the door with the words “I'll go” on her lips. But she didn’t open it until she had stood for a minute staring intently at the old glove on Psyche's head; then, as if she had suddenly gotten a great idea, she gave a firm nod and slowly walked out of the room.
Chapter 6 POLISHING MAC
“Please could I say one word?” was the question three times repeated before a rough head bobbed out from the grotto of books in which Mac usually sat when he studied.
“Can I say just one word?” was the question asked three times before a scruffy head popped out from the pile of books where Mac usually sat when he studied.
“Did anyone speak?” he asked, blinking in the flood of sunshine that entered with Rose.
“Did anyone say anything?” he asked, blinking in the bright sunlight that came in with Rose.
“Only three times, thank you. Don't disturb yourself, I beg, for I merely want to say a word,” answered Rose as she prevented him from offering the easy chair in which he sat.
“Just three times, thanks. Please don’t trouble yourself; I just want to say a quick word,” Rose replied, stopping him from offering the comfy chair he was sitting in.
“I was rather deep in a compound fracture and didn't hear. What can I do for you, Cousin?” And Mac shoved a stack of pamphlets off the chair near him with a hospitable wave of the hand that sent his papers flying in all directions.
“I was pretty deep into a compound fracture and didn't hear you. What can I do for you, Cousin?” And Mac pushed a stack of pamphlets off the chair next to him with a friendly wave of his hand, sending his papers flying everywhere.
Rose sat down, but did not seem to find her “word” an easy one to utter, for she twisted her handkerchief about her fingers in embarrassed silence till Mac put on his glasses and, after a keen look, asked soberly: “Is it a splinter, a cut, or a whitlow, ma'am?”
Rose sat down, but she didn't seem to find her "word" easy to say, as she fidgeted with her handkerchief around her fingers in awkward silence until Mac put on his glasses and, after a careful look, asked seriously, "Is it a splinter, a cut, or a whitlow, ma'am?"
“It is neither. Do forget your tiresome surgery for a minute and be the kindest cousin that ever was,” answered Rose, beginning rather sharply and ending with her most engaging smile.
“It’s neither. Forget about your annoying surgery for a minute and be the kindest cousin there ever was,” Rose replied, starting off a bit curtly and finishing with her most charming smile.
“Can't promise in the dark,” said the wary youth.
"Can't promise anything in the dark," said the cautious young man.
“It is a favor, a great favor, and one I don't choose to ask any of the other boys,” answered the artful damsel.
“It’s a favor, a big favor, and it’s not something I want to ask any of the other guys,” replied the crafty girl.
Mac looked pleased and leaned forward, saying more affably, “Name it, and be sure I'll grant it if I can.”
Mac looked happy and leaned forward, saying more friendly, “Just name it, and I’ll make sure to grant it if I can.”
“Go with me to Mrs. Hope's party tomorrow night.”
"Come with me to Mrs. Hope's party tomorrow night."
“What!” And Mac recoiled as if she had put a pistol to his head.
“What!” Mac flinched as though she had a gun pointed at his head.
“I've left you in peace a long time, but it is your turn now, so do your duty like a man and a cousin.”
“I've let you be for a long time, but now it's your turn, so step up and do your duty like a man and a cousin.”
“But I never go to parties!” cried the unhappy victim in great dismay.
“But I never go to parties!” the unhappy victim exclaimed in great distress.
“High time you began, sir.”
"About time you started, sir."
“But I don't dance fit to be seen.”
“But I don’t dance well enough to be seen.”
“I'll teach you.”
"I'll show you."
“My dress coat isn't decent, I know.”
“My coat isn’t decent, I know.”
“Archie will lend you one he isn't going.”
“Archie will lend you one he’s not using.”
“I'm afraid there's a lecture that I ought not to cut.”
“I'm afraid there's a lecture I shouldn't skip.”
“No, there isn't I asked Uncle.”
“No, there isn't,” I asked Uncle.
“I'm always so tired and dull in the evening.”
"I'm always so tired and sluggish in the evening."
“This sort of thing is just what you want to rest and freshen up your spirits.”
"This is exactly what you need to relax and refresh your spirits."
Mac gave a groan and fell back vanquished, for it was evident that escape was impossible.
Mac groaned and collapsed in defeat, as it was clear that escape was hopeless.
“What put such a perfectly wild idea into your head?” he demanded, rather roughly, for hitherto he had been left in peace and this sudden attack decidedly amazed him.
“What gave you such a crazy idea?” he asked, a bit harshly, because until now he had been left alone, and this sudden confrontation really surprised him.
“Sheer necessity, but don't do it if it is so very dreadful to you. I must go to several more parties, because they are made for me, but after that I'll refuse, and then no one need be troubled with me.”
“Sometimes you just have to do it, but don’t force yourself if it’s really awful for you. I have to attend a few more parties since they’re meant for me, but after that, I’ll say no, and then no one will have to deal with me.”
Something in Rose's voice made Mac answer penitently, even while he knit his brows in perplexity. “I don't mean to be rude, and of course I'll go anywhere if I'm really needed. But I don't understand where the sudden necessity is, with three other fellows at command, all better dancers and beaus than I am.”
Something in Rose's voice made Mac respond apologetically, even as he furrowed his brow in confusion. “I don't want to be impolite, and I'll definitely go wherever I'm truly needed. But I don't get why there's this sudden urgency when there are three other guys available, all better dancers and suitors than I am.”
“I don't want them, and I do want you, for I haven't the heart to drag Uncle out anymore, and you know I never go with any gentleman but those of my own family.”
“I don’t want them, and I want you, because I can’t bear to take Uncle out anymore, and you know I never go with any man except those in my own family.”
“Now look here, Rose if Steve has been doing anything to tease you, just mention it and I'll attend to him,” cried Mac, plainly seeing that something was amiss and fancying that Dandy was at the bottom of it, as he had done escort duty several times lately.
“Now listen, Rose, if Steve has been bothering you in any way, just say the word and I'll handle it,” Mac said, clearly noticing that something was wrong and suspecting that Dandy was involved, since he had been on escort duty several times recently.
“No, Steve has been very good, but I know he had rather be with Kitty Van, so of course I feel like a marplot, though he is too polite to hint it.”
“No, Steve has been really great, but I know he’d rather be with Kitty Van, so I feel like a buzzkill, even though he’s too nice to say it.”
“What a noodle that boy is! But there's Archie he's steady as a church and has no sweetheart to interfere,” continued Mac, bound to get at the truth and half suspecting what it was.
“What a fool that boy is! But there's Archie; he's as reliable as they come and doesn’t have a girlfriend to complicate things,” Mac said, determined to uncover the truth and half-suspecting what it might be.
“He is on his feet all day, and Aunt Jessie wants him in the evening. He does not care for dancing as he used, and I suppose he really does prefer to rest and read.” Rose might have added, “And hear Phebe sing,” for Phebe did not go out as much as Rose did, and Aunt Jessie often came to sit with the old lady when the young folks were away and, of course, dutiful Archie came with her, so willingly of late!
“He's on his feet all day, and Aunt Jessie wants him in the evening. He doesn't care for dancing like he used to, and I guess he actually prefers to just rest and read.” Rose might have added, “And listen to Phebe sing,” since Phebe didn’t go out as much as Rose did. Aunt Jessie often came to sit with the old lady when the young people were away, and of course, dutiful Archie came with her, so willingly lately!
“What's amiss with Charlie? I thought he was the prince of cavaliers. Annabel says he dances 'like an angel,' and I know a dozen mothers couldn't keep him at home of an evening. Have you had a tiff with Adonis and so fall back on poor me?” asked Mac, coming last to the person of whom he thought first but did not mention, feeling shy about alluding to a subject often discussed behind her back.
"What's wrong with Charlie? I thought he was the perfect gentleman. Annabel says he dances 'like an angel,' and I know dozens of mothers couldn't keep him at home at night. Have you had a fight with Adonis and are now settling for poor me?" asked Mac, finally mentioning the person he had been thinking about but didn’t say out loud, feeling awkward about bringing up a topic often talked about behind her back.
“Yes, I have, and I don't intend to go with him any more for some time. His ways do not suit me, and mine do not suit him, so I want to be quite independent, and you can help me if you will,” said Rose, rather nervously spinning the big globe close by.
“Yes, I have, and I don’t plan to be with him for a while. His ways don’t work for me, and mine don’t work for him, so I want to be completely independent, and you can help me if you’re willing,” said Rose, slightly nervously spinning the large globe nearby.
Mac gave a low whistle, looking wide awake all in a minute as he said with a gesture, as if he brushed a cobweb off his face: “Now, see here, Cousin, I'm not good at mysteries and shall only blunder if you put me blindfold into any nice maneuver. Just tell me straight out what you want and I'll do it if I can. Play I'm Uncle and free your mind come now.”
Mac let out a low whistle, suddenly looking wide awake as he waved his hand, as if brushing a cobweb off his face: “Now, listen, Cousin, I’m not great with mysteries and I’ll just mess things up if you throw me into any tricky situation without a clue. Just tell me directly what you need, and I’ll do it if I can. Let’s pretend I’m Uncle, and just be honest now.”
He spoke so kindly, and the honest eyes were so full of merry goodwill, that Rose thought she might confide in him and answered as frankly as he could desire: “You are right, Mac, and I don't mind talking to you almost as freely as to Uncle, because you are such a reliable fellow and won't think me silly for trying to do what I believe to be right. Charlie does, and so makes it hard for me to hold to my resolutions. I want to keep early hours, dress simply, and behave properly no matter what fashionable people do. You will agree to that, I'm sure, and stand by me through thick and thin for principle's sake.”
He spoke so kindly, and his honest eyes were filled with cheerful goodwill that Rose felt she could trust him and answered as openly as he could want: “You’re right, Mac, and I don’t mind talking to you almost as freely as to Uncle, because you’re such a reliable guy and won’t think I’m silly for trying to do what I believe is right. Charlie does, which makes it hard for me to stick to my resolutions. I want to keep early hours, dress simply, and behave properly no matter what trendy people do. You’ll agree with that, I’m sure, and support me through thick and thin for the sake of principle.”
“I will, and begin by showing you that I understand the case. I don't wonder you are not pleased, for Charlie is too presuming, and you do need someone to help you head him off a bit. Hey, Cousin?”
“I will, and I'll start by showing you that I get the situation. I can see why you’re not happy, because Charlie is too overconfident, and you definitely need someone to help you keep him in check a little. Right, Cousin?”
“What a way to put it!” And Rose laughed in spite of herself, adding with an air of relief, “That is it, and I do want someone to help me make him understand that I don't choose to be taken possession of in that lordly way, as if I belonged to him more than to the rest of the family. I don't like it, for people begin to talk, and Charlie won't see how disagreeable it is to me.”
“What a way to say it!” Rose laughed despite herself, adding with a sense of relief, “That’s exactly it, and I really want someone to help me make him understand that I don't want to be treated like I belong to him more than to the rest of the family. I don't like it because people start talking, and Charlie doesn’t realize how uncomfortable it makes me.”
“Tell him so,” was Mac's blunt advice.
“Just tell him that,” was Mac's straightforward advice.
“I have, but he only laughs and promises to behave, and then he does it again when I am so placed that I can't say anything. You will never understand, and I cannot explain, for it is only a look, or a word, or some little thing but I won't have it, and the best way to cure him is to put it out of his power to annoy me so.”
“I have, but he just laughs and says he’ll do better, and then he does it again when I’m in a position where I can’t say anything. You’ll never get it, and I can’t explain, because it’s just a look, or a word, or some small thing, but I won’t tolerate it, and the best way to fix this is to take away his ability to bother me like that.”
“He is a great flirt and wants to teach you how, I suppose. I'll speak to him if you like and tell him you don't want to learn. Shall I?” asked Mac, finding the case rather an interesting one.
“He's a huge flirt and wants to teach you the ropes, I guess. I can talk to him if you want and tell him you’re not interested in learning. Should I?” asked Mac, finding the situation quite intriguing.
“No, thank you that would only make trouble. If you will kindly play escort a few times, it will show Charlie that I am in earnest without more words and put a stop to the gossip,” said Rose, coloring like a poppy at the recollection of what she heard one young man whisper to another as Charlie led her through a crowded supper room with his most devoted air, “Lucky dog! He is sure to get the heiress, and we are nowhere.”
“No, thank you, that would just cause problems. If you could please pretend to be my escort a few times, it would show Charlie that I’m serious without needing to say more and put an end to the rumors,” said Rose, blushing like a poppy at the memory of what she heard one guy whisper to another as Charlie escorted her through a crowded dining room with his most devoted demeanor, “Lucky guy! He’s definitely going to land the heiress, while we’re stuck here.”
“There's no danger of people gossiping about us, is there?” And Mac looked up with the oddest of all his odd expressions.
“There's no risk of people gossiping about us, right?” And Mac looked up with the strangest of all his strange expressions.
“Of course not you're only a boy.”
“Of course not, you’re just a boy.”
“I'm twenty-one, thank you, and Prince is but a couple of years older,” said Mac, promptly resenting the slight put upon his manhood.
“I'm twenty-one, thanks, and Prince is only a couple of years older,” said Mac, quickly feeling insulted by the attack on his masculinity.
“Yes, but he is like other young men, while you are a dear old bookworm. No one would ever mind what you did, so you may go to parties with me every night and not a word would be said or, if there was, I shouldn't mind since it is 'only Mac,'” answered Rose, smiling as she quoted a household phrase often used to excuse his vagaries.
“Yes, but he’s just like any other young guy, while you’re a sweet old bookworm. No one would care what you did, so you can come to parties with me every night and nobody would say a word. And if they did, I wouldn’t care because it’s ‘just Mac,’” replied Rose, smiling as she quoted a familiar saying often used to excuse his quirks.
“Then I am nobody?” he said, lifting his brows as if the discovery surprised and rather nettled him.
“Then I’m nobody?” he said, raising his eyebrows as if the realization surprised and annoyed him.
“Nobody in society as yet, but my very best cousin in private, and I've just proved my regard by making you my confidant and choosing you for my knight,” said Rose, hastening to soothe the feelings her careless words seemed to have ruffled slightly.
“Nobody in society yet, but my favorite cousin in private, and I've just shown my feelings by making you my confidant and picking you as my knight,” said Rose, quickly trying to calm the emotions her offhand remarks seemed to have stirred.
“Much good that is likely to do me,” grumbled Mac.
“Great, like that's really going to help me,” grumbled Mac.
“You ungrateful boy, not to appreciate the honor I've conferred upon you! I know a dozen who would be proud of the place, but you only care for compound fractures, so I won't detain you any longer, except to ask if I may consider myself provided with an escort for tomorrow night?” said Rose, a trifle hurt at his indifference, for she was not used to refusals.
“You ungrateful boy, not to appreciate the honor I've given you! I know a dozen people who would be proud to have this position, but you only care about your own interests, so I won’t keep you any longer. I just want to ask if I can count on you to be my escort tomorrow night?” said Rose, a little hurt by his indifference, as she wasn’t used to being turned down.
“If I may hope for the honor.” And, rising, he made her a bow which was such a capital imitation of Charlie's grand manner that she forgave him at once, exclaiming with amused surprise: “Why, Mac! I didn't know you could be so elegant!”
“If I may hope for the honor.” And, standing up, he gave her a bow that was such a perfect imitation of Charlie's grand style that she instantly forgave him, exclaiming with amused surprise: “Wow, Mac! I didn’t know you could be so stylish!”
“A fellow can be almost anything he likes if he tries hard enough,” he answered, standing very straight and looking so tall and dignified that Rose was quite impressed, and with a stately courtesy she retired, saying graciously: “I accept with thanks. Good morning, Dr. Alexander Mackenzie Campbell.”
“A guy can be pretty much anything he wants if he works hard enough,” he replied, standing tall and looking so dignified that Rose was genuinely impressed. With a formal courtesy, she stepped back, saying graciously: “Thank you, I appreciate it. Good morning, Dr. Alexander Mackenzie Campbell.”
When Friday evening came and word was sent up that her escort had arrived, Rose ran down, devoutly hoping that he had not come in a velveteen jacket, top-boots, black gloves, or made any trifling mistake of that sort. A young gentleman was standing before the long mirror, apparently intent upon the arrangement of his hair, and Rose paused suddenly as her eye went from the glossy broadcloth to the white-gloved hands, busy with an unruly lock that would not stay in place.
When Friday evening arrived and news came up that her escort had arrived, Rose hurried down, sincerely hoping he hadn't shown up in a velvet jacket, tall boots, black gloves, or made any silly mistake like that. A young man was standing in front of the tall mirror, seemingly focused on fixing his hair, and Rose stopped short as her gaze shifted from the shiny suit to the gloved hands, working with a stubborn strand that wouldn't stay put.
“Why, Charlie, I thought—” she began with an accent of surprise in her voice, but got no further, for the gentleman turned and she beheld Mac in immaculate evening costume, with his hair parted sweetly on his brow, a superior posy at his buttonhole, and the expression of a martyr on his face.
“Why, Charlie, I thought—” she started, sounding surprised, but couldn't finish because the gentleman turned, and she saw Mac in a spotless evening suit, with his hair neatly parted on his forehead, a fancy flower in his buttonhole, and a martyr-like look on his face.
“Ah, don't you wish it was? No one but yourself to thank that it isn't he. Am I right? Dandy got me up, and he ought to know what is what,” demanded Mac, folding his hands and standing as stiff as a ramrod.
“Ah, don't you wish it was? No one but yourself to thank that it isn't him. Am I right? Dandy got me up, and he should know what’s what,” demanded Mac, folding his hands and standing as stiff as a board.
“You are so regularly splendid that I don't know you.”
“You're so consistently amazing that I barely recognize you.”
“Neither do I.”
"Me neither."
“I really had no idea you could look so like a gentleman,” added Rose, surveying him with great approval.
“I really had no idea you could look so much like a gentleman,” added Rose, surveying him with great approval.
“Nor that I could feel so like a fool.”
“Nor could I feel so much like a fool.”
“Poor boy! He does look rather miserable. What can I do to cheer him up in return for the sacrifice he is making?”
“Poor kid! He really looks pretty sad. What can I do to lift his spirits for the sacrifice he’s making?”
“Stop calling me a boy. It will soothe my agony immensely and give me courage to appear in a low-necked coat and curl on my forehead, for I'm not used to such elegancies and I find them no end of a trial.”
“Stop calling me a boy. It would really ease my pain and help me feel brave enough to wear a low-cut coat and have a curl on my forehead, because I'm not used to such fancy things, and they’re a real challenge for me.”
Mac spoke in such a pathetic tone, and gave such a gloomy glare at the aforesaid curl, that Rose laughed in his face and added to his woe by handing him her cloak. He surveyed it gravely for a minute, then carefully put it on wrong side out and gave the swan's-down hood a good pull over the head, to the utter destruction of all smoothness to the curls inside.
Mac spoke in such a sad tone and shot a gloomy look at the mentioned curl that Rose laughed in his face and compounded his misery by handing him her cloak. He examined it seriously for a minute, then deliberately put it on inside out and yanked the swan's-down hood over his head, completely ruining the smoothness of the curls underneath.
Rose uttered a cry and cast off the cloak, bidding him learn to do it properly, which he meekly did and then led her down the hall without walking on her skirts more than three times on the way. But at the door she discovered that she had forgotten her furred overshoes and bade Mac get them.
Rose let out a shout and threw off the cloak, telling him to learn how to do it right, which he quietly did, and then led her down the hall without stepping on her skirts more than three times along the way. But when they got to the door, she realized she had forgotten her furry overshoes and told Mac to go fetch them.
“Never mind it's not wet,” he said, pulling his cap over his eyes and plunging into his coat, regardless of the “elegancies” that afflicted him.
“Never mind that it’s not wet,” he said, pulling his cap down over his eyes and diving into his coat, ignoring the “elegancies” that bothered him.
“But I can't walk on cold stones with thin slippers, can I?” began Rose, showing him a little white foot.
“But I can't walk on cold stones in thin slippers, can I?” Rose said, revealing a little white foot.
“You needn't, for there you are, my lady.” And, unceremoniously picking her up, Mac landed her in the carriage before she could say a word.
“You don’t need to, because here you are, my lady.” And without any formalities, Mac lifted her up and placed her in the carriage before she could even say a word.
“What an escort!” she exclaimed in comic dismay, as she rescued her delicate dress from a rug in which he was about to tuck her up like a mummy.
“What an escort!” she said in exaggerated dismay, as she saved her delicate dress from a rug he was about to wrap her in like a mummy.
“It's 'only Mac,' so don't mind,” and he cast himself into an opposite corner with the air of a man who had nerved himself to the accomplishment of many painful duties and was bound to do them or die.
“It's just 'Mac,' so don’t worry,” and he threw himself into a corner with the attitude of someone who had steeled himself to face many tough tasks and was determined to get them done or die trying.
“But gentlemen don't catch up ladies like bags of meal and poke them into carriages in this way. It is evident that you need looking after, and it is high time I undertook your society manners. Now, do mind what you are about and don't get yourself or me into a scrape if you can help it,” besought Rose, feeling that on many accounts she had gone further and fared worse.
“But gentlemen don’t treat ladies like bags of flour and shove them into carriages like this. It’s clear that you need some help, and it’s about time I taught you some proper social manners. Now, pay attention to what you’re doing and try not to get either of us into trouble if you can avoid it,” Rose pleaded, knowing that in many ways she had already gone too far and suffered more than she should have.
“I'll behave like a Turveydrop see if I don't.”
“I'll act all proper and refined, just watch me.”
Mac's idea of the immortal Turveydrop's behavior seemed to be a peculiar one; for, after dancing once with his cousin, he left her to her own devices and soon forgot all about her in a long conversation with Professor Stumph, the learned geologist. Rose did not care, for one dance proved to her that that branch of Mac's education had been sadly neglected, and she was glad to glide smoothly about with Steve, though he was only an inch or two taller than herself. She had plenty of partners, however, and plenty of chaperons, for all the young men were her most devoted, and all the matrons beamed upon her with maternal benignity.
Mac's view of the immortal Turveydrop's behavior was pretty strange; after dancing once with his cousin, he left her to fend for herself and quickly forgot about her while he had a long chat with Professor Stumph, the knowledgeable geologist. Rose didn’t mind, as that one dance showed her that Mac’s education in that area was definitely lacking. She was happy to smoothly dance around with Steve, even though he was only an inch or two taller than her. She had plenty of partners and chaperones, as all the young men were truly devoted to her, and all the older women looked at her with motherly kindness.
Charlie was not there, for when he found that Rose stood firm, and had moreover engaged Mac as a permanency, he would not go at all and retired in high dudgeon to console himself with more dangerous pastimes. Rose feared it would be so, and even in the midst of the gaiety about her an anxious mood came over her now and then and made her thoughtful for a moment. She felt her power and wanted to use it wisely, but did not know how to be kind to Charlie without being untrue to herself and giving him false hopes.
Charlie wasn’t there because when he realized that Rose was standing her ground and had also made Mac a permanent fixture in her life, he refused to show up and withdrew in a huff to distract himself with riskier activities. Rose worried that this would happen, and even amid the celebrations around her, she occasionally felt a wave of anxiety that made her reflective for a moment. She recognized her influence and wanted to wield it carefully, but she didn’t know how to be kind to Charlie without betraying herself and leading him on.
“I wish we were all children again, with no hearts to perplex us and no great temptations to try us,” she said to herself as she rested a minute in a quiet nook while her partner went to get a glass of water. Right in the midst of this half-sad, half-sentimental reverie, she heard a familiar voice behind her say earnestly: “And allophite is the new hydrous silicate of alumina and magnesia, much resembling pseudophite, which Websky found in Silesia.”
“I wish we could all be kids again, without hearts to confuse us and big temptations to challenge us,” she said to herself as she took a moment to rest in a quiet corner while her partner went to get a glass of water. Just in the middle of this half-sad, half-sentimental daydream, she heard a familiar voice behind her say earnestly: “And allophite is the new hydrous silicate of alumina and magnesia, much like pseudophite, which Websky found in Silesia.”
“What is Mac talking about!” she thought, and, peeping behind a great azalea in full bloom, she saw her cousin in deep conversation with the professor, evidently having a capital time, for his face had lost its melancholy expression and was all alive with interest, while the elder man was listening as if his remarks were both intelligent and agreeable.
“What is Mac talking about?” she thought, and, peeking behind a big azalea in full bloom, she saw her cousin in a deep conversation with the professor, clearly having a great time, because his face had shed its sad expression and was full of interest, while the older man listened as if his comments were both smart and pleasant.
“What is it?” asked Steve, coming up with the water and seeing a smile on Rose's face.
“What is it?” Steve asked, approaching the water and noticing the smile on Rose's face.
She pointed out the scientific tete-a-tete going on behind the azalea, and Steve grinned as he peeped, then grew sober and said in a tone of despair: “If you had seen the pains I took with that fellow, the patience with which I brushed his wig, the time I spent trying to convince him that he must wear thin boots, and the fight I had to get him into that coat, you'd understand my feelings when I see him now.”
She pointed out the scientific conversation happening behind the azalea, and Steve smiled as he looked over, then became serious and said in a tone of despair: “If you had seen the effort I put into that guy, the patience I had while I styled his hair, the time I spent trying to convince him to wear lightweight shoes, and the struggle I had to get him into that coat, you'd understand how I feel when I see him now.”
“Why, what's the matter with him?” asked Rose.
“What's wrong with him?” asked Rose.
“Will you take a look and see what a spectacle he has made of himself. He'd better be sent home at once or he will disgrace the family by looking as if he'd been in a row.”
“Will you take a look and see what a show he's put on for himself? He'd better be sent home right away or he's going to embarrass the family by looking like he’s been in a fight.”
Steve spoke in such a tragic tone that Rose took another peep and did sympathize with Dandy, for Mac's elegance was quite gone. His tie was under one ear, his posy hung upside down, his gloves were rolled into a ball, which he absently squeezed and pounded as he talked, and his hair looked as if a whirlwind had passed over it, for his ten fingers set it on end now and then, as they had a habit of doing when he studied or talked earnestly. But he looked so happy and wide awake, in spite of his dishevelment, that Rose gave an approving nod and said behind her fan: “It is a trying spectacle, Steve yet, on the whole, I think his own odd ways suit him best and I fancy we shall be proud of him, for he knows more than all the rest of us put together. Hear that now.” And Rose paused that they might listen to the following burst of eloquence from Mac's lips: “You know Frenzal has shown that the globular forms of silicate of bismuth at Schneeburg and Johanngeorgenstadt are not isometric, but monoclinic in crystalline form, and consequently he separates them from the old eulytite and gives them the new name Agricolite.”
Steve spoke in such a mournful way that Rose took another look and actually felt sympathy for Dandy, because Mac's usual elegance was completely gone. His tie was askew, his flower was hanging upside down, his gloves were bunched up into a ball that he absentmindedly squeezed and pounded while he talked, and his hair looked like a tornado had hit it, as his fingers occasionally stuck it up as they often did when he was focused or speaking passionately. But despite his messy appearance, he looked so happy and alert that Rose nodded approvingly and said behind her fan, “It’s quite a spectacle, Steve, but overall, I think his unique ways suit him best and I believe we’ll be proud of him because he knows more than all of us combined. Just listen to this.” And Rose paused so they could hear the next burst of eloquence from Mac: “You know Frenzal has shown that the globular forms of bismuth silicate from Schneeburg and Johanngeorgenstadt are not isometric, but monoclinic in crystal form, and so he distinguishes them from the old eulytite and gives them the new name Agricolite.”
“Isn't it awful? Let us get out of this before there's another avalanche or we shall be globular silicates and isometric crystals in spite of ourselves,” whispered Steve with a panic-stricken air, and they fled from the hailstorm of hard words that rattled about their ears, leaving Mac to enjoy himself in his own way.
“Isn't it terrible? We should get out of here before there's another avalanche, or we’ll end up as random rocks and crystals, whether we like it or not,” whispered Steve, sounding panicked, and they ran away from the barrage of complicated words that surrounded them, leaving Mac to have fun in his own way.
But when Rose was ready to go home and looked about for her escort, he was nowhere to be seen, for the professor had departed, and Mac with him, so absorbed in some new topic that he entirely forgot his cousin and went placidly home, still pondering on the charms of geology. When this pleasing fact dawned upon Rose her feelings may be imagined. She was both angry and amused it was so like Mac to go mooning off and leave her to her fate. Not a hard one, however; for, though Steve was gone with Kitty before her plight was discovered, Mrs. Bliss was only too glad to take the deserted damsel under her wing and bear her safely home.
But when Rose was ready to go home and looked around for her escort, he was nowhere to be found. The professor had left, and Mac went with him, so caught up in some new topic that he completely forgot about his cousin and went home peacefully, still thinking about the wonders of geology. When Rose realized this, she could only imagine how she felt. She was both angry and amused; it was just like Mac to wander off and leave her to deal with things on her own. Not that it was a tough situation, though; even though Steve had left with Kitty before anyone noticed her predicament, Mrs. Bliss was more than happy to take the abandoned young woman under her wing and ensure she got home safely.
Rose was warming her feet and sipping the chocolate which Phebe always had ready for her, as she never ate supper, when a hurried tap came at the long window whence the light streamed and Mac's voice was heard softly asking to be let in “just for one minute.”
Rose was warming her feet and sipping the hot chocolate that Phebe always had ready for her since she never ate dinner, when a quick knock came at the long window where the light shone through, and Mac's voice was heard softly asking to be let in "just for a minute."
Curious to know what had befallen him, Rose bade Phebe obey his call and the delinquent cavalier appeared, breathless, anxious, and more dilapidated than ever, for he had forgotten his overcoat; his tie was at the back of his neck now; and his hair as rampantly erect as if all the winds of heaven had been blowing freely through it, as they had, for he had been tearing to and fro the last half hour, trying to undo the dreadful deed he had so innocently committed.
Curious about what had happened to him, Rose instructed Phebe to answer his call, and the guilty cavalier showed up, out of breath, nervous, and looking more disheveled than ever. He had forgotten his overcoat, his tie was now at the back of his neck, and his hair was sticking up wildly as if all the winds of heaven had been blowing through it, which they had, because he had been running around for the last half hour, trying to fix the terrible mistake he had unknowingly made.
“Don't take any notice of me, for I don't deserve it. I only came to see that you were safe, Cousin, and then go hang myself, as Steve advised,” he began in a remorseful tone that would have been very effective if he had not been obliged to catch his breath with a comical gasp now and then.
“Don’t mind me, I don’t deserve it. I just came to check that you were okay, Cousin, and then I plan to go hang myself, as Steve suggested,” he started in a regretful tone that would have been really impactful if he didn’t have to catch his breath with a funny gasp every now and then.
“I never thought you would be the one to desert me,” said Rose with a reproachful look, thinking it best not to relent too soon, though she was quite ready to do it when she saw how sincerely distressed he was.
“I never thought you would be the one to leave me,” said Rose with a disappointed look, thinking it was better not to give in too quickly, even though she was ready to when she saw how genuinely upset he was.
“It was that confounded man! He was a regular walking encyclopedia, and, finding I could get a good deal out of him, I went in for general information, as the time was short. You know I always forget everything else when I get hold of such a fellow.”
“It was that annoying guy! He was like a walking encyclopedia, and since I realized I could learn a lot from him, I decided to gather general information since time was limited. You know I always forget everything else when I have someone like that around.”
“That is evident. I wonder how you came to remember me at all,” answered Rose, on the brink of a laugh it was so absurd.
"That’s obvious. I’m curious how you even remember me," Rose replied, barely holding back a laugh because it was so ridiculous.
“I didn't till Steve said something that reminded me then it burst upon me, in one awful shock, that I'd gone and left you, and you might have knocked me down with a feather,” said honest Mac, hiding none of his iniquity.
“I didn't realize until Steve said something that triggered it, and then it hit me all at once, like a terrible shock, that I had gone and left you, and you could have knocked me down with a feather,” said honest Mac, not hiding any of his wrongdoing.
“What did you do then?”
“What did you do next?”
“Do! I went off like a shot and never stopped till I reached the Hopes'”
“Do! I took off like a rocket and didn’t stop until I got to the Hopes'”
“You didn't walk all the way?” cried Rose.
“You didn't walk all the way?” Rose exclaimed.
“Bless you, no I ran. But you were gone with Mrs. Bliss, so I pelted back again to see with my own eyes that you were safe at home,” answered Mac with a sigh of relief, wiping his hot forehead.
“Bless you, no, I ran. But you were with Mrs. Bliss, so I hurried back to see for myself that you were safe at home,” Mac replied with a sigh of relief, wiping his sweaty forehead.
“But it is three miles at least each way, and twelve o'clock, and dark and cold. Oh, Mac! How could you!” exclaimed Rose, suddenly realizing what he had done as she heard his labored breathing, saw the state of the thin boots, and detected the absence of an overcoat.
“But it’s at least three miles each way, and it’s midnight, dark, and cold. Oh, Mac! How could you!” Rose exclaimed, suddenly realizing what he had done as she heard his heavy breathing, noticed the condition of his worn-out boots, and saw that he wasn’t wearing a coat.
“Couldn't do less, could I?” asked Mac, leaning up against the door and trying not to pant.
“Couldn't do any less, could I?” Mac asked, leaning against the door and trying not to breathe heavily.
“There was no need of half killing yourself for such a trifle. You might have known I could take care of myself for once, at least, with so many friends about. Sit down this minute. Bring another cup, please, Phebe this boy isn't going home till he is rested and refreshed after such a run as that,” commanded Rose.
“There was no reason to exhaust yourself over something so small. You should have known I could handle things for once, at least, with so many friends around. Sit down right now. Bring another cup, please, Phebe; this guy isn't going home until he’s rested and refreshed after that run,” Rose commanded.
“Don't be good to me I'd rather take a scolding than a chair, and drink hemlock instead of chocolate if you happen to have any ready,” answered Mac with a pathetic puff as he subsided onto the sofa and meekly took the draft Phebe brought him.
“Don’t be nice to me; I’d rather get yelled at than sit down, and I’d drink poison instead of chocolate if you have any available,” Mac replied with a sad sigh as he collapsed onto the sofa and quietly accepted the drink Phebe brought him.
“If you had anything the matter with your heart, sir, a race of this sort might be the death of you so never do it again,” said Rose, offering her fan to cool his heated countenance.
“If there’s anything wrong with your heart, sir, a race like this could be fatal for you, so don’t ever do it again,” Rose said, handing him her fan to cool his flushed face.
“Haven't got any heart.”
"Don’t have any heart."
“Yes, you have, for I hear it beating like a trip-hammer, and it is my fault I ought to have stopped as we went by and told you I was all right.”
“Yes, you have, because I can hear it pounding like a trip-hammer, and it’s my fault for not stopping as we passed by and letting you know I was okay.”
“It's the mortification, not the miles, that upsets me. I often take that run for exercise and think nothing of it but tonight I was so mad I made extra-good time, I fancy. Now don't you worry, but compose your mind and 'sip your dish of tea,' as Evelina says,” answered Mac, artfully turning the conversation from himself.
“It’s the embarrassment, not the distance, that bothers me. I usually go for that run to get some exercise and don’t think twice about it, but tonight I was so angry I think I made really good time. Now don’t worry, just settle down and ‘sip your tea,’ as Evelina says,” replied Mac, cleverly steering the conversation away from himself.
“What do you know about Evelina?” asked Rose in great surprise.
“What do you know about Evelina?” Rose asked, clearly surprised.
“All about her. Do you suppose I never read a novel?”
“All about her. Do you really think I've never read a novel?”
“I thought you read nothing but Greek and Latin, with an occasional glance at Websky's pseudophites and the monoclinics of Johanngeorgenstadt.”
"I thought you only read Greek and Latin, with a quick look at Websky's pseudophites and the monoclinics from Johanngeorgenstadt."
Mac opened his eyes wide at this reply, then seemed to see the joke and joined in the laugh with such heartiness that Aunt Plenty's voice was heard demanding from above with sleepy anxiety: “Is the house afire?”
Mac opened his eyes wide at this response, then seemed to get the joke and laughed along with such enthusiasm that Aunt Plenty's voice called out from above with sleepy concern: “Is the house on fire?”
“No, ma'am, everything is safe, and I'm only saying good night,” answered Mac, diving for his cap.
“No, ma'am, everything is fine, and I'm just saying good night,” replied Mac, reaching for his cap.
“Then go at once and let that child have her sleep,” added the old lady, retiring to her bed.
“Then go right away and let that child get her sleep,” added the old lady, heading to her bed.
Rose ran into the hall, and catching up her uncle's fur coat, met Mac as he came out of the study, absently looking about for his own.
Rose ran into the hall, grabbed her uncle's fur coat, and ran into Mac as he came out of the study, absentmindedly looking around for his own.
“You haven't any, you benighted boy! So take this, and have your wits about you next time or I won't let you off so easily,” she said, holding up the heavy garment and peeping over it, with no sign of displeasure in her laughing eyes.
“You don't have any, you clueless boy! So take this, and be more alert next time or I won't let you off so easily,” she said, holding up the heavy garment and peeking over it, with no sign of displeasure in her laughing eyes.
“Next time! Then you do forgive me? You will try me again, and give me a chance to prove that I'm not a fool?” cried Mac, embracing the big coat with emotion.
“Next time! So you do forgive me? You’ll give me another shot and let me show that I’m not an idiot?” cried Mac, hugging the big coat tightly with emotion.
“Of course I will, and, so far from thinking you a fool, I was much impressed with your learning tonight and told Steve that we ought to be proud of our philosopher.”
“Of course I will, and far from thinking you’re a fool, I was really impressed with your knowledge tonight and told Steve that we should be proud of our philosopher.”
“Learning be hanged! I'll show you that I'm not a bookworm but as much a man as any of them, and then you may be proud or not, as you like!” cried Mac with a defiant nod that caused the glasses to leap wildly off his nose as he caught up his hat and departed as he came.
“Forget about learning! I'll prove to you that I'm not a bookworm but just as much a man as any of them, and you can feel proud or not, whatever suits you!” shouted Mac with a defiant nod that made his glasses bounce off his nose as he grabbed his hat and left just like he arrived.
A day or two later Rose went to call upon Aunt Jane, as she dutifully did once or twice a week. On her way upstairs she heard a singular sound in the drawing room and involuntarily stopped to listen.
A day or two later, Rose went to visit Aunt Jane, as she regularly did once or twice a week. On her way upstairs, she heard an unusual sound in the living room and instinctively paused to listen.
“One, two, three, slide! One, two, three, turn! Now, then, come on!” said one voice impatiently.
“One, two, three, slide! One, two, three, turn! Now, come on!” said one voice, sounding impatient.
“It's very easy to say 'come on,' but what the dickens do I do with my left leg while I'm turning and sliding with my right?” demanded another voice in a breathless and mournful tone.
“It's really easy to say 'come on,' but what on earth do I do with my left leg while I'm turning and sliding with my right?” asked another voice in a breathless and sorrowful tone.
Then the whistling and thumping went on more vigorously than before, and Rose, recognizing the voices, peeped through the half-open door to behold a sight which made her shake with suppressed laughter. Steve, with a red tablecloth tied around his waist, languished upon Mac's shoulder, dancing in perfect time to the air he whistled, for Dandy was proficient in the graceful art and plumed himself upon his skill. Mac, with a flushed face and dizzy eye, clutched his brother by the small of his back, vainly endeavoring to steer him down the long room without entangling his own legs in the tablecloth, treading on his partner's toes, or colliding with the furniture. It was very droll, and Rose enjoyed the spectacle till Mac, in a frantic attempt to swing around, dashed himself against the wall and landed Steve upon the floor. Then it was impossible to restrain her laughter any longer and she walked in upon them, saying merrily: “It was splendid! Do it again, and I'll play for you.”
Then the whistling and thumping picked up even more than before, and Rose, recognizing the voices, peeked through the half-open door to see a scene that made her tremble with held-back laughter. Steve, with a red tablecloth tied around his waist, lounged on Mac's shoulder, dancing perfectly in sync with the tune he whistled, as Dandy showed off his skill in the graceful art. Mac, with a flushed face and dizzy eyes, grabbed his brother by the waist, trying in vain to steer him down the long room without tripping over his own legs in the tablecloth, stepping on his partner's toes, or crashing into the furniture. It was quite funny, and Rose enjoyed watching until Mac, in a wild attempt to spin around, slammed against the wall and sent Steve crashing to the floor. At that point, she couldn’t contain her laughter any longer and walked in on them, saying cheerfully, “That was amazing! Do it again, and I'll play for you.”
Steve sprang up and tore off the tablecloth in great confusion, while Mac, still rubbing his head, dropped into a chair, trying to look quite calm and cheerful as he gasped out: “How are you, Cousin? When did you come? John should have told us.”
Steve jumped up and ripped off the tablecloth in a panic, while Mac, still rubbing his head, sat down in a chair, trying to appear relaxed and cheerful as he breathed out: “How are you, Cousin? When did you arrive? John should have let us know.”
“I'm glad he didn't, for then I should have missed this touching tableau of cousinly devotion and brotherly love. Getting ready for our next party, I see.”
“I'm glad he didn't, because then I would have missed this heartfelt scene of cousinly devotion and brotherly love. Getting ready for our next party, I see.”
“Trying to, but there are so many things to remember all at once keep time, steer straight, dodge the petticoats, and manage my confounded legs that it isn't easy to get on at first,” answered Mac with a sigh of exhaustion, wiping his hot forehead.
“I'm trying, but there are so many things to remember all at once—keep time, steer straight, dodge the petticoats, and manage my frustrating legs—so it isn’t easy to get started,” Mac replied with a sigh of exhaustion, wiping his sweaty forehead.
“Hardest job I ever undertook and, as I'm not a battering ram, I decline to be knocked round any longer,” growled Steve, dusting his knees and ruefully surveying the feet that had been trampled on till they tingled, for his boots and broadcloth were dear to the heart of the dapper youth.
“Hardest job I ever took on, and since I’m not some sort of battering ram, I’m done getting pushed around,” Steve grumbled, brushing off his knees and unhappily looking at his feet that had gotten stomped on until they tingled, because his boots and fancy clothes were precious to the stylish young man.
“Very good of you, and I'm much obliged. I've got the pace, I think, and can practice with a chair to keep my hand in,” said Mac with such a comic mixture of gratitude and resignation that Rose went off again so irresistibly that her cousins joined her with a hearty roar.
"That’s really kind of you, and I appreciate it a lot. I think I’ve got the speed, and I can practice with a chair to stay sharp," Mac said, displaying a funny mix of thanks and acceptance that made Rose burst out laughing again, causing her cousins to join in with a loud cheer.
“As you are making a martyr of yourself in my service, the least I can do is lend a hand. Play for us, Steve, and I'll give Mac a lesson, unless he prefers the chair.” And, throwing off her hat and cloak, Rose beckoned so invitingly that the gravest philosopher would have yielded.
“As you’re sacrificing yourself for my sake, the least I can do is help out. Play for us, Steve, and I’ll give Mac a lesson, unless he’d rather take the chair.” And, tossing off her hat and cloak, Rose gestured so invitingly that even the most serious philosopher would have given in.
“A thousand thanks, but I'm afraid I shall hurt you,” began Mac, much gratified, but mindful of past mishaps.
“A thousand thanks, but I'm afraid I'll hurt you,” Mac began, feeling very grateful but remembering past accidents.
“I'm not. Steve didn't manage his train well, for good dancers always loop theirs up. I have none at all, so that trouble is gone and the music will make it much easier to keep step. Just do as I tell you, and you'll go beautifully after a few turns.”
“I'm not. Steve didn't control his train well, because good dancers always loop theirs up. I have none at all, so that issue is out of the way, and the music will make it a lot easier to stay in rhythm. Just follow my lead, and you'll move beautifully after a few turns.”
“I will, I will! Pipe up, Steve! Now, Rose!” And, brushing his hair out of his eyes with an air of stern determination, Mac grasped Rose and returned to the charge bent on distinguishing himself if he died in the attempt.
“I will, I will! Speak up, Steve! Now, Rose!” And, pushing his hair out of his eyes with a serious determination, Mac grabbed Rose and went back at it, determined to make a name for himself even if it meant risking everything.
The second lesson prospered, for Steve marked the time by a series of emphatic bangs; Mac obeyed orders as promptly as if his life depended on it; and, after several narrow escapes at exciting moments, Rose had the satisfaction of being steered safely down the room and landed with a grand pirouette at the bottom. Steve applauded, and Mac, much elated, exclaimed with artless candor: “There really is a sort of inspiration about you, Rose. I always detested dancing before, but now, do you know, I rather like it.”
The second lesson went really well, as Steve kept time with a series of loud bangs; Mac followed orders as if his life depended on it; and after a few close calls during exciting moments, Rose felt great knowing she was guided safely across the room and landed with a grand spin at the end. Steve cheered, and Mac, feeling proud, said honestly, “There’s something kind of inspiring about you, Rose. I used to hate dancing, but now, you know, I actually kind of like it.”
“I knew you would, only you mustn't stand with your arm round your partner in this way when you are done. You must seat and fan her, if she likes it,” said Rose, anxious to perfect a pupil who seemed so lamentably in need of a teacher.
“I knew you would, but you shouldn’t have your arm around your partner like that when you’re done. You need to sit her down and fan her, if she’s into that,” said Rose, eager to improve a student who clearly needed guidance.
“Yes, of course, I know how they do it.” And, releasing his cousin, Mac raised a small whirlwind around her with a folded newspaper, so full of zeal that she had not the heart to chide him again.
“Yes, of course, I know how they do it.” And, letting go of his cousin, Mac raised a small whirlwind around her with a folded newspaper, so eager that she couldn’t bring herself to scold him again.
“Well done, old fellow. I begin to have hopes of you and will order you a new dress coat at once, since you are really going in for the proprieties of life,” said Steve from the music stool, with the approving nod of one who was a judge of said proprieties. “Now, Rose, if you will just coach him a little in his small talk, he won't make a laughingstock of himself as he did the other night,” added Steve. “I don't mean his geological gabble that was bad enough, but his chat with Emma Curtis was much worse. Tell her, Mac, and see if she doesn't think poor Emma had a right to think you a first-class bore.”
"Well done, my friend. I'm starting to have faith in you, so I’m going to get you a new dress coat right away since you're really stepping up to the expectations of life," said Steve from the music stool, nodding in approval as someone who knows what those expectations are. "Now, Rose, if you could just help him out a bit with his small talk, he won't embarrass himself like he did the other night," Steve continued. "I’m not talking about his geological rambling, which was bad enough, but his conversation with Emma Curtis was even worse. Go on, Mac, tell her and see if she doesn’t agree that poor Emma had every reason to think you were a major bore."
“I don't see why, when I merely tried to have a little sensible conversation,” began Mac with reluctance, for he had been unmercifully chaffed by his cousins, to whom his brother had betrayed him.
“I don't understand why, when I just tried to have a normal conversation,” Mac started reluctantly, as he had been relentlessly teased by his cousins, who his brother had ratted him out to.
“What did you say? I won't laugh if I can help it,” said Rose, curious to hear, for Steve's eyes were twinkling with fun.
“What did you say? I won't laugh if I can help it,” said Rose, curious to hear, since Steve's eyes were twinkling with mischief.
“Well, I knew she was fond of theaters, so I tried that first and got on pretty well till I began to tell her how they managed those things in Greece. Most interesting subject, you know?”
“Well, I knew she liked theaters, so I tried that first and it went pretty well until I started explaining how they did things in Greece. Really interesting topic, you know?”
“Very. Did you give her one of the choruses or a bit of Agamemnon, as you did when you described it to me?” asked Rose, keeping sober with difficulty as she recalled that serio-comic scene.
“Very. Did you give her one of the choruses or a bit of Agamemnon, like you did when you told me about it?” asked Rose, trying hard to stay serious as she remembered that funny yet serious scene.
“Of course not, but I was advising her to read Prometheus when she gaped behind her fan and began to talk about Phebe. What a 'nice creature' she was, 'kept her place,' dressed according to her station, and that sort of twaddle. I suppose it was rather rude, but being pulled up so short confused me a bit, and I said the first thing that came into my head, which was that I thought Phebe the best-dressed woman in the room because she wasn't all fuss and feathers like most of the girls.”
“Of course not, but I was suggesting she read Prometheus when she gasped behind her fan and started talking about Phebe. What a 'nice girl' she was, 'knew her place,' dressed appropriately for her status, and that kind of nonsense. I guess it was a bit rude, but being interrupted so suddenly threw me off, and I said the first thing that popped into my head, which was that I thought Phebe was the best-dressed woman in the room because she wasn't all showy like most of the girls.”
“Oh, Mac! That to Emma, who makes it the labor of her life to be always in the height of fashion and was particularly splendid that night. What did she say?” cried Rose, full of sympathy for both parties.
“Oh, Mac! That’s Emma, who makes it her life’s work to always be on top of the latest fashion and looked especially stunning that night. What did she say?” cried Rose, full of sympathy for both of them.
“She bridled and looked daggers at me.”
“She glared at me with anger.”
“And what did you do?”
"What did you do?"
“I bit my tongue and tumbled out of one scrape into another. Following her example, I changed the subject by talking about the charity concert for the orphans, and when she gushed about the 'little darlings,' I advised her to adopt one and wondered why young ladies didn't do that sort of thing, instead of cuddling cats and lapdogs.”
“I bit my tongue and rolled from one mess into another. Following her lead, I switched the topic to the charity concert for the orphans, and when she raved about the 'little darlings,' I suggested she adopt one and wondered why young women didn’t do that kind of thing instead of snuggling with cats and small dogs.”
“Unhappy boy! Her pug is the idol of her life, and she hates babies,” said Rose.
“Poor boy! Her pug is the center of her world, and she can't stand babies,” said Rose.
“More fool she! Well, she got my opinion on the subject, anyway, and she's very welcome, for I went on to say that I thought it would not only be a lovely charity, but excellent training for the time when they had little darlings of their own. No end of poor things die through the ignorance of mothers, you know,” added Mac, so seriously that Rose dared not smile at what went before.
“More fool her! Anyway, she got my opinion on the matter, and she's very welcome to it because I went on to say that I thought it would not only be a wonderful charity but also great practice for when they have little ones of their own. So many poor things die due to mothers' ignorance, you know,” added Mac, so seriously that Rose didn’t dare smile at what had been said before.
“Imagine Emma trotting round with a pauper baby under her arm instead of her cherished Toto,” said Steve with an ecstatic twirl on the stool.
“Imagine Emma walking around with a poor baby under her arm instead of her beloved Toto,” said Steve with an ecstatic spin on the stool.
“Did she seem to like your advice, Monsieur Malapropos?” asked Rose, wishing she had been there.
“Did she seem to appreciate your advice, Mr. Malapropos?” asked Rose, wishing she had been there.
“No, she gave a little shriek and said, 'Good gracious, Mr. Campbell, how droll you are! Take me to Mama, please,' which I did with a thankful heart. Catch me setting her pug's leg again,” ended Mac with a grim shake of the head.
“No, she let out a little shriek and said, 'Goodness, Mr. Campbell, how funny you are! Please take me to Mom,' which I did with a grateful heart. I can’t believe I’m going to have to set her pug's leg again,” finished Mac with a serious shake of his head.
“Never mind. You were unfortunate in your listener that time. Don't think all girls are so foolish. I can show you a dozen sensible ones who would discuss dress reform and charity with you and enjoy Greek tragedy if you did the chorus for them as you did for me,” said Rose consolingly, for Steve would only jeer.
“Never mind. You just had bad luck with your listener that time. Don’t assume all girls are that foolish. I can introduce you to a dozen sensible ones who would talk about dress reform and charity with you, and would enjoy Greek tragedy if you performed the chorus for them like you did for me,” Rose said reassuringly, since Steve would just mock.
“Give me a list of them, please, and I'll cultivate their acquaintance. A fellow must have some reward for making a teetotum of himself.”
“Please give me a list of them, and I’ll get to know them. A guy has to get something out of acting like a fool.”
“I will with pleasure; and if you dance well they will make it very pleasant for you, and you'll enjoy parties in spite of yourself.”
“I’d love to; and if you dance well, they’ll make it really enjoyable for you, and you’ll have fun at parties whether you want to or not.”
“I cannot be a 'glass of fashion and a mold of form' like Dandy here, but I'll do my best: only, if I had my choice, I'd much rather go round the streets with an organ and a monkey,” answered Mac despondently.
“I can’t be a ‘trendsetter and a style icon’ like this Dandy, but I’ll do my best. Still, if I had the choice, I’d much rather roam the streets with a monkey and an organ,” Mac replied sadly.
“Thank you kindly for the compliment,” and Rose made him a low courtesy, while Steve cried, “Now you have done it!” in a tone of reproach which reminded the culprit, all too late, that he was Rose's chosen escort.
“Thank you so much for the compliment,” Rose said as she bowed slightly, while Steve exclaimed, “Now you’ve done it!” in a disapproving tone that reminded the offender, a bit too late, that he was Rose's chosen escort.
“By the gods, so I have!” And casting away the newspaper with a gesture of comic despair, Mac strode from the room, chanting tragically the words of Cassandra, “'Woe! woe! O Earth! O Apollo! I will dare to die; I will accost the gates of Hades, and make my prayer that I may receive a mortal blow!'”
“By the gods, I really have!” And throwing the newspaper aside with a dramatic gesture, Mac strode out of the room, mournfully reciting the words of Cassandra, “'Woe! Woe! O Earth! O Apollo! I will dare to die; I will confront the gates of Hades and ask that I receive a fatal blow!'”
Chapter 7 PHEBE
While Rose was making discoveries and having experiences, Phebe was doing the same in a quieter way, but though they usually compared notes during the bedtime tete-a-tete which always ended their day, certain topics were never mentioned, so each had a little world of her own into which even the eye of friendship did not peep.
While Rose was discovering new things and having experiences, Phebe was doing the same in a quieter way. They usually shared updates during their bedtime chats that wrapped up their day, but there were certain topics they never discussed, leaving each of them with a little world of her own that even friendship's gaze didn’t intrude upon.
Rose's life just now was the gaiest but Phebe's the happiest. Both went out a good deal, for the beautiful voice was welcomed everywhere, and many were ready to patronize the singer who would have been slow to recognize the woman. Phebe knew this and made no attempt to assert herself, content to know that those whose regard she valued felt her worth and hopeful of a time when she could gracefully take the place she was meant to fill.
Rose's life right now was the liveliest, but Phebe's was the happiest. They both went out a lot, as the beautiful voice was welcomed everywhere, and many were eager to support the singer who wouldn’t have quickly acknowledged the woman. Phebe understood this and didn’t try to assert herself, satisfied that those whose opinions she valued recognized her worth and hopeful for the time when she could gracefully take the role she was meant to fill.
Proud as a princess was Phebe about some things, though in most as humble as a child; therefore, when each year lessened the service she loved to give and increased the obligations she would have refused from any other source, dependence became a burden which even the most fervent gratitude could not lighten. Hitherto the children had gone on together, finding no obstacles to their companionship in the secluded world in which they lived. Now that they were women their paths inevitably diverged, and both reluctantly felt that they must part before long.
Phebe was as proud as a princess about some things, but in most ways, she was as humble as a child. So, when each year reduced the service she loved to offer and increased the obligations she would have refused from anyone else, dependence became a burden that even her deepest gratitude couldn’t ease. Until now, the children had continued together, encountering no obstacles to their friendship in the isolated world they lived in. Now that they were women, their paths were naturally separating, and both reluctantly realized that they would have to part soon.
It had been settled, when they were abroad, that on their return Phebe should take her one gift in her hand and try her fortunes. On no other terms would she accept the teaching which was to fit her for the independence she desired. Faithfully had she used the facilities so generously afforded both at home and abroad and now was ready to prove that they had not been in vain. Much encouraged by the small successes she won in drawing rooms, and the praise bestowed by interested friends, she began to feel that she might venture on a larger field and begin her career as a concert singer, for she aimed no higher.
It had been decided while they were overseas that when they returned, Phebe would take her one gift in hand and test her luck. She wouldn’t accept the training designed to prepare her for the independence she wanted on any other terms. She had made good use of the opportunities generously provided both at home and abroad, and now she was ready to show that their efforts hadn’t been wasted. Encouraged by the small successes she had in social settings and the praise from supportive friends, she started to feel like she could take on a bigger stage and begin her career as a concert singer, as that was her only ambition.
Just at this time much interest was felt in a new asylum for orphan girls, which could not be completed for want of funds. The Campbells well had borne their part and still labored to accomplish the much-needed charity. Several fairs had been given for this purpose, followed by a series of concerts. Rose had thrown herself into the work with all her heart and now proposed that Phebe should make her debut at the last concert, which was to be a peculiarly interesting one, as all the orphans were to be present and were expected to plead their own cause by the sight of their innocent helplessness as well as touch hearts by the simple airs they were to sing.
At that time, there was a lot of interest in a new orphanage for girls that couldn’t be finished due to a lack of funds. The Campbells had done their part and continued to work hard to support this important cause. They had organized several fairs for fundraising, followed by a series of concerts. Rose was fully committed to the effort and now suggested that Phebe should debut at the final concert, which would be particularly special since all the orphans would be there, expected to advocate for themselves through their innocent vulnerability as well as by performing simple songs to move people.
Some of the family thought Phebe would object to so humble a beginning, but Rose knew her better and was not disappointed, for when she made her proposal Phebe answered readily: “Where could I find a fitter time and place to come before the public than here among my little sisters in misfortune? I'll sing for them with all my heart only I must be one of them and have no flourish made about me.”
Some family members thought Phebe would have a problem with such a simple start, but Rose understood her better and wasn’t let down. When she made her suggestion, Phebe responded right away: “Where could I find a better time and place to perform than right here with my little sisters in hardship? I’ll sing for them with all my heart, but I need to be one of them and not have any fuss made about me.”
“You shall arrange it as you like, and as there is to be little vocal music but yours and the children's, I'll see that you have everything as you please,” promised Rose.
“You can set it up however you want, and since there won’t be much singing apart from yours and the kids', I’ll make sure you get everything just the way you like,” promised Rose.
It was well she did, for the family got much excited over the prospect of “our Phebe's debut” and would have made a flourish if the girls had not resisted. Aunt Clara was in despair about the dress because Phebe decided to wear a plain claret-colored merino with frills at neck and wrists so that she might look, as much as possible, like the other orphans in their stuff gowns and white aprons. Aunt Plenty wanted to have a little supper afterward in honor of the occasion, but Phebe begged her to change it to a Christmas dinner for the poor children. The boys planned to throw bushels of flowers, and Charlie claimed the honor of leading the singer in. But Phebe, with tears in her eyes, declined their kindly offers, saying earnestly: “I had better begin as I am to go on and depend upon myself entirely. Indeed, Mr. Charlie, I'd rather walk in alone, for you'd be out of place among us and spoil the pathetic effect we wish to produce.” And a smile sparkled through the tears as Phebe looked at the piece of elegance before her and thought of the brown gowns and pinafores.
It was just as well that she did, because the family got really excited about “our Phebe's debut” and would have made a big deal out of it if the girls hadn’t pushed back. Aunt Clara was worried about the dress since Phebe decided to wear a simple claret-colored merino with frills at the neck and wrists so she could blend in as much as possible with the other orphans in their plain gowns and white aprons. Aunt Plenty wanted to have a little supper afterward to celebrate the occasion, but Phebe asked her to change it to a Christmas dinner for the needy kids instead. The boys planned to throw tons of flowers, and Charlie insisted on the honor of leading the singer in. But Phebe, with tears in her eyes, declined their kind offers, saying earnestly: “I’d rather start as I mean to go on and rely on myself completely. Honestly, Mr. Charlie, I’d prefer to walk in alone, because you wouldn’t fit in with us and would ruin the emotional impact we want to create.” And a smile flickered through her tears as Phebe looked at the elegant dress in front of her and thought about the brown gowns and pinafores.
So, after much discussion, it was decided that she should have her way in all things and the family content themselves with applauding from the front.
So, after a lot of discussion, it was decided that she would get her way in everything and the family would just have to watch and cheer from the front.
“We'll blister our hands every man of us, and carry you home in a chariot and four see if we don't, you perverse prima donna!” threatened Steve, not at all satisfied with the simplicity of the affair.
“We'll burn our hands, every one of us, and take you home in a fancy carriage, just watch us, you difficult diva!” Steve threatened, clearly frustrated with how easy the situation seemed.
“A chariot and two will be very acceptable as soon as I'm done. I shall be quite steady till my part is all over, and then I may feel a little upset, so I'd like to get away before the confusion begins. Indeed, I don't mean to be perverse, but you are all so kind to me, my heart is full whenever I think of it, and that wouldn't do if I'm to sing,” said Phebe, dropping one of the tears on the little frill she was making.
“A chariot and two will be great as soon as I'm finished. I'll be perfectly steady until my part is all done, and then I might feel a bit off, so I'd like to leave before the chaos starts. Honestly, I don't want to be difficult, but you all are so kind to me; my heart feels so full whenever I think about it, and that wouldn’t work if I'm supposed to sing,” said Phebe, letting one of the tears fall onto the little frill she was making.
“No diamond could have adorned it better,” Archie thought as he watched it shine there for a moment, and felt like shaking Steve for daring to pat the dark head with an encouraging “All right. I'll be on hand and whisk you away while the rest are splitting their gloves. No fear of your breaking down. If you feel the least bit like it, though, just look at me and I'll glare at you and shake my fist, since kindness upsets you.”
“No diamond could have looked better on it,” Archie thought as he watched it shine for a moment, feeling like shaking Steve for having the nerve to pat the dark head with an encouraging, “All right. I’ll be here and whisk you away while the others are falling apart. Don’t worry about breaking down. But if you start to feel that way, just look at me, and I’ll give you my best glare and shake my fist, since kindness makes you uncomfortable.”
“I wish you would, because one of my ballads is rather touching and I always want to cry when I sing it. The sight of you trying to glare will make me want to laugh and that will steady me nicely, so sit in front, please, ready to slip out when I come off the last time.”
“I wish you would, because one of my songs is pretty emotional and I always feel like crying when I sing it. Seeing you trying to glare will make me want to laugh, and that will help me stay calm, so please sit in front, ready to leave when I finish the last time.”
“Depend upon me!” And the little man departed, taking great credit to himself for his influence over tall, handsome Phebe.
“Count on me!” And the little man left, feeling very proud of his influence over tall, attractive Phebe.
If he had known what was going on in the mind of the silent young gentleman behind the newspaper, Steve would have been much astonished, for Archie, though apparently engrossed by business, was fathoms deep in love by this time. No one suspected this but Rose, for he did his wooing with his eyes, and only Phebe knew how eloquent they could be. He had discovered what the matter was long ago had made many attempts to reason himself out of it, but, finding it a hopeless task, had given up trying and let himself drift deliciously. The knowledge that the family would not approve only seemed to add ardor to his love and strength to his purpose, for the same energy and persistence which he brought to business went into everything he did, and having once made up his mind to marry Phebe, nothing could change this plan except a word from her.
If he had known what was happening in the mind of the quiet young man behind the newspaper, Steve would have been really surprised, because Archie, although he seemed focused on business, was completely in love by this point. No one suspected this except for Rose, since he did his flirting with his eyes, and only Phebe knew how expressive they could be. He had figured out what was going on a long time ago and had made several attempts to talk himself out of it, but after realizing it was a lost cause, he stopped trying and allowed himself to enjoy it. The fact that the family wouldn’t approve only made his love stronger and his determination fiercer, because the same energy and persistence he applied to work were put into everything he did, and once he decided to marry Phebe, nothing could change his mind except a word from her.
He watched and waited for three months, so that he might not be accused of precipitation, though it did not take him one to decide that this was the woman to make him happy. Her steadfast nature, quiet, busy ways, and the reserved power and passion betrayed sometimes by a flash of the black eyes, a quiver of the firm lips, suited Archie, who possessed many of the same attributes himself. The obscurity of her birth and isolation of her lot, which would have deterred some lovers, not only appealed to his kindly heart, but touched the hidden romance which ran like a vein of gold through his strong common sense and made practical, steady-going Archie a poet when he fell in love. If Uncle Mac had guessed what dreams and fancies went on in the head bent over his ledgers, and what emotions were fermenting in the bosom of his staid “right-hand man,” he would have tapped his forehead and suggested a lunatic asylum. The boys thought Archie had sobered down too soon. His mother began to fear that the air of the counting room did not suit him, and Dr. Alec was deluded into the belief that the fellow really began to “think of Rose,” he came so often in the evening, seeming quite content to sit beside her worktable and snip tape or draw patterns while they chatted.
He watched and waited for three months so that he wouldn’t be accused of rushing into things, even though it took him no time at all to figure out that this was the woman who would make him happy. Her steadfast nature, quiet, busy ways, and the hidden strength and passion that occasionally flashed in her dark eyes or showed in the quiver of her firm lips suited Archie, who shared many of those same traits. The mystery of her background and her isolation, which might have discouraged other suitors, not only appealed to his kind heart but also stirred the hidden romantic side of him that ran like a vein of gold through his strong common sense, turning practical, steady-going Archie into a poet when he fell in love. If Uncle Mac had known about the dreams and fantasies swirling in the head bent over his ledgers, and the emotions bubbling up in the chest of his reliable “right-hand man,” he would have patted his head and suggested being checked into a mental hospital. The guys thought Archie had settled down too soon. His mom started to worry that the atmosphere of the counting room wasn’t good for him, and Dr. Alec was misled into thinking that Archie was genuinely starting to “think of Rose,” since he came by so often in the evenings, seeming completely happy to sit beside her worktable and cut tape or draw patterns while they chatted.
No one observed that, though he talked to Rose on these occasions, he looked at Phebe, in her low chair close by, busy but silent, for she always tried to efface herself when Rose was near and often mourned that she was too big to keep out of sight. No matter what he talked about, Archie always saw the glossy black braids on the other side of the table, the damask cheek curving down into the firm white throat, and the dark lashes, lifted now and then, showing eyes so deep and soft he dared not look into them long. Even the swift needle charmed him, the little brooch which rose and fell with her quiet breath, the plain work she did, and the tidy way she gathered her bits of thread into a tiny bag. He seldom spoke to her; never touched her basket, though he ravaged Rose's if he wanted string or scissors; very rarely ventured to bring her some curious or pretty thing when ships came in from China only sat and thought of her, imagined that this was his parlor, this her worktable, and they two sitting there alone a happy man and wife.
No one noticed that, even though he was talking to Rose during these times, he was actually looking at Phebe, who sat quietly nearby in her low chair, keeping busy but staying silent. She always tried to blend into the background when Rose was around and often lamented that she was too big to hide away. No matter what he discussed, Archie always saw the glossy black braids across the table, the damask cheek curving down into her firm white throat, and the dark lashes that occasionally lifted, revealing eyes so deep and soft he didn’t dare look into them for too long. Even her quick stitching fascinated him, the little brooch that rose and fell with her calm breathing, the simple work she did, and the neat way she gathered up her bits of thread into a small bag. He rarely spoke to her; never touched her basket, even though he rummaged through Rose's for string or scissors; he very infrequently dared to bring her some interesting or pretty thing when ships arrived from China. Instead, he just sat and thought about her, imagining that this was his living room, this her workspace, and that the two of them were sitting there alone as a happy couple.
At this stage of the little evening drama he would be conscious of such a strong desire to do something rash that he took refuge in a new form of intoxication and proposed music, sometimes so abruptly that Rose would pause in the middle of a sentence and look at him, surprised to meet a curiously excited look in the usually cool gray eyes.
At this point in the little evening drama, he felt such a strong urge to do something impulsive that he turned to a different kind of high and suggested some music, sometimes so suddenly that Rose would stop mid-sentence and glance at him, surprised to find a strangely excited look in his usually calm gray eyes.
Then Phebe, folding up her work, would go to the piano, as if glad to find a vent for the inner life which she seemed to have no power of expressing except in song. Rose would follow to accompany her, and Archie, moving to a certain shady corner whence he could see Phebe's face as she sang, would give himself up to unmitigated rapture for half an hour. Phebe never sang so well as at such times, for the kindly atmosphere was like sunshine to a bird, criticisms were few and gentle, praises hearty and abundant, and she poured out her soul as freely as a spring gushes up when its hidden source is full.
Then Phebe would put away her work and head to the piano, seeming happy to find a way to express her inner feelings that she could only show through song. Rose would follow her to play along, while Archie would move to a shady corner where he could see Phebe's face as she sang, completely absorbed in joy for half an hour. Phebe always sang her best during these moments, because the warm atmosphere felt like sunshine to a bird, with few gentle critiques, and plenty of genuine praise. She poured out her heart as freely as a spring flows when its hidden source is full.
In moments such as these Phebe was beautiful with the beauty that makes a man's eye brighten with honest admiration and fills his heart with a sense of womanly nobility and sweetness. Little wonder, then, that the chief spectator of this agreeable tableau grew nightly more enamored, and while the elders were deep in whist, the young people were playing that still more absorbing game in which hearts are always trumps.
In moments like these, Phebe was stunning with a beauty that made a man's eyes light up with genuine admiration and filled his heart with feelings of womanly grace and charm. It’s no surprise that the main observer of this lovely scene became more infatuated every night, and while the older folks were caught up in whist, the younger ones were engaged in that even more captivating game where hearts are always the winning card.
Rose, having Dummy for a partner, soon discovered the fact and lately had begun to feel as she fancied Wall must have done when Pyramus wooed Thisbe through its chinks. She was a little startled at first, then amused, then anxious, then heartily interested, as every woman is in such affairs, and willingly continued to be a medium, though sometimes she quite tingled with the electricity which seemed to pervade the air. She said nothing, waiting for Phebe to speak, but Phebe was silent, seeming to doubt the truth till doubt became impossible, then to shrink as if suddenly conscious of wrongdoing and seize every possible pretext for absenting herself from the “girls' corner,” as the pretty recess was called.
Rose, having Dummy as her partner, soon realized the situation and had recently started to feel like Wall must have when Pyramus was trying to talk to Thisbe through the cracks. At first, she was a bit surprised, then amused, then anxious, and finally genuinely interested, as every woman tends to be in such matters. She continued to act as a medium, even though at times she felt a thrill from the energy that seemed to fill the air. She said nothing, waiting for Phebe to break the silence, but Phebe remained quiet, appearing to doubt the truth until doubt became impossible. Then she seemed to recoil as if suddenly aware of her wrongdoing and seized every possible excuse to distance herself from the “girls' corner,” as the lovely alcove was called.
The concert plan afforded excellent opportunities for doing this, and evening after evening she slipped away to practice her songs upstairs while Archie sat staring disconsolately at the neglected work basket and mute piano. Rose pitied him and longed to say a word of comfort, but felt shy he was such a reserved fellow so left him to conduct his quiet wooing in his own way, feeling that the crisis would soon arrive.
The concert plan provided great chances for this, and night after night, she quietly went upstairs to practice her songs while Archie sat sadly staring at the ignored work basket and silent piano. Rose felt sorry for him and wanted to say something comforting, but she felt shy since he was such a reserved guy, so she let him pursue his quiet intentions in his own way, sensing that the moment of truth would come soon.
She was sure of this as she sat beside him on the evening of the concert, for while the rest of the family nodded and smiled, chatted and laughed in great spirits, Archie was as mute as a fish and sat with his arms tightly folded, as if to keep in any unruly emotions which might attempt to escape. He never looked at the program, but Rose knew when Phebe's turn came by the quick breath he drew and the intent look, so absent before, that came into his eyes.
She was certain of this as she sat next to him on the night of the concert, because while the rest of the family nodded and smiled, chatting and laughing in high spirits, Archie was silent and sat with his arms tightly crossed, as if to contain any wild emotions that might try to break free. He never glanced at the program, but Rose could tell when Phebe's turn was approaching by the quick breath he took and the focused look that appeared in his eyes, so absent before.
But her own excitement prevented much notice of his, for Rose was in a flutter of hope and fear, sympathy and delight, about Phebe and her success. The house was crowded; the audience sufficiently mixed to make the general opinion impartial; and the stage full of little orphans with shining faces, a most effective reminder of the object in view.
But her own excitement kept her from noticing his much, because Rose was buzzing with hope and fear, sympathy and joy, about Phebe and her success. The house was packed; the audience was diverse enough to make the general opinion fair; and the stage was filled with little orphans with beaming faces, a powerful reminder of the purpose at hand.
“Little dears, how nice they look!” “Poor things, so young to be fatherless and motherless.” “It will be a disgrace to the city if those girls are not taken proper care of.” “Subscriptions are always in order, you know, and pretty Miss Campbell will give you her sweetest smile if you hand her a handsome check.” “I've heard this Phebe Moore, and she really has a delicious voice such a pity she won't fit herself for opera!” “Only sings three times tonight; that's modest, I'm sure, when she's the chief attraction, so we must give her an encore after the Italian piece.” “The orphans lead off, I see. Stop your ears if you like, but don't fail to applaud or the ladies will never forgive you.”
“Little darlings, they look so sweet!” “Poor things, it’s such a shame to be without parents at such a young age.” “It would be a disgrace for the city if those girls aren't properly cared for.” “Donations are always welcome, you know, and pretty Miss Campbell will give you her biggest smile if you give her a generous check.” “I’ve heard that Phebe Moore has a gorgeous voice; it's such a pity she won't prepare herself for opera!” “She’s only singing three times tonight; that’s pretty modest, especially since she’s the main attraction, so we need to give her an encore after the Italian piece.” “The orphans are starting off, I see. Cover your ears if you want, but don’t forget to clap or the ladies won’t forgive you.”
Chat of this sort went on briskly while fans waved, programs rustled, and ushers flew about distractedly, till an important gentleman appeared, made his bow, skipped upon the leader's stand, and with a wave of his baton caused a general uprising of white pinafores as the orphans led off with that much-enduring melody “America” in shrill small voices, but with creditable attention to time and tune. Pity and patriotism produced a generous round of applause, and the little girls sat down, beaming with innocent satisfaction.
Chat of this kind continued energetically as fans waved, programs crinkled, and ushers hurried around distractedly, until an important man showed up, bowed, jumped onto the conductor's podium, and with a wave of his baton prompted a collective rise of white pinafores as the orphans began singing the well-loved song “America” in high-pitched voices, but with commendable attention to rhythm and melody. Feelings of compassion and patriotism ignited a generous round of applause, and the little girls sat down, glowing with innocent happiness.
An instrumental piece followed, and then a youthful gentleman, with his hair in picturesque confusion, and what his friends called a “musical brow,” bounded up the steps and, clutching a roll of music with a pair of tightly gloved hands, proceed to inform the audience, in a husky tenor voice, that “It was a lovely violet.”
An instrumental piece played next, and then a young man, with his hair in a charming mess and what his friends referred to as a “musical brow,” bounded up the steps. Clutching a rolled-up sheet of music with his tightly gloved hands, he informed the audience in a husky tenor voice that “It was a lovely violet.”
What else the song contained in the way of sense or sentiment it was impossible to discover as the three pages of music appeared to consist of variations upon that one line, ending with a prolonged quaver which flushed the musical brow and left the youth quite breathless when he made his bow.
What else the song conveyed in terms of meaning or emotion was impossible to determine since the three pages of music seemed to be variations on that one line, ending with a drawn-out note that left the young man feeling exhilarated and breathless when he took his bow.
“Now she's coming! Oh, Uncle, my heart beats as if it were myself!” whispered Rose, clutching Dr. Alec's arm with a little gasp as the piano was rolled forward, the leader's stand pushed back, and all eyes turned toward the anteroom door.
“Now she's coming! Oh, Uncle, my heart is racing like it's me!” whispered Rose, grabbing Dr. Alec's arm with a little gasp as the piano was rolled forward, the conductor's stand was pushed back, and everyone turned to look at the door of the anteroom.
She forgot to glance at Archie, and it was as well perhaps, for his heart was thumping almost audibly as he waited for his Phebe. Not from the anteroom, but out among the children, where she had sat unseen in the shadow of the organ, came stately Phebe in her wine-colored dress, with no ornament but her fine hair and a white flower at her throat. Very pale, but quite composed, apparently, for she stepped slowly through the narrow lane of upturned faces, holding back her skirts lest they should rudely brush against some little head. Straight to the front she went, bowed hastily, and, with a gesture to the accompanist, stood waiting to begin, her eyes fixed on the great gilt clock at the opposite end of the hall.
She forgot to look at Archie, and maybe that was a good thing, because his heart was racing loudly as he waited for his Phebe. Not from the anteroom, but out among the kids, where she had sat hidden in the shadows of the organ, came the elegant Phebe in her wine-colored dress, wearing no adornment except her lovely hair and a white flower at her throat. Very pale, but seemingly calm, as she stepped slowly through the narrow path of upturned faces, carefully holding back her skirts to avoid brushing against any little head. She walked straight to the front, bowed quickly, and, signaling the accompanist, stood waiting to begin, her eyes fixed on the large gilt clock at the far end of the hall.
They never wandered from that point while she sang, but as she ended they dropped for an instant on an eager, girlish countenance bending from a front seat; then, with her hasty little bow, she went quickly back among the children, who clapped and nodded as she passed, well pleased with the ballad she had sung.
They didn't look away while she sang, but as she finished, their gaze briefly landed on a bright, youthful face leaning from a front seat; then, with her quick little bow, she hurried back to the kids, who clapped and nodded as she walked by, happy with the song she had just performed.
Everyone courteously followed their example, but there was no enthusiasm, and it was evident that Phebe had not produced a particularly favorable impression.
Everyone politely followed their lead, but there was no excitement, and it was clear that Phebe hadn’t made a particularly good impression.
“Never sang so badly in her life,” muttered Charlie irefully.
"She's never sung so badly in her life," Charlie muttered angrily.
“She was frightened, poor thing. Give her time, give her time,” said Uncle Mac kindly.
“She was scared, poor thing. Give her time, give her time,” said Uncle Mac kindly.
“I know she was, and I glared like a gorgon, but she never looked at me,” added Steve, smoothing his gloves and his brows at the same time.
“I know she was, and I glared like a gorgon, but she never looked at me,” added Steve, smoothing his gloves and his brows at the same time.
“That first song was the hardest, and she got through much better than I expected,” put in Dr. Alec, bound not to show the disappointment he felt.
“That first song was the hardest, and she managed it way better than I expected,” Dr. Alec said, trying not to let his disappointment show.
“Don't be troubled. Phebe has courage enough for anything, and she'll astonish you before the evening's over,” prophesied Mac with unabated confidence, for he knew something the rest did not.
“Don’t worry. Phebe has enough courage for anything, and she’ll surprise you before the night’s over,” predicted Mac with unshakeable confidence, because he knew something the others didn’t.
Rose said nothing, but under cover of her burnous gave Archie's hand a sympathetic squeeze, for his arms were unfolded now, as if the strain was over, and one lay on his knee while with the other he wiped his hot forehead with an air of relief.
Rose didn't say anything, but hidden under her cloak, she gave Archie's hand a supportive squeeze. His arms were relaxed now, as if the tension had passed; one rested on his knee while he used the other to wipe his sweaty forehead with a look of relief.
Friends about them murmured complimentary fibs and affected great delight and surprise at Miss Moore's “charming style,” “exquisite simplicity,” and “undoubted talent.” But strangers freely criticized, and Rose was so indignant at some of their remarks, she could not listen to anything on the stage, though a fine overture was played, a man with a remarkable bass voice growled and roared melodiously, and the orphans sang a lively air with a chorus of “Tra, la, la,” which was a great relief to little tongues unused to long silence.
Friends around them quietly praised Miss Moore's "charming style," "exquisite simplicity," and "undoubted talent," pretending to be delighted and surprised. But strangers openly criticized, and Rose was so upset by some of their comments that she couldn't focus on anything happening on stage, even though a great overture was played, a man with a remarkable bass voice sang powerfully, and the orphans performed a lively tune with a chorus of "Tra, la, la," which was a welcome break for little mouths not used to long silences.
“I've often heard that women's tongues were hung in the middle and went at both ends now I'm sure of it,” whispered Charlie, trying to cheer her up by pointing out the comical effect of some seventy-five open mouths in each of which the unruly member was wagging briskly.
“I've often heard that women's tongues are in the middle and go both ways; now I'm sure of it,” whispered Charlie, trying to cheer her up by highlighting the funny sight of about seventy-five open mouths, each with the unruly tongue wagging away.
Rose laughed and let him fan her, leaning from his seat behind with the devoted air he always assumed in public, but her wounded feelings were not soothed and she continued to frown at the stout man on the left who had dared to say with a shrug and a glance at Phebe's next piece, “That young woman can no more sing this Italian thing than she can fly, and they ought not to let her attempt it.”
Rose laughed and allowed him to fan her, leaning from his seat behind her with the devoted look he always wore in public, but her hurt feelings weren't eased, and she kept frowning at the chubby man on the left who had dared to say with a shrug and a glance at Phebe's next piece, “That young woman can't sing this Italian piece any more than she can fly, and they really shouldn't let her try.”
Phebe did, however, and suddenly changed the stout man's opinion by singing it grandly, for the consciousness of her first failure pricked her pride and spurred her to do her best with the calm sort of determination which conquers fear, fires ambition, and changes defeat to success. She looked steadily at Rose now, or the flushed, intent face beside her, and throwing all her soul into the task, let her voice ring out like a silver clarion, filling the great hall and setting the hearers' blood a-tingle with the exulting strain.
Phebe did, however, and suddenly changed the stout man’s opinion by singing it beautifully, as the sting of her first failure motivated her pride and pushed her to give her best with a calm determination that conquers fear, fuels ambition, and turns defeat into success. She focused intently on Rose now, or on the flushed, focused face beside her, and pouring all her heart into the performance, let her voice ring out like a silver trumpet, filling the large hall and making the listeners' blood tingle with the uplifting melody.
That settled Phebe's fate as a cantatrice. The applause was genuine and spontaneous this time and broke out again and again with the generous desire to atone for former coldness. But she would not return, and the shadow of the great organ seemed to have swallowed her up, for no eye could find her, no pleasant clamor win her back.
That determined Phebe's future as a singer. The applause was real and spontaneous this time, coming back again and again with a heartfelt wish to make up for past indifference. But she wouldn’t come back, and the shadow of the grand organ seemed to have consumed her, for no one could spot her, and no cheerful noise could bring her back.
“Now I can die content,” said Rose, beaming with heartfelt satisfaction while Archie looked steadfastly at his program, trying to keep his face in order, and the rest of the family assumed a triumphant air, as if they had never doubted from the first.
“Now I can die happy,” said Rose, smiling with genuine satisfaction while Archie focused intently on his program, attempting to maintain his composure, and the rest of the family wore a confident expression, as if they had never had any doubts from the beginning.
“Very well, indeed,” said the stout man with an approving nod. “Quite promising for a beginner. Shouldn't wonder if in time they made a second Cary or Kellogg of her.”
“Very well, indeed,” said the stout man with an approving nod. “Quite promising for a beginner. I wouldn't be surprised if, in time, they made a second Cary or Kellogg out of her.”
“Now you'll forgive him, won't you?” murmured Charlie in his cousin's ear.
“Now you'll forgive him, right?” Charlie whispered in his cousin's ear.
“Yes, and I'd like to pat him on the head. But take warning and never judge by first appearances again,” whispered Rose, at peace now with all mankind.
“Yes, and I’d like to pat him on the head. But take my advice and never judge by first appearances again,” whispered Rose, feeling at peace with everyone now.
Phebe's last song was another ballad; she meant to devote her talent to that much neglected but always attractive branch of her art. It was a great surprise, therefore, to all but one person in the hall when, instead of singing “Auld Robin Grey,” she placed herself at the piano, and, with a smiling glance over her shoulder at the children, broke out in the old bird song which first won Rose. But the chirping, twittering, and cooing were now the burden to three verses of a charming little song, full of springtime and the awakening life that makes it lovely. A rippling accompaniment flowed through it all, and a burst of delighted laughter from the children filled up the first pause with a fitting answer to the voices that seemed calling to them from the vernal woods.
Phebe's last song was another ballad; she intended to dedicate her talent to that often overlooked but always appealing aspect of her art. It was a big surprise to everyone in the hall except one person when, instead of singing “Auld Robin Grey,” she sat down at the piano and, casting a smiling glance back at the children, started singing the old bird song that had first captivated Rose. But the chirping, twittering, and cooing now accompanied three verses of a delightful little song, brimming with springtime and the vibrant life that makes it beautiful. A flowing piano accompaniment wove through it all, and a burst of joyful laughter from the children filled the first pause, perfectly responding to the voices that seemed to beckon them from the springtime woods.
It was very beautiful, and novelty lent its charm to the surprise, for art and nature worked a pretty miracle and the clever imitation, first heard from a kitchen hearth, now became the favorite in a crowded concert room. Phebe was quite herself again; color in the cheeks now; eyes that wandered smiling to and fro; and lips that sang as gaily and far more sweetly than when she kept time to her blithe music with a scrubbing brush.
It was stunning, and the newness added to the charm of the surprise, as art and nature created a lovely miracle. The clever imitation, which first came from a kitchen, was now a hit in a packed concert hall. Phebe was back to her usual self; she had color in her cheeks, her eyes wandered happily around the room, and her lips sang as cheerfully and much more sweetly than when she had kept time with a scrubbing brush.
This song was evidently intended for the children, and they appreciated the kindly thought, for as Phebe went back among them, they clapped ecstatically, flapped their pinafores, and some caught her by the skirts with audible requests to “Do it again, please; do it again.”
This song was clearly meant for the kids, and they loved the kind gesture. As Phebe went back to them, they clapped excitedly, waved their pinafores, and some grabbed her skirts while loudly asking, “Do it again, please; do it again.”
But Phebe shook her head and vanished, for it was getting late for such small people, several of whom “lay sweetly slumbering there” till roused by the clamor round them. The elders, however, were not to be denied and applauded persistently, especially Aunt Plenty, who seized Uncle Mac's cane and pounded with it as vigorously as “Mrs. Nubbles” at the play.
But Phebe shook her head and disappeared, because it was getting late for such little ones, several of whom “lay sweetly sleeping there” until they were stirred by the noise around them. The adults, however, wouldn’t be stopped and clapped continuously, especially Aunt Plenty, who grabbed Uncle Mac's cane and pounded it as energetically as “Mrs. Nubbles” did in the play.
“Never mind your gloves, Steve; keep it up till she comes,” cried Charlie, enjoying the fun like a boy while Jamie lost his head with excitement and, standing up, called “Phebe! Phebe!” in spite of his mother's attempts to silence him.
“Forget your gloves, Steve; hold on until she gets here,” shouted Charlie, enjoying the fun like a kid while Jamie lost control with excitement and, standing up, yelled “Phebe! Phebe!” despite his mother trying to hush him.
Even the stout man clapped, and Rose could only laugh delightedly as she turned to look at Archie, who seemed to have let himself loose at last and was stamping with a dogged energy funny to see.
Even the heavyset man clapped, and Rose could only laugh happily as she turned to glance at Archie, who finally seemed to be having a good time and was stomping around with a determined energy that was amusing to watch.
So Phebe had to come, and stood there meekly bowing, with a moved look on her face that showed how glad and grateful she was, till a sudden hush came; then, as if inspired by the memory of the cause that brought her there, she looked down into the sea of friendly faces before her, with no trace of fear in her own, and sang the song that never will grow old.
So Phebe had to come, and she stood there quietly bowing, with a touched expression on her face that showed how happy and thankful she was, until a sudden hush fell over the crowd; then, as if inspired by the memory of why she was there, she looked out at the sea of friendly faces in front of her, with no hint of fear in her own, and sang the song that will never be outdated.
That went straight to the hearts of those who heard her, for there was something inexpressibly touching in the sight of this sweet-voiced woman singing of home for the little creatures who were homeless, and Phebe made her tuneful plea irresistible by an almost involuntary gesture of the hands which had hung loosely clasped before her till, with the last echo of the beloved word, they fell apart and were half outstretched, as if pleading to be filled.
That went straight to the hearts of everyone who heard her, because there was something incredibly touching about seeing this sweet-voiced woman singing about home for the little creatures who were without one. Phebe made her melodic plea impossible to resist with an almost instinctive gesture of her hands, which had been loosely clasped in front of her until, with the last echo of the cherished word, they fell apart and were half outstretched, as if begging to be filled.
It was the touch of nature that works wonders, for it made full purses suddenly weigh heavily in pockets slow to open, brought tears to eyes unused to weep, and caused that group of red-gowned girls to grow very pathetic in the sight of fathers and mothers who had left little daughters safe asleep at home. This was evident from the stillness that remained unbroken for an instant after Phebe ended; and before people could get rid of their handkerchiefs she would have been gone if the sudden appearance of a mite in a pinafore, climbing up the stairs from the anteroom with a great bouquet grasped in both hands, had not arrested her.
It was nature’s touch that worked wonders, making full wallets suddenly feel heavy in pockets reluctant to open, bringing tears to eyes that weren’t used to crying, and making that group of girls in red dresses seem really sad in the eyes of parents who had left their little daughters safe and sound at home. This was clear from the silence that lingered for a moment after Phebe finished; and before people could put away their tissues, she would have disappeared if it hadn’t been for the sudden appearance of a tiny child in a pinny, climbing up the stairs from the hallway with a big bouquet clutched in both hands, which stopped her in her tracks.
Up came the little creature, intent on performing the mission for which rich bribes of sugarplums had been promised, and trotting bravely across the stage, she held up the lovely nosegay, saying in her baby voice, “Dis for you, ma'am.” Then, startled by the sudden outburst of applause, she hid her face in Phebe's gown and began to sob with fright.
Up came the little creature, eager to complete the task for which sugary rewards had been promised, and confidently trotting across the stage, she held up the beautiful bouquet, saying in her little voice, “This is for you, ma'am.” Then, startled by the sudden burst of applause, she buried her face in Phebe's dress and started to cry from fear.
An awkward minute for poor Phebe, but she showed unexpected presence of mind and left behind her a pretty picture of the oldest and youngest orphan as she went quickly down the step, smiling over the great bouquet with the baby on her arm.
An awkward moment for poor Phebe, but she displayed unexpected composure and left behind a lovely image of the oldest and youngest orphan as she hurried down the step, smiling with the big bouquet and the baby in her arm.
Nobody minded the closing piece, for people began to go, sleepy children to be carried off, and whispers grew into a buzz of conversation. In the general confusion Rose looked to see if Steve had remembered his promise to help Phebe slip away before the rush began. No, there he was putting on Kitty's cloak, quite oblivious to any other duty. Turning to ask Archie to hurry out, Rose found that he had already vanished, leaving his gloves behind him.
Nobody cared about the last act, as people started to leave, sleepy kids being picked up, and murmurs turned into lively chatter. Amid the chaos, Rose checked to see if Steve had kept his promise to help Phebe sneak away before the crowd. But no, there he was, putting on Kitty's cloak, completely unaware of anything else. When Rose turned to ask Archie to hurry out, she realized he had already disappeared, leaving his gloves behind.
“Have you lost anything?” asked Dr. Alec, catching a glimpse of her face.
“Have you lost something?” asked Dr. Alec, catching a glimpse of her face.
“No, sir, I've found something,” she whispered back, giving him the gloves to pocket along with her fan and glass, adding hastily as the concert ended, “Please, Uncle, tell them all not to come with us. Phebe has had enough excitement and ought to rest.”
“No, sir, I've found something,” she whispered back, handing him the gloves to put away with her fan and glass, quickly adding as the concert finished, “Please, Uncle, tell them all not to join us. Phebe has had enough excitement and needs to rest.”
Rose's word was law to the family in all things concerning Phebe. So word was passed that there were to be no congratulations until tomorrow, and Dr. Alec got his party off as soon as possible. But all the way home, while he and Aunt Plenty were prophesying a brilliant future for the singer, Rose sat rejoicing over the happy present of the woman. She was sure that Archie had spoken and imagined the whole scene with feminine delight how tenderly he had asked the momentous question, how gratefully Phebe had given the desired reply, and now how both were enjoying that delicious hour which Rose had been given to understand never came but once. Such a pity to shorten it, she thought, and begged her uncle to go home the longest way the night was so mild, the moonlight so clear, and herself so in need of fresh air after the excitement of the evening.
Rose's word was the final say in the family when it came to Phebe. So, it was decided that there would be no congratulations until tomorrow, and Dr. Alec made sure his party left as soon as possible. But on the way home, while he and Aunt Plenty were predicting a bright future for the singer, Rose sat quietly celebrating the joyful present for the woman. She was sure that Archie had proposed and imagined the entire scene with feminine delight: how tenderly he had asked the important question, how gratefully Phebe had given her answer, and now how they were both savoring that wonderful moment that Rose understood only happened once. What a shame to cut it short, she thought, and she asked her uncle to take the long way home—the night was so pleasant, the moonlight so bright, and she felt she needed fresh air after the excitement of the evening.
“I thought you would want to rush into Phebe's arms the instant she got done,” said Aunt Plenty, innocently wondering at the whims girls took into their heads.
“I thought you would want to rush into Phebe's arms the moment she was done,” said Aunt Plenty, innocently wondering about the whims girls had.
“So I should if I consulted my own wishes, but as Phebe asked to be let alone I want to gratify her,” answered Rose, making the best excuse she could.
“So I would if I considered my own desires, but since Phebe asked to be left alone, I want to respect her wishes,” replied Rose, giving the best reason she could.
“A little piqued,” thought the doctor, fancying he understood the case.
“A bit annoyed,” thought the doctor, thinking he understood the situation.
As the old lady's rheumatism forbade their driving about till midnight, home was reached much too soon, Rose thought, and tripped away to warn the lovers the instant she entered the house. But study, parlor, and boudoir were empty; and, when Jane appeared with cake and wine, she reported that “Miss Phebe went right upstairs and wished to be excused, please, being very tired.”
As the old lady's arthritis kept them from driving around until midnight, Rose felt they got home way too early and rushed to let the lovers know as soon as she walked in the house. But the study, living room, and bedroom were all empty; and when Jane came in with cake and wine, she said, “Miss Phebe went straight upstairs and asked to be excused because she was very tired.”
“That isn't at all like Phebe I hope she isn't ill,” began Aunt Plenty, sitting down to toast her feet.
"That's not like Phebe at all. I hope she's not sick," Aunt Plenty said as she sat down to warm her feet.
“She may be a little hysterical, for she is a proud thing and represses her emotions as long as she can. I'll step up and see if she doesn't need a soothing draft of some sort.” And Dr. Alec threw off his coat as he spoke.
“She might be a bit over the top since she’s quite the proud person and holds back her feelings as much as possible. I’ll go check on her to see if she needs a calming drink or something.” And Dr. Alec took off his coat as he said this.
“No, no, she's only tired. I'll run up to her she won't mind me and I'll report if anything is amiss.”
“No, no, she’s just tired. I’ll go check on her; she won’t mind, and I’ll let you know if anything’s wrong.”
Away went Rose, quite trembling with suspense, but Phebe's door was shut, no light shone underneath, and no sound came from the room within. She tapped and receiving no answer, went on to her own chamber, thinking to herself: “Love always makes people queer, I've heard, so I suppose they settled it all in the carriage and the dear thing ran away to think about her happiness alone. I'll not disturb her. Why, Phebe!” said Rose, surprised, for, entering her room, there was the cantatrice, busy about the nightly services she always rendered her little mistress.
Away went Rose, trembling with anticipation, but Phebe's door was closed, no light shone underneath, and no sound came from inside the room. She knocked and, getting no answer, went to her own room, thinking to herself: “I've heard that love makes people act strangely, so I guess they worked everything out in the carriage, and the dear thing ran off to think about her happiness alone. I won’t disturb her. Why, Phebe!” said Rose, surprised, because when she entered her room, the singer was there, busy with the nightly services she always provided for her little mistress.
“I'm waiting for you, dear. Where have you been so long?” asked Phebe, poking the fire as if anxious to get some color into cheeks that were unnaturally pale.
“I'm waiting for you, dear. Where have you been for so long?” asked Phebe, poking the fire as if eager to bring some color back to her unnaturally pale cheeks.
The instant she spoke Rose knew that something was wrong, and a glance at her face confirmed the fear. It was like a dash of cold water and quenched her happy fancies in a moment; but being a delicate-minded girl, she respected Phebe's mood and asked no questions, made no comments, and left her friend to speak or be silent as she chose.
The moment she spoke, Rose knew something was off, and a quick look at her face confirmed her fear. It hit her like a splash of cold water and immediately wiped away her happy thoughts; but being a sensitive girl, she respected Phebe's mood, asked no questions, made no comments, and let her friend decide whether to talk or stay quiet.
“I was so excited I would take a turn in the moonlight to calm my nerves. Oh, dearest Phebe, I am so glad, so proud, so full of wonder at your courage and skill and sweet ways altogether that I cannot half tell you how I love and honor you!” she cried, kissing the white cheeks with such tender warmth they could not help glowing faintly as Phebe held her little mistress close, sure that nothing could disturb this innocent affection.
“I was so excited I decided to take a stroll in the moonlight to calm my nerves. Oh, dearest Phebe, I am so glad, so proud, and in awe of your courage, skill, and sweet ways that I can’t even begin to express how much I love and admire you!” she exclaimed, kissing the white cheeks with such tender warmth that they couldn’t help but glow faintly as Phebe held her little mistress close, confident that nothing could disturb this pure affection.
“It is all your work, dear, because but for you I might still be scrubbing floors and hardly dare to dream of anything like this,” she said in her old grateful way, but in her voice there was a thrill of something deeper than gratitude, and at the last two words her head went up with a gesture of soft pride as if it had been newly crowned.
“It’s all thanks to you, dear, because without you I might still be scrubbing floors and hardly daring to dream of anything like this,” she said in her usual grateful way, but there was a thrill in her voice that went deeper than gratitude, and at the last two words her head lifted with a gesture of soft pride as if it had been newly crowned.
Rose heard and saw and guessed at the meaning of both tone and gesture, feeling that her Phebe deserved both the singer's laurel and the bride's myrtle wreath. But she only looked up, saying very wistfully: “Then it has been a happy night for you as well as for us.”
Rose heard and saw and sensed the meaning behind both the tone and the gesture, feeling that her Phebe deserved both the singer's laurel and the bride's myrtle wreath. But she just looked up, saying with a hint of longing: “So it’s been a happy night for you too, just like for us.”
“The happiest of my life, and the hardest,” answered Phebe briefly as she looked away from the questioning eyes.
“The happiest and the hardest times of my life,” Phebe replied briefly, avoiding the questioning gaze.
“You should have let us come nearer and help you through. I'm afraid you are very proud, my Jenny Lind.”
"You should have let us get closer and help you out. I'm afraid you're being very proud, my Jenny Lind."
“I have to be, for sometimes I feel as if I had nothing else to keep me up.” She stopped short there, fearing that her voice would prove traitorous if she went on. In a moment she asked in a tone that was almost hard: “You think I did well tonight?”
"I have to be, because sometimes it feels like I have nothing else to hold me up." She paused suddenly, worried that her voice would betray her if she continued. After a moment, she asked in a tone that was nearly harsh, "Do you think I did well tonight?"
“They all think so, and were so delighted they wanted to come in a body and tell you so, but I sent them home because I knew you'd be tired out. Perhaps I ought not to have done it and you'd rather have had a crowd about you than just me?”
“They all think so, and were so happy they wanted to come over together and tell you, but I sent them home because I knew you’d be worn out. Maybe I shouldn’t have done that, and you would have preferred having a group around you instead of just me?”
“It was the kindest thing you ever did, and what could I like better than 'just you,' my darling?”
“It was the nicest thing you ever did, and what could I want more than 'just you,' my love?”
Phebe seldom called her that, and when she did her heart was in the little word, making it so tender that Rose thought it the sweetest in the world, next to Uncle Alec's “my little girl.” Now it was almost passionate, and Phebe's face grew rather tragical as she looked down at Rose. It was impossible to seem unconscious any longer, and Rose said, caressing Phebe's cheek, which burned with a feverish color now: “Then don't shut me out if you have a trouble, but let me share it as I let you share all mine.”
Phebe rarely called her that, and when she did, her heart was in the little word, making it so sweet that Rose thought it was the most beautiful name in the world, next to Uncle Alec's “my little girl.” Now it felt almost intense, and Phebe's face became rather dramatic as she looked down at Rose. It was impossible to pretend she didn’t notice any longer, and Rose said, gently stroking Phebe's cheek, which was now flushed with a feverish color: “So don't push me away if you're dealing with something, but let me help you just like I let you help me with all my stuff.”
“I will! Little mistress, I've got to go away, sooner even than we planned.”
“I will! Little mistress, I have to leave, even sooner than we planned.”
“Why, Phebe?”
"Why, Phebe?"
“Because Archie loves me.”
“Because Archie loves me.”
“That's the very reason you should stay and make him happy.”
"That's exactly why you should stay and make him happy."
“Not if it caused dissension in the family, and you know it would.”
“Not if it would cause conflict in the family, and you know it would.”
Rose opened her lips to deny this impetuously, but checked herself and answered honestly: “Uncle and I would be heartily glad, and I'm sure Aunt Jessie never could object if you loved Archie as he does you.”
Rose opened her mouth to deny this impulsively, but stopped herself and answered truthfully: “Uncle and I would be really happy, and I'm sure Aunt Jessie would never mind if you loved Archie as he loves you.”
“She has other hopes, I think, and kind as she is, it would be a disappointment if he brought me home. She is right, they all are, and I alone am to blame. I should have gone long ago I knew I should, but it was so pleasant, I couldn't bear to go away alone.”
“She has other hopes, I think, and as kind as she is, it would disappoint her if he brought me home. She’s right, they all are, and I’m the one to blame. I should have left a long time ago; I knew I should, but it was so nice here, I just couldn’t bring myself to leave alone.”
“I kept you, and I am to blame if anyone, but indeed, dear Phebe, I cannot see why you should care even if Aunt Myra croaks and Aunt Clara exclaims or Aunt Jane makes disagreeable remarks. Be happy, and never mind them,” cried Rose, so much excited by all this that she felt the spirit of revolt rise up within her and was ready to defy even that awe-inspiring institution “the family” for her friend's sake.
“I cared for you, and I'm the one to blame if anyone is, but honestly, dear Phebe, I don’t understand why you should worry even if Aunt Myra complains, Aunt Clara freaks out, or Aunt Jane says something rude. Just be happy and ignore them,” Rose exclaimed, so caught up in the moment that she felt a surge of rebellion rising up in her, ready to challenge even the intimidating idea of “family” for her friend’s sake.
But Phebe shook her head with a sad smile and answered, still with the hard tone in her voice as if forcing back all emotion that she might see her duty clearly: “You could do that, but I never can. Answer me this, Rose, and answer truly as you love me. If you had been taken into a house, a friendless, penniless, forlorn girl, and for years been heaped with benefits, trusted, taught, loved, and made, oh, so happy! could you think it right to steal away something that these good people valued very much? To have them feel that you had been ungrateful, had deceived them, and meant to thrust yourself into a high place not fit for you when they had been generously helping you in other ways, far more than you deserved. Could you then say as you do now, 'Be happy, and never mind them'?”
But Phebe shook her head with a sad smile and replied, still speaking with a harsh tone as if she were holding back all her emotions to see her duty clearly: “You could do that, but I never could. Answer me this, Rose, and be honest as you love me. If you had been taken into a home as a friendless, penniless, lonely girl, and for years had received countless benefits, trust, teaching, love, and been made, oh, so happy! could you think it right to take away something that these good people valued deeply? To make them feel like you were ungrateful, had deceived them, and intended to push yourself into a position that you didn’t deserve when they had been generously helping you in other ways, far more than you earned? Could you really say as you do now, 'Be happy, and don’t worry about them'?”
Phebe held Rose by the shoulders now and searched her face so keenly that the other shrank a little, for the black eyes were full of fire and there was something almost grand about this girl who seemed suddenly to have become a woman. There was no need for words to answer the question so swiftly asked, for Rose put herself in Phebe's place in the drawing of a breath, and her own pride made her truthfully reply: “No I could not!”
Phebe held Rose by the shoulders and studied her face so intensely that Rose recoiled a bit, as Phebe's dark eyes sparkled with intensity and there was something almost majestic about this girl who had suddenly matured. Words weren’t necessary to answer the quick question, because Rose immediately imagined herself in Phebe's position, and her own pride compelled her to respond honestly: “No, I couldn't!”
“I knew you'd say that, and help me do my duty.” And all the coldness melted out of Phebe's manner as she hugged her little mistress close, feeling the comfort of sympathy even through the blunt sincerity of Rose's words.
“I knew you’d say that and help me do what’s right.” All the coldness disappeared from Phebe's demeanor as she hugged her little mistress tight, finding comfort in their shared understanding despite the straightforwardness of Rose's words.
“I will if I know how. Now, come and tell me all about it.” And, seating herself in the great chair which had often held them both, Rose stretched out her hands as if glad and ready to give help of any sort.
“I’ll do it if I know how. Now, come and tell me everything.” And, sitting in the big chair that had often held them both, Rose stretched out her hands as if she was happy and ready to help in any way.
But Phebe would not take her accustomed place, for, as if coming to confession, she knelt down upon the rug and, leaning on the arm of the chair, told her love story in the simplest words.
But Phebe wouldn’t sit in her usual spot; instead, she kneeled on the rug, like she was about to confess, and leaning on the arm of the chair, shared her love story in the simplest terms.
“I never thought he cared for me until a little while ago. I fancied it was you, and even when I knew he liked to hear me sing I supposed it was because you helped, and so I did my best and was glad you were to be a happy girl. But his eyes told the truth. Then I saw what I had been doing and was frightened. He did not speak, so I believed, what is quite true, that he felt I was not a fit wife for him and would never ask me. It was right I was glad of it, yet I was proud and, though I did not ask or hope for anything, I did want him to see that I respected myself, remembered my duty, and could do right as well as he. I kept away. I planned to go as soon as possible and resolved that at this concert I would do so well, he should not be ashamed of poor Phebe and her one gift.”
“I never thought he cared about me until recently. I imagined it was you, and even when I knew he liked hearing me sing, I figured it was because you helped, so I did my best and was glad for you to be a happy girl. But his eyes revealed the truth. Then I realized what I had been doing and got scared. He didn’t say anything, so I believed, which is true, that he felt I wasn’t a suitable wife for him and would never ask me. It was right that I was glad about it, yet I was proud, and even though I didn’t ask for or hope for anything, I wanted him to see that I respected myself, remembered my duty, and could do what was right just like he could. I kept my distance. I planned to leave as soon as possible and decided that at this concert, I would perform so well that he wouldn’t be ashamed of poor Phebe and her one talent.”
“It was this that made you so strange, then, preferring to go alone and refusing every little favor at our hands?” asked Rose, feeling very sure now about the state of Phebe's heart.
“It was this that made you so strange, then, preferring to go alone and refusing every little favor we offered?” asked Rose, now feeling quite certain about Phebe's feelings.
“Yes, I wanted to do everything myself and not owe one jot of my success, if I had any, to even the dearest friend I've got. It was bad and foolish of me, and I was punished by the first dreadful failure. I was so frightened, Rose! My breath was all gone, my eyes so dizzy I could hardly see, and that great crowd of faces seemed so near, I dared not look. If it had not been for the clock I never should have gotten through, and when I did, not knowing in the least how I'd sung, one look at your distressed face told me I'd failed.”
“Yes, I wanted to do everything on my own and not owe even a tiny bit of my success, if I had any, to my closest friend. It was wrong and stupid of me, and I faced the consequences with my first major failure. I was so scared, Rose! I couldn’t catch my breath, my eyes were so dizzy I could barely see, and that huge crowd of faces felt so close that I couldn’t bring myself to look. If it hadn’t been for the clock, I don’t think I would have made it through, and when I finally did, not knowing at all how I had sung, one look at your worried face told me I had failed.”
“But I smiled, Phebe indeed I did as sweetly as I could, for I was sure it was only fright,” protested Rose eagerly.
“But I smiled, Phebe, I really did as sweetly as I could, because I was sure it was just fear,” Rose insisted eagerly.
“So you did, but the smile was full of pity, not of pride, as I wanted it to be, and I rushed into a dark place behind the organ, feeling ready to kill myself. How angry and miserable I was! I set my teeth, clenched my hands, and vowed that I would do well next time or never sing another note. I was quite desperate when my turn came, and felt as if I could do almost anything, for I remembered that he was there. I'm not sure how it was, but it seemed as if I was all voice, for I let myself go, trying to forget everything except that two people must not be disappointed, though I died when the song was done.”
“So you did, but the smile was filled with pity, not pride like I wanted, and I rushed into a dark space behind the organ, feeling like I could just end it all. I was so angry and miserable! I gritted my teeth, clenched my fists, and promised myself that I would do well next time or never sing again. I felt completely desperate when my turn came, as if I could do almost anything since I remembered he was there. I’m not sure how it happened, but it felt like I was just a voice, letting everything go, trying to forget everything except that two people needed to be happy, even though I felt like I was dying when the song ended.”
“Oh, Phebe, it was splendid! I nearly cried, I was so proud and glad to see you do yourself justice at last.”
“Oh, Phebe, it was amazing! I almost cried; I was so proud and happy to see you finally show what you’re really capable of.”
“And he?” whispered Phebe, with her face half hidden on the arm of the chair.
“And he?” whispered Phebe, her face half hidden on the arm of the chair.
“Said not a word, but I saw his lips tremble and his eyes shine and I knew he was the happiest creature there, because I was sure he did think you fit to be his wife and did mean to speak very soon.”
“Didn't say a word, but I saw his lips quiver and his eyes light up, and I knew he was the happiest person there because I was certain he believed you were worthy of being his wife and intended to propose very soon.”
Phebe made no answer for a moment, seeming to forget the small success in the greater one which followed and to comfort her sore heart with the knowledge that Rose was right.
Phebe didn't reply for a moment, looking as if she had forgotten the little success in the bigger one that came next and was comforting her aching heart with the understanding that Rose was correct.
“He sent the flowers, he came for me, and, on the way home, showed me how wrong I had been to doubt him for an hour. Don't ask me to tell that part, but be sure I was the happiest creature in the world then.”
“He sent the flowers, he came for me, and, on the way home, showed me how wrong I had been to doubt him for an hour. Don't ask me to share that part, but just know I was the happiest person in the world at that moment.”
And Phebe hid her face again, all wet with tender tears that fell soft and sudden as a summer shower.
And Phebe hid her face again, all wet with gentle tears that fell softly and suddenly like a summer rain.
Rose let them flow undisturbed while she silently caressed the bent head, wondering, with a wistful look in her own wet eyes, what this mysterious passion was which could so move, ennoble, and beautify the beings whom it blessed.
Rose let the tears flow freely as she softly stroked the bowed head, thinking, with a longing expression in her own tear-filled eyes, about this mysterious passion that could so deeply touch, uplift, and enhance the lives of those it affected.
An impertinent little clock upon the chimneypiece striking eleven broke the silence and reminded Phebe that she could not indulge in love dreams there. She started up, brushed off her tears, and said resolutely: “That is enough for tonight. Go happily to bed, and leave the troubles for tomorrow.”
An undeniably cheeky little clock on the mantel chimed eleven, shattering the silence and reminding Phebe that she couldn't indulge in romantic fantasies there. She jumped up, wiped away her tears, and said firmly: “That’s enough for tonight. Go to bed happily, and let’s save the worries for tomorrow.”
“But, Phebe, I must know what you said,” cried Rose, like a child defrauded of half its bedtime story.
“But, Phebe, I really need to know what you said,” cried Rose, like a child who feels cheated out of half its bedtime story.
“I said, 'No.'”
“I said, ‘No.’”
“Ah! But it will change to 'yes' by and by, I'm sure of that so I'll let you go to dream of him. The Campbells are rather proud of being descendants of Robert the Bruce, but they have common sense and love you dearly, as you'll see tomorrow.”
“Ah! But it will turn into 'yes' eventually, I’m sure of that, so I'll let you go dream about him. The Campbells are pretty proud of being descendants of Robert the Bruce, but they have common sense and care about you a lot, as you’ll see tomorrow.”
“Perhaps.” And with a good night kiss, poor Phebe went away, to lie awake till dawn.
“Maybe.” And with a good night kiss, poor Phebe left, lying awake until dawn.
Chapter 8 BREAKERS AHEAD
Anxious to smooth the way for Phebe, Rose was up betimes and slipped into Aunt Plenty's room before the old lady had gotten her cap on.
Anxious to make things easier for Phebe, Rose was up early and quietly went into Aunt Plenty's room before the old lady had put on her cap.
“Aunty, I've something pleasant to tell you, and while you listen, I'll brush your hair, as you like to have me,” she began, well aware that the proposed process was a very soothing one.
“Aunty, I have something nice to tell you, and while you listen, I'll brush your hair, just like you like,” she started, fully aware that this was a very calming process.
“Yes, dear only don't be too particular, because I'm late and must hurry down or Jane won't get things straight, and it does fidget me to have the saltcellars uneven, the tea strainer forgotten, and your uncle's paper not aired,” returned Miss Plenty, briskly unrolling the two gray curls she wore at her temples.
“Yes, dear, but please don’t be too picky because I’m running late and need to hurry or Jane won’t get everything organized. It really bothers me to have the salt shakers uneven, the tea strainer missing, and your uncle's newspaper not aired,” Miss Plenty said, quickly unrolling the two gray curls she had at her temples.
Then Rose, brushing away at the scanty back hair, led skillfully up to the crisis of her tale by describing Phebe's panic and brave efforts to conquer it; all about the flowers Archie sent her; and how Steve forgot, and dear, thoughtful Archie took his place. So far it went well and Aunt Plenty was full of interest, sympathy, and approbation, but when Rose added, as if it was quite a matter of course, “So, on the way home, he told her he loved her,” a great start twitched the gray locks out of her hands as the old lady turned around, with the little curls standing erect, exclaiming, in undisguised dismay: “Not seriously, Rose?”
Then Rose, brushing away at her thin back hair, skillfully built up to the climax of her story by describing Phebe's panic and her brave attempts to overcome it; all about the flowers Archie sent her; and how Steve forgot, so dear, thoughtful Archie took his place. So far, everything was going well, and Aunt Plenty was full of interest, sympathy, and approval, but when Rose added, as if it was just a normal thing to say, “So, on the way home, he told her he loved her,” a great shock made the gray strands jump out of her hands as the old lady turned around, with her little curls standing up straight, exclaiming, in clear distress: “Not seriously, Rose?”
“Yes, Aunty, very seriously. He never jokes about such things.”
“Yes, Aunty, seriously. He never jokes about that kind of stuff.”
“Mercy on us! What shall we do about it?”
“Have mercy! What should we do about it?”
“Nothing, ma'am, but be as glad as we ought and congratulate him as soon as she says 'yes.'?
"Nothing, ma'am, but we should be as happy as we should be and congratulate him as soon as she says 'yes.'"
“Do you mean to say she didn't accept at once?”
“Are you saying she didn’t accept right away?”
“She never will if we don't welcome her as kindly as if she belonged to one of our best families, and I don't blame her.”
“She won't feel welcomed if we don't treat her as nicely as if she were part of one of our best families, and I don’t blame her.”
“I'm glad the girl has so much sense. Of course we can't do anything of the sort, and I'm surprised at Archie's forgetting what he owes to the family in this rash manner. Give me my cap, child I must speak to Alec at once.” And Aunt Plenty twisted her hair into a button at the back of her head with one energetic twirl.
“I'm glad the girl is so sensible. We definitely can't do anything like that, and I'm surprised Archie forgot what he owes the family in such a reckless way. Give me my cap, dear; I need to talk to Alec right away.” And Aunt Plenty twisted her hair into a bun at the back of her head with one energetic turn.
“Do speak kindly, Aunty, and remember that it was not Phebe's fault. She never thought of this till very lately and began at once to prepare for going away,” said Rose pleadingly.
“Please be kind, Aunty, and remember it wasn't Phebe's fault. She only realized this recently and immediately started getting ready to leave,” Rose said earnestly.
“She ought to have gone long ago. I told Myra we should have trouble somewhere as soon as I saw what a good-looking creature she was, and here it is as bad as can be. Dear, dear! Why can't young people have a little prudence?”
“She should have left a long time ago. I told Myra we’d run into trouble as soon as I saw how attractive she was, and now look at the mess we’re in. Goodness! Why can’t young people be a bit more cautious?”
“I don't see that anyone need object if Uncle Jem and Aunt Jessie approve, and I do think it will be very, very unkind to scold poor Phebe for being well-bred, pretty, and good, after doing all we could to make her so.”
“I don’t think anyone should have a problem with Uncle Jem and Aunt Jessie giving their approval, and I really believe it would be very, very unfair to scold poor Phebe for being well-mannered, attractive, and kind after we’ve done everything we could to help her be that way.”
“Child, you don't understand these things yet, but you ought to feel your duty toward your family and do all you can to keep the name as honorable as it always has been. What do you suppose our blessed ancestress Lady Marget would say to our oldest boy taking a wife from the poorhouse?”
“Kid, you might not get this yet, but you should feel responsible for your family and do everything you can to keep our name as respected as it always has been. What do you think our dear ancestress Lady Marget would say about our oldest son marrying someone from the poorhouse?”
As she spoke, Miss Plenty looked up, almost apprehensively, at one of the wooden-faced old portraits with which her room was hung, as if asking pardon of the severe-nosed matron who stared back at her from under the sort of blue dish cover which formed her headgear.
As she spoke, Miss Plenty glanced up, a bit nervously, at one of the wooden-faced old portraits that hung in her room, as if seeking forgiveness from the stern-looking matron who stared back at her beneath the kind of blue dish cover that served as her headpiece.
“As Lady Marget died about two hundred years ago, I don't care a pin what she would say, especially as she looks like a very narrow-minded, haughty woman. But I do care very much what Miss Plenty Campbell says, for she is a very sensible, generous, discreet, and dear old lady who wouldn't hurt a fly, much less a good and faithful girl who has been a sister to me. Would she?” entreated Rose, knowing well that the elder aunt led all the rest more or less.
“As Lady Marget died about two hundred years ago, I don’t care at all what she would say, especially since she seems like a very narrow-minded, snobby woman. But I really care about what Miss Plenty Campbell thinks, because she is a sensible, generous, discreet, and dear old lady who wouldn’t hurt a fly, let alone a good and loyal girl who has been like a sister to me. Would she?” Rose pleaded, fully aware that the older aunt had influence over the others.
But Miss Plenty had her cap on now and consequently felt herself twice the woman she was without it, so she not only gave it a somewhat belligerent air by setting it well up, but she shook her head decidedly, smoothed down her stiff white apron, and stood up as if ready for battle.
But Miss Plenty had her cap on now and felt like she was twice the woman she was without it, so she not only wore it with a somewhat confrontational attitude by positioning it high, but she also shook her head firmly, smoothed down her stiff white apron, and stood up as if she was ready for a fight.
“I shall do my duty, Rose, and expect the same of others. Don't say any more now I must turn the matter over in my mind, for it has come upon me suddenly and needs serious consideration.”
“I'll do my duty, Rose, and I expect the same from others. Don’t say anything more now; I need to think this over, as it has come to me out of nowhere and requires serious thought.”
With which unusually solemn address she took up her keys and trotted away, leaving her niece to follow with an anxious countenance, uncertain whether her championship had done good or ill to the cause she had at heart.
With an unusually serious tone, she picked up her keys and walked away, leaving her niece to follow with a worried look, unsure whether her support had helped or harmed the cause she cared about.
She was much cheered by the sound of Phebe's voice in the study, for Rose was sure that if Uncle Alec was on their side all would be well. But the clouds lowered again when they came in to breakfast, for Phebe's heavy eyes and pale cheeks did not look encouraging, while Dr. Alec was as sober as a judge and sent an inquiring glance toward Rose now and then as if curious to discover how she bore the news.
She felt uplifted by the sound of Phebe's voice in the study, because Rose was confident that if Uncle Alec was on their side, everything would be okay. But her optimism faded again when they came in for breakfast, as Phebe's tired eyes and pale cheeks were not reassuring, and Dr. Alec was as serious as ever, casting occasional curious glances at Rose, seemingly eager to see how she was handling the news.
An uncomfortable meal, though all tried to seem as usual and talked over last night's events with all the interest they could. But the old peace was disturbed by a word, as a pebble thrown into a quiet pool sends telltale circles rippling its surface far and wide. Aunt Plenty, while “turning the subject over in her mind,” also seemed intent on upsetting everything she touched and made sad havoc in her tea tray; Dr. Alec unsociably read his paper; Rose, having salted instead of sugared her oatmeal, absently ate it, feeling that the sweetness had gone out of everything; and Phebe, after choking down a cup of tea and crumbling a roll, excused herself and went away, sternly resolving not to be a bone of contention to this beloved family.
It was an awkward meal, even though everyone tried to act normal and discussed the events of the previous night with as much enthusiasm as they could muster. But the usual peace was disrupted by just one word, like a pebble thrown into a calm pond that sends ripples spreading out. Aunt Plenty, while “thinking things over,” seemed to unintentionally cause chaos with everything she touched, making a mess with her tea tray; Dr. Alec ungraciously read his paper; Rose, having accidentally put salt instead of sugar on her oatmeal, ate it absentmindedly, feeling that all the sweetness had disappeared; and Phebe, after forcing down a cup of tea and crumbling a roll, excused herself and left, firmly deciding not to become a point of conflict for this cherished family.
As soon as the door was shut Rose pushed away her plate and, going to Dr. Alec, she peeped over the paper with such an anxious face that he put it down at once.
As soon as the door closed, Rose pushed her plate aside and, walking over to Dr. Alec, she leaned over the paper with such a worried look that he set it down immediately.
“Uncle, this is a serious matter, and we must take our stand at once, for you are Phebe's guardian and I am her sister,” began Rose with pretty solemnity. “You have often been disappointed in me,” she continued, “but I know I never shall be in you because you are too wise and good to let any worldly pride or prudence spoil your sympathy with Archie and our Phebe. You won't desert them, will you?”
“Uncle, this is important, and we need to make our decision right away, because you’re Phebe’s guardian and I’m her sister,” Rose began with a serious tone. “You’ve often been let down by me,” she continued, “but I know I’ll never be let down by you because you’re too wise and kind to let any worldly pride or caution get in the way of your support for Archie and our Phebe. You won’t abandon them, will you?”
“Never!” answered Dr. Alec with gratifying energy.
“Never!” Dr. Alec replied with satisfying energy.
“Thank you! Thank you!” cried Rose. “Now, if I have you and Aunty on my side, I'm not afraid of anybody.”
“Thank you! Thank you!” Rose shouted. “Now that I have you and Aunty on my side, I’m not scared of anyone.”
“Gently, gently, child. I don't intend to desert the lovers, but I certainly shall advise them to consider well what they are about. I'll own I am rather disappointed, because Archie is young to decide his life in this way and Phebe's career seemed settled in another fashion. Old people don't like to have their plans upset, you know,” he added more lightly, for Rose's face fell as he went on.
“Take it easy, kid. I’m not planning to bail on the couple, but I definitely think they should think carefully about their choices. I have to admit, I’m a bit let down because Archie is too young to make such a big decision, and Phebe’s future seemed to be heading in a different direction. Older folks really don’t like their plans being thrown off, you know,” he added more cheerfully, noticing Rose’s disappointed expression as he continued.
“Old people shouldn't plan too much for the young ones, then. We are very grateful, I'm sure, but we cannot always be disposed of in the most prudent and sensible way, so don't set your hearts on little arrangements of that sort, I beg,” And Rose looked wondrous wise, for she could not help suspecting even her best uncle of “plans” in her behalf.
“Older people shouldn't make too many plans for the younger ones, then. We're very grateful, for sure, but we can't always be handled in the most reasonable and sensible way, so please don't get too attached to those kinds of little arrangements, I ask you,” Rose said, looking quite wise, as she couldn't help but suspect even her best uncle of having “plans” for her.
“You are quite right-we shouldn't, yet it is very hard to help it,” confessed Dr. Alec with a conscious air, and, returning hastily to the lovers, he added kindly: “I was much pleased with the straightforward way in which Phebe came to me this morning and told me all about it, as if I really was her guardian. She did not own it in words, but it was perfectly evident that she loves Archie with all her heart, yet, knowing the objections which will be made, very sensibly and bravely proposes to go away at once and end the matter as if that were possible, poor child.” And the tenderhearted man gave a sigh of sympathy that did Rose good to hear and mollified her rising indignation at the bare idea of ending Phebe's love affairs in such a summary way.
“You're absolutely right—we really shouldn't, but it's really hard not to,” confessed Dr. Alec, looking a bit guilty. Then, turning quickly back to the lovers, he added kindly, “I was really impressed by how straightforward Phebe was when she came to me this morning and told me everything, as if I were truly her guardian. She didn’t say it directly, but it was clear that she loves Archie with all her heart. Yet, aware of the objections that will come up, she sensibly and bravely suggests that she should just leave right away to put an end to it, as if that could really happen, poor girl.” And the compassionate man sighed sympathetically, which reassured Rose and softened her growing anger at the thought of abruptly ending Phebe's love story.
“You don't think she ought to go, I hope?”
“You don't think she should go, do you?”
“I think she will go.”
“I think she’s going to go.”
“We must not let her.”
"We can't let her."
“We have no right to keep her.”
“We don’t have any right to keep her.”
“Oh, Uncle, surely we have! Our Phebe, whom we all love so much.”
“Oh, Uncle, of course we have! Our Phebe, whom we all love so much.”
“You forget that she is a woman now, and we have no claim on her. Because we've befriended her for years is the very reason we should not make our benefits a burden, but leave her free, and if she chooses to do this in spite of Archie, we must let her with a Godspeed.”
“You're forgetting that she's a woman now, and we have no right to her. Just because we've been friends for years is exactly why we shouldn't turn our support into a burden, but instead allow her to be free. If she chooses to do this despite Archie, we have to wish her well.”
Before Rose could answer, Aunt Plenty spoke out like one having authority, for old-fashioned ways were dear to her soul and she thought even love affairs should be conducted with a proper regard to the powers that be.
Before Rose could respond, Aunt Plenty spoke up with an air of authority, for traditional values were important to her, and she believed even romantic relationships should be handled with respect for the established norms.
“The family must talk the matter over and decide what is best for the children, who of course will listen to reason and do nothing ill advised. For my part, I am quite upset by the news, but shall not commit myself till I've seen Jessie and the boy. Jane, clear away, and bring me the hot water.”
“The family needs to discuss this and figure out what's best for the kids, who will definitely listen to reason and won't do anything reckless. As for me, I'm really bothered by the news, but I won't make any decisions until I've seen Jessie and the boy. Jane, please clear this away and bring me some hot water.”
That ended the morning conference. And, leaving the old lady to soothe her mind by polishing spoons and washing cups, Rose went away to find Phebe while the doctor retired to laugh over the downfall of brother Mac's matchmaking schemes.
That wrapped up the morning meeting. Leaving the old lady to calm herself by polishing spoons and washing cups, Rose went off to find Phebe while the doctor stepped away to chuckle over the collapse of brother Mac's matchmaking plans.
The Campbells did not gossip about their concerns in public, but being a very united family, it had long been the custom to “talk over” any interesting event which occurred to any member thereof, and everyone gave his or her opinion, advice, or censure with the utmost candor. Therefore the first engagement, if such it could be called, created a great sensation, among the aunts especially, and they were in as much of a flutter as a flock of maternal birds when their young begin to hop out of the nest. So at all hours the excellent ladies were seen excitedly nodding their caps together as they discussed the affair in all its bearings, without ever arriving at any unanimous decision.
The Campbells didn’t gossip about their concerns in public, but as a very close-knit family, it had long been their practice to openly discuss any interesting events that happened to any member. Everyone shared their opinions, advice, or criticism with complete honesty. Therefore, the first engagement, if it could even be called that, caused quite a stir, especially among the aunts, who were as flustered as a group of mother birds when their chicks start to leave the nest. At all hours, the wonderful ladies could be seen excitedly nodding their heads together as they talked about the situation from every angle, yet they never reached a unanimous conclusion.
The boys took it much more calmly. Mac was the only one who came out strongly in Archie's favor. Charlie thought the Chief ought to do better and called Phebe “a siren who had bewitched the sage youth.” Steve was scandalized and delivered long orations upon one's duty to society, keeping the old name up, and the danger of mésalliances, while all the time he secretly sympathized with Archie, being much smitten with Kitty Van himself. Will and Geordie, unfortunately home for the holidays, considered it “a jolly lark,” and little Jamie nearly drove his elder brother distracted by curious inquiries as to “how folks felt when they were in love.”
The boys handled it much more calmly. Mac was the only one who strongly supported Archie. Charlie thought the Chief should do better and called Phebe "a siren who had enchanted the wise youth." Steve was appalled and gave long speeches about one’s duty to society, maintaining the family name, and the risks of unsuitable matches, while secretly feeling for Archie, as he himself was quite taken with Kitty Van. Will and Geordie, unfortunately home for the holidays, saw it as “a fun adventure,” and little Jamie almost drove his older brother crazy with questions about “how people felt when they were in love.”
Uncle Mac's dismay was so comical that it kept Dr. Alec in good spirits, for he alone knew how deep was the deluded man's chagrin at the failure of the little plot which he fancied was prospering finely.
Uncle Mac's distress was so funny that it kept Dr. Alec in a good mood, because he alone understood how upset the confused man was about the failure of the little plan he thought was going so well.
“I'll never set my heart on anything of the sort again, and the young rascals may marry whom they like. I'm prepared for anything now—so if Steve brings home the washerwoman's daughter, and Mac runs away with our pretty chambermaid, I shall say, 'Bless you my children,' with mournful resignation, for, upon my soul, that is all that's left for a modern parent to do.”
“I’ll never get my hopes up about anything like that again, and the young troublemakers can marry whoever they want. I’m ready for anything now—so if Steve brings home the washerwoman's daughter, and Mac elopes with our pretty chambermaid, I’ll just say, 'Bless you my children,' with sad acceptance, because, honestly, that’s all a modern parent can do.”
With which tragic burst, poor Uncle Mac washed his hands of the whole affair and buried himself in the countinghouse while the storm raged.
With that tragic outburst, poor Uncle Mac completely distanced himself from the whole situation and buried himself in the office while the storm raged on.
About this time Archie might have echoed Rose's childish wish, that she had not quite so many aunts, for the tongues of those interested relatives made sad havoc with his little romance and caused him to long fervently for a desert island where he could woo and win his love in delicious peace. That nothing of the sort was possible soon became evident, since every word uttered only confirmed Phebe's resolution to go away and proved to Rose how mistaken she had been in believing that she could bring everyone to her way of thinking.
At this point, Archie might have echoed Rose's innocent wish that she didn't have so many aunts, because the chatter of those concerned relatives was ruining his little romance and making him crave a deserted island where he could pursue his love in quiet bliss. It quickly became clear that such a thing was impossible, as every word spoken only strengthened Phebe's decision to leave and showed Rose how wrong she had been to think she could change everyone’s mind.
Prejudices are unmanageable things, and the good aunts, like most women, possessed a plentiful supply, so Rose found it like beating her head against a wall to try and convince them that Archie was wise in loving poor Phebe. His mother, who had hoped to have Rose for her daughter not because of her fortune, but the tender affection she felt for her put away her disappointment without a word and welcomed Phebe as kindly as she could for her boy's sake. But the girl felt the truth with the quickness of a nature made sensitive by love and clung to her resolve all the more tenaciously, though grateful for the motherly words that would have been so sweet if genuine happiness had prompted them.
Prejudices are tough to deal with, and like most women, the good aunts had plenty of them. So, Rose found it frustrating to try and convince them that Archie was making a wise choice by loving poor Phebe. His mother, who had wanted Rose as her daughter—not because of her wealth, but because of the love she felt for her—stifled her disappointment without saying a word and welcomed Phebe as warmly as she could for her son's sake. However, the girl sensed the truth quickly, her feelings amplified by love, and held onto her resolve even more tightly, grateful for the motherly words that would have been so sweet if they had come from a place of genuine happiness.
Aunt Jane called it romantic nonsense and advised strong measures “kind, but firm, Jessie.” Aunt Clara was sadly distressed about “what people would say” if one of “our boys” married a nobody's daughter. And Aunt Myra not only seconded her views by painting portraits of Phebe's unknown relations in the darkest colors but uttered direful prophecies regarding the disreputable beings who would start up in swarms the moment the girl made a good match.
Aunt Jane called it silly romantic nonsense and urged strong actions, “kind, but firm, Jessie.” Aunt Clara was really upset about “what people would say” if one of “our boys” married a girl from a nobody family. And Aunt Myra not only agreed with her by portraying Phebe's unknown relatives in the worst light but also made dire predictions about the shady characters who would emerge in droves the moment the girl found a good match.
These suggestions so wrought upon Aunt Plenty that she turned a deaf ear to the benevolent emotions native to her breast and, taking refuge behind “our blessed ancestress, Lady Marget,” refused to sanction any engagement which could bring discredit upon the stainless name which was her pride.
These suggestions affected Aunt Plenty so much that she ignored the kind feelings in her heart and, hiding behind “our blessed ancestress, Lady Marget,” refused to approve any engagement that could tarnish the pure name she took pride in.
So it all ended where it began, for Archie steadily refused to listen to anyone but Phebe, and she as steadily reiterated her bitter “No!” fortifying herself half unconsciously with the hope that, by and by, when she had won a name, fate might be kinder.
So it all ended where it started, because Archie kept ignoring everyone except Phebe, and she consistently repeated her bitter “No!” while half unconsciously holding on to the hope that, eventually, when she had made a name for herself, fate might be kinder.
While the rest talked, she had been working, for every hour showed her that her instinct had been a true one and pride would not let her stay, though love pleaded eloquently. So, after a Christmas anything but merry, Phebe packed her trunks, rich in gifts from those who generously gave her all but the one thing she desired, and, with a pocketful of letters to people who could further her plans, she went away to seek her fortune, with a brave face and a very heavy heart.
While the others chatted, she had been working, because every hour confirmed that her instincts were right and her pride wouldn’t let her stay, even though love pleaded with her to stay. So, after a Christmas that was anything but joyful, Phebe packed her bags, filled with gifts from those who generously gave her everything except the one thing she truly wanted. With a pocketful of letters to people who could help her achieve her dreams, she set off to pursue her fortune, wearing a brave face but carrying a heavy heart.
“Write often, and let me know all you do, my Phebe, and remember I shall never be contented till you come back again,” whispered Rose, clinging to her till the last.
“Write often, and keep me updated on everything you’re doing, my Phebe, and remember I won’t be happy until you come back,” whispered Rose, holding on to her until the very end.
“She will come back, for in a year I'm going to bring her home, please God,” said Archie, pale with the pain of parting but as resolute as she.
“She’ll be back because in a year I’m bringing her home, please God,” said Archie, pale with the pain of saying goodbye but just as determined as she was.
“I'll earn my welcome then perhaps it will be easier for them to give and me to receive it,” answered Phebe, with a backward glance at the group of caps in the hall as she went down the steps on Dr. Alec's arm.
“I'll earn my welcome, and then maybe it will be easier for them to give it and for me to accept it,” Phebe replied, looking back at the group of caps in the hall as she walked down the steps with Dr. Alec.
“You earned it long ago, and it is always waiting for you while I am here. Remember that, and God bless you, my good girl,” he said, with a paternal kiss that warmed her heart.
“You earned it a long time ago, and it’s always waiting for you while I'm here. Remember that, and God bless you, my good girl,” he said, giving her a paternal kiss that warmed her heart.
“I never shall forget it!” And Phebe never did.
“I will never forget it!” And Phebe never did.
Chapter 9 NEW YEAR'S CALLS
“Now I'm going to turn over a new leaf, as I promised. I wonder what I shall find on the next page?” said Rose, coming down on New Year's morning with a serious face and a thick letter in her hand.
“Now I'm going to start fresh, just like I promised. I wonder what I’ll find on the next page?” said Rose, coming downstairs on New Year's morning with a serious expression and a thick letter in her hand.
“Tired of frivolity, my dear?” asked her uncle, pausing in his walk up and down the hall to glance at her with a quick, bright look she liked to bring into his eyes.
“Tired of the nonsense, my dear?” her uncle asked, stopping his pacing in the hall to give her a quick, bright look that she loved to see in his eyes.
“No, sir, and that's the sad part of it, but I've made up my mind to stop while I can because I'm sure it is not good for me. I've had some very sober thoughts lately, for since my Phebe went away I've had no heart for gaiety, so it is a good place to stop and make a fresh start,” answered Rose, taking his arm and walking on with him.
“No, sir, and that’s the unfortunate part, but I’ve decided to quit while I still can because I know it’s not good for me. I’ve been thinking seriously lately; ever since my Phebe left, I haven’t had any desire for fun, so it’s a good time to stop and make a fresh start,” replied Rose, taking his arm and walking on with him.
“An excellent time! Now, how are you going to fill the aching void?” he asked, well pleased.
“Great time! So, how are you going to fill the empty space?” he asked, clearly happy.
“By trying to be as unselfish, brave, and good as she is.” And Rose held the letter against her bosom with a tender touch, for Phebe's strength had inspired her with a desire to be as self-reliant. “I'm going to set about living in earnest, as she has; though I think it will be harder for me than for her, because she stands alone and has a career marked out for her. I'm nothing but a commonplace sort of girl, with no end of relations to be consulted every time I wink and a dreadful fortune hanging like a millstone round my neck to weigh me down if I try to fly. It is a hard case, Uncle, and I get low in my mind when I think about it,” sighed Rose, oppressed with her blessings.
“By trying to be as selfless, brave, and good as she is.” And Rose held the letter close to her chest with a gentle touch, because Phebe's strength had inspired her to want to be more independent. “I’m going to start living seriously, like she does; though I think it will be tougher for me than for her because she’s on her own and has a clear path ahead of her. I’m just an ordinary girl, with a ton of relatives to consult every time I make a move and a huge fortune weighing me down like a millstone if I try to break free. It’s a tough situation, Uncle, and I feel low when I think about it,” sighed Rose, feeling weighed down by her blessings.
“Afflicted child! How can I relieve you?” And there was amusement as well as sympathy in Dr. Alec's face as he patted the hand upon his arm.
“Poor child! How can I help you?” And there was both amusement and compassion on Dr. Alec's face as he patted the hand resting on his arm.
“Please don't laugh, for I really am trying to be good. In the first place, help me to wean myself from foolish pleasures and show me how to occupy my thoughts and time so that I may not idle about and dream instead of doing great things.”
“Please don't laugh, because I'm genuinely trying to be better. First of all, help me break free from pointless pleasures and show me how to fill my thoughts and time so I won’t just waste it dreaming instead of achieving great things.”
“Good! We'll begin at once. Come to town with me this morning and see your houses. They are all ready, and Mrs. Gardner has half a dozen poor souls waiting to go in as soon as you give the word,” answered the doctor promptly, glad to get his girl back again, though not surprised that she still looked with regretful eyes at the Vanity Fair, always so enticing when we are young.
“Great! Let’s get started right away. Come to town with me this morning to check out your houses. They’re all set, and Mrs. Gardner has a handful of people eager to move in as soon as you give the go-ahead,” replied the doctor quickly, happy to have his girl back, even though he wasn’t surprised to see her still looking wistfully at the Vanity Fair, which always seems so tempting when we’re young.
“I'll give it today, and make the new year a happy one to those poor souls at least. I'm so sorry that it's impossible for me to go with you, but you know I must help Aunty Plen receive. We haven't been here for so long that she had set her heart on having a grand time today, and I particularly want to please her because I have not been as amiable as I ought lately. I really couldn't forgive her for siding against Phebe.”
“I’ll take care of it today and make the new year a happy one for those poor people at least. I’m really sorry that I can’t go with you, but you know I need to help Aunty Plen get ready. We haven’t been here for so long that she was really looking forward to having a great time today, and I especially want to make her happy because I haven’t been as nice as I should have been lately. I really couldn’t forgive her for taking Phebe’s side.”
“She did what she thought was right, so we must not blame her. I am going to make my New Year's calls today and, as my friends live down that way, I'll get the list of names from Mrs. G. and tell the poor ladies, with Miss Campbell's compliments, that their new home is ready. Shall I?”
“She did what she thought was right, so we shouldn’t blame her. I’m going to make my New Year's calls today, and since my friends live that way, I’ll get the list of names from Mrs. G. and let the poor ladies know, with Miss Campbell’s compliments, that their new home is ready. Should I?”
“Yes, Uncle, but take all the credit to yourself, for I never should have thought of it if you had not proposed the plan.”
“Yeah, Uncle, but go ahead and take all the credit for yourself because I would have never thought of it if you hadn’t suggested the idea.”
“Bless your heart! I'm only your agent, and suggest now and then. I've nothing to offer but advice, so I lavish that on all occasions.”
“Bless your heart! I'm just your agent, and I suggest things from time to time. I have nothing to give you but advice, so I share that whenever I can.”
“You have nothing because you've given your substance all away as generously as you do your advice. Never mind you shall never come to want while I live. I'll save enough for us two, though I do make 'ducks and drakes of my fortune.'”
“You have nothing because you’ve given away everything you have just as freely as you share your advice. Don't worry, you'll never be in need as long as I’m alive. I’ll save enough for both of us, even if I waste my fortune.”
Dr. Alec laughed at the toss of the head with which she quoted Charlie's offensive words, then offered to take the letter, saying, as he looked at his watch: “I'll post that for you in time for the early mail. I like a run before breakfast.”
Dr. Alec laughed at the way she tossed her head while quoting Charlie's rude words, then offered to take the letter, saying, as he glanced at his watch: “I'll mail that for you in time for the early post. I enjoy a run before breakfast.”
But Rose held her letter fast, dimpling with sudden smiles, half merry and half shy.
But Rose held her letter tightly, grinning with sudden smiles, a mix of happiness and shyness.
“No thank you, sir. Archie likes to do that, and never fails to call for all I write. He gets a peep at Phebe's in return and I cheer him up a bit, for, though he says nothing, he has a hard time of it, poor fellow.”
“No thanks, sir. Archie loves to do that and always asks to see everything I write. He gets a glimpse of Phebe's work in return, and I try to encourage him a little since, even though he doesn’t say anything, he’s having a tough time, the poor guy.”
“How many letters in five days?”
“How many letters in five days?”
“Four, sir, to me. She doesn't write to him, Uncle.”
“Four, sir, for me. She doesn't write to him, Uncle.”
“As yet. Well, you show hers, so it's all right and you are a set of sentimental youngsters.” And the doctor walked away, looking as if he enjoyed the sentiment as much as any of them.
“As yet. Well, you show hers, so it's all good, and you’re a bunch of sentimental kids.” And the doctor walked away, looking like he enjoyed the sentiment just as much as any of them.
Old Miss Campbell was nearly as great a favorite as young Miss Campbell, so a succession of black coats and white gloves flowed in and out of the hospitable mansion pretty steadily all day. The clan was out in great force, and came by in installments to pay their duty to Aunt Plenty and wish the compliments of the season to “our cousin.” Archie appeared first, looking sad but steadfast, and went away with Phebe's letter in his left breast pocket feeling that life was still endurable, though his love was torn from him, for Rose had many comfortable things to say and read him delicious bits from the voluminous correspondence lately begun.
Old Miss Campbell was almost as much of a favorite as young Miss Campbell, so a steady stream of black coats and white gloves came and went from the welcoming mansion all day. The family showed up in large numbers, coming in waves to pay their respects to Aunt Plenty and exchange seasonal greetings with “our cousin.” Archie was the first to arrive, looking somber but determined, and he left with Phebe's letter tucked in his left breast pocket, feeling that life was still bearable, even though his love was gone. Rose had many comforting words to share and read him delightful snippets from the long correspondence that had just started.
Hardly was he gone when Will and Geordie came marching in, looking as fine as gray uniforms with much scarlet piping could make them and feeling peculiarly important, as this was their first essay in New Year's call-making. Brief was their stay, for they planned to visit every friend they had, and Rose could not help laughing at the droll mixture of manly dignity and boyish delight with which they drove off in their own carriage, both as erect as ramrods, arms folded, and caps stuck at exactly the same angle on each blond head.
Hardly had he left when Will and Geordie walked in, looking as sharp as gray uniforms with bright red trim could make them and feeling unusually important since it was their first attempt at making New Year's visits. Their stay was brief because they intended to visit every friend they had, and Rose couldn’t help but laugh at the funny blend of serious dignity and youthful excitement with which they set off in their own carriage, both sitting up straight as arrows, arms crossed, and caps tipped at the exact same angle on their blonde heads.
“Here comes the other couple Steve, in full feather, with a big bouquet for Kitty, and poor Mac, looking like a gentleman and feeling like a martyr, I'm sure,” said Rose, watching one carriage turn in as the other turned out of the great gate, with its arch of holly, ivy, and evergreen.
“Here comes the other couple, Steve, all dressed up, with a big bouquet for Kitty, and poor Mac, looking like a gentleman but feeling like a martyr, I’m sure,” said Rose, watching one carriage pull in as the other pulled out of the grand gate, with its arch of holly, ivy, and evergreen.
“Here he is. I've got him in tow for the day and want you to cheer him up with a word of praise, for he came without a struggle though planning to bolt somewhere with Uncle,” cried Steve, falling back to display his brother, who came in looking remarkably well in his state and festival array, for polishing had begun to tell.
“Here he is. I've got him with me for the day and want you to lift his spirits with some compliments, because he came along without a fuss, even though he was planning to run off somewhere with Uncle,” shouted Steve, stepping back to show his brother, who entered looking surprisingly good in his outfit, as the polishing was starting to show.
“A happy New Year, Aunty, same to you, Cousin, and best wishes for as many more as you deserve,” said Mac, heeding Steve no more than if he had been a fly as he gave the old lady a hearty kiss and offered Rose a quaint little nosegay of pansies.
“A happy New Year, Aunty! Same to you, Cousin, and best wishes for as many more as you deserve,” Mac said, ignoring Steve as if he were just a fly. He gave the old lady a warm kiss and offered Rose a charming little bouquet of pansies.
“Heart's-ease do you think I need it?” she asked, looking up with sudden sobriety.
“Do you think I need heart's-ease?” she asked, looking up with unexpected seriousness.
“We all do. Could I give you anything better on a day like this?”
“We all do. Is there anything better I could give you on a day like this?”
“No thank you very much.” And a sudden dew came to Rose's eyes, for, though often blunt in speech, when Mac did do a tender thing, it always touched her because he seemed to understand her moods so well.
“No thank you very much.” And suddenly, tears came to Rose's eyes because, even though he was often straightforward in what he said, whenever Mac did something kind, it always affected her because he seemed to get her feelings so well.
“Has Archie been here? He said he shouldn't go anywhere else, but I hope you talked that nonsense out of his head,” said Steve, settling his tie before the mirror.
“Has Archie been here? He said he shouldn’t go anywhere else, but I hope you talked that nonsense out of his head,” Steve said, adjusting his tie in front of the mirror.
“Yes, dear, he came but looked so out of spirits I really felt reproached. Rose cheered him up a little, but I don't believe he will feel equal to making calls and I hope he won't, for his face tells the whole story much too plainly,” answered Aunty Plenty, rustling about her bountiful table in her richest black silk with all her old lace on.
“Yes, dear, he came but looked so down that I really felt guilty. Rose tried to cheer him up a bit, but I don't think he's up for socializing, and I hope he won't, because his face clearly shows everything,” replied Aunty Plenty, bustling around her abundant table in her finest black silk with all her old lace on.
“Oh, he'll get over it in a month or two, and Phebe will soon find another lover, so don't be worried about him, Aunty,” said Steve, with the air of a man who knew all about that sort of thing.
“Oh, he'll get over it in a month or two, and Phebe will soon find another boyfriend, so don’t worry about him, Aunty,” said Steve, sounding like a guy who knew all about that kind of thing.
“If Archie does forget, I shall despise him, and I know Phebe won't try to find another lover, though she'll probably have them she is so sweet and good!” cried Rose indignantly, for, having taken the pair under her protection, she defended them valiantly.
“If Archie forgets, I’ll hate him, and I know Phebe won’t look for another boyfriend, even though she probably could because she’s so sweet and nice!” Rose cried angrily, as she defended the couple she had taken under her wing.
“Then you'd have Arch hope against hope and never give up, would you?” asked Mac, putting on his glasses to survey the thin boots which were his especial abomination.
“Then you'd have Arch hoping against hope and never giving up, would you?” asked Mac, putting on his glasses to look at the thin boots that he particularly hated.
“Yes, I would, for a lover is not worth having if he's not in earnest!”
“Yes, I would, because a lover isn't worth having if he's not serious!”
“Exactly. So you'd like them to wait and work and keep on loving till they made you relent or plainly proved that it was no use.”
“Exactly. So you want them to wait and keep working and loving until they either change your mind or just show that it’s pointless.”
“If they were good as well as constant, I think I should relent in time.”
“If they were both good and dependable, I think I would eventually give in.”
“I'll mention that to Pemberton, for he seemed to be hit the hardest, and a ray of hope will do him good, whether he is equal to the ten years' wait or not,” put in Steve, who liked to rally Rose about her lovers.
"I'll bring that up with Pemberton, since he seemed to be the most affected, and a glimmer of hope will help him, whether he can handle the ten-year wait or not," added Steve, who enjoyed teasing Rose about her boyfriends.
“I'll never forgive you if you say a word to anyone. It is only Mac's odd way of asking questions, and I ought not to answer them. You will talk about such things and I can't stop you, but I don't like it,” said Rose, much annoyed.
“I'll never forgive you if you tell anyone. It's just Mac's weird way of asking questions, and I shouldn't respond to them. You can talk about this stuff, and I can't stop you, but I really don't like it,” Rose said, clearly annoyed.
“Poor little Penelope! She shall not be teased about her suitors but left in peace till her Ulysses comes home,” said Mac, sitting down to read the mottoes sticking out of certain fanciful bonbons on the table.
“Poor little Penelope! She shouldn’t be teased about her suitors but should be left in peace until her Ulysses comes home,” said Mac, sitting down to read the sayings sticking out from some fancy candies on the table.
“It is this fuss about Archie which has demoralized us all. Even the owl waked up and hasn't got over the excitement yet, you see. He's had no experience, poor fellow, so he doesn't know how to behave,” observed Steve, regarding his bouquet with tender interest.
“It’s all this commotion about Archie that has thrown us off. Even the owl woke up and is still trying to deal with the excitement, you see. Poor thing has no experience, so he doesn’t know how to act,” Steve said, looking at his bouquet with gentle interest.
“That's true, and I asked for information because I may be in love myself someday and all this will be useful, don't you see?”
"That's true, and I asked for information because I might fall in love myself someday, and all this will be helpful, don't you see?"
“You in love!” And Steve could not restrain a laugh at the idea of the bookworm a slave to the tender passion.
“You in love!” And Steve couldn’t help but laugh at the thought of the bookworm being a slave to such a tender passion.
Quite unruffled, Mac leaned his chin in both hands, regarding them with a meditative eye as he answered in his whimsical way: “Why not? I intend to study love as well as medicine, for it is one of the most mysterious and remarkable diseases that afflict mankind, and the best way to understand it is to have it. I may catch it someday, and then I should like to know how to treat and cure it.”
Quite unfazed, Mac rested his chin on both hands, looking at them thoughtfully as he replied in his playful manner: “Why not? I plan to study love as well as medicine, since it’s one of the most mysterious and remarkable conditions that impact humanity, and the best way to understand it is to experience it. I might catch it someday, and then I’d like to know how to treat and cure it.”
“If you take it as badly as you did measles and whooping cough, it will go hard with you, old fellow,” said Steve, much amused with the fancy.
“If you handle it as poorly as you did measles and whooping cough, you’re going to have a tough time, my friend,” said Steve, finding the idea quite funny.
“I want it to. No great experience comes or goes easily, and this is the greatest we can know, I believe, except death.”
“I want it to. No significant experience comes or goes easily, and this is the greatest we can know, I believe, except for death.”
Something in Mac's quiet tone and thoughtful eyes made Rose look at him in surprise, for she had never heard him speak in that way before. Steve also stared for an instant, equally amazed, then said below his breath, with an air of mock anxiety: “He's been catching something at the hospital, typhoid probably, and is beginning to wander. I'll take him quietly away before he gets any wilder. Come, old lunatic, we must be off.”
Something in Mac's calm voice and reflective eyes made Rose look at him in surprise, as she had never heard him talk like that before. Steve also stared for a moment, just as surprised, then said under his breath, with a teasing hint of worry: “He's probably caught something at the hospital, maybe typhoid, and is starting to lose it. I'll take him away quietly before he gets any crazier. Come on, you old nut, we need to go.”
“Don't be alarmed. I'm all right and much obliged for your advice, for I fancy I shall be a desperate lover when my time comes, if it ever does. You don't think it impossible, do you?” And Mac put the question so soberly that there was a general smile.
“Don’t worry. I’m fine and really appreciate your advice, because I think I’ll be a hopeless romantic when my time comes, if it ever does. You don’t think that’s impossible, do you?” And Mac asked the question so seriously that everyone smiled.
“Certainly not you'll be a regular Douglas, tender and true,” answered Rose, wondering what queer question would come next.
“Of course you won’t be a typical Douglas, gentle and loyal,” replied Rose, curious about what strange question would come next.
“Thank you. The fact is, I've been with Archie so much in his trouble lately that I've gotten interested in this matter and very naturally want to investigate the subject as every rational man must, sooner or later, that's all. Now, Steve, I'm ready.” And Mac got up as if the lesson was over.
“Thank you. The truth is, I've spent so much time with Archie during his troubles lately that I've become interested in this issue and, of course, want to look into it like any reasonable person would, sooner or later, that's all. Now, Steve, I'm ready.” And Mac stood up as if the lesson was finished.
“My dear, that boy is either a fool or a genius, and I'm sure I should be glad to know which,” said Aunt Plenty, putting her bonbons to rights with a puzzled shake of her best cap.
“My dear, that boy is either an idiot or a genius, and I really want to know which,” said Aunt Plenty, adjusting her candies with a confused shake of her best cap.
“Time will show, but I incline to think that he is not a fool by any means,” answered the girl, pulling a cluster of white roses out of her bosom to make room for the pansies, though they did not suit the blue gown half so well.
“Time will tell, but I tend to think he’s not a fool at all,” replied the girl, pulling a bunch of white roses out of her dress to make space for the pansies, even though they didn’t match the blue dress nearly as well.
Just then Aunt Jessie came in to help them receive, with Jamie to make himself generally useful, which he proceeded to do by hovering around the table like a fly about a honey pot when not flattening his nose against the windowpanes to announce excitedly, “Here's another man coming up the drive!”
Just then, Aunt Jessie walked in to help them get ready, while Jamie made himself useful by buzzing around the table like a fly near a honey pot. When he wasn't pressing his nose against the window to excitedly announce, “Here’s another guy coming up the driveway!”
Charlie arrived next in his most sunshiny humor, for anything social and festive was his delight, and when in this mood the Prince was quite irresistible. He brought a pretty bracelet for Rose and was graciously allowed to put it on while she chid him gently for his extravagance.
Charlie showed up next in his best cheerful mood, as he loved anything social and festive, and when he was like this, the Prince was hard to resist. He brought a beautiful bracelet for Rose and was kindly permitted to put it on her wrist while she playfully scolded him for being so extravagant.
“I am only following your example, for you know 'nothing is too good for those we love, and giving away is the best thing one can do,'” he retorted, quoting words of her own.
“I’m just following your lead, because you know ‘nothing is too good for those we love, and giving is the best thing you can do,’” he replied, quoting her own words.
“I wish you would follow my example in some other things as well as you do in this,” said Rose soberly as Aunt Plenty called him to come and see if the punch was right.
“I wish you would follow my example in some other ways as well as you do in this,” said Rose seriously as Aunt Plenty called him to come and see if the punch was good.
“Must conform to the customs of society. Aunty's heart would be broken if we did not drink her health in the good old fashion. But don't be alarmed I've a strong head of my own, and that's lucky, for I shall need it before I get through,” laughed Charlie, showing a long list as he turned away to gratify the old lady with all sorts of merry and affectionate compliments as the glasses touched.
“Must stick to the traditions of society. Aunty would be heartbroken if we didn’t toast to her health in the good old way. But don’t worry, I can hold my liquor, and that’s a good thing because I’ll need it before I’m done,” laughed Charlie, displaying a long list as he turned away to please the old lady with all kinds of cheerful and affectionate compliments as the glasses clinked.
Rose did feel rather alarmed, for if he drank the health of all the owners of those names, she felt sure that Charlie would need a very strong head indeed. It was hard to say anything then and there without seeming disrespect to Aunt Plenty, yet she longed to remind her cousin of the example she tried to set him in this respect, for Rose never touched wine, and the boys knew it. She was thoughtfully turning the bracelet, with its pretty device of turquoise forget-me-nots, when the giver came back to her, still bubbling over with good spirits.
Rose felt pretty alarmed because if he toasted all the owners of those names, she was certain that Charlie would need a very strong stomach. It was tough to say anything at that moment without seeming disrespectful to Aunt Plenty, but she really wanted to remind her cousin of the example she tried to set for him. Rose never touched wine, and the boys were aware of it. As she thoughtfully turned the bracelet with its pretty design of turquoise forget-me-nots, the giver returned to her, still full of good spirits.
“Dear little saint, you look as if you'd like to smash all the punch bowls in the city, and save us jolly young fellows from tomorrow's headache.”
“Dear little saint, you look like you want to break all the punch bowls in the city and save us cheerful young guys from tomorrow's hangover.”
“I should, for such headaches sometimes end in heartaches, I'm afraid. Dear Charlie, don't be angry, but you know better than I that this is a dangerous day for such as you so do be careful for my sake,” she added, with an unwonted touch of tenderness in her voice, for, looking at the gallant figure before her, it was impossible to repress the womanly longing to keep it always as brave and blithe as now.
“I should, because headaches like this can sometimes lead to heartaches, I’m afraid. Dear Charlie, please don’t be mad, but you know better than I that today is a risky day for someone like you, so please be careful for my sake,” she added, with an unusual hint of softness in her voice, as she looked at the brave figure before her and couldn’t help the womanly desire to keep it as strong and cheerful as it was now.
Charlie saw that new softness in the eyes that never looked unkindly on him, fancied that it meant more than it did, and, with a sudden fervor in his own voice, answered quickly: “My darling, I will!”
Charlie noticed that new softness in her eyes that had always been kind to him, thought it meant more than it actually did, and, with a sudden intensity in his voice, quickly replied, “My darling, I will!”
The glow which had risen to his face was reflected in hers, for at that moment it seemed as if it would be possible to love this cousin who was so willing to be led by her and so much needed some helpful influence to make a noble man of him. The thought came and went like a flash, but gave her a quick heartthrob, as if the old affection was trembling on the verge of some warmer sentiment, and left her with a sense of responsibility never felt before. Obeying the impulse, she said, with a pretty blending of earnestness and playfulness, “If I wear the bracelet to remember you by, you must wear this to remind you of your promise.”
The glow that had appeared on his face was mirrored in hers, because at that moment, it felt like she could actually love this cousin who was so eager to be guided by her and who really needed some positive influence to become a better man. The thought flashed through her mind, making her heart race, as if the old feelings were on the brink of something deeper, leaving her with a sense of responsibility she had never felt before. Acting on her impulse, she said, with a charming mix of seriousness and playfulness, “If I wear the bracelet to remember you by, then you have to wear this to remind you of your promise.”
“And you,” whispered Charlie, bending his head to kiss the hands that put a little white rose in his buttonhole.
“And you,” whispered Charlie, leaning down to kiss the hands that placed a small white rose in his buttonhole.
Just at that most interesting moment they became aware of an arrival in the front drawing room, whither Aunt Plenty had discreetly retired. Rose felt grateful for the interruption, because, not being at all sure of the state of her heart as yet, she was afraid of letting a sudden impulse lead her too far. But Charlie, conscious that a very propitious instant had been spoiled, regarded the newcomer with anything but a benignant expression of countenance and, whispering, “Good-bye, my Rose, I shall look in this evening to see how you are after the fatigues of the day,” he went away, with such a cool nod to poor Fun See that the amiable Asiatic thought he must have mortally offended him.
Just at that intriguing moment, they noticed someone arriving in the front drawing room, where Aunt Plenty had quietly stepped away. Rose felt thankful for the interruption because, unsure about her feelings, she worried that giving in to a sudden impulse might lead her too far. But Charlie, aware that a perfect moment had been ruined, looked at the newcomer with anything but a friendly expression. Whispering, “Goodbye, my Rose, I’ll check in this evening to see how you’re doing after the day,” he left, giving a casual nod to poor Fun See, who thought he must have seriously upset him.
Rose had little leisure to analyze the new emotions of which she was conscious, for Mr. Tokio came up at once to make his compliments with a comical mingling of Chinese courtesy and American awkwardness, and before he had got his hat on Jamie shouted with admiring energy: “Here's another! Oh, such a swell!”
Rose had barely any time to process the new feelings she was experiencing, as Mr. Tokio approached her immediately to offer his compliments with a funny mix of Chinese politeness and American clumsiness. Before he even managed to put on his hat, Jamie shouted with enthusiastic admiration, “Here’s another! Oh, what a nice guy!”
They now came thick and fast for many hours, and the ladies stood bravely at their posts till late into the evening. Then Aunt Jessie went home, escorted by a very sleepy little son, and Aunt Plenty retired to bed, used up. Dr. Alec had returned in good season, for his friends were not fashionable ones, but Aunt Myra had sent up for him in hot haste and he had good-naturedly obeyed the summons. In fact, he was quite used to them now, for Mrs. Myra, having tried a variety of dangerous diseases, had finally decided upon heart complaint as the one most likely to keep her friends in a chronic state of anxiety and was continually sending word that she was dying. One gets used to palpitations as well as everything else, so the doctor felt no alarm but always went and prescribed some harmless remedy with the most amiable sobriety and patience.
They kept coming nonstop for many hours, and the ladies stood their ground bravely until late in the evening. Then Aunt Jessie went home, accompanied by her very sleepy little son, and Aunt Plenty headed to bed, worn out. Dr. Alec had returned at a good time since his friends weren’t high-maintenance, but Aunt Myra had urgently called for him, and he had willingly responded. In fact, he was quite used to this by now, as Mrs. Myra, after trying out several serious illnesses, had finally settled on a heart condition as the one most likely to keep her friends in a constant state of worry and was always sending word that she was on the brink of death. You get used to palpitations just like anything else, so the doctor felt no alarm and always went to prescribe some harmless remedy with the friendliest attitude and patience.
Rose was tired but not sleepy and wanted to think over several things, so instead of going to bed she sat down before the open fire in the study to wait for her uncle and perhaps Charlie, though she did not expect him so late.
Rose was tired but not sleepy and wanted to think about a few things, so instead of going to bed, she sat down in front of the open fire in the study to wait for her uncle and maybe Charlie, although she didn't expect him to show up so late.
Aunt Myra's palpitations must have been unusually severe, for the clock struck twelve before Dr. Alec came, and Rose was preparing to end her reverie when the sound of someone fumbling at the hall door made her jump up, saying to herself: “Poor man! His hands are so cold he can't get his latchkey in. Is that you, Uncle?” she added, running to admit him, for Jane was slow and the night as bitter as it was brilliant.
Aunt Myra's heart palpitations must have been pretty intense because the clock struck twelve before Dr. Alec arrived, and Rose was about to shake herself out of her daydream when she heard someone struggling with the hall door. She jumped up, thinking, “Poor guy! His hands are so cold he can't get his key in. Is that you, Uncle?” she said, rushing to let him in, since Jane was taking her time and the night was as cold as it was clear.
A voice answered, “Yes.” And as the door swung open, in walked, not Dr. Alec, but Charlie, who immediately took one of the hall chairs and sat there with his hat on, rubbing his gloveless hands and blinking as if the light dazzled him, as he said in a rapid, abrupt sort of tone, “I told you I'd come left the fellows keeping it up gloriously going to see the old year out, you know. But I promised never break my word and here I am. Angel in blue, did you slay your thousands?”
A voice replied, “Yes.” And as the door swung open, in walked not Dr. Alec, but Charlie, who immediately took one of the chairs in the hallway and sat down with his hat on, rubbing his bare hands and blinking as if the light was too bright for him. He said in a fast, choppy tone, “I told you I’d come. Left the guys celebrating the old year, you know. But I promised I’d never break my word, and here I am. Angel in blue, did you slay your thousands?”
“Hush! The waiters are still about. Come to the study fire and warm yourself, you must be frozen,” said Rose, going before to roll up the easy chair.
“Hush! The waiters are still around. Come by the study fire and warm up, you must be freezing,” said Rose, moving ahead to adjust the easy chair.
“Not at all never warmer looks very comfortable, though. Where's Uncle?” asked Charlie, following with his hat still on, his hands in his pockets, and his eye fixed steadily on the bright head in front of him.
“Not at all, never warmer looks really comfortable, though. Where's Uncle?” asked Charlie, following with his hat still on, his hands in his pockets, and his eyes fixed steadily on the bright head in front of him.
“Aunt Myra sent for him, and I was waiting up to see how she was,” answered Rose, busily mending the fire.
“Aunt Myra called for him, and I stayed up to check on how she was doing,” answered Rose, busy tending to the fire.
Charlie laughed and sat down upon a corner of the library table. “Poor old soul! What a pity she doesn't die before he is quite worn out. A little too much ether some of these times would send her off quite comfortably, you know.”
Charlie laughed and sat down on a corner of the library table. “Poor old soul! What a shame she doesn’t die before he’s completely worn out. A little too much ether every now and then would send her off quite comfortably, you know.”
“Don't speak in that way. Uncle says imaginary troubles are often as hard to bear as real ones,” said Rose, turning around displeased.
“Don’t talk like that. Uncle says that imaginary problems can be just as tough to handle as real ones,” Rose said, turning around with a frown.
Till now she had not fairly looked at him, for recollections of the morning made her a little shy. His attitude and appearance surprised her as much as his words, and the quick change in her face seemed to remind him of his manners. Getting up, he hastily took off his hat and stood looking at her with a curiously fixed yet absent look as he said in the same rapid, abrupt way, as if, when once started, he found it hard to stop, “I beg pardon only joking very bad taste I know, and won't do it again. The heat of the room makes me a little dizzy, and I think I got a chill coming out. It is cold I am frozen, I daresay though I drove like the devil.”
Until now, she hadn't really looked at him, since memories of the morning made her feel a bit shy. His attitude and appearance surprised her just as much as his words did, and the quick change in her expression seemed to remind him of his behavior. He stood up, quickly took off his hat, and looked at her with a strangely fixed yet distant gaze as he spoke in the same fast, abrupt manner, as if he found it hard to stop once he started, “I apologize, just joking—very bad taste, I know, and I won’t do it again. The heat in the room is making me a bit dizzy, and I think I caught a chill coming in. It’s cold—I'm freezing, I suppose, even though I drove like crazy.”
“Not that bad horse of yours, I hope? I know it is dangerous, so late and alone,” said Rose, shrinking behind the big chair as Charlie approached the fire, carefully avoiding a footstool in his way.
“Not that bad horse of yours, I hope? I know it’s dangerous, so late and alone,” said Rose, shrinking behind the big chair as Charlie walked toward the fire, carefully stepping around a footstool in his path.
“Danger is exciting that's why I like it. No man ever called me a coward let him try it once. I never give in and that horse shall not conquer me. I'll break his neck, if he breaks my spirit doing it. No I don't mean that never mind it's all right,” and Charlie laughed in a way that troubled her, because there was no mirth in it.
“Danger is thrilling, and that's why I enjoy it. No one has ever called me a coward—let them try. I never back down, and that horse won't defeat me. I'll break its neck if it breaks my spirit in the process. No, I don't mean that—never mind, it's fine,” and Charlie laughed in a way that disturbed her because there was no joy in it.
“Have you had a pleasant day?” asked Rose, looking at him intently as he stood pondering over the cigar and match which he held, as if doubtful which to strike and which to smoke.
"Did you have a good day?" Rose asked, staring at him closely while he stood there, thinking about the cigar and match in his hands, as if he couldn't decide which one to light and which one to smoke.
“Day? Oh, yes, capital. About two thousand calls, and a nice little supper at the Club. Randal can't sing any more than a crow, but I left him with a glass of champagne upside down, trying to give them my old favorite:
“Day? Oh, yeah, great. About two thousand calls, and a nice little dinner at the Club. Randal can’t sing any better than a crow, but I left him with a glass of champagne turned upside down, trying to treat them to my old favorite:
“'Tis better to laugh than be sighing,”
"'It’s better to laugh than to sigh,'"
and Charlie burst forth in that bacchanalian melody at the top of his voice, waving an allumette holder over his head to represent Randal's inverted wineglass.
and Charlie burst out in that wild song at the top of his lungs, waving a match holder over his head to represent Randal's upside-down wineglass.
“Hush! You'll wake Aunty,” cried Rose in a tone so commanding that he broke off in the middle of a roulade to stare at her with a blank look as he said apologetically, “I was merely showing how it should be done. Don't be angry, dearest look at me as you did this morning, and I'll swear never to sing another note if you say so. I'm only a little gay we drank your health handsomely, and they all congratulated me. Told 'em it wasn't out yet. Stop, though I didn't mean to mention that. No matter I'm always in a scrape, but you always forgive me in the sweetest way. Do it now, and don't be angry, little darling.” And, dropping the vase, he went toward her with a sudden excitement that made her shrink behind the chair.
“Hush! You'll wake Aunty,” Rose shouted in a tone so commanding that he stopped mid-roulade to stare at her blankly, then said apologetically, “I was just showing how it’s done. Don’t be mad, dear. Look at me like you did this morning, and I swear I won’t sing another note if you want me to. I’m just in a good mood because we toasted to your health nicely, and everyone congratulated me. I told them it wasn’t over yet. But wait, I didn’t mean to bring that up. Anyway, I’m always getting into trouble, but you always forgive me in the sweetest way. Do it now, and please don’t be angry, my little darling.” And, dropping the vase, he rushed toward her with a sudden excitement that made her shrink back behind the chair.
She was not angry, but shocked and frightened, for she knew now what the matter was and grew so pale, he saw it and asked pardon before she could utter a rebuke.
She wasn't angry, just shocked and scared, because she realized what was going on and turned so pale that he noticed and apologized before she could say anything critical.
“We'll talk of that tomorrow. It is very late. Go home now, please, before Uncle comes,” she said, trying to speak naturally yet betraying her distress by the tremor of her voice and the sad anxiety in her eyes.
“We’ll talk about that tomorrow. It’s really late. Please go home now, before Uncle arrives,” she said, trying to sound casual but revealing her worry with the trembling of her voice and the sad anxiety in her eyes.
“Yes, yes, I will go you are tired I'll make it all right tomorrow.” And as if the sound of his uncle's name steadied him for an instant, Charlie made for the door with an unevenness of gait which would have told the shameful truth if his words had not already done so. Before he reached it, however, the sound of wheels arrested him and, leaning against the wall, he listened with a look of dismay mingled with amusement creeping over his face. “Brutus has bolted now I am in a fix. Can't walk home with this horrid dizziness in my head. It's the cold, Rose, nothing else, I do assure you, and a chill yes, a chill. See here! Let one of those fellows there lend me an arm no use to go after that brute. Won't Mother be frightened though when he gets home?” And with that empty laugh again, he fumbled for the door handle.
“Yes, yes, I’ll go. You’re tired; I’ll sort everything out tomorrow.” And as if the mention of his uncle’s name steadied him for a moment, Charlie made for the door, walking unevenly, which would have revealed the embarrassing truth if his words hadn’t already done so. Before he got there, though, the sound of wheels stopped him, and leaning against the wall, he listened with a look of dismay mixed with amusement spreading across his face. “Brutus has run off; now I’m in a bind. I can’t walk home with this awful dizziness in my head. It’s just the cold, Rose, nothing else, I promise you, just a chill, yes, a chill. Look! Let one of those guys over there help me out; there's no point chasing that rogue. Won't Mom be scared when he finally gets home?” And with that nervous laugh again, he fumbled for the door handle.
“No, no don't let them see you! Don't let anyone know! Stay here till Uncle comes, and he'll take care of you. Oh, Charlie! How could you do it! How could you when you promised?” And, forgetting fear in the sudden sense of shame and anguish that came over her, Rose ran to him, caught his hand from the lock, and turned the key; then, as if she could not bear to see him standing there with that vacant smile on his lips, she dropped into a chair and covered up her face.
“No, no, don’t let them see you! Don’t let anyone find out! Stay here until Uncle comes, and he’ll take care of you. Oh, Charlie! How could you do it? How could you when you promised?” And, forgetting her fear in the rush of shame and anguish that flooded over her, Rose ran to him, grabbed his hand from the lock, and turned the key; then, unable to stand seeing him there with that empty smile on his lips, she sank into a chair and buried her face in her hands.
The cry, the act, and, more than all, the sight of the bowed head would have sobered poor Charlie if it had not been too late. He looked about the room with a vague, despairing look, as if to find reason fast slipping from his control, but heat and cold, excitement and reckless pledging of many healths had done their work too well to make instant sobriety possible, and owning his defeat with a groan, he turned away and threw himself face-downward on the sofa, one of the saddest sights the new year looked upon as it came in.
The cry, the action, and, more than anything, the sight of the bowed head would have brought poor Charlie back to reality if it hadn't been too late. He glanced around the room with a vague, hopeless expression, as if searching for a reason that was quickly slipping out of his grasp. However, the mixture of heat and cold, excitement and reckless toasting to many healths had taken its toll, making instant sobriety impossible. Accepting his defeat with a groan, he turned away and threw himself face-down on the sofa, one of the saddest sights the new year had to witness as it began.
As she sat there with hidden eyes, Rose felt that something dear to her was dead forever. The ideal, which all women cherish, look for, and too often think they have found when love glorifies a mortal man, is hard to give up, especially when it comes in the likeness of the first lover who touches a young girl's heart. Rose had just begun to feel that perhaps this cousin, despite his faults, might yet become the hero that he sometimes looked, and the thought that she might be his inspiration was growing sweet to her, although she had not entertained it until very lately. Alas, how short the tender dream had been, how rude the awakening! How impossible it would be ever again to surround that fallen figure with all the romance of an innocent fancy or gift it with the high attributes beloved by a noble nature!
As she sat there with eyes hidden, Rose felt like something precious to her was gone forever. The ideal that all women hold dear, search for, and often mistakenly believe they've found when love glorifies a mere mortal, is tough to let go of, especially when it takes the shape of the first lover who captures a young girl’s heart. Rose had just started to think that maybe this cousin, despite his flaws, could still become the hero he sometimes seemed to be, and the idea that she could be his inspiration was becoming sweet to her, even though she hadn’t considered it until recently. Unfortunately, how brief that tender dream had been, and how harsh the awakening! How impossible it would be to ever again surround that fallen figure with the romance of innocent imagination or to gift it with the noble qualities cherished by a truly good nature!
Breathing heavily in the sudden sleep that kindly brought a brief oblivion of himself, he lay with flushed cheeks, disordered hair, and at his feet the little rose that never would be fresh and fair again a pitiful contrast now to the brave, blithe young man who went so gaily out that morning to be so ignominiously overthrown at night.
Breathing heavily in the sudden sleep that kindly brought a brief escape from reality, he lay with flushed cheeks, messy hair, and at his feet the little rose that would never be fresh and beautiful again—a sad contrast now to the brave, carefree young man who had set out so happily that morning only to be so shamefully defeated at night.
Many girls would have made light of a trespass so readily forgiven by the world, but Rose had not yet learned to offer temptation with a smile and shut her eyes to the weakness that makes a man a brute. It always grieved or disgusted her to see it in others, and now it was very terrible to have it brought so near not in its worst form, by any means, but bad enough to wring her heart with shame and sorrow and fill her mind with dark forebodings for the future. So she could only sit mourning for the Charlie that might have been while watching the Charlie that was with an ache in her heart which found no relief till, putting her hands there as if to ease the pain, they touched the pansies, faded but still showing gold among the somber purple, and then two great tears dropped on them as she sighed: “Ah, me! I do need heart's-ease sooner than I thought!”
Many girls would have brushed off a mistake that was so easily forgiven by society, but Rose hadn’t yet learned to offer temptation with a smile and ignore the weakness that turns a man into a brute. It always saddened or disgusted her to see it in others, and now it was truly awful to have it brought so close, not in its worst form, but still bad enough to make her heart ache with shame and sorrow and fill her mind with dark worries about the future. So she could only sit there mourning for the Charlie that could have been while watching the Charlie that was, with a pain in her heart that didn’t ease until her hands, pressed there as if to soothe the hurt, brushed against the pansies—faded but still showing gold among the dark purple. Then two big tears fell on them as she sighed, “Ah, me! I do need heart’s ease sooner than I thought!”
Her uncle's step made her spring up and unlock the door, showing him such an altered face that he stopped short, ejaculating in dismay, “Good heavens, child! What's the matter?” adding, as she pointed to the sofa in pathetic silence, “Is he hurt? ill? dead?”
Her uncle's footsteps made her jump up and unlock the door, revealing such a changed expression on her face that he came to a halt, exclaiming in shock, “Good heavens, child! What's wrong?” adding, as she silently pointed to the sofa, “Is he hurt? sick? dead?”
“No, Uncle, he is—” She could not utter the ugly word but whispered with a sob in her throat, “Be kind to him,” and fled away to her own room, feeling as if a great disgrace had fallen on the house.
“No, Uncle, he is—” She couldn’t say the harsh word but whispered with a sob in her throat, “Please be kind to him,” and rushed to her own room, feeling as if a huge disgrace had fallen on the house.
Chapter 10 THE SAD AND SOBER PART
“How will he look? What will he say? Can anything make us forget and be happy again?” were the first questions Rose asked herself as soon as she woke from the brief sleep which followed a long, sad vigil. It seemed as if the whole world must be changed because a trouble darkened it for her. She was too young yet to know how possible it is to forgive much greater sins than this, forget far heavier disappointments, outlive higher hopes, and bury loves compared to which hers was but a girlish fancy. She wished it had not been so bright a day, wondered how her birds could sing with such shrill gaiety, put no ribbon in her hair, and said, as she looked at the reflection of her own tired face in the glass, “Poor thing! You thought the new leaf would have something pleasant on it. The story has been very sweet and easy to read so far, but the sad and sober part is coming now.”
“How will he look? What will he say? Can anything make us forget and be happy again?” were the first questions Rose asked herself as soon as she woke from the brief sleep that followed a long, sad watch. It felt like the whole world had to change because a shadow loomed over her. She was still too young to realize how possible it is to forgive much bigger mistakes than this, forget far heavier disappointments, move past greater hopes, and let go of loves that made hers seem like just a childish infatuation. She wished it hadn't been such a bright day, wondered how her birds could sing with such loud cheerfulness, didn’t put a ribbon in her hair, and said, as she looked at the reflection of her tired face in the mirror, “Poor thing! You thought the new chapter would have something nice in it. The story has been really sweet and easy to read so far, but now the sad and serious part is about to begin.”
A tap at the door reminded her that, in spite of her afflictions, breakfast must be eaten, and the sudden thought that Charlie might still be in the house made her hurry to the door, to find Dr. Alec waiting for her with his morning smile. She drew him in and whispered anxiously, as if someone lay dangerously ill nearby, “Is he better, Uncle? Tell me all about it I can bear it now.”
A knock on the door reminded her that, despite her troubles, breakfast still needed to be eaten. The sudden thought that Charlie might still be in the house made her rush to the door, where she found Dr. Alec waiting for her with his morning smile. She pulled him inside and whispered nervously, as if someone were seriously ill nearby, “Is he better, Uncle? Please tell me everything. I can handle it now.”
Some men would have smiled at her innocent distress and told her this was only what was to be expected and endured, but Dr. Alec believed in the pure instincts that make youth beautiful, desired to keep them true, and hoped his girl would never learn to look unmoved by pain and pity upon any human being vanquished by a vice, no matter how trivial it seemed, how venial it was held. So his face grew grave, though his voice was cheerful as he answered: “All right, I daresay, by this time, for sleep is the best medicine in such cases. I took him home last night, and no one knows he came but you and I.”
Some guys might have smiled at her innocent distress and told her this was just something she had to expect and get through, but Dr. Alec believed in the pure instincts that make youth beautiful. He wanted to keep those instincts intact and hoped his girl would never learn to look indifferent towards pain and pity for anyone beaten by a vice, no matter how minor it seemed, or how forgivable it was considered. So, his expression became serious, even though his voice was upbeat as he replied: “All right, I’m sure he’s fine by now, since sleep is the best remedy in these situations. I took him home last night, and no one knows he came but you and me.”
“No one ever shall. How did you do it, Uncle?”
“No one ever will. How did you do it, Uncle?”
“Just slipped out of the long study window and got him cannily off, for the air and motion, after a dash of cold water, brought him around, and he was glad to be safely landed at home. His rooms are below, you know, so no one was disturbed, and I left him sleeping nicely.”
“Just slipped out of the long study window and got him cleverly away, because the fresh air and movement, after a splash of cold water, revived him, and he was happy to be safely back home. His rooms are downstairs, so no one was disturbed, and I left him sleeping soundly.”
“Thank you so much,” sighed Rose. “And Brutus? Weren't they frightened when he got back alone?”
“Thank you so much,” sighed Rose. “And Brutus? Weren't they scared when he came back alone?”
“Not at all. The sagacious beast went quietly to the stable, and the sleepy groom asked no questions, for Charlie often sends the horse round by himself when it is late or stormy. Rest easy, dear no eye but ours saw the poor lad come and go, and we'll forgive it for love's sake.”
“Not at all. The wise animal quietly went to the stable, and the sleepy groom asked no questions, because Charlie often sends the horse around by itself when it's late or stormy. Rest easy, dear, no one but us saw the poor boy come and go, and we’ll forgive it for love’s sake.”
“Yes, but not forget it. I never can, and he will never be again to me the Charlie I've been so proud and fond of all these years. Oh, Uncle, such a pity! Such a pity!”
“Yes, but I can’t forget it. I never will, and he will never be the Charlie I’ve been so proud of and fond of all these years. Oh, Uncle, what a shame! What a shame!”
“Don't break your tender heart about it, child, for it is not incurable, thank God! I don't make light of it, but I am sure that under better influences Charlie will redeem himself because his impulses are good and this his only vice. I can hardly blame him for what he is, because his mother did the harm. I declare to you, Rose, I sometimes feel as if I must break out against that woman and thunder in her ears that she is ruining the immortal soul for which she is responsible to heaven!”
“Don’t worry too much about it, dear, because it can be fixed, thank God! I’m not making light of it, but I believe that in a better situation, Charlie will turn things around because he has good intentions, and this is his only flaw. I can’t really blame him for who he is, as his mother caused the damage. I swear to you, Rose, sometimes I feel like I have to confront that woman and shout in her ears that she’s ruining the precious soul she’s responsible for before God!”
Dr. Alec seldom spoke in this way, and when he did it was rather awful, for his indignation was of the righteous sort and such thunder often rouses up a drowsy soul when sunshine has no effect. Rose liked it, and sincerely wished Aunt Clara had been there to get the benefit of the outbreak, for she needed just such an awakening from the self-indulgent dream in which she lived.
Dr. Alec rarely talked like this, and when he did, it was pretty intense, because his anger was justifiable and that kind of fire can wake up a sleepy person when sunshine doesn’t do the trick. Rose appreciated it and genuinely wished Aunt Clara had been there to experience this moment, as she really needed a wake-up call from the self-indulgent dream she was stuck in.
“Do it, and save Charlie before it is too late!” she cried, kindling herself as she watched him, for he looked like a roused lion as he walked about the room with his hand clenched and a spark in his eye, evidently in desperate earnest and ready to do almost anything.
“Do it, and save Charlie before it’s too late!” she shouted, energizing herself as she watched him, because he looked like an awakened lion as he paced the room with his hand clenched and a spark in his eye, clearly serious and ready to do almost anything.
“Will you help?” he asked, stopping suddenly with a look that made her stand up straight and strong as she answered with an eager voice: “I will.”
“Will you help?” he asked, stopping suddenly with a look that made her stand tall and strong as she responded eagerly, “I will.”
“Then don't love him yet.”
“Then don't love him now.”
That startled her, but she asked steadily, though her heart began to beat and her color to come: “Why not?”
That surprised her, but she asked calmly, even though her heart started to race and her face flushed: “Why not?”
“Firstly, because no woman should give her happiness into the keeping of a man without fixed principles; secondly, because the hope of being worthy of you will help him more than any prayers or preaching of mine. Thirdly, because it will need all our wit and patience to undo the work of nearly four and twenty years. You understand what I mean?”
“Firstly, because no woman should trust her happiness to a man without strong values; secondly, because the hope of being worthy of you will motivate him more than any prayers or lectures I could offer. Thirdly, because it will take all our intelligence and patience to fix the damage done over nearly twenty-four years. Do you understand what I mean?”
“Yes, sir.”
"Sure thing."
“Can you say 'no' when he asks you to say 'yes' and wait a little for your happiness?”
“Can you say 'no' when he asks you to say 'yes' and wait a bit for your happiness?”
“I can.”
"I got this."
“And will you?”
“And will you?”
“I will.”
"Sure thing."
“Then I'm satisfied, and a great weight taken off my heart. I can't help seeing what goes on, or trembling when I think of you setting sail with no better pilot than poor Charlie. Now you answer as I hoped you would, and I am proud of my girl!”
“Then I’m happy, and a huge weight is lifted off my heart. I can’t help but notice what happens, or feel anxious when I think of you leaving with no better captain than poor Charlie. Now you respond just as I hoped you would, and I’m proud of my girl!”
They had been standing with the width of the room between them, Dr. Alec looking very much like a commander issuing orders, Rose like a well-drilled private obediently receiving them, and both wore the air of soldiers getting ready for a battle, with the bracing of nerves and quickening of the blood brave souls feel as they put on their armor. At the last words he went to her, brushed back the hair, and kissed her on the forehead with a tender sort of gravity and a look that made her feel as if he had endowed her with the Victoria Cross for courage on the field.
They were standing across the room from each other, Dr. Alec looking like a commander giving orders, and Rose like a well-trained soldier following them, both giving off the vibe of fighters preparing for a battle, with the tension of nerves and excitement that brave people experience as they put on their armor. After he finished speaking, he walked over to her, brushed back her hair, and kissed her gently on the forehead with a serious tenderness, a look that made her feel as if he had just awarded her the Victoria Cross for courage in combat.
No more was said then, for Aunt Plenty called them down and the day's duties began. But that brief talk showed Rose what to do and fitted her to do it, for it set her to thinking of the duty one owes one's self in loving as in all the other great passions or experiences which make or mar a life.
No more was said then, because Aunt Plenty called them down and the day's tasks began. But that short conversation helped Rose figure out what to do and prepared her for it, as it made her think about the responsibility one has to oneself in love, just like in all the other significant passions or experiences that can shape or ruin a life.
She had plenty of time for quiet meditation that day because everyone was resting after yesterday's festivity, and she sat in her little room planning out a new year so full of good works, grand successes, and beautiful romances that if it could have been realized, the Millennium would have begun. It was a great comfort to her, however, and lightened the long hours haunted by a secret desire to know when Charlie would come and a secret fear of the first meeting. She was sure he would be bowed down with humiliation and repentance, and a struggle took place in her mind between the pity she could not help feeling and the disapprobation she ought to show. She decided to be gentle, but very frank; to reprove, but also to console; and to try to improve the softened moment by inspiring the culprit with a wish for all the virtues which make a perfect man.
She had plenty of time for quiet meditation that day because everyone was resting after yesterday's celebration, and she sat in her little room planning a new year filled with good deeds, great achievements, and beautiful relationships that, if it could have happened, would have ushered in the Millennium. It brought her great comfort, lightening the long hours that were haunted by a secret desire to know when Charlie would arrive and a secret fear of their first meeting. She was sure he would be weighed down with shame and regret, and a struggle took place in her mind between the pity she couldn’t help but feel and the disapproval she thought she should express. She decided she would be gentle but very honest; to reprimand but also to comfort; and to try to enhance the softened moment by inspiring the wrongdoer with a desire for all the qualities that make a perfect man.
The fond delusion grew quite absorbing, and her mind was full of it as she sat watching the sun set from her western window and admiring with dreamy eyes the fine effect of the distant hills clear and dark against a daffodil sky when the bang of a door made her sit suddenly erect in her low chair and say with a catch in her breath: “He's coming! I must remember what I promised Uncle and be very firm.”
The comforting illusion became increasingly consuming, filling her thoughts as she sat watching the sun set from her west-facing window, gazing dreamily at the beautiful sight of the distant hills, clear and dark against a daffodil sky. Suddenly, the bang of a door made her sit up straight in her low chair and, with a catch in her breath, she said, “He's coming! I must remember what I promised Uncle and be very strong.”
Usually Charlie announced his approach with music of some sort. Now he neither whistled, hummed, nor sang, but came so quietly Rose was sure that he dreaded this meeting as much as she did and, compassionating his natural confusion, did not look around as the steps drew near. She thought perhaps he would go down upon his knees, as he used to after a boyish offense, but hoped not, for too much humility distressed her, so she waited for the first demonstration anxiously.
Usually, Charlie announced his arrival with some kind of music. Now, he neither whistled, hummed, nor sang, but approached so quietly that Rose was sure he dreaded this meeting just as much as she did. Feeling compassion for his natural confusion, she didn’t look around as his steps got closer. She thought he might kneel down as he used to after a youthful mistake, but she hoped not, as too much humility made her uncomfortable, so she anxiously awaited the first gesture.
It was rather a shock when it came, however, for a great nosegay dropped into her lap and a voice, bold and gay as usual, said lightly: “Here she is, as pretty and pensive as you please. Is the world hollow, our doll stuffed with sawdust, and do we want to go into a nunnery today, Cousin?”
It was quite a surprise when it happened, though, because a big bouquet landed in her lap and a voice, cheerful and lively as always, said playfully: “Here she is, as lovely and thoughtful as ever. Is the world empty, our doll just filled with sawdust, and do we feel like going to a convent today, Cousin?”
Rose was so taken aback by this unexpected coolness that the flowers lay unnoticed as she looked up with a face so full of surprise, reproach, and something like shame that it was impossible to mistake its meaning. Charlie did not, and had the grace to redden deeply, and his eyes fell as he said quickly, though in the same light tone: “I humbly apologize for coming so late last night. Don't be hard upon me, Cousin. You know America expects every man to do his duty on New Year's Day.”
Rose was so shocked by this unexpected chill that the flowers went unnoticed as she looked up with a face full of surprise, annoyance, and something like shame that made her feelings clear. Charlie didn’t miss it and had the decency to flush deeply; his gaze dropped as he quickly said, though still in a light tone, “I’m really sorry for coming so late last night. Don’t be too harsh on me, Cousin. You know America expects every man to do his duty on New Year’s Day.”
“I am tired of forgiving! You make and break promises as easily as you did years ago, and I shall never ask you for another,” answered Rose, putting the bouquet away, for the apology did not satisfy her and she would not be bribed to silence.
“I’m done with forgiving! You make and break promises just like you did years ago, and I’m never going to ask you for another,” Rose replied, putting the bouquet away, because the apology didn’t satisfy her and she wouldn’t be bribed into silence.
“But, my dear girl, you are so very exacting, so peculiar in your notions, and so angry about trifles that a poor fellow can't please you, try as he will,” began Charlie, ill at ease, but too proud to show half the penitence he felt, not so much for the fault as for her discovery of it.
“But, my dear girl, you're so demanding, so strange in your ideas, and so upset over little things that a poor guy can't make you happy, no matter how hard he tries,” Charlie started, feeling uncomfortable but too proud to show even half the regret he felt, not really for the mistake but for her realizing it.
“I am not angry I am grieved and disappointed, for I expect every man to do his duty in another way and keep his word to the uttermost, as I try to do. If that is exacting, I'm sorry, and won't trouble you with my old-fashioned notions anymore.”
“I’m not angry; I’m just hurt and disappointed because I expect everyone to do their duty in a different way and keep their promises completely, just like I try to do. If that’s too demanding, I’m sorry, and I won’t bother you with my old-fashioned ideas anymore.”
“Bless my soul! What a rout about nothing! I own that I forgot I know I acted like a fool and I beg pardon. What more can I do?”
“Wow! What a fuss over nothing! I admit I forgot, I know I acted foolishly, and I apologize. What else can I do?”
“Act like a man, and never let me be so terribly ashamed of you again as I was last night.” And Rose gave a little shiver as she thought of it.
“Be a man, and don’t ever make me feel so embarrassed by you again like you did last night.” And Rose shivered a little as she remembered it.
That involuntary act hurt Charlie more than her words, and it was his turn now to feel “terribly ashamed,” for the events of the previous evening were very hazy in his mind and fear magnified them greatly. Turning sharply away, he went and stood by the fire, quite at a loss how to make his peace this time, because Rose was so unlike herself. Usually a word of excuse sufficed, and she seemed glad to pardon and forget; now, though very quiet, there was something almost stern about her that surprised and daunted him, for how could he know that all the while her pitiful heart was pleading for him and the very effort to control it made her a little hard and cold?
That involuntary action hurt Charlie more than her words did, and now it was his turn to feel “terribly ashamed,” since the events of the previous evening were pretty fuzzy in his mind, and fear made them seem even worse. He turned away abruptly and stood by the fire, completely unsure how to make amends this time because Rose was acting so unlike herself. Usually, a simple apology would be enough, and she seemed happy to forgive and move on; but now, even though she was very quiet, there was something almost stern about her that surprised and intimidated him. How could he know that all the while, her tender heart was pleading for him, and the effort to keep it in check was making her a little hard and cold?
As he stood there, restlessly fingering the ornaments upon the chimneypiece, his eye brightened suddenly and, taking up the pretty bracelet lying there, he went slowly back to her, saying in a tone that was humble and serious enough now: “I will act like a man, and you shall never be ashamed again. Only be kind to me. Let me put this on, and promise afresh this time I swear I'll keep it. Won't you trust me, Rose?”
As he stood there, nervously playing with the decorations on the mantel, his eyes suddenly lit up. He picked up the pretty bracelet lying there and slowly walked back to her, saying in a tone that was humble and serious enough now, “I’ll be a man about this, and you won’t have to be ashamed anymore. Just be kind to me. Let me put this on you, and promise me again this time that I swear I’ll keep it. Will you trust me, Rose?”
It was very hard to resist the pleading voice and eyes, for this humility was dangerous; and, but for Uncle Alec, Rose would have answered “yes.” The blue forget-me-nots reminded her of her own promise, and she kept it with difficulty now, to be glad always afterward. Putting back the offered trinket with a gentle touch, she said firmly, though she dared not look up into the anxious face bending toward her: “No, Charlie I can't wear it. My hands must be free if I'm to help you as I ought. I will be kind, I will trust you, but don't swear anything, only try to resist temptation, and we'll all stand by you.”
It was really hard to ignore the pleading voice and eyes, because this kind of humility was risky; and if it weren't for Uncle Alec, Rose would have said “yes.” The blue forget-me-nots reminded her of her own promise, and now it was difficult to keep it, to be glad afterward. Gently putting the offered trinket back, she said firmly, though she couldn’t bear to look up at the worried face leaning toward her: “No, Charlie, I can't wear it. I need my hands to be free if I'm going to help you the way I should. I will be kind, I will trust you, but don't make any promises, just try to resist temptation, and we’ll all support you.”
Charlie did not like that and lost the ground he had gained by saying impetuously: “I don't want anyone but you to stand by me, and I must be sure you won't desert me, else, while I'm mortifying soul and body to please you, some stranger will come and steal your heart away from me. I couldn't bear that, so I give you fair warning, in such a case I'll break the bargain, and go straight to the devil.”
Charlie didn't like that and lost the ground he had gained by impulsively saying, “I don't want anyone but you to stand by me, and I need to be sure you won't leave me. Otherwise, while I'm putting myself through all this just to please you, some stranger might come and win your heart away from me. I couldn't handle that, so I'm giving you a fair warning: if that happens, I'll break our deal and go straight to hell.”
The last sentence spoiled it all, for it was both masterful and defiant. Rose had the Campbell spirit in her, though it seldom showed; as yet she valued her liberty more than any love offered her, and she resented the authority he assumed too soon resented it all the more warmly because of the effort she was making to reinstate her hero, who would insist on being a very faulty and ungrateful man. She rose straight out of her chair, saying with a look and tone which rather startled her hearer and convinced him that she was no longer a tenderhearted child but a woman with a will of her own and a spirit as proud and fiery as any of her race: “My heart is my own, to dispose of as I please. Don't shut yourself out of it by presuming too much, for you have no claim on me but that of cousinship, and you never will have unless you earn it. Remember that, and neither threaten nor defy me anymore.”
The last sentence ruined everything, as it was both impressive and rebellious. Rose had the Campbell spirit inside her, even if it didn't show often; for now, she valued her freedom more than any love anyone offered her, and she resented the authority he claimed too soon—resented it all the more because of her effort to restore her hero, who insisted on being a deeply flawed and ungrateful man. She stood up abruptly, saying with a look and tone that surprised him and made it clear she was no longer a softhearted child but a woman with her own will and a spirit as proud and fiery as anyone in her family: “My heart is mine to give as I choose. Don’t push yourself away by overstepping, because you have no claim on me besides being cousins, and you won’t have any unless you earn it. Keep that in mind, and don’t threaten or challenge me again.”
For a minute it was doubtful whether Charlie would answer this flash with another, and a general explosion ensue, or wisely quench the flame with the mild answer which turneth away wrath. He chose the latter course and made it very effective by throwing himself down before his offended goddess, as he had often done in jest. This time it was not acting, but serious, earnest, and there was real passion in his voice as he caught Rose's dress in both hands, saying eagerly: “No, no! Don't shut your heart against me or I shall turn desperate. I'm not half good enough for such a saint as you, but you can do what you will with me. I only need a motive to make a man of me, and where can I find a stronger one than in trying to keep your love?”
For a moment, it was unclear whether Charlie would respond to this challenge with another one, leading to a big argument, or wisely calm things down with a gentle response that defuses anger. He chose the latter approach and made it very effective by throwing himself down before his upset goddess, just as he had often done playfully. This time it was genuine, serious, and there was real emotion in his voice as he grabbed Rose's dress with both hands, saying eagerly: “No, no! Don’t shut your heart to me, or I’ll become desperate. I’m not nearly good enough for someone as saintly as you, but you can do whatever you want with me. I just need a reason to become a better man, and what better motivation could I have than to try to win your love?”
“It is not yours yet,” began Rose, much moved, though all the while she felt as if she were on a stage and had a part to play, for Charlie had made life so like a melodrama that it was hard for him to be quite simple even when most sincere.
“It’s not yours yet,” Rose began, feeling very emotional, though all the while she felt like she was on a stage and had a role to play, since Charlie had made life feel so much like a melodrama that it was hard for him to be completely straightforward even when he was being most sincere.
“Let me earn it, then. Show me how, and I'll do anything, for you are my good angel, Rose, and if you cast me off, I feel as if I shouldn't care how soon there was an end of me,” cried Charlie, getting tragic in his earnestness and putting both arms around her, as if his only safety lay in clinging to this beloved fellow creature.
“Let me earn it, then. Show me how, and I'll do anything, because you are my good angel, Rose, and if you turn your back on me, I feel like I wouldn’t care how soon it all ends for me,” cried Charlie, getting dramatic in his sincerity and wrapping both arms around her, as if his only safety depended on holding on to this cherished person.
Behind footlights it would have been irresistible, but somehow it did not touch the one spectator, though she had neither time nor skill to discover why. For all their ardor the words did not ring quite true. Despite the grace of the attitude, she would have liked him better manfully erect upon his feet, and though the gesture was full of tenderness, a subtle instinct made her shrink away as she said with a composure that surprised herself even more than it did him: “Please don't. No, I will promise nothing yet, for I must respect the man I love.”
Behind the stage lights, it would have been hard to resist, but somehow it didn’t affect the one audience member, even though she didn’t have the time or talent to figure out why. Despite their passion, the words didn’t feel entirely genuine. Even with the charm of his pose, she would have preferred him standing tall on his feet, and although the gesture was full of affection, a subtle instinct made her pull back as she said, with a calmness that surprised her even more than it surprised him: “Please don’t. No, I won’t promise anything yet, because I need to honor the man I love.”
That brought Charlie to his feet, pale with something deeper than anger, for the recoil told him more plainly than the words how much he had fallen in her regard since yesterday. The memory of the happy moment when she gave the rose with that new softness in her eyes, the shy color, the sweet “for my sake” came back with sudden vividness, contrasting sharply with the now averted face, the hand outstretched to put him back, the shrinking figure, and in that instant's silence, poor Charlie realized what he had lost, for a girl's first thought of love is as delicate a thing as the rosy morning glory, which a breath of air can shatter. Only a hint of evil, only an hour's debasement for him, a moment's glimpse for her of the coarser pleasures men know, and the innocent heart, just opening to bless and to be blessed, closed again like a sensitive plant and shut him out perhaps forever.
That made Charlie stand up, pale with something deeper than anger, because the recoil showed him more clearly than words how much he had fallen in her eyes since yesterday. The memory of the happy moment when she gave him the rose, with that new softness in her gaze, the shy blush, the sweet “for my sake” returned with sudden clarity, contrasting sharply with her now turned-away face, the hand reaching out to push him back, the shrinking figure. In that moment of silence, poor Charlie realized what he had lost, because a girl's first thought of love is as delicate as a rosy morning glory, which can be shattered by a single breath of air. Just a hint of wrongdoing, just an hour of debasement for him, a momentary glimpse for her of the coarser pleasures men know, and the innocent heart, just beginning to open to bless and be blessed, closed again like a sensitive plant, possibly shutting him out forever.
The consciousness of this turned him pale with fear, for his love was deeper than she knew, and he proved this when he said in a tone so full of mingled pain and patience that it touched her to the heart: “You shall respect me if I can make you, and when I've earned it, may I hope for something more?”
The awareness of this made him turn pale with fear, for his love was deeper than she realized, and he showed this when he said in a tone filled with both pain and patience that moved her deeply: “You will respect me if I can make you, and when I’ve earned it, can I hope for something more?”
She looked up then, saw in his face the noble shame, the humble sort of courage that shows repentance to be genuine and gives promise of success, and, with a hopeful smile that was a cordial to him, answered heartily: “You may.”
She looked up then, saw the noble shame in his face, the humble kind of courage that shows real repentance and gives hope for success, and, with a warm smile that reassured him, replied enthusiastically: “You can.”
“Bless you for that! I'll make no promises, I'll ask for none only trust me, Rose, and while you treat me like a cousin, remember that no matter how many lovers you may have you'll never be to any of them as dear as you are to me.”
“Thank you for that! I won't make any promises, and I won't ask for any; just trust me, Rose. And while you treat me like family, remember that no matter how many lovers you might have, you'll never mean as much to any of them as you do to me.”
A traitorous break in his voice warned Charlie to stop there, and with no other good-bye, he very wisely went away, leaving Rose to put the neglected flowers into water with remorseful care and lay away the bracelet, saying to herself: “I'll never wear it till I feel as I did before. Then he shall put it on and I'll say 'yes.'”
A shaky break in his voice told Charlie to stop right there, and without any other good-bye, he wisely left, leaving Rose to carefully put the neglected flowers in water with a heavy heart and put away the bracelet, telling herself, “I won’t wear it until I feel the way I did before. Then he can put it on me and I’ll say ‘yes.’”
Chapter 11 SMALL TEMPTATIONS
“Oh, Rose, I've got something so exciting to tell you!” cried Kitty Van Tassel, skipping into the carriage next morning when her friend called for her to go shopping.
“Oh, Rose, I've got something super exciting to tell you!” shouted Kitty Van Tassel, skipping into the carriage the next morning when her friend came to pick her up for shopping.
Kitty always did have some “perfectly thrilling” communication to make and Rose had learned to take them quietly, but the next demonstration was a new one, for, regardless alike of curious observers outside and disordered hats within, Kitty caught Rose around the neck, exclaiming in a rapturous whisper: “My dearest creature, I'm engaged!”
Kitty always had some "perfectly thrilling" news to share, and Rose had learned to take it calmly, but the next announcement was a fresh surprise. No matter the curious onlookers outside or the messy hats inside, Kitty wrapped her arms around Rose’s neck and exclaimed in an excited whisper, “My dearest creature, I’m engaged!”
“I'm so glad! Of course it is Steve?”
“I'm so glad! Of course it is Steve?”
“Dear fellow, he did it last night in the nicest way, and Mama is so delighted. Now what shall I be married in?” And Kitty composed herself with a face full of the deepest anxiety.
“Dear friend, he proposed last night in the most charming way, and Mom is so happy. Now what should I wear for the wedding?” And Kitty gathered herself, her face showing the utmost concern.
“How can you talk of that so soon? Why, Kit, you unromantic girl, you ought to be thinking of your lover and not your clothes,” said Rose, amused yet rather scandalized at such want of sentiment.
“How can you bring that up so soon? Come on, Kit, you unromantic girl, you should be thinking about your lover, not your clothes,” said Rose, amused but also a bit shocked by such a lack of sentiment.
“I am thinking of my lover, for he says he will not have a long engagement, so I must begin to think about the most important things at once, mustn't I?”
“I’m thinking about my partner, because he says he doesn’t want a long engagement, so I need to start considering the most important things right away, don’t I?”
“Ah, he wants to be sure of you, for you are such a slippery creature he is afraid you'll treat him as you did poor Jackson and the rest,” interrupted Rose, shaking her finger at her prospective cousin, who had tried this pastime twice before and was rather proud than otherwise of her brief engagements.
“Ah, he wants to be sure of you because you’re such a slippery character. He’s afraid you’ll treat him like you did poor Jackson and the others,” Rose interrupted, shaking her finger at her future cousin, who had tried this game twice before and was more proud than embarrassed about her short-lived relationships.
“You needn't scold, for I know I'm right, and when you've been in society as long as I have you'll find that the only way to really know a man is to be engaged to him. While they want you they are all devotion, but when they think they've got you, then you find out what wretches they are,” answered Kitty with an air of worldly wisdom which contrasted oddly with her youthful face and giddy manners.
“You don’t need to lecture me, because I know I’m right, and when you’ve been around people as long as I have, you’ll see that the only way to truly know a guy is to be engaged to him. While they’re chasing you, they’re all about devotion, but once they think they have you, that’s when you discover what terrible people they really are,” Kitty replied, exuding an air of worldly wisdom that felt oddly out of place with her youthful appearance and carefree behavior.
“A sad prospect for poor Steve, unless I give him a hint to look well to his ways.”
“A bleak outlook for poor Steve, unless I give him a nudge to be careful with his actions.”
“Oh, my dear child, I'm sure of him, for my experience has made me very sharp and I'm convinced I can manage him without a bit of trouble. We've known each other for ages” Steve was twenty and Kitty eighteen “and always been the best of friends. Besides, he is quite my ideal man. I never could bear big hands and feet, and his are simply adorable. Then he's the best dancer I know and dresses in perfect taste. I really do believe I fell in love with his pocket handkerchiefs first, they were so enchanting I couldn't resist,” laughed Kitty, pulling a large one out of her pocket and burying her little nose in the folds, which shed a delicious fragrance upon the air.
“Oh, my dear child, I'm so sure about him. My experience has made me really sharp, and I’m convinced I can handle him without any trouble at all. We've known each other for ages.” Steve was twenty and Kitty eighteen “and we’ve always been the best of friends. Plus, he’s completely my ideal guy. I’ve never liked big hands and feet, and his are just adorable. He’s also the best dancer I know and has such great taste in clothes. Honestly, I think I fell for his pocket handkerchiefs first; they were so charming I couldn't help myself,” laughed Kitty, pulling a large one out of her pocket and burying her little nose in the folds, which released a lovely fragrance into the air.
“Now, that looks promising, and I begin to think you have got a little sentiment after all,” said Rose, well pleased, for the merry brown eyes had softened suddenly and a quick color came up in Kitty's cheek as she answered, still half hiding her face in the beloved handkerchief: “Of course I have, lots of it, only I'm ashamed to show it to most people, because it's the style to take everything in the most nonchalant way. My gracious, Rose, you'd have thought me a romantic goose last night while Steve proposed in the back parlor, for I actually cried, he was so dreadfully in earnest when I pretended that I didn't care for him, and so very dear and nice when I told the truth. I didn't know he had it in him, but he came out delightfully and never cared a particle, though I dropped tears all over his lovely shirtfront. Wasn't that good of him? For you know he hates his things to be mussed.”
“Now, that looks promising, and I’m starting to think you have a little sentiment after all,” said Rose, pleased, as Kitty's merry brown eyes suddenly softened and a quick flush appeared on her cheeks. She responded, still half hiding her face in the cherished handkerchief: “Of course I do, a lot of it. I’m just embarrassed to show it to most people because it’s trendy to act completely indifferent. My goodness, Rose, you would have thought I was a romantic fool last night while Steve proposed in the back parlor. I actually cried; he was so serious when I pretended I didn’t care about him, and he was so sweet and nice when I told the truth. I didn’t know he had it in him, but he was so charming and didn’t mind at all, even though I cried all over his nice shirtfront. Wasn’t that nice of him? Because you know he hates it when his things get messed up.”
“He's a true Campbell, and has got a good warm heart of his own under those fine fronts of his. Aunt Jane doesn't believe in sentiment, so he has been trained never to show any, but it is there, and you must encourage him to let it out, not foolishly, but in a way to make him more manly and serious.”
"He's a real Campbell and has a good, warm heart under that polished exterior. Aunt Jane doesn't believe in sentiment, so he's been taught never to show it, but it’s there, and you need to encourage him to express it—not in a silly way, but in a way that makes him more manly and serious."
“I will if I can, for though I wouldn't own this to everybody, I like it in him very much and feel as if Steve and I should get on beautifully. Here we are now, be sure not to breathe a word if we meet anyone. I want it to be a profound secret for a week at least,” added Kitty, whisking her handkerchief out of sight as the carriage stopped before the fashionable store they were about to visit.
“I will if I can, because even though I wouldn't admit this to everyone, I really like it in him and feel like Steve and I would hit it off wonderfully. Here we are now; make sure not to say anything if we run into anyone. I want it to be a deep secret for at least a week,” Kitty added, quickly hiding her handkerchief as the carriage pulled up in front of the trendy store they were about to visit.
Rose promised with a smile, for Kitty's face betrayed her without words, so full was it of the happiness which few eyes fail to understand whenever they see it.
Rose promised with a smile, for Kitty's face revealed everything without words, so full of happiness that few eyes fail to recognize whenever they see it.
“Just a glance at the silks. You ask my opinion about white ones, and I'll look at the colors. Mama says satin, but that is out now, and I've set my heart on the heaviest corded thing I can find,” whispered Kitty as they went rustling by the long counters strewn with all that could delight the feminine eye and tempt the feminine pocket.
“Just take a look at the silks. You want my thoughts on the white ones, but I’m focused on the colors. Mom says satin, but that's not in style anymore, and I’ve decided I want the thickest corded fabric I can find,” whispered Kitty as they walked by the long counters filled with everything that could please a woman's eye and tempt her wallet.
“Isn't that opal the loveliest thing you ever saw? I'm afraid I'm too dark to wear it, but it would just suit you. You'll need a variety, you know,” added Kitty in a significant aside as Rose stood among the white silks while her companion affected great interest in the delicate hues laid before her.
“Isn’t that opal the prettiest thing you’ve ever seen? I’m afraid I’m too dark to wear it, but it would look perfect on you. You’ll need a few options, you know,” Kitty added with a meaningful glance as Rose stood among the white silks while her friend pretended to be very interested in the delicate colors displayed before her.
“But I have a variety now, and don't need a new dress of any sort.”
“But I have plenty of options now, and I don't need a new dress at all.”
“No matter, get it, else it will be gone. You've worn all yours several times already and must have a new one whether you need it or not. Dear me! If I had as much pocket money as you have, I'd come out in a fresh toilet at every party I went to,” answered Kitty, casting an envious eye upon the rainbow piles before her.
“Never mind, buy it, or it'll be gone. You've already worn all yours several times, and you need a new one whether you want it or not. Honestly! If I had as much pocket money as you do, I'd show up in a new outfit at every party,” replied Kitty, looking jealously at the colorful stacks in front of her.
The quick-witted shopman saw that a wedding was afoot, for when two pretty girls whisper, smile, and blush over their shopping, clerks scent bridal finery and a transient gleam of interest brightens their imperturbable countenances and lends a brief energy to languid voices weary with crying, “Cash!” Gathering both silks with a practiced turn of the hand, he held them up for inspection, detecting at a glance which was the bride-elect and which the friend, for Kitty fell back to study the effect of silvery white folds with an absorbing interest impossible to mistake while Rose sat looking at the opal as if she scarcely heard a bland voice saying, with the rustle of silk so dear to girlish ears: “A superb thing, just opened; all the rage in Paris; very rare shade; trying to most, as the lady says, but quite perfect for a blonde.”
The quick-witted shop clerk noticed a wedding was in the works because when two pretty girls whisper, smile, and blush while shopping, the clerks can sense bridal excitement. A brief spark of interest brightens their calm faces and adds a little energy to their tired voices, worn out from saying, “Cash!” With a practiced flick of his wrist, he gathered both silks and held them up for a closer look, quickly identifying which was for the bride and which was for her friend. Kitty stepped back, absorbed in examining the silvery white folds with an unmistakable fascination, while Rose was focused on the opal, barely hearing the smooth voice saying, with the rustle of silk that every girl loves: “A fantastic piece, just arrived; all the rage in Paris; very rare shade; it suits most, as the lady says, but it’s perfect for a blonde.”
Rose was not listening to those words but to others which Aunt Clara had lately uttered, laughed at then, but thought over more than once since.
Rose wasn’t paying attention to those words, but to things Aunt Clara had recently said. She had laughed at them then, but had considered them more than once since.
“I'm tired of hearing people wonder why Miss Campbell does not dress more. Simplicity is all very well for schoolgirls and women who can't afford anything better, but you can, and you really ought. Your things are pretty enough in their way, and I rather like you to have a style of your own, but it looks odd and people will think you are mean if you don't make more show. Besides, you don't do justice to your beauty, which would be both peculiar and striking if you'd devote your mind to getting up ravishing costumes.”
"I'm tired of hearing people ask why Miss Campbell doesn't dress up more. Simplicity works for schoolgirls and women who can't afford anything nicer, but you can, and you really should. Your clothes are nice in their own way, and I actually like that you have your own style, but it looks strange, and people will think you’re stingy if you don’t show off more. Plus, you're not showcasing your beauty, which would be unique and stunning if you put some effort into creating gorgeous outfits."
Much more to the same effect did her aunt say, discussing the subject quite artistically and unconsciously appealing to several of Rose's ruling passions. One was a love for the delicate fabrics, colors, and ornaments which refined tastes enjoy and whose costliness keeps them from ever growing common; another, her strong desire to please the eyes of those she cared for and gratify their wishes in the smallest matter if she could. And last, but not least, the natural desire of a young and pretty woman to enhance the beauty which she so soon discovers to be her most potent charm for the other sex, her passport to a high place among her maiden peers.
Her aunt talked about the topic in a similar vein, discussing it in a way that was quite artistic and unintentionally tapped into several of Rose's strong interests. One was her love for delicate fabrics, colors, and decorations that refined tastes appreciate, and whose expense keeps them from becoming too common; another was her deep desire to please the people she cared about and fulfill their wishes in even the smallest ways if she could. Lastly, and importantly, was the natural urge of a young and attractive woman to enhance her beauty, which she quickly realizes is her most powerful asset when it comes to the opposite sex and her ticket to standing out among her peers.
She had thought seriously of surprising and delighting everyone by appearing in a costume which should do justice to the loveliness which was so modest that it was apt to forget itself in admiring others what girls call a “ravishing” dress, such as she could imagine and easily procure by the magic of the Fortunatus' purse in her pocket. She had planned it all, the shimmer of pale silk through lace like woven frostwork, ornaments of some classic pattern, and all the dainty accessories as perfect as time, taste, and money could make them.
She seriously considered surprising and delighting everyone by showing up in a costume that would truly reflect her beauty, which was so modest that it sometimes overlooked itself while admiring others—what girls call a “stunning” dress, something she could easily envision and obtain with the magic of the Fortunatus' purse in her pocket. She had it all planned out: the shimmer of light silk through lace that looked like woven frost, classic patterned decorations, and all the delicate accessories as perfect as time, taste, and money could make them.
She knew that Uncle Alec's healthful training had given her a figure that could venture on any fashion and Nature blessed her with a complexion that defied all hues. So it was little wonder that she felt a strong desire to use these gifts, not for the pleasure of display, but to seem fair in the eyes that seldom looked at her without a tender sort of admiration, all the more winning when no words marred the involuntary homage women love.
She knew that Uncle Alec's healthy training had given her a figure that could pull off any style, and Nature had blessed her with a complexion that looked good in any shade. So it was no surprise that she felt a strong urge to use these gifts, not for the sake of showing off, but to appear beautiful in the eyes that often regarded her with a kind of tender admiration, even more charming when no words interrupted the unspoken appreciation women cherish.
These thoughts were busy in Rose's mind as she sat looking at the lovely silk and wondering what Charlie would say if she should some night burst upon him in a pale rosy cloud, like the Aurora to whom he often likened her. She knew it would please him very much and she longed to do all she honestly could to gratify the poor fellow, for her tender heart already felt some remorseful pangs, remembering how severe she had been the night before. She could not revoke her words, because she meant them every one, but she might be kind and show that she did not wholly shut him out from her regard by asking him to go with her to Kitty's ball and gratify his artistic taste by a lovely costume. A very girlish but kindly plan, for that ball was to be the last of her frivolities, so she wanted it to be a pleasant one and felt that “being friends” with Charlie would add much to her enjoyment.
These thoughts occupied Rose's mind as she sat admiring the beautiful silk and wondering what Charlie would say if she suddenly appeared before him one night in a soft rosy glow, like the Aurora he often compared her to. She knew it would make him very happy, and she wanted to do everything she could to please the poor guy, since her tender heart was already feeling a bit guilty, recalling how harsh she had been the night before. She couldn’t take back her words because she truly meant every one of them, but she could be kind and show that she didn’t entirely shut him out of her feelings by inviting him to join her at Kitty's ball, giving him a chance to indulge his artistic taste with a beautiful costume. It was a very girlish but thoughtful plan, since that ball was going to be the last of her carefree moments, so she wanted it to be enjoyable and felt that “being friends” with Charlie would enhance her experience.
This idea made her fingers tighten on the gleaming fabric so temptingly upheld, and she was about to take it when, “If ye please, sir, would ye kindly tell me where I'd be finding the flannel place?” said a voice behind her, and, glancing up, she saw a meek little Irishwoman looking quite lost and out of place among the luxuries around her.
This idea made her fingers tighten on the shiny fabric so temptingly held up, and she was about to take it when, "Excuse me, sir, could you please tell me where I can find the flannel section?" said a voice behind her. Glancing up, she saw a humble little Irishwoman looking completely lost and out of place among the luxuries surrounding her.
“Downstairs, turn to the left,” was the clerk's hasty reply, with a vague wave of the hand which left the inquirer more in the dark than ever.
“Downstairs, turn left,” the clerk said quickly, gesturing vaguely with a hand that left the person asking for help even more confused than before.
Rose saw the woman's perplexity and said kindly, “I'll show you this way.”
Rose noticed the woman’s confusion and said gently, “Let me show you this way.”
“I'm ashamed to be throublin' ye, miss, but it's strange I am in it, and wouldn't be comin' here at all, at all, barrin' they tould me I'd get the bit I'm wantin' chaper in this big shop than the little ones more becomin' the like o' me,” explained the little woman humbly.
“I'm sorry to bother you, miss, but it’s odd for me to be here, and I wouldn’t be coming at all if they hadn’t told me I could get what I need cheaper in this big store than in the smaller ones that suit people like me,” the little woman explained humbly.
Rose looked again as she led the way through a well-dressed crowd of busy shoppers, and something in the anxious, tired face under the old woolen hood the bare, purple hands holding fast a meager wallet and a faded scrap of the dotted flannel little children's frocks are so often made of touched the generous heart that never could see want without an impulse to relieve it. She had meant only to point the way, but, following a new impulse, she went on, listening to the poor soul's motherly prattle about “me baby” and the “throuble” it was to “find clothes for the growin' childer when me man is out av work and the bit and sup inconvaynient these hard times” as they descended to that darksome lower world where necessities take refuge when luxuries crowd them out from the gayer place above.
Rose glanced again as she led the way through a well-dressed crowd of busy shoppers, and something about the anxious, tired face beneath the old wool hood, the bare, purple hands clutching a meager wallet and a faded piece of the dotted flannel that little children's dresses are often made of, touched her generous heart that could never witness need without feeling the urge to help. She had only meant to show the way, but, following a new impulse, she continued on, listening to the poor woman's motherly chatter about “me baby” and the “trouble” it was to “find clothes for the growing kids when me man is out of work and the food and a bit to eat are hard to come by these days” as they descended into that gloomy lower world where necessities are hidden away when luxuries push them out from the brighter place above.
The presence of a lady made Mrs. Sullivan's shopping very easy now, and her one poor “bit” of flannel grew miraculously into yards of several colors, since the shabby purse was no lighter when she went away, wiping her eyes on the corner of a big, brown bundle. A very little thing, and no one saw it but a wooden-faced clerk, who never told, yet it did Rose good and sent her up into the light again with a sober face, thinking self-reproachfully, “What right have I to more gay gowns when some poor babies have none, or to spend time making myself fine while there is so much bitter want in the world?”
The presence of a lady made Mrs. Sullivan's shopping much easier now, and her one small piece of flannel somehow turned into yards of various colors, since her worn-out purse felt just as heavy when she left, wiping her eyes on the corner of a big, brown bundle. It was a minor thing, and no one noticed except for a emotionless clerk, who never said a word, but it lifted Rose's spirits and sent her back into the world with a serious expression, thinking to herself, “What right do I have to more fancy dresses when some poor babies have none, or to spend time making myself look good while there is so much suffering in the world?”
Nevertheless the pretty things were just as tempting as ever, and she yearned for the opal silk with a renewed yearning when she got back. It is not certain that it would not have been bought in spite of her better self if a good angel in the likeness of a stout lady with silvery curls about the benevolent face, enshrined in a plain bonnet, had not accosted her as she joined Kitty, still brooding over the wedding gowns.
Nevertheless, the beautiful things were just as tempting as ever, and she longed for the opal silk even more when she returned. It's uncertain whether she would have bought it despite her better judgment if a kind-hearted angel, appearing as a plump lady with silver curls framing her warm face and wearing a plain bonnet, hadn't approached her as she rejoined Kitty, who was still mulling over the wedding gowns.
“I waited a moment for you, my dear, because I'm in haste, and very glad to save myself a journey or a note,” began the newcomer in a low tone as Rose shook hands with the most affectionate respect. “You know the great box factory was burned a day or two ago and over a hundred girls thrown out of work. Some were hurt and are in the hospital, many have no homes to go to, and nearly all need temporary help of some sort. We've had so many calls this winter I hardly know which way to turn, for want is pressing, and I've had my finger in so many purses I'm almost ashamed to ask again. Any little contribution ah, thank you, I was sure you wouldn't fail me, my good child,” and Mrs. Gardener warmly pressed the hand that went so quickly into the little porte-monnaie and came out so generously filled.
“I waited a moment for you, my dear, because I'm in a hurry, and I'm really happy to save myself a trip or a message,” the newcomer started in a quiet tone as Rose shook hands with a lot of affection. “You know the big box factory burned down a day or two ago, and over a hundred girls lost their jobs. Some were injured and are in the hospital, many don’t have homes to go back to, and almost all of them need some temporary support. We’ve had so many calls this winter that I hardly know where to turn because the need is urgent, and I’ve been trying to gather support so much that I’m almost embarrassed to ask again. Any little contribution—ah, thank you, I knew you wouldn’t let me down, my dear,” and Mrs. Gardener warmly held the hand that quickly went into the small wallet and came out so generously filled.
“Let me know how else I can help, and thank you very much for allowing me to have a share in your good works,” said Rose, forgetting all about gay gowns as she watched the black bonnet go briskly away with an approving smile on the fine old face inside it.
“Let me know how else I can help, and thank you so much for letting me be part of your good works,” said Rose, forgetting all about fancy dresses as she watched the black bonnet move away quickly with a pleased smile on the fine old face inside it.
“You extravagant thing! How could you give so much?” whispered Kitty, whose curious eye had seen three figures on the single bill which had so rapidly changed hands.
“You extravagant person! How could you give so much?” whispered Kitty, whose curious eye had seen three figures on the single bill that had changed hands so quickly.
“I believe if Mrs. Gardener asked me for my head I should give it to her,” answered Rose lightly, then, turning to the silks, she asked, “Which have you decided upon, the yellow white or the blue, the corded or the striped?”
“I think if Mrs. Gardener asked me for my head, I would hand it over,” replied Rose casually. Then, as she turned to the silks, she asked, “Which one have you chosen, the yellow, white, or the blue, the corded or the striped?”
“I've decided nothing; except that you are to have the pink and wear it at my ahem! ball,” said Kitty, who had made up her mind, but could not give her orders till Mama had been consulted.
“I haven't made any decisions, except that you are going to wear the pink one at my, ahem! ball,” said Kitty, who had made up her mind but couldn't give her orders until Mama had been consulted.
“No, I can't afford it just yet. I never overstep my allowance, and I shall have to if I get any more finery. Come, we ought not to waste time here if you have all the patterns you want.” And Rose walked quickly away, glad that it was out of her power to break through two resolutions which hitherto had been faithfully kept one to dress simply for example's sake, the other not to be extravagant for charity's sake.
“No, I can't afford it right now. I never go over my budget, and I would have to if I buy any more fancy things. Come on, we shouldn't waste time here if you have all the patterns you want.” And Rose walked away quickly, relieved that she couldn’t break through two promises she had kept so far: one to dress simply for the sake of setting a good example, and the other not to be extravagant for the sake of charity.
As Rosamond had her day of misfortunes, so this seemed to be one of small temptations to Rose. After she had set Kitty down at home and been to see her new houses, she drove about doing various errands for the aunts and, while waiting in the carriage for the execution of an order, young Pemberton came by.
As Rosamond faced her share of troubles, this day seemed to bring only minor challenges for Rose. After she dropped Kitty off at home and checked out her new houses, she drove around running errands for her aunts and, while waiting in the carriage for an order to be fulfilled, young Pemberton passed by.
As Steve said, this gentleman had been “hard hit” and still hovered mothlike about the forbidden light. Being the most eligible parti of the season, his regard was considered a distinction to be proud of, and Rose had been well scolded by Aunt Clara for refusing so honorable a mate. The girl liked him, and he was the suitor of whom she had spoken so respectfully to Dr. Alec because he had no need of the heiress and had sincerely loved Rose. He had been away, and she hoped had gotten over his disappointment as happily as the rest, but now when he saw her, and came hurrying up so hungry for a word, she felt that he had not forgotten and was too kind to chill him with the bow which plainly says “Don't stop.”
As Steve mentioned, this guy had been “hard hit” but still lingered around the forbidden light like a moth. Being the most eligible bachelor of the season, having his attention was seen as something to brag about, and Aunt Clara had scolded Rose for turning down such a respectable match. The girl had feelings for him, and he was the suitor she had spoken so highly of to Dr. Alec because he didn’t need the heiress and genuinely loved Rose. He had been away, and she had hoped he had moved on from his disappointment like everyone else, but now, when he saw her and hurried over, clearly eager for a word, she sensed that he hadn’t forgotten and was too kind to give him the cold shoulder with a greeting that clearly said, “Don’t stop.”
A personable youth was Pemberton, and had brought with him from the wilds of Canada a sable-lined overcoat which was the envy of every masculine and the admiration of every feminine friend he had, and as he stood at her carriage window Rose knew that this luxurious garment and its stalwart wearer were objects of interest to the passersby. It chanced that the tide of shoppers flowed in that direction and, as she chatted, familiar faces often passed with glances, smiles, and nods of varying curiosity, significance, and wonder.
Pemberton was a charming young man who had brought back a fur-lined overcoat from the wilderness of Canada, which everyone male envied and every female admired. As he stood by her carriage window, Rose could tell that both the lavish coat and its strong wearer were catching the attention of those walking by. It so happened that a crowd of shoppers was moving in that direction, and while they talked, familiar faces frequently passed by, exchanging looks, smiles, and nods filled with curiosity, meaning, and amazement.
She could not help feeling a certain satisfaction in giving him a moment's pleasure, since she could do no more, but it was not that amiable desire alone which made her ignore the neat white parcels which the druggist's boy deposited on the front seat and kept her lingering a little longer to enjoy one of the small triumphs which girls often risk more than a cold in the head to display. The sight of several snowflakes on the broad shoulders which partially obstructed her view, as well as the rapidly increasing animation of Pemberton's chat, reminded her that it was high time to go.
She couldn’t help but feel a certain satisfaction in giving him a moment of pleasure since that was all she could do. But it wasn’t just that kind wish that made her overlook the neat white packages that the druggist's boy placed on the front seat. She lingered a bit longer to enjoy one of those small victories that girls often risk more than just catching a cold to show off. The sight of several snowflakes on the broad shoulders blocking her view, along with Pemberton’s increasingly lively conversation, reminded her that it was time to leave.
“I mustn't keep you it is beginning to storm,” she said, taking up her muff, much to old Jacob's satisfaction, for small talk is not exciting to a hungry man whose nose feels like an icicle.
"I shouldn’t hold you up; it’s starting to storm," she said, picking up her muff, much to old Jacob's satisfaction, because small talk isn't thrilling for a hungry man whose nose feels like an icicle.
“Is it? I thought the sun was shining.” And the absorbed gentleman turned to the outer world with visible reluctance, for it looked very warm and cozy in the red-lined carriage.
“Is it? I thought the sun was shining.” The absorbed gentleman turned to the outside world with noticeable hesitation, as it seemed very warm and cozy in the red-lined carriage.
“Wise people say we must carry our sunshine with us,” answered Rose, taking refuge in commonplaces, for the face at the window grew pensive suddenly as he answered, with a longing look, “I wish I could.” Then, smiling gratefully, he added, “Thank you for giving me a little of yours.”
“Smart people say we need to bring our own sunshine with us,” replied Rose, resorting to clichés, as the face at the window suddenly looked thoughtful while he responded, with a wistful expression, “I wish I could.” Then, smiling appreciatively, he said, “Thanks for sharing a bit of yours with me.”
“You are very welcome.” And Rose offered him her hand while her eyes mutely asked pardon for withholding her leave to keep it.
"You’re very welcome." And Rose held out her hand while her eyes silently asked for forgiveness for not letting him keep it.
He pressed it silently and, shouldering the umbrella which he forgot to open, turned away with an “up again and take another” expression, which caused the soft eyes to follow him admiringly.
He pressed it silently and, shouldering the umbrella he forgot to open, turned away with a “let’s get up and try again” look, which made the soft eyes follow him admiringly.
“I ought not to have kept him a minute longer than I could help, for it wasn't all pity; it was my foolish wish to show off and do as I liked for a minute, to pay for being good about the gown. Oh, me! How weak and silly I am in spite of all my trying!” And Miss Campbell fell into a remorseful reverie, which lasted till she got home.
“I shouldn’t have kept him a minute longer than necessary because it wasn’t all out of pity; it was my silly desire to show off and do whatever I wanted for a moment, to make up for being good about the dress. Oh, why am I so weak and foolish despite all my efforts?” Miss Campbell then fell into a remorseful daze, which lasted until she got home.
“Now, young man, what brought you out in this driving storm?” asked Rose as Jamie came stamping in that same afternoon.
“Now, young man, what brought you out in this pouring storm?” asked Rose as Jamie came stomping in that same afternoon.
“Mama sent you a new book thought you'd like it. I don't mind your old storms!” replied the boy, wrestling his way out of his coat and presenting a face as round and red and shiny as a well-polished Baldwin apple.
“Mama sent you a new book; she thought you’d like it. I don’t mind your old storms!” replied the boy, wriggling out of his coat and showing a face as round, red, and shiny as a perfectly polished Baldwin apple.
“Much obliged it is just the day to enjoy it and I was longing for something nice to read,” said Rose as Jamie sat down upon the lower stair for a protracted struggle with his rubber boots.
“Thanks a lot, it’s the perfect day to enjoy it and I’ve been craving something nice to read,” said Rose as Jamie sat down on the lower step to struggle with his rubber boots.
“Here you are, then no yes I do believe I've forgotten it, after all!” cried Jamie, slapping his pockets one after the other with a dismayed expression of countenance.
“Here you are, well no, yes I do think I’ve forgotten it, after all!” cried Jamie, patting his pockets one after the other with a look of dismay on his face.
“Never mind, I'll hunt up something else. Let me help you with those your hands are so cold.” And Rose good-naturedly gave a tug at the boots while Jamie clutched the banisters, murmuring somewhat incoherently as his legs flew up and down: “I'll go back if you want me to. I'm so sorry! It's very good of you, I'm sure. Getting these horrid things on made me forget. Mother would make me wear 'em, though I told her they'd stick like like gumdrops,” he added, inspired by recollections of certain dire disappointments when the above-mentioned sweetmeat melted in his pockets and refused to come out.
“Never mind, I'll find something else. Let me help you with those; your hands are so cold.” And Rose kindly tugged at the boots while Jamie held onto the banisters, mumbling a bit incoherently as his legs flailed: “I'll go back if you want me to. I'm really sorry! It's very nice of you, I’m sure. Putting on these terrible things made me forget. Mom would make me wear them, even though I told her they'd stick like gumdrops,” he added, inspired by memories of some pretty disappointing moments when the mentioned candy melted in his pockets and wouldn’t come out.
“Now what shall we do?” asked Rose when he was finally extricated. “Since I've nothing to read, I may as well play.”
“Now what should we do?” asked Rose once he was finally freed. “Since I have nothing to read, I might as well play.”
“I'll teach you to pitch and toss. You catch very well for a girl, but you can't throw worth a cent,” replied Jamie, gamboling down the hall in his slippers and producing a ball from some of the mysterious receptacles in which boys have the art of storing rubbish enough to fill a peck measure.
“I'll show you how to pitch and toss. You catch pretty well for a girl, but you can't throw to save your life,” Jamie replied, skipping down the hall in his slippers and pulling out a ball from some of the random places where boys manage to stash enough junk to fill a peck measure.
Of course Rose agreed and cheerfully risked getting her eyes blackened and her fingers bruised till her young receptor gratefully observed that “it was no fun playing where you had to look out for windows and jars and things, so I'd like that jolly book about Captain Nemo and the Nautilus, please.”
Of course, Rose agreed and happily risked getting her eyes blackened and her fingers bruised until her young friend gratefully pointed out that “it was no fun playing when you had to watch out for windows and jars and stuff, so I'd really like that fun book about Captain Nemo and the Nautilus, please.”
Being gratified, he spread himself upon the couch, crossed his legs in the air, and without another word dived Twenty Thousand Leagues Under the Sea, where he remained for two mortal hours, to the general satisfaction of his relatives.
Feeling satisfied, he stretched out on the couch, crossed his legs in the air, and without saying anything else, dove into Twenty Thousand Leagues Under the Sea, where he stayed for two whole hours, much to the delight of his family.
Bereft both of her unexpected playfellow and the much desired book, Rose went into the parlor, there to discover a French novel which Kitty had taken from a library and left in the carriage among the bundles. Settling herself in her favorite lounging chair, she read as diligently as Jamie while the wind howled and snow fell fast without.
Missing both her unexpected playmate and the longed-for book, Rose went into the parlor, where she found a French novel that Kitty had borrowed from a library and left in the carriage among the packages. Getting comfy in her favorite chair, she read as intently as Jamie while the wind howled and snow fell rapidly outside.
For an hour nothing disturbed the cozy quiet of the house for Aunt Plenty was napping upstairs and Dr. Alec writing in his own sanctum; at least Rose thought so, till his step made her hastily drop the book and look up with very much the expression she used to wear when caught in mischief years ago.
For an hour, nothing interrupted the cozy peace of the house because Aunt Plenty was napping upstairs and Dr. Alec was writing in his own space; at least, that's what Rose thought, until she heard his footsteps and quickly dropped the book, looking up with the same expression she used to have when she got caught doing something naughty years ago.
“Did I startle you? Have a screen you are burning your face before this hot fire.” And Dr. Alec pulled one forward.
"Did I scare you? You have a screen that you're holding up in front of this hot fire." And Dr. Alec pulled one forward.
“Thank you, Uncle. I didn't feel it.” And the color seemed to deepen in spite of the screen while the uneasy eyes fell upon the book in her lap.
“Thanks, Uncle. I didn't even notice it.” And the color seemed to deepen despite the screen as her uneasy eyes landed on the book in her lap.
“Have you got the Quarterly there? I want to glance at an article in it if you can spare it for a moment,” he said, leaning toward her with an inquiring glance.
“Do you have the Quarterly with you? I’d like to take a look at an article in it if you can lend it to me for a minute,” he said, leaning toward her with a curious look.
“No, sir, I am reading.” And, without mentioning the name, Rose put the book into his hand.
“No, sir, I am reading.” And, without saying the name, Rose placed the book in his hand.
The instant his eye fell on the title he understood the look she wore and knew what “mischief” she had been in. He knit his brows, then smiled, because it was impossible to help it Rose looked so conscience-stricken in spite of her twenty years.
The moment he saw the title, he got the look she had and realized what kind of “trouble” she had been up to. He furrowed his brows and then smiled because he couldn’t help it; Rose looked so guilty despite being twenty.
“How do you find it? Interesting?”
“How do you feel about it? Interesting?”
“Oh, very! I felt as if I was in another world and forgot all about this.”
“Oh, totally! I felt like I was in a different world and completely forgot about this.”
“Not a very good world, I fancy, if you were afraid or ashamed to be found in it. Where did this come from?” asked Dr. Alec, surveying the book with great disfavor. Rose told him, and added slowly, “I particularly wanted to read it, and fancied I might, because you did when it was so much talked about the winter we were in Rome.”
“Not a very good world, I think, if you were scared or embarrassed to be in it. Where did this come from?” asked Dr. Alec, looking at the book with obvious disapproval. Rose explained, and then added slowly, “I really wanted to read it, and thought I could since you did when it was so popular the winter we were in Rome.”
“I did read it to see if it was fit for you.”
“I read it to see if it was suitable for you.”
“And decided that it was not, I suppose, since you never gave it to me!”
“And I guess it wasn’t, since you never gave it to me!”
“Yes.”
"Yep."
“Then I won't finish it. But, Uncle, I don't see why I should not,” added Rose wistfully, for she had reached the heart of the romance and found it wonderfully fascinating.
“Then I won't finish it. But, Uncle, I don't understand why I shouldn't,” added Rose wistfully, for she had reached the heart of the story and found it incredibly fascinating.
“You may not see, but don't you feel why not?” asked Dr. Alec gravely.
“You might not see it, but don’t you feel it? Why not?” Dr. Alec asked seriously.
Rose leaned her flushed cheek on her hand and thought a minute, then looked up and answered honestly, “Yes, I do, but can't explain it, except that I know something must be wrong, because I blushed and started when you came in.”
Rose rested her flushed cheek on her hand and thought for a moment, then looked up and replied honestly, “Yes, I do, but I can't explain it, except that I know something must be off because I blushed and jumped when you walked in.”
“Exactly.” And the doctor gave an emphatic nod, as if the symptoms pleased him.
“Exactly.” And the doctor nodded emphatically, as if the symptoms delighted him.
“But I really don't see any harm in the book so far. It is by a famous author, wonderfully well written, as you know, and the characters so lifelike that I feel as if I should really meet them somewhere.”
“But I really don't see any issues with the book so far. It's by a famous author, beautifully written, as you know, and the characters are so realistic that I feel like I might actually run into them somewhere.”
“I hope not!” ejaculated the doctor, shutting the book quickly, as if to keep the objectionable beings from escaping.
“I hope not!” the doctor exclaimed, quickly shutting the book, as if to prevent the objectionable beings from escaping.
Rose laughed, but persisted in her defense, for she did want to finish the absorbing story, yet would not without leave.
Rose laughed but continued to defend herself, as she really wanted to finish the captivating story, though she wouldn’t do so without permission.
“I have read French novels before, and you gave them to me. Not many, to be sure, but the best, so I think I know what is good and shouldn't like this if it was harmful.”
“I've read some French novels before, and you were the one who gave them to me. Not a lot, it's true, but the best ones, so I think I know what's good and wouldn't like this if it was bad for me.”
Her uncle's answer was to reopen the volume and turn the leaves an instant as if to find a particular place. Then he put it into her hand, saying quietly: “Read a page or two aloud, translating as you go. You used to like that try it again.”
Her uncle's response was to open the book and flip through the pages for a moment as if looking for a specific spot. Then he handed it to her, saying quietly, “Read a page or two out loud, translating as you go. You used to enjoy that—give it another shot.”
Rose obeyed and went glibly down a page, doing her best to give the sense in her purest English. Presently she went more slowly, then skipped a sentence here and there, and finally stopped short, looking as if she needed a screen again.
Rose followed the instructions and smoothly read down the page, trying her best to convey the meaning in the clearest English. Soon, she slowed down, skipping a sentence here and there, and eventually halted, appearing as if she needed a break again.
“What's the matter?” asked her uncle, who had been watching her with a serious eye.
“What's wrong?” her uncle asked, keeping a serious eye on her.
“Some phrases are untranslatable, and it only spoils them to try. They are not amiss in French, but sound coarse and bad in our blunt English,” she said a little pettishly, for she felt annoyed by her failure to prove the contested point.
“Some phrases just can't be translated, and trying to do so only ruins them. They work fine in French, but sound rough and awkward in our straightforward English,” she said a bit petulantly, feeling frustrated by her inability to make her point.
“Ah, my dear, if the fine phrases won't bear putting into honest English, the thoughts they express won't bear putting into your innocent mind! That chapter is the key to the whole book, and if you had been led up, or rather down, to it artfully and artistically, you might have read it to yourself without seeing how bad it is. All the worse for the undeniable talent which hides the evil so subtly and makes the danger so delightful.”
“Ah, my dear, if the fancy words can’t be translated into straightforward English, the ideas they convey shouldn’t be in your innocent mind! That chapter is the key to the entire book, and if you had been guided to it cleverly and artistically, you might have read it to yourself without noticing how terrible it is. It’s even worse because of the undeniable skill that conceals the bad so subtly and makes the danger so appealing.”
He paused a moment, then added with an anxious glance at the book, over which she was still bending, “Finish it if you choose only remember, my girl, that one may read at forty what is unsafe at twenty, and that we never can be too careful what food we give that precious yet perilous thing called imagination.”
He paused for a moment, then added with a worried look at the book she was still focused on, “Go ahead and finish it if you want, but remember, my girl, that some things are fine to read at forty that aren’t safe at twenty, and we should always be careful about what we feed that valuable yet dangerous thing called imagination.”
And taking his Review, he went away to look over a learned article which interested him much less than the workings of a young mind nearby.
And after taking his Review, he left to read a scholarly article that he found far less interesting than the thoughts of a young mind nearby.
Another long silence, broken only by an occasional excited bounce from Jamie when the sociable cuttlefish looked in at the windows or the Nautilus scuttled a ship or two in its terrific course. A bell rang, and the doctor popped his head out to see if he was wanted. It was only a message for Aunt Plenty, and he was about to pop in again when his eye was caught by a square parcel on the slab.
Another long silence lingered, interrupted only by Jamie's occasional excited bounce whenever the friendly cuttlefish peeked in at the windows or the Nautilus scuttled a ship or two in its amazing journey. A bell rang, and the doctor stuck his head out to check if he was needed. It was just a message for Aunt Plenty, and he was about to go back inside when something caught his eye—a square parcel on the table.
“What's this?” he asked, taking it up.
“What's this?” he asked, picking it up.
“Rose wants me to leave it at Kitty Van's when I go. I forgot to bring her book from Mama, so I shall go and get it as soon as ever I've done this,” replied Jamie from his nest.
“Rose wants me to leave it at Kitty Van's when I go. I forgot to bring her book from Mom, so I’ll go get it as soon as I’m done with this,” replied Jamie from his spot.
As the volume in his hands was a corpulent one, and Jamie only a third of the way through, Dr. Alec thought Rose's prospect rather doubtful and, slipping the parcel into his pocket, he walked away, saying with a satisfied air: “Virtue doesn't always get rewarded, but it shall be this time if I can do it.”
As the book in his hands was quite hefty, and Jamie was only a third of the way through, Dr. Alec found Rose's chances rather uncertain. Slipping the package into his pocket, he walked away, saying with a satisfied grin: “Being good doesn't always pay off, but it will this time if I can help it.”
More than half an hour afterward, Rose woke from a little nap and found the various old favorites with which she had tried to solace herself replaced by the simple, wholesome story promised by Aunt Jessie.
More than half an hour later, Rose woke up from a short nap and discovered that the various old favorites she had used to cheer herself up had been swapped out for the straightforward, uplifting story promised by Aunt Jessie.
“Good boy! I'll go and thank him,” she said half aloud, jumping up, wide awake and much pleased.
“Good boy! I'm going to thank him,” she said half to herself, jumping up, fully awake and really happy.
But she did not go, for just then she spied her uncle standing on the rug warming his hands with a generally fresh and breezy look about him which suggested a recent struggle with the elements.
But she didn't leave, because at that moment she saw her uncle standing on the rug, warming his hands with a generally fresh and breezy appearance that hinted at a recent battle with the elements.
“How did this come?” she asked suspiciously.
"How did this happen?" she asked, eyeing it with suspicion.
“A man brought it.”
“A guy brought it.”
“This man? Oh, Uncle! Why did you take so much trouble just to gratify a wish of mine?” she cried, taking both the cold hands in hers with a tenderly reproachful glance from the storm without to the ruddy face above her.
“This man? Oh, Uncle! Why did you go to such lengths just to make me happy?” she exclaimed, taking both of his cold hands in hers with a gently reproachful look from the storm outside to the warm face above her.
“Because, having taken away your French bonbons with the poisonous color on them, I wanted to get you something better. Here it is, all pure sugar, the sort that sweetens the heart as well as the tongue and leaves no bad taste behind.”
“Because, after taking away your French candies with the toxic color on them, I wanted to get you something better. Here it is, all pure sugar, the kind that sweetens both the heart and the tongue and leaves no bad aftertaste.”
“How good you are to me! I don't deserve it, for I didn't resist temptation, though I tried. Uncle, after I'd put the book away, I thought I must just see how it ended, and I'm afraid I should have read it all if it had not been gone,” said Rose, laying her face down on the hands she held as humbly as a repentant child.
“How good you are to me! I don't deserve it, because I didn't resist temptation, even though I tried. Uncle, after I put the book away, I thought I should just see how it ended, and I'm afraid I would have read it all if it hadn’t been gone,” said Rose, resting her face on her hands, which she held as humbly as a sorry child.
But Uncle Alec lifted up the bent head and, looking into the eyes that met his frankly, though either held a tear, he said, with the energy that always made his words remembered: “My little girl, I would face a dozen storms far worse than this to keep your soul as stainless as snow, for it is the small temptations which undermine integrity unless we watch and pray and never think them too trivial to be resisted.”
But Uncle Alec lifted the drooping head and, looking into the eyes that met his honestly, even though they both held back tears, he said with the intensity that always made his words stick: “My little girl, I would brave a dozen storms much worse than this to keep your soul as pure as snow, because it’s the small temptations that can erode your integrity unless we stay vigilant and pray and never think they’re too trivial to resist.”
Some people would consider Dr. Alec an overcareful man, but Rose felt that he was right, and when she said her prayers that night, added a meek petition to be kept from yielding to three of the small temptations which beset a rich, pretty, and romantic girl extravagance, coquetry, and novel reading.
Some people might think Dr. Alec is overly cautious, but Rose believed he was correct. That night, when she said her prayers, she added a humble request to be protected from giving in to three small temptations that come with being a wealthy, attractive, and romantic girl: being extravagant, flirting, and reading novels.
Chapter 12 AT KITTY'S BALL
Rose had no new gown to wear on this festive occasion, and gave one little sigh of regret as she put on the pale blue silk refreshed with clouds of gaze de Chambéry. But a smile followed, very bright and sweet, as she added the clusters of forget-me-not which Charlie had conjured up through the agency of an old German florist, for one part of her plan had been carried out, and Prince was invited to be her escort, much to his delight, though he wisely made no protestations of any sort and showed his gratitude by being a model gentleman. This pleased Rose, for the late humiliation and a very sincere desire to atone for it gave him an air of pensive dignity which was very effective.
Rose didn’t have a new dress to wear for this festive occasion and let out a small sigh of regret as she put on the pale blue silk adorned with clouds of gaze de Chambéry. But a bright and sweet smile followed as she added the clusters of forget-me-nots that Charlie had arranged through an old German florist. One part of her plan had been completed, and Prince was invited to be her escort, much to his delight, though he wisely kept any protests to himself and showed his gratitude by being a perfect gentleman. This pleased Rose, as his recent humiliation and a genuine desire to make up for it gave him a thoughtful dignity that was very charming.
Aunt Clara could not go, for a certain new cosmetic, privately used to improve the once fine complexion, which had been her pride till late hours impaired it, had brought out an unsightly eruption, reducing her to the depths of woe and leaving her no solace for her disappointment but the sight of the elegant velvet dress spread forth upon her bed in melancholy state.
Aunt Clara couldn't go because a certain new cosmetic, secretly used to enhance her once flawless complexion—which had been her pride until late—had caused an unsightly breakout. This left her deeply saddened, with no comfort for her disappointment except for the sight of the elegant velvet dress laid out on her bed in a sorrowful state.
So Aunt Jessie was chaperon, to Rose's great satisfaction, and looked as “pretty as a pink,” Archie thought, in her matronly pearl-colored gown with a dainty trifle of rich lace on her still abundant hair. He was very proud of his little mama, and as devoted as a lover, “to keep his hand in against Phebe's return,” she said laughingly when he brought her a nosegay of blush roses to light up her quiet costume.
So Aunt Jessie was the chaperone, much to Rose's delight, and looked “pretty as a pink,” Archie thought, in her elegant pearl-colored dress with a delicate touch of rich lace in her still full hair. He was very proud of his little mom, and as devoted as a lover, “to keep his hand in for Phebe's return,” she joked when he brought her a bunch of blush roses to brighten her understated outfit.
A happier mother did not live than Mrs. Jessie as she sat contentedly beside Sister Jane (who graced the frivolous scene in a serious black gown with a diadem of purple asters nodding above her severe brow), both watching their boys with the maternal conviction that no other parent could show such remarkable specimens as these. Each had done her best according to her light, and years of faithful care were now beginning to bear fruit in the promise of goodly men, so dear to the hearts of true mothers.
A happier mother than Mrs. Jessie didn't exist as she sat contentedly next to Sister Jane (who added a serious touch to the playful scene in a black gown, with a crown of purple asters bobbing above her stern brow), both watching their boys with the strong belief that no other parent could showcase such exceptional boys as these. Each had done her best in her own way, and years of dedicated care were now starting to show results in the promise of good young men, cherished by the hearts of devoted mothers.
Mrs. Jessie watched her three tall sons with something like wonder, for Archie was a fine fellow, grave and rather stately, but full of the cordial courtesy and respect we see so little of nowadays and which is the sure sign of good home training. “The cadets,” as Will and Geordie called themselves, were there as gorgeous as you please, and the agonies they suffered that night with tight boots and stiff collars no pen can fitly tell. But only to one another did they confide these sufferings and the rare moments of repose when they could stand on one aching foot with heads comfortably sunken inside the excruciating collars, which rasped their ears and made the lobes thereof a pleasing scarlet. Brief were these moments, however, and the Spartan boys danced on with smiling faces, undaunted by the hidden anguish which preyed upon them “fore and aft,” as Will expressed it.
Mrs. Jessie watched her three tall sons with a sense of wonder, because Archie was an impressive young man, serious and somewhat dignified, but filled with the warm courtesy and respect that we see so little of today, which shows he was raised well. "The cadets," as Will and Geordie called themselves, looked sharp as ever, and the agony they endured that night from tight boots and stiff collars is hard to describe. But they only shared these struggles with each other and the rare moments of relief when they could stand on one sore foot with their heads comfortably tucked inside those torturous collars, which rubbed against their ears and turned their earlobes a bright red. These moments, however brief, didn’t stop the resilient boys from dancing with smiles, unfazed by the hidden pain that nagged at them “fore and aft,” as Will put it.
Mrs. Jane's pair were an odd contrast, and even the stern disciplinarian herself could not help smiling as she watched them. Steve was superb, and might have been married on the spot, so superfine was his broad-cloth, glossy his linen, and perfect the fit of his gloves. While pride and happiness so fermented in his youthful bosom, there would have been danger of spontaneous combustion if dancing had not proved a safety valve, for his strong sense of the proprieties would not permit him to vent his emotions in any other way.
Mrs. Jane's pair were an unusual contrast, and even the strict disciplinarian herself couldn’t help but smile as she watched them. Steve looked great and could have been ready for marriage at any moment, with how refined his suit was, how glossy his shirt was, and how perfectly his gloves fit. As pride and happiness bubbled up inside him, there was a risk of bursting if dancing hadn't provided a way to let it all out, since his strong sense of what was proper wouldn’t allow him to express his feelings any other way.
Kitty felt no such restraint, and looked like a blissful little gypsy, with her brunet prettiness set off by a dashing costume of cardinal and cream color and every hair on her head curled in a Merry Pecksniffian crop, for youth was her strong point, and she much enjoyed the fact that she had been engaged three times before she was nineteen.
Kitty didn't hold back at all, looking like a happy little free spirit, with her dark beauty highlighted by a striking outfit in red and cream, and every strand of her hair styled in a playful crop, because youth was her standout feature, and she really enjoyed the fact that she had been engaged three times before turning nineteen.
To see her and Steve spin around the room was a sight to bring a smile to the lips of the crustiest bachelor or saddest spinster, for happy lovers are always a pleasing spectacle, and two such merry little grigs as these are seldom seen.
Watching her and Steve dance around the room was enough to put a smile on the face of even the grumpiest bachelor or saddest single lady, because happy couples are always such a delightful sight, and you rarely come across two such cheerful souls like them.
Mac, meantime, with glasses astride his nose, surveyed his brother's performances “on the light fantastic” very much as a benevolent Newfoundland would the gambols of a toy terrier, receiving with thanks the hasty hints for his guidance which Steve breathed into his ear as he passed and forgetting all about them the next minute. When not thus engaged Mac stood about with his thumbs in his vest pockets, regarding the lively crowd like a meditative philosopher of a cheerful aspect, often smiling to himself at some whimsical fancy of his own, knitting his brows as some bit of ill-natured gossip met his ear, or staring with undisguised admiration as a beautiful face or figure caught his eye.
Mac, meanwhile, with his glasses perched on his nose, watched his brother's performances “on the light fantastic” much like a friendly Newfoundland would observe a toy terrier playing, gratefully receiving the quick tips for his guidance that Steve whispered in his ear as he passed by, only to forget them the next moment. When he wasn’t doing that, Mac stood around with his thumbs in his vest pockets, looking at the lively crowd like a thoughtful philosopher with a cheerful demeanor, often smiling to himself at some whimsical thought, furrowing his brows when he overheard some nasty gossip, or staring with open admiration when a beautiful face or figure caught his eye.
“I hope that girl knows what a treasure she has got. But I doubt if she ever fully appreciates it,” said Mrs. Jane, bringing her spectacles to bear upon Kitty as she whisked by, causing quite a gale with her flying skirts.
“I hope that girl knows what a treasure she has. But I doubt she'll ever fully appreciate it,” said Mrs. Jane, adjusting her glasses as she watched Kitty rush by, creating quite a wind with her flapping skirts.
“I think she will, for Steve has been so well brought up, she cannot but see and feel the worth of what she has never had, and being so young she will profit by it,” answered Mrs. Jessie softly, thinking of the days when she and her Jem danced together, just betrothed.
“I think she will, because Steve has been raised so well. She can't help but see and appreciate the value of what she has never had, and since she's so young, she will benefit from it,” Mrs. Jessie replied gently, reminiscing about the days when she and her Jem danced together, freshly engaged.
“I've done my duty by both the boys, and done it thoroughly, or their father would have spoilt them, for he's no more idea of discipline than a child.” And Aunt Jane gave her own palm a smart rap with her closed fan, emphasizing the word “thoroughly” in a most suggestive manner.
“I’ve done my duty by both the boys, and done it thoroughly, or their father would have spoiled them, because he has no more idea of discipline than a child.” And Aunt Jane gave her palm a smart smack with her closed fan, emphasizing the word “thoroughly” in a very suggestive way.
“I've often wished I had your firmness, Jane but after all, I'm not sure that I don't like my own way best, at least with my boys, for plenty of love, and plenty of patience, seem to have succeeded pretty well.” And Aunt Jessie lifted the nosegay from her lap, feeling as if that unfailing love and patience were already blooming into her life as beautifully as the sweet-breathed roses given by her boy refreshed and brightened these long hours of patient waiting in a corner.
“I've often wished I had your strength, Jane, but honestly, I'm not sure I don't prefer my own approach, especially with my boys, because a lot of love and a lot of patience seem to have worked out pretty well.” And Aunt Jessie picked up the bouquet from her lap, feeling as if that endless love and patience were already blossoming in her life just as beautifully as the sweet-smelling roses given by her boy refreshed and brightened these long hours of patient waiting in a corner.
“I don't deny that you've done well, Jessie, but you've been let alone and had no one to hold your hand or interfere. If my Mac had gone to sea as your Jem did, I never should have been as severe as I am. Men are so perverse and shortsighted, they don't trouble about the future as long as things are quiet and comfortable in the present,” continued Mrs. Jane, quite forgetting that the shortsighted partner of the firm, physically speaking at least, was herself.
“I won't deny that you've done well, Jessie, but you've been left to your own devices and had no one to guide you or interfere. If my Mac had gone to sea like your Jem did, I wouldn't have been as harsh as I am. Men are so stubborn and short-sighted; they don’t think about the future as long as things are calm and comfortable in the present,” continued Mrs. Jane, completely forgetting that she was, at least physically, the one who was short-sighted in the partnership.
“Ah, yes! We mothers love to foresee and foretell our children's lives even before they are born, and are very apt to be disappointed if they do not turn out as we planned. I know I am yet I really have no cause to complain and am learning to see that all we can do is to give the dear boys good principles and the best training we may, then leave them to finish what we have begun.” And Mrs. Jessie's eye wandered away to Archie, dancing with Rose, quite unconscious what a pretty little castle in the air tumbled down when he fell in love with Phebe.
“Ah, yes! We mothers love to imagine and predict our children's futures even before they're born, and we often feel let down if things don’t go as we hoped. I know I do, yet I really have no reason to complain and I'm learning to understand that all we can do is give our dear boys good values and the best upbringing we can, then let them complete what we've started.” And Mrs. Jessie's gaze drifted to Archie, dancing with Rose, completely unaware of how the beautiful little dream he built came crashing down when he fell in love with Phebe.
“Right, quite right on that point we agree exactly. I have spared nothing to give my boys good principles and good habits, and I am willing to trust them anywhere. Nine times did I whip my Steve to cure him of fibbing, and over and over again did Mac go without his dinner rather than wash his hands. But I whipped and starved them both into obedience, and now I have my reward,” concluded the “stern parent” with a proud wave of the fan, which looked very like a ferule, being as big, hard, and uncompromising as such an article could be.
“Right, we completely agree on that point. I've done everything I can to instill good principles and habits in my boys, and I trust them wherever they go. I whipped Steve nine times to get him to stop lying, and Mac would skip dinner rather than wash his hands time and again. But I disciplined both of them into obedience, and now I’m seeing the results,” concluded the “stern parent” with a proud wave of the fan, which looked very much like a disciplinary ruler, being as big, hard, and unyielding as such an item could be.
Mrs. Jessie gave a mild murmur of assent, but could not help thinking, with a smile, that in spite of their early tribulations the sins for which the boys suffered had gotten a little mixed in their result, for fibbing Steve was now the tidy one, and careless Mac the truth teller. But such small contradictions will happen in the best-regulated families, and all perplexed parents can do is to keep up a steadfast preaching and practicing in the hope that it will bear fruit sometime, for according to an old proverb, Children pick up words as pigeons pease, To utter them again as God shall please.
Mrs. Jessie gave a soft nod of agreement but couldn’t help smiling as she thought that despite their early struggles, the wrongdoings for which the boys were punished had turned out a bit mixed up. Careful Steve was now the neat one, while careless Mac had become the truth-teller. But these little contradictions happen in even the best families, and all perplexed parents can do is keep preaching and practicing, hoping it will pay off eventually, because as an old saying goes, Children pick up words like pigeons pick up peas, to say them again as fate allows.
“I hope they won't dance the child to death among them, for each one seems bound to have his turn, even your sober Mac,” said Mrs. Jessie a few minutes later as she saw Archie hand Rose over to his cousin, who carried her off with an air of triumph from several other claimants.
“I hope they won't dance the child to death among them, because it looks like each one will get their turn, even your serious Mac,” said Mrs. Jessie a few minutes later as she watched Archie pass Rose to his cousin, who took her away with a sense of victory over several other competitors.
“She's very good to him, and her influence is excellent, for he is of an age now when a young woman's opinion has more weight than an old one's. Though he is always good to his mother, and I feel as if I should take great comfort in him. He's one of the sort who will not marry till late, if ever, being fond of books and a quiet life,” responded Mrs. Jane, remembering how often her son had expressed his belief that philosophers should not marry and brought up Plato as an example of the serene wisdom to be attained only by a single man while her husband sided with Socrates, for whom he felt a profound sympathy, though he didn't dare to own it.
"She's really good to him, and her influence is great because he's at an age when a young woman's opinion matters more than an older one’s. He’s always nice to his mother, and I feel like I should find a lot of comfort in him. He’s the type who probably won’t marry until much later, if at all, because he loves books and a quiet life," Mrs. Jane replied, thinking about how often her son had shared his belief that philosophers shouldn’t marry and mentioning Plato as an example of the calm wisdom that can only be achieved by a single man, while her husband agreed with Socrates, someone he felt a deep sympathy for but wouldn’t admit.
“Well, I don't know about that. Since my Archie surprised me by losing his heart as he did, I'm prepared for anything, and advise you to do likewise. I really shouldn't wonder if Mac did something remarkable in that line, though he shows no sign of it yet, I confess,” answered Mrs. Jessie, laughing.
“Honestly, I have no idea about that. Ever since my Archie completely surprised me by falling in love, I'm ready for anything, and I suggest you get ready too. I wouldn't be shocked if Mac did something impressive in that area, even though he hasn’t shown any signs of it yet, I admit,” replied Mrs. Jessie, laughing.
“It won't be in that direction, you may be sure, for her fate is sealed. Dear me, how sad it is to see a superior girl like that about to throw herself away on a handsome scapegrace. I won't mention names, but you understand me.” And Mrs. Jane shook her head, as if she could mention the name of one superior girl who had thrown herself away and now saw the folly of it.
“It definitely won't be that way, that's for sure, because her fate is set. Oh, how sad it is to see such a talented girl ready to waste herself on a charming troublemaker. I won't say any names, but you get what I mean.” And Mrs. Jane shook her head, as if she could name one talented girl who had wasted herself and now realized how foolish it was.
“I'm very anxious, of course, and so is Alec, but it may be the saving of one party and the happiness of the other, for some women love to give more than they receive,” said Mrs. Jessie, privately wondering, for the thousandth time, why brother Mac ever married the learned Miss Humphries.
“I'm really anxious, of course, and so is Alec, but it could save one party and make the other happy, because some women enjoy giving more than receiving,” Mrs. Jessie said, privately wondering, for the thousandth time, why her brother Mac ever married the educated Miss Humphries.
“You'll see that it won't prosper, and I shall always maintain that a wife cannot entirely undo a mother's work. Rose will have her hands full if she tries to set all Clara's mistakes right,” answered Aunt Jane grimly, then began to fan violently as their hostess approached to have a dish of chat about “our dear young people.”
“You'll see that it won't work out, and I’ll always stand by the idea that a wife can’t completely fix what a mother has done. Rose will be overwhelmed if she tries to correct all of Clara's mistakes,” Aunt Jane replied sternly, then started fanning herself vigorously as their hostess came over to chat about “our dear young people.”
Rose was in a merry mood that night, and found Mac quite ready for fun, which was fortunate, since her first remark set them off on a droll subject.
Rose was in a cheerful mood that night and found Mac more than eager to have some fun, which was great because her first comment led them into a funny conversation.
“Oh, Mac! Annabel has just confided to me that she is engaged to Fun See! Think of her going to housekeeping in Canton someday and having to order rats, puppies, and bird's-nest soup for dinner,” whispered Rose, too much amused to keep the news to herself.
“Oh, Mac! Annabel just told me that she's engaged to Fun See! Can you imagine her managing a household in Canton someday and having to order rats, puppies, and bird's-nest soup for dinner?” whispered Rose, too amused to keep the news to herself.
“By Confucius! Isn't that a sweet prospect?” And Mac burst out laughing, to the great surprise of his neighbors, who wondered what there was amusing about the Chinese sage. “It is rather alarming, though, to have these infants going on at this rate. Seems to be catching, a new sort of scarlet fever, to judge by Annabel's cheeks and Kitty's gown,” he added, regarding the aforesaid ladies with eyes still twinkling with merriment.
“By Confucius! Isn't that a nice thought?” And Mac burst out laughing, to the great surprise of his neighbors, who were curious about what was funny about the Chinese sage. “It is a bit concerning, though, to see these kids acting like this. It looks contagious, like a new kind of scarlet fever, judging by Annabel's cheeks and Kitty's dress,” he added, looking at the two ladies with eyes still sparkling with amusement.
“Don't be ungallant, but go and do likewise, for it is all the fashion. I heard Mrs. Van tell old Mrs. Joy that it was going to be a marrying year, so you'll be sure to catch it,” answered Rose, reefing her skirts, for, with all his training, Mac still found it difficult to keep his long legs out of the man-traps.
“Don't be rude, but go and do the same, because it's the trend. I heard Mrs. Van tell old Mrs. Joy that this is going to be a year full of weddings, so you’re definitely going to get caught up in it,” replied Rose, lifting her skirts, because even with all his training, Mac still struggled to keep his long legs out of the way.
“It doesn't look like a painful disease, but I must be careful, for I've no time to be ill now. What are the symptoms?” asked Mac, trying to combine business with pleasure and improve his mind while doing his duty.
“It doesn't seem like a painful illness, but I need to be cautious because I can't afford to be sick right now. What are the symptoms?” asked Mac, trying to mix business with pleasure and improve his mind while fulfilling his responsibilities.
“If you ever come back I'll tell you,” laughed Rose as he danced away into the wrong corner, bumped smartly against another gentleman, and returned as soberly as if that was the proper figure.
“If you ever come back, I’ll tell you,” laughed Rose as he danced away to the wrong corner, bumped into another guy, and came back as seriously as if that was the right move.
“Well, tell me 'how not to do it,'” he said, subsiding for a moment's talk when Rose had floated to and fro in her turn.
“Well, tell me 'how not to do it,'” he said, pausing for a moment to chat after Rose had floated back and forth in her turn.
“Oh! You see some young girl who strikes you as particularly charming whether she really is or not doesn't matter a bit and you begin to think about her a great deal, to want to see her, and to get generally sentimental and absurd,” began Rose, finding it difficult to give a diagnosis of the most mysterious disease under the sun.
“Oh! You see a young woman who seems especially charming—whether she actually is or not doesn’t matter at all—and you start thinking about her a lot, wanting to see her, and getting all sentimental and ridiculous,” Rose began, struggling to explain the most puzzling condition in existence.
“Don't think it sounds enticing. Can't I find an antidote somewhere, for if it is in the air this year I'm sure to get it, and it may be fatal,” said Mac, who felt pretty lively and liked to make Rose merry, for he suspected that she had a little trouble from a hint Dr. Alec had given him.
“Don't think it sounds appealing. Can't I find an antidote somewhere? If it’s going around this year, I’m sure to catch it, and it could be deadly,” said Mac, who felt pretty energetic and wanted to cheer up Rose, as he suspected she was facing some trouble from a hint Dr. Alec had given him.
“I hope you will catch it, because you'll be so funny.”
“I hope you get it, because you're going to be so funny.”
“Will you take care of me as you did before, or have you got your hands full?”
“Will you take care of me like you did before, or are you too busy?”
“I'll help, but really with Archie and Steve and Charlie, I shall have enough to do. You'd better take it lightly the first time, and so won't need much care.”
“I'll help, but honestly with Archie, Steve, and Charlie, I'll have my hands full. You should take it easy the first time, so it won’t require too much effort.”
“Very well, how shall I begin? Enlighten my ignorance and start me right, I beg.”
“Alright, how should I start? Please clear up my confusion and point me in the right direction, I ask.”
“Go about and see people, make yourself agreeable, and not sit in corners observing other people as if they were puppets dancing for your amusement. I heard Mrs. Van once say that propinquity works wonders, and she ought to know, having married off two daughters, and just engaged a third to 'a most charming young man.'?
“Get out there and interact with people, be friendly, and don’t just sit in the corner watching others like they're puppets performing for your entertainment. I once heard Mrs. Van say that being close to people works wonders, and she should know, having married off two daughters and now engaged a third to 'a really charming young man.'?”
“Good lack! The cure sounds worse than the disease. Propinquity, hey? Why, I may be in danger this identical moment and can't flee for my life,” said Mac, gently catching her round the waist for a general waltz.
“Wow! The remedy seems worse than the problem. Proximity, huh? Well, I could be in danger right now and can't escape for my life,” said Mac, gently wrapping his arms around her waist for a little waltz.
“Don't be alarmed, but mind your steps, for Charlie is looking at us, and I want you to do your best. That's perfect take me quite round, for I love to waltz and seldom get a good turn except with you boys,” said Rose, smiling up at him approvingly as his strong arm guided her among the revolving couples and his feet kept time without a fault.
“Don’t worry, but watch your step, because Charlie is watching us, and I want you to give it your all. That’s perfect—take me all the way around, because I love to waltz and hardly ever get a good partner except with you guys,” said Rose, smiling up at him approvingly as his strong arm led her among the spinning couples and his feet moved perfectly in time.
“This certainly is a great improvement on the chair business, to which I have devoted myself with such energy that I've broken the backs of two partners and dislocated the arm of the old rocker. I took an occasional turn with that heavy party, thinking it good practice in case I ever happen to dance with stout ladies.” And Mac nodded toward Annabel, pounding gaily with Mr. Tokio, whose yellow countenance beamed as his beady eyes rested on his plump fiancée.
“This is definitely a big improvement over the chair business, which I've thrown myself into so fiercely that I've broken the backs of two partners and dislocated the arm of the old rocking chair. I took a spin with that hefty person, thinking it would be good practice in case I ever end up dancing with heavier ladies.” And Mac nodded toward Annabel, happily dancing with Mr. Tokio, whose yellow face lit up as his beady eyes rested on his plump fiancée.
Pausing in the midst of her merriment at the image of Mac and the old rocking chair, Rose said reprovingly, “Though a heathen Chinee, Fun puts you to shame, for he did not ask foolish questions but went a-wooing like a sensible little man, and I've no doubt Annabel will be very happy.”
Pausing in the middle of her laughter at the image of Mac and the old rocking chair, Rose said disapprovingly, “Even though he's a heathen Chinee, Fun puts you to shame because he didn’t ask silly questions but went after his love like a level-headed guy, and I’m sure Annabel will be very happy.”
“Choose me a suitable divinity and I will try to adore. Can I do more than that to retrieve my character?” answered Mac, safely landing his partner and plying the fan according to instructions.
“Pick a suitable deity for me and I’ll try to worship. Is there anything more I can do to restore my reputation?” replied Mac, safely getting his partner on solid ground and using the fan as instructed.
“How would Emma do?” inquired Rose, whose sense of the ludicrous was strong and who could not resist the temptation of horrifying Mac by the suggestion.
"How would Emma do?" asked Rose, whose sense of humor was sharp and who couldn't resist the temptation of shocking Mac with the idea.
“Never! It sets my teeth on edge to look at her tonight. I suppose that dress is 'a sweet thing just out,' but upon my word she reminds me of nothing but a Harlequin ice,” and Mac turned his back on her with a shudder, for he was sensitive to discords of all kinds.
"Never! It makes my teeth ache to look at her tonight. I guess that dress is 'a sweet thing just out,' but honestly, she reminds me of nothing but a Harlequin ice,” and Mac turned his back on her with a shudder, as he was sensitive to all kinds of dissonance.
“She certainly does, and that mixture of chocolate, pea green, and pink is simply detestable, though many people would consider it decidedly 'chic,' to use her favorite word. I suppose you will dress your wife like a Spartan matron of the time of Lycurgus,” added Rose, much tickled by his new conceit.
“She really does, and that combination of chocolate, pea green, and pink is just awful, though a lot of people would call it pretty 'chic,' which is her favorite word. I guess you’ll dress your wife like a Spartan matron from the time of Lycurgus,” Rose added, amused by his new idea.
“I'll wait till I get her before I decide. But one thing I'm sure of she shall not dress like a Greek dancer of the time of Pericles,” answered Mac, regarding with great disfavor a young lady who, having a statuesque figure, affected drapery of the scanty and clinging description.
“I'll wait until I see her before I make a decision. But one thing I know for sure is that she will not dress like a Greek dancer from the time of Pericles,” Mac replied, looking disapprovingly at a young woman who, with her statuesque figure, was wearing drapery that was minimal and clingy.
“Then it is of no use to suggest that classic creature, so as you reject my first attempts, I won't go on but look about me quietly, and you had better do the same. Seriously, Mac, more gaiety and less study would do you good, for you will grow old before your time if you shut yourself up and pore over books so much.”
“Then it’s pointless to bring up that classic creature, so since you’re dismissing my first tries, I won’t continue but will just look around quietly, and you should probably do the same. Honestly, Mac, a little more fun and less studying would be good for you because you’ll age faster if you keep shutting yourself away and obsessively reading books.”
“I don't believe there is a younger or a jollier-feeling fellow in the room than I am, though I may not conduct myself like a dancing dervish. But I own you may be right about the books, for there are many sorts of intemperance, and a library is as irresistible to me as a barroom to a toper. I shall have to sign a pledge and cork up the only bottle that tempts me my ink-stand.”
“I don't think there's anyone in the room who's younger or feels happier than I do, even if I don't act like I'm ready to dance. But I admit you might be right about the books, because there are all kinds of excess, and a library is just as hard for me to resist as a bar is for someone who drinks too much. I guess I’ll need to make a promise and put a stop to the only thing that tempts me: my ink well.”
“I'll tell you how to make it easier to abstain. Stop studying and write a novel into which you can put all your wise things, and so clear your brains for a new start by and by. Do I should so like to read it,” cried Rose, delighted with the project, for she was sure Mac could do anything he liked in that line.
“I’ll tell you how to make it easier to give up. Stop studying and write a novel where you can include all your smart ideas, clearing your mind for a fresh start eventually. I would love to read it,” Rose exclaimed, thrilled with the idea, as she was confident Mac could accomplish anything he wanted in that area.
“First live, then write. How can I go to romancing till I know what romance means?” he asked soberly, feeling that so far he had had very little in his life.
“First live, then write. How can I get into romance until I know what romance really means?” he asked seriously, feeling that he had experienced very little in his life so far.
“Then you must find out, and nothing will help you more than to love someone very much. Do as I've advised and be a modern Diogenes going about with spectacles instead of a lantern in search, not of an honest man, but a perfect woman. I do hope you will be successful.” And Rose made her curtsey as the dance ended.
“Then you need to figure it out, and nothing will help you more than loving someone deeply. Follow my advice and be a modern Diogenes, walking around with glasses instead of a lantern, searching not for an honest man but for a perfect woman. I really hope you succeed.” And Rose curtsied as the dance came to a close.
“I don't expect perfection, but I should like one as good as they ever make them nowadays. If you are looking for the honest man, I wish you success in return,” said Mac, relinquishing her fan with a glance of such sympathetic significance that a quick flush of feeling rose to the girl's face as she answered very low, “If honesty was all I wanted, I certainly have found it in you.”
“I don't expect perfection, but I would like one that's as good as they make them these days. If you’re searching for an honest man, I wish you luck,” said Mac, letting go of her fan with a look of such understanding that a quick blush of emotion spread across the girl's face as she replied softly, “If honesty was all I wanted, I definitely have found it in you.”
Then she went away with Charlie, who was waiting for his turn, and Mac roamed about, wondering if anywhere in all that crowd his future wife was hidden, saying to himself, as he glanced from face to face, quite unresponsive to the various allurements displayed,
Then she left with Charlie, who was waiting for his turn, and Mac wandered around, wondering if somewhere in that crowd his future wife was hidden, saying to himself, as he looked from face to face, totally uninterested in the various attractions on display,
“What care I how fair she be, If she be not fair for me?”
“What do I care how beautiful she is, if she isn’t beautiful to me?”
Just before supper several young ladies met in the dressing room to repair damages and, being friends, they fell into discourse as they smoothed their locks and had their tattered furbelows sewed or pinned up by the neat-handed Phillis-in-waiting.
Just before dinner, a few young women gathered in the dressing room to fix their outfits. As friends, they started chatting while they styled their hair and had their worn clothing mended or pinned up by the tidy Phillis who was attending to them.
When each had asked the other, “How do I look tonight, dear?” and been answered with reciprocal enthusiasm, “Perfectly lovely, darling!” Kitty said to Rose, who was helping her to restore order out of the chaos to which much exercise had reduced her curls: “By the way, young Randal is dying to be presented to you. May I after supper?”
When they had both asked each other, “How do I look tonight, dear?” and had replied with mutual excitement, “Absolutely gorgeous, darling!” Kitty told Rose, who was helping her fix the mess that exercise had made of her curls: “By the way, young Randal is eager to meet you. Can I introduce you after dinner?”
“No, thank you,” answered Rose very decidedly.
“No, thank you,” Rose replied firmly.
“Well, I'm sure I don't see why not,” began Kitty, looking displeased but not surprised.
"Well, I'm not sure why not," Kitty said, looking displeased but not surprised.
“I think you do, else why didn't you present him when he asked? You seldom stop to think of etiquette why did you now?”
“I think you do, otherwise why didn’t you introduce him when he asked? You rarely consider etiquette—why did you this time?”
“I didn't like to do it till I had you are so particular I thought you'd say 'no,' but I couldn't tell him so,” stammered Kitty, feeling that she had better have settled the matter herself, for Rose was very particular and had especial reason to dislike this person because he was not only a dissipated young reprobate himself but seemed possessed of Satan to lead others astray likewise.
“I didn't want to do it until I had you because you're so picky; I thought you'd say 'no,' but I couldn't tell him that,” stammered Kitty, realizing she should have handled it herself, since Rose was very particular and had a good reason to dislike this guy because he was not only a wild young troublemaker but also seemed to have a knack for leading others down the wrong path.
“I don't wish to be rude, dear, but I really must decline, for I cannot know such people, even though I meet them here,” said Rose, remembering Charlie's revelations on New Year's night and hardening her heart against the man who had been his undoing on that as well as on other occasions, she had reason to believe.
“I don’t mean to be rude, dear, but I really have to say no, because I can’t associate with people like that, even though I run into them here,” Rose said, recalling Charlie’s revelations from New Year’s night and steeling herself against the man who had caused his downfall on that occasion as well as on others, as she had reason to believe.
“I couldn't help it! Old Mr. Randal and Papa are friends, and though I spoke of it, brother Alf wouldn't hear of passing that bad boy over,” explained Kitty eagerly.
“I couldn't help it! Old Mr. Randal and Dad are friends, and even though I mentioned it, brother Alf wouldn’t listen to the idea of letting that troublemaker off the hook,” explained Kitty eagerly.
“Yet Alf forbade you driving or skating with him, for he knows better than we how unfit he is to come among us.”
“Yet Alf wouldn’t let you drive or skate with him because he knows better than we do how unfit he is to be around us.”
“I'd drop him tomorrow if I could, but I must be civil in my own house. His mother brought him, and he won't dare to behave here as he does at their bachelor parties.”
“I’d kick him out tomorrow if I could, but I have to be polite in my own home. His mom brought him, and he won’t dare act here like he does at their bachelor parties.”
“She ought not to have brought him till he had shown some desire to mend his ways. It is none of my business, I know, but I do wish people wouldn't be so inconsistent, letting boys go to destruction and then expecting us girls to receive them like decent people.” Rose spoke in an energetic whisper, but Annabel heard her and exclaimed, as she turned round with a powder puff in her hand: “My goodness, Rose! What is all that about going to destruction?”
“She shouldn’t have brought him until he showed some interest in changing his ways. I know it’s not my place, but I really wish people wouldn’t be so inconsistent, allowing guys to ruin themselves and then expecting us girls to treat them like good people.” Rose spoke in an intense whisper, but Annabel heard her and exclaimed, turning around with a powder puff in her hand: “Oh my gosh, Rose! What’s all this about going to ruin?”
“She is being strong-minded, and I don't very much blame her in this case. But it leaves me in a dreadful scrape,” said Kitty, supporting her spirits with a sniff of aromatic vinegar.
"She's being pretty stubborn, and I can't really blame her this time. But it's putting me in a terrible situation," said Kitty, lifting her spirits with a sniff of aromatic vinegar.
“I appeal to you, since you heard me, and there's no one here but ourselves do you consider young Randal a nice person to know?” And Rose turned to Annabel and Emma with an anxious eye, for she did not find it easy to abide by her principles when so doing annoyed friends.
“I’m asking you, since you heard me, and there’s no one here but us, do you think young Randal is a nice person to know?” And Rose looked at Annabel and Emma with concern, as she found it hard to stick to her principles when it upset her friends.
“No, indeed, he's perfectly horrid! Papa says he and Gorham are the wildest young men he knows, and enough to spoil the whole set. I'm so glad I've got no brothers,” responded Annabel, placidly powdering her pink arms, quite undeterred by the memory of sundry white streaks left on sundry coat sleeves.
“No way, he’s absolutely terrible! Dad says he and Gorham are the wildest guys he knows, and they could ruin the whole group. I’m so glad I don’t have any brothers,” Annabel replied, calmly powdering her pink arms, totally unfazed by the memory of various white streaks left on different coat sleeves.
“I think that sort of scrupulousness is very ill-bred, if you'll excuse my saying so, Rose. We are not supposed to know anything about fastness, and wildness, and so on, but to treat every man alike and not be fussy and prudish,” said Emma, settling her many-colored streamers with the superior air of a woman of the world, aged twenty.
“I think that kind of attention to detail is really rude, if you don’t mind me saying so, Rose. We shouldn’t be aware of things like wildness and excess; we should treat everyone equally and not be uptight or judgmental,” said Emma, adjusting her colorful streamers with the confident attitude of a socially savvy woman at twenty.
“Ah! But we do know, and if our silence and civility have no effect, we ought to try something else and not encourage wickedness of any kind. We needn't scold and preach, but we can refuse to know such people and that will do some good, for they don't like to be shunned and shut out from respectable society. Uncle Alec told me not to know that man, and I won't.” Rose spoke with unusual warmth, forgetting that she could not tell the real reason for her strong prejudice against “that man.”
“Ah! But we do know, and if being quiet and polite doesn’t work, we should try something else and not support any kind of wickedness. We don’t have to scold or lecture, but we can choose to ignore those people, and that will actually make a difference, because they don’t like being avoided and excluded from decent society. Uncle Alec told me to steer clear of that man, and I will.” Rose said this with unusual passion, forgetting that she couldn’t express the real reason for her strong dislike of “that man.”
“Well, I know him. I think him very jolly, and I'm engaged to dance the German with him after supper. He leads quite as well as your cousin Charlie and is quite as fascinating, some people think,” returned Emma, tossing her head disdainfully, for Prince Charming did not worship at her shrine and it piqued her vanity.
“Well, I know him. I think he’s really fun, and I’ve agreed to dance the German with him after dinner. He leads just as well as your cousin Charlie and some people find him just as charming,” Emma replied, tossing her head dismissively, because Prince Charming didn’t admire her and it hurt her pride.
In spite of her quandary, Rose could not help smiling as she recalled Mac's comparison, for Emma turned so red with spiteful chagrin, she seemed to have added strawberry ice to the other varieties composing the Harlequin.
Despite her dilemma, Rose couldn't help but smile as she remembered Mac's comparison, because Emma turned so red with spiteful embarrassment that she looked like she had added strawberry ice to the other flavors making up the Harlequin.
“Each must judge for herself. I shall follow Aunt Jessie's advice and try to keep my atmosphere as pure as I can, for she says every woman has her own little circle and in it can use her influence for good, if she will. I do will heartily, and I'll prove that I'm neither proud nor fussy by receiving, here or at home, any respectable man you like to present to me, no matter how poor or plain or insignificant he may be.”
“Everyone has to make their own judgments. I’m going to take Aunt Jessie’s advice and do my best to keep my environment as positive as I can because she says every woman has her own small circle where she can make a difference for the better, if she chooses to. I truly want to, and I’ll show that I’m neither snobbish nor picky by welcoming any decent man you want to introduce to me, whether he’s poor, ordinary, or not particularly noteworthy.”
With which declaration Rose ended her protest, and the four damsels streamed downstairs together like a wandering rainbow. But Kitty laid to heart what she had said; Annabel took credit herself for siding with her; and Emma owned that she was not trying to keep her atmosphere pure when she came to dance with the objectionable Randal. So Rose's “little circle” was the better for the influence she tried to exert, although she never knew it.
With that declaration, Rose wrapped up her protest, and the four girls headed downstairs together like a flowing rainbow. But Kitty took to heart what she had said; Annabel felt proud of siding with her; and Emma admitted that she wasn't trying to maintain her perfect image when she danced with the problematic Randal. So Rose's "little circle" benefited from the influence she tried to have, even though she never realized it.
At suppertime Charlie kept near her, and she was quite content with him, for he drank only coffee, and she saw him shake his head with a frown when young Van beckoned him toward an anteroom, from whence the sound of popping corks had issued with increasing frequency as the evening wore on.
At dinner, Charlie stayed close to her, and she felt happy with him because he only drank coffee. She noticed him shake his head with a frown when young Van signaled him to come to a nearby room, from which the sound of popping corks had been getting louder as the night went on.
“Dear fellow, he does try,” thought Rose, longing to show how she admired his self-denial, but she could only say, as they left the supper room with the aunts, who were going early: “If I had not promised Uncle to get home as soon after midnight as possible, I'd stay and dance the German with you, for you deserve a reward tonight.”
“Dear friend, he really is trying,” thought Rose, wanting to express how much she admired his selflessness, but all she could say as they left the dining room with the aunts, who were leaving early, was: “If I hadn’t promised Uncle to get home as soon after midnight as I could, I’d stay and dance the German with you, because you deserve a reward tonight.”
“A thousand thanks, but I am going when you do,” answered Charlie, understanding both her look and words and very grateful for them.
“A thousand thanks, but I’m going when you do,” replied Charlie, understanding both her look and words and feeling very grateful for them.
“Really?” cried Rose, delighted.
“Really?” Rose exclaimed, thrilled.
“Really. I'll be in the hall when you come down.” And Charlie thought the Fra Angelico angel was not half so bright and beautiful as the one who looked back at him out of a pale blue cloud as Rose went upstairs as if on wings.
“Seriously. I'll be in the hall when you come down.” And Charlie thought the Fra Angelico angel wasn't nearly as bright and beautiful as the one who smiled back at him from a pale blue cloud as Rose went upstairs as if she had wings.
When she came down again Charlie was not in the hall, however, and, after waiting a few minutes, Mac offered to go and find him, for Aunt Jane was still hunting a lost rubber above.
When she came down again, Charlie wasn't in the hall. After waiting a few minutes, Mac offered to go look for him since Aunt Jane was still searching for a lost rubber upstairs.
“Please say I'm ready, but he needn't come if he doesn't want to,” said Rose, not wishing to demand too much of her promising penitent.
“Please tell him I'm ready, but he doesn't have to come if he doesn't want to,” said Rose, not wanting to ask too much of her promising penitent.
“If he has gone into that barroom, I'll have him out, no matter who is there!” growled Mac to himself as he made his way to the small apartment whither the gentlemen retired for a little private refreshment when the spirit moved, as it often did.
“If he’s gone into that bar, I’ll drag him out, no matter who’s there!” Mac grumbled to himself as he headed to the small apartment where the gentlemen went for a little private drink when the mood struck, which was often.
The door was ajar, and Charlie seemed to have just entered, for Mac heard a familiar voice call out in a jovial tone: “Come, Prince! You're just in time to help us drink Steve's health with all the honors.”
The door was slightly open, and Charlie appeared to have just arrived, because Mac heard a familiar voice cheerfully say, “Come on, Prince! You're just in time to help us raise a toast to Steve’s health with all the honors.”
“Can't stop, only ran in to say good night, Van. Had a capital time, but I'm on duty and must go.”
“Can't stop, just wanted to say good night, Van. I had a great time, but I’m on duty and need to leave.”
“That's a new dodge. Take a stirrup cup anyway, and come back in time for a merry-go-rounder when you've disposed of the ladies,” answered the young host, diving into the wine cooler for another bottle.
"That's a new trick. Have a stirrup cup anyway, and come back in time for a carousel ride when you're done with the ladies," replied the young host, reaching into the wine cooler for another bottle.
“Charlie's going in for sanctity, and it doesn't seem to agree with him,” laughed one of the two other young men who occupied several chairs apiece, resting their soles in every sense of the word.
“Charlie’s going for purity, and it doesn’t seem to suit him,” laughed one of the two other young men who occupied several chairs each, resting their feet in every sense of the word.
“Apron strings are coming into fashion the bluer the better hey, Prince?” added the other, trying to be witty, with the usual success.
“Apron strings are coming back in style, the bluer the better, right, Prince?” added the other, trying to be funny, with the usual outcome.
“You'd better go home early yourself, Barrow, or that tongue of yours will get you into trouble,” retorted Charlie, conscious that he ought to take his own advice, yet lingering, nervously putting on his gloves while the glasses were being filled.
“You should head home early too, Barrow, or that mouth of yours will land you in hot water,” Charlie shot back, aware that he needed to heed his own advice but hesitating, anxiously putting on his gloves as the drinks were being poured.
“Now, brother-in-law, fire away! Here you are, Prince.” And Steve handed a glass across the table to his cousin, feeling too much elated with various pleasurable emotions to think what he was doing, for the boys all knew Charlie's weakness and usually tried to defend him from it.
“Now, brother-in-law, go for it! Here you are, Prince.” And Steve handed a glass across the table to his cousin, feeling too excited and happy to really consider what he was doing, since the guys all knew about Charlie's weakness and usually tried to protect him from it.
Before the glass could be taken, however, Mac entered in a great hurry, delivering his message in an abbreviated and rather peremptory form: “Rose is waiting for you. Hurry up!”
Before the glass could be picked up, though, Mac rushed in, delivering his message in a brief and somewhat urgent way: “Rose is waiting for you. Hurry up!”
“All right. Good night, old fellows!” And Charlie was off, as if the name had power to stop him in the very act of breaking the promise made to himself.
“All right. Good night, guys!” And Charlie was off, as if the name had the power to stop him right in the act of breaking the promise he made to himself.
“Come, Solon, take a social drop, and give us an epithalamium in your best Greek. Here's to you!” And Steve was lifting the wine to his own lips when Mac knocked the glass out of his hand with a flash of the eye that caused his brother to stare at him with his mouth open in an imbecile sort of way, which seemed to excite Mac still more, for, turning to his young host, he said, in a low voice, and with a look that made the gentlemen on the chairs sit up suddenly: “I beg pardon, Van, for making a mess, but I can't stand by and see my own brother tempt another man beyond his strength or make a brute of himself. That's plain English, but I can't help speaking out, for I know not one of you would willingly hurt Charlie, and you will if you don't let him alone.”
“Come on, Solon, have a drink with us, and give us a wedding poem in your best Greek. Cheers to you!” Just as Steve was raising the wine to his lips, Mac knocked the glass out of his hand with a look that made his brother stare at him in shock, which seemed to make Mac even more agitated. Turning to his young host, he said quietly, with a look that made the other gentlemen sit up straight, “I’m sorry, Van, for causing a scene, but I can’t just watch my own brother push another man beyond his limits or act like a fool. That’s straightforward, but I can’t hold back, because I know none of you would want to hurt Charlie, and you will if you don’t leave him alone.”
“What do you pitch into me for? I've done nothing. A fellow must be civil in his own house, mustn't he?” asked Van good-humoredly as he faced about, corkscrew in hand.
“What are you getting on my case for? I haven’t done anything. A guy should be polite in his own house, right?” asked Van cheerfully as he turned around, corkscrew in hand.
“Yes, but it is not civil to urge or joke a guest into doing what you know and he knows is bad for him. That's only a glass of wine to you, but it is perdition to Charlie, and if Steve knew what he was about, he'd cut his right hand off before he'd offer it.”
“Yes, but it’s not polite to pressure or joke a guest into doing something that you know, and he knows, is bad for him. To you, it’s just a glass of wine, but for Charlie, it’s a disaster. If Steve understood what he was doing, he’d chop off his right hand before offering it.”
“Do you mean to say I'm tipsy?” demanded Steve, ruffling up like a little gamecock, for though he saw now what he had done and was ashamed of it, he hated to have Mac air his peculiar notions before other people.
“Are you saying I'm tipsy?” Steve shot back, puffing up like a little rooster, because even though he realized what he had done and felt ashamed, he hated having Mac share his quirky ideas in front of others.
“With excitement, not champagne, I hope, for I wouldn't own you if you were,” answered Mac, in whom indignation was effervescing like the wine in the forgotten bottle, for the men were all young, friends of Steve's and admirers of Charlie's. “Look here, boys,” he went on more quietly, “I know I ought not to explode in this violent sort of way, but upon my life I couldn't help it when I heard what you were saying and saw what Steve was doing. Since I have begun, I may as well finish and tell you straight out that Prince can't stand this sort of thing. He is trying to flee temptation, and whoever leads him into it does a cowardly and sinful act, for the loss of one's own self-respect is bad enough, without losing the more precious things that make life worth having. Don't tell him I've said this, but lend a hand if you can, and never have to reproach yourselves with the knowledge that you helped to ruin a fellow creature, soul and body.”
“With excitement, not champagne, I hope, because I wouldn’t own you if you were,” replied Mac, whose anger was bubbling up like the wine in a forgotten bottle, as the men were all young, friends of Steve's and fans of Charlie's. “Listen up, guys,” he continued more calmly, “I know I shouldn’t lose my cool like this, but honestly, I couldn’t help it when I heard what you were saying and saw what Steve was doing. Since I'm already speaking up, I might as well be straightforward and tell you that Prince can’t handle this kind of thing. He’s trying to escape temptation, and anyone who leads him into it is acting cowardly and sinfully, because losing one's self-respect is tough enough without also losing the more valuable things that make life worth living. Don’t tell him I said this, but please help if you can, and don’t allow yourselves to regret that you played a part in ruining another person, both soul and body.”
It was well for the success of Mac's first crusade that his hearers were gentlemen and sober, so his outburst was not received with jeers or laughter but listened to in silence, while the expression of the faces changed from one of surprise to regret and respect, for earnestness is always effective and championship of this sort seldom fails to touch hearts as yet unspoiled. As he paused with an eloquent little quiver in his eager voice, Van corked the bottle at a blow, threw down the corkscrew, and offered Mac his hand, saying heartily, in spite of his slang: “You are a first-class old brick! I'll lend a hand for one, and do my best to back up Charlie, for he's the finest fellow I know, and shan't go to the devil like poor Randal if I can help it.”
It was beneficial for Mac's first campaign that his audience consisted of respectful gentlemen; so his passionate speech wasn't met with mockery or laughter but was listened to in silence. The expressions on their faces shifted from surprise to regret and respect, because sincerity is always impactful, and this kind of advocacy rarely fails to reach hearts that haven't been corrupted. As he paused with a notable quiver in his eager voice, Van quickly corked the bottle, tossed down the corkscrew, and offered Mac his hand, saying sincerely, despite his casual language: “You’re a fantastic person! I’ll help out, and I’ll do my best to support Charlie, because he’s the best guy I know, and I won’t let him go down the wrong path like poor Randal if I can prevent it.”
Murmurs of applause from the others seemed to express a general assent to this vigorous statement, and, giving the hand a grateful shake, Mac retreated to the door, anxious to be off now that he had freed his mind with such unusual impetuosity.
Murmurs of applause from the others seemed to show general agreement with this strong statement, and, giving the hand a thankful shake, Mac stepped back to the door, eager to leave now that he had expressed his thoughts with such rare intensity.
“Count on me for anything I can do in return for this, Van. I'm sorry to be such a marplot, but you can take it out in quizzing me after I'm gone. I'm fair game, and Steve can set you going.”
“Count on me for anything I can do in return for this, Van. I'm sorry to be such a buzzkill, but you can take it out on me by quizzing me once I’m gone. I'm an open book, and Steve can get you started.”
With that, Mac departed as abruptly as he had come, feeling that he had “made a mess” of it, but comforting himself with the thought that perhaps he had secured help for Charlie at his own expense and thinking with a droll smile as he went back to his mother: “My romance begins by looking after other girls' lovers instead of finding a sweetheart for myself, but I can't tell Rose, so she won't laugh at me.”
With that, Mac left as suddenly as he had arrived, feeling like he had "screwed it up," but reassuring himself with the idea that maybe he had found help for Charlie at his own cost. He chuckled to himself as he headed back to his mother, thinking, “My love life starts with taking care of other girls' boyfriends instead of looking for my own girl, but I can't tell Rose, or she’ll just laugh at me.”
Chapter 13 BOTH SIDES
Steve's engagement made a great stir in the family a pleasant one this time, for nobody objected, everything seemed felicitous, and the course of true love ran very smoothly for the young couple, who promised to remove the only obstacle to their union by growing old and wise as soon as possible. If he had not been so genuinely happy, the little lover's airs would have been unbearable, for he patronized all mankind in general, his brother and elder cousins in particular.
Steve's engagement created quite a buzz in the family, and this time it was a good one. Nobody had any objections; everything felt right, and true love flowed easily for the young couple. They vowed to overcome the only hurdle to their union by maturing and gaining wisdom as soon as they could. If he hadn’t been so genuinely happy, the young lover's attitude would have been hard to tolerate, as he looked down on everyone, especially his brother and older cousins.
“Now, that is the way to manage matters,” he declared, standing before the fire in Aunt Clara's billiard room a day or two after the ball, with his hands behind his back. “No nonsense, no delay, no domestic rows or tragic separations. Just choose with taste and judgment, make yourself agreeable through thick and thin, and when it is perfectly evident that the dear creature adores the ground you walk on, say the word like a man, and there you are.”
“Now, that’s how to handle things,” he said, standing in front of the fire in Aunt Clara’s billiard room a day or two after the party, with his hands behind his back. “No nonsense, no delays, no family arguments or dramatic breakups. Just choose wisely, be charming no matter what, and when it’s clear that the lovely person thinks the world of you, say it straightforwardly, and you’re all set.”
“All very easy to do that with a girl like Kitty, who has no confounded notions to spoil her and trip you up every time you don't exactly toe the mark,” muttered Charlie, knocking the balls about as if it were a relief to hit something, for he was in a gloriously bad humor that evening, because time hung heavy on his hands since he had forsworn the company he could not keep without danger to himself.
“All too easy to do that with a girl like Kitty, who has no ridiculous ideas to mess things up and trip you up whenever you don’t exactly stick to the rules,” muttered Charlie, knocking the balls around as if it was a relief to hit something, because he was in a wonderfully bad mood that evening, since time dragged on for him after he had given up the company he couldn’t be around without putting himself at risk.
“You should humor those little notions, for all women have them, and it needs tact to steer clear of them. Kitty's got dozens, but I treat them with respect, have my own way when I can, give in without growling when I can't, and we get on like a couple of—”
“You should entertain those little ideas, because all women have them, and it takes sensitivity to navigate around them. Kitty has plenty, but I handle them with respect, do my own thing when I can, concede without complaining when I can't, and we get along like a couple of—”
“Spoons,” put in Charlie, who felt that he had not steered clear and so suffered shipwreck in sight of land.
“Spoons,” said Charlie, who felt that he hadn’t navigated properly and therefore had run aground just as he could see land.
Steve meant to have said “doves,” but his cousin's levity caused him to add with calm dignity, “reasonable beings,” and then revenged himself by making a good shot which won him the game.
Steve intended to say “doves,” but his cousin's joking made him respond with calm dignity, “reasonable beings,” and then he got back at him by making a great shot that won him the game.
“You always were a lucky little dog, Steve. I don't begrudge you a particle of your happiness, but it does seem as if things weren't quite fair sometimes,” said Archie, suppressing an envious sigh, for, though he seldom complained, it was impossible to contrast his own and his cousin's prospects with perfect equanimity.
“You’ve always been a lucky little pup, Steve. I don’t resent you for your happiness, but it does feel like things aren’t always fair,” said Archie, holding back an envious sigh, because even though he rarely complained, it was hard to compare his own prospects with his cousin’s without feeling a bit uneasy.
“His worth shines forth the brightest who in hope Always confides: the Abject soul despairs,”
“His value stands out the most when he always trusts in hope: the hopeless soul gives up.”
observed Mac, quoting Euripides in a conversational tone as he lay upon a divan reposing after a hard day's work.
observed Mac, quoting Euripides in a casual tone as he lay on a couch, relaxing after a long day at work.
“Thank you,” said Archie, brightening a little, for a hopeful word from any source was very comfortable.
“Thanks,” Archie said, feeling a bit better, as a kind word from any source was very reassuring.
“That's your favorite Rip, isn't it? He was a wise old boy, but you could find advice as good as that nearer home,” put in Steve, who just then felt equal to slapping Plato on the shoulder, so elated was he at being engaged “first of all the lot,” as he gracefully expressed it.
“That's your favorite Rip, right? He was a wise old guy, but you could find advice just as good closer to home,” added Steve, who at that moment felt ready to slap Plato on the shoulder, so thrilled was he at being engaged “first of all the lot,” as he put it.
“Don't halloo till you are out of the wood, Dandy Mrs. Kit has jilted two men, and may a third, so you'd better not brag of your wisdom too soon, for she may make a fool of you yet,” said Charlie, cynically, his views of life being very gloomy about this time.
“Don’t celebrate until you’re really in the clear. Dandy Mrs. Kit has dumped two guys and might go for a third, so you’d better not boast about your cleverness too early, because she might make a fool of you yet,” said Charlie, cynically, his outlook on life being pretty bleak at that moment.
“No, she won't, Steve, if you do your part honestly. There's the making of a good little woman in Kitty, and she has proved it by taking you instead of those other fellows. You are not a Solomon, but you're not spoilt yet, and she had the sense to see it,” said Mac encouragingly from his corner, for he and his brother were better friends than even since the little scene at the Van Tassels'.
“No, she won't, Steve, if you do your part honestly. There's the making of a great woman in Kitty, and she’s shown it by choosing you over those other guys. You may not be a genius, but you're not ruined yet, and she had the good sense to recognize that,” Mac said supportively from his corner, as he and his brother had become better friends than ever since the little incident at the Van Tassels’.
“Hear! Hear!” cried Steve, looking more than ever like a cheerful young cockerel trying to crow as he stood upon the hearth rug with his hands under his coat tails, rising and falling alternately upon the toes and heels of his neat little boots.
“Hear! Hear!” shouted Steve, looking more like a happy young rooster trying to crow as he stood on the hearth rug with his hands tucked under his coat tails, rising and falling alternately on the toes and heels of his tidy little boots.
“Come, you've given them each a pat on the head haven't you got one for me? I need it enough, for if ever there was a poor devil born under an evil star, it is C. C. Campbell,” exclaimed Charlie, leaning his chin on his cue with a discontented expression of countenance, for trying to be good is often very hard work till one gets used to it.
“Come on, you’ve given them each a pat on the head, haven’t you got one for me? I need it pretty badly, because if there was ever a poor guy born under a bad star, it’s C. C. Campbell,” Charlie exclaimed, leaning his chin on his cue with a frustrated look on his face, because trying to be good is often really tough until you get the hang of it.
“Oh, yes! I can accommodate you.” And, as if his words suggested the selection, Mac, still lying flat upon his back, repeated one of his favorite bits from Beaumont and Fletcher, for he had a wonderful memory and could reel off poetry by the hour together.
“Oh, definitely! I can help you with that.” And, as if his words had just inspired the choice, Mac, still lying flat on his back, quoted one of his favorite lines from Beaumont and Fletcher, because he had an incredible memory and could recite poetry for hours on end.
“Man is his own star; and the soul that can Render an honest and a perfect man Commands all light, all influence, all fate. Nothing to him falls early or too late. Our acts our angels are; or good or ill, Our fatal shadows that walk by us still.”
“Man is his own guiding light; and the soul that can Render an honest and perfect person Commands all light, all influence, all destiny. Nothing happens to him too soon or too late. Our actions are our angels; whether good or bad, Our fateful shadows walk beside us still.”
“Confoundedly bad angels they are too,” muttered Charlie ruefully, remembering the one that undid him.
“Those angels are really troublesome,” Charlie said with a sigh, remembering the one that brought him down.
His cousins never knew exactly what occurred on New Year's night, but suspected that something was amiss, for Charlie had the blues, and Rose, though as kind as ever, expressed no surprise at his long absences. They had all observed and wondered at this state of things, yet discreetly made no remark till Steve, who was as inquisitive as a magpie, seized this opportunity to say in a friendly tone, which showed that he bore no malice for the dark prophecy regarding his Kitty's faithfulness: “What's the trouble, Prince? You are so seldom in a bad humor that we don't know what to make of it and all feel out of spirits when you have the blues. Had a tiff with Rose?”
His cousins never figured out what really happened on New Year's night, but they sensed something was off because Charlie was down, and Rose, while as sweet as always, didn’t seem surprised by his long absences. They all noticed and wondered about this situation but kept quiet until Steve, who was as nosy as they come, took the chance to say in a friendly way, showing he held no grudges about the gloomy prediction concerning Kitty's loyalty: “What's wrong, Prince? You’re rarely in a bad mood, and when you are, it puts us all in a funk. Did you have a fight with Rose?”
“Never you mind, little boy, but this I will say the better women are, the more unreasonable they are. They don't require us to be saints like themselves, which is lucky, but they do expect us to render an 'honest and a perfect man' sometimes, and that is asking rather too much in a fallen world like this,” said Charlie, glad to get a little sympathy, though he had no intention of confessing his transgressions.
“Don’t worry about it, kid, but I will say that the better women are, the more unreasonable they can be. They don't expect us to be saints like they are, which is good, but they do want us to be an 'honest and perfect man' sometimes, and that’s asking a bit too much in a messed-up world like this,” Charlie said, happy to receive some sympathy, even though he had no plans to admit his wrongdoings.
“No, it isn't,” said Mac, decidedly.
“No, it’s not,” Mac said firmly.
“Much you know about it,” began Charlie, ill pleased to be so flatly contradicted.
“Look how much you know about it,” Charlie started, not happy to be so directly contradicted.
“Well, I know this much,” added Mac, suddenly sitting up with his hair in a highly disheveled condition. “It is very unreasonable in us to ask women to be saints and then expect them to feel honored when we offer them our damaged hearts or, at best, one not half as good as theirs. If they weren't blinded by love, they'd see what a mean advantage we take of them and not make such bad bargains.”
“Well, I know this much,” added Mac, suddenly sitting up with his hair all messy. “It's really unreasonable for us to expect women to be saints and then expect them to feel honored when we offer them our broken hearts or, at best, one that's not even close to being as good as theirs. If they weren't blinded by love, they'd see what a cruel advantage we take of them and wouldn't make such poor choices.”
“Upon my word, the philosopher is coming out strong upon the subject! We shall have him preaching 'Women's Rights' directly,” said Steve, much amazed at this outburst.
“Wow, the philosopher is really going off on this topic! We're going to have him preaching 'Women's Rights' for sure,” said Steve, clearly surprised by this outburst.
“I've begun, you see, and much good may it do you,” answered Mac, laying himself placidly down again.
"I've started, you see, and I hope it helps you," Mac replied, calmly lying back down again.
“Well, but look here, man you are arguing on the wrong side,” put in Archie, quite agreeing with him, but feeling that he must stand by his order at all costs.
"Well, listen, man, you're arguing on the wrong side," interrupted Archie, fully agreeing with him but feeling that he had to defend his orders no matter what.
“Never mind sides, uphold the right wherever you find it. You needn't stare, Steve I told you I was going to look into this matter, and I am. You think I'm wrapped up in books, but I see a great deal more of what is going on around me than you imagine, and I'm getting on in this new branch, let me tell you, quite as fast as is good for me, I daresay.”
“Don’t worry about sides, just stand up for what’s right wherever you find it. You don’t need to stare, Steve. I told you I was going to look into this, and I am. You think I’m just buried in books, but I notice a lot more of what’s happening around me than you think, and I’m making progress in this new area, believe me, just as well as is good for me, I’d say.”
“Going in for perfection, are you?” asked Charlie, both amused and interested, for he respected Mac more than he owned even to himself, and though he had never alluded to the timely warning, neither forgot.
“Trying to achieve perfection, are you?” asked Charlie, both amused and curious, as he respected Mac more than he even admitted to himself, and although he had never mentioned the timely warning, he never forgot it.
“Yes, I think of it.”
“Yeah, I think about it.”
“How will you begin?”
“How will you start?”
“Do my best all-round keep good company, read good books, love good things, and cultivate soul and body as faithfully and wisely as I can.”
“Do my best overall to keep good company, read good books, appreciate good things, and develop both my mind and body as faithfully and wisely as I can.”
“And you expect to succeed, do you?”
“And you think you’re going to succeed, huh?”
“Please God, I will.”
"Please God, I will."
The quiet energy of Mac's last words produced a momentary silence. Charlie thoughtfully studied the carpet; Archie, who had been absently poking the fire, looked over at Mac as if he thanked him again, and Steve, forgetting his self-conceit, began to wonder if it was not possible to improve himself a little for Kitty's sake. Only a minute, for young men do not give much time to thoughts of this kind, even when love stirs up the noblest impulses within them. To act rather than to talk is more natural to most of them, as Charlie's next question showed, for, having the matter much at heart, he ventured to ask in an offhand way as he laughed and twirled his cue: “Do you intend to reach the highest point of perfection before you address one of the fair saints, or shall you ask her to lend a hand somewhere short of that?”
The quiet impact of Mac's last words created a moment of silence. Charlie thoughtfully studied the carpet; Archie, who had been absentmindedly poking the fire, glanced at Mac as if to thank him again, and Steve, putting aside his arrogance, started to wonder if he could improve himself a bit for Kitty's sake. Just for a moment, because young men don’t dwell on thoughts like this for long, even when love brings out their best qualities. Taking action instead of talking is more natural for most of them, as Charlie's next question showed. With the matter weighing heavily on his mind, he jokingly asked while laughing and twirling his cue, “Are you planning to reach the peak of perfection before you approach one of the lovely saints, or will you ask her to help you get there first?”
“As it takes a long lifetime to do what I plan, I think I shall ask some good woman 'to lend a hand' when I've got anything worth offering her. Not a saint, for I never shall be one myself, but a gentle creature who will help me, as I shall try to help her, so that we can go on together and finish our work hereafter, if we haven't time to do it here.”
“As it takes a long time to accomplish what I plan, I think I’ll ask a good woman to 'lend a hand' when I have something worthwhile to offer her. Not a saint, because I’ll never be one myself, but a kind person who will help me, just as I’ll try to help her, so we can move forward together and complete our work later if we don’t have enough time to finish it now.”
If Mac had been a lover, he would not have discussed the subject in this simple and sincere fashion, though he might have felt it far more deeply, but being quite heart-free, he frankly showed his interest and, curiously enough, out of his wise young head unconsciously gave the three lovers before him counsel which they valued, because he practiced what he preached.
If Mac had been in love, he wouldn't have talked about it so openly and honestly, even if he felt it much more intensely. But since he wasn't tied down by love, he openly showed his interest and, interestingly enough, out of his wise young mind, he unknowingly offered the three lovers advice that they appreciated because he lived by the principles he discussed.
“Well, I hope you'll find her!” said Charlie heartily as he went back to his game.
“Well, I really hope you find her!” Charlie said enthusiastically as he returned to his game.
“I think I shall.” And while the others played, Mac lay staring at the window curtain as contentedly as if, through it, he beheld “a dream of fair women” from which to choose his future mate.
“I think I will.” And while the others played, Mac lay staring at the window curtain as happily as if he were seeing “a dream of beautiful women” from which to choose his future partner.
A few days after this talk in the billiard room, Kitty went to call upon Rose, for as she was about to enter the family she felt it her duty to become acquainted with all its branches. This branch, however, she cultivated more assiduously than any other and was continually running in to confer with “Cousin Rose,” whom she considered the wisest, dearest, kindest girl ever created. And Rose, finding that, in spite of her flighty head, Kitty had a good heart of her own, did her best to encourage all the new hopes and aspirations springing up in it under the warmth of the first genuine affection she had ever known.
A few days after their conversation in the billiard room, Kitty visited Rose because she felt it was important to get to know all the branches of the family before officially joining it. However, she spent more time with this branch than any other and frequently stopped by to talk to “Cousin Rose,” whom she thought was the wisest, sweetest, kindest girl ever. And Rose, realizing that despite Kitty's flighty nature, she had a good heart, did her best to support all the new hopes and dreams blossoming in her under the warmth of the first real love she had ever experienced.
“My dear, I want to have some serious conversation with you upon a subject in which I take an interest for the first time in my life,” began Miss Kitty, seating herself and pulling off her gloves as if the subject was one which needed a firm grasp.
“My dear, I want to have a serious conversation with you about a topic that I’m genuinely interested in for the first time in my life,” began Miss Kitty, settling down and taking off her gloves as if the topic required a solid grip.
“Tell away, and don't mind if I go on working, as I want to finish this job today,” answered Rose, with a long-handled paintbrush in her hand and a great pair of shears at her side.
“Go ahead and talk; I don’t mind if I keep working since I want to finish this job today,” replied Rose, holding a long-handled paintbrush in one hand and a big pair of shears at her side.
“You are always so busy! What is it now? Let me help I can talk faster when I'm doing something,” which seemed hardly possible, for Kitty's tongue went like a mill clapper at all hours.
“You're always so busy! What’s going on now? Let me help, I can talk faster when I’m doing something,” which seemed almost impossible, because Kitty's chatter was non-stop at all hours.
“Making picture books for my sick babies at the hospital. Pretty work, isn't it? You cut out, and I'll paste them on these squares of gay cambric then we just tie up a few pages with a ribbon and there is a nice, light, durable book for the poor dears to look at as they lie in their little beds.”
“Making picture books for my sick kids in the hospital. Nice work, right? You cut out the pictures, and I'll stick them onto these squares of colorful fabric, then we just tie a few pages together with a ribbon and there’s a nice, light, sturdy book for the poor little ones to look at while they lie in their beds.”
“A capital idea. Do you go there often? How ever do you find the time for such things?” asked Kitty, busily cutting from a big sheet the touching picture of a parent bird with a red head and a blue tail offering what looked like a small boa constrictor to one of its nestlings, a fat young squab with a green head, yellow body, and no tail at all.
“A great idea. Do you go there often? How do you find the time for that?” asked Kitty, busy cutting out from a large sheet the adorable image of a parent bird with a red head and a blue tail presenting what looked like a small boa constrictor to one of its chicks, a chubby young squab with a green head, yellow body, and no tail at all.
“I have plenty of time now I don't go out so much, for a party uses up two days generally one to prepare for it and one to get over it, you know.”
"I have plenty of time now since I don't go out much. A party usually takes up two days—one to get ready for it and one to recover from it, you know."
“People think it is so odd of you to give up society all of a sudden. They say you have 'turned pious' and it is owing to your peculiar bringing-up. I always take your part and say it is a pity other girls haven't as sensible an education, for I don't know one who is as satisfactory on the whole as you are.”
“People think it’s really strange that you suddenly gave up on society. They say you’ve become 'pious' because of your unusual upbringing. I always defend you and say it’s a shame other girls haven’t had as sensible an education, because I don’t know anyone who is as well-rounded as you are.”
“Much obliged. You may also tell people I gave up gaiety because I value health more. But I haven't forsworn everything of the kind, Kit. I go to concerts and lectures, and all sorts of early things, and have nice times at home, as you know. I like fun as well as ever, but I'm getting on, you see, and must be preparing a little for the serious part of life. One never knows when it may come,” said Rose, thoughtfully as she pasted a squirrel upside down on the pink cotton page before her.
"Thanks a lot. You can also tell people I gave up partying because I care more about my health. But I haven't completely sworn off having fun, Kit. I still go to concerts, lectures, and all sorts of early events, and I have nice times at home, as you know. I enjoy having a good time just as much as ever, but I'm getting older, you see, and I need to start preparing a bit for the serious side of life. You never know when it might show up," Rose said, thoughtfully as she pasted a squirrel upside down on the pink cotton page in front of her.
“That reminds me of what I wanted to say. If you'll believe me, my dear, Steve has got that very idea into his head! Did you or Mac put it there?” asked Kitty, industriously clashing her shears.
“That reminds me of what I wanted to say. If you’ll believe me, my dear, Steve has that very idea stuck in his head! Did you or Mac put it there?” asked Kitty, busily snapping her shears.
“No, I've given up lecturing the boys lately they are so big now they don't like it, and I fancy I'd got into a way that was rather tiresome.”
“No, I've stopped lecturing the boys lately; they're so grown now that they don't like it, and I think I had gotten into a habit that was pretty annoying.”
“Well, then, he is 'turning pious' too. And what is very singular, I like it. Now don't smile I really do and I want to be getting ready for the 'serious part of life,' as you call it. That is, I want to grow better as fast as I can, for Steve says he isn't half good enough for me. Just think of that!”
“Well, then, he’s 'getting religious' too. And what’s really unusual is, I actually like it. Now, don’t smile— I really do, and I want to prepare for the 'serious part of life,' as you put it. I mean, I want to improve as quickly as I can, because Steve says he’s not even close to being good enough for me. Can you believe that?”
Kitty looked so surprised and pleased and proud that Rose felt no desire to laugh at her sudden fancy for sobriety but said in her most sympathetic tone: “I'm very glad to hear it, for it shows that he loves you in the right way.”
Kitty looked so surprised, happy, and proud that Rose had no urge to laugh at her sudden interest in being serious but said in her most empathetic tone: “I’m really glad to hear that because it shows he loves you the right way.”
“Is there more than one way?”
“Is there more than one way?”
“Yes, I fancy so, because some people improve so much after they fall in love, and others do not at all. Have you never observed that?”
“Yes, I think so, because some people really change for the better after they fall in love, while others don’t change at all. Haven’t you noticed that?”
“I never learned how to observe. Of course I know that some matches turn out well and some don't, but I never thought much about it.”
“I never learned how to pay attention. I know that some matches go well and some don't, but I never really thought about it.”
“Well, I have, for I was rather interested in the subject lately and had a talk with Aunt Jessie and Uncle about it.”
“Well, I have, because I was pretty interested in the topic recently and had a conversation with Aunt Jessie and Uncle about it.”
“Gracious! You don't talk to them about such things, do you?”
“Wow! You don't discuss those things with them, do you?”
“Yes, indeed. I ask any questions I like, and always get a good answer. It is such a nice way to learn, Kitty, for you don't have to pore over books, but as things come along you talk about them and remember, and when they are spoken of afterward you understand and are interested, though you don't say a word,” explained Rose.
“Yes, definitely. I can ask any questions I want, and I always get a good answer. It's such a great way to learn, Kitty, because you don’t have to study books intensely, but as things come up, you discuss them and remember, and when they come up again later, you get it and find it interesting, even though you don’t say a word,” Rose explained.
“It must be nice, but I haven't anyone to do so for me. Papa is too busy, and Mama always says when I ask question, 'Don't trouble your head with such things, child,' so I don't. What did you learn about matches turning out well? I'm interested in that, because I want mine to be quite perfect in all respects.”
“It sounds nice, but I don’t have anyone to do that for me. Dad is too busy, and Mom always says when I ask a question, 'Don't worry about those things, kid,' so I don’t. What did you find out about matches going well? I’m curious about that because I want mine to be perfect in every way.”
“After thinking it over, I came to the conclusion that Uncle was right, and it is not always safe to marry a person just because you love him,” began Rose, trying to enlighten Kitty without betraying herself.
“After thinking it over, I realized that Uncle was right, and it's not always wise to marry someone just because you love them,” started Rose, trying to explain her thoughts to Kitty without revealing too much about herself.
“Of course not if they haven't money or are bad. But otherwise I don't see what more is needed,” said Kitty wonderingly.
“Of course not if they don't have money or are bad. But otherwise, I don’t see what else is needed,” said Kitty, wondering.
“One should stop and see if it is a wise love, likely to help both parties and wear well, for you know it ought to last all one's lifetime, and it is very sad if it doesn't.”
“One should pause and consider whether it’s a healthy love, likely to benefit both people and stand the test of time, because it should last a lifetime, and it’s really unfortunate if it doesn’t.”
“I declare it quite scares me to think of it, for I don't usually go beyond my wedding day in making plans. I remember, though, that when I was engaged the first time you don't know the man; it was just after you went away, and I was only sixteen someone very ill-naturedly said I should 'marry in haste and repent at leisure,' and that made me try to imagine how it would seem to go on year after year with Gustavus who had a dreadful temper, by the way and it worried me so to think of it that I broke the engagement, and was so glad ever afterward.”
“I have to admit, it really scares me to think about it because I usually only plan for my wedding day. But I remember that when I was engaged the first time—you don’t know the guy; it was right after you left, and I was only sixteen—someone really mean had said I should 'rush into marriage and regret it later,' and that made me try to picture what it would be like to spend year after year with Gustavus, who had a terrible temper, by the way. It stressed me out so much just thinking about it that I ended the engagement, and I’ve been so relieved ever since.”
“You were a wise girl and I hope you'll do it again if you find, after a time, that you and Steve do not truly trust and respect as well as love one another. If you don't, you'll be miserable when it is too late, as so many people are who do marry in haste and have a lifetime to repent it. Aunt Jessie says so, and she knows.”
"You were smart, and I hope you’ll reconsider if, after some time, you realize that you and Steve don't really trust, respect, and love each other. If you don’t, you’ll end up unhappy when it’s too late, just like so many people who rush into marriage and then regret it for the rest of their lives. Aunt Jessie says so, and she knows."
“Don't be solemn, Rose. It fidgets me to think about life-times, and respecting, and all those responsible things. I'm not used to it, and I don't know how to do it.”
“Don't be so serious, Rose. It makes me anxious to think about lifetimes, and responsibility, and all those serious things. I'm not used to it, and I don't know how to handle it.”
“But you must think, and you must learn how before you take the responsibility upon yourself. That is what your life is for, and you mustn't spoil it by doing a very solemn thing without seeing if you are ready for it.”
"But you need to think, and you need to learn how before you take on that responsibility. That's what your life is for, and you shouldn't ruin it by doing something serious without making sure you're ready for it."
“Do you think about all this?” asked Kitty, shrugging up her shoulders as if responsibility of any sort did not sit comfortably on them.
“Do you ever think about all this?” asked Kitty, shrugging her shoulders as if any kind of responsibility didn’t fit comfortably on them.
“One has to sometimes, you know. But is that all you wanted to tell me?” added Rose, anxious to turn the conversation from herself.
“One has to sometimes, you know. But is that all you wanted to tell me?” added Rose, eager to shift the conversation away from herself.
“Oh, dear, no! The most serious thing of all is this. Steve is putting himself in order generally, and so I want to do my part, and I must begin right away before my thoughts get distracted with clothes and all sorts of dear, delightful, frivolous things that I can't help liking. Now I wish you'd tell me where to begin. Shouldn't I improve my mind by reading something solid?” And Kitty looked over at the well-filled bookcase as if to see if it contained anything large and dry enough to be considered “solid.”
“Oh, no! The most important thing is this. Steve is getting everything in order, and I want to do my part, so I need to start right away before I get sidetracked by clothes and all those lovely, fun things I can’t help but enjoy. Now, could you please tell me where to start? Shouldn’t I be improving my mind by reading something substantial?” Kitty glanced over at the fully stocked bookcase as if checking to see if it had anything big and dull enough to be considered “substantial.”
“It would be an excellent plan, and we'll look up something. What do you feel as if you needed most?”
“It sounds like a great idea, and we'll find something. What do you think you need the most?”
“A little of everything I should say, for when I look into my mind there really doesn't seem to be much there but odds and ends, and yet I'm sure I've read a great deal more than some girls do. I suppose novels don't count, though, and are of no use, for, goodness knows, the people and things they describe aren't a bit like the real ones.”
“A bit of everything, I guess, because when I think about it, my mind doesn’t seem to hold much but random bits and pieces. Still, I’m pretty sure I’ve read more than some girls. I suppose novels don’t really count, though, since the people and things in them aren’t anything like real life.”
“Some novels are very useful and do as much good as sermons, I've heard Uncle say, because they not only describe truly, but teach so pleasantly that people like to learn in that way,” said Rose, who knew the sort of books Kitty had read and did not wonder that she felt rather astray when she tried to guide herself by their teaching.
“Some novels are really helpful and do as much good as sermons, I've heard Uncle say, because they not only tell the truth, but teach in such a nice way that people enjoy learning like that,” said Rose, who understood the kind of books Kitty had read and didn't find it surprising that Kitty felt a bit lost when she tried to follow their lessons.
“You pick me out some of the right kind, and I'll apply my mind to them. Then I ought to have some 'serious views' and 'methods' and 'principles.' Steve said 'principles,' good firm ones, you know.” And Kitty gave a little pull at the bit of cambric she was cutting as housewives pull cotton or calico when they want “a good firm article.”
“You choose some of the right kind for me, and I'll think about them. Then I should have some 'serious opinions' and 'methods' and 'principles.' Steve mentioned 'principles,' strong ones, you know.” And Kitty gave a slight tug at the piece of fabric she was cutting, just like housewives tug at cotton or calico when they want “a good quality material.”
Rose could not help laughing now, though much pleased, for Kitty was so prettily in earnest, and yet so perfectly ignorant how to begin on the self-improvement she very much needed, that it was pathetic as well as comical to see and hear her.
Rose couldn't help but laugh now, feeling quite pleased, because Kitty was so adorably serious yet completely clueless about how to start the self-improvement she clearly needed. It was both sad and funny to watch and listen to her.
“You certainly want some of those, and must begin at once to get them, but Aunt Jessie can help you there better than I can, or Aunt Jane, for she has very 'firm' ones, I assure you,” said Rose, sobering down as quickly as possible.
“You definitely want some of those, and you need to start getting them right away, but Aunt Jessie can help you with that better than I or Aunt Jane can, because she has some really 'firm' ones, I promise,” said Rose, quickly becoming more serious.
“Mercy on us! I should never dare to say a word about it to Mrs. Mac, for I'm dreadfully afraid of her, she is so stern, and how I'm ever to get on when she is my mother-in-law I don't know!” cried Kitty, clasping her hands in dismay at the idea.
“Help us! I would never dream of mentioning it to Mrs. Mac because I'm really scared of her; she’s so strict, and I have no idea how I’ll manage when she’s my mother-in-law!” cried Kitty, holding her hands together in panic at the thought.
“She isn't half as stern as she looks, and if you go to her without fear, you've no idea how sensible and helpful she is. I used to be frightened out of my wits with her, but now I'm not a bit, and we get on nicely. Indeed, I'm fond of her, she is so reliable and upright in all things.”
“She isn't nearly as strict as she seems, and if you approach her without any fear, you have no idea how reasonable and supportive she can be. I used to be completely terrified of her, but now I’m not at all, and we get along well. In fact, I like her; she is so dependable and honest in everything.”
“She certainly is the straightest woman I ever saw, and the most precise. I never shall forget how scared I was when Steve took me up to see her that first time. I put on all my plainest things, did my hair in a meek knob, and tried to act like a sober, sedate young woman. Steve would laugh at me and say I looked like a pretty nun, so I couldn't be as proper as I wished. Mrs. Mac was very kind, of course, but her eye was so sharp I felt as if she saw right through me, and knew that I'd pinned on my bonnet strings, lost a button off my boot, and didn't brush my hair for ten minutes every night,” said Kitty in an awe-stricken tone.
“She’s definitely the most straightforward woman I’ve ever met, and super precise. I’ll never forget how nervous I was when Steve took me to see her for the first time. I wore my plainest clothes, styled my hair into a modest bun, and tried to behave like a serious, respectable young woman. Steve teased me and said I looked like a pretty nun, so I couldn’t be as prim as I wanted. Mrs. Mac was really nice, of course, but her gaze was so piercing that I felt like she could see right through me and knew I had pinned my bonnet strings wrong, lost a button off my boot, and hadn’t brushed my hair for ten minutes every night,” said Kitty in an awe-stricken tone.
“She likes you, though, and so does Uncle, and he's set his heart on having you live with them by and by, so don't mind her eyes but look straight up at her, and you'll see how kind they can grow.”
“She likes you, and so does Uncle. He's determined to have you live with them eventually, so don’t pay attention to her eyes—just look right at her, and you’ll see how kind they can become.”
“Mac likes me, too, and that did please me, for he doesn't like girls generally. Steve told me he said I had the 'making of a capital little woman in me.' Wasn't it nice of him? Steve was so proud, though he does laugh at Mac sometimes.”
“Mac likes me too, and that made me happy because he doesn’t usually like girls. Steve told me that Mac said I had the 'making of a great little woman in me.' Isn’t that sweet of him? Steve was so proud, even though he sometimes laughs at Mac.”
“Don't disappoint them, dear. Encourage Steve in all the good things he likes or wants, make friends with Mac, love Aunt Jane, and be a daughter to Uncle, and you'll find yourself a very happy girl.”
“Don’t let them down, dear. Support Steve in all the good things he likes or wants, get along with Mac, love Aunt Jane, and be a daughter to Uncle, and you’ll see that you’ll be a very happy girl.”
“I truly will, and thank you very much for not making fun of me. I know I'm a little goose, but lately I've felt as if I might come to something if I had the right sort of help. I'll go up and see Aunt Jessie tomorrow. I'm not a bit afraid of her, and then if you'll just quietly find out from Uncle Doctor what I must read, I'll work as hard as I can. Don't tell anyone, please, they'll think it odd and affected, and I can't bear to be laughed at, though I daresay it is good discipline.”
“I really will, and thank you so much for not making fun of me. I know I can be a bit silly, but lately I’ve felt like I could achieve something if I had the right kind of support. I'll go see Aunt Jessie tomorrow. I'm not worried about her at all, and if you could just find out from Uncle Doctor what I should read, I’ll do my best to work hard. Please don’t tell anyone; they’ll think it’s strange and pretentious, and I can’t stand being laughed at, though I suppose it is good for me.”
Rose promised, and both worked in silence for a moment, then Kitty asked rather timidly: “Are you and Charlie trying this plan too? Since you've left off going out so much, he keeps away also, and we don't know what to make of it.”
Rose promised, and both worked quietly for a moment, then Kitty asked somewhat hesitantly: “Are you and Charlie trying this plan too? Since you've stopped going out so much, he stays away too, and we don't know what to think of it.”
“He has had what he calls an 'artistic fit' lately, set up a studio, and is doing some crayon sketches of us all. If he'd only finish his things, they would be excellent, but he likes to try a great variety at once. I'll take you in sometime, and perhaps he will do a portrait of you for Steve. He likes girls' faces and gets the likenesses wonderfully well.”
“He's been having what he calls an 'artistic fit' lately, set up a studio, and is doing some crayon sketches of all of us. If he would just finish his projects, they would be excellent, but he prefers to try a lot of different things at once. I'll take you there sometime, and maybe he'll do a portrait of you for Steve. He loves drawing girls' faces and captures the likenesses really well.”
“People say you are engaged but I contradict it, because, of course, I should know if you were.”
“People say you’re engaged, but I disagree because, of course, I would know if you were.”
“We are not.”
"We aren't."
“I'm glad of it, for really, Rose, I'm afraid Charlie hasn't got 'firm principles,' though he is a fascinating fellow and one can't scold him. You don't mind my saying so, do you, dear?” added Kitty, for Rose did not answer at once.
“I'm glad to hear that because, honestly, Rose, I'm worried that Charlie doesn't have 'strong principles,' even though he's a captivating guy and it's hard to be mad at him. You don’t mind me saying that, do you, dear?” added Kitty, as Rose didn’t respond right away.
“Not in the least, for you are one of us now, and I can speak frankly and I will, for I think in one way you can help Steve very much. You are right about Charlie, both as to the principles and the fascination. Steve admires him exceedingly, and always from a boy liked to imitate his pleasant ways. Some of them are very harmless and do Steve good, but some are not. I needn't talk about it, only you must show your boy that you depend on him to keep out of harm and help him do it.”
“Not at all, because you’re one of us now, and I can be honest with you, and I will, because I believe you can really help Steve. You’re right about Charlie, both in terms of his principles and his charm. Steve admires him a lot and has always liked to mimic his nice mannerisms since he was a kid. Some of those mannerisms are harmless and benefit Steve, but some aren’t. I don’t need to go into details, but you need to show your son that you rely on him to stay safe and support him in doing that.”
“I will, I will! And then perhaps, when he is a perfect model, Charlie will imitate him. I really begin to feel as if I had a great deal to do.” And Kitty looked as if she was beginning to like it also.
“I will, I will! And then maybe, when he’s a perfect model, Charlie will copy him. I actually start to feel like I have a lot to do.” And Kitty looked like she was starting to like it too.
“We all have and the sooner we go to work the better for us and those we love. You wouldn't think now that Phebe was doing anything for Archie, but she is, and writes such splendid letters, they stir him up wonderfully and make us all love and admire her more than ever.”
“We all have our things to deal with, and the sooner we get to work, the better it is for us and those we care about. You might not realize it now, but Phebe is doing a lot for Archie. She writes such amazing letters that really motivate him and make all of us love and admire her even more.”
“How is she getting on?” asked Kitty, who, though she called herself a “little goose,” had tact enough to see that Rose did not care to talk about Charlie.
“How is she doing?” asked Kitty, who, although she referred to herself as a “little goose,” was smart enough to notice that Rose didn’t want to talk about Charlie.
“Nicely, for you know she used to sing in our choir, so that was a good recommendation for another. She got a fine place in the new church at L——, and that gives her a comfortable salary, though she has something put away. She was always a saving creature and kept her wages carefully. Uncle invested them, and she begins to feel quite independent already. No fear but my Phebe will get on she has such energy and manages so well. I sometimes wish I could run away and work with her.”
“Conveniently, since she used to sing in our choir, that was a great recommendation for another position. She landed a great job at the new church in L——, which gives her a decent salary, plus she has some savings. She’s always been good at saving and managed her pay well. Uncle invested it for her, and she’s starting to feel pretty independent already. I have no doubt my Phebe will do well; she’s so full of energy and knows how to handle things. Sometimes I wish I could just escape and work alongside her.”
“Ah, my dear! We rich girls have our trials as well as poor ones, though we don't get as much pity as they do,” sighed Kitty. “Nobody knows what I suffer sometimes from worries that I can't talk about, and I shouldn't get much sympathy if I did, just because I live in a big house, wear good gowns, and have lots of lovers. Annabel used to say she envied me above all created beings, but she doesn't now, and is perfectly absorbed in her dear little Chinaman. Do you see how she ever could like him?”
“Ah, my dear! Us rich girls have our struggles just like the poor ones, even if we don’t get as much sympathy,” sighed Kitty. “Nobody understands what I go through sometimes with worries I can't share, and I wouldn't get much support even if I did, just because I live in a big house, wear nice dresses, and have lots of admirers. Annabel used to say she envied me more than anyone else, but not anymore; she’s completely taken with her sweet little Chinaman. Can you believe she would actually like him?”
So they began to gossip, and the sober talk was over for that time, but when Kitty departed, after criticizing all her dear friends and their respective sweethearts, she had a helpful little book in her muff, a resolute expression on her bright face, and so many excellent plans for self-improvement in her busy brain that she and Steve bid fair to turn out the model couple of the century.
So they started gossiping, and the serious conversation ended for the moment. But when Kitty left, after critiquing all her close friends and their significant others, she had a helpful little book in her muff, a determined look on her cheerful face, and so many great plans for self-improvement in her busy mind that she and Steve seemed likely to become the perfect couple of the century.
Chapter 14 AUNT CLARA'S PLAN
Being seriously alarmed by the fear of losing the desire of his heart, Charlie had gone resolutely to work and, like many another young reformer, he rather overdid the matter, for in trying to keep out of the way of temptation, he denied himself much innocent enjoyment. The “artistic fit” was a good excuse for the seclusion which he fancied would be a proper penance, and he sat listlessly plying crayon or paintbrush, with daily wild rides on black Brutus, which seemed to do him good, for danger of that sort was his delight.
Worried about losing what he truly wanted, Charlie threw himself into work. Like many young reformers, he took it too far by avoiding temptation, and in doing so, he missed out on a lot of innocent fun. He used the "artistic fit" as a reason to isolate himself, thinking it would be a fitting punishment. He spent his time idly drawing or painting and took daily wild rides on his black horse, Brutus, which seemed to help him because he loved that kind of danger.
People were used to his whims and made light of what they considered a new one, but when it lasted week after week and all attempts to draw him out were vain, his jolly comrades gave him up and the family began to say approvingly, “Now he really is going to settle down and do something.” Fortunately, his mother let him alone, for though Dr. Alec had not “thundered in her ear” as he threatened, he had talked with her in a way which first made her very angry, then anxious, and, lastly, quite submissive, for her heart was set on the boy's winning Rose and she would have had him put on sackcloth and ashes if that would have secured the prize. She made light of the cause of Rose's displeasure, considering her extremely foolish and straitlaced, “for all young men of any spirit had their little vices, and came out well enough when the wild oats were sowed.” So she indulged Charlie in his new vagary, as she had in all his others, and treated him like an ill-used being, which was neither an inspiring nor helpful course on her part. Poor soul! She saw her mistake by and by, and when too late repented of it bitterly.
People were used to his mood swings and brushed off what they thought was just another one, but when it dragged on week after week and all attempts to engage him failed, his cheerful friends gave up on him, and the family started to say approvingly, “Now he really is going to settle down and do something.” Luckily, his mother left him alone, because even though Dr. Alec hadn’t “thundered in her ear” like he had threatened, he had spoken with her in a way that first made her very angry, then anxious, and finally quite submissive. Her heart was set on the boy winning Rose, and she would have had him wear sackcloth and ashes if that would help him secure her. She downplayed the reason for Rose's displeasure, thinking her extremely foolish and uptight, “because all young men with any spirit had their little faults and turned out fine once they had sown their wild oats.” So she indulged Charlie in his new phase, as she had in all his others, and treated him like he was a victim, which wasn’t an encouraging or helpful approach. Poor thing! She realized her mistake eventually and, far too late, regretted it deeply.
Rose wanted to be kind, and tried in various ways to help her cousin, feeling very sure she should succeed as many another hopeful woman has done, quite unconscious how much stronger an undisciplined will is than the truest love, and what a difficult task the wisest find it to undo the mistakes of a bad education. But it was a hard thing to do, for at the least hint of commendation or encouragement, he looked so hopeful that she was afraid of seeming to promise too much, and, of all things, she desired to escape the accusation of having trifled with him.
Rose wanted to be kind and tried in different ways to help her cousin, fully believing she would succeed like so many hopeful women before her, completely unaware of how much stronger an undisciplined will can be than genuine love, and how challenging it is for even the wisest to correct the mistakes of a poor education. But it was difficult, because at the slightest hint of praise or encouragement, he looked so optimistic that she was worried about giving him false hope, and more than anything, she wanted to avoid the accusation of having played with his feelings.
So life was not very comfortable to either just then; and while Charlie was “mortifying soul and body” to please her, she was studying how to serve him best. Aunt Jessie helped her very much, and no one guessed, when they saw pretty Miss Campbell going up and down the hill with such a serious face, that she was intent upon anything except taking, with praiseworthy regularity, the constitutionals which gave her such a charming color.
So life wasn't very comfortable for either of them at that moment; and while Charlie was doing his best to please her, she was figuring out how to serve him well. Aunt Jessie helped her a lot, and no one suspected, when they saw pretty Miss Campbell walking up and down the hill with such a serious expression, that she was focused on anything other than taking her daily walks, which gave her such a lovely complexion.
Matters were in this state when one day a note came to Rose from Mrs. Clara.
Matters were in this state when one day a note arrived for Rose from Mrs. Clara.
MY SWEET CHILD, Do take pity on my poor boy and cheer him up with a sight of you, for he is so triste it breaks my heart to see him. He has a new plan in his head, which strikes me as an excellent one, if you will only favor it. Let him come and take you for a drive this fine afternoon and talk things over. It will do him a world of good and deeply oblige
MY SWEET CHILD, Please have compassion for my poor boy and lift his spirits by letting him see you, as he is so sad it breaks my heart to watch him. He has a new idea that I think is great, if you’ll just support it. Let him take you for a drive this beautiful afternoon so you can talk things through. It would help him immensely and be a great kindness.
Your ever loving
Your forever love
AUNT CLARA.
Aunt Clara.
Rose read the note twice and stood a moment pondering, with her eyes absently fixed on the little bay before her window. The sight of several black figures moving briskly to and fro across its frozen surface seemed to suggest a mode of escape from the drive she dreaded in more ways than one. “That will be safer and pleasanter,” she said, and going to her desk wrote her answer.
Rose read the note twice and stood for a moment thinking, her eyes absentmindedly glued to the little bay outside her window. The sight of a few dark figures moving swiftly back and forth across its frozen surface seemed to hint at a way out of the journey she dreaded for several reasons. "That will be safer and more enjoyable," she said, and went to her desk to write her response.
DEAR AUNTY, I'm afraid of Brutus, but if Charlie will go skating with me, I should enjoy it very much and it would do us both good. I can listen to the new plan with an undivided mind there, so give him my love, please, and say I shall expect him at three.
DEAR AUNTY, I'm scared of Brutus, but if Charlie will go skating with me, I’d really enjoy it and it would be good for both of us. I can focus on the new plan without distractions there, so please give him my love and let him know I’ll be expecting him at three.
Affectionately, ROSE.
Love, ROSE.
Punctually at three Charlie appeared with his skates over his arm and with a very contented face, which brightened wonderfully as Rose came downstairs in a sealskin suit and scarlet skirt, so like the one she wore years ago that he involuntarily exclaimed as he took her skates: “You look so like little Rose I hardly know you, and it seems so like old times I feel sixteen again.”
Right on time at three, Charlie showed up with his skates slung over his arm and a very happy expression, which lit up even more when Rose came down the stairs in a sealskin suit and a red skirt, so similar to the one she wore years ago that he couldn’t help but exclaim as he took her skates: “You look so much like little Rose I can hardly recognize you, and it feels so much like old times I feel like I’m sixteen again.”
“That is just the way one ought to feel on such a day as this. Now let us be off and have a good spin before anyone comes. There are only a few children there now, but it is Saturday, you know, and everybody will be out before long,” answered Rose, carefully putting on her mittens as she talked, for her heart was not as light as the one little Rose carried under the brown jacket, and the boy of sixteen never looked at her with the love and longing she read in the eyes of the young man before her.
"That's exactly how you should feel on a day like this. Now let's head out and enjoy a nice ride before anyone shows up. There are only a few kids there right now, but it’s Saturday, and everyone will be out before long," Rose replied, carefully putting on her mittens as she spoke. Her heart wasn’t as light as the one little rose tucked under the brown jacket, and the sixteen-year-old boy never looked at her with the love and longing she saw in the eyes of the young man in front of her.
Away they went, and were soon almost as merry and warm as the children around them, for the ice was in good condition, the February sunshine brilliant, and the keen wind set their blood a-tingle with a healthful glow.
Away they went, and soon they felt just as cheerful and warm as the children around them, because the ice was in great shape, the February sunshine was bright, and the cold wind made their blood race with a healthy glow.
“Now tell me the plan your mother spoke of,” began Rose as they went gliding across the wide expanse before them, for Charlie seemed to have forgotten everything but the bliss of having her all to himself for a little while.
“Now tell me the plan your mom mentioned,” Rose started as they glided across the wide space in front of them, since Charlie seemed to have forgotten everything except the joy of having her all to himself for a bit.
“Plan? Oh, yes! It is simply this. I'm going out to Father next month.”
“Plan? Oh, yes! It's really simple. I'm going to see Dad next month.”
“Really?” and Rose looked both surprised and incredulous, for this plan was not a new one.
“Really?” Rose asked, looking both surprised and skeptical, since this plan wasn’t a new one.
“Really. You don't believe it, but I am, and mother means to go with me. We've had another letter from the governor, and he says if she can't part from her big baby to come along too, and all be happy together. What do you think of that?” he asked, eyeing her intently, for they were face to face as she went backward and he held both of her hands to steer and steady her.
“Really. You might not believe it, but I am, and Mom intends to come with me. We got another letter from the governor, and he says if she can't leave her big baby behind, then she should come along too, so we can all be happy together. What do you think of that?” he asked, looking at her closely, since they were face to face as she stepped back and he held both of her hands to guide and steady her.
“I like it immensely, and do believe it now only it rather takes my breath away to think of Aunty's going, when she never would hear of it before.”
"I like it a lot, and I really believe it now, but it kind of takes my breath away to think about Aunty leaving, especially since she never wanted to hear of it before."
“She doesn't like the plan very well now and consents to go only on one condition.”
"She isn't really on board with the plan anymore and agrees to go only if one condition is met."
“What is that?” asked Rose, trying to free her hands, for a look at Charlie made her suspect what was coming.
“What’s that?” Rose asked, trying to free her hands, because seeing Charlie made her suspect what was about to happen.
“That you go with us.” And, holding the hands fast, he added rapidly, “Let me finish before you speak. I don't mean that anything is to be changed till you are ready, but if you go, I am willing to give up everything else and live anywhere as long as you like. Why shouldn't you come to us for a year or two? We've never had our share. Father would be delighted, mother contented, and I the happiest man alive.”
“Please come with us.” And, gripping their hands tightly, he added quickly, “Let me finish before you say anything. I don’t mean for anything to change until you’re ready, but if you decide to go, I’m willing to give up everything else and live anywhere you want. Why not spend a year or two with us? We’ve never had our chance. Dad would be thrilled, Mom would be happy, and I’d be the happiest man alive.”
“Who made this plan?” asked Rose as soon as she got the breath which certainly had been rather taken away by this entirely new and by no means agreeable scheme.
“Who came up with this plan?” asked Rose as soon as she caught her breath, which had definitely been taken away by this completely new and definitely unappealing idea.
“Mother suggested it I shouldn't have dared even to dream of such richness. I'd made up my mind to go alone, and when I told her, she was in despair till this superb idea came into her head. After that, of course, it was easy enough for me to stick to the resolution I'd made.”
“Mom suggested that I shouldn't have even dared to dream of such wealth. I was determined to go alone, and when I told her, she was, of course, upset until this brilliant idea popped into her head. After that, it was pretty easy for me to stick to my decision.”
“Why did you decide to go, Charlie?” And Rose looked up into the eyes that were fixed beseechingly on hers.
“Why did you decide to go, Charlie?” Rose asked, looking up into the eyes that were pleadingly fixed on hers.
They wavered and glanced aside, then met hers honestly yet full of humility, which made her own fall as he answered very low: “Because I don't dare to stay.”
They hesitated and looked away, then met her gaze honestly but with humility, which made her look down as he replied quietly, “Because I don’t dare to stay.”
“Is it so hard?” she said pitifully.
“Is it really that hard?” she said sadly.
“Very hard. I haven't the moral courage to own up and face ridicule, and it seems so mean to hide for fear of breaking my word. I will keep it this time, Rose, if I go to the ends of the earth to do it.”
“Very hard. I don’t have the moral courage to admit it and face the embarrassment, and it feels really low to hide out of fear of breaking my promise. I’ll keep it this time, Rose, even if I have to go to the ends of the earth to do it.”
“It is not cowardly to flee temptation, and nobody whose opinion is worth having will ridicule any brave attempt to conquer one's self. Don't mind it, Charlie, but stand fast, and I am sure you will succeed.”
“It’s not cowardly to avoid temptation, and anyone whose opinion matters won’t mock any courageous effort to control oneself. Don’t worry about it, Charlie, just hold strong, and I’m sure you’ll succeed.”
“You don't know what it is, and I can't tell you, for till I tried to give it up I never guessed what a grip it had on me. I thought it was only a habit, easy to drop when I liked, but it is stronger than I, and sometimes I feel as if possessed of a devil that will get the better of me, try as I may.”
“You don't know what it is, and I can't explain it to you, because until I tried to let it go, I never realized how much control it had over me. I thought it was just a habit, something easy to break when I wanted to, but it’s more powerful than I am, and sometimes I feel like I'm possessed by something that will win, no matter how hard I try.”
He dropped her hands abruptly as he said that, with the energy of despair; and, as if afraid of saying too much, he left her for a minute, striking away at full speed, as if in truth he would “go to the ends of the earth” to escape the enemy within himself.
He let go of her hands suddenly as he spoke, filled with despair; and, as if he feared saying too much, he stepped away for a moment, rushing off as if he truly would "go to the ends of the earth" to escape the enemy inside him.
Rose stood still, appalled by this sudden knowledge of how much greater the evil was than she had dreamed. What ought she to do? Go with her cousin, and by so doing tacitly pledge herself as his companion on that longer journey for which he was as yet so poorly equipped? Both heart and conscience protested against this so strongly that she put the thought away. But compassion pleaded for him tenderly, and the spirit of self-sacrifice, which makes women love to give more than they receive, caused her to feel as if in a measure this man's fate lay in her hands, to be decided for good or ill through her. How should she be true both to him and to herself?
Rose stood still, shocked by the sudden realization of just how much greater the evil was than she had imagined. What should she do? Go with her cousin, and by doing so, subtly commit herself to be his companion on that longer journey for which he was still so ill-prepared? Both her heart and conscience strongly opposed this idea, so she pushed the thought aside. But compassion gently urged her to consider him, and the spirit of self-sacrifice, which makes women love to give more than to receive, led her to feel that in some way, this man's fate rested in her hands, to be determined for better or worse by her. How could she remain true to both him and herself?
Before this question could be answered, he was back again, looking as if he had left his care behind him, for his moods varied like the wind. Her attitude, as she stood motionless and alone with downcast face, was so unlike the cheerful creature who came to meet him an hour ago, it filled him with self-reproach, and, coming up, he drew one hand through his arm, saying, as she involuntarily followed him, “You must not stand still. Forget my heroics and answer my question. Will you go with us, Rose?”
Before he could answer the question, he was back again, looking as if he'd left his worries behind, because his moods changed like the wind. Her demeanor, as she stood still and alone with her head down, was so different from the cheerful person who had greeted him an hour ago that it made him feel guilty. Approaching her, he took her arm and said, as she involuntarily followed him, “You can’t just stand there. Forget my drama and answer my question. Will you come with us, Rose?”
“Not now that is asking too much, Charlie, and I will promise nothing, because I cannot do it honestly,” she answered, so firmly that he knew appeal was useless.
“Not now, that’s asking too much, Charlie, and I won’t promise anything, because I can’t do it honestly,” she replied, so firmly that he realized trying to persuade her was pointless.
“Am I to go alone, then, leaving all I care for behind me?”
“Am I supposed to go alone, then, leaving everything I care about behind?”
“No, take your mother with you, and do your best to reunite your parents. You could not give yourself to a better task.”
“No, take your mom with you, and do everything you can to bring your parents back together. You couldn't choose a better mission.”
“She won't go without you.”
“She won't leave without you.”
“I think she will if you hold fast to your resolution. You won't give that up, I hope?”
“I think she will if you stick to your decision. You’re not going to give that up, right?”
“No I must go somewhere, for I can't stay here, and it may as well be India, since that pleases Father,” answered Charlie doggedly.
“No, I have to go somewhere because I can't stay here, and it might as well be India since that makes Father happy,” Charlie replied stubbornly.
“It will more than you can imagine. Tell him all the truth, and see how glad he will be to help you, and how sincerely he will respect you for what you've done.”
“It will be more than you can imagine. Tell him the whole truth, and see how happy he will be to help you, and how much he will genuinely respect you for what you've done.”
“If you respect me, I don't care much about the opinion of anyone else,” answered Charlie, clinging with a lover's pertinacity to the hope that was dearest.
“If you respect me, I really don’t care about anyone else’s opinion,” answered Charlie, holding on tightly to the hope that meant the most to him.
“I shall, if you go manfully away and do the duty you owe your father and yourself.”
“I will, if you bravely go and do what you owe to your father and yourself.”
“And when I've done it, may I come back to be rewarded, Rose?” he asked, taking possession of the hand on his arm as if it was already his.
“And when I’ve done it, can I come back to be rewarded, Rose?” he asked, taking hold of the hand on his arm as if it was already his.
“I wish I could say what you want me to. But how can I promise when I am not sure of anything? I don't love you as I ought, and perhaps I never shall so why persist in making me bind myself in this way? Be generous, Charlie, and don't ask it,” implored Rose, much afflicted by his persistence.
“I wish I could say what you want me to. But how can I promise when I’m not sure of anything? I don’t love you like I should, and maybe I never will, so why keep trying to make me commit like this? Be generous, Charlie, and don’t ask it,” Rose pleaded, deeply troubled by his insistence.
“I thought you did love me it looked very like it a month ago, unless you have turned coquette, and I can't quite believe that,” he answered bitterly.
“I thought you loved me; it sure seemed that way a month ago, unless you’ve started playing games, and I can’t quite believe that,” he replied bitterly.
“I was beginning to love you, but you made me afraid to go on,” murmured Rose, trying to tell the truth kindly.
“I was starting to love you, but you made me scared to keep going,” murmured Rose, trying to express the truth gently.
“That cursed custom! What can a man do when his hostess asks him to drink wine with her?” And Charlie looked as if he could have cursed himself even more heartily.
“That annoying custom! What can a guy do when his hostess invites him to drink wine with her?” And Charlie looked like he could have cursed himself even more fiercely.
“He can say 'no.'”
"He can say 'no.'"
“I can't.”
"I can't."
“Ah, that's the trouble! You never learned to say it even to yourself, and now it is so hard, you want me to help you.”
“Ah, that's the problem! You never learned to say it even to yourself, and now it's so hard; you want me to help you.”
“And you won't.”
"And you won't."
“Yes, I will, by showing you that I can say it to myself, for your sake.” And Rose looked up with a face so full of tender sorrow he could not doubt the words which both reproached and comforted him.
“Yes, I will, by proving to you that I can say it to myself, for your sake.” And Rose looked up with a face so full of gentle sadness that he couldn’t doubt the words that both criticized and consoled him.
“My little saint! I don't deserve one half your goodness to me, but I will, and go away without one complaint to do my best, for your sake,” he cried, touched by her grief and stirred to emulation by the example of courage and integrity she tried to set him.
“My little saint! I don’t deserve even half of your kindness towards me, but I will, and I’ll leave without a single complaint to do my best, for you,” he exclaimed, moved by her sadness and inspired by the courage and integrity she tried to show him.
Here Kitty and Steve bore down upon them; and, obeying the impulse to put care behind them, which makes it possible for young hearts to ache one minute and dance the next, Rose and Charlie banished their troubles, joined in the sport that soon turned the lonely little bay into a ballroom, and enjoyed the splendors of a winter sunset forgetful of separation and Calcutta.
Here Kitty and Steve rushed towards them; and, following the urge to leave their worries behind, which allows young hearts to feel sad one moment and joyful the next, Rose and Charlie pushed aside their troubles, joined in the fun that quickly transformed the quiet little bay into a dance floor, and reveled in the beauty of a winter sunset, forgetting about their separation and Calcutta.
Chapter 15 ALAS FOR CHARLIE!
In spite of much internal rebellion, Charlie held fast to his resolution, and Aunt Clara, finding all persuasions vain, gave in and in a state of chronic indignation against the world in general and Rose in particular, prepared to accompany him. The poor girl had a hard time of it and, but for her uncle, would have fared still worse. He was a sort of shield upon which Mrs. Clara's lamentations, reproaches, and irate glances fell unavailingly instead of wounding the heart against which they were aimed.
In spite of a lot of internal struggle, Charlie stuck to his decision, and Aunt Clara, realizing that all her attempts to change his mind were useless, gave in. Filled with ongoing anger toward the world in general and Rose in particular, she got ready to go with him. The poor girl had a tough time, and if it weren't for her uncle, things would have been even harder for her. He was like a shield that absorbed Mrs. Clara's complaints, accusations, and furious looks without hurting the heart they were aimed at.
The days passed very quickly now, for everyone seemed anxious to have the parting over and preparations went on rapidly. The big house was made ready to shut up for a year at least, comforts for the long voyage laid in, and farewell visits paid. The general activity and excitement rendered it impossible for Charlie to lead the life of an artistic hermit any longer and he fell into a restless condition which caused Rose to long for the departure of the Rajah when she felt that he would be safe, for these farewell festivities were dangerous to one who was just learning to say “no.”
The days flew by now, as everyone seemed eager to get the farewells over with, and preparations moved quickly. The big house was getting ready to be closed up for at least a year, supplies for the long journey were stocked up, and goodbye visits were made. The overall activity and excitement made it impossible for Charlie to live like an artistic hermit anymore, and he became restless, which made Rose wish the Rajah would leave soon, knowing he would be safe, because these farewell celebrations were risky for someone who was just learning to say "no."
“Half the month safely gone. If we can only get well over these last weeks, a great weight will be off my mind,” thought Rose as she went down one wild, wet morning toward the end of February.
“Half the month is already gone. If we can just get through these last few weeks, a huge weight will be lifted off my mind,” Rose thought as she walked down one wild, rainy morning toward the end of February.
Opening the study door to greet her uncle, she exclaimed, “Why, Archie!” then paused upon the threshold, transfixed by fear, for in her cousin's white face she read the tidings of some great affliction.
Opening the study door to greet her uncle, she exclaimed, “Wow, Archie!” then paused at the threshold, frozen in fear, for in her cousin's pale face she saw the news of some terrible trouble.
“Hush! Don't be frightened. Come in and I'll tell you,” he whispered, putting down the bottle he had just taken from the doctor's medicine closet.
“Hush! Don't be scared. Come in and I'll tell you,” he whispered, putting down the bottle he had just taken from the doctor's medicine cabinet.
Rose understood and obeyed, for Aunt Plenty was poorly with her rheumatism and depended on her morning doze.
Rose understood and followed instructions because Aunt Plenty was struggling with her rheumatism and relied on her morning nap.
“What is it?” she said, looking about the room with a shiver, as if expecting to see again what she saw there New Year's night. Archie was alone, however, and, drawing her toward the closet, answered with an evident effort to be quite calm and steady “Charlie is hurt! Uncle wants more ether and the wide bandages in some drawer or other. He told me, but I forget. You keep this place in order find them for me. Quick!”
“What is it?” she asked, glancing around the room with a shiver, as if she expected to see what she had seen that New Year's night. Archie was alone, though, and, pulling her toward the closet, he replied with an obvious effort to remain calm and steady, “Charlie is hurt! Uncle needs more ether and the wide bandages from some drawer or another. He told me, but I forgot. You keep this place organized, so find them for me. Hurry!”
Before he had done, Rose was at the drawer, turning over the bandages with hands that trembled as they searched.
Before he was finished, Rose was at the drawer, anxiously searching through the bandages with trembling hands.
“All narrow! I must make some. Can you wait?” And, catching up a piece of old linen, she tore it into wide strips, adding, in the same quick tone, as she began to roll them, “Now, tell me.”
“All narrow! I need to make some. Can you wait?” And, grabbing a piece of old linen, she tore it into wide strips, adding, in the same quick tone, as she started to roll them, “Now, tell me.”
“I can wait those are not needed just yet. I didn't mean anyone should know, you least of all,” began Archie, smoothing out the strips as they lay across the table and evidently surprised at the girl's nerve and skill.
“I can wait; those aren't needed just yet. I didn't mean for anyone to know, especially not you,” Archie started, smoothing out the strips as they lay across the table, clearly surprised by the girl's nerve and skill.
“I can bear it make haste! Is he much hurt?”
“I can handle it, hurry up! Is he badly injured?”
“I'm afraid he is. Uncle looks sober, and the poor boy suffers so, I couldn't stay,” answered Archie, turning still whiter about the lips that never had so hard a tale to tell before.
“I'm afraid he is. Uncle looks serious, and the poor boy is hurting so much, I couldn't stay,” answered Archie, turning even paler around the lips that had never had such a tough story to share before.
“You see, he went to town last evening to meet the man who is going to buy Brutus.”
“You see, he went to town last night to meet the guy who's going to buy Brutus.”
“And Brutus did it? I knew he would!” cried Rose, dropping her work to wring her hands, as if she guessed the ending of the story now.
“And Brutus did it? I knew he would!” cried Rose, dropping her work to wring her hands, as if she figured out how the story would end now.
“Yes, and if he wasn't shot already I'd do it myself with pleasure, for he's done his best to kill Charlie,” muttered Charlie's mate with a grim look, then gave a great sigh and added with averted face, “I shouldn't blame the brute, it wasn't his fault. He needed a firm hand and—” He stopped there, but Rose said quickly: “Go on. I must know.”
“Yes, and if he hadn’t been shot already, I’d gladly do it myself, because he’s done everything he can to hurt Charlie,” muttered Charlie’s friend with a serious expression, then let out a heavy sigh and added, looking away, “I shouldn’t blame the guy; it wasn’t his fault. He just needed someone to keep him in check and—” He paused, but Rose quickly urged, “Go on. I need to know.”
“Charlie met some of his old cronies, quite by accident; there was a dinner party, and they made him go, just for a good-bye, they said. He couldn't refuse, and it was too much for him. He would come home alone in the storm, though they tried to keep him, as he wasn't fit. Down by the new bridge that high embankment, you know the wind had put the lantern out he forgot or something scared Brutus, and all went down together.”
“Charlie ran into some of his old friends, completely by chance; there was a dinner party, and they insisted he join them for a goodbye, they said. He couldn't say no, and it was overwhelming for him. He planned to come home alone in the storm, even though they tried to convince him to stay since he wasn't in good shape. Down by the new bridge, that high embankment, you know the wind had blown out the lantern. He forgot, or something scared Brutus, and they all went down together.”
Archie had spoken fast and brokenly but Rose understood and at the last word hid her face with a little moan, as if she saw it all.
Archie had spoken quickly and in a choppy way, but Rose understood, and with his final word, she covered her face with a soft moan, as if she grasped everything.
“Drink this and never mind the rest,” he said, dashing into the next room and coming back with a glass of water, longing to be done and away, for this sort of pain seemed almost as bad as that he had left.
“Drink this and forget about the rest,” he said, rushing into the next room and returning with a glass of water, eager to be finished and gone, as this kind of pain felt almost as bad as what he had just experienced.
Rose drank, but held his arm tightly, as he would have turned away, saying in a tone of command he could not disobey: “Don't keep anything back tell me the worst at once.”
Rose drank, but held his arm tightly, as he would have turned away, saying in a commanding voice he couldn’t ignore: “Don’t hold anything back; tell me the worst right now.”
“We knew nothing of it,” he went on obediently. “Aunt Clara thought he was with me, and no one found him till early this morning. A workman recognized him and he was brought home, dead they thought. I came for Uncle an hour ago. Charlie is conscious now, but awfully hurt, and I'm afraid from the way Mac and Uncle looked at one another that Oh! Think of it, Rose! Crushed and helpless, alone in the rain all night, and I never knew, I never knew!”
“We didn’t know anything about it,” he continued obediently. “Aunt Clara thought he was with me, and no one found him until early this morning. A worker recognized him and he was brought home, they thought he was dead. I came for Uncle an hour ago. Charlie is awake now, but seriously injured, and I’m worried from the way Mac and Uncle looked at each other that Oh! Just think of it, Rose! Crushed and helpless, alone in the rain all night, and I had no idea, I had no idea!”
With that, poor Archie broke down entirely and, flinging himself into a chair, laid his face on the table, sobbing like a girl. Rose had never seen a man cry before, and it was so unlike a woman's gentler grief that it moved her very much. Putting by her own anguish, she tried to comfort his and, going to him, lifted up his head and made him lean on her, for in such hours as this women are the stronger. It was a very little to do, but it did comfort Archie, for the poor fellow felt as if fate was very hard upon him just then, and in this faithful bosom he could pour his brief but pathetic plaint.
With that, poor Archie completely broke down, throwing himself into a chair and laying his face on the table, sobbing like a child. Rose had never seen a man cry before, and it was so different from a woman's softer grief that it deeply affected her. Setting aside her own pain, she tried to comfort him and, approaching him, lifted his head and made him lean on her, because in moments like this, women are the stronger ones. It was a small gesture, but it did comfort Archie, as the poor guy felt like fate was really hard on him at that moment, and in this supportive embrace, he could share his brief but heartfelt complaints.
“Phebe's gone, and now if Charlie's taken, I don't see how I can bear it!”
“Phebe's gone, and now if Charlie's taken too, I don't know how I'll handle it!”
“Phebe will come back, dear, and let us hope poor Charlie isn't going to be taken yet. Such things always seem worst at first, I've heard people say, so cheer up and hope for the best,” answered Rose, seeking for some comfortable words to say and finding very few.
“Phebe will be back, dear, and let’s hope poor Charlie isn’t going to be taken yet. I’ve heard people say that things always seem worse at first, so cheer up and hope for the best,” replied Rose, trying to find some comforting words and coming up with very few.
They took effect, however, for Archie did cheer up like a man. Wiping away the tears which he so seldom shed that they did not know where to go, he got up, gave himself a little shake, and said with a long breath, as if he had been underwater: “Now I'm all right, thank you. I couldn't help it the shock of being waked suddenly to find the dear old fellow in such a pitiful state upset me. I ought to go are these ready?”
They worked, though, because Archie did perk up like a man. Wiping away the tears he rarely shed, making them hard to find, he got up, gave himself a little shake, and said with a long sigh, as if he had just come up for air: “Now I’m good, thanks. I couldn’t help it; the shock of being abruptly woken to see the dear old guy in such a sad state threw me off. I should get going—are these ready?”
“In a minute. Tell Uncle to send for me if I can be of any use. Oh, poor Aunt Clara! How does she bear it?”
“In a minute. Tell Uncle to call for me if I can help. Oh, poor Aunt Clara! How does she handle it?”
“Almost distracted. I took Mother to her, and she will do all that anybody can. Heaven only knows what Aunt will do if—”
“Almost distracted. I took Mom to her, and she will do everything anyone can. God knows what Aunt will do if—”
“And only heaven can help her,” added Rose as Archie stopped at the words he could not utter. “Now take them, and let me know often.”
“And only heaven can help her,” Rose added as Archie paused at the words he couldn't say. “Now take them and keep me updated frequently.”
“You brave little soul, I will.” And Archie went away through the rain with his sad burden, wondering how Rose could be so calm when the beloved Prince might be dying.
"You brave little soul, I will." And Archie walked away through the rain with his heavy heart, wondering how Rose could stay so calm when the beloved Prince might be dying.
A long dark day followed, with nothing to break its melancholy monotony except the bulletins that came from hour to hour reporting little change either for better or for worse. Rose broke the news gently to Aunt Plenty and set herself to the task of keeping up the old lady's spirits, for, being helpless, the good soul felt as if everything would go wrong without her. At dusk she fell asleep, and Rose went down to order lights and fire in the parlor, with tea ready to serve at any moment, for she felt sure some of the men would come and that a cheerful greeting and creature comforts would suit them better than tears, darkness, and desolation.
A long, gloomy day dragged on, with nothing to lift its sad routine except for the updates coming in every hour, reporting no significant change for better or worse. Rose broke the news gently to Aunt Plenty and focused on keeping the old lady's spirits up, since the poor woman felt that everything would go wrong without her input. As dusk fell, Aunt Plenty drifted off to sleep, and Rose went downstairs to arrange for lights and a fire in the parlor, getting tea ready to serve at any moment, confident that some of the men would arrive and that a warm welcome and some comfort would be better for them than tears, darkness, and despair.
Presently Mac arrived, saying the instant he entered the room: “More comfortable, Cousin.”
Presently, Mac arrived and said as soon as he walked into the room, “More comfortable, Cousin.”
“Thank heaven!” cried Rose, unclasping her hands. Then seeing how worn out, wet, and weary Mac looked as he came into the light, she added in a tone that was a cordial in itself, “Poor boy, how tired you are! Come here, and let me make you comfortable.”
“Thank goodness!” exclaimed Rose, unclasping her hands. Then, noticing how exhausted, drenched, and worn out Mac looked as he stepped into the light, she added in a tone that was warm and inviting, “You poor thing, you look so tired! Come here, and let me help you get comfortable.”
“I was going home to freshen up a bit, for I must be back in an hour. Mother took my place, so I could be spared, and came off, as Uncle refused to stir.”
"I was heading home to freshen up a bit because I needed to be back in an hour. Mom took my place so I could have some time to myself, and she went, since Uncle refused to move."
“Don't go home, for if Aunty isn't there it will be very dismal. Step into Uncle's room and refresh, then come back and I'll give you your tea. Let me, let me! I can't help in any other way, and I must do something, this waiting is so dreadful.”
“Don't go home because if Aunty isn't there, it will be really sad. Go into Uncle's room and relax for a bit, then come back and I'll make you some tea. Let me, let me! I can't do anything else, and I need to do something; this waiting is just awful.”
Her last words betrayed how much suspense was trying her, and Mac yielded at once, glad to comfort and be comforted. When he came back, looking much revived, a tempting little tea table stood before the fire and Rose went to meet him, saying with a faint smile, as she liberally bedewed him with the contents of a cologne flask: “I can't bear the smell of ether it suggests such dreadful things.”
Her last words revealed just how much suspense was affecting her, and Mac immediately gave in, happy to comfort and be comforted. When he returned, looking much better, a tempting little tea table was set up in front of the fire, and Rose went over to him, saying with a faint smile as she generously spritzed him with cologne: “I can't stand the smell of ether; it reminds me of such awful things.”
“What curious creatures women are! Archie told us you bore the news like a hero, and now you turn pale at a whiff of bad air. I can't explain it,” mused Mac as he meekly endured the fragrant shower bath.
"What strange creatures women are! Archie said you took the news like a champ, and now you go pale over a little bad air. I can't figure it out," Mac thought as he reluctantly endured the fragrant shower bath.
“Neither can I, but I've been imagining horrors all day and made myself nervous. Don't let us talk about it, but come and have some tea.”
“Me neither, but I've been imagining terrible things all day and it's made me anxious. Let's not talk about it, just come and have some tea.”
“That's another queer thing. Tea is your panacea for all human ills yet there isn't any nourishment in it. I'd rather have a glass of milk, thank you,” said Mac, taking an easy chair and stretching his feet to the fire.
“That's another strange thing. Tea is your cure-all for every problem, yet it has no nutrition. I’d prefer a glass of milk, thanks,” said Mac, sitting in a comfy chair and propping his feet up by the fire.
She brought it to him and made him eat something; then, as he shut his eyes wearily, she went away to the piano and, having no heart to sing, played softly till he seemed asleep. But at the stroke of six he was up and ready to be off again.
She brought it to him and made him eat something; then, as he closed his eyes tiredly, she went over to the piano and, feeling too down to sing, played softly until he appeared to be asleep. But at six o'clock, he was up and ready to head out again.
“He gave me that. Take it with you and put some on his hair. He likes it, and I do so want to help a little,” she said, slipping the pretty flagon into his pocket with such a wistful look Mac never thought of smiling at this very feminine request.
“He gave me that. Take it with you and put some on his hair. He likes it, and I really want to help a little,” she said, slipping the pretty bottle into his pocket with such a hopeful look that Mac never thought to smile at this very feminine request.
“I'll tell him. Is there anything else I can do for you, Cousin?” he asked, holding the cold hand that had been serving him so helpfully.
“I'll let him know. Is there anything else I can do for you, Cousin?” he asked, holding the cold hand that had been helping him so much.
“Only this if there is any sudden change, promise to send for me, no matter at what hour it is. I must say 'good-bye'”.
“Just promise that if anything changes suddenly, you’ll call for me, no matter what time it is. I have to say 'good-bye'.”
“I will come for you. But, Rose, I am sure you may sleep in peace tonight, and I hope to have good news for you in the morning.”
“I'll be there for you. But, Rose, I’m sure you can sleep peacefully tonight, and I hope to bring you good news in the morning.”
“Bless you for that! Come early, and let me see him soon. I will be very good, and I know it will not do him any harm.”
"Thanks for that! Come by early, and let me see him soon. I'll behave myself, and I know it won't hurt him at all."
“No fear of that. The first thing he said when he could speak was 'Tell Rose carefully,' and as I came away he guessed where I was going and tried to kiss his hand in the old way, you know.”
“No fear of that. The first thing he said when he could talk was 'Tell Rose carefully,' and as I was leaving, he figured out where I was headed and tried to kiss his hand like he used to, you know.”
Mac thought it would cheer her to hear that Charlie remembered her, but the sudden thought that she might never see the familiar little gesture anymore was the last drop that made her full heart overflow, and Mac saw the “hero” of the morning sink down at his feet in a passion of tears that frightened him. He took her to the sofa and tried to comfort her, but as soon as the bitter sobbing quieted she looked up and said quite steadily, great drops rolling down her cheeks the while: “Let me cry it is what I need, and I shall be all the better for it by and by. Go to Charlie now and tell him I said with all my heart, 'Good night!'?
Mac thought hearing that Charlie remembered her would lift her spirits, but the sudden realization that she might never see that familiar little gesture again was the final straw that made her heart overflow. Mac watched as the “hero” of the morning sank down at his feet in a flood of tears that startled him. He took her to the sofa and tried to comfort her, but as soon as her intense sobbing calmed, she looked up and said, while great drops rolled down her cheeks: “Let me cry, it's what I need, and I'll feel better for it later. Please go to Charlie now and tell him I said with all my heart, 'Good night!'”
“I will!” And Mac trudged away, marveling in his turn at the curiously blended strength and weakness of womankind.
“I will!” And Mac walked off, marveling at the oddly mixed strength and vulnerability of women.
That was the longest night Rose ever spent, but joy came in the morning with the early message: “He is better. You are to come by and by.” Then Aunt Plenty forgot her lumbago and arose; Aunt Myra, who had come to have a social croak, took off her black bonnet as if it would not be needed at present, and the girl made ready to go and say “Welcome back,” not the hard “Good-bye.”
That was the longest night Rose ever had, but joy arrived in the morning with the early message: “He’s doing better. You’re to come by soon.” Then Aunt Plenty forgot her back pain and got up; Aunt Myra, who had come to chat, took off her black bonnet as if it wouldn’t be needed for now, and the girl got ready to go and say “Welcome back,” not the hard “Goodbye.”
It seemed very long to wait, for no summons came till afternoon, then her uncle arrived, and at the first sight of his face Rose began to tremble.
It felt like a long wait because no one called her until the afternoon. Then her uncle showed up, and the moment Rose saw his face, she started to shake.
“I came for my little girl myself, because we must go back at once,” he said as she hurried toward him hat in hand.
“I came for my little girl myself because we need to leave right away,” he said as she rushed toward him, holding her hat.
“I'm ready, sir.” But her hands shook as she tried to tie the ribbons, and her eyes never left the face that was full of tender pity for her.
“I'm ready, sir.” But her hands trembled as she tried to tie the ribbons, and her eyes remained fixed on the face that was filled with gentle sympathy for her.
He took her quickly into the carriage and, as they rolled away, said with the quiet directness which soothes such agitation better than any sympathetic demonstration: “Charlie is worse. I feared it when the pain went so suddenly this morning, but the chief injuries are internal and one can never tell what the chances are. He insists that he is better, but he will soon begin to fail, I fear, become unconscious, and slip away without more suffering. This is the time for you to see him, for he has set his heart on it, and nothing can hurt him now. My child, it is very hard, but we must help each other bear it.”
He quickly took her into the carriage, and as they drove away, he said with a calm directness that calms such distress better than any sympathetic gesture: “Charlie is worse. I feared this when the pain suddenly disappeared this morning, but the main injuries are internal, and you can never know what the odds are. He’s insisting that he’s getting better, but I’m afraid he will soon start to decline, become unconscious, and pass away without much more suffering. This is the time for you to see him because he really wants to, and nothing can harm him now. My dear, it's very tough, but we need to help each other get through it.”
Rose tried to say, “Yes, Uncle” bravely, but the words would not come, and she could only slip her hand into his with a look of mute submission. He laid her head on his shoulder and went on talking so quietly that anyone who did not see how worn and haggard his face had grown with two days and a night of sharp anxiety might have thought him cold.
Rose attempted to say, “Yes, Uncle,” bravely, but the words wouldn’t come. She could only slip her hand into his with a look of silent acceptance. He rested her head on his shoulder and continued to speak so softly that anyone who didn’t notice how tired and drawn his face had become after two days and a night of intense worry might have thought he was indifferent.
“Jessie has gone home to rest, and Jane is with poor Clara, who has dropped asleep at last. I've sent for Steve and the other boys. There will be time for them later, but he so begged to see you now, I thought it best to come while this temporary strength keeps him up. I have told him how it is, but he will not believe me. If he asks you, answer honestly and try to fit him a little for this sudden ending of so many hopes.”
“Jessie has gone home to rest, and Jane is with poor Clara, who has finally dropped off to sleep. I've called for Steve and the other guys. There will be time for them later, but he really wanted to see you now, so I thought it was best to come while he still has some strength. I've told him the situation, but he won't believe me. If he asks you, be honest and try to prepare him a bit for this sudden end to so many hopes.”
“How soon, Uncle?”
“How soon, Uncle?”
“A few hours, probably. This tranquil moment is yours make the most of it and, when we can do no more for him, we'll comfort one another.”
“A few hours, probably. This peaceful moment is yours—make the most of it, and when we can’t do anything more for him, we’ll comfort each other.”
Mac met them in the hall, but Rose hardly saw him. She was conscious only of the task before her and, when her uncle led her to the door, she said quietly, “Let me go in alone, please.”
Mac met them in the hall, but Rose barely noticed him. She was focused only on the task ahead, and when her uncle brought her to the door, she said softly, “Let me go in alone, please.”
Archie, who had been hanging over the bed, slipped away into the inner room as she appeared, and Rose found Charlie waiting for her with such a happy face, she could not believe what she had heard and found it easy to say almost cheerfully as she took his eager hand in both of hers: “Dear Charlie, I'm so glad you sent for me. I longed to come, but waited till you were better. You surely are?” she added, as a second glance showed to her the indescribable change which had come upon the face which at first seemed to have both light and color in it.
Archie, who had been leaning over the bed, quietly slipped into the inner room as she arrived, and Rose found Charlie waiting for her with such a joyful expression that she couldn't believe what she'd heard. It was easy for her to say almost cheerfully as she took his eager hand in both of hers: “Dear Charlie, I'm so glad you called for me. I really wanted to come, but I waited until you were feeling better. You are feeling better, right?” she added, as a second look revealed the indescribable change that had taken place in his face, which had once seemed vibrant and full of color.
“Uncle says not, but I think he is mistaken, because the agony is all gone, and except for this odd sinking now and then, I don't feel so much amiss,” he answered feebly but with something of the old lightness in his voice.
“Uncle says no, but I think he’s wrong because the pain is all gone, and aside from this strange sinking feeling every now and then, I don’t feel too bad,” he replied weakly but with a hint of his old cheerfulness in his voice.
“You will hardly be able to sail in the Rajah, I fear, but you won't mind waiting a little while we nurse you,” said poor Rose, trying to talk on quietly, with her heart growing heavier every minute.
“You probably won't be able to sail in the Rajah, I’m afraid, but you won't mind waiting a bit while we take care of you,” said poor Rose, trying to speak softly, with her heart getting heavier every minute.
“I shall go if I'm carried! I'll keep that promise, though it costs me my life. Oh, Rose! You know? They've told you?” And, with a sudden memory of what brought him there, he hid his face in the pillow.
“I'll go if I have to be carried! I'll keep that promise, even if it costs me my life. Oh, Rose! You know? They've told you?” And, with a sudden memory of what brought him there, he buried his face in the pillow.
“You broke no promise, for I would not let you make one, you remember. Forget all that, and let us talk about the better time that may be coming for you.”
“You didn't break any promises, because I wouldn’t let you make one, you remember. Put all that behind us, and let’s talk about the brighter future that might be ahead for you.”
“Always so generous, so kind!” he murmured, with her hand against his feverish cheek; then, looking up, he went on in a tone so humbly contrite it made her eyes fill with slow, hot tears.
“Always so generous, so kind!” he whispered, with her hand against his prickly cheek; then, looking up, he continued in a tone so sincerely regretful that it made her eyes well up with slow, hot tears.
“I tried to flee temptation I tried to say 'no,' but I am so pitiably weak, I couldn't. You must despise me. But don't give me up entirely, for if I live, I'll do better. I'll go away to Father and begin again.”
“I tried to escape temptation. I tried to say 'no,' but I’m so painfully weak that I couldn’t. You must hate me. But please don’t completely give up on me, because if I live, I’ll do better. I’ll go to Father and start fresh.”
Rose tried to keep back the bitter drops, but they would fall, to hear him still speak hopefully when there was no hope. Something in the mute anguish of her face seemed to tell him what she could not speak, and a quick change came over him as he grasped her hand tighter, saying in a sharp whisper: “Have I really got to die, Rose?”
Rose tried to hold back her tears, but they fell anyway, hearing him still speak hopefully when there was no hope. Something in the silent pain on her face seemed to communicate to him what she couldn’t say, and a quick change came over him as he gripped her hand tighter, saying in a low whisper: “Do I really have to die, Rose?”
Her only answer was to kneel down and put her arms about him, as if she tried to keep death away a little longer. He believed it then, and lay so still, she looked up in a moment, fearing she knew not what.
Her only response was to kneel down and wrap her arms around him, as if she were trying to hold off death for just a little longer. He believed it then, and lay so still that she looked up after a moment, afraid of what she might see.
But Charlie bore it manfully, for he had the courage which can face a great danger bravely, though not the strength to fight a bosom sin and conquer it. His eyes were fixed, as if trying to look into the unseen world whither he was going, and his lips firmly set that no word of complaint should spoil the proof he meant to give that, though he had not known how to live, he did know how to die. It seemed to Rose as if for one brief instant she saw the man that might have been if early training had taught him how to rule himself; and the first words he uttered with a long sigh, as his eye came back to her, showed that he felt the failure and owned it with pathetic candor.
But Charlie handled it bravely, because he had the courage to face great danger, even though he didn’t have the strength to fight his inner demons and overcome them. His eyes were fixed, as if trying to see into the unseen world he was heading to, and his lips were set firmly so that no word of complaint would ruin the testimony he wanted to give that, even though he didn’t know how to live, he did know how to die. It seemed to Rose that for a brief moment she saw the man he could have been if he had learned to control himself from an early age; and the first words he spoke, with a long sigh as his gaze returned to her, showed that he recognized his failure and accepted it with touching honesty.
“Better so, perhaps; better go before I bring any more sorrow to you and shame to myself. I'd like to stay a little longer and try to redeem the past; it seems so wasted now, but if I can't, don't grieve, Rose. I'm no loss to anyone, and perhaps it is too late to mend.”
“Maybe it's for the best; better to leave before I cause you more pain and bring more shame to myself. I'd love to stay a bit longer and try to fix the past; it feels so wasted now, but if I can't, please don't be sad, Rose. I'm not worth mourning, and maybe it's too late to make it right.”
“Oh, don't say that! No one will find your place among us we never can forget how much we loved you, and you must believe how freely we forgive as we would be forgiven,” cried Rose, steadied by the pale despair that had fallen on Charlie's face with those bitter words.
“Oh, don’t say that! No one will forget how much we loved you, and you have to believe that we forgive freely, just as we want to be forgiven,” Rose cried, steadied by the pale despair that had settled on Charlie's face with those bitter words.
“'Forgive us our trespasses!' Yes, I should say that. Rose, I'm not ready, it is so sudden. What can I do?” he whispered, clinging to her as if he had no anchor except the creature whom he loved so much.
“'Forgive us our trespasses!' Yes, I should say that. Rose, I'm not ready, it’s so sudden. What can I do?” he whispered, holding onto her as if she were his only lifeline, the one he loved so deeply.
“Uncle will tell you I am not good enough I can only pray for you.” And she moved as if to call in the help so sorely needed.
“Uncle will say I’m not good enough; I can only pray for you.” And she moved as if to call in the help that was desperately needed.
“No, no, not yet! Stay by me, darling read something there, in Grandfather's old book, some prayer for such as I. It will do me more good from you than any minister alive.”
“No, no, not yet! Stay with me, darling, read something from Grandfather's old book, maybe a prayer for someone like me. It will help me more coming from you than from any minister alive.”
She got the venerable book given to Charlie because he bore the good man's name and, turning to the “Prayer for the Dying,” read it brokenly while the voice beside her echoed now and then some word that reproved or comforted.
She received the respected book given to Charlie because he shared the good man's name, and as she turned to the “Prayer for the Dying,” she read it haltingly while the voice next to her occasionally repeated some word that either scolded or reassured.
“The testimony of a good conscience.” “By the sadness of his countenance may his heart be made better.” “Christian patience and fortitude.” “Leave the world in peace.” “Amen.”
“The testimony of a clear conscience.” “The sadness on his face may improve his heart.” “Christian patience and strength.” “Depart the world in peace.” “Amen.”
There was silence for a little; then Rose, seeing how wan he looked, said softly, “Shall I call Uncle now?”
There was silence for a moment; then Rose, noticing how pale he looked, said softly, “Should I call Uncle now?”
“If you will. But first don't smile at my foolishness, dear I want my little heart. They took it off please give it back and let me keep it always,” he answered with the old fondness strong as ever, even when he could show it only by holding fast the childish trinket which she found and had given him the old agate heart with the faded ribbon. “Put it on, and never let them take it off,” he said, and when she asked if there was anything else she could do for him, he tried to stretch out his arms to her with a look which asked for more.
“If you want to. But first, please don’t laugh at my foolishness, dear. I want my little heart back. They took it from me; please give it back so I can keep it forever.” He replied with the same fondness as always, even though he could only express it by holding tightly to the childish trinket she found and gave him—the old agate heart with the faded ribbon. “Put it on and never take it off,” he said. When she asked if there was anything else she could do for him, he tried to reach out to her with a look that asked for more.
She kissed him very tenderly on lips and forehead, tried to say “good-bye,” but could not speak, and groped her way to the door. Turning for a last look, Charlie's hopeful spirit rose for a moment, as if anxious to send her away more cheerful, and he said with a shadow of the old blithe smile, a feeble attempt at the familiar farewell gesture: “Till tomorrow, Rose.”
She kissed him gently on the lips and forehead, tried to say “goodbye,” but couldn’t get the words out, and felt her way to the door. Turning for one last look, Charlie's hopeful spirit lifted for a moment, wanting to send her off in a better mood, and he said with a hint of his old cheerful smile, a weak attempt at their usual farewell: “See you tomorrow, Rose.”
Alas for Charlie! His tomorrow never came, and when she saw him next, he lay there looking so serene and noble, it seemed as if it must be well with him, for all the pain was past; temptation ended; doubt and fear, hope and love, could no more stir his quiet heart, and in solemn truth he had gone to meet his Father, and begin again.
Alas for Charlie! His tomorrow never arrived, and when she saw him next, he lay there looking so peaceful and noble, it seemed like everything was okay for him, since all the pain was over; temptation was done; doubt and fear, hope and love, could no longer disturb his quiet heart, and in all honesty, he had gone to meet his Father and start anew.
Chapter 16 GOOD WORKS
The Rajah was delayed awhile, and when it sailed poor Mrs. Clara was on board, for everything was ready. All thought she had better go to comfort her husband, and since her boy died she seemed to care very little what became of her. So, with friends to cheer the long voyage, she sailed away, a heavyhearted woman, yet not quite disconsolate, for she knew her mourning was excessively becoming and felt sure that Stephen would not find her altered by her trials as much as might have been expected.
The Rajah was delayed for a bit, and when it set off, poor Mrs. Clara was on board because everything was packed. Everyone thought it was better for her to go and support her husband, and since her son passed away, she seemed to care very little about what happened to her. So, with friends to keep her company during the long journey, she sailed away, a sad woman, but not completely heartbroken, because she knew her grief suited her well and felt confident that Stephen wouldn’t see her as changed by her struggles as much as might have been expected.
Then nothing was left of that gay household but the empty rooms, silence never broken by a blithe voice anymore, and pictures full of promise, but all unfinished, like poor Charlie's life.
Then nothing was left of that joyful household but the empty rooms, silence that was never broken by a cheerful voice anymore, and pictures full of promise, but all unfinished, like poor Charlie's life.
There was much mourning for the bonny Prince, but no need to tell of it except as it affected Rose, for it is with her we have most to do, the other characters being of secondary importance.
There was a lot of sadness for the handsome Prince, but there's no need to go into detail about it except how it impacted Rose, since she is our main focus while the other characters are less important.
When time had soothed the first shock of sudden loss, she was surprised to find the memory of his faults and failings, short life and piteous death, grew dim, as if a kindly hand had wiped out the record and given him back to her in the likeness of the brave, bright boy she had loved, not as the wayward, passionate young man who had loved her.
When time had calmed the initial shock of sudden loss, she was surprised to find that the memory of his faults and failures, his short life and tragic death, started to fade, as if a gentle hand had erased the past and restored him to her as the brave, bright boy she had loved, rather than the impetuous, passionate young man who had loved her.
This comforted her very much, and folding down the last blotted leaf where his name was written, she gladly turned back to reopen and reread the happier chapters which painted the youthful knight before he went out to fall in his first battle. None of the bitterness of love bereaved marred this memory for Rose, because she found that the warmer sentiment, just budding in her heart, had died with Charlie and lay cold and quiet in his grave. She wondered, yet was glad, though sometimes a remorseful pang smote her when she discovered how possible it was to go on without him, feeling almost as if a burden had been lifted off, since his happiness was taken out of her hands. The time had not yet come when the knowledge that a man's heart was in her keeping would make the pride and joy of her life, and while she waited for that moment she enjoyed the liberty she seemed to have recovered.
This really comforted her, and after folding down the last blotted page with his name on it, she happily went back to reread the happier chapters that celebrated the young knight before he went off to face his first battle. None of the bitterness of lost love tainted this memory for Rose, because she realized that the warm feelings just beginning to grow in her heart had died with Charlie and lay cold and still in his grave. She felt a mixture of wonder and relief, though sometimes a guilty pang hit her when she recognized how possible it was to carry on without him, almost as if a weight had been lifted since his happiness was no longer her responsibility. The time hadn’t come yet when knowing that a man’s heart was in her hands would be the pride and joy of her life, and while she waited for that moment, she reveled in the sense of freedom she seemed to have regained.
Such being her inward state, it much annoyed her to be regarded as a brokenhearted girl and pitied for the loss of her young lover. She could not explain to all the world, so let it pass, and occupied her mind with the good works which always lie ready to be taken up and carried on. Having chosen philanthropy as her profession, she felt that it was high time to begin the task too long neglected.
Given her inner feelings, it really bothered her to be seen as a heartbroken girl and pitied for losing her young lover. She couldn't explain herself to everyone, so she let it go and focused her thoughts on the good deeds that were always waiting to be done. Since she had chosen philanthropy as her career, she felt it was finally time to start the work she had put off for too long.
Her projects were excellent, but did not prosper as rapidly as she hoped, for, having to deal with people, not things, unexpected obstacles were constantly arising. The “Home for Decayed Gentlewomen,” as the boys insisted on calling her two newly repaired houses, started finely and it was a pleasant sight to see the comfortable rooms filled with respectable women busy at their various tasks, surrounded by the decencies and many of the comforts which make life endurable. But, presently, Rose was disturbed to find that the good people expected her to take care of them in a way she had not bargained for. Buffum, her agent, was constantly reporting complaints, new wants, and general discontent if they were not attended to. Things were very neglected, water pipes froze and burst, drains got out of order, yards were in a mess, and rents behind-hand. Worst of all, outsiders, instead of sympathizing, only laughed and said, “We told you so,” which is a most discouraging remark to older and wiser workers than Rose.
Her projects were great, but they didn't succeed as quickly as she had hoped, because dealing with people instead of things meant unexpected problems kept coming up. The “Home for Decayed Gentlewomen,” as the boys insisted on calling her two newly renovated houses, started off well, and it was a nice sight to see the cozy rooms filled with respectable women busy with their different tasks, surrounded by the comforts that make life livable. But soon, Rose was troubled to discover that the good people expected her to take care of them in a way she hadn’t anticipated. Buffum, her agent, was always reporting complaints, new needs, and overall dissatisfaction if those weren't addressed. Things were very neglected, water pipes froze and burst, drains became clogged, yards were messy, and rent was overdue. Worst of all, outsiders, instead of being sympathetic, only laughed and said, “We told you so,” which is a really discouraging comment to anyone, even those who are older and wiser than Rose.
Uncle Alec, however, stood by her staunchly and helped her out of many of her woes by good advice and an occasional visit of inspection, which did much to impress upon the dwellers there the fact that, if they did not do their part, their leases would be short ones.
Uncle Alec, however, supported her strongly and helped her through many of her troubles with good advice and occasional visits, which reminded the residents that if they didn’t do their part, their leases would be brief.
“I didn't expect to make anything out of it, but I did think they would be grateful,” said Rose on one occasion when several complaints had come in at once and Buffum had reported great difficulty in collecting the low rents.
“I didn't expect to get anything out of it, but I thought they would at least be thankful,” said Rose one time when multiple complaints had come in at once and Buffum had mentioned he was struggling to collect the low rents.
“If you do this thing for the sake of the gratitude, then it is a failure but if it is done for the love of helping those who need help, it is a success, for in spite of their worry every one of these women feel what privileges they enjoy and value them highly,” said Dr. Alec as they went home after one of these unsatisfactory calls.
“If you do this just to get gratitude, then it’s a failure, but if you do it out of a genuine desire to help those in need, it’s a success. Despite their worries, every one of these women knows the privileges they have and truly values them,” said Dr. Alec as they headed home after one of these disappointing visits.
“Then the least they can do is to say 'thank you.' I'm afraid I have thought more of the gratitude than the work, but if there isn't any, I must make up my mind to go without,” answered Rose, feeling defrauded of her due.
“Then the least they can do is say 'thank you.' I’m afraid I’ve thought more about the gratitude than the work, but if there isn’t any, I have to accept that I’ll go without,” replied Rose, feeling cheated out of what she deserved.
“Favors often separate instead of attracting people nearer to one another, and I've seen many a friendship spoilt by the obligation being all on one side. Can't explain it, but it is so, and I've come to the conclusion that it is as hard to give in the right spirit as it is to receive. Puzzle it out, my dear, while you are learning to do good for its own sake.”
“Favors often drive people apart instead of bringing them closer together, and I've seen many friendships ruined because one person feels all the obligation. I can’t explain it, but it’s true, and I’ve realized that it’s just as difficult to give in the right spirit as it is to receive. Think about it, my dear, while you learn to do good for its own sake.”
“I know one sort of people who are grateful and I'm going to devote my mind to them. They thank me in many ways, and helping them is all pleasure and no worry. Come into the hospital and see the dear babies, or the Asylum, and carry oranges to Phebe's orphans they don't complain and fidget one's life out, bless their hearts!” cried Rose, cheering up suddenly.
“I know a certain kind of people who are grateful, and I'm going to focus on them. They thank me in so many ways, and helping them is nothing but joy and no hassle. Come to the hospital and see the sweet babies, or the Asylum, and bring oranges to Phebe's orphans—they don’t complain or drive you crazy, bless their hearts!” Rose exclaimed, feeling cheerful all of a sudden.
After that she left Buffum to manage the “Retreat,” and devoted her energies to the little folks, always so ready to receive the smallest gift and repay the giver with their artless thanks. Here she found plenty to do, and did it with such sweet goodwill that she won her way like sunshine, making many a little heart dance over splendid dolls, gay picture books, and pots of flowers, as well as food, fire, and clothes for the small bodies pinched with want and pain.
After that, she left Buffum in charge of the “Retreat” and focused her energy on the kids, who were always eager to accept even the smallest gift and repay the giver with genuine thanks. Here, she had plenty to keep her busy, and she tackled it all with such cheerful enthusiasm that she brightened their days like sunshine, making many little hearts happy with beautiful dolls, colorful picture books, and pots of flowers, as well as food, warmth, and clothing for the small bodies suffering from hunger and hardship.
As spring came new plans sprang up as naturally as dandelions. The poor children longed for the country; and, as the green fields could not come to them, Rose carried them to the green fields. Down on the Point stood an old farmhouse, often used by the Campbell tribe for summer holidays. That spring it was set to rights unusually early, several women installed as housekeeper, cook, and nurses, and when the May days grew bright and warm, squads of pale children came to toddle in the grass, run over the rocks, and play upon the smooth sands of the beach. A pretty sight, and one that well repaid those who brought it to pass.
As spring arrived, new plans popped up as easily as dandelions. The poor kids longed for the countryside; and since the green fields couldn't come to them, Rose took them to the green fields. Down by the Point stood an old farmhouse, often used by the Campbell family for summer vacations. That spring, it was prepared unusually early, with several women taking on roles as housekeeper, cook, and caregivers. When the May days turned bright and warm, groups of pale children came to play in the grass, scramble over the rocks, and enjoy the smooth sands of the beach. It was a lovely sight, and one that truly rewarded those who made it happen.
Everyone took an interest in the “Rose Garden,” as Mac named it, and the womenfolk were continually driving over to the Point for something for the “poor dears.” Aunt Plenty sowed gingerbread broadcast; Aunt Jessie made pinafores by the dozen while Aunt Jane “kept her eye” on the nurses, and Aunt Myra supplied medicines so liberally that the mortality would have been awful if Dr. Alec had not taken them in charge. To him this was the most delightful spot in the world and well it might be, for he suggested the idea and gave Rose all the credit of it. He was often there, and his appearance was always greeted with shrieks of rapture, as the children gathered from all quarters creeping, running, hopping on crutches, or carried in arms which they gladly left to sit on “Uncle Doctor's” knee, for that was the title by which he went among them.
Everyone was interested in the “Rose Garden,” as Mac called it, and the women kept driving over to the Point to bring things for the “poor dears.” Aunt Plenty baked gingerbread in large batches; Aunt Jessie made dozens of pinafores while Aunt Jane “kept an eye” on the nurses, and Aunt Myra provided so many medicines that the death rate would have been terrible if Dr. Alec hadn't taken charge. For him, this was the most wonderful place in the world, and no wonder, since he came up with the idea and gave Rose all the credit for it. He was often there, and his arrival was always met with joyful shrieks as the children came from all directions, creeping, running, hopping on crutches, or being carried in arms which they happily relinquished to sit on “Uncle Doctor's” knee, which is what they called him.
He seemed as young as any of his comrades, though the curly head was getting gray, and the frolics that went on when he arrived were better than any medicine to children who had never learned to play. It was a standing joke among the friends that the bachelor brother had the largest family and was the most domestic man of the remaining four, though Uncle Mac did his part manfully and kept Aunt Jane in a constant fidget by his rash propositions to adopt the heartiest boys and prettiest girls to amuse him and employ her.
He seemed as young as any of his friends, even though his curly hair was starting to turn gray, and the fun that happened when he showed up was better than any medicine for kids who had never learned how to play. It was a running joke among the friends that the single brother had the biggest family and was the most family-oriented of the remaining four, even though Uncle Mac did his share and kept Aunt Jane on her toes with his bold suggestions to adopt the liveliest boys and prettiest girls to keep him entertained and her busy.
On one occasion Aunt Jane had a very narrow escape, and the culprit being her son, not her husband, she felt free to repay herself for many scares of this sort by a good scolding, which, unlike many, produced excellent results.
On one occasion, Aunt Jane had a close call, and since it was her son, not her husband, who was responsible, she felt free to make up for all the times she had been scared like this with a good scolding, which, unlike many, actually led to great results.
One bright June day, as Rose came cantering home from the Point on her pretty bay pony, she saw a man sitting on a fallen tree beside the road and something in his despondent attitude arrested her attention. As she drew nearer he turned his head, and she stopped short, exclaiming in great surprise: “Why, Mac! What are you doing here?”
One sunny June day, as Rose was riding home from the Point on her lovely bay pony, she noticed a man sitting on a fallen tree by the road, and his sad demeanor caught her eye. As she got closer, he turned his head, and she hurriedly stopped, exclaiming in surprise: “Wow, Mac! What are you doing here?”
“Trying to solve a problem,” he answered, looking up with a whimsical expression of perplexity and amusement in his face which made Rose smile till his next words turned her sober in a twinkling: “I've eloped with a young lady, and don't know what to do with her. I took her home, of course, but mother turned her out of the house, and I'm in a quandary.”
“Trying to solve a problem,” he replied, looking up with a playful expression of confusion and amusement on his face, which made Rose smile until his next words wiped the smile away in an instant: “I've run away with a young woman, and I have no idea what to do with her. I brought her home, of course, but my mother kicked her out, and I'm stuck.”
“Is that her baggage?” asked Rose, pointing with her whip to the large bundle which he held while the wild idea flashed through her head that perhaps he really had done some rash deed of this sort.
“Is that her stuff?” asked Rose, pointing her whip at the large bundle he was holding while a wild thought raced through her mind that maybe he had actually done something reckless like this.
“No, this is the young lady herself.” And, opening a corner of the brown shawl, he displayed a child of three so pale, so thin and tiny that she looked like a small scared bird just fallen from the nest as she shrank away from the light with great frightened eyes and a hand like a little claw tightly clutched a button of Mac's coat.
“No, this is the young lady herself.” And, opening a corner of the brown shawl, he revealed a three-year-old child so pale, so thin and small that she looked like a tiny, scared bird that had just fallen from its nest. She shrank away from the light with wide, frightened eyes, and her little hand, resembling a tiny claw, tightly clutched a button on Mac's coat.
“Poor baby! Where did it come from?” cried Rose, leaning down to look.
“Poor baby! Where did it come from?” Rose exclaimed, leaning down to take a look.
“I'll tell you the story, and then you shall advise me what to do. At our hospital we've had a poor woman who got hurt and died two days ago. I had nothing to do with her, only took her a bit of fruit once or twice, for she had big, wistful sort of eyes that haunted me. The day she died I stopped a minute, and the nurse said she'd been wanting to speak to me but didn't dare. So I asked if I could do anything for her and, though she could hardly breathe for pain being almost gone she implored me to take care of baby. I found out where the child was, and promised I'd see after her for the poor soul couldn't seem to die till I'd given her that comfort. I never can forget the look in her eyes as I held her hand and said, 'Baby shall be taken care of.' She tried to thank me, and died soon after quite peacefully. Well, I went today and hunted up the poor little wretch. Found her in a miserable place, left in the care of an old hag who had shut her up alone to keep her out of the way, and there this mite was, huddled in a corner, crying 'Marmar, marmar!' fit to touch a heart of stone. I blew up at the woman and took the baby straightaway, for she had been abused. It was high time. Look there, will you?”
“I'll tell you the story, and then I need your advice on what to do. At our hospital, there was a poor woman who got hurt and died two days ago. I didn't have much to do with her; I just brought her some fruit once or twice because she had these big, sad eyes that stuck with me. The day she died, I paused for a moment, and the nurse told me the woman wanted to talk to me but didn’t have the courage. So I asked if I could help her, and even though she could barely breathe from the pain, she begged me to take care of her baby. I found out where the child was and promised I’d look after her because the poor woman couldn't seem to pass on until I gave her that reassurance. I’ll never forget the look in her eyes as I held her hand and said, 'The baby will be taken care of.' She tried to thank me and soon after died peacefully. Well, today I went looking for the poor little thing. I found her in a terrible place, left with an old hag who had locked her up alone to keep her out of sight, and there was this tiny girl, huddled in a corner, crying 'Marmar, marmar!' that could melt a heart of stone. I lost it at the woman and took the baby right away because she had clearly been mistreated. It was about time. Look there, will you?”
Mac turned the little skinny arm and showed a blue mark which made Rose drop her reins and stretch out both hands, crying with a tender sort of indignation: “How dared they do it? Give her to me, poor little motherless thing!”
Mac turned the thin little arm and revealed a blue bruise, causing Rose to drop her reins and reach out both hands, exclaiming with a mix of anger and compassion: “How could they do this? Give her to me, poor little motherless thing!”
Mac laid the bundle in her arms, and Rose began to cuddle it in the fond, foolish way women have a most comfortable and effective way, nevertheless and baby evidently felt that things were changing for the better when warm lips touched her cheeks, a soft hand smoothed her tumbled hair, and a womanly face bent over her with the inarticulate cooings and purrings mothers make. The frightened eyes went up to this gentle countenance and rested there as if reassured; the little claw crept to the girl's neck, and poor baby nestled to her with a long sigh and a plaintive murmur of “Marmar, marmar” that certainly would have touched a stony heart.
Mac placed the bundle in her arms, and Rose started to cuddle it in that warm, affectionate way women do—a truly comforting and effective manner. The baby clearly sensed that things were improving as warm lips brushed against her cheeks, a gentle hand smoothed her messy hair, and a nurturing face leaned over her, making those soft cooing sounds that mothers often do. The frightened eyes looked up at this kind face and seemed to find reassurance there; the tiny hand reached for the girl's neck, and the little one snuggled against her with a deep sigh and a soft murmur of “Marmar, marmar” that would melt even the hardest heart.
“Now, go on. No, Rosa, not you,” said the new nurse as the intelligent animal looked around to see if things were all right before she proceeded.
“Now, go ahead. No, Rosa, not you,” said the new nurse as the clever animal looked around to make sure everything was okay before she moved forward.
“I took the child home to mother, not knowing what else to do, but she wouldn't have it at any price, even for a night. She doesn't like children, you know, and Father has joked so much about 'the Pointers' that she is quite rampant at the mere idea of a child in the house. She told me to take it to the Rose Garden. I said it was running over now, and no room even for a mite like this. 'Go to the Hospital,' says she. 'Baby isn't ill, ma'am,' says I. 'Orphan Asylum,' says she. 'Not an orphan got a father who can't take care of her,' says I. 'Take her to the Foundling place, or Mrs. Gardener, or someone whose business it is. I will not have the creature here, sick and dirty and noisy. Carry it back, and ask Rose to tell you what to do with it.' So my cruel parent cast me forth but relented as I shouldered baby, gave me a shawl to put her in, a jumble to feed her with, and money to pay her board in some good place. Mother's bark is always worse than her bite, you know.”
“I took the child home to my mom, not knowing what else to do, but she wouldn't have it for any reason, not even for a night. She doesn't like kids, you know, and Dad has joked so much about 'the Pointers' that she's pretty upset at the thought of having a child in the house. She told me to take it to the Rose Garden. I said it was full now, and there wasn’t even space for a little one like this. 'Go to the Hospital,' she said. 'The baby isn’t sick, ma'am,' I replied. 'Orphan Asylum,' she suggested. 'Not an orphan; she has a father who can’t take care of her,' I said. 'Take her to the Foundling place, or to Mrs. Gardener, or someone whose job it is. I will not have that baby here, sick, dirty, and noisy. Carry it back, and ask Rose what to do with it.' So my harsh mother sent me away but softened as I shouldered the baby, gave me a shawl to wrap her in, some food to feed her, and money to pay for her stay in a good place. You know, my mom's bark is always worse than her bite.”
“And you were trying to think of the 'good place' as you sat here?” asked Rose, looking down at him with great approval as he stood patting Rosa's glossy neck.
“And you were trying to think of the 'good place' while you were sitting here?” asked Rose, looking down at him with great approval as he stood patting Rosa's shiny neck.
“Exactly. I didn't want to trouble you, for you have your house full already, and I really couldn't lay my hand on any good soul who would be bothered with this little forlornity. She has nothing to recommend her, you see not pretty; feeble; shy as a mouse; no end of care, I daresay yet she needs every bit she can get to keep soul and body together, if I'm any judge.”
“Exactly. I didn't want to bother you since your place is already full, and I honestly couldn't find anyone who would take on this little lost cause. She doesn't have much going for her, you see—she's not pretty, weak, and shy like a mouse. I imagine she's a lot of trouble, yet she needs every bit of help she can get to survive, if I’m being honest.”
Rose opened her lips impulsively, but closed them without speaking and sat a minute looking straight between Rosa's ears, as if forcing herself to think twice before she spoke. Mac watched her out of the corner of his eyes as he said, in a musing tone, tucking the shawl around a pair of shabby little feet the while, “This seems to be one of the charities that no one wants to undertake, yet I can't help feeling that my promise to the mother binds me to something more than merely handing baby over to some busy matron or careless nurse in any of our overcrowded institutions. She is such a frail creature she won't trouble anyone long, perhaps, and I should like to give her just a taste of comfort, if not love, before she finds her 'Marmar' again.”
Rose opened her mouth impulsively but closed it without saying anything and sat for a minute, staring straight between Rosa's ears, as if forcing herself to think twice before speaking. Mac watched her out of the corner of his eye as he said, in a thoughtful tone, tucking the shawl around a pair of worn little feet, “This seems to be one of those charities that no one wants to take on, yet I can't shake the feeling that my promise to the mother ties me to something more than just handing the baby over to some busy matron or careless nurse in any of our overcrowded institutions. She’s such a fragile little thing she won’t be a burden for long, perhaps, and I’d like to give her just a taste of comfort, if not love, before she finds her 'Marmar' again.”
“Lead Rosa I'm going to take this child home, and if Uncle is willing, I'll adopt her, and she shall be happy!” cried Rose, with the sudden glow of feeling that always made her lovely. And gathering poor baby close, she went on her way like a modern Britomart, ready to redress the wrongs of any who had need of her.
“Lead Rosa, I'm going to take this child home, and if Uncle agrees, I’ll adopt her, and she will be happy!” cried Rose, with the sudden burst of emotion that always made her beautiful. And holding the poor baby close, she continued on her way like a modern-day hero, ready to right the wrongs of anyone who needed her.
As he led the slowly stepping horse along the quiet road, Mac could not help thinking that they looked a little like the Flight into Egypt, but he did not say so, being a reverent youth only glanced back now and then at the figure above him, for Rose had taken off her hat to keep the light from baby's eyes and sat with the sunshine turning her uncovered hair to gold as she looked down at the little creature resting on the saddle before her with the sweet thoughtfulness one sees in some of Correggio's young Madonnas.
As he walked the slowly moving horse down the quiet road, Mac couldn’t help but think they resembled the Flight into Egypt, but he kept that to himself. Being a respectful young man, he only glanced back occasionally at the figure above him. Rose had taken off her hat to shield the baby’s eyes from the light, and she sat there with the sunshine turning her bare hair to gold as she looked down at the little one resting on the saddle in front of her, embodying that sweet thoughtfulness often seen in some of Correggio's young Madonnas.
No one else saw the picture, but Mac long remembered it, and ever after there was a touch of reverence added to the warm affection he had always borne his cousin Rose.
No one else saw the picture, but Mac remembered it for a long time, and from then on, there was a hint of respect added to the warm love he had always felt for his cousin Rose.
“What is the child's name?” was the sudden question which disturbed a brief silence, broken only by the sound of pacing hoofs, the rustle of green boughs overhead, and the blithe caroling of birds.
“What’s the child’s name?” was the sudden question that interrupted a brief silence, broken only by the sound of hoofs pacing, the rustle of green branches overhead, and the cheerful singing of birds.
“I'm sure I don't know,” answered Mac, suddenly aware that he had fallen out of one quandary into another.
“I'm not sure,” Mac replied, suddenly realizing that he had just moved from one problem to another.
“Didn't you ask?”
"Weren't you the one asking?"
“No, the mother called her 'Baby,' and the old woman, 'Brat.' And that is all I know of the first name the last is Kennedy. You may christen her what you like.”
“No, the mom called her 'Baby,' and the old woman called her 'Brat.' And that’s all I know of the first name; the last one is Kennedy. You can name her whatever you want.”
“Then I shall name her Dulcinea, as you are her knight, and call her Dulce for short. That is a sweet diminutive, I'm sure,” laughed Rose, much amused at the idea.
“Then I’ll name her Dulcinea since you’re her knight and call her Dulce for short. That’s a sweet nickname, I’m sure,” laughed Rose, finding the idea very amusing.
Don Quixote looked pleased and vowed to defend his little lady stoutly, beginning his services on the spot by filling the small hands with buttercups, thereby winning for himself the first smile baby's face had known for weeks.
Don Quixote looked happy and promised to protect his little lady fiercely, starting his services right away by filling her small hands with buttercups, earning the first smile her face had shown in weeks.
When they got home Aunt Plenty received her new guest with her accustomed hospitality and, on learning the story, was as warmly interested as even enthusiastic Rose could desire, bustling about to make the child comfortable with an energy pleasant to see, for the grandmotherly instincts were strong in the old lady and of late had been beautifully developed.
When they got home, Aunt Plenty welcomed her new guest with her usual hospitality. Upon hearing the story, she became as warmly interested as enthusiastic Rose could hope for, bustling around to make the child comfortable with an energy that was nice to see, as the grandmotherly instincts were strong in the old lady and had recently blossomed beautifully.
In less than half an hour from the time baby went upstairs, she came down again on Rose's arm, freshly washed and brushed, in a pink gown much too large and a white apron decidedly too small; an immaculate pair of socks, but no shoes; a neat bandage on the bruised arm, and a string of spools for a plaything hanging on the other. A resigned expression sat upon her little face, but the frightened eyes were only shy now, and the forlorn heart evidently much comforted.
In under thirty minutes after the baby went upstairs, she came back down on Rose's arm, freshly washed and brushed, wearing a pink gown that was way too big and a white apron that was definitely too small; she had a spotless pair of socks but no shoes; a neat bandage covered her bruised arm, and she was playing with a string of spools hanging from the other side. A resigned look was on her little face, but her once-frightened eyes were just shy now, and her lonely heart seemed to be much comforted.
“There! How do you like your Dulce now?” said Rose, proudly displaying the work of her hands as she came in with her habit pinned up and carrying a silver porringer of bread and milk.
“There! How do you like your Dulce now?” Rose said, proudly showing off her handiwork as she walked in with her habit pinned up and holding a silver bowl of bread and milk.
Mac knelt down, took the small, reluctant hand, and kissed it as devoutly as ever good Alonzo Quixada did that of the Duchess while he said, merrily quoting from the immortal story: “'High and Sovereign Lady, thine till death, the Knight of the Rueful Countenance.'”
Mac knelt down, took the small, hesitant hand, and kissed it as reverently as good Alonzo Quixada did the hand of the Duchess, while he cheerfully quoted from the unforgettable story: “'High and Sovereign Lady, yours till death, the Knight of the Rueful Countenance.'”
But baby had no heart for play and, withdrawing her hand, pointed to the porringer with the suggestive remark: “Din-din, now.”
But the baby wasn't in the mood to play and, pulling her hand back, pointed to the bowl with the hinting comment: “Time for dinner now.”
So Rose sat down and fed the Duchess while the Don stood by and watched the feast with much satisfaction.
So Rose sat down and fed the Duchess while the Don stood by and watched the feast with great satisfaction.
“How nice she looks! Do you consider shoes unhealthy?” he asked, surveying the socks with respectful interest.
“How nice she looks! Do you think shoes are unhealthy?” he asked, examining the socks with genuine interest.
“No, her shoes are drying. You must have let her go in the mud.”
“No, her shoes are drying. You must have let her walk in the mud.”
“I only put her down for a minute when she howled, and she made for a puddle, like a duck. I'll buy her some new ones clothes too. Where do I go, what do I ask for, and how much do I get?” he said, diving for his pocketbook, amiably anxious but pitiably ignorant.
“I only set her down for a minute when she cried out, and she went straight for a puddle, like a duck. I’ll buy her some new clothes too. Where do I go, what do I ask for, and how much will it cost?” he said, reaching for his wallet, friendly but sadly clueless.
“I'll see to that. We always have things on hand for the Pointers as they come along and can soon fit Dulce out. You may make some inquiries about the father if you will, for I don't want to have her taken away just as I get fond of her. Do you know anything about him?”
“I'll take care of that. We always have supplies ready for the Pointers when they arrive, so we can quickly get Dulce set up. If you want, you can ask around about her father, because I really don't want her taken away just when I'm starting to get attached to her. Do you know anything about him?”
“Only that he is in State Prison for twenty-one years, and not likely to trouble you.”
“Just that he's in State Prison for twenty-one years and probably won't bother you.”
“How dreadful! I really think Phebe was better off to have none at all. I'll go to work at once, then, and try to bring up the convict's little daughter to be a good woman so that she will have an honest name of her own, since he has nothing but disgrace to give her.”
“How awful! I honestly think Phebe would be better off without any at all. I’ll get started right away, then, and try to raise the convict’s little daughter to be a good woman so that she can have an honest name of her own, since he has nothing but shame to pass on to her.”
“Uncle can show you how to do that if you need any help. He has been so successful in his first attempt, I fancy you won't require much,” said Mac, picking up the spools for the sixth time.
“Uncle can show you how to do that if you need help. He was really successful on his first try, so I think you won't need much,” said Mac, picking up the spools for the sixth time.
“Yes, I shall, for it is a great responsibility, and I do not undertake it lightly,” answered Rose soberly, though the double-barreled compliment pleased her very much.
“Yes, I will, because it’s a significant responsibility, and I don’t take it lightly,” Rose replied seriously, though the double-barreled compliment made her quite happy.
“I'm sure Phebe has turned out splendidly, and you began very early with her.”
“I'm sure Phebe has turned out wonderfully, and you started with her at a very young age.”
“So I did! That's encouraging. Dear thing, how bewildered she looked when I proposed adopting her. I remember all about it, for Uncle had just come and I was quite crazy over a box of presents and rushed at Phebe as she was cleaning brasses. How little I thought my childish offer would end so well!” And Rose fell a-musing with a happy smile on her face while baby picked the last morsels out of the porringer with her own busy fingers.
“So I did! That's uplifting. Poor thing, she looked so confused when I suggested adopting her. I remember it clearly because Uncle had just arrived, and I was completely excited about a box of gifts. I ran over to Phebe while she was polishing the brass. I never imagined that my childish proposal would turn out so wonderfully!” And Rose sank into thought with a joyful smile on her face while the baby picked the last bits out of the bowl with her own little fingers.
It certainly had ended well, for Phebe at the end of six months not only had a good place as choir singer but several young pupils and excellent prospects for the next winter.
It definitely ended well, because after six months, Phebe not only had a great job as a choir singer but also several young students and promising prospects for the next winter.
“Accept the blessing of a poor young man, Whose lucky steps have led him to your door, and let me help as much as I can. Good-bye, my Dulcinea.”
“Accept the blessing of a poor young man, whose fortunate path has brought him to your door, and let me help as much as I can. Goodbye, my Dulcinea.”
And, with a farewell stroke of the smooth head, Mac went away to report his success to his mother, who, in spite of her seeming harshness, was already planning how she could best befriend this inconvenient baby.
And with a final pat on the smooth head, Mac left to tell his mom about his success, who, despite her tough exterior, was already thinking about how she could best help this troublesome baby.
Chapter 17 AMONG THE HAYCOCKS
Uncle Alec did not object and, finding that no one had any claim upon the child, permitted Rose to keep it for a time at least. So little Dulce, newly equipped even to a name, took her place among them and slowly began to thrive. But she did not grow pretty and never was a gay, attractive child, for she seemed to have been born in sorrow and brought up in misery. A pale, pensive little creature, always creeping into corners and looking timidly out, as if asking leave to live, and, when offered playthings, taking them with a meek surprise that was very touching.
Uncle Alec didn’t object and, seeing that no one had any claim on the child, allowed Rose to keep her for a while. So little Dulce, now even named, took her place among them and slowly began to thrive. However, she didn’t grow into a pretty girl and was never a cheerful, attractive child; it was as if she had been born into sorrow and raised in hardship. A pale, thoughtful little thing, always sneaking into corners and peeking out timidly, as if asking for permission to live, and when offered toys, she accepted them with a gentle surprise that was really touching.
Rose soon won her heart, and then almost wished she had not, for baby clung to her with inconvenient fondness, changing her former wail of “Marmar” into a lament for “Aunty Wose” if separated long. Nevertheless, there was great satisfaction in cherishing the little waif, for she learned more than she could teach and felt a sense of responsibility which was excellent ballast for her enthusiastic nature.
Rose quickly captured her heart, and soon almost regretted it, because the baby clung to her with an overwhelming affection, turning her previous cries of “Marmar” into pleas for “Aunty Wose” whenever they were apart for too long. Still, there was immense joy in caring for the little one, as she learned more from the experience than she could ever teach, and it gave her a sense of responsibility that was a perfect counterbalance to her spirited nature.
Kitty Van, who made Rose her model in all things, was immediately inspired to go and do likewise, to the great amusement as well as annoyance of her family. Selecting the prettiest, liveliest child in the Asylum, she took it home on trial for a week. “A perfect cherub” she pronounced it the first day, but an “enfant terrible” before the week was over, for the young hero rioted by day, howled by night, ravaged the house from top to bottom, and kept his guardians in a series of panics by his hairbreadth escapes. So early on Saturday, poor exhausted Kitty restored the “cherub” with many thanks, and decided to wait until her views of education were rather more advanced.
Kitty Van, who looked up to Rose in everything, was quickly inspired to do the same, much to the amusement and annoyance of her family. She picked the cutest, most energetic child in the Asylum and brought him home for a trial week. “A perfect angel,” she declared on the first day, but by the end of the week, he had turned into a “little terror,” as the young boy caused chaos during the day, wailed at night, tore the house apart, and kept his guardians in constant panic with his narrow escapes. So, early on Saturday, poor exhausted Kitty returned the “angel” with many thanks and decided to wait until her ideas about education were a bit more developed.
As the warm weather came on, Rose announced that Dulce needed mountain air, for she dutifully repeated as many of Dr. Alec's prescriptions as possible and, remembering how much good Cozy Corner did her long ago, resolved to try it on her baby. Aunt Jessie and Jamie went with her, and Mother Atkinson received them as cordially as ever. The pretty daughters were all married and gone, but a stout damsel took their place, and nothing seemed changed except that the old heads were grayer and the young ones a good deal taller than six years ago.
As the warm weather arrived, Rose said that Dulce needed some fresh mountain air, since she diligently remembered as many of Dr. Alec's prescriptions as she could. Recalling how much Cozy Corner helped her a while back, she decided to try it with her baby. Aunt Jessie and Jamie joined her, and Mother Atkinson welcomed them as warmly as always. The beautiful daughters were all married and gone, but a sturdy young woman had stepped in for them, and the only noticeable changes were that the older folks had a bit more gray hair and the younger ones had grown quite a bit taller than they were six years ago.
Jamie immediately fraternized with neighboring boys and devoted himself to fishing with an ardor which deserved greater success. Aunt Jessie reveled in reading, for which she had no time at home, and lay in her hammock a happy woman, with no socks to darn, buttons to sew, or housekeeping cares to vex her soul. Rose went about with Dulce like a very devoted hen with one rather feeble chicken, for she was anxious to have this treatment work well and tended her little patient with daily increasing satisfaction. Dr. Alec came up to pass a few days and pronounced the child in a most promising condition. But the grand event of the season was the unexpected arrival of Phebe.
Jamie quickly made friends with the boys next door and threw himself into fishing with a passion that deserved better luck. Aunt Jessie enjoyed reading, something she never had time for at home, and lounged in her hammock as a happy woman, free from mending socks, sewing buttons, or dealing with household worries. Rose went around with Dulce like a very devoted hen with her somewhat weak chick, eager for this treatment to be successful and caring for her little patient with growing satisfaction each day. Dr. Alec visited for a few days and declared the child to be in a very promising state. However, the highlight of the season was the surprise arrival of Phebe.
Two of her pupils had invited her to join them in a trip to the mountains, and she ran away from the great hotel to surprise her little mistress with a sight of her, so well and happy that Rose had no anxiety left on her account.
Two of her students had invited her to go on a trip to the mountains, and she left the big hotel to surprise her young student with a look at her, so healthy and happy that Rose felt completely at ease about her.
Three delightful days they spent, roaming about together, talking as only girls can talk after a long separation, and enjoying one another like a pair of lovers. As if to make it quite perfect, by one of those remarkable coincidences which sometimes occur, Archie happened to run up for the Sunday, so Phebe had her surprise, and Aunt Jessie and the telegraph kept their secret so well, no one ever knew what maternal machinations brought the happy accident to pass.
They spent three wonderful days together, wandering around, chatting like only girls can do after being apart for a long time, and enjoying each other's company like a couple of lovers. Just to make it even better, by one of those amazing coincidences that sometimes happen, Archie happened to come by for the Sunday, so Phebe got her surprise, and Aunt Jessie and the telegraph managed to keep their secret so well that no one ever found out what motherly plans led to this happy accident.
Then Rose saw a very pretty, pastoral bit of lovemaking, and long after it was over, and Phebe gone one way, Archie another, the echo of sweet words seemed to linger in the air, tender ghosts to haunt the pine grove, and even the big coffeepot had a halo of romance about it, for its burnished sides reflected the soft glances the lovers interchanged as one filled the other's cup at that last breakfast.
Then Rose saw a beautiful, countryside scene of romance, and long after it ended, with Phebe going one way and Archie going another, the echoes of sweet words seemed to hang in the air, like tender memories haunting the pine grove. Even the big coffee pot had an aura of romance around it, as its shiny sides reflected the soft glances the lovers shared while one filled the other's cup during that last breakfast.
Rose found these reminiscences more interesting than any novel she had read, and often beguiled her long leisure by planning a splendid future for her Phebe as she trotted about after her baby in the lovely July weather.
Rose found these memories more interesting than any novel she had read, and often filled her long free time by imagining a wonderful future for Phebe as she walked around after her baby in the beautiful July weather.
On one of the most perfect days she sat under an old apple tree on the slope behind the house where they used to play. Before her opened the wide intervale, dotted with haymakers at their picturesque work. On the left flowed the swift river fringed with graceful elms in their bravest greenery; on the right rose the purple hills serene and grand; and overhead glowed the midsummer sky, which glorified it all.
On one of the most perfect days, she sat under an old apple tree on the slope behind the house where they used to play. In front of her stretched the wide valley, dotted with haymakers at their picturesque work. On the left, the fast-flowing river was lined with elegant elms in their brightest green; on the right, the purple hills stood serene and grand; and overhead, the midsummer sky illuminated everything.
Little Dulce, tired of play, lay fast asleep in the nest she had made in one of the haycocks close by, and Rose leaned against the gnarled old tree, dreaming daydreams with her work at her feet. Happy and absorbing fancies they seemed to be, for her face was beautifully tranquil, and she took no heed of the train which suddenly went speeding down the valley, leaving a white cloud behind. Its rumble concealed the sound of approaching steps, and her eyes never turned from the distant hills till the abrupt appearance of a very sunburned but smiling young man made her jump up, exclaiming joyfully: “Why, Mac! Where did you drop from?”
Little Dulce, tired from playing, was fast asleep in the nest she had made in one of the haystacks nearby, while Rose leaned against the gnarled old tree, lost in her daydreams with her work spread out at her feet. They seemed like happy, captivating thoughts, as her face looked peacefully serene, and she didn’t notice the train that suddenly sped down the valley, leaving a white cloud behind. Its rumble drowned out the sound of approaching footsteps, and she kept her eyes on the distant hills until a very sunburned but smiling young man appeared out of nowhere, making her jump up and exclaim joyfully, “Wow, Mac! Where did you come from?”
“The top of Mount Washington. How do you do?”
“The top of Mount Washington. How’s it going?”
“Never better. Won't you go in? You must be tired after such a fall.”
“Never better. Why don't you come inside? You must be tired after that fall.”
“No, thank you. I've seen the old lady. She told me Aunt Jessie and the boy had gone to town and that you were 'settin' round' in the old place. I came on at once and will take a lounge here if you don't mind,” answered Mac, unstrapping his knapsack and taking a haycock as if it were a chair.
“No, thanks. I saw the old lady. She told me Aunt Jessie and the boy went to town and that you were just hanging out at the old place. I came right over and I'll take a seat here if you don't mind,” replied Mac, unstrapping his backpack and using a haycock as if it were a chair.
Rose subsided into her former seat, surveying her cousin with much satisfaction as she said: “This is the third surprise I've had since I came. Uncle popped in upon us first, then Phebe, and now you. Have you had a pleasant tramp? Uncle said you were off.”
Rose settled back into her old seat, looking at her cousin with great satisfaction as she said, “This is the third surprise I've had since I arrived. First, Uncle dropped by, then Phebe, and now you. Did you have a nice walk? Uncle mentioned you were out.”
“Delightful! I feel as if I'd been in heaven, or near it, for about three weeks, and thought I'd break the shock of coming down to the earth by calling here on my way home.”
“Delightful! I feel like I’ve been in heaven, or close to it, for about three weeks, and I thought I’d ease the shock of coming back to reality by stopping here on my way home.”
“You look as if heaven suited you. Brown as a berry, but so fresh and happy I should never guess you had been scrambling down a mountain,” said Rose, trying to discover why he looked so well in spite of the blue flannel suit and dusty shoes, for there was a certain sylvan freshness about him as he sat there full of reposeful strength the hills seemed to have given, the wholesome cheerful days of air and sunshine put into a man, and the clear, bright look of one who had caught glimpses of a new world from the mountaintop.
“You look like heaven just fits you. You're as brown as a berry, but so fresh and happy that I would never guess you had just climbed down a mountain,” said Rose, trying to figure out why he looked so good despite the blue flannel suit and dusty shoes. There was a certain natural freshness about him as he sat there, full of calm strength that the hills seemed to have given him, the healthy, cheerful days of air and sunshine brought to life in a man, and the clear, bright look of someone who had glimpsed a new world from the mountaintop.
“Tramping agrees with me. I took a dip in the river as I came along and made my toilet in a place where Milton's Sabrina might have lived,” he said, shaking back his damp hair and settling the knot of scarlet bunchberries stuck in his buttonhole.
“Walking suits me just fine. I took a swim in the river on my way here and got myself ready in a spot where Milton's Sabrina could have lived,” he said, shaking out his wet hair and adjusting the knot of red bunchberries stuck in his buttonhole.
“You look as if you found the nymph at home,” said Rose, knowing how much he liked the “Comus.”
“You look like you found the nymph at home,” said Rose, aware of how much he liked the “Comus.”
“I found her here,” and he made a little bow.
“I found her here,” he said with a slight bow.
“That's very pretty, and I'll give you one in return. You grow more like Uncle Alec every day, and I think I'll call you Alec, Jr.”
“That’s really nice, and I’ll give you one back. You’re becoming more like Uncle Alec every day, and I think I’ll call you Alec, Jr.”
“Alexander the Great wouldn't thank you for that,” and Mac did not look as grateful as she had expected.
“Alexander the Great wouldn’t appreciate that,” and Mac didn’t seem as grateful as she had anticipated.
“Very like, indeed, except the forehead. His is broad and benevolent, yours high and arched. Do you know if you had no beard, and wore your hair long, I really think you'd look like Milton,” added Rose, sure that would please him.
“Very much so, except for the forehead. His is broad and kind, yours is high and arched. Do you know if you didn’t have a beard and wore your hair long, I honestly think you’d look like Milton,” added Rose, confident that would make him happy.
It certainly did amuse him, for he lay back on the hay and laughed so heartily that his merriment scared the squirrel on the wall and woke Dulce.
It definitely made him laugh, as he lay back on the hay and chuckled so loudly that his joy startled the squirrel on the wall and woke Dulce.
“You ungrateful boy! Will nothing suit you? When I say you look like the best man I know, you gave a shrug, and when I liken you to a great poet, you shout. I'm afraid you are very conceited, Mac.” And Rose laughed, too, glad to see him so gay.
“You ungrateful boy! Will nothing please you? When I say you look like the best man I know, you just shrug it off, and when I compare you to a great poet, you shout. I'm afraid you're pretty full of yourself, Mac.” And Rose laughed as well, happy to see him so cheerful.
“If I am, it is your fault. Nothing I can do will ever make a Milton of me, unless I go blind someday,” he said, sobering at the thought.
“If I am, it’s your fault. There’s nothing I can do that will ever turn me into a Milton, unless I go blind someday,” he said, growing serious at the thought.
“You once said a man could be what he liked if he tried hard enough, so why shouldn't you be a poet?” asked Rose, liking to trip him up with his own words, as he often did her.
“You once said a guy could be whatever he wanted if he worked hard enough, so why shouldn't you be a poet?” asked Rose, enjoying catching him out with his own words, just like he often did to her.
“I thought I was to be an M.D.”
“I thought I was meant to be a doctor.”
“You might be both. There have been poetical doctors, you know.”
“You could be both. There have been poet-doctors, you know.”
“Would you like me to be such a one?” asked Mac, looking at her as seriously as if he really thought of trying it.
“Do you want me to be that kind of person?” Mac asked, looking at her as seriously as if he was actually considering it.
“No. I'd rather have you one or the other. I don't care which, only you must be famous in either you choose. I'm very ambitious for you, because, I insist upon it, you are a genius of some sort. I think it is beginning to simmer already, and I've got a great curiosity to know what it will turn out to be.”
“No. I’d rather you be one or the other. I don’t care which, but you need to be famous in whichever you choose. I’m really ambitious for you because, honestly, you’re some kind of genius. I feel like it’s starting to bubble up already, and I’m really curious to see what it’s going to become.”
Mac's eyes shone as she said that, but before he could speak a little voice said, “Aunty Wose!” and he turned to find Dulce sitting up in her nest staring at the broad blue back before her with round eyes.
Mac's eyes sparkled as she said that, but before he could respond, a small voice called out, “Aunty Wose!” He turned to see Dulce sitting up in her nest, gazing at the wide blue back in front of her with wide eyes.
“Do you know your Don?” he asked, offering his hand with respectful gentleness, for she seemed a little doubtful whether he was a friend or stranger.
“Do you know your Don?” he asked, extending his hand with a respectful softness, as she appeared uncertain about whether he was a friend or a stranger.
“It is 'Mat,'” said Rose, and that familiar word seemed to reassure the child at once, for, leaning forward, she kissed him as if quite used to doing it.
“It’s 'Mat,'” said Rose, and that familiar word seemed to comfort the child right away, as she leaned forward and kissed him as if she was completely used to doing it.
“I picked up some toys for her, by the way, and she shall have them at once to pay for that. I didn't expect to be so graciously received by this shy mouse,” said Mac, much gratified, for Dulce was very chary of her favors.
“I picked up some toys for her, by the way, and she’ll get them right away as payment for that. I didn’t expect to be welcomed so warmly by this shy little thing,” said Mac, feeling quite pleased, since Dulce was usually very careful about showing her affection.
“She knew you, for I always carry my home album with me, and when she comes to your picture she always kisses it, because I never want her to forget her first friend,” explained Rose, pleased with her pupil.
“She knew you because I always carry my family album with me, and whenever she sees your picture, she always kisses it. I want to make sure she never forgets her first friend,” Rose explained, happy with her student.
“First, but not best,” answered Mac, rummaging in his knapsack for the promised toys, which he set forth upon the hay before delighted Dulce.
“First, but not best,” Mac replied, digging through his backpack for the promised toys, which he laid out on the hay in front of a thrilled Dulce.
Neither picture books nor sweeties, but berries strung on long stems of grass, acorns, and pretty cones, bits of rock shining with mica, several bluebirds' feathers, and a nest of moss with white pebbles for eggs.
Neither picture books nor candies, but berries threaded on long blades of grass, acorns, and beautiful pine cones, shiny bits of rock sparkling with mica, a few bluebird feathers, and a nest made of moss with white pebbles for eggs.
“Dearest Nature, strong and kind” knows what children love, and has plenty of such playthings ready for them all, if one only knows how to find them. These were received with rapture. And leaving the little creature to enjoy them in her own quiet way, Mac began to tumble the things back into his knapsack again. Two or three books lay near Rose, and she took up one which opened at a place marked by a scribbled paper.
“Dear Nature, strong and kind” knows what kids love, and has plenty of fun things ready for them, if you just know where to look. These were met with excitement. While leaving the little one to enjoy them in her own quiet way, Mac started to toss the items back into his backpack again. Two or three books were lying near Rose, and she picked one up that opened to a page marked by a crumpled piece of paper.
“Keats? I didn't know you condescended to read anything so modern,” she said, moving the paper to see the page beneath.
“Keats? I didn't realize you bothered to read anything so contemporary,” she said, shifting the paper to see the page underneath.
Mac looked up, snatched the book out of her hand, and shook down several more scraps, then returned it with a curiously shamefaced expression, saying, as he crammed the papers into his pocket, “I beg pardon, but it was full of rubbish. Oh, yes! I'm fond of Keats. Don't you know him?”
Mac looked up, grabbed the book from her hand, and shook out a few more pieces of paper. Then he handed it back with an oddly embarrassed look, saying, as he stuffed the papers into his pocket, “I’m sorry, but it was full of nonsense. Oh, yes! I really like Keats. Don’t you know him?”
“I used to read him a good deal, but Uncle found me crying over the 'Pot of Basil' and advised me to read less poetry for a while or I should get too sentimental,” answered Rose, turning the pages without seeing them, for a new idea had just popped into her head.
“I used to read him a lot, but Uncle caught me crying over the 'Pot of Basil' and told me to read less poetry for a bit or I'd get too sentimental,” replied Rose, flipping through the pages without really looking at them, as a new idea had just popped into her head.
“'The Eve of St. Agnes' is the most perfect love story in the world, I think,” said Mac, enthusiastically.
"'The Eve of St. Agnes' is the most perfect love story ever, I think," said Mac, excitedly.
“Read it to me. I feel just like hearing poetry, and you will do it justice if you are fond of it,” said Rose, handing him the book with an innocent air.
“Read it to me. I’m in the mood for some poetry, and you’ll do it justice if you really like it,” said Rose, giving him the book with a naive look.
“Nothing I'd like better, but it is rather long.”
“Nothing I’d like more, but it is kind of long.”
“I'll tell you to stop if I get tired. Baby won't interrupt; she will be contented for an hour with those pretty things.”
"I'll let you know when to stop if I get tired. The baby won't bother us; she'll be happy for an hour with those nice things."
As if well pleased with his task, Mac laid himself comfortably on the grass and, leaning his head on his hand, read the lovely story as only one could who entered fully into the spirit of it. Rose watched him closely and saw how his face brightened over some quaint fancy, delicate description, or delicious word; heard how smoothly the melodious measures fell from his lips, and read something more than admiration in his eyes as he looked up now and then to mark if she enjoyed it as much as he.
As if satisfied with what he was doing, Mac settled comfortably on the grass and, resting his head on his hand, read the beautiful story as only someone who truly understood its spirit could. Rose watched him closely and noticed how his face lit up at some quirky idea, gentle description, or delightful word; she heard how smoothly the melodic phrases flowed from his lips, and saw more than just admiration in his eyes when he glanced up occasionally to see if she enjoyed it as much as he did.
She could not help enjoying it, for the poet's pen painted as well as wrote, and the little romance lived before her, but she was not thinking of John Keats as she listened; she was wondering if this cousin was a kindred spirit, born to make such music and leave as sweet an echo behind him. It seemed as if it might be; and, after going through the rough caterpillar and the pent-up chrysalis changes, the beautiful butterfly would appear to astonish and delight them all. So full of this fancy was she that she never thanked him when the story ended but, leaning forward, asked in a tone that made him start and look as if he had fallen from the clouds: “Mac, do you ever write poetry?”
She couldn't help but enjoy it, because the poet's pen painted as well as it wrote, and the little romance came to life before her. But she wasn't thinking about John Keats as she listened; she was wondering if this cousin was a kindred spirit, destined to create such music and leave behind a sweet echo. It seemed possible, and after going through the rough stages of a caterpillar and the confined changes of a chrysalis, the beautiful butterfly would emerge to surprise and thrill everyone. She was so caught up in this thought that she forgot to thank him when the story ended and instead leaned forward, asking in a tone that made him jump and look as if he had just dropped from the sky: “Mac, do you ever write poetry?”
“Never.”
"Not happening."
“What do you call the song Phebe sang with her bird chorus?”
“What do you call the song Phebe sang with her bird choir?”
“That was nothing till she put the music to it. But she promised not to tell.”
“That was nothing until she added the music to it. But she promised not to say anything.”
“She didn't. I suspected, and now I know,” laughed Rose, delighted to have caught him.
“She didn't. I had my suspicions, and now I know,” laughed Rose, thrilled to have caught him.
Much discomfited, Mac gave poor Keats a fling and, leaning on both elbows, tried to hide his face for it had reddened like that of a modest girl when teased about her lover.
Feeling quite embarrassed, Mac tossed poor Keats aside and, leaning on both elbows, tried to hide his face because it had turned as red as a shy girl’s when teased about her boyfriend.
“You needn't look so guilty; it is no sin to write poetry,” said Rose, amused at his confession.
“You don't need to look so guilty; it's not a crime to write poetry,” said Rose, amused by his confession.
“It's a sin to call that rubbish poetry,” muttered Mac with great scorn.
“It's a sin to call that garbage poetry,” muttered Mac with great disdain.
“It is a greater sin to tell a fib and say you never write it.”
“It’s a bigger sin to lie and say you never wrote it.”
“Reading so much sets one thinking about such things, and every fellow scribbles a little jingle when he is lazy or in love, you know,” explained Mac, looking very guilty.
“Reading so much makes you think about these things, and everyone jots down a little verse when they’re feeling lazy or in love, you know,” Mac explained, looking pretty guilty.
Rose could not quite understand the change she saw in him till his last words suggested a cause which she knew by experience was apt to inspire young men. Leaning forward again, she asked solemnly, though her eyes danced with fun, “Mac, are you in love?”
Rose couldn't quite grasp the change she noticed in him until his last words hinted at a reason she knew from experience often inspired young men. Leaning forward again, she asked seriously, though her eyes sparkled with amusement, “Mac, are you in love?”
“Do I look like it?” And he sat up with such an injured and indignant face that she apologized at once, for he certainly did not look loverlike with hayseed in his hair, several lively crickets playing leapfrog over his back, and a pair of long legs stretching from tree to haycock.
“Do I look like it?” He sat up with such an injured and offended expression that she immediately apologized, because he definitely didn’t look romantic with hayseed in his hair, a few lively crickets hopping around on his back, and a pair of long legs sprawled out from the tree to the haystack.
“No, you don't, and I humbly beg your pardon for making such an unwarrantable insinuation. It merely occurred to me that the general upliftedness I observe in you might be owing to that, since it wasn't poetry.”
“No, you don't, and I sincerely apologize for making such an unfounded suggestion. It just crossed my mind that the overall positivity I see in you might be because of that, since it wasn’t poetry.”
“It is the good company I've been keeping, if anything. A fellow can't spend 'A Week' with Thoreau and not be the better for it. I'm glad I show it, because in the scramble life is to most of us, even an hour with such a sane, simple, and sagacious soul as his must help one,” said Mac, taking a much worn book out of his pocket with the air of introducing a dear and honored friend.
"It’s the great company I've been with, if anything. A guy can’t spend 'A Week' with Thoreau and not come out better for it. I’m glad it shows, because with how chaotic life is for most of us, even an hour with such a wise, straightforward, and insightful person like him must be helpful," said Mac, pulling out a well-worn book from his pocket as if he were introducing a beloved and respected friend.
“I've read bits, and like them they are so original and fresh and sometimes droll,” said Rose, smiling to see what natural and appropriate marks of approbation the elements seemed to set upon the pages Mac was turning eagerly, for one had evidently been rained on, a crushed berry stained another, some appreciative field-mouse or squirrel had nibbled one corner, and the cover was faded with the sunshine, which seemed to have filtered through to the thoughts within.
"I’ve read some parts, and they’re really original and fresh and sometimes funny," Rose said, smiling as she noticed the natural and fitting signs of approval that the elements had left on the pages Mac was eagerly flipping through. One page had clearly been rained on, another was marked by a crushed berry, and some grateful field mouse or squirrel had nibbled a corner, while the cover was faded from the sunlight that seemed to have seeped into the thoughts inside.
“Here's a characteristic bit for you: 'I would rather sit on a pumpkin, and have it all to myself, than be crowded on a velvet cushion. I would rather ride on earth in an oxcart, with free circulation, than go to heaven in the fancy car of an excursion train, and breathe malaria all the way.'
“Here's a quote for you: 'I’d rather sit on a pumpkin and have it all to myself than be crowded on a velvet cushion. I’d rather ride on the ground in an oxcart, with plenty of fresh air, than go to heaven in the fancy car of an excursion train and breathe in germs all the way.'”
“I've tried both and quite agree with him,” laughed Mac, and skimming down another page, gave her a paragraph here and there.
“I've tried both and totally agree with him,” laughed Mac, and skimming down another page, shared a paragraph here and there.
“'Read the best books first, or you may not have a chance to read them at all.'
“'Read the best books first, or you might not get a chance to read them at all.'”
“'We do not learn much from learned books, but from sincere human books: frank, honest biographies.'
“We don’t learn much from academic books, but from genuine personal stories: straightforward, honest biographies.”
“'At least let us have healthy books. Let the poet be as vigorous as the sugar maple, with sap enough to maintain his own verdure, besides what runs into the trough; and not like a vine which, being cut in the spring, bears no fruit, but bleeds to death in the endeavor to heal its wounds.'”
“'At the very least, let’s have books that are good for us. Let the poet be as strong as a sugar maple, with enough sap to keep himself healthy, plus what gets collected; and not like a vine that, when cut in the spring, produces no fruit, but suffers and weakens in trying to recover from its injuries.'”
“That will do for you,” said Rose, still thinking of the new suspicion which pleased her by its very improbability.
"That’s enough for you," said Rose, still pondering the new doubt that amused her with its sheer unlikelihood.
Mac flashed a quick look at her and shut the book, saying quietly, although his eyes shone, and a conscious smile lurked about his mouth: “We shall see, and no one need meddle, for, as my Thoreau says,
Mac shot her a quick glance and closed the book, saying softly, although his eyes sparkled and a knowing smile played at the corners of his mouth: “We’ll see, and no one should interfere, because, as my Thoreau says,
“Whate'er we leave to God, God does And blesses us: The work we choose should be our own God lets alone.”
“Whatever we leave to God, God handles And blesses us: The work we choose should be our own God leaves alone.”
Rose sat silent, as if conscious that she deserved his poetical reproof.
Rose sat in silence, aware that she deserved his poetic criticism.
“Come, you have catechized me pretty well; now I'll take my turn and ask you why you look 'uplifted,' as you call it. What have you been doing to make yourself more like your namesake than ever?” asked Mac, carrying war into the enemy's camp with the sudden question.
“Come on, you've questioned me pretty thoroughly; now it's my turn to ask you why you look so 'uplifted,' as you put it. What have you been doing to make yourself more like your namesake than ever?” asked Mac, launching an unexpected attack with his question.
“Nothing but live, and enjoy doing it. I actually sit here, day after day, as happy and contented with little things as Dulce is and feel as if I wasn't much older than she,” answered the girl, feeling as if some change was going on in that pleasant sort of pause but unable to describe it.
“Nothing but live, and enjoy doing it. I actually sit here, day after day, as happy and content with little things as Dulce is, and I feel like I’m not much older than she is,” answered the girl, sensing that some change was happening in that nice pause but unable to put it into words.
“As if a rose should shut and be a bud again,” murmured Mac, borrowing from his beloved Keats.
“As if a rose should close up and be a bud again,” Mac murmured, quoting his beloved Keats.
“Ah, but I can't do that! I must go on blooming whether I like it or not, and the only trouble I have is to know what leaf I ought to unfold next,” said Rose, playfully smoothing out the white gown, in which she looked very like a daisy among the green.
“Ah, but I can't do that! I have to keep blooming whether I want to or not, and the only problem I have is figuring out which leaf I should unfold next,” said Rose, playfully smoothing out the white gown, in which she looked very much like a daisy among the green.
“How far have you got?” asked Mac, continuing his catechism as if the fancy suited him.
“How far have you gotten?” Mac asked, continuing his questioning as if he enjoyed it.
“Let me see. Since I came home last year, I've been gay, then sad, then busy, and now I am simply happy. I don't know why, but seem to be waiting for what is to come next and getting ready for it, perhaps unconsciously,” she said, looking dreamily away to the hills again, is if the new experience was coming to her from afar.
“Let me think. Since I got home last year, I've felt happy, then sad, then busy, and now I’m just really happy. I don’t know why, but I feel like I’m waiting for what’s next and getting ready for it, maybe without even realizing it,” she said, gazing dreamily off toward the hills again, as if the new experience was approaching her from a distance.
Mac watched her thoughtfully for a minute, wondering how many more leaves must unfold before the golden heart of this human flower would lie open to the sun. He felt a curious desire to help in some way, and could think of none better than to offer her what he had found most helpful to himself. Picking up another book, he opened it at a place where an oak leaf lay and, handing it to her, said, as if presenting something very excellent and precious: “If you want to be ready to take whatever comes in a brave and noble way, read that, and the one where the page is turned down.”
Mac watched her thoughtfully for a minute, wondering how many more leaves must unfold before the golden heart of this human flower would be open to the sun. He felt a strange desire to help in some way, and couldn’t think of a better option than to offer her what he had found most helpful for himself. Picking up another book, he opened it to a place where an oak leaf lay and, handing it to her, said, as if presenting something truly excellent and precious: “If you want to be ready to handle whatever comes your way bravely and nobly, read this, and also the one with the turned-down page.”
Rose took it, saw the words “Self-Reliance,” and turning the leaves, read here and there a passage which was marked: “'My life is for itself, and not for a spectacle.'
Rose picked it up, noticed the words “Self-Reliance,” and flipping through the pages, read a few highlighted passages: “‘My life is for itself, and not for a show.’”
“'Insist on yourself: never imitate. That which each can do best, none but his Maker can teach him.'
“'Be true to yourself: never copy others. The only person who can teach you to do your best is your Creator.'”
“'Do that which is assigned to you, and you cannot hope or dare too much.'”
“'Do what you’re assigned, and you can’t hope or dare too much.'”
Then, coming to the folded page, whose title was “Heroism,” she read, and brightened as she read:
Then, as she reached the folded page titled “Heroism,” she read and felt uplifted as she continued.
“'Let the maiden, with erect soul, walk serenely on her way; accept the hint of each new experience; search in turn all the objects that solicit her eye, that she may learn the power and the charm of her newborn being.'
“Let the young woman, with a determined spirit, walk confidently on her path; embrace the lessons of each new experience; explore all the things that catch her eye, so she can discover the strength and beauty of her new self.”
“'The fair girl who repels interference by a decided and proud choice of influences inspires every beholder with something of her own nobleness; and the silent heart encourages her. O friend, never strike sail to a fear! Come into port greatly, or sail with God the seas.'”
“The beautiful girl who pushes away unwelcome attention with a strong and confident choice of influences inspires everyone who sees her with a bit of her own greatness; and the quiet heart supports her. Oh friend, never give in to fear! Arrive at your destination boldly, or sail the seas with God.”
“You understand that, don't you?” asked Mac as she glanced up with the look of one who had found something suited to her taste and need.
“You get that, right?” Mac asked as she looked up with the expression of someone who had found something that fit her taste and needs.
“Yes, but I never dared to read these Essays, because I thought they were too wise for me.”
“Yes, but I never had the courage to read these Essays because I thought they were too intelligent for me.”
“The wisest things are sometimes the simplest, I think. Everyone welcomes light and air, and cannot do without them, yet very few could explain them truly. I don't ask you to read or understand all of that don't myself but I do recommend the two essays I've marked, as well as 'Love' and 'Friendship.' Try them, and let me know how they suit. I'll leave you the book.”
“The smartest ideas are often the simplest, in my opinion. Everyone appreciates light and air and can't live without them, yet very few could really explain them. I don’t expect you to read or understand everything that I don’t myself, but I do recommend the two essays I’ve marked, as well as 'Love' and 'Friendship.' Give them a try, and let me know what you think. I’ll leave you the book.”
“Thanks. I wanted something fine to read up here and, judging by what I see, I fancy this will suit. Only Aunt Jessie may think I'm putting on airs if I try Emerson.”
“Thanks. I wanted something good to read up here and, based on what I see, I think this will work. But Aunt Jessie might think I'm acting snobbish if I choose Emerson.”
“Why should she? He has done more to set young men and women thinking than any man in this century at least. Don't you be afraid if it is what you want, take it, and go ahead as he tells you
“Why should she? He has inspired more young men and women to think than anyone else in this century, at least. Don't be scared—if it's what you want, take it and move forward as he suggests.”
“Without halting, without rest, Lifting Better up to Best.”
“Without stopping, without resting, Lifting Better up to Best.”
“I'll try,” said Rose meekly, feeling that Mac had been going ahead himself much faster than she had any suspicion.
“I'll try,” Rose said quietly, realizing that Mac had been moving forward much faster than she had expected.
Here a voice exclaimed “Hallo!” and, looking around, Jamie was discovered surveying them critically as he stood in an independent attitude, like a small Colossus of Rhodes in brown linen, with a bundle of molasses candy in one hand, several new fishhooks cherished carefully in the other, and his hat well on the back of his head, displaying as many freckles as one somewhat limited nose could reasonably accommodate.
Here a voice called out "Hello!" and, looking around, Jamie was seen examining them closely as he stood confidently, like a small Colossus of Rhodes in brown linen, with a bundle of molasses candy in one hand, a few new fishhooks carefully held in the other, and his hat pushed back on his head, showing as many freckles as one somewhat small nose could reasonably fit.
“How are you, young one?” said Mac, nodding.
“How are you doing, kid?” said Mac, nodding.
“Tip-top. Glad it's you. Thought Archie might have turned up again, and he's no fun. Where did you come from? What did you come for? How long are you going to stay? Want a bit? It's jolly good.”
“Great. I'm glad it's you. I thought Archie might have shown up again, and he's no fun. Where did you come from? What are you here for? How long are you staying? Want some? It's really good.”
With which varied remarks Jamie approached, shook hands in a manly way, and, sitting down beside his long cousin, hospitably offered sticks of candy all around.
With a mix of comments, Jamie came over, shook hands firmly, and, sitting next to his tall cousin, generously offered candy sticks to everyone.
“Did you get any letters?” asked Rose, declining the sticky treat.
“Did you get any letters?” Rose asked, turning down the sticky treat.
“Lots, but Mama forgot to give 'em to me, and I was rather in a hurry, for Mrs. Atkinson said somebody had come and I couldn't wait,” explained Jamie, reposing luxuriously with his head on Mac's legs and his mouth full.
“Lots, but Mom forgot to hand them to me, and I was in a bit of a hurry since Mrs. Atkinson said someone had arrived and I couldn't wait,” Jamie explained, lounging comfortably with his head on Mac's legs and his mouth full.
“I'll step and get them. Aunty must be tired, and we should enjoy reading the news together.”
"I'll go get them. Aunty must be tired, and we should enjoy reading the news together."
“She is the most convenient girl that ever was,” observed Jamie as Rose departed, thinking Mac might like some more substantial refreshment than sweetmeats.
“She is the most helpful girl there ever was,” Jamie remarked as Rose left, thinking that Mac might prefer something more filling than sweets.
“I should think so, if you let her run your errands, you lazy little scamp,” answered Mac, looking after her as she went up the green slope, for there was something very attractive to him about the slender figure in a plain white gown with a black sash about the waist and all the wavy hair gathered to the top of the head with a little black bow.
“I think so too, if you make her do your errands, you lazy little rascal,” replied Mac, watching her as she climbed the green slope, because there was something really appealing to him about the slender figure in a simple white dress with a black sash around the waist and all the wavy hair gathered at the top of her head with a little black bow.
“Sort of pre-Raphaelite, and quite refreshing after the furbelowed creatures at the hotels,” he said to himself as she vanished under the arch of scarlet runners over the garden gate.
“Kind of pre-Raphaelite, and definitely a breath of fresh air after the frilly people at the hotels,” he thought as she disappeared under the arch of red flowers over the garden gate.
“Oh, well! She likes it. Rose is fond of me, and I'm very good to her when I have time,” continued Jamie, calmly explaining. “I let her cut out a fishhook, when it caught in my leg, with a sharp penknife, and you'd better believe it hurt, but I never squirmed a bit, and she said I was a brave boy. And then, one day I got left on my desert island out in the pond, you know the boat floated off, and there I was for as much as an hour before I could make anyone hear. But Rose thought I might be there, and down she came, and told me to swim ashore. It wasn't far, but the water was horrid cold, and I didn't like it. I started though, just as she said, and got on all right, till about halfway, then cramp or something made me shut up and howl, and she came after me slapdash, and pulled me ashore. Yes, sir, as wet as a turtle, and looked so funny, I laughed, and that cured the cramp. Wasn't I good to mind when she said, 'Come on'?”
“Oh, well! She likes me. Rose is fond of me, and I'm really nice to her when I have time,” Jamie continued, calmly explaining. “I let her cut out a fishhook that got stuck in my leg with a sharp penknife, and you better believe it hurt, but I didn't flinch at all, and she said I was a brave boy. Then one day, I got left on my desert island out in the pond; you know, the boat floated away, and I was out there for almost an hour before anyone could hear me. But Rose thought I might be there, so she came down and told me to swim to shore. It wasn't far, but the water was freezing cold, and I didn’t like it. I started, just like she said, and I was doing fine until about halfway, then cramp or something hit me, and I started shouting. She came after me in a rush and pulled me ashore. Yes, sir, I was as wet as a turtle and looked so funny that I laughed, and that fixed the cramp. Wasn't I good to listen when she said, 'Come on'?”
“She was, to dive after such a scapegrace. I guess you lead her a life of it, and I'd better take you home with me in the morning,” suggested Mac, rolling the boy over and giving him a good-natured pummeling on the haycock while Dulce applauded from her nest.
“She was foolish to chase after such a troublemaker. I suppose you must have put her through it, and I should probably take you home with me in the morning,” suggested Mac, rolling the boy over and playfully punching him on the haystack while Dulce cheered from her spot.
When Rose returned with ice-cold milk, gingerbread, and letters, she found the reader of Emerson up in the tree, pelting and being pelted with green apples as Jamie vainly endeavored to get at him. The siege ended when Aunt Jessie appeared, and the rest of the afternoon was spent in chat about home affairs.
When Rose came back with ice-cold milk, gingerbread, and letters, she found the guy reading Emerson up in the tree, throwing green apples and getting hit with them as Jamie unsuccessfully tried to reach him. The fun stopped when Aunt Jessie showed up, and the rest of the afternoon was spent chatting about things back home.
Early the next morning Mac was off, and Rose went as far as the old church with him.
Early the next morning, Mac set off, and Rose accompanied him as far as the old church.
“Shall you walk all the way?” she asked as he strode along beside her in the dewy freshness of the young day.
“Are you going to walk all the way?” she asked as he walked next to her in the fresh morning dew.
“Only about twenty miles, then take car and whisk back to my work,” he answered, breaking a delicate fern for her.
“It's only about twenty miles, then take the car and quickly get back to my job,” he replied, snapping a delicate fern for her.
“Are you never lonely?”
“Are you ever lonely?”
“Never. I take my best friends along, you know,” and he gave a slap to the pocket from which peeped the volume of Thoreau.
“Never. I always bring my best friends with me, you know,” he said, giving the pocket where the Thoreau book was peeking out a slap.
“I'm afraid you leave your very best behind you,” said Rose, alluding to the book he had lent her yesterday.
“I'm afraid you’re leaving your best stuff behind,” said Rose, referring to the book he had lent her yesterday.
“I'm glad to share it with you. I have much of it here, and a little goes a great way, as you will soon discover,” he answered, tapping his head.
“I'm happy to share it with you. I have a lot of it here, and even a little goes a long way, as you'll soon see,” he replied, tapping his head.
“I hope the reading will do as much for me as it seems to have done for you. I'm happy, but you are wise and good I want to be also.”
"I hope reading will do for me what it seems to have done for you. I'm happy, but you are wise and kind, and I want to be that too."
“Read away, and digest it well, then write and tell me what you think of it. Will you?” he asked as they paused where the four roads met.
“Go ahead and read it, take it in properly, then write and let me know your thoughts. Will you?” he asked as they stopped where the four roads met.
“If you will answer. Shall you have time with all your other work? Poetry I beg pardon medicine is very absorbing, you know,” answered Rose mischievously, for just then, as he stood bareheaded in the shadows of the leaves playing over his fine forehead, she remembered the chat among the haycocks, and he did not look at all like an M.D.
“If you will answer. Do you have time with all your other work? Poetry—I’m sorry, medicine is really demanding, you know,” Rose replied playfully, because just then, as he stood without a hat in the shadows of the leaves playing over his nice forehead, she remembered the conversation among the haycocks, and he didn’t look anything like a doctor.
“I'll make time.”
"I'll find time."
“Good-bye, Milton.”
"Goodbye, Milton."
“Good-bye, Sabrina.”
“Bye, Sabrina.”
Chapter 18 WHICH WAS IT?
Rose did read and digest, and found her days much richer for the good company she kept, for an introduction to so much that was wise, beautiful, and true could not but make that month a memorable one. It is not strange that while the young man most admired “Heroism” and “Self-Reliance,” the girl preferred “Love” and “Friendship,” reading them over and over like prose poems, as they are, to the fitting accompaniment of sunshine, solitude, and sympathy, for letters went to and fro with praiseworthy regularity.
Rose read and absorbed what she could, and she found her days much richer because of the great company she kept. Being introduced to so much that was wise, beautiful, and true made that month unforgettable. It's no surprise that while the young man admired “Heroism” and “Self-Reliance,” the girl preferred “Love” and “Friendship,” reading them repeatedly like prose poems, which they are, with the perfect backdrop of sunshine, solitude, and understanding, as letters circulated back and forth with impressive regularity.
Rose much enjoyed this correspondence, and found herself regretting that it was at an end when she went home in September, for Mac wrote better than he talked, though he could do that remarkably well when he chose. But she had no chance to express either pleasure or regret, for the first time she saw him after her return the great change in his appearance made her forget everything else. Some whim had seized him to be shaven and shorn, and when he presented himself to welcome Rose, she hardly knew him. The shaggy hair was nicely trimmed and brushed, the cherished brown beard entirely gone, showing a well-cut mouth and handsome chin and giving a new expression to the whole face.
Rose really enjoyed their correspondence and found herself wishing it hadn’t ended when she went home in September, because Mac wrote better than he spoke, although he could talk quite well when he wanted to. But she had no chance to express either happiness or disappointment, as the first time she saw him after her return, the drastic change in his appearance made her forget everything else. For some reason, he had decided to shave and cut his hair, and when he greeted Rose, she hardly recognized him. His shaggy hair was neatly trimmed and styled, and his beloved brown beard was completely gone, revealing a well-defined mouth and attractive chin, giving his whole face a new look.
“Are you trying to look like Keats?” she asked, after a critical glance, which left her undecided whether the change was an improvement or not.
“Are you trying to look like Keats?” she asked, after giving him a scrutinizing look that left her unsure if the change was an improvement or not.
“I am trying not to look like Uncle,” answered Mac coolly.
“I’m trying not to look like Uncle,” Mac replied casually.
“And why, if you please?” demanded Rose in great surprise.
“And why, if you don’t mind me asking?” Rose asked in great surprise.
“Because I prefer to look like myself, and not resemble any other man, no matter how good or great he may be.”
“Because I want to look like myself and not like any other man, no matter how good or great he is.”
“You haven't succeeded then, for you look now very much like the young Augustus,” returned Rose, rather pleased on the whole to see what a finely shaped head appeared after the rough thatch was off.
“You haven’t succeeded then, because you now look a lot like the young Augustus,” Rose replied, feeling quite pleased to see what a well-shaped head emerged after the messy hair was cut off.
“Trust a woman to find a comparison for everything under the sun!” laughed Mac, not at all flattered by the one just made. “What do you think of me, on the whole?” he asked a minute later, as he found Rose still scrutinizing him with a meditative air.
“Leave it to a woman to come up with a comparison for everything!” laughed Mac, not at all flattered by the one just made. “What do you think of me, overall?” he asked a minute later, noticing that Rose was still examining him with a thoughtful expression.
“Haven't made up my mind. It is such an entire change, I don't know you, and feel as if I ought to be introduced. You certainly look much more tidy, and I fancy I shall like it when I'm used to seeing a somewhat distinguished-looking man about the house instead of my old friend Orson,” answered Rose, with her head on one side to get a profile view.
“I haven’t decided yet. It’s such a big change, I don’t know you, and I feel like I should be introduced. You definitely look much more put together, and I think I’ll like it once I get used to seeing a somewhat distinguished guy around the house instead of my old friend Orson,” replied Rose, tilting her head to get a profile view.
“Don't tell Uncle why I did it, please he thinks it was for the sake of coolness and likes it, so take no notice. They are all used to me now, and don't mind,” said Mac, roving about the room as if rather ashamed of his whim after all.
“Please don’t tell Uncle why I did it. He thinks it was just to look cool, and he likes that, so just ignore it. They’re all used to me now and don’t care,” said Mac, moving around the room as if he felt a bit embarrassed about his choice after all.
“No, I won't, but you mustn't mind if I'm not as sociable as usual for a while. I never can be with strangers, and you really do seem like one. That will be a punishment for your want of taste and love of originality,” returned Rose, resolved to punish him for the slight put upon her beloved uncle.
“No, I won't, but please don't take it personally if I'm not as friendly as usual for a bit. I can never be that way with strangers, and honestly, you come across as one. Consider it a consequence for your lack of taste and your love of being different,” Rose replied, determined to get back at him for the disrespect shown to her beloved uncle.
“As you like. I won't trouble you much anyway, for I'm going to be very busy. May go to L this winter, if Uncle thinks best, and then my 'originality' can't annoy you.”
"As you wish. I won't bother you too much anyway, since I'm going to be very busy. I might go to L this winter, if Uncle thinks it's best, and then my 'originality' won't annoy you."
“I hope you won't go. Why, Mac, I'm just getting to know and enjoy you, and thought we'd have a nice time this winter reading something together. Must you go?” And Rose seemed to forget his strangeness, as she held him still by one button while she talked.
“I hope you won't leave. Mac, I'm just starting to get to know you and enjoy your company, and I thought we could have a nice time this winter reading something together. Do you really have to go?” Rose seemed to forget his oddness as she held him by one button while she spoke.
“That would be nice. But I feel as if I must go my plans are all made, and I've set my heart on it,” answered Mac, looking so eager that Rose released him, saying sadly: “I suppose it is natural for you all to get restless and push off, but it is hard for me to let you go one after the other and stay here alone. Charlie is gone, Archie and Steve are wrapped up in their sweethearts, the boys away, and only Jamie left to 'play with Rose.'?
"That would be great. But I feel like I have to go; my plans are all set, and I'm really committed to it," Mac replied, looking so eager that Rose let him go, saying sadly, "I guess it's natural for all of you to get restless and move on, but it's tough for me to see you leave one by one while I’m here by myself. Charlie is gone, Archie and Steve are tied up with their girlfriends, the boys are away, and it’s just Jamie left to 'hang out with Rose.'"
“But I'll come back, and you'll be glad I went if I bring you my—” began Mac with sudden animation, then stopped abruptly to bite his lips, as if he had nearly said too much.
“But I'll come back, and you'll be glad I went if I bring you my—” Mac started with sudden energy, then cut himself off abruptly to bite his lips, as if he had almost said too much.
“Your what?” asked Rose curiously, for he neither looked nor acted like himself.
“Your what?” Rose asked, intrigued, because he neither looked nor acted like himself.
“I forgot how long it takes to get a diploma,” he said, walking away again.
“I forgot how long it takes to get a diploma,” he said, walking away again.
“There will be one comfort if you go you'll see Phebe and can tell me all about her, for she is so modest, she doesn't half do it. I shall want to know how she gets on, if she is engaged to sing ballads in the concerts they talk of for next winter. You will write, won't you?”
"There’s one silver lining if you go—you’ll see Phebe and can tell me all about her, because she’s so modest she doesn’t show it all. I want to know how she’s doing, if she’s planning to sing ballads at the concerts they’re talking about for next winter. You will write to me, right?"
“Oh, yes! No doubt of that,” and Mac laughed low to himself as he stooped to look at the little Psyche on the mantelpiece. “What a pretty thing it is!” he added soberly as he took it up.
“Oh, yes! No doubt about that,” Mac chuckled quietly to himself as he bent down to look at the little Psyche on the mantelpiece. “It’s such a beautiful piece!” he said thoughtfully as he picked it up.
“Be careful. Uncle gave it to me last New Year, and I'm very fond of it. She is just lifting her lamp to see what Cupid is like, for she hasn't seen him yet,” said Rose, busy putting her worktable in order.
“Be careful. Uncle gave it to me last New Year, and I really like it. She is just lifting her lamp to get a look at Cupid since she hasn't seen him yet,” said Rose, focused on organizing her worktable.
“You ought to have a Cupid for her to look at. She has been waiting patiently a whole year, with nothing but a bronze lizard in sight,” said Mac with the half-shy, half-daring look which was so new and puzzling.
“You should get her a Cupid to look at. She’s been waiting patiently for a whole year, with only a bronze lizard in sight,” said Mac with the half-shy, half-daring look that was so new and confusing.
“Cupid fled away as soon as she woke him, you know, and she had a bad time of it. She must wait longer till she can find and keep him.”
“Cupid ran off as soon as she woke him up, you know, and it was tough for her. She’ll have to wait longer until she can find him and hold onto him.”
“Do you know she looks like you? Hair tied up in a knot, and a spiritual sort of face. Don't you see it?” asked Mac, turning the graceful little figure toward her.
“Do you know she looks a lot like you? Hair pulled up in a bun and a thoughtful kind of face. Don’t you see it?” asked Mac, turning the elegant little figure towards her.
“Not a bit of it. I wonder whom I shall resemble next! I've been compared to a Fra Angelico angel, Saint Agnes, and now 'Syke,' as Annabel once called her.”
“Not at all. I wonder who I’ll be compared to next! I’ve been likened to a Fra Angelico angel, Saint Agnes, and now 'Syke,' as Annabel once referred to her.”
“You'd see what I mean, if you'd ever watched your own face when you were listening to music, talking earnestly, or much moved, then your soul gets into your eyes and you are like Psyche.”
“You’d understand what I mean if you’d ever watched your own face while listening to music, having a serious conversation, or feeling deeply moved. In those moments, your soul shines through your eyes, and you become like Psyche.”
“Tell me the next time you see me in a 'soulful' state, and I'll look in the glass, for I'd like to see if it is becoming,” said Rose merrily as she sorted her gay worsteds.
“Let me know the next time you see me in a 'soulful' mood, and I'll check the mirror, because I want to see if it looks good on me,” Rose said cheerfully as she sorted her colorful fabrics.
“Your feet in the full-grown grasses, Moved soft as a soft wind blows; You passed me as April passes, With a face made out of a rose,”
“Your feet in the tall grass, Moved as gently as a soft breeze; You went by me like April goes, With a face shaped like a rose,”
murmured Mac under his breath, thinking of the white figure going up a green slope one summer day; then, as if chiding himself for sentimentality, he set Psyche down with great care and began to talk about a course of solid reading for the winter.
murmured Mac quietly to himself, remembering the white figure climbing a green hill one summer day; then, as if scolding himself for being sentimental, he gently put Psyche down and started discussing a plan for serious reading during the winter.
After that, Rose saw very little of him for several weeks, as he seemed to be making up for lost time and was more odd and absent than ever when he did appear.
After that, Rose hardly saw him for several weeks, as he seemed to be making up for lost time and was even weirder and more distant than before when he did show up.
As she became accustomed to the change in his external appearance, she discovered that he was altering fast in other ways and watched the “distinguished-looking gentleman” with much interest, saying to herself, when she saw a new sort of dignity about him alternating with an unusual restlessness of manner, and now and then a touch of sentiment, “Genius is simmering, just as I predicted.”
As she got used to the change in his looks, she noticed that he was changing quickly in other ways too. She watched the "distinguished-looking gentleman" with great interest, thinking to herself, as she saw a new kind of dignity in him mixed with an unusual restlessness and sometimes a hint of sentiment, “Genius is brewing, just like I predicted.”
As the family were in mourning, there were no festivities on Rose's twenty-first birthday, though the boys had planned all sorts of rejoicings. Everyone felt particularly tender toward their girl on that day, remembering how “poor Charlie” had loved her, and they tried to show it in the gifts and good wishes they sent her. She found her sanctum all aglow with autumn leaves, and on her table so many rare and pretty things, she quite forgot she was an heiress and only felt how rich she was in loving friends.
As the family was in mourning, there were no celebrations for Rose's twenty-first birthday, even though the boys had planned all sorts of festivities. Everyone felt especially tender toward her that day, remembering how “poor Charlie” had loved her, and they tried to express it through the gifts and good wishes they sent her. She found her room all lit up with autumn leaves, and on her table were so many rare and beautiful things that she completely forgot she was an heiress and only felt how rich she was in loving friends.
One gift greatly pleased her, though she could not help smiling at the source from whence it came, for Mac sent her a Cupid not the chubby child with a face of naughty merriment, but a slender, winged youth leaning on his unstrung bow, with a broken arrow at his feet. A poem, “To Psyche,” came with it, and Rose was much surprised at the beauty of the lines, for, instead of being witty, complimentary, or gay, there was something nobler than mere sentiment in them, and the sweet old fable lived again in language which fitly painted the maiden Soul looking for a Love worthy to possess it.
One gift really made her happy, although she couldn't help but smile at the source it came from, because Mac sent her a Cupid—not the chubby child with a cheeky grin, but a slender, winged young man leaning on his unstrung bow, with a broken arrow at his feet. A poem titled “To Psyche” came with it, and Rose was pleasantly surprised by the beauty of the lines. Instead of being witty, flattering, or cheerful, there was something deeper than just sentiment in them, and the sweet old story came to life again in language that beautifully depicted the maiden Soul searching for a Love worthy of it.
Rose read them over and over as she sat among the gold and scarlet leaves which glorified her little room, and each time found new depth and beauty in them, looking from the words that made music in her ear to the lovely shapes that spoke with their mute grace to her eye. The whole thing suited her exactly, it was so delicate and perfect in its way, for she was tired of costly gifts and valued very much this proof of her cousin's taste and talent, seeing nothing in it but an affectionate desire to please her.
Rose read them repeatedly as she sat among the golden and red leaves that adorned her small room, and each time she discovered new depth and beauty in them, shifting her gaze from the words that resonated in her ears to the beautiful shapes that silently spoke to her with their grace. Everything about it was just right for her; it was so delicate and flawless in its own way. She was exhausted by expensive gifts and truly appreciated this demonstration of her cousin's taste and talent, seeing it only as a heartfelt effort to make her happy.
All the rest dropped in at intervals through the day to say a loving word, and last of all came Mac. Rose happened to be alone with Dulce, enjoying a splendid sunset from her western window, for October gave her child a beautiful good night.
All the others stopped by throughout the day to share a kind word, and finally, Mac arrived. Rose was alone with Dulce, taking in a stunning sunset from her west-facing window, as October provided her child with a lovely good night.
Rose turned around as he entered and, putting down the little girl, went to him with the evening red shining on her happy face as she said gratefully: “Dear Mac, it was so lovely! I don't know how to thank you for it in any way but this.” And, drawing down his tall head, she gave him the birthday kiss she had given all the others.
Rose turned around as he walked in, set the little girl down, and approached him with a happy smile lit up by the evening sun. She said gratefully, “Dear Mac, it was so lovely! I don't know how to thank you for it, but this is all I can do.” Then, pulling down his tall head, she gave him the birthday kiss she had given to everyone else.
But this time it produced a singular effect, for Mac turned scarlet, then grew pale, and when Rose added playfully, thinking to relieve the shyness of so young a poet, “Never again say you don't write poetry, or call your verses rubbish I knew you were a genius, and now I'm sure of it,” he broke out, as if against his will: “No. It isn't genius, it is love!” Then, as she shrank a little, startled at his energy, he added, with an effort at self-control which made his voice sound strange: “I didn't mean to speak, but I can't suffer you to deceive yourself so. I must tell the truth, and not let you kiss me like a cousin when I love you with all my heart and soul!”
But this time it had a remarkable effect, because Mac turned bright red, then became pale, and when Rose playfully added, hoping to ease the embarrassment of such a young poet, “Don’t ever say you don’t write poetry, or call your verses garbage. I knew you were a genius, and now I’m sure of it,” he suddenly blurted out, as if he couldn't help it: “No. It’s not genius; it’s love!” Then, as she flinched slightly, taken aback by his intensity, he continued, with an effort to keep his composure that made his voice sound off: “I didn’t mean to say this, but I can’t let you fool yourself like that. I have to tell the truth and can’t let you kiss me like a cousin when I love you with all my heart and soul!”
“Oh, Mac, don't joke!” cried Rose, bewildered by this sudden glimpse into a heart she thought she knew so well.
“Oh, Mac, don’t joke!” Rose exclaimed, confused by this unexpected insight into a heart she believed she understood so well.
“I'm in solemn earnest,” he answered steadily, in such a quiet tone that, but for the pale excitement of his face, she might have doubted his words. “Be angry, if you will. I expect it, for I know it is too soon to speak. I ought to wait for years, perhaps, but you seemed so happy I dared to hope you had forgotten.”
“I'm serious,” he replied calmly, in such a quiet tone that, if it weren't for the pale excitement on his face, she might have questioned his words. “Be angry, if you want. I expect that, because I know it’s too soon to say anything. I should probably wait for years, but you seemed so happy that I dared to hope you had forgotten.”
“Forgotten what?” asked Rose sharply.
"Forgotten what?" Rose asked sharply.
“Charlie.”
“Charlie.”
“Ah! You all will insist on believing that I loved him better than I did!” she cried, with both pain and impatience in her voice, for the family delusion tried her very much at times.
“Ah! You all are determined to believe that I loved him more than I actually did!” she exclaimed, with both hurt and frustration in her voice, as the family’s misconception troubled her deeply at times.
“How could we help it, when he was everything women most admire?” said Mac, not bitterly, but as if he sometimes wondered at their want of insight.
“How could we help it when he was everything women admire the most?” said Mac, not bitterly, but as if he sometimes questioned their lack of insight.
“I do not admire weakness of any sort I could never love without either confidence or respect. Do me the justice to believe that, for I'm tired of being pitied.”
“I don’t admire any kind of weakness. I could never love without confidence or respect. Please believe me on this, because I’m tired of being pitied.”
She spoke almost passionately, being more excited by Mac's repressed emotion than she had ever been by Charlie's most touching demonstration, though she did not know why.
She spoke with intense enthusiasm, feeling more excited by Mac's hidden emotions than she ever had by Charlie's most heartfelt displays, even though she couldn't quite explain why.
“But he loved you so!” began Mac, feeling as if a barrier had suddenly gone down but not daring to venture in as yet.
“But he loved you so much!” started Mac, feeling like a barrier had suddenly come down but not daring to step in just yet.
“That was the hard part of it! That was why I tried to love him, why I hoped he would stand fast for my sake, if not for his own, and why I found it so sad sometimes not to be able to help despising him for his want of courage. I don't know how others feel, but, to me, love isn't all. I must look up, not down, trust and honor with my whole heart, and find strength and integrity to lean on. I have had it so far, and I know I could not live without it.”
“That was the tough part! That’s why I tried to love him, hoping he’d stand strong for me, if not for himself, and why I sometimes felt so sad about not being able to help but despise him for his lack of courage. I don’t know how others feel, but to me, love isn’t everything. I need to look up, not down, trust and honor completely, and find strength and integrity to rely on. I’ve had that so far, and I know I couldn’t live without it.”
“Your ideal is a high one. Do you hope to find it, Rose?” Mac asked, feeling, with the humility of a genuine love, that he could not give her all she desired.
“Your dreams are pretty lofty. Are you hoping to achieve them, Rose?” Mac asked, feeling, with the humility of true love, that he couldn't provide everything she wanted.
“Yes,” she answered, with a face full of the beautiful confidence in virtue, the instinctive desire for the best which so many of us lose too soon, to find again after life's great lessons are well learned. “I do hope to find it, because I try not to be unreasonable and expect perfection. Smile if you will, but I won't give up my hero yet,” and she tried to speak lightly, hoping to lead him away from a more dangerous topic.
“Yes,” she replied, exuding a beautiful confidence in her values and the instinctive desire for the best that many of us unfortunately lose too soon, only to rediscover after life's tough lessons are learned. “I really hope to find it because I try not to be unreasonable and expect perfection. Go ahead and smile, but I’m not ready to give up on my hero just yet,” and she attempted to sound casual, hoping to steer him away from a more sensitive subject.
“You'll have to look a long while, I'm afraid,” and all the glow was gone out of Mac's face, for he understood her wish and knew his answer had been given.
"You'll have to search for a long time, I'm afraid," and all the light faded from Mac's face, for he understood her desire and knew his answer had been given.
“I have Uncle to help me, and I think my ideal grew out of my knowledge of him. How can I fail to believe in goodness, when he shows me what it can be and do?”
“I have my uncle to help me, and I believe my ideal came from what I learned about him. How can I not believe in goodness when he shows me what it can be and what it can do?”
“It's no use for me to say any more, for I have very little to offer. I did not mean to say a word till I earned a right to hope for something in return. I cannot take it back, but I can wish you success, and I do, because you deserve the very best.” And Mac moved as if he was going away without more words, accepting the inevitable as manfully as he could.
“There's really no point in saying anything more, since I don't have much to give. I didn't intend to say anything until I felt I had a chance to hope for something in return. I can't take it back, but I can wish you success, and I genuinely do, because you deserve the best.” And Mac moved as if he was about to leave without saying anything else, facing the situation as bravely as he could.
“Thank you that makes me feel very ungrateful and unkind. I wish I could answer you as you want me to for, indeed, dear Mac, I'm very fond of you in my own way,” and Rose looked up with such tender pity and frank affection in her face, it was no wonder the poor fellow caught at a ray of hope and, brightening suddenly, said in his own odd way: “Couldn't you take me on trial while you are waiting for a true hero? It may be years before you find him; meantime, you could be practicing on me in ways that would be useful when you get him.”
“Thank you, that makes me feel really ungrateful and unkind. I wish I could respond the way you want me to because, honestly, dear Mac, I care about you in my own way,” and Rose looked up with such warm pity and genuine affection on her face that it was no surprise the poor guy clung to a glimmer of hope and, suddenly brightening, said in his own quirky way: “Couldn’t you give me a chance while you wait for your true hero? It might be years before you find him; in the meantime, you could be practicing on me in ways that would help when you finally meet him.”
“Oh, Mac! What shall I do with you?” exclaimed Rose, so curiously affected by this very characteristic wooing that she did not know whether to laugh or cry, for he was looking at her with his heart in his eyes, though his proposition was the queerest ever made at such a time.
“Oh, Mac! What am I supposed to do with you?” exclaimed Rose, so intrigued by this typical way he was trying to win her over that she couldn’t decide whether to laugh or cry, because he was looking at her with so much love in his eyes, even though his proposal was the strangest ever made at a moment like this.
“Just go on being fond of me in your own way, and let me love you as much as I like in mine. I'll try to be satisfied with that.” And he took both her hands so beseechingly that she felt more ungrateful than ever.
“Just keep liking me in your own way, and let me love you as much as I want in mine. I’ll try to be okay with that.” And he held both her hands so pleadingly that she felt more ungrateful than ever.
“No, it would not be fair, for you would love the most and, if the hero did appear, what would become of you?”
“No, that wouldn't be fair, because you would love the most, and if the hero did show up, what would happen to you?”
“I should resemble Uncle Alec in one thing at least fidelity, for my first love would be my last.”
“I should be like Uncle Alec in at least one way: loyalty, because my first love will be my last.”
That went straight to Rose's heart, and for a minute she stood silent, looking down at the two strong hands that held hers so firmly yet so gently, and the thought went through her mind, “Must he, too, be solitary all his life? I have no dear lover as my mother had, why cannot I make him happy and forget myself?”
That went straight to Rose's heart, and for a moment she stood silent, looking down at the two strong hands that held hers so firmly yet so gently, and the thought crossed her mind, “Must he, too, be alone all his life? I don't have a dear lover like my mother did; why can't I make him happy and forget about myself?”
It did not seem very hard, and she owned that, even while she told herself that compassion was no equivalent for love. She wanted to give all she could, and keep as much of Mac's affection as she honestly might, because it seemed to grow more sweet and precious when she thought of putting it away.
It didn't seem that difficult, and she admitted that, even while telling herself that compassion wasn't the same as love. She wanted to give as much as she could, while holding onto as much of Mac's affection as she honestly could, because it felt more sweet and valuable when she thought about saving it.
“You will be like Uncle in happier ways than that, I hope, for you, too, must have a high ideal and find her and be happy,” she said, resolving to be true to the voice of conscience, not be swayed by the impulse of the moment.
"You will be like Uncle in better ways than that, I hope, because you also need to have a high ideal, find her, and be happy," she said, determined to stay true to her conscience and not be swayed by momentary impulses.
“I have found her, but I don't see any prospect of happiness, do you?” he asked wistfully.
“I found her, but I don’t see any chance of happiness, do you?” he asked with a hint of sadness.
“Dear Mac, I cannot give you the love you want, but I do trust and respect you from the bottom of my heart, if that is any comfort,” began Rose, looking up with eyes full of contrition for the pain her reply must give.
“Dear Mac, I can’t give you the love you’re looking for, but I do trust and respect you with all my heart, if that helps at all,” Rose started, glancing up with eyes full of remorse for the pain her answer would cause.
She got no further, however, for those last words wrought a marvelous change in Mac. Dropping her hands, he stood erect, as if inspired with sudden energy and hope, while over his face there came a brave, bright look, which for the moment made him a nobler and comelier man than ever handsome Prince had been. “It is a comfort!” he said, in a tone of gratitude that touched her very much. “You said your love must be founded on respect, and that you have given me why can I not earn the rest? I'm nothing now, but everything is possible when one loves with all his heart and soul and strength. Rose, I will be your hero if a mortal man can, even though I have to work and wait for years. I'll make you love me, and be glad to do it. Don't be frightened. I've not lost my wits I've just found them. I don't ask anything I'll never speak of my hope, but it is no use to stop me. I must try it, and I will succeed!”
She didn't get any further, though, because those last words brought a remarkable change in Mac. Dropping her hands, he stood tall, as if filled with sudden energy and hope, while a brave, bright look crossed his face, making him seem like a nobler and more attractive man than any handsome prince ever had. “It's comforting!” he said, with a tone of gratitude that really moved her. “You said your love must be based on respect, and since you've given me that, why can't I earn the rest? Right now I'm nothing, but everything is possible when someone loves with all their heart, soul, and strength. Rose, I will be your hero if a mortal man can be one, even if I have to work and wait for years. I'll make you love me, and I'll be happy to do it. Don't be scared. I haven't lost my mind; I've just found it. I'm not asking for anything; I'll never talk about my hope, but it’s pointless to try to stop me. I have to try, and I will succeed!”
With the last words, uttered in a ringing voice while his face glowed, his eyes shone, and he looked as if carried out of himself by the passion that possessed him, Mac abruptly left the room, like one eager to change words to deeds and begin his task at once.
With his final words, spoken in a strong voice while his face lit up, his eyes sparkling as if he were carried away by the passion that consumed him, Mac suddenly left the room, like someone eager to turn words into actions and start his work immediately.
Rose was so amazed by all this that she sat down trembling a little, not with fear or anger, but a feeling half pleasure, half pain, and a sense of some new power subtle, strong, and sweet that had come into her life. It seemed as if another Mac had taken the place of the one she had known so long an ardent, ambitious man, ready for any work now that the magical moment had come when everything seems possible to love. If hope could work such a marvelous change for a moment, could not happiness do it for a lifetime? It would be an exciting experiment to try, she thought, remembering the sudden illumination which made that familiar face both beautiful and strange.
Rose was so amazed by all this that she sat down, trembling a little, not with fear or anger, but with a feeling that was half pleasure, half pain, and a sense of some new power—subtle, strong, and sweet—that had come into her life. It felt like another Mac had taken the place of the one she had known for so long—a passionate, ambitious man, ready for anything now that the magical moment had arrived when everything seems possible with love. If hope could create such a marvelous change for a moment, couldn’t happiness do it for a lifetime? She thought it would be an exciting experiment to try, remembering the sudden illumination that made that familiar face both beautiful and strange.
She could not help wondering how long this unsuspected sentiment had been growing in his heart and felt perplexed by its peculiar demonstration, for she had never had a lover like this before. It touched and flattered her, nevertheless and she could not but feel honored by a love so genuine and generous, for it seemed to make a man of Mac all at once, and a manly man, too, who was not daunted by disappointment but could “hope against hope” and resolve to make her love him if it took years to do it.
She couldn’t help but wonder how long this unexpected feeling had been building in his heart and felt confused by how it was showing itself, since she had never had a boyfriend like this before. It moved and flattered her, and she felt honored by such a genuine and generous love, because it suddenly made Mac feel like a real man—a manly man, too—who wasn’t afraid of disappointment but could “hope against hope” and decide to make her fall in love with him, even if it took years.
There was the charm of novelty about this sort of wooing, and she tried to guess how he would set about it, felt curious to see how he would behave when next they met, and was half angry with herself for not being able to decide how she ought to act. The more she thought, the more bewildered she grew, for having made up her mind that Mac was a genius, it disturbed all her plans to find him a lover, and such an ardent one. As it was impossible to predict what would come next, she gave up trying to prepare for it and, tired with vain speculations, carried Dulce off to bed, wishing she could tuck away her love troubles as quietly and comfortably as she did her sleepy little charge.
There was something exciting about this kind of flirting, and she tried to figure out how he would approach it, feeling curious about how he would act when they met again. She was also a bit frustrated with herself for not knowing how she should respond. The more she thought about it, the more confused she became, because having decided that Mac was a genius, it threw off all her plans to see him as a lover, and such a passionate one at that. Since it was impossible to guess what would happen next, she stopped trying to prepare for it and, exhausted from her pointless thoughts, took Dulce to bed, wishing she could put her love problems away as easily and comfortably as she tucked in her sleepy little charge.
Simple and sincere in all things, Mac gave Rose a new surprise by keeping his promise to the letter asked nothing of her, said nothing of his hope, and went on as if nothing had happened, quite in the old friendly way. No, not quite, for now and then, when she least expected it, she saw again the indescribable expression on his face, a look that seemed to shed a sudden sunshine over her, making her eyes fall involuntarily, her color rise, and her heart beat quicker for a moment. Not a word did he say, but she felt that a new atmosphere surrounded her when he was by, and although he used none of the little devices most lovers employ to keep the flame alight, it was impossible to forget that underneath his quietude there was a hidden world of fire and force ready to appear at a touch, a word from her.
Simple and genuine in everything, Mac surprised Rose by keeping his promise to the letter. He asked nothing of her, mentioned none of his hopes, and carried on as if nothing had happened, just like before. No, not exactly the same, because every now and then, when she least expected it, she caught a glimpse of that indescribable look on his face—a look that seemed to cast a sudden light on her, making her eyes drop, her cheeks heat up, and her heart race for a moment. He didn't say a word, but she sensed a new energy around her when he was near, and even though he didn't use any of the little tricks most lovers did to keep the spark alive, it was impossible to ignore that beneath his calm demeanor was a hidden world of passion and intensity just waiting to be ignited by a touch or a word from her.
This was rather dangerous knowledge for Rose, and she soon began to feel that there were more subtle temptations than she had expected, for it was impossible to be unconscious of her power, or always to resist the trials of it which daily came unsought. She had never felt this desire before, for Charlie was the only one who had touched her heart, and he was constantly asking as well as giving, and wearied her by demanding too much or oppressed her by offering more than she could accept.
This was pretty risky knowledge for Rose, and she quickly started to realize there were more subtle temptations than she had anticipated, since it was impossible to ignore her power or consistently resist the challenges it brought her every day. She had never felt this kind of desire before, because Charlie was the only one who had captured her heart, and he was always asking as much as he was giving, wearing her out by demanding too much or overwhelming her by offering more than she could handle.
Mac did neither; he only loved her, silently, patiently, hopefully, and this generous sort of fidelity was very eloquent to a nature like hers. She could not refuse or chide, since nothing was asked or urged; there was no need of coldness, for he never presumed; no call for pity, since he never complained. All that could be done was to try and be as just and true as he was, and to wait as trustfully for the end, whatever it was to be.
Mac did neither; he only loved her, silently, patiently, hopefully, and this kind of loyalty spoke volumes to someone like her. She couldn’t turn him away or scold him since he never asked or pushed for anything; there was no reason to act cold, because he never overstepped; no need for pity, as he never voiced any complaints. All she could do was try to be as fair and genuine as he was, and to wait as trustfully for the outcome, whatever it might be.
For a time she liked the new interest it put into her life, yet did nothing to encourage it and thought that if she gave this love no food it would soon starve to death. But it seemed to thrive on air, and presently she began to feel as if a very strong will was slowly but steadily influencing her in many ways. If Mac had never told her that he meant to “make her love him,” she might have yielded unconsciously, but now she mistook the impulse to obey this undercurrent for compassion and resisted stoutly, not comprehending yet the reason for the unrest which took possession of her about this time.
For a while, she enjoyed the excitement it brought to her life, but she didn't do anything to encourage it, thinking that if she didn't feed this love, it would eventually fade away. However, it seemed to flourish on its own, and soon she started to feel as if a strong will was gradually but consistently shaping her in various ways. If Mac hadn't told her that he planned to "make her love him," she might have given in without realizing it, but now she mistook the urge to follow this hidden feeling for compassion and resisted fiercely, not yet understanding the source of the restlessness that overtook her around this time.
She had as many moods as an April day, and would have much surprised Dr. Alec by her vagaries had he known them all. He saw enough, however, to guess what was the matter, but took no notice, for he knew this fever must run its course, and much medicine only does harm. The others were busy about their own affairs, and Aunt Plenty was too much absorbed in her rheumatism to think of love, for the cold weather set in early, and the poor lady kept her room for days at a time with Rose as nurse.
She had as many moods as an April day and would have shocked Dr. Alec with her unpredictability if he had known all of them. He saw enough to get an idea of what was going on but didn’t say anything, knowing that this fever had to run its course, and that giving her too much medicine would only make things worse. The others were busy with their own lives, and Aunt Plenty was too caught up in her rheumatism to think about love since the cold weather arrived early, forcing the poor lady to stay in her room for days at a time with Rose as her nurse.
Mac had spoken of going away in November, and Rose began to hope he would, for she decided that this silent sort of adoration was bad for her, as it prevented her from steadily pursuing the employments she had marked out for that year. What was the use of trying to read useful books when her thoughts continually wandered to those charming essays on “Love” and “Friendship”? To copy antique casts, when all the masculine heads looked like Cupid and the feminine ones like the Psyche on her mantelpiece? To practice the best music if it ended in singing over and over the pretty spring song without Phebe's bird chorus? Dulce's company was pleasantest now, for Dulce seldom talked, so much meditation was possible. Even Aunt Plenty's red flannel, camphor, and Pond's Extract were preferable to general society, and long solitary rides on Rosa seemed the only thing to put her in tune after one of her attempts to find out what she ought to do or leave undone.
Mac had mentioned leaving in November, and Rose started to hope he would, because she realized that this quiet kind of infatuation was unhealthy for her. It kept her from focusing on the goals she had set for the year. What was the point of trying to read useful books when her mind kept drifting to those lovely essays on “Love” and “Friendship”? Why copy classic sculptures when all the male faces resembled Cupid and the female ones looked like the Psyche on her mantel? Why practice great music if it just led to singing the same pretty spring song over and over without Phebe's bird chorus? She preferred Dulce's company now because Dulce rarely talked, allowing for some deep thinking. Even Aunt Plenty's red flannel, camphor, and Pond's Extract were more appealing than socializing, and long solitary rides on Rosa felt like the only thing that could help her align her thoughts after she tried to figure out what she should do or not do.
She made up her mind at last, and arming herself with an unmade pen, like Fanny Squeers, she boldly went into the study to confer with Dr. Alec at an hour when Mac was usually absent. “I want a pen for marking can you make me one, Uncle?” she asked, popping her head in to be sure he was alone.
She finally made up her mind and, grabbing an unmade pen, like Fanny Squeers, she confidently went into the study to talk to Dr. Alec at a time when Mac was usually gone. “I need a pen for marking; can you make me one, Uncle?” she asked, peeking in to make sure he was alone.
“Yes, my dear,” answered a voice so like the doctor's that she entered without delay.
“Yes, my dear,” answered a voice that sounded so much like the doctor's that she stepped in right away.
But before she had taken three steps she stopped, looking rather annoyed, for the head that rose from behind the tall desk was not rough and gray, but brown and smooth, and Mac, not Uncle Alec, sat there writing. Late experience had taught her that she had nothing to fear from a tete-a-tete and, having with difficulty taken a resolution, she did not like to fail of carrying it out.
But before she had taken three steps, she stopped, looking somewhat annoyed, because the head that popped up from behind the tall desk was not rough and gray, but brown and smooth, and Mac, not Uncle Alec, was sitting there writing. Past experiences had taught her that she had nothing to worry about in a one-on-one conversation, and after struggling to make a decision, she didn't want to back out of following through.
“Don't get up, I won't trouble you if you are busy, there is no hurry,” she said, not quite sure whether it were wiser to stay or run away.
“Don’t get up, I won’t bother you if you’re busy, there’s no rush,” she said, unsure whether it was smarter to stay or to leave.
Mac settled the point by taking the pen out of her hand and beginning to cut it, as quietly as Nicholas did on that “thrilling” occasion. Perhaps he was thinking of that, for he smiled as he asked, “Hard or soft?”
Mac resolved the issue by taking the pen out of her hand and starting to cut it, just as Nicholas did on that “thrilling” occasion. Maybe he was remembering that because he smiled as he asked, “Hard or soft?”
Rose evidently had forgotten that the family of Squeers ever existed, for she answered: “Hard, please,” in a voice to match. “I'm glad to see you doing that,” she added, taking courage from his composure and going as straight to her point as could be expected of a woman.
Rose clearly had forgotten that the Squeers family was even a thing, because she replied, “Hard, please,” in a tone to match. “I’m glad to see you doing that,” she added, finding confidence in his calmness and getting straight to the point as much as one could expect from a woman.
“And I am very glad to do it.”
“And I’m really happy to do it.”
“I don't mean making pens, but the romance I advised,” and she touched the closely written page before him, looking as if she would like to read it.
“I don't mean making pens, but the romance I suggested,” she said, touching the neatly written page in front of him, looking like she wanted to read it.
“That is my abstract on a lecture on the circulation of the blood,” he answered, kindly turning it so that she could see. “I don't write romances I'm living one,” and he glanced up with the happy, hopeful expression which always made her feel as if he was heaping coals of fire on her head.
“That’s my summary of a lecture on blood circulation,” he said, turning it so she could see. “I don’t write love stories; I’m living one,” and he looked up with that happy, hopeful expression that always made her feel like he was pouring hot coals on her head.
“I wish you wouldn't look at me in that way it fidgets me,” she said a little petulantly, for she had been out riding, and knew that she did not present a “spiritual” appearance after the frosty air had reddened nose as well as cheeks.
“I wish you wouldn't look at me like that; it makes me uneasy,” she said a bit petulantly, since she had been out riding and knew she didn’t look particularly “spiritual” after the chilly air had reddened both her nose and cheeks.
“I'll try to remember. It does itself before I know it. Perhaps this may mend matters.” And, taking out the blue glasses he sometimes wore in the wind, he gravely put them on.
“I'll try to remember. It happens before I even realize it. Maybe this will fix things.” And, pulling out the blue glasses he sometimes wore in the wind, he seriously put them on.
Rose could not help laughing, but his obedience only aggravated her, for she knew he could observe her all the better behind his ugly screen.
Rose couldn't help laughing, but his compliance only annoyed her more, since she knew he could watch her even better behind his ugly screen.
“No, it won't they are not becoming, and I don't want to look blue when I do not feel so,” she said, finding it impossible to guess what he would do next or to help enjoying his peculiarities.
“No, it won't. They don’t suit me, and I don't want to look sad when I don't feel that way,” she said, finding it impossible to guess what he would do next or to enjoy his quirks.
“But you don't to me, for in spite of the goggles everything is rose-colored now.” And he pocketed the glasses without a murmur at the charming inconsistency of his idol.
“But you don't for me, because despite the goggles, everything looks positive now.” And he put the glasses away without a word at the delightful inconsistency of his idol.
“Really, Mac, I'm tired of this nonsense, it worries me and wastes your time.”
“Honestly, Mac, I’m fed up with this nonsense; it stresses me out and just wastes your time.”
“Never worked harder. But does it really trouble you to know I love you?” he asked anxiously.
“Never worked harder. But does it really bother you to know I love you?” he asked nervously.
“Don't you see how cross it makes me?” And she walked away, feeling that things were not going as she intended to have them at all.
“Don’t you see how upset it makes me?” And she walked away, feeling that things were not going the way she had planned at all.
“I don't mind the thorns if I get the rose at last, and I still hope I may, some ten years hence,” said this persistent suitor, quite undaunted by the prospect of a “long wait.”
“I don’t mind the thorns if I get the rose in the end, and I still hope I might, maybe ten years from now,” said this determined suitor, showing no fear of the “long wait.”
“I think it is rather hard to be loved whether I like it or not,” objected Rose, at a loss how to make any headway against such indomitable hopefulness.
“I think it’s pretty tough to be loved whether I like it or not,” Rose replied, at a loss to find a way to counter such relentless optimism.
“But you can't help it, nor can I so I must go on doing it with all my heart till you marry, and then well, then I'm afraid I may hate somebody instead,” and Mac spoilt the pen by an involuntary slash of his knife.
“But you can't help it, and neither can I, so I’ll keep doing it with all my heart until you marry. And then, well, I’m afraid I might end up hating someone instead,” and Mac ruined the pen with an accidental cut from his knife.
“Please don't, Mac!”
"Please don't, Mac!"
“Do which, love or hate?”
“Choose: love or hate?”
“Don't do either go and care for someone else; there are plenty of nice girls who will be glad to make you happy,” said Rose, intent upon ending her disquiet in some way.
“Don't do either. Go and care for someone else; there are plenty of great girls who will be happy to make you happy,” said Rose, determined to resolve her unease in some way.
“That is too easy. I enjoy working for my blessings, and the harder I have to work, the more I value them when they come.”
"That's too easy. I like putting in the effort for my rewards, and the more I have to work for them, the more I appreciate them when they arrive."
“Then if I suddenly grew very kind, would you stop caring about me?” asked Rose, wondering if that treatment would free her from a passion which both touched and tormented her.
“Then if I suddenly became really nice, would you stop caring about me?” asked Rose, wondering if that would free her from a passion that both moved and tortured her.
“Try and see.” But there was a traitorous glimmer in Mac's eyes which plainly showed what a failure it would be.
“Give it a shot and see.” But there was a telling glimmer in Mac's eyes that clearly indicated how much of a failure it would be.
“No, I'll get something to do, so absorbing I shall forget all about you.”
“No, I’ll find something to do that’s so engaging I’ll forget all about you.”
“Don't think about me if it troubles you,” he said tenderly.
“Don’t think about me if it bothers you,” he said gently.
“I can't help it.” Rose tried to catch back the words, but it was too late, and she added hastily, “That is, I cannot help wishing you would forget me. It is a great disappointment to find I was mistaken when I hoped such fine things of you.”
“I can’t help it.” Rose tried to take back her words, but it was too late, and she quickly added, “I mean, I can’t help wishing you would forget me. It’s really disappointing to realize I was wrong when I hoped for such great things from you.”
“Yes, you were very sure that it was love when it was poetry, and now you want poetry when I've nothing on hand but love. Will both together please you?”
“Yes, you were so sure it was love when it was poetry, and now you want poetry when I only have love to offer. Will both together make you happy?”
“Try and see.”
"Give it a try."
“I'll do my best. Anything else?” he asked, forgetting the small task she had given him in his eagerness to attempt the greater.
“I'll do my best. Anything else?” he asked, forgetting the small task she had given him in his eagerness to tackle the bigger one.
“Tell me one thing. I've often wanted to know, and now you speak of it I'll venture to ask. Did you care about me when you read Keats to me last summer?”
“Tell me something. I've always wanted to know, and now that you're talking about it, I’ll go ahead and ask. Did you care about me when you read Keats to me last summer?”
“No.”
“No.”
“When did you begin?” asked Rose, smiling in spite of herself at his unflattering honesty.
“When did you start?” Rose asked, smiling despite herself at his brutal honesty.
“How can I tell? Perhaps it did begin up there, though, for that talk set us writing, and the letters showed me what a beautiful soul you had. I loved that first it was so quick to recognize good things, to use them when they came, and give them out again as unconsciously as a flower does its breath. I longed for you to come home, and wanted you to find me altered for the better in some way as I had found you. And when you came it was very easy to see why I needed you to love you entirely, and to tell you so. That's all, Rose.”
“How can I know? Maybe it really started up there, but that conversation got us writing, and your letters revealed what a beautiful soul you have. I loved how quickly you recognized good things, embraced them as they came, and shared them as effortlessly as a flower releases its fragrance. I wished for you to come home, hoping you’d find me changed for the better, just as I found you. And when you arrived, it was clear why I needed to love you completely and to express that to you. That’s all, Rose.”
A short story, but it was enough the voice that told it with such simple truth made the few words so eloquent, Rose felt strongly tempted to add the sequel Mac desired. But her eyes had fallen as he spoke, for she knew his were fixed upon her, dark and dilated, with the same repressed emotion that put such fervor into his quiet tones, and just as she was about to look up, they fell on a shabby little footstool. Trifles affect women curiously, and often most irresistibly when some agitation sways them. The sight of the old hassock vividly recalled Charlie, for he had kicked it on the night she never liked to remember. Like a spark it fired a long train of recollections, and the thought went through her mind: “I fancied I loved him, and let him see it, but I deceived myself, and he reproached me for a single look that said too much. This feeling is very different, but too new and sudden to be trusted. I'll neither look nor speak till I am quite sure, for Mac's love is far deeper than poor Charlie's, and I must be very true.”
It was a short story, but the way it was told with such simple truth made those few words so powerful. Rose felt a strong urge to add the continuation that Mac wanted. But as he spoke, her eyes dropped, knowing that his were fixed on her, dark and wide with the same intense emotion that infused his calm voice. Just as she was about to look up, her gaze fell on a shabby little footstool. Small things surprisingly affect women, often in a strong way when they're feeling agitated. The sight of the old hassock brought back vivid memories of Charlie, since he had kicked it on a night she preferred to forget. Like a spark, it ignited a stream of memories, and the thought crossed her mind: “I thought I loved him and showed it, but I was fooling myself, and he blamed me for a glance that revealed too much. This feeling is very different, but it’s too new and sudden to trust. I won’t look or speak until I’m completely sure, because Mac’s love is much deeper than poor Charlie's, and I have to be very honest.”
Not in words did the resolve shape itself, but in a quick impulse, which she obeyed certain that it was right, since it was hard to yield to it. Only an instant's silence followed Mac's answer as she stood looking down with fingers intertwined and color varying in her cheeks. A foolish attitude, but Mac thought it a sweet picture of maiden hesitation and began to hope that a month's wooing was about to end in winning for a lifetime. He deceived himself, however, and cold water fell upon his flame, subduing but by no means quenching it, when Rose looked up with an air of determination which could not escape eyes that were growing wonderfully farsighted lately.
Not in words did her determination take shape, but in a quick impulse that she followed, knowing it was right because it was hard to resist. Only a brief moment of silence followed Mac's response as she stood there, looking down with her fingers intertwined and her cheeks flushed. It was a naive stance, but Mac saw it as a sweet image of a girl in hesitation and began to hope that a month of courting might lead to a lifetime together. He was fooling himself, though, and his excitement was dampened, though not completely extinguished, when Rose looked up with a determined expression that couldn't go unnoticed by his recently sharp eyes.
“I came in here to beg Uncle to advise you to go away soon. You are very patient and forbearing, and I feel it more than I can tell. But it is not good for you to depend on anyone so much for your happiness, I think, and I know it is bad for me to feel that I have so much power over a fellow creature. Go away, Mac, and see if this isn't all a mistake. Don't let a fancy for me change or delay your work, because it may end as suddenly as it began, and then we should both reproach ourselves and each other. Please do! I respect and care for you so much, I can't be happy to take all and give nothing. I try to, but I'm not sure I want to think it is too soon to know yet.”
“I came in here to ask Uncle to tell you to leave soon. You are incredibly patient and understanding, and I appreciate it more than I can express. But I don’t think it’s good for you to depend on anyone so much for your happiness, and I know it’s not healthy for me to feel like I have so much control over someone else’s life. Please leave, Mac, and see if this isn’t all a mistake. Don’t let your feelings for me change or postpone your work, because it could end just as suddenly as it started, and then we would both regret it and blame each other. Please do this! I respect and care about you so much, and I can’t be happy taking everything without giving anything in return. I try to, but I’m not so sure I want to believe that it’s too soon to know for sure.”
Rose began bravely, but ended in a fluttered sort of way as she moved toward the door, for Mac's face though it fell at first, brightened as she went on, and at the last word, uttered almost involuntarily, he actually laughed low to himself, as if this order into exile pleased him much.
Rose started off confidently but trailed off as she approached the door. Mac's expression, which had initially dropped, brightened as she continued speaking, and by the time she finished her last word—almost without thinking—he actually chuckled quietly to himself, as if he was genuinely pleased by this unexpected command to leave.
“Don't say that you give nothing, when you've just shown me that I'm getting on. I'll go; I'll go at once, and see if absence won't help you 'to think, to know, and to be sure' as it did me. I wish I could do something more for you. As I can't, good-bye.”
“Don’t say you’re not giving anything when you just showed me that I’m moving on. I’ll leave; I’ll leave right now and see if being apart helps you ‘to think, to know, and to be sure’ like it did for me. I wish I could do more for you. Since I can’t, goodbye.”
“Are you going now?” And Rose paused in her retreat to look back with a startled face as he offered her a badly made pen and opened the door for her just as Dr. Alec always did; for, in spite of himself, Mac did resemble the best of uncles.
“Are you leaving now?” Rose stopped in her tracks to look back with a surprised expression as he presented her with a poorly made pen and opened the door for her just like Dr. Alec always did; for, despite his flaws, Mac did remind her of the best kind of uncle.
“Not yet, but you seem to be.”
“Not yet, but you definitely seem to be.”
Rose turned as red as a poppy, snatched the pen, and flew upstairs, to call herself hard names as she industriously spoiled all Aunt Plenty's new pocket handkerchiefs by marking them “A.M.C.”
Rose turned as red as a poppy, grabbed the pen, and rushed upstairs to call herself harsh names while she busily ruined all Aunt Plenty's new handkerchiefs by marking them “A.M.C.”
Three days later Mac said “good-bye” in earnest, and no one was surprised that he left somewhat abruptly, such being his way, and a course of lectures by a famous physician the ostensible reason for a trip to L——. Uncle Alec deserted most shamefully at the last moment by sending word that he would be at the station to see the traveler off, Aunt Plenty was still in her room, so when Mac came down from his farewell to her, Rose met him in the hall, as if anxious not to delay him. She was a little afraid of another tete-a-tete, as she fared so badly at the last, and had assumed a calm and cousinly air which she flattered herself would plainly show on what terms she wished to part.
Three days later, Mac said "goodbye" for real, and no one was surprised that he left pretty suddenly, since that was just his style, claiming he was going to a series of lectures by a famous doctor as the reason for his trip to L——. Uncle Alec bailed like a coward at the last minute by sending a message that he would be at the station to see Mac off, and Aunt Plenty was still in her room. So when Mac came down after saying goodbye to her, Rose met him in the hall, seeming eager not to hold him up. She was a bit nervous about having another one-on-one conversation, considering how poorly the last one went, and had put on a calm and friendly demeanor, thinking it would clearly signal how she wanted to part ways.
Mac apparently understood, and not only took the hint, but surpassed her in cheerful composure, for, merely saying “Good-bye, Cousin; write when you feel like it,” he shook hands and walked out of the house as tranquilly as if only a day instead of three months were to pass before they met again. Rose felt as if a sudden shower bath had chilled her and was about to retire, saying to herself with disdainful decision: “There's no love about it after all, only one of the eccentricities of genius,” when a rush of cold air made her turn to find herself in what appeared to be the embrace of an impetuous overcoat, which wrapped her close for an instant, then vanished as suddenly as it had come, leaving her to hide in the sanctum and confide to Psyche with a tender sort of triumph in her breathless voice: “No, no, it isn't genius that must be love!”
Mac seemed to get it, and not only picked up on her hint but also matched her upbeat attitude. He simply said, “Goodbye, Cousin; write when you feel like it,” shook hands, and left the house as calmly as if only a day rather than three months would pass before they saw each other again. Rose felt like she'd been hit with a cold shower and was about to leave, thinking to herself with a dismissive resolve, “There’s no love here after all, just one of the quirks of genius,” when a blast of cold air made her turn and find herself wrapped in what felt like an eager overcoat. It held her for a moment before disappearing as quickly as it had come, leaving her to retreat to her private space and whisper to Psyche with a mix of tender excitement in her breathless voice, “No, no, it isn't genius that must be love!”
Chapter 19 BEHIND THE FOUNTAIN
Two days after Christmas a young man of serious aspect might have been seen entering one of the large churches at L——. Being shown to a seat, he joined in the services with praiseworthy devotion, especially the music, to which he listened with such evident pleasure that a gentleman who sat nearby felt moved to address this appreciative stranger after church.
Two days after Christmas, a young man with a serious look can be seen entering one of the large churches at L——. After being shown to a seat, he participates in the services with admirable devotion, especially enjoying the music, which he listens to with such obvious pleasure that a man sitting nearby feels compelled to talk to this appreciative stranger after the service.
“Fine sermon today. Ever heard our minister before, sir?” he began, as they went down the aisle together among the last, for the young man had lingered as if admiring the ancient building.
“Great sermon today. Have you ever heard our minister before, sir?” he started, as they walked down the aisle together among the last few, since the young man had paused as if appreciating the historic building.
“Very fine. No, sir, I have never had that pleasure. I've often wished to see this old place, and am not at all disappointed. Your choir, too, is unusually good,” answered the stranger, glancing up at several bonnets bobbing about behind the half-drawn curtains above.
“Very nice. No, sir, I've never had that pleasure. I've often wanted to see this old place and I'm not disappointed at all. Your choir is unusually good too,” replied the stranger, looking up at several bonnets moving around behind the half-drawn curtains above.
“Finest in the city, sir. We pride ourselves on our music, and always have the best. People often come for that alone.” And the old gentleman looked as satisfied as if a choir of cherubim and seraphim “continually did cry” in his organ loft.
“Best in the city, sir. We take pride in our music, and we always have the best. People often come just for that.” And the old gentleman looked as pleased as if a choir of angels was continuously singing in his organ loft.
“Who is the contralto? That solo was beautifully sung,” observed the younger man, pausing to read a tablet on the wall.
“Who is the contralto? That solo was beautifully sung,” said the younger man, stopping to read a plaque on the wall.
“That is Miss Moore. Been here about a year, and is universally admired. Excellent young lady couldn't do without her. Sings superbly in oratorios. Ever heard her?”
"That's Miss Moore. She's been here for about a year and is loved by everyone. An amazing young woman, we couldn't manage without her. She sings beautifully in oratorios. Have you ever heard her?"
“Never. She came from X, I believe?
“Never. She came from X, right?
“Yes, highly recommended. She was brought up by one of the first families there. Campbell is the name. If you come from X, you doubtless know them.”
“Yes, definitely recommend it. She was raised by one of the first families there. The name is Campbell. If you're from X, you probably know them.”
“I have met them. Good morning.” And with bows the gentlemen parted, for at that instant the young man caught sight of a tall lady going down the church steps with a devout expression in her fine eyes and a prayer-book in her hand.
“I’ve met them. Good morning.” And with bows, the gentlemen separated, for at that moment the young man noticed a tall lady descending the church steps with a sincere expression in her beautiful eyes and a prayer book in her hand.
Hastening after her, the serious-minded young man accosted her just as she turned into a quiet street.
Hurrying after her, the earnest young man approached her just as she turned onto a quiet street.
“Phebe!”
“Phebe!”
Only a word, but it wrought a marvelous change, for the devout expression vanished in the drawing of a breath, and the quiet face blossomed suddenly with color, warmth, and “the light that never was on sea or land” as she turned to meet her lover with an answering word as eloquent as his.
Only a word, but it made a fantastic change, for the pious expression disappeared in a breath, and the calm face suddenly came alive with color, warmth, and “the light that never was on sea or land” as she turned to greet her lover with a response as expressive as his.
“Archie!”
"Archie!"
“The year is out today. I told you I should come. Have you forgotten?”
“The year is up today. I told you I would come. Have you forgotten?”
“No I knew you'd come.”
“No, I knew you’d show up.”
“And are you glad?”
"Are you happy?"
“How can I help it?”
“How can I avoid it?”
“You can't don't try. Come into this little park and let us talk.” And drawing her hand through his arm, Archie led her into what to other eyes was a very dismal square, with a boarded-up fountain in the middle, sodden grass plots, and dead leaves dancing in the wintry wind.
“You can't not try. Come into this little park and let's talk.” And pulling her hand through his arm, Archie led her into what appeared to others as a very dreary square, with a boarded-up fountain in the center, soggy grass patches, and dead leaves swirling in the chilly wind.
But to them it was a summery Paradise, and they walked to and fro in the pale sunshine, quite unconscious that they were objects of interest to several ladies and gentlemen waiting anxiously for their dinner or yawning over the dull books kept for Sunday reading. “Are you ready to come home now, Phebe?” asked Archie tenderly as he looked at the downcast face beside him and wondered why all women did not wear delightful little black velvet bonnets with one deep red flower against their hair.
But to them, it was a sunny paradise, and they strolled back and forth in the soft sunshine, completely unaware that they were the center of attention for several ladies and gentlemen who were anxiously waiting for dinner or yawning over the boring books meant for Sunday reading. “Are you ready to head home now, Phebe?” asked Archie gently as he glanced at the sad face beside him and wondered why all women didn't wear charming little black velvet bonnets with one deep red flower against their hair.
“Not yet. I haven't done enough,” began Phebe, finding it very hard to keep the resolution made a year ago.
“Not yet. I haven't done enough,” Phebe said, struggling to stick to the commitment she made a year ago.
“You have proved that you can support yourself, make friends, and earn a name, if you choose. No one can deny that, and we are all getting proud of you. What more can you ask, my dearest?”
“You've shown that you can take care of yourself, make friends, and build a reputation if you want to. No one can argue with that, and we're all really proud of you. What more could you want, my dear?”
“I don't quite know, but I am very ambitious. I want to be famous, to do something for you all, to make some sacrifice for Rose, and, if I can, to have something to give up for your sake. Let me wait and work longer I know I haven't earned my welcome yet,” pleaded Phebe so earnestly that her lover knew it would be in vain to try and turn her, so wisely contented himself with half, since he could not have the whole.
“I’m not really sure, but I’m very ambitious. I want to be famous, to do something for all of you, to make some sacrifice for Rose, and, if I can, to have something to give up for your sake. Let me wait and work longer—I know I haven’t earned my welcome yet,” Phebe pleaded so earnestly that her lover realized it would be pointless to try to change her mind, so he wisely settled for half, since he couldn’t have the whole.
“Such a proud woman! Yet I love you all the better for it, and understand your feeling. Rose made me see how it seems to you, and I don't wonder that you cannot forget the unkind things that were looked, if not said, by some of my amiable aunts. I'll try to be patient on one condition, Phebe.”
“Such a proud woman! But I love you even more for it, and I get how you feel. Rose helped me see things from your perspective, and I understand why you can't forget the hurtful things that were implied, if not actually said, by some of my charming aunts. I’ll try to be patient, but only on one condition, Phebe.”
“And what is that?”
"What’s that?"
“You are to let me come sometimes while I wait, and wear this lest you should forget me,” he said, pulling a ring from his pocket and gently drawing a warm, bare hand out of the muff where it lay hidden.
“You should let me come by sometimes while I wait, and wear this so you won’t forget me,” he said, pulling a ring from his pocket and gently pulling a warm, bare hand out of the muff where it was hidden.
“Yes, Archie, but not here not now!” cried Phebe, glancing about her as if suddenly aware that they were not alone.
“Yes, Archie, but not here, not now!” Phebe exclaimed, looking around as if she just realized they weren't alone.
“No one can see us here I thought of that. Give me one happy minute, after this long, long year of waiting,” answered Archie, pausing just where the fountain hid them from all eyes, for there were houses only on one side.
"No one can see us here," I thought about that. "Just give me one happy minute after this long, long year of waiting," Archie replied, stopping right where the fountain shielded them from view, since there were houses only on one side.
Phebe submitted and never did a plain gold ring slip more easily to its place than the one he put on in such a hurry that cold December day. Then one hand went back into the muff red with the grasp he gave it, and the other to its old place on his arm with a confiding gesture, as if it had a right there.
Phebe accepted, and no plain gold ring ever slipped into place more easily than the one he hurriedly put on that cold December day. Then one hand returned to the muff, flushed from his grip, while the other went back to its familiar spot on his arm with a trusting gesture, as if it belonged there.
“Now I feel sure of you,” said Archie as they went on again, and no one the wiser for that tender transaction behind the ugly pyramid of boards. “Mac wrote me that you were much admired by your church people, and that certain wealthy bachelors evidently had designs on the retiring Miss Moore. I was horribly jealous, but now I defy every man of them.”
“Now I’m really sure about you,” said Archie as they continued walking, and no one was any wiser about that heartfelt moment behind the ugly pyramid of boards. “Mac told me that your church members admired you a lot, and that some wealthy bachelors clearly had their sights set on the shy Miss Moore. I was incredibly jealous, but now I challenge every one of them.”
Phebe smiled with the air of proud humility that was so becoming and answered briefly: “There was no danger kings could not change me, whether you ever came or not. But Mac should not have told you.”
Phebe smiled with a mix of pride and humility that looked great on her and responded briefly: “There was no risk that kings could change me, whether you ever showed up or not. But Mac shouldn’t have told you.”
“You shall be revenged on him, then, for, as he told secrets about you, I'll tell you one about him. Phebe, he loves Rose!” And Archie looked as if he expected to make a great sensation with his news.
“You're going to get back at him, then, because, since he spilled secrets about you, I'll share one about him. Phebe, he loves Rose!” And Archie looked like he was expecting to create quite a stir with his news.
“I know it.” And Phebe laughed at his sudden change of countenance as he added inquiringly, “She told you, then?”
“I know it.” And Phebe laughed at his sudden change of expression as he added curiously, “She told you, then?”
“Not a word. I guessed it from her letters, for lately she says nothing about Mac, and before there was a good deal, so I suspected what the silence meant and asked no questions.”
“Not a word. I figured it out from her letters since recently she hasn’t mentioned Mac at all, and before she said quite a bit, so I suspected what the silence meant and didn’t ask any questions.”
“Wise girl! Then you think she does care for the dear old fellow?”
"Smart girl! So you think she really does care about the old guy?"
“Of course she does. Didn't he tell you so?”
“Of course she does. Didn’t he tell you that?”
“No, he only said when he went away, 'Take care of my Rose, and I'll take care of your Phebe,' and not another thing could I get out of him, for I did ask questions. He stood by me like a hero, and kept Aunt Jane from driving me stark mad with her 'advice.' I don't forget that, and burned to lend him a hand somewhere, but he begged me to let him manage his wooing in his own way. And from what I see, I should say he knew how to do it,” added Archie, finding it very delightful to gossip about love affairs with his sweetheart.
“No, he just said when he left, 'Take care of my Rose, and I'll take care of your Phebe,' and I couldn’t get anything else out of him, even though I asked questions. He stood by me like a champ and kept Aunt Jane from driving me totally crazy with her 'advice.' I haven’t forgotten that, and I really wanted to help him out, but he asked me to let him handle his courting in his own way. And from what I can see, I’d say he knows how to do it,” added Archie, enjoying the chance to gossip about romance with his sweetheart.
“Dear little mistress! How does she behave?” asked Phebe, longing for news, but too grateful to ask at headquarters, remembering how generously Rose had tried to help her, even by silence, the greatest sacrifice a woman can make at such interesting periods.
“Dear little mistress! How is she doing?” asked Phebe, eager for news but too thankful to inquire at headquarters, remembering how generously Rose had tried to support her, even through silence, the greatest sacrifice a woman can make during such intriguing times.
“Very sweet and shy and charming. I try not to watch but upon my word I cannot help it sometimes, she is so 'cunning,' as you girls say. When I carry her a letter from Mac she tries so hard not to show how glad she is that I want to laugh and tell her I know all about it. But I look as sober as a judge and as stupid as an owl by daylight, and she enjoys her letters in peace and thinks I'm so absorbed in my own passion that I'm blind to hers.”
“Very sweet, shy, and charming. I try not to watch, but honestly, I can't help it sometimes; she's just so 'cunning,' as you girls say. When I bring her a letter from Mac, she tries so hard not to show how glad she is that I want to laugh and tell her I know all about it. But I look as serious as a judge and as clueless as an owl in the daylight, and she enjoys her letters in peace, thinking I'm so wrapped up in my own feelings that I'm oblivious to hers.”
“But why did Mac come away? He says lectures brought him, and he goes, but I am sure something else is in his mind, he looks so happy at times. I don't see him very often, but when I do I'm conscious that he isn't the Mac I left a year ago,” said Phebe, leading Archie away, for inexorable propriety forbade a longer stay, even if prudence and duty had not given her a reminding nudge, as it was very cold, and afternoon church came in an hour.
“But why did Mac come back? He says he’s here for the lectures, and he’s attending them, but I can tell there’s something else he’s thinking about; he looks so happy at times. I don’t see him very often, but when I do, I can tell he’s not the same Mac I knew a year ago,” said Phebe, leading Archie away, since strict propriety wouldn't allow them to stay longer, even if common sense and duty hadn’t nudged her to leave, considering it was very cold, and church was about to start in an hour.
“Well, you see Mac was always peculiar, and he cannot even grow up like other fellows. I don't understand him yet, and am sure he's got some plan in his head that no one suspects, unless it is Uncle Alec. Love makes us all cut queer capers, and I've an idea that the Don will distinguish himself in some uncommon way. So be prepared to applaud whatever it is. We owe him that, you know.”
“Well, you see, Mac has always been a bit odd, and he can’t even grow up like other guys. I still don’t get him, and I'm sure he has some plan in his head that no one suspects, except maybe Uncle Alec. Love makes us all act strangely, and I have a feeling that Don is going to do something really remarkable. So, get ready to cheer for whatever it is. We owe him that, you know.”
“Indeed we do! If Rose ever speaks of him to you, tell her I shall see that he comes to no harm, and she must do the same for my Archie.”
“Of course we do! If Rose ever brings him up with you, let her know that I'll make sure he stays safe, and she needs to do the same for my Archie.”
That unusual demonstration of tenderness from reserved Phebe very naturally turned the conversation into a more personal channel, and Archie devoted himself to building castles in the air so successfully that they passed the material mansion without either being aware of it.
That unexpected display of affection from usually reserved Phebe naturally shifted the conversation to a more personal level, and Archie became so absorbed in daydreaming that they passed by the physical house without even noticing.
“Will you come in?” asked Phebe when the mistake was rectified and she stood on her own steps looking down at her escort, who had discreetly released her before a pull at the bell caused five heads to pop up at five different windows.
“Will you come in?” Phebe asked after the mix-up was fixed, standing on her own steps and looking down at her companion, who had politely let go of her before she rang the bell, causing five heads to pop up at five different windows.
“No, thanks. I shall be at church this afternoon, and the oratorio this evening. I must be off early in the morning, so let me make the most of precious time and come home with you tonight as I did before,” answered Archie, making his best bow, and quite sure of consent.
“No, thanks. I’ll be at church this afternoon, and at the oratorio this evening. I need to leave early in the morning, so let me make the most of this precious time and come home with you tonight like before,” replied Archie, giving his best bow, confident of a yes.
“You may.” And Phebe vanished, closing the door softly, as if she found it hard to shut out so much love and happiness as that in the heart of the sedate young gentleman who went briskly down the street humming a verse of old “Clyde” like a tuneful bass viol:
“You may.” And Phebe disappeared, gently closing the door as if it was tough to shut out all the love and happiness in the heart of the calm young man who walked quickly down the street humming a line from the old “Clyde” like a melodic bass viol:
“Oh, let our mingling voices rise In grateful rapture to the skies, Where love has had its birth. Let songs of joy this day declare That spirits come their bliss to share With all the sons of earth.”
“Oh, let our voices blend together In thankful joy to the heavens, Where love first came to be. Let songs of happiness today proclaim That spirits arrive to share their joy With all the people on earth.”
That afternoon Miss Moore sang remarkably well, and that evening quite electrified even her best friends by the skill and power with which she rendered “Inflammatus” in the oratorio.
That afternoon, Miss Moore sang exceptionally well, and that evening, she impressed even her closest friends with the skill and power she displayed while performing “Inflammatus” in the oratorio.
“If that is not genius, I should like to know what it is?” said one young man to another as they went out just before the general crush at the end.
“If that’s not genius, I’d like to know what is!” said one young man to another as they went out just before the big rush at the end.
“Some genius and a great deal of love. They are a grand team, and, when well driven, astonish the world by the time they make in the great race,” answered the second young man with the look of one inclined to try his hand at driving that immortal span.
“Some talent and a lot of love. They make a fantastic team, and when well-driven, they amaze the world with their speed in the big race,” replied the second young man, looking as if he was eager to take a shot at driving that legendary team.
“Daresay you are right. Can't stop now she's waiting for me. Don't sit up, Mac.”
“Sure, you’re right. I can’t stop now; she’s waiting for me. Don’t stay up, Mac.”
“The gods go with you, Archie.”
“The gods are with you, Archie.”
And the cousins separated one to write till midnight, the other to bid his Phebe good-bye, little dreaming how unexpectedly and successfully she was to earn her welcome home.
And the cousins went their separate ways—one to write until midnight, the other to say goodbye to his Phebe, not realizing how unexpectedly and successfully she would earn her way back home.
Chapter 20 WHAT MAC DID
Rose, meantime, was trying to find out what the sentiment was with which she regarded her cousin Mac. She could not seem to reconcile the character she had known so long with the new one lately shown her, and the idea of loving the droll, bookish, absentminded Mac of former times appeared quite impossible and absurd, but the new Mac, wide awake, full of talent, ardent and high-handed, was such a surprise to her, she felt as if her heart was being won by a stranger, and it became her to study him well before yielding to a charm which she could not deny.
Rose was trying to figure out how she felt about her cousin Mac. She couldn’t seem to reconcile the character she had known for so long with the new version of him she had recently encountered. The thought of loving the quirky, bookish, absent-minded Mac from before seemed impossible and ridiculous. But this new Mac—alert, talented, passionate, and commanding—was such a surprise that it felt like her heart was being captured by a stranger. She realized she needed to understand him better before giving in to a charm she couldn't ignore.
Affection came naturally, and had always been strong for the boy; regard for the studious youth easily deepened to respect for the integrity of the young man, and now something warmer was growing up within her; but at first she could not decide whether it was admiration for the rapid unfolding of talent of some sort or love answering to love.
Affection came easily and had always been strong for the boy; her admiration for the hardworking young man quickly grew into respect for his integrity, and now something deeper was developing within her. But at first, she couldn't figure out whether it was admiration for his talent blossoming or love responding to love.
As if to settle that point, Mac sent her on New Year's Day a little book plainly bound and modestly entitled Songs and Sonnets. After reading this with ever-growing surprise and delight, Rose never had another doubt about the writer's being a poet, for though she was no critic, she had read the best authors and knew what was good. Unpretentious as it was, this had the true ring, and its very simplicity showed conscious power for, unlike so many first attempts, the book was not full of “My Lady,” neither did it indulge in Swinburnian convulsions about
As if to put that matter to rest, Mac sent her a small, simply bound book on New Year's Day, modestly titled Songs and Sonnets. After reading it with increasing surprise and enjoyment, Rose had no more doubts about the writer being a poet. Although she wasn't a critic, she had read the best authors and knew what was good. Despite its unpretentious nature, the book had a genuine quality, and its simplicity revealed a conscious skill because, unlike many first attempts, it wasn't filled with "My Lady," nor did it go into Swinburnian distortions about
“The lilies and languors of peace, The roses and raptures of love.”;
“The peace of lilies and laziness, The love of roses and joys.”
or contain any of the highly colored medieval word pictures so much in vogue. “My book should smell of pines, and resound with the hum of insects,” might have been its motto, so sweet and wholesome was it with a springlike sort of freshness which plainly betrayed that the author had learned some of Nature's deepest secrets and possessed the skill to tell them in tuneful words. The songs went ringing through one's memory long after they were read, and the sonnets were full of the subtle beauty, insight, and half-unconscious wisdom, which seem to prove that “genius is divine when young.”
or contain any of the vividly colorful medieval imagery that was so popular. “My book should smell like pine trees and be filled with the sound of buzzing insects,” could have been its motto, as it was so sweet and wholesome with a fresh, spring-like vibe that clearly showed the author had discovered some of Nature's deepest secrets and had the talent to express them in melodic language. The songs echoed in your mind long after reading them, and the sonnets were rich with subtle beauty, insight, and a kind of instinctive wisdom that seem to support the idea that “genius is divine when young.”
Many faults it had, but was so full of promise that it was evident Mac had not “kept good company, read good books, loved good things, and cultivated soul and body as faithfully as he could” in vain. It all told now, for truth and virtue had blossomed into character and had a language of their own more eloquent than the poetry to which they were what the fragrance is to the flower. Wiser critics than Rose felt and admired this; less partial ones could not deny their praise to a first effort, which seemed as spontaneous and aspiring as a lark's song; and, when one or two of these Jupiters had given a nod of approval, Mac found himself, not exactly famous, but much talked about. One set abused, the other set praised, and the little book was sadly mauled among them, for it was too original to be ignored, and too robust to be killed by hard usage, so it came out of the fray none the worse but rather brighter, if anything, for the friction which proved the gold genuine.
It had many flaws, but it was so full of promise that it was clear Mac had not “surrounded himself with good company, read good books, appreciated good things, and nurtured his mind and body as best he could” in vain. All of that showed now, because truth and virtue had developed into character and had their own language, more eloquent than poetry, similar to how fragrance is to a flower. Smarter critics than Rose noticed and appreciated this; those less biased couldn’t deny the merit of a first attempt, which felt as spontaneous and hopeful as a lark's song. When one or two of these influential figures gave a nod of approval, Mac found himself, not quite famous, but certainly getting a lot of attention. One group criticized, while another praised, and the little book faced some harsh treatment between them, because it was too original to be overlooked and too strong to be destroyed by tough scrutiny. So, it emerged from the battle none the worse, and even brighter, for the friction that confirmed its worth.
This took time, however, and Rose could only sit at home reading all the notices she could get, as well as the literary gossip Phebe sent her, for Mac seldom wrote, and never a word about himself, so Phebe skillfully extracted from him in their occasional meetings all the personal news her feminine wit could collect and faithfully reported it.
This took a while, though, and Rose could only stay home reading all the notices she could find, along with the literary gossip Phebe sent her, since Mac rarely wrote and never mentioned anything about himself. So Phebe expertly gathered all the personal updates she could during their occasional meetings and reported back faithfully with her feminine intuition.
It was a little singular that without a word of inquiry on either side, the letters of the girls were principally filled with tidings of their respective lovers. Phebe wrote about Mac; Rose answered with minute particulars about Archie; and both added hasty items concerning their own affairs, as if these were of little consequence.
It was a bit unusual that without any questions from either of them, the girls’ letters were mainly filled with news about their boyfriends. Phebe wrote about Mac; Rose replied with detailed updates about Archie; and both included quick notes about their own lives, as if those were not very important.
Phebe got the most satisfaction out of the correspondence, for soon after the book appeared Rose began to want Mac home again and to be rather jealous of the new duties and delights that kept him. She was immensely proud of her poet, and had little jubilees over the beautiful fulfillment of her prophecies, for even Aunt Plenty owned now with contrition that “the boy was not a fool.” Every word of praise was read aloud on the housetops, so to speak, by happy Rose; every adverse criticism was hotly disputed; and the whole family was in a great state of pleasant excitement over this unexpectedly successful first flight of the Ugly Duckling, now generally considered by his relatives as the most promising young swan of the flock.
Phebe found the most joy in the letters, because soon after the book was published, Rose started wanting Mac back home again and felt a bit jealous of the new responsibilities and pleasures that kept him away. She was incredibly proud of her poet and celebrated the wonderful fulfillment of her predictions, even Aunt Plenty admitted, albeit reluctantly, that “the boy was not a fool.” Every bit of praise was joyfully shared aloud, so to speak, by happy Rose; any negative reviews were fiercely defended; and the whole family was in an excited uproar over this unexpectedly successful first attempt of the Ugly Duckling, now widely regarded by his relatives as the most promising young swan in the group.
Aunt Jane was particularly funny in her new position of mother to a callow poet and conducted herself like a proud but bewildered hen when one of her brood takes to the water. She pored over the poems, trying to appreciate them but quite failing to do so, for life was all prose to her, and she vainly tried to discover where Mac got his talent from. It was pretty to see the new respect with which she treated his possessions now; the old books were dusted with a sort of reverence; scraps of paper were laid carefully by lest some immortal verse be lost; and a certain shabby velvet jacket fondly smoothed when no one was by to smile at the maternal pride with filled her heart and caused her once severe countenance to shine with unwonted benignity.
Aunt Jane was especially amusing in her new role as the mother of a naive poet, acting like a proud but confused hen when one of her chicks ventures into the water. She studied the poems, trying to appreciate them but failing completely, as life was all prose to her, and she vainly searched for the source of Mac's talent. It was sweet to see the newfound respect with which she handled his belongings; the old books were dusted with a kind of reverence; scraps of paper were carefully set aside to avoid losing what could be an immortal line; and a certain shabby velvet jacket was gently smoothed when no one was around to laugh at the maternal pride that filled her heart and made her once stern face light up with unexpected warmth.
Uncle Mac talked about “my son” with ill-concealed satisfaction, and evidently began to feel as if his boy was going to confer distinction upon the whole race of Campbell, which had already possessed one poet. Steve exulted with irrepressible delight and went about quoting Songs and Sonnets till he bored his friends dreadfully by his fraternal raptures.
Uncle Mac spoke about “my son” with obvious pride and seemed to believe that his boy was about to bring honor to the entire Campbell family, which had already had one poet in its ranks. Steve was filled with uncontainable joy and walked around quoting Songs and Sonnets, much to the annoyance of his friends who quickly grew tired of his brotherly enthusiasm.
Archie took it more quietly, and even suggested that it was too soon to crow yet, for the dear old fellow's first burst might be his last, since it was impossible to predict what he would do next. Having proved that he could write poetry, he might drop it for some new world to conquer, quoting his favorite Thoreau, who, having made a perfect pencil, gave up the business and took to writing books with the sort of indelible ink which grows clearer with time.
Archie was more reserved about it, even suggesting that it was too early to celebrate, since the dear old guy's initial excitement might be his last, as it was impossible to know what he would do next. After showing that he could write poetry, he might abandon it for some new challenge to tackle, quoting his favorite Thoreau, who, after creating a perfect pencil, gave up that trade to write books with a kind of indelible ink that gets clearer over time.
The aunts of course had their “views,” and enjoyed much prophetic gossip as they wagged their caps over many social cups of tea. The younger boys thought it “very jolly,” and hoped the Don would “go ahead and come to glory as soon as possible,” which was all that could by expected of “Young America,” with whom poetry is not usually a passion.
The aunts definitely had their opinions and loved to share their predictions while chatting over cups of tea. The younger boys found it “really fun” and hoped the Don would “move forward and achieve success as quickly as possible,” which was pretty much what you’d expect from “Young America,” who typically aren’t that into poetry.
But Dr. Alec was a sight for “sair een,” so full of concentrated contentment was he. No one but Rose, perhaps, knew how proud and pleased the good man felt at this first small success of his godson, for he had always had high hopes of the boy, because in spite of his oddities he had such an upright nature, and promising little, did much, with the quiet persistence which foretells a manly character. All the romance of the doctor's heart was stirred by this poetic bud of promise and the love that made it bloom so early, for Mac had confided his hopes to Uncle, finding great consolation and support in his sympathy and advice. Like a wise man, Dr. Alec left the young people to learn the great lesson in their own way, counseling Mac to work and Rose to wait till both were quite certain that their love was built on a surer foundation than admiration or youthful romance.
But Dr. Alec was a sight to see, so full of concentrated happiness was he. No one but Rose, maybe, knew how proud and pleased the good man felt about his godson’s first small success, for he had always had high hopes for the boy. Despite his quirks, he had such a strong character and accomplished a lot with the quiet persistence that suggests a manly nature. All the romantic feelings in the doctor's heart were stirred by this budding promise and the love that made it bloom so early, as Mac had confided his hopes to his uncle, finding great comfort and support in his sympathy and advice. Like a wise man, Dr. Alec let the young people learn their important lesson in their own way, advising Mac to work and Rose to wait until both were completely sure that their love was built on something more solid than admiration or youthful romance.
Meantime he went about with a well-worn little book in his pocket, humming bits from a new set of songs and repeating with great fervor certain sonnets which seemed to him quite equal, if not superior, to any that Shakespeare ever wrote. As Rose was doing the same thing, they often met for a private “read and warble,” as they called it, and while discussing the safe subject of Mac's poetry, both arrived at a pretty clear idea of what Mac's reward was to be when he came home.
Meanwhile, he carried a well-loved little book in his pocket, humming bits from a new collection of songs and passionately reciting certain sonnets that he believed were just as good, if not better, than anything Shakespeare had ever written. Since Rose was doing the same, they often got together for a private "read and warble," as they called it, and while discussing the safe topic of Mac's poetry, they both came to a pretty clear understanding of what Mac's reward would be when he returned home.
He seemed in no hurry to do this, however, and continued to astonish his family by going into society and coming out brilliantly in that line. It takes very little to make a lion, as everyone knows who has seen what poor specimens are patted and petted every year, in spite of their bad manners, foolish vagaries, and very feeble roaring. Mac did not want to be lionized and took it rather scornfully, which only added to the charm that people suddenly discovered about the nineteenth cousin of Thomas Campbell, the poet. He desired to be distinguished in the best sense of the word, as well as to look so, and thought a little of the polish society gives would not be amiss, remembering Rose's efforts in that line. For her sake he came out of his shell and went about seeing and testing all sorts of people with those observing eyes of his, which saw so much in spite of their nearsightedness. What use he meant to make of these new experiences no one knew, for he wrote short letters and, when questioned, answered with imperturbable patience: “Wait till I get through; then I'll come home and talk about it.”
He didn't seem rushed to do this, though, and kept surprising his family by socializing and shining in that scene. It takes very little to become a celebrity, as anyone knows who's seen what poor examples get public affection every year despite their bad behavior, silly quirks, and weak roaring. Mac didn’t want to be famous and took it with a bit of disdain, which only added to the allure that people suddenly found in the nineteenth cousin of Thomas Campbell, the poet. He wanted to be distinguished in the best way and to appear that way too, thinking a bit of the polish society offers wouldn’t hurt, especially considering Rose's efforts in that area. For her sake, he stepped out of his comfort zone and started meeting and observing all kinds of people with his keen eyes, which noticed a lot despite being slightly nearsighted. No one knew what he planned to do with these new experiences, since he wrote short letters and, when asked, replied with calm patience: “Wait until I'm done; then I'll come home and talk about it.”
So everyone waited for the poet, till something happened which produced a greater sensation in the family than if all the boys had simultaneously taken to rhyming.
So everyone waited for the poet until something happened that caused a bigger stir in the family than if all the boys had suddenly started writing poems.
Dr. Alec got very impatient and suddenly announced that he was going to L to see after those young people, for Phebe was rapidly singing herself into public favor with the sweet old ballads which she rendered so beautifully that hearers were touched as well as ears delighted, and her prospects brightened every month.
Dr. Alec got really impatient and suddenly announced that he was going to L to check on those young people, because Phebe was quickly winning over the public with the sweet old ballads she sang so beautifully that listeners were not only pleased but also moved, and her prospects improved every month.
“Will you come with me, Rose, and surprise this ambitious pair who are getting famous so fast they'll forget their homekeeping friends if we don't remind them of us now and then?” he said when he proposed the trip one wild March morning.
“Will you come with me, Rose, and surprise this ambitious couple who are getting famous so quickly they'll forget their homekeeping friends if we don't remind them of us every now and then?” he said when he suggested the trip one wild March morning.
“No, thank you, sir I'll stay with Aunty; that is all I'm fit for and I should only be in the way among those fine people,” answered Rose, snipping away at the plants blooming in the study window.
“No, thank you, sir. I’ll stay with Aunty; that’s all I’m good for, and I’d just get in the way with those fancy people,” replied Rose, trimming the plants blooming in the study window.
There was a slight bitterness in her voice and a cloud on her face, which her uncle heard and saw at once, half guessed the meaning of, and could not rest till he had found out.
There was a hint of bitterness in her voice and a shadow on her face, which her uncle noticed immediately, partly understood, and couldn’t settle until he figured it out.
“Do you think Phebe and Mac would not care to see you?” he asked, putting down a letter in which Mac gave a glowing account of a concert at which Phebe surpassed herself.
“Do you think Phebe and Mac wouldn’t want to see you?” he asked, putting down a letter in which Mac shared a rave review of a concert where Phebe truly outdid herself.
“No, but they must be very busy,” began Rose, wishing she had held her tongue.
“No, but they must be really busy,” started Rose, regretting that she hadn’t kept quiet.
“Then what is the matter?” persisted Dr. Alec.
“Then what’s the problem?” Dr. Alec pressed on.
Rose did not speak for a moment, and decapitated two fine geraniums with a reckless slash of her scissors, as if pent-up vexation of some kind must find a vent. It did in words also, for, as if quite against her will, she exclaimed impetuously: “The truth is, I'm jealous of them both!”
Rose didn’t say anything for a moment and carelessly cut off two beautiful geraniums with her scissors, like she had some built-up frustration that needed to come out. It did come out in words too, because, almost against her will, she said impulsively, “Honestly, I’m jealous of both of them!”
“Bless my soul! What now?” ejaculated the doctor in great surprise.
“Wow! What now?” exclaimed the doctor in shock.
Rose put down her water pot and shears, came and stood before him with her hands nervously twisted together, and said, just as she used to do when she was a little girl confessing some misdeed: “Uncle, I must tell you, for I've been getting very envious, discontented, and bad lately. No, don't be good to me yet, for you don't know how little I deserve it. Scold me well, and make me see how wicked I am.”
Rose set down her watering can and shears, then came over and stood in front of him with her hands nervously twisted together. She said, just like she used to when she was a little girl confessing to something she'd done wrong: “Uncle, I need to tell you that I've been feeling really envious, unhappy, and not myself lately. No, please don’t be kind to me yet, because you don't know how little I deserve it. Scold me properly and help me realize how wrong I’ve been.”
“I will as soon as I know what I am to scold about. Unburden yourself, child, and let me see all your iniquity, for if you begin by being jealous of Mac and Phebe, I'm prepared for anything,” said Dr. Alec, leaning back as if nothing could surprise him now.
“I'll do it as soon as I know what I'm supposed to be upset about. Go ahead, kid, and show me everything you've done wrong, because if you're starting out by being jealous of Mac and Phebe, I'm ready for anything,” Dr. Alec said, leaning back as if nothing could catch him off guard now.
“But I am not jealous in that way, sir. I mean I want to be or do something splendid as well as they. I can't write poetry or sing like a bird, but I should think I might have my share of glory in some way. I thought perhaps I could paint, and I've tried, but I can only copy I've no power to invent lovely things, and I'm so discouraged, for that is my one accomplishment. Do you think I have any gift that could be cultivated and do me credit like theirs?” she asked so wistfully that her uncle felt for a moment as if he never could forgive the fairies who endow babies in their cradles for being so niggardly to his girl. But one look into the sweet, open face before him reminded him that the good elves had been very generous and he answered cheerfully: “Yes, I do, for you have one of the best and noblest gifts a woman can possess. Music and poetry are fine things, and I don't wonder you want them, or that you envy the pleasant fame they bring. I've felt just so, and been ready to ask why it didn't please heaven to be more generous to some people, so you needn't be ashamed to tell me all about it.”
"But I'm not jealous like that, sir. I mean, I want to do something great, just like they do. I can't write poetry or sing beautifully, but I feel like I should have my own share of glory somehow. I thought maybe I could paint, and I've tried, but I can only copy; I don't have the talent to create beautiful things, and it's really discouraging because that's my only skill. Do you think I have any talent that could be developed and bring me as much honor as theirs?" she asked so sadly that her uncle felt for a moment like he could never forgive the fairies who give gifts to babies for being so stingy with his girl. But one look at her sweet, open face reminded him that the kind fairies had been very generous, and he replied cheerfully: "Yes, I do, because you have one of the best and most noble gifts a woman can have. Music and poetry are beautiful things, and I understand why you want them and why you envy the lovely recognition they bring. I've felt the same way and have wondered why it doesn't seem fair that some people get more than others, so you don't need to be embarrassed about sharing your feelings with me."
“I know I ought to be contented, but I'm not. My life is very comfortable, but so quiet and uneventful, I get tired of it and want to launch out as the others have, and do something, or at least try. I'm glad you think it isn't very bad of me, and I'd like to know what my gift is,” said Rose, looking less despondent already.
“I know I should be happy, but I’m not. My life is pretty comfortable, but it’s so dull and unexciting that I get fed up with it and want to break free like others have, to do something, or at least give it a shot. I’m glad you don’t think it’s too bad of me, and I’d like to know what my talent is,” said Rose, looking a little less downcast already.
“The art of living for others so patiently and sweetly that we enjoy it as we do the sunshine, and are not half grateful enough for the great blessing.”
“The art of living for others so patiently and kindly that we find joy in it like we do in sunshine, and we're not nearly grateful enough for this wonderful blessing.”
“It is very kind of you to say so, but I think I'd like a little fun and fame nevertheless.” And Rose did not look as thankful as she ought.
"It’s really nice of you to say that, but I still want a bit of fun and fame." And Rose didn’t look as grateful as she should have.
“Very natural, dear, but the fun and the fame do not last, while the memory of a real helper is kept green long after poetry is forgotten and music silent. Can't you believe that, and be happy?”
“Very natural, dear, but the fun and fame don't last, while the memory of a real helper stays alive long after poetry is forgotten and music is silent. Can’t you believe that and be happy?”
“But I do so little, nobody sees or cares, and I don't feel as if I was really of any use,” sighed Rose, thinking of the long, dull winter, full of efforts that seemed fruitless.
"But I do so little, nobody notices or cares, and I don't feel like I'm really making any difference," sighed Rose, reflecting on the long, boring winter, filled with efforts that felt pointless.
“Sit here, and let us see if you really do very little and if no one cares.” And, drawing her to his knee, Dr. Alec went on, telling off each item on one of the fingers of the soft hand he held.
“Sit here, and let’s see if you really do very little and if no one cares.” And, pulling her onto his knee, Dr. Alec continued, counting off each item on one of the fingers of the soft hand he held.
“First, an infirm old aunt is kept very happy by the patient, cheerful care of this good-for-nothing niece. Secondly, a crotchety uncle, for whom she reads, runs, writes, and sews so willingly that he cannot get on without her. Thirdly, various relations who are helped in various ways. Fourthly, one dear friend never forgotten, and a certain cousin cheered by praise which is more to him than the loudest blast Fame could blow. Fifthly, several young girls find her an example of many good works and ways. Sixthly, a motherless baby is cared for as tenderly as if she were a little sister. Seventhly, half a dozen poor ladies made comfortable; and, lastly, some struggling boys and girls with artistic longings are put into a pleasant room furnished with casts, studies, easels, and all manner of helpful things, not to mention free lessons given by this same idle girl, who now sits upon my knee owning to herself that her gift is worth having after all.”
“First, an elderly aunt is kept very happy by the patient, cheerful care of her good-for-nothing niece. Secondly, a grumpy uncle, for whom she reads, runs errands, writes, and sews so willingly that he can't get by without her. Thirdly, various relatives are helped in different ways. Fourthly, one dear friend is never forgotten, and a certain cousin is uplifted by praise that means more to him than the loudest shout of fame. Fifthly, several young girls see her as a role model for many good deeds and ways. Sixthly, a motherless baby is cared for as tenderly as if she were a little sister. Seventhly, half a dozen poor ladies are made comfortable; and lastly, some struggling boys and girls with artistic dreams are placed in a nice room filled with sculptures, studies, easels, and all sorts of helpful things, not to mention free lessons given by this same idle girl, who now sits on my lap admitting to herself that her gift is worth having after all.”
“Indeed, I am! Uncle, I'd no idea I had done so many things to please you, or that anyone guessed how hard I try to fill my place usefully. I've learned to do without gratitude now I'll learn not to care for praise, but to be contented to do my best, and have only God know.”
“Absolutely, I am! Uncle, I had no idea I had done so much to make you happy, or that anyone noticed how hard I try to be useful. I've learned to get by without gratitude, and now I'll learn not to seek praise, but to be okay with doing my best, letting only God be aware of it.”
“He knows, and He rewards in His own good time. I think a quiet life like this often makes itself felt in better ways than one that the world sees and applauds, and some of the noblest are never known till they end, leaving a void in many hearts. Yours may be one of these if you choose to make it so, and no one will be prouder of this success than I, unless it be Mac.”
“He knows, and He rewards in His own time. I believe that a quiet life like this often has a greater impact than one that the world recognizes and celebrates, and some of the most admirable lives are never truly appreciated until they’re over, leaving a gap in many hearts. Yours could be one of these if you decide to make it so, and no one will be prouder of your success than I will be, unless it’s Mac.”
The clouds were quite gone now, and Rose was looking straight into her uncle's face with a much happier expression when that last word made it color brightly and the eyes glance away for a second. Then they came back full of a tender sort of resolution as she said: “That will be the reward I work for,” and rose, as if ready to be up and doing with renewed courage.
The clouds had completely cleared, and Rose was looking directly into her uncle's face with a much happier expression when that last word made his face light up and his eyes dart away for a moment. Then they returned, filled with a warm kind of determination as she said, “That will be the reward I strive for,” and stood up, as if ready to take action with renewed courage.
But her uncle held her long enough to ask quite soberly, though his eyes laughed: “Shall I tell him that?”
But her uncle held her long enough to ask seriously, even though his eyes were laughing: “Should I tell him that?”
“No, sir, please don't! When he is tired of other people's praise, he will come home, and then I'll see what I can do for him,” answered Rose, slipping away to her work with the shy, happy look that sometimes came to give to her face the charm it needed.
“No, sir, please don’t! When he gets tired of other people’s praise, he’ll come home, and then I’ll see what I can do for him,” Rose replied, slipping away to her work with the shy, happy expression that sometimes lit up her face with the charm it needed.
“He is such a thorough fellow, he never is in a hurry to go from one thing to another. An excellent habit, but a trifle trying to impatient people like me,” said the doctor and, picking up Dulce, who sat upon the rug with her dolly, he composed his feelings by tossing her till she crowed with delight.
“He's such a thoughtful guy; he never rushes from one thing to another. It’s a great habit, but it can be a little frustrating for impatient people like me,” said the doctor. He then picked up Dulce, who was sitting on the rug with her doll, and calmed himself by tossing her in the air until she squealed with joy.
Rose heartily echoed that last remark, but said nothing aloud, only helped her uncle off with dutiful alacrity and, when he was gone, began to count the days till his return, wishing she had decided to go too.
Rose enthusiastically agreed with that last comment, but kept her thoughts to herself. She quickly helped her uncle get ready to leave, and after he was gone, she started counting down the days until he would come back, regretting that she hadn't chosen to go with him.
He wrote often, giving excellent accounts of the “great creatures,” as Steve called Phebe and Mac, and seemed to find so much to do in various ways that the second week of absence was nearly over before he set a day for his return, promising to astonish them with the account of his adventures.
He wrote frequently, providing great descriptions of the “big guys,” as Steve called Phebe and Mac, and appeared to have so much to occupy himself with in different ways that by the time the second week of being away was almost over, he finally decided on a day to come back, vowing to impress them with stories of his adventures.
Rose felt as if something splendid was going to happen and set her affairs in order so that the approaching crisis might find her fully prepared. She had “found out” now, was quite sure, and put away all doubts and fears to be ready to welcome home the cousin whom she was sure Uncle would bring as her reward. She was thinking of this one day as she got out her paper to write a long letter to poor Aunt Clara, who pined for news far away there in Calcutta.
Rose felt like something amazing was about to happen, so she got everything ready to make sure she was fully prepared for the upcoming situation. She was certain she had “figured it out” now, putting aside all her doubts and fears to get ready to welcome home the cousin she believed Uncle would bring as her reward. One day, while thinking about this, she took out her paper to write a long letter to poor Aunt Clara, who was missing news from far away in Calcutta.
Something in the task reminded her of that other lover whose wooing ended so tragically, and opening a little drawer of keepsakes, she took out the blue bracelet, feeling that she owed Charlie a tender thought in the midst of her new happiness, for of late she had forgotten him.
Something about the task reminded her of that other lover whose pursuit ended so sadly, and as she opened a small drawer of mementos, she took out the blue bracelet, feeling that she owed Charlie a heartfelt thought amidst her new happiness, as she had recently forgotten him.
She had worn the trinket hidden under her black sleeve for a long time after his death, with the regretful constancy one sometimes shows in doing some little kindness all too late. But her arm had grown too round to hide the ornament, the forget-me-nots had fallen one by one, the clasp had broken, and that autumn she laid the bracelet away, acknowledging that she had outgrown the souvenir as well as the sentiment that gave it.
She had kept the trinket hidden under her black sleeve for a long time after his death, with the regretful dedication that people sometimes have when trying to do a small kindness too late. But her arm had become too full to hide the ornament, the forget-me-nots had fallen off one by one, the clasp had broken, and that autumn she put the bracelet away, realizing that she had outgrown both the keepsake and the feelings that came with it.
She looked at it in silence for a moment, then put it softly back and, shutting the drawer, took up the little gray book which was her pride, thinking as she contrasted the two men and their influence on her life the one sad and disturbing, the other sweet and inspiring “Charlie's was passion Mac's is love.”
She stared at it quietly for a moment, then gently set it down and, closing the drawer, picked up the little gray book that she cherished. As she compared the two men and how they affected her life, one brought sadness and unease, while the other brought joy and motivation. “Charlie’s was passion; Mac’s is love.”
“Rose! Rose!” called a shrill voice, rudely breaking the pensive reverie, and with a start, she shut the desk, exclaiming as she ran to the door: “They have come! They have come!”
“Rose! Rose!” yelled a loud voice, interrupting her thoughtful daydream, and startled, she closed the desk, shouting as she dashed to the door: “They’re here! They’re here!”
Chapter 21 HOW PHEBE EARNED HER WELCOME
Dr. Alec had not arrived, but bad tidings had, as Rose guessed the instant her eyes fell upon Aunt Plenty, hobbling downstairs with her cap awry, her face pale, and a letter flapping wildly in her hand as she cried distractedly: “Oh, my boy! My boy! Sick, and I not there to nurse him! Malignant fever, so far away. What can those children do? Why did I let Alec go?”
Dr. Alec hadn’t shown up yet, but bad news had, as Rose realized the moment her gaze landed on Aunt Plenty, struggling down the stairs with her cap askew, her face pale, and a letter flapping wildly in her hand as she cried frantically: “Oh, my boy! My boy! Sick, and I’m not there to take care of him! Malignant fever, so far away. What can those kids do? Why did I let Alec go?”
Rose got her into the parlor, and while the poor old lady lamented, she read the letter which Phebe had sent to her that she might “break the news carefully to Rose.”
Rose brought her into the living room, and while the poor old lady expressed her sorrow, she read the letter that Phebe had sent to her so she could “deliver the news gently to Rose.”
DEAR MISS PLENTY, Please read this to yourself first, and tell my little mistress as you think best. The dear doctor is very ill, but I am with him, and shall not leave him day or night till he is safe. So trust me, and do not be anxious, for everything shall be done that care and skill and entire devotion can do. He would not let us tell you before, fearing you would try to come at the risk of your health. Indeed it would be useless, for only one nurse is needed, and I came first, so do not let Rose or anybody else rob me of my right to the danger and the duty. Mac has written to his father, for Dr. Alec is now too ill to know what we do, and we both felt that you ought to be told without further delay. He has a bad malignant fever, caught no one can tell how, unless among some poor emigrants whom he met wandering about quite forlorn in a strange city. He understood Portuguese and sent them to a proper place when they had told their story. But I fear he has suffered for his kindness, for this fever came on rapidly, and before he knew what it was I was there, and it was too late to send me away.
DEAR MISS PLENTY, Please read this to yourself first and then tell my little mistress as you see fit. The dear doctor is very sick, but I am with him and will not leave his side day or night until he is safe. So please trust me and don’t worry, because everything that care, skill, and complete devotion can do will be done. He didn’t want us to tell you earlier, fearing you would try to come at the risk of your health. It would really be pointless, as only one nurse is needed, and I arrived first, so don’t let Rose or anyone else take away my right to face the danger and the responsibility. Mac has written to his father since Dr. Alec is now too ill to know what we are doing, and we both felt you should be informed without any more delays. He has a serious malignant fever, caught in a way not many can explain, unless it was from some poor emigrants he met, wandering around lost in a strange city. He spoke Portuguese and sent them to the right place after they told their story. But I worry he has suffered for his kindness because this fever came on quickly, and by the time he realized what was happening, I was there, and it was too late for me to leave.
Now I can show you how grateful I am, and if need be give my life so gladly for this friend who has been a father to me. Tell Rose his last conscious word and thought were for her. “Don't let her come; keep my darling safe.” Oh, do obey him! Stay safely at home and, God helping me, I'll bring Uncle Alec back in time. Mac does all I will let him. We have the best physicians, and everything is going as well as can be hoped till the fever turns.
Now I can show you how grateful I am, and if necessary, I would gladly give my life for this friend who has been like a father to me. Tell Rose that his last conscious words and thoughts were for her: “Don't let her come; keep my darling safe.” Oh, please do as he asked! Stay safely at home, and with God’s help, I’ll bring Uncle Alec back in time. Mac is doing everything I allow him to. We have the best doctors, and everything is going as well as we can hope until the fever passes.
Dear Miss Plenty, pray for him and for me, that I may do this one happy thing for those who have done so much for Your ever dutiful and loving
Dear Miss Plenty, please pray for him and for me, that I can do this one happy thing for those who have done so much for Your ever dutiful and loving
PHEBE
Phebe
As Rose looked up from the letter, half stunned by the sudden news and the great danger, she found that the old lady had already stopped useless bewailing and was praying heartily, like one who knew well where help was to be found. Rose went and knelt down at her knee, laying her face on the clasped hands in her lap, and for a few minutes neither wept nor spoke. Then a stifled sob broke from the girl, and Aunt Plenty gathered the young head in her arms, saying, with the slow tears of age trickling down her own withered cheeks: “Bear up, my lamb, bear up. The good Lord won't take him from us I am sure and that brave child will be allowed to pay her debt to him. I feel she will.”
As Rose looked up from the letter, shocked by the sudden news and the great danger, she saw that the old lady had already stopped her pointless crying and was praying earnestly, as someone who knew exactly where to find help. Rose went and knelt by her side, resting her face on the old woman's clasped hands in her lap, and for a few minutes, neither of them cried or spoke. Then a muffled sob escaped from Rose, and Aunt Plenty wrapped her arms around the young woman’s head, saying, with slow tears of age rolling down her own wrinkled cheeks: “Stay strong, my dear, stay strong. I’m sure the good Lord won’t take him from us, and that brave child will be allowed to repay her debt to him. I truly believe she will.”
“But I want to help. I must go, Aunty, I must no matter what the danger is,” cried Rose, full of a tender jealousy of Phebe for being first to brave peril for the sake of him who had been a father to them both.
“But I want to help. I have to go, Aunty, I have to, no matter what the danger is,” Rose cried, filled with a tender jealousy of Phebe for being the first to face danger for the sake of the man who had been like a father to both of them.
“You can't go, dear, it's no use now, and she is right to say, 'Keep away.' I know those fevers, and the ones who nurse often take it, and fare worse for the strain they've been through. Good girl to stand by so bravely, to be so sensible, and not let Mac go too near! She's a grand nurse Alec couldn't have a better, and she'll never leave him till he's safe,” said Miss Plenty excitedly.
“You can't go, sweetheart, it's pointless now, and she's right to say, 'Stay away.' I know those fevers, and the nurses often catch it too and end up worse off because of the strain they've been under. Good for her to be so brave, so sensible, and keep Mac from getting too close! She's an amazing nurse—Alec couldn't ask for better, and she won't leave him until he's out of danger,” said Miss Plenty excitedly.
“Ah, you begin to know her now, and value her as you ought. I think few would have done as she has, and if she does get ill and die, it will be our fault partly, because she'd go through fire and water to make us do her justice and receive her as we ought,” cried Rose, proud of an example which she longed to follow.
“Ah, you’re starting to understand her now and appreciate her as you should. I think few would have done what she has, and if she does get sick and die, it will be partly our fault because she would go through anything to make us give her the respect she deserves,” cried Rose, proud of an example she wished to emulate.
“If she brings my boy home, I'll never say another word. She may marry every nephew I've got, if she likes, and I'll give her my blessing,” exclaimed Aunt Plenty, feeling that no price would be too much to pay for such a deed.
“If she brings my boy home, I won’t say another word. She can marry any of my nephews if she wants, and I’ll give her my blessing,” exclaimed Aunt Plenty, feeling that there was no cost too great for such a thing.
Rose was going to clap her hands, but wrung them instead, remembering with a sudden pang that the battle was not over yet, and it was much too soon to award the honors.
Rose was about to clap her hands but hesitated, realizing with an abrupt ache that the battle wasn't over yet, and it was far too soon to give out the awards.
Before she could speak Uncle Mac and Aunt Jane hurried in, for Mac's letter had come with the other, and dismay fell upon the family at the thought of danger to the well-beloved Uncle Alec. His brother decided to go at once, and Aunt Jane insisted on accompanying him, though all agreed that nothing could be done but wait, and leave Phebe at her post as long as she held out, since it was too late to save her from danger now and Mac reported her quite equal to the task.
Before she could say anything, Uncle Mac and Aunt Jane rushed in, since Mac's letter arrived with the others. The family felt anxious at the thought of danger to their beloved Uncle Alec. His brother decided to leave immediately, and Aunt Jane insisted on going with him, even though everyone agreed that there was nothing to do but wait and let Phebe stay at her post for as long as she could manage, since it was too late to rescue her from danger now and Mac said she was more than capable of handling it.
Great was the hurry and confusion till the relief party was off. Aunt Plenty was heartbroken that she could not go with them, but felt that she was too infirm to be useful and, like a sensible old soul, tried to content herself with preparing all sorts of comforts for the invalid. Rose was less patient, and at first had wild ideas of setting off alone and forcing her way to the spot where all her thoughts now centered. But before she could carry out any rash project, Aunt Myra's palpitations set in so alarmingly that they did good service for once and kept Rose busy taking her last directions and trying to soothe her dying bed, for each attack was declared fatal till the patient demanded toast and tea, when hope was again allowable and the rally began.
There was a lot of rush and chaos until the relief party left. Aunt Plenty was devastated that she couldn't go with them, but she felt too weak to be of any help and, being a sensible person, tried to keep herself occupied by preparing all kinds of comforts for the sick. Rose was less patient and initially had wild ideas of going off on her own to reach the place where all her thoughts were focused. But before she could act on any impulsive plan, Aunt Myra's alarming heart palpitations kicked in, so for once they proved useful by keeping Rose busy taking her last instructions and trying to comfort her as she lay dying, since each episode was considered fatal until the patient requested toast and tea, at which point hope could return and the recovery began.
The news flew fast, as such tidings always do, and Aunt Plenty was constantly employed in answering inquiries, for her knocker kept up a steady tattoo for several days. All sorts of people came: gentlefolk and paupers, children with anxious little faces, old people full of sympathy, pretty girls sobbing as they went away, and young men who relieved their feelings by swearing at all emigrants in general and Portuguese in particular. It was touching and comforting to see how many loved the good man who was known only by his benefactions and now lay suffering far away, quite unconscious how many unsuspected charities were brought to light by this grateful solicitude as hidden flowers spring up when warm rains fall.
The news spread quickly, as it always does, and Aunt Plenty was busy answering questions, as her doorbell rang non-stop for several days. All kinds of people showed up: wealthy folks and the less fortunate, kids with worried little faces, elderly people full of compassion, pretty girls crying as they left, and young men venting their frustration by cursing all emigrants in general and Portuguese people in particular. It was both touching and reassuring to see how many loved the good man, who was known only for his generosity and was now suffering far away, completely unaware of the many hidden acts of kindness that were revealed by this grateful concern, like flowers blooming after a warm rain.
If Rose had ever felt that the gift of living for others was a poor one, she saw now how beautiful and blessed it was how rich the returns, how wide the influence, how much more precious the tender tie which knit so many hearts together than any breath of fame or brilliant talent that dazzled but did not win and warm. In after years she found how true her uncle's words had been and, listening to eulogies of great men, felt less moved and inspired by praises of their splendid gifts than by the sight of some good man's patient labor for the poorest of his kind. Her heroes ceased to be the world's favorites and became such as Garrison fighting for his chosen people; Howe restoring lost senses to the deaf, the dumb, and blind; Sumner unbribable, when other men were bought and sold and many a large-hearted woman working as quietly as Abby Gibbons, who for thirty years had made Christmas merry for two hundred little paupers in a city almshouse, besides saving Magdalens and teaching convicts.
If Rose had ever thought that living for others was a poor gift, she now saw how beautiful and blessed it was, how rich the rewards, how wide the influence, and how much more precious the tender bond that connected so many hearts than any breath of fame or brilliant talent that dazzled but didn’t truly win or warm. In later years, she realized how true her uncle's words had been and, listening to eulogies of great men, felt less moved and inspired by praise of their remarkable gifts than by witnessing a good man's patient efforts for the poorest among us. Her heroes stopped being the world’s favorites and became people like Garrison, who fought for his chosen community; Howe, who restored hearing to the deaf, speech to the mute, and sight to the blind; Sumner, unbribable when other men were bought and sold; and many big-hearted women working quietly, like Abby Gibbons, who for thirty years brought joy to two hundred little paupers in a city almshouse while also saving women from despair and teaching convicts.
The lesson came to Rose when she was ready for it, and showed her what a noble profession philanthropy is, made her glad of her choice, and helped fit her for a long life full of the loving labor and sweet satisfaction unostentatious charity brings to those who ask no reward and are content if “only God knows.”
The lesson reached Rose when she was prepared for it, revealing to her what a noble profession philanthropy is. It made her thankful for her choice and helped her get ready for a long life filled with the loving work and sweet satisfaction that unassuming charity brings to those who seek no reward and are content if "only God knows."
Several anxious weeks went by with wearing fluctuations of hope and fear, for Life and Death fought over the prize each wanted, and more than once Death seemed to have won. But Phebe stood at her post, defying both danger and Death with the courage and devotion women often show. All her soul and strength were in her work, and when it seemed most hopeless, she cried out with the passionate energy which seems to send such appeals straight up to heaven: “Grant me this one boon, dear Lord, and I will never ask another for myself!”
Several anxious weeks passed with exhausting ups and downs of hope and fear, as Life and Death battled for the prize each desired, and more than once, it seemed that Death had triumphed. But Phebe stayed at her post, bravely facing both danger and Death with the courage and devotion that women often display. All her soul and strength were dedicated to her work, and when it seemed most hopeless, she cried out with a passionate energy that seems to send such pleas straight up to heaven: “Grant me this one favor, dear Lord, and I will never ask for anything else for myself!”
Such prayers avail much, and such entire devotion often seems to work miracles when other aids are in vain. Phebe's cry was answered, her self-forgetful task accomplished, and her long vigil rewarded with a happy dawn. Dr. Alec always said that she kept him alive by the force of her will, and that, during the hours when he seemed to lie unconscious, he felt a strong, warm hand holding his, as if keeping him away from the swift current trying to sweep him away. The happiest hour of all her life was that in which he knew her, looked up with the shadow of a smile in his hollow eyes, and tried to say in his old cheery way: “Tell Rose I've turned the corner, thanks to you, my child.”
Such prayers are really powerful, and that kind of total devotion often seems to work wonders when other help fails. Phebe's plea was answered, her selfless efforts were completed, and her long wait was rewarded with a joyful morning. Dr. Alec always claimed that she kept him alive through the strength of her will, and that during the times he appeared unconscious, he felt a strong, warm hand holding his, as if it were keeping him from being swept away by the rushing current. The happiest moment of her life was when he recognized her, looked up with a hint of a smile in his sunken eyes, and tried to say in his usual cheerful way: “Tell Rose I've turned the corner, thanks to you, my child.”
She answered very quietly, smoothed the pillow, and saw him drop asleep again before she stole away into the other room, meaning to write the good news, but could only throw herself down and find relief for a full heart in the first tears she had shed for weeks. Mac found her there, and took such care of her that she was ready to go back to her place now indeed a post of honor while he ran off to send home a telegram which made many hearts sing for joy and caused Jamie, in his first burst of delight, to propose to ring all the city bells and order out the cannon: “Saved thanks to God and Phebe.”
She replied very softly, adjusted the pillow, and watched him fall back asleep before she quietly slipped into the other room, planning to write the good news. Instead, she just collapsed and found comfort in the tears she hadn't shed for weeks. Mac found her there and took such good care of her that she felt ready to return to her place, now truly an honor, while he hurried off to send a telegram that filled many hearts with joy. In his first moment of excitement, Jamie suggested ringing all the city bells and bringing out the cannons: “Saved thanks to God and Phebe.”
That was all, but everyone was satisfied, and everyone fell a-crying, as if hope needed much salty water to strengthen it. That was soon over, however, and then people went about smiling and saying to one another, with handshakes or embraces, “He is better no doubt of it now!” A general desire to rush away and assure themselves of the truth pervaded the family for some days, and nothing but awful threats from Mac, stern mandates from the doctor, and entreaties from Phebe not to undo her work kept Miss Plenty, Rose, and Aunt Jessie at home.
That was all, but everyone felt satisfied, and they all started crying, as if hope needed a lot of tears to get stronger. That didn’t last long, though, and soon people were smiling and telling each other, with handshakes or hugs, “He’s definitely getting better!” For a few days, there was a strong urge in the family to rush out and confirm the good news, and only Mac's harsh threats, the doctor's stern orders, and Phebe's pleas not to ruin her work kept Miss Plenty, Rose, and Aunt Jessie at home.
As the only way in which they could ease their minds and bear the delay, they set about spring cleaning with an energy which scared the spiders and drove charwomen distracted. If the old house had been infected with smallpox, it could not have been more vigorously scrubbed, aired, and refreshed. Early as it was, every carpet was routed up, curtains pulled down, cushions banged, and glory holes turned out till not a speck of dust, a last year's fly, or stray straw could be found. Then they all sat down and rested in such an immaculate mansion that one hardly dared to move for fear of destroying the shining order everywhere visible.
To clear their minds and cope with the delay, they jumped into spring cleaning with such enthusiasm that it scared the spiders and drove the cleaners nuts. If the old house had been hit by smallpox, it wouldn’t have been scrubbed, aired, and refreshed more thoroughly. Even though it was early, every carpet was ripped up, curtains taken down, cushions shaken out, and hidden nooks cleaned out until not a speck of dust, last year’s fly, or stray straw could be found. Then they all sat down and rested in such a spotless home that one hardly dared to move for fear of ruining the shiny order all around.
It was late in April before this was accomplished, and the necessary quarantine of the absentees well over. The first mild days seemed to come early, so that Dr. Alec might return with safety from the journey which had so nearly been his last. It was perfectly impossible to keep any member of the family away on that great occasion. They came from all quarters in spite of express directions to the contrary, for the invalid was still very feeble and no excitement must be allowed. As if the wind carried the glad news, Uncle Jem came into port the night before; Will and Geordie got a leave on their own responsibility; Steve would have defied the entire faculty, had it been necessary; and Uncle Mac and Archie said simultaneously, “Business be hanged today.”
It was late in April when this was finally done, and the required quarantine of the absentees was long over. The first mild days seemed to arrive early, so Dr. Alec could return safely from the journey that almost took his life. It was simply not possible to keep any family member away for such an important occasion. They came from all directions despite clear instructions not to, since the patient was still very weak and no excitement should be allowed. As if the wind carried the good news, Uncle Jem arrived the night before; Will and Geordie took leave on their own initiative; Steve would have defied the entire faculty if he had to; and Uncle Mac and Archie said at the same time, “Forget about work today.”
Of course the aunts arrived in all their best, all cautioning everybody else to keep quiet and all gabbling excitedly at the least provocation. Jamie suffered the most during that day, so divided was he between the desire to behave well and the frantic impulse to shout at the top of his voice, turn somersaults, and race all over the house. Occasional bolts into the barn, where he let off steam by roaring and dancing jigs, to the great dismay of the fat old horses and two sedate cows, helped him to get through that trying period.
Of course, the aunts showed up in their best outfits, warning everyone else to stay quiet while chattering excitedly at the slightest opportunity. Jamie had the toughest time that day, torn between wanting to act appropriately and the wild urge to shout at the top of his lungs, do cartwheels, and run around the house. Every now and then, he would dash into the barn, where he could blow off steam by yelling and doing jigs, much to the annoyance of the plump old horses and two calm cows, which helped him cope with that challenging time.
But the heart that was fullest beat and fluttered in Rose's bosom as she went about putting spring flowers everywhere; very silent, but so radiant with happiness that the aunts watched her, saying softly to one another, “Could an angel look sweeter?”
But the heart that was fullest beat and fluttered in Rose's chest as she went about putting spring flowers everywhere; very quiet, but so radiant with happiness that the aunts watched her, saying softly to one another, “Could an angel look sweeter?”
If angels ever wore pale green gowns and snowdrops in their hair, had countenances full of serenest joy, and large eyes shining with an inward light that made them very lovely, then Rose did look like one. But she felt like a woman and well she might, for was not life very rich that day, when Uncle, friend, and lover were coming back to her together? Could she ask anything more, except the power to be to all of them the creature they believed her, and to return the love they gave her with one as faithful, pure, and deep? Among the portraits in the hall hung one of Dr. Alec, done soon after his return by Charlie in one of his brief fits of inspiration. Only a crayon, but wonderfully lifelike and carefully finished, as few of the others were. This had been handsomely framed and now held the place of honor, garlanded with green wreaths, while the great Indian jar below blazed with a pyramid of hothouse flowers sent by Kitty. Rose was giving these a last touch, with Dulce close by, cooing over a handful of sweet “daffydowndillies,” when the sound of wheels sent her flying to the door. She meant to have spoken the first welcome and had the first embrace, but when she saw the altered face in the carriage, the feeble figure being borne up the steps by all the boys, she stood motionless till Phebe caught her in her arms, whispering with a laugh and a cry struggling in her voice: “I did it for you, my darling, all for you!”
If angels ever wore pale green dresses and had snowdrops in their hair, with faces full of pure joy and big eyes shining with a light from within that made them truly beautiful, then Rose really looked like one. But she felt like a woman, and she had every right to, because life was incredibly rich that day, with her uncle, friend, and lover all coming back to her at once. Could she ask for anything more, except the ability to be for all of them the person they believed her to be, and to return the love they gave her with a love that was just as faithful, pure, and deep? Among the portraits in the hall hung one of Dr. Alec, created soon after his return by Charlie during one of his brief moments of inspiration. It was just a crayon drawing, but it was remarkably lifelike and carefully finished, unlike many of the others. This had been beautifully framed and now held the place of honor, adorned with green wreaths, while the large Indian jar below brimmed with a stack of hothouse flowers sent by Kitty. Rose was giving these a final touch, with Dulce nearby, gushing over a handful of sweet "daffydowndillies," when she heard the sound of wheels and rushed to the door. She intended to give the first welcome and have the first hug, but when she saw the changed face in the carriage and the frail figure being helped up the steps by all the boys, she stood frozen until Phebe caught her in her arms, whispering with a laugh and a cry struggling in her voice, “I did it for you, my darling, all for you!”
“Oh, Phebe, never say again you owe me anything! I never can repay you for this,” was all Rose had time to answer as they stood one instant cheek to cheek, heart to heart, both too full of happiness for many words.
“Oh, Phebe, never say again that you owe me anything! I can never repay you for this,” was all Rose had time to reply as they stood for a moment cheek to cheek, heart to heart, both too overwhelmed with happiness for many words.
Aunt Plenty had heard the wheels also and, as everybody rose en masse, had said as impressively as extreme agitation would allow, while she put her glasses on upside down and seized a lace tidy instead of her handkerchief: “Stop! All stay here, and let me receive Alec. Remember his weak state, and be calm, quite calm, as I am.'
Aunt Plenty heard the wheels too, and as everyone stood up all at once, she said as seriously as her panic would let her, while putting her glasses on upside down and grabbing a lace tidy instead of her handkerchief: “Wait! Everyone stay here, and let me greet Alec. Remember how frail he is, and stay calm, completely calm, like I am.”
“Yes, Aunt, certainly,” was the general murmur of assent, but it was as impossible to obey as it would have been to keep feathers still in a gale, and one irresistible impulse carried the whole roomful into the hall to behold Aunt Plenty beautifully illustrating her own theory of composure by waving the tidy wildly, rushing into Dr. Alec's arms, and laughing and crying with a hysterical abandonment which even Aunt Myra could not have surpassed.
“Yes, Aunt, of course,” was the general murmur of agreement, but it was as impossible to comply as it would have been to keep feathers still in a storm, and one uncontrollable impulse took the entire room into the hall to witness Aunt Plenty perfectly demonstrating her own theory of calm by wildly waving the tidy, rushing into Dr. Alec's arms, and laughing and crying with an emotional freedom that even Aunt Myra couldn't have matched.
The tearful jubilee was soon over, however, and no one seemed the worse for it, for the instant his arms were at liberty, Dr. Alec forgot himself and began to make other people happy by saying seriously, though his thin face beamed paternally, as he drew Phebe forward: “Aunt Plenty, but for this good daughter I never should have come back to be so welcomed. Love her for my sake.”
The emotional celebration didn’t last long, but nobody seemed to mind. As soon as Dr. Alec was free, he shifted his focus to making others happy. With a serious tone, despite his warm, fatherly smile, he pulled Phebe forward and said, “Aunt Plenty, if it weren't for this wonderful daughter, I never would have come back to such a warm welcome. Please love her for my sake.”
Then the old lady came out splendidly and showed her mettle, for, turning to Phebe, she bowed her gray head as if saluting an equal and, offering her hand, answered with repentance, admiration, and tenderness trembling in her voice: “I'm proud to do it for her own sake. I ask pardon for my silly prejudices, and I'll prove that I'm sincere by where's that boy?”
Then the old lady stepped forward confidently and showed her true character. Turning to Phebe, she nodded her gray head as if acknowledging an equal and, extending her hand, spoke with a mix of regret, admiration, and emotion in her voice: “I'm proud to do this for her own sake. I apologize for my foolish prejudices, and I'll show that I'm sincere by asking—where's that boy?”
There were six boys present, but the right one was in exactly the right place at the right moment, and, seizing Archie's hand, Aunt Plenty put Phebe's into it, trying to say something appropriately solemn, but could not, so hugged them both and sobbed out: “If I had a dozen nephews, I'd give them all to you, my dear, and dance at the wedding, though I had rheumatism in every limb.”
There were six boys there, but the right one was in exactly the right spot at the right time, and, grabbing Archie's hand, Aunt Plenty placed Phebe's into it, trying to say something fittingly serious, but couldn’t, so she hugged them both and cried out: “If I had a dozen nephews, I’d give them all to you, my dear, and dance at the wedding, even if I had pain in every joint.”
That was better than any oration, for it set them all to laughing, and Dr. Alec was floated to the sofa on a gentle wave of merriment. Once there, everyone but Rose and Aunt Plenty was ordered off by Mac, who was in command now and seemed to have sunk the poet in the physician.
That was better than any speech, because it made everyone laugh, and Dr. Alec was carried to the sofa on a wave of joy. Once there, Mac, who was now in charge and seemed to have pushed the poet aside for the doctor, told everyone to leave except Rose and Aunt Plenty.
“The house must be perfectly quiet, and he must go to sleep as soon as possible after the journey, so all say 'good-bye' now and call again tomorrow,” he said, watching his uncle anxiously as he leaned in the sofa corner, with four women taking off his wraps, three boys contending for his overshoes, two brothers shaking hands at short intervals, and Aunt Myra holding a bottle of strong salts under his devoted nose every time there was an opening anywhere.
“The house has to be completely quiet, and he needs to go to sleep as soon as he can after the trip, so everyone say 'goodbye' now and come back tomorrow,” he said, looking at his uncle nervously as he sat in the corner of the sofa, with four women helping him take off his coat, three boys arguing over his overshoes, two brothers shaking hands repeatedly, and Aunt Myra holding a bottle of strong smelling salts under his nose whenever there was a chance.
With difficulty the house was partially cleared, and then, while Aunt Plenty mounted guard over her boy, Rose stole away to see if Mac had gone with the rest, for as yet they had hardly spoken in the joyful flurry, though eyes and hands had met.
With some effort, the house was partially cleared, and then, while Aunt Plenty kept an eye on her boy, Rose quietly slipped away to check if Mac had left with everyone else, because they had barely spoken in all the excitement, even though their eyes and hands had connected.
Chapter 22 SHORT AND SWEET
In the hall she found Steve and Kitty, for he had hidden his little sweetheart behind the big couch, feeling that she had a right there, having supported his spirits during the late anxiety with great constancy and courage. They seemed so cozy, billing and cooing in the shadow of the gay vase, that Rose would have slipped silently away if they had not seen and called to her. “He's not gone I guess you'll find him in the parlor,” said Steve, divining with a lover's instinct the meaning of the quick look she had cast at the hat rack as she shut the study door behind her.
In the hall, Rose found Steve and Kitty, who he had hidden behind the big couch, feeling she deserved to be there since she had supported him through his recent worries with great strength and bravery. They looked so cozy, whispering sweet nothings in the shadow of the bright vase, that Rose would have quietly slipped away if they hadn’t noticed her and called out to her. “He’s not gone, I guess you’ll find him in the parlor,” Steve said, intuitively understanding, with a lover’s instinct, the meaning of the quick glance she had cast at the hat rack as she closed the study door behind her.
“Mercy, no! Archie and Phebe are there, so he'd have the sense to pop into the sanctum and wait, unless you'd like me to go and bring him out?” added Kitty, smoothing Rose's ruffled hair and settling the flowers on the bosom where Uncle Alec's head had lain until he fell asleep.
“Please, no! Archie and Phebe are there, so he would know to step into the room and wait, unless you want me to go and get him?” Kitty added, smoothing Rose's messy hair and fixing the flowers on her chest where Uncle Alec's head had rested until he drifted off to sleep.
“No, thank you, I'll go to him when I've seen my Phebe. She won't mind me,” answered Rose, moving on to the parlor.
“No, thanks, I'll go to him after I've seen my Phebe. She won't mind me,” replied Rose, heading to the parlor.
“Look here,” called Steve, “do advise them to hurry up and all be married at once. We were just ready when Uncle fell ill, and now we cannot wait a day later than the first of May.”
“Hey there,” shouted Steve, “please tell them to speed things up and get married all at once. We were all set when Uncle got sick, and now we can’t wait a single day past the first of May.”
“Rather short notice,” laughed Rose, looking back with the doorknob in her hand.
“Pretty short notice,” laughed Rose, glancing back while holding the doorknob.
“We'll give up all our splendor, and do it as simply as you like, if you will only come too. Think how lovely! Three weddings at once! Do fly round and settle things there's a dear,” implored Kitty, whose imagination was fired with this romantic idea.
“We'll give up all our luxury and keep it as simple as you want, if you’ll just come along too. Just think how wonderful it would be! Three weddings at the same time! Please hurry up and make it happen, darling,” Kitty pleaded, her imagination ignited by this romantic thought.
“How can I, when I have no bridegroom yet?” began Rose, with conscious color in her telltale face.
“How can I, when I don’t have a groom yet?” Rose began, her cheeks betraying her embarrassment.
“Sly creature! You know you've only got to say a word and have a famous one. Una and her lion will be nothing to it,” cried Steve, bent on hastening his brother's affair, which was much too dilatory and peculiar for his taste.
“Sneaky creature! You know you just have to say a word and have a famous one. Una and her lion won't compare,” cried Steve, eager to speed up his brother's situation, which was way too slow and odd for his liking.
“He has been in no haste to come home, and I am in no haste to leave it. Don't wait for me, 'Mr. and Mrs. Harry Walmers, Jr.,' I shall be a year at least making up my mind, so you may lead off as splendidly as you like and I'll profit by your experience.” And Rose vanished into the parlor, leaving Steve to groan over the perversity of superior women and Kitty to comfort him by promising to marry him on May Day “all alone.”
“He hasn't rushed to come home, and I'm not in a hurry to leave. Don't wait for me, 'Mr. and Mrs. Harry Walmers, Jr.,' I'll take at least a year to figure things out, so you can go ahead and have a fantastic time, and I'll learn from what you do.” And Rose disappeared into the living room, leaving Steve to grumble about the stubbornness of smart women while Kitty reassured him by promising to marry him on May Day “just the two of us.”
A very different couple occupied the drawing room, but a happier one, for they had known the pain of separation and were now enjoying the bliss of a reunion which was to last unbroken for their lives. Phebe sat in an easy chair, resting from her labors, pale and thin and worn, but lovelier in Archie's eyes than ever before. It was very evident that he was adoring his divinity, for, after placing a footstool at her feet, he had forgotten to get up and knelt there with his elbow on the arm of her chair, looking like a thirsty man drinking long drafts of the purest water.
A completely different couple occupied the living room, but a much happier one, because they had experienced the pain of separation and were now savoring the joy of a reunion that would last uninterrupted for their lives. Phebe sat in an armchair, taking a break from her work, pale and thin and tired, but more beautiful in Archie's eyes than ever before. It was clear that he was completely enamored with her, as after placing a footstool at her feet, he had forgotten to get up and knelt there with his elbow on the arm of her chair, looking like a thirsty man drinking long gulps of the purest water.
“Shall I disturb you if I pass through?” asked Rose, loath to spoil the pretty tableau.
“Am I bothering you if I pass by?” asked Rose, reluctant to ruin the beautiful scene.
“Not if you stop a minute on the way and congratulate me, Cousin, for she says 'yes' at last!” cried Archie, springing up to go and bring her to the arms Phebe opened as she appeared.
“Not if you take a minute to congratulate me on the way, Cousin, because she finally said 'yes'!” shouted Archie, jumping up to go and bring her to the open arms of Phebe as she appeared.
“I knew she would reward your patience and put away her pride when both had been duly tried,” said Rose, laying the tired head on her bosom with such tender admiration in her eyes that Phebe had to shake some bright drops from her own before she could reply in a tone of grateful humility that showed how much her heart was touched: “How can I help it, when they are all so kind to me? Any pride would melt away under such praise and thanks and loving wishes as I've had today, for every member of the family has taken pains to welcome me, to express far too much gratitude, and to beg me to be one of you. I needed very little urging, but when Archie's father and mother came and called me 'daughter,' I would have promised anything to show my love for them.”
“I knew she would reward your patience and set aside her pride once both had been truly tested,” said Rose, resting the tired head on her chest with such tender admiration in her eyes that Phebe had to shake off some bright tears before she could respond in a tone of grateful humility that showed how deeply her heart was moved: “How can I help it when everyone is so kind to me? Any pride would fade away under such praise and thanks and loving wishes as I've received today, because every member of the family has made an effort to welcome me, to express way too much gratitude, and to ask me to be one of you. I didn’t need much convincing, but when Archie's parents came and called me 'daughter,' I would have promised anything to show my love for them.”
“And him,” added Rose, but Archie seemed quite satisfied and kissed the hand he held as if it had been that of a beloved princess while he said with all the pride Phebe seemed to have lost: “Think what she gives up for me fame and fortune and the admiration of many a better man. You don't know what a splendid prospect she has of becoming one of the sweet singers who are loved and honored everywhere, and all this she puts away for my sake, content to sing for me alone, with no reward but love.”
“And him,” Rose added, but Archie looked completely satisfied and kissed the hand he held, as if it belonged to a beloved princess. He said, with all the pride that Phebe seemed to have lost, “Think about what she’s giving up for me—fame, fortune, and the admiration of many better men. You don’t realize the incredible opportunity she has to become one of those sweet singers who are loved and honored everywhere, and she’s giving all that up for my sake, happy to sing for me alone, with nothing in return but love.”
“I am so glad to make a little sacrifice for a great happiness I never shall regret it or think my music lost if it makes home cheerful for my mate. Birds sing sweetest in their own nests, you know.” And Phebe bent toward him with a look and gesture which plainly showed how willingly she offered up all ambitious hopes upon the altar of a woman's happy love.
“I’m really happy to make a small sacrifice for a great happiness. I’ll never regret it or feel like my music is wasted if it brings joy to my partner at home. Birds sing their best in their own nests, you know.” And Phebe leaned toward him with a look and gesture that clearly showed how willingly she was giving up all her ambitious dreams for the sake of a woman’s happy love.
Both seemed to forget that they were not alone, and in a moment they were, for a sudden impulse carried Rose to the door of her sanctum, as if the south wind which seemed to have set in was wafting this little ship also toward the Islands of the Blessed, where the others were safely anchored now.
Both of them seemed to forget they weren’t alone, and in an instant they were, because a sudden urge drove Rose to the door of her sanctuary, as if the southern wind that seemed to have begun blowing was also guiding this little ship toward the Islands of the Blessed, where the others were now safely anchored.
The room was a blaze of sunshine and a bower of spring freshness and fragrance, for here Rose had let her fancy have free play, and each garland, fern, and flower had its meaning. Mac seemed to have been reading this sweet language of symbols, to have guessed why Charlie's little picture was framed in white roses, why pansies hung about his own, why Psyche was half hidden among feathery sprays of maidenhair, and a purple passion flower lay at Cupid's feet. The last fancy evidently pleased him, for he was smiling over it, and humming to himself as if to beguile his patient waiting, the burden of the air Rose had so often sung to him:
The room was filled with bright sunlight and a fresh, spring-like scent, as Rose had let her imagination run wild, and every garland, fern, and flower had its own meaning. Mac seemed to understand this sweet language of symbols, guessing why Charlie's little picture was framed with white roses, why pansies surrounded his own, why Psyche was partially hidden among delicate maidenhair ferns, and why a purple passion flower rested at Cupid's feet. The last detail clearly pleased him, as he smiled at it and hummed to himself, perhaps to pass the time while he waited patiently, echoing the melody that Rose had often sung to him:
“Bonny lassie, will ye gang, will ye gang To the birks of Aberfeldie?”
“Pretty girl, will you go, will you go to the woods of Aberfeldie?”
“Yes, Mac, anywhere!”
“Yeah, Mac, anywhere!”
He had not heard her enter, and wheeling around, looked at her with a radiant face as he said, drawing a long breath, “At last! You were so busy over the dear man, I got no word. But I can wait I'm used to it.”
He hadn't heard her come in, and turning around, he looked at her with a bright smile as he exclaimed, taking a deep breath, "Finally! You were so caught up with the poor guy, I didn't get a word from you. But I can wait; I’m used to it."
Rose stood quite still, surveying him with a new sort of reverence in her eyes, as she answered with a sweet solemnity that made him laugh and redden with the sensitive joy of one to whom praise from her lips was very precious: “You forget that you are not the Mac who went away. I should have run to meet my cousin, but I did not dare to be familiar with the poet whom all begin to honor.”
Rose stood still, looking at him with a fresh kind of respect in her eyes, as she replied with a sweet seriousness that made him laugh and blush with the tender joy of someone who treasures praise from her: “You’re forgetting that you’re not the same Mac who left. I should have run to greet my cousin, but I didn’t feel comfortable approaching the poet that everyone is starting to admire.”
“You like the mixture, then? You know I said I'd try to give you love and poetry together.”
“You like the mix, huh? You know I said I'd try to give you both love and poetry.”
“Like it! I'm so glad, so proud, I haven't any words strong and beautiful enough to half express my wonder and my admiration. How could you do it, Mac?” And a whole face full of smiles broke loose as Rose clapped her hands, looking as if she could dance with sheer delight.
“Like it! I'm so glad and proud, I don't have words strong and beautiful enough to fully express my wonder and admiration. How did you do it, Mac?” A bright smile spread across Rose's face as she clapped her hands, looking like she could dance from pure joy.
“It did itself, up there among the hills, and here with you, or out alone upon the sea. I could write a heavenly poem this very minute, and put you in as Spring you look like her in that green gown with snowdrops in your bonny hair. Rose, am I getting on a little? Does a hint of fame help me nearer to the prize I'm working for? Is your heart more willing to be won?”
“It happened on its own, up there in the hills, and here with you, or even out alone on the sea. I could write a beautiful poem right this minute and include you, just like Spring, because you look like her in that green dress with snowdrops in your lovely hair. Rose, am I making any progress? Does a bit of recognition bring me closer to the goal I'm chasing? Is your heart more open to being won?”
He did not stir a step, but looked at her with such intense longing that his glance seemed to draw her nearer like an irresistible appeal, for she went and stood before him, holding out both hands, as if she offered all her little store, as she said with simplest sincerity: “It is not worth so much beautiful endeavor, but if you still want so poor a thing, it is yours.”
He didn't move at all, but looked at her with such deep desire that his gaze seemed to pull her closer like an undeniable invitation. She stepped forward and stood in front of him, extending both hands as if she were offering all her small treasures, and said with heartfelt honesty, “It isn’t worth all this beautiful effort, but if you still want such a humble thing, it's yours.”
He caught her hands in his and seemed about to take the rest of her, but hesitated for an instant, unable to believe that so much happiness was true.
He took her hands in his and looked like he was about to embrace her fully, but then paused for a moment, unable to accept that such happiness could be real.
“Are you sure, Rose very sure? Don't let a momentary admiration blind you I'm not a poet yet, and the best are but mortal men, you know.”
“Are you sure, Rose? Very sure? Don't let a fleeting admiration blind you. I'm not a poet yet, and even the best are just mortal men, you know.”
“It is not admiration, Mac.”
“It’s not admiration, Mac.”
“Nor gratitude for the small share I've taken in saving Uncle? I had my debt to pay, as well as Phebe, and was as glad to risk my life.”
“Is there no gratitude for the small part I played in saving Uncle? I had my own debt to settle, just like Phebe, and I was just as happy to put my life on the line.”
“No it is not gratitude.”
“No, it’s not gratitude.”
“Nor pity for my patience? I've only done a little yet, and I am as far as ever from being like your hero. I can work and wait still longer if you are not sure, for I must have all or nothing.”
“Don't you have any sympathy for my patience? I've barely done anything yet, and I'm still nowhere near being like your hero. I can keep working and waiting even longer if you’re unsure, because I need everything or nothing.”
“Oh, Mac! Why will you be so doubtful? You said you'd make me love you, and you've done it. Will you believe me now?” And, with a sort of desperation, she threw herself into his arms, clinging there in eloquent silence while he held her close; feeling, with a thrill of tender triumph, that this was no longer little Rose, but a loving woman, ready to live and die for him.
“Oh, Mac! Why are you being so doubtful? You said you’d make me love you, and you’ve done it. Will you believe me now?” And, with a kind of desperation, she threw herself into his arms, clinging to him in powerful silence while he held her close; feeling, with a thrill of tender triumph, that this was no longer little Rose, but a loving woman, ready to live and die for him.
“Now I'm satisfied!” he said presently, when she lifted up her face, full of maidenly shame at the sudden passion which had carried her out of herself for a moment. “No don't slip away so soon. Let me keep you for one blessed minute and feel that I have really found my Psyche.”
“Now I'm satisfied!” he said after a moment, when she lifted her face, full of girl-like embarrassment at the sudden passion that had momentarily taken her out of herself. “No, don’t rush away so soon. Let me hold onto you for just one precious minute and feel that I’ve truly found my Psyche.”
“And I my Cupid,” answered Rose, laughing, in spite of her emotion, at the idea of Mac in that sentimental character.
“And I my Cupid,” replied Rose, laughing, despite her feelings, at the thought of Mac in that romantic role.
He laughed, too, as only a happy lover could, then said, with sudden seriousness: “Sweet soul! Lift up your lamp and look well before it is too late, for I'm no god, only a very faulty man.”
He laughed, too, just like a happy lover would, then said, with a sudden seriousness: “Sweet soul! Hold up your lamp and take a good look before it’s too late, because I’m not a god, just a really flawed man.”
“Dear love! I will. But I have no fear, except that you will fly too high for me to follow, because I have no wings.”
“Dear love! I will. But I have no fear, except that you will soar too high for me to follow, because I have no wings.”
“You shall live the poetry, and I will write it, so my little gift will celebrate your greater one.”
“You will live the poetry, and I'll write it, so my small gift will honor your much bigger one.”
“No you shall have all the fame, and I'll be content to be known only as the poet's wife.”
“No, you can have all the fame, and I'll be happy to be known just as the poet's wife.”
“And I'll be proud to own that my best inspiration comes from the beneficent life of a sweet and noble woman.”
“And I’m proud to say that my greatest inspiration comes from the kind life of a wonderful and noble woman.”
“Oh, Mac! We'll work together and try to make the world better by the music and the love we leave behind us when we go.”
“Oh, Mac! We'll team up and try to improve the world with the music and love we leave behind when we're gone.”
“Please God, we will!” he answered fervently and, looking at her as she stood there in the spring sunshine, glowing with the tender happiness, high hopes, and earnest purposes that make life beautiful and sacred, he felt that now the last leaf had folded back, the golden heart lay open to the light, and his Rose had bloomed.
“Please God, we will!” he replied passionately, and as he looked at her standing there in the spring sunshine, radiating with gentle happiness, high hopes, and sincere intentions that make life beautiful and meaningful, he felt that at last the final leaf had unfolded, the golden heart was exposed to the light, and his Rose had blossomed.
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