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Jennie Gerhardt

A NOVEL

by Theodore Dreiser

AUTHOR OF “SISTER CARRIE”, etc.

AUTHOR OF “SISTER CARRIE,” etc.

Copyright, 1911, by Harper & Brothers

Copyright, 1911, by Harper & Brothers

Copyright, 1911, by Boni & Liveright, Inc.

Copyright, 1911, by Boni & Liveright, Inc.

Printed in the United States of America


Contents

Chapter I
Chapter II
Chapter III
Chapter IV
Chapter V
Chapter VI
Chapter VII
Chapter VIII
Chapter IX
Chapter X
Chapter XI
Chapter XII
Chapter XIII
Chapter XIV
Chapter XV
Chapter XVI
Chapter XVII
Chapter XVIII
Chapter XIX
Chapter XX
Chapter XXI
Chapter XXII
Chapter XXIII
Chapter XXIV
Chapter XXV
Chapter XXVI
Chapter XXVII
Chapter XXVIII
Chapter XXIX
Chapter XXX
Chapter XXXI
Chapter XXXII
Chapter XXXIII
Chapter XXXIV
Chapter XXXV
Chapter XXXVI
Chapter XXXVII
Chapter XXXVIII
Chapter XXXIX
Chapter XL
Chapter XLI
Chapter XLII
Chapter XLIII
Chapter XLIV
Chapter XLV
Chapter XLVI
Chapter XLVII
Chapter XLVIII
Chapter XLIX
Chapter L
Chapter LI
Chapter LII
Chapter LIII
Chapter LIV
Chapter LV
Chapter LVI
Chapter LVII
Chapter LVIII
Chapter LIX
Chapter LX
Chapter LXI
Chapter LXII
jenniegerhardt

CHAPTER I

One morning, in the fall of 1880, a middle-aged woman, accompanied by a young girl of eighteen, presented herself at the clerk’s desk of the principal hotel in Columbus, Ohio, and made inquiry as to whether there was anything about the place that she could do. She was of a helpless, fleshy build, with a frank, open countenance and an innocent, diffident manner. Her eyes were large and patient, and in them dwelt such a shadow of distress as only those who have looked sympathetically into the countenances of the distraught and helpless poor know anything about. Any one could see where the daughter behind her got the timidity and shamefacedness which now caused her to stand back and look indifferently away. She was a product of the fancy, the feeling, the innate affection of the untutored but poetic mind of her mother combined with the gravity and poise which were characteristic of her father. Poverty was driving them. Together they presented so appealing a picture of honest necessity that even the clerk was affected.

One morning in the fall of 1880, a middle-aged woman, along with an eighteen-year-old girl, approached the clerk's desk at the main hotel in Columbus, Ohio, and asked if there was anything she could do there. The woman had a soft, full figure, an honest, open face, and an innocent, shy demeanor. Her large, patient eyes held a hint of distress that only those who have compassionately looked into the faces of the struggling and helpless truly understand. It was easy to see where the daughter had inherited her timidity and bashfulness, which made her stand back and look away. She was a blend of her mother's imaginative, emotional nature and her father's seriousness and composure. They were being pushed by poverty. Together, they made such a heartfelt picture of genuine need that even the clerk was moved.

“What is it you would like to do?” he said.

"What do you want to do?" he asked.

“Maybe you have some cleaning or scrubbing,” she replied, timidly. “I could wash the floors.”

“Maybe you need some cleaning or scrubbing,” she replied, nervously. “I could clean the floors.”

The daughter, hearing the statement, turned uneasily, not because it irritated her to work, but because she hated people to guess at the poverty that made it necessary. The clerk, manlike, was affected by the evidence of beauty in distress. The innocent helplessness of the daughter made their lot seem hard indeed.

The daughter, hearing what was said, turned uncomfortably, not because she disliked working, but because she hated having people suspect the poverty that forced her to do so. The clerk, being a man, was moved by the sight of beauty in a tough situation. The daughter’s innocent vulnerability made their situation seem really hard.

“Wait a moment,” he said; and, stepping into a back office, he called the head housekeeper.

“Wait a minute,” he said; and, stepping into a back office, he called the head housekeeper.

There was work to be done. The main staircase and parlor hall were unswept because of the absence of the regular scrub-woman.

There was work to do. The main staircase and parlor hall were unswept because the regular cleaning lady was absent.

“Is that her daughter with her?” asked the housekeeper, who could see them from where she was standing.

“Is that her daughter with her?” asked the housekeeper, who could see them from where she was standing.

“Yes, I believe so.”

“Yeah, I think so.”

“She might come this afternoon if she wants to. The girl helps her, I suppose?”

“She might come this afternoon if she feels like it. I guess the girl helps her, right?”

“You go see the housekeeper,” said the clerk, pleasantly, as he came back to the desk. “Right through there”—pointing to a near-by door. “She’ll arrange with you about it.”

“You should go talk to the housekeeper,” said the clerk, cheerfully, as he returned to the desk. “Right through there”—pointing to a nearby door. “She’ll sort it out with you.”

A succession of misfortunes, of which this little scene might have been called the tragic culmination, had taken place in the life and family of William Gerhardt, a glass-blower by trade. Having suffered the reverses so common in the lower walks of life, this man was forced to see his wife, his six children, and himself dependent for the necessaries of life upon whatever windfall of fortune the morning of each recurring day might bring. He himself was sick in bed. His oldest boy, Sebastian, or “Bass,” as his associates transformed it, worked as an apprentice to a local freight-car builder, but received only four dollars a week. Genevieve, the oldest of the girls, was past eighteen, but had not as yet been trained to any special work. The other children, George, aged fourteen; Martha, twelve; William ten, and Veronica, eight, were too young to do anything, and only made the problem of existence the more complicated. Their one mainstay was the home, which, barring a six-hundred-dollar mortgage, the father owned. He had borrowed this money at a time when, having saved enough to buy the house, he desired to add three rooms and a porch, and so make it large enough for them to live in. A few years were still to run on the mortgage, but times had been so bad that he had been forced to use up not only the little he had saved to pay off the principal, but the annual interest also. Gerhardt was helpless, and the consciousness of his precarious situation—the doctor’s bill, the interest due upon the mortgage, together with the sums owed butcher and baker, who, through knowing him to be absolutely honest, had trusted him until they could trust no longer—all these perplexities weighed upon his mind and racked him so nervously as to delay his recovery.

A series of unfortunate events, which this little scene could be seen as the tragic peak of, had unfolded in the life and family of William Gerhardt, a glassblower by trade. After facing the setbacks so typical of the lower classes, this man was forced to rely on whatever stroke of luck each new day would bring to provide for his wife, his six children, and himself. He was sick in bed. His oldest son, Sebastian, or “Bass” as his friends called him, worked as an apprentice for a local freight car builder, earning just four dollars a week. Genevieve, the oldest daughter, was over eighteen but had not yet been trained for any specific job. The other children—George, who was fourteen; Martha, twelve; William, ten; and Veronica, eight—were too young to contribute and only made the struggle for survival more complicated. Their one main support was their home, which the father owned, except for a six-hundred-dollar mortgage. He had borrowed this money when he had saved enough to buy the house and wanted to add three rooms and a porch to make it spacious enough for them. A few years were still left on the mortgage, but times had been so tough that he had been forced to use all his savings to pay off the principal, along with the annual interest. Gerhardt felt helpless, and the awareness of his precarious situation—the medical bills, the mortgage interest due, plus the money owed to the butcher and baker, who had trusted him until they could trust no longer—all these worries weighed on his mind and stressed him so much that it delayed his recovery.

Mrs. Gerhardt was no weakling. For a time she took in washing, what little she could get, devoting the intermediate hours to dressing the children, cooking, seeing that they got off to school, mending their clothes, waiting on her husband, and occasionally weeping. Not infrequently she went personally to some new grocer, each time farther and farther away, and, starting an account with a little cash, would receive credit until other grocers warned the philanthropist of his folly. Corn was cheap. Sometimes she would make a kettle of lye hominy, and this would last, with scarcely anything else, for an entire week. Corn-meal also, when made into mush, was better than nothing, and this, with a little milk, made almost a feast. Potatoes fried was the nearest they ever came to luxurious food, and coffee was an infrequent treat. Coal was got by picking it up in buckets and baskets along the maze of tracks in the near-by railroad yard. Wood, by similar journeys to surrounding lumber-yards. Thus they lived from day to day, each hour hoping that the father would get well and that the glass-works would soon start up. But as the winter approached Gerhardt began to feel desperate.

Mrs. Gerhardt was no pushover. For a while, she took in laundry, whatever little she could find, using the time in between to dress the kids, cook, make sure they got to school, repair their clothes, take care of her husband, and sometimes cry. She often went personally to new grocery stores, each time farther and farther away, starting an account with a bit of cash to get credit until other grocers warned the well-meaning owner he was making a mistake. Corn was cheap. Sometimes she made a pot of lye hominy, which would last with hardly anything else for an entire week. Cornmeal, when made into mush, was better than nothing, and this, with a little milk, felt like a feast. Fried potatoes were the closest they ever got to fancy food, and coffee was a rare treat. They collected coal by picking it up in buckets and baskets along the maze of tracks in the nearby railroad yard. Wood was gathered through similar trips to nearby lumber yards. So they lived day by day, hoping each hour that the father would recover and that the glassworks would soon start up again. But as winter approached, Gerhardt began to feel desperate.

“I must get out of this now pretty soon,” was the sturdy German’s regular comment, and his anxiety found but weak expression in the modest quality of his voice.

“I need to get out of this pretty soon,” was the solid German’s usual comment, and his anxiety was only faintly reflected in the soft tone of his voice.

To add to all this trouble little Veronica took the measles, and, for a few days, it was thought that she would die. The mother neglected everything else to hover over her and pray for the best. Doctor Ellwanger came every day, out of purely human sympathy, and gravely examined the child. The Lutheran minister, Pastor Wundt, called to offer the consolation of the Church. Both of these men brought an atmosphere of grim ecclesiasticism into the house. They were the black-garbed, sanctimonious emissaries of superior forces. Mrs. Gerhardt felt as if she were going to lose her child, and watched sorrowfully by the cot-side. After three days the worst was over, but there was no bread in the house. Sebastian’s wages had been spent for medicine. Only coal was free for the picking, and several times the children had been scared from the railroad yards. Mrs. Gerhardt thought of all the places to which she might apply, and despairingly hit upon the hotel. Now, by a miracle, she had her chance.

To add to all this trouble, little Veronica caught the measles, and for a few days, it seemed like she might not make it. Her mother ignored everything else to stay by her side and pray for the best. Doctor Ellwanger came every day out of pure human compassion and seriously examined the child. The Lutheran minister, Pastor Wundt, visited to offer the church's consolation. Both men brought a sense of grim seriousness into the house. They were like somber, self-righteous representatives of greater forces. Mrs. Gerhardt felt like she might lose her child and sat by the crib with a heavy heart. After three days, the worst was over, but there was no bread in the house. Sebastian’s wages had gone to medicine. The only thing free to gather was coal, and a few times the kids had been scared away from the railroad yards. Mrs. Gerhardt thought about all the places she could ask for help and, in desperation, considered the hotel. Now, by some miracle, she had her chance.

“How much do you charge?” the housekeeper asked her.

“How much do you charge?” the housekeeper asked her.

Mrs. Gerhardt had not thought this would be left to her, but need emboldened her.

Mrs. Gerhardt hadn't expected this to be her responsibility, but necessity gave her the courage.

“Would a dollar a day be too much?”

“Is a dollar a day too much?”

“No,” said the housekeeper; “there is only about three days’ work to do every week. If you would come every afternoon you could do it.”

“No,” said the housekeeper; “there’s only about three days' worth of work to do each week. If you came every afternoon, you could finish it.”

“Very well,” said the applicant. “Shall we start to-day?”

“Alright,” said the applicant. “Should we start today?”

“Yes; if you’ll come with me now I’ll show you where the cleaning things are.”

“Yes; if you come with me now, I’ll show you where the cleaning supplies are.”

The hotel, into which they were thus summarily introduced, was a rather remarkable specimen for the time and place. Columbus, being the State capital, and having a population of fifty thousand and a fair passenger traffic, was a good field for the hotel business, and the opportunity had been improved; so at least the Columbus people proudly thought. The structure, five stories in height, and of imposing proportions, stood at one corner of the central public square, where were the Capitol building and principal stores. The lobby was large and had been recently redecorated. Both floor and wainscot were of white marble, kept shiny by frequent polishing. There was an imposing staircase with hand-rails of walnut and toe-strips of brass. An inviting corner was devoted to a news and cigar-stand. Where the staircase curved upward the clerk’s desk and offices had been located, all done in hardwood and ornamented by novel gas-fixtures. One could see through a door at one end of the lobby to the barbershop, with its chairs and array of shaving-mugs. Outside were usually two or three buses, arriving or departing, in accordance with the movement of the trains.

The hotel they were quickly brought into was a pretty impressive place for its time and location. Columbus, being the state capital with a population of fifty thousand and decent passenger traffic, was a solid spot for the hotel business, and that’s how the locals saw it. The five-story building, with its grand design, stood at one corner of the central public square, right by the Capitol building and main shops. The lobby was spacious and had just been redone. Both the floor and wainscoting were made of white marble, kept glossy from frequent polishing. There was a grand staircase with walnut handrails and brass toe strips. A cozy corner was set aside for a news and cigar stand. At the top of the staircase was the clerk’s desk and offices, all made of hardwood and decorated with stylish gas fixtures. Through a door at one end of the lobby, you could see the barbershop with its chairs and collection of shaving mugs. Outside, there were usually two or three buses coming and going, in sync with the train schedules.

To this caravanserai came the best of the political and social patronage of the State. Several Governors had made it their permanent abiding place during their terms of office. The two United States Senators, whenever business called them to Columbus, invariably maintained parlor chambers at the hotel. One of them, Senator Brander, was looked upon by the proprietor as more or less of a permanent guest, because he was not only a resident of the city, but an otherwise homeless bachelor. Other and more transient guests included Congressmen, State legislators and lobbyists, merchants, professional men, and, after them, the whole raft of indescribables who, coming and going, make up the glow and stir of this kaleidoscopic world.

To this inn came the finest political and social support from the State. Several Governors made it their home base during their time in office. The two United States Senators, whenever business took them to Columbus, always booked parlor rooms at the hotel. One of them, Senator Brander, was seen by the owner as something of a permanent guest because he was not only a city resident but also a bachelor without a home. Other, more temporary guests included Congress members, State lawmakers and lobbyists, merchants, professionals, and, after them, a whole range of unclassifiable visitors who, constantly coming and going, contribute to the energy and excitement of this ever-changing world.

Mother and daughter, suddenly flung into this realm of superior brightness, felt immeasurably overawed. They went about too timid to touch anything for fear of giving offense. The great red-carpeted hallway, which they were set to sweep, had for them all the magnificence of a palace; they kept their eyes down and spoke in their lowest tones. When it came to scrubbing the steps and polishing the brass-work of the splendid stairs both needed to steel themselves, the mother against her timidity, the daughter against the shame at so public an exposure. Wide beneath lay the imposing lobby, and men, lounging, smoking, passing constantly in and out, could see them both.

Mother and daughter, suddenly thrown into this bright new world, felt incredibly awed. They moved around too shy to touch anything, worried they might offend. The grand red-carpeted hallway they were there to clean felt as magnificent as a palace to them; they kept their heads down and spoke in whispers. When it came time to scrub the steps and polish the brass of the beautiful staircase, both had to brace themselves—the mother against her shyness, the daughter against the embarrassment of so much public attention. Below them was the impressive lobby, and men lounging around, smoking, and continuously coming in and out could see them both.

“Isn’t it fine?” whispered Genevieve, and started nervously at the sound of her own voice.

“Isn’t it great?” whispered Genevieve, and jumped nervously at the sound of her own voice.

“Yes,” returned her mother, who, upon her knees, was wringing out her cloth with earnest but clumsy hands.

“Yes,” her mother replied, kneeling as she wrung out her cloth with serious but awkward hands.

“It must cost a good deal to live here, don’t you think?”

"It must be pretty expensive to live here, don’t you think?"

“Yes,” said her mother. “Don’t forget to rub into these little corners. Look here what you’ve left.”

“Yes,” her mother said. “Don’t forget to get into these little corners. Look at what you’ve missed.”

Jennie, mortified by this correction, fell earnestly to her task, and polished vigorously, without again daring to lift her eyes.

Jennie, embarrassed by this correction, focused intently on her task and polished vigorously, not daring to look up again.

With painstaking diligence they worked downward until about five o’clock; it was dark outside, and all the lobby was brightly lighted. Now they were very near the bottom of the stairway.

With careful effort, they worked their way down until around five o’clock; it was dark outside, and the lobby was brightly lit. Now they were very close to the bottom of the stairway.

Through the big swinging doors there entered from the chilly world without a tall, distinguished, middle-aged gentleman, whose silk hat and loose military cape-coat marked him at once, among the crowd of general idlers, as some one of importance. His face was of a dark and solemn cast, but broad and sympathetic in its lines, and his bright eyes were heavily shaded with thick, bushy, black eyebrows. Passing to the desk he picked up the key that had already been laid out for him, and coming to the staircase, started up.

Through the big swinging doors, a tall, distinguished middle-aged man stepped in from the cold outside. His silk hat and loose military cape-coat immediately set him apart from the crowd of idle onlookers, marking him as someone important. His face was dark and serious, but broad and kind in its features, and his bright eyes were deeply set under thick, bushy black eyebrows. He walked over to the desk, picked up the key that had already been set out for him, and headed up the staircase.

The middle-aged woman, scrubbing at his feet, he acknowledged not only by walking around her, but by graciously waving his hand, as much as to say, “Don’t move for me.”

The middle-aged woman, scrubbing at his feet, he acknowledged not just by walking around her but by gracefully waving his hand, as if to say, “Don’t move for me.”

The daughter, however, caught his eye by standing up, her troubled glance showing that she feared she was in his way.

The daughter, however, got his attention by standing up, her worried look revealing that she was afraid she was blocking his way.

He bowed and smiled pleasantly.

He bowed and smiled warmly.

“You shouldn’t have troubled yourself,” he said.

"You didn't have to go through all that trouble," he said.

Jennie only smiled.

Jennie just smiled.

When he had reached the upper landing an impulsive sidewise glance assured him, more clearly than before, of her uncommonly prepossessing appearance. He noted the high, white forehead, with its smoothly parted and plaited hair. The eyes he saw were blue and the complexion fair. He had even time to admire the mouth and the full cheeks—above all, the well-rounded, graceful form, full of youth, health, and that hopeful expectancy which to the middle-aged is so suggestive of all that is worth begging of Providence. Without another look he went dignifiedly upon his way, but the impression of her charming personality went with him. This was the Hon. George Sylvester Brander, junior Senator.

When he reached the upper landing, a quick glance to the side confirmed even more clearly her striking appearance. He noticed her high, fair forehead with hair that was smoothly parted and styled. Her eyes were blue and her complexion light. He even had time to appreciate her lips and full cheeks—most of all, her well-rounded, graceful figure, full of youth, health, and that hopeful energy that makes middle-aged people yearn for what is truly meaningful from life. Without a second glance, he confidently continued on his way, but the impression of her charming personality stayed with him. This was the Hon. George Sylvester Brander, junior Senator.

“Wasn’t that a fine-looking man who went up just now?” observed Jennie a few moments later.

“Wasn’t that a good-looking guy who just went up?” Jennie remarked a few moments later.

“Yes, he was,” said her mother.

“Yes, he was,” her mother said.

“He had a gold-headed cane.”

“He had a gold cane.”

“You mustn’t stare at people when they pass,” cautioned her mother, wisely. “It isn’t nice.”

“You shouldn’t stare at people when they walk by,” her mother advised wisely. “It’s not polite.”

“I didn’t stare at him,” returned Jennie, innocently. “He bowed to me.”

“I didn’t stare at him,” Jennie replied, looking innocent. “He bowed to me.”

“Well, don’t you pay any attention to anybody,” said her mother. “They may not like it.”

“Well, don’t pay attention to anyone,” her mother said. “They might not like it.”

Jennie fell to her task in silence, but the glamor of the great world was having its effect upon her senses. She could not help giving ear to the sounds, the brightness, the buzz of conversation and laughter surrounding her. In one section of the parlor floor was the dining-room, and from the clink of dishes one could tell that supper was being prepared. In another was the parlor proper, and there some one came to play on the piano. That feeling of rest and relaxation which comes before the evening meal pervaded the place. It touched the heart of the innocent working-girl with hope, for hers were the years, and poverty could not as yet fill her young mind with cares. She rubbed diligently always, and sometimes forgot the troubled mother at her side, whose kindly eyes were becoming invested with crows’ feet, and whose lips half repeated the hundred cares of the day. She could only think that all of this was very fascinating, and wish that a portion of it might come to her.

Jennie immersed herself in her task quietly, but the allure of the outside world was impacting her senses. She couldn’t help but listen to the sounds, the brightness, the buzz of conversation and laughter around her. In one area of the parlor floor was the dining room, and from the clinking of dishes, it was clear that supper was being prepared. In another area was the main parlor, where someone started playing the piano. The feeling of rest and relaxation that comes before dinner filled the room. It filled the heart of the innocent working girl with hope, as she was still young and poverty hadn’t yet burdened her mind with worries. She worked diligently, often forgetting about her troubled mother beside her, whose kind eyes were starting to show crow’s feet and whose lips seemed to echo the day’s hundred worries. All Jennie could think was that everything around her was fascinating, and she wished a piece of it could be hers.

At half-past five the housekeeper, remembering them, came and told them that they might go. The fully finished stairway was relinquished by both with a sigh of relief, and, after putting their implements away, they hastened homeward, the mother, at least, pleased to think that at last she had something to do.

At 5:30, the housekeeper remembered them and came to say they could leave. Both of them let out a sigh of relief as they left the completed stairway behind. After putting their tools away, they hurried home, the mother at least happy to finally have something to do.

As they passed several fine houses Jennie was again touched by that half-defined emotion which the unwonted novelty of the hotel life had engendered in her consciousness.

As they walked by several nice houses, Jennie felt that familiar, vague emotion that the unusual experience of hotel life had stirred up in her mind.

“Isn’t it fine to be rich?” she said.

“Isn’t it great to be wealthy?” she said.

“Yes,” answered her mother, who was thinking of the suffering Veronica.

“Yes,” replied her mother, who was thinking about Veronica's suffering.

“Did you see what a big dining-room they had there?”

“Did you see how big their dining room was?”

“Yes.”

“Yep.”

They went on past the low cottages and among the dead leaves of the year.

They walked past the small cottages and through the fallen leaves from the year.

“I wish we were rich,” murmured Jennie, half to herself.

"I wish we were rich," Jennie said quietly, almost to herself.

“I don’t know just what to do,” confided her mother with a long-drawn sigh. “I don’t believe there’s a thing to eat in the house.”

“I don’t know what to do,” her mother said with a long sigh. “I don’t think there’s anything to eat in the house.”

“Let’s stop and see Mr. Bauman again,” exclaimed Jennie, her natural sympathies restored by the hopeless note in her mother’s voice.

“Let’s stop and see Mr. Bauman again,” Jennie said, her natural sympathies awakened by the despair in her mother’s voice.

“Do you think he would trust us any more?”

“Do you think he would trust us any longer?”

“Let’s tell him where we’re working. I will.”

“Let’s tell him where we’re working. I will.”

“Well,” said her mother, wearily.

“Well,” her mother said wearily.

Into the small, dimly lighted grocery store, which was two blocks from their house, they ventured nervously. Mrs. Gerhardt was about to begin, but Jennie spoke first.

Into the small, dimly lit grocery store, just two blocks from their house, they walked in nervously. Mrs. Gerhardt was about to start, but Jennie spoke first.

“Will you let us have some bread to-night, and a little bacon? We’re working now at the Columbus House, and we’ll be sure to pay you Saturday.”

“Will you give us some bread tonight and a bit of bacon? We're working at the Columbus House now, and we'll definitely pay you on Saturday.”

“Yes,” added Mrs. Gerhardt, “I have something to do.”

“Yes,” added Mrs. Gerhardt, “I have something to take care of.”

Bauman, who had long supplied them before illness and trouble began, knew that they told the truth.

Bauman, who had provided for them for a long time before illness and problems started, knew they were speaking the truth.

“How long have you been working there?” he asked.

“How long have you been working there?” he asked.

“Just this afternoon.”

“Just this afternoon.”

“You know, Mrs. Gerhardt,” he said, “how it is with me. I don’t want to refuse you. Mr. Gerhardt is good for it, but I am poor, too. Times are hard,” he explained further, “I have my family to keep.”

“You know, Mrs. Gerhardt,” he said, “how it is for me. I don’t want to turn you down. Mr. Gerhardt can manage it, but I’m struggling, too. These are tough times,” he added, “I have my family to support.”

“Yes, I know,” said Mrs. Gerhardt, weakly.

"Yeah, I know," Mrs. Gerhardt said faintly.

Her old shoddy shawl hid her rough hands, red from the day’s work, but they were working nervously. Jennie stood by in strained silence.

Her old, worn shawl covered her rough hands, red from the day's work, but they were fidgeting anxiously. Jennie stood by in tense silence.

“Well,” concluded Mr. Bauman, “I guess it’s all right this time. Do what you can for me Saturday.”

"Well," Mr. Bauman concluded, "I suppose it’s fine this time. Do what you can for me on Saturday."

He wrapped up the bread and bacon, and, handing Jennie the parcel, he added, with a touch of cynicism:

He wrapped up the bread and bacon and handed the package to Jennie, adding with a hint of sarcasm:

“When you get money again I guess you’ll go and trade somewhere else.”

“When you get money again, I guess you’ll go trade somewhere else.”

“No,” returned Mrs. Gerhardt; “you know better than that.” But she was too nervous to parley long.

“No,” Mrs. Gerhardt replied; “you know that’s not true.” But she was too anxious to discuss it for long.

They went out into the shadowy street, and on past the low cottages to their own home.

They walked out into the dark street and past the small houses to their own home.

“I wonder,” said the mother, wearily, when they neared the door, “if they’ve got any coal?”

“I wonder,” said the mother, tiredly, as they approached the door, “if they have any coal?”

“Don’t worry,” said Jennie. “If they haven’t I’ll go.”

“Don't worry,” Jennie said. “If they haven't, I'll go.”

“A man run us away,” was almost the first greeting that the perturbed George offered when the mother made her inquiry about the coal. “I got a little, though.” he added. “I threw it off a car.”

“A man scared us off,” was almost the first greeting that the bothered George offered when the mother asked about the coal. “I got a little, though,” he added. “I threw it off a car.”

Mrs. Gerhardt only smiled, but Jennie laughed.

Mrs. Gerhardt just smiled, but Jennie laughed.

“How is Veronica?” she inquired.

"How's Veronica?" she asked.

“She seems to be sleeping,” said the father. “I gave her medicine again at five.”

“She looks like she’s sleeping,” said the father. “I gave her some medicine again at five.”

While the scanty meal was being prepared the mother went to the sick child’s bedside, taking up another long night’s vigil quite as a matter of course.

While the meager meal was being prepared, the mother went to the sick child's bedside, settling in for another long night of keeping watch like it was just part of her routine.

While the supper was being eaten Sebastian offered a suggestion, and his larger experience in social and commercial matters made his proposition worth considering. Though only a car-builder’s apprentice, without any education except such as pertained to Lutheran doctrine, to which he objected very strongly, he was imbued with American color and energy. His transformed name of Bass suited him exactly. Tall, athletic, and well-featured for his age, he was a typical stripling of the town. Already he had formulated a philosophy of life. To succeed one must do something—one must associate, or at least seem to associate, with those who were foremost in the world of appearances.

While they were having dinner, Sebastian made a suggestion, and his broader experience in social and business matters made his idea worth considering. Even though he was just an apprentice car-builder with no education beyond what he learned about Lutheran doctrine—which he strongly disagreed with—he was full of American spirit and energy. His new name, Bass, suited him perfectly. Tall, athletic, and good-looking for his age, he was a typical young man from the town. He had already come up with a philosophy of life: to succeed, you have to take action—either associating or at least appearing to associate with those who stand out in the world.

For this reason the young boy loved to hang about the Columbus House. It seemed to him that this hotel was the center and circumference of all that was worth while in the social sense. He would go down-town evenings, when he first secured money enough to buy a decent suit of clothes, and stand around the hotel entrance with his friends, kicking his heels, smoking a two-for-five-cent cigar, preening himself on his stylish appearance, and looking after the girls. Others were there with him—town dandies and nobodies, young men who came there to get shaved or to drink a glass of whisky. And all of these he admired and sought to emulate. Clothes were the main touchstone. If men wore nice clothes and had rings and pins, whatever they did seemed appropriate. He wanted to be like them and to act like them, and so his experience of the more pointless forms of life rapidly broadened.

For this reason, the young boy loved hanging out at the Columbus House. He felt that this hotel was the center of everything social and worthwhile. Once he had enough money to buy a decent suit, he'd head downtown in the evenings and hang around the hotel entrance with his friends, kicking his heels, smoking a cheap cigar, showing off his stylish look, and checking out the girls. Others were there with him—local trendsetters and nobodies, young men who came to get a shave or grab a drink. He admired all of them and wanted to be just like them. Clothes were the key factor. If guys wore nice clothes and had rings and pins, whatever they did seemed fine. He aspired to be like them and to act like them, which quickly expanded his experience of the more trivial aspects of life.

“Why don’t you get some of those hotel fellows to give you their laundry?” he asked of Jennie after she had related the afternoon’s experiences. “It would be better than scrubbing the stairs.”

“Why don’t you get some of those hotel guys to do your laundry?” he asked Jennie after she shared what happened that afternoon. “It would be better than scrubbing the stairs.”

“How do you get it?” she replied.

“How do you get it?” she asked.

“Why, ask the clerk, of course.”

“Why, ask the clerk, of course.”

This plan struck Jennie as very much worth while.

This plan seemed really worthwhile to Jennie.

“Don’t you ever speak to me if you meet me around there,” he cautioned her a little later, privately. “Don’t you let on that you know me.”

“Don’t ever talk to me if you see me around there,” he warned her a little later, privately. “Don’t act like you know me.”

“Why?” she asked, innocently.

“Why?” she asked, naively.

“Well, you know why,” he answered, having indicated before that when they looked so poor he did not want to be disgraced by having to own them as relatives. “Just you go on by. Do you hear?”

“Well, you know why,” he replied, having mentioned earlier that when they looked so poor, he didn’t want to be embarrassed by having to acknowledge them as family. “Just keep walking. Do you understand?”

“All right,” she returned, meekly, for although this youth was not much over a year her senior, his superior will dominated.

“All right,” she replied quietly, because even though this guy was only a little over a year older than her, he had a stronger will.

The next day on their way to the hotel she spoke of it to her mother.

The next day, on their way to the hotel, she mentioned it to her mom.

“Bass said we might get some of the laundry of the men at the hotel to do.”

“Bass said we might be able to do some of the men's laundry from the hotel.”

Mrs. Gerhardt, whose mind had been straining all night at the problem of adding something to the three dollars which her six afternoons would bring her, approved of the idea.

Mrs. Gerhardt, who had been up all night trying to figure out how to add to the three dollars she’d make from her six afternoons of work, liked the idea.

“So we might,” she said. “I’ll ask that clerk.”

“So we might,” she said. “I'll check with that clerk.”

When they reached the hotel, however, no immediate opportunity presented itself. They worked on until late in the afternoon. Then, as fortune would have it, the housekeeper sent them in to scrub up the floor behind the clerk’s desk. That important individual felt very kindly toward mother and daughter. He liked the former’s sweetly troubled countenance and the latter’s pretty face. So he listened graciously when Mrs. Gerhardt ventured meekly to put the question which she had been revolving in her mind all the afternoon.

When they got to the hotel, though, there wasn’t an opportunity right away. They kept working until late in the afternoon. Then, as luck would have it, the housekeeper asked them to clean the floor behind the clerk’s desk. That important person had a good impression of the mother and daughter. He appreciated the mother’s sweetly troubled expression and the daughter’s pretty face. So, he listened kindly when Mrs. Gerhardt hesitantly asked the question she had been thinking about all afternoon.

“Is there any gentleman here,” she said, “who would give me his washing to do? I’d be so very much obliged for it.”

“Is there any gentleman here,” she said, “who would let me do their laundry? I’d really appreciate it.”

The clerk looked at her, and again recognized that absolute want was written all over her anxious face.

The clerk looked at her and once again saw that deep desire was clear on her worried face.

“Let’s see,” he answered, thinking of Senator Brander and Marshall Hopkins. Both were charitable men, who would be more than glad to aid a poor woman. “You go up and see Senator Brander,” he continued. “He’s in twenty-two. Here,” he added, writing out the number, “you go up and tell him I sent you.”

“Let’s see,” he replied, thinking about Senator Brander and Marshall Hopkins. Both were kind men who would be more than happy to help a struggling woman. “You should go see Senator Brander,” he continued. “He’s in twenty-two. Here,” he said, jotting down the number, “take this and tell him I sent you.”

Mrs. Gerhardt took the card with a tremor of gratefulness. Her eyes looked the words she could not say.

Mrs. Gerhardt took the card with a trembling sense of gratitude. Her eyes conveyed the words she couldn't speak.

“That’s all right,” said the clerk, observing her emotion. “You go right up. You’ll find him in his room now.”

"That's okay," said the clerk, noticing her feelings. "Go right ahead. You'll find him in his room now."

With the greatest diffidence Mrs. Gerhardt knocked at number twenty-two. Jennie stood silently at her side.

With great hesitance, Mrs. Gerhardt knocked on number twenty-two. Jennie stood quietly beside her.

After a moment the door was opened, and in the full radiance of the bright room stood the Senator. Attired in a handsome smoking-coat, he looked younger than at their first meeting.

After a moment, the door opened, and in the full light of the bright room stood the Senator. Dressed in a stylish smoking jacket, he looked younger than he had at their first meeting.

“Well, madam,” he said, recognizing the couple, and particularly the daughter, “what can I do for you?”

“Well, ma'am,” he said, recognizing the couple, especially the daughter, “what can I do for you?”

Very much abashed, the mother hesitated in her reply.

Very embarrassed, the mother hesitated in her response.

“We would like to know if you have any washing you could let us have to do?”

“We would like to know if you have any laundry you could give us to do?”

“Washing?” he repeated after her, in a voice which had a peculiarly resonant quality. “Washing? Come right in. Let me see.”

“Washing?” he echoed after her, his voice having a uniquely resonant tone. “Washing? Come on in. Let me take a look.”

He stepped aside with much grace, waved them in and closed the door. “Let me see,” he repeated, opening and closing drawer after drawer of the massive black-walnut bureau. Jennie studied the room with interest. Such an array of nicknacks and pretty things on mantel and dressing-case she had never seen before. The Senator’s easy-chair, with a green-shaded lamp beside it, the rich heavy carpet and the fine rugs upon the floor—what comfort, what luxury!

He stepped aside gracefully, waved them in, and shut the door. “Let me see,” he said again, opening and closing drawer after drawer of the huge black-walnut bureau. Jennie looked around the room with interest. She had never seen such a collection of knickknacks and beautiful things on the mantel and dresser before. The Senator’s comfy chair, with a green-shaded lamp next to it, the thick carpet, and the fine rugs on the floor—what comfort, what luxury!

“Sit down; take those two chairs there,” said the Senator, graciously, disappearing into a closet.

“Sit down; take those two chairs over there,” said the Senator, kindly, before stepping into a closet.

Still overawed, mother and daughter thought it more polite to decline, but now the Senator had completed his researches and he reiterated his invitation. Very uncomfortably they yielded and took chairs.

Still feeling overwhelmed, mother and daughter thought it would be more polite to decline, but now the Senator had finished his research and repeated his invitation. Uncomfortably, they gave in and sat down.

“Is this your daughter?” he continued, with a smile at Jennie.

“Is this your daughter?” he asked, smiling at Jennie.

“Yes, sir,” said the mother; “she’s my oldest girl.”

“Yes, sir,” said the mother; “she’s my oldest daughter.”

“Is your husband alive?”

"Is your husband still alive?"

“What is his name?”

“What’s his name?”

“Where does he live?”

“Where does he live now?”

To all of these questions Mrs. Gerhardt very humbly answered.

To all of these questions, Mrs. Gerhardt answered very humbly.

“How many children have you?” he went on.

“How many kids do you have?” he continued.

“Six,” said Mrs. Gerhardt.

“Six,” Mrs. Gerhardt said.

“Well,” he returned, “that’s quite a family. You’ve certainly done your duty to the nation.”

"Well," he replied, "that's quite a family. You've definitely fulfilled your duty to the country."

“Yes, sir,” returned Mrs. Gerhardt, who was touched by his genial and interesting manner.

“Yes, sir,” replied Mrs. Gerhardt, who was moved by his friendly and engaging demeanor.

“And you say this is your oldest daughter?”

“And you say this is your oldest daughter?”

“Yes, sir.”

"Sure, sir."

“What does your husband do?”

“What does your husband do for a living?”

“He’s a glass-blower. But he’s sick now.”

"He's a glassblower. But he's unwell right now."

During the colloquy Jennie’s large blue eyes were wide with interest. Whenever he looked at her she turned upon him such a frank, unsophisticated gaze, and smiled in such a vague, sweet way, that he could not keep his eyes off of her for more than a minute of the time.

During the conversation, Jennie’s big blue eyes were filled with interest. Whenever he looked at her, she gave him such a sincere, unpretentious look and smiled in such a gentle, sweet way that he couldn't take his eyes off her for more than a minute.

“Well,” he continued, sympathetically, “that is too bad! I have some washing here not very much but you are welcome to it. Next week there may be more.”

“Well,” he said kindly, “that's too bad! I have some laundry here—it's not a lot, but you're welcome to it. I might have more next week.”

He went about now, stuffing articles of apparel into a blue cotton bag with a pretty design on the side.

He was now going around, cramming clothes into a blue cotton bag with a nice design on the side.

“Do you want these any certain day?” questioned Mrs. Gerhardt.

“Do you want these on a specific day?” asked Mrs. Gerhardt.

“No,” he said, reflectively; “any day next week will do.”

“No,” he said, thoughtfully; “any day next week works.”

She thanked him with a simple phrase, and started to go.

She thanked him with a quick phrase and began to leave.

“Let me see,” he said, stepping ahead of them and opening the door, “you may bring them back Monday.”

“Let me see,” he said, stepping in front of them and opening the door, “you can bring them back on Monday.”

“Yes, sir,” said Mrs. Gerhardt. “Thank you.”

“Yes, sir,” Mrs. Gerhardt replied. “Thank you.”

They went out and the Senator returned to his reading, but it was with a peculiarly disturbed mind.

They left, and the Senator went back to his reading, but he did so with a distinctly troubled mind.

“Too bad,” he said, closing his volume. “There’s something very pathetic about those people.” Jennie’s spirit of wonder and appreciation was abroad in the room.

“Too bad,” he said, closing his book. “There’s something really sad about those people.” Jennie’s sense of wonder and appreciation filled the room.

Mrs. Gerhardt and Jennie made their way anew through the shadowy streets. They felt immeasurably encouraged by this fortunate venture.

Mrs. Gerhardt and Jennie made their way again through the dark streets. They felt incredibly encouraged by this lucky turn of events.

“Didn’t he have a fine room?” whispered Jennie.

“Didn’t he have a nice room?” whispered Jennie.

“Yes,” answered the mother; “he’s a great man.”

“Yes,” replied the mother; “he’s an amazing man.”

“He’s a senator, isn’t he?” continued the daughter.

“He's a senator, right?” the daughter continued.

“Yes.”

"Yeah."

“It must be nice to be famous,” said the girl, softly.

“It must be nice to be famous,” the girl said softly.

CHAPTER II

The spirit of Jennie—who shall express it? This daughter of poverty, who was now to fetch and carry the laundry of this distinguished citizen of Columbus, was a creature of a mellowness of temperament which words can but vaguely suggest. There are natures born to the inheritance of flesh that come without understanding, and that go again without seeming to have wondered why. Life, so long as they endure it, is a true wonderland, a thing of infinite beauty, which could they but wander into it wonderingly, would be heaven enough. Opening their eyes, they see a conformable and perfect world. Trees, flowers, the world of sound and the world of color. These are the valued inheritance of their state. If no one said to them “Mine,” they would wander radiantly forth, singing the song which all the earth may some day hope to hear. It is the song of goodness.

The spirit of Jennie—who can capture it? This daughter of poverty, now tasked with delivering laundry for this prominent citizen of Columbus, had a warm and gentle personality that words can only vaguely convey. Some people come into this world without understanding and leave it without really knowing why. For as long as they live, life is a true wonderland, filled with endless beauty. If they could just explore it with a sense of wonder, that alone would feel like paradise. When they open their eyes, they see a harmonious and perfect world—trees, flowers, the sounds of nature, and the vibrancy of colors. These are the treasures inherited from their situation. If no one claimed ownership with "Mine," they would joyfully roam, singing the song that the entire earth might one day hope to hear. It’s the song of goodness.

Caged in the world of the material, however, such a nature is almost invariably an anomaly. That other world of flesh into which has been woven pride and greed looks askance at the idealist, the dreamer. If one says it is sweet to look at the clouds, the answer is a warning against idleness. If one seeks to give ear to the winds, it shall be well with his soul, but they will seize upon his possessions. If all the world of the so-called inanimate delay one, calling with tenderness in sounds that seem to be too perfect to be less than understanding, it shall be ill with the body. The hands of the actual are forever reaching toward such as these—forever seizing greedily upon them. It is of such that the bond servants are made.

Caged in the material world, such a nature is almost always seen as an anomaly. That other world of flesh, where pride and greed are intertwined, looks down on the idealist, the dreamer. If someone says it’s nice to watch the clouds, the response is typically a warning against laziness. If someone tries to listen to the winds, it might nourish their soul, but they will take away their possessions. If all the so-called inanimate things call out gently with sounds that seem too perfect to be anything less than understanding, it will not bode well for the body. The hands of reality are always reaching out for these things—always grabbing at them greedily. It is from this that the bond servants are created.

In the world of the actual, Jennie was such a spirit. From her earliest youth goodness and mercy had molded her every impulse. Did Sebastian fall and injure himself, it was she who struggled with straining anxiety, carried him safely to his mother. Did George complain that he was hungry, she gave him all of her bread. Many were the hours in which she had rocked her younger brothers and sisters to sleep, singing whole-heartedly betimes and dreaming far dreams. Since her earliest walking period she had been as the right hand of her mother. What scrubbing, baking, errand-running, and nursing there had been to do she did. No one had ever heard her rudely complain, though she often thought of the hardness of her lot. She knew that there were other girls whose lives were infinitely freer and fuller, but, it never occurred to her to be meanly envious; her heart might be lonely, but her lips continued to sing. When the days were fair she looked out of her kitchen window and longed to go where the meadows were. Nature’s fine curves and shadows touched her as a song itself. There were times when she had gone with George and the others, leading them away to where a patch of hickory-trees flourished, because there were open fields, with shade for comfort and a brook of living water. No artist in the formulating of conceptions, her soul still responded to these things, and every sound and every sigh were welcome to her because of their beauty.

In the real world, Jennie was just that kind of person. From her earliest days, kindness and compassion shaped her every action. When Sebastian fell and hurt himself, it was her who anxiously rushed to help him and took him back to his mom. If George said he was hungry, she would share all her bread with him. She spent countless hours rocking her younger siblings to sleep, singing cheerfully and dreaming big dreams. From the time she learned to walk, she was her mother’s right hand. She took care of all the scrubbing, baking, running errands, and nursing that needed to be done. No one had ever heard her complain, even though she often thought about how tough her life was. She was aware that other girls lived lives that were much freer and fuller, but she never felt bitterly jealous; her heart might have been lonely, but she kept singing. On nice days, she would look out of her kitchen window and wish to go where the meadows were. The beautiful curves and shadows of nature moved her like a song. There were times she went with George and the others to a patch of hickory trees, where there were open fields, shady spots for comfort, and a living stream. Even though she wasn’t an artist in creating ideas, her soul still connected with these things, and every sound and every sigh brought her joy because of their beauty.

When the soft, low call or the wood-doves, those spirits of the summer, came out of the distance, she would incline her head and listen, the whole spiritual quality of it dropping like silver bubbles into her own great heart.

When the soft, low call of the wood doves, those spirits of summer, came from afar, she would lean her head and listen, feeling the whole spiritual essence drop like silver bubbles into her own big heart.

Where the sunlight was warm and the shadows flecked with its splendid radiance she delighted to wonder at the pattern of it, to walk where it was most golden, and follow with instinctive appreciation the holy corridors of the trees.

Where the sunlight was warm and the shadows sprinkled with its beautiful glow, she loved to marvel at the pattern of it, to walk where it was brightest, and naturally appreciate the sacred paths created by the trees.

Color was not lost upon her. That wonderful radiance which fills the western sky at evening touched and unburdened her heart.

Color was not lost on her. That beautiful glow that lights up the western sky at sunset warmed and lightened her heart.

“I wonder,” she said once with girlish simplicity, “how it would feel to float away off there among those clouds.”

“I wonder,” she said once with youthful simplicity, “what it would be like to float away up there among those clouds.”

She had discovered a natural swing of a wild grape-vine, and was sitting in it with Martha and George.

She had found a natural swing made from a wild grapevine and was sitting in it with Martha and George.

“Oh, wouldn’t it be nice if you had a boat up there,” said George.

“Oh, wouldn’t it be nice if you had a boat up there,” George said.

She was looking with uplifted face at a far-off cloud, a red island in a sea of silver.

She was gazing up at a distant cloud, a red island in a sea of silver.

“Just supposing,” she said, “people could live on an island like that.”

“Just imagine,” she said, “if people could live on an island like that.”

Her soul was already up there, and its elysian paths knew the lightness of her feet.

Her soul was already up there, and its heavenly paths felt the lightness of her feet.

“There goes a bee,” said George, noting a bumbler winging by.

“There goes a bee,” George said, pointing out a bumbler flying by.

“Yes,” she said, dreamily, “it’s going home.”

“Yes,” she said, lost in thought, “it’s going home.”

“Does everything have a home?” asked Martha.

“Does everything have a home?” Martha asked.

“Nearly everything,” she answered.

“Almost everything,” she answered.

“Do the birds go home?” questioned George.

“Do the birds go home?” George asked.

“Yes,” she said, deeply feeling the poetry of it herself, “the birds go home.”

“Yes,” she said, feeling the beauty of it herself, “the birds go home.”

“Do the bees go home?” urged Martha.

“Do the bees go home?” Martha urged.

“Yes, the bees go home.”

“Yes, the bees return home.”

“Do the dogs go home?” said George, who saw one traveling lonesomely along the nearby road.

“Are the dogs heading home?” asked George, who saw one walking alone along the nearby road.

“Why, of course,” she said, “you know that dogs go home.”

“Of course,” she said, “you know that dogs go home.”

“Do the gnats?” he persisted, seeing one of those curious spirals of minute insects turning energetically in the waning light.

“Do the gnats?” he pressed, watching one of those strange swirls of tiny insects moving around energetically in the fading light.

“Yes,” she said, half believing her remark. “Listen!”

“Yes,” she said, half convinced by her own words. “Listen!”

“Oho,” exclaimed George, incredulously, “I wonder what kind of houses they live in.”

“Oho,” George exclaimed, incredulously, “I wonder what kind of houses they live in.”

“Listen!” she gently persisted, putting out her hand to still him.

"Listen!" she softly urged, reaching out her hand to calm him.

It was that halcyon hour when the Angelus falls like a benediction upon the waning day. Far off the notes were sounding gently, and nature, now that she listened, seemed to have paused also. A scarlet-breasted robin was hopping in short spaces upon the grass before her. A humming bee hummed, a cow-bell tinkled, while some suspicious cracklings told of a secretly reconnoitering squirrel. Keeping her pretty hand weighed in the air, she listened until the long, soft notes spread and faded and her heart could hold no more. Then she arose.

It was that peaceful time when the Angelus rang like a blessing at the end of the day. In the distance, the sounds floated softly, and nature, now that it was paying attention, seemed to pause as well. A scarlet-breasted robin hopped in small jumps on the grass in front of her. A humming bee buzzed, a cowbell chimed, while some rustling noises hinted at a secretly spying squirrel. With her lovely hand raised in the air, she listened until the long, gentle notes spread out and faded, and her heart couldn't take in any more. Then she stood up.

“Oh,” she said, clenching her fingers in an agony of poetic feeling. There were crystal tears overflowing in her eyes. The wondrous sea of feeling in her had stormed its banks. Of such was the spirit of Jennie.

“Oh,” she said, clenching her fingers in a painful wave of emotion. Crystal tears filled her eyes. The overwhelming sea of feelings inside her had burst its banks. Such was the spirit of Jennie.

CHAPTER III

The junior Senator, George Sylvester Brander, was a man of peculiar mold. In him there were joined, to a remarkable degree, the wisdom of the opportunist and the sympathetic nature of the true representative of the people. Born a native of southern Ohio, he had been raised and educated there, if one might except the two years in which he had studied law at Columbia University. He knew common and criminal law, perhaps, as well as any citizen of his State, but he had never practised with that assiduity which makes for pre-eminent success at the bar. He had made money, and had had splendid opportunities to make a great deal more if he had been willing to stultify his conscience, but that he had never been able to do. And yet his integrity had not been at all times proof against the claims of friendship. Only in the last presidential election he had thrown his support to a man for Governor who, he well knew, had no claim which a strictly honorable conscience could have recognized.

The junior Senator, George Sylvester Brander, was a man of unique character. He embodied, to an impressive extent, the shrewdness of an opportunist and the compassionate nature of a true representative of the people. Born and raised in southern Ohio, he spent his formative years there, except for the two years he attended law school at Columbia University. He understood common and criminal law as well as anyone in his state, but he had never practiced with the dedication that leads to outstanding success in the legal field. He had earned money and had great opportunities to earn much more if he had been willing to compromise his morals, but he had never been able to do that. Still, his integrity hadn't always withstood the pressures of friendship. Just in the last presidential election, he had supported a candidate for Governor whom he knew had no basis for honorable recognition.

In the same way, he had been guilty of some very questionable, and one or two actually unsavory, appointments. Whenever his conscience pricked him too keenly he would endeavor to hearten himself with his pet phrase, “All in a lifetime.” Thinking over things quite alone in his easy-chair, he would sometimes rise up with these words on his lips, and smile sheepishly as he did so. Conscience was not by any means dead in him. His sympathies, if anything, were keener than ever.

In the same way, he had made some pretty questionable, and a couple of genuinely shady, appointments. Whenever his conscience bothered him too much, he would try to reassure himself with his favorite saying, “All in a lifetime.” Sitting quietly in his comfortable chair, he would sometimes get up with these words on his lips and smile awkwardly as he did so. His conscience was definitely not inactive. If anything, his feelings were sharper than ever.

This man, three times Congressman from the district of which Columbus was a part, and twice United States Senator, had never married. In his youth he had had a serious love affair, but there was nothing discreditable to him in the fact that it came to nothing. The lady found it inconvenient to wait for him. He was too long in earning a competence upon which they might subsist.

This man, who served as Congressman three times for the district that included Columbus and was twice a United States Senator, had never married. In his younger years, he had a serious relationship, but there was nothing shameful about it ending. The woman found it difficult to wait for him. He took too long to earn a stable income on which they could live.

Tall, straight-shouldered, neither lean nor stout, he was to-day an imposing figure. Having received his hard knocks and endured his losses, there was that about him which touched and awakened the sympathies of the imaginative. People thought him naturally agreeable, and his senatorial peers looked upon him as not any too heavy mentally, but personally a fine man.

Tall and broad-shouldered, neither skinny nor heavy, he was an impressive figure today. After facing tough challenges and personal losses, there was something about him that resonated and stirred the feelings of those with a vivid imagination. People found him naturally likable, and his fellow senators regarded him as not particularly deep-thinking, but a genuinely good person.

His presence in Columbus at this particular time was due to the fact that his political fences needed careful repairing. The general election had weakened his party in the State Legislature. There were enough votes to re-elect him, but it would require the most careful political manipulation to hold them together. Other men were ambitious. There were a half-dozen available candidates, any one of whom would have rejoiced to step into his shoes. He realized the exigencies of the occasion. They could not well beat him, he thought; but even if this should happen, surely the President could be induced to give him a ministry abroad.

His presence in Columbus at this time was because he needed to fix his political alliances. The general election had weakened his party in the State Legislature. There were enough votes to re-elect him, but it would take careful political maneuvering to keep them together. Other people were ambitious. There were about six candidates who would have happily taken his place. He understood the urgency of the situation. They probably couldn’t defeat him, he thought; but even if they did, he was sure the President could be persuaded to give him an ambassador position overseas.

Yes, he might be called a successful man, but for all that Senator Brander felt that he had missed something. He had wanted to do so many things. Here he was, fifty-two years of age, clean, honorable, highly distinguished, as the world takes it, but single. He could not help looking about him now and then and speculating upon the fact that he had no one to care for him. His chamber seemed strangely hollow at times—his own personality exceedingly disagreeable.

Yes, he could be considered a successful man, but despite that, Senator Brander felt he had missed out on something. He had wanted to achieve so many things. Here he was, fifty-two years old, clean, honorable, and highly distinguished, at least in the eyes of the world, but single. He often looked around and wondered about the fact that he had no one to care for him. His room sometimes felt strangely empty—his own presence incredibly unpleasant.

“Fifty!” he often thought to himself. “Alone—absolutely alone.”

“Fifty!” he often thought to himself. “Alone—completely alone.”

Sitting in his chamber that Saturday afternoon, a rap at his door aroused him. He had been speculating upon the futility of his political energy in the light of the impermanence of life and fame.

Sitting in his room that Saturday afternoon, a knock on his door woke him up. He had been thinking about how pointless his political efforts seemed in light of the temporary nature of life and fame.

“What a great fight we make to sustain ourselves!” he thought. “How little difference it will make to me a few years hence!”

“What a tough battle we fight to keep going!” he thought. “How little it will matter to me in a few years!”

He arose, and opening wide his door, perceived Jennie. She had come, as she had suggested to her mother, at this time, instead of on Monday, in order to give a more favorable impression of promptness.

He got up and swung open his door, noticing Jennie. She had come, as she mentioned to her mother, at this time instead of on Monday to create a better impression of being prompt.

“Come right in,” said the Senator; and, as on the first occasion, he graciously made way for her.

“Come on in,” said the Senator; and, just like the first time, he kindly stepped aside for her.

Jennie passed in, momentarily expecting some compliment upon the promptitude with which the washing had been done. The Senator never noticed it at all.

Jennie walked in, briefly hoping for a compliment on how quickly the washing had been done. The Senator didn’t notice it at all.

“Well, my young lady,” he said when she had put the bundle down, “how do you find yourself this evening?”

“Well, my young lady,” he said after she put the bundle down, “how are you doing this evening?”

“Very well,” replied Jennie. “We thought we’d better bring your clothes to-day instead of Monday.”

“Alright,” Jennie said. “We thought it’d be better to bring your clothes today instead of Monday.”

“Oh, that would not have made any difference,” replied Brander lightly. “Just leave them on the chair.”

“Oh, that wouldn't have made any difference,” Brander replied casually. “Just leave them on the chair.”

Jennie, without considering the fact that she had been offered no payment for the service rendered, was about to retire, had not the Senator detained her.

Jennie, not thinking about the fact that she hadn’t been offered any payment for the service she provided, was about to leave when the Senator stopped her.

“How is your mother?” he asked pleasantly.

"How's your mom?" he asked cheerfully.

“She’s very well,” said Jennie simply.

“She’s doing really well,” said Jennie simply.

“And your little sister? Is she any better?”

“And how's your little sister? Is she doing any better?”

“The doctor thinks so,” she replied.

“The doctor thinks so,” she said.

“Sit down,” he continued graciously. “I want to talk to you.”

“Take a seat,” he said kindly. “I want to talk to you.”

Moving to a near-by chair, the young girl seated herself.

Moving to a nearby chair, the young girl sat down.

“Hem!” he went on, clearing his throat lightly, “What seems to be the matter with her?”

“Hem!” he continued, clearing his throat slightly, “What’s wrong with her?”

“She has the measles,” returned Jennie. “We thought once that she was going to die.”

“She has the measles,” Jennie replied. “At one point, we thought she was going to die.”

Brander studied her face as she said this, and he thought he saw something exceedingly pathetic there. The girl’s poor clothes and her wondering admiration for his exalted station in life affected him. It made him feel almost ashamed of the comfort and luxury that surrounded him. How high up he was in the world, indeed!

Brander studied her face as she said this, and he thought he saw something incredibly sad there. The girl’s worn-out clothes and her awe for his elevated social status touched him. It made him feel almost ashamed of the comfort and luxury that surrounded him. Just how high up he was in the world, indeed!

“I am glad she is better now,” he said kindly. “How old is your father?”

“I’m glad she’s doing better now,” he said kindly. “How old is your dad?”

“Fifty-seven.”

"57."

“And is he any better?”

“And is he any good?”

“Oh yes, sir; he’s around now, although he can’t go out just yet.”

“Oh yes, sir; he’s here now, although he can’t go out just yet.”

“I believe your mother said he was a glass-blower by trade?”

"I think your mom mentioned he was a glassblower for a living?"

“Yes, sir.”

"Yes, sir."

Brander well knew the depressed local conditions in this branch of manufacture. It had been part of the political issue in the last campaign. They must be in a bad way truly.

Brander was well aware of the struggling local conditions in this line of manufacturing. It had been a key point in the political debate during the last campaign. They must really be in a rough spot.

“Do all of the children go to school?” he inquired.

“Do all the kids go to school?” he asked.

“Why yes, sir,” returned Jennie, stammering. She was too shamefaced to own that one of the children had been obliged to leave school for the lack of shoes. The utterance of the falsehood troubled her.

“Of course, sir,” Jennie replied, stuttering. She felt too embarrassed to admit that one of the kids had to leave school because they didn't have shoes. Lying about it made her uneasy.

He reflected awhile; then realizing that he had no good excuse for further detaining her, he arose and came over to her. From his pocket he took a thin layer of bills, and removing one, handed it to her.

He thought for a moment; then, realizing he had no good reason to keep her there any longer, he got up and walked over to her. He took a slim stack of cash from his pocket, removed one bill, and handed it to her.

“You take that,” he said, “and tell your mother that I said she should use it for whatever she wants.”

“You take that,” he said, “and tell your mom that I said she should use it for whatever she wants.”

Jennie accepted the money with mingled feelings; it did not occur to her to look and see how much it was. The great man was so near her, the wonderful chamber in which he dwelt so impressive, that she scarcely realized what she was doing.

Jennie accepted the money with mixed feelings; she didn’t even think to check how much it was. The great man was so close to her, and the amazing room he was in was so impressive that she barely understood what she was doing.

“Thank you,” she said. “Is there any day you want your washing called for?” she added.

“Thank you,” she said. “Is there a day you want your laundry picked up?” she added.

“Oh yes,” he answered; “Monday—Monday evenings.”

“Oh yes,” he replied; “Monday—Monday evenings.”

She went away, and in a half reverie he closed the door behind her. The interest that he felt in these people was unusual. Poverty and beauty certainly made up an affecting combination. He sat down in his chair and gave himself over to the pleasant speculations which her coming had aroused. Why should he not help them?

She left, and in a daze, he shut the door behind her. The interest he felt in these people was unusual. Poverty and beauty definitely created a powerful mix. He sat in his chair and indulged in the pleasant thoughts that her arrival had sparked. Why shouldn’t he help them?

“I’ll find out where they live,” he finally resolved.

"I'll find out where they live," he finally decided.

In the days that followed Jennie regularly came for the clothes. Senator Brander found himself more and more interested in her, and in time he managed to remove from her mind that timidity and fear which had made her feel uncomfortable in his presence. One thing which helped toward this was his calling her by her first name. This began with her third visit, and thereafter he used it with almost unconscious frequency.

In the days that followed, Jennie came to pick up the clothes regularly. Senator Brander found himself increasingly interested in her, and over time, he was able to ease the timidity and fear that had made her feel uncomfortable around him. One thing that helped with this was him calling her by her first name. This started during her third visit, and after that, he used it almost without thinking.

It could scarcely be said that he did this in a fatherly spirit, for he had little of that attitude toward any one. He felt exceedingly young as he talked to this girl, and he often wondered whether it were not possible for her to perceive and appreciate him on his youthful side.

It could hardly be said that he did this in a fatherly way, because he rarely had that attitude toward anyone. He felt extremely young as he spoke to this girl, and he often wondered if it was possible for her to see and appreciate him for his youthful side.

As for Jennie, she was immensely taken with the comfort and luxury surrounding this man, and subconsciously with the man himself, the most attractive she had ever known. Everything he had was fine, everything he did was gentle, distinguished, and considerate. From some far source, perhaps some old German ancestors, she had inherited an understanding and appreciation of all this. Life ought to be lived as he lived it; the privilege of being generous particularly appealed to her.

As for Jennie, she was deeply impressed by the comfort and luxury around this man, and subconsciously by the man himself, who was the most attractive she had ever known. Everything he owned was exquisite, and everything he did was gentle, refined, and thoughtful. From some distant lineage, maybe from her old German ancestors, she had inherited an understanding and appreciation for all of this. Life should be lived as he lived it; the chance to be generous really appealed to her.

Part of her attitude was due to that of her mother, in whose mind sympathy was always a more potent factor than reason. For instance, when she brought to her the ten dollars Mrs. Gerhardt was transported with joy.

Part of her attitude came from her mother, who believed that sympathy was always a stronger influence than reason. For example, when she handed her ten dollars, Mrs. Gerhardt was filled with joy.

“Oh,” said Jennie, “I didn’t know until I got outside that it was so much. He said I should give it to you.”

“Oh,” Jennie said, “I didn’t realize it was so much until I got outside. He told me I should give it to you.”

Mrs. Gerhardt took it, and holding it loosely in her folded hands, saw distinctly before her the tall Senator with his fine manners.

Mrs. Gerhardt took it, and holding it loosely in her folded hands, clearly saw the tall Senator with his great manners in front of her.

“What a fine man he is!” she said. “He has a good heart.”

“What a great guy he is!” she said. “He’s got a good heart.”

Frequently throughout the evening and the next day Mrs. Gerhardt commented upon this wonderful treasure-trove, repeating again and again how good he must be or how large must be his heart. When it came to washing his clothes she almost rubbed them to pieces, feeling that whatever she did she could scarcely do enough. Gerhardt was not to know. He had such stern views about accepting money without earning it that even in their distress, she would have experienced some difficulty in getting him to take it. Consequently she said nothing, but used it to buy bread and meat, and going as it did such a little way, the sudden windfall was never noticed.

Throughout the evening and the next day, Mrs. Gerhardt kept talking about this amazing stroke of luck, repeating how kind he must be or how big his heart must be. When it came time to wash his clothes, she nearly wore them out, feeling that no matter what she did, it wouldn't be enough. Gerhardt didn’t know about this. He had such strict beliefs about accepting money without earning it that even in tough times, she would have found it difficult to convince him to take any. So, she said nothing but used the money to buy bread and meat, and since it didn’t go very far, the unexpected funds went unnoticed.

Jennie, from now on, reflected this attitude toward the Senator, and, feeling so grateful toward him, she began to talk more freely. They came to be on such good terms that he gave her a little leather picture-case from his dresser which he had observed her admiring. Every time she came he found excuse to detain her, and soon discovered that, for all her soft girlishness, there lay deep-seated in her a conscious deprecation of poverty and a shame of having to own any need. He honestly admired her for this, and, seeing that her clothes were poor and her shoes worn, he began to wonder how he could help her without offending.

Jennie, from this point on, reflected this attitude toward the Senator, and feeling grateful to him, she started to speak more openly. They got along so well that he gave her a small leather picture frame from his dresser, which he noticed her admiring. Every time she visited, he found a reason to keep her there, and soon realized that beneath her gentle femininity, she harbored a deep discomfort with poverty and a shame about having any needs. He genuinely admired her for this, and noticing that her clothes were shabby and her shoes worn out, he began to think about how he could help her without upsetting her.

Not infrequently he thought to follow her some evening, and see for himself what the condition of the family might be. He was a United States Senator, however. The neighborhood they lived in must be very poor. He stopped to consider, and for the time the counsels of prudence prevailed. Consequently the contemplated visit was put off.

Not infrequently, he thought about following her one evening to see for himself what the family's situation was like. However, he was a United States Senator. The neighborhood they lived in must be very poor. He paused to think it over, and for that moment, his better judgment won out. As a result, he postponed the visit he had planned.

Early in December Senator Brander returned to Washington for three weeks, and both Mrs. Gerhardt and Jennie were surprised to learn one day that he had gone. Never had he given them less than two dollars a week for his washing, and several times it had been five. He had not realized, perhaps, what a breach his absence would make in their finances. But there was nothing to do about it; they managed to pinch along. Gerhardt, now better, searched for work at the various mills, and finding nothing, procured a saw-buck and saw, and going from door to door, sought for the privilege of sawing wood. There was not a great deal of this to do, but he managed, by the most earnest labor to earn two, and sometimes three, dollars a week. This added to what his wife earned and what Sebastian gave was enough to keep bread in their mouths, but scarcely more.

Early in December, Senator Brander returned to Washington for three weeks, and both Mrs. Gerhardt and Jennie were surprised to find out one day that he had left. He had never given them less than two dollars a week for his laundry, and sometimes it had been five. He might not have realized how much of a hit their finances would take from his absence. But there was nothing they could do about it; they managed to get by. Gerhardt, who was feeling better, looked for work at the various mills, and when he couldn’t find anything, he got a sawbuck and a saw, and went door to door looking for the chance to saw wood. There wasn’t a lot of that to do, but through hard work, he managed to earn two, and sometimes three, dollars a week. This, combined with what his wife earned and what Sebastian provided, was enough to keep food on the table, but barely more than that.

It was at the opening of the joyous Christmas-time that the bitterness of their poverty affected them most. The Germans love to make a great display at Christmas. It is the one season of the year when the fullness of their large family affection manifests itself. Warm in the appreciation of the joys of childhood, they love to see the little ones enjoy their toys and games. Father Gerhardt at his saw-buck during the weeks before Christmas thought of this very often. What would little Veronica not deserve after her long illness! How he would have liked to give each of the children a stout pair of shoes, the boys a warm cap, the girls a pretty hood. Toys and games and candy they always had had before. He hated to think of the snow-covered Christmas morning and no table richly piled with what their young hearts would most desire.

It was during the joyful Christmas season that their poverty hit them the hardest. Germans love to make a big spectacle at Christmas. It’s the one time of year when the depth of their strong family bonds really shines through. Filled with the warmth of childhood joy, they enjoy watching the little ones delight in their toys and games. Father Gerhardt, working at his saw-buck in the weeks leading up to Christmas, thought about this a lot. What wouldn’t little Veronica deserve after her long illness! How he wished he could give each of the children a sturdy pair of shoes, the boys a warm cap, and the girls a nice hood. They had always had toys, games, and candy before. He dreaded the thought of a snow-covered Christmas morning without a table filled with the things their young hearts would long for the most.

As for Mrs. Gerhardt, one could better imagine than describe her feelings. She felt so keenly about it that she could hardly bring herself to speak of the dreaded hour to her husband. She had managed to lay aside three dollars in the hope of getting enough to buy a ton of coal, and so put an end to poor George’s daily pilgrimage to the coal yard, but now as the Christmas week drew near she decided to use it for gifts. Father Gerhardt was also secreting two dollars without the knowledge of his wife, thinking that on Christmas Eve he could produce it at a critical moment, and so relieve her maternal anxiety.

As for Mrs. Gerhardt, it’s easier to imagine her feelings than to describe them. She cared so much about it that she could barely bring herself to mention the dreaded hour to her husband. She had saved up three dollars, hoping it would be enough to buy a ton of coal and end poor George’s daily trips to the coal yard, but now, as Christmas week approached, she decided to use it for gifts. Father Gerhardt was also secretly saving two dollars without his wife knowing, thinking that he could bring it out on Christmas Eve at just the right moment to ease her worries as a mother.

When the actual time arrived, however, there was very little to be said for the comfort that they got out of the occasion. The whole city was rife with Christmas atmosphere. Grocery stores and meat markets were strung with holly. The toy shops and candy stores were radiant with fine displays of everything that a self-respecting Santa Claus should have about him. Both parents and children observed it all—the former with serious thoughts of need and anxiety, the latter with wild fancy and only partially suppressed longings.

When the time finally came, though, the comfort they got from the occasion was minimal. The whole city was buzzing with Christmas spirit. Grocery stores and meat markets were decorated with holly. The toy shops and candy stores dazzled with amazing displays filled with everything a proper Santa Claus should have. Both parents and kids took it all in—the parents with serious concerns and worries, and the kids with wild imaginations and mostly repressed desires.

Frequently had Gerhardt said in their presence:

Frequently, Gerhardt would say in their presence:

“Kriss Kringle is very poor this year. He hasn’t so very much to give.”

“Kriss Kringle is really struggling this year. He doesn’t have much to give.”

But no child, however poverty-stricken, could be made to believe this. Every time after so saying he looked into their eyes, but in spite of the warning, expectation flamed in them undiminished.

But no child, no matter how poor, could be made to believe this. Every time he said it, he looked into their eyes, but despite the warning, hope burned in them just as strongly.

Christmas coming on Tuesday, the Monday before there was no school. Before going to the hotel Mrs. Gerhardt had cautioned George that he must bring enough coal from the yards to last over Christmas day. The latter went at once with his two younger sisters, but there being a dearth of good picking, it took them a long time to fill their baskets, and by night they had gathered only a scanty supply.

Christmas was on Tuesday, so there was no school the Monday before. Before heading to the hotel, Mrs. Gerhardt warned George that he needed to collect enough coal from the yards to last through Christmas day. He went right away with his two younger sisters, but since there wasn't much available, it took them a long time to fill their baskets, and by evening they had only gathered a small amount.

“Did you go for the coal?” asked Mrs. Gerhardt the first thing when she returned from the hotel that evening.

“Did you get the coal?” asked Mrs. Gerhardt as soon as she came back from the hotel that evening.

“Yes,” said George.

"Yep," George said.

“Did you get enough for to-morrow?”

“Did you get enough for tomorrow?”

“Yes,” he replied, “I guess so.”

“Yes,” he said, “I suppose so.”

“Well, now, I’ll go and look,” she replied. Taking the lamp, they went out into the woodshed where the coal was deposited.

“Well, I’ll go check,” she said. Taking the lamp, they headed out to the woodshed where the coal was stored.

“Oh, my!” she exclaimed when she saw it; “why, that isn’t near enough. You must go right off and get some more.”

“Oh, wow!” she exclaimed when she saw it; “that’s definitely not enough. You need to go right away and get some more.”

“Oh,” said George, pouting his lips, “I don’t want to go. Let Bass go.”

“Oh,” said George, pouting his lips, “I don’t want to go. Let Bass go.”

Bass, who had returned promptly at a quarter-past six, was already busy in the back bedroom washing and dressing preparatory to going down-town.

Bass, who had come back right at 6:15, was already busy in the back bedroom getting ready and dressing to head downtown.

“No,” said Mrs. Gerhardt. “Bass has worked hard all day. You must go.”

“No,” said Mrs. Gerhardt. “Bass has been working hard all day. You need to go.”

“I don’t want to,” pouted George.

“I don't want to,” George sulked.

“All right,” said Mrs. Gerhardt, “maybe to-morrow you’ll be without a fire, and then what?”

“All right,” said Mrs. Gerhardt, “maybe tomorrow you won’t have a fire, and then what?”

They went back to the house, but George’s conscience was too troubled to allow him to consider the case as closed.

They returned to the house, but George's conscience was too troubled to let him think of the case as finished.

“Bass, you come, too,” he called to his elder brother when he was inside.

“Bass, you come in too,” he called to his older brother once he was inside.

“Go where?” said Bass.

"Where to?" said Bass.

“To get some coal.”

"To get some coal."

“No,” said the former, “I guess not. What do you take me for?”

“No,” said the former, “I don’t think so. What do you think I am?”

“Well, then, I’ll not,” said George, with an obstinate jerk of his head.

“Well, then, I won’t,” George said, stubbornly jerking his head.

“Why didn’t you get it up this afternoon?” questioned his brother sharply; “you’ve had all day to do it.”

“Why didn’t you get it done this afternoon?” his brother asked sharply. “You’ve had all day to do it.”

“Aw, I did try,” said George. “We couldn’t find enough. I can’t get any when there ain’t any, can I?”

“Aw, I did try,” George said. “We couldn’t find enough. I can’t get any when there isn’t any, can I?”

“I guess you didn’t try very hard,” said the dandy.

“I guess you didn’t put in much effort,” said the dandy.

“What’s the matter now?” asked Jennie, who, coming in after having stopped at the grocer’s for her mother, saw George with a solemn pout on his face.

“What’s wrong now?” asked Jennie, who had just come in after stopping at the grocery store for her mom, and saw George with a serious pout on his face.

“Oh, Bass won’t go with me to get any coal?”

“Oh, Bass won’t come with me to get any coal?”

“Didn’t you get any this afternoon?”

“Didn’t you get any this afternoon?”

“Yes,” said George, “but ma says I didn’t get enough.”

“Yes,” said George, “but my mom says I didn’t get enough.”

“I’ll go with you,” said his sister. “Bass, will you come along?”

“I’ll go with you,” his sister said. “Bass, are you coming too?”

“No,” said the young man, indifferently, “I won’t.” He was adjusting his necktie and felt irritated.

“No,” said the young man casually, “I won’t.” He was fixing his necktie and felt annoyed.

“There ain’t any,” said George, “unless we get it off the cars. There wasn’t any cars where I was.”

“There aren't any,” George said, “unless we take it from the cars. There were no cars where I was.”

“There are, too,” exclaimed Bass.

"There are, too," said Bass.

“There ain’t,” said George.

“There isn’t,” said George.

“Oh, don’t quarrel,” said Jennie. “Get the baskets and let’s go right now before it gets too late.”

“Oh, don’t fight,” Jennie said. “Grab the baskets and let’s go right now before it gets too late.”

The other children, who had a fondness for their big sister, got out the implements of supply—Veronica a basket, Martha and William buckets, and George, a big clothes-basket, which he and Jennie were to fill and carry between them. Bass, moved by his sister’s willingness and the little regard he still maintained for her, now made a suggestion.

The other kids, who really liked their big sister, grabbed the supplies—Veronica took a basket, Martha and William got buckets, and George grabbed a big laundry basket that he and Jennie were going to fill and carry together. Bass, feeling touched by his sister’s eagerness and the slight affection he still had for her, then made a suggestion.

“I’ll tell you what you do, Jen,” he said. “You go over there with the kids to Eighth Street and wait around those cars. I’ll be along in a minute. When I come by don’t any of you pretend to know me. Just you say, ‘Mister, won’t you please throw us some coal down?’ and then I’ll get up on the cars and pitch off enough to fill the baskets. D’ye understand?”

“I’ll tell you what to do, Jen,” he said. “You take the kids over to Eighth Street and hang out by those cars. I’ll be there in a minute. When I come by, none of you act like you know me. Just say, ‘Mister, could you please throw us some coal down?’ and then I’ll climb up on the cars and toss off enough to fill the baskets. Do you understand?”

“All right,” said Jennie, very much pleased.

"All right," said Jennie, feeling really happy.

Out into the snowy night they went, and made their way to the railroad tracks. At the intersection of the street and the broad railroad yard were many heavily laden cars of bituminous coal newly backed in. All of the children gathered within the shadow of one. While they were standing there, waiting the arrival of their brother, the Washington Special arrived, a long, fine train with several of the new style drawing-room cars, the big plate-glass windows shining and the passengers looking out from the depths of their comfortable chairs. The children instinctively drew back as it thundered past.

Out into the snowy night they went, making their way to the railroad tracks. At the intersection of the street and the wide railroad yard were many heavily loaded cars filled with fresh bituminous coal. All the children gathered in the shadow of one. While they stood there, waiting for their brother to arrive, the Washington Special came in, a long, impressive train with several new-style drawing-room cars, the big plate-glass windows gleaming and the passengers peering out from their comfy chairs. The children instinctively stepped back as it roared past.

“Oh, wasn’t it long?” said George.

“Oh, wasn’t that long?” said George.

“Wouldn’t I like to be a brakeman, though,” sighed William.

“Wouldn’t I love to be a brakeman, though,” sighed William.

Jennie, alone, kept silent, but to her particularly the suggestion of travel and comfort had appealed. How beautiful life must be for the rich!

Jennie, alone, stayed quiet, but the idea of travel and comfort really caught her interest. Life must be so beautiful for the rich!

Sebastian now appeared in the distance, a mannish spring in his stride, and with every evidence that he took himself seriously. He was of that peculiar stubbornness and determination that had the children failed to carry out his plan of procedure he would have gone deliberately by and refused to help them at all.

Sebastian now showed up in the distance, striding confidently with a determined walk, clearly taking himself seriously. He had a certain stubbornness and resolve that made it clear if the kids had failed to follow his plan, he would have just walked past them and refused to help at all.

Martha, however, took the situation as it needed to be taken, and piped out childishly, “Mister, won’t you please throw us down some coal?”

Martha, on the other hand, handled the situation as it should have been handled and asked in a childish tone, “Mister, could you please toss us down some coal?”

Sebastian stopped abruptly, and looking sharply at them as though he were really a stranger, exclaimed, “Why, certainly,” and proceeded to climb up on the car, from whence he cast down with remarkable celerity more than enough chunks to fill their baskets. Then as though not caring to linger any longer amid such plebeian company, he hastened across the network of tracks and was lost to view.

Sebastian stopped suddenly, looking at them as if he were genuinely a stranger, and exclaimed, “Of course,” before climbing onto the car. From there, he quickly tossed down more than enough chunks to fill their baskets. Then, as if not wanting to stay any longer with such common company, he hurried across the maze of tracks and disappeared from sight.

On their way home they encountered another gentleman, this time a real one, with high hat and distinguished cape coat, whom Jennie immediately recognized. This was the honorable Senator himself, newly returned from Washington, and anticipating a very unprofitable Christmas. He had arrived upon the express which had enlisted the attention of the children, and was carrying his light grip for the pleasure of it to the hotel. As he passed he thought that he recognized Jennie.

On their way home, they ran into another man, this time a genuine gentleman, wearing a top hat and an elegant cape coat, whom Jennie instantly recognized. This was the honorable Senator himself, just back from Washington and expecting a rather disappointing Christmas. He had arrived on the train that caught the children's interest and was carrying his small suitcase to the hotel just for the fun of it. As he walked by, he thought he recognized Jennie.

“Is that you, Jennie?” he said, and paused to be more certain.

“Is that you, Jennie?” he asked, pausing to be sure.

The latter, who had discovered him even more quickly than he had her, exclaimed, “Oh, there is Mr. Brander!” Then, dropping her end of the basket, with a caution to the children to take it right home, she hurried away in the opposite direction.

The latter, who had spotted him even faster than he had seen her, exclaimed, “Oh, there’s Mr. Brander!” Then, letting go of her side of the basket and warning the kids to take it straight home, she rushed off in the other direction.

The Senator followed, vainly calling three or four times “Jennie! Jennie!” Losing hope of overtaking her, and suddenly recognizing, and thereupon respecting, her simple, girlish shame, he stopped, and turning back, decided to follow the children. Again he felt that same sensation which he seemed always to get from this girl—the far cry between her estate and his. It was something to be a Senator to-night, here where these children were picking coal. What could the joyous holiday of the morrow hold for them? He tramped along sympathetically, an honest lightness coming into his step, and soon he saw them enter the gateway of the low cottage. Crossing the street, he stood in the weak shade of the snow-laden trees. The light was burning with a yellow glow in a rear window. All about was the white snow. In the woodshed he could hear the voices of the children, and once he thought he detected the form of Mrs. Gerhardt. After a time another form came shadow-like through the side gate. He knew who it was. It touched him to the quick, and he bit his lip sharply to suppress any further show of emotion. Then he turned vigorously on his heel and walked away.

The Senator followed, calling out a few times, “Jennie! Jennie!” When he realized he wouldn’t catch up to her and recognized her simple, girlish shyness, he stopped and decided to follow the children instead. He felt that same sensation he always got from this girl—the huge gap between their lives. Being a Senator tonight felt significant, especially while these kids were collecting coal. What would tomorrow’s joyful holiday mean for them? He walked along with them, feeling a genuine lightness in his step, and soon saw them go through the gateway of the small cottage. Crossing the street, he stood in the feeble shade of the snow-covered trees. A light burned with a yellow glow in a back window. The snow blanketed everything around. From the woodshed, he could hear the children’s voices, and he thought he caught a glimpse of Mrs. Gerhardt. After a while, another figure came out of the side gate. He knew who it was. It hit him hard, and he bit his lip to keep his emotions in check. Then he turned sharply and walked away.

The chief grocery of the city was conducted by one Manning, a stanch adherent of Brander, and one who felt honored by the Senator’s acquaintance. To him at his busy desk came the Senator this same night.

The main grocery store in the city was run by a guy named Manning, a loyal supporter of Brander, who felt privileged to know the Senator. That same night, the Senator visited him at his busy desk.

“Manning,” he said, “could I get you to undertake a little work for me this evening?”

“Manning,” he said, “could you do me a favor and take on a bit of work for me tonight?”

“Why, certainly, Senator, certainly,” said the grocery-man. “When did you get back? Glad to see you. Certainly.”

“Of course, Senator, of course,” said the grocery guy. “When did you return? Great to see you. Absolutely.”

“I want you to get everything together that would make a nice Christmas for a family of eight—father and mother and six children—Christmas tree, groceries, toys—you know what I mean.”

“I want you to gather everything that would make for a nice Christmas for a family of eight—mom, dad, and six kids—Christmas tree, groceries, toys—you know what I mean.”

“Certainly, certainly, Senator.”

"Of course, Senator."

“Never mind the cost now. Send plenty of everything. I’ll give you the address,” and he picked up a note-book to write it.

“Don’t worry about the cost right now. Send a lot of everything. I’ll give you the address,” and he grabbed a notebook to write it down.

“Why, I’ll be delighted, Senator,” went on Mr. Manning, rather affected himself. “I’ll be delighted. You always were generous.”

“Why, I’ll be happy to, Senator,” Mr. Manning continued, somewhat touched himself. “I’ll be happy. You’ve always been generous.”

“Here you are, Manning,” said the Senator, grimly, from the mere necessity of preserving his senatorial dignity. “Send everything at once, and the bill to me.”

“Here you go, Manning,” the Senator said, solemnly, out of the need to maintain his dignity as a member of the Senate. “Send everything at once, along with the bill to me.”

“I’ll be delighted,” was all the astonished and approving grocery-man could say.

“I’ll be thrilled,” was all the surprised and approving grocery guy could say.

The Senator passed out, but remembering the old people, visited a clothier and shoe man, and, finding that he could only guess at what sizes might be required, ordered the several articles with the privilege of exchange. When his labors were over, he returned to his room.

The Senator fainted, but thinking of the elderly, he went to a tailor and a shoe store. Since he could only guess what sizes they might need, he ordered several items with the option to exchange them. Once he finished his tasks, he went back to his room.

“Carrying coal,” he thought, over and over. “Really, it was very thoughtless in me. I mustn’t forget them any more.”

“Carrying coal,” he thought repeatedly. “Honestly, that was really inconsiderate of me. I have to make sure I don’t forget them again.”

CHAPTER IV

The desire to flee which Jennie experienced upon seeing the Senator again was attributable to what she considered the disgrace of her position. She was ashamed to think that he, who thought so well of her, should discover her doing so common a thing. Girl-like, she was inclined to imagine that his interest in her depended upon something else than her mere personality.

The urge to escape that Jennie felt upon seeing the Senator again was due to what she viewed as the shame of her situation. She was embarrassed to think that he, who held her in such high regard, might catch her doing something so ordinary. Like many girls, she tended to believe that his interest in her was based on something more than just her personality.

When she reached home Mrs. Gerhardt had heard of her flight from the other children.

When Mrs. Gerhardt got home, she had heard about her escape from the other kids.

“What was the matter with you, anyhow?” asked George, when she came in.

“What was wrong with you, anyway?” George asked when she walked in.

“Oh, nothing,” she answered, but immediately turned to her mother and said, “Mr. Brander came by and saw us.”

“Oh, nothing,” she replied, but immediately turned to her mother and said, “Mr. Brander came by and saw us.”

“Oh, did he?” softly exclaimed her mother. “He’s back then. What made you run, though, you foolish girl?”

“Oh, did he?” her mother said softly. “He’s back then. What made you run, you silly girl?”

“Well, I didn’t want him to see me.”

“Well, I didn’t want him to spot me.”

“Well, maybe he didn’t know you, anyhow,” she said, with a certain sympathy for her daughter’s predicament.

“Well, maybe he didn’t know you after all,” she said, feeling a bit sorry for her daughter’s situation.

“Oh yes, he did, too,” whispered Jennie. “He called after me three or four times.”

“Oh yes, he really did,” Jennie whispered. “He called out to me three or four times.”

Mrs. Gerhardt shook her head.

Mrs. Gerhardt shook her head.

“What is it?” said Gerhardt, who had been hearing the conversation from the adjoining room, and now came out.

“What is it?” Gerhardt asked, having overheard the conversation from the next room, and he stepped out.

“Oh, nothing,” said the mother, who hated to explain the significance which the Senator’s personality had come to have in their lives. “A man frightened them when they were bringing the coal.”

“Oh, nothing,” said the mother, who hated to explain the importance that the Senator’s personality had come to have in their lives. “A man scared them when they were bringing in the coal.”

The arrival of the Christmas presents later in the evening threw the household into an uproar of excitement. Neither Gerhardt nor the mother could believe their eyes when a grocery wagon halted in front of their cottage and a lusty clerk began to carry in the gifts. After failing to persuade the clerk that he had made a mistake, the large assortment of good things was looked over with very human glee.

The arrival of the Christmas presents later in the evening sent the household into a frenzy of excitement. Neither Gerhardt nor their mother could believe their eyes when a grocery wagon stopped in front of their cottage and a cheerful clerk started bringing in the gifts. After trying unsuccessfully to convince the clerk he had made a mistake, they eagerly began to look over the large assortment of goodies with sheer joy.

“Just you never mind,” was the clerk’s authoritative words. “I know what I’m about. Gerhardt, isn’t it? Well, you’re the people.”

“Just don’t worry about it,” were the clerk’s authoritative words. “I know what I’m doing. Gerhardt, right? Well, you’re the ones.”

Mrs. Gerhardt moved about, rubbing her hands in her excitement, and giving vent to an occasional “Well, isn’t that nice now!”

Mrs. Gerhardt walked around, rubbing her hands in excitement, and occasionally exclaiming, “Well, isn’t that nice now!”

Gerhardt himself was melted at the thought of the generosity of the unknown benefactor, and was inclined to lay it all to the goodness of a great local mill owner, who knew him and wished him well. Mrs. Gerhardt tearfully suspected the source, but said nothing. Jennie knew, by instinct, the author of it all.

Gerhardt was deeply moved by the generosity of the unknown benefactor and felt it was likely the kindness of a prominent local mill owner, who knew him and wanted the best for him. Mrs. Gerhardt tearfully suspected where it came from but didn’t say anything. Jennie instinctively knew who was behind it all.

The afternoon of the day after Christmas Brander encountered the mother in the hotel, Jennie having been left at home to look after the house.

The afternoon after Christmas, Brander ran into the mother at the hotel, while Jennie stayed at home to take care of the house.

“How do you do, Mrs. Gerhardt,” he exclaimed genially extending his hand. “How did you enjoy your Christmas?”

“How's it going, Mrs. Gerhardt?” he said warmly, reaching out his hand. “Did you have a good Christmas?”

Poor Mrs. Gerhardt took it nervously; her eyes filled rapidly with tears.

Poor Mrs. Gerhardt took it nervously; her eyes quickly filled with tears.

“There, there,” he said, patting her on the shoulder. “Don’t cry. You mustn’t forget to get my laundry to-day.”

“There, there,” he said, patting her on the shoulder. “Don’t cry. You can’t forget to get my laundry today.”

“Oh no, sir,” she returned, and would have said more had he not walked away.

“Oh no, sir,” she replied, and she would have said more if he hadn’t walked away.

From this on, Gerhardt heard continually of the fine Senator at the hotel, how pleasant he was, and how much he paid for his washing. With the simplicity of a German workingman, he was easily persuaded that Mr. Brander must be a very great and a very good man.

From then on, Gerhardt kept hearing about the great Senator at the hotel, how nice he was, and how much he spent on his laundry. With the straightforwardness of a German worker, he quickly came to believe that Mr. Brander must be a truly important and very good man.

Jennie, whose feelings needed no encouragement in this direction, was more than ever prejudiced in his favor.

Jennie, whose feelings didn’t need any boost in this direction, was even more biased in his favor.

There was developing in her that perfection of womanhood, the full mold of form, which could not help but attract any man. Already she was well built, and tall for a girl. Had she been dressed in the trailing skirts of a woman of fashion she would have made a fitting companion for a man the height of the Senator. Her eyes were wondrously clear and bright, her skin fair, and her teeth white and even. She was clever, too, in a sensible way, and by no means deficient in observation. All that she lacked was training and the assurance of which the knowledge of utter dependency despoils one. But the carrying of washing and the compulsion to acknowledge almost anything as a favor put her at a disadvantage.

There was a developing sense of womanhood in her, a complete physicality that naturally attracted any man. She was already well-built and taller than most girls. If she had been wearing the flowing dresses of a fashionable woman, she would have made a perfect match for a man as tall as the Senator. Her eyes were remarkably clear and bright, her skin was fair, and her teeth were white and straight. She was also intelligent in a practical way and wasn’t lacking in observation. All she needed was training and the confidence that comes from being independent, which was something she lacked. But having to do laundry and feeling obligated to see almost anything as a favor put her at a disadvantage.

Nowadays when she came to the hotel upon her semi-weekly errand Senator Brander took her presence with easy grace, and to this she responded. He often gave her little presents for herself, or for her brothers and sisters, and he talked to her so unaffectedly that finally the overawing sense of the great difference between them was brushed away, and she looked upon him more as a generous friend than as a distinguished Senator. He asked her once how she would like to go to a seminary, thinking all the while how attractive she would be when she came out. Finally, one evening, he called her to his side.

These days, when she visited the hotel for her regular errand, Senator Brander welcomed her with ease, and she responded in kind. He often gave her small gifts, whether for herself or for her siblings, and he spoke to her so casually that the overwhelming awareness of their different social statuses faded away, making her see him more as a kind friend than as a distinguished Senator. Once, he asked her if she would be interested in attending a seminary, imagining how lovely she would be when she graduated. Finally, one evening, he invited her to sit beside him.

“Come over here, Jennie,” he said, “and stand by me.”

“Come over here, Jennie,” he said, “and stand next to me.”

She came, and, moved by a sudden impulse, he took her hand.

She arrived, and, driven by a sudden impulse, he took her hand.

“Well, Jennie,” he said, studying her face in a quizzical, interrogative way, “what do you think of me, anyhow?”

"Well, Jennie," he said, looking at her face in a curious, questioning way, "what do you actually think of me?"

“Oh,” she answered, looking consciously away, “I don’t know. What makes you ask me that?”

“Oh,” she replied, averting her gaze, “I don’t know. Why do you ask me that?”

“Oh yes, you do,” he returned. “You have some opinion of me. Tell me now, what is it?”

“Oh yes, you do,” he said. “You have an opinion of me. Tell me now, what is it?”

“No, I haven’t,” she said, innocently.

“No, I haven’t,” she said, innocent.

“Oh yes, you have,” he went on, pleasantly, interested by her transparent evasiveness. “You must think something of me. Now, what is it?”

“Oh yes, you have,” he continued, happily, intrigued by her obvious avoidance. “You must think something about me. So, what is it?”

“Do you mean do I like you?” she asked, frankly, looking down at the big mop of black hair well streaked with gray which hung about his forehead, and gave an almost lionine cast to his fine face.

“Do you mean do I like you?” she asked openly, glancing down at the thick mop of black hair, well streaked with gray, that hung over his forehead and gave an almost lion-like look to his handsome face.

“Well, yes,” he said, with a sense of disappointment. She was barren of the art of the coquette.

“Well, yes,” he said, feeling disappointed. She lacked the skills of a flirt.

“Why, of course I like you,” she replied, prettily.

“Of course I like you,” she replied, smiling.

“Haven’t you ever thought anything else about me?” he went on.

“Haven’t you ever thought about anything else regarding me?” he continued.

“I think you’re very kind,” she went on, even more bashfully; she realized now that he was still holding her hand.

“I think you’re really sweet,” she continued, even more shyly; she now noticed that he was still holding her hand.

“Is that all?” he asked.

"Is that it?" he asked.

“Well,” she said, with fluttering eyelids, “isn’t that enough?”

“Well,” she said, batting her eyelashes, “isn’t that enough?”

He looked at her, and the playful, companionable directness of her answering gaze thrilled him through and through. He studied her face in silence while she turned and twisted, feeling, but scarcely understanding, the deep import of his scrutiny.

He looked at her, and the playful, friendly directness of her responding gaze excited him completely. He silently studied her face while she turned and twisted, sensing, but barely grasping, the deep significance of his examination.

“Well,” he said at last, “I think you’re a fine girl. Don’t you think I’m a pretty nice man?”

“Well,” he said finally, “I think you’re a great girl. Don’t you think I'm a pretty nice guy?”

“Yes,” said Jennie, promptly.

“Yes,” Jennie replied, quickly.

He leaned back in his chair and laughed at the unconscious drollery of her reply. She looked at him curiously, and smiled.

He leaned back in his chair and chuckled at the unintentional humor in her response. She glanced at him with curiosity and smiled.

“What made you laugh?” she inquired.

“What made you laugh?” she asked.

“Oh, your answer” he returned. “I really ought not to laugh, though. You don’t appreciate me in the least. I don’t believe you like me at all.”

“Oh, your answer,” he said. “I really shouldn’t laugh, though. You don’t appreciate me at all. I don’t think you like me one bit.”

“But I do, though,” she replied, earnestly. “I think you’re so good.” Her eyes showed very plainly that she felt what she was saying.

“But I do, though,” she said earnestly. “I think you’re really great.” Her eyes clearly showed that she meant what she was saying.

“Well,” he said, drawing her gently down to him; then, at the same instant, he pressed his lips to her cheek.

“Well,” he said, pulling her gently closer to him; then, at that same moment, he kissed her cheek.

“Oh!” she cried, straightening up, at once startled and frightened.

“Oh!” she exclaimed, sitting up straight, both startled and scared.

It was a new note in their relationship. The senatorial quality vanished in an instant. She recognized in him something that she had not felt before. He seemed younger, too. She was a woman to him, and he was playing the part of a lover. She hesitated, but not knowing just what to do, did nothing at all.

It was a new dynamic in their relationship. The formal vibe disappeared immediately. She noticed something in him that she hadn’t felt before. He seemed younger, too. She was a woman to him, and he was acting like a lover. She hesitated, but unsure of what to do, ended up doing nothing at all.

“Well,” he said, “did I frighten you?”

“Well,” he said, “did I scare you?”

She looked at him, but moved by her underlying respect for this great man, she said, with a smile, “Yes, you did.”

She looked at him, and feeling a deep respect for this great man, she said with a smile, “Yeah, you did.”

“I did it because I like you so much.”

“I did it because I really like you.”

She meditated upon this a moment, and then said, “I think I’d better be going.”

She thought about this for a moment, then said, “I think I should head out.”

“Now then,” he pleaded, “are you going to run away because of that?”

“Okay then,” he begged, “are you going to leave because of that?”

“No,” she said, moved by a curious feeling of ingratitude; “but I ought to be going. They’ll be wondering where I am.”

“No,” she said, feeling a strange sense of ingratitude; “but I should really get going. They’ll start to wonder where I am.”

“You’re sure you’re not angry about it?”

“You're really not mad about it?”

“No,” she replied, and with more of a womanly air than she had ever shown before. It was a novel experience to be in so authoritative a position. It was so remarkable that it was somewhat confusing to both of them.

“No,” she replied, and she sounded more confident than ever before. It was a new experience to be in such a powerful position. It was so surprising that it confused both of them a bit.

“You’re my girl, anyhow,” the Senator said, rising. “I’m going to take care of you in the future.”

“You're my girl, anyway,” the Senator said, standing up. “I’m going to take care of you moving forward.”

Jennie heard this, and it pleased her. He was so well fitted, she thought, to do wondrous things; he was nothing less than a veritable magician. She looked about her and the thought of coming into such a life and such an atmosphere was heavenly. Not that she fully understood his meaning, however. He meant to be good and generous, and to give her fine things. Naturally she was happy. She took up the package that she had come for, not seeing or feeling the incongruity of her position, while he felt it as a direct reproof.

Jennie heard this, and it made her happy. She thought he was perfectly suited to do amazing things; he was nothing short of a true magician. She looked around, and the idea of stepping into such a life and atmosphere felt heavenly. Although she didn't fully grasp his meaning. He intended to be kind and generous, offering her wonderful things. Naturally, she felt joy. She picked up the package she had come for, unaware of the awkwardness of her situation, while he felt it as a direct criticism.

“She ought not to carry that,” he thought. A great wave of sympathy swept over him. He took her cheeks between his hands, this time in a superior and more generous way. “Never mind, little girl,” he said. “You won’t have to do this always. I’ll see what I can do.”

“She shouldn't have to carry that,” he thought. A strong wave of sympathy washed over him. He cupped her cheeks in his hands, this time more kindly and generously. “Don’t worry, little girl,” he said. “You won’t have to do this forever. I’ll see what I can do.”

The outcome of this was simply a more sympathetic relationship between them. He did not hesitate to ask her to sit beside him on the arm of his chair the next time she came, and to question her intimately about the family’s condition and her own desires. Several times he noticed that she was evading his questions, particularly in regard to what her father was doing. She was ashamed to own that he was sawing wood. Fearing lest something more serious was impending, he decided to go out some day and see for himself.

The result of this was a more caring relationship between them. He didn’t hesitate to invite her to sit next to him on the arm of his chair the next time she visited and to ask her personal questions about her family's situation and her own aspirations. Several times, he noticed she was dodging his questions, especially about what her father was doing. She was embarrassed to admit that he was chopping wood. Worried that something more serious might be going on, he decided to go out one day and see for himself.

This he did when a convenient morning presented itself and his other duties did not press upon him. It was three days before the great fight in the Legislature began which ended in his defeat. Nothing could be done in these few remaining days. So he took his cane and strolled forth, coming to the cottage in the course of a half hour, and knocked boldly at the door.

This he did when a convenient morning came up and his other responsibilities weren’t demanding his attention. It was three days before the big fight in the Legislature started that ended with his defeat. Nothing could be done in these last few days. So he grabbed his cane and headed out, reaching the cottage in about half an hour, and knocked confidently at the door.

Mrs. Gerhardt opened it.

Mrs. Gerhardt opened it.

“Good-morning,” he said, cheerily; then, seeing her hesitate, he added, “May I come in?”

“Good morning,” he said cheerfully; then, noticing her hesitation, he added, “Can I come in?”

The good mother, who was all but overcome by his astonishing presence, wiped her hands furtively upon her much-mended apron, and, seeing that he waited for a reply, said:

The good mother, who was nearly overwhelmed by his surprising presence, wiped her hands discreetly on her well-worn apron, and noticing that he was waiting for a response, said:

“Oh yes. Come right in.”

“Oh yes. Come on in.”

She hurried forward, forgetting to close the door, and, offering him a chair, asked him to be seated.

She quickly moved ahead, leaving the door open, and offered him a chair, asking him to sit down.

Brander, feeling sorry that he was the occasion of so much confusion, said: “Don’t trouble yourself, Mrs. Gerhardt. I was passing and thought I’d come in. How is your husband?”

Brander, regretting that he caused so much confusion, said: “Don’t worry, Mrs. Gerhardt. I was passing by and thought I’d stop in. How is your husband?”

“He’s well, thank you,” returned the mother. “He’s out working to-day.”

“He's doing well, thank you,” the mother replied. “He's out working today.”

“Then he has found employment?”

"Has he found a job?"

“Yes, sir,” said Mrs. Gerhardt, who hesitated, like Jennie, to say what it was.

“Yes, sir,” Mrs. Gerhardt replied, hesitating like Jennie to reveal what it was.

“The children are all well now, and in school, I hope?”

“The kids are all doing well now and back in school, I hope?”

“Yes,” replied Mrs. Gerhardt. She had now unfastened her apron, and was nervously turning it in her lap.

“Yes,” replied Mrs. Gerhardt. She had now unfastened her apron and was nervously twisting it in her lap.

“That’s good, and where is Jennie?”

"That's awesome, where's Jennie?"

The latter, who had been ironing, had abandoned the board and had concealed herself in the bedroom, where she was busy tidying herself in the fear that her mother would not have the forethought to say that she was out, and so let her have a chance for escape.

The one who had been ironing left the board and hid in the bedroom, where she was getting ready, worried that her mom wouldn’t think to say she was out and wouldn’t give her a chance to escape.

“She’s here,” returned the mother. “I’ll call her.”

“She’s here,” the mother replied. “I’ll call her.”

“What did you tell him I was here for?” said Jennie, weakly.

“What did you tell him I was here for?” Jennie said faintly.

“What could I do?” asked the mother.

“What can I do?” asked the mother.

Together they hesitated while the Senator surveyed the room. He felt sorry to think that such deserving people must suffer so; he intended, in a vague way, to ameliorate their condition if possible.

Together they paused as the Senator looked around the room. He felt sorry knowing that such deserving people had to endure so much; he intended, somewhat vaguely, to improve their situation if he could.

“Good-morning,” the Senator said to Jennie, when finally she came hesitatingly into the room. “How do you do to-day?”

“Good morning,” the Senator said to Jennie when she finally came into the room, looking a bit unsure. “How are you doing today?”

Jennie came forward, extending her hand and blushing. She found herself so much disturbed by this visit that she could hardly find tongue to answer his questions.

Jennie stepped forward, reaching out her hand and blushing. She was so shaken by this visit that she could barely find the words to respond to his questions.

“I thought,” he said, “I’d come out and find where you live. This is a quite comfortable house. How many rooms have you?”

“I thought,” he said, “I’d come out and see where you live. This is a really nice house. How many rooms do you have?”

“Five,” said Jennie. “You’ll have to excuse the looks this morning. We’ve been ironing, and it’s all upset.”

“Five,” Jennie said. “You’ll have to excuse our appearance this morning. We’ve been ironing, and everything’s a bit messed up.”

“I know,” said Brander, gently. “Don’t you think I understand, Jennie? You mustn’t feel nervous about me.”

“I know,” Brander said softly. “Don’t you think I get it, Jennie? You don’t have to worry about me.”

She noticed the comforting, personal tone he always used with her when she was at his room, and it helped to subdue her flustered senses.

She noticed the warm, personal tone he always used with her when she was in his room, and it helped to calm her rattled nerves.

“You mustn’t think it anything if I come here occasionally. I intend to come. I want to meet your father.”

“You shouldn’t think anything of it if I stop by here sometimes. I plan to come. I want to meet your dad.”

“Oh,” said Jennie, “he’s out to-day.”

“Oh,” Jennie said, “he’s out today.”

While they were talking, however, the honest woodcutter was coming in at the gate with his buck and saw. Brander saw him, and at once recognized him by a slight resemblance to his daughter.

While they were talking, the honest woodcutter was coming in through the gate with his axe and saw. Brander saw him and immediately recognized him due to a slight resemblance to his daughter.

“There he is now, I believe,” he said.

“There he is now, I think,” he said.

“Oh, is he?” said Jennie, looking out.

“Oh, is he?” Jennie said, looking outside.

Gerhardt, who was given to speculation these days, passed by the window without looking up. He put his wooden buck down, and, hanging his saw on a nail on the side of the house, came in.

Gerhardt, who had been lost in thought lately, walked by the window without glancing up. He set down his wooden bucket and hung his saw on a nail on the side of the house before coming inside.

“Mother,” he called, in German, and, then not seeing her, he came to the door of the front room and looked in.

“Mom,” he called, in German, and, not seeing her, he went to the door of the living room and looked inside.

Brander arose and extended his hand. The knotted and weather-beaten German came forward, and took it with a very questioning expression of countenance.

Brander got up and reached out his hand. The rugged and weathered German stepped forward and shook it with a very puzzled look on his face.

“This is my father, Mr. Brander,” said Jennie, all her diffidence dissolved by sympathy. “This is the gentleman from the hotel, papa, Mr. Brander.”

“This is my dad, Mr. Brander,” Jennie said, all her shyness gone thanks to sympathy. “This is the gentleman from the hotel, Dad, Mr. Brander.”

“What’s the name?” said the German, turning his head.

“What’s the name?” asked the German, turning his head.

“Brander,” said the Senator.

“Brander,” the Senator said.

“Oh yes,” he said, with a considerable German accent.

“Oh yes,” he said, with a strong German accent.

“Since I had the fever I don’t hear good. My wife, she spoke to me of you.”

“Since I had the fever, I haven't been hearing well. My wife mentioned you.”

“Yes,” said the Senator, “I thought I’d come out and make your acquaintance. You have quite a family.”

“Yeah,” said the Senator, “I thought I’d come out and meet you. You have a lovely family.”

“Yes,” said the father, who was conscious of his very poor garments and anxious to get away. “I have six children—all young. She’s the oldest girl.”

“Yes,” said the father, aware of his shabby clothes and eager to leave. “I have six kids—all young. She’s the oldest girl.”

Mrs. Gerhardt now came back, and Gerhardt, seeing his chance, said hurriedly:

Mrs. Gerhardt walked back in, and Gerhardt, seizing the opportunity, said quickly:

“Well, if you’ll excuse me, I’ll go. I broke my saw, and so I had to stop work.”

“Well, if you don’t mind, I’ll head out. I broke my saw, so I had to stop working.”

“Certainly,” said Brander, graciously, realizing now why Jennie had never wanted to explain. He half wished that she were courageous enough not to conceal anything.

“Of course,” said Brander, kindly, understanding now why Jennie had never wanted to explain. He half wished she had been brave enough to tell the truth.

“Well, Mrs. Gerhardt,” he said, when the mother was stiffly seated, “I want to tell you that you mustn’t look on me as a stranger. Hereafter I want you to keep me informed of how things are going with you. Jennie won’t always do it.”

“Well, Mrs. Gerhardt,” he said, as she sat down rigidly, “I want to say that you shouldn’t see me as a stranger. From now on, I want you to keep me updated on how things are going with you. Jennie won’t always do that.”

Jennie smiled quietly. Mrs. Gerhardt only rubbed her hands.

Jennie smiled gently. Mrs. Gerhardt just rubbed her hands.

“Yes,” she answered, humbly grateful.

“Yes,” she replied, feeling grateful.

They talked for a few minutes, and then the Senator rose.

They chatted for a few minutes, and then the Senator got up.

“Tell your husband,” he said, “to come and see me next Monday at my office in the hotel. I want to do something for him.”

“Tell your husband,” he said, “to come see me next Monday at my office in the hotel. I want to do something for him.”

“Thank you,” faltered Mrs. Gerhardt.

“Thanks,” faltered Mrs. Gerhardt.

“I’ll not stay any longer now,” he added. “Don’t forget to have him come.”

“I won’t stay any longer now,” he added. “Don’t forget to have him come.”

“Oh, he’ll come,” she returned.

“Oh, he’ll show up,” she replied.

Adjusting a glove on one hand, he extended the other to Jennie.

Adjusting a glove on one hand, he reached out his other hand to Jennie.

“Here is your finest treasure, Mrs. Gerhardt,” he said. “I think I’ll take her.”

“Here’s your best treasure, Mrs. Gerhardt,” he said. “I think I’ll take her.”

“Well, I don’t know,” said her mother, “whether I could spare her or not.”

“Well, I’m not sure,” her mother said, “if I can let her go or not.”

“Well,” said the Senator, going toward the door, and giving Mrs. Gerhardt his hand, “good-morning.”

“Well,” said the Senator, walking toward the door and shaking Mrs. Gerhardt's hand, “good morning.”

He nodded and walked out, while a half-dozen neighbors, who had observed his entrance, peeked from behind curtains and drawn blinds at the astonishing sight.

He nodded and walked out, while half a dozen neighbors, who had seen him come in, peeked from behind curtains and closed blinds at the unbelievable sight.

“Who can that be, anyhow?” was the general query.

“Who could that be, anyway?” was the common question.

“See what he gave me,” said the innocent mother to her daughter the moment he had closed the door.

“Look at what he gave me,” said the naive mother to her daughter as soon as he had shut the door.

It was a ten-dollar bill. He had placed it softly in her hand as he said good-by.

It was a ten-dollar bill. He gently put it in her hand as he said goodbye.

CHAPTER V

Having been led by circumstances into an attitude of obligation toward the Senator, it was not unnatural that Jennie should become imbued with a most generous spirit of appreciation for everything he had done and now continued to do. The Senator gave her father a letter to a local mill owner, who saw that he received something to do. It was not much, to be sure, a mere job as night-watchman, but it helped, and old Gerhardt’s gratitude was extravagant. Never was there such a great, such a good man!

Having found herself in a situation where she felt obligated to the Senator, it was natural for Jennie to develop a deep sense of appreciation for everything he had done and continued to do. The Senator gave her father a letter to a local mill owner, who made sure he got some work. It wasn’t much—just a job as a night-watchman—but it helped, and old Gerhardt’s gratitude was overflowing. Never had there been such a great, such a good man!

Nor was Mrs. Gerhardt overlooked. Once Brander sent her a dress, and at another time a shawl. All these benefactions were made in a spirit of mingled charity and self-gratification, but to Mrs. Gerhardt they glowed with but one motive. Senator Brander was good-hearted.

Nor was Mrs. Gerhardt ignored. Once Brander sent her a dress, and at another time a shawl. All these gifts were given with a mix of charity and self-satisfaction, but to Mrs. Gerhardt, they shone with just one intention. Senator Brander was kind-hearted.

As for Jennie, he drew nearer to her in every possible way, so that at last she came to see him in a light which would require considerable analysis to make clear. This fresh, young soul, however, had too much innocence and buoyancy to consider for a moment the world’s point of view. Since that one notable and halcyon visit upon which he had robbed her her original shyness, and implanted a tender kiss upon her cheek, they had lived in a different atmosphere. Jennie was his companion now, and as he more and more unbended, and even joyously flung aside the habiliments of his dignity, her perception of him grew clearer. They laughed and chatted in a natural way, and he keenly enjoyed this new entrance into the radiant world of youthful happiness.

As for Jennie, he got closer to her in every way possible, until she began to see him differently in a way that would take a lot of thought to explain. This fresh, young spirit, however, was too innocent and cheerful to consider the world's perspective for even a moment. Ever since that one memorable and peaceful visit when he took away her initial shyness and planted a gentle kiss on her cheek, they had been in a different atmosphere. Jennie was his companion now, and as he relaxed more and even joyfully let go of his dignified persona, her view of him became clearer. They laughed and talked naturally, and he truly enjoyed this new entry into the bright world of youthful happiness.

One thing that disturbed him, however, was the occasional thought, which he could not repress, that he was not doing right. Other people must soon discover that he was not confining himself strictly to conventional relations with this washer-woman’s daughter. He suspected that the housekeeper was not without knowledge that Jennie almost invariably lingered from a quarter to three-quarters of an hour whenever she came for or returned his laundry. He knew that it might come to the ears of the hotel clerks, and so, in a general way, get about town and work serious injury, but the reflection did not cause him to modify his conduct. Sometimes he consoled himself with the thought that he was not doing her any actual harm, and at other times he would argue that he could not put this one delightful tenderness out of his life. Did he not wish honestly to do her much good?

One thing that bothered him, though, was the nagging thought that he wasn’t doing the right thing. Other people would eventually figure out that he wasn't just keeping things strictly professional with the washer-woman’s daughter. He had a feeling that the housekeeper knew Jennie often stayed for anywhere from fifteen to forty-five minutes whenever she came to pick up or drop off his laundry. He realized that this information could reach the hotel staff and eventually spread around town, causing serious problems for him, but he didn’t let that change his behavior. Sometimes he reassured himself that he wasn’t actually harming her, and other times he argued that he couldn’t let go of this one beautiful connection in his life. Didn’t he genuinely want to do her a lot of good?

He thought of these things occasionally, and decided that he could not stop. The self-approval which such a resolution might bring him was hardly worth the inevitable pain of the abnegation. He had not so very many more years to live. Why die unsatisfied?

He thought about these things from time to time and decided he couldn't stop. The feeling of self-approval that such a decision might give him wasn't worth the inevitable pain of giving it up. He didn't have many more years to live. Why live unsatisfied?

One evening he put his arm around her and strained her to his breast. Another time he drew her to his knee, and told her of his life at Washington. Always now he had a caress and a kiss for her, but it was still in a tentative, uncertain way. He did not want to reach for her soul too deeply.

One evening he wrapped his arm around her and pulled her close to his chest. Another time he brought her onto his lap and shared stories about his life in Washington. Now, he always offered her a gentle touch and a kiss, but it still felt tentative and unsure. He didn't want to delve too deeply into her emotions.

Jennie enjoyed it all innocently. Elements of fancy and novelty entered into her life. She was an unsophisticated creature, emotional, totally inexperienced in the matter of the affections, and yet mature enough mentally to enjoy the attentions of this great man who had thus bowed from his high position to make friends with her.

Jennie enjoyed everything without any ulterior motives. New and exciting elements came into her life. She was a naive person, emotional, completely inexperienced when it came to love, yet mature enough to appreciate the attention of this important man who had lowered himself from his high status to befriend her.

One evening she pushed his hair back from his forehead as she stood by his chair, and, finding nothing else to do, took out his watch. The great man thrilled as he looked at her pretty innocence.

One evening, she brushed his hair back from his forehead while standing by his chair, and not knowing what else to do, she pulled out his watch. The important man felt excited as he looked at her sweet innocence.

“Would you like to have a watch, too?” he asked.

“Do you want a watch, too?” he asked.

“Yes, indeed, I would,” said Jennie, with a deep breath.

“Yes, I definitely would,” said Jennie, taking a deep breath.

The next day he stopped as he was passing a jewelry store and bought one. It was gold, and had pretty ornamented hands.

The next day, he paused as he walked by a jewelry store and bought one. It was gold and had beautifully designed hands.

“Jennie,” he said, when she came the next time, “I want to show you something. See what time it is by my watch.”

“Jennie,” he said when she came the next time, “I want to show you something. Check the time on my watch.”

Jennie drew out the watch from his waistcoat pocket and started in surprise.

Jennie pulled out the watch from his pocket and gasped in surprise.

“This isn’t your watch!” she exclaimed, her face full of innocent wonder.

“This isn’t your watch!” she exclaimed, her face filled with innocent curiosity.

“No,” he said, delighted with his little deception. “It’s yours.”

“No,” he said, pleased with his little trick. “It’s yours.”

“Mine!” exclaimed Jennie. “Mine! Oh, isn’t it lovely!”

“Mine!” exclaimed Jennie. “Mine! Oh, isn’t it beautiful!”

“Do you think so?” he said.

“Do you really think that?” he asked.

Her delight touched and pleased him immensely. Her face shone with light and her eyes fairly danced.

Her joy really touched and pleased him. Her face lit up, and her eyes sparkled with excitement.

“That’s yours,” he said. “See that you wear it now, and don’t lose it.”

“That's yours,” he said. “Make sure you wear it now, and don't lose it.”

“You’re so good!” she exclaimed.

“You're amazing!” she exclaimed.

“No,” he said, but he held her at arm’s length by the waist, to make up his mind what his reward should be. Slowly he drew her toward him until, when very close, she put her arms about his neck, and laid her cheek in gratitude against his own. This was the quintessence of pleasure for him. He felt as he had been longing to feel for years.

“No,” he said, but he held her at arm's length by the waist to decide what his reward should be. Slowly, he drew her closer until, when they were very near, she wrapped her arms around his neck and rested her cheek against his in gratitude. This was the ultimate pleasure for him. He felt the way he had been longing to feel for years.

The progress of his idyl suffered a check when the great senatorial fight came on in the Legislature. Attacked by a combination of rivals, Brander was given the fight of his life. To his amazement he discovered that a great railroad corporation, which had always been friendly, was secretly throwing its strength in behalf of an already too powerful candidate. Shocked by this defection, he was thrown alternately into the deepest gloom and into paroxysms of wrath. These slings of fortune, however lightly he pretended to receive them, never failed to lacerate him. It had been long since he had suffered a defeat—too long.

The progress of his ideal life took a hit when the big senatorial battle began in the Legislature. Faced with a group of rivals, Brander was in the fight of his life. To his surprise, he found out that a major railroad corporation, which had always been supportive, was secretly backing an already too powerful candidate. Shocked by this betrayal, he swung between deep despair and furious anger. These blows from fate, no matter how casually he claimed to take them, always left him wounded. It had been a long time since he had faced a defeat—too long.

During this period Jennie received her earliest lesson in the vagaries of men. For two weeks she did not even see him, and one evening, after an extremely comfortless conference with his leader, he met her with the most chilling formality. When she knocked at his door he only troubled to open it a foot, exclaiming almost harshly: “I can’t bother about the clothes to-night. Come tomorrow.”

During this time, Jennie got her first lesson in the unpredictability of men. For two weeks, she didn’t see him at all, and one evening, after an awkward meeting with his boss, he greeted her with an icy formality. When she knocked on his door, he only opened it a little, almost harshly saying, “I can’t deal with the clothes tonight. Come back tomorrow.”

Jennie retreated, shocked and surprised by this reception. She did not know what to think of it. He was restored on the instant to his far-off, mighty throne, and left to rule in peace. Why should he not withdraw the light of his countenance if it pleased him. But why—

Jennie stepped back, stunned and taken aback by this response. She didn’t know what to make of it. He was instantly back on his distant, powerful throne, left to rule in peace. Why shouldn’t he pull away the light of his presence if it suited him? But why—

A day or two later he repented mildly, but had no time to readjust matters. His washing was taken and delivered with considerable formality, and he went on toiling forgetfully, until at last he was miserably defeated by two votes. Astounded by this result, he lapsed into gloomy dejection of soul. What was he to do now?

A day or two later, he felt a bit of regret, but he didn’t have time to fix things. His laundry was picked up and dropped off with a lot of fuss, and he continued working absentmindedly, until finally, he was sadly beaten by two votes. Shocked by this outcome, he fell into a deep sadness. What was he supposed to do now?

Into this atmosphere came Jennie, bringing with her the lightness and comfort of her own hopeful disposition. Nagged to desperation by his thoughts, Brander first talked to her to amuse himself; but soon his distress imperceptibly took flight; he found himself actually smiling.

Into this atmosphere came Jennie, bringing with her the lightness and comfort of her own hopeful spirit. Nagged to desperation by his thoughts, Brander initially talked to her to entertain himself; but soon his distress subtly faded away; he found himself actually smiling.

“Ah, Jennie,” he said, speaking to her as he might have done to a child, “youth is on your side. You possess the most valuable thing in life.”

“Ah, Jennie,” he said, talking to her as if she were a child, “youth is on your side. You have the most precious thing in life.”

“Do I?”

“Do I?”

“Yes, but you don’t realize it. You never will until it is too late.”

“Yes, but you don’t see it. You won’t understand until it’s too late.”

“I love that girl,” he thought to himself that night. “I wish I could have her with me always.”

“I love that girl,” he thought to himself that night. “I wish I could always have her with me.”

But fortune had another fling for him to endure. It got about the hotel that Jennie was, to use the mildest expression, conducting herself strangely. A girl who carries washing must expect criticism if anything not befitting her station is observed in her apparel. Jennie was seen wearing the gold watch. Her mother was informed by the housekeeper of the state of things.

But luck had another challenge for him to face. Word spread around the hotel that Jennie was, to put it lightly, acting oddly. A girl who carries laundry should anticipate judgment if anything out of place is noticed in her clothing. Jennie was spotted wearing the gold watch. The housekeeper informed her mother about what was going on.

“I thought I’d speak to you about it,” she said. “People are talking. You’d better not let your daughter go to his room for the laundry.”

“I thought I’d talk to you about it,” she said. “People are saying things. You should really not let your daughter go to his room for the laundry.”

Mrs. Gerhardt was too astonished and hurt for utterance. Jennie had told her nothing, but even now she did not believe there was anything to tell. The watch had been both approved of and admired by her. She had not thought that it was endangering her daughter’s reputation.

Mrs. Gerhardt was too shocked and hurt to speak. Jennie hadn’t shared anything with her, but even now, she didn’t believe there was anything to worry about. She had both approved of and admired the watch. She hadn’t realized it was putting her daughter’s reputation at risk.

Going home she worried almost incessantly, and talked with Jennie about it. The latter did not admit the implication that things had gone too far. In fact, she did not look at it in that light. She did not own, it is true, what really had happened while she was visiting the Senator.

Going home, she was almost constantly worried and talked about it with Jennie. Jennie didn't agree with the suggestion that things had gone too far. In fact, she didn't see it that way at all. It's true that she didn't acknowledge what had really happened while she was visiting the Senator.

“It’s so terrible that people should begin to talk!” said her mother. “Did you really stay so long in the room?”

“It’s awful that people are starting to gossip!” her mother said. “Did you really stay in the room that long?”

“I don’t know,” returned Jennie, compelled by her conscience to admit at least part of the truth. “Perhaps I did.”

“I don’t know,” Jennie replied, feeling forced by her conscience to acknowledge at least some of the truth. “Maybe I did.”

“He has never said anything out of the way to you, has he?”

“He’s never said anything inappropriate to you, has he?”

“No,” answered her daughter, who did not attach any suspicion of evil to what had passed between them.

“No,” replied her daughter, who didn’t suspect any wrongdoing in what had occurred between them.

If the mother had only gone a little bit further she might have learned more, but she was only too glad, for her own peace of mind, to hush the matter up. People were slandering a good man, that she knew. Jennie had been the least bit indiscreet. People were always so ready to talk. How could the poor girl, amid such unfortunate circumstances, do otherwise than she did. It made her cry to think of it.

If the mother had only gone a bit further, she might have learned more, but she was just so relieved, for her own peace of mind, to brush the situation aside. She knew that people were speaking ill of a good man. Jennie had been just a little careless. People were always so quick to gossip. How could the poor girl, in such unfortunate circumstances, act any differently? It made her cry to think about it.

The result of it all was that she decided to get the washing herself.

The outcome was that she decided to do the laundry herself.

She came to his door the next Monday after this decision. Brander, who was expecting Jennie, was both surprised and disappointed.

She arrived at his door the following Monday after this decision. Brander, who was expecting Jennie, felt both surprised and let down.

“Why,” he said to her, “what has become of Jennie?”

“Why,” he asked her, “what happened to Jennie?”

Having hoped that he would not notice, or, at least, not comment upon the change, Mrs. Gerhardt did not know what to say. She looked up at him weakly in her innocent, motherly way, and said, “She couldn’t come to-night.”

Having hoped he wouldn’t notice, or at least wouldn’t comment on the change, Mrs. Gerhardt didn’t know what to say. She looked up at him weakly in her innocent, motherly way and said, “She couldn’t come tonight.”

“Not ill, is she?” he inquired.

"She’s not sick, is she?" he asked.

“No.”

“Nope.”

“I’m glad to hear that,” he said resignedly. “How have you been?”

“I’m glad to hear that,” he said with a sense of acceptance. “How have you been?”

Mrs. Gerhardt answered his kindly inquiries and departed. After she had gone he got to thinking the matter over, and wondered what could have happened. It seemed rather odd that he should be wondering over it.

Mrs. Gerhardt answered his kind questions and left. After she was gone, he started thinking about it and wondered what might have happened. It felt a bit strange that he was so concerned about it.

On Saturday, however, when she returned the clothes he felt that there must be something wrong.

On Saturday, though, when she returned the clothes, he sensed that something was off.

“What’s the matter, Mrs. Gerhardt?” he inquired. “Has anything happened to your daughter?”

“What's wrong, Mrs. Gerhardt?” he asked. “Did something happen to your daughter?”

“No, sir,” she returned, too troubled to wish to deceive him.

“No, sir,” she replied, too upset to want to lie to him.

“Isn’t she coming for the laundry any more?”

“Is she not coming for the laundry anymore?”

“I—I—” ventured the mother, stammering in her perturbation; “she—they have been talking about her,” she at last forced herself to say.

“I—I—” the mother stammered, clearly flustered; “she—they’ve been talking about her,” she finally managed to say.

“Who has been talking?” he asked gravely.

“Who’s been talking?” he asked seriously.

“The people here in the hotel.”

“The people here in the hotel.”

“Who, what people?” he interrupted, a touch of annoyance showing in his voice.

“Who, what people?” he interrupted, a hint of annoyance in his voice.

“The housekeeper.”

"The cleaner."

“The housekeeper, eh!” he exclaimed. “What has she got to say?”

“The housekeeper, huh!” he exclaimed. “What does she have to say?”

The mother related to him her experience.

The mother shared her experience with him.

“And she told you that, did she?” he remarked in wrath. “She ventures to trouble herself about my affairs, does she? I wonder people can’t mind their own business without interfering with mine. Your daughter, Mrs. Gerhardt, is perfectly safe with me. I have no intention of doing her an injury. It’s a shame,” he added indignantly, “that a girl can’t come to my room in this hotel without having her motive questioned. I’ll look into this matter.”

“And she actually said that to you?” he said angrily. “She dares to get involved in my affairs, huh? I don’t understand why people can’t just focus on their own lives without messing with mine. Your daughter, Mrs. Gerhardt, is completely safe with me. I have no plans to harm her. It’s ridiculous,” he added, frustrated, “that a girl can’t come to my room in this hotel without everyone questioning her intentions. I’ll take care of this.”

“I hope you don’t think that I have anything to do with it,” said the mother apologetically. “I know you like Jennie and wouldn’t injure her. You’ve done so much for her and all of us, Mr. Brander, I feel ashamed to keep her away.”

“I hope you don’t think I had anything to do with it,” said the mother, sounding apologetic. “I know you like Jennie and wouldn’t hurt her. You’ve done so much for her and all of us, Mr. Brander, I feel bad about keeping her away.”

“That’s all right, Mrs. Gerhardt,” he said quietly. “You did perfectly right. I don’t blame you in the least. It is the lying accusation passed about in this hotel that I object to. We’ll see about that.”

“That's okay, Mrs. Gerhardt,” he said softly. “You did nothing wrong. I don’t hold it against you at all. It's the false allegation going around this hotel that I have a problem with. We’ll take care of that.”

Mrs. Gerhardt stood there, pale with excitement. She was afraid she had deeply offended this man who had done so much for them. If she could only say something, she thought, that would clear this matter up and make him feel that she was no tattler. Scandal was distressing to her.

Mrs. Gerhardt stood there, pale with excitement. She was worried she had really offended this man who had done so much for them. If she could just say something, she thought, that would resolve this issue and show him that she wasn’t a gossip. Scandal upset her deeply.

“I thought I was doing everything for the best,” she said at last.

“I thought I was doing everything for the best,” she finally said.

“So you were,” he replied. “I like Jennie very much. I have always enjoyed her coming here. It is my intention to do well by her, but perhaps it will be better to keep her away, at least for the present.”

“So you were,” he replied. “I really like Jennie. I’ve always enjoyed her visits here. I plan to take good care of her, but maybe it’s best to keep her away for now, at least for the time being.”

Again that evening the Senator sat in his easy-chair and brooded over this new development. Jennie was really much more precious to him than he had thought. Now that he had no hope of seeing her there any more, he began to realize how much these little visits of hers had meant. He thought the matter over very carefully, realized instantly that there was nothing to be done so far as the hotel gossip was concerned, and concluded that he had really placed the girl in a very unsatisfactory position.

Again that evening, the Senator sat in his armchair and thought deeply about this new situation. Jennie was actually much more valuable to him than he had realized. Now that he had no hope of seeing her again, he began to understand how significant her little visits had been. He pondered the situation thoroughly, quickly recognized that there was nothing he could do about the hotel gossip, and concluded that he had truly put the girl in a very uncomfortable position.

“Perhaps I had better end this little affair,” he thought. “It isn’t a wise thing to pursue.”

“Maybe I should just end this situation,” he thought. “It’s not a smart thing to keep going after.”

On the strength of this conclusion he went to Washington and finished his term. Then he returned to Columbus to await the friendly recognition from the President which was to send him upon some ministry abroad. Jennie had not been forgotten in the least. The longer he stayed away the more eager he was to get back. When he was again permanently settled in his old quarters he took up his cane one morning and strolled out in the direction of the cottage. Arriving there, he made up his mind to go in, and knocking at the door, he was greeted by Mrs. Gerhardt and her daughter with astonished and diffident smiles. He explained vaguely that he had been away, and mentioned his laundry as if that were the object of his visit. Then, when chance gave him a few moments with Jennie alone, he plunged in boldly.

Based on this conclusion, he went to Washington and completed his term. Then he returned to Columbus to wait for the President's friendly recognition that would send him to a ministry abroad. He hadn't forgotten Jennie at all. The longer he stayed away, the more eager he became to return. Once he was settled again in his old place, he picked up his cane one morning and headed towards the cottage. When he arrived, he decided to go inside, and after knocking on the door, he was met by Mrs. Gerhardt and her daughter, who greeted him with surprised and shy smiles. He vaguely explained that he had been away and mentioned his laundry as if that were the reason for his visit. Then, when he got a few moments alone with Jennie, he boldly jumped in.

“How would you like to take a drive with me to-morrow evening?” he asked.

“How about going for a drive with me tomorrow evening?” he asked.

“I’d like it,” said Jennie, to whom the proposition was a glorious novelty.

"I'd love it," said Jennie, for whom the suggestion was an exciting new experience.

He smiled and patted her cheek, foolishly happy to see her again. Every day seemed to add to her beauty. Graced with her clean white apron, her shapely head crowned by the glory of her simply plaited hair, she was a pleasing sight for any man to look upon.

He smiled and patted her cheek, feeling incredibly happy to see her again. Every day seemed to enhance her beauty. Dressed in her clean white apron, her lovely head adorned with her simply braided hair, she was a beautiful sight for any man to behold.

He waited until Mrs. Gerhardt returned, and then, having accomplished the purpose of his visit, he arose.

He waited until Mrs. Gerhardt came back, and then, having achieved what he came for, he got up.

“I’m going to take your daughter out riding to-morrow evening,” he explained. “I want to talk to her about her future.”

“I’m going to take your daughter out riding tomorrow evening,” he said. “I want to talk to her about her future.”

“Won’t that be nice?” said the mother. She saw nothing incongruous in the proposal. They parted with smiles and much handshaking.

“Won’t that be great?” said the mother. She saw nothing unusual in the suggestion. They said goodbye with smiles and plenty of handshakes.

“That man has the best heart,” commented Mrs. Gerhardt. “Doesn’t he always speak so nicely of you? He may help you to an education. You ought to be proud.”

“That guy has the best heart,” Mrs. Gerhardt said. “Doesn’t he always say such nice things about you? He might help you get an education. You should be proud.”

“I am,” said Jennie frankly.

"I'm," Jennie said honestly.

“I don’t know whether we had better tell your father or not,” concluded Mrs. Gerhardt. “He doesn’t like for you to be out evenings.”

“I’m not sure if we should tell your dad or not,” Mrs. Gerhardt said. “He doesn’t like it when you’re out at night.”

Finally they decided not to tell him. He might not understand.

Finally, they decided not to tell him. He might not get it.

Jennie was ready when he called. He could see by the weak-flamed, unpretentious parlor-lamp that she was dressed for him, and that the occasion had called out the best she had. A pale lavender gingham, starched and ironed, until it was a model of laundering, set off her pretty figure to perfection. There were little lace-edged cuffs and a rather high collar attached to it. She had no gloves, nor any jewelry, nor yet a jacket good enough to wear, but her hair was done up in such a dainty way that it set off her well-shaped head better than any hat, and the few ringlets that could escape crowned her as with a halo. When Brander suggested that she should wear a jacket she hesitated a moment; then she went in and borrowed her mother’s cape, a plain gray woolen one. Brander realized now that she had no jacket, and suffered keenly to think that she had contemplated going without one.

Jennie was ready when he called. He could see from the dim light of the simple parlor lamp that she had dressed for him, putting on her best for the occasion. A pale lavender gingham dress, starched and ironed until it looked pristine, perfectly showcased her lovely figure. It had delicate lace-edged cuffs and a fairly high collar. She wasn't wearing gloves or any jewelry, and her jacket wasn't suitable, but her hair was done up so elegantly that it framed her well-shaped head better than any hat, with a few ringlets escaping like a halo. When Brander suggested she wear a jacket, she hesitated for a moment; then she went inside and borrowed her mother's plain gray wool cape. Brander now realized she had no jacket and felt a pang of discomfort at the thought that she had considered going without one.

“She would have endured the raw night air,” he thought, “and said nothing of it.”

“She would have braved the chilly night air,” he thought, “and wouldn’t have said a word about it.”

He looked at her and shook his head reflectively. Then they started, and he quickly forgot everything but the great fact that she was at his side. She talked with freedom and with a gentle girlish enthusiasm that he found irresistibly charming.

He looked at her and shook his head thoughtfully. Then they set off, and he quickly forgot everything except the fact that she was by his side. She spoke freely, with a sweet, youthful enthusiasm that he found completely charming.

“Why, Jennie,” he said, when she had called upon him to notice how soft the trees looked, where, outlined dimly against the new rising moon, they were touched with its yellow light, “you’re a great one. I believe you would write poetry if you were schooled a little.”

“Why, Jennie,” he said, when she had asked him to notice how soft the trees looked, where, faintly outlined against the new rising moon, they were lit up with its yellow light, “you’re amazing. I really think you would write poetry if you learned a bit more.”

“Do you suppose I could?” she asked innocently.

“Do you think I could?” she asked innocently.

“Do I suppose, little girl?” he said, taking her hand. “Do I suppose? Why, I know. You’re the dearest little day-dreamer in the world. Of course you could write poetry. You live it. You are poetry, my dear. Don’t you worry about writing any.”

“Do I suppose, sweetheart?” he said, taking her hand. “Do I suppose? Of course I do. You’re the sweetest little daydreamer in the world. Obviously, you could write poetry. You live it. You are poetry, my dear. Don’t worry about writing any.”

This eulogy touched her as nothing else possibly could have done. He was always saying such nice things. No one ever seemed to like or to appreciate her half as much as he did. And how good he was! Everybody said that. Her own father.

This eulogy moved her in a way nothing else ever could. He was always saying such kind things. No one ever seemed to like or appreciate her as much as he did. And he was so good! Everyone said that, even her own father.

They rode still farther, until suddenly remembering, he said: “I wonder what time it is. Perhaps we had better be turning back. Have you your watch?”

They rode on further until he suddenly remembered and said, “I wonder what time it is. Maybe we should turn back. Do you have your watch?”

Jennie started, for this watch had been the one thing of which she had hoped he would not speak. Ever since he had returned it had been on her mind.

Jennie flinched, because this watch was the one thing she had hoped he wouldn’t mention. Ever since he had come back, it had occupied her thoughts.

In his absence the family finances had become so strained that she had been compelled to pawn it. Martha had got to that place in the matter of apparel where she could no longer go to school unless something new were provided for her. And so, after much discussion, it was decided that the watch must go.

In his absence, the family finances had become so tight that she had to pawn it. Martha had reached a point where she couldn’t go to school unless she had some new clothes. So, after a lot of discussion, they decided that the watch had to go.

Bass took it, and after much argument with the local pawn broker, he had been able to bring home ten dollars. Mrs. Gerhardt expended the money upon her children, and heaved a sigh of relief. Martha looked very much better. Naturally, Jennie was glad.

Bass took it, and after a lot of back and forth with the local pawn shop owner, he managed to bring home ten dollars. Mrs. Gerhardt spent the money on her children and let out a sigh of relief. Martha looked much better. Naturally, Jennie was happy.

Now, however, when the Senator spoke of it, her hour of retribution seemed at hand. She actually trembled, and he noticed her discomfiture.

Now, however, when the Senator talked about it, her time for payback seemed to be coming. She was actually shaking, and he saw her discomfort.

“Why, Jennie,” he said gently, “what made you start like that?”

“Why, Jennie,” he said softly, “what made you jump like that?”

“Nothing,” she answered.

“Nothing,” she replied.

“Haven’t you your watch?”

"Don't you have your watch?"

She paused, for it seemed impossible to tell a deliberate falsehood. There was a strained silence; then she said, with a voice that had too much of a sob in it for him not to suspect the truth, “No, sir.” He persisted, and she confessed everything.

She paused, because it felt impossible to tell a lie on purpose. There was an awkward silence; then she said, her voice shaky enough for him to doubt her, “No, sir.” He kept pushing, and she admitted everything.

“Well,” he said, “dearest, don’t feel badly about it. There never was such another girl. I’ll get your watch for you. Hereafter when you need anything I want you to come to me. Do you hear? I want you to promise me that. If I’m not here, I want you to write me. I’ll always be in touch with you from now on. You will have my address. Just let me know, and I’ll help you. Do you understand?”

“Well,” he said, “sweetheart, don’t feel bad about it. There’s never been another girl like you. I’ll get your watch for you. From now on, whenever you need anything, I want you to come to me. Do you understand? I need you to promise me that. If I’m not around, I want you to write to me. I’ll always keep in touch with you from now on. You’ll have my address. Just let me know, and I’ll help you. Got it?”

“Yes,” said Jennie.

“Yes,” Jennie replied.

“You’ll promise to do that now, will you?’

"You promise to do that now, will you?"

“Yes,” she replied.

“Yes,” she said.

For a moment neither of them spoke.

For a moment, neither of them said anything.

“Jennie,” he said at last, the spring-like quality of the night moving him to a burst of feeling, “I’ve about decided that I can’t do without you. Do you think you could make up your mind to live with me from now on?”

“Jennie,” he finally said, feeling a wave of emotion inspired by the fresh night air, “I’ve pretty much decided that I can’t imagine my life without you. Do you think you could consider living with me from now on?”

Jennie looked away, not clearly understanding his words as he meant them.

Jennie looked away, not fully grasping what he meant by his words.

“I don’t know,” she said vaguely.

“I don’t know,” she said, sounding uncertain.

“Well, you think about it,” he said pleasantly. “I’m serious. Would you be willing to marry me, and let me put you away in a seminary for a few years?”

"Well, think it over," he said nicely. "I’m serious. Would you consider marrying me and letting me put you in a seminary for a few years?"

“Go away to school?”

"Leave for school?"

“Yes, after you marry me.”

"Yes, after you marry me."

“I guess so,” she replied. Her mother came into her mind. Maybe she could help the family.

“I guess so,” she replied. Her mother came to mind. Maybe she could help the family.

He looked around at her, and tried to make out the expression on her face. It was not dark. The moon was now above the trees in the east, and already the vast host of stars were paling before it.

He looked at her and tried to read the expression on her face. It wasn't grim. The moon was now rising above the trees in the east, and already the countless stars were fading in its light.

“Don’t you care for me at all, Jennie?” he asked.

“Don’t you care about me at all, Jennie?” he asked.

“Yes!”

“Absolutely!”

“You never come for my laundry any more, though,” he returned pathetically. It touched her to hear him say this.

“You never come for my laundry anymore,” he replied sadly. It affected her to hear him say this.

“I didn’t do that,” she answered. “I couldn’t help it; Mother thought it was best.”

“I didn’t do that,” she replied. “I couldn’t help it; Mom thought it was best.”

“So it was,” he assented. “Don’t feel badly. I was only joking with you. You’d be glad to come if you could, wouldn’t you?”

“So it was,” he agreed. “Don’t feel bad. I was just joking with you. You’d be happy to come if you could, right?”

“Yes, I would,” she answered frankly.

“Yes, I would,” she replied honestly.

He took her hand and pressed it so feelingly that all his kindly words seemed doubly emphasized to her. Reaching up impulsively, she put her arms about him. “You’re so good to me,” she said with the loving tone of a daughter.

He took her hand and squeezed it so sincerely that all his kind words felt even more meaningful to her. Reaching up without thinking, she wrapped her arms around him. “You’re so good to me,” she said with a loving tone like a daughter.

“You’re my girl, Jennie,” he said with deep feeling. “I’d do anything in the world for you.”

“You’re my girl, Jennie,” he said sincerely. “I’d do anything for you.”

CHAPTER VI

The father of this unfortunate family, William Gerhardt, was a man of considerable interest on his personal side. Born in the kingdom of Saxony, he had had character enough to oppose the army conscription iniquity, and to flee, in his eighteenth year, to Paris. From there he had set forth for America, the land of promise.

The father of this unfortunate family, William Gerhardt, was quite an interesting person. Born in the kingdom of Saxony, he had the courage to stand against the injustice of military conscription and fled to Paris when he was eighteen. From there, he set off for America, the land of opportunity.

Arrived in this country, he had made his way, by slow stages, from New York to Philadelphia, and thence westward, working for a time in the various glass factories in Pennsylvania. In one romantic village of this new world he had found his heart’s ideal. With her, a simple American girl of German extraction, he had removed to Youngstown, and thence to Columbus, each time following a glass manufacturer by the name of Hammond, whose business prospered and waned by turns.

Arriving in this country, he traveled slowly from New York to Philadelphia, and then westward, working for a while in different glass factories in Pennsylvania. In one charming village of this new world, he found his heart's desire. With her, a simple American girl of German descent, he moved to Youngstown, and then to Columbus, each time following a glass manufacturer named Hammond, whose business fluctuated between success and failure.

Gerhardt was an honest man, and he liked to think that others appreciated his integrity. “William,” his employer used to say to him, “I want you because I can trust you,” and this, to him, was more than silver and gold.

Gerhardt was a trustworthy man, and he liked to believe that others valued his honesty. “William,” his boss would often say to him, “I want you here because I can rely on you,” and to him, that meant more than money.

This honesty, like his religious convictions, was wholly due to inheritance. He had never reasoned about it. Father and grandfather before him were sturdy German artisans, who had never cheated anybody out of a dollar, and this honesty of intention came into his veins undiminished.

This honesty, like his religious beliefs, was completely inherited. He had never thought much about it. His father and grandfather before him were hardworking German craftsmen who never cheated anyone out of a dollar, and this genuine intention flowed through his veins unchanged.

His Lutheran proclivities had been strengthened by years of church-going and the religious observances of home life, In his father’s cottage the influence of the Lutheran minister had been all-powerful; he had inherited the feeling that the Lutheran Church was a perfect institution, and that its teachings were of all-importance when it came to the issue of the future life. His wife, nominally of the Mennonite faith, was quite willing to accept her husband’s creed. And so his household became a God-fearing one; wherever they went their first public step was to ally themselves with the local Lutheran church, and the minister was always a welcome guest in the Gerhardt home.

His Lutheran beliefs had been strengthened by years of attending church and the religious practices at home. In his father’s cottage, the influence of the Lutheran minister was significant; he had grown up believing that the Lutheran Church was an ideal institution and that its teachings were crucial when it came to the afterlife. His wife, who was officially of the Mennonite faith, was more than happy to accept her husband’s beliefs. As a result, their household became one that honored God; wherever they went, their first step in the community was to join the local Lutheran church, and the minister was always a welcome guest in the Gerhardt home.

Pastor Wundt, the shepherd of the Columbus church, was a sincere and ardent Christian, but his bigotry and hard-and-fast orthodoxy made him intolerant. He considered that the members of his flock were jeopardizing their eternal salvation if they danced, played cards, or went to theaters, and he did not hesitate to declare vociferously that hell was yawning for those who disobeyed his injunctions. Drinking, even temperately, was a sin. Smoking—well, he smoked himself. Right conduct in marriage, however, and innocence before that state were absolute essentials of Christian living. Let no one talk of salvation, he had said, for a daughter who had failed to keep her chastity unstained, or for the parents who, by negligence, had permitted her to fall. Hell was yawning for all such. You must walk the straight and narrow way if you would escape eternal punishment, and a just God was angry with sinners every day.

Pastor Wundt, the leader of the Columbus church, was a genuine and passionate Christian, but his narrow-mindedness and strict adherence to doctrine made him intolerant. He believed that his congregation was risking their eternal salvation if they danced, played cards, or attended theaters, and he didn’t hesitate to loudly proclaim that hell awaited those who disobeyed his rules. Drinking, even in moderation, was a sin. Smoking—well, he smoked himself. However, proper conduct in marriage and purity before that commitment were absolute necessities of Christian life. He insisted that no one could speak of salvation for a daughter who had lost her virginity or for the parents who, through neglect, allowed it to happen. Hell was ready for all of them. You needed to walk the straight and narrow path if you wanted to avoid eternal punishment, and a just God was angry with sinners every day.

Gerhardt and his wife, and also Jennie, accepted the doctrines of their Church as expounded by Mr. Wundt without reserve. With Jennie, however, the assent was little more than nominal. Religion had as yet no striking hold upon her. It was a pleasant thing to know that there was a heaven, a fearsome one to realize that there was a hell. Young girls and boys ought to be good and obey their parents. Otherwise the whole religious problem was badly jumbled in her mind.

Gerhardt, his wife, and Jennie fully accepted the teachings of their Church as explained by Mr. Wundt. However, for Jennie, her agreement was mostly superficial. Religion didn't have a strong impact on her yet. It was nice to think there was a heaven, but scary to think about hell. Young kids should be good and listen to their parents. Other than that, the whole concept of religion was pretty confusing for her.

Gerhardt was convinced that everything spoken from the pulpit of his church was literally true. Death and the future life were realities to him.

Gerhardt believed that everything said from the pulpit of his church was absolutely true. To him, death and the afterlife were real.

Now that the years were slipping away and the problem of the world was becoming more and more inexplicable, he clung with pathetic anxiety to the doctrines which contained a solution. Oh, if he could only be so honest and upright that the Lord might have no excuse for ruling him out. He trembled not only for himself, but for his wife and children. Would he not some day be held responsible for them? Would not his own laxity and lack of system in inculcating the laws of eternal life to them end in his and their damnation? He pictured to himself the torments of hell, and wondered how it would be with him and his in the final hour.

Now that the years were passing by and the world's problems were becoming increasingly confusing, he desperately held onto the beliefs that offered a solution. Oh, if only he could be so honest and virtuous that God would have no reason to exclude him. He worried not just for himself, but for his wife and kids. Would he not someday be held accountable for them? Wouldn't his own carelessness and lack of structure in teaching them the principles of eternal life lead to their doom and his as well? He imagined the torments of hell and wondered what would happen to him and his family in the end.

Naturally, such a deep religious feeling made him stern with his children. He was prone to scan with a narrow eye the pleasures and foibles of youthful desire. Jennie was never to have a lover if her father had any voice in the matter. Any flirtation with the youths she might meet upon the streets of Columbus could have no continuation in her home. Gerhardt forgot that he was once young himself, and looked only to the welfare of her spirit. So the Senator was a novel factor in her life.

Naturally, such a strong sense of religion made him strict with his children. He was likely to scrutinize the pleasures and quirks of youthful desire closely. Jennie was never going to have a boyfriend if her father had anything to say about it. Any flirting with the boys she might encounter on the streets of Columbus was not going to continue at home. Gerhardt forgot that he had once been young himself and focused solely on the welfare of her spirit. So, the Senator was a new element in her life.

When he first began to be a part of their family affairs the conventional standards of Father Gerhardt proved untrustworthy. He had no means of judging such a character. This was no ordinary person coquetting with his pretty daughter. The manner in which the Senator entered the family life was so original and so plausible that he became an active part before any one thought anything about it. Gerhardt himself was deceived, and, expecting nothing but honor and profit to flow to the family from such a source, accepted the interest and the service, and plodded peacefully on. His wife did not tell him of the many presents which had come before and since the wonderful Christmas.

When he first started getting involved in their family matters, Father Gerhardt's traditional standards turned out to be unreliable. He had no way of judging someone like that. This wasn't just any person flirting with his beautiful daughter. The way the Senator entered their family life was so unique and convincing that he became a part of it before anyone even noticed. Gerhardt himself was fooled, thinking only good things and benefits would come to the family from this connection, so he welcomed the interest and help, and carried on peacefully. His wife didn’t mention the many gifts that had come before and after that amazing Christmas.

But one morning as Gerhardt was coming home from his night work a neighbor named Otto Weaver accosted him.

But one morning as Gerhardt was coming home from his night shift, a neighbor named Otto Weaver approached him.

“Gerhardt,” he said, “I want to speak a word with you. As a friend of yours, I want to tell you what I hear. The neighbors, you know, they talk now about the man who comes to see your daughter.”

“Gerhardt,” he said, “I want to have a word with you. As a friend, I want to let you know what I've heard. The neighbors, you know, are talking about the man who's been visiting your daughter.”

“My daughter?” said Gerhardt, more puzzled and pained by this abrupt attack than mere words could indicate. “Whom do you mean? I don’t know of any one who comes to see my daughter.”

“My daughter?” Gerhardt said, more confused and hurt by this sudden accusation than words could express. “Who are you talking about? I don’t know anyone who visits my daughter.”

“No?” inquired Weaver, nearly as much astonished as the recipient of his confidences. “The middle-aged man, with gray hair. He carries a cane sometimes. You don’t know him?”

“Really?” Weaver asked, just as surprised as the person he was confiding in. “The middle-aged guy with gray hair? He sometimes has a cane. You don’t know him?”

Gerhardt racked his memory with a puzzled face.

Gerhardt furrowed his brow, trying to remember.

“They say he was a senator once,” went on Weaver, doubtful of what he had got into; “I don’t know.”

“They say he was a senator once,” Weaver continued, unsure of what he had gotten himself into; “I don’t know.”

“Ah,” returned Gerhardt, measurably relieved. “Senator Brander. Yes. He has come sometimes—so. Well, what of it?”

“Ah,” Gerhardt replied, feeling somewhat relieved. “Senator Brander. Yes. He has come by occasionally—like that. So, what about it?”

“It is nothing,” returned the neighbor, “only they talk. He is no longer a young man, you know. Your daughter, she goes out with him now a few times. These people, they see that, and now they talk about her. I thought you might want to know.”

“It’s nothing,” the neighbor replied, “they just talk. He’s not a young man anymore, you know. Your daughter has gone out with him a few times now. People notice that, and now they’re talking about her. I thought you might want to know.”

Gerhardt was shocked to the depths of his being by these terrible words. People must have a reason for saying such things. Jennie and her mother were seriously at fault. Still he did not hesitate to defend his daughter.

Gerhardt was deeply shocked by those terrible words. People must have a reason for saying such things. Jennie and her mother were definitely to blame. Still, he didn’t hesitate to stand up for his daughter.

“He is a friend of the family,” he said confusedly. “People should not talk until they know. My daughter has done nothing.”

“He's a friend of the family,” he said, confused. “People shouldn’t talk until they know the facts. My daughter hasn’t done anything.”

“That is so. It is nothing,” continued Weaver. “People talk before they have any grounds. You and I are old friends. I thought you might want to know.”

“That’s true. It’s nothing,” Weaver continued. “People talk without having any reasons. You and I are old friends. I thought you might want to know.”

Gerhardt stood there motionless another minute or so, his jaw fallen and a strange helplessness upon him. The world was such a grim thing to have antagonistic to you. Its opinions and good favor were so essential. How hard he had tried to live up to its rules! Why should it not be satisfied and let him alone?

Gerhardt stood there frozen for another minute or so, his jaw dropped and a strange sense of helplessness washing over him. The world felt so harsh when it was against you. Its opinions and approval were so crucial. He had worked so hard to follow its rules! Why couldn't it just be satisfied and leave him alone?

“I am glad you told me,” he murmured as he started homeward. “I will see about it. Good-by.”

“I’m glad you told me,” he said softly as he headed home. “I’ll look into it. Bye.”

Gerhardt took the first opportunity to question his wife.

Gerhardt took the first chance to ask his wife.

“What is this about Senator Brander coming out to call on Jennie?” he asked in German. “The neighbors are talking about it.”

“What’s this about Senator Brander coming to see Jennie?” he asked in German. “The neighbors are talking about it.”

“Why, nothing,” answered Mrs. Gerhardt, in the same language. She was decidedly taken aback at his question. “He did call two or three times.”

“Why, nothing,” replied Mrs. Gerhardt, speaking the same way. She was clearly surprised by his question. “He did call two or three times.”

“You didn’t tell me that,” he returned, a sense of her frailty in tolerating and shielding such weakness in one of their children irritating him.

“You didn’t tell me that,” he replied, feeling annoyed by her ability to put up with and protect such vulnerability in one of their kids.

“No,” she replied, absolutely nonplussed. “He has only been here two or three times.”

“No,” she said, completely unfazed. “He’s only been here two or three times.”

“Two or three times!” exclaimed Gerhardt, the German tendency to talk loud coming upon him. “Two or three times! The whole neighborhood talks about it. What is this, then?”

“Two or three times!” shouted Gerhardt, his German tendency to speak loudly kicking in. “Two or three times! The whole neighborhood is talking about it. So what is this, then?”

“He only called two or three times,” Mrs. Gerhardt repeated weakly.

“He only called two or three times,” Mrs. Gerhardt repeated softly.

“Weaver comes to me on the street,” continued Gerhardt, “and tells me that my neighbors are talking of the man my daughter is going with. I didn’t know anything about it. There I stood. I didn’t know what to say. What kind of a way is that? What must the man think of me?”

“Weaver approaches me on the street,” Gerhardt continued, “and tells me that my neighbors are gossiping about the guy my daughter is dating. I had no idea about it. I was just standing there, not knowing what to say. What kind of situation is that? What must that guy think of me?”

“There is nothing the matter,” declared the mother, using an effective German idiom. “Jennie has gone walking with him once or twice. He has called here at the house. What is there now in that for the people to talk about? Can’t the girl have any pleasure at all?”

“There’s nothing wrong,” the mother said, using a well-known German expression. “Jennie has gone out for a walk with him a couple of times. He’s come over to the house. What’s there for people to gossip about? Can’t the girl have any fun?”

“But he is an old man,” returned Gerhardt, voicing the words of Weaver. “He is a public citizen. What should he want to call on a girl like Jennie for?”

“But he’s an old man,” Gerhardt replied, echoing Weaver’s words. “He’s a public figure. Why would he want to visit a girl like Jennie?”

“I don’t know,” said Mrs. Gerhardt, defensively. “He comes here to the house. I don’t know anything but good about the man. Can I tell him not to come?”

“I don’t know,” Mrs. Gerhardt said, feeling defensive. “He comes over to the house. I can only say good things about him. Can I really ask him not to come?”

Gerhardt paused at this. All that he knew of the Senator was excellent. What was there now that was so terrible about it?

Gerhardt paused at this. Everything he knew about the Senator was great. What could possibly be so awful about it now?

“The neighbors are so ready to talk. They haven’t got anything else to talk about now, so they talk about Jennie. You know whether she is a good girl or not. Why should they say such things?” and tears came into the soft little mother’s eyes.

“The neighbors are so eager to gossip. They don’t have anything else to discuss now, so they talk about Jennie. You know whether she’s a good girl or not. Why should they say those things?” And tears filled the gentle little mother’s eyes.

“That is all right,” grumbled Gerhardt, “but he ought not to want to come around and take a girl of her age out walking. It looks bad, even if he don’t mean any harm.”

"That’s fine," grumbled Gerhardt, "but he shouldn’t want to come around and take a girl her age out walking. It looks bad, even if he doesn’t mean any harm."

At this moment Jennie came in. She had heard the talking in the front bedroom, where she slept with one of the children, but had not suspected its import. Now her mother turned her back and bent over the table where she was making biscuit, in order that her daughter might not see her red eyes.

At that moment, Jennie walked in. She had heard the conversation coming from the front bedroom, where she shared a room with one of the kids, but hadn’t thought much of it. Now her mother turned away and leaned over the table where she was making biscuits, so her daughter wouldn’t notice her red eyes.

“What’s the matter?” she inquired, vaguely troubled by the tense stillness in the attitude of both her parents.

“What’s wrong?” she asked, feeling uneasy about the tense silence from both her parents.

“Nothing,” said Gerhardt firmly.

“Nothing,” Gerhardt said firmly.

Mrs. Gerhardt made no sign, but her very immobility told something. Jennie went over to her and quickly discovered that she had been weeping.

Mrs. Gerhardt didn’t say anything, but her stillness spoke volumes. Jennie walked over to her and quickly realized that she had been crying.

“What’s the matter?” she repeated wonderingly, gazing at her father.

“What's going on?” she asked curiously, looking at her father.

Gerhardt only stood there, his daughter’s innocence dominating his terror of evil.

Gerhardt just stood there, his daughter's innocence overpowering his fear of evil.

“What’s the matter?” she urged softly of her mother.

“What's wrong?” she gently asked her mother.

“Oh, it’s the neighbors,” returned the mother brokenly.

“Oh, it’s the neighbors,” the mother replied, sounding devastated.

“They’re always ready to talk about something they don’t know anything about.”

“They're always ready to discuss things they know nothing about.”

“Is it me again?” inquired Jennie, her face flushing faintly.

“Is it me again?” Jennie asked, her face turning slightly red.

“You see,” observed Gerhardt, apparently addressing the world in general, “she knows. Now, why didn’t you tell me that he was coming here? The neighbors talk, and I hear nothing about it until to-day. What kind of a way is that, anyhow?”

“You see,” Gerhardt said, seeming to address everyone, “she knows. So, why didn’t you tell me he was coming here? The neighbors chat, and I don’t hear anything about it until today. What kind of way is that, anyway?”

“Oh,” exclaimed Jennie, out of the purest sympathy for her mother, “what difference does it make?”

“Oh,” Jennie exclaimed, feeling deep sympathy for her mother, “what difference does it make?”

“What difference?” cried Gerhardt, still talking in German, although Jennie answered in English. “Is it no difference that men stop me on the street and speak of it? You should be ashamed of yourself to say that. I always thought well of this man, but now, since you don’t tell me about him, and the neighbors talk, I don’t know what to think. Must I get my knowledge of what is going on in my own home from my neighbors?”

“What difference?” shouted Gerhardt, still speaking in German, even though Jennie replied in English. “Isn’t it a big deal that men stop me on the street and mention it? You should be ashamed to say that. I always thought well of this man, but now, since you won’t tell me about him, and the neighbors are gossiping, I don’t know what to think. Do I have to get the information about what’s happening in my own home from my neighbors?”

Mother and daughter paused. Jennie had already begun to think that their error was serious.

Mother and daughter paused. Jennie had already started to worry that their mistake was serious.

“I didn’t keep anything from you because it was evil,” she said. “Why, he only took me out riding once.”

“I didn’t hide anything from you because it was wrong,” she said. “He only took me out riding once.”

“Yes, but you didn’t tell me that,” answered her father.

"Yeah, but you didn’t mention that," her father replied.

“You know you don’t like for me to go out after dark,” replied Jennie. “That’s why I didn’t. There wasn’t anything else to hide about it.”

“You know you don’t want me going out after dark,” Jennie replied. “That’s why I didn’t. There was nothing else to hide about it.”

“He shouldn’t want you to go out after dark with him,” observed Gerhardt, always mindful of the world outside. “What can he want with you. Why does he come here? He is too old, anyhow. I don’t think you ought to have anything to do with him—such a young girl as you are.”

“He shouldn’t want you to go out with him after dark,” Gerhardt noted, always aware of the world outside. “What does he want with you? Why does he come here? He’s too old, anyway. I don’t think you should have anything to do with him—especially as young as you are.”

“He doesn’t want to do anything except help me,” murmured Jennie. “He wants to marry me.”

“He doesn’t want to do anything except help me,” Jennie whispered. “He wants to marry me.”

“Marry you? Ha! Why doesn’t he tell me that!” exclaimed Gerhardt. “I shall look into this. I won’t have him running around with my daughter, and the neighbors talking. Besides, he is too old. I shall tell him that. He ought to know better than to put a girl where she gets talked about. It is better he should stay away altogether.”

“Marry you? Ha! Why doesn’t he just tell me that!” Gerhardt exclaimed. “I’ll look into this. I won’t have him hanging around with my daughter, with the neighbors gossiping. Plus, he’s too old. I’ll let him know that. He should understand better than to put a girl in a situation where people talk. It would be better if he stayed away completely.”

This threat of Gerhardt’s, that he would tell Brander to stay away, seemed simply terrible to Jennie and to her mother. What good could come of any such attitude? Why must they be degraded before him? Of course Brander did call again, while Gerhardt was away at work, and they trembled lest the father should hear of it. A few days later the Senator came and took Jennie for a long walk. Neither she nor her mother said anything to Gerhardt. But he was not to be put off the scent for long.

This threat from Gerhardt, that he would tell Brander to stay away, felt awful to Jennie and her mom. What good could come from that kind of attitude? Why did they have to be looked down on in front of him? Of course, Brander did visit again while Gerhardt was at work, and they were nervous that the father would find out. A few days later, the Senator came and took Jennie for a long walk. Neither she nor her mom mentioned anything to Gerhardt. But he wouldn’t be kept in the dark for long.

“Has Jennie been out again with that man?” he inquired of Mrs. Gerhardt the next evening.

“Has Jennie gone out again with that guy?” he asked Mrs. Gerhardt the next evening.

“He was here last night,” returned the mother, evasively.

“He was here last night,” the mother replied, avoiding the question.

“Did she tell him he shouldn’t come any more?”

“Did she tell him he shouldn’t come anymore?”

“I don’t know. I don’t think so.”

"I’m not sure. I don’t think so."

“Well, now, I will see for myself once whether this thing will be stopped or not,” said the determined father. “I shall talk with him. Wait till he comes again.”

“Well, now, I’ll see for myself if this will be stopped or not,” said the determined father. “I’ll talk to him. Just wait until he comes back.”

In accordance with this, he took occasion to come up from his factory on three different evenings, each time carefully surveying the house, in order to discover whether any visitor was being entertained. On the fourth evening Brander came, and inquiring for Jennie, who was exceedingly nervous, he took her out for a walk. She was afraid of her father, lest some unseemly things should happen, but did not know exactly what to do.

In line with this, he decided to come up from his factory on three separate evenings, each time carefully checking out the house to see if any guests were being entertained. On the fourth evening, Brander arrived and asked for Jennie, who was really nervous. He took her out for a walk. She was scared of her father, worried that something inappropriate might happen, but she wasn’t sure what to do.

Gerhardt, who was on his way to the house at the time, observed her departure. That was enough for him. Walking deliberately in upon his wife, he said:

Gerhardt, who was heading to the house at the time, saw her leave. That was all he needed. Walking calmly into the room where his wife was, he said:

“Where is Jennie?”

“Where's Jennie?”

“She is out somewhere,” said her mother.

“She’s out somewhere,” her mother said.

“Yes, I know where,” said Gerhardt. “I saw her. Now wait till she comes home. I will tell him.”

“Yes, I know where,” Gerhardt said. “I saw her. Just wait until she gets home. I’ll let him know.”

He sat down calmly, reading a German paper and keeping an eye upon his wife, until, at last, the gate clicked, and the front door opened. Then he got up.

He sat down quietly, reading a German newspaper and watching his wife, until finally, the gate clicked, and the front door opened. Then he stood up.

“Where have you been?” he exclaimed in German.

“Where have you been?” he shouted in German.

Brander, who had not suspected that any trouble of this character was pending, felt irritated and uncomfortable. Jennie was covered with confusion. Her mother was suffering an agony of torment in the kitchen.

Brander, who hadn’t anticipated any trouble like this was coming, felt annoyed and uneasy. Jennie was overwhelmed with embarrassment. Her mother was in a state of distress in the kitchen.

“Why, I have been out for a walk,” she answered confusedly.

“Why, I went out for a walk,” she replied, puzzled.

“Didn’t I tell you not to go out any more after dark?” said Gerhardt, utterly ignoring Brander.

“Didn’t I tell you not to go out anymore after dark?” Gerhardt said, completely ignoring Brander.

Jennie colored furiously, unable to speak a word.

Jennie colored intensely, not able to say a word.

“What is the trouble?” inquired Brander gravely. “Why should you talk to her like that?”

“What’s the issue?” Brander asked seriously. “Why are you speaking to her that way?”

“She should not go out after dark,” returned the father rudely. “I have told her two or three times now. I don’t think you ought to come here any more, either.”

“She shouldn't go out after dark,” the father said rudely. “I've told her two or three times now. I don’t think you should come here anymore, either.”

“And why?” asked the Senator, pausing to consider and choose his words. “Isn’t this rather peculiar? What has your daughter done?”

“And why?” asked the Senator, pausing to think and pick his words. “Isn’t this a bit strange? What has your daughter done?”

“What has she done!” exclaimed Gerhardt, his excitement growing under the strain he was enduring, and speaking almost unaccented English in consequence. “She is running around the streets at night when she oughtn’t to be. I don’t want my daughter taken out after dark by a man of your age. What do you want with her anyway? She is only a child yet.”

“What has she done?” Gerhardt exclaimed, his excitement increasing under the pressure he was feeling, and he was speaking almost without an accent in English as a result. “She’s out running the streets at night when she shouldn’t be. I don’t want my daughter taken out after dark by a man your age. What do you even want with her? She’s still just a child.”

“Want!” said the Senator, straining to regain his ruffled dignity. “I want to talk with her, of course. She is old enough to be interesting to me. I want to marry her if she will have me.”

“Want!” said the Senator, trying to restore his composure. “I want to talk to her, of course. She's old enough to be interesting to me. I want to marry her if she’ll accept me.”

“I want you to go out of here and stay out of here,” returned the father, losing all sense of logic, and descending to the ordinary level of parental compulsion. “I don’t want you to come around my house any more. I have enough trouble without my daughter being taken out and given a bad name.”

“I want you to leave this place and never come back,” the father shot back, completely losing his grip on reason and sinking to the typical level of parental pressure. “I don't want you hanging around my house anymore. I have enough problems without my daughter getting into trouble and ruining her reputation.”

“I tell you frankly,” said the Senator, drawing himself up to his full height, “that you will have to make clear your meaning. I have done nothing that I am ashamed of. Your daughter has not come to any harm through me. Now, I want to know what you mean by conducting yourself in this manner.”

“I'll be honest with you,” said the Senator, standing tall, “you need to clarify your intentions. I haven't done anything I regret. Your daughter hasn’t been harmed in any way because of me. Now, I want to understand why you're acting like this.”

“I mean,” said Gerhardt, excitedly repeating himself, “I mean, I mean that the whole neighborhood talks about how you come around here, and have buggy-rides and walks with my daughter when I am not here—that’s what I mean. I mean that you are no man of honorable intentions, or you would not come taking up with a little girl who is only old enough to be your daughter. People tell me well enough what you are. Just you go and leave my daughter alone.”

“I mean,” Gerhardt said, excitedly repeating himself, “I mean that the whole neighborhood is talking about how you come around here and take my daughter for buggy rides and walks when I’m not around—that’s what I mean. I mean that you don’t have honorable intentions, or you wouldn’t be getting close to a girl who’s young enough to be your daughter. People are telling me exactly what you are. Just go on and leave my daughter alone.”

“People!” said the Senator. “Well, I care nothing for your people. I love your daughter, and I am here to see her because I do love her. It is my intention to marry her, and if your neighbors have anything to say to that, let them say it. There is no reason why you should conduct yourself in this manner before you know what my intentions are.”

“People!” said the Senator. “Well, I don’t care about your people. I love your daughter, and I'm here to see her because I truly love her. I plan to marry her, and if your neighbors have something to say about that, let them say it. There’s no reason for you to act this way before you know what my intentions are.”

Unnerved by this unexpected and terrible altercation, Jennie had backed away to the door leading out into the dining-room, and her mother, seeing her, came forward.

Unsettled by this surprising and awful confrontation, Jennie had stepped back to the door that led into the dining room, and her mother, noticing her, approached.

“Oh,” said the latter, breathing excitedly, “he came home when you were away. What shall we do?” They clung together, as women do, and wept silently. The dispute continued.

“Oh,” said the other, breathing excitedly, “he came home while you were away. What are we going to do?” They held onto each other, as women do, and silently cried. The argument went on.

“Marry, eh,” exclaimed the father. “Is that it?”

“Seriously?” the father exclaimed. “Is that all?”

“Yes,” said the Senator, “marry, that is exactly it. Your daughter is eighteen years of age and can decide for herself. You have insulted me and outraged your daughter’s feelings. Now, I wish you to know that it cannot stop here. If you have any cause to say anything against me outside of mere hearsay I wish you to say it.”

“Yes,” said the Senator, “that’s exactly right. Your daughter is eighteen and can make her own choices. You’ve insulted me and hurt your daughter’s feelings. I want you to understand that this won’t end here. If you have any real grievances against me, not just rumors, I want you to voice them.”

The Senator stood before him, a very citadel of righteousness. He was neither loud-voiced nor angry-mannered, but there was a tightness about his lips which bespoke the man of force and determination.

The Senator stood in front of him, a true fortress of righteousness. He wasn’t loud or angry, but there was a tension in his lips that marked him as a man of strength and resolve.

“I don’t want to talk to you any more,” returned Gerhardt, who was checked but not overawed. “My daughter is my daughter. I am the one who will say whether she shall go out at night, or whether she shall marry you, either. I know what you politicians are. When I first met you I thought you were a fine man, but now, since I see the way you conduct yourself with my daughter, I don’t want anything more to do with you. Just you go and stay away from here. That’s all I ask of you.”

“I don’t want to talk to you anymore,” Gerhardt replied, slightly taken aback but not intimidated. “My daughter is my daughter. I’m the one who decides whether she can go out at night or whether she will marry you. I know what you politicians are like. When I first met you, I thought you were a great guy, but now that I see how you treat my daughter, I want nothing more to do with you. Just go and stay away from here. That’s all I ask of you.”

“I am sorry, Mrs. Gerhardt,” said Brander, turning deliberately away from the angry father, “to have had such an argument in your home. I had no idea that your husband was opposed to my visits. However, I will leave the matter as it stands for the present. You must not take all this as badly as it seems.”

“I’m sorry, Mrs. Gerhardt,” Brander said, turning away from the angry father, “that we had such a fight in your home. I had no idea your husband didn’t want me visiting. For now, I’ll just leave things as they are. You shouldn't take this as hard as it seems.”

Gerhardt looked on in astonishment at his coolness.

Gerhardt watched in amazement at his calmness.

“I will go now,” he said, again addressing Gerhardt, “but you mustn’t think that I am leaving this matter for good. You have made a serious mistake this evening. I hope you will realize that. I bid you goodnight.” He bowed slightly and went out.

“I’m leaving now,” he said, turning to Gerhardt again, “but don’t think I’m dropping this issue for good. You’ve made a serious mistake tonight. I hope you come to understand that. Goodnight.” He gave a slight bow and left.

Gerhardt closed the door firmly. “Now,” he said, turning to his daughter and wife, “we will see whether we are rid of him or not. I will show you how to go after night upon the streets when everybody is talking already.”

Gerhardt shut the door securely. “Now,” he said, turning to his daughter and wife, “let's see if we’re done with him or not. I’ll show you how to navigate the streets at night when everyone is already gossiping.”

In so far as words were concerned, the argument ceased, but looks and feeling ran strong and deep, and for days thereafter scarcely a word was spoken in the little cottage. Gerhardt began to brood over the fact that he had accepted his place from the Senator and decided to give it up. He made it known that no more of the Senator’s washing was to be done in their house, and if he had not been sure that Mrs. Gerhardt’s hotel work was due to her own efforts in finding it he would have stopped that. No good would come out of it, anyway. If she had never gone to the hotel all this talk would never have come upon them.

As far as words went, the argument ended, but the tension and emotions ran strong and deep, and for days afterward, hardly a word was spoken in the small cottage. Gerhardt started to dwell on the fact that he had accepted his position from the Senator and decided to give it up. He announced that no more of the Senator’s laundry would be done in their home, and if he hadn’t been certain that Mrs. Gerhardt’s hotel job was a result of her own efforts to find it, he would have stopped that too. No good would come from it anyway. If she hadn’t gone to the hotel, all this drama would never have happened.

As for the Senator, he went away decidedly ruffled by this crude occurrence. Neighborhood slanders are bad enough on their own plane, but for a man of his standing to descend and become involved in one struck him now as being a little bit unworthy. He did not know what to do about the situation, and while he was trying to come to some decision several days went by. Then he was called to Washington, and he went away without having seen Jennie again.

As for the Senator, he left clearly upset by this unpleasant incident. Neighborhood gossip is bad enough on its own, but for someone of his stature to get caught up in it felt beneath him. He was unsure how to handle the situation, and while he tried to sort things out, several days passed. Then he was called to Washington, and he left without seeing Jennie again.

In the mean time the Gerhardt family struggled along as before. They were poor, indeed, but Gerhardt was willing to face poverty if only it could be endured with honor. The grocery bills were of the same size, however. The children’s clothing was steadily wearing out. Economy had to be practised, and payments stopped on old bills that Gerhardt was trying to adjust.

In the meantime, the Gerhardt family continued to get by as always. They were definitely struggling financially, but Gerhardt was determined to face poverty as long as they could do it with dignity. Their grocery bills remained the same, though. The kids' clothes were gradually falling apart. They had to practice frugality, and they stopped making payments on old bills that Gerhardt was trying to manage.

Then came a day when the annual interest on the mortgage was due, and yet another when two different grocery-men met Gerhardt on the street and asked about their little bills. He did not hesitate to explain just what the situation was, and to tell them with convincing honesty that he would try hard and do the best he could. But his spirit was unstrung by his misfortunes. He prayed for the favor of Heaven while at his labor, and did not hesitate to use the daylight hours that he should have had for sleeping to go about—either looking for a more remunerative position or to obtain such little jobs as he could now and then pick up. One of them was that of cutting grass.

Then came a day when the yearly interest on the mortgage was due, and another when two different grocery store owners ran into Gerhardt on the street and asked about their small bills. He didn’t hesitate to explain exactly what was going on and told them with genuine honesty that he would try his hardest and do the best he could. But his spirit was worn down by his troubles. He prayed for Heaven's favor while he worked and didn’t hesitate to use the daylight hours that he should have spent sleeping to look for a better paying job or to pick up whatever small gigs he could find. One of those was cutting grass.

Mrs. Gerhardt protested that he was killing himself, but he explained his procedure by pointing to their necessity.

Mrs. Gerhardt argued that he was harming himself, but he justified his actions by highlighting their necessity.

“When people stop me on the street and ask me for money I have no time to sleep.”

“When people stop me on the street and ask me for money, I can’t even find time to sleep.”

It was a distressing situation for all of them.

It was a really tough situation for all of them.

To cap it all, Sebastian got in jail. It was that old coal-stealing ruse of his practised once too often. He got up on a car one evening while Jennie and the children waited for him, and a railroad detective arrested him. There had been a good deal of coal stealing during the past two years, but so long as it was confined to moderate quantities the railroad took no notice. When, however, customers of shippers complained that cars from the Pennsylvania fields lost thousands of pounds in transit to Cleveland, Cincinnati, Chicago, and other points, detectives were set to work. Gerhardt’s children were not the only ones who preyed upon the railroad in this way. Other families in Columbus—many of them—were constantly doing the same thing, but Sebastian happened to be seized upon as the Columbus example.

To top it all off, Sebastian ended up in jail. He got caught up in his old coal-stealing trick one time too many. One evening, while Jennie and the kids were waiting for him, he climbed onto a train car and got arrested by a railroad detective. There had been quite a bit of coal theft in the last two years, but as long as it stayed at manageable amounts, the railroad didn't pay much attention. However, when customers of shipping companies complained that cars from the Pennsylvania fields were losing thousands of pounds on their way to Cleveland, Cincinnati, Chicago, and other places, the detectives were called in. Gerhardt’s kids weren't the only ones taking advantage of the railroad like this. Many other families in Columbus were doing the same thing, but Sebastian happened to be the one who got caught and became the figurehead for Columbus.

“You come off that car now,” said the detective, suddenly appearing out of the shadow. Jennie and the other children dropped their baskets and buckets and fled for their lives. Sebastian’s first impulse was to jump and run, but when he tried it the detective grabbed him by the coat.

“You get out of that car right now,” said the detective, suddenly stepping out of the shadows. Jennie and the other kids dropped their baskets and buckets and ran for their lives. Sebastian's first instinct was to jump and run, but when he tried, the detective grabbed him by the coat.

“Hold on here,” he exclaimed. “I want you.”

“Wait a second,” he said. “I want you.”

“Aw, let go,” said Sebastian savagely, for he was no weakling. There was nerve and determination in him, as well as a keen sense of his awkward predicament.

“Aw, let go,” Sebastian said fiercely, because he wasn’t some pushover. There was nerve and determination in him, along with a sharp awareness of his awkward situation.

“Let go, I tell you,” he reiterated, and giving a jerk, he almost upset his captor.

“Let go, I’m telling you,” he repeated, and with a quick pull, he nearly knocked his captor off balance.

“Come here now,” said the detective, pulling him viciously in an effort to establish his authority.

“Come here now,” said the detective, yanking him forcefully to assert his authority.

Sebastian came, but it was with a blow which staggered his adversary.

Sebastian arrived, but it was with a punch that knocked his opponent off balance.

There was more struggling, and then a passing railroad hand came to the detective’s assistance. Together they hurried him toward the depôt, and there discovering the local officer, turned him over. It was with a torn coat, scarred hands and face, and a black eye that Sebastian was locked up for the night.

There was more struggle, and then a passing railroad worker came to the detective’s aid. Together they rushed him toward the station, where they found the local officer and handed him over. It was with a ripped coat, bruised hands and face, and a black eye that Sebastian was locked up for the night.

When the children came home they could not say what had happened to their brother, but as nine o’clock struck, and then ten and eleven, and Sebastian did not return, Mrs. Gerhardt was beside herself. He had stayed out many a night as late as twelve and one, but his mother had a foreboding of something terrible tonight. When half-past one arrived, and no Sebastian, she began to cry.

When the kids got home, they couldn’t explain what had happened to their brother. But as nine o’clock turned into ten and then eleven, and Sebastian still didn’t come back, Mrs. Gerhardt was frantic. He had often stayed out late, sometimes until midnight or one in the morning, but tonight, his mother felt like something bad was going to happen. When it reached one-thirty and there was still no sign of Sebastian, she started to cry.

“Some one ought to go up and tell your father,” she said. “He may be in jail.”

“Someone should go up and tell your dad,” she said. “He might be in jail.”

Jennie volunteered, but George, who was soundly sleeping, was awakened to go along with her.

Jennie offered to go, but George, who was fast asleep, was woken up to join her.

“What!” said Gerhardt, astonished to see his two children.

"What!" Gerhardt exclaimed, surprised to see his two kids.

“Bass hasn’t come yet,” said Jennie, and then told the story of the evening’s adventure in explanation.

“Bass hasn’t shown up yet,” Jennie said, and then she explained the story of the evening’s adventure.

Gerhardt left his work at once, walking back with his two children to a point where he could turn off to go to the jail. He guessed what had happened, and his heart was troubled.

Gerhardt immediately left his job and walked back with his two children to a spot where he could turn to go to the jail. He had an idea of what had happened, and his heart was heavy.

“Is that so, now!” he repeated nervously, rubbing his clumsy hands across his wet forehead.

“Is that so, huh!” he said anxiously, rubbing his awkward hands over his sweaty forehead.

Arrived at the station-house, the sergeant in charge told him curtly that Bass was under arrest.

Arriving at the station house, the sergeant in charge told him sharply that Bass was under arrest.

“Sebastian Gerhardt?” he said, looking over his blotter; “yes, here he is. Stealing coal and resisting an officer. Is he your boy?”

“Sebastian Gerhardt?” he said, glancing over his desk; “yes, here he is. Stealing coal and resisting an officer. Is he your kid?”

“Oh, my!” said Gerhardt, “Ach Gott!” He actually wrung his hands in distress.

“Oh, my!” said Gerhardt, “Oh God!” He truly wrung his hands in distress.

“Want to see him?” asked the Sergeant.

“Do you want to see him?” asked the Sergeant.

“Yes, yes,” said the father.

"Yeah, yeah," said the dad.

“Take him back, Fred,” said the other to the old watchman in charge, “and let him see the boy.”

“Take him back, Fred,” said the other to the old watchman in charge, “and let him see the boy.”

When Gerhardt stood in the back room, and Sebastian was brought out all marked and tousled, he broke down and began to cry. No word could cross his lips because of his emotion.

When Gerhardt stood in the back room, and Sebastian was brought out all bruised and disheveled, he lost it and started to cry. He couldn't say a word because he was so emotional.

“Don’t cry, pop,” said Sebastian bravely. “I couldn’t help it. It’s all right. I’ll be out in the morning.”

“Don’t cry, Dad,” said Sebastian bravely. “I couldn’t help it. It’s okay. I’ll be out in the morning.”

Gerhardt only shook with his grief.

Gerhardt just shook with his sorrow.

“Don’t cry,” continued Sebastian, doing his very best to restrain his own tears. “I’ll be all right. What’s the use of crying?”

“Don’t cry,” Sebastian said, trying hard to hold back his own tears. “I’ll be fine. What’s the point of crying?”

“I know, I know,” said the gray-headed parent brokenly, “but I can’t help it. It is my fault that I should let you do that.”

“I know, I know,” said the gray-haired parent sadly, “but I can’t help it. It’s my fault for letting you do that.”

“No, no, it isn’t,” said Sebastian. “You couldn’t help it. Does mother know anything about it?”

“No, no, it’s not,” said Sebastian. “You couldn’t help it. Does Mom know anything about it?”

“Yes, she knows,” he returned. “Jennie and George just came up where I was and told me. I didn’t know anything about it until just now,” and he began to cry again.

“Yes, she knows,” he replied. “Jennie and George just came over to me and told me. I didn’t know anything about it until just now,” and he started to cry again.

“Well, don’t you feel badly,” went on Bass, the finest part of his nature coming to the surface. “I’ll be all right. Just you go back to work now, and don’t worry. I’ll be all right.”

“Well, don’t feel bad,” Bass continued, the best part of his character shining through. “I’ll be fine. Just go back to work now, and don’t worry. I’ll be fine.”

“How did you hurt your eye?” asked the father, looking at him with red eyes.

“How did you hurt your eye?” the father asked, looking at him with red eyes.

“Oh, I had a little wrestling match with the man who nabbed me,” said the boy, smiling bravely. “I thought I could get away.”

“Oh, I had a little wrestling match with the guy who grabbed me,” said the boy, smiling bravely. “I thought I could escape.”

“You shouldn’t do that, Sebastian,” said the father. “It may go harder with you on that account. When does your case come up?”

“You shouldn’t do that, Sebastian,” said the father. “It might be tougher for you because of that. When is your case scheduled?”

“In the morning, they told me,” said Bass. “Nine o’clock.”

“In the morning, they told me,” said Bass. “Nine o’clock.”

Gerhardt stayed with his son for some time, and discussed the question of bail, fine, and the dire possibility of a jail sentence without arriving at any definite conclusion. Finally he was persuaded by Bass to go away, but the departure was the occasion for another outburst of feeling; he was led away shaking and broken with emotion.

Gerhardt stayed with his son for a while and talked about bail, fines, and the serious chance of a jail sentence, but they didn't come to any clear answers. Eventually, Bass convinced him to leave, but saying goodbye brought on another wave of emotions; he left feeling shaken and heartbroken.

“It’s pretty tough,” said Bass to himself as he was led back to his cell. He was thinking solely of his father. “I wonder what ma will think.”

“It’s pretty tough,” Bass said to himself as he was taken back to his cell. He was only thinking about his dad. “I wonder what mom will think.”

The thought of this touched him tenderly. “I wish I’d knocked the dub over the first crack,” he said. “What a fool I was not to get away.”

The thought of this affected him deeply. “I wish I’d knocked the guy down the first chance I got,” he said. “What an idiot I was for not escaping.”

CHAPTER VII

Gerhardt was in despair; he did not know any one to whom he could appeal between the hours of two and nine o’clock in the morning. He went back to talk with his wife, and then to his post of duty. What was to be done? He could think of only one friend who was able, or possibly willing to do anything. This was the glass manufacturer, Hammond; but he was not in the city. Gerhardt did not know this, however.

Gerhardt was feeling hopeless; he didn’t know anyone he could turn to between two and nine in the morning. He returned to talk to his wife and then went back to his job. What could he do? The only friend he could think of who might be able or willing to help was the glassmaker, Hammond, but he wasn’t in the city. Gerhardt didn’t know that, though.

When nine o’clock came, he went alone to the court, for it was thought advisable that the others should stay away. Mrs. Gerhardt was to hear immediately what happened. He would come right back.

When nine o’clock arrived, he went to the court by himself, since it was considered best for the others to stay away. Mrs. Gerhardt was supposed to hear right away what happened. He would return quickly.

When Sebastian was lined up inside the dock he had to wait a long time, for there were several prisoners ahead of him. Finally his name was called, and the boy was pushed forward to the bar. “Stealing coal, Your Honor, and resisting arrest,” explained the officer who had arrested him.

When Sebastian was in the dock, he had to wait a long time because there were several prisoners in front of him. Finally, his name was called, and he was pushed forward to the bar. “Stealing coal, Your Honor, and resisting arrest,” the officer who had arrested him explained.

The magistrate looked at Sebastian closely; he was unfavorably impressed by the lad’s scratched and wounded face.

The magistrate studied Sebastian intently; he was negatively struck by the young man's scratched and bruised face.

“Well, young man,” he said, “what have you to say for yourself? How did you get your black eye?”

“Well, young man,” he said, “what do you have to say for yourself? How did you get your black eye?”

Sebastian looked at the judge, but did not answer.

Sebastian looked at the judge but didn’t respond.

“I arrested him,” said the detective. “He was on one of the company’s cars. He tried to break away from me, and when I held him he assaulted me. This man here was a witness,” he added, turning to the railroad hand who had helped him.

“I arrested him,” said the detective. “He was in one of the company's cars. He tried to get away from me, and when I stopped him, he attacked me. This guy here was a witness,” he added, turning to the railroad worker who had assisted him.

“Is that where he struck you?” asked the Court, observing the detective’s swollen jaw.

“Is that where he hit you?” asked the Court, noticing the detective’s swollen jaw.

“Yes, sir,” he returned, glad of an opportunity to be further revenged.

“Yes, sir,” he replied, pleased to have another chance for revenge.

“If you please,” put in Gerhardt, leaning forward, “he is my boy. He was sent to get the coal. He—”

“If you don’t mind,” Gerhardt chimed in, leaning forward, “he's my son. He was sent to get the coal. He—”

“We don’t mind what they pick up around the yard,” interrupted the detective, “but he was throwing it off the cars to half a dozen others.”

“We don't care what they pick up around the yard,” interrupted the detective, “but he was tossing it off the cars to at least six others.”

“Can’t you earn enough to keep from taking coal off the coal cars?” asked the Court; but before either father or son had time to answer he added, “What is your business?”

“Can’t you make enough to avoid stealing coal from the coal cars?” asked the Court; but before either father or son could respond, he added, “What do you do for a living?”

“Car builder,” said Sebastian.

"Car manufacturer," said Sebastian.

“And what do you do?” he questioned, addressing Gerhardt.

“And what do you do?” he asked, looking at Gerhardt.

“I am watchman at Miller’s furniture factory.”

“I am the security guard at Miller’s furniture factory.”

“Um,” said the court, feeling that Sebastian’s attitude remained sullen and contentious. “Well, this young man might be let off on the coal-stealing charge, but he seems to be somewhat too free with his fists. Columbus is altogether too rich in that sort of thing. Ten dollars.”

“Uh,” said the court, sensing that Sebastian’s demeanor was still sulky and argumentative. “So, this young man could get off the hook for the coal-stealing charge, but he appears to be a bit too quick to use his fists. Columbus has plenty of that kind of behavior. Ten dollars.”

“If you please,” began Gerhardt, but the court officer was already pushing him away.

“If you don’t mind,” Gerhardt started, but the court officer was already shoving him aside.

“I don’t want to hear any more about it,” said the judge. “He’s stubborn, anyhow. What’s the next case?”

“I don’t want to hear any more about it,” said the judge. “He’s stubborn, anyway. What’s the next case?”

Gerhardt made his way over to his boy, abashed and yet very glad it was no worse. Somehow, he thought, he could raise the money. Sebastian looked at him solicitously as he came forward.

Gerhardt walked over to his son, feeling both embarrassed and relieved that things weren’t worse. He thought to himself that somehow he could come up with the money. Sebastian watched him with concern as he approached.

“It’s all right,” said Bass soothingly. “He didn’t give me half a chance to say anything.”

“It’s okay,” Bass said gently. “He didn’t give me a chance to say anything.”

“I’m only glad it wasn’t more,” said Gerhardt nervously. “We will try and get the money.”

“I’m just relieved it wasn’t more,” Gerhardt said nervously. “We’ll try to get the money.”

Going home to his wife, Gerhardt informed the troubled household of the result. Mrs. Gerhardt stood white and yet relieved, for ten dollars seemed something that might be had. Jennie heard the whole story with open mouth and wide eyes. It was a terrible blow to her. Poor Bass! He was always so lively and good-natured. It seemed awful that he should be in jail.

Going home to his wife, Gerhardt informed the troubled household of the result. Mrs. Gerhardt stood pale yet relieved, as ten dollars seemed like something they could manage. Jennie listened to the entire story with her mouth agape and eyes wide. It was a devastating blow to her. Poor Bass! He was always so cheerful and friendly. It felt terrible that he was in jail.

Gerhardt went hurriedly to Hammond’s fine residence, but he was not in the city. He thought then of a lawyer by the name of Jenkins, whom he knew in a casual way, but Jenkins was not at his office. There were several grocers and coal merchants whom he knew well enough, but he owed them money. Pastor Wundt might let him have it, but the agony such a disclosure to that worthy would entail held him back. He did call on one or two acquaintances, but these, surprised at the unusual and peculiar request, excused themselves. At four o’clock he returned home, weary and exhausted.

Gerhardt rushed to Hammond’s fancy house, but he wasn’t in town. He then remembered a lawyer named Jenkins, whom he knew casually, but Jenkins wasn’t in his office. There were a few grocers and coal merchants he was familiar with, but he owed them money. Pastor Wundt might lend him some, but the stress of admitting his situation to that good man held him back. He did visit a couple of acquaintances, but they were taken aback by his unusual request and made excuses to leave. By four o’clock, he got back home, tired and worn out.

“I don’t know what to do,” he said despairingly. “If I could only think.”

“I don’t know what to do,” he said in frustration. “If only I could think clearly.”

Jennie thought of Brander, but the situation had not accentuated her desperation to the point where she could brave her father’s opposition and his terrible insult to the Senator, so keenly remembered, to go and ask. Her watch had been pawned a second time, and she had no other means of obtaining money.

Jennie thought about Brander, but the situation hadn't pushed her desperation to the point where she could face her father's opposition and his harsh insult to the Senator, which she remembered all too clearly, to go and ask for help. Her watch had been pawned again, and she had no other way to get money.

The family council lasted until half-past ten, but still there was nothing decided. Mrs. Gerhardt persistently and monotonously turned one hand over in the other and stared at the floor. Gerhardt ran his hand through his reddish brown hair distractedly. “It’s no use,” he said at last. “I can’t think of anything.”

The family meeting went on until 10:30, but nothing was resolved. Mrs. Gerhardt kept flipping one hand over the other and staring at the floor. Gerhardt ran his fingers through his reddish-brown hair, looking distracted. "It’s pointless," he finally said. "I can’t think of anything."

“Go to bed, Jennie,” said her mother solicitously; “get the others to go. There’s no use their sitting up I may think of something. You go to bed.”

“Go to bed, Jennie,” her mother said kindly. “Get the others to go too. There's no point in them staying up just in case I think of something. You should go to bed.”

Jennie went to her room, but the very thought of repose was insupportable. She had read in the paper, shortly after her father’s quarrel with the Senator, that the latter had departed for Washington. There had been no notice of his return. Still he might be in the city. She stood before a short, narrow mirror that surmounted a shabby bureau, thinking. Her sister Veronica, with whom she slept, was already composing herself to dreams. Finally a grim resolution fixed itself in her consciousness. She would go and see Senator Brander. If he were in town he would help Bass. Why shouldn’t she—he loved her. He had asked over and over to marry her. Why should she not go and ask him for help?

Jennie went to her room, but the very thought of rest was unbearable. She had read in the newspaper, shortly after her father's argument with the Senator, that he had left for Washington. There hadn't been any news of his return. Still, he might be in the city. She stood in front of a short, narrow mirror above a worn-out dresser, deep in thought. Her sister Veronica, with whom she shared the room, was already settling down to sleep. Finally, a grim determination took hold of her. She would go and see Senator Brander. If he was in town, he would help Bass. Why shouldn't she? He loved her. He had asked her repeatedly to marry him. Why shouldn't she go and ask him for help?

She hesitated a little while, then hearing Veronica breathing regularly, she put on her hat and jacket, and noiselessly opened the door into the sitting-room to see if any one were stirring.

She hesitated for a moment, then hearing Veronica breathing steadily, she put on her hat and jacket and quietly opened the door to the sitting room to check if anyone was awake.

There was no sound save that of Gerhardt rocking nervously to and fro in the kitchen. There was no light save that of her own small room-lamp and a gleam from under the kitchen door. She turned and blew the former out—then slipped quietly to the front door, opened it and stepped out into the night.

There was no sound except for Gerhardt nervously rocking back and forth in the kitchen. There was no light other than her small room lamp and a glow from beneath the kitchen door. She turned and blew out the lamp, then quietly slipped to the front door, opened it, and stepped out into the night.

A waning moon was shining, and a hushed sense of growing life filled the air, for it was nearing spring again. As Jennie hurried along the shadowy streets—the arc light had not yet been invented—she had a sinking sense of fear; what was this rash thing she was about to do? How would the Senator receive her? What would he think? She stood stock-still, wavering and doubtful; then the recollection of Bass in his night cell came over her again, and she hurried on.

A fading moon was shining, and a quiet feeling of new life filled the air, as spring was just around the corner. As Jennie rushed through the dark streets—the arc light hadn’t been invented yet—she felt a sinking fear; what was this reckless thing she was about to do? How would the Senator react? What would he think? She paused, unsure and hesitant; then the memory of Bass in his night cell flooded her mind again, and she pressed on.

The character of the Capitol Hotel was such that it was not difficult for a woman to find ingress through the ladies’ entrance to the various floors of the hotel at any hour of the night. The hotel, not unlike many others of the time, was in no sense loosely conducted, but its method of supervision in places was lax. Any person could enter, and, by applying at a rear entrance to the lobby, gain the attention of the clerk. Otherwise not much notice was taken of those who came and went.

The Capitol Hotel was set up in a way that made it easy for a woman to get in through the ladies' entrance to the different floors at any time of night. The hotel, like many others back then, was not run poorly, but some areas had pretty relaxed supervision. Anyone could walk in and, by requesting access at a back entrance to the lobby, get the clerk's attention. Otherwise, not much attention was paid to people coming and going.

When she came to the door it was dark save for a low light burning in the entry-way. The distance to the Senator’s room was only a short way along the hall of the second floor. She hurried up the steps, nervous and pale, but giving no other outward sign of the storm that was surging within her. When she came to his familiar door she paused; she feared that she might not find him in his room; she trembled again to think that he might be there. A light shone through the transom, and, summoning all her courage, she knocked. A man coughed and bestirred himself.

When she reached the door, it was dark except for a dim light in the entryway. The Senator’s room was just a short walk down the hall on the second floor. She rushed up the steps, feeling anxious and pale, but showed no other signs of the turmoil brewing inside her. When she arrived at his familiar door, she hesitated; she worried that he might not be in his room, and the thought of him possibly being there made her tremble again. A light glimmered through the transom, and mustering all her courage, she knocked. A man coughed and stirred.

His surprise as he opened the door knew no bounds. “Why, Jennie!” he exclaimed. “How delightful! I was thinking of you. Come in—come in.”

His surprise when he opened the door was immense. “Wow, Jennie!” he said. “How lovely! I was just thinking about you. Come in—come in.”

He welcomed her with an eager embrace.

He greeted her with an enthusiastic hug.

“I was coming out to see you, believe me, I was. I was thinking all along how I could straighten this matter out. And now you come. But what’s the trouble?”

“I was on my way to see you, trust me, I was. I was thinking the whole time about how to sort this out. And now you show up. But what's the issue?”

He held her at arm’s length and studied her distressed face. The fresh beauty of her seemed to him like cut lilies wet with dew.

He held her at arm’s length and looked closely at her worried face. Her fresh beauty reminded him of freshly cut lilies covered in dew.

He felt a great surge of tenderness.

He felt an overwhelming wave of kindness.

“I have something to ask you,” she at last brought herself to say. “My brother is in jail. We need ten dollars to get him out, and I didn’t know where else to go.”

“I have something to ask you,” she finally managed to say. “My brother is in jail. We need ten dollars to get him out, and I didn’t know where else to turn.”

“My poor child!” he said, chafing her hands. “Where else should you go? Haven’t I told you always to come to me? Don’t you know, Jennie, I would do anything in the world for you?”

“My poor child!” he said, rubbing her hands. “Where else would you go? Haven’t I always told you to come to me? Don’t you know, Jennie, I’d do anything for you?”

“Yes,” she gasped.

"Yeah," she gasped.

“Well, then, don’t worry about that any more. But won’t fate ever cease striking at you, poor child? How did your brother come to get in jail?”

“Well, don’t worry about that anymore. But will fate ever stop hitting you, poor child? How did your brother end up in jail?”

“They caught him throwing coal down from the cars,” she replied.

“They saw him throwing coal off the cars,” she replied.

“Ah!” he replied, his sympathies touched and awakened. Here was this boy arrested and fined for what fate was practically driving him to do. Here was this girl pleading with him at night, in his room, for what to her was a great necessity—ten dollars; to him, a mere nothing. “I will arrange about your brother,” he said quickly. “Don’t worry. I can get him out in half an hour. You sit here now and be comfortable until I return.”

“Ah!” he replied, his sympathy stirred and awakened. Here was this boy arrested and fined for something fate was practically pushing him to do. Here was this girl pleading with him at night in his room for what was a great necessity for her—ten dollars; to him, just a small amount. “I’ll take care of your brother,” he said quickly. “Don’t worry. I can get him out in half an hour. You just sit here and be comfortable until I get back.”

He waved her to his easy-chair beside a large lamp, and hurried out of the room.

He gestured for her to take a seat in his comfy chair next to a big lamp and quickly left the room.

Brander knew the sheriff who had personal supervision of the county jail. He knew the judge who had administered the fine. It was but a five minutes’ task to write a note to the judge asking him to revoke the fine, for the sake of the boy’s character, and send it by a messenger to his home. Another ten minutes’ task to go personally to the jail and ask his friend, the sheriff, to release the boy then and there.

Brander knew the sheriff who oversaw the county jail. He also knew the judge who had imposed the fine. It only took him five minutes to write a note to the judge asking him to revoke the fine for the boy's sake and send it home with a messenger. It took another ten minutes to go to the jail in person and ask his friend, the sheriff, to release the boy right away.

“Here is the money,” he said. “If the fine is revoked you can return it to me. Let him go now.”

“Here’s the money,” he said. “If the fine gets canceled, you can give it back to me. Let him go now.”

The sheriff was only too glad to comply. He hastened below to personally supervise the task, and Bass, a very much astonished boy, was set free. No explanations were vouchsafed him.

The sheriff was more than happy to help. He quickly went downstairs to oversee the job himself, and Bass, a very surprised boy, was set free. No explanations were given to him.

“That’s all right now,” said the turnkey. “You’re at liberty. Run along home and don’t let them catch you at anything like that again.”

“That's fine for now,” said the jailer. “You're free to go. Head home and don’t get caught doing something like that again.”

Bass went his way wondering, and the ex-Senator returned to his hotel trying to decide just how this delicate situation should be handled. Obviously Jennie had not told her father of her mission. She had come as a last resource. She was now waiting for him in his room.

Bass walked away deep in thought, while the ex-Senator headed back to his hotel, figuring out how to deal with this tricky situation. Clearly, Jennie hadn’t mentioned her mission to her father. She had come as a last resort. Now, she was waiting for him in his room.

There are crises in all men’s lives when they waver between the strict fulfilment of justice and duty and the great possibilities for personal happiness which another line of conduct seems to assure. And the dividing line is not always marked and clear. He knew that the issue of taking her, even as his wife, was made difficult by the senseless opposition of her father. The opinion of the world brought up still another complication. Supposing he should take her openly, what would the world say? She was a significant type emotionally, that he knew. There was something there—artistically, temperamentally, which was far and beyond the keenest suspicion of the herd. He did not know himself quite what it was, but he felt a largeness of feeling not altogether squared with intellect, or perhaps better yet, experience, which was worthy of any man’s desire. “This remarkable girl,” he thought, seeing her clearly in his mind’s eye.

There are moments in every man's life when he hesitates between strictly doing what's right and what's expected of him, and the potential for personal happiness that another path seems to offer. The line between these choices is often blurry. He realized that the decision to take her as his wife was complicated by her father's unreasonable opposition. The judgment of society added another layer of complexity. If he chose to pursue her openly, what would people think? He recognized that she was a unique person emotionally. There was something about her—artistically and temperamentally—that went far beyond the shallow perceptions of the crowd. He couldn't quite pinpoint what it was, but he sensed a depth of feeling within her that wasn't entirely in line with intellect, or perhaps more accurately, with experience, which deserved any man's admiration. "This remarkable girl," he thought, envisioning her clearly in his mind.

Meditating as to what he should do, he returned to his hotel, and the room. As he entered he was struck anew with her beauty, and with the irresistible appeal of her personality. In the glow of the shaded lamp she seemed a figure of marvelous potentiality.

Thinking about what he should do, he went back to his hotel and to his room. As he walked in, he was once again taken by her beauty and the undeniable charm of her personality. Under the warm light of the lamp, she looked like a person full of amazing possibilities.

“Well,” he said, endeavoring to appear calm, “I have looked after your brother. He is out.”

“Well,” he said, trying to sound calm, “I took care of your brother. He’s out.”

She rose.

She got up.

“Oh,” she exclaimed, clasping her hands and stretching her arms out toward him. There were tears of gratefulness in her eyes.

“Oh,” she said, bringing her hands together and reaching out to him. Her eyes were filled with tears of gratitude.

He saw them and stepped close to her. “Jennie, for heaven’s sake don’t cry,” he entreated. “You angel! You sister of mercy! To think you should have to add tears to your other sacrifices.”

He saw them and stepped close to her. “Jennie, please don’t cry,” he begged. “You angel! You sister of mercy! It’s so unfair that you have to add tears to your other sacrifices.”

He drew her to him, and then all the caution of years deserted him. There was a sense both of need and of fulfilment in his mood. At last, in spite of other losses, fate had brought him what he most desired—love, a woman whom he could love. He took her in his arms, and kissed her again and again.

He pulled her close, and then all his years of caution vanished. He felt both a deep need and a sense of fulfillment. Finally, despite other losses, fate had given him what he had always wanted—love, a woman he could truly love. He held her tight and kissed her over and over.

The English Jefferies has told us that it requires a hundred and fifty years to make a perfect maiden. “From all enchanted things of earth and air, this preciousness has been drawn. From the south wind that breathed a century and a half over the green wheat; from the perfume of the growing grasses waving over heavy-laden clover and laughing veronica, hiding the green finches, baffling the bee; from rose-lined hedge, woodbine, and cornflower, azure blue, where yellowing wheat stalks crowd up under the shadow of green firs. All the devious brooklets’ sweetness where the iris stays the sunlight; all the wild woods hold of beauty; all the broad hills of thyme and freedom thrice a hundred years repeated.

The English writer Jefferies tells us that it takes a hundred and fifty years to create a perfect maiden. “This preciousness has come from all the enchanted things of the earth and air. From the southern wind that has blown for a century and a half over the lush green wheat; from the scent of the growing grasses swaying above the clover and cheerful veronica, hiding the green finches and perplexing the bees; from rose-lined hedges, honeysuckle, and blue cornflowers, where golden wheat stalks rise up under the shade of green fir trees. All the sweetness of winding brooks where the iris holds back the sunlight; all the beauty held by the wild woods; all the expansive hills of thyme and freedom repeated for three hundred years.”

“A hundred years of cowslips, bluebells, violets; purple spring and golden autumn; sunshine, shower, and dewy mornings; the night immortal; all the rhythm of time unrolling. A chronicle unwritten and past all power of writing; who shall preserve a record of the petals that fell from the roses a century ago? The swallows to the house-tops three hundred—times think of that! Thence she sprang, and the world yearns toward her beauty as to flowers that are past. The loveliness of seventeen is centuries old. That is why passion is almost sad.”

“A hundred years of cowslips, bluebells, violets; purple spring and golden autumn; sunshine, rain, and dewy mornings; the eternal night; all the rhythm of time unfolding. An unwritten history beyond the power of words; who will keep a record of the petals that fell from the roses a hundred years ago? The swallows to the rooftops three hundred—think about that! From there she came, and the world longs for her beauty like it does for flowers that have already faded. The beauty of seventeen is centuries old. That’s why passion is almost bittersweet.”

If you have understood and appreciated the beauty of harebells three hundred times repeated; if the quality of the roses, of the music, of the ruddy mornings and evenings of the world has ever touched your heart; if all beauty were passing, and you were given these things to hold in your arms before the world slipped away, would you give them up?

If you’ve truly grasped and cherished the beauty of harebells repeated three hundred times; if the quality of roses, the music, and the vibrant mornings and evenings of the world have ever moved you; if all beauty were fleeting, and you could hold onto these things just before the world faded away, would you let them go?

CHAPTER VIII

The significance of the material and spiritual changes which sometimes overtake us are not very clear at the time. A sense of shock, a sense of danger, and then apparently we subside to old ways, but the change has come. Never again, here or elsewhere, will we be the same. Jennie pondering after the subtle emotional turn which her evening’s sympathetic expedition had taken, was lost in a vague confusion of emotions. She had no definite realization of what social and physical changes this new relationship to the Senator might entail. She was not conscious as yet of that shock which the possibility of maternity, even under the most favorable conditions, must bring to the average woman. Her present attitude was one of surprise, wonder, uncertainty; and at the same time she experienced a genuine feeling of quiet happiness. Brander was a good man; now he was closer to her than ever. He loved her. Because of this new relationship a change in her social condition was to inevitably follow. Life was to be radically different from now on—was different at this moment. Brander assured her over and over of his enduring affection.

The impact of the material and spiritual changes that sometimes hit us is often unclear at first. We feel shocked and scared, and then it seems like we slip back into our old ways, but the change has still occurred. From now on, here or anywhere, we won’t be the same. Jennie, reflecting on the subtle emotional shift that her evening’s compassionate outing had taken, found herself in a vague jumble of feelings. She didn’t fully grasp what social and physical changes this new connection with the Senator might bring. She wasn’t yet aware of the shock that the possibility of motherhood, even in the best circumstances, would bring to an average woman. Right now, she felt surprised, curious, and uncertain; yet, at the same time, she experienced a genuine sense of quiet happiness. Brander was a good man, and now he was closer to her than ever. He loved her. Because of this new relationship, a change in her social status was bound to follow. Life was about to be completely different from now on—it was already different at this moment. Brander kept assuring her repeatedly of his lasting affection.

“I tell you, Jennie,” he repeated, as she was leaving, “I don’t want you to worry. This emotion of mine got the best of me, but I’ll marry you. I’ve been carried off my feet, but I’ll make it up to you. Go home and say nothing at all. Caution your brother, if it isn’t too late. Keep your own counsel, and I will marry you and take you away. I can’t do it right now. I don’t want to do it here. But I’m going to Washington, and I’ll send for you. And here”—he reached for his purse and took from it a hundred dollars, practically all he had with him, “take that. I’ll send you more tomorrow. You’re my girl now—remember that. You belong to me.”

“I’m telling you, Jennie,” he said again as she was leaving, “don’t worry. I let my emotions get the best of me, but I’m going to marry you. I got swept off my feet, but I’ll make it right. Go home and don’t say a word. Warn your brother, if it’s not too late. Keep this to yourself, and I will marry you and take you away. I can’t do it right now. I don’t want to do it here. But I’m heading to Washington, and I’ll send for you. And here”—he reached for his wallet and pulled out a hundred dollars, almost all he had with him—“take this. I’ll send you more tomorrow. You’re my girl now—remember that. You’re mine.”

He embraced her tenderly.

He hugged her softly.

She went out into the night, thinking. No doubt he would do as he said. She dwelt, in imagination, upon the possibilities of a new and fascinating existence. Of course he would marry her. Think of it! She would go to Washington—that far-off place. And her father and mother—they would not need to work so hard any more. And Bass, and Martha—she fairly glowed as she recounted to herself the many ways in which she could help them all.

She stepped out into the night, deep in thought. There was no doubt he would follow through on his promise. She imagined the possibilities of a new and exciting life. Of course, he would marry her. Just think about it! She would move to Washington—that distant place. And her parents—they wouldn’t have to work so hard anymore. And Bass, and Martha—she felt a surge of joy as she thought of all the ways she could help them.

A block away she waited for Brander, who accompanied her to her own gate, and waited while she made a cautious reconnaissance. She slipped up the steps and tried the door. It was open. She paused a moment to indicate to her lover that she was safe, and entered. All was silent within. She slipped to her own room and heard Veronica breathing. She went quietly to where Bass slept with George. He was in bed, stretched out as if asleep. When she entered he asked, “Is that you, Jennie?”

A block away, she waited for Brander, who walked her to her gate and waited while she took a careful look around. She stepped up the stairs and tried the door. It was unlocked. She paused for a moment to signal to her partner that she was safe and then walked in. Everything was quiet inside. She moved to her room and heard Veronica breathing. She quietly approached where Bass was sleeping with George. He was in bed, lying down as if he were asleep. When she walked in, he asked, “Is that you, Jennie?”

“Yes.”

"Yep."

“Where have you been?”

"Where have you been at?"

“Listen,” she whispered. “Have you seen papa and mamma?”

“Listen,” she whispered. “Have you seen Dad and Mom?”

“Yes.”

"Yeah."

“Did they know I had gone out?”

“Did they know I was gone?”

“Ma did. She told me not to ask after you. Where have you been?”

“Mom did. She told me not to ask about you. Where have you been?”

“I went to see Senator Brander for you.”

“I went to meet with Senator Brander on your behalf.”

“Oh, that was it. They didn’t say why they let me out.”

“Oh, that was it. They didn’t explain why they let me go.”

“Don’t tell any one,” she pleaded. “I don’t want any one to know. You know how papa feels about him.”

“Don’t tell anyone,” she begged. “I don’t want anyone to know. You know how Dad feels about him.”

“All right,” he replied. But he was curious as to what the ex-Senator thought, what he had done, and how she had appealed to him. She explained briefly, then she heard her mother come to the door.

"Okay," he replied. But he was curious about what the ex-Senator thought, what he had done, and how she had appealed to him. She explained briefly, then she heard her mother come to the door.

“Jennie,” she whispered.

“Jennie,” she said softly.

Jennie went out.

Jennie went out.

“Oh, why did you go?” she asked.

“Oh, why did you leave?” she asked.

“I couldn’t help it, ma,” she replied. “I thought I must do something.”

“I couldn’t help it, Mom,” she replied. “I thought I had to do something.”

“Why did you stay so long?”

“Why did you stay for so long?”

“He wanted to talk to me,” she answered evasively.

“He wanted to talk to me,” she replied vaguely.

Her mother looked at her nervously, wanly.

Her mother looked at her anxiously, with a pale expression.

“I have been so afraid, oh, so afraid. Your father went to your room, but I said you were asleep. He locked the front door, but I opened it again. When Bass came in he wanted to call you, but I persuaded him to wait until morning.”

“I've been so scared, really scared. Your dad went to your room, but I told him you were asleep. He locked the front door, but I unlocked it again. When Bass came in, he wanted to call you, but I convinced him to wait until morning.”

Again she looked wistfully at her daughter.

Again she looked longingly at her daughter.

“I’m all right, mamma,” said Jennie encouragingly. “I’ll tell you all about it to-morrow. Go to bed. How does he think Bass got out?”

“I’m okay, Mom,” Jennie said encouragingly. “I’ll tell you all about it tomorrow. Go to bed. How does he think Bass got out?”

“He doesn’t know. He thought maybe they just let him go because he couldn’t pay the fine.”

“He doesn’t know. He thought maybe they just let him go because he couldn’t pay the fine.”

Jennie laid her hand lovingly on her mother’s shoulder.

Jennie lovingly placed her hand on her mom’s shoulder.

“Go to bed,” she said.

"Get to bed," she said.

She was already years older in thought and act. She felt as though she must help her mother now as well as herself.

She was already years ahead in mindset and behavior. She felt like she needed to help her mom as much as herself now.

The days which followed were ones of dreamy uncertainty to Jennie. She went over in her mind these dramatic events time and time and time and again. It was not such a difficult matter to tell her mother that the Senator had talked again of marriage, that he proposed to come and get her after his next trip to Washington, that he had given her a hundred dollars and intended to give her more, but of that other matter—the one all-important thing, she could not bring herself to speak. It was too sacred. The balance of the money that he had promised her arrived by messenger the following day, four hundred dollars in bills, with the admonition that she should put it in a local bank. The ex-Senator explained that he was already on his way to Washington, but that he would come back or send for her. “Keep a stout heart,” he wrote. “There are better days in store for you.”

The days that followed were filled with a dreamy uncertainty for Jennie. She replayed those dramatic events over and over again in her mind. It wasn't too hard to tell her mom that the Senator had talked about marriage again, that he planned to come and get her after his next trip to Washington, that he had given her a hundred dollars and intended to give her more, but about that other matter—the one crucial thing—she just couldn't bring herself to say anything. It felt too sacred. The rest of the money he promised her arrived by messenger the next day, four hundred dollars in cash, along with a note advising her to deposit it in a local bank. The ex-Senator explained that he was already on his way to Washington, but he would come back or send for her. "Keep a strong heart," he wrote. "Better days are ahead for you."

Brander was gone, and Jennie’s fate was really in the balance. But her mind still retained all of the heart-innocence, and unsophistication of her youth; a certain gentle wistfulness was the only outward change in her demeanor. He would surely send for her. There was the mirage of a distant country and wondrous scenes looming up in her mind. She had a little fortune in the bank, more than she had ever dreamed of, with which to help her mother. There were natural, girlish anticipations of good still holding over, which made her less apprehensive than she could otherwise possibly have been. All nature, life, possibility was in the balance. It might turn good, or ill, but with so inexperienced a soul it would not be entirely evil until it was so.

Brander was gone, and Jennie's future was truly uncertain. But her mind still held onto the innocence and naivety of her youth; a gentle wistfulness was the only noticeable change in her demeanor. He would definitely reach out to her. She envisioned a distant land and breathtaking scenes forming in her mind. She had a small fortune in the bank, more than she ever imagined, that she could use to support her mother. There were natural, girlish hopes for good still lingering, which made her less anxious than she might have otherwise been. All of nature, life, and possibility were hanging in the balance. It could turn out well or poorly, but for someone so inexperienced, it wouldn’t be completely bad until it was.

How a mind under such uncertain circumstances could retain so comparatively placid a vein is one of those marvels which find their explanation in the inherent trustfulness of the spirit of youth. It is not often that the minds of men retain the perceptions of their younger days. The marvel is not that one should thus retain, but that any should ever lose them Go the world over, and after you have put away the wonder and tenderness of youth what is there left? The few sprigs of green that sometimes invade the barrenness of your materialism, the few glimpses of summer which flash past the eye of the wintry soul, the half hours off during the long tedium of burrowing, these reveal to the hardened earth-seeker the universe which the youthful mind has with it always. No fear and no favor; the open fields and the light upon the hills; morning, noon, night; stars, the bird-calls, the water’s purl—these are the natural inheritance of the mind of the child. Men call it poetic, those who are hardened fanciful. In the days of their youth it was natural, but the receptiveness of youth has departed, and they cannot see.

How a mind in such uncertain situations can stay relatively calm is one of those wonders that can be explained by the natural trust of youth. It's rare for adults to keep the perceptions they had as youngsters. The real wonder isn’t that someone can hold onto them, but that anyone ever loses them. Travel the world, and after you’ve set aside the wonder and tenderness of youth, what remains? The few bits of green that sometimes break through the gloom of your materialism, the fleeting glimpses of summer that flash in front of the cold soul, the short breaks during the long grind—these show the hardened seeker the universe that the youthful mind carries with it always. No fear, no favor; the open fields and the light on the hills; morning, noon, night; stars, the calls of birds, the sound of water—these are the natural gifts of a child's mind. People call it poetic; those who have grown tough call it fanciful. In their youth, it felt natural, but now that receptiveness is gone, and they can't see it.

How this worked out in her personal actions was to be seen only in a slightly accentuated wistfulness, a touch of which was in every task. Sometimes she would wonder that no letter came, but at the same time she would recall the fact that he had specified a few weeks, and hence the six that actually elapsed did not seem so long.

How this showed in her actions was through a slightly heightened sense of longing, which touched everything she did. Sometimes she would be surprised that no letter arrived, but at the same time she remembered that he had mentioned a few weeks, so the six that actually passed didn’t feel so long.

In the meanwhile the distinguished ex-Senator had gone light-heartedly to his conference with the President, he had joined in a pleasant round of social calls, and he was about to pay a short country visit to some friends in Maryland, when he was seized with a slight attack of fever, which confined him to his room for a few days. He felt a little irritated that he should be laid up just at this time, but never suspected that there was anything serious in his indisposition. Then the doctor discovered that he was suffering from a virulent form of typhoid, the ravages of which took away his senses for a time and left him very weak. He was thought to be convalescing, however, when just six weeks after he had last parted with Jennie, he was seized with a sudden attack of heart failure and never regained consciousness. Jennie remained blissfully ignorant of his illness and did not even see the heavy-typed headlines of the announcement of his death until Bass came home that evening.

In the meantime, the well-known former Senator had happily gone to his meeting with the President, participated in some enjoyable social visits, and was about to make a quick trip to see friends in Maryland when he was hit with a mild fever that kept him in his room for a few days. He felt a bit annoyed that he had to be stuck at home during this time, but he never suspected that his condition was serious. Then the doctor found out that he was suffering from a severe form of typhoid, which temporarily took away his senses and left him very weak. He was believed to be recovering, however, when just six weeks after he last saw Jennie, he suddenly experienced heart failure and never regained consciousness. Jennie remained completely unaware of his illness and didn't even see the bold headlines announcing his death until Bass returned home that evening.

“Look here, Jennie,” he said excitedly, “Brander’s dead!”

“Hey, Jennie,” he said excitedly, “Brander’s dead!”

He held up the newspaper, on the first column of Which was printed in heavy block type:

He held up the newspaper, with the first column printed in bold, block letters:

DEATH OF EX-SENATOR BRANDER

Sudden Passing of Ohio’s Distinguished Son. Succumbs to Heart Failure at the Arlington, in Washington.

Recent attack of typhoid, from which he was thought to be recovering, proves fatal. Notable phases of a remarkable career.

DEATH OF EX-SENATOR BRANDER

Sudden passing of Ohio’s distinguished son. He dies of heart failure at the Arlington in Washington.

A recent bout of typhoid, from which he seemed to be recovering, turns out to be fatal. Highlights of a remarkable career.

Jennie looked at it in blank amazement. “Dead?” she exclaimed.

Jennie stared at it in shock. "Dead?" she gasped.

“There it is in the paper,” returned Bass, his tone being that of one who is imparting a very interesting piece of news. “He died at ten o’clock this morning.”

“There it is in the paper,” Bass said, sounding like he was sharing some really interesting news. “He died at ten o’clock this morning.”

CHAPTER IX

Jennie took the paper with but ill-concealed trembling and went into the adjoining room. There she stood by the front window and looked at it again, a sickening sensation of dread holding her as though in a trance.

Jennie took the paper with barely concealed shaking and went into the next room. There, she stood by the front window and looked at it again, a nauseating feeling of fear gripping her as if she were in a trance.

“He is dead,” was all that her mind could formulate for the time, and as she stood there the voice of Bass recounting the fact to Gerhardt in the adjoining room sounded in her ears. “Yes, he is dead,” she heard him say; and once again she tried to get some conception of what it meant to her. But her mind seemed a blank.

“He's dead,” was all her mind could come up with at the moment, and as she stood there, she could hear Bass telling Gerhardt in the next room. “Yeah, he's dead,” she heard him say, and once again she tried to understand what it meant for her. But her mind felt completely empty.

A moment later Mrs. Gerhardt joined her. She had heard Bass’s announcement and had seen Jennie leave the room, but her trouble with Gerhardt over the Senator had caused her to be careful of any display of emotion. No conception of the real state of affairs ever having crossed her mind, she was only interested in seeing how Jennie would take this sudden annihilation of her hopes.

A moment later, Mrs. Gerhardt joined her. She had heard Bass's announcement and had seen Jennie leave the room, but her issues with Gerhardt regarding the Senator had made her cautious about showing any emotion. Since she never considered the actual situation, she was just curious about how Jennie would respond to this sudden destruction of her hopes.

“Isn’t it too bad?” she said, with real sorrow. “To think that he should have to die just when he was going to do so much for you—for us all.”

“Isn’t it such a shame?” she said, genuinely saddened. “To think that he has to die right when he was about to do so much for you—for all of us.”

She paused, expecting some word of agreement, but Jennie remained unwontedly dumb.

She paused, expecting some kind of agreement, but Jennie stayed unusually silent.

“I wouldn’t feel badly,” continued Mrs. Gerhardt. “It can’t be helped. He meant to do a good deal, but you mustn’t think of that now. It’s all over, and it can’t be helped, you know.”

“I wouldn’t feel bad,” continued Mrs. Gerhardt. “It can’t be helped. He meant well, but you shouldn’t dwell on that right now. It’s all done, and there’s nothing to be done about it, you know.”

She paused again, and still Jennie remained motionless and mute. Mrs. Gerhardt, seeing how useless her words were, concluded that Jennie wished to be alone, and she went away.

She paused again, and Jennie stayed still and silent. Mrs. Gerhardt, realizing how pointless her words were, decided that Jennie wanted to be alone, so she left.

Still Jennie stood there, and now, as the real significance of the news began to formulate itself into consecutive thought, she began to realize the wretchedness of her position, its helplessness. She went into her bedroom and sat down upon the side of the bed, from which position she saw a very pale, distraught face staring at her from out of the small mirror. She looked at it uncertainly; could that really be her own countenance? “I’ll have to go away,” she thought, and began, with the courage of despair, to wonder what refuge would be open to her.

Still, Jennie stood there, and now, as the real importance of the news started to take shape in her mind, she began to realize how miserable and helpless her situation was. She went into her bedroom and sat on the edge of the bed, from where she saw a very pale, worried face looking back at her from the small mirror. She stared at it uncertainly; could that really be her own reflection? “I’ll have to leave,” she thought, and, driven by despair, she started to wonder what options for escape were available to her.

In the mean time the evening meal was announced, and, to maintain appearances, she went out and joined the family; the naturalness of her part was very difficult to sustain. Gerhardt observed her subdued condition without guessing the depth of emotion which it covered. Bass was too much interested in his own affairs to pay particular attention to anybody.

In the meantime, dinner was announced, and to keep up appearances, she went out and joined the family; it was really hard for her to stay genuine about her role. Gerhardt noticed her quiet demeanor but had no idea how deep her feelings ran. Bass was too caught up in his own matters to really pay attention to anyone.

During the days that followed Jennie pondered over the difficulties of her position and wondered what she should do. Money she had, it was true; but no friends, no experience, no place to go. She had always lived with her family. She began to feel unaccountable sinkings of spirit, nameless and formless fears seemed to surround and haunt her. Once when she arose in the morning she felt an uncontrollable desire to cry, and frequently thereafter this feeling would seize upon her at the most inopportune times. Mrs. Gerhardt began to note her moods, and one afternoon she resolved to question her daughter.

During the days that followed, Jennie thought about the challenges of her situation and wondered what she should do. It was true she had money, but she had no friends, no experience, and no place to go. She had always lived with her family. She started to feel inexplicable sadness, and vague fears seemed to surround and haunt her. One morning, she woke up with an overwhelming urge to cry, and from then on, this feeling would hit her at the worst moments. Mrs. Gerhardt began to notice her moods, and one afternoon she decided to talk to her daughter.

“Now you must tell me what’s the matter with you,” she said quietly. “Jennie, you must tell your mother everything.”

“Now you need to tell me what’s wrong with you,” she said softly. “Jennie, you have to tell your mom everything.”

Jennie, to whom confession had seemed impossible, under the sympathetic persistence of her mother broke down at last and made the fatal confession. Mrs. Gerhardt stood there, too dumb with misery to give vent to a word.

Jennie, who had found it impossible to confess, finally broke down and made the devastating admission under her mother's sympathetic insistence. Mrs. Gerhardt stood there, too overwhelmed with sorrow to say a word.

“Oh!” she said at last, a great wave of self-accusation sweeping over her, “it is all my fault. I might have known. But we’ll do what we can.” She broke down and sobbed aloud.

“Oh!” she finally exclaimed, a huge wave of guilt washing over her, “it’s all my fault. I should have known. But we’ll do what we can.” She fell apart and cried out loud.

After a time she went back to the washing she had to do, and stood over her tub rubbing and crying. The tears ran down her cheeks and dropped into the suds. Once in a while she stopped and tried to dry her eyes with her apron, but they soon filled again.

After a while, she returned to the laundry she had to do, standing over her tub, scrubbing and crying. Tears streamed down her cheeks and fell into the soapy water. Occasionally, she paused to wipe her eyes with her apron, but they quickly filled up again.

Now that the first shock had passed, there came the vivid consciousness of ever-present danger. What would Gerhardt do if he learned the truth? He had often said that if ever one of his daughters should act like some of those he knew he would turn her out of doors. “She should not stay under my roof!” he had exclaimed.

Now that the initial shock had worn off, the realization of constant danger set in. What would Gerhardt do if he found out the truth? He had often said that if any of his daughters acted like some of those he knew, he would throw her out. “She shouldn’t stay under my roof!” he had shouted.

“I’m so afraid of your father,” Mrs. Gerhardt often said to Jennie in this intermediate period. “I don’t know what he’ll say.”

“I’m really scared of your dad,” Mrs. Gerhardt often told Jennie during this in-between time. “I have no idea what he’ll say.”

“Perhaps I’d better go away,” suggested her daughter.

“Maybe I should just leave,” her daughter suggested.

“No,” she said; “he needn’t know just yet. Wait awhile.” But in her heart of hearts she knew that the evil day could not be long postponed.

“No,” she said; “he doesn’t need to know just yet. Just wait a little while.” But deep down, she knew that the bad day couldn’t be delayed for much longer.

One day, when her own suspense had reached such a pitch that it could no longer be endured, Mrs. Gerhardt sent Jennie away with the children, hoping to be able to tell her husband before they returned. All the morning she fidgeted about, dreading the opportune moment and letting him retire to his slumber without speaking. When afternoon came she did not go out to work, because she could not leave with her painful duty unfulfilled. Gerhardt arose at four, and still she hesitated, knowing full well that Jennie would soon return and that the specially prepared occasion would then be lost. It is almost certain that she would not have had the courage to say anything if he himself had not brought up the subject of Jennie’s appearance.

One day, when her anxiety had built up to a level that she could no longer handle, Mrs. Gerhardt sent Jennie out with the kids, hoping to talk to her husband before they came back. All morning, she paced around, waiting for the right moment and letting him fall asleep without saying a word. When afternoon came, she didn’t go out to work because she couldn’t leave while her painful obligation was still hanging over her. Gerhardt got up at four, and she was still unsure, fully aware that Jennie would be back soon and the specially arranged moment would slip away. It's likely that she wouldn't have had the courage to say anything if he hadn't brought up Jennie's appearance himself.

“She doesn’t look well,” he said. “There seems to be something the matter with her.”

“She doesn’t look good,” he said. “There seems to be something wrong with her.”

“Oh,” began Mrs. Gerhardt, visibly struggling with her fears, and moved to make an end of it at any cost, “Jennie is in trouble. I don’t know what to do. She—”

“Oh,” started Mrs. Gerhardt, clearly fighting her fears, and eager to wrap it up no matter what, “Jennie is in trouble. I don’t know what to do. She—”

Gerhardt, who had unscrewed a door-lock and was trying to mend it, looked up sharply from his work.

Gerhardt, who had taken apart a door lock and was trying to fix it, suddenly looked up from his work.

“What do you mean?” he asked.

“What do you mean?” he asked.

Mrs. Gerhardt had her apron in her hands at the time, her nervous tendency to roll it coming upon her. She tried to summon sufficient courage to explain, but fear mastered her completely; she lifted the apron to her eyes and began to cry.

Mrs. Gerhardt held her apron in her hands, nervously rolling it. She tried to gather enough courage to explain, but fear completely took over; she raised the apron to her eyes and started to cry.

Gerhardt looked at her and rose. He was a man with the Calvin type of face, rather spare, with skin sallow and discolored as the result of age and work in the wind and rain. When he was surprised or angry sparks of light glittered in his eyes. He frequently pushed his hair back when he was troubled, and almost invariably walked the floor; just now he looked alert and dangerous.

Gerhardt looked at her and stood up. He had a face like a Calvinist, lean and with skin that was yellowed and discolored from age and working in the wind and rain. When he was surprised or angry, his eyes sparkled with intensity. He often pushed his hair back when he was anxious and usually paced the floor; right now, he seemed tense and threatening.

“What is that you say?” he inquired in German, his voice straining to a hard note. “In trouble—has some one—” He paused and flung his hand upward. “Why don’t you speak?” he demanded.

“What did you say?” he asked in German, his voice tense. “In trouble—did someone—” He paused and threw his hand up. “Why aren’t you talking?” he demanded.

“I never thought,” went on Mrs. Gerhardt, frightened, and yet following her own train of thought, “that anything like that would happen to her. She was such a good girl. Oh!” she concluded, “to think he should ruin Jennie.”

“I never thought,” continued Mrs. Gerhardt, scared, yet still lost in her own thoughts, “that anything like that would happen to her. She was such a good girl. Oh!” she finished, “to think he would ruin Jennie.”

“By thunder!” shouted Gerhardt, giving way to a fury of feeling, “I thought so! Brander! Ha! Your fine man! That comes of letting her go running around at nights, buggy-riding, walking the streets. I thought so. God in heaven!—”

“By thunder!” shouted Gerhardt, overwhelmed with emotion, “I knew it! Brander! Ha! Your great guy! That’s what happens when you let her run around at night, going for buggy rides and walking the streets. I knew it. God in heaven!”

He broke from his dramatic attitude and struck out in a fierce stride across the narrow chamber, turning like a caged animal.

He dropped his dramatic pose and strode fiercely across the narrow room, turning like a trapped animal.

“Ruined!” he exclaimed. “Ruined! Ha! So he has ruined her, has he?”

“Ruined!” he shouted. “Ruined! Ha! So, he's ruined her, has he?”

Suddenly he stopped like an image jerked by a string. He was directly in front of Mrs. Gerhardt, who had retired to the table at the side of the wall, and was standing there pale with fear.

Suddenly, he stopped as if yanked by a string. He was right in front of Mrs. Gerhardt, who had settled at the table against the wall, standing there pale with fear.

“He is dead now!” he shouted, as if this fact had now first occurred to him. “He is dead!”

"He's dead now!" he yelled, as if it just hit him. "He's dead!"

He put both hands to his temples, as if he feared his brain would give way, and stood looking at her, the mocking irony of the situation seeming to burn in his brain like fire.

He pressed both hands to his temples, as if he was worried his mind would snap, and stood there staring at her, the sarcastic irony of the situation flashing in his head like fire.

“Dead!” he repeated, and Mrs. Gerhardt, fearing for the reason of the man, shrank still farther away, her wits taken up rather with the tragedy of the figure he presented than with the actual substance of his woe.

“Dead!” he said again, and Mrs. Gerhardt, worried about the man’s sanity, moved even further away, her mind focused more on the tragic sight he made than on the real nature of his grief.

“He intended to marry her,” she pleaded nervously. “He would have married her if he had not died.”

“He meant to marry her,” she said anxiously. “He would have married her if he hadn't died.”

“Would have!” shouted Gerhardt, coming out of his trance at the sound of her voice. “Would have! That’s a fine thing to talk about now. Would have! The hound! May his soul burn in hell—the dog! Ah, God, I hope—I hope—If I were not a Christian—” He clenched his hands, the awfulness of his passion shaking him like a leaf.

“Would have!” shouted Gerhardt, snapping out of his trance at the sound of her voice. “Would have! That’s a nice thing to discuss right now. Would have! The hound! May his soul burn in hell—the dog! Oh, God, I hope—I hope—If I weren’t a Christian—” He clenched his hands, the intensity of his emotion shaking him like a leaf.

Mrs. Gerhardt burst into tears, and her husband turned away, his own feelings far too intense for him to have any sympathy with her. He walked to and fro, his heavy step shaking the kitchen floor. After a time he came back, a new phase of the dread calamity having offered itself to his mind.

Mrs. Gerhardt broke down in tears, and her husband looked away, his own emotions too overwhelming for him to feel any sympathy for her. He paced back and forth, his heavy footsteps shaking the kitchen floor. After a while, he returned, a different aspect of the terrible situation coming to his mind.

“When did this happen?” he demanded

"When did this happen?" he asked.

“I don’t know,” returned Mrs. Gerhardt, too terror-stricken to tell the truth. “I only found it out the other day.”

“I don’t know,” Mrs. Gerhardt replied, too scared to speak the truth. “I just found out the other day.”

“You lie!” he exclaimed in his excitement. “You were always shielding her. It is your fault that she is where she is. If you had let me have my way there would have been no cause for our trouble to-night.

“You're lying!” he shouted in his excitement. “You always protected her. It's your fault she's in this situation. If you had just let me have my way, we wouldn't be in this mess tonight.”

“A fine ending,” he went on to himself. “A fine ending. My boy gets into jail; my daughter walks the streets and gets herself talked about; the neighbors come to me with open remarks about my children; and now this scoundrel ruins her. By the God in heaven, I don’t know what has got into my children!

“A perfect ending,” he muttered to himself. “A perfect ending. My son ends up in jail; my daughter roams the streets and gets talked about; the neighbors come to me with their opinions about my kids; and now this scoundrel takes advantage of her. By God, I don’t know what’s happened to my children!”

“I don’t know how it is,” he went on, unconsciously commiserating himself. “I try, I try! Every night I pray that the Lord will let me do right, but it is no use. I might work and work. My hands—look at them—are rough with work. All my life I have tried to be an honest man. Now—now—” His voice broke, and it seemed for a moment as if he would give way to tears. Suddenly he turned on his wife, the major passion of anger possessing him.

“I don’t know what’s going on,” he continued, unconsciously feeling sorry for himself. “I try, I really do! Every night I pray that the Lord will help me do the right thing, but it’s no use. I could work and work. My hands—just look at them—are rough from all the labor. I’ve spent my whole life trying to be an honest man. Now—now—” His voice cracked, and for a moment it seemed like he might break down in tears. Then, suddenly, he turned on his wife, overwhelmed by a surge of anger.

“You are the cause of this,” he exclaimed. “You are the sole cause. If you had done as I told you to do this would not have happened. No, you wouldn’t do that. She must go out! out!! out!!! She has become a street-walker, that’s what she has become. She has set herself right to go to hell. Let her go. I wash my hands of the whole thing. This is enough for me.”

“You're the reason for this,” he shouted. “You’re the only reason. If you had just done what I said, this wouldn't have happened. No, you wouldn’t do that. She needs to get out! Out!! Out!!! She’s turned into a streetwalker, that’s what she’s become. She’s on her way to hell. Let her go. I’m done with the whole thing. This is more than enough for me.”

He made as if to go off to his little bedroom, but he had no sooner reached the door than he came back.

He acted like he was going to his small bedroom, but as soon as he got to the door, he turned back.

“She shall get out!” he said electrically. “She shall not stay under my roof! To-night! At once! I will not let her enter my door again. I will show her whether she will disgrace me or not!”

“She has to leave!” he said intensely. “She will not stay under my roof! Tonight! Right now! I won’t let her come through my door again. I’ll show her whether she can disgrace me or not!”

“You mustn’t turn her out on the streets to-night,” pleaded Mrs. Gerhardt. “She has no place to go.”

“You can’t kick her out onto the streets tonight,” Mrs. Gerhardt begged. “She has nowhere to go.”

“To-night!” he repeated. “This very minute! Let her find a home. She did not want this one. Let her get out now. We will see how the world treats her.” He walked out of the room, inflexible resolution fixed upon his rugged features.

“To-night!” he repeated. “This very minute! Let her find a home. She didn’t want this one. Let her leave now. We’ll see how the world treats her.” He walked out of the room, a determined look set on his rugged features.

At half-past five, when Mrs. Gerhardt was tearfully going about the duty of getting supper, Jennie returned. Her mother started when she heard the door open, for now she knew the storm would burst afresh. Her father met her on the threshold.

At 5:30, while Mrs. Gerhardt was tearfully preparing dinner, Jennie came back. Her mother jumped when she heard the door open, knowing that the storm would start up again. Her father met her at the door.

“Get out of my sight!” he said savagely. “You shall not stay another hour in my house. I don’t want to see you any more. Get out!”

“Get out of my sight!” he said harshly. “You’re not staying another hour in my house. I don’t want to see you again. Leave!”

Jennie stood before him, pale, trembling a little, and silent. The children she had brought home with her crowded about in frightened amazement. Veronica and Martha, who loved her dearly, began to cry.

Jennie stood in front of him, pale, a bit shaky, and silent. The kids she had brought home crowded around in frightened amazement. Veronica and Martha, who cared for her deeply, started to cry.

“What’s the matter?” George asked, his mouth open in wonder.

“What's wrong?” George asked, his mouth agape in amazement.

“She shall get out,” reiterated Gerhardt. “I don’t want her under my roof. If she wants to be a street-walker, let her be one, but she shall not stay here. Pack your things,” he added, staring at her.

“She needs to leave,” Gerhardt said again. “I don’t want her living here. If she wants to be a sex worker, that’s her choice, but she can’t stay here. Pack your things,” he added, glaring at her.

Jennie had no word to say, but the children cried loudly.

Jennie had nothing to say, but the kids cried loudly.

“Be still,” said Gerhardt. “Go into the kitchen.”

“Hold on,” said Gerhardt. “Go to the kitchen.”

He drove them all out and followed stubbornly himself.

He drove them all out and stubbornly followed them himself.

Jennie went quietly to her room. She gathered up her few little belongings and began, with tears, to put them into a valise her mother brought her. The little girlish trinkets that she had accumulated from time to time she did not take. She saw them, but thought of her younger sisters, and let them stay. Martha and Veronica would have assisted her, but their father forbade them to go.

Jennie quietly went to her room. She collected her few belongings and started, with tears, to pack them into a suitcase her mother had brought her. She didn’t take the little girl trinkets she had gathered over time. She saw them but thought about her younger sisters and decided to leave them behind. Martha and Veronica would have helped her, but their father told them they couldn't go.

At six o’clock Bass came in, and seeing the nervous assembly in the kitchen, inquired what the trouble was.

At six o’clock, Bass walked in and, noticing the anxious group in the kitchen, asked what the issue was.

Gerhardt looked at him grimly, but did not answer.

Gerhardt stared at him with a serious expression but didn't respond.

“What’s the trouble?” insisted Bass. “What are you all sitting around for?”

“What’s going on?” Bass pressed. “Why is everyone just sitting around?”

“He is driving Jennie away,” whispered Mrs. Gerhardt tearfully.

“He's pushing Jennie away,” Mrs. Gerhardt whispered, tears in her eyes.

“What for?” asked Bass, opening his eyes in astonishment.

“What for?” asked Bass, opening his eyes in surprise.

“I shall tell you what for,” broke in Gerhardt, still speaking in German. “Because she’s a street-walker, that’s what for. She goes and gets herself ruined by a man thirty years older than she is, a man old enough to be her father. Let her get out of this. She shall not stay here another minute.”

“I'll tell you why,” interrupted Gerhardt, still speaking in German. “Because she’s a prostitute, that's why. She went and got herself messed up with a guy who’s thirty years older than she is, a man old enough to be her father. She needs to get out of here. She won't stay here another minute.”

Bass looked about him, and the children opened their eyes. All felt clearly that something terrible had happened, even the little ones. None but Bass understood.

Bass looked around, and the kids widened their eyes. Everyone sensed that something awful had occurred, even the little ones. Only Bass really understood.

“What do you want to send her out to-night for?” he inquired. “This is no time to send a girl out on the streets. Can’t she stay here until morning?”

“What do you want to send her out tonight for?” he asked. “This isn’t the time to send a girl out on the streets. Can’t she stay here until morning?”

“No,” said Gerhardt.

“No,” Gerhardt said.

“He oughtn’t to do that,” put in the mother.

“He shouldn’t do that,” the mother said.

“She goes now,” said Gerhardt. “Let that be an end of it.”

“She’s leaving now,” Gerhardt said. “Let that be the end of it.”

“Where is she going to go?” insisted Bass.

“Where is she going to go?” Bass pressed.

“I don’t know,” Mrs. Gerhardt interpolated weakly.

"I don't know," Mrs. Gerhardt said weakly.

Bass looked around, but did nothing until Mrs. Gerhardt motioned him toward the front door when her husband was not looking.

Bass looked around but didn’t move until Mrs. Gerhardt signaled him to the front door when her husband wasn’t watching.

“Go in! Go in!” was the import of her gesture.

“Go in! Go in!” was what her gesture meant.

Bass went in, and then Mrs. Gerhardt dared to leave her work and follow. The children stayed awhile, but, one by one, even they slipped away, leaving Gerhardt alone. When he thought that time enough had elapsed he arose.

Bass went inside, and then Mrs. Gerhardt took a chance to leave her work and follow him. The children stayed for a bit, but one by one, they quietly slipped away, leaving Gerhardt by himself. When he felt enough time had passed, he got up.

In the interval Jennie had been hastily coached by her mother.

In the meantime, Jennie had been quickly coached by her mother.

Jennie should go to a private boarding-house somewhere, and send back her address. Bass should not accompany her, but she should wait a little way up the street, and he would follow. When her father was away the mother might get to see her, or Jennie could come home. All else must be postponed until they could meet again.

Jennie should go to a private boarding house somewhere and send back her address. Bass shouldn’t go with her, but she should wait a short distance up the street, and he would follow her. When her father was gone, her mom might be able to see her, or Jennie could come home. Everything else has to wait until they can meet again.

While the discussion was still going on, Gerhardt came in.

While the conversation was still happening, Gerhardt walked in.

“Is she going?” he asked harshly.

“Is she going?” he asked roughly.

“Yes,” answered Mrs. Gerhardt, with her first and only note of defiance.

“Yes,” replied Mrs. Gerhardt, with her first and only hint of defiance.

Bass said, “What’s the hurry?” But Gerhardt frowned too mightily for him to venture on any further remonstrance.

Bass said, “What’s the rush?” But Gerhardt frowned too heavily for him to say anything more.

Jennie entered, wearing her one good dress and carrying her valise. There was fear in her eyes, for she was passing through a fiery ordeal, but she had become a woman. The strength of love was with her, the support of patience and the ruling sweetness of sacrifice. Silently she kissed her mother, while tears fell fast. Then she turned, and the door closed upon her as she went forth to a new life.

Jennie walked in, dressed in her best outfit and holding her suitcase. There was fear in her eyes as she faced a tough challenge, but she had grown into a woman. The power of love was with her, along with the strength of patience and the deep sweetness of sacrifice. Quietly, she kissed her mother, tears streaming down her face. Then she turned, and the door shut behind her as she stepped into a new life.

CHAPTER X

The world into which Jennie was thus unduly thrust forth was that in which virtue has always vainly struggled since time immemorial; for virtue is the wishing well and the doing well unto others. Virtue is that quality of generosity which offers itself willingly for another’s service, and, being this, it is held by society to be nearly worthless. Sell yourself cheaply and you shall be used lightly and trampled under foot. Hold yourself dearly, however unworthily, and you will be respected. Society, in the mass, lacks woefully in the matter of discrimination. Its one criterion is the opinion of others. Its one test that of self-preservation. Has he preserved his fortune? Has she preserved her purity? Only in rare instances and with rare individuals does there seem to be any guiding light from within.

The world that Jennie was unfairly pushed into was one where virtue has always struggled in vain throughout history; because virtue is about wishing well and doing good for others. Virtue is that quality of generosity that willingly offers itself for someone else's benefit, and because of this, society views it as almost worthless. If you sell yourself short, you’ll be treated lightly and walked all over. However, if you value yourself highly, no matter how unworthy you are, you’ll gain respect. Society as a whole lacks the ability to discern. Its only standard is other people's opinions. Its only test is self-preservation. Has he managed to keep his wealth? Has she managed to maintain her purity? Only in rare cases and with exceptional individuals does it seem that there is any inner guidance.

Jennie had not sought to hold herself dear. Innate feeling in her made for self-sacrifice. She could not be readily corrupted by the world’s selfish lessons on how to preserve oneself from the evil to come.

Jennie didn't try to put herself first. Her natural instincts led her to selflessness. She couldn't easily be swayed by the world's selfish teachings on how to protect herself from the upcoming harm.

It is in such supreme moments that growth is greatest. It comes as with a vast surge, this feeling of strength and sufficiency. We may still tremble, the fear of doing wretchedly may linger, but we grow. Flashes of inspiration come to guide the soul. In nature there is no outside. When we are cast from a group or a condition we have still the companionship of all that is. Nature is not ungenerous. Its winds and stars are fellows with you. Let the soul be but gentle and receptive, and this vast truth will come home—not in set phrases, perhaps, but as a feeling, a comfort, which, after all, is the last essence of knowledge. In the universe peace is wisdom.

In those peak moments, we grow the most. It hits us like a powerful wave, this sense of strength and contentment. We might still feel a bit shaky, and the fear of failing may stick around, but we do grow. Moments of inspiration come to guide us. In nature, there’s no separation. Even when we’re excluded from a group or situation, we still have the connection with everything around us. Nature is generous. Its winds and stars accompany you. If you let your soul be gentle and open, this profound truth will resonate within you—not in set phrases, perhaps, but as a feeling, a comfort, which ultimately is the essence of true knowledge. In the universe, peace is wisdom.

Jennie had hardly turned from the door when she was overtaken by Bass. “Give me your grip,” he said; and then seeing that she was dumb with unutterable feeling, he added, “I think I know where I can get you a room.”

Jennie had barely turned away from the door when Bass caught up with her. “Let me take your bag,” he said; and then noticing that she was speechless with overwhelming emotion, he added, “I think I know where I can find you a place to stay.”

He led the way to the southern part of the city, where they were not known, and up to the door of an old lady whose parlor clock had been recently purchased from the instalment firm by whom he was now employed. She was not well off, he knew, and had a room to rent.

He headed to the southern part of the city, where they weren’t recognized, and stopped at the door of an elderly woman whose living room clock had recently been bought from the installment company he was now working for. He knew she wasn’t well-off and had a room available for rent.

“Is that room of yours still vacant?” he asked.

“Is your room still empty?” he asked.

“Yes,” she said, looking at Jennie.

“Yes,” she said, looking at Jennie.

“I wish you’d let my sister have it. We’re moving away, and she can’t go yet.”

“I wish you would let my sister have it. We’re moving away, and she can’t go yet.”

The old lady expressed her willingness, and Jennie was soon temporarily installed.

The old lady agreed, and Jennie was quickly set up for the time being.

“Don’t worry now,” said Bass, who felt rather sorry for her. “This’ll blow over. Ma said I should tell you not to worry. Come up to-morrow when he’s gone.”

“Don’t stress about it now,” said Bass, who felt pretty bad for her. “This will pass. Mom told me to let you know not to worry. Come by tomorrow when he’s gone.”

Jennie said she would, and, after giving her further oral encouragement, he arranged with the old lady about board, and took his leave.

Jennie said she would, and after giving her more verbal encouragement, he made arrangements with the old lady about her lodging and took his leave.

“It’s all right now,” he said encouragingly as he went out. “You’ll come out all right. Don’t worry. I’ve got to go back, but I’ll come around in the morning.”

“It’s all good now,” he said reassuringly as he left. “You’ll be fine. Don’t stress. I have to head back, but I’ll stop by in the morning.”

He went away, and the bitter stress of it blew lightly over his head, for he was thinking that Jennie had made a mistake. This was shown by the manner in which he had asked her questions as they had walked together, and that in the face of her sad and doubtful mood.

He walked away, and the painful tension of it passed lightly over him because he was thinking that Jennie had made a mistake. This was evident in the way he asked her questions while they walked together, especially given her sad and uncertain mood.

“What’d you want to do that for?” and “Didn’t you ever think what you were doing?” he persisted.

“What did you want to do that for?” and “Didn't you ever think about what you were doing?” he kept asking.

“Please don’t ask me to-night,” Jennie had said, which put an end to the sharpest form of his queries. She had no excuse to offer and no complaint to make. If any blame attached, very likely it was hers. His own misfortune and the family’s and her sacrifice were alike forgotten.

“Please don’t ask me tonight,” Jennie had said, which put an end to the most intense of his questions. She had no excuse to offer and no complaints to make. If any blame was to be assigned, it was probably hers. His own misfortune, along with the family’s and her sacrifices, were all forgotten.

Left alone in her strange abode, Jennie gave way to her saddened feelings. The shock and shame of being banished from her home overcame her, and she wept. Although of a naturally long-suffering and uncomplaining disposition, the catastrophic wind-up of all her hopes was too much for her. What was this element in life that could seize and overwhelm one as does a great wind? Why this sudden intrusion of death to shatter all that had seemed most promising in life?

Left alone in her unfamiliar home, Jennie let her sadness take over. The shock and humiliation of being kicked out of her home overwhelmed her, and she cried. Although she usually had a patient and accepting nature, the disastrous end of all her hopes was too much to bear. What was this force in life that could grip and overpower someone like a fierce wind? Why did death suddenly intrude to destroy everything that had seemed so promising?

As she thought over the past, a very clear recollection of the details of her long relationship with Brander came back to her, and for all her suffering she could only feel a loving affection for him. After all, he had not deliberately willed her any harm. His kindness, his generosity—these things had been real. He had been essentially a good man, and she was sorry—more for his sake than for her own that his end had been so untimely.

As she reflected on the past, she clearly remembered the details of her long relationship with Brander, and despite all her pain, she only felt love for him. After all, he hadn’t meant to hurt her. His kindness and generosity had been genuine. He had been fundamentally a good man, and she felt sorry—more for him than for herself—that his life had ended so suddenly.

These cogitations, while not at all reassuring, at least served to pass the night away, and the next morning Bass stopped on his way to work to say that Mrs. Gerhardt wished her to come home that same evening. Gerhardt would not be present, and they could talk it over. She spent the day lonesomely enough, but when night fell her spirits brightened, and at a quarter of eight she set out.

These thoughts, while not comforting at all, at least helped her get through the night. The next morning, Bass stopped by on his way to work to say that Mrs. Gerhardt wanted her to come home that evening. Gerhardt wouldn’t be there, so they could discuss it. She spent the day feeling quite lonely, but when night came, her mood lifted, and at 7:15, she headed out.

There was not much of comforting news to tell her. Gerhardt was still in a direfully angry and outraged mood. He had already decided to throw up his place on the following Saturday and go to Youngstown. Any place was better than Columbus after this; he could never expect to hold up his head here again. Its memories were odious. He would go away now, and if he succeeded in finding work the family should follow, a decision which meant the abandoning of the little home. He was not going to try to meet the mortgage on the house—he could not hope to.

There wasn't much good news to share with her. Gerhardt was still extremely angry and upset. He had already made up his mind to leave his home next Saturday and head to Youngstown. Anywhere was better than Columbus after this; he could never hold his head high here again. The memories were unbearable. He would leave now, and if he managed to find a job, the family would follow, which meant giving up their little home. He wasn't going to attempt to keep up with the mortgage on the house—he knew he couldn't.

At the end of the week Gerhardt took his leave, Jennie returned home, and for a time at least there was a restoration of the old order, a condition which, of course, could not endure.

At the end of the week, Gerhardt said goodbye, Jennie went back home, and for a while, things returned to the way they used to be—a situation that, of course, couldn't last.

Bass saw it. Jennie’s trouble and its possible consequences weighed upon him disagreeably. Columbus was no place to stay. Youngstown was no place to go. If they should all move away to some larger city it would be much better.

Bass saw it. Jennie’s problems and their potential consequences bothered him. Columbus wasn’t a great place to stay. Youngstown wasn’t a good destination. If they all moved to a bigger city, it would be a lot better.

He pondered over the situation, and hearing that a manufacturing boom was on in Cleveland, he thought it might be wise to try his luck there. If he succeeded, the others might follow. If Gerhardt still worked on in Youngstown, as he was now doing, and the family came to Cleveland, it would save Jennie from being turned out in the streets.

He thought about the situation, and when he heard there was a manufacturing boom in Cleveland, he figured it could be smart to try his luck there. If he made it, others might join in. If Gerhardt was still working in Youngstown, as he was currently doing, and the family moved to Cleveland, it would keep Jennie from being kicked out on the streets.

Bass waited a little while before making up his mind, but finally announced his purpose.

Bass waited a bit before deciding, but finally stated his intention.

“I believe I’ll go up to Cleveland,” he said to his mother one evening as she was getting supper.

“I think I’ll head over to Cleveland,” he said to his mom one evening while she was making dinner.

“Why?” she asked, looking up uncertainly. She was rather afraid that Bass would desert her.

“Why?” she asked, glancing up nervously. She was pretty scared that Bass would leave her.

“I think I can get work there,” he returned. “We oughtn’t to stay in this darned old town.”

“I think I can find a job there,” he replied. “We shouldn’t stick around in this old town anymore.”

“Don’t swear,” she returned reprovingly.

“Don’t curse,” she replied reprovingly.

“Oh, I know,” he said, “but it’s enough to make any one swear. We’ve never had anything but rotten luck here. I’m going to go, and maybe if I get anything we can all move. We’d be better off if we’d get some place where people don’t know us. We can’t be anything here.”

“Oh, I get it,” he said, “but it’s enough to make anyone curse. We’ve only had bad luck here. I’m going to leave, and maybe if I find something, we can all move. We’d be better off somewhere people don’t know us. We can’t do anything here.”

Mrs. Gerhardt listened with a strong hope for a betterment of their miserable life creeping into her heart. If Bass would only do this. If he would go and get work, and come to her rescue, as a strong bright young son might, what a thing it would be! They were in the rapids of a life which was moving toward a dreadful calamity. If only something would happen.

Mrs. Gerhardt listened with a strong hope that their miserable life would improve. If only Bass would step up. If he could go find work and come to her rescue like a strong, bright young son might, what a difference it would make! They were caught in the turbulence of a life heading toward a terrible disaster. If only something would change.

“Do you think you could get something to do?” she asked interestedly.

“Do you think you could find something to do?” she asked with interest.

“I ought to,” he said. “I’ve never looked for a place yet that I didn’t get it. Other fellows have gone up there and done all right. Look at the Millers.”

“I should,” he said. “I’ve never searched for a place I didn’t get. Other guys have gone up there and done fine. Look at the Millers.”

He shoved his hands into his pockets and looked out the window.

He shoved his hands in his pockets and stared out the window.

“Do you think you could get along until I try my hand up there?” he asked.

“Do you think you could manage until I give it a shot up there?” he asked.

“I guess we could,” she replied. “Papa’s at work now and we have some money that, that—” she hesitated, to name the source, so ashamed was she of their predicament.

“I guess we could,” she replied. “Dad’s at work now and we have some money that, that—” she hesitated, embarrassed to name the source, so ashamed was she of their situation.

“Yes, I know,” said Bass, grimly.

“Yes, I know,” Bass said with a serious expression.

“We won’t have to pay any rent here before fall and then we’ll have to give it up anyhow,” she added.

“We won’t have to pay any rent here until fall and then we’ll have to give it up anyway,” she added.

She was referring to the mortgage on the house, which fell due the next September and which unquestionably could not be met. “If we could move away from here before then, I guess we could get along.”

She was talking about the mortgage on the house, which was due the following September and definitely couldn't be paid. "If we could move away from here before that, I think we could manage."

“I’ll do it,” said Bass determinedly. “I’ll go.”

"I'll do it," Bass said with determination. "I'll go."

Accordingly, he threw up his place at the end of the month, and the day after he left for Cleveland.

Accordingly, he quit his job at the end of the month, and the next day he left for Cleveland.

CHAPTER XI

The incidents of the days that followed, relating as they did peculiarly to Jennie, were of an order which the morality of our day has agreed to taboo.

The events in the days that followed, which were uniquely tied to Jennie, were of a nature that today's morals have agreed to avoid discussing.

Certain processes of the all-mother, the great artificing wisdom of the power that works and weaves in silence and in darkness, when viewed in the light of the established opinion of some of the little individuals created by it, are considered very vile. We turn our faces away from the creation of life as if that were the last thing that man should dare to interest himself in, openly.

Certain processes of the all-mother, the great creative wisdom of the power that operates and weaves in silence and darkness, are viewed in a negative light according to the established opinions of some of the small individuals created by it. We turn away from the creation of life as if that were the last thing that humanity should dare to take an interest in, openly.

It is curious that a feeling of this sort should spring up in a world whose very essence is generative, the vast process dual, and where wind, water, soil, and light alike minister to the fruition of that which is all that we are. Although the whole earth, not we alone, is moved by passions hymeneal, and everything terrestrial has come into being by the one common road, yet there is that ridiculous tendency to close the eyes and turn away the head as if there were something unclean in nature itself. “Conceived in iniquity and born in sin,” is the unnatural interpretation put upon the process by the extreme religionist, and the world, by its silence, gives assent to a judgment so marvelously warped.

It's interesting that a feeling like this would arise in a world that is basically about creation, where everything works together, and where wind, water, soil, and light all help bring about everything that makes us who we are. Even though the entire earth, not just us, is driven by passionate love, and everything earthly has come into existence through the same natural process, there is this foolish tendency to shut our eyes and look away as if there's something dirty about nature itself. The extreme religious view that we are "conceived in iniquity and born in sin" is such a twisted interpretation of the process, and the world, by staying silent, seems to agree with such a distorted judgment.

Surely there is something radically wrong in this attitude. The teachings of philosophy and the deductions of biology should find more practical application in the daily reasoning of man. No process is vile, no condition is unnatural. The accidental variation from a given social practice does not necessarily entail sin. No poor little earthling, caught in the enormous grip of chance, and so swerved from the established customs of men, could possibly be guilty of that depth of vileness which the attitude of the world would seem to predicate so inevitably.

Surely, there’s something seriously wrong with this way of thinking. The lessons from philosophy and insights from biology should be applied more practically in everyday human reasoning. No action is degrading, and no situation is unnatural. A random deviation from a certain social norm doesn’t automatically mean someone has sinned. No unfortunate individual, caught up in the vast randomness of life and straying from society’s established customs, could truly deserve the deep condemnation that society seems to insist upon.

Jennie was now to witness the unjust interpretation of that wonder of nature, which, but for Brander’s death, might have been consecrated and hallowed as one of the ideal functions of life. Although herself unable to distinguish the separateness of this from every other normal process of life, yet was she made to feel, by the actions of all about her, that degradation was her portion and sin the foundation as well as the condition of her state. Almost, not quite, it was sought to extinguish the affection, the consideration, the care which, afterward, the world would demand of her, for her child. Almost, not quite, was the budding and essential love looked upon as evil. Although her punishment was neither the gibbet nor the jail of a few hundred years before, yet the ignorance and immobility of the human beings about her made it impossible for them to see anything in her present condition but a vile and premeditated infraction of the social code, the punishment of which was ostracism. All she could do now was to shun the scornful gaze of men, and to bear in silence the great change that was coming upon her. Strangely enough, she felt no useless remorse, no vain regrets. Her heart was pure, and she was conscious that it was filled with peace. Sorrow there was, it is true, but only a mellow phase of it, a vague uncertainty and wonder, which would sometimes cause her eyes to fill with tears.

Jennie was now witnessing the unfair interpretation of that natural wonder, which, if not for Brander’s death, could have been celebrated and honored as one of the ideal aspects of life. Although she couldn’t fully separate this from all the other normal processes of life, she felt from everyone around her that degradation was her fate and sin was both the foundation and condition of her situation. Almost, but not quite, they tried to erase the affection, the consideration, and the care that the world would later expect of her for her child. Almost, but not quite, was the budding and essential love seen as wrong. Although her punishment wasn’t the gallows or prison of a few hundred years earlier, the ignorance and rigidity of the people around her made it impossible for them to see anything in her current state as anything but a disgusting and deliberate violation of social norms, with ostracism as the consequence. All she could do now was avoid the scornful looks from men and silently endure the significant change coming her way. Strangely enough, she felt no useless guilt, no pointless regrets. Her heart was pure, and she was aware that it was filled with peace. There was sorrow, it’s true, but just a gentle kind—a vague uncertainty and wonder—that sometimes brought tears to her eyes.

You have heard the wood-dove calling in the lone stillness of the summertime; you have found the unheeded brooklet singing and babbling where no ear comes to hear. Under dead leaves and snow-banks the delicate arbutus unfolds its simple blossom, answering some heavenly call for color. So, too, this other flower of womanhood.

You’ve heard the wood dove calling in the quiet stillness of summer; you’ve discovered the unnoticed brook trickling and bubbling where no one comes to listen. Beneath dead leaves and snow, the delicate arbutus blooms, responding to some divine call for color. Similarly, this other flower of womanhood.

Jennie was left alone, but, like the wood-dove, she was a voice of sweetness in the summer-time. Going about her household duties, she was content to wait, without a murmur, the fulfilment of that process for which, after all, she was but the sacrificial implement. When her duties were lightest she was content to sit in quiet meditation, the marvel of life holding her as in a trance. When she was hardest pressed to aid her mother, she would sometimes find herself quietly singing, the pleasure of work lifting her out of herself. Always she was content to face the future with a serene and unfaltering courage. It is not so with all women. Nature is unkind in permitting the minor type to bear a child at all. The larger natures in their maturity welcome motherhood, see in it the immense possibilities of racial fulfilment, and find joy and satisfaction in being the hand-maiden of so immense a purpose.

Jennie was left alone, but like the morning dove, she brought a touch of sweetness to the summer. Going about her household tasks, she patiently waited for the realization of a fate for which, ultimately, she was just a tool. During her lightest chores, she was happy to sit in quiet reflection, captivated by the wonders of life. When her responsibilities weighed heavily as she helped her mother, she would occasionally start singing softly, finding joy in her work that lifted her spirits. Always, she faced the future with calm and unwavering courage. Not all women share this outlook. Nature is harsh in allowing the lesser kinds to have children at all. The more profound natures, in their maturity, embrace motherhood, recognizing its vast potential for fulfilling the race, and find joy and fulfillment in serving such a significant purpose.

Jennie, a child in years, was potentially a woman physically and mentally, but not yet come into rounded conclusions as to life and her place in it. The great situation which had forced her into this anomalous position was from one point of view a tribute to her individual capacity. It proved her courage, the largeness of her sympathy, her willingness to sacrifice for what she considered a worthy cause. That it resulted in an unexpected consequence, which placed upon her a larger and more complicated burden, was due to the fact that her sense of self-protection had not been commensurate with her emotions. There were times when the prospective coming of the child gave her a sense of fear and confusion, because she did not know but that the child might eventually reproach her; but there was always that saving sense of eternal justice in life which would not permit her to be utterly crushed. To her way of thinking, people were not intentionally cruel. Vague thoughts of sympathy and divine goodness permeated her soul. Life at worst or best was beautiful—had always been so.

Jennie, still young, was physically and mentally mature, but she hadn't yet fully figured out life and her role in it. The situation that had put her in this unusual position was, in a way, a testament to her ability. It showed her courage, her big heart, and her readiness to make sacrifices for what she believed was a worthy cause. However, it led to unexpected consequences that placed a heavier, more complicated burden on her because her instinct for self-protection wasn't in line with her feelings. There were moments when the thought of becoming a mother filled her with fear and confusion, as she worried that her child might eventually blame her. Yet, she always held on to a sense of justice in life that prevented her from feeling completely overwhelmed. In her view, people weren't intentionally cruel. She was filled with vague thoughts of compassion and divine goodness. Life, in her opinion, was beautiful—no matter the circumstances, it always had been.

These thoughts did not come to her all at once, but through the months during which she watched and waited. It was a wonderful thing to be a mother, even under these untoward conditions. She felt that she would love this child, would be a good mother to it if life permitted. That was the problem—what would life permit?

These thoughts didn’t come to her all at once, but over the months as she observed and anticipated. Being a mother was a beautiful experience, even under these challenging circumstances. She believed that she would love this child and be a good mother to it if life allowed. That was the challenge—what would life allow?

There were many things to be done—clothes to be made; certain provisions of hygiene and diet to be observed. One of her fears was that Gerhardt might unexpectedly return, but he did not. The old family doctor who had nursed the various members of the Gerhardt family through their multitudinous ailments—Doctor Ellwanger—was taken into consultation, and he gave sound and practical advice. Despite his Lutheran upbringing, the practice of medicine in a large and kindly way had led him to the conclusion that there are more things in heaven and earth than are dreamed of in our philosophies and in our small neighborhood relationships. “So it is,” he observed to Mrs. Gerhardt when she confided to him nervously what the trouble was. “Well, you mustn’t worry. These things happen in more places than you think. If you knew as much about life as I do, and about your neighbors, you would not cry. Your girl will be all right. She is very healthy. She can go away somewhere afterward, and people will never know. Why should you worry about what your neighbors think. It is not so uncommon as you imagine.”

There were a lot of things to take care of—clothes to make; certain hygiene and diet rules to follow. One of her worries was that Gerhardt might come back unexpectedly, but he didn’t. The old family doctor who had taken care of various members of the Gerhardt family through their numerous illnesses—Doctor Ellwanger—was consulted, and he gave solid, practical advice. Despite his Lutheran roots, his extensive experience in medicine had led him to believe that there are more things in heaven and earth than we realize in our philosophies and small community ties. “That’s true,” he said to Mrs. Gerhardt when she nervously shared her concerns. “Well, you shouldn’t fret. These things happen more often than you think. If you knew as much about life as I do, and about your neighbors, you wouldn't be upset. Your daughter will be fine. She’s very healthy. She can get away somewhere later, and no one will know. Why should you care about what your neighbors think? It’s not as rare as you imagine.”

Mrs. Gerhardt marveled. He was such a wise man. It gave her a little courage. As for Jennie, she listened to his advice with interest and without fear. She wanted things not so much for herself as for her child, and she was anxious to do whatever she was told. The doctor was curious to know who the father was; when informed he lifted his eyes. “Indeed,” he commented. “That ought to be a bright baby.”

Mrs. Gerhardt was impressed. He was such a wise man. It gave her a bit of courage. As for Jennie, she listened to his advice with interest and without fear. She wanted things not so much for herself but for her child, and she was eager to do whatever she was told. The doctor was curious to know who the father was; when he found out, he raised his eyebrows. “Really,” he remarked. “That should be a smart baby.”

There came the final hour when the child was ushered into the world. It was Doctor Ellwanger who presided, assisted by the mother, who, having brought forth six herself, knew exactly what to do. There was no difficulty, and at the first cry of the new-born infant there awakened in Jennie a tremendous yearning toward it. This was her child! It was weak and feeble—a little girl, and it needed her care. She took it to her breast, when it had been bathed and swaddled, with a tremendous sense of satisfaction and joy. This was her child, her little girl. She wanted to live to be able to work for it, and rejoiced, even in her weakness, that she was so strong. Doctor Ellwanger predicted a quick recovery. He thought two weeks would be the outside limit of her need to stay in bed. As a matter of fact, in ten days she was up and about, as vigorous and healthy as ever. She had been born with strength and with that nurturing quality which makes the ideal mother.

The time finally came when the child entered the world. It was Doctor Ellwanger who oversaw the delivery, with the mother by his side, who, having given birth to six herself, knew exactly what to do. There were no complications, and at the first cry of the newborn baby, a deep yearning blossomed in Jennie. This was her child! The little girl was weak and fragile, and she felt an overwhelming desire to care for her. After the baby had been cleaned and swaddled, Jennie held her to her chest with immense satisfaction and joy. This was her child, her little girl. She was determined to live so she could work for her, and even in her weakness, she felt grateful for her strength. Doctor Ellwanger predicted a swift recovery. He believed two weeks would be the maximum time she'd need to stay in bed. In reality, she was up and around in just ten days, as strong and healthy as ever. She had been born with resilience and that nurturing instinct that defines the ideal mother.

The great crisis had passed, and now life went on much as before. The children, outside of Bass, were too young to understand fully, and had been deceived by the story that Jennie was married to Senator Brander, who had died. They did not know that a child was coming until it was there. The neighbors were feared by Mrs. Gerhardt, for they were ever watchful and really knew all. Jennie would never have braved this local atmosphere except for the advice of Bass, who, having secured a place in Cleveland some time before, had written that he thought when she was well enough it would be advisable for the whole family to seek a new start in Cleveland. Things were flourishing there. Once away they would never hear of their present neighbors and Jennie could find something to do. So she stayed at home.

The big crisis was over, and life returned to normal. The kids, outside of Bass, were too young to fully grasp what had happened and had been misled by the story that Jennie was married to Senator Brander, who had passed away. They didn’t know a baby was on the way until it actually arrived. Mrs. Gerhardt was wary of the neighbors because they were always watching and knew everything. Jennie wouldn’t have faced this local environment if it weren’t for Bass’s suggestion, who had secured a job in Cleveland some time ago and wrote to her that once she was better, it would be a good idea for the whole family to start fresh in Cleveland. Things were thriving there. Once they moved, they would never have to deal with their current neighbors again, and Jennie could find something to occupy her time. So, she stayed home.

CHAPTER XII

Bass was no sooner in Cleveland than the marvel of that growing city was sufficient to completely restore his equanimity of soul and to stir up new illusions as to the possibility of rehabilitation for himself and his family. “If only they could come here,” he thought. “If only they could all get work and do right.” Here was no evidence of any of their recent troubles, no acquaintances who could suggest by their mere presence the troubles of the past. All was business, all activity. The very turning of the corner seemed to rid one of old times and crimes. It was as if a new world existed in every block.

As soon as Bass arrived in Cleveland, the excitement of that booming city completely restored his peace of mind and ignited new hopes for a fresh start for himself and his family. “If only they could come here,” he thought. “If only they could all find jobs and do the right thing.” There was no sign of any of their recent struggles, no familiar faces that could remind him of past troubles. Everywhere he looked, there was business and activity. Just turning a corner felt like shedding old times and mistakes. It was like a new world appeared on every block.

He soon found a place in a cigar store, and, after working a few weeks, he began to write home the cheering ideas he had in mind. Jennie ought to come as soon as she was able, and then, if she found something to do, the others might follow. There was plenty of work for girls of her age. She could live in the same house with him temporarily; or maybe they could take one of the fifteen-dollar-a-month cottages that were for rent. There were big general furnishing houses, where one could buy everything needful for a small house on very easy monthly terms. His mother could come and keep house for them. They would be in a clean, new atmosphere, unknown and untalked about. They could start life all over again; they could be decent, honorable, prosperous.

He soon got a job at a cigar store, and after a few weeks of working there, he started writing home with some encouraging ideas he had. Jennie should come as soon as she could, and then, if she found work, the others might follow. There were plenty of job opportunities for girls her age. She could temporarily stay in the same house with him, or they might rent one of the cottages for fifteen dollars a month. There were large furnishing stores where they could buy everything they needed for a small house on easy monthly payment plans. His mother could come and help them with the housework. They would be in a clean, fresh environment that was new and unspoken about. They could start their lives over; they could be decent, honorable, and successful.

Filled with this hope and the glamor which new scenes and new environment invariably throw over the unsophisticated mind, he wrote a final letter, in which he suggested that Jennie should come at once. This was when the baby was six months old. There were theaters here, he said, and beautiful streets. Vessels from the lakes came into the heart of the city. It was a wonderful city, and growing very fast. It was thus that the new life appealed to him.

Filled with this hope and the excitement that new experiences and surroundings often bring to an inexperienced mind, he wrote a final letter in which he suggested that Jennie should come right away. This was when the baby was six months old. There were theaters here, he said, and beautiful streets. Boats from the lakes came into the heart of the city. It was an amazing city, and it was growing quickly. This is how the new life spoke to him.

The effect which all this had upon Mrs. Gerhardt, Jennie, and the rest of the family was phenomenal. Mrs. Gerhardt, long weighed upon by the misery which Jennie’s error had entailed, was for taking measures for carrying out this plan at once. So buoyant was her natural temperament that she was completely carried away by the glory of Cleveland, and already saw fulfilled therein not only her own desires for a nice home, but the prosperous advancement of her children. “Of course they could get work,” she said. Bass was right. She had always wanted Gerhardt to go to some large city, but he would not. Now it was necessary, and they would go and become better off than they ever had been.

The impact all of this had on Mrs. Gerhardt, Jennie, and the rest of the family was huge. Mrs. Gerhardt, who had been weighed down by the misery caused by Jennie’s mistake, was determined to implement this plan immediately. Her naturally upbeat personality made her totally swept up in the excitement of Cleveland, and she could already envision not just her own dreams of a nice home being realized, but also her children thriving. “Of course they could find jobs,” she said. Bass was right. She had always wanted Gerhardt to move to a big city, but he never agreed. Now it was essential, and they would go and be better off than they had ever been.

And Gerhardt did take this view of the situation. In answer to his wife’s letter he wrote that it was not advisable for him to leave his place, but if Bass saw a way for them, it might be a good thing to go. He was the more ready to acquiesce in the plan for the simple reason that he was half distracted with the worry of supporting the family and of paying the debts already outstanding. Every week he laid by five dollars out of his salary, which he sent in the form of a postal order to Mrs. Gerhardt. Three dollars he paid for board, and fifty cents he kept for spending money, church dues, a little tobacco and occasionally a glass of beer. Every week he put a dollar and a half in a little iron bank against a rainy day. His room was a bare corner in the topmost loft of the mill. To this he would ascend after sitting alone on the doorstep of the mill in this lonely, foresaken neighborhood, until nine o’clock of an evening; and here, amid the odor of machinery wafted up from the floor below, by the light of a single tallow candle, he would conclude his solitary day, reading his German paper, folding his hands and thinking, kneeling by an open window in the shadow of the night to say his prayers, and silently stretching himself to rest. Long were the days, dreary the prospect. Still he lifted his hands in utmost faith to God, praying that his sins might be forgiven and that he might be vouchsafed a few more years of comfort and of happy family life.

And Gerhardt felt this way about the situation. In reply to his wife’s letter, he wrote that it wouldn’t be wise for him to leave his job, but if Bass saw a way forward for them, it could be a good idea to go. He was more willing to go along with the plan mainly because he was half consumed with the stress of supporting the family and paying off the debts they already had. Each week, he set aside five dollars from his paycheck, which he sent as a postal order to Mrs. Gerhardt. He spent three dollars on board, and kept fifty cents for spending money, church dues, a bit of tobacco, and occasionally a beer. Each week, he saved a dollar and a half in a little iron bank for emergencies. His room was a bare corner in the highest loft of the mill. He would climb up there after sitting alone on the mill’s doorstep in this lonely, forgotten neighborhood until nine o’clock at night. There, surrounded by the smell of machinery rising from below and lit by a single tallow candle, he would end his solitary day reading his German newspaper, folding his hands and reflecting, kneeling by an open window in the night’s shadow to pray, and quietly stretching out to rest. The days were long, and the future looked bleak. Still, he lifted his hands in deep faith to God, praying for forgiveness for his sins and hoping for a few more years of comfort and joyful family life.

So the momentous question was finally decided. There was the greatest longing and impatience among the children, and Mrs. Gerhardt shared their emotions in a suppressed way. Jennie was to go first, as Bass had suggested; later on they would all follow.

So the big question was finally settled. The children were filled with excitement and impatience, and Mrs. Gerhardt felt the same way, though she kept it to herself. Jennie would go first, as Bass had suggested; the others would follow later.

When the hour came for Jennie’s departure there was great excitement in the household.

When it was time for Jennie to leave, the house was buzzing with excitement.

“How long you going to be ’fore you send for us?” was Martha’s inquiry, several times repeated.

“How long until you send for us?” was Martha’s question, asked several times.

“Tell Bass to hurry up,” said the eager George.

“Tell Bass to hurry up,” said the eager George.

“I want to go to Cleveland, I want to go to Cleveland,” Veronica was caught singing to herself.

“I want to go to Cleveland, I want to go to Cleveland,” Veronica was caught singing to herself.

“Listen to her,” exclaimed George, sarcastically.

“Listen to her,” George said with sarcasm.

“Aw, you hush up,” was her displeased rejoinder.

“Aw, just be quiet,” was her annoyed response.

When the final hour came, however, it required all of Jennie’s strength to go through with the farewells. Though everything was being done in order to bring them together again under better conditions, she could not help feeling depressed. Her little one, now six months old, was being left behind. The great world was to her one undiscovered bourne. It frightened her.

When the final hour arrived, it took every bit of Jennie’s strength to manage the goodbyes. Even though everything was being arranged to reunite them under better circumstances, she couldn’t shake her sadness. Her baby, now six months old, was being left behind. The vast world felt like an unexplored territory to her. It scared her.

“You mustn’t worry, Ma,” she found courage enough to say. “I’ll be all right. I’ll write you just as soon as I get there. It won’t be so very long.”

“You don’t need to worry, Mom,” she found the courage to say. “I’ll be fine. I’ll write to you as soon as I get there. It won’t be too long.”

But when it came to bending over her baby for the last time her courage went out like a blown lamp. Stooping over the cradle in which the little one was resting, she looked into its face with passionate, motherly yearning.

But when it was time to bend over her baby for the last time, her courage faded like a blown-out lamp. Leaning over the cradle where the little one was resting, she gazed into its face with intense, motherly longing.

“Is it going to be a good little girl?” she cooed.

“Is she going to be a good little girl?” she said sweetly.

Then she caught it up into her arms, and hugging it closely to her neck and bosom, she buried her face against its little body. Mrs. Gerhardt saw that she was trembling.

Then she scooped it into her arms, holding it tight against her neck and chest, burying her face into its little body. Mrs. Gerhardt noticed that she was shaking.

“Come now,” she said, coaxingly, “you mustn’t carry on so. She will be all right with me. I’ll take care of her. If you’re going to act this way, you’d better not try to go at all.”

“Come on,” she said, gently, “you shouldn’t be like this. She’ll be fine with me. I’ll look after her. If you’re going to behave this way, it’s probably best if you don’t go at all.”

Jennie lifted her head, her blue eyes wet with tears, and handed the little one to her mother.

Jennie raised her head, her blue eyes glistening with tears, and handed the little one to her mom.

“I can’t help it,” she said, half crying, half smiling.

"I can't help it," she said, half crying, half smiling.

Quickly she kissed her mother and the children; then she hurried out.

Quickly, she kissed her mom and the kids, then she rushed out.

As she went down the street with George she looked back and bravely waved her hand. Mrs. Gerhardt responded, noticing how much more like a woman she looked. It had been necessary to invest some of her money in new clothes to wear on the train. She had selected a neat, ready-made suit of brown, which fitted her nicely. She wore the skirt of this with a white shirt-waist, and a sailor hat with a white veil wound around it in such fashion that it could be easily drawn over her face. As she went farther and farther away Mrs. Gerhardt followed her lovingly with her glance; and when she disappeared from view she said tenderly, through her own tears:

As she walked down the street with George, she looked back and gave a brave wave. Mrs. Gerhardt noticed how much more like a woman she appeared. It was necessary to use some of her money to buy new clothes for the train. She had chosen a neat, ready-made brown suit that fit her nicely. She paired the skirt with a white blouse and wore a sailor hat with a white veil wrapped around it, so it could easily be drawn over her face. As she walked further away, Mrs. Gerhardt watched her lovingly, and when she disappeared from sight, she said tenderly, through her own tears:

“I’m glad she looked so nice, anyhow.”

“I’m glad she looked so great, anyway.”

CHAPTER XIII

Bass met Jennie at the depôt in Cleveland and talked hopefully of the prospects. “The first thing is to get work,” he began, while the jingling sounds and the changing odors which the city thrust upon her were confusing and almost benumbing her senses. “Get something to do. It doesn’t matter what, so long as you get something. If you don’t get more than three or four dollars a week, it will pay the rent. Then, with what George can earn, when he comes, and what Pop sends, we can get along all right. It’ll be better than being down in that hole,” he concluded.

Bass met Jennie at the depot in Cleveland and discussed their hopes for the future. “The first thing we need to do is find work,” he started, as the jingly sounds and shifting smells of the city overwhelmed her senses. “Just get something, anything. It doesn’t matter what, as long as you’re earning. Even if it’s only three or four dollars a week, it’ll cover the rent. Then, with what George can make when he arrives and what Pop sends us, we’ll manage just fine. It’ll be better than being stuck in that hole,” he finished.

“Yes,” said Jennie, vaguely, her mind so hypnotized by the new display of life about her that she could not bring it forcibly to bear upon the topic under discussion. “I know what you mean. I’ll get something.”

“Yes,” Jennie said vaguely, her mind so caught up in the new display of life around her that she couldn't focus on the topic being discussed. “I know what you mean. I’ll get something.”

She was much older now, in understanding if not in years. The ordeal through which she had so recently passed had aroused in her a clearer conception of the responsibilities of life. Her mother was always in her mind, her mother and the children. In particular Martha and Veronica must have a better opportunity to do for themselves than she had had. They should be dressed better; they ought to be kept longer in school; they must have more companionship, more opportunity to broaden their lives.

She was much older now, in understanding if not in age. The experience she had just gone through had given her a clearer idea of life's responsibilities. Her mother was always in her thoughts, along with the children. In particular, Martha and Veronica needed a better chance to take care of themselves than she had. They should be dressed better; they needed to stay in school longer; they must have more friends and more opportunities to expand their lives.

Cleveland, like every other growing city at this time, was crowded with those who were seeking employment. New enterprises were constantly springing up, but those who were seeking to fulfil the duties they provided were invariably in excess of the demand. A stranger coming to the city might walk into a small position of almost any kind on the very day he arrived; and he might as readily wander in search of employment for weeks and even months. Bass suggested the shops and department stores as a first field in which to inquire. The factories and other avenues of employment were to be her second choice.

Cleveland, like every other growing city at that time, was bustling with people looking for jobs. New businesses were constantly popping up, but there were always more job seekers than available positions. A newcomer to the city might easily get a small job of any kind on the day they arrived, yet they could just as easily spend weeks or even months searching for work. Bass recommended starting with shops and department stores as the first place to look for work. Factories and other job options would be her second choice.

“Don’t pass a place, though,” he had cautioned her, “if you think there’s any chance of getting anything to do. Go right in.”

“Don't skip over a place, though,” he had warned her, “if you think there's any chance of finding something to do. Just go right in.”

“What must I say?” asked Jennie, nervously.

“What should I say?” Jennie asked, nervously.

“Tell them you want work. You don’t care what you do to begin with.”

“Tell them you want a job. You don't mind what you do to start off with.”

In compliance with this advice, Jennie set out the very first day, and was rewarded by some very chilly experiences. Wherever she went, no one seemed to want any help. She applied at the stores, the factories, the little shops that lined the outlying thoroughfares, but was always met by a rebuff. As a last resource she turned to housework, although she had hoped to avoid that; and, studying the want columns, she selected four which seemed more promising than the others. To these she decided to apply. One had already been filled when she arrived, but the lady who came to the door was so taken by her appearance that she invited her in and questioned her as to her ability.

Following this advice, Jennie set out on the very first day and faced some really cold experiences. No matter where she went, it seemed like no one wanted any help. She applied at the stores, the factories, and the small shops along the outer streets, but was always met with rejection. As a last resort, she turned to housework, even though she had hoped to avoid it; and, looking through the classifieds, she picked four that seemed more promising than the rest. She decided to apply to those. One position had already been filled when she arrived, but the woman who answered the door was so impressed by her appearance that she invited her in and asked about her skills.

“I wish you had come a little earlier,” she said. “I like you better than I do the girl I have taken. Leave me your address, anyhow.”

“I wish you had come a bit earlier,” she said. “I like you more than I like the girl I’ve chosen. Just leave me your address, anyway.”

Jennie went away, smiling at her reception. She was not quite so youthful looking as she had been before her recent trouble, but the thinner cheeks and the slightly deeper eyes added to the pensiveness and delicacy of her countenance. She was a model of neatness. Her clothes, all newly cleaned and ironed before leaving home, gave her a fresh and inviting appearance. There was growth coming to her in the matter of height, but already in appearance and intelligence she looked to be a young woman of twenty. Best of all, she was of that naturally sunny disposition, which, in spite of toil and privation, kept her always cheerful. Any one in need of a servant-girl or house companion would have been delighted to have had her.

Jennie walked away, smiling at how she was received. She didn’t look quite as youthful as she had before her recent struggles, but her thinner cheeks and slightly deeper eyes gave her face an air of thoughtfulness and delicacy. She was impeccably neat. Her clothes, all freshly cleaned and ironed before she left home, made her look fresh and inviting. She was growing taller, but in both appearance and intelligence, she seemed like a young woman of twenty. Best of all, she had a naturally sunny personality that, despite hardship and challenges, kept her always cheerful. Anyone in need of a maid or a house companion would have been lucky to have her.

The second place at which she applied was a large residence in Euclid Avenue; it seemed far too imposing for anything she might have to offer in the way of services, but having come so far she decided to make the attempt. The servant who met her at the door directed her to wait a few moments, and finally ushered her into the boudoir of the mistress of the house on the second floor. The latter, a Mrs. Bracebridge, a prepossessing brunette of the conventionally fashionable type, had a keen eye for feminine values and was impressed rather favorably with Jennie. She talked with her a little while, and finally decided to try her in the general capacity of maid.

The second place she applied to was a large house on Euclid Avenue; it felt way too fancy for what she could offer in terms of services, but since she had already come this far, she decided to give it a shot. The servant who answered the door told her to wait a few moments and eventually led her into the mistress's boudoir on the second floor. The mistress, Mrs. Bracebridge, was an attractive brunette of the fashionable type, with a sharp eye for women's qualities, and she was quite impressed with Jennie. They chatted for a bit, and in the end, Mrs. Bracebridge decided to hire her as a general maid.

“I will give you four dollars a week, and you can sleep here if you wish,” said Mrs. Bracebridge.

“I'll give you four dollars a week, and you can stay here if you want,” said Mrs. Bracebridge.

Jennie explained that she was living with her brother, and would soon have her family with her.

Jennie explained that she was living with her brother and would soon have her family with her.

“Oh, very well,” replied her mistress. “Do as you like about that. Only I expect you to be here promptly.”

“Oh, fine,” her mistress replied. “Do what you want about that. Just make sure you’re here on time.”

She wished her to remain for the day and to begin her duties at once, and Jennie agreed. Mrs. Bracebridge provided her a dainty cap and apron, and then spent some little time in instructing her in her duties. Her principal work would be to wait on her mistress, to brush her hair and to help her dress. She was also to answer the bell, wait on the table if need be, and do any other errand which her mistress might indicate. Mrs. Bracebridge seemed a little hard and formal to her prospective servant, but for all that Jennie admired the dash and go and the obvious executive capacity of her employer.

She wanted her to stay for the day and start her tasks right away, and Jennie agreed. Mrs. Bracebridge provided her with a pretty cap and apron, then spent some time showing her the ropes. Her main job would be to serve her mistress, brush her hair, and help her get dressed. She would also need to answer the bell, wait at the table if necessary, and run any other errands her mistress might request. Mrs. Bracebridge seemed a bit strict and formal to her future servant, but despite that, Jennie admired her flair, energy, and clear leadership skills.

At eight o’clock that evening Jennie was dismissed for the day. She wondered if she could be of any use in such a household, and marveled that she had got along as well as she had. Her mistress had set her to cleaning her jewelry and boudoir ornaments as an opening task, and though she had worked steadily and diligently, she had not finished by the time she left. She hurried away to her brother’s apartment, delighted to be able to report that she had found a situation. Now her mother could come to Cleveland. Now she could have her baby with her. Now they could really begin that new life which was to be so much better and finer and sweeter than anything they had ever had before.

At eight o’clock that evening, Jennie was done for the day. She wondered if she could really be helpful in such a household and was amazed that she had managed as well as she had. Her boss had assigned her to clean her jewelry and bedroom decorations as her first task, and even though she had worked hard and steadily, she hadn’t finished by the time she left. She rushed over to her brother’s apartment, excited to share that she had found a job. Now her mom could come to Cleveland. Now she could have her baby with her. Now they could finally start that new life that was supposed to be so much better, nicer, and sweeter than anything they had ever experienced before.

At Bass’s suggestion Jennie wrote her mother to come at once, and a week or so later a suitable house was found and rented. Mrs. Gerhardt, with the aid of the children, packed up the simple belongings of the family, including a single vanload of furniture, and at the end of a fortnight they were on their way to the new home.

At Bass’s suggestion, Jennie wrote to her mom to come right away, and about a week later, they found and rented a suitable house. Mrs. Gerhardt, with help from the kids, packed up the family’s simple belongings, including one vanload of furniture, and after two weeks, they were on their way to their new home.

Mrs. Gerhardt always had had a keen desire for a really comfortable home. Solid furniture, upholstered and trimmed, a thick, soft carpet of some warm, pleasing color, plenty of chairs, settees, pictures, a lounge, and a piano—she had wanted these nice things all her life, but her circumstances had never been good enough for her hopes to be realized. Still she did not despair. Some day, maybe, before she died these things would be added to her, and she would be happy. Perhaps her chance was coming now.

Mrs. Gerhardt had always wanted a truly comfortable home. Nice furniture, upholstered and detailed, a thick, soft carpet in a warm, appealing color, plenty of chairs, couches, artwork, a lounge, and a piano—she had wished for these things her entire life, but her situation had never allowed her hopes to come true. Still, she didn’t give up. Maybe one day, before she died, she would get these things, and she would be happy. Perhaps her opportunity was arriving now.

Arrived at Cleveland, this feeling of optimism was encouraged by the sight of Jennie’s cheerful face. Bass assured her that they would get along all right. He took them out to the house, and George was shown the way to go back to the depôt and have the freight looked after. Mrs. Gerhardt had still fifty dollars left out of the money which Senator Brander had sent to Jennie, and with this a way of getting a little extra furniture on the instalment plan was provided. Bass had already paid the first month’s rent, and Jennie had spent her evenings for the last few days in washing the windows and floors of this new house and in getting it into a state of perfect cleanliness. Now, when the first night fell, they had two new mattresses and comfortables spread upon a clean floor; a new lamp, purchased from one of the nearby stores, a single box, borrowed by Jennie from a grocery store, for cleaning purposes, upon which Mrs. Gerhardt could sit, and some sausages and bread to stay them until morning. They talked and planned for the future until nine o’clock came, when all but Jennie and her mother retired. These two talked on, the burden of responsibilities resting on the daughter. Mrs. Gerhardt had come to feel in a way dependent upon her.

Arriving in Cleveland, this feeling of hope was boosted by the sight of Jennie’s happy face. Bass reassured her that they would be just fine. He took them to their new house, and George was shown how to head back to the depot to manage the freight. Mrs. Gerhardt still had fifty dollars left from the money Senator Brander had sent to Jennie, which allowed them to find a way to buy some extra furniture on an installment plan. Bass had already covered the first month’s rent, and Jennie had spent her evenings over the past few days cleaning the windows and floors of the new house to make it spotless. Now, as the first night set in, they had two new mattresses and comforters laid out on a clean floor, a new lamp bought from a nearby store, a single box borrowed by Jennie from a grocery store for cleaning supplies, where Mrs. Gerhardt could sit, and some sausages and bread to keep them until morning. They chatted and made plans for the future until nine o’clock, when everyone but Jennie and her mother went to bed. The two of them continued talking, with the weight of responsibilities heavily on the daughter. Mrs. Gerhardt had begun to feel somewhat dependent on her.

In the course of a week the entire cottage was in order, with a half-dozen pieces of new furniture, a new carpet, and some necessary kitchen utensils. The most disturbing thing was the need of a new cooking-stove, the cost of which added greatly to the bill. The younger children were entered at the public school, but it was decided that George must find some employment. Both Jennie and her mother felt the injustice of this keenly, but knew no way of preventing the sacrifice.

In just a week, the whole cottage was set up with six new pieces of furniture, a new carpet, and some essential kitchen tools. The most upsetting issue was the need for a new cooking stove, which added significantly to the expenses. The younger kids were enrolled in public school, but it was decided that George needed to find a job. Both Jennie and her mother felt this was unfair, but they didn’t know how to avoid the situation.

“We will let him go to school next year if we can,” said Jennie.

“We’ll let him go to school next year if we can,” Jennie said.

Auspiciously as the new life seemed to have begun, the closeness with which their expenses were matching their income was an ever-present menace. Bass, originally very generous in his propositions, soon announced that he felt four dollars a week for his room and board to be a sufficient contribution from himself. Jennie gave everything she earned, and protested that she did not stand in need of anything, so long as the baby was properly taken care of. George secured a place as an overgrown cash-boy, and brought in two dollars and fifty cents a week, all of which, at first, he gladly contributed. Later on he was allowed the fifty cents for himself as being meet and just. Gerhardt, from his lonely post of labor, contributed five dollars by mail, always arguing that a little money ought to be saved in order that his honest debts back in Columbus might be paid. Out of this total income of fifteen dollars a week all of these individuals had to be fed and clothed, the rent paid, coal purchased, and the regular monthly instalment of three dollars paid on the outstanding furniture bill of fifty dollars.

As promising as the new life seemed to have started, the way their expenses closely matched their income was a constant threat. Bass, who had initially been very generous with his offers, soon declared that he thought four dollars a week for his room and board was a fair contribution from him. Jennie gave everything she earned and insisted that she didn’t need anything, as long as the baby was well taken care of. George got a job as an overly grown cash boy, earning two dollars and fifty cents a week, which he initially gladly contributed. Later, he was allowed to keep fifty cents for himself as it seemed fair. Gerhardt, from his solitary work position, sent five dollars by mail, always arguing that a little money should be saved to pay off his honest debts back in Columbus. From this total income of fifteen dollars a week, they all had to be fed and clothed, pay the rent, buy coal, and make the regular monthly payment of three dollars on the outstanding furniture bill of fifty dollars.

How it was done, those comfortable individuals, who frequently discuss the social aspects of poverty, might well trouble to inform themselves. Rent, coal, and light alone consumed the goodly sum of twenty dollars a month; food, another unfortunately necessary item, used up twenty-five more; clothes, instalments, dues, occasional items of medicine and the like, were met out of the remaining eleven dollars—how, the ardent imagination of the comfortable reader can guess. It was done, however, and for a time the hopeful members considered that they were doing fairly well.

How it was managed, those well-off individuals who often chat about the social issues surrounding poverty might want to inform themselves. Rent, coal, and electricity alone took up a hefty twenty dollars a month; food, another sadly essential expense, consumed an additional twenty-five; clothes, payments, bills, occasional medical expenses, and similar costs were covered with the remaining eleven dollars—how, the imaginative mind of the comfortable reader can only imagine. Still, it was managed, and for a while, the optimistic members believed they were doing relatively well.

During this period the little family presented a picture of honorable and patient toil, which was interesting to contemplate. Every day Mrs. Gerhardt, who worked like a servant and who received absolutely no compensation either in clothes, amusements, or anything else, arose in the morning while the others slept, and built the fire. Then she took up the task of getting the breakfast. Often as she moved about noiselessly in her thin, worn slippers, cushioned with pieces of newspaper to make them fit, she looked in on Jennie, Bass, and George, wrapped in their heavy slumbers, and with that divine sympathy which is born in heaven she wished that they did not need to rise so early or to work so hard. Sometimes she would pause before touching her beloved Jennie, gaze at her white face, so calm in sleep, and lament that life had not dealt more kindly with her. Then she would lay her hand gently upon her shoulder and whisper, “Jennie, Jennie,” until the weary sleeper would wake.

During this time, the little family displayed a picture of honorable and patient hard work that was interesting to observe. Every day, Mrs. Gerhardt, who worked like a servant without getting any compensation in clothes, entertainment, or anything else, got up in the morning while the others were still sleeping and started the fire. Then, she took on the job of making breakfast. Often, as she moved quietly in her thin, worn slippers, stuffed with pieces of newspaper to make them fit, she would check on Jennie, Bass, and George, all wrapped up in their deep sleeps. With a sense of compassion that seems heavenly, she wished they didn't have to wake up so early or work so hard. Sometimes, she would pause before touching her beloved Jennie, looking at her peaceful, pale face while she slept, and wish that life had been kinder to her. Then, she would gently lay her hand on Jennie's shoulder and whisper, “Jennie, Jennie,” until the tired sleeper would wake up.

When they arose breakfast was always ready. When they returned at night supper was waiting. Each of the children received a due share of Mrs. Gerhardt’s attention. The little baby was closely looked after by her. She protested that she needed neither clothes nor shoes so long as one of the children would run errands for her.

When they got up, breakfast was always ready. When they came home at night, dinner was waiting. Each of the kids got their fair share of Mrs. Gerhardt’s attention. She took special care of the little baby. She insisted that she didn't need clothes or shoes as long as one of the kids would run errands for her.

Jennie, of all the children, fully understood her mother; she alone strove, with the fullness of a perfect affection, to ease her burden.

Jennie, more than any of the other kids, really understood her mom; she was the only one who tried, with all the love she had, to lighten her load.

“Ma, you let me do this.”

“Mom, you let me do this.”

“Now, ma, I’ll ’tend to that.”

“Sure thing, mom, I’ll take care of that.”

“You go sit down, ma.”

"Please sit down, Mom."

These were the every-day expressions of the enduring affection that existed between them. Always there was perfect understanding between Jennie and her mother, and as the days passed this naturally widened and deepened. Jennie could not bear to think of her as being always confined to the house. Daily she thought as she worked of that humble home where her mother was watching and waiting. How she longed to give her those comforts which she had always craved!

These were the everyday expressions of the lasting love between them. There was always a perfect understanding between Jennie and her mother, and as the days went by, it naturally grew wider and deeper. Jennie couldn't stand the thought of her always being stuck at home. Each day, as she worked, she thought about that modest home where her mother was waiting and watching. How she longed to provide her with those comforts she had always wanted!

CHAPTER XIV

The days spent in the employ of the Bracebridge household were of a broadening character. This great house was a school to Jennie, not only in the matter of dress and manners, but as formulating a theory of existence. Mrs. Bracebridge and her husband were the last word in the matter of self-sufficiency, taste in the matter of appointments, care in the matter of dress, good form in the matter of reception, entertainment, and the various usages of social life. Now and then, apropos of nothing save her own mood, Mrs. Bracebridge would indicate her philosophy of life in an epigram.

The time spent working for the Bracebridge family was eye-opening. This big house was like a classroom for Jennie, teaching her not just about fashion and etiquette but also about life. Mrs. Bracebridge and her husband embodied self-sufficiency and had a great sense of style when it came to decorating, dressing well, hosting, and all the different aspects of social life. Occasionally, out of the blue and influenced only by her own feelings, Mrs. Bracebridge would express her life philosophy in a witty remark.

“Life is a battle, my dear. If you gain anything you will have to fight for it.”

“Life is a struggle, my dear. If you want to achieve anything, you’re going to have to fight for it.”

“In my judgment it is silly not to take advantage of any aid which will help you to be what you want to be.” (This while applying a faint suggestion of rouge.)

“In my opinion, it’s foolish not to take advantage of any help that will assist you in becoming who you want to be.” (This while applying a hint of blush.)

“Most people are born silly. They are exactly what they are capable of being. I despise lack of taste; it is the worst crime.”

“Most people are born a bit foolish. They are exactly what they can be. I can't stand bad taste; it's the worst offense.”

Most of these worldly-wise counsels were not given directly to Jennie. She overheard them, but to her quiet and reflective mind they had their import. Like seeds fallen upon good ground, they took root and grew. She began to get a faint perception of hierarchies and powers. They were not for her, perhaps, but they were in the world, and if fortune were kind one might better one’s state. She worked on, wondering, however, just how better fortune might come to her. Who would have her to wife knowing her history? How could she ever explain the existence of her child?

Most of this worldly-wise advice wasn’t given directly to Jennie. She overheard it, but to her quiet and thoughtful mind, it meant something. Like seeds falling on good soil, they took root and grew. She started to get a faint sense of hierarchies and powers. They might not be meant for her, but they existed in the world, and if luck was on her side, she could improve her situation. She continued to work, but she wondered how better luck might come her way. Who would want her as a wife knowing her background? How could she ever explain the existence of her child?

Her child, her child, the one transcendent, gripping theme of joy and fear. If she could only do something for it—sometime, somehow!

Her child, her child, the one powerful and intense theme of happiness and fear. If only she could do something for it—sometime, somehow!

For the first winter things went smoothly enough. By the closest economy the children were clothed and kept in school, the rent paid, and the instalments met. Once it looked as though there might be some difficulty about the continuance of the home life, and that was when Gerhardt wrote that he would be home for Christmas. The mill was to close down for a short period at that time. He was naturally anxious to see what the new life of his family at Cleveland was like.

For the first winter, things went pretty well. With some careful budgeting, the kids had clothes and stayed in school, the rent was paid, and the installments were managed. There was one moment when it seemed like there might be a problem with keeping the family together, and that was when Gerhardt wrote that he would be home for Christmas. The mill was going to shut down for a little while during that time. He was naturally eager to see what his family's new life in Cleveland was like.

Mrs. Gerhardt would have welcomed his return with unalloyed pleasure had it not been for the fear she entertained of his creating a scene. Jennie talked it over with her mother, and Mrs. Gerhardt in turn spoke of it to Bass, whose advice was to brave it out.

Mrs. Gerhardt would have happily welcomed his return if she weren't worried about him causing a scene. Jennie discussed it with her mother, and Mrs. Gerhardt then mentioned it to Bass, whose advice was to just face it head-on.

“Don’t worry,” he said; “he won’t do anything about it. I’ll talk to him if he says anything.”

“Don’t worry,” he said. “He won’t do anything about it. I’ll talk to him if he brings it up.”

The scene did occur, but it was not so unpleasant as Mrs. Gerhardt had feared. Gerhardt came home during the afternoon, while Bass, Jennie, and George were at work. Two of the younger children went to the train to meet him. When he entered Mrs. Gerhardt greeted him affectionately, but she trembled for the discovery which was sure to come. Her suspense was not for long. Gerhardt opened the front bedroom door only a few minutes after he arrived. On the white counterpane of the bed was a pretty child, sleeping. He could not but know on the instant whose it was, but he pretended ignorance.

The scene did happen, but it wasn't as bad as Mrs. Gerhardt had worried it would be. Gerhardt got home in the afternoon while Bass, Jennie, and George were all at work. Two of the younger kids went to the train to meet him. When he walked in, Mrs. Gerhardt greeted him warmly, but she felt anxious about the discovery that was bound to happen. Her wait didn’t last long. Gerhardt opened the front bedroom door just a few minutes after arriving. On the white bedspread lay a beautiful child, sleeping. He couldn’t help but know immediately whose child it was, but he pretended not to.

“Whose child is that?” he questioned.

“Whose kid is that?” he asked.

“It’s Jennie’s,” said Mrs. Gerhardt, weakly.

“It’s Jennie’s,” Mrs. Gerhardt said faintly.

“When did that come here?”

“When did that arrive here?”

“Not so very long ago,” answered the mother, nervously.

“Not too long ago,” replied the mother, anxiously.

“I guess she is here, too,” he declared, contemptuously, refusing to pronounce her name, a fact which he had already anticipated.

“I guess she’s here, too,” he said, with disdain, refusing to say her name, something he had already expected.

“She’s working in a family,” returned his wife in a pleading tone. “She’s doing so well now. She had no place to go. Let her alone.”

“She’s working for a family,” his wife replied in a pleading tone. “She’s doing really well now. She had nowhere else to go. Just let her be.”

Gerhardt had received a light since he had been away. Certain inexplicable thoughts and feelings had come to him in his religious meditations. In his prayers he had admitted to the All-seeing that he might have done differently by his daughter. Yet he could not make up his mind how to treat her for the future. She had committed a great sin; it was impossible to get away from that.

Gerhardt had gained some clarity since he had been away. Certain unexplainable thoughts and feelings had come to him during his religious reflections. In his prayers, he had confessed to the All-seeing that he could have handled things differently with his daughter. Still, he couldn't decide how to approach her from now on. She had committed a serious sin; there was no ignoring that.

When Jennie came home that night a meeting was unavoidable. Gerhardt saw her coming, and pretended to be deeply engaged in a newspaper. Mrs. Gerhardt, who had begged him not to ignore Jennie entirely, trembled for fear he would say or do something which would hurt her feelings.

When Jennie got home that night, a conversation was unavoidable. Gerhardt noticed her arrival and pretended to be engrossed in a newspaper. Mrs. Gerhardt, who had urged him not to completely ignore Jennie, was anxious he might say or do something that would hurt her feelings.

“She is coming now,” she said, crossing to the door of the front room, where he was sitting; but Gerhardt refused to look up. “Speak to her, anyhow,” was her last appeal before the door opened; but he made no reply.

“She’s coming now,” she said, walking over to the door of the front room where he was sitting; but Gerhardt wouldn’t look up. “Just talk to her, please,” was her last plea before the door opened; but he didn’t respond.

When Jennie came in her mother whispered, “He is in the front room.”

When Jennie walked in, her mother whispered, “He’s in the front room.”

Jennie paled, put her thumb to her lip and stood irresolute, not knowing how to meet the situation.

Jennie went pale, put her thumb to her lip, and stood there uncertain, not knowing how to handle the situation.

“Has he seen?”

"Has he checked?"

Jennie paused as she realized from her mother’s face and nod that Gerhardt knew of the child’s existence.

Jennie stopped when she saw her mother's expression and nod, realizing that Gerhardt was aware of the child's existence.

“Go ahead,” said Mrs. Gerhardt; “it’s all right. He won’t say anything.”

“Go ahead,” Mrs. Gerhardt said; “it’s fine. He won’t say anything.”

Jennie finally went to the door, and, seeing her father, his brow wrinkled as if in serious but not unkindly thought, she hesitated, but made her way forward.

Jennie finally went to the door and, seeing her father with his brow furrowed in thoughtful concern, she hesitated for a moment but then moved forward.

“Papa,” she said, unable to formulate a definite sentence.

“Dad,” she said, struggling to put her thoughts into words.

Gerhardt looked up, his grayish-brown eyes a study under their heavy sandy lashes. At the sight of his daughter he weakened internally; but with the self-adjusted armor of resolve about him he showed no sign of pleasure at seeing her. All the forces of his conventional understanding of morality and his naturally sympathetic and fatherly disposition were battling within him, but, as in so many cases where the average mind is concerned, convention was temporarily the victor.

Gerhardt looked up, his grayish-brown eyes showing a lot beneath their heavy sandy lashes. When he saw his daughter, he felt a rush of emotion inside; but with his carefully built-up defense of determination, he didn't let any pleasure show on his face. All the conflicting parts of his usual sense of right and wrong and his naturally caring, fatherly nature were at war within him, but like so many times when an average person is involved, the usual norms won out for the moment.

“Yes,” he said.

“Yes,” he replied.

“Won’t you forgive me, Papa?”

“Will you forgive me, Dad?”

“I do,” he returned grimly.

“I do,” he replied grimly.

She hesitated a moment, and then stepped forward, for what purpose he well understood.

She paused for a moment, then stepped forward, and he understood exactly why.

“There,” he said, pushing her gently away, as her lips barely touched his grizzled cheek.

“There,” he said, softly pushing her away, as her lips barely brushed against his rough cheek.

It had been a frigid meeting.

It had been a cold meeting.

When Jennie went out into the kitchen after this very trying ordeal she lifted her eyes to her waiting mother and tried to make it seem as though all had been well, but her emotional disposition got the better of her.

When Jennie walked into the kitchen after this tough experience, she looked up at her waiting mom and tried to act like everything was fine, but her emotions got the best of her.

“Did he make up to you?” her mother was about to ask; but the words were only half out of her mouth before her daughter sank down into one of the chairs close to the kitchen table and, laying her head on her arm, burst forth into soft, convulsive, inaudible sobs.

“Did he make a move on you?” her mother was about to ask; but the words were only half out of her mouth before her daughter sank down into one of the chairs near the kitchen table and, resting her head on her arm, burst into quiet, shaking, muffled sobs.

“Now, now,” said Mrs. Gerhardt. “There now, don’t cry. What did he say?”

“Now, now,” said Mrs. Gerhardt. “There, there, don’t cry. What did he say?”

It was some time before Jennie recovered herself sufficiently to answer. Her mother tried to treat the situation lightly.

It took Jennie a while to collect herself enough to respond. Her mom tried to take the situation in stride.

“I wouldn’t feel bad,” she said. “He’ll get over it. It’s his way.”

“I wouldn’t feel bad,” she said. “He’ll get past it. That’s just how he is.”

CHAPTER XV

The return of Gerhardt brought forward the child question in all its bearings. He could not help considering it from the standpoint of a grandparent, particularly since it was a human being possessed of a soul. He wondered if it had been baptized. Then he inquired.

The return of Gerhardt brought up the child issue in every way possible. He couldn't help but think about it from a grandparent's perspective, especially since it was a human being with a soul. He wondered if it had been baptized. Then he asked.

“No, not yet,” said his wife, who had not forgotten this duty, but had been uncertain whether the little one would be welcome in the faith.

“No, not yet,” said his wife, who hadn’t forgotten about this duty, but was unsure if the little one would be accepted in the faith.

“No, of course not,” sneered Gerhardt, whose opinion of his wife’s religious devotion was not any too great. “Such carelessness! Such irreligion! That is a fine thing.”

“No, of course not,” sneered Gerhardt, whose opinion of his wife’s religious devotion wasn't very high. “Such carelessness! Such irreligion! That’s just great.”

He thought it over a few moments, and felt that this evil should be corrected at once.

He thought about it for a few moments and realized that this wrong needed to be fixed immediately.

“It should be baptized,” he said. “Why don’t she take it and have it baptized?”

“It should be baptized,” he said. “Why doesn’t she take it and have it baptized?”

Mrs. Gerhardt reminded him that some one would have to stand godfather to the child, and there was no way to have the ceremony performed without confessing the fact that it was without a legitimate father.

Mrs. Gerhardt reminded him that someone would have to be the godfather to the child, and there was no way to have the ceremony without admitting that the child didn’t have a legitimate father.

Gerhardt listened to this, and it quieted him for a few moments, but his religion was something which he could not see put in the background by any such difficulty. How would the Lord look upon quibbling like this? It was not Christian, and it was his duty to attend to the matter. It must be taken, forthwith, to the church, Jennie, himself, and his wife accompanying it as sponsors; or, if he did not choose to condescend thus far to his daughter, he must see that it was baptized when she was not present. He brooded over this difficulty, and finally decided that the ceremony should take place on one of these week-days between Christmas and New Year’s, when Jennie would be at her work. This proposal he broached to his wife, and, receiving her approval, he made his next announcement. “It has no name,” he said.

Gerhardt listened to this, and it calmed him for a few moments, but his faith was something he couldn’t ignore just because of a little trouble. How would the Lord view this kind of arguing? It wasn’t Christian, and it was his responsibility to deal with it. They had to take it straight to the church, with Jennie, himself, and his wife serving as sponsors; or, if he didn’t want to lower himself to that for his daughter, he had to make sure it was baptized when she wasn’t around. He thought about this issue for a while and finally decided that the ceremony should happen on one of the weekdays between Christmas and New Year’s, when Jennie would be at work. He brought this idea up to his wife, and after getting her approval, he made his next statement. “It has no name,” he said.

Jennie and her mother had talked over this very matter, and Jennie had expressed a preference for Vesta. Now her mother made bold to suggest it as her own choice.

Jennie and her mother had discussed this exact issue, and Jennie had said she preferred Vesta. Now her mother felt brave enough to bring it up as her own choice.

“How would Vesta do?”

“How would Vesta perform?”

Gerhardt heard this with indifference. Secretly he had settled the question in his own mind. He had a name in store, left over from the halcyon period of his youth, and never opportunely available in the case of his own children—Wilhelmina. Of course he had no idea of unbending in the least toward his small granddaughter. He merely liked the name, and the child ought to be grateful to get it. With a far-off, gingery air he brought forward this first offering upon the altar of natural affection, for offering it was, after all.

Gerhardt listened to this with indifference. Deep down, he had already made up his mind. He had a name he was holding onto from the carefree days of his youth, one that he had never gotten around to using for his own children—Wilhelmina. Of course, he had no intention of being flexible at all with his little granddaughter. He simply liked the name, and the child should be thankful to receive it. With a distant, somewhat playful attitude, he presented this first gift on the altar of natural love, because that’s what it was, after all.

“That is nice,” he said, forgetting his indifference. “But how would Wilhelmina do?”

"That's great," he said, losing his indifference. "But how would Wilhelmina handle it?"

Mrs. Gerhardt did not dare cross him when he was thus unconsciously weakening. Her woman’s tact came to the rescue.

Mrs. Gerhardt didn’t dare challenge him when he was unknowingly showing weakness. Her intuition as a woman saved the day.

“We might give her both names,” she compromised.

“We could give her both names,” she agreed.

“It makes no difference to me,” he replied, drawing back into the shell of opposition from which he had been inadvertently drawn. “Just so she is baptized.”

“It doesn’t matter to me,” he replied, retreating back into the shell of opposition from which he had been unintentionally pulled. “As long as she’s baptized.”

Jennie heard of this with pleasure, for she was anxious that the child should have every advantage, religious or otherwise, that it was possible to obtain. She took great pains to starch and iron the clothes it was to wear on the appointed day.

Jennie was delighted to hear this because she wanted the child to have every possible advantage, whether religious or otherwise. She worked hard to starch and iron the clothes the child would wear on the big day.

Gerhardt sought out the minister of the nearest Lutheran church, a round-headed, thick-set theologian of the most formal type, to whom he stated his errand.

Gerhardt looked for the minister of the closest Lutheran church, a stocky, round-headed theologian of the strictest kind, to whom he explained his purpose.

“Your grandchild?” inquired the minister.

"Your grandkid?" asked the minister.

“Yes,” said Gerhardt, “her father is not here.”

“Yes,” Gerhardt said, “her dad isn't here.”

“So,” replied the minister, looking at him curiously.

“So,” replied the minister, looking at him with curiosity.

Gerhardt was not to be disturbed in his purpose. He explained that he and his wife would bring her. The minister, realizing the probable difficulty, did not question him further.

Gerhardt was determined to stick to his plan. He said that he and his wife would bring her. The minister, aware of the potential complications, did not press him any further.

“The church cannot refuse to baptize her so long as you, as grandparent, are willing to stand sponsor for her,” he said.

“The church can’t refuse to baptize her as long as you, as her grandparent, are willing to be her sponsor,” he said.

Gerhardt came away, hurt by the shadow of disgrace in which he felt himself involved, but satisfied that he had done his duty. Now he would take the child and have it baptized, and when that was over his present responsibility would cease.

Gerhardt walked away, feeling wounded by the shadow of disgrace he believed he was entangled in, but he was relieved that he had fulfilled his duty. Now he would take the child and get it baptized, and once that was done, his current responsibility would be over.

When it came to the hour of the baptism, however, he found that another influence was working to guide him into greater interest and responsibility. The stern religion with which he was enraptured, its insistence upon a higher law, was there, and he heard again the precepts which had helped to bind him to his own children.

When the time for baptism arrived, he realized that another influence was encouraging him to take on more interest and responsibility. The serious faith that captivated him, with its emphasis on a higher moral code, was present, and he recalled the teachings that had helped him stay connected to his own children.

“Is it your intention to educate this child in the knowledge and love of the gospel?” asked the black-gowned minister, as they stood before him in the silent little church whither they had brought the infant; he was reading from the form provided for such occasions. Gerhardt answered “Yes,” and Mrs. Gerhardt added her affirmative.

“Is it your intention to raise this child with an understanding and love for the gospel?” asked the minister in his black gown as they stood before him in the quiet little church where they had brought the baby; he was reading from the script meant for such ceremonies. Gerhardt replied “Yes,” and Mrs. Gerhardt confirmed with her own “Yes.”

“Do you engage to use all necessary care and diligence, by prayerful instruction, admonition, example, and discipline that this child may renounce and avoid everything that is evil and that she may keep God’s will and commandments as declared in His sacred word?”

“Do you commit to using all necessary care and effort, through prayerful teaching, guidance, example, and discipline, to help this child reject and avoid everything that is harmful and to follow God's will and commandments as stated in His sacred word?”

A thought flashed through Gerhardt’s mind as the words were uttered of how it had fared with his own children. They, too, had been thus sponsored. They too, had heard his solemn pledge to care for their spiritual welfare. He was silent.

A thought crossed Gerhardt’s mind as the words were spoken about how it had gone with his own kids. They, too, had been supported in the same way. They also had heard his serious promise to take care of their spiritual wellbeing. He remained quiet.

“We do,” prompted the minister.

“We do,” urged the minister.

“We do,” repeated Gerhardt and his wife weakly.

“We do,” Gerhardt and his wife echoed weakly.

“Do you now dedicate this child by the rite of baptism unto the Lord, who brought it?”

“Do you now dedicate this child through the baptism ceremony to the Lord who brought them?”

“We do.”

"We definitely do."

“And, finally, if you can conscientiously declare before God that the faith to which you have assented is your faith, and that the solemn promises you have made are the serious resolutions of your heart, please to announce the same in the presence of God, by saying ‘Yes.’”

“And, finally, if you can honestly declare before God that the faith you have agreed to is your faith, and that the serious promises you have made are genuine commitments from your heart, please announce this in God’s presence by saying ‘Yes.’”

“Yes,” they replied.

“Yes,” they said.

“I baptize thee, Wilhelmina Vesta,” concluded the minister, stretching out his hand over her, “in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Ghost. Let us pray.”

“I baptize you, Wilhelmina Vesta,” the minister concluded, extending his hand over her, “in the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit. Let us pray.”

Gerhardt bent his gray head and followed with humble reverence the beautiful invocation which followed:

Gerhardt lowered his gray head and followed the beautiful invocation that followed with a sense of humble reverence:

“Almighty and everlasting God! we adore Thee as the great Parent of the children of men, as the Father of our spirits and the Former of our bodies. We praise Thee for giving existence to this infant and for preserving her until this day. We bless Thee that she is called to virtue and glory, that she has now been dedicated to Thee, and brought within-the pale of the Christian Church. We thank Thee that by the Gospel of the Son she is furnished with everything necessary to her spiritual happiness; that it supplies light for her mind and comfort for her heart, encouragement and power to discharge her duty, and the precious hope of mercy and immortality to sustain and make her faithful. And we beseech Thee, O most merciful God, that this child may be enlightened and sanctified from her early years by the Holy Spirit, and be everlastingly saved by Thy mercy. Direct and bless Thy servants who are intrusted with the care of her in the momentous work of her education. Inspire them with just conception of the absolute necessity of religious instruction and principles. Forbid that they should ever forget that this offspring belongs to Thee, and that, if through their criminal neglect or bad example Thy reasonable creature be lost, Thou wilt require it at their hands. Give them a deep sense of the divinity of her nature, of the worth of her soul, of the dangers to which she will be exposed, of the honor and felicity to which she is capable of ascending with Thy blessing, and of the ruin in this world and the misery in the world to come which springs from wicked passion and conduct. Give them grace to check the first risings of forbidden inclinations in her breast, to be her defense against the temptations incident to childhood and youth, and, as she grows up, to enlarge her understanding and to lead her to an acquaintance with Thee and with Jesus Christ, whom Thou hast sent. Give them grace to cultivate in her heart a supreme reverence and love for Thee, a grateful attachment to the Gospel of Thy Son, her Saviour, a due regard for all its ordinances and institutions, a temper of kindness and goodwill to all mankind, and an invincible love of sincerity and truth. Help them to watch continually over her with tender solicitude, to be studious, that by their conversation and deportment her heart may not be corrupted, and at all times to set before her such an example that she may safely tread in their footsteps. If it please Thee to prolong her days on earth, grant that she may prove an honor and a comfort to her parents and friends, be useful in the world, and find in Thy Providence an unfailing defense and support. Whether she live, let her live to Thee; or whether she die, let her die to Thee. And, at the great day of account, may she and her parents meet each other with rapture and rejoice together in Thy redeeming love, through Jesus Christ, forever and ever, Amen.”

“Almighty and everlasting God, we worship You as the great Parent of humanity, the Father of our spirits and the Creator of our bodies. We praise You for giving life to this child and for keeping her safe until now. We bless You that she is called to virtue and glory, that she has been dedicated to You, and brought into the Christian Church. We thank You that through the Gospel of Your Son, she has everything she needs for her spiritual happiness; that it provides light for her mind, comfort for her heart, encouragement and strength to fulfill her duties, and the precious hope of mercy and eternal life to support and keep her faithful. We ask You, O most merciful God, that this child may be enlightened and sanctified from an early age by the Holy Spirit and saved eternally by Your mercy. Guide and bless those entrusted with her care in the crucial task of her education. Inspire them with a clear understanding of the absolute importance of religious instruction and principles. Prevent them from forgetting that this child belongs to You, and that if, through their negligence or poor example, she is lost, You will hold them accountable. Instill in them a profound awareness of her divine nature, the value of her soul, the dangers she will face, the honor and happiness she can achieve with Your blessing, and the ruin and suffering that arise from sinful desires and actions. Grant them the grace to address any early signs of forbidden inclinations within her, to protect her from the temptations of childhood and youth, and, as she matures, to expand her understanding and lead her to know You and Jesus Christ, whom You have sent. Bless them as they cultivate in her a deep reverence and love for You, a grateful attachment to the Gospel of Your Son, her Savior, respect for all its practices and teachings, a spirit of kindness and goodwill toward all people, and an unwavering love for sincerity and truth. Help them to watch over her with tender care, to ensure that by their words and actions her heart remains unsullied, and at all times to set an example she can safely follow. If it pleases You to extend her life on earth, grant that she may bring honor and comfort to her parents and friends, contribute positively to the world, and find in Your Providence an unwavering protection and support. Whether she lives, let her live for You; or whether she dies, let her die for You. And on the great day of judgment, may she and her parents meet joyfully and rejoice together in Your redeeming love, through Jesus Christ, forever and ever. Amen.”

As this solemn admonition was read a feeling of obligation descended upon the grandfather of this little outcast; a feeling that he was bound to give the tiny creature lying on his wife’s arm the care and attention which God in His sacrament had commanded. He bowed his head in utmost reverence, and when the service was concluded and they left the silent church he was without words to express his feelings. Religion was a consuming thing with him. God was a person, a dominant reality. Religion was not a thing of mere words or of interesting ideas to be listened to on Sunday, but a strong, vital expression of the Divine Will handed down from a time when men were in personal contact with God. Its fulfilment was a matter of joy and salvation with him, the one consolation of a creature sent to wander in a vale whose explanation was not here but in heaven. Slowly Gerhardt walked on, and as he brooded on the words and the duties which the sacrament involved the shade of lingering disgust that had possessed him when he had taken the child to church disappeared and a feeling of natural affection took its place. However much the daughter had sinned, the infant was not to blame. It was a helpless, puling, tender thing, demanding his sympathy and his love. Gerhardt felt his heart go out to the little child, and yet he could not yield his position all in a moment.

As this serious warning was read, a sense of duty came over the grandfather of this little outcast; he felt obliged to give the tiny creature lying on his wife’s arm the care and attention that God in His sacrament had commanded. He bowed his head in deep respect, and when the service ended and they left the quiet church, he found himself at a loss for words to express his feelings. Religion was everything to him. God was a person, a powerful reality. Religion wasn’t just something to talk about or interesting ideas to think about on Sundays, but a strong, meaningful expression of the Divine Will passed down from a time when people were in direct contact with God. Practicing his faith was a source of joy and salvation for him, the one comfort for a being sent to wander in a world whose explanation was not here but in heaven. Slowly, Gerhardt walked on, and as he reflected on the words and the responsibilities that the sacrament involved, the lingering disgust he felt when he had taken the child to church faded away, replaced by a sense of natural affection. No matter how much the daughter had sinned, the baby was innocent. It was a helpless, needy, precious creature, calling for his sympathy and love. Gerhardt felt his heart opening up to the little child, yet he couldn't completely abandon his stance all at once.

“That is a nice man,” he said of the minister to his wife as they walked along, rapidly softening in his conception of his duty.

"That’s a nice guy," he said about the minister to his wife as they walked along, quickly changing his view on his responsibilities.

“Yes, he was,” agreed Mrs. Gerhardt timidly.

“Yes, he was,” Mrs. Gerhardt agreed softly.

“It’s a good-sized little church,” he continued.

“It’s a nice-sized little church,” he continued.

“Yes.”

“Yeah.”

Gerhardt looked around him, at the street, the houses, the show of brisk life on this sunshiny, winter’s day, and then finally at the child that his wife was carrying.

Gerhardt glanced around at the street, the houses, and the lively scene on this sunny winter day, and finally at the child his wife was holding.

“She must be heavy,” he said, in his characteristic German. “Let me take her.”

“She must be heavy,” he said, in his typical German accent. “Let me take her.”

Mrs. Gerhardt, who was rather weary, did not refuse.

Mrs. Gerhardt, feeling quite tired, did not decline.

“There!” he said, as he looked at her and then fixed her comfortably upon his shoulder. “Let us hope she proves worthy of all that has been done to-day.”

“Here we go!” he said, as he looked at her and then settled her comfortably on his shoulder. “Let’s hope she’s worth everything that’s been done today.”

Mrs. Gerhardt listened, and the meaning in his voice interpreted itself plainly enough. The presence of the child in the house might be the cause of recurring spells of depression and unkind words, but there would be another and greater influence restraining him. There would always be her soul to consider. He would never again be utterly unconscious of her soul.

Mrs. Gerhardt listened, and the meaning in his voice was clear enough. The presence of the child in the house might be causing his ongoing bouts of depression and harsh words, but there was a deeper influence keeping him in check. He would always have her feelings to think about. He would never again be completely unaware of her feelings.

CHAPTER XVI

During the remainder of Gerhardt’s stay he was shy in Jennie’s presence and endeavored to act as though he were unconscious of her existence. When the time came for parting he even went away without bidding her good-by, telling his wife she might do that for him; but after he was actually on his way back to Youngstown he regretted the omission. “I might have bade her good-by,” he thought to himself as the train rumbled heavily along. But it was too late.

During the rest of Gerhardt’s visit, he felt awkward around Jennie and tried to act like he didn’t notice her at all. When it was time to leave, he even walked away without saying goodbye, telling his wife she could do that for him; but after he was on his way back to Youngstown, he wished he hadn’t done that. “I should have said goodbye to her,” he thought to himself as the train rumbled heavily along. But it was too late.

For the time being the affairs of the Gerhardt family drifted. Jennie continued her work with Mrs. Bracebridge. Sebastian fixed himself firmly in his clerkship in the cigar store. George was promoted to the noble sum of three dollars, and then three-fifty. It was a narrow, humdrum life the family led. Coal, groceries, shoes, and clothing were the uppermost topics of their conversation; every one felt the stress and strain of trying to make ends meet.

For now, the Gerhardt family's situation was in limbo. Jennie kept working with Mrs. Bracebridge. Sebastian was settled into his job at the cigar store. George got a raise to three dollars, and then to three-fifty. The family's life was pretty dull and routine. Coal, groceries, shoes, and clothes dominated their conversations; everyone felt the pressure of trying to get by.

That which worried Jennie most, and there were many things which weighed upon her sensitive soul, was the outcome of her own life—not so much for herself as for her baby and the family. She could not really see where she fitted in. “Who would have me?” she asked herself over and over. “How was she to dispose of Vesta in the event of a new love affair?” Such a contingency was quite possible. She was young, good-looking, and men were inclined to flirt with her, or rather to attempt it. The Bracebridges entertained many masculine guests, and some of them had made unpleasant overtures to her.

What worried Jennie the most, and there were many things weighing on her sensitive heart, was the future of her life—not just for herself but for her baby and her family. She couldn't really figure out where she belonged. “Who would want me?” she kept asking herself. “What would she do with Vesta if a new relationship came along?” That was definitely a possibility. She was young, attractive, and men tended to flirt with her, or at least try to. The Bracebridges hosted a lot of male guests, and some of them had made unwelcome advances toward her.

“My dear, you’re a very pretty girl,” said one old rake of fifty-odd when she knocked at his door one morning to give him a message from his hostess.

“My dear, you’re a very pretty girl,” said an old rake of around fifty when she knocked on his door one morning to deliver a message from his hostess.

“I beg your pardon,” she said, confusedly, and colored.

"I’m sorry," she said, looking confused and blushing.

“Indeed, you’re quite sweet. And you needn’t beg my pardon. I’d like to talk to you some time.”

“Honestly, you’re really nice. And you don’t need to apologize to me. I’d like to chat with you sometime.”

He attempted to chuck her under the chin, but Jennie hurried away. She would have reported the matter to her mistress but a nervous shame deterred her. “Why would men always be doing this?” she thought. Could it be because there was something innately bad about her, an inward corruption that attracted its like?

He tried to lift her chin playfully, but Jennie quickly backed away. She considered telling her mistress about it, but anxiety and embarrassment held her back. “Why do men always act like this?” she wondered. Could it be that there was something inherently wrong with her, a hidden flaw that drew in similar negativity?

It is a curious characteristic of the non-defensive disposition that it is like a honey-jar to flies. Nothing is brought to it and much is taken away. Around a soft, yielding, unselfish disposition men swarm naturally. They sense this generosity, this non-protective attitude from afar. A girl like Jennie is like a comfortable fire to the average masculine mind; they gravitate to it, seek its sympathy, yearn to possess it. Hence she was annoyed by many unwelcome attentions.

It’s an interesting trait of a non-defensive attitude that it attracts people like flies to honey. Nothing is offered to it, but a lot is taken from it. People naturally flock to a gentle, accommodating, and selfless nature. They can sense that kindness and openness from a distance. A girl like Jennie is like a warm fire to most men; they are drawn to it, looking for its kindness, and longing to have it. As a result, she was often bothered by unwanted attention.

One day there arrived from Cincinnati a certain Lester Kane, the son of a wholesale carriage builder of great trade distinction in that city and elsewhere throughout the country, who was wont to visit this house frequently in a social way. He was a friend of Mrs. Bracebridge more than of her husband, for the former had been raised in Cincinnati and as a girl had visited at his father’s house. She knew his mother, his brother and sisters and to all intents and purposes socially had always been considered one of the family.

One day, a guy named Lester Kane arrived from Cincinnati. He was the son of a well-known wholesale carriage builder in that city and across the country, and he often visited this house socially. He was closer to Mrs. Bracebridge than to her husband because she grew up in Cincinnati and had visited his father's home as a girl. She knew his mother, brother, and sisters, and socially, she had always been seen as part of the family.

“Lester’s coming to-morrow, Henry,” Jennie heard Mrs. Bracebridge tell her husband. “I had a wire from him this noon. He’s such a scamp. I’m going to give him the big east front room up-stairs. Be sociable and pay him some attention. His father was so good to me.”

“Lester’s coming tomorrow, Henry,” Jennie heard Mrs. Bracebridge tell her husband. “I got a message from him this afternoon. He’s such a troublemaker. I’m going to give him the big east front room upstairs. Be friendly and pay him some attention. His dad was really good to me.”

“I know it,” said her husband calmly. “I like Lester. He’s the biggest one in that family. But he’s too indifferent. He doesn’t care enough.”

“I know,” her husband said calmly. “I like Lester. He’s the biggest one in that family. But he’s too indifferent. He doesn’t care enough.”

“I know; but he’s so nice. I do think he’s one of the nicest men I ever knew.”

“I know; but he’s really nice. I honestly believe he’s one of the nicest guys I’ve ever met.”

“I’ll be decent to him. Don’t I always do pretty well by your people?”

“I’ll treat him right. Don’t I always look out for your people?”

“Yes, pretty well.”

"Yes, pretty good."

“Oh, I don’t know about that,” he replied, dryly.

“Oh, I’m not sure about that,” he replied, dryly.

When this notable person arrived Jennie was prepared to see some one of more than ordinary importance, and she was not disappointed. There came into the reception-hall to greet her mistress a man of perhaps thirty-six years of age, above the medium in height, clear-eyed, firm-jawed, athletic, direct, and vigorous. He had a deep, resonant voice that carried clearly everywhere; people somehow used to stop and listen whether they knew him or not. He was simple and abrupt in his speech.

When this impressive person arrived, Jennie expected to see someone really important, and she wasn’t let down. A man about thirty-six years old entered the reception hall to greet her boss. He was tall, clear-eyed, strong-jawed, athletic, direct, and full of energy. He had a deep, booming voice that resonated clearly; people would stop and listen to him whether they knew him or not. He spoke in a straightforward and blunt manner.

“Oh, there you are,” he began. “I’m glad to see you again. How’s Mr. Bracebridge? How’s Fannie?”

“Oh, there you are,” he said. “I’m happy to see you again. How’s Mr. Bracebridge? How’s Fannie?”

He asked his questions forcefully, whole-heartedly, and his hostess answered with an equal warmth. “I’m glad to see you, Lester,” she said. “George will take your things up-stairs. Come up into my room. It’s more comfy. How are grandpa and Louise?”

He asked his questions passionately and sincerely, and his hostess responded with the same warmth. “I’m glad to see you, Lester,” she said. “George will take your stuff upstairs. Come into my room. It’s more comfortable. How are Grandpa and Louise?”

He followed her up the stairs, and Jennie, who had been standing at the head of the stairs listening, felt the magnetic charm of his personality. It seemed, why she could hardly say, that a real personage had arrived. The house was cheerier. The attitude of her mistress was much more complaisant. Everybody seemed to feel that something must be done for this man.

He followed her up the stairs, and Jennie, who had been standing at the top of the stairs listening, felt the magnetic pull of his personality. It seemed, though she couldn't quite explain it, that someone important had arrived. The house felt brighter. Her mistress's attitude was much more accommodating. It seemed like everyone felt that something needed to be done for this man.

Jennie went about her work, but the impression persisted; his name ran in her mind. Lester Kane. And he was from Cincinnati. She looked at him now and then on the sly, and felt, for the first time in her life, an interest in a man on his own account. He was so big, so handsome, so forceful. She wondered what his business was. At the same time she felt a little dread of him. Once she caught him looking at her with a steady, incisive stare. She quailed inwardly, and took the first opportunity to get out of his presence. Another time he tried to address a few remarks to her, but she pretended that her duties called her away. She knew that often his eyes were on her when her back was turned, and it made her nervous. She wanted to run away from him, although there was no very definite reason why she should do so.

Jennie went about her work, but the impression lingered; his name kept running through her mind. Lester Kane. And he was from Cincinnati. She stole glances at him now and then, and felt, for the first time in her life, a genuine interest in a man. He was so big, so handsome, so commanding. She wondered what his job was. At the same time, she felt a bit of dread around him. Once, she caught him staring at her with an intense, piercing gaze. She felt a surge of anxiety and took the first chance to leave his presence. Another time, he tried to say a few words to her, but she pretended her work needed her attention. She knew that often his eyes were on her when her back was turned, and it made her uneasy. She wanted to escape from him, even though there was no clear reason for it.

As a matter of fact, this man, so superior to Jennie in wealth, education, and social position, felt an instinctive interest in her unusual personality. Like the others, he was attracted by the peculiar softness of her disposition and her pre-eminent femininity. There was that about her which suggested the luxury of love. He felt as if somehow she could be reached why, he could not have said. She did not bear any outward marks of her previous experience. There were no evidences of coquetry about her, but still he “felt that he might.” He was inclined to make the venture on his first visit, but business called him away; he left after four days and was absent from Cleveland for three weeks. Jennie thought he was gone for good, and she experienced a queer sense of relief as well as of regret. Then, suddenly, he returned. He came apparently unexpectedly, explaining to Mrs. Bracebridge that business interests again demanded his presence in Cleveland. As he spoke he looked at Jennie sharply, and she felt as if somehow his presence might also concern her a little.

Actually, this man, far wealthier, more educated, and higher up the social ladder than Jennie, felt an instinctive interest in her unique personality. Like the others, he was drawn to the unusual gentleness of her nature and her exceptional femininity. There was something about her that hinted at the richness of love. He felt that somehow he could connect with her, though he couldn't explain why. She didn’t show any outward signs of her past experiences. There were no signs of flirtation in her, yet he thought “maybe I could.” He was tempted to take that chance during his first visit, but business pulled him away; he left after four days and was gone from Cleveland for three weeks. Jennie assumed he was gone for good and felt a strange mix of relief and regret. Then, out of the blue, he came back. He arrived seemingly unexpectedly, telling Mrs. Bracebridge that his business concerns required him to be in Cleveland again. As he spoke, he looked at Jennie closely, and she felt like his presence might have something to do with her, too.

On this second visit she had various opportunities of seeing him, at breakfast, where she sometimes served, at dinner, when she could see the guests at the table from the parlor or sitting-room, and at odd times when he came to Mrs. Bracebridge’s boudoir to talk things over. They were very friendly.

On this second visit, she had several chances to see him: at breakfast, where she sometimes helped serve; at dinner, when she could see the guests from the parlor or sitting room; and at random moments when he came to Mrs. Bracebridge’s boudoir to discuss things. They were very friendly.

“Why don’t you settle down, Lester, and get married?” Jennie heard her say to him the second day he was there. “You know it’s time.”

“Why don’t you settle down, Lester, and get married?” Jennie heard her say to him the second day he was there. “You know it’s time.”

“I know,” he replied, “but I’m in no mood for that. I want to browse around a little while yet.”

“I know,” he said, “but I’m not really in the mood for that. I want to look around a bit longer.”

“Yes, I know about your browsing. You ought to be ashamed of yourself. Your father is really worried.”

“Yes, I know about what you've been looking at online. You should be embarrassed. Your dad is really concerned.”

He chuckled amusedly. “Father doesn’t worry much about me. He has got all he can attend to to look after the business.”

He chuckled with amusement. “Dad doesn’t worry much about me. He has plenty on his plate managing the business.”

Jennie looked at him curiously. She scarcely understood what she was thinking, but this man drew her. If she had realized in what way she would have fled his presence then and there.

Jennie looked at him with curiosity. She barely understood what she was feeling, but she was attracted to this man. If she had known how much, she would have run away from him right then and there.

Now he was more insistent in his observation of her—addressed an occasional remark to her—engaged her in brief, magnetic conversations. She could not help answering him—he was pleasing to her. Once he came across her in the hall on the second floor searching in a locker for some linen. They were all alone, Mrs. Bracebridge having gone out to do some morning shopping and the other servants being below stairs. On this occasion he made short work of the business. He approached her in a commanding, unhesitating, and thoroughly determined way.

Now he was more persistent in watching her—threw in the occasional comment—engaged her in brief, captivating conversations. She couldn’t help but respond to him—he was appealing to her. Once, he found her in the hallway on the second floor, looking in a locker for some linens. They were completely alone, as Mrs. Bracebridge had gone out for some morning shopping and the other staff were downstairs. On this occasion, he got straight to the point. He approached her in a confident, assertive, and fully determined manner.

“I want to talk to you,” he said. “Where do you live?”

“I want to talk to you,” he said. “Where do you live?”

“I—I—” she stammered, and blanched perceptibly. “I live out on Lorrie Street.”

“I—I—” she stammered, and turned pale. “I live on Lorrie Street.”

“What number?” he questioned, as though she were compelled to tell him.

“What number?” he asked, as if she had to tell him.

She quailed and shook inwardly. “Thirteen fourteen,” she replied mechanically.

She felt scared and trembled inside. “Thirteen fourteen,” she answered automatically.

He looked into her big, soft-blue eyes with his dark, vigorous brown ones. A flash that was hypnotic, significant, insistent passed between them.

He looked into her large, soft blue eyes with his intense dark brown ones. A mesmerizing, meaningful, and urgent connection sparked between them.

“You belong to me,” he said. “I’ve been looking for you. When can I see you?”

“You're mine,” he said. “I've been searching for you. When can I meet up with you?”

“Oh, you mustn’t,” she said, her fingers going nervously to her lips. “I can’t see you—I—I—”

“Oh, you really shouldn’t,” she said, her fingers nervously touching her lips. “I can’t see you—I—I—”

“Oh, I mustn’t, mustn’t I? Look here”—he took her arm and drew her slightly closer—“you and I might as well understand each other right now. I like you. Do you like me? Say?”

“Oh, I shouldn't, should I? Look here”—he took her arm and pulled her a bit closer—“let's get this straight between us right now. I like you. Do you like me? Just say it.”

She looked at him, her eyes wide, filled with wonder, with fear, with a growing terror.

She stared at him, her eyes wide, filled with awe, fear, and a rising sense of dread.

“I don’t know,” she gasped, her lips dry.

“I don’t know,” she gasped, her lips dry.

“Do you?” He fixed her grimly, firmly with his eyes.

“Do you?” He looked at her seriously, holding her gaze firmly.

“I don’t know.”

"I don't know."

“Look at me,” he said.

"Check me out," he said.

“Yes,” she replied.

“Yes,” she responded.

He pulled her to him quickly. “I’ll talk to you later,” he said, and put his lips masterfully to hers.

He pulled her close. “I’ll talk to you later,” he said, and pressed his lips skillfully to hers.

She was horrified, stunned, like a bird in the grasp of a cat; but through it all something tremendously vital and insistent was speaking to her. He released her with a short laugh. “We won’t do any more of this here, but, remember, you belong to me,” he said, as he turned and walked nonchalantly down the hall. Jennie, in sheer panic, ran to her mistress’s room and locked the door behind her.

She was terrified, shocked, like a bird caught by a cat; but through it all, something incredibly important and demanding was calling to her. He let her go with a quick laugh. “We won’t do any more of this here, but remember, you belong to me,” he said as he casually walked down the hall. Jennie, in total panic, ran to her mistress’s room and locked the door behind her.

CHAPTER XVII

The shock of this sudden encounter was so great to Jennie that she was hours in recovering herself. At first she did not understand clearly just what had happened. Out of clear sky, as it were, this astonishing thing had taken place. She had yielded herself to another man. Why? Why? she asked herself, and yet within her own consciousness there was an answer. Though she could not explain her own emotions, she belonged to him temperamentally and he belonged to her.

The shock of this unexpected encounter hit Jennie so hard that it took her hours to regain her composure. At first, she didn’t quite grasp what had just happened. It felt like this unbelievable moment had come from nowhere. She had given herself to another man. Why? Why? she questioned herself, but deep down, she knew the answer. Even though she couldn’t put her feelings into words, she felt a deep connection with him, and he felt the same way about her.

There is a fate in love and a fate in fight. This strong, intellectual bear of a man, son of a wealthy manufacturer, stationed, so far as material conditions were concerned, in a world immensely superior to that in which Jennie moved, was, nevertheless, instinctively, magnetically, and chemically drawn to this poor serving-maid. She was his natural affinity, though he did not know it—the one woman who answered somehow the biggest need of his nature. Lester Kane had known all sorts of women, rich and poor, the highly bred maidens of his own class, the daughters of the proletariat, but he had never yet found one who seemed to combine for him the traits of an ideal woman—sympathy, kindliness of judgment, youth, and beauty. Yet this ideal remained fixedly seated in the back of his brain—when the right woman appeared he intended to take her. He had the notion that, for purposes of marriage, he ought perhaps to find this woman on his own plane. For purposes of temporary happiness he might take her from anywhere, leaving marriage, of course, out of the question. He had no idea of making anything like a serious proposal to a servant-girl. But Jennie was different. He had never seen a servant quite like her. And she was lady-like and lovely without appearing to know it. Why, this girl was a rare flower. Why shouldn’t he try to seize her? Let us be just to Lester Kane; let us try to understand him and his position. Not every mind is to be estimated by the weight of a single folly; not every personality is to be judged by the drag of a single passion. We live in an age in which the impact of materialized forces is well-nigh irresistible; the spiritual nature is overwhelmed by the shock. The tremendous and complicated development of our material civilization, the multiplicity, and variety of our social forms, the depth, subtlety, and sophistry of our imaginative impressions, gathered, remultiplied, and disseminated by such agencies as the railroad, the express and the post-office, the telephone, the telegraph, the newspaper, and, in short, the whole machinery of social intercourse—these elements of existence combine to produce what may be termed a kaleidoscopic glitter, a dazzling and confusing phantasmagoria of life that wearies and stultifies the mental and moral nature. It induces a sort of intellectual fatigue through which we see the ranks of the victims of insomnia, melancholia, and insanity constantly recruited. Our modern brain-pan does not seem capable as yet of receiving, sorting, and storing the vast army of facts and impressions which present themselves daily. The white light of publicity is too white. We are weighed upon by too many things. It is as if the wisdom of the infinite were struggling to beat itself into finite and cup-big minds.

There’s a destiny in love and a destiny in conflict. This strong, intellectual man, the son of a wealthy manufacturer, was in a material world far superior to the one Jennie lived in, yet he was still instinctively, magnetically, and chemically drawn to this poor serving girl. She was his natural match, though he didn’t realize it—the only woman who somehow met the deepest need of his true self. Lester Kane had encountered all types of women, rich and poor, well-bred women of his own class, and daughters of the working class, but he had never found one who seemed to embody the traits of an ideal woman for him—compassion, a kind judgment, youth, and beauty. Yet this ideal remained firmly fixed in the back of his mind—when the right woman came along, he planned to pursue her. He believed that to marry, he should probably find this woman within his own social sphere. For short-term happiness, he might choose her from anywhere, excluding marriage from the equation. He had no intention of making a serious proposal to a servant girl. But Jennie was different. He had never encountered a servant like her. She was graceful and beautiful without even realizing it. This girl was a rare find. Why shouldn’t he try to claim her? Let’s be fair to Lester Kane; let’s try to understand him and his situation. Not every mind can be judged by the weight of a single mistake; not every personality should be assessed by the burden of a single desire. We live in a time where the power of material forces is nearly impossible to resist; the spiritual side is overwhelmed by the shock. The incredible and complex growth of our material civilization, the variety of social forms, the depth, nuance, and trickiness of our imaginative experiences—amplified and spread by trains, express deliveries, postal services, telephones, telegraphs, newspapers, and the entire network of social interactions—these aspects of life create what can be called a kaleidoscopic glitter, a dazzling and confusing spectacle that exhausts and dulls the mind and morals. It causes a kind of intellectual fatigue that results in an ever-growing number of insomniacs, the melancholic, and the insane. Our modern minds don’t yet seem capable of receiving, sorting, and storing the vast number of facts and impressions that confront us daily. The harsh light of public scrutiny is too intense. We are burdened by too many things. It’s as if the wisdom of the infinite is trying to force itself into our limited minds.

Lester Kane was the natural product of these untoward conditions. His was a naturally observing mind, Rabelaisian in its strength and tendencies, but confused by the multiplicity of things, the vastness of the panorama of life, the glitter of its details, the unsubstantial nature of its forms, the uncertainty of their justification. Born a Catholic, he was no longer a believer in the divine inspiration of Catholicism; raised a member of the social elect, he had ceased to accept the fetish that birth and station presuppose any innate superiority; brought up as the heir to a comfortable fortune and expected to marry in his own sphere, he was by no means sure that he wanted marriage on any terms. Of course the conjugal state was an institution. It was established. Yes, certainly. But what of it? The whole nation believed in it. True, but other nations believed in polygamy. There were other questions that bothered him—such questions as the belief in a single deity or ruler of the universe, and whether a republican, monarchial, or aristocratic form of government were best. In short, the whole body of things material, social, and spiritual had come under the knife of his mental surgery and been left but half dissected. Life was not proved to him. Not a single idea of his, unless it were the need of being honest, was finally settled. In all other things he wavered, questioned, procrastinated, leaving to time and to the powers back of the universe the solution of the problems that vexed him. Yes, Lester Kane was the natural product of a combination of elements—religious, commercial, social—modified by that pervading atmosphere of liberty in our national life which is productive of almost uncounted freedom of thought and action. Thirty-six years of age, and apparently a man of vigorous, aggressive, and sound personality, he was, nevertheless, an essentially animal-man, pleasantly veneered by education and environment. Like the hundreds of thousands of Irishmen who in his father’s day had worked on the railroad tracks, dug in the mines, picked and shoveled in the ditches, and carried up bricks and mortar on the endless structures of a new land, he was strong, hairy, axiomatic, and witty.

Lester Kane was the natural outcome of these unfortunate circumstances. He had an observant mind, strong and full of vivid thoughts, but it was muddled by the sheer variety of things, the vastness of life’s landscape, the shine of its details, the fleeting nature of its forms, and the uncertainty of their meaning. Born a Catholic, he had lost faith in the divine inspiration of Catholicism; raised among the social elite, he no longer believed that birth and status implied any inherent superiority; brought up as the heir to a comfortable fortune and expected to marry within his own social circle, he wasn't even sure if he wanted to marry at all. Sure, marriage was an institution. It was established. Yes, definitely. But so what? The entire nation believed in it. True, but other nations believed in polygamy. There were other issues that troubled him—such as the belief in a single deity or ruler of the universe, and whether a republic, monarchy, or aristocracy was the best form of government. In short, the whole range of material, social, and spiritual matters had been put under the microscope of his critical thinking and remained only partially examined. Life didn’t convince him. Not a single idea of his, except perhaps the need to be honest, was entirely resolved. In other areas, he hesitated, questioned, delayed, leaving the solutions to his dilemmas to time and whatever powers governed the universe. Yes, Lester Kane was a natural result of a blend of factors—religious, commercial, social—shaped by the prevailing atmosphere of freedom in our national life that allows for almost limitless freedom of thought and action. At thirty-six years old, and seemingly a man of energy, assertiveness, and sound character, he was, nonetheless, essentially an animalistic man, nicely covered by his education and surroundings. Like the hundreds of thousands of Irishmen who had worked on the railroad tracks, dug in the mines, shoveled in ditches, and hauled bricks and mortar for the endless constructions of a new land during his father's time, he was strong, hairy, straightforward, and witty.

“Do you want me to come back here next year?” he had asked of Brother Ambrose, when, in his seventeenth year, that ecclesiastical member was about to chastise him for some school-boy misdemeanor.

“Do you want me to come back here next year?” he had asked Brother Ambrose, when, in his seventeenth year, that church member was about to punish him for some schoolboy misbehavior.

The other stared at him in astonishment. “Your father will have to look after that,” he replied.

The other stared at him in shock. “Your dad will have to take care of that,” he replied.

“Well, my father won’t look after it,” Lester returned. “If you touch me with that whip I’ll take things into my own hands. I’m not committing any punishable offenses, and I’m not going to be knocked around any more.”

“Well, my dad won’t take care of it,” Lester replied. “If you hit me with that whip, I’ll handle things myself. I’m not doing anything wrong, and I’m not going to be pushed around anymore.”

Words, unfortunately, did not avail in this case, but a good, vigorous Irish-American wrestle did, in which the whip was broken and the discipline of the school so far impaired that he was compelled to take his clothes and leave. After that he looked his father in the eye and told him that he was not going to school any more.

Words, unfortunately, didn’t help in this situation, but a strong, energetic Irish-American wrestle did, which broke the whip and disrupted the school’s discipline enough that he had to take his clothes and leave. After that, he looked his dad in the eye and told him he wasn’t going to school anymore.

“I’m perfectly willing to jump in and work,” he explained. “There’s nothing in a classical education for me. Let me go into the office, and I guess I’ll pick up enough to carry me through.”

“I'm totally ready to dive in and get to work,” he said. “A traditional education isn't for me. Just let me get into the office, and I’m sure I’ll learn enough to get by.”

Old Archibald Kane, keen, single-minded, of unsullied commercial honor, admired his son’s determination, and did not attempt to coerce him.

Old Archibald Kane, sharp, focused, and with a spotless reputation in business, respected his son's determination and didn't try to pressure him.

“Come down to the office,” he said; “perhaps there is something you can do.”

“Come down to the office,” he said; “maybe there’s something you can do.”

Entering upon a business life at the age of eighteen, Lester had worked faithfully, rising in his father’s estimation, until now he had come to be, in a way, his personal representative. Whenever there was a contract to be entered upon, an important move to be decided, or a representative of the manufactory to be sent anywhere to consummate a deal, Lester was the agent selected. His father trusted him implicitly, and so diplomatic and earnest was he in the fulfilment of his duties that this trust had never been impaired.

Starting his career at eighteen, Lester had worked diligently, earning his father's respect, and had become, in a sense, his personal representative. Whenever there was a contract to sign, an important decision to make, or a company representative to send out to finalize a deal, Lester was the go-to person. His father trusted him completely, and Lester's diplomatic and sincere approach to his responsibilities had never let that trust wane.

“Business is business,” was a favorite axiom with him and the very tone in which he pronounced the words was a reflex of his character and personality.

“Business is business,” was one of his favorite sayings, and the way he said it reflected his character and personality perfectly.

There were molten forces in him, flames which burst forth now and then in spite of the fact that he was sure that he had them under control. One of these impulses was a taste for liquor, of which he was perfectly sure he had the upper hand. He drank but very little, he thought, and only, in a social way, among friends; never to excess. Another weakness lay in his sensual nature; but here again he believed that he was the master. If he chose to have irregular relations with women, he was capable of deciding where the danger point lay. If men were only guided by a sense of the brevity inherent in all such relationships there would not be so many troublesome consequences growing out of them. Finally, he flattered himself that he had a grasp upon a right method of living, a method which was nothing more than a quiet acceptance of social conditions as they were, tempered by a little personal judgment as to the right and wrong of individual conduct. Not to fuss and fume, not to cry out about anything, not to be mawkishly sentimental; to be vigorous and sustain your personality intact—such was his theory of life, and he was satisfied that it was a good one.

He had intense emotions inside him, like flames that occasionally broke free even though he was confident he could control them. One of these impulses was his desire for alcohol, which he believed he had under control. He thought he drank very little, only socially, among friends; never excessively. Another weakness was his sensual side; again, he believed he was in charge. If he chose to have casual relationships with women, he felt he could handle it and know where the risks were. If men were more aware of how fleeting these relationships are, there wouldn't be as many problems arising from them. Lastly, he convinced himself that he understood a healthy way to live, which was simply to accept social realities as they were, while exercising a bit of personal judgment about right and wrong behavior. Not to stress or complain, not to be overly sentimental; to be strong and maintain a solid sense of self—this was his philosophy of life, and he was confident it was a good one.

As to Jennie, his original object in approaching her had been purely selfish. But now that he had asserted his masculine prerogatives, and she had yielded, at least in part, he began to realize that she was no common girl, no toy of the passing hour.

As for Jennie, his initial reason for approaching her had been entirely self-serving. But now that he had claimed his masculine rights and she had given in, at least somewhat, he started to see that she was no ordinary girl, not just a fleeting distraction.

There is a time in some men’s lives when they unconsciously begin to view feminine youth and beauty not so much in relation to the ideal of happiness, but rather with regard to the social conventions by which they are environed.

There comes a point in some men's lives when they start to see feminine youth and beauty not necessarily as part of the ideal of happiness, but more in terms of the social norms that surround them.

“Must it be?” they ask themselves, in speculating concerning the possibility of taking a maiden to wife, “that I shall be compelled to swallow the whole social code, make a covenant with society, sign a pledge of abstinence, and give to another a life interest in all my affairs, when I know too well that I am but taking to my arms a variable creature like myself, whose wishes are apt to become insistent and burdensome in proportion to the decrease of her beauty and interest?” These are the men, who, unwilling to risk the manifold contingencies of an authorized connection, are led to consider the advantages of a less-binding union, a temporary companionship. They seek to seize the happiness of life without paying the cost of their indulgence. Later on, they think, the more definite and conventional relationship may be established without reproach or the necessity of radical readjustment.

“Must it be?” they ask themselves, when thinking about the possibility of marrying a woman, “that I will have to accept the entire social code, make a deal with society, sign a pledge of abstinence, and give someone else a say in all my affairs, knowing full well that I am simply taking on a changeable person like myself, whose desires are likely to become demanding and burdensome as her beauty and excitement fade?” These are the men who, not wanting to risk the various uncertainties of a formal relationship, begin to consider the perks of a less-binding arrangement, a temporary companionship. They want to enjoy life’s happiness without fully committing to the consequences of their indulgence. Later on, they think, the more traditional and conventional relationship can be formed without shame or the need for major readjustment.

Lester Kane was past the youthful love period, and he knew it. The innocence and unsophistication of younger ideals had gone. He wanted the comfort of feminine companionship, but he was more and more disinclined to give up his personal liberty in order to obtain it. He would not wear the social shackles if it were possible to satisfy the needs of his heart and nature and still remain free and unfettered. Of course he must find the right woman, and in Jennie he believed that he had discovered her. She appealed to him on every side; he had never known anybody quite like her. Marriage was not only impossible but unnecessary. He had only to say “Come” and she must obey; it was her destiny.

Lester Kane was past the age of youthful love, and he knew it. The innocence and simplicity of younger ideals were gone. He wanted the comfort of a woman's company, but he was increasingly reluctant to give up his personal freedom to get it. He wouldn’t wear social constraints if he could meet the needs of his heart and nature while still remaining free and unbound. Of course, he had to find the right woman, and he believed he had found her in Jennie. She captivated him in every way; he had never met anyone quite like her. Marriage was not only impossible but unnecessary. All he had to do was say "Come," and she would have to obey; it was her destiny.

Lester thought the matter over calmly, dispassionately. He strolled out to the shabby street where she lived; he looked at the humble roof that sheltered her. Her poverty, her narrow and straitened environment touched his heart. Ought he not to treat her generously, fairly, honorably? Then the remembrance of her marvelous beauty swept over him and changed his mood. No, he must possess her if he could—to-day, quickly, as soon as possible. It was in that frame of mind that he returned to Mrs. Bracebridge’s home from his visit to Lorrie Street.

Lester thought the situation through calmly and without emotion. He walked out to the rundown street where she lived; he glanced at the modest roof that provided her shelter. Her poverty and her limited surroundings touched his heart. Shouldn’t he treat her with kindness, fairness, and respect? Then the memory of her stunning beauty washed over him and shifted his mood. No, he had to have her—today, quickly, as soon as he could. It was with this mindset that he returned to Mrs. Bracebridge’s home after his visit to Lorrie Street.

CHAPTER XVIII

Jennie was now going through the agony of one who has a varied and complicated problem to confront. Her baby, her father, her brothers, and sisters all rose up to confront her. What was this thing that she was doing? Was she allowing herself to slip into another wretched, unsanctified relationship? How was she to explain to her family about this man? He would not marry her, that was sure, if he knew all about her. He would not marry her, anyhow, a man of his station and position. Yet here she was parleying with him. What ought she to do? She pondered over the problem until evening, deciding first that it was best to run away, but remembering painfully that she had told him where she lived. Then she resolved that she would summon up her courage and refuse him—tell him she couldn’t, wouldn’t have anything to do with him. This last solution of the difficulty seemed simple enough—in his absence. And she would find work where he could not follow her up so easily. It all seemed simple enough as she put on her things in the evening to go home.

Jennie was facing the torment of someone dealing with a complex and difficult problem. Her baby, her father, her brothers, and sisters all appeared to confront her. What was she doing? Was she letting herself get drawn into another miserable, unholy relationship? How could she explain this man to her family? He definitely wouldn’t marry her if he knew everything about her. He wouldn’t marry her anyway, given his status and position. Yet here she was talking to him. What was she supposed to do? She thought about the situation until evening, initially deciding it was best to run away but then painfully remembering she had told him where she lived. Then she decided she would gather her courage and refuse him—tell him she couldn’t and wouldn’t have anything to do with him. This last solution seemed straightforward enough—in his absence. And she would find a job where he couldn’t easily track her down. It all felt simple as she got ready in the evening to go home.

Her aggressive lover, however, was not without his own conclusion in this matter. Since leaving Jennie he had thought concisely and to the point. He came to the decision that he must act at once. She might tell her family, she might tell Mrs. Bracebridge, she might leave the city. He wanted to know more of the conditions which surrounded her, and there was only one way to do that—talk to her. He must persuade her to come and live with him. She would, he thought. She admitted that she liked him. That soft, yielding note in her character which had originally attracted him seemed to presage that he could win her without much difficulty, if he wished to try. He decided to do so, anyhow, for truly he desired her greatly.

Her aggressive boyfriend, however, had his own thoughts about the situation. Since leaving Jennie, he had been very clear-headed. He decided he needed to act fast. She might tell her family, she might tell Mrs. Bracebridge, she might even leave the city. He wanted to understand more about what was going on in her life, and the only way to do that was to talk to her. He had to convince her to come live with him. She would, he believed. She had admitted she liked him. That soft, accommodating side of her personality that had initially attracted him suggested that he could win her over without too much trouble, if he wanted to try. He decided to go for it, because he truly desired her deeply.

At half-past five he returned to the Bracebridge home to see if she were still there. At six he had an opportunity to say to her, unobserved, “I am going to walk home with you. Wait for me at the next corner, will you?”

At 5:30, he went back to the Bracebridge house to check if she was still there. At 6:00, he got a chance to tell her quietly, “I’m going to walk home with you. Can you wait for me at the next corner?”

“Yes,” she said, a sense of compulsion to do his bidding seizing her. She explained to herself afterward that she ought to talk to him, that she must tell him finally of her decision not to see him again, and this was as good an opportunity as any. At half-past six he left the house on a pretext—a forgotten engagement—and a little after seven he was waiting for her in a closed carriage near the appointed spot. He was calm, absolutely satisfied as to the result, and curiously elated beneath a sturdy, shock-proof exterior. It was as if he breathed some fragrant perfume, soft, grateful, entrancing.

“Yes,” she said, feeling a strong urge to go along with him. She later told herself that she needed to talk to him, that she had to finally let him know about her decision not to see him again, and that this was as good an opportunity as any. At six-thirty, he left the house under the excuse of a forgotten appointment, and a little after seven, he was waiting for her in a closed carriage near the agreed spot. He appeared calm, completely confident about the outcome, and oddly excited beneath a tough, composed exterior. It was as if he was inhaling a sweet scent, soft, comforting, and captivating.

A few minutes after eight he saw Jennie coming along. The flare of the gas-lamp was not strong, but it gave sufficient light for his eyes to make her out. A wave of sympathy passed over him, for there was a great appeal in her personality. He stepped out as she neared the corner and confronted her. “Come,” he said, “and get in this carriage with me. I’ll take you home.”

A few minutes after eight, he saw Jennie walking down the street. The gas-lamp didn’t provide much light, but it was enough for him to recognize her. He felt a wave of sympathy wash over him because she had a strong presence. He stepped out as she approached the corner and stopped her. “Come on,” he said, “get in this carriage with me. I’ll take you home.”

“No,” she replied. “I don’t think I ought to.”

“No,” she said. “I don’t think I should.”

“Come with me. I’ll take you home. It’s a better way to talk.”

“Come with me. I’ll take you home. It’s a better way to chat.”

Once more that sense of dominance on his part, that power of compulsion. She yielded, feeling all the time that she should not; he called out to the cabman, “Anywhere for a little while.” When she was seated beside him he began at once.

Once again, she felt his sense of control, that power to influence her. She gave in, even though she knew she shouldn't; he shouted to the taxi driver, “Anywhere for a little while.” As soon as she sat next to him, he started speaking immediately.

“Listen to me, Jennie, I want you. Tell me something about yourself.”

“Listen to me, Jennie, I want you. Tell me something about yourself.”

“I have to talk to you,” she replied, trying to stick to her original line of defense.

“I need to talk to you,” she said, trying to stick to her original line of defense.

“About what?” he inquired, seeking to fathom her expression in the half light.

“About what?” he asked, trying to understand her expression in the dim light.

“I can’t go on this way,” she murmured nervously. “I can’t act this way. You don’t know how it all is. I shouldn’t have done what I did this morning. I mustn’t see you any more. Really I mustn’t.”

“I can’t keep doing this,” she said nervously. “I can’t behave like this. You have no idea how things are. I shouldn’t have done what I did this morning. I can’t see you anymore. I really can’t.”

“You didn’t do what you did this morning,” he remarked, paradoxically, seizing on that one particular expression. “I did that. And as for seeing me any more, I’m going to see you.” He seized her hand. “You don’t know me, but I like you. I’m crazy about you, that’s all. You belong to me. Now listen. I’m going to have you. Are you going to come to me?”

“You didn’t do what you did this morning,” he said, oddly fixating on that one phrase. “I did that. And as for seeing me again, I’m definitely going to see you.” He took her hand. “You don’t really know me, but I like you. I’m crazy about you, that’s all. You’re mine. Now listen. I’m going to have you. Are you going to come to me?”

“No, no, no!” she replied in an agonized voice, “I can’t do anything like that, Mr. Kane. Please listen to me. It can’t be. You don’t know. Oh, you don’t know. I can’t do what you want. I don’t want to. I couldn’t, even if I wanted to. You don’t know how things are. But I don’t want to do anything wrong. I mustn’t. I can’t. I won’t. Oh, no! no!! no!!! Please let me go home.”

“No, no, no!” she replied, her voice filled with anguish. “I can’t do anything like that, Mr. Kane. Please, just listen to me. It’s impossible. You don’t understand. Oh, you really don’t understand. I can’t do what you want. I don’t want to. I couldn’t even if I wanted to. You have no idea how things are. But I don’t want to do anything wrong. I can’t. I won’t. Oh, no! No!! No!!! Please, just let me go home.”

He listened to this troubled, feverish outburst with sympathy, with even a little pity.

He listened to this troubled, intense outburst with compassion, and even a bit of sympathy.

“What do you mean by you can’t?” he asked, curiously.

“What do you mean you can’t?” he asked, curious.

“Oh, I can’t tell you,” she replied. “Please don’t ask me. You oughtn’t to know. But I mustn’t see you any more. It won’t do any good.”

“Oh, I can’t tell you,” she replied. “Please don’t ask me. You shouldn’t know. But I can’t see you anymore. It won’t help.”

“But you like me,” he retorted.

"But you like me," he shot back.

“Oh yes, yes, I do. I can’t help that. But you mustn’t come near me any more. Please don’t.”

“Oh yes, I do. I can’t help it. But you have to stay away from me. Please don’t come near.”

He turned his proposition over in his mind with the solemnity of a judge. He knew that this girl liked him—loved him really, brief as their contact had been. And he was drawn to her, perhaps not irrevocably, but with exceeding strength. What prevented her from yielding, especially since she wanted to? He was curious.

He thought about his proposal with the seriousness of a judge. He knew this girl liked him—really loved him, even if their time together had been short. And he felt a strong attraction to her, maybe not completely binding, but definitely intense. What was stopping her from giving in, especially since she wanted to? He was curious.

“See here, Jennie,” he replied. “I hear what you say. I don’t know what you mean by ‘can’t’ if you want to. You say you like me. Why can’t you come to me? You’re my sort. We will get along beautifully together. You’re suited to me temperamentally. I’d like to have you with me. What makes you say you can’t come?”

“Listen, Jennie,” he said. “I get what you’re saying. I don’t understand what you mean by ‘can’t’ if you really want to. You say you like me. Why can’t you come to me? You’re my type. We would get along great together. You’re a good match for me. I’d love to have you with me. Why do you say you can’t come?”

“I can’t,” she replied. “I can’t. I don’t want to. I oughtn’t. Oh, please don’t ask me any more. You don’t know. I can’t tell you why.” She was thinking of her baby.

“I can't,” she said. “I can't. I don't want to. I shouldn't. Oh, please don't ask me anymore. You don't understand. I can't explain why.” She was thinking of her baby.

The man had a keen sense of justice and fair play. Above all things he wanted to be decent in his treatment of people. In this case he intended to be tender and considerate, and yet he must win her. He turned this over in his mind.

The man had a sharp sense of justice and fairness. Above all, he wanted to be respectful in how he treated others. In this situation, he aimed to be gentle and thoughtful, yet he needed to win her over. He pondered this in his thoughts.

“Listen to me,” he said finally, still holding her hand. “I may not want you to do anything immediately. I want you to think it over. But you belong to me. You say you care for me. You admitted that this morning. I know you do. Now why should you stand out against me? I like you, and I can do a lot of things for you. Why not let us be good friends now? Then we can talk the rest of this over later.”

“Listen to me,” he said at last, still holding her hand. “I might not want you to decide anything right now. I just want you to think about it. But you belong to me. You say you care about me. You admitted that this morning. I know you do. So why are you putting up a barrier between us? I like you, and I can do a lot for you. Why not let’s just be good friends for now? Then we can figure out the rest of this later.”

“But I mustn’t do anything wrong,” she insisted. “I don’t want to. Please don’t come near me any more. I can’t do what you want.”

“But I can’t do anything wrong,” she insisted. “I don’t want to. Please stay away from me. I can’t do what you want.”

“Now, look here,” he said. “You don’t mean that. Why did you say you liked me? Have you changed your mind? Look at me.” (She had lowered her eyes.) “Look at me! You haven’t, have you?”

“Now, listen,” he said. “You don’t really mean that. Why did you say you liked me? Have you changed your mind? Look at me.” (She had lowered her eyes.) “Look at me! You haven’t, have you?”

“Oh no, no, no,” she half sobbed, swept by some force beyond her control.

“Oh no, no, no,” she half-cried, overwhelmed by some force beyond her control.

“Well, then, why stand out against me? I love you, I tell you—I’m crazy about you. That’s why I came back this time. It was to see you!”

“Well, then, why are you pushing me away? I love you, I’m telling you—I'm crazy about you. That’s why I came back this time. It was to see you!”

“Was it?” asked Jennie, surprised.

“Really?” Jennie asked, surprised.

“Yes, it was. And I would have come again and again if necessary. I tell you I’m crazy about you. I’ve got to have you. Now tell me you’ll come with me.”

“Yes, it was. And I would have come again and again if I had to. I’m telling you, I’m crazy about you. I need you. So please, tell me you’ll come with me.”

“No, no, no,” she pleaded. “I can’t. I must work. I want to work. I don’t want to do anything wrong. Please don’t ask me. You mustn’t. You must let me go. Really you must. I can’t do what you want.”

“Please, no,” she begged. “I can’t. I have to work. I want to work. I don’t want to do anything wrong. Please don’t ask me. You can’t. You have to let me go. You really do. I can’t do what you want.”

“Tell me, Jennie,” he said, changing the subject. “What does your father do?”

“Tell me, Jennie,” he said, changing the subject. “What does your dad do?”

“He’s a glass-blower.”

"He's a glass artist."

“Here in Cleveland?”

"Are we in Cleveland?"

“No, he works in Youngstown.”

“No, he works in Youngstown.”

“Is your mother alive?”

“Is your mom alive?”

“Yes, sir.”

"Yes, sir."

“You live with her?”

"Are you living with her?"

“Yes, sir.”

"Yes, sir."

He smiled at the “sir.” “Don’t say ‘sir’ to me, sweet!” he pleaded in his gruff way. “And don’t insist on the Mr. Kane. I’m not ‘mister’ to you any more. You belong to me, little girl, me.” And he pulled her close to him.

He smiled at the "sir." "Don't call me 'sir,' sweet!" he said in his rough voice. "And don’t keep using Mr. Kane. I'm not 'mister' to you anymore. You belong to me, little girl, me." And he pulled her close to him.

“Please don’t, Mr. Kane,” she pleaded. “Oh, please don’t. I can’t! I can’t! You mustn’t.”

“Please don’t, Mr. Kane,” she begged. “Oh, please don’t. I can’t! I can’t! You mustn’t.”

But he sealed her lips with his own.

But he pressed his lips against hers.

“Listen to me, Jennie,” he repeated, using his favorite expression. “I tell you you belong to me. I like you better every moment. I haven’t had a chance to know you. I’m not going to give you up. You’ve got to come to me eventually. And I’m not going to have you working as a lady’s maid. You can’t stay in that place except for a little while. I’m going to take you somewhere else. And I’m going to leave you some money, do you hear? You have to take it.”

“Listen to me, Jennie,” he said again, using his favorite phrase. “I’m telling you that you belong to me. I like you more with every moment. I haven’t had a chance to really get to know you. I’m not going to let you go. You’ll have to come to me eventually. And I’m not going to have you working as a lady’s maid. You can’t stay in that place for long. I’m going to take you somewhere else. And I’m going to leave you some money, do you understand? You have to take it.”

At the word money she quailed and withdrew her hand.

At the mention of money, she recoiled and pulled her hand back.

“No, no, no!” she repeated. “No, I won’t take it.”

“No, no, no!” she repeated. “No, I won’t take it.”

“Yes, you will. Give it to your mother. I’m not trying to buy you. I know what you think. But I’m not. I want to help you. I want to help your family. I know where you live. I saw the place to-day. How many are there of you?”

“Yes, you will. Give it to your mom. I’m not trying to buy you. I know what you’re thinking. But I’m not. I want to help you. I want to help your family. I know where you live. I saw the place today. How many of you are there?”

“Six,” she answered faintly.

"Six," she replied softly.

“The families of the poor,” he thought.

“The families of the needy,” he thought.

“Well, you take this from me,” he insisted, drawing a purse from his coat. “And I’ll see you very soon again. There’s no escape, sweet.”

“Well, you take this from me,” he insisted, pulling a purse from his coat. “And I’ll see you very soon again. There’s no escaping, sweet.”

“No, no,” she protested. “I won’t. I don’t need it. No, you mustn’t ask me.”

“No, no,” she protested. “I won’t. I don’t need it. No, you can’t ask me.”

He insisted further, but she was firm, and finally he put the money away.

He pushed for more, but she stood her ground, and eventually, he tucked the money away.

“One thing is sure, Jennie, you’re not going to escape me,” he said soberly. “You’ll have to come to me eventually. Don’t you know you will? Your own attitude shows that. I’m not going to leave you alone.”

“One thing is for sure, Jennie, you’re not going to get away from me,” he said seriously. “You’ll have to come to me eventually. Don’t you realize that? Your own attitude makes it obvious. I’m not going to leave you alone.”

“Oh, if you knew the trouble you’re causing me.”

“Oh, if you only knew the trouble you’re causing me.”

“I’m not causing you any real trouble, am I?” he asked. “Surely not.”

“I’m not really bothering you, am I?” he asked. “Of course not.”

“Yes. I can never do what you want.”

“Yes. I can never do what you want.”

“You will! You will!” he exclaimed eagerly, the bare thought of this prize escaping him heightening his passion. “You’ll come to me.” And he drew her close in spite of all her protests.

“You will! You will!” he said eagerly, the mere thought of this prize sending his excitement soaring. “You’ll come to me.” And he pulled her close despite all her objections.

“There,” he said when, after the struggle, that mystic something between them spoke again, and she relaxed. Tears were in her eyes, but he did not see them. “Don’t you see how it is? You like me too.”

“There,” he said when, after the struggle, that special connection between them spoke again, and she let her guard down. Tears filled her eyes, but he didn’t notice. “Don’t you see how it is? You like me too.”

“I can’t,” she repeated, with a sob.

“I can’t,” she said, crying.

Her evident distress touched him. “You’re not crying, little girl, are you?” he asked.

Her clear distress affected him. “You’re not crying, little girl, are you?” he asked.

She made no answer.

She didn't respond.

“I’m sorry,” he went on. “I’ll not say anything more to-night. We’re almost at your home. I’m leaving to-morrow, but I’ll see you again. Yes, I will, sweet. I can’t give you up now. I’ll do anything in reason to make it easy for you, but I can’t, do you hear?”

"I'm sorry," he continued. "I won't say anything else tonight. We're almost at your place. I'm leaving tomorrow, but I'll see you again. Yes, I will, sweetheart. I can't let you go now. I'll do anything reasonable to make it easier for you, but I can't, do you understand?"

She shook her head.

She shook her head.

“Here’s where you get out,” he said, as the carriage drew up near the corner. He could see the evening lamp gleaming behind the Gerhardt cottage curtains.

“Here’s where you get out,” he said, as the carriage pulled up near the corner. He could see the evening lamp shining behind the Gerhardt cottage curtains.

“Good-by,” he said as she stepped out.

“Goodbye,” he said as she stepped out.

“Good-by,” she murmured.

“Goodbye,” she murmured.

“Remember,” he said, “this is just the beginning.”

“Remember,” he said, “this is just the start.”

“Oh no, no!” she pleaded.

“Oh no, no!” she begged.

He looked after her as she walked away.

He watched her as she walked away.

“The beauty!” he exclaimed.

“The beauty!” he said excitedly.

Jennie stepped into the house weary, discouraged, ashamed. What had she done? There was no denying that she had compromised herself irretrievably. He would come back.

Jennie stepped into the house feeling tired, discouraged, and ashamed. What had she done? There was no doubt that she had compromised herself beyond repair. He would come back.

He would come back. And he had offered her money. That was the worst of all.

He would come back. And he had offered her money. That was the worst of all.

CHAPTER XIX

The inconclusive nature of this interview, exciting as it was, did not leave any doubt in either Lester Kane’s or Jennie’s mind; certainly this was not the end of the affair. Kane knew that he was deeply fascinated. This girl was lovely. She was sweeter than he had had any idea of. Her hesitancy, her repeated protests, her gentle “no, no, no” moved him as music might. Depend upon it, this girl was for him, and he would get her. She was too sweet to let go. What did he care about what his family or the world might think?

The unresolved nature of this interview, as exciting as it was, left no doubt in either Lester Kane’s or Jennie’s mind; this was definitely not the end of the situation. Kane realized that he was deeply intrigued. This girl was beautiful. She was sweeter than he had imagined. Her hesitance, her consistent rejections, her soft “no, no, no” touched him like music might. He was certain that this girl was meant for him, and he would win her over. She was too precious to let go. What did he care about what his family or society might think?

It was curious that Kane held the well-founded idea that in time Jennie would yield to him physically, as she had already done spiritually. Just why he could not say. Something about her—a warm womanhood, a guileless expression of countenance—intimated a sympathy toward sex relationship which had nothing to do with hard, brutal immorality. She was the kind of a woman who was made for a man—one man. All her attitude toward sex was bound up with love, tenderness, service. When the one man arrived she would love him and she would go to him. That was Jennie as Lester understood her. He felt it. She would yield to him because he was the one man.

It was interesting that Kane confidently believed that eventually, Jennie would give in to him physically, just as she had already done emotionally. He couldn't explain why. There was something about her—a warm femininity, a genuine look on her face—that suggested a connection to a sexual relationship that had nothing to do with harsh, brutal immorality. She was the kind of woman who was meant for one man. Her entire approach to sex was linked to love, tenderness, and care. When the right man came along, she would love him and be with him. That’s how Lester saw Jennie. He felt it. She would give in to him because he was that one man.

On Jennie’s part there was a great sense of complication and of possible disaster. If he followed her of course he would learn all. She had not told him about Brander, because she was still under the vague illusion that, in the end, she might escape. When she left him she knew that he would come back. She knew, in spite of herself that she wanted him to do so. Yet she felt that she must not yield, she must go on leading her straitened, humdrum life. This was her punishment for having made a mistake. She had made her bed, and she must lie on it.

On Jennie's side, there was a deep sense of complexity and potential disaster. If he followed her, he would find out everything. She hadn’t mentioned Brander because she still held onto the faint hope that, in the end, she might find a way to escape. When she left him, she knew he would come back. Deep down, despite herself, she wanted him to return. Yet, she felt she couldn't give in; she had to continue living her constrained, monotonous life. This was her punishment for making a mistake. She had made her bed, and now she had to lie in it.

The Kane family mansion at Cincinnati to which Lester returned after leaving Jennie was an imposing establishment, which contrasted strangely with the Gerhardt home. It was a great, rambling, two-story affair, done after the manner of the French chateaux, but in red brick and brownstone. It was set down, among flowers and trees, in an almost park-like inclosure, and its very stones spoke of a splendid dignity and of a refined luxury. Old Archibald Kane, the father, had amassed a tremendous fortune, not by grabbing and brow-beating and unfair methods, but by seeing a big need and filling it. Early in life he had realized that America was a growing country. There was going to be a big demand for vehicles—wagons, carriages, drays—and he knew that some one would have to supply them. Having founded a small wagon industry, he had built it up into a great business; he made good wagons, and he sold them at a good profit. It was his theory that most men were honest; he believed that at bottom they wanted honest things, and if you gave them these they would buy of you, and come back and buy again and again, until you were an influential and rich man. He believed in the measure “heaped full and running over.” All through his life and now in his old age he enjoyed the respect and approval of every one who knew him. “Archibald Kane,” you would hear his competitors say, “Ah, there is a fine man. Shrewd, but honest. He’s a big man.”

The Kane family mansion in Cincinnati, where Lester returned after leaving Jennie, was an impressive place that strangely contrasted with the Gerhardt home. It was a large, sprawling two-story building designed like a French chateau, but made of red brick and brownstone. It was surrounded by flowers and trees in an almost park-like setting, and even its stones conveyed a sense of great dignity and refined luxury. Old Archibald Kane, the father, had built a massive fortune not through greed or intimidation, but by recognizing a significant need and meeting it. Early in his life, he understood that America was becoming a dynamic country. There would be a huge demand for vehicles—wagons, carriages, drays—and he saw that someone would have to supply them. After starting a small wagon business, he grew it into a large operation; he produced quality wagons and sold them at a good profit. He believed most people were honest and fundamentally wanted good products, and if you provided those, they would keep coming back to buy from you, leading you to become an influential and wealthy person. He subscribed to the idea of “heaped full and running over.” Throughout his life, and now in his old age, he enjoyed the respect and admiration of everyone who knew him. “Archibald Kane,” you would hear his competitors say, “Ah, there’s a fine man. Shrewd, but honest. He’s a big man.”

This man was the father of two sons and three daughters, all healthy, all good-looking, all blessed with exceptional minds, but none of them so generous and forceful as their long-living and big-hearted sire. Robert, the eldest, a man forty years of age, was his father’s right-hand man in financial matters, having a certain hard incisiveness which fitted him for the somewhat sordid details of business life. He was of medium height, of a rather spare build, with a high forehead, slightly inclined to baldness, bright, liquid-blue eyes, an eagle nose, and thin, firm, even lips. He was a man of few words, rather slow to action and of deep thought. He sat close to his father as vice-president of the big company which occupied two whole blocks in an outlying section of the city. He was a strong man—a coming man, as his father well knew.

This man was the father of two sons and three daughters, all healthy, all good-looking, all gifted with exceptional intelligence, but none of them as generous and strong-willed as their long-lived and big-hearted father. Robert, the eldest, was forty years old and his father’s right-hand man in financial matters, possessing a certain sharpness that suited him for the somewhat grim details of business life. He was of medium height, rather slender, with a high forehead that showed signs of balding, bright, liquid-blue eyes, a prominent nose, and thin, firm, straight lips. He was a man of few words, somewhat slow to act, and deeply contemplative. He sat close to his father as vice president of the large company that occupied two whole blocks in a far section of the city. He was a strong man—a rising star, as his father well knew.

Lester, the second boy, was his father’s favorite. He was not by any means the financier that Robert was, but he had a larger vision of the subtleties that underlie life. He was softer, more human, more good-natured about everything. And, strangely enough, old Archibald admired and trusted him. He knew he had the bigger vision. Perhaps he turned to Robert when it was a question of some intricate financial problem, but Lester was the most loved as a son.

Lester, the second son, was his father’s favorite. He wasn't as savvy with money as Robert, but he had a broader understanding of life’s nuances. He was gentler, more relatable, and had a generally kinder approach to everything. Interestingly, old Archibald respected and trusted him. He recognized that Lester had the bigger perspective. Maybe he relied on Robert for complex financial issues, but Lester was the most cherished as a son.

Then there was Amy, thirty-two years of age, married, handsome, the mother of one child—a boy; Imogene, twenty-eight, also married, but as yet without children, and Louise, twenty-five, single, the best-looking of the girls, but also the coldest and most critical. She was the most eager of all for social distinction, the most vigorous of all in her love of family prestige, the most desirous that the Kane family should outshine every other. She was proud to think that the family was so well placed socially, and carried herself with an air and a hauteur which was sometimes amusing, sometimes irritating to Lester! He liked her—in a way she was his favorite sister—but he thought she might take herself with a little less seriousness and not do the family standing any harm.

Then there was Amy, thirty-two years old, married, attractive, and the mother of one child—a boy; Imogene, twenty-eight, also married but currently without children; and Louise, twenty-five, single, the best-looking of the sisters but also the coldest and most critical. She was the most eager for social status, the most passionate about family prestige, and very determined that the Kane family should outshine all the others. She took pride in the family's social standing and carried herself with an attitude and superiority that could be both amusing and annoying to Lester! He liked her—in a way, she was his favorite sister—but he thought she could take herself a little less seriously and not harm the family's reputation.

Mrs. Kane, the mother, was a quiet, refined woman, sixty years of age, who, having come up from comparative poverty with her husband, cared but little for social life. But she loved her children and her husband, and was naively proud of their position and attainments. It was enough for her to shine only in their reflected glory. A good woman, a good wife, and a good mother.

Mrs. Kane, the mother, was a quiet, sophisticated woman in her sixties who, having risen from relative poverty with her husband, cared little for social life. However, she loved her children and husband and was genuinely proud of their status and achievements. It was enough for her to shine in their reflected glory. A good woman, a good wife, and a good mother.

Lester arrived at Cincinnati early in the evening, and drove at once to his home. An old Irish servitor met him at the door.

Lester got to Cincinnati early in the evening and drove straight to his home. An old Irish servant greeted him at the door.

“Ah, Mr. Lester,” he began, joyously, “sure I’m glad to see you back. I’ll take your coat. Yes, yes, it’s been fine weather we’re having. Yes, yes, the family’s all well. Sure your sister Amy is just after leavin’ the house with the boy. Your mother’s up-stairs in her room. Yes, yes.”

“Ah, Mr. Lester,” he started cheerfully, “I’m so glad to see you back. Let me take your coat. Yes, yes, we’ve been having great weather. Yes, yes, the family is all doing well. Your sister Amy just left the house with the boy. Your mom’s upstairs in her room. Yes, yes.”

Lester smiled cheerily and went up to his mother’s room. In this, which was done in white and gold and overlooked the garden to the south and east, sat Mrs. Kane, a subdued, graceful, quiet woman, with smoothly laid gray hair. She looked up when the door opened, laid down the volume that she had been reading, and rose to greet him.

Lester smiled warmly and walked into his mom's room. It was decorated in white and gold and had a view of the garden to the south and east. Mrs. Kane, a calm, elegant woman with neatly styled gray hair, looked up when the door opened, set aside the book she had been reading, and got up to greet him.

“There you are, Mother,” he said, putting his arms around her and kissing her. “How are you?”

“There you are, Mom,” he said, wrapping his arms around her and giving her a kiss. “How's it going?”

“Oh, I’m just about the same, Lester. How have you been?”

“Oh, I'm pretty much the same, Lester. How have you been?”

“Fine. I was up with the Bracebridges for a few days again. I had to stop off in Cleveland to see Parsons. They all asked after you.”

“Fine. I stayed with the Bracebridges for a few days again. I had to make a stop in Cleveland to see Parsons. They all asked about you.”

“How is Minnie?”

“How’s Minnie?”

“Just the same. She doesn’t change any that I can see. She’s just as interested in entertaining as she ever was.”

“Same as ever. She doesn’t seem to change at all. She’s still as interested in entertaining as she always was.”

“She’s a bright girl,” remarked his mother, recalling Mrs. Bracebridge as a girl in Cincinnati. “I always liked her. She’s so sensible.”

“She’s a smart girl,” said his mother, remembering Mrs. Bracebridge as a girl in Cincinnati. “I’ve always liked her. She’s so practical.”

“She hasn’t lost any of that, I can tell you,” replied Lester significantly. Mrs. Kane smiled and went on to speak of various family happenings. Imogene’s husband was leaving for St. Louis on some errand. Robert’s wife was sick with a cold. Old Zwingle, the yard watchman at the factory, who had been with Mr. Kane for over forty years, had died. Her husband was going to the funeral. Lester listened dutifully, albeit a trifle absently.

“She hasn’t lost any of that, I can tell you,” replied Lester meaningfully. Mrs. Kane smiled and continued talking about different family events. Imogene’s husband was heading to St. Louis on some errand. Robert’s wife had a cold. Old Zwingle, the yard watchman at the factory, who had worked with Mr. Kane for over forty years, had passed away. Her husband was going to the funeral. Lester listened attentively, though a bit distracted.

Lester, as he walked down the hall, encountered Louise. “Smart” was the word for her. She was dressed in a beaded black silk dress, fitting close to her form, with a burst of rubies at her throat which contrasted effectively with her dark complexion and black hair. Her eyes were black and piercing.

Lester, while walking down the hall, ran into Louise. “Smart” was the perfect word for her. She wore a fitted black silk dress adorned with beads, hugging her shape, and a splash of rubies around her neck that beautifully contrasted with her dark skin and black hair. Her eyes were dark and intense.

“Oh, there you are, Lester,” she exclaimed. “When did you get in? Be careful how you kiss me. I’m going out, and I’m all fixed, even to the powder on my nose. Oh, you bear!” Lester had gripped her firmly and kissed her soundly. She pushed him away with her strong hands.

“Oh, there you are, Lester,” she said excitedly. “When did you get here? Be careful how you kiss me. I’m about to head out, and I’m all dressed up, even down to the powder on my nose. Oh, you rascal!” Lester held her tightly and kissed her deeply. She pushed him away with her strong hands.

“I didn’t brush much of it off,” he said. “You can always dust more on with that puff of yours.” He passed on to his own room to dress for dinner. Dressing for dinner was a custom that had been adopted by the Kane family in the last few years. Guests had become so common that in a way it was a necessity, and Louise, in particular, made a point of it. To-night Robert was coming, and a Mr. and Mrs. Burnett, old friends of his father and mother, and so, of course, the meal would be a formal one. Lester knew that his father was around somewhere, but he did not trouble to look him up now. He was thinking of his last two days in Cleveland and wondering when he would see Jennie again.

“I didn’t brush much of it off,” he said. “You can always dust more on with that puff of yours.” He made his way to his own room to get ready for dinner. Dressing for dinner had become a tradition in the Kane family in recent years. With so many guests showing up, it felt necessary, and Louise, in particular, emphasized it. Tonight, Robert was coming, along with Mr. and Mrs. Burnett, old friends of his parents, so the meal would definitely be formal. Lester knew his father was around somewhere, but he didn’t bother to find him now. He was thinking about his last two days in Cleveland and wondering when he would see Jennie again.

CHAPTER XX

As Lester came down-stairs after making his toilet he found his father in the library reading.

As Lester came downstairs after getting ready, he found his father in the library reading.

“Hello, Lester,” he said, looking up from his paper over the top of his glasses and extending his hand. “Where do you come from?”

“Hey, Lester,” he said, looking up from his paper over the top of his glasses and reaching out his hand. “Where are you from?”

“Cleveland,” replied his son, shaking hands heartily, and smiling.

“Cleveland,” replied his son, shaking hands enthusiastically and smiling.

“Robert tells me you’ve been to New York.”

“Robert told me you’ve been to New York.”

“Yes, I was there.”

"Yeah, I was there."

“How did you find my old friend Arnold?”

“How did you meet my old friend Arnold?”

“Just about the same,” returned Lester. “He doesn’t look any older.”

“Pretty much the same,” replied Lester. “He doesn’t look any older.”

“I suppose not,” said Archibald Kane genially, as if the report were a compliment to his own hardy condition. “He’s been a temperate man. A fine old gentleman.”

“I guess not,” said Archibald Kane warmly, as if the report were a compliment to his own robust health. “He’s been a moderate man. A distinguished old gentleman.”

He led the way back to the sitting-room where they chatted over business and home news until the chime of the clock in the hall warned the guests up-stairs that dinner had been served.

He guided everyone back to the living room, where they talked about work and family updates until the clock in the hall chimed, signaling to the guests upstairs that dinner was ready.

Lester sat down in great comfort amid the splendors of the great Louis Quinze dining-room. He liked this homey home atmosphere—his mother and father and his sisters—the old family friends. So he smiled and was exceedingly genial.

Lester settled in comfortably amidst the beauty of the grand Louis Quinze dining room. He enjoyed this cozy home vibe—his mom, dad, and sisters—the long-time family friends. So, he smiled and was very friendly.

Louise announced that the Leverings were going to give a dance on Tuesday, and inquired whether he intended to go.

Louise announced that the Leverings were throwing a dance on Tuesday and asked if he planned to go.

“You know I don’t dance,” he returned dryly. “Why should I go?”

“You know I don’t dance,” he replied flatly. “Why should I go?”

“Don’t dance? Won’t dance, you mean. You’re getting too lazy to move. If Robert is willing to dance occasionally I think you might.”

“Don’t dance? You mean you won’t dance. You’re getting too lazy to move. If Robert is willing to dance sometimes, I think you might.”

“Robert’s got it on me in lightness,” Lester replied, airily.

“Robert's got me beat when it comes to being light-hearted,” Lester replied, casually.

“And politeness,” retorted Louise.

“And respect,” retorted Louise.

“Be that as it may,” said Lester.

"Anyway," said Lester.

“Don’t try to stir up a fight, Louise,” observed Robert, sagely.

"Don't try to start a fight, Louise," Robert said wisely.

After dinner they adjourned to the library, and Robert talked with his brother a little on business. There were some contracts coming up for revision. He wanted to see what suggestions Lester had to make. Louise was going to a party, and the carriage was now announced. “So you are not coming?” she asked, a trifle complainingly.

After dinner, they moved to the library, and Robert had a brief chat with his brother about business. There were some contracts that needed to be revised, and he wanted to hear Lester's suggestions. Louise was headed to a party, and the carriage had just been announced. “So you’re not coming?” she asked, a bit whiny.

“Too tired,” said Lester lightly. “Make my excuses to Mrs. Knowles.”

“Too tired,” Lester said casually. “Please apologize to Mrs. Knowles for me.”

“Letty Pace asked about you the other night,” Louise called back from the door.

“Letty Pace asked about you the other night,” Louise called out from the door.

“Kind,” replied Lester. “I’m greatly obliged.”

“Thanks,” replied Lester. “I really appreciate it.”

“She’s a nice girl, Lester,” put in his father, who was standing near the open fire. “I only wish you would marry her and settle down. You’d have a good wife in her.”

“She's a nice girl, Lester,” his father chimed in, standing by the open fire. “I just wish you would marry her and settle down. You'd have a good wife in her.”

“She’s charming,” testified Mrs. Kane.

“She’s charming,” said Mrs. Kane.

“What is this?” asked Lester jocularly—“a conspiracy? You know I’m not strong on the matrimonial business.”

“What’s going on?” Lester asked playfully—“a conspiracy? You know I’m not great with marriage stuff.”

“And I well know it,” replied his mother semi-seriously. “I wish you were.”

“And I know it well,” his mother replied, half-joking. “I wish you were.”

Lester changed the subject. He really could not stand for this sort of thing any more, he told himself. And as he thought his mind wandered back to Jennie and her peculiar “Oh no, no!” There was someone that appealed to him. That was a type of womanhood worth while. Not sophisticated, not self-seeking, not watched over and set like a man-trap in the path of men, but a sweet little girl—sweet as a flower, who was without anybody, apparently, to watch over her. That night in his room he composed a letter, which he dated a week later, because he did not want to appear too urgent and because he could not again leave Cincinnati for at least two weeks.

Lester changed the subject. He really couldn't take this kind of thing anymore, he told himself. As he thought about it, his mind drifted back to Jennie and her unusual “Oh no, no!” There was someone who captured his interest. She represented a type of womanhood that was valuable. Not sophisticated, not self-serving, not like a trap set for men, but a sweet little girl—sweet as a flower—who seemed to have no one looking out for her. That night in his room, he wrote a letter, dating it a week later because he didn’t want to seem too eager and because he wouldn't be able to leave Cincinnati for at least two weeks.

“MY DEAR JENNIE, Although it has been a week, and I have said nothing, I have not forgotten you—believe me. Was the impression I gave of myself very bad? I will make it better from now on, for I love you, little girl—I really do. There is a flower on my table which reminds me of you very much—white, delicate, beautiful. Your personality, lingering with me, is just that. You are the essence of everything beautiful to me. It is in your power to strew flowers in my path if you will.
    “But what I want to say here is that I shall be in Cleveland on the 18th, and I shall expect to see you. I arrive Thursday night, and I want you to meet me in the ladies’ parlor of the Dornton at noon Friday. Will you? You can lunch with me.
    “You see, I respect your suggestion that I should not call. (I will not—on condition.) These separations are dangerous to good friendship. Write me that you will. I throw myself on your generosity. But I can’t take “no” for an answer, not now.
    “With a world of affection.

“MY DEAR JENNIE, Even though it's been a week and I haven't said anything, I want you to know that I haven't forgotten you—trust me. Did I leave a really bad impression? I’ll make sure to do better from now on, because I love you, little girl—I truly do. There’s a flower on my table that reminds me of you—white, delicate, beautiful. Your essence lingers with me; it embodies just that. You are everything beautiful to me. You have the power to sprinkle flowers in my path if you choose.
    “But what I really want to say is that I’ll be in Cleveland on the 18th, and I hope to see you. I’m arriving Thursday night, and I’d like you to meet me in the ladies' parlor of the Dornton at noon on Friday. Will you? You can have lunch with me.
    “You see, I respect your suggestion that I shouldn’t call. (I won’t—on one condition.) These separations can be harmful to a good friendship. Please write me back letting me know you will. I’m counting on your kindness. But I can’t accept “no” for an answer, not now.
    “With all my affection.

“LESTER KANE.”

“Lester Kane.”

He sealed the letter and addressed it. “She’s a remarkable girl in her way,” he thought. “She really is.”

He sealed the letter and wrote the address on it. “She’s an impressive girl in her own way,” he thought. “She really is.”

CHAPTER XXI

The arrival of this letter, coming after a week of silence and after she had had a chance to think, moved Jennie deeply. What did she want to do? What ought she to do? How did she truly feel about this man? Did she sincerely wish to answer his letter? If she did so, what should she say? Heretofore all her movements, even the one in which she had sought to sacrifice herself for the sake of Bass in Columbus, had not seemed to involve any one but herself. Now, there seemed to be others to consider—her family, above all, her child. The little Vesta was now eighteen months of age; she was an interesting child; her large, blue eyes and light hair giving promise of a comeliness which would closely approximate that of her mother, while her mential traits indicated a clear and intelligent mind. Mrs. Gerhardt had become very fond of her. Gerhardt had unbended so gradually that his interest was not even yet clearly discernible, but he had a distinct feeling of kindliness toward her. And this readjustment of her father’s attitude had aroused in Jennie an ardent desire to so conduct herself that no pain should ever come to him again. Any new folly on her part would not only be base ingratitude to her father, but would tend to injure the prospects of her little one. Her life was a failure, she fancied, but Vesta’s was a thing apart; she must do nothing to spoil it. She wondered whether it would not be better to write Lester and explain everything. She had told him that she did not wish to do wrong. Suppose she went on to inform him that she had a child, and beg him to leave her in peace. Would he obey her? She doubted it. Did she really want him to take her at her word?

The arrival of this letter, after a week of silence and a chance for her to reflect, deeply affected Jennie. What did she want to do? What should she do? How did she really feel about this man? Did she truly want to respond to his letter? If she did, what should she say? Until now, all her decisions, even the one where she attempted to sacrifice herself for Bass in Columbus, seemed to only involve her. Now, it felt like there were others to think about—her family, especially her child. Little Vesta was now eighteen months old; she was an engaging child, her big blue eyes and light hair suggesting she would be as pretty as her mother, while her mental traits hinted at a sharp and intelligent mind. Mrs. Gerhardt had grown very fond of her. Gerhardt had gradually softened, and while his interest wasn’t yet clearly noticeable, he felt a genuine kindness toward her. This change in her father’s attitude sparked in Jennie a strong desire to act in a way that would never cause him pain again. Any new mistake on her part would not only be ungrateful to her father, but could also hurt her child's future. She thought her life was a failure, but Vesta’s life was something separate; she must do nothing to ruin that. She wondered if it would be better to write to Lester and explain everything. She had told him she didn’t want to do wrong. What if she went on to tell him she had a child and asked him to leave her alone? Would he listen to her? She wasn’t sure. Did she really want him to take her seriously?

The need of making this confession was a painful thing to Jennie. It caused her to hesitate, to start a letter in which she tried to explain, and then to tear it up. Finally, fate intervened in the sudden home-coming of her father, who had been seriously injured by an accident at the glass-works in Youngstown where he worked.

The need to make this confession was a painful thing for Jennie. It made her hesitate, start a letter in which she tried to explain, and then tear it up. Eventually, fate stepped in with the sudden return of her father, who had been seriously injured in an accident at the glass factory in Youngstown where he worked.

It was on a Wednesday afternoon, in the latter part of August, when a letter came from Gerhardt. But instead of the customary fatherly communication, written in German and inclosing the regular weekly remittance of five dollars, there was only a brief note, written by another hand, and explaining that the day before Gerhardt had received a severe burn on both hands, due to the accidental overturning of a dipper of molten glass. The letter added that he would be home the next morning.

It was a Wednesday afternoon, late in August, when a letter arrived from Gerhardt. However, instead of the usual fatherly message, written in German and including the regular weekly payment of five dollars, there was only a short note, written by someone else, explaining that the day before, Gerhardt had suffered serious burns on both hands from accidentally spilling molten glass. The note added that he would be home the next morning.

“What do you think of that?” exclaimed William, his mouth wide open.

“What do you think of that?” exclaimed William, his mouth hanging open.

“Poor papa!” said Veronica, tears welling up in her eyes.

“Poor dad!” said Veronica, tears welling up in her eyes.

Mrs. Gerhardt sat down, clasped her hands in her lap, and stared at the floor. “Now, what to do?” she nervously exclaimed. The possibility that Gerhardt was disabled for life opened long vistas of difficulties which she had not the courage to contemplate.

Mrs. Gerhardt sat down, folded her hands in her lap, and looked at the floor. “So, what now?” she said anxiously. The thought that Gerhardt might be disabled for life brought up a flood of challenges that she didn’t have the strength to face.

Bass came home at half-past six and Jennie at eight. The former heard the news with an astonished face.

Bass got home at 6:30, and Jennie arrived at 8. Bass heard the news with a shocked expression.

“Gee! that’s tough, isn’t it?” he exclaimed. “Did the letter say how bad he was hurt?”

“Wow! That’s rough, isn’t it?” he said. “Did the letter say how badly he was hurt?”

“No,” replied Mrs. Gerhardt.

“No,” said Mrs. Gerhardt.

“Well, I wouldn’t worry about it,” said Bass easily. “It won’t do any good. We’ll get along somehow. I wouldn’t worry like that if I were you.”

“Well, I wouldn’t stress about it,” Bass said casually. “It won’t help. We’ll manage somehow. I wouldn’t worry like that if I were you.”

The truth was, he wouldn’t, because his nature was wholly different. Life did not rest heavily upon his shoulders. His brain was not large enough to grasp the significance and weigh the results of things.

The truth was, he wouldn’t, because his nature was completely different. Life didn’t weigh heavily on him. His mind wasn’t big enough to understand the meaning and consider the consequences of things.

“I know,” said Mrs. Gerhardt, endeavoring to recover herself. “I can’t help it, though. To think that just when we were getting along fairly well this new calamity should be added. It seems sometimes as if we were under a curse. We have so much bad luck.”

“I know,” said Mrs. Gerhardt, trying to pull herself together. “I can’t help it, though. It’s just so frustrating that just when we were making some progress, this new disaster has to hit us. Sometimes it feels like we’re cursed. We have so much bad luck.”

When Jennie came her mother turned to her instinctively; here was her one stay.

When Jennie arrived, her mother turned to her instinctively; she was her only support.

“What’s the matter, ma?” asked Jennie as she opened the door and observed her mother’s face. “What have you been crying about?”

“What’s wrong, Mom?” Jennie asked as she opened the door and saw her mother’s face. “What have you been crying about?”

Mrs. Gerhardt looked at her, and then turned half away.

Mrs. Gerhardt looked at her, then turned slightly away.

“Pa’s had his hands burned,” put in Bass solemnly. “He’ll be home to-morrow.”

“Dad's hands got burned,” Bass said seriously. “He'll be home tomorrow.”

Jennie turned and stared at him. “His hands burned!” she exclaimed.

Jennie turned and stared at him. “His hands were so hot!” she exclaimed.

“Yes,” said Bass.

“Yes,” Bass replied.

“How did it happen?”

"How did it happen?"

“A pot of glass was turned over.”

“A glass pot was turned over.”

Jennie looked at her mother, and her eyes dimmed with tears. Instinctively she ran to her and put her arms around her.

Jennie looked at her mom, and her eyes filled with tears. Without thinking, she ran to her and wrapped her arms around her.

“Now, don’t you cry, ma,” she said, barely able to control herself. “Don’t you worry. I know how you feel, but we’ll get along. Don’t cry now.” Then her own lips lost their evenness, and she struggled long before she could pluck up courage to contemplate this new disaster. And now without volition upon her part there leaped into her consciousness a new and subtly persistent thought. What about Lester’s offer of assistance now? What about his declaration of love? Somehow it came back to her—his affection, his personality, his desire to help her, his sympathy, so like that which Brander had shown when Bass was in jail. Was she doomed to a second sacrifice? Did it really make any difference? Wasn’t her life a failure already? She thought this over as she looked at her mother sitting there so silent, haggard, and distraught. “What a pity,” she thought, “that her mother must always suffer! Wasn’t it a shame that she could never have any real happiness?”

“Don’t cry, Mom,” she said, struggling to keep it together. “Don’t worry. I understand how you feel, but we’ll manage. Just don’t cry now.” Then her own lips trembled, and she took a long time to gather the strength to face this new disaster. Suddenly, without her intending it, a new thought surged into her mind—what about Lester’s offer to help? What about his love for her? His affection, his personality, his eagerness to support her, his sympathy—so similar to what Brander had shown when Bass was in jail. Was she destined for another sacrifice? Did it even matter? Wasn’t her life already a failure? She considered this as she looked at her mother sitting there, so quiet, worn-out, and upset. “What a shame,” she thought, “that her mother always has to suffer! Isn’t it sad that she can never experience any real happiness?”

“I wouldn’t feel so badly,” she said, after a time. “Maybe pa isn’t burned so badly as we think. Did the letter say he’d be home in the morning?”

“I wouldn’t feel so bad,” she said after a while. “Maybe Dad isn’t hurt as badly as we think. Did the letter say he’d be home in the morning?”

“Yes,” said Mrs. Gerhardt, recovering herself.

“Yes,” said Mrs. Gerhardt, regaining her composure.

They talked more quietly from now on, and gradually, as the details were exhausted, a kind of dumb peace settled down upon the household.

They spoke more softly from that point on, and slowly, as the details were exhausted, a sort of silent calm settled over the household.

“One of us ought to go to the train to meet him in the morning,” said Jennie to Bass. “I will. I guess Mrs. Bracebridge won’t mind.”

"One of us should go to the train to meet him in the morning," said Jennie to Bass. "I'll do it. I don't think Mrs. Bracebridge will mind."

“No,” said Bass gloomily, “you mustn’t. I can go.”

“No,” said Bass sadly, “you shouldn’t. I can go.”

He was sour at this new fling of fate, and he looked his feelings; he stalked off gloomily to his room and shut himself in. Jennie and her mother saw the others off to bed, and then sat out in the kitchen talking.

He was upset about this twist of fate, and he revealed his feelings; he walked off moodily to his room and shut the door. Jennie and her mom saw everyone else off to bed, and then they sat in the kitchen chatting.

“I don’t see what’s to become of us now,” said Mrs. Gerhardt at last, completely overcome by the financial complications which this new calamity had brought about. She looked so weak and helpless that Jennie could hardly contain herself.

“I don’t see what’s going to happen to us now,” said Mrs. Gerhardt finally, completely overwhelmed by the financial mess that this new disaster had caused. She looked so weak and helpless that Jennie could hardly hold back her emotions.

“Don’t worry, mamma dear,” she said, softly, a peculiar resolve coming into her heart. The world was wide. There was comfort and ease in it scattered by others with a lavish hand. Surely, surely misfortune could not press so sharply but that they could live!

“Don’t worry, mom,” she said softly, a strange determination filling her heart. The world was vast. There was comfort and ease in it spread generously by others. Surely, surely misfortune couldn’t weigh down on them so heavily that they couldn’t survive!

She sat down with her mother, the difficulties of the future seeming to approach with audible and ghastly steps.

She sat down with her mom, the challenges of the future feeling like they were coming closer with loud and frightening footsteps.

“What do you suppose will become of us now?” repeated her mother, who saw how her fanciful conception of this Cleveland home had crumbled before her eyes.

“What do you think will happen to us now?” her mother repeated, seeing how her imaginative vision of this Cleveland home had fallen apart before her eyes.

“Why,” said Jennie, who saw clearly and knew what could be done, “it will be all right. I wouldn’t worry about it. Something will happen. We’ll get something.”

“Why,” said Jennie, who understood and knew what was possible, “it will be fine. I wouldn’t stress about it. Something will come up. We’ll figure something out.”

She realized, as she sat there, that fate had shifted the burden of the situation to her. She must sacrifice herself; there was no other way.

She understood, as she sat there, that fate had placed the weight of the situation on her. She had to give herself up; there was no other option.

Bass met his father at the railway station in the morning. He looked very pale, and seemed to have suffered a great deal. His cheeks were slightly sunken and his bony profile appeared rather gaunt. His hands were heavily bandaged, and altogether he presented such a picture of distress that many stopped to look at him on the way home from the station.

Bass met his dad at the train station in the morning. He looked really pale and seemed to have been through a lot. His cheeks were a bit sunken, and his bony face looked pretty gaunt. His hands were heavily wrapped, and overall he gave off such a vibe of distress that many people stopped to stare at him on their way home from the station.

“By chops,” he said to Bass, “that was a burn I got. I thought once I couldn’t stand the pain any longer. Such pain I had! Such pain! By chops! I will never forget it.”

“By chops,” he said to Bass, “that was a burn I got. I thought I wouldn’t be able to handle the pain any longer. The pain was unbearable! Such pain! By chops! I will never forget it.”

He related just how the accident had occurred, and said that he did not know whether he would ever be able to use his hands again. The thumb on his right hand and the first two fingers on the left had been burned to the bone. The latter had been amputated at the first joint—the thumb he might save, but his hands would be in danger of being stiff.

He described exactly how the accident happened and mentioned that he wasn’t sure if he would ever be able to use his hands again. The thumb on his right hand and the first two fingers on his left had been burned to the bone. The latter was amputated at the first joint—the thumb might be salvageable, but his hands were at risk of becoming stiff.

“By chops!” he added, “just at the time when I needed the money most. Too bad! Too bad!”

“By chops!” he added, “right when I needed the money the most. What a shame! What a shame!”

When they reached the house, and Mrs. Gerhardt opened the door, the old mill-worker, conscious of her voiceless sympathy, began to cry. Mrs. Gerhardt sobbed also. Even Bass lost control of himself for a moment or two, but quickly recovered. The other children wept, until Bass called a halt on all of them.

When they got to the house and Mrs. Gerhardt opened the door, the elderly mill worker, feeling the silent support from her, started to cry. Mrs. Gerhardt cried too. Even Bass lost it for a minute or two, but quickly pulled himself together. The other kids were in tears until Bass told them to stop.

“Don’t cry now,” he said cheeringly. “What’s the use of crying? It isn’t so bad as all that. You’ll be all right again. We can get along.”

“Don’t cry now,” he said encouragingly. “What’s the point of crying? It’s not as bad as all that. You’ll be okay again. We can manage.”

Bass’s words had a soothing effect, temporarily, and, now that her husband was home, Mrs. Gerhardt recovered her composure. Though his hands were bandaged, the mere fact that he could walk and was not otherwise injured was some consolation. He might recover the use of his hands and be able to undertake light work again. Anyway, they would hope for the best.

Bass's words were calming for a moment, and now that her husband was back, Mrs. Gerhardt regained her composure. Even though his hands were bandaged, just knowing he could walk and wasn't seriously hurt was a bit of comfort. He might regain the use of his hands and be able to do some light work again. Either way, they would stay hopeful.

When Jennie came home that night she wanted to run to her father and lay the treasury of her services and affection at his feet, but she trembled lest he might be as cold to her as formerly.

When Jennie came home that night, she wanted to run to her father and show him all her love and support, but she was anxious he might be as distant from her as he had been before.

Gerhardt, too, was troubled. Never had he completely recovered from the shame which his daughter had brought upon him. Although he wanted to be kindly, his feelings were so tangled that he hardly knew what to say or do.

Gerhardt was also troubled. He had never fully gotten over the shame his daughter had caused him. Even though he wanted to be compassionate, his emotions were so confused that he barely knew how to act or what to say.

“Papa,” said Jennie, approaching him timidly.

“Dad,” said Jennie, walking up to him nervously.

Gerhardt looked confused and tried to say something natural, but it was unavailing. The thought of his helplessness, the knowledge of her sorrow and of his own responsiveness to her affection—it was all too much for him; he broke down again and cried helplessly.

Gerhardt looked confused and tried to say something natural, but it didn’t work. The thought of his helplessness, knowing her sorrow and feeling his own response to her affection—it was all too much for him; he broke down again and cried helplessly.

“Forgive me, papa,” she pleaded, “I’m so sorry. Oh, I’m so sorry.”

“Please forgive me, Dad,” she begged, “I’m really sorry. Oh, I’m so sorry.”

He did not attempt to look at her, but in the swirl of feeling that their meeting created he thought that he could forgive, and he did.

He didn't try to look at her, but in the mix of emotions that their meeting stirred up, he felt he could forgive, and he did.

“I have prayed,” he said brokenly. “It is all right.”

“I’ve prayed,” he said with a shaky voice. “It’s okay.”

When he recovered himself he felt ashamed of his emotion, but a new relationship of sympathy and of understanding had been established. From that time, although there was always a great reserve between them, Gerhardt tried not to ignore her completely, and she endeavored to show him the simple affection of a daughter, just as in the old days.

When he regained his composure, he felt embarrassed about his emotions, but a new bond of sympathy and understanding had formed. From that point on, even though there was always a strong sense of distance between them, Gerhardt made an effort not to completely overlook her, and she tried to express the uncomplicated love of a daughter, just like in the past.

But while the household was again at peace, there were other cares and burdens to be faced. How were they to get along now with five dollars taken from the weekly budget, and with the cost of Gerhardt’s presence added? Bass might have contributed more of his weekly earnings, but he did not feel called upon to do it. And so the small sum of nine dollars weekly must meet as best it could the current expenses of rent, food, and coal, to say nothing of incidentals, which now began to press very heavily. Gerhardt had to go to a doctor to have his hands dressed daily. George needed a new pair of shoes. Either more money must come from some source or the family must beg for credit and suffer the old tortures of want. The situation crystallized the half-formed resolve in Jennie’s mind.

But while the household was peaceful again, there were more worries and burdens to face. How were they supposed to manage with five dollars taken from the weekly budget, plus the added cost of Gerhardt being there? Bass could have contributed more of his weekly earnings, but he didn’t feel obligated to do so. So the meager sum of nine dollars a week had to cover the usual expenses of rent, food, and coal, not to mention the miscellaneous costs that were starting to weigh heavily. Gerhardt had to see a doctor daily to get his hands treated. George needed new shoes. Either they needed to find more money from somewhere or the family had to ask for credit and endure the familiar struggles of poverty. The situation brought Jennie’s half-formed resolve into focus.

Lester’s letter had been left unanswered. The day was drawing near. Should she write? He would help them. Had he not tried to force money on her? She finally decided that it was her duty to avail herself of this proffered assistance. She sat down and wrote him a brief note. She would meet him as he had requested, but he would please not come to the house. She mailed the letter, and then waited, with mingled feelings of trepidation and thrilling expectancy, the arrival of the fateful day.

Lester’s letter had gone unanswered. The day was approaching. Should she write? He would help them. Hadn’t he tried to give her money? She finally decided that it was her responsibility to take advantage of this offered help. She sat down and wrote him a short note. She would meet him as he asked, but he shouldn’t come to the house. She mailed the letter and then waited, feeling a mix of anxiety and exciting anticipation, for the arrival of the important day.

CHAPTER XXII

The fatal Friday came, and Jennie stood face to face with this new and overwhelming complication in her modest scheme of existence. There was really no alternative, she thought. Her own life was a failure. Why go on fighting? If she could make her family happy, if she could give Vesta a good education, if she could conceal the true nature of this older story and keep Vesta in the background perhaps, perhaps—well, rich men had married poor girls before this, and Lester was very kind, he certainly liked her. At seven o’clock she went to Mrs. Bracebridge’s; at noon she excused herself on the pretext of some work for her mother and left the house for the hotel.

The fateful Friday arrived, and Jennie found herself confronting this new and overwhelming complication in her simple life. She felt there really was no other choice. Her life felt like a failure. Why keep fighting? If she could make her family happy, if she could give Vesta a good education, if she could hide the truth about that older story and keep Vesta out of the spotlight, then maybe—just maybe—rich men had married poor girls before, and Lester was very nice; he definitely liked her. At seven o'clock, she headed to Mrs. Bracebridge’s; at noon, she made an excuse about needing to do some work for her mother and left the house for the hotel.

Lester, leaving Cincinnati a few days earlier than he expected, had failed to receive her reply; he arrived at Cleveland feeling sadly out of tune with the world. He had a lingering hope that a letter from Jennie might be awaiting him at the hotel, but there was no word from her. He was a man not easily wrought up, but to-night he felt depressed, and so went gloomily up to his room and changed his linen. After supper he proceeded to drown his dissatisfaction in a game of billiards with some friends, from whom he did not part until he had taken very much more than his usual amount of alcoholic stimulant. The next morning he arose with a vague idea of abandoning the whole affair, but as the hours elapsed and the time of his appointment drew near he decided that it might not be unwise to give her one last chance. She might come. Accordingly, when it still lacked a quarter of an hour of the time, he went down into the parlor. Great was his delight when he beheld her sitting in a chair and waiting—the outcome of her acquiescence. He walked briskly up, a satisfied, gratified smile on his face.

Lester left Cincinnati a few days earlier than he had planned and hadn’t received her reply. He arrived in Cleveland feeling really out of sync with everything. He held on to the hope that a letter from Jennie might be waiting for him at the hotel, but there was nothing from her. He wasn’t a person who got easily worked up, but tonight he felt down, so he gloomily went up to his room and changed his sheets. After dinner, he tried to drown his dissatisfaction in a game of billiards with some friends, and he didn't leave until he had had quite a bit more to drink than usual. The next morning, he woke up with a vague idea of just walking away from it all, but as the hours passed and his appointment time approached, he decided it wouldn’t hurt to give her one last chance. She might show up. So, with still fifteen minutes to go, he went down to the parlor. He was thrilled to see her sitting in a chair and waiting—the result of her consent. He walked over with a satisfied, pleased smile on his face.

“So you did come after all,” he said, gazing at her with the look of one who has lost and recovered a prize. “What do you mean by not writing me? I thought from the way you neglected me that you had made up your mind not to come at all.”

“So you did come after all,” he said, looking at her like someone who has lost and found a treasure. “What do you mean by not writing to me? I thought from how you ignored me that you had decided not to come at all.”

“I did write,” she replied.

"I wrote," she replied.

“Where?”

"Where at?"

“To the address you gave me. I wrote three days ago.”

“To the address you provided. I wrote three days ago.”

“That explains it. It came too late. You should have written me before. How have you been?”

"That makes sense. It arrived too late. You should have written to me earlier. How have you been?"

“Oh, all right,” she replied.

“Okay,” she replied.

“You don’t look it!” he said. “You look worried. What’s the trouble, Jennie? Nothing gone wrong out at your house, has there?”

“You don’t look it!” he said. “You look worried. What’s going on, Jennie? Is there something wrong at your place?”

It was a fortuitous question. He hardly knew why he had asked it. Yet it opened the door to what she wanted to say.

It was a lucky question. He barely understood why he had asked it. But it allowed her to express what she wanted to say.

“My father’s sick,” she replied.

"My dad's sick," she replied.

“What’s happened to him?”

"What's happened to him?"

“He burned his hands at the glass-works. We’ve been terribly worried. It looks as though he would not be able to use them any more.”

“He burned his hands at the glass factory. We’ve been really worried. It seems like he won’t be able to use them anymore.”

She paused, looking the distress she felt, and he saw plainly that she was facing a crisis.

She paused, showing the distress she felt, and he could clearly see that she was going through a crisis.

“That’s too bad,” he said. “That certainly is. When did this happen?”

“That’s a shame,” he said. “It really is. When did this happen?”

“Oh, almost three weeks ago now.”

“Oh, nearly three weeks ago now.”

“It certainly is bad. Come in to lunch, though. I want to talk with you. I’ve been wanting to get a better understanding of your family affairs ever since I left.” He led the way into the dining-room and selected a secluded table. He tried to divert her mind by asking her to order the luncheon, but she was too worried and too shy to do so and he had to make out the menu by himself. Then he turned to her with a cheering air. “Now, Jennie,” he said, “I want you to tell me all about your family. I got a little something of it last time, but I want to get it straight. Your father, you said, was a glass-blower by trade. Now he can’t work any more at that, that’s obvious.”

“It’s definitely not good. Come have lunch, though. I want to talk to you. I’ve been wanting to get a clearer picture of your family situation ever since I left.” He led her into the dining room and chose a quiet table. He tried to take her mind off things by asking her to order lunch, but she was too anxious and too shy to do it, so he had to navigate the menu on his own. Then he turned to her with an encouraging expression. “Now, Jennie,” he said, “I want you to tell me everything about your family. I got a little bit of information last time, but I want to understand it better. You mentioned your father was a glassblower by trade. Now that he can't work in that anymore, that's clear.”

“Yes,” she said.

“Yes,” she replied.

“How many other children are there?”

“How many other kids are there?”

“Six.”

"Six."

“Are you the oldest?”

"Are you the oldest child?"

“No, my brother Sebastian is. He’s twenty-two.”

“No, my brother Sebastian is. He’s 22.”

“And what does he do?”

"And what does he do now?"

“He’s a clerk in a cigar store.”

"He's a sales associate in a cigar shop."

“Do you know how much he makes?”

“Do you know how much he earns?”

“I think it’s twelve dollars,” she replied thoughtfully.

"I think it's twelve bucks," she replied thoughtfully.

“And the other children?”

“And what about the other kids?”

“Martha and Veronica don’t do anything yet. They’re too young. My brother George works at Wilson’s. He’s a cash-boy. He gets three dollars and a half.”

“Martha and Veronica aren’t doing anything yet. They’re too young. My brother George works at Wilson’s. He’s a cashier. He makes three and a half dollars.”

“And how much do you make?”

“And how much do you earn?”

“I make four.”

"I earn four."

He stopped, figuring up mentally just what they had to live on. “How much rent do you pay?” he continued.

He paused, mentally calculating what they had to live on. “How much is your rent?” he asked.

“Twelve dollars.”

"$12."

“How old is your mother?”

“How old is your mom?”

“She’s nearly fifty now.”

"She's almost fifty now."

He turned a fork in his hands back and forth; he was thinking earnestly.

He turned a fork in his hands back and forth; he was deep in thought.

“To tell you the honest truth, I fancied it was something like that, Jennie,” he said. “I’ve been thinking about you a lot. Now, I know. There’s only one answer to your problem, and it isn’t such a bad one, if you’ll only believe me.” He paused for an inquiry, but she made none. Her mind was running on her own difficulties.

“To be completely honest, I thought it was something like that, Jennie,” he said. “I’ve been thinking about you a lot. Now I get it. There’s only one solution to your problem, and it’s not that bad, if you’d just believe me.” He paused for a question, but she didn’t ask any. Her mind was focused on her own issues.

“Don’t you want to know?” he inquired.

“Don’t you want to know?” he asked.

“Yes,” she answered mechanically.

“Yes,” she replied flatly.

“It’s me,” he replied. “You have to let me help you. I wanted to last time. Now you have to; do you hear?”

“It’s me,” he said. “You need to let me help you. I wanted to last time. Now you have to; do you understand?”

“I thought I wouldn’t,” she said simply.

“I thought I wouldn’t,” she said plainly.

“I knew what you thought,” he replied. “That’s all over now. I’m going to ’tend to that family of yours. And I’ll do it right now while I think of it.”

“I knew what you were thinking,” he replied. “That’s all in the past now. I’m going to take care of your family. And I’ll do it right now while it’s on my mind.”

He drew out his purse and extracted several ten and twenty-dollar bills—two hundred and fifty dollars in all. “I want you to take this,” he said. “It’s just the beginning. I will see that your family is provided for from now on. Here, give me your hand.”

He pulled out his wallet and took out several ten and twenty-dollar bills—two hundred and fifty dollars altogether. “I want you to take this,” he said. “It’s just the start. I’ll make sure your family is taken care of from now on. Here, shake my hand.”

“Oh no,” she said. “Not so much. Don’t give me all that.”

“Oh no,” she said. “Not that much. Don’t load me up with all that.”

“Yes,” he replied. “Don’t argue. Here. Give me your hand.”

“Yeah,” he said. “Don’t fight it. Here. Give me your hand.”

She put it out in answer to the summons of his eyes, and he shut her fingers on the money, pressing them gently at the same time. “I want you to have it, sweet. I love you, little girl. I’m not going to see you suffer, nor any one belonging to you.”

She responded to the call of his eyes and he wrapped her fingers around the money, pressing them gently at the same time. “I want you to have it, sweet. I love you, little girl. I won’t let you suffer, or anyone who belongs to you.”

Her eyes looked a dumb thankfulness, and she bit her lips.

Her eyes showed a clueless gratitude, and she bit her lips.

“I don’t know how to thank you,” she said.

“I don’t know how to thank you,” she said.

“You don’t need to,” he replied. “The thanks are all the other way—believe me.”

“You don’t have to,” he said. “The thanks go the other way—trust me.”

He paused and looked at her, the beauty of her face holding him. She looked at the table, wondering what would come next.

He paused and looked at her, captivated by her beauty. She glanced at the table, curious about what would happen next.

“How would you like to leave what you’re doing and stay at home?” he asked. “That would give you your freedom day times.”

“How would you feel about leaving what you're doing and staying home?” he asked. “That would give you your freedom during the day.”

“I couldn’t do that,” she replied. “Papa wouldn’t allow it. He knows I ought to work.”

“I can’t do that,” she said. “Dad wouldn’t let me. He knows I should be working.”

“That’s true enough,” he said. “But there’s so little in what you’re doing. Good heavens! Four dollars a week! I would be glad to give you fifty times that sum if I thought there was any way in which you could use it.” He idly thrummed the cloth with his fingers.

“That’s true enough,” he said. “But there’s not much to what you’re doing. Good grief! Four dollars a week! I’d be happy to give you fifty times that amount if I thought there was any way you could use it.” He absentmindedly tapped the cloth with his fingers.

“I couldn’t,” she said. “I hardly know how to use this. They’ll suspect. I’ll have to tell mamma.”

“I couldn’t,” she said. “I barely know how to use this. They’ll suspect. I’ll have to tell Mom.”

From the way she said it he judged there must be some bond of sympathy between her and her mother which would permit of a confidence such as this. He was by no means a hard man, and the thought touched him. But he would not relinquish his purpose.

From the way she said it, he figured there had to be some kind of connection between her and her mother that allowed for a trust like this. He wasn’t a cold person, and the thought moved him. But he wasn’t going to give up on his goal.

“There’s only one thing to be done, as far as I can see,” he went on very gently. “You’re not suited for the kind of work you’re doing. You’re too refined. I object to it. Give it up and come with me down to New York; I’ll take good care of you. I love you and want you. As far as your family is concerned, you won’t have to worry about them any more. You can take a nice home for them and furnish it in any style you please. Wouldn’t you like that?”

“There’s only one thing to do, as far as I can see,” he continued softly. “You’re not cut out for the kind of work you’re doing. You’re too refined for it. I don’t like it. Quit and come with me to New York; I’ll take good care of you. I love you and I want you. As for your family, you won’t need to worry about them anymore. You can get them a nice place and decorate it however you want. Wouldn’t you like that?”

He paused, and Jennie’s thoughts reverted quickly to her mother, her dear mother. All her life long Mrs. Gerhardt had been talking of this very thing—a nice home. If they could just have a larger house, with good furniture and a yard filled with trees, how happy she would be. In such a home she would be free of the care of rent, the discomfort of poor furniture, the wretchedness of poverty; she would be so happy. She hesitated there while his keen eye followed her in spirit, and he saw what a power he had set in motion. It had been a happy inspiration—the suggestion of a decent home for the family. He waited a few minutes longer, and then said:

He paused, and Jennie’s thoughts quickly turned back to her mother, her beloved mother. Throughout her life, Mrs. Gerhardt had always talked about this very thing—a nice home. If they could just have a bigger house, with nice furniture and a yard full of trees, how happy she would be. In such a home, she would be free from worrying about rent, the discomfort of shabby furniture, and the misery of being poor; she would be so happy. She hesitated there while his sharp eye followed her in spirit, and he realized the power he had unleashed. It had been a brilliant idea—the suggestion of a decent home for the family. He waited a few more minutes, and then said:

“Well, wouldn’t you better let me do that?”

“Well, wouldn’t it be better if I did that?”

“It would be very nice,” she said, “but it can’t be done now. I couldn’t leave home. Papa would want to know all about where I was going. I wouldn’t know what to say.”

“It would be really nice,” she said, “but it can’t happen right now. I can’t leave home. Dad would want to know all about where I’m going. I wouldn’t know what to say.”

“Why couldn’t you pretend that you are going down to New York with Mrs. Bracebridge?” he suggested. “There couldn’t be any objection to that, could there?”

“Why couldn’t you fake going to New York with Mrs. Bracebridge?” he suggested. “There wouldn’t be any issue with that, right?”

“Not if they didn’t find out,” she said, her eyes opening in amazement. “But if they should!”

“Not if they didn’t find out,” she said, her eyes wide in amazement. “But what if they do?”

“They won’t,” he replied calmly. “They’re not watching Mrs. Bracebridge’s affairs. Plenty of mistresses take their maids on long trips. Why not simply tell them you’re invited to go—have to go—and then go?”

“They won’t,” he replied calmly. “They’re not keeping an eye on Mrs. Bracebridge’s business. Many mistresses take their maids on long trips. Why not just tell them you’re invited to go—need to go—and then go?”

“Do you think I could?” she inquired.

“Do you think I could?” she asked.

“Certainly,” he replied. “What is there peculiar about that?”

“Of course,” he said. “What’s so strange about that?”

She thought it over, and the plan did seem feasible. Then she looked at this man and realized that relationship with him meant possible motherhood for her again. The tragedy of giving birth to a child—ah, she could not go through that a second time, at least under the same conditions. She could not bring herself to tell him about Vesta, but she must voice this insurmountable objection.

She thought about it, and the plan actually seemed doable. Then she looked at this man and realized that being with him could mean becoming a mother again. The pain of giving birth to a child—oh, she couldn’t face that a second time, not under the same circumstances. She couldn't bring herself to tell him about Vesta, but she needed to express this huge concern.

“I—” she said, formulating the first word of her sentence, and then stopping.

“I—” she said, trying to form the first word of her sentence, and then paused.

“Yes,” he said. “I—what?”

“Yes,” he said. “I—what’s happening?”

“I—” She paused again.

“I—” She hesitated again.

He loved her shy ways, her sweet, hesitating lips.

He loved her shy demeanor, her sweet, uncertain lips.

“What is it, Jennie?” he asked helpfully. “You’re so delicious. Can’t you tell me?”

“What’s wrong, Jennie?” he asked kindly. “You’re so intriguing. Can’t you share?”

Her hand was on the table. He reached over and laid his strong brown one on top of it.

Her hand was on the table. He reached over and placed his strong brown hand on top of it.

“I couldn’t have a baby,” she said, finally, and looked down.

“I couldn’t have a baby,” she said at last, looking down.

He gazed at her, and the charm of her frankness, her innate decency under conditions so anomalous, her simple unaffected recognition of the primal facts of life lifted her to a plane in his esteem which she had not occupied until that moment.

He looked at her, and the appeal of her honesty, her natural goodness in such strange circumstances, and her straightforward acknowledgment of life's basic truths raised her to a level in his regard that she had not reached until that moment.

“You’re a great girl, Jennie,” he said. “You’re wonderful. But don’t worry about that. It can be arranged. You don’t need to have a child unless you want to, and I don’t want you to.”

“You’re an amazing girl, Jennie,” he said. “You’re wonderful. But don’t stress about that. It can be sorted out. You don’t have to have a child unless you want to, and I don’t want you to.”

He saw the question written in her wondering, shamed face.

He saw the question written on her curious, embarrassed face.

“It’s so,” he said. “You believe me, don’t you? You think I know, don’t you?”

“It is,” he said. “You believe me, right? You think I know, don’t you?”

“Yes,” she faltered.

“Yes,” she hesitated.

“Well, I do. But anyway, I wouldn’t let any trouble come to you. I’ll take you away. Besides, I don’t want any children. There wouldn’t be any satisfaction in that proposition for me at this time. I’d rather wait. But there won’t be—don’t worry.”

“Well, I do. But anyway, I wouldn’t let anything bad happen to you. I’ll take you away. Plus, I don’t want any kids. There’s no satisfaction in that for me right now. I’d rather wait. But don’t worry—there won’t be any.”

“Yes,” she said faintly. Not for worlds could she have met his eyes.

“Yes,” she said softly. She couldn't have met his gaze for anything in the world.

“Look here, Jennie,” he said, after a time. “You care for me, don’t you? You don’t think I’d sit here and plead with you if I didn’t care for you? I’m crazy about you, and that’s the literal truth. You’re like wine to me. I want you to come with me. I want you to do it quickly. I know how difficult this family business is, but you can arrange it. Come with me down to New York. We’ll work out something later. I’ll meet your family. We’ll pretend a courtship, anything you like—only come now.”

“Listen, Jennie,” he said after a while. “You care about me, right? You don't think I'd be sitting here begging if I didn’t care? I'm really into you, and that’s the honest truth. You’re like a fine wine to me. I want you to come with me. I want you to do it soon. I know this family situation is tough, but you can handle it. Come with me to New York. We’ll figure things out later. I’ll meet your family. We can pretend we’re dating, whatever you want—just come now.”

“You don’t mean right away, do you?” she asked, startled.

“You don’t mean immediately, do you?” she asked, startled.

“Yes, to-morrow if possible. Monday sure. You can arrange it. Why, if Mrs. Bracebridge asked you you’d go fast enough, and no one would think anything about it. Isn’t that so?”

“Yes, tomorrow if we can. Definitely Monday. You can make it happen. Honestly, if Mrs. Bracebridge invited you, you’d jump at the chance, and no one would think twice about it. Right?”

“Yes,” she admitted slowly.

“Yeah,” she admitted slowly.

“Well, then, why not now?”

"Well, why not now?"

“It’s always so much harder to work out a falsehood,” she replied thoughtfully.

“It’s always so much harder to figure out a lie,” she replied thoughtfully.

“I know it, but you can come. Won’t you?”

“I know it, but you can still come. Will you?”

“Won’t you wait a little while?” she pleaded. “It’s so very sudden. I’m afraid.”

“Can you wait a bit?” she begged. “It’s just so sudden. I’m scared.”

“Not a day, sweet, that I can help. Can’t you see how I feel? Look in my eyes. Will you?”

“Not a day, sweet, that I can help. Can’t you see how I feel? Look into my eyes. Will you?”

“Yes,” she replied sorrowfully, and yet with a strange thrill of affection. “I will.”

“Yeah,” she answered sadly, but there was a strange rush of warmth. “I will.”

CHAPTER XXIII

The business of arranging for this sudden departure was really not so difficult as it first appeared. Jennie proposed to tell her mother the whole truth, and there was nothing to say to her father except that she was going with Mrs. Bracebridge at the latter’s request. He might question her, but he really could not doubt Before going home that afternoon she accompanied Lester to a department store, where she was fitted out with a trunk, a suit-case, and a traveling suit and hat. Lester was very proud of his prize. “When we get to New York I am going to get you some real things,” he told her. “I am going to show you what you can be made to look like.” He had all the purchased articles packed in the trunk and sent to his hotel. Then he arranged to have Jennie come there and dress Monday for the trip which began in the afternoon.

The process of organizing this sudden departure turned out to be easier than it initially seemed. Jennie decided to tell her mother the whole truth, and there wasn't much to tell her father except that she was going with Mrs. Bracebridge at her request. He might ask her questions, but he really couldn't doubt her. Before heading home that afternoon, she went with Lester to a department store, where she got a trunk, a suitcase, and a traveling suit and hat. Lester was very proud of his catch. “When we get to New York, I’m going to get you some real clothes,” he told her. “I’m going to show you how amazing you can look.” He packed all the purchased items in the trunk and sent them to his hotel. Then he made arrangements for Jennie to come there and get ready on Monday for the trip, which started in the afternoon.

When she came home Mrs. Gerhardt, who was in the kitchen, received her with her usual affectionate greeting. “Have you been working very hard?” she asked. “You look tired.”

When she got home, Mrs. Gerhardt, who was in the kitchen, welcomed her with her usual warm greeting. “Have you been working really hard?” she asked. “You look exhausted.”

“No,” she said, “I’m not tired. It isn’t that. I just don’t feel good.”

“No,” she said, “I’m not tired. It’s not that. I just don’t feel well.”

“What’s the trouble?”

"What's the problem?"

“Oh, I have to tell you something, mamma. It’s so hard.” She paused, looking inquiringly at her mother, and then away.

“Oh, I need to tell you something, Mom. It’s really difficult.” She paused, glancing questioningly at her mother, then looking away.

“Why, what is it?” asked her mother nervously. So many things had happened in the past that she was always on the alert for some new calamity. “You haven’t lost your place, have you?”

“Why, what is it?” her mother asked anxiously. So much had happened in the past that she was always on the lookout for another disaster. “You haven’t lost your spot, have you?”

“No,” replied Jennie, with an effort to maintain her mental poise, “but I’m going to leave it.”

“No,” Jennie replied, making an effort to stay calm, “but I’m going to walk away from it.”

“No!” exclaimed her mother. “Why?”

“No!” her mother exclaimed. “Why?”

“I’m going to New York.”

“I’m heading to NYC.”

Her mother’s eyes opened widely. “Why, when did you decide to do that?” she inquired.

Her mother's eyes widened. "Wait, when did you decide to do that?" she asked.

“To-day.”

“Today.”

“You don’t mean it!”

"You can't be serious!"

“Yes, I do, mamma. Listen. I’ve got something I want to tell you. You know how poor we are. There isn’t any way we can make things come out right. I have found some one who wants to help us. He says he loves me, and he wants me to go to New York with him Monday. I’ve decided to go.”

“Yes, I do, Mom. Listen. I have something I want to tell you. You know how broke we are. There’s no way we can make things work out. I found someone who wants to help us. He says he loves me, and he wants me to go to New York with him on Monday. I’ve decided to go.”

“Oh, Jennie!” exclaimed her mother. “Surely not! You wouldn’t do anything like that after all that’s happened. Think of your father.”

“Oh, Jennie!” her mother exclaimed. “No way! You wouldn’t do anything like that after everything that’s happened. Think about your father.”

“I’ve thought it all out,” went on Jennie, firmly. “It’s really for the best. He’s a good man. I know he is. He has lots of money. He wants me to go with him, and I’d better go. He will take a new house for us when we come back and help us to get along. No one will ever have me as a wife—you know that. It might as well be this way. He loves me. And I love him. Why shouldn’t I go?”

“I’ve thought it all through,” Jennie said confidently. “It’s really for the best. He’s a good guy. I know he is. He has plenty of money. He wants me to be with him, and I should just go. He’ll get us a new house when we come back and help us make things work. No one else would ever want me as a wife—you know that. It might as well be this way. He loves me. And I love him. Why shouldn’t I go?”

“Does he know about Vesta?” asked her mother cautiously.

“Does he know about Vesta?” her mother asked carefully.

“No,” said Jennie guiltily. “I thought I’d better not tell him about her. She oughtn’t to be brought into it if I can help it.”

“No,” Jennie said, feeling guilty. “I thought it would be best not to mention her. She shouldn’t be involved in this if I can avoid it.”

“I’m afraid you’re storing up trouble for yourself, Jennie,” said her mother. “Don’t you think he is sure to find it out some time?”

“I’m worried you’re setting yourself up for trouble, Jennie,” her mother said. “Don’t you think he’s bound to discover it eventually?”

“I thought maybe that she could be kept here,” suggested Jennie, “until she’s old enough to go to school. Then maybe I could send her somewhere.”

“I thought maybe we could keep her here,” Jennie suggested, “until she’s old enough to go to school. Then maybe I could send her somewhere.”

“She might,” assented her mother; “but don’t you think it would be better to tell him now? He won’t think any the worse of you.”

“She might,” agreed her mother; “but don’t you think it would be better to tell him now? He won’t think any less of you.”

“It isn’t that. It’s her,” said Jennie passionately. “I don’t want her to be brought into it.”

“It’s not that. It’s her,” Jennie said passionately. “I don’t want her to be involved.”

Her mother shook her head. “Where did you meet him?” she inquired.

Her mom shook her head. “Where did you meet him?” she asked.

“At Mrs. Bracebridge’s.”

"At Mrs. Bracebridge's house."

“How long ago?”

"When was that?"

“Oh, it’s been almost two months now.”

“Oh, it’s been nearly two months now.”

“And you never said anything about him,” protested Mrs. Gerhardt reproachfully.

“And you never said anything about him,” Mrs. Gerhardt said with a hint of reproach.

“I didn’t know that he cared for me this way,” said Jennie defensively.

“I didn’t realize he cared for me like this,” Jennie said defensively.

“Why didn’t you wait and let him come out here first?” asked her mother. “It will make things so much easier. You can’t go and not have your father find out.”

“Why didn’t you wait and let him come out here first?” her mother asked. “It will make things so much easier. You can’t go and not have your father find out.”

“I thought I’d say I was going with Mrs. Bracebridge. Papa can’t object to my going with her.”

“I figured I’d say I was going with Mrs. Bracebridge. Dad can’t object to me going with her.”

“No,” agreed her mother thoughtfully.

“No,” her mother agreed thoughtfully.

The two looked at each other in silence. Mrs. Gerhardt, with her imaginative nature, endeavored to formulate some picture of this new and wonderful personality that had come into Jennie’s life. He was wealthy; he wanted to take Jennie; he wanted to give them a good home. What a story!

The two stared at each other quietly. Mrs. Gerhardt, with her vivid imagination, tried to create an image of this new and amazing person who had entered Jennie’s life. He was rich; he wanted to be with Jennie; he wanted to give them a nice home. What a story!

“And he gave me this,” put in Jennie, who, with some instinctive psychic faculty, had been following her mother’s mood. She opened her dress at the neck, and took out the two hundred and fifty dollars; she placed the money in her mother’s hands.

“And he gave me this,” Jennie said, sensing her mother’s mood. She opened her dress at the neck and pulled out the two hundred and fifty dollars, placing the money in her mother’s hands.

The latter stared at it wide-eyed. Here was the relief for all her woes—food, clothes, rent, coal—all done up in one small package of green and yellow bills. If there were plenty of money in the house Gerhardt need not worry about his burned hands; George and Martha and Veronica could be clothed in comfort and made happy.

The latter stared at it in shock. Here was the solution for all her problems—food, clothes, rent, coal—packed into one small bundle of green and yellow bills. If there was enough money in the house, Gerhardt wouldn’t need to worry about his burned hands; George, Martha, and Veronica could be comfortably dressed and made happy.

Jennie could dress better; there would be a future education for Vesta.

Jennie could dress better; Vesta would have educational opportunities in the future.

“Do you think he might ever want to marry you?” asked her mother finally.

“Do you think he might ever want to marry you?” her mother finally asked.

“I don’t know,” replied Jennie “he might. I know he loves me.”

“I don’t know,” Jennie replied, “he might. I know he loves me.”

“Well,” said her mother after a long pause, “if you’re going to tell your father you’d better do it right away. He’ll think it’s strange as it is.”

“Well,” her mother said after a long pause, “if you’re going to tell your father, you should do it right away. He’ll think it’s weird as it is.”

Jennie realized that she had won. Her mother had acquiesced from sheer force of circumstances. She was sorry, but somehow it seemed to be for the best. “I’ll help you out with it,” her mother had concluded, with a little sigh.

Jennie realized she had won. Her mother had given in because of the circumstances. She felt sorry, but somehow it seemed like it was for the best. “I’ll help you with it,” her mother had said with a little sigh.

The difficulty of telling this lie was very great for Mrs. Gerhardt, but she went through the falsehood with a seeming nonchalance which allayed Gerhardt’s suspicions. The children were also told, and when, after the general discussion, Jennie repeated the falsehood to her father it seemed natural enough.

The challenge of telling this lie was really tough for Mrs. Gerhardt, but she managed to carry it off with an air of indifference that calmed Gerhardt’s doubts. The kids were also informed, and when, after the overall discussion, Jennie repeated the lie to her dad, it felt convincing enough.

“How long do you think you’ll be gone?” he inquired.

“How long do you think you’ll be away?” he asked.

“About two or three weeks,” she replied.

“About two or three weeks,” she said.

“That’s a nice trip,” he said. “I came through New York in 1844. It was a small place then compared to what it is now.”

“That’s a nice trip,” he said. “I went through New York in 1844. It was a small place back then compared to what it is now.”

Secretly he was pleased that Jennie should have this fine chance. Her employer must like her.

He was secretly happy that Jennie had this great opportunity. Her boss must really like her.

When Monday came Jennie bade her parents good-by and left early, going straight to the Dornton, where Lester awaited her.

When Monday arrived, Jennie said goodbye to her parents and left early, heading straight to the Dornton, where Lester was waiting for her.

“So you came,” he said gaily, greeting her as she entered the ladies’ parlor.

“So you made it,” he said cheerfully, welcoming her as she walked into the ladies' parlor.

“Yes,” she said simply.

“Yes,” she said.

“You are my niece,” he went on. “I have engaged H room for you near mine. I’ll call for the key, and you go dress. When you’re ready I’ll have the trunk sent to the depôt. The train leaves at one o’clock.”

“You're my niece,” he continued. “I’ve booked a room for you near mine. I’ll get the key, and you can go get dressed. When you’re ready, I’ll have the trunk sent to the station. The train leaves at one o’clock.”

She went to her room and dressed, while he fidgeted about, read, smoked, and finally knocked at her door.

She went to her room and got dressed, while he fidgeted around, read, smoked, and finally knocked on her door.

She replied by opening to him, fully clad.

She responded by revealing herself to him, completely dressed.

“You look charming,” he said with a smile.

“You look great,” he said with a smile.

She looked down, for she was nervous and distraught. The whole process of planning, lying, nerving herself to carry out her part had been hard on her. She looked tired and worried.

She looked down, feeling nervous and upset. The whole process of planning, lying, and getting herself ready to do her part had taken a toll on her. She appeared tired and anxious.

“Not grieving, are you?” he asked, seeing how things stood.

"You're not upset, are you?" he asked, noticing the situation.

“No-o,” she replied.

“No,” she replied.

“Come now, sweet. You mustn’t feel this way. It’s coming out all right.” He took her in his arms and kissed her, and they strolled down the hall. He was astonished to see how well she looked in even these simple clothes—the best she had ever had.

“Come on, sweetheart. You shouldn’t feel this way. It’s all going to turn out okay.” He wrapped his arms around her and kissed her, and they walked down the hall together. He was surprised at how great she looked in even these simple clothes—the best she had ever owned.

They reached the depôt after a short carriage ride. The accommodations had been arranged for before hand, and Kane had allowed just enough time to make the train. When they settled themselves in a Pullman state-room it was with a keen sense of satisfaction on his part. Life looked rosy. Jennie was beside him. He had succeeded in what he had started out to do. So might it always be.

They arrived at the depot after a short carriage ride. The arrangements had been made in advance, and Kane had timed everything perfectly to catch the train. As they got comfortable in a Pullman state room, he felt a strong sense of satisfaction. Life seemed great. Jennie was sitting next to him. He had accomplished what he had set out to do. May it always be this way.

As the train rolled out of the depôt and the long reaches of the fields succeeded Jennie studied them wistfully. There were the forests, leafless and bare; the wide, brown fields, wet with the rains of winter; the low farm-houses sitting amid flat stretches of prairie, their low roofs making them look as if they were hugging the ground. The train roared past little hamlets, with cottages of white and yellow and drab, their roofs blackened by frost and rain. Jennie noted one in particular which seemed to recall the old neighborhood where they used to live at Columbus; she put her handkerchief to her eyes and began silently to cry.

As the train pulled out of the station and the endless fields rolled by, Jennie looked at them with a sense of longing. There were the leafless forests; the broad, brown fields, soaked from the winter rains; the low farmhouses scattered across the flat prairie, their low roofs making them appear to be huddled close to the ground. The train sped past small towns, with cottages painted in white, yellow, and dull colors, their roofs darkened by frost and rain. Jennie spotted one in particular that reminded her of the old neighborhood they used to live in back in Columbus; she brought her handkerchief to her eyes and began to cry softly.

“I hope you’re not crying, are you, Jennie?” said

“I hope you’re not crying, are you, Jennie?” said

Lester, looking up suddenly from the letter he had been reading. “Come, come,” he went on as he saw a faint tremor shaking her. “This won’t do. You have to do better than this. You’ll never get along if you act that way.”

Lester suddenly looked up from the letter he had been reading. “Come on,” he said as he noticed a slight tremor in her. “This isn’t going to work. You need to do better than this. You won’t get by if you keep acting like that.”

She made no reply, and the depth of her silent grief filled him with strange sympathies.

She didn't say anything, and the intensity of her silent sorrow filled him with an unusual sense of empathy.

“Don’t cry,” he continued soothingly; “everything will be all right. I told you that. You needn’t worry about anything.”

“Don’t cry,” he continued in a calming voice; “everything will be fine. I told you that. You don’t need to worry about anything.”

Jennie made a great effort to recover herself, and began to dry her eyes.

Jennie worked hard to pull herself together and started drying her tears.

“You don’t want to give way like that,” he continued. “It doesn’t do you any good. I know how you feel about leaving home, but tears won’t help it any. It isn’t as if you were going away for good, you know. Besides, you’ll be going back shortly. You care for me, don’t you, sweet? I’m something?”

“You shouldn’t give in like that,” he said. “It won’t help you at all. I get how you feel about leaving home, but crying won’t change anything. It’s not like you’re leaving for good, you know. Plus, you’ll be back soon. You do care about me, right, sweet? I mean something to you?”

“Yes,” she said, and managed to smile back at him.

“Yes,” she said, managing to smile back at him.

Lester returned to his correspondence and Jennie fell to thinking of Vesta. It troubled her to realize that she was keeping this secret from one who was already very dear to her. She knew that she ought to tell Lester about the child, but she shrank from the painful necessity. Perhaps later on she might find the courage to do it.

Lester went back to his emails, and Jennie started thinking about Vesta. It bothered her to know she was keeping this secret from someone who was already very important to her. She understood that she should tell Lester about the child, but she hesitated at the thought of doing something so painful. Maybe later, she'd find the courage to go through with it.

“I’ll have to tell him something,” she thought with a sudden upwelling of feeling as regarded the seriousness of this duty. “If I don’t do it soon and I should go and live with him and he should find it out he would never forgive me. He might turn me out, and then where would I go? I have no home now. What would I do with Vesta?”

“I need to tell him something,” she thought, feeling a rush of emotions about how important this was. “If I don’t say it soon and I end up living with him and he finds out, he would never forgive me. He might kick me out, and then where would I go? I don’t have a home anymore. What would I do with Vesta?”

She turned to contemplate him, a premonitory wave of terror sweeping over her, but she only saw that imposing and comfort-loving soul quietly reading his letters, his smoothly shaved red cheek and comfortable head and body looking anything but militant or like an avenging Nemesis. She was just withdrawing her gaze when he looked up.

She turned to look at him, a wave of apprehension washing over her, but all she saw was that strong and comfort-seeking man quietly reading his letters, his smoothly shaven red cheek and relaxed body looking nothing like a soldier or a vengeful force. Just as she was pulling her gaze away, he looked up.

“Well, have you washed all your sins away?” he inquired merrily.

“Well, have you washed away all your sins?” he asked cheerfully.

She smiled faintly at the allusion. The touch of fact in it made it slightly piquant.

She smiled faintly at the reference. The hint of truth in it made it a bit amusing.

“I expect so,” she replied.

“I think so,” she replied.

He turned to some other topic, while she looked out of the window, the realization that one impulse to tell him had proved unavailing dwelling in her mind. “I’ll have to do it shortly,” she thought, and consoled herself with the idea that she would surely find courage before long.

He shifted to another topic while she gazed out the window, the thought that her desire to tell him had been unsuccessful lingering in her mind. “I’ll have to do it soon,” she thought, comforting herself with the belief that she would find the courage eventually.

Their arrival in New York the next day raised the important question in Lester’s mind as to where he should stop. New York was a very large place, and he was not in much danger of encountering people who would know him, but he thought it just as well not to take chances. Accordingly he had the cabman drive them to one of the more exclusive apartment hotels, where he engaged a suite of rooms; and they settled themselves for a stay of two or three weeks.

Their arrival in New York the next day raised an important question in Lester's mind about where he should stop. New York was a huge city, and he wasn't too worried about running into people who might know him, but he figured it was better not to take any chances. So, he had the cab driver take them to one of the fancier apartment hotels, where he booked a suite of rooms, and they got comfortable for a stay of two or three weeks.

This atmosphere into which Jennie was now plunged was so wonderful, so illuminating, that she could scarcely believe this was the same world that she had inhabited before. Kane was no lover of vulgar display. The appointments with which he surrounded himself were always simple and elegant. He knew at a glance what Jennie needed, and bought for her with discrimination and care. And Jennie, a woman, took a keen pleasure in the handsome gowns and pretty fripperies that he lavished upon her. Could this be really Jennie Gerhardt, the washerwoman’s daughter, she asked herself, as she gazed in her mirror at the figure of a girl clad in blue velvet, with yellow French lace at her throat and upon her arms? Could these be her feet, clad in soft shapely shoes at ten dollars a pair, these her hands adorned with flashing jewels? What wonderful good fortune she was enjoying! And Lester had promised that her mother would share in it. Tears sprang to her eyes at the thought. The dear mother, how she loved her!

This atmosphere that Jennie was now in was so amazing and enlightening that she could hardly believe it was the same world she had lived in before. Kane wasn’t a fan of flashy displays. The things he surrounded himself with were always simple and elegant. He could instantly tell what Jennie needed and bought it for her with careful thought. And Jennie, being a woman, took great pleasure in the beautiful gowns and lovely little things he showered on her. Could this really be Jennie Gerhardt, the daughter of a washerwoman? she wondered as she looked in the mirror at a girl dressed in blue velvet, with yellow French lace at her throat and on her arms. Could those be her feet in soft, stylish shoes costing ten dollars a pair, her hands adorned with sparkling jewels? What amazing luck she was having! And Lester had promised that her mother would share in it too. Tears filled her eyes at the thought. Oh, her dear mother, how she loved her!

It was Lester’s pleasure in these days to see what he could do to make her look like some one truly worthy of im. He exercised his most careful judgment, and the result surprised even himself. People turned in the halls, in the dining-rooms, and on the street to gaze at Jennie.

It was Lester’s pleasure these days to see what he could do to make her look like someone truly worthy of him. He used his best judgment, and the result even surprised him. People turned in the halls, in the dining rooms, and on the street to stare at Jennie.

“A stunning woman that man has with him,” was a frequent comment.

“A beautiful woman that guy has with him,” was a frequent comment.

Despite her altered state Jennie did not lose her judgment of life or her sense of perspective or proportion. She felt as though life were tentatively loaning her something which would be taken away after a time. There was no pretty vanity in her bosom. Lester realized this as he watched her. “You’re a big woman, in your way,” he said. “You’ll amount to something. Life hasn’t given you much of a deal up to now.”

Despite her changed condition, Jennie didn’t lose her grasp on life or her sense of perspective and balance. She felt like life was lending her something temporary that would eventually be taken back. There was no foolish vanity in her heart. Lester recognized this as he observed her. “You’re a strong woman in your own way,” he said. “You’re going to achieve something. Life hasn’t dealt you a great hand so far.”

He wondered how he could justify this new relationship to his family, should they chance to hear about it. If he should decide to take a home in Chicago or St. Louis (there was such a thought running in his mind) could he maintain it secretly? Did he want to? He was half persuaded that he really, truly loved her.

He wondered how he could explain this new relationship to his family if they happened to find out. If he decided to settle down in Chicago or St. Louis (that idea was on his mind), could he keep it a secret? Did he even want to? He was beginning to believe that he really, truly loved her.

As the time drew near for their return he began to counsel her as to her future course of action. “You ought to find some way of introducing me, as an acquaintance, to your father,” he said. “It will ease matters up. I think I’ll call. Then if you tell him you’re going to marry me he’ll think nothing of it.” Jennie thought of Vesta, and trembled inwardly. But perhaps her father could be induced to remain silent.

As the time for their return approached, he started advising her on what to do next. “You should find a way to introduce me as a friend to your dad,” he suggested. “That will make things easier. I think I’ll drop by. Then when you tell him you’re going to marry me, he won’t think twice about it.” Jennie thought of Vesta and felt a shiver inside. But maybe her dad would be convinced to stay quiet.

Lester had made the wise suggestion that she should retain the clothes she had worn in Cleveland in order that she might wear them home when she reached there. “There won’t be any trouble about this other stuff,” he said. “I’ll have it cared for until we make some other arrangement.” It was all very simple and easy; he was a master strategist.

Lester had wisely suggested that she keep the clothes she had worn in Cleveland so she could wear them home when she got there. “There won’t be any issue with the other stuff,” he said. “I’ll take care of it until we figure out another plan.” It was all very straightforward; he was a brilliant strategist.

Jennie had written her mother almost daily since she had been East. She had inclosed little separate notes to be read by Mrs. Gerhardt only. In one she explained Lester’s desire to call, and urged her mother to prepare the way by telling her father that she had met some one who liked her. She spoke of the difficulty concerning Vesta, and her mother at once began to plan a campaign to have Gerhardt hold his peace. There must be no hitch now. Jennie must be given an opportunity to better herself. When she returned there was great rejoicing. Of course she could not go back to her work, but Mrs. Gerhardt explained that Mrs. Bracebridge had given Jennie a few weeks’ vacation in order that she might look for something better, something at which she could make more money.

Jennie had written to her mother almost every day since she had been in the East. She had included small separate notes meant just for Mrs. Gerhardt. In one note, she explained Lester’s wish to come by and urged her mother to pave the way by letting her father know that she had met someone who liked her. She mentioned the issue with Vesta, and her mother immediately started to strategize on how to get Gerhardt to stay quiet. There had to be no complications now. Jennie needed the chance to improve her situation. When she returned, there was a big celebration. Of course, she couldn’t go back to her job, but Mrs. Gerhardt clarified that Mrs. Bracebridge had given Jennie a few weeks off to look for something better, something that would pay her more.

CHAPTER XXIV

The problem of the Gerhardt family and its relationship to himself comparatively settled, Kane betook himself to Cincinnati and to his business duties. He was heartily interested in the immense plant, which occupied two whole blocks in the outskirts of the city, and its conduct and development was as much a problem and a pleasure to him as to either his father or his brother. He liked to feel that he was a vital part of this great and growing industry. When he saw freight cars going by on the railroads labelled “The Kane Manufacturing Company—Cincinnati” or chanced to notice displays of the company’s products in the windows of carriage sales companies in the different cities he was conscious of a warm glow of satisfaction. It was something to be a factor in an institution so stable, so distinguished, so honestly worth while. This was all very well, but now Kane was entering upon a new phase of his personal existence—in a word, there was Jennie. He was conscious as he rode toward his home city that he was entering on a relationship which might involve disagreeable consequences. He was a little afraid of his father’s attitude; above all, there was his brother Robert.

The issue with the Gerhardt family and its connection to him was fairly resolved, so Kane turned his focus to Cincinnati and his work obligations. He was genuinely interested in the massive facility that took up two whole blocks on the outskirts of the city; managing and developing it was both a challenge and a pleasure for him, just like it was for his father and brother. He liked feeling that he played an essential role in this thriving industry. Whenever he saw freight cars passing by on the railways marked “The Kane Manufacturing Company—Cincinnati” or spotted the company's products displayed in the windows of carriage sales dealerships in various cities, he felt a warm sense of pride. Being part of such a stable, distinguished, and genuinely worthwhile institution was meaningful. However, Kane was now entering a new phase in his personal life—specifically, there was Jennie. As he rode toward his hometown, he realized he was stepping into a relationship that could lead to uncomfortable outcomes. He felt a bit nervous about his father’s reaction; most importantly, there was his brother Robert.

Robert was cold and conventional in character; an excellent business man; irreproachable in both his public and in his private life. Never overstepping the strict boundaries of legal righteousness, he was neither warm-hearted nor generous—in fact, he would turn any trick which could be speciously, or at best necessitously, recommended to his conscience. How he reasoned Lester did not know—he could not follow the ramifications of a logic which could combine hard business tactics with moral rigidity, but somehow his brother managed to do it. “He’s got a Scotch Presbyterian conscience mixed with an Asiatic perception of the main chance.” Lester once told somebody, and he had the situation accurately measured. Nevertheless he could not rout his brother from his positions nor defy him, for he had the public conscience with him. He was in line with convention practically, and perhaps sophisticatedly.

Robert was cold and conventional; a great businessman; beyond reproach in both his public and private life. He never crossed the strict boundaries of legal righteousness, and he wasn't warm-hearted or generous—in fact, he would take any action that could be cleverly, or at best, necessitously, justified to his conscience. Lester couldn’t understand how he reasoned—he couldn't follow the complicated logic that could combine tough business strategies with moral rigidity, but somehow his brother managed it. “He’s got a Scotch Presbyterian conscience mixed with an Asiatic sense of opportunity,” Lester once told someone, and he was spot on. Still, he couldn’t dislodge his brother from his stance nor stand up to him, because his brother had public opinion on his side. He was aligned with convention practically, and perhaps in a sophisticated way.

The two brothers were outwardly friendly; inwardly they were far apart. Robert liked Lester well enough personally, but he did not trust his financial judgment, and, temperamentally, they did not agree as to how life and its affairs should be conducted. Lester had a secret contempt for his brother’s chill, persistent chase of the almighty dollar. Robert was sure that Lester’s easy-going ways were reprehensible, and bound to create trouble sooner or later. In the business they did not quarrel much—there was not so much chance with the old gentleman still in charge—but there were certain minor differences constantly cropping up which showed which way the wind blew. Lester was for building up trade through friendly relationship, concessions, personal contact, and favors. Robert was for pulling everything tight, cutting down the cost of production, and offering such financial inducements as would throttle competition.

The two brothers appeared friendly on the surface, but deep down they were worlds apart. Robert liked Lester well enough as a person, but he didn’t trust his financial judgment, and they had different approaches to life and business. Lester secretly looked down on his brother’s cold, relentless pursuit of money. Robert believed that Lester’s laid-back attitude was unacceptable and would eventually lead to problems. In their business dealings, they didn’t argue much—there wasn’t much opportunity for that with their father still in charge—but there were constant minor disagreements that indicated which way things were headed. Lester believed in growing the business through friendly relationships, concessions, personal interactions, and favors. Robert was all about tightening everything up, reducing production costs, and providing financial incentives to crush the competition.

The old manufacturer always did his best to pour oil on these troubled waters, but he foresaw an eventual clash. One or the other would have to get out or perhaps both. “If only you two boys could agree!” he used to say.

The old manufacturer always did his best to ease the tension, but he anticipated a conflict down the line. One of them would have to leave, or maybe both. “If only you two could see eye to eye!” he used to say.

Another thing which disturbed Lester was his father’s attitude on the subject of marriage—Lester’s marriage, to be specific. Archibald Kane never ceased to insist on the fact that Lester ought to get married, and that he was making a big mistake in putting it off. All the other children, save Louise, were safely married. Why not his favorite son? It was doing him injury morally, socially, commercially, that he was sure of.

Another thing that bothered Lester was his father's views on marriage—specifically, Lester's marriage. Archibald Kane kept insisting that Lester needed to get married and that he was making a huge mistake by delaying it. All the other kids, except for Louise, were happily married. So why not his favorite son? He was convinced it was harming him morally, socially, and financially.

“The world expects it of a man in your position,” his father had argued from time to time. “It makes for social solidity and prestige. You ought to pick out a good woman and raise a family. Where will you be when you get to my time of life if you haven’t any children, any home?”

“The world expects that from a man in your position,” his father had said from time to time. “It creates social stability and respect. You should choose a good woman and start a family. Where will you be when you reach my age if you don’t have any kids or a home?”

“Well, if the right woman came along,” said Lester, “I suppose I’d marry her. But she hasn’t come along. What do you want me to do? Take anybody?”

“Well, if the right woman came along,” said Lester, “I guess I’d marry her. But she hasn’t shown up. What do you want me to do? Settle for anyone?”

“No, not anybody, of course, but there are lots of good women. You can surely find some one if you try. There’s that Pace girl. What about her? You used to like her. I wouldn’t drift on this way, Lester; it can’t come to any good.”

“Not just anyone, of course, but there are plenty of great women out there. You can definitely find someone if you put in the effort. What about that Pace girl? You used to like her. I wouldn’t just float through like this, Lester; it won’t end well.”

His son would only smile. “There, father, let it go now. I’ll come around some time, no doubt. I’ve got to be thirsty when I’m led to water.”

His son just smiled. “There, Dad, it’s time to move on. I’ll swing by sometime, no question about it. I’ve got to be thirsty before I’m led to water.”

The old gentleman gave over, time and again, but it was a sore point with him. He wanted his son to settle down and be a real man of affairs.

The old man gave in time and again, but it really bothered him. He wanted his son to settle down and be a true businessman.

The fact that such a situation as this might militate against any permanent arrangement with Jennie was obvious even to Lester at this time. He thought out his course of action carefully. Of course he would not give Jennie up, whatever the possible consequences. But he must be cautious; he must take no unnecessary risks. Could he bring her to Cincinnati? What a scandal if it were ever found out! Could he install her in a nice home somewhere near the city? The family would probably eventually suspect something. Could he take her along on his numerous business journeys? This first one to New York had been successful. Would it always be so? He turned the question over in his mind.

It was clear, even to Lester at this point, that this situation could jeopardize any lasting arrangement with Jennie. He carefully considered his next steps. He definitely wouldn’t give Jennie up, no matter the potential fallout. But he had to be careful; he couldn’t take any unnecessary risks. Could he bring her to Cincinnati? What a scandal it would be if anyone found out! Could he set her up in a nice place close to the city? The family would likely eventually catch on. Could he take her with him on his many business trips? The first one to New York had gone well. Would they all be like that? He kept pondering the question.

The very difficulty gave it zest. Perhaps St. Louis, or Pittsburg, or Chicago would be best after all. He went to these places frequently, and particularly to Chicago. He decided finally that it should be Chicago if he could arrange it. He could always make excuses to run up there, and it was only a night’s ride. Yes, Chicago was best. The very size and activity of the city made concealment easy. After two weeks’ stay at Cincinnati Lester wrote Jennie that he was coming to Cleveland soon, and she answered that she thought it would be all right for him to call and see her. Her father had been told about him. She had felt it unwise to stay about the house, and so had secured a position in a store at four dollars a week. He smiled as he thought of her working, and yet the decency and energy of it appealed to him. “She’s all right,” he said. “She’s the best I’ve come across yet.”

The challenge made it exciting. Maybe St. Louis, Pittsburgh, or Chicago would be the best choice after all. He visited these places often, especially Chicago. He finally decided it should be Chicago if he could manage it. He could always come up with reasons to head there, and it was just a night's ride. Yes, Chicago was the best option. The city’s size and hustle made it easy to stay hidden. After two weeks in Cincinnati, Lester wrote to Jennie that he was coming to Cleveland soon, and she replied that she thought it would be fine for him to visit her. Her father had been informed about him. She felt it was unwise to hang around the house, so she got a job at a store for four dollars a week. He smiled at the thought of her working, and yet the respectability and drive of it appealed to him. “She’s all right,” he said. “She’s the best I’ve found so far.”

He ran up to Cleveland the following Saturday, and, calling at her place of business, he made an appointment to see her that evening. He was anxious that his introduction, as her beau, should be gotten over with as quickly as possible. When he did call the shabbiness of the house and the manifest poverty of the family rather disgusted him, but somehow Jennie seemed as sweet to him as ever. Gerhardt came in the front-room, after he had been there a few minutes, and shook hands with him, as did also Mrs. Gerhardt, but Lester paid little attention to them. The old German appeared to him to be merely commonplace—the sort of man who was hired by hundreds in common capacities in his father’s factory. After some desultory conversation Lester suggested to Jennie that they should go for a drive. Jennie put on her hat, and together they departed. As a matter of fact, they went to an apartment which he had hired for the storage of her clothes. When she returned at eight in the evening the family considered it nothing amiss.

He ran up to Cleveland the next Saturday, and after stopping by her workplace, he made an appointment to see her that evening. He was eager to get through his introduction as her boyfriend as quickly as possible. When he arrived, the run-down house and the obvious poverty of the family were pretty off-putting to him, but somehow Jennie still seemed as sweet as ever. Gerhardt came into the front room after a few minutes and shook hands with him, as did Mrs. Gerhardt, but Lester paid little attention to them. The old German seemed pretty average to him—just the kind of guy who was employed by hundreds in various roles at his father’s factory. After some aimless conversation, Lester suggested to Jennie that they go for a drive. Jennie put on her hat, and they left together. In reality, they went to an apartment he had rented to store her clothes. When she returned at eight in the evening, the family thought nothing of it.

CHAPTER XXV

A month later Jennie was able to announce that Lester intended to marry her. His visits had of course paved the way for this, and it seemed natural enough. Only Gerhardt seemed a little doubtful. He did not know just how this might be. Perhaps it was all right. Lester seemed a fine enough man in all conscience, and really, after Brander, why not? If a United States Senator could fall in love with Jennie, why not a business man? There was just one thing—the child. “Has she told him about Vesta?” he asked his wife.

A month later, Jennie was excited to announce that Lester wanted to marry her. His visits had naturally led to this, and it seemed pretty normal. Only Gerhardt looked a bit uncertain. He wasn't quite sure how this would go. Maybe it was fine. Lester seemed like a decent guy, and honestly, after Brander, why not? If a U.S. Senator could fall for Jennie, why not a businessman? There was just one thing—the child. “Has she told him about Vesta?” he asked his wife.

“No,” said Mrs. Gerhardt, “not yet.”

“No,” said Mrs. Gerhardt, “not yet.”

“Not yet, not yet. Always something underhanded. Do you think he wants her if he knows? That’s what comes of such conduct in the first place. Now she has to slip around like a thief. The child cannot even have an honest name.”

“Not yet, not yet. Always something sneaky happening. Do you think he wants her if he knows? That’s what happens with that kind of behavior from the start. Now she has to sneak around like a criminal. The child can’t even have a real name.”

Gerhardt went back to his newspaper reading and brooding. His life seemed a complete failure to him and he was only waiting to get well enough to hunt up another job as watchman. He wanted to get out of this mess of deception and dishonesty.

Gerhardt returned to reading his newspaper and lost in thought. He felt like his life was a total failure, and he was just waiting to feel better so he could look for another job as a security guard. He wanted to escape this mess of lies and dishonesty.

A week or two later Jennie confided to her mother that Lester had written her to join him in Chicago. He was not feeling well, and could not come to Cleveland. The two women explained to Gerhardt that Jennie was going away to be married to Mr. Kane. Gerhardt flared up at this, and his suspicions were again aroused. But he could do nothing but grumble over the situation; it would lead to no good end, of that he was sure.

A week or two later, Jennie told her mother that Lester had written to her to come join him in Chicago. He wasn’t feeling well and couldn't come to Cleveland. The two women explained to Gerhardt that Jennie was leaving to marry Mr. Kane. Gerhardt got upset about this, and his suspicions flared up again. But he could only complain about the situation; he was sure it wouldn’t lead to anything good.

When the day came for Jennie’s departure she had to go without saying farewell to her father. He was out looking for work until late in the afternoon, and before he had returned she had been obliged to leave for the station. “I will write a note to him when I get there,” she said. She kissed her baby over and over. “Lester will take a better house for us soon,” she went on hopefully. “He wants us to move.” The night train bore her to Chicago; the old life had ended and the new one had begun.

When the day finally came for Jennie to leave, she had to go without saying goodbye to her father. He was out searching for a job until late in the afternoon, and before he got back, she had already left for the station. “I’ll write him a note when I get there,” she said. She kissed her baby repeatedly. “Lester will find us a better house soon,” she added hopefully. “He wants us to move.” The night train took her to Chicago; her old life was over, and her new one had started.

The curious fact should be recorded here that, although Lester’s generosity had relieved the stress upon the family finances, the children and Gerhardt were actually none the wiser. It was easy for Mrs. Gerhardt to deceive her husband as to the purchase of necessities and she had not as yet indulged in any of the fancies which an enlarged purse permitted. Fear deterred her. But, after Jennie had been in Chicago for a few days, she wrote to her mother saying that Lester wanted them to take a new home. This letter was shown to Gerhardt, who had been merely biding her return to make a scene. He frowned, but somehow it seemed an evidence of regularity. If he had not married her why should he want to help them? Perhaps Jennie was well married after all. Perhaps she really had been lifted to a high station in life, and was now able to help the family. Gerhardt almost concluded to forgive her everything once and for all.

The interesting thing to note here is that, although Lester’s generosity had eased the financial strain on the family, the children and Gerhardt were actually completely unaware. Mrs. Gerhardt found it easy to mislead her husband about buying essentials, and she hadn’t yet splurged on any luxuries that the extra money allowed. She was held back by fear. However, after Jennie had been in Chicago for a few days, she wrote to her mother saying that Lester wanted them to move into a new home. This letter was shared with Gerhardt, who had been waiting for her return to confront her. He frowned, but it somehow seemed like a sign of normalcy. If he hadn’t married her, why would he want to help them? Maybe Jennie was happily married after all. Maybe she really had been elevated to a better position in life and was now able to support the family. Gerhardt almost decided to forgive her for everything once and for all.

The end of it was that a new house was decided upon, and Jennie returned to Cleveland to help her mother move. Together they searched the streets for a nice, quiet neighborhood, and finally found one. A house of nine rooms, with a yard, which rented for thirty dollars, was secured and suitably furnished. There were comfortable fittings for the dining-room and sitting-room, a handsome parlor set and bedroom sets complete for each room. The kitchen was supplied with every convenience, and there was even a bath-room, a luxury the Gerhardts had never enjoyed before. Altogether the house was attractive, though plain, and Jennie was happy to know that her family could be comfortable in it.

In the end, they decided on a new house, and Jennie went back to Cleveland to help her mom move. They searched the streets for a nice, quiet neighborhood and finally found one. They got a nine-room house with a yard that rented for thirty dollars, and it was nicely furnished. The dining room and living room had comfortable furniture, and there was a nice parlor set along with complete bedroom sets for each room. The kitchen had all the conveniences they needed, and there was even a bathroom, which was a luxury the Gerhardts had never experienced before. Overall, the house was attractive, although simple, and Jennie was happy knowing her family could be comfortable there.

When the time came for the actual moving Mrs. Gerhardt was fairly beside herself with joy, for was not this the realization of her dreams? All through the long years of her life she had been waiting, and now it had come. A new house, new furniture, plenty of room—things finer than she had ever even imagined—think of it! Her eyes shone as she looked at the new beds and tables and bureaus and whatnots. “Dear, dear, isn’t this nice!” she exclaimed. “Isn’t it beautiful!” Jennie smiled and tried to pretend satisfaction without emotion, but there were tears in her eyes. She was so glad for her mother’s sake. She could have kissed Lester’s feet for his goodness to her family.

When the time came to actually move, Mrs. Gerhardt was practically overwhelmed with joy. Wasn’t this the dream she had been waiting for? After all those long years of anticipation, it was finally happening. A new house, new furniture, and plenty of space—things even better than she had ever imagined—can you believe it? Her eyes sparkled as she admired the new beds, tables, dressers, and knickknacks. “Oh my, isn’t this nice!” she exclaimed. “Isn’t it beautiful!” Jennie smiled and tried to maintain a calm expression, but there were tears in her eyes. She felt so happy for her mother. She could have kissed Lester’s feet for being so kind to her family.

The day the furniture was moved in Mrs. Gerhardt, Martha, and Veronica were on hand to clean and arrange things. At the sight of the large rooms and pretty yard, bare enough in winter, but giving promise of a delightful greenness in spring, and the array of new furniture standing about in excelsior, the whole family fell into a fever of delight. Such beauty, such spaciousness! George rubbed his feet over the new carpets and Bass examined the quality of the furniture critically. “Swell,” was his comment. Mrs. Gerhardt roved to and fro like a person in a dream. She could not believe that these bright bedrooms, this beautiful parlor, this handsome dining-room were actually hers.

The day the furniture arrived, Mrs. Gerhardt, Martha, and Veronica were there to clean and arrange everything. Looking at the large rooms and the pretty yard, which was bare in winter but promised a lovely green in spring, along with the new furniture unpacked in excelsior, the whole family burst into excitement. Such beauty, such space! George rubbed his feet on the new carpets, while Bass critically examined the quality of the furniture. “Nice,” was his comment. Mrs. Gerhardt moved around dazed, almost like she was dreaming. She couldn’t believe that these bright bedrooms, this beautiful living room, and this lovely dining room were actually hers.

Gerhardt came last of all. Although he tried hard not to show it, he, too, could scarcely refrain from enthusiastic comment. The sight of an opal-globed chandelier over the dining-room table was the finishing touch.

Gerhardt was the last to arrive. Even though he tried hard to hide it, he could hardly hold back his excitement. The sight of an opal-globed chandelier above the dining table was the perfect final touch.

“Gas, yet!” he said.

“Gas up, now!” he said.

He looked grimly around, under his shaggy eyebrows, at the new carpets under his feet, the long oak extension table covered with a white cloth and set with new dishes, at the pictures on the walls, the bright, clean kitchen. He shook his head. “By chops, it’s fine!” he said. “It’s very nice. Yes, it’s very nice. We want to be careful now not to break anything. It’s so easy to scratch things up, and then it’s all over.” Yes, even Gerhardt was satisfied.

He looked around with a serious expression, under his unkempt eyebrows, at the new carpets beneath his feet, the long oak extension table draped with a white cloth and set with fresh dishes, at the pictures on the walls, and the bright, clean kitchen. He shook his head. “Wow, this is great!” he said. “It’s really nice. Yes, it’s really nice. We need to be careful now not to break anything. It’s so easy to scratch things up, and then it’s all ruined.” Yes, even Gerhardt was pleased.

CHAPTER XXVI

It would be useless to chronicle the events of the three years that followed—events and experiences by which the family grew from an abject condition of want to a state of comparative self-reliance, based, of course, on the obvious prosperity of Jennie and the generosity (through her) of her distant husband. Lester was seen now and then, a significant figure, visiting Cleveland, and sometimes coming out to the house where he occupied with Jennie the two best rooms of the second floor. There were hurried trips on her part—in answer to telegraph massages—to Chicago, to St. Louis, to New York. One of his favorite pastimes was to engage quarters at the great resorts—Hot Springs, Mt. Clemens, Saratoga—and for a period of a week or two at a stretch enjoy the luxury of living with Jennie as his wife. There were other times when he would pass through Cleveland only for the privilege of seeing her for a day. All the time he was aware that he was throwing on her the real burden of a rather difficult situation, but he did not see how he could remedy it at this time. He was not sure as yet that he really wanted to. They were getting along fairly well.

It would be pointless to detail the events of the three years that followed—events and experiences through which the family transitioned from a state of extreme poverty to a level of relative self-sufficiency, largely thanks to Jennie's success and the support (through her) from her distant husband. Lester was spotted now and then, a prominent figure, visiting Cleveland and sometimes coming out to the house where he shared the two best rooms on the second floor with Jennie. She made quick trips—in response to telegrams—to Chicago, St. Louis, and New York. One of his favorite pastimes was to book stays at upscale resorts—Hot Springs, Mt. Clemens, Saratoga—and for a week or two, enjoy the luxury of living with Jennie as his wife. There were other times when he would pass through Cleveland just to spend a day with her. All the while, he knew he was placing the real burden of a rather challenging situation on her, but he couldn’t see how he could fix it at that moment. He wasn’t even sure he truly wanted to. They were getting by reasonably well.

The attitude of the Gerhardt family toward this condition of affairs was peculiar. At first, in spite of the irregularity of it, it seemed natural enough. Jennie said she was married. No one had seen her marriage certificate, but she said so, and she seemed to carry herself with the air of one who holds that relationship. Still, she never went to Cincinnati, where his family lived, and none of his relatives ever came near her. Then, too, his attitude, in spite of the money which had first blinded them, was peculiar. He really did not carry himself like a married man. He was so indifferent. There were weeks in which she appeared to receive only perfunctory notes. There were times when she would only go away for a few days to meet him. Then there were the long periods in which she absented herself—the only worthwhile testimony toward a real relationship, and that, in a way, unnatural.

The Gerhardt family's attitude toward the situation was unusual. At first, even though it was irregular, it seemed pretty normal. Jennie claimed she was married. No one had seen her marriage certificate, but she said it was true, and she carried herself like someone who believes in that relationship. Still, she never went to Cincinnati, where his family lived, and none of his relatives ever visited her. His attitude was also strange despite the money that had initially dazzled them. He didn’t act like a married man at all. He seemed really indifferent. There were weeks when she only got brief notes from him. Sometimes, she’d just go away for a few days to see him. Then there were the long stretches when she was absent— the only real evidence of a true relationship, which felt, in a way, unnatural.

Bass, who had grown to be a young man of twenty-five, with some business judgment and a desire to get out in the world, was suspicious. He had come to have a pretty keen knowledge of life, and intuitively he felt that things were not right. George, nineteen, who had gained a slight foothold in a wall-paper factory and was looking forward to a career in that field, was also restless. He felt that something was wrong. Martha, seventeen, was still in school, as were William and Veronica. Each was offered an opportunity to study indefinitely; but there was unrest with life. They knew about Jennie’s child. The neighbors were obviously drawing conclusions for themselves. They had few friends. Gerhardt himself finally concluded that there was something wrong, but he had let himself into this situation, and was not in much of a position now to raise an argument. He wanted to ask her at times—proposed to make her do better if he could—but the worst had already been done. It depended on the man now, he knew that.

Bass, now a twenty-five-year-old man with some business sense and a desire to explore the world, felt suspicious. He had developed a sharp understanding of life and instinctively sensed that something was off. George, nineteen, who had secured a minor position at a wallpaper factory and was hoping for a career in that industry, was also uneasy. He sensed that things weren’t right. Martha, seventeen, was still in school, along with William and Veronica. They each had the chance to study indefinitely, but there was a general dissatisfaction with life. They were aware of Jennie’s child. The neighbors were clearly drawing their own conclusions. They had few friends. Gerhardt himself eventually realized that something was wrong, but he had let himself get into this situation and wasn’t really in a position to argue. He sometimes wanted to confront her—planned to encourage her to improve if he could—but the damage was already done. He knew it was now up to the man.

Things were gradually nearing a state where a general upheaval would have taken place had not life stepped in with one of its fortuitous solutions. Mrs. Gerhardt’s health failed. Although stout and formerly of a fairly active disposition, she had of late years become decidedly sedentary in her habits and grown weak, which, coupled with a mind naturally given to worry, and weighed upon as it had been by a number of serious and disturbing ills, seemed now to culminate in a slow but very certain case of systemic poisoning. She became decidedly sluggish in her motions, wearied more quickly at the few tasks left for her to do, and finally complained to Jennie that it was very hard for her to climb stairs. “I’m not feeling well,” she said. “I think I’m going to be sick.”

Things were slowly getting to a point where a major upheaval would have happened if life hadn't intervened with one of its unexpected solutions. Mrs. Gerhardt's health declined. Though she had been plump and fairly active in the past, she had become quite sedentary in recent years and had grown weaker. This, combined with her naturally anxious mindset and the burden of several serious and distressing ailments, now seemed to lead to a slow but definite case of systemic poisoning. She became noticeably sluggish in her movements, tired more easily from the few tasks she still had to do, and finally told Jennie that it was very difficult for her to climb stairs. “I’m not feeling well,” she said. “I think I’m going to be sick.”

Jennie now took alarm and proposed to take her to some near-by watering-place, but Mrs. Gerhardt wouldn’t go. “I don’t think it would do any good,” she said. She sat about or went driving with her daughter, but the fading autumn scenery depressed her. “I don’t like to get sick in the fall,” she said. “The leaves coming down make me think I am never going to get well.”

Jennie got worried and suggested taking her to a nearby spa, but Mrs. Gerhardt refused. “I don’t think it would help,” she replied. She either hung around or drove with her daughter, but the fading autumn scenery brought her down. “I don’t like getting sick in the fall,” she said. “The falling leaves make me feel like I’m never going to get better.”

“Oh, ma, how you talk!” said Jennie; but she felt frightened, nevertheless.

“Oh, mom, how you talk!” Jennie said; but she still felt scared, after all.

How much the average home depends upon the mother was seen when it was feared the end was near. Bass, who had thought of getting married and getting out of this atmosphere, abandoned the idea temporarily. Gerhardt, shocked and greatly depressed, hung about like one expectant of and greatly awed by the possibility of disaster. Jennie, too inexperienced in death to feel that she could possibly lose her mother, felt as if somehow her living depended on her. Hoping in spite of all opposing circumstances, she hung about, a white figure of patience, waiting and serving.

How much the average home relies on the mother was clear when it seemed like the end was near. Bass, who had considered getting married and leaving this environment, put that idea on hold for the time being. Gerhardt, shocked and deeply depressed, lingered around as if he were anticipating and overwhelmed by the chance of disaster. Jennie, too inexperienced with death to think she could actually lose her mother, felt as if her own life depended on her mother’s. Holding onto hope despite everything telling her otherwise, she stayed close, a pale figure of patience, waiting and helping.

The end came one morning after a month of illness and several days of unconsciousness, during which silence reigned in the house and all the family went about on tiptoe. Mrs. Gerhardt passed away with her dying gaze fastened on Jennie’s face for the last few minutes of consciousness that life vouchsafed her. Jennie stared into her eyes with a yearning horror. “Oh, mamma! mamma!” she cried. “Oh no, no!”

The end came one morning after a month of sickness and several days of being unconscious, when silence filled the house and the whole family moved around quietly. Mrs. Gerhardt passed away with her final gaze fixed on Jennie’s face during the last few moments of awareness that life allowed her. Jennie looked into her eyes with a mix of longing and fear. “Oh, Mama! Mama!” she cried. “Oh no, no!”

Gerhardt came running in from the yard, and, throwing himself down by the bedside, wrung his bony hands in anguish. “I should have gone first!” he cried. “I should have gone first!”

Gerhardt ran in from the yard and, throwing himself down by the bedside, twisted his bony hands in despair. “I should have gone first!” he shouted. “I should have gone first!”

The death of Mrs. Gerhardt hastened the final breaking up of the family. Bass was bent on getting married at once, having had a girl in town for some time. Martha, whose views of life had broadened and hardened, was anxious to get out also. She felt that a sort of stigma attached to the home—to herself, in fact, so long as she remained there. Martha looked to the public schools as a source of income; she was going to be a teacher. Gerhardt alone scarcely knew which way to turn. He was again at work as a night watchman. Jennie found him crying one day alone in the kitchen, and immediately burst into tears herself. “Now, papa!” she pleaded, “it isn’t as bad as that. You will always have a home—you know that—as long as I have anything. You can come with me.”

The death of Mrs. Gerhardt sped up the inevitable breakup of the family. Bass was determined to get married right away, having been seeing a girl in town for a while. Martha, whose perspective on life had broadened and toughened, was eager to leave as well. She felt a sort of shame associated with the home—and with herself, really—while she stayed there. Martha looked to the public schools for a source of income; she was going to become a teacher. Gerhardt, on the other hand, barely knew what to do. He was back at work as a night watchman. One day, Jennie found him crying alone in the kitchen, and she immediately started crying too. “Now, Papa!” she pleaded, “it’s not that bad. You’ll always have a home—you know that—as long as I have anything. You can come with me.”

“No, no,” he protested. He really did not want to go with her. “It isn’t that,” he continued. “My whole life comes to nothing.”

“No, no,” he protested. He really didn’t want to go with her. “It’s not that,” he continued. “My whole life just feels pointless.”

It was some little time before Bass, George and Martha finally left, but, one by one, they got out, leaving Jennie, her father, Veronica, and William, and one other—Jennie’s child. Of course Lester knew nothing of Vesta’s parentage, and curiously enough he had never seen the little girl. During the short periods in which he deigned to visit the house—two or three days at most—Mrs. Gerhardt took good care that Vesta was kept in the background. There was a play-room on the top floor, and also a bedroom there, and concealment was easy. Lester rarely left his rooms, he even had his meals served to him in what might have been called the living-room of the suite. He was not at all inquisitive or anxious to meet any one of the other members of the family. He was perfectly willing to shake hands with them or to exchange a few perfunctory words, but perfunctory words only. It was generally understood that the child must not appear, and so it did not.

It took a little while for Bass, George, and Martha to leave, but they eventually got out one by one, leaving Jennie, her father, Veronica, William, and one other person—Jennie’s child. Of course, Lester had no idea about Vesta’s parentage, and interestingly, he had never seen the little girl. During the brief visits he made to the house—only two or three days at most—Mrs. Gerhardt made sure that Vesta was kept out of sight. There was a playroom on the top floor, and also a bedroom, so hiding her was easy. Lester rarely left his rooms; he even had his meals served in what could be called the living room of the suite. He wasn’t at all curious or eager to meet any of the other family members. He was perfectly fine with shaking hands or exchanging a few shallow words, but only shallow words. It was generally understood that the child should not be seen, so she wasn’t.

There is an inexplicable sympathy between old age and childhood, an affinity which is as lovely as it is pathetic. During that first year in Lorrie Street, when no one was looking, Gerhardt often carried Vesta about on his shoulders and pinched her soft, red cheeks. When she got old enough to walk he it was who, with a towel fastened securely under her arms, led her patiently around the room until she was able to take a few steps of her own accord. When she actually reached the point where she could walk he was the one who coaxed her to the effort, shyly, grimly, but always lovingly. By some strange leading of fate this stigma on his family’s honor, this blotch on conventional morality, had twined its helpless baby fingers about the tendons of his heart. He loved this little outcast ardently, hopefully. She was the one bright ray in a narrow, gloomy life, and Gerhardt early took upon himself the responsibility of her education in religious matters. Was it not he who had insisted that the infant should be baptized?

There’s an unexplainable connection between old age and childhood, a bond that is as beautiful as it is sad. During that first year on Lorrie Street, when no one was watching, Gerhardt often carried Vesta on his shoulders and pinched her soft, rosy cheeks. When she got old enough to walk, he was the one who, with a towel securely fastened under her arms, patiently guided her around the room until she could take a few steps on her own. When she finally reached the point of walking, he was the one who encouraged her to try, shyly, seriously, but always with love. By some strange twist of fate, this stain on his family’s honor, this mark on societal norms, had wrapped its helpless little fingers around his heart. He loved this little outcast passionately, with hope. She was the one bright spot in his narrow, dreary life, and Gerhardt took on the responsibility of teaching her about religion. Wasn’t he the one who insisted that the baby should be baptized?

“Say ‘Our Father,’” he used to demand of the lisping infant when he had her alone with him.

“Say ‘Our Father,’” he would demand of the lisping baby when he had her alone with him.

“Ow Fowvaw,” was her vowel-like interpretation of his words.

“Ow Fowvaw,” was her vowel-like take on what he said.

“‘Who art in heaven.’”

“‘Who are in heaven.’”

“‘Ooh ah in aven,’” repeated the child.

“Ooh ah in heaven,” repeated the child.

“Why do you teach her so early?” pleaded Mrs. Gerhardt, overhearing the little one’s struggles with stubborn consonants and vowels.

“Why are you teaching her so early?” pleaded Mrs. Gerhardt, overhearing the little one’s struggles with stubborn consonants and vowels.

“Because I want she should learn the Christian faith,” returned Gerhardt determinedly. “She ought to know her prayers. If she don’t begin now she never will know them.”

“Because I want her to learn the Christian faith,” Gerhardt replied firmly. “She needs to know her prayers. If she doesn’t start now, she’ll never learn them.”

Mrs. Gerhardt smiled. Many of her husband’s religious idiosyncrasies were amusing to her. At the same time she liked to see this sympathetic interest he was taking in the child’s upbringing. If he were only not so hard, so narrow at times. He made himself a torment to himself and to every one else.

Mrs. Gerhardt smiled. Many of her husband’s quirks about religion amused her. At the same time, she appreciated the genuine interest he was showing in the child's upbringing. If only he weren't so strict and narrow-minded at times. He made himself a torment to both himself and everyone around him.

On the earliest bright morning of returning spring he was wont to take her for her first little journeys in the world. “Come, now,” he would say, “we will go for a little walk.”

On the first bright morning of spring, he would often take her on her first little adventures in the world. “Come on,” he would say, “let's go for a short walk.”

“Walk,” chirped Vesta.

“Let’s go,” chirped Vesta.

“Yes, walk,” echoed Gerhardt.

“Yes, walk,” Gerhardt said.

Mrs. Gerhardt would fasten on one of her little hoods, for in these days Jennie kept Vesta’s wardrobe beautifully replete. Taking her by the hand, Gerhardt would issue forth, satisfied to drag first one foot and then the other in order to accommodate his gait to her toddling steps.

Mrs. Gerhardt would put on one of her little hoods, since Jennie kept Vesta’s wardrobe nicely stocked. Taking her by the hand, Gerhardt would head out, happy to drag one foot and then the other to match his pace with her little steps.

One beautiful May day, when Vesta was four years old, they started on one of their walks. Everywhere nature was budding and bourgeoning; the birds twittering their arrival from the south; the insects making the best of their brief span of life. Sparrows chirped in the road; robins strutted upon the grass; bluebirds built in the eaves of the cottages. Gerhardt took a keen delight in pointing out the wonders of nature to Vesta, and she was quick to respond. Every new sight and sound interested her.

One beautiful May day, when Vesta was four years old, they went out for one of their walks. Everywhere nature was coming to life; the birds were chirping their arrival from the south; the insects were making the most of their short lives. Sparrows chirped in the road; robins strutted on the grass; bluebirds nested in the eaves of the cottages. Gerhardt took great pleasure in pointing out the wonders of nature to Vesta, and she eagerly responded. Every new sight and sound fascinated her.

“Ooh!—ooh!” exclaimed Vesta, catching sight of a low, flashing touch of red as a robin lighted upon a twig nearby. Her hand was up, and her eyes were wide open.

“Ooh!—ooh!” Vesta exclaimed, spotting a quick flash of red as a robin landed on a nearby twig. She raised her hand, and her eyes went wide.

“Yes,” said Gerhardt, as happy as if he himself had but newly discovered this marvelous creature. “Robin. Bird. Robin. Say robin.”

“Yes,” said Gerhardt, as happy as if he had just discovered this amazing creature himself. “Robin. Bird. Robin. Say robin.”

“Wobin,” said Vesta.

"Wobin," Vesta said.

“Yes, robin,” he answered. “It is going to look for a worm now. We will see if we cannot find its nest. I think I saw a nest in one of these trees.”

“Yeah, robin,” he replied. “It’s going to look for a worm now. Let’s see if we can find its nest. I think I saw a nest in one of these trees.”

He plodded peacefully on, seeking to rediscover an old abandoned nest that he had observed on a former walk. “Here it is,” he said at last, coming to a small and leafless tree, in which a winter-beaten remnant of a home was still clinging. “Here, come now, see,” and he lifted the baby up at arm’s length.

He walked steadily along, trying to find an old abandoned nest he had seen on a previous walk. “Here it is,” he finally said, arriving at a small, bare tree where a weathered remnant of a nest remained. “Here, come on, look,” and he lifted the baby up to his arms.

“See,” said Gerhardt, indicating the wisp of dead grasses with his free hand, “nest. That is a bird’s nest. See!”

“Look,” Gerhardt said, pointing to the clump of dead grass with his free hand, “a nest. That's a bird’s nest. See!”

“Ooh!” repeated Vesta, imitating his pointing finger with one of her own. “Ness—ooh!”

“Ooh!” Vesta echoed, mimicking his pointing finger with her own. “Ness—ooh!”

“Yes,” said Gerhardt, putting her down again. “That was a wren’s nest. They have all gone now. They will not come any more.”

“Yes,” Gerhardt said, setting her down again. “That was a wren’s nest. They’re all gone now. They won’t come back anymore.”

Still further they plodded, he unfolding the simple facts of life, she wondering with the wide wonder of a child. When they had gone a block or two he turned slowly about as if the end of the world had been reached.

Still, they continued on, he explaining the basic truths of life, she marveling with the innocent curiosity of a child. After walking a block or two, he turned around slowly as if they had reached the end of the world.

“We must be going back!” he said.

“We have to go back!” he said.

And so she had come to her fifth year, growing in sweetness, intelligence, and vivacity. Gerhardt was fascinated by the questions she asked, the puzzles she pronounced. “Such a girl!” he would exclaim to his wife. “What is it she doesn’t want to know? ‘Where is God? What does He do? Where does He keep His feet?” she asks me. “I gotta laugh sometimes.” From rising in the morning, to dress her to laying her down at night after she had said her prayers, she came to be the chief solace and comfort of his days. Without Vesta, Gerhardt would have found his life hard indeed to bear.

And so she had reached her fifth year, growing in sweetness, intelligence, and energy. Gerhardt was captivated by the questions she asked and the puzzles she shared. “What a girl!” he would exclaim to his wife. “What doesn't she want to know? ‘Where is God? What does He do? Where does He keep His feet?’” she asks me. “I have to laugh sometimes.” From the moment he got her up in the morning to dress her, to laying her down at night after she had said her prayers, she became the main source of solace and comfort in his days. Without Vesta, Gerhardt would have found life truly hard to bear.

CHAPTER XXVII

For three years now Lester had been happy in the companionship of Jennie. Irregular as the connection might be in the eyes of the church and of society, it had brought him peace and comfort, and he was perfectly satisfied with the outcome of the experiment. His interest in the social affairs of Cincinnati was now practically nil, and he had consistently refused to consider any matrimonial proposition which had himself as the object. He looked on his father’s business organization as offering a real chance for himself if he could get control of it; but he saw no way of doing so. Robert’s interests were always in the way, and, if anything, the two brothers were farther apart than ever in their ideas and aims. Lester had thought once or twice of entering some other line of business or of allying himself with another carriage company, but he did not feel that ha could conscientiously do this. Lester had his salary—fifteen thousand a year as secretary and treasurer of the company (his brother was vice-president)—and about five thousand from some outside investments. He had not been so lucky or so shrewd in speculation as Robert had been; aside from the principal which yielded his five thousand, he had nothing. Robert, on the other hand, was unquestionably worth between three and four hundred thousand dollars, in addition to his future interest in the business, which both brothers shrewdly suspected would be divided somewhat in their favor. Robert and Lester would get a fourth each, they thought; their sisters a sixth. It seemed natural that Kane senior should take this view, seeing that the brothers were actually in control and doing the work. Still, there was no certainty. The old gentleman might do anything or nothing. The probabilities were that he would be very fair and liberal. At the same time, Robert was obviously beating Lester in the game of life. What did Lester intend to do about it?

For three years, Lester had been content in his relationship with Jennie. Even though their connection might be seen as irregular by the church and society, it had given him peace and comfort, and he was completely satisfied with how things turned out. His interest in Cincinnati's social scene was practically nonexistent, and he had consistently rejected any marriage proposals aimed at him. He viewed his father's business as a real opportunity for himself if he could gain control, but he saw no way to make that happen. Robert’s interests always got in the way, and if anything, the brothers had grown further apart in their ideas and goals. Lester had considered switching to a different line of work or partnering with another carriage company, but he didn’t feel he could do that honestly. Lester earned a salary of fifteen thousand a year as the company’s secretary and treasurer (his brother was the vice-president) and about five thousand from some outside investments. He hadn't been as fortunate or savvy in investments as Robert; aside from the principal that generated his five thousand, he had nothing. In contrast, Robert was definitely worth between three and four hundred thousand dollars, not counting his future stake in the business, which both brothers shrewdly thought would be divided somewhat in their favor. Robert and Lester figured they would each get a fourth, while their sisters would receive a sixth. It made sense for Kane Sr. to think this way, since the brothers were actually in control and doing the work. Still, there was no certainty. The old man could do anything or nothing. It was likely he would be fair and generous. Meanwhile, Robert was clearly ahead of Lester in the game of life. What was Lester going to do about it?

There comes a time in every thinking man’s life when he pauses and “takes stock” of his condition; when he asks himself how it fares with his individuality as a whole, mental, moral, physical, material. This time comes after the first heedless flights of youth have passed, when the initiative and more powerful efforts have been made, and he begins to feel the uncertainty of results and final values which attaches itself to everything. There is a deadening thought of uselessness which creeps into many men’s minds—the thought which has been best expressed by the Preacher in Ecclesiastes.

There comes a point in every reflective person's life when they stop and "take stock" of their situation; when they ask themselves how their overall individuality stands, mentally, morally, physically, and materially. This moment arrives after the carefree adventures of youth have passed, when the more ambitious efforts have been made, and they start to feel the uncertainty of outcomes and ultimate values that come with everything. A discouraging thought of futility creeps into many people's minds—the thought that has been best captured by the Preacher in Ecclesiastes.

Yet Lester strove to be philosophical. “What difference does it make?” he used to say to himself, “whether I live at the White House, or here at home, or at the Grand Pacific?” But in the very question was the implication that there were achievements in life which he had failed to realize in his own career. The White House represented the rise and success of a great public character. His home and the Grand Pacific were what had come to him without effort.

Yet Lester tried to be philosophical. “What difference does it make?” he would say to himself, “whether I live in the White House, at home, or at the Grand Pacific?” But in that very question was the suggestion that there were accomplishments in life he hadn’t achieved in his own career. The White House symbolized the rise and success of a prominent public figure. His home and the Grand Pacific were what he had received without much effort.

He decided for the time being—it was about the period of the death of Jennie’s mother—that he would make some effort to rehabilitate himself. He would cut out idling—these numerous trips with Jennie had cost him considerable time. He would make some outside investments. If his brother could find avenues of financial profit, so could he. He would endeavor to assert his authority—he would try to make himself of more importance in the business, rather than let Robert gradually absorb everything. Should he forsake Jennie?—that thought also, came to him. She had no claim on him. She could make no protest. Somehow he did not see how it could be done. It seemed cruel, useless; above all (though he disliked to admit it) it would be uncomfortable for himself. He liked her—loved her, perhaps, in a selfish way. He didn’t see how he could desert her very well.

He decided, for the time being—around the time of Jennie’s mother’s death—that he would try to get his life back on track. He would stop wasting time—those countless outings with Jennie had taken up a lot of his schedule. He would look into making some investments. If his brother could find ways to make money, so could he. He would work on asserting his authority—he wanted to make himself more important in the business instead of letting Robert take over everything. Should he leave Jennie? That thought crossed his mind too. She didn’t have any claim on him. She couldn’t really complain. Yet, he couldn’t figure out how he could do it. It felt cruel and pointless; above all (though he didn’t like to admit it) it would be uncomfortable for him. He liked her—maybe loved her, in a somewhat selfish way. He just didn’t see how he could walk away from her easily.

Just at this time he had a really serious difference with Robert. His brother wanted to sever relations with an old and well established paint company in New York, which had manufactured paints especially for the house, and invest in a new concern in Chicago, which was growing and had a promising future. Lester, knowing the members of the Eastern firm, their reliability, their long and friendly relations with the house, was in opposition. His father at first seemed to agree with Lester. But Robert argued out the question in his cold, logical way, his blue eyes fixed uncompromisingly upon his brother’s face. “We can’t go on forever,” he said, “standing by old friends, just because father here has dealt with them, or you like them. We must have a change. The business must be stiffened up; we’re going to have more and stronger competition.”

Just then, he had a serious disagreement with Robert. His brother wanted to cut ties with a long-standing paint company in New York that had been making paints specifically for their house and invest in a new business in Chicago that was growing and looked promising. Lester, knowing the people at the Eastern firm, their reliability, and their long-standing friendly relationship with the house, disagreed. At first, their father seemed to side with Lester. But Robert presented his case in his cool, logical manner, his blue eyes staring unwaveringly at his brother's face. “We can’t keep doing this,” he said, “supporting old friends just because Dad has worked with them, or you like them. We need a change. The business needs to be strengthened; we’re facing more and tougher competition.”

“It’s just as father feels about it,” said Lester at last. “I have no deep feeling in the matter. It won’t hurt me one way or the other. You say the house is going to profit eventually. I’ve stated the arguments on the other side.”

“It’s exactly how dad sees it,” Lester finally said. “I don’t have strong feelings about it. It doesn’t affect me either way. You say the house will be profitable in the end. I’ve laid out the reasons against that.”

“I’m inclined to think Robert is right,” said Archibald Kane calmly. “Most of the things he has suggested so far have worked out.”

“I think Robert is right,” said Archibald Kane calmly. “Most of the things he’s suggested so far have worked out.”

Lester colored. “Well, we won’t have any more discussion about it then,” he said. He rose and strolled out of the office.

Lester blushed. “Alright, we won’t talk about it anymore,” he said. He stood up and walked out of the office.

The shock of this defeat, coming at a time when he was considering pulling himself together, depressed Lester considerably. It wasn’t much but it was a straw, and his father’s remark about his brother’s business acumen was even more irritating. He was beginning to wonder whether his father would discriminate in any way in the distribution of the property. Had he heard anything about his entanglement with Jennie? Had he resented the long vacations he had taken from business? It did not appear to Lester that he could be justly chargeable with either incapacity or indifference, so far as the company was concerned. He had done his work well. He was still the investigator of propositions put up to the house, the student of contracts, the trusted adviser of his father and mother—but he was being worsted. Where would it end? He thought about this, but could reach no conclusion.

The shock of this defeat, coming when he was trying to get his life together, really brought Lester down. It wasn't much, but it felt like a last straw, and his father's comment about his brother's business skills was even more frustrating. He was starting to wonder if his father would be fair about how the property would be divided. Had he heard anything about Lester's situation with Jennie? Did he resent the long breaks he had taken from work? It didn't seem to Lester that he could be fairly blamed for either incompetence or lack of commitment when it came to the company. He had done his job well. He was still the one investigating proposals brought to the company, studying contracts, and advising his parents—but he was losing ground. Where would it all end? He thought about this, but he couldn't come to any conclusions.

Later in this same year Robert came forward with a plan for reorganization in the executive department of the business. He proposed that they should build an immense exhibition and storage warehouse on Michigan Avenue in Chicago, and transfer a portion of their completed stock there. Chicago was more central than Cincinnati. Buyers from the West and country merchants could be more easily reached and dealt with there. It would be a big advertisement for the house, a magnificent evidence of its standing and prosperity. Kane senior and Lester immediately approved of this. Both saw its advantages. Robert suggested that Lester should undertake the construction of the new buildings. It would probably be advisable for him to reside in Chicago a part of the time.

Later that same year, Robert proposed a plan to reorganize the executive department of the business. He suggested they build a huge exhibition and storage warehouse on Michigan Avenue in Chicago and move some of their completed stock there. Chicago was more centrally located than Cincinnati, making it easier to reach and connect with buyers from the West and country merchants. It would serve as a significant advertisement for the company, showcasing its reputation and success. Kane senior and Lester both quickly approved of this idea, recognizing its benefits. Robert recommended that Lester take on the construction of the new buildings and mentioned that it might be wise for him to live in Chicago part of the time.

The idea appealed to Lester, even though it took him away from Cincinnati, largely if not entirely. It was dignified and not unrepresentative of his standing in the company. He could live in Chicago and he could have Jennie with him. The scheme he had for taking an apartment could now be arranged without difficulty. He voted yes. Robert smiled. “I’m sure we’ll get good results from this all around,” he said.

The idea sounded good to Lester, even though it meant he would be away from Cincinnati, mostly if not completely. It was respectable and reflected his position in the company. He could live in Chicago and have Jennie with him. The plan he had for getting an apartment could now be set up without any trouble. He voted yes. Robert smiled. “I’m sure this will lead to great results for everyone,” he said.

As construction work was soon to begin, Lester decided to move to Chicago immediately. He sent word for Jennie to meet him, and together they selected an apartment on the North Side, a very comfortable suite of rooms on a side street near the lake, and he had it fitted up to suit his taste. He figured that living in Chicago he could pose as a bachelor. He would never need to invite his friends to his rooms. There were his offices, where he could always be found, his clubs and the hotels. To his way of thinking the arrangement was practically ideal.

As construction work was about to start, Lester decided to move to Chicago right away. He told Jennie to meet him, and together they picked an apartment on the North Side, a really comfortable suite of rooms on a side street near the lake, which he had decorated to his liking. He thought that living in Chicago would let him act like a bachelor. He wouldn't have to invite his friends to his place. There were his offices, where he could always be found, his clubs, and the hotels. To him, the setup was practically perfect.

Of course Jennie’s departure from Cleveland brought the affairs of the Gerhardt family to a climax. Probably the home would be broken up, but Gerhardt himself took the matter philosophically. He was an old man, and it did not matter much where he lived. Bass, Martha, and George were already taking care of themselves. Veronica and William were still in school, but some provision could be made for boarding them with a neighbor. The one real concern of Jennie and Gerhardt was Vesta. It was Gerhardt’s natural thought that Jennie must take the child with her. What else should a mother do?

Of course, Jennie's departure from Cleveland brought the Gerhardt family's situation to a head. The home would likely be broken up, but Gerhardt himself took it in stride. He was an old man, and it didn't matter much where he lived. Bass, Martha, and George were already looking after themselves. Veronica and William were still in school, but arrangements could be made to have them board with a neighbor. The main concern for both Jennie and Gerhardt was Vesta. Gerhardt naturally thought that Jennie should take the child with her. What else would a mother do?

“Have you told him yet?” he asked her, when the day of her contemplated departure had been set.

“Have you told him yet?” he asked her when the day of her planned departure was set.

“No; but I’m going to soon,” she assured him.

"No, but I will soon," she assured him.

“Always soon,” he said.

"Always soon," he said.

He shook his head. His throat swelled.

He shook his head. His throat tightened.

“It’s too bad,” he went on. “It’s a great sin. God will punish you, I’m afraid. The child needs some one. I’m getting old—otherwise I would keep her. There is no one here all day now to look after her right, as she should be.” Again he shook his head.

“It’s a shame,” he continued. “It’s a serious mistake. God will punish you, I’m afraid. The child needs someone. I’m getting old—otherwise I would take care of her. There’s no one here all day to look after her properly, as she needs to be.” He shook his head again.

“I know,” said Jennie weakly. “I’m going to fix it now. I’m going to have her live with me soon. I won’t neglect her—you know that.”

“I know,” Jennie said faintly. “I’m going to take care of it now. I’m going to have her stay with me soon. I won’t ignore her—you know that.”

“But the child’s name,” he insisted. “She should have a name. Soon in another year she goes to school. People will want to know who she is. It can’t go on forever like this.”

“But the child needs a name,” he insisted. “She should have a name. In another year, she’ll be starting school. People will want to know who she is. It can’t stay this way forever.”

Jennie understood well enough that it couldn’t. She was crazy about her baby. The heaviest cross she had to bear was the constant separations and the silence she was obliged to maintain about Vesta’s very existence. It did seem unfair to the child, and yet Jennie did not see clearly how she could have acted otherwise. Vesta had good clothes, everything she needed. She was at least comfortable. Jennie hoped to give her a good education. If only she had told the truth to Lester in the first place. Now it was almost too late, and yet she felt that she had acted for the best. Finally she decided to find some good woman or family in Chicago who would take charge of Vesta for a consideration. In a Swedish colony to the west of La Salle Avenue she came across an old lady who seemed to embody all the virtues she required—cleanliness, simplicity, honesty. She was a widow, doing work by the day, but she was glad to make an arrangement by which she should give her whole time to Vesta. The latter was to go to kindergarten when a suitable one should be found. She was to have toys and kindly attention, and Mrs. Olsen was to inform Jennie of any change in the child’s health. Jennie proposed to call every day, and she thought that sometimes, when Lester was out of town, Vesta might be brought to the apartment. She had had her with her at Cleveland, and he had never found out anything.

Jennie understood well enough that it couldn’t. She was in love with her baby. The hardest thing to deal with was the constant separations and the silence she had to keep about Vesta’s very existence. It felt unfair to the child, but Jennie didn’t see clearly how she could have acted differently. Vesta had nice clothes and everything she needed. At least she was comfortable. Jennie hoped to provide her with a good education. If only she had been honest with Lester from the start. Now it was almost too late, yet she felt that she had acted in the best interest. Finally, she decided to find a good woman or family in Chicago who would take care of Vesta for a fee. In a Swedish neighborhood to the west of La Salle Avenue, she found an old lady who seemed to have all the qualities she wanted—cleanliness, simplicity, honesty. She was a widow who did day work, but she was happy to make an arrangement to dedicate her time to Vesta. The child would go to kindergarten when a suitable one was found. She would have toys and caring attention, and Mrs. Olsen would inform Jennie of any changes in the child's health. Jennie planned to visit every day and thought that sometimes, when Lester was out of town, Vesta could be brought to the apartment. She had managed to have her with her in Cleveland, and he had never found out anything.

The arrangements completed, Jennie returned at the first opportunity to Cleveland to take Vesta away. Gerhardt, who had been brooding over his approaching loss, appeared most solicitous about her future. “She should grow up to be a fine girl,” he said. “You should give her a good education—she is so smart.” He spoke of the advisability of sending her to a Lutheran school and church, but Jennie was not so sure of that. Time and association with Lester had led her to think that perhaps the public school was better than any private institution. She had no particular objection to the church, but she no longer depended upon its teachings as a guide in the affairs of life. Why should she?

The arrangements finished, Jennie returned to Cleveland at the first chance to take Vesta away. Gerhardt, who had been dwelling on his upcoming loss, seemed really concerned about her future. “She should grow up to be a great girl,” he said. “You should give her a solid education—she's really smart.” He talked about the idea of sending her to a Lutheran school and church, but Jennie wasn't so sure about that. Time and her connection with Lester had made her consider that maybe the public school was better than any private one. She had no specific problem with the church, but she no longer relied on its teachings as a guide in her life. Why should she?

The next day it was necessary for Jennie to return to Chicago. Vesta, excited and eager, was made ready for the journey. Gerhardt had been wandering about, restless as a lost spirit, while the process of dressing was going on; now that the hour had actually struck he was doing his best to control his feelings. He could see that the five-year-old child had no conception of what it meant to him. She was happy and self-interested, chattering about the ride and the train.

The next day, Jennie had to go back to Chicago. Vesta, excited and eager, was getting ready for the trip. Gerhardt had been pacing around, restless like a lost soul, while they got dressed; now that the time had finally come, he was trying hard to keep his emotions in check. He could tell that the five-year-old didn’t understand what it meant for him. She was happy and focused on herself, chatting about the ride and the train.

“Be a good little girl,” he said, lifting her up and kissing her. “See that you study your catechism and say your prayers. And you won’t forget the grandpa—what?—” He tried to go on, but his voice failed him.

“Be a good little girl,” he said, picking her up and kissing her. “Make sure you study your catechism and say your prayers. And don’t forget about Grandpa—what?” He tried to continue, but his voice trailed off.

Jennie, whose heart ached for her father, choked back her emotion. “There,” she said, “if I’d thought you were going to act like that—” She stopped.

Jennie, who felt heartbroken for her father, held back her feelings. "There," she said, "if I had known you were going to act like that—" She paused.

“Go,” said Gerhardt, manfully, “go. It is best this way.” And he stood solemnly by as they went out of the door. Then he turned back to his favorite haunt, the kitchen, and stood there staring at the floor. One by one they were leaving him—Mrs. Gerhardt, Bass, Martha, Jennie, Vesta. He clasped his hands together, after his old-time fashion, and shook his head again and again. “So it is! So it is!” he repeated. “They all leave me. All my life goes to pieces.”

“Go,” Gerhardt said firmly, “just go. It’s better this way.” He stood there seriously as they walked out the door. Then he turned back to his favorite spot, the kitchen, and stared at the floor. One by one, they were leaving him—Mrs. Gerhardt, Bass, Martha, Jennie, Vesta. He clasped his hands together, like he used to, and shook his head repeatedly. “It’s true! It’s true!” he repeated. “They all leave me. My whole life is falling apart.”

CHAPTER XXVIII

During the three years in which Jennie and Lester had been associated there had grown up between them a strong feeling of mutual sympathy and understanding. Lester truly loved her in his own way. It was a strong, self-satisfying, determined kind of way, based solidly on a big natural foundation, but rising to a plane of genuine spiritual affinity. The yielding sweetness of her character both attracted and held him. She was true, and good, and womanly to the very center of her being; he had learned to trust her, to depend upon her, and the feeling had but deepened with the passing of the years.

During the three years that Jennie and Lester had been together, they developed a strong sense of mutual sympathy and understanding. Lester really loved her in his own way. It was a deep, self-satisfying, determined kind of love, built on a solid natural foundation but elevated to a genuine spiritual connection. The gentle sweetness of her character both attracted and captivated him. She was genuine, good, and completely feminine at her core; he had learned to trust her and rely on her, and that feeling only grew deeper over the years.

On her part Jennie had sincerely, deeply, truly learned to love this man. At first when he had swept her off her feet, overawed her soul, and used her necessity as a chain wherewith to bind her to him, she was a little doubtful, a little afraid of him, although she had always liked him. Now, however, by living with him, by knowing him better, by watching his moods, she had come to love him. He was so big, so vocal, so handsome. His point of view and opinions of anything and everything were so positive. His pet motto, “Hew to the line, let the chips fall where they may,” had clung in her brain as something immensely characteristic. Apparently he was not afraid of anything—God, man, or devil. He used to look at her, holding her chin between the thumb and fingers of his big brown hand, and say: “You’re sweet, all right, but you need courage and defiance. You haven’t enough of those things.” And her eyes would meet his in dumb appeal. “Never mind,” he would add, “you have other things.” And then he would kiss her.

Jennie had genuinely learned to love this man. At first, when he had swept her off her feet, amazed her, and used her need to tie her to him, she felt a bit uncertain and scared, even though she had always liked him. Now, though, by living together, getting to know him better, and observing his moods, she had fallen in love with him. He was so big, so expressive, so attractive. His views and opinions on everything were so strong. His favorite saying, “Stick to your guns, let the chips fall where they may,” had stuck in her mind as something that defined him. He seemed unafraid of anything—God, people, or evil. He would look at her, holding her chin between his big brown thumb and fingers, and say: “You’re sweet, but you need more courage and defiance. You don’t have enough of those traits.” Her eyes would meet his in silent appeal. “Don’t worry,” he would add, “you have other strengths.” And then he would kiss her.

One of the most appealing things to Lester was the simple way in which she tried to avoid exposure of her various social and educational shortcomings. She could not write very well, and once he found a list of words he had used written out on a piece of paper with the meanings opposite. He smiled, but he liked her better for it. Another time in the Southern hotel in St. Louis he watched her pretending a loss of appetite because she thought that her lack of table manners was being observed by nearby diners. She could not always be sure of the right forks and knives, and the strange-looking dishes bothered her; how did one eat asparagus and artichokes?

One of the things Lester found most appealing was how she tried to hide her social and educational shortcomings. She wasn't a great writer, and once he found a list of words he had used, written out on a piece of paper with their meanings next to them. He smiled but liked her even more for it. Another time, at a hotel in St. Louis, he watched her feign a loss of appetite because she thought nearby diners were noticing her poor table manners. She couldn't always tell which forks and knives to use, and the unusual-looking dishes confused her; how do you eat asparagus and artichokes?

“Why don’t you eat something?” he asked good-naturedly. “You’re hungry, aren’t you?”

“Why don’t you eat something?” he asked with a friendly tone. “You’re hungry, right?”

“Not very.”

“Not really.”

“You must be. Listen, Jennie. I know what it is. You mustn’t feel that way. Your manners are all right. I wouldn’t bring you here if they weren’t. Your instincts are all right. Don’t be uneasy. I’d tell you quick enough when there was anything wrong.” His brown eyes held a friendly gleam.

“You have to be. Listen, Jennie. I understand what you’re feeling. You shouldn’t feel like that. Your manners are perfectly fine. I wouldn’t have brought you here if they weren’t. Your instincts are good. Don’t worry. I’d let you know right away if anything was wrong.” His brown eyes sparkled with friendliness.

She smiled gratefully. “I do feel a little nervous at times,” she admitted.

She smiled with appreciation. “I do get a bit nervous sometimes,” she confessed.

“Don’t,” he repeated. “You’re all right. Don’t worry. I’ll show you.” And he did.

“Don’t,” he said again. “You’re okay. Don’t stress. I’ll show you.” And he did.

By degrees Jennie grew into an understanding of the usages and customs of comfortable existence. All that the Gerhardt family had ever had were the bare necessities of life. Now she was surrounded with whatever she wanted—trunks, clothes, toilet articles, the whole varied equipment of comfort—and while she liked it all, it did not upset her sense of proportion and her sense of the fitness of things. There was no element of vanity in her, only a sense of joy in privilege and opportunity. She was grateful to Lester for all that he had done and was doing for her. If only she could hold him—always!

Gradually, Jennie started to understand the ways and customs of a comfortable life. The Gerhardt family had always lived with just the essentials. Now, she found herself surrounded by everything she desired—suitcases, clothes, personal care items, the entire range of comforts—and while she appreciated it all, it didn't throw off her sense of balance or what felt right. There was no vanity in her, just a feeling of joy in having privilege and opportunity. She was thankful to Lester for everything he had done and was doing for her. If only she could keep him by her side forever!

The details of getting Vesta established once adjusted, Jennie settled down into the routine of home life. Lester, busy about his multitudinous affairs, was in and out. He had a suite of rooms reserved for himself at the Grand Pacific, which was then the exclusive hotel of Chicago, and this was his ostensible residence. His luncheon and evening appointments were kept at the Union Club. An early patron of the telephone, he had one installed in the apartment, so that he could reach Jennie quickly and at any time. He was home two or three nights a week, sometimes oftener. He insisted at first on Jennie having a girl of general housework, but acquiesced in the more sensible arrangement which she suggested later of letting some one come in to do the cleaning. She liked to work around her own home. Her natural industry and love of order prompted this feeling.

Once Vesta was up and running and everything was settled, Jennie got into the groove of home life. Lester, busy with his many commitments, was constantly coming and going. He had a set of rooms reserved for himself at the Grand Pacific, which was the upscale hotel in Chicago at that time, and that was his official residence. He had his lunch and dinner meetings at the Union Club. Being an early adopter of the telephone, he had one installed in the apartment so he could reach Jennie easily at any time. He was home two or three nights a week, sometimes more. He initially insisted that Jennie hire a maid for general housework, but he eventually agreed to her practical suggestion of just having someone come in to do the cleaning. She enjoyed working around her own home. Her natural hard work and love of organization fueled this choice.

Lester liked his breakfast promptly at eight in the morning. He wanted dinner served nicely at seven. Silverware, cut glass, imported china—all the little luxuries of life appealed to him. He kept his trunks and wardrobe at the apartment.

Lester liked to have his breakfast right at eight in the morning. He wanted dinner served nicely at seven. Silverware, cut glass, imported china—all the little luxuries in life appealed to him. He kept his trunks and wardrobe at the apartment.

During the first few months everything went smoothly. He was in the habit of taking Jennie to the theater now and then, and if he chanced to run across an acquaintance he always introduced her as Miss Gerhardt. When he registered her as his wife it was usually under an assumed name; where there was no danger of detection he did not mind using his own signature. Thus far there had been no difficulty or unpleasantness of any kind.

During the first few months, everything went well. He typically took Jennie to the theater occasionally, and if he happened to see someone he knew, he always introduced her as Miss Gerhardt. When he registered her as his wife, it was usually under a fake name; where there was no risk of being found out, he didn't mind using his real signature. So far, there had been no problems or awkwardness at all.

The trouble with this situation was that it was criss-crossed with the danger and consequent worry which the deception in regard to Vesta had entailed, as well as with Jennie’s natural anxiety about her father and the disorganized home. Jennie feared, as Veronica hinted, that she and William would go to live with Martha, who was installed in a boarding-house in Cleveland, and that Gerhardt would be left alone. He was such a pathetic figure to her, with his injured hands and his one ability—that of being a watchman—that she was hurt to think of his being left alone. Would he come to her? She knew that he would not—feeling as he did at present. Would Lester have him—she was not sure of that. If he came Vesta would have to be accounted for. So she worried.

The problem with this situation was that it was filled with the danger and worry that came from the lies about Vesta, along with Jennie’s natural concern for her father and the chaotic home. Jennie worried, as Veronica had suggested, that she and William would end up living with Martha, who was staying at a boarding house in Cleveland, and that Gerhardt would be left alone. He seemed so sad to her, with his hurt hands and his only skill—being a watchman—that it upset her to think of him being by himself. Would he come to her? She knew he wouldn’t—given how he felt right now. Would Lester take him in? She wasn’t sure about that. If he came, they would have to figure out what to do about Vesta. So she was anxious.

The situation in regard to Vesta was really complicated. Owing to the feeling that she was doing her daughter a great injustice, Jennie was particularly sensitive in regard to her, anxious to do a thousand things to make up for the one great duty that she could not perform. She daily paid a visit to the home of Mrs. Olsen, always taking with her toys, candy, or whatever came into her mind as being likely to interest and please the child. She liked to sit with Vesta and tell her stories of fairy and giant, which kept the little girl wide-eyed. At last she went so far as to bring her to the apartment, when Lester was away visiting his parents, and she soon found it possible, during his several absences, to do this regularly. After that, as time went on and she began to know his habits, she became more bold—although bold is scarcely the word to use in connection with Jennie. She became venturesome much as a mouse might; she would risk Vesta’s presence on the assurance of even short absences—two or three days. She even got into the habit of keeping a few of Vesta’s toys at the apartment, so that she could have something to play with when she came.

The situation with Vesta was really complicated. Because she felt she was doing her daughter a huge injustice, Jennie was especially sensitive about her, eager to do a million things to make up for the one big responsibility she couldn’t fulfill. Every day, she visited Mrs. Olsen's house, always bringing toys, candy, or anything she thought might interest and delight the child. She enjoyed sitting with Vesta and telling her stories about fairies and giants, which kept the little girl wide-eyed. Eventually, she even brought Vesta to her apartment when Lester was away visiting his parents, and she soon found it easy to do this regularly during his absences. As time went on and she got to know his routine better, she became bolder—though "bolder" isn’t quite the right word for Jennie. She became daring in a way that could be compared to a mouse; she would take the chance of having Vesta around whenever Lester was gone for even just a couple of days. She even got into the habit of keeping some of Vesta's toys at the apartment so that the child would have something to play with when she came over.

During these several visits from her child Jennie could not but realize the lovely thing life would be were she only an honored wife and a happy mother. Vesta was a most observant little girl. She could by her innocent childish questions give a hundred turns to the dagger of self-reproach which was already planted deeply in Jennie’s heart.

During these visits from her child, Jennie couldn't help but see how wonderful life would be if she were just a respected wife and a happy mom. Vesta was a very observant little girl. With her innocent, childlike questions, she could twist the knife of guilt already lodged deep in Jennie's heart a hundred ways.

“Can I come to live with you?” was one of her simplest and most frequently repeated questions. Jennie would reply that mamma could not have her just yet, but that very soon now, just as soon as she possibly could, Vesta should come to stay always.

“Can I come live with you?” was one of her simplest and most frequently asked questions. Jennie would respond that Mom couldn’t have her just yet, but that very soon, as soon as she possibly could, Vesta would come to stay for good.

“Don’t you know just when?” Vesta would ask.

“Don't you know exactly when?” Vesta would ask.

“No, dearest, not just when. Very soon now. You won’t mind waiting a little while. Don’t you like Mrs. Olsen?”

“No, dear, not just when. Very soon now. You don’t mind waiting a bit, right? Don’t you like Mrs. Olsen?”

“Yes,” replied Vesta; “but then she ain’t got any nice things now. She’s just got old things.” And Jennie, stricken to the heart, would take Vesta to the toy shop, and load her down with a new assortment of playthings.

“Yes,” Vesta replied; “but she doesn’t have any nice things now. She just has old stuff.” And Jennie, feeling heartbroken, would take Vesta to the toy store and fill her up with a new assortment of toys.

Of course Lester was not in the least suspicious. His observation of things relating to the home were rather casual. He went about his work and his pleasures believing Jennie to be the soul of sincerity and good-natured service, and it never occurred to him that there was anything underhanded in her actions. Once he did come home sick in the afternoon and found her absent—an absence which endured from two o’clock to five. He was a little irritated and grumbled on her return, but his annoyance was as nothing to her astonishment and fright when she found him there. She blanched at the thought of his suspecting something, and explained as best she could. She had gone to see her washerwoman. She was slow about her marketing. She didn’t dream he was there. She was sorry, too, that her absence had lost her an opportunity to serve him. It showed her what a mess she was likely to make of it all.

Of course, Lester wasn’t the least bit suspicious. He casually observed things around the house. He went about his work and leisure believing Jennie was completely sincere and genuinely helpful, and it never crossed his mind that there was anything deceitful about her actions. Once, he came home sick in the afternoon and found her missing—she was gone from two o’clock until five. He felt a bit annoyed and grumbled when she returned, but his irritation was nothing compared to her shock and fear at finding him there. She turned pale at the thought of him suspecting something and explained as best as she could. She had gone to see her washerwoman. She took her time with shopping. She had no idea he was home. She also felt bad that her absence kept her from helping him. It made her realize how likely she was to mess everything up.

It happened that about three weeks after the above occurrence Lester had occasion to return to Cincinnati for a week, and during this time Jennie again brought Vesta to the flat; for four days there was the happiest goings on between the mother and child.

It happened that about three weeks after the previous event, Lester had to return to Cincinnati for a week, and during this time Jennie brought Vesta back to the apartment; for four days, there were the happiest times between the mother and child.

Nothing would have come of this little reunion had it not been for an oversight on Jennie’s part, the far-reaching effects of which she could only afterward regret. This was the leaving of a little toy lamb under the large leather divan in the front room, where Lester was wont to lie and smoke. A little bell held by a thread of blue ribbon was fastened about its neck, and this tinkled feebly whenever it was shaken. Vesta, with the unaccountable freakishness of children had deliberately dropped it behind the divan, an action which Jennie did not notice at the time. When she gathered up the various playthings after Vesta’s departure she overlooked it entirely, and there it rested, its innocent eyes still staring upon the sunlit regions of toyland, when Lester returned.

Nothing would have come of this little reunion if it hadn't been for a mistake on Jennie’s part, the impact of which she could only regret later. This was the little toy lamb left under the large leather couch in the front room, where Lester liked to lie and smoke. A small bell attached with a blue ribbon was around its neck, and it jingled softly whenever it was moved. Vesta, in the unpredictable way that children can be, had intentionally dropped it behind the couch, an act that Jennie didn’t notice at the time. When she picked up the various toys after Vesta left, she completely overlooked it, and there it sat, its innocent eyes still gazing at the sunlit corners of toyland, when Lester came back.

That same evening, when he was lying on the divan, quietly enjoying his cigar and his newspaper, he chanced to drop the former, fully lighted. Wishing to recover it before it should do any damage, he leaned over and looked under the divan. The cigar was not in sight, so he rose and pulled the lounge out, a move which revealed to him the little lamb still standing where Vesta had dropped it. He picked it up, turning it over and over, and wondering how it had come there.

That same evening, as he lounged on the couch, quietly enjoying his cigar and reading the newspaper, he accidentally dropped the lit cigar. Wanting to grab it before it caused any damage, he leaned over and looked under the couch. The cigar wasn’t visible, so he got up and pulled the couch out, which revealed the little lamb still standing where Vesta had left it. He picked it up, turning it over and over, wondering how it had ended up there.

A lamb! It must belong to some neighbor’s child in whom Jennie had taken an interest, he thought. He would have to go and tease her about this.

A lamb! It must belong to some neighbor's kid that Jennie was interested in, he thought. He would have to go and tease her about it.

Accordingly he held the toy jovially before him, and, coming out into the dining-room, where Jennie was working at the sideboard, he exclaimed in a mock solemn voice, “Where did this come from?”

Accordingly, he held the toy happily in front of him and, stepping into the dining room where Jennie was working at the sideboard, he exclaimed in a joking serious voice, “Where did this come from?”

Jennie, who was totally unconscious of the existence of this evidence of her duplicity, turned, and was instantly possessed with the idea that he had suspected all and was about to visit his just wrath upon her. Instantly the blood flamed in her cheeks and as quickly left them.

Jennie, completely unaware of the evidence of her deception, turned and suddenly felt that he must have suspected everything and was about to unleash his just anger on her. In an instant, her cheeks burned red and just as quickly, the color drained from them.

“Why, why!” she stuttered, “it’s a little toy I bought.”

“Why, why!” she stammered, “it’s just a little toy I bought.”

“I see it is,” he returned genially, her guilty tremor not escaping his observation, but having at the same time no explicable significance to him. “It’s frisking around a mighty lone sheepfold.”

“I see it is,” he replied cheerfully, noticing her guilty shake but finding it inexplicable at the same time. “It’s frolicking around a very lonely sheepfold.”

He touched the little bell at its throat, while Jennie stood there, unable to speak. It tinkled feebly, and then he looked at her again. His manner was so humorous that she could tell he suspected nothing. However, it was almost impossible for her to recover her self-possession.

He touched the little bell at its throat, while Jennie stood there, unable to speak. It tinkled weakly, and then he looked at her again. His demeanor was so lighthearted that she could tell he suspected nothing. However, it was nearly impossible for her to regain her composure.

“What’s ailing you?” he asked.

"What's bothering you?" he asked.

“Nothing,” she replied.

"Nothing," she said.

“You look as though a lamb was a terrible shock to you.”

“You look like you were really shocked by that lamb.”

“I forgot to take it out from there, that was all,” she went on blindly.

“I forgot to take it out from there, that was all,” she continued, unaware of her surroundings.

“It looks as though it has been played with enough,” he added more seriously, and then seeing that the discussion was evidently painful to her, he dropped it. The lamb had not furnished him the amusement that he had expected.

"It seems like it's been played with enough," he said more seriously, and then noticing that the conversation was clearly upsetting to her, he let it go. The lamb hadn't provided him the fun he had hoped for.

Lester went back into the front room, stretched himself out and thought it over. Why was she nervous? What was there about a toy to make her grow pale? Surely there was no harm in her harboring some youngster of the neighborhood when she was alone—having it come in and play. Why should she be so nervous? He thought it over, but could come to no conclusion.

Lester went back into the front room, stretched out, and thought about it. Why was she so nervous? What was it about a toy that made her go pale? Surely it was harmless for her to have some kid from the neighborhood come over and play when she was alone. Why should she be so anxious? He thought it through but couldn't come to any conclusion.

Nothing more was said about the incident of the toy lamb. Time might have wholly effaced the impression from Lester’s memory had nothing else intervened to arouse his suspicions; but a mishap of any kind seems invariably to be linked with others which follow close upon its heels.

Nothing more was said about the incident with the toy lamb. Time might have completely erased the memory from Lester’s mind if nothing else had come up to spark his suspicions; but any kind of mishap always seems to be connected to others that come right after it.

One evening when Lester happened to be lingering about the flat later than usual the door bell rang, and, Jennie being busy in the kitchen, Lester went himself to open the door. He was greeted by a middle-aged lady, who frowned very nervously upon him, and inquired in broken Swedish accents for Jennie.

One evening, while Lester was hanging around the apartment later than usual, the doorbell rang. With Jennie occupied in the kitchen, Lester went to open the door himself. He was met by a middle-aged woman who frowned at him nervously and asked in a hesitant Swedish accent for Jennie.

“Wait a moment,” said Lester; and stepping to the rear door he called her.

"Hold on a second," said Lester, and he went to the back door to call her.

Jennie came, and seeing who the visitor was, she stepped nervously out in the hall and closed the door after her. The action instantly struck Lester as suspicious. He frowned and determined to inquire thoroughly into the matter. A moment later Jennie reappeared. Her face was white and her fingers seemed to be nervously seeking something to seize upon.

Jennie arrived, and when she saw who the visitor was, she nervously stepped out into the hallway and closed the door behind her. Lester immediately found this suspicious. He frowned and decided to investigate the situation further. A moment later, Jennie came back. Her face was pale, and her fingers appeared to be anxiously searching for something to grab onto.

“What’s the trouble?” he inquired, the irritation he had felt the moment before giving his voice a touch of gruffness.

“What’s the problem?” he asked, the irritation he felt just moments earlier giving his voice a bit of edge.

“I’ve got to go out for a little while,” she at last managed to reply.

“I need to step out for a bit,” she finally managed to reply.

“Very well,” he assented unwillingly. “But you can tell me what’s the trouble with you, can’t you? Where do you have to go?”

“Alright,” he agreed reluctantly. “But you can tell me what’s bothering you, right? Where do you need to go?”

“I—I,” began Jennie, stammering. “I—have—”

“I—I,” started Jennie, stammering. “I—have—”

“Yes,” he said grimly.

“Yes,” he replied grimly.

“I have to go on an errand,” she stumbled on. “I—I can’t wait. I’ll tell you when I come back, Lester. Please don’t ask me now.”

“I have to run an errand,” she fumbled. “I—I can’t wait. I’ll explain when I get back, Lester. Please don’t ask me now.”

She looked vainly at him, her troubled countenance still marked by preoccupation and anxiety to get away, and Lester, who had never seen this look of intense responsibility in her before, was moved and irritated by it.

She looked at him with a hint of vanity, her worried expression still showing signs of her urgent desire to escape, and Lester, who had never noticed this intense sense of responsibility in her before, felt both moved and annoyed by it.

“That’s all right,” he said, “but what’s the use of all this secrecy? Why can’t you come out and tell what’s the matter with you? What’s the use of this whispering behind doors? Where do you have to go?”

“That's fine,” he said, “but what's the point of all this secrecy? Why can't you just come out and say what's going on with you? What's the point of whispering behind closed doors? Where do you need to go?”

He paused, checked by his own harshness, and Jennie, who was intensely wrought up by the information she had received, as well as the unwonted verbal castigation she was now enduring, rose to an emotional state never reached by her before.

He paused, held back by his own harshness, and Jennie, who was extremely upset by the news she had just received, as well as the unusual verbal criticism she was now facing, reached an emotional level she had never experienced before.

“I will, Lester, I will,” she exclaimed. “Only not now. I haven’t time. I’ll tell you everything when I come back. Please don’t stop me now.”

“I will, Lester, I will,” she said. “Just not right now. I don’t have time. I’ll explain everything when I get back. Please don’t hold me up now.”

She hurried to the adjoining chamber to get her wraps, and Lester, who had even yet no clear conception of what it all meant, followed her stubbornly to the door.

She rushed to the next room to grab her coat, and Lester, who still had no clear idea of what it all meant, followed her stubbornly to the door.

“See here,” he exclaimed in his vigorous, brutal way, “you’re not acting right. What’s the matter with you? I want to know.”

“Listen up,” he shouted in his intense, harsh manner, “you’re not behaving properly. What’s going on with you? I want to find out.”

He stood in the doorway, his whole frame exhibiting the pugnacity and settled determination of a man who is bound to be obeyed. Jennie, troubled and driven to bay, turned at last.

He stood in the doorway, his entire presence showing the aggression and firm resolve of a man who demands to be obeyed. Jennie, anxious and cornered, finally turned around.

“It’s my child, Lester,” she exclaimed. “It’s dying. I haven’t time to talk. Oh, please don’t stop me. I’ll tell you everything when I come back.”

“It’s my child, Lester,” she cried. “It’s dying. I don’t have time to talk. Oh, please don’t stop me. I’ll tell you everything when I get back.”

“Your child!” he exclaimed. “What the hell are you talking about?”

“Your kid!” he shouted. “What on earth are you talking about?”

“I couldn’t help it,” she returned. “I was afraid—I should have told you long ago. I meant to only—only—Oh, let me go now, and I’ll tell you all when I come back!”

“I couldn’t help it,” she replied. “I was scared—I should have told you a long time ago. I meant to—only—only—Oh, let me go now, and I’ll explain everything when I come back!”

He stared at her in amazement; then he stepped aside, unwilling to force her any further for the present. “Well, go ahead,” he said quietly. “Don’t you want some one to go along with you?”

He looked at her in shock; then he moved aside, not wanting to push her any further right now. “Go ahead,” he said softly. “Don’t you want someone to go with you?”

“No,” she replied. “Mrs. Olsen is right here. I’ll go with her.”

“No,” she said. “Mrs. Olsen is right here. I’ll go with her.”

She hurried forth, white-faced, and he stood there, pondering. Could this be the woman he had thought he knew? Why, she had been deceiving him for years. Jennie! The white-faced! The simple!

She rushed forward, pale-faced, and he stood there, thinking. Could this be the woman he believed he knew? She had been lying to him for years. Jennie! The pale-faced! The naive!

He choked a little as he muttered:

He choked a bit as he mumbled:

“Well, I’ll be damned!”

"Well, I'll be surprised!"

CHAPTER XXIX

The reason why Jennie had been called was nothing more than one of those infantile seizures the coming and result of which no man can predict two hours beforehand. Vesta had been seriously taken with membranous croup only a few hours before, and the development since had been so rapid that the poor old Swedish mother was half frightened to death herself, and hastily despatched a neighbor to say that Vesta was very ill and Mrs. Kane was to come at once. This message, delivered as it was in a very nervous manner by one whose only object was to bring her, had induced the soul-racking fear of death in Jennie and caused her to brave the discovery of Lester in the manner described. Jennie hurried on anxiously, her one thought being to reach her child before the arm of death could interfere and snatch it from her, her mind weighed upon by a legion of fears. What if it should already be too late when she got there; what if Vesta already should be no more. Instinctively she quickened her pace and as the street lamps came and receded in the gloom she forgot all the sting of Lester’s words, all fear that he might turn her out and leave her alone in a great city with a little child to care for, and remembered only the fact that her Vesta was very ill, possibly dying, and that she was the direct cause of the child’s absence from her; that perhaps but for the want of her care and attention Vesta might be well to-night.

The reason Jennie had been called was simply one of those unpredictable infantile seizures that no one can foresee until just a couple of hours before. Vesta had been severely affected by membranous croup only a few hours earlier, and things had progressed so quickly that the poor old Swedish mother was half scared to death herself, hastily sending a neighbor to inform Jennie that Vesta was very ill, and Mrs. Kane needed to come right away. This message, delivered nervously by someone just trying to bring her along, filled Jennie with a soul-crushing fear of death and led her to confront Lester as she did. Jennie hurried on, anxious, her only thought being to reach her child before death could swoop in and take her away, her mind burdened with a multitude of fears. What if it was already too late when she arrived? What if Vesta was already gone? Instinctively, she quickened her pace, and as the street lamps flickered in and out of the darkness, she forgot all about the sting of Lester’s words and her fear that he might kick her out and leave her alone in this big city with a little child to care for. All she remembered was that her Vesta was very sick, possibly dying, and she felt directly responsible for her child's absence; perhaps if she had only given her more care and attention, Vesta could be fine tonight.

“If I can only get there,” she kept saying to herself; and then, with that frantic unreason which is the chief characteristic of the instinct-driven mother: “I might have known that God would punish me for my unnatural conduct. I might have known—I might have known.”

“If I can just get there,” she kept telling herself; and then, with that desperate irrationality that defines a mother acting on instinct: “I should have known that God would punish me for my unnatural behavior. I should have known—I should have known.”

When she reached the gate she fairly sped up the little walk and into the house, where Vesta was lying pale, quiet, and weak, but considerably better. Several Swedish neighbors and a middle-aged physician were in attendance, all of whom looked at her curiously as she dropped beside the child’s bed and spoke to her.

When she got to the gate, she hurried down the short path and went into the house, where Vesta was lying pale, still, and weak, but much improved. A few Swedish neighbors and a middle-aged doctor were present, and they all looked at her with curiosity as she sat down next to the child's bed and spoke to her.

Jennie’s mind had been made up. She had sinned, and sinned grievously, against her daughter, but now she would make amends so far as possible. Lester was very dear to her, but she would no longer attempt to deceive him in anything, even if he left her—she felt an agonized stab, a pain at the thought—she must still do the one right thing. Vesta must not be an outcast any longer. Her mother must give her a home. Where Jennie was, there must Vesta be.

Jennie had made up her mind. She had sinned, and seriously, against her daughter, but now she was determined to make things right as much as she could. Lester meant a lot to her, but she wouldn't try to deceive him anymore, even if he decided to leave her—which brought her deep pain at the thought. She knew she had to do the right thing. Vesta shouldn't be an outcast anymore. Her mother needed to provide her with a home. Wherever Jennie was, Vesta should be there too.

Sitting by the bedside in this humble Swedish cottage, Jennie realized the fruitlessness of her deception, the trouble and pain it had created in her home, the months of suffering it had given her with Lester, the agony it had heaped upon her this night—and to what end? The truth had been discovered anyhow. She sat there and meditated, not knowing what next was to happen, while Vesta quieted down, and then went soundly to sleep.

Sitting by the bedside in this small Swedish cottage, Jennie realized how pointless her deception had been, the trouble and pain it had caused in her home, the months of suffering it had brought her with Lester, the anguish it had piled on her that night—and for what? The truth had come out anyway. She sat there and thought, unsure of what would happen next, while Vesta settled down and then fell soundly asleep.

Lester, after recovering from the first heavy import of this discovery, asked himself some perfectly natural questions. “Who was the father of the child? How old was it? How did it chance to be in Chicago, and who was taking care of it?” He could ask, but he could not answer; he knew absolutely nothing.

Lester, after getting over the shock of this discovery, asked himself some completely normal questions. “Who was the father of the child? How old was it? How did it end up in Chicago, and who was looking after it?” He could ask these questions, but he had no answers; he knew nothing at all.

Curiously, now, as he thought, his first meeting with Jennie at Mrs. Bracebridge’s came back to him. What was it about her then that had attracted him? What made him think, after a few hours’ observation, that he could seduce her to do his will? What was it—moral looseness, or weakness, or what? There must have been art in the sorry affair, the practised art of the cheat, and, in deceiving such a confiding nature as his, she had done even more than practise deception—she had been ungrateful.

Curiously, as he reflected, his first encounter with Jennie at Mrs. Bracebridge’s came to mind. What was it about her that had drawn him in? What made him think that after just a few hours of watching her, he could manipulate her to do what he wanted? Was it moral looseness, weakness, or something else? There must have been skill in that unfortunate situation, the practiced skill of a deceiver, and by tricking someone as trusting as he was, she had done more than just deceive—she had also been ungrateful.

Now the quality of ingratitude was a very objectionable thing to Lester—the last and most offensive trait of a debased nature, and to be able to discover a trace of it in Jennie was very disturbing. It is true that she had not exhibited it in any other way before—quite to the contrary—but nevertheless he saw strong evidences of it now, and it made him very bitter in his feeling toward her. How could she be guilty of any such conduct toward him? Had he not picked her up out of nothing, so to speak, and befriended her?

Now, the quality of being ungrateful was really off-putting to Lester—it was the last and most offensive trait of a low character, and finding even a hint of it in Jennie was very upsetting. It’s true that she hadn’t shown it before—quite the opposite—but he still saw strong signs of it now, which made him feel very resentful towards her. How could she act like that towards him? Hadn’t he pulled her up from nothing, so to speak, and been there for her?

He moved from his chair in this silent room and began to pace slowly to and fro, the weightiness of this subject exercising to the full his power of decision. She was guilty of a misdeed which he felt able to condemn. The original concealment was evil; the continued deception more. Lastly, there was the thought that her love after all had been divided, part for him, part for the child, a discovery which no man in his position could contemplate with serenity. He moved irritably as he thought of it, shoved his hands in his pockets and walked to and fro across the floor.

He got up from his chair in the quiet room and started to pace back and forth, the heaviness of the topic fully testing his ability to make a decision. She had done something wrong that he felt justified in condemning. The initial hiding of the truth was bad; the ongoing deception was worse. Finally, there was the realization that her love was split between him and the child—a revelation no man in his situation could accept calmly. He moved around restlessly as he considered this, shoved his hands into his pockets, and continued to pace the floor.

That a man of Lester’s temperament should consider himself wronged by Jennie merely because she had concealed a child whose existence was due to conduct no more irregular than was involved later in the yielding of herself to him was an example of those inexplicable perversions of judgment to which the human mind, in its capacity of keeper of the honor of others, seems permanently committed. Lester, aside from his own personal conduct (for men seldom judge with that in the balance), had faith in the ideal that a woman should reveal herself completely to the one man with whom she is in love; and the fact that she had not done so was a grief to him. He had asked her once tentatively about her past. She begged him not to press her. That was the time she should have spoken of any child. Now—he shook his head.

That a guy like Lester would feel wronged by Jennie just because she kept the existence of a child from him, a child that came about under circumstances no more questionable than her later giving herself to him, shows how people's judgment can be so twisted when it comes to protecting others' honor. Lester, aside from his own behavior (since guys rarely judge themselves fairly), believed that a woman should fully open up to the man she loves; the fact that she hadn’t was painful for him. He had once asked her gently about her past. She asked him not to push her. That was when she should have mentioned any child. Now—he shook his head.

His first impulse, after he had thought the thing over, was to walk out and leave her. At the same time he was curious to hear the end of this business. He did put on his hat and coat, however, and went out, stopping at the first convenient saloon to get a drink. He took a car and went down to the club, strolling about the different rooms and chatting with several people whom he encountered. He was restless and irritated; and finally, after three hours of meditation, he took a cab and returned to his apartment.

His first instinct, after thinking it through, was to walk out and leave her. At the same time, he was curious to hear how this would all turn out. Still, he put on his hat and coat and went outside, stopping at the first bar he found to grab a drink. He took a cab and headed down to the club, wandering around the different rooms and chatting with a few people he ran into. He felt restless and annoyed, and finally, after three hours of thinking, he took a cab back to his apartment.

The distraught Jennie, sitting by her sleeping child, was at last made to realize, by its peaceful breathing that all danger was over. There was nothing more that she could do for Vesta, and now the claims of the home that she had deserted began to reassert themselves, the promise to Lester and the need of being loyal to her duties unto the very end. Lester might possibly be waiting for her. It was just probable that he wished to hear the remainder of her story before breaking with her entirely. Although anguished and frightened by the certainty, as she deemed it, of his forsaking her, she nevertheless felt that it was no more than she deserved—a just punishment for all her misdoings.

The distraught Jennie, sitting next to her sleeping child, finally realized, thanks to its peaceful breathing, that all danger was past. There was nothing more she could do for Vesta, and now the responsibilities of the home she had left began to creep back in, the promise she made to Lester and the need to stay loyal to her duties until the very end. Lester might be waiting for her. It was quite likely that he wanted to hear the rest of her story before completely ending things with her. Even though she was tormented and scared by the certainty, as she saw it, of his abandoning her, she still felt that it was nothing more than she deserved—a fitting punishment for all her wrongs.

When Jennie arrived at the flat it was after eleven, and the hall light was already out. She first tried the door, and then inserted her key. No one stirred, however, and, opening the door, she entered in the expectation of seeing Lester sternly confronting her. He was not there, however. The burning gas had merely been an oversight on his part. She glanced quickly about, but seeing only the empty room, she came instantly to the other conclusion, that he had forsaken her—and so stood there, a meditative, helpless figure.

When Jennie got to the apartment, it was after eleven, and the hallway light was already off. She first tried the door and then used her key. No one made a sound, so she opened the door and expected to see Lester waiting for her. But he wasn’t there. The gas that was still on was just a mistake on his part. She quickly looked around, but seeing only the empty room, she immediately thought he had abandoned her—and stood there, lost in thought and feeling helpless.

“Gone!” she thought.

“It's gone!” she thought.

At this moment his footsteps sounded on the stairs. He came in with his derby hat pulled low over his broad forehead, close to his sandy eyebrows, and with his overcoat buttoned up closely about his neck. He took off the coat without looking at Jennie and hung it on the rack. Then he deliberately took off his hat and hung that up also. When he was through he turned to where she was watching him with wide eyes.

At that moment, his footsteps echoed on the stairs. He walked in with his derby hat pulled low over his broad forehead, nearly touching his sandy eyebrows, and his overcoat tightly buttoned up around his neck. He took off the coat without glancing at Jennie and hung it on the rack. Then he purposefully removed his hat and hung that up too. Once he was done, he turned to where she was watching him with wide eyes.

“I want to know about this thing now from beginning to end,” he began. “Whose child is that?”

“I want to know everything about this now, from start to finish,” he said. “Whose child is that?”

Jennie wavered a moment, as one who might be going to take a leap in the dark, then opened her lips mechanically and confessed:

Jennie hesitated for a moment, like someone about to take a leap into the unknown, then opened her mouth automatically and admitted:

“It’s Senator Brander’s.”

"It belongs to Senator Brander."

“Senator Brander!” echoed Lester, the familiar name of the dead but still famous statesman ringing with shocking and unexpected force in his ears. “How did you come to know him?”

“Senator Brander!” Lester exclaimed, the well-known name of the deceased yet still-famous politician resonating with startling and unexpected intensity in his ears. “How did you get to know him?”

“We used to do his washing for him,” she rejoined simply—“my mother and I.”

“We used to do his laundry for him,” she replied simply—“my mom and I.”

Lester paused, the baldness of the statements issuing from her sobering even his rancorous mood. “Senator Brander’s child,” he thought to himself. So that great representative of the interests of the common people was the undoer of her—a self-confessed washerwoman’s daughter. A fine tragedy of low life all this was.

Lester paused, the bluntness of her statements even calming his bitter mood. “Senator Brander’s kid,” he thought to himself. So that prominent advocate for the common people was the one causing her downfall—a self-proclaimed washerwoman’s daughter. This was quite the tragedy of ordinary life.

“How long ago was this?” he demanded, his face the picture of a darkling mood.

“How long ago was this?” he asked, his face showing a dark mood.

“It’s been nearly six years now,” she returned.

“It’s been almost six years now,” she replied.

He calculated the time that had elapsed since he had known her, and then continued:

He figured out how much time had passed since he met her, and then continued:

“How old is the child?”

"What's the child's age?"

“She’s a little over five.”

"She’s just over five."

Lester moved a little. The need for serious thought made his tone more peremptory but less bitter.

Lester shifted slightly. The need for serious consideration made his tone more commanding but less harsh.

“Where have you been keeping her all this time?”

“Where have you been hiding her all this time?”

“She was at home until you went to Cincinnati last spring. I went down and brought her then.”

“She was at home until you went to Cincinnati last spring. I went down and got her then.”

“Was she there the times I came to Cleveland?”

“Was she there when I visited Cleveland?”

“Yes,” said Jennie; “but I didn’t let her come out anywhere where you could see her.”

"Yeah," said Jennie; "but I didn’t let her go anywhere you could see her."

“I thought you said you told your people that you were married,” he exclaimed, wondering how this relationship of the child to the family could have been adjusted.

“I thought you said you told your people that you were married,” he exclaimed, wondering how this relationship of the child to the family could have been adjusted.

“I did,” she replied, “but I didn’t want to tell you about her. They thought all the time I intended to.”

“I did,” she said, “but I didn’t want to tell you about her. They always thought I planned to.”

“Well, why didn’t you?”

"Well, why didn't you?"

“Because I was afraid.”

“Because I was scared.”

“Afraid of what?”

"Scared of what?"

“I didn’t know what was going to become of me when I went with you, Lester. I didn’t want to do her any harm if I could help it. I was ashamed, afterward; when you said you didn’t like children I was afraid.”

“I didn’t know what was going to happen to me when I went with you, Lester. I didn’t want to hurt her if I could avoid it. I felt ashamed afterward; when you said you didn’t like kids, I got scared.”

“Afraid I’d leave you?”

"Afraid I'd break up with you?"

“Yes.”

"Yeah."

He stopped, the simplicity of her answers removing a part of the suspicion of artful duplicity which had originally weighed upon him. After all, there was not so much of that in it as mere wretchedness of circumstance and cowardice of morals. What a family she must have! What queer non-moral natures they must have to have brooked any such a combination of affairs!

He paused, finding her straightforward answers eased some of the doubt about any clever trickery that had initially troubled him. After all, it was less about deceit and more about unfortunate situations and weak morals. What a family she must come from! What strange, amoral people they must be to tolerate such a mess of circumstances!

“Didn’t you know that you’d be found out in the long run?” he at last demanded. “Surely you might have seen that you couldn’t raise her that way. Why didn’t you tell me in the first place? I wouldn’t have thought anything of it then.”

“Didn’t you realize you’d eventually be found out?” he finally asked. “You must have known you couldn’t raise her like that. Why didn’t you tell me from the beginning? I wouldn’t have thought anything of it back then.”

“I know,” she said. “I wanted to protect her.”

“I know,” she said. “I wanted to keep her safe.”

“Where is she now?” he asked.

“Where is she now?” he asked.

Jennie explained.

Jennie explained.

She stood there, the contradictory aspect of these questions and of his attitude puzzling even herself. She did try to explain them after a time, but all Lester could gain was that she had blundered along without any artifice at all—a condition that was so manifest that, had he been in any other position than that he was, he might have pitied her. As it was, the revelation concerning Brander was hanging over him, and he finally returned to that.

She stood there, the conflicting nature of these questions and his attitude confusing even her. She tried to explain them after a while, but all Lester could figure out was that she had stumbled through without any pretense at all—a fact so clear that if he had been in any other situation, he might have felt sorry for her. As it was, the truth about Brander was weighing on him, and he eventually went back to that.

“You say your mother used to do washing for him. How did you come to get in with him?”

“You say your mom used to do laundry for him. How did you end up getting involved with him?”

Jennie, who until now had borne his questions with unmoving pain, winced at this. He was now encroaching upon the period that was by far the most distressing memory of her life. What he had just asked seemed to be a demand upon her to make everything clear.

Jennie, who had been enduring his questions with silent suffering, flinched at this. He was now touching on the time that was by far the most painful memory of her life. What he had just asked felt like a demand for her to lay it all out clearly.

“I was so young, Lester,” she pleaded. “I was only eighteen. I didn’t know. I used to go to the hotel where he was stopping and get his laundry, and at the end of the week I’d take it to him again.”

“I was so young, Lester,” she pleaded. “I was only eighteen. I didn’t know. I used to go to the hotel where he was staying and pick up his laundry, and at the end of the week, I’d return it to him.”

She paused, and as he took a chair, looking as if he expected to hear the whole story, she continued: “We were so poor. He used to give me money to give to my mother. I didn’t know.”

She paused, and as he took a seat, looking like he expected to hear the whole story, she continued: “We were so broke. He used to give me cash to give to my mom. I didn’t know.”

She paused again, totally unable to go on, and he, seeing that it would be impossible for her to explain without prompting, took up his questioning again—eliciting by degrees the whole pitiful story. Brander had intended to marry her. He had written to her, but before he could come to her he died.

She paused again, completely unable to continue, and he, realizing that she couldn’t explain without some encouragement, started asking his questions again—slowly bringing out the entire sad story. Brander had planned to marry her. He had written to her, but before he could reach her, he died.

The confession was complete. It was followed by a period of five minutes, in which Lester said nothing at all; he put his arm on the mantel and stared at the wall, while Jennie waited, not knowing what would follow—not wishing to make a single plea. The clock ticked audibly. Lester’s face betrayed no sign of either thought or feeling. He was now quite calm, quite sober, wondering what he should do. Jennie was before him as the criminal at the bar. He, the righteous, the moral, the pure of heart, was in the judgment seat. Now to sentence her—to make up his mind what course of action he should pursue.

The confession was complete. There was a five-minute pause during which Lester said nothing; he rested his arm on the mantel and stared at the wall while Jennie waited, unsure of what would happen next and not wanting to plead at all. The clock ticked loudly. Lester’s face showed no signs of thought or feeling. He was calm and sober now, contemplating what he should do. Jennie stood before him like a criminal at the bar. He, the righteous, the moral one, the pure of heart, was in the judgment seat. Now it was time to decide her fate—to determine what course of action he should take.

It was a disagreeable tangle, to be sure, something that a man of his position and wealth really ought not to have anything to do with. This child, the actuality of it, put an almost unbearable face upon the whole matter—and yet he was not quite prepared to speak. He turned after a time, the silvery tinkle of the French clock on the mantel striking three and causing him to become aware of Jennie, pale, uncertain, still standing as she had stood all this while.

It was definitely an uncomfortable mess, something that a man of his status and wealth really shouldn’t be involved with at all. The reality of this child made the situation nearly impossible to handle—and yet he wasn’t quite ready to say anything. After a while, he turned as the silvery chime of the French clock on the mantel struck three, reminding him of Jennie, who looked pale and unsure, still standing there just like she had been the whole time.

“Better go to bed,” he said at last, and fell again to pondering this difficult problem.

“Better get some sleep,” he said finally, and went back to thinking about this tough problem.

But Jennie continued to stand there wide-eyed, expectant, ready to hear at any moment his decision as to her fate. She waited in vain, however. After a long time of musing he turned and went to the clothes-rack near the door.

But Jennie kept standing there, wide-eyed and hopeful, ready to hear at any moment what he decided about her future. She waited in vain, though. After a long time of thinking, he turned and walked over to the clothes rack by the door.

“Better go to bed,” he said, indifferently. “I’m going out.”

“Better get to bed,” he said, casually. “I’m heading out.”

She turned instinctively, feeling that even in this crisis there was some little service that she might render, but he did not see her. He went out, vouchsafing no further speech.

She turned instinctively, sensing that even in this crisis there was a small way she could help, but he didn’t notice her. He left without saying anything more.

She looked after him, and as his footsteps sounded on the stair she felt as if she were doomed and hearing her own death-knell. What had she done? What would he do now? She stood there a dissonance of despair, and when the lower door clicked moved her hand out of the agony of her suppressed hopelessness.

She took care of him, and as she heard his footsteps on the stairs, she felt like she was doomed, hearing her own death sentence. What had she done? What would he do now? She stood there, filled with despair, and when the lower door clicked, she moved her hand out of the pain of her silent hopelessness.

“Gone!” she thought. “Gone!”

“Lost!” she thought. “Lost!”

In the light of a late dawn she was still sitting there pondering, her state far too urgent for idle tears.

In the light of a late dawn, she was still sitting there, deep in thought, her situation too serious for pointless tears.

CHAPTER XXX

The sullen, philosophic Lester was not so determined upon his future course of action as he appeared to be. Stern as was his mood, he did not see, after all, exactly what grounds he had for complaint. And yet the child’s existence complicated matters considerably. He did not like to see the evidence of Jennie’s previous misdeeds walking about in the shape of a human being; but, as a matter of fact, he admitted to himself that long ago he might have forced Jennie’s story out of her if he had gone about it in earnest. She would not have lied, he knew that. At the very outset he might have demanded the history of her past. He had not done so; well, now it was too late. The one thing it did fix in his mind was that it would be useless to ever think of marrying her. It couldn’t be done, not by a man in his position. The best solution of the problem was to make reasonable provision for Jennie and then leave her. He went to his hotel with his mind made up, but he did not actually say to himself that he would do it at once.

The gloomy, thoughtful Lester wasn't as set on his future plans as he seemed. Even though he felt serious, he couldn’t quite pinpoint why he was upset. Still, the child’s presence made everything more complicated. He didn’t like seeing the proof of Jennie's past mistakes walking around as a person; however, he admitted to himself that long ago he could have gotten the truth out of Jennie if he’d really tried. He knew she wouldn't have lied. At the very beginning, he could have asked her about her past. He hadn't done that; now it was too late. The one thing it solidified in his mind was that it would be pointless to ever think about marrying her. It just couldn’t happen, not for a man in his situation. The best way to handle it was to provide for Jennie reasonably and then walk away. He returned to his hotel with his mind made up, but he didn’t actually tell himself that he would do it right away.

It is an easy thing for a man to theorize in a situation of this kind, quite another to act. Our comforts, appetites and passions grow with usage, and Jennie was not only a comfort, but an appetite, with him. Almost four years of constant association had taught him so much about her and himself that he was not prepared to let go easily or quickly. It was too much of a wrench. He could think of it bustling about the work of a great organization during the daytime, but when night came it was a different matter. He could be lonely, too, he discovered much to his surprise, and it disturbed him.

It's easy for a person to come up with theories in a situation like this, but it's a whole different story to take action. Our comforts, desires, and passions grow with habit, and Jennie was not just a comfort, but also a desire for him. Almost four years of constant connection had taught him so much about her and himself that he wasn't ready to let go easily or quickly. It would be too much of a shock. He could think about it while busy with the work of a large organization during the day, but when night fell, it was another story. He also discovered he could feel lonely, which surprised him and unsettled him.

One of the things that interested him in this situation was Jennie’s early theory that the intermingling of Vesta with him and her in this new relationship would injure the child. Just how did she come by that feeling, he wanted to know? His place in the world was better than hers, yet it dawned on him after a time that there might have been something in her point of view. She did not know who he was or what he would do with her. He might leave her shortly. Being uncertain, she wished to protect her baby. That wasn’t so bad. Then again, he was curious to know what the child was like. The daughter of a man like Senator Brander might be somewhat of an infant. He was a brilliant man and Jennie was a charming woman. He thought of this, and, while it irritated him, it aroused his curiosity. He ought to go back and see the child—he was really entitled to a view of it—but he hesitated because of his own attitude in the beginning. It seemed to him that he really ought to quit, and here he was parleying with himself.

One of the things that caught his attention in this situation was Jennie’s initial belief that mixing Vesta with him and her in this new relationship would somehow harm the child. He wanted to know where that feeling came from. His status in the world was better than hers, yet he realized after a while that she might have a valid point. She didn’t know who he was or what he might do with her. He could leave her at any time. Given the uncertainty, she wanted to protect her baby. That wasn’t unreasonable. On the other hand, he was curious about what the child would be like. The daughter of a man like Senator Brander could be a bit of a prodigy. He was a brilliant man, and Jennie was a lovely woman. He thought about this, and while it frustrated him, it also piqued his curiosity. He should go back and see the child—he really had the right to see it—but he hesitated because of his attitude at the start. It felt like he really should just walk away, yet here he was, debating with himself.

The truth was that he couldn’t. These years of living with Jennie had made him curiously dependent upon her. Who had ever been so close to him before? His mother loved him, but her attitude toward him had not so much to do with real love as with ambition. His father—well, his father was a man, like himself. All of his sisters were distinctly wrapped up in their own affairs; Robert and he were temperamentally uncongenial. With Jennie he had really been happy, he had truly lived. She was necessary to him; the longer he stayed away from her the more he wanted her. He finally decided to have a straight-out talk with her, to arrive at some sort of understanding. She ought to get the child and take care of it. She must understand that he might eventually want to quit. She ought to be made to feel that a definite change had taken place, though no immediate break might occur. That same evening he went out to the apartment. Jennie heard him enter, and her heart began to flutter. Then she took her courage in both hands, and went to meet him.

The truth was that he couldn’t. These years of living with Jennie had made him oddly dependent on her. Who had ever been that close to him before? His mother loved him, but her feelings for him were more about ambition than real love. His father—well, his father was just a man, like him. All of his sisters were completely wrapped up in their own lives; Robert and he didn’t get along at all. With Jennie, he had genuinely been happy; he had truly lived. She was essential to him; the longer he stayed away from her, the more he wanted her. He finally decided to have an honest conversation with her to come to some kind of understanding. She should get the child and take care of it. She needed to know that he might eventually want to walk away. She should feel that something significant had changed, even if no immediate break would happen. That same evening, he went over to the apartment. Jennie heard him come in, and her heart started to race. Then she took a deep breath and went to meet him.

“There’s just one thing to be done about this as far as I can see,” began Lester, with characteristic directness.

“There’s just one thing we can do about this, as far as I can see,” started Lester, with his usual straightforwardness.

“Get the child and bring her here where you can take care of her. There’s no use leaving her in the hands of strangers.”

“Bring the child here so you can look after her. There's no point in leaving her with strangers.”

“I will, Lester,” said Jennie submissively. “I always wanted to.”

“I will, Lester,” Jennie replied obediently. “I always wanted to.”

“Very well, then, you’d better do it at once.” He took an evening newspaper out of his pocket and strolled toward one of the front windows; then he turned to her. “You and I might as well understand each other, Jennie,” he went on. “I can see how this thing came about. It was a piece of foolishness on my part not to have asked you before, and made you tell me. It was silly for you to conceal it, even if you didn’t want the child’s life mixed with mine. You might have known that it couldn’t be done. That’s neither here nor there, though, now. The thing that I want to point out is that one can’t live and hold a relationship such as ours without confidence. You and I had that, I thought. I don’t see my way clear to ever hold more than a tentative relationship with you on this basis. The thing is too tangled. There’s too much cause for scandal.”

“Alright then, you should just do it right away.” He pulled an evening newspaper out of his pocket and walked over to one of the front windows; then he turned to her. “We might as well be honest with each other, Jennie,” he continued. “I understand how we got here. It was foolish of me not to ask you earlier and just have you tell me. It was also silly for you to hide it, even if you didn’t want the child’s life connected to mine. You had to know that wouldn’t work. But that’s not the main point now. What I want to emphasize is that you can’t sustain a relationship like ours without trust. I thought we had that. I can’t see how we can have anything more than a shaky relationship like this. It’s too complicated. There’s too much that could lead to scandal.”

“I know,” said Jennie.

"I know," Jennie said.

“Now, I don’t propose to do anything hasty. For my part I don’t see why things can’t go on about as they are—certainly for the present—but I want you to look the facts in the face.”

“Now, I’m not suggesting we do anything rash. As far as I’m concerned, I don’t see why things can’t continue as they are—at least for now—but I need you to acknowledge the reality of the situation.”

Jennie sighed. “I know, Lester,” she said, “I know.”

Jennie sighed. “I get it, Lester,” she said, “I really do.”

He went to the window and stared out. There were some trees in the yard, where the darkness was settling. He wondered how this would really come out, for he liked a home atmosphere. Should he leave the apartment and go to his club?

He walked to the window and looked outside. There were some trees in the yard, and the darkness was beginning to settle in. He wondered how this would turn out because he liked a homey vibe. Should he leave the apartment and head to his club?

“You’d better get the dinner,” he suggested, after a time, turning toward her irritably; but he did not feel so distant as he looked. It was a shame that life could not be more decently organized. He strolled back to his lounge, and Jennie went about her duties. She was thinking of Vesta, of her ungrateful attitude toward Lester, of his final decision never to marry her. So that was how one dream had been wrecked by folly.

“You should probably get dinner,” he suggested after a while, turning toward her with irritation; but he didn’t feel as distant as he appeared. It was a shame that life couldn’t be more reasonably organized. He walked back to his lounge while Jennie attended to her tasks. She was thinking about Vesta, her ungrateful attitude toward Lester, and his final choice never to marry her. So that’s how one dream had been destroyed by foolishness.

She spread the table, lighted the pretty silver candles, made his favorite biscuit, put a small leg of lamb in the oven to roast, and washed some lettuce-leaves for a salad. She had been a diligent student of a cook-book for some time, and she had learned a good deal from her mother. All the time she was wondering how the situation would work out. He would leave her eventually—no doubt of that. He would go away and marry some one else.

She set the table, lit the beautiful silver candles, made his favorite biscuits, put a small leg of lamb in the oven to roast, and washed some lettuce for a salad. She had been studying a cookbook closely for a while and had learned a lot from her mom. All the while, she was wondering how things would turn out. He would eventually leave her—there was no doubt about that. He would go away and marry someone else.

“Oh, well,” she thought finally, “he is not going to leave me right away—that is something. And I can bring Vesta here.” She sighed as she carried the things to the table. If life would only give her Lester and Vesta together—but that hope was over.

“Oh, well,” she thought finally, “he’s not going to leave me right away—that’s something. And I can bring Vesta here.” She sighed as she carried the things to the table. If only life would let her have Lester and Vesta together—but that hope was gone.

CHAPTER XXXI

There was peace and quiet for some time after this storm. Jennie went the next day and brought Vesta away with her. The joy of the reunion between mother and child made up for many other worries. “Now I can do by her as I ought,” she thought; and three or four times during the day she found herself humming a little song.

There was peace and quiet for a while after this storm. The next day, Jennie came and took Vesta away with her. The happiness of the reunion between mother and child made up for many other concerns. “Now I can take care of her the way I should,” she thought; and three or four times during the day, she caught herself humming a little tune.

Lester came only occasionally at first. He was trying to make himself believe that he ought to do something toward reforming his life—toward bringing about that eventual separation which he had suggested. He did not like the idea of a child being in this apartment—particularly that particular child. He fought his way through a period of calculated neglect, and then began to return to the apartment more regularly. In spite of all its drawbacks, it was a place of quiet, peace, and very notable personal comfort.

Lester only showed up occasionally at first. He was trying to convince himself that he needed to take some steps to change his life—toward achieving that eventual separation he had mentioned. He didn't like the thought of a child being in this apartment—especially that specific child. He struggled through a time of deliberate neglect, and then started coming back to the apartment more frequently. Despite all its flaws, it was a place of calm, peace, and significant personal comfort.

During the first days of Lester’s return it was difficult for Jennie to adjust matters so as to keep the playful, nervous, almost uncontrollable child from annoying the staid, emphatic, commercial-minded man. Jennie gave Vesta a severe talking to the first night Lester telephoned that he was coming, telling her that he was a very bad-tempered man who didn’t like children, and that she mustn’t go near him. “You mustn’t talk,” she said. “You mustn’t ask questions. Let mamma ask you what you want. And don’t reach, ever.”

During the first few days after Lester came back, Jennie struggled to figure out how to keep the playful, fidgety, almost uncontrollable child from irritating the serious, strong-willed, business-minded man. That first night Lester called to say he was coming, Jennie gave Vesta a stern warning, telling her that he was a very bad-tempered guy who didn’t like kids, and that she should stay away from him. “You shouldn’t talk,” she said. “You shouldn’t ask questions. Let Mom ask you what you want. And don’t reach, ever.”

Vesta agreed solemnly, but her childish mind hardly grasped the full significance of the warning.

Vesta nodded seriously, but her young mind barely understood the full meaning of the warning.

Lester came at seven. Jennie, who had taken great pains to array Vesta as attractively as possible, had gone into her bedroom to give her own toilet a last touch. Vesta was supposedly in the kitchen. As a matter of fact, she had followed her mother to the door of the sitting-room, where now she could be plainly seen. Lester hung up his hat and coat, then, turning, he caught his first glimpse. The child looked very sweet—he admitted that at a glance. She was arrayed in a blue-dotted, white flannel dress, with a soft roll collar and cuffs, and the costume was completed by white stockings and shoes. Her corn-colored ringlets hung gaily about her face. Blue eyes, rosy lips, rosy cheeks completed the picture. Lester stared, almost inclined to say something, but restrained himself. Vesta shyly retreated.

Lester arrived at seven. Jennie, having put a lot of effort into making Vesta look as cute as possible, had gone into her bedroom for a final touch-up. Vesta was supposed to be in the kitchen. Actually, she had followed her mother to the door of the living room, where she was now clearly visible. Lester hung up his hat and coat, then turned and caught his first sight of her. The child looked very sweet—he admitted that immediately. She was wearing a white flannel dress with blue polka dots, featuring a soft roll collar and cuffs, completed with white stockings and shoes. Her golden ringlets bounced around her face. Blue eyes, rosy lips, and rosy cheeks finished off the look. Lester stared, almost ready to say something, but kept quiet. Vesta shyly backed away.

When Jennie came out he commented on the fact that Vesta had arrived. “Rather sweet-looking child,” he said. “Do you have much trouble in making her mind?”

When Jennie came out, he mentioned that Vesta had arrived. “She’s a pretty cute kid,” he said. “Do you have a hard time getting her to listen?”

“Not much,” she returned.

"Not much," she replied.

Jennie went on to the dining-room, and Lester overheard a scrap of their conversation.

Jennie walked into the dining room, and Lester caught part of their conversation.

“Who are he?” asked Vesta.

“Who is he?” asked Vesta.

“Sh! That’s your Uncle Lester. Didn’t I tell you you mustn’t talk?”

“Shh! That’s your Uncle Lester. Didn’t I tell you not to talk?”

“Are he your uncle?”

“Is he your uncle?”

“No, dear. Don’t talk now. Run into the kitchen.”

“No, sweetie. Don’t talk right now. Go into the kitchen.”

“Are he only my uncle?”

“Is he only my uncle?”

“Yes. Now run along.”

“Yep. Now go along.”

“All right.”

"Okay."

In spite of himself Lester had to smile.

In spite of himself, Lester couldn't help but smile.

What might have followed if the child had been homely, misshapen, peevish, or all three, can scarcely be conjectured. Had Jennie been less tactful, even in the beginning, he might have obtained a disagreeable impression. As it was, the natural beauty of the child, combined with the mother’s gentle diplomacy in keeping her in the background, served to give him that fleeting glimpse of innocence and youth which is always pleasant. The thought struck him that Jennie had been the mother of a child all these years; she had been separated from it for months at a time; she had never even hinted at its existence, and yet her affection for Vesta was obviously great. “It’s queer,” he said. “She’s a peculiar woman.”

What might have happened if the child had been unattractive, awkward, grumpy, or all three is hard to imagine. If Jennie had been less skilled at handling the situation, even at first, he might have formed an unpleasant opinion. Instead, the child's natural beauty, along with the mother's gentle way of keeping her out of the spotlight, gave him that brief glimpse of innocence and youth that is always nice to see. It struck him that Jennie had been a mother all these years; she had spent months away from her child at a time; she had never even mentioned it, and yet her affection for Vesta was clearly strong. “It’s odd,” he said. “She’s a strange woman.”

One morning Lester was sitting in the parlor reading his paper when he thought he heard something stir. He turned, and was surprised to see a large blue eye fixed upon him through the crack of a neighboring door—the effect was most disconcerting. It was not like the ordinary eye, which, under such embarrassing circumstances, would have been immediately withdrawn; it kept its position with deliberate boldness. He turned his paper solemnly and looked again. There was the eye. He turned it again. Still was the eye present. He crossed his legs and looked again. Now the eye was gone.

One morning, Lester was sitting in the living room reading his newspaper when he thought he heard something move. He looked over and was surprised to see a big blue eye staring at him through the crack of a nearby door—the effect was really unsettling. It wasn’t like a usual eye that would quickly look away in such awkward circumstances; it stayed put with unsettling boldness. He seriously turned his paper and looked again. There was the eye. He turned it again. The eye was still there. He crossed his legs and looked again. Now the eye was gone.

This little episode, unimportant in itself, was yet informed with the saving grace of comedy, a thing to which Lester was especially responsive. Although not in the least inclined to relax his attitude of aloofness, he found his mind, in the minutest degree, tickled by the mysterious appearance; the corners of his mouth were animated by a desire to turn up. He did not give way to the feeling, and stuck by his paper, but the incident remained very clearly in his mind. The young wayfarer had made her first really important impression upon him.

This small incident, insignificant on its own, was still filled with the redeeming quality of comedy, which Lester particularly appreciated. While he had no intention of dropping his cool demeanor, he felt a slight tickle of amusement from the unexpected appearance; the corners of his mouth threatened to smile. He didn’t give in to the feeling and focused on his paper, but the moment stayed vividly in his thoughts. The young traveler had made her first truly significant impression on him.

Not long after this Lester was sitting one morning at breakfast, calmly eating his chop and conning his newspaper, when he was aroused by another visitation—this time not quite so simple. Jennie had given Vesta her breakfast, and set her to amuse herself alone until Lester should leave the house. Jennie was seated at the table, pouring out the coffee, when Vesta suddenly appeared, very business-like in manner, and marched through the room. Lester looked up, and Jennie colored and arose.

Not long after this, Lester was sitting at breakfast one morning, calmly eating his chop and reading the newspaper when he was interrupted by another visitor—this time not so straightforward. Jennie had fed Vesta her breakfast and had set her up to entertain herself until Lester left the house. Jennie was at the table, pouring coffee, when Vesta suddenly walked in, looking very serious and purposeful, and marched through the room. Lester glanced up, and Jennie blushed and stood up.

“What is it, Vesta?” she inquired, following her.

“What’s wrong, Vesta?” she asked, trailing after her.

By this time, however, Vesta had reached the kitchen, secured a little broom, and returned, a droll determination lighting her face.

By this time, though, Vesta had made her way to the kitchen, grabbed a small broom, and come back, a quirky determination shining on her face.

“I want my little broom,” she exclaimed and marched sedately past, at which manifestation of spirit Lester again twitched internally, this time allowing the slightest suggestion of a smile to play across his mouth.

“I want my little broom,” she said, marching calmly past. At this display of spirit, Lester twitched internally again, this time letting the faintest hint of a smile appear on his lips.

The final effect of this intercourse was gradually to break down the feeling of distaste Lester had for the child, and to establish in its place a sort of tolerant recognition of her possibilities as a human being.

The end result of this interaction was slowly to lessen the dislike Lester had for the child and to replace it with a kind of accepting awareness of her potential as a human being.

The developments of the next six months were of a kind to further relax the strain of opposition which still existed in Lester’s mind. Although not at all resigned to the somewhat tainted atmosphere in which he was living, he yet found himself so comfortable that he could not persuade himself to give it up. It was too much like a bed of down. Jennie was too worshipful. The condition of unquestioned liberty, so far as all his old social relationships were concerned, coupled with the privilege of quiet, simplicity, and affection in the home was too inviting. He lingered on, and began to feel that perhaps it would be just as well to let matters rest as they were.

The events of the next six months helped ease the tension in Lester's mind. While he wasn’t completely okay with the slightly uncomfortable environment he was in, he found himself too at ease to walk away. It felt too much like a cozy bed. Jennie was overly devoted. The freedom from any old social obligations, combined with the peacefulness, simplicity, and love at home, was too tempting. He stuck around, and started to think that maybe it was better to just leave things as they were.

During this period his friendly relations with the little Vesta insensibly strengthened. He discovered that there was a real flavor of humor about Vesta’s doings, and so came to watch for its development. She was forever doing something interesting, and although Jennie watched over her with a care that was in itself a revelation to him, nevertheless Vesta managed to elude every effort to suppress her and came straight home with her remarks. Once, for example, she was sawing away at a small piece of meat upon her large plate with her big knife, when Lester remarked to Jennie that it might be advisable to get her a little breakfast set.

During this time, his friendly relationship with little Vesta gradually grew stronger. He realized there was a real sense of humor about Vesta's antics, and he began to look forward to seeing how they would unfold. She was always doing something interesting, and even though Jennie kept a watchful eye on her, which was eye-opening for him, Vesta still managed to escape every attempt to keep her in check and came home with her stories. For instance, one time she was cutting into a small piece of meat on her large plate with her big knife when Lester said to Jennie that it might be a good idea to get her a little breakfast set.

“She can hardly handle these knives.”

“She can barely manage these knives.”

“Yes,” said Vesta instantly. “I need a little knife. My hand is just so very little.”

“Yes,” Vesta replied immediately. “I need a small knife. My hand is just too tiny.”

She held it up. Jennie, who never could tell what was to follow, reached over and put it down, while Lester with difficulty restrained a desire to laugh.

She held it up. Jennie, who could never predict what would come next, leaned over and set it down, while Lester struggled to hold back his laughter.

Another morning, not long after, she was watching Jennie put the lumps of sugar in Lester’s cup, when she broke in with, “I want two lumps in mine, mamma.”

Another morning, soon after, she was watching Jennie put the sugar cubes in Lester’s cup when she interrupted with, “I want two cubes in mine, mom.”

“No, dearest,” replied Jennie, “you don’t need any in yours. You have milk to drink.”

“No, sweetheart,” Jennie replied, “you don’t need any in yours. You have milk to drink.”

“Uncle Lester has two,” she protested.

“Uncle Lester has two,” she argued.

“Yes,” returned Jennie; “but you’re only a little girl. Besides you mustn’t say anything like that at the table. It isn’t nice.”

“Yes,” Jennie replied, “but you’re just a little girl. Also, you shouldn’t say things like that at the table. It’s not nice.”

“Uncle Lester eats too much sugar,” was her immediate rejoinder, at which that fine gourmet smiled broadly.

“Uncle Lester eats way too much sugar,” was her quick reply, at which that fantastic gourmet grinned widely.

“I don’t know about that,” he put in, for the first time deigning to answer her directly. “That sounds like the fox and grapes to me.” Vesta smiled back at him, and now that the ice was broken she chattered on unrestrainedly. One thing led to another, and at last Lester felt as though, in a way, the little girl belonged to him; he was willing even that she should share in such opportunities as his position and wealth might make possible—provided, of course, that he stayed with Jennie, and that they worked out some arrangement which would not put him hopelessly out of touch with the world which was back of him, and which he had to keep constantly in mind.

“I’m not sure about that,” he replied, for the first time choosing to answer her directly. “That sounds like the fox and grapes to me.” Vesta smiled back at him, and with the ice broken, she chatted away freely. One topic led to another, and eventually, Lester felt as if the little girl somehow belonged to him; he was even willing for her to benefit from the opportunities his position and wealth could provide—on the condition that he stayed with Jennie and they figured out some arrangement that wouldn’t completely disconnect him from the world he had to keep in mind.

CHAPTER XXXII

The following spring the show-rooms and warehouse were completed, and Lester removed his office to the new building. Heretofore, he had been transacting all his business affairs at the Grand Pacific and the club. From now on he felt himself to be firmly established in Chicago—as if that was to be his future home. A large number of details were thrown upon him—the control of a considerable office force, and the handling of various important transactions. It took away from him the need of traveling, that duty going to Amy’s husband, under the direction of Robert. The latter was doing his best to push his personal interests, not only through the influence he was bringing to bear upon his sisters, but through his reorganization of the factory. Several men whom Lester was personally fond of were in danger of elimination. But Lester did not hear of this, and Kane senior was inclined to give Robert a free hand. Age was telling on him. He was glad to see some one with a strong policy come up and take charge. Lester did not seem to mind. Apparently he and Robert were on better terms than ever before.

The following spring, the showrooms and warehouse were finished, and Lester moved his office to the new building. Until then, he had conducted all his business at the Grand Pacific and the club. From this point on, he felt firmly settled in Chicago, as if it were going to be his future home. A lot of responsibilities were placed on him—the management of a sizable office staff and handling various important deals. This eliminated the need for him to travel, a task that fell to Amy's husband, under Robert's direction. Robert was doing his best to advance his personal interests, both through the influence he had over his sisters and through the restructuring of the factory. Several men Lester personally liked were at risk of being cut. However, Lester didn’t hear about this, and Kane senior was inclined to give Robert free rein. Age was taking a toll on him. He was happy to see someone with a strong approach step up and take charge. Lester didn’t seem to mind. Apparently, he and Robert were on better terms than ever.

Matters might have gone on smoothly enough were it not for the fact that Lester’s private life with Jennie was not a matter which could be permanently kept under cover. At times he was seen driving with her by people who knew him in a social and commercial way. He was for brazening it out on the ground that he was a single man, and at liberty to associate with anybody he pleased. Jennie might be any young woman of good family in whom he was interested. He did not propose to introduce her to anybody if he could help it, and he always made it a point to be a fast traveler in driving, in order that others might not attempt to detain and talk to him. At the theater, as has been said, she was simply “Miss Gerhardt.”

Things might have gone along fine if Lester's private life with Jennie could have stayed hidden. Sometimes, people who knew him socially and professionally saw him driving with her. He intended to face it head-on, claiming he was a single man free to associate with whoever he wanted. Jennie could be any young woman from a good family that he was interested in. He didn't plan to introduce her to anyone if he could avoid it, and he always drove fast to prevent others from trying to stop and chat with him. At the theater, as mentioned, she was simply “Miss Gerhardt.”

The trouble was that many of his friends were also keen observers of life. They had no quarrel to pick with Lester’s conduct. Only he had been seen in other cities, in times past, with this same woman. She must be some one whom he was maintaining irregularly. Well, what of it? Wealth and youthful spirits must have their fling. Rumors came to Robert, who, however, kept his own counsel. If Lester wanted to do this sort of thing, well and good. But there must come a time when there would be a show-down.

The problem was that many of his friends were also sharp observers of life. They didn't have any issues with Lester's behavior. The only thing was that he had been spotted in other cities before with this same woman. She must be someone he was seeing on the side. So what? Riches and young people should enjoy themselves. Robert heard the gossip, but he kept his thoughts to himself. If Lester wanted to live that way, fine by him. But eventually, there would have to be a confrontation.

This came about in one form about a year and a half after Lester and Jennie had been living in the north side apartment. It so happened that, during a stretch of inclement weather in the fall, Lester was seized with a mild form of grip. When he felt the first symptoms he thought that his indisposition would be a matter of short duration, and tried to overcome it by taking a hot bath and a liberal dose of quinine. But the infection was stronger than he counted on; by morning he was flat on his back, with a severe fever and a splitting headache.

This happened about a year and a half after Lester and Jennie had moved into the apartment on the north side. During a period of bad weather in the fall, Lester caught a mild case of the flu. At first, when he noticed the symptoms, he thought it would pass quickly, so he tried to fight it off with a hot bath and a hefty dose of quinine. However, the illness turned out to be tougher than he expected; by morning, he was flat on his back with a high fever and a pounding headache.

His long period of association with Jennie had made him incautious. Policy would have dictated that he should betake himself to his hotel and endure his sickness alone. As a matter of fact, he was very glad to be in the house with her. He had to call up the office to say that he was indisposed and would not be down for a day or so; then he yielded himself comfortably to her patient ministrations.

His extended time spent with Jennie had made him careless. Logic would suggest that he should head back to his hotel and deal with his illness by himself. In reality, he was really happy to be in the house with her. He had to call the office to let them know he was unwell and wouldn’t be in for a day or so; then he comfortably surrendered to her caring attention.

Jennie, of course, was delighted to have Lester with her, sick or well. She persuaded him to see a doctor and have him prescribe. She brought him potions of hot lemonade, and bathed his face and hands in cold water over and over. Later, when he was recovering, she made him appetizing cups of beef-tea or gruel.

Jennie was, of course, happy to have Lester with her, whether he was sick or well. She convinced him to see a doctor and get a prescription. She brought him hot lemonade and repeatedly bathed his face and hands in cold water. Later, as he started to recover, she made him delicious cups of beef tea or gruel.

It was during this illness that the first real contretemps occurred. Lester’s sister Louise, who had been visiting friends in St. Paul, and who had written him that she might stop off to see him on her way, decided upon an earlier return than she had originally planned. While Lester was sick at his apartment she arrived in Chicago. Calling up the office, and finding that he was not there and would not be down for several days, she asked where he could be reached.

It was during this illness that the first real issue came up. Lester’s sister Louise, who had been visiting friends in St. Paul and had written to him saying she might stop by to see him on her way, decided to come back earlier than she originally intended. While Lester was sick at his apartment, she arrived in Chicago. She called the office, found out he wasn’t there and wouldn’t be coming down for several days, and asked where she could reach him.

“I think he is at his rooms in the Grand Pacific,” said an incautious secretary. “He’s not feeling well.” Louise, a little disturbed, telephoned to the Grand Pacific, and was told that Mr. Kane had not been there for several days—did not, as a matter of fact, occupy his rooms more than one or two days a week. Piqued by this, she telephoned his club.

“I think he's in his room at the Grand Pacific,” said an overly candid secretary. “He’s not feeling well.” Louise, slightly unsettled, called the Grand Pacific and was told that Mr. Kane hadn't been there for several days—he actually only used his room one or two days a week. Annoyed by this, she called his club.

It so happened that at the club there was a telephone boy who had called up the apartment a number of times for Lester himself. He had not been cautioned not to give its number—as a matter of fact, it had never been asked for by any one else. When Louise stated that she was Lester’s sister, and was anxious to find him, the boy replied, “I think he lives at 19 Schiller Place.”

It turned out that at the club, there was a telephone boy who had called the apartment several times for Lester himself. He hadn’t been told not to give out the number—actually, nobody else had ever asked for it. When Louise said she was Lester’s sister and was eager to find him, the boy said, “I think he lives at 19 Schiller Place.”

“Whose address is that you’re giving?” inquired a passing clerk.

“Whose address are you giving?” asked a passing clerk.

“Mr. Kane’s.”

“Mr. Kane's.”

“Well, don’t be giving out addresses. Don’t you know that yet?”

“Well, don’t share addresses. Don’t you know that by now?”

The boy apologized, but Louise had hung up the receiver and was gone.

The boy apologized, but Louise had already hung up the phone and was gone.

About an hour later, curious as to this third residence of her brother, Louise arrived at Schiller Place. Ascending the steps—it was a two-apartment house—she saw the name of Kane on the door leading to the second floor. Ringing the bell, she was opened to by Jennie, who was surprised to see so fashionably attired a young woman.

About an hour later, curious about this third home of her brother, Louise arrived at Schiller Place. As she went up the steps—it was a two-apartment house—she noticed the name Kane on the door to the second floor. When she rang the bell, Jennie answered, surprised to see such a well-dressed young woman.

“This is Mr. Kane’s apartment, I believe,” began Louise, condescendingly, as she looked in at the open door behind Jennie. She was a little surprised to meet a young woman, but her suspicions were as yet only vaguely aroused.

“This is Mr. Kane’s apartment, I think,” Louise started, looking down at Jennie from the open door with a hint of superiority. She was somewhat surprised to see a young woman there, but her curiosity was still only slightly piqued.

“Yes,” replied Jennie.

“Yes,” Jennie replied.

“He’s sick, I believe. I’m his sister. May I come in?”

“He’s sick, I think. I’m his sister. Can I come in?”

Jennie, had she had time to collect her thoughts, would have tried to make some excuse, but Louise, with the audacity of her birth and station, swept past before Jennie could say a word. Once inside Louise looked about her inquiringly. She found herself in the sitting-room, which gave into the bedroom where Lester was lying. Vesta happened to be playing in one corner of the room, and stood up to eye the new-comer. The open bedroom showed Lester quite plainly lying in bed, a window to the left of him, his eyes closed.

Jennie, if she had had time to gather her thoughts, would have tried to come up with some excuse, but Louise, with the confidence of her privilege, breezed past before Jennie could say anything. Once inside, Louise looked around curiously. She realized she was in the sitting room, which opened into the bedroom where Lester was lying. Vesta happened to be playing in one corner of the room and stood up to look at the newcomer. The open bedroom clearly showed Lester lying in bed, a window to his left, with his eyes closed.

“Oh, there you are, old fellow!” exclaimed Louise. “What’s ailing you?” she hurried on.

“Oh, there you are, my friend!” Louise exclaimed. “What’s bothering you?” she quickly continued.

Lester, who at the sound of her voice had opened his eyes, realized in an instant how things were. He pulled himself up on one elbow, but words failed him.

Lester, who had opened his eyes at the sound of her voice, instantly understood the situation. He propped himself up on one elbow, but he couldn't find the words.

“Why, hello, Louise,” he finally forced himself to say. “Where did you come from?”

“Hey, Louise,” he finally managed to say. “Where did you come from?”

“St. Paul. I came back sooner than I thought,” she answered lamely, a sense of something wrong irritating her. “I had a hard time finding you, too. Who’s your—” she was about to say “pretty housekeeper,” but turned to find Jennie dazedly gathering up certain articles in the adjoining room and looking dreadfully distraught.

“St. Paul. I came back sooner than I expected,” she replied awkwardly, feeling that something was off. “I had a tough time finding you as well. Who’s your—” she was about to say “pretty housekeeper,” but then noticed Jennie, who was distractedly picking up various items in the next room and looking extremely upset.

Lester cleared his throat hopelessly.

Lester cleared his throat in vain.

His sister swept the place with an observing eye. It took in the home atmosphere, which was both pleasing and suggestive. There was a dress of Jennie’s lying across a chair, in a familiar way, which caused Miss Kane to draw herself up warily. She looked at her brother, who had a rather curious expression in his eyes—he seemed slightly nonplussed, but cool and defiant.

His sister scanned the room carefully. She took in the cozy vibe of the home, which was both inviting and intriguing. There was one of Jennie’s dresses draped over a chair in a casual manner, making Miss Kane tense up a bit. She glanced at her brother, who had a rather inquisitive look on his face—he seemed a bit taken aback, but calm and unyielding.

“You shouldn’t have come out here,” said Lester finally, before Louise could give vent to the rising question in her mind.

“You shouldn’t have come out here,” said Lester finally, before Louise could express the growing question in her mind.

“Why shouldn’t I?” she exclaimed, angered at the brazen confession. “You’re my brother, aren’t you? Why should you have any place that I couldn’t come. Well, I like that—and from you to me.”

“Why shouldn’t I?” she shouted, frustrated by the bold confession. “You’re my brother, right? Why should you have any place I can’t go? Well, I like that—and from you to me.”

“Listen, Louise,” went on Lester, drawing himself up further on one elbow. “You know as much about life as I do. There is no need of our getting into an argument. I didn’t know you were coming, or I would have made other arrangements.”

“Listen, Louise,” Lester continued, propping himself up further on one elbow. “You know just as much about life as I do. There’s no reason for us to argue. I didn’t know you were coming, or I would have planned differently.”

“Other arrangements, indeed,” she sneered. “I should think as much. The idea!”

“Other arrangements, really,” she scoffed. “I thought so. The nerve!”

She was greatly irritated to think that she had fallen into this trap; it was really disgraceful of Lester.

She was really annoyed to realize that she had fallen into this trap; it was truly shameful of Lester.

“I wouldn’t be so haughty about it,” he declared, his color rising. “I’m not apologizing to you for my conduct. I’m saying I would have made other arrangements, which is a very different thing from begging your pardon. If you don’t want to be civil, you needn’t.”

“I wouldn’t be so arrogant about it,” he said, his face getting red. “I’m not apologizing to you for my behavior. I’m just saying I would have handled things differently, which is completely different from asking for your forgiveness. If you don’t want to be polite, that’s your choice.”

“Why, Lester Kane!” she exclaimed, her cheeks flaming. “I thought better of you, honestly I did. I should think you would be ashamed of yourself living here in open—” she paused without using the word—“and our friends scattered all over the city. It’s terrible! I thought you had more sense of decency and consideration.”

“Why, Lester Kane!” she exclaimed, her cheeks burning. “I expected more from you, really I did. You should be ashamed of yourself living here in public—” she paused, not saying the word—“with our friends spread all over the city. It’s awful! I thought you had more decency and thoughtfulness.”

“Decency nothing,” he flared. “I tell you I’m not apologizing to you. If you don’t like this you know what you can do.”

“Decency, my foot,” he snapped. “I’m telling you I’m not going to apologize. If you don’t like it, you know what you can do.”

“Oh!” she exclaimed. “This from my own brother! And for the sake of that creature! Whose child is that?” she demanded, savagely and yet curiously.

“Oh!” she exclaimed. “This from my own brother! And for the sake of that creature! Whose child is that?” she demanded, angrily yet curiously.

“Never mind, it’s not mine. If it were it wouldn’t make any difference. I wish you wouldn’t busy yourself about my affairs.”

“Forget it, it’s not mine. Even if it were, it wouldn’t change anything. I wish you wouldn’t worry about my business.”

Jennie, who had been moving about the dining-room beyond the sitting-room, heard the cutting references to herself. She winced with pain.

Jennie, who had been walking around the dining room outside the sitting room, overheard the sharp comments about herself. She felt a pang of pain.

“Don’t flatter yourself. I won’t any more,” retorted Louise. “I should think, though, that you, of all men, would be above anything like this—and that with a woman so obviously beneath you. Why, I thought she was—” she was again going to add “your housekeeper,” but she was interrupted by Lester, who was angry to the point of brutality.

“Don’t kid yourself. I won’t do that anymore,” Louise shot back. “I would expect that you, of all people, would rise above something like this—especially with a woman who’s clearly beneath you. I thought she was—” she was about to say “your housekeeper,” but Lester interrupted her, furious to the point of being brutal.

“Never mind what you thought she was,” he growled. “She’s better than some who do the so-called superior thinking. I know what you think. It’s neither here nor there, I tell you. I’m doing this, and I don’t care what you think. I have to take the blame. Don’t bother about me.”

“Forget what you thought about her,” he growled. “She’s better than some who claim to have superior thinking. I know what you think. It doesn’t matter, I’m telling you. I’m going to do this, and I don’t care what you think. I have to take the blame. Don’t worry about me.”

“Well, I won’t, I assure you,” she flung back. “It’s quite plain that your family means nothing to you. But if you had any sense of decency, Lester Kane, you would never let your sister be trapped into coming into a place like this. I’m disgusted, that’s all, and so will the others be when they hear of it.”

“Well, I won’t, I promise you,” she shot back. “It’s pretty obvious that your family doesn't matter to you. But if you had any sense of decency, Lester Kane, you would never allow your sister to be trapped into coming to a place like this. I’m disgusted, that’s all, and so will the others be when they find out about it.”

She turned on her heel and walked scornfully out, a withering look being reserved for Jennie, who had unfortunately stepped near the door of the dining-room. Vesta had disappeared. Jennie came in a little while later and closed the door. She knew of nothing to say. Lester, his thick hair pushed back from his vigorous face, leaned back moodily on his pillow. “What a devilish trick of fortune,” he thought. Now she would go home and tell it to the family. His father would know, and his mother. Robert, Imogene, Amy all would hear. He would have no explanation to make—she had seen. He stared at the wall meditatively.

She turned on her heel and walked out with disdain, throwing a withering glance at Jennie, who had unfortunately stepped too close to the dining-room door. Vesta had vanished. Jennie came in a little while later and shut the door. She didn’t know what to say. Lester, with his thick hair pushed back from his strong face, leaned back sulkily on his pillow. “What a cruel twist of fate,” he thought. Now she would go home and tell the family. His father would find out, and so would his mother. Robert, Imogene, and Amy would all hear. He wouldn’t have any explanation—she had seen. He stared at the wall lost in thought.

Meanwhile Jennie, moving about her duties, also found food for reflection. So this was her real position in another woman’s eyes. Now she could see what the world thought. This family was as aloof from her as if it lived on another planet. To his sisters and brothers, his father and mother, she was a bad woman, a creature far beneath him socially, far beneath him mentally and morally, a creature of the streets. And she had hoped somehow to rehabilitate herself in the eyes of the world. It cut her as nothing before had ever done. The thought tore a great, gaping wound in her sensibilities. She was really low and vile in her—Louise’s—eyes, in the world’s eyes, basically so in Lester’s eyes. How could it be otherwise? She went about numb and still, but the ache of defeat and disgrace was under it all. Oh, if she could only see some way to make herself right with the world, to live honorably, to be decent. How could that possibly be brought about? It ought to be—she knew that. But how?

Meanwhile, Jennie, going about her tasks, also found herself deep in thought. So this was how another woman saw her. Now she understood how the world perceived her. This family seemed as distant from her as if they lived on another planet. To his sisters and brothers, his parents, she was a bad woman, someone far beneath him socially, mentally, and morally, a woman from the streets. And she had hoped to somehow redeem herself in the eyes of society. It hurt her more than anything had before. The thought created a huge, painful wound in her feelings. She was really low and despicable in Louise’s eyes, in the world’s eyes, and essentially in Lester’s eyes too. How could it be any different? She moved around in a daze, but underneath it all was the deep ache of defeat and shame. Oh, if only she could find a way to make things right with the world, to live honorably, to be decent. How could that ever happen? It should be possible—she knew that. But how?

CHAPTER XXXIII

Outraged in her family pride, Louise lost no time in returning to Cincinnati, where she told the story of her discovery, embellished with many details. According to her, she was met at the door by a “silly-looking, white-faced woman,” who did not even offer to invite her in when she announced her name, but stood there “looking just as guilty as a person possibly could.” Lester also had acted shamefully, having outbrazened the matter to her face. When she had demanded to know whose the child was he had refused to tell her. “It isn’t mine,” was all he would say.

Outraged by her family's pride, Louise quickly returned to Cincinnati, where she shared her discovery, adding many details to the story. She claimed she was greeted at the door by a “silly-looking, white-faced woman” who didn’t even invite her in when she announced her name, but just stood there “looking as guilty as anyone possibly could.” Lester also behaved shamefully, brazenly confronting her about it. When she asked whose child it was, he wouldn’t tell her. “It isn’t mine,” was all he would say.

“Oh dear, oh dear!” exclaimed Mrs. Kane, who was the first to hear the story. “My son, my Lester! How could he have done it!”

“Oh no, oh no!” exclaimed Mrs. Kane, who was the first to hear the story. “My son, my Lester! How could he have done this?”

“And such a creature!” exclaimed Louise emphatically, as though the words needed to be reiterated to give them any shadow of reality.

“And what a creature!” Louise exclaimed emphatically, as if she needed to repeat the words to make them feel even a little real.

“I went there solely because I thought I could help him,” continued Louise. “I thought when they said he was indisposed that he might be seriously ill. How should I have known?”

“I went there just because I thought I could help him,” continued Louise. “I thought when they said he was not well that he might be seriously ill. How was I supposed to know?”

“Poor Lester!” exclaimed her mother. “To think he would come to anything like that!”

“Poor Lester!” her mother exclaimed. “I can’t believe he would end up like that!”

Mrs. Kane turned the difficult problem over in her mind and, having no previous experiences whereby to measure it, telephoned for old Archibald, who came out from the factory and sat through the discussion with a solemn countenance. So Lester was living openly with a woman of whom they had never heard. He would probably be as defiant and indifferent as his nature was strong. The standpoint of parental authority was impossible. Lester was a centralized authority in himself, and if any overtures for a change of conduct were to be made, they would have to be very diplomatically executed.

Mrs. Kane mulled over the tough problem in her mind and, without any past experiences to guide her, called for old Archibald, who came from the factory and listened to the discussion with a serious expression. So, Lester was openly living with a woman they had never heard of. He would likely be as defiant and indifferent as his strong nature suggested. The idea of parental authority was out of the question. Lester was his own central authority, and if they were going to try to encourage a change in his behavior, it would have to be done very diplomatically.

Archibald Kane returned to the manufactory sore and disgusted, but determined that something ought to be done. He held a consultation with Robert, who confessed that he had heard disturbing rumors from time to time, but had not wanted to say anything. Mrs. Kane suggested that Robert might go to Chicago and have a talk with Lester.

Archibald Kane returned to the factory feeling sore and disgusted, but determined that something needed to be done. He talked it over with Robert, who admitted that he had heard unsettling rumors occasionally but didn’t want to say anything. Mrs. Kane suggested that Robert should go to Chicago and have a conversation with Lester.

“He ought to see that this thing, if continued, is going to do him irreparable damage,” said Mr. Kane. “He cannot hope to carry it off successfully. Nobody can. He ought to marry her or he ought to quit. I want you to tell him that for me.”

“He needs to understand that if this goes on, it’s going to seriously hurt him,” said Mr. Kane. “He can’t expect to handle it successfully. Nobody can. He should either marry her or back off completely. I want you to tell him that for me.”

“All well and good,” said Robert, “but who’s going to convince him? I’m sure I don’t want the job.”

“All well and good,” Robert said, “but who’s going to convince him? I definitely don’t want that job.”

“I hope to,” said old Archibald, “eventually; but you’d better go up and try, anyhow. It can’t do any harm. He might come to his senses.”

“I hope to,” said old Archibald, “eventually; but you’d better go up and try, anyway. It can’t hurt. He might come to his senses.”

“I don’t believe it,” replied Robert. “He’s a strong man. You see how much good talk does down here. Still, I’ll go if it will relieve your feelings any. Mother wants it.”

“I don’t believe it,” Robert replied. “He’s a strong guy. Just look at how much good talking works down here. Still, I’ll go if it makes you feel any better. Mom wants it.”

“Yes, yes,” said his father distractedly, “better go.”

“Yes, yes,” his father said absentmindedly, “you should go.”

Accordingly Robert went. Without allowing himself to anticipate any particular measure of success in this adventure, he rode pleasantly into Chicago confident in the reflection that he had all the powers of morality and justice on his side.

Accordingly, Robert went. Without thinking too much about how successful this adventure might be, he rode happily into Chicago, feeling reassured that he had all the strengths of morality and justice supporting him.

Upon Robert’s arrival, the third morning after Louise’s interview, he called up the warerooms, but Lester was not there. He then telephoned to the house, and tactfully made an appointment. Lester was still indisposed, but he preferred to come down to the office, and he did. He met Robert in his cheerful, nonchalant way, and together they talked business for a time. Then followed a pregnant silence.

When Robert arrived on the third morning after Louise’s interview, he called the warehouse, but Lester wasn’t there. He then called the house and politely set up an appointment. Lester was still unwell, but he chose to come down to the office, and he did. He greeted Robert in his usual cheerful and relaxed manner, and they talked business for a while. Then there was a significant silence.

“Well, I suppose you know what brought me up here,” began Robert tentatively.

“Well, I guess you know what brought me up here,” Robert started hesitantly.

“I think I could make a guess at it,” Lester replied.

“I think I can take a guess at it,” Lester replied.

“They were all very much worried over the fact that you were sick—mother particularly. You’re not in any danger of having a relapse, are you?”

“They were all really concerned about your illness—especially mom. You're not in any danger of getting sick again, are you?”

“I think not.”

“Not a chance.”

“Louise said there was some sort of a peculiar ménage she ran into up here. You’re not married, are you?”

“Louise mentioned that she came across a weird ménage up here. You’re not married, are you?”

“No.”

“No.”

“The young woman Louise saw is just—” Robert waved his hand expressively.

“The young woman Louise saw is just—” Robert waved his hand expressively.

Lester nodded.

Lester agreed.

“I don’t want to be inquisitive, Lester. I didn’t come up for that. I’m simply here because the family felt that I ought to come. Mother was so very much distressed that I couldn’t do less than see you for her sake”—he paused, and Lester, touched by the fairness and respect of his attitude, felt that mere courtesy at least made some explanation due.

“I don’t want to pry, Lester. I didn’t come here for that. I’m just here because the family thought I should come. Mom was really upset, so I couldn’t do less than see you for her sake”—he paused, and Lester, moved by the fairness and respect in his tone, felt that at least some explanation was warranted out of simple courtesy.

“I don’t know that anything I can say will help matters much,” he replied thoughtfully. “There’s really nothing to be said. I have the woman and the family has its objections. The chief difficulty about the thing seems to be the bad luck in being found out.”

“I don’t think anything I say will really help,” he replied thoughtfully. “There’s honestly nothing to say. I have the woman, and the family has its issues. The main problem seems to be the bad luck of being discovered.”

He stopped, and Robert turned over the substance of this worldly reasoning in his mind. Lester was very calm about it. He seemed, as usual, to be most convincingly sane.

He stopped, and Robert considered the logic of this worldly reasoning in his mind. Lester remained calm about it. He seemed, as always, to be very convincingly level-headed.

“You’re not contemplating marrying her, are you?” queried Robert hesitatingly.

“Are you really thinking about marrying her?” Robert asked hesitantly.

“I hadn’t come to that,” answered Lester coolly.

"I hadn't thought of that," Lester replied calmly.

They looked at each other quietly for a moment, and then Robert turned his glance to the distant scene of the city.

They stared at each other silently for a moment, and then Robert shifted his gaze to the faraway view of the city.

“It’s useless to ask whether you are seriously in love with her, I suppose,” ventured Robert.

“It’s pointless to ask if you’re truly in love with her, I guess,” Robert said.

“I don’t know whether I’d be able to discuss that divine afflatus with you or not,” returned Lester, with a touch of grim humor. “I have never experienced the sensation myself. All I know is that the lady is very pleasing to me.”

“I’m not sure if I could talk about that divine inspiration with you,” Lester replied, with a hint of dark humor. “I’ve never felt it myself. All I know is that I find the lady very appealing.”

“Well, it’s all a question of your own well-being and the family’s, Lester,” went on Robert, after another pause. “Morality doesn’t seem to figure in it anyway—at least you and I can’t discuss that together. Your feelings on that score naturally relate to you alone. But the matter of your own personal welfare seems to me to be substantial enough ground to base a plea on. The family’s feelings and pride are also fairly important. Father’s the kind of a man who sets more store by the honor of his family than most men. You know that as well as I do, of course.”

“Well, it all comes down to your well-being and the family’s, Lester,” Robert continued after another pause. “Morality doesn’t really play a part in this—at least, you and I can’t talk about that together. Your feelings about it are personal to you. But your own personal welfare seems to be a solid enough reason to make a request. The family’s feelings and pride are also pretty important. Dad is the kind of guy who values the honor of his family more than most men do. You know that just as well as I do, of course.”

“I know how father feels about it,” returned Lester. “The whole business is as clear to me as it is to any of you, though off-hand I don’t see just what’s to be done about it. These matters aren’t always of a day’s growth, and they can’t be settled in a day. The girl’s here. To a certain extent I’m responsible that she is here. While I’m not willing to go into details, there’s always more in these affairs than appears on the court calendar.”

“I get how Dad feels about it,” Lester replied. “I understand the whole situation as clearly as any of you do, but right now I’m not sure what should be done. These things don’t always happen overnight, and they can’t be resolved in a day. The girl is here. To some extent, I’m responsible for her being here. While I’m not ready to share details, there’s usually more to these matters than what’s written on the court calendar.”

“Of course I don’t know what your relations with her have been,” returned Robert, “and I’m not curious to know, but it does look like a bit of injustice all around, don’t you think—unless you intend to marry her?” This last was put forth as a feeler.

“Of course I don’t know what your relationship with her has been,” Robert replied, “and I’m not interested in finding out, but it does seem a bit unfair all around, don’t you think—unless you plan to marry her?” This last part was thrown out there as a test.

“I might be willing to agree to that, too,” was Lester’s baffling reply, “if anything were to be gained by it. The point is, the woman is here, and the family is in possession of the fact. Now if there is anything to be done I have to do it. There isn’t anybody else who can act for me in this matter.”

“I might be open to agreeing to that, too,” was Lester’s confusing response, “if there’s anything to gain from it. The thing is, the woman is here, and the family knows the truth. So if there’s something to be done, I have to take care of it. There’s no one else who can act for me in this situation.”

Lester lapsed into a silence, and Robert rose and paced the floor, coming back after a time to say: “You say you haven’t any idea of marrying her—or rather you haven’t come to it. I wouldn’t, Lester. It seems to me you would be making the mistake of your life, from every point of view. I don’t want to orate, but a man of your position has so much to lose; you can’t afford to do it. Aside from family considerations, you have too much at stake. You’d be simply throwing your life away—”

Lester fell quiet, and Robert got up and started pacing. After a while, he returned and said, “You say you haven’t thought about marrying her—or at least you’re not there yet. I wouldn’t do it, Lester. It seems to me you’d be making a huge mistake, from every angle. I don’t want to lecture you, but a guy in your position has so much to lose; you can’t afford to go down that path. Beyond family reasons, you have too much on the line. You’d basically be throwing your life away—”

He paused, with his right hand held out before him, as was customary when he was deeply in earnest, and Lester felt the candor and simplicity of this appeal. Robert was not criticizing him now. He was making an appeal to him, and this was somewhat different.

He stopped, with his right hand extended in front of him, as he usually did when he was truly serious, and Lester sensed the honesty and directness of this request. Robert wasn’t judging him at that moment. He was reaching out to him, and this felt different.

The appeal passed without comment, however, and then Robert began on a new tack, this time picturing old Archibald’s fondness for Lester and the hope he had always entertained that he would marry some well-to-do Cincinnati girl, Catholic, if agreeable to him, but at least worthy of his station. And Mrs. Kane felt the same way; surely Lester must realize that.

The appeal went by without any remarks, and then Robert shifted gears, this time considering old Archibald’s affection for Lester and the hope he always had that Lester would marry a successful girl from Cincinnati, preferably Catholic if that worked for him, but at least someone suitable for his status. And Mrs. Kane felt the same way; Lester had to see that.

“I know just how all of them feel about it,” Lester interrupted at last, “but I don’t see that anything’s to be done right now.”

“I know exactly how they all feel about it,” Lester finally interrupted, “but I don’t think there’s anything that can be done right now.”

“You mean that you don’t think it would be policy for you to give her up just at present?”

“You don’t think it would be your policy to give her up right now?”

“I mean that she’s been exceptionally good to me, and that I’m morally under obligations to do the best I can by her. What that may be, I can’t tell.”

“I mean that she’s been really good to me, and that I have a moral responsibility to do my best for her. What that looks like, I can’t say.”

“To live with her?” inquired Robert coolly.

"To live with her?" Robert asked calmly.

“Certainly not to turn her out bag and baggage if she has been accustomed to live with me,” replied Lester.

“Certainly not to kick her out with all her stuff if she’s been used to living with me,” replied Lester.

Robert sat down again, as if he considered his recent appeal futile.

Robert sat down again, as if he thought his recent request was pointless.

“Can’t family reasons persuade you to make some amicable arrangements with her and let her go?”

“Can family reasons convince you to come to some friendly agreement with her and let her go?”

“Not without due consideration of the matter; no.”

“Not without careful thought on the subject; no.”

“You don’t think you could hold out some hope that the thing will end quickly—something that would give me a reasonable excuse for softening down the pain of it to the family?”

“You don’t think you could hold onto some hope that this will end quickly—something that would give me a good reason to ease the pain of it for the family?”

“I would be perfectly willing to do anything which would take away the edge of this thing for the family, but the truth’s the truth, and I can’t see any room for equivocation between you and me. As I’ve said before, these relationships are involved with things which make it impossible to discuss them—unfair to me, unfair to the woman. No one can see how they are to be handled, except the people that are in them, and even they can’t always see. I’d be a damned dog to stand up here and give you my word to do anything except the best I can.”

“I'd be more than willing to do whatever it takes to ease this situation for the family, but the truth is the truth, and I can't pretend otherwise between us. As I've said before, these relationships involve complexities that make it impossible to discuss them—it's unfair to me and unfair to the woman. No one knows how to handle them except for the people directly involved, and even they don't always have clarity. I'd be a total fool to stand here and promise to do anything other than my best.”

Lester stopped, and now Robert rose and paced the floor again, only to come back after a time and say, “You don’t think there’s anything to be done just at present?”

Lester stopped, and now Robert got up and started pacing the floor again, only to come back after a while and say, “You don’t think there’s anything that can be done right now?”

“Not at present.”

“Not right now.”

“Very well, then, I expect I might as well be going. I don’t know that there’s anything else we can talk about.”

“Alright, I guess I should be on my way. I don’t think there’s anything else we can discuss.”

“Won’t you stay and take lunch with me? I think I might manage to get down to the hotel if you’ll stay.”

“Will you stay and have lunch with me? I think I could make it to the hotel if you stay.”

“No, thank you,” answered Robert. “I believe I can make that one o’clock train for Cincinnati. I’ll try, anyhow.”

“No, thanks,” Robert replied. “I think I can catch the one o'clock train to Cincinnati. I'll give it a shot, anyway.”

They stood before each other now, Lester pale and rather flaccid, Robert clear, wax-like, well-knit, and shrewd, and one could see the difference time had already made. Robert was the clean, decisive man, Lester the man of doubts. Robert was the spirit of business energy and integrity embodied, Lester the spirit of commercial self-sufficiency, looking at life with an uncertain eye. Together they made a striking picture, which was none the less powerful for the thoughts that were now running through their minds.

They stood in front of each other now, Lester looking pale and somewhat limp, while Robert appeared clear, smooth, fit, and sharp. You could see the difference time had already made. Robert was the clean, decisive type, and Lester was the one filled with doubts. Robert represented business energy and integrity, while Lester symbolized commercial self-sufficiency, viewing life with uncertainty. Together, they created a striking image, which felt all the more intense because of the thoughts racing through their minds.

“Well,” said the older brother, after a time, “I don’t suppose there is anything more I can say. I had hoped to make you feel just as we do about this thing, but of course you are your own best judge of this. If you don’t see it now, nothing I could say would make you. It strikes me as a very bad move on your part though.”

“Well,” said the older brother after a while, “I guess there’s not much more I can say. I had hoped to help you feel the same way we do about this, but ultimately, you know best for yourself. If you don’t understand it now, nothing I say will change that. It seems to me like a pretty bad decision on your part, though.”

Lester listened. He said nothing, but his face expressed an unchanged purpose.

Lester listened. He didn't say anything, but his expression showed a steady determination.

Robert turned for his hat, and they walked to the office door together.

Robert grabbed his hat, and they walked to the office door together.

“I’ll put the best face I can on it,” said Robert, and walked out.

“I’ll make the best of it,” said Robert, and walked out.

CHAPTER XXXIV

In this world of ours the activities of animal life seem to be limited to a plane or circle, as if that were an inherent necessity to the creatures of a planet which is perforce compelled to swing about the sun. A fish, for instance, may not pass out of the circle of the seas without courting annihilation; a bird may not enter the domain of the fishes without paying for it dearly. From the parasites of the flowers to the monsters of the jungle and the deep we see clearly the circumscribed nature of their movements—the emphatic manner in which life has limited them to a sphere; and we are content to note the ludicrous and invariably fatal results which attend any effort on their part to depart from their environment.

In our world, it seems like animals are stuck within a certain area or circle, as if that's just how things are for living beings on a planet that has to orbit the sun. For example, a fish can't leave the sea without risking its life; a bird can't dive into the water without facing serious consequences. From the tiny parasites on flowers to the huge creatures in the jungle and the ocean depths, it’s clear how restricted their movements are—the way life has trapped them within a specific zone. We can't help but notice the ridiculous and usually deadly outcomes that follow any attempt they make to escape their environment.

In the case of man, however, the operation of this theory of limitations has not as yet been so clearly observed. The laws governing our social life are not so clearly understood as to permit of a clear generalization. Still, the opinions, pleas, and judgments of society serve as boundaries which are none the less real for being intangible. When men or women err—that is, pass out from the sphere in which they are accustomed to move—it is not as if the bird had intruded itself into the water, or the wild animal into the haunts of man. Annihilation is not the immediate result. People may do no more than elevate their eyebrows in astonishment, laugh sarcastically, lift up their hands in protest. And yet so well defined is the sphere of social activity that he who departs from it is doomed. Born and bred in this environment, the individual is practically unfitted for any other state. He is like a bird accustomed to a certain density of atmosphere, and which cannot live comfortably at either higher or lower level.

In the case of people, though, the way this theory of limitations works hasn’t been as clearly observed. The laws that govern our social lives aren’t so well understood that they allow for clear generalizations. Still, the opinions, pleas, and judgments of society act as boundaries that are just as real, even if they’re intangible. When people make mistakes—that is, step outside the environment they’re used to—it’s not like a bird wandering into the water or a wild animal entering human territory. Annihilation isn’t the immediate result. People might just raise their eyebrows in surprise, laugh sarcastically, or throw up their hands in protest. Yet, the boundaries of social activity are so clearly defined that anyone who steps outside of them is doomed. Born and raised in this environment, an individual is almost unfit for any other situation. They’re like a bird that’s used to a certain air pressure and can’t live comfortably at either a higher or lower level.

Lester sat down in his easy-chair by the window after his brother had gone and gazed ruminatively out over the flourishing city. Yonder was spread out before him life with its concomitant phases of energy, hope, prosperity, and pleasure, and here he was suddenly struck by a wind of misfortune and blown aside for the time being—his prospects and purposes dissipated. Could he continue as cheerily in the paths he had hitherto pursued? Would not his relations with Jennie be necessarily affected by this sudden tide of opposition? Was not his own home now a thing of the past so far as his old easy-going relationship was concerned? All the atmosphere of unstained affection would be gone out of it now. That hearty look of approval which used to dwell in his father’s eye—would it be there any longer? Robert, his relations with the manufactory, everything that was a part of his old life, had been affected by this sudden intrusion of Louise.

Lester settled into his comfortable chair by the window after his brother left and looked thoughtfully out at the vibrant city. Before him lay a life full of energy, hope, prosperity, and enjoyment, but he felt suddenly overwhelmed by a wave of misfortune that pushed him aside for the moment—his dreams and goals seemed to vanish. Could he still move forward as happily as he had before? Wouldn't his relationship with Jennie be impacted by this unexpected challenge? Wasn't his old home now a distant memory when it came to their easygoing connection? All the warmth and affection that filled it would be gone now. Would his father's proud gaze still be on him? Robert, his ties to the factory, everything that made up his previous life had been changed by this sudden arrival of Louise.

“It’s unfortunate,” was all that he thought to himself, and therewith turned from what he considered senseless brooding to the consideration of what, if anything, was to be done.

“It’s unfortunate,” he thought to himself, and then shifted away from what he saw as pointless worrying to think about what, if anything, needed to be done.

“I’m thinking I’d take a run up to Mt. Clemens to-morrow, or Thursday anyhow, if I feel strong enough,” he said to Jennie after he had returned. “I’m not feeling as well as I might. A few days will do me good.” He wanted to get off by himself and think. Jennie packed his bag for him at the given time, and he departed, but he was in a sullen, meditative mood.

“I’m thinking about taking a trip up to Mt. Clemens tomorrow, or Thursday for sure, if I’m feeling up to it,” he said to Jennie after he got back. “I’m not feeling as good as I could be. A few days will help me out.” He wanted to be alone and think. Jennie packed his bag for him when the time came, and he left, but he was in a gloomy, reflective mood.

During the week that followed he had ample time to think it all over, the result of his cogitations being that there was no need of making a decisive move at present. A few weeks more, one way or the other, could not make any practical difference. Neither Robert nor any other member of the family was at all likely to seek another conference with him. His business relations would necessarily go on as usual, since they were coupled with the welfare of the manufactory; certainly no attempt to coerce him would be attempted. But the consciousness that he was at hopeless variance with his family weighed upon him. “Bad business,” he meditated—“bad business.” But he did not change.

During the following week, he had plenty of time to think it all over, and he concluded that there was no need to make a major decision right now. A few more weeks, one way or the other, wouldn't really change anything. Neither Robert nor any other family member was likely to want to meet with him again. His business relationships would continue normally, as they were tied to the factory's success; there would definitely be no attempt to pressure him. However, the awareness that he was in complete disagreement with his family weighed heavily on him. “Not good,” he thought—“not good.” But he didn’t change.

For the period of a whole year this unsatisfactory state of affairs continued. Lester did not go home for six months; then an important business conference demanding his presence, he appeared and carried it off quite as though nothing important had happened. His mother kissed him affectionately, if a little sadly; his father gave him his customary greeting, a hearty handshake; Robert, Louise, Amy, Imogene, concertedly, though without any verbal understanding, agreed to ignore the one real issue. But the feeling of estrangement was there, and it persisted. Hereafter his visits to Cincinnati were as few and far between as he could possibly make them.

For a whole year, this frustrating situation went on. Lester didn’t go home for six months; when he finally showed up for an important business conference, he acted like nothing significant had happened. His mother hugged him warmly, though with a hint of sadness; his father greeted him with his usual friendly handshake; Robert, Louise, Amy, and Imogene all silently agreed to ignore the real issue. But the sense of distance was palpable, and it lingered. From then on, Lester made his visits to Cincinnati as rare as he could.

CHAPTER XXXV

In the meantime Jennie had been going through a moral crisis of her own. For the first time in her life, aside from the family attitude, which had afflicted her greatly, she realized what the world thought of her. She was bad—she knew that. She had yielded on two occasions to the force of circumstances which might have been fought out differently. If only she had had more courage! If she did not always have this haunting sense of fear! If she could only make up her mind to do the right thing! Lester would never marry her. Why should he? She loved him, but she could leave him, and it would be better for him. Probably her father would live with her if she went back to Cleveland. He would honor her for at last taking a decent stand. Yet the thought of leaving Lester was a terrible one to her—he had been so good. As for her father, she was not sure whether he would receive her or not.

In the meantime, Jennie had been dealing with her own moral crisis. For the first time in her life, aside from the negative influence of her family, she truly realized how the world viewed her. She was bad—she recognized that. She had given in on two occasions to circumstances that she could have handled differently. If only she had been braver! If only she didn't always feel this lingering fear! If she could just decide to do the right thing! Lester would never marry her. Why would he? She loved him, but parting ways might be better for him. Probably her father would live with her if she returned to Cleveland. He would respect her for finally taking a stand. Yet the idea of leaving Lester was painful to her—he had been so kind. As for her father, she wasn't sure if he would accept her back or not.

After the tragic visit of Louise she began to think of saving a little money, laying it aside as best she could from her allowance. Lester was generous and she had been able to send home regularly fifteen dollars a week to maintain the family—as much as they had lived on before, without any help from the outside. She spent twenty dollars to maintain the table, for Lester required the best of everything—fruits, meats, desserts, liquors, and what not. The rent was fifty-five dollars, with clothes and extras a varying sum. Lester gave her fifty dollars a week, but somehow it had all gone. She thought how she might economize but this seemed wrong.

After Louise's heartbreaking visit, she started thinking about saving some money, putting aside what she could from her allowance. Lester was generous, and she had been able to send home fifteen dollars a week to support the family—just as much as they had lived on before, without any outside help. She spent twenty dollars to cover food, since Lester insisted on having the best—fruits, meats, desserts, drinks, and so on. The rent was fifty-five dollars, with clothes and extras adding up to a fluctuating amount. Lester gave her fifty dollars a week, but somehow it was all gone. She considered ways to cut back, but that felt wrong.

Better go without taking anything, if she were going, was the thought that came to her. It was the only decent thing to do.

Better to go without taking anything, if she was going, was the thought that came to her. It was the only right thing to do.

She thought over this week after week, after the advent of Louise, trying to nerve herself to the point where she could speak or act. Lester was consistently generous and kind, but she felt at times that he himself might wish it. He was thoughtful, abstracted. Since the scene with Louise it seemed to her that he had been a little different. If she could only say to him that she was not satisfied with the way she was living, and then leave. But he himself had plainly indicated after his discovery of Vesta that her feelings on that score could not matter so very much to him, since he thought the presence of the child would definitely interfere with his ever marrying her. It was her presence he wanted on another basis. And he was so forceful, she could not argue with him very well. She decided if she went it would be best to write a letter and tell him why. Then maybe when he knew how she felt he would forgive her and think nothing more about it.

She thought about this week after week since Louise came along, trying to work up the courage to talk or take action. Lester was always generous and kind, but sometimes she felt like he might want more. He seemed preoccupied and lost in thought. Since the incident with Louise, she felt like he had changed a bit. If only she could tell him she was unhappy with how things were going and then walk away. But he had made it clear after finding out about Vesta that her feelings didn’t matter much to him, since he believed having the child around would definitely stop him from marrying her. He wanted her presence on different terms. And he was so assertive that it was hard to argue with him. She decided that if she left, it would be best to write him a letter explaining why. Then maybe once he understood how she felt, he would forgive her and not think about it anymore.

The condition of the Gerhardt family was not improving. Since Jennie had left Martha had married. After several years of teaching in the public schools of Cleveland she had met a young architect, and they were united after a short engagement. Martha had been always a little ashamed of her family, and now, when this new life dawned, she was anxious to keep the connection as slight as possible. She barely notified the members of the family of the approaching marriage—Jennie not at all—and to the actual ceremony she invited only Bass and George. Gerhardt, Veronica, and William resented the slight. Gerhardt ventured upon no comment. He had had too many rebuffs. But Veronica was angry. She hoped that life would give her an opportunity to pay her sister off. William, of course, did not mind particularly. He was interested in the possibilities of becoming an electrical engineer, a career which one of his school-teachers had pointed out to him as being attractive and promising.

The Gerhardt family's situation wasn't getting any better. Since Jennie had left, Martha had gotten married. After several years of teaching in Cleveland's public schools, she met a young architect, and they tied the knot after a short engagement. Martha had always felt a bit embarrassed about her family, and now that she was starting this new chapter, she wanted to minimize their connection as much as possible. She barely informed her family about the upcoming wedding—didn't tell Jennie at all—and she only invited Bass and George to the actual ceremony. Gerhardt, Veronica, and William felt slighted. Gerhardt said nothing; he’d faced too many disappointments. But Veronica was furious. She hoped life would give her a chance to get back at her sister. William, on the other hand, didn’t mind much. He was focused on the possibility of becoming an electrical engineer, a career that one of his teachers had suggested was both appealing and promising.

Jennie heard of Martha’s marriage after it was all over, a note from Veronica giving her the main details. She was glad from one point of view, but realized that her brothers and sisters were drifting away from her.

Jennie found out about Martha’s marriage after it had already happened, with a note from Veronica that gave her the key details. She was happy about it in one way, but she noticed that her brothers and sisters were starting to distance themselves from her.

A little while after Martha’s marriage Veronica and William went to reside with George, a break which was brought about by the attitude of Gerhardt himself. Ever since his wife’s death and the departure of the other children he had been subject to moods of profound gloom, from which he was not easily aroused. Life, it seemed, was drawing to a close for him, although he was only sixty-five years of age. The earthly ambitions he had once cherished were gone forever. He saw Sebastian, Martha, and George out in the world practically ignoring him, contributing nothing at all to a home which should never have taken a dollar from Jennie. Veronica and William were restless. They objected to leaving school and going to work, apparently preferring to live on money which Gerhardt had long since concluded was not being come by honestly. He was now pretty well satisfied as to the true relations of Jennie and Lester. At first he had believed them to be married, but the way Lester had neglected Jennie for long periods, the humbleness with which she ran at his beck and call, her fear of telling him about Vesta—somehow it all pointed to the same thing. She had not been married at home. Gerhardt had never had sight of her marriage certificate. Since she was away she might have been married, but he did not believe it.

Not long after Martha got married, Veronica and William moved in with George, which happened because of Gerhardt’s attitude. Ever since his wife died and the other kids left, he’d been stuck in deep sadness that was hard to shake off. It felt like life was ending for him, even though he was only sixty-five. The dreams he used to have were gone forever. He watched Sebastian, Martha, and George out in the world, almost ignoring him, giving nothing back to a home that should have never taken a dime from Jennie. Veronica and William were restless. They didn’t want to leave school and start working; instead, they seemed to prefer living off money that Gerhardt believed was not earned honestly. He was pretty sure about the real relationship between Jennie and Lester now. At first, he thought they were married, but the way Lester neglected Jennie for long stretches, how submissively she ran to him, and her fear of telling him about Vesta—all of it pointed to the same conclusion. She hadn’t been married at home. Gerhardt never saw her marriage certificate. While she could have been married while away, he didn’t believe it.

The real trouble was that Gerhardt had grown intensely morose and crotchety, and it was becoming impossible for young people to live with him. Veronica and William felt it. They resented the way in which he took charge of the expenditures after Martha left. He accused them of spending too much on clothes and amusements, he insisted that a smaller house should be taken, and he regularly sequestered a part of the money which Jennie sent, for what purpose they could hardly guess. As a matter of fact, Gerhardt was saving as much as possible in order to repay Jennie eventually. He thought it was sinful to go on in this way, and this was his one method, outside of his meager earnings, to redeem himself. If his other children had acted rightly by him he felt that he would not now be left in his old age the recipient of charity from one, who, despite her other good qualities, was certainly not leading a righteous life. So they quarreled.

The real issue was that Gerhardt had become really gloomy and grumpy, making it hard for young people to live with him. Veronica and William noticed it. They resented how he took control of the finances after Martha left. He accused them of overspending on clothes and fun, insisted they should move to a smaller house, and regularly set aside part of the money Jennie sent, for reasons they could hardly figure out. In reality, Gerhardt was trying to save as much as he could to eventually pay Jennie back. He thought it was wrong to keep living this way, and this was his only way, aside from his small income, to redeem himself. He felt that if his other children had treated him properly, he wouldn’t be left in his old age relying on charity from one person who, despite her other good qualities, was definitely not living a good life. So they argued.

It ended one winter month when George agreed to receive his complaining brother and sister on condition that they should get something to do. Gerhardt was nonplussed for a moment, but invited them to take the furniture and go their way. His generosity shamed them for the moment; they even tentatively invited him to come and live with them, but this he would not do. He would ask the foreman of the mill he watched for the privilege of sleeping in some out-of-the-way garret. He was always liked and trusted. And this would save him a little money.

It ended one winter month when George agreed to let his complaining brother and sister visit, on the condition that they would find something to do. Gerhardt was taken aback for a moment but then suggested they take the furniture and leave. His generosity embarrassed them for a bit; they even hesitantly invited him to come live with them, but he wouldn't do that. He planned to ask the foreman of the mill he was watching if he could sleep in some hidden attic. He was always liked and trusted. Plus, this would help him save a little money.

So in a fit of pique he did this, and there was seen the spectacle of an old man watching through a dreary season of nights, in a lonely trafficless neighborhood while the city pursued its gaiety elsewhere. He had a wee small corner in the topmost loft of a warehouse away from the tear and grind of the factory proper. Here Gerhardt slept by day. In the afternoon he would take a little walk, strolling toward the business center, or out along the banks of the Cuyahoga, or the lake. As a rule his hands were below his back, his brow bent in meditation. He would even talk to himself a little—an occasional “By chops!” or “So it is” being indicative of his dreary mood. At dusk he would return, taking his stand at the lonely gate which was his post of duty. His meals he secured at a nearby workingmen’s boarding-house, such as he felt he must have.

So in a moment of frustration, he did this, and there was the sight of an old man watching through a long, dreary night in a quiet, empty neighborhood while the city enjoyed its lively activities elsewhere. He had a tiny space in the top loft of a warehouse, away from the noise and hustle of the actual factory. Here, Gerhardt slept during the day. In the afternoon, he would take a short walk, heading toward the business district, along the banks of the Cuyahoga, or by the lake. Usually, his hands were clasped behind his back, and his brow was furrowed in thought. He would even mutter to himself a bit—occasional exclamations like “By chops!” or “So it is” showed his gloomy mood. At dusk, he would come back, taking his place at the lonely gate, which was his post. He got his meals at a nearby boarding house for working men, just as he felt he needed to.

The nature of the old German’s reflections at this time were of a peculiarly subtle and somber character. What was this thing—life? What did it all come to after the struggle, and the worry, and the grieving? Where does it all go to? People die; you hear nothing more from them. His wife, now, she had gone. Where had her spirit taken its flight?

The old German's thoughts at this time were strikingly subtle and serious. What was this thing called life? What does it all amount to after the struggle, the worry, and the grief? Where does it all go? People die; you don't hear anything more from them. His wife, now, she was gone. Where had her spirit gone?

Yet he continued to hold some strongly dogmatic convictions. He believed there was a hell, and that people who sinned would go there. How about Mrs. Gerhardt? How about Jennie? He believed that both had sinned woefully. He believed that the just would be rewarded in heaven. But who were the just? Mrs. Gerhardt had not had a bad heart. Jennie was the soul of generosity. Take his son Sebastian. Sebastian was a good boy, but he was cold, and certainly indifferent to his father. Take Martha—she was ambitious, but obviously selfish. Somehow the children, outside of Jennie, seemed self-centered. Bass walked off when he got married, and did nothing more for anybody. Martha insisted that she needed all she made to live on. George had contributed for a little while, but had finally refused to help out. Veronica and William had been content to live on Jennie’s money so long as he would allow it, and yet they knew it was not right. His very existence, was it not a commentary on the selfishness of his children? And he was getting so old. He shook his head. Mystery of mysteries. Life was truly strange, and dark, and uncertain. Still he did not want to go and live with any of his children. Actually they were not worthy of him—none but Jennie, and she was not good. So he grieved.

Yet he continued to hold some strongly dogmatic beliefs. He believed there was a hell, and that people who sinned would end up there. What about Mrs. Gerhardt? What about Jennie? He thought both had sinned terribly. He believed that the righteous would be rewarded in heaven. But who were the righteous? Mrs. Gerhardt hadn’t been bad at heart. Jennie was incredibly generous. Look at his son Sebastian. Sebastian was a good kid, but he was cold and definitely indifferent toward his father. Look at Martha—she was ambitious but obviously selfish. Somehow, the kids, aside from Jennie, seemed self-centered. Bass walked away when he got married and did nothing for anyone afterward. Martha claimed she needed all her earnings to get by. George had contributed for a while, but eventually stopped helping out. Veronica and William were content to live off Jennie’s money as long as he let them, even though they knew it wasn’t right. His very existence—wasn’t it a reflection of the selfishness of his children? And he was getting so old. He shook his head. The mystery of mysteries. Life was truly strange, dark, and uncertain. Still, he didn’t want to go and live with any of his children. In fact, they weren’t worthy of him—none except Jennie, and she wasn’t good. So he grieved.

This woeful condition of affairs was not made known to Jennie for some time. She had been sending her letters to Martha, but, on her leaving, Jennie had been writing directly to Gerhardt. After Veronica’s departure Gerhardt wrote to Jennie saying that there was no need of sending any more money. Veronica and William were going to live with George. He himself had a good place in a factory, and would live there a little while. He returned her a moderate sum that he had saved—one hundred and fifteen dollars—with the word that he would not need it.

This sad situation wasn't revealed to Jennie for a while. She had been sending her letters to Martha, but after Martha left, Jennie started writing directly to Gerhardt. After Veronica left, Gerhardt wrote to Jennie, saying there was no need to send any more money. Veronica and William were going to move in with George. He had a good job in a factory and would stay there for a bit. He returned a modest amount he had saved—one hundred and fifteen dollars—letting her know that he wouldn't need it.

Jennie did not understand, but as the others did not write, she was not sure but what it might be all right—her father was so determined. But by degrees, however, a sense of what it really must mean overtook her—a sense of something wrong, and she worried, hesitating between leaving Lester and going to see about her father, whether she left him or not. Would he come with her? Not here certainly. If she were married, yes, possibly. If she were alone—probably. Yet if she did not get some work which paid well they would have a difficult time. It was the same old problem. What could she do? Nevertheless, she decided to act. If she could get five or six dollars a week they could live. This hundred and fifteen dollars which Gerhardt had saved would tide them over the worst difficulties perhaps.

Jennie didn't understand, but since the others weren't writing, she thought it might be okay—her father was so determined. Gradually, though, a feeling of what it really meant started to hit her—a sense that something was off, and she worried, torn between leaving Lester and checking on her father, whether she left him or not. Would he come with her? Not here for sure. If she were married, maybe. If she were alone—likely. Yet if she didn't find some decent-paying work, they'd have a tough time. It was the same old issue. What could she do? Still, she decided to take action. If she could earn five or six dollars a week, they could get by. The hundred and fifteen dollars that Gerhardt had saved might help them through the worst of it.

CHAPTER XXXVI

The trouble with Jennie’s plan was that it did not definitely take into consideration Lester’s attitude. He did care for her in an elemental way, but he was hedged about by the ideas of the conventional world in which he had been reared. To say that he loved her well enough to take her for better or worse—to legalize her anomalous position and to face the world bravely with the fact that he had chosen a wife who suited him—was perhaps going a little too far, but he did really care for her, and he was not in a mood, at this particular time, to contemplate parting with her for good.

The problem with Jennie’s plan was that it didn’t fully consider Lester’s feelings. He did care for her on a basic level, but he was held back by the beliefs of the conventional world he grew up in. Saying that he loved her enough to marry her, to legitimize her unusual situation, and to face the world confidently knowing he had chosen a wife who suited him might be a stretch, but he genuinely cared for her, and at that moment, he wasn’t ready to think about ending their relationship for good.

Lester was getting along to that time of life when his ideas of womanhood were fixed and not subject to change. Thus far, on his own plane and within the circle of his own associates, he had met no one who appealed to him as did Jennie. She was gentle, intelligent, gracious, a handmaiden to his every need; and he had taught her the little customs of polite society, until she was as agreeable a companion as he cared to have. He was comfortable, he was satisfied—why seek further?

Lester was reaching a point in his life where his views on women were set and unlikely to change. Up until now, in his own social circle, he hadn’t met anyone who intrigued him as much as Jennie. She was kind, smart, and graceful, always there to cater to his needs; he had shown her the basics of polite society, and she became the perfect companion for him. He felt content and fulfilled—why look for anything more?

But Jennie’s restlessness increased day by day. She tried writing out her views, and started a half dozen letters before she finally worded one which seemed, partially at least, to express her feelings. It was a long letter for her, and it ran as follows:

But Jennie’s restlessness grew stronger every day. She attempted to write down her thoughts and began half a dozen letters before she finally crafted one that seemed, at least partially, to convey her feelings. It was a long letter for her, and it went like this:

“Lester dear, When you get this I won’t be here, and I want you not to think harshly of me until you have read it all. I am taking Vesta and leaving, and I think it is really better that I should. Lester, I ought to do it. You know when you met me we were very poor, and my condition was such that I didn’t think any good man would ever want me. When you came along and told me you loved me I was hardly able to think just what I ought to do. You made me love you, Lester, in spite of myself.
    “You know I told you that I oughtn’t to do anything wrong any more and that I wasn’t good, but somehow when you were near me I couldn’t think just right, and I didn’t see just how I was to get away from you. Papa was sick at home that time, and there was hardly anything in the house to eat. We were all doing so poorly. My brother George didn’t have good shoes, and mamma was so worried. I have often thought, Lester, if mamma had not been compelled to worry so much she might be alive to-day. I thought if you liked me and I really liked you—I love you, Lester—maybe it wouldn’t make so much difference about me. You know you told me right away you would like to help my family, and I felt that maybe that would be the right thing to do. We were so terribly poor.
    “Lester, dear, I am ashamed to leave you this way; it seems so mean, but if you knew how I have been feeling these days you would forgive me. Oh, I love you, Lester, I do, I do. But for months past—ever since your sister came—I felt that I was doing wrong, and that I oughtn’t to go on doing it, for I know how terribly wrong it is. It was wrong for me ever to have anything to do with Senator Brander, but I was such a girl then—I hardly knew what I was doing. It was wrong of me not to tell you about Vesta when I first met you, though I thought I was doing right when I did it. It was terribly wrong of me to keep her here all that time concealed, Lester, but I was afraid of you then—afraid of what you would say and do. When your sister Louise came it all came over me somehow, clearly, and I have never been able to think right about it since. It can’t be right, Lester, but I don’t blame you. I blame myself.
    “I don’t ask you to marry me, Lester. I know how you feel about me and how you feel about your family, and I don’t think it would be right. They would never want you to do it, and it isn’t right that I should ask you. At the same time I know I oughtn’t to go on living this way. Vesta is getting along where she understands everything. She thinks you are her really truly uncle. I have thought of it all so much. I have thought a number of times that I would try to talk to you about it, but you frighten me when you get serious, and I don’t seem to be able to say what I want to. So I thought if I could just write you this and then go you would understand. You do, Lester, don’t you? You won’t be angry with me? I know it’s for the best for you and for me. I ought to do it. Please forgive me, Lester, please; and don’t think of me any more. I will get along. But I love you—oh yes, I do—and I will never be grateful enough for all you have done for me. I wish you all the luck that can come to you. Please forgive me, Lester. I love you, yes, I do. I love you.

“Lester, my dear, by the time you read this, I won’t be here, and I hope you won’t judge me harshly until you’ve read everything. I’m taking Vesta and leaving, and I really believe it’s the best decision. I need to do this. When we met, we were very poor, and I felt like no good man would ever want me. When you told me you loved me, I was overwhelmed and didn’t know what to do. You made me love you, Lester, despite everything.
    “I remember telling you that I shouldn’t do anything wrong anymore and that I wasn’t good enough, but whenever you were around, I couldn’t think clearly, and I didn’t see how I could get away from you. At that time, my dad was sick at home, and there was hardly any food. We were struggling. My brother George didn’t have decent shoes, and my mom was so worried. I often think that if my mom hadn’t had to worry so much, she might still be alive today. I thought that if you liked me and I liked you — I love you, Lester — then maybe it wouldn’t matter so much what happened to me. You even told me right away that you wanted to help my family, and I thought that maybe that was the right thing to do. We were just so desperately poor.
    “Lester, I feel ashamed to leave you like this; it seems so cruel, but if you knew how I’ve been feeling lately, you’d understand. Oh, I love you, Lester, I really do. But for the past few months — ever since your sister came — I’ve felt like I was doing something wrong and needed to stop, because I know how terribly wrong it is. It was a mistake for me to have anything to do with Senator Brander, but I was so young then — I barely knew what I was doing. I shouldn’t have hidden Vesta from you when we first met, even though I thought I was doing the right thing at the time. It was very wrong to keep her with me all that time without you knowing, Lester, but I was scared of you then — scared of how you would react. When your sister Louise came, it all hit me clearly, and I haven’t been able to think straight about it since. It can’t be right, Lester, but I don’t blame you. I blame myself.
    “I’m not asking you to marry me, Lester. I know how you feel about me and your family, and I don’t think it would be fair. They wouldn’t want you to do that, and it’s not right for me to ask. At the same time, I know I can’t keep living this way. Vesta is getting older and understands everything. She thinks you’re her real uncle. I’ve thought about this a lot. I considered talking to you about it, but you scare me when you’re serious, and I can’t seem to express what I want to say. So I thought if I wrote this instead and then left, you’d understand. You do understand, don’t you, Lester? You won’t be mad at me? I know this is for the best for both of us. I need to do this. Please forgive me, Lester, please; and try not to think of me anymore. I’ll manage. But I love you — yes, I do — and I’ll never be able to thank you enough for everything you’ve done for me. I wish you all the happiness in the world. Please forgive me, Lester. I love you, yes, I do. I love you.

“JENNIE.

“JENNIE.”

“P. S. I expect to go to Cleveland with papa. He needs me. He is all alone. But don’t come for me, Lester. It’s best that you shouldn’t.”

“P.S. I plan to go to Cleveland with Dad. He needs me. He’s all alone. But don’t come for me, Lester. It’s better if you don’t.”

She put this in an envelope, sealed it, and, having hidden it in her bosom, for the time being, awaited the hour when she could conveniently take her departure.

She put this in an envelope, sealed it, and, having hidden it in her shirt, for the time being, waited for the moment when she could conveniently leave.

It was several days before she could bring herself to the actual execution of the plan, but one afternoon, Lester, having telephoned that he would not be home for a day or two, she packed some necessary garments for herself and Vesta in several trunks, and sent for an expressman. She thought of telegraphing her father that she was coming; but, seeing he had no home, she thought it would be just as well to go and find him. George and Veronica had not taken all the furniture. The major portion of it was in storage—so Gerhardt had written. She might take that and furnish a little home or flat. She was ready for the end, waiting for the expressman, when the door opened and in walked Lester.

It took her several days to finally execute the plan, but one afternoon, Lester called to say he wouldn’t be home for a day or two, so she packed some essentials for herself and Vesta in a few trunks and called for a delivery service. She considered sending a telegram to her father to let him know she was coming, but realizing he had no place to stay, she decided it would be better to go find him. George and Veronica hadn’t taken all the furniture. Most of it was in storage—so Gerhardt had written. She could take that and set up a little home or apartment. She was ready for the end, waiting for the delivery person, when the door opened and Lester walked in.

For some unforeseen reason he had changed his mind. He was not in the least psychic or intuitional, but on this occasion his feelings had served him a peculiar turn. He had thought of going for a day’s duck-shooting with some friends in the Kankakee Marshes south of Chicago, but had finally changed his mind; he even decided to go out to the house early. What prompted this he could not have said.

For some unexpected reason, he had changed his mind. He wasn't at all psychic or intuitive, but this time his feelings had taken a strange turn. He had planned to go duck hunting for a day with some friends in the Kankakee Marshes south of Chicago, but he ultimately decided against it; he even chose to head out to the house early. He couldn't have explained what triggered this decision.

As he neared the house he felt a little peculiar about coming home so early; then at the sight of the two trunks standing in the middle of the room he stood dumfounded. What did it mean—Jennie dressed and ready to depart? And Vesta in a similar condition? He stared in amazement, his brown eyes keen in inquiry.

As he approached the house, he felt a bit strange about coming home so early; then, when he saw the two trunks in the middle of the room, he was left speechless. What did it mean—Jennie was dressed and ready to leave? And Vesta was in the same situation? He stared in disbelief, his brown eyes sharp with questions.

“Where are you going?” he asked.

“Where are you headed?” he asked.

“Why—why—” she began, falling back. “I was going away.”

“Why—why—” she started, stepping back. “I was leaving.”

“Where to?”

“Where to next?”

“I thought I would go to Cleveland,” she replied.

“I thought I would go to Cleveland,” she said.

“What for?”

"Why?"

“Why—why—I meant to tell you, Lester, that I didn’t think I ought to stay here any longer this way. I didn’t think it was right. I thought I’d tell you, but I couldn’t. I wrote you a letter.”

“Why—why—I wanted to tell you, Lester, that I didn’t feel like I should stay here any longer like this. I didn’t think it was right. I meant to tell you, but I just couldn’t. I wrote you a letter.”

“A letter,” he exclaimed. “What the deuce are you talking about? Where is the letter?”

“A letter,” he shouted. “What on earth are you talking about? Where's the letter?”

“There,” she said, mechanically pointing to a small center-table where the letter lay conspicuous on a large book.

"There," she said, pointing automatically to a small coffee table where the letter was clearly visible on top of a big book.

“And you were really going to leave me, Jennie, with just a letter?” said Lester, his voice hardening a little as he spoke. “I swear to heaven you are beyond me. What’s the point?” He tore open the envelope and looked at the beginning. “Better send Vesta from the room,” he suggested.

“And you were actually going to leave me, Jennie, with just a letter?” Lester said, his voice becoming a bit colder as he spoke. “I swear, you’re impossible. What’s the point?” He ripped open the envelope and glanced at the beginning. “You should probably send Vesta out of the room,” he suggested.

She obeyed. Then she came back and stood there pale and wide-eyed, looking at the wall, at the trunks, and at him. Lester read the letter thoughtfully. He shifted his position once or twice, then dropped the paper on the floor.

She obeyed. Then she returned and stood there, pale and wide-eyed, staring at the wall, the trunks, and him. Lester read the letter carefully. He changed his position once or twice, then dropped the paper on the floor.

“Well, I’ll tell you, Jennie,” he said finally, looking at her curiously and wondering just what he was going to say. Here again was his chance to end this relationship if he wished. He couldn’t feel that he did wish it, seeing how peacefully things were running. They had gone so far together it seemed ridiculous to quit now. He truly loved her—there was no doubt of that. Still he did not want to marry her—could not very well. She knew that. Her letter said as much. “You have this thing wrong,” he went on slowly. “I don’t know what comes over you at times, but you don’t view the situation right. I’ve told you before that I can’t marry you—not now, anyhow. There are too many big things involved in this, which you don’t know anything about. I love you, you know that. But my family has to be taken into consideration, and the business. You can’t see the difficulties raised on these scores, but I can. Now I don’t want you to leave me. I care too much about you. I can’t prevent you, of course. You can go if you want to. But I don’t think you ought to want to. You don’t really, do you? Sit down a minute.”

“Well, I’ll tell you, Jennie,” he finally said, looking at her curiously and wondering what exactly he was going to say. Here was his chance to end this relationship if he wanted to. But he didn’t feel like he wanted to, especially since things were going so peacefully. They had come so far together that it seemed ridiculous to quit now. He truly loved her—there was no doubt about that. Yet, he didn’t want to marry her—he couldn’t, really. She knew that. Her letter implied as much. “You’ve got this all wrong,” he said slowly. “I don’t know what gets into you sometimes, but you’re not seeing the situation clearly. I’ve told you before that I can’t marry you—not right now, anyway. There are too many big things involved that you don’t know about. I love you, you know that. But I have to think about my family and the business. You can’t see the difficulties that come with all that, but I can. Now, I don’t want you to leave me. I care too much about you. I can’t stop you, of course. You can go if you want to. But I don’t think you should want to. You don’t really, do you? Sit down for a minute.”

Jennie, who had been counting on getting away without being seen, was now thoroughly nonplussed. To have him begin a quiet argument—a plea as it were. It hurt her. He, Lester, pleading with her, and she loved him so.

Jennie, who had been hoping to slip away unnoticed, was now completely taken aback. For him to start a quiet argument—a sort of plea. It stung her. He, Lester, begging her, and she loved him so.

She went over to him, and he took her hand.

She walked over to him, and he took her hand.

“Now, listen,” he said. “There’s really nothing to be gained by your leaving me at present. Where did you say you were going?”

“Now, listen,” he said. “There’s really no point in you leaving me right now. Where did you say you were headed?”

“To Cleveland,” she replied.

“To Cleveland,” she said.

“Well, how did you expect to get along?”

“Well, how did you think you were going to manage?”

“I thought I’d take papa, if he’d come with me—he’s alone now—and get something to do, maybe.”

“I thought I’d take Dad, if he would come with me—he’s alone now—and find something to do, maybe.”

“Well, what can you do, Jennie, different from what you ever have done? You wouldn’t expect to be a lady’s maid again, would you? Or clerk in a store?”

“Well, what can you do, Jennie, that's different from what you've always done? You wouldn’t expect to be a lady’s maid again, would you? Or a clerk in a store?”

“I thought I might get some place as a housekeeper,” she suggested. She had been counting up her possibilities, and this was the most promising idea that had occurred to her.

“I thought I might find a job as a housekeeper,” she suggested. She had been considering her options, and this was the most promising idea that had come to her.

“No, no,” he grumbled, shaking his head. “There’s nothing to that. There’s nothing in this whole move of yours except a notion. Why, you won’t be any better off morally than you are right now. You can’t undo the past. It doesn’t make any difference, anyhow. I can’t marry you now. I might in the future, but I can’t tell anything about that, and I don’t want to promise anything. You’re not going to leave me though with my consent, and if you were going I wouldn’t have you dropping back into any such thing as you’re contemplating. I’ll make some provision for you. You don’t really want to leave me, do you, Jennie?”

“No, no,” he grumbled, shaking his head. “There’s nothing to that. This whole move of yours is just an idea. You won’t be any better off morally than you are right now. You can’t change the past. It doesn’t make any difference, anyway. I can’t marry you now. I might in the future, but I can’t predict that, and I don’t want to make any promises. You aren’t going to leave me with my consent, and even if you were, I wouldn’t want you getting into anything like what you’re thinking about. I’ll make some arrangements for you. You don’t really want to leave me, do you, Jennie?”

Against Lester’s strong personality and vigorous protest Jennie’s own conclusions and decisions went to pieces. Just the pressure of his hand was enough to upset her. Now she began to cry.

Against Lester’s strong personality and intense objections, Jennie’s own conclusions and decisions fell apart. Even just the pressure of his hand was enough to shake her. Now she started to cry.

“Don’t cry, Jennie,” he said. “This thing may work out better than you think. Let it rest for a while. Take off your things. You’re not going to leave me any more, are you?”

“Don’t cry, Jennie,” he said. “This could turn out better than you expect. Just give it some time. Take off your things. You’re not planning to leave me again, are you?”

“No-o-o!” she sobbed.

“No!” she sobbed.

He took her in his lap. “Let things rest as they are,” he went on. “It’s a curious world. Things can’t be adjusted in a minute. They may work out. I’m putting up with some things myself that I ordinarily wouldn’t stand for.”

He pulled her onto his lap. “Let things be for now,” he continued. “It’s a strange world. You can’t change things in an instant. They might sort themselves out. I’m dealing with some stuff myself that I usually wouldn’t tolerate.”

He finally saw her restored to comparative calmness, smiling sadly through her tears.

He finally saw her back to a sense of calm, smiling sadly through her tears.

“Now you put those things away,” he said genially, pointing to the trunks. “Besides, I want you to promise me one thing.”

“Now you put those things away,” he said kindly, pointing to the trunks. “Also, I want you to promise me one thing.”

“What’s that?” asked Jennie.

“What’s that?” Jennie asked.

“No more concealment of anything, do you hear? No more thinking things out for yourself, and acting without my knowing anything about it. If you have anything on your mind, I want you to come out with it. I’m not going to eat you! Talk to me about whatever is troubling you. I’ll help you solve it, or, if I can’t, at least there won’t be any concealment between us.”

“No more hiding anything, do you understand? No more thinking for yourself and doing things without telling me. If you have something on your mind, I want you to share it. I’m not going to bite! Talk to me about whatever is bothering you. I’ll help you figure it out, or, if I can’t, at least we won’t be hiding anything from each other.”

“I know, Lester,” she said earnestly, looking him straight in the eyes. “I promise I’ll never conceal anything any more—truly I won’t. I’ve been afraid, but I won’t be now. You can trust me.”

“I know, Lester,” she said sincerely, looking him right in the eyes. “I promise I won’t hide anything again—really, I won’t. I’ve been scared, but not anymore. You can trust me.”

“That sounds like what you ought to be,” he replied. “I know you will.” And he let her go.

“That sounds like who you should be,” he said. “I know you will.” And he let her go.

A few days later, and in consequence of this agreement, the future of Gerhardt came up for discussion. Jennie had been worrying about him for several days; now it occurred to her that this was something to talk over with Lester. Accordingly, she explained one night at dinner what had happened in Cleveland. “I know he is very unhappy there all alone,” she said, “and I hate to think of it. I was going to get him if I went back to Cleveland. Now I don’t know what to do about it.”

A few days later, following this agreement, the future of Gerhardt became a topic of discussion. Jennie had been stressing about him for several days; now it struck her that this was something to discuss with Lester. So, she explained one night at dinner what had happened in Cleveland. “I know he’s really unhappy there all by himself,” she said, “and it bothers me to think about it. I was planning to bring him back if I went to Cleveland. Now I’m not sure what to do.”

“Why don’t you send him some money?” he inquired.

“Why don’t you send him some money?” he asked.

“He won’t take any more money from me, Lester,” she explained. “He thinks I’m not good—not acting right. He doesn’t believe I’m married.”

“He won’t take any more money from me, Lester,” she explained. “He thinks I’m not good—not acting right. He doesn’t believe I’m married.”

“He has pretty good reason, hasn’t he?” said Lester calmly.

“He has a pretty good reason, doesn’t he?” Lester said calmly.

“I hate to think of him sleeping in a factory. He’s so old and lonely.”

“I really don't like the idea of him sleeping in a factory. He’s so old and lonely.”

“What’s the matter with the rest of the family in Cleveland? Won’t they do anything for him? Where’s your brother Bass?”

“What’s wrong with the rest of the family in Cleveland? Won’t they help him out? Where’s your brother Bass?”

“I think maybe they don’t want him, he’s so cross,” she said simply.

“I think maybe they don’t want him; he’s so angry,” she said plainly.

“I hardly know what to suggest in that case,” smiled Lester. “The old gentleman oughtn’t to be so fussy.”

"I barely know what to recommend in that situation," smiled Lester. "The old guy shouldn't be so picky."

“I know,” she said, “but he’s old now, and he has had so much trouble.”

"I know," she said, "but he's older now, and he's been through so much."

Lester ruminated for a while, toying with his fork. “I’ll tell you what I’ve been thinking, Jennie,” he said finally. “There’s no use living this way any longer, if we’re going to stick it out. I’ve been thinking that we might take a house out in Hyde Park. It’s something of a run from the office, but I’m not much for this apartment life. You and Vesta would be better off for a yard. In that case you might bring your father on to live with us. He couldn’t do any harm pottering about; indeed, he might help keep things straight.”

Lester thought for a bit, playing with his fork. “I’ll tell you what’s been on my mind, Jennie,” he finally said. “There’s no point in living like this anymore if we’re going to stick together. I’ve been considering that we might get a house out in Hyde Park. It’s a bit of a commute from the office, but I’m really not into this apartment living. You and Vesta would be much better off with a yard. If we did that, you could bring your dad to live with us. He wouldn’t be a bother just puttering around; actually, he might help keep things organized.”

“Oh, that would just suit papa, if he’d come,” she replied. “He loves to fix things, and he’d cut the grass and look after the furnace. But he won’t come unless he’s sure I’m married.”

“Oh, that would be perfect for Dad if he came,” she replied. “He loves to fix things, and he’d mow the lawn and take care of the furnace. But he won’t come unless he’s sure I’m married.”

“I don’t know how that could be arranged unless you could show the old gentleman a marriage certificate. He seems to want something that can’t be produced very well. A steady job he’d have running the furnace of a country house,” he added meditatively.

“I don’t know how we could make that happen unless you can show the old man a marriage certificate. He really seems to want something that’s not easy to provide. A steady job he’d have managing the furnace of a country house,” he added thoughtfully.

Jennie did not notice the grimness of the jest. She was too busy thinking what a tangle she had made of her life. Gerhardt would not come now, even if they had a lovely home to share with him. And yet he ought to be with Vesta again. She would make him happy.

Jennie didn’t see the seriousness of the joke. She was too caught up in thinking about the mess she had made of her life. Gerhardt wouldn’t come now, even if they had a wonderful home to share with him. Still, he should be with Vesta again. She would make him happy.

She remained lost in a sad abstraction, until Lester, following the drift of her thoughts, said: “I don’t see how it can be arranged. Marriage certificate blanks aren’t easily procurable. It’s bad business—a criminal offense to forge one, I believe. I wouldn’t want to be mixed up in that sort of thing.”

She stayed caught up in a gloomy thought until Lester, grasping her mood, said: “I don’t see how we can manage that. You can’t just find marriage certificate blanks easily. It’s risky—creating a fake one is a crime, I think. I wouldn’t want to get involved in something like that.”

“Oh, I don’t want you to do anything like that, Lester. I’m just sorry papa is so stubborn. When he gets a notion you can’t change him.”

“Oh, I don’t want you to do anything like that, Lester. I just feel bad that Dad is so stubborn. Once he decides on something, you can't change his mind.”

“Suppose we wait until we get settled after moving,” he suggested. “Then you can go to Cleveland and talk to him personally. You might be able to persuade him.” He liked her attitude toward her father. It was so decent that he rather wished he could help her carry out her scheme. While not very interesting, Gerhardt was not objectionable to Lester, and if the old man wanted to do the odd jobs around a big place, why not?

“Let’s wait until we’re settled after the move,” he suggested. “Then you can go to Cleveland and talk to him in person. You might be able to convince him.” He appreciated her attitude toward her father. It was so decent that he actually wished he could help her with her plan. While not very interesting, Gerhardt wasn't a nuisance to Lester, and if the old man wanted to do odd jobs around a big place, why not?

CHAPTER XXXVII

The plan for a residence in Hyde Park was not long in taking shape. After several weeks had passed, and things had quieted down again, Lester invited Jennie to go with him to South Hyde Park to look for a house. On the first trip they found something which seemed to suit admirably—an old-time home of eleven large rooms, set in a lawn fully two hundred feet square and shaded by trees which had been planted when the city was young. It was ornate, homelike, peaceful. Jennie was fascinated by the sense of space and country, although depressed by the reflection that she was not entering her new home under the right auspices. She had vaguely hoped that in planning to go away she was bringing about a condition under which Lester might have come after her and married her. Now all that was over. She had promised to stay, and she would have to make the best of it. She suggested that they would never know what to do with so much room, but he waved that aside. “We will very likely have people in now and then,” he said. “We can furnish it up anyhow, and see how it looks.” He had the agent make out a five-year lease, with an option for renewal, and set at once the forces to work to put the establishment in order.

The plan for a place in Hyde Park came together quickly. After a few weeks passed and things calmed down, Lester asked Jennie to join him in South Hyde Park to look for a house. On their first trip, they found a charming old home with eleven spacious rooms, surrounded by a lawn about two hundred square feet and shaded by trees that had been planted when the city was still new. It was stylish, cozy, and tranquil. Jennie was drawn in by the sense of space and nature, but felt sad realizing she wasn’t starting her new life in the right way. She had hoped that by planning to leave, it might prompt Lester to come after her and propose. Now, all of that was gone. She had committed to staying, and she would have to make the best of it. She mentioned that they might not know what to do with so much space, but he brushed that off. “We’ll probably have people over now and then,” he replied. “We can furnish it however we want and see how it looks.” He had the agent draft a five-year lease with an option to renew and immediately got to work setting up the place.

The house was painted and decorated, the lawn put in order, and everything done to give the place a trim and satisfactory appearance. There was a large, comfortable library and sitting-room, a big dining-room, a handsome reception-hall, a parlor, a large kitchen, serving-room, and in fact all the ground-floor essentials of a comfortable home. On the second floor were bedrooms, baths, and the maid’s room. It was all very comfortable and harmonious, and Jennie took an immense pride and pleasure in getting things in order.

The house was painted and decorated, the lawn was tidied up, and everything was done to give the place a neat and pleasing look. There was a spacious, cozy library and living room, a big dining room, an impressive reception hall, a parlor, a large kitchen, and a serving room—basically, all the essentials for a comfortable home on the ground floor. On the second floor were bedrooms, bathrooms, and the maid’s room. It was all very comfortable and harmonious, and Jennie took great pride and joy in organizing everything.

Immediately after moving in, Jennie, with Lester’s permission, wrote to her father asking him to come to her. She did not say that she was married, but left it to be inferred. She descanted on the beauty of the neighborhood, the size of the yard, and the manifold conveniences of the establishment. “It is so very nice,” she added, “you would like it, papa. Vesta is here and goes to school every day. Won’t you come and stay with us? It’s so much better than living in a factory. And I would like to have you so.”

Immediately after moving in, Jennie, with Lester’s permission, wrote to her dad asking him to come visit her. She didn’t mention that she was married, but left it implied. She went on about how beautiful the neighborhood is, the size of the yard, and all the great features of the place. “It’s really nice,” she added, “you would love it, Dad. Vesta is here and goes to school every day. Won’t you come and stay with us? It’s so much better than living in a factory. And I’d really like to have you here.”

Gerhardt read this letter with a solemn countenance, Was it really true? Would they be taking a larger house if they were not permanently united? After all these years and all this lying? Could he have been mistaken? Well, it was high time—but should he go? He had lived alone this long time now—should he go to Chicago and live with Jennie? Her appeal did touch him, but somehow he decided against it. That would be too generous an acknowledgment of the fact that there had been fault on his side as well as on hers.

Gerhardt read the letter with a serious expression. Was it really true? Would they be moving into a bigger house if they weren’t permanently together? After all these years and all this deception? Could he have been wrong? Well, it was about time—but should he go? He had been living alone for a long time now—should he go to Chicago and live with Jennie? Her request did resonate with him, but somehow he chose not to. That would be too generous an admission that he had made mistakes too, just like she had.

Jennie was disappointed at Gerhardt’s refusal. She talked it over with Lester, and decided that she would go on to Cleveland and see him. Accordingly, she made the trip, hunted up the factory, a great rumbling furniture concern in one of the poorest sections of the city, and inquired at the office for her father. The clerk directed her to a distant warehouse, and Gerhardt was informed that a lady wished to see him. He crawled out of his humble cot and came down, curious as to who it could be. When Jennie saw him in his dusty, baggy clothes, his hair gray, his eye brows shaggy, coming out of the dark door, a keen sense of the pathetic moved her again. “Poor papa!” she thought. He came toward her, his inquisitorial eye softened a little by his consciousness of the affection that had inspired her visit. “What are you come for?” he asked cautiously.

Jennie was disappointed by Gerhardt’s refusal. She discussed it with Lester and decided to go to Cleveland to see him. So, she made the trip, found the factory—a large, noisy furniture company in one of the poorest areas of the city—and asked at the office for her father. The clerk directed her to a faraway warehouse, and Gerhardt was informed that a lady wanted to see him. He crawled out of his simple bed and came down, curious about who it could be. When Jennie saw him in his dusty, loose clothes, his hair gray, his eyebrows unkempt, coming out of the dark door, she felt a sharp pang of pity again. “Poor dad!” she thought. He walked toward her, his probing gaze softening a bit with the realization of the affection that had brought her there. “What do you need?” he asked cautiously.

“I want you to come home with me, papa,” she pleaded yearningly. “I don’t want you to stay here any more. I can’t think of you living alone any longer.”

“I want you to come home with me, Dad,” she pleaded with longing. “I don’t want you to stay here anymore. I can’t bear the thought of you living alone any longer.”

“So,” he said, nonplussed, “that brings you?”

“So,” he said, confused, “what brings you here?”

“Yes,” she replied; “Won’t you? Don’t stay here.”

“Yes,” she replied. “Won’t you? Don’t stay here.”

“I have a good bed,” he explained by way of apology for his state.

“I have a nice bed,” he said as a way to apologize for how he looked.

“I know,” she replied, “but we have a good home now and Vesta is there. Won’t you come? Lester wants you to.”

“I know,” she replied, “but we have a nice home now and Vesta is there. Won’t you come? Lester wants you to.”

“Tell me one thing,” he demanded. “Are you married?”

“Tell me one thing,” he said. “Are you married?”

“Yes,” she replied, lying hopelessly. “I have been married a long time. You can ask Lester when you come.” She could scarcely look him in the face, but she managed somehow, and he believed her.

“Yes,” she replied, lying helplessly. “I’ve been married for a long time. You can ask Lester when you come.” She could hardly look him in the eye, but she managed somehow, and he believed her.

“Well,” he said, “it is time.”

“Well,” he said, “it’s time.”

“Won’t you come, papa?” she pleaded.

“Will you come, dad?” she asked.

He threw out his hands after his characteristic manner. The urgency of her appeal touched him to the quick. “Yes, I come,” he said, and turned; but she saw by his shoulders what was happening. He was crying.

He threw out his hands in his usual way. The urgency of her request affected him deeply. “Yeah, I’m coming,” he said, and turned; but she could see by his shoulders what was going on. He was crying.

“Now, papa?” she pleaded.

“Now, Dad?” she pleaded.

For answer he walked back into the dark warehouse to get his things.

For an answer, he walked back into the dark warehouse to grab his things.

CHAPTER XXXVIII

Gerhardt, having become an inmate of the Hyde Park home, at once bestirred himself about the labors which he felt instinctively concerned him. He took charge of the furnace and the yard, outraged at the thought that good money should be paid to any outsider when he had nothing to do. The trees, he declared to Jennie, were in a dreadful condition. If Lester would get him a pruning knife and a saw he would attend to them in the spring. In Germany they knew how to care for such things, but these Americans were so shiftless. Then he wanted tools and nails, and in time all the closets and shelves were put in order. He found a Lutheran Church almost two miles away, and declared that it was better than the one in Cleveland. The pastor, of course, was a heaven-sent son of divinity. And nothing would do but that Vesta must go to church with him regularly.

Gerhardt, now living at the Hyde Park home, quickly got to work on the tasks he felt were his responsibility. He took over the furnace and the yard, frustrated that money should be wasted on hiring someone else when he had time on his hands. The trees, he told Jennie, were in terrible shape. If Lester could get him a pruning knife and a saw, he would take care of them in the spring. In Germany, they knew how to handle such things, but these Americans were so careless. Then he asked for tools and nails, and soon all the closets and shelves were organized. He discovered a Lutheran Church nearly two miles away and insisted it was better than the one in Cleveland. The pastor, of course, was a divinely inspired man. And he was determined that Vesta must go to church with him regularly.

Jennie and Lester settled down into the new order of living with some misgivings; certain difficulties were sure to arise. On the North Side it had been easy for Jennie to shun neighbors and say nothing. Now they were occupying a house of some pretensions; their immediate neighbors would feel it their duty to call, and Jennie would have to play the part of an experienced hostess. She and Lester had talked this situation over. It might as well be understood here, he said, that they were husband and wife. Vesta was to be introduced as Jennie’s daughter by her first marriage, her husband, a Mr. Stover (her mother’s maiden name), having died immediately after the child’s birth. Lester, of course, was the stepfather. This particular neighborhood was so far from the fashionable heart of Chicago that Lester did not expect to run into many of his friends. He explained to Jennie the ordinary formalities of social intercourse, so that when the first visitor called Jennie might be prepared to receive her. Within a fortnight this first visitor arrived in the person of Mrs. Jacob Stendahl, a woman of considerable importance in this particular section. She lived five doors from Jennie—the houses of the neighborhood were all set in spacious lawns—and drove up in her carriage, on her return from her shopping, one afternoon.

Jennie and Lester adjusted to their new way of life with some uncertainty; they knew challenges would come up. Back on the North Side, Jennie had easily avoided neighbors and stayed quiet. Now, they were living in a house that had some expectations; their neighbors would likely feel it was their duty to visit, and Jennie would need to act like an experienced hostess. She and Lester had discussed this situation. He said it was important to understand that they were husband and wife. Vesta would be introduced as Jennie’s daughter from her first marriage, her husband, Mr. Stover (her mother's maiden name), having passed away right after the child was born. Lester would naturally be the stepfather. This particular neighborhood was far from the fashionable core of Chicago, so Lester didn't expect to bump into many of his friends. He explained to Jennie the usual social niceties, so she would be ready when the first visitor came. Within two weeks, that first visitor arrived in the form of Mrs. Jacob Stendahl, an important woman in the area. She lived five houses down from Jennie—the neighborhood houses were all set on spacious lawns—and she pulled up in her carriage one afternoon after running some errands.

“Is Mrs. Kane in?” she asked of Jeannette, the new maid.

“Is Mrs. Kane home?” she asked Jeannette, the new maid.

“I think so, mam,” answered the girl. “Won’t you let me have your card?”

“I think so, ma'am,” replied the girl. “Could you please give me your card?”

The card was given and taken to Jennie, who looked at it curiously.

The card was handed to Jennie, who examined it with interest.

When Jennie came into the parlor Mrs. Stendahl, a tall dark, inquisitive-looking woman, greeted her most cordially.

When Jennie walked into the living room, Mrs. Stendahl, a tall, dark, and curious-looking woman, warmly welcomed her.

“I thought I would take the liberty of intruding on you,” she said most winningly. “I am one of your neighbors. I live on the other side of the street, some few doors up. Perhaps you have seen the house—the one with the white stone gate-posts.”

“I thought I’d take the liberty of dropping by,” she said charmingly. “I’m one of your neighbors. I live just across the street, a few doors down. Maybe you’ve seen my house—the one with the white stone gateposts.”

“Oh, yes indeed,” replied Jennie. “I know it well. Mr. Kane and I were admiring it the first day we came out here.”

“Oh, yes, absolutely,” Jennie replied. “I know it really well. Mr. Kane and I were admiring it the first day we got here.”

“I know of your husband, of course, by reputation. My husband is connected with the Wilkes Frog and Switch Company.”

“I’ve heard of your husband, of course, by reputation. My husband is connected with the Wilkes Frog and Switch Company.”

Jennie bowed her head. She knew that the latter concern must be something important and profitable from the way in which Mrs. Stendahl spoke of it.

Jennie lowered her head. She realized that the latter concern must be significant and beneficial based on how Mrs. Stendahl talked about it.

“We have lived here quite a number of years, and I know how you must feel coming as a total stranger to a new section of the city. I hope you will find time to come in and see me some afternoon. I shall be most pleased. My regular reception day is Thursday.”

“We've lived here for several years, and I can imagine how you must feel arriving as a complete stranger to a new part of the city. I hope you'll find some time to come in and visit me one afternoon. I would be very pleased. My regular reception day is Thursday.”

“Indeed I shall,” answered Jennie, a little nervously, for the ordeal was a trying one. “I appreciate your goodness in calling. Mr. Kane is very busy as a rule, but when he is at home I am sure he would be most pleased to meet you and your husband.”

“Of course I will,” replied Jennie, a bit nervously, since it was a tough situation. “I really appreciate you reaching out. Mr. Kane is usually very busy, but when he’s home, I’m sure he would be happy to meet you and your husband.”

“You must both come over some evening,” replied Mrs. Stendahl. “We lead a very quiet life. My husband is not much for social gatherings. But we enjoy our neighborhood friends.”

“You both need to come over one evening,” Mrs. Stendahl replied. “We live a pretty quiet life. My husband isn’t really into social events. But we do enjoy our friends in the neighborhood.”

Jennie smiled her assurances of good-will. She accompanied Mrs. Stendahl to the door, and shook hands with her. “I’m so glad to find you so charming,” observed Mrs. Stendahl frankly.

Jennie smiled, showing her friendly intentions. She walked Mrs. Stendahl to the door and shook her hand. “I’m really glad to find you so lovely,” Mrs. Stendahl said honestly.

“Oh, thank you,” said Jennie flushing a little. “I’m sure I don’t deserve so much praise.”

“Oh, thank you,” said Jennie, blushing a bit. “I really don’t think I deserve so much praise.”

“Well, now I will expect you some afternoon. Good-by,” and she waved a gracious farewell.

"Well, I'll be expecting you one afternoon. Goodbye," and she waved a friendly farewell.

“That wasn’t so bad,” thought Jennie as she watched Mrs. Stendahl drive away. “She is very nice, I think. I’ll tell Lester about her.”

"That wasn't too bad," Jennie thought as she watched Mrs. Stendahl drive off. "She seems really nice, I think. I'll let Lester know about her."

Among the other callers were a Mr. and Mrs. Carmichael Burke, a Mrs. Hanson Field, and a Mrs. Timothy Ballinger—all of whom left cards, or stayed to chat a few minutes. Jennie found herself taken quite seriously as a woman of importance, and she did her best to support the dignity of her position. And, indeed, she did exceptionally well. She was most hospitable and gracious. She had a kindly smile and a manner wholly natural; she succeeded in making a most favorable impression. She explained to her guests that she had been living on the North Side until recently, that her husband, Mr. Kane, had long wanted to have a home in Hyde Park, that her father and daughter were living here, and that Lester was the child’s stepfather. She said she hoped to repay all these nice attentions and to be a good neighbor.

Among the other visitors were Mr. and Mrs. Carmichael Burke, Mrs. Hanson Field, and Mrs. Timothy Ballinger—all of whom left their cards or stayed to chat for a few minutes. Jennie felt quite important as a woman of significance, and she did her best to uphold the dignity of her role. And, in fact, she did exceptionally well. She was very welcoming and gracious. She had a warm smile and a completely natural manner; she managed to make a great impression. She told her guests that she had been living on the North Side until recently, that her husband, Mr. Kane, had always wanted a home in Hyde Park, that her father and daughter lived here, and that Lester was the child’s stepfather. She mentioned that she hoped to return all these lovely gestures and to be a good neighbor.

Lester heard about these calls in the evening, for he did not care to meet these people. Jennie came to enjoy it in a mild way. She liked making new friends, and she was hoping that something definite could be worked out here which would make Lester look upon her as a good wife and an ideal companion. Perhaps, some day, he might really want to marry her.

Lester heard about these calls in the evening because he didn’t want to meet these people. Jennie, on the other hand, enjoyed it in her own mild way. She liked making new friends and was hoping something meaningful could come from this that would make Lester see her as a good wife and an ideal partner. Maybe one day, he might actually want to marry her.

First impressions are not always permanent, as Jennie was soon to discover. The neighborhood had accepted her perhaps a little too hastily, and now rumors began to fly about. A Mrs. Sommerville, calling on Mrs. Craig, one of Jennie’s near neighbors, intimated that she knew who Lester was—“oh, yes, indeed. You know, my dear,” she went on, “his reputation is just a little—” she raised her eyebrows and her hand at the same time.

First impressions aren't always lasting, as Jennie was about to find out. The neighborhood had welcomed her maybe a bit too quickly, and now rumors started to spread. A Mrs. Sommerville, visiting Mrs. Craig, one of Jennie’s close neighbors, suggested that she knew who Lester was—“oh, yes, for sure. You know, my dear,” she continued, “his reputation is just a little—” she raised her eyebrows and her hand at the same time.

“You don’t say!” commented her friend curiously. “He looks like such a staid, conservative person.”

“You don’t say!” her friend replied, intrigued. “He seems like such a serious, traditional guy.”

“Oh, no doubt, in a way, he is,” went on Mrs. Sommerville. “His family is of the very best. There was some young woman he went with—so my husband tells me. I don’t know whether this is the one or not, but she was introduced as a Miss Gorwood, or some such name as that, when they were living together as husband and wife on the North Side.”

“Oh, definitely, in a way, he is,” Mrs. Sommerville continued. “His family is top notch. There was some young woman he dated—so my husband tells me. I’m not sure if this is the same one or not, but she was introduced as Miss Gorwood, or something like that, when they were living together as husband and wife on the North Side.”

“Tst! Tst! Tst!” clicked Mrs. Craig with her tongue at this astonishing news. “You don’t tell me! Come to think of it, it must be the same woman. Her father’s name is Gerhardt.”

“Tst! Tst! Tst!” clicked Mrs. Craig with her tongue at this surprising news. “You can’t be serious! Now that I think about it, it has to be the same woman. Her father’s name is Gerhardt.”

“Gerhardt!” exclaimed Mrs. Sommerville. “Yes, that’s the name. It seems to me that there was some earlier scandal in connection with her—at least there was a child. Whether he married her afterward or not, I don’t know. Anyhow, I understand his family will not have anything to do with her.”

“Gerhardt!” Mrs. Sommerville exclaimed. “Yes, that’s the name. I think there was some previous scandal involving her—at least there was a child. I’m not sure if he married her afterward or not. Anyway, I heard that his family wants nothing to do with her.”

“How very interesting!” exclaimed Mrs. Craig. “And to think he should have married her afterward, if he really did. I’m sure you can’t tell with whom you’re coming in contact these days, can you?”

“How interesting!” exclaimed Mrs. Craig. “And to think he actually married her afterward, if he really did. I’m sure you can’t tell who you’re dealing with these days, can you?”

“It’s so true. Life does get badly mixed at times. She appears to be a charming woman.”

“It’s so true. Life can get really messed up at times. She seems like a charming woman.”

“Delightful!” exclaimed Mrs. Craig. “Quite naive. I was really taken with her.”

“Delightful!” Mrs. Craig exclaimed. “So naive. I was really charmed by her.”

“Well, it may be,” went on her guest, “that this isn’t the same woman after all. I may be mistaken.”

“Well, it might be,” her guest continued, “that this isn’t the same woman after all. I could be wrong.”

“Oh, I hardly think so. Gerhardt! She told me they had been living on the North Side.”

“Oh, I really don’t think so. Gerhardt! She mentioned they had been living on the North Side.”

“Then I’m sure it’s the same person. How curious that you should speak of her!”

“Then I’m sure it’s the same person. How interesting that you brought her up!”

“It is, indeed,” went on Mrs. Craig, who was speculating as to what her attitude toward Jennie should be in the future.

“It really is,” continued Mrs. Craig, who was thinking about how she should act toward Jennie going forward.

Other rumors came from other sources. There were people who had seen Jennie and Lester out driving on the North Side, who had been introduced to her as Miss Gerhardt, who knew what the Kane family thought. Of course her present position, the handsome house, the wealth of Lester, the beauty of Vesta—all these things helped to soften the situation. She was apparently too circumspect, too much the good wife and mother, too really nice to be angry with; but she had a past, and that had to be taken into consideration.

Other rumors came from different sources. There were people who had seen Jennie and Lester driving around on the North Side, who had met her as Miss Gerhardt, and who understood what the Kane family thought. Of course, her current situation, the beautiful house, Lester's wealth, and Vesta's beauty—all these things helped make the situation seem better. She seemed to be too careful, too much the good wife and mother, and just really nice to be mad at; but she had a past, and that needed to be taken into account.

An opening bolt of the coming storm fell upon Jennie one day when Vesta, returning from school, suddenly asked: “Mamma, who was my papa?”

An unexpected wave of the approaching storm hit Jennie one day when Vesta, coming back from school, suddenly asked, “Mom, who was my dad?”

“His name was Stover, dear,” replied her mother, struck at once by the thought that there might have been some criticism—that some one must have been saying something. “Why do you ask?”

“His name was Stover, honey,” her mother replied, suddenly worried that there might have been some criticism—that someone had been talking. “Why do you ask?”

“Where was I born?” continued Vesta, ignoring the last inquiry, and interested in clearing up her own identity.

“Where was I born?” Vesta asked, ignoring the last question and focused on figuring out her own identity.

“In Columbus, Ohio, pet. Why?”

"In Columbus, Ohio, pets. Why?"

“Anita Ballinger said I didn’t have any papa, and that you weren’t ever married when you had me. She said I wasn’t a really, truly girl at all—just a nobody. She made me so mad I slapped her.”

“Anita Ballinger said I didn’t have a dad, and that you were never married when you had me. She said I wasn’t a real girl at all—just a nobody. She made me so mad that I slapped her.”

Jennie’s face grew rigid. She sat staring straight before her. Mrs. Ballinger had called, and Jennie had thought her peculiarly gracious and helpful in her offer of assistance, and now her little daughter had said this to Vesta. Where did the child hear it?

Jennie’s face tensed up. She sat there, staring straight ahead. Mrs. Ballinger had dropped by, and Jennie had found her unexpectedly kind and willing to help. Now her little daughter had said that to Vesta. Where did the child hear it?

“You mustn’t pay any attention to her, dearie,” said Jennie at last. “She doesn’t know. Your papa was Mr. Stover, and you were born in Columbus. You mustn’t fight other little girls. Of course they say nasty things when they fight—sometimes things they don’t really mean. Just let her alone and don’t go near her any more. Then she won’t say anything to you.”

“You shouldn’t pay any attention to her, sweetie,” Jennie finally said. “She doesn’t know what she’s talking about. Your dad was Mr. Stover, and you were born in Columbus. You shouldn’t get into fights with other little girls. Of course they say hurtful things when they argue—sometimes things they don’t really mean. Just ignore her and stay away from her. Then she won’t say anything to you.”

It was a lame explanation, but it satisfied Vesta for the time being. “I’ll slap her if she tries to slap me,” she persisted.

It was a weak explanation, but it was enough for Vesta for now. “I’ll hit her if she tries to hit me,” she insisted.

“You mustn’t go near her, pet, do you hear? Then she can’t try to slap you,” returned her mother. “Just go about your studies, and don’t mind her. She can’t quarrel with you if you don’t let her.”

“You shouldn’t go near her, sweetie, do you understand? That way she won’t be able to try to hit you,” her mother replied. “Just focus on your studies and ignore her. She can't argue with you if you don’t engage.”

Vesta went away leaving Jennie brooding over her words. The neighbors were talking. Her history was becoming common gossip. How had they found out.

Vesta left, leaving Jennie pondering her words. The neighbors were gossiping. Her story was becoming common talk. How did they find out?

It is one thing to nurse a single thrust, another to have the wound opened from time to time by additional stabs. One day Jennie, having gone to call on Mrs. Hanson Field, who was her immediate neighbor, met a Mrs. Williston Baker, who was there taking tea. Mrs. Baker knew of the Kanes, of Jennie’s history on the North Side, and of the attitude of the Kane family. She was a thin, vigorous, intellectual woman, somewhat on the order of Mrs. Bracebridge, and very careful of her social connections. She had always considered Mrs. Field a woman of the same rigid circumspectness of attitude, and when she found Jennie calling there she was outwardly calm but inwardly irritated. “This is Mrs. Kane, Mrs. Baker,” said Mrs. Field, introducing her guests with a smiling countenance. Mrs. Baker looked at Jennie ominously.

It's one thing to bear a single wound, but another to have it repeatedly reopened by new cuts. One day, Jennie went to visit Mrs. Hanson Field, who was her next-door neighbor, and met a Mrs. Williston Baker, who was there having tea. Mrs. Baker knew about the Kanes, Jennie's background on the North Side, and the Kane family's perspective. She was a thin, energetic, intellectual woman, somewhat like Mrs. Bracebridge, and very cautious about her social connections. She had always viewed Mrs. Field as someone with the same strict, careful attitude, and when she saw Jennie visiting, she was calm on the outside but annoyed on the inside. “This is Mrs. Kane, Mrs. Baker,” said Mrs. Field, introducing her guests with a smile. Mrs. Baker looked at Jennie with a sense of foreboding.

“Mrs. Lester Kane?” she inquired.

“Mrs. Lester Kane?” she asked.

“Yes,” replied Mrs. Fields.

“Yes,” said Mrs. Fields.

“Indeed,” she went on freezingly. “I’ve heard a great deal about Mrs.—” accenting the word “Mrs.—Lester Kane.”

“Yeah,” she continued coldly. “I’ve heard a lot about Mrs.—” emphasizing the word “Mrs.—Lester Kane.”

She turned to Mrs. Field, ignoring Jennie completely, and started an intimate conversation in which Jennie could have no possible share. Jennie stood helplessly by, unable to formulate a thought which would be suitable to so trying a situation. Mrs. Baker soon announced her departure, although she had intended to stay longer. “I can’t remain another minute,” she said; “I promised Mrs. Neil that I would stop in to see her to-day. I’m sure I’ve bored you enough already as it is.”

She turned to Mrs. Field, completely ignoring Jennie, and started a private conversation that Jennie couldn't join. Jennie stood there helpless, unable to come up with anything to say in such a difficult situation. Mrs. Baker soon announced she was leaving, even though she originally planned to stay longer. “I can’t stay another minute,” she said; “I promised Mrs. Neil I would stop by to see her today. I’m sure I’ve already bored you enough as it is.”

She walked to the door, not troubling to look at Jennie until she was nearly out of the room. Then she looked in her direction, and gave her a frigid nod.

She walked to the door, not bothering to look at Jennie until she was almost out of the room. Then she glanced in her direction and gave her a cold nod.

“We meet such curious people now and again,” she observed finally to her hostess as she swept away.

“We come across some interesting people every now and then,” she remarked to her hostess as she left.

Mrs. Field did not feel able to defend Jennie, for she herself was in no notable social position, and was endeavoring, like every other middle-class woman of means, to get along. She did not care to offend Mrs. Williston Baker, who was socially so much more important than Jennie. She came back to where Jennie was sitting, smiling apologetically, but she was a little bit flustered. Jennie was out of countenance, of course. Presently she excused herself and went home. She had been cut deeply by the slight offered her, and she felt that Mrs. Field realized that she had made a mistake in ever taking her up. There would be no additional exchange of visits there—that she knew. The old hopeless feeling came over her that her life was a failure. It couldn’t be made right, or, if it could, it wouldn’t be. Lester was not inclined to marry her and put her right.

Mrs. Field didn’t feel capable of defending Jennie because she wasn’t in a strong social position herself and was trying, like any other middle-class woman with money, to make her way. She didn’t want to offend Mrs. Williston Baker, who was socially much more significant than Jennie. She returned to where Jennie was sitting, smiling apologetically, but she felt a bit flustered. Jennie, of course, looked disheartened. Eventually, she excused herself and went home. She was deeply hurt by the slight against her, and she sensed that Mrs. Field regretted ever getting involved with her. She knew there would be no more visits exchanged—she was sure of that. The familiar, hopeless feeling washed over her that her life was a failure. It couldn’t be fixed, or if it could, it wouldn’t be. Lester had no intention of marrying her and making things right.

Time went on and matters remained very much as they were. To look at this large house, with its smooth lawn and well grown trees, its vines clambering about the pillars of the veranda and interlacing themselves into a transparent veil of green; to see Gerhardt pottering about the yard, Vesta coming home from school, Lester leaving in the morning in his smart trap—one would have said that here is peace and plenty, no shadow of unhappiness hangs over this charming home.

Time went on, and everything stayed pretty much the same. Just looking at this big house, with its neat lawn and flourishing trees, the vines climbing around the porch pillars and weaving a delicate curtain of green; watching Gerhardt tinkering in the yard, Vesta coming home from school, and Lester leaving each morning in his stylish carriage—one would think this place exudes peace and abundance, with no hint of unhappiness shadowing this lovely home.

And as a matter of fact existence with Lester and Jennie did run smoothly. It is true that the neighbors did not call any more, or only a very few of them, and there was no social life to speak of; but the deprivation was hardly noticed; there was so much in the home life to please and interest. Vesta was learning to play the piano, and to play quite well. She had a good ear for music. Jennie was a charming figure in blue, lavender, and olive-green house-gowns as she went about her affairs, sewing, dusting, getting Vesta off to school, and seeing that things generally were put to rights. Gerhardt busied himself about his multitudinous duties, for he was not satisfied unless he had his hands into all the domestic economies of the household. One of his self-imposed tasks was to go about the house after Lester, or the servants, turning out the gas-jets or electric-light bulbs which might accidentally have been left burning. That was a sinful extravagance.

And actually, life with Lester and Jennie was pretty smooth. It’s true that the neighbors didn’t call much anymore, or only a few of them did, and there wasn’t really a social life to speak of; but they hardly noticed that absence since there was so much in their home life that was enjoyable and interesting. Vesta was learning to play the piano, and she was getting quite good at it. She had a good ear for music. Jennie was a lovely sight in her blue, lavender, and olive-green house dresses as she went about her tasks—sewing, dusting, getting Vesta off to school, and making sure everything was in order. Gerhardt kept busy with his many responsibilities because he didn’t feel satisfied unless he was involved in all the household duties. One of his self-assigned tasks was going around the house after Lester or the servants, turning off gas jets or light bulbs that might have been left on. That was a wasteful extravagance.

Again, Lester’s expensive clothes, which he carelessly threw aside after a few month’s use, were a source of woe to the thrifty old German. Moreover, he grieved over splendid shoes discarded because of a few wrinkles in the leather or a slightly run down heel or sole. Gerhardt was for having them repaired, but Lester answered the old man’s querulous inquiry as to what was wrong “with them shoes” by saying that they weren’t comfortable any more.

Again, Lester's pricey clothes, which he casually tossed aside after just a few months of wear, were a source of frustration for the frugal old German. Additionally, he lamented over the fancy shoes that were thrown away because of a few creases in the leather or a slightly worn-down heel or sole. Gerhardt wanted to get them fixed, but Lester replied to the old man's complaining question about what was wrong with "them shoes" by saying they weren't comfortable anymore.

“Such extravagance!” Gerhardt complained to Jennie. “Such waste! No good can come of anything like that, It will mean want one of these days.”

“Such extravagance!” Gerhardt complained to Jennie. “Such waste! Nothing good can come from that. It will lead to want one of these days.”

“He can’t help it, papa,” Jennie excused. “That’s the way he was raised.”

“He can't help it, Dad,” Jennie said. “That’s how he was brought up.”

“Ha! A fine way to be raised. These Americans, they know nothing of economy. They ought to live in Germany awhile. Then they would know what a dollar can do.”

“Ha! What a way to grow up. These Americans have no idea about finances. They should spend some time in Germany. Then they'd understand what a dollar can really do.”

Lester heard something of this through Jennie, but he only smiled. Gerhardt was amusing to him.

Lester heard about this from Jennie, but he just smiled. Gerhardt was entertaining to him.

Another grievance was Lester’s extravagant use of matches. He had the habit of striking a match, holding it while he talked, instead of lighting his cigar, and then throwing it away. Sometimes he would begin to light a cigar two or three minutes before he would actually do so, tossing aside match after match. There was a place out in one corner of the veranda where he liked to sit of a spring or summer evening, smoking and throwing away half-burned matches. Jennie would sit with him, and a vast number of matches would be lit and flung out on the lawn. At one time, while engaged in cutting the grass, Gerhardt found, to his horror, not a handful, but literally boxes of half-burned match-sticks lying unconsumed and decaying under the fallen blades. He was discouraged, to say the least. He gathered up this damning evidence in a newspaper and carried it back into the sitting-room where Jennie was sewing.

Another complaint was Lester’s over-the-top use of matches. He had this habit of striking a match, holding it while he talked instead of lighting his cigar, and then tossing it away. Sometimes he'd start to light a cigar two or three minutes before actually doing so, discarding match after match. There was a spot in one corner of the veranda where he liked to sit on a spring or summer evening, smoking and tossing aside half-burned matches. Jennie would sit with him, and a huge number of matches would be lit and tossed out onto the lawn. At one point, while cutting the grass, Gerhardt found, to his dismay, not just a handful, but literally boxes of half-burned matchsticks lying unused and rotting beneath the fallen blades. He was discouraged, to say the least. He gathered up this damning evidence in a newspaper and took it back into the sitting room where Jennie was sewing.

“See here, what I find!” he demanded. “Just look at that! That man, he has no more sense of economy than a—than a—” the right term failed him. “He sits and smokes, and this is the way he uses matches. Five cents a box they cost—five cents. How can a man hope to do well and carry on like that, I like to know. Look at them.”

“Check this out!” he exclaimed. “Just look at that! That guy has no sense of budgeting whatsoever—like a—” he couldn't find the right word. “He just sits there smoking, and this is how he uses matches. They cost five cents a box—five cents. How can a guy expect to succeed and act like that, I want to know. Look at them.”

Jennie looked. She shook her head. “Lester is extravagant,” she said.

Jennie looked. She shook her head. “Lester is over the top,” she said.

Gerhardt carried them to the basement. At least they should be burned in the furnace. He would have used them as lighters for his own pipe, sticking them in the fire to catch a blaze, only old newspapers were better, and he had stacks of these—another evidence of his lord and master’s wretched, spendthrift disposition. It was a sad world to work in. Almost everything was against him. Still he fought as valiantly as he could against waste and shameless extravagance. His own economies were rigid. He would wear the same suit of black—cut down from one of Lester’s expensive investments of years before—every Sunday for a couple of years. Lester’s shoes, by a little stretch of the imagination, could be made to seem to fit, and these he wore. His old ties also—the black ones—they were fine. If he could have cut down Lester’s shirts he would have done so; he did make over the underwear, with the friendly aid of the cook’s needle. Lester’s socks, of course, were just right. There was never any expense for Gerhardt’s clothing.

Gerhardt took them to the basement. They should at least be burned in the furnace. He might have used them as kindling for his own pipe, tossing them into the fire to catch a spark, but old newspapers worked better, and he had plenty of those—another sign of his boss’s miserable, wasteful habits. It was a tough world to work in. Almost everything was against him. Still, he fought as hard as he could against waste and shameless excess. He was strict about his own spending. He wore the same black suit—taken down from one of Lester’s pricey purchases from years back—every Sunday for a couple of years. With a bit of imagination, he could make Lester’s shoes fit, and those were his. His old black ties were just fine. If he could have altered Lester’s shirts, he would have; he did manage to remake the underwear with the help of the cook’s needle. Lester’s socks, of course, fit perfectly. There was never any expense for Gerhardt's clothing.

The remaining stock of Lester’s discarded clothing—shoes, shirts, collars, suits, ties, and what not—he would store away for weeks and months, and then, in a sad and gloomy frame of mind, he would call in a tailor, or an old-shoe man, or a ragman, and dispose of the lot at the best price he could. He learned that all second-hand clothes men were sharks; that there was no use in putting the least faith in the protests of any rag dealer or old-shoe man. They all lied. They all claimed to be very poor, when as a matter of fact they were actually rolling in wealth. Gerhardt had investigated these stories; he had followed them up; he had seen what they were doing with the things he sold them.

The leftover clothes from Lester’s discarded wardrobe—shoes, shirts, collars, suits, ties, and so on—he would keep stored away for weeks and months. Then, feeling sad and down, he would call in a tailor, or an old-shoe dealer, or a ragman, and sell everything off at the best price he could get. He learned that all second-hand clothing sellers were out to take advantage; there was no point in believing the false claims of any rag dealer or old-shoe guy. They all lied. They insisted they were very poor, when in reality, they were quite wealthy. Gerhardt had looked into these stories; he had followed up on them; he had seen what they did with the things he sold to them.

“Scoundrels!” he declared. “They offer me ten cents for a pair of shoes, and then I see them hanging out in front of their places marked two dollars. Such robbery! My God! They could afford to give me a dollar.”

“Crooks!” he said. “They want to give me ten cents for a pair of shoes, and then I see them displayed outside their shops priced at two dollars. What a scam! Seriously! They could easily pay me a dollar.”

Jennie smiled. It was only to her that he complained, for he could expect no sympathy from’ Lester. So far as his own meager store of money was concerned, he gave the most of it to his beloved church, where he was considered to be a model of propriety, honesty, faith—in fact, the embodiment of all the virtues.

Jennie smiled. He only complained to her because he couldn’t expect any sympathy from Lester. When it came to his own limited money, he donated most of it to his beloved church, where he was seen as a model of decency, honesty, and faith—in fact, the personification of all the virtues.

And so, for all the ill winds that were beginning to blow socially, Jennie was now leading the dream years of her existence. Lester, in spite of the doubts which assailed him at times as to the wisdom of his career, was invariably kind and considerate, and he seemed to enjoy his home life.

And so, despite all the negative vibes starting to spread socially, Jennie was now living the best years of her life. Lester, even though he sometimes questioned whether his career choices were smart, was always kind and thoughtful, and he appeared to appreciate his home life.

“Everything all right?” she would ask when he came in of an evening.

“Is everything okay?” she would ask when he came in for the evening.

“Sure!” he would answer, and pinch her chin or cheek.

"Sure!" he would say, giving her chin or cheek a playful pinch.

She would follow him in while Jeannette, always alert, would take his coat and hat. In the winter-time they would sit in the library before the big grate-fire. In the spring, summer, or fall Lester preferred to walk out on the porch, one corner of which commanded a sweeping view of the lawn and the distant street, and light his before-dinner cigar. Jennie would sit on the side of his chair and stroke his head. “Your hair is not getting the least bit thin, Lester; aren’t you glad?” she would say; or, “Oh, see how your brow is wrinkled now. You mustn’t do that. You didn’t change your tie, mister, this morning. Why didn’t you? I laid one out for you.”

She would go in with him while Jeannette, always attentive, took his coat and hat. In the winter, they would sit in the library in front of the big fireplace. In the spring, summer, or fall, Lester preferred to step out onto the porch, which had a great view of the lawn and the street in the distance, and light his before-dinner cigar. Jennie would sit by his chair and stroke his head. “Your hair isn’t getting thin at all, Lester; aren't you happy about that?” she would say, or, “Oh, look at how wrinkled your forehead is now. You shouldn’t do that. You didn’t change your tie this morning, mister. Why not? I picked one out for you.”

“Oh, I forgot,” he would answer, or he would cause the wrinkles to disappear, or laughingly predict that he would soon be getting bald if he wasn’t so now.

“Oh, I forgot,” he would say, or he would smooth out the wrinkles, or jokingly predict that he would be going bald soon if he wasn’t already.

In the drawing-room or library, before Vesta and Gerhardt, she was not less loving, though a little more circumspect. She loved odd puzzles like pigs in clover, the spider’s hole, baby billiards, and the like. Lester shared in these simple amusements. He would work by the hour, if necessary, to make a difficult puzzle come right. Jennie was clever at solving these mechanical problems. Sometimes she would have to show him the right method, and then she would be immensely pleased with herself. At other times she would stand behind him watching, her chin on his shoulder, her arms about his neck. He seemed not to mind—indeed, he was happy in the wealth of affection she bestowed. Her cleverness, her gentleness, her tact created an atmosphere which was immensely pleasing; above all her youth and beauty appealed to him. It made him feel young, and if there was one thing Lester objected to, it was the thought of drying up into an aimless old age. “I want to keep young, or die young,” was one of his pet remarks; and Jennie came to understand. She was glad that she was so much younger now for his sake.

In the living room or library, in front of Vesta and Gerhardt, she was just as loving, but a bit more careful. She enjoyed quirky puzzles like pigs in clover, the spider’s hole, baby billiards, and similar things. Lester joined in these simple fun activities. He would spend hours, if necessary, to solve a tricky puzzle. Jennie was good at figuring out these mechanical challenges. Sometimes she would have to show him the right way, and then she would feel really proud of herself. Other times, she would stand behind him, resting her chin on his shoulder, with her arms around his neck. He didn’t seem to mind—in fact, he felt happy with the abundance of love she gave him. Her intelligence, her kindness, her sensitivity created an atmosphere that was very enjoyable; most of all, her youth and beauty drew him in. It made him feel youthful, and if there was one thing Lester hated, it was the idea of becoming aimlessly old. “I want to stay young, or die young,” was one of his favorite sayings; and Jennie started to understand. She was happy to be so much younger now for his sake.

Another pleasant feature of the home life was Lester’s steadily increasing affection for Vesta. The child would sit at the big table in the library in the evening conning her books, while Jennie would sew, and Gerhardt would read his interminable list of German Lutheran papers. It grieved the old man that Vesta should not be allowed to go to a German Lutheran parochial school, but Lester would listen to nothing of the sort. “We’ll not have any thick-headed German training in this,” he said to Jennie, when she suggested that Gerhardt had complained. “The public schools are good enough for any child. You tell him to let her alone.”

Another nice aspect of home life was Lester’s growing affection for Vesta. The child would sit at the large table in the library in the evening going through her books, while Jennie sewed and Gerhardt read his never-ending list of German Lutheran papers. It upset the old man that Vesta couldn't attend a German Lutheran parochial school, but Lester wouldn’t hear of it. “We’re not going to have any thick-headed German training here,” he told Jennie when she mentioned that Gerhardt had complained. “The public schools are good enough for any child. You tell him to leave her alone.”

There were really some delightful hours among the four. Lester liked to take the little seven-year-old school-girl between his knees and tease her. He liked to invert the so-called facts of life, to propound its paradoxes, and watch how the child’s budding mind took them. “What’s water?” he would ask; and being informed that it was “what we drink,” he would stare and say, “That’s so, but what is it? Don’t they teach you any better than that?”

There were really some enjoyable hours among the four of them. Lester liked to take the little seven-year-old schoolgirl between his knees and tease her. He enjoyed flipping the so-called facts of life upside down, proposing its paradoxes, and watching how the child's developing mind processed them. “What’s water?” he would ask; and when he was told that it was “what we drink,” he would stare and say, “That’s true, but what is it? Don’t they teach you anything better than that?”

“Well, it is what we drink, isn’t it?” persisted Vesta.

“Well, it’s what we drink, right?” Vesta kept pressing.

“The fact that we drink it doesn’t explain what it is,” he would retort. “You ask your teacher what water is”; and then he would leave her with this irritating problem troubling her young soul.

“The fact that we drink it doesn’t explain what it is,” he would respond. “You should ask your teacher what water is”; and then he would leave her with this annoying problem weighing on her young mind.

Food, china, her dress, anything was apt to be brought back to its chemical constituents, and he would leave her to struggle with these dark suggestions of something else back of the superficial appearance of things until she was actually in awe of him. She had a way of showing him how nice she looked before she started to school in the morning, a habit that arose because of his constant criticism of her appearance. He wanted her to look smart, he insisted on a big bow of blue ribbon for her hair, he demanded that her shoes be changed from low quarter to high boots with the changing character of the seasons’ and that her clothing be carried out on a color scheme suited to her complexion and disposition.

Food, dishes, her dress—anything could be reduced to its basic chemical components, and he would leave her to grapple with these unsettling hints of something deeper behind the surface of things until she was truly in awe of him. She had a habit of showing him how nice she looked before heading to school in the morning, a routine that developed because of his constant critiques of her looks. He wanted her to look sharp, insisting on a big blue ribbon bow for her hair, demanding that her shoes switch from low quarters to high boots with the seasons, and that her outfits matched a color scheme suited to her complexion and personality.

“That child’s light and gay by disposition. Don’t put anything somber on her,” he once remarked.

“That child is bright and cheerful by nature. Don’t put anything gloomy around her,” he once said.

Jennie had come to realize that he must be consulted in this, and would say, “Run to your papa and show him how you look.”

Jennie realized that he needed to be consulted about this, and would say, “Run to your dad and show him how you look.”

Vesta would come and turn briskly around before him, saying, “See.”

Vesta would come and spin around quickly in front of him, saying, “Look.”

“Yes. You’re all right. Go on”; and on she would go.

“Yeah. You’re fine. Keep going”; and on she would go.

He grew so proud of her that on Sundays and some week-days when they drove he would always have her in between them. He insisted that Jennie send her to dancing-school, and Gerhardt was beside himself with rage and grief. “Such irreligion!” he complained to Jennie. “Such devil’s fol-de-rol. Now she goes to dance. What for? To make a no-good out of her—a creature to be ashamed of?”

He became so proud of her that on Sundays and some weekdays when they went for drives, he always had her sitting between them. He made Jennie send her to dance classes, and Gerhardt was furious and heartbroken. “Such disrespect!” he complained to Jennie. “Such nonsense. Now she’s taking dance lessons. What for? To turn her into someone worthless—a person to be ashamed of?”

“Oh no, papa,” replied Jennie. “It isn’t as bad as that. This is an awful nice school. Lester says she has to go.”

“Oh no, Dad,” Jennie replied. “It’s not that bad. This is a really nice school. Lester says she has to go.”

“Lester, Lester; that man! A fine lot he knows about what is good for a child. A card-player, a whisky-drinker!”

“Lester, Lester; that guy! He thinks he knows what's best for a kid. A gambler, a whiskey drinker!”

“Now, hush, papa; I won’t have you talk like that,” Jennie would reply warmly. “He’s a good man, and you know it.”

“Now, shh, Dad; I don’t want you talking like that,” Jennie would respond kindly. “He’s a good guy, and you know it.”

“Yes, yes, a good man. In some things, maybe. Not in this. No.”

“Yes, yes, a good guy. In some ways, maybe. Not in this. No.”

He went away groaning. When Lester was near he said nothing, and Vesta could wind him around her finger.

He walked away grumbling. When Lester was around, he said nothing, and Vesta could easily manipulate him.

“Oh you,” she would say, pulling at his arm or rubbing his grizzled cheek. There was no more fight in Gerhardt when Vesta did this. He lost control of himself—something welled up and choked his throat. “Yes, I know how you do,” he would exclaim.

“Oh you,” she would say, tugging at his arm or stroking his rough cheek. There was no more resistance in Gerhardt when Vesta did this. He lost his composure—something rose up and tightened in his throat. “Yes, I know how you are,” he would exclaim.

Vesta would tweak his ear.

Vesta would flick his ear.

“Stop now!” he would say. “That is enough.”

“Stop now!” he would say. “That’s enough.”

It was noticeable, however, that she did not have to stop unless she herself willed it. Gerhardt adored the child, and she could do anything with him; he was always her devoted servitor.

It was clear, however, that she didn’t have to stop unless she wanted to. Gerhardt adored the child, and she could do whatever she wanted with him; he was always her loyal servant.

CHAPTER XXXIX

During this period the dissatisfaction of the Kane family with Lester’s irregular habit of life grew steadily stronger. That it could not help but become an open scandal, in the course of time, was sufficiently obvious to them. Rumors were already going about. People seemed to understand in a wise way, though nothing was ever said directly. Kane senior could scarcely imagine what possessed his son to fly in the face of conventions in this manner. If the woman had been some one of distinction—some sorceress of the stage, or of the world of art, or letters, his action would have been explicable if not commendable, but with this creature of very ordinary capabilities, as Louise had described her, this putty-faced nobody—he could not possibly understand it.

During this time, the Kane family's frustration with Lester’s unpredictable lifestyle grew stronger. It was clear to them that it would inevitably lead to a public scandal. Rumors were already spreading. People seemed to have an unspoken understanding, even though nothing was said outright. Kane senior could hardly fathom why his son would challenge societal norms in this way. If the woman had been someone of high status—like a glamorous actress, or a prominent figure in art or literature—his actions might have made sense, if not been praiseworthy. But with this ordinary woman, as Louise had described her, this faceless nobody—he just couldn’t comprehend it.

Lester was his son, his favorite son; it was too bad that he had not settled down in the ordinary way. Look at the women in Cincinnati who knew him and liked him. Take Letty Pace, for instance. Why in the name of common sense had he not married her? She was good looking, sympathetic, talented. The old man grieved bitterly, and then, by degrees, he began to harden. It seemed a shame that Lester should treat him so. It wasn’t natural, or justifiable, or decent. Archibald Kane brooded over it until he felt that some change ought to be enforced, but just what it should be he could not say. Lester was his own boss, and he would resent any criticism of his actions. Apparently, nothing could be done.

Lester was his son, his favorite son; it was a shame he hadn't settled down like most people. Just look at the women in Cincinnati who knew him and liked him. Take Letty Pace, for example. Why on earth hadn’t he married her? She was attractive, caring, and talented. The old man mourned deeply, and then, little by little, he started to toughen up. It felt wrong that Lester would treat him this way. It wasn’t natural, justified, or fair. Archibald Kane worried about it until he thought some change needed to happen, but he couldn’t figure out what it should be. Lester was in charge of his own life, and he would take any criticism of his choices personally. It seemed like there was nothing that could be done.

Certain changes helped along an approaching denouement. Louise married not many months after her very disturbing visit to Chicago, and then the home property was fairly empty except for visiting grandchildren. Lester did not attend the wedding, though he was invited. For another thing, Mrs. Kane died, making a readjustment of the family will necessary. Lester came home on this occasion, grieved to think he had lately seen so little of his mother—that he had caused her so much pain—but he had no explanation to make. His father thought at the time of talking to him, but put it off because of his obvious gloom. He went back to Chicago, and there were more months of silence.

Certain changes led to an approaching climax. Louise got married just a few months after her very unsettling visit to Chicago, and the family home was mostly empty except for occasional visits from the grandchildren. Lester didn’t go to the wedding, even though he was invited. Additionally, Mrs. Kane passed away, requiring an update to the family will. Lester returned home for this occasion, saddened by how little time he had spent with his mother lately and regretting the pain he caused her—but he had no explanation to offer. His father thought about talking to him at the time, but decided against it due to Lester's obvious sadness. He went back to Chicago, and more months of silence followed.

After Mrs. Kane’s death and Louise’s marriage, the father went to live with Robert, for his three grandchildren afforded him his greatest pleasure in his old age. The business, except for the final adjustment which would come after his death, was in Robert’s hands. The latter was consistently agreeable to his sisters and their husbands and to his father, in view of the eventual control he hoped to obtain. He was not a sycophant in any sense of the word, but a shrewd, cold business man, far shrewder than his brother gave him credit for. He was already richer than any two of the other children put together, but he chose to keep his counsel and to pretend modesty of fortune. He realized the danger of envy, and preferred a Spartan form of existence, putting all the emphasis on inconspicuous but very ready and very hard cash. While Lester was drifting Robert was working—working all the time.

After Mrs. Kane’s death and Louise’s marriage, their father moved in with Robert because his three grandchildren brought him the most joy in his old age. The business, apart from the final settlement that would happen after his death, was in Robert’s hands. He was consistently friendly with his sisters, their husbands, and their father, considering the control he hoped to gain in the future. He wasn’t a sycophant by any means, but rather a shrewd, cold businessman, much sharper than his brother realized. He was already wealthier than any two of the other kids combined, but he chose to keep a low profile and play down his wealth. He understood the risks of jealousy and preferred a simple lifestyle, focusing on discreet but readily available cash. While Lester was drifting, Robert was busy—always working.

Robert’s scheme for eliminating his brother from participation in the control of the business was really not very essential, for his father, after long brooding over the details of the Chicago situation, had come to the definite conclusion that any large share of his property ought not to go to Lester. Obviously, Lester was not so strong a man as he had thought him to be. Of the two brothers, Lester might be the bigger intellectually or sympathetically—artistically and socially there was no comparison—but Robert got commercial results in a silent, effective way. If Lester was not going to pull himself together at this stage of the game, when would he? Better leave his property to those who would take care of it. Archibald Kane thought seriously of having his lawyer revise his will in such a way that, unless Lester should reform, he would be cut off with only a nominal income. But he decided to give Lester one more chance—to make a plea, in fact, that he should abandon his false way of living, and put himself on a sound basis before the world. It wasn’t too late. He really had a great future. Would he deliberately choose to throw it away? Old Archibald wrote Lester that he would like to have a talk with him at his convenience, and within the lapse of thirty-six hours Lester was in Cincinnati.

Robert's plan to exclude his brother from the business wasn't actually that crucial, since their father, after a lot of thinking about the Chicago situation, had firmly decided that a significant portion of his assets shouldn't go to Lester. Clearly, Lester wasn't as strong as he once believed. While Lester might be more talented or relatable—especially in artistic and social matters—Robert achieved business results quietly and effectively. If Lester wasn't going to get it together now, when would he? It was better to leave his inheritance to those who would manage it well. Archibald Kane seriously considered having his lawyer update his will so that, unless Lester changed his ways, he would be left with just a nominal income. But he opted to give Lester one more chance—to ask him to give up his misleading lifestyle and establish himself on solid ground in the world. It wasn't too late; he truly had a promising future. Would he really choose to waste it? Old Archibald wrote to Lester, saying he wanted to talk whenever it suited him, and within thirty-six hours, Lester was in Cincinnati.

“I thought I’d have one more talk with you, Lester, on a subject that’s rather difficult for me to bring up,” began the elder Kane. “You know what I’m referring to?”

“I thought I’d have one more conversation with you, Lester, about something that's pretty hard for me to bring up,” began the elder Kane. “Do you know what I’m talking about?”

“Yes, I know,” replied Lester, calmly.

“Yes, I know,” replied Lester, coolly.

“I used to think, when I was much younger that my son’s matrimonial ventures would never concern me, but I changed my views on that score when I got a little farther along. I began to see through my business connections how much the right sort of a marriage helps a man, and then I got rather anxious that my boys should marry well. I used to worry about you, Lester, and I’m worrying yet. This recent connection you’ve made has caused me no end of trouble. It worried your mother up to the very last. It was her one great sorrow. Don’t you think you have gone far enough with it? The scandal has reached down here. What it is in Chicago I don’t know, but it can’t be a secret. That can’t help the house in business there. It certainly can’t help you. The whole thing has gone on so long that you have injured your prospects all around, and yet you continue. Why do you?”

“I used to think, when I was much younger, that my son's marriage plans wouldn’t concern me, but I changed my mind about that as I got older. I began to realize through my business connections how much a good marriage can help a man, and then I became quite anxious for my boys to marry well. I used to worry about you, Lester, and I still do. This recent relationship you’ve gotten into has caused me a lot of trouble. It worried your mother right up until the end. It was her biggest sorrow. Don’t you think you’ve gone far enough with it? The scandal has reached down here. I don’t know what people are saying in Chicago, but it can’t be a secret. That won’t help the business there. It definitely won’t help you. This whole situation has dragged on for so long that you’ve damaged your future prospects everywhere, and yet you continue. Why do you?”

“I suppose because I love her,” Lester replied.

“I guess it's because I love her,” Lester replied.

“You can’t be serious in that,” said his father. “If you had loved her, you’d have married her in the first place. Surely you wouldn’t take a woman and live with her as you have with this woman for years, disgracing her and yourself, and still claim that you love her. You may have a passion for her, but it isn’t love.”

“You can’t be serious about that,” his father said. “If you really loved her, you would have married her in the first place. Surely you wouldn’t take a woman and live with her as you have with this woman for years, bringing shame to both her and yourself, and still claim that you love her. You might be passionate about her, but that’s not love.”

“How do you know I haven’t married her?” inquired Lester coolly. He wanted to see how his father would take to that idea.

“How do you know I haven’t married her?” Lester asked casually. He wanted to see how his father would react to that idea.

“You’re not serious!” The old gentleman propped himself up on his arms and looked at him.

“You can’t be serious!” The old gentleman pushed himself up on his arms and looked at him.

“No, I’m not,” replied Lester, “but I might be. I might marry her.”

“No, I’m not,” replied Lester, “but I could be. I might marry her.”

“Impossible!” exclaimed his father vigorously. “I can’t believe it. I can’t believe a man of your intelligence would do a thing like that, Lester. Where is your judgment? Why, you’ve lived in open adultery with her for years, and now you talk of marrying her. Why, in heaven’s name, if you were going to do anything like that, didn’t you do it in the first place? Disgrace your parents, break your mother’s heart, injure the business, become a public scandal, and then marry the cause of it? I don’t believe it.”

“Impossible!” his father exclaimed passionately. “I can’t believe it. I can’t believe someone as smart as you would do something like that, Lester. Where’s your judgment? You’ve been living in open adultery with her for years, and now you’re talking about marrying her? Why, if you were going to do something like that, didn’t you just do it from the start? Disgrace your parents, break your mother’s heart, hurt the business, become a public scandal, and then marry the person responsible? I don’t believe it.”

Old Archibald got up.

Archibald got up.

“Don’t get excited, father,” said Lester quickly. “We won’t get anywhere that way. I say I might marry her. She’s not a bad woman, and I wish you wouldn’t talk about her as you do. You’ve never seen her. You know nothing about her.”

“Don’t get worked up, Dad,” Lester said quickly. “We won’t get anywhere like that. I said I might marry her. She’s not a bad woman, and I wish you wouldn’t talk about her that way. You’ve never met her. You know nothing about her.”

“I know enough,” insisted old Archibald, determinedly. “I know that no good woman would act as she has done. Why, man, she’s after your money. What else could she want? It’s as plain as the nose on your face.”

“I know enough,” insisted old Archibald stubbornly. “I know that no decent woman would act as she has. Come on, she’s after your money. What else could she want? It’s as obvious as the nose on your face.”

“Father,” said Lester, his voice lowering ominously, “why do you talk like that? You never saw the woman. You wouldn’t know her from Adam’s off ox. Louise comes down here and gives an excited report, and you people swallow it whole. She isn’t as bad as you think she is, and I wouldn’t use the language you’re using about her if I were you. You’re doing a good woman an injustice, and you won’t, for some reason, be fair.”

“Dad,” Lester said, his voice dropping to a serious tone, “why do you talk like that? You’ve never even seen her. You wouldn’t recognize her if she walked by you. Louise comes down here all excited and you all just believe everything she says. She isn’t as terrible as you think, and I wouldn’t speak about her the way you are. You’re unfairly judging a good woman, and for some reason, you just won’t be objective.”

“Fair! Fair!” interrupted Archibald. “Talk about being fair. Is it fair to me, to your family, to your dead mother to take a woman of the streets and live with her? Is it—”

“Fair! Fair!” interrupted Archibald. “Talk about being fair. Is it fair to me, to your family, to your dead mother to take a woman of the streets and live with her? Is it—”

“Stop now, father,” exclaimed Lester, putting up his hand. “I warn you. I won’t listen to talk like that. You’re talking about the woman that I’m living with—that I may marry. I love you, but I won’t have you saying things that aren’t so. She isn’t a woman of the streets. You know, as well as you know anything, that I wouldn’t take up with a woman of that kind. We’ll have to discuss this in a calmer mood, or I won’t stay here. I’m sorry. I’m awfully sorry. But I won’t listen to any such language as that.”

“Stop right there, Dad,” Lester said, raising his hand. “I need to warn you. I won’t sit through talk like that. You’re talking about the woman I’m living with and might marry. I love you, but I can’t have you saying things that aren’t true. She isn’t a woman from the streets. You know, just like you know anything, that I wouldn’t get involved with someone like that. We need to talk about this when things are calmer, or I’m leaving. I’m sorry. I’m really sorry. But I won’t tolerate that kind of talk.”

Old Archibald quieted himself. In spite of his opposition, he respected his son’s point of view. He sat back in his chair and stared at the floor. “How was he to handle this thing?” he asked himself.

Old Archibald calmed himself. Despite his disagreement, he respected his son’s perspective. He leaned back in his chair and looked at the floor. “How was he supposed to deal with this?” he wondered.

“Are you living in the same place?” he finally inquired.

“Are you still living in the same place?” he finally asked.

“No, we’ve moved out to Hyde Park. I’ve taken a house out there.”

“No, we’ve moved to Hyde Park. I’ve rented a house out there.”

“I hear there’s a child. Is that yours?”

“I heard there’s a kid. Is that your child?”

“No.”

“No.”

“Have you any children of your own?”

“Do you have any children of your own?”

“No.”

“No.”

“Well, that’s a God’s blessing.”

“Well, that’s a blessing.”

Lester merely scratched his chin.

Lester just scratched his chin.

“And you insist you will marry her?” Archibald went on.

“And you still insist that you will marry her?” Archibald continued.

“I didn’t say that,” replied his son. “I said I might.”

“I didn’t say that,” his son replied. “I said I might.”

“Might! Might!” exclaimed his father, his anger bubbling again. “What a tragedy! You with your prospects! Your outlook! How do you suppose I can seriously contemplate entrusting any share of my fortune to a man who has so little regard for what the world considers as right and proper? Why, Lester, this carriage business, your family, your personal reputation appear to be as nothing at all to you. I can’t understand what has happened to your pride. It seems like some wild, impossible fancy.”

“Might! Might!” his father shouted, his anger rising again. “What a disaster! You with your potential! Your future! How do you expect me to seriously consider trusting any part of my fortune to someone who has so little respect for what society views as right and proper? Honestly, Lester, this carriage business, your family, your reputation seem to mean nothing to you. I can’t grasp what’s happened to your pride. It feels like some crazy, unrealistic fantasy.”

“It’s pretty hard to explain, father, and I can’t do it very well. I simply know that I’m in this affair, and that I’m bound to see it through. It may come out all right. I may not marry her—I may. I’m not prepared now to say what I’ll do. You’ll have to wait. I’ll do the best I can.”

“It’s pretty hard to explain, Dad, and I can’t do it very well. I just know that I’m involved in this situation, and I have to see it through. It might turn out fine. I might not marry her—I might. I’m not ready to say what I’ll do yet. You’ll just have to wait. I’ll try my best.”

Old Archibald merely shook his head disapprovingly.

Old Archibald just shook his head in disapproval.

“You’ve made a bad mess of this, Lester,” he said finally. “Surely you have. But I suppose you are determined to go your way. Nothing that I have said appears to move you.”

“You’ve really messed this up, Lester,” he said finally. “You definitely have. But I guess you’re set on doing things your way. Nothing I’ve said seems to change your mind.”

“Not now, father. I’m sorry.”

“Not right now, Dad. Sorry.”

“Well, I warn you, then, that, unless you show some consideration for the dignity of your family and the honor of your position it will make a difference in my will. I can’t go on countenancing this thing, and not be a party to it morally and every other way. I won’t do it. You can leave her, or you can marry her. You certainly ought to do one or the other. If you leave her, everything will be all right. You can make any provision for her you like. I have no objection to that. I’ll gladly pay whatever you agree to. You will share with the rest of the children, just as I had planned. If you marry her it will make a difference. Now do as you please. But don’t blame me. I love you. I’m your father. I’m doing what I think is my bounden duty. Now you think that over and let me know.”

“Well, I’m warning you that unless you show some consideration for your family’s dignity and the honor of your position, it will affect my will. I can’t keep supporting this and not be morally involved in it. I won’t do it. You can either leave her or marry her. You really should choose one or the other. If you leave her, everything will be fine. You can provide for her however you want, and I have no issue with that. I’ll happily cover whatever you agree on. You will still share with the other children, just as I planned. If you marry her, it will change things. So do what you want. But don’t blame me. I love you. I’m your father. I’m doing what I believe is my duty. Now think it over and let me know.”

Lester sighed. He saw how hopeless this argument was. He felt that his father probably meant what he said, but how could he leave Jennie, and justify himself to himself? Would his father really cut him off? Surely not. The old gentleman loved him even now—he could see it. Lester felt troubled and distressed; this attempt at coercion irritated him. The idea—he, Lester Kane, being made to do such a thing to throw Jennie down. He stared at the floor.

Lester sighed. He knew this argument was pointless. He thought his dad probably meant what he said, but how could he leave Jennie and feel okay about it? Would his dad really cut him off? Surely not. The old man loved him even now—he could see that. Lester felt troubled and upset; this attempt to pressure him irritated him. The thought—he, Lester Kane, being forced to do something so cruel to Jennie. He stared at the floor.

Old Archibald saw that he had let fly a telling bullet.

Old Archibald realized that he had fired a significant shot.

“Well,” said Lester finally, “there’s no use of our discussing it any further now—that’s certain, isn’t it? I can’t say what I’ll do. I’ll have to take time and think. I can’t decide this offhand.”

“Well,” said Lester finally, “there’s no point in discussing it any further now—that’s for sure, right? I can’t say what I’ll do. I need to take some time and think. I can’t decide this on the spot.”

The two looked at each other. Lester was sorry for the world’s attitude and for his father’s keen feeling about the affair. Kane senior was sorry for his son, but he was determined to see the thing through. He wasn’t sure whether he had converted Lester or not, but he was hopeful. Maybe he would come around yet.

The two stared at each other. Lester felt sorry for how the world viewed things and for his father's strong feelings about the situation. Kane Sr. felt bad for his son, but he was set on seeing this through. He wasn’t sure if he had changed Lester’s mind, but he remained hopeful. Maybe he would come around after all.

“Good-by, father,” said Lester, holding out his hand. “I think I’ll try and make that two-ten train. There isn’t anything else you wanted to see me about?”

“Goodbye, Dad,” said Lester, reaching out his hand. “I think I’ll try to catch that two-ten train. Is there anything else you wanted to discuss?”

“No.”

“No.”

The old man sat there after Lester had gone, thinking deeply. What a twisted career! What an end to great possibilities? What a foolhardy persistence in evil and error! He shook his head. Robert was wiser. He was the one to control a business. He was cool and conservative. If Lester were only like that. He thought and thought. It was a long time before he stirred. And still, in the bottom of his heart, his erring son continued to appeal to him.

The old man sat there after Lester had left, lost in thought. What a messed-up career! What a waste of great opportunities! What reckless stubbornness in doing wrong! He shook his head. Robert was smarter. He was the one who knew how to manage a business. He was calm and practical. If only Lester were like that. He thought and thought. It took a long time before he moved. Yet, deep down, his wayward son still called out to him.

CHAPTER XL

Lester returned to Chicago. He realized that he had offended his father seriously, how seriously he could not say. In all his personal relations with old Archibald he had never seen him so worked up. But even now Lester did not feel that the breach was irreparable; he hardly realized that it was necessary for him to act decisively if he hoped to retain his father’s affection and confidence. As for the world at large, what did it matter how much people talked or what they said. He was big enough to stand alone. But was he? People turn so quickly from weakness or the shadow of it. To get away from failure—even the mere suspicion of it—that seems to be a subconscious feeling with the average man and woman; we all avoid non-success as though we fear that it may prove contagious. Lester was soon to feel the force of this prejudice.

Lester went back to Chicago. He realized that he had seriously offended his father, but he couldn't say exactly how serious it was. In all his interactions with old Archibald, he had never seen him so upset. Yet even now, Lester didn't think the rift was unfixable; he barely understood that he needed to act decisively if he wanted to keep his father's love and trust. As for the rest of the world, it didn’t matter how much people talked or what they said. He was capable enough to stand on his own. But was he really? People quickly turn away from weakness or even the hint of it. The urge to escape failure—even the slightest suspicion of it—seems to be a subconscious instinct for the average man and woman; we all shy away from non-success as if we fear it might be contagious. Lester was about to experience the weight of this bias.

One day Lester happened to run across Berry Dodge, the millionaire head of Dodge, Holbrook & Kingsbury, a firm that stood in the dry-goods world, where the Kane Company stood in the carriage world. Dodge had been one of Lester’s best friends. He knew him as intimately as he knew Henry Bracebridge, of Cleveland, and George Knowles, of Cincinnati. He visited at his handsome home on the North Shore Drive, and they met constantly in a business and social way. But since Lester had moved out to Hyde Park, the old intimacy had lapsed. Now they came face to face on Michigan Avenue near the Kane building.

One day, Lester ran into Berry Dodge, the wealthy head of Dodge, Holbrook & Kingsbury, a company that dominated the dry-goods industry just like the Kane Company did in the carriage industry. Dodge had been one of Lester’s closest friends. He knew him as well as he knew Henry Bracebridge from Cleveland and George Knowles from Cincinnati. He would visit Dodge’s beautiful home on North Shore Drive, and they often met for business and social events. But ever since Lester moved to Hyde Park, that old closeness had faded. Now, they found themselves face to face on Michigan Avenue near the Kane building.

“Why, Lester, I’m glad to see you again,” said Dodge.

“Hey, Lester, it’s great to see you again,” said Dodge.

He extended a formal hand, and seemed just a little cool. “I hear you’ve gone and married since I saw you.”

He reached out to shake hands formally but seemed a bit distant. “I heard you got married since I last saw you.”

“No, nothing like that,” replied Lester, easily, with the air of one who prefers to be understood in the way of the world sense.

“No, nothing like that,” Lester replied casually, as if he preferred to be understood in a common-sense way.

“Why so secret about it, if you have?” asked Dodge, attempting to smile, but with a wry twist to the corners of his mouth. He was trying to be nice, and to go through a difficult situation gracefully. “We fellows usually make a fuss about that sort of thing. You ought to let your friends know.”

“Why keep it a secret if you do?” Dodge asked, trying to smile, but his lips curved in a wry way. He was making an effort to be nice and handle a tough situation with grace. “We usually make a big deal about that kind of stuff. You should let your friends know.”

“Well,” said Lester, feeling the edge of the social blade that was being driven into him, “I thought I’d do it in a new way. I’m not much for excitement in that direction, anyhow.”

“Well,” said Lester, sensing the sharp edge of the social knife being driven into him, “I thought I’d try something different. I’m not really into excitement in that area, anyway.”

“It is a matter of taste, isn’t it?” said Dodge a little absently. “You’re living in the city, of course?”

“It’s all about personal taste, right?” Dodge said somewhat distractedly. “You live in the city, I assume?”

“In Hyde Park.”

“In Hyde Park.”

“That’s a pleasant territory. How are things otherwise?” And he deftly changed the subject before waving him a perfunctory farewell.

"That’s a nice area. How's everything else?" He skillfully changed the topic before giving him a casual goodbye.

Lester missed at once the inquiries which a man like Dodge would have made if he had really believed that he was married. Under ordinary circumstances his friend would have wanted to know a great deal about the new Mrs. Kane. There would have been all those little familiar touches common to people living on the same social plane. Dodge would have asked Lester to bring his wife over to see them, would have definitely promised to call. Nothing of the sort happened, and Lester noticed the significant omission.

Lester immediately noticed the questions someone like Dodge would have asked if he truly believed that he was married. Normally, his friend would have wanted to know a lot about the new Mrs. Kane. There would have been all those small, familiar interactions typical of people in the same social circle. Dodge would have asked Lester to bring his wife over to meet them and would have definitely promised to visit. None of that happened, and Lester recognized the important absence.

It was the same with the Burnham Moores, the Henry Aldriches, and a score of other people whom he knew equally well. Apparently they all thought that he had married and settled down. They were interested to know where he was living, and they were rather disposed to joke him about being so very secretive on the subject, but they were not willing to discuss the supposed Mrs. Kane. He was beginning to see that this move of his was going to tell against him notably.

It was the same with the Burnham Moores, the Henry Aldriches, and a bunch of other people he knew just as well. They all seemed to think he had gotten married and settled down. They were curious about where he was living and liked to tease him for being so secretive about it, but they weren't interested in talking about the supposed Mrs. Kane. He was starting to realize that his decision to keep things quiet was likely going to backfire on him.

One of the worst stabs—it was the cruelest because, in a way, it was the most unintentional—he received from an old acquaintance, Will Whitney, at the Union Club. Lester was dining there one evening, and Whitney met him in the main reading-room as he was crossing from the cloak-room to the cigar-stand. The latter was a typical society figure, tall, lean, smooth-faced, immaculately garbed, a little cynical, and to-night a little the worse for liquor. “Hi, Lester!” he called out, “what’s this talk about a ménage of yours out in Hyde Park? Say, you’re going some. How are you going to explain all this to your wife when you get married?”

One of the worst blows he received—it was the cruelest because, in a way, it was the most unintentional—came from an old acquaintance, Will Whitney, at the Union Club. Lester was having dinner there one evening when Whitney spotted him in the main reading room as he walked from the cloakroom to the cigar stand. Whitney was a typical society guy, tall, lean, smooth-faced, impeccably dressed, a bit cynical, and tonight, a bit tipsy. “Hey, Lester!” he called out, “what’s this talk about a ménage of yours out in Hyde Park? Wow, you’re really going for it. How are you going to explain all this to your wife once you get married?”

“I don’t have to explain it,” replied Lester irritably. “Why should you be so interested in my affairs? You’re not living in a stone house, are you?”

“I don’t need to explain,” Lester replied, annoyed. “Why do you care so much about my life? You’re not living in a stone house, right?”

“Say, ha! ha! that’s pretty good now, isn’t it? You didn’t marry that little beauty you used to travel around with on the North Side, did you? Eh, now! Ha, ha! Well, I swear. You married! You didn’t, now, did you?”

“Come on, ha! ha! that’s quite funny, isn’t it? You didn’t marry that cute girl you used to hang out with on the North Side, did you? Huh, now! Ha, ha! Wow, I can’t believe it. You got married! You really didn’t, did you?”

“Cut it out, Whitney,” said Lester roughly. “You’re talking wild.”

“Cut it out, Whitney,” Lester said harshly. “You’re being ridiculous.”

“Pardon, Lester,” said the other aimlessly, but sobering. “I beg your pardon. Remember, I’m just a little warm. Eight whisky-sours straight in the other room there. Pardon. I’ll talk to you some time when I’m all right. See, Lester? Eh! Ha! ha! I’m a little loose, that’s right. Well, so long! Ha! ha!”

“Sorry, Lester,” the other said aimlessly, but starting to get serious. “I apologize. Just keep in mind, I'm a bit tipsy. Eight whisky sours in the other room. Sorry. I'll chat with you when I'm feeling better. You get that, Lester? Right? Ha! ha! I'm just a little out of it, that’s true. Anyway, take care! Ha! ha!”

Lester could not get over that cacophonous “ha! ha!” It cut him, even though it came from a drunken man’s mouth. “That little beauty you used to travel with on the North Side. You didn’t marry her, did you?” He quoted Whitney’s impertinences resentfully. George! But this was getting a little rough! He had never endured anything like this before—he, Lester Kane. It set him thinking. Certainly he was paying dearly for trying to do the kind thing by Jennie.

Lester couldn't shake off that loud “ha! ha!” It hurt him, even though it came from a drunk. “That little beauty you used to hang out with on the North Side. You didn't marry her, did you?” He repeated Whitney's rude comments resentfully. George! But this was getting a bit intense! He had never faced anything like this before—he, Lester Kane. It made him reflect. He was definitely paying a heavy price for trying to do the right thing by Jennie.

CHAPTER XLI

But worse was to follow. The American public likes gossip about well-known people, and the Kanes were wealthy and socially prominent. The report was that Lester, one of its principal heirs, had married a servant girl. He, an heir to millions! Could it be possible? What a piquant morsel for the newspapers! Very soon the paragraphs began to appear. A small society paper, called the South Side Budget, referred to him anonymously as “the son of a famous and wealthy carriage manufacturer of Cincinnati,” and outlined briefly what it knew of the story. “Of Mrs. ——” it went on, sagely, “not so much is known, except that she once worked in a well-known Cleveland society family as a maid and was, before that, a working-girl in Columbus, Ohio. After such a picturesque love-affair in high society, who shall say that romance is dead?”

But worse was yet to come. The American public loves gossip about famous people, and the Kanes were wealthy and socially prominent. The rumor was that Lester, one of their main heirs, had married a servant girl. Him, an heir to millions! Could it really be true? What a juicy story for the newspapers! Before long, articles started popping up. A small society magazine called the South Side Budget mentioned him anonymously as “the son of a famous and wealthy carriage manufacturer from Cincinnati,” and briefly outlined what it knew about the story. “As for Mrs. ——,” it continued wisely, “not much is known, except that she once worked as a maid in a well-known Cleveland society family and before that was a working girl in Columbus, Ohio. After such a dramatic love affair in high society, who can say that romance is dead?”

Lester saw this item. He did not take the paper, but some kind soul took good care to see that a copy was marked and mailed to him. It irritated him greatly, for he suspected at once that it was a scheme to blackmail him. But he did not know exactly what to do about it. He preferred, of course, that such comments should cease, but he also thought that if he made any effort to have them stopped he might make matters worse. So he did nothing. Naturally, the paragraph in the Budget attracted the attention of other newspapers. It sounded like a good story, and one Sunday editor, more enterprising than the others, conceived the notion of having this romance written up. A full-page Sunday story with a scare-head such as “Sacrifices Millions for His Servant Girl Love,” pictures of Lester, Jennie, the house at Hyde Park, the Kane manufactory at Cincinnati, the warehouse on Michigan Avenue—certainly, such a display would make a sensation. The Kane Company was not an advertiser in any daily or Sunday paper. The newspaper owed him nothing. If Lester had been forewarned he might have put a stop to the whole business by putting an advertisement in the paper or appealing to the publisher. He did not know, however, and so was without power to prevent the publication. The editor made a thorough job of the business. Local newspaper men in Cincinnati, Cleveland, and Columbus were instructed to report by wire whether anything of Jennie’s history was known in their city. The Bracebridge family in Cleveland was asked whether Jennie had ever worked there. A garbled history of the Gerhardts was obtained from Columbus. Jennie’s residence on the North Side, for several years prior to her supposed marriage, was discovered and so the whole story was nicely pieced together. It was not the idea of the newspaper editor to be cruel or critical, but rather complimentary. All the bitter things, such as the probable illegitimacy of Vesta, the suspected immorality of Lester and Jennie in residing together as man and wife, the real grounds of the well-known objections of his family to the match, were ignored. The idea was to frame up a Romeo and Juliet story in which Lester should appear as an ardent, self-sacrificing lover, and Jennie as a poor and lovely working-girl, lifted to great financial and social heights by the devotion of her millionaire lover. An exceptional newspaper artist was engaged to make scenes depicting the various steps of the romance and the whole thing was handled in the most approved yellow-journal style. There was a picture of Lester obtained from his Cincinnati photographer for a consideration; Jennie had been surreptitiously “snapped” by a staff artist while she was out walking.

Lester noticed this item. He didn't take the paper, but someone nice made sure a copy was marked and sent to him. It really irritated him because he immediately suspected it was a scheme to blackmail him. However, he wasn’t sure what to do about it. He would have preferred for the comments to stop, but he also thought that if he tried to make that happen, it could make things worse. So he did nothing. Naturally, the paragraph in the Budget caught the attention of other newspapers. It seemed like a good story, and one Sunday editor, more ambitious than the rest, came up with the idea to write up this romance. A full-page Sunday story with a sensational headline like “Sacrifices Millions for His Servant Girl Love,” along with pictures of Lester, Jennie, the house in Hyde Park, the Kane factory in Cincinnati, and the warehouse on Michigan Avenue—definitely, such a display would create a buzz. The Kane Company wasn’t an advertiser in any daily or Sunday paper. The newspaper owed him nothing. If Lester had been warned, he might have stopped the whole situation by placing an advertisement in the paper or appealing to the publisher. He didn’t know, though, and so he had no power to prevent the publication. The editor went all out on the story. Local reporters in Cincinnati, Cleveland, and Columbus were instructed to wire whether they knew anything about Jennie’s history. The Bracebridge family in Cleveland was asked if Jennie had ever worked there. A mixed-up history of the Gerhardts was obtained from Columbus. Jennie’s residence on the North Side before her supposed marriage was discovered, and the whole story was pieced together nicely. The newspaper editor didn’t intend to be cruel or critical, but rather complimentary. All the harsh stuff, like the possible illegitimacy of Vesta and the suspected immorality of Lester and Jennie living together as if they were married, as well as the real reasons his family objected to the match, were ignored. The idea was to create a Romeo and Juliet story in which Lester was portrayed as an eager, self-sacrificing lover, and Jennie as a poor, beautiful working girl, elevated to great financial and social heights by her millionaire lover’s devotion. An exceptional newspaper artist was hired to depict various scenes of the romance, and the whole thing was handled in the classic yellow-journal style. They got a picture of Lester from his Cincinnati photographer for a fee; Jennie had been secretly “snapped” by a staff artist while out for a walk.

And so, apparently out of a clear sky, the story appeared—highly complimentary, running over with sugary phrases, but with all the dark, sad facts looming up in the background. Jennie did not see it at first. Lester came across the page accidentally, and tore it out. He was stunned and chagrined beyond words. “To think the damned newspaper would do that to a private citizen who was quietly minding his own business!” he thought. He went out of the house, the better to conceal his deep inward mortification. He avoided the more populous parts of the town, particularly the down-town section, and rode far out on Cottage Grove Avenue to the open prairie. He wondered, as the trolley-car rumbled along, what his friends were thinking—Dodge, and Burnham Moore, and Henry Aldrich, and the others. This was a smash, indeed. The best he could do was to put a brave face on it and say nothing, or else wave it off with an indifferent motion of the hand. One thing was sure—he would prevent further comment. He returned to the house calmer, his self-poise restored, but he was eager for Monday to come in order that he might get in touch with his lawyer, Mr. Watson. But when he did see Mr. Watson it was soon agreed between the two men that it would be foolish to take any legal action. It was the part of wisdom to let the matter drop. “But I won’t stand for anything more,” concluded Lester.

So, seemingly out of nowhere, the story came out—extremely flattering, filled with sweet phrases, but with all the grim, sad truths lurking in the background. Jennie didn’t notice it at first. Lester stumbled upon the page by chance and ripped it out. He was shocked and embarrassed beyond words. “To think the damn newspaper would do that to an ordinary person who was just minding his own business!” he thought. He left the house to better hide his deep internal shame. He steered clear of the busier parts of town, especially downtown, and rode far out on Cottage Grove Avenue to the open prairie. He wondered, as the trolley rattled along, what his friends were thinking—Dodge, Burnham Moore, Henry Aldrich, and the others. This was quite the blow. The best he could do was to put on a brave face and say nothing, or brush it off with a casual wave of his hand. One thing was certain—he would stop any further comments. He returned home calmer, his composure restored, but he was eager for Monday to come so he could reach out to his lawyer, Mr. Watson. But when he finally met with Mr. Watson, they quickly agreed that taking any legal action would be unwise. It was smarter to let the matter go. “But I won’t accept anything more,” Lester concluded.

“I’ll attend to that,” said the lawyer, consolingly.

“I’ll take care of that,” said the lawyer, reassuringly.

Lester got up. “It’s amazing—this damned country of ours!” he exclaimed. “A man with a little money hasn’t any more privacy than a public monument.”

Lester got up. “It’s incredible—this damn country of ours!” he exclaimed. “A guy with a bit of money doesn’t have any more privacy than a public statue.”

“A man with a little money,” said Mr. Watson, “is just like a cat with a bell around its neck. Every rat knows exactly where it is and what it is doing.”

“A man with a little money,” said Mr. Watson, “is just like a cat with a bell around its neck. Every rat knows exactly where he is and what he's doing.”

“That’s an apt simile,” assented Lester, bitterly.

"That's a fitting comparison," agreed Lester, bitterly.

Jennie knew nothing of this newspaper story for several days. Lester felt that he could not talk it over, and Gerhardt never read the wicked Sunday newspapers. Finally, one of Jennie’s neighborhood friends, less tactful than the others, called her attention to the fact of its appearance by announcing that she had seen it. Jennie did not understand at first. “A story about me?” she exclaimed.

Jennie had no clue about this newspaper story for several days. Lester felt he couldn't discuss it, and Gerhardt never glanced at the scandalous Sunday papers. Eventually, one of Jennie’s friends from the neighborhood, less subtle than the rest, pointed out that it was out by saying she had seen it. Jennie didn't get it at first. “A story about me?” she exclaimed.

“You and Mr. Kane, yes,” replied her guest. “Your love romance.”

“You and Mr. Kane, right,” her guest replied. “Your love story.”

Jennie colored swiftly. “Why, I hadn’t seen it,” she said. “Are you sure it was about us?”

Jennie colored quickly. “Oh, I didn’t see that,” she said. “Are you sure it was about us?”

“Why, of course,” laughed Mrs. Stendahl. “How could I be mistaken? I have the paper over at the house. I’ll send Marie over with it when I get back. You look very sweet in your picture.”

“Of course,” laughed Mrs. Stendahl. “How could I be wrong? I have the paper at home. I’ll send Marie over with it when I get back. You look really lovely in your picture.”

Jennie winced.

Jennie flinched.

“I wish you would,” she said, weakly.

“I wish you would,” she said, softly.

She was wondering where they had secured her picture, what the article said. Above all, she was dismayed to think of its effect upon Lester. Had he seen the article? Why had he not spoken to her about it?

She was curious about where they had gotten her picture and what the article said. Most of all, she was upset thinking about how it would affect Lester. Had he seen the article? Why hadn't he talked to her about it?

The neighbor’s daughter brought over the paper, and Jennie’s heart stood still as she glanced at the title-page. There it all was—uncompromising and direct. How dreadfully conspicuous the headline—“This Millionaire Fell in Love With This Lady’s Maid,” which ran between a picture of Lester on the left and Jennie on the right. There was an additional caption which explained how Lester, son of the famous carriage family of Cincinnati, had sacrificed great social opportunity and distinction to marry his heart’s desire. Below were scattered a number of other pictures—Lester addressing Jennie in the mansion of Mrs. Bracebridge, Lester standing with her before an imposing and conventional-looking parson, Lester driving with her in a handsome victoria, Jennie standing beside the window of an imposing mansion (the fact that it was a mansion being indicated by most sumptuous-looking hangings) and gazing out on a very modest working-man’s cottage pictured in the distance. Jennie felt as though she must die for very shame. She did not so much mind what it meant to her, but Lester, Lester, how must he feel? And his family? Now they would have another club with which to strike him and her. She tried to keep calm about it, to exert emotional control, but again the tears would rise, only this time they were tears of opposition to defeat. She did not want to be hounded this way. She wanted to be let alone. She was trying to do right now. Why couldn’t the world help her, instead of seeking to push her down?

The neighbor’s daughter brought over the newspaper, and Jennie’s heart stopped as she glanced at the front page. There it was—blunt and clear. How shockingly obvious the headline was—“This Millionaire Fell in Love With This Lady’s Maid,” positioned between a picture of Lester on the left and Jennie on the right. There was an additional caption explaining how Lester, the son of the renowned carriage family from Cincinnati, had given up great social opportunity and status to marry the woman he loved. Below were several other photos—Lester talking to Jennie in Mrs. Bracebridge’s mansion, Lester standing with her in front of a serious-looking pastor, Lester driving her in a stylish carriage, and Jennie standing beside the window of a grand mansion (the opulence indicated by the lavish curtains) while looking out at a modest working-class cottage in the distance. Jennie felt as if she might die from embarrassment. She didn’t care so much about how it affected her, but what about Lester? How must he feel? And his family? Now they had another weapon to use against him and her. She tried to stay calm and control her emotions, but once again the tears came, this time out of defiance against defeat. She didn’t want to be chased like this. She just wanted to be left alone. She was trying to do the right thing now. Why couldn’t the world support her instead of trying to drag her down?

CHAPTER XLII

The fact that Lester had seen this page was made perfectly clear to Jennie that evening, for he brought it home himself, having concluded, after mature deliberation, that he ought to. He had told her once that there was to be no concealment between them, and this thing, coming so brutally to disturb their peace, was nevertheless a case in point. He had decided to tell her not to think anything of it—that it did not make much difference, though to him it made all the difference in the world. The effect of this chill history could never be undone. The wise—and they included all his social world and many who were not of it—could see just how he had been living. The article which accompanied the pictures told how he had followed Jennie from Cleveland to Chicago, how she had been coy and distant and that he had to court her a long time to win her consent. This was to explain their living together on the North Side. Lester realized that this was an asinine attempt to sugar-coat the true story and it made him angry. Still he preferred to have it that way rather than in some more brutal vein. He took the paper out of his pocket when he arrived at the house, spreading it on the library table. Jennie, who was close by, watched him, for she knew what was coming.

The fact that Lester had seen this page was clear to Jennie that evening since he brought it home himself, having decided, after careful thought, that he should. He had told her once that there should be no secrets between them, and this thing, which had so abruptly disrupted their peace, was a prime example. He decided to tell her not to think anything of it—that it didn’t matter much, although to him it meant everything. The impact of this cold truth could never be changed. The wise—and that included all his social circle and many who weren’t part of it—could see exactly how he had been living. The article that accompanied the pictures detailed how he had followed Jennie from Cleveland to Chicago, how she had been shy and distant, and that he had to pursue her for a long time to win her agreement. This was supposed to explain why they were living together on the North Side. Lester realized this was a ridiculous attempt to soften the real story, and it made him angry. Still, he preferred it this way rather than in a harsher light. He took the paper out of his pocket when he got home, laying it on the library table. Jennie, who was nearby, watched him, knowing what was coming.

“Here’s something that will interest you, Jennie,” he said dryly, pointing to the array of text and pictures.

“Here’s something you might find interesting, Jennie,” he said dryly, pointing to the collection of text and pictures.

“I’ve already seen it, Lester,” she said wearily. “Mrs. Stendahl showed it to me this afternoon. I was wondering whether you had.”

“I’ve already seen it, Lester,” she said tiredly. “Mrs. Stendahl showed it to me this afternoon. I was curious if you had.”

“Rather high-flown description of my attitude, isn’t it? I didn’t know I was such an ardent Romeo.”

"That's quite an exaggerated way to describe my attitude, isn't it? I didn't realize I was such a passionate Romeo."

“I’m awfully sorry, Lester,” said Jennie, reading behind the dry face of humor the serious import of this affair to him. She had long since learned that Lester did not express his real feeling, his big ills in words. He was inclined to jest and make light of the inevitable, the inexorable. This light comment merely meant “this matter cannot be helped, so we will make the best of it.”

“I’m really sorry, Lester,” said Jennie, seeing past his dry humor to understand how serious this situation was for him. She had learned long ago that Lester didn’t show his true feelings or the weight of his problems through words. He tended to joke and downplay the unavoidable. This lighthearted comment just meant, “This situation can't be changed, so let's make the best of it.”

“Oh, don’t feel badly about it,” he went on. “It isn’t anything which can be adjusted now. They probably meant well enough. We just happen to be in the limelight.”

“Oh, don’t worry about it,” he continued. “There’s nothing that can be changed right now. They probably had good intentions. We just happen to be in the spotlight.”

“I understand,” said Jennie, coming over to him. “I’m sorry, though, anyway.” Dinner was announced a moment later and the incident was closed.

“I get it,” said Jennie, walking over to him. “I’m sorry, though, still.” Dinner was announced a moment later, and the incident was put to rest.

But Lester could not dismiss the thought that matters were getting in a bad way. His father had pointed it out to him rather plainly at the last interview, and now this newspaper notoriety had capped the climax. He might as well abandon his pretension to intimacy with his old world. It would have none of him, or at least the more conservative part of it would not. There were a few bachelors, a few gay married men, some sophisticated women, single and married, who saw through it all and liked him just the same, but they did not make society. He was virtually an outcast, and nothing could save him but to reform his ways; in other words, he must give up Jennie once and for all.

But Lester couldn't shake the feeling that things were heading south. His father had made that pretty clear during their last meeting, and now this newspaper fame had pushed it over the edge. He might as well give up trying to connect with his old world. It didn't want him anymore, or at least the more traditional part of it didn't. There were a few bachelors, a few open-minded married guys, and some savvy women, both single and married, who understood everything and still liked him, but they didn't make up society. He was pretty much an outcast, and the only way to turn things around was to change his ways; in other words, he had to let Jennie go for good.

But he did not want to do this. The thought was painful to him—objectionable in every way. Jennie was growing in mental acumen. She was beginning to see things quite as clearly as he did. She was not a cheap, ambitious, climbing creature. She was a big woman and a good one. It would be a shame to throw her down, and besides she was good-looking. He was forty-six and she was twenty-nine; and she looked twenty-four or five. It is an exceptional thing to find beauty, youth, compatibility, intelligence, your own point of view—softened and charmingly emotionalized—in another. He had made his bed, as his father had said. He had better lie on it.

But he didn't want to do this. The thought was painful to him—unpleasant in every way. Jennie was becoming more insightful. She was starting to see things as clearly as he did. She wasn't a shallow, ambitious person. She was a strong and good woman. It would be a shame to bring her down, and besides, she was attractive. He was forty-six, and she was twenty-nine; she looked twenty-four or twenty-five. It’s rare to find beauty, youth, compatibility, intelligence, and your own perspective—softened and charmingly emotional—in someone else. He had made his choices, as his father had said. He’d better accept them.

It was only a little while after this disagreeable newspaper incident that Lester had word that his father was quite ill and failing; it might be necessary for him to go to Cincinnati at any moment. Pressure of work was holding him pretty close when the news came that his father was dead. Lester, of course, was greatly shocked and grieved, and he returned to Cincinnati in a retrospective and sorrowful mood. His father had been a great character to him—a fine and interesting old gentleman entirely aside from his relationship to him as his son. He remembered him now dandling him upon his knee as a child, telling him stories of his early life in Ireland, and of his subsequent commercial struggle when he was a little older, impressing the maxims of his business career and his commercial wisdom on him as he grew to manhood. Old Archibald had been radically honest. It was to him that Lester owed his instincts for plain speech and direct statement of fact. “Never lie,” was Archibald’s constant, reiterated statement. “Never try to make a thing look different from what it is to you. It’s the breath of life—truth—it’s the basis of real worth, while commercial success—it will make a notable character of any one who will stick to it.” Lester believed this. He admired his father intensely for his rigid insistence on truth, and now that he was really gone he felt sorry. He wished he might have been spared to be reconciled to him. He half fancied that old Archibald would have liked Jennie if he had known her. He did not imagine that he would ever have had the opportunity to straighten things out, although he still felt that Archibald would have liked her.

It was only a little while after that unpleasant newspaper incident when Lester learned that his father was quite ill and declining; he might need to go to Cincinnati at any moment. He was already busy with work when he got the news that his father had passed away. Lester was understandably shocked and deeply saddened, and he returned to Cincinnati feeling reflective and mournful. His father had been a significant figure in his life—an interesting and admirable man beyond just being his dad. He recalled his father playing with him on his knee as a child, sharing stories about his early life in Ireland, and discussing his later business struggles as he got older, instilling the principles of his career and his practical wisdom as Lester grew into adulthood. Old Archibald had been fundamentally honest. Lester attributed his instincts for straightforward speech and factual honesty to him. “Never lie,” was Archibald’s constant advice. “Never try to make something appear different from what it is to you. Truth is essential—it’s the foundation of real value, while commercial success can build a remarkable character for anyone who holds to it.” Lester believed this wholeheartedly. He admired his father deeply for his unwavering commitment to honesty, and now that he was truly gone, he felt regret. He wished he had been able to reconcile with him. He had a feeling that old Archibald would have liked Jennie if he had known her. He didn’t think he would ever get the chance to sort things out, but he still believed that Archibald would have appreciated her.

When he reached Cincinnati it was snowing, a windy, blustery snow. The flakes were coming down thick and fast. The traffic of the city had a muffled sound. When he stepped down from the train he was met by Amy, who was glad to see him in spite of all their past differences. Of all the girls she was the most tolerant. Lester put his arms about her, and kissed her.

When he arrived in Cincinnati, it was snowing, a gusty, blustery snow. The flakes were falling thick and fast. The city's traffic had a muted sound. When he stepped off the train, he was greeted by Amy, who was happy to see him despite their past differences. Out of all the girls, she was the most understanding. Lester wrapped his arms around her and kissed her.

“It seems like old times to see you, Amy,” he said, “your coming to meet me this way. How’s the family? I suppose they’re all here. Well, poor father, his time had to come. Still, he lived to see everything that he wanted to see. I guess he was pretty well satisfied with the outcome of his efforts.”

“It feels like old times to see you, Amy,” he said, “you showing up to meet me like this. How’s the family? I assume they’re all here. Well, poor dad, his time had to come. Still, he lived to see everything he wanted to see. I guess he was pretty satisfied with how things turned out.”

“Yes,” replied Amy, “and since mother died he was very lonely.”

“Yes,” replied Amy, “and ever since mom passed away, he’s been really lonely.”

They rode up to the house in kindly good feeling, chatting of old times and places. All the members of the immediate family, and the various relatives, were gathered in the old family mansion. Lester exchanged the customary condolences with the others, realizing all the while that his father had lived long enough. He had had a successful life, and had fallen like a ripe apple from the tree. Lester looked at him where he lay in the great parlor, in his black coffin, and a feeling of the old-time affection swept over him. He smiled at the clean-cut, determined, conscientious face.

They rode up to the house in a warm, friendly mood, reminiscing about old times and places. All the immediate family and various relatives were gathered in the old family home. Lester exchanged the usual condolences with everyone, fully aware that his father had lived a long life. He had led a successful life and had passed away like a ripe apple falling from a tree. Lester looked at him lying in the grand parlor, in his black coffin, and a wave of old affection washed over him. He smiled at his father’s sharp, determined, and conscientious face.

“The old gentleman was a big man all the way through,” he said to Robert, who was present. “We won’t find a better figure of a man soon.”

“The old guy was a big man inside and out,” he told Robert, who was there. “We won’t come across a better example of a man anytime soon.”

“We will not,” said his brother, solemnly.

“We won't,” his brother said seriously.

After the funeral it was decided to read the will at once. Louise’s husband was anxious to return to Buffalo; Lester was compelled to be in Chicago. A conference of the various members of the family was called for the second day after the funeral, to be held at the offices of Messrs. Knight, Keatley & O’Brien, counselors of the late manufacturer.

After the funeral, it was decided to read the will right away. Louise’s husband wanted to get back to Buffalo; Lester had to be in Chicago. A meeting of the family members was scheduled for the second day after the funeral, to take place at the offices of Messrs. Knight, Keatley & O’Brien, lawyers for the late manufacturer.

As Lester rode to the meeting he had the feeling that his father had not acted in any way prejudicial to his interests. It had not been so very long since they had had their last conversation; he had been taking his time to think about things, and his father had given him time. He always felt that he had stood well with the old gentleman, except for his alliance with Jennie. His business judgment had been valuable to the company. Why should there be any discrimination against him? He really did not think it possible.

As Lester rode to the meeting, he felt like his father hadn’t done anything to hurt his interests. It hadn’t been that long since their last conversation; he had been taking his time to think things over, and his father had allowed him that space. He always thought he had a good relationship with the old man, except for his connection with Jennie. His business sense had been beneficial to the company. Why would there be any bias against him? He honestly didn’t think that was possible.

When they reached the offices of the law firm, Mr. O’Brien, a short, fussy, albeit comfortable-looking little person, greeted all the members of the family and the various heirs and assigns with a hearty handshake. He had been personal counsel to Archibald Kane for twenty years. He knew his whims and idiosyncrasies, and considered himself very much in the light of a father confessor. He liked all the children, Lester especially.

When they arrived at the law firm's offices, Mr. O’Brien, a short, fussy, but cozy-looking guy, welcomed all the family members and the various heirs with a warm handshake. He had been Archibald Kane’s personal lawyer for twenty years. He was familiar with his quirks and idiosyncrasies and saw himself as a sort of father confessor. He liked all the kids, especially Lester.

“Now I believe we are all here,” he said, finally, extracting a pair of large horn reading-glasses from his coat pocket and looking sagely about. “Very well. We might as well proceed to business. I will just read the will without any preliminary remarks.”

“Now I think we’re all here,” he said at last, pulling out a pair of large horn reading glasses from his coat pocket and looking around wisely. “Alright, let’s get down to business. I’ll read the will without any intro.”

He turned to his desk, picked up a paper lying upon it, cleared his throat, and began.

He turned to his desk, grabbed a piece of paper sitting on it, cleared his throat, and started.

It was a peculiar document, in some respects, for it began with all the minor bequests; first, small sums to old employees, servants, and friends. It then took up a few institutional bequests, and finally came to the immediate family, beginning with the girls. Imogene, as a faithful and loving daughter was left a sixth of the stock of the carriage company and a fourth of the remaining properties of the deceased, which roughly aggregated (the estate—not her share) about eight hundred thousand dollars. Amy and Louise were provided for in exactly the same proportion. The grandchildren were given certain little bonuses for good conduct, when they should come of age. Then it took up the cases of Robert and Lester.

It was an unusual document in some ways, as it opened with all the small bequests; first, a few dollars to longtime employees, servants, and friends. Then it addressed a few institutional donations, and finally moved on to the immediate family, starting with the daughters. Imogene, being a devoted and caring daughter, was bequeathed one-sixth of the shares in the carriage company and one-fourth of the remaining assets of the deceased, which together totaled (the estate—not her share) about eight hundred thousand dollars. Amy and Louise received exactly the same amount. The grandchildren were given small bonuses for good behavior when they reached adulthood. After that, the document addressed the situations of Robert and Lester.

“Owing to certain complications which have arisen in the affairs of my son Lester,” it began, “I deem it my duty to make certain conditions which shall govern the distribution of the remainder of my property, to wit: One-fourth of the stock of the Kane Manufacturing Company and one-fourth of the remainder of my various properties, real, personal, moneys, stocks and bonds, to go to my beloved son Robert, in recognition of the faithful performance of his duty, and one-fourth of the stock of the Kane Manufacturing Company and the remaining fourth of my various properties, real, personal, moneys, stocks and bonds, to be held in trust by him for the benefit of his brother Lester, until such time as such conditions as may hereinafter be set forth shall have been complied with. And it is my wish and desire that my children shall concur in his direction of the Kane Manufacturing Company, and of such other interests as are entrusted to him, until such time as he shall voluntarily relinquish such control, or shall indicate another arrangement which shall be better.”

“Due to some complications that have come up with my son Lester,” it started, “I believe it’s my responsibility to set certain conditions that will dictate how the rest of my property will be distributed. Specifically: One-fourth of the stock of the Kane Manufacturing Company and one-fourth of the rest of my various properties—real estate, personal items, money, stocks, and bonds—will go to my beloved son Robert, in recognition of his diligent efforts. The other one-fourth of the stock of the Kane Manufacturing Company and the remaining fourth of my various properties—real estate, personal items, money, stocks, and bonds—will be held in trust by him for the benefit of his brother Lester, until such conditions as will be specified later are met. I also hope that my children will support his management of the Kane Manufacturing Company and any other interests entrusted to him, until he either voluntarily steps down or proposes a better arrangement.”

Lester swore under his breath. His cheeks changed color, but he did not move. He was not inclined to make a show. It appeared that he was not even mentioned separately.

Lester muttered a curse. His cheeks flushed, but he stayed still. He didn't want to draw attention. It seemed that he wasn't even noted on his own.

The conditions “hereinafter set forth” dealt very fully with his case, however, though they were not read aloud to the family at the time, Mr. O’Brien stating that this was in accordance with their father’s wish. Lester learned immediately afterward that he was to have ten thousand a year for three years, during which time he had the choice of doing either one of two things: First, he was to leave Jennie, if he had not already married her, and so bring his life into moral conformity with the wishes of his father. In this event Lester’s share of the estate was to be immediately turned over to him. Secondly, he might elect to marry Jennie, if he had not already done so, in which case the ten thousand a year, specifically set aside to him for three years, was to be continued for life—but for his life only. Jennie was not to have anything of it after his death. The ten thousand in question represented the annual interest on two hundred shares of L. S. and M. S. stock which were also to be held in trust until his decision had been reached and their final disposition effected. If Lester refused to marry Jennie, or to leave her, he was to have nothing at all after the three years were up. At Lester’s death the stock on which his interest was drawn was to be divided pro rata among the surviving members of the family. If any heir or assign contested the will, his or her share was thereby forfeited entirely.

The conditions outlined “hereinafter” covered his case in detail, although they weren't read aloud to the family at the time, with Mr. O'Brien explaining that this was in line with their father's wishes. Lester found out right after that he would receive ten thousand a year for three years, during which he had a choice between two options: First, he was to leave Jennie, if he hadn’t already married her, thereby conforming his life to his father's expectations. In this case, Lester's share of the estate would be given to him immediately. Second, he could choose to marry Jennie, if he hadn’t done so already, in which case the ten thousand a year allocated to him for three years would continue for life—but only his life. Jennie would receive nothing from it after he passed away. This ten thousand represented the annual interest on two hundred shares of L. S. and M. S. stock, which would also be held in trust until he made his decision and finalized the arrangements. If Lester chose not to marry Jennie or to leave her, he would receive nothing after the three years ended. Upon Lester’s death, the stock that generated his interest would be divided equally among the surviving family members. If any heir or assignee contested the will, their share would be completely forfeited.

It was astonishing to Lester to see how thoroughly his father had taken his case into consideration. He half suspected, on reading these conditions, that his brother Robert had had something to do with the framing of them, but of course he could not be sure. Robert had not given any direct evidence of enmity.

It was shocking to Lester to see how completely his father had thought through his situation. He somewhat suspected, upon reading these terms, that his brother Robert might have been involved in putting them together, but he couldn’t be certain. Robert hadn’t shown any clear signs of hostility.

“Who drew this will?” he demanded of O’Brien, a little later.

“Who wrote this will?” he asked O’Brien a little later.

“Well, we all had a hand in it,” replied O’Brien, a little shamefacedly. “It was a very difficult document to draw up. You know, Mr. Kane, there was no budging your father. He was adamant. He has come very near defeating his own wishes in some of these clauses. Of course, you know, we had nothing to do with its spirit. That was between you and him. I hated very much to have to do it.”

“Well, we all played a part in it,” O’Brien replied, a bit embarrassed. “It was a really tough document to put together. You know, Mr. Kane, your father was so set in his ways. He was stubborn. He nearly went against his own wishes with some of these clauses. Of course, you know, we had nothing to do with its intent. That was between you and him. I really didn't enjoy having to do it.”

“Oh, I understand all that!” said Lester. “Don’t let that worry you.”

“Oh, I get all that!” said Lester. “Don’t let it bother you.”

Mr. O’Brien was very grateful.

Mr. O’Brien was really grateful.

During the reading of the will Lester had sat as stolid as an ox.

During the reading of the will, Lester had sat there as unmovable as a rock.

He got up after a time, as did the others, assuming an air of nonchalance. Robert, Amy, Louise and Imogene all felt shocked, but not exactly, not unqualifiedly regretful. Certainly Lester had acted very badly. He had given his father great provocation.

He eventually got up, like the others, trying to act casual. Robert, Amy, Louise, and Imogene were all shocked, but not completely, not entirely regretful. Lester had definitely behaved poorly. He had pushed his father to the limit.

“I think the old gentleman has been a little rough in this,” said Robert, who had been sitting next him. “I certainly did not expect him to go as far as that. So far as I am concerned some other arrangement would have been satisfactory.”

“I think the old man has been a bit harsh in this,” said Robert, who had been sitting next to him. “I definitely didn’t expect him to take it that far. As far as I'm concerned, another arrangement would have been fine.”

Lester smiled grimly. “It doesn’t matter,” he said.

Lester smiled wryly. “It doesn’t matter,” he said.

Imogene, Amy, and Louise were anxious to be consolatory, but they did not know what to say. Lester had brought it all on himself. “I don’t think papa acted quite right, Lester,” ventured Amy, but Lester waved her away almost gruffly.

Imogene, Amy, and Louise were eager to offer comfort, but they didn’t know what to say. Lester had brought this on himself. “I don’t think Dad handled things very well, Lester,” Amy said tentatively, but Lester brushed her off almost rudely.

“I can stand it,” he said.

“I can handle it,” he said.

He figured out, as he stood there, what his income would be in case he refused to comply with his father’s wishes. Two hundred shares of L. S. and M. S., in open market, were worth a little over one thousand each. They yielded from five to six per cent., sometimes more, sometimes less. At this rate he would have ten thousand a year, not more.

He realized, as he stood there, what his income would be if he ignored his father's wishes. Two hundred shares of L. S. and M. S. were worth a little over a thousand each on the open market. They provided returns of five to six percent, sometimes more, sometimes less. At this rate, he would make ten thousand a year, nothing more.

The family gathering broke up, each going his way, and Lester returned to his sister’s house. He wanted to get out of the city quickly, gave business as an excuse to avoid lunching with any one, and caught the earliest train back to Chicago. As he rode he meditated.

The family gathering ended, everyone went their separate ways, and Lester went back to his sister’s place. He wanted to leave the city fast, used work as an excuse to skip lunch with anyone, and took the earliest train back to Chicago. As he rode, he thought.

So this was how much his father really cared for him! Could it really be so? He, Lester Kane, ten thousand a year, for only three years, and then longer only on condition that he married Jennie! “Ten thousand a year,” he thought, “and that for three years! Good Lord! Any smart clerk can earn that. To think he should have done that to me!”

So this was how much his father really cared about him! Could it really be true? He, Lester Kane, ten thousand a year, for only three years, and then only longer if he married Jennie! “Ten thousand a year,” he thought, “and that for three years! Good Lord! Any smart clerk can make that. To think he would do this to me!”

CHAPTER XLIII

This attempt at coercion was the one thing which would definitely set Lester in opposition to his family, at least for the time being. He had realized clearly enough of late that he had made a big mistake; first in not having married Jennie, thus avoiding scandal; and in the second place in not having accepted her proposition at the time when she wanted to leave him; There were no two ways about it, he had made a mess of this business. He could not afford to lose his fortune entirely. He did not have enough money of his own. Jennie was unhappy, he could see that. Why shouldn’t she be? He was unhappy. Did he want to accept the shabby ten thousand a year, even if he were willing to marry her? Finally, did he want to lose Jennie, to have her go out of his life once and for all? He could not make up his mind; the problem was too complicated.

This attempt at coercion was the one thing that would definitely put Lester at odds with his family, at least for now. He had come to realize recently that he had made a big mistake: first, by not marrying Jennie and avoiding the scandal, and second, by not accepting her offer when she wanted to leave him. There was no denying it; he had messed up this whole situation. He couldn’t afford to lose his fortune entirely. He didn't have enough money of his own. Jennie was unhappy, and he could see that. Why wouldn’t she be? He was unhappy too. Did he really want to settle for the pathetic ten thousand a year, even if he was willing to marry her? Ultimately, did he want to lose Jennie, to have her walk out of his life for good? He couldn’t decide; the problem was too complicated.

When Lester returned to his home, after the funeral, Jennie saw at once that something was amiss with him, something beyond a son’s natural grief for his father’s death was weighing upon his spirits. What was it, she wondered. She tried to draw near to him sympathetically, but his wounded spirit could not be healed so easily. When hurt in his pride he was savage and sullen—he could have struck any man who irritated him. She watched him interestedly, wishing to do something for him, but he would not give her his confidence. He grieved, and she could only grieve with him.

When Lester got home after the funeral, Jennie immediately noticed that something was off with him, something more than just a son’s natural sorrow for his father's death was weighing on him. What was it, she wondered. She tried to get close to him in a caring way, but his wounded spirit wasn’t easy to heal. When his pride was hurt, he was harsh and withdrawn—he seemed ready to lash out at anyone who annoyed him. She observed him with concern, wanting to help, but he wouldn’t open up to her. He mourned, and all she could do was mourn alongside him.

Days passed, and now the financial situation which had been created by his father’s death came up for careful consideration. The factory management had to be reorganized. Robert would have to be made president, as his father wished. Lester’s own relationship to the business would have to come up for adjudication. Unless he changed his mind about Jennie, he was not a stockholder. As a matter of fact, he was not anything. To continue to be secretary and treasurer, it was necessary that he should own at least one share of the company’s stock. Would Robert give him any? Would Amy, Louise, or Imogene? Would they sell him any? Would the other members of the family care to do anything which would infringe on Robert’s prerogatives under the will? They were all rather unfriendly to Lester at present, and he realized that he was facing a ticklish situation. The solution was—to get rid of Jennie. If he did that he would not need to be begging for stock. If he didn’t, he was flying in the face of his father’s last will and testament. He turned the matter over in his mind slowly and deliberately. He could quite see how things were coming out. He must abandon either Jennie or his prospects in life. What a dilemma!

Days went by, and now the financial situation created by his father’s death needed careful thought. The factory management needed to be reorganized. Robert had to be made president, just as his father wanted. Lester’s connection to the business would need to be evaluated. Unless he changed his mind about Jennie, he wasn’t a stockholder. In fact, he wasn’t anything. To keep his positions as secretary and treasurer, he needed to own at least one share of the company’s stock. Would Robert give him any? Would Amy, Louise, or Imogene? Would they sell him any? Would the other family members be willing to do anything that might step on Robert’s rights as outlined in the will? They were all pretty unfriendly toward Lester at the moment, and he realized he was in a tricky situation. The solution was—to get rid of Jennie. If he did that, he wouldn’t need to beg for stock. If he didn’t, he was going against his father’s last will and testament. He turned the matter over in his mind slowly and deliberately. He could see how things were shaping up. He had to give up either Jennie or his future prospects. What a dilemma!

Despite Robert’s assertion, that so far as he was concerned another arrangement would have been satisfactory, he was really very well pleased with the situation; his dreams were slowly nearing completion. Robert had long had his plans perfected, not only for a thorough reorganization of the company proper, but for an extension of the business in the direction of a combination of carriage companies. If he could get two or three of the larger organizations in the East and West to join with him, selling costs could be reduced, over-production would be avoided, and the general expenses could be materially scaled down. Through a New York representative, he had been picking up stock in outside carriage companies for some time and he was almost ready to act. In the first place he would have himself elected president of the Kane Company, and since Lester was no longer a factor, he could select Amy’s husband as vice-president, and possibly some one other than Lester as secretary and treasurer. Under the conditions of the will, the stock and other properties set aside temporarily for Lester, in the hope that he would come to his senses, were to be managed and voted by Robert. His father had meant, obviously, that he, Robert, should help him coerce his brother. He did not want to appear mean, but this was such an easy way. It gave him a righteous duty to perform. Lester must come to his senses or he must let Robert run the business to suit himself.

Despite Robert’s claim that he would have been fine with another arrangement, he was actually quite happy with the situation; his dreams were slowly coming true. He had long since perfected his plans, not just for a complete reorganization of the company, but also for expanding the business by combining with other carriage companies. If he could get a couple of the larger companies from the East and West to team up with him, they could cut costs, avoid overproduction, and significantly reduce overall expenses. Through a New York representative, he had been acquiring stock in other carriage companies for some time and was nearly ready to take action. First, he would have himself elected president of the Kane Company; since Lester was no longer an issue, he could choose Amy’s husband as vice-president and likely someone other than Lester for secretary and treasurer. According to the will, the stock and other properties temporarily set aside for Lester, in hopes that he would come to his senses, were to be managed and voted on by Robert. His father clearly intended for him, Robert, to help pressure his brother. He didn't want to seem cruel, but this was such an easy way to do it. It gave him a righteous duty to fulfill. Lester had to either come to his senses or allow Robert to run the business as he saw fit.

Lester, attending to his branch duties in Chicago, foresaw the drift of things. He realized now that he was permanently out of the company, a branch manager at his brother’s sufferance, and the thought irritated him greatly. Nothing had been said by Robert to indicate that such a change had taken place—things went on very much as before—but Robert’s suggestions were now obviously law. Lester was really his brother’s employee at so much a year. It sickened his soul.

Lester, busy with his branch duties in Chicago, could see how things were shifting. He now understood that he was permanently out of the company, serving as a branch manager only by his brother’s allowance, and that thought frustrated him immensely. Robert hadn’t mentioned anything to suggest that a change had occurred—everything seemed to continue as before—but it was clear that Robert’s suggestions were now the rule. Lester was essentially his brother’s employee, earning a fixed salary. It made him feel sick inside.

There came a time, after a few weeks, when he felt as if he could not stand this any longer. Hitherto he had been a free and independent agent. The approaching annual stockholder’s meeting which hitherto had been a one-man affair and a formality, his father doing all the voting, would be now a combination of voters, his brother presiding, his sisters very likely represented by their husbands, and he not there at all. It was going to be a great come-down, but as Robert had not said anything about offering to give or sell him any stock which would entitle him to sit as a director or hold any official position in the company, he decided to write and resign. That would bring matters to a crisis. It would show his brother that he felt no desire to be under obligations to him in any way or to retain anything which was not his—and gladly so—by right of ability and the desire of those with whom he was associated. If he wanted to move back into the company by deserting Jennie he would come in a very different capacity from that of branch manager. He dictated a simple, straight-forward business letter, saying:

There came a point, after a few weeks, when he felt like he couldn’t take this any longer. Up until now, he had been free and independent. The upcoming annual stockholder’s meeting, which had always been a one-man show with his father doing all the voting, would now involve multiple voters, with his brother in charge and his sisters likely represented by their husbands, and he wouldn’t be there at all. It was going to be a big step down, but since Robert hadn’t mentioned anything about offering to give or sell him any stock that would allow him to sit as a director or hold any official position in the company, he decided to write and resign. That would force the issue. It would show his brother that he didn’t want to feel indebted to him in any way or keep anything that wasn’t rightfully his—happily so—due to his own abilities and the willingness of those he was involved with. If he wanted to return to the company by leaving Jennie, he would come back in a very different role than that of branch manager. He dictated a simple, straightforward business letter, saying:

“DEAR ROBERT, I know the time is drawing near when the company must be reorganized under your direction. Not having any stock, I am not entitled to sit as a director, or to hold the joint position of secretary and treasurer. I want you to accept this letter as formal notice of my resignation from both positions, and I want to have your directors consider what disposition should be made of this position and my services. I am not anxious to retain the branch-managership as a branch-managership merely; at the same time I do not want to do anything which will embarrass you in your plans for the future. You see by this that I am not ready to accept the proposition laid down in father’s will—at least, not at present. I would like a definite understanding of how you feel in this matter. Will you write and let me know?

“Dear Robert, I know the time is coming when the company needs to be reorganized under your leadership. Since I don’t own any stock, I'm not eligible to be a director or to hold the combined role of secretary and treasurer. Please consider this letter as my formal resignation from both positions. I’d like your directors to decide what to do about these roles and my contributions. I'm not keen on keeping the branch manager title just for the sake of it; however, I also don’t want to do anything that might hinder your future plans. This shows that I’m not ready to accept the terms outlined in father’s will—at least, not right now. I’d appreciate a clear understanding of your thoughts on this. Will you write back and let me know?

“Yours,
“LESTER.”

“Yours,
“LESTER.”

Robert, sitting in his office at Cincinnati, considered this letter gravely. It was like his brother to come down to “brass tacks.” If Lester were only as cautious as he was straightforward and direct, what a man he would be! But there was no guile in the man—no subtlety. He would never do a snaky thing—and Robert knew, in his own soul, that to succeed greatly one must. “You have to be ruthless at times—you have to be subtle,” Robert would say to himself. “Why not face the facts to yourself when you are playing for big stakes?” He would, for one, and he did.

Robert, sitting in his office in Cincinnati, thought deeply about this letter. It was just like his brother to get straight to the point. If Lester were only as careful as he was direct and honest, what a remarkable person he would be! But there was no deceit in him—no nuance. He would never pull any sneaky moves—and Robert understood, deep down, that to achieve great success, one must. “You have to be ruthless sometimes—you have to be tactful,” Robert would remind himself. “Why not be honest with yourself when the stakes are high?” He would, without a doubt, and he did.

Robert felt that although Lester was a tremendously decent fellow and his brother, he wasn’t pliable enough to suit his needs. He was too outspoken, too inclined to take issue. If Lester yielded to his father’s wishes, and took possession of his share of the estate, he would become, necessarily, an active partner in the affairs of the company. Lester would be a barrier in Robert’s path. Did Robert want this? Decidedly he did not. He much preferred that Lester should hold fast to Jennie, for the present at least, and so be quietly shelved by his own act.

Robert felt that, even though Lester was a really good guy and his brother, he wasn’t flexible enough to meet his needs. He was too outspoken, too prone to argue. If Lester went along with their father's wishes and took his share of the estate, he would inevitably become an active partner in the company’s affairs. Lester would be an obstacle in Robert’s way. Did Robert want this? Absolutely not. He greatly preferred that Lester keep holding onto Jennie, at least for now, so he could be quietly sidelined by his own decision.

After long consideration, Robert dictated a politic letter. He hadn’t made up his mind yet just what he wanted to do. He did not know what his sisters’ husbands would like. A consultation would have to be held. For his part, he would be very glad to have Lester remain as secretary and treasurer, if it could be arranged. Perhaps it would be better to let the matter rest for the present.

After thinking it over for a while, Robert wrote a diplomatic letter. He still hadn’t decided exactly what he wanted to do. He didn’t know what his sisters’ husbands would want. They would need to have a meeting. As for him, he would be very happy to keep Lester as secretary and treasurer if that could be arranged. Maybe it would be better to put the matter on hold for now.

Lester cursed. What did Robert mean by beating around the bush? He knew well enough how it could be arranged. One share of stock would be enough for Lester to qualify. Robert was afraid of him—that was the basic fact. Well, he would not retain any branch-managership, depend on that. He would resign at once. Lester accordingly wrote back, saying that he had considered all sides, and had decided to look after some interests of his own, for the time being. If Robert could arrange it, he would like to have some one come on to Chicago and take over the branch agency. Thirty days would be time enough. In a few days came a regretful reply, saying that Robert was awfully sorry, but that if Lester was determined he did not want to interfere with any plans he might have in view. Imogene’s husband, Jefferson Midgely, had long thought he would like to reside in Chicago. He could undertake the work for the time being.

Lester swore under his breath. What did Robert mean by avoiding the issue? He knew perfectly well how it could be sorted out. Just one share of stock would be enough for Lester to qualify. Robert was scared of him—that was the bottom line. Well, he wouldn’t keep any branch-management position, that’s for sure. He would quit right away. So, Lester wrote back, saying that he had thought about everything and decided to focus on his own interests for now. If Robert could make it happen, he would like someone to come to Chicago and take over the branch agency. Thirty days would be plenty of time. A few days later, he received a regretful reply, stating that Robert was really sorry, but if Lester had made up his mind, he didn’t want to interfere with any plans he might have. Imogene’s husband, Jefferson Midgely, had long wanted to live in Chicago. He could handle the work for the time being.

Lester smiled. Evidently Robert was making the best of a very subtle situation. Robert knew that he, Lester, could sue and tie things up, and also that he would be very loath to do so. The newspapers would get hold of the whole story. This matter of his relationship to Jennie was in the air, anyhow. He could best solve the problem by leaving her. So it all came back to that.

Lester smiled. Clearly, Robert was handling a very delicate situation. Robert knew that he, Lester, could sue and drag things out, but he also knew that he would really hate to go down that path. The newspapers would catch wind of the whole story. His relationship with Jennie was already a topic of gossip. The best way to resolve the issue was to walk away from her. So, it all came back to that.

CHAPTER XLIV

For a man of Lester’s years—he was now forty-six—to be tossed out in the world without a definite connection, even though he did have a present income (including this new ten thousand) of fifteen thousand a year, was a disturbing and discouraging thing. He realized now that, unless he made some very fortunate and profitable arrangements in the near future, his career was virtually at an end. Of course he could marry Jennie. That would give him the ten thousand for the rest of his life, but it would also end his chance of getting his legitimate share of the Kane estate. Again, he might sell out the seventy-five thousand dollars’ worth of moderate interest-bearing stocks, which now yielded him about five thousand, and try a practical investment of some kind—say a rival carriage company. But did he want to jump in, at this stage of the game, and begin a running fight on his father’s old organization? Moreover, it would be a hard row to hoe. There was the keenest rivalry for business as it was, with the Kane Company very much in the lead. Lester’s only available capital was his seventy-five thousand dollars. Did he want to begin in a picayune, obscure way? It took money to get a foothold in the carriage business as things were now.

For a man like Lester, who was now forty-six, being thrown out into the world without any solid connections, even though he had a current income of fifteen thousand a year (including this additional ten thousand), felt unsettling and discouraging. He realized that unless he made some lucky and profitable arrangements soon, his career was pretty much over. Sure, he could marry Jennie. That would secure him the ten thousand for the rest of his life, but it would also cut off his chance to get his rightful share of the Kane estate. Alternatively, he could sell off his seventy-five thousand dollars’ worth of moderate interest-bearing stocks, which currently brought in about five thousand, and look for a practical investment—like starting a competing carriage company. But did he really want to dive in at this point and start a fight against his father’s old business? Plus, it would be a tough challenge. There was intense competition for business as it was, with the Kane Company leading the pack. Lester’s only available capital was his seventy-five thousand dollars. Did he want to start in a small, unremarkable way? It required money to establish a foothold in the carriage business these days.

The trouble with Lester was that, while blessed with a fine imagination and considerable insight, he lacked the ruthless, narrow-minded insistence on his individual superiority which is a necessary element in almost every great business success. To be a forceful figure in the business world means, as a rule, that you must be an individual of one idea, and that idea the God-given one that life has destined you for a tremendous future in the particular field you have chosen. It means that one thing, a cake of soap, a new can-opener, a safety razor, or speed-accelerator, must seize on your imagination with tremendous force, burn as a raging flame, and make itself the be-all and end-all of your existence. As a rule, a man needs poverty to help him to this enthusiasm, and youth. The thing he has discovered, and with which he is going to busy himself, must be the door to a thousand opportunities and a thousand joys. Happiness must be beyond or the fire will not burn as brightly as it might—the urge will not be great enough to make a great success.

The problem with Lester was that, although he had a great imagination and substantial insight, he didn’t have the ruthless, narrow-minded belief in his own superiority that’s essential for nearly every major business success. To be a powerful figure in the business world typically means you need to be someone focused on a single idea, the one that destiny has chosen for you in your specific field. It means that one thing—a bar of soap, a new can opener, a safety razor, or a speed accelerator—has to grab your imagination with incredible intensity, burning like a raging fire, and become the center of your universe. Usually, a person needs to experience poverty to fuel that enthusiasm, along with youth. The discovery he’s made, which will occupy his efforts, must open the door to countless opportunities and joys. Happiness has to be out of reach, or the fire won’t burn as brightly as it could—the drive won’t be strong enough to achieve great success.

Lester did not possess this indispensable quality of enthusiasm. Life had already shown him the greater part of its so-called joys. He saw through the illusions that are so often and so noisily labeled pleasure. Money, of course, was essential, and he had already had money—enough to keep him comfortably. Did he want to risk it? He looked about him thoughtfully. Perhaps he did. Certainly he could not comfortably contemplate the thought of sitting by and watching other people work for the rest of his days.

Lester didn’t have that crucial quality of enthusiasm. Life had already revealed most of its so-called joys to him. He recognized the illusions that are often loudly called pleasure. Money was important, and he had already had enough to live comfortably. Did he want to risk that? He looked around thoughtfully. Maybe he did. He definitely couldn’t bear the idea of just sitting by and watching others work for the rest of his days.

In the end he decided that he would bestir himself and look into things. He was, as he said to himself, in no hurry; he was not going to make a mistake. He would first give the trade, the people who were identified with the manufacture and sale of carriages, time to realize that he was out of the Kane Company, for the time being, anyhow, and open to other connections. So he announced that he was leaving the Kane Company and going to Europe, ostensibly for a rest. He had never been abroad, and Jennie, too, would enjoy it. Vesta could be left at home with Gerhardt and a maid, and he and Jennie would travel around a bit, seeing what Europe had to show. He wanted to visit Venice and Baden-Baden, and the great watering-places that had been recommended to him. Cairo and Luxor and the Parthenon had always appealed to his imagination. After he had had his outing he could come back and seriously gather up the threads of his intentions.

In the end, he decided to take action and look into things. He reminded himself that he wasn't in a rush and wasn't going to make a mistake. He would first allow the trade—the people involved in making and selling carriages—time to realize that he was out of the Kane Company, at least for now, and open to other opportunities. So, he announced that he was leaving the Kane Company and heading to Europe, supposedly for a break. He had never been abroad, and Jennie would enjoy it too. Vesta could stay home with Gerhardt and a maid, while he and Jennie traveled around a bit to see what Europe had to offer. He wanted to visit Venice and Baden-Baden, along with the popular resorts that had been recommended to him. Cairo, Luxor, and the Parthenon had always fascinated him. After his trip, he could return and seriously pick up where he left off with his plans.

The spring after his father died, he put his plan into execution. He had wound up the work of the warerooms and with a pleasant deliberation had studied out a tour. He made Jennie his confidante, and now, having gathered together their traveling comforts they took a steamer from New York to Liverpool. After a few weeks in the British Isles they went to Egypt. From there they came back, through Greece and Italy, into Austria and Switzerland, and then later, through France and Paris, to Germany and Berlin. Lester was diverted by the novelty of the experience and yet he had an uncomfortable feeling that he was wasting his time. Great business enterprises were not built by travelers, and he was not looking for health.

The spring after his father died, he put his plan into action. He wrapped up the work at the warehouse and, with a calm determination, mapped out a trip. He confided in Jennie, and after gathering their travel essentials, they took a steamer from New York to Liverpool. After a few weeks in the British Isles, they headed to Egypt. From there, they traveled back through Greece and Italy, into Austria and Switzerland, and later through France and Paris, ending in Germany and Berlin. Lester was intrigued by the new experiences, but he felt uneasy, sensing he was wasting his time. Major business ventures were not created by travelers, and he wasn't seeking rest.

Jennie, on the other hand, was transported by what she saw, and enjoyed the new life to the full. Before Luxor and Karnak—places which Jennie had never dreamed existed—she learned of an older civilization, powerful, complex, complete. Millions of people had lived and died here, believing in other gods, other forms of government, other conditions of existence. For the first time in her life Jennie gained a clear idea of how vast the world is. Now from this point of view—of decayed Greece, of fallen Rome, of forgotten Egypt, she saw how pointless are our minor difficulties, our minor beliefs. Her father’s Lutheranism—it did not seem so significant any more; and the social economy of Columbus, Ohio—rather pointless, perhaps. Her mother had worried so of what people—her neighbors—thought, but here were dead worlds of people, some bad, some good. Lester explained that their differences in standards of morals were due sometimes to climate, sometimes to religious beliefs, and sometimes to the rise of peculiar personalities like Mohammed. Lester liked to point out how small conventions bulked in this, the larger world, and vaguely she began to see. Admitting that she had been bad—locally it was important, perhaps, but in the sum of civilization, in the sum of big forces, what did it all amount to? They would be dead after a little while, she and Lester and all these people. Did anything matter except goodness—goodness of heart? What else was there that was real?

Jennie, on the other hand, was captivated by what she saw and fully embraced her new life. Before Luxor and Karnak—places she never imagined existed—she discovered an ancient civilization, powerful, complex, and complete. Millions of people had lived and died here, believing in different gods, forms of government, and ways of life. For the first time in her life, Jennie grasped how vast the world truly is. From this perspective—of decayed Greece, fallen Rome, and forgotten Egypt—she realized how trivial her minor struggles and beliefs were. Her father's Lutheranism didn’t seem as significant anymore, and the social dynamics of Columbus, Ohio felt rather pointless. Her mother had worried so much about what their neighbors thought, but here were long-gone civilizations, some good, some bad. Lester explained that their differences in moral standards were sometimes due to climate, sometimes to religious beliefs, and sometimes to the emergence of unique figures like Mohammed. Lester liked to point out how minor customs seemed insignificant in this larger world, and she began to see that. Admitting she had been wrong—locally it might have mattered, but in the grand scheme of civilization and the larger forces at play, what did it all really mean? Soon, she, Lester, and all these people would be gone. Did anything matter except kindness—true kindness? What else was real?

CHAPTER XLV

It was while traveling abroad that Lester came across, first at the Carlton in London and later at Shepheards in Cairo, the one girl, before Jennie, whom it might have been said he truly admired—Letty Pace. He had not seen her for a long time, and she had been Mrs. Malcolm Gerald for nearly four years, and a charming widow for nearly two years more. Malcolm Gerald had been a wealthy man, having amassed a fortune in banking and stock-brokering in Cincinnati, and he had left Mrs. Malcolm Gerald very well off. She was the mother of one child, a little girl, who was safely in charge of a nurse and maid at all times, and she was invariably the picturesque center of a group of admirers recruited from every capital of the civilized world. Letty Gerald was a talented woman, beautiful, graceful, artistic, a writer of verse, an omnivorous reader, a student of art, and a sincere and ardent admirer of Lester Kane.

It was while traveling abroad that Lester encountered, first at the Carlton in London and later at Shepheards in Cairo, the one girl, before Jennie, whom he genuinely admired—Letty Pace. He hadn’t seen her in a long time, and she had been Mrs. Malcolm Gerald for nearly four years, and a charming widow for almost two years more. Malcolm Gerald was a wealthy man who had made a fortune in banking and stock brokerage in Cincinnati, leaving Mrs. Malcolm Gerald very well off. She was the mother of one child, a little girl, who was always safely cared for by a nurse and maid, and she was consistently the attractive center of a group of admirers from every capital of the civilized world. Letty Gerald was a talented woman—beautiful, graceful, artistic, a poet, an avid reader, a student of art, and a genuine and passionate admirer of Lester Kane.

In her day she had truly loved him, for she had been a wise observer of men and affairs, and Lester had always appealed to her as a real man. He was so sane, she thought, so calm. He was always intolerant of sham, and she liked him for it. He was inclined to wave aside the petty little frivolities of common society conversation, and to talk of simple and homely things. Many and many a time, in years past, they had deserted a dance to sit out on a balcony somewhere, and talk while Lester smoked. He had argued philosophy with her, discussed books, described political and social conditions in other cities—in a word, he had treated her like a sensible human being, and she had hoped and hoped and hoped that he would propose to her. More than once she had looked at his big, solid head with its short growth of hardy brown hair, and wished that she could stroke it. It was a hard blow to her when he finally moved away to Chicago; at that time she knew nothing of Jennie, but she felt instinctively that her chance of winning him was gone.

In her time, she had really loved him because she had been a keen observer of people and events, and Lester had always seemed like a genuine man to her. She thought he was so rational and calm. He was always critical of pretense, and she appreciated that about him. He tended to brush off the trivialities of typical social conversations and preferred to discuss simple, everyday topics. Many times in the past, they had left a dance to sit on a balcony somewhere and talk while Lester smoked. He had debated philosophy with her, discussed books, and described political and social situations in other cities—in short, he had treated her like a smart individual, and she had hoped and hoped that he would propose to her. More than once, she had looked at his big, solid head with its short, thick brown hair and wished she could touch it. It was a harsh blow to her when he eventually moved to Chicago; at that time, she knew nothing of Jennie, but she instinctively felt that her chance of winning him was lost.

Then Malcolm Gerald, always an ardent admirer, proposed for something like the sixty-fifth time, and she took him. She did not love him, but she was getting along, and she had to marry some one. He was forty-four when he married her, and he lived only four years—just long enough to realize that he had married a charming, tolerant, broad-minded woman. Then he died of pneumonia and Mrs. Gerald was a rich widow, sympathetic, attractive, delightful in her knowledge of the world, and with nothing to do except to live and to spend her money.

Then Malcolm Gerald, always a passionate admirer, proposed for about the sixty-fifth time, and she accepted him. She didn’t love him, but she was making her way in life, and she had to marry someone. He was forty-four when they tied the knot, and he lived only four years—just long enough to realize that he had married a charming, open-minded, and accepting woman. Then he died of pneumonia, and Mrs. Gerald became a wealthy widow, friendly, attractive, and savvy in her understanding of the world, with nothing to do except live life and spend her money.

She was not inclined to do either indifferently. She had long since had her ideal of a man established by Lester. These whipper-snappers of counts, earls, lords, barons, whom she met in one social world and another (for her friendship and connections had broadened notably with the years), did not interest her a particle. She was terribly weary of the superficial veneer of the titled fortune-hunter whom she met abroad. A good judge of character, a student of men and manners, a natural reasoner along sociologic and psychologic lines, she saw through them and through the civilization which they represented. “I could have been happy in a cottage with a man I once knew out in Cincinnati,” she told one of her titled women friends who had been an American before her marriage. “He was the biggest, cleanest, sanest fellow. If he had proposed to me I would have married him if I had had to work for a living myself.”

She wasn’t interested in either option without feeling something. Her ideal man was already set by Lester. The young counts, earls, lords, and barons she encountered in various social circles—which had expanded significantly over the years—didn’t grab her attention at all. She was extremely tired of the shallow façade of the titled fortune-hunters she met while traveling. A good judge of character and a keen observer of people and social behaviors, she could see right through them and the society they represented. “I could have been happy in a cottage with a man I once knew in Cincinnati,” she told one of her titled friends who had been American before she got married. “He was the most genuine, decent, and sane guy. If he had asked me to marry him, I would have said yes, even if it meant I had to work to support us.”

“Was he so poor?” asked her friend.

“Was he that poor?” her friend asked.

“Indeed he wasn’t. He was comfortably rich, but that did not make any difference to me. It was the man I wanted.”

“Actually, he wasn’t. He was well-off, but that didn’t matter to me. It was the person I wanted.”

“It would have made a difference in the long run,” said the other.

“It would have made a difference in the long run,” said the other.

“You misjudge me,” replied Mrs. Gerald. “I waited for him for a number of years, and I know.”

“You're mistaken about me,” replied Mrs. Gerald. “I waited for him for several years, and I know.”

Lester had always retained pleasant impressions and kindly memories of Letty Pace, or Mrs. Gerald, as she was now. He had been fond of her in a way, very fond. Why hadn’t he married her? He had asked himself that question time and again. She would have made him an ideal wife, his father would have been pleased, everybody would have been delighted. Instead he had drifted and drifted, and then he had met Jennie; and somehow, after that, he did not want her any more. Now after six years of separation he met her again. He knew she was married. She was vaguely aware he had had some sort of an affair—she had heard that he had subsequently married the woman and was living on the South Side. She did not know of the loss of his fortune. She ran across him first in the Carlton one June evening. The windows were open, and the flowers were blooming everywhere, odorous with that sense of new life in the air which runs through the world when spring comes back. For the moment she was a little beside herself. Something choked in her throat; but she collected herself and extended a graceful arm and hand.

Lester had always held on to warm feelings and fond memories of Letty Pace, or Mrs. Gerald, as she was now called. He had liked her quite a bit, really liked her. Why hadn’t he married her? He had asked himself that question over and over. She would have made the perfect wife; his father would have been happy, and everyone else would have celebrated. Instead, he had just drifted along, and then he met Jennie; somehow, after that, he didn’t want Letty anymore. Now, after six years apart, he ran into her again. He knew she was married. She vaguely knew he had been involved with someone—she had heard he had eventually married the woman and was living on the South Side. She didn’t know about his financial downfall. Their first encounter was at the Carlton one June evening. The windows were open, and the flowers were blooming everywhere, giving off that fresh sense of life that fills the air when spring returns. For a moment, she was a little overwhelmed. Something caught in her throat, but she composed herself and reached out a graceful arm and hand.

“Why, Lester Kane,” she exclaimed. “How do you do! I am so glad. And this is Mrs. Kane? Charmed, I’m sure. It seems truly like a breath of spring to see you again. I hope you’ll excuse me, Mrs. Kane, but I’m delighted to see your husband. I’m ashamed to say how many years it is, Lester, since I saw you last! I feel quite old when I think of it. Why, Lester, think; it’s been all of six or seven years! And I’ve been married and had a child, and poor Mr. Gerald has died, and oh, dear, I don’t know what all hasn’t happened to me.”

“Lester Kane!” she exclaimed. “Nice to see you! I’m so glad. And this is Mrs. Kane? It’s a pleasure to meet you. It really feels like a breath of fresh air to see you again. I hope you don’t mind me saying this, Mrs. Kane, but I’m thrilled to see your husband. I’m embarrassed to admit how many years it’s been, Lester, since I last saw you! I feel so old when I think about it. Can you believe it’s been six or seven years? I’ve gotten married, had a child, and unfortunately, Mr. Gerald has passed away, and oh dear, I can't even begin to explain everything that’s happened to me.”

“You don’t look it,” commented Lester, smiling. He was pleased to see her again, for they had been good friends. She liked him still—that was evident, and he truly liked her.

“You don’t look it,” Lester said with a smile. He was happy to see her again since they had been good friends. She still liked him—that was clear, and he genuinely liked her too.

Jennie smiled. She was glad to see this old friend of Lester’s. This woman, trailing a magnificent yellow lace train over pale, mother-of-pearl satin, her round, smooth arms bare to the shoulder, her corsage cut low and a dark red rose blowing at her waist, seemed to her the ideal of what a woman should be. She liked looking at lovely women quite as much as Lester; she enjoyed calling his attention to them, and teasing him, in the mildest way, about their charms. “Wouldn’t you like to run and talk to her, Lester, instead of to me?” she would ask when some particularly striking or beautiful woman chanced to attract her attention. Lester would examine her choice critically, for he had come to know that her judge of feminine charms was excellent. “Oh, I’m pretty well off where I am,” he would retort, looking into her eyes; or, jestingly, “I’m not as young as I used to be, or I’d get in tow of that.”

Jennie smiled. She was happy to see this old friend of Lester’s. The woman, trailing a stunning yellow lace train over soft, pearl-like satin, her smooth, bare arms exposed to the shoulder, her low-cut corsage featuring a dark red rose at her waist, seemed to Jennie to be the ideal image of what a woman should be. She enjoyed looking at beautiful women just as much as Lester did; she liked calling his attention to them and playfully teasing him about their attractiveness in a lighthearted way. “Wouldn't you rather go and talk to her, Lester, instead of me?” she would ask whenever a particularly striking or beautiful woman caught her eye. Lester would scrutinize her selection critically, having learned that her taste in feminine beauty was exceptional. “Oh, I’m pretty happy where I am,” he would respond, looking into her eyes; or jokingly, “I’m not as young as I used to be, or I’d be chasing after that.”

“Run on,” was her comment. “I’ll wait for you.”

“Run on,” she said. “I’ll wait for you.”

“What would you do if I really should?”

“What would you do if I actually did?”

“Why, Lester, I wouldn’t do anything. You’d come back to me, maybe.”

“Why, Lester, I wouldn’t do anything. You might come back to me, maybe.”

“Wouldn’t you care?”

"Don't you care?"

“You know I’d care. But if you felt that you wanted to, I wouldn’t try to stop you. I wouldn’t expect to be all in all to one man, unless he wanted me to be.”

“You know I’d care. But if you really wanted to, I wouldn’t try to stop you. I wouldn’t expect to be everything to one man, unless he wanted me to be.”

“Where do you get those ideas, Jennie?” he asked her once, curious to test the breadth of her philosophy.

“Where do you come up with those ideas, Jennie?” he asked her one time, curious to explore the depth of her philosophy.

“Oh, I don’t know, why?”

“Oh, I have no idea, why?”

“They’re so broad, so good-natured, so charitable. They’re not common, that’s sure.”

“They're so warm-hearted, so easygoing, so generous. They're definitely not ordinary, that's for sure.”

“Why, I don’t think we ought to be selfish, Lester. I don’t know why. Some women think differently, I know, but a man and a woman ought to want to live together, or they ought not to—don’t you think? It doesn’t make so much difference if a man goes off for a little while—just so long as he doesn’t stay—if he wants to come back at all.”

“Honestly, I don't think we should be selfish, Lester. I'm not really sure why. Some women see it differently, I get that, but a man and a woman should either want to be together or they shouldn't—don't you agree? It doesn't matter too much if a guy departs for a short time—just as long as he doesn't stick around—if he actually wants to return.”

Lester smiled, but he respected her for the sweetness of her point of view—he had to.

Lester smiled, but he appreciated her for the kindness of her perspective—he had to.

To-night, when she saw this woman so eager to talk to Lester, she realized at once that they must have a great deal in common to talk over; whereupon she did a characteristic thing. “Won’t you excuse me for a little while?” she asked, smiling. “I left some things uncared for in our rooms. I’ll be back.”

To night, when she saw this woman so eager to talk to Lester, she immediately realized that they must have a lot in common to discuss; so she did something typical for her. “Could you excuse me for a bit?” she asked, smiling. “I left some things unattended in our rooms. I’ll be back.”

She went away, remaining in her room as long as she reasonably could, and Lester and Letty fell to discussing old times in earnest. He recounted as much of his experiences as he deemed wise, and Letty brought the history of her life up to date. “Now that you’re safely married, Lester,” she said daringly, “I’ll confess to you that you were the one man I always wanted to have propose to me—and you never did.”

She left and stayed in her room as long as she could. Meanwhile, Lester and Letty started talking about the good old days. He shared what he thought was appropriate about his experiences, and Letty brought her life story up to date. “Now that you’re happily married, Lester,” she said boldly, “I have to admit that you were the one guy I always hoped would propose to me—and you never did.”

“Maybe I never dared,” he said, gazing into her superb black eyes, and thinking that perhaps she might know that he was not married. He felt that she had grown more beautiful in every way. She seemed to him now to be an ideal society figure-perfection itself—gracious, natural, witty, the type of woman who mixes and mingles well, meeting each new-comer upon the plane best suited to him or her.

“Maybe I never had the courage,” he said, looking into her stunning black eyes, wondering if she might realize that he wasn’t married. He felt that she had become more beautiful in every way. To him, she now seemed like the perfect socialite—graceful, genuine, witty, the kind of woman who easily connects with everyone, engaging with each newcomer on the level that suits them best.

“Yes, you thought! I know what you thought. Your real thought just left the table.”

“Yes, you thought! I know what you were thinking. Your true thought just left the table.”

“Tut, tut, my dear. Not so fast. You don’t know what I thought.”

“Tut, tut, my dear. Not so fast. You don’t know what I was thinking.”

“Anyhow, I allow you some credit. She’s charming.”

"Anyway, I give you some credit. She's charming."

“Jennie has her good points,” he replied simply.

“Jennie has her good qualities,” he said plainly.

“And are you happy?”

"Are you happy?"

“Oh, fairly so. Yes, I suppose I’m happy—as happy as any one can be who sees life as it is. You know I’m not troubled with many illusions.”

“Oh, pretty much. Yes, I guess I’m happy—happy as anyone can be who sees life for what it really is. You know I’m not burdened with many illusions.”

“Not any, I think, kind sir, if I know you.”

“Not any, I believe, kind sir, if I know you.”

“Very likely, not any, Letty; but sometimes I wish I had a few. I think I would be happier.”

“Probably not, Letty; but sometimes I wish I had a few. I think I would be happier.”

“And I, too, Lester. Really, I look on my life as a kind of failure, you know, in spite of the fact that I’m almost as rich as Croesus—not quite. I think he had some more than I have.”

“And I, too, Lester. Honestly, I see my life as somewhat of a failure, you know, even though I’m nearly as wealthy as Croesus—not quite. I think he had a bit more than I do.”

“What talk from you—you, with your beauty and talent, and money—good heavens!”

“What are you talking about—you, with all your beauty, talent, and money—good grief!”

“And what can I do with it? Travel, talk, shoo away silly fortune-hunters. Oh, dear, sometimes I get so tired!”

“And what can I do with it? Travel, chat, fend off those pointless fortune-seekers. Oh, man, sometimes I just get so tired!”

Letty looked at Lester. In spite of Jennie, the old feeling came back. Why should she have been cheated of him? They were as comfortable together as old married people, or young lovers. Jennie had had no better claim. She looked at him, and her eyes fairly spoke. He smiled a little sadly.

Letty looked at Lester. Despite Jennie, the old feelings returned. Why should she have been denied him? They were as comfortable together as an older couple or young lovers. Jennie had no stronger claim. She looked at him, and her eyes clearly communicated her feelings. He smiled a bit sadly.

“Here comes my wife,” he said. “We’ll have to brace up and talk of other things. You’ll find her interesting—really.”

“Here comes my wife,” he said. “We’ll need to toughen up and chat about something else. You’ll find her interesting—seriously.”

“Yes, I know,” she replied, and turned on Jennie a radiant smile.

“Yes, I know,” she replied, turning to Jennie with a bright smile.

Jennie felt a faint sense of misgiving. She thought vaguely that this might be one of Lester’s old flames. This was the kind of woman he should have chosen—not her. She was suited to his station in life, and he would have been as happy—perhaps happier. Was he beginning to realize it? Then she put away the uncomfortable thought; pretty soon she would be getting jealous, and that would be contemptible.

Jennie felt a slight sense of unease. She wondered vaguely if this might be one of Lester's ex-girlfriends. This was the kind of woman he should have picked—not her. She fit into his social circle, and he would have been just as happy—maybe even happier. Was he starting to see that? Then she pushed the unsettling thought away; soon enough, she'd be feeling jealous, and that would be pathetic.

Mrs. Gerald continued to be most agreeable in her attitude toward the Kanes. She invited them the next day to join her on a drive through Rotten Row. There was a dinner later at Claridge’s, and then she was compelled to keep some engagement which was taking her to Paris. She bade them both an affectionate farewell, and hoped that they would soon meet again. She was envious, in a sad way, of Jennie’s good fortune. Lester had lost none of his charm for her. If anything, he seemed nicer, more considerate, more wholesome. She wished sincerely that he were free. And Lester—subconsciously perhaps—was thinking the same thing.

Mrs. Gerald continued to be very friendly toward the Kanes. She invited them the next day to join her for a drive through Rotten Row. There was a dinner later at Claridge’s, and then she had to go to an engagement that was taking her to Paris. She said an affectionate goodbye to them both and hoped they would meet again soon. She felt a twinge of sadness over Jennie’s good fortune. Lester still had all his charm for her. If anything, he seemed nicer, more thoughtful, and more genuine. She truly wished he were free. And Lester—perhaps subconsciously—was thinking the same thing.

No doubt because of the fact that she was thinking of it, he had been led over mentally all of the things which might have happened if he had married her. They were so congenial now, philosophically, artistically, practically. There was a natural flow of conversation between them all the time, like two old comrades among men. She knew everybody in his social sphere, which was equally hers, but Jennie did not. They could talk of certain subtle characteristics of life in a way which was not possible between him and Jennie, for the latter did not have the vocabulary. Her ideas did not flow as fast as those of Mrs. Gerald. Jennie had actually the deeper, more comprehensive, sympathetic, and emotional note in her nature, but she could not show it in light conversation. Actually she was living the thing she was, and that was perhaps the thing which drew Lester to her. Just now, and often in situations of this kind, she seemed at a disadvantage, and she was. It seemed to Lester for the time being as if Mrs. Gerald would perhaps have been a better choice after all—certainly as good, and he would not now have this distressing thought as to his future.

No doubt because she was thinking about it, he had mentally reviewed all the things that might have happened if he had married her. They were so in sync now, philosophically, artistically, practically. There was a natural flow of conversation between them all the time, like two old friends. She knew everyone in his social circle, which was also hers, while Jennie did not. They could discuss certain subtle aspects of life in a way that wasn't possible with Jennie, who lacked the vocabulary. Her thoughts didn't come as quickly as Mrs. Gerald's. Jennie had the deeper, more comprehensive, sympathetic, and emotional qualities, but she couldn't express them in casual conversation. In fact, she was living the essence of who she was, and that might have been what attracted Lester to her. Right now, and often in situations like this, she seemed at a disadvantage, and she was. For the moment, it felt to Lester that Mrs. Gerald might have been a better choice after all—certainly just as good—and he wouldn't have this troubling thought about his future.

They did not see Mrs. Gerald again until they reached Cairo. In the gardens about the hotel they suddenly encountered her, or rather Lester did, for he was alone at the time, strolling and smoking.

They didn't see Mrs. Gerald again until they got to Cairo. In the gardens around the hotel, they unexpectedly ran into her, or rather Lester did, since he was alone at the time, walking and smoking.

“Well, this is good luck,” he exclaimed. “Where do you come from?”

“Well, this is great luck,” he said. “Where are you from?”

“Madrid, if you please. I didn’t know I was coming until last Thursday. The Ellicotts are here. I came over with them. You know I wondered where you might be. Then I remembered that you said you were going to Egypt. Where is your wife?”

“Madrid, if you don’t mind. I didn’t know I was coming until last Thursday. The Ellicotts are here. I came over with them. I was curious about where you might be. Then I recalled that you mentioned you were going to Egypt. Where's your wife?”

“In her bath, I fancy, at this moment. This warm weather makes Jennie take to water. I was thinking of a plunge myself.”

"In her bath, I imagine, right now. This warm weather makes Jennie want to soak. I was thinking about taking a dip myself."

They strolled about for a time. Letty was in light blue silk, with a blue and white parasol held daintily over her shoulder, and looked very pretty. “Oh, dear!” she suddenly ejaculated, “I wonder sometimes what I am to do with myself. I can’t loaf always this way. I think I’ll go back to the States to live.”

They wandered around for a while. Letty was wearing a light blue silk dress and a blue and white parasol held daintily over her shoulder, looking very pretty. “Oh, dear!” she suddenly exclaimed, “I sometimes wonder what I should do with my life. I can’t just lounge around like this forever. I think I’ll go back to the States to live.”

“Why don’t you?”

"Why not?"

“What good would it do me? I don’t want to get married. I haven’t any one to marry now—that I want.” She glanced at Lester significantly, then looked away.

“What good would it do me? I don’t want to get married. I don't have anyone to marry right now—at least not someone I want.” She shot a meaningful look at Lester, then turned away.

“Oh, you’ll find some one eventually,” he said, somewhat awkwardly. “You can’t escape for long—not with your looks and money.”

“Oh, you’ll find someone eventually,” he said, a bit awkwardly. “You can’t escape for long—not with your looks and money.”

“Oh, Lester, hush!”

“Oh, Lester, be quiet!”

“All right! Have it otherwise, if you want. I’m telling you.”

“All right! Do it your way, if that's what you want. I'm just saying.”

“Do you still dance?” she inquired lightly, thinking of a ball which was to be given at the hotel that evening. He had danced so well a few years before.

“Do you still dance?” she asked casually, thinking about a ball that was happening at the hotel that evening. He had danced so well a few years ago.

“Do I look it?”

“Do I seem like it?”

“Now, Lester, you don’t mean to say that you have gone and abandoned that last charming art. I still love to dance. Doesn’t Mrs. Kane?”

“Now, Lester, you can’t be saying that you’ve just given up that wonderful art. I still love to dance. Doesn’t Mrs. Kane?”

“No, she doesn’t care to. At least she hasn’t taken it up. Come to think of it, I suppose that is my fault. I haven’t thought of dancing in some time.”

“No, she doesn’t want to. At least she hasn’t started. Now that I think about it, I guess that’s my fault. I haven’t thought about dancing in a while.”

It occurred to him that he hadn’t been going to functions of any kind much for some time. The opposition his entanglement had generated had put a stop to that.

It struck him that he hadn’t been attending events of any sort for quite a while. The backlash from his involvement had put an end to that.

“Come and dance with me to-night. Your wife won’t object. It’s a splendid floor. I saw it this morning.”

“Come and dance with me tonight. Your wife won’t mind. It’s a fantastic floor. I checked it out this morning.”

“I’ll have to think about that,” replied Lester. “I’m not much in practice. Dancing will probably go hard with me at my time of life.”

“I’ll need to think about that,” replied Lester. “I’m not really experienced. Dancing will probably be tough for me at my age.”

“Oh, hush, Lester,” replied Mrs. Gerald. “You make me feel old. Don’t talk so sedately. Mercy alive, you’d think you were an old man!”

“Oh, come on, Lester,” Mrs. Gerald replied. “You make me feel old. Don’t speak so seriously. Goodness, you’d think you were an old man!”

“I am in experience, my dear.”

"I've got experience, my dear."

“Pshaw, that simply makes us more attractive,” replied his old flame.

“Come on, that just makes us more appealing,” replied his old flame.

CHAPTER XLVI

That night after dinner the music was already sounding in the ball-room of the great hotel adjacent to the palm-gardens when Mrs. Gerald found Lester smoking on one of the verandas with Jennie by his side. The latter was in white satin and white slippers, her hair lying a heavy, enticing mass about her forehead and ears. Lester was brooding over the history of Egypt, its successive tides or waves of rather weak-bodied people; the thin, narrow strip of soil along either side of the Nile that had given these successive waves of population sustenance; the wonder of heat and tropic life, and this hotel with its modern conveniences and fashionable crowd set down among ancient, soul-weary, almost despairing conditions. He and Jennie had looked this morning on the pyramids. They had taken a trolley to the Sphinx! They had watched swarms of ragged, half-clad, curiously costumed men and boys moving through narrow, smelly, albeit brightly colored, lanes and alleys.

That night after dinner, the music was already playing in the ballroom of the big hotel next to the palm gardens when Mrs. Gerald found Lester smoking on one of the verandas with Jennie beside him. She was in a white satin dress and white slippers, her hair cascading in a heavy, tempting mass around her forehead and ears. Lester was lost in thought about the history of Egypt, its series of waves of rather frail people; the slim, narrow strip of land along either side of the Nile that had sustained these successive groups; the marvel of heat and tropical life, and this hotel with its modern comforts and fashionable crowd set against ancient, weary, almost despairing conditions. He and Jennie had seen the pyramids that morning. They had taken a trolley to the Sphinx! They had watched swarms of ragged, half-clothed, oddly dressed men and boys moving through narrow, smelly, yet brightly colored streets and alleys.

“It all seems such a mess to me,” Jennie had said at one place. “They are so dirty and oily. I like it, but somehow they seem tangled up, like a lot of worms.”

“It all seems like such a mess to me,” Jennie had said at one point. “They’re so dirty and oily. I like it, but they somehow seem all twisted up, like a bunch of worms.”

Lester chuckled, “You’re almost right. But climate does it. Heat. The tropics. Life is always mushy and sensual under these conditions. They can’t help it.”

Lester laughed, “You’re close. But it’s the climate that does it. The heat. The tropics. Life is always soft and sensual in these conditions. They can’t help it.”

“Oh, I know that. I don’t blame them. They’re just queer.”

“Oh, I get that. I don’t blame them. They’re just different.”

To-night he was brooding over this, the moon shining down into the grounds with an exuberant, sensuous luster.

Tonight he was deep in thought about this, the moon shining down into the grounds with a vibrant, sensual glow.

“Well, at last I’ve found you!” Mrs. Gerald exclaimed. “I couldn’t get down to dinner, after all. Our party was so late getting back. I’ve made your husband agree to dance with me, Mrs. Kane,” she went on smilingly. She, like Lester and Jennie, was under the sensuous influence of the warmth, the spring, the moonlight. There were rich odors abroad, floating subtly from groves and gardens; from the remote distance camel-bells were sounding and exotic cries, “Ayah!” and “oosh! oosh!” as though a drove of strange animals were being rounded up and driven through the crowded streets.

“Well, I finally found you!” Mrs. Gerald exclaimed. “I couldn’t make it to dinner after all. Our party took forever to get back. I’ve convinced your husband to dance with me, Mrs. Kane,” she continued with a smile. Like Lester and Jennie, she was caught up in the warm, spring, moonlit atmosphere. There were rich scents in the air, subtly drifting from gardens and groves; in the distance, camel bells rang out along with exotic calls, “Ayah!” and “oosh! oosh!” as if a herd of strange animals was being rounded up and driven through the busy streets.

“You’re welcome to him,” replied Jennie pleasantly. “He ought to dance. I sometimes wish I did.”

“You're welcome to him,” Jennie replied with a smile. “He should dance. I sometimes wish I could too.”

“You ought to take lessons right away then,” replied Lester genially. “I’ll do my best to keep you company. I’m not as light on my feet as I was once, but I guess I can get around.”

"You should definitely start taking lessons right away," Lester said kindly. "I'll do my best to keep you company. I'm not as quick on my feet as I used to be, but I think I can manage."

“Oh, I don’t want to dance that badly,” smiled Jennie. “But you two go on, I’m going up-stairs in a little while, anyway.”

“Oh, I don’t really want to dance that much,” smiled Jennie. “But you two go ahead; I’ll be heading upstairs soon, anyway.”

“Why don’t you come sit in the ball-room? I can’t do more than a few rounds. Then we can watch the others,” said Lester rising.

“Why don’t you come sit in the ballroom? I can’t go more than a few rounds. Then we can watch the others,” said Lester, getting up.

“No. I think I’ll stay here. It’s so pleasant. You go. Take him, Mrs. Gerald.”

“No. I think I’ll stay here. It’s really nice. You go ahead. Take him, Mrs. Gerald.”

Lester and Letty strolled away. They made a striking pair—Mrs. Gerald in dark wine-colored silk, covered with glistening black beads, her shapely arms and neck bare, and a flashing diamond of great size set just above her forehead in her dark hair. Her lips were red, and she had an engaging smile, showing an even row of white teeth between wide, full, friendly lips. Lester’s strong, vigorous figure was well set off by his evening clothes, he looked distinguished.

Lester and Letty walked away. They made a striking couple—Mrs. Gerald in dark wine-colored silk, adorned with sparkling black beads, her shapely arms and neck exposed, and a large, bright diamond set just above her forehead in her dark hair. Her lips were red, and she had a charming smile, revealing a straight row of white teeth between her wide, full, friendly lips. Lester’s strong, athletic build was nicely suited to his formal attire; he looked distinguished.

“That is the woman he should have married,” said Jennie to herself as he disappeared. She fell into a reverie, going over the steps of her past life. Sometimes it seemed to her now as if she had been living in a dream. At other times she felt as though she were in that dream yet. Life sounded in her ears much as this night did. She heard its cries. She knew its large-mass features. But back of it were subtleties that shaded and changed one into the other like the shifting of dreams. Why had she been so attractive to men? Why had Lester been so eager to follow her? Could she have prevented him? She thought of her life in Columbus, when she carried coal; to-night she was in Egypt, at this great hotel, the chatelaine of a suite of rooms, surrounded by every luxury, Lester still devoted to her. He had endured so many things for her! Why? Was she so wonderful? Brander had said so. Lester had told her so. Still she felt humble, out of place, holding handfuls of jewels that did not belong to her. Again she experienced that peculiar feeling which had come over her the first time she went to New York with Lester—namely, that this fairy existence could not endure. Her life was fated. Something would happen. She would go back to simple things, to a side street, a poor cottage, to old clothes.

"That’s the woman he should’ve married,” Jennie thought to herself as he walked away. She slipped into a daydream, reflecting on her past. Sometimes it felt like she had been living in a dream. Other times, she felt like she still was. Life echoed around her much like this night did. She could hear its cries. She recognized its main features. But behind it were subtle changes that intertwined like shifting dreams. Why had men found her so attractive? Why had Lester been so eager to pursue her? Could she have stopped him? She recalled her life in Columbus, when she carried coal; tonight, she was in Egypt, at this fancy hotel, managing a suite of rooms, surrounded by luxury, with Lester still devoted to her. He had put up with so much for her! Why? Was she truly that amazing? Brander had said so. Lester had told her so. Yet she still felt humble, out of place, clutching handfuls of jewels that weren’t hers. Again, she felt that strange sensation she had the first time she went to New York with Lester—that this fairy-tale life couldn’t last. Her life was destined for something. Something would change. She would return to simpler things, to a side street, a modest cottage, and to old clothes.

And then as she thought of her home in Chicago, and the attitude of his friends, she knew it must be so. She would never be received, even if he married her. And she could understand why. She could look into the charming, smiling face of this woman who was now with Lester, and see that she considered her very nice, perhaps, but not of Lester’s class. She was saying to herself now no doubt as she danced with Lester that he needed some one like her. He needed some one who had been raised in the atmosphere of the things to which he had been accustomed. He couldn’t very well expect to find in her, Jennie, the familiarity with, the appreciation of the niceties to, which he had always been accustomed. She understood what they were. Her mind had awakened rapidly to details of furniture, clothing, arrangement, decorations, manner, forms, customs, but—she was not to the manner born.

And as she thought about her home in Chicago and how his friends looked at her, she realized it had to be true. She wouldn’t be accepted, even if he married her. And she got why. She could see the charming, smiling face of the woman who was with Lester now, and she knew that this woman thought of her as nice, maybe, but certainly not from Lester’s world. As she danced with Lester, she was probably telling herself that he needed someone like her. He needed someone who had grown up in the same environment he was used to. He couldn't expect to find in her, Jennie, the understanding or appreciation of the finer details he was familiar with. She recognized what those details were. Her awareness had quickly sharpened to the intricacies of furniture, clothing, layout, decor, mannerisms, traditions, but—she simply wasn't from that background.

If she went away Lester would return to his old world, the world of the attractive, well-bred, clever woman who now hung upon his arm. The tears came into Jennie’s eyes; she wished, for the moment, that she might die. It would be better so. Meanwhile Lester was dancing with Mrs. Gerald, or sitting out between the waltzes talking over old times, old places, and old friends. As he looked at Letty he marveled at her youth and beauty. She was more developed than formerly, but still as slender and shapely as Diana. She had strength, too, in this smooth body of hers, and her black eyes were liquid and lusterful.

If she left, Lester would go back to his old life, the life of the attractive, well-bred, smart woman who was now hanging on his arm. Tears filled Jennie's eyes; for a moment, she wished she could just die. That might be better. In the meantime, Lester was dancing with Mrs. Gerald or sitting out between the waltzes, reminiscing about old times, old places, and old friends. As he looked at Letty, he was amazed by her youth and beauty. She was more developed than before, but still as slender and shapely as Diana. She also had strength in her smooth body, and her black eyes were bright and sparkling.

“I swear, Letty,” he said impulsively, “you’re really more beautiful than ever. You’re exquisite. You’ve grown younger instead of older.”

“I swear, Letty,” he said impulsively, “you’re really more beautiful than ever. You’re stunning. You’ve gotten younger instead of older.”

“You think so?” she smiled, looking up into his face.

“You think so?” she smiled, gazing up at his face.

“You know I do, or I wouldn’t say so. I’m not much on philandering.”

“You know I do, or I wouldn’t say so. I’m not really into cheating.”

“Oh, Lester, you bear, can’t you allow a woman just a little coyness? Don’t you know we all love to sip our praise, and not be compelled to swallow it in one great mouthful?”

“Oh, Lester, you bear, can’t you let a woman be a little coy? Don’t you know we all love to savor our praise instead of having to gulp it down in one big mouthful?”

“What’s the point?” he asked. “What did I say?”

“What’s the point?” he asked. “What did I say?”

“Oh, nothing. You’re such a bear. You’re such a big, determined, straightforward boy. But never mind. I like you. That’s enough, isn’t it?”

“Oh, it’s nothing. You’re such a grump. You’re such a big, determined, straightforward guy. But it doesn’t matter. I like you. That’s all that matters, right?”

“It surely is,” he said.

“It definitely is,” he said.

They strolled into the garden as the music ceased, and he squeezed her arm softly. He couldn’t help it; she made him feel as if he owned her. She wanted him to feel that way. She said to herself, as they sat looking at the lanterns in the gardens, that if ever he were free, and would come to her, she would take him. She was almost ready to take him anyhow—only he probably wouldn’t. He was so straight-laced, so considerate. He wouldn’t, like so many other men she knew, do a mean thing. He couldn’t. Finally Lester rose and excused himself. He and Jennie were going farther up the Nile in the morning—toward Karnak and Thebes and the water-washed temples at Phylæ. They would have to start at an unearthly early hour, and he must get to bed.

They walked into the garden as the music faded away, and he gently squeezed her arm. He couldn't help it; she made him feel like she was his. She wanted him to feel that way. As they sat there, looking at the lanterns in the garden, she thought to herself that if he ever became free and came to her, she would be ready to take him. She was almost ready to go for it anyway—except he probably wouldn’t. He was so uptight, so thoughtful. He wouldn’t, unlike so many other guys she knew, do something cruel. He just couldn’t. Finally, Lester stood up and excused himself. He and Jennie were heading further up the Nile in the morning—toward Karnak and Thebes and the water-worn temples at Phylæ. They needed to get an incredibly early start, and he had to get to bed.

“When are you going home?” asked Mrs. Gerald, ruefully.

“When are you going home?” Mrs. Gerald asked, with a hint of sadness.

“In September.”

“In September.”

“Have you engaged your passage?”

“Have you booked your ticket?”

“Yes; we sail from Hamburg on the ninth—the Fulda.”

“Yes, we’re leaving from Hamburg on the ninth—the Fulda.”

“I may be going back in the fall,” laughed Letty. “Don’t be surprised if I crowd in on the same boat with you. I’m very unsettled in my mind.”

“I might be heading back in the fall,” Letty laughed. “Don’t be shocked if I end up on the same boat as you. I’m feeling pretty unsure about things.”

“Come along, for goodness sake,” replied Lester. “I hope you do.... I’ll see you to-morrow before we leave.” He paused, and she looked at him wistfully.

“Come on, for heaven’s sake,” replied Lester. “I hope you do.... I’ll see you tomorrow before we leave.” He paused, and she looked at him with a hint of longing.

“Cheer up,” he said, taking her hand. “You never can tell what life will do. We sometimes find ourselves right when we thought we were all wrong.”

“Cheer up,” he said, taking her hand. “You never know what life will throw at you. Sometimes we realize we were right when we thought we were completely wrong.”

He was thinking that she was sorry to lose him, and he was sorry that she was not in a position to have what she wanted. As for himself, he was saying that here was one solution that probably he would never accept; yet it was a solution. Why had he not seen this years before?

He thought she felt sorry to lose him, and he felt bad that she couldn't have what she wanted. As for himself, he was thinking that this was one solution he would probably never accept; still, it was a solution. Why hadn't he seen this years ago?

“And yet she wasn’t as beautiful then as she is now, nor as wise, nor as wealthy.” Maybe! Maybe! But he couldn’t be unfaithful to Jennie nor wish her any bad luck. She had had enough without his willing, and had borne it bravely.

“And yet she wasn’t as beautiful then as she is now, nor as wise, nor as wealthy.” Maybe! Maybe! But he couldn’t be unfaithful to Jennie or wish her any bad luck. She had already endured enough without his doing, and had faced it bravely.

CHAPTER XLVII

The trip home did bring another week with Mrs. Gerald, for after mature consideration she had decided to venture to America for a while. Chicago and Cincinnati were her destinations, and she hoped to see more of Lester. Her presence was a good deal of a surprise to Jennie, and it started her thinking again. She could see what the point was. If she were out of the way Mrs. Gerald would marry Lester; that was certain. As it was—well, the question was a complicated one. Letty was Lester’s natural mate, so far as birth, breeding, and position went. And yet Jennie felt instinctively that, on the large human side, Lester preferred her. Perhaps time would solve the problem; in the mean time the little party of three continued to remain excellent friends. When they reached Chicago Mrs. Gerald went her way, and Jennie and Lester took up the customary thread of their existence.

The trip home brought another week with Mrs. Gerald, as she had decided to take a chance and visit America for a while. Chicago and Cincinnati were her stops, and she hoped to spend more time with Lester. Her arrival surprised Jennie and made her start thinking again. She realized the situation clearly. If she stayed out of the picture, Mrs. Gerald would definitely marry Lester. But as things stood—well, it was a complicated issue. Letty was Lester’s natural match in terms of background, upbringing, and status. Yet, Jennie felt deep down that, on a larger emotional level, Lester preferred her. Maybe time would sort things out; in the meantime, the little trio continued to enjoy their friendship. When they got to Chicago, Mrs. Gerald went her way, and Jennie and Lester resumed their usual lives.

On his return from Europe Lester set to work in earnest to find a business opening. None of the big companies made him any overtures, principally because he was considered a strong man who was looking for a control in anything he touched. The nature of his altered fortunes had not been made public. All the little companies that he investigated were having a hand-to-mouth existence, or manufacturing a product which was not satisfactory to him. He did find one company in a small town in northern Indiana which looked as though it might have a future. It was controlled by a practical builder of wagons and carriages—such as Lester’s father had been in his day—who, however, was not a good business man. He was making some small money on an investment of fifteen thousand dollars and a plant worth, say, twenty-five thousand. Lester felt that something could be done here if proper methods were pursued and business acumen exercised. It would be slow work. There would never be a great fortune in it. Not in his lifetime. He was thinking of making an offer to the small manufacturer when the first rumors of a carriage trust reached him.

On his return from Europe, Lester got serious about finding a business opportunity. None of the big companies reached out to him, mainly because he was seen as a strong individual looking to gain control over anything he got involved with. The details of his changed circumstances hadn’t been made public. All the small companies he looked into were merely surviving or producing products that didn’t meet his standards. He did come across one company in a small town in northern Indiana that seemed promising. It was run by a practical builder of wagons and carriages—just like Lester’s father once was—who, unfortunately, wasn’t a great businessman. He was making a modest profit on an investment of fifteen thousand dollars and a plant valued at about twenty-five thousand. Lester believed that things could improve here if the right strategies were employed and business sense was applied. It would be a slow process, and he wouldn’t amass a fortune from it. Not in his lifetime. He was considering making an offer to the small manufacturer when he first heard rumors of a carriage trust forming.

Robert had gone ahead rapidly with his scheme for reorganizing the carriage trade. He showed his competitors how much greater profits could be made through consolidation than through a mutually destructive rivalry. So convincing were his arguments that one by one the big carriage manufacturing companies fell into line. Within a few months the deal had been pushed through, and Robert found himself president of the United Carriage and Wagon Manufacturers’ Association, with a capital stock of ten million dollars, and with assets aggregating nearly three-fourths of that sum at a forced sale. He was a happy man.

Robert had quickly moved forward with his plan to reorganize the carriage industry. He demonstrated to his competitors how much higher profits could be achieved through collaboration instead of engaging in a self-destructive rivalry. His arguments were so persuasive that one by one, the major carriage manufacturing companies joined in. Within a few months, the deal was finalized, and Robert became the president of the United Carriage and Wagon Manufacturers’ Association, with a capital stock of ten million dollars and assets totaling almost three-fourths of that amount in a forced sale. He was a happy man.

While all this was going forward Lester was completely in the dark. His trip to Europe prevented him from seeing three or four minor notices in the newspapers of some of the efforts that were being made to unite the various carriage and wagon manufactories. He returned to Chicago to learn that Jefferson Midgely, Imogene’s husband, was still in full charge of the branch and living in Evanston, but because of his quarrel with his family he was in no position to get the news direct. Accident brought it fast enough, however, and that rather irritatingly.

While all this was happening, Lester was completely unaware. His trip to Europe kept him from seeing a few minor news articles about the efforts to unite the different carriage and wagon manufacturers. He returned to Chicago to find out that Jefferson Midgely, Imogene’s husband, was still in charge of the branch and living in Evanston, but due to his ongoing feud with his family, he wasn't getting the news directly. However, accidents brought the news to him quickly, though it was rather annoying.

The individual who conveyed this information was none other than Mr. Henry Bracebridge, of Cleveland, into whom he ran at the Union Club one evening after he had been in the city a month.

The person who shared this information was none other than Mr. Henry Bracebridge from Cleveland, whom he bumped into at the Union Club one evening after he had been in the city for a month.

“I hear you’re out of the old company,” Bracebridge remarked, smiling blandly.

“I heard you left the old company,” Bracebridge said, smiling casually.

“Yes,” said Lester, “I’m out.”

“Yeah,” said Lester, “I’m out.”

“What are you up to now?”

“What are you up to?”

“Oh, I have a deal of my own under consideration, I’m thinking something of handling an independent concern.”

“Oh, I have my own deal in the works; I’m considering starting an independent business.”

“Surely you won’t run counter to your brother? He has a pretty good thing in that combination of his.”

“Surely you won’t go against your brother? He’s got a pretty good thing going with that combination of his.”

“Combination! I hadn’t heard of it,” said Lester. “I’ve just got back from Europe.”

“Combination! I hadn’t heard of it,” said Lester. “I just got back from Europe.”

“Well, you want to wake up, Lester,” replied Bracebridge. “He’s got the biggest thing in your line. I thought you knew all about it. The Lyman-Winthrop Company, the Myer-Brooks Company, the Woods Company—in fact, five or six of the big companies are all in. Your brother was elected president of the new concern. I dare say he cleaned up a couple of millions out of the deal.”

“Well, you need to wake up, Lester,” Bracebridge said. “He’s got the biggest opportunity in your field. I thought you knew all about it. The Lyman-Winthrop Company, the Myer-Brooks Company, the Woods Company—in fact, five or six of the major companies are all involved. Your brother was elected president of the new venture. I bet he made a couple of million from the deal.”

Lester stared. His glance hardened a little.

Lester stared. His look tightened a bit.

“Well, that’s fine for Robert. I’m glad of it.”

“Well, that’s cool for Robert. I’m happy about it.”

Bracebridge could see that he had given him a vital stab.

Bracebridge could tell that he had delivered a crucial blow.

“Well, so long, old man,” he exclaimed. “When you’re in Cleveland look us up. You know how fond my wife is of you.”

“Well, goodbye, old man,” he exclaimed. “When you’re in Cleveland, look us up. You know how much my wife likes you.”

“I know,” replied Lester. “By-by.”

"I know," replied Lester. "Bye-bye."

He strolled away to the smoking-room, but the news took all the zest out of his private venture. Where would he be with a shabby little wagon company and his brother president of a carriage trust? Good heavens! Robert could put him out of business in a year. Why, he himself had dreamed of such a combination as this. Now his brother had done it.

He walked over to the smoking room, but the news completely drained the excitement from his personal project. Where would he stand with a run-down little wagon company and his brother as the president of a carriage trust? Good grief! Robert could put him out of business in a year. He had actually dreamed of a combination like this. Now his brother had pulled it off.

It is one thing to have youth, courage, and a fighting spirit to meet the blows with which fortune often afflicts the talented. It is quite another to see middle age coming on, your principal fortune possibly gone, and avenue after avenue of opportunity being sealed to you on various sides. Jennie’s obvious social insufficiency, the quality of newspaper reputation which had now become attached to her, his father’s opposition and death, the loss of his fortune, the loss of his connection with the company, his brother’s attitude, this trust, all combined in a way to dishearten and discourage him. He tried to keep a brave face—and he had succeeded thus far, he thought, admirably, but this last blow appeared for the time being a little too much. He went home, the same evening that he heard the news, sorely disheartened. Jennie saw it. She realized it, as a matter of fact, all during the evening that he was away. She felt blue and despondent herself. When he came home she saw what it was—something had happened to him. Her first impulse was to say, “What is the matter, Lester?” but her next and sounder one was to ignore it until he was ready to speak, if ever. She tried not to let him see that she saw, coming as near as she might affectionately without disturbing him.

It's one thing to have youth, courage, and a fighting spirit to handle the blows that life often throws at the talented. It's a whole different story to face middle age, with your main fortune potentially gone, and opportunity after opportunity closing off around you. Jennie's clear lack of social skills, the negative reputation she had gained in the press, his father's disapproval and death, the loss of his wealth, the severing of ties with the company, his brother's attitude, this trust—all of these factors combined to discourage and demoralize him. He tried to keep a brave face—and he thought he was doing quite well so far—but this latest blow seemed like too much to handle for the moment. He went home that evening, feeling deeply disheartened after hearing the news. Jennie noticed it. In fact, she sensed it all evening while he was gone. She felt down and hopeless herself. When he finally came home, she could see that something was wrong with him. Her first instinct was to ask, "What's the matter, Lester?" but her better judgment told her to wait until he was ready to talk, if he ever would. She tried to keep him from noticing that she was aware of his mood, coming as close as she could affectionately without upsetting him.

“Vesta is so delighted with herself to-day,” she volunteered by way of diversion. “She got such nice marks in school.”

“Vesta is really pleased with herself today,” she offered to change the subject. “She got such great marks in school.”

“That’s good,” he replied solemnly.

"That's good," he said seriously.

“And she dances beautifully these days. She showed me some of her new dances to-night. You haven’t any idea how sweet she looks.”

“And she dances beautifully these days. She showed me some of her new dances tonight. You have no idea how sweet she looks.”

“I’m glad of it,” he grumbled. “I always wanted her to be perfect in that. It’s time she was going into some good girls’ school, I think.”

“I’m glad about it,” he muttered. “I always wanted her to be perfect at that. I think it’s time she started going to a good girls’ school.”

“And papa gets in such a rage. I have to laugh. She teases him about it—the little imp. She offered to teach him to dance to-night. If he didn’t love her so he’d box her ears.”

“And dad gets so angry. I can’t help but laugh. She loves to tease him—the little troublemaker. She even offered to teach him to dance tonight. If he didn’t love her so much, he’d probably give her a smack.”

“I can see that,” said Lester, smiling. “Him dancing! That’s pretty good!”

“I can see that,” said Lester, smiling. “Him dancing! That’s awesome!”

“She’s not the least bit disturbed by his storming, either.”

“She’s not bothered at all by his outburst, either.”

“Good for her,” said Lester. He was very fond of Vesta, who was now quite a girl.

“Good for her,” said Lester. He was really fond of Vesta, who was now officially a teenager.

So Jennie tripped on until his mood was modified a little, and then some inkling of what had happened came out. It was when they were retiring for the night. “Robert’s formulated a pretty big thing in a financial way since we’ve been away,” he volunteered.

So Jennie kept talking until his mood lightened a bit, and then some hint of what had happened came out. It was when they were getting ready for bed. “Robert’s figured out a pretty big financial deal since we’ve been away,” he mentioned.

“What is it?” asked Jennie, all ears.

“What is it?” asked Jennie, eager to hear.

“Oh, he’s gotten up a carriage trust. It’s something which will take in every manufactory of any importance in the country. Bracebridge was telling me that Robert was made president, and that they have nearly eight millions in capital.”

“Oh, he’s set up a carriage trust. It’s something that will include every significant manufacturer in the country. Bracebridge was telling me that Robert was made president, and that they have almost eight million in capital.”

“You don’t say!” replied Jennie. “Well, then you won’t want to do much with your new company, will you?”

“You’re kidding!” replied Jennie. “Well, in that case, you probably won’t want to do much with your new company, right?”

“No; there’s nothing in that, just now,” he said. “Later on I fancy it may be all right. I’ll wait and see how this thing comes out. You never can tell what a trust like that will do.”

“No, there’s nothing to it right now,” he said. “I think it might be okay later. I’ll wait and see how this turns out. You never know what a trust like that will do.”

Jennie was intensely sorry. She had never heard Lester complain before. It was a new note. She wished sincerely that she might do something to comfort him, but she knew that her efforts were useless. “Oh, well,” she said, “there are so many interesting things in this world. If I were you I wouldn’t be in a hurry to do anything, Lester. You have so much time.”

Jennie felt really sorry. She had never heard Lester complain before. It was a new tone. She truly wished she could do something to comfort him, but she knew her efforts wouldn’t help. “Oh, well,” she said, “there are so many interesting things in this world. If I were you, I wouldn’t rush into anything, Lester. You have plenty of time.”

She didn’t trust herself to say anything more, and he felt that it was useless to worry. Why should he? After all, he had an ample income that was absolutely secure for two years yet. He could have more if he wanted it. Only his brother was moving so dazzlingly onward, while he was standing still—perhaps “drifting” would be the better word. It did seem a pity; worst of all, he was beginning to feel a little uncertain of himself.

She didn't trust herself to say anything else, and he thought it was pointless to worry. Why should he? After all, he had a solid income that was completely secure for another two years. He could earn more if he wanted to. But his brother was advancing so impressively while he felt like he was just standing still—maybe "drifting" was a better way to put it. It did seem unfortunate; worst of all, he was starting to feel a bit unsure of himself.

CHAPTER XLVIII

Lester had been doing some pretty hard thinking, but so far he had been unable to formulate any feasible plan for his re-entrance into active life. The successful organization of Robert’s carriage trade trust had knocked in the head any further thought on his part of taking an interest in the small Indiana wagon manufactory. He could not be expected to sink his sense of pride and place, and enter a petty campaign for business success with a man who was so obviously his financial superior. He had looked up the details of the combination, and he found that Bracebridge had barely indicated how wonderfully complete it was. There were millions in the combine. It would have every little manufacturer by the throat. Should he begin now in a small way and “pike along” in the shadow of his giant brother? He couldn’t see it. It was too ignominious. He would be running around the country trying to fight a new trust, with his own brother as his tolerant rival and his own rightful capital arrayed against him. It couldn’t be done. Better sit still for the time being. Something else might show up. If not—well, he had his independent income and the right to come back into the Kane Company if he wished. Did he wish? The question was always with him.

Lester had been doing a lot of hard thinking, but so far he hadn't been able to come up with any realistic plan for getting back into active life. The successful setup of Robert’s carriage trade trust had completely derailed any thoughts he had about getting involved with the small Indiana wagon factory. There was no way he could set aside his pride and position to compete for business success against someone who was clearly his financial superior. He had looked into the details of the merger and realized that Bracebridge had only hinted at how extensive it was. There were millions involved in the combine. It would control every small manufacturer. Should he start small and try to struggle along in the shadow of his powerful brother? He couldn’t see that happening. It was too humiliating. He would be running around trying to fight a new trust, with his own brother as a willing rival and his own rightful capital stacked against him. It just couldn't be done. Better to sit tight for now. Something else might come up. If not—well, he had his independent income and the option to return to the Kane Company if he wanted. Did he want to? That question was always on his mind.

It was while Lester was in this mood, drifting, that he received a visit from Samuel E. Ross, a real estate dealer, whose great, wooden signs might be seen everywhere on the windy stretches of prairie about the city. Lester had seen Ross once or twice at the Union Club, where he had been pointed out as a daring and successful real estate speculator, and he had noticed his rather conspicuous offices at La Salle and Washington streets. Ross was a magnetic-looking person of about fifty years of age, tall, black-bearded, black-eyed, an arched, wide-nostriled nose, and hair that curled naturally, almost electrically. Lester was impressed with his lithe, cat-like figure, and his long, thin, impressive white hands.

It was during this reflective moment that Lester received a visit from Samuel E. Ross, a real estate agent whose large wooden signs were visible all over the windy prairie surrounding the city. Lester had seen Ross a couple of times at the Union Club, where he was noted for being a bold and successful real estate investor, and he had also noticed his prominent office at La Salle and Washington streets. Ross was a striking figure, about fifty years old, tall with a black beard and black eyes, a prominent nose, and naturally curly hair that almost seemed animated. Lester was taken by his agile, cat-like build and his long, slender, impressive white hands.

Mr. Ross had a real estate proposition to lay before Mr. Kane. Of course Mr. Kane knew who he was. And Mr. Ross admitted fully that he knew all about Mr. Kane. Recently, in conjunction with Mr. Norman Yale, of the wholesale grocery firm of Yale, Simpson & Rice, he had developed “Yalewood.” Mr. Kane knew of that?

Mr. Ross had a real estate proposal to present to Mr. Kane. Of course, Mr. Kane was aware of who he was. And Mr. Ross completely acknowledged that he was well-informed about Mr. Kane. Recently, along with Mr. Norman Yale from the wholesale grocery company Yale, Simpson & Rice, he had developed "Yalewood." Did Mr. Kane know about that?

Yes, Mr. Kane knew of that.

Yes, Mr. Kane was aware of that.

Only within six weeks the last lots in the Ridgewood section of “Yalewood” had been closed out at a total profit of forty-two per cent. He went over a list of other deals in real estate which he had put through, all well-known properties. He admitted frankly that there were failures in the business; he had had one or two himself. But the successes far outnumbered the bad speculations, as every one knew. Now Lester was no longer connected with the Kane Company. He was probably looking for a good investment, and Mr. Ross had a proposition to lay before him. Lester consented to listen, and Mr. Ross blinked his cat-like eyes and started in.

In just six weeks, the last lots in the Ridgewood section of “Yalewood” had been sold off at a total profit of forty-two percent. He reviewed a list of other real estate deals he had completed, all well-known properties. He admitted openly that there were failures in the business; he had experienced one or two himself. But the successes far outweighed the bad investments, as everyone knew. Now, Lester was no longer with the Kane Company. He was probably on the lookout for a good investment, and Mr. Ross had a proposal to present to him. Lester agreed to listen, and Mr. Ross blinked his sly eyes and began.

The idea was that he and Lester should enter into a one-deal partnership, covering the purchase and development of a forty-acre tract of land lying between Fifty-fifth, Seventy-first, Halstead streets, and Ashland Avenue, on the southwest side. There were indications of a genuine real estate boom there—healthy, natural, and permanent. The city was about to pave Fifty-fifth Street. There was a plan to extend the Halstead Street car line far below its present terminus. The Chicago, Burlington & Quincy, which ran near there, would be glad to put a passenger station on the property. The initial cost of the land would be forty thousand dollars which they would share equally. Grading, paving, lighting, tree planting, surveying would cost, roughly, an additional twenty-five thousand. There would be expenses for advertising—say ten per cent, of the total investment for two years, or perhaps three—a total of nineteen thousand five hundred or twenty thousand dollars. All told, they would stand to invest jointly the sum of ninety-five thousand, or possibly one hundred thousand dollars, of which Lester’s share would be fifty thousand. Then Mr. Ross began to figure on the profits.

The plan was for him and Lester to enter into a partnership to buy and develop a forty-acre piece of land located between Fifty-fifth, Seventy-first, Halstead Streets, and Ashland Avenue on the southwest side. There were signs of a real estate boom happening there—strong, natural, and lasting. The city was about to pave Fifty-fifth Street, and there were plans to extend the Halstead Street car line much further than its current endpoint. The Chicago, Burlington & Quincy, which ran nearby, would likely be happy to build a passenger station on the property. The initial cost of the land would be forty thousand dollars, which they would split equally. Grading, paving, lighting, planting trees, and surveying would roughly add another twenty-five thousand. There would also be advertising costs—let's say ten percent of the total investment for two to three years—amounting to about nineteen thousand five hundred to twenty thousand dollars. In total, they would be looking at a joint investment of ninety-five thousand or possibly one hundred thousand dollars, with Lester's share being fifty thousand. Then Mr. Ross started calculating the potential profits.

The character of the land, its salability, and the likelihood of a rise in value could be judged by the property adjacent, the sales that had been made north of Fifty-fifth Street and east of Halstead. Take, for instance, the Mortimer plot, at Halstead and Fifty-fifth streets, on the south-east corner. Here was a piece of land that in 1882 was held at forty-five dollars an acre. In 1886 it had risen to five hundred dollars an acre, as attested by its sale to a Mr. John L. Slosson at that time. In 1889, three years later, it had been sold to Mr. Mortimer for one thousand per acre, precisely the figure at which this tract was now offered. It could be parceled out into lots fifty by one hundred feet at five hundred dollars per lot. Was there any profit in that?

The character of the land, how sellable it is, and the chances of its value increasing could be assessed based on the nearby properties and the sales that had happened north of Fifty-fifth Street and east of Halstead. For example, consider the Mortimer plot at the corner of Halstead and Fifty-fifth streets. This piece of land was valued at forty-five dollars an acre in 1882. By 1886, it had skyrocketed to five hundred dollars an acre, as shown by its sale to a Mr. John L. Slosson back then. In 1889, just three years later, it was sold to Mr. Mortimer for one thousand dollars per acre, exactly the price at which this tract is now being offered. It could be divided into lots measuring fifty by one hundred feet at five hundred dollars per lot. Was there any profit in that?

Lester admitted that there was.

Lester admitted there was.

Ross went on, somewhat boastfully, to explain just how real estate profits were made. It was useless for any outsider to rush into the game, and imagine that he could do in a few weeks or years what trained real estate speculators like himself had been working on for a quarter of a century. There was something in prestige, something in taste, something in psychic apprehension. Supposing that they went into the deal, he, Ross, would be the presiding genius. He had a trained staff, he controlled giant contractors, he had friends in the tax office, in the water office, and in the various other city departments which made or marred city improvements. If Lester would come in with him he would make him some money—how much he would not say exactly—fifty thousand dollars at the lowest—one hundred and fifty to two hundred thousand in all likelihood. Would Lester let him go into details, and explain just how the scheme could be worked out? After a few days of quiet cogitation, Lester decided to accede to Mr. Ross’s request; he would look into this thing.

Ross went on, a bit smugly, explaining how real estate profits were made. It was pointless for anyone outside the field to rush in and think they could achieve in a few weeks or years what experienced real estate investors like him had been working on for twenty-five years. There was a certain prestige, a sense of style, and a knack for understanding the market. If they got involved in the deal, he, Ross, would be the mastermind. He had a skilled team, he worked with major contractors, and he had contacts in the tax office, the water department, and various other city offices that could either help or hinder city projects. If Lester would partner with him, he would make some money—though he wouldn’t specify exactly how much—at least fifty thousand dollars, with the potential for one hundred fifty to two hundred thousand likely. Would Lester let him go into detail about how the plan could be executed? After a few days of careful thought, Lester decided to agree to Mr. Ross’s proposal; he would look into it.

CHAPTER XLIX

The peculiarity of this particular proposition was that it had the basic elements of success. Mr. Ross had the experience and the judgment which were quite capable of making a success of almost anything he undertook. He was in a field which was entirely familiar. He could convince almost any able man if he could get his ear sufficiently long to lay his facts before him.

The uniqueness of this specific proposal was that it had the fundamental components of success. Mr. Ross had the experience and judgment that could make nearly any endeavor he pursued successful. He was in a field he knew well. He could persuade almost any capable person if he could get their attention long enough to present his facts.

Lester was not convinced at first, although, generally speaking, he was interested in real estate propositions. He liked land. He considered it a sound investment providing you did not get too much of it. He had never invested in any, or scarcely any, solely because he had not been in a realm where real estate propositions were talked of. As it was he was landless and, in a way, jobless.

Lester wasn’t convinced at first, but overall, he was interested in real estate opportunities. He liked land and thought it was a solid investment, as long as you didn't acquire too much of it. He had never really invested in any, mainly because he hadn't been in situations where real estate deals were discussed. As it stood, he was without land and, in a way, without a job.

He rather liked Mr. Ross and his way of doing business. It was easy to verify his statements, and he did verify them in several particulars. There were his signs out on the prairie stretches, and here were his ads in the daily papers. It seemed not a bad way at all in his idleness to start and make some money.

He really liked Mr. Ross and his approach to business. It was straightforward to check his claims, and he confirmed them in several ways. There were his signs spread out on the prairie, and here were his advertisements in the daily papers. It didn't seem like a bad idea at all to start making some money during his free time.

The trouble with Lester was that he had reached the time where he was not as keen for details as he had formerly been. All his work in recent years—in fact, from the very beginning—had been with large propositions, the purchasing of great quantities of supplies, the placing of large orders, the discussion of things which were wholesale and which had very little to do with the minor details which make up the special interests of the smaller traders of the world. In the factory his brother Robert had figured the pennies and nickels of labor-cost, had seen to it that all the little leaks were shut off. Lester had been left to deal with larger things, and he had consistently done so. When it came to this particular proposition his interest was in the wholesale phases of it, not the petty details of selling. He could not help seeing that Chicago was a growing city, and that land values must rise. What was now far-out prairie property would soon, in the course of a few years, be well built-up suburban residence territory. Scarcely any land that could be purchased now would fall in value. It might drag in sales or increase, but it couldn’t fall. Ross convinced him of this. He knew it of his own judgment to be true.

The issue with Lester was that he had reached a point where he wasn't as focused on details as he used to be. All his work in recent years—in fact, from the very beginning—had involved big projects, buying large quantities of supplies, placing significant orders, and discussing matters that were wholesale and had little to do with the specific interests of smaller traders. In the factory, his brother Robert handled the small details like labor costs and made sure all the little leaks were plugged. Lester was left to manage the bigger issues, and he had consistently done that. When it came to this particular project, he was more interested in the wholesale aspects than in the minor details of selling. He couldn’t help but notice that Chicago was a growing city and that land values would increase. What was now remote prairie land would soon, within a few years, become well-developed suburban residential areas. Almost any land that could be bought now wouldn’t decrease in value. It might take time to sell or even increase in value, but it wouldn’t drop. Ross convinced him of this. He knew it was true based on his own judgment.

The several things on which he did not speculate sufficiently were the life or health of Mr. Ross; the chance that some obnoxious neighborhood growth would affect the territory he had selected as residence territory; the fact that difficult money situations might reduce real estate values—in fact, bring about a flurry of real estate liquidation which would send prices crashing down and cause the failure of strong promoters, even such promoters for instance, as Mr. Samuel E. Ross.

The various things he didn’t think about enough were Mr. Ross’s life or health; the possibility that some undesirable development in the area could impact the land he chose to live on; and the reality that tough financial times might lower property values—potentially triggering a wave of property liquidations that would cause prices to plummet and lead to the downfall of even strong investors like Mr. Samuel E. Ross.

For several months he studied the situation as presented by his new guide and mentor, and then, having satisfied himself that he was reasonably safe, decided to sell some of the holdings which were netting him a beggarly six per cent, and invest in this new proposition. The first cash outlay was twenty thousand dollars for the land, which was taken over under an operative agreement between himself and Ross; this was run indefinitely—so long as there was any of this land left to sell. The next thing was to raise twelve thousand five hundred dollars for improvements, which he did, and then to furnish some twenty-five hundred dollars more for taxes and unconsidered expenses, items which had come up in carrying out the improvement work which had been planned. It seemed that hard and soft earth made a difference in grading costs, that trees would not always flourish as expected, that certain members of the city water and gas departments had to be “seen” and “fixed” before certain other improvements could be effected. Mr. Ross attended to all this, but the cost of the proceedings was something which had to be discussed, and Lester heard it all.

For several months, he analyzed the situation as presented by his new guide and mentor. Once he felt he was reasonably safe, he decided to sell some of his investments that were bringing in a meager six percent and invest in this new opportunity. The initial cash outlay was twenty thousand dollars for the land, which he and Ross managed under an operating agreement that would last indefinitely— as long as there was any of this land left to sell. Next, he needed to raise twelve thousand five hundred dollars for improvements, which he did, and then he needed to provide another twenty-five hundred dollars for taxes and unexpected expenses that arose during the improvement work he had planned. It turned out that hard and soft earth affected grading costs, trees wouldn’t always grow as expected, and certain people in the city water and gas departments needed to be “seen” and “fixed” before other improvements could happen. Mr. Ross took care of all this, but the cost of the proceedings was a topic that had to be discussed, and Lester was there to hear it all.

After the land was put in shape, about a year after the original conversation, it was necessary to wait until spring for the proper advertising and booming of the new section; and this advertising began to call at once for the third payment. Lester disposed of an additional fifteen thousand dollars worth of securities in order to follow this venture to its logical and profitable conclusion.

After the land was prepared, about a year after the initial conversation, it was necessary to wait until spring for the right marketing and promotion of the new section; and this marketing immediately called for the third payment. Lester sold an additional fifteen thousand dollars' worth of securities to pursue this venture to its logical and profitable conclusion.

Up to this time he was rather pleased with his venture. Ross had certainly been thorough and business-like in his handling of the various details. The land was put in excellent shape. It was given a rather attractive title—“Inwood,” although, as Lester noted, there was precious little wood anywhere around there. But Ross assured him that people looking for a suburban residence would be attracted by the name; seeing the vigorous efforts in tree-planting that had been made to provide for shade in the future, they would take the will for the deed. Lester smiled.

Up to this point, he was pretty happy with his project. Ross had definitely been thorough and professional in managing the various details. The land was in great shape. It was given a rather appealing name—“Inwood,” although, as Lester pointed out, there wasn't much wood anywhere nearby. But Ross assured him that people looking for a suburban home would be drawn in by the name; noticing the considerable efforts in tree planting that had been made for future shade, they would appreciate the intention. Lester smiled.

The first chill wind that blew upon the infant project came in the form of a rumor that the International Packing Company, one of the big constituent members of the packing house combination at Halstead and Thirty-ninth streets, had determined to desert the old group and lay out a new packing area for itself. The papers explained that the company intended to go farther south, probably below Fifty-fifth Street and west of Ashland Avenue. This was the territory that was located due west of Lester’s property, and the mere suspicion that the packing company might invade the territory was sufficient to blight the prospects of any budding real estate deal.

The first sign of trouble for the new project came from a rumor that the International Packing Company, one of the major members of the packing house group at Halstead and Thirty-ninth streets, was planning to leave the old group and establish a new packing area for itself. The news outlets reported that the company aimed to move further south, likely below Fifty-fifth Street and west of Ashland Avenue. This area was directly west of Lester’s property, and just the suggestion that the packing company might move into that territory was enough to ruin the chances of any new real estate deal.

Ross was beside himself with rage. He decided, after quick deliberation, that the best thing to do would be to boom the property heavily, by means of newspaper advertising, and see if it could not be disposed of before any additional damage was likely to be done to it. He laid the matter before Lester, who agreed that this would be advisable. They had already expended six thousand dollars in advertising, and now the additional sum of three thousand dollars was spent in ten days, to make it appear that In wood was an ideal residence section, equipped with every modern convenience for the home-lover, and destined to be one of the most exclusive and beautiful suburbs of the city. It was “no go.” A few lots were sold, but the rumor that the International Packing Company might come was persistent and deadly; from any point of view, save that of a foreign population neighborhood, the enterprise was a failure.

Ross was furious. After thinking it over quickly, he decided that the best way forward was to heavily promote the property through newspaper ads and see if they could sell it before any more damage was done. He discussed this with Lester, who agreed it was a smart move. They had already spent six thousand dollars on advertising, and now they poured an additional three thousand dollars into it in just ten days, trying to make it seem like Inwood was an ideal place to live, with all the modern conveniences for homebuyers, and set to become one of the city's most exclusive and beautiful suburbs. It didn’t work. A few lots were sold, but the ongoing rumor about the International Packing Company potentially moving in was persistent and damaging; from any perspective, except that of a neighborhood with a foreign population, the project was a flop.

To say that Lester was greatly disheartened by this blow is to put it mildly. Practically fifty thousand dollars, two-thirds of all his earthly possessions, outside of his stipulated annual income, was tied up here; and there were taxes to pay, repairs to maintain, actual depreciation in value to face. He suggested to Ross that the area might be sold at its cost value, or a loan raised on it, and the whole enterprise abandoned; but that experienced real estate dealer was not so sanguine. He had had one or two failures of this kind before. He was superstitious about anything which did not go smoothly from the beginning. If it didn’t go it was a hoodoo—a black shadow—and he wanted no more to do with it. Other real estate men, as he knew to his cost, were of the same opinion.

To say that Lester was really discouraged by this setback is an understatement. Almost fifty thousand dollars, two-thirds of all his possessions aside from his annual income, was tied up here; plus, he had taxes to pay, repairs to handle, and the actual drop in value to contend with. He suggested to Ross that they might sell the property at its cost value or take out a loan on it and abandon the whole project; but that seasoned real estate agent wasn’t that optimistic. He’d experienced one or two failures like this before. He was superstitious about anything that didn’t go smoothly from the start. If it didn’t work out, it felt like bad luck—a dark cloud—and he wanted nothing more to do with it. Other real estate agents, as he knew all too well, felt the same way.

Some three years later the property was sold under the sheriff’s hammer. Lester, having put in fifty thousand dollars all told, recovered a trifle more than eighteen thousand; and some of his wise friends assured him that he was lucky in getting off so easily.

About three years later, the property was sold at a sheriff's auction. Lester, who had invested a total of fifty thousand dollars, got back just over eighteen thousand; and some of his savvy friends told him he was fortunate to get off so easily.

CHAPTER L

While the real estate deal was in progress Mrs. Gerald decided to move to Chicago. She had been staying in Cincinnati for a few months, and had learned a great deal as to the real facts of Lester’s irregular mode of life. The question whether or not he was really married to Jennie remained an open one. The garbled details of Jennie’s early years, the fact that a Chicago paper had written him up as a young millionaire who was sacrificing his fortune for love of her, the certainty that Robert had practically eliminated him from any voice in the Kane Company, all came to her ears. She hated to think that Lester was making such a sacrifice of himself. He had let nearly a year slip by without doing anything. In two more years his chance would be gone. He had said to her in London that he was without many illusions. Was Jennie one? Did he really love her, or was he just sorry for her? Letty wanted very much to find out for sure.

While the real estate deal was underway, Mrs. Gerald decided to move to Chicago. She had been staying in Cincinnati for a few months and had learned a lot about the real facts of Lester’s unconventional lifestyle. The question of whether he was really married to Jennie was still unresolved. The mixed-up details of Jennie’s early years, the fact that a Chicago paper had written about him as a young millionaire sacrificing his fortune for her love, and the certainty that Robert had basically cut him out from any say in the Kane Company all reached her ears. She hated to think that Lester was making such a sacrifice for himself. He had let nearly a year go by without taking action. In two more years, his chance would be gone. He had told her in London that he was without many illusions. Was Jennie one of them? Did he really love her, or was he just feeling sorry for her? Letty really wanted to find out for sure.

The house that Mrs. Gerald leased in Chicago was a most imposing one on Drexel Boulevard. “I’m going to take a house in your town this winter, and I hope to see a lot of you,” she wrote to Lester. “I’m awfully bored with life here in Cincinnati. After Europe it’s so—well, you know. I saw Mrs. Knowles on Saturday. She asked after you. You ought to know that you have a loving friend in her. Her daughter is going to marry Jimmy Severance in the spring.”

The house that Mrs. Gerald rented in Chicago was really impressive on Drexel Boulevard. “I’m going to get a house in your town this winter, and I hope to see a lot of you,” she wrote to Lester. “I’m really bored with life here in Cincinnati. After Europe it’s so—well, you know. I saw Mrs. Knowles on Saturday. She asked about you. You should know that you have a caring friend in her. Her daughter is set to marry Jimmy Severance in the spring.”

Lester thought of her coming with mingled feelings of pleasure and uncertainty. She would be entertaining largely, of course. Would she foolishly begin by attempting to invite him and Jennie? Surely not. She must know the truth by this time. Her letter indicated as much. She spoke of seeing a lot of him. That meant that Jennie would have to be eliminated. He would have to make a clean breast of the whole affair to Letty. Then she could do as she pleased about their future intimacy. Seated in Letty’s comfortable boudoir one afternoon, facing a vision of loveliness in pale yellow, he decided that he might as well have it out with her. She would understand. Just at this time he was beginning to doubt the outcome of the real estate deal, and consequently he was feeling a little blue, and, as a concomitant, a little confidential. He could not as yet talk to Jennie about his troubles.

Lester thought about her coming with a mix of excitement and anxiety. She would be mostly entertaining, of course. Would she foolishly start by trying to invite him and Jennie? Surely not. She must know the truth by now. Her letter suggested as much. She mentioned seeing a lot of him. That meant Jennie would have to be left out. He would need to be completely honest with Letty. Then she could decide what to do about their future together. Sitting in Letty’s cozy room one afternoon, looking at a beautiful sight in pale yellow, he figured he might as well confront her. She would get it. At that moment, he was starting to doubt the real estate deal, and because of that, he was feeling a bit down, and naturally, a bit open. He couldn’t talk to Jennie about his problems yet.

“You know, Lester,” said Letty, by way of helping him to his confession—the maid had brought tea for her and some brandy and soda for him, and departed—“that I have been hearing a lot of things about you since I’ve been back in this country. Aren’t you going to tell me all about yourself? You know I have your real interests at heart.”

“You know, Lester,” Letty said to encourage him to confess—after the maid had brought her tea and him some brandy and soda, and then left—“that I’ve heard a lot about you since I came back to this country. Aren’t you going to tell me everything about yourself? You know I really care about your best interests.”

“What have you been hearing, Letty?” he asked, quietly.

“What have you been hearing, Letty?” he asked quietly.

“Oh, about your father’s will for one thing, and the fact that you’re out of the company, and some gossip about Mrs. Kane which doesn’t interest me very much. You know what I mean. Aren’t you going to straighten things out, so that you can have what rightfully belongs to you? It seems to me such a great sacrifice, Lester, unless, of course, you are very much in love. Are you?” she asked archly.

“Oh, about your dad’s will for one thing, and the fact that you’re out of the company, and some gossip about Mrs. Kane that I really don’t care about. You know what I’m talking about. Aren’t you going to fix things so you can get what’s rightfully yours? It feels like such a huge sacrifice, Lester, unless, of course, you’re really in love. Are you?” she asked playfully.

Lester paused and deliberated before replying. “I really don’t know how to answer that last question, Letty,” he said. “Sometimes I think that I love her; sometimes I wonder whether I do or not. I’m going to be perfectly frank with you. I was never in such a curious position in my life before. You like me so much, and I—well, I don’t say what I think of you,” he smiled. “But anyhow, I can talk to you frankly. I’m not married.”

Lester paused and thought before answering. “I really don’t know how to respond to that last question, Letty,” he said. “Sometimes I feel that I love her; other times I question if I really do. I’m going to be completely honest with you. I’ve never been in such a strange situation in my life before. You like me a lot, and I—well, I won’t say what I think of you,” he smiled. “But anyway, I can talk to you openly. I’m not married.”

“I thought as much,” she said, as he paused.

“I figured that,” she said, as he took a break.

“And I’m not married because I have never been able to make up my mind just what to do about it. When I first met Jennie I thought her the most entrancing girl I had ever laid eyes on.”

“And I’m not married because I’ve never been able to decide what to do about it. When I first met Jennie, I thought she was the most captivating girl I had ever seen.”

“That speaks volumes for my charms at that time,” interrupted his vis-a-vis.

“That says a lot about my charms back then,” interrupted his vis-a-vis.

“Don’t interrupt me if you want to hear this,” he smiled.

“Don’t interrupt me if you want to hear this,” he said with a smile.

“Tell me one thing,” she questioned, “and then I won’t. Was that in Cleveland?”

“Tell me one thing,” she asked, “and then I’ll drop it. Was that in Cleveland?”

“Yes.”

"Yep."

“So I heard,” she assented.

“Yeah, I heard,” she agreed.

“There was something about her so—”

“There was something about her so—”

“Love at first sight,” again interpolated Letty foolishly. Her heart was hurting her. “I know.”

“Love at first sight,” Letty foolishly interjected again. Her heart ached. “I know.”

“Are you going to let me tell this?”

“Are you going to let me share this?”

“Pardon me, Lester. I can’t help a twinge or two.”

“Excuse me, Lester. I can't help but feel a little uncomfortable.”

“Well, anyhow, I lost my head. I thought she was the most perfect thing under the sun, even if she was a little out of my world. This is a democratic country. I thought that I could just take her, and then—well, you know. That is where I made my mistake. I didn’t think that would prove as serious as it did. I never cared for any other woman but you before and—I’ll be frank—I didn’t know whether I wanted to marry you. I thought I didn’t want to marry any woman. I said to myself that I could just take Jennie, and then, after a while, when things had quieted down some, we could separate. She would be well provided for. I wouldn’t care very much. She wouldn’t care. You understand.”

“Well, anyway, I lost my mind. I thought she was the most perfect person ever, even if she was a bit out of my league. This is a democratic country. I figured I could just take her, and then—well, you know. That’s where I messed up. I didn’t think it would turn out to be as serious as it did. I never cared for any other woman but you before and—I’ll be honest—I wasn’t sure if I wanted to marry you. I told myself that I didn’t want to marry anyone. I thought I could just be with Jennie, and then, after a while, when things settled down a bit, we could go our separate ways. She’d be taken care of. I wouldn’t care much. She wouldn’t care. You get it.”

“Yes, I understand,” replied his confessor.

“Yeah, I get it,” replied his confessor.

“Well, you see, Letty, it hasn’t worked out that way. She’s a woman of a curious temperament. She possesses a world of feeling and emotion. She’s not educated in the sense in which we understand that word, but she has natural refinement and tact. She’s a good housekeeper. She’s an ideal mother. She’s the most affectionate creature under the sun. Her devotion to her mother and father was beyond words. Her love for her daughter—she’s hers, not mine—is perfect. She hasn’t any of the graces of the smart society woman. She isn’t quick at repartee. She can’t join in any rapid-fire conversation. She thinks rather slowly, I imagine. Some of her big thoughts never come to the surface at all, but you can feel that she is thinking and that she is feeling.”

“Well, you see, Letty, it hasn’t turned out that way. She’s a woman with a unique temperament. She has a lot of feeling and emotion. She’s not educated in the way we usually think of education, but she has natural refinement and tact. She’s a great housekeeper. She’s an ideal mother. She’s the most loving person you could ever meet. Her devotion to her parents was indescribable. Her love for her daughter—she’s hers, not mine—is perfect. She doesn’t have the charm of a typical socialite. She’s not quick with comebacks. She can’t keep up with fast-paced conversations. She thinks pretty slowly, I guess. Some of her deeper thoughts never really come out, but you can sense that she’s thinking and feeling deeply.”

“You pay her a lovely tribute, Lester,” said Letty.

“You're giving her a nice compliment, Lester,” Letty said.

“I ought to,” he replied. “She’s a good woman, Letty; but, for all that I have said, I sometimes think that it’s only sympathy that’s holding me.”

“I should,” he replied. “She’s a good woman, Letty; but despite everything I’ve said, I sometimes wonder if it’s just sympathy that’s keeping me here.”

“Don’t be too sure,” she said warningly.

“Don’t be too sure,” she said, sounding a warning.

“Yes, but I’ve gone through with a great deal. The thing for me to have done was to have married her in the first place. There have been so many entanglements since, so much rowing and discussion, that I’ve rather lost my bearings. This will of father’s complicates matters. I stand to lose eight hundred thousand if I marry her—really, a great deal more, now that the company has been organized into a trust. I might better say two millions. If I don’t marry her, I lose everything outright in about two more years. Of course, I might pretend that I have separated from her, but I don’t care to lie. I can’t work it out that way without hurting her feelings, and she’s been the soul of devotion. Right down in my heart, at this minute, I don’t know whether I want to give her up. Honestly, I don’t know what the devil to do.”

“Yes, but I've been through a lot. The thing I should have done was marry her in the first place. There have been so many complications since, so much fighting and discussion, that I've really lost my way. My father's will makes things even more complicated. I stand to lose eight hundred thousand if I marry her—actually, a lot more now that the company has been turned into a trust. I should say two million. If I don’t marry her, I lose everything outright in about two more years. Of course, I could pretend that I've separated from her, but I don’t want to lie. I can’t work that out without hurting her feelings, and she's been so devoted. Honestly, right now, deep down, I don’t know if I want to give her up. I seriously don’t know what the hell to do.”

Lester looked, lit a cigar in a far-off, speculative fashion, and looked out of the window.

Lester glanced over, lit a cigar absentmindedly, and stared out the window.

“Was there ever such a problem?” questioned Letty, staring at the floor. She rose, after a few moments of silence, and put her hands on his round, solid head. Her yellow, silken house-gown, faintly scented, touched his shoulders. “Poor Lester,” she said. “You certainly have tied yourself up in a knot. But it’s a Gordian knot, my dear, and it will have to be cut. Why don’t you discuss this whole thing with her, just as you have with me, and see how she feels about it?”

“Was there ever such a problem?” Letty asked, looking down at the floor. After a moment of silence, she stood up and placed her hands on his round, solid head. Her soft, yellow house gown, lightly scented, brushed against his shoulders. “Poor Lester,” she said. “You’ve really gotten yourself in a mess. But it’s a Gordian knot, my dear, and it needs to be untangled. Why don’t you talk this whole thing over with her, just like you did with me, and see how she feels about it?”

“It seems such an unkind thing to do,” he replied.

“It seems like such a mean thing to do,” he replied.

“You must take some action, Lester dear,” she insisted. “You can’t just drift. You are doing yourself such a great injustice. Frankly, I can’t advise you to marry her; and I’m not speaking for myself in that, though I’ll take you gladly, even if you did forsake me in the first place. I’ll be perfectly honest—whether you ever come to me or not—I love you, and always shall love you.”

“You need to do something, Lester dear,” she said firmly. “You can't just go with the flow. You're doing yourself a huge disservice. Honestly, I can’t recommend that you marry her; and I’m not saying that just because of my own feelings, though I would still take you back, even if you left me before. I’ll be completely honest—whether or not you ever come back to me—I love you, and I always will.”

“I know it,” said Lester, getting up. He took her hands in his, and studied her face curiously. Then he turned away. Letty paused to get her breath. His action discomposed her.

“I know it,” Lester said as he got up. He took her hands in his and looked at her face with curiosity. Then he turned away. Letty paused to catch her breath. His actions unsettled her.

“But you’re too big a man, Lester, to settle down on ten thousand a year,” she continued. “You’re too much of a social figure to drift. You ought to get back into the social and financial world where you belong. All that’s happened won’t injure you, if you reclaim your interest in the company. You can dictate your own terms. And if you tell her the truth she won’t object, I’m sure. If she cares for you, as you think she does, she will be glad to make this sacrifice. I’m positive of that. You can provide for her handsomely, of course.”

“But you’re too important, Lester, to settle for ten thousand a year,” she continued. “You’re too much of a social figure to just drift. You need to get back into the social and financial world where you belong. Everything that’s happened won’t harm you if you regain your interest in the company. You can set your own terms. And if you’re honest with her, I’m sure she won’t mind. If she genuinely cares for you, like you think she does, she’ll be happy to make this sacrifice. I’m certain of it. You can take good care of her, of course.”

“It isn’t the money that Jennie wants,” said Lester, gloomily.

“It’s not the money that Jennie wants,” Lester said, feeling down.

“Well, even if it isn’t, she can live without you and she can live better for having an ample income.”

“Well, even if it isn’t, she can get by without you and she can do better with a good income.”

“She will never want if I can help it,” he said solemnly.

“She will never go without as long as I can help it,” he said seriously.

“You must leave her,” she urged, with a new touch of decisiveness. “You must. Every day is precious with you, Lester! Why don’t you make up your mind to act at once—to-day, for that matter? Why not?”

“You need to leave her,” she insisted, with a new sense of determination. “You have to. Every day is valuable with you, Lester! Why don’t you decide to take action right now—today, in fact? Why not?”

“Not so fast,” he protested. “This is a ticklish business. To tell you the truth, I hate to do it. It seems so brutal—so unfair. I’m not one to run around and discuss my affairs with other people. I’ve refused to talk about this to any one heretofore—my father, my mother, any one. But somehow you have always seemed closer to me than any one else, and, since I met you this time, I have felt as though I ought to explain—I have really wanted to. I care for you. I don’t know whether you understand how that can be under the circumstances. But I do. You’re nearer to me intellectually and emotionally than I thought you were. Don’t frown. You want the truth, don’t you? Well, there you have it. Now explain me to myself, if you can.”

“Not so fast,” he said. “This is a tricky situation. Honestly, I hate to do this. It feels so harsh—so unfair. I’m not the type to run around and share my problems with others. I’ve refused to talk about this with anyone before—my father, my mother, anyone. But somehow you’ve always felt closer to me than anyone else, and since I met you this time, I’ve felt like I should explain—I really wanted to. I care about you. I don’t know if you get how that can be given the circumstances. But I do. You’re closer to me intellectually and emotionally than I realized. Don’t frown. You want the truth, right? Well, there it is. Now help me understand myself, if you can.”

“I don’t want to argue with you, Lester,” she said softly, laying her hand on his arm. “I merely want to love you. I understand quite well how it has all come about. I’m sorry for myself. I’m sorry for you. I’m sorry—” she hesitated—“for Mrs. Kane. She’s a charming woman. I like her. I really do. But she isn’t the woman for you, Lester; she really isn’t. You need another type. It seems so unfair for us two to discuss her in this way, but really it isn’t. We all have to stand on our merits. And I’m satisfied, if the facts in this case were put before her, as you have put them before me, she would see just how it all is, and agree. She can’t want to harm you. Why, Lester, if I were in her position I would let you go. I would, truly. I think you know that I would. Any good woman would. It would hurt me, but I’d do it. It will hurt her, but she’ll do it. Now, mark you my words, she will. I think I understand her as well as you do—better—for I am a woman. Oh,” she said, pausing, “I wish I were in a position to talk to her. I could make her understand.”

“I don’t want to argue with you, Lester,” she said softly, resting her hand on his arm. “I just want to love you. I get how everything has happened. I feel sorry for myself. I feel sorry for you. I feel sorry—” she paused—“for Mrs. Kane. She’s a lovely woman. I like her. I really do. But she isn’t the right woman for you, Lester; she really isn’t. You need someone else. It feels unfair for us to talk about her like this, but honestly, it’s not. We all need to be evaluated on our own merits. And I’m confident that if the facts in this situation were laid out for her, just as you’ve shared them with me, she would see how things really are and agree. She wouldn’t want to hurt you. You know, Lester, if I were in her shoes, I would let you go. I really would. I think you know that. Any good woman would. It would hurt me, but I’d do it. It will hurt her too, but she’ll do it. Now, mark my words, she will. I think I understand her as well as you do—better, because I’m a woman. Oh,” she said, pausing, “I wish I could talk to her. I could help her understand.”

Lester looked at Letty, wondering at her eagerness. She was beautiful, magnetic, immensely worth while.

Lester looked at Letty, surprised by her enthusiasm. She was beautiful, captivating, and incredibly worthwhile.

“Not so fast,” he repeated. “I want to think about this. I have some time yet.”

“Not so fast,” he said again. “I want to think this through. I still have some time.”

She paused, a little crestfallen but determined.

She paused, feeling a bit down but resolute.

“This is the time to act,” she repeated, her whole soul in her eyes. She wanted this man, and she was not ashamed to let him see that she wanted him.

“This is the time to act,” she repeated, her whole soul in her eyes. She wanted this man, and she wasn’t ashamed to let him know that she wanted him.

“Well, I’ll think of it,” he said uneasily, then, rather hastily, he bade her good-by and went away.

“Well, I’ll think about it,” he said awkwardly, then, somewhat quickly, he said goodbye and left.

CHAPTER LI

Lester had thought of his predicament earnestly enough, and he would have been satisfied to act soon if it had not been that one of those disrupting influences which sometimes complicate our affairs entered into his Hyde Park domicile. Gerhardt’s health began rapidly to fail.

Lester had thought about his situation seriously, and he would have been ready to take action soon if it hadn't been for one of those disruptive factors that sometimes complicate our lives that came into his Hyde Park home. Gerhardt's health started to deteriorate quickly.

Little by little he had been obliged to give up his various duties about the place; finally he was obliged to take to his bed. He lay in his room, devotedly attended by Jennie and visited constantly by Vesta, and occasionally by Lester. There was a window not far from his bed, which commanded a charming view of the lawn and one of the surrounding streets, and through this he would gaze by the hour, wondering how the world was getting on without him. He suspected that Woods, the coachman, was not looking after the horses and harnesses as well as he should, that the newspaper carrier was getting negligent in his delivery of the papers, that the furnace man was wasting coal, or was not giving them enough heat. A score of little petty worries, which were nevertheless real enough to him. He knew how a house should be kept. He was always rigid in his performance of his self-appointed duties, and he was so afraid that things would not go right. Jennie made for him a most imposing and sumptuous dressing-gown of basted wool, covered with dark-blue silk, and bought him a pair of soft, thick, wool slippers to match, but he did not wear them often. He preferred to lie in bed, read his Bible and the Lutheran papers, and ask Jennie how things were getting along.

Little by little, he had to give up his various responsibilities around the house; eventually, he was forced to stay in bed. He lay in his room, cared for by Jennie, who was always there, and visited constantly by Vesta and occasionally by Lester. There was a window near his bed that offered a lovely view of the lawn and one of the nearby streets, through which he would stare for hours, wondering how the world was managing without him. He suspected that Woods, the driver, wasn’t taking care of the horses and harnesses as he should, that the newspaper delivery guy was being careless with his deliveries, and that the furnace man was either wasting coal or not providing enough heat. A number of little worries that felt quite real to him. He knew how a house should be maintained. He was always strict about his self-assigned duties and worried that things wouldn’t go well. Jennie made him a very impressive and luxurious dressing gown out of soft wool, covered with dark blue silk, and bought him a pair of cozy, thick wool slippers to match, but he didn’t wear them often. He preferred to stay in bed, read his Bible and Lutheran papers, and ask Jennie how everything was going.

“I want you should go down in the basement and see what that feller is doing. He’s not giving us any heat,” he would complain. “I bet I know what he does. He sits down there and reads, and then he forgets what the fire is doing until it is almost out. The beer is right there where he can take it. You should lock it up. You don’t know what kind of a man he is. He may be no good.”

“I want you to go down to the basement and see what that guy is doing. He’s not giving us any heat,” he would complain. “I bet I know what he does. He just sits down there and reads, and then he forgets about the fire until it’s almost out. The beer is right there where he can grab it. You should lock it up. You don’t know what kind of guy he is. He might not be good.”

Jennie would protest that the house was fairly comfortable, that the man was a nice, quiet, respectable-looking American—that if he did drink a little beer it would not matter. Gerhardt would immediately become incensed.

Jennie would argue that the house was pretty comfortable, that the man was a nice, quiet, respectable-looking American—and that if he drank a little beer, it wouldn’t be a big deal. Gerhardt would instantly get angry.

“That is always the way,” he declared vigorously. “You have no sense of economy. You are always so ready to let things go if I am not there. He is a nice man! How do you know he is a nice man? Does he keep the fire up? No! Does he keep the walks clean? If you don’t watch him he will be just like the others, no good. You should go around and see how things are for yourself.”

"That's just how it is," he said emphatically. "You have no sense of responsibility. You're always so quick to let things slide when I'm not around. He seems like a nice guy! How do you know he's a nice guy? Does he keep the fire going? No! Does he keep the paths clean? If you don’t keep an eye on him, he'll end up just like the others, useless. You should go and check on things for yourself."

“All right, papa,” she would reply in a genial effort to soothe him, “I will. Please don’t worry. I’ll lock up the beer. Don’t you want a cup of coffee now and some toast?”

“All right, Dad,” she would respond in a friendly attempt to calm him down, “I will. Please don’t worry. I’ll lock up the beer. Don’t you want a cup of coffee now and some toast?”

“No,” Gerhardt would sigh immediately, “my stomach it don’t do right. I don’t know how I am going to come out of this.”

“No,” Gerhardt would sigh right away, “my stomach isn’t doing well. I don’t know how I’m going to get through this.”

Dr. Makin, the leading physician of the vicinity, and a man of considerable experience and ability, called at Jennie’s request and suggested a few simple things—hot milk, a wine tonic, rest, but he told Jennie that she must not expect too much. “You know he is quite well along in years now. He is quite feeble. If he were twenty years younger we might do a great deal for him. As it is he is quite well off where he is. He may live for some time. He may get up and be around again, and then he may not. We must all expect these things. I have never any care as to what may happen to me. I am too old myself.”

Dr. Makin, the top doctor in the area and a man with a lot of experience and skill, came by at Jennie's request and recommended a few simple things—hot milk, a wine tonic, and rest—but he told Jennie that she shouldn't get her hopes up too high. "You know he's getting on in years now. He’s pretty weak. If he were twenty years younger, we could do a lot for him. As it stands, he’s doing fairly well where he is. He might live for a while longer. He could get up and be active again, or he might not. We all need to be realistic about these things. I don’t worry about what might happen to me. I’m too old for that.”

Jennie felt sorry to think that her father might die, but she was pleased to think that if he must it was going to be under such comfortable circumstances. Here at least he could have every care.

Jennie felt sad thinking about her father possibly dying, but she was glad to consider that if it had to happen, it would be in such comfortable circumstances. Here, at least, he could have all the care he needed.

It soon became evident that this was Gerhardt’s last illness, and Jennie thought it her duty to communicate with her brothers and sisters. She wrote Bass that his father was not well, and had a letter from him saying that he was very busy and couldn’t come on unless the danger was an immediate one. He went on to say that George was in Rochester, working for a wholesale wall-paper house—the Sheff-Jefferson Company, he thought. Martha and her husband had gone to Boston. Her address was a little suburb named Belmont, just outside the city. William was in Omaha, working for a local electric company. Veronica was married to a man named Albert Sheridan, who was connected with a wholesale drug company in Cleveland. “She never comes to see me,” complained Bass, “but I’ll let her know.” Jennie wrote each one personally. From Veronica and Martha she received brief replies. They were very sorry, and would she let them know if anything happened. George wrote that he could not think of coming to Chicago unless his father was very ill indeed, but that he would like to be informed from time to time how he was getting along. William, as he told Jennie some time afterward, did not get her letter.

It quickly became clear that this was Gerhardt’s final illness, and Jennie felt it was her responsibility to reach out to her siblings. She wrote to Bass that their father was unwell, and he replied, saying he was very busy and couldn't come unless the situation became urgent. He mentioned that George was in Rochester, working for a wholesale wallpaper company—he thought it was the Sheff-Jefferson Company. Martha and her husband had gone to Boston, and her address was a small suburb called Belmont, just outside the city. William was in Omaha, working for a local electric company. Veronica was married to a man named Albert Sheridan, who was involved with a wholesale drug company in Cleveland. “She never comes to see me,” Bass complained, “but I’ll let her know.” Jennie wrote each one a personal note. From Veronica and Martha, she received short replies. They expressed their condolences and asked her to inform them if anything happened. George wrote that he couldn’t consider coming to Chicago unless their father was very ill, but he wanted to be updated on how he was doing. William, as he later told Jennie, never received her letter.

The progress of the old German’s malady toward final dissolution preyed greatly on Jennie’s mind; for, in spite of the fact that they had been so far apart in times past, they had now grown very close together. Gerhardt had come to realize clearly that his outcast daughter was goodness itself—at least, so far as he was concerned. She never quarreled with him, never crossed him in any way. Now that he was sick, she was in and out of his room a dozen times in an evening or an afternoon, seeing whether he was “all right,” asking how he liked his breakfast, or his lunch, or his dinner. As he grew weaker she would sit by him and read, or do her sewing in his room. One day when she was straightening his pillow he took her hand and kissed it. He was feeling very weak—and despondent. She looked up in astonishment, a lump in her throat. There were tears in his eyes.

The progress of the old German's illness toward its final stage weighed heavily on Jennie's mind; even though they had been distant in the past, they had grown very close now. Gerhardt had come to see clearly that his estranged daughter was truly good—at least in his eyes. She never argued with him and never opposed him in any way. Now that he was unwell, she was in and out of his room countless times in an evening or an afternoon, checking if he was “okay,” asking how he liked his breakfast, lunch, or dinner. As he grew weaker, she would sit by him and read or do her sewing in his room. One day, while she was adjusting his pillow, he took her hand and kissed it. He was feeling very weak and hopeless. She looked up in surprise, a lump forming in her throat. There were tears in his eyes.

“You’re a good girl, Jennie,” he said brokenly. “You’ve been good to me. I’ve been hard and cross, but I’m an old man. You forgive me, don’t you?”

“You're a good girl, Jennie,” he said softly. “You’ve been good to me. I've been tough and grumpy, but I'm an old man. You forgive me, right?”

“Oh, papa, please don’t,” she pleaded, tears welling from her eyes. “You know I have nothing to forgive. I’m the one who has been all wrong.”

“Oh, Dad, please don’t,” she begged, tears starting to fill her eyes. “You know I have nothing to forgive. I’m the one who’s been completely wrong.”

“No, no,” he said; and she sank down on her knees beside him and cried. He put his thin, yellow hand on her hair. “There, there,” he said brokenly, “I understand a lot of things I didn’t. We get wiser as we get older.”

“No, no,” he said; and she fell to her knees beside him and cried. He placed his thin, pale hand on her hair. “There, there,” he said softly, “I understand many things now that I didn’t before. We become wiser as we grow older.”

She left the room, ostensibly to wash her face and hands, and cried her eyes out. Was he really forgiving her at last? And she had lied to him so! She tried to be more attentive, but that was impossible. But after this reconciliation he seemed happier and more contented, and they spent a number of happy hours together, just talking. Once he said to her, “You know I feel just like I did when I was a boy. If it wasn’t for my bones I could get up and dance on the grass.”

She left the room, apparently to wash her face and hands, and cried her eyes out. Was he really forgiving her at last? And she had lied to him so much! She tried to be more attentive, but that felt impossible. However, after this reconciliation, he seemed happier and more content, and they spent several joyful hours together, just talking. Once he said to her, “You know, I feel just like I did when I was a kid. If it wasn’t for my bones, I could get up and dance on the grass.”

Jennie fairly smiled and sobbed in one breath. “You’ll get stronger, papa,” she said. “You’re going to get well. Then I’ll take you out driving.” She was so glad she had been able to make him comfortable these last few years.

Jennie smiled and cried at the same time. “You’re going to get stronger, Dad,” she said. “You’re going to be okay. Then I’ll take you out driving.” She was really happy she had been able to make him comfortable these past few years.

As for Lester, he was affectionate and considerate.

As for Lester, he was caring and thoughtful.

“Well, how is it to-night?” he would ask the moment he entered the house, and he would always drop in for a few minutes before dinner to see how the old man was getting along. “He looks pretty well,” he would tell Jennie. “He’s apt to live some time yet. I wouldn’t worry.”

“Well, how's it going tonight?” he would ask as soon as he walked in the house, and he would always stop by for a few minutes before dinner to check on how the old man was doing. “He seems to be doing pretty well,” he would tell Jennie. “He’s likely to stick around for a while longer. I wouldn’t stress about it.”

Vesta also spent much time with her grandfather, for she had come to love him dearly. She would bring her books, if it didn’t disturb him too much, and recite some of her lessons, or she would leave his door open, and play for him on the piano. Lester had bought her a handsome music-box also, which she would sometimes carry to his room and play for him. At times he wearied of everything and everybody save Jennie; he wanted to be alone with her. She would sit beside him quite still and sew. She could see plainly that the end was only a little way off.

Vesta also spent a lot of time with her grandfather because she had grown to love him deeply. She would bring her books, as long as it didn’t bother him too much, and recite some of her lessons, or she would leave his door open and play for him on the piano. Lester had also bought her a beautiful music box, which she would sometimes take to his room and play for him. At times, he got tired of everything and everyone except Jennie; he wanted to be alone with her. She would sit beside him quietly and sew. She could clearly see that the end was only a short distance away.

Gerhardt, true to his nature, took into consideration all the various arrangements contingent upon his death. He wished to be buried in the little Lutheran cemetery, which was several miles farther out on the South Side, and he wanted the beloved minister of his church to officiate.

Gerhardt, staying true to himself, thought about all the different plans related to his death. He wanted to be buried in the small Lutheran cemetery, which was a few miles further out on the South Side, and he wanted the cherished minister of his church to lead the service.

“I want everything plain,” he said. “Just my black suit and those Sunday shoes of mine, and that black string tie. I don’t want anything else. I will be all right.”

“I want everything simple,” he said. “Just my black suit and those Sunday shoes, and that black string tie. I don’t want anything else. I'll be fine.”

Jennie begged him not to talk of it, but he would. One day at four o’clock he had a sudden sinking spell, and at five he was dead. Jennie held his hands, watching his labored breathing; once or twice he opened his eyes to smile at her. “I don’t mind going,” he said, in this final hour. “I’ve done what I could.”

Jennie pleaded with him not to talk about it, but he did anyway. One day at four o’clock, he suddenly felt weak, and by five, he was gone. Jennie held his hands, watching him struggle to breathe; a few times, he opened his eyes to smile at her. “I don’t mind leaving,” he said in these last moments. “I’ve done my best.”

“Don’t talk of dying, papa,” she pleaded.

“Don’t talk about dying, Dad,” she begged.

“It’s the end,” he said. “You’ve been good to me. You’re a good woman.”

“It’s over,” he said. “You’ve been great to me. You’re an amazing woman.”

She heard no other words from his lips.

She didn't hear anything else come from his lips.

The finish which time thus put to this troubled life affected Jennie deeply. Strong in her kindly, emotional relationships, Gerhardt had appealed to her not only as her father, but as a friend and counselor. She saw him now in his true perspective, a hard-working, honest, sincere old German, who had done his best to raise a troublesome family and lead an honest life. Truly she had been his one great burden, and she had never really dealt truthfully with him to the end. She wondered now if where he was he could see that she had lied. And would he forgive her? He had called her a good woman.

The end that time brought to this troubled life affected Jennie deeply. Strong in her kind, emotional connections, Gerhardt had appealed to her not just as her father but also as a friend and advisor. She now saw him clearly, a hardworking, honest, sincere old German who had done his best to raise a difficult family and live an honest life. She realized that she had been his biggest burden, and she had never truly been honest with him until the end. Now, she wondered if he could see from wherever he was that she had lied. Would he forgive her? He had always called her a good woman.

Telegrams were sent to all the children. Bass wired that he was coming, and arrived the next day. The others wired that they could not come, but asked for details, which Jennie wrote. The Lutheran minister was called in to say prayers and fix the time of the burial service. A fat, smug undertaker was commissioned to arrange all the details. Some few neighborhood friends called—those who had remained most faithful—and on the second morning following his death the services were held. Lester accompanied Jennie and Vesta and Bass to the little red brick Lutheran church, and sat stolidly through the rather dry services. He listened wearily to the long discourse on the beauties and rewards of a future life and stirred irritably when reference was made to a hell. Bass was rather bored, but considerate. He looked upon his father now much as he would on any other man. Only Jennie wept sympathetically. She saw her father in perspective, the long years of trouble he had had, the days in which he had had to saw wood for a living, the days in which he had lived in a factory loft, the little shabby house they had been compelled to live in in Thirteenth Street, the terrible days of suffering they had spent in Lorrie Street, in Cleveland, his grief over her, his grief over Mrs. Gerhardt, his love and care of Vesta, and finally these last days.

Telegrams were sent to all the kids. Bass texted that he was coming, and arrived the next day. The others messaged that they couldn’t come, but asked for details, which Jennie wrote down. The Lutheran minister was called in to say prayers and set the time for the burial service. A plump, self-satisfied undertaker was hired to handle all the arrangements. A few neighborhood friends dropped by—those who had stayed most loyal—and on the morning after his death, the services took place. Lester went with Jennie, Vesta, and Bass to the small red brick Lutheran church, and sat silently through the rather dull service. He half-heartedly listened to the lengthy speech about the beauty and rewards of an afterlife and felt annoyed when hell was mentioned. Bass found it pretty boring, but he was considerate. He viewed his father now much like he would any other man. Only Jennie cried sympathetically. She remembered her father in perspective, the many years of struggles he had faced, the days he had to chop wood to make a living, the times they lived in a factory loft, the little rundown house they had to stay in on Thirteenth Street, the awful days of hardship they endured on Lorrie Street in Cleveland, his sadness over her, his sorrow over Mrs. Gerhardt, his love and care for Vesta, and finally these last days.

“Oh, he was a good man,” she thought. “He meant so well.” They sang a hymn, “A Mighty Fortress Is Our God,” and then she sobbed.

“Oh, he was a good man,” she thought. “He had such good intentions.” They sang a hymn, “A Mighty Fortress Is Our God,” and then she broke down in tears.

Lester pulled at her arm. He was moved to the danger-line himself by her grief. “You’ll have to do better than this,” he whispered. “My God, I can’t stand it. I’ll have to get up and get out.” Jennie quieted a little, but the fact that the last visible ties were being broken between her and her father was almost too much.

Lester tugged at her arm. Her sorrow pushed him to the edge too. “You need to do better than this,” he whispered. “My God, I can’t take it. I need to get up and leave.” Jennie calmed down a bit, but the reality that the last visible ties between her and her father were being severed was nearly unbearable.

At the grave in the Cemetery of the Redeemer, where Lester had immediately arranged to purchase a lot, they saw the plain coffin lowered and the earth shoveled in. Lester looked curiously at the bare trees, the brown dead grass, and the brown soil of the prairie turned up at this simple graveside. There was no distinction to this burial plot. It was commonplace and shabby, a working-man’s resting-place, but so long as he wanted it, it was all right. He studied Bass’s keen, lean face, wondering what sort of a career he was cutting out for himself. Bass looked to him like some one who would run a cigar store successfully. He watched Jennie wiping her red eyes, and then he said to himself again, “Well, there is something to her.” The woman’s emotion was so deep, so real. “There’s no explaining a good woman,” he said to himself.

At the grave in the Cemetery of the Redeemer, where Lester had quickly arranged to buy a plot, they watched the plain coffin being lowered and the dirt shoveled in. Lester took a look around at the bare trees, the brown dead grass, and the brown soil of the prairie at this simple graveside. There was nothing special about this burial spot. It was ordinary and rundown, a working-class person’s resting place, but as long as he wanted it, that was fine. He observed Bass’s sharp, lean face, wondering what kind of career he was building for himself. Bass struck him as someone who would successfully run a cigar store. He saw Jennie wiping her red eyes, and then he thought to himself again, “Well, there’s something to her.” The woman’s emotion was so deep, so genuine. “You can’t explain a good woman,” he mused.

On the way home, through the wind-swept, dusty streets, he talked of life in general, Bass and Vesta being present. “Jennie takes things too seriously,” he said. “She’s inclined to be morbid. Life isn’t as bad as she makes out with her sensitive feelings. We all have our troubles, and we all have to stand them, some more, some less. We can’t assume that any one is so much better or worse off than any one else. We all have our share of troubles.”

On the way home, through the windy, dusty streets, he talked about life in general, with Bass and Vesta there. “Jennie takes things too seriously,” he said. “She tends to be a bit gloomy. Life isn’t as bad as she makes it seem with her sensitive feelings. We all have our struggles, and we all have to deal with them, some more than others. We can’t assume that anyone is significantly better or worse off than anyone else. We all have our share of problems.”

“I can’t help it,” said Jennie. “I feel so sorry for some people.”

“I can't help it,” Jennie said. “I really feel for some people.”

“Jennie always was a little gloomy,” put in Bass.

“Jennie was always a bit down,” added Bass.

He was thinking what a fine figure of a man Lester was, how beautifully they lived, how Jennie had come up in the world. He was thinking that there must be a lot more to her than he had originally thought. Life surely did turn out queer. At one time he thought Jennie was a hopeless failure and no good.

He was reflecting on what a great guy Lester was, how wonderfully they lived, and how Jennie had really improved her situation. He realized there must be a lot more to her than he had initially believed. Life definitely turned out to be surprising. At one point, he thought Jennie was a total failure and no good at all.

“You ought to try to steel yourself to take things as they come without going to pieces this way,” said Lester finally.

“You should try to prepare yourself to take things as they come without falling apart like this,” Lester finally said.

Bass thought so too.

Bass agreed.

Jennie stared thoughtfully out of the carriage window. There was the old house now, large and silent without Gerhardt. Just think, she would never see him any more. They finally turned into the drive and entered the library. Jeannette, nervous and sympathetic, served tea. Jennie went to look after various details. She wondered curiously where she would be when she died.

Jennie stared thoughtfully out of the carriage window. There was the old house now, big and quiet without Gerhardt. Just think, she would never see him again. They finally turned into the drive and entered the library. Jeannette, looking nervous and sympathetic, served tea. Jennie went to take care of various details. She wondered with curiosity where she would be when she died.

CHAPTER LII

The fact that Gerhardt was dead made no particular difference to Lester, except as it affected Jennie. He had liked the old German for his many sterling qualities, but beyond that he thought nothing of him one way or the other. He took Jennie to a watering-place for ten days to help her recover her spirits, and it was soon after this that he decided to tell her just how things stood with him; he would put the problem plainly before her. It would be easier now, for Jennie had been informed of the disastrous prospects of the real-estate deal. She was also aware of his continued interest in Mrs. Gerald. Lester did not hesitate to let Jennie know that he was on very friendly terms with her. Mrs. Gerald had, at first, formally requested him to bring Jennie to see her, but she never had called herself, and Jennie understood quite clearly that it was not to be. Now that her father was dead, she was beginning to wonder what was going to become of her; she was afraid that Lester might not marry her. Certainly he showed no signs of intending to do so.

The fact that Gerhardt was dead didn’t really affect Lester much, except for how it impacted Jennie. He had liked the old German for his many good qualities, but other than that, he didn’t think much about him either way. He took Jennie to a resort for ten days to help lift her spirits, and it was shortly after this that he decided to be straightforward with her about his situation; he would lay everything out clearly for her. It would be easier now since Jennie had been told about the bleak outlook of the real estate deal. She was also aware of his ongoing interest in Mrs. Gerald. Lester didn’t shy away from letting Jennie know that he was on friendly terms with her. Mrs. Gerald had initially asked him to bring Jennie to meet her, but she had never called herself, and Jennie understood quite well that it wasn’t going to happen. Now that her father was gone, she was starting to worry about her future; she feared that Lester might not marry her. He certainly didn’t show any signs that he planned to do so.

By one of those curious coincidences of thought, Robert also had reached the conclusion that something should be done. He did not, for one moment, imagine that he could directly work upon Lester—he did not care to try—but he did think that some influence might be brought to bear on Jennie. She was probably amenable to reason. If Lester had not married her already, she must realize full well that he did not intend to do so. Suppose that some responsible third person were to approach her, and explain how things were, including, of course, the offer of an independent income? Might she not be willing to leave Lester, and end all this trouble? After all, Lester was his brother, and he ought not to lose his fortune. Robert had things very much in his own hands now, and could afford to be generous. He finally decided that Mr. O’Brien, of Knight, Keatley & O’Brien, would be the proper intermediary, for O’Brien was suave, good-natured, and well-meaning, even if he was a lawyer. He might explain to Jennie very delicately just how the family felt, and how much Lester stood to lose if he continued to maintain his connection with her. If Lester had married Jennie, O’Brien would find it out. A liberal provision would be made for her—say fifty or one hundred thousand, or even one hundred and fifty thousand dollars. He sent for Mr. O’Brien and gave him his instructions. As one of the executors of Archibald Kane’s estate, it was really the lawyer’s duty to look into the matter of Lester’s ultimate decision.

By one of those strange coincidences of thought, Robert had also reached the conclusion that something needed to be done. He didn’t think for a second that he could directly influence Lester—he didn’t want to try—but he believed that some influence could be exerted on Jennie. She was probably open to reason. If Lester hadn’t married her yet, she must clearly realize that he didn’t intend to. What if a responsible third party approached her and explained how things were, including the offer of an independent income? Wouldn’t she be willing to leave Lester and end all this trouble? After all, Lester was his brother, and he shouldn’t lose his fortune. Robert had things pretty much under control now and could afford to be generous. He finally decided that Mr. O’Brien, of Knight, Keatley & O’Brien, would be the right intermediary because O’Brien was smooth, good-natured, and well-meaning, even if he was a lawyer. He could delicately explain to Jennie how the family felt and how much Lester stood to lose if he continued his relationship with her. If Lester had married Jennie, O’Brien would find out. A generous settlement would be made for her—maybe fifty or one hundred thousand, or even one hundred and fifty thousand dollars. He sent for Mr. O’Brien and gave him his instructions. As one of the executors of Archibald Kane’s estate, it was really the lawyer’s duty to look into Lester’s ultimate decision.

Mr. O’Brien journeyed to Chicago. On reaching the city, he called up Lester, and found out to his satisfaction that he was out of town for the day. He went out to the house in Hyde Park, and sent in his card to Jennie. She came down-stairs in a few minutes quite unconscious of the import of his message; he greeted her most blandly.

Mr. O’Brien traveled to Chicago. Upon arriving in the city, he called Lester and was pleased to find out he was out of town for the day. He went to the house in Hyde Park and sent in his card to Jennie. She came downstairs a few minutes later, completely unaware of the meaning behind his message; he greeted her very nicely.

“This is Mrs. Kane?” he asked, with an interlocutory jerk of his head.

“This is Mrs. Kane?” he asked, with a quick nod of his head.

“Yes,” replied Jennie.

"Yeah," replied Jennie.

“I am, as you see by my card, Mr. O’Brien, of Knight, Keatley & O’Brien,” he began. “We are the attorneys and executors of the late Mr. Kane, your—ah—Mr. Kane’s father. You’ll think it’s rather curious, my coming to you, but under your husband’s father’s will there were certain conditions stipulated which affect you and Mr. Kane very materially. These provisions are so important that I think you ought to know about them—that is if Mr. Kane hasn’t already told you. I—pardon me—but the peculiar nature of them makes me conclude that—possibly—he hasn’t.” He paused, a very question-mark of a man—every feature of his face an interrogation.

“I am, as you can see from my card, Mr. O’Brien, from Knight, Keatley & O’Brien,” he began. “We are the attorneys and executors of the late Mr. Kane, your—uh—Mr. Kane’s father. You might find it a bit strange that I’m here, but under your husband’s father’s will, there are certain conditions that significantly affect both you and Mr. Kane. These provisions are so important that I think you should be informed about them—unless Mr. Kane has already shared this with you. I—excuse me—but the unusual nature of them makes me believe that—perhaps—he hasn’t.” He paused, a man full of questions—every expression on his face seemed to ask something.

“I don’t quite understand,” said Jennie. “I don’t know anything about the will. If there’s anything that I ought to know, I suppose Mr. Kane will tell me. He hasn’t told me anything as yet.”

“I don’t really get it,” Jennie said. “I don’t know anything about the will. If there’s something I should know, I guess Mr. Kane will let me know. He hasn’t told me anything so far.”

“Ah!” breathed Mr. O’Brien, highly gratified. “Just as I thought. Now, if you will allow me I’ll go into the matter briefly. Then you can judge for yourself whether you wish to hear the full particulars. Won’t you sit down?” They had both been standing. Jennie seated herself, and Mr. O’Brien pulled up a chair near to hers.

“Ah!” sighed Mr. O’Brien, feeling very pleased. “Just as I suspected. Now, if you don’t mind, I’ll go over the matter briefly. Then you can decide for yourself if you want to hear all the details. Please, have a seat.” They had both been standing. Jennie sat down, and Mr. O’Brien brought a chair closer to hers.

“Now to begin,” he said. “I need not say to you, of course, that there was considerable opposition on the part of Mr. Kane’s father, to this—ah—union between yourself and his son.”

“Now to start,” he said. “I don’t need to tell you, of course, that Mr. Kane’s father was quite opposed to this—uh—union between you and his son.”

“I know—” Jennie started to say, but checked herself. She was puzzled, disturbed, and a little apprehensive.

“I know—” Jennie began to say, but stopped herself. She felt confused, unsettled, and a bit anxious.

“Before Mr. Kane senior died,” he went on, “he indicated to your—ah—to Mr. Lester Kane, that he felt this way. In his will he made certain conditions governing the distribution of his property which made it rather hard for his son, your—ah—husband, to come into his rightful share. Ordinarily, he would have inherited one-fourth of the Kane Manufacturing Company, worth to-day in the neighborhood of a million dollars, perhaps more; also one-fourth of the other properties, which now aggregate something like five hundred thousand dollars. I believe Mr. Kane senior was really very anxious that his son should inherit this property. But owing to the conditions which your—ah—which Mr. Kane’s father made, Mr. Lester Kane cannot possibly obtain his share, except by complying with a—with a—certain wish which his father had expressed.”

“Before Mr. Kane senior passed away,” he continued, “he indicated to your—uh—Mr. Lester Kane, that he felt this way. In his will, he set specific conditions for distributing his property that made it rather difficult for his son, your—uh—husband, to receive his rightful share. Normally, he would have inherited one-fourth of the Kane Manufacturing Company, which is worth around a million dollars today, maybe even more; as well as one-fourth of the other properties, which now total about five hundred thousand dollars. I believe Mr. Kane senior was genuinely very eager for his son to inherit this property. However, due to the conditions that your—uh—Mr. Kane’s father established, Mr. Lester Kane can’t possibly access his share without complying with a—well—a—certain wish that his father expressed.”

Mr. O’Brien paused, his eyes moving back and forth side wise in their sockets. In spite of the natural prejudice of the situation, he was considerably impressed with Jennie’s pleasing appearance. He could see quite plainly why Lester might cling to her in the face of all opposition. He continued to study her furtively as he sat there waiting for her to speak.

Mr. O’Brien paused, his eyes darting back and forth in their sockets. Despite the natural bias of the situation, he was quite impressed by Jennie’s attractive appearance. He could clearly understand why Lester would hold onto her despite all the opposition. He kept studying her secretly as he sat there waiting for her to say something.

“And what was that wish?” she finally asked, her nerves becoming just a little tense under the strain of the silence.

“And what was that wish?” she finally asked, her nerves tightening a bit with the pressure of the silence.

“I am glad you were kind enough to ask me that,” he went on. “The subject is a very difficult one for me to introduce—very difficult. I come as an emissary of the estate, I might say as one of the executors under the will of Mr. Kane’s father. I know how keenly your—ah—how keenly Mr. Kane feels about it. I know how keenly you will probably feel about it. But it is one of those very difficult things which cannot be helped—which must be got over somehow. And while I hesitate very much to say so, I must tell you that Mr. Kane senior stipulated in his will that unless, unless”—again his eyes were moving sidewise to and fro—“he saw fit to separate from—ah—you” he paused to get breath—“he could not inherit this or any other sum or, at least, only a very minor income of ten thousand a year; and that only on condition that he should marry you.” He paused again. “I should add,” he went on, “that under the will he was given three years in which to indicate his intentions. That time is now drawing to a close.”

“I’m glad you asked me that,” he continued. “It’s a really tough topic for me to bring up—very tough. I’m here as a representative of the estate, as one of the executors under Mr. Kane’s father’s will. I know how strongly Mr. Kane feels about this. I understand how strongly you’re likely to feel about it too. But it’s one of those really difficult things that can’t be avoided and has to be faced somehow. And even though I’m hesitant to say this, I need to let you know that Mr. Kane’s father specified in his will that unless—unless”—he glanced around nervously—“he chose to separate from—ah—you”—he paused to collect himself—“he wouldn’t inherit this amount or any other, or at least just a very small income of ten thousand a year; and that would only be if he married you.” He paused again. “I should mention,” he added, “that the will allowed him three years to declare his intentions. That time is now almost up.”

He paused, half expecting some outburst of feeling from Jennie, but she only looked at him fixedly, her eyes clouded with surprise, distress, unhappiness. Now she understood. Lester was sacrificing his fortune for her. His recent commercial venture was an effort to rehabilitate himself, to put himself in an independent position. The recent periods of preoccupation, of subtle unrest, and of dissatisfaction over which she had grieved were now explained. He was unhappy, he was brooding over this prospective loss, and he had never told her. So his father had really disinherited him!

He paused, half expecting Jennie to react emotionally, but she just stared at him, her eyes filled with surprise, distress, and unhappiness. Now she got it. Lester was giving up his fortune for her. His recent business endeavor was an attempt to rebuild his life, to become independent. The times he seemed preoccupied, restless, and unhappy, which had worried her, now made sense. He was upset, troubled by the loss he faced, and he had never shared it with her. So his father really had cut him off!

Mr. O’Brien sat before her, troubled himself. He was very sorry for her, now that he saw the expression of her face. Still the truth had to come out. She ought to know.

Mr. O’Brien sat in front of her, feeling troubled himself. He felt really sorry for her now that he could see the look on her face. Still, the truth had to be revealed. She needed to know.

“I’m sorry,” he said, when he saw that she was not going to make any immediate reply, “that I have been the bearer of such unfortunate news. It is a very painful situation that I find myself in at this moment, I assure you. I bear you no ill will personally—of course you understand that. The family really bears you no ill will now—I hope you believe that. As I told your—ah—as I told Mr. Kane, at the time the will was read, I considered it most unfair, but, of course, as a mere executive under it and counsel for his father, I could do nothing. I really think it best that you should know how things stand, in order that you may help your—your husband”—he paused, significantly—“if possible, to some solution. It seems a pity to me, as it does to the various other members of his family, that he should lose all this money.”

“I’m sorry,” he said, noticing that she wasn’t going to respond right away. “I didn’t want to bring you such bad news. This is a really tough situation for me, I promise you. I don’t hold any personal resentment toward you—of course, you get that. The family doesn’t hold anything against you either—I hope you believe that. As I told your—uh—Mr. Kane when the will was read, I thought it was very unfair, but as just an executor and counsel for his father, I had no power to change anything. I really think it’s best that you know how things are, so you can help your—your husband”—he paused for emphasis—“if you can, find a solution. It seems a shame to me, as it does to several other family members, that he should lose all this money.”

Jennie had turned her head away and was staring at the floor. She faced him now steadily. “He mustn’t lose it,” she said; “it isn’t fair that he should.”

Jennie had turned her head away and was staring at the floor. She faced him now steadily. “He can't lose it,” she said; “it's not fair that he should.”

“I am most delighted to hear you say that, Mrs.—Mrs. Kane,” he went on, using for the first time her improbable title as Lester’s wife, without hesitation. “I may as well be very frank with you, and say that I feared you might take this information in quite another spirit. Of course you know to begin with that the Kane family is very clannish. Mrs. Kane, your—ah—your husband’s mother, was a very proud and rather distant woman, and his sisters and brothers are rather set in their notions as to what constitute proper family connections. They look upon his relationship to you as irregular, and—pardon me if I appear to be a little cruel—as not generally satisfactory. As you know, there had been so much talk in the last few years that Mr. Kane senior did not believe that the situation could ever be nicely adjusted, so far as the family was concerned. He felt that his son had not gone about it right in the first place. One of the conditions of his will was that if your husband—pardon me—if his son did not accept the proposition in regard to separating from you and taking up his rightful share of the estate, then to inherit anything at all—the mere ten thousand a year I mentioned before—he must—ah—he must pardon me, I seem a little brutal, but not intentionally so—marry you.”

“I’m really glad to hear you say that, Mrs.—Mrs. Kane,” he continued, using her unexpected title as Lester’s wife for the first time without hesitation. “I might as well be completely honest with you and say that I worried you might take this news in a different way. Of course, you know right off that the Kane family is very close-knit. Mrs. Kane, your—um—your husband’s mother, was a very proud and somewhat aloof woman, and his siblings have strong opinions about what makes proper family connections. They view his relationship with you as unusual and—excuse me if I sound a bit harsh—as not typically acceptable. As you know, there’s been so much discussion in recent years that Mr. Kane Sr. didn't believe the situation could ever be resolved satisfactorily for the family. He felt that his son didn’t handle things correctly from the start. One of the conditions of his will was that if your husband—sorry, if his son didn’t agree to the terms about separating from you and claiming his rightful share of the estate, then to inherit anything at all—the mere ten thousand a year I mentioned earlier—he must—um—I apologize if I seem a bit brutal, but it isn’t intentional—marry you.”

Jennie winced. It was such a cruel thing to say this to her face. This whole attempt to live together illegally had proved disastrous at every step. There was only one solution to the unfortunate business—she could see that plainly. She must leave him, or he must leave her. There was no other alternative. Lester living on ten thousand dollars a year! It seemed silly.

Jennie flinched. It was so harsh to say that to her face. This whole attempt to live together without being legal had only turned out badly at every turn. There was just one clear solution to this unfortunate situation—she could see that clearly. She had to leave him, or he had to leave her. There was no other option. Lester living on ten thousand dollars a year! It seemed ridiculous.

Mr. O’Brien was watching her curiously. He was thinking that Lester both had and had not made a mistake. Why had he not married her in the first place? She was charming.

Mr. O’Brien was watching her with interest. He was considering that Lester had both made a mistake and not made a mistake. Why hadn’t he married her in the first place? She was delightful.

“There is just one other point which I wish to make in this connection, Mrs. Kane,” he went on softly and easily. “I see now that it will not make any difference to you, but I am commissioned and in a way constrained to make it. I hope you will take it in the manner in which it is given. I don’t know whether you are familiar with your husband’s commercial interests or not?”

“There’s just one more thing I want to mention, Mrs. Kane,” he said gently and casually. “I realize now that it won’t really matter to you, but I have been asked and somewhat pressured to say it. I hope you’ll receive it in the spirit it’s intended. I’m not sure if you’re aware of your husband’s business interests or not?”

“No,” said Jennie simply.

“No,” Jennie said plainly.

“Well, in order to simplify matters, and to make it easier for you, should you decide to assist your husband to a solution of this very difficult situation—frankly, in case you might possibly decide to leave on your own account, and maintain a separate establishment of your own I am delighted to say that—ah—any sum, say—ah—”

“Well, to make things simpler and easier for you, if you decide to help your husband figure out this really tough situation—honestly, in case you might think about leaving on your own and setting up your own place, I’m happy to say that—um—any amount, let’s say—um—”

Jennie rose and walked dazedly to one of the windows, clasping her hands as she went. Mr. O’Brien rose also.

Jennie got up and walked in a daze to one of the windows, holding her hands together as she went. Mr. O’Brien got up too.

“Well, be that as it may. In the event of your deciding to end the connection it has been suggested that any reasonable sum you might name, fifty, seventy-five, a hundred thousand dollars”—Mr. O’Brien was feeling very generous toward her—“would be gladly set aside for your benefit—put in trust, as it were, so that you would have it whenever you needed it. You would never want for anything.”

“Well, that is what it is. If you decide to end the relationship, it's been suggested that any fair amount you might mention—fifty, seventy-five, a hundred thousand dollars”—Mr. O’Brien was feeling quite generous toward her—“would be happily set aside for your benefit—put in trust, so you would have access to it whenever you needed it. You would never lack for anything.”

“Please don’t,” said Jennie, hurt beyond the power to express herself, unable mentally and physically to listen to another word. “Please don’t say any more. Please go away. Let me alone now, please. I can go away. I will. It will be arranged. But please don’t talk to me any more, will you?”

“Please don’t,” Jennie said, feeling too hurt to express herself, unable to listen to another word mentally or physically. “Please don’t say anything else. Just go away. Leave me alone now, please. I can leave. I will. It’ll be sorted out. But please don’t talk to me anymore, okay?”

“I understand how you feel, Mrs. Kane,” went on Mr. O’Brien, coming to a keen realization of her sufferings. “I know exactly, believe me. I have said all I intend to say. It has been very hard for me to do this—very hard. I regret the necessity. You have my card. Please note the name. I will come any time you suggest, or you can write me. I will not detain you any longer. I am sorry. I hope you will see fit to say nothing to your husband of my visit—it will be advisable that you should keep your own counsel in the matter. I value his friendship very highly, and I am sincerely sorry.”

“I understand how you feel, Mrs. Kane,” Mr. O’Brien continued, realizing her pain. “I know exactly how you feel, believe me. I've said all I need to say. This has been really difficult for me—very difficult. I regret that it’s necessary. You have my card. Please take note of my name. I can come by whenever you suggest, or you can write to me. I won't keep you any longer. I'm sorry. I hope you can keep my visit to yourself and not tell your husband about it—it would be best to keep this private. I truly value his friendship, and I’m genuinely sorry.”

Jennie only stared at the floor.

Jennie just stared at the floor.

Mr. O’Brien went out into the hall to get his coat. Jennie touched the electric button to summon the maid, and Jeannette came. Jennie went back into the library, and Mr. O’Brien paced briskly down the front walk. When she was really alone she put her doubled hands to her chin, and stared at the floor, the queer design of the silken Turkish rug resolving itself into some curious picture. She saw herself in a small cottage somewhere, alone with Vesta; she saw Lester living in another world, and beside him Mrs. Gerald. She saw this house vacant, and then a long stretch of time, and then—

Mr. O’Brien stepped into the hallway to grab his coat. Jennie pressed the button to call the maid, and Jeannette arrived. Jennie returned to the library while Mr. O’Brien walked quickly down the front path. Once she was truly alone, she rested her doubled hands on her chin and stared at the floor, the strange pattern of the silk Turkish rug transforming into a curious image. She imagined herself in a small cottage somewhere, alone with Vesta; she envisioned Lester living in another realm, alongside him Mrs. Gerald. She pictured this house empty, followed by a long stretch of time, and then—

“Oh,” she sighed, choking back a desire to cry. With her hands she brushed away a hot tear from each eye. Then she got up.

“Oh,” she sighed, holding back tears. She wiped away a hot tear from each eye with her hands. Then she stood up.

“It must be,” she said to herself in thought. “It must be. It should have been so long ago.” And then—“Oh, thank God that papa is dead! Anyhow, he did not live to see this.”

“It has to be,” she thought to herself. “It has to be. It should have happened a long time ago.” And then—“Oh, thank God that Dad is gone! At least he didn't live to see this.”

CHAPTER LIII

The explanation which Lester had concluded to be inevitable, whether it led to separation or legalization of their hitherto banal condition, followed quickly upon the appearance of Mr. O’Brien. On the day Mr. O’Brien called he had gone on a journey to Hegewisch, a small manufacturing town in Wisconsin, where he had been invited to witness the trial of a new motor intended to operate elevators—with a view to possible investment. When he came out to the house, interested to tell Jennie something about it even in spite of the fact that he was thinking of leaving her, he felt a sense of depression everywhere, for Jennie, in spite of the serious and sensible conclusion she had reached, was not one who could conceal her feelings easily. She was brooding sadly over her proposed action, realizing that it was best to leave but finding it hard to summon the courage which would let her talk to him about it. She could not go without telling him what she thought. He ought to want to leave her. She was absolutely convinced that this one course of action—separation—was necessary and advisable. She could not think of him as daring to make a sacrifice of such proportions for her sake even if he wanted to. It was impossible. It was astonishing to her that he had let things go along as dangerously and silently as he had.

The explanation that Lester had come to realize was unavoidable, whether it led to separation or the formalization of their previously mundane situation, quickly followed the arrival of Mr. O’Brien. On the day Mr. O’Brien visited, Lester had traveled to Hegewisch, a small manufacturing town in Wisconsin, where he had been invited to observe the trial of a new motor designed to operate elevators, with the potential for investment. When he got back to the house, eager to share something about it with Jennie despite the fact that he was considering leaving her, he felt a wave of sadness everywhere. Jennie, in spite of the serious and sensible decision she had reached, was not someone who could easily hide her feelings. She was deeply troubled about her intended action, realizing that leaving was the right choice, but struggling to find the courage to talk to him about it. She couldn’t just leave without expressing her thoughts. He should want to leave her. She was absolutely convinced that this one course of action—separation—was necessary and wise. She couldn’t imagine him being willing to make such a significant sacrifice for her, even if he wanted to. It seemed impossible. It surprised her that he had allowed things to go on as dangerously and quietly as they had.

When he came in Jennie did her best to greet him with her accustomed smile, but it was a pretty poor imitation.

When he walked in, Jennie tried her best to greet him with her usual smile, but it was more like a weak imitation.

“Everything all right?” she asked, using her customary phrase of inquiry.

“Is everything okay?” she asked, using her usual way of asking.

“Quite,” he answered. “How are things with you?”

“Sure,” he replied. “How's everything with you?”

“Oh, just the same.” She walked with him to the library, and he poked at the open fire with a long-handled poker before turning around to survey the room generally. It was five o’clock of a January afternoon. Jennie had gone to one of the windows to lower the shade. As she came back he looked at her critically. “You’re not quite your usual self, are you?” he asked, sensing something out of the common in her attitude.

“Oh, same old.” She walked with him to the library, and he poked at the open fire with a long-handled poker before turning around to take in the room. It was five o’clock on a January afternoon. Jennie had gone to one of the windows to lower the shade. As she returned, he examined her closely. “You’re not really yourself today, are you?” he asked, noticing something unusual in her demeanor.

“Why, yes, I feel all right,” she replied, but there was a peculiar uneven motion to the movement of her lips—a rippling tremor which was unmistakable to him.

“Yeah, I feel fine,” she replied, but there was a strange, unsteady motion to the movement of her lips—a subtle tremor that he couldn’t miss.

“I think I know better than that,” he said, still gazing at her steadily. “What’s the trouble? Anything happened?”

“I think I know better than that,” he said, still looking at her intently. “What’s going on? Did something happen?”

She turned away from him a moment to get her breath and collect her senses. Then she faced him again. “There is something,” she managed to say. “I have to tell you something.”

She turned away from him for a moment to catch her breath and gather her thoughts. Then she faced him again. “There’s something,” she said with effort. “I need to tell you something.”

“I know you have,” he agreed, half smiling, but with a feeling that there was much of grave import back of this. “What is it?”

“I know you have,” he said, half smiling, but sensing that there was something serious behind this. “What is it?”

She was silent for a moment, biting her lips. She did not quite know how to begin. Finally she broke the spell with: “There was a man here yesterday—a Mr. O’Brien, of Cincinnati. Do you know him?”

She was quiet for a moment, biting her lips. She wasn't sure how to start. Finally, she broke the silence with, “There was a guy here yesterday—a Mr. O’Brien from Cincinnati. Do you know him?”

“Yes, I know him. What did he want?”

“Yes, I know him. What did he want?”

“He came to talk to me about you and your father’s will.”

"He came to talk to me about you and your dad’s will."

She paused, for his face clouded immediately. “Why the devil should he be talking to you about my father’s will!” he exclaimed. “What did he have to say?”

She paused, as his expression immediately turned serious. “What on earth would he be talking to you about my father's will for?” he shouted. “What did he say?”

“Please don’t get angry, Lester,” said Jennie calmly, for she realized that she must remain absolute mistress of herself if anything were to be accomplished toward the resolution of her problem. “He wanted to tell me what a sacrifice you are making,” she went on. “He wished to show me that there was only a little time left before you would lose your inheritance. Don’t you want to act pretty soon? Don’t you want to leave me.”

“Please don’t get mad, Lester,” Jennie said calmly, knowing she had to stay in control if she was going to solve her problem. “He wanted to tell me what a big sacrifice you’re making,” she continued. “He wanted to show me that there's not much time left before you lose your inheritance. Don’t you want to take action soon? Don’t you want to leave me?”

“Damn him!” said Lester fiercely. “What the devil does he mean by putting his nose in my private affairs? Can’t they let me alone?” He shook himself angrily. “Damn them!” he exclaimed again. “This is some of Robert’s work. Why should Knight, Keatley & O’Brien be meddling in my affairs? This whole business is getting to be a nuisance!” He was in a boiling rage in a moment, as was shown by his darkening skin and sulphurous eyes.

“Damn him!” Lester said fiercely. “What does he think he’s doing, sticking his nose in my private affairs? Can’t they just leave me alone?” He shook himself angrily. “Damn them!” he shouted again. “This is some of Robert’s doing. Why are Knight, Keatley & O’Brien getting involved in my business? This whole situation is becoming a nuisance!” He was in a boiling rage in no time, as shown by his darkening skin and fiery eyes.

Jennie trembled before his anger. She did not know what to say.

Jennie shook with fear at his anger. She didn’t know what to say.

He came to himself sufficiently after a time to add:

He eventually came to his senses enough to add:

“Well. Just what did he tell you?”

“Well, what exactly did he say to you?”

“He said that if you married me you would only get ten thousand a year. That if you didn’t and still lived with me you would get nothing at all. If you would leave me, or I would leave you, you would get all of a million and a half. Don’t you think you had better leave me now?”

“He said that if you marry me, you’ll only get ten thousand a year. If you don’t marry me and still live with me, you’ll get nothing at all. If you leave me, or I leave you, you’ll get all of a million and a half. Don’t you think it’s better to leave me now?”

She had not intended to propound this leading question so quickly, but it came out as a natural climax to the situation. She realized instantly that if he were really in love with her he would answer with an emphatic “no.” If he didn’t care, he would hesitate, he would delay, he would seek to put off the evil day of reckoning.

She hadn't meant to ask this important question so soon, but it just felt right based on what was happening. She understood right away that if he truly loved her, he would respond with a strong “no.” If he didn't care, he would hesitate, stall, and try to avoid facing the truth.

“I don’t see that,” he retorted irritably. “I don’t see that there’s any need for either interference or hasty action. What I object to is their coming here and mixing in my private affairs.”

“I don’t see it that way,” he replied irritably. “I don’t think there’s any need for interference or rushing into things. What I object to is them coming here and getting involved in my personal matters.”

Jennie was cut to the quick by his indifference, his wrath instead of affection. To her the main point at issue was her leaving him or his leaving her. To him this recent interference was obviously the chief matter for discussion and consideration. The meddling of others before he was ready to act was the terrible thing. She had hoped, in spite of what she had seen, that possibly, because of the long time they had lived together and the things which (in a way) they had endured together, he might have come to care for her deeply—that she had stirred some emotion in him which would never brook real separation, though some seeming separation might be necessary. He had not married her, of course, but then there had been so many things against them. Now, in this final hour, anyhow, he might have shown that he cared deeply, even if he had deemed it necessary to let her go. She felt for the time being as if, for all that she had lived with him so long, she did not understand him, and yet, in spite of this feeling, she knew also that she did. He cared, in his way. He could not care for any one enthusiastically and demonstratively. He could care enough to seize her and take her to himself as he had, but he could not care enough to keep her if something more important appeared. He was debating her fate now. She was in a quandary, hurt, bleeding, but for once in her life, determined. Whether he wanted to or not, she must not let him make this sacrifice. She must leave him—if he would not leave her. It was not important enough that she should stay. There might be but one answer. But might he not show affection?

Jennie was deeply hurt by his indifference, his anger instead of love. For her, the main issue was whether she would leave him or he would leave her. For him, this recent interference was clearly the biggest problem to discuss and think about. The intrusion of others before he was ready to act was the awful part. She had hoped, despite what she had seen, that maybe, because of the long time they had been together and the things they had gone through together, he might have come to care for her deeply—that she had sparked some emotion in him that wouldn't allow for true separation, even if a temporary separation was necessary. He hadn’t married her, of course, but there had been many obstacles in their way. Now, in this final moment, he could have shown that he cared deeply, even if he thought it necessary to let her go. For a moment, she felt like, despite having lived with him for so long, she didn't understand him, yet she knew she did. He cared, in his own way. He couldn't care for anyone openly and passionately. He could care enough to hold her close as he had, but he couldn't care enough to keep her if something more important came up. He was now weighing her future. She was in a tough spot, hurt and bleeding, but for once in her life, she was determined. Whether he wanted it or not, she couldn’t let him make this sacrifice. She had to leave him—if he wouldn't leave her. It wasn't important enough for her to stay. There might only be one answer. But could he not show some affection?

“Don’t you think you had better act soon?” she continued, hoping that some word of feeling would come from him. “There is only a little time left, isn’t there?”

“Don’t you think you should act soon?” she continued, hoping that he would express some feelings. “There’s not much time left, is there?”

Jennie nervously pushed a book to and fro on the table, her fear that she would not be able to keep up appearances troubling her greatly. It was hard for her to know what to do or say. Lester was so terrible when he became angry. Still it ought not to be so hard for him to go, now that he had Mrs. Gerald, if he only wished to do so—and he ought to. His fortune was so much more important to him than anything she could be.

Jennie nervously pushed a book back and forth on the table, worried that she wouldn't be able to keep up appearances. She found it difficult to know what to do or say. Lester was awful when he got angry. Still, it shouldn't be that hard for him to leave now that he had Mrs. Gerald, if he really wanted to—and he should. His wealth mattered so much more to him than anything she could offer.

“Don’t worry about that,” he replied stubbornly, his wrath at his brother, and his family, and O’Brien still holding him. “There’s time enough. I don’t know what I want to do yet. I like the effrontery of these people! But I won’t talk any more about it; isn’t dinner nearly ready?” He was so injured in his pride that he scarcely took the trouble to be civil. He was forgetting all about her and what she was feeling. He hated his brother Robert for this affront. He would have enjoyed wringing the necks of Messrs. Knight, Keatley & O’Brien, singly and collectively.

“Don’t worry about that,” he said stubbornly, still feeling angry at his brother, his family, and O’Brien. “There’s plenty of time. I’m not sure what I want to do yet. I actually like the boldness of these people! But I won’t talk about it anymore; isn’t dinner almost ready?” He was so hurt in his pride that he hardly bothered to be polite. He was forgetting all about her and how she was feeling. He loathed his brother Robert for this insult. He would have enjoyed throttling Messrs. Knight, Keatley & O’Brien, one by one and all together.

The question could not be dropped for good and all, and it came up again at dinner, after Jennie had done her best to collect her thoughts and quiet her nerves. They could not talk very freely because of Vesta and Jeannette, but she managed to get in a word or two.

The question couldn't be completely ignored, and it came up again at dinner, after Jennie had tried her best to gather her thoughts and calm her nerves. They couldn't talk too openly because of Vesta and Jeannette, but she managed to squeeze in a word or two.

“I could take a little cottage somewhere,” she suggested softly, hoping to find him in a modified mood. “I would not want to stay here. I would not know what to do with a big house like this alone.”

“I could get a small cottage somewhere,” she suggested gently, hoping to find him in a better mood. “I wouldn’t want to stay here. I wouldn’t know what to do with a big house like this on my own.”

“I wish you wouldn’t discuss this business any longer, Jennie,” he persisted. “I’m in no mood for it. I don’t know that I’m going to do anything of the sort. I don’t know what I’m going to do.” He was so sour and obstinate, because of O’Brien, that she finally gave it up. Vesta was astonished to see her stepfather, usually so courteous, in so grim a mood.

“I really wish you wouldn’t talk about this anymore, Jennie,” he kept insisting. “I’m really not in the mood for it. I have no idea if I’m going to do anything like that. I don’t even know what I’m going to do.” He was so grumpy and stubborn because of O’Brien that she finally decided to drop it. Vesta was surprised to see her stepfather, who was usually so polite, in such a dark mood.

Jennie felt a curious sense that she might hold him if she would, for he was doubting; but she knew also that she should not wish. It was not fair to him. It was not fair to herself, or kind, or decent.

Jennie felt a strange sense that she could keep him if she wanted to, because he was unsure; but she also knew that she shouldn't want that. It wasn't fair to him. It wasn't fair to herself, or kind, or decent.

“Oh yes, Lester, you must,” she pleaded, at a later time. “I won’t talk about it any more, but you must. I won’t let you do anything else.”

“Oh yes, Lester, you have to,” she begged later on. “I won’t bring it up again, but you have to. I won’t let you do anything else.”

There were hours when it came up afterward—every day, in fact—in their boudoir, in the library, in the dining-room, at breakfast, but not always in words. Jennie was worried. She was looking the worry she felt. She was sure that he should be made to act. Since he was showing more kindly consideration for her, she was all the more certain that he should act soon. Just how to go about it she did not know, but she looked at him longingly, trying to help him make up his mind. She would be happy, she assured herself—she would be happy thinking that he was happy once she was away from him. He was a good man, most delightful in everything, perhaps, save his gift of love. He really did not love her—could not perhaps, after all that had happened, even though she loved him most earnestly. But his family had been most brutal in their opposition, and this had affected his attitude. She could understand that, too. She could see now how his big, strong brain might be working in a circle. He was too decent to be absolutely brutal about this thing and leave her, too really considerate to look sharply after his own interests as he should, or hers—but he ought to.

There were moments when it came up afterward—every day, actually—in their bedroom, in the library, in the dining room, at breakfast, but not always spoken. Jennie was concerned. Her worry was evident. She felt he needed to take action. Since he had been showing more kindness towards her, she felt even more certain that he should act soon. She didn’t know exactly how to make that happen, but she gazed at him longingly, trying to encourage him to make a decision. She assured herself she would be happy—she would be happy thinking that he was happy once she was away from him. He was a good man, truly wonderful in many ways, except for his ability to love. He really didn’t love her—perhaps he couldn’t, after everything that had happened, even though she loved him deeply. But his family had been very harsh in their opposition, which had influenced his attitude. She could understand that, too. She could see how his strong, intelligent mind might be caught in a loop. He was too decent to be completely cruel about this situation and leave her, too genuinely caring to focus on his own interests as he should, or hers—but he really ought to.

“You must decide, Lester,” she kept saying to him, from time to time. “You must let me go. What difference does it make? I will be all right. Maybe, when this thing is all over you might want to come back to me. If you do, I will be there.”

“You have to decide, Lester,” she kept telling him now and then. “You need to let me go. What difference does it make? I’ll be fine. Maybe when this is all over, you might want to come back to me. If you do, I’ll be here.”

“I’m not ready to come to a decision,” was his invariable reply. “I don’t know that I want to leave you. This money is important, of course, but money isn’t everything. I can live on ten thousand a year if necessary. I’ve done it in the past.”

“I’m not ready to make a decision,” was his usual response. “I’m not sure I want to leave you. This money is important, of course, but money isn’t everything. I can get by on ten thousand a year if I have to. I’ve done it before.”

“Oh, but you’re so much more placed in the world now, Lester,” she argued. “You can’t do it. Look how much it costs to run this house alone. And a million and a half of dollars—why, I wouldn’t let you think of losing that. I’ll go myself first.”

“Oh, but you’re so much more settled in the world now, Lester,” she argued. “You can’t do it. Look at how much it costs to run this house on your own. And a million and a half dollars—honestly, I wouldn’t let you think of risking that. I’ll go myself first.”

“Where would you think of going if it came to that?” he asked curiously.

"Where would you think of going if it came to that?" he asked, curious.

“Oh, I’d find some place. Do you remember that little town of Sandwood, this side of Kenosha? I have often thought it would be a pleasant place to live.”

“Oh, I’d find somewhere. Do you remember that little town of Sandwood, this side of Kenosha? I’ve often thought it would be a nice place to live.”

“I don’t like to think of this,” he said finally in an outburst of frankness. “It doesn’t seem fair. The conditions have all been against this union of ours. I suppose I should have married you in the first place. I’m sorry now that I didn’t.”

“I don’t like to think about this,” he admitted finally in a moment of honesty. “It doesn’t seem fair. Everything has been stacked against our relationship. I guess I should have married you from the start. I regret that I didn’t.”

Jennie choked in her throat, but said nothing.

Jennie swallowed hard but stayed silent.

“Anyhow, this won’t be the last of it, if I can help it,” he concluded. He was thinking that the storm might blow over; once he had the money, and then—but he hated compromises and subterfuges.

“Anyway, this won’t be the end of it, if I can help it,” he finished. He was thinking that the storm might pass; once he had the money, and then—but he hated compromises and tricks.

It came by degrees to be understood that, toward the end of February, she should look around at Sandwood and see what she could find. She was to have ample means, he told her, everything that she wanted. After a time he might come out and visit her occasionally. And he was determined in his heart that he would make some people pay for the trouble they had caused him. He decided to send for Mr. O’Brien shortly and talk things over. He wanted for his personal satisfaction to tell him what he thought of him.

It gradually became clear that, by the end of February, she would start looking around Sandwood to see what she could find. He told her she would have plenty of resources and everything she needed. Eventually, he might visit her from time to time. He was also determined to make some people pay for the trouble they had caused him. He planned to call Mr. O’Brien soon to discuss everything. He wanted to express his thoughts about him for his own satisfaction.

At the same time, in the background of his mind, moved the shadowy figure of Mrs. Gerald—charming, sophisticated, well placed in every sense of the word. He did not want to give her the broad reality of full thought, but she was always there. He thought and thought. “Perhaps I’d better,” he half concluded. When February came he was ready to act.

At the same time, in the back of his mind, lingered the shadowy figure of Mrs. Gerald—charming, sophisticated, and well-connected in every sense of the word. He didn't want to fully acknowledge her, but she was always present. He contemplated it again and again. “Maybe I should,” he somewhat concluded. When February arrived, he was ready to take action.

CHAPTER LIV

The little town of Sandwood, “this side of Kenosha,” as Jennie had expressed it, was only a short distance from Chicago, an hour and fifteen minutes by the local train. It had a population of some three hundred families, dwelling in small cottages, which were scattered over a pleasant area of lake-shore property. They were not rich people. The houses were not worth more than from three to five thousand dollars each, but, in most cases, they were harmoniously constructed, and the surrounding trees, green for the entire year, gave them a pleasing summery appearance. Jennie, at the time they had passed by there—it was an outing taken behind a pair of fast horses—had admired the look of a little white church steeple, set down among green trees, and the gentle rocking of the boats upon the summer water.

The small town of Sandwood, “this side of Kenosha,” as Jennie put it, was just a short trip from Chicago, about an hour and fifteen minutes by the local train. It had around three hundred families living in small cottages scattered over a nice stretch of lakeshore. They weren’t wealthy people. The houses were worth no more than three to five thousand dollars each, but in most cases, they were built to blend in well with their surroundings, and the ever-green trees gave them a charming summer vibe. When Jennie and her companions passed through there—it was during an outing with a couple of fast horses—she admired the sight of a little white church steeple nestled among the green trees, along with the gentle swaying of the boats on the summer water.

“I should like to live in a place like this some time,” she had said to Lester, and he had made the comment that it was a little too peaceful for him. “I can imagine getting to the place where I might like this, but not now. It’s too withdrawn.”

“I’d love to live in a place like this someday,” she had told Lester, and he replied that it was a bit too peaceful for him. “I can see myself enjoying this eventually, but not right now. It feels too secluded.”

Jennie thought of that expression afterward. It came to her when she thought that the world was trying. If she had to be alone ever and could afford it she would like to live in a place like Sandwood. There she would have a little garden, some chickens, perhaps, a tall pole with a pretty bird-house on it, and flowers and trees and green grass everywhere about. If she could have a little cottage in a place like this which commanded a view of the lake she could sit of a summer evening and sew. Vesta could play about or come home from school. She might have a few friends, or not any. She was beginning to think that she could do very well living alone if it were not for Vesta’s social needs. Books were pleasant things—she was finding that out—books like Irving’s Sketch Book, Lamb’s Elia, and Hawthorne’s Twice Told Tales. Vesta was coming to be quite a musician in her way, having a keen sense of the delicate and refined in musical composition. She had a natural sense of harmony and a love for those songs and instrumental compositions which reflect sentimental and passionate moods; and she could sing and play quite well. Her voice was, of course, quite untrained—she was only fourteen—but it was pleasant to listen to. She was beginning to show the combined traits of her mother and father—Jennie’s gentle, speculative turn of mind, combined with Brander’s vivacity of spirit and innate executive capacity. She could talk to her mother in a sensible way about things, nature, books, dress, love, and from her developing tendencies Jennie caught keen glimpses of the new worlds which Vesta was to explore. The nature of modern school life, its consideration of various divisions of knowledge, music, science, all came to Jennie watching her daughter take up new themes. Vesta was evidently going to be a woman of considerable ability—not irritably aggressive, but self-constructive. She would be able to take care of herself. All this pleased Jennie and gave her great hopes for Vesta’s future.

Jennie thought about that expression later on. It popped into her mind when she considered how hard the world was trying. If she ever had to be alone and could manage it, she would love to live in a place like Sandwood. There, she would have a small garden, some chickens maybe, a tall pole with a cute birdhouse on it, and flowers and trees and green grass all around. If she could have a little cottage with a view of the lake, she could sit outside in the summer evenings and sew. Vesta could play around or come home from school. She might have a few friends, or none at all. She was starting to think that she could do really well on her own if it weren't for Vesta's need for social interaction. Books were enjoyable—she was discovering that—books like Irving’s Sketch Book, Lamb’s Elia, and Hawthorne’s Twice Told Tales. Vesta was becoming quite the musician in her own way, having a sharp sense of what’s delicate and refined in music. She had a natural sense of harmony and a love for songs and instrumental pieces that reflect sentimental and passionate moods; she could sing and play pretty well. Her voice was, of course, untrained—she was only fourteen—but it was nice to listen to. She was starting to show the combined traits of her mother and father—Jennie’s gentle, thoughtful nature mixed with Brander’s lively spirit and natural leadership skills. She could talk to her mother sensibly about things like nature, books, fashion, and love, and from Vesta's emerging interests, Jennie got clear glimpses of the new worlds her daughter would explore. The nature of modern school life, its focus on various fields of knowledge, music, science—all of this came to Jennie as she observed her daughter tackling new subjects. Vesta was clearly going to be a woman of significant talent—not aggressively pushy, but self-sufficient. She would be able to take care of herself. All of this made Jennie happy and filled her with great hopes for Vesta’s future.

The cottage which was finally secured at Sandwood was only a story and a half in height, but it was raised upon red brick piers between which were set green lattices and about which ran a veranda. The house was long and narrow, its full length—some five rooms in a row—facing the lake. There was a dining-room with windows opening even with the floor, a large library with built-in shelves for books, and a parlor whose three large windows afforded air and sunshine at all times.

The cottage we finally got at Sandwood was just one and a half stories tall, but it was elevated on red brick piers with green latticework in between and a veranda all around. The house was long and narrow, with its entire length—about five rooms in a row—facing the lake. There was a dining room with windows that reached the floor, a large library with built-in bookshelves, and a parlor with three big windows that let in plenty of air and sunlight all the time.

The plot of ground in which this cottage stood was one hundred feet square and ornamented with a few trees. The former owner had laid out flower-beds, and arranged green hardwood tubs for the reception of various hardy plants and vines. The house was painted white, with green shutters and green shingles.

The plot of land where this cottage stood was one hundred feet square and decorated with a few trees. The previous owner had created flower beds and set up green wooden tubs for different hardy plants and vines. The house was painted white, with green shutters and green shingles.

It had been Lester’s idea, since this thing must be, that Jennie might keep the house in Hyde Park just as it was, but she did not want to do that. She could not think of living there alone. The place was too full of memories. At first, she did not think she would take anything much with her, but she finally saw that it was advisable to do as Lester suggested—to fit out the new place with a selection of silverware, hangings, and furniture from the Hyde Park house.

It was Lester’s idea that Jennie could keep the house in Hyde Park just as it was, but she didn't want to do that. She couldn't imagine living there alone. The place was too filled with memories. At first, she thought she wouldn't take much with her, but eventually, she realized it made sense to do what Lester suggested—to outfit the new place with some silverware, textiles, and furniture from the Hyde Park house.

“You have no idea what you will or may want,” he said. “Take everything. I certainly don’t want any of it.”

“You have no idea what you will or might want,” he said. “Take everything. I definitely don’t want any of it.”

A lease of the cottage was taken for two years, together with an option for an additional five years, including the privilege of purchase. So long as he was letting her go, Lester wanted to be generous. He could not think of her as wanting for anything, and he did not propose that she should. His one troublesome thought was, what explanation was to be made to Vesta. He liked her very much and wanted her “life kept free of complications.

A two-year lease was signed for the cottage, with an option to extend for another five years, including the right to buy. As long as he was letting her go, Lester wanted to be generous. He couldn't bear the thought of her lacking anything, and he didn't intend for her to. His only worrying thought was how to explain it to Vesta. He liked her a lot and wanted to keep her life simple and uncomplicated.

“Why not send her off to a boarding-school until spring?” he suggested once; but owing to the lateness of the season this was abandoned as inadvisable. Later they agreed that business affairs made it necessary for him to travel and for Jennie to move. Later Vesta could be told that Jennie had left him for any reason she chose to give. It was a trying situation, all the more bitter to Jennie because she realized that in spite of the wisdom of it indifference to her was involved. He really did not care enough, as much as he cared.

“Why not send her to a boarding school until spring?” he suggested once, but since it was late in the season, this idea was dropped as unwise. Later, they agreed that his business matters required him to travel and for Jennie to move. Later, Vesta could be told that Jennie had left him for any reason she wanted to give. It was a tough situation, even more painful for Jennie because she understood that, despite its practicality, it also showed his indifference towards her. He really didn’t care enough, at least not as much as he should have.

The relationship of man and woman which we study so passionately in the hope of finding heaven knows what key to the mystery of existence holds no more difficult or trying situation than this of mutual compatibility broken or disrupted by untoward conditions which in themselves have so little to do with the real force and beauty of the relationship itself. These days of final dissolution in which this household, so charmingly arranged, the scene of so many pleasant activities, was literally going to pieces was a period of great trial to both Jennie and Lester. On her part it was one of intense suffering, for she was of that stable nature that rejoices to fix itself in a serviceable and harmonious relationship, and then stay so. For her life was made up of those mystic chords of sympathy and memory which bind up the transient elements of nature into a harmonious and enduring scene. One of those chords—this home was her home, united and made beautiful by her affection and consideration for each person and every object. Now the time had come when it must cease.

The relationship between a man and a woman that we study so passionately, hoping to find some key to the mystery of existence, faces no more challenging or distressing situation than that of mutual compatibility disrupted by unfortunate circumstances that have little to do with the true strength and beauty of the relationship itself. These days of complete breakdown, during which this household—so charmingly arranged and filled with so many enjoyable activities—was literally falling apart, were a time of great struggle for both Jennie and Lester. For her, it was a time of intense pain, as she had a stable nature that found joy in establishing a supportive and harmonious relationship and then maintaining it. Her life was woven from those mystical threads of empathy and memory that bring together the fleeting elements of life into a beautiful and lasting scene. One of those threads—this home was her home, made whole and lovely by her love and care for each person and every item. Now, the moment had come for that to end.

If she had ever had anything before in her life which had been like this it might have been easier to part with it now, though, as she had proved, Jennie’s affections were not based in any way upon material considerations. Her love of life and of personality were free from the taint of selfishness. She went about among these various rooms selecting this rug, that set of furniture, this and that ornament, wishing all the time with all her heart and soul that it need not be. Just to think, in a little while Lester would not come any more of an evening! She would not need to get up first of a morning and see that coffee was made for her lord, that the table in the dining-room looked just so. It had been a habit of hers to arrange a bouquet for the table out of the richest blooming flowers of the conservatory, and she had always felt in doing it that it was particularly for him. Now it would not be necessary any more—not for him. When one is accustomed to wait for the sound of a certain carriage-wheel of an evening grating upon your carriage drive, when one is used to listen at eleven, twelve, and one, waking naturally and joyfully to the echo of a certain step on the stair, the separation, the ending of these things, is keen with pain. These were the thoughts that were running through Jennie’s brain hour after hour and day after day.

If she had ever had anything like this in her life before, it might have been easier to let it go now. However, as she had shown, Jennie’s affections weren’t linked to material things at all. Her love for life and people was completely selfless. She moved through the different rooms, picking out this rug, that set of furniture, this and that decoration, all the while wishing with all her heart that it didn’t have to be this way. Just to think, soon Lester wouldn’t be coming over in the evenings anymore! She wouldn’t have to wake up first thing in the morning to make coffee for her husband or set the dining table just right. It had been her routine to arrange a bouquet of the most beautiful flowers from the conservatory for the table, and she always felt like she was doing it just for him. Now it wouldn’t be necessary anymore—not for him. When you’re used to waiting for the sound of a specific carriage wheel on your driveway in the evenings, when you’ve grown accustomed to listening at eleven, twelve, and one, waking naturally and happily to the sound of a familiar step on the stairs, the separation, the end of these things hurts deeply. These were the thoughts that filled Jennie’s mind hour after hour, day after day.

Lester on his part was suffering in another fashion. His was not the sorrow of lacerated affection, of discarded and despised love, but of that painful sense of unfairness which comes to one who knows that he is making a sacrifice of the virtues—kindness, loyalty, affection—to policy. Policy was dictating a very splendid course of action from one point of view. Free of Jennie, providing for her admirably, he was free to go his way, taking to himself the mass of affairs which come naturally with great wealth. He could not help thinking of the thousand and one little things which Jennie had been accustomed to do for him, the hundred and one comfortable and pleasant and delightful things she meant to him. The virtues which she possessed were quite dear to his mind. He had gone over them time and again. Now he was compelled to go over them finally, to see that she was suffering without making a sign. Her manner and attitude toward him in these last days were quite the same as they had always been—no more, no less. She was not indulging in private hysterics, as another woman might have done; she was not pretending a fortitude in suffering she did not feel, showing him one face while wishing him to see another behind it. She was calm, gentle, considerate—thoughtful of him—where he would go and what he would do, without irritating him by her inquiries. He was struck quite favorably by her ability to take a large situation largely, and he admired her. There was something to this woman, let the world think what it might. It was a shame that her life was passed under such a troubled star. Still a great world was calling him. The sound of its voice was in his ears. It had on occasion shown him its bared teeth. Did he really dare to hesitate?

Lester, on the other hand, was suffering in a different way. His wasn’t the pain of broken love or abandoned affection, but that frustrating sense of unfairness that hits someone who understands they’re sacrificing the good qualities—kindness, loyalty, affection—for the sake of strategy. Strategy was outlining a pretty impressive path forward from one angle. Free of Jennie, taking care of her well, he was able to pursue his own interests, handling the numerous responsibilities that come with great wealth. He couldn’t stop thinking about all the little things Jennie used to do for him, the countless comfortable, pleasant, and delightful things she meant to him. The qualities she had were very dear to him. He had reviewed them time and again. Now, he had to confront them finally, realizing she was suffering without showing it. Her demeanor and attitude towards him these last few days remained unchanged—no more, no less. She wasn’t having a private breakdown like another woman might have; she wasn’t pretending to be strong in a way that didn’t reflect her true feelings, putting on a mask for him while hiding another face behind it. She was calm, gentle, and considerate—thoughtful of him—wondering where he would go and what he would do, without annoying him with questions. He was quite impressed by her ability to handle a big situation gracefully, and he admired her. There was something special about this woman, no matter what the world thought. It was a shame that her life was so troubled. Still, a vast world was calling him. Its voice echoed in his ears. It had, at times, shown him its sharp side. Did he really dare to hesitate?

The last hour came, when having made excuses to this and that neighbor, when having spread the information that they were going abroad, when Lester had engaged rooms at the Auditorium, and the mass of furniture which could not be used had gone to storage, that it was necessary to say farewell to this Hyde Park domicile. Jennie had visited Sandwood in company with Lester several times. He had carefully examined the character of the place. He was satisfied that it was nice but lonely. Spring was at hand, the flowers would be something. She was going to keep a gardener and man of all work. Vesta would be with her.

The last hour arrived, after making excuses to various neighbors, after spreading the news that they were going abroad, after Lester had booked rooms at the Auditorium, and after the bulk of the furniture that couldn’t be used had been put into storage. It was time to say goodbye to their Hyde Park home. Jennie had visited Sandwood with Lester several times. He had carefully assessed the character of the place. He felt it was nice but lonely. Spring was coming, and the flowers would be something special. She was going to hire a gardener and a handyman. Vesta would be with her.

“Very well,” he said, “only I want you to be comfortable.”

“Alright,” he said, “but I just want you to be comfortable.”

In the mean time Lester had been arranging his personal affairs. He had notified Messrs. Knight, Keatley & O’Brien through his own attorney, Mr. Watson, that he would expect them to deliver his share of his father’s securities on a given date. He had made up his mind that as long as he was compelled by circumstances to do this thing he would do a number of other things equally ruthless. He would probably marry Mrs. Gerald. He would sit as a director in the United Carriage Company—with his share of the stock it would be impossible to keep him out. If he had Mrs. Gerald’s money he would become a controlling factor in the United Traction of Cincinnati, in which his brother was heavily interested, and in the Western Steel Works, of which his brother was now the leading adviser. What a different figure he would be now from that which he had been during the past few years!

In the meantime, Lester had been sorting out his personal affairs. He had informed Messrs. Knight, Keatley & O’Brien through his attorney, Mr. Watson, that he expected them to deliver his share of his father’s securities by a specific date. He had decided that since he was forced by circumstances to do this, he might as well carry out a few other equally ruthless plans. He was likely going to marry Mrs. Gerald. He would take a seat as a director in the United Carriage Company— with his share of the stock, they wouldn't be able to keep him out. If he had Mrs. Gerald’s money, he would become a major player in United Traction of Cincinnati, where his brother had significant interests, and in the Western Steel Works, where his brother was currently the leading advisor. What a different person he would be now compared to who he had been over the past few years!

Jennie was depressed to the point of despair. She was tremendously lonely. This home had meant so much to her. When she first came here and neighbors had begun to drop in she had imagined herself on the threshold of a great career, that some day, possibly, Lester would marry her. Now, blow after blow had been delivered, and the home and dream were a ruin. Gerhardt was gone. Jeannette, Harry Ward, and Mrs. Frissell had been discharged, the furniture for a good part was in storage, and for her, practically, Lester was no more. She realized clearly that he would not come back. If he could do this thing now, even considerately, he could do much more when he was free and away later. Immersed in his great affairs, he would forget, of course. And why not? She did not fit in. Had not everything—everything illustrated that to her? Love was not enough in this world—that was so plain. One needed education, wealth, training, the ability to fight and scheme, She did not want to do that. She could not.

Jennie was deeply depressed and felt hopeless. She was incredibly lonely. This home had meant everything to her. When she first arrived and the neighbors started visiting, she envisioned herself on the brink of a great career, and maybe, someday, Lester would marry her. Now, one setback after another had left her home and dreams in ruins. Gerhardt was gone. Jeannette, Harry Ward, and Mrs. Frissell were gone too, much of the furniture was in storage, and for her, Lester was practically absent. She realized clearly that he wouldn’t come back. If he could walk away now, even nicely, he could do much worse when he was free later. Caught up in his important life, he would forget her, of course. And why wouldn’t he? She didn’t fit in. Hadn’t everything shown her that? Love wasn’t enough in this world—that was obvious. You needed education, wealth, skills, the ability to fight and scheme. She didn’t want to do that. She couldn’t.

The day came when the house was finally closed and the old life was at an end. Lester traveled with Jennie to Sandwood. He spent some little while in the house trying to get her used to the idea of change—it was not so bad. He intimated that he would come again soon, but he went away, and all his words were as nothing against the fact of the actual and spiritual separation. When Jennie saw him going down the brick walk that afternoon, his solid, conservative figure clad in a new tweed suit, his overcoat on his arm, self-reliance and prosperity written all over him, she thought that she would die. She had kissed Lester good-by and had wished him joy, prosperity, peace; then she made an excuse to go to her bedroom. Vesta came after a time, to seek her, but now her eyes were quite dry; everything had subsided to a dull ache. The new life was actually begun for her—a life without Lester, without Gerhardt, without any one save Vesta.

The day arrived when the house was finally sold, marking the end of the old life. Lester traveled with Jennie to Sandwood. He spent some time in the house trying to help her adjust to the idea of change—it wasn’t so bad. He hinted that he would come back soon, but then he left, and all his words felt meaningless against the reality of their emotional and physical separation. When Jennie saw him walking down the brick path that afternoon, his sturdy, traditional figure dressed in a new tweed suit, his overcoat over his arm, confidence and success evident in his demeanor, she felt like she would collapse. She had kissed Lester goodbye and wished him happiness, success, and peace; then she came up with an excuse to go to her bedroom. Vesta eventually came looking for her, but by then, her eyes were completely dry; everything had settled into a dull ache. The new life truly began for her—a life without Lester, without Gerhardt, with only Vesta.

“What curious things have happened to me!” she thought, as she went into the kitchen, for she had determined to do at least some of her own work. She needed the distraction. She did not want to think. If it were not for Vesta she would have sought some regular outside employment. Anything to keep from brooding, for in that direction lay madness.

“What strange things have happened to me!” she thought as she walked into the kitchen, because she had decided to do at least some of her own chores. She needed the distraction. She didn’t want to think. If it weren’t for Vesta, she would have looked for a steady job outside. Anything to avoid dwelling on things, because that way led to madness.

CHAPTER LV

The social and business worlds of Chicago, Cincinnati, Cleveland, and other cities saw, during the year or two which followed the breaking of his relationship with Jennie, a curious rejuvenation in the social and business spirit of Lester Kane. He had become rather distant and indifferent to certain personages and affairs while he was living with her, but now he suddenly appeared again, armed with authority from a number of sources, looking into this and that matter with the air of one who has the privilege of power, and showing himself to be quite a personage from the point of view of finance and commerce. He was older of course. It must be admitted that he was in some respects a mentally altered Lester. Up to the time he had met Jennie he was full of the assurance of the man who has never known defeat. To have been reared in luxury as he had been, to have seen only the pleasant side of society, which is so persistent and so deluding where money is concerned, to have been in the run of big affairs not because one has created them, but because one is a part of them and because they are one’s birthright, like the air one breathes, could not help but create one of those illusions of solidarity which is apt to befog the clearest brain. It is so hard for us to know what we have not seen. It is so difficult for us to feel what we have not experienced. Like this world of ours, which seems so solid and persistent solely because we have no knowledge of the power which creates it, Lester’s world seemed solid and persistent and real enough to him. It was only when the storms set in and the winds of adversity blew and he found himself facing the armed forces of convention that he realized he might be mistaken as to the value of his personality, that his private desires and opinions were as nothing in the face of a public conviction; that he was wrong. The race spirit, or social avatar, the “Zeitgeist” as the Germans term it, manifested itself as something having a system in charge, and the organization of society began to show itself to him as something based on possibly a spiritual, or, at least, superhuman counterpart. He could not fly in the face of it. He could not deliberately ignore its mandates. The people of his time believed that some particular form of social arrangement was necessary, and unless he complied with that he could, as he saw, readily become a social outcast. His own father and mother had turned on him—his brother and sisters, society, his friends. Dear heaven, what a to-do this action of his had created! Why, even the fates seemed adverse. His real estate venture was one of the most fortuitously unlucky things he had ever heard of. Why? Were the gods battling on the side of a to him unimportant social arrangement? Apparently. Anyhow, he had been compelled to quit, and here he was, vigorous, determined, somewhat battered by the experience, but still forceful and worth while.

The social and business scenes in Chicago, Cincinnati, Cleveland, and other cities experienced a strange revival in Lester Kane's social and business spirit during the year or two after his breakup with Jennie. While he was with her, he had become somewhat distant and indifferent to certain people and issues, but now he suddenly reemerged, empowered by several sources, investigating different matters with the confidence of someone who has authority, and presenting himself as a significant figure in finance and commerce. He was older, of course. It must be acknowledged that he was, in some ways, a mentally changed Lester. Up to the time he met Jennie, he was filled with the confidence of a man who had never faced defeat. Growing up in luxury and only seeing the pleasant side of society, which can be so misleading when it comes to money, and being involved in major affairs not because he created them but because they were simply part of his life, like breathing, inevitably led to one of those illusions of unity that can cloud the clearest judgment. It's so hard for us to understand what we haven't seen. It's so difficult for us to feel what we haven't experienced. Just like our world, which appears solid and lasting only because we don't know the forces that shape it, Lester’s world felt solid, persistent, and real to him. It was only when challenges arose and the winds of hardship blew, forcing him to confront the rigid forces of convention, that he realized he might have been wrong about the worth of his own personality, that his personal desires and opinions paled in comparison to public belief; that he was mistaken. The collective spirit, or social essence, the “Zeitgeist” as the Germans call it, revealed itself as something systematically organized, and he started to see society as something potentially guided by a spiritual or at least superhuman force. He couldn't go against it. He couldn't deliberately ignore its demands. The people of his era believed that a certain social order was essential, and unless he adhered to that, he could easily become a social pariah. His own parents had turned against him—his siblings, society, his friends. Goodness, what a mess his actions had caused! Even fate seemed to be against him. His real estate venture was one of the most unluckily fortuitous things he had ever experienced. Why? Were the gods siding with an insignificant social structure to him? It seemed that way. Anyway, he had been forced to give up, and here he was, energetic, determined, somewhat worn down by the experience, but still strong and valuable.

And it was a part of the penalty that he had become measurably soured by what had occurred. He was feeling that he had been compelled to do the first ugly, brutal thing of his life. Jennie deserved better of him. It was a shame to forsake her after all the devotion she had manifested. Truly she had played a finer part than he. Worst of all, his deed could not be excused on the grounds of necessity. He could have lived on ten thousand a year; he could have done without the million and more which was now his. He could have done without the society, the pleasures of which had always been a lure. He could have, but he had not, and he had complicated it all with the thought of another woman.

And as part of the consequence, he had become noticeably bitter about what had happened. He felt like he had been forced to do the first ugly, brutal thing in his life. Jennie deserved better from him. It was shameful to abandon her after all the loyalty she had shown. She had truly played a better role than he had. Worst of all, his actions couldn’t be justified by necessity. He could have lived on ten thousand a year; he could have done without the million and more that he had now. He could have lived without the social scene, the pleasures that had always tempted him. He could have, but he didn’t, and he had complicated everything by thinking about another woman.

Was she as good as Jennie? That was a question which always rose before him. Was she as kindly? Wasn’t she deliberately scheming under his very eyes to win him away from the woman who was as good as his wife? Was that admirable? Was it the thing a truly big woman would do? Was she good enough for him after all? Ought he to marry her? Ought he to marry any one seeing that he really owed a spiritual if not a legal allegiance to Jennie? Was it worth while for any woman to marry him? These things turned in his brain. They haunted him. He could not shut out the fact that he was doing a cruel and unlovely thing.

Was she as good as Jennie? That was a question that always came to his mind. Was she as kind? Wasn’t she trying to win him away from the woman who was practically his wife right under his nose? Was that admirable? Was it something a truly great woman would do? Was she really good enough for him after all? Should he marry her? Should he marry anyone considering he really owed some kind of commitment, if not a legal one, to Jennie? Was it worth it for any woman to marry him? These thoughts swirled in his mind. They haunted him. He couldn’t ignore the fact that he was doing something cruel and unlovely.

Material error in the first place was now being complicated with spiritual error. He was attempting to right the first by committing the second. Could it be done to his own satisfaction? Would it pay mentally and spiritually? Would it bring him peace of mind? He was thinking, thinking, all the while he was readjusting his life to the old (or perhaps better yet, new) conditions, and he was not feeling any happier. As a matter of fact he was feeling worse—grim, revengeful. If he married Letty he thought at times it would be to use her fortune as a club to knock other enemies over the head, and he hated to think he was marrying her for that. He took up his abode at the Auditorium, visited Cincinnati in a distant and aggressive spirit, sat in council with the board of directors, wishing that he was more at peace with himself, more interested in life. But he did not change his policy in regard to Jennie.

Material mistakes were now getting mixed up with spiritual mistakes. He was trying to fix the first by making the second. Could he do it to his own satisfaction? Would it benefit him mentally and spiritually? Would it bring him peace of mind? He was thinking, thinking, while he was trying to adjust his life to the old (or maybe better yet, new) circumstances, and he wasn’t feeling any happier. In fact, he felt worse—grim, vengeful. He sometimes thought that if he married Letty, it would be to use her wealth as a weapon against his other enemies, and he hated to think he was marrying her for that. He settled at the Auditorium, visited Cincinnati with a distant and aggressive attitude, sat in meetings with the board of directors, wishing he was more at peace with himself, more engaged in life. But he didn’t change his stance regarding Jennie.

Of course Mrs. Gerald had been vitally interested in Lester’s rehabilitation. She waited tactfully some little time before sending him any word; finally she ventured to write to him at the Hyde Park address (as if she did not know where he was), asking, “Where are you?” By this time Lester had become slightly accustomed to the change in his life. He was saying to himself that he needed sympathetic companionship, the companionship of a woman, of course. Social invitations had begun to come to him now that he was alone and that his financial connections were so obviously restored. He had made his appearance, accompanied only by a Japanese valet, at several country houses, the best sign that he was once more a single man. No reference was made by any one to the past.

Of course, Mrs. Gerald had been really interested in Lester’s recovery. She waited a bit before reaching out to him; eventually, she decided to write to him at the Hyde Park address (as if she didn’t know where he was), asking, “Where are you?” By this time, Lester had started to adjust to the changes in his life. He was telling himself that he needed understanding companionship, specifically the companionship of a woman. Now that he was alone and his financial situation was clearly back on track, social invitations had started coming in. He had shown up, accompanied only by a Japanese valet, at several country homes, which was the best sign that he was single again. No one mentioned the past.

On receiving Mrs. Gerald’s note he decided that he ought to go and see her. He had treated her rather shabbily. For months preceding his separation from Jennie he had not gone near her. Even now he waited until time brought a ’phoned invitation to dinner. This he accepted.

On getting Mrs. Gerald's note, he figured he should go see her. He hadn't treated her very well. For months before he split from Jennie, he hadn't visited her at all. Even now, he waited until he got a phone invitation to dinner, which he accepted.

Mrs. Gerald was at her best as a hostess at her perfectly appointed dinner-table. Alboni, the pianist, was there on this occasion, together with Adam Rascavage, the sculptor, a visiting scientist from England, Sir Nelson Keyes, and, curiously enough, Mr. and Mrs. Berry Dodge, whom Lester had not met socially in several years. Mrs. Gerald and Lester exchanged the joyful greetings of those who understand each other thoroughly and are happy in each other’s company. “Aren’t you ashamed of yourself, sir,” she said to him when he made his appearance, “to treat me so indifferently? You are going to be punished for this.”

Mrs. Gerald was at her best as a host at her beautifully set dinner table. On this occasion, Alboni, the pianist, was present, along with Adam Rascavage, the sculptor, a visiting scientist from England, Sir Nelson Keyes, and, interestingly enough, Mr. and Mrs. Berry Dodge, whom Lester hadn’t seen socially in several years. Mrs. Gerald and Lester exchanged warm greetings, the kind that come from those who fully understand each other and enjoy each other’s company. “Aren’t you ashamed of yourself, sir,” she said when he arrived, “for treating me so indifferently? You’re going to pay for this.”

“What’s the damage?” he smiled. “I’ve been extremely rushed. I suppose something like ninety stripes will serve me about right.”

“What’s the damage?” he grinned. “I’ve been really rushed. I think something like ninety stripes will do just fine.”

“Ninety stripes, indeed!” she retorted. “You’re letting yourself off easy. What is it they do to evil-doers in Siam?”

“Ninety stripes, really!” she shot back. “You’re getting off easy. What do they do to wrongdoers in Siam?”

“Boil them in oil, I suppose.”

“Boil them in oil, I guess.”

“Well, anyhow, that’s more like. I’m thinking of something terrible.”

“Well, anyway, that’s more like it. I’m thinking of something awful.”

“Be sure and tell me when you decide,” he laughed, and passed on to be presented to distinguished strangers by Mrs. De Lincum who aided Mrs. Gerald in receiving.

“Make sure to let me know when you decide,” he laughed, and moved on to be introduced to notable guests by Mrs. De Lincum, who was helping Mrs. Gerald with the reception.

The talk was stimulating. Lester was always at his ease intellectually, and this mental atmosphere revived him. Presently he turned to greet Berry Dodge, who was standing at his elbow.

The conversation was engaging. Lester always felt comfortable intellectually, and this mental environment energized him. Soon, he turned to greet Berry Dodge, who was standing next to him.

Dodge was all cordiality. “Where are you now?” he asked. “We haven’t seen you in—oh, when? Mrs. Dodge is waiting to have a word with you.” Lester noticed the change in Dodge’s attitude.

Dodge was all friendliness. “Where are you now?” he asked. “We haven’t seen you in—oh, when? Mrs. Dodge is eager to talk to you.” Lester noticed the shift in Dodge’s demeanor.

“Some time, that’s sure,” he replied easily. “I’m living at the Auditorium.”

“Yeah, for sure,” he responded casually. “I’m staying at the Auditorium.”

“I was asking after you the other day. You know Jackson Du Bois? Of course you do. We were thinking of running up into Canada for some hunting. Why don’t you join us?”

“I was asking about you the other day. You know Jackson Du Bois? Of course you do. We were thinking about heading up to Canada for some hunting. Why don’t you come with us?”

“I can’t,” replied Lester. “Too many things on hand just now. Later, surely.”

“I can’t,” Lester replied. “I have too much going on right now. Maybe later.”

Dodge was anxious to continue. He had seen Lester’s election as a director of the C. H. & D. Obviously he was coming back into the world. But dinner was announced and Lester sat at Mrs. Gerald’s right hand.

Dodge was eager to move on. He had noticed Lester being elected as a director of the C. H. & D. Clearly, he was re-entering society. But dinner was called, and Lester took a seat at Mrs. Gerald’s right side.

“Aren’t you coming to pay me a dinner call some afternoon after this?” asked Mrs. Gerald confidentially when the conversation was brisk at the other end of the table.

“Aren’t you coming to have dinner with me one afternoon soon?” asked Mrs. Gerald in a low voice when the conversation was lively at the other end of the table.

“I am, indeed,” he replied, “and shortly. Seriously, I’ve been wanting to look you up. You understand though how things are now?”

“I really am,” he said, “and soon. Honestly, I’ve been wanting to find you. But you get how things are now, right?”

“I do. I’ve heard a great deal. That’s why I want you to come. We need to talk together.”

“I do. I’ve heard a lot. That’s why I want you to come. We need to talk.”

Ten days later he did call. He felt as if he must talk with her; he was feeling bored and lonely; his long home life with Jennie had made hotel life objectionable. He felt as though he must find a sympathetic, intelligent ear, and where better than here? Letty was all ears for his troubles. She would have pillowed his solid head upon her breast in a moment if that had been possible.

Ten days later, he did call. He felt the need to talk to her; he was bored and lonely. His long time at home with Jennie had made hotel life unappealing. He felt that he needed someone who would listen and understand, and where better than here? Letty was all ears for his problems. She would have rested his head on her shoulder in an instant if she could have.

“Well,” he said, when the usual fencing preliminaries were over, “what will you have me say in explanation?”

“Well,” he said, after the usual fencing warm-ups were done, “what do you want me to say to explain myself?”

“Have you burned your bridges behind you?” she asked.

“Have you burned your bridges?” she asked.

“I’m not so sure,” he replied gravely. “And I can’t say that I’m feeling any too joyous about the matter as a whole.”

“I’m not so sure,” he replied seriously. “And I can’t say that I’m feeling very happy about the situation overall.”

“I thought as much,” she replied. “I knew how it would be with you. I can see you wading through this mentally, Lester. I have been watching you, every step of the way, wishing you peace of mind. These things are always so difficult, but don’t you know I am still sure it’s for the best. It never was right the other way. It never could be. You couldn’t afford to sink back into a mere shell-fish life. You are not organized temperamentally for that any more than I am. You may regret what you are doing now, but you would have regretted the other thing quite as much and more. You couldn’t work your life out that way—now, could you?”

“I figured as much,” she said. “I knew what it would be like with you. I can see you processing this in your head, Lester. I’ve been watching you every step of the way, hoping for your peace of mind. These things are always tough, but don’t you know I still believe it’s for the best? It never was right the other way. It never could be. You couldn’t go back to just a shell of a life. You’re not built for that any more than I am. You might regret what you’re doing now, but you would have regretted the other option just as much, if not more. You can’t figure your life out that way—can you?”

“I don’t know about that, Letty. Really, I don’t. I’ve wanted to come and see you for a long time, but I didn’t think that I ought to. The fight was outside—you know what I mean.”

“I don’t know about that, Letty. Honestly, I don’t. I’ve wanted to come and see you for a long time, but I didn’t think I should. The fight was outside—you know what I mean.”

“Yes, indeed, I do,” she said soothingly.

“Yes, I really do,” she said gently.

“It’s still inside. I haven’t gotten over it. I don’t know whether this financial business binds me sufficiently or not. I’ll be frank and tell you that I can’t say I love her entirely; but I’m sorry, and that’s something.”

“It’s still there. I haven’t moved past it. I’m not sure if this financial situation ties me down enough or not. I’ll be honest and say I can’t truly say I love her; but I feel sorry, and that counts for something.”

“She’s comfortably provided for, of course,” she commented rather than inquired.

“She’s well taken care of, of course,” she said rather than asked.

“Everything she wants. Jennie is of a peculiar disposition. She doesn’t want much. She’s retiring by nature and doesn’t care for show. I’ve taken a cottage for her at Sandwood, a little place north of here on the lake; and there’s plenty of money in trust, but, of course, she knows she can live anywhere she pleases.”

“Everything she wants. Jennie has a unique personality. She doesn’t ask for much. She’s naturally reserved and isn’t into flashy things. I’ve rented a cottage for her at Sandwood, a small place just north of here by the lake; and there’s plenty of money set aside for her, but, of course, she knows she can live wherever she wants.”

“I understand exactly how she feels, Lester. I know how you feel. She is going to suffer very keenly for a while—we all do when we have to give up the thing we love. But we can get over it, and we do. At least, we can live. She will. It will go hard at first, but after a while she will see how it is, and she won’t feel any the worse toward you.”

“I get how she feels, Lester. I know what you’re feeling too. She’s going to hurt a lot for a while—we all do when we have to let go of what we love. But we can move past it, and we always do. At least, we can keep living. She will. It’ll be tough at first, but eventually she’ll understand how things are, and she won’t blame you for it.”

“Jennie will never reproach me, I know that,” he replied. “I’m the one who will do the reproaching. I’ll be abusing myself for some time. The trouble is with my particular turn of mind. I can’t tell, for the life of me, how much of this disturbing feeling of mine is habit—the condition that I’m accustomed to—and how much is sympathy. I sometimes think I’m the the most pointless individual in the world. I think too much.”

“Jennie will never blame me, I know that,” he said. “I’m the one who will be blaming myself. I’ll be beating myself up for a while. The issue lies with my way of thinking. I can’t figure out, for the life of me, how much of this troubling feeling is just habit—the norm I’m used to—and how much is empathy. Sometimes I feel like I’m the most pointless person in the world. I think too much.”

“Poor Lester!” she said tenderly. “Well, I understand for one. You’re lonely living where you are, aren’t you?”

“Poor Lester!” she said gently. “Well, I get it. You’re feeling lonely living where you are, right?”

“I am that,” he replied.

“I am that,” he said.

“Why not come and spend a few days down at West Baden? I’m going there.”

“Why not come and spend a few days in West Baden? I’m heading there.”

“When?” he inquired.

"When?" he asked.

“Next Tuesday.”

“Next Tuesday.”

“Let me see,” he replied. “I’m not sure that I can.” He consulted his notebook. “I could come Thursday, for a few days.”

“Let me check,” he said. “I’m not sure if I can.” He looked at his notebook. “I could come on Thursday, for a few days.”

“Why not do that? You need company. We can walk and talk things out down there. Will you?”

“Why not do that? You need some company. We can walk and talk things out down there. Will you?”

“Yes, I will,” he replied.

“Yes, I will,” he said.

She came toward him, trailing a lavender lounging robe. “You’re such a solemn philosopher, sir,” she observed comfortably, “working through all the ramifications of things. Why do you? You were always like that.”

She walked over to him, dragging a lavender robe behind her. “You’re such a serious thinker, sir,” she said casually, “analyzing all the details of everything. Why do you do that? You’ve always been this way.”

“I can’t help it,” he replied. “It’s my nature to think.”

"I can't help it," he said. "It's just in my nature to think."

“Well, one thing I know—” and she tweaked his ear gently. “You’re not going to make another mistake through sympathy if I can help it,” she said daringly. “You’re going to stay disentangled long enough to give yourself a chance to think out what you want to do. You must. And I wish for one thing you’d take over the management of my affairs. You could advise me so much better than my lawyer.”

“Well, one thing I know—” and she lightly tugged his ear. “You’re not going to make another mistake out of sympathy if I can help it,” she said boldly. “You’re going to stay clear long enough to give yourself a chance to figure out what you want to do. You have to. And I really wish you’d take charge of my affairs. You could advise me way better than my lawyer.”

He arose and walked to the window, turning to look back at her solemnly. “I know what you want,” he said doggedly.

He got up and walked to the window, turning to look back at her seriously. “I know what you want,” he said stubbornly.

“And why shouldn’t I?” she demanded, again approaching him. She looked at him pleadingly, defiantly. “Yes, why shouldn’t I?”

“And why shouldn’t I?” she asked, moving closer to him again. She looked at him with a mix of desperation and defiance. “Yes, why shouldn’t I?”

“You don’t know what you’re doing,” he grumbled; but he kept on looking at her; she stood there, attractive as a woman of her age could be, wise, considerate, full of friendship and affection.

“You don’t know what you’re doing,” he muttered; but he kept staring at her; she stood there, as attractive as a woman her age could be, wise, thoughtful, and full of friendship and warmth.

“Letty,” he said. “You ought not to want to marry me. I’m not worth it. Really I’m not. I’m too cynical. Too indifferent. It won’t be worth anything in the long run.”

“Letty,” he said. “You shouldn’t want to marry me. I’m not worth it. Honestly, I’m not. I’m too cynical. Too indifferent. It won’t be worth anything in the long run.”

“It will be worth something to me,” she insisted. “I know what you are. Anyhow, I don’t care. I want you!”

“It will mean something to me,” she insisted. “I know what you are. Anyway, I don’t care. I want you!”

He took her hands, then her arms. Finally he drew her to him, and put his arms about her waist. “Poor Letty!” he said; “I’m not worth it. You’ll be sorry.”

He took her hands, then her arms. Finally, he pulled her close and wrapped his arms around her waist. “Poor Letty!” he said; “I’m not worth it. You’ll regret this.”

“No, I’ll not,” she replied. “I know what I’m doing. I don’t care what you think you are worth.” She laid her cheek on his shoulder. “I want you.”

“No, I won't,” she replied. “I know what I’m doing. I don’t care what you think your value is.” She rested her cheek on his shoulder. “I want you.”

“If you keep on I venture to say you’ll have me,” he returned. He bent and kissed her.

“If you keep this up, I bet you’ll end up with me,” he replied. He leaned down and kissed her.

“Oh,” she exclaimed, and hid her hot face against his breast.

“Oh,” she said, hiding her flushed face against his chest.

“This is bad business,” he thought, even as he held her within the circle of his arms. “It isn’t what I ought to be doing.”

“This is a bad idea,” he thought, even as he held her in his arms. “This isn’t what I should be doing.”

Still he held her, and now when she offered her lips coaxingly he kissed her again and again.

Still, he held her, and now when she teasingly offered her lips, he kissed her over and over.

CHAPTER LVI

It is difficult to say whether Lester might not have returned to Jennie after all but for certain influential factors. After a time, with his control of his portion of the estate firmly settled in his hands and the storm of original feeling forgotten, he was well aware that diplomacy—if he ignored his natural tendency to fulfil even implied obligations—could readily bring about an arrangement whereby he and Jennie could be together. But he was haunted by the sense of what might be called an important social opportunity in the form of Mrs. Gerald. He was compelled to set over against his natural tendency toward Jennie a consciousness of what he was ignoring in the personality and fortunes of her rival, who was one of the most significant and interesting figures on the social horizon. For think as he would, these two women were now persistently opposed in his consciousness. The one polished, sympathetic, philosophic—schooled in all the niceties of polite society, and with the means to gratify her every wish; the other natural, sympathetic, emotional, with no schooling in the ways of polite society, but with a feeling for the beauty of life and the lovely things in human relationship which made her beyond any question an exceptional woman. Mrs. Gerald saw it and admitted it. Her criticism of Lester’s relationship with Jennie was not that she was not worth while, but that conditions made it impolitic. On the other hand, union with her was an ideal climax for his social aspirations. This would bring everything out right. He would be as happy with her as he would be with Jennie—almost—and he would have the satisfaction of knowing that this Western social and financial world held no more significant figure than himself. It was not wise to delay either this latter excellent solution of his material problems, and after thinking it over long and seriously he finally concluded that he would not. He had already done Jennie the irreparable wrong of leaving her. What difference did it make if he did this also? She was possessed of everything she could possibly want outside of himself. She had herself deemed it advisable for him to leave. By such figments of the brain, in the face of unsettled and disturbing conditions, he was becoming used to the idea of a new alliance.

It's hard to say whether Lester would have gone back to Jennie if it weren't for some key factors. After a while, with his control of his share of the estate firmly in place and the intensity of his initial feelings faded, he realized that diplomacy—if he disregarded his natural urge to meet even implied obligations—could easily create a situation where he and Jennie could be together. However, he was troubled by the thought of what could be seen as a significant social opportunity in Mrs. Gerald. He felt he had to weigh his natural inclination toward Jennie against his awareness of what he was overlooking in the personality and situation of her rival, who was one of the most prominent and fascinating figures on the social scene. No matter how he thought about it, these two women were now constantly at odds in his mind. One was polished, sympathetic, and philosophical—well-versed in all the nuances of polite society and able to fulfill her every desire; the other was genuine, sympathetic, emotional, and uneducated in the ways of high society, yet she had an appreciation for the beauty of life and the wonderful aspects of human relationships that made her undeniably exceptional. Mrs. Gerald recognized this and acknowledged it. Her critique of Lester's relationship with Jennie wasn’t that Jennie wasn’t worthwhile, but that the situation made it impractical. On the flip side, being with Mrs. Gerald would be a perfect fulfillment of his social ambitions. This would set everything right. He would be as happy with her as he would with Jennie—almost—and he would feel satisfied knowing that there was no one more significant in this Western social and financial world than himself. It wasn’t wise to put off this excellent solution to his material issues, and after thinking it over seriously for a long time, he finally decided not to. He had already done Jennie the irreparable wrong of leaving her. What difference did it make if he did this too? She had everything she could possibly want outside of him. She herself had deemed it wise for him to leave. Through such mental justifications, amidst unsettled and troubling conditions, he was getting used to the idea of a new partnership.

The thing which prevented an eventual resumption of relationship in some form with Jennie was the constant presence of Mrs. Gerald. Circumstances conspired to make her the logical solution of his mental quandary at this time. Alone he could do nothing save to make visits here and there, and he did not care to do that. He was too indifferent mentally to gather about him as a bachelor that atmosphere which he enjoyed and which a woman like Mrs. Gerald could so readily provide. United with her it was simple enough. Their home then, wherever it was, would be full of clever people. He would need to do little save to appear and enjoy it. She understood quite as well as any one how he liked to live. She enjoyed to meet the people he enjoyed meeting. There were so many things they could do together nicely. He visited West Baden at the same time she did, as she suggested. He gave himself over to her in Chicago for dinners, parties, drives. Her house was quite as much his own as hers—she made him feel so. She talked to him about her affairs, showing him exactly how they stood and why she wished him to intervene in this and that matter. She did not wish him to be much alone. She did not want him to think or regret. She came to represent to him comfort, forgetfulness, rest from care. With the others he visited at her house occasionally, and it gradually became rumored about that he would marry her. Because of the fact that there had been so much discussion of his previous relationship, Letty decided that if ever this occurred it should be a quiet affair. She wanted a simple explanation in the papers of how it had come about, and then afterward, when things were normal again and gossip had subsided, she would enter on a dazzling social display for his sake.

The thing that kept him from rekindling any relationship with Jennie was the constant presence of Mrs. Gerald. The situation made her the obvious solution to his mental dilemma at that time. Alone, he could do nothing except make occasional visits here and there, and he wasn’t interested in that. He felt too apathetic to create the kind of atmosphere he enjoyed as a bachelor, which someone like Mrs. Gerald could easily provide. Together with her, it was straightforward. Their home, wherever that might be, would be filled with interesting people. All he would have to do is show up and enjoy himself. She understood just as well as anyone how he liked to live. She loved meeting the people he liked to meet. There were so many nice activities they could do together. He visited West Baden when she did, just as she suggested. He surrendered to her in Chicago for dinners, parties, and drives. Her house felt just as much like his own as it did hers—she made him feel that way. She confided in him about her affairs, showing him exactly where things stood and why she wanted him to step in on this and that issue. She didn’t want him to be alone much. She didn’t want him to think or have regrets. She came to symbolize comfort, forgetfulness, and a break from worry for him. When he visited others at her home occasionally, it gradually spread that he might marry her. Because there had been so much talk about his previous relationship, Letty decided that if this ever happened, it should be a low-key event. She wanted a simple explanation in the papers about how it came to be, and then afterward, when things were back to normal and the gossip had died down, she would launch into a stunning social showcase for his sake.

“Why not let us get married in April and go abroad for the summer?” she asked once, after they had reached a silent understanding that marriage would eventually follow. “Let’s go to Japan. Then we can come back in the fall, and take a house on the drive.”

“Why don't we get married in April and travel abroad for the summer?” she suggested one day, after they had come to a quiet agreement that marriage would eventually happen. “Let’s go to Japan. Then we can return in the fall and rent a house on the drive.”

Lester had been away from Jennie so long now that the first severe wave of self-reproach had passed. He was still doubtful, but he preferred to stifle his misgivings. “Very well,” he replied, almost jokingly. “Only don’t let there be any fuss about it.”

Lester had been away from Jennie for so long that the initial wave of guilt had faded. He still felt uncertain, but he chose to ignore his doubts. “Okay,” he said, almost playfully. “Just don’t make a big deal out of it.”

“Do you really mean that, sweet?” she exclaimed, looking over at him; they had been spending the evening together quietly reading and chatting.

“Do you really mean that, sweet?” she exclaimed, glancing over at him; they had been quietly spending the evening together, reading and chatting.

“I’ve thought about it a long while,” he replied. “I don’t see why not.”

“I’ve thought about it for a long time,” he replied. “I don’t see why not.”

She came over to him and sat on his knee, putting her arms upon his shoulders.

She came over to him and sat on his lap, resting her arms on his shoulders.

“I can scarcely believe you said that,” she said, looking at him curiously.

“I can hardly believe you said that,” she said, looking at him with curiosity.

“Shall I take it back?” he asked.

“Should I take it back?” he asked.

“No, no. It’s agreed for April now. And we’ll go to Japan. You can’t change your mind. There won’t be any fuss. But my, what a trousseau I will prepare!”

“No, no. It's set for April now. And we'll be going to Japan. You can't back out. There won't be any drama. But wow, what a wedding outfit I'm going to prepare!”

He smiled a little constrainedly as she tousled his head; there was a missing note somewhere in this gamut of happiness; perhaps it was because he was getting old.

He smiled somewhat awkwardly as she ruffled his hair; there was a note of unease amid this happiness; maybe it was because he was getting older.

CHAPTER LVII

In the meantime Jennie was going her way, settling herself in the markedly different world in which henceforth she was to move. It seemed a terrible thing at first—this life without Lester. Despite her own strong individuality, her ways had become so involved with his that there seemed to be no possibility of disentangling them. Constantly she was with him in thought and action, just as though they had never separated. Where was he now? What was he doing? What was he saying? How was he looking? In the mornings when she woke it was with the sense that he must be beside her. At night as if she could not go to bed alone. He would come after a while surely—ah, no, of course he would not come. Dear heaven, think of that! Never any more. And she wanted him so.

In the meantime, Jennie was moving on, settling into the completely different world she was now part of. It felt terrible at first—this life without Lester. Despite her strong sense of self, her life had become so intertwined with his that it seemed impossible to untangle them. She was constantly thinking of him and acting as if they had never separated. Where was he now? What was he doing? What was he saying? How did he look? In the mornings when she woke up, it felt like he should be right next to her. At night, it felt impossible to go to bed alone. He would surely come back eventually—oh no, of course he wouldn’t come back. Dear God, just think about that! Never again. And she missed him so much.

Again there were so many little trying things to adjust, for a change of this nature is too radical to be passed over lightly. The explanation she had to make to Vesta was of all the most important. This little girl, who was old enough now to see and think for herself, was not without her surmises and misgivings. Vesta recalled that her mother had been accused of not being married to her father when she was born. She had seen the article about Jennie and Lester in the Sunday paper at the time it had appeared—it had been shown to her at school—but she had had sense enough to say nothing about it, feeling somehow that Jennie would not like it. Lester’s disappearance was a complete surprise; but she had learned in the last two or three years that her mother was very sensitive, and that she could hurt her in unexpected ways. Jennie was finally compelled to tell Vesta that Lester’s fortune had been dependent on his leaving her, solely because she was not of his station. Vesta listened soberly and half suspected the truth. She felt terribly sorry for her mother, and, because of Jennie’s obvious distress, she was trebly gay and courageous. She refused outright the suggestion of going to a boarding-school and kept as close to her mother as she could. She found interesting books to read with her, insisted that they go to see plays together, played to her on the piano, and asked for her mother’s criticisms on her drawing and modeling. She found a few friends in the excellent Sandwood school, and brought them home of an evening to add lightness and gaiety to the cottage life. Jennie, through her growing appreciation of Vesta’s fine character, became more and more drawn toward her. Lester was gone, but at least she had Vesta. That prop would probably sustain her in the face of a waning existence.

Once again, there were so many little things to deal with because a change like this is too big to ignore. The explanation she needed to give Vesta was the most important of all. This little girl, who was now old enough to think for herself, had her own suspicions and concerns. Vesta remembered that her mother had been accused of not being married to her father when she was born. She had seen the article about Jennie and Lester in the Sunday paper when it first came out—it had been shown to her at school—but she was smart enough to keep quiet about it, sensing that Jennie wouldn’t appreciate it. Lester’s disappearance was a total shock; however, she'd learned over the last couple of years that her mother was very sensitive, and she could be hurt in unexpected ways. Jennie finally had to tell Vesta that Lester’s fortune depended on him leaving her, simply because she wasn’t of his social class. Vesta listened seriously and suspected the truth. She felt incredibly sorry for her mother, and because of Jennie’s clear distress, she felt even more cheerful and brave. She outright refused the idea of going to a boarding school and stayed as close to her mother as possible. She found interesting books to read with her, insisted they go see plays together, played piano for her, and asked for her mother’s feedback on her drawing and modeling. She made a few friends at the excellent Sandwood school and brought them home in the evenings to bring some fun and cheer into their cottage life. Through her growing appreciation of Vesta’s wonderful character, Jennie felt increasingly connected to her. Lester was gone, but at least she had Vesta. That support would likely keep her going in the face of a fading existence.

There was also her history to account for to the residents of Sandwood. In many cases where one is content to lead a secluded life it is not necessary to say much of one’s past, but as a rule something must be said. People have the habit of inquiring—if they are no more than butchers and bakers. By degrees one must account for this and that fact, and it was so here. She could not say that her husband was dead. Lester might come back. She had to say that she had left him—to give the impression that it would be she, if any one, who would permit him to return. This put her in an interesting and sympathetic light in the neighborhood. It was the most sensible thing to do. She then settled down to a quiet routine of existence, waiting what dénouement to her life she could not guess.

There was also her history to explain to the people of Sandwood. In many cases, when someone is happy to live a quiet life, it’s not necessary to share much about their past, but generally, something needs to be mentioned. People tend to ask questions—even if they’re just local butchers and bakers. Over time, she had to account for this and that detail, and it was the case here. She couldn’t say her husband was dead. Lester might come back. She had to say she left him—to create the impression that she would be the one to decide if he could return. This painted her in an interesting and sympathetic light in the community. It was the most sensible choice. She then settled into a calm routine, waiting for a resolution to her life that she couldn’t predict.

Sandwood life was not without its charms for a lover of nature, and this, with the devotion of Vesta, offered some slight solace. There was the beauty of the lake, which, with its passing boats, was a never-ending source of joy, and there were many charming drives in the surrounding country. Jennie had her own horse and carryall—one of the horses of the pair they had used in Hyde Park. Other household pets appeared in due course of time, including a collie, that Vesta named Rats; she had brought him from Chicago as a puppy, and he had grown to be a sterling watch-dog, sensible and affectionate. There was also a cat, Jimmy Woods, so called after a boy Vesta knew, and to whom she insisted the cat bore a marked resemblance. There was a singing thrush, guarded carefully against a roving desire for bird-food on the part of Jimmy Woods, and a jar of goldfish. So this little household drifted along quietly and dreamily indeed, but always with the undercurrent of feeling which ran so still because it was so deep.

Sandwood life had its charms for a nature lover, and this, along with Vesta's devotion, provided some comfort. The beauty of the lake, with its passing boats, was an endless source of joy, and there were many lovely drives in the countryside. Jennie had her own horse and carriage—one of the horses they had used in Hyde Park. Other pets joined the household over time, including a collie that Vesta named Rats; she had brought him from Chicago as a puppy, and he grew into a reliable watchdog, sensible and affectionate. There was also a cat, Jimmy Woods, named after a boy Vesta knew and whom she insisted the cat resembled. They kept a singing thrush safe from Jimmy Woods' wandering desire for bird food, along with a jar of goldfish. So, this little household drifted along quietly and dreamily, always carrying an undercurrent of deep feelings that ran silently beneath the surface.

There was no word from Lester for the first few weeks following his departure; he was too busy following up the threads of his new commercial connections and too considerate to wish to keep Jennie in a state of mental turmoil over communications which, under the present circumstances, could mean nothing. He preferred to let matters rest for the time being; then a little later he would write her sanely and calmly of how things were going. He did this after the silence of a month, saying that he had been pretty well pressed by commercial affairs, that he had been in and out of the city frequently (which was the truth), and that he would probably be away from Chicago a large part of the time in the future. He inquired after Vesta and the condition of affairs generally at Sandwood. “I may get up there one of these days,” he suggested, but he really did not mean to come, and Jennie knew that he did not.

Lester had been silent for the first few weeks after he left; he was too busy pursuing his new business connections and too thoughtful to put Jennie through the stress of communications that, given the situation, wouldn’t mean much. He decided to let things be for now; later, he would write to her in a calm and rational manner about how things were going. After a month of silence, he did just that, explaining that he had been quite busy with work, that he had been frequently traveling in and out of the city (which was true), and that he would likely be away from Chicago a lot in the future. He asked about Vesta and how things were going at Sandwood. “I might make it up there one of these days,” he said, but he didn’t actually intend to visit, and Jennie knew that.

Another month passed, and then there was a second letter from him, not so long as the first one. Jennie had written him frankly and fully, telling him just how things stood with her. She concealed entirely her own feelings in the matter, saying that she liked the life very much, and that she was glad to be at Sandwood. She expressed the hope that now everything was coming out for the best for him, and tried to show him that she was really glad matters had been settled. “You mustn’t think of me as being unhappy,” she said in one place, “for I’m not. I am sure it ought to be just as it is, and I wouldn’t be happy if it were any other way. Lay out your life so as to give yourself the greatest happiness, Lester,” she added. “You deserve it. Whatever you do will be just right for me. I won’t mind.” She had Mrs. Gerald in mind, and he suspected as much, but he felt that her generosity must be tinged greatly with self-sacrifice and secret unhappiness. It was the one thing which made him hesitate about taking that final step.

Another month went by, and then he sent a second letter, which was shorter than the first. Jennie had written to him openly and thoroughly, explaining how things were with her. She completely hid her own feelings about it, saying that she liked the life very much and that she was happy to be at Sandwood. She expressed hope that everything was turning out for the best for him and tried to convey that she was genuinely glad things had been resolved. “You shouldn’t think of me as unhappy,” she wrote at one point, “because I’m not. I truly believe it should be just as it is, and I wouldn’t be happy if it were any different. Plan your life in a way that brings you the most happiness, Lester,” she added. “You deserve it. Whatever you do will be fine by me. I won’t mind.” She was thinking of Mrs. Gerald, and he suspected that was the case, but he felt her generosity was likely mixed with self-sacrifice and hidden sadness. That one thing made him hesitate about taking that final step.

The written word and the hidden thought—how they conflict! After six months the correspondence was more or less perfunctory on his part, and at eight it had ceased temporarily.

The written word and the hidden thought—how they clash! After six months, his responses were mostly routine, and by eight they had stopped for a while.

One morning, as she was glancing over the daily paper, she saw among the society notes the following item:

One morning, while she was checking out the daily newspaper, she came across the following item in the society section:

The engagement of Mrs. Malcolm Gerald, of 4044 Drexel Boulevard, to Lester Kane, second son of the late Archibald Kane, of Cincinnati, was formally announced at a party given by the prospective bride on Tuesday to a circle of her immediate friends. The wedding will take place in April.

The engagement of Mrs. Malcolm Gerald, of 4044 Drexel Boulevard, to Lester Kane, the second son of the late Archibald Kane from Cincinnati, was officially announced at a party hosted by the future bride on Tuesday for a small group of her close friends. The wedding is set for April.

The paper fell from her hands. For a few minutes she sat perfectly still, looking straight ahead of her. Could this thing be so? she asked herself. Had it really come at last? She had known that it must come, and yet—and yet she had always hoped that it would not. Why had she hoped? Had not she herself sent him away? Had not she herself suggested this very thing in a roundabout way? It had come now. What must she do? Stay here as a pensioner? The idea was objectionable to her. And yet he had set aside a goodly sum to be hers absolutely. In the hands of a trust company in La Salle Street were railway certificates aggregating seventy-five thousand dollars, which yielded four thousand five hundred annually, the income being paid to her direct. Could she refuse to receive this money? There was Vesta to be considered.

The paper slipped from her fingers. For a few minutes, she sat completely still, staring straight ahead. Could this really be happening? she wondered. Had it truly arrived at last? She had known it would come, and yet—she had always hoped it wouldn't. Why had she hoped? Hadn't she been the one to send him away? Hadn't she suggested this very thing in a roundabout way? It had arrived now. What should she do? Stay here as a dependent? The thought was unpleasant to her. And yet, he had set aside a substantial amount just for her. A trust company on La Salle Street held railway certificates totaling seventy-five thousand dollars, which paid her an annual income of four thousand five hundred, sent directly to her. Could she refuse this money? There was Vesta to think about.

Jennie felt hurt through and through by this denouement, and yet as she sat there she realized that it was foolish to be angry. Life was always doing this sort of a thing to her. It would go on doing so. She was sure of it. If she went out in the world and earned her own living what difference would it make to him? What difference would it make to Mrs. Gerald? Here she was walled in this little place, leading an obscure existence, and there was he out in the great world enjoying life in its fullest and freest sense. It was too bad. But why cry? Why?

Jennie felt deeply hurt by this outcome, but as she sat there, she realized it was pointless to be angry. Life always seemed to do this to her, and she knew it would keep happening. If she stepped out into the world and earned her own living, what difference would it make to him? What difference would it make to Mrs. Gerald? Here she was, stuck in this small place, living an unnoticed life, while he was out in the big world enjoying life to the fullest. It was a shame. But why cry? Why?

Her eyes indeed were dry, but her very soul seemed to be torn in pieces within her. She rose carefully, hid the newspaper at the bottom of a trunk, and turned the key upon it.

Her eyes were definitely dry, but it felt like her whole soul was ripped apart inside her. She stood up slowly, tucked the newspaper at the bottom of a trunk, and locked it up.

CHAPTER LVIII

Now that his engagement to Mrs. Gerald was an accomplished, fact, Lester found no particular difficulty in reconciling himself to the new order of things; undoubtedly it was all for the best. He was sorry for Jennie—very sorry. So was Mrs. Gerald; but there was a practical unguent to her grief in the thought that it was best for both Lester and the girl. He would be happier—was so now. And Jennie would eventually realize that she had done a wise and kindly thing; she would be glad in the consciousness that she had acted so unselfishly. As for Mrs. Gerald, because of her indifference to the late Malcolm Gerald, and because she was realizing the dreams of her youth in getting Lester at last—even though a little late—she was intensely happy. She could think of nothing finer than this daily life with him—the places they would go, the things they would see. Her first season in Chicago as Mrs. Lester Kane the following winter was going to be something worth remembering. And as for Japan—that was almost too good to be true.

Now that his engagement to Mrs. Gerald was official, Lester had no trouble accepting the new situation; it was undoubtedly for the best. He felt bad for Jennie—really bad. Mrs. Gerald felt the same way, but there was a sort of comfort in her sadness knowing it was better for both Lester and the girl. He would be happier—he already was. And Jennie would come to understand that she had made a wise and kind choice; she'd take pride in knowing she acted so selflessly. As for Mrs. Gerald, because she had little attachment to the late Malcolm Gerald and was fulfilling her youthful dreams by finally getting Lester—even if it was a bit late—she felt incredibly happy. She could imagine nothing better than her daily life with him—the places they'd go and the things they'd see. Her first season in Chicago as Mrs. Lester Kane the following winter was going to be unforgettable. And Japan—well, that felt almost too good to be true.

Lester wrote to Jennie of his coming marriage to Mrs. Gerald. He said that he had no explanation to make. It wouldn’t be worth anything if he did make it. He thought he ought to marry Mrs. Gerald. He thought he ought to let her (Jennie) know. He hoped she was well. He wanted her always to feel that he had her real interests at heart. He would do anything in his power to make life as pleasant and agreeable for her as possible. He hoped she would forgive him. And would she remember him affectionately to Vesta? She ought to be sent to a finishing school.

Lester wrote to Jennie about his upcoming marriage to Mrs. Gerald. He mentioned that he had no explanation to give; it wouldn’t matter if he did. He believed he should marry Mrs. Gerald and thought it was right to let her (Jennie) know. He hoped she was doing well and wanted her to always feel that he cared about her true interests. He would do everything he could to make her life as pleasant and enjoyable as possible. He hoped she would forgive him. And could she please remember him fondly to Vesta? She should definitely be sent to a finishing school.

Jennie understood the situation perfectly. She knew that Lester had been drawn to Mrs. Gerald from the time he met her at the Carlton in London. She had been angling for him. Now she had him. It was all right. She hoped he would be happy. She was glad to write and tell him so, explaining that she had seen the announcement in the papers. Lester read her letter thoughtfully; there was more between the lines than the written words conveyed. Her fortitude was a charm to him even in this hour. In spite of all he had done and what he was now going to do, he realized that he still cared for Jennie in a way. She was a noble and a charming woman. If everything else had been all right he would not be going to marry Mrs. Gerald at all. And yet he did marry her.

Jennie completely understood the situation. She knew that Lester had been attracted to Mrs. Gerald since the moment they met at the Carlton in London. She had been pursuing him. Now she had him. That was fine. She hoped he would be happy. She was glad to write him and say so, mentioning that she had seen the announcement in the papers. Lester read her letter thoughtfully; there was more in between the lines than what the words expressed. Her strength was appealing to him even at this moment. Despite everything he had done and what he was about to do, he realized that he still cared for Jennie in some way. She was a noble and charming woman. If everything else had been okay, he wouldn't be marrying Mrs. Gerald at all. And yet he did marry her.

The ceremony was performed on April fifteenth, at the residence of Mrs. Gerald, a Roman Catholic priest officiating. Lester was a poor example of the faith he occasionally professed. He was an agnostic, but because he had been reared in the church he felt that he might as well be married in it. Some fifty guests, intimate friends, had been invited. The ceremony went off with perfect smoothness. There were jubilant congratulations and showers of rice and confetti. While the guests were still eating and drinking Lester and Letty managed to escape by a side entrance into a closed carriage, and were off. Fifteen minutes later there was pursuit pell-mell on the part of the guests to the Chicago, Rock Island and Pacific depôt; but by that time the happy couple were in their private car, and the arrival of the rice throwers made no difference. More champagne was opened; then the starting of the train ended all excitement, and the newly wedded pair were at last safely off.

The ceremony took place on April fifteenth at Mrs. Gerald's house, with a Roman Catholic priest officiating. Lester was not a great example of the faith he sometimes claimed to follow. He was an agnostic, but since he had grown up in the church, he figured he might as well get married there. About fifty close friends had been invited. The ceremony went off without a hitch. There were joyful congratulations and showers of rice and confetti. While the guests were still eating and drinking, Lester and Letty managed to slip out through a side entrance into a private carriage and were off. Fifteen minutes later, the guests rushed in pursuit to the Chicago, Rock Island and Pacific depot; but by that time, the happy couple were in their private car, and the arrival of the rice throwers didn’t matter. More champagne was opened, and then the train's departure put an end to all the excitement, and the newlyweds were finally on their way.

“Well, now you have me,” said Lester, cheerfully pulling Letty down beside him into a seat, “what of it?”

“Well, now you have me,” said Lester, happily pulling Letty down beside him into a seat, “what’s up?”

“This of it,” she exclaimed, and hugged him close, kissing him fervently. In four days they were in San Francisco, and two days later on board a fast steamship bound for the land of the Mikado.

“This is amazing!” she exclaimed, hugging him tightly and kissing him passionately. In four days, they arrived in San Francisco, and two days later, they boarded a fast steamboat headed for the land of the Mikado.

In the meanwhile Jennie was left to brood. The original announcement in the newspapers had said that he was to be married in April, and she had kept close watch for additional information. Finally she learned that the wedding would take place on April fifteenth at the residence of the prospective bride, the hour being high noon. In spite of her feeling of resignation, Jennie followed it all hopelessly, like a child, hungry and forlorn, looking into a lighted window at Christmas time.

In the meantime, Jennie was left to think things over. The original announcement in the newspapers had stated that he was getting married in April, and she had been keeping a close watch for more updates. Eventually, she found out that the wedding would happen on April fifteenth at the bride's house, with the ceremony starting at noon. Despite her sense of resignation, Jennie followed the news hopelessly, like a child, hungry and sad, gazing into a brightly lit window at Christmas time.

On the day of the wedding she waited miserably for twelve o’clock to strike; it seemed as though she were really present—and looking on. She could see in her mind’s eye the handsome residence, the carriages, the guests, the feast, the merriment, the ceremony—all. Telepathically and psychologically she received impressions of the private car and of the joyous journey they were going to take. The papers had stated that they would spend their honeymoon in Japan. Their honeymoon! Her Lester! And Mrs. Gerald was so attractive. She could see her now—the new Mrs. Kane—the only Mrs. Kane that ever was, lying in his arms. He had held her so once. He had loved her. Yes, he had! There was a solid lump in her throat as she thought of this. Oh, dear! She sighed to herself, and clasped her hands forcefully; but it did no good. She was just as miserable as before.

On the day of the wedding, she waited painfully for noon to arrive; it felt as if she was really there—watching. She could picture the beautiful house, the carriages, the guests, the feast, the fun, the ceremony—all of it. She picked up on the vibes of the private train and the happy trip they were about to take. The news said they would spend their honeymoon in Japan. Their honeymoon! Her Lester! And Mrs. Gerald was so charming. She could see her now—the new Mrs. Kane—the only Mrs. Kane that ever was, wrapped in his arms. He had held her like that once. He had loved her. Yes, he really had! A heavy lump formed in her throat as she thought about it. Oh, dear! She sighed to herself and pressed her hands tightly together; but it didn't help. She felt just as miserable as before.

When the day was over she was actually relieved; anyway, the deed was done and nothing could change it. Vesta was sympathetically aware of what was happening, but kept silent. She too had seen the report in the newspaper. When the first and second day after had passed Jennie was much calmer mentally, for now she was face to face with the inevitable. But it was weeks before the sharp pain dulled to the old familiar ache. Then there were months before they would be back again, though, of course, that made no difference now. Only Japan seemed so far off, and somehow she had liked the thought that Lester was near her—somewhere in the city.

When the day ended, she actually felt a sense of relief; anyway, it was done, and nothing could change that. Vesta understood what was happening but stayed quiet. She had also seen the report in the newspaper. By the third day, Jennie was feeling much calmer mentally, as she was now facing the inevitable. But it took weeks for the sharp pain to fade into the familiar ache. Then it was months before they would return again, though, of course, that didn’t matter now. Only Japan felt so distant, and somehow she had liked the idea that Lester was close by—somewhere in the city.

The spring and summer passed, and now it was early in October. One chilly day Vesta came home from school complaining of a headache. When Jennie had given her hot milk—a favorite remedy of her mother’s—and had advised a cold towel for the back of her head, Vesta went to her room and lay down. The following morning she had a slight fever. This lingered while the local physician, Dr. Emory, treated her tentatively, suspecting that it might be typhoid, of which there were several cases in the village. This doctor told Jennie that Vesta was probably strong enough constitutionally to shake it off, but it might be that she would have a severe siege. Mistrusting her own skill in so delicate a situation, Jennie sent to Chicago for a trained nurse, and then began a period of watchfulness which was a combination of fear, longing, hope, and courage.

The spring and summer went by, and now it was early October. One chilly day, Vesta came home from school complaining of a headache. After Jennie gave her hot milk—a favorite remedy of their mother’s—and suggested a cold towel for the back of her head, Vesta went to her room and laid down. The next morning, she had a slight fever. This persisted while the local doctor, Dr. Emory, treated her cautiously, suspecting it might be typhoid, which had several cases in the village. He told Jennie that Vesta was probably strong enough to recover, but there was a chance she would go through a tough time. Doubting her own ability to handle such a delicate situation, Jennie contacted Chicago for a trained nurse, and then began a period of vigilance filled with fear, longing, hope, and courage.

Now there could be no doubt; the disease was typhoid. Jennie hesitated about communicating with Lester, who was supposed to be in New York; the papers had said that he intended to spend the winter there. But when the doctor, after watching the case for a week, pronounced it severe, she thought she ought to write anyhow, for no one could tell what would happen. Lester had been so fond of Vesta. He would probably want to know.

Now there was no doubt; the illness was typhoid. Jennie was unsure about reaching out to Lester, who was supposed to be in New York; the papers had reported that he planned to spend the winter there. But when the doctor, after monitoring the case for a week, declared it severe, she felt she should write anyway, since no one could predict what might happen. Lester had been so fond of Vesta. He would probably want to know.

The letter sent to him did not reach him, for at the time it arrived he was on his way to the West Indies. Jennie was compelled to watch alone by Vesta’s sick-bed, for although sympathetic neighbors, realizing the pathos of the situation were attentive, they could not supply the spiritual consolation which only those who truly love us can give. There was a period when Vesta appeared to be rallying, and both the physician and the nurse were hopeful; but afterward she became weaker. It was said by Dr. Emory that her heart and kidneys had become affected.

The letter sent to him never got to him because, at the time it arrived, he was on his way to the West Indies. Jennie had to watch over Vesta's sickbed alone, since although caring neighbors understood how heartbreaking the situation was and tried to help, they couldn't provide the emotional support that only those who truly love us can offer. There was a time when Vesta seemed to be recovering, and both the doctor and the nurse were optimistic; but then she grew weaker. Dr. Emory mentioned that her heart and kidneys were starting to fail.

There came a time when the fact had to be faced that death was imminent. The doctor’s face was grave, the nurse was non-committal in her opinion. Jennie hovered about, praying the only prayer that is prayer—the fervent desire of her heart concentrated on the one issue—that Vesta should get well. The child had come so close to her during the last few years! She understood her mother. She was beginning to realize clearly what her life had been. And Jennie, through her, had grown to a broad understanding of responsibility. She knew now what it meant to be a good mother and to have children. If Lester had not objected to it, and she had been truly married, she would have been glad to have others. Again, she had always felt that she owed Vesta so much—at least a long and happy life to make up to her for the ignominy of her birth and rearing. Jennie had been so happy during the past few years to see Vesta growing into beautiful, graceful, intelligent womanhood. And now she was dying. Dr. Emory finally sent to Chicago for a physician friend of his, who came to consider the case with him. He was an old man, grave, sympathetic, understanding. He shook his head. “The treatment has been correct,” he said. “Her system does not appear to be strong enough to endure the strain. Some physiques are more susceptible to this malady than others.” It was agreed that if within three days a change for the better did not come the end was close at hand.

There came a time when it had to be accepted that death was near. The doctor’s expression was serious, and the nurse remained neutral in her views. Jennie was nearby, praying the only prayer that truly matters—the intense wish in her heart focused on one thing—that Vesta should recover. The child had become so important to her in the past few years! She understood her mother. She was starting to clearly realize what her life had been. And through Vesta, Jennie had developed a deep understanding of responsibility. She now knew what it meant to be a good mother and to raise children. If Lester hadn't opposed it, and if she had been genuinely married, she would have been happy to have more kids. Once again, she had always felt that she owed Vesta so much—at least a long and happy life to make up for the shame of her birth and upbringing. Jennie had been so joyful over the past few years watching Vesta grow into a beautiful, graceful, intelligent young woman. And now she was dying. Dr. Emory eventually contacted a physician friend in Chicago, who came to assess the situation with him. He was an older man, serious, sympathetic, and understanding. He shook his head. “The treatment has been right,” he said. “Her body doesn’t seem strong enough to handle the stress. Some bodies are more vulnerable to this illness than others.” They agreed that if there wasn't any improvement within three days, the end would be near.

No one can conceive the strain to which Jennie’s spirit was subjected by this intelligence, for it was deemed best that she should know. She hovered about white-faced—feeling intensely, but scarcely thinking. She seemed to vibrate consciously with Vesta’s altering states. If there was the least improvement she felt it physically. If there was a decline her barometric temperament registered the fact.

No one can imagine the pressure Jennie's spirit was under because of this news, but it was thought best for her to know. She walked around with a pale face—feeling deeply, but hardly thinking. She seemed to connect with Vesta’s changing condition on a personal level. The slightest improvement affected her physically. If there was any decline, her emotional state reflected that.

There was a Mrs. Davis, a fine, motherly soul of fifty, stout and sympathetic, who lived four doors from Jennie, and who understood quite well how she was feeling. She had co-operated with the nurse and doctor from the start to keep Jennie’s mental state as nearly normal as possible.

There was a Mrs. Davis, a caring, motherly woman in her fifties, who was stout and understanding. She lived four doors down from Jennie and really got how Jennie was feeling. From the beginning, she worked together with the nurse and doctor to keep Jennie's mental state as normal as possible.

“Now, you just go to your room and lie down, Mrs. Kane,” she would say to Jennie when she found her watching helplessly at the bedside or wandering to and fro, wondering what to do. “I’ll take charge of everything. I’ll do just what you would do. Lord bless you, don’t you think I know? I’ve been the mother of seven and lost three. Don’t you think I understand?” Jennie put her head on her big, warm shoulder one day and cried. Mrs. Davis cried with her. “I understand,” she said. “There, there, you poor dear. Now you come with me.” And she led her to her sleeping-room.

“Now, just go to your room and lie down, Mrs. Kane,” she would say to Jennie when she found her helplessly watching by the bedside or pacing around, unsure of what to do. “I’ll handle everything. I’ll do just what you would do. For goodness' sake, don’t you think I know? I’ve been a mother to seven and lost three. Don’t you think I get it?” One day, Jennie rested her head on her big, warm shoulder and cried. Mrs. Davis cried with her. “I understand,” she said. “There, there, you poor dear. Now come with me.” And she led her to her bedroom.

Jennie could not be away long. She came back after a few minutes unrested and unrefreshed. Finally one midnight, when the nurse had persuaded her that all would be well until morning anyhow, there came a hurried stirring in the sick-room. Jennie was lying down for a few minutes on her bed in the adjoining room. She heard it and arose. Mrs. Davis had come in, and she and the nurse were conferring as to Vesta’s condition—standing close beside her.

Jennie couldn't be gone for long. She returned after a few minutes, feeling tired and not any more refreshed. One midnight, when the nurse reassured her that everything would be fine until morning, there was a sudden commotion in the sick room. Jennie was lying down for a few minutes on her bed in the next room. She heard the noise and got up. Mrs. Davis had entered, and she and the nurse were discussing Vesta's condition, standing close beside her.

Jennie understood. She came up and looked at her daughter keenly. Vesta’s pale, waxen face told the story. She was breathing faintly, her eyes closed. “She’s very weak,” whispered the nurse. Mrs. Davis took Jennie’s hand.

Jennie understood. She approached and looked at her daughter intently. Vesta’s pale, lifeless face revealed everything. She was breathing faintly, her eyes shut. “She’s very weak,” whispered the nurse. Mrs. Davis took Jennie’s hand.

The moments passed, and after a time the clock in the hall struck one. Miss Murfree, the nurse, moved to the medicine-table several times, wetting a soft piece of cotton cloth with alcohol and bathing Vesta’s lips. At the striking of the half-hour there was a stir of the weak body—a profound sigh. Jennie bent forward eagerly, but Mrs. Davis drew her back. The nurse came and motioned them away. Respiration had ceased.

The moments went by, and after a while, the clock in the hall struck one. Miss Murfree, the nurse, walked over to the medicine table several times, wetting a soft piece of cotton cloth with alcohol and gently wiping Vesta’s lips. When the clock struck the half-hour, there was a movement from the frail body—a deep sigh. Jennie leaned in eagerly, but Mrs. Davis pulled her back. The nurse came over and signaled for them to step away. Breathing had stopped.

Mrs. Davis seized Jennie firmly. “There, there, you poor dear,” she whispered when she began to shake. “It can’t be helped. Don’t cry.”

Mrs. Davis held Jennie tightly. “There, there, you poor thing,” she whispered when Jennie started to shake. “It can't be avoided. Don't cry.”

Jennie sank on her knees beside the bed and caressed Vesta’s still warm hand. “Oh no, Vesta,” she pleaded. “Not you! Not you!”

Jennie dropped to her knees next to the bed and stroked Vesta’s still warm hand. “Oh no, Vesta,” she begged. “Not you! Not you!”

“There, dear, come now,” soothed the voice of Mrs. Davis. “Can’t you leave it all in God’s hands? Can’t you believe that everything is for the best?”

“Come on now, dear,” Mrs. Davis’s voice reassured. “Can’t you just leave it all in God’s hands? Can’t you believe that everything is for the best?”

Jennie felt as if the earth had fallen. All ties were broken. There was no light anywhere in the immense darkness of her existence.

Jennie felt like the ground had collapsed beneath her. All connections were severed. There was no light at all in the vast darkness of her life.

CHAPTER LIX

This added blow from inconsiderate fortune was quite enough to throw Jennie back into that state of hyper-melancholia from which she had been drawn with difficulty during the few years of comfort and affection which she had enjoyed with Lester in Hyde Park. It was really weeks before she could realize that Vesta was gone. The emaciated figure which she saw for a day or two after the end did not seem like Vesta. Where was the joy and lightness, the quickness of motion, the subtle radiance of health? All gone. Only this pale, lily-hued shell—and silence. Jennie had no tears to shed; only a deep, insistent pain to feel. If only some counselor of eternal wisdom could have whispered to her that obvious and convincing truth—there are no dead.

This added blow from cruel fate was enough to send Jennie back into the deep sadness she had struggled to escape during the few years of comfort and love she had shared with Lester in Hyde Park. It took her weeks to accept that Vesta was gone. The frail figure she saw for a day or two after the end didn't look like Vesta. Where was the joy and lightness, the energy, the vibrant glow of health? All gone. Just this pale, lifeless shell—and silence. Jennie had no tears to cry; only a deep, persistent pain to endure. If only some wise counselor could have told her that obvious and comforting truth—there are no dead.

Miss Murfree, Dr. Emory, Mrs. Davis, and some others among the neighbors were most sympathetic and considerate. Mrs. Davis sent a telegram to Lester saying that Vesta was dead, but, being absent, there was no response. The house was looked after with scrupulous care by others, for Jennie was incapable of attending to it herself. She walked about looking at things which Vesta had owned or liked—things which Lester or she had given her—sighing over the fact that Vesta would not need or use them any more. She gave instructions that the body should be taken to Chicago and buried in the Cemetery of the Redeemer, for Lester, at the time of Gerhardt’s death, had purchased a small plot of ground there. She also expressed her wish that the minister of the little Lutheran church in Cottage Grove Avenue, where Gerhardt had attended, should be requested to say a few words at the grave. There were the usual preliminary services at the house. The local Methodist minister read a portion of the first epistle of Paul to the Thessalonians, and a body of Vesta’s classmates sang “Nearer My God to Thee.” There were flowers, a white coffin, a world of sympathetic expressions, and then Vesta was taken away. The coffin was properly incased for transportation, put on the train, and finally delivered at the Lutheran cemetery in Chicago.

Miss Murfree, Dr. Emory, Mrs. Davis, and a few other neighbors were very supportive and thoughtful. Mrs. Davis sent a telegram to Lester informing him that Vesta had passed away, but since he was away, there was no reply. Others took great care of the house because Jennie couldn’t manage it herself. She wandered around, looking at items that Vesta had owned or loved—things that Lester or she had given to her—sighing over the fact that Vesta would no longer need or use them. She instructed that the body be taken to Chicago and buried in the Cemetery of the Redeemer, where Lester had bought a small plot at the time of Gerhardt’s death. She also mentioned that the minister of the small Lutheran church on Cottage Grove Avenue, where Gerhardt had gone, should be asked to say a few words at the grave. There were the usual preliminary services at the house. The local Methodist minister read a part of the first epistle of Paul to the Thessalonians, and a group of Vesta’s classmates sang “Nearer My God to Thee.” There were flowers, a white coffin, lots of sympathetic notes, and then Vesta was taken away. The coffin was properly prepared for transport, placed on the train, and eventually delivered to the Lutheran cemetery in Chicago.

Jennie moved as one in a dream. She was dazed, almost to the point of insensibility. Five of her neighborhood friends, at the solicitation of Mrs. Davis, were kind enough to accompany her. At the grave-side when the body was finally lowered she looked at it, one might have thought indifferently, for she was numb from suffering. She returned to Sandwood after it was all over, saying that she would not stay long. She wanted to come back to Chicago, where she could be near Vesta and Gerhardt.

Jennie moved like she was in a daze. She felt almost numb. Five of her neighborhood friends, encouraged by Mrs. Davis, kindly joined her. At the graveside, when the body was finally lowered, she looked at it as if she didn't care, because she was numb from the pain. After everything was over, she went back to Sandwood, saying she wouldn't stay long. She wanted to return to Chicago, where she could be close to Vesta and Gerhardt.

After the funeral Jennie tried to think of her future. She fixed her mind on the need of doing something, even though she did not need to. She thought that she might like to try nursing, and could start at once to obtain the training which was required. She also thought of William. He was unmarried, and perhaps he might be willing to come and live with her. Only she did not know where he was, and Bass was also in ignorance of his whereabouts. She finally concluded that she would try to get work in a store. Her disposition was against idleness. She could not live alone here, and she could not have her neighbors sympathetically worrying over what was to become of her. Miserable as she was, she would be less miserable stopping in a hotel in Chicago, and looking for something to do, or living in a cottage somewhere near the Cemetery of the Redeemer. It also occurred to her that she might adopt a homeless child. There were a number of orphan asylums in the city.

After the funeral, Jennie tried to think about her future. She focused on the need to do something, even though she didn’t actually have to. She considered the idea of nursing and thought she could start training right away. She also thought about William. He was single, and maybe he would be willing to come live with her. But she didn’t know where he was, and Bass didn't know either. In the end, she decided to look for a job in a store. She wasn’t the type to be idle. She couldn’t live alone here, and she didn’t want her neighbors worrying about her. Despite how miserable she felt, she thought she’d be less miserable staying in a hotel in Chicago and looking for something to do, or living in a cottage near the Cemetery of the Redeemer. She also considered adopting a homeless child since there were several orphanages in the city.

Some three weeks after Vesta’s death Lester returned to Chicago with his wife, and discovered the first letter, the telegram, and an additional note telling him that Vesta was dead. He was truly grieved, for his affection for the girl had been real. He was very sorry for Jennie, and he told his wife that he would have to go out and see her. He was wondering what she would do. She could not live alone. Perhaps he could suggest something which would help her. He took the train to Sandwood, but Jennie had gone to the Hotel Tremont in Chicago. He went there, but Jennie had gone to her daughter’s grave; later he called again and found her in. When the boy presented his card she suffered an upwelling of feeling—a wave that was more intense than that with which she had received him in the olden days, for now her need of him was greater.

About three weeks after Vesta’s death, Lester returned to Chicago with his wife and found the first letter, the telegram, and an additional note informing him that Vesta was dead. He was genuinely saddened, as his feelings for the girl had been sincere. He felt very sorry for Jennie and told his wife that he needed to go see her. He was curious about what she would do. She couldn’t live alone. Maybe he could suggest something to help her. He took the train to Sandwood, but Jennie had gone to the Hotel Tremont in Chicago. He went there, but Jennie had gone to her daughter’s grave; later, he called again and found her home. When the boy delivered his card, she felt a surge of emotion—a wave stronger than when she used to greet him in the past, because now she needed him even more.

Lester, in spite of the glamor of his new affection and the restoration of his wealth, power, and dignities, had had time to think deeply of what he had done. His original feeling of doubt and dissatisfaction with himself had never wholly quieted. It did not ease him any to know that he had left Jennie comfortably fixed, for it was always so plain to him that money was not the point at issue with her. Affection was what she craved. Without it she was like a rudderless boat on an endless sea, and he knew it. She needed him, and he was ashamed to think that his charity had not outweighed his sense of self-preservation and his desire for material advantage. To-day as the elevator carried him up to her room he was really sorry, though he knew now that no act of his could make things right. He had been to blame from the very beginning, first for taking her, then for failing to stick by a bad bargain. Well, it could not be helped now. The best thing he could do was to be fair, to counsel with her, to give her the best of his sympathy and advice.

Lester, despite the excitement of his new romance and the return of his wealth, power, and status, had taken the time to reflect on what he had done. His initial feelings of doubt and dissatisfaction with himself had never completely faded. It didn’t help that he knew he had left Jennie in a comfortable situation, because it was always clear to him that money wasn’t what mattered to her. She longed for affection. Without it, she was like a rudderless boat lost on an endless sea, and he understood that. She needed him, and he felt ashamed to realize that his kindness hadn’t outweighed his instinct for self-preservation and his desire for material gain. Today, as the elevator took him up to her room, he genuinely felt regret, even though he recognized that nothing he could do would fix things. He had been at fault from the start, first for taking her, then for not sticking by a poor decision. Well, there was no changing it now. The best he could do was to be fair, to talk things through with her, and to offer her his genuine sympathy and advice.

“Hello, Jennie,” he said familiarly as she opened the door to him in her hotel room, his glance taking in the ravages which death and suffering had wrought. She was thinner, her face quite drawn and colorless, her eyes larger by contrast. “I’m awfully sorry about Vesta,” he said a little awkwardly. “I never dreamed anything like that could happen.”

“Hey, Jennie,” he said casually as she opened the door to her hotel room, his eyes taking in the toll that death and suffering had taken on her. She looked thinner, her face drawn and pale, her eyes seeming bigger in contrast. “I’m really sorry about Vesta,” he said somewhat awkwardly. “I never imagined anything like that could happen.”

It was the first word of comfort which had meant anything to her since Vesta died—since Lester had left her, in fact. It touched her that he had come to sympathize; for the moment she could not speak. Tears welled over her eyelids and down upon her cheeks.

It was the first comforting word that really meant something to her since Vesta died—since Lester had actually left her. It meant a lot to her that he had come to show his sympathy; for the moment, she couldn’t speak. Tears filled her eyes and streamed down her cheeks.

“Don’t cry, Jennie,” he said, putting his arm around her and holding her head to his shoulder. “I’m sorry. I’ve been sorry for a good many things that can’t be helped now. I’m intensely sorry for this. Where did you bury her?”

“Don’t cry, Jennie,” he said, wrapping his arm around her and resting her head on his shoulder. “I’m sorry. I’ve felt sorry about a lot of things that can’t be changed now. I really regret this. Where did you bury her?”

“Beside papa,” she said, sobbing.

“Next to dad,” she said, sobbing.

“Too bad,” he murmured, and held her in silence. She finally gained control of herself sufficiently to step away from him; then wiping her eyes with her handkerchief, she asked him to sit down.

“Too bad,” he murmured, holding her in silence. She finally regained her composure enough to step away from him; then, wiping her eyes with her handkerchief, she asked him to sit down.

“I’m so sorry,” he went on, “that this should have happened while I was away. I would have been with you if I had been here. I suppose you won’t want to live out at Sandwood now?”

“I’m really sorry,” he continued, “that this happened while I was away. I would have been here with you if I could. I guess you probably don’t want to stay out at Sandwood anymore?”

“I can’t, Lester,” she replied. “I couldn’t stand it.”

“I can’t, Lester,” she said. “I just couldn’t take it.”

“Where are you thinking of going?”

“Where do you want to go?”

“Oh, I don’t know yet. I didn’t want to be a bother to those people out there. I thought I’d get a little house somewhere and adopt a baby maybe, or get something to do. I don’t like to be alone.”

“Oh, I’m not sure yet. I didn’t want to trouble those people out there. I was thinking about getting a small house somewhere and maybe adopting a baby, or finding something to keep me busy. I just don’t like being alone.”

“That isn’t a bad idea,” he said, “that of adopting a baby. It would be a lot of company for you. You know how to go about getting one?”

"That's not a bad idea," he said, "adopting a baby. It would give you a lot of company. Do you know how to go about getting one?"

“You just ask at one of these asylums, don’t you?”

“You just ask at one of these mental health facilities, right?”

“I think there’s something more than that,” he replied thoughtfully. “There are some formalities—I don’t know what they are. They try to keep control of the child in some way. You had better consult with Watson and get him to help you. Pick out your baby, and then let him do the rest. I’ll speak to him about it.”

“I think there’s something more to it than that,” he said thoughtfully. “There are some formalities—I’m not sure what they are. They try to maintain control over the child in some way. You should consult with Watson and get his help. Choose your baby, and then let him handle the rest. I’ll talk to him about it.”

Lester saw that she needed companionship badly. “Where is your brother George?” he asked.

Lester noticed that she really needed company. “Where's your brother George?” he asked.

“He’s in Rochester, but he couldn’t come. Bass said he was married,” she added.

“He’s in Rochester, but he couldn’t make it. Bass said he’s married,” she added.

“There isn’t any other member of the family you could persuade to come and live with you?”

“There’s no other family member you could convince to come and live with you?”

“I might get William, but I don’t know where he is.”

“I might find William, but I don’t know where he is.”

“Why not try that new section west of Jackson Park,” he suggested, “if you want a house here in Chicago? I see some nice cottages out that way. You needn’t buy. Just rent until you see how well you’re satisfied.”

“Why not check out that new area west of Jackson Park?” he suggested. “If you want a house in Chicago, I’ve seen some nice cottages over there. You don’t have to buy right away. Just rent for now until you figure out how happy you are with it.”

Jennie thought this good advice because it came from Lester. It was good of him to take this much interest in her affairs. She wasn’t entirely separated from him after all. He cared a little. She asked him how his wife was, whether he had had a pleasant trip, whether he was going to stay in Chicago. All the while he was thinking that he had treated her badly. He went to the window and looked down into Dearborn Street, the world of traffic below holding his attention. The great mass of trucks and vehicles, the counter streams of hurrying pedestrians, seemed like a puzzle. So shadows march in a dream. It was growing dusk, and lights were springing up here and there.

Jennie thought this was good advice because it came from Lester. It was nice of him to take this much interest in her life. She wasn't completely out of touch with him after all. He cared a little. She asked him how his wife was, if he had a good trip, and if he was planning to stay in Chicago. Meanwhile, he was thinking about how he had treated her poorly. He walked to the window and looked down at Dearborn Street, the busy world of traffic below capturing his attention. The huge mass of trucks and cars, the streams of hurried pedestrians, felt like a puzzle. Just like shadows moving in a dream. It was getting dark, and lights were flickering on here and there.

“I want to tell you something, Jennie,” said Lester, finally rousing himself from his fit of abstraction. “I may seem peculiar to you, after all that has happened, but I still care for you—in my way. I’ve thought of you right along since I left. I thought it good business to leave you—the way things were. I thought I liked Letty well enough to marry her. From one point of view it still seems best, but I’m not so much happier. I was just as happy with you as I ever will be. It isn’t myself that’s important in this transaction apparently; the individual doesn’t count much in the situation. I don’t know whether you see what I’m driving at, but all of us are more or less pawns. We’re moved about like chessmen by circumstances over which we have no control.”

“I want to share something with you, Jennie,” Lester said, finally shaking off his deep thoughts. “I might seem strange to you after everything that’s happened, but I still care about you—in my own way. I’ve thought about you all the time since I left. I thought it was best to leave you—the way things were. I thought I liked Letty enough to marry her. From one perspective, it still seems like the right choice, but I’m not much happier. I was just as happy with you as I’ll ever be. It doesn’t seem like I’m the one who really matters in this situation; the individual doesn’t hold much significance here. I don’t know if you understand what I’m getting at, but we’re all kind of pawns. We’re moved around like chess pieces by circumstances beyond our control.”

“I understand, Lester,” she answered. “I’m not complaining. I know it’s for the best.”

“I get it, Lester,” she replied. “I’m not complaining. I know it’s for the best.”

“After all, life is more or less of a farce,” he went on a little bitterly. “It’s a silly show. The best we can do is to hold our personality intact. It doesn’t appear that integrity has much to do with it.”

“After all, life is pretty much a joke,” he continued a bit bitterly. “It’s a ridiculous performance. The best we can do is keep our personality intact. It doesn’t seem like integrity plays a big role in it.”

Jennie did not quite grasp what he was talking about, but she knew it meant that he was not entirely satisfied with himself and was sorry for her.

Jennie didn’t fully understand what he was saying, but she could tell that he wasn’t completely happy with himself and felt bad for her.

“Don’t worry over me, Lester,” she consoled. “I’m all right; I’ll get along. It did seem terrible to me for a while—getting used to being alone. I’ll be all right now. I’ll get along.”

“Don’t worry about me, Lester,” she comforted. “I’m fine; I’ll manage. It did feel awful for a while—adjusting to being alone. I’ll be okay now. I’ll manage.”

“I want you to feel that my attitude hasn’t changed,” he continued eagerly. “I’m interested in what concerns you. Mrs.—Letty understands that. She knows just how I feel. When you get settled I’ll come in and see how you’re fixed. I’ll come around here again in a few days. You understand how I feel, don’t you?”

“I want you to know that my feelings haven’t changed,” he continued eagerly. “I care about what matters to you. Mrs.—Letty gets that. She knows exactly how I feel. Once you’re settled in, I’ll come by and check on how you’re doing. I’ll swing by again in a few days. You understand how I feel, right?”

“Yes, I do,” she said.

“Yes, I do,” she replied.

He took her hand, turning it sympathetically in his own. “Don’t worry,” he said. “I don’t want you to do that. I’ll do the best I can. You’re still Jennie to me, if you don’t mind. I’m pretty bad, but I’m not all bad.”

He took her hand, gently turning it in his own. “Don’t worry,” he said. “I don’t want you to feel that way. I’ll do my best. You’re still Jennie to me, if that’s okay. I’m not great, but I’m not all terrible.”

“It’s all right, Lester. I wanted you to do as you did. It’s for the best. You probably are happy since—”

“It’s okay, Lester. I wanted you to do what you did. It’s for the best. You’re probably happy since—”

“Now, Jennie,” he interrupted; then he pressed affectionately her hand, her arm, her shoulder. “Want to kiss me for old times’ sake?” he smiled.

“Now, Jennie,” he interrupted; then he affectionately squeezed her hand, her arm, her shoulder. “Want to kiss me for old times’ sake?” he smiled.

She put her hands over his shoulders, looked long into his eyes, then kissed him. When their lips met she trembled. Lester also felt unsteady. Jennie saw his agitation, and tried hard to speak.

She placed her hands on his shoulders, gazed deeply into his eyes, then kissed him. When their lips touched, she felt a shiver. Lester also felt a bit off balance. Jennie noticed his unease and made an effort to speak.

“You’d better go now,” she said firmly. “It’s getting dark.”

“You should go now,” she said firmly. “It’s getting dark.”

He went away, and yet he knew that he wanted above all things to remain; she was still the one woman in the world for him. And Jennie felt comforted even though the separation still existed in all its finality. She did not endeavor to explain or adjust the moral and ethical entanglements of the situation. She was not, like so many, endeavoring to put the ocean into a tea-cup, or to tie up the shifting universe in a mess of strings called law. Lester still cared for her a little. He cared for Letty too. That was all right. She had hoped once that he might want her only. Since he did not, was his affection worth nothing? She could not think, she could not feel that. And neither could he.

He walked away, but deep down, he knew he wanted to stay more than anything; she was still the only woman in the world for him. Jennie felt a sense of comfort despite the separation being so final. She didn’t try to explain or sort out the complicated moral and ethical issues of the situation. She wasn’t like so many others trying to fit the ocean into a teacup or to bind the ever-changing universe with strings called laws. Lester still had some feelings for her. He cared about Letty too. That was fine. She had once hoped he might want her exclusively. Since he didn’t, did that mean his feelings didn’t matter? She couldn’t believe that, and neither could he.

CHAPTER LX

The drift of events for a period of five years carried Lester and Jennie still farther apart; they settled naturally into their respective spheres, without the renewal of the old time relationship which their several meetings at the Tremont at first seemed to foreshadow. Lester was in the thick of social and commercial affairs; he walked in paths to which Jennie’s retiring soul had never aspired. Jennie’s own existence was quiet and uneventful. There was a simple cottage in a very respectable but not showy neighborhood near Jackson Park, on the South Side, where she lived in retirement with a little foster-child—a chestnut-haired girl taken from the Western Home for the Friendless—as her sole companion. Here she was known as Mrs. J. G. Stover, for she had deemed it best to abandon the name of Kane. Mr. and Mrs. Lester Kane when resident in Chicago were the occupants of a handsome mansion on the Lake Shore Drive, where parties, balls, receptions, dinners were given in rapid and at times almost pyrotechnic succession.

The course of events over five years pulled Lester and Jennie even further apart; they settled comfortably into their own lives, without rekindling the old relationship that their meetings at the Tremont initially suggested. Lester was deeply involved in social and business activities; he navigated a lifestyle that Jennie’s introverted nature had never sought. Jennie's life was quiet and uneventful. She lived in a modest cottage in a respectable but unpretentious neighborhood near Jackson Park on the South Side, where she enjoyed a life of solitude with a little foster child—a chestnut-haired girl from the Western Home for the Friendless—as her only companion. Here she was known as Mrs. J. G. Stover, as she had decided it was best to let go of the name Kane. Mr. and Mrs. Lester Kane, while living in Chicago, occupied a beautiful mansion on Lake Shore Drive, where parties, balls, receptions, and dinners were held in quick and sometimes almost extravagant succession.

Lester, however, had become in his way a lover of a peaceful and well-entertained existence. He had cut from his list of acquaintances and associates a number of people who had been a little doubtful or overfamiliar or indifferent or talkative during a certain period which to him was a memory merely. He was a director, and in several cases the chairman of a board of directors, in nine of the most important financial and commercial organizations of the West—The United Traction Company of Cincinnati, The Western Crucible Company, The United Carriage Company, The Second National Bank of Chicago, the First National Bank of Cincinnati, and several others of equal importance. He was never a personal factor in the affairs of The United Carriage Company, preferring to be represented by counsel—Mr. Dwight L. Watson, but he took a keen interest in its affairs. He had not seen his brother Robert to speak to him in seven years. He had not seen Imogene, who lived in Chicago, in three. Louise, Amy, their husbands, and some of their closest acquaintances were practically strangers. The firm of Knight, Keatley & O’Brien had nothing whatever to do with his affairs.

Lester had become a lover of a peaceful and enjoyable life in his own way. He had removed from his circle a number of people who were either a bit questionable, too familiar, indifferent, or overly chatty during a time that was just a distant memory for him. He was a director and, in several cases, the chairman of the board of directors for nine of the most important financial and commercial organizations in the West—The United Traction Company of Cincinnati, The Western Crucible Company, The United Carriage Company, The Second National Bank of Chicago, the First National Bank of Cincinnati, and several others of similar importance. He never personally got involved in the affairs of The United Carriage Company, choosing to be represented by his lawyer, Mr. Dwight L. Watson, but he remained very interested in its business. He hadn’t spoken to his brother Robert in seven years, and he hadn’t seen Imogene, who lived in Chicago, in three years. Louise, Amy, their husbands, and some of their close friends were practically strangers to him. The firm of Knight, Keatley & O’Brien had no connection to his affairs whatsoever.

The truth was that Lester, in addition to becoming a little phlegmatic, was becoming decidedly critical in his outlook on life. He could not make out what it was all about. In distant ages a queer thing had come to pass. There had started on its way in the form of evolution a minute cellular organism which had apparently reproduced itself by division, had early learned to combine itself with others, to organize itself into bodies, strange forms of fish, animals, and birds, and had finally learned to organize itself into man. Man, on his part, composed as he was of self-organizing cells, was pushing himself forward into comfort and different aspects of existence by means of union and organization with other men. Why? Heaven only knew. Here he was endowed with a peculiar brain and a certain amount of talent, and he had inherited a certain amount of wealth which he now scarcely believed he deserved, only luck had favored him. But he could not see that any one else might be said to deserve this wealth any more than himself, seeing that his use of it was as conservative and constructive and practical as the next one’s. He might have been born poor, in which case he would have been as well satisfied as the next one—not more so. Why should he complain, why worry, why speculate?—the world was going steadily forward of its own volition, whether he would or no. Truly it was. And was there any need for him to disturb himself about it? There was not. He fancied at times that it might as well never have been started at all. “The one divine, far-off event” of the poet did not appeal to him as having any basis in fact. Mrs. Lester Kane was of very much the same opinion.

The truth was that Lester, besides becoming a bit apathetic, was becoming increasingly critical in how he viewed life. He couldn’t figure out what it was all about. A strange thing had happened in the distant past. A tiny cellular organism had emerged through evolution, which had apparently reproduced itself by dividing, quickly learned to combine with others, organized itself into bodies, strange fish, animals, and birds, and finally managed to organize itself into humans. Humans, made up of self-organizing cells, were moving toward comfort and various ways of living by uniting and organizing with other humans. Why? Only heaven knew. Here he was, equipped with a unique brain and some talent, having inherited a certain amount of wealth that he hardly believed he deserved—luck had just favored him. But he couldn’t see why anyone else should deserve this wealth any more than he did, given that his use of it was as conservative, constructive, and practical as anyone else's. He could have been born poor, in which case he would have been just as satisfied as anyone else—not more. Why should he complain, worry, or wonder? The world was moving forward on its own, whether he liked it or not. It truly was. And was there any reason for him to be upset about it? There wasn’t. Sometimes he thought it might as well never have started at all. The “one divine, far-off event” of the poet didn’t seem to him to have any real basis. Mrs. Lester Kane felt pretty much the same way.

Jennie, living on the South Side with her adopted child, Rose Perpetua, was of no fixed conclusion as to the meaning of life. She had not the incisive reasoning capacity of either Mr. or Mrs. Lester Kane. She had seen a great deal, suffered a great deal, and had read some in a desultory way. Her mind had never grasped the nature and character of specialized knowledge. History, physics, chemistry, botany, geology, and sociology were not fixed departments in her brain as they were in Lester’s and Letty’s. Instead there was the feeling that the world moved in some strange, unstable way. Apparently no one knew clearly what it was all about. People were born and died. Some believed that the world had been made six thousand years before; some that it was millions of years old. Was it all blind chance, or was there some guiding intelligence—a God? Almost in spite of herself she felt there must be something—a higher power which produced all the beautiful things—the flowers, the stars, the trees, the grass. Nature was so beautiful! If at times life seemed cruel, yet this beauty still persisted. The thought comforted her; she fed upon it in her hours of secret loneliness.

Jennie, living on the South Side with her adopted daughter, Rose Perpetua, was uncertain about the meaning of life. She didn’t have the sharp reasoning skills of Mr. or Mrs. Lester Kane. She had seen and suffered a lot, and had read a bit here and there. Her mind didn’t really grasp specialized knowledge like history, physics, chemistry, botany, geology, or sociology the way Lester’s and Letty’s did. Instead, she felt that the world was moving in some strange, unstable way. It seemed like no one really understood what it was all about. People were born and died. Some thought the world was created six thousand years ago; others believed it was millions of years old. Was it all random chance, or was there some guiding intelligence—a God? Almost against her will, she felt that there must be something—a higher power that created all the beautiful things—the flowers, the stars, the trees, the grass. Nature was so beautiful! Even when life felt cruel at times, this beauty still remained. The thought brought her comfort; she relied on it during her moments of quiet loneliness.

It has been said that Jennie was naturally of an industrious turn. She liked to be employed, though she thought constantly as she worked. She was of matronly proportions in these days—not disagreeably large, but full bodied, shapely, and smooth-faced in spite of her cares. Her eyes were gray and appealing. Her hair was still of a rich brown, but there were traces of gray in it. Her neighbors spoke of her as sweet-tempered, kindly, and hospitable. They knew nothing of her history, except that she had formerly resided in Sandwood, and before that in Cleveland. She was very reticent as to her past.

It has been said that Jennie was naturally hardworking. She liked to stay busy, even though her mind was always active while she worked. She was of a matronly figure in these days—not unattractively large, but curvy, shapely, and smooth-faced despite her worries. Her eyes were gray and inviting. Her hair was still a rich brown, though there were hints of gray in it. Her neighbors described her as sweet-natured, kind, and welcoming. They knew nothing about her past, other than the fact that she had previously lived in Sandwood, and before that in Cleveland. She was very private about her history.

Jennie had fancied, because of her natural aptitude for taking care of sick people, that she might get to be a trained nurse. But she was obliged to abandon that idea, for she found that only young people were wanted. She also thought that some charitable organization might employ her, but she did not understand the new theory of charity which was then coming into general acceptance and practice—namely, only to help others to help themselves. She believed in giving, and was not inclined to look too closely into the credentials of those who asked for help; consequently her timid inquiry at one relief agency after another met with indifference, if not unqualified rebuke. She finally decided to adopt another child for Rose Perpetua’s sake; she succeeded in securing a boy, four years old, who was known as Henry—Henry Stover. Her support was assured, for her income was paid to her through a trust company. She had no desire for speculation or for the devious ways of trade. The care of flowers, the nature of children, the ordering of a home were more in her province.

Jennie had hoped, because of her natural ability to care for sick people, that she could become a trained nurse. But she had to give up that idea because she found that only young people were in demand. She also thought that some charitable organization might hire her, but she didn’t understand the new approach to charity that was becoming widely accepted—specifically, the idea of helping people help themselves. She believed in giving and wasn't inclined to scrutinize the backgrounds of those who sought help; as a result, her timid inquiries at various relief agencies were met with indifference, if not outright rejection. She eventually decided to adopt another child for Rose Perpetua’s sake; she managed to secure a four-year-old boy known as Henry—Henry Stover. Her support was guaranteed since her income came through a trust company. She had no interest in speculation or the complicated ways of business. Caring for flowers, nurturing children, and running a household were more her areas of expertise.

One of the interesting things in connection with this separation once it had been firmly established related to Robert and Lester, for these two since the reading of the will a number of years before had never met. Robert had thought of his brother often. He had followed his success since he had left Jennie with interest. He read of his marriage to Mrs. Gerald with pleasure; he had always considered her an ideal companion for his brother. He knew by many signs and tokens that his brother, since the unfortunate termination of their father’s attitude and his own peculiar movements to gain control of the Kane Company, did not like him. Still they had never been so far apart mentally—certainly not in commercial judgment. Lester was prosperous now. He could afford to be generous. He could afford to make up. And after all, he had done his best to aid his brother to come to his senses—and with the best intentions. There were mutual interests they could share financially if they were friends. He wondered from time to time if Lester would not be friendly with him.

One of the interesting things about this separation, once it was firmly established, was the situation with Robert and Lester. Ever since they had read the will years ago, these two had never met. Robert thought of his brother often and kept track of his success since he left Jennie. He felt happy to read about his marriage to Mrs. Gerald; he always thought she was a great match for his brother. He could tell through various signs that Lester, since their father’s unfortunate passing and his own attempts to take control of the Kane Company, didn't have a good view of him. Still, they had never been so far apart in thoughts—definitely not in business judgment. Lester was doing well now. He could afford to be generous and to reconcile. After all, he had genuinely tried to help his brother see things clearly—with the best intentions. There were financial interests they could share if they were friends. He often wondered if Lester would ever consider being friendly with him.

Time passed, and then once, when he was in Chicago, he made the friends with whom he was driving purposely turn into the North Shore in order to see the splendid mansion which the Kanes occupied. He knew its location from hearsay and description.

Time went by, and once, while he was in Chicago, he had the friends he was with purposely take a detour to the North Shore to see the beautiful mansion where the Kanes lived. He knew where it was from what he had heard and from descriptions.

When he saw it a touch of the old Kane home atmosphere came back to him. Lester in revising the property after purchase had had a conservatory built on one side not unlike the one at home in Cincinnati. That same night he sat down and wrote Lester asking if he would not like to dine with him at the Union Club. He was only in town for a day or two, and he would like to see him again. There was some feeling he knew, but there was a proposition he would like to talk to him about. Would he come, say, on Thursday?

When he saw it, a hint of the old Kane home vibe hit him. After buying the property, Lester had a conservatory built on one side, similar to the one back home in Cincinnati. That same night, he penned a message to Lester, inviting him to have dinner at the Union Club. He was only in town for a day or two and wanted to catch up. He felt there was something they needed to discuss, so he asked if he could come over on Thursday.

On the receipt of this letter Lester frowned and fell into a brown study. He had never really been healed of the wound that his father had given him. He had never been comfortable in his mind since Robert had deserted him so summarily. He realized now that the stakes his brother had been playing for were big. But, after all, he had been his brother, and if he had been in Robert’s place at the time, he would not have done as he had done; at least he hoped not. Now Robert wanted to see him.

On receiving this letter, Lester frowned and became lost in thought. He had never truly healed from the hurt his father had caused him. Ever since Robert had left him so abruptly, he had never felt at ease in his mind. He now understood that the risks his brother had taken were significant. But still, he had been his brother, and if he had been in Robert’s position at that moment, he wouldn’t have acted the way Robert did; at least, he hoped he wouldn’t. Now, Robert wanted to see him.

He thought once of not answering at all. Then he thought he would write and say no. But a curious desire to see Robert again, to hear what he had to say, to listen to the proposition he had to offer, came over him; he decided to write yes. It could do no harm. He knew it could do no good. They might agree to let by-gones be by-gones, but the damage had been done. Could a broken bowl be mended and called whole? It might be called whole, but what of it? Was it not broken and mended? He wrote and intimated that he would come.

He briefly thought about not responding at all. Then he considered writing back to say no. But a strange desire to see Robert again, to hear what he had to say, to listen to his proposal, came over him; he decided to respond with yes. It couldn't hurt. He knew it wouldn't help. They might agree to move on from the past, but the damage was already done. Could a broken bowl really be fixed and called whole? It could be called whole, but what difference did that make? Was it not still broken and repaired? He wrote and indicated that he would come.

On the Thursday in question Robert called up from the Auditorium to remind him of the engagement. Lester listened curiously to the sound of his voice. “All right,” he said, “I’ll be with you.” At noon he went down-town, and there, within the exclusive precincts of the Union Club, the two brothers met and looked at each other again. Robert was thinner than when Lester had seen him last, and a little grayer. His eyes were bright and steely, but there were crow’s-feet on either side. His manner was quick, keen, dynamic. Lester was noticeably of another type—solid, brusque, and indifferent. Men spoke of Lester these days as a little hard. Robert’s keen blue eyes did not disturb him in the least—did not affect him in any way. He saw his brother just as he was, for he had the larger philosophic and interpretative insight; but Robert could not place Lester exactly. He could not fathom just what had happened to him in these years. Lester was stouter, not gray, for some reason, but sandy and ruddy, looking like a man who was fairly well satisfied to take life as he found it. Lester looked at his brother with a keen, steady eye. The latter shifted a little, for he was restless. He could see that there was no loss of that mental force and courage which had always been predominant characteristics in Lester’s make-up.

On that Thursday, Robert called from the Auditorium to remind him about their meeting. Lester listened with interest to his voice. “All right,” he replied, “I’ll be there.” At noon, he went downtown, and there, in the exclusive Union Club, the two brothers met and observed each other once more. Robert looked thinner than when Lester had last seen him and a bit gray. His eyes were bright and sharp, but there were crow’s-feet on either side. He was quick, alert, and energetic. Lester, on the other hand, was noticeably different—solid, brash, and somewhat indifferent. These days, people described Lester as a bit tough. Robert's sharp blue eyes didn’t faze him at all—he remained unaffected. He saw his brother exactly as he was, possessing a broader philosophical and interpretative perspective; however, Robert couldn’t quite pinpoint what had changed in Lester over the years. Lester was bulkier, not gray but sandy and ruddy, giving off the impression of someone who was relatively content with life as it came. Lester looked at his brother with a keen, steady gaze. Robert shifted slightly, feeling restless. He could tell that the mental strength and courage that had always defined Lester were still very much intact.

“I thought I’d like to see you again, Lester,” Robert remarked, after they had clasped hands in the customary grip. “It’s been a long time now—nearly eight years, hasn’t it?”

“I thought I’d like to see you again, Lester,” Robert said, after they had shook hands in the usual way. “It’s been a long time now—almost eight years, hasn’t it?”

“About that,” replied Lester. “How are things with you?”

“About that,” replied Lester. “How are you doing?”

“Oh, about the same. You’ve been fairly well, I see.”

“Oh, about the same. I see you’ve been doing pretty well.”

“Never sick,” said Lester. “A little cold now and then. I don’t often go to bed with anything. How’s your wife?”

“Never sick,” said Lester. “Just a little cold now and then. I don’t usually go to bed with anything. How’s your wife?”

“Oh, Margaret’s fine.”

“Oh, Margaret’s good.”

“And the children?”

"And what about the kids?"

“We don’t see much of Ralph and Berenice since they married, but the others are around more or less. I suppose your wife is all right,” he said hesitatingly. It was difficult ground for Robert.

“We don’t see much of Ralph and Berenice since they got married, but the others are around more or less. I guess your wife is doing okay,” he said hesitantly. It was tricky territory for Robert.

Lester eyed him without a change of expression.

Lester stared at him with a blank expression.

“Yes,” he replied. “She enjoys pretty fair health. She’s quite well at present.”

“Yes,” he replied. “She’s in pretty good health. She’s doing well right now.”

They drifted mentally for a few moments, while Lester inquired after the business, and Amy, Louise, and Imogene. He admitted frankly that he neither saw nor heard from them nowadays. Robert told him what he could.

They floated in thought for a few moments, while Lester asked about work and Amy, Louise, and Imogene. He honestly admitted that he neither saw nor heard from them these days. Robert shared what he could.

“The thing that I was thinking of in connection with you, Lester,” said Robert finally, “is this matter of the Western Crucible Steel Company. You haven’t been sitting there as a director in person I notice, but your attorney, Watson, has been acting for you. Clever man, that. The management isn’t right—we all know that. We need a practical steel man at the head of it, if the thing is ever going to pay properly. I have voted my stock with yours right along because the propositions made by Watson have been right. He agrees with me that things ought to be changed. Now I have a chance to buy seventy shares held by Rossiter’s widow. That with yours and mine would give us control of the company. I would like to have you take them, though it doesn’t make a bit of difference so long as it’s in the family. You can put any one you please in for president, and we’ll make the thing come out right.”

“The thing I’ve been thinking about regarding you, Lester,” said Robert finally, “is the situation with the Western Crucible Steel Company. I notice you haven’t been attending as a director personally, but your attorney, Watson, has been representing you. He’s a clever guy. The management isn’t right—we all know that. We need a practical steel expert at the helm if this is ever going to be profitable. I’ve been voting my stock alongside yours because Watson’s proposals have been solid. He agrees with me that changes are needed. Now I have a chance to buy seventy shares owned by Rossiter’s widow. That, combined with yours and mine, would give us control of the company. I’d like you to take them, but it doesn’t matter as long as it's within the family. You can appoint anyone you want as president, and we’ll make this work.”

Lester smiled. It was a pleasant proposition. Watson had told him that Robert’s interests were co-operating with him. Lester had long suspected that Robert would like to make up. This was the olive branch—the control of a property worth in the neighborhood of a million and a half.

Lester smiled. It was an appealing offer. Watson had informed him that Robert was willing to work with him. Lester had suspected for a while that Robert would want to make amends. This was the olive branch—the control of a property valued at around one and a half million.

“That’s very nice of you,” said Lester solemnly. “It’s a rather liberal thing to do. What makes you want to do it now?”

“That’s really nice of you,” said Lester seriously. “It’s quite a generous thing to do. What’s prompting you to do it now?”

“Well, to tell you the honest truth, Lester,” replied Robert, “I never did feel right about that will business. I never did feel right about that secretary-treasurership and some other things that have happened. I don’t want to rake up the past—you smile at that—but I can’t help telling you how I feel. I’ve been pretty ambitious in the past. I was pretty ambitious just about the time that father died to get this United Carriage scheme under way, and I was afraid you might not like it. I have thought since that I ought not to have done it, but I did. I suppose you’re not anxious to hear any more about that old affair. This other thing though—”

“Well, to be totally honest with you, Lester,” Robert said, “I never felt good about that will situation. I never felt right about that secretary-treasurer position and some other things that happened. I don’t want to dig up the past—you smile at that—but I can’t help sharing how I feel. I’ve been pretty ambitious in the past. I was really eager to get this United Carriage project going around the time Dad passed away, and I was worried you might not like it. I’ve thought since then that maybe I shouldn’t have done it, but I did. I guess you’re not keen to hear more about that old issue. But this other thing though—”

“Might be handed out as a sort of compensation,” put in Lester quietly.

“Might be given out as a kind of compensation,” Lester said quietly.

“Not exactly that, Lester—though it may have something of that in it. I know these things don’t matter very much to you now. I know that the time to do things was years ago—not now. Still I thought sincerely that you might be interested in this proposition. It might lead to other things. Frankly, I thought it might patch up matters between us. We’re brothers after all.”

“Not exactly that, Lester—though it might be somewhat similar. I know these things don’t mean much to you right now. I get that the time to act was years ago—not now. Still, I genuinely thought you might be interested in this offer. It could lead to other opportunities. Honestly, I thought it might help mend things between us. We’re brothers, after all.”

“Yes,” said Lester, “we’re brothers.”

“Yes,” Lester said, “we’re brothers.”

He was thinking as he said this of the irony of the situation. How much had this sense of brotherhood been worth in the past? Robert had practically forced him into his present relationship, and while Jennie had been really the only one to suffer, he could not help feeling angry. It was true that Robert had not cut him out of his one-fourth of his father’s estate, but certainly he had not helped him to get it, and now Robert was thinking that this offer of his might mend things. It hurt him—Lester—a little. It irritated him. Life was strange.

He was thinking as he said this about the irony of the situation. How much had this sense of brotherhood really meant in the past? Robert had basically forced him into his current relationship, and while Jennie had been the only one to truly suffer, he couldn’t help but feel angry. It was true that Robert hadn’t excluded him from his one-fourth of their father’s estate, but he definitely hadn’t helped him get it either, and now Robert thought that this offer of his might fix things. It stung him—Lester—a little. It annoyed him. Life was weird.

“I can’t see it, Robert,” he said finally and determinedly. “I can appreciate the motive that prompts you to make this offer. But I can’t see the wisdom of my taking it. Your opportunity is your opportunity. I don’t want it. We can make all the changes you suggest if you take the stock. I’m rich enough anyhow. Bygones are bygones. I’m perfectly willing to talk with you from time to time. That’s all you want. This other thing is simply a sop with which to plaster an old wound. You want my friendship and so far as I’m concerned you have that. I don’t hold any grudge against you. I won’t.”

“I can’t see it, Robert,” he said finally and firmly. “I understand why you want to make this offer. But I just can’t see the logic in accepting it. Your opportunity is yours. I don't want it. We can implement all the changes you suggest if you take the stock. I’m wealthy enough anyway. What’s done is done. I’m completely open to chatting with you from time to time. That’s all you really want. This other thing is just a way to cover an old wound. You want my friendship, and as far as I’m concerned, you have it. I don’t hold any grudge against you. I won’t.”

Robert looked at him fixedly. He half smiled. He admired Lester in spite of all that he had done to him—in spite of all that Lester was doing to him now.

Robert stared at him intently. He offered a faint smile. He looked up to Lester despite everything he had done to him—in spite of everything Lester was doing to him now.

“I don’t know but what you’re right, Lester,” he admitted finally. “I didn’t make this offer in any petty spirit though. I wanted to patch up this matter of feeling between us. I won’t say anything more about it. You’re not coming down to Cincinnati soon, are you?”

“I don’t know, but I guess you could be right, Lester,” he finally admitted. “I didn’t make this offer out of pettiness. I really wanted to fix the way we feel about each other. I won’t bring it up again. You’re not planning to come down to Cincinnati anytime soon, are you?”

“I don’t expect to,” replied Lester.

“I don’t expect to,” replied Lester.

“If you do I’d like to have you come and stay with us. Bring your wife. We could talk over old times.”

“If you do, I’d love for you to come and stay with us. Bring your wife. We could catch up on old times.”

Lester smiled an enigmatic smile.

Lester smiled a mysterious smile.

“I’ll be glad to,” he said, without emotion. But he remembered that in the days of Jennie it was different. They would never have receded from their position regarding her. “Well,” he thought, “perhaps I can’t blame them. Let it go.”

“I’d be happy to,” he said, without any feeling. But he remembered that during Jennie's time, things were different. They would never have backed down from their stance about her. “Well,” he thought, “maybe I can’t blame them. Just let it slide.”

They talked on about other things. Finally Lester remembered an appointment. “I’ll have to leave you soon,” he said, looking at his watch.

They chatted about various topics. Eventually, Lester recalled an appointment. “I’ll have to leave you soon,” he said, checking his watch.

“I ought to go, too,” said Robert. They rose. “Well, anyhow,” he added, as they walked toward the cloakroom, “we won’t be absolute strangers in the future, will we?”

“I should go, too,” said Robert. They got up. “Well, anyway,” he added, as they headed to the cloakroom, “we won’t be complete strangers in the future, right?”

“Certainly not,” said Lester. “I’ll see you from time to time.” They shook hands and separated amicably. There was a sense of unsatisfied obligation and some remorse in Robert’s mind as he saw his brother walking briskly away. Lester was an able man. Why was it that there was so much feeling between them—had been even before Jennie had appeared? Then he remembered his old thoughts about “snaky deeds.” That was what his brother lacked, and that only. He was not crafty; not darkly cruel, hence. “What a world!” he thought.

“Definitely not,” said Lester. “I’ll catch up with you now and then.” They shook hands and parted on good terms. A feeling of unfulfilled duty and some regret lingered in Robert's mind as he watched his brother walk away briskly. Lester was a capable man. Why was there so much emotion between them—there always had been, even before Jennie showed up? Then he recalled his old thoughts about “sneaky actions.” That was what his brother was missing, and that was all. He wasn’t cunning; not cruel in a dark way, therefore. “What a world!” he thought.

On his part Lester went away feeling a slight sense of opposition to, but also of sympathy for, his brother. He was not so terribly bad—not different from other men. Why criticize? What would he have done if he had been in Robert’s place? Robert was getting along. So was he. He could see now how it all came about—why he had been made the victim, why his brother had been made the keeper of the great fortune. “It’s the way the world runs,” he thought. “What difference does it make? I have enough to live on. Why not let it go at that?”

Lester walked away feeling a mix of resistance but also sympathy for his brother. He wasn’t that bad—just like other guys. Why judge? What would he have done if he were in Robert’s shoes? Robert was doing fine. So was he. He could see how everything unfolded—why he ended up being the victim and why his brother became the guardian of the big fortune. “This is how the world works,” he thought. “What does it matter? I have enough to get by. Why not just leave it at that?”

CHAPTER LXI

The days of man under the old dispensation, or, rather, according to that supposedly biblical formula, which persists, are threescore years and ten. It is so ingrained in the race-consciousness by mouth-to-mouth utterance that it seems the profoundest of truths. As a matter of fact, man, even under his mortal illusion, is organically built to live five times the period of his maturity, and would do so if he but knew that it is spirit which endures, that age is an illusion, and that there is no death. Yet the race-thought, gained from what dream of materialism we know not, persists, and the death of man under the mathematical formula so fearfully accepted is daily registered.

The average lifespan for humans under the old belief system, or according to that supposedly biblical saying that continues to be repeated, is seventy years. It’s so deeply embedded in our collective consciousness through word of mouth that it feels like an undeniable truth. In reality, a person is naturally designed to live five times as long as their maturity period, and could achieve this if they realized that the spirit is what truly lasts, that aging is just an illusion, and that there is no such thing as death. However, the collective mindset, rooted in a materialistic dream that we can’t fully understand, remains strong, and the accepted notion of human death as defined by that mathematical formula is recorded daily.

Lester was one of those who believed in this formula. He was nearing sixty. He thought he had, say, twenty years more at the utmost to live—perhaps not so long. Well, he had lived comfortably. He felt that he could not complain. If death was coming, let it come. He was ready at any time. No complaint or resistance would issue from him. Life, in most of its aspects, was a silly show anyhow.

Lester was one of those who believed in this idea. He was nearing sixty and figured he had maybe twenty more years to live—possibly not even that long. Overall, he had lived comfortably and felt he had no reason to complain. If death was on its way, so be it. He was ready whenever it happened. No complaints or resistance would come from him. Life, in many ways, felt like a silly performance anyway.

He admitted that it was mostly illusion—easily proved to be so. That it might all be one he sometimes suspected. It was very much like a dream in its composition truly—sometimes like a very bad dream. All he had to sustain him in his acceptance of its reality from hour to hour and day to day was apparent contact with this material proposition and that—people, meetings of boards of directors, individuals and organizations planning to do this and that, his wife’s social functions Letty loved him as a fine, grizzled example of a philosopher. She admired, as Jennie had, his solid, determined, phlegmatic attitude in the face of troubled circumstance. All the winds of fortune or misfortune could not apparently excite or disturb Lester. He refused to be frightened. He refused to budge from his beliefs and feelings, and usually had to be pushed away from them, still believing, if he were gotten away at all. He refused to do anything save as he always said, “Look the facts in the face” and fight. He could be made to fight easily enough if imposed upon, but only in a stubborn, resisting way. His plan was to resist every effort to coerce him to the last ditch. If he had to let go in the end he would when compelled, but his views as to the value of not letting go were quite the same even when he had let go under compulsion.

He acknowledged that it was mostly an illusion—something that could be easily proven. Sometimes, he suspected it might all be connected. It felt very much like a dream in its makeup—sometimes like a really bad dream. The only thing that kept him grounded in its reality from hour to hour and day to day was his apparent engagement with various material matters—people, meetings of boards of directors, individuals and organizations planning this and that, and his wife’s social events. Letty thought of him as a great, grizzled example of a philosopher. She admired, just like Jennie had, his solid, determined, calm demeanor in the face of adversity. No matter how the tides of fortune or misfortune shifted, it seemed nothing could really upset or disturb Lester. He refused to be scared. He stood firm in his beliefs and feelings, and usually needed to be pushed away from them; if he was moved at all, he still held on to them. He refused to do anything except what he always said, “Look the facts in the face” and fight. He could be provoked into fighting if someone stepped over the line, but only in a stubborn, resistant manner. His plan was to resist any attempts to push him until the very end. If he had to give in eventually, he would when forced, but his views on the importance of holding firm were the same even if he had to let go under pressure.

His views of living were still decidedly material, grounded in creature comforts, and he had always insisted upon having the best of everything. If the furnishings of his home became the least dingy he was for having them torn out and sold and the house done over. If he traveled, money must go ahead of him and smooth the way. He did not want argument, useless talk, or silly palaver as he called it. Every one must discuss interesting topics with him or not talk at all. Letty understood him thoroughly. She would chuck him under the chin mornings, or shake his solid head between her hands, telling him he was a brute, but a nice kind of a brute. “Yes, yes,” he would growl. “I know. I’m an animal, I suppose. You’re a seraphic suggestion of attenuated thought.”

His ideas about living were still very much focused on material things, centered around comfort, and he always insisted on having the best of everything. If his home furnishings got the slightest bit shabby, he insisted they be replaced and the house revamped. When he traveled, he expected money to pave the way for him. He didn’t want arguments, pointless chatter, or what he called silly talk. Everyone had to discuss interesting subjects with him or stay silent. Letty understood him completely. She would playfully poke him under the chin in the mornings or cradle his sturdy head in her hands, calling him a brute, but a nice kind of brute. “Yes, yes,” he would grunt. “I know. I’m an animal, I suppose. You’re a heavenly idea of refined thought.”

“No; you hush,” she would reply, for at times he could cut like a knife without really meaning to be unkind. Then he would pet her a little, for, in spite of her vigorous conception of life, he realized that she was more or less dependent upon him. It was always so plain to her that he could get along without her. For reasons of kindliness he was trying to conceal this, to pretend the necessity of her presence, but it was so obvious that he really could dispense with her easily enough. Now Letty did depend upon Lester. It was something, in so shifty and uncertain a world, to be near so fixed and determined a quantity as this bear-man. It was like being close to a warmly glowing lamp in the dark or a bright burning fire in the cold. Lester was not afraid of anything. He felt that he knew how to live and to die.

“No; you be quiet,” she would respond, because sometimes he could be harsh without intending to be mean. Then he would comfort her a bit, as, despite her strong outlook on life, he understood that she was somewhat reliant on him. It was always obvious to her that he could get by without her. Out of kindness, he tried to hide this, to act like he needed her around, but it was clear he could easily manage without her. But Letty did rely on Lester. In such a unpredictable world, it was comforting to be close to someone as steady and resolute as this bear-man. It felt like being near a warm lamp in the dark or a bright fire in the cold. Lester wasn’t afraid of anything. He believed he knew how to live and how to face death.

It was natural that a temperament of this kind should have its solid, material manifestation at every point. Having his financial affairs well in hand, most of his holding being shares of big companies, where boards of solemn directors merely approved the strenuous efforts of ambitious executives to “make good,” he had leisure for living. He and Letty were fond of visiting the various American and European watering-places. He gambled a little, for he found that there was considerable diversion in risking interesting sums on the spin of a wheel or the fortuitous roll of a ball; and he took more and more to drinking, not in the sense that a drunkard takes to it, but as a high liver, socially, and with all his friends. He was inclined to drink the rich drinks when he did not take straight whiskey—champagne, sparkling Burgundy, the expensive and effervescent white wines. When he drank he could drink a great deal, and he ate in proportion. Nothing must be served but the best—soup, fish, entree, roast, game, dessert—everything that made up a showy dinner and he had long since determined that only a high-priced chef was worth while. They had found an old cordon bleu, Louis Berdot, who had served in the house of one of the great dry goods princes, and this man he engaged. He cost Lester a hundred dollars a week, but his reply to any question was that he only had one life to live.

It was natural for someone with this personality to have a solid, tangible presence everywhere. With his finances under control and most of his assets tied up in shares of large companies, where serious boards of directors simply approved the hard work of ambitious executives trying to succeed, he had time to enjoy life. He and Letty loved visiting various resorts in America and Europe. He gambled a bit because he found it entertaining to risk interesting sums on the spin of a wheel or the random roll of a ball; he also increasingly enjoyed drinking—not in the way a heavy drinker does, but as someone who appreciates a sophisticated lifestyle with friends. He preferred richer drinks when he didn’t go for straight whiskey—champagne, sparkling Burgundy, and fancy, bubbly white wines. When he drank, he could drink quite a lot, and he ate accordingly. Only the best food was served—soup, fish, entrees, roasts, game, dessert—everything that made up an extravagant dinner, and he’d already decided that only a pricey chef was worth it. They had found an old cordon bleu, Louis Berdot, who had worked for one of the big dry goods magnates, and he hired this man. He cost Lester a hundred dollars a week, but his answer to any question was that he only had one life to live.

The trouble with this attitude was that it adjusted nothing, improved nothing, left everything to drift on toward an indefinite end. If Lester had married Jennie and accepted the comparatively meager income of ten thousand a year he would have maintained the same attitude to the end. It would have led him to a stolid indifference to the social world of which now necessarily he was a part. He would have drifted on with a few mentally compatible cronies who would have accepted him for what he was—a good fellow—and Jennie in the end would not have been so much better off than she was now.

The problem with this mindset was that it changed nothing, improved nothing, and let everything drift toward an uncertain ending. If Lester had married Jennie and taken the relatively small income of ten thousand a year, he would have kept the same attitude until the end. This would have led him to a dull indifference toward the social world he was now a part of. He would have continued on with a few like-minded friends who would have accepted him as he was—a decent guy—and in the end, Jennie wouldn’t have been much better off than she was now.

One of the changes which was interesting was that the Kanes transferred their residence to New York. Mrs. Kane had become very intimate with a group of clever women in the Eastern four hundred, or nine hundred, and had been advised and urged to transfer the scene of her activities to New York. She finally did so, leasing a house in Seventy-eighth Street, near Madison Avenue. She installed a novelty for her, a complete staff of liveried servants, after the English fashion, and had the rooms of her house done in correlative periods. Lester smiled at her vanity and love of show.

One of the interesting changes was that the Kanes moved to New York. Mrs. Kane had become very close with a group of smart women in the elite circles and was encouraged to shift her activities to the city. She eventually did, renting a house on Seventy-eighth Street, near Madison Avenue. She introduced something new for herself, a full staff of uniformed servants, styled after the English way, and decorated the rooms of her house in corresponding periods. Lester smiled at her vanity and love of display.

“You talk about your democracy,” he grunted one day. “You have as much democracy as I have religion, and that’s none at all.”

“You talk about your democracy,” he muttered one day. “You have as much democracy as I have religion, which is none at all.”

“Why, how you talk!” she denied. “I am democratic. We all run in classes. You do. I’m merely accepting the logic of the situation.”

“Why, how you speak!” she replied. “I’m democratic. We all belong to different groups. You do too. I’m just acknowledging the reality of the situation.”

“The logic of your grandmother! Do you call a butler and doorman in red velvet a part of the necessity of the occasion?”

“The logic of your grandmother! Do you really think a butler and doorman in red velvet are essential for the occasion?”

“I certainly do,” she replied. “Maybe not the necessity exactly, but the spirit surely. Why should you quarrel? You’re the first one to insist on perfection—to quarrel if there is any flaw in the order of things.”

“I definitely do,” she said. “Maybe not the necessity itself, but the spirit for sure. Why should you argue? You’re the first one to demand perfection—to argue if there’s any flaw in how things are supposed to be.”

“You never heard me quarrel.”

“You never heard me argue.”

“Oh, I don’t mean that literally. But you demand perfection—the exact spirit of the occasion, and you know it.”

“Oh, I don’t mean that literally. But you expect perfection—the exact vibe of the occasion, and you know it.”

“Maybe I do, but what has that to do with your democracy?”

“Maybe I do, but what does that have to do with your democracy?”

“I am democratic. I insist on it. I’m as democratic in spirit as any woman. Only I see things as they are, and conform as much as possible for comfort’s sake, and so do you. Don’t you throw rocks at my glass house, Mister Master. Yours is so transparent I can see every move you make inside.”

“I believe in democracy. I’m all about it. I’m just as democratic in spirit as any woman. The difference is, I see things for what they really are and adjust as much as I can for comfort, just like you do. So don’t throw stones at my glass house, Mister Master. Yours is so clear that I can see every move you make inside.”

“I’m democratic and you’re not,” he teased; but he approved thoroughly of everything she did. She was, he sometimes fancied, a better executive in her world than he was in his.

“I’m democratic and you’re not,” he joked; but he fully supported everything she did. He sometimes thought she was a better leader in her world than he was in his.

Drifting in this fashion, wining, dining, drinking the waters of this curative spring and that, traveling in luxurious ease and taking no physical exercise, finally altered his body from a vigorous, quick-moving, well-balanced organism into one where plethora of substance was clogging every essential function. His liver, kidneys, spleen, pancreas—every organ, in fact—had been overtaxed for some time to keep up the process of digestion and elimination. In the past seven years he had become uncomfortably heavy. His kidneys were weak, and so were the arteries of his brain. By dieting, proper exercise, the right mental attitude, he might have lived to be eighty or ninety. As a matter of fact, he was allowing himself to drift into a physical state in which even a slight malady might prove dangerous. The result was inevitable, and it came.

Drifting like this, indulging in food and drink, enjoying the healing waters of various springs, traveling in comfort and avoiding any physical activity, eventually changed his body from a strong, quick-moving, well-balanced one into a sluggish state where excess weight was hindering every vital function. His liver, kidneys, spleen, pancreas—every organ, really—had been overworked for a while trying to manage digestion and waste removal. Over the past seven years, he had become uncomfortably heavy. His kidneys were weak, and so were the blood vessels in his brain. With dieting, proper exercise, and the right mindset, he could have lived to be eighty or ninety. Instead, he was letting himself slide into a physical condition where even a minor illness could be dangerous. The outcome was unavoidable, and it happened.

It so happened that he and Letty had gone to the North Cape on a cruise with a party of friends. Lester, in order to attend to some important business, decided to return to Chicago late in November; he arranged to have his wife meet him in New York just before the Christmas holidays. He wrote Watson to expect him, and engaged rooms at the Auditorium, for he had sold the Chicago residence some two years before and was now living permanently in New York.

He and Letty were on a cruise to the North Cape with some friends. Lester, needing to deal with some important business, decided to head back to Chicago in late November. He planned for his wife to join him in New York right before Christmas. He informed Watson to anticipate his arrival and booked rooms at the Auditorium since he had sold his Chicago home about two years earlier and was now living permanently in New York.

One late November day, after having attended to a number of details and cleared up his affairs very materially, Lester was seized with what the doctor who was called to attend him described as a cold in the intestines—a disturbance usually symptomatic of some other weakness, either of the blood or of some organ. He suffered great pain, and the usual remedies in that case were applied. There were bandages of red flannel with a mustard dressing, and specifics were also administered. He experienced some relief, but he was troubled with a sense of impending disaster. He had Watson cable his wife—there was nothing serious about it, but he was ill. A trained nurse was in attendance and his valet stood guard at the door to prevent annoyance of any kind. It was plain that Letty could not reach Chicago under three weeks. He had the feeling that he would not see her again.

One late November day, after taking care of several details and settling his affairs significantly, Lester was hit with what the doctor, who was called to treat him, described as a cold in the intestines—an issue usually indicating some other underlying weakness, either in the blood or in some organ. He was in a lot of pain, and the usual remedies for this were used. They applied red flannel bandages with mustard dressing, and specific medications were also given. He felt some relief, but he was troubled by a sense of looming disaster. He had Watson send a cable to his wife—there was nothing serious, but he was unwell. A trained nurse was attending to him, and his valet was standing guard at the door to prevent any disturbances. It was clear that Letty wouldn’t be able to reach Chicago for at least three weeks. He had the feeling that he wouldn’t see her again.

Curiously enough, not only because he was in Chicago, but because he had never been spiritually separated from Jennie, he was thinking about her constantly at this time. He had intended to go out and see her just as soon as he was through with his business engagements and before he left the city. He had asked Watson how she was getting along, and had been informed that everything was well with her. She was living quietly and looking in good health, so Watson said. Lester wished he could see her.

Curiously enough, not only because he was in Chicago, but because he had never been spiritually separated from Jennie, he was thinking about her constantly right now. He had planned to go out and visit her as soon as he finished his business and before he left the city. He had asked Watson how she was doing and was told that everything was fine with her. She was living quietly and was in good health, according to Watson. Lester wished he could see her.

This thought grew as the days passed and he grew no better. He was suffering from time to time with severe attacks of griping pains that seemed to tie his viscera into knots, and left him very weak. Several times the physician administered cocaine with a needle in order to relieve him of useless pain.

This thought intensified as the days went by and he didn’t get any better. He was occasionally suffering from intense gripping pains that felt like they were twisting his insides into knots, leaving him very weak. Several times, the doctor injected him with cocaine to help relieve him of unnecessary pain.

After one of the severe attacks he called Watson to his side, told him to send the nurse away, and then said: “Watson, I’d like to have you do me a favor. Ask Mrs. Stover if she won’t come here to see me. You’d better go and get her. Just send the nurse and Kozo (the valet) away for the afternoon, or while she’s here. If she comes at any other time I’d like to have her admitted.”

After one of the bad attacks, he called Watson over, told him to send the nurse away, and then said: “Watson, I need a favor from you. Can you ask Mrs. Stover to come here and see me? You should go get her. Just send the nurse and Kozo (the valet) away for the afternoon, or while she’s here. If she comes at any other time, I’d like her to be allowed in.”

Watson understood. He liked this expression of sentiment. He was sorry for Jennie. He was sorry for Lester. He wondered what the world would think if it could know of this bit of romance in connection with so prominent a man. Lester was decent. He had made Watson prosperous. The latter was only too glad to serve him in any way.

Watson understood. He liked this show of feeling. He felt bad for Jennie. He felt bad for Lester. He wondered what people would think if they knew about this little romance involving such a well-known man. Lester was a good guy. He had made Watson successful. Watson was more than happy to help him in any way.

He called a carriage and rode out to Jennie’s residence. He found her watering some plants; her face expressed her surprise at his unusual presence.

He called a cab and drove out to Jennie’s place. He found her watering some plants; her face showed her surprise at his unexpected visit.

“I come on a rather troublesome errand, Mrs. Stover,” he said, using her assumed name. “Your—that is, Mr. Kane is quite sick at the Auditorium. His wife is in Europe, and he wanted to know if I wouldn’t come out here and ask you to come and see him. He wanted me to bring you, if possible. Could you come with me now?”

“I have a bit of a troubling favor to ask, Mrs. Stover,” he said, using her fake name. “Your—well, Mr. Kane is pretty sick at the Auditorium. His wife is in Europe, and he wanted to know if I could come out here and ask you to visit him. He asked me to bring you, if you can. Can you come with me now?”

“Why yes,” said Jennie, her face a study. The children were in school. An old Swedish housekeeper was in the kitchen. She could go as well as not. But there was coming back to her in detail a dream she had had several nights before. It had seemed to her that she was out on a dark, mystic body of water over which was hanging something like a fog, or a pall of smoke. She heard the water ripple, or stir faintly, and then out of the surrounding darkness a boat appeared. It was a little boat, oarless, or not visibly propelled, and in it were her mother, and Vesta, and some one whom she could not make out. Her mother’s face was pale and sad, very much as she had often seen it in life. She looked at Jennie solemnly, sympathetically, and then suddenly Jennie realized that the third occupant of the boat was Lester. He looked at her gloomily—an expression she had never seen on his face before—and then her mother remarked, “Well, we must go now.” The boat began to move, a great sense of loss came over her, and she cried, “Oh, don’t leave me, mamma!”

“Of course,” Jennie said, her face betraying her emotions. The kids were at school, and an elderly Swedish housekeeper was in the kitchen. She could leave if she wanted. But vividly coming back to her was a dream she had a few nights ago. It felt like she was on a dark, mysterious body of water covered by something like fog or smoke. She heard the water ripple softly, and then from the surrounding darkness, a boat appeared. It was a small boat, without oars or any visible means of propulsion, and inside were her mother, Vesta, and someone she couldn’t quite identify. Her mother’s face was pale and sad, much as she remembered it from life. She looked at Jennie seriously, with sympathy, and then suddenly Jennie recognized that the third person in the boat was Lester. He looked at her with a gloomy expression—something she had never seen on his face before—and then her mother said, “Well, we must go now.” The boat started to move, an overwhelming sense of loss hit her, and she cried, “Oh, don’t leave me, Mom!”

But her mother only looked at her out of deep, sad, still eyes, and the boat was gone.

But her mother just looked at her with deep, sad, quiet eyes, and the boat was gone.

She woke with a start, half fancying that Lester was beside her. She stretched out her hand to touch his arm; then she drew herself up in the dark and rubbed her eyes, realizing that she was alone. A great sense of depression remained with her, and for two days it haunted her. Then, when it seemed as if it were nothing, Mr. Watson appeared with his ominous message.

She woke up suddenly, half convinced that Lester was next to her. She reached out to touch his arm; then she sat up in the dark and rubbed her eyes, realizing that she was alone. A deep sense of sadness lingered with her, and it haunted her for two days. Then, just when it felt like it was fading, Mr. Watson showed up with his unsettling news.

She went to dress, and reappeared, looking as troubled as were her thoughts. She was very pleasing in her appearance yet, a sweet, kindly woman, well dressed and shapely. She had never been separated mentally from Lester, just as he had never grown entirely away from her. She was always with him in thought, just as in the years when they were together. Her fondest memories were of the days when he first courted her in Cleveland—the days when he had carried her off, much as the cave-man seized his mate—by force. Now she longed to do what she could for him. For this call was as much a testimony as a shock. He loved her—he loved her, after all.

She went to get dressed and came back, looking as troubled as her thoughts. She was very attractive and had a kind, sweet personality; she was well-dressed and had a great figure. She had never mentally separated from Lester, just like he had never completely moved on from her. She was always thinking about him, just like in the years they were together. Her fondest memories were of the days when he first courted her in Cleveland—the days when he had swept her off her feet, much like a caveman would take his mate—by force. Now she wanted to do whatever she could for him. This call was both a revelation and a shock. He loved her—he really loved her, after all.

The carriage rolled briskly through the long streets into the smoky down-town district. It arrived at the Auditorium, and Jennie was escorted to Lester’s room. Watson had been considerate. He had talked little, leaving her to her thoughts. In this great hotel she felt diffident after so long a period of complete retirement. As she entered the room she looked at Lester with large, gray, sympathetic eyes. He was lying propped up on two pillows, his solid head with its growth of once dark brown hair slightly grayed. He looked at her curiously out of his wise old eyes, a light of sympathy and affection shining in them—weary as they were. Jennie was greatly distressed. His pale face, slightly drawn from suffering, cut her like a knife. She took his hand, which was outside the coverlet, and pressed it. She leaned over and kissed his lips.

The carriage rolled quickly through the long streets into the smoky downtown area. It arrived at the Auditorium, and Jennie was shown to Lester’s room. Watson had been thoughtful. He didn’t say much, allowing her to keep her thoughts. In this large hotel, she felt shy after such a long time away from the outside world. As she entered the room, she looked at Lester with her big, gray, sympathetic eyes. He was lying propped up on two pillows, his solid head with its once dark brown hair slightly graying. He looked at her with curiosity from his wise old eyes, a glimmer of sympathy and affection shining through, despite how tired he looked. Jennie felt deeply troubled. His pale face, slightly drawn from pain, cut her like a knife. She took his hand, which was outside the covers, and squeezed it. She leaned over and kissed his lips.

“I’m so sorry, Lester,” she murmured. “I’m so sorry. You’re not very sick though, are you? You must get well, Lester—and soon!” She patted his hand gently.

“I’m really sorry, Lester,” she said softly. “I’m so sorry. You’re not too sick, right? You need to get better, Lester—and quickly!” She patted his hand gently.

“Yes, Jennie, but I’m pretty bad,” he said. “I don’t feel right about this business. I don’t seem able to shake it off. But tell me, how have you been?”

“Yes, Jennie, but I’m not great,” he said. “I can’t shake this feeling about everything. I just can’t get over it. But tell me, how have you been?”

“Oh, just the same, dear,” she replied. “I’m all right. You mustn’t talk like that, though. You’re going to be all right very soon now.”

“Oh, it’s fine, dear,” she replied. “I’m okay. You shouldn’t talk like that, though. You’re going to be fine really soon.”

He smiled grimly. “Do you think so?” He shook his head, for he thought differently. “Sit down, dear,” he went on, “I’m not worrying about that. I want to talk to you again. I want you near me.” He sighed and shut his eyes for a minute.

He smiled wryly. “Do you really think so?” He shook his head, because he felt otherwise. “Sit down, my dear,” he continued, “I’m not concerned about that. I want to talk to you again. I want you close to me.” He sighed and closed his eyes for a moment.

She drew up a chair close beside the bed, her face toward his, and took his hand. It seemed such a beautiful thing that he should send for her. Her eyes showed the mingled sympathy, affection, and gratitude of her heart. At the same time fear gripped her; how ill he looked!

She pulled up a chair next to the bed, facing him, and took his hand. It felt so wonderful that he would ask for her. Her eyes reflected the mixed emotions of sympathy, love, and gratitude she felt. But at the same time, fear seized her; he looked so sick!

“I can’t tell what may happen,” he went on. “Letty is in Europe. I’ve wanted to see you again for some time. I was coming out this trip. We are living in New York, you know. You’re a little stouter, Jennie.”

“I can’t predict what will happen,” he continued. “Letty is in Europe. I’ve been wanting to see you again for a while. I came on this trip specifically for that. We’re living in New York now, you know. You’ve put on a bit of weight, Jennie.”

“Yes, I’m getting old, Lester,” she smiled.

“Yes, I’m getting old, Lester,” she smiled.

“Oh, that doesn’t make any difference,” he replied, looking at her fixedly. “Age doesn’t count. We are all in that boat. It’s how we feel about life.”

“Oh, that doesn’t matter,” he said, staring at her intently. “Age doesn’t matter. We’re all in the same boat. It’s how we feel about life.”

He stopped and stared at the ceiling. A slight twinge of pain reminded him of the vigorous seizures he had been through. He couldn’t stand many more paroxysms like the last one.

He stopped and looked up at the ceiling. A slight twinge of pain reminded him of the intense seizures he had experienced. He couldn’t handle many more episodes like the last one.

“I couldn’t go, Jennie, without seeing you again,” he observed, when the slight twinge ceased and he was free to think again. “I’ve always wanted to say to you, Jennie,” he went on, “that I haven’t been satisfied with the way we parted. It wasn’t the right thing, after all. I haven’t been any happier. I’m sorry. I wish now, for my own peace of mind, that I hadn’t done it.”

“I couldn’t leave, Jennie, without seeing you one more time,” he said, once the slight pain went away and he could think clearly again. “I’ve always wanted to tell you, Jennie, that I haven’t felt okay about how we said goodbye. It wasn’t right, after all. I haven’t been any happier since. I’m sorry. I wish now, for my own peace of mind, that I hadn’t done it.”

“Don’t say that, Lester,” she demurred, going over in her mind all that had been between them. This was such a testimony to their real union—their real spiritual compatibility. “It’s all right. It doesn’t make any difference. You’ve been very good to me. I wouldn’t have been satisfied to have you lose your fortune. It couldn’t be that way. I’ve been a lot better satisfied as it is. It’s been hard, but, dear, everything is hard at times.” She paused.

“Don’t say that, Lester,” she replied, reflecting on everything that had happened between them. This was a true testament to their real connection—their genuine spiritual compatibility. “It’s fine. It doesn’t matter. You’ve been so good to me. I wouldn’t have wanted you to lose your fortune. It couldn’t be that way. I’ve actually been much happier as it is. It’s been tough, but, dear, everything gets hard at times.” She paused.

“No,” he said. “It wasn’t right. The thing wasn’t worked out right from the start; but that wasn’t your fault. I’m sorry. I wanted to tell you that. I’m glad I’m here to do it.”

“No,” he said. “It wasn’t right. It wasn’t set up properly from the beginning; but that wasn’t your fault. I’m sorry. I wanted to tell you that. I’m glad I’m here to say it.”

“Don’t talk that way, Lester—please don’t,” she pleaded. “It’s all right. You needn’t be sorry. There’s nothing to be sorry for. You have always been so good to me. Why, when I think—” she stopped, for it was hard for her to speak. She was choking with affection and sympathy. She pressed his hands. She was recalling the house he took for her family in Cleveland, his generous treatment of Gerhardt, all the long ago tokens of love and kindness.

“Don’t talk like that, Lester—please don’t,” she begged. “It’s okay. You don’t need to apologize. There’s nothing to apologize for. You’ve always been so good to me. When I think—” she paused, as it was difficult for her to express herself. She was overwhelmed with affection and sympathy. She held his hands tightly. She remembered the house he got for her family in Cleveland, his kind treatment of Gerhardt, all the long-ago gestures of love and kindness.

“Well, I’ve told you now, and I feel better. You’re a good woman, Jennie, and you’re kind to come to me this way.” I loved you. I love you now. I want to tell you that. It seems strange, but you’re the only woman I ever did love truly. We should never have parted.

“Well, I’ve told you now, and I feel better. You’re a good woman, Jennie, and it’s really kind of you to come to me like this.” I loved you. I love you now. I want to say that. It feels strange, but you’re the only woman I’ve ever truly loved. We should never have separated.

Jennie caught her breath. It was the one thing she had waited for all these years—this testimony. It was the one thing that could make everything right—this confession of spiritual if not material union. Now she could live happily. Now die so. “Oh, Lester,” she exclaimed with a sob, and pressed his hand. He returned the pressure. There was a little silence. Then he spoke again.

Jennie took a deep breath. It was the one thing she had been waiting for all these years—this testimony. It was the one thing that could make everything right—this confession of a spiritual connection, if not a material one. Now she could live happily. Now she could die that way. “Oh, Lester,” she said with a sob, and squeezed his hand. He squeezed back. There was a brief silence. Then he spoke again.

“How are the two orphans?” he asked.

“How are the two orphans?” he asked.

“Oh, they’re lovely,” she answered, entering upon a detailed description of their diminutive personalities. He listened comfortably, for her voice was soothing to him. Her whole personality was grateful to him. When it came time for her to go he seemed desirous of keeping her.

“Oh, they’re adorable,” she replied, launching into a detailed description of their little quirks. He listened easily, as her voice was calming to him. He appreciated her entire presence. When it was time for her to leave, he appeared eager to have her stay.

“Going, Jennie?”

"Are you leaving, Jennie?"

“I can stay just as well as not, Lester,” she volunteered. “I’ll take a room. I can send a note out to Mrs. Swenson. It will be all right.”

“I can stay just as easily as not, Lester,” she offered. “I’ll get a room. I can send a note to Mrs. Swenson. It’ll be fine.”

“You needn’t do that,” he said, but she could see that he wanted her, that he did not want to be alone.

“You don’t have to do that,” he said, but she could tell that he wanted her, that he didn’t want to be alone.

From that time on until the hour of his death she was not out of the hotel.

From that time until the hour of his death, she stayed in the hotel.

CHAPTER LXII

The end came after four days during which Jennie was by his bedside almost constantly. The nurse in charge welcomed her at first as a relief and company, but the physician was inclined to object. Lester, however, was stubborn. “This is my death,” he said, with a touch of grim humor. “If I’m dying I ought to be allowed to die in my own way.”

The end came after four days when Jennie was by his bedside nearly all the time. The head nurse welcomed her at first as a helpful presence, but the doctor was somewhat against it. Lester, however, was determined. “This is my death,” he said, with a hint of dark humor. “If I’m dying, I should be allowed to do it my way.”

Watson smiled at the man’s unfaltering courage. He had never seen anything like it before.

Watson smiled at the man’s unwavering bravery. He had never seen anything like it before.

There were cards of sympathy, calls of inquiry, notices in the newspaper. Robert saw an item in the Inquirer and decided to go to Chicago. Imogene called with her husband, and they were admitted to Lester’s room for a few minutes after Jennie had gone to hers. Lester had little to say. The nurse cautioned them that he was not to be talked to much. When they were gone Lester said to Jennie, “Imogene has changed a good deal.” He made no other comment.

There were sympathy cards, calls checking in, and notices in the newspaper. Robert saw a piece in the Inquirer and decided to head to Chicago. Imogene called with her husband, and they were allowed to visit Lester’s room for a few minutes after Jennie had gone to hers. Lester had little to say. The nurse warned them that he shouldn’t be talked to too much. After they left, Lester told Jennie, “Imogene has changed a lot.” He didn’t say anything else.

Mrs. Kane was on the Atlantic three days out from New York the afternoon Lester died. He had been meditating whether anything more could be done for Jennie, but he could not make up his mind about it. Certainly it was useless to leave her more money. She did not want it. He had been wondering where Letty was and how near her actual arrival might be when he was seized with a tremendous paroxysm of pain. Before relief could be administered in the shape of an anesthetic he was dead. It developed afterward that it was not the intestinal trouble which killed him, but a lesion of a major blood-vessel in the brain.

Mrs. Kane was on the Atlantic, three days out from New York, the afternoon Lester died. He had been thinking about whether there was anything more he could do for Jennie, but he couldn't make a decision. Clearly, it was pointless to leave her more money; she didn't want it. He had been wondering where Letty was and how close she might be to arriving when he was suddenly hit with a severe wave of pain. Before he could receive relief in the form of an anesthetic, he was dead. It later turned out that it wasn't the intestinal issue that killed him, but a lesion in a major blood vessel in his brain.

Jennie, who had been strongly wrought up by watching and worrying, was beside herself with grief. He had been a part of her thought and feeling so long that it seemed now as though a part of herself had died. She had loved him as she had fancied she could never love any one, and he had always shown that he cared for her—at least in some degree. She could not feel the emotion that expresses itself in tears—only a dull ache, a numbness which seemed to make her insensible to pain. He looked so strong—her Lester—lying there still in death. His expression was unchanged—defiant, determined, albeit peaceful. Word had come from Mrs. Kane that she would arrive on the Wednesday following. It was decided to hold the body. Jennie learned from Mr. Watson that it was to be transferred to Cincinnati, where the Paces had a vault. Because of the arrival of various members of the family, Jennie withdrew to her own home; she could do nothing more.

Jennie, who had been deeply affected by worry and watching, was overwhelmed with grief. He had been part of her thoughts and feelings for so long that it felt like a piece of her had died. She had loved him in a way she thought she could never love anyone else, and he had always shown that he cared for her—at least to some extent. She couldn't feel the kind of emotion that comes out in tears—only a dull ache, a numbness that made her feel insensible to pain. He looked so strong—her Lester—lying there still in death. His expression was unchanged—defiant, determined, yet peaceful. Mrs. Kane had sent word that she would arrive on the Wednesday following. It was decided to hold the body. Jennie learned from Mr. Watson that it would be transferred to Cincinnati, where the Paces had a vault. With various family members arriving, Jennie withdrew to her own home; there was nothing more she could do.

The final ceremonies presented a peculiar commentary on the anomalies of existence. It was arranged with Mrs. Kane by wire that the body should be transferred to Imogene’s residence, and the funeral held from there. Robert, who arrived the night Lester died; Berry Dodge, Imogene’s husband; Mr. Midgely, and three other citizens of prominence were selected as pall-bearers. Louise and her husband came from Buffalo; Amy and her husband from Cincinnati. The house was full to overflowing with citizens who either sincerely wished or felt it expedient to call. Because of the fact that Lester and his family were tentatively Catholic, a Catholic priest was called in and the ritual of that Church was carried out. It was curious to see him lying in the parlor of this alien residence, candles at his head and feet, burning sepulchrally, a silver cross upon his breast, caressed by his waxen fingers. He would have smiled if he could have seen himself, but the Kane family was too conventional, too set in its convictions, to find anything strange in this.

The final ceremonies provided a strange commentary on the oddities of life. It was arranged with Mrs. Kane by phone that the body should be moved to Imogene’s home, and the funeral would take place there. Robert, who arrived the night Lester died; Berry Dodge, Imogene’s husband; Mr. Midgely, and three other prominent citizens were chosen as pall-bearers. Louise and her husband came from Buffalo; Amy and her husband came from Cincinnati. The house was packed with citizens who either genuinely wanted to pay their respects or felt it necessary to show up. Since Lester and his family were loosely Catholic, a Catholic priest was called in to perform the rituals of that Church. It was odd to see him lying in the parlor of this unfamiliar home, with candles at his head and feet, burning gloomily, a silver cross on his chest, held by his waxen fingers. He would have smiled if he could have seen himself, but the Kane family was too traditional, too set in their beliefs, to find anything unusual about this.

The Church made no objection, of course. The family was distinguished. What more could be desired?

The Church had no objections, of course. The family was prominent. What more could you ask for?

On Wednesday Mrs. Kane arrived. She was greatly distraught, for her love, like Jennie’s, was sincere. She left her room that night when all was silent and leaned over the coffin, studying by the light of the burning candles Lester’s beloved features. Tears trickled down her cheeks, for she had been happy with him. She caressed his cold cheeks and hands. “Poor, dear Lester!” she whispered. “Poor, brave soul!” No one told her that he had sent for Jennie. The Kane family did not know.

On Wednesday, Mrs. Kane arrived. She was very upset, as her love, like Jennie’s, was genuine. That night, when everything was quiet, she left her room and leaned over the coffin, examining Lester’s cherished features in the glow of the burning candles. Tears rolled down her cheeks because she had been happy with him. She gently touched his cold cheeks and hands. “Poor, dear Lester!” she whispered. “Poor, brave soul!” No one told her that he had called for Jennie. The Kane family didn’t know.

Meanwhile in the house on South Park Avenue sat a woman who was enduring alone the pain, the anguish of an irreparable loss. Through all these years the subtle hope had persisted, in spite of every circumstance, that somehow life might bring him back to her. He had come, it is true—he really had in death—but he had gone again. Where? Whither her mother, whither Gerhardt, whither Vesta had gone? She could not hope to see him again, for the papers had informed her of his removal to Mrs. Midgely’s residence, and of the fact that he was to be taken from Chicago to Cincinnati for burial. The last ceremonies in Chicago were to be held in one of the wealthy Roman Catholic churches of the South Side, St. Michael’s, of which the Midgelys were members.

Meanwhile, in the house on South Park Avenue, a woman was alone, dealing with the pain and anguish of a loss that could never be fixed. For all these years, she had held on to a quiet hope, despite everything, that life might somehow bring him back to her. He had come, it’s true—he really had in death—but he had left again. Where? Where had her mother gone, where had Gerhardt gone, where had Vesta gone? She couldn’t expect to see him again, as the papers had told her about his move to Mrs. Midgely’s place and that he was being taken from Chicago to Cincinnati for burial. The final ceremonies in Chicago were to be held at one of the wealthy Roman Catholic churches on the South Side, St. Michael’s, to which the Midgelys belonged.

Jennie felt deeply about this. She would have liked so much to have had him buried in Chicago, where she could go to the grave occasionally, but this was not to be. She was never a master of her fate. Others invariably controlled. She thought of him as being taken from her finally by the removal of the body to Cincinnati, as though distance made any difference. She decided at last to veil herself heavily and attend the funeral at the church. The paper had explained that the services would be at two in the afternoon. Then at four the body would be taken to the depôt, and transferred to the train; the members of the family would accompany it to Cincinnati. She thought of this as another opportunity. She might go to the depôt.

Jennie felt strongly about this. She really wished he could have been buried in Chicago, where she could visit the grave every now and then, but that wasn't going to happen. She never had control over her fate; others always dictated it. The thought of him being taken away from her for good by moving the body to Cincinnati felt like a loss, as if distance actually mattered. In the end, she decided to cover herself completely and attend the funeral at the church. The paper had said the services would be at two in the afternoon. Then at four, the body would be moved to the depot and transferred to the train; the family members would go with it to Cincinnati. She saw this as another chance. She might go to the depot.

A little before the time for the funeral cortege to arrive at the church there appeared at one of its subsidiary entrances a woman in black, heavily veiled, who took a seat in an inconspicuous corner. She was a little nervous at first, for, seeing that the church was dark and empty, she feared lest she had mistaken the time and place; but after ten minutes of painful suspense a bell in the church tower began to toll solemnly. Shortly thereafter an acolyte in black gown and white surplice appeared and lighted groups of candles on either side of the altar. A hushed stirring of feet in the choir-loft indicated that the service was to be accompanied by music. Some loiterers, attracted by the bell, some idle strangers, a few acquaintances and citizens not directly invited appeared and took seats.

Just before the funeral procession was scheduled to arrive at the church, a woman dressed in black and heavily veiled showed up at one of its side entrances and took a seat in a discreet corner. She felt a bit anxious at first because the church was dark and empty, and she worried she might have confused the time and place. But after ten minutes of uncomfortable waiting, a bell in the church tower started to toll solemnly. Soon after, an acolyte in a black gown and white surplice appeared and lit groups of candles on either side of the altar. A soft rustling of feet in the choir loft indicated that the service would be accompanied by music. Some bystanders drawn in by the bell, a few curious strangers, and some acquaintances and townspeople who weren’t directly invited then appeared and took their seats.

Jennie watched all this with wondering eyes. Never in her life had she been inside a Catholic church. The gloom, the beauty of the windows, the whiteness of the altar, the golden flames of the candles impressed her. She was suffused with a sense of sorrow, loss, beauty, and mystery. Life in all its vagueness and uncertainty seemed typified by this scene.

Jennie watched all of this with wide eyes. She had never been inside a Catholic church before. The dim light, the stunning stained glass windows, the bright altar, and the golden candle flames all captivated her. She felt a mix of sadness, loss, beauty, and mystery. Life, with all its ambiguity and uncertainty, felt perfectly represented by this scene.

As the bell tolled there came from the sacristy a procession of altar-boys. The smallest, an angelic youth of eleven, came first, bearing aloft a magnificent silver cross. In the hands of each subsequent pair of servitors was held a tall, lighted candle. The priest, in black cloth and lace, attended by an acolyte on either hand, followed. The procession passed out the entrance into the vestibule of the church, and was not seen again until the choir began a mournful, responsive chant, the Latin supplication for mercy and peace.

As the bell rang, a procession of altar boys emerged from the sacristy. The smallest, an angelic boy of eleven, led the way, holding up a stunning silver cross. Each of the following pairs of servers carried a tall, lit candle. The priest, dressed in black cloth and lace, was flanked by an acolyte on either side. The procession moved out through the entrance into the church vestibule and reappeared only when the choir began a sorrowful, responsive chant, the Latin plea for mercy and peace.

Then, at this sound the solemn procession made its reappearance. There came the silver cross, the candles, the dark-faced priest, reading dramatically to himself as he walked, and the body of Lester in a great black coffin, with silver handles, carried by the pall-bearers, who kept an even pace. Jennie stiffened perceptibly, her nerves responding as though to a shock from an electric current. She did not know any of these men. She did not know Robert. She had never seen Mr. Midgely. Of the long company of notables who followed two by two she recognized only three, whom Lester had pointed out to her in times past. Mrs. Kane she saw, of course, for she was directly behind the coffin, leaning on the arm of a stranger; behind her walked Mr. Watson, solemn, gracious. He gave a quick glance to either side, evidently expecting to see her somewhere; but not finding her, he turned his eyes gravely forward and walked on. Jennie looked with all her eyes, her heart gripped by pain. She seemed so much a part of this solemn ritual, and yet infinitely removed from it all.

Then, at that sound, the solemn procession returned. There was the silver cross, the candles, the dark-faced priest, dramatically reading to himself as he walked, and Lester's body in a large black coffin with silver handles, carried by the pallbearers who maintained a steady pace. Jennie stiffened noticeably, her nerves reacting as if shocked by electricity. She didn’t know any of these men. She didn’t know Robert. She had never met Mr. Midgely. Of the long line of notable people following two by two, she recognized only three that Lester had pointed out to her in the past. She saw Mrs. Kane, of course, since she was directly behind the coffin, leaning on the arm of a stranger; behind her walked Mr. Watson, serious and dignified. He glanced to either side, clearly expecting to see her somewhere; but not finding her, he turned his gaze forward and continued on. Jennie looked as intently as she could, her heart aching. She felt so much a part of this solemn ritual, yet infinitely distant from it all.

The procession reached the altar rail, and the coffin was put down. A white shroud bearing the insignia of suffering, a black cross, was put over it, and the great candles were set beside it. There were the chanted invocations and responses, the sprinkling of the coffin with holy water, the lighting and swinging of the censer and then the mumbled responses of the auditors to the Lord’s Prayer and to its Catholic addition, the invocation to the Blessed Virgin. Jennie was overawed and amazed, but no show of form colorful, impression imperial, could take away the sting of death, the sense of infinite loss. To Jennie the candles, the incense, the holy song were beautiful. They touched the deep chord of melancholy in her, and made it vibrate through the depths of her being. She was as a house filled with mournful melody and the presence of death. She cried and cried. She could see, curiously, that Mrs. Kane was sobbing convulsively also.

The procession arrived at the altar rail, and the coffin was set down. A white shroud with the emblem of suffering, a black cross, was draped over it, and the large candles were placed beside it. There were chanted prayers and responses, the sprinkling of the coffin with holy water, the lighting and swinging of the censer, and then the murmured responses of the attendees to the Lord’s Prayer and its Catholic addition, the invocation to the Blessed Virgin. Jennie was overwhelmed and astonished, but no display of colorful form or grand impression could erase the pain of death, the feeling of immense loss. To Jennie, the candles, the incense, and the sacred song were beautiful. They resonated with a deep sense of melancholy within her, making it echo throughout her soul. She felt like a house filled with mournful melody and the presence of death. She cried and cried. She could see, curiously, that Mrs. Kane was sobbing convulsively too.

When it was all over the carriages were entered and the body was borne to the station. All the guests and strangers departed, and finally, when all was silent, she arose. Now she would go to the depôt also, for she was hopeful of seeing his body put on the train. They would have to bring it out on the platform, just as they did in Vesta’s case. She took a car, and a little later she entered the waiting-room of the depôt. She lingered about, first in the concourse, where the great iron fence separated the passengers from the tracks, and then in the waiting-room, hoping to discover the order of proceedings. She finally observed the group of immediate relatives waiting—Mrs. Kane, Robert, Mrs. Midgely, Louise, Amy, Imogene, and the others. She actually succeeded in identifying most of them, though it was not knowledge in this case, but pure instinct and intuition.

When everything was finished, they got into the carriages and took the body to the station. All the guests and strangers left, and finally, when it was quiet, she stood up. Now she would go to the depot too, because she was hopeful of seeing his body loaded onto the train. They would have to bring it out onto the platform, just like they did in Vesta’s situation. She took a cab, and a little while later, she entered the waiting room of the depot. She lingered around, first in the main area where the tall iron fence separated the passengers from the tracks, and then in the waiting room, hoping to figure out what was going to happen. She eventually noticed the group of close relatives waiting—Mrs. Kane, Robert, Mrs. Midgely, Louise, Amy, Imogene, and the others. She was able to recognize most of them, although it wasn’t through knowledge; it was pure instinct and intuition.

No one had noticed it in the stress of excitement, but it was Thanksgiving Eve. Throughout the great railroad station there was a hum of anticipation, that curious ebullition of fancy which springs from the thought of pleasures to come. People were going away for the holiday. Carriages were at the station entries. Announcers were calling in stentorian voices the destination of each new train as the time of its departure drew near. Jennie heard with a desperate ache the description of a route which she and Lester had taken more than once, slowly and melodiously emphasized. “Detroit, Toledo, Cleveland, Buffalo, and New York.” There were cries of trains for “Fort Wayne, Columbus, Pittsburg, Philadelphia, and points East,” and then finally for “Indianapolis, Louisville, Columbus, Cincinnati, and points South.” The hour had struck.

No one had noticed it in the excitement, but it was Thanksgiving Eve. Throughout the large train station, there was a buzz of anticipation, that unique excitement that comes from the thought of upcoming pleasures. People were leaving for the holiday. Carriages were waiting at the station entrances. Announcers were calling out in loud voices the destination of each new train as its departure time approached. Jennie felt a deep ache as she heard the description of a route she and Lester had taken more than once, slowly and melodiously highlighted. “Detroit, Toledo, Cleveland, Buffalo, and New York.” There were announcements for trains to “Fort Wayne, Columbus, Pittsburg, Philadelphia, and points East,” and then finally for “Indianapolis, Louisville, Columbus, Cincinnati, and points South.” The hour had come.

Several times Jennie had gone to the concourse between the waiting-room and the tracks to see if through the iron grating which separated her from her beloved she could get one last look at the coffin, or the great wooden box which held it, before it was put on the train. Now she saw it coming. There was a baggage porter pushing a truck into position near the place where the baggage car would stop. On it was Lester, that last shadow of his substance, incased in the honors of wood, and cloth, and silver. There was no thought on the part of the porter of the agony of loss which was represented here. He could not see how wealth and position in this hour were typified to her mind as a great fence, a wall, which divided her eternally from her beloved. Had it not always been so? Was not her life a patchwork of conditions made and affected by these things which she saw—wealth and force—which had found her unfit? She had evidently been born to yield, not seek. This panoply of power had been paraded before her since childhood. What could she do now but stare vaguely after it as it marched triumphantly by? Lester had been of it. Him it respected. Of her it knew nothing. She looked through the grating, and once more there came the cry of “Indianapolis, Louisville, Columbus, Cincinnati, and points South.” A long red train, brilliantly lighted, composed of baggage cars, day coaches, a dining-car, set with white linen and silver, and a half dozen comfortable Pullmans, rolled in and stopped. A great black engine, puffing and glowing, had it all safely in tow.

Several times Jennie had gone to the area between the waiting room and the tracks to see if she could catch one last glimpse of the coffin, or the large wooden box that held it, before it was loaded onto the train. Now she saw it approaching. A baggage porter was positioning a cart near where the baggage car would stop. On it was Lester, that final shadow of his presence, encased in the honors of wood, cloth, and silver. The porter was completely unaware of the deep pain of loss represented here. He couldn’t see how, in this moment, wealth and status felt like a huge barrier, a wall, that kept her forever apart from her beloved. Hadn’t it always been like this? Wasn’t her life a mix of conditions shaped by these things she observed—wealth and power—that had deemed her unworthy? She had clearly been born to give in, not to pursue. This display of power had been paraded before her since she was a child. What could she do now but stare blankly as it passed by triumphantly? Lester had belonged to that world. It honored him. As for her, it knew nothing. She looked through the grating, and once again, there came the announcement of “Indianapolis, Louisville, Columbus, Cincinnati, and points South.” A long red train, glowing brightly, made up of baggage cars, day coaches, a dining car set with white linen and silver, and a handful of comfortable Pullmans, rolled in and came to a stop. A large black engine, puffing and glowing, had it all securely in tow.

As the baggage car drew near the waiting truck a train-hand in blue, looking out of the car, called to some one within.

As the baggage car approached the waiting truck, a train worker in blue, looking out from the car, called to someone inside.

“Hey, Jack! Give us a hand here. There’s a stiff outside!”

“Hey, Jack! Can you help us out? There’s a corpse outside!”

Jennie could not hear.

Jennie couldn't hear.

All she could see was the great box that was so soon to disappear. All she could feel was that this train would start presently, and then it would all be over. The gates opened, the passengers poured out. There were Robert, and Amy, and Louise, and Midgely—all making for the Pullman cars in the rear. They had said their farewells to their friends. No need to repeat them. A trio of assistants “gave a hand” at getting the great wooden case into the car. Jennie saw it disappear with an acute physical wrench at her heart.

All she could see was the big box that was about to disappear. All she could feel was that this train would leave soon, and then it would all be over. The gates opened, and the passengers flooded out. There were Robert, Amy, Louise, and Midgely—all heading towards the Pullman cars in the back. They had said their goodbyes to their friends. No need to say them again. A group of helpers "gave a hand" getting the large wooden case into the car. Jennie watched it vanish with a sharp ache in her heart.

There were many trunks to be put aboard, and then the door of the baggage car half closed, but not before the warning bell of the engine sounded. There was the insistent calling of “all aboard” from this quarter and that; then slowly the great locomotive began to move. Its bell was ringing, its steam hissing, its smoke-stack throwing aloft a great black plume of smoke that fell back over the cars like a pall. The fireman, conscious of the heavy load behind, flung open a flaming furnace door to throw in coal. Its light glowed like a golden eye.

There were a lot of trunks to load onto the train, and just as the baggage car door was closing, the warning bell on the engine rang out. From here and there, people were calling “all aboard”; then slowly, the massive locomotive started to move. Its bell was ringing, steam was hissing, and its smokestack was sending up a big black plume of smoke that drifted back over the cars like a shadow. The fireman, aware of the heavy load behind, swung open a fiery furnace door to toss in coal. Its light glowed like a golden eye.

Jennie stood rigid, staring into the wonder of this picture, her face white, her eyes wide, her hands unconsciously clasped, but one thought in her mind—they were taking his body away. A leaden November sky was ahead, almost dark. She looked, and looked until the last glimmer of the red lamp on the receding sleeper disappeared in the maze of smoke and haze overhanging the tracks of the far-stretching yard.

Jennie stood still, staring in awe at the scene before her, her face pale, her eyes wide, her hands unconsciously clasped, but one thought filled her mind—they were taking his body away. A heavy November sky loomed ahead, nearly dark. She stared until the last flicker of the red lamp on the departing train vanished in the thick smoke and haze hanging over the tracks in the vast yard.

“Yes,” said the voice of a passing stranger, gay with the anticipation of coming pleasures. “We’re going to have a great time down there. Remember Annie? Uncle Jim is coming and Aunt Ella.”

“Yes,” said the voice of a passing stranger, cheerful with the excitement of upcoming fun. “We’re going to have an awesome time down there. Remember Annie? Uncle Jim is coming, and Aunt Ella.”

Jennie did not hear that or anything else of the chatter and bustle around her. Before her was stretching a vista of lonely years down which she was steadily gazing. Now what? She was not so old yet. There were those two orphan children to raise. They would marry and leave after a while, and then what? Days and days in endless reiteration, and then—?

Jennie didn’t hear that or anything else in the chatter and bustle around her. In front of her was a long stretch of lonely years that she was staring into. Now what? She wasn't that old yet. She still had those two orphaned kids to raise. They would eventually grow up and leave, and then what? Just days going by in endless repetition, and then—?

THE END

THE END


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