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THE

PEARL OF ORR'S ISLAND

A Story of the Coast of Maine

BY

HARRIET BEECHER STOWE

BOSTON AND NEW YORK
HOUGHTON, MIFFLIN AND COMPANY

The Riverside Press, Cambridge
1896

Copyright, 1862 and 1890,
By HARRIET BEECHER STOWE.


Copyright, 1862 and 1890,
By HARRIET BEECHER STOWE.


Copyright, 1896,
By HOUGHTON, MIFFLIN & CO.

Copyright, 1896,
By Houghton Mifflin Harcourt.

All rights reserved.


All rights reserved.


The Riverside Press, Cambridge, Mass., U.S.A.
Electrotyped and Printed by H.O. Houghton & Co.

The Riverside Press, Cambridge, Mass., U.S.A.
Electrotyped and printed by H.O. Houghton & Co.


CONTENTS

Introductory Note 
CHAPTER 
I.Naomi 1
II.Mara 5
III.The Baptism and the Burial 9
IV.Aunt Roxy and Aunt Ruey 15
V.The Kittridges 25
VI.Grandparents 36
VII.From the Ocean 47
VIII.The Visible and the Invisible 58
IX.Moses 74
X.The Minister 85
XI.Little Explorers 99
XII.Ocean Stories 110
XIII.Kids 120
XIV.The Magical Island 132
XV.The Homecoming 143
XVI.The Natural and the Spiritual 154
XVII.Lessons 165
XVIII.Sally 175
XIX.Eighteen 179
XX.Revolt 186
XXI.The Temptor 198
XXII.A Friend in Trouble 208
XXIII.The Story Begins 218
XXIV.Wants and Aspirations 229
XXV.Ms. Emily 235
XXVI.Dolores 245
XXVII.Hidden Things 258
XXVIII.A Flirt 270
XXIX.Late Night Chats 279
XXX.The Launch of the Ariel 290
XXXI.Greek vs. Greek 303
XXXII.The Engagement 315
XXXIII.At a quilting bee 323
XXXIV.Buddies 329
XXXV.Toothacre Cottage 335
XXXVI.The Shadow of Death 339
XXXVII.The Win 351
XXXVIII.Open Vision 358
XXXIX.The Beulah Land 368
XL.The Meeting 376
XLI.Comfort 380
XLII.Final Words 387
XLIII.The Pearl 393
XLIV.Four Years Later 398

The frontispiece (Mara, page 376) was drawn by W.L. Taylor. The vignette was etched by Charles H. Woodbury.

The frontispiece (Mara, page 376) was created by W.L. Taylor. The vignette was engraved by Charles H. Woodbury.


INTRODUCTORY NOTE

The publication of Uncle Tom's Cabin, though much[Pg vii] more than an incident in an author's career, seems to have determined Mrs. Stowe more surely in her purpose to devote herself to literature. During the summer following its appearance, she was in Andover, making over the house which she and her husband were to occupy upon leaving Brunswick; and yet, busy as she was, she was writing articles for The Independent and The National Era. The following extract from a letter written at that time, July 29, 1852, intimates that she already was sketching the outline of the story which later grew into The Pearl of Orr's Island:—

The release of Uncle Tom's Cabin, while much[Pg vii] more than just a moment in an author's career, seems to have solidified Mrs. Stowe's decision to fully commit to writing. During the summer after its release, she was in Andover, fixing up the house that she and her husband would move into after leaving Brunswick; and despite being so busy, she was still writing articles for The Independent and The National Era. The following excerpt from a letter she wrote during that time, on July 29, 1852, suggests that she was already outlining the story that would eventually become The Pearl of Orr's Island:—

"I seem to have so much to fill my time, and yet there is my Maine story waiting. However, I am composing it every day, only I greatly need living studies for the filling in of my sketches. There is old Jonas, my "fish father," a sturdy, independent fisherman farmer, who in his youth sailed all over the world and made up his mind about everything. In his old age he attends prayer-meetings and reads the Missionary Herald. He also has plenty of money in an old brown sea-chest. He is a great heart with an inflexible will and iron muscles. I must go to Orr's Island and see him again." The story seems to have remained in her mind, for we are told by her son that she worked upon it by turns with The Minister's Wooing.

"I seem to have so much to keep me busy, yet my Maine story is still waiting. However, I'm developing it every day; I just really need real-life examples to fill in my sketches. There's old Jonas, my 'fish father,' a tough and independent fisherman and farmer who, in his youth, sailed all over the world and formed strong opinions about everything. In his old age, he goes to prayer meetings and reads the Missionary Herald. He also has a good amount of money stashed in an old brown sea chest. He has a big heart, an unyielding will, and iron muscles. I need to go back to Orr's Island to see him again." The story seems to have stayed in her mind, as her son tells us that she worked on it alongside The Minister's Wooing.

It was not, however, until eight years later, after The Minister's Wooing had been published and Agnes of Sorrento was well begun, that she took up her old story in[Pg viii] earnest and set about making it into a short serial. It would seem that her first intention was to confine herself to a sketch of the childhood of her chief characters, with a view to delineating the influences at work upon them; but, as she herself expressed it, "Out of the simple history of the little Pearl of Orr's Island as it had shaped itself in her mind, rose up a Captain Kittridge with his garrulous yarns, and Misses Roxy and Ruey, given to talk, and a whole pigeon roost of yet undreamed of fancies and dreams which would insist on being written." So it came about that the story as originally planned came to a stopping place at the end of Chapter XVII., as the reader may see when he reaches that place. The childish life of her characters ended there, and a lapse of ten years was assumed before their story was taken up again in the next chapter. The book when published had no chapter headings. These have been supplied in the present edition.

It wasn't until eight years later, after The Minister's Wooing was published and Agnes of Sorrento was well underway, that she revisited her old story in[Pg viii] earnest and decided to turn it into a short serial. It seems her initial plan was to focus on a sketch of her main characters' childhoods, aiming to show the influences shaping them; but, as she put it, "Out of the simple story of the little Pearl of Orr's Island as it had formed in her mind, emerged Captain Kittridge with his chatty tales, and Misses Roxy and Ruey, who loved to talk, along with a whole flock of yet-to-be-imagined ideas and dreams that insisted on being written." As a result, the story as originally intended reached a stopping point at the end of Chapter XVII., which readers will see when they get there. The childhood phase of her characters ended there, and a ten-year gap was assumed before their story continued in the next chapter. The published book did not have chapter headings. These have been added in the current edition.


THE PEARL OF ORR'S ISLAND


CHAPTER I

NAOMI

[Pg 1]On the road to the Kennebec, below the town of Bath, in the State of Maine, might have been seen, on a certain autumnal afternoon, a one-horse wagon, in which two persons were sitting. One was an old man, with the peculiarly hard but expressive physiognomy which characterizes the seafaring population of the New England shores. A clear blue eye, evidently practiced in habits of keen observation, white hair, bronzed, weather-beaten cheeks, and a face deeply lined with the furrows of shrewd thought and anxious care, were points of the portrait that made themselves felt at a glance.

[Pg 1]On the way to the Kennebec, just below the town of Bath in Maine, you might have seen, on a certain autumn afternoon, a one-horse wagon with two people sitting inside. One was an old man, with the tough yet expressive face that’s typical of the seafaring community along the New England coast. He had a clear blue eye, clearly accustomed to keen observation, white hair, bronzed, weathered cheeks, and a face deeply lined with the marks of astute thought and anxious care—features that were immediately striking.

By his side sat a young woman of two-and-twenty, of a marked and peculiar personal appearance. Her hair was black, and smoothly parted on a broad forehead, to which a pair of penciled dark eyebrows gave a striking and definite outline. Beneath, lay a pair of large black eyes, remarkable for tremulous expression of melancholy and timidity. The cheek was white and bloodless as a snowberry, though with the clear and perfect oval of good health; the mouth was delicately formed, with a certain sad quiet in its lines, which indicated a habitually repressed and sensitive nature.

By his side sat a young woman of twenty-two, with a distinctive and unusual appearance. Her hair was black, neatly parted on a broad forehead, complemented by a pair of shaped dark eyebrows that created a striking outline. Below were large black eyes, notable for their quivering expression of sadness and shyness. Her cheeks were pale and bloodless like a snowberry, yet they had the clear and perfect oval of good health; her mouth was delicately shaped, with a slightly sad stillness in its lines, suggesting a naturally reserved and sensitive personality.

The dress of this young person, as often happens in New England, was, in refinement and even elegance, a marked[Pg 2] contrast to that of her male companion and to the humble vehicle in which she rode. There was not only the most fastidious neatness, but a delicacy in the choice of colors, an indication of elegant tastes in the whole arrangement, and the quietest suggestion in the world of an acquaintance with the usages of fashion, which struck one oddly in those wild and dreary surroundings. On the whole, she impressed one like those fragile wild-flowers which in April cast their fluttering shadows from the mossy crevices of the old New England granite,—an existence in which colorless delicacy is united to a sort of elastic hardihood of life, fit for the rocky soil and harsh winds it is born to encounter.

The young person's outfit, as is often the case in New England, was in refinement and even elegance a stark contrast to that of her male companion and to the modest vehicle she rode in. There was not only a fastidious neatness but also a delicacy in the choice of colors, indicating sophisticated tastes in the overall arrangement, and the subtlest hint of being in tune with fashion, which felt out of place in those wild and bleak surroundings. Overall, she reminded one of those fragile wildflowers that in April cast their delicate shadows from the mossy crevices of the old New England granite—a life where colorless delicacy is combined with a sort of resilient toughness, suited for the rocky soil and harsh winds it is destined to face.

The scenery of the road along which the two were riding was wild and bare. Only savins and mulleins, with their dark pyramids or white spires of velvet leaves, diversified the sandy wayside; but out at sea was a wide sweep of blue, reaching far to the open ocean, which lay rolling, tossing, and breaking into white caps of foam in the bright sunshine. For two or three days a northeast storm had been raging, and the sea was in all the commotion which such a general upturning creates.

The landscape of the road where the two were riding was rugged and empty. Only some junipers and mullein plants, with their dark pyramids and white spires of soft leaves, added variety to the sandy roadside; but out at sea was a broad expanse of blue, stretching far into the open ocean, which was rolling, tossing, and crashing into white foam in the bright sunshine. For two or three days, a northeast storm had been raging, and the sea was in all the turmoil that such a general upheaval causes.

The two travelers reached a point of elevated land, where they paused a moment, and the man drew up the jogging, stiff-jointed old farm-horse, and raised himself upon his feet to look out at the prospect.

The two travelers reached a raised area of land, where they stopped for a moment. The man brought the old, stiff-jointed farm horse to a halt and got up to his feet to take a look at the view.

There might be seen in the distance the blue Kennebec sweeping out toward the ocean through its picturesque rocky shores, docked with cedars and other dusky evergreens, which were illuminated by the orange and flame-colored trees of Indian summer. Here and there scarlet creepers swung long trailing garlands over the faces of the dark rock, and fringes of goldenrod above swayed with the brisk blowing wind that was driving the blue waters seaward, in face of the up-coming ocean tide,—a conflict[Pg 3] which caused them to rise in great foam-crested waves. There are two channels into this river from the open sea, navigable for ships which are coming in to the city of Bath; one is broad and shallow, the other narrow and deep, and these are divided by a steep ledge of rocks.

In the distance, you can see the blue Kennebec flowing out toward the ocean, framed by its beautiful rocky shores lined with cedars and other dark evergreens, which were lit up by the orange and vibrant trees of Indian summer. Here and there, scarlet vines hung long, trailing garlands over the dark rock faces, while tufts of goldenrod swayed with the brisk wind that pushed the blue waters toward the shore against the rising ocean tide—a clash[Pg 3] that made them surge into large, foam-topped waves. There are two channels into this river from the open sea that can accommodate ships coming into the city of Bath; one is wide and shallow, while the other is narrow and deep, separated by a steep ledge of rocks.

Where the spectators of this scene were sitting, they could see in the distance a ship borne with tremendous force by the rising tide into the mouth of the river, and encountering a northwest wind which had succeeded the gale, as northwest winds often do on this coast. The ship, from what might be observed in the distance, seemed struggling to make the wider channel, but was constantly driven off by the baffling force of the wind.

Where the people watching this scene were sitting, they could see a ship powerfully carried by the rising tide into the mouth of the river, facing a northwest wind that often follows a storm on this coast. From what could be seen from afar, the ship appeared to be trying to reach the wider channel but was repeatedly pushed away by the unpredictable force of the wind.

"There she is, Naomi," said the old fisherman, eagerly, to his companion, "coming right in." The young woman was one of the sort that never start, and never exclaim, but with all deeper emotions grow still. The color slowly mounted into her cheek, her lips parted, and her eyes dilated with a wide, bright expression; her breathing came in thick gasps, but she said nothing.

"There she is, Naomi," the old fisherman said eagerly to his companion, "coming right in." The young woman was the kind of person who never started or exclaimed, but instead grew quiet with deeper emotions. Color slowly rose to her cheeks, her lips parted, and her eyes widened with a bright expression; her breathing came in thick gasps, but she said nothing.

The old fisherman stood up in the wagon, his coarse, butternut-colored coat-flaps fluttering and snapping in the breeze, while his interest seemed to be so intense in the efforts of the ship that he made involuntary and eager movements as if to direct her course. A moment passed, and his keen, practiced eye discovered a change in her movements, for he cried out involuntarily,—

The old fisherman stood in the wagon, his rough, brown coat flapping in the breeze, completely focused on the ship's movements. He made quick, instinctive motions, almost as if he were trying to guide it himself. After a moment, his sharp, experienced eye noticed a shift in its movements, prompting him to exclaim without thinking—

"Don't take the narrow channel to-day!" and a moment after, "O Lord! O Lord! have mercy,—there they go! Look! look! look!"

"Don't take the narrow channel today!" and a moment later, "Oh Lord! Oh Lord! have mercy,—there they go! Look! look! look!"

And, in fact, the ship rose on a great wave clear out of the water, and the next second seemed to leap with a desperate plunge into the narrow passage; for a moment there was a shivering of the masts and the rigging, and she went down and was gone.[Pg 4]

And, in fact, the ship rose on a huge wave, completely out of the water, and the next second it seemed to dive desperately into the narrow passage; for a moment there was a trembling of the masts and the rigging, and then it went down and disappeared.[Pg 4]

"They're split to pieces!" cried the fisherman. "Oh, my poor girl—my poor girl—they're gone! O Lord, have mercy!"

"They're shattered!" cried the fisherman. "Oh, my poor girl—my poor girl—they're gone! Oh Lord, have mercy!"

The woman lifted up no voice, but, as one who has been shot through the heart falls with no cry, she fell back,—a mist rose up over her great mournful eyes,—she had fainted.

The woman didn’t make a sound, but just like someone who has been shot through the heart falls without a scream, she collapsed— a haze appeared over her large, sorrowful eyes—she had fainted.

The story of this wreck of a home-bound ship just entering the harbor is yet told in many a family on this coast. A few hours after, the unfortunate crew were washed ashore in all the joyous holiday rig in which they had attired themselves that morning to go to their sisters, wives, and mothers.

The story of this wreck of a homebound ship just entering the harbor is still told in many families along this coast. A few hours later, the unfortunate crew was washed ashore in all the festive holiday outfits they had put on that morning to visit their sisters, wives, and mothers.

This is the first scene in our story.

This is the first scene in our story.


CHAPTER II

MARA

[Pg 5]Down near the end of Orr's Island, facing the open ocean, stands a brown house of the kind that the natives call "lean-to," or "linter,"—one of those large, comfortable structures, barren in the ideal, but rich in the practical, which the workingman of New England can always command. The waters of the ocean came up within a rod of this house, and the sound of its moaning waves was even now filling the clear autumn starlight. Evidently something was going on within, for candles fluttered and winked from window to window, like fireflies in a dark meadow, and sounds as of quick footsteps, and the flutter of brushing garments, might be heard.

[Pg 5]At the end of Orr's Island, facing the open ocean, there’s a brown house that the locals refer to as a "lean-to" or "linter." It's one of those big, cozy buildings that may look plain but are actually practical, something the working class in New England can always find. The ocean waves lapped within a rod of this house, and their mournful sound filled the clear autumn night with stars. Clearly, something was happening inside, as candles flickered and danced from window to window like fireflies in a dark field, and you could hear quick footsteps and the rustle of clothes.

Something unusual is certainly going on within the dwelling of Zephaniah Pennel to-night.

Something strange is definitely happening in Zephaniah Pennel's home tonight.

Let us enter the dark front-door. We feel our way to the right, where a solitary ray of light comes from the chink of a half-opened door. Here is the front room of the house, set apart as its place of especial social hilarity and sanctity,—the "best room," with its low studded walls, white dimity window-curtains, rag carpet, and polished wood chairs. It is now lit by the dim gleam of a solitary tallow candle, which seems in the gloom to make only a feeble circle of light around itself, leaving all the rest of the apartment in shadow.

Let’s step through the dark front door. We navigate to the right, where a single beam of light shines from the crack of a half-open door. This is the main room of the house, set aside for special social gatherings and significance—the "best room," with its low, studded walls, white dimity curtains, a rag rug, and polished wooden chairs. It's now illuminated by the faint glow of a single tallow candle, which in the darkness seems to create only a weak circle of light around itself, leaving the rest of the room in shadow.

In the centre of the room, stretched upon a table, and covered partially by a sea-cloak, lies the body of a man of twenty-five,—lies, too, evidently as one of whom it is[Pg 6] written, "He shall return to his house no more, neither shall his place know him any more." A splendid manhood has suddenly been called to forsake that lifeless form, leaving it, like a deserted palace, beautiful in its desolation. The hair, dripping with the salt wave, curled in glossy abundance on the finely-formed head; the flat, broad brow; the closed eye, with its long black lashes; the firm, manly mouth; the strongly-moulded chin,—all, all were sealed with that seal which is never to be broken till the great resurrection day.

In the center of the room, lying on a table and partly covered by a sea cloak, is the body of a twenty-five-year-old man—one whom it is[Pg 6]written, "He shall return to his house no more, nor shall his place recognize him again." A vibrant manhood has suddenly had to leave that lifeless body, making it resemble a deserted palace, beautiful in its sorrow. The hair, wet from the saltwater, curled abundantly on the well-shaped head; the flat, wide forehead; the closed eye with its long black lashes; the strong, masculine mouth; the well-defined chin—all were sealed with a mark that will never be broken until the great resurrection day.

He was lying in a full suit of broadcloth, with a white vest and smart blue neck-tie, fastened with a pin, in which was some braided hair under a crystal. All his clothing, as well as his hair, was saturated with sea-water, which trickled from time to time, and struck with a leaden and dropping sound into a sullen pool which lay under the table.

He was lying in a full suit of broadcloth, with a white vest and a stylish blue necktie, fastened with a pin that held some braided hair under a crystal. All his clothes, along with his hair, were soaked with seawater, which dripped from time to time, making a heavy, plopping sound into a murky pool that was under the table.

This was the body of James Lincoln, ship-master of the brig Flying Scud, who that morning had dressed himself gayly in his state-room to go on shore and meet his wife,—singing and jesting as he did so.

This was the body of James Lincoln, captain of the brig Flying Scud, who that morning had dressed up cheerfully in his cabin to go ashore and meet his wife—singing and joking as he went.

This is all that you have to learn in the room below; but as we stand there, we hear a trampling of feet in the apartment above,—the quick yet careful opening and shutting of doors,—and voices come and go about the house, and whisper consultations on the stairs. Now comes the roll of wheels, and the Doctor's gig drives up to the door; and, as he goes creaking up with his heavy boots, we will follow and gain admission to the dimly-lighted chamber.

This is everything you need to know in the room below; but as we stand here, we hear footsteps stomping around in the apartment above—the quick, careful opening and closing of doors—and voices come and go throughout the house, whispering discussions on the stairs. Now we hear the sound of wheels, and the Doctor's carriage pulls up to the door; and as he walks up with his heavy boots creaking, we'll follow him and get into the dimly-lit room.

Two gossips are sitting in earnest, whispering conversation over a small bundle done up in an old flannel petticoat. To them the doctor is about to address himself cheerily, but is repelled by sundry signs and sounds which warn him not to speak. Moderating his heavy boots as[Pg 7] well as he is able to a pace of quiet, he advances for a moment, and the petticoat is unfolded for him to glance at its contents; while a low, eager, whispered conversation, attended with much head-shaking, warns him that his first duty is with somebody behind the checked curtains of a bed in the farther corner of the room. He steps on tiptoe, and draws the curtain; and there, with closed eye, and cheek as white as wintry snow, lies the same face over which passed the shadow of death when that ill-fated ship went down.

Two gossiping women are seated close together, whispering intently over a small package wrapped in an old flannel petticoat. The doctor is about to speak to them cheerfully, but he hesitates due to various signs and sounds that suggest he should remain silent. He tries to tread softly in his heavy boots as[Pg 7] best as he can and moves a little closer, while the petticoat is opened for him to see what’s inside; meanwhile, a quiet, eager whispering conversation, accompanied by a lot of head-nodding, indicates that his first responsibility lies with someone behind the checked curtains of a bed in the far corner of the room. He tiptoes over and pulls back the curtain; there, with eyes closed and cheeks as pale as winter snow, lies the same face that once reflected the shadow of death when that ill-fated ship sank.

This woman was wife to him who lies below, and within the hour has been made mother to a frail little human existence, which the storm of a great anguish has driven untimely on the shores of life,—a precious pearl cast up from the past eternity upon the wet, wave-ribbed sand of the present. Now, weary with her moanings, and beaten out with the wrench of a double anguish, she lies with closed eyes in that passive apathy which precedes deeper shadows and longer rest.

This woman was the wife of the man who lies below, and within the hour she has become the mother of a fragile little life, which the storm of great sorrow has brought too soon to the shores of existence—a precious pearl washed up from the depths of eternity onto the wet, wave-marked sand of now. Exhausted from her cries and worn out by the pain of two sorrows, she lies with her eyes closed in that passive state that comes before deeper shadows and longer rest.

Over against her, on the other side of the bed, sits an aged woman in an attitude of deep dejection, and the old man we saw with her in the morning is standing with an anxious, awestruck face at the foot of the bed.

On the opposite side of the bed, there’s an elderly woman in a state of deep sorrow, and the old man we saw with her in the morning is standing at the foot of the bed, looking worried and shocked.

The doctor feels the pulse of the woman, or rather lays an inquiring finger where the slightest thread of vital current is scarcely throbbing, and shakes his head mournfully. The touch of his hand rouses her,—her large wild, melancholy eyes fix themselves on him with an inquiring glance, then she shivers and moans,—

The doctor checks the woman's pulse, or more accurately, places a curious finger where the faintest hint of life is barely beating, and shakes his head sadly. His touch stirs her—her large, wild, sorrowful eyes lock onto him with a questioning look, then she shivers and moans,—

"Oh, Doctor, Doctor!—Jamie, Jamie!"

"Oh, Doctor!—Jamie!"

"Come, come!" said the doctor, "cheer up, my girl, you've got a fine little daughter,—the Lord mingles mercies with his afflictions."

"Come on, come on!" said the doctor, "cheer up, my girl, you've got a wonderful little daughter—the Lord mixes blessings with His challenges."

Her eyes closed, her head moved with a mournful but decided dissent.[Pg 8]

Her eyes shut, her head shook with a sorrowful but firm disagreement.[Pg 8]

A moment after she spoke in the sad old words of the Hebrew Scripture,—

A moment after she spoke in the melancholy ancient words of the Hebrew Scripture,—

"Call her not Naomi; call her Mara, for the Almighty hath dealt very bitterly with me."

"Don’t call her Naomi; call her Mara, for the Almighty has dealt very bitterly with me."

And as she spoke, there passed over her face the sharp frost of the last winter; but even as it passed there broke out a smile, as if a flower had been thrown down from Paradise, and she said,—

And as she spoke, a chill from the last winter crossed her face; but just as quickly, a smile appeared, like a flower that had fallen from Paradise, and she said,—

"Not my will, but thy will," and so was gone.

"Not my will, but your will," and then they were gone.

Aunt Roxy and Aunt Ruey were soon left alone in the chamber of death.

Aunt Roxy and Aunt Ruey were soon left alone in the room of death.

"She'll make a beautiful corpse," said Aunt Roxy, surveying the still, white form contemplatively, with her head in an artistic attitude.

"She'll make a beautiful corpse," said Aunt Roxy, looking at the still, pale figure thoughtfully, her head tilted in an artistic way.

"She was a pretty girl," said Aunt Ruey; "dear me, what a Providence! I 'member the wedd'n down in that lower room, and what a handsome couple they were."

"She was a pretty girl," Aunt Ruey said. "Oh my, what a blessing! I remember the wedding in that downstairs room, and what a beautiful couple they were."

"They were lovely and pleasant in their lives, and in their deaths they were not divided," said Aunt Roxy, sententiously.

"They were wonderful and happy in their lives, and in their deaths, they weren't separated," said Aunt Roxy, wisely.

"What was it she said, did ye hear?" said Aunt Ruey.

"What did she say, did you hear?" said Aunt Ruey.

"She called the baby 'Mary.'"

"She named the baby 'Mary.'"

"Ah! sure enough, her mother's name afore her. What a still, softly-spoken thing she always was!"

"Ah! sure enough, her mother's name before her. What a quiet, gentle person she always was!"

"A pity the poor baby didn't go with her," said Aunt Roxy; "seven-months' children are so hard to raise."

"A shame the poor baby didn't go with her," said Aunt Roxy; "seven-month-old kids are so tough to handle."

"'Tis a pity," said the other.

"'It's a shame," said the other.

But babies will live, and all the more when everybody says that it is a pity they should. Life goes on as inexorably in this world as death. It was ordered by the Will above that out of these two graves should spring one frail, trembling autumn flower,—the "Mara" whose poor little roots first struck deep in the salt, bitter waters of our mortal life.

But babies will survive, and even more so when everyone says it’s a shame they should. Life continues in this world just as relentlessly as death. It was decided by the Will above that from these two graves should emerge one delicate, quivering autumn flower—the "Mara," whose tiny roots first dug deep into the salty, bitter waters of our mortal existence.


CHAPTER III

THE BAPTISM AND THE BURIAL

[Pg 9]Now, I cannot think of anything more unlikely and uninteresting to make a story of than that old brown "linter" house of Captain Zephaniah Pennel, down on the south end of Orr's Island.

[Pg 9]Now, I can't think of anything more unlikely and boring to turn into a story than that old brown "linter" house of Captain Zephaniah Pennel, located at the south end of Orr's Island.

Zephaniah and Mary Pennel, like Zacharias and Elizabeth, are a pair of worthy, God-fearing people, walking in all the commandments and ordinances of the Lord blameless; but that is no great recommendation to a world gaping for sensation and calling for something stimulating. This worthy couple never read anything but the Bible, the "Missionary Herald," and the "Christian Mirror,"—never went anywhere except in the round of daily business. He owned a fishing-smack, in which he labored after the apostolic fashion; and she washed, and ironed, and scrubbed, and brewed, and baked, in her contented round, week in and out. The only recreation they ever enjoyed was the going once a week, in good weather, to a prayer-meeting in a little old brown school-house, about a mile from their dwelling; and making a weekly excursion every Sunday, in their fishing craft, to the church opposite, on Harpswell Neck.

Zephaniah and Mary Pennel, like Zacharias and Elizabeth, are a deserving, God-fearing couple who follow all the commandments and rules of the Lord without blame. However, that's not much of a recommendation in a world craving excitement and looking for something to spark interest. This devoted couple only read the Bible, the "Missionary Herald," and the "Christian Mirror," and they never ventured out except for their daily tasks. He owned a fishing boat, working hard in a manner reminiscent of the apostles, while she took care of the laundry, cleaning, cooking, and baking in her satisfied routine, week after week. The only leisure activity they indulged in was attending a prayer meeting once a week in good weather at a little old brown schoolhouse about a mile from their home, along with a weekly trip every Sunday on their fishing boat to the church across the way on Harpswell Neck.

To be sure, Zephaniah had read many wide leaves of God's great book of Nature, for, like most Maine sea-captains, he had been wherever ship can go,—to all usual and unusual ports. His hard, shrewd, weather-beaten visage had been seen looking over the railings of his brig in the port of Genoa, swept round by its splendid crescent of[Pg 10] palaces and its snow-crested Apennines. It had looked out in the Lagoons of Venice at that wavy floor which in evening seems a sea of glass mingled with fire, and out of which rise temples, and palaces, and churches, and distant silvery Alps, like so many fabrics of dreamland. He had been through the Skagerrack and Cattegat,—into the Baltic, and away round to Archangel, and there chewed a bit of chip, and considered and calculated what bargains it was best to make. He had walked the streets of Calcutta in his shirt-sleeves, with his best Sunday vest, backed with black glazed cambric, which six months before came from the hands of Miss Roxy, and was pronounced by her to be as good as any tailor could make; and in all these places he was just Zephaniah Pennel,—a chip of old Maine,—thrifty, careful, shrewd, honest, God-fearing, and carrying an instinctive knowledge of men and things under a face of rustic simplicity.

To be sure, Zephaniah had read many wide pages of God’s great book of Nature, for, like most Maine sea captains, he had been wherever ships can go—to all the usual and unusual ports. His tough, smart, weathered face had been seen looking over the railings of his ship in the port of Genoa, surrounded by its stunning crescent of[Pg 10] palaces and its snow-capped Apennines. He had gazed out in the Lagoons of Venice at that wavy surface which in the evening seems like a sea of glass mingled with fire, out of which rise temples, palaces, churches, and distant silvery Alps, like so many creations of a dream. He had traveled through the Skagerrack and Cattegat, into the Baltic, and around to Archangel, where he chewed on a piece of wood and pondered what deals it was best to make. He had walked the streets of Calcutta in his shirt sleeves, wearing his best Sunday vest, backed with black glazed cambric, which six months earlier came from the hands of Miss Roxy, who declared it was as good as any tailor could make; and in all these places, he was just Zephaniah Pennel—a product of old Maine—thrifty, careful, shrewd, honest, God-fearing, and having an instinctive understanding of people and things beneath a facade of rustic simplicity.

It was once, returning from one of his voyages, that he found his wife with a black-eyed, curly-headed little creature, who called him papa, and climbed on his knee, nestled under his coat, rifled his pockets, and woke him every morning by pulling open his eyes with little fingers, and jabbering unintelligible dialects in his ears.

It was once, while returning from one of his trips, that he found his wife with a black-eyed, curly-haired little kid who called him dad, climbed onto his lap, snuggled under his coat, searched his pockets, and woke him up every morning by pulling open his eyes with tiny fingers and chattering in a language he couldn't understand.

"We will call this child Naomi, wife," he said, after consulting his old Bible; "for that means pleasant, and I'm sure I never see anything beat her for pleasantness. I never knew as children was so engagin'!"

"We will call this child Naomi, my dear," he said, after looking in his old Bible; "because it means pleasant, and I'm sure I've never seen anything more pleasant than her. I never knew kids could be so captivating!"

It was to be remarked that Zephaniah after this made shorter and shorter voyages, being somehow conscious of a string around his heart which pulled him harder and harder, till one Sunday, when the little Naomi was five years old, he said to his wife,—

It’s worth noting that after this, Zephaniah started taking shorter and shorter trips, feeling a tug on his heart that grew more intense. Then one Sunday, when little Naomi turned five, he said to his wife,—

"I hope I ain't a-pervertin' Scriptur' nor nuthin', but I can't help thinkin' of one passage, 'The kingdom of heaven is like a merchantman seeking goodly pearls, and[Pg 11] when he hath found one pearl of great price, for joy thereof he goeth and selleth all that he hath, and buyeth that pearl.' Well, Mary, I've been and sold my brig last week," he said, folding his daughter's little quiet head under his coat, "'cause it seems to me the Lord's given us this pearl of great price, and it's enough for us. I don't want to be rambling round the world after riches. We'll have a little farm down on Orr's Island, and I'll have a little fishing-smack, and we'll live and be happy together."

"I hope I'm not twisting Scripture or anything, but I can't stop thinking about this passage: 'The kingdom of heaven is like a merchant looking for fine pearls, and[Pg 11] when he finds one pearl of great value, he goes and sells everything he has to buy that pearl.' Well, Mary, I sold my boat last week," he said, bringing his daughter's small, quiet head under his coat, "because it seems to me that the Lord has given us this pearl of great value, and that's enough for us. I don't want to be wandering around the world looking for riches. We'll have a small farm down on Orr's Island, and I'll get a little fishing boat, and we'll live and be happy together."

And so Mary, who in those days was a pretty young married woman, felt herself rich and happy,—no duchess richer or happier. The two contentedly delved and toiled, and the little Naomi was their princess. The wise men of the East at the feet of an infant, offering gifts, gold, frankincense, and myrrh, is just a parable of what goes on in every house where there is a young child. All the hard and the harsh, and the common and the disagreeable, is for the parents,—all the bright and beautiful for their child.

And so Mary, who at that time was a pretty young married woman, felt rich and happy—no duchess was richer or happier. The two of them worked hard and happily, and little Naomi was their princess. The wise men from the East at the feet of a baby, bringing gifts of gold, frankincense, and myrrh, is just a metaphor for what happens in every home with a young child. All the struggles and the tough times, as well as the ordinary and unpleasant, are for the parents—everything bright and beautiful is for their child.

When the fishing-smack went to Portland to sell mackerel, there came home in Zephaniah's fishy coat pocket strings of coral beads, tiny gaiter boots, brilliant silks and ribbons for the little fairy princess,—his Pearl of the Island; and sometimes, when a stray party from the neighboring town of Brunswick came down to explore the romantic scenery of the solitary island, they would be startled by the apparition of this still, graceful, dark-eyed child exquisitely dressed in the best and brightest that the shops of a neighboring city could afford,—sitting like some tropical bird on a lonely rock, where the sea came dashing up into the edges of arbor vitæ, or tripping along the wet sands for shells and seaweed.

When the fishing boat went to Portland to sell mackerel, Zephaniah brought back coral bead necklaces, tiny boots, bright silks, and ribbons for the little fairy princess—his Pearl of the Island—in his fishy coat pocket. Sometimes, when a group from the nearby town of Brunswick visited to explore the island’s beautiful scenery, they would be surprised to see this quiet, graceful, dark-eyed child dressed in the best and brightest clothes that the shops in a nearby city could offer. She would be perched like a tropical bird on a lonely rock, where the waves crashed against the arbor vitae, or walking along the wet sand looking for shells and seaweed.

Many children would have been spoiled by such unlimited indulgence; but there are natures sent down into this harsh world so timorous, and sensitive, and helpless in themselves, that the utmost stretch of indulgence and kind[Pg 12]ness is needed for their development,—like plants which the warmest shelf of the green-house and the most careful watch of the gardener alone can bring into flower. The pale child, with her large, lustrous, dark eyes, and sensitive organization, was nursed and brooded into a beautiful womanhood, and then found a protector in a high-spirited, manly young ship-master, and she became his wife.

Many children would have been spoiled by such unlimited indulgence; but some people come into this harsh world so timid, sensitive, and helpless that they require the greatest amount of indulgence and kindness for their growth—like plants that can only bloom with the warmest spot in the greenhouse and the most careful attention from the gardener. The pale girl, with her large, shining dark eyes and delicate nature, was nurtured and cared for until she blossomed into a beautiful woman, and then she found a protector in a spirited, manly young ship captain, and she became his wife.

And now we see in the best room—the walls lined with serious faces—men, women, and children, that have come to pay the last tribute of sympathy to the living and the dead. The house looked so utterly alone and solitary in that wild, sea-girt island, that one would have as soon expected the sea-waves to rise and walk in, as so many neighbors; but they had come from neighboring points, crossing the glassy sea in their little crafts, whose white sails looked like millers' wings, or walking miles from distant parts of the island.

And now we find ourselves in the best room—the walls lined with serious faces—men, women, and children, who have come to pay their final respects to both the living and the dead. The house seemed completely isolated in that wild, sea-surrounded island, as if one would sooner expect the sea waves to rise up and enter as neighbors; but people had arrived from nearby areas, crossing the calm sea in their small boats, whose white sails resembled the wings of millers, or walking for miles from far parts of the island.

Some writer calls a funeral one of the amusements of a New England population. Must we call it an amusement to go and see the acted despair of Medea? or the dying agonies of poor Adrienne Lecouvreur? It is something of the same awful interest in life's tragedy, which makes an untaught and primitive people gather to a funeral,—a tragedy where there is no acting,—and one which each one feels must come at some time to his own dwelling.

Some writer refers to a funeral as one of the entertainments of a New England community. Should we really call it entertainment to witness the portrayed despair of Medea? Or the dying struggles of poor Adrienne Lecouvreur? It carries a similar shocking fascination with life's tragedy that draws an uneducated and simple people to a funeral—a tragedy that isn’t acted out—and one that everyone knows will eventually touch their own lives.

Be that as it may, here was a roomful. Not only Aunt Roxy and Aunt Ruey, who by a prescriptive right presided over all the births, deaths, and marriages of the neighborhood, but there was Captain Kittridge, a long, dry, weather-beaten old sea-captain, who sat as if tied in a double bow-knot, with his little fussy old wife, with a great Leghorn bonnet, and eyes like black glass beads shining through in the bows of her horn spectacles, and her hymn-book in her hand ready to lead the psalm. There were aunts, uncles, cousins, and brethren of the deceased; and in the[Pg 13] midst stood two coffins, where the two united in death lay sleeping tenderly, as those to whom rest is good. All was still as death, except a chance whisper from some busy neighbor, or a creak of an old lady's great black fan, or the fizz of a fly down the window-pane, and then a stifled sound of deep-drawn breath and weeping from under a cloud of heavy black crape veils, that were together in the group which country-people call the mourners.

Be that as it may, there was a room full of people. Not only Aunt Roxy and Aunt Ruey, who had the traditional right to oversee all the births, deaths, and marriages in the neighborhood, but also Captain Kittridge, an old sea captain who looked weathered and worn, sitting stiffly next to his fussy little wife, who wore a big Leghorn bonnet and had eyes that sparkled like black glass beads behind her horn-rimmed glasses, a hymn book in her hand ready to lead the singing. There were aunts, uncles, cousins, and relatives of the deceased, and in the middle stood two coffins, where the two who had passed were resting peacefully, as those who find comfort in rest. Everything was silent as death, except for the occasional whisper from a nearby neighbor, the creak of an old lady's large black fan, or the fizz of a fly buzzing against the windowpane, followed by a stifled sound of deep breaths and quiet sobs from under a cloud of heavy black mourning veils, gathered in a group that country folk refer to as the mourners.

A gleam of autumn sunlight streamed through the white curtains, and fell on a silver baptismal vase that stood on the mother's coffin, as the minister rose and said, "The ordinance of baptism will now be administered." A few moments more, and on a baby brow had fallen a few drops of water, and the little pilgrim of a new life had been called Mara in the name of the Father, Son, and Holy Ghost,—the minister slowly repeating thereafter those beautiful words of Holy Writ, "A father of the fatherless is God in his holy habitation,"—as if the baptism of that bereaved one had been a solemn adoption into the infinite heart of the Lord.

A ray of autumn sunlight poured through the white curtains and landed on a silver baptismal vase resting on the mother’s coffin, as the minister stood up and said, "We will now perform the baptism." A moment later, a few drops of water touched the baby's forehead, and the little one was named Mara in the name of the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit, as the minister slowly recited those beautiful words from Scripture, "A father of the fatherless is God in his holy dwelling,"—making it seem as though the baptism of that grieving child had been a solemn welcome into the infinite love of the Lord.

With something of the quaint pathos which distinguishes the primitive and Biblical people of that lonely shore, the minister read the passage in Ruth from which the name of the little stranger was drawn, and which describes the return of the bereaved Naomi to her native land. His voice trembled, and there were tears in many eyes as he read, "And it came to pass as she came to Bethlehem, all the city was moved about them; and they said, Is this Naomi? And she said unto them, Call me not Naomi; call me Mara; for the Almighty hath dealt very bitterly with me. I went out full, and the Lord hath brought me home again empty: why then call ye me Naomi, seeing the Lord hath testified against me, and the Almighty hath afflicted me?"

With a certain touch of the old-fashioned emotion that marks the early and Biblical people of that isolated shore, the minister read the passage from Ruth that inspired the name of the little newcomer and that describes the return of the grieving Naomi to her homeland. His voice shook, and many had tears in their eyes as he read, "And it happened that as she arrived in Bethlehem, the whole town was stirred up about them; and they asked, Is this Naomi? And she replied, Don’t call me Naomi; call me Mara; for the Almighty has dealt very bitterly with me. I went out full, and the Lord has brought me back empty: why then do you call me Naomi, seeing the Lord has testified against me, and the Almighty has afflicted me?"

Deep, heavy sobs from the mourners were for a few[Pg 14] moments the only answer to these sad words, till the minister raised the old funeral psalm of New England,—

Deep, heavy sobs from the mourners were for a few[Pg 14] moments the only response to these sad words, until the minister began the old funeral psalm of New England,—

"Why do we mourn departing friends,
Or shake at Death's alarms?
'Tis but the voice that Jesus sends
To call them to his arms.

"Are we not tending upward too,
As fast as time can move?
And should we wish the hours more slow
That bear us to our love?"

"Why do we cry for friends who leave,
Or feel uneasy at the idea of Death?
It's just the voice that Jesus sends
To welcome them into His embrace.

"Aren't we also rising up,
As fast as possible?
And should we want the hours to slow
"Does that take us to our love?"

The words rose in old "China,"—that strange, wild warble, whose quaintly blended harmonies might have been learned of moaning seas or wailing winds, so strange and grand they rose, full of that intense pathos which rises over every defect of execution; and as they sung, Zephaniah Pennel straightened his tall form, before bowed on his hands, and looked heavenward, his cheeks wet with tears, but something sublime and immortal shining upward through his blue eyes; and at the last verse he came forward involuntarily, and stood by his dead, and his voice rose over all the others as he sung,—

The words floated up in old "China,"—that strange, wild melody, whose oddly mixed harmonies could have been inspired by the moaning seas or the wailing winds, so unique and powerful they were, filled with a deep emotion that overshadowed any flaws in performance; as they sang, Zephaniah Pennel straightened his tall frame, which had been bowed over his hands, and looked up to the heavens, his cheeks wet with tears, but something sublime and eternal shone through his blue eyes; and by the last verse, he stepped forward instinctively and stood by his dead, his voice rising above all the others as he sang,—

"Then let the last loud trumpet sound,
And bid the dead arise!
Awake, ye nations under ground!
Ye saints, ascend the skies!"

"Then let the final loud trumpet sound,
And summon the dead to rise!
Awake, you nations beneath the earth!
"You saints, rise up to the heavens!"

The sunbeam through the window-curtain fell on his silver hair, and they that looked beheld his face as it were the face of an angel; he had gotten a sight of the city whose foundation is jasper, and whose every gate is a separate pearl.

The sunlight streaming through the curtain hit his silver hair, and those who looked saw his face as if it were the face of an angel; he had caught a glimpse of the city with foundations of jasper, where each gate is a single pearl.


CHAPTER IV

AUNT ROXY AND AUNT RUEY

[Pg 15]The sea lay like an unbroken mirror all around the pine-girt, lonely shores of Orr's Island. Tall, kingly spruces wore their regal crowns of cones high in air, sparkling with diamonds of clear exuded gum; vast old hemlocks of primeval growth stood darkling in their forest shadows, their branches hung with long hoary moss; while feathery larches, turned to brilliant gold by autumn frosts, lighted up the darker shadows of the evergreens. It was one of those hazy, calm, dissolving days of Indian summer, when everything is so quiet that the faintest kiss of the wave on the beach can be heard, and white clouds seem to faint into the blue of the sky, and soft swathing bands of violet vapor make all earth look dreamy, and give to the sharp, clear-cut outlines of the northern landscape all those mysteries of light and shade which impart such tenderness to Italian scenery.

[Pg 15]The sea spread out like a smooth mirror all around the pine-covered, isolated shores of Orr's Island. Tall, majestic spruces held their royal crowns of cones high in the air, sparkling with clear drops of gum; vast, ancient hemlocks of primeval growth stood darkly in their forest shadows, their branches draped with long, gray moss; while feathery larches, turned brilliant gold by autumn frost, brightened the darker shadows of the evergreens. It was one of those hazy, calm, melting days of Indian summer when everything is so still that you can hear the lightest kiss of the waves on the beach, and white clouds seem to fade into the blue sky, while gentle swirls of violet mist make the earth look dreamy, giving the sharp, clear outlines of the northern landscape a touch of mystery that adds tenderness to Italian scenery.

The funeral was over; the tread of many feet, bearing the heavy burden of two broken lives, had been to the lonely graveyard, and had come back again,—each footstep lighter and more unconstrained as each one went his way from the great old tragedy of Death to the common cheerful walks of Life.

The funeral was over; the sound of many footsteps, carrying the heavy weight of two shattered lives, had gone to the lonely graveyard and had returned again—each step feeling lighter and more relaxed as everyone moved away from the significant tragedy of Death to the usual, joyful paths of Life.

The solemn black clock stood swaying with its eternal "tick-tock, tick-tock," in the kitchen of the brown house on Orr's Island. There was there that sense of a stillness that can be felt,—such as settles down on a dwelling when any of its inmates have passed through its doors for[Pg 16] the last time, to go whence they shall not return. The best room was shut up and darkened, with only so much light as could fall through a little heart-shaped hole in the window-shutter,—for except on solemn visits, or prayer meetings, or weddings, or funerals, that room formed no part of the daily family scenery.

The solemn black clock swayed with its endless "tick-tock, tick-tock" in the kitchen of the brown house on Orr's Island. There was a sense of stillness that you could feel, like what settles over a home when one of its occupants has walked out for the last time to go somewhere they won't return from. The best room was shut up and dark, with just enough light coming through a little heart-shaped hole in the window shutter—because except for important visits, prayer meetings, weddings, or funerals, that room wasn't part of the family's everyday life.

The kitchen was clean and ample, with a great open fireplace and wide stone hearth, and oven on one side, and rows of old-fashioned splint-bottomed chairs against the wall. A table scoured to snowy whiteness, and a little work-stand whereon lay the Bible, the "Missionary Herald" and the "Weekly Christian Mirror," before named, formed the principal furniture. One feature, however, must not be forgotten,—a great sea-chest, which had been the companion of Zephaniah through all the countries of the earth. Old, and battered, and unsightly it looked, yet report said that there was good store within of that which men for the most part respect more than anything else; and, indeed, it proved often when a deed of grace was to be done,—when a woman was suddenly made a widow in a coast gale, or a fishing-smack was run down in the fogs off the banks, leaving in some neighboring cottage a family of orphans,—in all such cases, the opening of this sea-chest was an event of good omen to the bereaved; for Zephaniah had a large heart and a large hand, and was apt to take it out full of silver dollars when once it went in. So the ark of the covenant could not have been looked on with more reverence than the neighbors usually showed to Captain Pennel's sea-chest.

The kitchen was clean and spacious, featuring a large open fireplace and wide stone hearth, with an oven on one side and rows of old-fashioned splint-bottomed chairs against the wall. A table polished to a bright white and a small work-stand that held the Bible, the "Missionary Herald," and the "Weekly Christian Mirror," as mentioned earlier, made up the main furniture. One important detail, however, shouldn’t be overlooked—a large sea chest that had traveled with Zephaniah through many countries. It looked old, worn, and unattractive, but stories said it held a good supply of things that people generally value more than anything else; and indeed, it often proved true when an act of kindness was needed—when a woman suddenly became a widow because of a coastal storm, or a fishing boat was sunk in the fogs off the banks, leaving a family of orphans in a nearby cottage—in all such cases, opening this sea chest was seen as a sign of good fortune for the grieving; because Zephaniah had a big heart and was generous, often pulling out a handful of silver dollars once his hand went in. So, the chest was revered by the neighbors just as much as the ark of the covenant.

The afternoon sun is shining in a square of light through the open kitchen-door, whence one dreamily disposed might look far out to sea, and behold ships coming and going in every variety of shape and size.

The afternoon sun is streaming through the open kitchen door, where someone lost in thought could gaze out at the sea and see ships of all shapes and sizes coming and going.

But Aunt Roxy and Aunt Ruey, who for the present were sole occupants of the premises, were not people of the[Pg 17] dreamy kind, and consequently were not gazing off to sea, but attending to very terrestrial matters that in all cases somebody must attend to. The afternoon was warm and balmy, but a few smouldering sticks were kept in the great chimney, and thrust deep into the embers was a mongrel species of snub-nosed tea-pot, which fumed strongly of catnip-tea, a little of which gracious beverage Miss Roxy was preparing in an old-fashioned cracked India china tea-cup, tasting it as she did so with the air of a connoisseur.

But Aunt Roxy and Aunt Ruey, who were currently the only ones in the house, weren’t the dreamy types. Instead of gazing out at the sea, they were focused on very practical matters that someone had to take care of. The afternoon was warm and pleasant, but a few smoldering sticks were kept in the big fireplace, and a mixed-breed, snub-nosed teapot was buried deep in the embers, giving off a strong scent of catnip tea. Miss Roxy was preparing a little of this delightful drink in an old, cracked piece of Indian china, sampling it as if she were a connoisseur.

Apparently this was for the benefit of a small something in long white clothes, that lay face downward under a little blanket of very blue new flannel, and which something Aunt Roxy, when not otherwise engaged, constantly patted with a gentle tattoo, in tune to the steady trot of her knee. All babies knew Miss Roxy's tattoo on their backs, and never thought of taking it in ill part. On the contrary, it had a vital and mesmeric effect of sovereign force against colic, and all other disturbers of the nursery; and never was infant known so pressed with those internal troubles which infants cry about, as not speedily to give over and sink to slumber at this soothing appliance.

Apparently, this was for the benefit of a small something in long white clothes, lying face down under a little blanket of very blue new flannel. Aunt Roxy, when she wasn't busy with other things, would constantly pat this something with a gentle rhythm that matched the steady bounce of her knee. All babies recognized Miss Roxy's gentle pat on their backs and never minded it. On the contrary, it had a powerful and mesmerizing effect against colic and all other nuisances of the nursery; no infant known to be troubled by those internal issues that make babies cry ever failed to calm down and drift off to sleep with this comforting touch.

At a little distance sat Aunt Ruey, with a quantity of black crape strewed on two chairs about her, very busily employed in getting up a mourning-bonnet, at which she snipped, and clipped, and worked, zealously singing, in a high cracked voice, from time to time, certain verses of a funeral psalm.

At a short distance sat Aunt Ruey, surrounded by a bunch of black fabric spread out on two chairs, focused on making a mourning bonnet. She snipped, clipped, and worked diligently while occasionally singing, in a high-pitched, shaky voice, some lines from a funeral psalm.

Miss Roxy and Miss Ruey Toothacre were two brisk old bodies of the feminine gender and singular number, well known in all the region of Harpswell Neck and Middle Bay, and such was their fame that it had even reached the town of Brunswick, eighteen miles away.

Miss Roxy and Miss Ruey Toothacre were two lively old ladies who were well-known throughout the area of Harpswell Neck and Middle Bay, and their reputation had even reached the town of Brunswick, eighteen miles away.

They were of that class of females who might be denominated, in the Old Testament language, "cunning women,"—that is, gifted with an infinite diversity of practical[Pg 18] "faculty," which made them an essential requisite in every family for miles and miles around. It was impossible to say what they could not do: they could make dresses, and make shirts and vests and pantaloons, and cut out boys' jackets, and braid straw, and bleach and trim bonnets, and cook and wash, and iron and mend, could upholster and quilt, could nurse all kinds of sicknesses, and in default of a doctor, who was often miles away, were supposed to be infallible medical oracles. Many a human being had been ushered into life under their auspices,—trotted, chirruped in babyhood on their knees, clothed by their handiwork in garments gradually enlarging from year to year, watched by them in the last sickness, and finally arrayed for the long repose by their hands.

They were the kind of women who could be called, in biblical terms, "cunning women,"—that is, equipped with a seemingly endless range of practical skills[Pg 18] that made them essential in every household for miles around. It was hard to pinpoint what they couldn't do: they could sew dresses, shirts, vests, and pants, cut out jackets for boys, braid straw, bleach and trim bonnets, cook, wash, iron, mend, upholster, and quilt. They could care for all kinds of illnesses, and when a doctor was often far away, they were considered reliable medical advisors. Countless lives had begun under their care—countless babies had been bounced and cooed over on their laps, dressed in clothes they made that grew year after year, watched over by them through sickness, and ultimately prepared for eternal rest by their hands.

These universally useful persons receive among us the title of "aunt" by a sort of general consent, showing the strong ties of relationship which bind them to the whole human family. They are nobody's aunts in particular, but aunts to human nature generally. The idea of restricting their usefulness to any one family, would strike dismay through a whole community. Nobody would be so unprincipled as to think of such a thing as having their services more than a week or two at most. Your country factotum knows better than anybody else how absurd it would be

These universally helpful individuals are commonly referred to as "aunt" by general agreement, highlighting the strong bonds of connection they have with all of humanity. They might not be anyone’s specific aunts, but they’re aunts to humanity as a whole. The thought of limiting their support to just one family would alarm an entire community. No one would be so selfish as to consider keeping their help for more than a week or two at most. Your local handyman understands better than anyone how ridiculous that idea would be.

"To give to a part what was meant for mankind."

"To allocate to a portion what was intended for all humanity."

Nobody knew very well the ages of these useful sisters. In that cold, clear, severe climate of the North, the roots of human existence are hard to strike; but, if once people do take to living, they come in time to a place where they seem never to grow any older, but can always be found, like last year's mullein stalks, upright, dry, and seedy, warranted to last for any length of time.

Nobody really knew how old these helpful sisters were. In that cold, clear, harsh climate of the North, it's hard to figure out the roots of human existence; but once people start living, they eventually reach a point where they seem to stay the same age forever, like last year's mullein stalks, standing tall, dry, and full of seeds, guaranteed to last for a long time.

Miss Roxy Toothacre, who sits trotting the baby, is a tall, thin, angular woman, with sharp black eyes, and hair[Pg 19] once black, but now well streaked with gray. These ravages of time, however, were concealed by an ample mohair frisette of glossy blackness woven on each side into a heap of stiff little curls, which pushed up her cap border in rather a bristling and decisive way. In all her movements and personal habits, even to her tone of voice and manner of speaking, Miss Roxy was vigorous, spicy, and decided. Her mind on all subjects was made up, and she spoke generally as one having authority; and who should, if she should not? Was she not a sort of priestess and sibyl in all the most awful straits and mysteries of life? How many births, and weddings, and deaths had come and gone under her jurisdiction! And amid weeping or rejoicing, was not Miss Roxy still the master-spirit,—consulted, referred to by all?—was not her word law and precedent? Her younger sister, Miss Ruey, a pliant, cozy, easy-to-be-entreated personage, plump and cushiony, revolved around her as a humble satellite. Miss Roxy looked on Miss Ruey as quite a frisky young thing, though under her ample frisette of carroty hair her head might be seen white with the same snow that had powdered that of her sister. Aunt Ruey had a face much resembling the kind of one you may see, reader, by looking at yourself in the convex side of a silver milk-pitcher. If you try the experiment, this description will need no further amplification.

Miss Roxy Toothacre, who is rocking the baby, is a tall, thin, angular woman with sharp black eyes and hair[Pg 19] that was once black but is now streaked with gray. These signs of aging, however, are hidden under a full mohair wig of shiny black hair styled into a bunch of stiff little curls on either side, which pushed up her cap in a rather bristling and assertive manner. In all her actions and personal habits, including her tone of voice and way of speaking, Miss Roxy is energetic, lively, and decisive. She has made up her mind about everything, and she generally speaks with authority; and why shouldn’t she? Isn’t she somewhat of a priestess and oracle in the most serious challenges and mysteries of life? How many births, weddings, and deaths have happened under her watch! And whether in sorrow or joy, isn’t Miss Roxy the guiding spirit, consulted and referred to by everyone? Isn’t her word the law? Her younger sister, Miss Ruey, a flexible, easy-going person, is plump and soft, orbiting her like a humble satellite. Miss Roxy sees Miss Ruey as quite a lively young woman, even though under her thick wig of reddish hair, her head can be seen to be white with the same gray that has dusted her sister’s hair. Aunt Ruey has a face much like what you might see by looking at yourself in the convex side of a silver milk pitcher. If you try this out, you’ll see that this description needs no further elaboration.

The two almost always went together, for the variety of talent comprised in their stock could always find employment in the varying wants of a family. While one nursed the sick, the other made clothes for the well; and thus they were always chippering and chatting to each other, like a pair of antiquated house-sparrows, retailing over harmless gossips, and moralizing in that gentle jogtrot which befits serious old women. In fact, they had talked over everything in Nature, and said everything they could think of to each other so often, that the opinions of[Pg 20] one were as like those of the other as two sides of a pea-pod. But as often happens in cases of the sort, this was not because the two were in all respects exactly alike, but because the stronger one had mesmerized the weaker into consent.

The two almost always went together because the variety of skills in their family could always meet the different needs of a household. While one took care of the sick, the other sewed clothes for the healthy; and so they were always chatting and joking with each other, like a couple of old house sparrows, sharing harmless gossip and reflecting on life in that gentle, steady way suited for serious older women. In fact, they had talked about everything in nature and said everything they could think of to each other so often that one’s opinions were as similar to the other’s as two sides of a pea pod. But, as often happens in these cases, this wasn’t because they were completely alike, but because the stronger one had convinced the weaker one to agree.

Miss Roxy was the master-spirit of the two, and, like the great coining machine of a mint, came down with her own sharp, heavy stamp on every opinion her sister put out. She was matter-of-fact, positive, and declarative to the highest degree, while her sister was naturally inclined to the elegiac and the pathetic, indulging herself in sentimental poetry, and keeping a store thereof in her thread-case, which she had cut from the "Christian Mirror." Miss Roxy sometimes, in her brusque way, popped out observations on life and things, with a droll, hard quaintness that took one's breath a little, yet never failed to have a sharp crystallization of truth,—frosty though it were. She was one of those sensible, practical creatures who tear every veil, and lay their fingers on every spot in pure business-like good-will; and if we shiver at them at times, as at the first plunge of a cold bath, we confess to an invigorating power in them after all.

Miss Roxy was the driving force of the two, and, like a powerful coining machine at a mint, she stamped her own sharp, heavy mark on every opinion her sister expressed. She was straightforward, assertive, and declarative to the fullest extent, while her sister had a natural tendency towards the sentimental and the melancholic, indulging in poetry and keeping a collection of it in her thread case, which she had cut from the "Christian Mirror." Miss Roxy occasionally, in her blunt manner, would throw out comments about life and various topics, with a quirky, hard-edged charm that took people by surprise, yet always contained a clear crystallization of truth, even if it was a bit frosty. She was one of those practical individuals who peeled away every layer and addressed every issue with pure business-like goodwill; and even though we might shudder at them at times, like the initial plunge into a cold bath, we ultimately recognize their invigorating effect.

"Well, now," said Miss Roxy, giving a decisive push to the tea-pot, which buried it yet deeper in the embers, "ain't it all a strange kind o' providence that this 'ere little thing is left behind so; and then their callin' on her by such a strange, mournful kind of name,—Mara. I thought sure as could be 'twas Mary, till the minister read the passage from Scriptur'. Seems to me it's kind o' odd. I'd call it Maria, or I'd put an Ann on to it. Mara-ann, now, wouldn't sound so strange."

"Well, now," said Miss Roxy, giving a firm push to the teapot, which sank even deeper into the ashes, "isn't it a peculiar kind of fate that this little thing is left behind like this; and then they’re calling her by such a strange, sad name—Mara. I could have sworn it was Mary until the minister read that passage from the Scripture. It seems a bit odd to me. I’d call it Maria, or add an Ann to it. Mara-ann wouldn’t sound so strange, would it?"

"It's a Scriptur' name, sister," said Aunt Ruey, "and that ought to be enough for us."

"It's a Scriptural name, sister," said Aunt Ruey, "and that should be enough for us."

"Well, I don't know," said Aunt Roxy. "Now there was Miss Jones down on Mure P'int called her twins Tig[Pg 21]lath-Pileser and Shalmaneser,—Scriptur' names both, but I never liked 'em. The boys used to call 'em, Tiggy and Shally, so no mortal could guess they was Scriptur'."

"Well, I don't know," said Aunt Roxy. "There was Miss Jones down on Mure Point who named her twins Tig[Pg 21]lath-Pileser and Shalmaneser—Scripture names both, but I never liked them. The boys used to call them Tiggy and Shally, so no one could guess they were from the Bible."

"Well," said Aunt Ruey, drawing a sigh which caused her plump proportions to be agitated in gentle waves, "'tain't much matter, after all, what they call the little thing, for 'tain't 'tall likely it's goin' to live,—cried and worried all night, and kep' a-suckin' my cheek and my night-gown, poor little thing! This 'ere's a baby that won't get along without its mother. What Mis' Pennel's a-goin' to do with it when we is gone, I'm sure I don't know. It comes kind o' hard on old people to be broke o' their rest. If it's goin' to be called home, it's a pity, as I said, it didn't go with its mother"—

"Well," said Aunt Ruey, letting out a sigh that made her round figure sway slightly, "it doesn’t really matter what they call the little one, because it probably won't survive. It cried and worried all night, and kept sucking on my cheek and my nightgown, poor little thing! This baby won't manage without its mother. I have no idea what Mrs. Pennel will do with it when we're gone. It's tough on older folks to lose their rest. If it's going to be taken, it's a shame, as I said, that it didn’t go with its mother."

"And save the expense of another funeral," said Aunt Roxy. "Now when Mis' Pennel's sister asked her what she was going to do with Naomi's clothes, I couldn't help wonderin' when she said she should keep 'em for the child."

"And save the cost of another funeral," said Aunt Roxy. "So when Mis' Pennel's sister asked her what she was going to do with Naomi's clothes, I couldn't help but wonder when she said she would keep them for the child."

"She had a sight of things, Naomi did," said Aunt Ruey. "Nothin' was never too much for her. I don't believe that Cap'n Pennel ever went to Bath or Portland without havin' it in his mind to bring Naomi somethin'."

"She had a real knack for seeing things, Naomi did," said Aunt Ruey. "Nothing was ever too much for her. I don't think Cap'n Pennel ever went to Bath or Portland without planning to bring Naomi something."

"Yes, and she had a faculty of puttin' of 'em on," said Miss Roxy, with a decisive shake of the head. "Naomi was a still girl, but her faculty was uncommon; and I tell you, Ruey, 'tain't everybody hes faculty as hes things."

"Yeah, and she had a knack for putting them on," said Miss Roxy, shaking her head decisively. "Naomi was a quiet girl, but her talent was rare; and I’m telling you, Ruey, not everyone has the skill to make things happen."

"The poor Cap'n," said Miss Ruey, "he seemed greatly supported at the funeral, but he's dreadful broke down since. I went into Naomi's room this morning, and there the old man was a-sittin' by her bed, and he had a pair of her shoes in his hand,—you know what a leetle bit of a foot she had. I never saw nothin' look so kind o' solitary as that poor old man did!"

"The poor Captain," said Miss Ruey, "he seemed really strong at the funeral, but he's been completely crushed since then. I went into Naomi's room this morning, and there was the old man sitting by her bed, holding a pair of her shoes— you know how little her feet were. I’ve never seen anything look so lonely as that poor old man did!"

"Well," said Miss Roxy, "she was a master-hand for[Pg 22] keepin' things, Naomi was; her drawers is just a sight; she's got all the little presents and things they ever give her since she was a baby, in one drawer. There's a little pair of red shoes there that she had when she wa'n't more'n five year old. You 'member, Ruey, the Cap'n brought 'em over from Portland when we was to the house a-makin' Mis' Pennel's figured black silk that he brought from Calcutty. You 'member they cost just five and sixpence; but, law! the Cap'n he never grudged the money when 'twas for Naomi. And so she's got all her husband's keepsakes and things just as nice as when he give 'em to her."

"Well," said Miss Roxy, "Naomi is really great at keeping things. Her drawers are just a sight; she has all the little gifts and items anyone ever gave her since she was a baby in one drawer. There’s a little pair of red shoes she had when she was only five years old. Remember, Ruey, the Cap'n brought them over from Portland when we were at the house making Mis' Pennel’s figured black silk that he brought from Calcutta? You remember they cost just five and sixpence, but, gosh! the Cap'n never minded spending the money when it was for Naomi. So she keeps all her husband's keepsakes and items just as nice as when he gave them to her."

"It's real affectin'," said Miss Ruey, "I can't all the while help a-thinkin' of the Psalm,—

"It's really affecting," said Miss Ruey. "I can't help but think of the Psalm—

"'So fades the lovely blooming flower,—
Frail, smiling solace of an hour;
So quick our transient comforts fly,
And pleasure only blooms to die.'"

"'So fades the beautiful blooming flower,—
Delicate, cheerful comfort of a moment;
So quickly our temporary joys vanish,
And happiness only blossoms to fade away.'"

"Yes," said Miss Roxy; "and, Ruey, I was a-thinkin' whether or no it wa'n't best to pack away them things, 'cause Naomi hadn't fixed no baby drawers, and we seem to want some."

"Yes," said Miss Roxy; "and, Ruey, I was thinking whether or not it would be best to pack away those things, because Naomi hasn't made any baby drawers, and we seem to need some."

"I was kind o' hintin' that to Mis' Pennel this morning," said Ruey, "but she can't seem to want to have 'em touched."

"I was kind of hinting at that to Mrs. Pennel this morning," said Ruey, "but she doesn't seem to want to have them touched."

"Well, we may just as well come to such things first as last," said Aunt Roxy; "'cause if the Lord takes our friends, he does take 'em; and we can't lose 'em and have 'em too, and we may as well give right up at first, and done with it, that they are gone, and we've got to do without 'em, and not to be hangin' on to keep things just as they was."

"Well, we might as well deal with these things first instead of later," said Aunt Roxy; "because if the Lord takes our friends, he takes them; and we can't keep them and lose them at the same time, so we might as well accept right away that they're gone, and we have to manage without them, instead of clinging to the way things used to be."

"So I was a-tellin' Mis' Pennel," said Miss Ruey, "but she'll come to it by and by. I wish the baby might live, and kind o' grow up into her mother's place."[Pg 23]

"So I was telling Miss Pennel," said Miss Ruey, "but she'll understand it eventually. I wish the baby could live and sort of take her mother's place."[Pg 23]

"Well," said Miss Roxy, "I wish it might, but there'd be a sight o' trouble fetchin' on it up. Folks can do pretty well with children when they're young and spry, if they do get 'em up nights; but come to grandchildren, it's pretty tough."

"Well," said Miss Roxy, "I wish it could, but there would be a lot of trouble getting it started. People can manage pretty well with young kids when they’re energetic, even if it means staying up at night; but when it comes to grandchildren, it’s really challenging."

"I'm a-thinkin', sister," said Miss Ruey, taking off her spectacles and rubbing her nose thoughtfully, "whether or no cow's milk ain't goin' to be too hearty for it, it's such a pindlin' little thing. Now, Mis' Badger she brought up a seven-months' child, and she told me she gave it nothin' but these 'ere little seed cookies, wet in water, and it throve nicely,—and the seed is good for wind."

"I'm thinking, sister," said Miss Ruey, taking off her glasses and rubbing her nose thoughtfully, "whether cow's milk is going to be too rich for such a tiny little thing. Now, Mrs. Badger raised a seven-month-old baby, and she told me she only gave it these little seed cookies, soaked in water, and it did really well—and the seeds are good for gas."

"Oh, don't tell me none of Mis' Badger's stories," said Miss Roxy, "I don't believe in 'em. Cows is the Lord's ordinances for bringing up babies that's lost their mothers; it stands to reason they should be,—and babies that can't eat milk, why they can't be fetched up; but babies can eat milk, and this un will if it lives, and if it can't it won't live." So saying, Miss Roxy drummed away on the little back of the party in question, authoritatively, as if to pound in a wholesome conviction at the outset.

"Oh, don’t tell me any of Mis' Badger's stories," said Miss Roxy. "I don't believe in them. Cows are the Lord's way of raising babies who have lost their mothers; it just makes sense that they should be. And babies who can't drink milk, well, they can’t be raised. But babies can drink milk, and this one will if it lives, and if it can’t, then it won't survive." With that, Miss Roxy confidently tapped on the little back of the child, as if trying to instill a sound belief right from the start.

"I hope," said Miss Ruey, holding up a strip of black crape, and looking through it from end to end so as to test its capabilities, "I hope the Cap'n and Mis' Pennel'll get some support at the prayer-meetin' this afternoon."

"I hope," said Miss Ruey, holding up a strip of black fabric and looking through it from one end to the other to check its quality, "I hope the Captain and Mrs. Pennel will get some support at the prayer meeting this afternoon."

"It's the right place to go to," said Miss Roxy, with decision.

"It's the right place to go," said Miss Roxy, confidently.

"Mis' Pennel said this mornin' that she was just beat out tryin' to submit; and the more she said, 'Thy will be done,' the more she didn't seem to feel it."

"Ms. Pennel said this morning that she was just exhausted from trying to submit; and the more she said, 'Thy will be done,' the less she seemed to actually feel it."

"Them's common feelin's among mourners, Ruey. These 'ere forty years that I've been round nussin', and layin'-out, and tendin' funerals, I've watched people's exercises. People's sometimes supported wonderfully just at the time, and maybe at the funeral; but the three or four[Pg 24] weeks after, most everybody, if they's to say what they feel, is unreconciled."

"Those are common feelings among mourners, Ruey. For the past forty years that I've been around, taking care of people and handling funerals, I've observed how people react. They might hold it together pretty well during the moment and maybe at the funeral, but in the three or four[Pg 24] weeks afterward, most people, if they were to express their true feelings, are still struggling to come to terms with it."

"The Cap'n, he don't say nothin'," said Miss Ruey.

"The captain doesn't say anything," said Miss Ruey.

"No, he don't, but he looks it in his eyes," said Miss Roxy; "he's one of the kind o' mourners as takes it deep; that kind don't cry; it's a kind o' dry, deep pain; them's the worst to get over it,—sometimes they just says nothin', and in about six months they send for you to nuss 'em in consumption or somethin'. Now, Mis' Pennel, she can cry and she can talk,—well, she'll get over it; but he won't get no support unless the Lord reaches right down and lifts him up over the world. I've seen that happen sometimes, and I tell you, Ruey, that sort makes powerful Christians."

"No, he doesn’t, but you can see it in his eyes," said Miss Roxy; "he’s one of those mourners who feels it deeply; that kind doesn’t cry; it’s a sort of dry, deep pain; those are the hardest to get over—it’s like they just stay quiet, and in about six months, they’ll call for you to take care of them through a sickness or something. Now, Mrs. Pennel, she can cry and talk—well, she’ll get through it; but he won’t get any support unless the Lord reaches down and lifts him up above this world. I’ve seen that happen sometimes, and I tell you, Ruey, that kind makes for powerful Christians."

At that moment the old pair entered the door. Zephaniah Pennel came and stood quietly by the pillow where the little form was laid, and lifted a corner of the blanket. The tiny head was turned to one side, showing the soft, warm cheek, and the little hand was holding tightly a morsel of the flannel blanket. He stood swallowing hard for a few moments. At last he said, with deep humility, to the wise and mighty woman who held her, "I'll tell you what it is, Miss Roxy, I'll give all there is in my old chest yonder if you'll only make her—live."

At that moment, the old couple walked in. Zephaniah Pennel came over and stood quietly by the pillow where the little one was laid, lifting a corner of the blanket. The tiny head was turned to one side, revealing the soft, warm cheek, and the little hand was gripping a piece of the flannel blanket. He stood quietly for a few moments, struggling to hold back his emotions. Finally, he said, with deep humility, to the wise and powerful woman who was holding her, "I'll tell you what it is, Miss Roxy, I'll give everything in my old chest over there if you'll just make her—live."


CHAPTER V

THE KITTRIDGES

[Pg 25]It did live. The little life, so frail, so unprofitable in every mere material view, so precious in the eyes of love, expanded and flowered at last into fair childhood. Not without much watching and weariness. Many a night the old fisherman walked the floor with the little thing in his arms, talking to it that jargon of tender nonsense which fairies bring as love-gifts to all who tend a cradle. Many a day the good little old grandmother called the aid of gossips about her, trying various experiments of catnip, and sweet fern, and bayberry, and other teas of rustic reputation for baby frailties.

[Pg 25]It did live. The little life, so fragile, so unimportant in every practical sense, yet so precious in the eyes of love, eventually blossomed into a beautiful childhood. Not without a lot of watching and exhaustion. Many nights, the old fisherman paced the floor with the little one in his arms, speaking that sweet nonsense that fairies give as gifts to those who care for a cradle. Many days, the caring old grandmother called on her friends, trying different remedies like catnip, sweet fern, bayberry, and other herbal teas known for helping with baby issues.

At the end of three years, the two graves in the lonely graveyard were sodded and cemented down by smooth velvet turf, and playing round the door of the brown houses was a slender child, with ways and manners so still and singular as often to remind the neighbors that she was not like other children,—a bud of hope and joy,—but the outcome of a great sorrow,—a pearl washed ashore by a mighty, uprooting tempest. They that looked at her remembered that her father's eye had never beheld her, and her baptismal cup had rested on her mother's coffin.

At the end of three years, the two graves in the quiet graveyard were covered and sealed with smooth, soft turf, and a slender child played around the door of the brown houses. Her behavior and manner were so calm and unique that they often reminded the neighbors she wasn’t like other kids—a symbol of hope and joy—but rather the result of a deep sorrow—a pearl washed up by a powerful, tearing storm. Those who looked at her remembered that her father had never seen her, and her baptismal cup had rested on her mother's coffin.

She was small of stature, beyond the wont of children of her age, and moulded with a fine waxen delicacy that won admiration from all eyes. Her hair was curly and golden, but her eyes were dark like her mother's, and the lids drooped over them in that manner which gives a peculiar expression of dreamy wistfulness. Every one of us must[Pg 26] remember eyes that have a strange, peculiar expression of pathos and desire, as if the spirit that looked out of them were pressed with vague remembrances of a past, or but dimly comprehended the mystery of its present life. Even when the baby lay in its cradle, and its dark, inquiring eyes would follow now one object and now another, the gossips would say the child was longing for something, and Miss Roxy would still further venture to predict that that child always would long and never would know exactly what she was after.

She was short for her age, with a delicate, almost wax-like appearance that drew admiration from everyone. Her hair was curly and golden, but her eyes were dark like her mother’s, and her eyelids drooped in a way that gave her a dreamy, wistful look. Each of us must[Pg 26] remember eyes that have a strange, unique expression of longing and sorrow, as if the spirit behind them was weighed down by vague memories of the past or barely grasped the mystery of its current life. Even when the baby lay in her cradle, her dark, curious eyes would move from one thing to another, and the neighbors would say that the child was yearning for something. Miss Roxy even went further to predict that this child would always long for things and would never quite know what she was really after.

That dignitary sits at this minute enthroned in the kitchen corner, looking majestically over the press-board on her knee, where she is pressing the next year's Sunday vest of Zephaniah Pennel. As she makes her heavy tailor's goose squeak on the work, her eyes follow the little delicate fairy form which trips about the kitchen, busily and silently arranging a little grotto of gold and silver shells and seaweed. The child sings to herself as she works in a low chant, like the prattle of a brook, but ever and anon she rests her little arms on a chair and looks through the open kitchen-door far, far off where the horizon line of the blue sea dissolves in the blue sky.

That dignitary is currently settled in the kitchen corner, looking majestically over the press-board on her lap, where she is pressing next year's Sunday vest for Zephaniah Pennel. As she makes her heavy tailor's goose squeak on the fabric, her eyes follow the delicate little fairy-like figure that moves around the kitchen, busily and quietly setting up a small grotto of gold and silver shells and seaweed. The child sings softly to herself as she works, her tune reminiscent of a babbling brook, but now and then she rests her little arms on a chair and gazes through the open kitchen door, far off where the horizon of the blue sea merges with the blue sky.

"See that child now, Roxy," said Miss Ruey, who sat stitching beside her; "do look at her eyes. She's as handsome as a pictur', but 't ain't an ordinary look she has neither; she seems a contented little thing; but what makes her eyes always look so kind o' wishful?"

"Look at that child now, Roxy," said Miss Ruey, who was sitting and stitching next to her; "just look at her eyes. She's as pretty as a picture, but she has an unusual look to her too; she seems like a happy little thing, but what makes her eyes always look so kind of longing?"

"Wa'n't her mother always a-longin' and a-lookin' to sea, and watchin' the ships, afore she was born?" said Miss Roxy; "and didn't her heart break afore she was born? Babies like that is marked always. They don't know what ails 'em, nor nobody."

"Wasn't her mother always longing and looking out to sea, watching the ships, before she was born?" said Miss Roxy; "and didn't her heart break before she was born? Babies like that are always marked. They don't know what's wrong with them, and neither does anyone else."

"It's her mother she's after," said Miss Ruey.

"She's after her mother," said Miss Ruey.

"The Lord only knows," said Miss Roxy; "but them kind o' children always seem homesick to go back where[Pg 27] they come from. They're mostly grave and old-fashioned like this 'un. If they gets past seven years, why they live; but it's always in 'em to long; they don't seem to be really unhappy neither, but if anything's ever the matter with 'em, it seems a great deal easier for 'em to die than to live. Some say it's the mothers longin' after 'em makes 'em feel so, and some say it's them longin' after their mothers; but dear knows, Ruey, what anything is or what makes anything. Children's mysterious, that's my mind."

"The Lord only knows," said Miss Roxy; "but those kinds of kids always seem homesick for where[Pg 27] they come from. They're mostly serious and old-fashioned like this one. If they get past seven years, they survive; but they always seem to yearn for something. They don’t really seem unhappy either, but if anything is ever wrong with them, it seems a lot easier for them to die than to continue living. Some say it’s the mothers longing for them that makes them feel this way, and some say it’s them yearning for their mothers; but who knows, Ruey, what anything is or what makes anything happen. Kids are a mystery, that’s what I think."

"Mara, dear," said Miss Ruey, interrupting the child's steady lookout, "what you thinking of?"

"Mara, sweetie," said Miss Ruey, interrupting the child's focused gaze, "what are you thinking about?"

"Me want somefin'," said the little one.

"Me want something," said the little one.

"That's what she's always sayin'," said Miss Roxy.

"That's what she always says," said Miss Roxy.

"Me want somebody to pay wis'," continued the little one.

"Me want someone to pay for it," continued the little one.

"Want somebody to play with," said old Dame Pennel, as she came in from the back-room with her hands yet floury with kneading bread; "sure enough, she does. Our house stands in such a lonesome place, and there ain't any children. But I never saw such a quiet little thing—always still and always busy."

"Want someone to play with?" said old Dame Pennel as she came in from the back room with her hands still dusty from kneading bread. "It's true, she does. Our house is in such a lonely spot, and there aren't any kids around. But I've never seen such a quiet little one—always calm and always busy."

"I'll take her down with me to Cap'n Kittridge's," said Miss Roxy, "and let her play with their little girl; she'll chirk her up, I'll warrant. She's a regular little witch, Sally is, but she'll chirk her up. It ain't good for children to be so still and old-fashioned; children ought to be children. Sally takes to Mara just 'cause she's so different."

"I'll take her with me to Cap'n Kittridge's," said Miss Roxy, "and let her play with their little girl; she'll cheer her up, I promise. Sally is a little firecracker, but she'll definitely lift her spirits. It's not healthy for kids to be so quiet and old-fashioned; kids should be free to be kids. Sally connects with Mara just because she's so different."

"Well, now, you may," said Dame Pennel; "to be sure he can't bear her out of his sight a minute after he comes in; but after all, old folks can't be company for children."

"Well, now, you may," said Dame Pennel; "of course he can't stand being away from her for a moment after he comes in; but really, older people can't keep up with kids."

Accordingly, that afternoon, the little Mara was arrayed in a little blue flounced dress, which stood out like a balloon, made by Miss Roxy in first-rate style, from a French fashion-plate; her golden hair was twined in manifold curls[Pg 28] by Dame Pennel, who, restricted in her ideas of ornamentation, spared, nevertheless, neither time nor money to enhance the charms of this single ornament to her dwelling. Mara was her picture-gallery, who gave her in the twenty-four hours as many Murillos or Greuzes as a lover of art could desire; and as she tied over the child's golden curls a little flat hat, and saw her go dancing off along the sea-sands, holding to Miss Roxy's bony finger, she felt she had in her what galleries of pictures could not buy.

That afternoon, little Mara was dressed in a flouncy blue dress that stood out like a balloon, made by Miss Roxy in top-notch style, inspired by a French fashion plate. Her golden hair was styled in numerous curls by Dame Pennel, who, though limited in her ideas about decoration, didn’t hold back on time or money to enhance the appeal of this single ornament in her home. Mara was her personal gallery, providing her each day with as many masterpieces as an art lover could wish for. As she tied a little flat hat over the child's golden curls and watched her skip along the beach, holding onto Miss Roxy's bony finger, she felt that what she had in her was more valuable than any collection of paintings could offer.

It was a good mile to the one story, gambrel-roofed cottage where lived Captain Kittridge,—the long, lean, brown man, with his good wife of the great Leghorn bonnet, round, black bead eyes, and psalm-book, whom we told you of at the funeral. The Captain, too, had followed the sea in his early life, but being not, as he expressed it, "very rugged," in time changed his ship for a tight little cottage on the seashore, and devoted himself to boat-building, which he found sufficiently lucrative to furnish his brown cottage with all that his wife's heart desired, besides extra money for knick-knacks when she chose to go up to Brunswick or over to Portland to shop.

It was a good mile to the one-story, gambrel-roofed cottage where Captain Kittridge lived— a tall, lean, tan man, along with his good wife who wore a large Leghorn bonnet, had round, black bead eyes, and always carried a psalm book, whom we mentioned at the funeral. The Captain had also been a sailor in his younger days, but since he didn’t consider himself “very tough,” he eventually traded his ship for a cozy little cottage by the sea and dedicated himself to boat-building. He found this work to be profitable enough to provide for all his wife's wishes in their brown cottage, plus extra money for little treats whenever she wanted to go up to Brunswick or over to Portland to shop.

The Captain himself was a welcome guest at all the firesides round, being a chatty body, and disposed to make the most of his foreign experiences, in which he took the usual advantages of a traveler. In fact, it was said, whether slanderously or not, that the Captain's yarns were spun to order; and as, when pressed to relate his foreign adventures, he always responded with, "What would you like to hear?" it was thought that he fabricated his article to suit his market. In short, there was no species of experience, finny, fishy, or aquatic,—no legend of strange and unaccountable incident of fire or flood,—no romance of foreign scenery and productions, to which his tongue was not competent, when he had once seated himself in a double bow-knot at a neighbor's evening fireside.[Pg 29]

The Captain was always a favorite guest around the firesides. He loved to chat and share stories from his travels, making the most of his experiences. Some said, whether it was true or not, that his tales were crafted just for the occasion. When asked about his adventures, he often replied, "What would you like to hear?" leading people to think he tailored his stories to fit the audience. In short, there wasn’t a type of experience—be it involving fish or the sea, strange incidents of fire or flood, or tales of exotic places—that he couldn’t talk about once he settled into a comfy spot at a neighbor's evening gathering.[Pg 29]

His good wife, a sharp-eyed, literal body, and a vigorous church-member, felt some concern of conscience on the score of these narrations; for, being their constant auditor, she, better than any one else, could perceive the variations and discrepancies of text which showed their mythical character, and oftentimes her black eyes would snap and her knitting-needles rattle with an admonitory vigor as he went on, and sometimes she would unmercifully come in at the end of a narrative with,—

His good wife, a sharp-eyed, practical woman and an active church member, felt a bit guilty about these stories. Since she was always listening to them, she could spot the differences and inconsistencies in the tales that hinted at their fictional nature better than anyone else. Often, her dark eyes would flash, and her knitting needles would clack with a warning intensity as he continued, and sometimes she would decisively interrupt at the end of a story with,—

"Well, now, the Cap'n's told them ar stories till he begins to b'lieve 'em himself, I think."

"Well, now, the Cap’n has told them those stories until he starts to believe them himself, I think."

But works of fiction, as we all know, if only well gotten up, have always their advantages in the hearts of listeners over plain, homely truth; and so Captain Kittridge's yarns were marketable fireside commodities still, despite the skepticisms which attended them.

But fiction, as we all know, if it's well-crafted, always has its advantages in the hearts of listeners over plain, everyday truth; and so Captain Kittridge's stories were still popular at the fireside, despite the doubts that surrounded them.

The afternoon sunbeams at this moment are painting the gambrel-roof with a golden brown. It is September again, as it was three years ago when our story commenced, and the sea and sky are purple and amethystine with its Italian haziness of atmosphere.

The afternoon sunbeams right now are coloring the gambrel roof a golden brown. It's September again, just like three years ago when our story began, and the sea and sky are purple and amethyst with that hazy Italian atmosphere.

The brown house stands on a little knoll, about a hundred yards from the open ocean. Behind it rises a ledge of rocks, where cedars and hemlocks make deep shadows into which the sun shoots golden shafts of light, illuminating the scarlet feathers of the sumach, which throw themselves jauntily forth from the crevices; while down below, in deep, damp, mossy recesses, rise ferns which autumn has just begun to tinge with yellow and brown. The little knoll where the cottage stood had on its right hand a tiny bay, where the ocean water made up amid picturesque rocks—shaggy and solemn. Here trees of the primeval forest, grand and lordly, looked down silently into the waters which ebbed and flowed daily into this little pool. Every variety of those beautiful evergreens which feather[Pg 30] the coast of Maine, and dip their wings in the very spray of its ocean foam, found here a representative. There were aspiring black spruces, crowned on the very top with heavy coronets of cones; there were balsamic firs, whose young buds breathe the scent of strawberries; there were cedars, black as midnight clouds, and white pines with their swaying plumage of needle-like leaves, strewing the ground beneath with a golden, fragrant matting; and there were the gigantic, wide-winged hemlocks, hundreds of years old, and with long, swaying, gray beards of moss, looking white and ghostly under the deep shadows of their boughs. And beneath, creeping round trunk and matting over stones, were many and many of those wild, beautiful things which embellish the shadows of these northern forests. Long, feathery wreaths of what are called ground-pines ran here and there in little ruffles of green, and the prince's pine raised its oriental feather, with a mimic cone on the top, as if it conceived itself to be a grown-up tree. Whole patches of partridge-berry wove their evergreen matting, dotted plentifully with brilliant scarlet berries. Here and there, the rocks were covered with a curiously inwoven tapestry of moss, overshot with the exquisite vine of the Linnea borealis, which in early spring rings its two fairy bells on the end of every spray; while elsewhere the wrinkled leaves of the mayflower wove themselves through and through deep beds of moss, meditating silently thoughts of the thousand little cups of pink shell which they had it in hand to make when the time of miracles should come round next spring.

The brown house sits on a small hill, about a hundred yards from the open ocean. Behind it, a ledge of rocks rises, where cedars and hemlocks cast deep shadows that catch the golden rays of sunlight, highlighting the vibrant scarlet feathers of the sumach, which boldly emerge from the crevices; while below, in the cool, damp, mossy nooks, ferns are just beginning to change to shades of yellow and brown for autumn. The little hill where the cottage stands has a tiny bay on its right, where ocean water mingles among the scenic rocks—rugged and majestic. Here, ancient trees of the primeval forest tower silently over the waters that ebb and flow into this little pool every day. Every type of beautiful evergreen that lines the coast of Maine and dips its branches into the ocean spray can be found here. There are tall black spruces, topped with heavy clusters of cones; balsamic firs, whose young buds emit a strawberry fragrance; cedars, dark as midnight clouds, and white pines with their graceful needle-like leaves, creating a golden, fragrant carpet on the ground; along with the giant, wide-winged hemlocks, hundreds of years old, draped in long, swaying gray beards of moss that appear white and ghostly in the deep shadows of their branches. And beneath, creeping around trunks and carpeting the stones, are countless beautiful wildflowers that enhance the shadows of these northern forests. Long, feathery strands of what’s known as ground-pines spread out in small green ruffles, and the prince's pine raises its oriental plume, topped with a small cone, as if it sees itself as a mature tree. Entire patches of partridge-berry create a lush green carpet, dotted with bright red berries. Here and there, the rocks are cloaked in a beautifully woven tapestry of moss, adorned with the delicate vine of the Linnea borealis, which in early spring rings its two fairy bells at the end of each stem; while elsewhere, the crinkled leaves of the mayflower intertwine through deep beds of moss, quietly contemplating the thousands of little pink shell cups they will create when the time of miracles returns next spring.

Nothing, in short, could be more quaintly fresh, wild, and beautiful than the surroundings of this little cove which Captain Kittridge had thought fit to dedicate to his boat-building operations,—where he had set up his tar-kettle between two great rocks above the highest tide-mark, and where, at the present moment, he had a boat upon the stocks.[Pg 31]

Nothing, in short, could be more charmingly fresh, wild, and beautiful than the surroundings of this little cove that Captain Kittridge had chosen for his boat-building operations—where he had placed his tar kettle between two huge rocks above the highest tide line, and where, at that moment, he had a boat being constructed.[Pg 31]

Mrs. Kittridge, at this hour, was sitting in her clean kitchen, very busily engaged in ripping up a silk dress, which Miss Roxy had engaged to come and make into a new one; and, as she ripped, she cast now and then an eye at the face of a tall, black clock, whose solemn tick-tock was the only sound that could be heard in the kitchen.

Mrs. Kittridge was sitting in her tidy kitchen, focused on tearing apart a silk dress that Miss Roxy had agreed to remake into a new one. As she worked, she occasionally glanced at the face of a tall, black clock, whose steady tick-tock was the only sound in the kitchen.

By her side, on a low stool, sat a vigorous, healthy girl of six years, whose employment evidently did not please her, for her well-marked black eyebrows were bent in a frown, and her large black eyes looked surly and wrathful, and one versed in children's grievances could easily see what the matter was,—she was turning a sheet! Perhaps, happy young female reader, you don't know what that is,—most likely not; for in these degenerate days the strait and narrow ways of self-denial, formerly thought so wholesome for little feet, are quite grass-grown with neglect. Childhood nowadays is unceasingly fêted and caressed, the principal difficulty of the grown people seeming to be to discover what the little dears want,—a thing not always clear to the little dears themselves. But in old times, turning sheets was thought a most especial and wholesome discipline for young girls; in the first place, because it took off the hands of their betters a very uninteresting and monotonous labor; and in the second place, because it was such a long, straight, unending turnpike, that the youthful travelers, once started thereupon, could go on indefinitely, without requiring guidance and direction of their elders. For these reasons, also, the task was held in special detestation by children in direct proportion to their amount of life, and their ingenuity and love of variety. A dull child took it tolerably well; but to a lively, energetic one, it was a perfect torture.

By her side, on a low stool, sat a strong, healthy six-year-old girl who clearly didn’t like what she was doing, as her thick black eyebrows were furrowed in a frown, and her large black eyes looked angry and upset. Anyone familiar with kids' complaints could easily tell what was bothering her—she was turning a sheet! Maybe, dear young reader, you don’t know what that is—most likely you don’t; because nowadays, the strict and simple ways of self-control, which were once seen as beneficial for little ones, are completely ignored. Today’s childhood is constantly filled with celebrations and pampering, and the main challenge for adults seems to be figuring out what the little ones want—a question that isn’t always clear to the kids themselves. But back in the day, turning sheets was considered a valuable and healthy practice for young girls; mainly because it relieved their elders of a tedious and repetitive task, and also because it provided a long, straight, endless path that young ones, once started, could follow indefinitely without needing guidance from adults. For these reasons, the chore was particularly hated by children in direct proportion to how lively they were and their craving for change. A dull child could handle it fairly well; but for a lively, energetic child, it was pure torture.

"I don't see the use of sewing up sheets one side, and ripping up the other," at last said Sally, breaking the monotonous tick-tock of the clock by an observation which[Pg 32] has probably occurred to every child in similar circumstances.

"I don't get why you would sew up one side of the sheets and then tear the other," Sally finally said, interrupting the boring tick-tock of the clock with a thought that[Pg 32] has probably crossed the mind of every child in similar situations.

"Sally Kittridge, if you say another word about that ar sheet, I'll whip you," was the very explicit rejoinder; and there was a snap of Mrs. Kittridge's black eyes, that seemed to make it likely that she would keep her word. It was answered by another snap from the six-year-old eyes, as Sally comforted herself with thinking that when she was a woman she'd speak her mind out in pay for all this.

"Sally Kittridge, if you say another word about that art piece, I'll take care of you," was the very clear reply; and there was a flash in Mrs. Kittridge's dark eyes that suggested she meant it. Sally shot back with another defiant look from her six-year-old eyes, reassuring herself that when she grew up, she’d express her thoughts openly to make up for all this.

At this moment a burst of silvery child-laughter rang out, and there appeared in the doorway, illuminated by the afternoon sunbeams, the vision of Miss Roxy's tall, lank figure, with the little golden-haired, blue-robed fairy, hanging like a gay butterfly upon the tip of a thorn-bush. Sally dropped the sheet and clapped her hands, unnoticed by her mother, who rose to pay her respects to the "cunning woman" of the neighborhood.

At that moment, a burst of cheerful child-laughter rang out, and in the doorway appeared the tall, lean figure of Miss Roxy, illuminated by the afternoon sunlight, with a little golden-haired fairy in a blue robe, looking like a colorful butterfly perched on the tip of a thorn-bush. Sally dropped the sheet and clapped her hands, unnoticed by her mother, who got up to greet the neighborhood "wise woman."

"Well, now, Miss Roxy, I was 'mazin' afraid you wer'n't a-comin'. I'd just been an' got my silk ripped up, and didn't know how to get a step farther without you."

"Well, now, Miss Roxy, I was really worried you weren't coming. I had just gotten my silk torn up, and didn’t know how to move forward without you."

"Well, I was finishin' up Cap'n Pennel's best pantaloons," said Miss Roxy; "and I've got 'em along so, Ruey can go on with 'em; and I told Mis' Pennel I must come to you, if 'twas only for a day; and I fetched the little girl down, 'cause the little thing's so kind o' lonesome like. I thought Sally could play with her, and chirk her up a little."

"Well, I was finishing up Captain Pennel's best pants," said Miss Roxy; "and I've got them here so Ruey can continue with them; and I told Mrs. Pennel I had to come to you, even if it was just for a day; and I brought the little girl along because she was feeling a bit lonely. I thought Sally could play with her and cheer her up a little."

"Well, Sally," said Mrs. Kittridge, "stick in your needle, fold up your sheet, put your thimble in your work-pocket, and then you may take the little Mara down to the cove to play; but be sure you don't let her go near the tar, nor wet her shoes. D'ye hear?"

"Well, Sally," said Mrs. Kittridge, "put your needle in, fold up your sheet, put your thimble in your work pocket, and then you can take little Mara down to the cove to play; but make sure you don't let her go near the tar, and keep her shoes dry. Do you understand?"

"Yes, ma'am," said Sally, who had sprung up in light and radiance, like a translated creature, at this unexpected[Pg 33] turn of fortune, and performed the welcome orders with a celerity which showed how agreeable they were; and then, stooping and catching the little one in her arms, disappeared through the door, with the golden curls fluttering over her own crow-black hair.

"Sure thing, ma'am," said Sally, who jumped up in excitement, like a transformed being, at this surprising turn of events, and quickly carried out the welcome tasks, which showed how much she enjoyed them; then, bending down and scooping up the little one in her arms, she vanished through the door, with the golden curls fluttering over her own jet-black hair.

The fact was, that Sally, at that moment, was as happy as human creature could be, with a keenness of happiness that children who have never been made to turn sheets of a bright afternoon can never realize. The sun was yet an hour high, as she saw, by the flash of her shrewd, time-keeping eye, and she could bear her little prize down to the cove, and collect unknown quantities of gold and silver shells, and starfish, and salad-dish shells, and white pebbles for her, besides quantities of well turned shavings, brown and white, from the pile which constantly was falling under her father's joiner's bench, and with which she would make long extemporaneous tresses, so that they might play at being mermaids, like those that she had heard her father tell about in some of his sea-stories.

The truth was, Sally was as happy as any person could be at that moment, experiencing a joy that kids who have never had to do chores on a sunny afternoon can't really understand. The sun was still an hour high, as she noted with her sharp, time-keeping eye, and she could carry her little treasure down to the cove to gather all sorts of gold and silver shells, starfish, salad-dish shells, and white pebbles, along with nice, smooth shavings, both brown and white, from the pile that always fell from her dad's woodworking bench. She would use those to make long, impromptu hairdos so they could pretend to be mermaids, like the ones she had heard her dad talk about in his sea stories.

"Now, railly, Sally, what you got there?" said Captain Kittridge, as he stood in his shirt-sleeves peering over his joiner's bench, to watch the little one whom Sally had dumped down into a nest of clean white shavings. "Wal', wal', I should think you'd a-stolen the big doll I see in a shop-window the last time I was to Portland. So this is Pennel's little girl?—poor child!"

"Now, really, Sally, what do you have there?" said Captain Kittridge, as he stood in his shirt sleeves, looking over his workbench to watch the little one whom Sally had set down in a pile of clean, white wood shavings. "Well, well, I would have thought you stole the big doll I saw in a shop window the last time I was in Portland. So this is Pennel's little girl?—poor kid!"

"Yes, father, and we want some nice shavings."

"Yes, Dad, and we want some nice shavings."

"Stay a bit, I'll make ye a few a-purpose," said the old man, reaching his long, bony arm, with the greatest ease, to the farther part of his bench, and bringing up a board, from which he proceeded to roll off shavings in fine satin rings, which perfectly delighted the hearts of the children, and made them dance with glee; and, truth to say, reader, there are coarser and homelier things in the world than a well turned shaving.[Pg 34]

"Stay for a moment, I'll make you a few special ones," said the old man, easily extending his long, thin arm to the far end of his bench and pulling out a board, from which he began to roll off shavings in perfect, satin-like rings. This delighted the children and made them jump for joy; and to be honest, reader, there are rougher and less charming things in the world than a well-made shaving.[Pg 34]

"There, go now," he said, when both of them stood with both hands full; "go now and play; and mind you don't let the baby wet her feet, Sally; them shoes o' hern must have cost five-and-sixpence at the very least."

"There, go on now," he said, as they both stood with their hands full; "go ahead and play; and make sure you don’t let the baby get her feet wet, Sally; those shoes of hers must have cost at least five-and-sixpence."

That sunny hour before sundown seemed as long to Sally as the whole seam of the sheet; for childhood's joys are all pure gold; and as she ran up and down the white sands, shouting at every shell she found, or darted up into the overhanging forest for checkerberries and ground-pine, all the sorrows of the morning came no more into her remembrance.

That sunny hour before sunset felt as long to Sally as the entire length of the sheet; because the joys of childhood are pure gold. As she ran back and forth on the white sand, cheering every time she discovered a shell, or dashed into the overhanging forest for checkerberries and ground-pine, all the sadness from the morning faded from her mind.

The little Mara had one of those sensitive, excitable natures, on which every external influence acts with immediate power. Stimulated by the society of her energetic, buoyant little neighbor, she no longer seemed wishful or pensive, but kindled into a perfect flame of wild delight, and gamboled about the shore like a blue and gold-winged fly; while her bursts of laughter made the squirrels and blue jays look out inquisitively from their fastnesses in the old evergreens. Gradually the sunbeams faded from the pines, and the waves of the tide in the little cove came in, solemnly tinted with purple, flaked with orange and crimson, borne in from a great rippling sea of fire, into which the sun had just sunk.

The little Mara had one of those sensitive, excitable natures that react immediately to everything around her. Inspired by her lively, cheerful neighbor, she stopped looking wistful or thoughtful and erupted into a stunning display of pure joy, darting around the shore like a blue and gold-winged insect. Her laughter made the squirrels and blue jays peek out curiously from their hiding spots in the old evergreens. Slowly, the sunbeams faded from the pines, and the tide in the little cove rolled in, colored solemnly with purple, speckled with orange and crimson, flowing in from a vast shimmering sea of fire where the sun had just set.

"Mercy on us—them children!" said Miss Roxy.

"Have mercy on us—them kids!" said Miss Roxy.

"He's bringin' 'em along," said Mrs. Kittridge, as she looked out of the window and saw the tall, lank form of the Captain, with one child seated on either shoulder, and holding on by his head.

"He's bringing them along," said Mrs. Kittridge, as she looked out of the window and saw the tall, skinny figure of the Captain, with one child sitting on each shoulder, clinging to his head.

The two children were both in the highest state of excitement, but never was there a more marked contrast of nature. The one seemed a perfect type of well-developed childish health and vigor, good solid flesh and bones, with glowing skin, brilliant eyes, shining teeth, well-knit, supple limbs,—vigorously and healthily beautiful; while the[Pg 35] other appeared one of those aerial mixtures of cloud and fire, whose radiance seems scarcely earthly. A physiologist, looking at the child, would shake his head, seeing one of those perilous organizations, all nerve and brain, which come to life under the clear, stimulating skies of America, and, burning with the intensity of lighted phosphorus, waste themselves too early.

The two kids were both super excited, but there was a noticeable difference between them. One looked like the perfect picture of healthy childhood—with strong muscles and bones, glowing skin, bright eyes, shining teeth, and flexible limbs—vigorously and healthily beautiful; while the[Pg 35] other seemed more like a mix of clouds and fire, radiating brilliance that felt almost otherworldly. A physiologist, observing the child, would shake his head, recognizing one of those fragile beings, full of nerves and brain, who thrive under America’s clear, energizing skies, and burn out too quickly like ignited phosphorus.

The little Mara seemed like a fairy sprite, possessed with a wild spirit of glee. She laughed and clapped her hands incessantly, and when set down on the kitchen-floor spun round like a little elf; and that night it was late and long before her wide, wakeful eyes could be veiled in sleep.

The little Mara seemed like a fairy sprite, full of wild joy. She laughed and clapped her hands nonstop, and when she was put down on the kitchen floor, she spun around like a little elf; and that night, it took a long time for her bright, alert eyes to close in sleep.

"Company jist sets this 'ere child crazy," said Miss Roxy; "it's jist her lonely way of livin'; a pity Mis' Pennel hadn't another child to keep company along with her."

"Company just drives this child crazy," said Miss Roxy; "it's just her lonely way of living; it's a shame Mrs. Pennel didn't have another child to keep her company."

"Mis' Pennel oughter be trainin' of her up to work," said Mrs. Kittridge. "Sally could oversew and hem when she wa'n't more'n three years old; nothin' straightens out children like work. Mis' Pennel she just keeps that ar child to look at."

"Mrs. Pennel should really be teaching her to work," said Mrs. Kittridge. "Sally could oversew and hem when she was only three years old; nothing straightens out kids like work. Mrs. Pennel just has that girl sitting around."

"All children ain't alike, Mis' Kittridge," said Miss Roxy, sententiously. "This 'un ain't like your Sally. 'A hen and a bumble-bee can't be fetched up alike, fix it how you will!'"

"All kids aren't the same, Miss Kittridge," Miss Roxy said seriously. "This one isn't like your Sally. You can't raise a hen and a bumblebee the same way, no matter what!"


CHAPTER VI

GRANDPARENTS

[Pg 36]Zephaniah Pennel came back to his house in the evening, after Miss Roxy had taken the little Mara away. He looked for the flowery face and golden hair as he came towards the door, and put his hand in his vest-pocket, where he had deposited a small store of very choice shells and sea curiosities, thinking of the widening of those dark, soft eyes when he should present them.

[Pg 36]Zephaniah Pennel returned home in the evening, after Miss Roxy had taken little Mara away. He searched for the flowery face and golden hair as he approached the door, and reached into his vest pocket, where he had stored a small collection of rare shells and sea curiosities, imagining the brightening of those dark, soft eyes when he would give them to her.

"Where's Mara?" was the first inquiry after he had crossed the threshold.

"Where's Mara?" was the first question after he walked in.

"Why, Roxy's been an' taken her down to Cap'n Kittridge's to spend the night," said Miss Ruey. "Roxy's gone to help Mis' Kittridge to turn her spotted gray and black silk. We was talking this mornin' whether 'no 't would turn, 'cause I thought the spot was overshot, and wouldn't make up on the wrong side; but Roxy she says it's one of them ar Calcutty silks that has two sides to 'em, like the one you bought Miss Pennel, that we made up for her, you know;" and Miss Ruey arose and gave a finishing snap to the Sunday pantaloons, which she had been left to "finish off,"—which snap said, as plainly as words could say that there was a good job disposed of.

"Roxy's taken her down to Captain Kittridge's to stay the night," Miss Ruey said. "Roxy went to help Mrs. Kittridge with her spotted gray and black silk. We were talking this morning about whether it would turn out, because I thought the spots were overshot and wouldn't look right on the wrong side; but Roxy says it's one of those Calcutta silks that has two sides, like the one you bought for Miss Pennel that we made up for her, you know." Miss Ruey then stood up and gave a final snap to the Sunday pants she had been left to finish, which snap clearly communicated that a good job was done.

Zephaniah stood looking as helpless as animals of the male kind generally do when appealed to with such prolixity on feminine details; in reply to it all, only he asked meekly,—

Zephaniah stood there looking as helpless as male animals usually do when confronted with lengthy discussions about feminine details; in response to it all, he simply asked quietly,—

"Where's Mary?"

"Where is Mary?"

"Mis' Pennel? Why, she's up chamber. She'll be[Pg 37] down in a minute, she said; she thought she'd have time afore supper to get to the bottom of the big chist, and see if that 'ere vest pattern ain't there, and them sticks o' twist for the button-holes, 'cause Roxy she says she never see nothin' so rotten as that 'ere twist we've been a-workin' with, that Mis' Pennel got over to Portland; it's a clear cheat, and Mis' Pennel she give more'n half a cent a stick more for 't than what Roxy got for her up to Brunswick; so you see these 'ere Portland stores charge up, and their things want lookin' after."

"Mrs. Pennel? She's up in her room. She'll be down in a minute, she said; she thought she'd have time before dinner to sort through the big chest and see if that vest pattern is in there, along with those bits of twist for the buttonholes, because Roxy says she’s never seen anything as terrible as that twist we've been working with that Mrs. Pennel got in Portland; it’s just a rip-off, and Mrs. Pennel paid more than half a cent extra per stick for it compared to what Roxy got in Brunswick; so you see, these Portland stores are overpriced, and their stuff needs to be checked carefully."

Here Mrs. Pennel entered the room, "the Captain" addressing her eagerly,—

Here Mrs. Pennel entered the room, "the Captain" addressing her eagerly,—

"How came you to let Aunt Roxy take Mara off so far, and be gone so long?"

"How did you let Aunt Roxy take Mara so far away and be gone for so long?"

"Why, law me, Captain Pennel! the little thing seems kind o' lonesome. Chil'en want chil'en; Miss Roxy says she's altogether too sort o' still and old-fashioned, and must have child's company to chirk her up, and so she took her down to play with Sally Kittridge; there's no manner of danger or harm in it, and she'll be back to-morrow afternoon, and Mara will have a real good time."

"Wow, Captain Pennel! The little one seems a bit lonely. Kids need other kids; Miss Roxy says she’s way too quiet and old-fashioned, and needs the company of children to cheer her up. So, she took her down to play with Sally Kittridge; there’s no danger or anything, and she’ll be back tomorrow afternoon, and Mara will have a great time."

"Wal', now, really," said the good man, "but it's 'mazin' lonesome."

"Well, now, really," said the good man, "but it's super lonely."

"Cap'n Pennel, you're gettin' to make an idol of that 'ere child," said Miss Ruey. "We have to watch our hearts. It minds me of the hymn,—

"Captain Pennel, you're starting to make an idol out of that child," said Miss Ruey. "We need to be careful with our feelings. It reminds me of the hymn,—

"'The fondness of a creature's love,
How strong it strikes the sense,—
Thither the warm affections move,
Nor can we call them hence.'"

"'The depth of a creature's love,
How intensely it strikes the heart,—
There the warm feelings flow,
"And we can't just send them away."

Miss Ruey's mode of getting off poetry, in a sort of high-pitched canter, with a strong thump on every accented syllable, might have provoked a smile in more sophisticated society, but Zephaniah listened to her with deep gravity, and answered,[Pg 38]

Miss Ruey's way of delivering poetry, in a kind of high-pitched gallop, emphasizing every accented syllable with a strong thump, could have made more sophisticated audiences smile, but Zephaniah listened to her very seriously and replied,[Pg 38]

"I'm 'fraid there's truth in what you say, Aunt Ruey. When her mother was called away, I thought that was a warning I never should forget; but now I seem to be like Jonah,—I'm restin' in the shadow of my gourd, and my heart is glad because of it. I kind o' trembled at the prayer meetin' when we was a-singin',—

"I'm afraid there's some truth in what you're saying, Aunt Ruey. When her mother was taken away, I thought that was a warning I should never forget; but now I feel like Jonah—I'm resting in the shade of my gourd, and it makes me happy. I kind of got nervous at the prayer meeting when we were singing,—

"'The dearest idol I have known,
Whate'er that idol be,
Help me to tear it from Thy throne,
And worship only Thee.'"

"'The most precious idol I have ever known,
Whatever that idol is,
Help me to remove it from its place,
And worship only You.

"Yes," said Miss Ruey, "Roxy says if the Lord should take us up short on our prayers, it would make sad work with us sometimes."

"Yes," said Miss Ruey, "Roxy says if the Lord suddenly doesn’t answer our prayers, it would really mess us up at times."

"Somehow," said Mrs. Pennel, "it seems to me just her mother over again. She don't look like her. I think her hair and complexion comes from the Badger blood; my mother had that sort o' hair and skin,—but then she has ways like Naomi,—and it seems as if the Lord had kind o' given Naomi back to us; so I hope she's goin' to be spared to us."

"Somehow," said Mrs. Pennel, "it feels like her mother all over again. She doesn't look like her. I think her hair and skin come from the Badger side; my mother had that kind of hair and complexion—but then she has some of Naomi's traits—and it seems like the Lord has kind of given Naomi back to us; so I hope she's going to be with us for a while."

Mrs. Pennel had one of those natures—gentle, trustful, and hopeful, because not very deep; she was one of the little children of the world whose faith rests on child-like ignorance, and who know not the deeper needs of deeper natures; such see only the sunshine and forget the storm.

Mrs. Pennel had one of those personalities—gentle, trusting, and optimistic, because she wasn’t very deep; she was one of those innocent souls in the world whose belief relies on a child-like innocence, unaware of the deeper needs of more complex individuals; they only see the sunshine and forget about the storm.

This conversation had been going on to the accompaniment of a clatter of plates and spoons and dishes, and the fizzling of sausages, prefacing the evening meal, to which all now sat down after a lengthened grace from Zephaniah.

This conversation was happening alongside the noise of clattering plates, spoons, and dishes, and the sizzling of sausages, getting ready for dinner, which everyone now sat down to after a long prayer from Zephaniah.

"There's a tremendous gale a-brewin'," he said, as they sat at table. "I noticed the clouds to-night as I was comin' home, and somehow I felt kind o' as if I wanted all our folks snug in-doors."

"There's a huge storm coming," he said, as they sat at the table. "I saw the clouds tonight while I was coming home, and for some reason, I just felt like I wanted everyone to be safe inside."

"Why, law, husband, Cap'n Kittridge's house is as good as ours, if it does blow. You never can seem to remember[Pg 39] that houses don't run aground or strike on rocks in storms."

"Well, honestly, husband, Cap'n Kittridge's house is just as good as ours, even if it does get blown away. You never seem to remember[Pg 39] that houses don’t end up on the rocks or crash during storms."

"The Cap'n puts me in mind of old Cap'n Jeduth Scranton," said Miss Ruey, "that built that queer house down by Middle Bay. The Cap'n he would insist on havin' on't jist like a ship, and the closet-shelves had holes for the tumblers and dishes, and he had all his tables and chairs battened down, and so when it came a gale, they say the old Cap'n used to sit in his chair and hold on to hear the wind blow."

"The Cap'n reminds me of old Cap'n Jeduth Scranton," said Miss Ruey, "who built that strange house down by Middle Bay. The Cap'n insisted on it being just like a ship, with closet shelves that had holes for the tumblers and dishes. He had all his tables and chairs secured, so when a storm came, they say the old Cap'n would sit in his chair and hold on to listen to the wind blow."

"Well, I tell you," said Captain, "those that has followed the seas hears the wind with different ears from lands-people. When you lie with only a plank between you and eternity, and hear the voice of the Lord on the waters, it don't sound as it does on shore."

"Well, let me tell you," said Captain, "those who have been at sea hear the wind differently than people on land. When you’re lying with just a plank between you and eternity, and you hear the voice of the Lord on the waters, it doesn't sound the same as it does on shore."

And in truth, as they were speaking, a fitful gust swept by the house, wailing and screaming and rattling the windows, and after it came the heavy, hollow moan of the surf on the beach, like the wild, angry howl of some savage animal just beginning to be lashed into fury.

And really, while they were talking, a sudden gust of wind rushed by the house, howling and screaming and shaking the windows, and after that came the deep, empty moan of the waves on the beach, like the wild, angry growl of some fierce animal just starting to get worked up.

"Sure enough, the wind is rising," said Miss Ruey, getting up from the table, and flattening her snub nose against the window-pane. "Dear me, how dark it is! Mercy on us, how the waves come in!—all of a sheet of foam. I pity the ships that's comin' on coast such a night."

"Sure enough, the wind is picking up," said Miss Ruey, getting up from the table and pressing her flat nose against the window. "Wow, it's so dark! Oh no, look at how the waves are crashing in—all foamy. I feel sorry for the ships coming to shore on a night like this."

The storm seemed to have burst out with a sudden fury, as if myriads of howling demons had all at once been loosened in the air. Now they piped and whistled with eldritch screech round the corners of the house—now they thundered down the chimney—and now they shook the door and rattled the casement—and anon mustering their forces with wild ado, seemed to career over the house, and sail high up into the murky air. The dash of the rising tide came with successive crash upon crash like the discharge of heavy artillery, seeming to shake the very house,[Pg 40] and the spray borne by the wind dashed whizzing against the window-panes.

The storm suddenly erupted with intense rage, as if countless howling demons had been unleashed all at once. They screeched and whistled with eerie sounds around the corners of the house—then they thundered down the chimney—and shook the door and rattled the window frames—then gathering their force with wild commotion, they seemed to race over the house and soar high into the dark sky. The crashing waves of the rising tide hit the shore with a series of explosive sounds like heavy artillery, shaking the very foundations of the house, and the spray carried by the wind whipped violently against the window panes.[Pg 40]

Zephaniah, rising from supper, drew up the little stand that had the family Bible on it, and the three old time-worn people sat themselves as seriously down to evening worship as if they had been an extensive congregation. They raised the old psalm-tune which our fathers called "Complaint," and the cracked, wavering voices of the women, with the deep, rough bass of the old sea-captain, rose in the uproar of the storm with a ghostly, strange wildness, like the scream of the curlew or the wailing of the wind:—

Zephaniah, getting up from dinner, adjusted the little table that held the family Bible, and the three elderly folks sat down for evening worship as seriously as if they were part of a large congregation. They sang the old psalm-tune that our ancestors referred to as "Complaint," and the cracked, unsteady voices of the women, along with the deep, rough bass of the old sea captain, rose amid the chaos of the storm with an eerie, wild intensity, reminiscent of the scream of a curlew or the wail of the wind:—

"Spare us, O Lord, aloud we pray,
Nor let our sun go down at noon:
Thy years are an eternal day,
And must thy children die so soon!"

"Please save us, Lord, we pray out loud,
And don’t let our sun set at noon:
Your years are like an endless day,
"Why do your children have to die so young?"

Miss Ruey valued herself on singing a certain weird and exalted part which in ancient days used to be called counter, and which wailed and gyrated in unimaginable heights of the scale, much as you may hear a shrill, fine-voiced wind over a chimney-top; but altogether, the deep and earnest gravity with which the three filled up the pauses in the storm with their quaint minor key, had something singularly impressive. When the singing was over, Zephaniah read to the accompaniment of wind and sea, the words of poetry made on old Hebrew shores, in the dim, gray dawn of the world:—

Miss Ruey took pride in singing a strange and elevated part that used to be called counter back in the day, which cried out and spun around in unimaginable ranges of pitch, much like you might hear a high-pitched, delicate wind over a chimney; yet overall, the deep and serious gravity with which the three filled the silences during the storm with their unique minor key was incredibly impressive. When the singing finished, Zephaniah read aloud, accompanied by the sounds of the wind and sea, verses of poetry created on ancient Hebrew shores in the early, misty dawn of the world:—

"The voice of the Lord is upon the waters; the God of glory thundereth; the Lord is upon many waters. The voice of the Lord shaketh the wilderness; the Lord shaketh the wilderness of Kadesh. The Lord sitteth upon the floods, yea, the Lord sitteth King forever. The Lord will give strength to his people; yea, the Lord will bless his people with peace."

"The voice of the Lord echoes over the waters; the God of glory thunders; the Lord is above many waters. The voice of the Lord shakes the wilderness; the Lord shakes the wilderness of Kadesh. The Lord sits over the floods; yes, the Lord reigns as King forever. The Lord will give strength to His people; yes, the Lord will bless His people with peace."

How natural and home-born sounded this old piece of Oriental poetry in the ears of the three! The wilderness[Pg 41] of Kadesh, with its great cedars, was doubtless Orr's Island, where even now the goodly fellowship of black-winged trees were groaning and swaying, and creaking as the breath of the Lord passed over them.

How natural and authentic this old piece of Eastern poetry sounded to the three! The wilderness[Pg 41] of Kadesh, with its massive cedars, was surely Orr's Island, where even now the beautiful group of black-winged trees were groaning and swaying, creaking as the breath of the Lord passed over them.

And the three old people kneeling by their smouldering fireside, amid the general uproar, Zephaniah began in the words of a prayer which Moses the man of God made long ago under the shadows of Egyptian pyramids: "Lord, thou hast been our dwelling-place in all generations. Before the mountains were brought forth, or ever thou hadst formed the earth and the world, even from everlasting to everlasting, thou art God."

And the three old people kneeling by their smoldering fireside, amidst the general chaos, Zephaniah started with a prayer that Moses, the man of God, said long ago under the shadows of the Egyptian pyramids: "Lord, you have been our home in all generations. Before the mountains were created, or before you formed the earth and the world, from everlasting to everlasting, you are God."

We hear sometimes in these days that the Bible is no more inspired of God than many other books of historic and poetic merit. It is a fact, however, that the Bible answers a strange and wholly exceptional purpose by thousands of firesides on all shores of the earth; and, till some other book can be found to do the same thing, it will not be surprising if a belief of its Divine origin be one of the ineffaceable ideas of the popular mind. It will be a long while before a translation from Homer or a chapter in the Koran, or any of the beauties of Shakespeare, will be read in a stormy night on Orr's Island with the same sense of a Divine presence as the Psalms of David, or the prayer of Moses, the man of God.

We often hear these days that the Bible isn’t any more inspired by God than many other books with historical and poetic value. However, the fact is, the Bible serves a unique and exceptional purpose for countless families around the world; until another book can fulfill that same role, it’s not surprising that the belief in its Divine origin remains one of the deeply rooted ideas in people's minds. It will be a long time before a translation of Homer, a chapter from the Koran, or any of Shakespeare’s works will be read on a stormy night on Orr's Island with the same sense of a Divine presence as the Psalms of David or the prayer of Moses, the man of God.

Boom! boom! "What's that?" said Zephaniah, starting, as they rose up from prayer. "Hark! again, that's a gun,—there's a ship in distress."

Boom! boom! "What's that?" Zephaniah said, startled, as they finished praying. "Listen! That's a gun again—there's a ship in trouble."

"Poor souls," said Miss Ruey; "it's an awful night!"

"Poor souls," said Miss Ruey; "it's a terrible night!"

The captain began to put on his sea-coat.

The captain started to put on his sea coat.

"You ain't a-goin' out?" said his wife.

"You not going out?" his wife asked.

"I must go out along the beach a spell, and see if I can hear any more of that ship."

"I need to walk along the beach for a bit and see if I can hear anything more about that ship."

"Mercy on us; the wind'll blow you over!" said Aunt Ruey.[Pg 42]

"Watch out! The wind will knock you over!" Aunt Ruey said.[Pg 42]

"I rayther think I've stood wind before in my day," said Zephaniah, a grim smile stealing over his weather-beaten cheeks. In fact, the man felt a sort of secret relationship to the storm, as if it were in some manner a family connection—a wild, roystering cousin, who drew him out by a rough attraction of comradeship.

"I think I've faced tough times before," said Zephaniah, a grim smile spreading across his weathered face. In fact, he felt a kind of secret bond with the storm, as if it were somehow related to him—a wild, rowdy cousin that brought him out with a rough sense of camaraderie.

"Well, at any rate," said Mrs. Pennel, producing a large tin lantern perforated with many holes, in which she placed a tallow candle, "take this with you, and don't stay out long."

"Well, anyway," said Mrs. Pennel, pulling out a large tin lantern marked with many holes, in which she put a tallow candle, "take this with you, and don't stay out too long."

The kitchen door opened, and the first gust of wind took off the old man's hat and nearly blew him prostrate. He came back and shut the door. "I ought to have known better," he said, knotting his pocket-handkerchief over his head, after which he waited for a momentary lull, and went out into the storm.

The kitchen door swung open, and the first gust of wind knocked the old man's hat off and nearly knocked him over. He stepped back and closed the door. "I should have known better," he said, tying a handkerchief around his head. Then he waited for a brief pause in the storm and stepped out into it.

Miss Ruey looked through the window-pane, and saw the light go twinkling far down into the gloom, and ever and anon came the mournful boom of distant guns.

Miss Ruey looked through the window and saw the light twinkling far down into the darkness, and every now and then she heard the sad boom of distant guns.

"Certainly there is a ship in trouble somewhere," she said.

"There's definitely a ship in trouble somewhere," she said.

"He never can be easy when he hears these guns," said Mrs. Pennel; "but what can he do, or anybody, in such a storm, the wind blowing right on to shore?"

"He can never relax when he hears those guns," Mrs. Pennel said. "But what can he or anyone do in a storm like this, with the wind blowing straight onto the shore?"

"I shouldn't wonder if Cap'n Kittridge should be out on the beach, too," said Miss Ruey; "but laws, he ain't much more than one of these 'ere old grasshoppers you see after frost comes. Well, any way, there ain't much help in man if a ship comes ashore in such a gale as this, such a dark night too."

"I wouldn’t be surprised if Cap’n Kittridge was out on the beach, too," said Miss Ruey; "but honestly, he’s not much different from one of those old grasshoppers you see after a frost. Well, anyway, there isn’t much use in a man if a ship comes ashore in a storm like this, especially on such a dark night."

"It's kind o' lonesome to have poor little Mara away such a night as this is," said Mrs. Pennel; "but who would a-thought it this afternoon, when Aunt Roxy took her?"

"It's kind of lonely to have poor little Mara away on a night like this," said Mrs. Pennel; "but who would have thought it this afternoon, when Aunt Roxy took her?"

"I 'member my grandmother had a silver cream-pitcher[Pg 43] that come ashore in a storm on Mare P'int," said Miss Ruey, as she sat trotting her knitting-needles. "Grand'ther found it, half full of sand, under a knot of seaweed way up on the beach. It had a coat of arms on it,—might have belonged to some grand family, that pitcher; in the Toothacre family yet."

"I remember my grandmother had a silver cream pitcher[Pg 43] that washed ashore during a storm at Mare Point," said Miss Ruey, as she sat working her knitting needles. "Grandfather found it, half full of sand, under a bunch of seaweed way up on the beach. It had a coat of arms on it—it might have belonged to some fancy family, that pitcher; still in the Toothacre family."

"I remember when I was a girl," said Mrs. Pennel, "seeing the hull of a ship that went on Eagle Island; it run way up in a sort of gully between two rocks, and lay there years. They split pieces off it sometimes to make fires, when they wanted to make a chowder down on the beach."

"I remember when I was a girl," said Mrs. Pennel, "seeing the hull of a ship that ended up on Eagle Island; it was stuck way up in this gully between two rocks and stayed there for years. They would sometimes break pieces off it to use for fires when they wanted to make chowder down on the beach."

"My aunt, Lois Toothacre, that lives down by Middle Bay," said Miss Ruey, "used to tell about a dreadful blow they had once in time of the equinoctial storm; and what was remarkable, she insisted that she heard a baby cryin' out in the storm,—she heard it just as plain as could be."

"My aunt, Lois Toothacre, who lives near Middle Bay," said Miss Ruey, "used to talk about a terrible storm they had during the equinox; and what was really interesting is that she claimed she heard a baby crying out in the storm — she heard it as clearly as anything."

"Laws a-mercy," said Mrs. Pennel, nervously, "it was nothing but the wind,—it always screeches like a child crying; or maybe it was the seals; seals will cry just like babes."

"Laws a-mercy," said Mrs. Pennel, nervously, "it was nothing but the wind—it always screeches like a kid crying; or maybe it was the seals; seals cry just like babies."

"So they told her; but no,—she insisted she knew the difference,—it was a baby. Well, what do you think, when the storm cleared off, they found a baby's cradle washed ashore sure enough!"

"So they told her; but no,—she insisted she knew the difference,—it was a baby. Well, what do you think, when the storm cleared, they found a baby’s cradle washed ashore for sure!"

"But they didn't find any baby," said Mrs. Pennel, nervously.

"But they didn't find any baby," said Mrs. Pennel, nervously.

"No; they searched the beach far and near, and that cradle was all they found. Aunt Lois took it in—it was a very good cradle, and she took it to use, but every time there came up a gale, that ar cradle would rock, rock, jist as if somebody was a-sittin' by it; and you could stand across the room and see there wa'n't nobody there."

"No; they searched the beach everywhere, and that cradle was all they found. Aunt Lois brought it in—it was a really nice cradle, and she decided to use it, but every time a storm rolled in, that cradle would rock, rock, just as if someone was sitting next to it; and you could stand across the room and see there was nobody there."

"You make me all of a shiver," said Mrs. Pennel.[Pg 44]

"You give me the chills," said Mrs. Pennel.[Pg 44]

This, of course, was just what Miss Ruey intended, and she went on:—

This, of course, was exactly what Miss Ruey had in mind, and she continued:—

"Wal', you see they kind o' got used to it; they found there wa'n't no harm come of its rockin', and so they didn't mind; but Aunt Lois had a sister Cerinthy that was a weakly girl, and had the janders. Cerinthy was one of the sort that's born with veils over their faces, and can see sperits; and one time Cerinthy was a-visitin' Lois after her second baby was born, and there came up a blow, and Cerinthy comes out of the keepin'-room, where the cradle was a-standin', and says, 'Sister,' says she, 'who's that woman sittin' rockin' the cradle?' and Aunt Lois says she, 'Why, there ain't nobody. That ar cradle always will rock in a gale, but I've got used to it, and don't mind it.' 'Well,' says Cerinthy, 'jist as true as you live, I just saw a woman with a silk gown on, and long black hair a-hangin' down, and her face was pale as a sheet, sittin' rockin' that ar cradle, and she looked round at me with her great black eyes kind o' mournful and wishful, and then she stooped down over the cradle.' 'Well,' says Lois, 'I ain't goin' to have no such doin's in my house,' and she went right in and took up the baby, and the very next day she jist had the cradle split up for kindlin'; and that night, if you'll believe, when they was a-burnin' of it, they heard, jist as plain as could be, a baby scream, scream, screamin' round the house; but after that they never heard it no more."

"Well, you see they kind of got used to it; they realized that the rocking didn’t cause any harm, so they didn’t mind it. But Aunt Lois had a sister named Cerinthy who was a frail girl and often sick. Cerinthy was the kind of person born with a veil over her face, and she could see spirits. One time, Cerinthy was visiting Lois after her second baby was born, and a storm blew in. Cerinthy came out of the room where the cradle was, and said, 'Sister,' she said, 'who’s that woman sitting and rocking the cradle?' Aunt Lois replied, 'Well, there isn’t anyone. That cradle always rocks in a gale, but I’ve gotten used to it and don’t mind it.' 'Well,' said Cerinthy, 'as true as you live, I just saw a woman in a silk gown, with long black hair hanging down, and her face was as pale as a sheet, sitting and rocking that cradle. She looked at me with her big black eyes, kind of mournful and longing, and then she leaned down over the cradle.' 'Well,' says Lois, 'I’m not having any of that in my house,' and she went right in and picked up the baby. The very next day, she had the cradle taken apart for firewood; and that night, believe it or not, when they were burning it, they heard, as clear as could be, a baby scream, screaming all around the house; but after that, they never heard it again."

"I don't like such stories," said Dame Pennel, "'specially to-night, when Mara's away. I shall get to hearing all sorts of noises in the wind. I wonder when Cap'n Pennel will be back."

"I don't like stories like that," said Dame Pennel, "especially tonight, with Mara gone. I'll start hearing all kinds of noises in the wind. I wonder when Cap'n Pennel will be back."

And the good woman put more wood on the fire, and as the tongues of flame streamed up high and clear, she approached her face to the window-pane and started back with half a scream, as a pale, anxious visage with sad dark[Pg 45] eyes seemed to approach her. It took a moment or two for her to discover that she had seen only the reflection of her own anxious, excited face, the pitchy blackness without having converted the window into a sort of dark mirror.

And the kind woman added more wood to the fire, and as the flames shot up high and bright, she leaned her face toward the window and flinched with a half-scream when she saw a pale, worried face with sad dark[Pg 45] eyes seemingly approaching her. It took her a moment to realize that she was only seeing the reflection of her own anxious, excited face in the window, which had turned into a kind of dark mirror in the pitch-black night.

Miss Ruey meanwhile began solacing herself by singing, in her chimney-corner, a very favorite sacred melody, which contrasted oddly enough with the driving storm and howling sea:—

Miss Ruey, meanwhile, started to comfort herself by singing in her corner by the fireplace a beloved sacred song, which felt strangely out of place against the backdrop of the raging storm and roaring sea:—

"Haste, my beloved, haste away,
Cut short the hours of thy delay;
Fly like the bounding hart or roe,
Over the hills where spices grow."

"Hurry, my love, hurry away,
Shorten the time of your delay;
Fly like the leaping deer,
Over the hills where spices grow."

The tune was called "Invitation,"—one of those profusely florid in runs, and trills, and quavers, which delighted the ears of a former generation; and Miss Ruey, innocently unconscious of the effect of old age on her voice, ran them up and down, and out and in, in a way that would have made a laugh, had there been anybody there to notice or to laugh.

The song was called "Invitation,"—one of those overly elaborate pieces filled with runs, trills, and quavers that delighted the ears of an earlier generation; and Miss Ruey, completely unaware of how age had affected her voice, sang them up and down, in and out, in a way that would have made someone laugh, if there had been anyone around to notice or laugh.

"I remember singin' that ar to Mary Jane Wilson the very night she died," said Aunt Ruey, stopping. "She wanted me to sing to her, and it was jist between two and three in the mornin'; there was jist the least red streak of daylight, and I opened the window and sat there and sung, and when I come to 'over the hills where spices grow,' I looked round and there was a change in Mary Jane, and I went to the bed, and says she very bright, 'Aunt Ruey, the Beloved has come,' and she was gone afore I could raise her up on her pillow. I always think of Mary Jane at them words; if ever there was a broken-hearted crittur took home, it was her."

"I remember singing that song to Mary Jane Wilson the very night she passed away," said Aunt Ruey, pausing. "She wanted me to sing to her, and it was just between two and three in the morning; there was just a hint of red in the dawn, so I opened the window and sat there and sang. When I got to 'over the hills where spices grow,' I looked around and saw a change in Mary Jane. I went to the bed, and she said very brightly, 'Aunt Ruey, the Beloved has come,' and she was gone before I could lift her up on her pillow. I always think of Mary Jane when I hear those words; if ever there was a broken-hearted creature taken home, it was her."

At this moment Mrs. Pennel caught sight through the window of the gleam of the returning lantern, and in a moment Captain Pennel entered, dripping with rain and spray.[Pg 46]

At that moment, Mrs. Pennel saw the light of the returning lantern through the window, and soon after, Captain Pennel came in, soaked with rain and spray.[Pg 46]

"Why, Cap'n! you're e'en a'most drowned," said Aunt Ruey.

"Why, Cap'n! You're almost drowned," said Aunt Ruey.

"How long have you been gone? You must have been a great ways," said Mrs. Pennel.

"How long have you been away? You must have been gone for quite a while," said Mrs. Pennel.

"Yes, I have been down to Cap'n Kittridge's. I met Kittridge out on the beach. We heard the guns plain enough, but couldn't see anything. I went on down to Kittridge's to get a look at little Mara."

"Yeah, I went down to Cap'n Kittridge's. I bumped into Kittridge on the beach. We could clearly hear the guns, but couldn't see anything. I headed over to Kittridge's to check out little Mara."

"Well, she's all well enough?" said Mrs. Pennel, anxiously.

"Well, is she doing okay?" said Mrs. Pennel, worriedly.

"Oh, yes, well enough. Miss Roxy showed her to me in the trundle-bed, 'long with Sally. The little thing was lying smiling in her sleep, with her cheek right up against Sally's. I took comfort looking at her. I couldn't help thinking: 'So he giveth his beloved sleep!'"

"Oh, yes, just fine. Miss Roxy showed her to me in the trundle bed, along with Sally. The little one was lying there smiling in her sleep, with her cheek pressed right against Sally’s. I found comfort in looking at her. I couldn’t help thinking: 'So he gives his beloved sleep!'"


CHAPTER VII

FROM THE SEA

[Pg 47]During the night and storm, the little Mara had lain sleeping as quietly as if the cruel sea, that had made her an orphan from her birth, were her kind-tempered old grandfather singing her to sleep, as he often did,—with a somewhat hoarse voice truly, but with ever an undertone of protecting love. But toward daybreak, there came very clear and bright into her childish mind a dream, having that vivid distinctness which often characterizes the dreams of early childhood.

[Pg 47]During the stormy night, little Mara slept peacefully as if the harsh sea that had made her an orphan from the start was her gentle old grandfather singing her to sleep, just like he used to,—with a somewhat rough voice, but always with a tone of loving protection. But as dawn approached, a clear and bright dream appeared in her young mind, having that vivid clarity that often defines childhood dreams.

She thought she saw before her the little cove where she and Sally had been playing the day before, with its broad sparkling white beach of sand curving round its blue sea-mirror, and studded thickly with gold and silver shells. She saw the boat of Captain Kittridge upon the stocks, and his tar-kettle with the smouldering fires flickering under it; but, as often happens in dreams, a certain rainbow vividness and clearness invested everything, and she and Sally were jumping for joy at the beautiful things they found on the beach.

She thought she saw in front of her the little cove where she and Sally had been playing the day before, with its wide, sparkling white sandy beach curving around its blue sea-reflection, and covered thickly with gold and silver shells. She spotted Captain Kittridge's boat on the stocks, and his tar kettle with the glowing embers flickering underneath it; but, as often happens in dreams, everything had a vivid and clear quality, and she and Sally were jumping for joy at the beautiful things they found on the beach.

Suddenly, there stood before them a woman, dressed in a long white garment. She was very pale, with sweet, serious dark eyes, and she led by the hand a black-eyed boy, who seemed to be crying and looking about as for something lost. She dreamed that she stood still, and the woman came toward her, looking at her with sweet, sad eyes, till the child seemed to feel them in every fibre of her frame. The woman laid her hand on her head as if[Pg 48] in blessing, and then put the boy's hand in hers, and said, "Take him, Mara, he is a playmate for you;" and with that the little boy's face flashed out into a merry laugh. The woman faded away, and the three children remained playing together, gathering shells and pebbles of a wonderful brightness. So vivid was this vision, that the little one awoke laughing with pleasure, and searched under her pillows for the strange and beautiful things that she had been gathering in dreamland.

Suddenly, a woman appeared before them, dressed in a long white gown. She was very pale, with kind, serious dark eyes, and she was holding the hand of a black-eyed boy who looked like he had been crying and was searching for something he had lost. She felt as if she was frozen in place while the woman walked towards her, gazing at her with sweet, sad eyes, making the child feel it deep within her being. The woman placed her hand on her head as if in blessing, then took the boy's hand and said, "Take him, Mara, he’s a playmate for you;" and with that, the little boy broke into a joyful laugh. The woman slowly disappeared, and the three children stayed behind, playing together, collecting shells and pebbles that sparkled brilliantly. This vision was so vivid that the little one woke up laughing with joy and searched under her pillows for the strange and beautiful things she had gathered in dreamland.

"What's Mara looking after?" said Sally, sitting up in her trundle-bed, and speaking in the patronizing motherly tone she commonly used to her little playmate.

"What's Mara looking for?" Sally asked, sitting up in her trundle bed and speaking in the condescending motherly tone she usually used with her little playmate.

"All gone, pitty boy—all gone!" said the child, looking round regretfully, and shaking her golden head; "pitty lady all gone!"

"All gone, poor boy—all gone!" said the child, looking around sadly and shaking her golden head; "poor lady all gone!"

"How queer she talks!" said Sally, who had awakened with the project of building a sheet-house with her fairy neighbor, and was beginning to loosen the upper sheet and dispose the pillows with a view to this species of architecture. "Come, Mara, let's make a pretty house!" she said.

"How strange she talks!" said Sally, who had woken up with the idea of building a sheet house with her fairy neighbor and was starting to untie the top sheet and arrange the pillows for this kind of project. "Come on, Mara, let's build a cute house!" she said.

"Pitty boy out dere—out dere!" said the little one, pointing to the window, with a deeper expression than ever of wishfulness in her eyes.

"Pity the boy out there—out there!" said the little one, pointing to the window, with an even more intense look of longing in her eyes.

"Come, Sally Kittridge, get up this minute!" said the voice of her mother, entering the door at this moment; "and here, put these clothes on to Mara, the child mustn't run round in her best; it's strange, now, Mary Pennel never thinks of such things."

"Come on, Sally Kittridge, get up right now!" said her mother, walking in at that moment. "And here, put these clothes on Mara; she can't run around in her best outfit. It's odd how Mary Pennel never thinks about stuff like this."

Sally, who was of an efficient temperament, was preparing energetically to second these commands of her mother, and endue her little neighbor with a coarse brown stuff dress, somewhat faded and patched, which she herself had outgrown when of Mara's age; with shoes, which had been coarsely made to begin with, and very much battered by[Pg 49] time; but, quite to her surprise, the child, generally so passive and tractable, opposed a most unexpected and desperate resistance to this operation. She began to cry and to sob and shake her curly head, throwing her tiny hands out in a wild species of freakish opposition, which had, notwithstanding, a quaint and singular grace about it, while she stated her objections in all the little English at her command.

Sally, who was very efficient, was energetically getting ready to follow her mother’s orders and dress her little neighbor in a coarse brown dress that was somewhat faded and patched, which she had outgrown when she was Mara's age; along with shoes that were poorly made to start with and really worn down by[Pg 49] time. To her surprise, the child, usually so passive and compliant, put up a very unexpected and desperate resistance to this whole thing. She started to cry, sob, and shake her curly head, waving her tiny hands in a wild and quirky opposition that, despite everything, had a unique and charming grace to it, while she expressed her objections in all the little English she knew.

"Mara don't want—Mara want pitty boo des—and pitty shoes."

"Mara doesn't want—Mara wants pretty boots—and pretty shoes."

"Why, was ever anything like it?" said Mrs. Kittridge to Miss Roxy, as they both were drawn to the door by the outcry; "here's this child won't have decent every-day clothes put on her,—she must be kept dressed up like a princess. Now, that ar's French calico!" said Mrs. Kittridge, holding up the controverted blue dress, "and that ar never cost a cent under five-and-sixpence a yard; it takes a yard and a half to make it, and it must have been a good day's work to make it up; call that three-and-sixpence more, and with them pearl buttons and thread and all, that ar dress never cost less than a dollar and seventy-five, and here she's goin' to run out every day in it!"

"Can you believe this?" Mrs. Kittridge said to Miss Roxy as they both rushed to the door because of the commotion. "This child refuses to wear everyday clothes—she has to be dressed like a princess. Now, look at this French calico!" Mrs. Kittridge exclaimed, holding up the debated blue dress. "That had to cost at least five and sixpence a yard; it takes a yard and a half to make it, and it must have taken a good day’s work to sew it. Add another three and sixpence for that, and with those pearl buttons and thread and everything, that dress must have cost at least a dollar seventy-five, and now she's going to go out in it every day!"

"Well, well!" said Miss Roxy, who had taken the sobbing fair one in her lap, "you know, Mis' Kittridge, this 'ere's a kind o' pet lamb, an old-folks' darling, and things be with her as they be, and we can't make her over, and she's such a nervous little thing we mustn't cross her." Saying which, she proceeded to dress the child in her own clothes.

"Well, well!" said Miss Roxy, who had taken the crying girl in her lap, "you know, Mrs. Kittridge, this is a sort of pet lamb, an old folks' favorite, and things are what they are with her, and we can't change her, and she's such a nervous little thing that we mustn't upset her." With that, she began to dress the child in her own clothes.

"If you had a good large checked apron, I wouldn't mind putting that on her!" added Miss Roxy, after she had arrayed the child.

"If you had a nice big checkered apron, I wouldn’t mind putting that on her!" added Miss Roxy, after she had dressed the child.

"Here's one," said Mrs. Kittridge; "that may save her clothes some."

"Here's one," said Mrs. Kittridge, "that might save her clothes a bit."

Miss Roxy began to put on the wholesome garment;[Pg 50] but, rather to her mortification, the little fairy began to weep again in a most heart-broken manner.

Miss Roxy started to put on the wholesome outfit;[Pg 50] but, much to her embarrassment, the little fairy began to cry again in a very heartbroken way.

"Don't want che't apon."

"Don't want to chat."

"Why don't Mara want nice checked apron?" said Miss Roxy, in that extra cheerful tone by which children are to be made to believe they have mistaken their own mind.

"Why doesn't Mara want a nice checked apron?" said Miss Roxy, in that overly cheerful tone that makes kids think they've misunderstood their own feelings.

"Don't want it!" with a decided wave of the little hand; "I's too pitty to wear che't apon."

"Don’t want it!" she said with a firm wave of her little hand; "I'm too pretty to wear that."

"Well! well!" said Mrs. Kittridge, rolling up her eyes, "did I ever! no, I never did. If there ain't depraved natur' a-comin' out early. Well, if she says she's pretty now, what'll it be when she's fifteen?"

"Wow! Wow!" said Mrs. Kittridge, rolling her eyes, "can you believe it! I've never seen anything like it. If there's not some messed-up nature showing itself early. Well, if she thinks she’s pretty now, what will it be like when she’s fifteen?"

"She'll learn to tell a lie about it by that time," said Miss Roxy, "and say she thinks she's horrid. The child is pretty, and the truth comes uppermost with her now."

"By then, she'll figure out how to lie about it," Miss Roxy said, "and claim she thinks she's terrible. The girl is pretty, and her true feelings are coming out now."

"Haw! haw! haw!" burst with a great crash from Captain Kittridge, who had come in behind, and stood silently listening during this conversation; "that's musical now; come here, my little maid, you are too pretty for checked aprons, and no mistake;" and seizing the child in his long arms, he tossed her up like a butterfly, while her sunny curls shone in the morning light.

"Haw! haw! haw!" burst out with a loud crash from Captain Kittridge, who had come in behind and was quietly listening during this conversation; "that's musical now; come here, my little girl, you are too pretty for checked aprons, no doubt about it;" and picking up the child in his long arms, he tossed her up like a butterfly, while her sunny curls shone in the morning light.

"There's one comfort about the child, Miss Kittridge," said Aunt Roxy: "she's one of them that dirt won't stick to. I never knew her to stain or tear her clothes,—she always come in jist so nice."

"There's one good thing about the child, Miss Kittridge," said Aunt Roxy: "she's one of those who doesn’t get dirty. I’ve never seen her stain or tear her clothes—she always comes in looking just so nice."

"She ain't much like Sally, then!" said Mrs. Kittridge. "That girl'll run through more clothes! Only last week she walked the crown out of my old black straw bonnet, and left it hanging on the top of a blackberry-bush."

"She's not much like Sally, then!" said Mrs. Kittridge. "That girl will go through more clothes! Just last week she ruined my old black straw bonnet and left it hanging on a blackberry bush."

"Wal', wal'," said Captain Kittridge, "as to dressin' this 'ere child,—why, ef Pennel's a mind to dress her in cloth of gold, it's none of our business! He's rich enough for all he wants to do, and so let's eat our breakfast and mind our own business."[Pg 51]

"Well, well," said Captain Kittridge, "when it comes to dressing this child—if Pennel wants to dress her in gold cloth, that's none of our concern! He's got enough money for whatever he wants to do, so let's just eat our breakfast and mind our own business." [Pg 51]

After breakfast Captain Kittridge took the two children down to the cove, to investigate the state of his boat and tar-kettle, set high above the highest tide-mark. The sun had risen gloriously, the sky was of an intense, vivid blue, and only great snowy islands of clouds, lying in silver banks on the horizon, showed vestiges of last night's storm. The whole wide sea was one glorious scene of forming and dissolving mountains of blue and purple, breaking at the crest into brilliant silver. All round the island the waves were constantly leaping and springing into jets and columns of brilliant foam, throwing themselves high up, in silvery cataracts, into the very arms of the solemn evergreen forests which overhung the shore.

After breakfast, Captain Kittridge took the two kids down to the cove to check on his boat and tar kettle, which were placed high above the highest tide mark. The sun was shining brightly, the sky was a deep, vivid blue, and only the large, white clouds lying in silver banks on the horizon hinted at last night's storm. The entire sea was a stunning vista of rising and falling mountains of blue and purple, breaking at the top into brilliant silver. All around the island, the waves were constantly jumping and spraying into jets and columns of bright foam, soaring high, in silvery cascades, into the arms of the solemn evergreen forests that lined the shore.

The sands of the little cove seemed harder and whiter than ever, and were thickly bestrewn with the shells and seaweed which the upturnings of the night had brought in. There lay what might have been fringes and fragments of sea-gods' vestures,—blue, crimson, purple, and orange seaweeds, wreathed in tangled ropes of kelp and sea-grass, or lying separately scattered on the sands. The children ran wildly, shouting as they began gathering sea-treasures; and Sally, with the air of an experienced hand in the business, untwisted the coils of rosy seaweed, from which every moment she disengaged some new treasure, in some rarer shell or smoother pebble.

The sands of the small cove looked harder and whiter than ever, thickly covered with the shells and seaweed that the night’s tides had washed ashore. There were what seemed to be scraps and pieces of sea-gods’ clothing—blue, crimson, purple, and orange seaweeds, tangled in ropes of kelp and sea-grass, or scattered alone on the sand. The children ran around excitedly, shouting as they started collecting sea treasures. Sally, looking like a pro at this, untangled the bright pink seaweed, discovering a new treasure with each moment—some rare shell or smooth pebble.

Suddenly, the child shook out something from a knotted mass of sea-grass, which she held up with a perfect shriek of delight. It was a bracelet of hair, fastened by a brilliant clasp of green, sparkling stones, such as she had never seen before. She redoubled her cries of delight, as she saw it sparkle between her and the sun, calling upon her father.

Suddenly, the child pulled something out of a tangled bunch of sea grass, and she held it up with a perfect squeal of joy. It was a hair bracelet, secured with a dazzling green clasp made of sparkling stones she had never seen before. She increased her joyful shouts as she saw it glimmering between her and the sun, calling out to her father.

"Father! father! do come here, and see what I've found!"

"Dad! Dad! Come here and see what I found!"

He came quickly, and took the bracelet from the child's[Pg 52] hand; but, at the same moment, looking over her head, he caught sight of an object partially concealed behind a projecting rock. He took a step forward, and uttered an exclamation,—

He rushed over and grabbed the bracelet from the child's[Pg 52] hand; but at the same time, looking over her head, he spotted something partially hidden behind a jutting rock. He took a step forward and exclaimed,—

"Well, well! sure enough! poor things!"

"Wow, wow! For sure! Those poor things!"

There lay, bedded in sand and seaweed, a woman with a little boy clasped in her arms! Both had been carefully lashed to a spar, but the child was held to the bosom of the woman, with a pressure closer than any knot that mortal hands could tie. Both were deep sunk in the sand, into which had streamed the woman's long, dark hair, which sparkled with glittering morsels of sand and pebbles, and with those tiny, brilliant, yellow shells which are so numerous on that shore.

There lay, nestled in sand and seaweed, a woman with a little boy in her arms! They had both been securely tied to a piece of wood, but the child was held to the woman's chest with a grip stronger than any knot that human hands could make. Both were deeply buried in the sand, into which the woman’s long, dark hair had spread, sparkling with shiny bits of sand and pebbles, along with those tiny, bright yellow shells that are so common on that beach.

The woman was both young and beautiful. The forehead, damp with ocean-spray, was like sculptured marble,—the eyebrows dark and decided in their outline; but the long, heavy, black fringes had shut down, as a solemn curtain, over all the history of mortal joy or sorrow that those eyes had looked upon. A wedding-ring gleamed on the marble hand; but the sea had divorced all human ties, and taken her as a bride to itself. And, in truth, it seemed to have made to her a worthy bed, for she was all folded and inwreathed in sand and shells and seaweeds, and a great, weird-looking leaf of kelp, some yards in length, lay twined around her like a shroud. The child that lay in her bosom had hair, and face, and eyelashes like her own, and his little hands were holding tightly a portion of the black dress which she wore.

The woman was both young and beautiful. Her forehead, damp with ocean spray, was like sculpted marble—the eyebrows dark and sharply defined; but the long, heavy black lashes had fallen, like a somber curtain, over all the experiences of joy and sorrow that her eyes had witnessed. A wedding ring shone on her marble hand, but the sea had severed all human connections and claimed her as its bride. And, indeed, it seemed to have prepared her a fitting resting place, as she was wrapped and adorned in sand, shells, and seaweed, with a large, strangely shaped piece of kelp, several yards long, twisted around her like a shroud. The child nestled in her arms had hair, a face, and eyelashes just like hers, and his tiny hands were tightly gripping a part of the black dress she wore.

"Cold,—cold,—stone dead!" was the muttered exclamation of the old seaman, as he bent over the woman.

"Cold—cold—stone dead!" muttered the old sailor as he leaned over the woman.

"She must have struck her head there," he mused, as he laid his finger on a dark, bruised spot on her temple. He laid his hand on the child's heart, and put one finger under the arm to see if there was any lingering vital heat,[Pg 53] and then hastily cut the lashings that bound the pair to the spar, and with difficulty disengaged the child from the cold clasp in which dying love had bound him to a heart which should beat no more with mortal joy or sorrow.

"She must have hit her head there," he thought, as he touched a dark, bruised spot on her temple. He placed his hand on the child's heart and slipped a finger under the arm to check for any remaining warmth,[Pg 53] and then quickly cut the ropes that tied them to the spar, struggling to free the child from the cold grip of dying love that had linked him to a heart that would no longer beat with earthly joy or sorrow.

Sally, after the first moment, had run screaming toward the house, with all a child's forward eagerness, to be the bearer of news; but the little Mara stood, looking anxiously, with a wishful earnestness of face.

Sally, after the first moment, had run screaming toward the house, with all a child's eager excitement, to be the bearer of news; but little Mara stood there, looking worried, with a hopeful seriousness on her face.

"Pitty boy,—pitty boy,—come!" she said often; but the old man was so busy, he scarcely regarded her.

"Pity boy—pity boy—come!" she often called, but the old man was so busy that he hardly paid attention to her.

"Now, Cap'n Kittridge, do tell!" said Miss Roxy, meeting him in all haste, with a cap-border stiff in air, while Dame Kittridge exclaimed,—

"Now, Captain Kittridge, do tell!" said Miss Roxy, rushing to meet him with her cap's brim held stiffly in the air, while Mrs. Kittridge exclaimed,—

"Now, you don't! Well, well! didn't I say that was a ship last night? And what a solemnizing thought it was that souls might be goin' into eternity!"

"Now, you don’t! Wow! Didn’t I say that was a ship last night? And what a serious thought it was that souls might be heading into eternity!"

"We must have blankets and hot bottles, right away," said Miss Roxy, who always took the earthly view of matters, and who was, in her own person, a personified humane society. "Miss Kittridge, you jist dip out your dishwater into the smallest tub, and we'll put him in. Stand away, Mara! Sally, you take her out of the way! We'll fetch this child to, perhaps. I've fetched 'em to, when they's seemed to be dead as door-nails!"

"We need blankets and hot water bottles, immediately," said Miss Roxy, who always had a practical perspective on things and embodied compassion. "Miss Kittridge, just pour your dishwater into the smallest tub, and we'll put him in there. Get back, Mara! Sally, move her aside! We might need to get this child too. I've done it before when they seemed completely lifeless!"

"Cap'n Kittridge, you're sure the woman's dead?"

"Captain Kittridge, are you sure the woman is dead?"

"Laws, yes; she had a blow right on her temple here. There's no bringing her to till the resurrection."

"Laws, yes; she took a hit right on her temple here. There's no getting her back until the resurrection."

"Well, then, you jist go and get Cap'n Pennel to come down and help you, and get the body into the house, and we'll attend to layin' it out by and by. Tell Ruey to come down."

"Alright, then, just go get Captain Pennel to come down and help you, and bring the body into the house, and we’ll take care of preparing it later. Tell Ruey to come down."

Aunt Roxy issued her orders with all the military vigor and precision of a general in case of a sudden attack. It was her habit. Sickness and death were her opportunities; where they were, she felt herself at home, and she[Pg 54] addressed herself to the task before her with undoubting faith.

Aunt Roxy gave her instructions with all the military energy and precision of a general preparing for an unexpected attack. It was just how she operated. Illness and death were her chances; in those situations, she felt at ease, and she[Pg 54] approached the task at hand with complete confidence.

Before many hours a pair of large, dark eyes slowly emerged from under the black-fringed lids of the little drowned boy,—they rolled dreamily round for a moment, and dropped again in heavy languor.

Before long, a pair of large, dark eyes slowly appeared from under the black-fringed lids of the little drowned boy—they rolled around dreamily for a moment and then drooped again in heavy lethargy.

The little Mara had, with the quiet persistence which formed a trait in her baby character, dragged stools and chairs to the back of the bed, which she at last succeeded in scaling, and sat opposite to where the child lay, grave and still, watching with intense earnestness the process that was going on. At the moment when the eyes had opened, she stretched forth her little arms, and said, eagerly, "Pitty boy, come,"—and then, as they closed again, she dropped her hands with a sigh of disappointment. Yet, before night, the little stranger sat up in bed, and laughed with pleasure at the treasures of shells and pebbles which the children spread out on the bed before him.

The little Mara had, with the quiet persistence that was part of her personality, dragged stools and chairs to the back of the bed, which she finally managed to climb, and sat facing where the child lay, serious and still, watching intently the process that was happening. At the moment when his eyes opened, she reached out her little arms and said eagerly, "Pitty boy, come,"—and then, as they closed again, she dropped her hands with a sigh of disappointment. Yet, by nightfall, the little stranger sat up in bed and laughed with joy at the collection of shells and pebbles the children spread out on the bed in front of him.

He was a vigorous, well-made, handsome child, with brilliant eyes and teeth, but the few words that he spoke were in a language unknown to most present. Captain Kittridge declared it to be Spanish, and that a call which he most passionately and often repeated was for his mother. But he was of that happy age when sorrow can be easily effaced, and the efforts of the children called forth joyous smiles. When his playthings did not go to his liking, he showed sparkles of a fiery, irascible spirit.

He was a strong, good-looking kid, with bright eyes and a great smile, but the few words he said were in a language most people didn't understand. Captain Kittridge said it was Spanish, and that a call he repeatedly shouted out was for his mom. But he was at that joyful age when sadness can quickly disappear, and the other kids' efforts made him smile happily. When his toys didn’t meet his expectations, he revealed flashes of a fiery temper.

The little Mara seemed to appropriate him in feminine fashion, as a chosen idol and graven image. She gave him at once all her slender stock of infantine treasures, and seemed to watch with an ecstatic devotion his every movement,—often repeating, as she looked delightedly around, "Pitty boy, come."

The little Mara seemed to claim him in a feminine way, like a chosen idol and cherished possession. She immediately offered him all her few childhood treasures and watched every move he made with excited devotion, often saying as she looked around happily, "Pretty boy, come."

She had no words to explain the strange dream of the morning; it lay in her, struggling for expression, and[Pg 55] giving her an interest in the new-comer as in something belonging to herself. Whence it came,—whence come multitudes like it, which spring up as strange, enchanted flowers, every now and then in the dull, material pathway of life,—who knows? It may be that our present faculties have among them a rudimentary one, like the germs of wings in the chrysalis, by which the spiritual world becomes sometimes an object of perception; there may be natures in which the walls of the material are so fine and translucent that the spiritual is seen through them as through a glass darkly. It may be, too, that the love which is stronger than death has a power sometimes to make itself heard and felt through the walls of our mortality, when it would plead for the defenseless ones it has left behind. All these things may be,—who knows?

She couldn't find the words to describe the strange dream from the morning; it lingered within her, trying to find a way to be expressed, and[Pg 55] it made her feel connected to the newcomer as if they were part of her. Where it came from—where so many like it come from, appearing like strange, enchanted flowers now and then on the dull, material path of life—who knows? It could be that our current abilities include a basic one, like the early stages of wings in a caterpillar, which allows us to perceive the spiritual world at times; there may be individuals whose understanding of the material is so thin and clear that they see the spiritual through it as if looking through a dark glass. It might also be that a love stronger than death can, at times, make itself felt and heard through the barriers of our mortality when it wants to advocate for those it has left behind. All these things might be—who knows?


"There," said Miss Roxy, coming out of the keeping-room at sunset; "I wouldn't ask to see a better-lookin' corpse. That ar woman was a sight to behold this morning. I guess I shook a double handful of stones and them little shells out of her hair,—now she reely looks beautiful. Captain Kittridge has made a coffin out o' some cedar-boards he happened to have, and I lined it with bleached cotton, and stuffed the pillow nice and full, and when we come to get her in, she reely will look lovely."

"There," said Miss Roxy, stepping out of the living room at sunset, "I wouldn't ask to see a better-looking corpse. That woman was quite the sight this morning. I think I took a handful of stones and little shells out of her hair—now she really looks beautiful. Captain Kittridge made a coffin out of some cedar boards he had on hand, and I lined it with bleached cotton and stuffed the pillow nice and full. When we go to put her in, she will really look lovely."

"I s'pose, Mis' Kittridge, you'll have the funeral to-morrow,—it's Sunday."

"I guess, Miss Kittridge, you'll have the funeral tomorrow—it's Sunday."

"Why, yes, Aunt Roxy,—I think everybody must want to improve such a dispensation. Have you took little Mara in to look at the corpse?"

"Sure, Aunt Roxy, I think everyone would want to make such a situation better. Have you brought little Mara in to see the body?"

"Well, no," said Miss Roxy; "Mis' Pennel's gettin' ready to take her home."

"Well, no," said Miss Roxy; "Ms. Pennel's getting ready to take her home."

"I think it's an opportunity we ought to improve," said Mrs. Kittridge, "to learn children what death is. I think we can't begin to solemnize their minds too young."[Pg 56]

"I think it's an opportunity we should take advantage of," said Mrs. Kittridge, "to teach kids what death is. I believe we can't start preparing their minds too early."[Pg 56]

At this moment Sally and the little Mara entered the room.

At that moment, Sally and little Mara walked into the room.

"Come here, children," said Mrs. Kittridge, taking a hand of either one, and leading them to the closed door of the keeping-room; "I've got somethin' to show you."

"Come here, kids," said Mrs. Kittridge, taking one of their hands in each of hers, and guiding them to the closed door of the living room; "I have something to show you."

The room looked ghostly and dim,—the rays of light fell through the closed shutter on an object mysteriously muffled in a white sheet.

The room looked eerie and dim—the light streamed through the closed shutter onto something mysteriously covered in a white sheet.

Sally's bright face expressed only the vague curiosity of a child to see something new; but the little Mara resisted and hung back with all her force, so that Mrs. Kittridge was obliged to take her up and hold her.

Sally's glowing face showed just the mild curiosity of a child eager to see something new; however, little Mara pulled away with all her strength, making Mrs. Kittridge pick her up and hold her.

She folded back the sheet from the chill and wintry form which lay so icily, lonely, and cold. Sally walked around it, and gratified her curiosity by seeing it from every point of view, and laying her warm, busy hand on the lifeless and cold one; but Mara clung to Mrs. Kittridge, with eyes that expressed a distressed astonishment. The good woman stooped over and placed the child's little hand for a moment on the icy forehead. The little one gave a piercing scream, and struggled to get away; and as soon as she was put down, she ran and hid her face in Aunt Roxy's dress, sobbing bitterly.

She pulled back the sheet from the cold and wintry figure that lay there, so icy, lonely, and still. Sally walked around it, satisfying her curiosity by observing it from every angle and placing her warm, busy hand on the lifeless, cold one; but Mara clung to Mrs. Kittridge, her eyes filled with a pained disbelief. The kind woman bent down and placed the child's small hand on the icy forehead for a moment. The little one let out a piercing scream and struggled to escape; as soon as she was set down, she ran and buried her face in Aunt Roxy's dress, crying hard.

"That child'll grow up to follow vanity," said Mrs. Kittridge; "her little head is full of dress now, and she hates anything serious,—it's easy to see that."

"That child will grow up to be vain," said Mrs. Kittridge; "her little head is full of fashion now, and she dislikes anything serious—it's easy to see that."

The little Mara had no words to tell what a strange, distressful chill had passed up her arm and through her brain, as she felt that icy cold of death,—that cold so different from all others. It was an impression of fear and pain that lasted weeks and months, so that she would start out of sleep and cry with a terror which she had not yet a sufficiency of language to describe.

The little Mara couldn't express the strange, distressing chill that ran up her arm and through her mind when she felt that icy cold of death—a cold that was unlike any other. It left her with a sense of fear and pain that lingered for weeks and months, causing her to wake up in the night, crying from a terror that she still didn't have the words to describe.

"You seem to forget, Mis' Kittridge, that this 'ere child ain't rugged like our Sally," said Aunt Roxy, as she raised[Pg 57] the little Mara in her arms. "She was a seven-months' baby, and hard to raise at all, and a shivery, scary little creature."

"You seem to forget, Miss Kittridge, that this child isn’t as tough as our Sally," said Aunt Roxy, as she lifted the little Mara in her arms. "She was a seven-month baby, hard to raise at all, and a fragile, fearful little thing."

"Well, then, she ought to be hardened," said Dame Kittridge. "But Mary Pennel never had no sort of idea of bringin' up children; 'twas jist so with Naomi,—the girl never had no sort o' resolution, and she just died for want o' resolution,—that's what came of it. I tell ye, children's got to learn to take the world as it is; and 'tain't no use bringin' on 'em up too tender. Teach 'em to begin as they've got to go out,—that's my maxim."

"Well, then, she should toughen up," said Dame Kittridge. "But Mary Pennel never had any idea about raising kids; it was the same with Naomi—the girl never had any determination, and she just faded away for lack of it—that’s what happened. I'm telling you, kids need to learn to face the world as it is; it’s pointless to raise them too gently. Teach them to start out the way they’ll have to go on—that’s my motto."

"Mis' Kittridge," said Aunt Roxy, "there's reason in all things, and there's difference in children. 'What's one's meat's another's pison.' You couldn't fetch up Mis' Pennel's children, and she couldn't fetch up your'n,—so let's say no more 'bout it."

"Miss Kittridge," said Aunt Roxy, "there's a reason for everything, and kids are all different. 'What works for one might not work for another.' You couldn't raise Miss Pennel's kids, and she couldn't raise yours—so let's drop it."

"I'm always a-tellin' my wife that ar," said Captain Kittridge; "she's always wantin' to make everybody over after her pattern."

"I'm always telling my wife that," said Captain Kittridge; "she's always wanting to shape everyone to her way of doing things."

"Cap'n Kittridge, I don't think you need to speak," resumed his wife. "When such a loud providence is a-knockin' at your door, I think you'd better be a-searchin' your own heart,—here it is the eleventh hour, and you hain't come into the Lord's vineyard yet."

"Cap'n Kittridge, I don't think you need to say anything," his wife continued. "When such a strong message from the heavens is knocking at your door, I think you should reflect on your own heart—it's the eleventh hour, and you haven't entered the Lord's vineyard yet."

"Oh! come, come, Mis' Kittridge, don't twit a feller afore folks," said the Captain. "I'm goin' over to Harpswell Neck this blessed minute after the minister to 'tend the funeral,—so we'll let him preach."

"Oh! come on, Miss Kittridge, don’t embarrass a guy in front of everyone," said the Captain. "I'm heading over to Harpswell Neck right now to meet the minister for the funeral—so we’ll let him take care of the preaching."


CHAPTER VIII

THE SEEN AND THE UNSEEN

[Pg 58]Life on any shore is a dull affair,—ever degenerating into commonplace; and this may account for the eagerness with which even a great calamity is sometimes accepted in a neighborhood, as affording wherewithal to stir the deeper feelings of our nature. Thus, though Mrs. Kittridge was by no means a hard-hearted woman, and would not for the world have had a ship wrecked on her particular account, yet since a ship had been wrecked and a body floated ashore at her very door, as it were, it afforded her no inconsiderable satisfaction to dwell on the details and to arrange for the funeral.

[Pg 58]Life on any shore can be pretty boring, often slipping into the ordinary; this might explain why people sometimes welcome even a major disaster in their area, as it can provoke deeper emotions within us. So, while Mrs. Kittridge wasn't a cold-hearted person and definitely wouldn't wish for a shipwreck just for her own sake, the fact that a ship had been wrecked and a body washed up right at her doorstep brought her a certain amount of satisfaction in being able to contemplate the details and plan the funeral.

It was something to talk about and to think of, and likely to furnish subject-matter for talk for years to come when she should go out to tea with any of her acquaintances who lived at Middle Bay, or Maquoit, or Harpswell Neck. For although in those days,—the number of light-houses being much smaller than it is now,—it was no uncommon thing for ships to be driven on shore in storms, yet this incident had undeniably more that was stirring and romantic in it than any within the memory of any tea-table gossip in the vicinity. Mrs. Kittridge, therefore, looked forward to the funeral services on Sunday afternoon as to a species of solemn fête, which imparted a sort of consequence to her dwelling and herself. Notice of it was to be given out in "meeting" after service, and she might expect both keeping-room and kitchen to be full. Mrs. Pennel had offered to do her share of Christian and neighborly[Pg 59] kindness, in taking home to her own dwelling the little boy. In fact, it became necessary to do so in order to appease the feelings of the little Mara, who clung to the new acquisition with most devoted fondness, and wept bitterly when he was separated from her even for a few moments. Therefore, in the afternoon of the day when the body was found, Mrs. Pennel, who had come down to assist, went back in company with Aunt Ruey and the two children.

It was definitely something to discuss and think about, and it would likely be a topic for conversation for years to come when she went out for tea with any of her friends who lived in Middle Bay, Maquoit, or Harpswell Neck. Although back then, when there were far fewer lighthouses than now, it wasn't unusual for ships to get wrecked in storms, this incident had undeniably more excitement and romance than anything anyone at the local tea tables could remember. Mrs. Kittridge, therefore, looked forward to the funeral services on Sunday afternoon as a kind of solemn event that gave her home and herself a special significance. The announcement would be made in "meeting" after the service, and she expected both the living room and kitchen to be crowded. Mrs. Pennel had offered to help out by taking the little boy home with her. In fact, it was necessary to do so to comfort little Mara, who was very attached to the new addition and cried hard whenever he was taken away from her, even for a moment. So, on the afternoon the body was found, Mrs. Pennel, who had come to help, went back with Aunt Ruey and the two children.

The September evening set in brisk and chill, and the cheerful fire that snapped and roared up the ample chimney of Captain Kittridge's kitchen was a pleasing feature. The days of our story were before the advent of those sullen gnomes, the "air-tights," or even those more sociable and cheery domestic genii, the cooking-stoves. They were the days of the genial open kitchen-fire, with the crane, the pot-hooks, and trammels,—where hissed and boiled the social tea-kettle, where steamed the huge dinner-pot, in whose ample depths beets, carrots, potatoes, and turnips boiled in jolly sociability with the pork or corned beef which they were destined to flank at the coming meal.

The September evening arrived brisk and chilly, and the cheerful fire crackling and roaring up the wide chimney of Captain Kittridge's kitchen was a nice touch. Our story takes place before the days of those gloomy contraptions, the "air-tights," or even the more friendly and cheerful cooking stoves. They were the days of the warm open kitchen fire, complete with the crane, pot-hooks, and trammels—where the social tea kettle hissed and boiled, and the large dinner pot steamed, filled with beets, carrots, potatoes, and turnips happily boiling alongside the pork or corned beef that would soon accompany the meal.

On the present evening, Miss Roxy sat bolt upright, as was her wont, in one corner of the fireplace, with her spectacles on her nose, and an unwonted show of candles on the little stand beside her, having resumed the task of the silk dress which had been for a season interrupted. Mrs. Kittridge, with her spectacles also mounted, was carefully and warily "running-up breadths," stopping every few minutes to examine her work, and to inquire submissively of Miss Roxy if "it will do?"

On this evening, Miss Roxy sat straight up, as she usually did, in one corner of the fireplace, with her glasses on her nose and an unusual number of candles on the small stand next to her, having picked up the task of the silk dress that had been put on hold for a while. Mrs. Kittridge, also wearing her glasses, was carefully and cautiously "sewing up sections," stopping every few minutes to check her work and to humbly ask Miss Roxy if "it looks alright?"

Captain Kittridge sat in the other corner busily whittling on a little boat which he was shaping to please Sally, who sat on a low stool by his side with her knitting, evidently more intent on what her father was producing than on the evening task of "ten bouts," which her mother[Pg 60] exacted before she could freely give her mind to anything on her own account. As Sally was rigorously sent to bed exactly at eight o'clock, it became her to be diligent if she wished to do anything for her own amusement before that hour.

Captain Kittridge sat in the other corner, focused on whittling a small boat he was making to impress Sally, who was sitting on a low stool beside him, knitting. She seemed more interested in what her father was creating than in the evening chore of "ten bouts" that her mother[Pg 60] required before she could freely pursue her own interests. Since Sally was strictly sent to bed at eight o'clock, she had to be quick about her tasks if she wanted to enjoy any fun activities before then.

And in the next room, cold and still, was lying that faded image of youth and beauty which the sea had so strangely given up. Without a name, without a history, without a single accompaniment from which her past could even be surmised,—there she lay, sealed in eternal silence.

And in the next room, cold and still, was lying that faded image of youth and beauty that the sea had so strangely released. Without a name, without a history, without any hint of her past—there she lay, sealed in eternal silence.

"It's strange," said Captain Kittridge, as he whittled away,—"it's very strange we don't find anything more of that ar ship. I've been all up and down the beach a-lookin'. There was a spar and some broken bits of boards and timbers come ashore down on the beach, but nothin' to speak of."

"It's weird," said Captain Kittridge, as he carved away, "it's really weird that we haven't found more of that ship. I've searched the entire beach. A spar and some broken pieces of boards and timbers washed up on the shore, but nothing significant."

"It won't be known till the sea gives up its dead," said Miss Roxy, shaking her head solemnly, "and there'll be a great givin' up then, I'm a-thinkin'."

"It won't be known until the sea reveals its dead," said Miss Roxy, shaking her head seriously, "and there will be a great revealing then, I believe."

"Yes, indeed," said Mrs. Kittridge, with an emphatic nod.

"Yes, definitely," said Mrs. Kittridge, with a strong nod.

"Father," said Sally, "how many, many things there must be at the bottom of the sea,—so many ships are sunk with all their fine things on board. Why don't people contrive some way to go down and get them?"

"Father," Sally said, "there are probably tons of things at the bottom of the ocean—so many ships have sunk with all their treasures on board. Why don't people figure out a way to go down and retrieve them?"

"They do, child," said Captain Kittridge; "they have diving-bells, and men go down in 'em with caps over their faces, and long tubes to get the air through, and they walk about on the bottom of the ocean."

"They do, kid," said Captain Kittridge; "they have diving bells, and guys go down in them with caps on their heads, and long tubes to get air through, and they walk around on the ocean floor."

"Did you ever go down in one, father?"

"Did you ever go down in one, Dad?"

"Why, yes, child, to be sure; and strange enough it was, to be sure. There you could see great big sea critters, with ever so many eyes and long arms, swimming right up to catch you, and all you could do would be to muddy the water on the bottom, so they couldn't see you."[Pg 61]

"Why, yes, kid, definitely; and it was odd, for sure. There you could see huge sea creatures, with tons of eyes and long limbs, swimming right up to grab you, and all you could do was stir up the mud at the bottom so they couldn't see you."[Pg 61]

"I never heard of that, Cap'n Kittridge," said his wife, drawing herself up with a reproving coolness.

"I've never heard of that, Cap'n Kittridge," his wife replied, straightening up with a disapproving coolness.

"Wal', Mis' Kittridge, you hain't heard of everything that ever happened," said the Captain, imperturbably, "though you do know a sight."

"Well, Miss Kittridge, you haven't heard about everything that ever happened," said the Captain, unbothered, "even though you do know quite a bit."

"And how does the bottom of the ocean look, father?" said Sally.

"And how does the ocean floor look, Dad?" said Sally.

"Laws, child, why trees and bushes grow there, just as they do on land; and great plants,—blue and purple and green and yellow, and lots of great pearls lie round. I've seen 'em big as chippin'-birds' eggs."

"Laws, kid, why trees and bushes grow there, just like they do on land; and huge plants—blue, purple, green, and yellow, and a ton of big pearls are scattered around. I've seen them as big as robin's eggs."

"Cap'n Kittridge!" said his wife.

"Captain Kittridge!" said his wife.

"I have, and big as robins' eggs, too, but them was off the coast of Ceylon and Malabar, and way round the Equator," said the Captain, prudently resolved to throw his romance to a sufficient distance.

"I have, and they're as big as robin's eggs, too, but those were off the coast of Ceylon and Malabar, and way around the Equator," said the Captain, wisely deciding to keep his story at a safe distance.

"It's a pity you didn't get a few of them pearls," said his wife, with an indignant appearance of scorn.

"It's a shame you didn't grab a few of those pearls," his wife said, looking at him with obvious disdain.

"I did get lots on 'em, and traded 'em off to the Nabobs in the interior for Cashmere shawls and India silks and sich," said the Captain, composedly; "and brought 'em home and sold 'em at a good figure, too."

"I got a lot of them and traded them to the wealthy people in the interior for Cashmere shawls and Indian silks and stuff," the Captain said calmly; "and I brought them home and sold them for a nice profit, too."

"Oh, father!" said Sally, earnestly, "I wish you had saved just one or two for us."

"Oh, Dad!" Sally said earnestly, "I wish you had saved just one or two for us."

"Laws, child, I wish now I had," said the Captain, good-naturedly. "Why, when I was in India, I went up to Lucknow, and Benares, and round, and saw all the Nabobs and Biggums,—why, they don't make no more of gold and silver and precious stones than we do of the shells we find on the beach. Why, I've seen one of them fellers with a diamond in his turban as big as my fist."

"Laws, kid, I wish I had," said the Captain, cheerfully. "When I was in India, I went up to Lucknow, and Benares, and around, and saw all the Nabobs and Biggums—honestly, they don’t think twice about gold, silver, and precious stones, just like we don’t think twice about the shells we find on the beach. I’ve even seen one of those guys with a diamond in his turban as big as my fist."

"Cap'n Kittridge, what are you telling?" said his wife once more.

"Cap'n Kittridge, what are you talking about?" his wife asked again.

"Fact,—as big as my fist," said the Captain, obdurately; "and all the clothes he wore was jist a stiff crust[Pg 62] of pearls and precious stones. I tell you, he looked like something in the Revelations,—a real New Jerusalem look he had."

"Fact—it's as big as my fist," said the Captain stubbornly; "and all the clothes he wore was just a stiff crust[Pg 62] of pearls and precious stones. I swear, he looked like something out of the Revelations—a true New Jerusalem vibe he had."

"I call that ar talk wicked, Cap'n Kittridge, usin' Scriptur' that ar way," said his wife.

"I think that's really wrong, Captain Kittridge, using the Scriptures like that," said his wife.

"Why, don't it tell about all sorts of gold and precious stones in the Revelations?" said the Captain; "that's all I meant. Them ar countries off in Asia ain't like our'n,—stands to reason they shouldn't be; them's Scripture countries, and everything is different there."

"Why, doesn't it talk about all kinds of gold and precious stones in the Revelations?" said the Captain; "that's all I meant. Those countries over in Asia aren't like ours—it's only logical they wouldn't be; those are biblical countries, and everything is different there."

"Father, didn't you ever get any of those splendid things?" said Sally.

"Dad, didn’t you ever get any of those amazing things?" said Sally.

"Laws, yes, child. Why, I had a great green ring, an emerald, that one of the princes giv' me, and ever so many pearls and diamonds. I used to go with 'em rattlin' loose in my vest pocket. I was young and gay in them days, and thought of bringin' of 'em home for the gals, but somehow I always got opportunities for swappin' of 'em off for goods and sich. That ar shawl your mother keeps in her camfire chist was what I got for one on 'em."

"Laws, yes, kid. I had this amazing green ring, an emerald, that one of the princes gave me, plus a ton of pearls and diamonds. I used to carry them around loose in my vest pocket. I was young and carefree back then and thought about bringing them home for the girls, but somehow I always found chances to trade them for other stuff. That shawl your mom keeps in her camfire chest was what I got for one of them."

"Well, well," said Mrs. Kittridge, "there's never any catchin' you, 'cause you've been where we haven't."

"Well, well," said Mrs. Kittridge, "there's never any catching you, because you've been where we haven't."

"You've caught me once, and that ought'r do," said the Captain, with unruffled good-nature. "I tell you, Sally, your mother was the handsomest gal in Harpswell in them days."

"You've caught me once, and that should be enough," said the Captain, with calm good humor. "I tell you, Sally, your mother was the prettiest girl in Harpswell back then."

"I should think you was too old for such nonsense, Cap'n," said Mrs. Kittridge, with a toss of her head, and a voice that sounded far less inexorable than her former admonition. In fact, though the old Captain was as unmanageable under his wife's fireside régime as any brisk old cricket that skipped and sang around the hearth, and though he hopped over all moral boundaries with a cheerful alertness of conscience that was quite discouraging, still there was no resisting the spell of his inexhaustible good-nature.[Pg 63]

"I would think you're too old for such nonsense, Cap'n," said Mrs. Kittridge, tossing her head, and her voice sounded much less stern than before. In fact, even though the old Captain was as stubborn under his wife's home rules as a lively old cricket hopping and singing around the fireplace, and despite his tendency to ignore all moral boundaries with an overly cheerful conscience that was pretty frustrating, there was still no resisting the charm of his never-ending good nature.[Pg 63]

By this time he had finished the little boat, and to Sally's great delight, began sailing it for her in a pail of water.

By this time, he had finished the little boat, and to Sally's great delight, he started sailing it for her in a bucket of water.

"I wonder," said Mrs. Kittridge, "what's to be done with that ar child. I suppose the selectmen will take care on't; it'll be brought up by the town."

"I wonder," said Mrs. Kittridge, "what's going to happen with that poor child. I guess the town officials will handle it; it’ll be raised by the community."

"I shouldn't wonder," said Miss Roxy, "if Cap'n Pennel should adopt it."

"I wouldn't be surprised," said Miss Roxy, "if Captain Pennel decided to adopt it."

"You don't think so," said Mrs. Kittridge. "'Twould be taking a great care and expense on their hands at their time of life."

"You don't think so," Mrs. Kittridge said. "It would be a huge responsibility and cost for them at this stage of their lives."

"I wouldn't want no better fun than to bring up that little shaver," said Captain Kittridge; "he's a bright un, I promise you."

"I wouldn't want any better fun than to raise that little kid," said Captain Kittridge; "he's a smart one, I promise you."

"You, Cap'n Kittridge! I wonder you can talk so," said his wife. "It's an awful responsibility, and I wonder you don't think whether or no you're fit for it."

"You, Captain Kittridge! I can't believe you can talk like that," his wife said. "It's a huge responsibility, and I wonder if you've considered whether or not you're suited for it."

"Why, down here on the shore, I'd as lives undertake a boy as a Newfoundland pup," said the Captain. "Plenty in the sea to eat, drink, and wear. That ar young un may be the staff of their old age yet."

"Why, down here on the shore, I'd just as soon take on a kid as a Newfoundland pup," said the Captain. "There's plenty in the sea to eat, drink, and wear. That young one might just be the support they need in their old age."

"You see," said Miss Roxy, "I think they'll adopt it to be company for little Mara; they're bound up in her, and the little thing pines bein' alone."

"You see," said Miss Roxy, "I think they'll adopt it to keep little Mara company; they’re really attached to her, and the poor thing gets so sad being all alone."

"Well, they make a real graven image of that ar child," said Mrs. Kittridge, "and fairly bow down to her and worship her."

"Well, they create a real statue of that child," said Mrs. Kittridge, "and completely bow down to her and worship her."

"Well, it's natural," said Miss Roxy. "Besides, the little thing is cunnin'; she's about the cunnin'est little crittur that I ever saw, and has such enticin' ways."

"Well, it’s natural," said Miss Roxy. "Besides, the little thing is cute; she’s the cutest little creature I’ve ever seen, and she has such captivating ways."

The fact was, as the reader may perceive, that Miss Roxy had been thawed into an unusual attachment for the little Mara, and this affection was beginning to spread a warming element though her whole being. It was as if a rough granite rock had suddenly awakened to a passionate[Pg 64] consciousness of the beauty of some fluttering white anemone that nestled in its cleft, and felt warm thrills running through all its veins at every tender motion and shadow. A word spoken against the little one seemed to rouse her combativeness. Nor did Dame Kittridge bear the child the slightest ill-will, but she was one of those naturally care-taking people whom Providence seems to design to perform the picket duties for the rest of society, and who, therefore, challenge everybody and everything to stand and give an account of themselves. Miss Roxy herself belonged to this class, but sometimes found herself so stoutly overhauled by the guns of Mrs. Kittridge's battery, that she could only stand modestly on the defensive.

The truth is, as readers might notice, that Miss Roxy had developed an unexpected bond with little Mara, and this love was starting to bring warmth to her entire being. It was like a rough granite rock suddenly becoming aware of the beauty of a fluttering white anemone nestled in its crevice, feeling warm thrills throughout its veins with every gentle movement and shadow. Any negative word spoken about the child seemed to ignite her protective nature. Dame Kittridge held no grudge against the child, but she was one of those naturally nurturing people who seem destined to take on the duty of looking after society, challenging everyone and everything to justify themselves. Miss Roxy belonged to this group too, but at times she found herself so thoroughly scrutinized by Mrs. Kittridge's watchful eye that she could only stay on the defensive.

One of Mrs. Kittridge's favorite hobbies was education, or, as she phrased it, the "fetchin' up" of children, which she held should be performed to the letter of the old stiff rule. In this manner she had already trained up six sons, who were all following their fortunes upon the seas, and, on this account, she had no small conceit of her abilities; and when she thought she discerned a lamb being left to frisk heedlessly out of bounds, her zeal was stirred to bring it under proper sheepfold regulations.

One of Mrs. Kittridge's favorite hobbies was education, or, as she put it, the "raising up" of children, which she believed should be done strictly according to the old rules. In this way, she had already raised six sons, all of whom were trying to make their way on the seas, and because of this, she had a fair amount of pride in her abilities; and when she noticed a child wandering carelessly out of line, her eagerness was sparked to bring them back under proper supervision.

"Come, Sally, it's eight o'clock," said the good woman.

"Come on, Sally, it's eight o'clock," said the kind woman.

Sally's dark brows lowered over her large, black eyes, and she gave an appealing look to her father.

Sally's dark brows furrowed over her big, black eyes, and she gave her father a pleading look.

"Law, mother, let the child sit up a quarter of an hour later, jist for once."

"Come on, Mom, let the kid stay up a little longer, just this once."

"Cap'n Kittridge, if I was to hear to you, there'd never be no rule in this house. Sally, you go 'long this minute, and be sure you put your knittin' away in its place."

"Captain Kittridge, if I listened to you, there’d be no rules in this house. Sally, you go ahead right now and make sure you put your knitting away in its spot."

The Captain gave a humorous nod of submissive good-nature to his daughter as she went out. In fact, putting Sally to bed was taking away his plaything, and leaving him nothing to do but study faces in the coals, or watch[Pg 65] the fleeting sparks which chased each other in flocks up the sooty back of the chimney.

The Captain gave a lighthearted nod of good-natured acceptance to his daughter as she left. Actually, putting Sally to bed meant losing his plaything and left him with nothing to do but stare at the faces in the coals or watch[Pg 65] the fleeting sparks that chased each other in groups up the sooty chimney.

It was Saturday night, and the morrow was Sunday,—never a very pleasant prospect to the poor Captain, who, having, unfortunately, no spiritual tastes, found it very difficult to get through the day in compliance with his wife's views of propriety, for he, alas! soared no higher in his aims.

It was Saturday night, and tomorrow was Sunday—a prospect that was never very appealing to the poor Captain, who, unfortunately lacking any spiritual inclinations, found it quite challenging to get through the day while adhering to his wife's expectations of propriety, for he, sadly, had no higher aspirations.

"I b'lieve, on the hull, Polly, I'll go to bed, too," said he, suddenly starting up.

"I believe, overall, Polly, I'm going to bed, too," he said, suddenly standing up.

"Well, father, your clean shirt is in the right-hand corner of the upper drawer, and your Sunday clothes on the back of the chair by the bed."

"Well, Dad, your clean shirt is in the right-hand corner of the top drawer, and your Sunday clothes are on the back of the chair by the bed."

The fact was that the Captain promised himself the pleasure of a long conversation with Sally, who nestled in the trundle-bed under the paternal couch, to whom he could relate long, many-colored yarns, without the danger of interruption from her mother's sharp, truth-seeking voice.

The truth was that the Captain looked forward to a long chat with Sally, who curled up in the trundle bed under the fatherly couch, where he could share long, colorful stories without the risk of being interrupted by her mother's probing, truth-seeking voice.

A moralist might, perhaps, be puzzled exactly what account to make of the Captain's disposition to romancing and embroidery. In all real, matter-of-fact transactions, as between man and man, his word was as good as another's, and he was held to be honest and just in his dealings. It was only when he mounted the stilts of foreign travel that his paces became so enormous. Perhaps, after all, a rude poetic and artistic faculty possessed the man. He might have been a humbler phase of the "mute, inglorious Milton." Perhaps his narrations required the privileges and allowances due to the inventive arts generally. Certain it was that, in common with other artists, he required an atmosphere of sympathy and confidence in which to develop himself fully; and, when left alone with children, his mind ran such riot, that the bounds between the real and unreal became foggier than the banks of Newfoundland.[Pg 66]

A moralist might be a bit confused about the Captain's tendency to embellish stories. In all straightforward, real-life interactions, his word was as trustworthy as anyone else's, and he was considered honest and fair in his dealings. It was only when he went off on foreign adventures that his stories became so exaggerated. Perhaps he had a rough poetic and artistic side. He might have been a lesser version of the "mute, inglorious Milton." Maybe his tales needed the special allowances usually given to creative works. What was clear, though, was that, like other artists, he needed an environment of support and trust to fully express himself; and when he was alone with children, his imagination ran wild, blurring the lines between reality and fantasy more than the foggy shores of Newfoundland.[Pg 66]

The two women sat up, and the night wore on apace, while they kept together that customary vigil which it was thought necessary to hold over the lifeless casket from which an immortal jewel had recently been withdrawn.

The two women sat up as the night went on, keeping that usual watch over the lifeless casket from which an immortal jewel had recently been taken.

"I re'lly did hope," said Mrs. Kittridge, mournfully, "that this 'ere solemn Providence would have been sent home to the Cap'n's mind; but he seems jist as light and triflin' as ever."

"I really did hope," said Mrs. Kittridge, sadly, "that this serious situation would have gotten through to the Captain's mind; but he seems just as carefree and trivial as ever."

"There don't nobody see these 'ere things unless they's effectually called," said Miss Roxy, "and the Cap'n's time ain't come."

"There doesn't seem to be anyone around to see these things unless they're specifically called," said Miss Roxy, "and the Captain's time hasn't come yet."

"It's gettin' to be t'ward the eleventh hour," said Mrs. Kittridge, "as I was a-tellin' him this afternoon."

"It's getting close to the eleventh hour," said Mrs. Kittridge, "like I was telling him this afternoon."

"Well," said Miss Roxy, "you know

"Well," said Miss Roxy, "you know

"'While the lamp holds out to burn,
The vilest sinner may return.'"

"'As long as the lamp is lit,
The worst sinner can come back.'"

"Yes, I know that," said Mrs. Kittridge, rising and taking up the candle. "Don't you think, Aunt Roxy, we may as well give a look in there at the corpse?"

"Yeah, I know that," said Mrs. Kittridge, standing up and picking up the candle. "Don't you think, Aunt Roxy, we might as well check out the body in there?"

It was past midnight as they went together into the keeping-room. All was so still that the clash of the rising tide and the ticking of the clock assumed that solemn and mournful distinctness which even tones less impressive take on in the night-watches. Miss Roxy went mechanically through with certain arrangements of the white drapery around the cold sleeper, and uncovering the face and bust for a moment, looked critically at the still, unconscious countenance.

It was past midnight when they entered the living room together. Everything was so quiet that the sound of the rising tide and the ticking clock took on a somber and mournful clarity that even less significant sounds have during the night. Miss Roxy went through the motions of adjusting the white drapery around the cold figure, and for a moment, she uncovered the face and chest, looking critically at the still, unresponsive expression.

"Not one thing to let us know who or what she is," she said; "that boy, if he lives, would give a good deal to know, some day."

"There's not a single thing to tell us who or what she is," she said. "That boy, if he survives, would really want to know someday."

"What is it one's duty to do about this bracelet?" said Mrs. Kittridge, taking from a drawer the article in question, which had been found on the beach in the morning.[Pg 67]

"What should I do about this bracelet?" said Mrs. Kittridge, taking the item from a drawer, which had been found on the beach that morning.[Pg 67]

"Well, I s'pose it belongs to the child, whatever it's worth," said Miss Roxy.

"Well, I guess it belongs to the child, no matter what it's worth," said Miss Roxy.

"Then if the Pennels conclude to take him, I may as well give it to them," said Mrs. Kittridge, laying it back in the drawer.

"Then if the Pennels decide to take him, I might as well give it to them," said Mrs. Kittridge, putting it back in the drawer.

Miss Roxy folded the cloth back over the face, and the two went out into the kitchen. The fire had sunk low—the crickets were chirruping gleefully. Mrs. Kittridge added more wood, and put on the tea-kettle that their watching might be refreshed by the aid of its talkative and inspiring beverage. The two solemn, hard-visaged women drew up to each other by the fire, and insensibly their very voices assumed a tone of drowsy and confidential mystery.

Miss Roxy folded the cloth back over the face, and the two headed into the kitchen. The fire had burned down low—the crickets were chirping happily. Mrs. Kittridge added more wood and put on the kettle so they could be refreshed by its warm and inspiring drink. The two serious, hard-faced women moved closer to each other by the fire, and without realizing it, their voices took on a quiet and intimate tone.

"If this 'ere poor woman was hopefully pious, and could see what was goin' on here," said Mrs. Kittridge, "it would seem to be a comfort to her that her child has fallen into such good hands. It seems a'most a pity she couldn't know it."

"If this poor woman was at all pious and could see what's happening here," said Mrs. Kittridge, "it would be comforting for her to know that her child is in such good hands. It seems almost a shame she can't know that."

"How do you know she don't?" said Miss Roxy, brusquely.

"How do you know she doesn't?" said Miss Roxy, sharply.

"Why, you know the hymn," said Mrs. Kittridge, quoting those somewhat saddusaical lines from the popular psalm-book:—

"Well, you know the hymn," said Mrs. Kittridge, quoting those somewhat melancholy lines from the popular psalm book:—

"'The living know that they must die,
But all the dead forgotten lie—
Their memory and their senses gone,
Alike unknowing and unknown
.'"

"'The living know that they must die,
But all the dead are forgotten—
Their memories and senses are gone,
Both unknowing and unknown
.'"

"Well, I don't know 'bout that," said Miss Roxy, flavoring her cup of tea; "hymn-book ain't Scriptur', and I'm pretty sure that ar ain't true always;" and she nodded her head as if she could say more if she chose.

"Well, I don't know about that," Miss Roxy said as she added flavor to her cup of tea. "Hymn books aren't Scripture, and I'm pretty sure that's not always true," she added, nodding her head as if she had more to say if she wanted to.

Now Miss Roxy's reputation of vast experience in all the facts relating to those last fateful hours, which are the only certain event in every human existence, caused her[Pg 68] to be regarded as a sort of Delphic oracle in such matters, and therefore Mrs. Kittridge, not without a share of the latent superstition to which each human heart must confess at some hours, drew confidentially near to Miss Roxy, and asked if she had anything particular on her mind.

Now, Miss Roxy's reputation for having extensive knowledge about those last fateful hours—the only guaranteed event in every human life—made her[Pg 68] seem like a kind of oracle regarding such topics. So, Mrs. Kittridge, not without a bit of the hidden superstition that every human heart must admit to at times, approached Miss Roxy confidentially and asked if she had anything specific on her mind.

"Well, Mis' Kittridge," said Miss Roxy, "I ain't one of the sort as likes to make a talk of what I've seen, but mebbe if I was, I've seen some things as remarkable as anybody. I tell you, Mis' Kittridge, folks don't tend the sick and dyin' bed year in and out, at all hours, day and night, and not see some remarkable things; that's my opinion."

"Well, Ms. Kittridge," said Miss Roxy, "I'm not really the type to talk about what I’ve seen, but maybe if I were, I’d have seen some things as remarkable as anyone. I tell you, Ms. Kittridge, people don’t take care of the sick and dying year after year, at all hours, day and night, without seeing some incredible things; that’s how I see it."

"Well, Miss Roxy, did you ever see a sperit?"

"Well, Miss Roxy, have you ever seen a spirit?"

"I won't say as I have, and I won't say as I haven't," said Miss Roxy; "only as I have seen some remarkable things."

"I won't say that I have or that I haven't," said Miss Roxy; "only that I've seen some remarkable things."

There was a pause, in which Mrs. Kittridge stirred her tea, looking intensely curious, while the old kitchen-clock seemed to tick with one of those fits of loud insistence which seem to take clocks at times when all is still, as if they had something that they were getting ready to say pretty soon, if nobody else spoke.

There was a moment of silence where Mrs. Kittridge stirred her tea, looking really curious, while the old kitchen clock ticked loudly in one of those moments when everything else was quiet, as if it had something important to say soon if no one else spoke.

But Miss Roxy evidently had something to say, and so she began:—

But Miss Roxy clearly had something to say, so she started:—

"Mis' Kittridge, this 'ere's a very particular subject to be talkin' of. I've had opportunities to observe that most haven't, and I don't care if I jist say to you, that I'm pretty sure spirits that has left the body do come to their friends sometimes."

"Miss Kittridge, this is a very specific topic to discuss. I've had chances to notice that many haven't, and I don’t mind telling you that I'm pretty sure spirits that have left the body do visit their friends sometimes."

The clock ticked with still more empressement, and Mrs. Kittridge glared through the horn bows of her glasses with eyes of eager curiosity.

The clock ticked with even more empressement, and Mrs. Kittridge glared through the horn rims of her glasses with eyes full of eager curiosity.

"Now, you remember Cap'n Titcomb's wife, that died fifteen years ago when her husband had gone to Archangel; and you remember that he took her son John out with him[Pg 69]—and of all her boys, John was the one she was particular sot on."

"Now, you remember Captain Titcomb's wife, who passed away fifteen years ago while her husband was in Archangel; and you remember that he brought her son John along with him[Pg 69]—and of all her boys, John was the one she was especially fond of."

"Yes, and John died at Archangel; I remember that."

"Yeah, and John died in Archangel; I remember that."

"Jes' so," said Miss Roxy, laying her hand on Mrs. Kittridge's; "he died at Archangel the very day his mother died, and jist the hour, for the Cap'n had it down in his log-book."

"Just so," said Miss Roxy, placing her hand on Mrs. Kittridge's; "he died at Archangel on the very day his mother died, and at the exact hour, because the Captain had it noted in his logbook."

"You don't say so!"

"No way!"

"Yes, I do. Well, now," said Miss Roxy, sinking her voice, "this 'ere was remarkable. Mis' Titcomb was one of the fearful sort, tho' one of the best women that ever lived. Our minister used to call her 'Mis' Muchafraid'—you know, in the 'Pilgrim's Progress'—but he was satisfied with her evidences, and told her so; she used to say she was 'afraid of the dark valley,' and she told our minister so when he went out, that ar last day he called; and his last words, as he stood with his hand on the knob of the door, was 'Mis' Titcomb, the Lord will find ways to bring you thro' the dark valley.' Well, she sunk away about three o'clock in the morning. I remember the time, 'cause the Cap'n's chronometer watch that he left with her lay on the stand for her to take her drops by. I heard her kind o' restless, and I went up, and I saw she was struck with death, and she looked sort o' anxious and distressed.

"Yeah, I do. Well, now," said Miss Roxy, lowering her voice, "this was something special. Miss Titcomb was a pretty fearful person, but she was one of the best women ever. Our minister used to call her 'Miss Muchafraid'—you know, from 'Pilgrim's Progress'—but he was convinced by her faith and told her so; she used to say she was 'afraid of the dark valley,' and she mentioned it to our minister on his last visit. His final words, as he stood with his hand on the doorknob, were 'Miss Titcomb, the Lord will find ways to get you through the dark valley.' Well, she passed away around three o'clock in the morning. I remember the time because the Captain's chronometer watch he left with her was sitting on the table for her to take her medicine by. I heard her moving around a bit, so I went up and saw she was nearing death, and she looked kind of anxious and distressed."

"'Oh, Aunt Roxy,' says she, 'it's so dark, who will go with me?' and in a minute her whole face brightened up, and says she, 'John is going with me,' and she jist gave the least little sigh and never breathed no more—she jist died as easy as a bird. I told our minister of it next morning, and he asked if I'd made a note of the hour, and I told him I had, and says he, 'You did right, Aunt Roxy.'"

"'Oh, Aunt Roxy,' she says, 'it’s so dark, who will go with me?' and in just a minute her whole face brightened up, and she says, 'John is going with me,' and she just let out the tiniest sigh and then didn’t breathe anymore—she just died as peacefully as a bird. I told our minister about it the next morning, and he asked if I had noted the time, and I told him I had, and he said, 'You did right, Aunt Roxy.'"

"What did he seem to think of it?"

"What did he appear to think about it?"

"Well, he didn't seem inclined to speak freely. 'Miss Roxy,' says he, 'all natur's in the Lord's hands, and there's no saying why he uses this or that; them that's[Pg 70] strong enough to go by faith, he lets 'em, but there's no saying what he won't do for the weak ones.'"

"Well, he didn't seem willing to talk openly. 'Miss Roxy,' he said, 'everything is in the Lord's hands, and there's no telling why he chooses one thing over another; those who are strong enough to rely on faith, he allows to do so, but there's no telling what he won't do for those who are weaker.'"

"Wa'n't the Cap'n overcome when you told him?" said Mrs. Kittridge.

"Wasn't the Captain shocked when you told him?" said Mrs. Kittridge.

"Indeed he was; he was jist as white as a sheet."

"Indeed he was; he was just as white as a sheet."

Miss Roxy now proceeded to pour out another cup of tea, and having mixed and flavored it, she looked in a weird and sibylline manner across it, and inquired,—

Miss Roxy now poured another cup of tea, and after mixing and flavoring it, she looked across it in a strange and mysterious way and asked,—

"Mis' Kittridge, do you remember that ar Mr. Wadkins that come to Brunswick twenty years ago, in President Averill's days?"

"Miss Kittridge, do you remember that Mr. Wadkins who came to Brunswick twenty years ago, during President Averill's time?"

"Yes, I remember the pale, thin, long-nosed gentleman that used to sit in President Averill's pew at church. Nobody knew who he was, or where he came from. The college students used to call him Thaddeus of Warsaw. Nobody knew who he was but the President, 'cause he could speak all the foreign tongues—one about as well as another; but the President he knew his story, and said he was a good man, and he used to stay to the sacrament regular, I remember."

"Yeah, I remember that pale, thin guy with the long nose who used to sit in President Averill's pew at church. No one knew who he was or where he came from. The college students called him Thaddeus of Warsaw. Nobody knew his background except for the President because he could speak all the foreign languages—pretty much the same as the others. But the President knew his story and said he was a good man, and I remember he used to stick around for the sacrament regularly."

"Yes," said Miss Roxy, "he used to live in a room all alone, and keep himself. Folks said he was quite a gentleman, too, and fond of reading."

"Yeah," said Miss Roxy, "he used to live in a room by himself and take care of himself. People said he was a real gentleman, too, and loved to read."

"I heard Cap'n Atkins tell," said Mrs. Kittridge, "how they came to take him up on the shores of Holland. You see, when he was somewhere in a port in Denmark, some men come to him and offered him a pretty good sum of money if he'd be at such a place on the coast of Holland on such a day, and take whoever should come. So the Cap'n he went, and sure enough on that day there come a troop of men on horseback down to the beach with this man, and they all bid him good-by, and seemed to make much of him, but he never told 'em nothin' on board ship, only he seemed kind o' sad and pinin'."

"I heard Captain Atkins say," Mrs. Kittridge mentioned, "how they ended up taking him on the shores of Holland. You see, when he was at a port in Denmark, some guys approached him and offered him a decent amount of money if he would be at a specific spot on the coast of Holland on a certain day and take whoever showed up. So the Captain went, and sure enough, on that day, a group of men on horseback came down to the beach with this guy. They all said their goodbyes and made a big deal out of him, but he never told them anything on the ship, he just seemed kind of sad and lost."

"Well," said Miss Roxy; "Ruey and I we took care o'[Pg 71] that man in his last sickness, and we watched with him the night he died, and there was something quite remarkable."

"Well," said Miss Roxy, "Ruey and I took care of [Pg 71] that man during his last illness, and we stayed with him the night he died, and there was something really remarkable."

"Do tell now," said Mrs. Kittridge.

"Go ahead and tell me," said Mrs. Kittridge.

"Well, you see," said Miss Roxy, "he'd been low and poorly all day, kind o' tossin' and restless, and a little light-headed, and the Doctor said he thought he wouldn't last till morning, and so Ruey and I we set up with him, and between twelve and one Ruey said she thought she'd jist lop down a few minutes on the old sofa at the foot of the bed, and I made me a cup of tea like as I'm a-doin' now, and set with my back to him."

"Well, you see," said Miss Roxy, "he had been feeling really low and sick all day, kind of tossing and restless, and a bit light-headed. The doctor said he didn't think he would last until morning, so Ruey and I stayed up with him. Between twelve and one, Ruey said she thought she'd just lie down for a few minutes on the old sofa at the foot of the bed, and I made myself a cup of tea, like I’m doing now, and sat with my back to him."

"Well?" said Mrs. Kittridge, eagerly.

"Well?" asked Mrs. Kittridge, eagerly.

"Well, you see he kept a-tossin' and throwin' off the clothes, and I kept a-gettin' up to straighten 'em; and once he threw out his arms, and something bright fell out on to the pillow, and I went and looked, and it was a likeness that he wore by a ribbon round his neck. It was a woman—a real handsome one—and she had on a low-necked black dress, of the cut they used to call Marie Louise, and she had a string of pearls round her neck, and her hair curled with pearls in it, and very wide blue eyes. Well, you see, I didn't look but a minute before he seemed to wake up, and he caught at it and hid it in his clothes. Well, I went and sat down, and I grew kind o' sleepy over the fire; but pretty soon I heard him speak out very clear, and kind o' surprised, in a tongue I didn't understand, and I looked round."

"Well, you see, he kept tossing and throwing off his clothes, and I kept getting up to straighten them; and once he threw out his arms, and something shiny fell onto the pillow. I went over to look, and it was a locket he wore by a ribbon around his neck. It was a woman—really beautiful—and she was wearing a low-cut black dress, the kind they used to call Marie Louise, and she had a string of pearls around her neck, with her hair curled and pearls in it, and very wide blue eyes. I didn’t look for more than a minute before he seemed to wake up, grabbed it, and hid it in his clothes. So, I went and sat down, and I started to feel a bit sleepy by the fire; but pretty soon I heard him speak clearly, almost surprised, in a language I didn't understand, and I looked around."

Miss Roxy here made a pause, and put another lump of sugar into her tea.

Miss Roxy paused here and added another sugar cube to her tea.

"Well?" said Mrs. Kittridge, ready to burst with curiosity.

"Well?" Mrs. Kittridge asked, bursting with curiosity.

"Well, now, I don't like to tell about these 'ere things, and you mustn't never speak about it; but as sure as you live, Polly Kittridge, I see that ar very woman standin'[Pg 72] at the back of the bed, right in the partin' of the curtains, jist as she looked in the pictur'—blue eyes and curly hair and pearls on her neck, and black dress."

"Well, I don’t really like to talk about these things, and you should never mention it; but I swear, Polly Kittridge, I saw that very woman standing[Pg 72] at the back of the bed, right in the middle of the curtains, just like she looked in the picture—blue eyes and curly hair, pearls around her neck, and a black dress."

"What did you do?" said Mrs. Kittridge.

"What did you do?" Mrs. Kittridge asked.

"Do? Why, I jist held my breath and looked, and in a minute it kind o' faded away, and I got up and went to the bed, but the man was gone. He lay there with the pleasantest smile on his face that ever you see; and I woke up Ruey, and told her about it."

"Do? Well, I just held my breath and looked, and in a minute it kind of faded away, so I got up and went to the bed, but the man was gone. He lay there with the sweetest smile on his face that you ever saw; and I woke Ruey up and told her about it."

Mrs. Kittridge drew a long breath. "What do you think it was?"

Mrs. Kittridge took a deep breath. "What do you think it was?"

"Well," said Miss Roxy, "I know what I think, but I don't think best to tell. I told Doctor Meritts, and he said there were more things in heaven and earth than folks knew about—and so I think."

"Well," said Miss Roxy, "I know what I think, but I don't think it's best to say. I told Doctor Meritts, and he said there were more things in heaven and earth than people knew about—and that’s what I believe."


Meanwhile, on this same evening, the little Mara frisked like a household fairy round the hearth of Zephaniah Pennel.

Meanwhile, on that same evening, little Mara danced around the fireplace of Zephaniah Pennel like a playful fairy.

The boy was a strong-limbed, merry-hearted little urchin, and did full justice to the abundant hospitalities of Mrs. Pennel's tea-table; and after supper little Mara employed herself in bringing apronful after apronful of her choicest treasures, and laying them down at his feet. His great black eyes flashed with pleasure, and he gamboled about the hearth with his new playmate in perfect forgetfulness, apparently, of all the past night of fear and anguish.

The boy was a strong-limbed, cheerful little kid, and he thoroughly enjoyed the generous treats at Mrs. Pennel's tea table. After dinner, little Mara busied herself bringing apronful after apronful of her favorite treasures and laying them at his feet. His big, dark eyes lit up with joy, and he played around the fire with his new friend, seemingly oblivious to the fear and anguish of the previous night.

When the great family Bible was brought out for prayers, and little Mara composed herself on a low stool by her grandmother's side, he, however, did not conduct himself as a babe of grace. He resisted all Miss Ruey's efforts to make him sit down beside her, and stood staring with his great, black, irreverent eyes during the Bible-reading, and laughed out in the most inappropriate manner when the psalm-singing began, and seemed disposed to mingle incoherent remarks of his own even in the prayers.[Pg 73]

When the big family Bible was taken out for prayers, and little Mara settled down on a low stool next to her grandma, he didn’t behave like a sweet kid at all. He pushed away all of Miss Ruey's attempts to get him to sit next to her, and just stood there staring with his big, dark, disrespectful eyes during the Bible reading. He even burst out laughing at the most inappropriate times when the psalm singing started and seemed ready to throw in random comments of his own during the prayers.[Pg 73]

"This is a pretty self-willed youngster," said Miss Ruey, as they rose from the exercises, "and I shouldn't think he'd been used to religious privileges."

"This is quite a headstrong young one," said Miss Ruey, as they finished the exercises, "and I wouldn't think he was accustomed to religious freedoms."

"Perhaps not," said Zephaniah Pennel; "but who can say but what this providence is a message of the Lord to us—such as Pharaoh's daughter sent about Moses, 'Take this child, and bring him up for me'?"

"Maybe not," Zephaniah Pennel said, "but who can say that this situation isn't a message from the Lord for us—just like Pharaoh's daughter sent for Moses, 'Take this child and raise him for me'?"

"I'd like to take him, if I thought I was capable," said Mrs. Pennel, timidly. "It seems a real providence to give Mara some company; the poor child pines so for want of it."

"I'd like to take him, if I thought I could," Mrs. Pennel said softly. "It feels like a true blessing to give Mara some company; the poor girl is really suffering from loneliness."

"Well, then, Mary, if you say so, we will bring him up with our little Mara," said Zephaniah, drawing the child toward him. "May the Lord bless him!" he added, laying his great brown hands on the shining black curls of the child.

"Alright, Mary, if that's what you think, we'll raise him alongside our little Mara," said Zephaniah, pulling the child closer. "May the Lord bless him!" he added, placing his large brown hands on the child's shiny black curls.


CHAPTER IX

MOSES

[Pg 74]Sunday morning rose clear and bright on Harpswell Bay. The whole sea was a waveless, blue looking-glass, streaked with bands of white, and flecked with sailing cloud-shadows from the skies above. Orr's Island, with its blue-black spruces, its silver firs, its golden larches, its scarlet sumachs, lay on the bosom of the deep like a great many-colored gem on an enchanted mirror. A vague, dreamlike sense of rest and Sabbath stillness seemed to brood in the air. The very spruce-trees seemed to know that it was Sunday, and to point solemnly upward with their dusky fingers; and the small tide-waves that chased each other up on the shelly beach, or broke against projecting rocks, seemed to do it with a chastened decorum, as if each blue-haired wave whispered to his brother, "Be still—be still."

[Pg 74]Sunday morning dawned clear and bright over Harpswell Bay. The entire sea looked like a calm, blue mirror, streaked with white bands and dotted with sailing cloud shadows from above. Orr's Island, with its dark blue spruces, silver firs, golden larches, and red sumacs, rested on the deep like a colorful gem on an enchanted mirror. There was a vague, dreamlike feeling of peace and stillness in the air, as if the very spruce trees sensed it was Sunday and pointed solemnly upward with their dark branches. The small waves that chased each other onto the sandy beach, or broke against the rocks, seemed to do so with a respectful decorum, as if each blue wave quietly told its neighbor, "Be still—be still."

Yes, Sunday it was along all the beautiful shores of Maine—netted in green and azure by its thousand islands, all glorious with their majestic pines, all musical and silvery with the caresses of the sea-waves, that loved to wander and lose themselves in their numberless shelly coves and tiny beaches among their cedar shadows.

Yes, Sunday it was along all the beautiful shores of Maine—intertwined in green and blue by its thousand islands, all glorious with their majestic pines, all musical and silvery with the touch of the sea waves, which loved to roam and get lost in their countless shelly coves and small beaches among their cedar shadows.

Not merely as a burdensome restraint, or a weary endurance, came the shadow of that Puritan Sabbath. It brought with it all the sweetness that belongs to rest, all the sacredness that hallows home, all the memories of patient thrift, of sober order, of chastened yet intense family feeling, of calmness, purity, and self-respecting dignity[Pg 75] which distinguish the Puritan household. It seemed a solemn pause in all the sights and sounds of earth. And he whose moral nature was not yet enough developed to fill the blank with visions of heaven was yet wholesomely instructed by his weariness into the secret of his own spiritual poverty.

Not just as a heavy burden or a tiring endurance, the shadow of that Puritan Sabbath brought all the sweetness of rest, all the sacredness that blesses home, and all the memories of careful saving, of organized living, of a deep yet restrained family bond, of tranquility, purity, and self-respecting dignity[Pg 75] that defined the Puritan household. It felt like a serious pause amid all the sights and sounds of the world. And even someone whose moral character wasn't developed enough to imagine heavenly visions was still healthily reminded by his fatigue of his own spiritual emptiness.

Zephaniah Pennel, in his best Sunday clothes, with his hard visage glowing with a sort of interior tenderness, ministered this morning at his family-altar—one of those thousand priests of God's ordaining that tend the sacred fire in as many families of New England. He had risen with the morning star and been forth to meditate, and came in with his mind softened and glowing. The trance-like calm of earth and sea found a solemn answer with him, as he read what a poet wrote by the sea-shores of the Mediterranean, ages ago: "Bless the Lord, O my soul. O Lord my God, thou art very great; thou art clothed with honor and majesty. Who coverest thyself with light as with a garment: who stretchest out the heavens like a curtain: who layeth the beams of his chambers in the waters: who maketh the clouds his chariot: who walketh upon the wings of the wind. The trees of the Lord are full of sap; the cedars of Lebanon, which he hath planted; where the birds make their nests; as for the stork, the fir-trees are her house. O Lord, how manifold are thy works! in wisdom hast thou made them all."

Zephaniah Pennel, dressed in his best Sunday clothes, with his tough face glowing with a kind of inner warmth, led his family in worship this morning—one of the countless priests chosen by God who keep the sacred flame alive in many families across New England. He had risen with the morning star to reflect and returned with his mind softened and inspired. The tranquil calm of the earth and sea resonated with him as he read what a poet wrote by the Mediterranean shores long ago: "Bless the Lord, O my soul. O Lord my God, you are very great; you are clothed with honor and majesty. You wrap yourself in light like a garment; you stretch out the heavens like a curtain; you set the beams of your chambers in the waters; you make the clouds your chariot; you ride on the wings of the wind. The trees of the Lord are full of sap; the cedars of Lebanon, which he has planted; where the birds build their nests; as for the stork, the fir trees are her home. O Lord, how numerous are your works! In wisdom, you have made them all."

Ages ago the cedars that the poet saw have rotted into dust, and from their cones have risen generations of others, wide-winged and grand. But the words of that poet have been wafted like seed to our days, and sprung up in flowers of trust and faith in a thousand households.

A long time ago, the cedars that the poet saw have turned to dust, and from their cones, generations of new ones have grown, big and majestic. But the poet's words have been carried like seeds to our time and have blossomed into trust and faith in thousands of homes.

"Well, now," said Miss Ruey, when the morning rite was over, "Mis' Pennel, I s'pose you and the Cap'n will be wantin' to go to the meetin', so don't you gin yourse'ves a mite of trouble about the children, for I'll stay at[Pg 76] home with 'em. The little feller was starty and fretful in his sleep last night, and didn't seem to be quite well."

"Well, now," said Miss Ruey, when the morning ceremony was over, "Mrs. Pennel, I guess you and the Captain will want to go to the meeting, so don't you worry about the kids at all, because I'll stay home with them. The little guy was restless and fussy in his sleep last night, and he didn’t seem to be feeling quite right."

"No wonder, poor dear," said Mrs. Pennel; "it's a wonder children can forget as they do."

"No surprise, poor thing," said Mrs. Pennel; "it's amazing how children can forget things so easily."

"Yes," said Miss Ruey; "you know them lines in the 'English Reader,'—

"Yes," said Miss Ruey; "you know those lines in the 'English Reader,'—

'Gay hope is theirs by fancy led,
Least pleasing when possessed;
The tear forgot as soon as shed,
The sunshine of the breast.'

'Happy hope is theirs, guided by imagination,
Least enjoyable when grasped;
The tear is forgotten almost immediately after it's shed,
The warmth of the heart.

Them lines all'ys seemed to me affectin'."

Them lines always seemed to me affecting.

Miss Ruey's sentiment was here interrupted by a loud cry from the bedroom, and something between a sneeze and a howl.

Miss Ruey's thought was interrupted by a loud cry from the bedroom, sounding like a mix between a sneeze and a howl.

"Massy! what is that ar young un up to!" she exclaimed, rushing into the adjoining bedroom.

"Wow! What is that kid up to?" she exclaimed, rushing into the next bedroom.

There stood the young Master Hopeful of our story, with streaming eyes and much-bedaubed face, having just, after much labor, succeeded in making Miss Ruey's snuff-box fly open, which he did with such force as to send the contents in a perfect cloud into eyes, nose, and mouth. The scene of struggling and confusion that ensued cannot be described. The washings, and wipings, and sobbings, and exhortings, and the sympathetic sobs of the little Mara, formed a small tempest for the time being that was rather appalling.

There stood the young Master Hopeful of our story, with tear-filled eyes and a messy face, having just, after a lot of effort, managed to make Miss Ruey's snuff-box fly open, doing it with such force that the contents erupted into a perfect cloud into his eyes, nose, and mouth. The scene of chaos and confusion that followed is beyond words. The washing, wiping, sobbing, and pleading, along with the sympathetic cries of little Mara, created a small whirlwind of chaos for the moment that was quite overwhelming.

"Well, this 'ere's a youngster that's a-goin' to make work," said Miss Ruey, when all things were tolerably restored. "Seems to make himself at home first thing."

"Well, this here is a kid who's going to make a difference," said Miss Ruey, once everything was mostly back in order. "He really knows how to settle in right away."

"Poor little dear," said Mrs. Pennel, in the excess of loving-kindness, "I hope he will; he's welcome, I'm sure."

"Poor little dear," said Mrs. Pennel, with so much love, "I hope he will; he's definitely welcome."

"Not to my snuff-box," said Miss Ruey, who had felt herself attacked in a very tender point.

"Not to my snuff-box," said Miss Ruey, who felt personally attacked on a very sensitive issue.

"He's got the notion of lookin' into things pretty early," said Captain Pennel, with an indulgent smile.[Pg 77]

"He's got the idea of checking things out pretty early," said Captain Pennel, with a knowing smile.[Pg 77]

"Well, Aunt Ruey," said Mrs. Pennel, when this disturbance was somewhat abated, "I feel kind o' sorry to deprive you of your privileges to-day."

"Well, Aunt Ruey," Mrs. Pennel said, as the commotion settled down a bit, "I feel a bit sorry to take away your privileges today."

"Oh! never mind me," said Miss Ruey, briskly. "I've got the big Bible, and I can sing a hymn or two by myself. My voice ain't quite what it used to be, but then I get a good deal of pleasure out of it." Aunt Ruey, it must be known, had in her youth been one of the foremost leaders in the "singers' seats," and now was in the habit of speaking of herself much as a retired prima donna might, whose past successes were yet in the minds of her generation.

"Oh! don’t

After giving a look out of the window, to see that the children were within sight, she opened the big Bible at the story of the ten plagues of Egypt, and adjusting her horn spectacles with a sort of sideway twist on her little pug nose, she seemed intent on her Sunday duties. A moment after she looked up and said, "I don't know but I must send a message by you over to Mis' Deacon Badger, about a worldly matter, if 'tis Sunday; but I've been thinkin', Mis' Pennel, that there'll have to be clothes made up for this 'ere child next week, and so perhaps Roxy and I had better stop here a day or two longer, and you tell Mis' Badger that we'll come to her a Wednesday, and so she'll have time to have that new press-board done,—the old one used to pester me so."

After glancing out the window to make sure the kids were in view, she opened the big Bible to the story of the ten plagues of Egypt. Adjusting her horn-rimmed glasses with a slight tilt on her little pug nose, she focused on her Sunday tasks. A moment later, she looked up and said, "I feel like I should send a message to Mrs. Deacon Badger about a worldly issue, even if it is Sunday. But I've been thinking, Mrs. Pennel, that we’ll need to get some clothes made for this child next week. So maybe Roxy and I should stay here a day or two longer, and you can let Mrs. Badger know that we’ll come to her on Wednesday. That way, she’ll have time to get that new pressboard ready—the old one used to bother me so much."

"Well, I'll remember," said Mrs. Pennel.

"Okay, I'll remember," Mrs. Pennel said.

"It seems a'most impossible to prevent one's thoughts wanderin' Sundays," said Aunt Ruey; "but I couldn't help a-thinkin' I could get such a nice pair o' trousers out of them old Sunday ones of the Cap'n's in the garret. I was a-lookin' at 'em last Thursday, and thinkin' what a pity 'twas you hadn't nobody to cut down for; but this 'ere young un's going to be such a tearer, he'll want somethin' real stout; but I'll try and put it out of my mind[Pg 78] till Monday. Mis' Pennel, you'll be sure to ask Mis' Titcomb how Harriet's toothache is, and whether them drops cured her that I gin her last Sunday; and ef you'll jist look in a minute at Major Broad's, and tell 'em to use bayberry wax for his blister, it's so healin'; and do jist ask if Sally's baby's eye-tooth has come through yet."

"It almost seems impossible to keep your mind from wandering on Sundays," said Aunt Ruey. "But I can't help thinking that I could get a nice pair of trousers out of those old Sunday ones of the Captain's in the attic. I was looking at them last Thursday and thought it was such a shame you didn't have anyone to make them for; but this young one is going to be such a handful, he'll need something really durable. Still, I'll try to put it out of my mind until Monday. Mrs. Pennel, make sure to ask Mrs. Titcomb how Harriet's toothache is doing, and whether those drops I gave her last Sunday worked. And if you could just take a moment to check in with Major Broad and tell him to use bayberry wax for his blister; it's very healing. Oh, and do ask if Sally's baby's eye-tooth has come in yet."

"Well, Aunt Ruey, I'll try to remember all," said Mrs. Pennel, as she stood at the glass in her bedroom, carefully adjusting the respectable black silk shawl over her shoulders, and tying her neat bonnet-strings.

"Well, Aunt Ruey, I’ll do my best to remember everything," said Mrs. Pennel, as she stood at the mirror in her bedroom, carefully draping the respectable black silk shawl over her shoulders and tying her neat bonnet strings.

"I s'pose," said Aunt Ruey, "that the notice of the funeral'll be gin out after sermon."

"I guess," said Aunt Ruey, "that the notice for the funeral will be given out after the sermon."

"Yes, I think so," said Mrs. Pennel.

"Yeah, I think so," said Mrs. Pennel.

"It's another loud call," said Miss Ruey, "and I hope it will turn the young people from their thoughts of dress and vanity,—there's Mary Jane Sanborn was all took up with gettin' feathers and velvet for her fall bonnet. I don't think I shall get no bonnet this year till snow comes. My bonnet's respectable enough,—don't you think so?"

"It's another loud call," Miss Ruey said, "and I hope it will distract the young people from their obsession with fashion and vanity. Mary Jane Sanborn was completely focused on getting feathers and velvet for her fall bonnet. I don't think I'll get a bonnet this year until it snows. My bonnet is respectable enough—don't you think so?"

"Certainly, Aunt Ruey, it looks very well."

"Of course, Aunt Ruey, it looks great."

"Well, I'll have the pork and beans and brown-bread all hot on table agin you come back," said Miss Ruey, "and then after dinner we'll all go down to the funeral together. Mis' Pennel, there's one thing on my mind,—what you goin' to call this 'ere boy?"

"Alright, I’ll have the pork and beans and brown bread all hot and ready on the table for you when you get back," said Miss Ruey, "and then after dinner, we’ll all go down to the funeral together. Mrs. Pennel, there’s something I need to know—what are you going to name this boy?"

"Father and I've been thinkin' that over," said Mrs. Pennel.

"Father and I have been thinking about that," said Mrs. Pennel.

"Wouldn't think of giv'n him the Cap'n's name?" said Aunt Ruey.

"Are you really not going to give him the Captain's name?" said Aunt Ruey.

"He must have a name of his own," said Captain Pennel. "Come here, sonny," he called to the child, who was playing just beside the door.

"He needs to have his own name," said Captain Pennel. "Come here, kid," he called to the child, who was playing right next to the door.

The child lowered his head, shook down his long black curls, and looked through them as elfishly as a Skye terrier, but showed no inclination to come.[Pg 79]

The kid dropped his head, let his long black curls fall, and peered through them with a mischievous look, like a Skye terrier, but didn’t seem interested in coming over.[Pg 79]

"One thing he hasn't learned, evidently," said Captain Pennel, "and that is to mind."

"One thing he hasn't learned, obviously," said Captain Pennel, "and that is to pay attention."

"Here!" he said, turning to the boy with a little of the tone he had used of old on the quarter-deck, and taking his small hand firmly.

"Here!" he said, turning to the boy with a hint of the tone he had once used on the quarter-deck, and taking his small hand firmly.

The child surrendered, and let the good man lift him on his knee and stroke aside the clustering curls; the boy then looked fixedly at him with his great gloomy black eyes, his little firm-set mouth and bridled chin,—a perfect little miniature of proud manliness.

The child gave in and allowed the kind man to lift him onto his knee and brush aside his curly hair; the boy then stared at him with his big, dark, sad eyes, his small, determined mouth, and his poised chin—a perfect little replica of proud manliness.

"What's your name, little boy?"

"What's your name, kid?"

The great eyes continued looking in the same solemn quiet.

The big eyes kept staring with the same serious calm.

"Law, he don't understand a word," said Zephaniah, putting his hand kindly on the child's head; "our tongue is all strange to him. Kittridge says he's a Spanish child; may be from the West Indies; but nobody knows,—we never shall know his name."

"Law, he doesn't understand a word," said Zephaniah, placing his hand gently on the child's head; "our language is completely foreign to him. Kittridge says he's a Spanish kid; maybe from the West Indies; but nobody knows—we'll never find out his name."

"Well, I dare say it was some Popish nonsense or other," said Aunt Ruey; "and now he's come to a land of Christian privileges, we ought to give him a good Scripture name, and start him well in the world."

"Well, I can’t help but think it was some Catholic nonsense or something," said Aunt Ruey; "and now that he's in a place of Christian freedoms, we should give him a good biblical name and set him up right in the world."

"Let's call him Moses," said Zephaniah, "because we drew him out of the water."

"Let’s call him Moses," said Zephaniah, "since we pulled him out of the water."

"Now, did I ever!" said Miss Ruey; "there's something in the Bible to fit everything, ain't there?"

"Now, did I ever!" said Miss Ruey; "there's something in the Bible for everything, isn't there?"

"I like Moses, because I had a brother of that name," said Mrs. Pennel.

"I like Moses because I had a brother with that name," said Mrs. Pennel.

The child had slid down from his protector's knee, and stood looking from one to the other gravely while this discussion was going on. What change of destiny was then going on for him in this simple formula of adoption, none could tell; but, surely, never orphan stranded on a foreign shore found home with hearts more true and loving.[Pg 80]

The child had slid down from his protector's knee and stood there, looking from one person to the other with a serious expression while this discussion was happening. No one could say what change of fate was unfolding for him in this straightforward adoption process, but surely, no orphan lost on a foreign shore ever found a home with hearts more genuine and loving.[Pg 80]

"Well, wife, I suppose we must be goin'," said Zephaniah.

"Well, honey, I guess we should get going," said Zephaniah.

About a stone's throw from the open door, the little fishing-craft lay courtesying daintily on the small tide-waves that came licking up the white pebbly shore. Mrs. Pennel seated herself in the end of the boat, and a pretty placid picture she was, with her smooth, parted hair, her modest, cool, drab bonnet, and her bright hazel eyes, in which was the Sabbath calm of a loving and tender heart. Zephaniah loosed the sail, and the two children stood on the beach and saw them go off. A pleasant little wind carried them away, and back on the breeze came the sound of Zephaniah's Sunday-morning psalm:—

About a stone's throw from the open door, the small fishing boat gently rocked on the tiny waves that lapped at the white pebbly shore. Mrs. Pennel settled herself at the end of the boat, looking quite serene with her smooth, parted hair, her simple, cool, gray bonnet, and her bright hazel eyes, which reflected the peacefulness of a loving and tender heart. Zephaniah untied the sail, and the two kids stood on the beach and watched them set off. A nice little breeze carried them away, and they could hear Zephaniah's Sunday morning hymn coming back on the wind:—

"Lord, in the morning thou shalt hear
My voice ascending high;
To thee will I direct my prayer,
To thee lift up mine eye.

"Unto thy house will I resort.
To taste thy mercies there;
I will frequent thy holy court,
And worship in thy fear."

"Lord, in the morning you will hear
My voice rising high;
I will direct my prayer to you,
I will lift my eyes to you.

"I will go to your house.
To experience your kindness there;
I will visit your holy court,
And worship you with respect.

The surface of the glassy bay was dotted here and there with the white sails of other little craft bound for the same point and for the same purpose. It was as pleasant a sight as one might wish to see.

The surface of the smooth bay was scattered with the white sails of other small boats heading to the same destination and for the same reason. It was a truly lovely sight to behold.

Left in charge of the house, Miss Ruey drew a long breath, took a consoling pinch of snuff, sang "Bridgewater" in an uncommonly high key, and then began reading in the prophecies. With her good head full of the "daughter of Zion" and the house of Israel and Judah, she was recalled to terrestrial things by loud screams from the barn, accompanied by a general flutter and cackling among the hens.

Left in charge of the house, Miss Ruey took a deep breath, had a soothing pinch of snuff, sang "Bridgewater" in an unusually high pitch, and then started reading the prophecies. With her mind full of the "daughter of Zion" and the house of Israel and Judah, she was brought back to reality by loud screams from the barn, accompanied by general chaos and clucking among the hens.

Away plodded the good soul, and opening the barn-door saw the little boy perched on the top of the hay-mow, screaming and shrieking,—his face the picture of dismay,[Pg 81]—while poor little Mara's cries came in a more muffled manner from some unexplored lower region. In fact, she was found to have slipped through a hole in the hay-mow into the nest of a very domestic sitting-hen, whose clamors at the invasion of her family privacy added no little to the general confusion.

Away trudged the good soul, and when he opened the barn door, he saw the little boy sitting on top of the haystack, screaming and crying—his face a picture of shock,[Pg 81]—while poor little Mara's cries came from somewhere below in a more muffled tone. In fact, she had managed to slip through a hole in the haystack and ended up in the nest of a very protective hen, whose squawking about the invasion of her family privacy only added to the overall chaos.

The little princess, whose nicety as to her dress and sensitiveness as to anything unpleasant about her pretty person we have seen, was lifted up streaming with tears and broken eggs, but otherwise not seriously injured, having fallen on the very substantial substratum of hay which Dame Poulet had selected as the foundation of her domestic hopes.

The little princess, who was very particular about her dress and sensitive to anything that might mess with her pretty appearance, was picked up crying and covered in broken eggs, but otherwise not seriously hurt, having fallen on the solid layer of hay that Dame Poulet had chosen as the base for her domestic dreams.

"Well, now, did I ever!" said Miss Ruey, when she had ascertained that no bones were broken; "if that ar young un isn't a limb! I declare for't I pity Mis' Pennel,—she don't know what she's undertook. How upon 'arth the critter managed to get Mara on to the hay, I'm sure I can't tell,—that ar little thing never got into no such scrapes before."

"Well, look at that!" said Miss Ruey, once she confirmed that there were no broken bones. "If that kid isn’t a handful! I really feel for Mrs. Pennel—she has no idea what she’s getting into. How on earth that little one got Mara onto the hay, I have no clue—she’s never gotten into such troubles before."

Far from seeming impressed with any wholesome remorse of conscience, the little culprit frowned fierce defiance at Miss Ruey, when, after having repaired the damages of little Mara's toilet, she essayed the good old plan of shutting him into the closet. He fought and struggled so fiercely that Aunt Ruey's carroty frisette came off in the skirmish, and her head-gear, always rather original, assumed an aspect verging on the supernatural. Miss Ruey thought of Philistines and Moabites, and all the other terrible people she had been reading about that morning, and came as near getting into a passion with the little elf as so good-humored and Christian an old body could possibly do. Human virtue is frail, and every one has some vulnerable point. The old Roman senator could not control himself when his beard was invaded, and the like sensitiveness[Pg 82] resides in an old woman's cap; and when young master irreverently clawed off her Sunday best, Aunt Ruey, in her confusion of mind, administered a sound cuff on either ear.

Far from looking remorseful, the little troublemaker glared defiantly at Miss Ruey when she tried the old tactic of locking him in the closet after fixing little Mara’s dress. He fought so hard that Aunt Ruey's curly wig came off in the struggle, leaving her hairstyle, which was already a bit unusual, looking almost otherworldly. Miss Ruey thought about the Philistines and Moabites and all those other terrible people she had been reading about that morning, and she nearly lost her temper with the little brat, which was quite a feat for such a good-natured and kind-hearted woman. Human nature is fragile, and everyone has a weak spot. The old Roman senator couldn't keep his cool when his beard was touched, and similarly, the sensitivity lies in an old woman's cap; when the young master rudely yanked off her best Sunday hat, Aunt Ruey, in her fluster, gave him a solid smack on each ear.

Little Mara, who had screamed loudly through the whole scene, now conceiving that her precious new-found treasure was endangered, flew at poor Miss Ruey with both little hands; and throwing her arms round her "boy," as she constantly called him, she drew him backward, and looked defiance at the common enemy. Miss Ruey was dumb-struck.

Little Mara, who had been screaming loudly throughout the entire scene, now realizing that her precious new treasure was in danger, charged at poor Miss Ruey with both small hands; and wrapping her arms around her "boy," as she always referred to him, she pulled him back and glared defiantly at the common enemy. Miss Ruey was speechless.

"I declare for't, I b'lieve he's bewitched her," she said, stupefied, having never seen anything like the martial expression which now gleamed from those soft brown eyes. "Why, Mara dear,—putty little Mara."

"I swear, I think he’s put a spell on her," she said, shocked, having never seen anything like the fierce expression that now shone from those soft brown eyes. "Oh, Mara dear—sweet little Mara."

But Mara was busy wiping away the angry tears that stood on the hot, glowing cheeks of the boy, and offering her little rosebud of a mouth to kiss him, as she stood on tiptoe.

But Mara was busy wiping away the angry tears that sat on the hot, glowing cheeks of the boy and offering her little rosebud of a mouth to kiss him as she stood on tiptoe.

"Poor boy,—no kie,—Mara's boy," she said; "Mara love boy;" and then giving an angry glance at Aunt Ruey, who sat much disheartened and confused, she struck out her little pearly hand, and cried, "Go way,—go way, naughty!"

"Poor boy—no key—Mara's boy," she said; "Mara loves the boy;" and then giving an angry look at Aunt Ruey, who sat feeling very discouraged and confused, she stretched out her little pearly hand and shouted, "Go away—go away, naughty!"

The child jabbered unintelligibly and earnestly to Mara, and she seemed to have the air of being perfectly satisfied with his view of the case, and both regarded Miss Ruey with frowning looks. Under these peculiar circumstances, the good soul began to bethink her of some mode of compromise, and going to the closet took out a couple of slices of cake, which she offered to the little rebels with pacificatory words.

The child babbled excitedly and earnestly to Mara, and she seemed completely satisfied with his perspective. They both looked at Miss Ruey with disapproving glances. In light of this unusual situation, the kind-hearted woman started to think of a way to make peace, and she went to the closet to get a couple of slices of cake, which she offered to the little troublemakers with soothing words.

Mara was appeased at once, and ran to Aunt Ruey; but the boy struck the cake out of her hand, and looked at her with steady defiance. The little one picked it up, and with much chippering and many little feminine manœuvres,[Pg 83] at last succeeded in making him taste it, after which appetite got the better of his valorous resolutions,—he ate and was comforted; and after a little time, the three were on the best possible footing. And Miss Ruey having smoothed her hair, and arranged her frisette and cap, began to reflect upon herself as the cause of the whole disturbance. If she had not let them run while she indulged in reading and singing, this would not have happened. So the toilful good soul kept them at her knee for the next hour or two, while they looked through all the pictures in the old family Bible.

Mara was calmed immediately and ran to Aunt Ruey; but the boy knocked the cake out of her hand and stared at her defiantly. The little one picked it up and, with lots of chatter and little feminine moves,[Pg 83] finally got him to taste it. After that, his hunger overcame his brave resolve—he ate and felt better; soon, the three were getting along great. Miss Ruey, having fixed her hair and adjusted her frizz and cap, started to think of herself as the reason for the whole fuss. If she hadn’t let them run around while she was busy reading and singing, this wouldn’t have happened. So the hardworking good soul kept them by her side for the next hour or two, as they looked through all the pictures in the old family Bible.


The evening of that day witnessed a crowded funeral in the small rooms of Captain Kittridge. Mrs. Kittridge was in her glory. Solemn and lugubrious to the last degree, she supplied in her own proper person the want of the whole corps of mourners, who generally attract sympathy on such occasions. But what drew artless pity from all was the unconscious orphan, who came in, led by Mrs. Pennel by the one hand, and with the little Mara by the other.

The evening of that day saw a packed funeral in the small rooms of Captain Kittridge. Mrs. Kittridge was in her element. Serious and sorrowful to the extreme, she filled the role of the entire group of mourners, who usually draw sympathy in situations like this. But what elicited genuine pity from everyone was the innocent orphan, who entered, being led by Mrs. Pennel with one hand and holding little Mara with the other.

The simple rite of baptism administered to the wondering little creature so strongly recalled that other scene three years before, that Mrs. Pennel hid her face in her handkerchief, and Zephaniah's firm hand shook a little as he took the boy to offer him to the rite. The child received the ceremony with a look of grave surprise, put up his hand quickly and wiped the holy drops from his brow, as if they annoyed him; and shrinking back, seized hold of the gown of Mrs. Pennel. His great beauty, and, still more, the air of haughty, defiant firmness with which he regarded the company, drew all eyes, and many were the whispered comments.

The simple act of baptism performed on the curious little one reminded Mrs. Pennel so much of a similar occasion three years earlier that she buried her face in her handkerchief, and Zephaniah's steady hand trembled slightly as he presented the boy for the ceremony. The child met the ritual with a look of serious surprise, quickly lifted his hand to wipe the holy water off his forehead, as if it bothered him; then he pulled back and grabbed onto Mrs. Pennel's gown. His remarkable beauty, and even more so, the proud, defiant way he looked at everyone, caught the attention of all, leading to plenty of whispered comments.

"Pennel'll have his hands full with that ar chap," said Captain Kittridge to Miss Roxy.[Pg 84]

"Pennel will be busy with that guy," said Captain Kittridge to Miss Roxy.[Pg 84]

Mrs. Kittridge darted an admonitory glance at her husband, to remind him that she was looking at him, and immediately he collapsed into solemnity.

Mrs. Kittridge shot a warning look at her husband to let him know she was watching him, and right away he turned serious.

The evening sunbeams slanted over the blackberry bushes and mullein stalks of the graveyard, when the lonely voyager was lowered to the rest from which she should not rise till the heavens be no more. As the purple sea at that hour retained no trace of the ships that had furrowed its waves, so of this mortal traveler no trace remained, not even in that infant soul that was to her so passionately dear.

The evening sunlight slanted over the blackberry bushes and mullein stalks of the graveyard, when the lonely traveler was laid to rest from which she wouldn’t rise until the heavens were no more. As the purple sea at that hour held no sign of the ships that had crossed its waves, no sign of this mortal traveler remained, not even in that newborn soul that was so passionately dear to her.


CHAPTER X

THE MINISTER

[Pg 85]Mrs. Kittridge's advantages and immunities resulting from the shipwreck were not yet at an end. Not only had one of the most "solemn providences" known within the memory of the neighborhood fallen out at her door,—not only had the most interesting funeral that had occurred for three or four years taken place in her parlor, but she was still further to be distinguished in having the minister to tea after the performances were all over. To this end she had risen early, and taken down her best china tea-cups, which had been marked with her and her husband's joint initials in Canton, and which only came forth on high and solemn occasions. In view of this probable distinction, on Saturday, immediately after the discovery of the calamity, Mrs. Kittridge had found time to rush to her kitchen, and make up a loaf of pound-cake and some doughnuts, that the great occasion which she foresaw might not find her below her reputation as a forehanded housewife.

[Pg 85]Mrs. Kittridge's advantages and privileges from the shipwreck weren't over yet. Not only had one of the most "serious events" in the neighborhood’s memory happened right at her doorstep—not only had the most notable funeral in the last three or four years taken place in her living room, but she was also set to have the minister over for tea after everything was done. To prepare for this, she woke up early and took out her best china tea cups, which were marked with her and her husband’s initials from Canton, and were only used for significant occasions. Thinking about this special event, on Saturday, right after learning about the disaster, Mrs. Kittridge found time to rush to her kitchen and bake a loaf of pound cake and some doughnuts so that she wouldn’t fall short of her reputation as a prepared housewife.

It was a fine golden hour when the minister and funeral train turned away from the grave. Unlike other funerals, there was no draught on the sympathies in favor of mourners—no wife, or husband, or parent, left a heart in that grave; and so when the rites were all over, they turned with the more cheerfulness back into life, from the contrast of its freshness with those shadows into which, for the hour, they had been gazing.

It was a beautiful golden hour when the minister and the funeral procession turned away from the grave. Unlike other funerals, there were no appeals for sympathy on behalf of the mourners—no spouse, or parent, or child had left a heart in that grave; and so when the rituals were complete, they returned to life with a bit more cheerfulness, contrasting its vibrancy with the shadows they had been focused on for that hour.

The Rev. Theophilus Sewell was one of the few minis[Pg 86]ters who preserved the costume of a former generation, with something of that imposing dignity with which, in earlier times, the habits of the clergy were invested. He was tall and majestic in stature, and carried to advantage the powdered wig and three-cornered hat, the broad-skirted coat, knee-breeches, high shoes, and plated buckles of the ancient costume. There was just a sufficient degree of the formality of olden times to give a certain quaintness to all he said and did. He was a man of a considerable degree of talent, force, and originality, and in fact had been held in his day to be one of the most promising graduates of Harvard University. But, being a good man, he had proposed to himself no higher ambition than to succeed to the pulpit of his father in Harpswell.

The Rev. Theophilus Sewell was one of the few ministers who maintained the attire of an earlier generation, carrying with it a sense of the imposing dignity that the clergy once had. He was tall and impressive, and wore the powdered wig and three-cornered hat, broad-skirted coat, knee-breeches, high shoes, and shiny buckles of the old style with ease. There was just enough formality from the past to give a certain charm to everything he said and did. He was a man of significant talent, strength, and originality, and was considered in his time to be one of the most promising graduates of Harvard University. However, being a good man, he had set no higher ambition for himself than to take over his father's pulpit in Harpswell.

His parish included not only a somewhat scattered seafaring population on the mainland, but also the care of several islands. Like many other of the New England clergy of those times, he united in himself numerous different offices for the benefit of the people whom he served. As there was neither lawyer nor physician in the town, he had acquired by his reading, and still more by his experience, enough knowledge in both these departments to enable him to administer to the ordinary wants of a very healthy and peaceable people.

His parish included not just a somewhat scattered seafaring population on the mainland, but also the care of several islands. Like many other New England ministers of that time, he held multiple roles to benefit the people he served. Since there was neither a lawyer nor a doctor in town, he had gained enough knowledge in both fields through his reading and experience to meet the everyday needs of a very healthy and peaceful community.

It was said that most of the deeds and legal conveyances in his parish were in his handwriting, and in the medical line his authority was only rivaled by that of Miss Roxy, who claimed a very obvious advantage over him in a certain class of cases, from the fact of her being a woman, which was still further increased by the circumstance that the good man had retained steadfastly his bachelor estate. "So, of course," Miss Roxy used to say, "poor man! what could he know about a woman, you know?"

It was said that most of the documents and legal transfers in his parish were written by him, and in the medical field, his expertise was only matched by Miss Roxy, who had a clear advantage in certain cases simply because she was a woman. This advantage was even greater given that the good man had remained a bachelor. "So, of course," Miss Roxy would say, "poor guy! What could he possibly know about women, right?"

This state of bachelorhood gave occasion to much surmising; but when spoken to about it, he was accustomed[Pg 87] to remark with gallantry, that he should have too much regard for any lady whom he could think of as a wife, to ask her to share his straitened circumstances. His income, indeed, consisted of only about two hundred dollars a year; but upon this he and a very brisk, cheerful maiden sister contrived to keep up a thrifty and comfortable establishment, in which everything appeared to be pervaded by a spirit of quaint cheerfulness.

This single life led to a lot of speculation; but when people asked him about it, he would confidently say that he cared too much for any woman he could see as a wife to ask her to share his limited means. His income was only about two hundred dollars a year; yet, with this, he and his lively, cheerful sister managed to maintain a frugal and cozy home, where everything seemed to be filled with a sense of charming happiness.

In fact, the man might be seen to be an original in his way, and all the springs of his life were kept oiled by a quiet humor, which sometimes broke out in playful sparkles, despite the gravity of the pulpit and the awfulness of the cocked hat. He had a placid way of amusing himself with the quaint and picturesque side of life, as it appeared in all his visitings among a very primitive, yet very shrewd-minded people.

In fact, the man could be considered unique in his own way, and all the motivation in his life was fueled by a subtle sense of humor, which occasionally shone through in playful moments, despite the seriousness of the pulpit and the seriousness of the cocked hat. He had a calm way of finding amusement in the quirky and charming aspects of life, especially during his visits with a very simple, yet very clever, group of people.

There are those people who possess a peculiar faculty of mingling in the affairs of this life as spectators as well as actors. It does not, of course, suppose any coldness of nature or want of human interest or sympathy—nay, it often exists most completely with people of the tenderest human feeling. It rather seems to be a kind of distinct faculty working harmoniously with all the others; but he who possesses it needs never to be at a loss for interest or amusement; he is always a spectator at a tragedy or comedy, and sees in real life a humor and a pathos beyond anything he can find shadowed in books.

There are people who have this unique ability to engage in life both as observers and participants. This doesn't indicate any lack of warmth or empathy—on the contrary, it often thrives in those with the deepest human feelings. It appears to be a distinct skill that works well with all the others; someone who has it will never struggle to find interest or entertainment. They’re always an audience to a drama or comedy, witnessing a humor and emotion in real life that far surpasses anything they could encounter in books.

Mr. Sewell sometimes, in his pastoral visitations, took a quiet pleasure in playing upon these simple minds, and amusing himself with the odd harmonies and singular resolutions of chords which started out under his fingers. Surely he had a right to something in addition to his limited salary, and this innocent, unsuspected entertainment helped to make up the balance for his many labors.

Mr. Sewell sometimes found quiet joy during his pastoral visits in engaging these simple minds, amusing himself with the unusual harmonies and unique chord resolutions that emerged under his fingers. Surely he deserved something beyond his modest salary, and this innocent, unnoticed entertainment helped offset the weight of his many responsibilities.

His sister was one of the best-hearted and most unsus[Pg 88]picious of the class of female idolaters, and worshiped her brother with the most undoubting faith and devotion—wholly ignorant of the constant amusement she gave him by a thousand little feminine peculiarities, which struck him with a continual sense of oddity. It was infinitely diverting to him to see the solemnity of her interest in his shirts and stockings, and Sunday clothes, and to listen to the subtle distinctions which she would draw between best and second-best, and every-day; to receive her somewhat prolix admonition how he was to demean himself in respect of the wearing of each one; for Miss Emily Sewell was a gentlewoman, and held rigidly to various traditions of gentility which had been handed down in the Sewell family, and which afforded her brother too much quiet amusement to be disturbed. He would not have overthrown one of her quiddities for the world; it would be taking away a part of his capital in existence.

His sister was one of the kindest and most unsuspecting members of the group of female admirers, and she worshipped her brother with unwavering faith and devotion—completely unaware of the constant amusement she provided him with her countless little quirks that struck him as odd. It was endlessly entertaining for him to witness her serious interest in his shirts and socks, and Sunday outfits, and to hear her elaborate explanations about the differences between his best and second-best clothes, and the everyday ones; to get her somewhat lengthy advice on how he should behave regarding each of them. Miss Emily Sewell was a lady, and she strictly adhered to various traditions of gentility that had been passed down in the Sewell family, which gave her brother too much quiet amusement to ever feel disturbed. He wouldn't have changed any of her peculiarities for anything; it would be like taking away a part of his life.

Miss Emily was a trim, genteel little person, with dancing black eyes, and cheeks which had the roses of youth well dried into them. It was easy to see that she had been quite pretty in her days; and her neat figure, her brisk little vivacious ways, her unceasing good-nature and kindness of heart, still made her an object both of admiration and interest in the parish. She was great in drying herbs and preparing recipes; in knitting and sewing, and cutting and contriving; in saving every possible snip and chip either of food or clothing; and no less liberal was she in bestowing advice and aid in the parish, where she moved about with all the sense of consequence which her brother's position warranted.

Miss Emily was a neat, elegant little woman with sparkling black eyes and cheeks that held the faded pink of youth. It was clear she had been quite beautiful in her younger days, and her tidy figure, lively personality, and constant kindness made her someone both admired and interesting in the community. She excelled at drying herbs and preparing recipes, as well as knitting, sewing, and crafting. She saved every little piece of food or fabric, and she was equally generous in offering advice and assistance in the parish, where she carried herself with the confidence that came from her brother's status.

The fact of his bachelorhood caused his relations to the female part of his flock to be even more shrouded in sacredness and mystery than is commonly the case with the great man of the parish; but Miss Emily delighted to act as interpreter. She was charmed to serve out to the willing[Pg 89] ears of his parish from time to time such scraps of information as regarded his life, habits, and opinions as might gratify their ever new curiosity. Instructed by her, all the good wives knew the difference between his very best long silk stocking and his second best, and how carefully the first had to be kept under lock and key, where he could not get at them; for he was understood, good as he was, to have concealed in him all the thriftless and pernicious inconsiderateness of the male nature, ready at any moment to break out into unheard-of improprieties. But the good man submitted himself to Miss Emily's rule, and suffered himself to be led about by her with an air of half whimsical consciousness.

The fact that he was single made his relationships with the women in his community even more cloaked in mystery than is usually the case with the prominent men in the parish; however, Miss Emily loved to be the go-between. She enjoyed sharing bits of information about his life, habits, and opinions with the curious people of his parish. Thanks to her, all the good wives knew the difference between his best long silk stocking and his second-best one, as well as the importance of keeping the first one locked away, where he couldn't reach it; for, despite his good nature, he was believed to carry all the careless and harmful traits often associated with men, ready at any moment to do something scandalous. But the good man accepted Miss Emily's guidance and let her lead him around with a playful awareness.

Mrs. Kittridge that day had felt the full delicacy of the compliment when she ascertained by a hasty glance, before the first prayer, that the good man had been brought out to her funeral in all his very best things, not excepting the long silk stockings, for she knew the second-best pair by means of a certain skillful darn which Miss Emily had once shown her, which commemorated the spot where a hole had been. The absence of this darn struck to Mrs. Kittridge's heart at once as a delicate attention.

Mrs. Kittridge felt the full weight of the compliment that day when she caught a quick glance, just before the first prayer, confirming that the good man had been dressed in his very best for her funeral, including the long silk stockings. She recognized the second-best pair because of a clever little repair that Miss Emily had once pointed out to her, marking the spot where there had been a hole. The absence of that repair immediately touched Mrs. Kittridge's heart as a thoughtful gesture.

"Mis' Simpkins," said Mrs. Kittridge to her pastor, as they were seated at the tea-table, "told me that she wished when you were going home that you would call in to see Mary Jane; she couldn't come out to the funeral on account of a dreffle sore throat. I was tellin' on her to gargle it with blackberry-root tea—don't you think that is a good gargle, Mr. Sewell?"

"Miss Simpkins," Mrs. Kittridge said to her pastor as they sat at the tea table, "told me she hoped you could stop by to see Mary Jane on your way home; she couldn't make it to the funeral because of a terrible sore throat. I was suggesting she gargle with blackberry root tea—don't you think that's a good gargle, Mr. Sewell?"

"Yes, I think it a very good gargle," replied the minister, gravely.

"Yeah, I think it's a pretty good gargle," replied the minister, seriously.

"Ma'sh rosemary is the gargle that I always use," said Miss Roxy; "it cleans out your throat so."

"Ma'sh rosemary is the rinse that I always use," said Miss Roxy; "it really clears out your throat."

"Marsh rosemary is a very excellent gargle," said Mr. Sewell.[Pg 90]

"Marsh rosemary makes a great gargle," said Mr. Sewell.[Pg 90]

"Why, brother, don't you think that rose leaves and vitriol is a good gargle?" said little Miss Emily; "I always thought that you liked rose leaves and vitriol for a gargle."

"Why, brother, don’t you think rose leaves and vitriol make a good gargle?" said little Miss Emily; "I always thought you liked using rose leaves and vitriol for a gargle."

"So I do," said the imperturbable Mr. Sewell, drinking his tea with the air of a sphinx.

"So I do," said the unruffled Mr. Sewell, sipping his tea with the demeanor of a sphinx.

"Well, now, you'll have to tell which on 'em will be most likely to cure Mary Jane," said Captain Kittridge, "or there'll be a pullin' of caps, I'm thinkin'; or else the poor girl will have to drink them all, which is generally the way."

"Well, now, you’ll need to say which one of them will most likely cure Mary Jane," said Captain Kittridge, "or there’ll be a showdown, I think; or else the poor girl will have to take all of them, which is usually how it goes."

"There won't any of them cure Mary Jane's throat," said the minister, quietly.

"There aren't any of them that will cure Mary Jane's throat," said the minister quietly.

"Why, brother!" "Why, Mr. Sewell!" "Why, you don't!" burst in different tones from each of the women.

"Why, brother!" "Why, Mr. Sewell!" "No way!" came the exclamations from each of the women in different tones.

"I thought you said that blackberry-root tea was good," said Mrs. Kittridge.

"I thought you said blackberry-root tea was good," said Mrs. Kittridge.

"I understood that you 'proved of ma'sh rosemary," said Miss Roxy, touched in her professional pride.

"I realized that you approved of my rosemary," said Miss Roxy, feeling a bit offended in her professional pride.

"And I am sure, brother, that I have heard you say, often and often, that there wasn't a better gargle than rose leaves and vitriol," said Miss Emily.

"And I’m sure, brother, that I’ve heard you say, a lot, that there’s no better gargle than rose leaves and vitriol," said Miss Emily.

"You are quite right, ladies, all of you. I think these are all good gargles—excellent ones."

"You’re absolutely right, ladies, all of you. I believe these are all great gargles—really excellent ones."

"But I thought you said that they didn't do any good?" said all the ladies in a breath.

"But I thought you said they didn't do any good?" said all the ladies in unison.

"No, they don't—not the least in the world," said Mr. Sewell; "but they are all excellent gargles, and as long as people must have gargles, I think one is about as good as another."

"No, they don't—not at all," said Mr. Sewell; "but they are all great gargles, and as long as people need gargles, I think one is just as good as any other."

"Now you have got it," said Captain Kittridge.

"Now you got it," said Captain Kittridge.

"Brother, you do say the strangest things," said Miss Emily.

"Brother, you really say the oddest things," said Miss Emily.

"Well, I must say," said Miss Roxy, "it is a new idea to me, long as I've been nussin', and I nussed through one[Pg 91] season of scarlet fever when sometimes there was five died in one house; and if ma'sh rosemary didn't do good then, I should like to know what did."

"Well, I have to say," said Miss Roxy, "this is a new idea to me, considering I've been a nurse for a long time, and I nursed through one[Pg 91] season of scarlet fever when sometimes five people died in one house; and if mother's rosemary didn't help back then, I'd really like to know what did."

"So would a good many others," said the minister.

"So would a lot of other people," said the minister.

"Law, now, Miss Roxy, you mus'n't mind him. Do you know that I believe he says these sort of things just to hear us talk? Of course he wouldn't think of puttin' his experience against yours."

"Look, Miss Roxy, you shouldn't take him seriously. Do you know I think he says stuff like that just to get us to respond? There's no way he would compare his experience to yours."

"But, Mis' Kittridge," said Miss Emily, with a view of summoning a less controverted subject, "what a beautiful little boy that was, and what a striking providence that brought him into such a good family!"

"But, Miss Kittridge," said Miss Emily, trying to change the subject, "what a beautiful little boy that was, and what a remarkable stroke of fate that brought him into such a good family!"

"Yes," said Mrs. Kittridge; "but I'm sure I don't see what Mary Pennel is goin' to do with that boy, for she ain't got no more government than a twisted tow-string."

"Yes," said Mrs. Kittridge; "but I really don't understand what Mary Pennel is going to do with that boy, because she has as much control as a twisted piece of rope."

"Oh, the Cap'n, he'll lend a hand," said Miss Roxy, "it won't be easy gettin' roun' him; Cap'n bears a pretty steady hand when he sets out to drive."

"Oh, the Cap'n will help out," said Miss Roxy, "it won't be easy getting around him; the Cap'n has a pretty steady hand when he decides to steer."

"Well," said Miss Emily, "I do think that bringin' up children is the most awful responsibility, and I always wonder when I hear that any one dares to undertake it."

"Well," said Miss Emily, "I really think that raising kids is the most terrible responsibility, and I always wonder when I hear that anyone has the nerve to take it on."

"It requires a great deal of resolution, certainly," said Mrs. Kittridge; "I'm sure I used to get a'most discouraged when my boys was young: they was a reg'lar set of wild ass's colts," she added, not perceiving the reflection on their paternity.

"It definitely takes a lot of determination," said Mrs. Kittridge. "I remember feeling almost hopeless when my boys were young; they really were a bunch of wild colts," she added, not realizing the implication about their father.

But the countenance of Mr. Sewell was all aglow with merriment, which did not break into a smile.

But Mr. Sewell's face was lit up with joy, though he didn’t actually smile.

"Wal', Mis' Kittridge," said the Captain, "strikes me that you're gettin' pussonal."

"Well, Miss Kittridge," said the Captain, "it seems to me that you're getting personal."

"No, I ain't neither," said the literal Mrs. Kittridge, ignorant of the cause of the amusement which she saw around her; "but you wa'n't no help to me, you know; you was always off to sea, and the whole wear and tear on't came on me."[Pg 92]

"No, I’m not either," said the straightforward Mrs. Kittridge, unaware of the reason for the laughter surrounding her; "but you weren't any help to me, you know; you were always off at sea, and all the wear and tear fell on me."[Pg 92]

"Well, well, Polly, all's well that ends well; don't you think so, Mr. Sewell?"

"Well, well, Polly, everything is good as long as it ends well; don’t you think so, Mr. Sewell?"

"I haven't much experience in these matters," said Mr. Sewell, politely.

"I don’t have much experience with these things," Mr. Sewell said politely.

"No, indeed, that's what he hasn't, for he never will have a child round the house that he don't turn everything topsy-turvy for them," said Miss Emily.

"No, that's exactly what he doesn't have, because he will never have a child around the house without turning everything upside down for them," said Miss Emily.

"But I was going to remark," said Mr. Sewell, "that a friend of mine said once, that the woman that had brought up six boys deserved a seat among the martyrs; and that is rather my opinion."

"But I was going to say," Mr. Sewell said, "that a friend of mine once mentioned that a woman who raised six boys deserves a spot among the martyrs; and I pretty much agree with that."

"Wal', Polly, if you git up there, I hope you'll keep a seat for me."

"Well, Polly, if you get up there, I hope you'll save a seat for me."

"Cap'n Kittridge, what levity!" said his wife.

"Captain Kittridge, what a joke!" said his wife.

"I didn't begin it, anyhow," said the Captain.

"I didn't start it, anyway," said the Captain.

Miss Emily interposed, and led the conversation back to the subject. "What a pity it is," she said, "that this poor child's family can never know anything about him. There may be those who would give all the world to know what has become of him; and when he comes to grow up, how sad he will feel to have no father and mother!"

Miss Emily interrupted and steered the conversation back to the topic. "What a shame," she said, "that this poor child's family will never know anything about him. There might be people who would give anything to find out what happened to him; and when he grows up, how sad he will be not to have a father and mother!"

"Sister," said Mr. Sewell, "you cannot think that a child brought up by Captain Pennel and his wife would ever feel as without father and mother."

"Sister," Mr. Sewell said, "you can't seriously believe that a child raised by Captain Pennel and his wife would ever feel like they don't have a father and mother."

"Why, no, brother, to be sure not. There's no doubt he will have everything done for him that a child could. But then it's a loss to lose one's real home."

"Of course not, brother. There's no question he'll have everything he needs like a child would. But it's still a shame to lose your true home."

"It may be a gracious deliverance," said Mr. Sewell—"who knows? We may as well take a cheerful view, and think that some kind wave has drifted the child away from an unfortunate destiny to a family where we are quite sure he will be brought up industriously and soberly, and in the fear of God."

"It might be a fortunate rescue," said Mr. Sewell—"who knows? We might as well look on the bright side and believe that some kind fate has led the child away from a difficult future to a family where we're confident he will be raised with hard work, discipline, and in the fear of God."

"Well, I never thought of that," said Miss Roxy.

"Well, I never thought of that," said Miss Roxy.

Miss Emily, looking at her brother, saw that he was[Pg 93] speaking with a suppressed vehemence, as if some inner fountain of recollection at the moment were disturbed. But Miss Emily knew no more of the deeper parts of her brother's nature than a little bird that dips its beak into the sunny waters of some spring knows of its depths of coldness and shadow.

Miss Emily, watching her brother, noticed that he was[Pg 93]speaking with an intense passion, as if some buried memory was stirred up inside him. But Miss Emily understood about her brother's deeper emotions no more than a little bird dipping its beak into the bright waters of a spring understands the cold and shadowy depths beneath.

"Mis' Pennel was a-sayin' to me," said Mrs. Kittridge, "that I should ask you what was to be done about the bracelet they found. We don't know whether 'tis real gold and precious stones, or only glass and pinchbeck. Cap'n Kittridge he thinks it's real; and if 'tis, why then the question is, whether or no to try to sell it, or keep it for the boy agin he grows up. It may help find out who and what he is."

"Ms. Pennel was telling me," said Mrs. Kittridge, "that I should ask you what should be done about the bracelet they found. We don't know if it's real gold and precious stones, or just glass and cheap material. Captain Kittridge thinks it's real; and if it is, then the question is whether to try to sell it or keep it for the boy until he grows up. It might help discover who he is and what his background is."

"And why should he want to find out?" said Mr. Sewell. "Why should he not grow up and think himself the son of Captain and Mrs. Pennel? What better lot could a boy be born to?"

"And why would he want to find out?" Mr. Sewell said. "Why shouldn't he grow up believing he's the son of Captain and Mrs. Pennel? What better life could a boy hope for?"

"That may be, brother, but it can't be kept from him. Everybody knows how he was found, and you may be sure every bird of the air will tell him, and he'll grow up restless and wanting to know. Mis' Kittridge, have you got the bracelet handy?"

"That might be true, brother, but he can't be kept in the dark about it. Everyone knows how he was discovered, and you can bet every bird will eventually tell him, leaving him restless and curious. Miss Kittridge, do you have the bracelet available?"

The fact was, little Miss Emily was just dying with curiosity to set her dancing black eyes upon it.

The truth is, little Miss Emily was absolutely eager to see it for herself with her lively black eyes.

"Here it is," said Mrs. Kittridge, taking it from a drawer.

"Here it is," Mrs. Kittridge said, pulling it out of a drawer.

It was a bracelet of hair, of some curious foreign workmanship. A green enameled serpent, studded thickly with emeralds and with eyes of ruby, was curled around the clasp. A crystal plate covered a wide flat braid of hair, on which the letters "D.M." were curiously embroidered in a cipher of seed pearls. The whole was in style and workmanship quite different from any jewelry which ordinarily meets one's eye.[Pg 94]

It was a bracelet made of hair, crafted in a unique foreign style. A green enameled serpent, heavily adorned with emeralds and with ruby eyes, was wrapped around the clasp. A crystal plate covered a wide flat braid of hair, on which the letters "D.M." were intricately embroidered in a pattern of seed pearls. The entire piece was designed and made in a way that was completely different from any jewelry one usually sees.[Pg 94]

But what was remarkable was the expression in Mr. Sewell's face when this bracelet was put into his hand. Miss Emily had risen from table and brought it to him, leaning over him as she did so, and he turned his head a little to hold it in the light from the window, so that only she remarked the sudden expression of blank surprise and startled recognition which fell upon it. He seemed like a man who chokes down an exclamation; and rising hastily, he took the bracelet to the window, and standing with his back to the company, seemed to examine it with the minutest interest. After a few moments he turned and said, in a very composed tone, as if the subject were of no particular interest,—

But what was impressive was the look on Mr. Sewell's face when this bracelet was handed to him. Miss Emily had gotten up from the table and brought it to him, leaning over him as she did, and he turned his head slightly to hold it up to the light from the window, so only she noticed the sudden look of shock and recognition that crossed his face. He looked like someone who was trying to hold back an exclamation; and after quickly getting up, he took the bracelet to the window and stood with his back to everyone while examining it with intense focus. After a few moments, he turned and said, in a very calm tone, as if the topic wasn’t particularly interesting,—

"It is a singular article, so far as workmanship is concerned. The value of the gems in themselves is not great enough to make it worth while to sell it. It will be worth more as a curiosity than anything else. It will doubtless be an interesting relic to keep for the boy when he grows up."

"It’s a unique piece in terms of craftsmanship. The value of the gems themselves isn’t high enough to make selling it worthwhile. It’s likely to be more valuable as a curiosity than anything else. It will definitely be an intriguing keepsake for the boy when he gets older."

"Well, Mr. Sewell, you keep it," said Mrs. Kittridge; "the Pennels told me to give it into your care."

"Well, Mr. Sewell, you keep it," Mrs. Kittridge said; "the Pennels asked me to give it to you."

"I shall commit it to Emily here; women have a native sympathy with anything in the jewelry line. She'll be sure to lay it up so securely that she won't even know where it is herself."

"I'll leave it with Emily here; women have an instinctive connection to anything related to jewelry. She'll make sure to keep it stored so safely that she won't even remember where it is herself."

"Brother!"

"Bro!"

"Come, Emily," said Mr. Sewell, "your hens will all go to roost on the wrong perch if you are not at home to see to them; so, if the Captain will set us across to Harpswell, I think we may as well be going."

"Come on, Emily," said Mr. Sewell, "your hens will end up on the wrong perch if you’re not home to take care of them; so, if the Captain can take us over to Harpswell, I think we should get going."

"Why, what's your hurry?" said Mrs. Kittridge.

"What's the rush?" Mrs. Kittridge asked.

"Well," said Mr. Sewell, "firstly, there's the hens; secondly, the pigs; and lastly, the cow. Besides I shouldn't wonder if some of Emily's admirers should call on her this evening,—never any saying when Captain Broad may come in."[Pg 95]

"Well," said Mr. Sewell, "first, there are the hens; next, the pigs; and finally, the cow. Plus, I wouldn't be surprised if some of Emily's admirers come by to see her this evening—who knows when Captain Broad might show up."[Pg 95]

"Now, brother, you are too bad," said Miss Emily, as she bustled about her bonnet and shawl. "Now, that's all made up out of whole cloth. Captain Broad called last week a Monday, to talk to you about the pews, and hardly spoke a word to me. You oughtn't to say such things, 'cause it raises reports."

"Now, brother, you're being really difficult," said Miss Emily, as she adjusted her bonnet and shawl. "That’s completely made up. Captain Broad came by last Monday to discuss the pews and barely said a word to me. You shouldn’t say things like that because it creates rumors."

"Ah, well, then, I won't again," said her brother. "I believe, after all, it was Captain Badger that called twice."

"Okay, I won't do it again," said her brother. "I think, after all, it was Captain Badger who called twice."

"Brother!"

"Bro!"

"And left you a basket of apples the second time."

"And left you a basket of apples the second time."

"Brother, you know he only called to get some of my hoarhound for Mehitable's cough."

"Brother, you know he only called to get some of my hoarhound for Mehitable's cough."

"Oh, yes, I remember."

"Oh, yes, I remember that."

"If you don't take care," said Miss Emily, "I'll tell where you call."

"If you don't take care," Miss Emily said, "I'll tell where you go."

"Come, Miss Emily, you must not mind him," said Miss Roxy; "we all know his ways."

"Come on, Miss Emily, you shouldn't take him personally," said Miss Roxy; "we all know how he is."

And now took place the grand leave-taking, which consisted first of the three women's standing in a knot and all talking at once, as if their very lives depended upon saying everything they could possibly think of before they separated, while Mr. Sewell and Captain Kittridge stood patiently waiting with the resigned air which the male sex commonly assume on such occasions; and when, after two or three "Come, Emily's," the group broke up only to form again on the door-step, where they were at it harder than ever, and a third occasion of the same sort took place at the bottom of the steps, Mr. Sewell was at last obliged by main force to drag his sister away in the middle of a sentence.

And now the big goodbye happened, with the three women huddled together, all talking at once, as if their lives depended on sharing everything they could think of before parting ways. Meanwhile, Mr. Sewell and Captain Kittridge stood patiently, wearing the resigned look that men often have during such moments. After a couple of “Come on, Emily’s,” the group broke apart only to gather again on the doorstep, where they were more animated than ever. Another round of the same scene took place at the bottom of the steps, and Mr. Sewell finally had to physically pull his sister away in the middle of a sentence.

Miss Emily watched her brother shrewdly all the way home, but all traces of any uncommon feeling had passed away; and yet, with the restlessness of female curiosity, she felt quite sure that she had laid hold of the end of some skein of mystery, could she only find skill enough to unwind it.[Pg 96]

Miss Emily watched her brother closely all the way home, but any signs of unusual emotion had vanished; still, with the typical restlessness of female curiosity, she was convinced that she had grasped the beginning of some mystery, if only she could find the skill to unravel it.[Pg 96]

She took up the bracelet, and held it in the fading evening light, and broke into various observations with regard to the singularity of the workmanship. Her brother seemed entirely absorbed in talking with Captain Kittridge about the brig Anna Maria, which was going to be launched from Pennel's wharf next Wednesday. But she, therefore, internally resolved to lie in wait for the secret in that confidential hour which usually preceded going to bed. Therefore, as soon as she had arrived at their quiet dwelling, she put in operation the most seducing little fire that ever crackled and snapped in a chimney, well knowing that nothing was more calculated to throw light into any hidden or concealed chamber of the soul than that enlivening blaze, which danced so merrily on her well-polished andirons, and made the old chintz sofa and the time-worn furniture so rich in remembrances of family comfort.

She picked up the bracelet and held it in the fading evening light, commenting on the uniqueness of the craftsmanship. Her brother seemed completely focused on chatting with Captain Kittridge about the brig Anna Maria, which was set to launch from Pennel's wharf next Wednesday. So, she made up her mind to wait for the secret during the intimate time that usually came before bedtime. Once she got to their cozy home, she started the coziest little fire that ever crackled in a chimney, knowing that nothing brought light to the hidden corners of the soul like that cheerful blaze, which danced happily on her polished andirons and made the old chintz sofa and the well-worn furniture rich with memories of family comfort.

She then proceeded to divest her brother of his wig and his dress-coat, and to induct him into the flowing ease of a study-gown, crowning his well-shaven head with a black cap, and placing his slippers before the corner of a sofa nearest the fire. She observed him with satisfaction sliding into his seat, and then she trotted to a closet with a glass door in the corner of the room, and took down an old, quaintly-shaped silver cup, which had been an heirloom in their family, and was the only piece of plate which their modern domestic establishment could boast; and with this, down cellar she tripped, her little heels tapping lightly on each stair, and the hum of a song coming back after her as she sought the cider-barrel. Up again she came, and set the silver cup, with its clear amber contents, down by the fire, and then busied herself in making just the crispest, nicest square of toast to be eaten with it; for Miss Emily had conceived the idea that some little ceremony of this sort was absolutely necessary to do away all possible ill effects from a day's labor, and secure an uninterrupted night's[Pg 97] repose. Having done all this, she took her knitting-work, and stationed herself just opposite to her brother.

She then went ahead and took off her brother’s wig and dress coat, putting him in a comfy study gown instead, topping his freshly shaved head with a black cap and placing his slippers next to the sofa closest to the fire. She felt satisfied as she watched him settle into his seat, and then she hurried over to a closet with a glass door in the corner of the room. She grabbed an old, uniquely shaped silver cup that had been in their family for generations and was the only piece of fancy tableware their modern home could claim. With that, she bounced down to the cellar, her little heels lightly tapping on each step, humming a tune as she went to find the cider barrel. When she came back up, she set the silver cup, filled with clear amber liquid, down by the fire and got busy making the crispiest, best square of toast to go with it. Miss Emily thought it was essential to have a little ritual like this to counteract any negative effects from a day’s work and ensure a good night's sleep. After that, she took her knitting and settled herself right across from her brother.

It was fortunate for Miss Emily that the era of daily journals had not yet arisen upon the earth, because if it had, after all her care and pains, her brother would probably have taken up the evening paper, and holding it between his face and her, have read an hour or so in silence; but Mr. Sewell had not this resort. He knew perfectly well that he had excited his sister's curiosity on a subject where he could not gratify it, and therefore he took refuge in a kind of mild, abstracted air of quietude which bid defiance to all her little suggestions.

It was lucky for Miss Emily that the time of daily journals hadn’t come about yet, because if it had, after all her effort, her brother would probably have picked up the evening paper and held it between his face and hers, reading in silence for an hour or so. But Mr. Sewell didn’t have that option. He knew very well that he had piqued his sister’s curiosity on a subject he couldn’t satisfy, so he took shelter in a kind of calm, thoughtful demeanor that resisted all her little hints.

After in vain trying every indirect form, Miss Emily approached the subject more pointedly. "I thought that you looked very much interested in that poor woman to-day."

After trying every indirect approach without success, Miss Emily brought up the subject more directly. "I noticed that you seemed very interested in that poor woman today."

"She had an interesting face," said her brother, dryly.

"She had a unique face," her brother said flatly.

"Was it like anybody that you ever saw?" said Miss Emily.

"Was it like anyone you've ever seen?" Miss Emily asked.

Her brother did not seem to hear her, but, taking the tongs, picked up the two ends of a stick that had just fallen apart, and arranged them so as to make a new blaze.

Her brother didn't seem to hear her, but he picked up the tongs, grabbed the two ends of a stick that had just broken, and arranged them to start a new fire.

Miss Emily was obliged to repeat her question, whereat he started as one awakened out of a dream, and said,—

Miss Emily had to repeat her question, and he jumped as if he had been startled awake from a dream and said,—

"Why, yes, he didn't know but she did; there were a good many women with black eyes and black hair,—Mrs. Kittridge, for instance."

"Sure, he didn't know, but she did; there were quite a few women with black eyes and black hair—Mrs. Kittridge, for example."

"Why, I don't think that she looked like Mrs. Kittridge in the least," said Miss Emily, warmly.

"Honestly, I don't think she looks anything like Mrs. Kittridge at all," said Miss Emily, passionately.

"Oh, well! I didn't say she did," said her brother, looking drowsily at his watch; "why, Emily, it's getting rather late."

"Oh, come on! I didn't say she did," said her brother, glancing tiredly at his watch. "Emily, it's getting pretty late."

"What made you look so when I showed you that bracelet?" said Miss Emily, determined now to push the war to the heart of the enemy's country.[Pg 98]

"What made you look so when I showed you that bracelet?" said Miss Emily, now determined to take the fight straight to the enemy's territory.[Pg 98]

"Look how?" said her brother, leisurely moistening a bit of toast in his cider.

"How do you look?" her brother asked, casually dipping a piece of toast in his cider.

"Why, I never saw anybody look more wild and astonished than you did for a minute or two."

"Honestly, I’ve never seen anyone look more shocked and surprised than you did for a minute or two."

"I did, did I?" said her brother, in the same indifferent tone. "My dear child, what an active imagination you have. Did you ever look through a prism, Emily?"

"I did, did I?" her brother replied in the same indifferent tone. "My dear child, you have such an active imagination. Have you ever looked through a prism, Emily?"

"Why, no, Theophilus; what do you mean?"

"Why not, Theophilus; what are you talking about?"

"Well, if you should, you would see everybody and everything with a nice little bordering of rainbow around them; now the rainbow isn't on the things, but in the prism."

"Well, if you did, you would see everyone and everything with a nice little rainbow border around them; now the rainbow isn't on the things, but in the prism."

"Well, what's that to the purpose?" said Miss Emily, rather bewildered.

"Well, what's that supposed to mean?" said Miss Emily, a bit confused.

"Why, just this: you women are so nervous and excitable, that you are very apt to see your friends and the world in general with some coloring just as unreal. I am sorry for you, childie, but really I can't help you to get up a romance out of this bracelet. Well, good-night, Emily; take good care of yourself and go to bed;" and Mr. Sewell went to his room, leaving poor Miss Emily almost persuaded out of the sight of her own eyes.

"Here’s the thing: you women are so anxious and emotional that you tend to see your friends and the world in a way that’s not quite real. I feel for you, sweetie, but honestly, I can't help you create a romance out of this bracelet. Well, goodnight, Emily; take care of yourself and get some sleep;" and Mr. Sewell went to his room, leaving poor Miss Emily nearly convinced to doubt her own perception.


CHAPTER XI

LITTLE ADVENTURERS

[Pg 99]The little boy who had been added to the family of Zephaniah Pennel and his wife soon became a source of grave solicitude to that mild and long-suffering woman. For, as the reader may have seen, he was a resolute, self-willed little elf, and whatever his former life may have been, it was quite evident that these traits had been developed without any restraint.

[Pg 99]The little boy who joined the family of Zephaniah Pennel and his wife quickly became a cause of serious concern for that gentle and patient woman. As you may have noticed, he was a determined, strong-willed little guy, and whatever his past may have been, it was clear that these qualities had grown without any limits.

Mrs. Pennel, whose whole domestic experience had consisted in rearing one very sensitive and timid daughter, who needed for her development only an extreme of tenderness, and whose conscientiousness was a law unto herself, stood utterly confounded before the turbulent little spirit to which her loving-kindness had opened so ready an asylum, and she soon discovered that it is one thing to take a human being to bring up, and another to know what to do with it after it is taken.

Mrs. Pennel, whose entire experience at home had been raising one very sensitive and timid daughter who only needed an abundance of tenderness to thrive, and whose sense of right and wrong was her own guiding principle, stood completely bewildered before the feisty little spirit that her nurturing had welcomed so easily. She soon realized that taking in a child to raise is one thing, but figuring out what to do with them afterward is something else entirely.

The child had the instinctive awe of Zephaniah which his manly nature and habits of command were fitted to inspire, so that morning and evening, when he was at home, he was demure enough; but while the good man was away all day, and sometimes on fishing excursions which often lasted a week, there was a chronic state of domestic warfare—a succession of skirmishes, pitched battles, long treaties, with divers articles of capitulation, ending, as treaties are apt to do, in open rupture on the first convenient opportunity.

The child had an instinctive admiration for Zephaniah that his strong personality and authoritative ways inspired. So, morning and evening when he was at home, he was quite reserved. But while the good man was gone all day, and sometimes on fishing trips that lasted a week, there was a constant state of family conflict—a series of small fights, major battles, lengthy treaties with various agreements, ending, as treaties often do, in a full-blown falling-out at the first chance.

Mrs. Pennel sometimes reflected with herself mournfully, and with many self-disparaging sighs, what was the[Pg 100] reason that young master somehow contrived to keep her far more in awe of him than he was of her. Was she not evidently, as yet at least, bigger and stronger than he, able to hold his rebellious little hands, to lift and carry him, and to shut him up, if so she willed, in a dark closet, and even to administer to him that discipline of the birch which Mrs. Kittridge often and forcibly recommended as the great secret of her family prosperity? Was it not her duty, as everybody told her, to break his will while he was young?—a duty which hung like a millstone round the peaceable creature's neck, and weighed her down with a distressing sense of responsibility.

Mrs. Pennel sometimes thought to herself sadly, with many self-critical sighs, about why the young master somehow managed to keep her more intimidated by him than he was of her. Wasn’t she clearly, at least for now, bigger and stronger than he was, able to hold his rebellious little hands, lift and carry him, and shut him up, if she wanted, in a dark closet, and even administer that punishment with the birch that Mrs. Kittridge frequently insisted was the key to her family’s success? Wasn’t it her responsibility, as everyone told her, to break his will while he was young?—a responsibility that felt like a heavy burden around the peaceful woman's neck, weighing her down with a troubling sense of obligation.

Now, Mrs. Pennel was one of the people to whom self-sacrifice is constitutionally so much a nature, that self-denial for her must have consisted in standing up for her own rights, or having her own way when it crossed the will and pleasure of any one around her. All she wanted of a child, or in fact of any human creature, was something to love and serve. We leave it entirely to theologians to reconcile such facts with the theory of total depravity; but it is a fact that there are a considerable number of women of this class. Their life would flow on very naturally if it might consist only in giving, never in withholding—only in praise, never in blame—only in acquiescence, never in conflict; and the chief comfort of such women in religion is that it gives them at last an object for love without criticism, and for whom the utmost degree of self-abandonment is not idolatry, but worship.

Now, Mrs. Pennel was one of those people for whom self-sacrifice is such a fundamental part of their nature that self-denial for her must have meant standing up for her own rights or wanting her own way when it went against the wishes of anyone around her. All she wanted from a child, or really from any person, was someone to love and serve. We leave it entirely to theologians to reconcile such facts with the theory of total depravity; but the truth is that there are quite a few women like this. Their lives would flow very naturally if they could only give, never withhold—only praise, never blame—only agree, never argue; and the main comfort for these women in their faith is that it finally provides them with an object of love without criticism, for whom the highest level of selflessness is not idolatry, but true worship.

Mrs. Pennel would gladly have placed herself and all she possessed at the disposition of the children; they might have broken her china, dug in the garden with her silver spoons, made turf alleys in her best room, drummed on her mahogany tea-table, filled her muslin drawer with their choicest shells and seaweed; only Mrs. Pennel knew that such kindness was no kindness, and that in the dreadful[Pg 101] word responsibility, familiar to every New England mother's ear, there lay an awful summons to deny and to conflict where she could so much easier have conceded.

Mrs. Pennel would have happily given herself and everything she owned to the children; they could have smashed her china, dug in the garden with her silver spoons, made dirt paths in her best room, drummed on her mahogany tea table, and filled her muslin drawer with their favorite shells and seaweed; but Mrs. Pennel understood that such kindness wasn’t really kindness, and that the terrible[Pg 101] word responsibility, so familiar to every New England mother, held a heavy burden of denial and conflict when she could have simply let things be.

She saw that the tyrant little will would reign without mercy, if it reigned at all; and ever present with her was the uneasy sense that it was her duty to bring this erratic little comet within the laws of a well-ordered solar system,—a task to which she felt about as competent as to make a new ring for Saturn. Then, too, there was a secret feeling, if the truth must be told, of what Mrs. Kittridge would think about it; for duty is never more formidable than when she gets on the cap and gown of a neighbor; and Mrs. Kittridge, with her resolute voice and declamatory family government, had always been a secret source of uneasiness to poor Mrs. Pennel, who was one of those sensitive souls who can feel for a mile or more the sphere of a stronger neighbor. During all the years that they had lived side by side, there had been this shadowy, unconfessed feeling on the part of poor Mrs. Pennel, that Mrs. Kittridge thought her deficient in her favorite virtue of "resolution," as, in fact, in her inmost soul she knew she was;—but who wants to have one's weak places looked into by the sharp eyes of a neighbor who is strong precisely where we are weak? The trouble that one neighbor may give to another, simply by living within a mile of one, is incredible; but until this new accession to her family, Mrs. Pennel had always been able to comfort herself with the idea that the child under her particular training was as well-behaved as any of those of her more demonstrative friend. But now, all this consolation had been put to flight; she could not meet Mrs. Kittridge without most humiliating recollections.

She realized that the little tyrant would rule without mercy, if it ruled at all; and always present was the uneasy feeling that it was her responsibility to bring this erratic little comet into the confines of a well-ordered solar system—a task she felt as capable of accomplishing as creating a new ring for Saturn. Then, too, there was a hidden concern, to be honest, about what Mrs. Kittridge would think of it; for duty is never more daunting than when it’s dressed in a neighbor’s cap and gown; and Mrs. Kittridge, with her firm voice and commanding family management, had always been a source of secret anxiety for poor Mrs. Pennel, who was one of those sensitive souls who can sense the presence of a stronger neighbor from a mile away. Throughout all the years they had lived side by side, poor Mrs. Pennel had harbored this shadowy, unacknowledged feeling that Mrs. Kittridge thought of her as lacking in her favorite quality of "resolution," which, deep down, she knew she was; but who wants their weaknesses to be scrutinized by the keen eyes of a neighbor who is strong exactly where we are weak? The trouble that one neighbor can cause another simply by living within a mile is astonishing; but until this new addition to her family, Mrs. Pennel had always been able to reassure herself that the child under her care was just as well-behaved as any of those of her more expressive friend. But now, all that comfort had vanished; she couldn’t face Mrs. Kittridge without feeling deeply embarrassed by her memories.

On Sundays, when those sharp black eyes gleamed upon her through the rails of the neighboring pew, her very soul shrank within her, as she recollected all the compromises[Pg 102] and defeats of the week before. It seemed to her that Mrs. Kittridge saw it all,—how she had ingloriously bought peace with gingerbread, instead of maintaining it by rightful authority,—how young master had sat up till nine o'clock on divers occasions, and even kept little Mara up for his lordly pleasure.

On Sundays, when those sharp black eyes sparkled at her from the neighboring pew, she felt her very soul shrink as she remembered all the compromises and failures from the week before. It seemed to her that Mrs. Kittridge could see everything—how she had shamefully bargained for peace with gingerbread instead of upholding it through rightful authority—how the young master had stayed up until nine o'clock on several occasions and even kept little Mara up for his own enjoyment.

How she trembled at every movement of the child in the pew, dreading some patent and open impropriety which should bring scandal on her government! This was the more to be feared, as the first effort to initiate the youthful neophyte in the decorums of the sanctuary had proved anything but a success,—insomuch that Zephaniah Pennel had been obliged to carry him out from the church; therefore, poor Mrs. Pennel was thankful every Sunday when she got her little charge home without any distinct scandal and breach of the peace.

How she shook at every move the child made in the pew, fearing some obvious and blatant misbehavior that would create a scandal for her to handle! This was especially worrying since her first attempt to teach the young newcomer the proper behavior in the sanctuary had turned out to be anything but successful—so much so that Zephaniah Pennel had to carry him out of the church; so, poor Mrs. Pennel was grateful every Sunday when she brought her little charge home without any clear scandal or disruption.

But, after all, he was such a handsome and engaging little wretch, attracting all eyes wherever he went, and so full of saucy drolleries, that it seemed to Mrs. Pennel that everything and everybody conspired to help her spoil him. There are two classes of human beings in this world: one class seem made to give love, and the other to take it. Now Mrs. Pennel and Mara belonged to the first class, and little Master Moses to the latter.

But, after all, he was such a charming and captivating little rascal, catching everyone’s attention wherever he went, and so full of cheeky humor, that it seemed to Mrs. Pennel that everything and everyone was working together to help her spoil him. There are two types of people in this world: one type seems made to give love, and the other to receive it. Now Mrs. Pennel and Mara belonged to the first type, and little Master Moses to the latter.

It was, perhaps, of service to the little girl to give to her delicate, shrinking, highly nervous organization the constant support of a companion so courageous, so richly blooded, and highly vitalized as the boy seemed to be. There was a fervid, tropical richness in his air that gave one a sense of warmth in looking at him, and made his Oriental name seem in good-keeping. He seemed an exotic that might have waked up under fervid Egyptian suns, and been found cradled among the lotus blossoms of old Nile; and the fair golden-haired girl seemed to be gladdened by his companionship, as if he supplied an element of vital[Pg 103] warmth to her being. She seemed to incline toward him as naturally as a needle to a magnet.

It was probably helpful for the little girl to have the constant support of such a brave, strong, and lively companion like the boy. There was a vibrant, tropical energy about him that made you feel warm just looking at him, and his exotic name felt fitting. He seemed like something unique that could have come to life under the intense suns of Egypt, found resting among the lotus flowers of the Nile; and the beautiful golden-haired girl seemed to thrive in his presence, as if he brought a vital warmth to her life. She seemed drawn to him as naturally as a needle is to a magnet.

The child's quickness of ear and the facility with which he picked up English were marvelous to observe. Evidently, he had been somewhat accustomed to the sound of it before, for there dropped out of his vocabulary, after he began to speak, phrases which would seem to betoken a longer familiarity with its idioms than could be equally accounted for by his present experience. Though the English evidently was not his native language, there had yet apparently been some effort to teach it to him, although the terror and confusion of the shipwreck seemed at first to have washed every former impression from his mind.

The child's keen ear and the way he quickly picked up English were amazing to see. Clearly, he had been somewhat exposed to it before, because after he started speaking, he dropped phrases from his vocabulary that suggested a greater familiarity with its idioms than could be explained by his current experience. Even though English wasn't his native language, it seemed that some effort had been made to teach it to him, although the fear and chaos of the shipwreck appeared to have initially wiped out all his previous impressions.

But whenever any attempt was made to draw him to speak of the past, of his mother, or of where he came from, his brow lowered gloomily, and he assumed that kind of moody, impenetrable gravity, which children at times will so strangely put on, and which baffle all attempts to look within them. Zephaniah Pennel used to call it putting up his dead-lights. Perhaps it was the dreadful association of agony and terror connected with the shipwreck, that thus confused and darkened the mirror of his mind the moment it was turned backward; but it was thought wisest by his new friends to avoid that class of subjects altogether—indeed, it was their wish that he might forget the past entirely, and remember them as his only parents.

But whenever someone tried to get him to talk about the past, his mother, or where he came from, his brow would furrow gloomily, and he would take on that kind of moody, impenetrable seriousness that children sometimes adopt, leaving everyone baffled about what’s going on inside their minds. Zephaniah Pennel used to call it putting up his dead-lights. Maybe it was the terrible memories of pain and fear linked to the shipwreck that darkened his thoughts the moment he looked back; it seemed best for his new friends to steer clear of those topics altogether—truthfully, they wanted him to forget his past completely and see them as his only parents.

Miss Roxy and Miss Ruey came duly, as appointed, to initiate the young pilgrim into the habiliments of a Yankee boy, endeavoring, at the same time, to drop into his mind such seeds of moral wisdom as might make the internal economy in time correspond to the exterior. But Miss Roxy declared that "of all the children that ever she see, he beat all for finding out new mischief,—the moment you'd make him understand he mustn't do one thing, he was right at another."[Pg 104]

Miss Roxy and Miss Ruey showed up as scheduled to get the young boy dressed like a typical Yankee, while also trying to instill some moral lessons that would help balance his internal character with his outward behavior. But Miss Roxy insisted that "of all the kids she’s ever seen, he tops them all for getting into new trouble—just as soon as you make it clear he shouldn't do one thing, he's already up to something else."[Pg 104]

One of his exploits, however, had very nearly been the means of cutting short the materials of our story in the outset.

One of his adventures, however, almost put an end to the materials of our story right at the beginning.

It was a warm, sunny afternoon, and the three women, being busy together with their stitching, had tied a sun-bonnet on little Mara, and turned the two loose upon the beach to pick up shells. All was serene, and quiet, and retired, and no possible danger could be apprehended. So up and down they trotted, till the spirit of adventure which ever burned in the breast of little Moses caught sight of a small canoe which had been moored just under the shadow of a cedar-covered rock. Forthwith he persuaded his little neighbor to go into it, and for a while they made themselves very gay, rocking it from side to side.

It was a warm, sunny afternoon, and the three women, busy with their sewing, had put a sun bonnet on little Mara and let the other two run free on the beach to collect shells. Everything was calm, peaceful, and secluded, and there seemed to be no danger at all. They wandered up and down until the adventurous spirit that always burned in little Moses spotted a small canoe moored in the shade of a cedar-covered rock. Immediately, he convinced his little friend to join him in it, and for a while, they had a great time rocking it back and forth.

The tide was going out, and each retreating wave washed the boat up and down, till it came into the boy's curly head how beautiful it would be to sail out as he had seen men do,—and so, with much puffing and earnest tugging of his little brown hands, the boat at last was loosed from her moorings and pushed out on the tide, when both children laughed gayly to find themselves swinging and balancing on the amber surface, and watching the rings and sparkles of sunshine and the white pebbles below. Little Moses was glorious,—his adventures had begun,—and with a fairy-princess in his boat, he was going to stretch away to some of the islands of dreamland. He persuaded Mara to give him her pink sun-bonnet, which he placed for a pennon on a stick at the end of the boat, while he made a vehement dashing with another, first on one side of the boat and then on the other,—spattering the water in diamond showers, to the infinite amusement of the little maiden.

The tide was going out, and each receding wave rocked the boat up and down until it struck the boy's curly head how amazing it would be to sail out like the men he had seen do before. So, with a lot of effort and determined tugging of his little brown hands, the boat was finally released from its moorings and pushed out into the tide. Both children laughed joyfully as they found themselves swaying and balancing on the golden surface, watching the ripples and sparkles of sunlight and the white pebbles below. Little Moses felt incredible—his adventures were starting—and with a fairy princess in his boat, he was ready to venture off to some islands of dreamland. He convinced Mara to give him her pink sunbonnet, which he put on a stick at the end of the boat as a flag, while he energetically splashed water with another stick, first on one side of the boat and then on the other, sending droplets flying in diamond-like showers, much to the endless delight of the little girl.

Meanwhile the tide waves danced them out and still outward, and as they went farther and farther from shore, the more glorious felt the boy. He had got Mara all to[Pg 105] himself, and was going away with her from all grown people, who wouldn't let children do as they pleased,—who made them sit still in prayer-time, and took them to meeting, and kept so many things which they must not touch, or open, or play with. Two white sea-gulls came flying toward the children, and they stretched their little arms in welcome, nothing doubting but these fair creatures were coming at once to take passage with them for fairy-land. But the birds only dived and shifted and veered, turning their silvery sides toward the sun, and careering in circles round the children. A brisk little breeze, that came hurrying down from the land, seemed disposed to favor their unsubstantial enterprise,—for your winds, being a fanciful, uncertain tribe of people, are always for falling in with anything that is contrary to common sense. So the wind trolled them merrily along, nothing doubting that there might be time, if they hurried, to land their boat on the shore of some of the low-banked red clouds that lay in the sunset, where they could pick up shells,—blue and pink and purple,—enough to make them rich for life. The children were all excitement at the rapidity with which their little bark danced and rocked, as it floated outward to the broad, open ocean; at the blue, freshening waves, at the silver-glancing gulls, at the floating, white-winged ships, and at vague expectations of going rapidly somewhere, to something more beautiful still. And what is the happiness of the brightest hours of grown people more than this?

Meanwhile, the waves danced them further out to sea, and as they drifted away from the shore, the boy felt more and more amazing. He had Mara all to himself and was leaving behind all the adults who wouldn’t let kids do as they wanted—who made them sit still during prayer time, took them to church, and had so many things they weren't allowed to touch, open, or play with. Two white seagulls flew toward the kids, and they stretched their little arms in welcome, fully believing these beautiful creatures were coming to join them on their journey to fairyland. But the birds just swooped and shifted, turning their silvery sides toward the sun and swirling in circles around the children. A brisk little breeze rushed down from the land, seeming eager to support their whimsical adventure—because winds, being a fanciful and unpredictable bunch, are always keen to go along with anything that defies common sense. So the wind happily pushed them along, convinced there might be time to land their little boat on the shores of some low, red clouds glowing in the sunset, where they could collect shells—blue, pink, and purple—enough to make them rich for life. The kids were filled with excitement at how quickly their tiny boat danced and rocked as it floated out into the vast, open ocean; at the blue, freshening waves, the silver-glinting gulls, the floating white-sailed ships, and the vague hopes of swiftly going somewhere even more beautiful. And what is the joy of the happiest moments of adults more than this?

"Roxy," said Aunt Ruey innocently, "seems to me I haven't heard nothin' o' them children lately. They're so still, I'm 'fraid there's some mischief."

"Roxy," Aunt Ruey said innocently, "it seems like I haven't heard anything from those kids lately. They're so quiet, I'm afraid they're up to something."

"Well, Ruey, you jist go and give a look at 'em," said Miss Roxy. "I declare, that boy! I never know what he will do next; but there didn't seem to be nothin' to get into out there but the sea, and the beach is so shelving, a body can't well fall into that."[Pg 106]

"Well, Ruey, just go take a look at them," said Miss Roxy. "I swear, that boy! I never know what he's going to do next; but there didn't seem to be anything to get into out there except the sea, and the beach is so sloped, a person can't really fall into that."[Pg 106]

Alas! good Miss Roxy, the children are at this moment tilting up and down on the waves, half a mile out to sea, as airily happy as the sea-gulls; and little Moses now thinks, with glorious scorn, of you and your press-board, as of grim shadows of restraint and bondage that shall never darken his free life more.

Alas! good Miss Roxy, the children are currently bouncing up and down on the waves, half a mile out to sea, as carefree and happy as the seagulls; and little Moses now thinks, with glorious contempt, of you and your press-board, as if they are dark shadows of restriction and confinement that will never cloud his free life again.

Both Miss Roxy and Mrs. Pennel were, however, startled into a paroxysm of alarm when poor Miss Ruey came screaming, as she entered the door,—

Both Miss Roxy and Mrs. Pennel were, however, startled into a fit of panic when poor Miss Ruey came screaming as she entered the door,—

"As sure as you're alive, them chil'en are off in the boat,—they're out to sea, sure as I'm alive! What shall we do? The boat'll upset, and the sharks'll get 'em."

"As sure as you're alive, those kids are off in the boat—they're out to sea, just like I said! What should we do? The boat will capsize, and the sharks will get them."

Miss Roxy ran to the window, and saw dancing and courtesying on the blue waves the little pinnace, with its fanciful pink pennon fluttered gayly by the indiscreet and flattering wind.

Miss Roxy ran to the window and saw the small boat dancing and bowing on the blue waves, its colorful pink flag fluttering cheerfully in the playful wind.

Poor Mrs. Pennel ran to the shore, and stretched her arms wildly, as if she would have followed them across the treacherous blue floor that heaved and sparkled between them.

Poor Mrs. Pennel ran to the shore and stretched her arms out wildly, as if she wanted to follow them across the dangerous blue surface that rose and sparkled between them.

"Oh, Mara, Mara! Oh, my poor little girl! Oh, poor children!"

"Oh, Mara, Mara! Oh, my poor little girl! Oh, poor kids!"

"Well, if ever I see such a young un as that," soliloquized Miss Roxy from the chamber-window; "there they be, dancin' and giggitin' about; they'll have the boat upset in a minit, and the sharks are waitin' for 'em, no doubt. I b'lieve that ar young un's helped by the Evil One,—not a boat round, else I'd push off after 'em. Well, I don't see but we must trust in the Lord,—there don't seem to be much else to trust to," said the spinster, as she drew her head in grimly.

"Well, if I ever see a kid like that," Miss Roxy muttered to herself from the window; "there they are, dancing and messing around; they're going to tip the boat in a minute, and the sharks are probably waiting for them. I believe that kid's being helped by the Evil One—there's not a boat in sight, or I would head out after them. Well, it looks like we have to trust in the Lord—there doesn’t seem to be much else to rely on," said the spinster, pulling her head back in grimly.

To say the truth, there was some reason for the terror of these most fearful suggestions; for not far from the place where the children embarked was Zephaniah's fish-drying ground, and multitudes of sharks came up with every rising[Pg 107] tide, allured by the offal that was here constantly thrown into the sea. Two of these prowlers, outward-bound from their quest, were even now assiduously attending the little boat, and the children derived no small amusement from watching their motions in the pellucid water,—the boy occasionally almost upsetting the boat by valorous plunges at them with his stick. It was the most exhilarating and piquant entertainment he had found for many a day; and little Mara laughed in chorus at every lunge that he made.

To be honest, there was a good reason for the fear behind these terrifying suggestions; not far from where the children set off was Zephaniah's fish-drying area, and tons of sharks showed up with every rising tide, drawn in by the scraps that were constantly thrown into the sea. Two of these predators, heading out on their hunt, were closely following the little boat, and the children were quite entertained by watching their movements in the clear water—the boy almost capsizing the boat with his brave attempts to hit them with his stick. It was the most exciting and interesting fun he had experienced in a long time, and little Mara laughed along with every splash he made.

What would have been the end of it all, it is difficult to say, had not some mortal power interfered before they had sailed finally away into the sunset. But it so happened, on this very afternoon, Rev. Mr. Sewell was out in a boat, busy in the very apostolic employment of catching fish, and looking up from one of the contemplative pauses which his occupation induced, he rubbed his eyes at the apparition which presented itself. A tiny little shell of a boat came drifting toward him, in which was a black-eyed boy, with cheeks like a pomegranate and lustrous tendrils of silky dark hair, and a little golden-haired girl, white as a water-lily, and looking ethereal enough to have risen out of the sea-foam. Both were in the very sparkle and effervescence of that fanciful glee which bubbles up from the golden, untried fountains of early childhood. Mr. Sewell, at a glance, comprehended the whole, and at once overhauling the tiny craft, he broke the spell of fairy-land, and constrained the little people to return to the confines, dull and dreary, of real and actual life.

It’s hard to say how everything would have turned out if a mortal force hadn’t intervened before they finally sailed away into the sunset. But on this very afternoon, Rev. Mr. Sewell was out in a boat, engaged in the rather peaceful task of fishing. During one of the reflective moments that his activity inspired, he blinked in disbelief at the sight before him. A small, delicate boat was drifting toward him, carrying a dark-eyed boy with cheeks like pomegranates and shiny, silky dark hair, along with a little golden-haired girl, as white as a water lily, looking ethereal enough to have emerged from the sea foam. Both children radiated the vibrant joy that bubbles up from the untouched wells of early childhood. Mr. Sewell quickly understood the entire situation, and as he adjusted the tiny boat, he broke the enchantment of their fairy-tale world and forced the little ones to return to the dull, dreary reality of life.

Neither of them had known a doubt or a fear in that joyous trance of forbidden pleasure which shadowed with so many fears the wiser and more far-seeing heads and hearts of the grown people; nor was there enough language yet in common between the two classes to make the little ones comprehend the risk they had run. Perhaps so do our elder brothers, in our Father's house, look anxiously[Pg 108] out when we are sailing gayly over life's sea,—over unknown depths,—amid threatening monsters,—but want words to tell us why what seems so bright is so dangerous.

Neither of them had felt any doubt or fear in that blissful state of forbidden pleasure, which was clouded with so many worries for the wiser and more perceptive adults. There wasn't enough shared language between the two groups for the children to understand the risks they had taken. Maybe our older siblings, in our Father's house, anxiously[Pg 108] watch us as we sail happily over life's ocean—over unknown depths—amid looming threats—but they lack the words to explain why what seems so wonderful can also be so risky.

Duty herself could not have worn a more rigid aspect than Miss Roxy, as she stood on the beach, press-board in hand; for she had forgotten to lay it down in the eagerness of her anxiety. She essayed to lay hold of the little hand of Moses to pull him from the boat, but he drew back, and, looking at her with a world of defiance in his great eyes, jumped magnanimously upon the beach. The spirit of Sir Francis Drake and of Christopher Columbus was swelling in his little body, and was he to be brought under by a dry-visaged woman with a press-board? In fact, nothing is more ludicrous about the escapades of children than the utter insensibility they feel to the dangers they have run, and the light esteem in which they hold the deep tragedy they create.

Duty herself could not have looked more serious than Miss Roxy, as she stood on the beach, clipboard in hand; she had forgotten to set it down in her eagerness and anxiety. She tried to grab little Moses's hand to pull him from the boat, but he pulled back, looking at her with a mix of defiance in his big eyes, and jumped confidently onto the beach. The spirit of Sir Francis Drake and Christopher Columbus was swelling in his small body, and he refused to be controlled by a stern-faced woman with a clipboard. In fact, nothing is more amusing about children's antics than how completely unaware they are of the dangers they've faced, and how little they care about the chaos they create.

That night, when Zephaniah, in his evening exercise, poured forth most fervent thanksgivings for the deliverance, while Mrs. Pennel was sobbing in her handkerchief, Miss Roxy was much scandalized by seeing the young cause of all the disturbance sitting upon his heels, regarding the emotion of the kneeling party with his wide bright eyes, without a wink of compunction.

That night, while Zephaniah was doing his evening exercises and expressing his heartfelt thanks for the deliverance, Mrs. Pennel was crying into her handkerchief. Miss Roxy was quite shocked to see the young one responsible for all the commotion sitting on his heels, watching the emotional scene of the kneeling people with his wide bright eyes, showing no hint of remorse.

"Well, for her part," she said, "she hoped Cap'n Pennel would be blessed in takin' that ar boy; but she was sure she didn't see much that looked like it now."

"Well, for her part," she said, "she hoped Captain Pennel would be lucky in taking that boy; but she was sure she didn't see much that looked like it now."


The Rev. Mr. Sewell fished no more that day, for the draught from fairy-land with which he had filled his boat brought up many thoughts into his mind, which he pondered anxiously.

The Rev. Mr. Sewell didn't fish anymore that day, because the magical catch he had filled his boat with brought up many thoughts in his mind that he considered anxiously.

"Strange ways of God," he thought, "that should send to my door this child, and should wash upon the beach the only sign by which he could be identified. To what end[Pg 109] or purpose? Hath the Lord a will in this matter, and what is it?"

"Strange ways of God," he thought, "that would bring this child to my door and wash ashore the only sign that could identify him. What could be the reason[Pg 109] or purpose? Does the Lord have a plan in this, and what is it?"

So he thought as he slowly rowed homeward, and so did his thoughts work upon him that half way across the bay to Harpswell he slackened his oar without knowing it, and the boat lay drifting on the purple and gold-tinted mirror, like a speck between two eternities. Under such circumstances, even heads that have worn the clerical wig for years at times get a little dizzy and dreamy. Perhaps it was because of the impression made upon him by the sudden apparition of those great dark eyes and sable curls, that he now thought of the boy that he had found floating that afternoon, looking as if some tropical flower had been washed landward by a monsoon; and as the boat rocked and tilted, and the minister gazed dreamily downward into the wavering rings of purple, orange, and gold which spread out and out from it, gradually it seemed to him that a face much like the child's formed itself in the waters; but it was the face of a girl, young and radiantly beautiful, yet with those same eyes and curls,—he saw her distinctly, with her thousand rings of silky hair, bound with strings of pearls and clasped with strange gems, and she raised one arm imploringly to him, and on the wrist he saw the bracelet embroidered with seed pearls, and the letters D.M. "Ah, Dolores," he said, "well wert thou called so. Poor Dolores! I cannot help thee."

So he thought as he slowly rowed home, and his thoughts were so engaging that halfway across the bay to Harpswell, he unconsciously relaxed his oar, and the boat drifted on the purple and gold-tinted water, like a tiny dot between two eternities. Under such circumstances, even those who have worn the clerical wig for years can occasionally feel a bit dizzy and dreamy. Maybe it was because of the impression left on him by the sudden appearance of those big dark eyes and black curls that he now remembered the boy he found floating that afternoon, looking like some tropical flower washed ashore by a monsoon; and as the boat rocked and tilted, the minister gazed dreamily down into the shifting rings of purple, orange, and gold that spread out from it. Gradually, it seemed to him that a face much like the child's appeared in the water; but it was the face of a girl, young and radiantly beautiful, yet with those same eyes and curls. He saw her clearly, with her thousand silky hair rings bound with pearl strings and adorned with strange gems, and she raised one arm imploringly towards him. On her wrist, he noticed a bracelet made of seed pearls with the letters D.M. "Ah, Dolores," he said, "truly you were called that. Poor Dolores! I cannot help you."

"What am I dreaming of?" said the Rev. Mr. Sewell. "It is my Thursday evening lecture on Justification, and Emily has got tea ready, and here I am catching cold out on the bay."

"What am I dreaming of?" asked Rev. Mr. Sewell. "It's my Thursday evening lecture on Justification, and Emily has tea ready, and here I am catching a cold out on the bay."


CHAPTER XII

SEA TALES

[Pg 110]Mr. Sewell, as the reader may perhaps have inferred, was of a nature profoundly secretive. It was in most things quite as pleasant for him to keep matters to himself, as it was to Miss Emily to tell them to somebody else. She resembled more than anything one of those trotting, chattering little brooks that enliven the "back lot" of many a New England home, while he was like one of those wells you shall sometimes see by a deserted homestead, so long unused that ferns and lichens feather every stone down to the dark, cool water.

[Pg 110]Mr. Sewell, as the reader might have guessed, was a very private person. He found it just as enjoyable to keep things to himself as Miss Emily found it to share them with others. She resembled a lively, chatty little stream that brightens up the "back lot" of many New England homes, while he was more like a neglected well you often see by an abandoned farmhouse, so long unused that ferns and moss cover every stone leading down to the dark, cool water.

Dear to him was the stillness and coolness of inner thoughts with which no stranger intermeddles; dear to him every pendent fern-leaf of memory, every dripping moss of old recollection; and though the waters of his soul came up healthy and refreshing enough when one really must have them, yet one had to go armed with bucket and line and draw them up,—they never flowed. One of his favorite maxims was, that the only way to keep a secret was never to let any one suspect that you have one. And as he had one now, he had, as you have seen, done his best to baffle and put to sleep the feminine curiosity of his sister.

Dear to him was the stillness and coolness of his inner thoughts that no stranger could disturb; dear to him was every hanging fern leaf of memory, every damp moss of old recollections. And although the waters of his soul were healthy and refreshing enough when he really needed them, he had to go armed with a bucket and rope to draw them up—they never flowed freely. One of his favorite sayings was that the only way to keep a secret was to never let anyone suspect you had one. And since he had one now, he had, as you’ve seen, done his best to confuse and quiet the feminine curiosity of his sister.

He rather wanted to tell her, too, for he was a good-natured brother, and would have liked to have given her the amount of pleasure the confidence would have produced; but then he reflected with dismay on the number of women in his parish with whom Miss Emily was on tea-drinking terms,—he thought of the wondrous solvent powers of[Pg 111] that beverage in whose amber depths so many resolutions yea, and solemn vows, of utter silence have been dissolved like Cleopatra's pearls. He knew that an infusion of his secret would steam up from every cup of tea Emily should drink for six months to come, till gradually every particle would be dissolved and float in the air of common fame. No; it would not do.

He really wanted to tell her, too, because he was a kind-hearted brother and would have enjoyed giving her the happiness that the trust would have brought; but then he thought with concern about all the women in his community who were on friendly tea-drinking terms with Miss Emily. He considered the amazing power of that drink, whose golden depths have seen so many promises and solemn vows of complete silence vanish like Cleopatra's pearls. He knew that sharing his secret would linger in every cup of tea Emily drank for the next six months until eventually every bit of it would be dissolved and become common knowledge. No; that wouldn’t work.

You would have thought, however, that something was the matter with Mr. Sewell, had you seen him after he retired for the night, after he had so very indifferently dismissed the subject of Miss Emily's inquiries. For instead of retiring quietly to bed, as had been his habit for years at that hour, he locked his door, and then unlocked a desk of private papers, and emptied certain pigeon-holes of their contents, and for an hour or two sat unfolding and looking over old letters and papers; and when all this was done, he pushed them from him, and sat for a long time buried in thoughts which went down very, very deep into that dark and mossy well of which we have spoken.

You might have thought something was off with Mr. Sewell if you'd seen him after he went to bed, especially after he casually brushed off Miss Emily's questions. Instead of quietly going to sleep like he usually did at that hour, he locked his door, unlocked a desk filled with private papers, and emptied some drawers of their contents. For an hour or two, he sat unfolding and reading through old letters and documents. Once he finished, he pushed them away and stayed sitting for a long time, lost in thoughts that sank very deep into that dark and mossy well we've mentioned.

Then he took a pen and wrote a letter, and addressed it to a direction for which he had searched through many piles of paper, and having done so, seemed to ponder, uncertainly, whether to send it or not. The Harpswell post-office was kept in Mr. Silas Perrit's store, and the letters were every one of them carefully and curiously investigated by all the gossips of the village, and as this was addressed to St. Augustine in Florida, he foresaw that before Sunday the news would be in every mouth in the parish that the minister had written to so and so in Florida, "and what do you s'pose it's about?"

Then he picked up a pen and wrote a letter, addressing it to a destination he had sifted through many stacks of paper to find. After doing so, he paused, unsure whether to send it or not. The Harpswell post office was located in Mr. Silas Perrit’s store, and all the letters were meticulously examined by the local gossipers. Since this one was addressed to St. Augustine in Florida, he knew that by Sunday, everyone in the parish would be talking about how the minister had written to someone in Florida and wondering, “What do you think it’s about?”

"No, no," he said to himself, "that will never do; but at all events there is no hurry," and he put back the papers in order, put the letter with them, and locking his desk, looked at his watch and found it to be two o'clock, and so he went to bed to think the matter over.[Pg 112]

"No, no," he said to himself, "that won't work; but at least there's no rush," and he organized the papers, placed the letter with them, and locked his desk. He checked his watch and saw it was two o'clock, so he went to bed to think things over.[Pg 112]

Now, there may be some reader so simple as to feel a portion of Miss Emily's curiosity. But, my friend, restrain it, for Mr. Sewell will certainly, as we foresee, become less rather than more communicative on this subject, as he thinks upon it. Nevertheless, whatever it be that he knows or suspects, it is something which leads him to contemplate with more than usual interest this little mortal waif that has so strangely come ashore in his parish. He mentally resolves to study the child as minutely as possible, without betraying that he has any particular reason for being interested in him.

Now, there might be some readers who are curious like Miss Emily. But, my friend, hold back that curiosity, because Mr. Sewell will definitely, as we can predict, become less talkative about this topic the more he thinks about it. Still, whatever he knows or suspects, it makes him think more deeply about this little waif who has unexpectedly arrived in his parish. He decides to observe the child as closely as he can, without revealing that he has any special reason for being interested in him.

Therefore, in the latter part of this mild November afternoon, which he has devoted to pastoral visiting, about two months after the funeral, he steps into his little sail-boat, and stretches away for the shores of Orr's Island. He knows the sun will be down before he reaches there; but he sees, in the opposite horizon, the spectral, shadowy moon, only waiting for daylight to be gone to come out, calm and radiant, like a saintly friend neglected in the flush of prosperity, who waits patiently to enliven our hours of darkness.

Therefore, during this mild November afternoon, which he has spent visiting local communities about two months after the funeral, he gets into his small sailboat and heads toward the shores of Orr's Island. He knows the sun will set before he arrives, but he notices the ghostly, shadowy moon on the opposite horizon, just waiting for the daylight to fade so it can appear, calm and bright, like a saintly friend who has been overlooked in times of abundance, patiently ready to brighten our moments of darkness.

As his boat-keel grazed the sands on the other side, a shout of laughter came upon his oar from behind a cedar-covered rock, and soon emerged Captain Kittridge, as long and lean and brown as the Ancient Mariner, carrying little Mara on one shoulder, while Sally and little Moses Pennel trotted on before.

As his boat's keel brushed against the sand on the other side, he heard laughter coming from behind a cedar-covered rock. Soon, Captain Kittridge appeared, tall, thin, and tanned like the Ancient Mariner, with little Mara on one shoulder, while Sally and little Moses Pennel walked ahead.

It was difficult to say who in this whole group was in the highest spirits. The fact was that Mrs. Kittridge had gone to a tea-drinking over at Maquoit, and left the Captain as housekeeper and general overseer; and little Mara and Moses and Sally had been gloriously keeping holiday with him down by the boat-cove, where, to say the truth, few shavings were made, except those necessary to adorn the children's heads with flowing suits of curls of a most[Pg 113] extraordinary effect. The aprons of all of them were full of these most unsubstantial specimens of woody treasure, which hung out in long festoons, looking of a yellow transparency in the evening light. But the delight of the children in their acquisitions was only equaled by that of grown-up people in possessions equally fanciful in value.

It was hard to tell who in the group was the most cheerful. The truth was that Mrs. Kittridge had gone to a tea party over at Maquoit, leaving the Captain in charge as the housekeeper and general supervisor. Little Mara, Moses, and Sally had been happily enjoying their time with him down by the boat cove, where, to be honest, not much work was getting done, except for making a few shavings to create fancy hairstyles for the kids, which had a truly extraordinary effect. Their aprons were filled with these delicate little wooden scraps, hanging in long strands that glowed with a yellow translucence in the evening light. The children's joy in their finds was matched only by that of the adults with their similarly fanciful possessions.

The mirth of the little party, however, came to a sudden pause as they met the minister. Mara clung tight to the Captain's neck, and looked out slyly under her curls. But the little Moses made a step forward, and fixed his bold, dark, inquisitive eyes upon him. The fact was, that the minister had been impressed upon the boy, in his few visits to the "meeting," as such a grand and mysterious reason for good behavior, that he seemed resolved to embrace the first opportunity to study him close at hand.

The fun of the small group suddenly stopped when they saw the minister. Mara held on tightly to the Captain's neck and peeked out mischievously from under her curls. But little Moses stepped forward and locked his bold, dark, curious eyes on him. The truth was, the minister had made such a strong impression on the boy during his few visits to the "meeting" as a grand and mysterious reason for behaving well, that he seemed bent on taking the first chance to observe him up close.

"Well, my little man," said Mr. Sewell, with an affability which he could readily assume with children, "you seem to like to look at me."

"Well, my little guy," said Mr. Sewell, with a friendliness he could easily show to kids, "you seem to enjoy looking at me."

"I do like to look at you," said the boy gravely, continuing to fix his great black eyes upon him.

"I really like looking at you," the boy said seriously, keeping his big black eyes focused on him.

"I see you do, my little fellow."

"I see you do, my little buddy."

"Are you the Lord?" said the child, solemnly.

"Are you the Lord?" the child asked gravely.

"Am I what?"

"Am I?"

"The Lord," said the boy.

"The Lord," said the kid.

"No, indeed, my lad," said Mr. Sewell, smiling. "Why, what put that into your little head?"

"No way, my boy," Mr. Sewell said with a smile. "What made you think that?"

"I thought you were," said the boy, still continuing to study the pastor with attention. "Miss Roxy said so."

"I thought you were," said the boy, still watching the pastor closely. "Miss Roxy said that."

"It's curious what notions chil'en will get in their heads," said Captain Kittridge. "They put this and that together and think it over, and come out with such queer things."

"It's interesting what ideas kids will come up with," said Captain Kittridge. "They piece this and that together and think it over, and end up with some really strange notions."

"But," said the minister, "I have brought something for you all;" saying which he drew from his pocket three little bright-cheeked apples, and gave one to each child;[Pg 114] and then taking the hand of the little Moses in his own, he walked with him toward the house-door.

"But," said the minister, "I've brought something for all of you;" and with that, he took three small, shiny apples from his pocket and gave one to each child;[Pg 114] then, taking little Moses' hand in his, he walked with him toward the front door.

Mrs. Pennel was sitting in her clean kitchen, busily spinning at the little wheel, and rose flushed with pleasure at the honor that was done her.

Mrs. Pennel was sitting in her tidy kitchen, happily working at the little wheel, and stood up, blushing with pride at the honor she'd received.

"Pray, walk in, Mr. Sewell," she said, rising, and leading the way toward the penetralia of the best room.

"Please, come in, Mr. Sewell," she said, standing up and leading the way toward the private area of the best room.

"Now, Mrs. Pennel, I am come here for a good sit-down by your kitchen-fire, this evening," said Mr. Sewell. "Emily has gone out to sit with old Mrs. Broad, who is laid up with the rheumatism, and so I am turned loose to pick up my living on the parish, and you must give me a seat for a while in your kitchen corner. Best rooms are always cold."

"Now, Mrs. Pennel, I’m here for a nice sit by your kitchen fire this evening," said Mr. Sewell. "Emily has gone to keep old Mrs. Broad company since she's stuck at home with rheumatism, so I’m free to make my rounds on the parish, and you have to let me sit in your kitchen corner for a bit. The best rooms are always cold."

"The minister's right," said Captain Kittridge. "When rooms ain't much set in, folks never feel so kind o' natural in 'em. So you jist let me put on a good back-log and forestick, and build up a fire to tell stories by this evening. My wife's gone out to tea, too," he said, with an elastic skip.

"The minister's right," said Captain Kittridge. "When rooms aren’t used much, people never feel quite at home in them. So just let me throw on a good back-log and forestick, and build up a fire for storytelling this evening. My wife’s out for tea, too," he said, with a lively bounce.

And in a few moments the Captain had produced in the great cavernous chimney a foundation for a fire that promised breadth, solidity, and continuance. A great back-log, embroidered here and there with tufts of green or grayish moss, was first flung into the capacious arms of the fireplace, and a smaller log placed above it. "Now, all you young uns go out and bring in chips," said the Captain. "There's capital ones out to the wood-pile."

And in just a moment, the Captain had started a fire in the big, open chimney that looked promising in size, strength, and longevity. A large back-log, spotted with patches of green or gray moss, was tossed into the wide fireplace, followed by a smaller log on top. "Now, all you kids go outside and gather up some kindling," said the Captain. "There are some great ones over at the woodpile."

Mr. Sewell was pleased to see the flash that came from the eyes of little Moses at this order, how energetically he ran before the others, and came with glowing cheeks and distended arms, throwing down great white chips with their green mossy bark, scattering tufts on the floor. "Good," said he softly to himself, as he leaned on the top of his gold-headed cane; "there's energy, ambition, muscle;"[Pg 115] and he nodded his head once or twice to some internal decision.

Mr. Sewell was happy to see the spark in little Moses's eyes at this order, how enthusiastically he ran ahead of the others, and came back with flushed cheeks and outstretched arms, dropping big white chips with their green mossy bark, spreading clumps on the floor. "Good," he said quietly to himself, as he rested on the top of his gold-headed cane; "there's energy, ambition, strength;" [Pg 115] and he nodded his head a couple of times to some inner conclusion.

"There!" said the Captain, rising out of a perfect whirlwind of chips and pine kindlings with which in his zeal he had bestrown the wide, black stone hearth, and pointing to the tongues of flame that were leaping and blazing up through the crevices of the dry pine wood which he had intermingled plentifully with the more substantial fuel,—"there, Mis' Pennel, ain't I a master-hand at a fire? But I'm really sorry I've dirtied your floor," he said, as he brushed down his pantaloons, which were covered with bits of grizzly moss, and looked on the surrounding desolations; "give me a broom, I can sweep up now as well as any woman."

"Look!" said the Captain, emerging from a whirlwind of chips and pine kindling that he had scattered across the large, black stone hearth in his excitement, and pointing at the flames that were leaping and crackling through the gaps in the dry pine wood he had mixed in generously with the heavier fuel, "there, Ms. Pennel, aren't I great at making a fire? But I really apologize for messing up your floor," he added, brushing off his pants, which were covered in bits of rough moss, while surveying the surrounding mess; "hand me a broom, I can clean up just as well as any woman."

"Oh, never mind," said Mrs. Pennel, laughing, "I'll sweep up."

"Oh, forget it," Mrs. Pennel said with a laugh, "I'll take care of it."

"Well, now, Mis' Pennel, you're one of the women that don't get put out easy; ain't ye?" said the Captain, still contemplating his fire with a proud and watchful eye.

"Well, now, Miss Pennel, you're one of those women who don't get upset easily, right?" said the Captain, still gazing at his fire with a proud and watchful eye.

"Law me!" he exclaimed, glancing through the window, "there's the Cap'n a-comin'. I'm jist goin' to give a look at what he's brought in. Come, chil'en," and the Captain disappeared with all three of the children at his heels, to go down to examine the treasures of the fishing-smack.

"Wow!" he exclaimed, looking out the window, "there’s the Captain coming. I’m just going to check out what he brought in. Come on, kids," and the Captain vanished with all three children following him to see the treasures from the fishing boat.

Mr. Sewell seated himself cozily in the chimney corner and sank into a state of half-dreamy reverie; his eyes fixed on the fairest sight one can see of a frosty autumn twilight—a crackling wood-fire.

Mr. Sewell settled comfortably in the corner by the fireplace and drifted into a half-dreamy state; his eyes focused on the most beautiful view you can have on a chilly autumn evening—a crackling wood fire.

Mrs. Pennel moved soft-footed to and fro, arraying her tea-table in her own finest and pure damask, and bringing from hidden stores her best china and newest silver, her choicest sweetmeats and cake—whatever was fairest and nicest in her house—to honor her unexpected guest.

Mrs. Pennel quietly moved back and forth, setting her tea table with her finest pure damask, and bringing out her best china and new silverware from hidden places, along with her favorite sweets and cake—everything that was the prettiest and nicest in her home—to welcome her unexpected guest.

Mr. Sewell's eyes followed her occasionally about the[Pg 116] room, with an expression of pleased and curious satisfaction. He was taking it all in as an artistic picture—that simple, kindly hearth, with its mossy logs, yet steaming with the moisture of the wild woods; the table so neat, so cheery with its many little delicacies, and refinements of appointment, and its ample varieties to tempt the appetite; and then the Captain coming in, yet fresh and hungry from his afternoon's toil, with the children trotting before him.

Mr. Sewell occasionally watched her as she moved around the[Pg 116]room, his face showing a mix of pleasure and curiosity. He was taking it all in as if it were a beautiful painting— that cozy, welcoming hearth with its mossy logs, still steaming from the moisture of the wild woods; the table so tidy, brightened by its many little treats and thoughtful touches, offering plenty of choices to please the appetite; and then the Captain entering, looking fresh and hungry from his afternoon work, with the kids trotting ahead of him.

"And this is the inheritance he comes into," he murmured; "healthy—wholesome—cheerful—secure: how much better than hot, stifling luxury!"

"And this is the inheritance he receives," he murmured; "healthy—wholesome—cheerful—secure: how much better than hot, suffocating luxury!"

Here the minister's meditations were interrupted by the entrance of all the children, joyful and loquacious. Little Moses held up a string of mackerel, with their graceful bodies and elegantly cut fins.

Here the minister's thoughts were interrupted by the arrival of all the children, cheerful and chatty. Little Moses held up a string of mackerel, with their sleek bodies and finely shaped fins.

"Just a specimen of the best, Mary," said Captain Pennel. "I thought I'd bring 'em for Miss Emily."

"Just a sample of the best, Mary," said Captain Pennel. "I thought I'd bring them for Miss Emily."

"Miss Emily will be a thousand times obliged to you," said Mr. Sewell, rising up.

"Miss Emily will be extremely grateful to you," said Mr. Sewell, getting up.

As to Mara and Sally, they were reveling in apronfuls of shells and seaweed, which they bustled into the other room to bestow in their spacious baby-house.

As for Mara and Sally, they were enjoying armfuls of shells and seaweed, which they hurried into the other room to store in their big dollhouse.

And now, after due time for Zephaniah to assume a land toilet, all sat down to the evening meal.

And now, after a suitable amount of time for Zephaniah to use the restroom, everyone sat down for dinner.

After supper was over, the Captain was besieged by the children. Little Mara mounted first into his lap, and nestled herself quietly under his coat—Moses and Sally stood at each knee.

After dinner was done, the Captain was surrounded by the children. Little Mara climbed onto his lap first and snuggled quietly under his coat—Moses and Sally stood by each knee.

"Come, now," said Moses, "you said you would tell us about the mermen to-night."

"Come on," said Moses, "you promised you would tell us about the mermen tonight."

"Yes, and the mermaids," said Sally. "Tell them all you told me the other night in the trundle-bed."

"Yeah, and the mermaids," said Sally. "Tell them everything you told me the other night in the trundle bed."

Sally valued herself no little on the score of the Captain's talent as a romancer.[Pg 117]

Sally valued herself quite a bit because of the Captain's talent for storytelling.[Pg 117]

"You see, Moses," she said, volubly, "father saw mermen and mermaids a plenty of them in the West Indies."

"You see, Moses," she said, talking a lot, "Dad saw a bunch of mermen and mermaids in the West Indies."

"Oh, never mind about 'em now," said Captain Kittridge, looking at Mr. Sewell's corner.

"Oh, forget about them for now," said Captain Kittridge, glancing over at Mr. Sewell's corner.

"Why not, father? mother isn't here," said Sally, innocently.

"Why not, Dad? Mom isn't here," said Sally, innocently.

A smile passed round the faces of the company, and Mr. Sewell said, "Come, Captain, no modesty; we all know you have as good a faculty for telling a story as for making a fire."

A smile spread across everyone's faces, and Mr. Sewell said, "Come on, Captain, no modesty; we all know you’re just as good at telling stories as you are at starting a fire."

"Do tell me what mermen are," said Moses.

"Please tell me what mermen are," said Moses.

"Wal'," said the Captain, sinking his voice confidentially, and hitching his chair a little around, "mermen and maids is a kind o' people that have their world jist like our'n, only it's down in the bottom of the sea, 'cause the bottom of the sea has its mountains and its valleys, and its trees and its bushes, and it stands to reason there should be people there too."

"Well," said the Captain, lowering his voice discreetly and shifting his chair slightly, "mermen and mermaids are a type of people who have their own world just like ours, only it’s down at the bottom of the sea, because the ocean floor has its mountains and valleys, and its trees and bushes, so it makes sense that there would be people there too."

Moses opened his broad black eyes wider than usual, and looked absorbed attention.

Moses opened his big dark eyes wider than usual and looked completely focused.

"Tell 'em about how you saw 'em," said Sally.

"Tell them about how you saw them," said Sally.

"Wal', yes," said Captain Kittridge; "once when I was to the Bahamas,—it was one Sunday morning in June, the first Sunday in the month,—we cast anchor pretty nigh a reef of coral, and I was jist a-sittin' down to read my Bible, when up comes a merman over the side of the ship, all dressed as fine as any old beau that ever ye see, with cocked hat and silk stockings, and shoe-buckles, and his clothes were sea-green, and his shoe-buckles shone like diamonds."

"Well, yes," said Captain Kittridge; "once when I was in the Bahamas—it was a Sunday morning in June, the first Sunday of the month—we anchored near a coral reef, and I was just about to sit down to read my Bible when a merman popped up over the side of the ship, dressed as elegantly as any dandy you've ever seen, with a cocked hat and silk stockings, and shiny shoe buckles. His clothes were sea-green, and his shoe buckles sparkled like diamonds."

"Do you suppose they were diamonds, really?" said Sally.

"Do you think they were actually diamonds?" Sally asked.

"Wal', child, I didn't ask him, but I shouldn't be surprised, from all I know of their ways, if they was," said the Captain, who had now got so wholly into the spirit of[Pg 118] his fiction that he no longer felt embarrassed by the minister's presence, nor saw the look of amusement with which he was listening to him in his chimney-corner. "But, as I was sayin', he came up to me, and made the politest bow that ever ye see, and says he, 'Cap'n Kittridge, I presume,' and says I, 'Yes, sir.' 'I'm sorry to interrupt your reading,' says he; and says I, 'Oh, no matter, sir.' 'But,' says he, 'if you would only be so good as to move your anchor. You've cast anchor right before my front-door, and my wife and family can't get out to go to meetin'.'"

"Well, kid, I didn’t ask him, but I wouldn’t be surprised, knowing how they are, if they were," said the Captain, who had completely gotten into the spirit of[Pg 118] his story and no longer felt awkward with the minister around, nor noticed the amused look on his face as he listened from his spot by the fireplace. "But, as I was saying, he came up to me, bowed politely like you wouldn’t believe, and said, 'Captain Kittridge, I presume?' and I replied, 'Yes, sir.' 'I’m sorry to interrupt your reading,' he said; and I said, 'Oh, it’s no problem, sir.' 'But,' he continued, 'if you could do me a favor and move your anchor. You’ve dropped it right in front of my front door, and my wife and kids can’t get out to go to church.'"

"Why, do they go to meeting in the bottom of the sea?" said Moses.

"Why do they have meetings at the bottom of the sea?" asked Moses.

"Law, bless you sonny, yes. Why, Sunday morning, when the sea was all still, I used to hear the bass-viol a-soundin' down under the waters, jist as plain as could be,—and psalms and preachin'. I've reason to think there's as many hopefully pious mermaids as there be folks," said the Captain.

"Man, bless you kid, absolutely. You know, Sunday morning, when the sea was really calm, I could hear the bass violin echoing beneath the waves, clear as day,—along with psalms and preaching. I have a feeling there are just as many hopeful, devout mermaids as there are people," said the Captain.

"But," said Moses, "you said the anchor was before the front-door, so the family couldn't get out,—how did the merman get out?"

"But," Moses said, "you mentioned the anchor was in front of the door, so the family couldn't leave—how did the merman get out?"

"Oh! he got out of the scuttle on the roof," said the Captain, promptly.

"Oh! he climbed out of the hatch on the roof," said the Captain, quickly.

"And did you move your anchor?" said Moses.

"And did you shift your anchor?" asked Moses.

"Why, child, yes, to be sure I did; he was such a gentleman I wanted to oblige him,—it shows you how important it is always to be polite," said the Captain, by way of giving a moral turn to his narrative.

"Why, kid, yeah, of course I did; he was such a gentleman I wanted to help him out—it shows you how important it is to always be polite," said the Captain, trying to give a moral twist to his story.

Mr. Sewell, during the progress of this story, examined the Captain with eyes of amused curiosity. His countenance was as fixed and steady, and his whole manner of reciting as matter-of-fact and collected, as if he were relating some of the every-day affairs of his boat-building.

Mr. Sewell, as this story unfolds, looked at the Captain with an amused curiosity. His face was steady and unchanging, and his way of telling the story was so straightforward and calm, as if he were talking about the usual tasks of building boats.

"Wal', Sally," said the Captain, rising, after his yarn[Pg 119] had proceeded for an indefinite length in this manner, "you and I must be goin'. I promised your ma you shouldn't be up late, and we have a long walk home,—besides it's time these little folks was in bed."

"Well, Sally," said the Captain, standing up after his story[Pg 119] had gone on for quite a while, "you and I need to get going. I promised your mom you wouldn't be up too late, and we have a long walk home—plus, it’s time for these little ones to go to bed."

The children all clung round the Captain, and could hardly be persuaded to let him go.

The kids all gathered around the Captain and could barely be convinced to let him leave.

When he was gone, Mrs. Pennel took the little ones to their nest in an adjoining room.

When he left, Mrs. Pennel took the little ones to their bed in a nearby room.

Mr. Sewell approached his chair to that of Captain Pennel, and began talking to him in a tone of voice so low, that we have never been able to make out exactly what he was saying. Whatever it might be, however, it seemed to give rise to an anxious consultation. "I did not think it advisable to tell any one this but yourself, Captain Pennel. It is for you to decide, in view of the probabilities I have told you, what you will do."

Mr. Sewell walked over to Captain Pennel's chair and started speaking to him in such a low voice that we could never quite figure out what he was saying. Whatever it was, it seemed to lead to a worried discussion. "I didn’t think it was wise to tell anyone but you, Captain Pennel. It’s up to you to decide, considering the possibilities I’ve mentioned, what you want to do."

"Well," said Zephaniah, "since you leave it to me, I say, let us keep him. It certainly seems a marked providence that he has been thrown upon us as he has, and the Lord seemed to prepare a way for him in our hearts. I am well able to afford it, and Mis' Pennel, she agrees to it, and on the whole I don't think we'd best go back on our steps; besides, our little Mara has thrived since he came under our roof. He is, to be sure, kind o' masterful, and I shall have to take him off Mis' Pennel's hands before long, and put him into the sloop. But, after all, there seems to be the makin' of a man in him, and when we are called away, why he'll be as a brother to poor little Mara. Yes, I think it's best as 'tis."

"Well," Zephaniah said, "since you’re leaving it up to me, I say we should keep him. It really feels like a special opportunity that he ended up with us, and it seems like the Lord paved the way for him to be in our lives. I can definitely support it, and Mrs. Pennel agrees too. Overall, I don’t think it’s wise to change our minds now; plus, our little Mara has thrived since he came into our home. He is, of course, a bit bossy, and I’ll have to take him off Mrs. Pennel’s hands soon and put him in the sloop. But still, there seems to be the making of a good man in him, and when we’re called away, he’ll be like a brother to poor little Mara. Yes, I think it’s best to keep things as they are."

The minister, as he flitted across the bay by moonlight, felt relieved of a burden. His secret was locked up as safe in the breast of Zephaniah Pennel as it could be in his own.

The minister, as he darted across the bay under the moonlight, felt a weight lifted off his shoulders. His secret was as securely kept in the chest of Zephaniah Pennel as it was in his own.


CHAPTER XIII

BOY AND GIRL

[Pg 120]Zephaniah Pennel was what might be called a Hebrew of the Hebrews.

[Pg 120]Zephaniah Pennel was what you could call a true Hebrew.

New England, in her earlier days, founding her institutions on the Hebrew Scriptures, bred better Jews than Moses could, because she read Moses with the amendments of Christ.

New England, in its early days, built its institutions on the Hebrew Scriptures and produced better Jews than Moses did, because it understood Moses through the lens of Christ's teachings.

The state of society in some of the districts of Maine, in these days, much resembled in its spirit that which Moses labored to produce in ruder ages. It was entirely democratic, simple, grave, hearty, and sincere,—solemn and religious in its daily tone, and yet, as to all material good, full of wholesome thrift and prosperity. Perhaps, taking the average mass of the people, a more healthful and desirable state of society never existed. Its better specimens had a simple Doric grandeur unsurpassed in any age. The bringing up a child in this state of society was a far more simple enterprise than in our modern times, when the factious wants and aspirations are so much more developed.

The state of society in some parts of Maine today closely resembles the kind Moses worked towards in earlier, rougher times. It was fully democratic, straightforward, serious, genuine—solemn and religious in its daily vibe, and yet, when it came to material comfort, it was full of healthy thrift and prosperity. Considering the general population, a healthier and more desirable society likely never existed. Its better examples exhibited a simple, majestic quality that is unmatched in any era. Raising a child in this society was a much simpler task than it is now, when conflicting needs and desires are so much more pronounced.

Zephaniah Pennel was as high as anybody in the land. He owned not only the neat little schooner, "Brilliant," with divers small fishing-boats, but also a snug farm, adjoining the brown house, together with some fresh, juicy pasture-lots on neighboring islands, where he raised mutton, unsurpassed even by the English South-down, and wool, which furnished homespun to clothe his family on all every-day occasions.

Zephaniah Pennel was as well-off as anyone in the area. He owned not only the tidy little schooner, "Brilliant," along with several small fishing boats, but also a cozy farm next to the brown house, plus some lush pasture lots on nearby islands where he raised mutton, unmatched even by the English South-down, and wool, which provided homespun fabric to dress his family for everyday occasions.

Mrs. Pennel, to be sure, had silks and satins, and flow[Pg 121]ered India chintz, and even a Cashmere shawl, the fruits of some of her husband's earlier voyages, which were, however, carefully stowed away for occasions so high and mighty, that they seldom saw the light. Not to wear best things every day was a maxim of New England thrift as little disputed as any verse of the catechism; and so Mrs. Pennel found the stuff gown of her own dyeing and spinning so respectable for most purposes, that it figured even in the meeting-house itself, except on the very finest of Sundays, when heaven and earth seemed alike propitious. A person can well afford to wear homespun stuff to meeting, who is buoyed up by a secret consciousness of an abundance of fine things that could be worn, if one were so disposed, and everybody respected Mrs. Pennel's homespun the more, because they thought of the things she didn't wear.

Mrs. Pennel definitely had silks and satins, and beautiful Indian chintz, and even a Cashmere shawl—gifts from some of her husband’s earlier voyages—but these were carefully stored away for such grand occasions that they rarely saw the light. Not wearing your best things every day was a principle of New England thrift that was as unquestioned as any verse of the catechism; so, Mrs. Pennel found her homespun gown, which she made herself, perfectly respectable for most occasions. It even made an appearance at the meeting-house, except on the very finest Sundays, when everything seemed to be in sync with heaven and earth. Someone can easily wear homespun to the meeting when they have a quiet confidence in the many fine things they could wear, if they chose to, and everyone respected Mrs. Pennel’s homespun even more because they thought about the nice things she didn’t wear.

As to advantages of education, the island, like all other New England districts, had its common school, where one got the key of knowledge,—for having learned to read, write, and cipher, the young fellow of those regions commonly regarded himself as in possession of all that a man needs, to help himself to any further acquisitions he might desire. The boys then made fishing voyages to the Banks, and those who were so disposed took their books with them. If a boy did not wish to be bored with study, there was nobody to force him; but if a bright one saw visions of future success in life lying through the avenues of knowledge, he found many a leisure hour to pore over his books, and work out the problems of navigation directly over the element they were meant to control.

As for the benefits of education, the island, like other areas in New England, had its public school, where students gained the fundamentals of knowledge. Once they learned to read, write, and do basic math, young men in those parts typically felt equipped with everything they needed to pursue any further learning they wanted. The boys would go on fishing trips to the Banks, and those who were interested would take their books along. If a boy didn’t feel like studying, no one pressured him; but if a motivated one envisioned a successful future through education, he would often spend his free time diving into his books and working out navigation problems right over the waters they were meant to sail.

Four years having glided by since the commencement of our story, we find in the brown house of Zephaniah Pennel a tall, well-knit, handsome boy of ten years, who knows no fear of wind or sea; who can set you over from Orr's Island to Harpswell, either in sail or row-boat, he[Pg 122] thinks, as well as any man living; who knows every rope of the schooner Brilliant, and fancies he could command it as well as "father" himself; and is supporting himself this spring, during the tamer drudgeries of driving plough, and dropping potatoes, with the glorious vision of being taken this year on the annual trip to "the Banks," which comes on after planting. He reads fluently,—witness the "Robinson Crusoe," which never departs from under his pillow, and Goldsmith's "History of Greece and Rome," which good Mr. Sewell has lent him,—and he often brings shrewd criticisms on the character and course of Romulus or Alexander into the common current of every-day life, in a way that brings a smile over the grave face of Zephaniah, and makes Mrs. Pennel think the boy certainly ought to be sent to college.

Four years have passed since the start of our story, and in the brown house of Zephaniah Pennel, we find a tall, strong, handsome ten-year-old boy. He’s not afraid of wind or sea; he believes he can get you from Orr's Island to Harpswell, whether by sailboat or rowboat, as well as anyone else out there. He knows every rope of the schooner Brilliant and thinks he could captain it just like his "father" can. This spring, while doing the more routine tasks of plowing and planting potatoes, he dreams of being taken on the annual trip to "the Banks," which happens after planting season. He reads fluently—just look at the "Robinson Crusoe" that never leaves his pillow and Goldsmith's "History of Greece and Rome," which Mr. Sewell has lent him. He often shares insightful critiques on the characters and actions of Romulus or Alexander in everyday conversations, which brings a smile to Zephaniah's serious face and makes Mrs. Pennel think the boy should definitely go to college.

As for Mara, she is now a child of seven, still adorned with long golden curls, still looking dreamily out of soft hazel eyes into some unknown future not her own. She has no dreams for herself—they are all for Moses. For his sake she has learned all the womanly little accomplishments which Mrs. Kittridge has dragooned into Sally. She knits his mittens and his stockings, and hems his pocket-handkerchiefs, and aspires to make his shirts all herself. Whatever book Moses reads, forthwith she aspires to read too, and though three years younger, reads with a far more precocious insight.

As for Mara, she’s now seven years old, still sporting long golden curls and gazing dreamily out of her soft hazel eyes into an uncertain future that isn’t hers. She has no dreams for herself—they're all for Moses. For his sake, she’s learned all the little skills that Mrs. Kittridge has pushed onto Sally. She knits his mittens and stockings, hems his handkerchiefs, and aims to make his shirts all by herself. Whatever book Moses reads, she immediately wants to read too, and even though she’s three years younger, she reads with a much more advanced understanding.

Her little form is slight and frail, and her cheek has a clear transparent brilliancy quite different from the rounded one of the boy; she looks not exactly in ill health, but has that sort of transparent appearance which one fancies might be an attribute of fairies and sylphs. All her outward senses are finer and more acute than his, and finer and more delicate all the attributes of her mind. Those who contend against giving woman the same education as man do it on the ground that it would make the woman unfem[Pg 123]inine, as if Nature had done her work so slightly that it could be so easily raveled and knit over. In fact, there is a masculine and a feminine element in all knowledge, and a man and a woman put to the same study extract only what their nature fits them to see, so that knowledge can be fully orbed only when the two unite in the search and share the spoils.

Her small frame is delicate and fragile, and her cheek has a clear, luminous quality that's quite different from the boy's round face; she doesn't look exactly unwell, but has that kind of translucent appearance that you might associate with fairies and sylphs. All her senses are sharper and more refined than his, and all the qualities of her mind are more subtle and delicate. Those who oppose giving women the same education as men argue that it would make women less feminine, as if Nature had crafted her so lightly that it could be easily unraveled and re-knit. In reality, there are both masculine and feminine aspects to all knowledge, and when a man and a woman study the same subject, each extracts only what their nature allows them to perceive, so knowledge can only be complete when both come together in the pursuit and share the rewards.

When Moses was full of Romulus and Numa, Mara pondered the story of the nymph Egeria—sweet parable, in which lies all we have been saying. Her trust in him was boundless. He was a constant hero in her eyes, and in her he found a steadfast believer as to all possible feats and exploits to which he felt himself competent, for the boy often had privately assured her that he could command the Brilliant as well as father himself.

When Moses was filled with the spirit of Romulus and Numa, Mara thought about the tale of the nymph Egeria—a sweet story that captures everything we've been discussing. Her faith in him was limitless. He was always a true hero to her, and in her, he found a loyal supporter for all the amazing things he believed he could achieve, since the boy frequently told her in confidence that he could control the Brilliant as well as his own father.

Spring had already come, loosing the chains of ice in all the bays and coves round Harpswell, Orr's Island, Maquoit, and Middle Bay. The magnificent spruces stood forth in their gala-dresses, tipped on every point with vivid emerald; the silver firs exuded from their tender shoots the fragrance of ripe pineapple; the white pines shot forth long weird fingers at the end of their fringy boughs; and even every little mimic evergreen in the shadows at their feet was made beautiful by the addition of a vivid border of green on the sombre coloring of its last year's leaves. Arbutus, fragrant with its clean, wholesome odors, gave forth its thousand dewy pink blossoms, and the trailing Linnea borealis hung its pendent twin bells round every mossy stump and old rock damp with green forest mould. The green and vermilion matting of the partridge-berry was impearled with white velvet blossoms, the checkerberry hung forth a translucent bell under its varnished green leaf, and a thousand more fairy bells, white or red, hung on blueberry and huckleberry bushes. The little Pearl of Orr's Island had wandered many an hour gathering bou[Pg 124]quets of all these, to fill the brown house with sweetness when her grandfather and Moses should come in from work.

Spring had arrived, breaking the ice in all the bays and coves around Harpswell, Orr's Island, Maquoit, and Middle Bay. The beautiful spruces stood tall in their festive attire, tipped with bright emerald green; the silver firs released the scent of ripe pineapple from their tender shoots; the white pines extended long, quirky fingers at the ends of their fringy branches; and even the tiny evergreen replicas in the shadows at their base were made more beautiful with a vivid green trim against the dark color of last year's leaves. Arbutus, with its fresh, clean scent, released its thousand dewy pink blossoms, and the trailing Linnea borealis hung its twin bells around every mossy stump and old rock damp with green forest mold. The green and red carpet of the partridge-berry was dotted with white velvet blossoms, the checkerberry showcased a translucent bell under its shiny green leaf, and countless other fairy bells, white or red, hung on blueberry and huckleberry bushes. The little Pearl of Orr's Island had spent many hours collecting bouquets of all these to fill the brown house with sweetness when her grandfather and Moses returned from work.

The love of flowers seemed to be one of her earliest characteristics, and the young spring flowers of New England, in their airy delicacy and fragility, were much like herself; and so strong seemed the affinity between them, that not only Mrs. Pennel's best India china vases on the keeping-room mantel were filled, but here stood a tumbler of scarlet rock columbine, and there a bowl of blue and white violets, and in another place a saucer of shell-tinted crowfoot, blue liverwort, and white anemone, so that Zephaniah Pennel was wont to say there wasn't a drink of water to be got, for Mara's flowers; but he always said it with a smile that made his weather-beaten, hard features look like a rock lit up by a sunbeam. Little Mara was the pearl of the old seaman's life, every finer particle of his nature came out in her concentrated and polished, and he often wondered at a creature so ethereal belonging to him—as if down on some shaggy sea-green rock an old pearl oyster should muse and marvel on the strange silvery mystery of beauty that was growing in the silence of his heart.

The love of flowers seemed to be one of her earliest traits, and the young spring flowers of New England, with their light delicacy and fragility, were much like her; the connection between them was so strong that not only were Mrs. Pennel's best India china vases on the keeping-room mantel filled, but there was also a tumbler of bright red columbine, a bowl of blue and white violets, and a saucer of shell-colored crowfoot, blue liverwort, and white anemone around. Zephaniah Pennel often said there wasn't a drink of water to be had because of Mara's flowers, but he always said it with a smile that made his weathered, rough features look like a rock illuminated by a sunbeam. Little Mara was the highlight of the old sailor's life; every finer part of his nature was reflected in her concentrated and refined presence, and he often marveled at the fact that such an ethereal being belonged to him—as if an old pearl oyster resting on a shaggy sea-green rock was pondering the strange, silvery mystery of beauty growing in the silence of his heart.

But May has passed; the arbutus and the Linnea are gone from the woods, and the pine tips have grown into young shoots, which wilt at noon under a direct reflection from sun and sea, and the blue sky has that metallic clearness and brilliancy which distinguishes those regions, and the planting is at last over, and this very morning Moses is to set off in the Brilliant for his first voyage to the Banks. Glorious knight he! the world all before him, and the blood of ten years racing and throbbing in his veins as he talks knowingly of hooks, and sinkers, and bait, and lines, and wears proudly the red flannel shirt which Mara had just finished for him.[Pg 125]

But May has come and gone; the arbutus and the Linnea are no longer in the woods, and the tips of the pine trees have grown into young shoots that droop at noon under the direct sunlight reflecting off the sea. The blue sky has that metallic clarity and brilliance that characterizes this region, and the planting is finally done. This very morning, Moses is set to depart in the Brilliant for his first trip to the Banks. What a glorious knight he is! The whole world ahead of him, with the excitement of ten years racing in his veins as he confidently talks about hooks, sinkers, bait, and lines, wearing proudly the red flannel shirt that Mara just finished for him.[Pg 125]

"How I do wish I were going with you!" she says. "I could do something, couldn't I—take care of your hooks, or something?"

"How I wish I could go with you!" she says. "I could help out, right? Maybe take care of your hooks or something?"

"Pooh!" said Moses, sublimely regarding her while he settled the collar of his shirt, "you're a girl; and what can girls do at sea? you never like to catch fish—it always makes you cry to see 'em flop."

"Pooh!" said Moses, looking at her confidently as he adjusted his shirt collar, "you’re a girl; what can girls do at sea? You never want to catch fish—it always makes you cry to see them flop."

"Oh, yes, poor fish!" said Mara, perplexed between her sympathy for the fish and her desire for the glory of her hero, which must be founded on their pain; "I can't help feeling sorry when they gasp so."

"Oh, yes, poor fish!" said Mara, confused between her sympathy for the fish and her desire for the glory of her hero, which has to be based on their suffering; "I can't help feeling bad when they struggle like that."

"Well, and what do you suppose you would do when the men are pulling up twenty and forty pounder?" said Moses, striding sublimely. "Why, they flop so, they'd knock you over in a minute."

"Well, what do you think you would do when the guys are pulling up twenty and forty-pounders?" said Moses, striding confidently. "They flail around so much, they’d knock you over in no time."

"Do they? Oh, Moses, do be careful. What if they should hurt you?"

"Do they? Oh, Moses, please be careful. What if they end up hurting you?"

"Hurt me!" said Moses, laughing; "that's a good one. I'd like to see a fish that could hurt me."

"Hurt me!" Moses said with a laugh; "that's a good one. I'd love to see a fish that could hurt me."

"Do hear that boy talk!" said Mrs. Pennel to her husband, as they stood within their chamber-door.

"Did you hear that boy talking?" Mrs. Pennel said to her husband, as they stood by their bedroom door.

"Yes, yes," said Captain Pennel, smiling; "he's full of the matter. I believe he'd take the command of the schooner this morning, if I'd let him."

"Yeah, sure," said Captain Pennel, smiling; "he's really into it. I think he'd take charge of the schooner this morning if I allowed him."

The Brilliant lay all this while courtesying on the waves, which kissed and whispered to the little coquettish craft. A fairer June morning had not risen on the shores that week; the blue mirror of the ocean was all dotted over with the tiny white sails of fishing-craft bound on the same errand, and the breeze that was just crisping the waters had the very spirit of energy and adventure in it.

The Brilliant floated gracefully on the waves, which gently kissed and whispered to the charming little boat. No more beautiful June morning had appeared on the shores that week; the blue surface of the ocean was speckled with the small white sails of fishing boats heading out for the same purpose, and the breeze that was just stirring the waters carried the essence of energy and adventure.

Everything and everybody was now on board, and she began to spread her fair wings, and slowly and gracefully to retreat from the shore. Little Moses stood on the deck, his black curls blowing in the wind, and his large eyes[Pg 126] dancing with excitement,—his clear olive complexion and glowing cheeks well set off by his red shirt.

Everything and everyone was now on board, and she began to spread her beautiful wings, slowly and gracefully retreating from the shore. Little Moses stood on the deck, his black curls blowing in the wind, and his large eyes[Pg 126] sparkling with excitement—his clear olive complexion and glowing cheeks perfectly highlighted by his red shirt.

Mrs. Pennel stood with Mara on the shore to see them go. The fair little golden-haired Ariadne shaded her eyes with one arm, and stretched the other after her Theseus, till the vessel grew smaller, and finally seemed to melt away into the eternal blue. Many be the wives and lovers that have watched those little fishing-craft as they went gayly out like this, but have waited long—too long—and seen them again no more. In night and fog they have gone down under the keel of some ocean packet or Indiaman, and sunk with brave hearts and hands, like a bubble in the mighty waters. Yet Mrs. Pennel did not turn back to her house in apprehension of this. Her husband had made so many voyages, and always returned safely, that she confidently expected before long to see them home again.

Mrs. Pennel stood with Mara on the shore to watch them leave. The pretty little golden-haired Ariadne shielded her eyes with one arm and reached out for her Theseus with the other until the boat grew smaller and eventually seemed to disappear into the endless blue. Many wives and lovers have stood by watching those little fishing boats sail away like this, but have waited a long time—too long—and never seen them return. In the night and fog, they've gone down beneath the hull of some ocean liner or merchant ship, sinking with brave hearts and hands, like a bubble in the vast sea. Yet Mrs. Pennel didn’t turn back to her house out of fear. Her husband had made so many trips and always come back safely, so she confidently expected to see them home again soon.

The next Sunday the seat of Zephaniah Pennel was vacant in church. According to custom, a note was put up asking prayers for his safe return, and then everybody knew that he was gone to the Banks; and as the roguish, handsome face of Moses was also missing, Miss Roxy whispered to Miss Ruey, "There! Captain Pennel's took Moses on his first voyage. We must contrive to call round on Mis' Pennel afore long. She'll be lonesome."

The next Sunday, Zephaniah Pennel's seat was empty in church. As usual, a note was posted asking for prayers for his safe return, and everyone realized he had gone to the Banks. Since the charming, mischievous face of Moses was also absent, Miss Roxy whispered to Miss Ruey, "There! Captain Pennel has taken Moses on his first trip. We should arrange to visit Mrs. Pennel soon. She'll be feeling lonely."

Sunday evening Mrs. Pennel was sitting pensively with little Mara by the kitchen hearth, where they had been boiling the tea-kettle for their solitary meal. They heard a brisk step without, and soon Captain and Mrs. Kittridge made their appearance.

Sunday evening, Mrs. Pennel was sitting quietly with little Mara by the kitchen hearth, where they had been boiling the kettle for their simple meal. They heard a lively step outside, and soon Captain and Mrs. Kittridge showed up.

"Good evening, Mis' Pennel," said the Captain; "I's a-tellin' my good woman we must come down and see how you's a-getting along. It's raly a work of necessity and mercy proper for the Lord's day. Rather lonesome, now the Captain's gone, ain't ye? Took little Moses, too, I[Pg 127] see. Wasn't at meetin' to-day, so I says, Mis' Kittridge, we'll just step down and chirk 'em up a little."

"Good evening, Mrs. Pennel," the Captain said. "I was just telling my wife that we need to come down and check on how you're doing. It's really something necessary and kind to do on the Lord's day. It must be quite lonely now that the Captain's gone, right? I see you took little Moses, too. You weren't at the meeting today, so I said, Mrs. Kittridge, let’s just go down and cheer them up a bit."

"I didn't really know how to come," said Mrs. Kittridge, as she allowed Mrs. Pennel to take her bonnet; "but Aunt Roxy's to our house now, and she said she'd see to Sally. So you've let the boy go to the Banks? He's young, ain't he, for that?"

"I didn't really know how to come," said Mrs. Kittridge, as she let Mrs. Pennel take her bonnet; "but Aunt Roxy's at our house now, and she said she'd take care of Sally. So you've let the boy go to the Banks? He's pretty young for that, right?"

"Not a bit of it," said Captain Kittridge. "Why, I was off to the Banks long afore I was his age, and a capital time we had of it, too. Golly! how them fish did bite! We stood up to our knees in fish before we'd fished half an hour."

"Not at all," said Captain Kittridge. "I was out to the Banks long before I was his age, and we had a great time, too. Wow! those fish really bit! We were up to our knees in fish before we'd even been fishing for half an hour."

Mara, who had always a shy affinity for the Captain, now drew towards him and climbed on his knee. "Did the wind blow very hard?" she said.

Mara, who had always felt a shy connection to the Captain, now moved closer to him and climbed onto his knee. "Did the wind blow really hard?" she asked.

"What, my little maid?"

"What is it, my dear?"

"Does the wind blow at the Banks?"

"Does the wind blow at the Banks?"

"Why, yes, my little girl, that it does, sometimes; but then there ain't the least danger. Our craft ride out storms like live creatures. I've stood it out in gales that was tight enough, I'm sure. 'Member once I turned in 'tween twelve and one, and hadn't more'n got asleep, afore I came clump out of my berth, and found everything upside down. And 'stead of goin' upstairs to get on deck, I had to go right down. Fact was, that 'ere vessel jist turned clean over in the water, and come right side up like a duck."

"Of course, my little girl, it does sometimes; but there’s really no danger at all. Our boat handles storms like they’re alive. I’ve weathered some pretty intense gales, that's for sure. I remember one time I went to bed between twelve and one, and barely had a chance to fall asleep before I was thrown out of my bunk and found everything upside down. Instead of going upstairs to get on deck, I had to go straight down. The truth is, that boat completely flipped over in the water and then righted itself just like a duck."

"Well, now, Cap'n, I wouldn't be tellin' such a story as that," said his helpmeet.

"Well, now, Captain, I wouldn't be sharing a story like that," said his partner.

"Why, Polly, what do you know about it? you never was to sea. We did turn clear over, for I 'member I saw a bunch of seaweed big as a peck measure stickin' top of the mast next day. Jist shows how safe them ar little fishing craft is,—for all they look like an egg-shell on the mighty deep, as Parson Sewell calls it."[Pg 128]

"Why, Polly, what do you know about it? You’ve never been to sea. We did flip completely over because I remember seeing a mass of seaweed as big as a peck measure stuck to the top of the mast the next day. It just shows how safe those little fishing boats are—for all they look like an eggshell on the mighty deep, as Parson Sewell calls it." [Pg 128]

"I was very much pleased with Mr. Sewell's exercise in prayer this morning," said Mrs. Kittridge; "it must have been a comfort to you, Mis' Pennel."

"I was really pleased with Mr. Sewell's prayer this morning," Mrs. Kittridge said; "it must have been a comfort to you, Mrs. Pennel."

"It was, to be sure," said Mrs. Pennel.

"It was, for sure," said Mrs. Pennel.

"Puts me in mind of poor Mary Jane Simpson. Her husband went out, you know, last June, and hain't been heard of since. Mary Jane don't really know whether to put on mourning or not."

"Puts me in mind of poor Mary Jane Simpson. Her husband went out, you know, last June, and hasn’t been heard from since. Mary Jane doesn’t really know whether to wear black or not."

"Law! I don't think Mary Jane need give up yet," said the Captain. "'Member one year I was out, we got blowed clear up to Baffin's Bay, and got shut up in the ice, and had to go ashore and live jist as we could among them Esquimaux. Didn't get home for a year. Old folks had clean giv' us up. Don't need never despair of folks gone to sea, for they's sure to turn up, first or last."

"Wow! I don’t think Mary Jane needs to give up yet," said the Captain. "Remember one year when I was out, we got blown all the way up to Baffin's Bay, got stuck in the ice, and had to go ashore and live as best we could with the Eskimos. Didn’t get home for a year. My family had completely given us up. You never need to lose hope for people gone to sea, because they’re sure to turn up, sooner or later."

"But I hope," said Mara, apprehensively, "that grandpapa won't get blown up to Baffin's Bay. I've seen that on his chart,—it's a good ways."

"But I hope," said Mara, nervously, "that grandpa doesn’t get blown up to Baffin's Bay. I've seen that on his chart—it's quite a ways."

"And then there's them 'ere icebergs," said Mrs. Kittridge; "I'm always 'fraid of running into them in the fog."

"And then there are those icebergs," said Mrs. Kittridge; "I'm always afraid of running into them in the fog."

"Law!" said Captain Kittridge, "I've met 'em bigger than all the colleges up to Brunswick,—great white bears on 'em,—hungry as Time in the Primer. Once we came kersmash on to one of 'em, and if the Flying Betsey hadn't been made of whalebone and injer-rubber, she'd a-been stove all to pieces. Them white bears, they was so hungry, that they stood there with the water jist runnin' out of their chops in a perfect stream."

"Wow!" said Captain Kittridge, "I've encountered ones bigger than all the colleges up to Brunswick—massive white bears on them—starving like crazy. Once we crashed right into one of them, and if the Flying Betsey hadn't been made of whalebone and indestructible rubber, she would have been completely wrecked. Those white bears were so hungry that they were just standing there with the water streaming out of their mouths."

"Oh, dear, dear," said Mara, with wide round eyes, "what will Moses do if they get on the icebergs?"

"Oh, my goodness," said Mara, with wide round eyes, "what will Moses do if they end up on the icebergs?"

"Yes," said Mrs. Kittridge, looking solemnly at the child through the black bows of her spectacles, "we can truly say:[Pg 129]

"Yes," said Mrs. Kittridge, looking seriously at the child through the black bows of her glasses, "we can truly say:[Pg 129]

"'Dangers stand thick through all the ground,
To push us to the tomb,'

"'Dangers are everywhere,
"Trying to lead us to our deaths,"

as the hymn-book says."

as the songbook says."

The kind-hearted Captain, feeling the fluttering heart of little Mara, and seeing the tears start in her eyes, addressed himself forthwith to consolation. "Oh, never you mind, Mara," he said, "there won't nothing hurt 'em. Look at me. Why, I've been everywhere on the face of the earth. I've been on icebergs, and among white bears and Indians, and seen storms that would blow the very hair off your head, and here I am, dry and tight as ever. You'll see 'em back before long."

The kind-hearted Captain, noticing little Mara's anxious heart and the tears beginning to well up in her eyes, immediately tried to comfort her. "Oh, don't worry, Mara," he said, "nothing's going to hurt them. Just look at me. I've been all over the world. I've been on icebergs, surrounded by polar bears and Indians, and faced storms that could blow the hair off your head, and here I am, safe and sound as ever. You'll see them back before long."

The cheerful laugh with which the Captain was wont to chorus his sentences sounded like the crackling of dry pine wood on the social hearth. One would hardly hear it without being lightened in heart; and little Mara gazed at his long, dry, ropy figure, and wrinkled thin face, as a sort of monument of hope; and his uproarious laugh, which Mrs. Kittridge sometimes ungraciously compared to "the crackling of thorns under a pot," seemed to her the most delightful thing in the world.

The cheerful laugh that the Captain always used to add to his sentences sounded like the crackling of dry pine wood on a cozy fire. You could hardly hear it without feeling your heart lift; little Mara looked at his tall, thin, ropey figure and wrinkled face as a symbol of hope. His loud laugh, which Mrs. Kittridge sometimes unkindly compared to "the crackling of thorns under a pot," seemed to her like the most delightful thing in the world.

"Mary Jane was a-tellin' me," resumed Mrs. Kittridge, "that when her husband had been out a month, she dreamed she see him, and three other men, a-floatin' on an iceberg."

"Mary Jane was telling me," continued Mrs. Kittridge, "that when her husband had been gone for a month, she dreamed she saw him and three other men floating on an iceberg."

"Laws," said Captain Kittridge, "that's jist what my old mother dreamed about me, and 'twas true enough, too, till we got off the ice on to the shore up in the Esquimaux territory, as I was a-tellin'. So you tell Mary Jane she needn't look out for a second husband yet, for that ar dream's a sartin sign he'll be back."

"Laws," said Captain Kittridge, "that's exactly what my old mother dreamed about me, and it turned out to be true until we got off the ice and onto the shore in the Eskimo territory, like I was saying. So you tell Mary Jane she doesn't need to worry about finding a second husband yet, because that dream is a sure sign he'll be back."

"Cap'n Kittridge!" said his helpmeet, drawing herself up, and giving him an austere glance over her spectacles; "how often must I tell you that there is subjects which shouldn't be treated with levity?"[Pg 130]

"Captain Kittridge!" his partner said, standing tall and giving him a serious look over her glasses. "How many times do I have to tell you that there are topics that shouldn't be treated lightly?"[Pg 130]

"Who's been a-treatin' of 'em with levity?" said the Captain. "I'm sure I ain't. Mary Jane's good-lookin', and there's plenty of young fellows as sees it as well as me. I declare, she looked as pretty as any young gal when she ris up in the singers' seats to-day. Put me in mind of you, Polly, when I first come home from the Injies."

"Who’s been messing around with them?" said the Captain. "I know I haven’t. Mary Jane’s really pretty, and there are plenty of young guys who see it too. I swear, she looked as beautiful as any young girl when she stood up in the singers’ seats today. It reminded me of you, Polly, when I first got back from the Injies."

"Oh, come now, Cap'n Kittridge! we're gettin' too old for that sort o' talk."

"Oh, come on, Captain Kittridge! We're getting too old for that kind of talk."

"We ain't too old, be we, Mara?" said the Captain, trotting the little girl gayly on his knee; "and we ain't afraid of icebergs and no sich, be we? I tell you they's a fine sight of a bright day; they has millions of steeples, all white and glistering, like the New Jerusalem, and the white bears have capital times trampin' round on 'em. Wouldn't little Mara like a great, nice white bear to ride on, with his white fur, so soft and warm, and a saddle made of pearls, and a gold bridle?"

"We're not too old, are we, Mara?" said the Captain, playfully bouncing the little girl on his knee. "And we’re not scared of icebergs or anything like that, right? I’m telling you, it’s a beautiful day; there are millions of steeples, all white and shining, like the New Jerusalem, and the polar bears are having a great time walking around on them. Wouldn’t little Mara like to ride on a nice, big white bear, with soft, warm fur, a saddle made of pearls, and a gold bridle?"

"You haven't seen any little girls ride so," said Mara, doubtfully.

"You haven't seen any little girls ride like that," said Mara, uncertainly.

"I shouldn't wonder if I had; but you see, Mis' Kittridge there, she won't let me tell all I know," said the Captain, sinking his voice to a confidential tone; "you jist wait till we get alone."

"I wouldn't be surprised if I did; but you see, Miss Kittridge there, she won't let me share everything I know," said the Captain, lowering his voice to a confidential tone; "just wait until we're by ourselves."

"But, you are sure," said Mara, confidingly, in return, "that white bears will be kind to Moses?"

"But, are you sure," Mara said confidentially, in response, "that the white bears will be nice to Moses?"

"Lord bless you, yes, child, the kindest critturs in the world they be, if you only get the right side of 'em," said the Captain.

"God bless you, yes, kid, they're the kindest creatures in the world, if you just catch them on the right side," said the Captain.

"Oh, yes! because," said Mara, "I know how good a wolf was to Romulus and Remus once, and nursed them when they were cast out to die. I read that in the Roman history."

"Oh, definitely! Because," said Mara, "I know how kind a wolf was to Romulus and Remus once, and took care of them when they were abandoned to die. I read that in Roman history."

"Jist so," said the Captain, enchanted at this historic confirmation of his apocrypha.[Pg 131]

"Just so," said the Captain, thrilled by this historic validation of his tall tale.[Pg 131]

"And so," said Mara, "if Moses should happen to get on an iceberg, a bear might take care of him, you know."

"And so," said Mara, "if Moses were to end up on an iceberg, a bear might take care of him, you know."

"Jist so, jist so," said the Captain; "so don't you worry your little curly head one bit. Some time when you come down to see Sally, we'll go down to the cove, and I'll tell you lots of stories about chil'en that have been fetched up by white bears, jist like Romulus and what's his name there."

"Exactly, exactly," said the Captain; "so don’t you worry your little curly head at all. One day when you come to see Sally, we'll go down to the cove, and I'll tell you plenty of stories about kids who have been raised by white bears, just like Romulus and what's his name."

"Come, Mis' Kittridge," added the cheery Captain; "you and I mustn't be keepin' the folks up till nine o'clock."

"Come on, Miss Kittridge," the cheerful Captain said; "you and I shouldn't keep everyone up until nine o'clock."

"Well now," said Mrs. Kittridge, in a doleful tone, as she began to put on her bonnet, "Mis' Pennel, you must keep up your spirits—it's one's duty to take cheerful views of things. I'm sure many's the night, when the Captain's been gone to sea, I've laid and shook in my bed, hearin' the wind blow, and thinking what if I should be left a lone widow."

"Well then," Mrs. Kittridge said sadly as she started to put on her hat, "Ms. Pennel, you need to stay positive—it's our responsibility to look on the bright side. I can't even count how many nights I’ve spent in bed, trembling, listening to the wind howl, worrying about what would happen if I ended up being a lonely widow."

"There'd a-been a dozen fellows a-wanting to get you in six months, Polly," interposed the Captain. "Well, good-night, Mis' Pennel; there'll be a splendid haul of fish at the Banks this year, or there's no truth in signs. Come, my little Mara, got a kiss for the dry old daddy? That's my good girl. Well, good night, and the Lord bless you."

"There have been a dozen guys wanting to meet you in the last six months, Polly," the Captain said. "Well, good night, Mrs. Pennel; there’s going to be a great catch of fish at the Banks this year, or I don't believe in signs. Come on, my little Mara, got a kiss for your old dad? That's my good girl. Well, good night, and God bless you."

And so the cheery Captain took up his line of march homeward, leaving little Mara's head full of dazzling visions of the land of romance to which Moses had gone. She was yet on that shadowy boundary between the dreamland of childhood and the real land of life; so all things looked to her quite possible; and gentle white bears, with warm, soft fur and pearl and gold saddles, walked through her dreams, and the victorious curls of Moses appeared, with his bright eyes and cheeks, over glittering pinnacles of frost in the ice-land.

And so the cheerful Captain headed home, leaving little Mara's head filled with bright visions of the enchanting land where Moses had gone. She was still on that blurry line between the dream world of childhood and the reality of life; so everything seemed possible to her. Gentle white bears with warm, soft fur and pearl and gold saddles wandered through her dreams, and the victorious curls of Moses appeared, along with his bright eyes and cheeks, over glimmering ice peaks in the frozen land.


CHAPTER XIV

THE ENCHANTED ISLAND

[Pg 132]June and July passed, and the lonely two lived a quiet life in the brown house. Everything was so still and fair—no sound but the coming and going tide, and the swaying wind among the pine-trees, and the tick of the clock, and the whirr of the little wheel as Mrs. Pennel sat spinning in her door in the mild weather. Mara read the Roman history through again, and began it a third time, and read over and over again the stories and prophecies that pleased her in the Bible, and pondered the wood-cuts and texts in a very old edition of Æsop's Fables; and as she wandered in the woods, picking fragrant bayberries and gathering hemlock, checkerberry, and sassafras to put in the beer which her grandmother brewed, she mused on the things that she read till her little mind became a tabernacle of solemn, quaint, dreamy forms, where old Judean kings and prophets, and Roman senators and warriors, marched in and out in shadowy rounds. She invented long dramas and conversations in which they performed imaginary parts, and it would not have appeared to the child in the least degree surprising either to have met an angel in the woods, or to have formed an intimacy with some talking wolf or bear, such as she read of in Æsop's Fables.

[Pg 132]June and July went by, and the two of them lived a quiet life in the brown house. Everything was so calm and beautiful—only the sound of the tide coming and going, the wind rustling through the pine trees, the ticking of the clock, and the whirring of the little wheel as Mrs. Pennel sat spinning in her doorway during the pleasant weather. Mara read through the Roman history again, started it a third time, and kept rereading the stories and prophecies that she enjoyed in the Bible. She reflected on the illustrations and texts in a very old edition of Æsop's Fables. As she wandered in the woods, picking fragrant bayberries and gathering hemlock, checkerberry, and sassafras for the beer her grandmother brewed, she contemplated the things she read until her mind became a sanctuary filled with solemn, quirky, dreamy images, where ancient Judean kings and prophets, along with Roman senators and warriors, moved in and out in shadowy patterns. She created long dramas and conversations where they acted out imaginary roles, and the idea of encountering an angel in the woods or befriending a talking wolf or bear, like the ones she read about in Æsop's Fables, wouldn’t have seemed surprising to her at all.

One day, as she was exploring the garret, she found in an old barrel of cast-off rubbish a bit of reading which she begged of her grandmother for her own. It was the play of the "Tempest," torn from an old edition of Shakespeare, and was in that delightfully fragmentary condition[Pg 133] which most particularly pleases children, because they conceive a mutilated treasure thus found to be more especially their own property—something like a rare wild-flower or sea-shell. The pleasure which thoughtful and imaginative children sometimes take in reading that which they do not and cannot fully comprehend is one of the most common and curious phenomena of childhood.

One day, while she was exploring the attic, she found in an old barrel of discarded junk a piece of reading material that she begged her grandmother to let her keep. It was a copy of "The Tempest," torn from an old edition of Shakespeare, and it was in that charmingly incomplete condition[Pg 133] that particularly delights children, as they see a broken treasure they’ve discovered as uniquely theirs—like a rare wildflower or seashell. The enjoyment that thoughtful and imaginative kids sometimes get from reading things they don't fully understand is one of the most common and fascinating experiences of childhood.

And so little Mara would lie for hours stretched out on the pebbly beach, with the broad open ocean before her and the whispering pines and hemlocks behind her, and pore over this poem, from which she collected dim, delightful images of a lonely island, an old enchanter, a beautiful girl, and a spirit not quite like those in the Bible, but a very probable one to her mode of thinking. As for old Caliban, she fancied him with a face much like that of a huge skate-fish she had once seen drawn ashore in one of her grandfather's nets; and then there was the beautiful young Prince Ferdinand, much like what Moses would be when he was grown up—and how glad she would be to pile up his wood for him, if any old enchanter should set him to work!

And so little Mara would lie for hours stretched out on the pebbly beach, with the wide open ocean in front of her and the whispering pines and hemlocks behind her, and she would immerse herself in this poem, from which she gathered vague, delightful images of a lonely island, an old enchanter, a beautiful girl, and a spirit not quite like those in the Bible, but one that felt very real to her way of thinking. As for old Caliban, she imagined him with a face similar to that of a huge skate fish she had once seen pulled ashore in one of her grandfather's nets; and then there was the beautiful young Prince Ferdinand, much like what Moses would look like when he grew up—and how happy she would be to gather his firewood for him, if any old enchanter made him do that work!

One attribute of the child was a peculiar shamefacedness and shyness about her inner thoughts, and therefore the wonder that this new treasure excited, the host of surmises and dreams to which it gave rise, were never mentioned to anybody. That it was all of it as much authentic fact as the Roman history, she did not doubt, but whether it had happened on Orr's Island or some of the neighboring ones, she had not exactly made up her mind. She resolved at her earliest leisure to consult Captain Kittridge on the subject, wisely considering that it much resembled some of his fishy and aquatic experiences.

One thing about the child was her odd sense of shame and shyness about her inner thoughts, so the excitement that this new treasure brought, along with all the speculations and dreams it inspired, were never shared with anyone. She fully believed that it was just as real as Roman history, but she hadn’t quite decided whether it happened on Orr's Island or one of the nearby ones. She promised herself that she would talk to Captain Kittridge about it as soon as she could, wisely thinking it was similar to some of his fishy and aquatic adventures.

Some of the little songs fixed themselves in her memory, and she would hum them as she wandered up and down the beach.[Pg 134]

Some of the catchy little songs stayed in her memory, and she would hum them as she strolled up and down the beach.[Pg 134]

"Come unto these yellow sands,
And then take hands;
Courtsied when you have and kissed
The wild waves whist,
Foot it featly here and there;
And, sweet sprites, the burthen bear."

"Come to these yellow sands,
And then hold hands;
Curtsy when you have and kiss
As the wild waves whisper,
Dance gracefully here and there;
And, sweet spirits, carry the burden."

And another which pleased her still more:—

And another one that pleased her even more:—

"Full fathom five thy father lies;
Of his bones are coral made,
Those are pearls that were his eyes:
Nothing of him that can fade
But doth suffer a sea-change
Into something rich and strange;
Sea-nymphs hourly ring his knell:
Hark, now I hear them—ding-dong, bell."

"Five fathoms deep, your father lies;
His bones have become coral,
Those are pearls that used to be his eyes:
Nothing about him can disappear.
But goes through a transformation
Into something valuable and unusual;
Sea nymphs ring his bell every hour:
Listen, I hear them now—ding-dong, bell."

These words she pondered very long, gravely revolving in her little head whether they described the usual course of things in the mysterious under-world that lay beneath that blue spangled floor of the sea; whether everybody's eyes changed to pearl, and their bones to coral, if they sunk down there; and whether the sea-nymphs spoken of were the same as the mermaids that Captain Kittridge had told of. Had he not said that the bell rung for church of a Sunday morning down under the waters?

These words she thought about for a long time, seriously considering in her small mind if they represented the typical way of life in the mysterious underworld that lay beneath that blue, sparkling sea; if everyone’s eyes turned to pearls and their bones to coral if they sank down there; and if the sea-nymphs they talked about were the same as the mermaids Captain Kittridge had mentioned. Didn't he say that the bell rang for church on Sunday mornings down under the waters?

Mara vividly remembered the scene on the sea-beach, the finding of little Moses and his mother, the dream of the pale lady that seemed to bring him to her; and not one of the conversations that had transpired before her among different gossips had been lost on her quiet, listening little ears. These pale, still children that play without making any noise are deep wells into which drop many things which lie long and quietly on the bottom, and come up in after years whole and new, when everybody else has forgotten them.

Mara clearly recalled the scene at the beach, discovering little Moses and his mother, the dream of the pale lady that seemed to guide him to her; and not one of the chats she had overheard among different gossipers had escaped her quiet, attentive little ears. These pale, silent children who play without making a sound are like deep wells where many things settle quietly at the bottom, coming back up later, whole and new, when everyone else has forgotten them.

So she had heard surmises as to the remaining crew of that unfortunate ship, where, perhaps, Moses had a father. And sometimes she wondered if he were lying fathoms deep with sea-nymphs ringing his knell, and whether[Pg 135] Moses ever thought about him; and yet she could no more have asked him a question about it than if she had been born dumb. She decided that she should never show him this poetry—it might make him feel unhappy.

So she had heard speculation about the remaining crew of that ill-fated ship, where, maybe, Moses had a father. Sometimes she wondered if he was lying deep beneath the waves with sea-nymphs mourning him, and whether[Pg 135] Moses ever thought about him; yet she could no more ask him about it than if she had been born mute. She decided she would never show him this poetry—it might make him feel sad.

One bright afternoon, when the sea lay all dead asleep, and the long, steady respiration of its tides scarcely disturbed the glassy tranquillity of its bosom, Mrs. Pennel sat at her kitchen-door spinning, when Captain Kittridge appeared.

One bright afternoon, when the sea was completely calm, and the gentle rhythm of its tides barely disturbed the smooth surface of the water, Mrs. Pennel was sitting at her kitchen door spinning, when Captain Kittridge showed up.

"Good afternoon, Mis' Pennel; how ye gettin' along?"

"Good afternoon, Ms. Pennel; how are you doing?"

"Oh, pretty well, Captain; won't you walk in and have a glass of beer?"

"Oh, doing pretty well, Captain; why don't you come in and have a beer?"

"Well, thank you," said the Captain, raising his hat and wiping his forehead, "I be pretty dry, it's a fact."

"Well, thank you," said the Captain, tipping his hat and wiping his forehead, "I’m pretty dry, that's for sure."

Mrs. Pennel hastened to a cask which was kept standing in a corner of the kitchen, and drew from thence a mug of her own home-brewed, fragrant with the smell of juniper, hemlock, and wintergreen, which she presented to the Captain, who sat down in the doorway and discussed it in leisurely sips.

Mrs. Pennel quickly went to a barrel in the corner of the kitchen and poured a mug of her homemade brew, fragrant with the scents of juniper, hemlock, and wintergreen. She handed it to the Captain, who sat down in the doorway and enjoyed it slowly, taking his time with each sip.

"Wal', s'pose it's most time to be lookin' for 'em home, ain't it?" he said.

"Well, I guess it’s almost time to go look for them at home, right?" he said.

"I am lookin' every day," said Mrs. Pennel, involuntarily glancing upward at the sea.

"I am looking every day," said Mrs. Pennel, involuntarily glancing up at the sea.

At the word appeared the vision of little Mara, who rose up like a spirit from a dusky corner, where she had been stooping over her reading.

At the word, the image of little Mara appeared, rising up like a ghost from a shadowy corner, where she had been leaning over her reading.

"Why, little Mara," said the Captain, "you ris up like a ghost all of a sudden. I thought you's out to play. I come down a-purpose arter you. Mis' Kittridge has gone shoppin' up to Brunswick, and left Sally a 'stent' to do; and I promised her if she'd clap to and do it quick, I'd go up and fetch you down, and we'd have a play in the cove."

"Why, little Mara," said the Captain, "you popped up like a ghost all of a sudden. I thought you were out playing. I came down on purpose for you. Mrs. Kittridge has gone shopping in Brunswick and left Sally a chore to do; and I promised her that if she finished it quickly, I'd go up and bring you down, and we could play in the cove."

Mara's eyes brightened, as they always did at this pros[Pg 136]pect, and Mrs. Pennel said, "Well, I'm glad to have the child go; she seems so kind o' still and lonesome since Moses went away; really one feels as if that boy took all the noise there was with him. I get tired myself sometimes hearing the clock tick. Mara, when she's alone, takes to her book more than's good for a child."

Mara's eyes lit up, as they always did at this prospect, and Mrs. Pennel said, "Well, I'm glad to see the girl go; she seems so quiet and lonely since Moses left; honestly, it feels like that boy took all the energy with him. I get tired myself sometimes just listening to the clock tick. When Mara is alone, she spends too much time buried in her book, and that's not great for a child."

"She does, does she? Well, we'll see about that. Come, little Mara, get on your sun-bonnet. Sally's sewin' fast as ever she can, and we're goin' to dig some clams, and make a fire, and have a chowder; that'll be nice, won't it? Don't you want to come, too, Mis' Pennel?"

"She does, huh? Well, we’ll see about that. Come on, little Mara, put on your sun hat. Sally’s sewing as fast as she can, and we’re going to dig some clams, make a fire, and have a chowder; that’ll be nice, right? Don’t you want to join us too, Mrs. Pennel?"

"Oh, thank you, Captain, but I've got so many things on hand to do afore they come home, I don't really think I can. I'll trust Mara to you any day."

"Oh, thank you, Captain, but I have so much to do before they get home that I really don’t think I can. I’ll leave Mara in your hands any day."

Mara had run into her own little room and secured her precious fragment of treasure, which she wrapped up carefully in her handkerchief, resolving to enlighten Sally with the story, and to consult the Captain on any nice points of criticism. Arrived at the cove, they found Sally already there in advance of them, clapping her hands and dancing in a manner which made her black elf-locks fly like those of a distracted creature.

Mara had dashed into her small room and tucked away her precious piece of treasure, which she carefully wrapped in her handkerchief, planning to share the story with Sally and get the Captain’s opinion on any critiques. When they arrived at the cove, they found Sally already there, clapping her hands and dancing in a way that made her wild black hair fly around like a frenzied creature.

"Now, Sally," said the Captain, imitating, in a humble way, his wife's manner, "are you sure you've finished your work well?"

"Now, Sally," the Captain said, mimicking his wife's way of speaking in a humble tone, "are you sure you've done your work properly?"

"Yes, father, every stitch on't."

"Yes, Dad, every stitch on it."

"And stuck in your needle, and folded it up, and put it in the drawer, and put away your thimble, and shet the drawer, and all the rest on't?" said the Captain.

"And stuck it in your needle, and folded it up, and put it in the drawer, and put away your thimble, and shut the drawer, and all the rest of it?" said the Captain.

"Yes, father," said Sally, gleefully, "I've done everything I could think of."

"Yes, Dad," said Sally, happily, "I've done everything I could think of."

"'Cause you know your ma'll be arter ye, if you don't leave everything straight."

"'Cause you know your mom will be after you if you don't leave everything organized."

"Oh, never you fear, father, I've done it all half an hour ago, and I've found the most capital bed of clams[Pg 137] just round the point here; and you take care of Mara there, and make up a fire while I dig 'em. If she comes, she'll be sure to wet her shoes, or spoil her frock, or something."

"Oh, don’t worry, Dad, I did it all half an hour ago, and I found an amazing bed of clams[Pg 137] just around the corner; you take care of Mara over there and start a fire while I dig them up. If she comes, she'll definitely get her shoes wet or ruin her dress, or something."

"Wal', she likes no better fun now," said the Captain, watching Sally, as she disappeared round the rock with a bright tin pan.

"Well, she doesn't enjoy anything more than this now," said the Captain, watching Sally as she rounded the rock with a shiny tin pan.

He then proceeded to construct an extemporary fireplace of loose stones, and to put together chips and shavings for the fire,—in which work little Mara eagerly assisted; but the fire was crackling and burning cheerily long before Sally appeared with her clams, and so the Captain, with a pile of hemlock boughs by his side, sat on a stone feeding the fire leisurely from time to time with crackling boughs. Now was the time for Mara to make her inquiries; her heart beat, she knew not why, for she was full of those little timidities and shames that so often embarrass children in their attempts to get at the meanings of things in this great world, where they are such ignorant spectators.

He then went ahead and built a makeshift fireplace out of loose stones and gathered chips and shavings for the fire. Little Mara eagerly helped him with this, but the fire was already crackling and burning cheerfully long before Sally showed up with her clams. So the Captain, with a pile of hemlock branches beside him, sat on a stone, casually adding crackling branches to the fire from time to time. Now was the moment for Mara to ask her questions; her heart raced, though she didn’t know why, filled with the little anxieties and shyness that often make children feel awkward as they try to understand things in this vast world, where they are often just confused observers.

"Captain Kittridge," she said at last, "do the mermaids toll any bells for people when they are drowned?"

"Captain Kittridge," she finally said, "do the mermaids ring any bells for people when they drown?"

Now the Captain had never been known to indicate the least ignorance on any subject in heaven or earth, which any one wished his opinion on; he therefore leisurely poked another great crackling bough of green hemlock into the fire, and, Yankee-like, answered one question by asking another.

Now the Captain had never shown the slightest ignorance on any topic anyone asked for his opinion on; he therefore casually pushed another large, crackling branch of green hemlock into the fire and, typical of a Yankee, answered one question by asking another.

"What put that into your curly pate?" he said.

"What made you think of that?" he said.

"A book I've been reading says they do,—that is, sea-nymphs do. Ain't sea-nymphs and mermaids the same thing?"

"A book I've been reading says they do—that is, sea nymphs do. Aren't sea nymphs and mermaids the same thing?"

"Wal', I guess they be, pretty much," said the Captain, rubbing down his pantaloons; "yes, they be," he added, after reflection.

"Well, I guess they are, pretty much," said the Captain, rubbing down his pants; "yeah, they are," he added after thinking it over.

"And when people are drowned, how long does it take[Pg 138] for their bones to turn into coral, and their eyes into pearl?" said little Mara.

"And when people drown, how long does it take[Pg 138] for their bones to become coral, and their eyes to turn into pearls?" said little Mara.

"Well, that depends upon circumstances," said the Captain, who wasn't going to be posed; "but let me jist see your book you've been reading these things out of."

"Well, that depends on the situation," said the Captain, who wasn't about to be stumped; "but let me just see the book you've been reading these things from."

"I found it in a barrel up garret, and grandma gave it to me," said Mara, unrolling her handkerchief; "it's a beautiful book,—it tells about an island, and there was an old enchanter lived on it, and he had one daughter, and there was a spirit they called Ariel, whom a wicked old witch fastened in a split of a pine-tree, till the enchanter got him out. He was a beautiful spirit, and rode in the curled clouds and hung in flowers,—because he could make himself big or little, you see."

"I found it in a barrel up in the attic, and Grandma gave it to me," said Mara, unrolling her handkerchief. "It's a beautiful book—it tells the story of an island where an old enchanter lived, and he had a daughter. There was a spirit named Ariel, who a wicked old witch managed to trap in a split of a pine tree until the enchanter rescued him. He was a beautiful spirit, riding on fluffy clouds and hanging in flowers—because he could change his size, you see."

"Ah, yes, I see, to be sure," said the Captain, nodding his head.

"Got it, for sure," said the Captain, nodding his head.

"Well, that about sea-nymphs ringing his knell is here," Mara added, beginning to read the passage with wide, dilated eyes and great emphasis. "You see," she went on speaking very fast, "this enchanter had been a prince, and a wicked brother had contrived to send him to sea with his poor little daughter, in a ship so leaky that the very rats had left it."

"Well, that part about the sea-nymphs ringing his bell is here," Mara said, starting to read the passage with wide, eager eyes and a lot of emphasis. "You see," she continued, speaking very quickly, "this enchanter used to be a prince, and a cruel brother had plotted to send him to sea with his poor little daughter, on a ship so leaky that even the rats had abandoned it."

"Bad business that!" said the Captain, attentively.

"That's bad business!" said the Captain, paying close attention.

"Well," said Mara, "they got cast ashore on this desolate island, where they lived together. But once, when a ship was going by on the sea that had his wicked brother and his son—a real good, handsome young prince—in it, why then he made a storm by magic arts."

"Well," said Mara, "they ended up on this empty island, where they lived together. But one time, when a ship was passing by that had his evil brother and his good-looking young prince son on board, he conjured up a storm with magic."

"Jist so," said the Captain; "that's been often done, to my sartin knowledge."

"Just so," said the Captain; "that's been done many times, to my certain knowledge."

"And he made the ship be wrecked, and all the people thrown ashore, but there wasn't any of 'em drowned, and this handsome prince heard Ariel singing this song about his father, and it made him think he was dead."[Pg 139]

"And he caused the ship to wreck, and all the people were thrown ashore, but none of them drowned, and this attractive prince heard Ariel singing a song about his father, which made him think he was dead."[Pg 139]

"Well, what became of 'em?" interposed Sally, who had come up with her pan of clams in time to hear this story, to which she had listened with breathless interest.

"Well, what happened to them?" interjected Sally, who had arrived with her pan of clams just in time to hear this story, which she listened to with rapt attention.

"Oh, the beautiful young prince married the beautiful young lady," said Mara.

"Oh, the handsome young prince married the beautiful young lady," said Mara.

"Wal'," said the Captain, who by this time had found his soundings; "that you've been a-tellin' is what they call a play, and I've seen 'em act it at a theatre, when I was to Liverpool once. I know all about it. Shakespeare wrote it, and he's a great English poet."

"Well," said the Captain, who by this time had found his depth; "what you've been talking about is something they call a play, and I've seen it performed at a theater when I was in Liverpool once. I know all about it. Shakespeare wrote it, and he's a great English poet."

"But did it ever happen?" said Mara, trembling between hope and fear. "Is it like the Bible and Roman history?"

"But did it actually happen?" Mara asked, feeling a mix of hope and fear. "Is it like the Bible and Roman history?"

"Why, no," said Captain Kittridge, "not exactly; but things jist like it, you know. Mermaids and sich is common in foreign parts, and they has funerals for drowned sailors. 'Member once when we was sailing near the Bermudas by a reef where the Lively Fanny went down, and I heard a kind o' ding-dongin',—and the waters there is clear as the sky,—and I looked down and see the coral all a-growin', and the sea-plants a-wavin' as handsome as a pictur', and the mermaids they was a-singin'. It was beautiful; they sung kind o' mournful; and Jack Hubbard, he would have it they was a-singin' for the poor fellows that was a-lyin' there round under the seaweed."

"Well, no," said Captain Kittridge, "not exactly; but things similar to it, you know. Mermaids and stuff like that are common in other parts of the world, and they have funerals for drowned sailors. I remember once when we were sailing near the Bermuda Islands by a reef where the Lively Fanny sank, and I heard a kind of ding-donging sound— and the water there is as clear as the sky— and I looked down and saw the coral growing and the sea plants waving as beautifully as a picture, and the mermaids were singing. It was stunning; they sang kind of mournfully; and Jack Hubbard insisted they were singing for the poor guys who were lying there under the seaweed."

"But," said Mara, "did you ever see an enchanter that could make storms?"

"But," said Mara, "have you ever seen a magician who could create storms?"

"Wal', there be witches and conjurers that make storms. 'Member once when we was crossin' the line, about twelve o'clock at night, there was an old man with a long white beard that shone like silver, came and stood at the masthead, and he had a pitchfork in one hand, and a lantern in the other, and there was great balls of fire as big as my fist came out all round in the rigging. And I'll tell you if we[Pg 140] didn't get a blow that ar night! I thought to my soul we should all go to the bottom."

"Well, there are witches and conjurers who create storms. I remember once when we were crossing the line, around midnight, an old man with a long white beard that sparkled like silver came and stood at the masthead. He had a pitchfork in one hand and a lantern in the other, and huge fireballs the size of my fist were shooting out all around the rigging. And let me tell you, if we didn’t get a blow that night! I thought for sure we were all going to sink."

"Why," said Mara, her eyes staring with excitement, "that was just like this shipwreck; and 'twas Ariel made those balls of fire; he says so; he said he 'flamed amazement' all over the ship."

"Why," said Mara, her eyes wide with excitement, "that was just like this shipwreck; and it was Ariel who made those fireballs; he says so; he said he 'flamed amazement' all over the ship."

"I've heard Miss Roxy tell about witches that made storms," said Sally.

"I've heard Miss Roxy talk about witches who created storms," said Sally.

The Captain leisurely proceeded to open the clams, separating from the shells the contents, which he threw into a pan, meanwhile placing a black pot over the fire in which he had previously arranged certain slices of salt pork, which soon began frizzling in the heat.

The Captain casually started opening the clams, removing the contents from the shells and tossing them into a pan. At the same time, he set a black pot over the fire where he had already placed some slices of salt pork, which quickly began sizzling in the heat.

"Now, Sally, you peel them potatoes, and mind you slice 'em thin," he said, and Sally soon was busy with her work.

"Alright, Sally, peel those potatoes, and make sure you slice them thin," he said, and Sally quickly got to work.

"Yes," said the Captain, going on with his part of the arrangement, "there was old Polly Twitchell, that lived in that ar old tumble-down house on Mure P'int; people used to say she brewed storms, and went to sea in a sieve."

"Yeah," said the Captain, continuing with his part of the plan, "there was old Polly Twitchell, who lived in that old rundown house on Mure Point; people used to say she stirred up storms and went to sea in a sieve."

"Went in a sieve!" said both children; "why a sieve wouldn't swim!"

"Went in a sieve!" said both kids; "why would a sieve float?"

"No more it wouldn't, in any Christian way," said the Captain; "but that was to show what a great witch she was."

"No way it wouldn't, in any Christian sense," said the Captain; "but that was to show what a powerful witch she was."

"But this was a good enchanter," said Mara, "and he did it all by a book and a rod."

"But this was a great magician," Mara said, "and he did it all with a book and a wand."

"Yes, yes," said the Captain; "that ar's the gen'l way magicians do, ever since Moses's time in Egypt. 'Member once I was to Alexandria, in Egypt, and I saw a magician there that could jist see everything you ever did in your life in a drop of ink that he held in his hand."

"Yeah, yeah," said the Captain; "that's just how magicians have worked ever since Moses's time in Egypt. I remember when I was in Alexandria, Egypt, and I saw a magician there who could see everything you’ve ever done in your life in a drop of ink that he held in his hand."

"He could, father!"

"He can, Dad!"

"To be sure he could! told me all about the old folks at home; and described our house as natural as if he'd[Pg 141] a-been there. He used to carry snakes round with him,—a kind so p'ison that it was certain death to have 'em bite you; but he played with 'em as if they was kittens."

"Of course he could! He told me everything about the folks back home and described our house as if he'd[Pg 141] been there. He used to carry snakes around with him—a kind so poisonous that getting bitten would definitely mean death—but he handled them like they were kittens."

"Well," said Mara, "my enchanter was a king; and when he got through all he wanted, and got his daughter married to the beautiful young prince, he said he would break his staff, and deeper than plummet sounded he would bury his book."

"Well," Mara said, "my enchanter was a king; and when he got everything he wanted, and married his daughter to the handsome young prince, he said he would break his staff, and he would bury his book deeper than a plummet could sound."

"It was pretty much the best thing he could do," said the Captain, "because the Bible is agin such things."

"It was pretty much the best thing he could do," said the Captain, "because the Bible is against such things."

"Is it?" said Mara; "why, he was a real good man."

"Is it?" said Mara. "Well, he was a really good man."

"Oh, well, you know, we all on us does what ain't quite right sometimes, when we gets pushed up," said the Captain, who now began arranging the clams and sliced potatoes in alternate layers with sea-biscuit, strewing in salt and pepper as he went on; and, in a few moments, a smell, fragrant to hungry senses, began to steam upward, and Sally began washing and preparing some mammoth clam-shells, to serve as ladles and plates for the future chowder.

"Oh, well, you know, we all do things that aren't exactly right sometimes when we feel pressured," said the Captain, who started layering clams and sliced potatoes with sea biscuit, sprinkling in salt and pepper as he went along. In a few moments, a delicious smell began to waft up, appealing to hungry senses, and Sally started washing and preparing some huge clam shells to use as ladles and plates for the chowder.

Mara, who sat with her morsel of a book in her lap, seemed deeply pondering the past conversation. At last she said, "What did you mean by saying you'd seen 'em act that at a theatre?"

Mara, who sat with her small book in her lap, seemed to be deep in thought about the previous conversation. Finally, she said, "What did you mean when you said you'd seen them do that at a theater?"

"Why, they make it all seem real; and they have a shipwreck, and you see it all jist right afore your eyes."

"Why, they make it all seem real; and they have a shipwreck, and you see it all just right in front of your eyes."

"And the Enchanter, and Ariel, and Caliban, and all?" said Mara.

"And what about the Enchanter, Ariel, Caliban, and everyone else?" asked Mara.

"Yes, all on't,—plain as printing."

"Yes, all of it,—clear as print."

"Why, that is by magic, ain't it?" said Mara.

"Wow, that's magic, right?" said Mara.

"No; they hes ways to jist make it up; but,"—added the Captain, "Sally, you needn't say nothin' to your ma 'bout the theatre, 'cause she wouldn't think I's fit to go to meetin' for six months arter, if she heard on't."

"No; they have ways to just make it up; but,"—added the Captain, "Sally, you don't need to say anything to your mom about the theater, because she wouldn't think I'm fit to go to church for six months after she hears about it."

"Why, ain't theatres good?" said Sally.

"Why, aren't theaters great?" said Sally.

"Wal', there's a middlin' sight o' bad things in 'em,"[Pg 142] said the Captain, "that I must say; but as long as folks is folks, why, they will be folksy;—but there's never any makin' women folk understand about them ar things."

"Well, there are quite a few bad things in them,"[Pg 142] said the Captain, "that I have to admit; but as long as people are people, they'll always be a bit quirky;—but there's no way to make women understand those things."

"I am sorry they are bad," said Mara; "I want to see them."

"I’m sorry they’re not great," said Mara; "I want to see them."

"Wal', wal'," said the Captain, "on the hull I've seen real things a good deal more wonderful than all their shows, and they hain't no make-b'lieve to 'em; but theatres is takin' arter all. But, Sally, mind you don't say nothin' to Mis' Kittridge."

"Well, well," said the Captain, "on the hull I've seen real things a lot more amazing than all their shows, and they aren't pretend at all; but theaters are still something. But, Sally, make sure you don't say anything to Mrs. Kittridge."

A few moments more and all discussion was lost in preparations for the meal, and each one, receiving a portion of the savory stew in a large shell, made a spoon of a small cockle, and with some slices of bread and butter, the evening meal went off merrily. The sun was sloping toward the ocean; the wide blue floor was bedropped here and there with rosy shadows of sailing clouds. Suddenly the Captain sprang up, calling out,—

A few moments later, all conversation faded as everyone focused on getting ready for the meal. Each person received a helping of the delicious stew in a large shell and used a small cockle as a spoon. With some slices of bread and butter, the evening meal turned out to be cheerful. The sun was setting toward the ocean, and the vast blue sky was scattered with rosy shadows cast by sailing clouds. Suddenly, the Captain jumped up, calling out,—

"Sure as I'm alive, there they be!"

"Sure as I'm alive, there they are!"

"Who?" exclaimed the children.

"Who?" the kids exclaimed.

"Why, Captain Pennel and Moses; don't you see?"

"Why, Captain Pennel and Moses; can’t you see?"

And, in fact, on the outer circle of the horizon came drifting a line of small white-breasted vessels, looking like so many doves.

And, in fact, on the outer edge of the horizon, a line of small white-breasted boats appeared, looking like a bunch of doves.

"Them's 'em," said the Captain, while Mara danced for joy.

"Them's the ones," said the Captain, while Mara danced with joy.

"How soon will they be here?"

"When will they get here?"

"Afore long," said the Captain; "so, Mara, I guess you'll want to be getting hum."

"A little while longer," said the Captain; "so, Mara, I guess you'll want to be heading home."


CHAPTER XV

THE HOME COMING

[Pg 143]Mrs. Pennel, too, had seen the white, dove-like cloud on the horizon, and had hurried to make biscuits, and conduct other culinary preparations which should welcome the wanderers home.

[Pg 143]Mrs. Pennel had also spotted the white, dove-like cloud on the horizon and rushed to make biscuits and do other cooking to welcome the travelers home.

The sun was just dipping into the great blue sea—a round ball of fire—and sending long, slanting tracks of light across the top of each wave, when a boat was moored at the beach, and the minister sprang out,—not in his suit of ceremony, but attired in fisherman's garb.

The sun was just setting into the vast blue ocean—a round ball of fire—casting long, angled beams of light across the surface of every wave, when a boat was anchored at the shore, and the minister jumped out—not in his formal suit, but dressed in fisherman’s clothes.

"Good afternoon, Mrs. Pennel," he said. "I was out fishing, and I thought I saw your husband's schooner in the distance. I thought I'd come and tell you."

"Good afternoon, Mrs. Pennel," he said. "I was out fishing and thought I saw your husband's boat in the distance. I figured I should come and let you know."

"Thank you, Mr. Sewell. I thought I saw it, but I was not certain. Do come in; the Captain would be delighted to see you here."

"Thank you, Mr. Sewell. I thought I saw it, but I wasn't sure. Please come in; the Captain would be happy to see you here."

"We miss your husband in our meetings," said Mr. Sewell; "it will be good news for us all when he comes home; he is one of those I depend on to help me preach."

"We really miss your husband in our meetings," Mr. Sewell said. "It'll be great news for all of us when he comes back; he's one of the people I rely on to help me with preaching."

"I'm sure you don't preach to anybody who enjoys it more," said Mrs. Pennel. "He often tells me that the greatest trouble about his voyages to the Banks is that he loses so many sanctuary privileges; though he always keeps Sunday on his ship, and reads and sings his psalms; but, he says, after all, there's nothing like going to Mount Zion."

"I'm sure you don’t preach to anyone who loves it more," said Mrs. Pennel. "He often tells me that the biggest issue with his trips to the Banks is that he loses so many sanctuary privileges; still, he always observes Sunday on his ship and reads and sings his psalms; however, he says, in the end, there’s nothing like going to Mount Zion."

"And little Moses has gone on his first voyage?" said the minister.[Pg 144]

"And little Moses has gone on his first trip?" said the minister.[Pg 144]

"Yes, indeed; the child has been teasing to go for more than a year. Finally the Cap'n told him if he'd be faithful in the ploughing and planting, he should go. You see, he's rather unsteady, and apt to be off after other things,—very different from Mara. Whatever you give her to do, she always keeps at it till it's done."

"Yes, the kid has been begging to go for over a year now. Finally, the Captain told him that if he'd stick to the plowing and planting, he could go. You see, he's a bit unreliable and tends to wander off to other things—very different from Mara. No matter what you assign her, she always sees it through to the end."

"And pray, where is the little lady?" said the minister; "is she gone?"

"And, where's the little lady?" asked the minister; "is she gone?"

"Well, Cap'n Kittridge came in this afternoon to take her down to see Sally. The Cap'n's always so fond of Mara, and she has always taken to him ever since she was a baby."

"Well, Captain Kittridge came in this afternoon to take her to see Sally. The Captain's always been so fond of Mara, and she has liked him ever since she was a baby."

"The Captain is a curious creature," said the minister, smiling.

"The Captain is a curious character," said the minister, smiling.

Mrs. Pennel smiled also; and it is to be remarked that nobody ever mentioned the poor Captain's name without the same curious smile.

Mrs. Pennel smiled too, and it's interesting to note that no one ever brought up the poor Captain's name without that same curious smile.

"The Cap'n is a good-hearted, obliging creature," said Mrs. Pennel, "and a master-hand for telling stories to the children."

"The Cap'n is a kind-hearted, helpful guy," said Mrs. Pennel, "and he's really great at telling stories to the kids."

"Yes, a perfect 'Arabian Nights' Entertainment,'" said Mr. Sewell.

"Yeah, a perfect 'Arabian Nights' entertainment," Mr. Sewell said.

"Well, I really believe the Cap'n believes his own stories," said Mrs. Pennel; "he always seems to, and certainly a more obliging man and a kinder neighbor couldn't be. He has been in and out almost every day since I've been alone, to see if I wanted anything. He would insist on chopping wood and splitting kindlings for me, though I told him the Cap'n and Moses had left a plenty to last till they came home."

"Well, I honestly think the Cap'n really believes his own stories," said Mrs. Pennel. "He always seems to, and honestly, you couldn't ask for a more helpful and kind neighbor. He's been dropping by almost every day since I've been on my own, just checking if I need anything. He insists on chopping wood and splitting kindling for me, even though I've told him the Cap'n and Moses left enough to last until they get back."

At this moment the subject of their conversation appeared striding along the beach, with a large, red lobster in one hand, while with the other he held little Mara upon his shoulder, she the while clapping her hands and singing merrily, as she saw the Brilliant out on the open blue sea,[Pg 145] its white sails looking of a rosy purple in the evening light, careering gayly homeward.

At that moment, the person they were talking about came walking along the beach, holding a large red lobster in one hand and little Mara on his shoulder with the other. She was clapping her hands and singing happily as she spotted the Brilliant out on the open blue sea, its white sails glowing a rosy purple in the evening light, making its way home cheerfully.[Pg 145]

"There is Captain Kittridge this very minute," said Mrs. Pennel, setting down a tea-cup she had been wiping, and going to the door.

"There is Captain Kittridge right now," said Mrs. Pennel, putting down a tea cup she had been drying, and heading to the door.

"Good evening, Mis' Pennel," said the Captain. "I s'pose you see your folks are comin'. I brought down one of these 'ere ready b'iled, 'cause I thought it might make out your supper."

"Good evening, Ms. Pennel," said the Captain. "I assume you see your family is coming. I brought one of these ready-to-eat meals because I thought it might help with your dinner."

"Thank you, Captain; you must stay and take some with us."

"Thank you, Captain; you have to stay and join us for some."

"Wal', me and the children have pooty much done our supper," said the Captain. "We made a real fust-rate chowder down there to the cove; but I'll jist stay and see what the Cap'n's luck is. Massy!" he added, as he looked in at the door, "if you hain't got the minister there! Wal', now, I come jist as I be," he added, with a glance down at his clothes.

"Well, the kids and I have pretty much finished our dinner," said the Captain. "We made a really great chowder down at the cove; but I’ll just stick around and see how the Captain’s luck is. Wow!" he added, looking in at the door, "if you don’t have the minister there! Well, here I am just as I am," he said, glancing down at his clothes.

"Never mind, Captain," said Mr. Sewell; "I'm in my fishing-clothes, so we're even."

"Don't worry about it, Captain," Mr. Sewell said; "I'm in my fishing clothes, so we’re good."

As to little Mara, she had run down to the beach, and stood so near the sea, that every dash of the tide-wave forced her little feet to tread an inch backward, stretching out her hands eagerly toward the schooner, which was standing straight toward the small wharf, not far from their door. Already she could see on deck figures moving about, and her sharp little eyes made out a small personage in a red shirt that was among the most active. Soon all the figures grew distinct, and she could see her grandfather's gray head, and alert, active form, and could see, by the signs he made, that he had perceived the little blowy figure that stood, with hair streaming in the wind, like some flower bent seaward.

As for little Mara, she had run down to the beach and stood so close to the sea that every wave pushed her tiny feet back an inch. She reached out her hands eagerly toward the schooner that was heading straight for the small wharf not far from their door. She could already see figures moving around on deck, and her sharp little eyes spotted a small person in a red shirt who was among the most active. Soon, all the figures became clear, and she could see her grandfather's gray head and lively, active form. She could tell by the gestures he made that he had noticed the little, breezy figure standing there, with hair streaming in the wind, like a flower leaning toward the sea.

And now they are come nearer, and Moses shouts and dances on the deck, and the Captain and Mrs. Pennel come[Pg 146] running from the house down to the shore, and a few minutes more, and all are landed safe and sound, and little Mara is carried up to the house in her grandfather's arms, while Captain Kittridge stops to have a few moments' gossip with Ben Halliday and Tom Scranton before they go to their own resting-places.

And now they are getting closer, and Moses shouts and dances on the deck, while the Captain and Mrs. Pennel come running from the house down to the shore. Just a few minutes later, everyone is safely ashore, and little Mara is carried up to the house in her grandfather's arms, while Captain Kittridge takes a moment to chat with Ben Halliday and Tom Scranton before they head to their own resting places.

Meanwhile Moses loses not a moment in boasting of his heroic exploits to Mara.

Meanwhile, Moses doesn’t waste any time bragging about his heroic deeds to Mara.

"Oh, Mara! you've no idea what times we've had! I can fish equal to any of 'em, and I can take in sail and tend the helm like anything, and I know all the names of everything; and you ought to have seen us catch fish! Why, they bit just as fast as we could throw; and it was just throw and bite,—throw and bite,—throw and bite; and my hands got blistered pulling in, but I didn't mind it,—I was determined no one should beat me."

"Oh, Mara! You have no idea what times we've had! I can fish just as well as anyone else, and I can handle the sails and steer like a pro, and I know all the names of everything. You should have seen us catching fish! They were biting as fast as we could cast. It was just throw and bite—throw and bite—throw and bite; my hands were blistered from reeling them in, but I didn't care. I was determined not to let anyone outdo me."

"Oh! did you blister your hands?" said Mara, pitifully.

"Oh no! Did you burn your hands?" said Mara, sympathetically.

"Oh, to be sure! Now, you girls think that's a dreadful thing, but we men don't mind it. My hands are getting so hard, you've no idea. And, Mara, we caught a great shark."

"Oh, for sure! Now, you girls might think that's a terrible thing, but we guys don’t mind it. My hands are getting so tough, you have no idea. And, Mara, we caught a huge shark."

"A shark!—oh, how dreadful! Isn't he dangerous?"

"A shark!—oh, that's terrifying! Isn't he dangerous?"

"Dangerous! I guess not. We served him out, I tell you. He'll never eat any more people, I tell you, the old wretch!"

"Dangerous! I don't think so. We took care of him, I swear. He'll never eat another person, I promise you, that old creep!"

"But, poor shark, it isn't his fault that he eats people. He was made so," said Mara, unconsciously touching a deep theological mystery.

"But poor shark, it's not his fault that he eats people. He was made that way," said Mara, unconsciously touching on a deep theological mystery.

"Well, I don't know but he was," said Moses; "but sharks that we catch never eat any more, I'll bet you."

"Well, I don't know about that, but he was," said Moses; "but I bet the sharks we catch never eat again."

"Oh, Moses, did you see any icebergs?"

"Oh, Moses, did you spot any icebergs?"

"Icebergs! yes; we passed right by one,—a real grand one."

"Icebergs! Yes, we passed right by one—a really impressive one."

"Were there any bears on it?"[Pg 147]

"Were there any bears on it?"[Pg 147]

"Bears! No; we didn't see any."

"Bears! No, we didn't spot any."

"Captain Kittridge says there are white bears live on 'em."

"Captain Kittridge says there are polar bears living on them."

"Oh, Captain Kittridge," said Moses, with a toss of superb contempt; "if you're going to believe all he says, you've got your hands full."

"Oh, Captain Kittridge," said Moses, with a dismissive toss of his head; "if you're going to believe everything he says, you have your work cut out for you."

"Why, Moses, you don't think he tells lies?" said Mara, the tears actually starting in her eyes. "I think he is real good, and tells nothing but the truth."

"Why, Moses, you really don't think he lies?" said Mara, tears welling up in her eyes. "I think he’s really good and only tells the truth."

"Well, well, you are young yet," said Moses, turning away with an air of easy grandeur, "and only a girl besides," he added.

"Well, well, you’re still young," said Moses, turning away with a sense of effortless confidence, "and just a girl on top of that," he added.

Mara was nettled at this speech. First, it pained her to have her child's faith shaken in anything, and particularly in her good old friend, the Captain; and next, she felt, with more force than ever she did before, the continual disparaging tone in which Moses spoke of her girlhood.

Mara was irritated by this speech. First, it upset her to have her child's faith shaken in anything, especially in her good old friend, the Captain; and next, she felt stronger than ever the ongoing condescending tone in which Moses talked about her young years.

"I'm sure," she said to herself, "he oughtn't to feel so about girls and women. There was Deborah was a prophetess, and judged Israel; and there was Egeria,—she taught Numa Pompilius all his wisdom."

"I'm sure," she said to herself, "he shouldn't feel that way about girls and women. There was Deborah, a prophetess who judged Israel; and there was Egeria—she taught Numa Pompilius all his wisdom."

But it was not the little maiden's way to speak when anything thwarted or hurt her, but rather to fold all her feelings and thoughts inward, as some insects, with fine gauzy wings, draw them under a coat of horny concealment. Somehow, there was a shivering sense of disappointment in all this meeting with Moses. She had dwelt upon it, and fancied so much, and had so many things to say to him; and he had come home so self-absorbed and glorious, and seemed to have had so little need of or thought for her, that she felt a cold, sad sinking at her heart; and walking away very still and white, sat down demurely by her grandfather's knee.

But the little girl didn't express herself when something upset or hurt her; instead, she kept her feelings and thoughts to herself, like some insects with delicate, see-through wings that hide away under a tough cover. There was a distinct sense of disappointment in her encounter with Moses. She had thought about it a lot, imagined so much, and had many things to say to him; yet he returned home so wrapped up in himself and triumphant, seeming to have little need or consideration for her. This made her feel a cold, sad heaviness in her heart. Quiet and pale, she walked away and sat down gracefully by her grandfather's knee.

"Well, so my little girl is glad grandfather's come," he said, lifting her fondly in his arms, and putting her golden[Pg 148] head under his coat, as he had been wont to do from infancy; "grandpa thought a great deal about his little Mara."

"Well, my little girl is happy that grandpa is here," he said, lifting her affectionately in his arms and tucking her golden[Pg 148] head under his coat, just like he had always done since she was a baby; "grandpa thought a lot about his little Mara."

The small heart swelled against his. Kind, faithful old grandpa! how much more he thought about her than Moses; and yet she had thought so much of Moses. And there he sat, this same ungrateful Moses, bright-eyed and rosy-cheeked, full of talk and gayety, full of energy and vigor, as ignorant as possible of the wound he had given to the little loving heart that was silently brooding under her grandfather's butternut-colored sea-coat. Not only was he ignorant, but he had not even those conditions within himself which made knowledge possible. All that there was developed of him, at present, was a fund of energy, self-esteem, hope, courage, and daring, the love of action, life, and adventure; his life was in the outward and present, not in the inward and reflective; he was a true ten-year old boy, in its healthiest and most animal perfection. What she was, the small pearl with the golden hair, with her frail and high-strung organization, her sensitive nerves, her half-spiritual fibres, her ponderings, and marvels, and dreams, her power of love, and yearning for self-devotion, our readers may, perhaps, have seen. But if ever two children, or two grown people, thus organized, are thrown into intimate relations, it follows, from the very laws of their being, that one must hurt the other, simply by being itself; one must always hunger for what the other has not to give.

The small heart pressed against his. Kind, loyal old grandpa! He thought about her so much more than Moses did; yet she cared so much for Moses. And there he was, this same ungrateful Moses, bright-eyed and rosy-cheeked, full of chatter and cheer, bursting with energy and enthusiasm, completely clueless about the pain he had caused the little loving heart that was quietly nestled under her grandfather's butternut-colored coat. Not only was he unaware, but he also lacked the depth within himself that would allow for understanding. All that had developed in him at this moment was a reservoir of energy, self-confidence, hope, courage, and a spirit of adventure; his focus was on the outer world and the present, rather than the inner and reflective; he was an authentic ten-year-old boy, in its healthiest and most vibrant form. As for her, the small pearl with the golden hair, with her delicate and high-strung nature, her sensitive nerves, her ethereal qualities, her thoughts, wonders, and dreams, her capacity for love, and longing for self-sacrifice, our readers may have encountered before. But whenever two children, or two adults, with such natures are placed in close proximity, it inevitably leads to one causing pain to the other, just by being themselves; one will always yearn for what the other cannot provide.

It was a merry meal, however, when they all sat down to the tea-table once more, and Mara by her grandfather's side, who often stopped what he was saying to stroke her head fondly. Moses bore a more prominent part in the conversation than he had been wont to do before this voyage, and all seemed to listen to him with a kind of indulgence elders often accord to a handsome, manly boy, in the[Pg 149] first flush of some successful enterprise. That ignorant confidence in one's self and one's future, which comes in life's first dawn, has a sort of mournful charm in experienced eyes, who know how much it all amounts to.

It was a joyful meal, though, when they all gathered around the tea table again, with Mara sitting next to her grandfather, who frequently paused his conversation to lovingly stroke her head. Moses played a more prominent role in the discussion than he usually did before this trip, and everyone seemed to listen to him with a kind of indulgence that older folks often show to a good-looking, masculine boy in the[Pg 149] initial thrill of a successful adventure. That ignorant self-assurance about oneself and one’s future, which comes in the first light of life, carries a bittersweet charm in the eyes of those with experience, who know how little it all truly means.

Gradually, little Mara quieted herself with listening to and admiring him. It is not comfortable to have any heart-quarrel with one's cherished idol, and everything of the feminine nature, therefore, can speedily find fifty good reasons for seeing one's self in the wrong and one's graven image in the right; and little Mara soon had said to herself, without words, that, of course, Moses couldn't be expected to think as much of her as she of him. He was handsomer, cleverer, and had a thousand other things to do and to think of—he was a boy, in short, and going to be a glorious man and sail all over the world, while she could only hem handkerchiefs and knit stockings, and sit at home and wait for him to come back. This was about the résumé of life as it appeared to the little one, who went on from the moment worshiping her image with more undivided idolatry than ever, hoping that by and by he would think more of her.

Gradually, little Mara calmed down as she listened to and admired him. It’s uncomfortable to have any conflict with someone you idolize, and so, everything feminine can quickly come up with fifty good reasons to see oneself as wrong and the idol as right. Little Mara soon concluded, without saying it out loud, that of course, Moses couldn’t be expected to care about her as much as she cared about him. He was more attractive, smarter, and had a thousand other things to do and think about—he was a boy, after all, destined to become an amazing man and travel all over the world, while she could only hem handkerchiefs, knit stockings, and wait at home for him to return. This was the summary of life as it seemed to her, and she continued to worship her image with even more undivided adoration, hoping that someday he would think more of her.

Mr. Sewell appeared to study Moses carefully and thoughtfully, and encouraged the wild, gleeful frankness which he had brought home from his first voyage, as a knowing jockey tries the paces of a high-mettled colt.

Mr. Sewell seemed to examine Moses attentively and thoughtfully, and he supported the wild, joyful honesty that Moses had returned with from his first trip, much like an experienced jockey assesses the speed of a spirited young horse.

"Did you get any time to read?" he interposed once, when the boy stopped in his account of their adventures.

"Did you have any time to read?" he interrupted once, when the boy paused in his story about their adventures.

"No, sir," said Moses; "at least," he added, blushing very deeply, "I didn't feel like reading. I had so much to do, and there was so much to see."

"No, sir," said Moses; "well," he added, blushing deeply, "I just didn’t feel like reading. I had a lot to do, and there was so much to see."

"It's all new to him now," said Captain Pennel; "but when he comes to being, as I've been, day after day, with nothing but sea and sky, he'll be glad of a book, just to break the sameness."

"It's all new to him now," said Captain Pennel. "But when he experiences, like I have, day after day with nothing but sea and sky, he'll appreciate having a book to break the monotony."

"Laws, yes," said Captain Kittridge; "sailor's life ain't[Pg 150] all apple-pie, as it seems when a boy first goes on a summer trip with his daddy—not by no manner o' means."

"Laws, yes," said Captain Kittridge; "a sailor's life isn't[Pg 150] all fun and games, like it seems when a kid first goes on a summer trip with his dad—not at all."

"But," said Mara, blushing and looking very eagerly at Mr. Sewell, "Moses has read a great deal. He read the Roman and the Grecian history through before he went away, and knows all about them."

"But," said Mara, blushing and looking very eagerly at Mr. Sewell, "Moses has read a lot. He went through Roman and Greek history before he left, and he knows all about them."

"Indeed!" said Mr. Sewell, turning with an amused look towards the tiny little champion; "do you read them, too, my little maid?"

"Absolutely!" Mr. Sewell replied, turning with a playful expression toward the tiny little champion. "Do you read them as well, my little girl?"

"Yes, indeed," said Mara, her eyes kindling; "I have read them a great deal since Moses went away—them and the Bible."

"Yes, definitely," said Mara, her eyes lighting up; "I've read them a lot since Moses left—those and the Bible."

Mara did not dare to name her new-found treasure—there was something so mysterious about that, that she could not venture to produce it, except on the score of extreme intimacy.

Mara didn't dare to name her new treasure—there was something so mysterious about it that she couldn't bring it out, except in cases of extreme closeness.

"Come, sit by me, little Mara," said the minister, putting out his hand; "you and I must be friends, I see."

"Come, sit with me, little Mara," said the minister, extending his hand; "I can see that you and I need to be friends."

Mr. Sewell had a certain something of mesmeric power in his eyes which children seldom resisted; and with a shrinking movement, as if both attracted and repelled, the little girl got upon his knee.

Mr. Sewell had a captivating quality in his eyes that children rarely resisted; and with a hesitant movement, as if drawn in yet unsure, the little girl climbed onto his knee.

"So you like the Bible and Roman history?" he said to her, making a little aside for her, while a brisk conversation was going on between Captain Kittridge and Captain Pennel on the fishing bounty for the year.

"So you like the Bible and Roman history?" he said to her, making a little side comment while a lively conversation was happening between Captain Kittridge and Captain Pennel about this year's fishing bounty.

"Yes, sir," said Mara, blushing in a very guilty way.

"Yes, sir," Mara said, blushing in a very guilty manner.

"And which do you like the best?"

"And which one do you like the most?"

"I don't know, sir; I sometimes think it is the one, and sometimes the other."

"I don't know, sir; sometimes I think it's one thing, and sometimes I think it's another."

"Well, what pleases you in the Roman history?"

"Well, what do you find interesting in Roman history?"

"Oh, I like that about Quintus Curtius."

"Oh, I like that about Quintus Curtius."

"Quintus Curtius?" said Mr. Sewell, pretending not to remember.

"Quintus Curtius?" Mr. Sewell said, acting like he couldn't remember.

"Oh, don't you remember him? why, there was a great[Pg 151] gulf opened in the Forum, and the Augurs said that the country would not be saved unless some one would offer himself up for it, and so he jumped right in, all on horseback. I think that was grand. I should like to have done that," said little Mara, her eyes blazing out with a kind of starry light which they had when she was excited.

"Oh, don't you remember him? There was a huge[Pg 151] gap opened in the Forum, and the Augurs said that the country wouldn’t be saved unless someone offered themselves for it. So, he just jumped right in, all on horseback. I think that was amazing. I would have loved to do that," said little Mara, her eyes shining with a kind of starry light that they had when she was excited.

"And how would you have liked it, if you had been a Roman girl, and Moses were Quintus Curtius? would you like to have him give himself up for the good of the country?"

"And how would you have felt if you were a Roman girl, and Moses was Quintus Curtius? Would you want him to sacrifice himself for the good of the country?"

"Oh, no, no!" said Mara, instinctively shuddering.

"Oh, no, no!" Mara said, instinctively shuddering.

"Don't you think it would be very grand of him?"

"Don't you think it would be really impressive of him?"

"Oh, yes, sir."

"Yes, sir."

"And shouldn't we wish our friends to do what is brave and grand?"

"And shouldn't we want our friends to be brave and do amazing things?"

"Yes, sir; but then," she added, "it would be so dreadful never to see him any more," and a large tear rolled from the great soft eyes and fell on the minister's hand.

"Yes, sir; but then," she added, "it would be so awful never to see him again," and a big tear rolled from her large soft eyes and fell onto the minister's hand.

"Come, come," thought Mr. Sewell, "this sort of experimenting is too bad—too much nerve here, too much solitude, too much pine-whispering and sea-dashing are going to the making up of this little piece of workmanship."

"Come on," thought Mr. Sewell, "this kind of experimenting is just too much—too much tension, too much isolation, too much pine trees rustling and waves crashing are all coming together in this little piece of work."

"Tell me," he said, motioning Moses to sit by him, "how you like the Roman history."

"Tell me," he said, beckoning Moses to sit next to him, "how do you feel about Roman history?"

"I like it first-rate," said Moses. "The Romans were such smashers, and beat everybody; nobody could stand against them; and I like Alexander, too—I think he was splendid."

"I think it's amazing," said Moses. "The Romans were such powerhouses and defeated everyone; nobody could stand up to them; and I like Alexander too—I think he was fantastic."

"True boy," said Mr. Sewell to himself, "unreflecting brother of the wind and the sea, and all that is vigorous and active—no precocious development of the moral here."

"True boy," Mr. Sewell said to himself, "carefree sibling of the wind and the sea, and everything that’s lively and energetic—there's no early maturity of the moral here."

"Now you have come," said Mr. Sewell, "I will lend you another book."[Pg 152]

"Now that you're here," said Mr. Sewell, "I'll lend you another book."[Pg 152]

"Thank you, sir; I love to read them when I'm at home—it's so still here. I should be dull if I didn't."

"Thanks, sir; I love reading them when I'm at home—it's so quiet here. I'd be boring if I didn't."

Mara's eyes looked eagerly attentive. Mr. Sewell noticed their hungry look when a book was spoken of.

Mara's eyes were wide with interest. Mr. Sewell noticed their eager look whenever someone mentioned a book.

"And you must read it, too, my little girl," he said.

"And you have to read it, too, my little girl," he said.

"Thank you, sir," said Mara; "I always want to read everything Moses does."

"Thank you, sir," Mara said. "I always want to read everything Moses does."

"What book is it?" said Moses.

"What book is it?" Moses asked.

"It is called Plutarch's 'Lives,'" said the minister; "it has more particular accounts of the men you read about in history."

"It’s called Plutarch's 'Lives,'" the minister said. "It has more detailed stories about the historical figures you read about."

"Are there any lives of women?" said Mara.

"Are there any stories about women?" Mara asked.

"No, my dear," said Mr. Sewell; "in the old times, women did not get their lives written, though I don't doubt many of them were much better worth writing than the men's."

"No, my dear," Mr. Sewell said; "back in the day, women didn’t have their lives documented, even though I have no doubt many of them were much more worthy of being written about than the men’s."

"I should like to be a great general," said Moses, with a toss of his head.

"I want to be a great general," said Moses, tossing his head.

"The way to be great lies through books, now, and not through battles," said the minister; "there is more done with pens than swords; so, if you want to do anything, you must read and study."

"The path to greatness comes through books now, not through battles," said the minister. "More is accomplished with pens than swords, so if you want to achieve anything, you need to read and study."

"Do you think of giving this boy a liberal education?" said Mr. Sewell some time later in the evening, after Moses and Mara were gone to bed.

"Are you considering giving this boy a liberal education?" said Mr. Sewell some time later in the evening, after Moses and Mara had gone to bed.

"Depends on the boy," said Zephaniah. "I've been up to Brunswick, and seen the fellows there in the college. With a good many of 'em, going to college seems to be just nothing but a sort of ceremony; they go because they're sent, and don't learn anything more'n they can help. That's what I call waste of time and money."

"Depends on the guy," said Zephaniah. "I've been up to Brunswick and seen the students at the college. For a lot of them, going to college feels more like a formality; they go because they have to, and they don’t learn anything more than they need to. That’s what I call a waste of time and money."

"But don't you think Moses shows some taste for reading and study?"

"But don't you think Moses has a real interest in reading and learning?"

"Pretty well, pretty well!" said Zephaniah; "jist keep him a little hungry; not let him get all he wants, you see,[Pg 153] and he'll bite the sharper. If I want to catch cod, I don't begin with flingin' over a barrel o' bait. So with the boys, jist bait 'em with a book here and a book there, and kind o' let 'em feel their own way, and then, if nothin' will do but a fellow must go to college, give in to him—that'd be my way."

"Pretty good, pretty good!" said Zephaniah; "just keep him a little hungry; don’t give him everything he wants, you see,[Pg 153] and he'll engage more. If I want to catch cod, I don't start by throwing out a whole barrel of bait. Same with the boys, just tease them with a book here and a book there, and let them find their own way, and then, if nothing else will do but a guy has to go to college, go ahead and let him—that's my approach."

"And a very good one, too!" said Mr. Sewell. "I'll see if I can't bait my hook, so as to make Moses take after Latin this winter. I shall have plenty of time to teach him."

"And a really good one, too!" said Mr. Sewell. "I'll see if I can bait my hook to get Moses interested in Latin this winter. I’ll have plenty of time to teach him."

"Now, there's Mara!" said the Captain, his face becoming phosphorescent with a sort of mild radiance of pleasure as it usually was when he spoke of her; "she's real sharp set after books; she's ready to fly out of her little skin at the sight of one."

"Now, there's Mara!" said the Captain, his face lighting up with a soft glow of pleasure as it usually did when he talked about her; "she's really eager for books; she seems ready to jump out of her skin at the sight of one."

"That child thinks too much, and feels too much, and knows too much for her years!" said Mr. Sewell. "If she were a boy, and you would take her away cod-fishing, as you have Moses, the sea-winds would blow away some of the thinking, and her little body would grow stout, and her mind less delicate and sensitive. But she's a woman," he said, with a sigh, "and they are all alike. We can't do much for them, but let them come up as they will and make the best of it."

"That kid thinks way too much, feels way too much, and knows way too much for her age!" said Mr. Sewell. "If she were a boy and you took her cod-fishing like you did with Moses, the sea winds would blow away some of those thoughts, and her little body would get stronger, and her mind wouldn't be so delicate and sensitive. But she's a girl," he said, with a sigh, "and they’re all the same. There's not much we can do for them except let them grow up how they will and make the best of it."


CHAPTER XVI

THE NATURAL AND THE SPIRITUAL

[Pg 154]"Emily," said Mr. Sewell, "did you ever take much notice of that little Mara Lincoln?"

[Pg 154]"Emily," Mr. Sewell said, "have you ever paid much attention to that girl Mara Lincoln?"

"No, brother; why?"

"No, bro; why?"

"Because I think her a very uncommon child."

"Because I think she's a very unique child."

"She is a pretty little creature," said Miss Emily, "but that is all I know; modest—blushing to her eyes when a stranger speaks to her."

"She's a pretty little thing," said Miss Emily, "but that's all I know; she's modest—blushing up to her eyes when a stranger talks to her."

"She has wonderful eyes," said Mr. Sewell; "when she gets excited, they grow so large and so bright, it seems almost unnatural."

"She has amazing eyes," Mr. Sewell said. "When she gets excited, they become so big and so bright that it almost seems unnatural."

"Dear me! has she?" said Miss Emily, in a tone of one who had been called upon to do something about it. "Well?" she added, inquiringly.

"Really? Has she?" said Miss Emily, sounding like someone who had to take action. "Well?" she added, questioningly.

"That little thing is only seven years old," said Mr. Sewell; "and she is thinking and feeling herself all into mere spirit—brain and nerves all active, and her little body so frail. She reads incessantly, and thinks over and over what she reads."

"That little girl is only seven years old," said Mr. Sewell; "and she is immersing herself completely in ideas—her mind and nerves are all engaged, but her little body is so fragile. She reads constantly and keeps replaying what she reads in her mind."

"Well?" said Miss Emily, winding very swiftly on a skein of black silk, and giving a little twitch, every now and then, to a knot to make it subservient.

"Well?" said Miss Emily, quickly winding a skein of black silk and giving a little tug now and then to a knot to keep it in check.

It was commonly the way when Mr. Sewell began to talk with Miss Emily, that she constantly answered him with the manner of one who expects some immediate, practical proposition to flow from every train of thought. Now Mr. Sewell was one of the reflecting kind of men, whose thoughts have a thousand meandering paths, that lead no[Pg 155]where in particular. His sister's brisk little "Well's?" and "Ah's!" and "Indeed's!" were sometimes the least bit in the world annoying.

It was usually the case when Mr. Sewell started talking with Miss Emily that she always replied as if she was waiting for a straightforward, practical suggestion to come from every thought. Mr. Sewell, on the other hand, was the type of guy who reflected deeply, with thoughts that wandered down countless paths leading nowhere in particular. His sister's quick little "Well's?" and "Ah's!" and "Indeed's!" could sometimes be just a little bit annoying.

"What is to be done?" said Miss Emily; "shall we speak to Mrs. Pennel?"

"What should we do?" said Miss Emily. "Should we talk to Mrs. Pennel?"

"Mrs. Pennel would know nothing about her."

"Mrs. Pennel wouldn't know anything about her."

"How strangely you talk!—who should, if she doesn't?"

"How weirdly you talk!—who else should, if she doesn't?"

"I mean, she wouldn't understand the dangers of her case."

"I mean, she wouldn't get the risks of her situation."

"Dangers! Do you think she has any disease? She seems to be a healthy child enough, I'm sure. She has a lovely color in her cheeks."

"Dangers! Do you think she has any illness? She seems to be a healthy enough child, I'm sure. She has a beautiful color in her cheeks."

Mr. Sewell seemed suddenly to become immersed in a book he was reading.

Mr. Sewell suddenly seemed to get lost in a book he was reading.

"There now," said Miss Emily, with a little tone of pique, "that's the way you always do. You begin to talk with me, and just as I get interested in the conversation, you take up a book. It's too bad."

"There now," said Miss Emily, with a hint of annoyance, "that's how you always are. You start chatting with me, and just when I get into the conversation, you pick up a book. That's unfair."

"Emily," said Mr. Sewell, laying down his book, "I think I shall begin to give Moses Pennel Latin lessons this winter."

"Emily," said Mr. Sewell, putting down his book, "I think I'm going to start giving Moses Pennel Latin lessons this winter."

"Why, what do you undertake that for?" said Miss Emily. "You have enough to do without that, I'm sure."

"Why are you doing that?" Miss Emily asked. "You have plenty to keep you busy without adding that, I'm sure."

"He is an uncommonly bright boy, and he interests me."

"He is an unusually smart boy, and he fascinates me."

"Now, brother, you needn't tell me; there is some mystery about the interest you take in that child, you know there is."

"Now, brother, you don't have to tell me; there's something mysterious about your interest in that child, you know there is."

"I am fond of children," said Mr. Sewell, dryly.

"I like kids," Mr. Sewell said dryly.

"Well, but you don't take as much interest in other boys. I never heard of your teaching any of them Latin before."

"Well, you don't seem to care as much about the other boys. I've never heard of you teaching any of them Latin before."

"Well, Emily, he is an uncommonly interesting child,[Pg 156] and the providential circumstances under which he came into our neighborhood"—

"Well, Emily, he's an exceptionally interesting kid,[Pg 156] and the fortunate events that brought him to our neighborhood"—

"Providential fiddlesticks!" said Miss Emily, with heightened color, "I believe you knew that boy's mother."

"Ridiculous!" said Miss Emily, blushing, "I think you knew that boy's mother."

This sudden thrust brought a vivid color into Mr. Sewell's cheeks. To be interrupted so unceremoniously, in the midst of so very proper and ministerial a remark, was rather provoking, and he answered, with some asperity,—

This sudden push brought a bright flush to Mr. Sewell's cheeks. Being interrupted so abruptly, right in the middle of such a proper and ministerial remark, was quite annoying, and he replied, somewhat sharply,—

"And suppose I had, Emily, and supposing there were any painful subject connected with this past event, you might have sufficient forbearance not to try to make me speak on what I do not wish to talk of."

"And what if I had, Emily, and let's say there was any difficult topic related to this past event, you might have enough patience not to push me to discuss what I don’t want to talk about."

Mr. Sewell was one of your gentle, dignified men, from whom Heaven deliver an inquisitive female friend! If such people would only get angry, and blow some unbecoming blast, one might make something of them; but speaking, as they always do, from the serene heights of immaculate propriety, one gets in the wrong before one knows it, and has nothing for it but to beg pardon. Miss Emily had, however, a feminine resource: she began to cry—wisely confining herself to the simple eloquence of tears and sobs. Mr. Sewell sat as awkwardly as if he had trodden on a kitten's toe, or brushed down a china cup, feeling as if he were a great, horrid, clumsy boor, and his poor little sister a martyr.

Mr. Sewell was one of those gentle, dignified men from whom you wish to be delivered from an overly curious female friend! If people like him would just get angry and let out an unflattering outburst, you could do something with them; but since they always speak from their lofty perch of perfect propriety, you end up in trouble before you even realize it, leaving you with no choice but to apologize. Miss Emily, however, had a feminine trick up her sleeve: she started to cry—wisely sticking to the simple power of tears and sobs. Mr. Sewell sat there as awkwardly as if he had stepped on a kitten's paw or knocked over a fine china cup, feeling like a big, clumsy oaf, and his poor little sister a victim.

"Come, Emily," he said, in a softer tone, when the sobs subsided a little.

"Come here, Emily," he said, in a gentler tone, when the crying quieted down a bit.

But Emily didn't "come," but went at it with a fresh burst. Mr. Sewell had a vision like that which drowning men are said to have, in which all Miss Emily's sisterly devotions, stocking-darnings, account-keepings, nursings and tendings, and infinite self-sacrifices, rose up before him: and there she was—crying!

But Emily didn't give up; she tackled it with renewed energy. Mr. Sewell had a vision similar to what drowning men are said to experience, where all of Miss Emily's caring acts, like mending stockings, keeping accounts, nursing, tending to others, and countless sacrifices, flashed before him: and there she was—crying!

"I'm sorry I spoke harshly, Emily. Come, come; that's a good girl."[Pg 157]

"I'm sorry I spoke so harshly, Emily. Come on, that’s a good girl."[Pg 157]

"I'm a silly fool," said Miss Emily, lifting her head, and wiping the tears from her merry little eyes, as she went on winding her silk.

"I'm such a silly fool," said Miss Emily, lifting her head and wiping the tears from her cheerful little eyes as she continued winding her silk.

"Perhaps he will tell me now," she thought, as she wound.

"Maybe he'll tell me now," she thought, as she wound.

But he didn't.

But he chose not to.

"What I was going to say, Emily," said her brother, "was, that I thought it would be a good plan for little Mara to come sometimes with Moses; and then, by observing her more particularly, you might be of use to her; her little, active mind needs good practical guidance like yours."

"What I was going to say, Emily," her brother said, "was that I thought it would be a good idea for little Mara to join Moses sometimes. By paying closer attention to her, you could really help her out; her eager little mind needs the kind of practical guidance that you have."

Mr. Sewell spoke in a gentle, flattering tone, and Miss Emily was flattered; but she soon saw that she had gained nothing by the whole breeze, except a little kind of dread, which made her inwardly resolve never to touch the knocker of his fortress again. But she entered into her brother's scheme with the facile alacrity with which she usually seconded any schemes of his proposing.

Mr. Sewell spoke in a gentle, flattering way, and Miss Emily felt flattered; but she quickly realized that the whole situation brought her nothing but a bit of apprehension, which made her inwardly decide never to touch the knocker of his fortress again. Still, she went along with her brother's plan with the easy enthusiasm she usually showed for any of his proposals.

"I might teach her painting and embroidery," said Miss Emily, glancing, with a satisfied air, at a framed piece of her own work which hung over the mantelpiece, revealing the state of the fine arts in this country, as exhibited in the performances of well-instructed young ladies of that period. Miss Emily had performed it under the tuition of a celebrated teacher of female accomplishments. It represented a white marble obelisk, which an inscription, in legible India ink letters, stated to be "Sacred to the memory of Theophilus Sewell," etc. This obelisk stood in the midst of a ground made very green by an embroidery of different shades of chenille and silk, and was overshadowed by an embroidered weeping-willow. Leaning on it, with her face concealed in a plentiful flow of white handkerchief, was a female figure in deep mourning, designed to represent the desolate widow. A young girl, in a very black[Pg 158] dress, knelt in front of it, and a very lugubrious-looking young man, standing bolt upright on the other side, seemed to hold in his hand one end of a wreath of roses, which the girl was presenting, as an appropriate decoration for the tomb. The girl and gentleman were, of course, the young Theophilus and Miss Emily, and the appalling grief conveyed by the expression of their faces was a triumph of the pictorial art.

"I could teach her painting and embroidery," said Miss Emily, glancing proudly at a framed piece of her work hanging above the mantelpiece, showcasing the state of fine arts in this country as displayed by well-trained young women of that time. Miss Emily had created it under the guidance of a renowned instructor for women's arts. It depicted a white marble obelisk, with an inscription in clear India ink reading "Sacred to the memory of Theophilus Sewell," etc. This obelisk was surrounded by a bright green area made vibrant by an embroidery of various shades of chenille and silk and was shaded by an embroidered weeping willow. Leaning against it, her face hidden behind a generous white handkerchief, was a female figure in deep mourning, meant to represent the heartbroken widow. A young girl in a stark black dress knelt in front of it, while a very solemn-looking young man stood rigidly on the other side, appearing to hold one end of a rose wreath that the girl was offering as a fitting decoration for the grave. The girl and the gentleman were, of course, the young Theophilus and Miss Emily, and the overwhelming sorrow reflected in their expressions was a true achievement of artistic expression.

Miss Emily had in her bedroom a similar funeral trophy, sacred to the memory of her deceased mother,—besides which there were, framed and glazed, in the little sitting-room, two embroidered shepherdesses standing with rueful faces, in charge of certain animals of an uncertain breed between sheep and pigs. The poor little soul had mentally resolved to make Mara the heiress of all the skill and knowledge of the arts by which she had been enabled to consummate these marvels.

Miss Emily had a similar funeral memento in her bedroom, honoring her late mother. Additionally, in the small sitting room, there were two framed and glazed embroidered shepherdesses, looking sad as they tended to some animals that were a mix between sheep and pigs. The poor girl had decided in her mind to make Mara the heir to all the skills and knowledge of the crafts that had allowed her to create these wonders.

"She is naturally a lady-like little thing," she said to herself, "and if I know anything of accomplishments, she shall have them."

"She's naturally a proper little lady," she thought, "and if I know anything about skills, she'll have them."

Just about the time that Miss Emily came to this resolution, had she been clairvoyant, she might have seen Mara sitting very quietly, busy in the solitude of her own room with a little sprig of partridge-berry before her, whose round green leaves and brilliant scarlet berries she had been for hours trying to imitate, as appeared from the scattered sketches and fragments around her. In fact, before Zephaniah started on his spring fishing, he had caught her one day very busy at work of the same kind, with bits of charcoal, and some colors compounded out of wild berries; and so out of his capacious pocket, after his return, he drew a little box of water-colors and a lead-pencil and square of India-rubber, which he had bought for her in Portland on his way home.

Just around the time Miss Emily made this decision, if she had the ability to see the future, she might have noticed Mara sitting quietly in her room, focused on a small sprig of partridge-berry in front of her. For hours, she had been trying to replicate the round green leaves and bright red berries, as shown by the sketches and bits of paper scattered around her. In fact, before Zephaniah went on his spring fishing trip, he had caught her one day deeply engrossed in similar work using pieces of charcoal and colors made from wild berries. So, when he returned, he pulled out a little box of watercolors, a pencil, and an eraser from his big pocket, which he had picked up for her in Portland on his way home.

Hour after hour the child works, so still, so fervent,[Pg 159] so earnest,—going over and over, time after time, her simple, ignorant methods to make it "look like," and stopping, at times, to give the true artist's sigh, as the little green and scarlet fragment lies there hopelessly, unapproachably perfect. Ignorantly to herself, the hands of the little pilgrim are knocking at the very door where Giotto and Cimabue knocked in the innocent child-life of Italian art.

Hour after hour, the child works, so still, so passionate, so focused—going over and over, time after time, her simple, naive methods to make it "look like," and pausing occasionally to let out a genuine artist's sigh, as the little green and red piece lies there perfectly, hopelessly out of reach. Unknowingly to herself, the hands of the little pilgrim are knocking at the very door where Giotto and Cimabue knocked in the innocent childhood of Italian art.

"Why won't it look round?" she said to Moses, who had come in behind her.

"Why doesn't it look round?" she asked Moses, who had come in behind her.

"Why, Mara, did you do these?" said Moses, astonished; "why, how well they are done! I should know in a minute what they were meant for."

"Why, Mara, did you make these?" Moses said, amazed; "they're really well done! I could figure out right away what they were for."

Mara flushed up at being praised by Moses, but heaved a deep sigh as she looked back.

Mara blushed at the compliment from Moses but let out a deep sigh as she glanced back.

"It's so pretty, that sprig," she said; "if I only could make it just like"—

"It's so beautiful, that sprig," she said; "if only I could make it just like"—

"Why, nobody expects that," said Moses, "it's like enough, if people only know what you mean it for. But come, now, get your bonnet, and come with me in the boat. Captain Kittridge has just brought down our new one, and I'm going to take you over to Eagle Island, and we'll take our dinner and stay all day; mother says so."

"Why, no one expects that," said Moses, "it’s like enough, if people just know what you mean it for. But come on, get your hat, and come with me in the boat. Captain Kittridge just brought our new one down, and I’m going to take you over to Eagle Island, and we’ll have our lunch and stay all day; Mom says so."

"Oh, how nice!" said the little girl, running cheerfully for her sun-bonnet.

"Oh, how nice!" said the little girl, happily running for her sun hat.

At the house-door they met Mrs. Pennel, with a little closely covered tin pail.

At the front door, they ran into Mrs. Pennel, holding a small, tightly covered tin pail.

"Here's your dinner, children; and, Moses, mind and take good care of her."

"Here's your dinner, kids; and, Moses, make sure you take good care of her."

"Never fear me mother, I've been to the Banks; there wasn't a man there could manage a boat better than I could."

"Don't worry about me, Mom, I've been to the Banks; there's not a guy there who can handle a boat better than I can."

"Yes, grandmother," said Mara, "you ought to see how strong his arms are; I believe he will be like Samson one of these days if he keeps on."[Pg 160]

"Yeah, Grandma," said Mara, "you should see how strong his arms are; I think he’s going to be like Samson one of these days if he keeps this up."[Pg 160]

So away they went. It was a glorious August forenoon, and the sombre spruces and shaggy hemlocks that dipped and rippled in the waters were penetrated to their deepest recesses with the clear brilliancy of the sky,—a true northern sky, without a cloud, without even a softening haze, defining every outline, revealing every minute point, cutting with sharp decision the form of every promontory and rock, and distant island.

So off they went. It was a beautiful August morning, and the dark spruces and shaggy hemlocks that dipped and swayed in the water were illuminated to their deepest parts by the bright clarity of the sky—a true northern sky, completely clear, without a single cloud or even a hint of haze, defining every outline, revealing every tiny detail, and sharply cutting the shape of every point, rock, and distant island.

The blue of the sea and the blue of the sky were so much the same, that when the children had rowed far out, the little boat seemed to float midway, poised in the centre of an azure sphere, with a firmament above and a firmament below. Mara leaned dreamily over the side of the boat, and drew her little hands through the waters as they rippled along to the swift oars' strokes, and she saw as the waves broke, and divided and shivered around the boat, a hundred little faces, with brown eyes and golden hair, gleaming up through the water, and dancing away over rippling waves, and thought that so the sea-nymphs might look who came up from the coral caves when they ring the knell of drowned people. Moses sat opposite to her, with his coat off, and his heavy black curls more wavy and glossy than ever, as the exercise made them damp with perspiration.

The blue of the sea and the blue of the sky were so alike that when the children had rowed far out, the little boat seemed to float in the middle, balanced in an azure sphere, with a sky above and a sky below. Mara leaned dreamily over the side of the boat, letting her little hands glide through the water as it rippled with the quick oar strokes. She saw as the waves broke, splintered, and shimmered around the boat, a hundred little faces with brown eyes and golden hair shining up through the water, dancing over the rippling waves, and thought that this is how sea-nymphs might look when they rise from the coral caves to ring the bell for drowned people. Moses sat across from her, with his coat off, and his heavy black curls more wavy and shiny than ever, as the exercise made them damp with sweat.

Eagle Island lay on the blue sea, a tangled thicket of evergreens,—white pine, spruce, arbor vitæ, and fragrant silver firs. A little strip of white beach bound it, like a silver setting to a gem. And there Moses at length moored his boat, and the children landed. The island was wholly solitary, and there is something to children quite delightful in feeling that they have a little lonely world all to themselves. Childhood is itself such an enchanted island, separated by mysterious depths from the mainland of nature, life, and reality.

Eagle Island sat on the blue sea, a dense thicket of evergreens—white pine, spruce, arborvitae, and fragrant silver firs. A small strip of white beach surrounded it, like a silver setting for a gem. And there, Moses finally anchored his boat, and the children got out. The island was completely isolated, and there’s something really enjoyable for kids in knowing that they have a little lonely world all to themselves. Childhood is like its own enchanted island, separated by mysterious depths from the mainland of nature, life, and reality.

Moses had subsided a little from the glorious heights on[Pg 161] which he seemed to be in the first flush of his return, and he and Mara, in consequence, were the friends of old time. It is true he thought himself quite a man, but the manhood of a boy is only a tiny masquerade,—a fantastic, dreamy prevision of real manhood. It was curious that Mara, who was by all odds the most precociously developed of the two, never thought of asserting herself a woman; in fact, she seldom thought of herself at all, but dreamed and pondered of almost everything else.

Moses had come down a bit from the glorious heights he seemed to achieve when he first returned, and he and Mara were, as a result, back to being the friends they used to be. It's true he considered himself quite the man, but the maturity of a boy is just a small disguise—a fantastic, dreamy glimpse of real manhood. It was interesting that Mara, who was undoubtedly the more mature of the two, never claimed to be a woman; in fact, she rarely thought about herself at all, instead dreaming and reflecting on almost everything else.

"I declare," said Moses, looking up into a thick-branched, rugged old hemlock, which stood all shaggy, with heavy beards of gray moss drooping from its branches, "there's an eagle's nest up there; I mean to go and see." And up he went into the gloomy embrace of the old tree, crackling the dead branches, wrenching off handfuls of gray moss, rising higher and higher, every once in a while turning and showing to Mara his glowing face and curly hair through a dusky green frame of boughs, and then mounting again. "I'm coming to it," he kept exclaiming.

"I declare," said Moses, looking up at a thick-branched, rugged old hemlock tree that was all shaggy, with heavy gray moss hanging down from its branches, "there's an eagle's nest up there; I want to go see it." And up he went into the gloomy embrace of the old tree, cracking the dead branches and pulling off handfuls of gray moss, climbing higher and higher, occasionally turning to show Mara his bright face and curly hair framed by the dark green boughs, and then climbing up again. "I'm getting closer to it," he kept exclaiming.

Meanwhile his proceedings seemed to create a sensation among the feathered house-keepers, one of whom rose and sailed screaming away into the air. In a moment after there was a swoop of wings, and two eagles returned and began flapping and screaming about the head of the boy.

Meanwhile, his actions seemed to cause a stir among the birds, one of which flew off screaming into the sky. Moments later, two eagles swooped down, flapping their wings and screeching around the boy's head.

Mara, who stood at the foot of the tree, could not see clearly what was going on, for the thickness of the boughs; she only heard a great commotion and rattling of the branches, the scream of the birds, and the swooping of their wings, and Moses's valorous exclamations, as he seemed to be laying about him with a branch which he had broken off.

Mara, standing at the base of the tree, couldn't see clearly what was happening because of the dense branches; all she heard was a loud disturbance and the rustling of the limbs, the cries of the birds, the flapping of their wings, and Moses's brave shouts as he seemed to be swinging a branch he had broken off.

At last he descended victorious, with the eggs in his pocket. Mara stood at the foot of the tree, with her sun-bonnet blown back, her hair streaming, and her little arms upstretched, as if to catch him if he fell.[Pg 162]

At last he came down triumphantly, with the eggs in his pocket. Mara was at the base of the tree, her sun hat blown back, her hair flowing, and her little arms raised, as if to catch him if he fell.[Pg 162]

"Oh, I was so afraid!" she said, as he set foot on the ground.

"Oh, I was so scared!" she said, as he stepped onto the ground.

"Afraid? Pooh! Who's afraid? Why, you might know the old eagles couldn't beat me."

"Afraid? No way! Who's scared? You know those old eagles couldn't take me on."

"Ah, well, I know how strong you are; but, you know, I couldn't help it. But the poor birds,—do hear 'em scream. Moses, don't you suppose they feel bad?"

"Ah, well, I know how strong you are; but, you know, I couldn't help it. But the poor birds—do you hear them scream? Moses, don't you think they feel bad?"

"No, they're only mad, to think they couldn't beat me. I beat them just as the Romans used to beat folks,—I played their nest was a city, and I spoiled it."

"No, they're just angry because they thought they couldn't defeat me. I defeated them just like the Romans used to defeat people—I pretended their home was a city, and I ruined it."

"I shouldn't want to spoil cities!" said Mara.

"I don't want to ruin cities!" said Mara.

"That's 'cause you are a girl,—I'm a man, and men always like war; I've taken one city this afternoon, and mean to take a great many more."

"That's because you're a girl—I'm a guy, and guys always like war; I captured one city this afternoon and plan to take a lot more."

"But, Moses, do you think war is right?"

"But, Moses, do you think war is okay?"

"Right? why, yes, to be sure; if it ain't, it's a pity; for it's all that has ever been done in this world. In the Bible, or out, certainly it's right. I wish I had a gun now, I'd stop those old eagles' screeching."

"Right? Of course; if it isn't, that's a shame; because it’s everything that has ever happened in this world. Whether in the Bible or not, it definitely makes sense. I wish I had a gun right now; I’d silence those old eagles' screeching."

"But, Moses, we shouldn't want any one to come and steal all our things, and then shoot us."

"But, Moses, we shouldn't want anyone to come and steal all our stuff, and then shoot us."

"How long you do think about things!" said Moses, impatient at her pertinacity. "I am older than you, and when I tell you a thing's right, you ought to believe it. Besides, don't you take hens' eggs every day, in the barn? How do you suppose the hens like that?"

"How long do you think about things?" said Moses, frustrated with her stubbornness. "I'm older than you, and when I say something is right, you should trust me. Besides, don’t you take the hens' eggs every day in the barn? How do you think the hens feel about that?"

This was a home-thrust, and for the moment threw the little casuist off the track. She carefully folded up the idea, and laid it away on the inner shelves of her mind till she could think more about it. Pliable as she was to all outward appearances, the child had her own still, interior world, where all her little notions and opinions stood up crisp and fresh, like flowers that grow in cool, shady places. If anybody too rudely assailed a thought or suggestion she put forth, she drew it back again into this quiet inner[Pg 163] chamber, and went on. Reader, there are some women of this habit; and there is no independence and pertinacity of opinion like that of these seemingly soft, quiet creatures, whom it is so easy to silence, and so difficult to convince. Mara, little and unformed as she yet was, belonged to the race of those spirits to whom is deputed the office of the angel in the Apocalypse, to whom was given the golden rod which measured the New Jerusalem. Infant though she was, she had ever in her hands that invisible measuring-rod, which she was laying to the foundations of all actions and thoughts. There may, perhaps, come a time when the saucy boy, who now steps so superbly, and predominates so proudly in virtue of his physical strength and daring, will learn to tremble at the golden measuring-rod, held in the hand of a woman.

This was a direct hit, and for a moment it threw the little debater off course. She carefully folded up the idea and tucked it away in her mind until she could think about it more. As flexible as she seemed on the outside, the girl had her own calm inner world where all her thoughts and opinions stood strong and fresh, like flowers growing in cool, shaded spots. If anyone attacked a thought or suggestion she put forward too harshly, she would pull it back into this quiet inner chamber and carry on. Reader, there are some women like this; and there’s no independence and stubbornness of opinion like that of these seemingly gentle, quiet beings, whom it’s easy to silence but hard to convince. Mara, small and undeveloped as she was, belonged to the group of those spirits tasked with the role of the angel in the Apocalypse, holding the golden measuring rod that assessed the New Jerusalem. Even though she was just a baby, she always had that invisible measuring rod in hand, applying it to the foundations of all actions and thoughts. Perhaps there will come a time when the arrogant boy, who currently walks with such confidence and boasts so proudly because of his physical strength and bravery, will learn to fear the golden measuring rod held by a woman.

"Howbeit, that is not first which is spiritual, but that which is natural." Moses is the type of the first unreflecting stage of development, in which are only the out-reachings of active faculties, the aspirations that tend toward manly accomplishments. Seldom do we meet sensitiveness of conscience or discriminating reflection as the indigenous growth of a very vigorous physical development. Your true healthy boy has the breezy, hearty virtues of a Newfoundland dog, the wild fullness of life of the young race-colt. Sentiment, sensibility, delicate perceptions, spiritual aspirations, are plants of later growth.

"However, what comes first isn't the spiritual, but the natural." Moses represents the initial, unthinking phase of development, where there's just the drive of active abilities and the desire for manly achievements. We rarely see a finely tuned conscience or thoughtful reflection as a natural result of strong physical development. A truly healthy boy embodies the lively, genuine virtues of a Newfoundland dog and the untamed energy of a young racehorse. Feelings, sensitivity, subtle awareness, and spiritual desires are qualities that develop later.

But there are, both of men and women, beings born into this world in whom from childhood the spiritual and the reflective predominate over the physical. In relation to other human beings, they seem to be organized much as birds are in relation to other animals. They are the artists, the poets, the unconscious seers, to whom the purer truths of spiritual instruction are open. Surveying man merely as an animal, these sensitively organized beings, with their feebler physical powers, are imperfect specimens of life.[Pg 164] Looking from the spiritual side, they seem to have a noble strength, a divine force. The types of this latter class are more commonly among women than among men. Multitudes of them pass away in earlier years, and leave behind in many hearts the anxious wonder, why they came so fair only to mock the love they kindled. They who live to maturity are the priests and priestesses of the spiritual life, ordained of God to keep the balance between the rude but absolute necessities of physical life and the higher sphere to which that must at length give place.

But there are, among both men and women, individuals who enter this world with a stronger emphasis on the spiritual and contemplative over the physical from childhood. Compared to others, they are organized much like birds are in relation to other animals. They are the artists, the poets, the unaware visionaries, who are open to the truer truths of spiritual teaching. When considering humanity simply as animals, these sensitive individuals, with their weaker physical abilities, appear to be imperfect examples of life.[Pg 164] From a spiritual perspective, they seem to possess a noble strength, a divine power. This latter type is more often found among women than among men. Many of them pass away in their younger years, leaving behind a lingering question in many hearts about why they arrived so beautifully only to disappoint the love they sparked. Those who reach maturity become the priests and priestesses of spiritual living, chosen by God to maintain a balance between the rough but essential needs of physical existence and the higher realm that ultimately must replace it.


CHAPTER XVII

LESSONS

[Pg 165]Moses felt elevated some inches in the world by the gift of a new Latin grammar, which had been bought for him in Brunswick. It was a step upward in life; no graduate from a college ever felt more ennobled.

[Pg 165]Moses felt a boost in status by several inches thanks to a new Latin grammar book that had been purchased for him in Brunswick. It was a step up in life; no college graduate ever felt more dignified.

"Wal', now, I tell ye, Moses Pennel," said Miss Roxy, who, with her press-board and big flat-iron, was making her autumn sojourn in the brown house, "I tell ye Latin ain't just what you think 'tis, steppin' round so crank; you must remember what the king of Israel said to Benhadad, king of Syria."

"Well, I tell you, Moses Pennel," said Miss Roxy, who, with her press board and big flat iron, was spending her autumn stay in the brown house, "I tell you, Latin isn't exactly what you think it is, acting all finicky; you have to remember what the king of Israel said to Benhadad, king of Syria."

"I don't remember; what did he say?"

"I can't remember; what did he say?"

"I remember," said the soft voice of Mara; "he said, 'Let not him that putteth on the harness boast as him that putteth it off.'"

"I remember," said Mara's gentle voice; "he said, 'Let not the person who puts on the armor boast like the one who takes it off.'"

"Good for you, Mara," said Miss Roxy; "if some other folks read their Bibles as much as you do, they'd know more."

"Good for you, Mara," said Miss Roxy; "if some other people read their Bibles as much as you do, they'd understand more."

Between Moses and Miss Roxy there had always been a state of sub-acute warfare since the days of his first arrival, she regarding him as an unhopeful interloper, and he regarding her as a grim-visaged, interfering gnome, whom he disliked with all the intense, unreasoning antipathy of childhood.

Between Moses and Miss Roxy, there had always been a low-level conflict since the day he first arrived. She saw him as an unwelcome intruder, while he viewed her as a stern, meddling creature that he disliked with all the intense, irrational hatred of childhood.

"I hate that old woman," he said to Mara, as he flung out of the door.

"I hate that old woman," he said to Mara, as he stormed out of the door.

"Why, Moses, what for?" said Mara, who never could comprehend hating anybody.[Pg 166]

"Why, Moses, what for?" said Mara, who could never understand hating anyone.[Pg 166]

"I do hate her, and Aunt Ruey, too. They are two old scratching cats; they hate me, and I hate them; they're always trying to bring me down, and I won't be brought down."

"I really hate her, and Aunt Ruey as well. They're just two old grumpy cats; they dislike me, and I dislike them; they're always trying to drag me down, but I won't let them."

Mara had sufficient instinctive insight into the feminine rôle in the domestic concert not to adventure a direct argument just now in favor of her friends, and therefore she proposed that they should sit down together under a cedar hard by, and look over the first lesson.

Mara had enough natural understanding of the woman's role in the household dynamics not to openly argue in favor of her friends right now, so she suggested that they sit together under a nearby cedar tree and go over the first lesson.

"Miss Emily invited me to go over with you," she said, "and I should like so much to hear you recite."

"Miss Emily invited me to come with you," she said, "and I would really love to hear you recite."

Moses thought this very proper, as would any other male person, young or old, who has been habitually admired by any other female one. He did not doubt that, as in fishing and rowing, and all other things he had undertaken as yet, he should win himself distinguished honors.

Moses thought this was completely reasonable, just like any other guy, young or old, who’s been regularly appreciated by a woman. He had no doubt that, just like in fishing, rowing, and everything else he had tried so far, he would earn himself some notable achievements.

"See here," he said; "Mr. Sewell told me I might go as far as I liked, and I mean to take all the declensions to begin with; there's five of 'em, and I shall learn them for the first lesson; then I shall take the adjectives next, and next the verbs, and so in a fortnight get into reading."

"Look here," he said; "Mr. Sewell told me I could go as far as I wanted, and I plan to start with all the declensions; there are five of them, and I’ll learn them for the first lesson. Then I’ll move on to the adjectives, then the verbs, and in two weeks I’ll be reading."

Mara heaved a sort of sigh. She wished she had been invited to share this glorious race; but she looked on admiring when Moses read, in a loud voice, "Penna, pennæ, pennæ, pennam," etc.

Mara let out a kind of sigh. She wished she had been invited to join this amazing race; instead, she watched in admiration as Moses read aloud, "Penna, pennæ, pennæ, pennam," etc.

"There now, I believe I've got it," he said, handing Mara the book; and he was perfectly astonished to find that, with the book withdrawn, he boggled, and blundered, and stumbled ingloriously. In vain Mara softly prompted, and looked at him with pitiful eyes as he grew red in the face with his efforts to remember.

"There we go, I think I've got it," he said, giving Mara the book; and he was completely stunned to realize that, without the book, he fumbled, messed up, and tripped over his words. Despite Mara gently encouraging him and looking at him with sympathetic eyes, he flushed with embarrassment as he struggled to recall what he needed.

"Confound it all!" he said, with an angry flush, snatching back the book; "it's more trouble than it's worth."

"Dammit!" he said, with an irritated look, grabbing the book back; "it's more hassle than it's worth."

Again he began the repetition, saying it very loud and plain; he said it over and over till his mind wandered far[Pg 167] out to sea, and while his tongue repeated "penna, pennæ," he was counting the white sails of the fishing-smacks, and thinking of pulling up codfish at the Banks.

Again he started saying it loudly and clearly; he kept repeating it until his mind drifted far[Pg 167] out to sea, and while his mouth kept saying "penna, pennæ," he was counting the white sails of the fishing boats and imagining catching codfish at the Banks.

"There now, Mara, try me," he said, and handed her the book again; "I'm sure I must know it now."

"There you go, Mara, give it a shot," he said, handing her the book again; "I’m sure I must know it by now."

But, alas! with the book the sounds glided away; and "penna" and "pennam" and "pennis" and "pennæ" were confusedly and indiscriminately mingled. He thought it must be Mara's fault; she didn't read right, or she told him just as he was going to say it, or she didn't tell him right; or was he a fool? or had he lost his senses?

But, alas! with the book, the sounds faded away; and "penna," "pennam," "pennis," and "pennæ" were mixed up and confused. He thought it must be Mara's fault; she didn’t read correctly, or she said it just as he was about to say it, or she didn’t say it right; or was he a fool? Or had he lost his mind?

That first declension has been a valley of humiliation to many a sturdy boy—to many a bright one, too; and often it is, that the more full of thought and vigor the mind is, the more difficult it is to narrow it down to the single dry issue of learning those sounds. Heinrich Heine said the Romans would never have found time to conquer the world, if they had had to learn their own language; but that, luckily for them, they were born into the knowledge of what nouns form their accusatives in "um."

That first declension has been a real struggle for many tough boys—and for plenty of smart ones, too. Often, the more thoughtful and energetic the mind is, the harder it is to focus on just memorizing those sounds. Heinrich Heine said the Romans would never have had time to conquer the world if they had to learn their own language, but fortunately for them, they just instinctively knew which nouns took "um" in the accusative case.

Long before Moses had learned the first declension, Mara knew it by heart; for her intense anxiety for him, and the eagerness and zeal with which she listened for each termination, fixed them in her mind. Besides, she was naturally of a more quiet and scholar-like turn than he,—more intellectually developed. Moses began to think, before that memorable day was through, that there was some sense in Aunt Roxy's quotation of the saying of the King of Israel, and materially to retrench his expectations as to the time it might take to master the grammar; but still, his pride and will were both committed, and he worked away in this new sort of labor with energy.

Long before Moses had learned the first declension, Mara knew it by heart. Her deep concern for him and the eagerness with which she listened for each ending helped her remember them all. Plus, she naturally had a quieter and more studious personality than he did—she was more intellectually developed. By the end of that significant day, Moses started to see some truth in Aunt Roxy's mention of the saying from the King of Israel and significantly lowered his expectations about how long it would take to master the grammar. Still, his pride and determination were both at stake, and he diligently tackled this new kind of work with energy.

It was a fine, frosty November morning, when he rowed Mara across the bay in a little boat to recite his first lesson to Mr. Sewell.[Pg 168]

It was a crisp, chilly November morning when he rowed Mara across the bay in a small boat to go over his first lesson with Mr. Sewell.[Pg 168]

Miss Emily had provided a plate of seed-cake, otherwise called cookies, for the children, as was a kindly custom of old times, when the little people were expected. Miss Emily had a dim idea that she was to do something for Mara in her own department, while Moses was reciting his lesson; and therefore producing a large sampler, displaying every form and variety of marking-stitch, she began questioning the little girl, in a low tone, as to her proficiency in that useful accomplishment.

Miss Emily had set out a plate of seed cake, also known as cookies, for the kids, as was a nice tradition from back in the day when the little ones were expected. Miss Emily vaguely thought she was supposed to do something for Mara while Moses was reciting his lesson; so, she brought out a large sampler showing all kinds of stitching styles and began quietly asking the little girl about her skills in that useful craft.

Presently, however, she discovered that the child was restless and uneasy, and that she answered without knowing what she was saying. The fact was that she was listening, with her whole soul in her eyes, and feeling through all her nerves, every word Moses was saying. She knew all the critical places, where he was likely to go wrong; and when at last, in one place, he gave the wrong termination, she involuntarily called out the right one, starting up and turning towards them. In a moment she blushed deeply, seeing Mr. Sewell and Miss Emily both looking at her with surprise.

Right now, though, she realized that the child was restless and anxious, and that she was responding without really understanding what she was saying. The truth was, she was fully engaged, her eyes reflecting her complete attention, and she felt every word Moses was saying deep down within her. She was aware of all the critical points where he might mess up; and when he finally got one part wrong, she instinctively shouted out the correct answer, jumping up and turning toward them. In an instant, she felt her face go red as she noticed Mr. Sewell and Miss Emily both staring at her in surprise.

"Come here, pussy," said Mr. Sewell, stretching out his hand to her. "Can you say this?"

"Come here, kitty," said Mr. Sewell, reaching out his hand to her. "Can you say this?"

"I believe I could, sir."

"I think I could, sir."

"Well, try it."

"Go for it."

She went through without missing a word. Mr. Sewell then, for curiosity, heard her repeat all the other forms of the lesson. She had them perfectly.

She went through it without missing a word. Mr. Sewell then, out of curiosity, listened as she repeated all the other parts of the lesson. She had them down perfectly.

"Very well, my little girl," he said, "have you been studying, too?"

"Alright, my little girl," he said, "have you been studying as well?"

"I heard Moses say them so often," said Mara, in an apologetic manner, "I couldn't help learning them."

"I heard Moses say them so many times," Mara said apologetically, "I couldn't help but learn them."

"Would you like to recite with Moses every day?"

"Would you like to recite with Moses every day?"

"Oh, yes, sir, so much."

"Oh, yes, definitely."

"Well, you shall. It is better for him to have company."[Pg 169]

"Well, you will. It's better for him to have company."[Pg 169]

Mara's face brightened, and Miss Emily looked with a puzzled air at her brother.

Mara's face lit up, and Miss Emily looked at her brother with a puzzled expression.

"So," she said, when the children had gone home, "I thought you wanted me to take Mara under my care. I was going to begin and teach her some marking stitches, and you put her up to studying Latin. I don't understand you."

"So," she said, after the kids had gone home, "I thought you wanted me to take care of Mara. I was going to start teaching her some sewing stitches, and you had her focused on studying Latin. I don't get it."

"Well, Emily, the fact is, the child has a natural turn for study, that no child of her age ought to have; and I have done just as people always will with such children; there's no sense in it, but I wanted to do it. You can teach her marking and embroidery all the same; it would break her little heart, now, if I were to turn her back."

"Well, Emily, the truth is, the child has a natural knack for learning that no kid her age should have; and I've done exactly what people always do with kids like her; it doesn’t make sense, but I felt compelled to do it. You can still teach her sewing and embroidery; it would absolutely crush her if I were to send her back now."

"I do not see of what use Latin can be to a woman."

"I don’t see how Latin can be useful for a woman."

"Of what use is embroidery?"

"What's the point of embroidery?"

"Why, that is an accomplishment."

"Wow, that's quite an achievement."

"Ah, indeed!" said Mr. Sewell, contemplating the weeping willow and tombstone trophy with a singular expression, which it was lucky for Miss Emily's peace she did not understand. The fact was, that Mr. Sewell had, at one period of his life, had an opportunity of studying and observing minutely some really fine works of art, and the remembrance of them sometimes rose up to his mind, in the presence of the chefs-d'œuvre on which his sister rested with so much complacency. It was a part of his quiet interior store of amusement to look at these bits of Byzantine embroidery round the room, which affected him always with a subtle sense of drollery.

"Ah, yes!" said Mr. Sewell, gazing at the weeping willow and tombstone decoration with a strange expression, which it was good for Miss Emily’s peace of mind that she didn’t understand. The truth was, that at one point in his life, Mr. Sewell had the chance to closely study some genuinely impressive works of art, and the memory of them often came to his mind when he saw the chefs-d'œuvre on which his sister looked so pleased. It was part of his quiet inner amusement to observe these pieces of Byzantine embroidery around the room, which always struck him with a subtle sense of humor.

"You see, brother," said Miss Emily, "it is far better for women to be accomplished than learned."

"You see, brother," Miss Emily said, "it's much better for women to be skilled than educated."

"You are quite right in the main," said Mr. Sewell, "only you must let me have my own way just for once. One can't be consistent always."

"You’re mostly right," said Mr. Sewell, "but you have to let me have my way just this once. No one can be consistent all the time."

So another Latin grammar was bought, and Moses began to feel a secret respect for his little companion, that he had[Pg 170] never done before, when he saw how easily she walked through the labyrinths which at first so confused him. Before this, the comparison had been wholly in points where superiority arose from physical daring and vigor; now he became aware of the existence of another kind of strength with which he had not measured himself. Mara's opinion in their mutual studies began to assume a value in his eyes that her opinions on other subjects had never done, and she saw and felt, with a secret gratification, that she was becoming more to him through their mutual pursuit. To say the truth, it required this fellowship to inspire Moses with the patience and perseverance necessary for this species of acquisition. His active, daring temperament little inclined him to patient, quiet study. For anything that could be done by two hands, he was always ready; but to hold hands still and work silently in the inner forces was to him a species of undertaking that seemed against his very nature; but then he would do it—he would not disgrace himself before Mr. Sewell, and let a girl younger than himself outdo him.

So another Latin grammar was bought, and Moses started to feel a secret respect for his little companion, something he had never felt before, when he saw how easily she navigated the complexities that had initially confused him. Before this, their comparison was entirely based on physical bravery and strength; now he realized there was another kind of strength he had never considered. Mara's thoughts in their shared studies began to hold value for him in a way her opinions on other topics never had, and she noticed with a quiet satisfaction that she was becoming more significant to him through their joint pursuit. To be honest, it took this partnership to give Moses the patience and perseverance needed for this kind of learning. His active, adventurous nature didn't naturally lend itself to patient, quiet study. He was always ready for anything that required two hands, but sitting still and silently working on inner challenges felt contrary to his nature; yet he would do it—he wouldn’t embarrass himself in front of Mr. Sewell by letting a younger girl outperform him.

But the thing, after all, that absorbed more of Moses's thoughts than all his lessons was the building and rigging of a small schooner, at which he worked assiduously in all his leisure moments. He had dozens of blocks of wood, into which he had cut anchor moulds; and the melting of lead, the running and shaping of anchors, the whittling of masts and spars took up many an hour. Mara entered into all those things readily, and was too happy to make herself useful in hemming the sails.

But the thing that occupied most of Moses's thoughts, more than all his lessons, was building and rigging a small schooner, which he worked on diligently during his free time. He had dozens of blocks of wood, where he had carved anchor molds; melting lead, casting and shaping anchors, and whittling masts and spars filled many hours. Mara eagerly joined in on all these activities and was more than happy to help hem the sails.

When the schooner was finished, they built some ways down by the sea, and invited Sally Kittridge over to see it launched.

When the schooner was done, they built some ramps down by the shore and invited Sally Kittridge to come watch it be launched.

"There!" he said, when the little thing skimmed down prosperously into the sea and floated gayly on the waters, "when I'm a man, I'll have a big ship; I'll build her,[Pg 171] and launch her, and command her, all myself; and I'll give you and Sally both a passage in it, and we'll go off to the East Indies—we'll sail round the world!"

"There!" he said, as the little thing glided down triumphantly into the sea and floated cheerfully on the water, "when I'm a man, I'll own a big ship; I'll build it,[Pg 171] launch it, and be the captain, all by myself; and I’ll take you and Sally on board, and we'll head off to the East Indies— we’ll sail around the world!"

None of the three doubted the feasibility of this scheme; the little vessel they had just launched seemed the visible prophecy of such a future; and how pleasant it would be to sail off, with the world all before them, and winds ready to blow them to any port they might wish!

None of the three doubted that this plan could work; the small boat they had just launched felt like a clear sign of that future; and how nice it would be to set sail, with the whole world ahead of them, and the winds ready to carry them to any port they desired!

The three children arranged some bread and cheese and doughnuts on a rock on the shore, to represent the collation that was usually spread in those parts at a ship launch, and felt quite like grown people—acting life beforehand in that sort of shadowy pantomime which so delights little people. Happy, happy days—when ships can be made with a jack-knife and anchors run in pine blocks, and three children together can launch a schooner, and the voyage of the world can all be made in one sunny Saturday afternoon!

The three kids set out some bread, cheese, and doughnuts on a rock by the water to mimic the snacks usually served at a ship launch, feeling just like adults—playing out life in that playful way that kids love so much. Oh, what happy days—when you could craft ships with a pocket knife, create anchors from pine blocks, and three kids could launch a schooner, making the entire world’s journey happen in one sunny Saturday afternoon!

"Mother says you are going to college," said Sally to Moses.

"Mom says you’re going to college," Sally told Moses.

"Not I, indeed," said Moses; "as soon as I get old enough, I'm going up to Umbagog among the lumberers, and I'm going to cut real, splendid timber for my ship, and I'm going to get it on the stocks, and have it built to suit myself."

"Not me, for sure," said Moses; "as soon as I’m old enough, I'm heading up to Umbagog with the lumberjacks, and I'm going to cut some amazing timber for my ship, get it on the frame, and have it built just the way I want."

"What will you call her?" said Sally.

"What are you going to call her?" said Sally.

"I haven't thought of that," said Moses.

"I haven't thought of that," Moses said.

"Call her the Ariel," said Mara.

"Let's call her Ariel," said Mara.

"What! after the spirit you were telling us about?" said Sally.

"What! After the spirit you were telling us about?" said Sally.

"Ariel is a pretty name," said Moses. "But what is that about a spirit?"

"Ariel is a nice name," Moses said. "But what does it mean about a spirit?"

"Why," said Sally, "Mara read us a story about a ship that was wrecked, and a spirit called Ariel, that sang a song about the drowned mariners."[Pg 172]

"Why," Sally said, "Mara read us a story about a ship that sank and a spirit named Ariel who sang a song about the drowned sailors."[Pg 172]

Mara gave a shy, apprehensive glance at Moses, to see if this allusion called up any painful recollections.

Mara gave Moses a shy, nervous look to see if this reference brought up any painful memories.

No; instead of this, he was following the motions of his little schooner on the waters with the briskest and most unconcerned air in the world.

No; instead of that, he was going through the motions of his little schooner on the water with the most lively and carefree attitude in the world.

"Why didn't you ever show me that story, Mara?" said Moses.

"Why didn't you ever show me that story, Mara?" said Moses.

Mara colored and hesitated; the real reason she dared not say.

Mara hesitated as she colored; she couldn't bring herself to say the real reason.

"Why, she read it to father and me down by the cove," said Sally, "the afternoon that you came home from the Banks; I remember how we saw you coming in; don't you, Mara?"

"Why, she read it to Dad and me by the cove," said Sally, "that afternoon you came home from the Banks; I remember seeing you come in; don’t you, Mara?"

"What have you done with it?" said Moses.

"What did you do with it?" Moses asked.

"I've got it at home," said Mara, in a faint voice; "I'll show it to you, if you want to see it; there are such beautiful things in it."

"I have it at home," Mara said quietly. "I'll show it to you if you want to see it; there are some really beautiful things in it."

That evening, as Moses sat busy, making some alterations in his darling schooner, Mara produced her treasure, and read and explained to him the story. He listened with interest, though without any of the extreme feeling which Mara had thought possible, and even interrupted her once in the middle of the celebrated—

That evening, while Moses was busy making some changes to his beloved schooner, Mara brought out her treasure and read and explained the story to him. He listened with interest, but without the intense emotions that Mara had expected, and even interrupted her once in the middle of the famous—

"Full fathom five thy father lies,"

"Five fathoms deep your father lies,"

by asking her to hold up the mast a minute, while he drove in a peg to make it rake a little more. He was, evidently, thinking of no drowned father, and dreaming of no possible sea-caves, but acutely busy in fashioning a present reality; and yet he liked to hear Mara read, and, when she had done, told her that he thought it was a pretty—quite a pretty story, with such a total absence of recognition that the story had any affinities with his own history, that Mara was quite astonished.

by asking her to hold the mast up for a minute while he drove in a peg to tilt it a bit more. He wasn’t thinking about any drowned father or dreaming about possible sea caves; he was focused on shaping the present reality. Still, he enjoyed listening to Mara read, and when she finished, he told her he thought it was a really nice story—so nice that he didn't see any connection to his own life, leaving Mara quite surprised.

She lay and thought about him hours, that night, after[Pg 173] she had gone to bed; and he lay and thought about a new way of disposing a pulley for raising a sail, which he determined to try the effect of early in the morning.

She lay awake and thought about him for hours that night after[Pg 173] she went to bed; and he lay thinking about a new way to set up a pulley for raising a sail, which he decided to test out early in the morning.

What was the absolute truth in regard to the boy? Had he forgotten the scenes of his early life, the strange catastrophe that cast him into his present circumstances? To this we answer that all the efforts of Nature, during the early years of a healthy childhood, are bent on effacing and obliterating painful impressions, wiping out from each day the sorrows of the last, as the daily tide effaces the furrows on the seashore. The child that broods, day after day, over some fixed idea, is so far forth not a healthy one. It is Nature's way to make first a healthy animal, and then develop in it gradually higher faculties. We have seen our two children unequally matched hitherto, because unequally developed. There will come a time, by and by in the history of the boy, when the haze of dreamy curiosity will steam up likewise from his mind, and vague yearnings, and questionings, and longings possess and trouble him, but it must be some years hence.

What was the absolute truth about the boy? Had he forgotten the events of his early life, the strange disaster that led him to his current situation? To this, we say that all of Nature's efforts during the early years of a healthy childhood are focused on erasing and obliterating painful memories, clearing away the sorrows of one day with each new one, just as the daily tide washes away the marks on the shore. A child who dwells on a fixed idea day after day is not really healthy. It’s Nature’s way to first create a healthy being and then gradually develop more advanced abilities within it. We've seen our two children progress unevenly so far, because they have developed at different rates. Eventually, in the boy's life, there will come a time when the fog of dreamy curiosity rises from his mind, and he'll be filled with vague desires, questions, and longings that will bother and trouble him, but that won’t happen for several more years.


Here for a season we leave both our child friends, and when ten years have passed over their heads,—when Moses shall be twenty, and Mara seventeen,—we will return again to tell their story, for then there will be one to tell. Let us suppose in the interval, how Moses and Mara read Virgil with the minister, and how Mara works a shepherdess with Miss Emily, which astonishes the neighborhood,—but how by herself she learns, after divers trials, to paint partridge, and checkerberry, and trailing arbutus,—how Moses makes better and better ships, and Sally grows up a handsome girl, and goes up to Brunswick to the high school,—how Captain Kittridge tells stories, and Miss Roxy and Miss Ruey nurse and cut and make and mend for the still rising generation,—how there are quilt[Pg 174]ings and tea-drinkings and prayer meetings and Sunday sermons,—how Zephaniah and Mary Pennel grow old gradually and graciously, as the sun rises and sets, and the eternal silver tide rises and falls around our little gem, Orr's Island.

Here for a season, we leave both our childhood friends, and when ten years have passed—when Moses is twenty, and Mara is seventeen—we'll come back to share their story, because then there will be one to tell. Let's imagine what happens in the meantime: how Moses and Mara study Virgil with the minister, and how Mara impresses the neighborhood with her shepherdess skills alongside Miss Emily. We’ll see how she teaches herself to paint partridges, checkerberries, and trailing arbutus after several attempts—how Moses keeps improving his shipbuilding skills, and how Sally grows up to be a beautiful girl and heads to Brunswick for high school—how Captain Kittridge shares stories, while Miss Roxy and Miss Ruey sew, mend, and care for the ever-growing new generation—how there are quiltings, tea gatherings, prayer meetings, and Sunday sermons—how Zephaniah and Mary Pennel age gracefully over time, just like the sun rising and setting, and the eternal silver tide ebbing and flowing around our little gem, Orr's Island.


CHAPTER XVIII

SALLY

[Pg 175]"Now, where's Sally Kittridge! There's the clock striking five, and nobody to set the table. Sally, I say! Sally!"

[Pg 175]"Now, where is Sally Kittridge! The clock just struck five, and no one is here to set the table. Sally, can you hear me? Sally!"

"Why, Mis' Kittridge," said the Captain, "Sally's gone out more'n an hour ago, and I expect she's gone down to Pennel's to see Mara; 'cause, you know, she come home from Portland to-day."

"Why, Miss Kittridge," said the Captain, "Sally left over an hour ago, and I think she went down to Pennel's to see Mara; you know, she came back from Portland today."

"Well, if she's come home, I s'pose I may as well give up havin' any good of Sally, for that girl fairly bows down to Mara Lincoln and worships her."

"Well, if she’s back home, I guess I might as well forget about having any hope for Sally, because that girl really looks up to Mara Lincoln and adores her."

"Well, good reason," said the Captain. "There ain't a puttier creature breathin'. I'm a'most a mind to worship her myself."

"Well, good reason," said the Captain. "There isn't a prettier creature alive. I'm almost inclined to worship her myself."

"Captain Kittridge, you ought to be ashamed of yourself, at your age, talking as you do."

"Captain Kittridge, you should be ashamed of yourself, talking like that at your age."

"Why, laws, mother, I don't feel my age," said the frisky Captain, giving a sort of skip. "It don't seem more'n yesterday since you and I was a-courtin', Polly. What a life you did lead me in them days! I think you kep' me on the anxious seat a pretty middlin' spell."

"Wow, Mom, I don't feel my age," said the playful Captain, doing a little skip. "It feels like just yesterday when you and I were dating, Polly. You really kept me on my toes back then! I think you had me worried for quite a while."

"I do wish you wouldn't talk so. You ought to be ashamed to be triflin' round as you do. Come, now, can't you jest tramp over to Pennel's and tell Sally I want her?"

"I really wish you wouldn't talk like that. You should be embarrassed for messing around like you do. Come on, can't you just go over to Pennel's and tell Sally I want to see her?"

"Not I, mother. There ain't but two gals in two miles square here, and I ain't a-goin' to be the feller to shoo 'em apart. What's the use of bein' gals, and young, and putty,[Pg 176] if they can't get together and talk about their new gownds and the fellers? That ar's what gals is for."

"Not me, mom. There are only two girls in this two-mile square area, and I'm not going to be the guy to send them apart. What's the point of being girls, young, and attractive,[Pg 176] if they can't hang out and chat about their new dresses and the guys? That's what girls are for."

"I do wish you wouldn't talk in that way before Sally, father, for her head is full of all sorts of vanity now; and as to Mara, I never did see a more slack-twisted, flimsy thing than she's grown up to be. Now Sally's learnt to do something, thanks to me. She can brew, and she can make bread and cake and pickles, and spin, and cut, and make. But as to Mara, what does she do? Why, she paints pictur's. Mis' Pennel was a-showin' on me a blue-jay she painted, and I was a-thinkin' whether she could brile a bird fit to be eat if she tried; and she don't know the price of nothin'," continued Mrs. Kittridge, with wasteful profusion of negatives.

"I really wish you wouldn't talk like that in front of Sally, Dad, because her head is already full of all kinds of vanity; and as for Mara, I’ve never seen anyone more lazy and flimsy than she’s become. But Sally has learned to do something, thanks to me. She can brew, make bread, bake cakes, preserve pickles, spin, cut, and create. But what about Mara? All she does is paint pictures. Miss Pennel was showing me a blue jay she painted, and I was wondering if she could even cook a bird worth eating if she tried; and she doesn’t even know the price of anything," continued Mrs. Kittridge, with a careless use of negatives.

"Well," said the Captain, "the Lord makes some things jist to be looked at. Their work is to be putty, and that ar's Mara's sphere. It never seemed to me she was cut out for hard work; but she's got sweet ways and kind words for everybody, and it's as good as a psalm to look at her."

"Well," said the Captain, "God creates some things just to be admired. Their role is to be appealing, and that's Mara's area. It never seemed to me that she was meant for hard labor; but she has a lovely nature and kind words for everyone, and just seeing her is like a blessing."

"And what sort of a wife'll she make, Captain Kittridge?"

"And what kind of wife will she be, Captain Kittridge?"

"A real sweet, putty one," said the Captain, persistently.

"A really sweet, soft one," the Captain said, insistently.

"Well, as to beauty, I'd rather have our Sally any day," said Mrs. Kittridge; "and she looks strong and hearty, and seems to be good for use."

"Well, when it comes to beauty, I'd choose our Sally any day," said Mrs. Kittridge; "and she looks strong and healthy, and seems to be useful."

"So she is, so she is," said the Captain, with fatherly pride. "Sally's the very image of her ma at her age—black eyes, black hair, tall and trim as a spruce-tree, and steps off as if she had springs in her heels. I tell you, the feller'll have to be spry that catches her. There's two or three of 'em at it, I see; but Sally won't have nothin' to say to 'em. I hope she won't, yet awhile."

"So she is, so she is," said the Captain, filled with fatherly pride. "Sally looks just like her mom did at that age—black eyes, black hair, tall and slender like a spruce tree, and she walks as if she has springs in her heels. I tell you, the guy who wants to catch her better be quick. I notice a couple of them trying, but Sally isn't interested in them. I hope she stays that way for a while."

"Sally is a girl that has as good an eddication as money[Pg 177] can give," said Mrs. Kittridge. "If I'd a-had her advantages at her age, I should a-been a great deal more'n I am. But we ha'n't spared nothin' for Sally; and when nothin' would do but Mara must be sent to Miss Plucher's school over in Portland, why, I sent Sally too—for all she's our seventh child, and Pennel hasn't but the one."

"Sally is a girl who has as good an education as money[Pg 177] can buy," said Mrs. Kittridge. "If I had her advantages at her age, I would have been much more than I am. But we haven't spared anything for Sally; and when it was clear that Mara had to go to Miss Plucher's school over in Portland, I sent Sally too—even though she's our seventh child, and Pennel only has one."

"You forget Moses," said the Captain.

"You’re forgetting Moses," said the Captain.

"Well, he's settin' up on his own account, I guess. They did talk o' giving him college eddication; but he was so unstiddy, there weren't no use in trying. A real wild ass's colt he was."

"Well, I guess he's starting out on his own now. They talked about giving him a college education, but he was so unreliable that it didn't make any sense to try. He was like a wild colt."

"Wal', wal', Moses was in the right on't. He took the cross-lot track into life," said the Captain. "Colleges is well enough for your smooth, straight-grained lumber, for gen'ral buildin'; but come to fellers that's got knots, and streaks, and cross-grains, like Moses Pennel, and the best way is to let 'em eddicate 'emselves, as he's a-doin'. He's cut out for the sea, plain enough, and he'd better be up to Umbagog, cuttin' timber for his ship, than havin' rows with tutors, and blowin' the roof off the colleges, as one o' them 'ere kind o' fellers is apt to when he don't have work to use up his steam. Why, mother, there's more gas got up in them Brunswick buildin's, from young men that are spilin' for hard work, than you could shake a stick at! But Mis' Pennel told me yesterday she was 'spectin' Moses home to-day."

"Well, well, Moses was right about that. He took the shortcut in life," said the Captain. "Colleges are fine for your smooth, straight-laced folks, for general education; but when it comes to guys with knots, streaks, and cross-grains, like Moses Pennel, the best approach is to let them educate themselves, just like he's doing. It's clear he's made for the sea, and he’d be better off up at Umbagog, cutting timber for his ship, than getting into fights with tutors and blowing the roof off the colleges, which is what these kinds of guys tend to do when they don’t have work to burn off their energy. Honestly, mother, there’s more frustration built up in those Brunswick buildings from young men itching for real work than you could imagine! But Mrs. Pennel told me yesterday she was expecting Moses home today."

"Oho! that's at the bottom of Sally's bein' up there," said Mrs. Kittridge.

"Oho! That's why Sally is up there," said Mrs. Kittridge.

"Mis' Kittridge," said the Captain, "I take it you ain't the woman as would expect a daughter of your bringin' up to be a-runnin' after any young chap, be he who he may," said the Captain.

"Miss Kittridge," said the Captain, "I assume you aren't the kind of woman who would expect a daughter raised like yours to be chasing after any young guy, no matter who he is," said the Captain.

Mrs. Kittridge for once was fairly silenced by this home-thrust; nevertheless, she did not the less think it quite[Pg 178] possible, from all that she knew of Sally; for although that young lady professed great hardness of heart and contempt for all the young male generation of her acquaintance, yet she had evidently a turn for observing their ways—probably purely in the way of philosophical inquiry.

Mrs. Kittridge was surprisingly taken aback by this direct comment; however, she still believed it was quite[Pg 178] possible, based on everything she knew about Sally. Although the young lady claimed to be emotionally tough and dismissive of all the young men she knew, she clearly had a knack for noticing their behavior—likely just out of a desire to understand them better.


CHAPTER XIX

EIGHTEEN

[Pg 179]In fact, at this very moment our scene-shifter changes the picture. Away rolls the image of Mrs. Kittridge's kitchen, with its sanded floor, its scoured rows of bright pewter platters, its great, deep fireplace, with wide stone hearth, its little looking-glass with a bit of asparagus bush, like a green mist, over it. Exeunt the image of Mrs. Kittridge, with her hands floury from the bread she has been moulding, and the dry, ropy, lean Captain, who has been sitting tilting back in a splint-bottomed chair,—and the next scene comes rolling in. It is a chamber in the house of Zephaniah Pennel, whose windows present a blue panorama of sea and sky. Through two windows you look forth into the blue belt of Harpswell Bay, bordered on the farther edge by Harpswell Neck, dotted here and there with houses, among which rises the little white meeting-house, like a mother-bird among a flock of chickens. The third window, on the other side of the room, looks far out to sea, where only a group of low, rocky islands interrupts the clear sweep of the horizon line, with its blue infinitude of distance.

[Pg 179]Right now, our scene-shifter is changing the picture. The image of Mrs. Kittridge's kitchen rolls away, with its sanded floor, its polished rows of shiny pewter plates, its large, deep fireplace with a wide stone hearth, and its little mirror adorned with a bit of asparagus bush, like a green mist, above it. Exeunt the image of Mrs. Kittridge, with her floury hands from the bread she has been kneading, and the dry, lean Captain, who has been sitting back in a wicker chair,—and the next scene rolls in. It’s a room in the house of Zephaniah Pennel, whose windows showcase a blue view of the sea and sky. Through two windows, you look out at the blue expanse of Harpswell Bay, bordered on the far side by Harpswell Neck, scattered with houses, among which the little white meeting-house stands out like a mother-bird among a flock of chicks. The third window, on the other side of the room, looks far out to sea, where only a group of low, rocky islands breaks the clear sweep of the horizon, with its blue vastness in the distance.

The furniture of this room, though of the barest and most frigid simplicity, is yet relieved by many of those touches of taste and fancy which the indwelling of a person of sensibility and imagination will shed off upon the physical surroundings. The bed was draped with a white spread, embroidered with a kind of knotted tracery, the working of which was considered among the female accomplishments[Pg 180] of those days, and over the head of it was a painting of a bunch of crimson and white trillium, executed with a fidelity to Nature that showed the most delicate gifts of observation. Over the mantelpiece hung a painting of the Bay of Genoa, which had accidentally found a voyage home in Zephaniah Pennel's sea-chest, and which skillful fingers had surrounded with a frame curiously wrought of moss and sea-shells. Two vases of India china stood on the mantel, filled with spring flowers, crowfoot, anemones, and liverwort, with drooping bells of the twin-flower. The looking-glass that hung over the table in one corner of the room was fancifully webbed with long, drooping festoons of that gray moss which hangs in such graceful wreaths from the boughs of the pines in the deep forest shadows of Orr's Island. On the table below was a collection of books: a whole set of Shakespeare which Zephaniah Pennel had bought of a Portland bookseller; a selection, in prose and verse, from the best classic writers, presented to Mara Lincoln, the fly-leaf said, by her sincere friend, Theophilus Sewell; a Virgil, much thumbed, with an old, worn cover, which, however, some adroit fingers had concealed under a coating of delicately marbled paper;—there was a Latin dictionary, a set of Plutarch's Lives, the Mysteries of Udolpho, and Sir Charles Grandison, together with Edwards on the Affections, and Boston's Fourfold State;—there was an inkstand, curiously contrived from a sea-shell, with pens and paper in that phase of arrangement which betokened frequency of use; and, lastly, a little work-basket, containing a long strip of curious and delicate embroidery, in which the needle yet hanging showed that the work was in progress.

The furniture in this room, while extremely simple and cold, is brightened by various touches of taste and creativity that come from the presence of someone with sensitivity and imagination. The bed was covered with a white spread, embroidered with a type of knotted design that was considered a skill among women in those days. Above it hung a painting of a bunch of red and white trillium, painted so faithfully that it showed incredible observational skill. Above the mantelpiece was a painting of the Bay of Genoa, which had somehow made its way back in Zephaniah Pennel's sea-chest, and it was beautifully framed with moss and seashells. Two china vases from India stood on the mantel, filled with spring flowers like crowfoot, anemones, and liverwort, along with the drooping bells of twin-flower. The mirror hanging over the table in one corner of the room was decorated with long, drooping strands of gray moss that gracefully drape from the branches of pines in the deep shadows of Orr's Island. On the table below was a collection of books: a complete set of Shakespeare that Zephaniah Pennel had bought from a Portland bookseller; a selection of prose and poetry from the best classic authors, presented to Mara Lincoln, as the flyleaf stated, by her true friend, Theophilus Sewell; a well-used Virgil with an old, worn cover, which some skillful hands had covered with a layer of delicately marbled paper; a Latin dictionary, a set of Plutarch's Lives, The Mysteries of Udolpho, and Sir Charles Grandison, along with Edwards on the Affections and Boston's Fourfold State; an inkstand cleverly made from a seashell, with pens and paper arranged to show they were frequently used; and finally, a small work-basket containing a long strip of intricate and delicate embroidery, with the needle still attached, indicating that the work was still in progress.

By a table at the sea-looking window sits our little Mara, now grown to the maturity of eighteen summers, but retaining still unmistakable signs of identity with the little golden-haired, dreamy, excitable, fanciful "Pearl" of Orr's Island.[Pg 181]

By a table at the window overlooking the sea sits our little Mara, now at the age of eighteen, but still showing clear signs of being the same golden-haired, dreamy, excitable, fanciful "Pearl" of Orr's Island.[Pg 181]

She is not quite of a middle height, with something beautiful and child-like about the moulding of her delicate form. We still see those sad, wistful, hazel eyes, over which the lids droop with a dreamy languor, and whose dark lustre contrasts singularly with the golden hue of the abundant hair which waves in a thousand rippling undulations around her face. The impression she produces is not that of paleness, though there is no color in her cheek; but her complexion has everywhere that delicate pink tinting which one sees in healthy infants, and with the least emotion brightens into a fluttering bloom. Such a bloom is on her cheek at this moment, as she is working away, copying a bunch of scarlet rock-columbine which is in a wine-glass of water before her; every few moments stopping and holding her work at a distance, to contemplate its effect. At this moment there steps behind her chair a tall, lithe figure, a face with a rich Spanish complexion, large black eyes, glowing cheeks, marked eyebrows, and lustrous black hair arranged in shining braids around her head. It is our old friend, Sally Kittridge, whom common fame calls the handsomest girl of all the region round Harpswell, Maquoit, and Orr's Island. In truth, a wholesome, ruddy, blooming creature she was, the sight of whom cheered and warmed one like a good fire in December; and she seemed to have enough and to spare of the warmest gifts of vitality and joyous animal life. She had a well-formed mouth, but rather large, and a frank laugh which showed all her teeth sound—and a fortunate sight it was, considering that they were white and even as pearls; and the hand that she laid upon Mara's at this moment, though twice as large as that of the little artist, was yet in harmony with her vigorous, finely developed figure.

She isn’t quite average height, with something beautiful and childlike about the shape of her delicate figure. We can still see those sad, longing hazel eyes, with eyelids that droop in a dreamy way, and their dark shine stands out against the golden color of her thick hair, which flows in a thousand rippling waves around her face. The impression she gives isn’t one of paleness, even though her cheeks lack color; her complexion has that delicate pink tint you see in healthy babies, and with the slightest emotion, it brightens into a fluttering blush. Right now, that blush is on her cheek as she works away, copying a bunch of scarlet rock-columbine in a wine glass of water in front of her; every few moments she stops to hold her work at a distance to see how it looks. At that moment, a tall, graceful figure steps behind her chair—a face with a rich Spanish complexion, large black eyes, glowing cheeks, distinct eyebrows, and shiny black hair arranged in beautiful braids around her head. It’s our old friend, Sally Kittridge, known by many as the most beautiful girl in the whole area around Harpswell, Maquoit, and Orr’s Island. Truly, she was a healthy, rosy, vibrant person, whose presence cheered and warmed you like a cozy fire in December; she seemed to radiate plenty of warm energy and joyful vitality. She had a well-shaped mouth, though it was on the larger side, and a genuine laugh that revealed all her sound teeth—and it was a pleasing sight, considering they were white and even like pearls; and the hand she placed on Mara's at that moment, though twice the size of the little artist’s, matched perfectly with her strong, well-developed figure.

"Mara Lincoln," she said, "you are a witch, a perfect little witch, at painting. How you can make things look so like, I don't see. Now, I could paint the things we[Pg 182] painted at Miss Plucher's; but then, dear me! they didn't look at all like flowers. One needed to write under them what they were made for."

"Mara Lincoln," she said, "you're a witch, a perfect little witch, when it comes to painting. I have no idea how you can make things look so realistic. I could paint the things we[Pg 182] painted at Miss Plucher's, but honestly! They didn't look anything like flowers. You had to write underneath what they were supposed to represent."

"Does this look like to you, Sally?" said Mara. "I wish it would to me. Just see what a beautiful clear color that flower is. All I can do, I can't make one like it. My scarlet and yellows sink dead into the paper."

"Does this look like anything to you, Sally?" said Mara. "I wish it would to me. Just look at that beautiful, clear color of the flower. There’s nothing I can do; I can’t create something like it. My reds and yellows just fade away into the paper."

"Why, I think your flowers are wonderful! You are a real genius, that's what you are! I am only a common girl; I can't do things as you can."

"Wow, your flowers are amazing! You're truly a genius, that's for sure! I’m just an ordinary girl; I can’t do things like you do."

"You can do things a thousand times more useful, Sally. I don't pretend to compare with you in the useful arts, and I am only a bungler in ornamental ones. Sally, I feel like a useless little creature. If I could go round as you can, and do business, and make bargains, and push ahead in the world, I should feel that I was good for something; but somehow I can't."

"You can do things a thousand times better, Sally. I don’t pretend to be on your level in practical skills, and I’m just clumsy when it comes to creative ones. Sally, I feel like a completely useless person. If I could move around like you do, handle business, make deals, and make progress in the world, I would feel like I had some worth; but for some reason, I can’t."

"To be sure you can't," said Sally, laughing. "I should like to see you try it."

"Of course you can’t," Sally said, laughing. "I’d love to see you try."

"Now," pursued Mara, in a tone of lamentation, "I could no more get into a carriage and drive to Brunswick as you can, than I could fly. I can't drive, Sally—something is the matter with me; and the horses always know it the minute I take the reins; they always twitch their ears and stare round into the chaise at me, as much as to say, 'What! you there?' and I feel sure they never will mind me. And then how you can make those wonderful bargains you do, I can't see!—you talk up to the clerks and the men, and somehow you talk everybody round; but as for me, if I only open my mouth in the humblest way to dispute the price, everybody puts me down. I always tremble when I go into a store, and people talk to me just as if I was a little girl, and once or twice they have made me buy things that I knew I didn't want, just because they will talk me down."[Pg 183]

"Now," Mara continued with a tone of sorrow, "I could no more get into a carriage and drive to Brunswick like you can than I could fly. I can't drive, Sally—something's wrong with me; and the horses always sense it the moment I take the reins; they twitch their ears and glance around into the carriage at me, as if to say, 'What! You again?' I'm sure they’ll never listen to me. And I don’t get how you can make those amazing deals! You confidently talk to the clerks and the men, and somehow you persuade everyone, but when I try to speak up, even in the slightest way to negotiate the price, everyone shuts me down. I always get so nervous when I walk into a store, and people treat me like I'm a little girl, and a couple of times they’ve made me buy things I know I don’t want, just because they talk me into it." [Pg 183]

"Oh, Mara, Mara," said Sally, laughing till the tears rolled down her cheeks, "what do you ever go a-shopping for?—of course you ought always to send me. Why, look at this dress—real India chintz; do you know I made old Pennywhistle's clerk up in Brunswick give it to me just for the price of common cotton? You see there was a yard of it had got faded by lying in the shop-window, and there were one or two holes and imperfections in it, and you ought to have heard the talk I made! I abused it to right and left, and actually at last I brought the poor wretch to believe that he ought to be grateful to me for taking it off his hands. Well, you see the dress I've made of it. The imperfections didn't hurt it the least in the world as I managed it,—and the faded breadth makes a good apron, so you see. And just so I got that red spotted flannel dress I wore last winter. It was moth-eaten in one or two places, and I made them let me have it at half-price;—made exactly as good a dress. But after all, Mara, I can't trim a bonnet as you can, and I can't come up to your embroidery, nor your lace-work, nor I can't draw and paint as you can, and I can't sing like you; and then as to all those things you talk with Mr. Sewell about, why they're beyond my depth,—that's all I've got to say. Now, you are made to have poetry written to you, and all that kind of thing one reads of in novels. Nobody would ever think of writing poetry to me, now, or sending me flowers and rings, and such things. If a fellow likes me, he gives me a quince, or a big apple; but, then, Mara, there ain't any fellows round here that are fit to speak to."

"Oh, Mara, Mara," Sally said, laughing so hard that tears rolled down her face, "what do you even shop for?—you should always send me along. Look at this dress—real India chintz; guess what? I got old Pennywhistle's clerk in Brunswick to sell it to me for the price of regular cotton! There was a yard of it that got faded from sitting in the shop window, and there were a couple of holes and blemishes, and you should’ve heard the fuss I made! I complained about it left and right, and eventually, I convinced the poor guy that he should be grateful to me for taking it off his hands. Well, look at the dress I made from it. The flaws didn’t matter at all with how I worked it,—and the faded part makes a nice apron, see? And that's exactly how I got that red spotted flannel dress I wore last winter. It was moth-eaten in a couple of spots, and I made them sell it to me at half price;—I made just as good a dress out of it. But still, Mara, I can't decorate a bonnet like you can, and I can't compare to your embroidery, or your lace work, and I’m not an artist like you, nor can I sing like you; and as for all those things you discuss with Mr. Sewell, well, they’re just over my head,—that’s all I have to say. You were meant to have poetry written for you and all those lovely things you read about in novels. No one would ever think of writing poetry for me, or sending me flowers and rings, or anything like that. If a guy likes me, he gives me a quince or a big apple; but honestly, Mara, there aren’t any guys around here worth talking to."

"I'm sure, Sally, there always is a train following you everywhere, at singing-school and Thursday lecture."

"I'm sure, Sally, there's always a train trailing behind you everywhere, at singing school and Thursday lecture."

"Yes—but what do I care for 'em?" said Sally, with a toss of her head. "Why they follow me, I don't see. I don't do anything to make 'em, and I tell 'em all that[Pg 184] they tire me to death; and still they will hang round. What is the reason, do you suppose?"

"Yeah—but why should I care about them?" said Sally, tossing her head. "I don’t get why they follow me. I don't do anything to encourage them, and I keep telling them that[Pg 184] they wear me out; yet they still stick around. What do you think is the reason?"

"What can it be?" said Mara, with a quiet kind of arch drollery which suffused her face, as she bent over her painting.

"What could it be?" Mara said, with a subtle, playful humor on her face as she leaned over her painting.

"Well, you know I can't bear fellows—I think they are hateful."

"Well, you know I can't stand guys—I think they're awful."

"What! even Tom Hiers?" said Mara, continuing her painting.

"What! Even Tom Hiers?" said Mara, as she kept painting.

"Tom Hiers! Do you suppose I care for him? He would insist on waiting on me round all last winter, taking me over in his boat to Portland, and up in his sleigh to Brunswick; but I didn't care for him."

"Tom Hiers! Do you think I care about him? He insisted on waiting on me all last winter, taking me on his boat to Portland and in his sleigh to Brunswick; but I didn't care for him."

"Well, there's Jimmy Wilson, up at Brunswick."

"Well, there's Jimmy Wilson, up in Brunswick."

"What! that little snip of a clerk! You don't suppose I care for him, do you?—only he almost runs his head off following me round when I go up there shopping; he's nothing but a little dressed-up yard-stick! I never saw a fellow yet that I'd cross the street to have another look at. By the by, Mara, Miss Roxy told me Sunday that Moses was coming down from Umbagog this week."

"What! That little clerk? You don't think I care about him, do you? He practically runs himself ragged trying to keep up with me when I'm shopping up there; he's just a little dressed-up measuring stick! I’ve never seen a guy I’d bother to cross the street to check out again. By the way, Mara, Miss Roxy told me on Sunday that Moses was coming down from Umbagog this week."

"Yes, he is," said Mara; "we are looking for him every day."

"Yes, he is," Mara said. "We're looking for him every day."

"You must want to see him. How long is it since you saw him?"

"You must want to see him. How long has it been since you last saw him?"

"It is three years," said Mara. "I scarcely know what he is like now. I was visiting in Boston when he came home from his three-years' voyage, and he was gone into the lumbering country when I came back. He seems almost a stranger to me."

"It’s been three years," Mara said. "I barely remember what he’s like now. I was visiting in Boston when he returned from his three-year trip, and he had already gone to the lumber area when I got back. He feels almost like a stranger to me."

"He's pretty good-looking," said Sally. "I saw him on Sunday when he was here, but he was off on Monday, and never called on old friends. Does he write to you often?"

"He's pretty good-looking," Sally said. "I saw him on Sunday when he was here, but he had Monday off and never reached out to old friends. Does he write to you often?"

"Not very," said Mara; "in fact, almost never; and when he does, there is so little in his letters."[Pg 185]

"Not really," said Mara; "actually, almost never; and when he does, there's barely anything in his letters."[Pg 185]

"Well, I tell you, Mara, you must not expect fellows to write as girls can. They don't do it. Now, our boys, when they write home, they tell the latitude and longitude, and soil and productions, and such things. But if you or I were only there, don't you think we should find something more to say? Of course we should,—fifty thousand little things that they never think of."

"Well, I tell you, Mara, you can't expect guys to write like girls do. They just don't. Our boys, when they write home, talk about the latitude and longitude, the soil and what’s being produced, and stuff like that. But if you or I were there, don’t you think we’d have a lot more to share? Of course we would—thousands of little things they never even consider."

Mara made no reply to this, but went on very intently with her painting. A close observer might have noticed a suppressed sigh that seemed to retreat far down into her heart. Sally did not notice it.

Mara didn’t respond to this but continued to focus intensely on her painting. A keen observer might have caught a quiet sigh that felt like it was buried deep in her heart. Sally didn’t notice it.

What was in that sigh? It was the sigh of a long, deep, inner history, unwritten and untold—such as are transpiring daily by thousands, and of which we take no heed.

What was behind that sigh? It was the sigh of a long, deep inner story, unwritten and untold—like the ones happening every day to thousands of people that we completely overlook.


CHAPTER XX

REBELLION

[Pg 186]We have introduced Mara to our readers as she appears in her seventeenth year, at the time when she is expecting the return of Moses as a young man of twenty; but we cannot do justice to the feelings which are roused in her heart by this expectation, without giving a chapter or two to tracing the history of Moses since we left him as a boy commencing the study of the Latin grammar with Mr. Sewell. The reader must see the forces that acted upon his early development, and what they have made of him.

[Pg 186]We have introduced Mara to our readers at the age of seventeen, right when she is anticipating Moses's return as a young man of twenty. However, we can't fully capture the emotions that this expectation stirs in her heart without dedicating a chapter or two to exploring Moses's journey since we last saw him as a boy starting to learn Latin grammar with Mr. Sewell. The reader needs to understand the influences that shaped his early development and what they have made him into.

It is common for people who write treatises on education to give forth their rules and theories with a self-satisfied air, as if a human being were a thing to be made up, like a batch of bread, out of a given number of materials combined by an infallible recipe. Take your child, and do thus and so for a given number of years, and he comes out a thoroughly educated individual.

It’s typical for those who write about education to present their rules and theories with a sense of pride, as if people can simply be crafted like a loaf of bread using a specific recipe. Just take your child, do this and that for a certain number of years, and they turn out to be a fully educated person.

But in fact, education is in many cases nothing more than a blind struggle of parents and guardians with the evolutions of some strong, predetermined character, individual, obstinate, unreceptive, and seeking by an inevitable law of its being to develop itself and gain free expression in its own way. Captain Kittridge's confidence that he would as soon undertake a boy as a Newfoundland pup, is good for those whose idea of what is to be done for a human being are only what would be done for a dog, namely, give food, shelter, and world-room, and leave each to act out his own nature without let or hindrance.[Pg 187]

But in reality, education is often just a blind struggle of parents and guardians against the development of a strong, predetermined character—one that is individual, stubborn, resistant, and is naturally inclined to develop and express itself in its own way. Captain Kittridge's belief that he could just as easily raise a boy as a Newfoundland puppy is fitting for those who think that what should be done for a human being is only what would be done for a dog: providing food, shelter, and space, then letting each person act according to their nature without interference.[Pg 187]

But everybody takes an embryo human being with some plan of one's own what it shall do or be. The child's future shall shape out some darling purpose or plan, and fulfill some long unfulfilled expectation of the parent. And thus, though the wind of every generation sweeps its hopes and plans like forest-leaves, none are whirled and tossed with more piteous moans than those which come out green and fresh to shade the happy spring-time of the cradle. For the temperaments of children are often as oddly unsuited to parents as if capricious fairies had been filling cradles with changelings.

But everyone views an unborn child with a specific vision of what they should become or do. The child's future is expected to bring to life some cherished hope or plan and fulfill a long-held aspiration of the parent. And so, even though the ambitions of each generation are swept away like leaves in the wind, none are tossed about with more sorrowful cries than those that emerge bright and new to bring joy to the spring of infancy. This is because children's temperaments often seem as mismatched to their parents as if whimsical fairies had placed changelings in their cradles.

A meek member of the Peace Society, a tender, devout, poetical clergyman, receives an heir from heaven, and straightway devotes him to the Christian ministry. But lo! the boy proves a young war-horse, neighing for battle, burning for gunpowder and guns, for bowie-knives and revolvers, and for every form and expression of physical force;—he might make a splendid trapper, an energetic sea-captain, a bold, daring military man, but his whole boyhood is full of rebukes and disciplines for sins which are only the blind effort of the creature to express a nature which his parent does not and cannot understand. So again, the son that was to have upheld the old, proud merchant's time-honored firm, that should have been mighty in ledgers and great upon 'Change, breaks his father's heart by an unintelligible fancy for weaving poems and romances. A father of literary aspirations, balked of privileges of early education, bends over the cradle of his son with but one idea. This child shall have the full advantages of regular college-training; and so for years he battles with a boy abhorring study, and fitted only for a life of out-door energy and bold adventure,—on whom Latin forms and Greek quantities fall and melt aimless and useless, as snow-flakes on the hide of a buffalo. Then the secret agonies,—the long years of sorrowful watchings of those gentler nurses of[Pg 188] humanity who receive the infant into their bosom out of the void unknown, and strive to read its horoscope through the mists of their prayers and tears!—what perplexities,—what confusion! Especially is this so in a community where the moral and religious sense is so cultivated as in New England, and frail, trembling, self-distrustful mothers are told that the shaping and ordering not only of this present life, but of an immortal destiny, is in their hands.

A gentle member of the Peace Society, a kind-hearted, devoted, poetical clergyman, receives a child from heaven and immediately dedicates him to the Christian ministry. But here’s the twist! The boy turns out to be a young war-horse, eager for battle, burning for gunpowder and guns, for bowie knives and revolvers, and for every kind of physical force. He could be a great trapper, a dynamic sea captain, or a bold military man, but his entire boyhood is filled with reprimands and punishments for behaviors that are just his way of expressing a nature his parent cannot understand. Similarly, the son who was meant to carry on the proud merchant's longstanding business, who should excel in accounting and thrive in trade, breaks his father's heart with an inexplicable passion for writing poems and stories. A father with literary dreams, deprived of the luxury of early education, leans over his son’s crib with one goal in mind: this child will have the full benefits of a formal college education. For years, he struggles with a boy who hates studying and is made for a life of outdoor energy and bold adventure, as Latin and Greek lessons fall on him aimlessly and uselessly like snowflakes on a buffalo's back. Then come the hidden pains—the long years of sorrowful watching by those nurturing caregivers who take the infant into their arms from an unknown void, trying to decipher its future through their prayers and tears! What confusion—what frustration! This is especially true in a community like New England, where moral and religious values are highly developed, and fragile, anxious mothers are told that the shaping and guiding of not just this life, but also an eternal future, rests in their hands.

On the whole, those who succeed best in the rearing of children are the tolerant and easy persons who instinctively follow nature and accept without much inquiry whatever she sends; or that far smaller class, wise to discern spirits and apt to adopt means to their culture and development, who can prudently and carefully train every nature according to its true and characteristic ideal.

Overall, the people who are the most successful at raising children are the easygoing and tolerant individuals who naturally follow the flow of things and accept whatever comes their way without too much questioning. There’s also a much smaller group who can recognize the different personalities and are skilled at nurturing and developing them, able to wisely and carefully guide each child according to their unique traits and potential.

Zephaniah Pennel was a shrewd old Yankee, whose instincts taught him from the first, that the waif that had been so mysteriously washed out of the gloom of the sea into his family, was of some different class and lineage from that which might have filled a cradle of his own, and of a nature which he could not perfectly understand. So he prudently watched and waited, only using restraint enough to keep the boy anchored in society, and letting him otherwise grow up in the solitary freedom of his lonely seafaring life.

Zephaniah Pennel was a clever old New Englander who realized right away that the child who had mysteriously come out of the depths of the sea and into his family belonged to a different class and background than what might have filled a cradle of his own, and had a nature he couldn't fully grasp. So he wisely watched and waited, only holding back enough to keep the boy connected to society, while allowing him to grow up in the solitary freedom of his isolated life at sea.

The boy was from childhood, although singularly attractive, of a moody, fitful, unrestful nature,—eager, earnest, but unsteady,—with varying phases of imprudent frankness and of the most stubborn and unfathomable secretiveness. He was a creature of unreasoning antipathies and attractions. As Zephaniah Pennel said of him, he was as full of hitches as an old bureau drawer. His peculiar beauty, and a certain electrical power of attraction, seemed to form a constant circle of protection and forgiveness around him in the home of his foster-parents; and great[Pg 189] as was the anxiety and pain which he often gave them, they somehow never felt the charge of him as a weariness.

The boy, while very attractive from a young age, had a moody, restless, and unpredictable personality—enthusiastic and sincere, yet inconsistent—with moments of imprudent honesty and deep, stubborn secrecy. He was driven by irrational dislikes and likes. As Zephaniah Pennel remarked about him, he was as full of quirks as an old bureau drawer. His unique beauty and a certain magnetic charm seemed to create a constant shield of protection and forgiveness around him in the home of his foster parents; and despite the worry and pain he often caused them, they somehow never found him to be a burden.

We left him a boy beginning Latin with Mr. Sewell in company with the little Mara. This arrangement progressed prosperously for a time, and the good clergyman, all whose ideas of education ran through the halls of a college, began to have hopes of turning out a choice scholar. But when the boy's ship of life came into the breakers of that narrow and intricate channel which divides boyhood from manhood, the difficulties that had always attended his guidance and management wore an intensified form. How much family happiness is wrecked just then and there! How many mothers' and sisters' hearts are broken in the wild and confused tossings and tearings of that stormy transition! A whole new nature is blindly upheaving itself, with cravings and clamorings, which neither the boy himself nor often surrounding friends understand.

We left him as a boy starting Latin with Mr. Sewell alongside little Mara. This setup went well for a while, and the well-meaning clergyman, whose views on education were shaped by the halls of a college, began to have hopes of developing a fine scholar. But when the boy's journey of life entered the rough waters of that narrow and complicated channel that separates childhood from adulthood, the challenges that had always been part of his upbringing became even more pronounced. How much family happiness is destroyed at that moment! How many mothers' and sisters' hearts are broken in the chaotic emotional turmoil of that stormy transition! A whole new side of his nature is emerging, with desires and frustrations that neither the boy himself nor often those around him can comprehend.

A shrewd observer has significantly characterized the period as the time when the boy wishes he were dead, and everybody else wishes so too. The wretched, half-fledged, half-conscious, anomalous creature has all the desires of the man, and none of the rights; has a double and triple share of nervous edge and intensity in every part of his nature, and no definitely perceived objects on which to bestow it,—and, of course, all sorts of unreasonable moods and phases are the result.

A sharp observer has accurately described this time as one when the boy wishes he were dead, and everyone else feels the same way. The miserable, incomplete, and confused being has all the desires of an adult but none of the rights; he experiences heightened anxiety and intensity in every part of his being, yet has no clear targets for that energy, leading to all kinds of unreasonable emotions and swings.

One of the most common signs of this period, in some natures, is the love of contradiction and opposition,—a blind desire to go contrary to everything that is commonly received among the older people. The boy disparages the minister, quizzes the deacon, thinks the school-master an ass, and doesn't believe in the Bible, and seems to be rather pleased than otherwise with the shock and flutter that all these announcements create among peaceably disposed grown people. No respectable hen that ever hatched[Pg 190] out a brood of ducks was more puzzled what to do with them than was poor Mrs. Pennel when her adopted nursling came into this state. Was he a boy? an immortal soul? a reasonable human being? or only a handsome goblin sent to torment her?

One of the most common signs of this period, in some people, is the love of contradiction and opposition—a blind urge to defy everything that is generally accepted by older generations. The boy criticizes the minister, mocks the deacon, thinks the schoolteacher is an idiot, and doesn't believe in the Bible, seeming to take delight in the shock and concern these statements create among peaceably inclined adults. No respectable hen that ever hatched[Pg 190] a brood of ducks was more confused about what to do with them than poor Mrs. Pennel was when her adopted nursling entered this phase. Was he a boy? An immortal soul? A rational human being? Or just a handsome goblin sent to torment her?

"What shall we do with him, father?" said she, one Sunday, to Zephaniah, as he stood shaving before the little looking-glass in their bedroom. "He can't be governed like a child, and he won't govern himself like a man."

"What should we do with him, Dad?" she asked one Sunday, as Zephaniah stood shaving in front of the small mirror in their bedroom. "He can't be controlled like a child, and he won't manage himself like an adult."

Zephaniah stopped and strapped his razor reflectively.

Zephaniah paused and thoughtfully strapped on his razor.

"We must cast out anchor and wait for day," he answered. "Prayer is a long rope with a strong hold."

"We need to drop anchor and wait for daylight," he replied. "Prayer is like a long rope that's securely tied."

It was just at this critical period of life that Moses Pennel was drawn into associations which awoke the alarm of all his friends, and from which the characteristic willfulness of his nature made it difficult to attempt to extricate him.

It was right at this crucial time in his life that Moses Pennel got involved with groups that worried all his friends, and his typical stubbornness made it hard to try to pull him away from them.

In order that our readers may fully understand this part of our history, we must give some few particulars as to the peculiar scenery of Orr's Island and the state of the country at this time.

In order for our readers to fully understand this part of our history, we need to provide some details about the unique landscape of Orr's Island and the condition of the country at that time.

The coast of Maine, as we have elsewhere said, is remarkable for a singular interpenetration of the sea with the land, forming amid its dense primeval forests secluded bays, narrow and deep, into which vessels might float with the tide, and where they might nestle unseen and unsuspected amid the dense shadows of the overhanging forest.

The coast of Maine, as we mentioned elsewhere, is notable for a unique blending of the sea and land, creating quiet bays, narrow and deep, within its thick ancient forests. Vessels can sail in and out with the tide, finding shelter hidden and unnoticed in the dense shade of the surrounding trees.

At this time there was a very brisk business done all along the coast of Maine in the way of smuggling. Small vessels, lightly built and swift of sail, would run up into these sylvan fastnesses, and there make their deposits and transact their business so as entirely to elude the vigilance of government officers.

At this time, there was a lot of smuggling happening along the coast of Maine. Small, fast boats would sneak into these wooded hideouts to drop off their goods and conduct their business, completely avoiding the watchful eyes of government agents.

It may seem strange that practices of this kind should ever have obtained a strong foothold in a community pecu[Pg 191]liar for its rigid morality and its orderly submission to law; but in this case, as in many others, contempt of law grew out of weak and unworthy legislation. The celebrated embargo of Jefferson stopped at once the whole trade of New England, and condemned her thousand ships to rot at the wharves, and caused the ruin of thousands of families.

It might seem odd that practices like this could ever become well-established in a community known for its strict morality and orderly respect for the law; however, in this instance, as in many others, disregard for the law arose from weak and inadequate legislation. Jefferson's famous embargo immediately halted all trade in New England, leaving countless ships to decay at the docks and leading to the downfall of thousands of families.

The merchants of the country regarded this as a flagrant, high-handed piece of injustice, expressly designed to cripple New England commerce, and evasions of this unjust law found everywhere a degree of sympathy, even in the breasts of well-disposed and conscientious people. In resistance to the law, vessels were constantly fitted out which ran upon trading voyages to the West Indies and other places; and although the practice was punishable as smuggling, yet it found extensive connivance. From this beginning smuggling of all kinds gradually grew up in the community, and gained such a foothold that even after the repeal of the embargo it still continued to be extensively practiced. Secret depositories of contraband goods still existed in many of the lonely haunts of islands off the coast of Maine. Hid in deep forest shadows, visited only in the darkness of the night, were these illegal stores of merchandise. And from these secluded resorts they found their way, no one knew or cared to say how, into houses for miles around.

The merchants in the country saw this as a blatant, aggressive injustice intended to undermine New England's trade, and people everywhere showed a certain level of sympathy for those who ignored this unfair law, including well-meaning and principled individuals. In defiance of the law, ships were regularly outfitted to undertake trading voyages to the West Indies and other locations; and even though this was punishable as smuggling, it was widely overlooked. From this starting point, all sorts of smuggling began to emerge in the community and became so established that even after the embargo was lifted, it continued to be widely practiced. Secret hideouts for smuggled goods still existed in many remote spots of islands off the coast of Maine. Hidden in the deep shadows of the forest, visited only under the cover of night, were these illegal stockpiles of merchandise. From these hidden locations, the goods found their way, though no one knew or cared to reveal how, into homes for miles around.

There was no doubt that the practice, like all other illegal ones, was demoralizing to the community, and particularly fatal to the character of that class of bold, enterprising young men who would be most likely to be drawn into it.

There’s no doubt that the practice, like all other illegal ones, was damaging to the community and especially harmful to the character of those bold, ambitious young men who were most likely to get involved in it.

Zephaniah Pennel, who was made of a kind of straight-grained, uncompromising oaken timber such as built the Mayflower of old, had always borne his testimony at home and abroad against any violations of the laws of the land, however veiled under the pretext of righting a wrong or[Pg 192] resisting an injustice, and had done what he could in his neighborhood to enable government officers to detect and break up these unlawful depositories. This exposed him particularly to the hatred and ill-will of the operators concerned in such affairs, and a plot was laid by a few of the most daring and determined of them to establish one of their depositories on Orr's Island, and to implicate the family of Pennel himself in the trade. This would accomplish two purposes, as they hoped,—it would be a mortification and defeat to him,—a revenge which they coveted; and it would, they thought, insure his silence and complicity for the strongest reasons.

Zephaniah Pennel, who was made of a solid, uncompromising wood similar to that which built the Mayflower, had always spoken out at home and abroad against any violations of the law, no matter how they masked themselves under the pretense of correcting a wrong or resisting an injustice, and had done what he could in his community to help government officials detect and shut down these illegal operations. This made him particularly hated and resented by those involved in such activities, and a scheme was created by a few of the boldest and most determined among them to set up one of their operations on Orr's Island, intending to involve Pennel's family in the trade. They hoped this would serve two purposes—it would be a humiliation and defeat for him, which they sought, and they believed it would ensure his silence and complicity for the most compelling reasons.

The situation and characteristics of Orr's Island peculiarly fitted it for the carrying out of a scheme of this kind, and for this purpose we must try to give our readers a more definite idea of it.

The situation and features of Orr's Island uniquely suited it for implementing a plan like this, and for this reason, we need to provide our readers with a clearer understanding of it.

The traveler who wants a ride through scenery of more varied and singular beauty than can ordinarily be found on the shores of any land whatever, should start some fine clear day along the clean sandy road, ribboned with strips of green grass, that leads through the flat pitch-pine forests of Brunswick toward the sea. As he approaches the salt water, a succession of the most beautiful and picturesque lakes seems to be lying softly cradled in the arms of wild, rocky forest shores, whose outlines are ever changing with the windings of the road.

The traveler looking for a ride through scenery with more diverse and unique beauty than what's usually found on any shore should set off on a nice clear day along the clean sandy road, lined with patches of green grass, that takes you through the flat pitch-pine forests of Brunswick toward the sea. As you get closer to the saltwater, a series of stunning and picturesque lakes appears, gently nestled among the wild, rocky forest shores, whose shapes constantly shift with the bends of the road.

At a distance of about six or eight miles from Brunswick he crosses an arm of the sea, and comes upon the first of the interlacing group of islands which beautifies the shore. A ride across this island is a constant succession of pictures, whose wild and solitary beauty entirely distances all power of description. The magnificence of the evergreen forests,—their peculiar air of sombre stillness,—the rich intermingling ever and anon of groves of birch, beech, and oak, in picturesque knots and tufts, as if set[Pg 193] for effect by some skillful landscape-gardener,—produce a sort of strange dreamy wonder; while the sea, breaking forth both on the right hand and the left of the road into the most romantic glimpses, seems to flash and glitter like some strange gem which every moment shows itself through the framework of a new setting. Here and there little secluded coves push in from the sea, around which lie soft tracts of green meadow-land, hemmed in and guarded by rocky pine-crowned ridges. In such sheltered spots may be seen neat white houses, nestling like sheltered doves in the beautiful solitude.

About six or eight miles from Brunswick, you cross an arm of the sea and arrive at the first of the beautiful islands that dot the shore. Riding across this island offers a continuous series of stunning views, whose wild and solitary beauty is beyond description. The grandeur of the evergreen forests—their unique sense of quiet stillness—the rich and varied groves of birch, beech, and oak, arranged in picturesque clusters as if designed by a talented landscape artist—creates a kind of strange dreamy wonder. Meanwhile, the sea breaks on both sides of the road, providing romantic glimpses that sparkle like a unique gem, revealing itself in a new light constantly. Here and there, little secluded coves extend from the sea, surrounded by soft stretches of green meadows, framed and protected by rocky ridges topped with pine trees. In these quiet spots, you can see tidy white houses, nestled like protected doves in the beautiful solitude.

When one has ridden nearly to the end of Great Island, which is about four miles across, he sees rising before him, from the sea, a bold romantic point of land, uplifting a crown of rich evergreen and forest trees over shores of perpendicular rock. This is Orr's Island.

When you’ve nearly reached the end of Great Island, which is about four miles wide, you see a striking, picturesque point of land rising from the sea, topped with a crown of lush evergreen and forest trees above steep rocky shores. This is Orr's Island.

It was not an easy matter in the days of our past experience to guide a horse and carriage down the steep, wild shores of Great Island to the long bridge that connects it with Orr's. The sense of wild seclusion reaches here the highest degree; and one crosses the bridge with a feeling as if genii might have built it, and one might be going over it to fairy-land. From the bridge the path rises on to a high granite ridge, which runs from one end of the island to the other, and has been called the Devil's Back, with that superstitious generosity which seems to have abandoned all romantic places to so undeserving an owner.

It wasn't easy in the past to drive a horse and carriage down the steep, rugged shores of Great Island to the long bridge that connects it to Orr's. The sense of wild seclusion here is at its peak; crossing the bridge feels like stepping into a world built by genies, as if you’re heading to fairyland. From the bridge, the path climbs up to a high granite ridge that stretches from one end of the island to the other, often referred to as the Devil's Back, a name chosen with that strange superstition that seems to give romantic places to an unworthy owner.

By the side of this ridge of granite is a deep, narrow chasm, running a mile and a half or two miles parallel with the road, and veiled by the darkest and most solemn shadows of the primeval forest. Here scream the jays and the eagles, and fish-hawks make their nests undisturbed; and the tide rises and falls under black branches of evergreen, from which depend long, light festoons of delicate gray moss. The darkness of the forest is relieved by the deli[Pg 194]cate foliage and the silvery trunks of the great white birches, which the solitude of centuries has allowed to grow in this spot to a height and size seldom attained elsewhere.

By the edge of this granite ridge is a deep, narrow canyon that stretches one and a half to two miles alongside the road, shrouded in the darkest and most serious shadows of the ancient forest. Here, jays and eagles scream, and fish-hawks build their nests undisturbed; the tide rises and falls beneath the black branches of evergreen trees, from which hang long, light strands of delicate gray moss. The darkness of the forest is brightened by the delicate leaves and silver trunks of the majestic white birches, which centuries of solitude have allowed to grow to heights and sizes rarely seen elsewhere.

It was this narrow, rocky cove that had been chosen by the smuggler Atkinson and his accomplices as a safe and secluded resort for their operations. He was a seafaring man of Bath, one of that class who always prefer uncertain and doubtful courses to those which are safe and reputable. He was possessed of many of those traits calculated to make him a hero in the eyes of young men; was dashing, free, and frank in his manners, with a fund of humor and an abundance of ready anecdote which made his society fascinating; but he concealed beneath all these attractions a character of hard, grasping, unscrupulous selfishness, and an utter destitution of moral principle.

It was this narrow, rocky cove that the smuggler Atkinson and his accomplices had picked as a safe and hidden spot for their operations. He was a seafaring guy from Bath, one of those people who always prefer risky and questionable paths over safe and respectable ones. He had many traits that would make him a hero in the eyes of young men; he was daring, outgoing, and straightforward, with a great sense of humor and plenty of entertaining stories that made hanging out with him enjoyable. But beneath all these appealing qualities, he hid a character marked by hard, greedy, unscrupulous selfishness, and a complete lack of moral principles.

Moses, now in his sixteenth year, and supposed to be in a general way doing well, under the care of the minister, was left free to come and go at his own pleasure, unwatched by Zephaniah, whose fishing operations often took him for weeks from home. Atkinson hung about the boy's path, engaging him first in fishing or hunting enterprises; plied him with choice preparations of liquor, with which he would enhance the hilarity of their expeditions; and finally worked on his love of adventure and that impatient restlessness incident to his period of life to draw him fully into his schemes. Moses lost all interest in his lessons, often neglecting them for days at a time—accounting for his negligence by excuses which were far from satisfactory. When Mara would expostulate with him about this, he would break out upon her with a fierce irritation. Was he always going to be tied to a girl's apron-string? He was tired of study, and tired of old Sewell, whom he declared an old granny in a white wig, who knew nothing of the world. He wasn't going to college—it was altogether[Pg 195] too slow for him—he was going to see life and push ahead for himself.

Moses, now sixteen and generally thought to be doing well under the care of the minister, was free to come and go as he pleased, without being watched by Zephaniah, whose fishing trips often took him away for weeks. Atkinson lingered around the boy, first getting him involved in fishing or hunting adventures; he fed him premium liquor to boost the fun of their outings; and ultimately played on his sense of adventure and the restless feelings typical of his age to draw him fully into his plans. Moses lost interest in his studies, often skipping lessons for days, justifying his neglect with excuses that weren’t convincing. When Mara tried to reason with him about this, he would lash out at her in frustration. Was he always going to be tied to a girl’s apron strings? He was tired of studying and old Sewell, whom he called an old lady in a white wig, who didn’t know anything about the real world. He wasn’t going to college—it was way too slow for him—he was ready to see life and move forward on his own.

Mara's life during this time was intensely wearing. A frail, slender, delicate girl of thirteen, she carried a heart prematurely old with the most distressing responsibility of mature life. Her love for Moses had always had in it a large admixture of that maternal and care-taking element which, in some shape or other, qualities the affection of woman to man. Ever since that dream of babyhood, when the vision of a pale mother had led the beautiful boy to her arms, Mara had accepted him as something exclusively her own, with an intensity of ownership that seemed almost to merge her personal identity with his. She felt, and saw, and enjoyed, and suffered in him, and yet was conscious of a higher nature in herself, by which unwillingly he was often judged and condemned. His faults affected her with a kind of guilty pain, as if they were her own; his sins were borne bleeding in her heart in silence, and with a jealous watchfulness to hide them from every eye but hers. She busied herself day and night interceding and making excuses for him, first to her own sensitive moral nature, and then with everybody around, for with one or another he was coming into constant collision. She felt at this time a fearful load of suspicion, which she dared not express to a human being.

Mara's life during this time was incredibly exhausting. A frail, slender, delicate girl of thirteen, she carried a heart that felt prematurely old, burdened by the painful responsibilities of adulthood. Her love for Moses was always mixed with a nurturing and caring aspect that often defines a woman's affection for a man. Since the innocent days of childhood, when the image of a pale mother had drawn the beautiful boy to her, Mara had taken him as something entirely her own, with an intensity that almost fused her identity with his. She felt everything for him—joy, suffering, and empathy—but was also aware of a higher part of herself that often judged him harshly. His faults brought her a guilty pain, as if they were her own; his sins were a silent wound in her heart, something she carefully hid from everyone except herself. She occupied her days and nights trying to defend and excuse him, first to her own sensitive conscience, and then to those around her, as he frequently clashed with others. At this time, she carried a heavy burden of suspicion that she feared to share with anyone.

Up to this period she had always been the only confidant of Moses, who poured into her ear without reserve all the good and the evil of his nature, and who loved her with all the intensity with which he was capable of loving anything. Nothing so much shows what a human being is in moral advancement as the quality of his love. Moses Pennel's love was egotistic, exacting, tyrannical, and capricious—sometimes venting itself in expressions of a passionate fondness, which had a savor of protecting generosity in them, and then receding to the icy pole of[Pg 196] surly petulance. For all that, there was no resisting the magnetic attraction with which in his amiable moods he drew those whom he liked to himself.

Up until this time, she had always been Moses's only confidant, and he shared everything about himself with her, both his good qualities and his flaws. He loved her with all the intensity he could muster for anything. The way someone loves is a true reflection of their moral growth. Moses Pennel's love was selfish, demanding, controlling, and unpredictable—sometimes turning into passionate affection that had a hint of protective generosity, and then retreating to the coldness of[Pg 196] grumpy petulance. Despite this, there was no denying the magnetic pull he had during his friendly moments, attracting those he cared about to him.

Such people are not very wholesome companions for those who are sensitively organized and predisposed to self-sacrificing love. They keep the heart in a perpetual freeze and thaw, which, like the American northern climate, is so particularly fatal to plants of a delicate habit. They could live through the hot summer and the cold winter, but they cannot endure the three or four months when it freezes one day and melts the next,—when all the buds are started out by a week of genial sunshine, and then frozen for a fortnight. These fitful persons are of all others most engrossing, because you are always sure in their good moods that they are just going to be angels,—an expectation which no number of disappointments seems finally to do away. Mara believed in Moses's future as she did in her own existence. He was going to do something great and good,—that she was certain of. He would be a splendid man! Nobody, she thought, knew him as she did; nobody could know how good and generous he was sometimes, and how frankly he would confess his faults, and what noble aspirations he had!

Such people aren't great companions for those who are sensitive and inclined toward selfless love. They keep the heart in a constant state of freeze and thaw, which, like the harsh northern climate in America, is particularly damaging to delicate plants. They can survive the hot summer and the cold winter, but they struggle with the three or four months when it freezes one day and melts the next—when all the buds are encouraged by a week of warm sunshine, only to be frozen for two weeks. These unpredictable people are the most captivating because, during their good moods, you always think they're about to become incredible—an expectation that no amount of disappointments ever seems to erase. Mara believed in Moses's future just as she believed in her own existence. She was sure he was destined to do something great and good. He would be an amazing man! Nobody, she thought, understood him like she did; nobody could know how kind and generous he was sometimes, how openly he would admit his flaws, and what noble dreams he had!

But there was no concealing from her watchful sense that Moses was beginning to have secrets from her. He was cloudy and murky; and at some of the most harmless inquiries in the world, would flash out with a sudden temper, as if she had touched some sore spot. Her bedroom was opposite to his; and she became quite sure that night after night, while she lay thinking of him, she heard him steal down out of the house between two and three o'clock, and not return till a little before day-dawn. Where he went, and with whom, and what he was doing, was to her an awful mystery,—and it was one she dared not share with a human being. If she told her kind old grandfather,[Pg 197] she feared that any inquiry from him would only light as a spark on that inflammable spirit of pride and insubordination that was rising within him, and bring on an instantaneous explosion. Mr. Sewell's influence she could hope little more from; and as to poor Mrs. Pennel, such communications would only weary and distress her, without doing any manner of good. There was, therefore, only that one unfailing Confidant—the Invisible Friend to whom the solitary child could pour out her heart, and whose inspirations of comfort and guidance never fail to come again in return to true souls.

But she couldn't hide from her keen instincts that Moses was starting to keep secrets from her. He was moody and unpredictable; even with the most innocent questions, he would snap back with a sudden anger, as if she had hit a nerve. Her bedroom was across from his, and she became convinced that night after night, while she lay awake thinking about him, she heard him sneak out of the house between two and three o'clock, returning just before dawn. Where he went, who he was with, and what he was doing was a terrifying mystery to her—one she felt she couldn’t share with anyone. If she told her kind old grandfather,[Pg 197] she worried that any question from him would ignite the pride and rebelliousness bubbling up inside him, leading to an explosive reaction. She couldn’t expect much help from Mr. Sewell either; and as for poor Mrs. Pennel, such revelations would only tire and upset her, without offering any benefit. So, there was only that one reliable confidant—the Invisible Friend to whom the lonely child could confide her feelings, and whose comforting and guiding inspirations never failed to return to true souls.

One moonlight night, as she lay thus praying, her senses, sharpened by watching, discerned a sound of steps treading under her window, and then a low whistle. Her heart beat violently, and she soon heard the door of Moses's room open, and then the old chamber-stairs gave forth those inconsiderate creaks and snaps that garrulous old stairs always will when anybody is desirous of making them accomplices in a night-secret. Mara rose, and undrawing her curtain, saw three men standing before the house, and saw Moses come out and join them. Quick as thought she threw on her clothes and wrapping her little form in a dark cloak, with a hood, followed them out. She kept at a safe distance behind them,—so far back as just to keep them in sight. They never looked back, and seemed to say but little till they approached the edge of that deep belt of forest which shrouds so large a portion of the island. She hurried along, now nearer to them lest they should be lost to view in the deep shadows, while they went on crackling and plunging through the dense underbrush.

One moonlit night, while she was praying, her senses heightened by watching, she heard footsteps outside her window, followed by a low whistle. Her heart raced as she soon heard Moses's door open, and then the old stairs creaked and snapped, as old stairs always do when someone tries to sneak around at night. Mara got up, pulled back her curtain, saw three men standing in front of the house, and watched as Moses stepped out to join them. Acting quickly, she threw on her clothes and wrapped her small frame in a dark cloak with a hood, following them outside. She kept a safe distance behind them, just close enough to see them. They never looked back and barely spoke until they reached the edge of the deep forest that covers a large part of the island. She hurried along, getting closer to them so they wouldn't disappear into the shadows while they cracked and crashed through the thick underbrush.


CHAPTER XXI

THE TEMPTER

[Pg 198]It was well for Mara that so much of her life had been passed in wild forest rambles. She looked frail as the rays of moonbeam which slid down the old white-bearded hemlocks, but her limbs were agile and supple as steel; and while the party went crashing on before, she followed with such lightness that the slight sound of her movements was entirely lost in the heavy crackling plunges of the party. Her little heart was beating fast and hard; but could any one have seen her face, as it now and then came into a spot of moonshine, they might have seen it fixed in a deadly expression of resolve and determination. She was going after him—no matter where; she was resolved to know who and what it was that was leading him away, as her heart told her, to no good. Deeper and deeper into the shadows of the forest they went, and the child easily kept up with them.

[Pg 198]It was a good thing for Mara that she'd spent so much of her life exploring the wild forest. She looked fragile like the moonlight filtering through the old white-bearded hemlocks, but her limbs were as agile and strong as steel; while the group moved ahead with a crash, she followed with such lightness that the faint sound of her movements was completely drowned out by the heavy noise of the party. Her little heart was pounding hard, but if anyone had seen her face when it occasionally caught the moonlight, they would have seen it set in a fierce expression of resolve and determination. She was going after him—no matter where; she was determined to find out who or what was leading him away, as her heart warned her, to no good. Deeper and deeper into the shadows of the forest they went, and the child easily kept up with them.

Mara had often rambled for whole solitary days in this lonely wood, and knew all its rocks and dells the whole three miles to the long bridge at the other end of the island. But she had never before seen it under the solemn stillness of midnight moonlight, which gives to the most familiar objects such a strange, ghostly charm. After they had gone a mile into the forest, she could see through the black spruces silver gleams of the sea, and hear, amid the whirr and sway of the pine-tops, the dash of the ever restless tide which pushed up the long cove. It was at the full, as she could discern with a rapid glance of her practiced[Pg 199] eye, expertly versed in the knowledge of every change of the solitary nature around.

Mara had often wandered alone for entire days in this secluded woods, knowing every rock and hollow along the three miles to the long bridge at the far end of the island. But she had never seen it before in the solemn stillness of midnight moonlight, which gives even the most familiar sights an eerie, ghostly beauty. After they had walked a mile into the forest, she could glimpse silver reflections of the sea through the dark spruces and hear, amidst the rustling and swaying of the pine tops, the relentless crash of the tide rolling into the long cove. It was at its fullest, as she could tell with a quick look from her trained eye, well-acquainted with every shift in the solitary nature surrounding her.[Pg 199]

And now the party began to plunge straight down the rocky ledge of the Devil's Back, on which they had been walking hitherto, into the deep ravine where lay the cove. It was a scrambling, precipitous way, over perpendicular walls of rock, whose crevices furnished anchoring-places for grand old hemlocks or silver-birches, and whose rough sides, leathery with black flaps of lichen, were all tangled and interlaced with thick netted bushes. The men plunged down laughing, shouting, and swearing at their occasional missteps, and silently as moonbeam or thistledown the light-footed shadow went down after them.

And now the group started to slide straight down the rocky edge of the Devil's Back, where they had been walking until now, into the deep ravine where the cove was located. It was a steep, challenging path, over vertical rock walls, with crevices that provided spots for magnificent old hemlocks or silver birches, and whose rugged surfaces, covered in dark lichen, were all tangled up with thick, intertwined bushes. The men rushed down, laughing, shouting, and cursing at their occasional slips, while the light-footed shadow followed them silently like a moonbeam or a seed fluff.

She suddenly paused behind a pile of rock, as, through an opening between two great spruces, the sea gleamed out like a sheet of looking-glass set in a black frame. And here the child saw a small vessel swinging at anchor, with the moonlight full on its slack sails, and she could hear the gentle gurgle and lick of the green-tongued waves as they dashed under it toward the rocky shore.

She suddenly stopped behind a pile of rocks, and through a gap between two large spruce trees, the sea sparkled like a mirror framed in black. Here, the child saw a small boat swinging at anchor, the moonlight shining on its loose sails, and she could hear the soft gurgle and lapping of the green-tipped waves as they rolled underneath it toward the rocky shore.

Mara stopped with a beating heart as she saw the company making for the schooner. The tide is high; will they go on board and sail away with him where she cannot follow? What could she do? In an ecstasy of fear she kneeled down and asked God not to let him go,—to give her at least one more chance to save him.

Mara halted with her heart racing as she saw the group heading for the schooner. The tide was high; would they board and sail away with him where she couldn't follow? What could she do? In a panic of fear, she knelt down and prayed to God not to let him go— to give her at least one more chance to save him.

For the pure and pious child had heard enough of the words of these men, as she walked behind them, to fill her with horror. She had never before heard an oath, but there came back from these men coarse, brutal tones and words of blasphemy that froze her blood with horror. And Moses was going with them! She felt somehow as if they must be a company of fiends bearing him to his ruin.

For the innocent and devout child had heard enough of these men’s words while walking behind them to fill her with dread. She had never heard an oath before, but the harsh, brutal tones and blasphemous words from these men chilled her to the bone. And Moses was going with them! She felt as if they were a group of demons leading him to his downfall.

For some time she kneeled there watching behind the rock, while Moses and his companions went on board the[Pg 200] little schooner. She had no feeling of horror at the loneliness of her own situation, for her solitary life had made every woodland thing dear and familiar to her. She was cowering down, on a loose, spongy bed of moss, which was all threaded through and through with the green vines and pale pink blossoms of the mayflower, and she felt its fragrant breath streaming up in the moist moonlight. As she leaned forward to look through a rocky crevice, her arms rested on a bed of that brittle white moss she had often gathered with so much admiration, and a scarlet rock-columbine, such as she loved to paint, brushed her cheek,—and all these mute fair things seemed to strive to keep her company in her chill suspense of watchfulness. Two whippoorwills, from a clump of silvery birches, kept calling to each other in melancholy iteration, while she stayed there still listening, and knowing by an occasional sound of laughing, or the explosion of some oath, that the men were not yet gone. At last they all appeared again, and came to a cleared place among the dry leaves, quite near to the rock where she was concealed, and kindled a fire which they kept snapping and crackling by a constant supply of green resinous hemlock branches.

For a while, she knelt there watching from behind the rock as Moses and his friends boarded the[Pg 200] little schooner. She didn't feel scared about being alone; her solitary life had made every woodland creature dear and familiar to her. She was crouched on a loose, soft bed of moss, interwoven with green vines and pale pink mayflower blossoms, feeling its fragrant scent rise in the damp moonlight. As she leaned forward to peek through a rocky crevice, her arms rested on the brittle white moss she had admired many times, and a scarlet rock-columbine—one of her favorite subjects to paint—brushed against her cheek. All these silent, beautiful things seemed to try to keep her company in her tight, nervous wait. Two whippoorwills from a cluster of silvery birches called to each other in a sad repetition while she stayed still, listening and knowing from the occasional sounds of laughter or the outburst of an oath that the men hadn't left yet. Finally, they all appeared again, coming to a clearing among the dry leaves, close to the rock where she was hidden, and started a fire that crackled and popped as they fed it with fresh, green hemlock branches.

The red flame danced and leaped through the green fuel, and leaping upward in tongues of flame, cast ruddy bronze reflections on the old pine-trees with their long branches waving with boards of white moss,—and by the firelight Mara could see two men in sailor's dress with pistols in their belts, and the man Atkinson, whom she had recollected as having seen once or twice at her grandfather's. She remembered how she had always shrunk from him with a strange instinctive dislike, half fear, half disgust, when he had addressed her with that kind of free admiration which men of his class often feel themselves at liberty to express to a pretty girl of her early age. He was a man that might have been handsome, had it not been for a cer[Pg 201]tain strange expression of covert wickedness. It was as if some vile evil spirit, walking, as the Scriptures say, through dry places, had lighted on a comely man's body, in which he had set up housekeeping, making it look like a fair house abused by an unclean owner.

The red flame danced and leaped through the green fuel, spiraling upward in tongues of fire, casting warm bronze reflections on the old pine trees with their long branches swaying with patches of white moss. By the firelight, Mara could see two men in sailor outfits with pistols in their belts, including Atkinson, whom she recognized from having seen him a few times at her grandfather's. She remembered how she had always felt a strange instinctive dislike toward him, a mix of fear and disgust, when he had approached her with that type of casual admiration that men of his kind often think they can express to a pretty girl her age. He could have been handsome if it weren't for his peculiar expression of hidden wickedness. It was as if some vile evil spirit, wandering through barren places, had found a handsome man's body to inhabit, making it look like an attractive house misused by a filthy owner.

As Mara watched his demeanor with Moses, she could think only of a loathsome black snake that she had once seen in those solitary rocks;—she felt as if his handsome but evil eye were charming him with an evil charm to his destruction.

As Mara observed his behavior with Moses, she could only think of a disgusting black snake she had once seen among those lonely rocks; she felt as though his attractive yet malevolent gaze was ensnaring him with a dangerous allure leading to his downfall.

"Well, Mo, my boy," she heard him say,—slapping Moses on the shoulder,—"this is something like. We'll have a 'tempus,' as the college fellows say,—put down the clams to roast, and I'll mix the punch," he said, setting over the fire a tea-kettle which they brought from the ship.

"Well, Mo, my boy," she heard him say—slapping Moses on the shoulder—"this is more like it. We'll have a 'tempus,' as the college guys say—let's get the clams roasting, and I'll mix the punch," he said, setting a kettle over the fire that they brought from the ship.

After their preparations were finished, all sat down to eat and drink. Mara listened with anxiety and horror to a conversation such as she never heard or conceived before. It is not often that women hear men talk in the undisguised manner which they use among themselves; but the conversation of men of unprincipled lives, and low, brutal habits, unchecked by the presence of respectable female society, might well convey to the horror-struck child a feeling as if she were listening at the mouth of hell. Almost every word was preceded or emphasized by an oath; and what struck with a death chill to her heart was, that Moses swore too, and seemed to show that desperate anxiety to seem au fait in the language of wickedness, which boys often do at that age, when they fancy that to be ignorant of vice is a mark of disgraceful greenness. Moses evidently was bent on showing that he was not green,—ignorant of the pure ear to which every such word came like the blast of death.

After they finished getting ready, everyone sat down to eat and drink. Mara listened with anxiety and horror to a conversation she had never heard or imagined before. It’s not common for women to hear men talk so openly among themselves; but the talk of men with no morals and brutish habits, without the presence of respectable women, could definitely make a terrified child feel like she was listening to the depths of hell. Almost every word was preceded or emphasized by a curse; and what struck her heart like a death chill was that Moses cursed too, seeming to desperately want to fit in with the language of immorality, which boys often do at that age when they think that not knowing about vice is a sign of being embarrassingly naïve. Moses was clearly determined to prove he wasn’t naïve—unaware of how every such word sounded like a death knell to a pure heart.

He drank a great deal, too, and the mirth among them[Pg 202] grew furious and terrific. Mara, horrified and shocked as she was, did not, however, lose that intense and alert presence of mind, natural to persons in whom there is moral strength, however delicate be their physical frame. She felt at once that these men were playing upon Moses; that they had an object in view; that they were flattering and cajoling him, and leading him to drink, that they might work out some fiendish purpose of their own. The man called Atkinson related story after story of wild adventure, in which sudden fortunes had been made by men who, he said, were not afraid to take "the short cut across lots." He told of piratical adventures in the West Indies,—of the fun of chasing and overhauling ships,—and gave dazzling accounts of the treasures found on board. It was observable that all these stories were told on the line between joke and earnest,—as frolics, as specimens of good fun, and seeing life, etc.

He drank a lot too, and the laughter among them[Pg 202] became wild and intense. Mara, though horrified and shocked, didn’t lose her sharp and alert state of mind, which is typical of people with moral strength, no matter how fragile their bodies may be. She immediately sensed that these men were manipulating Moses; they had a specific motive; they were flattering and charming him, encouraging him to drink so they could carry out some wicked plan of their own. The guy named Atkinson kept sharing story after story of wild adventures, claiming sudden fortunes had been made by men who weren’t afraid to take “the shortcut across the fields.” He recounted piratical escapades in the West Indies, the thrill of chasing and catching ships, and told dazzling tales of treasures found on board. It was noticeable that all these stories were shared in a tone that mixed humor and seriousness—like fun activities, as examples of good times, and the experiences of life, etc.

At last came a suggestion,—What if they should start off together some fine day, "just for a spree," and try a cruise in the West Indies, to see what they could pick up? They had arms, and a gang of fine, whole-souled fellows. Moses had been tied to Ma'am Pennel's apron-string long enough. And "hark ye," said one of them, "Moses, they say old Pennel has lots of dollars in that old sea-chest of his'n. It would be a kindness to him to invest them for him in an adventure."

At last, someone suggested, "What if we just set off together one day for some fun and go on a cruise in the West Indies to see what we can find?" They had weapons and a group of great, loyal guys. Moses had been tied to Ma'am Pennel's apron strings long enough. And "listen," one of them said, "Moses, they say old Pennel has a lot of cash in that old sea chest of his. It would be nice to help him by investing it in an adventure."

Moses answered with a streak of the boy innocence which often remains under the tramping of evil men, like ribbons of green turf in the middle of roads:—

Moses answered with a flash of the boyish innocence that often survives the harshness of evil men, like patches of green grass in the middle of roads:—

"You don't know Father Pennel,—why, he'd no more come into it than"—

"You don't know Father Pennel—he'd never get involved in it."

A perfect roar of laughter cut short this declaration, and Atkinson, slapping Moses on the back, said,—

A loud burst of laughter interrupted this statement, and Atkinson, giving Moses a friendly pat on the back, said,—

"By ——, Mo! you are the jolliest green dog! I shall die a-laughing of your innocence some day. Why, my[Pg 203] boy, can't you see? Pennel's money can be invested without asking him."

"By ——, Mo! you are the happiest green dog! I'm going to die laughing at your innocence one of these days. Why, my[Pg 203] boy, can't you see? Pennel's money can be invested without asking him."

"Why, he keeps it locked," said Moses.

"Well, he keeps it locked," Moses said.

"And supposing you pick the lock?"

"And what if you pick the lock?"

"Not I, indeed," said Moses, making a sudden movement to rise.

"Not I, for sure," said Moses, making a quick move to get up.

Mara almost screamed in her ecstasy, but she had sense enough to hold her breath.

Mara almost screamed with joy, but she was smart enough to hold her breath.

"Ho! see him now," said Atkinson, lying back, and holding his sides while he laughed, and rolled over; "you can get off anything on that muff,—any hoax in the world,—he's so soft! Come, come, my dear boy, sit down. I was only seeing how wide I could make you open those great black eyes of your'n,—that's all."

"Hey! Check him out now," Atkinson said, lying back and laughing hard while rolling over. "You can pull off anything with that softy—any prank you want—he's so easy to fool! Come on, my dear boy, sit down. I was just seeing how wide I could make you open those big black eyes of yours—that's all."

"You'd better take care how you joke with me," said Moses, with that look of gloomy determination which Mara was quite familiar with of old. It was the rallying effort of a boy who had abandoned the first outworks of virtue to make a stand for the citadel. And Atkinson, like a prudent besieger after a repulse, returned to lie on his arms.

"You'd better be careful how you joke with me," said Moses, with that look of grim determination that Mara recognized well from before. It was the last ditch effort of a boy who had given up the initial pretense of virtue to defend the stronghold. And Atkinson, like a wise attacker after a setback, went back to resting on his arms.

He began talking volubly on other subjects, telling stories, and singing songs, and pressing Moses to drink.

He started chatting freely about other topics, sharing stories, singing songs, and encouraging Moses to drink.

Mara was comforted to see that he declined drinking,—that he looked gloomy and thoughtful, in spite of the jokes of his companions; but she trembled to see, by the following conversation, how Atkinson was skillfully and prudently making apparent to Moses the extent to which he had him in his power. He seemed to Mara like an ugly spider skillfully weaving his web around a fly. She felt cold and faint; but within her there was a heroic strength.

Mara felt relieved to see that he turned down the drinks—he looked sad and deep in thought, even with his friends joking around him. But she also felt anxious as she listened to the conversation, realizing how Atkinson was cleverly and carefully showing Moses just how much control he had over him. To Mara, he resembled an ugly spider skillfully spinning its web around a fly. She felt cold and weak; yet inside her, there was a brave strength.

She was not going to faint; she would make herself bear up. She was going to do something to get Moses out of this snare,—but what? At last they rose.[Pg 204]

She wasn’t going to faint; she would stand strong. She was determined to do something to get Moses out of this trap—but what? Finally, they stood up.[Pg 204]

"It is past three o'clock," she heard one of them say.

"It’s past three o'clock," she heard one of them say.

"I say, Mo," said Atkinson, "you must make tracks for home, or you won't be in bed when Mother Pennel calls you."

"I say, Mo," Atkinson said, "you need to get home, or you won't be in bed when Mother Pennel calls you."

The men all laughed at this joke, as they turned to go on board the schooner.

The men all laughed at the joke as they turned to head onto the schooner.

When they were gone, Moses threw himself down and hid his face in his hands. He knew not what pitying little face was looking down upon him from the hemlock shadows, what brave little heart was determined to save him. He was in one of those great crises of agony that boys pass through when they first awake from the fun and frolic of unlawful enterprises to find themselves sold under sin, and feel the terrible logic of evil which constrains them to pass from the less to greater crime. He felt that he was in the power of bad, unprincipled, heartless men, who, if he refused to do their bidding, had the power to expose him. All he had been doing would come out. His kind old foster-parents would know it. Mara would know it. Mr. Sewell and Miss Emily would know the secrets of his life that past month. He felt as if they were all looking at him now. He had disgraced himself,—had sunk below his education,—had been false to all his better knowledge and the past expectations of his friends, living a mean, miserable, dishonorable life,—and now the ground was fast sliding from under him, and the next plunge might be down a precipice from which there would be no return. What he had done up to this hour had been done in the roystering, inconsiderate gamesomeness of boyhood. It had been represented to himself only as "sowing wild oats," "having steep times," "seeing a little of life," and so on; but this night he had had propositions of piracy and robbery made to him, and he had not dared to knock down the man that made them,—had not dared at once to break [Pg 205]away from his company. He must meet him again,—must go on with him, or—he groaned in agony at the thought.

When they left, Moses threw himself down and hid his face in his hands. He had no idea what sympathetic little face was looking down on him from the shadows, what brave little heart was determined to save him. He was going through one of those intense moments of pain that boys experience when they first wake up from the fun and games of wrongdoings and realize they’re trapped in sin, feeling the awful logic of evil that pushes them from minor to major crimes. He sensed he was under the control of bad, unprincipled, heartless people who, if he didn’t do what they wanted, could expose him. Everything he had done would come out. His kind old foster parents would find out. Mara would know. Mr. Sewell and Miss Emily would learn the secrets of his life from the past month. He felt as if they were all staring at him right now. He had disgraced himself—sunk below his education—betrayed all his better judgment and his friends' expectations, living a mean, miserable, dishonorable life—and now the ground was slipping away from under him, and the next fall might be down a cliff with no way back. What he had done until this moment had been in the carefree, reckless spirit of boyhood. It had only appeared to him as "sowing wild oats," "having a good time," "seeing a little of life," and so forth; but that night, he had been presented with offers of piracy and robbery, and he hadn’t dared to confront the man who made them—hadn’t dared to break away from his company. He would have to face him again—continue with him, or—he groaned in anguish at the thought.

It was a strong indication of that repressed, considerate habit of mind which love had wrought in the child, that when Mara heard the boy's sobs rising in the stillness, she did not, as she wished to, rush out and throw her arms around his neck and try to comfort him.

It was a clear sign of that repressed, thoughtful mindset that love had created in the child, that when Mara heard the boy's sobs echoing in the quiet, she did not, as she wanted to, run out and wrap her arms around his neck and try to comfort him.

But she felt instinctively that she must not do this. She must not let him know that she had discovered his secret by stealing after him thus in the night shadows. She knew how nervously he had resented even the compassionate glances she had cast upon him in his restless, turbid intervals during the past few weeks, and the fierceness with which he had replied to a few timid inquiries. No,—though her heart was breaking for him, it was a shrewd, wise little heart, and resolved not to spoil all by yielding to its first untaught impulses. She repressed herself as the mother does who refrains from crying out when she sees her unconscious little one on the verge of a precipice.

But she instinctively felt that she shouldn’t do this. She couldn’t let him know that she had discovered his secret by sneaking after him in the shadows of the night. She was aware of how he had nervously resisted even the sympathetic looks she had given him during his restless, turbulent moments over the past few weeks, and the intensity with which he had responded to a few hesitant questions. No—although her heart was breaking for him, it was a clever, wise little heart, and it decided not to ruin everything by giving in to its initial untrained impulses. She held back just like a mother does who stops herself from crying out when she sees her unaware child about to fall off a cliff.

When Moses rose and moodily began walking homeward, she followed at a distance. She could now keep farther off, for she knew the way through every part of the forest, and she only wanted to keep within sound of his footsteps to make sure that he was going home. When he emerged from the forest into the open moonlight, she sat down in its shadows and watched him as he walked over the open distance between her and the house. He went in; and then she waited a little longer for him to be quite retired. She thought he would throw himself on the bed, and then she could steal in after him. So she sat there quite in the shadows.

When Moses got up and started walking home, she followed a bit behind. She could stay farther back now since she knew the forest well, and she just wanted to hear his footsteps to make sure he was heading home. When he came out of the forest into the bright moonlight, she sat down in the dark and watched him cross the open space to the house. He went inside, and then she waited a little longer for him to be completely settled. She figured he would collapse onto the bed, and then she could sneak in after him. So she sat there hidden in the shadows.

The grand full moon was riding high and calm in the purple sky, and Harpswell Bay on the one hand, and the wide, open ocean on the other, lay all in a silver shimmer of light. There was not a sound save the plash of the[Pg 206] tide, now beginning to go out, and rolling and rattling the pebbles up and down as it came and went, and once in a while the distant, mournful intoning of the whippoorwill. There were silent lonely ships, sailing slowly to and fro far out to sea, turning their fair wings now into bright light and now into shadow, as they moved over the glassy stillness. Mara could see all the houses on Harpswell Neck and the white church as clear as in the daylight. It seemed to her some strange, unearthly dream.

The big full moon was shining high and calm in the purple sky, and Harpswell Bay on one side and the wide, open ocean on the other were bathed in a silver glow. The only sound was the gentle splash of the[Pg 206] tide, now starting to go out, rolling and rattling the pebbles back and forth as it flowed in and out, occasionally interrupted by the distant, mournful call of the whippoorwill. There were quiet, lonely ships moving slowly back and forth far out at sea, shifting their elegant sails from bright light to shadow as they glided over the stillness of the water. Mara could see all the houses on Harpswell Neck and the white church as clearly as if it were daytime. It felt to her like some strange, otherworldly dream.

As she sat there, she thought over her whole little life, all full of one thought, one purpose, one love, one prayer, for this being so strangely given to her out of that silent sea, which lay so like a still eternity around her,—and she revolved again what meant the vision of her childhood. Did it not mean that she was to watch over him and save him from some dreadful danger? That poor mother was lying now silent and peaceful under the turf in the little graveyard not far off, and she must care for her boy.

As she sat there, she reflected on her entire little life, filled with one thought, one purpose, one love, one prayer, for this being so unexpectedly given to her from that quiet sea, which felt like a still eternity surrounding her. She considered again what the vision of her childhood meant. Didn't it mean that she was meant to watch over him and protect him from some terrible danger? That poor mother was now lying quietly and peacefully under the ground in the small graveyard not far away, and she had to take care of her boy.

A strong motherly feeling swelled out the girl's heart,—she felt that she must, she would, somehow save that treasure which had so mysteriously been committed to her. So, when she thought she had given time enough for Moses to be quietly asleep in his room, she arose and ran with quick footsteps across the moonlit plain to the house.

A strong sense of motherhood filled the girl's heart—she felt that she had to, she would, somehow save that precious thing that had been so mysteriously entrusted to her. So, when she thought she had given Moses enough time to fall soundly asleep in his room, she got up and hurried with quick steps across the moonlit field to the house.

The front-door was standing wide open, as was always the innocent fashion in these regions, with a half-angle of moonlight and shadow lying within its dusky depths. Mara listened a moment,—no sound: he had gone to bed then. "Poor boy," she said, "I hope he is asleep; how he must feel, poor fellow! It's all the fault of those dreadful men!" said the little dark shadow to herself, as she stole up the stairs past his room as guiltily as if she were the sinner. Once the stairs creaked, and her heart was in her mouth, but she gained her room and shut and bolted the door. She kneeled down by her little white[Pg 207] bed, and thanked God that she had come in safe, and then prayed him to teach her what to do next. She felt chilly and shivering, and crept into bed, and lay with her great soft brown eyes wide open, intently thinking what she should do.

The front door was wide open, as was typical in this area, with a slant of moonlight and shadow spilling into the dark interior. Mara listened for a moment—no sound: he must have gone to bed. "Poor boy," she said, "I hope he's asleep; I can't imagine how he feels, poor guy! It's all those awful men’s fault!" she whispered to herself, creeping up the stairs past his room as if she were the one in trouble. Once the stairs creaked, making her heart race, but she made it to her room, shut the door, and locked it. She knelt by her little white bed, thanking God for bringing her back safely, and then prayed for guidance on what to do next. She felt cold and shivery, so she curled up in bed, her big soft brown eyes wide open, thinking intently about her next move.

Should she tell her grandfather? Something instinctively said No; that the first word from him which showed Moses he was detected would at once send him off with those wicked men. "He would never, never bear to have this known," she said. Mr. Sewell?—ah, that was worse. She herself shrank from letting him know what Moses had been doing; she could not bear to lower him so much in his eyes. He could not make allowances, she thought. He is good, to be sure, but he is so old and grave, and doesn't know how much Moses has been tempted by these dreadful men; and then perhaps he would tell Miss Emily, and they never would want Moses to come there any more.

Should she tell her grandfather? Something instinctively said No; the first word from him that showed Moses was caught would immediately send him off with those wicked men. "He would never, never want this to be known," she said. Mr. Sewell?—ah, that was worse. She herself recoiled from letting him know what Moses had been doing; she couldn't stand to lower him in his own eyes. He wouldn’t understand, she thought. He is good, of course, but he’s so old and serious, and doesn’t realize how much Moses has been tempted by these awful men; and then maybe he would tell Miss Emily, and they would never want Moses to come there anymore.

"What shall I do?" she said to herself. "I must get somebody to help me or tell me what to do. I can't tell grandmamma; it would only make her ill, and she wouldn't know what to do any more than I. Ah, I know what I will do,—I'll tell Captain Kittridge; he was always so kind to me; and he has been to sea and seen all sorts of men, and Moses won't care so much perhaps to have him know, because the Captain is such a funny man, and don't take everything so seriously. Yes, that's it. I'll go right down to the cove in the morning. God will bring me through, I know He will;" and the little weary head fell back on the pillow asleep. And as she slept, a smile settled over her face, perhaps a reflection from the face of her good angel, who always beholdeth the face of our Father in Heaven.

"What should I do?" she asked herself. "I need to find someone to help me or tell me what to do. I can't tell Grandma; it would just make her sick, and she wouldn't know what to do any more than I do. Oh, I know what I’ll do—I’ll talk to Captain Kittridge. He’s always been so nice to me; he’s been out to sea and met all kinds of people, and maybe Moses won’t mind so much if he finds out because the Captain is such a funny guy and doesn’t take everything too seriously. Yes, that’s it. I’ll head down to the cove in the morning. God will see me through, I know He will;" and the little tired head fell back on the pillow and went to sleep. As she slept, a smile spread across her face, perhaps a reflection from her good angel, who always looks upon the face of our Father in Heaven.


CHAPTER XXII

A FRIEND IN NEED

[Pg 208]Mara was so wearied with her night walk and the agitation she had been through, that once asleep she slept long after the early breakfast hour of the family. She was surprised on awaking to hear the slow old clock downstairs striking eight. She hastily jumped up and looked around with a confused wonder, and then slowly the events of the past night came back upon her like a remembered dream. She dressed herself quickly, and went down to find the breakfast things all washed and put away, and Mrs. Pennel spinning.

[Pg 208]Mara was so exhausted from her late-night walk and everything she had gone through that once she fell asleep, she slept long past the family's usual breakfast time. When she finally woke up, she was surprised to hear the old clock downstairs striking eight. She jumped up quickly and looked around, feeling a bit confused, and then slowly the events of the previous night came back to her like a fading dream. She got dressed in a hurry and went downstairs to find that breakfast had already been cleaned up and Mrs. Pennel was spinning.

"Why, dear heart," said the old lady, "how came you to sleep so?—I spoke to you twice, but I could not make you hear."

"Why, my dear," said the old lady, "how did you manage to sleep like that?—I talked to you twice, but you didn't seem to hear me."

"Has Moses been down, grandma?" said Mara, intent on the sole thought in her heart.

"Has Moses come back, grandma?" Mara asked, focused on the one thought in her mind.

"Why, yes, dear, long ago,—and cross enough he was; that boy does get to be a trial,—but come, dear, I've saved some hot cakes for you,—sit down now and eat your breakfast."

"Yes, darling, a long time ago—and he was quite the handful; that boy can really be a challenge—but come on, sweetheart, I've saved some hot pancakes for you—sit down and have your breakfast."

Mara made a feint of eating what her grandmother with fond officiousness would put before her, and then rising up she put on her sun-bonnet and started down toward the cove to find her old friend.

Mara pretended to eat what her grandmother lovingly served her, then stood up, put on her sun-bonnet, and headed down to the cove to find her old friend.

The queer, dry, lean old Captain had been to her all her life like a faithful kobold or brownie, an unquestioning servant of all her gentle biddings. She dared tell him anything without diffidence or shamefacedness; and she felt[Pg 209] that in this trial of her life he might have in his sea-receptacle some odd old amulet or spell that should be of power to help her. Instinctively she avoided the house, lest Sally should see and fly out and seize her. She took a narrow path through the cedars down to the little boat cove where the old Captain worked so merrily ten years ago, in the beginning of our story, and where she found him now, with his coat off, busily planing a board.

The quirky, dry, lean old Captain had been a loyal companion to her all her life, like a faithful spirit or helpful elf, always ready to obey her gentle requests. She could tell him anything without hesitation or embarrassment; and she felt[Pg 209] that during this difficult time in her life, he might have some old charm or talisman in his sea chest that could help her. Without thinking, she avoided the house, worried that Sally would see her and come rushing out to grab her. She took a narrow path through the cedars down to the little boat cove where the old Captain used to work so cheerfully ten years ago, at the start of our story, and where she found him now, with his coat off, happily planing a board.

"Wal', now,—if this 'ere don't beat all!" he said, looking up and seeing her; "why, you're looking after Sally, I s'pose? She's up to the house."

"Well, now—if this doesn’t beat everything!" he said, looking up and seeing her; "I guess you’re looking after Sally? She’s at the house."

"No, Captain Kittridge, I'm come to see you."

"No, Captain Kittridge, I'm here to see you."

"You be?" said the Captain, "I swow! if I ain't a lucky feller. But what's the matter?" he said, suddenly observing her pale face and the tears in her eyes. "Hain't nothin' bad happened,—hes there?"

"You okay?" said the Captain, "Wow! I'm really lucky. But what's wrong?" he said, suddenly noticing her pale face and the tears in her eyes. "Nothing bad has happened, has it?"

"Oh! Captain Kittridge, something dreadful; and nobody but you can help me."

"Oh! Captain Kittridge, something terrible has happened, and you’re the only one who can help me."

"Want to know, now!" said the Captain, with a grave face. "Well, come here, now, and sit down, and tell me all about it. Don't you cry, there's a good girl! Don't, now."

"Want to know right now!" said the Captain, with a serious expression. "Well, come here and sit down, and tell me everything about it. Don’t cry, it’s okay! Just don’t."

Mara began her story, and went through with it in a rapid and agitated manner; and the good Captain listened in a fidgety state of interest, occasionally relieving his mind by interjecting "Do tell, now!" "I swan,—if that ar ain't too bad."

Mara started telling her story, rushing through it in an excited and nervous way; and the good Captain listened with a restless interest, occasionally easing his mind by saying things like "Wow, really?" and "I can't believe that."

"That ar's rediculous conduct in Atkinson. He ought to be talked to," said the Captain, when she had finished, and then he whistled and put a shaving in his mouth, which he chewed reflectively.

"That guy's ridiculous behavior in Atkinson. He should be called out," said the Captain, after she had finished, and then he whistled and put a piece of tobacco in his mouth, which he chewed thoughtfully.

"Don't you be a mite worried, Mara," he said. "You did a great deal better to come to me than to go to Mr. Sewell or your grand'ther either; 'cause you see these 'ere wild chaps they'll take things from me they wouldn't from[Pg 210] a church-member or a minister. Folks mustn't pull 'em up with too short a rein,—they must kind o' flatter 'em off. But that ar Atkinson's too rediculous for anything; and if he don't mind, I'll serve him out. I know a thing or two about him that I shall shake over his head if he don't behave. Now I don't think so much of smugglin' as some folks," said the Captain, lowering his voice to a confidential tone. "I reely don't, now; but come to goin' off piratin',—and tryin' to put a young boy up to robbin' his best friends,—why, there ain't no kind o' sense in that. It's p'ison mean of Atkinson. I shall tell him so, and I shall talk to Moses."

"Don’t worry too much, Mara," he said. "You did much better by coming to me than going to Mr. Sewell or your grandmother. You see, these wild guys will take things from me that they wouldn’t from a church member or a minister. People shouldn’t try to control them too strictly—they need to be kind of stroked along. But that Atkinson is just ridiculous; if he’s not careful, I’ll deal with him. I know some things about him that I can use against him if he doesn’t behave. Now, I don’t think much of smuggling like some folks do," said the Captain, lowering his voice to a more confidential tone. "I really don’t, but when it comes to piracy—and trying to get a young boy to rob his best friends—there's no sense in that at all. It’s just poisonously mean of Atkinson. I’m going to tell him so, and I’ll have a word with Moses."

"Oh! I'm afraid to have you," said Mara, apprehensively.

"Oh! I'm scared to have you," said Mara, nervously.

"Why, chickabiddy," said the old Captain, "you don't understand me. I ain't goin' at him with no sermons,—I shall jest talk to him this way: Look here now, Moses, I shall say, there's Badger's ship goin' to sail in a fortnight for China, and they want likely fellers aboard, and I've got a hundred dollars that I'd like to send on a venture; if you'll take it and go, why, we'll share the profits. I shall talk like that, you know. Mebbe I sha'n't let him know what I know, and mebbe I shall; jest tip him a wink, you know; it depends on circumstances. But bless you, child, these 'ere fellers ain't none of 'em 'fraid o' me, you see, 'cause they know I know the ropes."

"Why, kid," said the old Captain, "you don’t get me. I’m not going to preach to him—I’ll just talk to him like this: Look here now, Moses, I’ll say, there’s Badger's ship getting ready to sail to China in a fortnight, and they want some good guys on board, and I’ve got a hundred dollars I want to invest; if you take it and go, we’ll split the profits. I’ll talk like that, you know. Maybe I won’t let him know what I know, and maybe I will; just give him a hint, you know; it depends on the situation. But bless you, kid, these guys aren’t scared of me at all, you see, because they know I know the ropes."

"And can you make that horrid man let him alone?" said Mara, fearfully.

"And can you make that horrible man leave him alone?" said Mara, fearfully.

"Calculate I can. 'Spect if I's to tell Atkinson a few things I know, he'd be for bein' scase in our parts. Now, you see, I hain't minded doin' a small bit o' trade now and then with them ar fellers myself; but this 'ere," said the Captain, stopping and looking extremely disgusted, "why, it's contemptible, it's rediculous!"

"Calculate I can. I guess if I have to tell Atkinson a few things I know, he’d be in for some trouble around here. Now, you see, I haven't minded doing a small bit of business with those guys myself every now and then; but this," said the Captain, stopping and looking really disgusted, "it's just pathetic; it's ridiculous!"

"Do you think I'd better tell grandpapa?" said Mara.[Pg 211]

"Do you think I should tell grandpa?" Mara asked.[Pg 211]

"Don't worry your little head. I'll step up and have a talk with Pennel, this evening. He knows as well as I that there is times when chaps must be seen to, and no remarks made. Pennel knows that ar. Why, now, Mis' Kittridge thinks our boys turned out so well all along of her bringin' up, and I let her think so; keeps her sort o' in spirits, you see. But Lord bless ye, child, there's been times with Job, and Sam, and Pass, and Dass, and Dile, and all on 'em finally, when, if I hadn't jest pulled a rope here and turned a screw there, and said nothin' to nobody, they'd a-been all gone to smash. I never told Mis' Kittridge none o' their didos; bless you, 'twouldn't been o' no use. I never told them, neither; but I jest kind o' worked 'em off, you know; and they's all putty 'spectable men now, as men go, you know; not like Parson Sewell, but good, honest mates and ship-masters,—kind o' middlin' people, you know. It takes a good many o' sich to make up a world, d'ye see."

"Don’t worry about it. I’ll talk to Pennel this evening. He knows just like I do that sometimes guys need to be handled discreetly. Pennel gets that. You see, Mrs. Kittridge thinks the reason our boys turned out so well is because of her upbringing, and I let her believe that; it keeps her spirits up. But honestly, dear, there have been times with Job, Sam, Pass, Dass, and Dile, when if I hadn’t just pulled a rope here and turned a screw there, and stayed quiet about it, they would’ve ended up in a mess. I never told Mrs. Kittridge any of their shenanigans; it wouldn't have done any good. I never told them either; I just kind of steered them right, you know? And now, they’re all pretty respectable men, as men go—not like Parson Sewell, but good, honest guys and ship captains—kind of average people, you know. It takes a lot of those kinds to make a world, you see."

"But oh, Captain Kittridge, did any of them use to swear?" said Mara, in a faltering voice.

"But oh, Captain Kittridge, did any of them ever swear?" said Mara, in a shaky voice.

"Wal', they did, consid'able," said the Captain;—then seeing the trembling of Mara's lip, he added,—

"Well, they did quite a bit," said the Captain;—then noticing the quiver of Mara's lip, he added,—

"Ef you could a-found this 'ere out any other way, it's most a pity you'd a-heard him; 'cause he wouldn't never have let out afore you. It don't do for gals to hear the fellers talk when they's alone, 'cause fellers,—wal', you see, fellers will be fellers, partic'larly when they're young. Some on 'em, they never gits over it all their lives finally."

" If you could have found this out any other way, it’s such a shame you heard him; because he would have never let it slip in front of you. It’s not good for girls to listen to guys talk when they’re alone, because guys—well, you know, guys will be guys, especially when they’re young. Some of them never get over it their whole lives."

"But oh! Captain Kittridge, that talk last night was so dreadfully wicked! and Moses!—oh, it was dreadful to hear him!"

"But oh! Captain Kittridge, that conversation last night was so incredibly wrong! And Moses!—oh, it was terrible to listen to him!"

"Wal', yes, it was," said the Captain, consolingly; "but don't you cry, and don't you break your little heart. I expect he'll come all right, and jine the church one of these days; 'cause there's old Pennel, he prays,—fact[Pg 212] now, I think there's consid'able in some people's prayers, and he's one of the sort. And you pray, too; and I'm quite sure the good Lord must hear you. I declare sometimes I wish you'd jest say a good word to Him for me; I should like to get the hang o' things a little better than I do, somehow, I reely should. I've gi'n up swearing years ago. Mis' Kittridge, she broke me o' that, and now I don't never go further than 'I vum' or 'I swow,' or somethin' o' that sort; but you see I'm old;—Moses is young; but then he's got eddication and friends, and he'll come all right. Now you jest see ef he don't!"

"Well, yes, it was," said the Captain, trying to be comforting; "but don’t cry, and don’t break your little heart. I believe he’ll be fine and join the church one of these days; because there's old Pennel, he prays—actually, I think there's quite a bit of value in some people's prayers, and he’s one of those people. And you pray, too; and I’m sure the good Lord must hear you. Honestly, sometimes I wish you’d say a good word for me; I’d really like to understand things a little better than I do, somehow. I gave up swearing years ago. Mrs. Kittridge, she helped me quit that, and now I don’t go any further than 'I vum' or 'I swow,' or something like that; but you see I’m old—Moses is young; but then he’s got education and friends, and he’ll be fine. Just wait and see if he doesn’t!"

This miscellaneous budget of personal experiences and friendly consolation which the good Captain conveyed to Mara may possibly make you laugh, my reader, but the good, ropy brown man was doing his best to console his little friend; and as Mara looked at him he was almost glorified in her eyes—he had power to save Moses, and he would do it. She went home to dinner that day with her heart considerably lightened. She refrained, in a guilty way, from even looking at Moses, who was gloomy and moody.

This mixed bag of personal experiences and friendly support that the good Captain shared with Mara might make you chuckle, dear reader, but the kind, sturdy brown man was genuinely trying to comfort his little friend; and as Mara gazed at him, he seemed almost heroic in her eyes—he had the ability to save Moses, and he was determined to do it. That day, she went home for dinner feeling much lighter in heart. She purposely avoided even glancing at Moses, who was sulky and downcast.

Mara had from nature a good endowment of that kind of innocent hypocrisy which is needed as a staple in the lives of women who bridge a thousand awful chasms with smiling, unconscious looks, and walk, singing and scattering flowers, over abysses of fear, while their hearts are dying within them.

Mara naturally had a good amount of that kind of innocent hypocrisy that's essential in the lives of women who cross a thousand terrible gaps with cheerful, unaware expressions, walking happily and spreading flowers over deep fears, even as their hearts are breaking inside.

She talked more volubly than was her wont with Mrs. Pennel, and with her old grandfather; she laughed and seemed in more than usual spirits, and only once did she look up and catch the gloomy eye of Moses. It had that murky, troubled look that one may see in the eye of a boy when those evil waters which cast up mire and dirt have once been stirred in his soul. They fell under her clear glance, and he made a rapid, impatient movement, as if it[Pg 213] hurt him to be looked at. The evil spirit in boy or man cannot bear the "touch of celestial temper;" and the sensitiveness to eyebeams is one of the earliest signs of conscious, inward guilt.

She talked more freely than usual with Mrs. Pennel and her old grandfather; she laughed and seemed in particularly good spirits, and only once did she look up and meet Moses's gloomy gaze. His eyes had that dark, troubled look you might see in a boy when the evil thoughts that stir up confusion and dirt have been awakened in his heart. They fell away from her clear gaze, and he made a quick, irritated movement, as if it hurt him to be looked at. The evil spirit in a boy or man cannot handle the "touch of a pure heart," and being sensitive to someone's gaze is one of the first signs of deep, inner guilt.

Mara was relieved, as he flung out of the house after dinner, to see the long, dry figure of Captain Kittridge coming up and seizing Moses by the button. From the window she saw the Captain assuming a confidential air with him; and when they had talked together a few moments, she saw Moses going with great readiness after him down the road to his house.

Mara felt a sense of relief as she watched Captain Kittridge, with his tall, lean figure, approach the house right after dinner. From the window, she noticed the Captain leaning in and speaking to Moses in a friendly way. After a brief conversation, she saw Moses eagerly follow him down the road to his house.

In less than a fortnight, it was settled Moses was to sail for China, and Mara was deep in the preparations for his outfit. Once she would have felt this departure as the most dreadful trial of her life. Now it seemed to her a deliverance for him, and she worked with a cheerful alacrity, which seemed to Moses more than was proper, considering he was going away.

In less than two weeks, it was decided that Moses would sail for China, and Mara was fully engaged in getting him ready. At one time, she would have seen this departure as the worst ordeal of her life. Now, it felt like a relief for him, and she worked with a cheerful enthusiasm that seemed to Moses more than was appropriate, given that he was the one leaving.

For Moses, like many others of his sex, boy or man, had quietly settled in his own mind that the whole love of Mara's heart was to be his, to have and to hold, to use and to draw on, when and as he liked. He reckoned on it as a sort of inexhaustible, uncounted treasure that was his own peculiar right and property, and therefore he felt abused at what he supposed was a disclosure of some deficiency on her part.

For Moses, like many other guys, whether they were boys or men, had quietly decided in his own mind that all of Mara's love was meant for him to have and keep, to use whenever he wanted. He thought of it as an endless, unmeasured treasure that he had a special right to, and so he felt wronged by what he believed was a sign of some lack on her part.

"You seem to be very glad to be rid of me," he said to her in a bitter tone one day, as she was earnestly busy in her preparations.

"You seem really happy to be rid of me," he said to her bitterly one day, while she was focused on her preparations.

Now the fact was, that Moses had been assiduously making himself disagreeable to Mara for the fortnight past, by all sorts of unkind sayings and doings; and he knew it too; yet he felt a right to feel very much abused at the thought that she could possibly want him to be going. If she had been utterly desolate about it, and torn her hair[Pg 214] and sobbed and wailed, he would have asked what she could be crying about, and begged not to be bored with scenes; but as it was, this cheerful composure was quite unfeeling.

Now, the truth was that Moses had been deliberately making things difficult for Mara for the past two weeks with all kinds of unkind comments and actions; he was aware of it too. Still, he felt justified in feeling very wronged at the thought that she might actually want him to leave. If she had been completely heartbroken, tearing her hair out[Pg 214] and sobbing uncontrollably, he would have wondered what she was so upset about and asked her not to bore him with drama. But as it stood, her cheerful composure felt really callous.

Now pray don't suppose Moses to be a monster of an uncommon species. We take him to be an average specimen of a boy of a certain kind of temperament in the transition period of life. Everything is chaos within; the flesh lusteth against the spirit, and the spirit against the flesh, and "light and darkness, and mind and dust, and passion and pure thoughts, mingle and contend," without end or order. He wondered at himself sometimes that he could say such cruel things as he did to his faithful little friend—to one whom, after all, he did love and trust before all other human beings.

Now please don’t think of Moses as some kind of monster. We consider him an average example of a boy with a specific temperament going through a tricky period in life. Everything feels chaotic inside; the flesh desires what the spirit rejects, and the spirit craves what the flesh wants, and “light and darkness, and mind and dust, and passion and pure thoughts, mix and fight,” endlessly and disorderly. Sometimes he was surprised at himself for saying such hurtful things to his loyal little friend—someone he actually loved and trusted more than anyone else.

There is no saying why it is that a man or a boy, not radically destitute of generous comprehensions, will often cruelly torture and tyrannize over a woman whom he both loves and reveres, who stands in his soul in his best hours as the very impersonation of all that is good and beautiful. It is as if some evil spirit at times possessed him, and compelled him to utter words which were felt at the moment to be mean and hateful. Moses often wondered at himself, as he lay awake nights, how he could have said and done the things he had, and felt miserably resolved to make it up somehow before he went away; but he did not.

There’s no clear reason why a man or a boy, who isn’t completely lacking in understanding and kindness, will often cruelly torment and dominate a woman he loves and admires, who represents everything good and beautiful in his life. It’s as if some dark force occasionally takes control of him, making him say things he knows are cruel and hateful. Moses frequently questioned himself during sleepless nights, wondering how he could have said and done those things, feeling a deep resolve to make amends before he left; but he didn’t.

He could not say, "Mara, I have done wrong," though he every day meant to do it, and sometimes sat an hour in her presence, feeling murky and stony, as if possessed by a dumb spirit; then he would get up and fling stormily out of the house.

He couldn't say, "Mara, I messed up," even though he intended to do it every day. Sometimes he would sit in front of her for an hour, feeling heavy and cold, as if he were under the influence of a silent spirit; then he would get up and storm out of the house.

Poor Mara wondered if he really would go without one kind word. She thought of all the years they had been together, and how he had been her only thought and love.[Pg 215] What had become of her brother?—the Moses that once she used to know—frank, careless, not ill-tempered, and who sometimes seemed to love her and think she was the best little girl in the world? Where was he gone to—this friend and brother of her childhood, and would he never come back?

Poor Mara wondered if he really would go without a kind word. She thought of all the years they had been together and how he had been her only thought and love.[Pg 215] What had happened to her brother?—the Moses she once knew—open, carefree, not mean, and who sometimes seemed to love her and think she was the best little girl in the world? Where had he gone—this friend and brother from her childhood, and would he never come back?

At last came the evening before his parting; the sea-chest was all made up and packed; and Mara's fingers had been busy with everything, from more substantial garments down to all those little comforts and nameless conveniences that only a woman knows how to improvise. Mara thought certainly she should get a few kind words, as Moses looked it over. But he only said, "All right;" and then added that "there was a button off one of the shirts." Mara's busy fingers quickly replaced it, and Moses was annoyed at the tear that fell on the button. What was she crying for now? He knew very well, but he felt stubborn and cruel. Afterwards he lay awake many a night in his berth, and acted this last scene over differently. He took Mara in his arms and kissed her; he told her she was his best friend, his good angel, and that he was not worthy to kiss the hem of her garment; but the next day, when he thought of writing a letter to her, he didn't, and the good mood passed away. Boys do not acquire an ease of expression in letter-writing as early as girls, and a voyage to China furnished opportunities few and far between of sending letters.

Finally, the evening before he left arrived; the sea chest was all packed up; and Mara had been busy with everything, from substantial clothes to all those little comforts and unnamed conveniences that only a woman knows how to put together. Mara thought she would definitely get a few kind words as Moses looked it over. But he just said, "All right," and then added that "there was a button off one of the shirts." Mara quickly replaced it with her busy fingers, and Moses felt annoyed when a tear fell on the button. What was she crying for now? He knew perfectly well, but he felt stubborn and cruel. Later, he lay awake many nights in his bunk, replaying that last moment in his mind. He imagined taking Mara in his arms and kissing her; he would tell her she was his best friend, his good angel, and that he wasn't worthy to kiss the hem of her garment; but the next day, when he thought about writing her a letter, he didn't, and that good mood faded away. Boys don't become comfortable with writing letters as early as girls do, and a trip to China provided very few chances to send letters.

Now and then, through some sailing ship, came missives which seemed to Mara altogether colder and more unsatisfactory than they would have done could she have appreciated the difference between a boy and a girl in power of epistolary expression; for the power of really representing one's heart on paper, which is one of the first spring flowers of early womanhood, is the latest blossom on the slow-growing tree of manhood. To do Moses justice, these[Pg 216] seeming cold letters were often written with a choking lump in his throat, caused by thinking over his many sins against his little good angel; but then that past account was so long, and had so much that it pained him to think of, that he dashed it all off in the shortest fashion, and said to himself, "One of these days when I see her I'll make it all up."

Now and then, messages arrived on a sailing ship that seemed to Mara much colder and more disappointing than they would have if she could have understood the difference between how boys and girls express themselves in writing. The ability to truly capture one’s feelings on paper, which is one of the first signs of early womanhood, is something that takes much longer to develop in men. To give Moses some credit, these seemingly cold letters were often written with a tightness in his throat, caused by reflecting on his many wrongs against his little good angel. However, that past was so extensive and held so many painful memories that he wrote everything in the briefest way possible and promised himself, "One of these days when I see her, I’ll make it all right."

No man—especially one that is living a rough, busy, out-of-doors life—can form the slightest conception of that veiled and secluded life which exists in the heart of a sensitive woman, whose sphere is narrow, whose external diversions are few, and whose mind, therefore, acts by a continual introversion upon itself. They know nothing how their careless words and actions are pondered and turned again in weary, quiet hours of fruitless questioning. What did he mean by this? and what did he intend by that?—while he, the careless buffalo, meant nothing, or has forgotten what it was, if he did. Man's utter ignorance of woman's nature is a cause of a great deal of unsuspected cruelty which he practices toward her.

No man—especially one who leads a rough, hectic, outdoor life—can even begin to understand the hidden and isolated life that exists in the heart of a sensitive woman, whose world is small, whose outside distractions are limited, and whose mind constantly turns inward. They have no clue how their thoughtless words and actions are reflected upon and revisited in the exhausting, quiet hours of endless questioning. What did he mean by this? And what was his intention behind that?—while he, the oblivious guy, meant nothing at all or has forgotten if he did. A man's complete misunderstanding of a woman's nature leads to a lot of unintentional cruelty that he inflicts on her.

Mara found one or two opportunities of writing to Moses; but her letters were timid and constrained by a sort of frosty, discouraged sense of loneliness; and Moses, though he knew he had no earthly right to expect this to be otherwise, took upon him to feel as an abused individual, whom nobody loved—whose way in the world was destined to be lonely and desolate. So when, at the end of three years, he arrived suddenly at Brunswick in the beginning of winter, and came, all burning with impatience, to the home at Orr's Island, and found that Mara had gone to Boston on a visit, he resented it as a personal slight.

Mara wrote to Moses a few times, but her letters felt shy and held back by a cold, heavy sense of loneliness. Moses, even knowing he had no right to expect anything different, felt like a wronged person—someone unloved, destined to lead a lonely and bleak life. So when he suddenly arrived at Brunswick at the start of winter after three years, filled with impatience, and found that Mara had gone to Boston for a visit, he took it as a personal insult.

He might have inquired why she should expect him, and whether her whole life was to be spent in looking out of the window to watch for him. He might have remembered that he had warned her of his approach by no letter.[Pg 217] But no. "Mara didn't care for him—she had forgotten all about him—she was having a good time in Boston, just as likely as not with some train of admirers, and he had been tossing on the stormy ocean, and she had thought nothing of it." How many things he had meant to say! He had never felt so good and so affectionate. He would have confessed all the sins of his life to her, and asked her pardon—and she wasn't there!

He might have wondered why she would expect him, and whether she was planning to spend her whole life looking out the window for him. He could have remembered that he hadn’t warned her about his arrival with a letter.[Pg 217] But no. "Mara didn't care about him—she had moved on—she was having a great time in Boston, probably with a bunch of admirers, while he had been tossed around on the stormy sea, and she hadn’t given it a second thought." There were so many things he wanted to say! He had never felt so good and so loving. He would have confessed all the wrongs he had ever done to her and asked for her forgiveness—and she wasn't there!

Mrs. Pennel suggested that he might go to Boston after her.

Mrs. Pennel suggested that he could go to Boston after her.

No, he was not going to do that. He would not intrude on her pleasures with the memory of a rough, hard-working sailor. He was alone in the world, and had his own way to make, and so best go at once up among lumbermen, and cut the timber for the ship that was to carry Cæsar and his fortunes.

No, he wasn’t going to do that. He wouldn’t ruin her happiness with the memory of a tough, hardworking sailor. He was alone in the world and had his own path to forge, so it was best to head up among the lumberjacks and chop the wood for the ship that would carry Cæsar and his fortunes.

When Mara was informed by a letter from Mrs. Pennel, expressed in the few brief words in which that good woman generally embodied her epistolary communications, that Moses had been at home, and gone to Umbagog without seeing her, she felt at her heart only a little closer stricture of cold, quiet pain, which had become a habit of her inner life.

When Mara received a letter from Mrs. Pennel, written in the typically concise style that she favored, informing her that Moses had been home but had gone to Umbagog without seeing her, she felt a slight tightening of cold, quiet pain in her heart that had become a regular part of her emotional existence.

"He did not love her—he was cold and selfish," said the inner voice. And faintly she pleaded, in answer, "He is a man—he has seen the world—and has so much to do and think of, no wonder."

"He didn’t love her—he was distant and self-centered," said the inner voice. And softly she responded, "He’s a man—he’s experienced the world—and has so much to do and think about, it’s understandable."

In fact, during the last three years that had parted them, the great change of life had been consummated in both. They had parted boy and girl; they would meet man and woman. The time of this meeting had been announced.

In fact, during the last three years that had separated them, significant changes in life had occurred for both. They had parted as a boy and girl; they would meet as a man and woman. The timing of this meeting had been announced.

And all this is the history of that sigh, so very quiet that Sally Kittridge never checked the rattling flow of her conversation to observe it.

And all this is the history of that sigh, so very quiet that Sally Kittridge never paused in her flowing conversation to notice it.


CHAPTER XXIII

THE BEGINNING OF THE STORY

[Pg 218]We have in the last three chapters brought up the history of our characters to the time when our story opens, when Mara and Sally Kittridge were discussing the expected return of Moses. Sally was persuaded by Mara to stay and spend the night with her, and did so without much fear of what her mother would say when she returned; for though Mrs. Kittridge still made bustling demonstrations of authority, it was quite evident to every one that the handsome grown-up girl had got the sceptre into her own hands, and was reigning in the full confidence of being, in one way or another, able to bring her mother into all her views.

[Pg 218]In the last three chapters, we have covered the history of our characters up to the point where our story begins, with Mara and Sally Kittridge discussing Moses's anticipated return. Mara convinced Sally to stay and spend the night with her, and she did so without much worry about her mother's reaction when she got back; even though Mrs. Kittridge still put on a busy show of authority, it was clear to everyone that the attractive, grown-up girl had taken control and was confidently managing to align her mother with her plans.

So Sally stayed—to have one of those long night-talks in which girls delight, in the course of which all sorts of intimacies and confidences, that shun the daylight, open like the night-blooming cereus in strange successions. One often wonders by daylight at the things one says very naturally in the dark.

So Sally stayed—to have one of those long late-night talks that girls love, where all kinds of secrets and confessions, that avoid the light of day, bloom like night-blooming cereus in surprising ways. One often thinks during the day about the things one says so easily in the dark.

So the two girls talked about Moses, and Sally dilated upon his handsome, manly air the one Sunday that he had appeared in Harpswell meeting-house.

So the two girls talked about Moses, and Sally went on about his handsome, masculine vibe the one Sunday he showed up at the Harpswell meeting house.

"He didn't know me at all, if you'll believe it," said Sally. "I was standing with father when he came out, and he shook hands with him, and looked at me as if I'd been an entire stranger."

"He didn't know me at all, if you can believe it," said Sally. "I was standing with my dad when he came out, and he shook hands with him and looked at me like I was a complete stranger."

"I'm not in the least surprised," said Mara; "you're grown so and altered."[Pg 219]

"I'm not even a little surprised," said Mara; "you've grown so much and changed."[Pg 219]

"Well, now, you'd hardly know him, Mara," said Sally. "He is a man—a real man; everything about him is different; he holds up his head in such a proud way. Well, he always did that when he was a boy; but when he speaks, he has such a deep voice! How boys do alter in a year or two!"

"Well, you’d hardly recognize him now, Mara," said Sally. "He’s a man—a real man; everything about him is different. He carries himself so proudly. He always did that as a kid, but now when he talks, he has such a deep voice! It’s amazing how much boys can change in just a year or two!"

"Do you think I have altered much, Sally?" said Mara; "at least, do you think he would think so?"

"Do you think I've changed a lot, Sally?" said Mara; "at least, do you think he would think so?"

"Why, Mara, you and I have been together so much, I can't tell. We don't notice what goes on before us every day. I really should like to see what Moses Pennel will think when he sees you. At any rate, he can't order you about with such a grand air as he used to when you were younger."

"Why, Mara, you and I have spent so much time together that I can't even tell anymore. We overlook everything happening around us every day. I'm really curious to see what Moses Pennel will think when he sees you. In any case, he can't boss you around with that same grand attitude like he used to when you were younger."

"I think sometimes he has quite forgotten about me," said Mara.

"I think sometimes he has completely forgotten about me," said Mara.

"Well, if I were you, I should put him in mind of myself by one or two little ways," said Sally. "I'd plague him and tease him. I'd lead him such a life that he couldn't forget me,—that's what I would."

"Well, if I were you, I would remind him of me in a few small ways," Sally said. "I'd annoy him and tease him. I'd make his life so challenging that he couldn't forget me—that's what I would do."

"I don't doubt you would, Sally; and he might like you all the better for it. But you know that sort of thing isn't my way. People must act in character."

"I don’t doubt you would, Sally; and he might even like you more for it. But you know that kind of thing isn’t really my style. People should stay true to their character."

"Do you know, Mara," said Sally, "I always thought Moses was hateful in his treatment of you? Now I'd no more marry that fellow than I'd walk into the fire; but it would be a just punishment for his sins to have to marry me! Wouldn't I serve him out, though!"

"Do you know, Mara," said Sally, "I always thought Moses was awful in how he treated you? I'd never marry that guy, not even if it meant walking into a fire; but it would be a fitting punishment for his sins to have to marry me! I'd really make him pay for it!"

With which threat of vengeance on her mind Sally Kittridge fell asleep, while Mara lay awake pondering,—wondering if Moses would come to-morrow, and what he would be like if he did come.

With the threat of revenge on her mind, Sally Kittridge fell asleep, while Mara lay awake thinking—wondering if Moses would come tomorrow, and what he would be like if he did.

The next morning as the two girls were wiping breakfast dishes in a room adjoining the kitchen, a step was heard on the kitchen-floor, and the first that Mara knew[Pg 220] she found herself lifted from the floor in the arms of a tall dark-eyed young man, who was kissing her just as if he had a right to. She knew it must be Moses, but it seemed strange as a dream, for all she had tried to imagine it beforehand.

The next morning, as the two girls were drying the breakfast dishes in a room next to the kitchen, they heard a step on the kitchen floor. The first thing Mara knew[Pg 220] was that she was lifted off the floor by a tall, dark-eyed young man who was kissing her like it was perfectly normal. She recognized it had to be Moses, but it felt surreal, despite all her attempts to picture it in advance.

He kissed her over and over, and then holding her off at arm's length, said, "Why, Mara, you have grown to be a beauty!"

He kissed her repeatedly, and then, holding her at arm's length, said, "Wow, Mara, you've become a real beauty!"

"And what was she, I'd like to know, when you went away, Mr. Moses?" said Sally, who could not long keep out of a conversation. "She was handsome when you were only a great ugly boy."

"And what was she, I'd like to know, when you left, Mr. Moses?" said Sally, who couldn’t stay out of a conversation for long. "She was beautiful when you were just a big, awkward boy."

"Thank you, Miss Sally!" said Moses, making a profound bow.

"Thank you, Miss Sally!" said Moses, giving a deep bow.

"Thank me for what?" said Sally, with a toss.

"Thank me for what?" Sally said, rolling her eyes.

"For your intimation that I am a handsome young man now," said Moses, sitting with his arm around Mara, and her hand in his.

"For letting me know that I'm a good-looking young guy now," said Moses, sitting with his arm around Mara, her hand in his.

And in truth he was as handsome now for a man as he was in the promise of his early childhood. All the oafishness and surly awkwardness of the half-boy period was gone. His great black eyes were clear and confident: his dark hair clustering in short curls round his well-shaped head; his black lashes, and fine form, and a certain confident ease of manner, set him off to the greatest advantage.

And honestly, he was just as handsome now as a man as he was when he was a promising child. All the clumsiness and awkwardness of his teenage years were gone. His deep black eyes were clear and full of confidence; his dark hair curled in neat little waves around his well-defined head; his black eyelashes, great physique, and a certain relaxed confidence made him stand out in the best way.

Mara felt a peculiar dreamy sense of strangeness at this brother who was not a brother,—this Moses so different from the one she had known. The very tone of his voice, which when he left had the uncertain cracked notes which indicate the unformed man, were now mellowed and settled. Mara regarded him shyly as he talked, blushed uneasily, and drew away from his arm around her, as if this handsome, self-confident young man were being too familiar. In fact, she made apology to go out into the other room to call Mrs. Pennel.[Pg 221]

Mara felt a strange, dreamlike quality about this brother who wasn't really a brother—this Moses who was so different from the one she used to know. The tone of his voice, which had once been uncertain and cracked, now sounded warm and assured. As he spoke, Mara looked at him shyly, blushed awkwardly, and recoiled slightly from his arm around her, as if this attractive, self-assured young man was being too close for comfort. In fact, she made an excuse to step into the other room to call Mrs. Pennel.[Pg 221]

Moses looked after her as she went with admiration. "What a little woman she has grown!" he said, naïvely.

Moses watched her leave with admiration. "What a little woman she has become!" he said, innocently.

"And what did you expect she would grow?" said Sally. "You didn't expect to find her a girl in short clothes, did you?"

"And what did you expect her to grow into?" said Sally. "You didn't expect to find her dressed like a little girl, did you?"

"Not exactly, Miss Sally," said Moses, turning his attention to her; "and some other people are changed too."

"Not quite, Miss Sally," said Moses, focusing on her; "and some other people have changed as well."

"Like enough," said Sally, carelessly. "I should think so, since somebody never spoke a word to one the Sunday he was at meeting."

"Probably," said Sally, casually. "I would assume so, since someone didn't say a single word to anyone that Sunday he was at church."

"Oh, you remember that, do you? On my word, Sally"—

"Oh, you remember that, do you? I swear, Sally"—

"Miss Kittridge, if you please, sir," said Sally, turning round with the air of an empress.

"Miss Kittridge, if you don't mind, sir," said Sally, turning around with the attitude of a queen.

"Well, then, Miss Kittridge," said Moses, making a bow; "now let me finish my sentence. I never dreamed who you were."

"Well, then, Miss Kittridge," said Moses, bowing, "now let me finish my thought. I never imagined who you were."

"Complimentary," said Sally, pouting.

"Free," said Sally, pouting.

"Well, hear me through," said Moses; "you had grown so handsome, Miss Kittridge."

"Well, just listen to me," said Moses; "you've become so beautiful, Miss Kittridge."

"Oh! that indeed! I suppose you mean to say I was a fright when you left?"

"Oh! Is that what you mean? I guess you’re saying I looked terrible when you left?"

"Not at all—not at all," said Moses; "but handsome things may grow handsomer, you know."

"Not at all—not at all," said Moses; "but good-looking things can look even better, you know."

"I don't like flattery," said Sally.

"I don't like flattery," Sally said.

"I never flatter, Miss Kittridge," said Moses.

"I never flatter, Miss Kittridge," Moses said.

Our young gentleman and young lady of Orr's Island went through with this customary little lie of civilized society with as much gravity as if they were practicing in the court of Versailles,—she looking out from the corner of her eye to watch the effect of her words, and he laying his hand on his heart in the most edifying gravity. They perfectly understood one another.

Our young man and young woman from Orr's Island went through this usual little social lie with as much seriousness as if they were performing in the court of Versailles—she peeking from the corner of her eye to see how her words were received, and he placing his hand on his heart with the utmost seriousness. They completely understood each other.

But, says the reader, seems to me Sally Kittridge does all the talking! So she does,—so she always will,—for[Pg 222] it is her nature to be bright, noisy, and restless; and one of these girls always overcrows a timid and thoughtful one, and makes her, for the time, seem dim and faded, as does rose color when put beside scarlet.

But, the reader might say, it seems to me that Sally Kittridge does all the talking! And she does—she always will—because it's just her nature to be lively, loud, and restless; and one of these girls always outshines a shy and reflective one, making her seem dull and faded for a while, just like how rose color looks next to scarlet.

Sally was a born coquette. It was as natural for her to want to flirt with every man she saw, as for a kitten to scamper after a pin-ball. Does the kitten care a fig for the pin-ball, or the dry leaves, which she whisks, and frisks, and boxes, and pats, and races round and round after? No; it's nothing but kittenhood; every hair of her fur is alive with it. Her sleepy green eyes, when she pretends to be dozing, are full of it; and though she looks wise a moment, and seems resolved to be a discreet young cat, let but a leaf sway—off she goes again, with a frisk and a rap. So, though Sally had scolded and flounced about Moses's inattention to Mara in advance, she contrived even in this first interview to keep him talking with nobody but herself;—not because she wanted to draw him from Mara, or meant to; not because she cared a pin for him; but because it was her nature, as a frisky young cat. And Moses let himself be drawn, between bantering and contradicting, and jest and earnest, at some moments almost to forget that Mara was in the room.

Sally was a natural flirt. It was just as instinctive for her to want to flirt with every guy she encountered as it is for a kitten to chase after a ping-pong ball. Does the kitten care at all about the ball or the dry leaves that she bats at, pounces on, and races after? No; it's all part of being a kitten; every strand of her fur is full of that excitement. Her sleepy green eyes, when she pretends to nap, are filled with it; and even though she might appear wise for a moment, seemingly determined to be a serious young cat, the moment a leaf rustles—she's off again, bouncing and pouncing. Similarly, although Sally had previously scolded and made a fuss about Moses's lack of attention to Mara, she managed, even in this first meeting, to keep him talking only to her—not because she wanted to pull him away from Mara or because she cared about him at all; it was just her nature, like a playful young cat. And Moses found himself getting drawn in, mixing teasing with contradiction, joking and being sincere, almost forgetting that Mara was even in the room at times.

She took her sewing and sat with a pleased smile, sometimes breaking into the lively flow of conversation, or eagerly appealed to by both parties to settle some rising quarrel.

She picked up her sewing and sat there with a happy smile, occasionally jumping into the lively conversation or being eagerly asked by both sides to help settle an argument that was brewing.

Once, as they were talking, Moses looked up and saw Mara's head, as a stray sunbeam falling upon the golden hair seemed to make a halo around her face. Her large eyes were fixed upon him with an expression so intense and penetrative, that he felt a sort of wincing uneasiness. "What makes you look at me so, Mara?" he said, suddenly.

Once, while they were talking, Moses looked up and saw Mara's head, illuminated by a stray sunbeam that seemed to create a halo around her golden hair. Her large eyes were focused on him with such an intense and penetrating expression that he felt a twinge of discomfort. "Why are you looking at me like that, Mara?" he asked abruptly.

A bright flush came in her cheek as she answered, "I[Pg 223] didn't know I was looking. It all seems so strange to me. I am trying to make out who and what you are."

A bright flush appeared on her cheek as she replied, "I[Pg 223] didn't realize I was looking. It all feels so weird to me. I'm trying to figure out who and what you are."

"It's not best to look too deep," Moses said, laughing, but with a slight shade of uneasiness.

"It's probably not a good idea to look too deep," Moses said, laughing, but there was a hint of unease in his voice.

When Sally, late in the afternoon, declared that she must go home, she couldn't stay another minute, Moses rose to go with her.

When Sally, late in the afternoon, said that she had to go home and couldn’t stay another minute, Moses stood up to go with her.

"What are you getting up for?" she said to Moses, as he took his hat.

"What are you getting up for?" she asked Moses as he grabbed his hat.

"To go home with you, to be sure."

"Of course, I'll go home with you."

"Nobody asked you to," said Sally.

"Nobody asked you to," said Sally.

"I'm accustomed to asking myself," said Moses.

"I'm used to asking myself," said Moses.

"Well, I suppose I must have you along," said Sally. "Father will be glad to see you, of course."

"Well, I guess I have to have you with me," said Sally. "Dad will be happy to see you, of course."

"You'll be back to tea, Moses," said Mara, "will you not? Grandfather will be home, and want to see you."

"You'll be back for tea, Moses," Mara said, "won't you? Grandfather will be home and will want to see you."

"Oh, I shall be right back," said Moses, "I have a little business to settle with Captain Kittridge."

"Oh, I'll be right back," said Moses, "I have a small matter to take care of with Captain Kittridge."

But Moses, however, did stay at tea with Mrs. Kittridge, who looked graciously at him through the bows of her black horn spectacles, having heard her liege lord observe that Moses was a smart chap, and had done pretty well in a money way.

But Moses did stay for tea with Mrs. Kittridge, who looked at him kindly over the frames of her black horn glasses, having heard her husband remark that Moses was a clever guy and had done quite well financially.

How came he to stay? Sally told him every other minute to go; and then when he had got fairly out of the door, called him back to tell him that there was something she had heard about him. And Moses of course came back; wanted to know what it was; and couldn't be told, it was a secret; and then he would be ordered off, and reminded that he promised to go straight home; and then when he got a little farther off she called after him a second time, to tell him that he would be very much surprised if he knew how she found it out, etc., etc.,—till at last tea being ready, there was no reason why he shouldn't have a cup. And so it was sober moonrise before Moses found himself going home.[Pg 224]

How did he end up staying? Sally told him to leave every other minute, and just when he got halfway out the door, she called him back to say there was something she’d heard about him. Of course, Moses came back; he wanted to know what it was, but she said it was a secret. Then she would send him off again, reminding him that he promised to go straight home. When he got a bit further away, she called out to him again to say he’d be really surprised if he knew how she found it out, and so on. Eventually, once tea was ready, there was no reason for him not to have a cup. So it was well past moonrise before Moses finally made his way home.[Pg 224]

"Hang that girl!" he said to himself; "don't she know what she's about, though?"

"Hang that girl!" he said to himself; "doesn't she know what she's doing?"

There our hero was mistaken. Sally never did know what she was about,—had no plan or purpose more than a blackbird; and when Moses was gone laughed to think how many times she had made him come back.

There our hero was wrong. Sally never really knew what she was doing—had no plan or purpose beyond that of a blackbird; and when Moses was gone, she laughed at how many times she had made him come back.

"Now, confound it all," said Moses, "I care more for our little Mara than a dozen of her; and what have I been fooling all this time for?—now Mara will think I don't love her."

"Now, damn it all," said Moses, "I care more for our little Mara than for a dozen of her; and what have I been fooling around for all this time?—now Mara will think I don't love her."

And, in fact, our young gentleman rather set his heart on the sensation he was going to make when he got home. It is flattering, after all, to feel one's power over a susceptible nature; and Moses, remembering how entirely and devotedly Mara had loved him all through childhood, never doubted but he was the sole possessor of uncounted treasure in her heart, which he could develop at his leisure and use as he pleased. He did not calculate for one force which had grown up in the meanwhile between them,—and that was the power of womanhood. He did not know the intensity of that kind of pride, which is the very life of the female nature, and which is most vivid and vigorous in the most timid and retiring.

And, in fact, our young man was pretty excited about the impact he was going to have when he got home. It's nice, after all, to feel one's influence over someone who's easily swayed; and Moses, remembering how completely and devotedly Mara had loved him throughout childhood, had no doubt that he was the only one holding endless treasures in her heart, which he could explore at his convenience and use however he wanted. He didn’t take into account one force that had developed between them in the meantime— the power of womanhood. He didn’t understand the depth of that kind of pride, which is the very essence of female nature, and which is most pronounced and strong in the most shy and reserved.

Our little Mara was tender, self-devoting, humble, and religious, but she was woman after all to the tips of her fingers,—quick to feel slights, and determined with the intensest determination, that no man should wrest from her one of those few humble rights and privileges, which Nature allows to woman. Something swelled and trembled in her when she felt the confident pressure of that bold arm around her waist,—like the instinct of a wild bird to fly. Something in the deep, manly voice, the determined, self-confident air, aroused a vague feeling of defiance and resistance in her which she could scarcely explain to herself. Was he to assume a right to her in this way with[Pg 225]out even asking? When he did not come to tea nor long after, and Mrs. Pennel and her grandfather wondered, she laughed, and said gayly,—

Our little Mara was caring, devoted, humble, and religious, but she was a woman to the tips of her fingers—sensitive to slights, and fiercely determined that no man would take away any of those few simple rights and privileges that Nature grants women. Something swelled and trembled inside her when she felt the confident pressure of that bold arm around her waist—like the instinct of a wild bird to fly. Something in his deep, manly voice and self-assured demeanor stirred up a vague sense of defiance and resistance in her that she could hardly explain to herself. Was he really taking such liberties with her without even asking? When he didn’t show up for tea and later, and Mrs. Pennel and her grandfather wondered about it, she just laughed and said cheerfully,—

"Oh, he knows he'll have time enough to see me. Sally seems more like a stranger."

"Oh, he knows he'll have plenty of time to see me. Sally feels more like a stranger."

But when Moses came home after moonrise, determined to go and console Mara for his absence, he was surprised to hear the sound of a rapid and pleasant conversation, in which a masculine and feminine voice were intermingled in a lively duet. Coming a little nearer, he saw Mara sitting knitting in the doorway, and a very good-looking young man seated on a stone at her feet, with his straw hat flung on the ground, while he was looking up into her face, as young men often do into pretty faces seen by moonlight. Mara rose and introduced Mr. Adams of Boston to Mr. Moses Pennel.

But when Moses got home after the moon came up, ready to go and comfort Mara for being gone, he was surprised to hear the sound of a lively and enjoyable conversation, with a male and female voice blending in a cheerful duet. As he got a bit closer, he saw Mara sitting in the doorway, knitting, and a very good-looking young man sitting on a stone at her feet, his straw hat lying on the ground, gazing up at her face, just like young men often do with pretty faces in the moonlight. Mara stood up and introduced Mr. Adams from Boston to Mr. Moses Pennel.

Moses measured the young man with his eye as if he could have shot him with a good will. And his temper was not at all bettered as he observed that he had the easy air of a man of fashion and culture, and learned by a few moments of the succeeding conversation, that the acquaintance had commenced during Mara's winter visit to Boston.

Moses sized up the young man with a gaze that suggested he could have shot him if he wanted to. His mood didn't improve as he noticed the guy had the effortless vibe of someone from high society, and he quickly learned from a few moments of their conversation that they had met during Mara's winter trip to Boston.

"I was staying a day or two at Mr. Sewell's," he said, carelessly, "and the night was so fine I couldn't resist the temptation to row over."

"I was staying at Mr. Sewell's for a day or two," he said casually, "and the night was so nice I couldn't resist the urge to row over."

It was now Moses's turn to listen to a conversation in which he could bear little part, it being about persons and places and things unfamiliar to him; and though he could give no earthly reason why the conversation was not the most proper in the world,—yet he found that it made him angry.

It was now Moses's turn to listen to a conversation in which he could take little part, as it was about people, places, and things he didn't know; and although he couldn't provide any real reason why the conversation wasn’t perfectly fine, he found it made him angry.

In the pauses, Mara inquired, prettily, how he found the Kittridges, and reproved him playfully for staying, in despite of his promise to come home. Moses answered with an effort to appear easy and playful, that there was[Pg 226] no reason, it appeared, to hurry on her account, since she had been so pleasantly engaged.

In the breaks, Mara asked, cutely, how he felt about the Kittridges and teased him lightly for staying, even though he promised to come home. Moses replied, trying to seem relaxed and playful, that there didn't seem to be any reason to rush on her behalf, since she had been having such a good time.

"That is true," said Mara, quietly; "but then grandpapa and grandmamma expected you, and they have gone to bed, as you know they always do after tea."

"That's true," said Mara quietly, "but grandpa and grandma were expecting you, and you know they always go to bed after tea."

"They'll keep till morning, I suppose," said Moses, rather gruffly.

"They'll hold up until morning, I guess," said Moses, a bit gruffly.

"Oh yes; but then as you had been gone two or three months, naturally they wanted to see a little of you at first."

"Oh yes; but since you had been away for two or three months, of course they wanted to see a bit of you at first."

The stranger now joined in the conversation, and began talking with Moses about his experiences in foreign parts, in a manner which showed a man of sense and breeding. Moses had a jealous fear of people of breeding,—an apprehension lest they should look down on one whose life had been laid out of the course of their conventional ideas; and therefore, though he had sufficient ability and vigor of mind to acquit himself to advantage in this conversation, it gave him all the while a secret uneasiness. After a few moments, he rose up moodily, and saying that he was very much fatigued, he went into the house to retire.

The stranger joined the conversation and started talking to Moses about his experiences abroad, showing that he was a person of intelligence and good upbringing. Moses felt a jealous fear of well-bred people—worried they might look down on someone whose life didn't fit their conventional ideas. Even though he had the ability and sharp mind to hold his own in this conversation, it still made him feel uneasy. After a few moments, he stood up in a huff and said he was really tired, then went inside to rest.

Mr. Adams rose to go also, and Moses might have felt in a more Christian frame of mind, had he listened to the last words of the conversation between him and Mara.

Mr. Adams got up to leave as well, and Moses might have felt more at peace if he had heard the last words exchanged between him and Mara.

"Do you remain long in Harpswell?" she asked.

"Are you staying in Harpswell for a while?" she asked.

"That depends on circumstances," he replied. "If I do, may I be permitted to visit you?"

"That depends on the situation," he replied. "If I do, can I come visit you?"

"As a friend—yes," said Mara; "I shall always be happy to see you."

"As a friend—yes," Mara said, "I'll always be glad to see you."

"No more?"

"Are we done?"

"No more," replied Mara.

"No more," said Mara.

"I had hoped," he said, "that you would reconsider."

"I was hoping," he said, "that you would think it over."

"It is impossible," said she; and soft voices can pronounce that word, impossible, in a very fateful and decisive manner.[Pg 227]

"It’s impossible," she said; and gentle voices can say that word, impossible, in a very impactful and decisive way.[Pg 227]

"Well, God bless you, then, Miss Lincoln," he said, and was gone.

"Well, God bless you, then, Miss Lincoln," he said, and left.

Mara stood in the doorway and saw him loosen his boat from its moorings and float off in the moonlight, with a long train of silver sparkles behind.

Mara stood in the doorway and watched him untie his boat from the dock and drift away in the moonlight, leaving a long trail of silver sparkles behind.

A moment after Moses was looking gloomily over her shoulder.

A moment later, Moses was looking sadly over her shoulder.

"Who is that puppy?" he said.

"Who is that puppy?" he asked.

"He is not a puppy, but a very fine young man," said Mara.

"He’s not a puppy, but a really great young man," Mara said.

"Well, that very fine young man, then?"

"Well, what about that really great young guy, then?"

"I thought I told you. He is a Mr. Adams of Boston, and a distant connection of the Sewells. I met him when I was visiting at Judge Sewell's in Boston."

"I thought I mentioned it. He’s Mr. Adams from Boston, and a distant relative of the Sewells. I met him while I was visiting Judge Sewell in Boston."

"You seemed to be having a very pleasant time together?"

"You looked like you were having a great time together?"

"We were," said Mara, quietly.

"We were," Mara said softly.

"It's a pity I came home as I did. I'm sorry I interrupted you," said Moses, with a sarcastic laugh.

"It's unfortunate I came home like that. I'm sorry I interrupted you," Moses said with a sarcastic laugh.

"You didn't interrupt us; he had been here almost two hours."

"You didn't interrupt us; he had been here for almost two hours."

Now Mara saw plainly enough that Moses was displeased and hurt, and had it been in the days of her fourteenth summer, she would have thrown her arms around his neck, and said, "Moses, I don't care a fig for that man, and I love you better than all the world." But this the young lady of eighteen would not do; so she wished him good-night very prettily, and pretended not to see anything about it.

Now Mara clearly saw that Moses was upset and hurt, and if it had been when she was fourteen, she would have thrown her arms around him and said, "Moses, I don't care at all about that guy, and I love you more than anything." But the eighteen-year-old young woman wouldn't do that; instead, she wished him goodnight very nicely and pretended not to notice anything about it.

Mara was as near being a saint as human dust ever is; but—she was a woman saint; and therefore may be excused for a little gentle vindictiveness. She was, in a merciful way, rather glad that Moses had gone to bed dissatisfied, and rather glad that he did not know what she might have told him—quite resolved that he should not[Pg 228] know at present. Was he to know that she liked nobody so much as him? Not he, unless he loved her more than all the world, and said so first. Mara was resolved upon that. He might go where he liked—flirt with whom he liked—come back as late as he pleased; never would she, by word or look, give him reason to think she cared.

Mara was as close to being a saint as humanly possible; but—she was a woman saint; and for that, she could be forgiven for a little gentle spite. In a kind-hearted way, she was actually happy that Moses had gone to bed feeling unsatisfied, and even happier that he didn’t know what she might have told him—definitely decided that he shouldn’t know right now. Was he to know that she liked him more than anyone else? Not unless he loved her more than anything and said so first. Mara was set on that. He could go wherever he wanted—flirt with anyone he liked—come back whenever he felt like it; she would never, through words or looks, give him any reason to think she cared.


CHAPTER XXIV

DESIRES AND DREAMS

[Pg 229]Moses passed rather a restless and uneasy night on his return to the home-roof which had sheltered his childhood. All his life past, and all his life expected, seemed to boil and seethe and ferment in his thoughts, and to go round and round in never-ceasing circles before him.

[Pg 229]Moses spent a pretty restless and uneasy night as he returned to the home that had sheltered his childhood. Everything from his past and all he hoped for in the future seemed to bubble and churn in his mind, spinning in endless loops before him.

Moses was par excellence proud, ambitious, and willful. These words, generally supposed to describe positive vices of the mind, in fact are only the overaction of certain very valuable portions of our nature, since one can conceive all three to raise a man immensely in the scale of moral being, simply by being applied to right objects. He who is too proud even to admit a mean thought—who is ambitious only of ideal excellence—who has an inflexible will only in the pursuit of truth and righteousness—may be a saint and a hero.

Moses was par excellence proud, ambitious, and strong-willed. These traits, usually seen as positive flaws of character, actually highlight the extreme expression of some very valuable aspects of our nature. One can imagine that all three can elevate a person significantly in terms of moral character, simply by being directed towards the right goals. A person who is too proud to entertain a petty thought—who is ambitious only for ideal greatness—who has a strong will solely in the quest for truth and righteousness—can be both a saint and a hero.

But Moses was neither a saint nor a hero, but an undeveloped chaotic young man, whose pride made him sensitive and restless; whose ambition was fixed on wealth and worldly success; whose willfulness was for the most part a blind determination to compass his own points, with the leave of Providence or without. There was no God in his estimate of life—and a sort of secret unsuspected determination at the bottom of his heart that there should be none. He feared religion, from a suspicion which he entertained that it might hamper some of his future schemes. He did not wish to put himself under its rules, lest he might find them in some future time inconveniently strict.[Pg 230]

But Moses was neither a saint nor a hero; he was an immature, chaotic young man whose pride made him touchy and restless. His ambition was focused on wealth and worldly success, and his stubbornness was mostly a blind determination to achieve his own goals, whether it was allowed by Providence or not. He had no belief in God as he viewed life—and a secret, unacknowledged determination deep down that there shouldn’t be one. He was wary of religion, suspecting it might interfere with some of his future plans. He didn’t want to submit to its rules, fearing they might become inconveniently strict down the line.[Pg 230]

With such determinations and feelings, the Bible—necessarily an excessively uninteresting book to him—he never read, and satisfied himself with determining in a general way that it was not worth reading, and, as was the custom with many young men in America at that period, announced himself as a skeptic, and seemed to value himself not a little on the distinction. Pride in skepticism is a peculiar distinction of young men. It takes years and maturity to make the discovery that the power of faith is nobler than the power of doubt; and that there is a celestial wisdom in the ingenuous propensity to trust, which belongs to honest and noble natures. Elderly skeptics generally regard their unbelief as a misfortune.

With those thoughts and feelings, the Bible—undoubtedly a boring book to him—was never read, and he convinced himself that it wasn’t worth his time. Like many young men in America at that time, he declared himself a skeptic and seemed to take pride in this distinction. Taking pride in skepticism is a unique trait of young men. It often takes years and maturity to realize that the strength of faith is greater than the strength of doubt; and that there's a higher wisdom in the natural tendency to trust, which is typical of honest and noble people. Older skeptics usually view their disbelief as a misfortune.

Not that Moses was, after all, without "the angel in him." He had a good deal of the susceptibility to poetic feeling, the power of vague and dreamy aspiration, the longing after the good and beautiful, which is God's witness in the soul. A noble sentiment in poetry, a fine scene in nature, had power to bring tears in his great dark eyes, and he had, under the influence of such things, brief inspired moments in which he vaguely longed to do, or be, something grand or noble. But this, however, was something apart from the real purpose of his life,—a sort of voice crying in the wilderness,—to which he gave little heed. Practically, he was determined with all his might, to have a good time in this life, whatever another might be,—if there were one; and that he would do it by the strength of his right arm. Wealth he saw to be the lamp of Aladdin, which commanded all other things. And the pursuit of wealth was therefore the first step in his programme.

Not that Moses was completely without "the angel inside him." He had a strong sensitivity to poetic feelings, the ability for vague and dreamy aspirations, and a longing for the good and beautiful, which is God's witness in the soul. A noble sentiment in poetry or a beautiful scene in nature could bring tears to his deep dark eyes, and under the influence of such things, he experienced brief moments of inspiration where he vaguely yearned to do or be something grand or noble. However, this was separate from the real purpose of his life—a sort of voice crying out in the wilderness—to which he paid little attention. In practice, he was determined with all his might to have a good time in this life, whatever the next one might be—if there even was one; and he planned to achieve this through the strength of his own efforts. He saw wealth as Aladdin's lamp, able to command everything else. Therefore, the pursuit of wealth was the first step in his plan.

As for plans of the heart and domestic life, Moses was one of that very common class who had more desire to be loved than power of loving. His cravings and dreams were not for somebody to be devoted to, but for somebody[Pg 231] who should be devoted to him. And, like most people who possess this characteristic, he mistook it for an affectionate disposition.

As for his feelings and home life, Moses was one of those people who wanted to be loved more than he was capable of loving. His longings and fantasies weren't about being dedicated to someone, but about having someone dedicated to him. And like many who share this trait, he misinterpreted it as a caring nature.

Now the chief treasure of his heart had always been his little sister Mara, chiefly from his conviction that he was the one absorbing thought and love of her heart. He had never figured life to himself otherwise than with Mara at his side, his unquestioning, devoted friend. Of course he and his plans, his ways and wants, would always be in the future, as they always had been, her sole thought. These sleeping partnerships in the interchange of affection, which support one's heart with a basis of uncounted wealth, and leave one free to come and go, and buy and sell, without exaction or interference, are a convenience certainly, and the loss of them in any way is like the sudden breaking of a bank in which all one's deposits are laid.

Now, the most valuable thing in his life had always been his little sister Mara, especially because he believed he was the most important person in her heart. He had never imagined life without Mara by his side, his loyal and devoted friend. Naturally, he thought that he and his plans, his desires and needs, would always be her main focus, just like they had always been. These unspoken connections in the exchange of love, which strengthen one's heart with a wealth that can't be measured, and allow one to come and go and make decisions without demands or interference, are certainly a convenience. Losing them in any way feels like suddenly having a bank break where all your savings are held.

It had never occurred to Moses how or in what capacity he should always stand banker to the whole wealth of love that there was in Mara's heart, and what provision he should make on his part for returning this incalculable debt. But the interview of this evening had raised a new thought in his mind. Mara, as he saw that day, was no longer a little girl in a pink sun-bonnet. She was a woman,—a little one, it is true, but every inch a woman,—and a woman invested with a singular poetic charm of appearance, which, more than beauty, has the power of awakening feeling in the other sex.

It had never crossed Moses's mind how or in what way he should always act as the banker for all the love that was in Mara's heart, or what he should do to repay this immeasurable debt. But the conversation they had that evening sparked a new idea in his mind. Mara, as he realized that day, was no longer a little girl in a pink sunbonnet. She was a woman—small, yes, but every bit a woman—and she had a unique, poetic charm about her that, more than beauty, had the ability to stir feelings in men.

He felt in himself, in the experience of that one day, that there was something subtle and veiled about her, which set the imagination at work; that the wistful, plaintive expression of her dark eyes, and a thousand little shy and tremulous movements of her face, affected him more than the most brilliant of Sally Kittridge's sprightly sallies. Yes, there would be people falling in love with her fast enough, he thought even here, where she is as secluded[Pg 232] as a pearl in an oyster-shell,—it seems means were found to come after her,—and then all the love of her heart, that priceless love, would go to another.

He sensed within himself, during that one day's experience, that there was something subtle and hidden about her that sparked his imagination; the wistful, tender look in her dark eyes and the countless shy, delicate movements of her face affected him more than the most dazzling comments from Sally Kittridge. Yes, he figured there would be people falling in love with her quickly enough, even here, where she was as isolated[Pg 232] as a pearl in an oyster shell—means were found to pursue her—and then all the love in her heart, that invaluable love, would end up with someone else.

Mara would be absorbed in some one else, would love some one else, as he knew she could, with heart and soul and mind and strength. When he thought of this, it affected him much as it would if one were turned out of a warm, smiling apartment into a bleak December storm. What should he do, if that treasure which he had taken most for granted in all his valuations of life should suddenly be found to belong to another? Who was this fellow that seemed so free to visit her, and what had passed between them? Was Mara in love with him, or going to be? There is no saying how the consideration of this question enhanced in our hero's opinion both her beauty and all her other good qualities.

Mara could easily fall for someone else, loving that person with all her heart, soul, mind, and strength. Thinking about this hit him like being pushed out of a warm, welcoming apartment into a harsh December storm. What would he do if the treasure he had always taken for granted in his life suddenly belonged to someone else? Who was this guy who seemed so comfortable visiting her, and what had actually happened between them? Was Mara in love with him, or was she going to be? There’s no way to explain how much this thought made our hero see her beauty and all her other amazing qualities in a new light.

Such a brave little heart! such a good, clear little head! and such a pretty hand and foot! She was always so cheerful, so unselfish, so devoted! When had he ever seen her angry, except when she had taken up some childish quarrel of his, and fought for him like a little Spartan? Then she was pious, too. She was born religious, thought our hero, who, in common with many men professing skepticism for their own particular part, set a great value on religion in that unknown future person whom they are fond of designating in advance as "my wife." Yes, Moses meant his wife should be pious, and pray for him, while he did as he pleased.

What a brave little heart! What a good, clear little head! And such a pretty hand and foot! She was always so cheerful, so unselfish, so devoted! When had he ever seen her angry, except when she took up some childish argument of his and fought for him like a little warrior? And she was spiritual, too. She was naturally religious, thought our hero, who, like many men who claim to be skeptical in their own way, placed great value on religion in that unknown future person they love to call "my wife." Yes, Moses envisioned his wife as someone who would be spiritual and pray for him while he did whatever he wanted.

"Now there's that witch of a Sally Kittridge," he said to himself; "I wouldn't have such a girl for a wife. Nothing to her but foam and frisk,—no heart more than a bobolink! But isn't she amusing? By George! isn't she, though?"

"Now there's that witch of a Sally Kittridge," he said to himself; "I wouldn't want a girl like her as a wife. She's all fluff and fun—has no more heart than a bobolink! But isn't she entertaining? By George! Isn't she, though?"

"But," thought Moses, "it's time I settled this matter [Pg 233]who is to be my wife. I won't marry till I'm rich,—that's flat. My wife isn't to rub and grub. So at it I must go to raise the wind. I wonder if old Sewell really does know anything about my parents. Miss Emily would have it that there was some mystery that he had the key of; but I never could get any thing from him. He always put me off in such a smooth way that I couldn't tell whether he did or he didn't. But, now, supposing I have relatives, family connections, then who knows but what there may be property coming to me? That's an idea worth looking after, surely."

"But," thought Moses, "it's time I figured out who is going to be my wife. I won't get married until I'm wealthy—that's for sure. My wife shouldn’t have to struggle. So I need to get to work to make some money. I wonder if old Sewell actually knows anything about my parents. Miss Emily seems to think there’s some mystery he holds the key to, but I never managed to get anything out of him. He always brushed me off so smoothly that I couldn't tell if he really knew anything or not. But now, if I do have relatives, family connections, who knows? There could be some property coming my way. That’s definitely something worth pursuing."

There's no saying with what vividness ideas and images go through one's wakeful brain when the midnight moon is making an exact shadow of your window-sash, with panes of light, on your chamber-floor. How vividly we all have loved and hated and planned and hoped and feared and desired and dreamed, as we tossed and turned to and fro upon such watchful, still nights. In the stillness, the tide upon one side of the Island replied to the dash on the other side in unbroken symphony, and Moses began to remember all the stories gossips had told him of how he had floated ashore there, like a fragment of tropical seaweed borne landward by a great gale. He positively wondered at himself that he had never thought of it more, and the more he meditated, the more mysterious and inexplicable he felt. Then he had heard Miss Roxy once speaking something about a bracelet, he was sure he had; but afterwards it was hushed up, and no one seemed to know anything about it when he inquired. But in those days he was a boy,—he was nobody,—now he was a young man. He could go to Mr. Sewell, and demand as his right a fair answer to any questions he might ask. If he found, as was quite likely, that there was nothing to be known, his mind would be thus far settled,—he should trust only to his own resources.

There's no telling how vividly ideas and images race through your awake mind when the midnight moon casts a perfect shadow of your window frame, with light shining across your bedroom floor. How intensely we’ve all loved and hated, planned and hoped, feared and desired, and dreamed as we tossed and turned on such watchful, quiet nights. In the stillness, the tide on one side of the Island echoed the crash on the other side in perfect harmony, and Moses began to remember all the stories that gossipers had told him about how he had washed up there, like a piece of tropical seaweed carried ashore by a strong wind. He truly wondered why he hadn’t thought about it more, and the deeper he reflected, the more mysterious and puzzling it felt. Then he recalled Miss Roxy once mentioning something about a bracelet, he was sure of it; but afterwards, it was all kept quiet, and nobody seemed to know anything about it when he asked. But back then, he was just a boy—he was nobody—now he was a young man. He could go to Mr. Sewell and demand a fair answer to any questions he wanted to ask. If he found, as was quite likely, that there was nothing to know, he would at least have that settled in his mind—he would rely only on his own resources.

So far as the state of the young man's finances were[Pg 234] concerned, it would be considered in those simple times and regions an auspicious beginning of life. The sum intrusted to him by Captain Kittridge had been more than doubled by the liberality of Zephaniah Pennel, and Moses had traded upon it in foreign parts with a skill and energy that brought a very fair return, and gave him, in the eyes of the shrewd, thrifty neighbors, the prestige of a young man who was marked for success in the world.

So far as the young man's finances were concerned, it would be seen in those simple times and places as a promising start in life. The amount entrusted to him by Captain Kittridge had more than doubled thanks to the generosity of Zephaniah Pennel, and Moses had traded with it in foreign lands with a skill and energy that yielded a decent return. This gave him, in the eyes of his shrewd, thrifty neighbors, the reputation of a young man destined for success in the world.

He had already formed an advantageous arrangement with his grandfather and Captain Kittridge, by which a ship was to be built, which he should command, and thus the old Saturday afternoon dream of their childhood be fulfilled. As he thought of it, there arose in his mind a picture of Mara, with her golden hair and plaintive eyes and little white hands, reigning as a fairy queen in the captain's cabin, with a sort of wish to carry her off and make sure that no one else ever should get her from him.

He had already made a beneficial deal with his grandfather and Captain Kittridge to have a ship built that he would command, fulfilling the old Saturday afternoon dream of their childhood. As he thought about it, a vision of Mara appeared in his mind, with her golden hair, sad eyes, and delicate white hands, reigning like a fairy queen in the captain's cabin, along with a longing to take her away and ensure that no one else would ever be able to have her.

But these midnight dreams were all sobered down by the plain matter-of-fact beams of the morning sun, and nothing remained of immediate definite purpose except the resolve, which came strongly upon Moses as he looked across the blue band of Harpswell Bay, that he would go that morning and have a talk with Mr. Sewell.

But these nighttime dreams were all brought back to reality by the straightforward light of the morning sun, and the only clear intention that remained was the determination that came strongly to Moses as he looked out over the blue stretch of Harpswell Bay—he would go that morning to have a conversation with Mr. Sewell.


CHAPTER XXV

MISS EMILY

[Pg 235]Miss Roxy Toothache was seated by the window of the little keeping-room where Miss Emily Sewell sat on every-day occasions. Around her were the insignia of her power and sway. Her big tailor's goose was heating between Miss Emily's bright brass fire-irons; her great pin-cushion was by her side, bristling with pins of all sizes, and with broken needles thriftily made into pins by heads of red sealing-wax, and with needles threaded with all varieties of cotton, silk, and linen; her scissors hung martially by her side; her black bombazette work-apron was on; and the expression of her iron features was that of deep responsibility, for she was making the minister a new Sunday vest!

[Pg 235]Miss Roxy Toothache was sitting by the window of the cozy little room where Miss Emily Sewell usually spent her time. Surrounding her were the symbols of her authority and influence. Her large tailor's iron was heating between Miss Emily's shiny brass fire tools; her big pin cushion was next to her, filled with pins of all sizes, along with broken needles creatively turned into pins with red sealing wax heads, and needles threaded with various colors of cotton, silk, and linen; her scissors hung at her side like a soldier ready for duty; she wore her black bombazette work apron; and the look on her stern face showed her serious focus, as she was making the minister a new vest for Sunday!

The good soul looks not a day older than when we left her, ten years ago. Like the gray, weather-beaten rocks of her native shore, her strong features had an unchangeable identity beyond that of anything fair and blooming. There was of course no chance for a gray streak in her stiff, uncompromising mohair frisette, which still pushed up her cap-border bristlingly as of old, and the clear, high winds and bracing atmosphere of that rough coast kept her in an admirable state of preservation.

The good soul doesn’t look a day older than when we left her ten years ago. Like the gray, weathered rocks of her native shore, her strong features had a timeless quality that surpassed anything beautiful and fresh. Naturally, there was no chance of any gray streaks in her stiff, uncompromising mohair hairstyle, which still poked up under her cap just like it always had, and the clear, strong winds and invigorating atmosphere of that rugged coast kept her in excellent shape.

Miss Emily had now and then a white hair among her soft, pretty brown ones, and looked a little thinner; but the round, bright spot of bloom on each cheek was there just as of yore,—and just as of yore she was thinking of her brother, and filling her little head with endless calculations to keep him looking fresh and respectable, and his[Pg 236] housekeeping comfortable and easy, on very limited means. She was now officiously and anxiously attending on Miss Roxy, who was in the midst of the responsible operation which should conduce greatly to this end.

Miss Emily occasionally had a white hair among her soft, pretty brown ones and looked a bit thinner; but the round, bright flush on each cheek was still there just like before,—and just like before, she was thinking about her brother, filling her little head with endless calculations to keep him looking fresh and respectable, and to make his[Pg 236] housekeeping comfortable and easy, despite their very limited means. She was now nervously and eagerly attending to Miss Roxy, who was in the middle of the important task that would greatly help with this.

"Does that twist work well?" she said, nervously; "because I believe I've got some other upstairs in my India box."

"Does that twist work okay?" she said, nervously; "because I think I have some other ones up in my India box."

Miss Roxy surveyed the article; bit a fragment off, as if she meant to taste it; threaded a needle and made a few cabalistical stitches; and then pronounced, ex cathedrâ, that it would do. Miss Emily gave a sigh of relief. After buttons and tapes and linings, and various other items had been also discussed, the conversation began to flow into general channels.

Miss Roxy looked over the article, took a small bite as if she wanted to sample it, threaded a needle, and made a few mysterious stitches before confidently declaring that it was good enough. Miss Emily let out a sigh of relief. After discussing buttons, ribbons, linings, and a few other things, the conversation started to flow into more general topics.

"Did you know Moses Pennel had got home from Umbagog?" said Miss Roxy.

"Did you know Moses Pennel has gotten home from Umbagog?" said Miss Roxy.

"Yes. Captain Kittridge told brother so this morning. I wonder he doesn't call over to see us."

"Yeah. Captain Kittridge told my brother that this morning. I wonder why he doesn't come by to see us."

"Your brother took a sight of interest in that boy," said Miss Roxy. "I was saying to Ruey, this morning, that if Moses Pennel ever did turn out well, he ought to have a large share of the credit."

"Your brother showed a lot of interest in that boy," said Miss Roxy. "I was telling Ruey this morning that if Moses Pennel ever amounts to anything, he should get a big part of the credit."

"Brother always did feel a peculiar interest in him; it was such a strange providence that seemed to cast in his lot among us," said Miss Emily.

"Brother always felt a strange interest in him; it seemed like such a weird twist of fate that had him end up with us," said Miss Emily.

"As sure as you live, there he is a-coming to the front door," said Miss Roxy.

"As sure as you're alive, there he is, coming to the front door," said Miss Roxy.

"Dear me," said Miss Emily, "and here I have on this old faded chintz. Just so sure as one puts on any old rag, and thinks nobody will come, company is sure to call."

"Goodness," said Miss Emily, "and here I am in this old faded fabric. Just as sure as you wear some old rag and think no one will show up, guests are bound to drop by."

"Law, I'm sure I shouldn't think of calling him company," said Miss Roxy.

"Honestly, I know I shouldn't even think about calling him a company," said Miss Roxy.

A rap at the door put an end to this conversation, and very soon Miss Emily introduced our hero into the little sitting-room, in the midst of a perfect stream of apologies[Pg 237] relating to her old dress and the littered condition of the sitting-room, for Miss Emily held to the doctrine of those who consider any sign of human occupation and existence in a room as being disorder—however reputable and respectable be the cause of it.

A knock on the door interrupted their conversation, and soon Miss Emily brought our hero into the small living room, apologizing profusely about her old dress and the messy state of the room. Miss Emily believed in the principle of those who see any indication of human presence and life in a space as a mess—no matter how respectable the reason might be.[Pg 237]

"Well, really," she said, after she had seated Moses by the fire, "how time does pass, to be sure; it don't seem more than yesterday since you used to come with your Latin books, and now here you are a grown man! I must run and tell Mr. Sewell. He will be so glad to see you."

"Well, really," she said, after she had seated Moses by the fire, "time really flies, doesn’t it? It feels like just yesterday you were coming with your Latin books, and now look at you—you're all grown up! I need to run and tell Mr. Sewell. He'll be so happy to see you."

Mr. Sewell soon appeared from his study in morning-gown and slippers, and seemed heartily responsive to the proposition which Moses soon made to him to have some private conversation with him in his study.

Mr. Sewell soon came out of his study in a robe and slippers, looking fully open to the suggestion Moses made to have a private conversation with him in his study.

"I declare," said Miss Emily, as soon as the study-door had closed upon her brother and Moses, "what a handsome young man he is! and what a beautiful way he has with him!—so deferential! A great many young men nowadays seem to think nothing of their minister; but he comes to seek advice. Very proper. It isn't every young man that appreciates the privilege of having elderly friends. I declare, what a beautiful couple he and Mara Lincoln would make! Don't Providence seem in a peculiar way to have designed them for each other?"

"I declare," said Miss Emily, as soon as the study door closed behind her brother and Moses, "what a handsome young man he is! And he has such a charming way about him—so respectful! A lot of young men these days don’t seem to care much about their minister, but he comes to ask for advice. Very appropriate. Not every young man values the privilege of having older friends. I declare, what a wonderful couple he and Mara Lincoln would make! Doesn’t it seem like Providence has uniquely intended them for each other?"

"I hope not," said Miss Roxy, with her grimmest expression.

"I hope not," said Miss Roxy, with her most serious expression.

"You don't! Why not?"

"You don’t! Why?"

"I never liked him," said Miss Roxy, who had possessed herself of her great heavy goose, and was now thumping and squeaking it emphatically on the press-board. "She's a thousand times too good for Moses Pennel,"—thump. "I ne'er had no faith in him,"—thump. "He's dreffle unstiddy,"—thump. "He's handsome, but he knows it,"—thump. "He won't never love nobody so much as he does himself,"—thump, fortissimo con spirito.[Pg 238]

"I never liked him," said Miss Roxy, who had taken hold of her large, heavy goose and was now banging it loudly on the press-board. "She's way too good for Moses Pennel,"—bang. "I never had any faith in him,"—bang. "He's really unstable,"—bang. "He's good-looking, but he knows it,"—bang. "He'll never love anyone as much as he loves himself,"—bang, fortissimo con spirito.[Pg 238]

"Well, really now, Miss Roxy, you mustn't always remember the sins of his youth. Boys must sow their wild oats. He was unsteady for a while, but now everybody says he's doing well; and as to his knowing he's handsome, and all that, I don't see as he does. See how polite and deferential he was to us all, this morning; and he spoke so handsomely to you."

"Well, really now, Miss Roxy, you shouldn't always dwell on the mistakes of his youth. Boys need to have their fun. He was a bit lost for a while, but now everyone says he’s doing great; and as for him knowing that he’s handsome and all that, I don’t think he does. Just look at how polite and respectful he was to us all this morning; and he spoke so nicely to you."

"I don't want none of his politeness," said Miss Roxy, inexorably; "and as to Mara Lincoln, she might have better than him any day. Miss Badger was a-tellin' Captain Brown, Sunday noon, that she was very much admired in Boston."

"I don't want any of his politeness," Miss Roxy said firmly; "and as for Mara Lincoln, she could do better than him any day. Miss Badger was telling Captain Brown on Sunday at noon that she was very much admired in Boston."

"So she was," said Miss Emily, bridling. "I never reveal secrets, or I might tell something,—but there has been a young man,—but I promised not to speak of it, and I sha'n't."

"So she was," said Miss Emily, getting defensive. "I never share secrets, or I might spill something—but there has been a young man—but I promised not to mention it, and I won't."

"If you mean Mr. Adams," said Miss Roxy, "you need n't worry about keepin' that secret, 'cause that ar was all talked over atween meetin's a-Sunday noon; for Mis' Kittridge she used to know his aunt Jerushy, her that married Solomon Peters, and Mis' Captain Badger she says that he has a very good property, and is a professor in the Old South church in Boston."

"If you’re talking about Mr. Adams," said Miss Roxy, "you don’t need to worry about keeping that secret, because it was all discussed between meetings last Sunday noon; Mrs. Kittridge used to know his aunt Jerushy, the one who married Solomon Peters, and Mrs. Captain Badger says that he has a really good property and is a professor at the Old South church in Boston."

"Dear me," said Miss Emily, "how things do get about!"

"Wow," said Miss Emily, "things really spread fast!"

"People will talk, there ain't no use trying to help it," said Miss Roxy; "but it's strongly borne in on my mind that it ain't Adams, nor 't ain't Moses Pennel that's to marry her. I've had peculiar exercises of mind about that ar child,—well I have;" and Miss Roxy pulled a large spotted bandanna handkerchief out of her pocket, and blew her nose like a trumpet, and then wiped the withered corners of her eyes, which were humid as some old Orr's Island rock wet with sea-spray.

"People are going to talk, there's no point in trying to stop it," said Miss Roxy; "but it's really weighing on my mind that it's not Adams, and it's not Moses Pennel who's going to marry her. I've been thinking a lot about that girl—well, I have;" and Miss Roxy pulled out a large spotted bandanna from her pocket, blew her nose like a trumpet, and then wiped the wrinkled corners of her eyes, which were damp like an old rock from Orr's Island soaked with sea spray.

Miss Emily had a secret love of romancing. It was one[Pg 239] of the recreations of her quiet, monotonous life to build air-castles, which she furnished regardless of expense, and in which she set up at housekeeping her various friends and acquaintances, and she had always been bent on weaving a romance on the history of Mara and Moses Pennel. The good little body had done her best to second Mr. Sewell's attempts toward the education of the children. It was little busy Miss Emily who persuaded honest Zephaniah and Mary Pennel that talents such as Mara's ought to be cultivated, and that ended in sending her to Miss Plucher's school in Portland. There her artistic faculties were trained into creating funereal monuments out of chenille embroidery, fully equal to Miss Emily's own; also to painting landscapes, in which the ground and all the trees were one unvarying tint of blue-green; and also to creating flowers of a new and particular construction, which, as Sally Kittridge remarked, were pretty, but did not look like anything in heaven or earth. Mara had obediently and patiently done all these things; and solaced herself with copying flowers and birds and landscapes as near as possible like nature, as a recreation from these more dignified toils.

Miss Emily had a secret passion for romance. It was one[Pg 239] of the ways she passed the time in her quiet, routine life to build daydreams, which she decorated without holding back, and in which she imagined her various friends and acquaintances living happily. She had always been determined to create a story around the lives of Mara and Moses Pennel. The kind-hearted woman did her best to support Mr. Sewell's efforts to educate the children. It was busy Miss Emily who convinced honest Zephaniah and Mary Pennel that talents like Mara's deserved to be nurtured, which led to her being sent to Miss Plucher's school in Portland. There, her artistic skills were honed in creating funeral monuments out of chenille embroidery that were fully equal to Miss Emily's own; as well as painting landscapes where the ground and all the trees were a uniform shade of blue-green; and also in crafting flowers of a unique design that, as Sally Kittridge noted, were pretty but didn’t resemble anything found in nature. Mara obediently and patiently completed all these tasks, finding comfort in copying flowers, birds, and landscapes as closely as possible to nature, as a break from these more formal challenges.

Miss Emily also had been the means of getting Mara invited to Boston, where she saw some really polished society, and gained as much knowledge of the forms of artificial life as a nature so wholly and strongly individual could obtain. So little Miss Emily regarded Mara as her godchild, and was intent on finishing her up into a romance in real life, of which a handsome young man, who had been washed ashore in a shipwreck, should be the hero.

Miss Emily had also played a role in getting Mara invited to Boston, where she experienced some truly refined society and learned as much about the ways of artificial life as someone with such a unique and strong personality could. Little Miss Emily saw Mara as her godchild and was determined to turn her into a real-life romance, with a handsome young man who had been shipwrecked and washed ashore as the hero.

What would she have said could she have heard the conversation that was passing in her brother's study? Little could she dream that the mystery, about which she had timidly nibbled for years, was now about to be unrolled;—but it was even so. But, upon what she does not see,[Pg 240] good reader, you and I, following invisibly on tiptoe, will make our observations.

What would she have said if she could have heard the conversation happening in her brother's study? She could never have imagined that the mystery she had cautiously wondered about for years was about to be revealed—but that was the case. However, as for what she doesn't see,[Pg 240] dear reader, you and I will quietly observe from a distance.

When Moses was first ushered into Mr. Sewell's study, and found himself quite alone, with the door shut, his heart beat so that he fancied the good man must hear it. He knew well what he wanted and meant to say, but he found in himself all that shrinking and nervous repugnance which always attends the proposing of any decisive question.

When Moses was first brought into Mr. Sewell's study, and realized he was all alone with the door closed, his heart raced so much that he thought the kind man could hear it. He knew exactly what he wanted to say, but he felt that familiar hesitation and nervous discomfort that always comes with asking any important question.

"I thought it proper," he began, "that I should call and express my sense of obligation to you, sir, for all the kindness you showed me when a boy. I'm afraid in those thoughtless days I did not seem to appreciate it so much as I do now."

"I thought it was right," he said, "that I should come by and express my gratitude to you, sir, for all the kindness you showed me when I was a kid. I'm afraid that in those careless days I didn’t appreciate it as much as I do now."

As Moses said this, the color rose in his cheeks, and his fine eyes grew moist with a sort of subdued feeling that made his face for the moment more than usually beautiful.

As Moses said this, a flush appeared on his cheeks, and his striking eyes became misty with a sense of restrained emotion that made his face, for a moment, exceptionally beautiful.

Mr. Sewell looked at him with an expression of peculiar interest, which seemed to have something almost of pain in it, and answered with a degree of feeling more than he commonly showed,—

Mr. Sewell looked at him with a look of unusual interest, which seemed to carry a hint of pain, and responded with a level of emotion greater than he usually displayed,—

"It has been a pleasure to me to do anything I could for you, my young friend. I only wish it could have been more. I congratulate you on your present prospects in life. You have perfect health; you have energy and enterprise; you are courageous and self-reliant, and, I trust, your habits are pure and virtuous. It only remains that you add to all this that fear of the Lord which is the beginning of wisdom."

"It has been a pleasure for me to do whatever I could for you, my young friend. I just wish I could have done more. I want to congratulate you on your current prospects in life. You have great health; you have energy and ambition; you are brave and independent, and I hope your habits are good and virtuous. All that’s left is for you to add to all this that respect for the Lord, which is the beginning of wisdom."

Moses bowed his head respectfully, and then sat silent a moment, as if he were looking through some cloud where he vainly tried to discover objects.

Moses bowed his head respectfully and sat in silence for a moment, as if he were peering through a fog, trying unsuccessfully to identify shapes.

Mr. Sewell continued, gravely,—

Mr. Sewell continued, seriously,—

"You have the greatest reason to bless the kind Providence which has cast your lot in such a family, in such a[Pg 241] community. I have had some means in my youth of comparing other parts of the country with our New England, and it is my opinion that a young man could not ask a better introduction into life than the wholesome nurture of a Christian family in our favored land."

"You have every reason to be grateful to the kind Providence that has placed you in such a family and such a[Pg 241] community. I had some opportunities in my youth to compare other parts of the country with New England, and I believe that a young man couldn't ask for a better start in life than the nurturing environment of a Christian family in our blessed land."

"Mr. Sewell," said Moses, raising his head, and suddenly looking him straight in the eyes, "do you know anything of my family?"

"Mr. Sewell," Moses said, lifting his head and suddenly looking him straight in the eyes, "do you know anything about my family?"

The question was so point-blank and sudden, that for a moment Mr. Sewell made a sort of motion as if he dodged a pistol-shot, and then his face assumed an expression of grave thoughtfulness, while Moses drew a long breath. It was out,—the question had been asked.

The question was so direct and unexpected that for a moment Mr. Sewell flinched as if he were dodging a bullet, and then his face took on a look of serious contemplation, while Moses let out a long breath. It was out— the question had been asked.

"My son," replied Mr. Sewell, "it has always been my intention, when you had arrived at years of discretion, to make you acquainted with all that I know or suspect in regard to your life. I trust that when I tell you all I do know, you will see that I have acted for the best in the matter. It has been my study and my prayer to do so."

"My son," Mr. Sewell replied, "I’ve always planned to share everything I know or suspect about your life once you were old enough to understand. I hope that when I share all this with you, you'll realize I had your best interests at heart. I've made it my goal and my prayer to do just that."

Mr. Sewell then rose, and unlocking the cabinet, of which we have before made mention, in his apartment, drew forth a very yellow and time-worn package of papers, which he untied. From these he selected one which enveloped an old-fashioned miniature case.

Mr. Sewell then stood up, unlocked the cabinet we mentioned earlier in his room, and pulled out a very yellowed and worn package of papers that he untied. He sorted through them and picked one that contained an old-fashioned miniature case.

"I am going to show you," he said, "what only you and my God know that I possess. I have not looked at it now for ten years, but I have no doubt that it is the likeness of your mother."

"I’m going to show you," he said, "what only you and my God know I have. I haven’t looked at it in ten years, but I’m sure it’s a likeness of your mother."

Moses took it in his hand, and for a few moments there came a mist over his eyes,—he could not see clearly. He walked to the window as if needing a clearer light.

Moses picked it up and, for a moment, his vision blurred—he couldn't see clearly. He walked over to the window as if he needed better light.

What he saw was a painting of a beautiful young girl, with large melancholy eyes, and a clustering abundance of black, curly hair. The face was of a beautiful, clear oval, with that warm brunette tint in which the Italian painters[Pg 242] delight. The black eyebrows were strongly and clearly defined, and there was in the face an indescribable expression of childish innocence and shyness, mingled with a kind of confiding frankness, that gave the picture the charm which sometimes fixes itself in faces for which we involuntarily make a history. She was represented as simply attired in a white muslin, made low in the neck, and the hands and arms were singularly beautiful. The picture, as Moses looked at it, seemed to stand smiling at him with a childish grace,—a tender, ignorant innocence which affected him deeply.

What he saw was a painting of a beautiful young girl, with large sad eyes and a full head of black, curly hair. Her face had a lovely, clear oval shape, featuring that warm brunette tone that Italian painters love. The black eyebrows were bold and well-defined, and her face held an indescribable mix of childlike innocence and shyness, paired with a trusting openness that gave the artwork a charm that often endears us to faces we can't help but imagine stories for. She was simply dressed in a white muslin gown that was low-cut at the neck, and her hands and arms were exceptionally lovely. As Moses looked at it, the painting seemed to smile at him with a childlike grace—an innocent, tender naivety that moved him deeply.

"My young friend," said Mr. Sewell, "I have written all that I know of the original of this picture, and the reasons I have for thinking her your mother.

"My young friend," Mr. Sewell said, "I've written everything I know about the original of this picture and why I believe she is your mother."

"You will find it all in this paper, which, if I had been providentially removed, was to have been given you in your twenty-first year. You will see in the delicate nature of the narrative that it could not properly have been imparted to you till you had arrived at years of understanding. I trust when you know all that you will be satisfied with the course I have pursued. You will read it at your leisure, and after reading I shall be happy to see you again."

"You'll find everything in this paper, which, if I hadn't been unexpectedly taken away, was meant to be given to you on your twenty-first birthday. You'll notice that the sensitive nature of the story meant it should only have been shared with you when you were more mature. I hope that when you know everything, you’ll feel good about the path I've taken. You can read it whenever you want, and after you’ve read it, I’d be glad to meet up with you again."

Moses took the package, and after exchanging salutations with Mr. Sewell, hastily left the house and sought his boat.

Moses took the package, and after saying hello to Mr. Sewell, quickly left the house and went to look for his boat.

When one has suddenly come into possession of a letter or paper in which is known to be hidden the solution of some long-pondered secret, of the decision of fate with regard to some long-cherished desire, who has not been conscious of a sort of pain,—an unwillingness at once to know what is therein? We turn the letter again and again, we lay it by and return to it, and defer from moment to moment the opening of it. So Moses did not sit down in the first retired spot to ponder the paper. He put[Pg 243] it in the breast pocket of his coat, and then, taking up his oars, rowed across the bay. He did not land at the house, but passed around the south point of the Island, and rowed up the other side to seek a solitary retreat in the rocks, which had always been a favorite with him in his early days.

When someone suddenly finds a letter or document that contains the answer to a long-held secret or the fate of a cherished desire, who hasn’t felt a twinge of pain or reluctance to discover its contents? We turn the letter over and over, set it aside only to pick it up again, putting off the moment of opening it. Similarly, Moses didn’t immediately sit down in a quiet spot to think about the paper. He tucked it into the breast pocket of his coat, then picked up his oars and rowed across the bay. He didn’t go to the house but circled around the southern point of the Island, rowing up the other side to find a quiet spot among the rocks that had always been a favorite of his since childhood.

The shores of the Island, as we have said, are a precipitous wall of rock, whose long, ribbed ledges extend far out into the sea. At high tide these ledges are covered with the smooth blue sea quite up to the precipitous shore. There was a place, however, where the rocky shore shelved over, forming between two ledges a sort of grotto, whose smooth floor of shells and many-colored pebbles was never wet by the rising tide. It had been the delight of Moses when a boy, to come here and watch the gradual rise of the tide till the grotto was entirely cut off from all approach, and then to look out in a sort of hermit-like security over the open ocean that stretched before him. Many an hour he had sat there and dreamed of all the possible fortunes that might be found for him when he should launch away into that blue smiling futurity.

The island's shores, as we've mentioned, are steep cliffs of rock, with long, ridged ledges that stretch far into the sea. At high tide, these ledges are covered by the smooth blue water right up to the steep shore. However, there was a spot where the rocky shore sloped down, creating a sort of grotto between two ledges. Its smooth floor of shells and colorful pebbles was never touched by the rising tide. As a boy, Moses loved to come here and watch the tide gradually rise until the grotto was completely isolated, and then look out in a sort of hermit-like peace over the vast ocean before him. He spent many hours sitting there, dreaming about all the possible adventures awaiting him when he finally set off into that bright blue future.

It was now about half-tide, and Moses left his boat and made his way over the ledge of rocks toward his retreat. They were all shaggy and slippery with yellow seaweeds, with here and there among them wide crystal pools, where purple and lilac and green mosses unfolded their delicate threads, and thousands of curious little shell-fish were tranquilly pursuing their quiet life. The rocks where the pellucid water lay were in some places crusted with barnacles, which were opening and shutting the little white scaly doors of their tiny houses, and drawing in and out those delicate pink plumes which seem to be their nerves of enjoyment. Moses and Mara had rambled and played here many hours of their childhood, amusing themselves with catching crabs and young lobsters and various little fish for[Pg 244] these rocky aquariums, and then studying at their leisure their various ways. Now he had come hither a man, to learn the secret of his life.

It was now around half-tide, and Moses left his boat and made his way over the rocky ledge toward his hideaway. The rocks were all shaggy and slippery with yellow seaweed, with wide crystal pools scattered among them, where purple, lilac, and green mosses extended their delicate threads, and thousands of curious little shellfish were peacefully going about their lives. The rocks with the clear water were in some places covered with barnacles, which were opening and closing the little white scaly doors of their tiny homes and retracting those delicate pink plumes that seemed to be their nerves of enjoyment. Moses and Mara had spent many hours of their childhood here, having fun catching crabs, young lobsters, and various small fish for[Pg 244] these rocky aquariums, and then casually observing their different behaviors. Now he had come here as a man, to discover the secret of his life.

Moses stretched himself down on the clean pebbly shore of the grotto, and drew forth Mr. Sewell's letter.

Moses lay down on the clean, pebbly shore of the grotto and pulled out Mr. Sewell's letter.


CHAPTER XXVI

DOLORES

[Pg 245]Mr. Sewell's letter ran as follows:—

Mr. Sewell's letter stated this:—

My Dear Young Friend,—It has always been my intention when you arrived at years of maturity to acquaint you with some circumstances which have given me reason to conjecture your true parentage, and to let you know what steps I have taken to satisfy my own mind in relation to these conjectures. In order to do this, it will be necessary for me to go back to the earlier years of my life, and give you the history of some incidents which are known to none of my most intimate friends. I trust I may rely on your honor that they will ever remain as secrets with you.

Dear Young Friend,—I’ve always planned to share some details with you when you reached adulthood that have led me to question your true parentage, and to explain what I’ve done to find clarity about these thoughts. To do this, I need to revisit the earlier years of my life and recount some events that none of my closest friends know about. I trust that I can count on your honor to keep these secrets safe with you.

I graduated from Harvard University in ——. At the time I was suffering somewhat from an affection of the lungs, which occasioned great alarm to my mother, many of whose family had died of consumption. In order to allay her uneasiness, and also for the purpose of raising funds for the pursuit of my professional studies, I accepted a position as tutor in the family of a wealthy gentleman at St. Augustine, in Florida.

I graduated from Harvard University in ——. At the time, I was dealing with some lung issues, which really worried my mom, especially since many of her relatives had died of tuberculosis. To ease her worries and to help raise money for my professional studies, I took a job as a tutor for a wealthy family in St. Augustine, Florida.

I cannot do justice to myself,—to the motives which actuated me in the events which took place in this family, without speaking with the most undisguised freedom of the character of all the parties with whom I was connected.

I can't truly represent myself—or the reasons behind my actions in the events that unfolded in this family—without openly discussing the character of everyone involved with me.

Don José Mendoza was a Spanish gentleman of large property, who had emigrated from the Spanish West Indies to Florida, bringing with him an only daughter, who had[Pg 246] been left an orphan by the death of her mother at a very early age. He brought to this country a large number of slaves;—and shortly after his arrival, married an American lady: a widow with three children. By her he had four other children. And thus it will appear that the family was made up of such a variety of elements as only the most judicious care could harmonize. But the character of the father and mother was such that judicious care was a thing not to be expected of either.

Don José Mendoza was a wealthy Spanish gentleman who moved from the Spanish West Indies to Florida, bringing along his only daughter, who became an orphan after her mother died when she was very young. He also brought with him a significant number of slaves; soon after settling, he married an American woman, a widow with three kids. Together, they had four more children. This created a family dynamic filled with diverse elements that only the best guidance could balance. However, the personalities of both parents were such that it was unrealistic to expect that kind of guidance from either of them.

Don José was extremely ignorant and proud, and had lived a life of the grossest dissipation. Habits of absolute authority in the midst of a community of a very low moral standard had produced in him all the worst vices of despots. He was cruel, overbearing, and dreadfully passionate. His wife was a woman who had pretensions to beauty, and at times could make herself agreeable, and even fascinating, but she was possessed of a temper quite as violent and ungoverned as his own.

Don José was incredibly ignorant and arrogant, and he had lived a life of extreme indulgence. His habits of complete authority in a community with very low moral standards had cultivated all the worst traits of a tyrant in him. He was cruel, domineering, and incredibly passionate. His wife was a woman who fancied herself beautiful, and sometimes she could be charming and even captivating, but she had a temper that was just as violent and uncontrollable as his.

Imagine now two classes of slaves, the one belonging to the mistress, and the other brought into the country by the master, and each animated by a party spirit and jealousy;—imagine children of different marriages, inheriting from their parents violent tempers and stubborn wills, flattered and fawned on by slaves, and alternately petted or stormed at, now by this parent and now by that, and you will have some idea of the task which I undertook in being tutor in this family.

Imagine now two groups of slaves, one belonging to the mistress and the other brought into the country by the master, each fueled by rivalry and jealousy;—picture children from different marriages, inheriting their parents' volatile tempers and stubborn wills, being flattered and catered to by the slaves, and alternately pampered or berated by one parent and then the other, and you’ll get a sense of the challenge I faced as a tutor in this family.

I was young and fearless in those days, as you are now, and the difficulties of the position, instead of exciting apprehension, only awakened the spirit of enterprise and adventure.

I was young and fearless back then, just like you are now, and the challenges of the situation, instead of making me anxious, only sparked my sense of adventure and willingness to take risks.

The whole arrangements of the household, to me fresh from the simplicity and order of New England, had a singular and wild sort of novelty which was attractive rather than otherwise. I was well recommended in the family[Pg 247] by an influential and wealthy gentleman of Boston, who represented my family, as indeed it was, as among the oldest and most respectable of Boston, and spoke in such terms of me, personally, as I should not have ventured to use in relation to myself. When I arrived, I found that two or three tutors, who had endeavored to bear rule in this tempestuous family, had thrown up the command after a short trial, and that the parents felt some little apprehension of not being able to secure the services of another,—a circumstance which I did not fail to improve in making my preliminary arrangements. I assumed an air of grave hauteur, was very exacting in all my requisitions and stipulations, and would give no promise of doing more than to give the situation a temporary trial. I put on an air of supreme indifference as to my continuance, and acted in fact rather on the assumption that I should confer a favor by remaining.

The whole setup of the household, to me fresh from the simplicity and order of New England, had a peculiar and wild kind of novelty that was more appealing than not. I came highly recommended to the family[Pg 247] by a powerful and wealthy gentleman from Boston, who portrayed my family, as it truly was, as one of the oldest and most respectable in Boston, and spoke of me in such flattering terms that I wouldn’t have dared to use about myself. When I arrived, I discovered that two or three tutors who had tried to take charge of this chaotic family had quit after a short stint, and the parents were somewhat worried about not being able to find another tutor—something I made sure to leverage when making my initial arrangements. I took on an air of serious superiority, was very demanding with all my requests and conditions, and wouldn’t guarantee I’d do more than give the position a temporary try. I acted completely indifferent about whether I stayed or not and essentially operated on the assumption that I would be doing them a favor by remaining.

In this way I succeeded in obtaining at the outset a position of more respect and deference than had been enjoyed by any of my predecessors. I had a fine apartment, a servant exclusively devoted to me, a horse for riding, and saw myself treated among the servants as a person of consideration and distinction.

In this way, I managed to secure a position of greater respect and admiration than any of my predecessors had experienced. I had a nice apartment, a servant dedicated solely to me, a horse for riding, and I was treated among the staff as someone important and distinguished.

Don José and his wife both had in fact a very strong desire to retain my services, when after the trial of a week or two, it was found that I really could make their discordant and turbulent children to some extent obedient and studious during certain portions of the day; and in fact I soon acquired in the whole family that ascendancy which a well-bred person who respects himself, and can keep his temper, must have over passionate and undisciplined natures.

Don José and his wife really wanted to keep me on after a week or two of testing, when they saw that I could make their difficult and unruly kids somewhat obedient and focused for certain parts of the day. I quickly gained the kind of influence within the family that someone well-mannered and self-respecting, who can stay calm, should have over passionate and undisciplined personalities.

I became the receptacle of the complaints of all, and a sort of confidential adviser. Don José imparted to me with more frankness than good taste his chagrins with[Pg 248] regard to his wife's indolence, ill-temper, and bad management, and his wife in turn omitted no opportunity to vent complaints against her husband for similar reasons. I endeavored, to the best of my ability, to act a friendly part by both. It never was in my nature to see anything that needed to be done without trying to do it, and it was impossible to work at all without becoming so interested in my work as to do far more than I had agreed to do. I assisted Don José about many of his affairs; brought his neglected accounts into order; and suggested from time to time arrangements which relieved the difficulties which had been brought on by disorder and neglect. In fact, I became, as he said, quite a necessary of life to him.

I became the person everyone turned to for their complaints and a sort of trusted advisor. Don José shared with me, sometimes a bit too openly, his frustrations about his wife's laziness, moodiness, and poor management. His wife, in turn, never missed a chance to air her grievances about her husband for similar reasons. I tried my best to be supportive of both. It’s just not in my nature to ignore something that needs to be addressed, and once I started working on something, I usually became so invested that I ended up doing more than I originally promised. I helped Don José with many of his issues; I organized his neglected accounts and occasionally suggested solutions that eased the problems caused by disarray and neglect. Essentially, I became, as he put it, quite essential to his life.

In regard to the children, I had a more difficult task. The children of Don José by his present wife had been systematically stimulated by the negroes into a chronic habit of dislike and jealousy toward her children by a former husband. On the slightest pretext, they were constantly running to their father with complaints; and as the mother warmly espoused the cause of her first children, criminations and recriminations often convulsed the whole family.

In terms of the kids, I had a tougher job. Don José's children with his current wife had been constantly encouraged by the Black servants to have a lasting dislike and jealousy toward her kids from her previous marriage. They would always rush to their dad with any small complaint, and since the mother was very protective of her first children, arguments and blame games often tore the whole family apart.

In ill-regulated families in that region, the care of the children is from the first in the hands of half-barbarized negroes, whose power of moulding and assimilating childish minds is peculiar, so that the teacher has to contend constantly with a savage element in the children which seems to have been drawn in with the mother's milk. It is, in a modified way, something the same result as if the child had formed its manners in Dahomey or on the coast of Guinea. In the fierce quarrels which were carried on between the children of this family, I had frequent occasion to observe this strange, savage element, which sometimes led to expressions and actions which would seem incredible in civilized society.[Pg 249]

In poorly managed families in that area, the care of the children is initially in the hands of semi-barbaric African Americans, whose ability to shape and influence young minds is unique. This means that teachers constantly have to deal with a wild side in the children that seems to have been absorbed with their mother's milk. It's somewhat similar to if the child had learned their manners in Dahomey or along the coast of Guinea. During the intense arguments among the children in this family, I often noticed this odd, wild element, which sometimes resulted in behaviors and reactions that would seem unbelievable in a more civilized society.[Pg 249]

The three children by Madame Mendoza's former husband were two girls of sixteen and eighteen and a boy of fourteen. The four children of the second marriage consisted of three boys and a daughter,—the eldest being not more than thirteen.

The three kids from Madame Mendoza's ex-husband were two girls, aged sixteen and eighteen, and a boy who was fourteen. The four children from the second marriage included three boys and a girl—the oldest was only thirteen.

The natural capacity of all the children was good, although, from self-will and indolence, they had grown up in a degree of ignorance which could not have been tolerated except in a family living an isolated plantation life in the midst of barbarized dependents. Savage and untaught and passionate as they were, the work of teaching them was not without its interest to me. A power of control was with me a natural gift; and then that command of temper which is the common attribute of well-trained persons in the Northern states, was something so singular in this family as to invest its possessor with a certain awe; and my calm, energetic voice, and determined manner, often acted as a charm on their stormy natures.

The natural abilities of all the children were good, but due to their stubbornness and laziness, they had grown up in a level of ignorance that wouldn’t be accepted except in a family living an isolated plantation life surrounded by less civilized dependents. Wild and uneducated and passionate as they were, teaching them was still interesting for me. I had a natural gift for control, and my ability to stay calm, which is common among well-trained people in the Northern states, was so unusual in this family that it made me seem kind of impressive; my calm, strong voice and determined attitude often worked like magic on their fiery personalities.

But there was one member of the family of whom I have not yet spoken,—and yet all this letter is about her,—the daughter of Don José by his first marriage. Poor Dolores! poor child! God grant she may have entered into his rest!

But there was one member of the family I haven't mentioned yet—and this whole letter is about her—the daughter of Don José from his first marriage. Poor Dolores! poor child! I hope she has found peace!

I need not describe her. You have seen her picture. And in the wild, rude, discordant family, she always reminded me of the words, "a lily among thorns." She was in her nature unlike all the rest, and, I may say, unlike any one I ever saw. She seemed to live a lonely kind of life in this disorderly household, often marked out as the object of the spites and petty tyrannies of both parties. She was regarded with bitter hatred and jealousy by Madame Mendoza, who was sure to visit her with unsparing bitterness and cruelty after the occasional demonstrations of fondness she received from her father. Her exquisite beauty and the gentle softness of her manners made her[Pg 250] such a contrast to her sisters as constantly excited their ill-will. Unlike them all, she was fastidiously neat in her personal habits, and orderly in all the little arrangements of life.

I don’t need to describe her. You’ve seen her picture. In that wild, chaotic family, she always reminded me of the saying, "a lily among thorns." She was different from everyone else, and honestly, different from anyone I had ever seen. She seemed to live a solitary kind of life in this disordered household, often being the target of the spiteful behaviors and petty control from both sides. Madame Mendoza looked at her with bitter hatred and jealousy, always ready to unleash her cruel remarks after the rare moments of affection she received from her father. Her exquisite beauty and gentle softness made her stand out in sharp contrast to her sisters, which only fueled their resentment. Unlike them, she was obsessively neat in her personal habits and organized in all the small details of life.

She seemed to me in this family to be like some shy, beautiful pet creature in the hands of rude, unappreciated owners, hunted from quarter to quarter, and finding rest only by stealth. Yet she seemed to have no perception of the harshness and cruelty with which she was treated. She had grown up with it; it was the habit of her life to study peaceable methods of averting or avoiding the various inconveniences and annoyances of her lot, and secure to herself a little quiet.

She felt to me like a shy, beautiful pet in the hands of rude, unappreciative owners, chased from place to place, only finding rest when no one was watching. Yet she didn’t seem to realize the harshness and cruelty of her treatment. She had grown up with it; it was her routine to find peaceful ways to dodge or avoid the different inconveniences and annoyances in her life, securing herself a bit of quiet.

It not unfrequently happened, amid the cabals and storms which shook the family, that one party or the other took up and patronized Dolores for a while, more, as it would appear, out of hatred for the other than any real love to her. At such times it was really affecting to see with what warmth the poor child would receive these equivocal demonstrations of good-will—the nearest approaches to affection which she had ever known—and the bitterness with which she would mourn when they were capriciously withdrawn again. With a heart full of affection, she reminded me of some delicate, climbing plant trying vainly to ascend the slippery side of an inhospitable wall, and throwing its neglected tendrils around every weed for support.

It often happened, amidst the drama and conflicts that shook the family, that one side or the other would take up and support Dolores for a while, seemingly more out of spite for the other than any real love for her. During those times, it was really touching to see how warmly the poor child received these ambiguous gestures of goodwill—the closest thing to affection she had ever experienced—and the bitterness she felt when they were whimsically taken away again. With a heart full of love, she reminded me of a delicate climbing plant trying unsuccessfully to scale the slippery side of a harsh wall, wrapping its neglected tendrils around every weed for support.

Her only fast, unfailing friend was her old negro nurse, or Mammy, as the children called her. This old creature, with the cunning and subtlety which had grown up from years of servitude, watched and waited upon the interests of her little mistress, and contrived to carry many points for her in the confused household. Her young mistress was her one thought and purpose in living. She would have gone through fire and water to serve her; and this[Pg 251] faithful, devoted heart, blind and ignorant though it were, was the only unfailing refuge and solace of the poor hunted child.

Her only loyal, dependable friend was her old black nurse, or Mammy, as the kids called her. This elderly woman, with the cleverness and subtlety that came from years of service, looked out for the interests of her little mistress and managed to navigate many challenges in the chaotic household. Her young mistress was her sole focus and reason for living. She would have gone through anything to help her; and this[Pg 251] faithful, devoted heart, though blind and unaware, was the only constant comfort and refuge for the poor, hunted child.

Dolores, of course, became my pupil among the rest. Like the others, she had suffered by the neglect and interruptions in the education of the family, but she was intelligent and docile, and learned with a surprising rapidity. It was not astonishing that she should soon have formed an enthusiastic attachment to me, as I was the only intelligent, cultivated person she had ever seen, and treated her with unvarying consideration and delicacy. The poor thing had been so accustomed to barbarous words and manners that simple politeness and the usages of good society seemed to her cause for the most boundless gratitude.

Dolores, of course, became my student among the others. Like the rest, she had suffered from the neglect and interruptions in the family's education, but she was smart and eager to learn, picking things up surprisingly quickly. It wasn’t surprising that she soon developed a deep affection for me, as I was the only intelligent, cultured person she had ever encountered and treated her with consistent kindness and respect. The poor girl had been so used to harsh words and behavior that basic politeness and the norms of decent society felt like a huge reason for gratitude to her.

It is due to myself, in view of what follows, to say that I was from the first aware of the very obvious danger which lay in my path in finding myself brought into close and daily relations with a young creature so confiding, so attractive, and so singularly circumstanced. I knew that it would be in the highest degree dishonorable to make the slightest advances toward gaining from her that kind of affection which might interfere with her happiness in such future relations as her father might arrange for her. According to the European fashion, I know that Dolores was in her father's hands, to be disposed of for life according to his pleasure, as absolutely as if she had been one of his slaves. I had every reason to think that his plans on this subject were matured, and only waited for a little more teaching and training on my part, and her fuller development in womanhood, to be announced to her.

I feel it's important to acknowledge that I was aware from the start of the obvious risk involved in getting close and interacting daily with a young woman who was so trusting, so appealing, and in such unique circumstances. I realized it would be completely dishonorable to make any moves towards earning her affection that could affect her happiness in the future arrangements her father might make for her. Following the European way, I understood that Dolores was entirely under her father's control, to be treated for life according to his wishes, just as if she were his property. I had every reason to believe that his plans for her were well established and just awaited a bit more guidance and training from me, along with her further growth into adulthood, before being revealed to her.

In looking back over the past, therefore, I have not to reproach myself with any dishonest and dishonorable breach of trust; for I was from the first upon my guard, and so much so that even the jealousy my other scholars never accused me of partiality. I was not in the habit of giving[Pg 252] very warm praise, and was in my general management anxious rather to be just than conciliatory, knowing that with the kind of spirits I had to deal with, firmness and justice went farther than anything else. If I approved Dolores oftener than the rest, it was seen to be because she never failed in a duty; if I spent more time with her lessons, it was because her enthusiasm for study led her to learn longer ones and study more things; but I am sure there was never a look or a word toward her that went beyond the proprieties of my position.

Looking back on the past, I have no regrets about any dishonest or disloyal breach of trust. From the beginning, I was careful, and my other students never accused me of favoritism. I didn’t usually give out a lot of praise and aimed to be fair rather than overly accommodating, knowing that with the type of personalities I was working with, being firm and just was more effective than anything else. If I approved of Dolores more often than the others, it was because she consistently fulfilled her responsibilities. If I spent more time on her lessons, it was because her enthusiasm for studying made her take on longer assignments and cover more topics. But I’m certain there was never any look or word from me toward her that crossed the boundaries of my role.

But yet I could not so well guard my heart. I was young and full of feeling. She was beautiful; and more than that, there was something in her Spanish nature at once so warm and simple, so artless and yet so unconsciously poetic, that her presence was a continual charm. How well I remember her now,—all her little ways,—the movements of her pretty little hands,—the expression of her changeful face as she recited to me,—the grave, rapt earnestness with which she listened to all my instructions!

But I couldn't really protect my heart. I was young and full of emotions. She was beautiful; and beyond that, there was something in her Spanish nature that was both warm and straightforward, so genuine yet unconsciously poetic, that just being around her was enchanting. I remember her so clearly now—all her little habits—the way she moved her delicate hands—the expression on her ever-changing face when she recited to me—the serious, absorbed way she listened to all my advice!

I had not been with her many weeks before I felt conscious that it was her presence that charmed the whole house, and made the otherwise perplexing and distasteful details of my situation agreeable. I had a dim perception that this growing passion was a dangerous thing for myself; but was it a reason, I asked, why I should relinquish a position in which I felt that I was useful, and when I could do for this lovely child what no one else could do? I call her a child,—she always impressed me as such,—though she was in her sixteenth year and had the early womanly development of Southern climates. She seemed to me like something frail and precious, needing to be guarded and cared for; and when reason told me that I risked my own happiness in holding my position, love argued on the other hand that I was her only friend, and[Pg 253] that I should be willing to risk something myself for the sake of protecting and shielding her. For there was no doubt that my presence in the family was a restraint upon the passions which formerly vented themselves so recklessly on her, and established a sort of order in which she found more peace than she had ever known before.

I hadn't been with her for many weeks before I realized that it was her presence that brought charm to the entire house and made the otherwise confusing and unpleasant details of my situation bearable. I had a vague sense that this growing passion was dangerous for me; but I wondered if that was a reason to give up a position where I felt I was useful, especially when I could do for this beautiful girl what no one else could do. I call her a girl—she always seemed like one to me—though she was sixteen and had the early signs of womanhood typical of Southern climates. To me, she seemed delicate and precious, needing protection and care; and even when reason told me that I was risking my own happiness by staying in my position, love argued that I was her only friend, and that I should be willing to risk something for the sake of protecting and shielding her. There was no doubt that my presence in the family kept the passions that had once been so recklessly unleashed on her in check, creating a sort of order in which she found more peace than she had ever experienced before.

For a long time in our intercourse I was in the habit of looking on myself as the only party in danger. It did not occur to me that this heart, so beautiful and so lonely, might, in the want of all natural and appropriate objects of attachment, fasten itself on me unsolicited, from the mere necessity of loving. She seemed to me so much too beautiful, too perfect, to belong to a lot in life like mine, that I could not suppose it possible this could occur without the most blameworthy solicitation on my part; and it is the saddest and most affecting proof to me how this poor child had been starved for sympathy and love, that she should have repaid such cold services as mine with such an entire devotion. At first her feelings were expressed openly toward me, with the dutiful air of a good child. She placed flowers on my desk in the morning, and made quaint little nosegays in the Spanish fashion, which she gave me, and busied her leisure with various ingenious little knick-knacks of fancy work, which she brought me. I treated them all as the offerings of a child while with her, but I kept them sacredly in my own room. To tell the truth, I have some of the poor little things now.

For a long time in our interactions, I thought I was the only one at risk. It didn’t occur to me that this heart, so beautiful and so lonely, might attach itself to me without asking, simply out of the need to love. She seemed so much more beautiful and perfect to belong to a life like mine that I couldn’t imagine it happening without my being at fault. The saddest and most touching proof to me of how this poor child had been deprived of love and sympathy is that she responded to my coldness with such complete devotion. At first, she expressed her feelings toward me openly, with the eager demeanor of a good child. She placed flowers on my desk in the mornings and made cute little bouquets in the Spanish style that she gave me, and she filled her free time with various clever little crafts that she brought me. I treated all of it like the gifts from a child while I was with her, but I kept them carefully in my own room. To be honest, I still have some of those poor little things now.

But after a while I could not help seeing how she loved me; and then I felt as if I ought to go; but how could I? The pain to myself I could have borne; but how could I leave her to all the misery of her bleak, ungenial position? She, poor thing, was so unconscious of what I knew,—for I was made clear-sighted by love. I tried the more strictly to keep to the path I had marked out for myself, but I fear I did not always do it; in fact, many things[Pg 254] seemed to conspire to throw us together. The sisters, who were sometimes invited out to visit on neighboring estates, were glad enough to dispense with the presence and attractions of Dolores, and so she was frequently left at home to study with me in their absence. As to Don José, although he always treated me with civility, yet he had such an ingrained and deep-rooted idea of his own superiority of position, that I suppose he would as soon have imagined the possibility of his daughter's falling in love with one of his horses. I was a great convenience to him. I had a knack of governing and carrying points in his family that it had always troubled and fatigued him to endeavor to arrange,—and that was all. So that my intercourse with Dolores was as free and unwatched, and gave me as many opportunities of enjoying her undisturbed society, as heart could desire.

But after a while, I couldn’t help but see how much she loved me; and then I felt like I should leave, but how could I? I could have dealt with the pain for myself, but how could I leave her with all the misery of her lonely, harsh situation? She, poor thing, was so unaware of what I knew—because love had made me see clearly. I tried harder to stick to the path I had set for myself, but I’m afraid I didn’t always manage it; in fact, many things[Pg 254] seemed to work against that and bring us together. The sisters, who sometimes went out to visit other estates, were more than happy to do without Dolores, leaving her at home to study with me while they were gone. As for Don José, even though he always treated me politely, he held such a deeply rooted belief in his own superiority that I guess he would have found it just as likely for his daughter to fall in love with one of his horses. I was quite useful to him. I had a knack for navigating and resolving issues in his household that always troubled and exhausted him—nothing more than that. So, my time with Dolores was as free and unmonitored as I could wish, giving me plenty of chances to enjoy her company peacefully.

At last came the crisis, however. After breakfast one morning, Don José called Dolores into his library and announced to her that he had concluded for her a treaty of marriage, and expected her husband to arrive in a few days. He expected that this news would be received by her with the glee with which a young girl hears of a new dress or of a ball-ticket, and was quite confounded at the grave and mournful silence in which she received it. She said no word, made no opposition, but went out from the room and shut herself up in her own apartment, and spent the day in tears and sobs.

At last, the crisis arrived. One morning after breakfast, Don José called Dolores into his library and told her that he had arranged a marriage for her and that her fiancé would be arriving in a few days. He expected her to react with the same excitement a young girl shows when she hears about a new dress or a ball ticket, but he was completely taken aback by the serious and sorrowful silence with which she received the news. She didn’t say a word, didn’t put up any resistance, but simply left the room and locked herself in her own space, spending the day crying and sobbing.

Don José, who had rather a greater regard for Dolores than for any creature living, and who had confidently expected to give great delight by the news he had imparted, was quite confounded by this turn of things. If there had been one word of either expostulation or argument, he would have blazed and stormed in a fury of passion; but as it was, this broken-hearted submission, though vexatious, was perplexing. He sent for me, and opened his[Pg 255] mind, and begged me to talk with Dolores and show her the advantages of the alliance, which the poor foolish child, he said, did not seem to comprehend. The man was immensely rich, and had a splendid estate in Cuba. It was a most desirable thing.

Don José, who cared for Dolores more than anyone else, and who had really expected to bring her joy with the news he had shared, was completely taken aback by how things turned out. If there had been even a single word of protest or debate, he would have exploded in a fit of rage; but as it was, her heartbroken acceptance, though frustrating, was confusing. He called for me, opened up about his feelings, and asked me to talk to Dolores and explain the benefits of the partnership, which he claimed the poor naive girl didn’t seem to understand. The man was incredibly wealthy and owned a magnificent estate in Cuba. It was a very appealing opportunity.

I ventured to inquire whether his person and manners were such as would be pleasing to a young girl, and could gather only that he was a man of about fifty, who had been most of his life in the military service, and was now desirous of making an establishment for the repose of his latter days, at the head of which he would place a handsome and tractable woman, and do well by her.

I took the chance to ask if his looks and behavior would be attractive to a young woman, and all I could find out was that he was a man around fifty, who had spent most of his life in the military, and now wanted to set up a comfortable life for his later years, ideally with a pretty and agreeable woman by his side, and treat her well.

I represented that it would perhaps be safer to say no more on the subject until Dolores had seen him, and to this he agreed. Madame Mendoza was very zealous in the affair, for the sake of getting clear of the presence of Dolores in the family, and her sisters laughed at her for her dejected appearance. They only wished, they said, that so much luck might happen to them. For myself, I endeavored to take as little notice as possible of the affair, though what I felt may be conjectured. I knew,—I was perfectly certain,—that Dolores loved me as I loved her. I knew that she had one of those simple and unworldly natures which wealth and splendor could not satisfy, and whose life would lie entirely in her affections. Sometimes I violently debated with myself whether honor required me to sacrifice her happiness as well as my own, and I felt the strongest temptation to ask her to be my wife and fly with me to the Northern states, where I did not doubt my ability to make for her a humble and happy home.

I thought it might be safer to say nothing more about it until Dolores had met him, and he agreed with me. Madame Mendoza was really eager to resolve the situation to get Dolores out of the family, and her sisters teased her about her glum demeanor. They said they wished such good fortune would come their way. As for me, I tried to pay as little attention to the situation as possible, even though my feelings were obvious. I knew—without a doubt—that Dolores loved me just as I loved her. I understood that she had one of those simple, unpretentious natures that wealth and luxury could never fulfill, and that her life would revolve completely around her feelings. Sometimes, I wrestled with myself over whether honor meant I should sacrifice her happiness along with my own, and I felt a strong urge to ask her to marry me and run away to the Northern states, where I was confident I could create a humble yet happy home for her.

But the sense of honor is often stronger than all reasoning, and I felt that such a course would be the betrayal of a trust; and I determined at least to command myself till I should see the character of the man who was destined to be her husband.[Pg 256]

But the sense of honor is often stronger than any reasoning, and I felt that such an action would betray a trust; so I decided to keep myself in check until I could see the true character of the man who was meant to be her husband.[Pg 256]

Meanwhile the whole manner of Dolores was changed. She maintained a stony, gloomy silence, performed all her duties in a listless way, and occasionally, when I commented on anything in her lessons or exercises, would break into little flashes of petulance, most strange and unnatural in her. Sometimes I could feel that she was looking at me earnestly, but if I turned my eyes toward her, hers were instantly averted; but there was in her eyes a peculiar expression at times, such as I have seen in the eye of a hunted animal when it turned at bay,—a sort of desperate resistance,—which, taken in connection with her fragile form and lovely face, produced a mournful impression.

Meanwhile, Dolores had completely changed. She kept a cold, gloomy silence, did all her tasks in a dull manner, and occasionally, when I commented on something in her lessons or exercises, she would snap back with brief flashes of irritation, which was very strange and unnatural for her. Sometimes I felt like she was looking at me intently, but if I turned my gaze toward her, she would quickly look away; however, there was a peculiar look in her eyes at times, similar to what I've seen in a cornered animal—an expression of desperate resistance—which, combined with her delicate build and beautiful face, created a sad impression.

One morning I found Dolores sitting alone in the schoolroom, leaning her head on her arms. She had on her wrist a bracelet of peculiar workmanship, which she always wore,—the bracelet which was afterwards the means of confirming her identity. She sat thus some moments in silence, and then she raised her head and began turning this bracelet round and round upon her arm, while she looked fixedly before her. At last she spoke abruptly, and said,—

One morning, I found Dolores sitting alone in the classroom, resting her head on her arms. She had a uniquely crafted bracelet on her wrist that she always wore—the bracelet that later confirmed her identity. She sat there in silence for a few moments before raising her head and starting to spin the bracelet around her arm while staring straight ahead. Finally, she spoke suddenly and said,—

"Did I ever tell you that this was my mother's hair? It is my mother's hair,—and she was the only one that ever loved me; except poor old Mammy, nobody else loves me,—nobody ever will."

"Did I ever tell you that this was my mother's hair? It's my mother's hair—and she was the only one who ever loved me; except for poor old Mammy, nobody else loves me—nobody ever will."

"My dear Miss Dolores," I began.

"My dear Miss Dolores," I started.

"Don't call me dear," she said; "you don't care for me,—nobody does,—papa doesn't, and I always loved him; everybody in the house wants to get rid of me, whether I like to go or not. I have always tried to be good and do all you wanted, and I should think you might care for me a little, but you don't."

"Don’t call me ‘dear,’” she said. “You don’t care about me—nobody does. Dad doesn’t, and I always loved him. Everyone in this house wants to get rid of me, whether I want to leave or not. I’ve always tried to be good and do everything you wanted, and I would think you might care about me a little, but you don’t."

"Dolores," I said, "I do care for you more than I do for any one in the world; I love you more than my own soul."[Pg 257]

"Dolores," I said, "I care about you more than anyone else in the world; I love you more than my own soul."[Pg 257]

These were the very words I never meant to say, but somehow they seemed to utter themselves against my will. She looked at me for a moment as if she could not believe her hearing, and then the blood flushed her face, and she laid her head down on her arms.

These were the exact words I never intended to say, but somehow they came out on their own. She stared at me for a moment as if she couldn't believe her ears, and then her face turned red, and she rested her head on her arms.

At this moment Madame Mendoza and the other girls came into the room in a clamor of admiration about a diamond bracelet which had just arrived as a present from her future husband. It was a splendid thing, and had for its clasp his miniature, surrounded by the largest brilliants.

At that moment, Madame Mendoza and the other girls entered the room, buzzing with excitement over a diamond bracelet that had just arrived as a gift from her future husband. It was a stunning piece, featuring his miniature as the clasp, surrounded by the biggest diamonds.

The enthusiasm of the party even at this moment could not say anything in favor of the beauty of this miniature, which, though painted on ivory, gave the impression of a coarse-featured man, with a scar across one eye.

The excitement of the party, even now, couldn't say anything nice about the beauty of this miniature, which, although painted on ivory, made it seem like a rough-looking man with a scar over one eye.

"No matter for the beauty," said one of the girls, "so long as it is set with such diamonds."

"No matter about the beauty," said one of the girls, "as long as it’s paired with such diamonds."

"Come, Dolores," said another, giving her the present, "pull off that old hair bracelet, and try this on."

"Come on, Dolores," said another, handing her the gift, "take off that old hair bracelet and try this one on."

Dolores threw the diamond bracelet from her with a vehemence so unlike her gentle self as to startle every one.

Dolores flung the diamond bracelet away from her with such intensity, so unlike her usual gentle nature, that it shocked everyone.

"I shall not take off my mother's bracelet for a gift from a man I never knew," she said. "I hate diamonds. I wish those who like such things might have them."

"I won’t take off my mom's bracelet for a gift from a guy I don't even know," she said. "I can't stand diamonds. I wish those who like that stuff could have it."

"Was ever anything so odd?" said Madame Mendoza.

"Has anything ever been so strange?" said Madame Mendoza.

"Dolores always was odd," said another of the girls; "nobody ever could tell what she would like."

"Dolores has always been a bit strange," said another girl; "no one could ever figure out what she would like."


CHAPTER XXVII

HIDDEN THINGS

[Pg 258]The next day Señor Don Guzman de Cardona arrived, and the whole house was in a commotion of excitement. There was to be no school, and everything was bustle and confusion. I passed my time in my own room in reflecting severely upon myself for the imprudent words by which I had thrown one more difficulty in the way of this poor harassed child.

[Pg 258]The next day, Mr. Don Guzman de Cardona showed up, and the whole house was buzzing with excitement. School was canceled, and everything was chaotic. I spent my time in my room, thinking critically about myself for the careless words that had added yet another obstacle for this poor, stressed-out child.

Dolores this day seemed perfectly passive in the hands of her mother and sisters, who appeared disposed to show her great attention. She allowed them to array her in her most becoming dress, and made no objection to anything except removing the bracelet from her arm. "Nobody's gifts should take the place of her mother's," she said, and they were obliged to be content with her wearing of the diamond bracelet on the other arm.

Dolores today seemed completely passive with her mother and sisters, who seemed eager to give her a lot of attention. She let them dress her in her most flattering outfit and didn’t protest about anything except taking off the bracelet from her arm. "No one's gifts should replace her mother's," she said, so they had to settle for her wearing the diamond bracelet on her other arm.

Don Guzman was a large, plethoric man, with coarse features and heavy gait. Besides the scar I have spoken of, his face was adorned here and there with pimples, which were not set down in the miniature. In the course of the first hour's study, I saw him to be a man of much the same stamp as Dolores's father—sensual, tyrannical, passionate. He seemed in his own way to be much struck with the beauty of his intended wife, and was not wanting in efforts to please her. All that I could see in her was the settled, passive paleness of despair. She played, sang, exhibited her embroidery and painting, at the command of Madame Mendoza, with the air of an automaton; and Don[Pg 259] Guzman remarked to her father on the passive obedience as a proper and hopeful trait. Once only when he, in presenting her a flower, took the liberty of kissing her cheek, did I observe the flashing of her eye and a movement of disgust and impatience, that she seemed scarcely able to restrain.

Don Guzman was a big, overly full man, with rough features and a heavy walk. Besides the scar I mentioned, his face was dotted with pimples that weren't captured in the miniature. During the first hour of studying him, I found him to be quite similar to Dolores's father—sensual, tyrannical, and passionate. He seemed genuinely impressed by the beauty of his future wife and made efforts to win her favor. All I could see in her was a fixed, passive paleness of despair. She played, sang, and showcased her embroidery and painting at Madame Mendoza's command, behaving like a robot; and Don Guzman commented to her father that her passive obedience was a good and encouraging sign. Only once, when he presented her with a flower and dared to kiss her cheek, did I notice her eyes flash and a look of disgust and impatience cross her face that she struggled to hide.

The marriage was announced to take place the next week, and a holiday was declared through the house. Nothing was talked of or discussed but the corbeille de mariage which the bridegroom had brought—the dresses, laces, sets of jewels, and cashmere shawls. Dolores never had been treated with such attention by the family in her life. She rose immeasurably in the eyes of all as the future possessor of such wealth and such an establishment as awaited her. Madame Mendoza had visions of future visits in Cuba rising before her mind, and overwhelmed her daughter-in-law with flatteries and caresses, which she received in the same passive silence as she did everything else.

The marriage was announced to take place the following week, and a holiday was declared throughout the house. Nothing was talked about or discussed except the corbeille de mariage that the groom had brought—the dresses, lace, sets of jewelry, and cashmere shawls. Dolores had never been treated with such attention by the family in her life. She rose immensely in everyone's eyes as the future owner of such wealth and the establishment that awaited her. Madame Mendoza imagined future trips to Cuba, filling her mind with visions, and overwhelmed her daughter-in-law with compliments and affection, which she accepted with the same passive silence she showed to everything else.

For my own part, I tried to keep entirely by myself. I remained in my room reading, and took my daily rides, accompanied by my servant—seeing Dolores only at mealtimes, when I scarcely ventured to look at her. One night, however, as I was walking through a lonely part of the garden, Dolores suddenly stepped out from the shrubbery and stood before me. It was bright moonlight, by which her face and person were distinctly shown. How well I remember her as she looked then! She was dressed in white muslin, as she was fond of being, but it had been torn and disordered by the haste with which she had come through the shrubbery. Her face was fearfully pale, and her great, dark eyes had an unnatural brightness. She laid hold on my arm.

For my part, I tried to keep to myself. I stayed in my room reading and took my daily rides, accompanied by my servant—only seeing Dolores at mealtimes, when I barely dared to look at her. One night, though, as I was walking through a quiet part of the garden, Dolores suddenly stepped out from the bushes and stood in front of me. It was bright moonlight, which clearly illuminated her face and figure. How well I remember how she looked then! She was wearing her favorite white muslin dress, but it had been torn and messed up from her rushing through the bushes. Her face was extremely pale, and her big dark eyes had an unnatural brightness. She grabbed my arm.

"Look here," she said, "I saw you and came down to speak with you."[Pg 260]

"Look here," she said, "I saw you and came down to talk to you."[Pg 260]

She panted and trembled, so that for some moments she could not speak another word. "I want to ask you," she gasped, after a pause, "whether I heard you right? Did you say"—

She was breathing heavily and shaking, so for a few moments she couldn't say anything else. "I want to ask you," she panted after a pause, "did I hear you correctly? Did you say"—

"Yes, Dolores, you did. I did say what I had no right to say, like a dishonorable man."

"Yes, Dolores, you did. I said things I shouldn’t have, like someone without honor."

"But is it true? Are you sure it is true?" she said, scarcely seeming to hear my words.

"But is that really true? Are you sure it's true?" she said, barely seeming to listen to what I was saying.

"God knows it is," said I despairingly.

"God knows it is," I said with despair.

"Then why don't you save me? Why do you let them sell me to this dreadful man? He don't love me—he never will. Can't you take me away?"

"Then why don’t you save me? Why do you let them sell me to this awful man? He doesn’t love me—he never will. Can’t you take me away?"

"Dolores, I am a poor man. I cannot give you any of these splendors your father desires for you."

"Dolores, I’m a poor man. I can’t give you any of the luxuries your father wants for you."

"Do you think I care for them? I love you more than all the world together. And if you do really love me, why should we not be happy with each other?"

"Do you think I care about them? I love you more than anything else in the world. And if you truly love me, why shouldn't we be happy together?"

"Dolores," I said, with a last effort to keep calm, "I am much older than you, and know the world, and ought not to take advantage of your simplicity. You have been so accustomed to abundant wealth and all it can give, that you cannot form an idea of what the hardships and discomforts of marrying a poor man would be. You are unused to having the least care, or making the least exertion for yourself. All the world would say that I acted a very dishonorable part to take you from a position which offers you wealth, splendor, and ease, to one of comparative hardship. Perhaps some day you would think so yourself."

"Dolores," I said, making one last effort to stay calm, "I’m much older than you and have experienced more of the world. I shouldn’t take advantage of your naivety. You’ve been so used to wealth and everything that comes with it that you can’t really imagine the challenges and discomforts of marrying someone without money. You’re not familiar with having to worry or put in any effort for yourself. Everyone would say it’s very dishonorable of me to take you away from a life that offers you wealth, luxury, and comfort, and put you in a situation that’s comparatively tough. Maybe one day, you’d see it that way, too."

While I was speaking, Dolores turned me toward the moonlight, and fixed her great dark eyes piercingly upon me, as if she wanted to read my soul. "Is that all?" she said; "is that the only reason?"

While I was talking, Dolores turned me toward the moonlight and fixed her intense dark eyes on me, as if she wanted to see into my soul. "Is that it?" she asked. "Is that the only reason?"

"I do not understand you," said I.

"I don't understand you," I said.

She gave me such a desolate look, and answered in a tone of utter dejection, "Oh, I didn't know, but perhaps[Pg 261] you might not want me. All the rest are so glad to sell me to anybody that will take me. But you really do love me, don't you?" she added, laying her hand on mine.

She looked at me with such a sad expression and responded in a completely defeated tone, "Oh, I didn't know, but maybe[Pg 261] you just don't want me. Everyone else is so eager to sell me to anyone who will take me. But you really do love me, right?" she continued, placing her hand on mine.

What answer I made I cannot say. I only know that every vestige of what is called reason and common sense left me at that moment, and that there followed an hour of delirium in which I—we both were very happy—we forgot everything but each other, and we arranged all our plans for flight. There was fortunately a ship lying in the harbor of St. Augustine, the captain of which was known to me. In course of a day or two passage was taken, and my effects transported on board. Nobody seemed to suspect us. Everything went on quietly up to the day before that appointed for sailing. I took my usual rides, and did everything as much as possible in my ordinary way, to disarm suspicion, and none seemed to exist. The needed preparations went gayly forward. On the day I mentioned, when I had ridden some distance from the house, a messenger came post-haste after me. It was a boy who belonged specially to Dolores. He gave me a little hurried note. I copy it:—

What I replied, I can’t say. I just know that all sense and reason left me in that moment, and there followed an hour of delirium in which we—both of us—were very happy. We forgot everything but each other and made plans for our escape. Luckily, there was a ship in the harbor of St. Augustine whose captain I knew. Within a day or two, we secured passage and got my things loaded onto the ship. No one seemed to suspect us. Everything went smoothly up until the day before our scheduled departure. I took my usual rides and did everything I could to act normally and avoid suspicion, and there didn’t seem to be any. The necessary preparations were happily moving along. On the day I mentioned, after I had ridden a good distance from the house, a messenger rushed after me. It was a boy who was close to Dolores. He handed me a little hurried note. Here it is:—

"Papa has found all out, and it is dreadful. No one else knows, and he means to kill you when you come back. Do, if you love me, hurry and get on board the ship. I shall never get over it, if evil comes on you for my sake. I shall let them do what they please with me, if God will only save you. I will try to be good. Perhaps if I bear my trials well, he will let me die soon. That is all I ask. I love you, and always shall, to death and after.

"Papa has found everything out, and it’s awful. No one else knows, and he plans to kill you when you come back. Please, if you love me, hurry and get on the ship. I won't be able to handle it if something bad happens to you because of me. I'll let them do whatever they want to me, as long as God saves you. I’ll try to be good. Maybe if I handle my struggles well, He’ll let me die soon. That’s all I ask. I love you, and I always will, until death and beyond."

Dolores."

Dolores.

There was the end of it all. I escaped on the ship. I read the marriage in the paper. Incidentally I afterwards heard of her as living in Cuba, but I never saw her again[Pg 262] till I saw her in her coffin. Sorrow and death had changed her so much that at first the sight of her awakened only a vague, painful remembrance. The sight of the hair bracelet which I had seen on her arm brought all back, and I felt sure that my poor Dolores had strangely come to sleep her last sleep near me.

That was the end of everything. I escaped on the ship. I saw her marriage announcement in the newspaper. Later, I heard she was living in Cuba, but I never saw her again[Pg 262] until I saw her in her coffin. Grief and death had changed her so much that at first, seeing her only brought back a vague, painful memory. The sight of the hair bracelet I had seen on her arm made everything come rushing back, and I realized that my poor Dolores had somehow ended up resting her final sleep right next to me.

Immediately after I became satisfied who you were, I felt a painful degree of responsibility for the knowledge. I wrote at once to a friend of mine in the neighborhood of St. Augustine, to find out any particulars of the Mendoza family. I learned that its history had been like that of many others in that region. Don José had died in a bilious fever, brought on by excessive dissipation, and at his death the estate was found to be so incumbered that the whole was sold at auction. The slaves were scattered hither and thither to different owners, and Madame Mendoza, with her children and remains of fortune, had gone to live in New Orleans.

As soon as I realized who you were, I felt a heavy sense of responsibility for the information. I immediately wrote to a friend of mine near St. Augustine to learn more about the Mendoza family. I found out that their story was similar to many others in that area. Don José had passed away from a liver fever, caused by excessive partying, and when he died, the estate was found to be so burdened that it was sold at auction. The slaves were scattered to different owners, and Madame Mendoza, along with her children and what's left of her fortune, moved to New Orleans.

Of Dolores he had heard but once since her marriage. A friend had visited Don Guzman's estates in Cuba. He was living in great splendor, but bore the character of a hard, cruel, tyrannical master, and an overbearing man. His wife was spoken of as being in very delicate health,—avoiding society and devoting herself to religion.

Of Dolores, he had only heard about her once since she got married. A friend had visited Don Guzman's estates in Cuba. He was living in great luxury, but he was known to be a harsh, cruel, tyrannical master and a domineering man. His wife was said to be in very poor health—avoiding social events and focusing on her religious practices.

I would here take occasion to say that it was understood when I went into the family of Don José, that I should not in any way interfere with the religious faith of the children, the family being understood to belong to the Roman Catholic Church. There was so little like religion of any kind in the family, that the idea of their belonging to any faith savored something of the ludicrous. In the case of poor Dolores, however, it was different. The earnestness of her nature would always have made any religious form a reality to her. In her case I was glad to remember that the Romish Church, amid many corruptions,[Pg 263] preserves all the essential beliefs necessary for our salvation, and that many holy souls have gone to heaven through its doors. I therefore was only careful to direct her principal attention to the more spiritual parts of her own faith, and to dwell on the great themes which all Christian people hold in common.

I want to point out that when I joined Don José's family, it was clear that I wouldn’t interfere with the children's religious beliefs, as the family identified as Roman Catholic. There was so little actual religion in the family that the idea of them adhering to any faith seemed somewhat ridiculous. However, with poor Dolores, it was a different story. The sincerity of her character made any religious practice feel real to her. For her, I was happy to remember that the Catholic Church, despite its many flaws, still upholds all the essential beliefs needed for our salvation, and that many devout individuals have found their way to heaven through its teachings. Therefore, I focused on guiding her attention towards the more spiritual aspects of her faith and emphasizing the important themes that all Christians share.[Pg 263]

Many of my persuasion would not have felt free to do this, but my liberty of conscience in this respect was perfect. I have seen that if you break the cup out of which a soul has been used to take the wine of the gospel, you often spill the very wine itself. And after all, these forms are but shadows of which the substance is Christ.

Many people I know wouldn't have felt free to do this, but I felt completely at ease with my beliefs. I've noticed that if you break the cup that a soul is used to drinking the wine of the gospel from, you often end up spilling the wine itself. In the end, these forms are just shadows, and the true substance is Christ.

I am free to say, therefore, that the thought that your poor mother was devoting herself earnestly to religion, although after the forms of a church with which I differ, was to me a source of great consolation, because I knew that in that way alone could a soul like hers find peace.

I can honestly say that the idea of your poor mother dedicating herself sincerely to religion, even if it follows a church that I don’t agree with, was a big comfort to me. I understood that this was the only way a soul like hers could find peace.

I have never rested from my efforts to obtain more information. A short time before the incident which cast you upon our shore, I conversed with a sea-captain who had returned from Cuba. He stated that there had been an attempt at insurrection among the slaves of Don Guzman, in which a large part of the buildings and out-houses of the estate had been consumed by fire. On subsequent inquiry I learned that Don Guzman had sold his estates and embarked for Boston with his wife and family, and that nothing had subsequently been heard of him.

I have never stopped trying to gather more information. Shortly before the event that brought you to our shores, I spoke with a sea captain who had just come back from Cuba. He mentioned that there had been an uprising among Don Guzman's slaves, which resulted in many of the estate's buildings and outbuildings being set on fire. After further investigation, I found out that Don Guzman had sold his estates and left for Boston with his wife and family, and that no one had heard from him since.

Thus, my young friend, I have told you all that I know of those singular circumstances which have cast your lot on our shores. I do not expect at your time of life you will take the same view of this event that I do. You may possibly—very probably will—consider it a loss not to have been brought up as you might have been in the splendid establishment of Don Guzman, and found yourself heir[Pg 264] to wealth and pleasure without labor or exertion. Yet I am quite sure in that case that your value as a human being would have been immeasurably less. I think I have seen in you the elements of passions, which luxury and idleness and the too early possession of irresponsible power, might have developed with fatal results. You have simply to reflect whether you would rather be an energetic, intelligent, self-controlled man, capable of guiding the affairs of life and of acquiring its prizes,—or to be the reverse of all this, with its prizes bought for you by the wealth of parents. I hope mature reflection will teach you to regard with gratitude that disposition of the All-Wise, which cast your lot as it has been cast.

So, my young friend, I've shared everything I know about the unusual circumstances that brought you to our shores. I don’t expect that at your age, you’ll see this event the same way I do. You might—very likely will—consider it a loss not to have grown up in the impressive estate of Don Guzman, inheriting wealth and pleasure without any hard work. But I'm certain that in that case, your worth as a human being would have been greatly diminished. I believe I've seen in you the traits of passions that luxury, idleness, and the premature possession of unearned power could have developed with disastrous consequences. You just need to think about whether you'd prefer to be a driven, intelligent, self-disciplined person, capable of managing life’s challenges and achieving its rewards—or the opposite of all that, with rewards handed to you by your parents' wealth. I hope that careful reflection will help you appreciate the wise plan that placed you in your current situation.

Let me ask one thing in closing. I have written for you here many things most painful for me to remember, because I wanted you to love and honor the memory of your mother. I wanted that her memory should have something such a charm for you as it has for me. With me, her image has always stood between me and all other women; but I have never even intimated to a living being that such a passage in my history ever occurred,—no, not even to my sister, who is nearer to me than any other earthly creature.

Let me ask one thing before I finish. I've shared many painful memories with you because I wanted you to love and cherish the memory of your mother. I hoped her memory would hold the same special appeal for you as it does for me. For me, her image has always been a barrier between me and all other women; yet, I've never told anyone about this chapter in my life—not even my sister, who is closer to me than anyone else.

In some respects I am a singular person in my habits, and having once written this, you will pardon me if I observe that it will never be agreeable to me to have the subject named between us. Look upon me always as a friend, who would regard nothing as a hardship by which he might serve the son of one so dear.

In some ways, I'm unique in my habits, and now that I've said this, please forgive me for mentioning that I wouldn't find it pleasant to discuss this topic between us. Always see me as a friend who would consider nothing too difficult if it means helping the son of someone I hold so dear.

I have hesitated whether I ought to add one circumstance more. I think I will do so, trusting to your good sense not to give it any undue weight.

I have been unsure about whether I should add one more detail. I think I will, trusting that you won’t give it too much importance.

I have never ceased making inquiries in Cuba, as I found opportunity, in regard to your father's property, and late investigations have led me to the conclusion that he left a[Pg 265] considerable sum of money in the hands of a notary, whose address I have, which, if your identity could be proved, would come in course of law to you. I have written an account of all the circumstances which, in my view, identify you as the son of Don Guzman de Cardona, and had them properly attested in legal form.

I have never stopped inquiring in Cuba whenever I had the chance about your father's property, and my recent investigations have led me to believe that he left a[Pg 265] significant amount of money with a notary, whose address I have. If your identity can be confirmed, this money would legally belong to you. I've documented all the details that, in my opinion, identify you as the son of Don Guzman de Cardona and have had them legally certified.

This, together with your mother's picture and the bracelet, I recommend you to take on your next voyage, and to see what may result from the attempt. How considerable the sum may be which will result from this, I cannot say, but as Don Guzman's fortune was very large, I am in hopes it may prove something worth attention.

This, along with your mother's picture and the bracelet, I suggest you take on your next trip and see what might come from the effort. I can't say how much it could be worth, but since Don Guzman's fortune was quite large, I hope it turns out to be something worth paying attention to.

At any time you may wish to call, I will have all these things ready for you.

At any time you want to call, I'll have everything ready for you.

I am, with warm regard,
Your sincere friend,
Theophilus Sewell.

I am, with warm regards,
Your true friend,
Theophilus Sewell.

When Moses had finished reading this letter, he laid it down on the pebbles beside him, and, leaning back against a rock, looked moodily out to sea. The tide had washed quite up to within a short distance of his feet, completely isolating the little grotto where he sat from all the surrounding scenery, and before him, passing and repassing on the blue bright solitude of the sea, were silent ships, going on their wondrous pathless ways to unknown lands. The letter had stirred all within him that was dreamy and poetic: he felt somehow like a leaf torn from a romance, and blown strangely into the hollow of those rocks. Something too of ambition and pride stirred within him. He had been born an heir of wealth and power, little as they had done for the happiness of his poor mother; and when he thought he might have had these two wild horses which have run away with so many young men, he felt, as young men all do, an impetuous desire for their possession, and[Pg 266] he thought as so many do, "Give them to me, and I'll risk my character,—I'll risk my happiness."

When Moses finished reading the letter, he set it down on the pebbles beside him and leaned back against a rock, gazing moodily out at the sea. The tide had come in close to his feet, completely separating the small grotto where he sat from all the surrounding scenery. In front of him, silent ships passed back and forth on the bright blue expanse of the sea, making their way to unknown lands. The letter had awakened all the dreamy and poetic feelings inside him: he felt like a leaf plucked from a novel and blown into the hollow of those rocks. A sense of ambition and pride also stirred within him. He was born into wealth and power, which hadn’t done much for his poor mother’s happiness; when he thought about how he could have had those two wild forces that have swept many young men away, he felt, like many young men do, an impulsive desire to grasp them. And he thought, as many do, "Give them to me, and I'll risk my character—I'll risk my happiness."

The letter opened a future before him which was something to speculate upon, even though his reason told him it was uncertain, and he lay there dreamily piling one air-castle on another,—unsubstantial as the great islands of white cloud that sailed through the sky and dropped their shadows in the blue sea.

The letter opened up a future for him that was worth imagining, even though he knew it was uncertain. He lay there, lost in thought, stacking one daydream on top of another—just as insubstantial as the massive white clouds floating in the sky, casting their shadows on the blue sea.

It was late in the afternoon when he bethought him he must return home, and so climbing from rock to rock he swung himself upward on to the island, and sought the brown cottage. As he passed by the open window he caught a glimpse of Mara sewing. He walked softly up to look in without her seeing him. She was sitting with the various articles of his wardrobe around her, quietly and deftly mending his linen, singing soft snatches of an old psalm-tune.

It was late in the afternoon when he realized he needed to head home. Climbing from rock to rock, he pulled himself up onto the island and looked for the brown cottage. As he walked by the open window, he caught a glimpse of Mara sewing. He quietly approached to peek in without her noticing. She was sitting surrounded by different pieces of his clothing, skillfully mending his linen while softly humming bits of an old psalm tune.

She seemed to have resumed quite naturally that quiet care of him and his, which she had in all the earlier years of their life. He noticed again her little hands,—they seemed a sort of wonder to him. Why had he never seen, when a boy, how pretty they were? And she had such dainty little ways of taking up and putting down things as she measured and clipped; it seemed so pleasant to have her handling his things; it was as if a good fairy were touching them, whose touch brought back peace. But then, he thought, by and by she will do all this for some one else. The thought made him angry. He really felt abused in anticipation. She was doing all this for him just in sisterly kindness, and likely as not thinking of somebody else whom she loved better all the time. It is astonishing how cool and dignified this consideration made our hero as he faced up to the window. He was, after all, in hopes she might blush, and look agitated at seeing him suddenly; but she did not. The foolish boy did not[Pg 267] know the quick wits of a girl, and that all the while that he had supposed himself so sly, and been holding his breath to observe, Mara had been perfectly cognizant of his presence, and had been schooling herself to look as unconscious and natural as possible. So she did,—only saying,—

She seemed to have naturally taken back that quiet care for him and his things, like she used to in the earlier years of their life. He noticed her small hands again—they seemed kind of amazing to him. Why hadn’t he seen how pretty they were when he was a boy? And she had such delicate ways of picking up and putting down things as she measured and clipped; it felt so nice to have her handling his things, like a good fairy was touching them, bringing peace back. But then he thought, eventually she would do all this for someone else. That thought made him upset. He felt really hurt even before it happened. She was doing all this for him out of sisterly kindness, probably thinking about someone she loved more the whole time. It’s surprising how cool and collected this realization made our hero as he looked out the window. He actually hoped she might blush and seem flustered by his sudden appearance, but she didn’t. The foolish boy didn’t know how quick girls were, and all the while he thought he was being clever and was holding his breath to watch, Mara had been fully aware of him and had been trying to look as casual and natural as possible. So she did—only saying,—

"Oh, Moses, is that you? Where have you been all day?"

"Oh, Moses, is that you? Where have you been all day?"

"Oh, I went over to see Parson Sewell, and get my pastoral lecture, you know."

"Oh, I went to see Parson Sewell to get my pastoral lecture, you know."

"And did you stay to dinner?"

"And did you stay for dinner?"

"No; I came home and went rambling round the rocks, and got into our old cave, and never knew how the time passed."

"No; I came home and wandered around the rocks, and ended up in our old cave, completely losing track of time."

"Why, then you've had no dinner, poor boy," said Mara, rising suddenly. "Come in quick, you must be fed, or you'll get dangerous and eat somebody."

"Well, then, you haven't had dinner, poor kid," said Mara, standing up abruptly. "Come in quickly, you need to eat, or you might get really hungry and end up eating someone."

"No, no, don't get anything," said Moses, "it's almost supper-time, and I'm not hungry."

"No, no, don't get anything," Moses said, "it's almost dinner time, and I'm not hungry."

And Moses threw himself into a chair, and began abstractedly snipping a piece of tape with Mara's very best scissors.

And Moses sat down in a chair and started mindlessly cutting a piece of tape with Mara's best scissors.

"If you please, sir, don't demolish that; I was going to stay one of your collars with it," said Mara.

"If you don’t mind, sir, please don’t tear that down; I was going to use it to fix one of your collars," said Mara.

"Oh, hang it, I'm always in mischief among girls' things," said Moses, putting down the scissors and picking up a bit of white wax, which with equal unconsciousness, he began kneading in his hands, while he was dreaming over the strange contents of the morning's letter.

"Oh, come on, I'm always getting into trouble with girls' stuff," said Moses, putting down the scissors and picking up a piece of white wax, which he started to knead in his hands without really thinking, while he drifted off into thought about the strange contents of the morning's letter.

"I hope Mr. Sewell didn't say anything to make you look so very gloomy," said Mara.

"I hope Mr. Sewell didn't say anything to make you look so down," said Mara.

"Mr. Sewell?" said Moses, starting; "no, he didn't; in fact, I had a pleasant call there; and there was that confounded old sphinx of a Miss Roxy there. Why don't she die? She must be somewhere near a hundred years old by this time."[Pg 268]

"Mr. Sewell?" said Moses, surprised; "no, he didn't; actually, I had a nice visit there; and that infuriating old sphinx, Miss Roxy, was there too. Why doesn't she just die? She must be close to a hundred years old by now."[Pg 268]

"Never thought to ask her why she didn't die," said Mara; "but I presume she has the best of reasons for living."

"Never thought to ask her why she didn't die," Mara said; "but I guess she has her good reasons for living."

"Yes, that's so," said Moses; "every old toadstool, and burdock, and mullein lives and thrives and lasts; no danger of their dying."

"Yes, that's true," said Moses; "every old toadstool, burdock, and mullein lives, thrives, and persists; there's no risk of them dying."

"You seem to be in a charitable frame of mind," said Mara.

"You seem to be in a giving mood," Mara said.

"Confound it all! I hate this world. If I could have my own way now,—if I could have just what I wanted, and do just as I please exactly, I might make a pretty good thing of it."

"Curse it all! I hate this world. If I could have things my way right now—if I could get exactly what I wanted and do whatever I please—I might actually make something decent of it."

"And pray what would you have?" said Mara.

"And what would you like?" Mara asked.

"Well, in the first place, riches."

"First of all, wealth."

"In the first place?"

"First of all?"

"Yes, in the first place, I say; for money buys everything else."

"Yes, first of all, I say; because money buys everything else."

"Well, supposing so," said Mara, "for argument's sake, what would you buy with it?"

"Okay, let's say that's true," said Mara, "just for the sake of discussion, what would you buy with it?"

"Position in society, respect, consideration,—and I'd have a splendid place, with everything elegant. I have ideas enough, only give me the means. And then I'd have a wife, of course."

"Status in society, respect, consideration—I'd have an amazing position, with everything stylish. I have plenty of ideas, just give me the resources. And then I'd definitely have a wife, of course."

"And how much would you pay for her?" said Mara, looking quite cool.

"And how much would you pay for her?" Mara asked, looking really relaxed.

"I'd buy her with all the rest,—a girl that wouldn't look at me as I am,—would take me for all the rest, you know,—that's the way of the world."

"I'd buy her with all the others—a girl who wouldn't see me for who I really am—would just see me as part of the crowd, you know—that's how things are."

"It is, is it?" said Mara. "I don't understand such matters much."

"It is, isn't it?" Mara said. "I don’t really understand these things much."

"Yes; it's the way with all you girls," said Moses; "it's the way you'll marry when you do."

"Yeah, that's how it is with all you girls," said Moses; "that's how you'll get married when the time comes."

"Don't be so fierce about it. I haven't done it yet," said Mara; "but now, really, I must go and set the supper-table when I have put these things away,"—and Mara[Pg 269] gathered an armful of things together, and tripped singing upstairs, and arranged them in the drawer of Moses's room. "Will his wife like to do all these little things for him as I do?" she thought. "It's natural I should. I grew up with him, and love him, just as if he were my own brother,—he is all the brother I ever had. I love him more than anything else in the world, and this wife he talks about could do no more."

"Don't be so intense about it. I haven't done it yet," said Mara; "but now, really, I need to go and set the dinner table after I put these things away,"—and Mara[Pg 269] gathered an armful of items and happily skipped upstairs, arranging them in the drawer of Moses's room. "Will his wife enjoy doing all these little things for him like I do?" she wondered. "It's natural for me to. I grew up with him and love him just like he’s my own brother—he’s all the brother I’ve ever had. I love him more than anything else in the world, and this wife he talks about couldn't do more."

"She don't care a pin about me," thought Moses; "it's only a habit she has got, and her strict notions of duty, that's all. She is housewifely in her instincts, and seizes all neglected linen and garments as her lawful prey,—she would do it just the same for her grandfather;" and Moses drummed moodily on the window-pane.

"She doesn’t care at all about me," thought Moses; "it’s just a habit she has and her strong sense of duty, that’s all. She has a natural instinct for being a good homemaker and grabs up any neglected linen and clothes as if they belong to her—she would do the same for her grandfather;" and Moses drummed moodily on the window.


CHAPTER XXVIII

A COQUETTE

[Pg 270]The timbers of the ship which was to carry the fortunes of our hero were laid by the side of Middle Bay, and all these romantic shores could hardly present a lovelier scene. This beautiful sheet of water separates Harpswell from a portion of Brunswick. Its shores are rocky and pine-crowned, and display the most picturesque variety of outline. Eagle Island, Shelter Island, and one or two smaller ones, lie on the glassy surface like soft clouds of green foliage pierced through by the steel-blue tops of arrowy pine-trees.

[Pg 270]The timbers of the ship that was set to carry our hero’s fortunes were laid by Middle Bay, and the romantic shores presented a breathtaking scene. This beautiful body of water separates Harpswell from part of Brunswick. Its shores are rocky and crowned with pines, showcasing a striking variety of outlines. Eagle Island, Shelter Island, and a couple of smaller ones float on the calm surface like soft clouds of green foliage punctuated by the steel-blue tops of slender pine trees.

There were a goodly number of shareholders in the projected vessel; some among the most substantial men in the vicinity. Zephaniah Pennel had invested there quite a solid sum, as had also our friend Captain Kittridge. Moses had placed therein the proceeds of his recent voyage, which enabled him to buy a certain number of shares, and he secretly revolved in his mind whether the sum of money left by his father might not enable him to buy the whole ship. Then a few prosperous voyages, and his fortune was made!

There were quite a few shareholders in the planned ship, including some of the most prominent men in the area. Zephaniah Pennel had invested a significant amount, as had our friend Captain Kittridge. Moses had put in the earnings from his recent trip, which allowed him to purchase several shares, and he secretly considered whether the money left by his father might allow him to buy the entire ship. Then, after a few successful voyages, he would be set for life!

He went into the business of building the new vessel with all the enthusiasm with which he used, when a boy, to plan ships and mould anchors. Every day he was off at early dawn in his working-clothes, and labored steadily among the men till evening. No matter how early he rose, however, he always found that a good fairy had been before him and prepared his dinner, daintily sometimes adding[Pg 271] thereto a fragrant little bunch of flowers. But when his boat returned home at evening, he no longer saw her as in the days of girlhood waiting far out on the farthest point of rock for his return. Not that she did not watch for it and run out many times toward sunset; but the moment she had made out that it was surely he, she would run back into the house, and very likely find an errand in her own room, where she would be so deeply engaged that it would be necessary for him to call her down before she could make her appearance. Then she came smiling, chatty, always gracious, and ready to go or to come as he requested,—the very cheerfulest of household fairies,—but yet for all that there was a cobweb invisible barrier around her that for some reason or other he could not break over. It vexed and perplexed him, and day after day he determined to whistle it down,—ride over it rough-shod,—and be as free as he chose with this apparently soft, unresistant, airy being, who seemed so accessible. Why shouldn't he kiss her when he chose, and sit with his arm around her waist, and draw her familiarly upon his knee,—this little child-woman, who was as a sister to him? Why, to be sure? Had she ever frowned or scolded as Sally Kittridge did when he attempted to pass the air-line that divides man from womanhood? Not at all. She had neither blushed nor laughed, nor ran away. If he kissed her, she took it with the most matter-of-fact composure; if he passed his arm around her, she let it remain with unmoved calmness; and so somehow he did these things less and less, and wondered why.

He got into the business of building the new boat with all the enthusiasm he used to have as a boy when he would plan ships and shape anchors. Every day, he left at dawn in his work clothes and worked hard alongside the crew until evening. No matter how early he got up, he always found that a good fairy had been there before him and prepared his dinner, sometimes adding a lovely little bunch of flowers on the side. But when he returned home at night, he no longer saw her waiting out on the furthest rock for his arrival like she used to in their youth. It wasn’t that she didn’t look for him and run out many times at sunset; but as soon as she saw it was definitely him, she would dash back inside, probably to find some task in her room where she would get so focused that he’d have to call her downstairs before she would appear. Then she came down smiling, chatty, always gracious, and ready to go or do whatever he asked—truly the cheeriest of household fairies. Yet, for all that, there seemed to be an invisible barrier around her that for some reason he couldn’t cross. It frustrated and confused him, and day after day, he resolved to break it down—ride right over it—and be as free as he wanted with this seemingly soft, unresistant, airy being who felt so open. Why shouldn’t he kiss her whenever he wanted, and sit with his arm around her waist, drawing her familiarly onto his knee—this little child-woman who was like a sister to him? Why not? Had she ever frowned or scolded him like Sally Kittridge did when he tried to cross the line separating men from women? Not at all. She neither blushed nor laughed, nor did she run away. If he kissed her, she accepted it with the most straightforward calmness; if he put his arm around her, she let it stay without a hint of discomfort. And so, somehow, he did these things less and less, and wondered why.

The fact is, our hero had begun an experiment with his little friend that we would never advise a young man to try on one of these intense, quiet, soft-seeming women, whose whole life is inward. He had determined to find out whether she loved him before he committed himself to her; and the strength of a whole book of martyrs is in[Pg 272] women to endure and to bear without flinching before they will surrender the gate of this citadel of silence. Moreover, our hero had begun his siege with precisely the worst weapons.

The truth is, our hero had started an experiment with his little friend that we would never recommend to a young man to try on one of these intense, quiet, soft-seeming women, whose entire life is internal. He had decided to find out whether she loved him before he fully committed to her; and the strength of a whole book of martyrs is in[Pg 272] women who can endure and withstand without flinching before they will open the gates of this fortress of silence. Furthermore, our hero had begun his assault with exactly the worst tactics.

For on the night that he returned and found Mara conversing with a stranger, the suspicion arose in his mind that somehow Mara might be particularly interested in him, and instead of asking her, which anybody might consider the most feasible step in the case, he asked Sally Kittridge.

For the night he came back and saw Mara talking to a stranger, he started to suspect that Mara might actually be interested in him. Instead of asking her directly, which anyone would think is the most reasonable thing to do, he asked Sally Kittridge.

Sally's inborn, inherent love of teasing was up in a moment. Did she know anything of that Mr. Adams? Of course she did,—a young lawyer of one of the best Boston families,—a splendid fellow; she wished any such luck might happen to her! Was Mara engaged to him? What would he give to know? Why didn't he ask Mara? Did he expect her to reveal her friend's secrets? Well, she shouldn't,—report said Mr. Adams was well-to-do in the world, and had expectations from an uncle,—and didn't Moses think he was interesting in conversation? Everybody said what a conquest it was for an Orr's Island girl, etc., etc. And Sally said the rest with many a malicious toss and wink and sly twinkle of the dimples of her cheek, which might mean more or less, as a young man of imaginative temperament was disposed to view it. Now this was all done in pure simple love of teasing. We incline to think phrenologists have as yet been very incomplete in their classification of faculties, or they would have appointed a separate organ for this propensity of human nature. Certain persons, often the most kind-hearted in the world, and who would not give pain in any serious matter, seem to have an insatiable appetite for those small annoyances we commonly denominate teasing,—and Sally was one of this number.

Sally's natural love for teasing flared up in an instant. Did she know anything about Mr. Adams? Of course she did—a young lawyer from one of the best families in Boston—a great guy; she wished she could have such luck! Was Mara engaged to him? What would he give to find out? Why didn't he just ask Mara? Did he think she would spill her friend’s secrets? Well, she shouldn’t—rumor had it that Mr. Adams was well-off and had expectations from an uncle—and didn’t Moses find him interesting to talk to? Everyone said what a catch it was for a girl from Orr's Island, etc., etc. And Sally communicated the rest with many mischievous tosses, winks, and sly twinkles in her cheek dimples, which could mean more or less, depending on how a young man with an imaginative mindset chose to interpret it. Now, all of this was done purely for the love of teasing. We tend to think that phrenologists have been quite incomplete in their classification of human faculties, or they would have designated a separate part for this tendency in human nature. Certain individuals, often some of the kindest people in the world, who would never want to cause pain in serious matters, seem to have an endless craving for those minor annoyances we typically call teasing—and Sally was one of them.

She diverted herself infinitely in playing upon the excitability of Moses,—in awaking his curiosity, and baffling[Pg 273] it, and tormenting him with a whole phantasmagoria of suggestions and assertions, which played along so near the line of probability, that one could never tell which might be fancy and which might be fact.

She kept herself entertained endlessly by playing on Moses's excitability—arousing his curiosity, frustrating it, and teasing him with a whole series of ideas and claims that danced so close to the edge of reality that it was impossible to tell which were just imagination and which were true.

Moses therefore pursued the line of tactics for such cases made and provided, and strove to awaken jealousy in Mara by paying marked and violent attentions to Sally. He went there evening after evening, leaving Mara to sit alone at home. He made secrets with her, and alluded to them before Mara. He proposed calling his new vessel the Sally Kittridge; but whether all these things made Mara jealous or not, he could never determine. Mara had no peculiar gift for acting, except in this one point; but here all the vitality of nature rallied to her support, and enabled her to preserve an air of the most unperceiving serenity. If she shed any tears when she spent a long, lonesome evening, she was quite particular to be looking in a very placid frame when Moses returned, and to give such an account of the books, or the work, or paintings which had interested her, that Moses was sure to be vexed. Never were her inquiries for Sally more cordial,—never did she seem inspired by a more ardent affection for her.

Moses decided to use the usual tactics for situations like this and tried to stir up jealousy in Mara by showing intense and obvious attention to Sally. He visited every evening, leaving Mara alone at home. He shared secrets with Sally and hinted at them in front of Mara. He even suggested naming his new boat the Sally Kittridge; but whether these actions made Mara jealous or not, he could never tell. Mara didn't have a particular talent for acting, except in this one area; but here, all her natural instincts kicked in, helping her maintain an air of complete composure. If she cried during a long, lonely night, she made sure to look very calm when Moses came back and would explain in such detail about the books or the artwork that had captivated her that Moses would definitely be annoyed. Never were her questions about Sally more friendly—she never seemed to show a deeper affection for her.

Whatever may have been the result of this state of things in regard to Mara, it is certain that Moses succeeded in convincing the common fame of that district that he and Sally were destined for each other, and the thing was regularly discussed at quilting frolics and tea-drinkings around, much to Miss Emily's disgust and Aunt Roxy's grave satisfaction, who declared that "Mara was altogether too good for Moses Pennel, but Sally Kittridge would make him stand round,"—by which expression she was understood to intimate that Sally had in her the rudiments of the same kind of domestic discipline which had operated so favorably in the case of Captain Kittridge.

Whatever the outcome of this situation with Mara, it's clear that Moses managed to convince the locals that he and Sally were meant to be together. This was a regular topic of conversation at quilting parties and tea gatherings, much to Miss Emily's annoyance and Aunt Roxy's serious approval. Aunt Roxy stated that "Mara was way too good for Moses Pennel, but Sally Kittridge would keep him in line,"—by which she meant that Sally had the basics of the same kind of household management that had worked so well with Captain Kittridge.

These things, of course, had come to Mara's ears. She[Pg 274] had overheard the discussions on Sunday noons as the people between meetings sat over their doughnuts and cheese, and analyzed their neighbors' affairs, and she seemed to smile at them all. Sally only laughed, and declared that it was no such thing; that she would no more marry Moses Pennel, or any other fellow, than she would put her head into the fire. What did she want of any of them? She knew too much to get married,—that she did. She was going to have her liberty for one while yet to come, etc., etc.; but all these assertions were of course supposed to mean nothing but the usual declarations in such cases. Mara among the rest thought it quite likely that this thing was yet to be.

These things, of course, had reached Mara's ears. She[Pg 274] had overheard the discussions on Sunday afternoons while people between meetings enjoyed their doughnuts and cheese, analyzing their neighbors' lives, and she appeared to smile at all of them. Sally just laughed and insisted that it was nothing of the sort; that she wouldn’t marry Moses Pennel or any other guy any more than she would stick her head in a fire. What did she want from any of them? She knew too much to get married—that much was true. She was determined to have her freedom for a while longer, etc., etc.; but all these statements were obviously thought to mean nothing more than the usual claims in such situations. Mara, among others, believed it was quite possible that this could still happen.

So she struggled and tried to reason down a pain which constantly ached in her heart when she thought of this. She ought to have foreseen that it must some time end in this way. Of course she must have known that Moses would some time choose a wife; and how fortunate that, instead of a stranger, he had chosen her most intimate friend. Sally was careless and thoughtless, to be sure, but she had a good generous heart at the bottom, and she hoped she would love Moses at least as well as she did, and then she would always live with them, and think of any little things that Sally might forget.

So she struggled and tried to push down a pain that constantly hurt in her heart whenever she thought about this. She should have realized that it would eventually end this way. Of course, she had to know that Moses would eventually choose a wife; and how lucky that, instead of someone random, he had picked her closest friend. Sally was careless and thoughtless, that was true, but she had a good, generous heart deep down, and she hoped she would love Moses at least as much as she did, and then she'd always be with them and take care of any little things that Sally might forget.

After all, Sally was so much more capable and efficient a person than herself,—so much more bustling and energetic, she would make altogether a better housekeeper, and doubtless a better wife for Moses. But then it was so hard that he did not tell her about it. Was she not his sister?—his confidant for all his childhood?—and why should he shut up his heart from her now? But then she must guard herself from being jealous,—that would be mean and wicked. So Mara, in her zeal of self-discipline, pushed on matters; invited Sally to tea to meet Moses; and when she came, left them alone together while she busied herself[Pg 275] in hospitable cares. She sent Moses with errands and commissions to Sally, which he was sure to improve into protracted visits; and in short, no young match-maker ever showed more good-will to forward the union of two chosen friends than Mara showed to unite Moses and Sally.

After all, Sally was way more capable and efficient than she was—so much more energetic and lively, she would definitely make a better housekeeper and probably a better wife for Moses. But it was so tough that he didn’t tell her about it. Wasn’t she his sister? His confidant all through childhood? Why should he keep his feelings from her now? But she had to be careful not to get jealous—that would be petty and wrong. So Mara, eager to discipline herself, took action; she invited Sally over for tea to meet Moses, and when she arrived, she left them alone while she attended to her hosting duties. She sent Moses on errands to Sally, which he would certainly turn into long visits; in short, no young matchmaker ever showed more enthusiasm in bringing two friends together than Mara did to unite Moses and Sally.

So the flirtation went on all summer, like a ship under full sail, with prosperous breezes; and Mara, in the many hours that her two best friends were together, tried heroically to persuade herself that she was not unhappy. She said to herself constantly that she never had loved Moses other than as a brother, and repeated and dwelt upon the fact to her own mind with a pertinacity which might have led her to suspect the reality of the fact, had she had experience enough to look closer. True, it was rather lonely, she said, but that she was used to,—she always had been and always should be. Nobody would ever love her in return as she loved; which sentence she did not analyze very closely, or she might have remembered Mr. Adams and one or two others, who had professed more for her than she had found herself able to return. That general proposition about nobody is commonly found, if sifted to the bottom, to have specific relation to somebody whose name never appears in the record.

So the flirting continued all summer, like a ship with its sails full, riding on favorable winds; and Mara, during the many hours her two best friends were together, tried hard to convince herself that she wasn't unhappy. She constantly told herself that she never loved Moses any more than a brother, repeating and focusing on that idea with such determination that it might have led her to question its truth if she had enough experience to look deeper. Sure, it was a bit lonely, she thought, but that was something she was used to—she always had been and always would be. Nobody would ever love her back as deeply as she loved; a thought she didn't examine too closely, or she might have recalled Mr. Adams and a few others who had professed more affection for her than she had been able to return. That general statement about nobody usually has a specific connection to someone whose name never makes it into the conversation.

Nobody could have conjectured from Mara's calm, gentle cheerfulness of demeanor, that any sorrow lay at the bottom of her heart; she would not have owned it to herself.

Nobody could have guessed from Mara's calm, gentle cheerfulness that any sorrow rested deep in her heart; she wouldn’t have admitted it to herself.

There are griefs which grow with years, which have no marked beginnings,—no especial dates; they are not events, but slow perceptions of disappointment, which bear down on the heart with a constant and equable pressure like the weight of the atmosphere, and these things are never named or counted in words among life's sorrows; yet through them, as through an unsuspected inward wound, life, energy, and vigor slowly bleed away, and the persons, never owning even to themselves the weight of[Pg 276] the pressure,—standing, to all appearance, fair and cheerful, are still undermined with a secret wear of this inner current, and ready to fall with the first external pressure.

There are sorrows that build over the years, which don’t have clear beginnings—no specific dates; they aren’t events but slow realizations of disappointment that weigh on the heart with a steady pressure, much like the atmosphere itself. These feelings are never named or counted among life’s hardships; yet, like an unnoticed internal wound, they cause life, energy, and vitality to slowly drain away. People, not even admitting to themselves the burden of the pressure, appear outwardly happy and cheerful, but they are secretly eroded by this inner struggle and are ready to crumble at the first outside push.

There are persons often brought into near contact by the relations of life, and bound to each other by a love so close, that they are perfectly indispensable to each other, who yet act upon each other as a file upon a diamond, by a slow and gradual friction, the pain of which is so equable, so constantly diffused through life, as scarcely ever at any time to force itself upon the mind as a reality.

There are people who are often brought together through life's circumstances and are so closely connected by love that they become essential to each other. Yet, they affect one another like a file on a diamond, creating a slow and gradual friction. The discomfort from this is so evenly spread throughout their lives that it rarely feels like a real issue that demands attention.

Such had been the history of the affection of Mara for Moses. It had been a deep, inward, concentrated passion that had almost absorbed self-consciousness, and made her keenly alive to all the moody, restless, passionate changes of his nature; it had brought with it that craving for sympathy and return which such love ever will, and yet it was fixed upon a nature so different and so uncomprehending that the action had for years been one of pain more than pleasure. Even now, when she had him at home with her and busied herself with constant cares for him, there was a sort of disturbing, unquiet element in the history of every day. The longing for him to come home at night,—the wish that he would stay with her,—the uncertainty whether he would or would not go and spend the evening with Sally,—the musing during the day over all that he had done and said the day before, were a constant interior excitement. For Moses, besides being in his moods quite variable and changeable, had also a good deal of the dramatic element in him, and put on sundry appearances in the way of experiment.

Such had been the history of Mara's feelings for Moses. It was a deep, intense passion that almost consumed her sense of self and made her acutely aware of all his moody, restless, and passionate changes. It brought with it a hunger for sympathy and reciprocation that such love inevitably does, yet it was directed at someone so different and so unable to understand her that the experience was more painful than pleasurable for years. Even now, with him at home and her constantly caring for him, there was a troubling, unsettled aspect to each day. She longed for him to come home at night, wished he’d stay with her, and felt anxious about whether he would spend the evening with Sally. Throughout the day, she would reflect on everything he had done and said the day before, creating a constant inner excitement. Moses, besides being quite variable in his moods, also had a dramatic flair and often tried out different personas.

He would feign to have quarreled with Sally, that he might detect whether Mara would betray some gladness; but she only evinced concern and a desire to make up the difficulty. He would discuss her character and her fitness to make a man happy in matrimony in the style that young[Pg 277] gentlemen use who think their happiness a point of great consequence in the creation; and Mara, always cool, and firm, and sensible, would talk with him in the most maternal style possible, and caution him against trifling with her affections. Then again he would be lavish in his praise of Sally's beauty, vivacity, and energy, and Mara would join with the most apparently unaffected delight. Sometimes he ventured, on the other side, to rally her on some future husband, and predict the days when all the attentions which she was daily bestowing on him would be for another; and here, as everywhere else, he found his little Sphinx perfectly inscrutable. Instinct teaches the grass-bird, who hides her eggs under long meadow grass, to creep timidly yards from the nest, and then fly up boldly in the wrong place; and a like instinct teaches shy girls all kinds of unconscious stratagems when the one secret of their life is approached. They may be as truthful in all other things as the strictest Puritan, but here they deceive by an infallible necessity. And meanwhile, where was Sally Kittridge in all this matter? Was her heart in the least touched by the black eyes and long lashes? Who can say? Had she a heart? Well, Sally was a good girl. When one got sufficiently far down through the foam and froth of the surface to find what was in the depths of her nature, there was abundance there of good womanly feeling, generous and strong, if one could but get at it.

He pretended to have argued with Sally to see if Mara would reveal any joy; but she only showed concern and a desire to fix the issue. He would talk about her character and how suitable she was for making a man happy in marriage, like young guys do who think their happiness is a big deal. Mara, always calm, steadfast, and sensible, would respond in the most motherly way possible, warning him against playing with her feelings. Then he would overdo his compliments about Sally's beauty, energy, and charm, and Mara would join in with seemingly genuine delight. Sometimes he would tease her about a future husband, predicting the days when all the attention she was giving him would go to someone else; and here, like everywhere else, he found her completely inscrutable. Instinct tells the grass-bird, who hides her eggs in the long grass, to creep away from the nest and then suddenly fly up in the wrong spot; similarly, shy girls have all sorts of unconscious tricks when the one secret of their lives is brought up. They might be completely honest in every other aspect, but here they deceive out of an undeniable necessity. And meanwhile, where was Sally Kittridge in all this? Was her heart affected at all by the dark eyes and long lashes? Who knows? Did she even have a heart? Well, Sally was a good girl. Once you got deep enough past the surface to discover what lay within her nature, you found plenty of good womanly feelings—generous and strong—if only you could reach it.

She was the best and brightest of daughters to the old Captain, whose accounts she kept, whose clothes she mended, whose dinner she often dressed and carried to him, from loving choice; and Mrs. Kittridge regarded her housewifely accomplishments with pride, though she never spoke to her otherwise than in words of criticism and rebuke, as in her view an honest mother should who means to keep a flourishing sprig of a daughter within limits of a proper humility.[Pg 278]

She was the best and brightest daughter to the old Captain, keeping track of his accounts, mending his clothes, and often preparing and bringing his dinner to him out of love. Mrs. Kittridge took pride in her housewifely skills, even though she always spoke to her in a critical and scolding manner, believing that a responsible mother should keep a thriving daughter grounded in proper humility.[Pg 278]

But as for any sentiment or love toward any person of the other sex, Sally, as yet, had it not. Her numerous admirers were only so many subjects for the exercise of her dear delight of teasing, and Moses Pennel, the last and most considerable, differed from the rest only in the fact that he was a match for her in this redoubtable art and science, and this made the game she was playing with him altogether more stimulating than that she had carried on with any other of her admirers. For Moses could sulk and storm for effect, and clear off as bright as Harpswell Bay after a thunder-storm—for effect also. Moses could play jealous, and make believe all those thousand-and-one shadowy nothings that coquettes, male and female, get up to carry their points with; and so their quarrels and their makings-up were as manifold as the sea-breezes that ruffled the ocean before the Captain's door.

But as for any feelings or love for anyone of the opposite sex, Sally didn’t have that yet. Her many admirers were just targets for her favorite pastime of teasing, and Moses Pennel, the most significant among them, was different only in that he could match her in this skillful art. This made her game with him much more exciting than with any of her other admirers. Moses could sulk and throw a tantrum for effect, then brighten up like Harpswell Bay after a thunderstorm—also for effect. He could act jealous and pretend to engage in all those countless little dramas that flirts, both male and female, create to get their way. Their arguments and make-ups were as varied as the sea breezes that stirred the ocean outside the Captain's door.

There is but one danger in play of this kind, and that is, that deep down in the breast of every slippery, frothy, elfish Undine sleeps the germ of an unawakened soul, which suddenly, in the course of some such trafficking with the outward shows and seemings of affection, may wake up and make of the teasing, tricksy elf a sad and earnest woman—a creature of loves and self-denials and faithfulness unto death—in short, something altogether too good, too sacred to be trifled with; and when a man enters the game protected by a previous attachment which absorbs all his nature, and the woman awakes in all her depth and strength to feel the real meaning of love and life, she finds that she has played with one stronger than she, at a terrible disadvantage.

There’s only one danger in this kind of game, and that’s the fact that deep down in the heart of every slippery, frothy, mischievous Undine lies the seed of an unawakened soul, which may suddenly awaken during some sort of trading in the superficial displays of affection. This can transform the teasing, tricky elf into a serious and earnest woman—a being full of love, self-sacrifice, and loyalty until death—in short, something way too good and sacred to be messed with. When a man enters this game, committed to a previous relationship that takes up all his attention, and the woman awakens to fully understand the true meaning of love and life, she realizes she has played with someone stronger than she, at a very unfair disadvantage.

Is this mine lying dark and evil under the saucy little feet of our Sally? Well, we should not of course be surprised some day to find it so.

Is this mine sitting dark and wicked under the sassy little feet of our Sally? Well, we shouldn't be surprised someday to find it that way.


CHAPTER XXIX

NIGHT TALKS

[Pg 279]October is come, and among the black glooms of the pine forests flare out the scarlet branches of the rock-maple, and the beech-groves are all arrayed in gold, through which the sunlight streams in subdued richness. October is come with long, bright, hazy days, swathing in purple mists the rainbow brightness of the forests, and blending the otherwise gaudy and flaunting colors into wondrous harmonies of splendor. And Moses Pennel's ship is all built and ready, waiting only a favorable day for her launching.

[Pg 279]October has arrived, and amid the dark shadows of the pine forests, the bright red branches of the rock-maple shine out, while the beech trees are dressed in gold, with sunlight streaming through, creating a soft richness. October brings long, bright, hazy days that wrap the colorful forests in purple mists, blending the otherwise loud and showy colors into beautiful harmonies of splendor. And Moses Pennel's ship is completely built and ready, just waiting for a good day to launch.

And just at this moment Moses is sauntering home from Captain Kittridge's in company with Sally, for Mara has sent him to bring her to tea with them. Moses is in high spirits; everything has succeeded to his wishes; and as the two walk along the high, bold, rocky shore, his eye glances out to the open ocean, where the sun is setting, and the fresh wind blowing, and the white sails flying, and already fancies himself a sea-king, commanding his own place, and going from land to land.

And right now, Moses is casually making his way home from Captain Kittridge's place with Sally, since Mara asked him to bring her along for tea. Moses is feeling really good; everything has gone according to plan. As they stroll along the high, rugged shoreline, he looks out at the open ocean where the sun is setting, the fresh wind is blowing, and the white sails are flying. He already imagines himself as a sea king, ruling over his own domain and traveling from one land to another.

"There hasn't been a more beautiful ship built here these twenty years," he says, in triumph.

"There hasn't been a more beautiful ship built here in the last twenty years," he says, triumphantly.

"Oho, Mr. Conceit," said Sally, "that's only because it's yours now—your geese are all swans. I wish you could have seen the Typhoon, that Ben Drummond sailed in—a real handsome fellow he was. What a pity there aren't more like him!"

"Oho, Mr. Conceit," said Sally, "that's just because it's yours now—your geese are all swans. I wish you could have seen the Typhoon that Ben Drummond sailed in—a really handsome guy he was. What a shame there aren't more like him!"

"I don't enter on the merits of Ben Drummond's beauty," said Moses; "but I don't believe the Typhoon[Pg 280] was one whit superior to our ship. Besides, Miss Sally, I thought you were going to take it under your especial patronage, and let me honor it with your name."

"I won't discuss whether Ben Drummond is actually good-looking," said Moses, "but I really don't think the Typhoon[Pg 280] was any better than our ship. By the way, Miss Sally, I thought you were going to take it under your special patronage and let me name it after you."

"How absurd you always will be talking about that—why don't you call it after Mara?"

"How silly you are always talking about that—why don’t you just name it after Mara?"

"After Mara?" said Moses. "I don't want to—it wouldn't be appropriate—one wants a different kind of girl to name a ship after—something bold and bright and dashing!"

"After Mara?" Moses said. "I don't want to—it wouldn't feel right—one wants a different kind of girl to name a ship after—something bold and bright and adventurous!"

"Thank you, sir, but I prefer not to have my bold and dashing qualities immortalized in this way," said Sally; "besides, sir, how do I know that you wouldn't run me on a rock the very first thing? When I give my name to a ship, it must have an experienced commander," she added, maliciously, for she knew that Moses was specially vulnerable on this point.

"Thank you, sir, but I’d rather not have my bold and adventurous qualities captured like this," said Sally; "besides, sir, how do I know you wouldn’t crash me into a rock right off the bat? When I name a ship, it needs to have a skilled captain," she added, playfully, knowing that Moses was particularly sensitive about this issue.

"As you please," said Moses, with heightened color. "Allow me to remark that he who shall ever undertake to command the 'Sally Kittridge' will have need of all his experience—and then, perhaps, not be able to know the ways of the craft."

"As you wish," said Moses, his face flushed. "Let me just say that anyone who takes on the command of the 'Sally Kittridge' will need all their experience—and even then, they might still struggle to understand how the ship operates."

"See him now," said Sally, with a malicious laugh; "we are getting wrathy, are we?"

"Look at him now," Sally said with a sneaky laugh. "Are we getting angry, huh?"

"Not I," said Moses; "it would cost altogether too much exertion to get angry at every teasing thing you choose to say, Miss Sally. By and by I shall be gone, and then won't your conscience trouble you?"

"Not me," said Moses; "it would take way too much effort to get upset about every little thing you decide to say, Miss Sally. Eventually, I’ll be gone, and then won't your conscience bother you?"

"My conscience is all easy, so far as you are concerned, sir; your self-esteem is too deep-rooted to suffer much from my poor little nips—they produce no more impression than a cat-bird pecking at the cones of that spruce-tree yonder. Now don't you put your hand where your heart is supposed to be—there's nobody at home there, you know. There's Mara coming to meet us;" and Sally bounded forward to meet Mara with all those demonstra[Pg 281]tions of extreme delight which young girls are fond of showering on each other.

"My conscience is clear when it comes to you, sir; your self-esteem is too strong to be affected much by my little jabs—they're no more significant than a catbird pecking at the cones of that spruce tree over there. Now don't go putting your hand where your heart is supposed to be—there's nobody there, you know. Here comes Mara to meet us;" and Sally sprang forward to greet Mara with all the enthusiastic joy that young girls love to share with each other.

"It's such a beautiful evening," said Mara, "and we are all in such good spirits about Moses's ship, and I told him you must come down and hold counsel with us as to what was to be done about the launching; and the name, you know, that is to be decided on—are you going to let it be called after you?"

"It's such a beautiful evening," Mara said, "and we’re all feeling great about Moses's ship. I told him you should come down and talk with us about what needs to be done for the launch; and don't forget the name—we need to decide that. Are you going to let it be named after you?"

"Not I, indeed. I should always be reading in the papers of horrible accidents that had happened to the 'Sally Kittridge.'"

"Not me, for sure. I always read in the news about terrible accidents that had happened to the 'Sally Kittridge.'"

"Sally has so set her heart on my being unlucky," said Moses, "that I believe if I make a prosperous voyage, the disappointment would injure her health."

"Sally is so convinced that I'm unlucky," said Moses, "that I think if I have a successful voyage, the disappointment would affect her health."

"She doesn't mean what she says," said Mara; "but I think there are some objections in a young lady's name being given to a ship."

"She doesn't really mean what she says," Mara said; "but I think there are some issues with a young lady's name being given to a ship."

"Then I suppose, Mara," said Moses, "that you would not have yours either?"

"Then I guess, Mara," said Moses, "that you wouldn't have yours either?"

"I would be glad to accommodate you in anything but that," said Mara, quietly; but she added, "Why need the ship be named for anybody? A ship is such a beautiful, graceful thing, it should have a fancy name."

"I'd be happy to help you with anything except that," Mara said quietly; but she added, "Why does the ship need to be named after someone? A ship is such a beautiful, graceful thing; it deserves a fancy name."

"Well, suggest one," said Moses.

"Well, suggest one," Moses said.

"Don't you remember," said Mara, "one Saturday afternoon, when you and Sally and I launched your little ship down in the cove after you had come from your first voyage at the Banks?"

"Don't you remember," Mara said, "one Saturday afternoon when you, Sally, and I launched your little ship down in the cove after you returned from your first trip at the Banks?"

"I do," said Sally. "We called that the Ariel, Mara, after that old torn play you were so fond of. That's a pretty name for a ship."

"I do," said Sally. "We named it the Ariel, Mara, after that old, tattered play you loved so much. That's a nice name for a ship."

"Why not take that?" said Mara.

"Why not take that?" Mara said.

"I bow to the decree," said Moses. "The Ariel it shall be."

"I agree to the order," said Moses. "It will be the Ariel."

"Yes; and you remember," said Sally, "Mr. Moses[Pg 282] here promised at that time that he would build a ship, and take us two round the world with him."

"Yeah, and you remember," Sally said, "Mr. Moses[Pg 282] promised back then that he would build a ship and take us both around the world with him."

Moses's eyes fell upon Mara as Sally said these words with a sort of sudden earnestness of expression which struck her. He was really feeling very much about something, under all the bantering disguise of his demeanor, she said to herself. Could it be that he felt unhappy about his prospects with Sally? That careless liveliness of hers might wound him perhaps now, when he felt that he was soon to leave her.

Moses's gaze settled on Mara as Sally spoke with a sudden seriousness that caught her attention. He was clearly feeling deeply about something, despite the playful front he put on, she thought. Could it be that he was unhappy about his future with Sally? That carefree energy of hers might hurt him now, especially since he knew he would soon be leaving her.

Mara was conscious herself of a deep undercurrent of sadness as the time approached for the ship to sail that should carry Moses from her, and she could not but think some such feeling must possess her mind. In vain she looked into Sally's great Spanish eyes for any signs of a lurking softness or tenderness concealed under her sparkling vivacity. Sally's eyes were admirable windows of exactly the right size and color for an earnest, tender spirit to look out of, but just now there was nobody at the casement but a slippery elf peering out in tricksy defiance.

Mara could feel a deep sadness rising within her as the time came for the ship to sail away with Moses, and she couldn’t shake the feeling that something similar must be clouding her mind. She looked in vain into Sally's large Spanish eyes, searching for any hint of hidden softness or tenderness beneath her lively sparkle. Sally's eyes were perfect windows, just the right size and color for a sincere and caring spirit to peek out from, but at that moment, all that was visible was a mischievous elf looking out with playful defiance.

When the three arrived at the house, tea was waiting on the table for them. Mara fancied that Moses looked sad and preoccupied as they sat down to the tea-table, which Mrs. Pennel had set forth festively, with the best china and the finest tablecloth and the choicest sweetmeats. In fact, Moses did feel that sort of tumult and upheaving of the soul which a young man experiences when the great crisis comes which is to plunge him into the struggles of manhood. It is a time when he wants sympathy and is grated upon by uncomprehending merriment, and therefore his answers to Sally grew brief and even harsh at times, and Mara sometimes perceived him looking at herself with a singular fixedness of expression, though he withdrew his eyes whenever she turned hers to look on him. Like many another little woman, she had fixed a theory about her[Pg 283] friends, into which she was steadily interweaving all the facts she saw. Sally must love Moses, because she had known her from childhood as a good and affectionate girl, and it was impossible that she could have been going on with Moses as she had for the last six months without loving him. She must evidently have seen that he cared for her; and in how many ways had she shown that she liked his society and him! But then evidently she did not understand him, and Mara felt a little womanly self-pluming on the thought that she knew him so much better. She was resolved that she would talk with Sally about it, and show her that she was disappointing Moses and hurting his feelings. Yes, she said to herself, Sally has a kind heart, and her coquettish desire to conceal from him the extent of her affection ought now to give way to the outspoken tenderness of real love.

When the three got to the house, tea was ready for them on the table. Mara thought Moses looked sad and lost in thought as they sat down at the beautifully set tea table, complete with fine china, a lovely tablecloth, and delicious treats. In reality, Moses was feeling that kind of turmoil and inner struggle that a young man goes through when facing a major turning point into adulthood. It’s a time when he craves understanding but can’t stand joyful laughter that feels out of place, so his responses to Sally became short and even sharp at times. Mara sometimes caught him staring at her with an unusual intensity, but he would look away whenever she turned to meet his gaze. Like many other women, she had developed a theory about her friends and was weaving all the facts she observed into it. Sally must love Moses because she had known her since childhood as a caring and loving person, and it seemed impossible that she could have been with Moses for the last six months without having feelings for him. She must have noticed that he cared about her, and in so many ways, she had shown that she enjoyed his company and him! But it was clear that she didn’t truly understand him, and Mara felt a little proud thinking that she knew him so much better. She decided she would talk to Sally about it and make sure she knew she was letting Moses down and hurting his feelings. Yes, she thought, Sally has a kind heart, and her playful wish to hide just how much she loves him should now give way to the open affection of genuine love.

So Mara pressed Sally with the old-times request to stay and sleep with her; for these two, the only young girls in so lonely a neighborhood, had no means of excitement or dissipation beyond this occasional sleeping together—by which is meant, of course, lying awake all night talking.

So Mara urged Sally with the nostalgic request to stay and sleep over; for these two, the only young girls in such a lonely area, had no way to have fun or distract themselves besides this occasional sleepover—by which I mean, of course, staying awake all night chatting.

When they were alone together in their chamber, Sally let down her long black hair, and stood with her back to Mara brushing it. Mara sat looking out of the window, where the moon was making a wide sheet of silver-sparkling water. Everything was so quiet that the restless dash of the tide could be plainly heard. Sally was rattling away with her usual gayety.

When they were alone in their room, Sally let down her long black hair and stood with her back to Mara as she brushed it. Mara sat looking out the window, where the moon was creating a broad sheet of silver-sparkling water. It was so quiet that they could clearly hear the restless rush of the tide. Sally chattered on with her usual cheerfulness.

"And so the launching is to come off next Thursday. What shall you wear?"

"And so the launch is set for next Thursday. What are you going to wear?"

"I'm sure I haven't thought," said Mara.

"I'm sure I haven't thought about it," Mara said.

"Well, I shall try and finish my blue merino for the occasion. What fun it will be! I never was on a ship when it was launched, and I think it will be something perfectly splendid!"[Pg 284]

"Well, I'll try to finish my blue merino for the event. It'll be so much fun! I've never been on a ship when it was launched, and I think it’ll be absolutely amazing!"[Pg 284]

"But doesn't it sometimes seem sad to think that after all this Moses will leave us to be gone so long?"

"But doesn't it sometimes feel sad to think that after everything, Moses will be gone for such a long time?"

"What do I care?" said Sally, tossing back her long hair as she brushed it, and then stopping to examine one of her eyelashes.

"What do I care?" Sally said, tossing her long hair back as she brushed it, then stopping to check one of her eyelashes.

"Sally dear, you often speak in that way," said Mara, "but really and seriously, you do yourself great injustice. You could not certainly have been going on as you have these six months past with a man you did not care for."

"Sally, my dear, you often talk like that," said Mara, "but honestly, you're really being unfair to yourself. There's no way you could have been behaving the way you have for the past six months with a guy you didn't care about."

"Well, I do care for him, 'sort o','" said Sally; "but is that any reason I should break my heart for his going?—that's too much for any man."

"Well, I do care about him, kind of," said Sally; "but is that any reason for me to break my heart over him leaving?—that's too much to ask of anyone."

"But, Sally, you must know that Moses loves you."

"But, Sally, you have to know that Moses loves you."

"I'm not so sure," said Sally, freakishly tossing her head and laughing.

"I'm not so sure," said Sally, tossing her head wildly and laughing.

"If he did not," said Mara, "why has he sought you so much, and taken every opportunity to be with you? I'm sure I've been left here alone hour after hour, when my only comfort was that it was because my two best friends loved each other, as I know they must some time love some one better than they do me."

"If he didn't," Mara said, "then why has he tried so hard to be around you and taken every chance to spend time with you? I've been left alone here for hours, and the only thing that comforted me was knowing that my two best friends care about each other, as I’m sure they will eventually care for someone more than they care for me."

The most practiced self-control must fail some time, and Mara's voice faltered on these last words, and she put her hands over her eyes. Sally turned quickly and looked at her, then giving her hair a sudden fold round her shoulders, and running to her friend, she kneeled down on the floor by her, and put her arms round her waist, and looked up into her face with an air of more gravity than she commonly used.

The strongest self-control will break down eventually, and Mara's voice wavered on those last words as she covered her eyes with her hands. Sally turned swiftly to look at her, then wrapped a section of her hair around her shoulders, and ran to her friend. She knelt on the floor beside her, wrapped her arms around her waist, and looked up into her face with a seriousness she usually didn’t show.

"Now, Mara, what a wicked, inconsistent fool I have been! Did you feel lonesome?—did you care? I ought to have seen that; but I'm selfish, I love admiration, and I love to have some one to flatter me, and run after me; and so I've been going on and on in this silly way. But I didn't know you cared—indeed, I didn't—you are[Pg 285] such a deep little thing. Nobody can ever tell what you feel. I never shall forgive myself, if you have been lonesome, for you are worth five hundred times as much as I am. You really do love Moses. I don't."

"Now, Mara, what a foolish and inconsistent person I’ve been! Did you feel lonely?—did you care? I should have noticed that; but I'm selfish, I love attention, and I enjoy having someone who flatters me and chases after me; and so I’ve kept going on like this. But I didn’t realize you cared—honestly, I didn’t—you are[Pg 285] such a deep little soul. No one can ever tell what you’re feeling. I will never forgive myself if you’ve been lonely, because you are worth five hundred times more than I am. You really do love Moses. I don’t."

"I do love him as a dear brother," said Mara.

"I really love him like a dear brother," said Mara.

"Dear fiddlestick," said Sally. "Love is love; and when a person loves all she can, it isn't much use to talk so. I've been a wicked sinner, that I have. Love? Do you suppose I would bear with Moses Pennel all his ins and outs and ups and downs, and be always putting him before myself in everything, as you do? No, I couldn't; I haven't it in me; but you have. He's a sinner, too, and deserves to get me for a wife. But, Mara, I have tormented him well—there's some comfort in that."

"Dear fiddlestick," Sally said. "Love is love; and when someone loves as much as they can, it doesn't help to talk like that. I've been a wicked sinner, that's true. Love? Do you really think I could put up with Moses Pennel through all his drama and always prioritize him like you do? No, I couldn't; I just don't have it in me, but you do. He's a sinner, too, and deserves to have me as his wife. But, Mara, I've certainly given him a hard time—there's some comfort in that."

"It's no comfort to me," said Mara. "I see his heart is set on you—the happiness of his life depends on you—and that he is pained and hurt when you give him only cold, trifling words when he needs real true love. It is a serious thing, dear, to have a strong man set his whole heart on you. It will do him a great good or a great evil, and you ought not to make light of it."

"It's not comforting for me," said Mara. "I can see that his heart is set on you—his happiness relies on you—and it hurts him when you respond with only cold, superficial words instead of real love. It's a big deal, dear, to have a strong man place all his feelings on you. It can either uplift him or bring him down, and you shouldn't take it lightly."

"Oh, pshaw, Mara, you don't know these fellows; they are only playing games with us. If they once catch us, they have no mercy; and for one here's a child that isn't going to be caught. I can see plain enough that Moses Pennel has been trying to get me in love with him, but he doesn't love me. No, he doesn't," said Sally, reflectively. "He only wants to make a conquest of me, and I'm just the same. I want to make a conquest of him,—at least I have been wanting to,—but now I see it's a false, wicked kind of way to do as we've been doing."

"Oh, come on, Mara, you don't know these guys; they’re just playing games with us. If they ever catch us, they won’t show any mercy, and here’s one girl who isn’t going to get caught. I can see clearly that Moses Pennel has been trying to win me over, but he doesn’t actually love me. No, he doesn’t," said Sally, thoughtfully. "He just wants to conquer me, and I’m just the same. I want to conquer him—at least, I used to want that—but now I realize it’s a false and wicked way to go about things like we have been."

"And is it really possible, Sally, that you don't love him?" said Mara, her large, serious eyes looking into Sally's. "What! be with him so much,—seem to like him so much,—look at him as I have seen you do,—and not love him!"[Pg 286]

"And is it really possible, Sally, that you don't love him?" Mara asked, her big, serious eyes staring intently at Sally. "What! You spend so much time with him, seem to like him so much, look at him the way I've seen you do—and you don't love him?"[Pg 286]

"I can't help my eyes; they will look so," said Sally, hiding her face in Mara's lap with a sort of coquettish consciousness. "I tell you I've been silly and wicked; but he's just the same exactly."

"I can't control my eyes; they're going to look anyway," said Sally, hiding her face in Mara's lap with a playful awareness. "I admit I've been silly and mischievous; but he's exactly the same."

"And you have worn his ring all summer?"

"And you've had his ring on all summer?"

"Yes, and he has worn mine; and I have a lock of his hair, and he has a lock of mine; yet I don't believe he cares for them a bit. Oh, his heart is safe enough. If he has any, it isn't with me: that I know."

"Yes, he’s worn mine, and I have a lock of his hair, and he has a lock of mine; still, I don’t think he cares about them at all. Oh, his heart is safe. If he has one, it’s definitely not with me: I know that for sure."

"But if you found it were, Sally? Suppose you found that, after all, you were the one love and hope of his life; that all he was doing and thinking was for you; that he was laboring, and toiling, and leaving home, so that he might some day offer you a heart and home, and be your best friend for life? Perhaps he dares not tell you how he really does feel."

"But what if you discovered it was true, Sally? What if you found out that you were, after all, the love and hope of his life; that everything he was doing and thinking was for you; that he was working hard, making sacrifices, and staying away from home so that one day he could offer you his heart and a home, and be your best friend for life? Maybe he’s too afraid to tell you how he really feels."

"It's no such thing! it's no such thing!" said Sally, lifting up her head, with her eyes full of tears, which she dashed angrily away. "What am I crying for? I hate him. I'm glad he's going away. Lately it has been such a trouble to me to have things go on so. I'm really getting to dislike him. You are the one he ought to love. Perhaps all this time you are the one he does love," said Sally, with a sudden energy, as if a new thought had dawned in her mind.

"That's not true! That's not true!" Sally shouted, lifting her head, her eyes brimming with tears that she angrily wiped away. "Why am I crying? I can’t stand him. I’m glad he’s leaving. Lately, it’s been such a hassle to have things this way. I’m really starting to dislike him. You’re the one he should love. Maybe all this time, you’re the one he actually loves," Sally said, her voice suddenly stronger, as if a new idea had just struck her.

"Oh, no; he does not even love me as he once did, when we were children," said Mara. "He is so shut up in himself, so reserved, I know nothing about what passes in his heart."

"Oh, no; he doesn't even love me like he used to when we were kids," said Mara. "He's so closed off, so distant; I don't know anything about what's going on in his heart."

"No more does anybody," said Sally. "Moses Pennel isn't one that says and does things straightforward because he feels so; but he says and does them to see what you will do. That's his way. Nobody knows why he has been going on with me as he has. He has had his own reasons, doubtless, as I have had mine."[Pg 287]

"Nobody does anymore," Sally said. "Moses Pennel isn’t the type to be direct about what he thinks or feels; instead, he says and does things just to see how you react. That’s just who he is. No one really knows why he’s been dealing with me the way he has. He probably has his own reasons, just like I have mine."[Pg 287]

"He has admired you very much, Sally," said Mara, "and praised you to me very warmly. He thinks you are so handsome. I could tell you ever so many things he has said about you. He knows as I do that you are a more enterprising, practical sort of body than I am, too. Everybody thinks you are engaged. I have heard it spoken of everywhere."

"He has really admired you, Sally," said Mara, "and he has spoken very highly of you to me. He thinks you're really good-looking. I could tell you so many things he has said about you. He knows, like I do, that you are more adventurous and practical than I am, too. Everyone thinks you’re engaged. I’ve heard it mentioned all over the place."

"Everybody is mistaken, then, as usual," said Sally. "Perhaps Aunt Roxy was in the right of it when she said that Moses would never be in love with anybody but himself."

"Everyone's wrong, as usual," said Sally. "Maybe Aunt Roxy was right when she said that Moses would only ever love himself."

"Aunt Roxy has always been prejudiced and unjust to Moses," said Mara, her cheeks flushing. "She never liked him from a child, and she never can be made to see anything good in him. I know that he has a deep heart,—a nature that craves affection and sympathy; and it is only because he is so sensitive that he is so reserved and conceals his feelings so much. He has a noble, kind heart, and I believe he truly loves you, Sally; it must be so."

"Aunt Roxy has always been biased and unfair to Moses," Mara said, her cheeks turning red. "She never liked him as a child, and she will never be able to see anything good in him. I know he has a deep heart—a nature that craves love and understanding; it’s only because he’s so sensitive that he’s so reserved and hides his feelings. He has a noble and kind heart, and I truly believe he loves you, Sally; it has to be true."

Sally rose from the floor and went on arranging her hair without speaking. Something seemed to disturb her mind. She bit her lip, and threw down the brush and comb violently. In the clear depths of the little square of looking-glass a face looked into hers, whose eyes were perturbed as if with the shadows of some coming inward storm; the black brows were knit, and the lips quivered. She drew a long breath and burst out into a loud laugh.

Sally got up from the floor and continued fixing her hair without saying a word. It looked like something was bothering her. She bit her lip and angrily tossed the brush and comb aside. In the bright depths of the small mirror, a face stared back at her, its eyes troubled as if haunted by the shadows of an approaching internal storm; her dark brows were furrowed, and her lips trembled. She took a deep breath and suddenly let out a loud laugh.

"What are you laughing at now?" said Mara, who stood in her white night-dress by the window, with her hair falling in golden waves about her face.

"What are you laughing at now?" said Mara, who stood in her white nightgown by the window, with her hair cascading in golden waves around her face.

"Oh, because these fellows are so funny," said Sally; "it's such fun to see their actions. Come now," she added, turning to Mara, "don't look so grave and sanctified. It's better to laugh than cry about things, any time. It's a great deal better to be made hard-hearted like me,[Pg 288] and not care for anybody, than to be like you, for instance. The idea of any one's being in love is the drollest thing to me. I haven't the least idea how it feels. I wonder if I ever shall be in love!"

"Oh, these guys are just so funny," Sally said; "it's such a blast to watch them. Come on," she added, turning to Mara, "don't look so serious and holy. It's way better to laugh than to cry about things, any time. It’s a lot better to be tough like me,[Pg 288] and not care about anyone, than to be like you, for example. The idea of someone being in love is the silliest thing to me. I have no idea what it feels like. I wonder if I ever will be in love!"

"It will come to you in its time, Sally."

"It will come to you when the time is right, Sally."

"Oh, yes,—I suppose like the chicken-pox or the whooping cough," said Sally; "one of the things to be gone through with, and rather disagreeable while it lasts,—so I hope to put it off as long as possible."

"Oh, definitely,—I guess it's like chickenpox or whooping cough," said Sally; "just something you have to deal with, and it’s pretty unpleasant while it lasts,—so I hope to delay it for as long as I can."

"Well, come," said Mara, "we must not sit up all night."

"Well, come on," said Mara, "we shouldn't stay up all night."

After the two girls were nestled into bed and the light out, instead of the brisk chatter there fell a great silence between them. The full round moon cast the reflection of the window on the white bed, and the ever restless moan of the sea became more audible in the fixed stillness. The two faces, both young and fair, yet so different in their expression, lay each still on its pillow,—their wide-open eyes gleaming out in the shadow like mystical gems. Each was breathing softly, as if afraid of disturbing the other. At last Sally gave an impatient movement.

After the two girls were settled into bed and the light was out, a heavy silence fell between them instead of the usual lively chatter. The full round moon cast the window's reflection on the white bed, and the restless sound of the sea became more noticeable in the stillness. The two faces, both young and beautiful but so different in their expressions, lay still on their pillows—each with wide-open eyes sparkling in the shadows like mystical gems. They were both breathing softly, as if afraid to disturb the other. Finally, Sally shifted impatiently.

"How lonesome the sea sounds in the night," she said. "I wish it would ever be still."

"How lonely the sea sounds at night," she said. "I wish it would just be quiet."

"I like to hear it," said Mara. "When I was in Boston, for a while I thought I could not sleep, I used to miss it so much."

"I like hearing it," said Mara. "When I was in Boston, there was a time I thought I couldn't sleep because I missed it so much."

There was another silence, which lasted so long that each girl thought the other asleep, and moved softly, but at a restless movement from Sally, Mara spoke again.

There was another silence that went on for so long that each girl assumed the other was asleep and shifted quietly, but when Sally stirred restlessly, Mara spoke up again.

"Sally,—you asleep?"

"Sally, are you asleep?"

"No,—I thought you were."

"No, I thought you were."

"I wanted to ask you," said Mara, "did Moses ever say anything to you about me?—you know I told you how much he said about you."

"I wanted to ask you," Mara said, "did Moses ever mention me to you?—you know I told you how much he talked about you."

"Yes; he asked me once if you were engaged to Mr. Adams."[Pg 289]

"Yeah, he asked me once if you were dating Mr. Adams."[Pg 289]

"And what did you tell him?" said Mara, with increasing interest.

"And what did you say to him?" Mara asked, her interest growing.

"Well, I only plagued him. I sometimes made him think you were, and sometimes that you were not; and then again, that there was a deep mystery in hand. But I praised and glorified Mr. Adams, and told him what a splendid match it would be, and put on any little bits of embroidery here and there that I could lay hands on. I used to make him sulky and gloomy for a whole evening sometimes. In that way it was one of the best weapons I had."

"Well, I just teased him. Sometimes I made him think you were interested, and other times that you weren't; then again, I suggested there was some deep mystery involved. But I complimented Mr. Adams, telling him what a great match it would be, and I added any little embellishments I could think of. I would make him moody and downcast for an entire evening sometimes. In that way, it was one of the best tools I had."

"Sally, what does make you love to tease people so?" said Mara.

"Sally, why do you love to tease people so much?" said Mara.

"Why, you know the hymn says,—

"Well, you know the hymn says,—

'Let dogs delight to bark and bite,
For God hath made them so;
Let bears and lions growl and fight,
For 'tis their nature too.'

'Let dogs enjoy barking and biting,
For God created them like that;
Let bears and lions snarl and clash,
Because it's part of their nature too.

That's all the account I can give of it."

That's all I can say about it."

"But," said Mara, "I never can rest easy a moment when I see I am making a person uncomfortable."

"But," Mara said, "I can never relax for a second when I see that I'm making someone uncomfortable."

"Well, I don't tease anybody but the men. I don't tease father or mother or you,—but men are fair game; they are such thumby, blundering creatures, and we can confuse them so."

"Well, I don't tease anyone except the men. I don't tease my father or mother or you—but men are fair game; they're such clumsy, awkward creatures, and we can really confuse them."

"Take care, Sally, it's playing with edge tools; you may lose your heart some day in this kind of game."

"Be careful, Sally, it's risky business; you might lose your heart someday in this kind of game."

"Never you fear," said Sally; "but aren't you sleepy?—let's go to sleep."

"Don't worry," Sally said. "But aren't you tired? Let's get some sleep."

Both girls turned their faces resolutely in opposite directions, and remained for an hour with their large eyes looking out into the moonlit chamber, like the fixed stars over Harpswell Bay. At last sleep drew softly down the fringy curtains.

Both girls turned their faces firmly in opposite directions, and stayed like that for an hour, their big eyes gazing out into the moonlit room, like the stationary stars over Harpswell Bay. Finally, sleep gently fell over the fringed curtains.


CHAPTER XXX

THE LAUNCH OF THE ARIEL

[Pg 290]In the plain, simple regions we are describing,—where the sea is the great avenue of active life, and the pine forests are the great source of wealth,—ship-building is an engrossing interest, and there is no fête that calls forth the community like the launching of a vessel. And no wonder; for what is there belonging to this workaday world of ours that has such a never-failing fund of poetry and grace as a ship? A ship is a beauty and a mystery wherever we see it: its white wings touch the regions of the unknown and the imaginative; they seem to us full of the odors of quaint, strange, foreign shores, where life, we fondly dream, moves in brighter currents than the muddy, tranquil tides of every day.

[Pg 290]In the straightforward, simple areas we're talking about—where the sea is the main route of lively activity, and the pine forests are the major source of wealth—ship-building is a huge interest, and there’s no celebration that brings the community together like the launching of a vessel. And it’s no surprise; what else in our everyday world holds such a constant charm and elegance as a ship? A ship is beautiful and mysterious wherever we see it: its white sails reach into the realms of the unknown and the imaginative; they seem filled with the scents of unusual, exotic shores, where life, we like to imagine, flows in brighter streams than the muddy, calm waters of daily life.

Who that sees one bound outward, with her white breasts swelling and heaving, as if with a reaching expectancy, does not feel his own heart swell with a longing impulse to go with her to the far-off shores? Even at dingy, crowded wharves, amid the stir and tumult of great cities, the coming in of a ship is an event that never can lose its interest. But on these romantic shores of Maine, where all is so wild and still, and the blue sea lies embraced in the arms of dark, solitary forests, the sudden incoming of a ship from a distant voyage is a sort of romance. Who that has stood by the blue waters of Middle Bay, engirdled as it is by soft slopes of green farming land, interchanged here and there with heavy billows of forest-trees, or rocky, pine-crowned promontories, has not felt that sense of seclu[Pg 291]sion and solitude which is so delightful? And then what a wonder! There comes a ship from China, drifting in like a white cloud,—the gallant creature! how the waters hiss and foam before her! with what a great free, generous plash she throws out her anchors, as if she said a cheerful "Well done!" to some glorious work accomplished! The very life and spirit of strange romantic lands come with her; suggestions of sandal-wood and spice breathe through the pine-woods; she is an oriental queen, with hands full of mystical gifts; "all her garments smell of myrrh and cassia, out of the ivory palaces, whereby they have made her glad." No wonder men have loved ships like birds, and that there have been found brave, rough hearts that in fatal wrecks chose rather to go down with their ocean love than to leave her in the last throes of her death-agony.

Who wouldn't feel their heart swell with longing when they see a ship coming in, its white sails billowing as if eager for something? Even at grimy, crowded docks in bustling cities, a ship's arrival is always captivating. But here, along the wild and peaceful shores of Maine, where the blue sea is cradled by dark, solitary forests, the sudden sight of a ship returning from a long journey feels like a romantic moment. Who hasn't felt the delightful sense of seclusion and solitude standing by the blue waters of Middle Bay, surrounded by gently sloping green farmland, interspersed with dense forests or rocky, pine-topped cliffs? And then what a wonder it is! A ship from China appears, gliding in like a white cloud—the brave vessel! Look how the water hisses and foams in front of her! With a big, free splash, she drops her anchors, as if saying a cheerful "Well done!" for a glorious journey completed! The very essence of distant, romantic lands comes with her; the aroma of sandalwood and spices wafts through the pine trees; she is like an Eastern queen, offering mystical treasures; "all her garments smell of myrrh and cassia, out of the ivory palaces, whereby they have made her glad." It’s no surprise that men have cherished ships like birds, and that some brave, rugged souls would rather perish with their beloved vessel in a fatal wreck than abandon her in her final moments.

A ship-building, a ship-sailing community has an unconscious poetry ever underlying its existence. Exotic ideas from foreign lands relieve the trite monotony of life; the ship-owner lives in communion with the whole world, and is less likely to fall into the petty commonplaces that infest the routine of inland life.

A shipbuilding and sailing community has a natural poetry that runs beneath its existence. Unique ideas from distant places break the usual monotony of life; the shipowner stays connected with the entire world and is less likely to get caught up in the mundane clichés that plague everyday life inland.

Never arose a clearer or lovelier October morning than that which was to start the Ariel on her watery pilgrimage. Moses had risen while the stars were yet twinkling over their own images in Middle Bay, to go down and see that everything was right; and in all the houses that we know in the vicinity, everybody woke with the one thought of being ready to go to the launching.

Never was there a clearer or more beautiful October morning than the one that would launch the Ariel on her watery journey. Moses had woken up while the stars were still twinkling over their reflections in Middle Bay, to check that everything was in order; and in all the nearby houses we knew, everyone woke with the same thought of getting ready for the launch.

Mrs. Pennel and Mara were also up by starlight, busy over the provisions for the ample cold collation that was to be spread in a barn adjoining the scene,—the materials for which they were packing into baskets covered with nice clean linen cloths, ready for the little sail-boat which lay within a stone's throw of the door in the brightening dawn, her white sails looking rosy in the advancing light.[Pg 292]

Mrs. Pennel and Mara were also up at dawn, preparing the food for the big cold buffet that was going to be set up in a barn next to the event. They were packing everything into baskets lined with nice, clean linen cloths, getting ready for the little sailboat that was just a short distance from the door in the early morning light, its white sails glowing pink in the rising sun.[Pg 292]

It had been agreed that the Pennels and the Kittridges should cross together in this boat with their contributions of good cheer.

It was decided that the Pennels and the Kittridges would ride together in this boat with their supplies of food and drink.

The Kittridges, too, had been astir with the dawn, intent on their quota of the festive preparations, in which Dame Kittridge's housewifely reputation was involved,—for it had been a disputed point in the neighborhood whether she or Mrs. Pennel made the best doughnuts; and of course, with this fact before her mind, her efforts in this line had been all but superhuman.

The Kittridges had also been up with the dawn, focused on their share of the festive preparations, which were tied to Dame Kittridge's reputation as a housewife. It had become a debated topic in the neighborhood over whether she or Mrs. Pennel made the best doughnuts; and with that in mind, her efforts in this area had been nearly superhuman.

The Captain skipped in and out in high feather,—occasionally pinching Sally's cheek, and asking if she were going as captain or mate upon the vessel after it was launched, for which he got in return a fillip of his sleeve or a sly twitch of his coat-tails, for Sally and her old father were on romping terms with each other from early childhood, a thing which drew frequent lectures from the always exhorting Mrs. Kittridge.

The Captain bounced in and out energetically, sometimes pinching Sally's cheek and asking if she was going to be the captain or mate on the ship after it launched. In response, she would flick his sleeve or give a playful tug at his coat-tails, since Sally and her old dad had been playful with each other since they were kids, which often led to lectures from the constantly advising Mrs. Kittridge.

"Such levity!" she said, as she saw Sally in full chase after his retreating figure, in order to be revenged for some sly allusions he had whispered in her ear.

"Such silliness!" she said, as she saw Sally chasing after his disappearing figure, wanting to get back at him for some sneaky comments he had whispered in her ear.

"Sally Kittridge! Sally Kittridge!" she called, "come back this minute. What are you about? I should think your father was old enough to know better."

"Sally Kittridge! Sally Kittridge!" she shouted, "come back right now. What are you doing? I would think your father is old enough to know better."

"Lawful sakes, Polly, it kind o' renews one's youth to get a new ship done," said the Captain, skipping in at another door. "Sort o' puts me in mind o' that I went out cap'en in when I was jist beginning to court you, as somebody else is courtin' our Sally here."

"Honestly, Polly, it feels like my youth comes back when I get a new ship ready," said the Captain, bouncing in through another door. "It reminds me of when I first became captain while I was just starting to date you, like someone else is dating our Sally here."

"Now, father," said Sally, threateningly, "what did I tell you?"

"Now, Dad," Sally said in a threatening tone, "what did I tell you?"

"It's really lemancholy," said the Captain, "to think how it does distress gals to talk to 'em 'bout the fellers, when they ain't thinkin' o' nothin' else all the time. They can't even laugh without sayin' he-he-he!"[Pg 293]

"It's really melancholy," said the Captain, "to think about how much it bothers girls to talk to them about the guys, when they’re not thinking about anything else all the time. They can’t even laugh without saying he-he-he!"[Pg 293]

"Now, father, you know I've told you five hundred times that I don't care a cent for Moses Pennel,—that he's a hateful creature," said Sally, looking very red and determined.

"Now, Dad, you know I've told you five hundred times that I don't give a damn about Moses Pennel—that he's a terrible person," said Sally, looking very red and determined.

"Yes, yes," said the Captain, "I take that ar's the reason you've ben a-wearin' the ring he gin you and them ribbins you've got on your neck this blessed minute, and why you've giggled off to singin'-school, and Lord knows where with him all summer,—that ar's clear now."

"Yeah, yeah," said the Captain, "I get that’s why you've been wearing the ring he gave you and those ribbons around your neck right now, and why you've been sneaking off to singing school, and who knows where else with him all summer—that’s obvious now."

"But, father," said Sally, getting redder and more earnest, "I don't care for him really, and I've told him so. I keep telling him so, and he will run after me."

"But, Dad," said Sally, getting redder and more serious, "I don't actually care about him, and I've told him that. I keep telling him, but he still chases after me."

"Haw! haw!" laughed the Captain; "he will, will he? Jist so, Sally; that ar's jist the way your ma there talked to me, and it kind o' 'couraged me along. I knew that gals always has to be read back'ard jist like the writin' in the Barbary States."

"Haw! haw!" laughed the Captain; "he will, will he? Just like that, Sally; that’s exactly how your mom talked to me, and it kind of encouraged me. I knew that girls always have to be read backwards just like the writing in the Barbary States."

"Captain Kittridge, will you stop such ridiculous talk?" said his helpmeet; "and jist carry this 'ere basket of cold chicken down to the landin' agin the Pennels come round in the boat; and you must step spry, for there's two more baskets a-comin'."

"Captain Kittridge, can you please stop with that ridiculous talk?" said his partner. "Just take this basket of cold chicken down to the landing before the Pennels arrive in the boat, and you need to move quickly because there are two more baskets on the way."

The Captain shouldered the basket and walked toward the sea with it, and Sally retired to her own little room to hold a farewell consultation with her mirror before she went.

The Captain grabbed the basket and walked toward the sea with it, while Sally went to her own little room to have a last chat with her mirror before she left.

You will perhaps think from the conversation that you heard the other night, that Sally now will cease all thought of coquettish allurement in her acquaintance with Moses, and cause him to see by an immediate and marked change her entire indifference. Probably, as she stands thoughtfully before her mirror, she is meditating on the propriety of laying aside the ribbons he gave her—perhaps she will alter that arrangement of her hair which is one that he himself particularly dictated as most becoming to the char[Pg 294]acter of her face. She opens a little drawer, which looks like a flower garden, all full of little knots of pink and blue and red, and various fancies of the toilet, and looks into it reflectively. She looses the ribbon from her hair and chooses another,—but Moses gave her that too, and said, she remembers, that when she wore that "he should know she had been thinking of him." Sally is Sally yet—as full of sly dashes of coquetry as a tulip is of streaks.

You might think, based on the conversation you overheard the other night, that Sally will stop all flirtation with Moses and show him her complete indifference through a noticeable change. Most likely, as she considers her reflection in the mirror, she is weighing whether to put aside the ribbons he gave her—maybe she'll change the way she styles her hair, which he specifically suggested suited her face best. She opens a little drawer that looks like a flower garden, filled with pink, blue, and red ribbons and various beauty items, and gazes into it thoughtfully. She takes the ribbon out of her hair and picks another one—but that one was given to her by Moses too, and she recalls him saying that when she wore it, "he should know she had been thinking of him." Sally is still the same—just as full of playful flirtation as a tulip is full of colorful streaks.

"There's no reason I should make myself look like a fright because I don't care for him," she says; "besides, after all that he has said, he ought to say more,—he ought at least to give me a chance to say no,—he shall, too," said the gypsy, winking at the bright, elfish face in the glass.

"There's no reason for me to make myself look bad just because I don't care for him," she says; "besides, after everything he's said, he should say more—he should at least give me a chance to say no—he will, too," said the gypsy, winking at the bright, mischievous face in the mirror.

"Sally Kittridge, Sally Kittridge," called her mother, "how long will you stay prinkin'?—come down this minute."

"Sally Kittridge, Sally Kittridge," her mother called, "how long are you going to be messing around?—come down right now."

"Law now, mother," said the Captain, "gals must prink afore such times; it's as natural as for hens to dress their feathers afore a thunder-storm."

"Come on now, mother," said the Captain, "girls have to get ready before events like this; it’s as natural as hens fluffing up their feathers before a thunderstorm."

Sally at last appeared, all in a flutter of ribbons and scarfs, whose bright, high colors assorted well with the ultramarine blue of her dress, and the vivid pomegranate hue of her cheeks. The boat with its white sails flapping was balancing and courtesying up and down on the waters, and in the stern sat Mara; her shining white straw hat trimmed with blue ribbons set off her golden hair and pink shell complexion. The dark, even penciling of her eyebrows, and the beauty of the brow above, the brown translucent clearness of her thoughtful eyes, made her face striking even with its extreme delicacy of tone. She was unusually animated and excited, and her cheeks had a rich bloom of that pure deep rose-color which flushes up in fair complexions under excitement, and her eyes had a kind of intense expression, for which they had always been remark[Pg 295]able. All the deep secluded yearning of repressed nature was looking out of them, giving that pathos which every one has felt at times in the silence of eyes.

Sally finally showed up, all flustered with ribbons and scarves, their bright, vibrant colors matching perfectly with the ultramarine blue of her dress and the rich pomegranate hue of her cheeks. The boat, with its white sails flapping, was bobbing up and down on the water, and in the back sat Mara; her shiny white straw hat, trimmed with blue ribbons, highlighted her golden hair and fair complexion. The dark, well-defined shape of her eyebrows and the beauty of her forehead, along with the brown, translucent clarity of her thoughtful eyes, made her face stand out even with its delicate tones. She was unusually lively and excited, and her cheeks glowed with a deep rose color that fair complexions get when they're thrilled, while her eyes had a kind of intense look that had always caught attention. All the deep, hidden yearning of her repressed nature was shining through, adding a kind of depth that everyone has felt at times in the quiet of someone's gaze.[Pg 295]

"Now bless that ar gal," said the Captain, when he saw her. "Our Sally here's handsome, but she's got the real New-Jerusalem look, she has—like them in the Revelations that wears the fine linen, clean and white."

"Now bless that girl," said the Captain when he saw her. "Our Sally here is pretty, but she's got that true New-Jerusalem vibe—like those in the Revelation who wear the fine linen, clean and white."

"Bless you, Captain Kittridge! don't be a-makin' a fool of yourself about no girl at your time o' life," said Mrs. Kittridge, speaking under her breath in a nipping, energetic tone, for they were coming too near the boat to speak very loud.

"Bless you, Captain Kittridge! Don't embarrass yourself over some girl at your age," said Mrs. Kittridge, speaking softly in a sharp, lively tone, since they were getting too close to the boat to talk too loudly.

"Good mornin', Mis' Pennel; we've got a good day, and a mercy it is so. 'Member when we launched the North Star, that it rained guns all the mornin', and the water got into the baskets when we was a-fetchin' the things over, and made a sight o' pester."

"Good morning, Miss Pennel; we have a nice day, and thankfully it is so. Remember when we launched the North Star, it rained heavily all morning, and the water soaked the baskets while we were bringing everything over, which caused a lot of trouble."

"Yes," said Mrs. Pennel, with an air of placid satisfaction, "everything seems to be going right about this vessel."

"Yes," said Mrs. Pennel, with a calm sense of satisfaction, "everything seems to be going well with this ship."

Mrs. Kittridge and Sally were soon accommodated with seats, and Zephaniah Pennel and the Captain began trimming sail. The day was one of those perfect gems of days which are to be found only in the jewel-casket of October, a day neither hot nor cold, with an air so clear that every distant pine-tree top stood out in vivid separateness, and every woody point and rocky island seemed cut out in crystalline clearness against the sky. There was so brisk a breeze that the boat slanted quite to the water's edge on one side, and Mara leaned over and pensively drew her little pearly hand through the water, and thought of the days when she and Moses took this sail together—she in her pink sun-bonnet, and he in his round straw hat, with a tin dinner-pail between them; and now, to-day the ship of her childish dreams was to be launched. That launch[Pg 296]ing was something she regarded almost with superstitious awe. The ship, built on one element, but designed to have its life in another, seemed an image of the soul, framed and fashioned with many a weary hammer-stroke in this life, but finding its true element only when it sails out into the ocean of eternity. Such was her thought as she looked down the clear, translucent depths; but would it have been of any use to try to utter it to anybody?—to Sally Kittridge, for example, who sat all in a cheerful rustle of bright ribbons beside her, and who would have shown her white teeth all round at such a suggestion, and said, "Now, Mara, who but you would have thought of that?"

Mrs. Kittridge and Sally were quickly settled into their seats, while Zephaniah Pennel and the Captain started adjusting the sails. The day was one of those perfect gems found only in October, a day that was neither hot nor cold, with an air so clear that every distant treetop stood out distinctly, and every wooded point and rocky island seemed sharply defined against the sky. A brisk breeze made the boat tilt almost to the water's edge on one side, and Mara leaned over, absently trailing her little pearly hand through the water, remembering the days when she and Moses took this sail together—she in her pink sunbonnet and he in his round straw hat, sharing a tin lunchbox between them; and now, today, the ship of her childhood dreams was about to be launched. That launch[Pg 296] felt almost sacred to her. The ship, built for one element but meant to thrive in another, seemed like a metaphor for the soul, crafted through many weary struggles in this life, yet only truly finding its place when it sails into the ocean of eternity. Such were her thoughts as she gazed into the clear, tranquil depths; but would it have been worthwhile to express them to anyone?—to Sally Kittridge, for instance, who sat beside her, all cheerful in bright ribbons, and who would have flashed her white teeth at such an idea, saying, "Now, Mara, who would have thought of that but you?"

But there are souls sent into this world who seem to have always mysterious affinities for the invisible and the unknown—who see the face of everything beautiful through a thin veil of mystery and sadness. The Germans call this yearning of spirit home-sickness—the dim remembrances of a spirit once affiliated to some higher sphere, of whose lost brightness all things fair are the vague reminders. As Mara looked pensively into the water, it seemed to her that every incident of life came up out of its depths to meet her. Her own face reflected in a wavering image, sometimes shaped itself to her gaze in the likeness of the pale lady of her childhood, who seemed to look up at her from the waters with dark, mysterious eyes of tender longing. Once or twice this dreamy effect grew so vivid that she shivered, and drawing herself up from the water, tried to take an interest in a very minute account which Mrs. Kittridge was giving of the way to make corn-fritters which should taste exactly like oysters. The closing direction about the quantity of mace Mrs. Kittridge felt was too sacred for common ears, and therefore whispered it into Mrs. Pennel's bonnet with a knowing nod and a look from her black spectacles which would not have been bad for a priestess of Dodona in giving out an oracle. In this secret[Pg 297] direction about the mace lay the whole mystery of corn-oysters; and who can say what consequences might ensue from casting it in an unguarded manner before the world?

But there are souls who come into this world with a natural connection to the unseen and unknown—who perceive the beauty in everything through a delicate layer of mystery and sadness. The Germans call this spiritual longing “home-sickness”—the faint memories of a spirit once connected to a higher realm, of which all lovely things are just vague reminders. As Mara gazed pensively into the water, it felt like every moment of life surfaced from its depths to meet her. Her own reflection wavered, at times taking the form of the pale lady from her childhood, who looked up at her from the water with dark, mysterious eyes filled with longing. A couple of times, this dreamy effect became so intense that she shivered, and pulling herself away from the water, she tried to focus on a detailed explanation that Mrs. Kittridge was giving about how to make corn-fritters that taste just like oysters. The final instruction regarding the amount of mace Mrs. Kittridge deemed too sacred for ordinary ears, so she whispered it into Mrs. Pennel's bonnet with a knowing nod and a look from her black spectacles that would have suited a priestess of Dodona giving an oracle. In this secret[Pg 297] instruction about the mace lay the entire mystery of corn-oysters; and who’s to say what consequences could arise from revealing it carelessly to the world?

And now the boat which has rounded Harpswell Point is skimming across to the head of Middle Bay, where the new ship can distinctly be discerned standing upon her ways, while moving clusters of people were walking up and down her decks or lining the shore in the vicinity. All sorts of gossiping and neighborly chit-chat is being interchanged in the little world assembling there.

And now the boat that has rounded Harpswell Point is gliding over to the head of Middle Bay, where you can clearly see the new ship sitting on her ways, while groups of people walk up and down her decks or line the nearby shore. All kinds of gossip and friendly chatter are being exchanged in the little community gathering there.

"I hain't seen the Pennels nor the Kittridges yet," said Aunt Ruey, whose little roly-poly figure was made illustrious in her best cinnamon-colored dyed silk. "There's Moses Pennel a-goin' up that ar ladder. Dear me, what a beautiful feller he is! it's a pity he ain't a-goin' to marry Mara Lincoln, after all."

"I haven't seen the Pennels or the Kittridges yet," said Aunt Ruey, whose little round figure looked great in her best cinnamon-colored dyed silk. "There's Moses Pennel going up that ladder. Goodness, what a handsome guy he is! It's a shame he's not going to marry Mara Lincoln, after all."

"Ruey, do hush up," said Miss Roxy, frowning sternly down from under the shadow of a preternatural black straw bonnet, trimmed with huge bows of black ribbon, which head-piece sat above her curls like a helmet. "Don't be a-gettin' sentimental, Ruey, whatever else you get—and talkin' like Miss Emily Sewell about match-makin'; I can't stand it; it rises on my stomach, such talk does. As to that ar Moses Pennel, folks ain't so certain as they thinks what he'll do. Sally Kittridge may think he's a-goin' to have her, because he's been a-foolin' round with her all summer, and Sally Kittridge may jist find she's mistaken, that's all."

"Ruey, be quiet," Miss Roxy said, frowning sternly from under the shadow of an unusually black straw bonnet, trimmed with large black ribbon bows, which sat above her curls like a helmet. "Don't get all sentimental, Ruey, no matter what else you do—and talking like Miss Emily Sewell about matchmaking; I can't handle it; that kind of talk makes me feel uneasy. As for that Moses Pennel, people aren't as sure as they think about what he’ll do. Sally Kittridge might think he’s going to choose her since he’s been hanging around her all summer, but Sally Kittridge might just find she’s wrong, that’s all."

"Yes," said Miss Ruey, "I 'member when I was a girl my old aunt, Jerushy Hopkins, used to be always a-dwellin' on this Scripture, and I've been havin' it brought up to me this mornin': 'There are three things which are too wonderful for me, yea, four, which I know not: the way of an eagle in the air, the way of a serpent upon a rock, the way of a ship in the sea, and the way of a man with a[Pg 298] maid.' She used to say it as a kind o' caution to me when she used to think Abram Peters was bein' attentive to me. I've often reflected what a massy it was that ar never come to nothin', for he's a poor drunken critter now."

"Yes," said Miss Ruey, "I remember when I was a girl my old aunt, Jerushy Hopkins, always used to dwell on this Scripture, and it came to my mind this morning: 'There are three things that are too amazing for me, yes, four that I don't understand: the way of an eagle in the air, the way of a serpent on a rock, the way of a ship at sea, and the way of a man with a [Pg 298] maid.' She would say it as a kind of warning to me when she thought Abram Peters was paying me too much attention. I've often thought about how that ended up being nothing, since he's just a poor drunken guy now."

"Well, for my part," said Miss Roxy, fixing her eyes critically on the boat that was just at the landing, "I should say the ways of a maid with a man was full as particular as any of the rest of 'em. Do look at Sally Kittridge now. There's Tom Hiers a-helpin' her out of the boat; and did you see the look she gin Moses Pennel as she went by him? Wal', Moses has got Mara on his arm anyhow; there's a gal worth six-and-twenty of the other. Do see them ribbins and scarfs, and the furbelows, and the way that ar Sally Kittridge handles her eyes. She's one that one feller ain't never enough for."

"Well, as for me," said Miss Roxy, focusing her gaze critically on the boat that had just arrived at the dock, "I’d say a girl’s ways with a guy are just as particular as anyone else’s. Look at Sally Kittridge now. There’s Tom Hiers helping her out of the boat; and did you see the look she gave Moses Pennel as she passed by him? Well, at least Moses has Mara on his arm; she’s a girl worth way more than the others. Just look at those ribbons and scarves, and the way that girl Sally Kittridge uses her eyes. She’s definitely someone who can’t be satisfied with just one guy."

Mara's heart beat fast when the boat touched the shore, and Moses and one or two other young men came to assist in their landing. Never had he looked more beautiful than at this moment, when flushed with excitement and satisfaction he stood on the shore, his straw hat off, and his black curls blowing in the sea-breeze. He looked at Sally with a look of frank admiration as she stood there dropping her long black lashes over her bright cheeks, and coquettishly looking out from under them, but she stepped forward with a little energy of movement, and took the offered hand of Tom Hiers, who was gazing at her too with undisguised rapture, and Moses, stepping into the boat, helped Mrs. Pennel on shore, and then took Mara on his arm, looking her over as he did so with a glance far less assured and direct than he had given to Sally.

Mara's heart raced when the boat reached the shore, and Moses, along with one or two other young men, came to help with their landing. He had never looked more handsome than at that moment, flushed with excitement and satisfaction as he stood on the beach, his straw hat off, with his black curls blowing in the sea breeze. He gazed at Sally with open admiration as she stood there, letting her long black lashes fall over her bright cheeks and playfully peeking out from underneath them. But she stepped forward with a bit of energy and took Tom Hiers' outstretched hand, who was also looking at her with unmistakable delight. Meanwhile, Moses climbed into the boat to assist Mrs. Pennel onto the shore, and then he offered his arm to Mara, giving her a glance that was noticeably less confident and direct than the one he had given to Sally.

"You won't be afraid to climb the ladders, Mara?" said he.

"You aren't scared to climb the ladders, Mara?" he asked.

"Not if you help me," she said.

"Not if you help me," she said.

Sally and Tom Hiers had already walked on toward the vessel, she ostentatiously chatting and laughing with him.[Pg 299] Moses's brow clouded a little, and Mara noticed it. Moses thought he did not care for Sally; he knew that the little hand that was now lying on his arm was the one he wanted, and yet he felt vexed when he saw Sally walk off triumphantly with another. It was the dog-in-the-manger feeling which possesses coquettes of both sexes. Sally, on all former occasions, had shown a marked preference for him, and professed supreme indifference to Tom Hiers.

Sally and Tom Hiers had already walked ahead towards the boat, and she was clearly chatting and laughing with him.[Pg 299] Moses frowned slightly, and Mara noticed. Moses thought he didn’t care about Sally; he knew the small hand resting on his arm was the one he truly wanted, yet he felt annoyed when he saw Sally walk off happily with someone else. It was that jealous feeling that flirtatious people of any gender often experience. In the past, Sally had consistently shown a strong preference for him and claimed to be completely indifferent to Tom Hiers.

"It's all well enough," he said to himself, and he helped Mara up the ladders with the greatest deference and tenderness. "This little woman is worth ten such girls as Sally, if one only could get her heart. Here we are on our ship, Mara," he said, as he lifted her over the last barrier and set her down on the deck. "Look over there, do you see Eagle Island? Did you dream when we used to go over there and spend the day that you ever would be on my ship, as you are to-day? You won't be afraid, will you, when the ship starts?"

"It's all fine," he thought to himself, and he helped Mara up the ladders with great care and kindness. "This little woman is worth ten girls like Sally, if only I could win her heart. Here we are on our ship, Mara," he said, as he lifted her over the last barrier and set her down on the deck. "Look over there, do you see Eagle Island? Did you ever imagine when we used to go over there and spend the day that you would be on my ship, like you are today? You won't be scared, will you, when the ship starts?"

"I am too much of a sea-girl to fear on anything that sails in water," said Mara with enthusiasm. "What a splendid ship! how nicely it all looks!"

"I’m way too much of a sea girl to be afraid of anything that sails on water," said Mara excitedly. "What an amazing ship! Everything looks so great!"

"Come, let me take you over it," said Moses, "and show you my cabin."

"Come on, let me show you around," said Moses, "and I'll take you to my cabin."

Meanwhile the graceful little vessel was the subject of various comments by the crowd of spectators below, and the clatter of workmen's hammers busy in some of the last preparations could yet be heard like a shower of hail-stones under her.

Meanwhile, the elegant little boat attracted various comments from the crowd of onlookers below, and the sound of workers' hammers busy with some of the final preparations could still be heard, like a shower of hailstones beneath her.

"I hope the ways are well greased," said old Captain Eldritch. "'Member how the John Peters stuck in her ways for want of their being greased?"

"I hope the paths are well greased," said old Captain Eldritch. "Remember how the John Peters got stuck because they weren't greased?"

"Don't you remember the Grand Turk, that keeled over five minutes after she was launched?" said the quavering voice of Miss Ruey; "there was jist such a company of thoughtless young creatures aboard as there is now."[Pg 300]

"Don't you remember the Grand Turk, which capsized just five minutes after it was launched?" said Miss Ruey's shaky voice; "there was just as many careless young people on board then as there are now."[Pg 300]

"Well, there wasn't nobody hurt," said Captain Kittridge. "If Mis' Kittridge would let me, I'd be glad to go aboard this 'ere, and be launched with 'em."

"Well, nobody was hurt," said Captain Kittridge. "If Mrs. Kittridge would let me, I’d be happy to go aboard this and be launched with them."

"I tell the Cap'n he's too old to be climbin' round and mixin' with young folks' frolics," said Mrs. Kittridge.

"I told the Cap'n he's too old to be climbing around and hanging out with young people's activities," said Mrs. Kittridge.

"I suppose, Cap'n Pennel, you've seen that the ways is all right," said Captain Broad, returning to the old subject.

"I guess, Cap'n Pennel, you’ve noticed that everything is fine," said Captain Broad, going back to the familiar topic.

"Oh yes, it's all done as well as hands can do it," said Zephaniah. "Moses has been here since starlight this morning, and Moses has pretty good faculty about such matters."

"Oh yeah, it's all done as well as anyone can do it," said Zephaniah. "Moses has been here since early this morning, and he’s quite skilled in these matters."

"Where's Mr. Sewell and Miss Emily?" said Miss Ruey. "Oh, there they are over on that pile of rocks; they get a pretty fair view there."

"Where are Mr. Sewell and Miss Emily?" asked Miss Ruey. "Oh, there they are on that pile of rocks; they get a pretty good view from there."

Mr. Sewell and Miss Emily were sitting under a cedar-tree, with two or three others, on a projecting point whence they could have a clear view of the launching. They were so near that they could distinguish clearly the figures on deck, and see Moses standing with his hat off, the wind blowing his curls back, talking earnestly to the golden-haired little woman on his arm.

Mr. Sewell and Miss Emily were sitting under a cedar tree, along with a couple of others, on a jutting ledge where they had a clear view of the launch. They were close enough to clearly see the people on deck and noticed Moses with his hat off, the wind blowing his curls back as he talked seriously to the little woman with golden hair on his arm.

"It is a launch into life for him," said Mr. Sewell, with suppressed feeling.

"It’s a start in life for him," said Mr. Sewell, with restrained emotion.

"Yes, and he has Mara on his arm," said Miss Emily; "that's as it should be. Who is that that Sally Kittridge is flirting with now? Oh, Tom Hiers. Well! he's good enough for her. Why don't she take him?" said Miss Emily, in her zeal jogging her brother's elbow.

"Yeah, and he's got Mara with him," said Miss Emily; "that’s how it should be. Who's Sally Kittridge flirting with now? Oh, Tom Hiers. Well! He's good enough for her. Why doesn’t she go for him?" said Miss Emily, nudging her brother's elbow in her enthusiasm.

"I'm sure, Emily, I don't know," said Mr. Sewell dryly; "perhaps he won't be taken."

"I'm not sure, Emily," Mr. Sewell said dryly. "Maybe he won't be chosen."

"Don't you think Moses looks handsome?" said Miss Emily. "I declare there is something quite romantic and Spanish about him; don't you think so, Theophilus?"

"Don't you think Moses is good-looking?" said Miss Emily. "I really feel like there’s something quite romantic and Spanish about him; don’t you agree, Theophilus?"

"Yes, I think so," said her brother, quietly looking, externally, the meekest and most matter-of-fact of persons,[Pg 301] but deep within him a voice sighed, "Poor Dolores, be comforted, your boy is beautiful and prosperous!"

"Yeah, I think so," her brother said, quietly looking, on the outside, like the most gentle and realistic person, [Pg 301] but deep inside, a voice sighed, "Poor Dolores, take heart; your boy is beautiful and doing well!"

"There, there!" said Miss Emily, "I believe she is starting."

"There, there!" said Miss Emily, "I think she's starting."

All eyes of the crowd were now fixed on the ship; the sound of hammers stopped; the workmen were seen flying in every direction to gain good positions to see her go,—that sight so often seen on those shores, yet to which use cannot dull the most insensible.

All the people in the crowd were now focused on the ship; the sound of hammers ceased; the workers rushed in every direction to find good spots to watch her leave—an experience often witnessed on those shores, yet one that never fails to stir even the most indifferent.

First came a slight, almost imperceptible, movement, then a swift exultant rush, a dash into the hissing water, and the air was rent with hurrahs as the beautiful ship went floating far out on the blue seas, where her fairer life was henceforth to be.

First came a small, almost unnoticed movement, then a quick burst of excitement, a leap into the hissing water, and the air was filled with cheers as the beautiful ship sailed far out on the blue seas, where her better life would now begin.

Mara was leaning on Moses's arm at the instant the ship began to move, but in the moment of the last dizzy rush she felt his arm go tightly round her, holding her so close that she could hear the beating of his heart.

Mara was leaning on Moses's arm when the ship started to move, but in the moment of the last dizzy rush, she felt his arm wrap tightly around her, holding her so close that she could hear his heart beating.

"Hurrah!" he said, letting go his hold the moment the ship floated free, and swinging his hat in answer to the hats, scarfs, and handkerchiefs, which fluttered from the crowd on the shore. His eyes sparkled with a proud light as he stretched himself upward, raising his head and throwing back his shoulders with a triumphant movement. He looked like a young sea-king just crowned; and the fact is the less wonderful, therefore, that Mara felt her heart throb as she looked at him, and that a treacherous throb of the same nature shook the breezy ribbons fluttering over the careless heart of Sally. A handsome young sea-captain, treading the deck of his own vessel, is, in his time and place, a prince.

"Hurrah!" he shouted, releasing his grip the moment the ship was afloat, and waving his hat in response to the hats, scarves, and handkerchiefs that waved from the crowd on the shore. His eyes sparkled with pride as he stood tall, lifting his chin and throwing back his shoulders in a triumphant gesture. He looked like a young sea king just crowned; it’s not surprising that Mara felt her heart race as she watched him, and that a similar flutter stirred the breezy ribbons dancing over the carefree heart of Sally. A handsome young sea captain, standing on the deck of his own ship, is, in his time and place, a prince.

Moses looked haughtily across at Sally, and then passed a half-laughing defiant flash of eyes between them. He looked at Mara, who could certainly not have known what was in her eyes at the moment,—an expression that made[Pg 302] his heart give a great throb, and wonder if he saw aright: but it was gone a moment after, as all gathered around in a knot exchanging congratulations on the fortunate way in which the affair had gone off. Then came the launching in boats to go back to the collation on shore, where were high merry-makings for the space of one or two hours: and thus was fulfilled the first part of Moses Pennel's Saturday afternoon prediction.

Moses looked arrogantly over at Sally and then shared a half-laughing, defiant glance between them. He turned his attention to Mara, who definitely couldn’t have known what was in her eyes at that moment—an expression that made[Pg 302]his heart race and made him question if he was seeing things correctly. But it faded just as quickly, as everyone gathered in a group to exchange congratulations on how well the event had gone. Then they set off in boats to head back to the gathering on shore, where there were joyful celebrations for an hour or two. This was how the first part of Moses Pennel’s Saturday afternoon prediction came true.


CHAPTER XXXI

GREEK MEETS GREEK

[Pg 303]Moses was now within a day or two of the time of his sailing, and yet the distance between him and Mara seemed greater than ever. It is astonishing, when two people are once started on a wrong understanding with each other, how near they may live, how intimate they may be, how many things they may have in common, how many words they may speak, how closely they may seem to simulate intimacy, confidence, friendship, while yet there lies a gulf between them that neither crosses,—a reserve that neither explores.

[Pg 303]Moses was now just a day or two away from his departure, and yet the gap between him and Mara felt bigger than ever. It's surprising how, once two people misinterpret each other, they can live close together, share intimacy, have things in common, engage in conversation, and seem to have a close relationship—yet there's still an unbridgeable gap between them that neither addresses, a distance that neither examines.

Like most shy girls, Mara became more shy the more really she understood the nature of her own feelings. The conversation with Sally had opened her eyes to the secret of her own heart, and she had a guilty feeling as if what she had discovered must be discovered by every one else. Yes, it was clear she loved Moses in a way that made him, she thought, more necessary to her happiness than she could ever be to his,—in a way that made it impossible to think of him as wholly and for life devoted to another, without a constant inner conflict. In vain had been all her little stratagems practiced upon herself the whole summer long, to prove to herself that she was glad that the choice had fallen upon Sally. She saw clearly enough now that she was not glad,—that there was no woman or girl living, however dear, who could come for life between him and her, without casting on her heart the shuddering sorrow of a dim eclipse.[Pg 304]

Like most shy girls, Mara became even more reserved the more she understood her own feelings. The conversation with Sally had opened her eyes to the truth about her heart, and she felt guilty, as if what she had discovered should be known by everyone else. Yes, it was clear she loved Moses in a way that made him, she thought, more essential to her happiness than she could ever be to his—in a way that made it impossible to imagine him being completely devoted to someone else for life, without experiencing a constant inner struggle. All her little tricks she played on herself throughout the summer, trying to convince herself that she was happy Sally was the one chosen, had been in vain. She now realized that she wasn’t happy—that there was no woman or girl alive, no matter how dear, who could come between him and her for life without bringing the heartbreaking sorrow of a shadow over her heart.[Pg 304]

But now the truth was plain to herself, her whole force was directed toward the keeping of her secret. "I may suffer," she thought, "but I will have strength not to be silly and weak. Nobody shall know,—nobody shall dream it,—and in the long, long time that he is away, I shall have strength given me to overcome."

But now the truth was clear to her, her whole effort was focused on keeping her secret. "I might suffer," she thought, "but I will be strong and not act foolish or weak. No one will know—no one will even suspect—and during the long time that he is away, I will find the strength to get through it."

So Mara put on her most cheerful and matter-of-fact kind of face, and plunged into the making of shirts and knitting of stockings, and talked of the coming voyage with such a total absence of any concern, that Moses began to think, after all, there could be no depth to her feelings, or that the deeper ones were all absorbed by some one else.

So, Mara put on her most cheerful and straightforward face, dove into making shirts and knitting stockings, and talked about the upcoming voyage with such a complete lack of any worry that Moses started to think, after all, there might be no depth to her feelings, or that her deeper feelings were all taken up by someone else.

"You really seem to enjoy the prospect of my going away," said he to her, one morning, as she was energetically busying herself with her preparations.

"You really seem to like the idea of me leaving," he said to her one morning as she busily worked on her preparations.

"Well, of course; you know your career must begin. You must make your fortune; and it is pleasant to think how favorably everything is shaping for you."

"Well, of course; you know your career has to start. You need to make your fortune, and it’s nice to think about how everything is coming together for you."

"One likes, however, to be a little regretted," said Moses, in a tone of pique.

"Still, it's nice to be missed a bit," said Moses, sounding a little annoyed.

"A little regretted!" Mara's heart beat at these words, but her hypocrisy was well practiced. She put down the rebellious throb, and assuming a look of open, sisterly friendliness, said, quite naturally, "Why, we shall all miss you, of course."

"A little regretful!" Mara's heart raced at these words, but her hypocrisy was well practiced. She pushed down the rebellious flutter and, adopting an expression of open, sisterly friendliness, said, quite naturally, "Well, we will all miss you, of course."

"Of course," said Moses,—"one would be glad to be missed some other way than of course."

"Of course," said Moses, "it would be nice to be missed in a different way than of course."

"Oh, as to that, make yourself easy," said Mara. "We shall all be dull enough when you are gone to content the most exacting." Still she spoke, not stopping her stitching, and raising her soft brown eyes with a frank, open look into Moses's—no tremor, not even of an eyelid.

"Oh, don’t worry about that," Mara said. "We’ll all be boring enough when you’re gone to satisfy even the pickiest." Still, she continued stitching, raising her soft brown eyes to meet Moses’s with a sincere, open gaze—no hesitation, not even a flutter of her eyelid.

"You men must have everything," she continued, gayly, "the enterprise, the adventure, the novelty, the pleasure of feeling that you are something, and can do something in[Pg 305] the world; and besides all this, you want the satisfaction of knowing that we women are following in chains behind your triumphal car!"

"You guys must want it all," she said cheerfully, "the excitement, the adventure, the new experiences, the thrill of feeling important and capable in [Pg 305] the world; and on top of that, you need the satisfaction of knowing that we women are trailing behind your victory parade!"

There was a dash of bitterness in this, which was a rare ingredient in Mara's conversation.

There was a hint of bitterness in this, which was a rare element in Mara's conversation.

Moses took the word. "And you women sit easy at home, sewing and singing, and forming romantic pictures of our life as like its homely reality as romances generally are to reality; and while we are off in the hard struggle for position and the means of life, you hold your hearts ready for the first rich man that offers a fortune ready made."

Moses spoke up. "And you women sit comfortably at home, sewing and singing, and creating romantic visions of our life that are as far from the everyday truth as most romances are; while we’re out there fighting hard for status and a means to live, you keep your hearts open for the first wealthy man who presents a pre-made fortune."

"The first!" said Mara. "Oh, you naughty! sometimes we try two or three."

"The first!" said Mara. "Oh, you little troublemaker! Sometimes we try two or three."

"Well, then, I suppose this is from one of them," said Moses, flapping down a letter from Boston, directed in a masculine hand, which he had got at the post-office that morning.

"Well, I guess this is from one of them," said Moses, waving a letter from Boston, addressed in a man's handwriting, which he had picked up at the post office that morning.

Now Mara knew that this letter was nothing in particular, but she was taken by surprise, and her skin was delicate as peach-blossom, and so she could not help a sudden blush, which rose even to her golden hair, vexed as she was to feel it coming. She put the letter quietly in her pocket, and for a moment seemed too discomposed to answer.

Now Mara understood that this letter wasn't anything special, but she was caught off guard, and her skin was as delicate as peach blossom, so she couldn't help but blush, which even tinged her golden hair, annoying her since she couldn't stop it from happening. She quietly put the letter in her pocket and for a moment seemed too flustered to respond.

"You do well to keep your own counsel," said Moses. "No friend so near as one's self, is a good maxim. One does not expect young girls to learn it so early, but it seems they do."

"You’re right to keep your thoughts to yourself," said Moses. "There’s no friend closer than yourself, and that’s a solid saying. You wouldn’t expect young girls to get that lesson so early, but it looks like they do."

"And why shouldn't they as well as young men?" said Mara. "Confidence begets confidence, they say."

"And why shouldn't they, just like young men?" said Mara. "Confidence breeds confidence, or so they say."

"I have no ambition to play confidant," said Moses; "although as one who stands to you in the relation of older brother and guardian, and just on the verge of a long voyage, I might be supposed anxious to know."[Pg 306]

"I don't have any desire to play the role of a confidant," said Moses; "but as someone who is like an older brother and guardian to you, especially since I'm about to embark on a long journey, I might be expected to want to know." [Pg 306]

"And I have no ambition to be confidant," said Mara, all her spirit sparkling in her eyes; "although when one stands to you in the relation of an only sister, I might be supposed perhaps to feel some interest to be in your confidence."

"And I don't want to be your confidant," said Mara, her eyes shining with spirit. "Even though, since I'm your only sister, you might think I'd have some interest in being trusted by you."

The words "older brother" and "only sister" grated on the ears of both the combatants as a decisive sentence. Mara never looked so pretty in her life, for the whole force of her being was awake, glowing and watchful, to guard passage, door, and window of her soul, that no treacherous hint might escape. Had he not just reminded her that he was only an older brother? and what would he think if he knew the truth?—and Moses thought the words only sister unequivocal declaration of how the matter stood in her view, and so he rose, and saying, "I won't detain you longer from your letter," took his hat and went out.

The phrases "older brother" and "only sister" sounded harsh to both fighters as a clear statement. Mara had never looked more beautiful in her life; every part of her was alert, radiant, and vigilant, protecting her heart, mind, and spirit from any deceitful suggestion that might slip through. Hadn’t he just reminded her that he was just an older brother? And what would he think if he knew the truth?—Moses believed the term only sister clearly expressed how she felt about the situation, so he stood up and said, "I won't keep you from your letter any longer," grabbed his hat, and left.

"Are you going down to Sally's?" said Mara, coming to the door and looking out after him.

"Are you heading over to Sally's?" Mara asked, standing at the door and watching him leave.

"Yes."

"Yep."

"Well, ask her to come home with you and spend the evening. I have ever so many things to tell her."

"Well, ask her to come over and hang out with you for the evening. I have so many things to share with her."

"I will," said Moses, as he lounged away.

"I will," Moses said, as he relaxed.

"The thing is clear enough," said Moses to himself. "Why should I make a fool of myself any further? What possesses us men always to set our hearts precisely on what isn't to be had? There's Sally Kittridge likes me; I can see that plainly enough, for all her mincing; and why couldn't I have had the sense to fall in love with her? She will make a splendid, showy woman. She has talent and tact enough to rise to any position I may rise to, let me rise as high as I will. She will always have skill and energy in the conduct of life; and when all the froth and foam of youth has subsided, she will make a noble woman. Why, then, do I cling to this fancy? I feel that this little flossy cloud, this delicate, quiet little puff of thistledown,[Pg 307] on which I have set my heart, is the only thing for me, and that without her my life will always be incomplete. I remember all our early life. It was she who sought me, and ran after me, and where has all that love gone to? Gone to this fellow; that's plain enough. When a girl like her is so comfortably cool and easy, it's because her heart is off somewhere else."

"The situation is pretty clear," Moses thought to himself. "Why should I keep making a fool of myself? What is it with us men that we always seem to desire what we can’t have? There’s Sally Kittridge; she likes me, and I can see that clearly, despite all her fussiness. So why couldn’t I be smart enough to fall for her? She’d make a great, glamorous woman. She has the talent and the charm to rise to any level I might reach, no matter how high I go. She’ll always have the skill and energy to handle life well, and when the excitement of youth fades away, she’ll turn into a remarkable woman. So why do I hold onto this infatuation? I feel like this little fluffy dream, this gentle, quiet bit of thistledown,[Pg 307] that I’ve fallen for, is the only thing that matters to me, and without her, my life will always feel incomplete. I remember our early days together. It was she who pursued me; she chased after me. So where has all that love gone? It’s with this other guy; that much is obvious. When a girl like her seems so comfortably relaxed and at ease, it’s because her heart is somewhere else."

This conversation took place about four o'clock in as fine an October afternoon as you could wish to see. The sun, sloping westward, turned to gold the thousand blue scales of the ever-heaving sea, and soft, pine-scented winds were breathing everywhere through the forests, waving the long, swaying films of heavy moss, and twinkling the leaves of the silver birches that fluttered through the leafy gloom. The moon, already in the sky, gave promise of a fine moonlight night; and the wild and lonely stillness of the island, and the thoughts of leaving in a few days, all conspired to foster the restless excitement in our hero's mind into a kind of romantic unrest.

This conversation happened around four o'clock on a gorgeous October afternoon. The sun, dipping toward the west, turned the countless blue scales of the rolling sea to gold, while soft, pine-scented breezes flowed through the forests, moving the long, swaying strands of heavy moss and shimmering the leaves of the silver birches that danced through the leafy shadows. The moon was already visible in the sky, promising a beautiful moonlit night; the wild and quiet solitude of the island, combined with the thought of leaving in a few days, all contributed to intensifying the restless excitement in our hero's mind into a kind of romantic unease.

Now, in some such states, a man disappointed in one woman will turn to another, because, in a certain way and measure, her presence stills the craving and fills the void. It is a sort of supposititious courtship,—a saying to one woman, who is sympathetic and receptive, the words of longing and love that another will not receive. To be sure it is a game unworthy of any true man,—a piece of sheer, reckless, inconsiderate selfishness. But men do it, as they do many other unworthy things, from the mere promptings of present impulse, and let consequences take care of themselves. Moses met Sally that afternoon in just the frame to play the lover in this hypothetical, supposititious way, with words and looks and tones that came from feelings given to another. And as to Sally? Well, for once, Greek met Greek; for although Sally, as we showed her, was a girl of generous impulses, she was yet in no danger[Pg 308] of immediate translation on account of superhuman goodness. In short, Sally had made up her mind that Moses should give her a chance to say that precious and golden No, which should enable her to count him as one of her captives,—and then he might go where he liked for all her.

Now, in some situations, a man who is let down by one woman will look to another because, in some way, her presence eases the longing and fills the emptiness. It’s a kind of false courtship—a way of expressing feelings of desire and love to one woman, who is understanding and open, that another won’t accept. Of course, it's a game unworthy of any real man—an act of sheer, reckless, thoughtless selfishness. But men do it, along with many other unworthy things, driven by simple impulses, leaving the consequences to sort themselves out. Moses met Sally that afternoon in just the right mindset to act as a lover in this imagined, false way, using words, looks, and tones that originated from emotions meant for someone else. And as for Sally? Well, she was ready; as we showed her, Sally was a girl with generous impulses, yet she was in no risk of immediate vulnerability due to extraordinary goodness. In short, Sally had decided that Moses should give her the opportunity to say that precious and golden No, which would allow her to consider him one of her captives—and then he could go wherever he wanted, as far as she was concerned.

So said the wicked elf, as she looked into her own great eyes in the little square of mirror shaded by a misty asparagus bush; and to this end there were various braidings and adornings of the lustrous black hair, and coquettish earrings were mounted that hung glancing and twinkling just by the smooth outline of her glowing cheek,—and then Sally looked at herself in a friendly way of approbation, and nodded at the bright dimpled shadow with a look of secret understanding. The real Sally and the Sally of the looking-glass were on admirable terms with each other, and both of one mind about the plan of campaign against the common enemy. Sally thought of him as he stood kingly and triumphant on the deck of his vessel, his great black eyes flashing confident glances into hers, and she felt a rebellious rustle of all her plumage. "No, sir," she said to herself, "you don't do it. You shall never find me among your slaves,"—"that you know of," added a doubtful voice within her. "Never to your knowledge," she said, as she turned away. "I wonder if he will come here this evening," she said, as she began to work upon a pillow-case,—one of a set which Mrs. Kittridge had confided to her nimble fingers. The seam was long, straight, and monotonous, and Sally was restless and fidgety; her thread would catch in knots, and when she tried to loosen it, would break, and the needle had to be threaded over. Somehow the work was terribly irksome to her, and the house looked so still and dim and lonesome, and the tick-tock of the kitchen-clock was insufferable, and Sally let her work fall in her lap and looked out of the open window,[Pg 309] far to the open ocean, where a fresh breeze was blowing toward her, and her eyes grew deep and dreamy following the gliding ship sails. Sally was getting romantic. Had she been reading novels? Novels! What can a pretty woman find in a novel equal to the romance that is all the while weaving and unweaving about her, and of which no human foresight can tell her the catastrophe? It is novels that give false views of life. Is there not an eternal novel, with all these false, cheating views, written in the breast of every beautiful and attractive girl whose witcheries make every man that comes near her talk like a fool? Like a sovereign princess, she never hears the truth, unless it be from the one manly man in a thousand, who understands both himself and her. From all the rest she hears only flatteries more or less ingenious, according to the ability of the framer. Compare, for instance, what Tom Brown says to little Seraphina at the party to-night, with what Tom Brown sober says to sober sister Maria about her to-morrow. Tom remembers that he was a fool last night, and knows what he thinks and always has thought to-day; but pretty Seraphina thinks he adores her, so that no matter what she does he will never see a flaw, she is sure of that,—poor little puss! She does not know that philosophic Tom looks at her as he does at a glass of champagne, or a dose of exhilarating gas, and calculates how much it will do for him to take of the stimulus without interfering with his serious and settled plans of life, which, of course, he doesn't mean to give up for her. The one-thousand-and-first man in creation is he that can feel the fascination but will not flatter, and that tries to tell to the little tyrant the rare word of truth that may save her; he is, as we say, the one-thousand-and-first. Well, as Sally sat with her great dark eyes dreamily following the ship, she mentally thought over all the compliments Moses had paid her, expressed or understood, and those of all her other admirers,[Pg 310] who had built up a sort of cloud-world around her, so that her little feet never rested on the soil of reality. Sally was shrewd and keen, and had a native mother-wit in the discernment of spirits, that made her feel that somehow this was all false coin; but still she counted it over, and it looked so pretty and bright that she sighed to think it was not real.

So said the wicked elf as she gazed into her own large eyes reflected in a small mirror shaded by a misty asparagus bush. To prepare for this, she arranged and styled her shiny black hair and put on flirty earrings that sparkled just beside the smooth curve of her glowing cheek. Then Sally looked at herself with a friendly approval and nodded at the bright, dimpled reflection, sharing a secret understanding. The real Sally and the Sally in the mirror had a great relationship, and they both agreed on their game plan against the common enemy. Sally pictured him standing proudly and victoriously on the deck of his ship, his deep black eyes flashing confident looks at hers, making her feel a rebellious stir within her. "No, sir," she told herself, "you won’t have me. You will never find me among your slaves," — "that you know of," added a doubtful inner voice. "Never to your knowledge," she replied as she turned away. "I wonder if he will come by this evening," she mused, starting to work on a pillowcase — one of a set that Mrs. Kittridge had entrusted to her quick hands. The seam was long, straight, and monotonous, and Sally felt restless and fidgety; her thread kept getting tangled, and when she tried to untangle it, it would break, requiring her to re-thread the needle. Somehow, the task felt incredibly tedious, and the house appeared so quiet, dim, and lonely, with the relentless tick-tock of the kitchen clock driving her crazy. Sally let her work slip into her lap and gazed out the open window, far into the vast ocean where a refreshing breeze blew toward her, her eyes growing deep and dreamy as she watched the billowing sails of ships. Sally was feeling sentimental. Had she been reading novels? Novels! What could a pretty woman find in a novel that matches the romance continually unfolding and unraveling around her, with no human foresight to predict the outcome? It is novels that provide false perspectives on life. Isn’t there an endless novel, filled with these deceptive views, written in the heart of every beautiful and charming girl whose allure makes every man nearby speak foolishly? Like a royal princess, she rarely hears the truth, except from that one truly manly man in a thousand who understands both himself and her. From all the others, she only receives flattery, varying in cleverness depending on the flatterer’s ability. For example, compare what Tom Brown says to little Seraphina at tonight's party with what he soberly tells sober sister Maria about her tomorrow. Tom recalls being foolish last night and knows what he thinks today, but pretty Seraphina believes he adores her, so she’s certain he’ll never see a flaw in her, poor little thing! She doesn't realize that philosophical Tom views her the same way he views a glass of champagne or a puff of exhilarating gas, assessing how much he can indulge in the thrill without disrupting his serious life plans, which, of course, he doesn’t intend to give up for her. The one-thousand-and-first man in existence is the one who feels the attraction but won’t flatter, striving to share the rare truth that might save her; he is, as we say, the one-thousand-and-first. While Sally sat there with her large dark eyes dreamily following the ship, she mentally reviewed all the compliments Moses had given her, both spoken and understood, and those from all her other admirers, who had created a sort of dream world around her, making her feel like her little feet never touched the ground of reality. Sally was sharp and perceptive, with a natural intuition for sensing people’s true natures, which led her to realize that somehow all this was false praise. Yet, she still counted it over, and it looked so pretty and bright that she sighed at the thought that it wasn’t real.

"If it only had been," she thought; "if there were only any truth to the creature; he is so handsome,—it's a pity. But I do believe in his secret heart he is in love with Mara; he is in love with some one, I know. I have seen looks that must come from something real; but they were not for me. I have a kind of power over him, though," she said, resuming her old wicked look, "and I'll puzzle him a little, and torment him. He shall find his match in me," and Sally nodded to a cat-bird that sat perched on a pine-tree, as if she had a secret understanding with him, and the cat-bird went off into a perfect roulade of imitations of all that was going on in the late bird-operas of the season.

"If only it had been," she thought; "if there were any truth to him; he’s so good-looking—what a shame. But I really believe that deep down, he loves Mara; he loves someone, I know. I’ve seen glances that must be fueled by something real; but they weren’t directed at me. I have a bit of influence over him, though," she said, returning to her old mischievous expression, "and I’ll toy with him a bit and tease him. He’ll find someone who can match him," and Sally nodded to a cat-bird perched on a pine tree, as if they shared a secret understanding, and the cat-bird launched into a perfect series of imitations of everything happening in the recent bird operas of the season.

Sally was roused from her revery by a spray of goldenrod that was thrown into her lap by an invisible hand, and Moses soon appeared at the window.

Sally was jolted out of her daydream by a splash of goldenrod that flew into her lap from an unseen source, and Moses quickly showed up at the window.

"There's a plume that would be becoming to your hair," he said; "stay, let me arrange it."

"There's a feather that would look great in your hair," he said; "hold on, let me fix it for you."

"No, no; you'll tumble my hair,—what can you know of such things?"

"No, no; you'll mess up my hair—what do you know about stuff like that?"

Moses held the spray aloft, and leaned toward her with a sort of quiet, determined insistence.

Moses held the spray up high and leaned toward her with a calm, determined insistence.

"By your leave, fair lady," he said, wreathing it in her hair, and then drawing back a little, he looked at her with so much admiration that Sally felt herself blush.

"With your permission, beautiful lady," he said, placing it in her hair, and then pulling back slightly, he gazed at her with so much admiration that Sally felt herself blush.

"Come, now, I dare say you've made a fright of me," she said, rising and instinctively turning to the looking-glass; but she had too much coquetry not to see how admirably the golden plume suited her black hair, and the[Pg 311] brilliant eyes and cheeks; she turned to Moses again, and courtesied, saying "Thank you, sir," dropping her eyelashes with a mock humility.

"Come on, I must say you've scared me," she said, getting up and instinctively turning to the mirror; but she was too aware of her looks not to notice how perfectly the golden feather matched her black hair, and her sparkling eyes and cheeks; she turned back to Moses and curtsied, saying, "Thank you, sir," lowering her eyelashes with a playful humility.

"Come, now," said Moses; "I am sent after you to come and spend the evening; let's walk along the seashore, and get there by degrees."

"Come on," said Moses; "I’m here to invite you to spend the evening with me; let’s take a stroll along the beach and make our way there gradually."

And so they set out; but the path was circuitous, for Moses was always stopping, now at this point and now at that, and enacting some of those thousand little by-plays which a man can get up with a pretty woman. They searched for smooth pebbles where the waves had left them,—many-colored, pink and crimson and yellow and brown, all smooth and rounded by the eternal tossings of the old sea that had made playthings of them for centuries, and with every pebble given and taken were things said which should have meant more and more, had the play been earnest. Had Moses any idea of offering himself to Sally? No; but he was in one of those fluctuating, unresisting moods of mind in which he was willing to lie like a chip on the tide of present emotion, and let it rise and fall and dash him when it liked; and Sally never had seemed more beautiful and attractive to him than that afternoon, because there was a shade of reality and depth about her that he had never seen before.

And so they set off; but the path was winding, as Moses kept stopping at this point and that, engaging in those countless little flirty moments that a guy can have with a pretty girl. They looked for smooth pebbles where the waves had left them—many-colored, pink and crimson and yellow and brown, all smooth and rounded by the endless tossing of the ancient sea that had turned them into toys for centuries. With every pebble picked up and set down, things were said that should have meant more, had the flirting been serious. Did Moses have any intention of proposing to Sally? No; he was in one of those shifting, yielding moods where he was content to go along with the current of his feelings, letting it lift and drop him whenever it wanted to. Sally had never seemed more beautiful and enticing to him than that afternoon, because there was a hint of reality and depth about her that he had never noticed before.

"Come on, and let me show you my hermitage," said Moses, guiding her along the slippery projecting rocks, all covered with yellow tresses of seaweed. Sally often slipped on this treacherous footing, and Moses was obliged to hold her up, and instinctively he threw a meaning into his manner so much more than ever he had before, that by the time they had gained the little cove both were really agitated and excited. He felt that temporary delirium which is often the mesmeric effect of a strong womanly presence, and she felt that agitation which every woman must when a determined hand is striking on the great vital[Pg 312] chord of her being. When they had stepped round the last point of rock they found themselves driven by the advancing tide up into the little lonely grotto,—and there they were with no lookout but the wide blue sea, all spread out in rose and gold under the twilight skies, with a silver moon looking down upon them.

"Come on, let me show you my hideout," Moses said, leading her along the slippery rocks, all covered with yellow seaweed. Sally often slipped on the tricky surface, and Moses had to steady her, instinctively adding more meaning to his actions than he ever had before. By the time they reached the small cove, both were genuinely stirred and excited. He felt that fleeting thrill that often comes with a strong female presence, and she felt the rush that every woman experiences when a determined hand strikes at the core of her being. As they rounded the last rock, they found themselves pushed by the rising tide into a small, secluded grotto—there they were, with nothing to see but the vast blue sea, stretching out in shades of rose and gold beneath the twilight sky, with a silver moon looking down on them.

"Sally," said Moses, in a low, earnest whisper, "you love me,—do you not?" and he tried to pass his arm around her.

"Sally," Moses said in a quiet, sincere whisper, "you love me, don't you?" and he tried to put his arm around her.

She turned and flashed at him a look of mingled terror and defiance, and struck out her hands at him; then impetuously turning away and retreating to the other end of the grotto, she sat down on a rock and began to cry.

She turned and gave him a look that was a mix of fear and defiance, then reached out her hands toward him; impulsively turning away and moving to the other end of the cave, she sat on a rock and started to cry.

Moses came toward her, and kneeling, tried to take her hand. She raised her head angrily, and again repulsed him.

Moses walked up to her and knelt down, reaching for her hand. She lifted her head in anger and pushed him away again.

"Go!" she said. "What right had you to say that? What right had you even to think it?"

"Go!" she said. "What right did you have to say that? What right did you even have to think it?"

"Sally, you do love me. It cannot but be. You are a woman; you could not have been with me as we have and not feel more than friendship."

"Sally, you do love me. It can’t be any other way. You’re a woman; you couldn’t have been with me like this and not feel more than just friendship."

"Oh, you men!—your conceit passes understanding," said Sally. "You think we are born to be your bond slaves,—but for once you are mistaken, sir. I don't love you; and what's more, you don't love me,—you know you don't; you know that you love somebody else. You love Mara,—you know you do; there's no truth in you," she said, rising indignantly.

"Oh, you guys! Your arrogance is beyond belief," said Sally. "You think we're meant to be your servants, but for once you're wrong, sir. I don't love you; and what's more, you don't love me—you know you don't; you know you love someone else. You love Mara—you know it's true; there's no honesty in you," she said, standing up in anger.

Moses felt himself color. There was an embarrassed pause, and then he answered,—

Moses felt himself blush. There was an awkward pause, and then he replied,—

"Sally, why should I love Mara? Her heart is all given to another,—you yourself know it."

"Sally, why should I love Mara? She has already given her heart to someone else—you know that."

"I don't know it either," said Sally; "I know it isn't so."

"I don't know it either," Sally said, "but I know that's not the case."

"But you gave me to understand so."[Pg 313]

"But you made me understand that."[Pg 313]

"Well, sir, you put prying questions about what you ought to have asked her, and so what was I to do? Besides, I did want to show you how much better Mara could do than to take you; besides, I didn't know till lately. I never thought she could care much for any man more than I could."

"Well, sir, you asked invasive questions about what you should have asked her, so what was I supposed to do? Plus, I really wanted to show you how much better Mara could do than to be with you; also, I didn’t realize until recently. I never thought she could care for any man more than I do."

"And you think she loves me?" said Moses, eagerly, a flash of joy illuminating his face; "do you, really?"

"And you think she loves me?" Moses said eagerly, a flash of joy lighting up his face. "Do you really?"

"There you are," said Sally; "it's a shame I have let you know! Yes, Moses Pennel, she loves you like an angel, as none of you men deserve to be loved,—as you in particular don't."

"There you are," said Sally; "it's a shame I had to tell you! Yes, Moses Pennel, she loves you like an angel, a love that none of you men deserve—especially you."

Moses sat down on a point of rock, and looked on the ground discountenanced. Sally stood up glowing and triumphant, as if she had her foot on the neck of her oppressor and meant to make the most of it.

Moses sat down on a rock and looked at the ground, feeling defeated. Sally stood up, glowing and triumphant, as if she had her foot on the neck of her oppressor and intended to make the most of it.

"Now what do you think of yourself for all this summer's work?—for what you have just said, asking me if I didn't love you? Supposing, now, I had done as other girls would, played the fool and blushed, and said yes? Why, to-morrow you would have been thinking how to be rid of me! I shall save you all that trouble, sir."

"Now, what do you think of yourself for all this summer's work?—for what you just said, asking me if I didn't love you? Let's say I had done what other girls would do, acted naive and blushed, and said yes? Well, tomorrow you would have been figuring out how to get rid of me! I'll save you all that trouble, sir."

"Sally, I own I have been acting like a fool," said Moses, humbly.

"Sally, I admit I've been acting like an idiot," Moses said, humbly.

"You have done more than that,—you have acted wickedly," said Sally.

"You've done more than that—you've acted horribly," said Sally.

"And am I the only one to blame?" said Moses, lifting his head with a show of resistance.

"And am I the only one at fault?" said Moses, raising his head defiantly.

"Listen, sir!" said Sally, energetically; "I have played the fool and acted wrong too, but there is just this difference between you and me: you had nothing to lose, and I a great deal; your heart, such as it was, was safely disposed of. But supposing you had won mine, what would you have done with it? That was the last thing you considered."[Pg 314]

"Listen, sir!" Sally said energetically. "I've acted foolishly and made mistakes too, but there's one key difference between us: you had nothing to lose, while I had a lot at stake. Your heart, whatever it was, was already taken care of. But if you had won mine, what would you have done with it? That was the last thing on your mind."[Pg 314]

"Go on, Sally, don't spare; I'm a vile dog, unworthy of either of you," said Moses.

"Go ahead, Sally, don’t hold back; I'm a terrible person, unworthy of either of you," said Moses.

Sally looked down on her handsome penitent with some relenting, as he sat quite dejected, his strong arms drooping, and his long eyelashes cast down.

Sally looked down at her handsome penitent with some compassion, as he sat there dejected, his strong arms hanging limply, and his long eyelashes lowered.

"I'll be friends with you," she said, "because, after all, I'm not so very much better than you. We have both done wrong, and made dear Mara very unhappy. But after all, I was not so much to blame as you; because, if there had been any reality in your love, I could have paid it honestly. I had a heart to give,—I have it now, and hope long to keep it," said Sally.

"I'll be friends with you," she said, "because, after all, I'm not that much better than you. We've both messed up and made dear Mara very unhappy. But honestly, I wasn't as much to blame as you were; because if your love had been real, I could have returned it honestly. I had a heart to give—I still have it now, and I hope to keep it for a long time," said Sally.

"Sally, you are a right noble girl. I never knew what you were till now," said Moses, looking at her with admiration.

"Sally, you're such a noble girl. I never realized what an incredible person you are until now," said Moses, looking at her with admiration.

"It's the first time for all these six months that we have either of us spoken a word of truth or sense to each other. I never did anything but trifle with you, and you the same. Now we've come to some plain dry land, we may walk on and be friends. So now help me up these rocks, and I will go home."

"It's the first time in these six months that we've actually talked honestly to each other. I only messed around with you, and you did the same. Now that we’ve reached some solid ground, we can move forward and be friends. So help me up these rocks, and I'll head home."

"And you'll not come home with me?"

"And you won't come home with me?"

"Of course not. I think you may now go home and have one talk with Mara without witnesses."

"Of course not. I think you can now go home and have a conversation with Mara without anyone else around."


CHAPTER XXXII

THE BETROTHAL

[Pg 315]Moses walked slowly home from his interview with Sally, in a sort of maze of confused thought. In general, men understand women only from the outside, and judge them with about as much real comprehension as an eagle might judge a canary-bird. The difficulty of real understanding intensifies in proportion as the man is distinctively manly, and the woman womanly. There are men with a large infusion of the feminine element in their composition who read the female nature with more understanding than commonly falls to the lot of men; but in general, when a man passes beyond the mere outside artifices and unrealities which lie between the two sexes, and really touches his finger to any vital chord in the heart of a fair neighbor, he is astonished at the quality of the vibration.

[Pg 315]Moses walked slowly home from his interview with Sally, lost in a maze of confused thoughts. Generally, men understand women only superficially and judge them with as much real insight as an eagle might judge a canary. The challenge of truly understanding grows as the man is more distinctly masculine and the woman more distinctly feminine. Some men possess a strong feminine side that allows them to understand female nature better than most men do; however, when a man looks past the superficial behaviors and illusions that separate the two sexes and genuinely connects with a significant part of a woman's heart, he is often surprised by the depth of that connection.

"I could not have dreamed there was so much in her," thought Moses, as he turned away from Sally Kittridge. He felt humbled as well as astonished by the moral lecture which this frisky elf with whom he had all summer been amusing himself, preached to him from the depths of a real woman's heart. What she said of Mara's loving him filled his eyes with remorseful tears,—and for the moment he asked himself whether this restless, jealous, exacting desire which he felt to appropriate her whole life and heart to himself were as really worthy of the name of love as the generous self-devotion with which she had, all her life, made all his interests her own.

"I never imagined there was so much depth to her," thought Moses as he walked away from Sally Kittridge. He felt both humbled and surprised by the heartfelt talk this lively spirit, with whom he had spent all summer having fun, gave him from the core of a true woman's soul. What she mentioned about Mara loving him brought tears of regret to his eyes—and for a moment, he wondered if this restless, jealous, demanding urge he had to claim her entire life and heart for himself was as truly worthy of being called love as the generous selflessness with which she had, throughout her life, made all his interests her own.

Was he to go to her now and tell her that he loved her,[Pg 316] and therefore he had teased and vexed her,—therefore he had seemed to prefer another before her,—therefore he had practiced and experimented upon her nature? A suspicion rather stole upon him that love which expresses itself principally in making exactions and giving pain is not exactly worthy of the name. And yet he had been secretly angry with her all summer for being the very reverse of this; for her apparent cheerful willingness to see him happy with another; for the absence of all signs of jealousy,—all desire of exclusive appropriation. It showed, he said to himself, that there was no love; and now when it dawned on him that this might be the very heroism of self-devotion, he asked himself which was best worthy to be called love.

Was he supposed to go to her now and tell her that he loved her,[Pg 316] and that’s why he had teased and upset her? That’s why he had acted like he preferred someone else over her? That’s why he had tested and explored her feelings? A thought crept in that love, which mainly shows itself through demands and causing pain, isn’t exactly deserving of the name. And yet, he had secretly been upset with her all summer for being the complete opposite of that; for her apparent cheerful willingness to see him happy with someone else; for not showing any signs of jealousy — no desire to have him all to herself. He told himself that this showed there was no love, and now, as it struck him that this might actually be true selfless devotion, he questioned which was truly deserving of the name love.

"She did love him, then!" The thought blazed up through the smouldering embers of thought in his heart like a tongue of flame. She loved him! He felt a sort of triumph in it, for he was sure Sally must know, they were so intimate. Well, he would go to her, and tell her all, confess all his sins, and be forgiven.

"She really loved him!" The realization ignited in his heart like a burst of flame. She loved him! He felt a sense of triumph because he was convinced Sally must know; they were so close. Well, he would go to her and share everything, confess all his wrongdoings, and be forgiven.

When he came back to the house, all was still evening. The moon, which was playing brightly on the distant sea, left one side of the brown house in shadow. Moses saw a light gleaming behind the curtain in the little room on the lower floor, which had been his peculiar sanctum during the summer past. He had made a sort of library of it, keeping there his books and papers. Upon the white curtain flitted, from time to time, a delicate, busy shadow; now it rose and now it stooped, and then it rose again—grew dim and vanished, and then came out again. His heart beat quick.

When he got back to the house, it was a quiet evening. The moon was shining brightly on the distant sea, casting one side of the brown house in shadow. Moses noticed a light shining behind the curtain in the small room on the lower floor, which had been his personal sanctuary over the past summer. He had turned it into a sort of library, keeping his books and papers there. A delicate, busy shadow occasionally flitted across the white curtain; sometimes it rose, sometimes it dipped, then it rose again—faded away, then reappeared. His heart raced.

Mara was in his room, busy, as she always had been before his departures, in cares for him. How many things had she made for him, and done and arranged for him, all his life long! things which he had taken as much as a[Pg 317] matter of course as the shining of that moon. His thought went back to the times of his first going to sea,—he a rough, chaotic boy, sensitive and surly, and she the ever thoughtful good angel of a little girl, whose loving-kindness he had felt free to use and to abuse. He remembered that he made her cry there when he should have spoken lovingly and gratefully to her, and that the words of acknowledgment that ought to have been spoken, never had been said,—remained unsaid to that hour. He stooped low, and came quite close to the muslin curtain. All was bright in the room, and shadowy without; he could see her movements as through a thin white haze. She was packing his sea-chest; his things were lying about her, folded or rolled nicely. Now he saw her on her knees writing something with a pencil in a book, and then she enveloped it very carefully in silk paper, and tied it trimly, and hid it away at the bottom of the chest. Then she remained a moment kneeling at the chest, her head resting in her hands. A sort of strange, sacred feeling came over him as he heard a low murmur, and knew that she felt a Presence that he never felt or acknowledged. He felt somehow that he was doing her a wrong thus to be prying upon moments when she thought herself alone with God; a sort of vague remorse filled him; he felt as if she were too good for him. He turned away, and entering the front door of the house, stepped noiselessly along and lifted the latch of the door. He heard a rustle as of one rising hastily as he opened it and stood before Mara. He had made up his mind what to say; but when she stood there before him, with her surprised, inquiring eyes, he felt confused.

Mara was in his room, busy as she always was before his departures, taking care of him. How many things had she made, done, and arranged for him throughout his life! Things he had taken for granted, just like the bright moon. His mind wandered back to when he first went to sea—he was a rough, chaotic boy, sensitive and grumpy, and she was the ever-caring little girl, whose kindness he felt free to use and take for granted. He remembered making her cry when he should have spoken to her with love and gratitude, and the words of appreciation that should have been said were still unspoken to this day. He leaned down close to the muslin curtain. The room was bright, while outside was shadowy; he could see her movements through a thin white haze. She was packing his sea chest; his things were scattered around her, neatly folded or rolled. Then he saw her kneeling, writing something with a pencil in a book, carefully wrapping it in silk paper, tying it up neatly, and hiding it at the bottom of the chest. She stayed for a moment, kneeling by the chest, resting her head in her hands. A strange, sacred feeling washed over him as he heard a soft murmur, knowing she was feeling a presence he could neither feel nor acknowledge. He felt he was invading a moment when she believed she was alone with God; a vague sense of guilt filled him, making him feel like she was too good for him. He turned away and, entering the front door of the house, stepped quietly and lifted the latch. He heard a rustle, as if someone was quickly getting up, as he opened the door and stood before Mara. He had planned what to say, but when she stood there with her surprised, questioning eyes, he felt lost.

"What, home so soon?" she said.

"What, back home already?" she said.

"You did not expect me, then?"

"You weren't expecting me, huh?"

"Of course not,—not for these two hours; so," she said, looking about, "I found some mischief to do among your things. If you had waited as long as I expected,[Pg 318] they would all have been quite right again, and you would never have known."

"Of course not—not for these two hours; so," she said, looking around, "I found some trouble to stir up among your things. If you had waited as long as I thought you would,[Pg 318] they would all have been fine again, and you would never have realized."

Moses sat down and drew her toward him, as if he were going to say something, and then stopped and began confusedly playing with her work-box.

Moses sat down and pulled her closer, as if he was about to say something, but then he paused and started fiddling with her work-box awkwardly.

"Now, please don't," said she, archly. "You know what a little old maid I am about my things!"

"Now, please don't," she said playfully. "You know how much of a fuss I make about my stuff!"

"Mara," said Moses, "people have asked you to marry them, have they not?"

"Mara," Moses said, "people have asked you to marry them, haven't they?"

"People asked me to marry them!" said Mara. "I hope not. What an odd question!"

"People asked me to marry them!" said Mara. "I hope not. What a strange question!"

"You know what I mean," said Moses; "you have had offers of marriage—from Mr. Adams, for example."

"You know what I mean," said Moses; "you've had marriage proposals—from Mr. Adams, for instance."

"And what if I have?"

"And what if I do?"

"You did not accept him, Mara?" said Moses.

"You didn't accept him, Mara?" said Moses.

"No, I did not."

"No, I didn't."

"And yet he was a fine man, I am told, and well fitted to make you happy."

"And yet I’ve heard he was a great guy and really suited to make you happy."

"I believe he was," said Mara, quietly.

"I think he was," said Mara, softly.

"And why were you so foolish?"

"And why were you so silly?"

Mara was fretted at this question. She supposed Moses had come to tell her of his engagement to Sally, and that this was a kind of preface, and she answered,—

Mara was worried by this question. She thought Moses had come to tell her about his engagement to Sally, and that this was some sort of introduction, so she replied,—

"I don't know why you call it foolish. I was a true friend to Mr. Adams. I saw intellectually that he might have the power of making any reasonable woman happy. I think now that the woman will be fortunate who becomes his wife; but I did not wish to marry him."

"I don't know why you think that's silly. I was a real friend to Mr. Adams. I understood that he had the potential to make any sensible woman happy. I believe now that the woman who marries him will be lucky; but I never wanted to marry him."

"Is there anybody you prefer to him, Mara?" said Moses.

"Is there anyone you like better than him, Mara?" asked Moses.

She started up with glowing cheeks and sparkling eyes.

She jumped up with rosy cheeks and bright, shining eyes.

"You have no right to ask me that, though you are my brother."

"You don't have the right to ask me that, even if you are my brother."

"I am not your brother, Mara," said Moses, rising and going toward her, "and that is why I ask you. I feel I have a right to ask you."[Pg 319]

"I’m not your brother, Mara," Moses said, standing up and walking toward her. "That’s why I’m asking you. I believe I have the right to ask you." [Pg 319]

"I do not understand you," she said, faintly.

"I don't understand you," she said softly.

"I can speak plainer, then. I wish to put in my poor venture. I love you, Mara—not as a brother. I wish you to be my wife, if you will."

"I can be more straightforward, then. I want to share my humble proposal. I love you, Mara—not like a brother. I want you to be my wife, if you'll have me."

While Moses was saying these words, Mara felt a sort of whirling in her head, and it grew dark before her eyes; but she had a strong, firm will, and she mastered herself and answered, after a moment, in a quiet, sorrowful tone, "How can I believe this, Moses? If it is true, why have you done as you have this summer?"

While Moses was speaking, Mara felt a spinning sensation in her head, and everything went dark in front of her eyes; but she had a strong will, and she composed herself and replied, after a moment, in a calm, sorrowful voice, "How can I believe this, Moses? If it's true, why have you acted the way you have this summer?"

"Because I was a fool, Mara,—because I was jealous of Mr. Adams,—because I somehow hoped, after all, that you either loved me or that I might make you think more of me through jealousy of another. They say that love always is shown by jealousy."

"Because I was an idiot, Mara—because I was jealous of Mr. Adams—because I somehow hoped, after all, that you loved me or that I could make you think more of me by making you jealous of someone else. They say that love is always revealed through jealousy."

"Not true love, I should think," said Mara. "How could you do so?—it was cruel to her,—cruel to me."

"Not true love, I would say," Mara replied. "How could you do that?—it was cruel to her,—cruel to me."

"I admit it,—anything, everything you can say. I have acted like a fool and a knave, if you will; but after all, Mara, I do love you. I know I am not worthy of you—never was—never can be; you are in all things a true, noble woman, and I have been unmanly."

"I admit it—anything and everything you say is true. I've acted like a fool and a jerk, if you want to put it that way; but still, Mara, I do love you. I know I'm not worthy of you—I never was and never will be; you are, in every way, a truly noble woman, and I've been unmanly."

It is not to be supposed that all this was spoken without accompaniments of looks, movements, and expressions of face such as we cannot give, but such as doubled their power to the parties concerned; and the "I love you" had its usual conclusive force as argument, apology, promise,—covering, like charity, a multitude of sins.

It shouldn't be thought that all of this was said without the accompanying looks, gestures, and facial expressions that we can't replicate, but which amplified their impact for those involved; and the "I love you" carried its usual powerful weight as an argument, apology, promise—covering, like charity, a lot of faults.

Half an hour after, you might have seen a youth and a maiden coming together out of the door of the brown house, and walking arm in arm toward the sea-beach.

Half an hour later, you could have seen a young man and a woman coming out of the brown house and walking arm in arm toward the beach.

It was one of those wonderfully clear moonlight evenings, when the ocean, like a great reflecting mirror, seems to double the brightness of the sky,—and its vast expanse lay all around them in its stillness, like an eternity of[Pg 320] waveless peace. Mara remembered that time in her girlhood when she had followed Moses into the woods on just such a night,—how she had sat there under the shadows of the trees, and looked over to Harpswell and noticed the white houses and the meeting-house, all so bright and clear in the moonlight, and then off again on the other side of the island where silent ships were coming and going in the mysterious stillness. They were talking together now with that outflowing fullness which comes when the seal of some great reserve has just been broken,—going back over their lives from day to day, bringing up incidents of childhood, and turning them gleefully like two children.

It was one of those beautifully clear moonlit evenings when the ocean, like a giant mirror, seems to amplify the brightness of the sky, and its vast expanse surrounded them in its stillness, like an endless stretch of waveless peace. Mara remembered that time in her childhood when she had followed Moses into the woods on a night like this—how she had sat under the shadows of the trees, looked over to Harpswell, and noticed the white houses and the meeting house, all so bright and clear in the moonlight. Then she gazed off to the other side of the island where silent ships were quietly coming and going in the mysterious calm. They were talking now with that overflowing warmth that happens when the dam of some great reserve has just been opened—reminiscing about their lives day by day, recalling childhood moments, and joyfully revisiting them like two kids.

And then Moses had all the story of his life to relate, and to tell Mara all he had learned of his mother,—going over with all the narrative contained in Mr. Sewell's letter.

And then Moses had the whole story of his life to share, and to tell Mara everything he had learned about his mother—covering all the details from Mr. Sewell's letter.

"You see, Mara, that it was intended that you should be my fate," he ended; "so the winds and waves took me up and carried me to the lonely island where the magic princess dwelt."

"You see, Mara, that it was meant for you to be my destiny," he concluded; "so the winds and waves picked me up and brought me to the isolated island where the magical princess lived."

"You are Prince Ferdinand," said Mara.

"You are Prince Ferdinand," Mara said.

"And you are Miranda," said he.

"And you're Miranda," he said.

"Ah!" she said with fervor, "how plainly we can see that our heavenly Father has been guiding our way! How good He is,—and how we must try to live for Him,—both of us."

"Ah!" she said passionately, "how clearly we can see that our heavenly Father has been leading us! How good He is—and how we must strive to live for Him—both of us."

A sort of cloud passed over Moses's brow. He looked embarrassed, and there was a pause between them, and then he turned the conversation.

A cloud seemed to settle over Moses's face. He looked uncomfortable, and there was a moment of silence between them, before he changed the subject.

Mara felt pained; it was like a sudden discord; such thoughts and feelings were the very breath of her life; she could not speak in perfect confidence and unreserve, as she then spoke, without uttering them; and her finely organized nature felt a sort of electric consciousness of repulsion and dissent. She grew abstracted, and they walked on in silence.[Pg 321]

Mara felt hurt; it was like a sudden clash; those thoughts and feelings were essential to her existence; she couldn’t speak freely and openly like she was doing without expressing them; and her sensitive nature experienced a kind of intense awareness of rejection and disagreement. She became lost in her thoughts, and they continued walking in silence.[Pg 321]

"I see now, Mara, I have pained you," said Moses, "but there are a class of feelings that you have that I have not and cannot have. No, I cannot feign anything. I can understand what religion is in you, I can admire its results. I can be happy, if it gives you any comfort; but people are differently constituted. I never can feel as you do."

"I see now, Mara, I've hurt you," said Moses, "but there are certain feelings you have that I don't and can't have. No, I can't pretend. I can understand what your faith means to you, and I can appreciate its outcomes. I can be happy if it brings you comfort, but people are made differently. I can't ever feel the way you do."

"Oh, don't say never," said Mara, with an intensity that nearly startled him; "it has been the one prayer, the one hope, of my life, that you might have these comforts,—this peace."

"Oh, don't say never," Mara said, her intensity almost shocking him. "It's been the one prayer, the one hope of my life, that you could have these comforts—this peace."

"I need no comfort or peace except what I shall find in you," said Moses, drawing her to himself, and looking admiringly at her; "but pray for me still. I always thought that my wife must be one of the sort of women who pray."

"I don't need any comfort or peace except what I'll find in you," said Moses, pulling her close and gazing at her with admiration. "But please keep praying for me. I always believed that my wife should be the kind of woman who prays."

"And why?" said Mara, in surprise.

"And why?" Mara asked, stunned.

"Because I need to be loved a great deal, and it is only that kind who pray who know how to love really. If you had not prayed for me all this time, you never would have loved me in spite of all my faults, as you did, and do, and will, as I know you will," he said, folding her in his arms, and in his secret heart he said, "Some of this intensity, this devotion, which went upward to heaven, will be mine one day. She will worship me."

"Because I really need to be loved, and it's only those who pray who truly know how to love. If you hadn't been praying for me all this time, you never would have loved me despite all my flaws, as you have, do, and will, as I know you will," he said, wrapping her in his arms. In his secret heart, he thought, "Some of this passion, this devotion that goes up to heaven, will be mine one day. She will worship me."

"The fact is, Mara," he said, "I am a child of this world. I have no sympathy with things not seen. You are a half-spiritual creature,—a child of air; and but for the great woman's heart in you, I should feel that you were something uncanny and unnatural. I am selfish, I know; I frankly admit, I never disguised it; but I love your religion because it makes you love me. It is an incident to that loving, trusting nature which makes you all and wholly mine, as I want you to be. I want you all and wholly; every thought, every feeling,—the whole strength of your being. I don't care if I say it: I would not wish to be second in your heart even to God himself!"[Pg 322]

"The truth is, Mara," he said, "I’m a product of this world. I can’t relate to things that aren’t visible. You’re part spirit—a child of the air; and if it weren't for the incredible woman inside you, I'd think you were something eerie and unnatural. I know I’m selfish; I admit it openly, and I’ve never tried to hide it. But I love your beliefs because they make you love me. It’s a part of that loving, trusting nature that makes you entirely mine, just as I want you to be. I want all of you; every thought, every feeling—the entire strength of your being. I don’t care if I say it: I wouldn’t want to be second in your heart even to God himself!"[Pg 322]

"Oh, Moses!" said Mara, almost starting away from him, "such words are dreadful; they will surely bring evil upon us."

"Oh, Moses!" Mara exclaimed, almost backing away from him. "Those words are terrible; they will definitely bring trouble upon us."

"I only breathed out my nature, as you did yours. Why should you love an unseen and distant Being more than you do one whom you can feel and see, who holds you in his arms, whose heart beats like your own?"

"I just expressed my true self, just like you did yours. Why should you love an unseen and faraway Being more than someone you can feel and see, someone who holds you in their arms, whose heart beats like yours?"

"Moses," said Mara, stopping and looking at him in the clear moonlight, "God has always been to me not so much like a father as like a dear and tender mother. Perhaps it was because I was a poor orphan, and my father and mother died at my birth, that He has been so loving to me. I never remember the time when I did not feel His presence in my joys and my sorrows. I never had a thought of joy and sorrow that I could not say to Him. I never woke in the night that I did not feel that He was loving and watching me, and that I loved Him in return. Oh, how many, many things I have said to Him about you! My heart would have broken years ago, had it not been for Him; because, though you did not know it, you often seemed unkind; you hurt me very often when you did not mean to. His love is so much a part of my life that I cannot conceive of life without it. It is the very air I breathe."

"Moses," Mara said, pausing to look at him in the bright moonlight, "God has always felt to me less like a father and more like a loving and nurturing mother. Maybe it’s because I was a poor orphan, and my parents died when I was born, that He has shown me so much love. I can’t remember a time when I didn’t feel His presence in my happiness and my pain. I’ve never had a thought of joy or sadness that I didn’t share with Him. I’ve never woken up in the night without feeling His loving presence and knowing that I loved Him back. Oh, how many things I've shared with Him about you! My heart would have shattered years ago if it weren't for Him, because, even though you didn’t realize it, you often seemed unkind; you hurt me quite a bit even when you didn’t mean to. His love is such an essential part of my life that I can’t imagine living without it. It’s the very air I breathe."

Moses stood still a moment, for Mara spoke with a fervor that affected him; then he drew her to his heart, and said,—

Moses paused for a moment, moved by Mara's passionate words; then he pulled her close and said,—

"Oh, what could ever make you love me?"

"Oh, what could possibly make you love me?"

"He sent you and gave you to me," she answered, "to be mine in time and eternity."

"He sent you and gave you to me," she replied, "to be mine for now and forever."

The words were spoken in a kind of enthusiasm so different from the usual reserve of Mara, that they seemed like a prophecy. That night, for the first time in her life, had she broken the reserve which was her very nature, and spoken of that which was the intimate and hidden history of her soul.

The words were said with a kind of excitement so unlike Mara's usual restraint that they felt like a prophecy. That night, for the first time in her life, she had let go of the reserve that was her true nature and shared what was the deep and secret story of her soul.


CHAPTER XXXIII

AT A QUILTING

[Pg 323]"And so," said Mrs. Captain Badger to Miss Roxy Toothacre, "it seems that Moses Pennel ain't going to have Sally Kittridge after all,—he's engaged to Mara Lincoln."

[Pg 323]"So," said Mrs. Captain Badger to Miss Roxy Toothacre, "it looks like Moses Pennel isn’t going to end up with Sally Kittridge after all—he's engaged to Mara Lincoln."

"More shame for him," said Miss Roxy, with a frown that made her mohair curls look really tremendous.

"More shame on him," said Miss Roxy, with a frown that made her mohair curls look truly amazing.

Miss Roxy and Mrs. Badger were the advance party at a quilting, to be holden at the house of Mr. Sewell, and had come at one o'clock to do the marking upon the quilt, which was to be filled up by the busy fingers of all the women in the parish. Said quilt was to have a bordering of a pattern commonly denominated in those parts clam-shell, and this Miss Roxy was diligently marking with indigo.

Miss Roxy and Mrs. Badger were the first ones to arrive at a quilting event at Mr. Sewell's house, and they came at one o'clock to do the marking on the quilt, which would be completed by the many women in the parish. The quilt was going to have a border with a pattern locally known as clam-shell, and Miss Roxy was carefully marking it with indigo.

"What makes you say so, now?" said Mrs. Badger, a fat, comfortable, motherly matron, who always patronized the last matrimonial venture that put forth among the young people.

"What makes you say that now?" said Mrs. Badger, a plump, cozy, motherly figure who always supported the latest marriage proposal among the young crowd.

"What business had he to flirt and gallivant all summer with Sally Kittridge, and make everybody think he was going to have her, and then turn round to Mara Lincoln at the last minute? I wish I'd been in Mara's place."

"What right did he have to flirt and mess around all summer with Sally Kittridge, making everyone think he was going to end up with her, and then switch to Mara Lincoln at the last minute? I wish I had been in Mara's shoes."

In Miss Roxy's martial enthusiasm, she gave a sudden poke to her frisette, giving to it a diagonal bristle which extremely increased its usually severe expression; and any one contemplating her at the moment would have thought that for Moses Pennel, or any other young man, to come[Pg 324] with tender propositions in that direction would have been indeed a venturesome enterprise.

In Miss Roxy's passionate spirit, she suddenly adjusted her hair, creating a sharp angle that greatly intensified its normally stern look; anyone watching her at that moment would have thought that for Moses Pennel, or any other young man, to approach her with romantic intentions would be quite a daring move.

"I tell you what 'tis, Mis' Badger," she said, "I've known Mara since she was born,—I may say I fetched her up myself, for if I hadn't trotted and tended her them first four weeks of her life, Mis' Pennel'd never have got her through; and I've watched her every year since; and havin' Moses Pennel is the only silly thing I ever knew her to do; but you never can tell what a girl will do when it comes to marryin',—never!"

"I'll tell you what it is, Mrs. Badger," she said, "I've known Mara since she was born—I can say I raised her myself because if I hadn't taken care of her those first four weeks of her life, Mrs. Pennel would never have gotten her through; and I've kept an eye on her every year since. Having Moses Pennel is the only foolish thing I’ve ever seen her do; but you can never predict what a girl will do when it comes to marriage—never!"

"But he's a real stirrin', likely young man, and captain of a fine ship," said Mrs. Badger.

"But he's a truly exciting and promising young man, and captain of a great ship," said Mrs. Badger.

"Don't care if he's captain of twenty ships," said Miss Roxy, obdurately; "he ain't a professor of religion, and I believe he's an infidel, and she's one of the Lord's people."

"Don't care if he's the captain of twenty ships," said Miss Roxy stubbornly; "he's not a professor of religion, and I think he's an unbeliever, and she's one of the Lord's people."

"Well," said Mrs. Badger, "you know the unbelievin' husband shall be sanctified by the believin' wife."

"Well," said Mrs. Badger, "you know the unbelieving husband will be made holy through the believing wife."

"Much sanctifyin' he'll get," said Miss Roxy, contemptuously. "I don't believe he loves her any more than fancy; she's the last plaything, and when he's got her, he'll be tired of her, as he always was with anything he got ever since. I tell you, Moses Pennel is all for pride and ambition and the world; and his wife, when he gets used to her, 'll be only a circumstance,—that's all."

"He's not going to get much sanctifying," Miss Roxy said with disdain. "I don't think he loves her any more than fancy. She's just his latest toy, and once he has her, he’ll get bored with her, just like he always does with everything else he’s had. I'm telling you, Moses Pennel is all about pride, ambition, and appearances; once he gets used to his wife, she’ll just be an afterthought—that's it."

"Come, now, Miss Roxy," said Miss Emily, who in her best silk and smoothly-brushed hair had just come in, "we must not let you talk so. Moses Pennel has had long talks with brother, and he thinks him in a very hopeful way, and we are all delighted; and as to Mara, she is as fresh and happy as a little rose."

"Come on, Miss Roxy," said Miss Emily, who had just walked in, looking her best in silk and with her hair neatly styled, "we can't let you talk like that. Moses Pennel has had several long conversations with my brother, and he thinks very highly of him, which makes us all really happy; and as for Mara, she’s as fresh and cheerful as a little rose."

"So I tell Roxy," said Miss Ruey, who had been absent from the room to hold private consultations with Miss Emily concerning the biscuits and sponge-cake for tea, and who now sat down to the quilt and began to unroll a capa[Pg 325]cious and very limp calico thread-case; and placing her spectacles awry on her little pug nose, she began a series of ingenious dodges with her thread, designed to hit the eye of her needle.

"So I tell Roxy," said Miss Ruey, who had just come back from a private talk with Miss Emily about the biscuits and sponge cake for tea. She sat down with the quilt and started to unroll a spacious and very limp calico thread case. Adjusting her glasses crookedly on her little pug nose, she began a series of clever maneuvers with her thread, aiming to catch the eye of her needle.

"The old folks," she continued, "are e'en a'most tickled to pieces,—'cause they think it'll jist be the salvation of him to get Mara."

"The old folks," she continued, "are nearly ecstatic—because they think it'll be his salvation to get Mara."

"I ain't one of the sort that wants to be a-usin' up girls for the salvation of fellers," said Miss Roxy, severely. "Ever since he nearly like to have got her eat up by sharks, by giggiting her off in the boat out to sea when she wa'n't more'n three years old, I always have thought he was a misfortin' in that family, and I think so now."

"I’m not the kind of person who wants to use girls to save guys," said Miss Roxy, sternly. "Ever since he almost got her eaten by sharks, taking her out to sea in a boat when she was only three years old, I’ve always thought he was a curse in that family, and I still think so now."

Here broke in Mrs. Eaton, a thrifty energetic widow of a deceased sea-captain, who had been left with a tidy little fortune which commanded the respect of the neighborhood. Mrs. Eaton had entered silently during the discussion, but of course had come, as every other woman had that afternoon, with views to be expressed upon the subject.

Here broke in Mrs. Eaton, a practical and lively widow of a late sea captain, who had been left with a decent fortune that earned the respect of the neighborhood. Mrs. Eaton had entered quietly during the discussion, but of course had come, like every other woman that afternoon, to share her thoughts on the subject.

"For my part," she said, as she stuck a decisive needle into the first clam-shell pattern, "I ain't so sure that all the advantage in this match is on Moses Pennel's part. Mara Lincoln is a good little thing, but she ain't fitted to help a man along,—she'll always be wantin' somebody to help her. Why, I 'member goin' a voyage with Cap'n Eaton, when I saved the ship, if anybody did,—it was allowed on all hands. Cap'n Eaton wasn't hearty at that time, he was jist gettin' up from a fever,—it was when Marthy Ann was a baby, and I jist took her and went to sea and took care of him. I used to work the longitude for him and help him lay the ship's course when his head was bad,—and when we came on the coast, we were kept out of harbor beatin' about nearly three weeks, and all the ship's tacklin' was stiff with ice, and I tell you the men never would have stood it through and got the ship in, if[Pg 326] it hadn't been for me. I kept their mittens and stockings all the while a-dryin' at my stove in the cabin, and hot coffee all the while a-boilin' for 'em, or I believe they'd a-frozen their hands and feet, and never been able to work the ship in. That's the way I did. Now Sally Kittridge is a great deal more like that than Mara."

"For my part," she said, as she decisively stuck a needle into the first clam-shell pattern, "I'm not so sure that all the advantages in this match are on Moses Pennel's side. Mara Lincoln is a nice girl, but she doesn't have what it takes to help a man out—she'll always be looking for someone to support her. I remember going on a voyage with Captain Eaton, when I was the one who saved the ship, if anyone did—everyone agreed on that. Captain Eaton wasn't in great shape at that time; he was just recovering from a fever—it was when Marthy Ann was a baby, and I just took her with me to sea to take care of him. I used to calculate the longitude for him and help him navigate when he was feeling unwell—and when we reached the coast, we were stuck outside the harbor, sailing around for nearly three weeks, and all the ship's rigging was frozen stiff with ice. I can tell you, the crew wouldn’t have made it through and gotten the ship to safety if it hadn't been for me. I kept their mittens and socks drying on my stove in the cabin and had hot coffee boiling for them the whole time. If I hadn’t done that, I believe they would have frozen their hands and feet and never been able to get the ship in. That's how I handled it. Now, Sally Kittridge is a lot more like that than Mara."

"There's no doubt that Sally is smart," said Mrs. Badger, "but then it ain't every one can do like you, Mrs. Eaton."

"There's no doubt that Sally is smart," said Mrs. Badger, "but not everyone can do what you do, Mrs. Eaton."

"Oh no, oh no," was murmured from mouth to mouth; "Mrs. Eaton mustn't think she's any rule for others,—everybody knows she can do more than most people;" whereat the pacified Mrs. Eaton said "she didn't know as it was anything remarkable,—it showed what anybody might do, if they'd only try and have resolution; but that Mara never had been brought up to have resolution, and her mother never had resolution before her, it wasn't in any of Mary Pennel's family; she knew their grandmother and all their aunts, and they were all a weakly set, and not fitted to get along in life,—they were a kind of people that somehow didn't seem to know how to take hold of things."

"Oh no, oh no," was whispered from person to person; "Mrs. Eaton shouldn't think she's a standard for everyone—everyone knows she can do more than most. That calmed Mrs. Eaton, who said, "I don't think it’s anything extraordinary—it just shows what anyone could do if they would just try and have determination; but Mara never really learned to have determination, and her mother never had it either. It wasn't in any of Mary Pennel's family; she knew their grandmother and all their aunts, and they were all a pretty weakly group, not suited to get by in life—they were the type of people who just didn't seem to know how to take charge of things."

At this moment the consultation was hushed up by the entrance of Sally Kittridge and Mara, evidently on the closest terms of intimacy, and more than usually demonstrative and affectionate; they would sit together and use each other's needles, scissors, thread, and thimbles interchangeably, as if anxious to express every minute the most overflowing confidence. Sly winks and didactic nods were covertly exchanged among the elderly people, and when Mrs. Kittridge entered with more than usual airs of impressive solemnity, several of these were covertly directed toward her, as a matron whose views in life must have been considerably darkened by the recent event.

At that moment, the conversation was quieted by the arrival of Sally Kittridge and Mara, who were clearly very close friends and unusually affectionate. They sat together, sharing each other's needles, scissors, thread, and thimbles, as if eager to show how much they trusted one another. The older folks exchanged sly winks and knowing nods, and when Mrs. Kittridge walked in with an air of impressive seriousness, several of those nods were subtly aimed at her, as if she were a matron whose outlook on life had been notably affected by the recent event.

Mrs. Kittridge, however, found an opportunity to whis[Pg 327]per under her breath to Miss Ruey what a relief to her it was that the affair had taken such a turn. She had felt uneasy all summer for fear of what might come. Sally was so thoughtless and worldly, she felt afraid that he would lead her astray. She didn't see, for her part, how a professor of religion like Mara could make up her mind to such an unsettled kind of fellow, even if he did seem to be rich and well-to-do. But then she had done looking for consistency; and she sighed and vigorously applied herself to quilting like one who has done with the world.

Mrs. Kittridge, however, found a chance to whisper to Miss Ruey how relieved she was that things had changed. She had felt uneasy all summer, worried about what might happen. Sally was so thoughtless and worldly that she feared he would lead her astray. She couldn’t understand, for her part, how a religion professor like Mara could consider such an unsettled guy, even if he seemed to be wealthy and successful. But then she had stopped looking for consistency; she sighed and threw herself into quilting like someone who has given up on the world.

In return, Miss Ruey sighed and took snuff, and related for the hundredth time to Mrs. Kittridge the great escape she once had from the addresses of Abraham Peters, who had turned out a "poor drunken creetur." But then it was only natural that Mara should be interested in Moses; and the good soul went off into her favorite verse:—

In response, Miss Ruey sighed, took a sniff of snuff, and shared for the hundredth time with Mrs. Kittridge the dramatic escape she once made from Abraham Peters, who ended up being a "poor drunken creature." But it was only natural for Mara to be interested in Moses; and the kind-hearted woman began reciting her favorite verse:—

"The fondness of a creature's love,
How strong it strikes the sense!
Thither the warm affections move,
Nor can we drive them thence."

"The deep bond of a creature's love,
How deeply it touches the heart!
There go the passionate feelings,
"And we can't push them away."

In fact, Miss Ruey's sentimental vein was in quite a gushing state, for she more than once extracted from the dark corners of the limp calico thread-case we have spoken of certain long-treasured morceaux of newspaper poetry, of a tender and sentimental cast, which she had laid up with true Yankee economy, in case any one should ever be in a situation to need them. They related principally to the union of kindred hearts, and the joys of reciprocated feeling and the pains of absence. Good Miss Ruey occasionally passed these to Mara, with glances full of meaning, which caused the poor old thing to resemble a sentimental goblin, keeping Sally Kittridge in a perfect hysterical tempest of suppressed laughter, and making it difficult for Mara to preserve the decencies of life toward her well-intending old friend. The trouble with poor Miss Ruey was that, while[Pg 328] her body had grown old and crazy, her soul was just as juvenile as ever,—and a simple, juvenile soul disporting itself in a crazy, battered old body, is at great disadvantage. It was lucky for her, however, that she lived in the most sacred unconsciousness of the ludicrous effect of her little indulgences, and the pleasure she took in them was certainly of the most harmless kind. The world would be a far better and more enjoyable place than it is, if all people who are old and uncomely could find amusement as innocent and Christian-like as Miss Ruey's inoffensive thread-case collection of sentimental truisms.

In fact, Miss Ruey was feeling pretty sentimental, because she often pulled out from the dark corners of the limp calico thread case we mentioned, certain long-saved morceaux of newspaper poetry. These poems, full of tenderness and sentiment, were carefully stored away with classic Yankee thriftiness, just in case someone ever needed them. They mostly talked about the union of kindred hearts, the joys of shared feelings, and the pains of being apart. Good Miss Ruey would sometimes pass these to Mara with meaningful glances, making the poor old woman look like a sentimental goblin. This kept Sally Kittridge in an absolute storm of suppressed laughter, and it was tough for Mara to maintain the decorum of life around her well-meaning old friend. The issue with poor Miss Ruey was that, while her body had become old and frail, her spirit was just as youthful as ever—which made for a tough combination. Fortunately for her, she remained blissfully unaware of the ridiculousness of her little indulgences, and the joy she found in them was definitely harmless. The world would be a much better and more enjoyable place if all elderly and unattractive people could find amusement as innocent and kind-hearted as Miss Ruey's harmless thread-case collection of sentimental truths.

This quilting of which we speak was a solemn, festive occasion of the parish, held a week after Moses had sailed away; and so piquant a morsel as a recent engagement could not, of course, fail to be served up for the company in every variety of garnishing which individual tastes might suggest.

This quilting we’re talking about was a serious yet festive event for the parish, taking place a week after Moses had left; and naturally, a juicy topic like a recent engagement couldn’t be overlooked, served up in every way imaginable to please the guests' different tastes.

It became an ascertained fact, however, in the course of the evening festivities, that the minister was serenely approbative of the event; that Captain Kittridge was at length brought to a sense of the errors of his way in supposing that Sally had ever cared a pin for Moses more than as a mutual friend and confidant; and the great affair was settled without more ripples of discomposure than usually attend similar announcements in more refined society.

It became clear during the evening festivities that the minister fully supported the event; that Captain Kittridge finally realized he was wrong in thinking that Sally ever cared about Moses more than as a mutual friend and confidant; and that the whole matter was resolved without any more fuss than what typically happens with such announcements in more sophisticated circles.


CHAPTER XXXIV

FRIENDS

[Pg 329]The quilting broke up at the primitive hour of nine o'clock, at which, in early New England days, all social gatherings always dispersed. Captain Kittridge rowed his helpmeet, with Mara and Sally, across the Bay to the island.

[Pg 329]The quilting ended around nine o'clock, which, in the early days of New England, was when all social gatherings typically wrapped up. Captain Kittridge rowed his partner, along with Mara and Sally, across the Bay to the island.

"Come and stay with me to-night, Sally," said Mara.

"Come and spend the night with me, Sally," said Mara.

"I think Sally had best be at home," said Mrs. Kittridge. "There's no sense in girls talking all night."

"I think Sally should stay home," Mrs. Kittridge said. "It doesn't make sense for girls to talk all night."

"There ain't sense in nothin' else, mother," said the Captain. "Next to sparkin', which is the Christianist thing I knows on, comes gals' talks 'bout their sparks; they's as natural as crowsfoot and red columbines in the spring, and spring don't come but once a year neither,—and so let 'em take the comfort on't. I warrant now, Polly, you've laid awake nights and talked about me."

"There’s no sense in anything else, mother," said the Captain. "Next to flirting, which is the most Christian thing I know, comes girls’ conversations about their crushes; they’re as natural as crow’s feet and red columbines in the spring, and spring only comes once a year too—so let them enjoy it. I bet, Polly, you’ve stayed up at night talking about me."

"We've all been foolish once," said Mrs. Kittridge.

"We've all been foolish at some point," said Mrs. Kittridge.

"Well, mother, we want to be foolish too," said Sally.

"Well, Mom, we want to be foolish too," said Sally.

"Well, you and your father are too much for me," said Mrs. Kittridge, plaintively; "you always get your own way."

"Well, you and your dad are too much for me," Mrs. Kittridge said, sadly; "you always get what you want."

"How lucky that my way is always a good one!" said Sally.

"How lucky that my path is always a good one!" said Sally.

"Well, you know, Sally, you are going to make the beer to-morrow," still objected her mother.

"Well, you know, Sally, you’re going to make the beer tomorrow," her mother still insisted.

"Oh, yes; that's another reason," said Sally. "Mara and I shall come home through the woods in the morning, and we can get whole apronfuls of young wintergreen, and[Pg 330] besides, I know where there's a lot of sassafras root. We'll dig it, won't we, Mara?"

"Oh, definitely; that's another reason," said Sally. "Mara and I will come home through the woods in the morning, and we can collect a ton of young wintergreen, and [Pg 330] plus, I know where there's a lot of sassafras root. We'll dig it up, right, Mara?"

"Yes; and I'll come down and help you brew," said Mara. "Don't you remember the beer I made when Moses came home?"

"Yeah; I’ll come down and help you brew," said Mara. "Don’t you remember the beer I made when Moses got back?"

"Yes, yes, I remember," said the Captain, "you sent us a couple of bottles."

"Yeah, yeah, I remember," said the Captain, "you sent us a couple of bottles."

"We can make better yet now," said Mara. "The wintergreen is young, and the green tips on the spruce boughs are so full of strength. Everything is lively and sunny now."

"We can do even better now," said Mara. "The wintergreen is fresh, and the new growth on the spruce branches is so vibrant. Everything feels alive and bright now."

"Yes, yes," said the Captain, "and I 'spect I know why things do look pretty lively to some folks, don't they?"

"Yeah, sure," said the Captain, "and I bet I know why things seem pretty exciting to some people, right?"

"I don't know what sort of work you'll make of the beer among you," said Mrs. Kittridge; "but you must have it your own way."

"I don't know what kind of work you'll create with the beer among you," said Mrs. Kittridge; "but you should do it your own way."

Mrs. Kittridge, who never did anything else among her tea-drinking acquaintances but laud and magnify Sally's good traits and domestic acquirements, felt constantly bound to keep up a faint show of controversy and authority in her dealings with her,—the fading remains of the strict government of her childhood; but it was, nevertheless, very perfectly understood, in a general way, that Sally was to do as she pleased; and so, when the boat came to shore, she took the arm of Mara and started up toward the brown house.

Mrs. Kittridge, who only ever praised and highlighted Sally's good qualities and skills among her tea-drinking friends, felt a constant pressure to maintain a slight facade of disagreement and authority in her interactions with her—leftover habits from the strict upbringing of her childhood; however, it was clearly understood that Sally could do as she liked. So, when the boat reached the shore, she took Mara's arm and headed up toward the brown house.

The air was soft and balmy, and though the moon by which the troth of Mara and Moses had been plighted had waned into the latest hours of the night, still a thousand stars were lying in twinkling brightness, reflected from the undulating waves all around them, and the tide, as it rose and fell, made a sound as gentle and soft as the respiration of a peaceful sleeper.

The air was warm and pleasant, and even though the moon that witnessed Mara and Moses’s promise had faded into the late hours of the night, a thousand stars were still twinkling brightly, reflected on the gently rolling waves around them. The tide, as it rose and fell, made a sound as soft and soothing as the breathing of someone peacefully sleeping.

"Well, Mara," said Sally, after an interval of silence, "all has come out right. You see that it was you whom[Pg 331] he loved. What a lucky thing for me that I am made so heartless, or I might not be as glad as I am."

"Well, Mara," Sally said after a moment of silence, "everything turned out okay. You see, it was you that he loved. What a lucky break for me that I’m so heartless, or I might not be as happy as I am."

"You are not heartless, Sally," said Mara; "it's the enchanted princess asleep; the right one hasn't come to waken her."

"You’re not cold-hearted, Sally," Mara said, "it’s the enchanted princess who’s asleep; the right person hasn’t come to wake her up."

"Maybe so," said Sally, with her old light laugh. "If I only were sure he would make you happy now,—half as happy as you deserve,—I'd forgive him his share of this summer's mischief. The fault was just half mine, you see, for I witched with him. I confess it. I have my own little spider-webs for these great lordly flies, and I like to hear them buzz."

"Maybe," Sally said with her familiar light laugh. "If I could be sure he would make you happy now—half as happy as you deserve—I’d forgive him for his part in this summer's trouble. The fault was partly mine, you know, because I got involved with him. I admit it. I have my own little spiderwebs for these big, important flies, and I enjoy hearing them buzz."

"Take care, Sally; never do it again, or the spider-web may get round you," said Mara.

"Be careful, Sally; don't do that again, or the spiderweb might ensnare you," said Mara.

"Never fear me," said Sally. "But, Mara, I wish I felt sure that Moses could make you happy. Do you really, now, when you think seriously, feel as if he would?"

"Don't be scared of me," said Sally. "But, Mara, I wish I could be sure that Moses would make you happy. Honestly, when you think about it, do you really feel like he would?"

"I never thought seriously about it," said Mara; "but I know he needs me; that I can do for him what no one else can. I have always felt all my life that he was to be mine; that he was sent to me, ordained for me to care for and to love."

"I never thought much about it," said Mara; "but I know he needs me; that I can do for him what no one else can. I've always felt my whole life that he was meant to be mine; that he was sent to me, destined for me to care for and to love."

"You are well mated," said Sally. "He wants to be loved very much, and you want to love. There's the active and passive voice, as they used to say at Miss Plucher's. But yet in your natures you are opposite as any two could well be."

"You two are a great match," said Sally. "He really craves love, and you want to give it. It's like the active and passive voice, as they used to say in Miss Plucher's class. But still, in your personalities, you're as different as two people can be."

Mara felt that there was in these chance words of Sally more than she perceived. No one could feel as intensely as she could that the mind and heart so dear to her were yet, as to all that was most vital and real in her inner life, unsympathizing. To her the spiritual world was a reality; God an ever-present consciousness; and the line of this present life seemed so to melt and lose itself in the antici[Pg 332]pation of a future and brighter one, that it was impossible for her to speak intimately and not unconsciously to betray the fact. To him there was only the life of this world: there was no present God; and from all thought of a future life he shrank with a shuddering aversion, as from something ghastly and unnatural. She had realized this difference more in the few days that followed her betrothal than all her life before, for now first the barrier of mutual constraint and misunderstanding having melted away, each spoke with an abandon and unreserve which made the acquaintance more vitally intimate than ever it had been before. It was then that Mara felt that while her sympathies could follow him through all his plans and interests, there was a whole world of thought and feeling in her heart where his could not follow her; and she asked herself, Would it be so always? Must she walk at his side forever repressing the utterance of that which was most sacred and intimate, living in a nominal and external communion only? How could it be that what was so lovely and clear in its reality to her, that which was to her as life-blood, that which was the vital air in which she lived and moved and had her being, could be absolutely nothing to him? Was it really possible, as he said, that God had no existence for him except in a nominal cold belief; that the spiritual world was to him only a land of pale shades and doubtful glooms, from which he shrank with dread, and the least allusion to which was distasteful? and would this always be so? and if so, could she be happy?

Mara sensed that there was more in Sally's casual words than she understood. No one could feel as deeply as she did that the mind and heart she cherished were, in terms of everything essential and real in her inner life, unresponsive. For her, the spiritual world was real; God was a constant presence; and the line between this life and the hope for a brighter future seemed to blur so much that it was impossible for her to speak openly without unconsciously revealing that fact. To him, there was only the life of this world: he felt there was no present God, and he recoiled from any thought of an afterlife with a shuddering aversion, as if it were something horrifying and unnatural. She had noticed this difference more in the few days after her engagement than in her entire life before, because now that the barrier of mutual restraint and misunderstanding had melted away, each spoke with a freedom and openness that made their relationship more intimately connected than it had ever been. It was then that Mara realized that while she could follow him through all his plans and interests, there was an entire world of thoughts and feelings in her heart that he could not enter; and she wondered, Would it always be this way? Must she walk beside him forever suppressing what was most sacred and personal, living in only a surface-level and external connection? How could it be that what was so beautiful and clear to her, the very essence of her being, could mean absolutely nothing to him? Was it really true, as he claimed, that God only existed for him as a cold, nominal belief; that the spiritual world was merely a place of pale shadows and doubt, from which he recoiled in fear, and any mention of it was unwelcome? Would this always be the case? And if so, could she ever be happy?

But Mara said the truth in saying that the question of personal happiness never entered her thoughts. She loved Moses in a way that made it necessary to her happiness to devote herself to him, to watch over and care for him; and though she knew not how, she felt a sort of presentiment that it was through her that he must be brought into sympathy with a spiritual and immortal life.[Pg 333]

But Mara spoke the truth when she said that personal happiness was never on her mind. She loved Moses in a way that made it essential for her happiness to dedicate herself to him, to look after and take care of him; and although she didn't know how, she had a kind of intuition that it was through her that he needed to connect with a spiritual and eternal life.[Pg 333]

All this passed through Mara's mind in the reverie into which Sally's last words threw her, as she sat on the door-sill and looked off into the starry distance and heard the weird murmur of the sea.

All of this went through Mara's mind as she sat on the doorstep, lost in thought from Sally's last words, gazing into the starry distance and listening to the strange sound of the sea.

"How lonesome the sea at night always is," said Sally. "I declare, Mara, I don't wonder you miss that creature, for, to tell the truth, I do a little bit. It was something, you know, to have somebody to come in, and to joke with, and to say how he liked one's hair and one's ribbons, and all that. I quite got up a friendship for Moses, so that I can feel how dull you must be;" and Sally gave a half sigh, and then whistled a tune as adroitly as a blackbird.

"How lonely the sea is at night," Sally said. "I swear, Mara, I can see why you miss that guy, because honestly, I kind of do too. It was nice, you know, to have someone come in, joke around, and compliment your hair and your ribbons, and all that. I actually built a friendship with Moses, so I totally get how boring it must be for you;" and Sally let out a soft sigh, then whistled a tune as skillfully as a blackbird.

"Yes," said Mara, "we two girls down on this lonely island need some one to connect us with the great world; and he was so full of life, and so certain and confident, he seemed to open a way before one out into life."

"Yeah," said Mara, "us two girls stuck on this lonely island need someone to connect us to the outside world; and he was so full of energy, and so sure of himself, he seemed to show a path ahead into life."

"Well, of course, while he is gone there will be plenty to do getting ready to be married," said Sally. "By the by, when I was over to Portland the other day, Maria Potter showed me a new pattern for a bed-quilt, the sweetest thing you can imagine,—it is called the morning star. There is a great star in the centre, and little stars all around,—white on a blue ground. I mean to begin one for you."

"Well, of course, while he's away, there’s going to be a lot to do to get ready for the wedding," said Sally. "By the way, when I was in Portland the other day, Maria Potter showed me a new pattern for a bed quilt, the cutest thing you can imagine—it’s called the morning star. There’s a big star in the center and little stars all around—white on a blue background. I plan to start one for you."

"I am going to begin spinning some very fine flax next week," said Mara; "and have I shown you the new pattern I drew for a counterpane? it is to be morning-glories, leaves and flowers, you know,—a pretty idea, isn't it?"

"I’m going to start spinning some really fine flax next week," said Mara. "And have I shown you the new pattern I drew for a bedspread? It’s morning-glories, leaves, and flowers, you know—a lovely idea, right?"

And so, the conversation falling from the region of the sentimental to the practical, the two girls went in and spent an hour in discussions so purely feminine that we will not enlighten the reader further therewith. Sally seemed to be investing all her energies in the preparation of the wedding outfit of her friend, about which she talked with a constant and restless activity, and for which she formed[Pg 334] a thousand plans, and projected shopping tours to Portland, Brunswick, and even to Boston,—this last being about as far off a venture at that time as Paris now seems to a Boston belle.

And so, as the conversation shifted from sentimental topics to practical matters, the two girls went inside and spent an hour discussing things that were purely feminine, so we won't go into further detail about that. Sally seemed to be putting all her energy into planning her friend's wedding outfit, talking about it with constant and restless enthusiasm, creating a thousand ideas, and planning shopping trips to Portland, Brunswick, and even Boston—this last one being as much of a stretch back then as Paris seems to a Boston socialite now.

"When you are married," said Sally, "you'll have to take me to live with you; that creature sha'n't have you all to himself. I hate men, they are so exorbitant,—they spoil all our playmates; and what shall I do when you are gone?"

"When you're married," said Sally, "you'll have to let me move in with you; that guy can’t have you all to himself. I can't stand men, they’re so selfish—they ruin all our fun; and what am I supposed to do when you are gone?"

"You will go with Mr.—what's his name?" said Mara.

"You'll go with Mr.—what's his name?" said Mara.

"Pshaw, I don't know him. I shall be an old maid," said Sally; "and really there isn't much harm in that, if one could have company,—if somebody or other wouldn't marry all one's friends,—that's lonesome," she said, winking a tear out of her black eyes and laughing. "If I were only a young fellow now, Mara, I'd have you myself, and that would be just the thing; and I'd shoot Moses, if he said a word; and I'd have money, and I'd have honors, and I'd carry you off to Europe, and take you to Paris and Rome, and nobody knows where; and we'd live in peace, as the story-books say."

"Pshaw, I don't know him. I'll be an old maid," said Sally; "and honestly, there's nothing wrong with that, as long as you have some company—if someone wouldn't marry all your friends—that's lonely," she said, wiping a tear from her dark eyes and laughing. "If I were just a young guy now, Mara, I'd take you myself, and that would be perfect; and I'd shoot Moses if he said a word; and I'd have money, and I'd have fame, and I'd whisk you off to Europe, and take you to Paris and Rome, and who knows where else; and we’d live in peace, like they do in storybooks."

"Come, Sally, how wild you are talking," said Mara, "and the clock has just struck one; let's try to go to sleep."

"Come on, Sally, you're being it so dramatic," said Mara, "and the clock just struck one; let's try to get some sleep."

Sally put her face to Mara's and kissed her, and Mara felt a moist spot on her cheek,—could it be a tear?

Sally pressed her face against Mara's and kissed her, and Mara felt a wet spot on her cheek—could it be a tear?


CHAPTER XXXV

THE TOOTHACRE COTTAGE

[Pg 335]Aunt Roxy and Aunt Ruey Toothacre lived in a little one-story gambrel-roofed cottage, on the side of Harpswell Bay, just at the head of the long cove which we have already described. The windows on two sides commanded the beautiful bay and the opposite shores, and on the other they looked out into the dense forest, through whose deep shadows of white birch and pine the silver rise and fall of the sea daily revealed itself.

[Pg 335]Aunt Roxy and Aunt Ruey Toothacre lived in a small one-story cottage with a gambrel roof, situated

The house itself was a miracle of neatness within, for the two thrifty sisters were worshipers of soap and sand, and these two tutelary deities had kept every board of the house-floor white and smooth, and also every table and bench and tub of household use. There was a sacred care over each article, however small and insignificant, which composed their slender household stock. The loss or breakage of one of them would have made a visible crack in the hearts of the worthy sisters,—for every plate, knife, fork, spoon, cup, or glass was as intimate with them, as instinct with home feeling, as if it had a soul; each defect or spot had its history, and a cracked dish or article of furniture received as tender and considerate medical treatment as if it were capable of understanding and feeling the attention.

The house was extremely tidy inside, thanks to the two frugal sisters who were devoted to cleanliness. Their commitment to soap and sand kept every floorboard white and smooth, as well as every table, bench, and tub in the house. They took special care of every item, no matter how small or unimportant, that made up their modest household. Losing or breaking any of these items would have deeply affected the sisters, as each plate, knife, fork, spoon, cup, or glass felt like a part of their home—almost like it had a soul. Each scratch or stain carried a story, and any damaged dish or piece of furniture received as much careful attention as if it could understand and appreciate the care.

It was now a warm, spicy day in June,—one of those which bring out the pineapple fragrance from the fir-shoots, and cause the spruce and hemlocks to exude a warm, resinous perfume. The two sisters, for a wonder, were[Pg 336] having a day to themselves, free from the numerous calls of the vicinity for twelve miles round. The room in which they were sitting was bestrewn with fragments of dresses and bonnets, which were being torn to pieces in a most wholesale way, with a view to a general rejuvenescence. A person of unsympathetic temperament, and disposed to take sarcastic views of life, might perhaps wonder what possible object these two battered and weather-beaten old bodies proposed to themselves in this process,—whether Miss Roxy's gaunt black-straw helmet, which she had worn defiantly all winter, was likely to receive much lustre from being pressed over and trimmed with an old green ribbon which that energetic female had colored black by a domestic recipe; and whether Miss Roxy's rusty bombazette would really seem to the world any fresher for being ripped, and washed, and turned, for the second or third time, and made over with every breadth in a different situation. Probably after a week of efficient labor, busily expended in bleaching, dyeing, pressing, sewing, and ripping, an unenlightened spectator, seeing them come into the meeting-house, would simply think, "There are those two old frights with the same old things on they have worn these fifty years." Happily the weird sisters were contentedly ignorant of any such remarks, for no duchesses could have enjoyed a more quiet belief in their own social position, and their semi-annual spring and fall rehabilitation was therefore entered into with the most simple-hearted satisfaction.

It was a warm, spicy day in June—one of those days that brings out the pineapple scent from the fir shoots and makes the spruce and hemlocks release a lovely, resinous aroma. The two sisters, surprisingly, had a day to themselves, free from the many demands of the surrounding area for twelve miles. The room where they sat was scattered with bits of dresses and bonnets, which were being torn apart in a rather thorough way, aiming for a complete makeover. A person with a critical outlook on life might wonder what these two worn and weathered old ladies hoped to achieve with this process—whether Miss Roxy's thin black straw hat, which she had worn defiantly all winter, would really shine after being reshaped and decorated with an old green ribbon that she had dyed black using a homemade method; and whether Miss Roxy's faded fabric would actually look any newer after being ripped, washed, and rearranged yet again. After a week of hard work spent bleaching, dyeing, pressing, sewing, and tearing, an uninformed observer might conclude, seeing them emerge into the meeting house, "There are those two old sights, wearing the same clothes they've had for fifty years." Fortunately, the odd sisters were blissfully unaware of any such comments, for no duchesses could have held a more peaceful belief in their own social standing, and their semi-annual spring and fall refresh was approached with the utmost simple-hearted joy.

"I'm a-thinkin', Roxy," said Aunt Ruey, considerately turning and turning on her hand an old straw bonnet, on which were streaked all the marks of the former trimming in lighter lines, which revealed too clearly the effects of wind and weather,—"I'm a-thinkin' whether or no this 'ere mightn't as well be dyed and done with it as try to bleach it out. I've had it ten years last May, and it's kind[Pg 337] o' losin' its freshness, you know. I don't believe these 'ere streaks will bleach out."

"I'm thinking, Roxy," said Aunt Ruey, thoughtfully turning an old straw bonnet in her hands. The lighter streaks from previous trims showed the wear and tear from wind and weather. "I'm wondering if it might just be better to dye it rather than try to bleach it out. I've had this for ten years last May, and it's kind of losing its freshness, you know. I really don't think these streaks will come out."

"Never mind, Ruey," said Miss Roxy, authoritatively, "I'm goin' to do Mis' Badger's leg'orn, and it won't cost nothin'; so hang your'n in the barrel along with it,—the same smoke'll do 'em both. Mis' Badger she finds the brimstone, and next fall you can put it in the dye when we do the yarn."

"Don't worry about it, Ruey," Miss Roxy said confidently, "I'm going to do Mis' Badger's bonnet, and it won't cost anything; just hang yours in the barrel with it—same smoke will finish both. Mis' Badger will provide the brimstone, and next fall you can use it in the dye when we do the yarn."

"That ar straw is a beautiful straw!" said Miss Ruey, in a plaintive tone, tenderly examining the battered old head-piece,—"I braided every stroke on it myself, and I don't know as I could do it ag'in. My fingers ain't quite so limber as they was! I don't think I shall put green ribbon on it ag'in; 'cause green is such a color to ruin, if a body gets caught out in a shower! There's these green streaks come that day I left my amberil at Captain Broad's, and went to meetin'. Mis' Broad she says to me, 'Aunt Ruey, it won't rain.' And says I to her, 'Well, Mis' Broad, I'll try it; though I never did leave my amberil at home but what it rained.' And so I went, and sure enough it rained cats and dogs, and streaked my bonnet all up; and them ar streaks won't bleach out, I'm feared."

"That straw is such a lovely straw!" said Miss Ruey, in a sad tone, gently looking at the worn old hat, "I braided every piece of it myself, and I don't think I could do it again. My fingers aren't as flexible as they used to be! I don't think I'll put green ribbon on it anymore, because green is such a color that gets ruined if you get caught in the rain! Those green streaks happened the day I left my umbrella at Captain Broad's and went to church. Mrs. Broad said to me, 'Aunt Ruey, it won't rain.' And I told her, 'Well, Mrs. Broad, I'll take my chances; but I’ve never left my umbrella at home without it raining.' So, I went, and of course, it poured, and ruined my bonnet; and I'm afraid those streaks won't come out."

"How long is it Mis' Badger has had that ar leg'orn?"

"How long has it been since Miss Badger got that leg horn?"

"Why, you know, the Cap'n he brought it home when he came from his voyage from Marseilles. That ar was when Phebe Ann was born, and she's fifteen year old. It was a most elegant thing when he brought it; but I think it kind o' led Mis' Badger on to extravagant ways,—for gettin' new trimmin' spring and fall so uses up money as fast as new bonnets; but Mis' Badger's got the money, and she's got a right to use it if she pleases; but if I'd a-had new trimmin's spring and fall, I shouldn't a-put away what I have in the bank."

"Well, you know, the Captain brought it home when he returned from his trip to Marseilles. That was when Phebe Ann was born, and she's fifteen now. It was a really nice thing when he brought it; but I think it kind of encouraged Mrs. Badger to spend extravagantly—because getting new decorations each spring and fall eats up money just as quickly as new hats do; but Mrs. Badger has the money, and she has the right to use it if she wants to; but if I had gotten new decorations every spring and fall, I wouldn't have saved what I have in the bank."

"Have you seen the straw Sally Kittridge is braidin' for Mara Lincoln's weddin' bonnet?" said Miss Ruey.[Pg 338] "It's jist the finest thing ever you did see,—and the whitest. I was a-tellin' Sally that I could do as well once myself, but my mantle was a-fallin' on her. Sally don't seem to act a bit like a disap'inted gal. She is as chipper as she can be about Mara's weddin', and seems like she couldn't do too much. But laws, everybody seems to want to be a-doin' for her. Miss Emily was a-showin' me a fine double damask tablecloth that she was goin' to give her; and Mis' Pennel, she's been a-spinnin' and layin' up sheets and towels and tablecloths all her life,—and then she has all Naomi's things. Mis' Pennel was talkin' to me the other day about bleachin' 'em out 'cause they'd got yellow a-lyin'. I kind o' felt as if 'twas unlucky to be a-fittin' out a bride with her dead mother's things, but I didn't like to say nothin'."

"Have you seen the straw Sally Kittridge is braiding for Mara Lincoln's wedding bonnet?" said Miss Ruey.[Pg 338] "It's the nicest thing you've ever seen—and the whitest. I was telling Sally that I once could do just as well myself, but my skills were falling behind her. Sally doesn't seem to be acting at all like a disappointed girl. She's as cheerful as can be about Mara's wedding and seems like she couldn't do enough. But gosh, everyone wants to help out for her. Miss Emily was showing me a beautiful double damask tablecloth that she was going to give her; and Mrs. Pennel, she's been spinning and saving sheets, towels, and tablecloths all her life—and then she has all of Naomi's things. Mrs. Pennel was talking to me the other day about bleaching them because they had turned yellow from just sitting there. I kind of felt like it was unlucky to be preparing a bride with her dead mother's things, but I didn't want to say anything."

"Ruey," said Miss Roxy impressively, "I hain't never had but jist one mind about Mara Lincoln's weddin',—it's to be,—but it won't be the way people think. I hain't nussed and watched and sot up nights sixty years for nothin'. I can see beyond what most folks can,—her weddin' garments is bought and paid for, and she'll wear 'em, but she won't be Moses Pennel's wife,—now you see."

"Ruey," said Miss Roxy with emphasis, "I've always had just one opinion about Mara Lincoln's wedding—it's happening—but it won't go the way people expect. I haven't nursed, watched, and stayed up late for sixty years for nothing. I can see beyond what most people can—her wedding clothes are bought and paid for, and she'll wear them, but she won't be Moses Pennel’s wife—now you understand."

"Why, whose wife will she be then?" said Miss Ruey; "'cause that ar Mr. Adams is married. I saw it in the paper last week when I was up to Mis' Badger's."

"Well, whose wife will she be then?" said Miss Ruey; "because that Mr. Adams is married. I saw it in the paper last week when I was at Mrs. Badger's."

Miss Roxy shut her lips with oracular sternness and went on with her sewing.

Miss Roxy pressed her lips together with an authoritative seriousness and continued with her sewing.

"Who's that comin' in the back door?" said Miss Ruey, as the sound of a footstep fell upon her ear. "Bless me," she added, as she started up to look, "if folks ain't always nearest when you're talkin' about 'em. Why, Mara; you come down here and catched us in all our dirt! Well now, we're glad to see you, if we be," said Miss Ruey.

"Who's that coming in the back door?" said Miss Ruey, as she heard a footstep. "Wow," she added, jumping up to take a look, "people really do show up right when you're talking about them. Well, Mara; you came down here and caught us in all our mess! Anyway, we're happy to see you, even if we are," said Miss Ruey.


CHAPTER XXXVI

THE SHADOW OF DEATH

[Pg 339]It was in truth Mara herself who came and stood in the doorway. She appeared overwearied with her walk, for her cheeks had a vivid brightness unlike their usual tender pink. Her eyes had, too, a brilliancy almost painful to look upon. They seemed like ardent fires, in which the life was slowly burning away.

[Pg 339]It was really Mara herself who came and stood in the doorway. She looked exhausted from her walk, as her cheeks had a bright flush that was different from their usual soft pink. Her eyes also had an intensity that was almost uncomfortable to look at. They seemed like fierce flames, in which life was slowly fading away.

"Sit down, sit down, little Mara," said Aunt Ruey. "Why, how like a picture you look this mornin',—one needn't ask you how you do,—it's plain enough that you are pretty well."

"Sit down, sit down, little Mara," said Aunt Ruey. "Wow, you look so lovely this morning—there's no need to ask how you are; it's obvious that you're doing pretty well."

"Yes, I am, Aunt Ruey," she answered, sinking into a chair; "only it is warm to-day, and the sun is so hot, that's all, I believe; but I am very tired."

"Yeah, I am, Aunt Ruey," she replied, sinking into a chair; "it's just that it's warm today, and the sun is so hot, I think that's all it is; but I'm really tired."

"So you are now, poor thing," said Miss Ruey. "Roxy, where's my turkey-feather fan? Oh, here 'tis; there, take it, and fan you, child; and maybe you'll have a glass of our spruce beer?"

"So here you are now, poor thing," said Miss Ruey. "Roxy, where's my turkey-feather fan? Oh, here it is; here, take it, and fan yourself, child; and maybe you'll have a glass of our spruce beer?"

"Thank you, Aunt Roxy. I brought you some young wintergreen," said Mara, unrolling from her handkerchief a small knot of those fragrant leaves, which were wilted by the heat.

"Thank you, Aunt Roxy. I brought you some young wintergreen," Mara said, unfolding a small bundle of those fragrant leaves from her handkerchief, which had wilted in the heat.

"Thank you, I'm sure," said Miss Ruey, in delight; "you always fetch something, Mara,—always would, ever since you could toddle. Roxy and I was jist talkin' about your weddin'. I s'pose you're gettin' things well along down to your house. Well, here's the beer. I don't hardly know whether you'll think it worked enough,[Pg 340] though. I set it Saturday afternoon, for all Mis' Twitchell said it was wicked for beer to work Sundays," said Miss Ruey, with a feeble cackle at her own joke.

"Thanks, I appreciate it," said Miss Ruey, excitedly; "you always bring something, Mara—you always have, ever since you could walk. Roxy and I were just talking about your wedding. I guess you're getting everything ready over at your place. Well, here's the beer. I'm not sure if you'll think it has fermented enough,[Pg 340] though. I set it up Saturday afternoon, despite what Mrs. Twitchell said about it being wrong for beer to ferment on Sundays," said Miss Ruey, chuckling weakly at her own joke.

"Thank you, Aunt Ruey; it is excellent, as your things always are. I was very thirsty."

"Thanks, Aunt Ruey; it’s amazing, just like everything you make. I was really thirsty."

"I s'pose you hear from Moses pretty often now," said Aunt Ruey. "How kind o' providential it happened about his getting that property; he'll be a rich man now; and Mara, you'll come to grandeur, won't you? Well, I don't know anybody deserves it more,—I r'ally don't. Mis' Badger was a-sayin' so a-Sunday, and Cap'n Kittridge and all on 'em. I s'pose though we've got to lose you,—you'll be goin' off to Boston, or New York, or somewhere."

"I guess you hear from Moses pretty often now," said Aunt Ruey. "How fortunate it was for him to get that property; he'll be a rich man now; and Mara, you'll be living the high life, won't you? Well, I don't know anyone who deserves it more—I really don't. Mrs. Badger was saying the same thing last Sunday, along with Captain Kittridge and everyone else. I suppose we have to accept that we'll lose you—you'll be heading off to Boston, or New York, or somewhere."

"We can't tell what may happen, Aunt Ruey," said Mara, and there was a slight tremor in her voice as she spoke.

"We can't predict what might happen, Aunt Ruey," Mara said, her voice trembling slightly as she spoke.

Miss Roxy, who beyond the first salutations had taken no part in this conversation, had from time to time regarded Mara over the tops of her spectacles with looks of grave apprehension; and Mara, looking up, now encountered one of these glances.

Miss Roxy, who hadn’t said much in this conversation after the initial greetings, had occasionally looked at Mara over the tops of her glasses with expressions of serious concern; and now, when Mara looked up, she caught one of those gazes.

"Have you taken the dock and dandelion tea I told you about?" said the wise woman, rather abruptly.

"Have you tried the dock and dandelion tea I mentioned?" the wise woman asked suddenly.

"Yes, Aunt Roxy, I have taken them faithfully for two weeks past."

"Yeah, Aunt Roxy, I've been taking them regularly for the past two weeks."

"And do they seem to set you up any?" said Miss Roxy.

"And do they seem to be setting you up at all?" said Miss Roxy.

"No, I don't think they do. Grandma thinks I'm better, and grandpa, and I let them think so; but Miss Roxy, can't you think of something else?"

"No, I don't think they do. Grandma thinks I'm better, and Grandpa, and I let them think that; but Miss Roxy, can’t you think of something else?"

Miss Roxy laid aside the straw bonnet which she was ripping, and motioned Mara into the outer room,—the sink-room, as the sisters called it. It was the scullery of their little establishment,—the place where all dish-wash[Pg 341]ing and clothes-washing was generally performed,—but the boards of the floor were white as snow, and the place had the odor of neatness. The open door looked out pleasantly into the deep forest, where the waters of the cove, now at high tide, could be seen glittering through the trees. Soft moving spots of sunlight fell, checkering the feathery ferns and small piney tribes of evergreen which ran in ruffling wreaths of green through the dry, brown matting of fallen pine needles. Birds were singing and calling to each other merrily from the green shadows of the forest,—everything had a sylvan fullness and freshness of life. There are moods of mind when the sight of the bloom and freshness of nature affects us painfully, like the want of sympathy in a dear friend. Mara had been all her days a child of the woods; her delicate life had grown up in them like one of their own cool shaded flowers; and there was not a moss, not a fern, not an upspringing thing that waved a leaf or threw forth a flower-bell, that was not a well-known friend to her; she had watched for years its haunts, known the time of its coming and its going, studied its shy and veiled habits, and interwoven with its life each year a portion of her own; and now she looked out into the old mossy woods, with their wavering spots of sun and shadow, with a yearning pain, as if she wanted help or sympathy to come from their silent recesses.

Miss Roxy set aside the straw bonnet she was tearing apart and gestured for Mara to join her in the outer room—the sink room, as the sisters called it. It was the small kitchen of their little home, where they usually did the dishwashing and laundry, but the floorboards were as white as snow, and the place smelled fresh and clean. The open door offered a nice view of the deep forest, with the waters of the cove, now at high tide, shimmering through the trees. Soft spots of sunlight filtered through, creating patterns on the feathery ferns and clusters of evergreens that scattered like green wreaths over the dry, brown mat of fallen pine needles. Birds chirped and called to each other cheerfully from the green shadows of the forest—everything felt alive and vibrant. There are times when the beauty and freshness of nature can hit us painfully, like a lack of understanding from a close friend. Mara had always been a child of the woods; her delicate life had flourished there like one of their cool, shaded flowers. Every moss, fern, and sprouting plant that waved a leaf or bloomed a flower was a familiar friend to her; she had tracked their habitats for years, learned their patterns of arrival and departure, observed their shy habits, and woven a part of her life into theirs each year. Now she gazed out at the old mossy woods, with their shifting patches of sun and shadow, feeling a deep longing as if she needed help or understanding to emerge from their quiet depths.

She sat down on the clean, scoured door-sill, and took off her straw hat. Her golden-brown hair was moist with the damps of fatigue, which made it curl and wave in darker little rings about her forehead; her eyes,—those longing, wistful eyes,—had a deeper pathos of sadness than ever they had worn before; and her delicate lips trembled with some strong suppressed emotion.

She sat down on the clean, polished door-sill and took off her straw hat. Her golden-brown hair was damp with exhaustion, making it curl and wave in darker little rings around her forehead. Her eyes—those longing, wistful eyes—held a deeper sadness than they ever had before, and her delicate lips trembled with some strong, suppressed emotion.

"Aunt Roxy," she said suddenly, "I must speak to somebody. I can't go on and keep up without telling some one, and it had better be you, because you have skill[Pg 342] and experience, and can help me if anybody can. I've been going on for six months now, taking this and taking that, and trying to get better, but it's of no use. Aunt Roxy, I feel my life going,—going just as steadily and as quietly every day as the sand goes out of your hour-glass. I want to live,—oh, I never wanted to live so much, and I can't,—oh, I know I can't. Can I now,—do you think I can?"

"Aunt Roxy," she said suddenly, "I have to talk to someone. I can't keep pushing through without confiding in someone, and it should be you since you have the skills[Pg 342] and experience, and you can help me if anyone can. I've been struggling for six months now, trying this and that, hoping to get better, but nothing is working. Aunt Roxy, I feel my life slipping away—day by day, just as steadily and quietly as the sand flows out of your hourglass. I want to live—oh, I've never wanted to live so much, and yet I can't—oh, I know I can't. Can I? Do you think I can?"

Mara looked imploringly at Miss Roxy. The hard-visaged woman sat down on the wash-bench, and, covering her worn, stony visage with her checked apron, sobbed aloud.

Mara looked desperately at Miss Roxy. The stern-looking woman sat down on the wash-bench and, covering her tired, rough face with her checkered apron, cried out loud.

Mara was confounded. This implacably withered, sensible, dry woman, beneficently impassive in sickness and sorrow, weeping!—it was awful, as if one of the Fates had laid down her fatal distaff to weep.

Mara was confused. This unyieldingly stiff, practical, emotionless woman, calmly enduring illness and sadness, crying!—it was terrible, like one of the Fates had put down her deadly task to cry.

Mara sprung up impulsively and threw her arms round her neck.

Mara jumped up suddenly and wrapped her arms around her neck.

"Now don't, Aunt Roxy, don't. I didn't think you would feel bad, or I wouldn't have told you; but oh, you don't know how hard it is to keep such a secret all to one's self. I have to make believe all the time that I am feeling well and getting better. I really say what isn't true every day, because, poor grandmamma, how could I bear to see her distress? and grandpapa,—oh, I wish people didn't love me so! Why cannot they let me go? And oh, Aunt Roxy, I had a letter only yesterday, and he is so sure we shall be married this fall,—and I know it cannot be." Mara's voice gave way in sobs, and the two wept together,—the old grim, gray woman holding the soft golden head against her breast with a convulsive grasp. "Oh, Aunt Roxy, do you love me, too?" said Mara. "I didn't know you did."

"Now don’t, Aunt Roxy, please don’t. I didn’t think you would feel bad, or I wouldn’t have told you; but oh, you don’t know how hard it is to keep such a secret all to myself. I have to pretend all the time that I’m feeling well and getting better. I honestly say things that aren’t true every day because, poor grandma, how could I stand to see her upset? And grandpa—oh, I wish people didn’t care about me so much! Why can’t they just let me go? And oh, Aunt Roxy, I got a letter just yesterday, and he is so sure we’ll be married this fall—and I know that can’t happen." Mara's voice broke into sobs, and the two cried together—the old, grim, gray woman holding the soft, golden head against her chest with a tight grip. "Oh, Aunt Roxy, do you love me, too?" Mara said. "I didn’t know you did."

"Love ye, child?" said Miss Roxy; "yes, I love ye like my life. I ain't one that makes talk about things, but I[Pg 343] do; you come into my arms fust of anybody's in this world,—and except poor little Hitty, I never loved nobody as I have you."

"Do you love me, child?" Miss Roxy said; "Yes, I love you like my life. I'm not one for talking about feelings, but I[Pg 343] do. You’re the first person I ever welcomed into my arms in this world— and aside from poor little Hitty, I've never loved anyone like I love you."

"Ah! that was your sister, whose grave I have seen," said Mara, speaking in a soothing, caressing tone, and putting her little thin hand against the grim, wasted cheek, which was now moist with tears.

"Ah! that was your sister, whose grave I have seen," said Mara, speaking in a soothing, gentle tone, and placing her small, delicate hand against the haggard, sunken cheek that was now wet with tears.

"Jes' so, child, she died when she was a year younger than you be; she was not lost, for God took her. Poor Hitty! her life jest dried up like a brook in August,—jest so. Well, she was hopefully pious, and it was better for her."

"Just like that, dear, she passed away when she was a year younger than you are now; she wasn't lost, because God took her. Poor Hitty! Her life just withered away like a stream in August—just like that. Well, she was faithfully religious, and that was better for her."

"Did she go like me, Aunt Roxy?" said Mara.

"Did she go like I did, Aunt Roxy?" Mara asked.

"Well, yes, dear; she did begin jest so, and I gave her everything I could think of; and we had doctors for her far and near; but 'twasn't to be,—that's all we could say; she was called, and her time was come."

"Well, yes, dear; she did start just like that, and I gave her everything I could think of; and we had doctors for her from all over; but it just wasn't meant to be,—that's all we could say; she was called, and her time had come."

"Well, now, Aunt Roxy," said Mara, "at any rate, it's a relief to speak out to some one. It's more than two months that I have felt every day more and more that there was no hope,—life has hung on me like a weight. I have had to make myself keep up, and make myself do everything, and no one knows how it has tried me. I am so tired all the time, I could cry; and yet when I go to bed nights I can't sleep, I lie in such a hot, restless way; and then before morning I am drenched with cold sweat, and feel so weak and wretched. I force myself to eat, and I force myself to talk and laugh, and it's all pretense; and it wears me out,—it would be better if I stopped trying,—it would be better to give up and act as weak as I feel; but how can I let them know?"

"Well, Aunt Roxy," Mara said, "either way, it’s such a relief to talk to someone. It’s been over two months that I’ve felt more and more every day that there’s no hope—life has felt like a weight hanging over me. I’ve had to force myself to keep going and do everything, and no one knows how hard it’s been. I feel so tired all the time that I could cry; yet when I go to bed at night, I can’t sleep, I just lie there feeling so hot and restless; and then before morning, I’m drenched in cold sweat and feel so weak and miserable. I make myself eat, and I make myself talk and laugh, but it’s all just an act; it wears me out—it would be better if I stopped trying—it would be better to give up and show how weak I really feel; but how can I let them know?"

"My dear child," said Aunt Roxy, "the truth is the kindest thing we can give folks in the end. When folks know jest where they are, why they can walk; you'll all be supported; you must trust in the Lord. I have been[Pg 344] more'n forty years with sick rooms and dyin' beds, and I never knew it fail that those that trusted in the Lord was brought through."

"My dear child," Aunt Roxy said, "the truth is the kindest thing we can offer people in the end. When people know exactly where they stand, they can move forward; you'll all have support; you must trust in the Lord. I've spent more than forty years in sick rooms and at dying beds, and I've never seen it fail that those who trusted in the Lord made it through."

"Oh, Aunt Roxy, it is so hard for me to give up,—to give up hoping to live. There were a good many years when I thought I should love to depart,—not that I was really unhappy, but I longed to go to heaven, though I knew it was selfish, when I knew how lonesome I should leave my friends. But now, oh, life has looked so bright; I have clung to it so; I do now. I lie awake nights and pray, and try to give it up and be resigned, and I can't. Is it wicked?"

"Oh, Aunt Roxy, it’s so hard for me to let go— to stop hoping to live. There were many years when I thought I'd be okay with leaving—not that I was really unhappy, but I yearned to go to heaven, even though I knew it was selfish because I would leave my friends feeling so lonely. But now, oh, life feels so bright; I’ve held on to it so tightly; I still do. I lie awake at night praying, trying to surrender and accept things, but I can’t. Is that wrong?"

"Well, it's natur' to want to live," said Miss Roxy. "Life is sweet, and in a gen'l way we was made to live. Don't worry; the Lord'll bring you right when His time comes. Folks isn't always supported jest when they want to be, nor as they want to be; but yet they're supported fust and last. Ef I was to tell you how as I has hope in your case, I shouldn't be a-tellin' you the truth. I hasn't much of any; only all things is possible with God. If you could kind o' give it all up and rest easy in His hands, and keep a-doin' what you can,—why, while there's life there's hope, you know; and if you are to be made well, you will be all the sooner."

"Well, it’s natural to want to live," said Miss Roxy. "Life is sweet, and generally speaking, we were created to live. Don’t worry; the Lord will set things right when His time comes. People aren’t always supported just when they want to be, or in the way they want to be; but still, they are supported in the end. If I were to tell you how much hope I have for you, I wouldn’t be telling you the truth. I don’t have much; just that all things are possible with God. If you could let go and rest easy in His hands, and keep doing what you can—well, as long as there’s life, there’s hope, you know; and if you are meant to get better, you will do so all the sooner."

"Aunt Roxy, it's all right; I know it's all right. God knows best; He will do what is best; I know that; but my heart bleeds, and is sore. And when I get his letters,—I got one yesterday,—it brings it all back again. Everything is going on so well; he says he has done more than all he ever hoped; his letters are full of jokes, full of spirit. Ah, he little knows,—and how can I tell him?"

"Aunt Roxy, it's okay; I know it's okay. God knows best; He will do what is best; I believe that; but my heart hurts and is heavy. And when I get his letters—I got one yesterday—it all comes rushing back. Everything is going so well; he says he has accomplished more than he ever dreamed of; his letters are full of jokes, full of energy. Ah, he has no idea—and how can I tell him?"

"Child, you needn't yet. You can jest kind o' prepare his mind a little."

"Child, you don’t need to yet. You can just kind of prepare his mind a little."

"Aunt Roxy, have you spoken of my case to any one,—have you told what you know of me?"[Pg 345]

"Aunt Roxy, have you talked about my situation to anyone—have you shared what you know about me?"[Pg 345]

"No, child, I hain't said nothin' more than that you was a little weakly now and then."

"No, kid, I haven't said anything more than that you were a little weak sometimes."

"I have such a color every afternoon," said Mara. "Grandpapa talks about my roses, and Captain Kittridge jokes me about growing so handsome; nobody seems to realize how I feel. I have kept up with all the strength I had. I have tried to shake it off, and to feel that nothing was the matter,—really there is nothing much, only this weakness. This morning I thought it would do me good to walk down here. I remember times when I could ramble whole days in the woods, but I was so tired before I got half way here that I had to stop a long while and rest. Aunt Roxy, if you would only tell grandpapa and grandmamma just how things are, and what the danger is, and let them stop talking to me about wedding things,—for really and truly I am too unwell to keep up any longer."

"I feel this way every afternoon," said Mara. "Grandpa talks about my roses, and Captain Kittridge jokes about how handsome I've become; nobody seems to understand how I really feel. I’ve tried to hang on to all the strength I have. I’ve attempted to brush it off and convince myself that nothing is wrong—when really, it’s just this weakness. This morning I thought walking down here might help me. I remember when I could spend whole days wandering in the woods, but I was so exhausted by the time I got halfway here that I had to stop for a long while to rest. Aunt Roxy, if you could just tell Grandpa and Grandma exactly how things are, what the danger is, and ask them to stop discussing wedding stuff with me—because honestly, I’m just too unwell to keep up any longer."

"Well, child, I will," said Miss Roxy. "Your grandfather will be supported, and hold you up, for he's one of the sort as has the secret of the Lord,—I remember him of old. Why, the day your father and mother was buried he stood up and sung old China, and his face was wonderful to see. He seemed to be standin' with the world under his feet and heaven opening. He's a master Christian, your grandfather is; and now you jest go and lie down in the little bedroom, and rest you a bit, and by and by, in the cool of the afternoon, I'll walk along home with you."

"Well, kid, I will," said Miss Roxy. "Your grandpa will support you and lift you up, because he's one of those who has the secret of the Lord—I remember him from back in the day. On the day your parents were buried, he stood up and sang 'Old China,' and his face was incredible to see. He looked like he was standing with the world beneath him and heaven opening up. Your grandpa is a true Christian; now just go lie down in the small bedroom and rest for a bit, and later, in the cool of the afternoon, I'll walk home with you."

Miss Roxy opened the door of a little room, whose white fringy window-curtains were blown inward by breezes from the blue sea, and laid the child down to rest on a clean sweet-smelling bed with as deft and tender care as if she were not a bony, hard-visaged, angular female, in a black mohair frisette.

Miss Roxy opened the door to a small room, where the white, fringed window curtains were blown inside by the breezes from the blue sea. She gently laid the child down to rest on a clean, sweet-smelling bed with careful and tender attention, as if she weren’t a bony, hard-faced woman in a black mohair wig.

She stopped a moment wistfully before a little profile head, of a kind which resembles a black shadow on a white ground. "That was Hitty!" she said.[Pg 346]

She paused for a moment, feeling nostalgic, in front of a small profile head that looked like a black shadow against a white background. "That was Hitty!" she said.[Pg 346]

Mara had often seen in the graveyard a mound inscribed to this young person, and heard traditionally of a young and pretty sister of Miss Roxy who had died very many years before. But the grave was overgrown with blackberry-vines, and gray moss had grown into the crevices of the slab which served for a tombstone, and never before that day had she heard Miss Roxy speak of her. Miss Roxy took down the little black object and handed it to Mara. "You can't tell much by that, but she was a most beautiful creatur'. Well, it's all best as it is." Mara saw nothing but a little black shadow cast on white paper, yet she was affected by the perception how bright, how beautiful, was the image in the memory of that seemingly stern, commonplace woman, and how of all that in her mind's eye she saw and remembered, she could find no outward witness but this black block. "So some day my friends will speak of me as a distant shadow," she said, as with a sigh she turned her head on the pillow.

Mara had often noticed a mound in the graveyard dedicated to a young person and had heard stories about Miss Roxy's beautiful younger sister who had passed away many years ago. But the grave was covered in blackberry vines, and gray moss had settled into the cracks of the slab that served as a tombstone, and until that day, she had never heard Miss Roxy mention her. Miss Roxy picked up a small black object and handed it to Mara. "You can't tell much from this, but she was a stunning creature. Well, it's probably for the best as it is." Mara only saw a small black shadow on white paper, yet she felt a deep sense of how bright and beautiful the image was in the memory of that seemingly stern, ordinary woman, and she realized that of all that she could recall, this black block was the only external sign. "So one day, my friends will talk about me as a distant shadow," she said, sighing as she turned her head on the pillow.

Miss Roxy shut the door gently as she went out, and betrayed the unwonted rush of softer feelings which had come over her only by being more dictatorial and commanding than usual in her treatment of her sister, who was sitting in fidgety curiosity to know what could have been the subject of the private conference.

Miss Roxy closed the door softly as she left, revealing the unusual wave of tender emotions she was experiencing by being even more bossy and demanding than usual with her sister, who was anxiously curious about what the private conversation could have been about.

"I s'pose Mara wanted to get some advice about makin' up her weddin' things," said Miss Ruey, with a sort of humble quiver, as Miss Roxy began ripping and tearing fiercely at her old straw bonnet, as if she really purposed its utter and immediate demolition.

"I guess Mara wanted some advice about putting together her wedding things," said Miss Ruey, with a kind of humble tremor, as Miss Roxy started ripping apart her old straw bonnet fiercely, as if she was determined to completely and immediately destroy it.

"No she didn't, neither," said Miss Roxy, fiercely. "I declare, Ruey, you are silly; your head is always full of weddin's, weddin's, weddin's—nothin' else—from mornin' till night, and night till mornin'. I tell you there's other things have got to be thought of in this world besides weddin' clothes, and it would be well, if people would[Pg 347] think more o' gettin' their weddin' garments ready for the kingdom of heaven. That's what Mara's got to think of; for, mark my words, Ruey, there is no marryin' and givin' in marriage for her in this world."

"No, she didn't either," said Miss Roxy, fiercely. "Honestly, Ruey, you’re being silly; your head is always filled with weddings, weddings, weddings—nothing else—from morning till night, and night till morning. I’m telling you there are other things to consider in this world besides wedding clothes, and it would be better if people thought more about getting their wedding garments ready for the kingdom of heaven. That’s what Mara has to think about; because, mark my words, Ruey, there is no marrying and giving in marriage for her in this world."

"Why, bless me, Roxy, now you don't say so!" said Miss Ruey; "why I knew she was kind o' weakly and ailin', but"—

"Wow, Roxy, really?" said Miss Ruey; "I knew she was a bit fragile and not feeling well, but..."

"Kind o' weakly and ailin'!" said Miss Roxy, taking up Miss Ruey's words in a tone of high disgust, "I should rather think she was; and more'n that, too: she's marked for death, and that before long, too. It may be that Moses Pennel'll never see her again—he never half knew what she was worth—maybe he'll know when he's lost her, that's one comfort!"

"Kind of weak and sickly!" said Miss Roxy, echoing Miss Ruey's words with great disdain, "I’d say she is; and more than that too: she's destined to die, and probably soon. It’s possible that Moses Pennel will never see her again—he never really appreciated her worth—maybe he’ll realize it when it’s too late, and that’s one small comfort!"

"But," said Miss Ruey, "everybody has been a-sayin' what a beautiful color she was a-gettin' in her cheeks."

"But," said Miss Ruey, "everyone has been saying how beautiful the color was getting in her cheeks."

"Color in her cheeks!" snorted Miss Roxy; "so does a rock-maple get color in September and turn all scarlet, and what for? why, the frost has been at it, and its time is out. That's what your bright colors stand for. Hain't you noticed that little gravestone cough, jest the faintest in the world, and it don't come from a cold, and it hangs on. I tell you you can't cheat me, she's goin' jest as Mehitabel went, jest as Sally Ann Smith went, jest as Louisa Pearson went. I could count now on my fingers twenty girls that have gone that way. Nobody saw 'em goin' till they was gone."

"Color in her cheeks!" scoffed Miss Roxy. "A rock-maple gets color in September and turns bright red, but why? Because the frost has touched it, and its time is up. That’s what your bright colors mean. Haven’t you noticed that little cough from the gravestone, just the slightest in the world, and it doesn’t come from a cold, and it lingers? I’m telling you, you can’t fool me; she’s going just like Mehitabel went, just like Sally Ann Smith went, just like Louisa Pearson went. I could count twenty girls on my fingers that have gone that way. Nobody noticed them leaving until they were gone."

"Well, now, I don't think the old folks have the least idea on't," said Miss Ruey. "Only last Saturday Mis' Pennel was a-talkin' to me about the sheets and tablecloths she's got out a-bleachin'; and she said that the weddin' dress was to be made over to Mis' Mosely's in Portland, 'cause Moses he's so particular about havin' things genteel."

"Well, I don't think the older folks have a clue," said Miss Ruey. "Just last Saturday, Mrs. Pennel was talking to me about the sheets and tablecloths she's got soaking in bleach; and she mentioned that the wedding dress is going to be redone at Mrs. Mosely's in Portland because Moses is really particular about having things look nice."

"Well, Master Moses'll jest have to give up his partic[Pg 348]ular notions," said Miss Roxy, "and come down in the dust, like all the rest on us, when the Lord sends an east wind and withers our gourds. Moses Pennel's one of the sort that expects to drive all before him with the strong arm, and sech has to learn that things ain't to go as they please in the Lord's world. Sech always has to come to spots that they can't get over nor under nor round, to have their own way, but jest has to give right up square."

"Well, Master Moses will just have to give up his specific ideas," said Miss Roxy, "and humble himself like the rest of us when the Lord sends a strong east wind and withers our gourds. Moses Pennel is the kind of person who expects to push everyone around with sheer force, and people like that have to learn that things don't always go their way in the Lord's world. They eventually face obstacles they can't get over, under, or around, and they just have to accept things as they are."

"Well, Roxy," said Miss Ruey, "how does the poor little thing take it? Has she got reconciled?"

"Well, Roxy," Miss Ruey said, "how is the poor little thing handling it? Is she feeling okay about it now?"

"Reconciled! Ruey, how you do ask questions!" said Miss Roxy, fiercely pulling a bandanna silk handkerchief out of her pocket, with which she wiped her eyes in a defiant manner. "Reconciled! It's easy enough to talk, Ruey, but how would you like it, when everything was goin' smooth and playin' into your hands, and all the world smooth and shiny, to be took short up? I guess you wouldn't be reconciled. That's what I guess."

"Reconciled! Ruey, you really know how to ask questions!" said Miss Roxy, fiercely pulling a bandanna silk handkerchief out of her pocket and wiping her eyes defiantly. "Reconciled! It's easy to say that, Ruey, but how would you feel if everything was going smoothly and everything was perfect for you, but then suddenly it all fell apart? I bet you wouldn’t feel reconciled. That's what I think."

"Dear me, Roxy, who said I should?" said Miss Ruey. "I wa'n't blamin' the poor child, not a grain."

"Honestly, Roxy, who suggested I should?" said Miss Ruey. "I wasn't blaming the poor kid, not at all."

"Well, who said you was, Ruey?" answered Miss Roxy, in the same high key.

"Well, who said you were, Ruey?" replied Miss Roxy, in the same high pitch.

"You needn't take my head off," said Aunt Ruey, roused as much as her adipose, comfortable nature could be. "You've been a-talkin' at me ever since you came in from the sink-room, as if I was to blame; and snappin' at me as if I hadn't a right to ask civil questions; and I won't stan' it," said Miss Ruey. "And while I'm about it, I'll say that you always have snubbed me and contradicted and ordered me round. I won't bear it no longer."

"You don’t have to bite my head off," Aunt Ruey said, as riled up as her soft, easygoing nature could get. "You’ve been talking at me ever since you came in from the sink-room, acting like I’m the one to blame; and snapping at me like I don’t have the right to ask polite questions; and I won’t put up with it," Miss Ruey declared. "And while I'm at it, I’ll say that you’ve always put me down, argued with me, and bossed me around. I won’t take it anymore."

"Come, Ruey, don't make a fool of yourself at your time of life," said Miss Roxy. "Things is bad enough in this world without two lone sisters and church-members turnin' agin each other. You must take me as I am, Ruey; my bark's worse than my bite, as you know."[Pg 349]

"Come on, Ruey, don’t embarrass yourself at your age," said Miss Roxy. "Things are tough enough in this world without two lonely sisters and church members turning against each other. You have to accept me as I am, Ruey; my bark is worse than my bite, as you know." [Pg 349]

Miss Ruey sank back pacified into her usual state of pillowy dependence; it was so much easier to be good-natured than to contend. As for Miss Roxy, if you have ever carefully examined a chestnut-burr, you will remember that, hard as it is to handle, no plush of downiest texture can exceed the satin smoothness of the fibres which line its heart. There are a class of people in New England who betray the uprising of the softer feelings of our nature only by an increase of outward asperity—a sort of bashfulness and shyness leaves them no power of expression for these unwonted guests of the heart—they hurry them into inner chambers and slam the doors upon them, as if they were vexed at their appearance.

Miss Ruey relaxed back into her usual state of soft dependence; it felt so much easier to be good-natured than to argue. As for Miss Roxy, if you’ve ever closely examined a chestnut burr, you’ll remember that, tough as it is to handle, nothing compares to the satin smoothness of the fibers that line its core. There are certain people in New England who show the emergence of softer feelings in our nature only through a rise in outward harshness—a kind of bashfulness and shyness leaves them unable to express these unusual visitors of the heart—they rush them into inner rooms and slam the doors shut on them, as if they were annoyed by their presence.

Now if poor Miss Roxy had been like you, my dear young lady—if her soul had been encased in a round, rosy, and comely body, and looked out of tender blue eyes shaded by golden hair, probably the grief and love she felt would have shown themselves only in bursts of feeling most graceful to see, and engaging the sympathy of all; but this same soul, imprisoned in a dry, angular body, stiff and old, and looking out under beetling eyebrows, over withered high cheek-bones, could only utter itself by a passionate tempest—unlovely utterance of a lovely impulse—dear only to Him who sees with a Father's heart the real beauty of spirits. It is our firm faith that bright solemn angels in celestial watchings were frequent guests in the homely room of the two sisters, and that passing by all accidents of age and poverty, withered skins, bony features, and grotesque movements and shabby clothing, they saw more real beauty there than in many a scented boudoir where seeming angels smile in lace and satin.

Now, if poor Miss Roxy had been like you, my dear young lady—if her soul had been wrapped in a round, rosy, and pretty body, looking out from tender blue eyes framed by golden hair, the grief and love she felt would likely have shown up only in graceful bursts of emotion that would engage everyone's sympathy; but this same soul, trapped in a dry, angular body, stiff and old, peering out from beneath heavy eyebrows, over withered high cheekbones, could only express itself through passionate outbursts—unpleasant expressions of a lovely impulse—dear only to Him who sees with a Father's heart the true beauty of spirits. We firmly believe that bright, solemn angels on celestial watch were frequent visitors in the humble room of the two sisters, and that, overlooking all signs of age and poverty, withered skin, bony features, and awkward movements and shabby clothes, they saw more genuine beauty there than in many a scented boudoir where seemingly angelic figures smile in lace and satin.

"Ruey," said Miss Roxy, in a more composed voice, while her hard, bony hands still trembled with excitement, "this 'ere's been on my mind a good while. I hain't said nothin' to nobody, but I've seen it a-comin'. I always[Pg 350] thought that child wa'n't for a long life. Lives is run in different lengths, and nobody can say what's the matter with some folks, only that their thread's run out; there's more on one spool and less on another. I thought, when we laid Hitty in the grave, that I shouldn't never set my heart on nothin' else—but we can't jest say we will or we won't. Ef we are to be sorely afflicted at any time, the Lord lets us set our hearts before we know it. This 'ere's a great affliction to me, Ruey, but I must jest shoulder my cross and go through with it. I'm goin' down to-night to tell the old folks, and to make arrangements so that the poor little lamb may have the care she needs. She's been a-keepin' up so long, 'cause she dreaded to let 'em know, but this 'ere has got to be looked right in the face, and I hope there'll be grace given to do it."

"Ruey," Miss Roxy said, her voice steadier now, though her rough, bony hands still shook with excitement, "I've been thinking about this for a while. I haven't said anything to anyone, but I could see it coming. I've always felt that child wasn't meant for a long life. Lives are different lengths, and nobody can explain why some people don't last, just that their time is up; there’s more thread on some spools and less on others. I thought when we put Hitty in the ground that I wouldn’t set my heart on anything else—but we can’t really say we will or we won’t. If we’re going to face a tough time, the Lord lets us invest our hearts before we even realize it. This is a huge burden for me, Ruey, but I have to bear it and get through. Tonight, I'm going to talk to the old folks and make arrangements so that the poor little lamb gets the care she needs. She’s been holding on for so long because she was afraid to let them know, but this has to be faced directly, and I hope I’ll have the strength to do it."


CHAPTER XXXVII

THE VICTORY

[Pg 351]Meanwhile Mara had been lying in the passive calm of fatigue and exhaustion, her eyes fixed on the window, where, as the white curtain drew inward, she could catch glimpses of the bay. Gradually her eyelids fell, and she dropped into that kind of half-waking doze, when the outer senses are at rest, and the mind is all the more calm and clear for their repose. In such hours a spiritual clairvoyance often seems to lift for a while the whole stifling cloud that lies like a confusing mist over the problem of life, and the soul has sudden glimpses of things unutterable which lie beyond. Then the narrow straits, that look so full of rocks and quicksands, widen into a broad, clear passage, and one after another, rosy with a celestial dawn, and ringing silver bells of gladness, the isles of the blessed lift themselves up on the horizon, and the soul is flooded with an atmosphere of light and joy. As the burden of Christian fell off at the cross and was lost in the sepulchre, so in these hours of celestial vision the whole weight of life's anguish is lifted, and passes away like a dream; and the soul, seeing the boundless ocean of Divine love, wherein all human hopes and joys and sorrows lie so tenderly upholden, comes and casts the one little drop of its personal will and personal existence with gladness into that Fatherly depth. Henceforth, with it, God and Saviour is no more word of mine and thine, for in that hour the child of earth feels himself heir of all things: "All things are yours, and ye are Christ's, and Christ is God's."

[Pg 351]Meanwhile, Mara had been lying in the peaceful stillness of fatigue and exhaustion, her eyes fixed on the window, where, as the white curtain fluttered inward, she could catch glimpses of the bay. Gradually, her eyelids grew heavy, and she drifted into a kind of half-asleep state, where her outer senses rested, and her mind became calm and clear. During these moments, a spiritual clarity often seems to lift the heavy fog that clouds the complexities of life, offering the soul sudden insights into the indescribable truths that lie beyond. Then the narrow channels, which appear filled with rocks and quicksand, open into a wide, clear passage, and one by one, bathed in a heavenly dawn and ringing with joyful silver bells, the blessed islands rise on the horizon, filling the soul with a sense of light and joy. Just as Christian shed his burden at the cross, which was buried in the tomb, so in these moments of divine vision, the weight of life's suffering is lifted and fades away like a dream; and the soul, gazing at the limitless ocean of divine love, in which all human hopes, joys, and sorrows are gently supported, comes and happily offers its small drop of personal will and existence into that Fatherly depth. From then on, for it, God and Savior is no longer just a phrase of mine and yours, for in that moment, the earthly child feels like an heir to everything: "All things are yours, and you are Christ's, and Christ is God's."


[Pg 352]"The child is asleep," said Miss Roxy, as she stole on tiptoe into the room when their noon meal was prepared. A plate and knife had been laid for her, and they had placed for her a tumbler of quaint old engraved glass, reputed to have been brought over from foreign parts, and which had been given to Miss Roxy as her share in the effects of the mysterious Mr. Swadkins. Tea also was served in some egg-like India china cups, which saw the light only on the most high and festive occasions.

[Pg 352] "The kid's asleep," said Miss Roxy as she tiptoed into the room where their lunch was ready. A plate and knife were set for her, and they had put a tumbler made of an old, intricately engraved glass, thought to have come from overseas, which had been given to Miss Roxy as part of the belongings of the mysterious Mr. Swadkins. Tea was also served in some egg-shaped china cups from India, which were only used on special occasions.

"Hadn't you better wake her?" said Miss Ruey; "a cup of hot tea would do her so much good."

"Shouldn't you wake her up?" said Miss Ruey. "A cup of hot tea would really help her."

Miss Ruey could conceive of few sorrows or ailments which would not be materially better for a cup of hot tea. If not the very elixir of life, it was indeed the next thing to it.

Miss Ruey could think of few troubles or illnesses that wouldn't be significantly improved by a cup of hot tea. If it wasn't the actual elixir of life, it was definitely the next best thing.

"Well," said Miss Roxy, after laying her hand for a moment with great gentleness on that of the sleeping girl, "she don't wake easy, and she's tired; and she seems to be enjoying it so. The Bible says, 'He giveth his beloved sleep,' and I won't interfere. I've seen more good come of sleep than most things in my nursin' experience," said Miss Roxy, and she shut the door gently, and the two sisters sat down to their noontide meal.

"Well," said Miss Roxy, after gently placing her hand for a moment on the sleeping girl's, "she doesn't wake up easily, and she's tired; plus, she seems to be really enjoying it. The Bible says, 'He gives His beloved sleep,' so I won't disturb her. I've seen more good come from sleep than from most things in my nursing experience," said Miss Roxy, and she closed the door softly, and the two sisters sat down to their lunch.

"How long the child does sleep!" said Miss Ruey as the old clock struck four.

"Wow, the child is sleeping for a long time!" said Miss Ruey as the old clock struck four.

"It was too much for her, this walk down here," said Aunt Roxy. "She's been doin' too much for a long time. I'm a-goin' to put an end to that. Well, nobody needn't say Mara hain't got resolution. I never see a little thing have more. She always did have, when she was the leastest little thing. She was always quiet and white and still, but she did whatever she sot out to."

"It was too much for her, this walk down here," said Aunt Roxy. "She's been doing too much for a long time. I'm going to put a stop to that. Well, nobody can say Mara doesn't have determination. I've never seen anyone so small have more. She always did, even when she was just a tiny thing. She was always quiet and pale and still, but she did whatever she set out to."

At this moment, to their surprise, the door opened, and Mara came in, and both sisters were struck with a change that had passed over her. It was more than the result of[Pg 353] mere physical repose. Not only had every sign of weariness and bodily languor vanished, but there was about her an air of solemn serenity and high repose that made her seem, as Miss Ruey afterwards said, "like an angel jest walked out of the big Bible."

At that moment, to their surprise, the door opened, and Mara entered. Both sisters noticed a change that had taken place in her. It was more than just the difference from having a rest. Not only had all signs of tiredness and physical fatigue disappeared, but she also had an aura of serious calm and dignity that made her look, as Miss Ruey later described, "like an angel just stepped out of the big Bible."

"Why, dear child, how you have slept, and how bright and rested you look," said Miss Ruey.

"Why, dear child, you’ve slept so well, and you look so bright and refreshed," said Miss Ruey.

"I am rested," said Mara; "oh how much! And happy," she added, laying her little hand on Miss Roxy's shoulder. "I thank you, dear friend, for all your kindness to me. I am sorry I made you feel so sadly; but now you mustn't feel so any more, for all is well—yes, all is well. I see now that it is so. I have passed beyond sorrow—yes, forever."

"I’m refreshed," said Mara; "oh, so much! And happy," she added, placing her small hand on Miss Roxy's shoulder. "Thank you, dear friend, for all your kindness to me. I'm sorry I made you feel so sad; but now you don’t have to feel that way anymore, because everything is fine—yes, everything is fine. I can see now that it is. I've moved past sorrow—yes, for good."

Soft-hearted Miss Ruey here broke into audible sobbing, hiding her face in her hands, and looking like a tumbled heap of old faded calico in a state of convulsion.

Soft-hearted Miss Ruey broke into loud sobs here, hiding her face in her hands and looking like a crumpled pile of old, faded fabric in the middle of a meltdown.

"Dear Aunt Ruey, you mustn't," said Mara, with a voice of gentle authority. "We mustn't any of us feel so any more. There is no harm done, no real evil is coming, only a good which we do not understand. I am perfectly satisfied—perfectly at rest now. I was foolish and weak to feel as I did this morning, but I shall not feel so any more. I shall comfort you all. Is it anything so dreadful for me to go to heaven? How little while it will be before you all come to me! Oh, how little—little while!"

"Dear Aunt Ruey, you shouldn’t," Mara said with a calm authority in her voice. "None of us should feel that way anymore. There's no harm done, no real evil is coming—only a good that we don’t fully understand. I am completely at peace now. I was foolish and weak to feel the way I did this morning, but I won’t feel that way again. I’ll comfort you all. Is it really so terrible for me to go to heaven? It won't be long before all of you join me! Oh, just a little while!"

"I told you, Mara, that you'd be supported in the Lord's time," said Miss Roxy, who watched her with an air of grave and solemn attention. "First and last, folks allers is supported; but sometimes there is a long wrestlin'. The Lord's give you the victory early."

"I told you, Mara, that you'd be supported in the Lord's time," said Miss Roxy, watching her with a serious and intense focus. "In the beginning and the end, people are always supported; but sometimes there’s a long struggle. The Lord has given you the victory early."

"Victory!" said the girl, speaking as in a deep muse, and with a mysterious brightness in her eyes; "yes, that is the word—it is a victory—no other word expresses it. Come, Aunt Roxy, we will go home. I am not afraid now[Pg 354] to tell grandpapa and grandmamma. God will care for them; He will wipe away all tears."

"Victory!" the girl exclaimed, speaking thoughtfully with a mysterious sparkle in her eyes. "Yes, that's the word—it is a victory—nothing else describes it. Come on, Aunt Roxy, let's head home. I'm not afraid now[Pg 354] to tell Grandpa and Grandma. God will take care of them; He will wipe away all their tears."

"Well, though, you mus'n't think of goin' till you've had a cup of tea," said Aunt Ruey, wiping her eyes. "I've kep' the tea-pot hot by the fire, and you must eat a little somethin', for it's long past dinner-time."

"Well, you really shouldn't think about leaving until you've had a cup of tea," Aunt Ruey said, wiping her eyes. "I've kept the teapot warm by the fire, and you need to eat something because it's well past dinner time."

"Is it?" said Mara. "I had no idea I had slept so long—how thoughtful and kind you are!"

"Is it?" Mara said. "I didn't realize I had slept for so long—how thoughtful and kind of you!"

"I do wish I could only do more for you," said Miss Ruey. "I don't seem to get reconciled no ways; it seems dreffle hard—dreffle; but I'm glad you can feel so;" and the good old soul proceeded to press upon the child not only the tea, which she drank with feverish relish, but every hoarded dainty which their limited housekeeping commanded.

"I really wish I could do more for you," said Miss Ruey. "I can't seem to come to terms with it; it feels incredibly difficult—really difficult; but I’m glad you can feel that way;" and the kind old soul continued to offer the child not just the tea, which she drank with eager enjoyment, but every treat they had saved up from their limited budget.

It was toward sunset before Miss Roxy and Mara started on their walk homeward. Their way lay over the high stony ridge which forms the central part of the island. On one side, through the pines, they looked out into the boundless blue of the ocean, and on the other caught glimpses of Harpswell Bay as it lay glorified in the evening light. The fresh cool breeze blowing landward brought with it an invigorating influence, which Mara felt through all her feverish frame. She walked with an energy to which she had long been a stranger. She said little, but there was a sweetness, a repose, in her manner contrasting singularly with the passionate melancholy which she had that morning expressed.

It was near sunset when Miss Roxy and Mara began their walk home. They took the path over the high, rocky ridge that runs through the center of the island. On one side, through the pines, they looked out at the endless blue ocean, and on the other, they caught glimpses of Harpswell Bay glowing in the evening light. The fresh, cool breeze blowing from the land brought with it a refreshing feeling, which Mara could sense through her entire tired body. She walked with a vitality she hadn’t experienced in a long time. She didn’t say much, but there was a sweetness and calmness in her demeanor that sharply contrasted with the passionate sadness she had shown that morning.

Miss Roxy did not interrupt her meditations. The nature of her profession had rendered her familiar with all the changing mental and physical phenomena that attend the development of disease and the gradual loosening of the silver cords of a present life. Certain well-understood phrases everywhere current among the mass of the people in New England, strikingly tell of the deep foundations of[Pg 355] religious earnestness on which its daily life is built. "A triumphant death" was a matter often casually spoken of among the records of the neighborhood; and Miss Roxy felt that there was a vague and solemn charm about its approach. Yet the soul of the gray, dry woman was hot within her, for the conversation of the morning had probed depths in her own nature of whose existence she had never before been so conscious. The roughest and most matter-of-fact minds have a craving for the ideal somewhere; and often this craving, forbidden by uncomeliness and ungenial surroundings from having any personal history of its own, attaches itself to the fortune of some other one in a kind of strange disinterestedness. Some one young and beautiful is to live the life denied to them—to be the poem and the romance; it is the young mistress of the poor black slave—the pretty sister of the homely old spinster—or the clever son of the consciously ill-educated father. Something of this unconscious personal investment had there been on the part of Miss Roxy in the nursling whose singular loveliness she had watched for so many years, and on whose fair virgin orb she had marked the growing shadow of a fatal eclipse, and as she saw her glowing and serene, with that peculiar brightness that she felt came from no earthly presence or influence, she could scarcely keep the tears from her honest gray eyes.

Miss Roxy remained deep in her thoughts. The nature of her job had made her aware of all the shifting mental and physical changes that come with disease and the gradual weakening of life's vital connections. Certain commonly understood phrases among the people in New England clearly reflect the strong religious foundations that support their daily lives. "A triumphant death" was something frequently mentioned in local accounts, and Miss Roxy sensed a vague, solemn appeal in its approach. Yet inside the gray, dry woman, there was a fiery intensity, for the morning's conversation had uncovered aspects of her own nature that she had never realized before. Even the most practical minds have a desire for the ideal somewhere; often, when this craving cannot find its own expression due to harsh realities, it becomes attached to someone else's life in a peculiar sense of selflessness. Someone young and beautiful is destined to live the life that they are denied—to be the poem and the romance; it is the young mistress of a poor black slave—the attractive sister of an unattractive old spinster—or the talented son of a father who is consciously poorly educated. Miss Roxy had unconsciously invested some of herself in the lovely girl she had watched over for so many years, noticing the ominous shadow of a fatal eclipse growing over her fair, radiant presence. As she observed the girl glowing and serene, radiating a unique brightness she felt was not of this world, she could barely hold back the tears in her honest gray eyes.

When they arrived at the door of the house, Zephaniah Pennel was sitting in it, looking toward the sunset.

When they got to the door of the house, Zephaniah Pennel was sitting in it, gazing at the sunset.

"Why, reely," he said, "Miss Roxy, we thought you must a-run away with Mara; she's been gone a'most all day."

"Well, really," he said, "Miss Roxy, we thought you must have run away with Mara; she's been gone almost all day."

"I expect she's had enough to talk with Aunt Roxy about," said Mrs. Pennel. "Girls goin' to get married have a deal to talk about, what with patterns and contrivin' and makin' up. But come in, Miss Roxy; we're glad to see you."[Pg 356]

"I think she's had plenty to discuss with Aunt Roxy," Mrs. Pennel said. "Girls getting married have a lot to talk about, with patterns and planning and getting things ready. But come in, Miss Roxy; we’re happy to see you." [Pg 356]

Mara turned to Miss Roxy, and gave her a look of peculiar meaning. "Aunt Roxy," she said, "you must tell them what we have been talking about to-day;" and then she went up to her room and shut the door.

Mara turned to Miss Roxy and gave her a look that meant something special. "Aunt Roxy," she said, "you have to tell them what we've been talking about today;" and then she went up to her room and closed the door.

Miss Roxy accomplished her task with a matter-of-fact distinctness to which her business-like habits of dealing with sickness and death had accustomed her, yet with a sympathetic tremor in her voice which softened the hard directness of her words. "You can take her over to Portland, if you say so, and get Dr. Wilson's opinion," she said, in conclusion. "It's best to have all done that can be, though in my mind the case is decided."

Miss Roxy completed her task with a clear, no-nonsense attitude that her practical approach to illness and death had trained her to have, but there was a sympathetic quiver in her voice that softened the bluntness of her words. "You can take her to Portland if you want and get Dr. Wilson's opinion," she said in closing. "It's best to do everything possible, although I believe the case is already settled."

The silence that fell between the three was broken at last by the sound of a light footstep descending the stairs, and Mara entered among them.

The silence that hung between the three was finally interrupted by the sound of light footsteps coming down the stairs, and Mara joined them.

She came forward and threw her arms round Mrs. Pennel's neck, and kissed her; and then turning, she nestled down in the arms of her old grandfather, as she had often done in the old days of childhood, and laid her hand upon his shoulder. There was no sound for a few moments but one of suppressed weeping; but she did not weep—she lay with bright calm eyes, as if looking upon some celestial vision.

She stepped forward, wrapped her arms around Mrs. Pennel's neck, and kissed her. Then, turning, she snuggled into the arms of her old grandfather, just like she used to in her childhood, and rested her hand on his shoulder. For a few moments, the only sound was soft crying, but she didn’t cry—she rested with bright, calm eyes, as if gazing at some heavenly vision.

"It is not so very sad," she said at last, in a gentle voice, "that I should go there; you are going, too, and grandmamma; we are all going; and we shall be forever with the Lord. Think of it! think of it!"

"It’s not really that sad," she finally said in a soft voice, "that I’m going there; you’re going too, and grandma; we’re all going; and we’ll be together with the Lord forever. Just think about it! Just think about it!"

Many were the words spoken in that strange communing; and before Miss Roxy went away, a calmness of solemn rest had settled down on all. The old family Bible was brought forth, and Zephaniah Pennel read from it those strange words of strong consolation, which take the sting from death and the victory from the grave:—

Many words were exchanged in that unusual gathering; and before Miss Roxy left, a peaceful, serious stillness had descended upon everyone. The old family Bible was brought out, and Zephaniah Pennel read from it those comforting phrases that remove the pain from death and the triumph from the grave:—

"And I heard a great voice out of heaven. Behold the tabernacle of God is with men, and he will dwell with[Pg 357] them, and they shall be his people; and God himself shall be with them and be their God. And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow nor crying, for the former things are passed away."

"And I heard a loud voice from heaven. Look, the tabernacle of God is with people, and He will live with them, and they will be His people; and God Himself will be with them and be their God. God will wipe away every tear from their eyes; there will be no more death, no more sorrow or crying, for the old things have passed away."


CHAPTER XXXVIII

OPEN VISION

[Pg 358]As Miss Roxy was leaving the dwelling of the Pennels, she met Sally Kittridge coming toward the house, laughing and singing, as was her wont. She raised her long, lean forefinger with a gesture of warning.

[Pg 358]As Miss Roxy was leaving the Pennels' house, she saw Sally Kittridge walking toward her, laughing and singing, as she often did. She lifted her long, thin forefinger in a gesture of warning.

"What's the matter now, Aunt Roxy? You look as solemn as a hearse."

"What's wrong now, Aunt Roxy? You look as serious as a funeral."

"None o' your jokin' now, Miss Sally; there is such a thing as serious things in this 'ere world of our'n, for all you girls never seems to know it."

"Quit joking around now, Miss Sally; there are serious things in this world of ours, even if you girls never seem to realize it."

"What is the matter, Aunt Roxy?—has anything happened?—is anything the matter with Mara?"

"What’s wrong, Aunt Roxy? Has something happened? Is something wrong with Mara?"

"Matter enough. I've known it a long time," said Miss Roxy. "She's been goin' down for three months now; and she's got that on her that will carry her off before the year's out."

"Matter enough. I've known it for a long time," said Miss Roxy. "She's been going downhill for three months now; and she's got something on her that will take her out before the year is over."

"Pshaw, Aunt Roxy! how lugubriously you old nurses always talk! I hope now you haven't been filling Mara's head with any such notions—people can be frightened into anything."

"Pshaw, Aunt Roxy! Why do you old nurses always talk so sadly? I hope you haven’t been putting any crazy ideas in Mara's head—people can be scared into anything."

"Sally Kittridge, don't be a-talkin' of what you don't know nothin' about! It stands to reason that a body that was bearin' the heat and burden of the day long before you was born or thought on in this world should know a thing or two more'n you. Why, I've laid you on your stomach and trotted you to trot up the wind many a day, and I was pretty experienced then, and it ain't likely that I'm a-goin' to take sa'ce from you. Mara Pennel is a gal[Pg 359] as has every bit and grain as much resolution and ambition as you have, for all you flap your wings and crow so much louder, and she's one of the close-mouthed sort, that don't make no talk, and she's been a-bearin' up and bearin' up, and comin' to me on the sly for strengthenin' things. She's took camomile and orange-peel, and snake-root and boneset, and dash-root and dandelion—and there hain't nothin' done her no good. She told me to-day she couldn't keep up no longer, and I've been a-tellin' Mis' Pennel and her grand'ther. I tell you it has been a solemn time; and if you're goin' in, don't go in with none o' your light triflin' ways, 'cause 'as vinegar upon nitre is he that singeth songs on a heavy heart,' the Scriptur' says."

"Sally Kittridge, stop talking about things you don’t know anything about! It’s obvious that someone who has been dealing with the heat and burden of the day long before you were born or even thought of should know a thing or two more than you. You have no idea how many times I’ve carried you on my back, and I was already quite experienced then, so I’m not going to take nonsense from you. Mara Pennel is a girl who has just as much determination and ambition as you do, despite you making so much noise and showing off. She’s the quiet type who doesn’t say much, and she’s been struggling silently, coming to me for support. She’s tried camomile, orange peel, snake root, boneset, dash root, and dandelion—and none of it has helped her. She told me today that she can’t keep going any longer, and I’ve been telling Ms. Pennel and her grandmother. It’s been a serious time; and if you choose to get involved, don’t come in with your lighthearted ways, because as the scripture says, ‘like vinegar on nitre is he that sings songs on a heavy heart.’"

"Oh, Miss Roxy, do tell me truly," said Sally, much moved. "What do you think is the matter with Mara? I've noticed myself that she got tired easy, and that she was short-breathed—but she seemed so cheerful. Can anything really be the matter?"

"Oh, Miss Roxy, please tell me honestly," said Sally, feeling quite emotional. "What do you think is wrong with Mara? I've noticed that she gets tired easily and seems short of breath—but she still looks so cheerful. Could anything seriously be wrong?"

"It's consumption, Sally Kittridge," said Miss Roxy, "neither more nor less; that ar is the long and the short. They're going to take her over to Portland to see Dr. Wilson—it won't do no harm, and it won't do no good."

"It's just consumption, Sally Kittridge," said Miss Roxy, "nothing more, nothing less; that's the bottom line. They're taking her to Portland to see Dr. Wilson—it won't hurt her, but it won't help her either."

"You seem to be determined she shall die," said Sally in a tone of pique.

"You seem really set on her dying," said Sally, sounding annoyed.

"Determined, am I? Is it I that determines that the maple leaves shall fall next October? Yet I know they will—folks can't help knowin' what they know, and shuttin' one's eyes won't alter one's road. I s'pose you think 'cause you're young and middlin' good-lookin' that you have feelin's and I hasn't; well, you're mistaken, that's all. I don't believe there's one person in the world that would go farther or do more to save Mara Pennel than I would,—and yet I've been in the world long enough to see that livin' ain't no great shakes neither. Ef one is hopefully prepared in the days of their youth, why[Pg 360] they escape a good deal, ef they get took cross-lots into heaven."

"Am I determined? Do I decide that the maple leaves will drop next October? Still, I know they will—people can't help knowing what they know, and closing one’s eyes won’t change your path. I guess you think that because you’re young and kind of attractive, you have feelings that I don’t; well, you’re wrong, that’s all. I don’t believe there’s a single person in the world who would go further or do more to save Mara Pennel than I would,—and yet I’ve been around long enough to see that living isn’t all that great either. If someone is hopefully prepared in their youth, why[Pg 360] they can avoid a lot if they’re taken a shortcut into heaven."

Sally turned away thoughtfully into the house; there was no one in the kitchen, and the tick of the old clock sounded lonely and sepulchral. She went upstairs to Mara's room; the door was ajar. Mara was sitting at the open window that looked forth toward the ocean, busily engaged in writing. The glow of evening shone on the golden waves of her hair, and tinged the pearly outline of her cheek. Sally noticed the translucent clearness of her complexion, and the deep burning color and the transparency of the little hands, which seemed as if they might transmit the light like Sèvres porcelain. She was writing with an expression of tender calm, and sometimes stopping to consult an open letter that Sally knew came from Moses.

Sally thoughtfully turned and walked into the house; the kitchen was empty, and the ticking of the old clock felt lonely and eerie. She went upstairs to Mara's room, where the door was slightly open. Mara was sitting at the open window, which looked out toward the ocean, focused on her writing. The evening light illuminated the golden waves of her hair and highlighted the soft contours of her cheek. Sally noticed the clear translucence of her skin and the rich color and clarity of her small hands, which seemed to glow like fine Sèvres porcelain. She wrote with a gentle calmness, occasionally pausing to check an open letter that Sally recognized as being from Moses.

So fair and sweet and serene she looked that a painter might have chosen her for an embodiment of twilight, and one might not be surprised to see a clear star shining out over her forehead. Yet in the tender serenity of the face there dwelt a pathos of expression that spoke of struggles and sufferings past, like the traces of tears on the face of a restful infant that has grieved itself to sleep.

So beautiful, sweet, and calm she looked that a painter might have picked her as the perfect representation of twilight, and it wouldn’t be surprising to see a bright star shining above her forehead. Yet, in the gentle calmness of her face, there was a sadness in her expression that hinted at past struggles and suffering, like the traces of tears on the face of a peaceful baby that has cried itself to sleep.

Sally came softly in on tiptoe, threw her arms around her, and kissed her, with a half laugh, then bursting into tears, sobbed upon her shoulder.

Sally quietly tiptoed in, wrapped her arms around her, and kissed her with a light laugh, then suddenly started crying and sobbed on her shoulder.

"Dear Sally, what is the matter?" said Mara, looking up.

"Dear Sally, what's wrong?" said Mara, looking up.

"Oh, Mara, I just met Miss Roxy, and she told me"—

"Oh, Mara, I just met Miss Roxy, and she told me"—

Sally only sobbed passionately.

Sally just cried intensely.

"It is very sad to make all one's friends so unhappy," said Mara, in a soothing voice, stroking Sally's hair. "You don't know how much I have suffered dreading it. Sally, it is a long time since I began to expect and dread and fear. My time of anguish was then—then when I first felt that it could be possible that I should not live after all. There was a long time I dared not even think[Pg 361] of it; I could not even tell such a fear to myself; and I did far more than I felt able to do to convince myself that I was not weak and failing. I have been often to Miss Roxy, and once, when nobody knew it, I went to a doctor in Brunswick, but then I was afraid to tell him half, lest he should say something about me, and it should get out; and so I went on getting worse and worse, and feeling every day as if I could not keep up, and yet afraid to lie down for fear grandmamma would suspect me. But this morning it was pleasant and bright, and something came over me that said I must tell somebody, and so, as it was cool and pleasant, I walked up to Aunt Roxy's and told her. I thought, you know, that she knew the most, and would feel it the least; but oh, Sally, she has such a feeling heart, and loves me so; it is strange she should."

"It's really upsetting to make all my friends so unhappy," said Mara, gently stroking Sally's hair. "You have no idea how much I've suffered worrying about it. Sally, it's been a long time since I started to expect, dread, and fear. My time of pain was then—when I first felt that it could be possible for me not to survive after all. For a long time, I didn’t even dare to think about it; I couldn’t even admit such a fear to myself; and I did everything I could to convince myself that I wasn’t weak and falling apart. I’ve visited Miss Roxy often, and once, when nobody knew, I went to a doctor in Brunswick, but then I was too scared to tell him the whole truth in case he said something about me that got out; so I just kept getting worse and worse, feeling every day like I couldn’t keep going, but too afraid to lie down for fear grandmother would suspect me. But this morning was bright and cheerful, and something inside me told me I just *had* to tell someone, so since it was cool and nice outside, I walked up to Aunt Roxy's and told her. I thought, you know, that she would understand the most and feel it the least; but oh, Sally, she has such a kind heart and loves me so much; it’s strange that she does."

"Is it?" said Sally, tightening her clasp around Mara's neck; and then with a hysterical shadow of gayety she said, "I suppose you think that you are such a hobgoblin that nobody could be expected to do that. After all, though, I should have as soon expected roses to bloom in a juniper clump as love from Aunt Roxy."

"Is it?" Sally said, tightening her grip around Mara's neck. Then, with a shaky attempt at cheerfulness, she added, "I guess you think you're such a weirdo that no one could be expected to do that. Still, I could have just as easily expected roses to grow in a juniper bush as to get love from Aunt Roxy."

"Well, she does love me," said Mara. "No mother could be kinder. Poor thing, she really sobbed and cried when I told her. I was very tired, and she told me she would take care of me, and tell grandpapa and grandmamma,—that had been lying on my heart as such a dreadful thing to do,—and she laid me down to rest on her bed, and spoke so lovingly to me! I wish you could have seen her. And while I lay there, I fell into a strange, sweet sort of rest. I can't describe it; but since then everything has been changed. I wish I could tell any one how I saw things then."

"Well, she really does love me," said Mara. "No mother could be more caring. Poor thing, she really sobbed and cried when I told her. I was very tired, and she said she would take care of me and talk to grandpa and grandma—that had been weighing on my mind as such a terrible thing to do—and she laid me down to rest on her bed and spoke to me so lovingly! I wish you could have seen her. And while I lay there, I fell into a strange, sweet sort of rest. I can't explain it, but ever since then, everything has changed. I wish I could tell someone how I saw things back then."

"Do try to tell me, Mara," said Sally, "for I need comfort too, if there is any to be had."

"Please tell me, Mara," Sally said, "because I need comfort too, if there’s any to be found."

"Well, then, I lay on the bed, and the wind drew in[Pg 362] from the sea and just lifted the window-curtain, and I could see the sea shining and hear the waves making a pleasant little dash, and then my head seemed to swim. I thought I was walking out by the pleasant shore, and everything seemed so strangely beautiful, and grandpapa and grandmamma were there, and Moses had come home, and you were there, and we were all so happy. And then I felt a sort of strange sense that something was coming—some great trial or affliction—and I groaned and clung to Moses, and asked him to put his arm around me and hold me.

"Well, I lay on the bed as the wind came in[Pg 362] from the sea, lifting the curtain, and I could see the sun sparkling on the water and hear the waves making a gentle splash. Then my head started to spin. I imagined I was walking along the beautiful shore, and everything felt so strangely gorgeous. Granddad and Grandma were there, and Moses had come home, and you were there too, and we were all so happy. Suddenly, I felt this weird sense that something was on the way—some big challenge or hardship—and I groaned, clinging to Moses and asking him to wrap his arm around me and hold me close."

"Then it seemed to be not by our seashore that this was happening, but by the Sea of Galilee, just as it tells about it in the Bible, and there were fishermen mending their nets, and men sitting counting their money, and I saw Jesus come walking along, and heard him say to this one and that one, 'Leave all and follow me,' and it seemed that the moment he spoke they did it, and then he came to me, and I felt his eyes in my very soul, and he said, 'Wilt thou leave all and follow me?' I cannot tell now what a pain I felt—what an anguish. I wanted to leave all, but my heart felt as if it were tied and woven with a thousand threads, and while I waited he seemed to fade away, and I found myself then alone and unhappy, wishing that I could, and mourning that I had not; and then something shone out warm like the sun, and I looked up, and he stood there looking pitifully, and he said again just as he did before, 'Wilt thou leave all and follow me?' Every word was so gentle and full of pity, and I looked into his eyes and could not look away; they drew me, they warmed me, and I felt a strange, wonderful sense of his greatness and sweetness. It seemed as if I felt within me cord after cord breaking, I felt so free, so happy; and I said, 'I will, I will, with all my heart;' and I woke then, so happy, so sure of God's love.[Pg 363]

"Then it felt like we weren’t by our own seashore but by the Sea of Galilee, just like it describes in the Bible. There were fishermen fixing their nets and men counting their money. I saw Jesus walking by, and I heard him say to this one and that one, 'Leave everything and follow me.' It seemed like the moment he spoke, they did it. Then he came to me, and I felt his eyes searching deep into my soul, and he asked, 'Will you leave everything and follow me?' I can’t explain the pain I felt—what anguish. I wanted to leave it all behind, but my heart felt like it was tied up with a thousand threads. While I hesitated, he seemed to fade away, and I found myself alone and unhappy, wishing I could, and grieving that I hadn’t. Then something shone out warmly like the sun, and I looked up, and there he was, looking at me with pity. He asked again just like before, 'Will you leave everything and follow me?' Every word was so gentle and full of compassion. I looked into his eyes and couldn’t look away; they drew me in, warmed me, and I felt a strange, wonderful sense of his greatness and kindness. It felt like I was experiencing cord after cord breaking within me; I felt so free, so happy. And I said, 'I will, I will, with all my heart.' Then I woke up, feeling so happy, so sure of God's love.[Pg 363]

"I saw so clearly how his love is in everything, and these words came into my mind as if an angel had spoken them, 'God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes.' Since then I cannot be unhappy. I was so myself only this morning, and now I wonder that any one can have a grief when God is so loving and good, and cares so sweetly for us all. Why, Sally, if I could see Christ and hear him speak, I could not be more certain that he will make this sorrow such a blessing to us all that we shall never be able to thank him enough for it."

"I clearly saw how his love is in everything, and these words came to me as if an angel had said them, 'God will wipe away all tears from their eyes.' Since then, I can’t feel unhappy. Just this morning, I felt that way myself, and now I wonder how anyone can feel grief when God is so loving and kind, and cares for all of us so sweetly. Honestly, Sally, if I could see Christ and hear him speak, I couldn’t be more sure that he will turn this sorrow into such a blessing for all of us that we’ll never be able to thank him enough for it."

"Oh Mara," said Sally, sighing deeply, while her cheek was wet with tears, "it is beautiful to hear you talk; but there is one that I am sure will not and cannot feel so."

"Oh Mara," Sally said, sighing deeply, her cheek wet with tears, "it's beautiful to hear you talk; but there's someone I know who definitely won't and can't feel the same."

"God will care for him," said Mara; "oh, I am sure of it; He is love itself, and He values his love in us, and He never, never would have brought such a trial, if it had not been the true and only way to our best good. We shall not shed one needless tear. Yes, if God loved us so that he spared not his own Son, he will surely give us all the good here that we possibly can have without risking our eternal happiness."

"God will take care of him," said Mara; "oh, I know that for sure; He is love itself, and He values His love in us. He would never have put us through such a trial if it wasn't truly the best way for our good. We won't shed a single unnecessary tear. Yes, if God loved us enough to not spare His own Son, He will definitely give us all the good we can have here without risking our eternal happiness."

"You are writing to Moses, now?" said Sally.

"You’re writing to Moses now?" Sally asked.

"Yes, I am answering his letter; it is so full of spirit and life and hope—but all hope in this world—all, all earthly, as much as if there was no God and no world to come. Sally, perhaps our Father saw that I could not have strength to live with him and keep my faith. I should be drawn by him earthward instead of drawing him heavenward; and so this is in mercy to us both."

"Yes, I'm replying to his letter; it's so full of energy, life, and hope—but all hope in this world—all, all earthly, as if there were no God and no afterlife. Sally, maybe our Father knew that I wouldn't have the strength to be with him and maintain my faith. I would be pulled down to earth by him instead of lifting him up toward heaven; so this is a mercy for both of us."

"And are you telling him the whole truth, Mara?"

"And are you telling him the whole truth, Mara?"

"Not all, no," said Mara; "he could not bear it at once. I only tell him that my health is failing, and that my friends are seriously alarmed, and then I speak as if it were doubtful, in my mind, what the result might be."

"Not all, no," said Mara; "he couldn't handle it all at once. I just tell him that my health is getting worse, and that my friends are really worried, and then I act as if I'm unsure about what the outcome might be."

"I don't think you can make him feel as you do.[Pg 364] Moses Pennel has a tremendous will, and he never yielded to any one. You bend, Mara, like the little blue harebells, and so the storm goes over you; but he will stand up against it, and it will wrench and shatter him. I am afraid, instead of making him better, it will only make him bitter and rebellious."

"I don't think you can make him feel the way you do.[Pg 364] Moses Pennel has an incredible will, and he never gives in to anyone. You bend, Mara, like the delicate blue harebells, so the storm passes over you; but he will face it head-on, and it will twist and break him. I'm afraid that instead of helping him, it will just make him bitter and defiant."

"He has a Father in heaven who knows how to care for him," said Mara. "I am persuaded—I feel certain that he will be blessed in the end; not perhaps in the time and way I should have chosen, but in the end. I have always felt that he was mine, ever since he came a little shipwrecked boy to me—a little girl. And now I have given him up to his Saviour and my Saviour—to his God and my God—and I am perfectly at peace. All will be well."

"He has a Father in heaven who knows how to take care of him," Mara said. "I believe—I’m sure that he will be blessed in the end; maybe not in the way and time I would have chosen, but in the end. I’ve always felt that he was mine, ever since he came to me as a little shipwrecked boy—a little girl. And now I’ve given him up to his Savior and my Savior—to his God and my God—and I feel completely at peace. Everything will be alright."

Mara spoke with a look of such solemn, bright assurance as made her, in the dusky, golden twilight, seem like some serene angel sent down to comfort, rather than a hapless mortal just wrenched from life and hope.

Mara spoke with a look of such serious, bright confidence that in the dim, golden twilight, she seemed like a calm angel sent to bring comfort, rather than an unfortunate person just torn away from life and hope.

Sally rose up and kissed her silently. "Mara," she said, "I shall come to-morrow to see what I can do for you. I will not interrupt you now. Good-by, dear."

Sally got up and kissed her quietly. "Mara," she said, "I'll come by tomorrow to see what I can do for you. I won't disturb you now. Bye, dear."


There are no doubt many, who have followed this history so long as it danced like a gay little boat over sunny waters, and who would have followed it gayly to the end, had it closed with ringing of marriage-bells, who turn from it indignantly, when they see that its course runs through the dark valley. This, they say, is an imposition, a trick upon our feelings. We want to read only stories which end in joy and prosperity.

There are definitely many people who have followed this story as long as it floated like a cheerful little boat on sunny waters, and would have happily followed it to the end if it had wrapped up with the sound of wedding bells. However, they turn away in anger when they see that its journey takes a turn through a dark valley. They say this is unfair, a trick on our emotions. We only want to read stories that end in happiness and success.

But have we then settled it in our own mind that there is no such thing as a fortunate issue in a history which does not terminate in the way of earthly success and good fortune? Are we Christians or heathen? It is now eighteen centuries since, as we hold, the "highly favored among[Pg 365] women" was pronounced to be one whose earthly hopes were all cut off in the blossom,—whose noblest and dearest in the morning of his days went down into the shadows of death.

But have we really decided in our own minds that there’s no such thing as a positive outcome in a story that doesn’t end with earthly success and good luck? Are we Christians or pagans? It’s been eighteen centuries since, as we believe, the "most blessed among[Pg 365] women" was declared to be someone whose earthly aspirations were all abruptly taken away—whose greatest and most beloved hope passed away in the prime of life.

Was Mary the highly-favored among women, and was Jesus indeed the blessed,—or was the angel mistaken? If they were these, if we are Christians, it ought to be a settled and established habit of our souls to regard something else as prosperity than worldly success and happy marriages. That life is a success which, like the life of Jesus, in its beginning, middle, and close, has borne a perfect witness to the truth and the highest form of truth. It is true that God has given to us, and inwoven in our nature a desire for a perfection and completeness made manifest to our senses in this mortal life. To see the daughter bloom into youth and womanhood, the son into manhood, to see them marry and become themselves parents, and gradually ripen and develop in the maturities of middle life, gradually wear into a sunny autumn, and so be gathered in fullness of time to their fathers,—such, one says, is the programme which God has made us to desire; such the ideal of happiness which he has interwoven with our nerves, and for which our heart and our flesh crieth out; to which every stroke of a knell is a violence, and every thought of an early death is an abhorrence.

Was Mary truly favored among women, and was Jesus indeed blessed—or was the angel mistaken? If they were, and if we are Christians, we should have a settled understanding that true prosperity isn't just about worldly success and happy marriages. A successful life, like that of Jesus, is one that consistently bears witness to the truth and to the highest form of truth from beginning to end. It’s true that God has instilled in us a desire for perfection and fulfillment that we can perceive in this life. To see a daughter grow into youth and womanhood, a son into manhood, to watch them marry and become parents, and then gradually mature into middle age and eventually enjoy a peaceful autumn in their lives, only to be gathered into their fathers’ arms in due time—this is what many believe is the path God intended for us. It’s the ideal of happiness that resonates with our very being, something our hearts and bodies long for; every toll of a bell feels like a violation, and the thought of an untimely death is deeply disturbing.

But the life of Christ and his mother sets the foot on this lower ideal of happiness, and teaches us that there is something higher. His ministry began with declaring, "Blessed are they that mourn." It has been well said that prosperity was the blessing of the Old Testament, and adversity of the New. Christ came to show us a nobler style of living and bearing; and so far as he had a personal and earthly life, he buried it as a corner-stone on which to erect a new immortal style of architecture.

But the lives of Christ and his mother demonstrate that true happiness goes beyond this lower ideal and teaches us that there is something greater. His ministry started with the declaration, "Blessed are those who mourn." It's often said that prosperity was the blessing of the Old Testament, while adversity is the blessing of the New. Christ came to show us a more noble way of living and enduring; and to the extent that he experienced a personal and earthly life, he laid it down as a foundation on which to build a new, everlasting way of being.

Of his own, he had nothing, neither houses, nor lands,[Pg 366] nor family ties, nor human hopes, nor earthly sphere of success; and as a human life, it was all a sacrifice and a defeat. He was rejected by his countrymen, whom the passionate anguish of his love and the unwearied devotion of his life could not save from an awful doom. He was betrayed by weak friends, prevailed against by slanderers, overwhelmed with an ignominious death in the morning of youth, and his mother stood by his cross, and she was the only woman whom God ever called highly favored in this world.

Of his own, he had nothing—no houses, no land,[Pg 366] no family ties, no hopes, and no place for success in this world; and in terms of a human life, it was all a sacrifice and a failure. He was rejected by his fellow countrymen, whom the deep pain of his love and the tireless devotion of his life couldn’t save from a terrible fate. He was betrayed by weak friends, fought against by slanderers, and faced a humiliating death in the early days of his youth, while his mother stood by his cross, the only woman God ever called highly favored in this world.

This, then, is the great and perfect ideal of what God honors. Christ speaks of himself as bread to be eaten,—bread, simple, humble, unpretending, vitally necessary to human life, made by the bruising and grinding of the grain, unostentatiously having no life or worth of its own except as it is absorbed into the life of others and lives in them. We wished in this history to speak of a class of lives formed on the model of Christ, and like his, obscure and unpretending, like his, seeming to end in darkness and defeat, but which yet have this preciousness and value that the dear saints who live them come nearest in their mission to the mission of Jesus. They are made, not for a career and history of their own, but to be bread of life to others. In every household or house have been some of these, and if we look on their lives and deaths with the unbaptized eyes of nature, we shall see only most mournful and unaccountable failure, when, if we could look with the eye of faith, we should see that their living and dying has been bread of life to those they left behind. Fairest of these, and least developed, are the holy innocents who come into our households to smile with the smile of angels, who sleep in our bosoms, and win us with the softness of tender little hands, and pass away like the lamb that was slain before they have ever learned the speech of mortals. Not vain are even these silent lives of Christ's lambs, whom many[Pg 367] an earth-bound heart has been roused to follow when the Shepherd bore them to the higher pastures. And so the daughter who died so early, whose wedding-bells were never rung except in heaven,—the son who had no career of ambition or a manly duty except among the angels,—the patient sufferers, whose only lot on earth seemed to be to endure, whose life bled away drop by drop in the shadows of the sick-room—all these are among those whose life was like Christ's in that they were made, not for themselves, but to become bread to us.

This is the great and perfect ideal of what God honors. Christ refers to Himself as bread to be eaten—simple, humble, unpretentious, and absolutely necessary for human life, made from the bruising and grinding of grain, lacking any life or worth of its own except when it’s absorbed into the lives of others and lives through them. We wanted to discuss a group of lives modeled after Christ's, which, like His, are obscure and unassuming, seeming to end in darkness and defeat, yet hold immense value because the dear saints who live them come closest in their mission to that of Jesus. They exist not for their own careers and histories but to be the bread of life for others. In every household, there have been some of these individuals, and if we view their lives and deaths without a deeper understanding, we may only see sorrowful and inexplicable failure. However, if we could look with faith, we would see that their living and dying have been life-giving to those they left behind. The most innocent and least developed among these are the holy innocents who join our homes, smiling like angels, who peacefully rest in our arms, winning us over with their soft little hands, and passing away like the lamb that was slain before they ever learn to speak. Not even these silent lives of Christ’s lambs are in vain; they've stirred many earthly hearts to follow when the Shepherd led them to higher pastures. So we think of the daughter who passed away too young, whose wedding bells only rang in heaven—the son who had no ambitions or duties except among the angels—the patients whose only purpose on earth seemed to be to endure, whose lives faded away drop by drop in the shadows of the sick room—all of these belong to those whose lives reflected Christ's, as they were made not for themselves but to become bread for us.

It is expedient for us that they go away. Like their Lord, they come to suffer, and to die; they take part in his sacrifice; their life is incomplete without their death, and not till they are gone away does the Comforter fully come to us.

It’s best for us that they leave. Like their Lord, they come to suffer and die; they share in his sacrifice; their lives aren’t whole without their death, and it’s only when they’ve left that the Comforter fully arrives.

It is a beautiful legend which one sees often represented in the churches of Europe, that when the grave of the mother of Jesus was opened, it was found full of blossoming lilies,—fit emblem of the thousand flowers of holy thought and purpose which spring up in our hearts from the memory of our sainted dead.

It’s a beautiful legend that you often see depicted in the churches of Europe, that when the grave of Jesus' mother was opened, it was discovered to be filled with blooming lilies—an appropriate symbol of the countless flowers of sacred thoughts and intentions that arise in our hearts from the memory of our beloved departed.

Cannot many, who read these lines, bethink them of such rooms that have been the most cheerful places in the family,—when the heart of the smitten one seemed the band that bound all the rest together,—and have there not been dying hours which shed such a joy and radiance on all around, that it was long before the mourners remembered to mourn? Is it not a misuse of words to call such a heavenly translation death? and to call most things that are lived out on this earth life?

Cannot many who read these lines think of those rooms that have been the happiest spots in the family—when the heart of the one in pain felt like the bond that connected everyone together? And haven’t there been moments of passing that brought such joy and light to everyone around, that it took a while before the mourners even remembered to grieve? Isn’t it a misuse of words to label such a beautiful transition death? And to refer to most things experienced on this earth as life?


CHAPTER XXXIX

THE LAND OF BEULAH

[Pg 368]It is now about a month after the conversation which we have recorded, and during that time the process which was to loose from this present life had been going on in Mara with a soft, insensible, but steady power. When she ceased to make efforts beyond her strength, and allowed herself that languor and repose which nature claimed, all around her soon became aware how her strength was failing; and yet a cheerful repose seemed to hallow the atmosphere around her. The sight of her every day in family worship, sitting by in such tender tranquillity, with such a smile on her face, seemed like a present inspiration. And though the aged pair knew that she was no more for this world, yet she was comforting and inspiring to their view as the angel who of old rolled back the stone from the sepulchre and sat upon it. They saw in her eyes, not death, but the solemn victory which Christ gives over death.

[Pg 368]It is now about a month since the conversation we've recorded, and during that time, the process that would free Mara from this life has been happening with a gentle, unnoticed, but steady force. When she stopped pushing herself beyond her limits and embraced the rest and relaxation that nature required, everyone around her quickly noticed her strength was fading; yet, a cheerful calm seemed to bless the atmosphere around her. Seeing her every day during family worship, sitting there in such tender peace with a smile on her face, felt like a source of inspiration. Although her elderly parents knew she belonged to another world now, she was still comforting and uplifting to them, like the angel who rolled back the stone from the tomb and sat on it. In her eyes, they saw not death, but the profound victory that Christ offers over death.

Bunyan has no more lovely poem than the image he gives of that land of pleasant waiting which borders the river of death, where the chosen of the Lord repose, while shining messengers, constantly passing and repassing, bear tidings from the celestial shore, opening a way between earth and heaven. It was so, that through the very thought of Mara an influence of tenderness and tranquillity passed through the whole neighborhood, keeping hearts fresh with sympathy, and causing thought and conversation to rest on those bright mysteries of eternal joy which were reflected on her face.[Pg 369]

Bunyan has no more beautiful poem than the picture he creates of that lovely waiting place by the river of death, where God's chosen people rest, while shining messengers, constantly coming and going, bring news from the heavenly shore, creating a connection between earth and heaven. Through the mere thought of Mara, a feeling of warmth and peace spread throughout the neighborhood, keeping hearts alive with compassion, and leading thoughts and conversations to focus on the bright mysteries of eternal joy that shone on her face.[Pg 369]

Sally Kittridge was almost a constant inmate of the brown house, ever ready in watching and waiting; and one only needed to mark the expression of her face to feel that a holy charm was silently working upon her higher and spiritual nature. Those great, dark, sparkling eyes that once seemed to express only the brightness of animal vivacity, and glittered like a brook in unsympathetic gayety, had in them now mysterious depths, and tender, fleeting shadows, and the very tone of her voice had a subdued tremor. The capricious elf, the tricksy sprite, was melting away in the immortal soul, and the deep pathetic power of a noble heart was being born. Some influence sprung of sorrow is necessary always to perfect beauty in womanly nature. We feel its absence in many whose sparkling wit and high spirits give grace and vivacity to life, but in whom we vainly seek for some spot of quiet tenderness and sympathetic repose. Sally was, ignorantly to herself, changing in the expression of her face and the tone of her character, as she ministered in the daily wants which sickness brings in a simple household.

Sally Kittridge was almost always at the brown house, always ready to watch and wait; just looking at her face showed that a holy charm was silently working on her higher, spiritual nature. Those great, dark, sparkling eyes that once only reflected the brightness of animal liveliness, glittering like a stream in unsympathetic cheerfulness, now held mysterious depths and tender, fleeting shadows, and the tone of her voice had a subdued tremor. The playful elf, the mischievous sprite, was fading away, revealing the immortal soul, and the deep, heartfelt power of a noble heart was emerging. Some influence born of sorrow is always necessary to perfect beauty in a woman's nature. We notice its absence in many whose sparkling wit and high spirits bring grace and liveliness to life, but in whom we search in vain for a spot of quiet tenderness and sympathetic calm. Sally was, unknowingly to herself, changing in the expression of her face and the tone of her character as she attended to the daily needs that illness brings to a simple household.

For the rest of the neighborhood, the shelves and larder of Mrs. Pennel were constantly crowded with the tributes which one or another sent in for the invalid. There was jelly of Iceland moss sent across by Miss Emily, and brought by Mr. Sewell, whose calls were almost daily. There were custards and preserves, and every form of cake and other confections in which the housekeeping talent of the neighbors delighted, and which were sent in under the old superstition that sick people must be kept eating at all hazards.

For the rest of the neighborhood, Mrs. Pennel’s shelves and pantry were always filled with the gifts that different people sent for the sick person. Miss Emily sent over jelly made from Iceland moss, which Mr. Sewell, who visited almost every day, delivered. There were custards, preserves, and all kinds of cakes and other treats that the neighbors loved to make, sent out of the old belief that sick people should be encouraged to eat at all costs.

At church, Sunday after Sunday, the simple note requested the prayers of the church and congregation for Mara Lincoln, who was, as the note phrased it, drawing near her end, that she and all concerned might be prepared for the great and last change. One familiar with New[Pg 370] England customs must have remembered with what a plaintive power the reading of such a note, from Sunday to Sunday, has drawn the thoughts and sympathies of a congregation to some chamber of sickness; and in a village church, where every individual is known from childhood to every other, the power of this simple custom is still greater.

At church, Sunday after Sunday, a simple note requested the prayers of the church and congregation for Mara Lincoln, who, as the note put it, was nearing her end, so that she and everyone involved might be ready for the great final change. Anyone familiar with New England customs would remember how powerfully the reading of such a note, week after week, has drawn the thoughts and sympathies of a congregation to a sickroom; and in a small village church, where everyone knows each other from childhood, the impact of this straightforward tradition is even stronger.

Then the prayers of the minister would dwell on the case, and thanks would be rendered to God for the great light and peace with which he had deigned to visit his young handmaid; and then would follow a prayer that when these sad tidings should reach a distant friend who had gone down to do business on the great waters, they might be sanctified to his spiritual and everlasting good. Then on Sunday noons, as the people ate their dinners together in a room adjoining the church, all that she said and did was talked over and over,—how quickly she had gained the victory of submission, the peace of a will united with God's, mixed with harmless gossip of the sick chamber,—as to what she ate and how she slept, and who had sent her gruel with raisins in it, and who jelly with wine, and how she had praised this and eaten that twice with a relish, but how the other had seemed to disagree with her. Thereafter would come scraps of nursing information, recipes against coughing, specifics against short breath, speculations about watchers, how soon she would need them, and long legends of other death-beds where the fear of death had been slain by the power of an endless life.

Then the minister's prayers would focus on the situation, and thanks would be given to God for the great comfort and peace He had chosen to give His young servant; and then there would be a prayer that when this sad news reached a distant friend who had gone to handle business on the vast waters, it might inspire spiritual and lasting good for him. Then on Sunday afternoons, as the people shared their meals in a room next to the church, everything she said and did was discussed endlessly—how quickly she had embraced submission, the peace of aligning her will with God's, mixed with harmless gossip from the sickroom—about what she ate and how she slept, who sent her gruel with raisins, who brought jelly with wine, how she had praised this and enjoyed that twice, but how the other dish hadn’t agreed with her. After that, snippets of nursing advice would come up, recipes for cough remedies, solutions for shortness of breath, speculations about caretakers, how soon she would need them, and long stories of other people on their deathbeds where the fear of dying had been overcome by the promise of eternal life.

Yet through all the gossip, and through much that might have been called at other times commonplace cant of religion, there was spread a tender earnestness, and the whole air seemed to be enchanted with the fragrance of that fading rose. Each one spoke more gently, more lovingly to each, for the thought of her.[Pg 371]

Yet amidst all the gossip, and despite what could have been considered ordinary chatter about religion at other times, there was a heartfelt sincerity that spread through the air, which seemed enchanted by the scent of that wilting rose. Everyone spoke more softly and lovingly to one another, all because of her.[Pg 371]

It was now a bright September morning, and the early frosts had changed the maples in the pine-woods to scarlet, and touched the white birches with gold, when one morning Miss Roxy presented herself at an early hour at Captain Kittridge's.

It was now a bright September morning, and the early frosts had turned the maples in the pine woods to scarlet and added a touch of gold to the white birches when one morning Miss Roxy showed up at Captain Kittridge's very early.

They were at breakfast, and Sally was dispensing the tea at the head of the table, Mrs. Kittridge having been prevailed on to abdicate in her favor.

They were having breakfast, and Sally was pouring the tea at the head of the table, with Mrs. Kittridge having been convinced to step aside for her.

"It is such a fine morning," she said, looking out at the window, which showed a waveless expanse of ocean. "I do hope Mara has had a good night."

"It’s such a beautiful morning," she said, looking out the window at the calm ocean. "I really hope Mara had a good night."

"I'm a-goin' to make her some jelly this very forenoon," said Mrs. Kittridge. "Aunt Roxy was a-tellin' me yesterday that she was a-goin' down to stay at the house regular, for she needed so much done now."

"I'm going to make her some jelly this very morning," said Mrs. Kittridge. "Aunt Roxy told me yesterday that she was going down to stay at the house regularly because she needs a lot done now."

"It's 'most an amazin' thing we don't hear from Moses Pennel," said Captain Kittridge. "If he don't make haste, he may never see her."

"It's almost amazing that we haven't heard from Moses Pennel," said Captain Kittridge. "If he doesn't hurry up, he might never see her."

"There's Aunt Roxy at this minute," said Sally.

"Right now, there's Aunt Roxy," said Sally.

In truth, the door opened at this moment, and Aunt Roxy entered with a little blue bandbox and a bundle tied up in a checked handkerchief.

In fact, the door opened right then, and Aunt Roxy walked in carrying a small blue bandbox and a bundle wrapped in a checked handkerchief.

"Oh, Aunt Roxy," said Mrs. Kittridge, "you are on your way, are you? Do sit down, right here, and get a cup of strong tea."

"Oh, Aunt Roxy," Mrs. Kittridge said, "you're heading out, are you? Please sit down here and have a cup of strong tea."

"Thank you," said Aunt Roxy, "but Ruey gave me a humming cup before I came away."

"Thanks," said Aunt Roxy, "but Ruey gave me a humming cup before I left."

"Aunt Roxy, have they heard anything from Moses?" said the Captain.

"Aunt Roxy, have they heard anything from Moses?" said the Captain.

"No, father, I know they haven't," said Sally. "Mara has written to him, and so has Mr. Sewell, but it is very uncertain whether he ever got the letters."

"No, Dad, I know they haven't," said Sally. "Mara has written to him, and so has Mr. Sewell, but it's really unclear if he ever received the letters."

"It's most time to be a-lookin' for him home," said the Captain. "I shouldn't be surprised to see him any day."

"It's about time to start looking for him at home," said the Captain. "I wouldn't be surprised to see him any day now."

At this moment Sally, who sat where she could see from[Pg 372] the window, gave a sudden start and a half scream, and rising from the table, darted first to the window and then to the door, whence she rushed out eagerly.

At that moment, Sally, who was sitting where she could see from[Pg 372] the window, suddenly jumped and let out a half scream. She got up from the table, rushed to the window, and then to the door, where she quickly ran outside.

"Well, what now?" said the Captain.

"Well, what's next?" said the Captain.

"I am sure I don't know what's come over her," said Mrs. Kittridge, rising to look out.

"I honestly have no idea what's gotten into her," said Mrs. Kittridge, standing up to look outside.

"Why, Aunt Roxy, do look; I believe to my soul that ar's Moses Pennel!"

"Why, Aunt Roxy, look! I genuinely believe that’s Moses Pennel!"

And so it was. He met Sally, as she ran out, with a gloomy brow and scarcely a look even of recognition; but he seized her hand and wrung it in the stress of his emotion so that she almost screamed with the pain.

And that's how it happened. He ran into Sally as she rushed out, her face serious and barely giving him a glance of acknowledgment; but he grabbed her hand and squeezed it tightly in his excitement, making her almost scream from the hurt.

"Tell me, Sally," he said, "tell me the truth. I dared not go home without I knew. Those gossiping, lying reports are always exaggerated. They are dreadful exaggerations,—they frighten a sick person into the grave; but you have good sense and a hopeful, cheerful temper,—you must see and know how things are. Mara is not so very—very"—He held Sally's hand and looked at her with a burning eagerness. "Say, what do you think of her?"

"Tell me, Sally," he said, "please tell me the truth. I couldn't go home without knowing. Those gossiping, lying reports are always blown out of proportion. They are horrible exaggerations—they can scare a sick person into the grave; but you have good sense and a hopeful, cheerful attitude—you must understand how things really are. Mara is not so very—very"—He held Sally's hand and looked at her with intense eagerness. "So, what do you think of her?"

"We all think that we cannot long keep her with us," said Sally. "And oh, Moses, I am so glad you have come."

"We all believe that we can't keep her with us for long," said Sally. "And oh, Moses, I'm so glad you’re here."

"It's false,—it must be false," he said, violently; "nothing is more deceptive than these ideas that doctors and nurses pile on when a sensitive person is going down a little. I know Mara; everything depends on the mind with her. I shall wake her up out of this dream. She is not to die. She shall not die,—I come to save her."

"It's not true—it can't be true," he said fiercely; "nothing is more misleading than the ideas that doctors and nurses throw around when someone sensitive is feeling a bit down. I know Mara; everything relies on her mindset. I'm going to pull her out of this dream. She isn't going to die. She won't die—I’m here to save her."

"Oh, if you could!" said Sally, mournfully.

"Oh, if you only could!" Sally said, sadly.

"It cannot be; it is not to be," he said again, as if to convince himself. "No such thing is to be thought of. Tell me, Sally, have you tried to keep up the cheerful side of things to her,—have you?"[Pg 373]

"It can't be; it's not possible," he said again, almost trying to convince himself. "That's not something to even consider. Tell me, Sally, have you been trying to stay positive for her—have you?"[Pg 373]

"Oh, you cannot tell, Moses, how it is, unless you see her. She is cheerful, happy; the only really joyous one among us."

"Oh, you can't understand, Moses, how it is unless you see her. She's cheerful and happy; she's the only truly joyful one among us."

"Cheerful! joyous! happy! She does not believe, then, these frightful things? I thought she would keep up; she is a brave little thing."

"Cheerful! Joyful! Happy! She doesn't believe, then, these terrifying things? I thought she would hold on; she's such a brave little thing."

"No, Moses, she does believe. She has given up all hope of life,—all wish to live; and oh, she is so lovely,—so sweet,—so dear."

"No, Moses, she does believe. She has given up all hope of life—no longer wishes to live; and oh, she is so beautiful—so sweet—so cherished."

Sally covered her face with her hands and sobbed. Moses stood still, looking at her a moment in a confused way, and then he answered,—

Sally hid her face in her hands and cried. Moses stood frozen, staring at her for a moment in confusion, and then he replied,—

"Come, get your bonnet, Sally, and go with me. You must go in and tell them; tell her that I am come, you know."

"Come on, grab your hat, Sally, and come with me. You need to go inside and tell them; let her know that I’ve arrived, you know."

"Yes, I will," said Sally, as she ran quickly back to the house.

"Yeah, I will," said Sally, as she hurried back to the house.

Moses stood listlessly looking after her. A moment after she came out of the door again, and Miss Roxy behind. Sally hurried up to Moses.

Moses stood there, staring after her with no enthusiasm. A moment later, she came out of the door again, and Miss Roxy followed her. Sally rushed over to Moses.

"Where's that black old raven going?" said Moses, in a low voice, looking back on Miss Roxy, who stood on the steps.

"Where's that old black raven going?" Moses said quietly, glancing back at Miss Roxy, who was standing on the steps.

"What, Aunt Roxy?" said Sally; "why, she's going up to nurse Mara, and take care of her. Mrs. Pennel is so old and infirm she needs somebody to depend on."

"What, Aunt Roxy?" said Sally; "well, she's going up to take care of Mara and look after her. Mrs. Pennel is so old and frail she needs someone to rely on."

"I can't bear her," said Moses. "I always think of sick-rooms and coffins and a stifling smell of camphor when I see her. I never could endure her. She's an old harpy going to carry off my dove."

"I can't stand her," said Moses. "I always think of hospitals and coffins and that suffocating smell of camphor whenever I see her. I've never been able to tolerate her. She's an old vulture who's going to take my dove away."

"Now, Moses, you must not talk so. She loves Mara dearly, the poor old soul, and Mara loves her, and there is no earthly thing she would not do for her. And she knows what to do for sickness better than you or I. I have found out one thing, that it isn't mere love and good-will[Pg 374] that is needed in a sick-room; it needs knowledge and experience."

"Now, Moses, you must not speak like that. She cares for Mara deeply, the poor old soul, and Mara cares for her too, and there’s nothing she wouldn’t do for her. And she knows how to handle sickness better than you or I. I've realized that it takes more than just love and good intentions[Pg 374] in a sick room; it requires knowledge and experience."

Moses assented in gloomy silence, and they walked on together the way that they had so often taken laughing and chatting. When they came within sight of the house, Moses said,—

Moses nodded in quiet sadness, and they continued walking together the path they had often taken, laughing and chatting. When they got within view of the house, Moses said,—

"Here she came running to meet us; do you remember?"

"Here she came running to meet us; do you remember?"

"Yes," said Sally.

"Yes," Sally said.

"I was never half worthy of her. I never said half what I ought to," he added. "She must live! I must have one more chance."

"I was never even close to being worthy of her. I never said half of what I should have," he added. "She must live! I need one more chance."

When they came up to the house, Zephaniah Pennel was sitting in the door, with his gray head bent over the leaves of the great family Bible.

When they reached the house, Zephaniah Pennel was sitting in the doorway, his gray head bent over the pages of the big family Bible.

He rose up at their coming, and with that suppression of all external signs of feeling for which the New Englander is remarkable, simply shook the hand of Moses, saying,—

He got up when they arrived, and with that ability to hide all external signs of emotion that New Englanders are known for, he just shook Moses's hand and said,—

"Well, my boy, we are glad you have come."

"Well, kid, we're glad you're here."

Mrs. Pennel, who was busied in some domestic work in the back part of the kitchen, turned away and hid her face in her apron when she saw him. There fell a great silence among them, in the midst of which the old clock ticked loudly and importunately, like the inevitable approach of fate.

Mrs. Pennel, who was busy with some chores in the back of the kitchen, turned away and covered her face with her apron when she saw him. A heavy silence fell among them, during which the old clock ticked loudly and insistently, like the unavoidable approach of fate.

"I will go up and see her, and get her ready," said Sally, in a whisper to Moses. "I'll come and call you."

"I'll go up and see her and get her ready," Sally whispered to Moses. "I'll come and call you."

Moses sat down and looked around on the old familiar scene; there was the great fireplace where, in their childish days, they had sat together winter nights,—her fair, spiritual face enlivened by the blaze, while she knit and looked thoughtfully into the coals; there she had played checkers, or fox and geese, with him; or studied with him the Latin lessons; or sat by, grave and thoughtful, hemming his toy[Pg 375]ship sails, while he cut the moulds for his anchors, or tried experiments on pulleys; and in all these years he could not remember one selfish action,—one unlovely word,—and he thought to himself, "I hoped to possess this angel as a mortal wife! God forgive my presumption."

Moses sat down and looked around at the familiar scene; there was the big fireplace where, in their childhood, they had sat together on winter nights—her lovely, ethereal face lit up by the flames while she knitted and gazed thoughtfully into the coals. There she had played checkers or fox and geese with him; or studied Latin lessons together; or sat nearby, serious and contemplative, hemming the sails for his toy ship while he made molds for his anchors or experimented with pulleys. Throughout all these years, he couldn't recall a single selfish act or unkind word from her, and he thought to himself, "I hoped to have this angel as my wife! God forgive my arrogance."


CHAPTER XL

THE MEETING

[Pg 376]Sally found Mara sitting in an easy-chair that had been sent to her by the provident love of Miss Emily. It was wheeled in front of her room window, from whence she could look out upon the wide expanse of the ocean. It was a gloriously bright, calm morning, and the water lay clear and still, with scarce a ripple, to the far distant pearly horizon. She seemed to be looking at it in a kind of calm ecstasy, and murmuring the words of a hymn:—

[Pg 376]Sally found Mara sitting in a comfy chair that Miss Emily had thoughtfully sent her. It was positioned in front of her bedroom window, where she could gaze out at the vast ocean. It was a beautifully bright, peaceful morning, and the water was clear and calm, with hardly a ripple, extending to the far, pearly horizon. She appeared to be admiring it in a state of serene bliss, softly humming the words of a hymn:—

"Nor wreck nor ruin there is seen,
There not a wave of trouble rolls,
But the bright rainbow round the throne
Peals endless peace to all their souls."

"Neither wreck nor ruin can be seen,
There's not a wave of trouble coming,
But the bright rainbow around the throne
"Brings endless peace to all their souls."

Sally came softly behind her on tiptoe to kiss her. "Good-morning, dear, how do you find yourself?"

Sally quietly tiptoed up behind her to give her a kiss. "Good morning, dear, how are you feeling?"

"Quite well," was the answer.

"Pretty good," was the answer.

"Mara, is not there anything you want?"

"Mara, isn't there anything you want?"

"There might be many things; but His will is mine."

"There may be many things, but His will is my will."

"You want to see Moses?"

"Do you want to see Moses?"

"Very much; but I shall see him as soon as it is best for us both."

"Definitely; but I will see him as soon as it's best for both of us."

"Mara,—he is come."

"Mara, he has arrived."

The quick blood flushed over the pale, transparent face as a virgin glacier flushes at sunrise, and she looked up eagerly. "Come!"

The quick blood rushed to her pale, translucent face like a virgin glacier blushing at sunrise, and she looked up eagerly. "Come!"

"Yes, he is below-stairs wanting to see you."

"Yeah, he's downstairs wanting to see you."

She seemed about to speak eagerly, and then checked herself and mused a moment. "Poor, poor boy!" she said. "Yes, Sally, let him come at once."[Pg 377]

She looked like she was about to speak excitedly, but then paused and thought for a moment. "Poor, poor boy!" she said. "Yes, Sally, let him come right away."[Pg 377]

There were a few dazzling, dreamy minutes when Moses first held that frail form in his arms, which but for its tender, mortal warmth, might have seemed to him a spirit. It was no spirit, but a woman whose heart he could feel thrilling against his own; who seemed to him like some frail, fluttering bird; but somehow, as he looked into her clear, transparent face, and pressed her thin little hands in his, the conviction stole over him overpoweringly that she was indeed fading away and going from him,—drawn from him by that mysterious, irresistible power against which human strength, even in the strongest, has no chance.

There were a few breathtaking, dreamlike minutes when Moses first held that delicate figure in his arms, which, aside from its warm, human touch, could have seemed like a spirit to him. But it was no spirit; it was a woman whose heart he could feel racing against his own, making her seem like a fragile, fluttering bird. Yet, as he gazed into her clear, transparent face and held her thin little hands in his, an overwhelming realization washed over him: she was truly slipping away from him—pulled away by that mysterious, unstoppable force that no human strength, even in the strongest, can resist.

It is dreadful to a strong man who has felt the influence of his strength,—who has always been ready with a resource for every emergency, and a weapon for every battle,—when first he meets that mighty invisible power by which a beloved life—a life he would give his own blood to save—melts and dissolves like smoke before his eyes.

It’s terrifying for a strong man who has always relied on his strength—who has always had a solution for every problem and a weapon for every fight—when he first encounters that powerful invisible force that makes a cherished life—a life he would sacrifice his own blood to save—fade away like smoke before his eyes.

"Oh, Mara, Mara," he groaned, "this is too dreadful, too cruel; it is cruel."

"Oh, Mara, Mara," he groaned, "this is just too terrible, too harsh; it's so harsh."

"You will think so at first, but not always," she said, soothingly. "You will live to see a joy come out of this sorrow."

"You'll feel that way at first, but not forever," she said gently. "You'll eventually see happiness come from this sadness."

"Never, Mara, never. I cannot believe that kind of talk. I see no love, no mercy in it. Of course, if there is any life after death you will be happy; if there is a heaven you will be there; but can this dim, unsubstantial, cloudy prospect make you happy in leaving me and giving up one's lover? Oh, Mara, you cannot love as I do, or you could not"—

"Never, Mara, never. I can't believe you'd say something like that. There’s no love or mercy in it at all. Of course, if there’s any life after death, you’ll be happy; if there’s a heaven, you’ll be there. But can this vague, uncertain, cloudy idea really make you happy about leaving me and giving up your lover? Oh, Mara, you can’t love me the way I love you, or you wouldn’t say that."

"Moses, I have suffered,—oh, very, very much. It was many months ago when I first thought that I must give everything up,—when I thought that we must part; but Christ helped me; he showed me his wonderful love,—the love that surrounds us all our life, that follows us in all our wanderings, and sustains us in all our weak[Pg 378]nesses,—and then I felt that whatever He wills for us is in love; oh, believe it,—believe it for my sake, for your own."

"Moses, I’ve suffered—oh, so very much. It was several months ago when I first thought I had to give everything up—when I thought we had to separate; but Christ helped me; he showed me his amazing love—the love that surrounds us throughout our lives, that follows us in all our journeys, and supports us in all our weaknesses—and then I realized that whatever He wants for us is out of love; oh, believe it—believe it for my sake, for your own."

"Oh, I cannot, I cannot," said Moses; but as he looked at the bright, pale face, and felt how the tempest of his feelings shook the frail form, he checked himself. "I do wrong to agitate you so, Mara. I will try to be calm."

"Oh, I can't, I can't," said Moses; but as he looked at the bright, pale face and felt how the storm of his emotions shook the fragile form, he held back. "I'm wrong to upset you like this, Mara. I'll try to stay calm."

"And to pray?" she said, beseechingly.

"And to pray?" she asked, pleadingly.

He shut his lips in gloomy silence.

He closed his lips in a heavy silence.

"Promise me," she said.

"Promise me," she insisted.

"I have prayed ever since I got your first letter, and I see it does no good," he answered. "Our prayers cannot alter fate."

"I've been praying ever since I got your first letter, and I see it doesn't help," he replied. "Our prayers can't change fate."

"Fate! there is no fate," she answered; "there is a strong and loving Father who guides the way, though we know it not. We cannot resist His will; but it is all love,—pure, pure love."

"Fate! There's no such thing," she said; "there's a powerful and loving Father who leads us, even when we don't realize it. We can't go against His will; but it’s all love—pure, pure love."

At this moment Sally came softly into the room. A gentle air of womanly authority seemed to express itself in that once gay and giddy face, at which Moses, in the midst of his misery, marveled.

At that moment, Sally quietly entered the room. A subtle air of feminine authority appeared on her once cheerful and carefree face, which Moses, despite his misery, found impressive.

"You must not stay any longer now," she said; "it would be too much for her strength; this is enough for this morning."

"You can’t stay any longer now," she said; "it would be too much for her strength; this is enough for this morning."

Moses turned away, and silently left the room, and Sally said to Mara,—

Moses turned away and quietly left the room, and Sally said to Mara,—

"You must lie down now, and rest."

"You need to lie down now and take a break."

"Sally," said Mara, "promise me one thing."

"Sally," Mara said, "promise me one thing."

"Well, Mara; of course I will."

"Sure, Mara; of course I will."

"Promise to love him and care for him when I am gone; he will be so lonely."

"Promise to love him and take care of him when I'm gone; he'll be so lonely."

"I will do all I can, Mara," said Sally, soothingly; "so now you must take a little wine and lie down. You know what you have so often said, that all will yet be well with him."[Pg 379]

"I'll do everything I can, Mara," Sally said gently. "So now you need to have a little wine and lie down. You know what you've often said, that everything will be okay with him in the end." [Pg 379]

"Oh, I know it, I am sure," said Mara, "but oh, his sorrow shook my very heart."

"Oh, I know it, I’m sure," said Mara, "but his sorrow really shook my heart."

"You must not talk another word about it," said Sally, peremptorily, "Do you know Aunt Roxy is coming to see you? I see her out of the window this very moment."

"You can't say another word about it," Sally said firmly. "Do you know Aunt Roxy is coming to see you? I just saw her out the window right now."

And Sally assisted to lay her friend on the bed, and then, administering a stimulant, she drew down the curtains, and, sitting beside her, began repeating, in a soft monotonous tone, the words of a favorite hymn:—

And Sally helped to lay her friend on the bed, and then, giving her a stimulant, she pulled down the curtains and, sitting beside her, started softly repeating the words of a favorite hymn:—

"The Lord my shepherd is,
I shall be well supplied;
Since He is mine, and I am His,
What can I want beside?"

"The Lord is my shepherd;
I've got everything I need;
Because He is mine, and I am His,
"What else could I want?"

Before she had finished, Mara was asleep.

Before she finished, Mara was asleep.


CHAPTER XLI

CONSOLATION

[Pg 380]Moses came down from the chamber of Mara in a tempest of contending emotions. He had all that constitutional horror of death and the spiritual world which is an attribute of some particularly strong and well-endowed physical natures, and he had all that instinctive resistance of the will which such natures offer to anything which strikes athwart their cherished hopes and plans. To be wrenched suddenly from the sphere of an earthly life and made to confront the unclosed doors of a spiritual world on the behalf of the one dearest to him, was to him a dreary horror uncheered by one filial belief in God. He felt, furthermore, that blind animal irritation which assails one under a sudden blow, whether of the body or of the soul,—an anguish of resistance, a vague blind anger.

[Pg 380]Moses came down from the chamber of Mara in a storm of conflicting emotions. He was overwhelmed by a deep fear of death and the spiritual realm, something that often affects people with strong and robust physical traits. He also felt an instinctive pushback against anything that threatened his hopes and plans. Being abruptly pulled from the world of the living and forced to face the unknown of the spiritual realm for the sake of someone he loved was a bleak nightmare, and he was without any comforting belief in God. Additionally, he experienced a raw, animal-like irritation that hits when someone faces sudden shock, whether physical or emotional—a deep anguish and a vague, blind anger.

Mr. Sewell was sitting in the kitchen,—he had called to see Mara, and waited for the close of the interview above. He rose and offered his hand to Moses, who took it in gloomy silence, without a smile or word.

Mr. Sewell was sitting in the kitchen—he had come to see Mara and was waiting for her meeting to finish upstairs. He stood up and offered his hand to Moses, who took it in silent gloom, without a smile or a word.

"'My son, despise not thou the chastening of the Lord,'" said Mr. Sewell.

"'My son, don't take lightly the discipline of the Lord,'" said Mr. Sewell.

"I cannot bear that sort of thing," said Moses abruptly, and almost fiercely. "I beg your pardon, sir, but it irritates me."

"I can't stand that kind of thing," Moses said abruptly and almost fiercely. "I’m sorry, sir, but it really annoys me."

"Do you not believe that afflictions are sent for our improvement?" said Mr. Sewell.

"Don't you think that challenges are sent to help us grow?" said Mr. Sewell.

"No! how can I? What improvement will there be to me in taking from me the angel who guided me to all good,[Pg 381] and kept me from all evil; the one pure motive and holy influence of my life? If you call this the chastening of a loving father, I must say it looks more to me like the caprice of an evil spirit."

"No! How can I? What good would it do me to take away the angel who led me to everything good,[Pg 381] and kept me away from all evil; the one pure motive and holy influence in my life? If you call this the discipline of a loving father, I have to say it seems more like the whims of an evil spirit to me."

"Had you ever thanked the God of your life for this gift, or felt your dependence on him to keep it? Have you not blindly idolized the creature and forgotten Him who gave it?" said Mr. Sewell.

"Have you ever thanked the God of your life for this gift or recognized your dependence on Him to maintain it? Have you not unwittingly worshipped the creation and forgotten Him who gave it?" said Mr. Sewell.

Moses was silent a moment.

Moses paused for a moment.

"I cannot believe there is a God," he said. "Since this fear came on me I have prayed,—yes, and humbled myself; for I know I have not always been what I ought. I promised if he would grant me this one thing, I would seek him in future; but it did no good,—it's of no use to pray. I would have been good in this way, if she might be spared, and I cannot in any other."

"I can't believe there's a God," he said. "Ever since this fear took over, I've prayed—yeah, and humbled myself; I know I haven't always been who I should be. I promised that if He would grant me this one thing, I would seek Him in the future, but it didn't help—it's pointless to pray. I would have done good in this way if she could be saved, and I can't see any other way."

"My son, our Lord and Master will have no such conditions from us," said Mr. Sewell. "We must submit unconditionally. She has done it, and her peace is as firm as the everlasting hills. God's will is a great current that flows in spite of us; if we go with it, it carries us to endless rest,—if we resist, we only wear our lives out in useless struggles."

"My son, our Lord and Master will not accept such terms from us," Mr. Sewell said. "We must submit without conditions. She has done it, and her peace is as strong as the everlasting hills. God's will is a powerful force that moves forward regardless of us; if we go along with it, it takes us to eternal rest—if we fight against it, we just exhaust ourselves in pointless struggles."

Moses stood a moment in silence, and then, turning away without a word, hurried from the house. He strode along the high rocky bluff, through tangled junipers and pine thickets, till he came above the rocky cove which had been his favorite retreat on so many occasions. He swung himself down over the cliffs into the grotto, where, shut in by the high tide, he felt himself alone. There he had read Mr. Sewell's letter, and dreamed vain dreams of wealth and worldly success, now all to him so void. He felt to-day, as he sat there and watched the ships go by, how utterly nothing all the wealth in the world was, in the loss of that one heart. Unconsciously, even to himself,[Pg 382] sorrow was doing her ennobling ministry within him, melting off in her fierce fires trivial ambitions and low desires, and making him feel the sole worth and value of love. That which in other days had seemed only as one good thing among many now seemed the only thing in life. And he who has learned the paramount value of love has taken one step from an earthly to a spiritual existence.

Moses paused for a moment in silence, then turned away without saying anything and rushed out of the house. He walked along the high rocky bluff, weaving through tangled junipers and pine thickets, until he arrived at the rocky cove that had been his favorite getaway so many times. He climbed down over the cliffs into the grotto, where, isolated by the high tide, he felt completely alone. It was here that he had read Mr. Sewell's letter and indulged in empty dreams of wealth and success, which now felt so meaningless to him. As he sat there watching the ships pass by, he realized how utterly worthless all the riches in the world were in light of losing that one heart. Unconsciously, even to himself,[Pg 382] sorrow was refining him, burning away trivial ambitions and petty desires, and helping him understand the true worth of love. What had once seemed just one good thing among many now appeared to be the only thing in life. And someone who has grasped the supreme value of love has taken a step from a worldly existence to a spiritual one.

But as he lay there on the pebbly shore, hour after hour glided by, his whole past life lived itself over to his eye; he saw a thousand actions, he heard a thousand words, whose beauty and significance never came to him till now. And alas! he saw so many when, on his part, the responsive word that should have been spoken, and the deed that should have been done, was forever wanting. He had all his life carried within him a vague consciousness that he had not been to Mara what he should have been, but he had hoped to make amends for all in that future which lay before him,—that future now, alas! dissolving and fading away like the white cloud-islands which the wind was drifting from the sky. A voice seemed saying in his ears, "Ye know that when he would have inherited a blessing he was rejected; for he found no place for repentance, though he sought it carefully with tears." Something that he had never felt before struck him as appalling in the awful fixedness of all past deeds and words,—the unkind words once said, which no tears could unsay,—the kind ones suppressed, to which no agony of wishfulness could give a past reality. There were particular times in their past history that he remembered so vividly, when he saw her so clearly,—doing some little thing for him, and shyly watching for the word of acknowledgment, which he did not give. Some willful wayward demon withheld him at the moment, and the light on the little wishful face slowly faded. True, all had been a thousand times forgiven and forgotten between them, but it is the ministry of these[Pg 383] great vital hours of sorrow to teach us that nothing in the soul's history ever dies or is forgotten, and when the beloved one lies stricken and ready to pass away, comes the judgment-day of love, and all the dead moments of the past arise and live again.

But as he lay there on the rocky shore, hour after hour passed by, and his entire past life unfolded before him; he saw a thousand actions, he heard a thousand words, whose beauty and meaning he had never realized until now. And sadly, he recognized so many times when he should have spoken the responsive word or acted in a certain way, but it was always missing. Throughout his life, he carried a vague sense that he hadn’t been what he needed to be for Mara, but he had hoped to make it right in the future that lay ahead of him—that future now, sadly, dissolving and fading away like the white cloud islands being blown away by the wind. A voice seemed to echo in his ears, "You know that when he would have received a blessing, he was rejected; for he found no opportunity for repentance, though he sought it earnestly with tears." Something he had never felt before struck him as dreadful in the unchangeable nature of all past actions and words—the unkind words once spoken, which no amount of tears could take back—the kind words left unspoken, which no longing could make real again. There were specific moments in their shared history that he recalled so clearly when he saw her distinctly—doing something small for him, and shyly waiting for an acknowledgment that he never gave. A stubborn impulse held him back in that moment, and the light on her hopeful face slowly dimmed. True, everything had been forgiven and forgotten between them many times, but it’s in these significant moments of sorrow that we learn that nothing in the soul’s journey ever dies or is forgotten. And when the one we love lies helpless and ready to depart, the day of reckoning for love arrives, and all the lost moments of the past rise up and come alive again.

He lay there musing and dreaming till the sun grew low in the afternoon sky, and the tide that isolated the little grotto had gone far out into the ocean, leaving long, low reefs of sunken rocks, all matted and tangled with the yellow hair of the seaweed, with little crystal pools of salt water between. He heard the sound of approaching footsteps, and Captain Kittridge came slowly picking his way round among the shingle and pebbles.

He lay there thinking and daydreaming until the sun dipped low in the afternoon sky, and the tide that had surrounded the small grotto receded far into the ocean, exposing long, low reefs of submerged rocks, all tangled with yellow strands of seaweed, with small clear pools of saltwater in between. He heard footsteps approaching, and Captain Kittridge came slowly making his way through the gravel and pebbles.

"Wal', now, I thought I'd find ye here!" he said: "I kind o' thought I wanted to see ye,—ye see."

"Well, I figured I’d find you here!" he said. "I kind of thought I wanted to see you, you know."

Moses looked up half moody, half astonished, while the Captain seated himself upon a fragment of rock and began brushing the knees of his trousers industriously, until soon the tears rained down from his eyes upon his dry withered hands.

Moses looked up, feeling both moody and surprised, while the Captain sat down on a piece of rock and started to brush the knees of his pants diligently, until tears began to stream down from his eyes onto his dry, withered hands.

"Wal', now ye see, I can't help it, darned if I can; knowed her ever since she's that high. She's done me good, she has. Mis' Kittridge has been pretty faithful. I've had folks here and there talk to me consid'able, but Lord bless you, I never had nothin' go to my heart like this 'ere—Why to look on her there couldn't nobody doubt but what there was somethin' in religion. You never knew half what she did for you, Moses Pennel, you didn't know that the night you was off down to the long cove with Skipper Atkinson, that 'ere blessed child was a-follerin' you, but she was, and she come to me next day to get me to do somethin' for you. That was how your grand'ther and I got ye off to sea so quick, and she such a little thing then; that ar child was the savin' of ye, Moses Pennel."[Pg 384]

"Well, now you see, I can't help it, I really can't; I've known her since she was that small. She's done me good, she has. Mrs. Kittridge has been pretty reliable. I've had people here and there talk to me a lot, but honestly, I never felt anything in my heart like this—if you looked at her, you couldn't doubt there was something real in religion. You never knew half of what she did for you, Moses Pennel, you didn't know that the night you were down at the long cove with Skipper Atkinson, that dear child was following you, but she was, and she came to me the next day to get me to do something for you. That's how your grandmother and I got you off to sea so quickly, and she was just a little thing then; that child was your saving grace, Moses Pennel." [Pg 384]

Moses hid his head in his hands with a sort of groan.

Moses buried his face in his hands with a kind of groan.

"Wal', wal'," said the Captain, "I don't wonder now ye feel so,—I don't see how ye can stan' it no ways—only by thinkin' o' where she's goin' to—Them ar bells in the Celestial City must all be a-ringin' for her,—there'll be joy that side o' the river I reckon, when she gets acrost. If she'd jest leave me a hem o' her garment to get in by, I'd be glad; but she was one o' the sort that was jest made to go to heaven. She only stopped a few days in our world, like the robins when they's goin' south; but there'll be a good many fust and last that'll get into the kingdom for love of her. She never said much to me, but she kind o' drew me. Ef ever I should get in there, it'll be she led me. But come, now, Moses, ye oughtn't fur to be a-settin' here catchin' cold—jest come round to our house and let Sally gin you a warm cup o' tea—do come, now."

"Well, well," said the Captain, "I don’t blame you for feeling that way—I can’t see how you can stand it at all—except by thinking about where she’s going. Those bells in the Celestial City must be ringing for her—all the joy over there when she crosses the river, I bet. If she just left me a piece of her garment to hold onto, I’d be grateful; but she was the kind of person who was just made to go to heaven. She only stayed a few days in our world, like robins when they’re heading south; but there will be many people who will get into the kingdom because of her love. She never said much to me, but she had a way of drawing me in. If I ever make it there, it’ll be she who led me. But come on, Moses, you shouldn’t be sitting here catching a cold—just come over to our house and let Sally make you a warm cup of tea—please, do come."

"Thank you, Captain," said Moses, "but I will go home; I must see her again to-night."

"Thanks, Captain," Moses said, "but I'm going home; I need to see her again tonight."

"Wal', don't let her see you grieve too much, ye know; we must be a little sort o' manly, ye know, 'cause her body's weak, if her heart is strong."

"Well, don’t let her see you upset too much, you know; we have to be a bit manly, you know, because her body is weak, even though her heart is strong."

Now Moses was in a mood of dry, proud, fierce, self-consuming sorrow, least likely to open his heart or seek sympathy from any one; and no friend or acquaintance would probably have dared to intrude on his grief. But there are moods of the mind which cannot be touched or handled by one on an equal level with us that yield at once to the sympathy of something below. A dog who comes with his great honest, sorrowful face and lays his mute paw of inquiry on your knee, will sometimes open floodgates of sober feeling, that have remained closed to every human touch;—the dumb simplicity and ignorance of his sympathy makes it irresistible. In like manner the downright grief of the good-natured old Captain, and the[Pg 385] child-like ignorance with which he ventured upon a ministry of consolation from which a more cultivated person would have shrunk away, were irresistibly touching. Moses grasped the dry, withered hand and said, "Thank you, thank you, Captain Kittridge; you're a true friend."

Now Moses was feeling a dry, proud, intense, and consuming sorrow, completely unlikely to open up or seek sympathy from anyone; and no friend or acquaintance would have dared to intrude on his grief. But there are moments in our minds that can’t be reached or affected by someone at our level, which can be immediately touched by the sympathy of something beneath us. A dog, with its big honest, sorrowful face, who comes and places its silent paw of inquiry on your knee, can sometimes unlock emotions that have stayed shut off from every human touch;—the simple and unassuming nature of its sympathy makes it impossible to resist. Similarly, the straightforward grief of the good-natured old Captain, along with his child-like innocence in offering comfort that a more refined person would have avoided, was deeply moving. Moses took the dry, withered hand and said, "Thank you, thank you, Captain Kittridge; you're a true friend."

"Wal', I be, that's a fact, Moses. Lord bless me, I ain't no great—I ain't nobody—I'm jest an old last-year's mullein-stalk in the Lord's vineyard; but that 'ere blessed little thing allers had a good word for me. She gave me a hymn-book and marked some hymns in it, and read 'em to me herself, and her voice was jest as sweet as the sea of a warm evening. Them hymns come to me kind o' powerful when I'm at my work planin' and sawin'. Mis' Kittridge, she allers talks to me as ef I was a terrible sinner; and I suppose I be, but this 'ere blessed child, she's so kind o' good and innocent, she thinks I'm good; kind o' takes it for granted I'm one o' the Lord's people, ye know. It kind o' makes me want to be, ye know."

"Well, I guess that's true, Moses. God bless me, I'm not anything special—I’m just an old, last-year's mullein stalk in the Lord's vineyard; but that lovely little girl always had a kind word for me. She gave me a hymn book, marked some hymns in it, and read them to me herself, and her voice was as sweet as the sea on a warm evening. Those hymns really resonate with me when I'm working, planing, and sawing. Mrs. Kittridge always talks to me as if I were a terrible sinner; and I suppose I am, but this blessed child, she’s so good and innocent, she thinks I’m good; she kind of assumes I’m one of the Lord’s people, you know. It makes me want to be, you know."

The Captain here produced from his coat-pocket a much worn hymn-book, and showed Moses where leaves were folded down. "Now here's this 'ere," he said; "you get her to say it to you," he added, pointing to the well-known sacred idyl which has refreshed so many hearts:—

The Captain pulled out a well-used hymn book from his coat pocket and showed Moses where the pages were dog-eared. "Now check this out," he said; "have her recite this for you," he added, pointing to the familiar sacred poem that has uplifted so many hearts:—

"There is a land of pure delight
Where saints immortal reign;
Eternal day excludes the night,
And pleasures banish pain.

"There everlasting spring abides,
And never-fading flowers;
Death like a narrow sea divides
This happy land from ours."

"There's a place of pure joy
Where eternal saints reign;
Endless day chases away night,
Happiness drives out pain.

"There, eternal spring remains,
With everlasting flowers;
Death is like a narrow sea that separates
"This joyful land of ours."

"Now that ar beats everything," said the Captain, "and we must kind o' think of it for her, 'cause she's goin' to see all that, and ef it's our loss it's her gain, ye know."

"Now that our music beats everything," said the Captain, "we need to consider it for her, because she's going to see all that, and if it's our loss, it's her gain, you know."

"I know," said Moses; "our grief is selfish."

"I know," Moses said. "Our grief is selfish."

"Jest so. Wal', we're selfish critters, we be," said[Pg 386] the Captain; "but arter all, 't ain't as ef we was heathen and didn't know where they was a-goin' to. We jest ought to be a-lookin' about and tryin' to foller 'em, ye know."

"That's true. Well, we're selfish creatures, we are," said[Pg 386] the Captain; "but after all, it's not like we're uncivilized and have no idea where they're heading. We really should be paying attention and trying to follow them, you know."

"Yes, yes, I do know," said Moses; "it's easy to say, but hard to do."

"Yeah, I get it," said Moses; "it's easy to say, but tough to actually do."

"But law, man, she prays for you; she did years and years ago, when you was a boy and she a girl. You know it tells in the Revelations how the angels has golden vials full of odors which are the prayers of saints. I tell ye Moses, you ought to get into heaven, if no one else does. I expect you are pretty well known among the angels by this time. I tell ye what 'tis, Moses, fellers think it a mighty pretty thing to be a-steppin' high, and a-sayin' they don't believe the Bible, and all that ar, so long as the world goes well. This 'ere old Bible—why it's jest like yer mother,—ye rove and ramble, and cut up round the world without her a spell, and mebbe think the old woman ain't so fashionable as some; but when sickness and sorrow comes, why, there ain't nothin' else to go back to. Is there, now?"

"But listen, man, she prays for you; she did years ago when you were a boy and she was a girl. You know it says in Revelations how the angels have golden vials full of aromas that are the prayers of saints. I tell you, Moses, you ought to get into heaven, if no one else does. I bet you’re pretty well known among the angels by now. I tell you what it is, Moses, guys think it’s really cool to act like they’re superior and say they don’t believe the Bible and all that stuff, as long as everything's going fine. This old Bible—it’s just like your mother—you wander and roam and mess around the world without her for a while, and maybe think she’s not as stylish as some; but when illness and sorrow hit, there’s nothing else to turn back to. Is there?"

Moses did not answer, but he shook the hand of the Captain and turned away.

Moses didn't respond, but he shook the Captain's hand and walked away.


CHAPTER XLII

LAST WORDS

[Pg 387]The setting sun gleamed in at the window of Mara's chamber, tinted with rose and violet hues from a great cloud-castle that lay upon the smooth ocean over against the window. Mara was lying upon the bed, but she raised herself upon her elbow to look out.

[Pg 387]The setting sun shone through the window of Mara's room, painted with shades of pink and purple from a massive cloud formation that sat on the calm ocean outside. Mara was lying on the bed, but she propped herself up on her elbow to look outside.

"Dear Aunt Roxy," she said, "raise me up and put the pillows behind me, so that I can see out—it is splendid."

"Dear Aunt Roxy," she said, "lift me up and put the pillows behind me, so I can see outside—it’s amazing."

Aunt Roxy came and arranged the pillows, and lifted the girl with her long, strong arms, then stooping over her a moment she finished her arrangements by softly smoothing the hair from her forehead with a caressing movement most unlike her usual precise business-like proceedings.

Aunt Roxy came in and adjusted the pillows, then picked up the girl with her long, strong arms. After leaning over her for a moment, she completed her task by gently smoothing the hair away from her forehead in a tender gesture that was completely different from her usual efficient, no-nonsense way of doing things.

"I love you, Aunt Roxy," said Mara, looking up with a smile.

"I love you, Aunt Roxy," Mara said, looking up with a smile.

Aunt Roxy made a strange wry face, which caused her to look harder than usual. She was choked with tenderness, and had only this uncomely way of showing it.

Aunt Roxy made a strange, sarcastic face, which made her look more intense than usual. She was overwhelmed with affection, and this was just her awkward way of expressing it.

"Law now, Mara, I don't see how ye can; I ain't nothin' but an old burdock-bush; love ain't for me."

"Look, Mara, I don't see how you can; I’m nothing but an old burdock bush; love isn’t for me."

"Yes it is too," said Mara, drawing her down and kissing her withered cheek, "and you sha'n't call yourself an old burdock. God sees that you are beautiful, and in the resurrection everybody will see it."

"Yes, it is," said Mara, pulling her down and kissing her withered cheek. "And you won't call yourself an old burdock. God sees that you are beautiful, and in the resurrection, everyone will see it."

"I was always homely as an owl," said Miss Roxy, unconsciously speaking out what had lain like a stone at the bottom of even her sensible heart. "I always had sense to know it, and knew my sphere. Homely folks would like[Pg 388] to say pretty things, and to have pretty things said to them, but they never do. I made up my mind pretty early that my part in the vineyard was to have hard work and no posies."

"I've always felt plain as an owl," said Miss Roxy, unknowingly expressing what had weighed like a stone in her sensible heart. "I always had the sense to know it, and I recognized my place. Plain people would love to hear nice things and for nice things to be said about them, but it just doesn't happen. I decided pretty early on that my role in life was to work hard and not have any flowers."

"Well, you will have all the more in heaven; I love you dearly, and I like your looks, too. You look kind and true and good, and that's beauty in the country where we are going."

"Well, you will have even more in heaven; I love you a lot, and I think you look great too. You seem kind, genuine, and good, and that's what beauty means in the place we're going."

Miss Roxy sprang up quickly from the bed, and turning her back began to arrange the bottles on the table with great zeal.

Miss Roxy jumped up quickly from the bed and, turning her back, started organizing the bottles on the table with a lot of enthusiasm.

"Has Moses come in yet?" said Mara.

"Has Moses arrived yet?" Mara asked.

"No, there ain't nobody seen a thing of him since he went out this morning."

"No, nobody has seen him at all since he went out this morning."

"Poor boy!" said Mara, "it is too hard upon him. Aunt Roxy, please pick some roses off the bush from under the window and put in the vases; let's have the room as sweet and cheerful as we can. I hope God will let me live long enough to comfort him. It is not so very terrible, if one would only think so, to cross that river. All looks so bright to me now that I have forgotten how sorrow seemed. Poor Moses! he will have a hard struggle, but he will get the victory, too. I am very weak to-night, but to-morrow I shall feel better, and I shall sit up, and perhaps I can paint a little on that flower I was doing for him. We will not have things look sickly or deathly. There, Aunt Roxy, he has come in; I hear his step."

"Poor boy!" said Mara, "this is so hard on him. Aunt Roxy, can you please pick some roses from the bush under the window and put them in the vases? Let's make the room as sweet and cheerful as we can. I hope God lets me live long enough to comfort him. It's not all that terrible, if you think about it, to cross that river. Everything looks so bright to me now that I've forgotten how sorrowful it felt. Poor Moses! He'll have a tough time, but he will succeed too. I'm really weak tonight, but tomorrow I'll feel better, and I can sit up, and maybe I can paint a little on that flower I was working on for him. We won’t let things look sickly or morbid. Look, Aunt Roxy, he's come in; I hear his footsteps."

"I didn't hear it," said Miss Roxy, surprised at the acute senses which sickness had etherealized to an almost spirit-like intensity. "Shall I call him?"

"I didn't hear it," Miss Roxy said, surprised by how sharp her senses had become in her illness, almost to a ghostly level. "Should I call him?"

"Yes, do," said Mara. "He can sit with me a little while to-night."

"Yes, go ahead," said Mara. "He can sit with me for a bit tonight."

The light in the room was a strange dusky mingling of gold and gloom, when Moses stole softly in. The great cloud-castle that a little while since had glowed like living[Pg 389] gold from turret and battlement, now dim, changed for the most part to a sombre gray, enlivened with a dull glow of crimson; but there was still a golden light where the sun had sunk into the sea. Moses saw the little thin hand stretched out to him.

The light in the room was an odd mix of gold and shadows when Moses quietly entered. The massive cloud-castle that had recently shone like living gold from its towers and battlements was now mostly a gloomy gray, lit only by a dull red glow; however, there was still a golden light where the sun had dipped into the sea. Moses noticed the small, thin hand reaching out to him.

"Sit down," she said; "it has been such a beautiful sunset. Did you notice it?"

"Sit down," she said. "The sunset was so beautiful. Did you see it?"

He sat down by the bed, leaning his forehead on his hand, but saying nothing.

He sat down on the bed, resting his forehead on his hand, but said nothing.

She drew her fingers through his dark hair. "I am so glad to see you," she said. "It is such a comfort to me that you have come; and I hope it will be to you. You know I shall be better to-morrow than I am to-night, and I hope we shall have some pleasant days together yet. We mustn't reject what little we may have, because it cannot be more."

She ran her fingers through his dark hair. "I'm so glad to see you," she said. "It really comforts me that you’ve come; I hope it comforts you too. You know I’ll feel better tomorrow than I do tonight, and I hope we’ll still have some enjoyable days together. We shouldn't turn away from what little we have, just because it can’t be more."

"Oh, Mara," said Moses, "I would give my life, if I could take back the past. I have never been worthy of you; never knew your worth; never made you happy. You always lived for me, and I lived for myself. I deserve to lose you, but it is none the less bitter."

“Oh, Mara,” said Moses, “I would give my life if I could change the past. I have never been worthy of you; I never realized your value; I never made you happy. You always lived for me, while I lived for myself. I deserve to lose you, but it still hurts.”

"Don't say lose. Why must you? I cannot think of losing you. I know I shall not. God has given you to me. You will come to me and be mine at last. I feel sure of it."

"Don't say lose. Why would you? I can’t imagine losing you. I know I won’t. God has given you to me. You will come to me and be mine at last. I'm sure of it."

"You don't know me," said Moses.

"You don't know me," Moses said.

"Christ does, though," she said; "and He has promised to care for you. Yes, you will live to see many flowers grow out of my grave. You cannot think so now; but it will be so—believe me."

"Christ does, though," she said; "and He has promised to take care of you. Yes, you will live to see many flowers grow from my grave. You can’t see it now; but it will happen—trust me."

"Mara," said Moses, "I never lived through such a day as this. It seems as if every moment of my life had been passing before me, and every moment of yours. I have seen how true and loving in thought and word and deed you have been, and I have been doing nothing but [Pg 390]take. You have given love as the skies give rain, and I have drunk it up like the hot dusty earth."

"Mara," Moses said, "I've never experienced a day like this. It feels like every moment of my life has been flashing before me, and every moment of yours too. I've seen how genuine and loving you've been in your thoughts, words, and actions, while all I've done is [Pg 390] take. You've shared your love as freely as the sky gives rain, and I've soaked it up like the parched, dusty ground."

Mara knew in her own heart that this was all true, and she was too real to use any of the terms of affected humiliation which many think a kind of spiritual court language. She looked at him and answered, "Moses, I always knew I loved most. It was my nature; God gave it to me, and it was a gift for which I give him thanks—not a merit. I knew you had a larger, wider nature than mine,—a wider sphere to live in, and that you could not live in your heart as I did. Mine was all thought and feeling, and the narrow little duties of this little home. Yours went all round the world."

Mara knew deep down that all of this was true, and she was too genuine to use any of the pretentious terms of false humiliation that many consider a sort of spiritual court language. She looked at him and replied, "Moses, I always knew I loved the most. It was in my nature; God gave it to me, and I’m grateful for it—not as something I earned. I knew you had a larger, broader nature than mine—a bigger world to navigate, and that you couldn't live in your heart the way I did. Mine was all about thought and feeling, and the small, everyday tasks of this little home. Yours reached all around the world."

"But, oh Mara—oh, my angel! to think I should lose you when I am just beginning to know your worth. I always had a sort of superstitious feeling,—a sacred presentiment about you,—that my spiritual life, if ever I had any, would come through you. It seemed if there ever was such a thing as God's providence, which some folks believe in, it was in leading me to you, and giving you to me. And now, to have all lashed—all destroyed—It makes me feel as if all was blind chance; no guiding God; for if he wanted me to be good, he would spare you."

"But, oh Mara—oh, my angel! To think I might lose you just as I’m starting to understand how precious you are. I’ve always had this superstitious feeling—a deep intuition about you—that my spiritual life, if I ever had one, would come through you. It feels like if there’s such a thing as God’s providence, which some people believe in, it was guiding me to you and giving you to me. And now, to have it all taken away—destroyed—It makes me feel like everything is just random chance; no guiding God. Because if He wanted me to be good, He would have kept you safe."

Mara lay with her large eyes fixed on the now faded sky. The dusky shadows had dropped like a black crape veil around her pale face. In a few moments she repeated to herself, as if she were musing upon them, those mysterious words of Him who liveth and was dead, "Except a corn of wheat fall into the ground and die, it abideth alone; if it die, it bringeth forth much fruit."

Mara lay with her big eyes fixed on the now faded sky. The dark shadows had dropped like a black veil around her pale face. In a few moments, she repeated to herself, as if she were thinking about them, those mysterious words of Him who lives and was dead, "Unless a grain of wheat falls into the ground and dies, it remains alone; but if it dies, it produces much fruit."

"Moses," she said, "for all I know you have loved me dearly, yet I have felt that in all that was deepest and dearest to me, I was alone. You did not come near to me, nor touch me where I feel most deeply. If I had lived to be your wife, I cannot say but this distance in our spiritual[Pg 391] nature might have widened. You know, what we live with we get used to; it grows an old story. Your love to me might have grown old and worn out. If we lived together in the commonplace toils of life, you would see only a poor threadbare wife. I might have lost what little charm I ever had for you; but I feel that if I die, this will not be. There is something sacred and beautiful in death; and I may have more power over you, when I seem to be gone, than I should have had living."

"Moses," she said, "for all I know, you've loved me deeply, yet I’ve felt that in everything that matters most to me, I've been alone. You didn't come close to me or touch me where it counts. If I had lived to be your wife, I can’t say that this distance in our spiritual connection wouldn’t have grown. You know, we get used to what we live with; it becomes an old story. Your love for me might have become old and worn out. If we lived together in the everyday struggles of life, you would only see a tired, worn-out wife. I might have lost whatever little charm I ever had for you; but I believe that if I die, that won’t happen. There is something sacred and beautiful about death; and I might have more influence over you when I seem to be gone than I would have had while living."

"Oh, Mara, Mara, don't say that."

"Oh, Mara, Mara, please don’t say that."

"Dear Moses, it is so. Think how many lovers marry, and how few lovers are left in middle life; and how few love and reverence living friends as they do the dead. There are only a very few to whom it is given to do that."

"Dear Moses, it's true. Think about how many lovers get married, and how few lovers are still in love by middle age; and how few love and respect their living friends like they do those who have passed. Only a very small number can truly do that."

Something in the heart of Moses told him that this was true. In this one day—the sacred revealing light of approaching death—he had seen more of the real spiritual beauty and significance of Mara's life than in years before, and felt upspringing in his heart, from the deep pathetic influence of the approaching spiritual world a new and stronger power of loving. It may be that it is not merely a perception of love that we were not aware of before, that wakes up when we approach the solemn shadows with a friend. It may be that the soul has compressed and unconscious powers which are stirred and wrought upon as it looks over the borders into its future home,—its loves and its longings so swell and beat, that they astonish itself. We are greater than we know, and dimly feel it with every approach to the great hereafter. "It doth not yet appear what we shall be."

Something in Moses's heart told him that this was true. In this one day—the sacred light of impending death—he had seen more of the real spiritual beauty and significance of Mara's life than in all the years before. He felt a new and stronger power of love rising in his heart, influenced by the deep, poignant presence of the approaching spiritual world. It may be that it’s not just a newfound awareness of love that awakens when we face the solemn shadows with a friend, but that the soul has hidden and unconscious strengths that are stirred as it peers into its future home. Its loves and longings swell and beat so strongly that they surprise even itself. We are more significant than we know, and we feel that dimly with each step toward the great beyond. "It does not yet appear what we shall be."


"Now, I'll tell you what 'tis," said Aunt Roxy, opening the door, "all the strength this 'ere girl spends a-talkin' to-night, will be so much taken out o' the whole cloth to-morrow."

"Now, I'll tell you what it is," said Aunt Roxy, opening the door, "all the energy this girl spends talking tonight will be a lot taken out of the whole fabric tomorrow."

[Pg 392]Moses started up. "I ought to have thought of that, Mara."

[Pg 392]Moses got up. "I should have thought of that, Mara."

"Ye see," said Miss Roxy, "she's been through a good deal to-day, and she must be got to sleep at some rate or other to-night. 'Lord, if he sleep he shall do well,' the Bible says, and it's one of my best nussin' maxims."

"Listen," said Miss Roxy, "she's been through a lot today, and we need to get her to sleep somehow tonight. 'Lord, if he sleeps, he will do well,' the Bible says, and it's one of my best nursing rules."

"And a good one, too, Aunt Roxy," said Mara. "Good-night, dear boy; you see we must all mind Aunt Roxy."

"And a good one, too, Aunt Roxy," said Mara. "Good night, dear boy; you see we all have to listen to Aunt Roxy."

Moses bent down and kissed her, and felt her arms around his neck.

Moses leaned down and kissed her, feeling her arms wrap around his neck.

"Let not your heart be troubled," she whispered. In spite of himself Moses felt the storm that had risen in his bosom that morning soothed by the gentle influences which Mara breathed upon it. There is a sympathetic power in all states of mind, and they who have reached the deep secret of eternal rest have a strange power of imparting calm to others.

"Don’t let your heart be troubled," she whispered. Despite himself, Moses felt the storm that had risen in his chest that morning calm down from the gentle influence Mara had on him. There's a shared power in all emotional states, and those who have discovered the deep secret of lasting peace have a unique ability to bring calm to others.

It was in the very crisis of the battle that Christ said to his disciples, "My peace I give unto you," and they that are made one with him acquire like precious power of shedding round them repose, as evening flowers shed odors. Moses went to his pillow sorrowful and heart-stricken, but bitter or despairing he could not be with the consciousness of that present angel in the house.

It was during the height of the battle that Christ told his disciples, "My peace I give to you," and those who are united with him gain the same precious ability to spread calm around them, just like evening flowers release their fragrance. Moses went to bed feeling sad and heartbroken, but even in his bitterness or despair, he couldn't feel hopeless knowing that the angel was present in the house.


CHAPTER XLIII

THE PEARL

[Pg 393]The next morning rose calm and bright with that wonderful and mystical stillness and serenity which glorify autumn days. It was impossible that such skies could smile and such gentle airs blow the sea into one great waving floor of sparkling sapphires without bringing cheerfulness to human hearts. You must be very despairing indeed, when Nature is doing her best, to look her in the face sullen and defiant. So long as there is a drop of good in your cup, a penny in your exchequer of happiness, a bright day reminds you to look at it, and feel that all is not gone yet.

[Pg 393]The next morning was calm and bright, filled with that beautiful and magical stillness that makes autumn days so special. It was hard to imagine such lovely skies and gentle breezes blowing over the sea, creating a vast, shimmering surface of sparkling sapphires, without lifting people's spirits. You must be incredibly downhearted to face Nature, when she's at her best, in a sulky and rebellious way. As long as there's even a little good left in your life, a single penny in your happiness bank, a bright day reminds you to notice it and realize that not everything has been lost.

So felt Moses when he stood in the door of the brown house, while Mrs. Pennel was clinking plates and spoons as she set the breakfast-table, and Zephaniah Pennel in his shirt-sleeves was washing in the back-room, while Miss Roxy came downstairs in a business-like fashion, bringing sundry bowls, plates, dishes, and mysterious pitchers from the sick-room.

So felt Moses when he stood in the doorway of the brown house, while Mrs. Pennel was clinking plates and spoons as she set the breakfast table, and Zephaniah Pennel in his shirt sleeves was washing up in the back room, while Miss Roxy came downstairs in a no-nonsense way, bringing various bowls, plates, dishes, and some mysterious pitchers from the sick room.

"Well, Aunt Roxy, you ain't one that lets the grass grow under your feet," said Mrs. Pennel. "How is the dear child, this morning?"

"Well, Aunt Roxy, you're not someone who lets the grass grow under your feet," said Mrs. Pennel. "How is the dear child this morning?"

"Well, she had a better night than one could have expected," said Miss Roxy, "and by the time she's had her breakfast, she expects to sit up a little and see her friends." Miss Roxy said this in a cheerful tone, looking encouragingly at Moses, whom she began to pity and patronize, now she saw how real was his affliction.

"Well, she had a better night than anyone could have expected," said Miss Roxy, "and by the time she's had her breakfast, she expects to sit up a bit and see her friends." Miss Roxy said this in a cheerful tone, looking encouragingly at Moses, whom she began to pity and condescend to, now that she saw how real his suffering was.

After breakfast Moses went to see her; she was sitting[Pg 394] up in her white dressing-gown, looking so thin and poorly, and everything in the room was fragrant with the spicy smell of the monthly roses, whose late buds and blossoms Miss Roxy had gathered for the vases. She seemed so natural, so calm and cheerful, so interested in all that went on around her, that one almost forgot that the time of her stay must be so short. She called Moses to come and look at her drawings, and paintings of flowers and birds,—full of reminders they were of old times,—and then she would have her pencils and colors, and work a little on a bunch of red rock-columbine, that she had begun to do for him; and she chatted of all the old familiar places where flowers grew, and of the old talks they had had there, till Moses quite forgot himself; forgot that he was in a sick room, till Aunt Roxy, warned by the deepening color on Mara's cheeks, interposed her "nussing" authority, that she must do no more that day.

After breakfast, Moses went to see her; she was sitting[Pg 394] up in her white bathrobe, looking so frail and unwell, and everything in the room was filled with the fragrant, spicy scent of the monthly roses, whose late buds and blooms Miss Roxy had gathered for the vases. She seemed so natural, so calm and cheerful, so engaged in everything happening around her, that it was easy to forget that her time was running out. She called Moses over to look at her drawings and paintings of flowers and birds—each piece reminding them of old times—and then she would take out her pencils and colors, working a bit on a bunch of red rock-columbine that she had started for him. She reminisced about all the familiar places where flowers grew and the old conversations they had there, until Moses completely lost track of himself; he forgot he was in a sick room, until Aunt Roxy, noticing the color deepening in Mara's cheeks, asserted her "nursing" authority and told her she couldn't do any more that day.

Then Moses laid her down, and arranged her pillows so that she could look out on the sea, and sat and read to her till it was time for her afternoon nap; and when the evening shadows drew on, he marveled with himself how the day had gone.

Then Moses laid her down and adjusted her pillows so she could see the sea. He sat and read to her until it was time for her afternoon nap. As the evening shadows began to fall, he wondered to himself how the day had passed.

Many such there were, all that pleasant month of September, and he was with her all the time, watching her wants and doing her bidding,—reading over and over with a softened modulation her favorite hymns and chapters, arranging her flowers, and bringing her home wild bouquets from all her favorite wood-haunts, which made her sick-room seem like some sylvan bower. Sally Kittridge was there too, almost every day, with always some friendly offering or some helpful deed of kindness, and sometimes they two together would keep guard over the invalid while Miss Roxy went home to attend to some of her own more peculiar concerns. Mara seemed to rule all around her with calm sweetness and wisdom, speaking unconsciously[Pg 395] only the speech of heaven, talking of spiritual things, not in an excited rapture or wild ecstasy, but with the sober certainty of waking bliss. She seemed like one of the sweet friendly angels one reads of in the Old Testament, so lovingly companionable, walking and talking, eating and drinking, with mortals, yet ready at any unknown moment to ascend with the flame of some sacrifice and be gone. There are those (a few at least) whose blessing it has been to have kept for many days, in bonds of earthly fellowship, a perfected spirit in whom the work of purifying love was wholly done, who lived in calm victory over sin and sorrow and death, ready at any moment to be called to the final mystery of joy.

There were many like that during the pleasant month of September, and he was with her the entire time, attentive to her needs and following her requests—reading her favorite hymns and chapters repeatedly with a gentle tone, arranging her flowers, and bringing her home wild bouquets from her favorite wooded spots, making her sick room feel like a tranquil garden. Sally Kittridge was there almost every day too, always bringing some friendly gift or performing acts of kindness, and sometimes the two of them would watch over the patient while Miss Roxy went home to tend to her own matters. Mara seemed to have a calm sweetness and wisdom that surrounded her, unconsciously speaking only the language of heaven, discussing spiritual things, not in excited rapture or wild ecstasy, but with the grounded certainty of waking bliss. She resembled one of the kind angels from the Old Testament, so warm and friendly, walking and talking, eating and drinking with people, yet always ready at any moment to rise with the flame of some sacrifice and leave. There are those (at least a few) who have had the blessing of keeping, for many days, in bonds of earthly friendship, a perfected spirit in whom the work of purifying love was fully complete, who lived in calm victory over sin, sorrow, and death, always prepared to be called to the final mystery of joy.

Yet it must come at last, the moment when heaven claims its own, and it came at last in the cottage on Orr's Island. There came a day when the room so sacredly cheerful was hushed to a breathless stillness; the bed was then all snowy white, and that soft still sealed face, the parted waves of golden hair, the little hands folded over the white robe, all had a sacred and wonderful calm, a rapture of repose that seemed to say "it is done."

Yet it must finally arrive, the moment when heaven takes back what belongs to it, and it ultimately came in the cottage on Orr's Island. There came a day when the room, once so warmly cheerful, fell into a breathless silence; the bed was completely snowy white, and that softly peaceful face, the strands of golden hair gently parted, the little hands folded over the white robe, all had a sacred and beautiful calm, a blissful stillness that seemed to say, "it is done."

They who looked on her wondered; it was a look that sunk deep into every heart; it hushed down the common cant of those who, according to country custom, went to stare blindly at the great mystery of death,—for all that came out of that chamber smote upon their breasts and went away in silence, revolving strangely whence might come that unearthly beauty, that celestial joy.

They who looked at her were amazed; it was a gaze that penetrated deep into every heart; it silenced the usual chatter of those who, following local tradition, came to stare mindlessly at the great mystery of death—because everything that came out of that room struck them profoundly and left them in silence, strangely contemplating where that otherworldly beauty and celestial joy could possibly come from.

Once more, in that very room where James and Naomi Lincoln had lain side by side in their coffins, sleeping restfully, there was laid another form, shrouded and coffined, but with such a fairness and tender purity, such a mysterious fullness of joy in its expression, that it seemed more natural to speak of that rest as some higher form of life than of death.[Pg 396]

Once again, in that same room where James and Naomi Lincoln had rested side by side in their coffins, peacefully sleeping, there was another body laid out, covered and in a coffin, but with such beauty and gentle innocence, such a mysterious joy in its expression, that it felt more fitting to think of that rest as a higher form of life rather than death.[Pg 396]

Once more were gathered the neighborhood; all the faces known in this history shone out in one solemn picture, of which that sweet restful form was the centre. Zephaniah Pennel and Mary his wife, Moses and Sally, the dry form of Captain Kittridge and the solemn face of his wife, Aunt Roxy and Aunt Ruey, Miss Emily and Mr. Sewell; but their faces all wore a tender brightness, such as we see falling like a thin celestial veil over all the faces in an old Florentine painting. The room was full of sweet memories, of words of cheer, words of assurance, words of triumph, and the mysterious brightness of that young face forbade them to weep. Solemnly Mr. Sewell read,—

Once again, the neighborhood gathered; all the familiar faces in this story shone in a single solemn picture, with that sweet, restful figure at the center. Zephaniah Pennel and his wife Mary, Moses and Sally, the serious form of Captain Kittridge and the solemn face of his wife, Aunt Roxy and Aunt Ruey, Miss Emily and Mr. Sewell; but their faces all had a gentle glow, like a delicate celestial veil falling over all the faces in an old Florentine painting. The room was filled with sweet memories, words of encouragement, words of comfort, words of triumph, and the radiant light of that young face prevented them from crying. Mr. Sewell solemnly read,—

"He will swallow up death in victory; and the Lord God will wipe away tears from off all faces; and the rebuke of his people shall he take away from off all the earth; for the Lord hath spoken it. And it shall be said in that day, Lo this is our God; we have waited for him, and he will save us; this is the Lord; we have waited for him, we will be glad and rejoice in his salvation."

"He will defeat death forever, and the Lord God will dry our tears; He will take away the shame of His people from the whole earth, for the Lord has said so. On that day, people will say, 'This is our God; we have been waiting for Him, and He will save us; this is the Lord; we have been waiting for Him, and we will be joyful and celebrate His salvation.'"

Then the prayer trembled up to heaven with thanksgiving, for the early entrance of that fair young saint into glory, and then the same old funeral hymn, with its mournful triumph:—

Then the prayer soared up to heaven with gratitude, for the early arrival of that beautiful young saint into glory, and then the same old funeral hymn, with its sad triumph:—

"Why should we mourn departed friends,
Or shake at death's alarms,
'Tis but the voice that Jesus sends
To call them to his arms."

"Why should we grieve for friends we've lost,
Or be frightened by death's warnings,
It's just the message that Jesus sends
"To bring them into his embrace."

Then in a few words Mr. Sewell reminded them how that hymn had been sung in this room so many years ago, when that frail, fluttering orphan soul had been baptized into the love and care of Jesus, and how her whole life, passing before them in its simplicity and beauty, had come to so holy and beautiful a close; and when, pointing to the calm sleeping face he asked, "Would we call her back?" there was not a heart at that moment that dared[Pg 397] answer, Yes. Even he that should have been her bridegroom could not at that moment have unsealed the holy charm, and so they bore her away, and laid the calm smiling face beneath the soil, by the side of poor Dolores.

Then, in just a few words, Mr. Sewell reminded them how that hymn had been sung in this room so many years ago when that delicate, fluttering orphan had been baptized into the love and care of Jesus. He reflected on how her entire life, with its simplicity and beauty, had come to such a holy and beautiful end. When he pointed to her calm, sleeping face and asked, "Would we bring her back?" not a single heart dared to answer, Yes. Even the one who should have been her fiancé couldn't have broken the sacred spell at that moment. So, they carried her away and laid her calm, smiling face beneath the soil, next to poor Dolores.


"I had a beautiful dream last night," said Zephaniah Pennel, the next morning after the funeral, as he opened his Bible to conduct family worship.

"I had a beautiful dream last night," said Zephaniah Pennel the morning after the funeral as he opened his Bible to lead the family in worship.

"What was it?" said Miss Roxy.

"What was it?" Miss Roxy asked.

"Well, ye see, I thought I was out a-walkin' up and down, and lookin' and lookin' for something that I'd lost. What it was I couldn't quite make out, but my heart felt heavy as if it would break, and I was lookin' all up and down the sands by the seashore, and somebody said I was like the merchantman, seeking goodly pearls. I said I had lost my pearl—my pearl of great price—and then I looked up, and far off on the beach, shining softly on the wet sands, lay my pearl. I thought it was Mara, but it seemed a great pearl with a soft moonlight on it; and I was running for it when some one said 'hush,' and I looked and I saw Him a-coming—Jesus of Nazareth, jist as he walked by the sea of Galilee. It was all dark night around Him, but I could see Him by the light that came from his face, and the long hair was hanging down on his shoulders. He came and took up my pearl and put it on his forehead, and it shone out like a star, and shone into my heart, and I felt happy; and he looked at me steadily, and rose and rose in the air, and melted in the clouds, and I awoke so happy, and so calm!"

"Well, you see, I thought I was walking up and down, searching and searching for something I had lost. I couldn't quite figure out what it was, but my heart felt heavy as if it would break, and I was looking all over the sands by the seashore. Someone said I was like a merchant searching for fine pearls. I said I had lost my pearl—my pearl of great price—and then I looked up, and far off on the beach, shining softly on the wet sands, lay my pearl. I thought it was Mara, but it looked like a great pearl illuminated by soft moonlight; I was running toward it when someone said 'hush,' and I looked and saw Him coming—Jesus of Nazareth, just as he walked by the Sea of Galilee. It was all dark around Him, but I could see Him by the light coming from his face, and his long hair was hanging down on his shoulders. He came and took my pearl and placed it on his forehead, and it shone like a star, lighting up my heart, and I felt happy; and he looked at me steadily, rose higher and higher into the air, and melted into the clouds. I woke up feeling so happy and so calm!"


CHAPTER XLIV

FOUR YEARS AFTER

[Pg 398]It was a splendid evening in July, and the sky was filled high with gorgeous tabernacles of purple and gold, the remains of a grand thunder-shower which had freshened the air and set a separate jewel on every needle leaf of the old pines.

[Pg 398]It was a beautiful evening in July, and the sky was adorned with stunning shades of purple and gold, remnants of a powerful thunderstorm that had cleared the air and placed a sparkling drop on every needle of the old pines.

Four years had passed since the fair Pearl of Orr's Island had been laid beneath the gentle soil, which every year sent monthly tributes of flowers to adorn her rest, great blue violets, and starry flocks of ethereal eye-brights in spring, and fringy asters, and goldenrod in autumn. In those days, the tender sentiment which now makes the burial-place a cultivated garden was excluded by the rigid spiritualism of the Puritan life, which, ever jealous of that which concerned the body, lest it should claim what belonged to the immortal alone, had frowned on all watching of graves, as an earthward tendency, and enjoined the flight of faith with the spirit, rather than the yearning for its cast-off garments.

Four years had gone by since the lovely Pearl of Orr's Island was laid to rest beneath the soft soil, which each year offered monthly gifts of flowers to honor her memory—big blue violets, delicate clusters of starry eye-brights in the spring, and fringed asters along with goldenrod in the fall. Back then, the gentle feelings that now turn the grave into a tended garden were absent due to the strict spiritualism of Puritan life. This lifestyle, always wary of anything related to the body—afraid it might take away from what was meant for the immortal—looked down on tending graves as a sign of being too earthbound. It promoted the idea of faith soaring with the spirit, rather than longing for its discarded earthly shell.

But Sally Kittridge, being lonely, found something in her heart which could only be comforted by visits to that grave. So she had planted there roses and trailing myrtle, and tended and watered them; a proceeding which was much commented on Sunday noons, when people were eating their dinners and discussing their neighbors.

But Sally Kittridge, feeling lonely, discovered something in her heart that could only be eased by visiting that grave. So she planted roses and trailing myrtle there, and took care of them; this activity was often talked about on Sunday afternoons when people were having their dinners and chatting about their neighbors.

It is possible good Mrs. Kittridge might have been much scandalized by it, had she been in a condition to think on the matter at all; but a very short time after the[Pg 399] funeral she was seized with a paralytic shock, which left her for a while as helpless as an infant; and then she sank away into the grave, leaving Sally the sole care of the old Captain.

It’s possible that good Mrs. Kittridge would have been quite shocked by it, if she had been able to think about it at all; but shortly after the[Pg 399] funeral, she suffered a stroke that left her as helpless as a baby for a while; and then she passed away, leaving Sally in charge of the old Captain.

A cheerful home she made, too, for his old age, adorning the house with many little tasteful fancies unknown in her mother's days; reading the Bible to him and singing Mara's favorite hymns, with a voice as sweet as the spring blue-bird. The spirit of the departed friend seemed to hallow the dwelling where these two worshiped her memory, in simple-hearted love. Her paintings, framed in quaint woodland frames of moss and pine-cones by Sally's own ingenuity, adorned the walls. Her books were on the table, and among them many that she had given to Moses.

She created a happy home for him in his old age, decorating the house with many little tasteful details that weren't known in her mother's time; reading the Bible to him and singing Mara's favorite hymns, with a voice as sweet as a spring bluebird. The spirit of their lost friend seemed to bless the place where they both honored her memory with genuine love. Her paintings, framed in charming woodland frames made of moss and pine cones by Sally's own creativity, decorated the walls. Her books were on the table, including many that she had given to Moses.

"I am going to be a wanderer for many years," he said in parting, "keep these for me until I come back."

"I'll be a wanderer for many years," he said as he left, "hold onto these for me until I return."

And so from time to time passed long letters between the two friends,—each telling to the other the same story,—that they were lonely, and that their hearts yearned for the communion of one who could no longer be manifest to the senses. And each spoke to the other of a world of hopes and memories buried with her, "Which," each so constantly said, "no one could understand but you." Each, too, was firm in the faith that buried love must have no earthly resurrection. Every letter strenuously insisted that they should call each other brother and sister, and under cover of those names the letters grew longer and more frequent, and with every chance opportunity came presents from the absent brother, which made the little old cottage quaintly suggestive with smell of spice and sandal-wood.

And so, from time to time, long letters passed between the two friends, each sharing the same story—that they felt lonely and their hearts craved the connection with someone who could no longer be sensed. They spoke to each other about a world of hopes and memories buried with her, "Which," they often said, "no one could understand but you." Each was also convinced that their lost love shouldn’t have any earthly revival. Every letter strongly urged them to call each other brother and sister, and under those names, the letters became longer and more frequent, and with every chance they got, there were gifts from the absent brother, which made the little old cottage inviting with the scent of spices and sandalwood.

But, as we said, this is a glorious July evening,—and you may discern two figures picking their way over those low sunken rocks, yellowed with seaweed, of which we have often spoken. They are Moses and Sally going on[Pg 400] an evening walk to that favorite grotto retreat, which has so often been spoken of in the course of this history.

But, as we mentioned, this is a beautiful July evening, and you can see two people carefully making their way over the low, sunken rocks covered with seaweed that we've often talked about. They are Moses and Sally, enjoying an evening stroll to their favorite grotto, which has been mentioned many times in this story.

Moses has come home from long wanderings. It is four years since they parted, and now they meet and have looked into each other's eyes, not as of old, when they met in the first giddy flush of youth, but as fully developed man and woman. Moses and Sally had just risen from the tea-table, where she had presided with a thoughtful housewifery gravity, just pleasantly dashed with quaint streaks of her old merry willfulness, while the old Captain, warmed up like a rheumatic grasshopper in a fine autumn day, chirruped feebly, and told some of his old stories, which now he told every day, forgetting that they had ever been heard before. Somehow all three had been very happy; the more so, from a shadowy sense of some sympathizing presence which was rejoicing to see them together again, and which, stealing soft-footed and noiseless everywhere, touched and lighted up every old familiar object with sweet memories.

Moses has come home after a long time away. It's been four years since they last saw each other, and now they look into each other's eyes not as young lovers, but as fully grown man and woman. Moses and Sally had just finished tea, where she had managed everything with a serious housewife's demeanor, mixed in with hints of her old playful spirit. Meanwhile, the old Captain, warmed up like a stiff grasshopper on a nice autumn day, chirped softly and shared some of his familiar stories, forgetting that he told them every day now. Somehow, all three felt very happy, especially with a faint sense of a comforting presence that seemed to joyfully watch them reunite, quietly bringing warmth and fond memories to every familiar object around them.

And so they had gone out together to walk; to walk towards the grotto where Sally had caused a seat to be made, and where she declared she had passed hours and hours, knitting, sewing, or reading.

And so they had gone out together to walk; to walk towards the cave where Sally had arranged for a seat to be made, and where she claimed she had spent hours and hours knitting, sewing, or reading.

"Sally," said Moses, "do you know I am tired of wandering? I am coming home now. I begin to want a home of my own." This he said as they sat together on the rustic seat and looked off on the blue sea.

"Sally," Moses said, "do you know I'm tired of wandering? I'm coming home now. I really want a place of my own." He said this as they sat together on the wooden bench, gazing out at the blue sea.

"Yes, you must," said Sally. "How lovely that ship looks, just coming in there."

"Yes, you have to," said Sally. "That ship looks so beautiful, just arriving there."

"Yes, they are beautiful," said Moses abstractedly; and Sally rattled on about the difference between sloops and brigs; seeming determined that there should be no silence, such as often comes in ominous gaps between two friends who have long been separated, and have each many things to say with which the other is not familiar.[Pg 401]

"Yeah, they’re beautiful," Moses said absentmindedly; and Sally kept talking about the difference between sloops and brigs, clearly determined to avoid any awkward silence, like the kind that often happens between two friends who haven’t seen each other in a while and have a lot to catch up on that the other doesn’t know about.[Pg 401]

"Sally!" said Moses, breaking in with a deep voice on one of these monologues. "Do you remember some presumptuous things I once said to you, in this place?"

"Sally!" Moses said, interrupting one of those long speeches with his deep voice. "Do you remember some arrogant things I once said to you here?"

Sally did not answer, and there was a dead silence in which they could hear the tide gently dashing on the weedy rocks.

Sally didn't answer, and there was a complete silence where they could hear the tide softly crashing against the weedy rocks.

"You and I are neither of us what we were then, Sally," said Moses. "We are as different as if we were each another person. We have been trained in another life,—educated by a great sorrow,—is it not so?"

"You and I are totally different from who we were back then, Sally," said Moses. "We're like two completely different people. We've been shaped by another life—educated by a significant sorrow—right?"

"I know it," said Sally.

"I know it," Sally said.

"And why should we two, who have a world of thoughts and memories which no one can understand but the other,—why should we, each of us, go on alone? If we must, why then, Sally, I must leave you, and I must write and receive no more letters, for I have found that you are becoming so wholly necessary to me, that if any other should claim you, I could not feel as I ought. Must I go?"

"And why should we, who share a world of thoughts and memories that no one else understands, have to face this alone? If we really must, then Sally, I have to leave you, and I won’t write or accept any more letters, because I’ve realized you’ve become so essential to me that if anyone else tried to have you, I wouldn’t be able to cope. Do I really have to go?"

Sally's answer is not on record; but one infers what it was from the fact that they sat there very late, and before they knew it, the tide rose up and shut them in, and the moon rose up in full glory out of the water, and still they sat and talked, leaning on each other, till a cracked, feeble voice called down through the pine-trees above, like a hoarse old cricket,—

Sally's answer isn’t documented; but you can guess what it was from the fact that they sat there very late, and before they realized it, the tide came in and trapped them. The moon rose in full glory out of the water, and they still sat and talked, leaning on each other, until a cracked, weak voice called down through the pine trees above, like a hoarse old cricket,—

"Children, be you there?"

"Kids, are you there?"

"Yes, father," said Sally, blushing and conscious.

"Yeah, Dad," said Sally, blushing and feeling self-aware.

"Yes, all right," said the deep bass of Moses. "I'll bring her back when I've done with her, Captain."

"Yeah, okay," said Moses in a deep voice. "I'll bring her back when I'm done with her, Captain."

"Wal',—wal'; I was gettin' consarned; but I see I don't need to. I hope you won't get no colds nor nothin'."

"Well, I was getting worried, but I see I don’t need to be. I hope you don’t catch a cold or anything."

They did not; but in the course of a month there was a wedding at the brown house of the old Captain, which everybody in the parish was glad of, and was voted without dissent to be just the thing.[Pg 402]

They didn't; but within a month, there was a wedding at the old Captain's brown house that everyone in the parish was happy about, and it was unanimously agreed to be just right.[Pg 402]

Miss Roxy, grimly approbative, presided over the preparations, and all the characters of our story appeared, and more, having on their wedding-garments. Nor was the wedding less joyful, that all felt the presence of a heavenly guest, silent and loving, seeing and blessing all, whose voice seemed to say in every heart,—

Miss Roxy, grimly supportive, oversaw the preparations, and all the characters in our story showed up, along with others, dressed in their wedding outfits. The wedding was even more joyful because everyone sensed the presence of a heavenly guest, quiet and loving, watching and blessing everyone, whose voice seemed to resonate in every heart,—

"He turneth the shadow of death into morning."

"He turns the shadow of death into morning."




        
        
    
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