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IN FLANDERS FIELDS

by John McCrae

[Canadian Poet, 1872-1918]





WITH AND ESSAY IN CHARACTER

by Sir Andrew Macphail





[This text is taken from the New York edition of 1919.]










John McCrae, physician, soldier, and poet, died in France a Lieutenant-Colonel with the Canadian forces.

John McCrae, a doctor, soldier, and poet, passed away in France as a Lieutenant-Colonel in the Canadian forces.

The poem which gives this collection of his lovely verse its name has been extensively reprinted, and received with unusual enthusiasm.

The poem that titles this collection of his beautiful verses has been widely reprinted and received with great enthusiasm.

The volume contains, as well, a striking essay in character by his friend, Sir Andrew Macphail.

The book also includes an impressive character essay by his friend, Sir Andrew Macphail.










{Although the poem itself is included shortly, this next section is included for completeness, and to show John McCrae's punctuation — also to show that I'm not the only one who forgets lines. — A. L.}

{While the poem itself will be shared soon, this next section is here for completeness and to highlight John McCrae's punctuation — plus to demonstrate that I'm not the only one who forgets lines. — A. L.}


IN FLANDERS FIELDS

In Flanders Fields

          In Flanders fields, the poppies grow  
          Between the crosses, row on row  
          That mark our place; and in the sky  
          The larks still bravely singing, fly  
          Hardly heard amid the guns below.  

          We are the dead. A short while ago  
          We lived, felt dawn, saw sunset glow,  
          Loved, and were loved, and now we lie  
          In Flanders fields.  

          Take up our quarrel with the enemy:  
          To you from failing hands we pass  
          The torch: be yours to hold it high!  
          If you break faith with us who die  
          We shall not sleep, though poppies grow  
          In Flanders fields.  

                                John McCrae

{From a} Facsimile of an autograph copy of the poem "In Flanders Fields"

{From a} Facsimile of an autograph copy of the poem "In Flanders Fields"

This was probably written from memory as "grow" is used in place of "blow" in the first line.

This was probably written from memory since "grow" is used instead of "blow" in the first line.










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Contents

     In Flanders Fields  
       1915  

     The Anxious Dead  
       1917  

     The Warrior  
       1907  

     Isandlwana  
       1910  

     The Unconquered Dead  
       1906  

     The Captain  
       1913  

     The Song of the Derelict  
       1898  

     Quebec  
       1908  

     Then and Now  
       1896  

     Unsolved  
       1895  

     The Hope of My Heart  
       1894  

     Penance  
       1896  

     Slumber Songs  
       1897  

     The Oldest Drama  
       1907  

     Recompense  
       1896  

     Mine Host  
       1897  

     Equality  
       1898  

     Anarchy  
       1897  

     Disarmament  
       1899  

     The Dead Master  
       1913  

     The Harvest of the Sea  
       1898  

     The Dying of Pere Pierre  
       1904  

     Eventide  
       1895  

     Upon Watts' Picture "Sic Transit"  
       1904  

     A Song of Comfort  
       1894  

     The Pilgrims  
       1905  

     The Shadow of the Cross  
       1894  

     The Night Cometh  
       1913  

     In Due Season  
       1897  

     John McCrae  
       An Essay in Character by Sir Andrew Macphail  




In Flanders Fields

          In Flanders fields, the poppies blow  
          Between the crosses, row after row,  
          That mark our spot; and in the sky  
          The larks, still courageously singing, fly  
          Hardly heard above the guns below.  

          We are the Dead. Just a short time ago  
          We lived, felt the dawn, saw the sunset glow,  
          Loved and were loved, and now we lie,  
                      In Flanders fields.  

          Take up our fight with the enemy:  
          To you from failing hands we pass  
          The torch; it’s yours to hold up high.  
          If you break faith with us who die  
          We won’t rest, even though poppies grow  
                      In Flanders fields.  




The Anxious Dead

          O guns, fall silent until the dead can hear
           The legions pressing on above their heads:
          (They fought their battle in times of bitter fear,
           And died not knowing how the day had gone.)

          O flashing guns, pause, and let them see
           The coming dawn that stretches across the sky;
          Then let your powerful chorus bear witness
           To them and Caesar, that we still wage war.

          Tell them, O guns, that we’ve heard their call,
           That we’ve sworn an oath, and will not turn away,
          That we will move forward until we win or fall,
           That we will uphold the faith for which they died.

          Encourage them to be patient, and someday, soon,
           They will feel the earth wrapped in deep silence;
          They will greet, in wonder, the quiet dawn,
           And in peace may turn to their eternal sleep.




The Warrior

          He worked in poverty, through the dull gray days,  
          But at night, his small lamp-lit room  
          Glowed with battle flame, or through a haze  
          Of smoke that stung his eyes, he heard the boom  
          Of Blücher's guns; he bore Almeida's scars,  
          And from the packed deck, facing death,  
          He looked up and saw the "Birkenhead"'s tall masts  
          Weave unsteady lines across the Southern sky:  

          Or in the stifling space between decks, row on row,  
          At Aboukir, he saw how the dead men lay;  
          Charged with the fiercest in Busaco's fight,  
          Brave dreams are his— the flickering lamp burns low—  
          Yet ready for the battles of the day,  
          He goes to stand face to face with life.  




Isandlwana

 Scarlet coats, and the crash of the band,
                The grey of a poor person’s gown,
               A soldier’s grave in Zululand,
                And a woman in Brecon Town.

          My little boy is a soldier now,
           (Mothers of Brecon Town!)
          My tears for his joy when he left Brecon Town,
          His eyes for the flags and the brave sights,
          His for the medals and the battles,
          And mine for the dreary, rainy nights
           Back home in Brecon Town.

          They say he’s laid beneath a tree,
           (Come back to Brecon Town!)
          Shouldn’t I know? — I was there to see:
           (It’s far to Brecon Town!)
          I’m the one who keeps it neat and dressed
          With a briar there and a rose by his chest —
          The English flowers he likes best
           That I bring from Brecon Town.

          And I sit beside him — him and me,
           (We’re back to Brecon Town.)
          To talk about the things that used to be
           (Grey ghosts of Brecon Town);
          I know the look of the land and sky,
          And the bird that builds in the tree nearby,
          And sometimes I hear the jackals cry,
           And me in Brecon Town.

               Golden grey on miles of sand
                The dawn comes creeping down;
               It’s day in far-off Zululand
                And night in Brecon Town.




The Unconquered Dead

". . . defeated, with huge losses."
          Not us, the defeated!  Not our fault
           Of those who run away, of those who cowardly give in;
          Nor do we get the cheers of victory, the glory
           Of those who triumph in a battle's chaos.

          On that day of fighting in the sweltering heat
           We lay and heard the bullets whiz and sing
          Like scythes cutting through the overripe wheat,
           And we were the harvest of their gathering.

          Some gave up, but not us!  Not us, we swear
           By these wounds of ours; this trench on the hill
          Where all the shell-damaged earth lies bare,
           Was ours to defend; and look! we still have it.

          We could have given in, even us, but death
           Came to help us; like a sudden flood
          The crashing darkness fell; our painful breath
           We drew in gasps amid the choking blood.

          The roar faded and moved farther away, and soon
           Became a silly humming in our ears,
          Like crickets on a long, hot afternoon
           Among the wheat fields of the past.

          Before our eyes a vast wall of red
           Shot through with sudden bursts of jagged pain!
          Then a slow-growing darkness above
           And rest fell on us like a gentle rain.

          Not us, the defeated!  Not our shame,
           Who hold our earthen barricades, nor shall we cease
          To hold them forever; we are the victors, who came
           In that fierce moment to our cherished peace.




The Captain

1797
 Here all day she swings from tide to tide,  
                Here all night long she tugs a rusted chain,  
               A masterless hulk that was a ship of pride,  
                Yet unashamed: her memories remain.  

          It was Nelson in the 'Captain', Cape St. Vincent far away,  
           With the 'Vanguard' leading southward in the haze —  
          Little Jervis and the Spaniards and the fight that was to come,  
          Twenty-seven Spanish battleships, great bullies of the sea,  
           And the 'Captain' there to find her moment of glory.  

          Right into them the 'Vanguard' leads, but with a sudden turn  
           The Spaniards double quickly on their trail;  
          Now Jervis overshoots his aim, like some too eager pack,  
          He will not catch them, no matter how fast he turns back,  
           But Nelson and the 'Captain' will not fail.  

          Like a tigress on her prey leaps the 'Captain' from her place,  
           To lie across the fleeing squadron's path:  
          Heavy odds and heavy assaults, gun to gun and face to face,  
          Win the ship a name of glory, win the men a death of grace,  
           For a brief moment holding the Spanish fleet at bay.  

          The "Captain"'s battle is over now, badly wounded she falls aside  
           Still holding her foes, beaten to their knees:  
          As the 'Vanguard' drifted past her, "Well done, 'Captain'," Jervis cried,  
          Cheers rang from the conquered men, blood ran from the fallen,  
           And the ship had earned her immortality.  

               Lo! here her offspring of steel and steam,  
                A funnelled monster at her mooring sways:  
               Still, in our hearts, we see her pennant flying,  
                And "Well done, 'Captain'," like a trumpet sounds. 




The Song of the Derelict

          You've sung me your songs, you've chanted your rhymes  
           (I scorn your charms, oh sea!)  
          You hold me now, but you'll strike me soon.  
           (A treacherous lover, the sea!)  
          Once, as I lay half-awash in the night,  
          I saw a hull in the darkness — a quick hail — and a light  
          And I lurched over to leeward and saved her out of spite  
           From the fate that you dealt to me.  

          I was sister to 'Terrible', seventy-four,  
           (Yo ho! for the swing of the sea!)  
          And you sunk her in depths a thousand or more  
           (Alas! for the power of the sea!)  
          You taunt me and sing me her fate as a sign!  
          What more harm can you do to me or mine?  
          Oh braggart! I don't care for your boasting —  
           A fig for the wrath of the sea!  

          One night, I'll sneak away to the lee of the land,  
           (Heigh-ho to be home from the sea!)  
          No pilot but Death at the rudderless wheel,  
           (No one knows the harbor like he!)  
          To lie where the slow tide creeps back and forth  
          And the shifting sand wraps around me, because I know  
          That my brave old crew is in Port long ago —  
           Forever at peace with the sea!  




Quebec

1608-1908
          Of old, like Helen, reward of the strong —  
           Like Helen beautiful, like Helen light of speech, —  
          "The spoils belong to the conquerors.  
           Whoever wins me must win me by the sword."  

          Grown old, like Helen, once the coveted prize  
           That strong men fought for in fierce hatred,  
          Can she look out with unregretful eyes,  
           Where Montcalm and Wolfe lie peacefully beside her gate?




Then and Now

          Beneath her window on this fragrant night  
           I almost forget how swiftly the years have passed  
          Since I last saw her light in her room,  
           Or caught a glimpse of her slender shadow cast  
          On the window; but the gently swaying leaves  
           Lazily brush against the darkened pane,  
          And back and forth beneath the shadowy eaves,  
           Like restless birds, the breath of approaching rain  
          Creeps, heavy with lilac, up the village street  
           When everything is quiet, as if the very trees  
          Were waiting for the sound of her footsteps  
           That never come again; yet, to avoid tears, the breeze  
          Whispers some forgotten tune from those old days  
          Until my heart becomes far too joyful for tears.




Unsolved

          Among my books, I spent my rushing years,  
           Ignoring connections with my fellow humans;  
          Human smiles and tears meant nothing to me,  
           I didn't care where life's great flow was headed,  
          Until I knelt before my decayed shrine,  
           And God made me look into a woman's eyes;  
          And I, who thought I had all the earthly wisdom,  
           Realized in an instant that the vast heavens  
          Were only measured in inches, compared to the journey  
           That awaited me in that mysterious gaze.  
          "I must have strayed: it's best  
           That I walk with others in their human ways."  
          God took the teacher away before I learned,  
          And I returned to my lonely books once more.  




The Hope of My Heart

"Please don't hold against us, Lord, the faults of our youth and our ignorance."
          I left behind, on earth, a lovely young girl,  
           With golden hair and eyes that made the light seem dull;  
          I prayed that God would keep her safe  
                      And in His sight.  
  
          Earth's love was fake; her voice, a tempting song;  
           (Sweet mother earth was just a deceptive name)  
          The path she showed was only a path of wrong  
                      And shame.  
  
          "Don't cast her away!" I cry. God's gentle words come —  
           "Her future is with Me, just like her past;  
          It will be My good will to bring her home  
                      At last."




Penance

          My lover died a century ago,  
          Her precious heart broken by my damaging words,  
          That's why the Gods made sure I would never know  
                      The peace of death.  

          People walk by my grave and say, “It would be nice to sleep,  
          Like this person, among the uncaring dead!”  
          How could they know the long nights I keep,  
                      The tears I shed?  

          On the grave, I count with lifeless breath,  
          Each night, each year, the flowers that bloom and fade,  
          Thinking the leaves that fall to endless death,  
                      Are luckier than I.  

          Just last year — I heard two lovers walk by  
          So close, I caught the sweet words he said:  
          Tonight the rain-soaked breezes sway the grass  
                      Above his head.  

          That night, I was filled with envy of his life,  
          That youth and love should be at his command;  
          Tonight, I envy him, that he gets to rest  
                      Completely at peace.  




Slumber Songs

            I

          Sleep, little eyes
          That are full of innocent tears during your play,
          Be at ease! No sorrow of night can compare
          To the joys that await you in the coming day.

          Sleep, little heart!
          There’s no room in Dreamland for tears:
          Life will soon enough bring its chilling fears
          And sorrows that will shadow the years to come.
          Sleep, little heart!
            II

          Ah, little eyes
          Dead flowers from a springtime long past,
          That life's storm crushed and left lying below
          The blessing of the falling snow!

          Sleep, little heart
          That stopped its frantic beating so long ago!
          The years that come and go with silent steps
          Have nothing to share except this — that rest is sweet.
          Dear little heart.




The Oldest Drama

"One day, he went out to his father who was with the harvesters. He said to his father, 'My head, my head.' His father told a servant, 'Take him to his mother.' ... He sat on her lap until noon, and then he died. She got up, laid him on the bed, ... closed the door behind her, and went out."
          Timeless tale that no mother's heart
           Can ever read or feel the sharp pain
          That tore her soul!  Timeless not by skill
           That makes an old sorrow hurt again

          Like the grief of yesterday:  but because it expressed
           In the simplest words the truth that everyone can see,
          Where any mother cries over her lost child
           And relives the silent tragedy.




Recompense

          I saw two sowers in Life's field in the morning,  
          to whom one came in the guise of an angel and said,  
          "Is a man born just to work?  
          Look: I am Ease. Come and enjoy my food!"  
          Then gladly, one left his job unfinished  
          and followed the Temptation on his lazy way,  
          while the other worked until the sun went down,  
          as the creeping shadows blurred the dusty day.  

          Before harvest time, on earth's peaceful ground  
          each laid down among those who hadn’t harvested.  
          "Work has more rewards than just rest,  
          otherwise, the worker is like the fool," I said;  
          "God gives him not less, but rather more  
          because he sowed while others gathered his bounty."




Mine Host

          There’s a hostel by a busy road;  
           Life is the journey and Death the welcoming host;  
          He greets every guest and always asks,  
           "How have you been?" Most reply,  
          "This place is not what we were looking for;  
           We meant to travel further, but darkness  
          Came upon us quickly and found us sooner than we expected:  
           Still, we’ll stay. You have plenty of space."  
          
          Inside sit weary men who don't say a word,  
           No fire lights up their friendly greeting;  
          No sound of companionship or conflict is heard  
           But the silence of a crowd of the dead.  
          "I can’t offer you anything," says Death, "but rest!"  
          And he leads each tired guest to his room.




Equality

I saw a king who dedicated his life to building a nation based on his grand vision. He was never satisfied until he achieved the ideal he sought throughout his life. But just as he saw the goal within his grasp, death took the scepter from his weakening hand, and everyone said, "He gave his life to teach the importance of honor to a corrupt land!" Within his gates, I saw, over the years, someone who worked humbly with a cheerful face, and after his death, the children remembered him often, half in tears, missing him from his spot. If he is greater because his people honored him than because the children loved him, only God knows.




Anarchy

          I saw a city filled with desire and shame,  
          Where men, like wolves, crept through the dark half-light;  
          And suddenly, in the middle of it all, there came  
          Someone who boldly spoke up for what was right.  

          And while speaking, he fell before that savage crowd  
          Like a little wren that shrieking eagles tear,  
          While cruel Dishonor, with her bloodless face,  
          Stood by and struck his lips that moved in prayer.  

          "Don’t talk about God!  That word hasn’t been spoken in centuries!  
          We are our own king."  
          And God reached out His finger as He heard  
          And cast a thousand leagues of sea over it.  




Disarmament

          One spoke among the nations, "Let’s stop
           Clouding the beautiful world with conflict,
          We who are strong in war should be strong in peace.
           No longer should we fight to prove our point."

          But from a million British graves arose
           A silent voice — the million spoke as one —
          "If you have corrected all the wrongs on earth
           Put down the sword! Its work and ours is finished."




The Dead Master

          Amid earth's wandering sounds, he heard a sublime note:  
          Today around him rises from the quiet of Time  
          A wave of greater music, like a river that’s deep and wide,  
          A fitting song for heroes gathered in the feast hall of God.




The Harvest of the Sea

          The earth turns white with harvest; all day long
           The sickles shine, until darkness wraps
          Its web of silence over the grateful song
           Of harvesters bringing in the golden sheaves.

          The waves crest white on the desolate sea,
           And men head out at weary dawn to reap;
          But always in the gleaners' song we hear
           The quiet sobbing of the hearts that weep.




The Dying of Pere Pierre

               ". . . with two other priests; that same night he died, and was buried by the shores of the lake named after him."
                                                                 Chronicle.
"Nah, don’t be sad that you can’t give any honor  
To these poor bones that will soon be  
Just a carcass; since I’ve tried to live  
On God’s earth, as He has led me,  
I won’t be without! Where do you want me to lie?  
High heaven is higher than a cathedral’s nave:  
Do people make altars more beautiful than the sky?"  
Next to the darkened lake, they made his grave,  
Below the altar of the hills; and night  
Swung clouds of mist like incense in creeping lines  
That twisted through the tree trunks, where the light  
Fumbled through the arches of the quiet pines:  
And he, by the lonely path he walked,  
Lay, buried in splendor, in the House of God.




Eventide

          The day is done and the workers stop;  
          The land dims beneath the grey shadows,  
          And hearts are light, for the dark brings calm  
                      At the end of the day.  
  
          Each tired worker, with a slow pace,  
          As he heads home, with the long day over,  
          Looks towards the west, with the light on his face  
                      From the setting sun.  
  
          Yet some don't see (with their sin-clouded eyes)  
          The promise of rest in the fading light;  
          But the clouds grow dark in the stormy skies  
                      At the fall of night.  
  
          And some see only a golden sky  
          Where the elms stretch their welcoming arms wide  
          To the calling rooks, as they fly home  
                      At dusk.  
  
          It speaks of peace that comes after struggle,  
          Of the rest He brings to the hearts He tested,  
          Of the calm that follows the stormiest life —  
                      God's evening.




Upon Watts' Picture "Sic Transit"

"What I spent, I had; what I saved, I lost; what I gave, I still have."
          But yesterday at the tournament, all the excited joy of life,  
           The waving of the banners, and the clatter of the spears,  
          The clash of swords and armor, and the chaos of the battle;  
           Tonight begins the silence and peace of endless years.  

                    (One sings within.)  

          But yesterday the glory and the prize,  
           And best of all, to lay it at her feet,  
          To find my reward in her expressive eyes:  
           I hold no resentment, — they pass, even if sweet.  

          The sound of spears, the thrill of victory,  
           The carefree song, the cup, the love of friends,  
          The earth in spring — to live, to feel the light —  
           It was good while it lasted: here it ends.  

          What remains is the well-crafted deed done in honor,  
           The charity for Christ's dear sake, the words that fall  
          In kindness upon some outcast one, —  
           They seemed so small: now they are my All.  




A Song of Comfort

 "Sleep, tired ones, while you can —
                   Sleep, oh, sleep!"
                                        Eugene Field.
          During May, blossoms bloom, and the soft wind sings to those below:  
          "Don't regret the songs of spring and the work you left when you were strong.  
          The songs would have ended once spring was gone,  
          And the joyous tasks would have become tiresome in the end."  

          To the winter sky, when the nights were long,  
          The treetops swayed with an endless song:  
          "Do you regret those sunny days and the path you left, with places yet to explore?  
          The sun could set behind a storm cloud's frown,  
          And the path might get rough when darkness falls."  

          In the gray twilight of autumn evenings,  
          It sighed as it sang through the dying leaves:  
          "You think with regret that the world was bright,  
          That your journey was short and your work was light;  
          The path, though brief, might have been the best,  
          And the effort was sweet, as it led to rest."




The Pilgrims

          An uphill path, where sunlight breaks through the showers,  
          Each ray piercing the gray sky  
          Illuminating other hills with easier routes than ours;  
          Some clustered graves where many of our memories rest;  
          And one dark Shadow always looming closer:  
                      And this was Life.  

          In which we sought to lighten each other's burdens,  
          The tired feet we helped along the way,  
          The hand we offered to the weary and the weak,  
          The miles we eased from one another's load,  
          As we struggled onward, even when we felt like falling:  
                      This too was Life.  

          Until, at the hilltop, as we prepared to leave  
          Through the beautiful meadows growing dim in the night,  
          The mists rolled back from the path below;  
          The western light broke upon our exhausted eyes;  
          Even the graves shone brightly for a moment:  
                      And this was Death.  




The Shadow of the Cross

          At the sleepy dusk when shadows creep  
          From the golden west, where the sunbeams rest,  

          An angel pondered: "Is there good or evil  
          In the chaotic heart of the world, since on Calvary's hill  

          Around the cross a midday twilight fell  
          That darkened the earth and cast a shadow over hell?"  

          Through the streets of a city the angel flew;  
          Like an open book, he read men's hearts too.  

          In a king's ear, his courtiers lied,  
          And humble faces hid hearts full of pride.  

          Men's hatred grew fierce, and their hearts turned cold,  
          As they bargained and fought for their greed for gold.  

          Despairing, he cried, "After all these years,  
          Is there nothing but hatred, strife, and tears?"  

          He found two orphans in a bare attic;  
          — A single crust was their meager meal —  

          One tried to soothe the other's cries,  
          And a spark of love shone in her hungry eyes.  

          As she kissed the child with a maternal grace:  
          "I don't need mine; you can have my place."  

          Then the angel realized that the earthly cross  
          And the sorrow and shame were not a total loss.  

          At dawn, when the Earth's busy noise was dimmed  
          And people weren't looking for their Christ to come,  

          From the poor attic to the grand palace,  
          The King and the beggar walked hand in hand.




The Night Cometh

          Night falls. The wind calms down,  
          The trees sway gently back and forth:  
           Around the church, the grey headstones  
           Gather, like kids who’ve wandered off  
          But are found again, and embraced.  

          She shows no disapproving gaze:  
          If she’s happy, they can’t tell;  
           Whether their day is good or bad,  
                      Night falls.  

          Singing or sad, they move purposefully;  
          They don’t notice the shadows lengthening;  
           "There’s still time," they casually say,  
           "Before we set our work aside";  
          Their task is only half-finished, and look!  
                      Night falls.




In Due Season

          If night arrives while I'm still working,  
           After spending the whole day, even if just barely,  
          Creating shallow furrows in hard soil,  
           Will I consider it worthless?  

          If just one weak gleaner  
           Picks a meager sheaf from what I've planted?  
          "No, for the Master requires  
           Your effort: the harvest is His alone."  




JOHN MCCRAE

An Essay in Character

by Sir Andrew Macphail

by Sir Andrew Macphail





I. In Flanders Fields

"In Flanders Fields", the piece of verse from which this little book takes its title, first appeared in 'Punch' in the issue of December 8th, 1915. At the time I was living in Flanders at a convent in front of Locre, in shelter of Kemmel Hill, which lies seven miles south and slightly west of Ypres. The piece bore no signature, but it was unmistakably from the hand of John McCrae.

"In Flanders Fields," the poem that gives this little book its title, was first published in 'Punch' on December 8th, 1915. At that time, I was living in Flanders at a convent in front of Locre, sheltered by Kemmel Hill, which is seven miles south and slightly west of Ypres. The poem had no signature, but it was clearly written by John McCrae.

From this convent of women which was the headquarters of the 6th Canadian Field Ambulance, I wrote to John McCrae, who was then at Boulogne, accusing him of the authorship, and furnished him with evidence. From memory—since at the front one carries one book only—I quoted to him another piece of his own verse, entitled "The Night Cometh":

From this convent of women, which served as the headquarters of the 6th Canadian Field Ambulance, I wrote to John McCrae, who was then in Boulogne, accusing him of being the author and provided him with evidence. From memory—since at the front you can only carry one book—I quoted another piece of his own verse to him, titled "The Night Cometh":

    "Night has come. The wind calms down,  
     The trees sway gently back and forth;  
      Around the church, the gray headstones  
      Group together, like children who wandered off,  
     But have been found and gathered close."

It will be observed at once by reference to the text that in form the two poems are identical. They contain the same number of lines and feet as surely as all sonnets do. Each travels upon two rhymes with the members of a broken couplet in widely separated refrain. To the casual reader this much is obvious, but there are many subtleties in the verse which made the authorship inevitable. It was a form upon which he had worked for years, and made his own. When the moment arrived the medium was ready. No other medium could have so well conveyed the thought.

It can be seen right away by looking at the text that the two poems are the same in structure. They have the same number of lines and feet, just like all sonnets do. Each poem uses two rhymes with parts of a broken couplet in a widely separated refrain. This is obvious to a casual reader, but there are many subtle details in the verse that make the authorship clear. It was a form he had developed over many years and made his own. When the moment came, the medium was ready. No other medium could have conveyed the thought as well.

This familiarity with his verse was not a matter of accident. For many years I was editor of the 'University Magazine', and those who are curious about such things may discover that one half of the poems contained in this little book were first published upon its pages. This magazine had its origin in McGill University, Montreal, in the year 1902. Four years later its borders were enlarged to the wider term, and it strove to express an educated opinion upon questions immediately concerning Canada, and to treat freely in a literary way all matters which have to do with politics, industry, philosophy, science, and art.

This familiarity with his poetry wasn't just a coincidence. For many years, I was the editor of the 'University Magazine,' and those who are interested in such details can find that half of the poems in this small book were first published in its pages. This magazine started at McGill University in Montreal in 1902. Four years later, it expanded its scope and aimed to provide an informed opinion on issues directly related to Canada, while also discussing various topics in a literary way, including politics, industry, philosophy, science, and art.

To this magazine during those years John McCrae contributed all his verse. It was therefore not unseemly that I should have written to him, when "In Flanders Fields" appeared in 'Punch'. Amongst his papers I find my poor letter, and many others of which something more might be made if one were concerned merely with the literary side of his life rather than with his life itself. Two references will be enough. Early in 1905 he offered "The Pilgrims" for publication. I notified him of the place assigned to it in the magazine, and added a few words of appreciation, and after all these years it has come back to me.

During those years, John McCrae contributed all his poetry to this magazine. So it wasn't inappropriate for me to write to him when "In Flanders Fields" was published in 'Punch'. Among his papers, I found my humble letter and many others that could be explored further if someone were only interested in the literary aspect of his life instead of his full story. Two references will suffice. Early in 1905, he submitted "The Pilgrims" for publication. I informed him about its placement in the magazine and added a few words of appreciation, and after all these years, it has come back to me.

The letter is dated February 9th, 1905, and reads: "I place the poem next to my own buffoonery. It is the real stuff of poetry. How did you make it? What have you to do with medicine? I was charmed with it: the thought high, the image perfect, the expression complete; not too reticent, not too full. Videntes autem stellam gavisi sunt gaudio magno valde. In our own tongue,—'slainte filidh'." To his mother he wrote, "the Latin is translatable as, 'seeing the star they rejoiced with exceeding gladness'." For the benefit of those whose education has proceeded no further than the Latin, it may be explained that the two last words mean, "Hail to the poet".

The letter is dated February 9, 1905, and reads: "I place the poem alongside my own silliness. It’s the true essence of poetry. How did you create it? What connection do you have with medicine? I was enchanted by it: the thought is elevated, the imagery is flawless, the expression is complete; not too reserved, not too excessive. Videntes autem stellam gavisi sunt gaudio magno valde. In our own language, — 'slainte filidh'." To his mother he wrote, "the Latin translates to, 'seeing the star they rejoiced with very great joy'." For those whose education hasn’t gone beyond Latin, it can be explained that the last two words mean, "Hail to the poet."

To the inexperienced there is something portentous about an appearance in print and something mysterious about the business of an editor. A legend has already grown up around the publication of "In Flanders Fields" in 'Punch'. The truth is, "that the poem was offered in the usual way and accepted; that is all." The usual way of offering a piece to an editor is to put it in an envelope with a postage stamp outside to carry it there, and a stamp inside to carry it back. Nothing else helps.

To those who aren't familiar, getting something published feels significant and there's a certain mystery to what editors do. A story has developed around the publication of "In Flanders Fields" in 'Punch'. The reality is, "that the poem was submitted in the usual manner and accepted; that's it." The typical way to present a piece to an editor is to place it in an envelope with a stamp on the outside for delivery and another stamp inside for the return. Nothing more is needed.

An editor is merely a man who knows his right hand from his left, good from evil, having the honesty of a kitchen cook who will not spoil his confection by favour for a friend. Fear of a foe is not a temptation, since editors are too humble and harmless to have any. There are of course certain slight offices which an editor can render, especially to those whose writings he does not intend to print, but John McCrae required none of these. His work was finished to the last point. He would bring his piece in his hand and put it on the table. A wise editor knows when to keep his mouth shut; but now I am free to say that he never understood the nicety of the semi-colon, and his writing was too heavily stopped.

An editor is just someone who knows the difference between right and wrong, someone who has the integrity of a cook who won't ruin their dish just to please a friend. Fear of an enemy isn’t an issue because editors are too modest and harmless to have any. There are a few minor tasks an editor can perform, especially for those whose work he doesn’t plan to publish, but John McCrae didn’t need any of that. His work was polished to perfection. He would bring his piece in hand and set it on the table. A smart editor knows when to stay quiet; but now I can honestly say he never grasped the subtlety of the semicolon, and his writing was punctuated too heavily.

He was not of those who might say,—take it or leave it; but rather,—look how perfect it is; and it was so. Also he was the first to recognize that an editor has some rights and prejudices, that certain words make him sick; that certain other words he reserves for his own use,—"meticulous" once a year, "adscititious" once in a life time. This explains why editors write so little. In the end, out of mere good nature, or seeing the futility of it all, they contribute their words to contributors and write no more.

He wasn’t the type to say, “take it or leave it,” but more like, “look how perfect this is,” and it really was. He also was one of the first to understand that an editor has certain rights and biases, that some words make him cringe, while he keeps certain others for himself—like “meticulous” once a year and “adscititious” once in a lifetime. This explains why editors don’t write much. In the end, either out of kindness or realizing it’s pointless, they give their words to the contributors and stop writing altogether.

The volume of verse as here printed is small. The volume might be enlarged; it would not be improved. To estimate the value and institute a comparison of those herein set forth would be a congenial but useless task, which may well be left to those whose profession it is to offer instruction to the young. To say that "In Flanders Fields" is not the best would involve one in controversy. It did give expression to a mood which at the time was universal, and will remain as a permanent record when the mood is passed away.

The collection of poems printed here is small. While it could be expanded, it wouldn't be better. Assessing the value and comparing the works included would be an enjoyable but pointless job, best left to those who teach young people. Saying that "In Flanders Fields" isn't the best would lead to debate. It captured a feeling that was widespread at the time and will stand as a lasting record even after that feeling fades.

The poem was first called to my attention by a Sapper officer, then Major, now Brigadier. He brought the paper in his hand from his billet in Dranoutre. It was printed on page 468, and Mr. 'Punch' will be glad to be told that, in his annual index, in the issue of December 29th, 1915, he has misspelled the author's name, which is perhaps the only mistake he ever made. This officer could himself weave the sonnet with deft fingers, and he pointed out many deep things. It is to the sappers the army always goes for "technical material".

The poem was first brought to my attention by a Sapper officer, then a Major, now a Brigadier. He carried the paper from his quarters in Dranoutre. It was printed on page 468, and Mr. 'Punch' will be pleased to know that, in his annual index in the December 29th, 1915 issue, he misspelled the author's name, which is probably the only mistake he's ever made. This officer could skillfully craft the sonnet himself and pointed out many profound insights. The army always turns to the sappers for "technical material."

The poem, he explained, consists of thirteen lines in iambic tetrameter and two lines of two iambics each; in all, one line more than the sonnet's count. There are two rhymes only, since the short lines must be considered blank, and are, in fact, identical. But it is a difficult mode. It is true, he allowed, that the octet of the sonnet has only two rhymes, but these recur only four times, and the liberty of the sestet tempers its despotism,—which I thought a pretty phrase. He pointed out the dangers inherent in a restricted rhyme, and cited the case of Browning, the great rhymster, who was prone to resort to any rhyme, and frequently ended in absurdity, finding it easier to make a new verse than to make an end.

The poem, he explained, has thirteen lines in iambic tetrameter and two lines with two iambs each; overall, it has one line more than the traditional sonnet. There are only two rhymes because the short lines should be seen as blank, and they are actually identical. But it's a challenging form. It's true, he noted, that the octave of the sonnet has just two rhymes, but these appear only four times, and the freedom of the sestet balances its strictness,—which I thought was a nice phrase. He pointed out the risks of having limited rhymes, mentioning Browning, the great rhymester, who often resorted to any rhyme and frequently ended up in absurdity, finding it easier to create a new line than to reach a conclusion.

At great length—but the December evenings in Flanders are long, how long, O Lord!—this Sapper officer demonstrated the skill with which the rhymes are chosen. They are vocalized. Consonant endings would spoil the whole effect. They reiterate O and I, not the O of pain and the Ay of assent, but the O of wonder, of hope, of aspiration; and the I of personal pride, of jealous immortality, of the Ego against the Universe. They are, he went on to expound, a recurrence of the ancient question: "How are the dead raised, and with what body do they come?" "How shall I bear my light across?" and of the defiant cry: "If Christ be not raised, then is our faith vain."

For a long time—but the December evenings in Flanders are long, how long, oh Lord!—this Sapper officer showed how skillfully the rhymes are chosen. They are sung. Ending with consonants would ruin the whole effect. They repeat O and I, not the O of pain and the I of agreement, but the O of wonder, hope, and aspiration; and the I of personal pride, jealous immortality, of the self against the Universe. They are, he continued to explain, a recurrence of the ancient question: "How are the dead raised, and with what body do they come?" "How shall I carry my light across?" and of the defiant cry: "If Christ is not raised, then our faith is useless."

The theme has three phases: the first a calm, a deadly calm, opening statement in five lines; the second in four lines, an explanation, a regret, a reiteration of the first; the third, without preliminary crescendo, breaking out into passionate adjuration in vivid metaphor, a poignant appeal which is at once a blessing and a curse. In the closing line is a satisfying return to the first phase,—and the thing is done. One is so often reminded of the poverty of men's invention, their best being so incomplete, their greatest so trivial, that one welcomes what—this Sapper officer surmised—may become a new and fixed mode of expression in verse.

The theme has three stages: the first is a calm, eerie stillness, presented in five lines; the second, in four lines, provides an explanation, a sense of regret, and a restatement of the first; the third, without any buildup, bursts into passionate pleas using vivid metaphors, a moving appeal that is both a blessing and a curse. The final line brings a satisfying return to the first stage—and it’s all wrapped up. It often reminds us of how limited human creativity is, with their best ideas feeling so incomplete and their greatest achievements seeming so trivial, which makes us appreciate what this Sapper officer thought might become a new and permanent way of expressing things in poetry.

As to the theme itself—I am using his words: what is his is mine; what is mine is his—the interest is universal. The dead, still conscious, fallen in a noble cause, see their graves overblown in a riot of poppy bloom. The poppy is the emblem of sleep. The dead desire to sleep undisturbed, but yet curiously take an interest in passing events. They regret that they have not been permitted to live out their life to its normal end. They call on the living to finish their task, else they shall not sink into that complete repose which they desire, in spite of the balm of the poppy. Formalists may protest that the poet is not sincere, since it is the seed and not the flower that produces sleep. They might as well object that the poet has no right to impersonate the dead. We common folk know better. We know that in personating the dear dead, and calling in bell-like tones on the inarticulate living, the poet shall be enabled to break the lightnings of the Beast, and thereby he, being himself, alas! dead, yet speaketh; and shall speak, to ones and twos and a host. As it is written in resonant bronze: VIVOS . VOCO . MORTUOS . PLANGO . FULGURA . FRANGO: words cast by this officer upon a church bell which still rings in far away Orwell in memory of his father—and of mine.

Regarding the theme itself—I’m using his words: what’s his is mine; what’s mine is his—the interest is universal. The dead, still aware, who fell for a noble cause, see their graves covered in a riot of poppy blooms. The poppy symbolizes sleep. The dead want to sleep peacefully, but they’re also strangely interested in what’s happening. They regret not being able to live their lives to the end they wanted. They urge the living to complete their work; otherwise, they won’t find the complete peace they seek, despite the soothing nature of the poppy. Formalists may argue that the poet isn’t sincere since it’s the seed, not the flower, that brings sleep. They might as well argue that the poet shouldn’t impersonate the dead. We common folks know better. We understand that by embodying the beloved dead and calling out to the voiceless living, the poet can break the storms of the Beast, and though he himself is, sadly, dead, he still speaks; he will speak, to individuals and to many. As it’s inscribed in enduring bronze: VIVOS . VOCO . MORTUOS . PLANGO . FULGURA . FRANGO: words cast by this officer on a church bell that still tolls in distant Orwell in memory of his father—and mine.

By this time the little room was cold. For some reason the guns had awakened in the Salient. An Indian trooper who had just come up, and did not yet know the orders, blew "Lights out",—on a cavalry trumpet. The sappers work by night. The officer turned and went his way to his accursed trenches, leaving the verse with me.

By this point, the small room was chilly. For some reason, the guns had woken up in the Salient. An Indian soldier who had just arrived and didn't know the orders yet blew "Lights out" on a cavalry trumpet. The engineers worked at night. The officer turned and headed off to his dreaded trenches, leaving the verse with me.

John McCrae witnessed only once the raw earth of Flanders hide its shame in the warm scarlet glory of the poppy. Others have watched this resurrection of the flowers in four successive seasons, a fresh miracle every time it occurs. Also they have observed the rows of crosses lengthen, the torch thrown, caught, and carried to victory. The dead may sleep. We have not broken faith with them.

John McCrae saw only once how the bare ground of Flanders covered its shame in the warm, scarlet beauty of the poppy. Others have seen this rebirth of the flowers in four consecutive seasons, a fresh miracle each time it happens. They have also witnessed the rows of crosses grow longer, the torch passed on, caught, and carried to victory. The dead may rest. We have not broken our promise to them.

It is little wonder then that "In Flanders Fields" has become the poem of the army. The soldiers have learned it with their hearts, which is quite a different thing from committing it to memory. It circulates, as a song should circulate, by the living word of mouth, not by printed characters. That is the true test of poetry,—its insistence on making itself learnt by heart. The army has varied the text; but each variation only serves to reveal more clearly the mind of the maker. The army says, "AMONG the crosses"; "felt dawn AND sunset glow"; "LIVED and were loved". The army may be right: it usually is.

It's no surprise that "In Flanders Fields" has become the army's poem. The soldiers have learned it by heart, which is a whole different thing from just memorizing it. It spreads, like a song should, through the living word of mouth, not just through written text. That's the true test of poetry—its ability to be internalized. The army has made changes to the text, but each change only highlights the creator's intent more clearly. The army says, "AMONG the crosses"; "felt dawn AND sunset glow"; "LIVED and were loved". The army might be right: it usually is.

Nor has any piece of verse in recent years been more widely known in the civilian world. It was used on every platform from which men were being adjured to adventure their lives or their riches in the great trial through which the present generation has passed. Many "replies" have been made. The best I have seen was written in the 'New York Evening Post'. None but those who were prepared to die before Vimy Ridge that early April day of 1916 will ever feel fully the great truth of Mr. Lillard's opening lines, as they speak for all Americans:

Nor has any piece of poetry in recent years been more well-known in the civilian world. It was used on every platform where people were encouraged to risk their lives or their wealth in the great trial that the current generation has faced. Many responses have been written. The best one I’ve seen was in the 'New York Evening Post.' Only those who were ready to die at Vimy Ridge that early April day in 1916 will ever truly grasp the deep meaning of Mr. Lillard's opening lines, as they resonate with all Americans:

   "Rest in peace, you who fell in Flanders.  
    The battle you fought so bravely  
          We are now continuing."

They did—and bravely. They heard the cry—"If ye break faith, we shall not sleep."

They did—and they were brave. They heard the cry—"If you break faith, we will not sleep."





II. With the Guns

If there was nothing remarkable about the publication of "In Flanders Fields", there was something momentous in the moment of writing it. And yet it was a sure instinct which prompted the writer to send it to 'Punch'. A rational man wishes to know the news of the world in which he lives; and if he is interested in life, he is eager to know how men feel and comport themselves amongst the events which are passing. For this purpose 'Punch' is the great newspaper of the world, and these lines describe better than any other how men felt in that great moment.

If there was nothing special about the release of "In Flanders Fields," there was something significant about the time it was written. Yet, it was a strong instinct that led the writer to submit it to 'Punch.' A sensible person wants to keep up with the news of the world they live in; and if they care about life, they're keen to understand how people feel and behave during the events unfolding around them. For this reason, 'Punch' is the leading publication in the world, and these lines capture better than anything else how people felt in that critical moment.

It was in April, 1915. The enemy was in the full cry of victory. All that remained for him was to occupy Paris, as once he did before, and to seize the Channel ports. Then France, England, and the world were doomed. All winter the German had spent in repairing his plans, which had gone somewhat awry on the Marne. He had devised his final stroke, and it fell upon the Canadians at Ypres. This battle, known as the second battle of Ypres, culminated on April 22nd, but it really extended over the whole month.

It was April 1915. The enemy was close to victory. All that was left for him was to take Paris, just like he had before, and to capture the Channel ports. Then France, England, and the world would be finished. All winter, the Germans had been adjusting their plans, which had gone a bit off track at the Marne. They had come up with their final strategy, and it hit the Canadians at Ypres. This battle, known as the second battle of Ypres, peaked on April 22nd, but it actually lasted the entire month.

The inner history of war is written from the recorded impressions of men who have endured it. John McCrae in a series of letters to his mother, cast in the form of a diary, has set down in words the impressions which this event of the war made upon a peculiarly sensitive mind. The account is here transcribed without any attempt at "amplification", or "clarifying" by notes upon incidents or references to places. These are only too well known.

The true story of war is told through the experiences of those who lived through it. John McCrae, in a series of letters to his mother written like a diary, has captured the feelings that this war event left on a particularly sensitive person. This account is presented here without any attempts to elaborate or add explanations about events or locations, as these are already well-known.

Friday, April 23rd, 1915.

Friday, April 23, 1915.

As we moved up last evening, there was heavy firing about 4.30 on our left, the hour at which the general attack with gas was made when the French line broke. We could see the shells bursting over Ypres, and in a small village to our left, meeting General——, C.R.A., of one of the divisions, he ordered us to halt for orders. We sent forward notifications to our Headquarters, and sent out orderlies to get in touch with the batteries of the farther forward brigades already in action. The story of these guns will be read elsewhere. They had a tough time, but got away safely, and did wonderful service. One battery fired in two opposite directions at once, and both batteries fired at point blank, open sights, at Germans in the open. They were at times quite without infantry on their front, for their position was behind the French to the left of the British line.

As we advanced last night, there was heavy firing around 4:30 on our left, the same time the general gas attack began that caused the French line to break. We could see shells exploding over Ypres, and in a small village to our left, we met General——, C.R.A., of one of the divisions, who ordered us to stop for further instructions. We sent updates to our Headquarters and dispatched orderlies to connect with the batteries of the forward brigades that were already in action. The story of these guns will be told elsewhere. They faced tough conditions but managed to pull through and provided exceptional service. One battery fired in two opposite directions at once, and both batteries shot at point-blank range, directly targeting Germans in the open. At times, they had no infantry in front of them because their position was behind the French army to the left of the British line.

As we sat on the road we began to see the French stragglers—men without arms, wounded men, teams, wagons, civilians, refugees—some by the roads, some across country, all talking, shouting—the very picture of debacle. I must say they were the "tag enders" of a fighting line rather than the line itself. They streamed on, and shouted to us scraps of not too inspiriting information while we stood and took our medicine, and picked out gun positions in the fields in case we had to go in there and then. The men were splendid; not a word; not a shake, and it was a terrific test. Traffic whizzed by—ambulances, transport, ammunition, supplies, despatch riders—and the shells thundered into the town, or burst high in the air nearer us, and the refugees streamed. Women, old men, little children, hopeless, tearful, quiet or excited, tired, dodging the traffic,—and the wounded in singles or in groups. Here and there I could give a momentary help, and the ambulances picked up as they could. So the cold moonlight night wore on—no change save that the towers of Ypres showed up against the glare of the city burning; and the shells still sailed in.

As we sat on the road, we started to see the French stragglers—men without weapons, injured men, teams, wagons, civilians, refugees—some by the roadside, some across the fields, all talking and shouting—the very picture of defeat. I have to say they were the "leftovers" of a fighting line rather than the line itself. They streamed past, shouting bits of not-so-encouraging information while we stood there enduring it and scanning the fields for potential gun positions in case we had to move in right then. The men were incredible; they didn't say a word or flinch, and it was an immense test. Traffic sped by—ambulances, transport vehicles, ammunition, supplies, dispatch riders—and the shells crashed into the town or exploded high in the sky closer to us, while the refugees poured through. Women, elderly men, little children, hopeless, tearful, calm or excited, exhausted, weaving through the traffic, along with the wounded, either alone or in groups. Here and there, I could offer brief help, and the ambulances picked up whoever they could. So the cold moonlit night dragged on—no change except that the towers of Ypres stood out against the glow of the burning city; and the shells continued to come in.

At 9.30 our ammunition column (the part that had been "in") appeared. Major—— had waited, like Casabianca, for orders until the Germans were 500 yards away; then he started, getting safely away save for one wagon lost, and some casualties in men and horses. He found our column, and we prepared to send forward ammunition as soon as we could learn where the batteries had taken up position in retiring, for retire they had to. Eleven, twelve, and finally grey day broke, and we still waited. At 3.45 word came to go in and support a French counterattack at 4.30 A.M. Hastily we got the order spread; it was 4 A.M. and three miles to go.

At 9:30, our supply column (the part that had been "in") showed up. Major—— had waited, like Casabianca, for orders until the Germans were 500 yards away; then he took off, escaping safely except for one lost wagon and some casualties among men and horses. He found our column, and we got ready to send forward ammunition as soon as we figured out where the batteries had positioned themselves while retreating, because retreat they had to. Eleven, twelve, and finally a gray day broke, and we were still waiting. At 3:45, we got the message to move in and support a French counterattack at 4:30 A.M. We quickly spread the order; it was 4 A.M. and three miles to go.

Of one's feelings all this night—of the asphyxiated French soldiers—of the women and children—of the cheery, steady British reinforcements that moved up quietly past us, going up, not back—I could write, but you can imagine.

Of all the feelings from this night—about the suffocating French soldiers—about the women and children—about the cheerful, determined British reinforcements that quietly moved past us, going forward, not backward—I could write, but you can imagine.

We took the road at once, and went up at the gallop. The Colonel rode ahead to scout a position (we had only four guns, part of the ammunition column, and the brigade staff; the 1st and 4th batteries were back in reserve at our last billet). Along the roads we went, and made our place on time, pulled up for ten minutes just short of the position, where I put Bonfire [his horse] with my groom in a farmyard, and went forward on foot—only a quarter of a mile or so—then we advanced. Bonfire had soon to move; a shell killed a horse about four yards away from him, and he wisely took other ground. Meantime we went on into the position we were to occupy for seventeen days, though we could not guess that. I can hardly say more than that it was near the Yser Canal.

We set off right away and galloped up the road. The Colonel went ahead to find a good spot (we only had four guns, part of the ammo column, and the brigade staff; the 1st and 4th batteries were still back at our last location). We traveled along the roads and arrived on time, stopping for ten minutes just short of the position. I left Bonfire [his horse] with my groom in a farmyard and continued on foot—only about a quarter of a mile—before we advanced. Bonfire had to be moved soon; a shell took out a horse about four yards away from him, and he wisely relocated. Meanwhile, we proceeded to the position we would occupy for seventeen days, although we had no idea at the time. I can barely say more than that it was near the Yser Canal.

We got into action at once, under heavy gunfire. We were to the left entirely of the British line, and behind French troops, and so we remained for eight days. A Colonel of the R.A., known to fame, joined us and camped with us; he was our link with the French Headquarters, and was in local command of the guns in this locality. When he left us eight days later he said, "I am glad to get out of this hell-hole." He was a great comfort to us, for he is very capable, and the entire battle was largely fought "on our own", following the requests of the Infantry on our front, and scarcely guided by our own staff at all. We at once set out to register our targets, and almost at once had to get into steady firing on quite a large sector of front. We dug in the guns as quickly as we could, and took as Headquarters some infantry trenches already sunk on a ridge near the canal. We were subject from the first to a steady and accurate shelling, for we were all but in sight, as were the German trenches about 2000 yards to our front. At times the fire would come in salvos quickly repeated. Bursts of fire would be made for ten or fifteen minutes at a time. We got all varieties of projectile, from 3 inch to 8 inch, or perhaps 10 inch; the small ones usually as air bursts, the larger percussion and air, and the heaviest percussion only.

We sprang into action immediately, under heavy gunfire. We positioned ourselves entirely to the left of the British line, behind French troops, and stayed that way for eight days. A famous Colonel from the Royal Artillery joined us and camped with us; he was our connection to the French Headquarters and was in local command of the guns in the area. When he left us eight days later, he said, "I’m glad to get out of this hell-hole." He was a huge comfort to us, being very capable, and the entire battle was largely fought “on our own,” following the requests of the Infantry ahead, with little guidance from our staff. We immediately set out to register our targets and quickly had to start steady firing across a fairly large front. We dug in the guns as fast as we could, using existing infantry trenches on a ridge near the canal as our Headquarters. From the very beginning, we faced steady and accurate shelling since we were almost in sight, as were the German trenches about 2000 yards in front of us. At times, the fire would come in rapid salvos. Bursts of fire would last for ten to fifteen minutes at a time. We received all kinds of projectiles, ranging from 3 inches to 8 inches, and possibly 10 inches; the smaller ones usually burst in the air, while the larger ones were both percussion and air bursts, with the heaviest being purely percussion.

My work began almost from the start—steady but never overwhelming, except perhaps once for a few minutes. A little cottage behind our ridge served as a cook-house, but was so heavily hit the second day that we had to be chary of it. During bursts of fire I usually took the back slope of the sharply crested ridge for what shelter it offered. At 3 our 1st and 4th arrived, and went into action at once a few hundred yards in our rear. Wires were at once put out, to be cut by shells hundreds and hundreds of times, but always repaired by our indefatigable linemen. So the day wore on; in the night the shelling still kept up: three different German attacks were made and repulsed. If we suffered by being close up, the Germans suffered from us, for already tales of good shooting came down to us. I got some sleep despite the constant firing, for we had none last night.

My work started right from the beginning—steady but never too much to handle, except maybe for a few minutes. A small cottage behind our ridge was used as a kitchen, but it was hit hard on the second day, so we had to be cautious about it. During periods of heavy fire, I usually took shelter on the back slope of the sharply crested ridge. At 3, our 1st and 4th units arrived and got to work immediately a few hundred yards behind us. Wires were put out right away, only to be cut by shells over and over again, but our tireless linemen always fixed them. So, the day went on; the shelling continued into the night: three different German attacks happened and were pushed back. While we faced risks by being so close, the Germans were also affected by us, as we were already hearing stories of good shooting. I managed to get some sleep despite the constant firing since we hadn’t slept at all the night before.

Saturday, April 24th, 1915.

April 24, 1915.

Behold us now anything less than two miles north of Ypres on the west side of the canal; this runs north, each bank flanked with high elms, with bare trunks of the familiar Netherlands type. A few yards to the West a main road runs, likewise bordered; the Censor will allow me to say that on the high bank between these we had our headquarters; the ridge is perhaps fifteen to twenty feet high, and slopes forward fifty yards to the water, the back is more steep, and slopes quickly to a little subsidiary water way, deep but dirty. Where the guns were I shall not say; but they were not far, and the German aeroplanes that viewed us daily with all but impunity knew very well. A road crossed over the canal, and interrupted the ridge; across the road from us was our billet—the place we cooked in, at least, and where we usually took our meals. Looking to the south between the trees, we could see the ruins of the city: to the front on the sky line, with rolling ground in the front, pitted by French trenches, the German lines; to the left front, several farms and a windmill, and farther left, again near the canal, thicker trees and more farms. The farms and windmills were soon burnt. Several farms we used for observing posts were also quickly burnt during the next three or four days. All along behind us at varying distances French and British guns; the flashes at night lit up the sky.

Here we are, just under two miles north of Ypres on the west side of the canal, which runs northward with high elm trees lining each bank, their familiar bare trunks typical of the Netherlands. A main road runs a few yards to the west, also bordered. The Censor will allow me to mention that our headquarters were on the high bank between these two features; the ridge is about fifteen to twenty feet high and slopes down fifty yards to the water, with a steeper back that quickly drops down to a smaller waterway, deep but murky. I won’t disclose where the guns were, but they were close by, and the German planes that observed us daily from above were well aware. A road crossed over the canal and broke up the ridge; across the road was our billet—the place where we cooked and usually had our meals. Looking south between the trees, we could see the ruins of the city: ahead on the skyline were the German lines, with rolling ground in front, marked by French trenches; to the left front were a few farms and a windmill, and even further left, closer to the canal, more trees and additional farms. The farms and windmills were soon set on fire. Several farms we used as observation posts were also quickly burned down over the next three or four days. Behind us, at varying distances, were French and British artillery; their flashes at night lit up the sky.

These high trees were at once a protection and a danger. Shells that struck them were usually destructive. When we came in the foliage was still very thin. Along the road, which was constantly shelled "on spec" by the Germans, one saw all the sights of war: wounded men limping or carried, ambulances, trains of supply, troops, army mules, and tragedies. I saw one bicycle orderly: a shell exploded and he seemed to pedal on for eight or ten revolutions and then collapsed in a heap—dead. Straggling soldiers would be killed or wounded, horses also, until it got to be a nightmare. I used to shudder every time I saw wagons or troops on that road. My dugout looked out on it. I got a square hole, 8 by 8, dug in the side of the hill (west), roofed over with remnants to keep out the rain, and a little sandbag parapet on the back to prevent pieces of "back-kick shells" from coming in, or prematures from our own or the French guns for that matter. Some straw on the floor completed it. The ground was treacherous and a slip the first night nearly buried——. So we had to be content with walls straight up and down, and trust to the height of the bank for safety. All places along the bank were more or less alike, all squirrel holes.

These tall trees were both a shield and a threat. Shells that hit them were usually devastating. When we arrived, the foliage was still quite sparse. Along the road, which was constantly bombarded by the Germans without any specific target, you could see all the horrors of war: injured men limping or being carried, ambulances, supply trains, troops, army mules, and tragedies. I saw one bicycle orderly; a shell went off and he seemed to keep pedaling for eight or ten revolutions before collapsing in a heap—dead. Straggling soldiers were killed or wounded, and horses too, turning it into a nightmare. I would shudder every time I saw wagons or troops on that road. My dugout overlooked it. I had a square hole, 8 by 8, dug into the side of the hill (west), covered with scraps to keep out the rain, and a small sandbag wall at the back to stop bits of "back-kick shells" from coming in, or premature explosions from our own or the French guns. A bit of straw on the floor rounded it off. The ground was unstable, and I nearly got buried on the first night due to a slip. So we had to settle for vertical walls and rely on the height of the bank for safety. All spots along the bank were pretty much the same, all like squirrel holes.

This morning we supported a heavy French attack at 4.30; there had been three German attacks in the night, and everyone was tired. We got heavily shelled. In all eight or ten of our trees were cut by shells—cut right off, the upper part of the tree subsiding heavily and straight down, as a usual thing. One would think a piece a foot long was just instantly cut out; and these trees were about 18 inches in diameter. The gas fumes came very heavily: some blew down from the infantry trenches, some came from the shells: one's eyes smarted, and breathing was very laboured. Up to noon to-day we fired 2500 rounds. Last night Col. Morrison and I slept at a French Colonel's headquarters near by, and in the night our room was filled up with wounded. I woke up and shared my bed with a chap with "a wounded leg and a chill". Probably thirty wounded were brought into the one little room.

This morning, we faced a major French attack at 4:30. There had been three German assaults during the night, and everyone was exhausted. We took a lot of shelling. In total, eight or ten of our trees were blown apart—completely severed, with the top half collapsing straight down, which is usually the case. It looked like a piece about a foot long was just instantly sliced out, and these trees were around 18 inches in diameter. The gas fumes were thick: some drifted down from the infantry trenches, and others came from the shells; it stung our eyes, and breathing was really difficult. By noon today, we had fired 2,500 rounds. Last night, Colonel Morrison and I stayed at a French Colonel's headquarters nearby, and during the night, our room was filled with the wounded. I woke up and had to share my bed with a guy who had "a wounded leg and a chill." About thirty wounded men were packed into that small room.

Col.——, R.A., kept us in communication with the French General in whose command we were. I bunked down in the trench on the top of the ridge: the sky was red with the glare of the city still burning, and we could hear the almost constant procession of large shells sailing over from our left front into the city: the crashes of their explosion shook the ground where we were. After a terribly hard day, professionally and otherwise, I slept well, but it rained and the trench was awfully muddy and wet.

Col.——, R.A., kept us in touch with the French General in charge of our unit. I settled into the trench at the top of the ridge: the sky glowed red from the fires still raging in the city, and we could hear the nearly constant stream of large shells flying over from our left front into the city; the sound of their explosions shook the ground beneath us. After an incredibly tough day, both in terms of work and other challenges, I slept soundly, but it rained, and the trench was really muddy and wet.

Sunday, April 25th, 1915.

Sunday, April 25, 1915.

The weather brightened up, and we got at it again. This day we had several heavy attacks, prefaced by heavy artillery fire; these bursts of fire would result in our getting 100 to 150 rounds right on us or nearby: the heavier our fire (which was on the trenches entirely) the heavier theirs.

The weather cleared up, and we got back to it. That day, we faced several intense attacks, starting with heavy artillery fire; these bursts would hit us with 100 to 150 rounds either directly or close by: the more intense our fire (which was aimed entirely at the trenches), the more intense theirs.

Our food supply came up at dusk in wagons, and the water was any we could get, but of course treated with chloride of lime. The ammunition had to be brought down the roads at the gallop, and the more firing the more wagons. The men would quickly carry the rounds to the guns, as the wagons had to halt behind our hill. The good old horses would swing around at the gallop, pull up in an instant, and stand puffing and blowing, but with their heads up, as if to say, "Wasn't that well done?" It makes you want to kiss their dear old noses, and assure them of a peaceful pasture once more. To-day we got our dressing station dugout complete, and slept there at night.

Our food supply arrived at dusk in wagons, and we got water wherever we could, but it was treated with lime chloride, of course. The ammunition had to be rushed down the roads at full speed, and the more firing there was, the more wagons we needed. The men quickly carried the rounds to the guns, since the wagons had to stop behind our hill. The good old horses would turn around at a gallop, come to a stop in an instant, and stand there puffing and blowing, but with their heads held high as if to say, "Wasn't that impressive?" It makes you want to kiss their sweet old noses and promise them a peaceful pasture again. Today, we finished digging the dressing station and slept there at night.

Three farms in succession burned on our front—colour in the otherwise dark. The flashes of shells over the front and rear in all directions. The city still burning and the procession still going on. I dressed a number of French wounded; one Turco prayed to Allah and Mohammed all the time I was dressing his wound. On the front field one can see the dead lying here and there, and in places where an assault has been they lie very thick on the front slopes of the German trenches. Our telephone wagon team hit by a shell; two horses killed and another wounded. I did what I could for the wounded one, and he subsequently got well. This night, beginning after dark, we got a terrible shelling, which kept up till 2 or 3 in the morning. Finally I got to sleep, though it was still going on. We must have got a couple of hundred rounds, in single or pairs. Every one burst over us, would light up the dugout, and every hit in front would shake the ground and bring down small bits of earth on us, or else the earth thrown into the air by the explosion would come spattering down on our roof, and into the front of the dugout. Col. Morrison tried the mess house, but the shelling was too heavy, and he and the adjutant joined Cosgrave and me, and we four spent an anxious night there in the dark. One officer was on watch "on the bridge" (as we called the trench at the top of the ridge) with the telephones.

Three farms in a row burned in front of us—color in the otherwise dark landscape. Shells flashed overhead and behind us in every direction. The city was still on fire, and the procession continued. I treated several French soldiers who were injured; one Turco prayed to Allah and Mohammed the whole time I was tending his wound. On the battlefield, you could see the dead scattered here and there, particularly thick on the front slopes of the German trenches where assaults had occurred. Our telephone wagon team was hit by a shell; two horses were killed and another was injured. I did what I could for the injured horse, and he eventually recovered. That night, starting after dark, we endured a brutal shelling that lasted until 2 or 3 in the morning. I finally managed to sleep, even though it was still happening. We must have received a couple of hundred rounds, either singly or in pairs. Every shell that burst above us lit up the dugout, and each hit in front shook the ground, causing little bits of earth to fall on us. The dirt thrown into the air by the explosions rained down on our roof and into the entrance of the dugout. Col. Morrison tried the mess house, but the shelling was too intense, so he and the adjutant came to join Cosgrave and me, and the four of us spent a restless night together in the dark. One officer was on watch "on the bridge" (as we called the trench at the top of the ridge) with the telephones.

Monday, April 26th, 1915.

Monday, April 26, 1915.

Another day of heavy actions, but last night much French and British artillery has come in, and the place is thick with Germans. There are many prematures (with so much firing) but the pieces are usually spread before they get to us. It is disquieting, however, I must say. And all the time the birds sing in the trees over our heads. Yesterday up to noon we fired 3000 rounds for the twenty-four hours; to-day we have fired much less, but we have registered fresh fronts, and burned some farms behind the German trenches. About six the fire died down, and we had a peaceful evening and night, and Cosgrave and I in the dugout made good use of it. The Colonel has an individual dugout, and Dodds sleeps "topside" in the trench. To all this, put in a background of anxiety lest the line break, for we are just where it broke before.

Another day of intense action, but last night a lot of French and British artillery arrived, and the area is crowded with Germans. There have been plenty of premature explosions (with all this firing) but the shells usually land farther away before they reach us. It’s unsettling, I have to say. And all the while, the birds are singing in the trees above us. Yesterday, by noon, we fired 3,000 rounds in the past twenty-four hours; today we’ve fired much less, but we’ve marked new fronts and set some farms behind the German trenches on fire. Around six, the firing lessened, and we had a calm evening and night, so Cosgrave and I made good use of it in the dugout. The Colonel has his own dugout, while Dodds sleeps "topside" in the trench. Amid all this, there’s an underlying anxiety about the possibility of the line breaking, because we are right where it collapsed before.

Tuesday, April 27th, 1915.

Tuesday, April 27, 1915.

This morning again registering batteries on new points. At 1.30 a heavy attack was prepared by the French and ourselves. The fire was very heavy for half an hour and the enemy got busy too. I had to cross over to the batteries during it, an unpleasant journey. More gas attacks in the afternoon. The French did not appear to press the attack hard, but in the light of subsequent events it probably was only a feint. It seems likely that about this time our people began to thin out the artillery again for use elsewhere; but this did not at once become apparent. At night usually the heavies farther back take up the story, and there is a duel. The Germans fire on our roads after dark to catch reliefs and transport. I suppose ours do the same.

This morning, we were again registering batteries at new locations. At 1:30, a heavy attack was launched by the French and us. The fire was intense for about half an hour, and the enemy got active too. I had to make an unpleasant journey to the batteries during this time. More gas attacks occurred in the afternoon. The French didn’t seem to press the attack aggressively, but looking back at what happened later, it was probably just a distraction. It appears that around this time, our forces started to move some of the artillery out for use elsewhere; however, that wasn’t immediately obvious. At night, the heavier artillery further back usually picks up the action, leading to a battle. The Germans fire on our roads after dark to catch reliefs and transport. I assume our forces do the same.

Wednesday, April 28th, 1915.

Wednesday, April 28, 1915.

I have to confess to an excellent sleep last night. At times anxiety says, "I don't want a meal," but experience says "you need your food," so I attend regularly to that. The billet is not too safe either. Much German air reconnaissance over us, and heavy firing from both sides during the day. At 6.45 we again prepared a heavy artillery attack, but the infantry made little attempt to go on. We are perhaps the "chopping block", and our "preparations" may be chiefly designed to prevent detachments of troops being sent from our front elsewhere.

I have to admit I had a great sleep last night. Sometimes anxiety says, "I don’t want to eat," but experience tells me "you need your food," so I make sure to eat regularly. The place isn’t very safe either. There’s a lot of German aerial surveillance over us, and heavy fighting from both sides during the day. At 6:45, we set up for another heavy artillery attack, but the infantry barely made any effort to advance. We might be the "chopping block," and our "preparations" could mainly be aimed at stopping troops from being sent away from our front.

I have said nothing of what goes on on our right and left; but it is equally part and parcel of the whole game; this eight mile front is constantly heavily engaged. At intervals, too, they bombard Ypres. Our back lines, too, have to be constantly shifted on account of shell fire, and we have desultory but constant losses there. In the evening rifle fire gets more frequent, and bullets are constantly singing over us. Some of them are probably ricochets, for we are 1800 yards, or nearly, from the nearest German trench.

I haven’t mentioned what’s happening on our right and left, but it’s just as much a part of the whole situation; this eight-mile front is always heavily engaged. Occasionally, they shell Ypres as well. Our rear lines also have to be moved around constantly because of shell fire, and we face ongoing, random losses there. In the evenings, the rifle fire picks up, and bullets are always whizzing over us. Some of them are probably ricochets because we’re nearly 1800 yards from the closest German trench.

Thursday, April 29th, 1915.

Thursday, April 29, 1915.

This morning our billet was hit. We fire less these days, but still a good deal. There was a heavy French attack on our left. The "gas" attacks can be seen from here. The yellow cloud rising up is for us a signal to open, and we do. The wind is from our side to-day, and a good thing it is. Several days ago during the firing a big Oxford-grey dog, with beautiful brown eyes, came to us in a panic. He ran to me, and pressed his head HARD against my leg. So I got him a safe place and he sticks by us. We call him Fleabag, for he looks like it.

This morning, our shelter got hit. We don’t fire as much these days, but we still shoot quite a bit. There was a heavy French attack on our left. The "gas" attacks are visible from here. The yellow cloud rising up is our signal to fire back, and we do. The wind is blowing from our side today, which is a good thing. A few days ago, during the shooting, a big Oxford-gray dog with beautiful brown eyes came to us in a panic. He ran over to me and pressed his head HARD against my leg. So I found him a safe spot, and he sticks close to us. We call him Fleabag because he looks like one.

This night they shelled us again heavily for some hours—the same shorts, hits, overs on percussion, and great yellow-green air bursts. One feels awfully irritated by the constant din—a mixture of anger and apprehension.

This night, they bombarded us heavily for several hours—the same loud explosions, impacts, and huge yellow-green bursts in the air. It’s incredibly frustrating dealing with the nonstop noise—it’s a mix of anger and worry.

Friday, April 30th, 1915.

Friday, April 30, 1915.

Thick mist this morning, and relative quietness; but before it cleared the Germans started again to shell us. At 10 it cleared, and from 10 to 2 we fired constantly. The French advanced, and took some ground on our left front and a batch of prisoners. This was at a place we call Twin Farms. Our men looked curiously at the Boches as they were marched through. Some better activity in the afternoon by the Allies' aeroplanes. The German planes have had it too much their way lately. Many of to-day's shells have been very large—10 or 12 inch; a lot of tremendous holes dug in the fields just behind us.

Thick fog this morning, and relatively quiet; but before it lifted, the Germans started shelling us again. At 10, it cleared up, and from 10 to 2, we fired continuously. The French advanced and gained some ground on our left flank, capturing a group of prisoners. This happened at a spot we call Twin Farms. Our men looked on curiously as the Germans were marched through. There was some improved activity in the afternoon from the Allies' planes. The German aircraft have had it their way for too long recently. Many of today's shells were very large—10 or 12 inches; a lot of huge craters were dug in the fields just behind us.

Saturday, May 1st, 1915.

Saturday, May 1, 1915.

May day! Heavy bombardment at intervals through the day. Another heavy artillery preparation at 3.25, but no French advance. We fail to understand why, but orders go. We suffered somewhat during the day. Through the evening and night heavy firing at intervals.

May Day! There was heavy shelling at intervals throughout the day. Another intense artillery preparation at 3:25, but no French offensive. We don’t quite understand why, but orders are given. We faced some losses during the day. Throughout the evening and into the night, there was heavy firing at intervals.

Sunday, May 2nd, 1915.

Sunday, May 2, 1915.

Heavy gunfire again this morning. Lieut. H—— was killed at the guns. His diary's last words were, "It has quieted a little and I shall try to get a good sleep." I said the Committal Service over him, as well as I could from memory. A soldier's death! Batteries again registering barrages or barriers of fire at set ranges. At 3 the Germans attacked, preceded by gas clouds. Fighting went on for an hour and a half, during which their guns hammered heavily with some loss to us. The French lines are very uneasy, and we are correspondingly anxious. The infantry fire was very heavy, and we fired incessantly, keeping on into the night. Despite the heavy fire I got asleep at 12, and slept until daylight which comes at 3.

Heavy gunfire again this morning. Lieutenant H—— was killed at the guns. His diary's last words were, "It has quieted a little and I will try to get a good sleep." I performed the Committal Service for him as best as I could from memory. A soldier's death! Batteries again delivering barrages or barriers of fire at set ranges. At 3, the Germans launched an attack, preceded by gas clouds. The fighting continued for an hour and a half, during which their guns pounded heavily, causing some losses for us. The French lines are very tense, and we are understandably anxious. The infantry fire was very intense, and we fired continuously, carrying on into the night. Despite the heavy fire, I managed to fall asleep at 12 and slept until daylight, which arrives at 3.

Monday, May 3rd, 1915.

Monday, May 3, 1915.

A clear morning, and the accursed German aeroplanes over our positions again. They are usually fired at, but no luck. To-day a shell on our hill dug out a cannon ball about six inches in diameter—probably of Napoleon's or earlier times—heavily rusted. A German attack began, but half an hour of artillery fire drove it back. Major——, R.A., was up forward, and could see the German reserves. Our 4th was turned on: first round 100 over; shortened and went into gunfire, and his report was that the effect was perfect. The same occurred again in the evening, and again at midnight. The Germans were reported to be constantly massing for attack, and we as constantly "went to them". The German guns shelled us as usual at intervals. This must get very tiresome to read; but through it all, it must be mentioned that the constantly broken communications have to be mended, rations and ammunition brought up, the wounded to be dressed and got away. Our dugouts have the French Engineers and French Infantry next door by turns. They march in and out. The back of the hill is a network of wires, so that one has to go carefully.

A clear morning, and the dreaded German planes are over our positions again. They usually get shot at, but it doesn’t lead to anything. Today, a shell on our hill unearthed a cannonball about six inches in diameter—likely from Napoleon’s time or even earlier—heavily rusted. A German attack started, but after half an hour of artillery fire, they were pushed back. Major——, R.A., was up front and could see the German reserves. We called in our 4th: the first round was over by 100; it was shortened and went into gunfire, and his report was that the impact was perfect. The same thing happened again in the evening and then at midnight. The Germans were reported to be continually gathering for an attack, and we were continually responding. The German guns shelled us regularly at intervals. This must be pretty tiresome to read; but through it all, it’s important to mention that the constantly broken communications have to be fixed, rations and ammunition need to be brought up, and the wounded need to be treated and evacuated. Our dugouts are next to the French Engineers and French Infantry, who come and go. The back of the hill is a tangled mess of wires, so you have to navigate carefully.

Tuesday, May 4th, 1915.

Tuesday, May 4, 1915.

Despite intermittent shelling and some casualties the quietest day yet; but we live in an uneasy atmosphere as German attacks are constantly being projected, and our communications are interrupted and scrappy. We get no news of any sort and have just to sit tight and hold on. Evening closed in rainy and dark. Our dugout is very slenderly provided against it, and we get pretty wet and very dirty. In the quieter morning hours we get a chance of a wash and occasionally a shave.

Despite sporadic shelling and some casualties, it’s the quietest day so far; however, we exist in a tense atmosphere as German attacks are always anticipated, and our communications are inconsistent and chaotic. We receive no news at all and just have to stay put and endure. Evening fell in rainy and dark. Our dugout is barely equipped for it, and we get quite wet and very dirty. During the quieter morning hours, we have a chance to wash up and, occasionally, shave.

Wednesday, May 5th, 1915.

Wednesday, May 5, 1915.

Heavily hammered in the morning from 7 to 9, but at 9 it let up; the sun came out and things looked better. Evidently our line has again been thinned of artillery and the requisite minimum to hold is left. There were German attacks to our right, just out of our area. Later on we and they both fired heavily, the first battery getting it especially hot. The planes over us again and again, to coach the guns. An attack expected at dusk, but it turned only to heavy night shelling, so that with our fire, theirs, and the infantry cracking away constantly, we got sleep in small quantity all night; bullets whizzing over us constantly. Heavy rain from 5 to 8, and everything wet except the far-in corner of the dugout, where we mass our things to keep them as dry as we may.

It was really intense in the morning from 7 to 9, but at 9 it eased up; the sun came out and things looked better. Clearly, our artillery line has been thinned out again, and only the minimum needed to hold position is left. There were German attacks to our right, just outside our area. Later on, both sides fired heavily, with the first battery getting hit particularly hard. The planes flew overhead repeatedly to guide the guns. An attack was expected at dusk, but it turned into just heavy night shelling, so with our fire, theirs, and the infantry firing constantly, we got very little sleep all night; bullets were whizzing over us all the time. It rained heavily from 5 to 8, soaking everything except the far corner of the dugout, where we piled our things to keep them as dry as possible.

Thursday, May 6th, 1915.

Thursday, May 6, 1915.

After the rain a bright morning; the leaves and blossoms are coming out. We ascribe our quietude to a welcome flock of allied planes which are over this morning. The Germans attacked at eleven, and again at six in the afternoon, each meaning a waking up of heavy artillery on the whole front. In the evening we had a little rain at intervals, but it was light.

After the rain, it’s a bright morning; the leaves and flowers are blooming. We credit our calmness to a reassuring group of friendly planes flying overhead this morning. The Germans launched an attack at eleven, and again at six in the afternoon, both signaling a surge of heavy artillery across the entire front. In the evening, we had some light rain at times, but it was minimal.

Friday, May 7th, 1915.

Friday, May 7, 1915.

A bright morning early, but clouded over later. The Germans gave it to us very heavily. There was heavy fighting to the south-east of us. Two attacks or threats, and we went in again.

A bright morning to start, but it got cloudy later. The Germans hit us hard. There was intense fighting to our southeast. We faced two attacks or threats, and we went back in again.

Saturday, May 8th, 1915.

Saturday, May 8, 1915.

For the last three days we have been under British divisional control, and supporting our own men who have been put farther to the left, till they are almost in front of us. It is an added comfort. We have four officers out with various infantry regiments for observation and co-operation; they have to stick it in trenches, as all the houses and barns are burned. The whole front is constantly ablaze with big gunfire; the racket never ceases. We have now to do most of the work for our left, as our line appears to be much thinner than it was. A German attack followed the shelling at 7; we were fighting hard till 12, and less regularly all the afternoon. We suffered much, and at one time were down to seven guns. Of these two were smoking at every joint, and the levers were so hot that the gunners used sacking for their hands. The pace is now much hotter, and the needs of the infantry for fire more insistent. The guns are in bad shape by reason of dirt, injuries, and heat. The wind fortunately blows from us, so there is no gas, but the attacks are still very heavy. Evening brought a little quiet, but very disquieting news (which afterwards proved untrue); and we had to face a possible retirement. You may imagine our state of mind, unable to get anything sure in the uncertainty, except that we should stick out as long as the guns would fire, and we could fire them. That sort of night brings a man down to his "bare skin", I promise you. The night was very cold, and not a cheerful one.

For the last three days, we've been under British divisional control, supporting our own troops who have been pushed further to the left, almost right in front of us. It’s a bit of a relief. We have four officers with different infantry regiments for observation and cooperation; they have to endure the trenches since all the houses and barns are burned down. The whole front is constantly lit up with heavy gunfire; the noise never quits. We now have to do most of the work on our left since our line seems much thinner than before. A German attack followed the shelling at 7; we fought hard until 12, and it was less organized all afternoon. We took heavy losses and at one point were down to seven guns. Of those, two were leaking smoke at every joint, and the levers were so hot that the gunners had to use sacks to protect their hands. The pace has picked up significantly, and the infantry’s demands for fire support are more pressing. The guns are in rough shape due to dirt, damage, and heat. Luckily, the wind is blowing away from us, so there’s no gas, but the attacks are still extremely intense. Evening brought a bit of calm, but also some very concerning news (which later turned out to be false); we had to prepare for a potential retreat. You can imagine our state of mind, unable to grasp anything certain amid the uncertainty, except that we would hold out as long as the guns could still fire and we were able to fire them. That kind of night strips a person down to their "bare skin," I assure you. The night was very cold and far from cheerful.

Sunday, May 9th, 1915.

Sunday, May 9, 1915.

At 4 we were ordered to get ready to move, and the Adjutant picked out new retirement positions; but a little later better news came, and the daylight and sun revived us a bit. As I sat in my dugout a little white and black dog with tan spots bolted in over the parapet, during heavy firing, and going to the farthest corner began to dig furiously. Having scraped out a pathetic little hole two inches deep, she sat down and shook, looking most plaintively at me. A few minutes later, her owner came along, a French soldier. Bissac was her name, but she would not leave me at the time. When I sat down a little later, she stole out and shyly crawled in between me and the wall; she stayed by me all day, and I hope got later on to safe quarters.

At 4, we were told to get ready to move, and the Adjutant picked out new retirement positions. But a little later, we got better news, and the daylight and sun lifted our spirits a bit. While I was sitting in my dugout, a small black and white dog with tan spots raced in over the parapet during heavy firing. She ran to the farthest corner and started digging furiously. After scraping out a sad little hole that was just two inches deep, she sat down and shook, looking up at me with big, pleading eyes. A few minutes later, her owner, a French soldier, came by. Her name was Bissac, but she wouldn’t leave my side at that moment. When I sat down a little later, she crept out and shyly nestled between me and the wall; she stayed with me all day, and I hope she eventually made it to a safe place.

Firing kept up all day. In thirty hours we had fired 3600 rounds, and at times with seven, eight, or nine guns; our wire cut and repaired eighteen times. Orders came to move, and we got ready. At dusk we got the guns out by hand, and all batteries assembled at a given spot in comparative safety. We were much afraid they would open on us, for at 10 o'clock they gave us 100 or 150 rounds, hitting the trench parapet again and again. However, we were up the road, the last wagon half a mile away before they opened. One burst near me, and splattered some pieces around, but we got clear, and by 12 were out of the usual fire zone. Marched all night, tired as could be, but happy to be clear.

Firing continued all day. In thirty hours, we had fired 3,600 rounds, and at times with seven, eight, or nine guns; our wire was cut and repaired eighteen times. Orders came to move, and we got ready. At dusk, we moved the guns out by hand, and all batteries gathered at a designated spot in relative safety. We were very concerned they would open fire on us, because at 10 o'clock they bombarded us with 100 or 150 rounds, hitting the trench parapet repeatedly. However, we were up the road, with the last wagon half a mile away before they started firing. One shell burst near me, scattering some debris around, but we managed to get clear, and by midnight, we were out of the usual fire zone. We marched all night, exhausted but relieved to be safe.

I was glad to get on dear old Bonfire again. We made about sixteen miles, and got to our billets at dawn. I had three or four hours' sleep, and arose to a peaceful breakfast. We shall go back to the line elsewhere very soon, but it is a present relief, and the next place is sure to be better, for it cannot be worse. Much of this narrative is bald and plain, but it tells our part in a really great battle. I have only had hasty notes to go by; in conversation there is much one could say that would be of greater interest. Heard of the 'Lusitania' disaster on our road out. A terrible affair!

I was happy to be back on dear old Bonfire again. We traveled about sixteen miles and reached our billets at dawn. I managed to get three or four hours of sleep and woke up to a peaceful breakfast. We’ll be heading back to the front line somewhere else very soon, but for now, this is a welcome break, and the next place has to be better since it can't be worse. A lot of this story is straightforward and simple, but it covers our part in a truly significant battle. I’ve only had quick notes to work from; in conversation, there’s so much more that could be said that would be more captivating. We heard about the 'Lusitania' disaster while we were on our way out. What a terrible situation!





Here ends the account of his part in this memorable battle,





And here follow some general observations upon the experience:

Northern France, May 10th, 1915.

Northern France, May 10, 1915.

We got here to refit and rest this morning at 4, having marched last night at 10. The general impression in my mind is of a nightmare. We have been in the most bitter of fights. For seventeen days and seventeen nights none of us have had our clothes off, nor our boots even, except occasionally. In all that time while I was awake, gunfire and rifle fire never ceased for sixty seconds, and it was sticking to our utmost by a weak line all but ready to break, knowing nothing of what was going on, and depressed by reports of anxious infantry. The men and the divisions are worthy of all praise that can be given. It did not end in four days when many of our infantry were taken out. It kept on at fever heat till yesterday.

We arrived to refit and rest this morning at 4, after marching last night at 10. The overall feeling in my mind is like a nightmare. We’ve been in the most intense battles. For seventeen days and seventeen nights, none of us have taken off our clothes, or even our boots, except on rare occasions. During all that time while I was awake, gunfire and rifle fire never stopped for even a minute, and we were barely holding on by a thin line, completely unaware of what was happening, and feeling down due to reports from worried infantry. The soldiers and the divisions deserve all the praise possible. It didn’t stop after four days when many of our infantry were pulled out. It kept going at full intensity until yesterday.

This, of course, is the second battle of Ypres, or the battle of the Yser, I do not know which. At one time we were down to seven guns, but those guns were smoking at every joint, the gunners using cloth to handle the breech levers because of the heat. We had three batteries in action with four guns added from the other units. Our casualties were half the number of men in the firing line. The horse lines and the wagon lines farther back suffered less, but the Brigade list has gone far higher than any artillery normal. I know one brigade R.A. that was in the Mons retreat and had about the same. I have done what fell to hand. My clothes, boots, kit, and dugout at various times were sadly bloody. Two of our batteries are reduced to two officers each. We have had constant accurate shell-fire, but we have given back no less. And behind it all was the constant background of the sights of the dead, the wounded, the maimed, and a terrible anxiety lest the line should give way.

This is the second battle of Ypres, or the battle of the Yser, I’m not sure which. At one point, we were down to seven guns, but those guns were overheating, and the gunners had to use cloth to handle the breech levers because of the heat. We had three batteries in action and added four guns from other units. Our casualties were half the number of men in the firing line. The horse lines and the wagon lines further back had fewer casualties, but the Brigade list has climbed way higher than the usual for artillery. I know one brigade R.A. that was part of the Mons retreat and faced about the same situation. I’ve done what I could. My clothes, boots, kit, and dugout were often covered in blood. Two of our batteries are down to two officers each. We’ve faced constant accurate shell-fire, but we’ve returned fire just as effectively. And throughout it all, there was the constant sight of the dead, the wounded, the maimed, and a terrible fear that the line might break.

During all this time, we have been behind French troops, and only helping our own people by oblique fire when necessary. Our horses have suffered heavily too. Bonfire had a light wound from a piece of shell; it is healing and the dear old fellow is very fit. Had my first ride for seventeen days last night. We never saw horses but with the wagons bringing up the ammunition. When fire was hottest they had to come two miles on a road terribly swept, and they did it magnificently. But how tired we are! Weary in body and wearier in mind. None of our men went off their heads but men in units nearby did—and no wonder.

During all this time, we’ve been behind French troops, only helping our own people with indirect fire when needed. Our horses have suffered a lot too. Bonfire had a minor wound from a piece of shell; it’s healing, and the old guy is doing well. I had my first ride in seventeen days last night. We never saw horses except for the wagons bringing up the ammunition. When the fighting was at its worst, they had to travel two miles on a heavily damaged road, and they handled it wonderfully. But we're so tired! Exhausted in body and even more so in mind. None of our men lost their cool, but men in nearby units did—and it’s no surprise.

France, May 12th, 1915.

France, May 12, 1915.

I am glad you had your mind at rest by the rumour that we were in reserve. What newspaper work! The poor old artillery never gets any mention, and the whole show is the infantry. It may interest you to note on your map a spot on the west bank of the canal, a mile and a half north of Ypres, as the scene of our labours. There can be no harm in saying so, now that we are out of it. The unit was the most advanced of all the Allies' guns by a good deal except one French battery which stayed in a position yet more advanced for two days, and then had to be taken out. I think it may be said that we saw the show from the soup to the coffee.

I’m glad you were reassured by the rumor that we were in reserve. What a mess with the newspapers! The poor artillery never gets any recognition, and the whole focus is on the infantry. You might find it interesting to mark a spot on your map: it’s on the west bank of the canal, a mile and a half north of Ypres, where we were working. There’s no harm in mentioning it now that we’re done. Our unit was the most advanced of all the Allies' guns, except for one French battery that remained in an even more advanced position for two days before having to be pulled back. I think it’s safe to say that we witnessed everything from start to finish.

France, May 17th, 1915.

France, May 17, 1915.

The farther we get away from Ypres the more we learn of the enormous power the Germans put in to push us over. Lord only knows how many men they had, and how many they lost. I wish I could embody on paper some of the varied sensations of that seventeen days. All the gunners down this way passed us all sorts of 'kudos' over it. Our guns—those behind us, from which we had to dodge occasional prematures—have a peculiar bang-sound added to the sharp crack of discharge. The French 75 has a sharp wood-block-chop sound, and the shell goes over with a peculiar whine—not unlike a cat, but beginning with n—thus,—n-eouw. The big fellows, 3000 yards or more behind, sounded exactly like our own, but the flash came three or four seconds before the sound. Of the German shells—the field guns come with a great velocity—no warning—just whizz-bang; white smoke, nearly always air bursts. The next size, probably 5 inch howitzers, have a perceptible time of approach, an increasing whine, and a great burst on the percussion—dirt in all directions. And even if a shell hit on the front of the canal bank, and one were on the back of the bank, five, eight, or ten seconds later one would hear a belated WHIRR, and curved pieces of shell would light—probably parabolic curves or boomerangs. These shells have a great back kick; from the field gun shrapnel we got nothing BEHIND the shell—all the pieces go forward. From the howitzers, the danger is almost as great behind as in front if they burst on percussion. Then the large shrapnel—air-burst—have a double explosion, as if a giant shook a wet sail for two flaps; first a dark green burst of smoke; then a lighter yellow burst goes out from the centre, forwards. I do not understand the why of it.

The further we move away from Ypres, the more we realize the immense effort the Germans put into pushing us back. Who knows how many troops they had, or how many they lost? I wish I could capture on paper some of the mixed emotions from those seventeen days. All the gunners around here praised us for it. Our guns—the ones behind us, from which we had to dodge the occasional misfire—make a unique bang sound added to the sharp crack of firing. The French 75 has a distinct, sharp sound like chopping wood, and the shell flies overhead with a peculiar whine—not unlike a cat, but starting with an "n"—n-eouw. The big guns, positioned over 3000 yards behind, sound just like our own, but you see the flash three to four seconds before you hear the sound. As for the German shells—the ones from field guns come at a great speed—there's no warning—just whizz-bang; always accompanied by white smoke, usually exploding in the air. The next size up, probably 5-inch howitzers, have a noticeable approach time, a rising whine, and a massive explosion on impact—dirt flies in all directions. Even if a shell hits the front of the canal bank while you're on the back, you might hear a delayed WHIRR five, eight, or ten seconds later, with curved pieces of shell landing—likely following parabolic paths or slingshot trajectories. These shells have a significant back blast; from the field gun shrapnel, we receive nothing behind the shell—all the fragments fly forward. With howitzers, the danger is nearly as great behind as it is in front if they explode on impact. Then the large shrapnel—when they burst in the air—create a double explosion, like a giant shaking a wet sail for two flaps; first there’s a dark green puff of smoke, followed by a lighter yellow surge that shoots forward from the center. I don’t understand why that happens.

Then the 10-inch shells: a deliberate whirring course—a deafening explosion—black smoke, and earth 70 or 80 feet in the air. These always burst on percussion. The constant noise of our own guns is really worse on the nerves than the shell; there is the deafening noise, and the constant whirr of shells going overhead. The earth shakes with every nearby gun and every close shell. I think I may safely enclose a cross section of our position. The left is the front: a slope down of 20 feet in 100 yards to the canal, a high row of trees on each bank, then a short 40 yards slope up to the summit of the trench, where the brain of the outfit was; then a telephone wired slope, and on the sharp slope, the dugouts, including my own. The nondescript affair on the low slope is the gun position, behind it the men's shelter pits. Behind my dugout was a rapid small stream, on its far bank a row of pollard willows, then 30 yards of field, then a road with two parallel rows of high trees. Behind this again, several hundred yards of fields to cross before the main gun positions are reached.

Then the 10-inch shells: a deliberate whirring sound—a deafening explosion—black smoke, and dirt flying 70 or 80 feet in the air. These always explode on impact. The constant noise of our own guns is really harder on the nerves than the shells; there's the deafening sound and the continuous whirr of shells flying overhead. The ground shakes with every nearby gun and every close shell. I think I can safely include a cross section of our position. The left is the front: a 20-foot drop over 100 yards to the canal, with a tall row of trees on each bank, then a short 40-yard climb up to the top of the trench, where the command center was; next is a sloping area with telephone wires, and along the steep slope are the dugouts, including my own. The nondescript structure on the low slope is the gun position, with the men's shelter pits behind it. Behind my dugout was a fast-flowing small stream, with a row of pollard willows on the far bank, then 30 yards of field, followed by a road lined with two rows of tall trees. Beyond that, several hundred yards of fields to cross before reaching the main gun positions.

More often fire came from three quarters left, and because our ridge died away there was a low spot over which they could come pretty dangerously. The road thirty yards behind us was a nightmare to me. I saw all the tragedies of war enacted there. A wagon, or a bunch of horses, or a stray man, or a couple of men, would get there just in time for a shell. One would see the absolute knock-out, and the obviously lightly wounded crawling off on hands and knees; or worse yet, at night, one would hear the tragedy—"that horse scream"—or the man's moan. All our own wagons had to come there (one every half hour in smart action), be emptied, and the ammunition carried over by hand. Do you wonder that the road got on our nerves? On this road, too, was the house where we took our meals. It was hit several times, windows all blown in by nearby shells, but one end remained for us.

More often, fire came from the left, and because our ridge sloped down, there was a low spot they could approach pretty dangerously. The road thirty yards behind us was a nightmare for me. I saw all the tragedies of war play out there. A wagon, a group of horses, a lone soldier, or a couple of guys would arrive just in time for a shell to hit. You’d see the complete devastation and the visibly wounded crawling away on hands and knees; or even worse, at night, you’d hear the tragedy—“that horse scream”—or the groan of a man. All our wagons had to use that road (one every half hour during active combat), get emptied, and then the ammunition had to be carried over by hand. Do you really expect that road wouldn’t get on our nerves? On this road, there was also the house where we had our meals. It was hit several times, with windows blown out from nearby shells, but one end was still standing for us.

Seventeen days of Hades! At the end of the first day if anyone had told us we had to spend seventeen days there, we would have folded our hands and said it could not be done. On the fifteenth day we got orders to go out, but that was countermanded in two hours. To the last we could scarcely believe we were actually to get out. The real audacity of the position was its safety; the Germans knew to a foot where we were. I think I told you of some of the "you must stick it out" messages we got from our [French] General,—they put it up to us. It is a wonder to me that we slept when, and how, we did. If we had not slept and eaten as well as possible we could not have lasted. And while we were doing this, the London office of a Canadian newspaper cabled home "Canadian Artillery in reserve." Such is fame!

Seventeen days in hell! At the end of the first day, if anyone had told us we had to spend seventeen days there, we would have just shrugged and said it was impossible. On the fifteenth day, we received orders to leave, but they were canceled within two hours. Until the end, we could hardly believe we were actually going to get out. The real irony of the situation was its safety; the Germans knew exactly where we were. I think I mentioned some of the "you have to stick it out" messages we received from our French General—they really put pressure on us. I’m amazed we managed to sleep at all when we did. If we hadn’t slept and eaten as best as we could, we wouldn’t have survived. And while we were doing this, the London office of a Canadian newspaper cabled home, "Canadian Artillery in reserve." Such is fame!

Thursday, May 27th, 1915.

Thursday, May 27, 1915.

Day cloudy and chilly. We wore our greatcoats most of the afternoon, and looked for bits of sunlight to get warm. About two o'clock the heavy guns gave us a regular "black-smithing". Every time we fired we drew a perfect hornet's nest about our heads. While attending to a casualty, a shell broke through both sides of the trench, front and back, about twelve feet away. The zigzag of the trench was between it and us, and we escaped. From my bunk the moon looks down at me, and the wind whistles along the trench like a corridor. As the trenches run in all directions they catch the wind however it blows, so one is always sure of a good draught. We have not had our clothes off since last Saturday, and there is no near prospect of getting them off.

The day was cloudy and chilly. We wore our heavy coats most of the afternoon and looked for patches of sunlight to warm up. Around two o'clock, the heavy artillery gave us a real "blacksmithing." Each time we fired, we stirred up a perfect hornet's nest around us. While I was tending to a casualty, a shell broke through both sides of the trench, front and back, about twelve feet away. The zigzag of the trench was between us, and we got lucky and escaped. From my bunk, the moon looks down at me, and the wind whistles through the trench like it's a hallway. Since the trenches run in all directions, they catch the wind no matter how it blows, so there's always a good draft. We haven’t taken our clothes off since last Saturday, and there's no sign we’ll be able to soon.

Friday, May 28th, 1915.

Friday, May 28, 1915.

Warmer this morning and sunny, a quiet morning, as far as we were concerned. One battery fired twenty rounds and the rest "sat tight". Newspapers which arrive show that up to May 7th, the Canadian public has made no guess at the extent of the battle of Ypres. The Canadian papers seem to have lost interest in it after the first four days; this regardless of the fact that the artillery, numerically a quarter of the division, was in all the time. One correspondent writes from the Canadian rest camp, and never mentions Ypres. Others say they hear heavy bombarding which appears to come from Armentieres.

It was warmer and sunny this morning, a pretty quiet one from our perspective. One battery fired twenty rounds while the rest just stayed put. The newspapers that arrived show that up to May 7th, the Canadian public hasn't really grasped the scale of the battle of Ypres. The Canadian papers seem to have lost interest after the first four days, even though a quarter of the division's artillery was active the whole time. One correspondent writes from the Canadian rest camp and doesn’t even mention Ypres. Others report hearing heavy shelling that seems to be coming from Armentières.





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Wednesday, April 29th*, 1915.

Wednesday, April 29, 1915.

This morning is the sixth day of this fight; it has been constant, except that we got good chance to sleep for the last two nights. Our men have fought beyond praise. Canadian soldiers have set a standard for themselves which will keep posterity busy to surpass. And the War Office published that the 4.1 guns captured were Canadian. They were not: the division has not lost a gun so far by capture. We will make a good job of it—if we can.

This morning marks the sixth day of this battle; it’s been relentless, except we managed to get some decent sleep the last two nights. Our troops have fought remarkably well. Canadian soldiers have set a standard for themselves that future generations will struggle to exceed. And the War Office announced that the 4.1 guns captured were Canadian. They weren’t: the division hasn’t lost a single gun to capture so far. We’ll do our best—if we can.

     * [sic]  This should read April 28th.—A. L., 1995.

May 1st, 1915.

May 1, 1915.

This is the ninth day that we have stuck to the ridge, and the batteries have fought with a steadiness which is beyond all praise. If I could say what our casualties in men, guns, and horses were, you would see at a glance it has been a hot corner; but we have given better than we got, for the German casualties from this front have been largely from artillery, except for the French attack of yesterday and the day before, when they advanced appreciably on our left. The front, however, just here remains where it was, and the artillery fire is very heavy—I think as heavy here as on any part of the line, with the exception of certain cross-roads which are the particular object of fire. The first four days the anxiety was wearing, for we did not know at what minute the German army corps would come for us. We lie out in support of the French troops entirely, and are working with them. Since that time evidently great reinforcements have come in, and now we have a most formidable force of artillery to turn on them.

This is the ninth day that we’ve been stuck on the ridge, and the batteries have fought with an unwavering determination that's beyond praise. If I could tell you our casualties in soldiers, guns, and horses, you’d see right away how intense it’s been here; but we’ve inflicted more damage than we’ve taken, as most of the German casualties from this front have come from our artillery, except during the French attacks yesterday and the day before when they made significant advances on our left. The front here, however, remains unchanged, and the artillery fire is extremely heavy—I’d say it’s as intense here as anywhere else on the line, except for some crossroads that are being targeted specifically. The first four days were stressful because we didn’t know when the German army corps would come after us. We’re positioned in support of the French troops completely and are working alongside them. Since then, it’s clear that significant reinforcements have arrived, and now we have a very strong artillery force ready to unleash on them.

Fortunately the weather has been good; the days are hot and summer-like. Yesterday in the press of bad smells I got a whiff of a hedgerow in bloom. The birds perch on the trees over our heads and twitter away as if there was nothing to worry about. Bonfire is still well. I do hope he gets through all right.

Fortunately, the weather has been nice; the days are hot and feel like summer. Yesterday, amidst the unpleasant odors, I caught a scent of blooming hedgerows. The birds are perched in the trees above us, chirping away as if there’s nothing to stress about. Bonfire is still doing well. I really hope he gets through this okay.

Flanders, March 30th, 1915.

Flanders, March 30, 1915.

The Brigade is actually in twelve different places. The ammunition column and the horse and wagon lines are back, and my corporal visits them every day. I attend the gun lines; any casualty is reported by telephone, and I go to it. The wounded and sick stay where they are till dark, when the field ambulances go over certain grounds and collect. A good deal of suffering is entailed by the delay till night, but it is useless for vehicles to go on the roads within 1500 yards of the trenches. They are willing enough to go. Most of the trench injuries are of the head, and therefore there is a high proportion of killed in the daily warfare as opposed to an attack. Our Canadian plots fill up rapidly.

The Brigade is actually in twelve different locations. The ammo column and the horse and wagon lines are in the back, and my corporal checks on them every day. I oversee the gun lines; any casualties are reported by phone, and I respond to them. The wounded and sick stay where they are until dark, when the field ambulances go over certain areas to collect them. A lot of suffering is caused by the wait until night, but it's not practical for vehicles to use the roads within 1500 yards of the trenches. They’re ready to go, though. Most of the injuries in the trenches are to the head, which means there’s a higher number of fatalities in daily fighting compared to an actual assault. Our Canadian platoons fill up quickly.





And here is one last note to his mother:

On the eve of the battle of Ypres I was indebted to you for a letter which said "take good care of my son Jack, but I would not have you unmindful that, sometimes, when we save we lose." I have that last happy phrase to thank. Often when I had to go out over the areas that were being shelled, it came into my mind. I would shoulder the box, and "go to it".

On the night before the battle of Ypres, I was grateful for your letter that said, "Take good care of my son Jack, but don't forget that sometimes, when we save, we lose." I often reflect on that last uplifting phrase. Frequently, when I had to go out into the areas that were being shelled, it crossed my mind. I would grab the box and "get to it."





At this time the Canadian division was moving south to take its share in

the events that happened in the La Bassee sector. Here is the record:

the events that occurred in the La Bassee sector. Here is the record:

Tuesday, June 1st, 1915.

Tuesday, June 1, 1915.

1-1/2 miles northeast of Festubert, near La Bassee.

1.5 miles northeast of Festubert, near La Bassee.

Last night a 15 pr. and a 4-inch howitzer fired at intervals of five minutes from 8 till 4; most of them within 500 or 600 yards—a very tiresome procedure; much of it is on registered roads. In the morning I walked out to Le Touret to the wagon lines, got Bonfire, and rode to the headquarters at Vendin-lez-Bethune, a little village a mile past Bethune. Left the horse at the lines and walked back again. An unfortunate shell in the 1st killed a sergeant and wounded two men; thanks to the strong emplacements the rest of the crew escaped. In the evening went around the batteries and said good-bye. We stood by while they laid away the sergeant who was killed. Kind hands have made two pathetic little wreaths of roses; the grave under an apple-tree, and the moon rising over the horizon; a siege-lamp held for the book. Of the last 41 days the guns have been in action 33. Captain Lockhart, late with Fort Garry Horse, arrived to relieve me. I handed over, came up to the horse lines, and slept in a covered wagon in a courtyard. We were all sorry to part—the four of us have been very intimate and had agreed perfectly—and friendships under these circumstances are apt to be the real thing. I am sorry to leave them in such a hot corner, but cannot choose and must obey orders. It is a great relief from strain, I must admit, to be out, but I could wish that they all were.

Last night, a 15-pounder and a 4-inch howitzer fired every five minutes from 8 PM to 4 AM, mostly within 500 to 600 yards—an exhausting process, much of it on registered roads. In the morning, I walked out to Le Touret to the supply lines, got Bonfire, and rode to headquarters at Vendin-lez-Bethune, a small village a mile past Bethune. I left the horse at the lines and walked back. An unfortunate shell hit the 1st, killing a sergeant and wounding two men; thanks to the strong positions, the rest of the crew got away. In the evening, I went around the batteries and said goodbye. We stood by while they laid the sergeant to rest. Kind hands made two touching little wreaths of roses; the grave is under an apple tree, with the moon rising in the background; a siege lamp was held for the book. Of the last 41 days, the guns have been in action for 33. Captain Lockhart, who was with Fort Garry Horse, arrived to relieve me. I handed over my duties, went up to the horse lines, and slept in a covered wagon in a courtyard. We were all sad to part—the four of us had become very close and meshed well together—and friendships in these circumstances tend to be genuine. I'm sorry to leave them in such a tough spot, but I have no choice and must follow orders. I must admit, it’s a big relief to be out, but I wish they could all be too.





This phase of the war lasted two months precisely,

and to John McCrae it must have seemed a lifetime since he went into this memorable action. The events preceding the second battle of Ypres received scant mention in his letters; but one remains, which brings into relief one of the many moves of that tumultuous time.

and to John McCrae it must have felt like a lifetime since he participated in this unforgettable action. The events leading up to the second battle of Ypres hardly got any mention in his letters; however, one remains that highlights one of the many actions during that chaotic period.

April 1st, 1915.

April 1, 1915.

We moved out in the late afternoon, getting on the road a little after dark. Such a move is not unattended by danger, for to bring horses and limbers down the roads in the shell zone in daylight renders them liable to observation, aerial or otherwise. More than that, the roads are now beginning to be dusty, and at all times there is the noise which carries far. The roads are nearly all registered in their battery books, so if they suspect a move, it is the natural thing to loose off a few rounds. However, our anxiety was not borne out, and we got out of the danger zone by 8.30—a not too long march in the dark, and then for the last of the march a glorious full moon. The houses everywhere are as dark as possible, and on the roads noises but no lights. One goes on by the long rows of trees that are so numerous in this country, on cobblestones and country roads, watching one's horses' ears wagging, and seeing not much else. Our maps are well studied before we start, and this time we are not far out of familiar territory. We got to our new billet about 10—quite a good farmhouse; and almost at once one feels the relief of the strain of being in the shell zone. I cannot say I had noticed it when there; but one is distinctly relieved when out of it.

We left in the late afternoon, hitting the road shortly after dark. Moving like this comes with risks because transporting horses and equipment down the roads in the danger zone during the day makes them easy to spot, whether by the air or otherwise. On top of that, the roads are starting to get dusty, and there's always noise that carries a long way. Most of the roads are documented in their battery logs, so if they suspect any movement, it’s natural for them to fire off a few rounds. However, our worries turned out to be unfounded, and we made it out of the danger zone by 8:30—a relatively short trek in the dark, and for the last part of the journey, a beautiful full moon lit our way. The houses around us are completely dark, and the roads are filled with sounds but no lights. We travel along the long rows of trees common in this area, on cobblestones and rural roads, keeping an eye on the horses' ears moving and not seeing much else. We've studied our maps carefully before setting off, and this time we're not too far from familiar ground. We arrived at our new quarters around 10—a decent farmhouse; and almost immediately, there's a sense of relief from the tension of being in the danger zone. I can't say I noticed it while we were there, but you definitely feel relieved once you're out of it.

Such, then, was the life in Flanders fields in which the verse was born. This is no mere surmise. There is a letter from Major-General E. W. B. Morrison, C.B., C.M.G., D.S.O., who commanded the Brigade at the time, which is quite explicit. "This poem," General Morrison writes, "was literally born of fire and blood during the hottest phase of the second battle of Ypres. My headquarters were in a trench on the top of the bank of the Ypres Canal, and John had his dressing station in a hole dug in the foot of the bank. During periods in the battle men who were shot actually rolled down the bank into his dressing station. Along from us a few hundred yards was the headquarters of a regiment, and many times during the sixteen days of battle, he and I watched them burying their dead whenever there was a lull. Thus the crosses, row on row, grew into a good-sized cemetery. Just as he describes, we often heard in the mornings the larks singing high in the air, between the crash of the shell and the reports of the guns in the battery just beside us. I have a letter from him in which he mentions having written the poem to pass away the time between the arrival of batches of wounded, and partly as an experiment with several varieties of poetic metre. I have a sketch of the scene, taken at the time, including his dressing station; and during our operations at Passchendaele last November, I found time to make a sketch of the scene of the crosses, row on row, from which he derived his inspiration."

Such was the life in the Flanders fields where the verse was created. This isn't just a guess. There's a letter from Major-General E. W. B. Morrison, C.B., C.M.G., D.S.O., who was in charge of the Brigade at the time, that makes it very clear. "This poem," General Morrison writes, "was literally born out of fire and blood during the peak of the second battle of Ypres. My headquarters were in a trench at the top of the Ypres Canal bank, and John had his dressing station in a hole at the foot of the bank. During times in the battle, men who were shot actually rolled down the bank into his dressing station. A few hundred yards from us was the headquarters of a regiment, and many times over the sixteen days of battle, he and I watched them burying their dead whenever there was a break. Thus the crosses, row after row, turned into a significant cemetery. Just as he describes, we often heard the larks singing high in the air in the mornings, amid the crashing of shells and the reports of the guns right beside us. I have a letter from him where he mentions writing the poem to pass the time between batches of wounded arriving, and partly as an experiment with different types of poetic meter. I have a sketch of the scene from that time, including his dressing station; and during our operations at Passchendaele last November, I found some time to sketch the rows of crosses that inspired him."

The last letter from the Front is dated June 1st, 1915. Upon that day he was posted to No. 3 General Hospital at Boulogne, and placed in charge of medicine with the rank of Lieutenant-Colonel as of date 17th April, 1915. Here he remained until the day of his death on January 28th, 1918.

The last letter from the Front is dated June 1st, 1915. On that day, he was assigned to No. 3 General Hospital in Boulogne, where he took charge of medicine with the rank of Lieutenant-Colonel effective April 17th, 1915. He stayed there until he passed away on January 28th, 1918.





III. The Brand of War

There are men who pass through such scenes unmoved. If they have eyes, they do not see; and ears, they do not hear. But John McCrae was profoundly moved, and bore in his body until the end the signs of his experience. Before taking up his new duties he made a visit to the hospitals in Paris to see if there was any new thing that might be learned. A Nursing Sister in the American Ambulance at Neuilly-sur-Seine met him in the wards. Although she had known him for fifteen years she did not recognize him,—he appeared to her so old, so worn, his face lined and ashen grey in colour, his expression dull, his action slow and heavy.

There are men who go through these situations without being affected. If they have eyes, they don’t see; if they have ears, they don’t hear. But John McCrae was deeply affected and carried the marks of his experiences in his body until the end. Before starting his new role, he visited the hospitals in Paris to see if there was anything new he could learn. A Nursing Sister at the American Ambulance in Neuilly-sur-Seine met him in the wards. Although she had known him for fifteen years, she didn't recognize him — he seemed so old, so worn out, his face lined and ashen, his expression dull, and his movements slow and heavy.

To those who have never seen John McCrae since he left Canada this change in his appearance will seem incredible. He was of the Eckfords, and the Eckford men were "bonnie men", men with rosy cheeks. It was a year before I met him again, and he had not yet recovered from the strain. Although he was upwards of forty years of age when he left Canada he had always retained an appearance of extreme youthfulness. He frequented the company of men much younger than himself, and their youth was imputed to him. His frame was tall and well knit, and he showed alertness in every move. He would arise from the chair with every muscle in action, and walk forth as if he were about to dance.

To those who haven't seen John McCrae since he left Canada, this change in his appearance will seem unbelievable. He belonged to the Eckfords, and the Eckford men were known to be "handsome guys," men with rosy cheeks. It was a year before I saw him again, and he still hadn't recovered from the stress. Even though he was over forty when he left Canada, he always looked surprisingly young. He often spent time with much younger men, and their youthfulness seemed to rub off on him. He was tall and well-built, and every move he made showed energy and alertness. When he got up from a chair, every muscle would be in action, and he would walk as if he were about to dance.

The first time I saw him he was doing an autopsy at the Montreal General Hospital upon the body of a child who had died under my care. This must have been in the year 1900, and the impression of boyishness remained until I met him in France sixteen years later. His manner of dress did much to produce this illusion. When he was a student in London he employed a tailor in Queen Victoria Street to make his clothes; but with advancing years he neglected to have new measurements taken or to alter the pattern of his cloth. To obtain a new suit was merely to write a letter, and he was always economical of time. In those days jackets were cut short, and he adhered to the fashion with persistent care.

The first time I saw him, he was performing an autopsy at the Montreal General Hospital on the body of a child who had died under my care. This was probably in 1900, and the impression of his boyishness stuck with me until I met him in France sixteen years later. His way of dressing contributed a lot to this illusion. When he was a student in London, he had a tailor on Queen Victoria Street make his clothes; but as he got older, he didn't bother to get new measurements or change the style of his fabric. Getting a new suit just meant writing a letter, and he was always careful about saving time. Back then, jackets were short, and he consistently stuck to that style.

This appearance of youth at times caused chagrin to those patients who had heard of his fame as a physician, and called upon him for the first time. In the Royal Victoria Hospital, after he had been appointed physician, he entered the wards and asked a nurse to fetch a screen so that he might examine a patient in privacy.

This young appearance sometimes frustrated patients who had heard about his reputation as a doctor and were seeing him for the first time. At the Royal Victoria Hospital, after he was appointed as a physician, he walked into the wards and asked a nurse to bring a screen so he could examine a patient in private.

"Students are not allowed to use screens," the young woman warned him with some asperity in her voice.

"Students can't use screens," the young woman told him sharply.

If I were asked to state briefly the impression which remains with me most firmly, I should say it was one of continuous laughter. That is not true, of course, for in repose his face was heavy, his countenance more than ruddy; it was even of a "choleric" cast, and at times almost livid, especially when he was recovering from one of those attacks of asthma from which he habitually suffered. But his smile was his own, and it was ineffable. It filled the eyes, and illumined the face. It was the smile of sheer fun, of pure gaiety, of sincere playfulness, innocent of irony; with a tinge of sarcasm—never. When he allowed himself to speak of meanness in the profession, of dishonesty in men, of evil in the world, his face became formidable. The glow of his countenance deepened; his words were bitter, and the tones harsh. But the indignation would not last. The smile would come back. The effect was spoiled. Everyone laughed with him.

If you asked me to summarize the strongest impression that sticks with me, I’d say it was one of constant laughter. That’s not exactly true, though, because when he was relaxed, his face was serious, his complexion more than just ruddy; it often had a "choleric" quality and would even appear almost pale, especially when he was recovering from one of the asthma attacks he dealt with regularly. But his smile was unique to him, and it was beyond words. It lit up his eyes and brightened his face. It was a smile filled with pure joy, genuine fun, and innocent playfulness—never tinged with irony. When he talked about the meanness in the profession, the dishonesty of people, or the evil in the world, his expression turned serious. His face grew more intense; his words were sharp, and his tone was harsh. But that anger wouldn’t last long. The smile would return, and the moment would lose its weight. Everyone laughed along with him.

After his experience at the front the old gaiety never returned. There were moments of irascibility and moods of irritation. The desire for solitude grew upon him, and with Bonfire and Bonneau he would go apart for long afternoons far afield by the roads and lanes about Boulogne. The truth is: he felt that he and all had failed, and that the torch was thrown from failing hands. We have heard much of the suffering, the misery, the cold, the wet, the gloom of those first three winters; but no tongue has yet uttered the inner misery of heart that was bred of those three years of failure to break the enemy's force.

After his time at the front, the old happiness never came back. He often felt irritable and moody. His need for solitude increased, and he would spend long afternoons with Bonfire and Bonneau, wandering far away along the roads and lanes around Boulogne. The truth is, he felt like he and everyone else had failed, and that the torch had been dropped from trembling hands. We’ve heard a lot about the suffering, the misery, the cold, the wet, and the gloom of those first three winters; but no one has yet spoken about the deep heartache that came from those three years of failing to break the enemy's strength.

He was not alone in this shadow of deep darkness. Givenchy, Festubert, Neuve-Chapelle, Ypres, Hooge, the Somme—to mention alone the battles in which up to that time the Canadian Corps had been engaged—all ended in failure; and to a sensitive and foreboding mind there were sounds and signs that it would be given to this generation to hear the pillars and fabric of Empire come crashing into the abysm of chaos. He was not at the Somme in that October of 1916, but those who returned up north with the remnants of their division from that place of slaughter will remember that, having done all men could do, they felt like deserters because they had not left their poor bodies dead upon the field along with friends of a lifetime, comrades of a campaign. This is no mere matter of surmise. The last day I spent with him we talked of those things in his tent, and I testify that it is true.

He wasn't alone in this overwhelming darkness. Givenchy, Festubert, Neuve-Chapelle, Ypres, Hooge, the Somme—just to name the battles the Canadian Corps had fought in up to that point—all ended in failure. For someone who was sensitive and aware, there were signs and sounds suggesting that this generation was destined to witness the collapse of the Empire into chaos. He wasn’t at the Somme in October 1916, but those who returned north with what was left of their division from that slaughterhouse will remember that, after doing everything they could, they felt like deserters for not leaving their bodies on the battlefield alongside their lifelong friends and fellow soldiers. This isn't just speculation. On the last day I spent with him, we discussed these matters in his tent, and I can confirm that it’s true.





IV. Going to the Wars

John McCrae went to the war without illusions. At first, like many others of his age, he did not "think of enlisting", although "his services are at the disposal of the Country if it needs them."

John McCrae went to war without any illusions. At first, like many others his age, he didn’t "think about enlisting," although "his services are available to the country if they need them."

In July, 1914, he was at work upon the second edition of the 'Text-Book of Pathology' by Adami and McCrae, published by Messrs. Lea and Febiger, and he had gone to Philadelphia to read the proofs. He took them to Atlantic City where he could "sit out on the sand, and get sunshine and oxygen, and work all at once."

In July 1914, he was working on the second edition of the 'Text-Book of Pathology' by Adami and McCrae, published by Lea and Febiger. He went to Philadelphia to read the proofs. He took them to Atlantic City so he could "sit out on the sand, and get sunshine and oxygen, and work all at once."

It was a laborious task, passing eighty to a hundred pages of highly technical print each day. Then there was the index, between six and seven thousand items. "I have," so he writes, "to change every item in the old index and add others. I have a pile of pages, 826 in all. I look at the index, find the old page among the 826, and then change the number. This about 7000 times, so you may guess the drudgery." On July 15th, the work was finished, registered, and entrusted to the mail with a special delivery stamp. The next day he wrote the preface, "which really finished the job." In very truth his scientific work was done.

It was a tough job, going through eighty to a hundred pages of technical text each day. Then there was the index, which had between six and seven thousand items. "I have," he writes, "to update every item in the old index and add new ones. I have a total of 826 pages. I check the index, find the old page among the 826, and then change the number. I do this about 7000 times, so you can imagine the grind." On July 15th, the work was completed, registered, and sent out with a special delivery stamp. The next day he wrote the preface, "which really wrapped up the job." Truly, his scientific work was finished.

It was now midsummer. The weather was hot. He returned to Montreal. Practice was dull. He was considering a voyage to Havre and "a little trip with Dr. Adami" when he arrived. On July 29th, he left Canada "for better or worse. With the world so disturbed," he records, "I would gladly have stayed more in touch with events, but I dare say one is just as happy away from the hundred conflicting reports." The ship was the 'Scotian' of the Allan Line, and he "shared a comfortable cabin with a professor of Greek," who was at the University in his own time.

It was now midsummer, and the weather was hot. He returned to Montreal. Practice was boring. He was thinking about a trip to Havre and "a little journey with Dr. Adami" when he got there. On July 29th, he left Canada "for better or worse." He noted, "With the world so messed up, I would have happily stayed more connected to current events, but I guess one is just as content away from the hundred mixed reports." The ship was the 'Scotian' of the Allan Line, and he "shared a comfortable cabin with a professor of Greek," who was at the university during his own time.

For one inland born, he had a keen curiosity about ships and the sea. There is a letter written when he was thirteen years of age in which he gives an account of a visit to a naval exhibition in London. He describes the models which he saw, and gives an elaborate table of names, dimensions, and tonnage. He could identify the house flags and funnels of all the principal liners; he could follow a ship through all her vicissitudes and change of ownership. When he found himself in a seaport town his first business was to visit the water front and take knowledge of the vessels that lay in the stream or by the docks. One voyage he made to England was in a cargo ship. With his passion for work he took on the duties of surgeon, and amazed the skipper with a revelation of the new technique in operations which he himself had been accustomed to perform by the light of experience alone.

For someone born inland, he had a strong curiosity about ships and the sea. There’s a letter he wrote when he was thirteen, in which he shares details of a visit to a naval exhibition in London. He describes the models he saw and provides a detailed list of names, sizes, and tonnage. He could recognize the house flags and funnels of all the major liners; he could track a ship through all its ups and downs and changes in ownership. Whenever he found himself in a seaport town, his first task was to visit the waterfront and check out the vessels docked or floating in the water. On one trip to England, he traveled on a cargo ship. Driven by his passion for work, he took on the role of surgeon and amazed the captain with his new techniques for operations, which he had previously performed based solely on his own experiences.

On the present and more luxurious voyage, he remarks that the decks were roomy, the ship seven years old, and capable of fifteen knots an hour, the passengers pleasant, and including a large number of French. All now know only too well the nature of the business which sent those ardent spirits flocking home to their native land.

On this current and more luxurious trip, he notes that the decks were spacious, the ship was seven years old, and it could travel at fifteen knots per hour. The passengers were nice, with many being French. Everyone now understands all too well the reason those eager individuals were rushing back to their homeland.

Forty-eight hours were lost in fog. The weather was too thick for making the Straits, and the 'Scotian' proceeded by Cape Race on her way to Havre. Under date of August 5-6 the first reference to the war appears: "All is excitement; the ship runs without lights. Surely the German kaiser has his head in the noose at last: it will be a terrible war, and the finish of one or the other. I am afraid my holiday trip is knocked galley west; but we shall see." The voyage continues. A "hundred miles from Moville we turned back, and headed South for Queenstown; thence to the Channel; put in at Portland; a squadron of battleships; arrived here this morning."

Forty-eight hours were lost in fog. The weather was too bad to navigate through the Straits, so the 'Scotian' went by Cape Race on her way to Havre. Dated August 5-6, the first mention of the war comes in: "Everything is chaotic; the ship is running without lights. Surely the German kaiser is finally in trouble: it will be a devastating war, and the end for one side or the other. I'm afraid my vacation plans are completely ruined; but we'll see." The journey continues. "A hundred miles from Moville, we turned back and headed south for Queenstown; then to the Channel; we stopped at Portland; there was a fleet of battleships; we arrived here this morning."

The problem presented itself to him as to many another. The decision was made. To go back to America was to go back from the war. Here are the words: "It seems quite impossible to return, and I do not think I should try. I would not feel quite comfortable over it. I am cabling to Morrison at Ottawa, that I am available either as combatant or medical if they need me. I do not go to it very light-heartedly, but I think it is up to me."

The problem occurred to him just like it did for many others. The choice was clear. Going back to America meant stepping away from the war. Here are the words: "It feels completely impossible to return, and I really don’t think I should even try. I wouldn’t feel right about it. I’m sending a message to Morrison in Ottawa, letting him know I’m available either for combat or in a medical role if they need me. I’m not taking this lightly, but I believe it’s my responsibility."

It was not so easy in those days to get to the war, as he and many others were soon to discover. There was in Canada at the time a small permanent force of 3000 men, a military college, a Headquarters staff, and divisional staff for the various districts into which the country was divided. In addition there was a body of militia with a strength of about 60,000 officers and other ranks. Annual camps were formed at which all arms of the service were represented, and the whole was a very good imitation of service conditions. Complete plans for mobilization were in existence, by which a certain quota, according to the establishment required, could be detailed from each district. But upon the outbreak of war the operations were taken in hand by a Minister of Militia who assumed in his own person all those duties usually assigned to the staff. He called to his assistance certain business and political associates, with the result that volunteers who followed military methods did not get very far.

It wasn't easy to join the war back then, as he and many others would soon find out. At that time in Canada, there was a small permanent force of 3,000 men, a military college, a headquarters staff, and divisional staff for the various districts the country was divided into. Additionally, there was a militia consisting of about 60,000 officers and other ranks. Annual camps were organized where all branches of the service were represented, creating a decent imitation of actual service conditions. Complete mobilization plans were in place, detailing how a certain quota from each district could be mobilized based on the required establishment. However, when the war broke out, the operations were managed by a Minister of Militia who took on all the responsibilities typically assigned to the staff. He brought in some business and political associates, which meant that volunteers who were trained in military methods didn’t make much progress.

Accordingly we find it written in John McCrae's diary from London: "Nothing doing here. I have yet no word from the Department at Ottawa, but I try to be philosophical until I hear from Morrison. If they want me for the Canadian forces, I could use my old Sam Browne belt, sword, and saddle if it is yet extant. At times I wish I could go home with a clear conscience."

Accordingly, we find it written in John McCrae's diary from London: "Nothing happening here. I still haven't heard from the Department in Ottawa, but I try to stay philosophical until I hear from Morrison. If they need me for the Canadian forces, I could use my old Sam Browne belt, sword, and saddle if it still exists. Sometimes I wish I could go home with a clear conscience."

He sailed for Canada in the 'Calgarian' on August 28th, having received a cablegram from Colonel Morrison, that he had been provisionally appointed surgeon to the 1st Brigade Artillery. The night he arrived in Montreal I dined with him at the University Club, and he was aglow with enthusiasm over this new adventure. He remained in Montreal for a few days, and on September 9th, joined the unit to which he was attached as medical officer. Before leaving Montreal he wrote to his sister Geills:

He set sail for Canada on the 'Calgarian' on August 28th, after receiving a cable from Colonel Morrison, informing him that he had been temporarily appointed as the surgeon to the 1st Brigade Artillery. The night he arrived in Montreal, I had dinner with him at the University Club, and he was filled with excitement about this new adventure. He stayed in Montreal for a few days, and on September 9th, he joined the unit where he was assigned as a medical officer. Before leaving Montreal, he wrote to his sister Geills:

"Out on the awful old trail again! And with very mixed feelings, but some determination. I am off to Val-cartier to-night. I was really afraid to go home, for I feared it would only be harrowing for Mater, and I think she agrees. We can hope for happier times. Everyone most kind and helpful: my going does not seem to surprise anyone. I know you will understand it is hard to go home, and perhaps easier for us all that I do not. I am in good hope of coming back soon and safely: that, I am glad to say, is in other and better hands than ours."

"Back on that awful old trail again! I'm feeling pretty mixed but also determined. I’m heading to Val-cartier tonight. I was really hesitant to go home because I worried it would just be difficult for Mom, and I think she feels the same way. We can hope for better days ahead. Everyone has been so kind and supportive: my departure doesn’t seem to surprise anyone. I know you’ll understand that going home is tough, and maybe it’s better for all of us that I don’t. I’m hopeful about coming back soon and safely: thankfully, that’s in better hands than ours."





V. South Africa

In the Autumn of 1914, after John McCrae had gone over-seas, I was in a warehouse in Montreal, in which one might find an old piece of mahogany wood. His boxes were there in storage, with his name plainly printed upon them. The storeman, observing my interest, remarked: "This Doctor McCrae cannot be doing much business; he is always going to the wars." The remark was profoundly significant of the state of mind upon the subject of war which prevailed at the time in Canada in more intelligent persons. To this storeman war merely meant that the less usefully employed members of the community sent their boxes to him for safe-keeping until their return. War was a great holiday from work; and he had a vague remembrance that some fifteen years before this customer had required of him a similar service when the South African war broke out.

In the fall of 1914, after John McCrae had gone overseas, I was in a warehouse in Montreal where you could find an old piece of mahogany wood. His boxes were there in storage, with his name clearly marked on them. The storekeeper, noticing my interest, commented, "This Doctor McCrae can't be doing much business; he's always off to war." This comment reflected the mindset about war that many educated people in Canada had at the time. To this storekeeper, war simply meant that the less actively employed members of the community were sending their boxes to him for safekeeping until they returned. War was seen as a big break from work; he vaguely recalled that around fifteen years earlier, this same customer had asked him for a similar service when the South African war began.

Either 'in esse' or 'in posse' John McCrae had "always been going to the wars." At fourteen years of age he joined the Guelph Highland Cadets, and rose to the rank of 1st Lieutenant. As his size and strength increased he reverted to the ranks and transferred to the Artillery. In due time he rose from gunner to major. The formal date of his "Gazette" is 17-3-02 as they write it in the army; but he earned his rank in South Africa.

Either 'in existence' or 'in potential,' John McCrae had "always been destined for the wars." At the age of fourteen, he joined the Guelph Highland Cadets and worked his way up to the rank of 1st Lieutenant. As he grew bigger and stronger, he returned to the ranks and switched to the Artillery. Over time, he advanced from gunner to major. The official date of his "Gazette" is 17-3-02, as it's noted in the army; however, he earned his rank in South Africa.

War was the burden of his thought; war and death the theme of his verse. At the age of thirteen we find him at a gallery in Nottingham, writing this note: "I saw the picture of the artillery going over the trenches at Tel-el-Kebir. It is a good picture; but there are four teams on the guns. Perhaps an extra one had to be put on." If his nomenclature was not correct, the observation of the young artillerist was exact. Such excesses were not permitted in his father's battery in Guelph, Ontario. During this same visit his curiosity led him into the House of Lords, and the sum of his written observation is, "When someone is speaking no one seems to listen at all."

War weighed heavily on his mind; war and death were the focus of his poetry. At thirteen, he was at a gallery in Nottingham, writing this note: "I saw the painting of the artillery going over the trenches at Tel-el-Kebir. It's a great painting; but there are four teams on the guns. Maybe an extra one was needed." While his terminology might not have been spot-on, the young artillerist's observation was spot on. Such excesses weren't allowed in his father's battery in Guelph, Ontario. During this same visit, his curiosity led him into the House of Lords, and his written observation summed up as, "When someone is speaking, no one seems to listen at all."

His mother I never knew. Canada is a large place. With his father I had four hours' talk from seven to eleven one June evening in London in 1917. At the time I was on leave from France to give the Cavendish Lecture, a task which demanded some thought; and after two years in the army it was a curious sensation—watching one's mind at work again. The day was Sunday. I had walked down to the river to watch the flowing tide. To one brought up in a country of streams and a moving sea the curse of Flanders is her stagnant waters. It is little wonder the exiles from the Judaean hillsides wept beside the slimy River.

I never knew his mother. Canada is a huge place. I spent four hours talking with his father from seven to eleven one June evening in London in 1917. At that time, I was on leave from France to give the Cavendish Lecture, which required some serious thought; after two years in the army, it was an odd feeling—watching my mind work again. It was a Sunday. I had walked down to the river to watch the flowing tide. For someone raised in a land of streams and a moving sea, Flanders' stagnant waters feel like a curse. It's no surprise that the exiles from the Judaean hillsides wept beside the slimy River.

The Thames by evening in June, memories that reached from Tacitus to Wordsworth, the embrasure that extends in front of the Egyptian obelisk for a standing place, and some children "swimming a dog";—that was the scene and circumstance of my first meeting with his father. A man of middle age was standing by. He wore the flashings of a Lieutenant-Colonel and for badges the Artillery grenades. He seemed a friendly man; and under the influence of the moment, which he also surely felt, I spoke to him.

The Thames in the evening during June, memories that stretched from Tacitus to Wordsworth, the space in front of the Egyptian obelisk perfect for standing, and some kids "swimming a dog";—that was the scene and setting of my first encounter with his dad. A middle-aged man was standing nearby. He wore the insignia of a Lieutenant-Colonel and had the Artillery grenades as badges. He seemed like a friendly guy, and in that moment, which he definitely felt too, I decided to talk to him.

"A fine river,"—That was a safe remark.

"A nice river,"—That was a safe comment.

"But I know a finer."

"But I know something better."

"Pharpar and Abana?" I put the stranger to the test.

"Pharpar and Abana?" I challenged the stranger.

"No," he said. "The St. Lawrence is not of Damascus." He had answered to the sign, and looked at my patches.

"No," he said. "The St. Lawrence isn’t from Damascus." He had responded to the sign and glanced at my patches.

"I have a son in France, myself," he said. "His name is McCrae."

"I have a son in France, too," he said. "His name is McCrae."

"Not John McCrae?"

"Not John McCrae?"

"John McCrae is my son."

"John McCrae is my kid."

The resemblance was instant, but this was an older man than at first sight he seemed to be. I asked him to dinner at Morley's, my place of resort for a length of time beyond the memory of all but the oldest servants. He had already dined but he came and sat with me, and told me marvellous things.

The likeness was immediate, but he was actually older than he first appeared. I invited him to dinner at Morley's, my go-to spot for longer than most of the staff could even remember. He had already eaten, but he came and sat with me, sharing incredible stories.

David McCrae had raised, and trained, a field battery in Guelph, and brought it overseas. He was at the time upwards of seventy years of age, and was considered on account of years alone "unfit" to proceed to the front. For many years he had commanded a field battery in the Canadian militia, went on manoeuvres with his "cannons", and fired round shot. When the time came for using shells he bored the fuse with a gimlet; and if the gimlet were lost in the grass, the gun was out of action until the useful tool could be found. This "cannon ball" would travel over the country according to the obstacles it encountered and, "if it struck a man, it might break his leg."

David McCrae had raised and trained a field battery in Guelph and brought it overseas. At the time, he was over seventy years old and was considered "unfit" to go to the front line just because of his age. For many years, he had commanded a field battery in the Canadian militia, participated in maneuvers with his "cannons," and fired round shots. When it was time to use shells, he would bore the fuse with a gimlet; if that gimlet was lost in the grass, the gun couldn't operate until the tool was found. This "cannonball" would travel across the landscape depending on the obstacles it faced and, if it hit a person, it could break their leg.

In such a martial atmosphere the boy was brought up, and he was early nourished with the history of the Highland regiments. Also from his father he inherited, or had instilled into him, a love of the out of doors, a knowledge of trees, and plants, a sympathy with birds and beasts, domestic and wild. When the South African war broke out a contingent was dispatched from Canada, but it was so small that few of those desiring to go could find a place. This explains the genesis of the following letter:

In such a military environment, the boy grew up and was raised on the history of the Highland regiments. He also inherited from his father a love for the outdoors, knowledge of trees and plants, and a connection with both domestic and wild animals. When the South African War started, a small group was sent from Canada, but it was so tiny that few people wanting to join could find a spot. This explains the origin of the following letter:

I see by to-night's bulletin that there is to be no second contingent. I feel sick with disappointment, and do not believe that I have ever been so disappointed in my life, for ever since this business began I am certain there have not been fifteen minutes of my waking hours that it has not been in my mind. It has to come sooner or later. One campaign might cure me, but nothing else ever will, unless it should be old age. I regret bitterly that I did not enlist with the first, for I doubt if ever another chance will offer like it. This is not said in ignorance of what the hardships would be.

I just saw tonight's update saying there won't be a second group. I'm feeling incredibly disappointed, probably more than ever before. Ever since this whole thing started, I can’t remember a time in my waking hours when it hasn’t been on my mind. It has to happen sooner or later. One campaign might fix me, but nothing else will, except maybe aging. I really wish I had signed up with the first group because I doubt I'll get another chance like that. I'm not saying this without knowing what the hardships would be.

I am ashamed to say I am doing my work in a merely mechanical way. If they are taking surgeons on the other side, I have enough money to get myself across. If I knew any one over there who could do anything, I would certainly set about it. If I can get an appointment in England by going, I will go. My position here I do not count as an old boot in comparison.

I’m embarrassed to admit that I’m doing my work in a totally mechanical way. If they’re hiring surgeons on the other side, I have enough money to get myself across. If I knew anyone over there who could help, I would definitely reach out. If I can get a job in England by going there, I will go. I don’t consider my position here worth much at all.

In the end he accomplished the desire of his heart, and sailed on the 'Laurentian'. Concerning the voyage one transcription will be enough:

In the end, he fulfilled his heart's desire and set sail on the 'Laurentian.' One account of the voyage will be sufficient:

On orderly duty. I have just been out taking the picket at 11.30 P.M. In the stables the long row of heads in the half-darkness, the creaking of the ship, the shivering of the hull from the vibration of the engines, the sing of a sentry on the spar deck to some passer-by. Then to the forward deck: the sky half covered with scudding clouds, the stars bright in the intervals, the wind whistling a regular blow that tries one's ears, the constant swish as she settles down to a sea; and, looking aft, the funnel with a wreath of smoke trailing away off into the darkness on the starboard quarter; the patch of white on the funnel discernible dimly; the masts drawing maps across the sky as one looks up; the clank of shovels coming up through the ventilators,—if you have ever been there, you know it all.

On orderly duty. I just got back from the picket at 11:30 P.M. In the stables, the long row of heads in the dim light, the creaking of the ship, the hull vibrating from the engines, the sentry singing on the spar deck to someone passing by. Then onto the forward deck: the sky half-covered with drifting clouds, the stars shining brightly in between, the wind howling in a steady blow that tests your ears, the constant noise as the ship settles into the sea; and, looking back, the funnel with a plume of smoke trailing off into the darkness on the starboard side; the faint outline of white on the funnel visible in the gloom; the masts sketching patterns across the sky as you look up; the clanking of shovels coming up through the ventilators—if you’ve been there, you know how it all feels.

There was a voluntary service at six; two ships' lanterns and the men all around, the background of sky and sea, and the strains of "Nearer my God to Thee" rising up in splendid chorus. It was a very effective scene, and it occurred to me that THIS was "the rooibaatjees singing on the road," as the song says.

There was a voluntary service at six; two ships' lanterns and the men all around, with the backdrop of sky and sea, and the sounds of "Nearer my God to Thee" rising up in a beautiful chorus. It was a very striking scene, and it occurred to me that THIS was "the rooibaatjees singing on the road," just like the song says.





The next entry is from South Africa:

Green Point Camp, Capetown,

Green Point Camp, Cape Town,

February 25th, 1900.

February 25, 1900.

You have no idea of the WORK. Section commanders live with their sections, which is the right way. It makes long hours. I never knew a softer bed than the ground is these nights. I really enjoy every minute though there is anxiety. We have lost all our spare horses. We have only enough to turn out the battery and no more.

You have no idea how much WORK this is. Section commanders live with their sections, which is the right way to do it. It means long hours. I’ve never known a bed softer than the ground during these nights. I really enjoy every minute, even though there’s a lot of anxiety. We’ve lost all our spare horses. We only have enough to deploy the battery and nothing else.

After a description of a number of the regiments camped near by them, he speaks of the Indian troops, and then says:

After describing several regiments camped nearby, he talks about the Indian troops and then says:

We met the High Priest of it all, and I had a five minutes' chat with him—Kipling I mean. He visited the camp. He looks like his pictures, and is very affable. He told me I spoke like a Winnipeger. He said we ought to "fine the men for drinking unboiled water. Don't give them C.B.; it is no good. Fine them, or drive common sense into them. All Canadians have common sense."

We met the High Priest of it all, and I had a five-minute chat with him—Kipling, I mean. He visited the camp. He looks like his pictures and is very friendly. He told me I spoke like someone from Winnipeg. He said we should "fine the men for drinking unboiled water. Don't give them C.B.; it's no good. Fine them, or knock some common sense into them. All Canadians have common sense."





The next letter is from the Lines of Communication:

Van Wyks Vlei,

Van Wyks Vlei,

March 22nd, 1900.

March 22, 1900.

Here I am with my first command. Each place we strike is a little more God-forsaken than the last, and this place wins up to date. We marched last week from Victoria west to Carnovan, about 80 miles. We stayed there over Sunday, and on Monday my section was detached with mounted infantry, I being the only artillery officer. We marched 54 miles in 37 hours with stops; not very fast, but quite satisfactory. My horse is doing well, although very thin. Night before last on the road we halted, and I dismounted for a minute. When we started I pulled on the lines but no answer. The poor old chap was fast asleep in his tracks, and in about thirty seconds too.

Here I am with my first command. Every place we hit is a little more desolate than the last, and this one takes the prize so far. We marched last week from Victoria west to Carnovan, about 80 miles. We stayed there over Sunday, and on Monday my section was detached with mounted infantry, and I was the only artillery officer. We marched 54 miles in 37 hours with breaks; not super fast, but pretty decent. My horse is doing well, although he's very thin. The night before last, we halted on the road, and I got off for a minute. When we started again, I pulled on the reins but got no response. The poor guy was fast asleep on his feet, and it took about thirty seconds for him to wake up.

This continuous marching is really hard work. The men at every halt just drop down in the road and sleep until they are kicked up again in ten minutes. They do it willingly too. I am commanding officer, adjutant, officer on duty, and all the rest since we left the main body. Talk about the Army in Flanders! You should hear this battalion. I always knew soldiers could swear, but you ought to hear these fellows. I am told the first contingent has got a name among the regulars.

This constant marching is really tough. The guys at every stop just collapse on the ground and sleep until someone wakes them up again in ten minutes. They do it willingly, too. I'm the commanding officer, adjutant, officer on duty, and everything else since we left the main group. Talk about the Army in Flanders! You should hear this battalion. I always knew soldiers could swear, but you should listen to these guys. I’ve been told the first group has earned a reputation among the regulars.





Three weeks later he writes:

April 10th, 1900.

April 10, 1900.

We certainly shall have done a good march when we get to the railroad, 478 miles through a country desolate of forage carrying our own transport and one-half rations of forage, and frequently the men's rations. For two days running we had nine hours in the saddle without food. My throat was sore and swollen for a day or two, and I felt so sorry for myself at times that I laughed to think how I must have looked: sitting on a stone, drinking a pan of tea without trimmings, that had got cold, and eating a shapeless lump of brown bread; my one "hank" drawn around my neck, serving as hank and bandage alternately. It is miserable to have to climb up on one's horse with a head like a buzz saw, the sun very hot, and "gargle" in one's water bottle. It is surprising how I can go without water if I have to on a short stretch, that is, of ten hours in the sun. It is after nightfall that the thirst really seems to attack one and actually gnaws. One thinks of all the cool drinks and good things one would like to eat. Please understand that this is not for one instant in any spirit of growling.

We definitely will feel accomplished when we reach the railroad, 478 miles through a barren area lacking supplies, hauling our own gear and half rations of forage, while often lacking enough food for the men. For two days straight, we spent nine hours in the saddle without anything to eat. My throat was sore and swollen for a day or two, and I sometimes felt so sorry for myself that I couldn't help but laugh at how I must have looked: sitting on a rock, drinking a cold cup of tea without anything in it, and eating a shapeless lump of brown bread; my one "hank" wrapped around my neck, acting as both a scarf and a bandage. It's tough to get back on the horse with a pounding headache, under the hot sun, and "gargling" in my water bottle. It's surprising how long I can go without water when I need to, up to ten hours in the sun. It's after sunset that the thirst hits hard and feels like it's gnawing at me. I think about all the cold drinks and delicious food I wish I could have. Please understand that I'm not saying any of this out of a complaining spirit.

The detail was now established at Victoria Road. Three entries appear*:

The detail is now set up at Victoria Road. Three entries appear*:

     * I only count two. . . .  A. L., 1995.

April 23rd, 1900.

April 23, 1900.

We are still here in camp hoping for orders to move, but they have not yet come. Most of the other troops have gone. A squadron of the M.C.R., my messmates for the past five weeks, have gone and I am left an orphan. I was very sorry to see them go. They, in the kindness of their hearts, say, if I get stranded, they will do the best they can to get a troop for me in the squadron or some such employment. Impracticable, but kind. I have no wish to cease to be a gunner.

We’re still here in camp waiting for orders to move, but they haven’t come yet. Most of the other troops have left. A squadron of the M.C.R., my buddies for the past five weeks, has departed, and now I feel abandoned. I was really sad to see them go. Out of kindness, they say that if I get stuck, they’ll do their best to find me a position with a troop in the squadron or something like that. It’s unlikely, but really thoughtful. I have no desire to stop being a gunner.

Victoria Road, May 20th, 1900.

Victoria Road, May 20, 1900.

The horses are doing as well as one can expect, for the rations are insufficient. Our men have been helping to get ready a rest camp near us, and have been filling mattresses with hay. Every fatigue party comes back from the hospital, their jackets bulging with hay for the horses. Two bales were condemned as too musty to put into the mattresses, and we were allowed to take them for the horses. They didn't leave a spear of it. Isn't it pitiful? Everything that the heart of man and woman can devise has been sent out for the "Tommies", but no one thinks of the poor horses. They get the worst of it all the time. Even now we blush to see the handful of hay that each horse gets at a feed.

The horses are doing about as well as can be expected, since the food rations are too low. Our guys have been working on setting up a rest camp nearby and have been stuffing mattresses with hay. Every time a fatigue party comes back from the hospital, their jackets are stuffed with hay for the horses. Two bales were deemed too moldy to use for the mattresses, so we were allowed to take them for the horses. They didn’t leave a single piece behind. Isn’t it sad? Everything that people can come up with has been sent for the "Tommies," but nobody thinks about the poor horses. They always seem to get the short end of the stick. Even now, we feel embarrassed to see how little hay each horse gets at feeding time.

The Boer War is so far off in time and space that a few further detached references must suffice:

The Boer War feels so distant in both time and place that a few additional disconnected references will have to be enough:

When riding into Bloemfontein met Lord——'s funeral at the cemetery gates,—band, firing party, Union Jack, and about three companies. A few yards farther on a "Tommy" covered only by his blanket, escorted by thirteen men all told, the last class distinction that the world can ever make.

When we rode into Bloemfontein for Lord——'s funeral at the cemetery gates, there was a band, a firing party, the Union Jack, and around three companies. A bit further on, a "Tommy" wrapped only in his blanket was escorted by thirteen men in total, the last class distinction that anyone will ever make.

We had our baptism of fire yesterday. They opened on us from the left flank. Their first shell was about 150 yards in front—direction good. The next was 100 yards over; and we thought we were bracketed. Some shrapnel burst over us and scattered on all sides. I felt as if a hail storm was coming down, and wanted to turn my back, but it was over in an instant. The whistle of a shell is unpleasant. You hear it begin to scream; the scream grows louder and louder; it seems to be coming exactly your way; then you realize that it has gone over. Most of them fell between our guns and wagons. Our position was quite in the open.

We had our first real experience in battle yesterday. They started firing at us from the left side. Their first shell landed about 150 yards in front of us—good aim. The next one went 100 yards over our heads, and we thought we were in trouble. Some shrapnel exploded above us and flew everywhere. It felt like a hailstorm was hitting us, and I wanted to turn away, but it was all over in a second. The sound of a shell is really unsettling. You hear it start to scream; the scream gets louder and louder; it sounds like it's coming right for you; then you realize it has passed by. Most of the shells landed between our guns and the wagons. Our position was completely exposed.





With Ian Hamilton's column near Balmoral.

The day was cold, much like a December day at home, and by my kit going astray I had only light clothing. The rain was fearfully chilly. When we got in about dark we found that the transport could not come up, and it had all our blankets and coats. I had my cape and a rubber sheet for the saddle, both soaking wet. Being on duty I held to camp, the others making for the house nearby where they got poor quarters. I bunked out, supperless like every one else, under an ammunition wagon. It rained most of the night and was bitterly cold. I slept at intervals, keeping the same position all night, both legs in a puddle and my feet being rained on: it was a long night from dark at 5.30 to morning. Ten men in the infantry regiment next us died during the night from exposure. Altogether I never knew such a night, and with decent luck hope never to see such another.

The day was cold, like a December day back home, and since my gear went missing, I only had light clothes on. The rain was really frigid. When we arrived around dark, we found out that the transport couldn’t make it, and it had all our blankets and coats. I had my cape and a rubber sheet for the saddle, both completely soaked. Since I was on duty, I stayed at camp while the others headed for the nearby house where they found poor accommodations. I ended up sleeping outside, like everyone else, under an ammunition wagon. It rained most of the night, and it was bitterly cold. I slept in fits, staying in the same position all night, with both legs in a puddle and my feet getting wet from the rain; it was a long night from dark at 5:30 until morning. Ten men in the infantry regiment next to us died that night from exposure. Overall, I’ve never experienced a night like that, and with a bit of luck, I hope I never do again.

As we passed we saw the Connaughts looking at the graves of their comrades of twenty years ago. The Battery rode at attention and gave "Eyes right": the first time for twenty years that the roll of a British gun has broken in on the silence of those unnamed graves.

As we walked by, we saw the Connaughts gazing at the graves of their comrades from twenty years ago. The Battery rode with discipline and saluted: the first time in twenty years that the sound of a British gun has disrupted the silence of those unnamed graves.

We were inspected by Lord Roberts. The battery turned out very smart, and Lord Roberts complimented the Major on its appearance. He then inspected, and afterwards asked to have the officers called out. We were presented to him in turn; he spoke a few words to each of us, asking what our corps and service had been. He seemed surprised that we were all Field Artillery men, but probably the composition of the other Canadian units had to do with this. He asked a good many questions about the horses, the men, and particularly about the spirits of the men. Altogether he showed a very kind interest in the battery.

We were inspected by Lord Roberts. The battery looked very sharp, and Lord Roberts complimented the Major on its appearance. He then conducted an inspection and asked for the officers to be called out. We were introduced to him one by one; he exchanged a few words with each of us, inquiring about our corps and service. He seemed surprised that we were all Field Artillery men, but that likely had to do with the makeup of the other Canadian units. He asked a lot of questions about the horses, the men, and especially about the morale of the men. Overall, he showed a genuine interest in the battery.

At nine took the Presbyterian parade to the lines, the first Presbyterian service since we left Canada. We had the right, the Gordons and the Royal Scots next. The music was excellent, led by the brass band of the Royal Scots, which played extremely well. All the singing was from the psalms and paraphrases: "Old Hundred" and "Duke Street" among them. It was very pleasant to hear the old reliables once more. "McCrae's Covenanters" some of the officers called us; but I should not like to set our conduct up against the standard of those austere men.

At nine, we joined the Presbyterian parade to the lines, marking the first Presbyterian service since we left Canada. We followed the Gordons and the Royal Scots. The music was fantastic, led by the Royal Scots brass band, which performed excellently. All the singing came from the psalms and paraphrases, including "Old Hundred" and "Duke Street." It was really nice to hear those familiar tunes again. Some of the officers referred to us as "McCrae's Covenanters," but I wouldn't want to compare our behavior to that of those serious men.





At Lyndenburg:

The Boers opened on us at about 10,000 yards, the fire being accurate from the first. They shelled us till dark, over three hours. The guns on our left fired for a long time on Buller's camp, the ones on our right on us. We could see the smoke and flash; then there was a soul-consuming interval of 20 to 30 seconds when we would hear the report, and about five seconds later the burst. Many in succession burst over and all around us. I picked up pieces which fell within a few feet. It was a trying afternoon, and we stood around wondering. We moved the horses back, and took cover under the wagons. We were thankful when the sun went down, especially as for the last hour of daylight they turned all their guns on us. The casualties were few.

The Boers started firing at us from about 10,000 yards away, and their aim was spot on right from the beginning. They shelled us until dark, for over three hours. The guns on our left targeted Buller's camp for a long time, while the ones on our right focused on us. We could see the smoke and the flashes; then there would be a nerve-wracking delay of 20 to 30 seconds before we heard the boom, and about five seconds later, the explosion. Many shells landed in quick succession all around us. I picked up fragments that fell just a few feet away. It was a tough afternoon, and we stood around in uncertainty. We moved the horses back and took shelter under the wagons. We were relieved when the sun finally set, especially since, during the last hour of daylight, they aimed all their guns at us. Fortunately, the casualties were few.

The next morning a heavy mist prevented the enemy from firing. The division marched out at 7.30 A.M. The attack was made in three columns: cavalry brigade on the left; Buller's troops in the centre, Hamilton's on the right. The Canadian artillery were with Hamilton's division. The approach to the hill was exposed everywhere except where some cover was afforded by ridges. We marched out as support to the Gordons, the cavalry and the Royal Horse Artillery going out to our right as a flank guard. While we were waiting three 100-pound shells struck the top of the ridge in succession about 50 to 75 yards in front of the battery line. We began to feel rather shaky.

The next morning, a thick fog kept the enemy from firing. The division set out at 7:30 A.M. The attack was organized in three columns: the cavalry brigade on the left, Buller's troops in the center, and Hamilton's on the right. The Canadian artillery was with Hamilton's division. The approach to the hill was open everywhere except for some cover provided by ridges. We moved out to support the Gordons, while the cavalry and the Royal Horse Artillery flanked us on the right. While we waited, three 100-pound shells hit the top of the ridge in quick succession, about 50 to 75 yards in front of the battery line. We started to feel pretty uneasy.

On looking over the field at this time one could not tell that anything was occurring except for the long range guns replying to the fire from the hill. The enemy had opened fire as soon as our advance was pushed out. With a glass one could distinguish the infantry pushing up in lines, five or six in succession, the men being some yards apart. Then came a long pause, broken only by the big guns. At last we got the order to advance just as the big guns of the enemy stopped their fire. We advanced about four miles mostly up the slope, which is in all about 1500 feet high, over a great deal of rough ground and over a number of spruits. The horses were put to their utmost to draw the guns up the hills. As we advanced we could see artillery crawling in from both flanks, all converging to the main hill, while far away the infantry and cavalry were beginning to crown the heights near us. Then the field guns and the pompoms began to play. As the field guns came up to a broad plateau section after section came into action, and we fired shrapnel and lyddite on the crests ahead and to the left. Every now and then a rattle of Mausers and Metfords would tell us that the infantry were at their work, but practically the battle was over. From being an infantry attack as expected it was the gunners' day, and the artillery seemed to do excellent work.

When looking over the field at that time, you couldn't tell anything was happening except for the long-range guns responding to the fire from the hill. The enemy had started shooting as soon as our troops moved out. With binoculars, you could see the infantry advancing in lines, five or six at a time, with the men spaced a few yards apart. Then there was a long pause, interrupted only by the big guns. Finally, we got the order to move forward just as the enemy's big guns stopped firing. We advanced about four miles, mostly uphill, which is about 1500 feet high, over a lot of rough terrain and several streams. The horses were pushed to their limits to pull the guns up the hills. As we moved forward, we saw artillery coming in from both sides, all heading towards the main hill, while in the distance the infantry and cavalry began to take the heights near us. Then the field guns and pom-poms started firing. As the field guns reached a broad plateau, each section came into action, and we fired shrapnel and lyddite at the crests ahead and to the left. Every now and then, the sound of Mausers and Metfords would remind us that the infantry were doing their part, but pretty much the battle was over. Instead of an infantry attack as expected, it turned into the gunners' day, and the artillery seemed to do a great job.

General Buller pushed up the hill as the guns were at work, and afterwards General Hamilton; the one as grim as his pictures, the other looking very happy. The wind blew through us cold like ice as we stood on the hill; as the artillery ceased fire the mist dropped over us chilling us to the bone. We were afraid we should have to spend the night on the hill, but a welcome order came sending us back to camp, a distance of five miles by the roads, as Buller would hold the hill, and our force must march south. Our front was over eight miles wide and the objective 1500 feet higher than our camp, and over six miles away. If the enemy had had the nerve to stand, the position could scarcely have been taken; certainly not without the loss of thousands.

General Buller made his way up the hill while the artillery was firing, followed by General Hamilton; one looking as stern as his portraits, the other appearing quite cheerful. The wind cut through us like ice as we stood on the hill; when the firing stopped, a chilling mist enveloped us, making us feel frozen to the bone. We feared we might have to spend the night on the hill, but then we received the welcome order to return to camp, which was five miles away by road, since Buller would secure the hill and our forces needed to march south. Our front stretched over eight miles, and the target was 1,500 feet higher than our camp and over six miles away. If the enemy had the courage to hold their ground, that position could hardly have been taken; certainly not without thousands of casualties.

For this campaign he received the Queen's Medal with three clasps.

For this campaign, he was awarded the Queen's Medal with three clasps.





VI. Children and Animals

Through all his life, and through all his letters, dogs and children followed him as shadows follow men. To walk in the streets with him was a slow procession. Every dog and every child one met must be spoken to, and each made answer. Throughout the later letters the names Bonfire and Bonneau occur continually. Bonfire was his horse, and Bonneau his dog.

Throughout his life and in all his letters, dogs and kids followed him like shadows. Walking down the street with him felt like a slow parade. Every dog and every child he came across had to be acknowledged, and each would respond. In his later letters, the names Bonfire and Bonneau keep popping up. Bonfire was his horse, and Bonneau was his dog.

This horse, an Irish hunter, was given to him by John L. Todd. It was wounded twice, and now lives in honourable retirement at a secret place which need not be disclosed to the army authorities. One officer who had visited the hospital writes of seeing him going about the wards with Bonneau and a small French child following after. In memory of his love for animals and children the following extracts will serve:

This horse, an Irish hunter, was given to him by John L. Todd. It was wounded twice and now lives in a respected retirement at a secret location that doesn't need to be revealed to the army authorities. One officer who visited the hospital wrote about seeing him walking through the wards with Bonneau and a small French child trailing behind. In memory of his love for animals and children, the following excerpts will serve:

You ask if the wee fellow has a name—Mike, mostly, as a term of affection. He has found a cupboard in one ward in which oakum is stored, and he loves to steal in there and "pick oakum", amusing himself as long as is permitted. I hold that this indicates convict ancestry to which Mike makes no defence.

You ask if the little guy has a name—mostly it's Mike, as a term of endearment. He’s found a cupboard in one of the wards where they keep oakum, and he loves sneaking in there to "pick oakum," having fun for as long as he’s allowed. I think this shows he has a background of being a convict, which Mike doesn't deny.

The family is very well, even one-eyed Mike is able to go round the yard in his dressing-gown, so to speak. He is a queer pathetic little beast and Madame has him "hospitalized" on the bottom shelf of the sideboard in the living room, whence he comes down (six inches to the floor) to greet me, and then gravely hirples back, the hind legs looking very pathetic as he hops in. But he is full of spirit and is doing very well.

The family is doing great, and even one-eyed Mike can move around the yard in his robe, so to speak. He’s a strange, sad little creature, and Madame has him "hospitalized" on the bottom shelf of the sideboard in the living room. He comes down (six inches to the floor) to say hi to me and then awkwardly makes his way back, his back legs looking pretty sad as he hops in. But he's full of energy and doing really well.

As to the animals—"those poor voiceless creatures," say you. I wish you could hear them. Bonneau and Mike are a perfect Dignity and Impudence; and both vocal to a wonderful degree. Mike's face is exactly like the terrier in the old picture, and he sits up and gives his paw just like Bonneau, and I never saw him have any instruction; and as for voice, I wish you could hear Bonfire's "whicker" to me in the stable or elsewhere. It is all but talk. There is one ward door that he tries whenever we pass. He turns his head around, looks into the door, and waits. The Sisters in the ward have changed frequently, but all alike "fall for it", as they say, and produce a biscuit or some such dainty which Bonfire takes with much gravity and gentleness. Should I chide him for being too eager and give him my hand saying, "Gentle now," he mumbles with his lips, and licks with his tongue like a dog to show how gentle he can be when he tries. Truly a great boy is that same. On this subject I am like a doting grandmother, but forgive it.

As for the animals—"those poor voiceless creatures," you might say. I wish you could hear them. Bonneau and Mike perfectly embody Dignity and Impudence; and they both have surprisingly expressive voices. Mike’s face looks just like the terrier in that old picture, and he sits up and gives his paw just like Bonneau, and I’ve never seen him get any training for it; and when it comes to voices, I wish you could hear Bonfire's "whicker" to me in the stable or anywhere else. It’s almost like talking. There’s one door in the ward that he checks every time we pass. He turns his head, looks into the door, and waits. The Sisters in the ward change often, but they all fall for it, as they say, and give him a biscuit or some treat that Bonfire accepts with great seriousness and gentleness. If I scold him for being too eager and say "Gentle now" while offering my hand, he mumbles with his lips and licks with his tongue like a dog to show how gentle he can be when he really tries. Truly, he’s a great boy. On this topic, I admit I’m like a doting grandmother, but please forgive me.

I have a very deep affection for Bonfire, for we have been through so much together, and some of it bad enough. All the hard spots to which one's memory turns the old fellow has shared, though he says so little about it.

I have a really strong fondness for Bonfire, because we've been through a lot together, including some tough times. All the hard moments that come to mind, the old guy has been a part of, even though he hardly talks about it.

This love of animals was no vagrant mood. Fifteen years before in South Africa he wrote in his diary under date of September 11th, 1900:

This love of animals wasn't just a passing phase. Fifteen years earlier, in South Africa, he wrote in his diary on September 11th, 1900:

I wish I could introduce you to the dogs of the force. The genus dog here is essentially sociable, and it is a great pleasure to have them about. I think I have a personal acquaintance with them all. There are our pups—Dolly, whom I always know by her one black and one white eyebrow; Grit and Tory, two smaller gentlemen, about the size of a pound of butter—and fighters; one small white gentleman who rides on a horse, on the blanket; Kitty, the monkey, also rides the off lead of the forge wagon. There is a black almond-eyed person belonging to the Royal Scots, who begins to twist as far as I can see her, and comes up in long curves, extremely genially. A small shaggy chap who belongs to the Royal Irish stands upon his hind legs and spars with his front feet—and lots of others—every one of them "a soldier and a man". The Royal Scots have a monkey, Jenny, who goes around always trailing a sack in her hand, into which she creeps if necessary to obtain shelter.

I wish I could introduce you to the dogs on the force. The dog breed here is really friendly, and it’s a joy to have them around. I think I know each of them personally. There are our pups—Dolly, whom I always recognize by her one black eyebrow and one white eyebrow; Grit and Tory, two little guys, about the size of a pound of butter—and they’re tough; one small white guy who rides on a horse, sitting on the blanket; Kitty, the monkey, also rides on the side of the forge wagon. There's a black dog with almond-shaped eyes who belongs to the Royal Scots, and she twists around as I can see her, coming up in long, friendly curves. A small shaggy dog belonging to the Royal Irish stands on his hind legs and playfully spar with his front paws—and lots of others—each one "a soldier and a man." The Royal Scots have a monkey, Jenny, who always carries a sack in her hand, which she crawls into whenever she needs some shelter.

The other day old Jack, my horse, was bitten by his next neighbor; he turned SLOWLY, eyed his opponent, shifted his rope so that he had a little more room, turned very deliberately, and planted both heels in the offender's stomach. He will not be run upon.

The other day, my old horse Jack was bitten by the horse next door; he turned SLOWLY, sized up his opponent, adjusted his rope for a bit more room, turned very deliberately, and kicked both heels into the offender's stomach. He won’t let himself be pushed around.

From a time still further back comes a note in a like strain. In 1898 he was house physician in a children's hospital at Mt. Airy, Maryland, when he wrote:

From even further back comes a note in a similar tone. In 1898, he was the house physician at a children's hospital in Mt. Airy, Maryland, when he wrote:

A kitten has taken up with a poor cripple dying of muscular atrophy who cannot move. It stays with him all the time, and sleeps most of the day in his straw hat. To-night I saw the kitten curled up under the bed-clothes. It seems as if it were a gift of Providence that the little creature should attach itself to the child who needs it most.

A kitten has become attached to a poor disabled person dying of muscular atrophy who can't move. It stays with him all the time and spends most of the day sleeping in his straw hat. Tonight I saw the kitten curled up under the blankets. It feels like a gift from fate that the little creature would bond with the child who needs it the most.

Of another child:

Of another kid:

The day she died she called for me all day, deposed the nurse who was sitting by her, and asked me to remain with her. She had to be held up on account of lack of breath; and I had a tiring hour of it before she died, but it seemed to make her happier and was no great sacrifice. Her friends arrived twenty minutes too late. It seems hard that Death will not wait the poor fraction of an hour, but so it is.

The day she died, she called for me all day, dismissed the nurse who was sitting with her, and asked me to stay by her side. She needed to be propped up because she was struggling to breathe; I had a tiring hour of it before she passed away, but it seemed to make her happier and wasn't a huge sacrifice. Her friends showed up twenty minutes too late. It’s tough that Death can’t wait just a little while longer, but that’s how it goes.

And here are some letters to his nephews and nieces which reveal his attitude both to children and to animals.

And here are some letters to his nephews and nieces that show his attitude toward both kids and animals.

From Bonfire to Sergt.-Major Jack Kilgour

From Bonfire to Sergeant Major Jack Kilgour

August 6th, 1916.

August 6, 1916.

Did you ever have a sore hock? I have one now, and Cruickshank puts bandages on my leg. He also washed my white socks for me. I am glad you got my picture. My master is well, and the girls tell me I am looking well, too. The ones I like best give me biscuits and sugar, and sometimes flowers. One of them did not want to give me some mignonette the other day because she said it would make me sick. It did not make me sick. Another one sends me bags of carrots. If you don't know how to eat carrots, tops and all, you had better learn, but I suppose you are just a boy, and do not know how good oats are.

Did you ever have a sore hock? I have one now, and Cruickshank is putting bandages on my leg. He also washed my white socks for me. I'm glad you got my picture. My owner is doing well, and the girls say I'm looking good, too. The ones I like best give me biscuits and sugar, and sometimes flowers. One of them didn't want to give me some mignonette the other day because she said it would make me sick. It didn't make me sick. Another one sends me bags of carrots. If you don't know how to eat carrots, tops and all, you'd better learn, but I guess you're just a boy and don't know how good oats are.

BONFIRE His * Mark.
     * Here and later, this mark is that of a horseshoe. A. L., 1995.

From Bonfire to Sergt.-Major Jack Kilgour

From Bonfire to Sergeant Major Jack Kilgour

October 1st, 1916.

October 1, 1916.

Dear Jack,

Hey Jack,

Did you ever eat blackberries? My master and I pick them every day on the hedges. I like twenty at a time. My leg is better but I have a lump on my tummy. I went to see my doctor to-day, and he says it is nothing at all. I have another horse staying in my stable now; he is black, and about half my size. He does not keep me awake at night. Yours truly,

Did you ever eat blackberries? My master and I pick them every day from the bushes. I like to eat twenty at a time. My leg is feeling better, but I have a lump on my stomach. I saw my doctor today, and he says it’s nothing serious. I have another horse staying in my stable now; he’s black and about half my size. He doesn’t keep me awake at night. Yours truly,

BONFIRE His * Mark.

From Bonfire to Margaret Kilgour, Civilian

From Bonfire to Margaret Kilgour, Civilian

November 5th, 1916.

November 5, 1916.

Dear Margaret:

Hey Margaret:

This is Guy Fox Day! I spell it that way because fox-hunting was my occupation a long time ago before the war. How are Sergt.-Major Jack and Corporal David? Ask Jack if he ever bites through his rope at night, and gets into the oat-box. And as for the Corporal, "I bet you" I can jump as far as he can. I hear David has lost his red coat. I still have my grey one, but it is pretty dirty now, for I have not had a new one for a long time. I got my hair cut a few weeks ago and am to have new boots next week. Bonneau and Follette send their love. Yours truly,

This is Guy Fawkes Day! I spell it that way because fox-hunting was my job a long time ago before the war. How are Sergeant Major Jack and Corporal David? Ask Jack if he ever chews through his rope at night and sneaks into the oat box. And as for the Corporal, "I bet you" I can jump as far as he can. I hear David has lost his red coat. I still have my grey one, but it's pretty dirty now since I haven't had a new one in a long time. I got my hair cut a few weeks ago and I'll be getting new boots next week. Bonneau and Follette send their love. Yours truly,

BONFIRE His * Mark.

In Flanders, April 3rd, 1915.

In Flanders, April 3, 1915.

My dear Margaret:

Dear Margaret:

There is a little girl in this house whose name is Clothilde. She is ten years old, and calls me "Monsieur le Major". How would you like it if twenty or thirty soldiers came along and lived in your house and put their horses in the shed or the stable? There are not many little boys and girls left in this part of the country, but occasionally one meets them on the roads with baskets of eggs or loaves of bread. Most of them have no homes, for their houses have been burnt by the Germans; but they do not cry over it. It is dangerous for them, for a shell might hit them at any time—and it would not be an eggshell, either.

There’s a little girl in this house named Clothilde. She’s ten years old and calls me “Monsieur le Major.” How would you feel if twenty or thirty soldiers came to stay at your place and kept their horses in the shed or the stable? Not many kids are left in this part of the country, but you occasionally see them on the roads with baskets of eggs or loaves of bread. Most of them don’t have homes because their houses were burned down by the Germans, but they don’t cry about it. It’s dangerous for them since a shell could hit them at any moment—and it wouldn’t be an eggshell, either.

Bonfire is very well. Mother sent him some packets of sugar, and if ever you saw a big horse excited about a little parcel, it was Bonfire. He can have only two lumps in any one day, for there is not much of it. Twice he has had gingerbread and he is very fond of that. It is rather funny for a soldier-horse, is it not? But soldier horses have a pretty hard time of it, sometimes, so we do not grudge them a little luxury. Bonfire's friends are King, and Prince, and Saxonia,—all nice big boys. If they go away and leave him, he whinnies till he catches sight of them again, and then he is quite happy. How is the 15th Street Brigade getting on? Tell Mother I recommend Jack for promotion to corporal if he has been good. David will have to be a gunner for awhile yet, for everybody cannot be promoted. Give my love to Katharine, and Jack, and David.

Bonfire is doing great. Mom sent him some packets of sugar, and if you ever saw a big horse excited about a small package, it was Bonfire. He can only have two lumps in a single day since there isn't much. He's had gingerbread twice, and he loves it. It’s kind of funny for a soldier horse, right? But soldier horses sometimes have a pretty tough time, so we don't mind giving them a little treat. Bonfire’s friends are King, Prince, and Saxonia—all nice big boys. If they leave him, he whinnies until he sees them again, and then he’s really happy. How is the 15th Street Brigade doing? Tell Mom I recommend Jack for promotion to corporal if he’s been good. David will have to be a gunner for a while longer since not everyone can be promoted. Send my love to Katharine, Jack, and David.

Your affectionate uncle Jack.

Your loving uncle Jack.

Bonfire, and Bonneau, and little Mike, are all well. Mike is about four months old and has lost an eye and had a leg broken, but he is a very good little boy all the same. He is very fond of Bonfire, and Bonneau, and me. I go to the stable and whistle, and Bonneau and Mike come running out squealing with joy, to go for a little walk with me. When Mike comes to steps, he puts his feet on the lowest steps and turns and looks at me and I lift him up. He is a dear ugly little chap.

Bonfire, Bonneau, and little Mike are all doing well. Mike is about four months old and has lost an eye and had a broken leg, but he's still a really good little guy. He loves Bonfire, Bonneau, and me. I go to the stable and whistle, and Bonneau and Mike come running out squealing with joy, ready to take a little walk with me. When Mike reaches the steps, he puts his front feet on the lowest step, turns, and looks at me, and I lift him up. He's a sweet, ugly little fellow.

The dogs are often to be seen sprawled on the floor of my tent. I like to have them there for they are very home-like beasts. They never seem French to me. Bonneau can "donner la patte" in good style nowadays, and he sometimes curls up inside the rabbit hutch, and the rabbits seem to like him.

The dogs are often seen lounging on the floor of my tent. I enjoy having them there because they feel very much like home. They never seem French to me. Bonneau can "give a paw" in good style these days, and he sometimes curls up inside the rabbit hutch, and the rabbits seem to like him.

I wish you could see the hundreds of rabbits there are here on the sand-dunes; there are also many larks and jackdaws. (These are different from your brother Jack, although they have black faces.) There are herons, curlews, and even ducks; and the other day I saw four young weasels in a heap, jumping over each other from side to side as they ran.

I wish you could see the hundreds of rabbits here on the sand dunes; there are also many larks and jackdaws. (These are different from your brother Jack, even though they have black faces.) There are herons, curlews, and even ducks; and the other day I saw four young weasels in a pile, jumping over each other as they ran from side to side.

Sir Bertrand Dawson has a lovely little spaniel, Sue, quite black, who goes around with him. I am quite a favourite, and one day Sir Bertrand said to me, "She has brought you a present," and here she was waiting earnestly for me to remove from her mouth a small stone. It is usually a simple gift, I notice, and does not embarrass by its value.

Sir Bertrand Dawson has a cute little spaniel named Sue, who's entirely black, and she often accompanies him. I’ve become quite fond of her, and one day Sir Bertrand said to me, "She has brought you a gift," and there she was, eagerly waiting for me to take a small stone out of her mouth. I’ve noticed that her gifts are usually simple and don’t carry much value, so they’re never awkward.

Bonfire is very sleek and trim, and we journey much. If I sit down in his reach I wish you could see how deftly he can pick off my cap and swing it high out of my reach. He also carries my crop; his games are simple, but he does not readily tire of them.

Bonfire is really sleek and slim, and we travel a lot. If I sit down within his reach, I wish you could see how skillfully he can grab my cap and toss it high out of my reach. He also carries my riding crop; his games are simple, but he never seems to get bored with them.

I lost poor old Windy. He was the regimental dog of the 1st Batt. Lincolns, and came to this vale of Avalon to be healed of his second wound. He spent a year at Gallipoli and was "over the top" twice with his battalion. He came to us with his papers like any other patient, and did very well for a while, but took suddenly worse. He had all that care and love could suggest and enough morphine to keep the pain down; but he was very pathetic, and I had resolved that it would be true friendship to help him over when he "went west". He is buried in our woods like any other good soldier, and yesterday I noticed that some one has laid a little wreath of ivy on his grave. He was an old dog evidently, but we are all sore-hearted at losing him. His kit is kept should his master return,—only his collar with his honourable marks, for his wardrobe was of necessity simple. So another sad chapter ends.

I lost poor old Windy. He was the regimental dog of the 1st Batt. Lincolns and came to this valley of Avalon to recover from his second wound. He spent a year at Gallipoli and went "over the top" twice with his battalion. He came to us with his papers like any other patient and did really well for a while, but then suddenly got worse. He received all the care and love we could give him and enough morphine to manage the pain, but he was very pitiful, and I had decided that it would be true friendship to help him pass when he "went west." He is buried in our woods like any other good soldier, and yesterday I noticed that someone had laid a small wreath of ivy on his grave. He was evidently an old dog, but we are all heartbroken over losing him. His belongings are kept in case his master returns—only his collar with his honorable marks, since his wardrobe was necessarily simple. So another sad chapter ends.

September 29th, 1915.

September 29, 1915.

Bonneau gravely accompanies me round the wards and waits for me, sitting up in a most dignified way. He comes into my tent and sits there very gravely while I dress. Two days ago a Sister brought out some biscuits for Bonfire, and not understanding the rules of the game, which are bit and bit about for Bonfire and Bonneau, gave all to Bonfire, so that poor Bonneau sat below and caught the crumbs that fell. I can see that Bonfire makes a great hit with the Sisters because he licks their hands just like a dog, and no crumb is too small to be gone after.

Bonneau seriously follows me around the wards and waits for me, sitting up in a very dignified manner. He comes into my tent and sits there solemnly while I get dressed. Two days ago, a nurse brought out some biscuits for Bonfire, and not understanding the rules of the game, which involve sharing between Bonfire and Bonneau, she gave everything to Bonfire, leaving poor Bonneau below to catch the crumbs that fell. I can see that Bonfire really wins over the nurses because he licks their hands like a dog, and no crumb is too small for him to chase after.

April, 1917.

April 1917.

I was glad to get back; Bonfire and Bonneau greeted me very enthusiastically. I had a long long story from the dog, delivered with uplifted muzzle. They tell me he sat gravely on the roads a great deal during my absence, and all his accustomed haunts missed him. He is back on rounds faithfully.

I was happy to return; Bonfire and Bonneau welcomed me with a lot of enthusiasm. The dog had a long, detailed story to share, told with his nose held high. I've been told he sat seriously by the roads a lot while I was gone, and all his usual spots missed him. He's back on his rounds, just like always.





VII. The Old Land and the New

If one were engaged upon a formal work of biography rather than a mere essay in character, it would be just and proper to investigate the family sources from which the individual member is sprung; but I must content myself within the bounds which I have set, and leave the larger task to a more laborious hand. The essence of history lies in the character of the persons concerned, rather than in the feats which they performed. A man neither lives to himself nor in himself. He is indissolubly bound up with his stock, and can only explain himself in terms common to his family; but in doing so he transcends the limits of history, and passes into the realms of philosophy and religion.

If I were writing a formal biography instead of just a character essay, it would make sense to look into the family background of the individual. However, I’ll stick to the limits I've set and leave the more extensive task to someone else. The heart of history lies in the character of the people involved, not just in their accomplishments. A person doesn’t exist solely for themselves or in isolation. They're deeply connected to their family, and can only understand themselves through the lens of their family’s experiences; yet, in doing so, they go beyond the confines of history and enter the realms of philosophy and religion.

The life of a Canadian is bound up with the history of his parish, of his town, of his province, of his country, and even with the history of that country in which his family had its birth. The life of John McCrae takes us back to Scotland. In Canada there has been much writing of history of a certain kind. It deals with events rather than with the subtler matter of people, and has been written mainly for purposes of advertising. If the French made a heroic stand against the Iroquois, the sacred spot is now furnished with an hotel from which a free 'bus runs to a station upon the line of an excellent railway. Maisonneuve fought his great fight upon a place from which a vicious mayor cut the trees which once sheltered the soldier, to make way for a fountain upon which would be raised "historical" figures in concrete stone.

The life of a Canadian is connected to the history of his parish, his town, his province, his country, and even the history of the country where his family originated. John McCrae's life takes us back to Scotland. In Canada, there has been a lot of writing about history, but it tends to focus more on events than on the more complex stories of people and is often written mainly for promotional purposes. If the French made a heroic stand against the Iroquois, that important spot now has a hotel, and a free shuttle runs to a station on a top-notch railway. Maisonneuve fought his great battle at a site where a corrupt mayor cut down the trees that once provided shelter for the soldier, in order to build a fountain topped with "historical" figures made of concrete.

The history of Canada is the history of its people, not of its railways, hotels, and factories. The material exists in written or printed form in the little archives of many a family. Such a chronicle is in possession of the Eckford family which now by descent on the female side bears the honoured names of Gow, and McCrae. John Eckford had two daughters, in the words of old Jamie Young, "the most lovingest girls he ever knew." The younger, Janet Simpson, was taken to wife by David McCrae, 21st January, 1870, and on November 30th, 1872, became the mother of John. To her he wrote all these letters, glowing with filial devotion, which I am privileged to use so freely.

The history of Canada is really about its people, not just its railways, hotels, and factories. There are records kept in many family archives. One such record belongs to the Eckford family, which now carries the respected names of Gow and McCrae through the female line. John Eckford had two daughters, and in the words of old Jamie Young, "the most loving girls he ever knew." The younger daughter, Janet Simpson, married David McCrae on January 21, 1870, and on November 30, 1872, she gave birth to John. To her, he wrote all these letters filled with deep family affection, which I’m fortunate to share so openly.

There is in the family a tradition of the single name for the males. It was therefore proper that the elder born should be called Thomas, more learned in medicine, more assiduous in practice, and more weighty in intellect even than the otherwise more highly gifted John. He too is professor of medicine, and co-author of a profound work with his master and relative by marriage—Sir William Osler. Also, he wore the King's uniform and served in the present war.

In the family, there's a tradition of using the same name for the males. So, it was natural for the firstborn to be named Thomas, who is more knowledgeable in medicine, more dedicated in practice, and intellectually more substantial than the otherwise more talented John. John is also a professor of medicine and co-author of an important work with his mentor and relative by marriage—Sir William Osler. Additionally, he wore the King's uniform and served in the current war.

This John Eckford, accompanied by his two daughters, the mother being dead, his sister, her husband who bore the name of Chisholm, and their numerous children emigrated to Canada, May 28th, 1851, in the ship 'Clutha' which sailed from the Broomielaw bound for Quebec. The consort, 'Wolfville', upon which they had originally taken passage, arrived in Quebec before them, and lay in the stream, flying the yellow flag of quarantine. Cholera had broken out. "Be still, and see the salvation of the Lord," were the words of the family morning prayers.

This John Eckford, along with his two daughters, after their mother had passed away, his sister, her husband who went by the name Chisholm, and their many children emigrated to Canada on May 28, 1851, aboard the ship 'Clutha,' which set sail from Broomielaw heading for Quebec. The ship 'Wolfville,' on which they had initially booked passage, arrived in Quebec before them and was anchored in the river, displaying the yellow quarantine flag. Cholera had broken out. "Be still, and see the salvation of the Lord," were the words of the family's morning prayers.

In the 'Clutha' also came as passengers James and Mary Gow; their cousin, one Duncan Monach; Mrs. Hanning, who was a sister of Thomas Carlyle; and her two daughters. On the voyage they escaped the usual hardships, and their fare appears to us in these days to have been abundant. The weekly ration was three quarts of water, two ounces of tea, one half pound of sugar, one half pound molasses, three pounds of bread, one pound of flour, two pounds of rice, and five pounds of oatmeal.

On the 'Clutha,' there were also passengers James and Mary Gow, their cousin Duncan Monach, Mrs. Hanning, who was Thomas Carlyle's sister, and her two daughters. During the trip, they avoided the usual hardships, and their provisions seem quite generous by today’s standards. The weekly ration included three quarts of water, two ounces of tea, half a pound of sugar, half a pound of molasses, three pounds of bread, one pound of flour, two pounds of rice, and five pounds of oatmeal.

The reason for this migration is succinctly stated by the head of the house. "I know how hard it was for my mother to start me, and I wanted land for my children and a better opportunity for them." And yet his parents in their time appear to have "started" him pretty well, although his father was obliged to confess, "I never had more of this world's goods than to bring up my family by the labour of my hands honestly, but it is more than my Master owned, who had not where to lay His head." They allowed him that very best means of education, a calmness of the senses, as he herded sheep on the Cheviot Hills. They put him to the University in Edinburgh, as a preparation for the ministry, and supplied him with ample oatmeal, peasemeal bannocks, and milk. In that great school of divinity he learned the Hebrew, Greek, and Latin; he studied Italian, and French under Surenne, him of blessed memory even unto this day.

The reason for this migration is clearly stated by the head of the family. "I know how tough it was for my mother to raise me, and I wanted land for my kids and better opportunities for them." Yet, it seems his parents did a decent job raising him, even though his father had to admit, "I never had more than enough to support my family through honest labor, but that’s more than my Master had, who didn’t even have a place to rest His head." They provided him with the best form of education, peace of mind, as he watched over sheep on the Cheviot Hills. They sent him to the University of Edinburgh to prepare for the ministry and made sure he had plenty of oatmeal, peasemeal bannocks, and milk. In that prestigious school of divinity, he learned Hebrew, Greek, and Latin; he also studied Italian and French under Surenne, who is fondly remembered to this day.

John Eckford in 1839 married Margaret Christie, and he went far afield for a wife, namely from Newbiggin in Forfar, where for fourteen years he had his one and only charge, to Strathmiglo in Fife. The marriage was fruitful and a happy one, although there is a hint in the record of some religious difference upon which one would like to dwell if the subject were not too esoteric for this generation. The minister showed a certain indulgence, and so long as his wife lived he never employed the paraphrases in the solemn worship of the sanctuary. She was a woman of provident mind. Shortly after they were married he made the discovery that she had prepared the grave clothes for him as well as for herself. Too soon, after only eight years, it was her fate to be shrouded in them. After her death—probably because of her death—John Eckford emigrated to Canada.

John Eckford married Margaret Christie in 1839, traveling quite a distance for a wife from Newbiggin in Forfar, where he had been the minister for fourteen years, to Strathmiglo in Fife. Their marriage was both fruitful and happy, though there’s a subtle suggestion of some religious differences that would be too complex to explore in this day and age. The minister was somewhat lenient, and as long as his wife was alive, he never used the paraphrases in the formal worship of the church. She was a practical woman. Shortly after they married, he discovered that she had prepared burial clothes for both of them. Sadly, after just eight years, it was her turn to be wrapped in them. After her death—likely influenced by her passing—John Eckford moved to Canada.

To one who knows the early days in Canada there is nothing new in the story of this family. They landed in Montreal July 11th, 1851, forty-four days out from Glasgow. They proceeded by steamer to Hamilton, the fare being about a dollar for each passenger. The next stage was to Guelph; then on to Durham, and finally they came to the end of their journeying near Walkerton in Bruce County in the primeval forest, from which they cut out a home for themselves and for their children.

For anyone familiar with the early days in Canada, this family's story is nothing new. They arrived in Montreal on July 11th, 1851, after a forty-four-day journey from Glasgow. They took a steamboat to Hamilton, where the ticket cost about a dollar each. The next leg of their trip was to Guelph; then they traveled on to Durham, and finally, they reached the end of their journey near Walkerton in Bruce County, in the ancient forest, where they carved out a home for themselves and their children.

It was "the winter of the deep snow". One transcription from the record will disclose the scene:

It was "the winter of the deep snow." One entry from the record will reveal the scene:

    Finally, a grave was dug on a hill in the woods at the base of a large maple tree, with a young hemlock covered in snow beside it. The father and the eldest brother carried the casket along the cleared path. The mother followed closely behind, with the two families behind her. Snow was falling heavily. At the grave, John Eckford read a psalm and prayed, "that they might be able to believe that the mercy of the Lord is from everlasting to everlasting for those who fear Him."

John McCrae himself was an indefatigable church-goer. There is a note in childish characters written from Edinburgh in his thirteenth year, "On Sabbath went to service four times." There the statement stands in all its austerity. A letter from a chaplain is extant in which a certain mild wonder is expressed at the regularity in attendance of an officer of field rank. To his sure taste in poetry the hymns were a sore trial. "Only forty minutes are allowed for the service," he said, "and it is sad to see them 'snappit up' by these poor bald four-line things."

John McCrae was an unwavering church-goer. There’s a note in childish handwriting from Edinburgh when he was thirteen that says, “On Sunday went to service four times.” The statement stands as is. A letter from a chaplain exists that expresses mild surprise at the consistent attendance of a field officer. To his refined taste in poetry, the hymns were a tough ordeal. "Only forty minutes are allowed for the service," he remarked, "and it’s sad to see them ‘snapped up’ by these poor bald four-line things."

On Easter Sunday, 1915, he wrote: "We had a church parade this morning, the first since we arrived in France. Truly, if the dead rise not, we are of all men the most miserable." On the funeral service of a friend he remarks: "'Forasmuch as it hath pleased Almighty God,'—what a summary of the whole thing that is!" On many occasions he officiated in the absence of the chaplains who in those days would have as many as six services a day. In civil life in Montreal he went to church in the evening, and sat under the Reverend James Barclay of St. Pauls, now designated by some at least as St. Andrews.

On Easter Sunday, 1915, he wrote: "We had a church parade this morning, the first since we arrived in France. Honestly, if the dead don’t rise, we are the most miserable of all men." At the funeral service of a friend, he noted: "'Forasmuch as it hath pleased Almighty God,'—what a summary of the whole thing that is!" He often led services in the absence of the chaplains, who at that time could hold up to six services a day. In civilian life in Montreal, he attended church in the evening and listened to the Reverend James Barclay at St. Pauls, now referred to by some as St. Andrews.





VIII. The Civil Years

It will be observed in this long relation of John McCrae that little mention has yet been made of what after all was his main concern in life. For twenty years he studied and practised medicine. To the end he was an assiduous student and a very profound practitioner. He was a student, not of medicine alone, but of all subjects ancillary to the science, and to the task he came with a mind braced by a sound and generous education. Any education of real value a man must have received before he has attained to the age of seven years. Indeed he may be left impervious to its influence at seven weeks. John McCrae's education began well. It began in the time of his two grandfathers at least, was continued by his father and mother before he came upon this world's scene, and by them was left deep founded for him to build upon.

It will be noted in this long account of John McCrae that not much has been said about what was really his main focus in life. For twenty years, he studied and practiced medicine. Until the end, he was a dedicated learner and a highly skilled practitioner. He was a student not just of medicine, but of all subjects related to the field, and he approached his work with a mind strengthened by a solid and generous education. Any meaningful education must occur before a person turns seven years old. In fact, a person may remain unaffected by it by the age of seven weeks. John McCrae's education started off well. It began during the time of his two grandfathers at least, was continued by his parents before he entered this world, and they provided him with a strong foundation to build upon.

Noble natures have a repugnance from work. Manual labour is servitude. A day of idleness is a holy day. For those whose means do not permit to live in idleness the school is the only refuge; but they must prove their quality. This is the goal which drives many Scotch boys to the University, scorning delights and willing to live long, mind-laborious days.

Noble people dislike work. Manual labor is like being a servant. A day of rest is a sacred day. For those who can't afford to live without working, school is their only escape; but they have to prove their worth. This is what motivates many Scottish boys to attend University, sacrificing pleasures and ready to endure long, hard days of mental work.

John McCrae's father felt bound "to give the boy a chance," but the boy must pass the test. The test in such cases is the Shorter Catechism, that compendium of all intellectual argument. How the faithful aspirant for the school acquires this body of written knowledge at a time when he has not yet learned the use of letters is a secret not to be lightly disclosed. It may indeed be that already his education is complete. Upon the little book is always printed the table of multiples, so that the obvious truth which is comprised in the statement, "two by two makes four", is imputed to the contents which are within the cover. In studying the table the catechism is learned surreptitiously, and therefore without self-consciousness.

John McCrae's dad felt it was important "to give the boy a chance," but the boy had to pass the test. The test, in this case, is the Shorter Catechism, a summary of all intellectual debate. How the eager student manages to learn this body of written knowledge before he even knows how to read is a secret not to be taken lightly. It might be that his education is already complete. The little book always features a multiplication table, making the simple truth of "two times two equals four" seem like part of its content. By studying the table, the catechism is learned quietly, without any self-awareness.

So, in this well ordered family with its atmosphere of obedience, we may see the boy, like a youthful Socrates going about with a copy of the book in his hand, enquiring of those, who could already read, not alone what were the answers to the questions but the very questions themselves to which an answer was demanded.

So, in this disciplined family with a sense of obedience, we can see the boy, like a young Socrates, walking around with a book in his hand, asking those who could already read not just what the answers were but also the very questions that needed answering.

This learning, however, was only a minor part of life, since upon a farm life is very wide and very deep. In due time the school was accomplished, and there was a master in the school—let his name be recorded—William Tytler, who had a feeling for English writing and a desire to extend that feeling to others.

This learning, however, was just a small part of life, since life on a farm is vast and profound. Eventually, school was completed, and there was a teacher in the school—let his name be noted—William Tytler, who had a passion for English writing and a wish to share that passion with others.

In due time also the question of a University arose. There was a man in Canada named Dawson—Sir William Dawson. I have written of him in another place. He had the idea that a university had something to do with the formation of character, and that in the formation of character religion had a part. He was principal of McGill. I am not saying that all boys who entered that University were religious boys when they went in, or even religious men when they came out; but religious fathers had a general desire to place their boys under Sir William Dawson's care.

Eventually, the question of establishing a university came up. There was a man in Canada named Dawson—Sir William Dawson. I've mentioned him elsewhere. He believed that a university played a role in shaping character and that religion was part of that process. He was the principal of McGill. I'm not claiming that all the boys who entered that university were religious when they started, or even religious men when they graduated; but religious fathers generally wanted to place their sons under Sir William Dawson's guidance.

Those were the days of a queer, and now forgotten, controversy over what was called "Science and Religion". Of that also I have written in another place. It was left to Sir William Dawson to deliver the last word in defence of a cause that was already lost. His book came under the eye of David McCrae, as most books of the time did, and he was troubled in his heart. His boys were at the University of Toronto. It was too late; but he eased his mind by writing a letter. To this letter John replies under date 20th December, 1890: "You say that after reading Dawson's book you almost regretted that we had not gone to McGill. That, I consider, would have been rather a calamity, about as much so as going to Queen's." We are not always wiser than our fathers were, and in the end he came to McGill after all.

Those were the days of a strange, now forgotten, debate over what was called "Science and Religion." I've written about that in another place. It fell to Sir William Dawson to make the final argument in defense of a cause that was already lost. His book caught the attention of David McCrae, as most books of that time did, and it weighed on his mind. His sons were at the University of Toronto. It was too late; but he found some relief by writing a letter. John replied to this letter on December 20, 1890: "You say that after reading Dawson's book you almost wished we had gone to McGill. I think that would have been quite a disaster, about as bad as going to Queen's." We’re not always smarter than our parents were, and in the end, he came to McGill after all.

For good or ill, John McCrae entered the University of Toronto in 1888, with a scholarship for "general proficiency". He joined the Faculty of Arts, took the honours course in natural sciences, and graduated from the department of biology in 1894, his course having been interrupted by two severe illnesses. From natural science, it was an easy step to medicine, in which he was encouraged by Ramsay Wright, A. B. Macallum, A. McPhedran, and I. H. Cameron. In 1898 he graduated again, with a gold medal, and a scholarship in physiology and pathology. The previous summer he had spent at the Garrett Children's Hospital in Mt. Airy, Maryland.

For better or worse, John McCrae started at the University of Toronto in 1888, with a scholarship for "general proficiency." He joined the Faculty of Arts, pursued an honors program in natural sciences, and graduated from the biology department in 1894, though his studies were interrupted by two serious illnesses. Transitioning from natural science to medicine was seamless, supported by Ramsay Wright, A. B. Macallum, A. McPhedran, and I. H. Cameron. In 1898, he graduated again, earning a gold medal and a scholarship in physiology and pathology. The summer before, he had worked at the Garrett Children's Hospital in Mt. Airy, Maryland.

Upon graduating he entered the Toronto General Hospital as resident house officer; in 1899 he occupied a similar post at Johns Hopkins. Then he came to McGill University as fellow in pathology and pathologist to the Montreal General Hospital. In time he was appointed physician to the Alexandra Hospital for infectious diseases; later assistant physician to the Royal Victoria Hospital, and lecturer in medicine in the University. By examination he became a member of the Royal College of Physicians, London. In 1914 he was elected a member of the Association of American Physicians. These are distinctions won by few in the profession.

After graduating, he joined the Toronto General Hospital as a resident house officer; in 1899, he held a similar position at Johns Hopkins. He then moved to McGill University as a fellow in pathology and a pathologist at the Montreal General Hospital. Eventually, he was appointed physician at the Alexandra Hospital for infectious diseases; later, he became an assistant physician at the Royal Victoria Hospital and a lecturer in medicine at the university. He became a member of the Royal College of Physicians in London through examination. In 1914, he was elected as a member of the Association of American Physicians. These are achievements attained by only a few in the field.

In spite, or rather by reason, of his various attainments John McCrae never developed, or degenerated, into the type of the pure scientist. For the laboratory he had neither the mind nor the hands. He never peered at partial truths so closely as to mistake them for the whole truth; therefore, he was unfitted for that purely scientific career which was developed to so high a pitch of perfection in that nation which is now no longer mentioned amongst men. He wrote much, and often, upon medical problems. The papers bearing his name amount to thirty-three items in the catalogues. They testify to his industry rather than to invention and discovery, but they have made his name known in every text-book of medicine.

Despite his many achievements, John McCrae never became the stereotypical pure scientist. He lacked both the mindset and the skill for the laboratory. He didn't focus so intently on partial truths that he mistook them for the whole truth; as a result, he was unsuited for a purely scientific career that reached incredible heights in a nation that is no longer mentioned among people. He wrote extensively on medical issues. The papers listed under his name total thirty-three in the catalogs. They reflect his hard work more than his creativity and discovery, but they've made his name recognizable in every medical textbook.

Apart from his verse, and letters, and diaries, and contributions to journals and books of medicine, with an occasional address to students or to societies, John McCrae left few writings, and in these there is nothing remarkable by reason of thought or expression. He could not write prose. Fine as was his ear for verse he could not produce that finer rhythm of prose, which comes from the fall of proper words in proper sequence. He never learned that if a writer of prose takes care of the sound the sense will take care of itself. He did not scrutinize words to discover their first and fresh meaning. He wrote in phrases, and used words at second-hand as the journalists do. Bullets "rained"; guns "swept"; shells "hailed"; events "transpired", and yet his appreciation of style in others was perfect, and he was an insatiable reader of the best books. His letters are strewn with names of authors whose worth time has proved. To specify them would merely be to write the catalogue of a good library.

Aside from his poems, letters, diaries, and contributions to medical journals and books, along with occasional talks to students or organizations, John McCrae produced few writings, and nothing stood out due to its thought or expression. He wasn’t able to write prose. Although he had a great ear for poetry, he couldn’t create that finer rhythm of prose that comes from the right words being arranged in the right order. He never grasped that if a prose writer focuses on the sound, the meaning will take care of itself. He didn’t examine words to find their original and fresh meanings. He wrote in phrases and used words in a second-hand way, similar to journalists. Bullets "rained"; guns "swept"; shells "hailed"; events "transpired"; yet his appreciation for style in others was perfect, and he was an insatiable reader of great literature. His letters are filled with the names of authors whose value time has confirmed. Listing them would just mean writing the catalog of a good library.

The thirteen years with which this century opened were the period in which John McCrae established himself in civil life in Montreal and in the profession of medicine. Of this period he has left a chronicle which is at once too long and too short.

The thirteen years that began this century were when John McCrae settled into civilian life in Montreal and started his medical career. He left behind a record of this time that feels both too lengthy and too brief.

All lives are equally interesting if only we are in possession of all the facts. Places like Oxford and Cambridge have been made interesting because the people who live in them are in the habit of writing, and always write about each other. Family letters have little interest even for the family itself, if they consist merely of a recital of the trivial events of the day. They are prized for the unusual and for the sentiment they contain. Diaries also are dull unless they deal with selected incidents; and selection is the essence of every art. Few events have any interest in themselves, but any event can be made interesting by the pictorial or literary art.

All lives are equally fascinating if we have all the details. Places like Oxford and Cambridge are made interesting because the people who live there tend to write, and they always write about each other. Family letters are often dull, even for the family, if they only recount the ordinary happenings of the day. They are valued for the unusual and for the emotions they convey. Diaries are also boring unless they focus on specific incidents; and selection is at the heart of every art. Few events are interesting on their own, but any event can be made intriguing through artistic or literary expression.

When he writes to his mother, that, as he was coming out of the college, an Irish setter pressed a cold nose against his hand, that is interesting because it is unusual. If he tells us that a professor took him by the arm, there is no interest in that to her or to any one else. For that reason the ample letters and diaries which cover these years need not detain us long. There is in them little selection, little art—too much professor and too little dog.

When he writes to his mother that, as he was leaving college, an Irish setter nudged his hand with its cold nose, that's interesting because it's unusual. If he mentions that a professor grabbed his arm, that's not interesting to her or anyone else. For this reason, the lengthy letters and diaries from these years don't require much of our time. They lack selection, lack art—too much about professors and not enough about dogs.

It is, of course, the business of the essayist to select; but in the present case there is little to choose. He tells of invitations to dinner, accepted, evaded, or refused; but he does not always tell who were there, what he thought of them, or what they had to eat. Dinner at the Adami's,—supper at Ruttan's,—a night with Owen,—tea at the Reford's,—theatre with the Hickson's,—a reception at the Angus's,—or a dance at the Allan's,—these events would all be quite meaningless without an exposition of the social life of Montreal, which is too large a matter to undertake, alluring as the task would be. Even then, one would be giving one's own impressions and not his.

It’s definitely the job of the essayist to choose what to include, but in this case, there isn’t much to pick from. He mentions dinner invitations, whether accepted, avoided, or declined; however, he doesn’t always share who was there, what he thought of them, or what they ate. Dinner at the Adami's, supper at Ruttan's, a night with Owen, tea at the Reford's, a show with the Hickson's, a reception at the Angus's, or a dance at the Allan's—all of these occasions wouldn’t mean much without explaining the social life in Montreal, which is too big of a topic to tackle, no matter how tempting it might be. Even then, it would just reflect one's own views and not his.

Wherever he lived he was a social figure. When he sat at table the dinner was never dull. The entertainment he offered was not missed by the dullest intelligence. His contribution was merely "stories", and these stories in endless succession were told in a spirit of frank fun. They were not illustrative, admonitory, or hortatory. They were just amusing, and always fresh. This gift he acquired from his mother, who had that rare charm of mimicry without mockery, and caricature without malice. In all his own letters there is not an unkind comment or tinge of ill-nature, although in places, especially in later years, there is bitter indignation against those Canadian patriots who were patriots merely for their bellies' sake.

Wherever he lived, he was a social presence. When he sat at the dinner table, the meal was never boring. The entertainment he provided could be appreciated by even the dullest minds. His contribution was mainly "stories," which he told in an endlessly entertaining way with genuine humor. They weren't meant to teach a lesson or give advice; they were simply enjoyable and always new. He inherited this talent from his mother, who had that rare ability to mimic without mocking and to caricature without being mean. In all his letters, there isn’t a single unkind remark or hint of spite, though in some parts, especially later in life, he expresses strong anger toward those Canadian patriots who were only in it for their own gain.

Taken together his letters and diaries are a revelation of the heroic struggle by which a man gains a footing in a strange place in that most particular of all professions, a struggle comprehended by those alone who have made the trial of it. And yet the method is simple. It is all disclosed in his words, "I have never refused any work that was given me to do." These records are merely a chronicle of work. Outdoor clinics, laboratory tasks, post-mortems, demonstrating, teaching, lecturing, attendance upon the sick in wards and homes, meetings, conventions, papers, addresses, editing, reviewing,—the very remembrance of such a career is enough to appall the stoutest heart.

When you put together his letters and diaries, they reveal the heroic struggle a man goes through to establish himself in an unfamiliar place within the highly demanding profession. This struggle can only be understood by those who have experienced it themselves. Yet, the approach is straightforward. It is all captured in his words: "I have never refused any work that was given me to do." These records are simply a timeline of work. Outdoor clinics, lab tasks, autopsies, demonstrating, teaching, giving lectures, caring for the sick in hospitals and homes, attending meetings, conventions, writing papers, giving speeches, editing, reviewing—just thinking about such a career is enough to overwhelm even the strongest person.

But John McCrae was never appalled. He went about his work gaily, never busy, never idle. Each minute was pressed into the service, and every hour was made to count. In the first eight months of practice he claims to have made ninety dollars. It is many years before we hear him complain of the drudgery of sending out accounts, and sighing for the services of a bookkeeper. This is the only complaint that appears in his letters.

But John McCrae was never discouraged. He approached his work cheerfully, never too busy or too idle. Every minute was utilized, and each hour was valuable. In the first eight months of his practice, he says he earned ninety dollars. It would be many years before we hear him complain about the monotony of sending out invoices and wishing for help from a bookkeeper. This is the only complaint that shows up in his letters.

There were at the time in Montreal two rival schools, and are yet two rival hospitals. But John McCrae was of no party. He was the friend of all men, and the confidant of many. He sought nothing for himself and by seeking not he found what he most desired. His mind was single and his intention pure; his acts unsullied by selfish thought; his aim was true because it was steady and high. His aid was never sought for any cause that was unworthy, and those humorous eyes could see through the bones to the marrow of a scheme. In spite of his singular innocence, or rather by reason of it, he was the last man in the world to be imposed upon.

At that time in Montreal, there were two rival schools, and there are still two rival hospitals. But John McCrae didn't belong to either side. He was friends with everyone and confided in many. He didn't seek anything for himself, and by not wanting anything, he found what he truly desired. His mind was focused, and his intentions were pure; his actions were free from selfish thoughts; his aim was true because it was steady and ambitious. He never offered his help for any unworthy cause, and those witty eyes could see straight through to the core of any scheme. Despite his unique innocence, or maybe because of it, he was the last person anyone could take advantage of.

In all this devastating labour he never neglected the assembling of himself together with those who write and those who paint. Indeed, he had himself some small skill in line and colour. His hands were the hands of an artist—too fine and small for a body that weighted 180 pounds, and measured more than five feet eleven inches in height. There was in Montreal an institution known as "The Pen and Pencil Club". No one now living remembers a time when it did not exist. It was a peculiar club. It contained no member who should not be in it; and no one was left out who should be in. The number was about a dozen. For twenty years the club met in Dyonnet's studio, and afterwards, as the result of some convulsion, in K. R. Macpherson's. A ceremonial supper was eaten once a year, at which one dressed the salad, one made the coffee, and Harris sang a song. Here all pictures were first shown, and writings read—if they were not too long. If they were, there was in an adjoining room a tin chest, which in these austere days one remembers with refreshment. When John McCrae was offered membership he "grabbed at it", and the place was a home for the spirit wearied by the week's work. There Brymner and the other artists would discourse upon writings, and Burgess and the other writers would discourse upon pictures.

In all this exhausting work, he never forgot to gather with those who wrote and painted. In fact, he had some talent in drawing and painting himself. His hands were those of an artist—too delicate and small for a body that weighed 180 pounds and stood more than five feet eleven inches tall. In Montreal, there was a place called "The Pen and Pencil Club." No one alive today remembers a time when it didn't exist. It was a unique club. It had no members who didn’t belong, and no one was excluded who should have been included. The member count was about a dozen. For twenty years, the club met in Dyonnet's studio, and later, due to some upheaval, in K. R. Macpherson's place. They held a ceremonial dinner once a year, where one person prepared the salad, another made the coffee, and Harris sang a song. Here, all paintings were first displayed, and writings were read—if they weren't too lengthy. If they were, there was a tin chest in an adjoining room, which one recalls with fondness in these strict times. When John McCrae was invited to join, he "jumped at the chance," and the club became a refuge for the spirit tired from the week’s work. There, Brymner and the other artists discussed writings, while Burgess and the other writers talked about pictures.

It is only with the greatest of resolution, fortified by lack of time and space, that I have kept myself to the main lines of his career, and refrained from following him into by-paths and secret, pleasant places; but I shall not be denied just one indulgence. In the great days when Lord Grey was Governor-General he formed a party to visit Prince Edward Island. The route was a circuitous one. It began at Ottawa; it extended to Winnipeg, down the Nelson River to York Factory, across Hudson Bay, down the Strait, by Belle Isle and Newfoundland, and across the Gulf of St. Lawrence to a place called Orwell. Lord Grey in the matter of company had the reputation of doing himself well. John McCrae was of the party. It also included John Macnaughton, L. S. Amery, Lord Percy, Lord Lanesborough, and one or two others. The ship had called at North Sydney where Lady Grey and the Lady Evelyn joined.

With great determination and a tight schedule, I've focused on the main aspects of his career and avoided getting sidetracked by side stories and hidden gems; however, I can't resist one little indulgence. Back in the day when Lord Grey was Governor-General, he organized a trip to visit Prince Edward Island. The route was quite winding. It started in Ottawa, stretched to Winnipeg, followed the Nelson River to York Factory, crossed Hudson Bay, went down the Strait, passed by Belle Isle and Newfoundland, and then through the Gulf of St. Lawrence to a place called Orwell. Lord Grey was known for choosing good company. John McCrae was part of the group, along with John Macnaughton, L. S. Amery, Lord Percy, Lord Lanesborough, and a couple of others. The ship made a stop in North Sydney where Lady Grey and Lady Evelyn joined.

Through the place in a deep ravine runs an innocent stream which broadens out into still pools, dark under the alders. There was a rod—a very beautiful rod in two pieces. It excited his suspicion. It was put into his hand, the first stranger hand that ever held it; and the first cast showed that it was a worthy hand. The sea-trout were running that afternoon. Thirty years before, in that memorable visit to Scotland, he had been taken aside by "an old friend of his grandfather's". It was there he learned "to love the trooties". The love and the art never left him. It was at this same Orwell his brother first heard the world called to arms on that early August morning in 1914.

Through the deep ravine flows a clear stream that widens into calm pools, shadowy beneath the alders. There was a fishing rod—a really beautiful rod in two pieces. It sparked his curiosity. It was placed in his hand, the first unfamiliar hand to ever hold it; and the first cast proved that it was a capable hand. The sea trout were running that afternoon. Thirty years earlier, during a memorable trip to Scotland, he'd been pulled aside by "an old friend of his grandfather's." That was where he learned "to love the trout." The passion and the skill stayed with him. It was at this same Orwell that his brother first heard the world called to arms on that early August morning in 1914.

In those civil years there were, of course, diversions: visits to the United States and meetings with notable men—Welch, Futcher, Hurd, White, Howard, Barker: voyages to Europe with a detailed itinerary upon the record; walks and rides upon the mountain; excursion in winter to the woods, and in summer to the lakes; and one visit to the Packards in Maine, with the sea enthusiastically described. Upon those woodland excursions and upon many other adventures his companion is often referred to as "Billy T.", who can be no other than Lieut.-Col. W. G. Turner, "M.C."

In those peaceful years, there were definitely some fun activities: trips to the United States and meetings with prominent figures—Welch, Futcher, Hurd, White, Howard, Barker; journeys to Europe with a detailed itinerary recorded; hikes and rides in the mountains; winter trips to the woods, and summer visits to the lakes; and one trip to see the Packards in Maine, with the ocean vividly described. On those woodland adventures and many other excursions, his companion is often referred to as "Billy T.," who can only be Lieut.-Col. W. G. Turner, "M.C."

Much is left out of the diary that we would wish to have recorded. There is tantalizing mention of "conversations" with Shepherd—with Roddick—with Chipman—with Armstrong—with Gardner—with Martin—with Moyse. Occasionally there is a note of description: "James Mavor is a kindly genius with much knowledge"; "Tait McKenzie presided ideally" at a Shakespeare dinner; "Stephen Leacock does not keep all the good things for his publisher." Those who know the life in Montreal may well for themselves supply the details.

A lot is missing from the diary that we would love to see documented. There's an intriguing mention of "conversations" with Shepherd, Roddick, Chipman, Armstrong, Gardner, Martin, and Moyse. Sometimes there’s a description, like "James Mavor is a kind genius with a lot of knowledge"; "Tait McKenzie was the perfect host" at a Shakespeare dinner; "Stephen Leacock doesn’t save all the good stuff for his publisher." Those familiar with life in Montreal can likely fill in the gaps on their own.





IX. Dead in His Prime

John McCrae left the front after the second battle of Ypres, and never returned. On June 1st, 1915, he was posted to No. 3 General Hospital at Boulogne, a most efficient unit organized by McGill University and commanded by that fine soldier Colonel H. S. Birkett, C.B. He was placed in charge of medicine, with the rank of Lieut.-Colonel as from April 17th, 1915, and there he remained until his death.

John McCrae left the front after the second battle of Ypres and never came back. On June 1, 1915, he was assigned to No. 3 General Hospital at Boulogne, an extremely efficient unit set up by McGill University and led by the capable Colonel H. S. Birkett, C.B. He was made responsible for medicine, holding the rank of Lieutenant Colonel effective from April 17, 1915, and he stayed there until he passed away.

At first he did not relish the change. His heart was with the guns. He had transferred from the artillery to the medical service as recently as the previous autumn, and embarked a few days afterwards at Quebec, on the 29th of September, arriving at Davenport, October 20th, 1914. Although he was attached as Medical Officer to the 1st Brigade of Artillery, he could not forget that he was no longer a gunner, and in those tumultuous days he was often to be found in the observation post rather than in his dressing station. He had inherited something of the old army superciliousness towards a "non-combatant" service, being unaware that in this war the battle casualties in the medical corps were to be higher than in any other arm of the service. From South Africa he wrote exactly fifteen years before: "I am glad that I am not 'a medical' out here. No 'R.A.M.C.' or any other 'M.C.' for me. There is a big breach, and the medicals are on the far side of it." On August 7th, 1915, he writes from his hospital post, "I expect to wish often that I had stuck by the artillery." But he had no choice.

At first, he didn't like the change. He was still attached to the guns. He had switched from the artillery to the medical service just the previous autumn, and set off a few days later from Quebec on September 29, arriving at Davenport on October 20, 1914. Even though he was assigned as Medical Officer to the 1st Brigade of Artillery, he couldn't shake the feeling that he was no longer a gunner, and during those chaotic days, he often found himself at the observation post instead of his dressing station. He carried some of the old army arrogance towards a "non-combatant" role, not realizing that in this war, the medical corps would face more battle casualties than any other branch of service. From South Africa, he wrote exactly fifteen years earlier: "I'm glad I'm not 'a medical' out here. No 'R.A.M.C.' or any other 'M.C.' for me. There's a big divide, and the medics are on the other side." On August 7, 1915, he wrote from his hospital post, "I expect I'll often wish I had stayed with the artillery." But he had no choice.

Of this period of his service there is little written record. He merely did his work, and did it well, as he always did what his mind found to do. His health was failing. He suffered from the cold. A year before his death he writes on January 25th, 1917:

Of this time in his service, there isn't much documented. He just did his job and did it well, as he always did whatever he set his mind to. His health was declining. He struggled with the cold. A year before he passed away, he wrote on January 25th, 1917:

The cruel cold is still holding. Everyone is suffering, and the men in the wards in bed cannot keep warm. I know of nothing so absolutely pitiless as weather. Let one wish; let one pray; do what one will; still the same clear sky and no sign,—you know the cold brand of sunshine. For my own part I do not think I have ever been more uncomfortable. Everything is so cold that it hurts to pick it up. To go to bed is a nightmare and to get up a worse one. I have heard of cold weather in Europe, and how the poor suffer,—now I know!

The brutal cold is still here. Everyone is struggling, and the guys in the wards can't stay warm in their beds. I don't know anything more merciless than the weather. You can wish, you can pray, and it doesn't change a thing—the sky is clear with no signs of relief, just that piercing cold sunlight. Personally, I don't think I've ever felt more uncomfortable. Everything is so cold that it hurts to touch it. Going to bed is a nightmare, and getting up is even worse. I've heard about the cold in Europe and how the poor suffer—now I really understand!

All his life he was a victim of asthma. The first definite attack was in the autumn of 1894, and the following winter it recurred with persistence. For the next five years his letters abound in references to the malady. After coming to Montreal it subsided; but he always felt that the enemy was around the corner. He had frequent periods in bed; but he enjoyed the relief from work and the occasion they afforded for rest and reading.

All his life he struggled with asthma. The first clear attack happened in the fall of 1894, and it returned repeatedly the next winter. For the next five years, his letters were filled with mentions of the condition. After moving to Montreal, it calmed down; but he always sensed that the threat was nearby. He often spent time in bed, but he appreciated the break from work and the opportunities it provided for rest and reading.

In January, 1918, minutes begin to appear upon his official file which were of great interest to him, and to us. Colonel Birkett had relinquished command of the unit to resume his duties as Dean of the Medical Faculty of McGill University. He was succeeded by that veteran soldier, Colonel J. M. Elder, C.M.G. At the same time the command of No. 1 General Hospital fell vacant. Lieut.-Colonel McCrae was required for that post; but a higher honour was in store, namely the place of Consultant to the British Armies in the Field. All these events, and the final great event, are best recorded in the austere official correspondence which I am permitted to extract from the files:

In January 1918, important minutes started appearing on his official file, which were significant to him and to us. Colonel Birkett stepped down from command of the unit to return to his role as Dean of the Medical Faculty at McGill University. He was succeeded by the experienced soldier, Colonel J. M. Elder, C.M.G. At the same time, the command of No. 1 General Hospital became available. Lieut.-Colonel McCrae was needed for that position, but a greater honor awaited him: the role of Consultant to the British Armies in the Field. All these events, along with the final significant event, are best captured in the formal official correspondence that I am allowed to share from the files:

    From D.M.S. Canadian Contingents.  (Major-General C. L. Foster, C.B.).
    To O.C. No. 3 General Hospital, B.E.F., December 13, 1917:
    It's likely that the command of No. 1 General Hospital will soon be available. Please find out from Lieut.-Col. J. McCrae what he prefers regarding this. If he is available and willing to take on this role, we plan to offer it to him.
    O.C. No. 3 General Hospital, B.E.F., To D.M.S. Canadian Contingents, 28th December, 1917: Lieut.-Colonel McCrae wants me to convey that, while he is looking forward to taking over command of this unit, he is more than willing to accommodate your request and will take charge of No. 1 General Hospital whenever you think it's best.
    D.G.M.S. British Armies in France.  To D.M.S. Canadian Contingents,
    January 2nd, 1918:  We plan to appoint Lieutenant Colonel J. McCrae,
    currently with No. 3 Canadian General Hospital, as Consulting Physician
    to the British Armies in France.  You will receive official notification of this 
    appointment once it is finalized.
    D.M.S. Canadian Contingents. To O.C. No. 3 General Hospital, B.E.F.,
    January 5th, 1918: Since receiving your letter, I've learned from G.H.Q. that they will appoint a Consultant Physician to the British Armies in the Field, and they've expressed interest in having Lieut.-Colonel McCrae for this role. This is a much greater honor than leading a General Hospital, and I really hope he accepts the position, as I have long believed it should be filled by a C.A.M.C. officer.
    D.M.S. Canadian Contingents.  To D.G.M.S., G.H.Q., 2nd Echelon,
    January 15th, 1918:  I completely agree with this appointment and believe this officer will demonstrate his skill as a competent Consulting Physician.
    Telegram:  D.G.M.S., G.H.Q., 2nd Echelon.  To D.M.S. Canadian Contingents,
    January 18th, 1918:  Any objections to Lieut.-Col. J. McCrae
    being appointed Consulting Physician to the British Armies in France?
    If appointed, we recommend a temporary rank of Colonel.
    Telegram:  O.C. No. 3 General Hospital, B.E.F.  To D.M.S.  
    Canadian Contingents, January 27th, 1918:  Lieut.-Col. John McCrae  
    is seriously ill with pneumonia at No. 14 General Hospital.
Telegram: O.C. No. 14 General Hospital. To O.C. No. 3 General Hospital, B.E.F., January 28, 1918: Lieutenant Colonel John McCrae passed away this morning.

This was the end. For him the war was finished and all the glory of the world had passed.

This was the end. For him, the war was over, and all the glory of the world had faded away.

Henceforth we are concerned not with the letters he wrote, but with the letters which were written about him. They came from all quarters, literally in hundreds, all inspired by pure sympathy, but some tinged with a curiosity which it is hoped this writing will do something to assuage.

From now on, we are focused not on the letters he wrote, but on the letters that were written about him. They came from everywhere, literally in the hundreds, all driven by genuine sympathy, but some colored by a curiosity that we hope this writing will help to ease.

Let us first confine ourselves to the facts. They are all contained in a letter which Colonel Elder wrote to myself in common with other friends. On Wednesday, January 23rd, he was as usual in the morning; but in the afternoon Colonel Elder found him asleep in his chair in the mess room. "I have a slight headache," he said. He went to his quarters. In the evening he was worse, but had no increase of temperature, no acceleration of pulse or respiration. At this moment the order arrived for him to proceed forthwith as Consulting Physician of the First Army. Colonel Elder writes, "I read the order to him, and told him I should announce the contents at mess. He was very much pleased over the appointment. We discussed the matter at some length, and I took his advice upon measures for carrying on the medical work of the unit."

Let’s stick to the facts. They’re all in a letter that Colonel Elder wrote to me and some other friends. On Wednesday, January 23rd, he was fine in the morning, but in the afternoon, Colonel Elder found him sleeping in his chair in the mess room. "I have a slight headache," he said. He went to his quarters. In the evening, he felt worse, but there was no increase in temperature, pulse, or breathing rate. At that moment, the order came in for him to immediately serve as Consulting Physician of the First Army. Colonel Elder writes, "I read the order to him and told him I would announce the contents at mess. He was very pleased about the appointment. We talked about it for a while, and I took his advice on how to carry on the medical work of the unit."

Next morning he was sleeping soundly, but later on he professed to be much better. He had no fever, no cough, no pain. In the afternoon he sent for Colonel Elder, and announced that he had pneumonia. There were no signs in the chest; but the microscope revealed certain organisms which rather confirmed the diagnosis. The temperature was rising. Sir Bertrand Dawson was sent for. He came by evening from Wimereux, but he could discover no physical signs. In the night the temperature continued to rise, and he complained of headache. He was restless until the morning, "when he fell into a calm, untroubled sleep."

The next morning, he was sleeping deeply, but later he claimed to feel much better. He had no fever, no cough, no pain. In the afternoon, he called for Colonel Elder and announced that he had pneumonia. There were no signs in his chest, but the microscope revealed certain organisms that supported the diagnosis. His temperature was going up. Sir Bertrand Dawson was called in. He arrived in the evening from Wimereux, but he couldn't find any physical signs. During the night, the temperature kept rising, and he complained of a headache. He was restless until morning, "when he fell into a calm, untroubled sleep."

Next morning, being Friday, he was removed by ambulance to No. 14 General Hospital at Wimereux. In the evening news came that he was better; by the morning the report was good, a lowered temperature and normal pulse. In the afternoon the condition grew worse; there were signs of cerebral irritation with a rapid, irregular pulse; his mind was quickly clouded. Early on Sunday morning the temperature dropped, and the heart grew weak; there was an intense sleepiness. During the day the sleep increased to coma, and all knew the end was near.

The next morning, which was Friday, he was taken by ambulance to No. 14 General Hospital in Wimereux. In the evening, news came that he was improving; by the morning, the update was positive, showing a lower temperature and a normal pulse. However, in the afternoon, his condition worsened; there were signs of brain irritation, with a rapid, irregular pulse, and his mental clarity quickly faded. Early Sunday morning, his temperature dropped, and his heart grew weak; he experienced an intense sleepiness. Throughout the day, the sleep deepened into a coma, and it became clear that the end was near.

His friends had gathered. The choicest of the profession was there, but they were helpless. He remained unconscious, and died at half past one on Monday morning. The cause of death was double pneumonia with massive cerebral infection. Colonel Elder's letter concludes: "We packed his effects in a large box, everything that we thought should go to his people, and Gow took it with him to England to-day." Walter Gow was his cousin, a son of that Gow who sailed with the Eckfords from Glasgow in the 'Clutha'. At the time he was Deputy Minister in London of the Overseas Military Forces of Canada. He had been sent for but arrived too late;—all was so sudden.

His friends had gathered. The best in the field were there, but they felt powerless. He remained unresponsive and passed away at 1:30 AM on Monday. The cause of death was double pneumonia with severe brain infection. Colonel Elder's letter concludes: "We packed his belongings in a large box, everything we thought should go to his family, and Gow took it with him to England today." Walter Gow was his cousin, the son of that Gow who sailed with the Eckfords from Glasgow on the 'Clutha.' At the time, he was the Deputy Minister for the Overseas Military Forces of Canada in London. He had been summoned but arrived too late; everything happened so suddenly.

The funeral was held on Tuesday afternoon, January 29th, at the cemetery in Wimereux. The burial was made with full military pomp. From the Canadian Corps came Lieut.-General Sir Arthur Currie, the General Officer Commanding; Major-General E. W. B. Morrison, and Brigadier-General W. O. H. Dodds, of the Artillery. Sir A. T. Sloggett, the Director-General of Medical Services, and his Staff were waiting at the grave. All Commanding Officers at the Base, and all Deputy Directors were there. There was also a deputation from the Harvard Unit headed by Harvey Cushing.

The funeral took place on Tuesday afternoon, January 29th, at the cemetery in Wimereux. The burial was conducted with full military honors. Joining from the Canadian Corps were Lieutenant-General Sir Arthur Currie, the General Officer Commanding; Major-General E. W. B. Morrison, and Brigadier-General W. O. H. Dodds from the Artillery. Sir A. T. Sloggett, the Director-General of Medical Services, and his staff were present at the grave. All Commanding Officers at the Base and all Deputy Directors attended as well. A delegation from the Harvard Unit, led by Harvey Cushing, was also there.

Bonfire went first, led by two grooms, and decked in the regulation white ribbon, not the least pathetic figure in the sad procession. A hundred nursing Sisters in caps and veils stood in line, and then proceeded in ambulances to the cemetery, where they lined up again. Seventy-five of the personnel from the Hospital acted as escort, and six Sergeants bore the coffin from the gates to the grave. The firing party was in its place. Then followed the chief mourners, Colonel Elder and Sir Bertrand Dawson; and in their due order, the rank and file of No. 3 with their officers; the rank and file of No. 14 with their officers; all officers from the Base, with Major-General Wilberforce and the Deputy Directors to complete.

Bonfire went first, led by two grooms and decorated with the standard white ribbon, not at all a mournful sight in the somber procession. A hundred nursing Sisters in caps and veils formed a line and then traveled in ambulances to the cemetery, where they lined up again. Seventy-five staff members from the Hospital served as the escort, and six Sergeants carried the coffin from the gates to the grave. The firing party was in position. Next came the main mourners, Colonel Elder and Sir Bertrand Dawson; followed in order by the members of No. 3 along with their officers; then the members of No. 14 with their officers; and finally, all officers from the Base, including Major-General Wilberforce and the Deputy Directors to round out the group.

It was a springtime day, and those who have passed all those winters in France and in Flanders will know how lovely the springtime may be. So we may leave him, "on this sunny slope, facing the sunset and the sea." These are the words used by one of the nurses in a letter to a friend,—those women from whom no heart is hid. She also adds: "The nurses lamented that he became unconscious so quickly they could not tell him how much they cared. To the funeral all came as we did, because we loved him so."

It was a spring day, and those who have endured all those winters in France and Flanders know how beautiful spring can be. So we can leave him, "on this sunny slope, facing the sunset and the sea." These are the words used by one of the nurses in a letter to a friend—those women who hold no secrets. She also adds: "The nurses were sad that he became unconscious so quickly they couldn’t tell him how much they cared. Everyone came to the funeral just like we did because we loved him so."

At first there was the hush of grief and the silence of sudden shock. Then there was an outbreak of eulogy, of appraisement, and sorrow. No attempt shall be made to reproduce it here; but one or two voices may be recorded in so far as in disjointed words they speak for all. Stephen Leacock, for those who write, tells of his high vitality and splendid vigour—his career of honour and marked distinction—his life filled with honourable endeavour and instinct with the sense of duty—a sane and equable temperament—whatever he did, filled with sure purpose and swift conviction.

At first, there was a moment of grief and a shocked silence. Then came an outpouring of praise, evaluation, and sorrow. I won't try to recreate it all here, but a few voices can be captured as they express what many feel. Stephen Leacock, who writes, talks about his incredible energy and vibrant spirit—his honorable career and notable achievements—his life packed with meaningful effort and a strong sense of duty—a balanced and steady nature—everything he did was infused with clear purpose and strong belief.

Dr. A. D. Blackader, acting Dean of the Medical Faculty of McGill University, himself speaking from out of the shadow, thus appraises his worth: "As a teacher, trusted and beloved; as a colleague, sincere and cordial; as a physician, faithful, cheerful, kind. An unkind word he never uttered." Oskar Klotz, himself a student, testifies that the relationship was essentially one of master and pupil. From the head of his first department at McGill, Professor, now Colonel, Adami, comes the weighty phrase, that he was sound in diagnosis; as a teacher inspiring; that few could rise to his high level of service.

Dr. A. D. Blackader, the acting Dean of the Medical Faculty at McGill University, reflects on his contributions: "As a teacher, he was trusted and loved; as a colleague, sincere and friendly; as a physician, loyal, cheerful, and kind. He never spoke an unkind word." Oskar Klotz, a former student, confirms that their relationship was fundamentally one of mentor and student. From the head of his first department at McGill, Professor, now Colonel, Adami, comes the strong statement that he excelled in diagnosis; as a teacher, he was inspiring; and that very few could match his high standard of service.

There is yet a deeper aspect of this character with which we are concerned; but I shrink from making the exposition, fearing lest with my heavy literary tread I might destroy more than I should discover. When one stands by the holy place wherein dwells a dead friend's soul—the word would slip out at last—it becomes him to take off the shoes from off his feet. But fortunately the dilemma does not arise. The task has already been performed by one who by God has been endowed with the religious sense, and by nature enriched with the gift of expression; one who in his high calling has long been acquainted with the grief of others, and is now himself a man of sorrow, having seen with understanding eyes,

There's an even deeper side to this character that we're focusing on; but I'm hesitant to explain it, worried that my clumsy words might overshadow what I'm trying to reveal. When someone stands in a sacred space where a deceased friend's spirit lingers—the term would eventually escape me—it's fitting to remove their shoes. Luckily, that's not an issue here. That task has already been handled by someone who has been blessed by God with a sense of spirituality and is naturally gifted in articulating it; someone who, in their esteemed position, has long understood the pain of others, and is now a person of sorrow themselves, having seen with insightful eyes.

    These impactful days come and go like the tides,  
    And leave our fallen on every shore.

On February 14th, 1918, a Memorial Service was held in the Royal Victoria College. Principal Sir William Peterson presided. John Macnaughton gave the address in his own lovely and inimitable words, to commemorate one whom he lamented, "so young and strong, in the prime of life, in the full ripeness of his fine powers, his season of fruit and flower bearing. He never lost the simple faith of his childhood. He was so sure about the main things, the vast things, the indispensable things, of which all formulated faiths are but a more or less stammering expression, that he was content with the rough embodiment in which his ancestors had laboured to bring those great realities to bear as beneficent and propulsive forces upon their own and their children's minds and consciences. His instinctive faith sufficed him."

On February 14th, 1918, a memorial service took place at the Royal Victoria College. Principal Sir William Peterson led the service. John Macnaughton delivered an address in his own beautiful and unique words, honoring someone he mourned, saying, "so young and strong, in the prime of life, at the height of his abilities, in a time of growth and prosperity. He never lost the simple faith of his childhood. He was incredibly certain about the important things—the vast and essential truths—of which all organized beliefs are just a somewhat awkward expression, that he was satisfied with the rough form in which his ancestors worked to bring those great realities into their lives and the lives of their children as generous and motivating forces on their minds and consciences. His instinctive faith was enough for him."

To his own students John McCrae once quoted the legend from a picture, to him "the most suggestive picture in the world": What I spent I had: what I saved I lost: what I gave I have;—and he added: "It will be in your power every day to store up for yourselves treasures that will come back to you in the consciousness of duty well done, of kind acts performed, things that having given away freely you yet possess. It has often seemed to me that when in the Judgement those surprised faces look up and say, Lord, when saw we Thee an' hungered and fed Thee; or thirsty and gave Thee drink; a stranger, and took Thee in; naked and clothed Thee; and there meets them that warrant-royal of all charity, Inasmuch as ye did it unto one of the least of these, ye have done it unto Me, there will be amongst those awed ones many a practitioner of medicine."

To his own students, John McCrae once quoted a saying from what he called "the most thought-provoking picture in the world": What I spent, I had; what I saved, I lost; what I gave, I have. He added, "Every day, you have the opportunity to build up treasures for yourselves that will return to you in the feeling of duty fulfilled, kind acts performed, and things that, having given away freely, you still possess. It often seems to me that when it's time for Judgment and those surprised faces look up and say, 'Lord, when did we see You hungry and feed You, or thirsty and give You a drink? A stranger, and take You in? Naked, and clothe You?' they will receive that ultimate confirmation of all charity: 'Inasmuch as you did it to one of the least of these, you did it to Me.' Among those humbled souls, there will surely be many who practiced medicine."

And finally I shall conclude this task to which I have set a worn but willing hand, by using again the words which once I used before: Beyond all consideration of his intellectual attainments John McCrae was the well beloved of his friends. He will be missed in his place; and wherever his companions assemble there will be for them a new poignancy in the Miltonic phrase,

And finally, I will wrap up this task that I've undertaken with a tired but eager hand by using the words I’ve used before: Beyond all thoughts about his intelligence, John McCrae was dearly loved by his friends. They will feel his absence; and wherever his friends gather, there will be a new depth to the Miltonic phrase,

But oh, the heavy change now that you're gone,  
Now that you're gone, and you can never come back!  

London,

London,

11th November, 1918.

November 11, 1918.










        
        
    
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