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Rilla of Ingleside
by
Lucy Maud Montgomery
CONTENTS
I | GLEN "NOTES" AND OTHER MATTERS |
II | DEW OF MORNING |
III | MOONLIT MIRTH |
IV | THE PIPER PIPES |
V | "THE SOUND OF A GOING" |
VI | SUSAN, RILLA, AND DOG MONDAY MAKE A RESOLUTION |
VII | A WAR-BABY AND A SOUP TUREEN |
VIII | RILLA DECIDES |
IX | DOC HAS A MISADVENTURE |
X | THE TROUBLES OF RILLA |
XI | DARK AND BRIGHT |
XII | IN THE DAYS OF LANGEMARCK |
XIII | A SLICE OF HUMBLE PIE |
XIV | THE VALLEY OF DECISION |
XV | UNTIL THE DAY BREAK |
XVI | REALISM AND ROMANCE |
XVII | THE WEEKS WEAR BY |
XVIII | A WAR-WEDDING |
XIX | "THEY SHALL NOT PASS" |
XX | NORMAN DOUGLAS SPEAKS OUT IN MEETING |
XXI | "LOVE AFFAIRS ARE HORRIBLE" |
XXII | LITTLE DOG MONDAY KNOWS |
XXIII | "AND SO, GOODNIGHT" |
XXIV | MARY IS JUST IN TIME |
XXV | SHIRLEY GOES |
XXVI | SUSAN HAS A PROPOSAL OF MARRIAGE |
XXVII | WAITING |
XXVIII | BLACK SUNDAY |
XXIX | "WOUNDED AND MISSING" |
XXX | THE TURNING OF THE TIDE |
XXXI | MRS. MATILDA PITTMAN |
XXXII | WORD FROM JEM |
XXXIII | VICTORY! |
XXXIV | MR. HYDE GOES TO HIS OWN PLACE AND SUSAN TAKES A HONEYMOON |
XXXV | "RILLA-MY-RILLA!" |
CHAPTER I
GLEN "NOTES" AND OTHER MATTERS
It was a warm, golden-cloudy, lovable afternoon. In the big living-room at Ingleside Susan Baker sat down with a certain grim satisfaction hovering about her like an aura; it was four o'clock and Susan, who had been working incessantly since six that morning, felt that she had fairly earned an hour of repose and gossip. Susan just then was perfectly happy; everything had gone almost uncannily well in the kitchen that day. Dr. Jekyll had not been Mr. Hyde and so had not grated on her nerves; from where she sat she could see the pride of her heart—the bed of peonies of her own planting and culture, blooming as no other peony plot in Glen St. Mary ever did or could bloom, with peonies crimson, peonies silvery pink, peonies white as drifts of winter snow.
It was a warm, golden-cloudy, lovely afternoon. In the big living room at Ingleside, Susan Baker sat down with a certain grim satisfaction surrounding her like an aura; it was four o'clock, and Susan, who had been working non-stop since six that morning, felt she had truly earned an hour of rest and conversation. At that moment, Susan was perfectly happy; everything had gone almost unnaturally well in the kitchen that day. Dr. Jekyll hadn’t turned into Mr. Hyde, which meant he hadn’t grated on her nerves; from where she sat, she could see the pride of her heart—the bed of peonies she had planted and nurtured, blooming like no other peony patch in Glen St. Mary ever did or could, with crimson peonies, silvery pink peonies, and peonies as white as winter snowdrifts.
Susan had on a new black silk blouse, quite as elaborate as anything Mrs. Marshall Elliott ever wore, and a white starched apron, trimmed with complicated crocheted lace fully five inches wide, not to mention insertion to match. Therefore Susan had all the comfortable consciousness of a well-dressed woman as she opened her copy of the Daily Enterprise and prepared to read the Glen "Notes" which, as Miss Cornelia had just informed her, filled half a column of it and mentioned almost everybody at Ingleside. There was a big, black headline on the front page of the Enterprise, stating that some Archduke Ferdinand or other had been assassinated at a place bearing the weird name of Sarajevo, but Susan tarried not over uninteresting, immaterial stuff like that; she was in quest of something really vital. Oh, here it was—"Jottings from Glen St. Mary." Susan settled down keenly, reading each one over aloud to extract all possible gratification from it.
Susan wore a new black silk blouse, just as fancy as anything Mrs. Marshall Elliott ever wore, along with a white starched apron trimmed with intricate crocheted lace that was five inches wide, plus matching inserts. So, Susan felt all the comfortable confidence of a well-dressed woman as she opened her copy of the Daily Enterprise and got ready to read the Glen "Notes," which, as Miss Cornelia had just told her, filled half a column and mentioned almost everyone at Ingleside. There was a big, bold headline on the front page of the Enterprise, saying that some Archduke Ferdinand had been assassinated in a place with the strange name Sarajevo, but Susan didn't waste time on boring, irrelevant stuff like that; she was looking for something truly important. Ah, here it was—"Jottings from Glen St. Mary." Susan settled in, eagerly reading each one aloud to enjoy it fully.
Mrs. Blythe and her visitor, Miss Cornelia—alias Mrs. Marshall Elliott—were chatting together near the open door that led to the veranda, through which a cool, delicious breeze was blowing, bringing whiffs of phantom perfume from the garden, and charming gay echoes from the vine-hung corner where Rilla and Miss Oliver and Walter were laughing and talking. Wherever Rilla Blythe was, there was laughter.
Mrs. Blythe and her guest, Miss Cornelia—also known as Mrs. Marshall Elliott—were chatting by the open door leading to the veranda. A cool, refreshing breeze was coming through, carrying hints of floral scents from the garden and cheerful sounds from the vine-covered corner where Rilla, Miss Oliver, and Walter were laughing and talking. Wherever Rilla Blythe went, there was laughter.
There was another occupant of the living-room, curled up on a couch, who must not be overlooked, since he was a creature of marked individuality, and, moreover, had the distinction of being the only living thing whom Susan really hated.
There was another person in the living room, curled up on a couch, who shouldn't be ignored, since he was a uniquely distinct character and, on top of that, was the only living being that Susan truly hated.
All cats are mysterious but Dr. Jekyll-and-Mr. Hyde—"Doc" for short—was trebly so. He was a cat of double personality—or else, as Susan vowed, he was possessed by the devil. To begin with, there had been something uncanny about the very dawn of his existence. Four years previously Rilla Blythe had had a treasured darling of a kitten, white as snow, with a saucy black tip to its tail, which she called Jack Frost. Susan disliked Jack Frost, though she could not or would not give any valid reason therefor.
All cats are mysterious, but Dr. Jekyll-and-Mr. Hyde—"Doc" for short—was even more so. He was a cat with a split personality, or, as Susan insisted, he was possessed by the devil. To start, there had always been something strange about the very beginning of his existence. Four years earlier, Rilla Blythe had a beloved kitten, white as snow with a cheeky black tip on its tail, which she named Jack Frost. Susan didn't like Jack Frost, although she couldn't or wouldn't provide any good reason for it.
"Take my word for it, Mrs. Dr. dear," she was wont to say ominously, "that cat will come to no good."
"Trust me on this, Mrs. Dr. dear," she would say with a warning tone, "that cat won't end well."
"But why do you think so?" Mrs. Blythe would ask.
"But why do you think that?" Mrs. Blythe would ask.
"I do not think—I know," was all the answer Susan would vouchsafe.
"I don't think—I know," was all Susan would say.
With the rest of the Ingleside folk Jack Frost was a favourite; he was so very clean and well groomed, and never allowed a spot or stain to be seen on his beautiful white suit; he had endearing ways of purring and snuggling; he was scrupulously honest.
With the rest of the Ingleside crowd, Jack Frost was a favorite; he was always so clean and well-groomed, never letting a mark or stain show on his beautiful white suit. He had charming habits of purring and cuddling, and he was incredibly honest.
And then a domestic tragedy took place at Ingleside. Jack Frost had kittens!
And then a domestic tragedy happened at Ingleside. Jack Frost had kittens!
It would be vain to try to picture Susan's triumph. Had she not always insisted that that cat would turn out to be a delusion and a snare? Now they could see for themselves!
It would be pointless to try to imagine Susan's victory. Hadn't she always claimed that cat would end up being a trick and a trap? Now they could see for themselves!
Rilla kept one of the kittens, a very pretty one, with peculiarly sleek glossy fur of a dark yellow crossed by orange stripes, and large, satiny, golden ears. She called it Goldie and the name seemed appropriate enough to the little frolicsome creature which, during its kittenhood, gave no indication of the sinister nature it really possessed. Susan, of course, warned the family that no good could be expected from any offspring of that diabolical Jack Frost; but Susan's Cassandra-like croakings were unheeded.
Rilla kept one of the kittens, a really beautiful one, with uniquely sleek, shiny fur that was a dark yellow mixed with orange stripes, and large, smooth, golden ears. She named it Goldie, which felt just right for the playful little creature that, throughout its kitten years, showed no signs of its true, darker nature. Susan, of course, warned the family that nothing good could come from any offspring of that devilish Jack Frost; but Susan's gloomy predictions were ignored.
The Blythes had been so accustomed to regard Jack Frost as a member of the male sex that they could not get out of the habit. So they continually used the masculine pronoun, although the result was ludicrous. Visitors used to be quite electrified when Rilla referred casually to "Jack and his kitten," or told Goldie sternly, "Go to your mother and get him to wash your fur."
The Blythes had gotten so used to thinking of Jack Frost as a guy that they couldn't shake the habit. So they kept using male pronouns, even though it was pretty funny. Visitors would be quite shocked when Rilla casually mentioned "Jack and his kitten," or told Goldie firmly, "Go to your mom and get him to wash your fur."
"It is not decent, Mrs. Dr. dear," poor Susan would say bitterly. She herself compromised by always referring to Jack as "it" or "the white beast," and one heart at least did not ache when "it" was accidentally poisoned the following winter.
"It’s not decent, Mrs. Dr. dear," poor Susan would say bitterly. She herself compromised by always referring to Jack as "it" or "the white beast," and at least one heart didn’t ache when "it" was accidentally poisoned the following winter.
In a year's time "Goldie" became so manifestly an inadequate name for the orange kitten that Walter, who was just then reading Stevenson's story, changed it to Dr. Jekyll-and-Mr. Hyde. In his Dr. Jekyll mood the cat was a drowsy, affectionate, domestic, cushion-loving puss, who liked petting and gloried in being nursed and patted. Especially did he love to lie on his back and have his sleek, cream-coloured throat stroked gently while he purred in somnolent satisfaction. He was a notable purrer; never had there been an Ingleside cat who purred so constantly and so ecstatically.
In a year's time, "Goldie" became clearly an inadequate name for the orange kitten, so Walter, who was just then reading Stevenson's story, changed it to Dr. Jekyll-and-Mr. Hyde. In his Dr. Jekyll mood, the cat was a sleepy, affectionate, home-loving kitty who enjoyed being petted and loved being nursed and cuddled. He especially liked to lie on his back and have his smooth, cream-colored throat gently stroked while he purred in contentment. He was an exceptional purrer; never had there been a cat at Ingleside that purred so constantly and so joyfully.
"The only thing I envy a cat is its purr," remarked Dr. Blythe once, listening to Doc's resonant melody. "It is the most contented sound in the world."
"The only thing I envy about a cat is its purr," Dr. Blythe said once, listening to Doc's deep melody. "It's the most peaceful sound in the world."
Doc was very handsome; his every movement was grace; his poses magnificent. When he folded his long, dusky-ringed tail about his feet and sat him down on the veranda to gaze steadily into space for long intervals the Blythes felt that an Egyptian sphinx could not have made a more fitting Deity of the Portal.
Doc was really good-looking; every move he made was graceful; his poses were stunning. When he wrapped his long, dark-ringed tail around his feet and sat down on the porch to stare into space for long periods, the Blythes felt that an Egyptian sphinx couldn’t have been a more appropriate Deity of the Portal.
When the Mr. Hyde mood came upon him—which it invariably did before rain, or wind—he was a wild thing with changed eyes. The transformation always came suddenly. He would spring fiercely from a reverie with a savage snarl and bite at any restraining or caressing hand. His fur seemed to grow darker and his eyes gleamed with a diabolical light. There was really an unearthly beauty about him. If the change happened in the twilight all the Ingleside folk felt a certain terror of him. At such times he was a fearsome beast and only Rilla defended him, asserting that he was "such a nice prowly cat." Certainly he prowled.
When the Mr. Hyde mood hit him—which it always did before rain or wind—he turned into a wild creature with different eyes. The change always came suddenly. He would jump up sharply from his daydream, snarling fiercely and snapping at any hand that tried to hold or pet him. His fur seemed to darken, and his eyes shone with a wicked light. There was an otherworldly beauty about him. If the change happened at twilight, everyone at Ingleside felt a certain fear of him. During those times, he was a terrifying beast, and only Rilla stood up for him, claiming he was "such a nice prowly cat." And he definitely prowled.
Dr. Jekyll loved new milk; Mr. Hyde would not touch milk and growled over his meat. Dr. Jekyll came down the stairs so silently that no one could hear him. Mr. Hyde made his tread as heavy as a man's. Several evenings, when Susan was alone in the house, he "scared her stiff," as she declared, by doing this. He would sit in the middle of the kitchen floor, with his terrible eyes fixed unwinkingly upon hers for an hour at a time. This played havoc with her nerves, but poor Susan really held him in too much awe to try to drive him out. Once she had dared to throw a stick at him and he had promptly made a savage leap towards her. Susan rushed out of doors and never attempted to meddle with Mr. Hyde again—though she visited his misdeeds upon the innocent Dr. Jekyll, chasing him ignominiously out of her domain whenever he dared to poke his nose in and denying him certain savoury tidbits for which he yearned.
Dr. Jekyll loved fresh milk; Mr. Hyde wouldn’t touch it and growled over his meat. Dr. Jekyll came down the stairs so quietly that no one could hear him. Mr. Hyde walked heavily like a man. Several evenings, when Susan was alone in the house, he "scared her stiff," as she put it, by doing this. He would sit in the middle of the kitchen floor, staring at her with his terrifying eyes for an hour at a time. This completely rattled her nerves, but poor Susan was too intimidated to try to get rid of him. Once she had the guts to throw a stick at him, and he quickly made a savage leap towards her. Susan bolted outside and never tried to mess with Mr. Hyde again—though she took out her anger on the innocent Dr. Jekyll, chasing him shamefully out of her space whenever he dared to intrude and denying him certain delicious treats he longed for.
"'The many friends of Miss Faith Meredith, Gerald Meredith and James Blythe,'" read Susan, rolling the names like sweet morsels under her tongue, "'were very much pleased to welcome them home a few weeks ago from Redmond College. James Blythe, who was graduated in Arts in 1913, had just completed his first year in medicine.'"
"'The many friends of Miss Faith Meredith, Gerald Meredith, and James Blythe,'" read Susan, savoring the names like sweet treats, "'were really happy to welcome them home a few weeks ago from Redmond College. James Blythe, who graduated with a degree in Arts in 1913, had just finished his first year of medical school.'"
"Faith Meredith has really got to be the most handsomest creature I ever saw," commented Miss Cornelia above her filet crochet. "It's amazing how those children came on after Rosemary West went to the manse. People have almost forgotten what imps of mischief they were once. Anne, dearie, will you ever forget the way they used to carry on? It's really surprising how well Rosemary got on with them. She's more like a chum than a step-mother. They all love her and Una adores her. As for that little Bruce, Una just makes a perfect slave of herself to him. Of course, he is a darling. But did you ever see any child look as much like an aunt as he looks like his Aunt Ellen? He's just as dark and just as emphatic. I can't see a feature of Rosemary in him. Norman Douglas always vows at the top of his voice that the stork meant Bruce for him and Ellen and took him to the manse by mistake."
"Faith Meredith has to be the most handsome person I've ever seen," said Miss Cornelia while working on her filet crochet. "It's incredible how those kids changed after Rosemary West moved to the manse. People have almost forgotten how much trouble they used to be. Anne, darling, will you ever forget how they used to act? It's surprising how well Rosemary gets along with them. She's more like a friend than a stepmother. They all love her, and Una idolizes her. As for that little Bruce, Una practically turns herself into his servant. Of course, he's adorable. But have you ever seen a kid who looks more like an aunt than he does like his Aunt Ellen? He's just as dark and just as expressive. I can't see any of Rosemary in him. Norman Douglas always shouts that the stork meant to give Bruce to him and Ellen and accidentally dropped him at the manse."
"Bruce adores Jem," said Mrs Blythe. "When he comes over here he follows Jem about silently like a faithful little dog, looking up at him from under his black brows. He would do anything for Jem, I verily believe."
"Bruce really loves Jem," Mrs. Blythe said. "When he comes here, he trails after Jem silently like a loyal little dog, gazing up at him from beneath his dark brows. I truly believe he would do anything for Jem."
"Are Jem and Faith going to make a match of it?"
"Are Jem and Faith going to get together?"
Mrs. Blythe smiled. It was well known that Miss Cornelia, who had been such a virulent man-hater at one time, had actually taken to match-making in her declining years.
Mrs. Blythe smiled. It was widely known that Miss Cornelia, who had once been such a fierce man-hater, had actually started playing matchmaker in her later years.
"They are only good friends yet, Miss Cornelia."
"They're still just good friends, Miss Cornelia."
"Very good friends, believe me," said Miss Cornelia emphatically. "I hear all about the doings of the young fry."
"Really good friends, trust me," Miss Cornelia insisted. "I hear all about what the young ones are up to."
"I have no doubt that Mary Vance sees that you do, Mrs. Marshall Elliott," said Susan significantly, "but I think it is a shame to talk about children making matches."
"I have no doubt that Mary Vance realizes that you do, Mrs. Marshall Elliott," Susan said meaningfully, "but I think it's a shame to discuss children trying to set up relationships."
"Children! Jem is twenty-one and Faith is nineteen," retorted Miss Cornelia. "You must not forget, Susan, that we old folks are not the only grown-up people in the world."
"Kids! Jem is twenty-one and Faith is nineteen," replied Miss Cornelia. "You can't forget, Susan, that us older folks aren't the only adults around."
Outraged Susan, who detested any reference to her age—not from vanity but from a haunting dread that people might come to think her too old to work—returned to her "Notes."
Outraged, Susan, who hated any mention of her age—not out of vanity but because she was haunted by the fear that people might consider her too old to work—went back to her "Notes."
"'Carl Meredith and Shirley Blythe came home last Friday evening from Queen's Academy. We understand that Carl will be in charge of the school at Harbour Head next year and we are sure he will be a popular and successful teacher.'"
"Carl Meredith and Shirley Blythe came home last Friday evening from Queen's Academy. We hear that Carl will be in charge of the school at Harbour Head next year, and we are confident he will be a popular and successful teacher."
"He will teach the children all there is to know about bugs, anyhow," said Miss Cornelia. "He is through with Queen's now and Mr. Meredith and Rosemary wanted him to go right on to Redmond in the fall, but Carl has a very independent streak in him and means to earn part of his own way through college. He'll be all the better for it."
"He'll teach the kids everything they need to know about bugs, anyway," said Miss Cornelia. "He's done with Queen's now, and Mr. Meredith and Rosemary want him to head to Redmond in the fall, but Carl has a strong independent streak and plans to earn part of his own way through college. It'll be good for him."
"'Walter Blythe, who has been teaching for the past two years at Lowbridge, has resigned,'" read Susan. "'He intends going to Redmond this fall.'"
"'Walter Blythe, who has been teaching at Lowbridge for the last two years, has resigned,'" Susan read. "'He plans to go to Redmond this fall.'"
"Is Walter quite strong enough for Redmond yet?" queried Miss Cornelia anxiously.
"Is Walter strong enough for Redmond yet?" Miss Cornelia asked anxiously.
"We hope that he will be by the fall," said Mrs. Blythe. "An idle summer in the open air and sunshine will do a great deal for him."
"We're hoping he'll be here by the fall," said Mrs. Blythe. "A lazy summer outdoors in the sunshine will do wonders for him."
"Typhoid is a hard thing to get over," said Miss Cornelia emphatically, "especially when one has had such a close shave as Walter had. I think he'd do well to stay out of college another year. But then he's so ambitious. Are Di and Nan going too?"
"Typhoid is really tough to recover from," Miss Cornelia said strongly, "especially after such a close call like Walter had. I think he should take another year off from college. But he’s so driven. Are Di and Nan going as well?"
"Yes. They both wanted to teach another year but Gilbert thinks they had better go to Redmond this fall."
"Yes. They both wanted to teach for another year, but Gilbert thinks they should go to Redmond this fall."
"I'm glad of that. They'll keep an eye on Walter and see that he doesn't study too hard. I suppose," continued Miss Cornelia, with a side glance at Susan, "that after the snub I got a few minutes ago it will not be safe for me to suggest that Jerry Meredith is making sheep's eyes at Nan."
"I'm glad to hear that. They'll watch over Walter and make sure he doesn't study too much. I guess," Miss Cornelia added, glancing at Susan, "that after the cold shoulder I got a few minutes ago, it wouldn't be wise for me to say that Jerry Meredith has a crush on Nan."
Susan ignored this and Mrs. Blythe laughed again.
Susan ignored this, and Mrs. Blythe laughed again.
"Dear Miss Cornelia, I have my hands full, haven't I?—with all these boys and girls sweethearting around me? If I took it seriously it would quite crush me. But I don't—it is too hard yet to realize that they're grown up. When I look at those two tall sons of mine I wonder if they can possibly be the fat, sweet, dimpled babies I kissed and cuddled and sang to slumber the other day—only the other day, Miss Cornelia. Wasn't Jem the dearest baby in the old House of Dreams? and now he's a B.A. and accused of courting."
"Dear Miss Cornelia, I have so much going on, don't I?—with all these boys and girls flirting around me? If I took it seriously, it would completely overwhelm me. But I don’t—it's still hard to accept that they're all grown up. When I look at my two tall sons, I can’t help but wonder if they can really be the chubby, sweet, dimpled babies I kissed, cuddled, and rocked to sleep just the other day—only the other day, Miss Cornelia. Wasn't Jem the sweetest baby in the old House of Dreams? And now he’s a college graduate and being accused of dating."
"We're all growing older," sighed Miss Cornelia.
"We're all getting older," sighed Miss Cornelia.
"The only part of me that feels old," said Mrs. Blythe, "is the ankle I broke when Josie Pye dared me to walk the Barry ridge-pole in the Green Gables days. I have an ache in it when the wind is east. I won't admit that it is rheumatism, but it does ache. As for the children, they and the Merediths are planning a gay summer before they have to go back to studies in the fall. They are such a fun-loving little crowd. They keep this house in a perpetual whirl of merriment."
"The only part of me that feels old," said Mrs. Blythe, "is the ankle I broke when Josie Pye dared me to walk the Barry ridge-pole back in the Green Gables days. It aches when the wind comes from the east. I won't say it's rheumatism, but it does hurt. As for the kids, they and the Merediths are planning a fun summer before they have to hit the books again in the fall. They are such a joyful little group. They keep this house buzzing with laughter."
"Is Rilla going to Queen's when Shirley goes back?"
"Is Rilla going to Queen's when Shirley goes back?"
"It isn't decided yet. I rather fancy not. Her father thinks she is not quite strong enough—she has rather outgrown her strength—she's really absurdly tall for a girl not yet fifteen. I am not anxious to have her go—why, it would be terrible not to have a single one of my babies home with me next winter. Susan and I would fall to fighting with each other to break the monotony."
"It hasn't been decided yet. I'd prefer not to. Her dad thinks she's not quite strong enough—she's pretty much outgrown her strength—she's actually ridiculously tall for a girl who's not even fifteen. I'm really not eager for her to go—honestly, it would be awful not to have any of my kids home with me next winter. Susan and I would end up arguing with each other just to break the boredom."
Susan smiled at this pleasantry. The idea of her fighting with "Mrs. Dr. dear!"
Susan smiled at this friendly remark. The thought of her arguing with "Mrs. Dr. dear!"
"Does Rilla herself want to go?" asked Miss Cornelia.
"Does Rilla want to go?" asked Miss Cornelia.
"No. The truth is, Rilla is the only one of my flock who isn't ambitious. I really wish she had a little more ambition. She has no serious ideals at all—her sole aspiration seems to be to have a good time."
"No. The truth is, Rilla is the only one in my group who isn't ambitious. I really wish she had a bit more drive. She doesn't have any serious ideals—her only goal seems to be to enjoy herself."
"And why should she not have it, Mrs. Dr. dear?" cried Susan, who could not bear to hear a single word against anyone of the Ingleside folk, even from one of themselves. "A young girl should have a good time, and that I will maintain. There will be time enough for her to think of Latin and Greek."
"And why shouldn’t she have it, Mrs. Dr. dear?" shouted Susan, who couldn’t stand hearing a single word against anyone in the Ingleside family, even from one of their own. "A young girl deserves to have fun, and I’ll stand by that. There will be plenty of time for her to think about Latin and Greek."
"I should like to see a little sense of responsibility in her, Susan. And you know yourself that she is abominably vain."
"I'd like to see a bit of responsibility in her, Susan. And you know she’s extremely vain."
"She has something to be vain about," retorted Susan. "She is the prettiest girl in Glen St. Mary. Do you think that all those over-harbour MacAllisters and Crawfords and Elliotts could scare up a skin like Rilla's in four generations? They could not. No, Mrs. Dr. dear, I know my place but I cannot allow you to run down Rilla. Listen to this, Mrs. Marshall Elliott."
"She's got a reason to be vain," Susan shot back. "She's the prettiest girl in Glen St. Mary. Do you really think all those MacAllisters, Crawfords, and Elliotts from over the harbor could produce a complexion like Rilla's in four generations? They can't. No, Mrs. Dr. dear, I know my place, but I won't let you put Rilla down. Listen to this, Mrs. Marshall Elliott."
Susan had found a chance to get square with Miss Cornelia for her digs at the children's love affairs. She read the item with gusto.
Susan saw an opportunity to get back at Miss Cornelia for her comments about the kids' romantic interests. She read the item with enthusiasm.
"'Miller Douglas has decided not to go West. He says old P.E.I. is good enough for him and he will continue to farm for his aunt, Mrs. Alec Davis.'"
"'Miller Douglas has decided not to head West. He says that old P.E.I. is good enough for him, and he will keep farming for his aunt, Mrs. Alec Davis.'"
Susan looked keenly at Miss Cornelia.
Susan looked intently at Miss Cornelia.
"I have heard, Mrs. Marshall Elliott, that Miller is courting Mary Vance."
"I've heard, Mrs. Marshall Elliott, that Miller is dating Mary Vance."
This shot pierced Miss Cornelia's armour. Her sonsy face flushed.
This comment hit Miss Cornelia hard. Her cheerful face turned red.
"I won't have Miller Douglas hanging round Mary," she said crisply. "He comes of a low family. His father was a sort of outcast from the Douglases—they never really counted him in—and his mother was one of those terrible Dillons from the Harbour Head."
"I don't want Miller Douglas around Mary," she said firmly. "He comes from a low background. His father was basically an outcast from the Douglases—they never really accepted him—and his mother was one of those awful Dillons from the Harbour Head."
"I think I have heard, Mrs. Marshall Elliott, that Mary Vance's own parents were not what you could call aristocratic."
"I believe I've heard, Mrs. Marshall Elliott, that Mary Vance's parents weren't exactly what you'd call aristocratic."
"Mary Vance has had a good bringing up and she is a smart, clever, capable girl," retorted Miss Cornelia. "She is not going to throw herself away on Miller Douglas, believe me! She knows my opinion on the matter and Mary has never disobeyed me yet."
"Mary Vance has been raised well, and she’s a smart, clever, capable girl," replied Miss Cornelia. "She’s not going to waste herself on Miller Douglas, trust me! She knows how I feel about it, and Mary has never gone against my wishes."
"Well, I do not think you need worry, Mrs. Marshall Elliott, for Mrs. Alec Davis is as much against it as you could be, and says no nephew of hers is ever going to marry a nameless nobody like Mary Vance."
"Well, I don’t think you need to worry, Mrs. Marshall Elliott, because Mrs. Alec Davis is just as opposed to it as you are, and she says that no nephew of hers is ever going to marry a no-name like Mary Vance."
Susan returned to her mutton, feeling that she had got the best of it in this passage of arms, and read another "note."
Susan returned to her mutton, feeling like she had come out on top in this exchange, and read another "note."
"'We are pleased to hear that Miss Oliver has been engaged as teacher for another year. Miss Oliver will spend her well-earned vacation at her home in Lowbridge.'"
"We're happy to hear that Miss Oliver is continuing as a teacher for another year. She'll be spending her well-deserved vacation at her home in Lowbridge."
"I'm so glad Gertrude is going to stay," said Mrs. Blythe. "We would miss her horribly. And she has an excellent influence over Rilla who worships her. They are chums, in spite of the difference in their ages."
"I'm really glad Gertrude is going to stay," said Mrs. Blythe. "We would miss her a lot. She has a great influence on Rilla, who looks up to her. They are best friends, even with the age difference."
"I thought I heard she was going to be married?"
"I thought I heard she was getting married?"
"I believe it was talked of but I understand it is postponed for a year."
"I heard it was discussed, but I understand it’s been postponed for a year."
"Who is the young man?"
"Who’s the young man?"
"Robert Grant. He is a young lawyer in Charlottetown. I hope Gertrude will be happy. She has had a sad life, with much bitterness in it, and she feels things with a terrible keenness. Her first youth is gone and she is practically alone in the world. This new love that has come into her life seems such a wonderful thing to her that I think she hardly dares believe in its permanence. When her marriage had to be put off she was quite in despair—though it certainly wasn't Mr. Grant's fault. There were complications in the settlement of his father's estate—his father died last winter—and he could not marry till the tangles were unravelled. But I think Gertrude felt it was a bad omen and that her happiness would somehow elude her yet."
"Robert Grant. He’s a young lawyer in Charlottetown. I hope Gertrude finds happiness. She’s had a tough life, full of bitterness, and she feels things intensely. Her youth is behind her, and she’s nearly alone in the world. This new love that’s entered her life seems so amazing to her that I think she hardly dares to hope it will last. When her marriage had to be postponed, she was really devastated—though it definitely wasn’t Mr. Grant’s fault. There were issues with his father’s estate settlement—his father passed away last winter—and he couldn’t marry until those were sorted out. But I think Gertrude saw it as a bad sign and felt that her happiness would somehow slip away from her again."
"It does not do, Mrs. Dr. dear, to set your affections too much on a man," remarked Susan solemnly.
"It isn't a good idea, Mrs. Dr. dear, to get too attached to a man," Susan said seriously.
"Mr. Grant is quite as much in love with Gertrude as she is with him, Susan. It is not he whom she distrusts—it is fate. She has a little mystic streak in her—I suppose some people would call her superstitious. She has an odd belief in dreams and we have not been able to laugh it out of her. I must own, too, that some of her dreams—but there, it would not do to let Gilbert hear me hinting such heresy. What have you found of much interest, Susan?"
"Mr. Grant is just as in love with Gertrude as she is with him, Susan. It's not him that she doesn't trust—it's fate. She has a little mystical side to her—I guess some people would call her superstitious. She has a strange belief in dreams, and we haven't been able to laugh her out of it. I have to admit, though, that some of her dreams—but I shouldn't let Gilbert hear me suggesting such blasphemy. What have you found that’s really interesting, Susan?"
Susan had given an exclamation.
Susan exclaimed.
"Listen to this, Mrs. Dr. dear. 'Mrs. Sophia Crawford has given up her house at Lowbridge and will make her home in future with her niece, Mrs. Albert Crawford.' Why that is my own cousin Sophia, Mrs. Dr. dear. We quarrelled when we were children over who should get a Sunday-school card with the words 'God is Love,' wreathed in rosebuds, on it, and have never spoken to each other since. And now she is coming to live right across the road from us."
"Listen to this, Mrs. Doctor dear. 'Mrs. Sophia Crawford has given up her house at Lowbridge and will be living in the future with her niece, Mrs. Albert Crawford.' That's my own cousin Sophia, Mrs. Doctor dear. We fought as kids over who would get a Sunday-school card that said 'God is Love,' decorated with rosebuds, and we haven't spoken to each other since. And now she's moving to live right across the street from us."
"You will have to make up the old quarrel, Susan. It will never do to be at outs with your neighbours."
"You need to resolve the old argument, Susan. It's not acceptable to be on bad terms with your neighbors."
"Cousin Sophia began the quarrel, so she can begin the making up also, Mrs. Dr. dear," said Susan loftily. "If she does I hope I am a good enough Christian to meet her half-way. She is not a cheerful person and has been a wet blanket all her life. The last time I saw her, her face had a thousand wrinkles—maybe more, maybe less—from worrying and foreboding. She howled dreadful at her first husband's funeral but she married again in less than a year. The next note, I see, describes the special service in our church last Sunday night and says the decorations were very beautiful."
"Cousin Sophia started the argument, so she can start the making up too, Mrs. Dr. dear," Susan said haughtily. "If she does, I hope I'm a good enough Christian to meet her halfway. She isn’t a cheerful person and has been a downer her whole life. The last time I saw her, her face was lined with a thousand wrinkles—maybe more, maybe less— from worrying and feeling anxious. She cried terribly at her first husband's funeral, but she remarried in less than a year. The next note, I see, talks about the special service in our church last Sunday night and says the decorations were really beautiful."
"Speaking of that reminds me that Mr. Pryor strongly disapproves of flowers in church," said Miss Cornelia. "I always said there would be trouble when that man moved here from Lowbridge. He should never have been put in as elder—it was a mistake and we shall live to rue it, believe me! I have heard that he has said that if the girls continue to 'mess up the pulpit with weeds' that he will not go to church."
"Speaking of that, it reminds me that Mr. Pryor really disapproves of flowers in church," said Miss Cornelia. "I always knew there would be trouble when that guy moved here from Lowbridge. He should never have been made an elder—it was a mistake, and we’ll regret it, trust me! I've heard that he said if the girls keep 'messing up the pulpit with weeds,' he won't go to church."
"The church got on very well before old Whiskers-on-the-moon came to the Glen and it is my opinion it will get on without him after he is gone," said Susan.
"The church was doing just fine before old Whiskers-on-the-moon came to the Glen, and I believe it will continue to thrive after he's gone," said Susan.
"Who in the world ever gave him that ridiculous nickname?" asked Mrs. Blythe.
"Who in the world gave him that ridiculous nickname?" asked Mrs. Blythe.
"Why, the Lowbridge boys have called him that ever since I can remember, Mrs. Dr. dear—I suppose because his face is so round and red, with that fringe of sandy whisker about it. It does not do for anyone to call him that in his hearing, though, and that you may tie to. But worse than his whiskers, Mrs. Dr. dear, he is a very unreasonable man and has a great many queer ideas. He is an elder now and they say he is very religious; but I can well remember the time, Mrs. Dr. dear, twenty years ago, when he was caught pasturing his cow in the Lowbridge graveyard. Yes, indeed, I have not forgotten that, and I always think of it when he is praying in meeting. Well, that is all the notes and there is not much else in the paper of any importance. I never take much interest in foreign parts. Who is this Archduke man who has been murdered?"
"Well, the Lowbridge boys have called him that for as long as I can remember, Mrs. Dr. dear—I guess it's because his face is so round and red, with that patch of sandy whiskers around it. But it's best not to call him that when he can hear you, and you can count on that. Even worse than his whiskers, Mrs. Dr. dear, he’s a very unreasonable guy and has a lot of strange ideas. He’s an elder now, and they say he’s quite religious; but I can clearly remember a time, Mrs. Dr. dear, twenty years ago, when he got caught letting his cow graze in the Lowbridge graveyard. Yes, indeed, I haven’t forgotten that, and I always think of it when he’s praying in the meeting. Well, that’s all the notes, and there’s not much else in the paper that’s important. I never pay much attention to foreign places. Who is this Archduke guy who’s been murdered?"
"What does it matter to us?" asked Miss Cornelia, unaware of the hideous answer to her question which destiny was even then preparing. "Somebody is always murdering or being murdered in those Balkan States. It's their normal condition and I don't really think that our papers ought to print such shocking things. The Enterprise is getting far too sensational with its big headlines. Well, I must be getting home. No, Anne dearie, it's no use asking me to stay to supper. Marshall has got to thinking that if I'm not home for a meal it's not worth eating—just like a man. So off I go. Merciful goodness, Anne dearie, what is the matter with that cat? Is he having a fit?"—this, as Doc suddenly bounded to the rug at Miss Cornelia's feet, laid back his ears, swore at her, and then disappeared with one fierce leap through the window.
"What does it matter to us?" asked Miss Cornelia, unaware of the awful answer to her question that fate was already preparing. "Someone is always killing or getting killed in those Balkan states. It’s their usual state of affairs, and I really don’t think our newspapers should print such shocking news. The Enterprise is getting way too sensational with its big headlines. Anyway, I have to head home. No, Anne dear, there’s no point in asking me to stay for dinner. Marshall has started thinking that if I’m not home for a meal, it’s not worth eating—just like a man. So off I go. Goodness gracious, Anne dear, what’s wrong with that cat? Is he having a seizure?"—this, as Doc suddenly jumped onto the rug at Miss Cornelia's feet, laid back his ears, hissed at her, and then vanished with a fierce leap through the window.
"Oh, no. He's merely turning into Mr. Hyde—which means that we shall have rain or high wind before morning. Doc is as good as a barometer."
"Oh, no. He's just turning into Mr. Hyde—which means we're going to have rain or strong winds by morning. The Doc is just like a barometer."
"Well, I am thankful he has gone on the rampage outside this time and not into my kitchen," said Susan. "And I am going out to see about supper. With such a crowd as we have at Ingleside now it behooves us to think about our meals betimes."
"Well, I'm glad he's causing a scene outside this time and not in my kitchen," said Susan. "And I'm going to check on dinner. With the big crowd we have at Ingleside now, we should start thinking about our meals ahead of time."
CHAPTER II
DEW OF MORNING
Outside, the Ingleside lawn was full of golden pools of sunshine and plots of alluring shadows. Rilla Blythe was swinging in the hammock under the big Scotch pine, Gertrude Oliver sat at its roots beside her, and Walter was stretched at full length on the grass, lost in a romance of chivalry wherein old heroes and beauties of dead and gone centuries lived vividly again for him.
Outside, the Ingleside lawn was filled with golden patches of sunlight and enticing shade. Rilla Blythe was swinging in the hammock under the large Scotch pine, Gertrude Oliver sat by its roots next to her, and Walter was lying flat on the grass, absorbed in a romantic tale of chivalry where old heroes and beautiful figures from long-gone centuries came to life for him.
Rilla was the "baby" of the Blythe family and was in a chronic state of secret indignation because nobody believed she was grown up. She was so nearly fifteen that she called herself that, and she was quite as tall as Di and Nan; also, she was nearly as pretty as Susan believed her to be. She had great, dreamy, hazel eyes, a milky skin dappled with little golden freckles, and delicately arched eyebrows, giving her a demure, questioning look which made people, especially lads in their teens, want to answer it. Her hair was ripely, ruddily brown and a little dent in her upper lip looked as if some good fairy had pressed it in with her finger at Rilla's christening. Rilla, whose best friends could not deny her share of vanity, thought her face would do very well, but worried over her figure, and wished her mother could be prevailed upon to let her wear longer dresses. She, who had been so plump and roly-poly in the old Rainbow Valley days, was incredibly slim now, in the arms-and-legs period. Jem and Shirley harrowed her soul by calling her "Spider." Yet she somehow escaped awkwardness. There was something in her movements that made you think she never walked but always danced. She had been much petted and was a wee bit spoiled, but still the general opinion was that Rilla Blythe was a very sweet girl, even if she were not so clever as Nan and Di.
Rilla was the "baby" of the Blythe family and was constantly frustrated because no one believed she was grown up. She was almost fifteen, so she called herself that, and she was just as tall as Di and Nan; plus, she was nearly as pretty as Susan thought she was. She had large, dreamy hazel eyes, a smooth skin sprinkled with little golden freckles, and delicately arched eyebrows, giving her a shy, curious look that made people, especially teenage boys, want to respond to her. Her hair was a vibrant reddish-brown, and a little dent in her upper lip looked like some kind fairy had pressed it in with her finger at Rilla's birth. Rilla, whose best friends couldn't deny her touch of vanity, thought her face was fine, but she worried about her figure and wished her mother would let her wear longer dresses. She, who had been so plump and round in the old Rainbow Valley days, was incredibly slim now, in the awkward arms-and-legs stage. Jem and Shirley teased her by calling her "Spider." Yet she somehow avoided being awkward. There was something about her movements that made you feel like she never walked but always danced. She had been very pampered and was a little spoiled, but overall, people thought Rilla Blythe was a very sweet girl, even if she wasn’t as smart as Nan and Di.
Miss Oliver, who was going home that night for vacation, had boarded for a year at Ingleside. The Blythes had taken her to please Rilla who was fathoms deep in love with her teacher and was even willing to share her room, since no other was available. Gertrude Oliver was twenty-eight and life had been a struggle for her. She was a striking-looking girl, with rather sad, almond-shaped brown eyes, a clever, rather mocking mouth, and enormous masses of black hair twisted about her head. She was not pretty but there was a certain charm of interest and mystery in her face, and Rilla found her fascinating. Even her occasional moods of gloom and cynicism had allurement for Rilla. These moods came only when Miss Oliver was tired. At all other times she was a stimulating companion, and the gay set at Ingleside never remembered that she was so much older than themselves. Walter and Rilla were her favourites and she was the confidante of the secret wishes and aspirations of both. She knew that Rilla longed to be "out"—to go to parties as Nan and Di did, and to have dainty evening dresses and—yes, there is no mincing matters—beaux! In the plural, at that! As for Walter, Miss Oliver knew that he had written a sequence of sonnets "to Rosamond"—i.e., Faith Meredith—and that he aimed at a Professorship of English literature in some big college. She knew his passionate love of beauty and his equally passionate hatred of ugliness; she knew his strength and his weakness.
Miss Oliver, who was heading home that night for vacation, had spent a year boarding at Ingleside. The Blythes had taken her in to please Rilla, who was deeply in love with her teacher and was even willing to share her room, since no other was available. Gertrude Oliver was twenty-eight, and life had been a struggle for her. She was a striking-looking woman, with rather sad, almond-shaped brown eyes, a clever, somewhat mocking mouth, and huge amounts of black hair twisted up on her head. She wasn't conventionally pretty, but there was a certain charm and mystery in her face that fascinated Rilla. Even her occasional moods of gloom and cynicism had an allure for Rilla. These moods would only appear when Miss Oliver was tired. At all other times, she was an engaging companion, and the lively crowd at Ingleside never remembered that she was much older than they were. Walter and Rilla were her favorites, and she was the confidante of their secret wishes and aspirations. She knew that Rilla longed to be "out"—to go to parties like Nan and Di did, to wear lovely evening dresses—and yes, let's be honest—boyfriends! Plural, at that! As for Walter, Miss Oliver knew he had written a series of sonnets "to Rosamond"—meaning Faith Meredith—and that he aimed to get a Professorship in English literature at some big college. She was aware of his passionate love for beauty and his equally intense hatred of ugliness; she understood his strengths and weaknesses.
Walter was, as ever, the handsomest of the Ingleside boys. Miss Oliver found pleasure in looking at him for his good looks—he was so exactly like what she would have liked her own son to be. Glossy black hair, brilliant dark grey eyes, faultless features. And a poet to his fingertips! That sonnet sequence was really a remarkable thing for a lad of twenty to write. Miss Oliver was no partial critic and she knew that Walter Blythe had a wonderful gift.
Walter was, as always, the most handsome of the Ingleside boys. Miss Oliver enjoyed looking at him for his good looks—he was exactly what she would have wanted her own son to be like. Shiny black hair, striking dark grey eyes, perfect features. And a poet down to his fingertips! That sequence of sonnets was truly impressive for a twenty-year-old to write. Miss Oliver wasn't biased and she recognized that Walter Blythe had an incredible talent.
Rilla loved Walter with all her heart. He never teased her as Jem and Shirley did. He never called her "Spider." His pet name for her was "Rilla-my-Rilla"—a little pun on her real name, Marilla. She had been named after Aunt Marilla of Green Gables, but Aunt Marilla had died before Rilla was old enough to know her very well, and Rilla detested the name as being horribly old-fashioned and prim. Why couldn't they have called her by her first name, Bertha, which was beautiful and dignified, instead of that silly "Rilla"? She did not mind Walter's version, but nobody else was allowed to call her that, except Miss Oliver now and then. "Rilla-my-Rilla" in Walter's musical voice sounded very beautiful to her—like the lilt and ripple of some silvery brook. She would have died for Walter if it would have done him any good, so she told Miss Oliver. Rilla was as fond of italics as most girls of fifteen are—and the bitterest drop in her cup was her suspicion that he told Di more of his secrets than he told her.
Rilla loved Walter with all her heart. He never teased her like Jem and Shirley did. He never called her "Spider." His special name for her was "Rilla-my-Rilla"—a little play on her real name, Marilla. She had been named after Aunt Marilla of Green Gables, but Aunt Marilla had passed away before Rilla was old enough to really know her, and Rilla hated the name because it felt so old-fashioned and stuffy. Why couldn’t they have called her by her first name, Bertha, which was beautiful and dignified, instead of that silly "Rilla"? She didn't mind Walter's version, but no one else was allowed to call her that, except for Miss Oliver occasionally. "Rilla-my-Rilla" in Walter's musical voice sounded so lovely to her—like the gentle flow of a sparkling brook. She would have done anything for Walter if it would help him, she told Miss Oliver. Rilla liked to emphasize things as much as most fifteen-year-olds do—and the bitterest part of her heartache was her fear that he shared more of his secrets with Di than with her.
"He thinks I'm not grown up enough to understand," she had once lamented rebelliously to Miss Oliver, "but I am! And I would never tell them to a single soul—not even to you, Miss Oliver. I tell you all my own—I just couldn't be happy if I had any secret from you, dearest—but I would never betray his. I tell him everything—I even show him my diary. And it hurts me dreadfully when he doesn't tell me things. He shows me all his poems, though—they are marvellous, Miss Oliver. Oh, I just live in the hope that some day I shall be to Walter what Wordsworth's sister Dorothy was to him. Wordsworth never wrote anything like Walter's poems—nor Tennyson, either."
"He thinks I'm not mature enough to get it," she had once complained defiantly to Miss Oliver, "but I am! And I would never share them with a single soul—not even you, Miss Oliver. I share everything with you—I just couldn't be happy if I kept any secrets from you, dear—but I would never betray his. I tell him everything—I even show him my diary. It really hurts me when he doesn't share things with me. He shows me all his poems, though—they're incredible, Miss Oliver. Oh, I just live in the hope that someday I will be to Walter what Wordsworth's sister Dorothy was to him. Wordsworth never wrote anything like Walter's poems—nor did Tennyson."
"I wouldn't say just that. Both of them wrote a great deal of trash," said Miss Oliver dryly. Then, repenting, as she saw a hurt look in Rilla's eye, she added hastily,
"I wouldn't put it that way. Both of them wrote a lot of garbage," Miss Oliver said dryly. Then, realizing she had hurt Rilla’s feelings, she quickly added,
"But I believe Walter will be a great poet, too—some day—and you will have more of his confidence as you grow older."
"But I think Walter will be a great poet someday—and you’ll have more of his trust as you get older."
"When Walter was in the hospital with typhoid last year I was almost crazy," sighed Rilla, a little importantly. "They never told me how ill he really was until it was all over—father wouldn't let them. I'm glad I didn't know—I couldn't have borne it. I cried myself to sleep every night as it was. But sometimes," concluded Rilla bitterly—she liked to speak bitterly now and then in imitation of Miss Oliver—"sometimes I think Walter cares more for Dog Monday than he does for me."
"When Walter was in the hospital with typhoid last year, I was almost crazy," sighed Rilla, a little dramatically. "They never told me how sick he really was until it was all over—Dad wouldn’t let them. I'm glad I didn’t know—I couldn’t have handled it. I cried myself to sleep every night as it was. But sometimes," Rilla said bitterly—she liked to speak bitterly now and then to copy Miss Oliver—"sometimes I think Walter cares more for Dog Monday than he does for me."
Dog Monday was the Ingleside dog, so called because he had come into the family on a Monday when Walter had been reading Robinson Crusoe. He really belonged to Jem but was much attached to Walter also. He was lying beside Walter now with nose snuggled against his arm, thumping his tail rapturously whenever Walter gave him an absent pat. Monday was not a collie or a setter or a hound or a Newfoundland. He was just, as Jem said, "plain dog"—very plain dog, uncharitable people added. Certainly, Monday's looks were not his strong point. Black spots were scattered at random over his yellow carcass, one of them, apparently, blotting out an eye. His ears were in tatters, for Monday was never successful in affairs of honour. But he possessed one talisman. He knew that not all dogs could be handsome or eloquent or victorious, but that every dog could love. Inside his homely hide beat the most affectionate, loyal, faithful heart of any dog since dogs were; and something looked out of his brown eyes that was nearer akin to a soul than any theologian would allow. Everybody at Ingleside was fond of him, even Susan, although his one unfortunate propensity of sneaking into the spare room and going to sleep on the bed tried her affection sorely.
Dog Monday was the Ingleside dog, named because he joined the family on a Monday when Walter was reading Robinson Crusoe. He actually belonged to Jem but was very attached to Walter too. He was lying next to Walter now, with his nose snuggled against his arm, thumping his tail excitedly whenever Walter absentmindedly patted him. Monday wasn't a collie, setter, hound, or Newfoundland. He was just, as Jem put it, a "plain dog"—very plain, some unkind people added. Clearly, Monday's looks weren't his strong point. Black spots were randomly scattered over his yellow body, one of which seemed to cover an eye. His ears were in tatters, as Monday never did well in fights. But he had one special quality. He understood that not every dog could be beautiful, eloquent, or win battles, but that every dog could love. Inside his plain exterior was the most affectionate, loyal, and faithful heart of any dog ever; and something within his brown eyes was closer to a soul than any theologian would admit. Everyone at Ingleside loved him, even Susan, despite his unfortunate habit of sneaking into the spare room and sleeping on the bed, which tested her patience greatly.
On this particular afternoon Rilla had no quarrel on hand with existing conditions.
On this particular afternoon, Rilla had no issues with the current situation.
"Hasn't June been a delightful month?" she asked, looking dreamily afar at the little quiet silvery clouds hanging so peacefully over Rainbow Valley. "We've had such lovely times—and such lovely weather. It has just been perfect every way."
"Hasn't June been a wonderful month?" she asked, gazing dreamily at the small, calm silver clouds floating peacefully over Rainbow Valley. "We've had such great times—and such beautiful weather. It's been just perfect in every way."
"I don't half like that," said Miss Oliver, with a sigh. "It's ominous—somehow. A perfect thing is a gift of the gods—a sort of compensation for what is coming afterwards. I've seen that so often that I don't care to hear people say they've had a perfect time. June has been delightful, though."
"I really don’t like that," said Miss Oliver, with a sigh. "It feels ominous—somehow. A perfect moment is a gift from the gods—a kind of compensation for what comes next. I've seen that so many times that I don't want to hear people say they've had a perfect time. June has been wonderful, though."
"Of course, it hasn't been very exciting," said Rilla. "The only exciting thing that has happened in the Glen for a year was old Miss Mead fainting in Church. Sometimes I wish something dramatic would happen once in a while."
"Of course, it hasn't been very exciting," Rilla said. "The only exciting thing that’s happened in the Glen in a year was old Miss Mead fainting in church. Sometimes I wish something dramatic would happen once in a while."
"Don't wish it. Dramatic things always have a bitterness for some one. What a nice summer all you gay creatures will have! And me moping at Lowbridge!"
"Don't wish for it. Dramatic events always carry some bitterness for someone. What a lovely summer you all will have, my cheerful friends! And I'll be stuck feeling gloomy at Lowbridge!"
"You'll be over often, won't you? I think there's going to be lots of fun this summer, though I'll just be on the fringe of things as usual, I suppose. Isn't it horrid when people think you're a little girl when you're not?"
"You'll be over a lot, right? I think this summer is going to be a lot of fun, even if I'll just be on the outskirts of everything like usual, I guess. Isn't it terrible when people think you're just a little girl when you're not?"
"There's plenty of time for you to be grown up, Rilla. Don't wish your youth away. It goes too quickly. You'll begin to taste life soon enough."
"There's plenty of time for you to be an adult, Rilla. Don’t rush your youth. It goes by too fast. You’ll start to enjoy life soon enough."
"Taste life! I want to eat it," cried Rilla, laughing. "I want everything—everything a girl can have. I'll be fifteen in another month, and then nobody can say I'm a child any longer. I heard someone say once that the years from fifteen to nineteen are the best years in a girl's life. I'm going to make them perfectly splendid—just fill them with fun."
"Taste life! I want to experience it," Rilla laughed as she exclaimed. "I want everything—everything a girl can have. I'll be fifteen in a month, and then nobody can call me a child anymore. I heard someone say once that the years from fifteen to nineteen are the best years in a girl's life. I'm going to make them amazing—just fill them with fun."
"There's no use thinking about what you're going to do—you are tolerably sure not to do it."
"There's no point in worrying about what you're going to do—you're pretty much guaranteed not to do it."
"Oh, but you do get a lot of fun out of the thinking," cried Rilla.
"Oh, but you really do enjoy the thinking," Rilla exclaimed.
"You think of nothing but fun, you monkey," said Miss Oliver indulgently, reflecting that Rilla's chin was really the last word in chins. "Well, what else is fifteen for? But have you any notion of going to college this fall?"
"You think about nothing but having fun, you little monkey," Miss Oliver said with a smile, considering that Rilla's chin was truly one of a kind. "Well, what else is fifteen for? But do you have any plans to go to college this fall?"
"No—nor any other fall. I don't want to. I never cared for all those ologies and isms Nan and Di are so crazy about. And there's five of us going to college already. Surely that's enough. There's bound to be one dunce in every family. I'm quite willing to be a dunce if I can be a pretty, popular, delightful one. I can't be clever. I have no talent at all, and you can't imagine how comfortable it is. Nobody expects me to do anything so I'm never pestered to do it. And I can't be a housewifely, cookly creature, either. I hate sewing and dusting, and when Susan couldn't teach me to make biscuits nobody could. Father says I toil not neither do I spin. Therefore, I must be a lily of the field," concluded Rilla, with another laugh.
"No—nor any other fall. I don’t want to. I never cared for all those ologies and isms that Nan and Di are so into. And we already have five of us going to college. Surely that’s enough. There’s bound to be one dunce in every family. I’m perfectly fine being the dunce if I can be a pretty, popular, delightful one. I can’t be clever. I have no talent at all, and you can’t imagine how relaxing that is. Nobody expects me to do anything, so I’m never bothered to do it. And I can’t be a housewife or a cooking type, either. I hate sewing and dusting, and when Susan couldn’t teach me to make biscuits, nobody could. Father says I toil not neither do I spin. Therefore, I must be a lily of the field," concluded Rilla, with another laugh.
"You are too young to give up your studies altogether, Rilla."
"You’re too young to stop your studies completely, Rilla."
"Oh, mother will put me through a course of reading next winter. It will polish up her B.A. degree. Luckily I like reading. Don't look at me so sorrowfully and so disapprovingly, dearest. I can't be sober and serious—everything looks so rosy and rainbowy to me. Next month I'll be fifteen—and next year sixteen—and the year after that seventeen. Could anything be more enchanting?"
"Oh, Mom is going to have me read a bunch of books next winter. It will help her with her B.A. degree. Fortunately, I enjoy reading. Please don't look at me so sadly and disapprovingly, my dear. I can't be serious—everything seems so bright and cheerful to me. Next month I'll be fifteen—and next year sixteen—and the year after that seventeen. Could anything be more wonderful?"
"Rap wood," said Gertrude Oliver, half laughingly, half seriously. "Rap wood, Rilla-my-Rilla."
"Rap wood," Gertrude Oliver said, half-laughing, half-serious. "Rap wood, Rilla-my-Rilla."
CHAPTER III
MOONLIT MIRTH
Rilla, who still buttoned up her eyes when she went to sleep so that she always looked as if she were laughing in her slumber, yawned, stretched, and smiled at Gertrude Oliver. The latter had come over from Lowbridge the previous evening and had been prevailed upon to remain for the dance at the Four Winds lighthouse the next night.
Rilla, who still closed her eyes tightly when she went to sleep, always looked like she was laughing in her sleep. She yawned, stretched, and smiled at Gertrude Oliver. Gertrude had come over from Lowbridge the night before and had been persuaded to stay for the dance at the Four Winds lighthouse the following night.
"The new day is knocking at the window. What will it bring us, I wonder."
"The new day is knocking at the window. I wonder what it will bring us."
Miss Oliver shivered a little. She never greeted the days with Rilla's enthusiasm. She had lived long enough to know that a day may bring a terrible thing.
Miss Oliver shivered a little. She never welcomed the days with Rilla's enthusiasm. She had lived long enough to understand that a day could bring something awful.
"I think the nicest thing about days is their unexpectedness," went on Rilla. "It's jolly to wake up like this on a golden-fine morning and wonder what surprise packet the day will hand you. I always day-dream for ten minutes before I get up, imagining the heaps of splendid things that may happen before night."
"I think the best thing about days is their unpredictability," Rilla continued. "It's great to wake up on a gorgeous morning like this and wonder what surprises the day will bring. I always daydream for ten minutes before I get out of bed, imagining all the amazing things that might happen before the evening."
"I hope something very unexpected will happen today," said Gertrude. "I hope the mail will bring us news that war has been averted between Germany and France."
"I hope something really unexpected happens today," said Gertrude. "I hope the mail brings us news that war between Germany and France has been avoided."
"Oh—yes," said Rilla vaguely. "It will be dreadful if it isn't, I suppose. But it won't really matter much to us, will it? I think a war would be so exciting. The Boer war was, they say, but I don't remember anything about it, of course. Miss Oliver, shall I wear my white dress tonight or my new green one? The green one is by far the prettier, of course, but I'm almost afraid to wear it to a shore dance for fear something will happen to it. And will you do my hair the new way? None of the other girls in the Glen wear it yet and it will make such a sensation."
"Oh—yeah," Rilla said vaguely. "It'll be awful if it isn't, I guess. But it won’t really matter much to us, right? I think a war would be so thrilling. They say the Boer War was, but I don’t remember anything about it, obviously. Miss Oliver, should I wear my white dress tonight or my new green one? The green one is way prettier, but I’m kind of scared to wear it to a shore dance in case something happens to it. And will you style my hair the new way? None of the other girls in the Glen wear it like that yet, and it’ll make such a splash."
"How did you induce your mother to let you go to the dance?"
"How did you convince your mom to let you go to the dance?"
"Oh, Walter coaxed her over. He knew I would be heart-broken if I didn't go. It's my first really-truly grown-up party, Miss Oliver, and I've just lain awake at nights for a week thinking it over. When I saw the sun shining this morning I wanted to whoop for joy. It would be simply terrible if it rained tonight. I think I'll wear the green dress and risk it. I want to look my nicest at my first party. Besides, it's an inch longer than my white one. And I'll wear my silver slippers too. Mrs. Ford sent them to me last Christmas and I've never had a chance to wear them yet. They're the dearest things. Oh, Miss Oliver, I do hope some of the boys will ask me to dance. I shall die of mortification—truly I will, if nobody does and I have to sit stuck up against the wall all the evening. Of course Carl and Jerry can't dance because they're the minister's sons, or else I could depend on them to save me from utter disgrace."
"Oh, Walter convinced her to come over. He knew I would be heartbroken if I didn’t go. It’s my first real grown-up party, Miss Oliver, and I’ve been lying awake at night for a week thinking about it. When I saw the sun shining this morning, I wanted to shout for joy. It would be just awful if it rained tonight. I think I’ll wear the green dress and take my chances. I want to look my best at my first party. Plus, it’s an inch longer than my white one. And I’ll wear my silver slippers too. Mrs. Ford gave them to me last Christmas, and I haven’t had a chance to wear them yet. They’re the sweetest things. Oh, Miss Oliver, I really hope some of the boys will ask me to dance. I’ll die of embarrassment—truly I will—if nobody does and I have to sit stuck against the wall all evening. Of course, Carl and Jerry can’t dance because they’re the minister’s sons, or else I could count on them to save me from utter humiliation."
"You'll have plenty of partners—all the over-harbour boys are coming—there'll be far more boys than girls."
"You'll have plenty of partners—all the guys from across the harbor are coming—there will be way more guys than girls."
"I'm glad I'm not a minister's daughter," laughed Rilla. "Poor Faith is so furious because she won't dare to dance tonight. Una doesn't care, of course. She has never hankered after dancing. Somebody told Faith there would be a taffy-pull in the kitchen for those who didn't dance and you should have seen the face she made. She and Jem will sit out on the rocks most of the evening, I suppose. Did you know that we are all to walk down as far as that little creek below the old House of Dreams and then sail to the lighthouse? Won't it just be absolutely divine?"
"I'm glad I'm not a minister's daughter," Rilla laughed. "Poor Faith is so upset because she won't dare to dance tonight. Una doesn’t mind, of course. She’s never really been into dancing. Someone told Faith there would be a taffy-pull in the kitchen for those who don’t dance, and you should have seen her reaction. I guess she and Jem will just sit on the rocks for most of the evening. Did you know we're all supposed to walk down as far as that little creek below the old House of Dreams and then sail to the lighthouse? Isn’t that going to be absolutely amazing?"
"When I was fifteen I talked in italics and superlatives too," said Miss Oliver sarcastically. "I think the party promises to be pleasant for young fry. I expect to be bored. None of those boys will bother dancing with an old maid like me. Jem and Walter will take me out once out of charity. So you can't expect me to look forward to it with your touching young rapture."
"When I was fifteen, I used to speak in italics and superlatives too," Miss Oliver said sarcastically. "I think the party will be fun for the younger crowd. I expect to be bored. None of those boys will want to dance with an old maid like me. Jem and Walter will take me out once out of pity. So don’t expect me to look forward to it with your sweet youthful excitement."
"Didn't you have a good time at your first party, though, Miss Oliver?"
"Did you enjoy your first party, though, Miss Oliver?"
"No. I had a hateful time. I was shabby and homely and nobody asked me to dance except one boy, homelier and shabbier than myself. He was so awkward I hated him—and even he didn't ask me again. I had no real girlhood, Rilla. It's a sad loss. That's why I want you to have a splendid, happy girlhood. And I hope your first party will be one you'll remember all your life with pleasure."
"No. I had a terrible time. I felt unattractive and plain, and nobody asked me to dance except one guy, who was even more awkward and unattractive than I was. He was so clumsy that I couldn't stand him—and he didn’t ask me to dance again. I never really experienced a true girlhood, Rilla. It’s a sad loss. That’s why I want you to have an amazing, joyful girlhood. And I hope your first party will be one you remember fondly for the rest of your life."
"I dreamed last night I was at the dance and right in the middle of things I discovered I was dressed in my kimono and bedroom shoes," sighed Rilla. "I woke up with a gasp of horror."
"I dreamt last night I was at the dance and right in the middle of it all, I realized I was wearing my kimono and bedroom shoes," sighed Rilla. "I woke up gasping in horror."
"Speaking of dreams—I had an odd one," said Miss Oliver absently. "It was one of those vivid dreams I sometimes have—they are not the vague jumble of ordinary dreams—they are as clear cut and real as life."
"Speaking of dreams—I had a strange one," Miss Oliver said absently. "It was one of those vivid dreams I sometimes have—they’re not the confusing mix of regular dreams—they're as clear and real as life."
"What was your dream?"
"What was your dream?"
"I was standing on the veranda steps, here at Ingleside, looking down over the fields of the Glen. All at once, far in the distance, I saw a long, silvery, glistening wave breaking over them. It came nearer and nearer—just a succession of little white waves like those that break on the sandshore sometimes. The Glen was being swallowed up. I thought, 'Surely the waves will not come near Ingleside'—but they came nearer and nearer—so rapidly—before I could move or call they were breaking right at my feet—and everything was gone—there was nothing but a waste of stormy water where the Glen had been. I tried to draw back—and I saw that the edge of my dress was wet with blood—and I woke—shivering. I don't like the dream. There was some sinister significance in it. That kind of vivid dream always 'comes true' with me."
I was standing on the steps of the veranda here at Ingleside, looking down over the fields of the Glen. Suddenly, way off in the distance, I saw a long, silvery wave breaking over them. It came closer and closer—just a series of little white waves like those that sometimes crash on the shore. The Glen was being swallowed up. I thought, 'Surely the waves won’t reach Ingleside'—but they kept getting closer—so fast—before I could move or shout, they were crashing right at my feet—and everything was gone—there was just a vast expanse of stormy water where the Glen had been. I tried to step back—and I noticed that the hem of my dress was wet with blood—and I woke up—shivering. I don’t like that dream. There was something ominous about it. Those kinds of vivid dreams always end up 'coming true' for me.
"I hope it doesn't mean there's a storm coming up from the east to spoil the party," murmured Rilla.
"I hope it doesn't mean a storm is coming in from the east to ruin the party," Rilla whispered.
"Incorrigible fifteen!" said Miss Oliver dryly. "No, Rilla-my-Rilla, I don't think there is any danger that it foretells anything so awful as that."
"Unruly fifteen!" said Miss Oliver dryly. "No, Rilla-my-Rilla, I don't think there's any risk that it predicts anything as terrible as that."
There had been an undercurrent of tension in the Ingleside existence for several days. Only Rilla, absorbed in her own budding life, was unaware of it. Dr. Blythe had taken to looking grave and saying little over the daily paper. Jem and Walter were keenly interested in the news it brought. Jem sought Walter out in excitement that evening.
There had been a tension in the Ingleside household for several days. Only Rilla, caught up in her own blossoming life, was oblivious to it. Dr. Blythe had started to look serious and said very little while reading the daily paper. Jem and Walter were really interested in the news it contained. That evening, Jem sought out Walter with excitement.
"Oh, boy, Germany has declared war on France. This means that England will fight too, probably—and if she does—well, the Piper of your old fancy will have come at last."
"Oh man, Germany has declared war on France. This probably means that England will join the fight—and if she does—well, the moment you’ve been imagining will finally be here."
"It wasn't a fancy," said Walter slowly. "It was a presentiment—a vision—Jem, I really saw him for a moment that evening long ago. Suppose England does fight?"
"It wasn't just a fancy," Walter said slowly. "It was a feeling—a vision—Jem, I truly saw him for a moment that evening a long time ago. What if England really does go to war?"
"Why, we'll all have to turn in and help her," cried Jem gaily. "We couldn't let the 'old grey mother of the northern sea' fight it out alone, could we? But you can't go—the typhoid has done you out of that. Sort of a shame, eh?"
"Why, we all need to pitch in and help her," Jem said happily. "We can't let the 'old gray mother of the northern sea' handle it all on her own, right? But you can't come—you've been knocked out by typhoid. Kind of a shame, huh?"
Walter did not say whether it was a shame or not. He looked silently over the Glen to the dimpling blue harbour beyond.
Walter didn't say if it was a shame or not. He quietly gazed over the Glen to the shimmering blue harbor in the distance.
"We're the cubs—we've got to pitch in tooth and claw if it comes to a family row," Jem went on cheerfully, rumpling up his red curls with a strong, lean, sensitive brown hand—the hand of the born surgeon, his father often thought. "What an adventure it would be! But I suppose Grey or some of those wary old chaps will patch matters up at the eleventh hour. It'll be a rotten shame if they leave France in the lurch, though. If they don't, we'll see some fun. Well, I suppose it's time to get ready for the spree at the light."
"We're the cubs—we need to step up and fight if it turns into a family dispute," Jem said cheerfully, messing up his red curls with a strong, lean, sensitive brown hand—the kind of hand his father often thought belonged to a natural surgeon. "What an adventure that would be! But I guess Grey or those cautious old guys will smooth things over at the last minute. It would be a real shame if they just abandon France. If they don't, we’ll have some fun. Well, I guess it's time to get ready for the party at the light."
Jem departed whistling "Wi' a hundred pipers and a' and a'," and Walter stood for a long time where he was. There was a little frown on his forehead. This had all come up with the blackness and suddenness of a thundercloud. A few days ago nobody had even thought of such a thing. It was absurd to think of it now. Some way out would be found. War was a hellish, horrible, hideous thing—too horrible and hideous to happen in the twentieth century between civilized nations. The mere thought of it was hideous, and made Walter unhappy in its threat to the beauty of life. He would not think of it—he would resolutely put it out of his mind. How beautiful the old Glen was, in its August ripeness, with its chain of bowery old homesteads, tilled meadows and quiet gardens. The western sky was like a great golden pearl. Far down the harbour was frosted with a dawning moonlight. The air was full of exquisite sounds—sleepy robin whistles, wonderful, mournful, soft murmurs of wind in the twilit trees, rustle of aspen poplars talking in silvery whispers and shaking their dainty, heart-shaped leaves, lilting young laughter from the windows of rooms where the girls were making ready for the dance. The world was steeped in maddening loveliness of sound and colour. He would think only of these things and of the deep, subtle joy they gave him. "Anyhow, no one will expect me to go," he thought. "As Jem says, typhoid has seen to that."
Jem left whistling "With a hundred pipers and all," and Walter stood there for a long time. He had a slight frown on his forehead. This all came up like a sudden thunderstorm. Just a few days ago, nobody even considered such a thing. It seemed ridiculous to think about it now. They would find a way out of it. War was a brutal, terrible, awful thing—too brutal and awful to happen in the twentieth century between civilized nations. The very thought of it was disturbing and made Walter unhappy because it threatened the beauty of life. He wouldn’t think about it—he would firmly push it out of his mind. How beautiful the old Glen looked in its August fullness, with its line of charming old homes, cultivated fields, and peaceful gardens. The western sky was a huge golden pearl. Far down the harbor was touched with the light of a rising moon. The air was full of beautiful sounds—sleepy robin calls, lovely, mournful whispers of wind in the dim trees, the rustle of aspen poplars chatting in silvery whispers and shaking their delicate, heart-shaped leaves, and cheerful laughter from the windows of rooms where the girls were getting ready for the dance. The world was drenched in stunning beauty of sound and color. He would focus only on these things and the deep, subtle joy they brought him. "Anyway, no one will expect me to go," he thought. "As Jem says, typhoid has taken care of that."
Rilla was leaning out of her room window, dressed for the dance. A yellow pansy slipped from her hair and fell out over the sill like a falling star of gold. She caught at it vainly—but there were enough left. Miss Oliver had woven a little wreath of them for her pet's hair.
Rilla was leaning out of her room window, ready for the dance. A yellow pansy slipped from her hair and fell over the sill like a golden shooting star. She reached for it in vain—but there were still plenty left. Miss Oliver had made a little wreath of them for her pet's hair.
"It's so beautifully calm—isn't that splendid? We'll have a perfect night. Listen, Miss Oliver—I can hear those old bells in Rainbow Valley quite clearly. They've been hanging there for over ten years."
"It's so beautifully calm—isn't that wonderful? We're going to have a perfect night. Listen, Miss Oliver—I can hear those old bells in Rainbow Valley really clearly. They've been hanging there for more than ten years."
"Their wind chime always makes me think of the aerial, celestial music Adam and Eve heard in Milton's Eden," responded Miss Oliver.
"Their wind chime always reminds me of the heavenly music Adam and Eve heard in Milton's Eden," Miss Oliver replied.
"We used to have such fun in Rainbow Valley when we were children," said Rilla dreamily.
"We had so much fun in Rainbow Valley when we were kids," Rilla said dreamily.
Nobody ever played in Rainbow Valley now. It was very silent on summer evenings. Walter liked to go there to read. Jem and Faith trysted there considerably; Jerry and Nan went there to pursue uninterruptedly the ceaseless wrangles and arguments on profound subjects that seemed to be their preferred method of sweethearting. And Rilla had a beloved little sylvan dell of her own there where she liked to sit and dream.
Nobody really hangs out in Rainbow Valley anymore. It's super quiet on summer evenings. Walter enjoyed going there to read. Jem and Faith often met up there; Jerry and Nan went there to have their endless debates on deep topics, which seemed to be their favorite way of being a couple. Rilla had her own special little spot in the woods where she liked to sit and daydream.
"I must run down to the kitchen before I go and show myself off to Susan. She would never forgive me if I didn't."
"I need to rush down to the kitchen before I go and show off to Susan. She’d never let me live it down if I didn’t."
Rilla whirled into the shadowy kitchen at Ingleside, where Susan was prosaically darning socks, and lighted it up with her beauty. She wore her green dress with its little pink daisy garlands, her silk stockings and silver slippers. She had golden pansies in her hair and at her creamy throat. She was so pretty and young and glowing that even Cousin Sophia Crawford was compelled to admire her—and Cousin Sophia Crawford admired few transient earthly things. Cousin Sophia and Susan had made up, or ignored, their old feud since the former had come to live in the Glen, and Cousin Sophia often came across in the evenings to make a neighbourly call. Susan did not always welcome her rapturously for Cousin Sophia was not what could be called an exhilarating companion. "Some calls are visits and some are visitations, Mrs. Dr. dear," Susan said once, and left it to be inferred that Cousin Sophia's were the latter.
Rilla burst into the dim kitchen at Ingleside, where Susan was methodically darning socks, and lit it up with her beauty. She was wearing her green dress with little pink daisy garlands, her silk stockings, and silver slippers. She had golden pansies in her hair and around her creamy neck. She was so pretty and vibrant that even Cousin Sophia Crawford had to admire her—and Cousin Sophia rarely admired fleeting earthly things. Cousin Sophia and Susan had either made up or chosen to ignore their old feud since she had moved to the Glen, and Cousin Sophia often came over in the evenings for a neighborly visit. Susan didn’t always enthusiastically welcome her because Cousin Sophia wasn't exactly a thrilling companion. "Some calls are visits and some are visitations, Mrs. Dr. dear," Susan once said, leaving it to be understood that Cousin Sophia's were the latter.
Cousin Sophia had a long, pale, wrinkled face, a long, thin nose, a long, thin mouth, and very long, thin, pale hands, generally folded resignedly on her black calico lap. Everything about her seemed long and thin and pale. She looked mournfully upon Rilla Blythe and said sadly,
Cousin Sophia had a long, pale, wrinkled face, a long, thin nose, a long, thin mouth, and very long, thin, pale hands, usually folded resignedly on her black calico lap. Everything about her seemed long, thin, and pale. She looked mournfully at Rilla Blythe and said sadly,
"Is your hair all your own?"
"Is all of your hair yours?"
"Of course it is," cried Rilla indignantly.
"Of course it is," Rilla exclaimed angrily.
"Ah, well!" Cousin Sophia sighed. "It might be better for you if it wasn't! Such a lot of hair takes from a person's strength. It's a sign of consumption, I've heard, but I hope it won't turn out like that in your case. I s'pose you'll all be dancing tonight—even the minister's boys most likely. I s'pose his girls won't go that far. Ah, well, I never held with dancing. I knew a girl once who dropped dead while she was dancing. How any one could ever dance aga' after a judgment like that I cannot comprehend."
"Ah, well!" Cousin Sophia sighed. "It might actually be better for you if it wasn't! All that hair takes away from a person's strength. I've heard it's a sign of consumption, but I hope it doesn't turn out that way for you. I guess you all will be dancing tonight—even the minister's boys most likely. I suppose his girls won't go that far. Ah, well, I've never been a fan of dancing. I once knew a girl who collapsed and died while she was dancing. I can't understand how anyone could ever dance again after something like that."
"Did she ever dance again?" asked Rilla pertly.
"Did she ever dance again?" Rilla asked cheekily.
"I told you she dropped dead. Of course she never danced again, poor creature. She was a Kirke from Lowbridge. You ain't a-going off like that with nothing on your bare neck, are you?"
"I told you she dropped dead. Of course, she never danced again, poor soul. She was a Kirke from Lowbridge. You're not planning to go out like that with nothing around your neck, are you?"
"It's a hot evening," protested Rilla. "But I'll put on a scarf when we go on the water."
"It's a hot evening," Rilla complained. "But I'll put on a scarf when we go on the water."
"I knew of a boat load of young folks who went sailing on that harbour forty years ago just such a night as this—just exactly such a night as this," said Cousin Sophia lugubriously, "and they were upset and drowned—every last one of them. I hope nothing like that'll happen to you tonight. Do you ever try anything for the freckles? I used to find plantain juice real good."
"I remember a group of young people who went sailing in that harbor forty years ago on a night just like this—exactly like this," Cousin Sophia said sadly. "They capsized and drowned—every single one of them. I hope nothing like that happens to you tonight. Do you ever do anything for your freckles? I used to think plantain juice worked really well."
"You certainly should be a judge of freckles, Cousin Sophia," said Susan, rushing to Rilla's defence. "You were more speckled than any toad when you was a girl. Rilla's only come in summer but yours stayed put, season in and season out; and you had not a ground colour like hers behind them neither. You look real nice, Rilla, and that way of fixing your hair is becoming. But you are not going to walk to the harbour in those slippers, are you?"
"You definitely should be an expert on freckles, Cousin Sophia," said Susan, jumping to Rilla's defense. "You were more speckled than any toad when you were a girl. Rilla's freckles only show up in the summer, but yours stuck around all year long; and you didn’t have a background color like hers behind them either. You look really nice, Rilla, and that way of styling your hair suits you. But you’re not actually going to walk to the harbor in those slippers, are you?"
"Oh, no. We'll all wear our old shoes to the harbour and carry our slippers. Do you like my dress, Susan?"
"Oh no. We'll all wear our old shoes to the harbor and bring our slippers. Do you like my dress, Susan?"
"It minds me of a dress I wore when I was a girl," sighed Cousin Sophia before Susan could reply. "It was green with pink posies on it, too, and it was flounced from the waist to the hem. We didn't wear the skimpy things girls wear nowadays. Ah me, times has changed and not for the better I'm afraid. I tore a big hole in it that night and someone spilled a cup of tea all over it. Ruined it completely. But I hope nothing will happen to your dress. It orter to be a bit longer I'm thinking—your legs are so terrible long and thin."
"It reminds me of a dress I wore when I was a girl," sighed Cousin Sophia before Susan could respond. "It was green with pink flowers on it, and it had a ruffled design from the waist to the hem. We didn’t wear the revealing styles that girls wear nowadays. Oh, times have changed, and not for the better, I'm afraid. I tore a big hole in it that night, and someone spilled a cup of tea all over it. Completely ruined it. But I hope nothing happens to your dress. I think it should be a bit longer—your legs are so incredibly long and thin."
"Mrs. Dr. Blythe does not approve of little girls dressing like grown-up ones," said Susan stiffly, intending merely a snub to Cousin Sophia. But Rilla felt insulted. A little girl indeed! She whisked out of the kitchen in high dudgeon. Another time she wouldn't go down to show herself off to Susan—Susan, who thought nobody was grown up until she was sixty! And that horrid Cousin Sophia with her digs about freckles and legs! What business had an old—an old beanpole like that to talk of anybody else being long and thin? Rilla felt all her pleasure in herself and her evening clouded and spoiled. The very teeth of her soul were set on edge and she could have sat down and cried.
"Mrs. Dr. Blythe doesn't think little girls should dress like grown-ups," Susan said stiffly, just trying to put Cousin Sophia in her place. But Rilla felt offended. A little girl, really! She stormed out of the kitchen, furious. Next time, she wouldn't go down to show off to Susan—Susan, who thought no one was considered grown-up until they were sixty! And that awful Cousin Sophia with her comments about freckles and legs! Who was that old—an old beanpole like her—to talk about anyone else being long and thin? Rilla felt all her happiness about herself and her evening ruined. It felt like the very core of her being was jangled, and she could have just sat down and cried.
But later on her spirits rose again when she found herself one of the gay crowd bound for the Four Winds light.
But later on, her spirits lifted again when she found herself among the lively group heading to the Four Winds light.
The Blythes left Ingleside to the melancholy music of howls from Dog Monday, who was locked up in the barn lest he make an uninvited guest at the light. They picked up the Merediths in the village, and others joined them as they walked down the old harbour road. Mary Vance, resplendent in blue crepe, with lace overdress, came out of Miss Cornelia's gate and attached herself to Rilla and Miss Oliver who were walking together and who did not welcome her over-warmly. Rilla was not very fond of Mary Vance. She had never forgotten the humiliating day when Mary had chased her through the village with a dried codfish. Mary Vance, to tell the truth, was not exactly popular with any of her set. Still, they enjoyed her society—she had such a biting tongue that it was stimulating. "Mary Vance is a habit of ours—we can't do without her even when we are furious with her," Di Blythe had once said.
The Blythes left Ingleside to the sad sounds of howls from Dog Monday, who was locked up in the barn to avoid crashing the party. They picked up the Merediths in the village, and others joined them as they made their way down the old harbor road. Mary Vance, shining in a blue crepe dress with a lace overlay, came out of Miss Cornelia's gate and joined Rilla and Miss Oliver, who were walking together and didn’t greet her too warmly. Rilla wasn’t very fond of Mary Vance. She had never forgotten the embarrassing day when Mary chased her around the village with a dried codfish. Truth be told, Mary Vance wasn’t exactly popular with anyone in her group. Still, they enjoyed her company—she had such a sharp tongue that it was exciting. “Mary Vance is a habit of ours—we can’t do without her even when we’re mad at her,” Di Blythe once said.
Most of the little crowd were paired off after a fashion. Jem walked with Faith Meredith, of course, and Jerry Meredith with Nan Blythe. Di and Walter were together, deep in confidential conversation which Rilla envied.
Most of the small group was paired up in their own way. Jem was walking with Faith Meredith, of course, and Jerry Meredith was with Nan Blythe. Di and Walter were together, deeply engaged in a private conversation that Rilla envied.
Carl Meredith was walking with Miranda Pryor, more to torment Joe Milgrave than for any other reason. Joe was known to have a strong hankering for the said Miranda, which shyness prevented him from indulging on all occasions. Joe might summon enough courage to amble up beside Miranda if the night were dark, but here, in this moonlit dusk, he simply could not do it. So he trailed along after the procession and thought things not lawful to be uttered of Carl Meredith. Miranda was the daughter of Whiskers-on-the-moon; she did not share her father's unpopularity but she was not much run after, being a pale, neutral little creature, somewhat addicted to nervous giggling. She had silvery blonde hair and her eyes were big china blue orbs that looked as if she had been badly frightened when she was little and had never got over it. She would much rather have walked with Joe than with Carl, with whom she did not feel in the least at home. Yet it was something of an honour, too, to have a college boy beside her, and a son of the manse at that.
Carl Meredith was walking with Miranda Pryor, mostly to annoy Joe Milgrave more than anything else. Joe was known to have a strong crush on Miranda, but his shyness held him back. He might manage to gather enough courage to walk next to her if it were dark, but with the moonlight shining down, he just couldn’t do it. So, he followed behind them and thought things about Carl that he wouldn’t dare say out loud. Miranda was the daughter of Whiskers-on-the-moon; she didn’t share her father's unpopularity but wasn’t exactly in high demand either, being a pale, subtle little thing, often prone to nervous giggles. She had silvery blonde hair and big, china-blue eyes that looked as if she’d been scared silly as a child and hadn’t quite recovered. She would have preferred to be walking with Joe instead of Carl, with whom she felt completely out of place. Still, it was somewhat an honor to have a college guy next to her, especially the son of a pastor.
Shirley Blythe was with Una Meredith and both were rather silent because such was their nature. Shirley was a lad of sixteen, sedate, sensible, thoughtful, full of a quiet humour. He was Susan's "little brown boy" yet, with his brown hair, brown eyes, and clear brown skin. He liked to walk with Una Meredith because she never tried to make him talk or badgered him with chatter. Una was as sweet and shy as she had been in the Rainbow Valley days, and her large, dark-blue eyes were as dreamy and wistful. She had a secret, carefully-hidden fancy for Walter Blythe that nobody but Rilla ever suspected. Rilla sympathized with it and wished Walter would return it. She liked Una better than Faith, whose beauty and aplomb rather overshadowed other girls—and Rilla did not enjoy being overshadowed.
Shirley Blythe was with Una Meredith, and both of them were pretty quiet, which was just who they were. Shirley was a sixteen-year-old boy, calm, sensible, thoughtful, and had a subtle sense of humor. He was Susan's "little brown boy," with his brown hair, brown eyes, and clear brown skin. He liked walking with Una Meredith because she never pressured him to talk or filled the silence with chatter. Una was still as sweet and shy as she had been during the Rainbow Valley days, and her large, dark blue eyes were dreamy and wistful. She had a secret crush on Walter Blythe that nobody but Rilla ever guessed. Rilla understood and hoped Walter would feel the same way. She liked Una more than Faith, whose beauty and confidence tended to outshine the other girls—and Rilla didn’t like being in the background.
But just now she was very happy. It was so delightful to be tripping with her friends down that dark, gleaming road sprinkled with its little spruces and firs, whose balsam made all the air resinous around them. Meadows of sunset afterlight were behind the westerning hills. Before them was the shining harbour. A bell was ringing in the little church over-harbour and the lingering dream-notes died around the dim, amethystine points. The gulf beyond was still silvery blue in the afterlight. Oh, it was all glorious—the clear air with its salt tang, the balsam of the firs, the laughter of her friends. Rilla loved life—its bloom and brilliance; she loved the ripple of music, the hum of merry conversation; she wanted to walk on forever over this road of silver and shadow. It was her first party and she was going to have a splendid time. There was nothing in the world to worry about—not even freckles and over-long legs—nothing except one little haunting fear that nobody would ask her to dance. It was beautiful and satisfying just to be alive—to be fifteen—to be pretty. Rilla drew a long breath of rapture—and caught it midway rather sharply. Jem was telling some story to Faith—something that had happened in the Balkan War.
But right now she was really happy. It was so wonderful to be walking with her friends down that dark, shiny road lined with spruces and firs, with their balsam making the air smell rich. The meadows were glowing from the sunset behind the hills. In front of them was the sparkling harbor. A bell was ringing in the little church across the harbor, and the fading dream-like notes floated around the soft, purple-tinted points. The gulf beyond was still a silvery blue in the afterglow. Oh, it was all amazing—the fresh air with its salty tang, the scent of the firs, the laughter of her friends. Rilla loved life—its beauty and brightness; she adored the sound of music, the buzz of happy conversation; she wished she could walk along this road of silver and shadow forever. It was her first party and she was going to have a fantastic time. There was nothing in the world to stress about—not even freckles or long legs—nothing except one tiny nagging worry that no one would ask her to dance. It felt beautiful and fulfilling just to be alive—to be fifteen—to be pretty. Rilla took a deep breath of joy—and caught herself midway rather abruptly. Jem was telling some story to Faith—something that had happened in the Balkan War.
"The doctor lost both his legs—they were smashed to pulp—and he was left on the field to die. And he crawled about from man to man, to all the wounded men round him, as long as he could, and did everything possible to relieve their sufferings—never thinking of himself—he was tying a bit of bandage round another man's leg when he went under. They found them there, the doctor's dead hands still held the bandage tight, the bleeding was stopped and the other man's life was saved. Some hero, wasn't he, Faith? I tell you when I read that—"
"The doctor lost both his legs—they were crushed beyond recognition—and he was left on the field to die. He crawled from one wounded man to another for as long as he could, doing everything he could to ease their pain—never thinking of himself—he was wrapping a bandage around another man's leg when he passed out. They found him there, the doctor’s lifeless hands still gripping the bandage tightly, the bleeding had stopped, and the other man's life was saved. Quite a hero, right, Faith? I tell you when I read that—"
Jem and Faith moved on out of hearing. Gertrude Oliver suddenly shivered. Rilla pressed her arm sympathetically.
Jem and Faith walked away, no longer in earshot. Gertrude Oliver suddenly shivered. Rilla gently squeezed her arm in sympathy.
"Wasn't it dreadful, Miss Oliver? I don't know why Jem tells such gruesome things at a time like this when we're all out for fun."
"Wasn't it horrible, Miss Oliver? I don't get why Jem shares such gory stories when we're all just trying to have a good time."
"Do you think it dreadful, Rilla? I thought it wonderful—beautiful. Such a story makes one ashamed of ever doubting human nature. That man's action was godlike. And how humanity responds to the ideal of self-sacrifice. As for my shiver, I don't know what caused it. The evening is certainly warm enough. Perhaps someone is walking over the dark, starshiny spot that is to be my grave. That is the explanation the old superstition would give. Well, I won't think of that on this lovely night. Do you know, Rilla, that when night-time comes I'm always glad I live in the country. We know the real charm of night here as town dwellers never do. Every night is beautiful in the country—even the stormy ones. I love a wild night storm on this old gulf shore. As for a night like this, it is almost too beautiful—it belongs to youth and dreamland and I'm half afraid of it."
"Do you think it horrible, Rilla? I think it's amazing—beautiful. Stories like this make you feel ashamed for ever doubting human nature. That man’s actions were heroic. And look at how humanity responds to the idea of self-sacrifice. As for my chills, I’m not sure what caused them. The evening is definitely warm enough. Maybe someone is walking over the dark, starry spot that will be my grave. That’s the explanation the old superstition would offer. Well, I won’t think about that on this lovely night. You know, Rilla, when night falls, I’m always glad to live in the country. We experience the true charm of night here in a way that city folks never do. Every night is beautiful in the countryside—even the stormy ones. I love a wild stormy night on this old gulf shore. And a night like this is almost too beautiful—it feels like it belongs to youth and dreamland, and I’m a bit afraid of it."
"I feel as if I were part of it," said Rilla.
"I feel like I'm part of it," said Rilla.
"Ah yes, you're young enough not to be afraid of perfect things. Well, here we are at the House of Dreams. It seems lonely this summer. The Fords didn't come?"
"Ah yes, you're young enough not to be afraid of perfect things. Well, here we are at the House of Dreams. It feels lonely this summer. The Fords didn't come?"
"Mr. and Mrs. Ford and Persis didn't. Kenneth did—but he stayed with his mother's people over-harbour. We haven't seen a great deal of him this summer. He's a little lame, so didn't go about very much."
"Mr. and Mrs. Ford and Persis didn't. Kenneth did—but he stayed with his mother's family across the harbor. We haven't seen much of him this summer. He's a bit lame, so he hasn't been out and about very much."
"Lame? What happened to him?"
"What's up with him?"
"He broke his ankle in a football game last fall and was laid up most of the winter. He has limped a little ever since but it is getting better all the time and he expects it will be all right before long. He has been up to Ingleside only twice."
"He broke his ankle in a football game last fall and was stuck at home for most of the winter. He's been limping a bit ever since, but it's getting better all the time, and he expects it will be fine soon. He's only been to Ingleside twice."
"Ethel Reese is simply crazy about him," said Mary Vance. "She hasn't got the sense she was born with where he is concerned. He walked home with her from the over-harbour church last prayer-meeting night and the airs she has put on since would really make you weary of life. As if a Toronto boy like Ken Ford would ever really think of a country girl like Ethel!"
"Ethel Reese is totally obsessed with him," said Mary Vance. "She has no common sense when it comes to him. He walked her home from the church across the harbor last prayer meeting night, and the attitude she's been putting on since then would seriously make you tired of life. As if a Toronto guy like Ken Ford would actually consider a country girl like Ethel!"
Rilla flushed. It did not matter to her if Kenneth Ford walked home with Ethel Reese a dozen times—it did not! Nothing that he did mattered to her. He was ages older than she was. He chummed with Nan and Di and Faith, and looked upon her, Rilla, as a child whom he never noticed except to tease. And she detested Ethel Reese and Ethel Reese hated her—always had hated her since Walter had pummelled Dan so notoriously in Rainbow Valley days; but why need she be thought beneath Kenneth Ford's notice because she was a country girl, pray? As for Mary Vance, she was getting to be an out-and-out gossip and thought of nothing but who walked home with people!
Rilla felt embarrassed. It didn't matter to her if Kenneth Ford walked home with Ethel Reese a hundred times—it really didn't! Nothing he did mattered to her. He was way older than she was. He hung out with Nan, Di, and Faith, and looked at her, Rilla, like a kid he barely noticed except to tease. And she couldn't stand Ethel Reese, and Ethel Reese couldn't stand her—they always had a rivalry since Walter had famously beaten up Dan back in the Rainbow Valley days. But why should it matter that Kenneth Ford didn't pay attention to her just because she was a country girl? As for Mary Vance, she was becoming a full-on gossip and cared only about who was walking home with whom!
There was a little pier on the harbour shore below the House of Dreams, and two boats were moored there. One boat was skippered by Jem Blythe, the other by Joe Milgrave, who knew all about boats and was nothing loth to let Miranda Pryor see it. They raced down the harbour and Joe's boat won. More boats were coming down from the Harbour Head and across the harbour from the western side. Everywhere there was laughter. The big white tower on Four Winds Point was overflowing with light, while its revolving beacon flashed overhead. A family from Charlottetown, relatives of the light's keeper, were summering at the light, and they were giving the party to which all the young people of Four Winds and Glen St. Mary and over-harbour had been invited. As Jem's boat swung in below the lighthouse Rilla desperately snatched off her shoes and donned her silver slippers behind Miss Oliver's screening back. A glance had told her that the rock-cut steps climbing up to the light were lined with boys, and lighted by Chinese lanterns, and she was determined she would not walk up those steps in the heavy shoes her mother had insisted on her wearing for the road. The slippers pinched abominably, but nobody would have suspected it as Rilla tripped smilingly up the steps, her soft dark eyes glowing and questioning, her colour deepening richly on her round, creamy cheeks. The very minute she reached the top of the steps an over-harbour boy asked her to dance and the next moment they were in the pavilion that had been built seaward of the lighthouse for dances. It was a delightful spot, roofed over with fir-boughs and hung with lanterns. Beyond was the sea in a radiance that glowed and shimmered, to the left the moonlit crests and hollows of the sand-dunes, to the right the rocky shore with its inky shadows and its crystalline coves. Rilla and her partner swung in among the dancers; she drew a long breath of delight; what witching music Ned Burr of the Upper Glen was coaxing from his fiddle—it was really like the magical pipes of the old tale which compelled all who heard them to dance. How cool and fresh the gulf breeze blew; how white and wonderful the moonlight was over everything! This was life—enchanting life. Rilla felt as if her feet and her soul both had wings.
There was a small pier on the harbor shore below the House of Dreams, and two boats were docked there. One was steered by Jem Blythe, and the other by Joe Milgrave, who knew all about boats and was more than happy to let Miranda Pryor see it. They raced down the harbor, and Joe's boat won. More boats were coming down from the Harbour Head and across the harbor from the west. Laughter filled the air. The big white tower on Four Winds Point was lit up, and its revolving beacon flashed overhead. A family from Charlottetown, relatives of the lighthouse keeper, were spending the summer at the light and were throwing a party that all the young people from Four Winds, Glen St. Mary, and over-harbor had been invited to. As Jem's boat docked below the lighthouse, Rilla hurriedly took off her shoes and slipped on her silver slippers behind Miss Oliver's back. A quick glance showed her that the rock-cut steps leading up to the light were lined with boys and adorned with Chinese lanterns, and she was determined not to walk up those steps in the heavy shoes her mother had insisted she wear for the road. The slippers pinched terribly, but no one would have noticed as Rilla smiled and gracefully made her way up the steps, her soft dark eyes shining with curiosity, her cheeks flushed a rich shade of cream. The moment she reached the top, a boy from over-harbor asked her to dance, and in an instant, they were in the pavilion built by the lighthouse for dances. It was a charming place, covered with fir branches and strung with lanterns. Beyond stretched the glowing sea, to the left were the moonlit crests and valleys of the sand dunes, and to the right was the rocky shore with its dark shadows and clear coves. Rilla and her partner joined the dancers; she took a deep breath of happiness; what enchanting music Ned Burr from the Upper Glen was coaxing from his fiddle—it truly felt like the magical pipes from the old tale that made everyone dance. The cool gulf breeze felt refreshing; the moonlight was bright and beautiful over everything! This was life—magical life. Rilla felt as if both her feet and her spirit had wings.
CHAPTER IV
THE PIPER PIPES
Rilla's first party was a triumph—or so it seemed at first. She had so many partners that she had to split her dances. Her silver slippers seemed verily to dance of themselves and though they continued to pinch her toes and blister her heels that did not interfere with her enjoyment in the least. Ethel Reese gave her a bad ten minutes by beckoning her mysteriously out of the pavilion and whispering, with a Reese-like smirk, that her dress gaped behind and that there was a stain on the flounce. Rilla rushed miserably to the room in the lighthouse which was fitted up for a temporary ladies' dressing-room, and discovered that the stain was merely a tiny grass smear and that the gap was equally tiny where a hook had pulled loose. Irene Howard fastened it up for her and gave her some over-sweet, condescending compliments. Rilla felt flattered by Irene's condescension. She was an Upper Glen girl of nineteen who seemed to like the society of the younger girls—spiteful friends said because she could queen it over them without rivalry. But Rilla thought Irene quite wonderful and loved her for her patronage. Irene was pretty and stylish; she sang divinely and spent every winter in Charlottetown taking music lessons. She had an aunt in Montreal who sent her wonderful things to wear; she was reported to have had a sad love affair—nobody knew just what, but its very mystery allured. Rilla felt that Irene's compliments crowned her evening. She ran gaily back to the pavilion and lingered for a moment in the glow of the lanterns at the entrance looking at the dancers. A momentary break in the whirling throng gave her a glimpse of Kenneth Ford standing at the other side.
Rilla's first party was a success—or so it seemed at first. She had so many dance partners that she had to split her time. Her silver slippers felt like they were dancing on their own, and even though they pinched her toes and rubbed her heels, it didn’t ruin her enjoyment at all. Ethel Reese ruined ten minutes for her by mysteriously signaling her out of the pavilion and whispering, with a Reese-like smirk, that her dress was gaping at the back and that there was a stain on the flounce. Rilla hurried, feeling miserable, to the room in the lighthouse that was set up as a temporary ladies' dressing room, and found out that the stain was just a tiny grass smear and that the gap was also tiny where a hook had come loose. Irene Howard fixed it for her and gave her some overly sweet, condescending compliments. Rilla felt flattered by Irene's condescension. Irene was a nineteen-year-old girl from Upper Glen who seemed to enjoy the company of younger girls—spiteful friends said it was because she could dominate them without competition. But Rilla thought Irene was amazing and admired her for her attention. Irene was pretty and fashionable; she sang beautifully and spent every winter in Charlottetown taking music lessons. She had an aunt in Montreal who sent her fabulous clothes; it was rumored she had a tragic love story—nobody knew the details, but its mystery was intriguing. Rilla felt that Irene's compliments made her evening. She ran happily back to the pavilion and paused for a moment in the warm light from the lanterns at the entrance, watching the dancers. A brief lull in the swirling crowd allowed her to spot Kenneth Ford standing on the other side.
Rilla's heart skipped a beat—or, if that be a physiological impossibility, she thought it did. So he was here, after all. She had concluded he was not coming—not that it mattered in the least. Would he see her? Would he take any notice of her? Of course, he wouldn't ask her to dance—that couldn't be hoped for. He thought her just a mere child. He had called her "Spider" not three weeks ago when he had been at Ingleside one evening. She had cried about it upstairs afterwards and hated him. But her heart skipped a beat when she saw that he was edging his way round the side of the pavilion towards her. Was he coming to her—was he?—was he?—yes, he was! He was looking for her—he was here beside her—he was gazing down at her with something in his dark grey eyes that Rilla had never seen in them. Oh, it was almost too much to bear! and everything was going on as before—the dancers were spinning round, the boys who couldn't get partners were hanging about the pavilion, canoodling couples were sitting out on the rocks—nobody seemed to realize what a stupendous thing had happened.
Rilla's heart raced—or, if that's physically impossible, she thought it did. So he was here, after all. She had convinced herself he wasn't coming—not that it mattered at all. Would he see her? Would he notice her? Of course, he wouldn't ask her to dance—that was too much to hope for. He thought she was just a little kid. He had called her "Spider" not three weeks ago when he had been at Ingleside one evening. She had cried about it upstairs afterward and hated him. But her heart raced when she saw him making his way around the side of the pavilion toward her. Was he coming to her—was he?—was he?—yes, he was! He was looking for her—he was here beside her—he was gazing down at her with something in his dark grey eyes that Rilla had never seen before. Oh, it was almost too much to handle! And everything was continuing as usual—the dancers were twirling around, the boys who couldn't find partners were lingering near the pavilion, cozy couples were sitting out on the rocks—nobody seemed to realize what an incredible thing had just happened.
Kenneth was a tall lad, very good looking, with a certain careless grace of bearing that somehow made all the other boys seem stiff and awkward by contrast. He was reported to be awesomely clever, with the glamour of a far-away city and a big university hanging around him. He had also the reputation of being a bit of a lady-killer. But that probably accrued to him from his possession of a laughing, velvety voice which no girl could hear without a heartbeat, and a dangerous way of listening as if she were saying something that he had longed all his life to hear.
Kenneth was a tall guy, really good-looking, with a kind of effortless charm that made all the other guys look stiff and awkward in comparison. People said he was incredibly smart, with the allure of a distant city and a prestigious university following him. He also had the reputation of being a bit of a heartbreaker. But that likely came from his smooth, velvety voice that made any girl’s heart race, and the way he listened as if she was telling him something he had dreamed of hearing his whole life.
"Is this Rilla-my-Rilla?" he asked in a low tone.
"Is this Rilla-my-Rilla?" he asked quietly.
"Yeth," said Rilla, and immediately wished she could throw herself headlong down the lighthouse rock or otherwise vanish from a jeering world.
"Yeah," said Rilla, and immediately wished she could throw herself off the lighthouse rock or find a way to disappear from a mocking world.
Rilla had lisped in early childhood; but she had grown out of it. Only on occasions of stress and strain did the tendency re-assert itself. She hadn't lisped for a year; and now at this very moment, when she was so especially desirous of appearing grown up and sophisticated, she must go and lisp like a baby! It was too mortifying; she felt as if tears were going to come into her eyes; the next minute she would be—blubbering—yes, just blubbering—she wished Kenneth would go away—she wished he had never come. The party was spoiled. Everything had turned to dust and ashes.
Rilla had lisped when she was a child, but she had outgrown it. It only came back when she was stressed. She hadn’t lisped for a year, and now, at this moment when she really wanted to seem mature and sophisticated, she started lisping like a little kid! It was so embarrassing; she felt like tears were about to fill her eyes; soon she would be—sobbing—yes, just sobbing—she wished Kenneth would leave—she wished he had never come. The party was ruined. Everything felt broken.
And he had called her "Rilla-my-Rilla"—not "Spider" or "Kid" or "Puss," as he had been used to call her when he took any notice whatever of her. She did not at all resent his using Walter's pet name for her; it sounded beautifully in his low caressing tones, with just the faintest suggestion of emphasis on the "my." It would have been so nice if she had not made a fool of herself. She dared not look up lest she should see laughter in his eyes. So she looked down; and as her lashes were very long and dark and her lids very thick and creamy, the effect was quite charming and provocative, and Kenneth reflected that Rilla Blythe was going to be the beauty of the Ingleside girls after all. He wanted to make her look up—to catch again that little, demure, questioning glance. She was the prettiest thing at the party, there was no doubt of that.
And he had called her "Rilla-my-Rilla"—not "Spider," "Kid," or "Puss," as he used to when he paid any attention to her at all. She didn’t mind him using Walter's nickname for her; it sounded lovely in his soft, loving voice, with just a hint of emphasis on "my." It would have been so nice if she hadn’t embarrassed herself. She couldn't bring herself to look up for fear of seeing laughter in his eyes. So she looked down, and with her long, dark lashes and thick, creamy eyelids, she looked quite charming and alluring. Kenneth thought that Rilla Blythe was going to be the prettiest of the Ingleside girls after all. He wanted her to look up—to catch that little, shy, questioning glance again. She was definitely the prettiest girl at the party, no doubt about it.
What was he saying? Rilla could hardly believe her ears.
What was he saying? Rilla could barely believe her ears.
"Can we have a dance?"
"Can we dance?"
"Yes," said Rilla. She said it with such a fierce determination not to lisp that she fairly blurted the word out. Then she writhed in spirit again. It sounded so bold—so eager—as if she were fairly jumping at him! What would he think of her? Oh, why did dreadful things like this happen, just when a girl wanted to appear at her best?
"Yeah," Rilla said. She said it with such fierce determination not to lisp that she almost shouted the word out. Then she felt frustrated again. It sounded so bold—so eager—like she was really jumping at him! What would he think of her? Oh, why did awful things like this happen, just when a girl wanted to look her best?
Kenneth drew her in among the dancers.
Kenneth pulled her into the group of dancers.
"I think this game ankle of mine is good for one hop around, at least," he said.
"I think this ankle of mine is good for at least one hop around," he said.
"How is your ankle?" said Rilla. Oh, why couldn't she think of something else to say? She knew he was sick of inquiries about his ankle. She had heard him say so at Ingleside—heard him tell Di he was going to wear a placard on his breast announcing to all and sundry that the ankle was improving, etc. And now she must go and ask this stale question again.
"How's your ankle?" Rilla asked. Oh, why couldn't she think of something else to say? She knew he was tired of questions about his ankle. She had heard him say so at Ingleside—heard him tell Di that he was going to wear a sign on his chest announcing to everyone that the ankle was getting better, and so on. And now she had to go and ask this old question again.
Kenneth was tired of inquiries about his ankle. But then he had not often been asked about it by lips with such an adorable kissable dent just above them. Perhaps that was why he answered very patiently that it was getting on well and didn't trouble him much, if he didn't walk or stand too long at a time.
Kenneth was fed up with questions about his ankle. But then again, he hadn’t often been asked by someone with such an adorable, kissable dimple just above their lips. Maybe that’s why he responded patiently that it was healing well and didn’t bother him much, as long as he didn’t walk or stand for too long at once.
"They tell me it will be as strong as ever in time, but I'll have to cut football out this fall."
"They say it’ll be as strong as ever eventually, but I’ll have to skip football this fall."
They danced together and Rilla knew every girl in sight envied her. After the dance they went down the rock steps and Kenneth found a little flat and they rowed across the moonlit channel to the sand-shore; they walked on the sand till Kenneth's ankle made protest and then they sat down among the dunes. Kenneth talked to her as he had talked to Nan and Di. Rilla, overcome with a shyness she did not understand, could not talk much, and thought he would think her frightfully stupid; but in spite of this it was all very wonderful—the exquisite moonlit night, the shining sea, the tiny little wavelets swishing on the sand, the cool and freakish wind of night crooning in the stiff grasses on the crest of the dunes, the music sounding faintly and sweetly over the channel.
They danced together, and Rilla knew every girl around was jealous of her. After the dance, they went down the rock steps, and Kenneth found a small flat area where they rowed across the moonlit channel to the sandy shore. They walked on the sand until Kenneth's ankle started to hurt, and then they sat down among the dunes. Kenneth talked to her just like he had talked to Nan and Di. Rilla, overwhelmed by a shyness she didn't understand, couldn't say much and worried he would think she seemed really stupid. But despite that, everything felt amazing—the beautiful moonlit night, the sparkling sea, the little waves lapping at the sand, the cool and playful night wind whispering through the tall grasses on the dune tops, and the music softly drifting across the channel.
"'A merry lilt o' moonlight for mermaiden revelry,'" quoted Kenneth softly from one of Walter's poems.
"'A joyful tune of moonlight for mermaid celebrations,'" Kenneth softly quoted from one of Walter's poems.
And just he and she alone together in the glamour of sound and sight! If only her slippers didn't bite so! and if only she could talk cleverly like Miss Oliver—nay, if she could only talk as she did herself to other boys! But words would not come, she could only listen and murmur little commonplace sentences now and again. But perhaps her dreamy eyes and her dented lip and her slender throat talked eloquently for her. At any rate Kenneth seemed in no hurry to suggest going back and when they did go back supper was in progress. He found a seat for her near the window of the lighthouse kitchen and sat on the sill beside her while she ate her ices and cake. Rilla looked about her and thought how lovely her first party had been. She would never forget it. The room re-echoed to laughter and jest. Beautiful young eyes sparkled and shone. From the pavilion outside came the lilt of the fiddle and the rhythmic steps of the dancers.
And here they were, just the two of them, caught up in the magic of sound and sight! If only her slippers weren’t so uncomfortable, and if only she could talk as cleverly as Miss Oliver—actually, if she could just talk as easily as she did with other guys! But the right words wouldn’t come; she could only listen and occasionally murmur some small talk. But maybe her dreamy eyes, her slightly pouted lip, and her graceful neck spoke volumes for her. At any rate, Kenneth didn’t seem in a rush to suggest going back, and when they finally did return, supper was already underway. He found her a spot near the lighthouse kitchen window and sat on the sill next to her while she enjoyed her ice cream and cake. Rilla looked around and thought about how wonderful her first party had been. She would never forget it. The room was filled with laughter and fun. Beautiful young faces sparkled with joy. Outside, the sound of the fiddle and the rhythmic dancing made everything feel alive.
There was a little disturbance among a group of boys crowded about the door; a young fellow pushed through and halted on the threshold, looking about him rather sombrely. It was Jack Elliott from over-harbour—a McGill medical student, a quiet chap not much addicted to social doings. He had been invited to the party but had not been expected to come since he had to go to Charlottetown that day and could not be back until late. Yet here he was—and he carried a folded paper in his hand.
There was a bit of commotion among a group of boys gathered by the door; a young guy pushed through and stopped in the doorway, glancing around rather seriously. It was Jack Elliott from over-harbour—a McGill med student, a reserved guy who wasn’t really into social events. He had been invited to the party but wasn’t expected to show up since he had to head to Charlottetown that day and wouldn’t be back until late. Yet here he was—and he held a folded piece of paper in his hand.
Gertrude Oliver looked at him from her corner and shivered again. She had enjoyed the party herself, after all, for she had foregathered with a Charlottetown acquaintance who, being a stranger and much older than most of the guests, felt himself rather out of it, and had been glad to fall in with this clever girl who could talk of world doings and outside events with the zest and vigour of a man. In the pleasure of his society she had forgotten some of her misgivings of the day. Now they suddenly returned to her. What news did Jack Elliott bring? Lines from an old poem flashed unbidden into her mind—"there was a sound of revelry by night"—"Hush! Hark! A deep sound strikes like a rising knell"—why should she think of that now? Why didn't Jack Elliott speak—if he had anything to tell? Why did he just stand there, glowering importantly?
Gertrude Oliver glanced at him from her corner and shivered again. She had actually enjoyed the party, after all, because she had reconnected with a Charlottetown acquaintance who, being a stranger and much older than most of the guests, felt somewhat out of place. He had been happy to engage with this clever girl who could discuss world events and current affairs with the enthusiasm and energy of a man. In the enjoyment of his company, she had pushed aside some of her worries from earlier in the day. Now, those worries came rushing back to her. What news did Jack Elliott bring? Lines from an old poem suddenly popped into her mind—"there was a sound of revelry by night"—"Hush! Hark! A deep sound strikes like a rising knell"—why was she thinking of that now? Why wasn't Jack Elliott saying anything—if he had something to share? Why was he just standing there, looking serious?
"Ask him—ask him," she said feverishly to Allan Daly. But somebody else had already asked him. The room grew very silent all at once. Outside the fiddler had stopped for a rest and there was silence there too. Afar off they heard the low moan of the gulf—the presage of a storm already on its way up the Atlantic. A girl's laugh drifted up from the rocks and died away as if frightened out of existence by the sudden stillness.
"Ask him—ask him," she said anxiously to Allan Daly. But someone else had already asked him. The room suddenly fell very quiet. Outside, the fiddler had paused for a break, and there was silence there as well. In the distance, they heard the soft moan of the gulf—the sign of a storm approaching from the Atlantic. A girl's laugh floated up from the rocks and faded away as if startled into silence by the abrupt stillness.
"England declared war on Germany today," said Jack Elliott slowly. "The news came by wire just as I left town."
"England declared war on Germany today," Jack Elliott said slowly. "I got the news by wire just as I was leaving town."
"God help us," whispered Gertrude Oliver under her breath. "My dream—my dream! The first wave has broken." She looked at Allan Daly and tried to smile.
"God help us," Gertrude Oliver whispered quietly. "My dream—my dream! The first wave has crashed." She looked at Allan Daly and attempted to smile.
"Is this Armageddon?" she asked.
"Is this the end times?" she asked.
"I am afraid so," he said gravely.
"I'm afraid so," he said seriously.
A chorus of exclamations had arisen round them—light surprise and idle interest for the most part. Few there realized the import of the message—fewer still realized that it meant anything to them. Before long the dancing was on again and the hum of pleasure was as loud as ever. Gertrude and Allan Daly talked the news over in low, troubled tones. Walter Blythe had turned pale and left the room. Outside he met Jem, hurrying up the rock steps.
A wave of surprised comments surrounded them—mostly light surprise and casual curiosity. Few understood the significance of the news—and even fewer recognized it meant anything to them personally. Before long, the dancing resumed, and the sound of enjoyment was just as loud as before. Gertrude and Allan Daly discussed the news in hushed, concerned voices. Walter Blythe had gone pale and stepped out of the room. Outside, he ran into Jem, who was rushing up the rock steps.
"Have you heard the news, Jem?"
"Have you heard the news, Jem?"
"Yes. The Piper has come. Hurrah! I knew England wouldn't leave France in the lurch. I've been trying to get Captain Josiah to hoist the flag but he says it isn't the proper caper till sunrise. Jack says they'll be calling for volunteers tomorrow."
"Yes. The Piper has arrived. Hurrah! I knew England wouldn't abandon France. I've been trying to get Captain Josiah to raise the flag, but he says it's not the right move until sunrise. Jack says they'll be asking for volunteers tomorrow."
"What a fuss to make over nothing," said Mary Vance disdainfully as Jem dashed off. She was sitting out with Miller Douglas on a lobster trap which was not only an unromantic but an uncomfortable seat. But Mary and Miller were both supremely happy on it. Miller Douglas was a big, strapping, uncouth lad, who thought Mary Vance's tongue uncommonly gifted and Mary Vance's white eyes stars of the first magnitude; and neither of them had the least inkling why Jem Blythe wanted to hoist the lighthouse flag. "What does it matter if there's going to be a war over there in Europe? I'm sure it doesn't concern us."
"What a big deal to make over nothing," Mary Vance said dismissively as Jem ran off. She was sitting outside with Miller Douglas on a lobster trap, which was not only unromantic but also uncomfortable. However, Mary and Miller were both incredibly happy there. Miller Douglas was a big, rough-around-the-edges guy who thought Mary Vance had a remarkable way with words and saw her bright white eyes as the brightest stars; neither of them had any idea why Jem Blythe wanted to raise the lighthouse flag. "What does it matter if there's going to be a war over in Europe? I'm sure it doesn't concern us."
Walter looked at her and had one of his odd visitations of prophecy.
Walter looked at her and experienced one of his strange moments of foresight.
"Before this war is over," he said—or something said through his lips—"every man and woman and child in Canada will feel it—you, Mary, will feel it—feel it to your heart's core. You will weep tears of blood over it. The Piper has come—and he will pipe until every corner of the world has heard his awful and irresistible music. It will be years before the dance of death is over—years, Mary. And in those years millions of hearts will break."
"Before this war is over," he said—or something came out of his lips—"every man, woman, and child in Canada will feel it—you, Mary, will feel it—feel it deep in your heart. You will cry tears of blood over it. The Piper has come—and he will play until every corner of the world has heard his terrible and compelling music. It will be years before the dance of death is done—years, Mary. And in those years, millions of hearts will shatter."
"Fancy now!" said Mary who always said that when she couldn't think of anything else to say. She didn't know what Walter meant but she felt uncomfortable. Walter Blythe was always saying odd things. That old Piper of his—she hadn't heard anything about him since their playdays in Rainbow Valley—and now here he was bobbing up again. She didn't like it, and that was the long and short of it.
"Wow, really?" said Mary, who always said that when she couldn't think of anything else to say. She didn't understand what Walter meant, but it made her uneasy. Walter Blythe always had strange things to say. That old Piper of his—she hadn't heard anything about him since their play days in Rainbow Valley—and now he was popping up again. She didn't like it, and that was all there was to it.
"Aren't you painting it rather strong, Walter?" asked Harvey Crawford, coming up just then. "This war won't last for years—it'll be over in a month or two. England will just wipe Germany off the map in no time."
"Aren't you being a bit dramatic, Walter?" asked Harvey Crawford, arriving just then. "This war won't last for years—it'll be over in a month or two. England will have Germany out of the picture in no time."
"Do you think a war for which Germany has been preparing for twenty years will be over in a few weeks?" said Walter passionately. "This isn't a paltry struggle in a Balkan corner, Harvey. It is a death grapple. Germany comes to conquer or to die. And do you know what will happen if she conquers? Canada will be a German colony."
"Do you really believe that a war Germany has been getting ready for twenty years will wrap up in just a few weeks?" Walter said passionately. "This isn't some minor conflict in the Balkans, Harvey. It's a fight to the death. Germany is here to either conquer or be defeated. And do you know what will happen if they win? Canada will become a German colony."
"Well, I guess a few things will happen before that," said Harvey shrugging his shoulders. "The British navy would have to be licked for one; and for another, Miller here, now, and I, we'd raise a dust, wouldn't we, Miller? No Germans need apply for this old country, eh?"
"Well, I guess a few things will happen before that," said Harvey, shrugging his shoulders. "The British navy would have to be beaten for one; and for another, Miller here and I would stir things up, right, Miller? No Germans allowed in this old country, huh?"
Harvey ran down the steps laughing.
Harvey rushed down the stairs laughing.
"I declare, I think all you boys talk the craziest stuff," said Mary Vance in disgust. She got up and dragged Miller off to the rock-shore. It didn't happen often that they had a chance for a talk together; Mary was determined that this one shouldn't be spoiled by Walter Blythe's silly blather about Pipers and Germans and such like absurd things. They left Walter standing alone on the rock steps, looking out over the beauty of Four Winds with brooding eyes that saw it not.
"I swear, I think all you guys talk the craziest nonsense," said Mary Vance in disgust. She stood up and pulled Miller off to the rocky shore. They didn't often get a chance to talk together; Mary was determined not to let this one be ruined by Walter Blythe's silly chatter about Pipers and Germans and other ridiculous stuff. They left Walter standing alone on the rocky steps, gazing out over the beauty of Four Winds with a brooding expression that didn't notice it at all.
The best of the evening was over for Rilla, too. Ever since Jack Elliott's announcement, she had sensed that Kenneth was no longer thinking about her. She felt suddenly lonely and unhappy. It was worse than if he had never noticed her at all. Was life like this—something delightful happening and then, just as you were revelling in it, slipping away from you? Rilla told herself pathetically that she felt years older than when she had left home that evening. Perhaps she did—perhaps she was. Who knows? It does not do to laugh at the pangs of youth. They are very terrible because youth has not yet learned that "this, too, will pass away." Rilla sighed and wished she were home, in bed, crying into her pillow.
The best part of the evening was over for Rilla, too. Ever since Jack Elliott announced his news, she had sensed that Kenneth was no longer thinking about her. She felt suddenly lonely and unhappy. It was worse than if he had never noticed her at all. Was life really like this—something wonderful happening and then, just as you were enjoying it, it slips away from you? Rilla told herself sadly that she felt years older than when she had left home that evening. Maybe she did—maybe she was. Who knows? It's not good to laugh at the struggles of youth. They can be really tough because youth hasn’t learned yet that "this, too, will pass." Rilla sighed and wished she were home, in bed, crying into her pillow.
"Tired?" said Kenneth, gently but absently—oh, so absently. He really didn't care a bit whether she were tired or not, she thought.
"Tired?" Kenneth asked, gently but absentmindedly—so very absentmindedly. He honestly didn't care at all if she was tired or not, she thought.
"Kenneth," she ventured timidly, "you don't think this war will matter much to us in Canada, do you?"
"Kenneth," she said hesitantly, "you don’t think this war will affect us much in Canada, do you?"
"Matter? Of course it will matter to the lucky fellows who will be able to take a hand. I won't—thanks to this confounded ankle. Rotten luck, I call it."
"Matter? Of course it will matter to the lucky guys who get to join in. I won't—thanks to this cursed ankle. Terrible luck, I’d say."
"I don't see why we should fight England's battles," cried Rilla. "She's quite able to fight them herself."
"I don't get why we should fight England's battles," Rilla exclaimed. "She's completely capable of fighting them on her own."
"That isn't the point. We are part of the British Empire. It's a family affair. We've got to stand by each other. The worst of it is, it will be over before I can be of any use."
"That's not the issue. We're part of the British Empire. It's a family matter. We need to support each other. The worst part is, it will all be over before I can actually help."
"Do you mean that you would really volunteer to go if it wasn't for your ankle? asked Rilla incredulously.
"Are you saying that you would actually volunteer to go if it weren't for your ankle?" Rilla asked, in disbelief.
"Sure I would. You see they'll go by thousands. Jem'll be off, I'll bet a cent—Walter won't be strong enough yet, I suppose. And Jerry Meredith—he'll go! And I was worrying about being out of football this year!"
"Of course I would. You see, they'll leave in droves. Jem will be gone, I bet a dollar—Walter probably won't be strong enough yet. And Jerry Meredith—he's definitely going! And I was stressing about missing out on football this year!"
Rilla was too startled to say anything. Jem—and Jerry! Nonsense! Why father and Mr. Meredith wouldn't allow it. They weren't through college. Oh, why hadn't Jack Elliott kept his horrid news to himself?
Rilla was too shocked to say anything. Jem—and Jerry! No way! Surely, Dad and Mr. Meredith wouldn't allow it. They weren't finished with college yet. Oh, why hadn’t Jack Elliott just kept his awful news to himself?
Mark Warren came up and asked her to dance. Rilla went, knowing Kenneth didn't care whether she went or stayed. An hour ago on the sand-shore he had been looking at her as if she were the only being of any importance in the world. And now she was nobody. His thoughts were full of this Great Game which was to be played out on bloodstained fields with empires for stakes—a Game in which womenkind could have no part. Women, thought Rilla miserably, just had to sit and cry at home. But all this was foolishness. Kenneth couldn't go—he admitted that himself—and Walter couldn't—thank goodness for that—and Jem and Jerry would have more sense. She wouldn't worry—she would enjoy herself. But how awkward Mark Warren was! How he bungled his steps! Why, for mercy's sake, did boys try to dance who didn't know the first thing about dancing; and who had feet as big as boats? There, he had bumped her into somebody! She would never dance with him again!
Mark Warren came over and asked her to dance. Rilla went along, knowing Kenneth didn’t care whether she went or stayed. Just an hour ago on the beach, he had looked at her as if she were the most important person in the world. And now she was nothing. His mind was filled with this Great Game that was going to be fought on bloody fields with empires at stake—a Game that women had no part in. Women, Rilla thought miserably, just had to sit at home and cry. But this was all nonsense. Kenneth couldn’t go—he admitted that himself—and Walter couldn’t—thank goodness for that—and Jem and Jerry would have more sense. She wouldn’t worry—she would enjoy herself. But Mark Warren was so awkward! He was tripping over his own feet! Why, for heaven’s sake, did boys who didn’t know how to dance even try, especially with feet as big as boats? There, he bumped her into someone! She would never dance with him again!
She danced with others, though the zest was gone out of the performance and she had begun to realize that her slippers hurt her badly. Kenneth seemed to have gone—at least nothing was to be seen of him. Her first party was spoiled, though it had seemed so beautiful at one time. Her head ached—her toes burned. And worse was yet to come. She had gone down with some over-harbour friends to the rock-shore where they all lingered as dance after dance went on above them. It was cool and pleasant and they were tired. Rilla sat silent, taking no part in the gay conversation. She was glad when someone called down that the over-harbour boats were leaving. A laughing scramble up the lighthouse rock followed. A few couples still whirled about in the pavilion but the crowd had thinned out. Rilla looked about her for the Glen group. She could not see one of them. She ran into the lighthouse. Still, no sign of anybody. In dismay she ran to the rock steps, down which the over-harbour guests were hurrying. She could see the boats below—where was Jem's—where was Joe's?
She danced with others, but the excitement was gone from the performance and she started to realize that her slippers hurt her badly. Kenneth seemed to have disappeared—at least there was no sign of him. Her first party was ruined, even though it had once felt so beautiful. Her head ached—her toes were on fire. And worse things were yet to come. She had gone down with some friends from the over-harbour to the rocky shore where they all lingered while dance after dance continued above them. It was cool and pleasant, and they were tired. Rilla sat silently, not participating in the cheerful conversation. She felt relieved when someone called down that the over-harbour boats were leaving. A laughing rush up the lighthouse rock followed. A few couples still twirled in the pavilion, but the crowd had thinned out. Rilla looked around for the Glen group. She couldn't see any of them. She ran into the lighthouse. Still, there was no sign of anyone. In despair, she dashed to the rock steps, where the over-harbour guests were hurrying down. She could see the boats below—where was Jem's—where was Joe's?
"Why, Rilla Blythe, I thought you'd be gone home long ago," said Mary Vance, who was waving her scarf at a boat skimming up the channel, skippered by Miller Douglas.
"Why, Rilla Blythe, I thought you would have gone home a long time ago," said Mary Vance, who was waving her scarf at a boat gliding up the channel, piloted by Miller Douglas.
"Where are the rest?" gasped Rilla.
"Where are the others?" gasped Rilla.
"Why, they're gone—Jem went an hour ago—Una had a headache. And the rest went with Joe about fifteen minutes ago. See—they're just going around Birch Point. I didn't go because it's getting rough and I knew I'd be seasick. I don't mind walking home from here. It's only a mile and a half. I s'posed you'd gone. Where were you?"
"Well, they left—Jem went an hour ago—Una had a headache. The others left with Joe about fifteen minutes ago. Look—they're just passing Birch Point. I didn't go because it's getting pretty rough, and I knew I'd get seasick. I don’t mind walking home from here. It’s only a mile and a half. I figured you had already left. Where were you?"
"Down on the rocks with Jem and Mollie Crawford. Oh, why didn't they look for me?"
"On the rocks with Jem and Mollie Crawford. Oh, why didn’t they come looking for me?"
"They did—but you couldn't be found. Then they concluded you must have gone in the other boat. Don't worry. You can stay all night with me and we'll 'phone up to Ingleside where you are."
"They did look for you, but they couldn't find you. So they figured you must have taken the other boat. Don't stress. You can stay with me all night, and we'll call Ingleside to let them know where you are."
Rilla realized that there was nothing else to do. Her lips trembled and tears came into her eyes. She blinked savagely—she would not let Mary Vance see her crying. But to be forgotten like this! To think nobody had thought it worth while to make sure where she was—not even Walter. Then she had a sudden dismayed recollection.
Rilla understood that there was nothing left for her to do. Her lips shook, and tears filled her eyes. She blinked fiercely—she wouldn’t let Mary Vance see her crying. But to be forgotten like this! To think that no one thought it was important to check on her—not even Walter. Then, she suddenly had a troubling recollection.
"My shoes," she exclaimed. "I left them in the boat."
"My shoes," she said in surprise. "I left them in the boat."
"Well, I never," said Mary. "You're the most thoughtless kid I ever saw. You'll have to ask Hazel Lewison to lend you a pair of shoes."
"Well, I can't believe it," said Mary. "You're the most inconsiderate kid I've ever seen. You're going to have to ask Hazel Lewison to borrow a pair of shoes."
"I won't." cried Rilla, who didn't like the said Hazel. "I'll go barefoot first."
"I won't," Rilla shouted, who didn't like the mentioned Hazel. "I'll go barefoot first."
Mary shrugged her shoulders.
Mary shrugged.
"Just as you like. Pride must suffer pain. It'll teach you to be more careful. Well, let's hike."
"Just the way you like it. Pride has to endure pain. It’ll make you more cautious. Alright, let’s go hiking."
Accordingly they hiked. But to "hike" along a deep-rutted, pebbly lane in frail, silver-hued slippers with high French heels, is not an exhilarating performance. Rilla managed to limp and totter along until they reached the harbour road; but she could go no farther in those detestable slippers. She took them and her dear silk stockings off and started barefoot. That was not pleasant either; her feet were very tender and the pebbles and ruts of the road hurt them. Her blistered heels smarted. But physical pain was almost forgotten in the sting of humiliation. This was a nice predicament! If Kenneth Ford could see her now, limping along like a little girl with a stone bruise! Oh, what a horrid way for her lovely party to end! She just had to cry—it was too terrible. Nobody cared for her—nobody bothered about her at all. Well, if she caught cold from walking home barefoot on a dew-wet road and went into a decline perhaps they would be sorry. She furtively wiped her tears away with her scarf—handkerchiefs seemed to have vanished like shoes!—but she could not help sniffling. Worse and worse!
So they hiked. But “hiking” along a deep-rutted, pebbly path in delicate, silver-colored slippers with high French heels was not exactly thrilling. Rilla managed to shuffle along until they hit the harbor road, but she couldn’t go any farther in those awful slippers. She took them and her nice silk stockings off and went barefoot. That wasn’t great either; her feet were super sensitive, and the pebbles and bumps on the road really hurt. Her blistered heels stung. But the physical pain was almost overshadowed by the humiliation. What a situation! If Kenneth Ford could see her now, limping along like a little girl with a stubbed toe! Oh, what a terrible way for her beautiful party to end! She just had to cry—it was too much. Nobody cared about her—nobody paid her any attention at all. Well, if she caught a cold from walking home barefoot on a dew-soaked road and got sick, maybe they’d feel bad. She secretly wiped her tears with her scarf—handkerchiefs seemed to have disappeared like her shoes!—but she couldn’t help but sniffle. It just kept getting worse!
"You've got a cold, I see," said Mary. "You ought to have known you would, sitting down in the wind on those rocks. Your mother won't let you go out again in a hurry I can tell you. It's certainly been something of a party. The Lewisons know how to do things, I'll say that for them, though Hazel Lewison is no choice of mine. My, how black she looked when she saw you dancing with Ken Ford. And so did that little hussy of an Ethel Reese. What a flirt he is!"
"You've got a cold, huh?" Mary said. "You should've known that would happen, sitting on those rocks in the wind. Your mom won't let you go out again anytime soon, that's for sure. It's definitely been quite the party. The Lewisons know how to throw one, I’ll give them that, even though I’m not a fan of Hazel Lewison. Wow, she looked furious when she saw you dancing with Ken Ford. And that little flirt, Ethel Reese, looked just as annoyed. What a player he is!"
"I don't think he's a flirt," said Rilla as defiantly as two desperate sniffs would let her.
"I don't think he's a flirt," Rilla said, as defiantly as two desperate sniffs would allow her.
"You'll know more about men when you're as old as I am," said Mary patronizingly. "Mind you, it doesn't do to believe all they tell you. Don't let Ken Ford think that all he has to do to get you on a string is to drop his handkerchief. Have more spirit than that, child."
"You'll understand men better when you’re as old as I am," Mary said, looking down on her. "Just remember, it’s not wise to believe everything they say. Don’t let Ken Ford think that all it takes to win you over is dropping his handkerchief. Have more self-respect than that, kid."
To be thus hectored and patronized by Mary Vance was unendurable! And it was unendurable to walk on stony roads with blistered heels and bare feet! And it was unendurable to be crying and have no handkerchief and not to be able to stop crying!
To be bossed around and treated like a child by Mary Vance was unbearable! And it was unbearable to walk on rough roads with sore heels and no shoes! And it was unbearable to be crying, without a tissue, and unable to stop!
"I'm not thinking"—sniff—"about Kenneth"—sniff—"Ford"—two sniffs—"at all," cried tortured Rilla.
"I'm not thinking"—sniff—"about Kenneth"—sniff—"Ford"—two sniffs—"at all," cried distressed Rilla.
"There's no need to fly off the handle, child. You ought to be willing to take advice from older people. I saw how you slipped over to the sands with Ken and stayed there ever so long with him. Your mother wouldn't like it if she knew."
"There's no need to freak out, kid. You should be open to taking advice from older folks. I noticed how you went over to the beach with Ken and stayed there for quite a while. Your mom wouldn’t be happy if she found out."
"I'll tell my mother all about it—and Miss Oliver—and Walter," Rilla gasped between sniffs. "You sat for hours with Miller Douglas on that lobster trap, Mary Vance! What would Mrs. Elliott say to that if she knew?"
"I'll tell my mom all about it—and Miss Oliver—and Walter," Rilla gasped between sniffles. "You spent hours with Miller Douglas on that lobster trap, Mary Vance! What would Mrs. Elliott say if she found out?"
"Oh, I'm not going to quarrel with you," said Mary, suddenly retreating to high and lofty ground. "All I say is, you should wait until you're grown-up before you do things like that."
"Oh, I'm not going to argue with you," Mary said, suddenly taking a strong stance. "All I'm saying is, you should wait until you're grown up before you do things like that."
Rilla gave up trying to hide the fact that she was crying. Everything was spoiled—even that beautiful, dreamy, romantic, moonlit hour with Kenneth on the sands was vulgarized and cheapened. She loathed Mary Vance.
Rilla stopped trying to hide that she was crying. Everything was ruined—even that beautiful, dreamy, romantic, moonlit moment with Kenneth on the beach felt cheap and tacky. She hated Mary Vance.
"Why, whatever's wrong?" cried mystified Mary. "What are you crying for?"
"What's wrong?" cried confused Mary. "Why are you crying?"
"My feet—hurt so—" sobbed Rilla clinging to the last shred of her pride. It was less humiliating to admit crying because of your feet than because—because somebody had been amusing himself with you, and your friends had forgotten you, and other people patronized you.
"My feet—hurt so—" sobbed Rilla, holding on to the last bit of her pride. It felt less humiliating to admit she was crying because of her feet than because—because someone had been making fun of her, and her friends had forgotten her, and other people looked down on her.
"I daresay they do," said Mary, not unkindly. "Never mind. I know where there's a pot of goose-grease in Cornelia's tidy pantry and it beats all the fancy cold creams in the world. I'll put some on your heels before you go to bed."
"I definitely think they do," Mary said kindly. "No worries. I know where there's a pot of goose grease in Cornelia's neat pantry, and it’s way better than all those fancy cold creams. I'll put some on your heels before you head to bed."
Goose-grease on your heels! So this was what your first party and your first beau and your first moonlit romance ended in!
Goose grease on your heels! So this is how your first party, your first crush, and your first moonlit romance turned out!
Rilla gave over crying in sheer disgust at the futility of tears and went to sleep in Mary Vance's bed in the calm of despair. Outside, the dawn came greyly in on wings of storm; Captain Josiah, true to his word, ran up the Union Jack at the Four Winds Light and it streamed on the fierce wind against the clouded sky like a gallant unquenchable beacon.
Rilla stopped crying in frustration at the uselessness of tears and fell asleep in Mary Vance's bed, finding a calm in her despair. Outside, dawn arrived in a gray haze amid the storm; Captain Josiah, keeping his promise, raised the Union Jack at the Four Winds Light, and it fluttered fiercely in the wind against the cloudy sky like a brave, unwavering beacon.
CHAPTER V
"THE SOUND OF A GOING"
Rilla ran down through the sunlit glory of the maple grove behind Ingleside, to her favourite nook in Rainbow Valley. She sat down on a green-mossed stone among the fern, propped her chin on her hands and stared unseeingly at the dazzling blue sky of the August afternoon—so blue, so peaceful, so unchanged, just as it had arched over the valley in the mellow days of late summer ever since she could remember.
Rilla ran through the sunlit beauty of the maple grove behind Ingleside, heading to her favorite spot in Rainbow Valley. She sat on a moss-covered stone among the ferns, rested her chin on her hands, and stared blankly at the bright blue sky of the August afternoon—so blue, so peaceful, so unchanged, just like it had been over the valley during the warm days of late summer for as long as she could remember.
She wanted to be alone—to think things out—to adjust herself, if it were possible, to the new world into which she seemed to have been transplanted with a suddenness and completeness that left her half bewildered as to her own identity. Was she—could she be—the same Rilla Blythe who had danced at Four Winds Light six days ago—only six days ago? It seemed to Rilla that she had lived as much in those six days as in all her previous life—and if it be true that we should count time by heart-throbs she had. That evening, with its hopes and fears and triumphs and humiliations, seemed like ancient history now. Could she really ever have cried just because she had been forgotten and had to walk home with Mary Vance? Ah, thought Rilla sadly, how trivial and absurd such a cause of tears now appeared to her. She could cry now with a right good will—but she would not—she must not. What was it mother had said, looking, with her white lips and stricken eyes, as Rilla had never seen her mother look before,
She wanted to be alone—to think things through—to adjust herself, if possible, to the new world she felt like she'd suddenly been dropped into, leaving her somewhat confused about her own identity. Was she—could she be—the same Rilla Blythe who had danced at Four Winds Light just six days ago—only six days ago? It felt to Rilla like she had lived as much in those six days as in her entire previous life—and if it’s true that we should measure time by heartbeats, then she had. That evening, with all its hopes and fears, triumphs and embarrassments, felt like ancient history now. Could she really have cried just because she felt forgotten and had to walk home with Mary Vance? Ah, Rilla thought sadly, how trivial and silly that reason for tears seemed to her now. She could cry now with real sincerity—but she wouldn’t—she mustn’t. What was it her mother had said, looking, with her pale lips and pained eyes, in a way Rilla had never seen her mother before,
"When our women fail in courage,
Shall our men be fearless still?"
"When our women lack courage,
Should our men still be fearless?"
Yes, that was it. She must be brave—like mother—and Nan—and Faith—Faith, who had cried with flashing eyes, "Oh, if I were only a man, to go too!" Only, when her eyes ached and her throat burned like this she had to hide herself in Rainbow Valley for a little, just to think things out and remember that she wasn't a child any longer—she was grown-up and women had to face things like this. But it was—nice—to get away alone now and then, where nobody could see her and where she needn't feel that people thought her a little coward if some tears came in spite of her.
Yes, that was it. She had to be brave—like her mom—Nan—and Faith—Faith, who had shouted with bright eyes, "Oh, if only I were a man, I would go too!" But when her eyes felt heavy and her throat burned like this, she needed to escape to Rainbow Valley for a bit, just to sort through her thoughts and remind herself that she wasn't a child anymore—she was grown up, and women had to deal with things like this. But it felt—good—to have some time alone now and then, where no one could see her, and where she didn’t have to worry about people thinking she was a little coward if some tears fell anyway.
How sweet and woodsey the ferns smelled! How softly the great feathery boughs of the firs waved and murmured over her! How elfinly rang the bells of the "Tree Lovers"—just a tinkle now and then as the breeze swept by! How purple and elusive the haze where incense was being offered on many an altar of the hills! How the maple leaves whitened in the wind until the grove seemed covered with pale silvery blossoms! Everything was just the same as she had seen it hundreds of times; and yet the whole face of the world seemed changed.
How sweet and earthy the ferns smelled! How softly the large feathery branches of the firs swayed and whispered above her! How magically the bells of the "Tree Lovers" chimed—just a little tinkle now and then as the breeze passed by! How purple and mysterious the mist where incense was being offered on many hillsides! How the maple leaves turned white in the wind until the grove looked like it was covered in pale silvery blossoms! Everything was just as she had seen it hundreds of times; and yet the entire scene felt different.
"How wicked I was to wish that something dramatic would happen!" she thought. "Oh, if we could only have those dear, monotonous, pleasant days back again! I would never, never grumble about them again."
"How awful I was to wish for something dramatic to happen!" she thought. "Oh, if we could just have those sweet, boring, lovely days back again! I would never, ever complain about them again."
Rilla's world had tumbled to pieces the very day after the party. As they lingered around the dinner table at Ingleside, talking of the war, the telephone had rung. It was a long-distance call from Charlottetown for Jem. When he had finished talking he hung up the receiver and turned around, with a flushed face and glowing eyes. Before he had said a word his mother and Nan and Di had turned pale. As for Rilla, for the first time in her life she felt that every one must hear her heart beating and that something had clutched at her throat.
Rilla's world fell apart the day after the party. As they lingered around the dinner table at Ingleside, discussing the war, the phone rang. It was a long-distance call from Charlottetown for Jem. After he finished talking, he hung up the receiver and turned around, his face flushed and eyes shining. Before he could say anything, his mother, Nan, and Di went pale. As for Rilla, for the first time in her life, she felt as if everyone could hear her heart racing and that something had tightened around her throat.
"They are calling for volunteers in town, father," said Jem. "Scores have joined up already. I'm going in tonight to enlist."
"They're looking for volunteers in town, Dad," Jem said. "A ton of people have already signed up. I'm going in tonight to enlist."
"Oh—Little Jem," cried Mrs. Blythe brokenly. She had not called him that for many years—not since the day he had rebelled against it. "Oh—no—no—Little Jem."
"Oh—Little Jem," cried Mrs. Blythe, her voice trembling. She hadn't called him that in many years—not since the day he had defied it. "Oh—no—no—Little Jem."
"I must, mother. I'm right—am I not, father?" said Jem.
"I have to, Mom. I'm right—aren't I, Dad?" said Jem.
Dr. Blythe had risen. He was very pale, too, and his voice was husky. But he did not hesitate.
Dr. Blythe had gotten up. He was very pale, and his voice was raspy. But he didn’t hesitate.
"Yes, Jem, yes—if you feel that way, yes—"
"Yeah, Jem, yeah—if that's how you feel, yeah—"
Mrs. Blythe covered her face. Walter stared moodily at his plate. Nan and Di clasped each others' hands. Shirley tried to look unconcerned. Susan sat as if paralysed, her piece of pie half-eaten on her plate. Susan never did finish that piece of pie—a fact which bore eloquent testimony to the upheaval in her inner woman for Susan considered it a cardinal offence against civilized society to begin to eat anything and not finish it. That was wilful waste, hens to the contrary notwithstanding.
Mrs. Blythe covered her face. Walter stared grimly at his plate. Nan and Di held each other’s hands. Shirley tried to appear unaffected. Susan sat as if frozen, her piece of pie half-eaten on her plate. Susan never did finish that piece of pie—a fact that spoke volumes about the turmoil inside her because Susan considered it a serious offense against civilized society to start eating something and not finish it. That was sheer waste, no matter what anyone else said.
Jem turned to the phone again. "I must ring the manse. Jerry will want to go, too."
Jem picked up the phone again. "I need to call the house. Jerry will want to go, too."
At this Nan had cried out "Oh!" as if a knife had been thrust into her, and rushed from the room. Di followed her. Rilla turned to Walter for comfort but Walter was lost to her in some reverie she could not share.
At this, Nan cried out "Oh!" as if a knife had been stabbed into her and rushed out of the room. Di followed her. Rilla turned to Walter for comfort, but Walter was lost in a daydream she couldn't connect with.
"All right," Jem was saying, as coolly as if he were arranging the details of a picnic. "I thought you would—yes, tonight—the seven o'clock—meet me at the station. So long."
"Okay," Jem said, as casually as if he were planning a picnic. "I figured you would—yeah, tonight—the seven o'clock—meet me at the station. Later."
"Mrs. Dr. dear," said Susan. "I wish you would wake me up. Am I dreaming—or am I awake? Does that blessed boy realize what he is saying? Does he mean that he is going to enlist as a soldier? You do not mean to tell me that they want children like him! It is an outrage. Surely you and the doctor will not permit it."
"Mrs. Dr. dear," said Susan. "I wish you would wake me up. Am I dreaming—or am I awake? Does that wonderful boy even know what he's saying? Is he actually planning to enlist as a soldier? You can't be telling me they want kids like him! That's outrageous. Surely you and the doctor won't allow it."
"We can't stop him," said Mrs. Blythe, chokingly. "Oh, Gilbert!"
"We can't stop him," Mrs. Blythe said, her voice trembling. "Oh, Gilbert!"
Dr. Blythe came up behind his wife and took her hand gently, looking down into the sweet grey eyes that he had only once before seen filled with such imploring anguish as now. They both thought of that other time—the day years ago in the House of Dreams when little Joyce had died.
Dr. Blythe came up behind his wife and gently took her hand, looking down into her sweet gray eyes that he had only seen filled with such desperate pain once before. They both remembered that other time—the day years ago in the House of Dreams when little Joyce had died.
"Would you have him stay, Anne—when the others are going—when he thinks it his duty—would you have him so selfish and small-souled?"
"Would you want him to stay, Anne—when the others are leaving—when he believes it’s his responsibility—would you want him to be so selfish and petty?"
"No—no! But—oh—our first-born son—he's only a lad—Gilbert—I'll try to be brave after a while—just now I can't. It's all come so suddenly. Give me time."
"No—no! But—oh—our first-born son—he's just a kid—Gilbert—I'll try to be strong after a bit—right now I can't. Everything has happened so quickly. Give me some time."
The doctor and his wife went out of the room. Jem had gone—Walter had gone—Shirley got up to go. Rilla and Susan remained staring at each other across the deserted table. Rilla had not yet cried—she was too stunned for tears. Then she saw that Susan was crying—Susan, whom she had never seen shed a tear before.
The doctor and his wife left the room. Jem was gone—Walter had left—Shirley stood up to leave. Rilla and Susan stayed, staring at each other across the empty table. Rilla hadn’t cried yet—she was too shocked for tears. Then she noticed that Susan was crying—Susan, who she had never seen cry before.
"Oh, Susan, will he really go?" she asked.
"Oh, Susan, is he really going to leave?" she asked.
"It—it—it is just ridiculous, that is what it is," said Susan.
"It—it—it’s just ridiculous, that’s what it is," said Susan.
She wiped away her tears, gulped resolutely and got up.
She wiped away her tears, took a deep breath, and stood up.
"I am going to wash the dishes. That has to be done, even if everybody has gone crazy. There now, dearie, do not you cry. Jem will go, most likely—but the war will be over long before he gets anywhere near it. Let us take a brace and not worry your poor mother."
"I’m going to wash the dishes. That needs to get done, even if everyone else has gone off the deep end. There you go, sweetheart, don’t cry. Jem will probably go, but the war will be over by the time he gets close to it. Let’s hold it together and not stress your poor mother."
"In the Enterprise today it was reported that Lord Kitchener says the war will last three years," said Rilla dubiously.
"In today's Enterprise, it was reported that Lord Kitchener says the war will last three years," Rilla said doubtfully.
"I am not acquainted with Lord Kitchener," said Susan, composedly, "but I dare say he makes mistakes as often as other people. Your father says it will be over in a few months and I have as much faith in his opinion as I have in Lord Anybody's. So just let us be calm and trust in the Almighty and get this place tidied up. I am done with crying which is a waste of time and discourages everybody."
"I don’t know Lord Kitchener," Susan said calmly, "but I’m sure he makes mistakes just like anyone else. Your dad thinks this will be over in a few months, and I trust his opinion as much as I do anyone else's. So let’s stay calm, have faith in the Almighty, and get this place organized. I’m done with crying; it’s a waste of time and brings everyone down."
Jem and Jerry went to Charlottetown that night and two days later they came back in khaki. The Glen hummed with excitement over it. Life at Ingleside had suddenly become a tense, strained, thrilling thing. Mrs. Blythe and Nan were brave and smiling and wonderful. Already Mrs. Blythe and Miss Cornelia were organizing a Red Cross. The doctor and Mr. Meredith were rounding up the men for a Patriotic Society. Rilla, after the first shock, reacted to the romance of it all, in spite of her heartache. Jem certainly looked magnificent in his uniform. It was splendid to think of the lads of Canada answering so speedily and fearlessly and uncalculatingly to the call of their country. Rilla carried her head high among the girls whose brothers had not so responded. In her diary she wrote:
Jem and Jerry went to Charlottetown that night, and two days later they came back in khaki. The Glen buzzed with excitement about it. Life at Ingleside had suddenly turned into a tense, strained, thrilling experience. Mrs. Blythe and Nan were brave, smiling, and amazing. Already, Mrs. Blythe and Miss Cornelia were organizing a Red Cross. The doctor and Mr. Meredith were gathering the men for a Patriotic Society. Rilla, after the initial shock, responded to the romance of it all, despite her heartache. Jem looked absolutely magnificent in his uniform. It was wonderful to think of the young men of Canada answering the call of their country so quickly, fearlessly, and without hesitation. Rilla held her head high among the girls whose brothers had not responded in the same way. In her diary, she wrote:
"He goes to do what I had done
Had Douglas's daughter been his son,"
"He goes to do what I had done
If Douglas's daughter had been his son,"
and was sure she meant it. If she were a boy of course she would go, too! She hadn't the least doubt of that.
and was sure she meant it. If she were a boy, of course she would go, too! She had no doubt about that.
She wondered if it was very dreadful of her to feel glad that Walter hadn't got strong as soon as they had wished after the fever.
She wondered if it was really awful of her to feel relieved that Walter hadn’t gotten strong as soon as they had hoped after the fever.
"I couldn't bear to have Walter go," she wrote. "I love Jem ever so much but Walter means more to me than anyone in the world and I would die if he had to go. He seems so changed these days. He hardly ever talks to me. I suppose he wants to go, too, and feels badly because he can't. He doesn't go about with Jem and Jerry at all. I shall never forget Susan's face when Jem came home in his khaki. It worked and twisted as if she were going to cry, but all she said was, 'You look almost like a man in that, Jem.' Jem laughed. He never minds because Susan thinks him just a child still. Everybody seems busy but me. I wish there was something I could do but there doesn't seem to be anything. Mother and Nan and Di are busy all the time and I just wander about like a lonely ghost. What hurts me terribly, though, is that mother's smiles, and Nan's, just seem put on from the outside. Mother's eyes never laugh now. It makes me feel that I shouldn't laugh either—that it's wicked to feel laughy. And it's so hard for me to keep from laughing, even if Jem is going to be a soldier. But when I laugh I don't enjoy it either, as I used to do. There's something behind it all that keeps hurting me—especially when I wake up in the night. Then I cry because I am afraid that Kitchener of Khartoum is right and the war will last for years and Jem may be—but no, I won't write it. It would make me feel as if it were really going to happen. The other day Nan said, 'Nothing can ever be quite the same for any of us again.' It made me feel rebellious. Why shouldn't things be the same again—when everything is over and Jem and Jerry are back? We'll all be happy and jolly again and these days will seem just like a bad dream.
"I couldn't stand the thought of Walter leaving," she wrote. "I love Jem so much, but Walter means more to me than anyone else in the world, and I would be devastated if he had to go. He seems so different these days. He hardly ever talks to me. I guess he wants to leave too and feels bad because he can't. He doesn't hang out with Jem and Jerry at all. I'll never forget Susan's expression when Jem came home in his khaki uniform. It twisted as if she was about to cry, but all she said was, 'You look almost like a man in that, Jem.' Jem just laughed. He doesn't mind because Susan still thinks he’s just a kid. Everyone seems busy except for me. I wish there was something I could do, but it feels like there's nothing. Mom, Nan, and Di are always busy, and I just wander around like a lonely ghost. What really hurts, though, is that Mom's smiles, and Nan's, just seem forced. Mom's eyes don't sparkle anymore. It makes me feel like I shouldn't laugh either—that it's wrong to feel happy. And it's so hard for me to hold back laughter, even with Jem going off to be a soldier. But when I do laugh, I don't enjoy it like I used to. There's something underneath all of it that keeps hurting me—especially when I wake up in the middle of the night. Then I cry because I'm scared that Kitchener of Khartoum is right and the war will drag on for years and Jem might be—but no, I won’t write it. It would make it feel too real. The other day, Nan said, 'Nothing can ever be quite the same for any of us again.’ That made me feel defiant. Why shouldn't things return to normal after everything is over and Jem and Jerry are back? We’ll all be happy and cheerful again, and these days will seem like just a bad dream."
"The coming of the mail is the most exciting event of every day now. Father just snatches the paper—I never saw father snatch before—and the rest of us crowd round and look at the headlines over his shoulder. Susan vows she does not and will not believe a word the papers say but she always comes to the kitchen door, and listens and then goes back, shaking her head. She is terribly indignant all the time, but she cooks up all the things Jem likes especially, and she did not make a single bit of fuss when she found Monday asleep on the spare-room bed yesterday right on top of Mrs. Rachel Lynde's apple-leaf spread. 'The Almighty only knows where your master will be having to sleep before long, you poor dumb beast,' she said as she put him quite gently out. But she never relents towards Doc. She says the minute he saw Jem in khaki he turned into Mr. Hyde then and there and she thinks that ought to be proof enough of what he really is. Susan is funny, but she is an old dear. Shirley says she is one half angel and the other half good cook. But then Shirley is the only one of us she never scolds.
"The arrival of the mail is the most exciting event of every day now. Dad just grabs the paper—I’ve never seen him grab anything before—and the rest of us gather around and check out the headlines over his shoulder. Susan swears she doesn’t and won’t believe a word the papers say, but she always comes to the kitchen door, listens in, and then goes back, shaking her head. She’s always really upset, but she makes all of Jem's favorite dishes, especially, and she didn’t complain at all when she found Monday sleeping on the spare-room bed yesterday right on top of Mrs. Rachel Lynde's apple-leaf spread. 'Only God knows where your master will be sleeping soon, you poor dumb animal,' she said as she gently put him outside. But she never shows any kindness towards Doc. She says the moment he saw Jem in khaki, he turned into Mr. Hyde right then and there, and she thinks that should be proof enough of what he really is. Susan is hilarious, but she’s a sweetheart. Shirley says she’s half angel and half great cook. But then Shirley is the only one of us she never scolds."
"Faith Meredith is wonderful. I think she and Jem are really engaged now. She goes about with a shining light in her eyes, but her smiles are a little stiff and starched, just like mother's. I wonder if I could be as brave as she is if I had a lover and he was going to the war. It is bad enough when it is your brother. Bruce Meredith cried all night, Mrs. Meredith says, when he heard Jem and Jerry were going. And he wanted to know if the 'K of K.' his father talked about was the King of Kings. He is the dearest kiddy. I just love him—though I don't really care much for children. I don't like babies one bit—though when I say so people look at me as if I had said something perfectly shocking. Well, I don't, and I've got to be honest about it. I don't mind looking at a nice clean baby if somebody else holds it—but I wouldn't touch it for anything and I don't feel a single real spark of interest in it. Gertrude Oliver says she just feels the same. (She is the most honest person I know. She never pretends anything.) She says babies bore her until they are old enough to talk and then she likes them—but still a good ways off. Mother and Nan and Di all adore babies and seem to think I'm unnatural because I don't.
"Faith Meredith is amazing. I think she and Jem are really committed to each other now. She walks around with a bright light in her eyes, but her smiles are a bit stiff and forced, just like Mom's. I wonder if I could be as brave as she is if I had a boyfriend going off to war. It's tough enough when it's your brother. Bruce Meredith cried all night, according to Mrs. Meredith, when he found out Jem and Jerry were going. And he wanted to know if the 'K of K.' his dad mentioned was the King of Kings. He's the sweetest little kid. I just adore him—even though I generally don't care much for kids. I really don't like babies at all—though when I say that, people look at me as if I've said something absolutely scandalous. Well, I don't, and I have to be honest about it. I don’t mind looking at a nice clean baby if someone else is holding it—but I wouldn’t touch it for anything, and I don't feel a single genuine spark of interest in it. Gertrude Oliver says she feels exactly the same. (She’s the most honest person I know. She never pretends.) She says babies bore her until they can talk, and then she likes them—but that’s still a ways off. Mom, Nan, and Di all love babies and seem to think I’m unnatural for not feeling the same."
"I haven't seen Kenneth since the night of the party. He was here one evening after Jem came back but I happened to be away. I don't think he mentioned me at all—at least nobody told me he did and I was determined I wouldn't ask—but I don't care in the least. All that matters absolutely nothing to me now. The only thing that does matter is that Jem has volunteered for active service and will be going to Valcartier in a few more days—my big, splendid brother Jem. Oh, I'm so proud of him!
"I haven't seen Kenneth since the party. He was here one night after Jem came back, but I was away. I don’t think he mentioned me at all—at least nobody told me he did, and I was determined not to ask—but I really don’t care at all. None of that matters to me now. The only thing that matters is that Jem has signed up for active duty and will be heading to Valcartier in a few days—my amazing, wonderful brother Jem. Oh, I'm so proud of him!"
"I suppose Kenneth would enlist too if it weren't for his ankle. I think that is quite providential. He is his mother's only son and how dreadful she would feel if he went. Only sons should never think of going!"
"I guess Kenneth would join up too if it weren't for his ankle. I think that's pretty lucky. He's his mom's only son, and how awful she would feel if he went. Only sons should never even think about going!"
Walter came wandering through the valley as Rilla sat there, with his head bent and his hands clasped behind him. When he saw Rilla he turned abruptly away; then as abruptly he turned and came back to her.
Walter wandered through the valley while Rilla sat there, his head down and his hands clasped behind him. When he saw Rilla, he quickly turned away; then, just as quickly, he turned back and approached her.
"Rilla-my-Rilla, what are you thinking of?"
"Rilla-my-Rilla, what’s bothering you?"
"Everything is so changed, Walter," said Rilla wistfully. "Even you—you're changed. A week ago we were all so happy—and—and—now I just can't find myself at all. I'm lost."
"Everything is so different now, Walter," Rilla said with a hint of sadness. "Even you—you're different. Just a week ago, we were all so happy—and—and—now I can’t seem to figure myself out at all. I feel lost."
Walter sat down on a neighbouring stone and took Rilla's little appealing hand.
Walter sat down on a nearby stone and took Rilla's small, inviting hand.
"I'm afraid our old world has come to an end, Rilla. We've got to face that fact."
"I'm afraid our old world has come to an end, Rilla. We have to accept that."
"It's so terrible to think of Jem," pleaded Rilla. "Sometimes I forget for a little while what it really means and feel excited and proud—and then it comes over me again like a cold wind."
"It's so awful to think about Jem," Rilla pleaded. "Sometimes I forget for a bit what it actually means and feel excited and proud—and then it hits me again like a cold wind."
"I envy Jem!" said Walter moodily.
"I envy Jem!" Walter said moodily.
"Envy Jem! Oh, Walter you—you don't want to go too."
"Jealous of Jem! Oh, Walter, you—you don't really want to go either."
"No," said Walter, gazing straight before him down the emerald vistas of the valley, "no, I don't want to go. That's just the trouble. Rilla, I'm afraid to go. I'm a coward."
"No," said Walter, looking straight ahead at the green landscapes of the valley, "no, I don't want to go. That's the problem. Rilla, I'm scared to go. I'm a coward."
"You're not!" Rilla burst out angrily. "Why, anybody would be afraid to go. You might be—why, you might be killed."
"You're not!" Rilla shouted, fuming. "Honestly, anyone would be scared to go. You could—seriously, you could be killed."
"I wouldn't mind that if it didn't hurt," muttered Walter. "I don't think I'm afraid of death itself—it's of the pain that might come before death—it wouldn't be so bad to die and have it over—but to keep on dying! Rilla, I've always been afraid of pain—you know that. I can't help it—I shudder when I think of the possibility of being mangled or—or blinded. Rilla, I cannot face that thought. To be blind—never to see the beauty of the world again—moonlight on Four Winds—the stars twinkling through the fir-trees—mist on the gulf. I ought to go—I ought to want to go—but I don't—I hate the thought of it—I'm ashamed—ashamed."
"I wouldn't mind that if it didn't hurt," Walter muttered. "I don’t think I’m afraid of death itself—it’s the pain that might come before dying that scares me. It wouldn't be so bad to die and just be done with it—but to keep on suffering! Rilla, I've always been afraid of pain—you know that. I can’t help it—I shudder when I think about the chance of being mangled or—or going blind. Rilla, I can’t face that thought. To be blind—never to see the beauty of the world again—moonlight on Four Winds—the stars sparkling through the fir trees—mist over the gulf. I should want to go—I should be okay with it—but I don’t—I hate the thought of it—I’m ashamed—ashamed."
"But, Walter, you couldn't go anyhow," said Rilla piteously. She was sick with a new terror that Walter would go after all. "You're not strong enough."
"But, Walter, you can't go anyway," Rilla said miserably. She was filled with a fresh fear that Walter might leave after all. "You're not strong enough."
"I am. I've felt as fit as ever I did this last month. I'd pass any examination—I know it. Everybody thinks I'm not strong yet—and I'm skulking behind that belief. I—I should have been a girl," Walter concluded in a burst of passionate bitterness.
"I am. I've felt as fit as I have in a long time this past month. I'd pass any exam—I know it. Everyone believes I'm still weak—and I'm hiding behind that assumption. I—I should have been a girl," Walter ended in a burst of intense frustration.
"Even if you were strong enough, you oughtn't to go," sobbed Rilla. "What would mother do? She's breaking her heart over Jem. It would kill her to see you both go."
"Even if you were strong enough, you shouldn’t go," Rilla cried. "What would Mom do? She's heartbroken over Jem. It would destroy her to see you both leave."
"Oh, I'm not going—don't worry. I tell you I'm afraid to go—afraid. I don't mince the matter to myself. It's a relief to own up even to you, Rilla. I wouldn't confess it to anybody else—Nan and Di would despise me. But I hate the whole thing—the horror, the pain, the ugliness. War isn't a khaki uniform or a drill parade—everything I've read in old histories haunts me. I lie awake at night and see things that have happened—see the blood and filth and misery of it all. And a bayonet charge! If I could face the other things I could never face that. It turns me sick to think of it—sicker even to think of giving it than receiving it—to think of thrusting a bayonet through another man." Walter writhed and shuddered. "I think of these things all the time—and it doesn't seem to me that Jem and Jerry ever think of them. They laugh and talk about 'potting Huns'! But it maddens me to see them in the khaki. And they think I'm grumpy because I'm not fit to go."
"Oh, I’m not going—don’t worry. I’m telling you I’m scared to go—really scared. I’m not sugarcoating it for myself. It feels good to admit it even to you, Rilla. I wouldn’t tell anyone else—Nan and Di would look down on me. But I hate the whole thing—the horror, the pain, the ugliness. War isn’t just a khaki uniform or a drill parade—everything I’ve read in old histories haunts me. I lie awake at night and see things that have happened—see the blood and filth and misery of it all. And a bayonet charge! If I could handle the other things, I could never handle that. It makes me sick to think about it—sicker even to think about giving it than receiving it—to imagine shoving a bayonet through another man." Walter writhed and shuddered. "I think about these things all the time—and it seems to me that Jem and Jerry never think about them. They laugh and talk about 'taking out Huns'! But it drives me crazy to see them in their khaki. And they think I’m grumpy because I’m not fit to go."
Walter laughed bitterly. "It is not a nice thing to feel yourself a coward." But Rilla got her arms about him and cuddled her head on his shoulder. She was so glad he didn't want to go—for just one minute she had been horribly frightened. And it was so nice to have Walter confiding his troubles to her—to her, not Di. She didn't feel so lonely and superfluous any longer.
Walter laughed bitterly. "It's not a nice feeling to think of yourself as a coward." But Rilla wrapped her arms around him and rested her head on his shoulder. She was so relieved that he didn't want to go—just for a moment, she had been terribly scared. And it felt so good to have Walter sharing his problems with her—her, not Di. She no longer felt so lonely and unnecessary.
"Don't you despise me, Rilla-my-Rilla?" asked Walter wistfully. Somehow, it hurt him to think Rilla might despise him—hurt him as much as if it had been Di. He realized suddenly how very fond he was of this adoring kid sister with her appealing eyes and troubled, girlish face.
"Don't you hate me, Rilla-my-Rilla?" Walter asked, sounding sad. It somehow hurt him to think that Rilla might hate him—it hurt as much as if it had been Di. He suddenly realized how much he cared for this adoring little sister with her bright eyes and worried, youthful face.
"No, I don't. Why, Walter, hundreds of people feel just as you do. You know what that verse of Shakespeare in the old Fifth Reader says—'the brave man is not he who feels no fear.'"
"No, I don't. Why, Walter, hundreds of people feel just like you do. You know what that line from Shakespeare in the old Fifth Reader says—'the brave man is not the one who feels no fear.'"
"No—but it is 'he whose noble soul its fear subdues.' I don't do that. We can't gloss it over, Rilla. I'm a coward."
"No—but it is 'he whose noble soul its fear subdues.' I don't do that. We can't pretend otherwise, Rilla. I'm a coward."
"You're not. Think of how you fought Dan Reese long ago."
"You're not. Remember how you fought Dan Reese a long time ago."
"One spurt of courage isn't enough for a lifetime."
"Just one burst of courage won't last you a lifetime."
"Walter, one time I heard father say that the trouble with you was a sensitive nature and a vivid imagination. You feel things before they really come—feel them all alone when there isn't anything to help you bear them—to take away from them. It isn't anything to be ashamed of. When you and Jem got your hands burned when the grass was fired on the sand-hills two years ago Jem made twice the fuss over the pain that you did. As for this horrid old war, there'll be plenty to go without you. It won't last long."
"Walter, I once heard Dad say that your problem is being sensitive and having a vivid imagination. You sense things before they actually happen—going through it all by yourself when there's nothing to ease the pain. There's nothing to be embarrassed about. When you and Jem burned your hands on the grassfire in the sandhills two years ago, Jem complained way more than you did. And as for this awful war, there will be plenty of people to go without you. It won't last forever."
"I wish I could believe it. Well, it's supper-time, Rilla. You'd better run. I don't want anything."
"I wish I could believe it. Well, it's dinnertime, Rilla. You should hurry. I don't want anything."
"Neither do I. I couldn't eat a mouthful. Let me stay here with you, Walter. It's such a comfort to talk things over with someone. The rest all think that I'm too much of a baby to understand."
"Neither do I. I couldn't eat a thing. Just let me stay here with you, Walter. It’s so nice to talk things over with someone. Everyone else thinks I’m too much of a baby to get it."
So they two sat there in the old valley until the evening star shone through a pale-grey, gauzy cloud over the maple grove, and a fragrant dewy darkness filled their little sylvan dell. It was one of the evenings Rilla was to treasure in remembrance all her life—the first one on which Walter had ever talked to her as if she were a woman and not a child. They comforted and strengthened each other. Walter felt, for the time being at least, that it was not such a despicable thing after all to dread the horror of war; and Rilla was glad to be made the confidante of his struggles—to sympathize with and encourage him. She was of importance to somebody.
So they both sat in the old valley until the evening star shone through a pale-grey, gauzy cloud over the maple grove, and a sweet, dewy darkness filled their little forest glade. It was one of those evenings Rilla would cherish for the rest of her life—the first time Walter had ever talked to her as if she were a woman and not a child. They comforted and supported each other. For the moment, Walter felt that it wasn’t so terrible to fear the horrors of war; and Rilla was happy to be the one he confided in—to sympathize and encourage him. She felt important to someone.
When they went back to Ingleside they found callers sitting on the veranda. Mr. and Mrs. Meredith had come over from the manse, and Mr. and Mrs. Norman Douglas had come up from the farm. Cousin Sophia was there also, sitting with Susan in the shadowy background. Mrs. Blythe and Nan and Di were away, but Dr. Blythe was home and so was Dr. Jekyll, sitting in golden majesty on the top step. And of course they were all talking of the war, except Dr. Jekyll who kept his own counsel and looked contempt as only a cat can. When two people foregathered in those days they talked of the war; and old Highland Sandy of the Harbour Head talked of it when he was alone and hurled anathemas at the Kaiser across all the acres of his farm. Walter slipped away, not caring to see or be seen, but Rilla sat down on the steps, where the garden mint was dewy and pungent. It was a very calm evening with a dim, golden afterlight irradiating the glen. She felt happier than at any time in the dreadful week that had passed. She was no longer haunted by the fear that Walter would go.
When they returned to Ingleside, they found visitors sitting on the porch. Mr. and Mrs. Meredith had come over from the manse, and Mr. and Mrs. Norman Douglas had come up from the farm. Cousin Sophia was there too, sitting with Susan in the dim background. Mrs. Blythe, Nan, and Di were away, but Dr. Blythe was home along with Dr. Jekyll, sitting majestically on the top step. Naturally, everyone was talking about the war, except for Dr. Jekyll, who kept to himself and looked on with contempt like only a cat can. Whenever two people gathered in those days, their conversation turned to the war; even old Highland Sandy from the Harbour Head talked about it when he was alone, shouting curses at the Kaiser across his entire farm. Walter slipped away, not wanting to be seen, but Rilla sat down on the steps, where the garden mint was fresh and fragrant. It was a very peaceful evening with a soft, golden light illuminating the glen. She felt happier than she had during the terrible week that had just passed. The fear of Walter leaving her was no longer haunting her.
"I'd go myself if I was twenty years younger," Norman Douglas was shouting. Norman always shouted when he was excited. "I'd show the Kaiser a thing or two! Did I ever say there wasn't a hell? Of course there's a hell—dozens of hells—hundreds of hells—where the Kaiser and all his brood are bound for."
"I'd go myself if I were twenty years younger," Norman Douglas was shouting. Norman always shouted when he was excited. "I'd show the Kaiser a thing or two! Did I ever say there wasn't a hell? Of course there's a hell—dozens of hells—hundreds of hells—where the Kaiser and all his family are headed."
"I knew this war was coming," said Mrs. Norman triumphantly. "I saw it coming right along. I could have told all those stupid Englishmen what was ahead of them. I told you, John Meredith, years ago what the Kaiser was up to but you wouldn't believe it. You said he would never plunge the world in war. Who was right about the Kaiser, John? You—or I? Tell me that."
"I knew this war was coming," Mrs. Norman said triumphantly. "I saw it all along. I could have warned those clueless Englishmen about what was coming. I told you, John Meredith, years ago what the Kaiser was planning, but you didn’t believe me. You said he would never drag the world into war. Who was right about the Kaiser, John? You—or me? Tell me that."
"You were, I admit," said Mr. Meredith.
"You were, I have to admit," said Mr. Meredith.
"It's too late to admit it now," said Mrs. Norman, shaking her head, as if to intimate that if John Meredith had admitted it sooner there might have been no war.
"It's too late to admit it now," Mrs. Norman said, shaking her head, as if to suggest that if John Meredith had acknowledged it earlier, there might not have been any war.
"Thank God, England's navy is ready," said the doctor.
"Thank God, England's navy is prepared," said the doctor.
"Amen to that," nodded Mrs. Norman. "Bat-blind as most of them were somebody had foresight enough to see to that."
"Amen to that," nodded Mrs. Norman. "Even though most of them were clueless, someone had the foresight to make sure of that."
"Maybe England'll manage not to get into trouble over it," said Cousin Sophia plaintively. "I dunno. But I'm much afraid."
"Maybe England will manage to stay out of trouble over it," said Cousin Sophia sadly. "I don't know. But I'm really worried."
"One would suppose that England was in trouble over it already, up to her neck, Sophia Crawford," said Susan. "But your ways of thinking are beyond me and always were. It is my opinion that the British Navy will settle Germany in a jiffy and that we are all getting worked up over nothing."
"One would think England was in serious trouble because of it already, Sophia Crawford," said Susan. "But I just can’t follow your way of thinking, and I never could. I believe the British Navy will take care of Germany in no time, and that we’re all stressing over nothing."
Susan spat out the words as if she wanted to convince herself more than anybody else. She had her little store of homely philosophies to guide her through life, but she had nothing to buckler her against the thunderbolts of the week that had just passed. What had an honest, hard-working, Presbyterian old maid of Glen St. Mary to do with a war thousands of miles away? Susan felt that it was indecent that she should have to be disturbed by it.
Susan spat out the words as if she wanted to convince herself more than anyone else. She had her little collection of common-sense philosophies to help her through life, but she had nothing to shield her from the emotional storms of the past week. What did an honest, hard-working, Presbyterian spinster from Glen St. Mary have to do with a war thousands of miles away? Susan felt it was unfair that she should have to be bothered by it.
"The British army will settle Germany," shouted Norman. "Just wait till it gets into line and the Kaiser will find that real war is a different thing from parading round Berlin with your moustaches cocked up."
"The British army will take charge of Germany," shouted Norman. "Just wait until it gets organized, and the Kaiser will discover that real war is a whole different experience from strutting around Berlin with your mustache all upturned."
"Britain hasn't got an army," said Mrs. Norman emphatically. "You needn't glare at me, Norman. Glaring won't make soldiers out of timothy stalks. A hundred thousand men will just be a mouthful for Germany's millions."
"Britain doesn't have an army," Mrs. Norman said firmly. "You don’t need to glare at me, Norman. Glowering won’t turn timothy stalks into soldiers. A hundred thousand men will just be a drop in the bucket for Germany's millions."
"There'll be some tough chewing in the mouthful, I reckon," persisted Norman valiantly. "Germany'll break her teeth on it. Don't you tell me one Britisher isn't a match for ten foreigners. I could polish off a dozen of 'em myself with both hands tied behind my back!"
"There'll be some tough chewing in this situation, I think," Norman kept insisting bravely. "Germany will struggle with it. Don't tell me a single Brit isn't a match for ten foreigners. I could take down a dozen of them myself with both hands tied behind my back!"
"I am told," said Susan, "that old Mr. Pryor does not believe in this war. I am told that he says England went into it just because she was jealous of Germany and that she did not really care in the least what happened to Belgium."
"I've heard," said Susan, "that old Mr. Pryor doesn't believe in this war. I’ve been told he says England got involved just because she was jealous of Germany and that she didn’t really care at all about what happened to Belgium."
"I believe he's been talking some such rot," said Norman. "I haven't heard him. When I do, Whiskers-on-the-moon won't know what happened to him. That precious relative of mine, Kitty Alec, holds forth to the same effect, I understand. Not before me, though—somehow, folks don't indulge in that kind of conversation in my presence. Lord love you, they've a kind of presentiment, so to speak, that it wouldn't be healthy for their complaint."
"I think he’s been spouting some nonsense," said Norman. "I haven’t heard him. When I do, Whiskers-on-the-moon won’t know what hit him. That dear relative of mine, Kitty Alec, talks the same way, I hear. Just not around me—somehow, people don’t have those kinds of conversations when I’m around. God love you, they have a sense, so to speak, that it wouldn’t be good for their health."
"I am much afraid that this war has been sent as a punishment for our sins," said Cousin Sophia, unclasping her pale hands from her lap and reclasping them solemnly over her stomach. "'The world is very evil—the times are waxing late.'"
"I’m really afraid that this war has come as a punishment for our sins," said Cousin Sophia, uncrossing her pale hands from her lap and clasping them solemnly over her stomach. "'The world is very evil—the times are getting late.'"
"Parson here's got something of the same idea," chuckled Norman. "Haven't you, Parson? That's why you preached t'other night on the text 'Without shedding of blood there is no remission of sins.' I didn't agree with you—wanted to get up in the pew and shout out that there wasn't a word of sense in what you were saying, but Ellen, here, she held me down. I never have any fun sassing parsons since I got married."
"Parson here has a similar idea," Norman chuckled. "Right, Parson? That’s why you preached the other night about the text 'Without shedding of blood there is no remission of sins.' I didn’t agree with you—I wanted to stand up in the pew and yell that what you were saying didn’t make any sense, but Ellen here kept me in check. I haven't had any fun teasing parsons since I got married."
"Without shedding of blood there is no anything," said Mr. Meredith, in the gentle dreamy way which had an unexpected trick of convincing his hearers. "Everything, it seems to me, has to be purchased by self-sacrifice. Our race has marked every step of its painful ascent with blood. And now torrents of it must flow again. No, Mrs. Crawford, I don't think the war has been sent as a punishment for sin. I think it is the price humanity must pay for some blessing—some advance great enough to be worth the price—which we may not live to see but which our children's children will inherit."
"Without the shedding of blood, there’s nothing," Mr. Meredith said in his gentle, dreamy way that surprisingly convinced his listeners. "It seems to me that everything has to be bought with self-sacrifice. Our species has marked every painful step of its rise with blood. And now, torrents of it must flow again. No, Mrs. Crawford, I don't believe the war is a punishment for sin. I think it’s the cost humanity has to pay for some blessing—some advance significant enough to be worth the price—which we may not live to witness, but which our children’s children will inherit."
"If Jerry is killed will you feel so fine about it?" demanded Norman, who had been saying things like that all his life and never could be made to see any reason why he shouldn't. "Now, never mind kicking me in the shins, Ellen. I want to see if Parson meant what he said or if it was just a pulpit frill."
"If Jerry gets killed, will you really be okay with that?" Norman shot back, a sentiment he had expressed all his life without ever understanding why it might be a problem. "Now, stop kicking me in the shins, Ellen. I want to find out if the Parson meant what he said or if he was just putting on a show."
Mr. Meredith's face quivered. He had had a terrible hour alone in his study on the night Jem and Jerry had gone to town. But he answered quietly.
Mr. Meredith's face shook slightly. He had spent a rough hour by himself in his study on the night Jem and Jerry went to town. But he responded calmly.
"Whatever I felt, it could not alter my belief—my assurance that a country whose sons are ready to lay down their lives in her defence will win a new vision because of their sacrifice."
"Whatever I felt, it couldn't change my belief—my confidence that a country whose children are willing to fight and die for her will gain a new perspective because of their sacrifice."
"You do mean it, Parson. I can always tell when people mean what they say. It's a gift that was born in me. Makes me a terror to most parsons, that! But I've never caught you yet saying anything you didn't mean. I'm always hoping I will—that's what reconciles me to going to church. It'd be such a comfort to me—such a weapon to batter Ellen here with when she tries to civilize me. Well, I'm off over the road to see Ab. Crawford a minute. The gods be good to you all."
"You really mean it, Parson. I can always tell when people are being sincere. It’s a gift I was born with. It makes me quite intimidating to most parsons! But I’ve never caught you saying anything you didn't truly mean. I keep hoping I will—that's what makes it easier for me to go to church. It’d be such a relief for me—such a comeback to use against Ellen when she tries to refine me. Well, I’m heading over to see Ab. Crawford for a minute. May the gods be good to you all."
"The old pagan!" muttered Susan, as Norman strode away. She did not care if Ellen Douglas did hear her. Susan could never understand why fire did not descend from heaven upon Norman Douglas when he insulted ministers the way he did. But the astonishing thing was Mr. Meredith seemed really to like his brother-in-law.
"The old pagan!" Susan muttered as Norman walked away. She didn’t care if Ellen Douglas heard her. Susan could never understand why fire didn’t rain down from heaven on Norman Douglas when he insulted ministers like that. But the surprising thing was that Mr. Meredith actually seemed to like his brother-in-law.
Rilla wished they would talk of something besides war. She had heard nothing else for a week and she was really a little tired of it. Now that she was relieved from her haunting fear that Walter would want to go it made her quite impatient. But she supposed—with a sigh—that there would be three or four months of it yet.
Rilla wished they would talk about something other than war. She had heard nothing else for a week, and she was really getting a bit tired of it. Now that she was free from her nagging fear that Walter would want to go, it made her quite impatient. But she thought—with a sigh—that there would be three or four more months of this.
CHAPTER VI
SUSAN, RILLA, AND DOG MONDAY MAKE A RESOLUTION
The big living-room at Ingleside was snowed over with drifts of white cotton. Word had come from Red Cross headquarters that sheets and bandages would be required. Nan and Di and Rilla were hard at work. Mrs. Blythe and Susan were upstairs in the boys' room, engaged in a more personal task. With dry, anguished eyes they were packing up Jem's belongings. He must leave for Valcartier the next morning. They had been expecting the word but it was none the less dreadful when it came.
The large living room at Ingleside was covered with piles of white cotton. The Red Cross had informed them that sheets and bandages were needed. Nan, Di, and Rilla were working hard. Mrs. Blythe and Susan were upstairs in the boys' room, focused on a more personal task. With dry, pained eyes, they were packing up Jem's things. He had to leave for Valcartier the next morning. They had been anticipating the news, but it was still just as awful when it arrived.
Rilla was basting the hem of a sheet for the first time in her life. When the word had come that Jem must go she had her cry out among the pines in Rainbow Valley and then she had gone to her mother.
Rilla was hemming a sheet for the first time in her life. When she heard that Jem had to leave, she cried it out among the pines in Rainbow Valley and then went to find her mother.
"Mother, I want to do something. I'm only a girl—I can't do anything to win the war—but I must do something to help at home."
"Mom, I want to do something. I’m just a girl—I can’t do anything to win the war—but I need to do something to help at home."
"The cotton has come up for the sheets," said Mrs. Blythe. "You can help Nan and Di make them up. And Rilla, don't you think you could organize a Junior Red Cross among the young girls? I think they would like it better and do better work by themselves than if mixed up with the older people."
"The cotton is ready for the sheets," said Mrs. Blythe. "You can help Nan and Di put them together. And Rilla, do you think you could set up a Junior Red Cross for the young girls? I believe they'd enjoy it more and do a better job on their own rather than being mixed in with the older folks."
"But, mother—I've never done anything like that."
"But, Mom—I've never done anything like that."
"We will all have to do a great many things in the months ahead of us that we have never done before, Rilla."
"We're all going to have to do a lot of things in the coming months that we've never done before, Rilla."
"Well"—Rilla took the plunge—"I'll try, mother—if you'll tell me how to begin. I have been thinking it all over and I have decided that I must be as brave and heroic and unselfish as I can possibly be."
"Okay"—Rilla took a deep breath—"I'll give it a shot, Mom—if you can tell me where to start. I've been thinking about it a lot, and I've made up my mind that I need to be as brave, heroic, and selfless as I can be."
Mrs. Blythe did not smile at Rilla's italics. Perhaps she did not feel like smiling or perhaps she detected a real grain of serious purpose behind Rilla's romantic pose. So here was Rilla hemming sheets and organizing a Junior Red Cross in her thoughts as she hemmed; moreover, she was enjoying it—the organizing that is, not the hemming. It was interesting and Rilla discovered a certain aptitude in herself for it that surprised her. Who would be president? Not she. The older girls would not like that. Irene Howard? No, somehow Irene was not quite as popular as she deserved to be. Marjorie Drew? No, Marjorie hadn't enough backbone. She was too prone to agree with the last speaker. Betty Mead—calm, capable, tactful Betty—the very one! And Una Meredith for treasurer; and, if they were very insistent, they might make her, Rilla, secretary. As for the various committees, they must be chosen after the Juniors were organized, but Rilla knew just who should be put on which. They would meet around—and there must be no eats—Rilla knew she would have a pitched battle with Olive Kirk over that—and everything should be strictly business-like and constitutional. Her minute book should be covered in white with a Red Cross on the cover—and wouldn't it be nice to have some kind of uniform which they could all wear at the concerts they would have to get up to raise money—something simple but smart?
Mrs. Blythe didn't smile at Rilla's italics. Maybe she just wasn't in the mood to smile, or maybe she sensed a serious intention behind Rilla's romantic act. So here was Rilla sewing sheets and mentally planning a Junior Red Cross as she worked; in fact, she was enjoying the planning part, not the sewing. It was interesting, and Rilla found she had a surprising knack for it. Who would be president? Definitely not her. The older girls wouldn't go for that. Irene Howard? No, somehow Irene didn’t get the recognition she deserved. Marjorie Drew? No, Marjorie didn’t have enough backbone. She tended to agree too easily with whoever spoke last. Betty Mead—calm, capable, tactful Betty—was the perfect choice! And Una Meredith for treasurer; if they pushed hard enough, maybe they'd make Rilla the secretary. As for the committees, they'd have to be picked after the Juniors were set up, but Rilla already had a clear idea of who should be on which. They would hold meetings—and there should be no snacks—Rilla knew she'd have a tough time with Olive Kirk over that—and everything would be strictly business-like and constitutional. Her minute book would be white with a Red Cross on the cover—and wouldn’t it be great to have some kind of uniform for the concerts they would need to organize to raise money—something simple but stylish?
"You have basted the top hem of that sheet on one side and the bottom hem on the other," said Di.
"You've pinned the top hem of that sheet on one side and the bottom hem on the other," Di said.
Rilla picked out her stitches and reflected that she hated sewing. Running the Junior Reds would be much more interesting.
Rilla pulled out her stitches and thought about how much she disliked sewing. Running the Junior Reds would be a lot more exciting.
Mrs. Blythe was saying upstairs, "Susan, do you remember that first day Jem lifted up his little arms to me and called me 'mo'er'—the very first word he ever tried to say?"
Mrs. Blythe was saying upstairs, "Susan, do you remember that first day Jem lifted up his little arms to me and called me 'mom'—the very first word he ever tried to say?"
"You could not mention anything about that blessed baby that I do not and will not remember till my dying day," said Susan drearily.
"You can't mention anything about that precious baby that I don’t remember and won’t remember until my last day," said Susan wearily.
"Susan, I keep thinking today of once when he cried for me in the night. He was just a few months old. Gilbert didn't want me to go to him—he said the child was well and warm and that it would be fostering bad habits in him. But I went—and took him up—I can feel that tight clinging of his little arms round my neck yet. Susan, if I hadn't gone that night, twenty-one years ago, and taken my baby up when he cried for me I couldn't face tomorrow morning."
"Susan, I can't stop thinking about that night when he cried for me. He was only a few months old. Gilbert didn't want me to go to him—he said the baby was fine and warm and that it would encourage bad habits. But I went—and picked him up—I can still feel his little arms clinging around my neck. Susan, if I hadn't gone that night, twenty-one years ago, and comforted my baby when he cried for me, I wouldn't be able to face tomorrow morning."
"I do not know how we are going to face it anyhow, Mrs. Dr. dear. But do not tell me that it will be the final farewell. He will be back on leave before he goes overseas, will he not?"
"I don't know how we're going to handle this anyway, Mrs. Dr. dear. But please don't say this is the final goodbye. He'll be back for leave before he goes overseas, right?"
"We hope so but we are not very sure. I am making up my mind that he will not, so that there will be no disappointment to bear. Susan, I am determined that I will send my boy off tomorrow with a smile. He shall not carry away with him the remembrance of a weak mother who had not the courage to send when he had the courage to go. I hope none of us will cry."
"We hope so, but we're not really sure. I'm trying to convince myself that he won't, so there won't be any disappointment to deal with. Susan, I've made up my mind that I'm going to send my boy off tomorrow with a smile. He won't take with him the memory of a weak mother who lacked the courage to send him off when he had the courage to go. I hope none of us will cry."
"I am not going to cry, Mrs. Dr. dear, and that you may tie to, but whether I shall manage to smile or not will be as Providence ordains and as the pit of my stomach feels. Have you room there for this fruit-cake? And the shortbread? And the mince-pie? That blessed boy shall not starve, whether they have anything to eat in that Quebec place or not. Everything seems to be changing all at once, does it not? Even the old cat at the manse has passed away. He breathed his last at a quarter to ten last night and Bruce is quite heart-broken, they tell me."
"I’m not going to cry, Mrs. Dr. dear, and you can count on that, but whether I’ll be able to smile or not will depend on fate and how my stomach feels. Do you have space for this fruitcake? And the shortbread? And the mince pie? That dear boy won’t go hungry, whether there’s food in that Quebec place or not. Everything seems to be changing all at once, doesn’t it? Even the old cat at the manse has passed away. He took his last breath at a quarter to ten last night, and Bruce is really heartbroken, they tell me."
"It's time that pussy went where good cats go. He must be at least fifteen years old. He has seemed so lonely since Aunt Martha died."
"It's time that kitty went where good cats go. He has to be at least fifteen years old. He has seemed so lonely since Aunt Martha passed away."
"I should not have lamented, Mrs. Dr. dear, if that Hyde-beast had died also. He has been Mr. Hyde most of the time since Jem came home in khaki, and that has a meaning I will maintain. I do not know what Monday will do when Jem is gone. The creature just goes about with a human look in his eyes that takes all the good out of me when I see it. Ellen West used to be always railing at the Kaiser and we thought her crazy, but now I see that there was a method in her madness. This tray is packed, Mrs. Dr. dear, and I will go down and put in my best licks preparing supper. I wish I knew when I would cook another supper for Jem but such things are hidden from our eyes."
"I shouldn't have complained, Mrs. Doctor, dear, if that Hyde monster had also died. He's been Mr. Hyde most of the time since Jem came home in khaki, and that means something I'm sticking to. I don't know what Monday will be like when Jem is gone. That creature just wanders around with a human look in his eyes that drains all the goodness out of me when I see it. Ellen West used to always rant about the Kaiser, and we thought she was crazy, but now I see there was some sense in her madness. This tray is packed, Mrs. Doctor, dear, and I’m going to head down and do my best to make dinner. I wish I knew when I’d get to cook another meal for Jem, but those things are hidden from us."
Jem Blythe and Jerry Meredith left next morning. It was a dull day, threatening rain, and the clouds lay in heavy grey rolls over the sky; but almost everybody in the Glen and Four Winds and Harbour Head and Upper Glen and over-harbour—except Whiskers-on-the-moon—was there to see them off. The Blythe family and the Meredith family were all smiling. Even Susan, as Providence did ordain, wore a smile, though the effect was somewhat more painful than tears would have been. Faith and Nan were very pale and very gallant. Rilla thought she would get on very well if something in her throat didn't choke her, and if her lips didn't take such spells of trembling. Dog Monday was there, too. Jem had tried to say good-bye to him at Ingleside but Monday implored so eloquently that Jem relented and let him go to the station. He kept close to Jem's legs and watched every movement of his beloved master.
Jem Blythe and Jerry Meredith left the next morning. It was a gloomy day, with rain in the forecast, and the clouds hung heavily in gray rolls across the sky; but almost everyone in the Glen, Four Winds, Harbour Head, Upper Glen, and over-harbour—except Whiskers-on-the-moon—was there to see them off. The Blythe family and the Meredith family were all smiling. Even Susan, as fate would have it, had a smile on her face, though it looked more painful than tears would have. Faith and Nan were very pale but very brave. Rilla thought she would be fine if something in her throat didn’t choke her, and if her lips didn’t tremble so much. Dog Monday was there, too. Jem had tried to say goodbye to him at Ingleside, but Monday pleaded so earnestly that Jem gave in and let him come to the station. He stayed close to Jem's legs and watched every move of his beloved master.
"I can't bear that dog's eyes," said Mrs. Meredith.
"I can't stand that dog's eyes," said Mrs. Meredith.
"The beast has more sense than most humans," said Mary Vance. "Well, did we any of us ever think we'd live to see this day? I bawled all night to think of Jem and Jerry going like this. I think they're plumb deranged. Miller got a maggot in his head about going but I soon talked him out of it—likewise his aunt said a few touching things. For once in our lives Kitty Alec and I agree. It's a miracle that isn't likely to happen again. There's Ken, Rilla."
"The beast is smarter than most people," Mary Vance said. "Did any of us ever think we'd actually see this day? I cried all night thinking about Jem and Jerry leaving like this. I think they’re completely out of their minds. Miller got it in his head to go, but I quickly talked him out of it—his aunt said a few heartfelt things too. For once in our lives, Kitty, Alec, and I agree. It’s a miracle that probably won’t happen again. There’s Ken, Rilla."
Rilla knew Kenneth was there. She had been acutely conscious of it from the moment he had sprung from Leo West's buggy. Now he came up to her smiling.
Rilla knew Kenneth was there. She had been very aware of it from the moment he jumped out of Leo West's car. Now he walked over to her, smiling.
"Doing the brave-smiling-sister-stunt, I see. What a crowd for the Glen to muster! Well, I'm off home in a few days myself."
"Looks like you're putting on a brave face, sister. What a turnout for the Glen! Well, I'm heading home in a few days too."
A queer little wind of desolation that even Jem's going had not caused blew over Rilla's spirit.
A strange, lonely feeling that even Jem's departure hadn’t created blew over Rilla's spirit.
"Why? You have another month of vacation."
"Why? You have another month off."
"Yes—but I can't hang around Four Winds and enjoy myself when the world's on fire like this. It's me for little old Toronto where I'll find some way of helping in spite of this bally ankle. I'm not looking at Jem and Jerry—makes me too sick with envy. You girls are great—no crying, no grim endurance. The boys'll go off with a good taste in their mouths. I hope Persis and mother will be as game when my turn comes."
"Yes—but I can't just stick around Four Winds and have fun while the world is falling apart like this. I'm heading to good old Toronto where I'll find a way to help despite this annoying ankle. I can't even look at Jem and Jerry—it just makes me too sick with envy. You girls are amazing—no tears, no grim endurance. The guys will leave with a good impression. I hope Persis and mom will be as brave when it's my turn."
"Oh, Kenneth—the war will be over before your turn cometh."
"Oh, Kenneth—the war will be over before it's your turn."
There! She had lisped again. Another great moment of life spoiled! Well, it was her fate. And anyhow, nothing mattered. Kenneth was off already—he was talking to Ethel Reese, who was dressed, at seven in the morning, in the gown she had worn to the dance, and was crying. What on earth had Ethel to cry about? None of the Reeses were in khaki. Rilla wanted to cry, too—but she would not. What was that horrid old Mrs. Drew saying to mother, in that melancholy whine of hers? "I don't know how you can stand this, Mrs. Blythe. I couldn't if it was my pore boy." And mother—oh, mother could always be depended on! How her grey eyes flashed in her pale face. "It might have been worse, Mrs. Drew. I might have had to urge him to go." Mrs. Drew did not understand but Rilla did. She flung up her head. Her brother did not have to be urged to go.
There! She had lisped again. Another great moment of life ruined! Well, that was her fate. And anyway, nothing mattered. Kenneth was already off—he was talking to Ethel Reese, who was dressed, at seven in the morning, in the gown she had worn to the dance, and was crying. What on earth did Ethel have to cry about? None of the Reeses were in khaki. Rilla wanted to cry, too—but she wouldn’t. What was that awful old Mrs. Drew saying to Mom, in that sad whine of hers? "I don't know how you can stand this, Mrs. Blythe. I couldn't if it were my poor boy." And Mom—oh, Mom could always be counted on! How her grey eyes sparkled in her pale face. "It could have been worse, Mrs. Drew. I might have had to push him to go." Mrs. Drew didn’t get it, but Rilla did. She lifted her head. Her brother didn’t need to be pushed to go.
Rilla found herself standing alone and listening to disconnected scraps of talk as people walked up and down past her.
Rilla stood by herself, listening to bits and pieces of conversation as people walked back and forth around her.
"I told Mark to wait and see if they asked for a second lot of men. If they did I'd let him go—but they won't," said Mrs. Palmer Burr.
"I told Mark to wait and see if they asked for a second group of men. If they do, I’ll let him go—but they won’t," said Mrs. Palmer Burr.
"I think I'll have it made with a crush girdle of velvet," said Bessie Clow.
"I think I'll get it made with a velvet corset," said Bessie Clow.
"I'm frightened to look at my husband's face for fear I'll see in it that he wants to go too," said a little over-harbour bride.
"I'm scared to look at my husband's face because I'm afraid I'll see that he wants to leave too," said a slightly anxious bride.
"I'm scared stiff," said whimsical Mrs. Jim Howard. "I'm scared Jim will enlist—and I'm scared he won't."
"I'm terrified," said quirky Mrs. Jim Howard. "I'm scared Jim will join the military—and I'm scared he won't."
"The war will be over by Christmas," said Joe Vickers.
"The war will be over by Christmas," Joe Vickers said.
"Let them European nations fight it out between them," said Abner Reese.
"Let those European countries sort it out among themselves," said Abner Reese.
"When he was a boy I gave him many a good trouncing," shouted Norman Douglas, who seemed to be referring to some one high in military circles in Charlottetown. "Yes, sir, I walloped him well, big gun as he is now."
"When he was a kid, I gave him plenty of beatings," shouted Norman Douglas, seemingly talking about someone important in the military in Charlottetown. "Yeah, I really took him down, even though he's a big deal now."
"The existence of the British Empire is at stake," said the Methodist minister.
"The future of the British Empire is at risk," said the Methodist minister.
"There's certainly something about uniforms," sighed Irene Howard.
"There's definitely something about uniforms," sighed Irene Howard.
"It's a commercial war when all is said and done and not worth one drop of good Canadian blood," said a stranger from the shore hotel.
"It's just a business war when you get down to it and not worth even a drop of good Canadian blood," said a stranger from the shore hotel.
"The Blythe family are taking it easy," said Kate Drew.
"The Blythe family is taking it easy," said Kate Drew.
"Them young fools are just going for adventure," growled Nathan Crawford.
"Those young fools are just looking for adventure," Nathan Crawford grumbled.
"I have absolute confidence in Kitchener," said the over-harbour doctor.
"I have complete confidence in Kitchener," said the harbor doctor.
In these ten minutes Rilla passed through a dizzying succession of anger, laughter, contempt, depression and inspiration. Oh, people were—funny! How little they understood. "Taking it easy," indeed—when even Susan hadn't slept a wink all night! Kate Drew always was a minx.
In those ten minutes, Rilla experienced a whirlwind of anger, laughter, contempt, depression, and inspiration. People were just so funny! They really had no clue. "Taking it easy," really—when even Susan hadn't slept a wink all night! Kate Drew had always been such a troublemaker.
Rilla felt as if she were in some fantastic nightmare. Were these the people who, three weeks ago, were talking of crops and prices and local gossip?
Rilla felt like she was in some kind of surreal nightmare. Were these the same people who, three weeks ago, were discussing crops, prices, and local gossip?
There—the train was coming—mother was holding Jem's hand—Dog Monday was licking it—everybody was saying good-bye—the train was in! Jem kissed Faith before everybody—old Mrs. Drew whooped hysterically—the men, led by Kenneth, cheered—Rilla felt Jem seize her hand—"Good-bye, Spider"—somebody kissed her cheek—she believed it was Jerry but never was sure—they were off—the train was pulling out—Jem and Jerry were waving to everybody—everybody was waving back—mother and Nan were smiling still, but as if they had just forgotten to take the smile off—Monday was howling dismally and being forcibly restrained by the Methodist minister from tearing after the train—Susan was waving her best bonnet and hurrahing like a man—had she gone crazy?—the train rounded a curve. They had gone.
There—the train was coming—Mom was holding Jem's hand—Dog Monday was licking it—everyone was saying goodbye—the train had arrived! Jem kissed Faith in front of everybody—old Mrs. Drew whooped with laughter—the men, led by Kenneth, cheered—Rilla felt Jem grab her hand—"Goodbye, Spider"—someone kissed her cheek—she thought it was Jerry but could never be sure—they were off—the train was pulling away—Jem and Jerry were waving to everyone—everyone was waving back—Mom and Nan were still smiling, but it looked like they'd just forgotten to stop smiling—Monday was howling sadly and was being held back by the Methodist minister from chasing after the train—Susan was waving her best bonnet and cheering like a man—had she lost her mind?—the train rounded a curve. They were gone.
Rilla came to herself with a gasp. There was a sudden quiet. Nothing to do now but to go home—and wait. The doctor and Mrs. Blythe walked off together—so did Nan and Faith—so did John Meredith and Rosemary. Walter and Una and Shirley and Di and Carl and Rilla went in a group. Susan had put her bonnet back on her head, hindside foremost, and stalked grimly off alone. Nobody missed Dog Monday at first. When they did Shirley went back for him. He found Dog Monday curled up in one of the shipping-sheds near the station and tried to coax him home. Dog Monday would not move. He wagged his tail to show he had no hard feelings but no blandishments availed to budge him.
Rilla came to with a gasp. There was a sudden silence. There was nothing to do now but go home—and wait. The doctor and Mrs. Blythe walked off together—so did Nan and Faith—so did John Meredith and Rosemary. Walter and Una and Shirley and Di and Carl and Rilla went in a group. Susan had put her bonnet back on her head, backwards, and marched off alone with determination. Nobody noticed Dog Monday was missing at first. When they did, Shirley went back for him. She found Dog Monday curled up in one of the shipping sheds near the station and tried to coax him to come home. Dog Monday wouldn’t budge. He wagged his tail to show he had no hard feelings, but no amount of persuasion could get him to move.
"Guess Monday has made up his mind to wait there till Jem comes back," said Shirley, trying to laugh as he rejoined the rest. This was exactly what Dog Monday had done. His dear master had gone—he, Monday, had been deliberately and of malice aforethought prevented from going with him by a demon disguised in the garb of a Methodist minister. Wherefore, he, Monday, would wait there until the smoking, snorting monster, which had carried his hero off, carried him back.
"Guess Monday has decided to wait here until Jem comes back," said Shirley, trying to laugh as he rejoined the others. That’s exactly what Dog Monday had done. His beloved master had left—he, Monday, had been deliberately stopped from going with him by a demon disguised as a Methodist minister. So, he, Monday, would wait here until the smoking, snorting beast that took his hero away brought him back.
Ay, wait there, little faithful dog with the soft, wistful, puzzled eyes. But it will be many a long bitter day before your boyish comrade comes back to you.
Hey, hold on a second, little loyal dog with those soft, longing, confused eyes. But it’s going to be a long, hard wait before your young friend comes back to you.
The doctor was away on a case that night and Susan stalked into Mrs. Blythe's room on her way to bed to see if her adored Mrs. Dr. dear were "comfortable and composed." She paused solemnly at the foot of the bed and solemnly declared,
The doctor was out on a case that night, and Susan walked into Mrs. Blythe's room on her way to bed to check if her beloved Mrs. Dr. dear was "comfortable and composed." She paused seriously at the foot of the bed and earnestly declared,
"Mrs. Dr. dear, I have made up my mind to be a heroine."
"Mrs. Dr., I've decided to be a hero."
"Mrs. Dr. dear" found herself violently inclined to laugh—which was manifestly unfair, since she had not laughed when Rilla had announced a similar heroic determination. To be sure, Rilla was a slim, white-robed thing, with a flower-like face and starry young eyes aglow with feeling; whereas Susan was arrayed in a grey flannel nightgown of strait simplicity, and had a strip of red woollen worsted tied around her grey hair as a charm against neuralgia. But that should not make any vital difference. Was it not the spirit that counted? Yet Mrs. Blythe was hard put to it not to laugh.
"Mrs. Dr. dear" felt a strong urge to laugh—which was clearly unfair, since she hadn’t laughed when Rilla had announced a similar brave decision. Of course, Rilla was a slender, white-robed figure with a delicate face and bright young eyes full of emotion; meanwhile, Susan was dressed in a plain grey flannel nightgown and had a strip of red wool tied around her grey hair as a remedy for neuralgia. But that shouldn’t make a significant difference. Wasn’t it the spirit that mattered? Yet Mrs. Blythe struggled not to laugh.
"I am not," proceeded Susan firmly, "going to lament or whine or question the wisdom of the Almighty any more as I have been doing lately. Whining and shirking and blaming Providence do not get us anywhere. We have just got to grapple with whatever we have to do whether it is weeding the onion patch, or running the Government. I shall grapple. Those blessed boys have gone to war; and we women, Mrs. Dr. dear, must tarry by the stuff and keep a stiff upper lip."
"I am not," Susan said firmly, "going to complain or whine or question the wisdom of the Almighty anymore like I have been doing lately. Complaining and avoiding responsibility and blaming Providence don’t get us anywhere. We just have to deal with whatever we need to do, whether it’s weeding the onion patch or running the government. I will face it head-on. Those blessed boys have gone to war; and we women, Mrs. Dr. dear, must stay strong and keep a stiff upper lip."
CHAPTER VII
A WAR-BABY AND A SOUP TUREEN
"Liege and Namur—and now Brussels!" The doctor shook his head. "I don't like it—I don't like it."
"Liège and Namur—and now Brussels!" The doctor shook his head. "I don't like it—I don't like it."
"Do not you lose heart, Dr. dear; they were just defended by foreigners," said Susan superbly. "Wait you till the Germans come against the British; there will be a very different story to tell and that you may tie to."
"Don't lose heart, dear Dr.; they were just backed by foreigners," said Susan confidently. "Just wait until the Germans face off against the British; it'll be a completely different story, and you can count on that."
The doctor shook his head again, but a little less gravely; perhaps they all shared subconsciously in Susan's belief that "the thin grey line" was unbreakable, even by the victorious rush of Germany's ready millions. At any rate, when the terrible day came—the first of many terrible days—with the news that the British army was driven back they stared at each other in blank dismay.
The doctor shook his head again, but this time with a bit less seriousness; maybe they all secretly shared Susan's belief that "the thin grey line" was unbreakable, even against the overwhelming force of Germany's ready millions. When the awful day finally arrived—the first of many terrible days—with the news that the British army had been pushed back, they all looked at each other in blank shock.
"It—it can't be true," gasped Nan, taking a brief refuge in temporary incredulity.
"It—it can't be true," gasped Nan, momentarily escaping into disbelief.
"I felt that there was to be bad news today," said Susan, "for that cat-creature turned into Mr. Hyde this morning without rhyme or reason for it, and that was no good omen."
"I had a feeling there would be bad news today," said Susan, "because that cat-creature transformed into Mr. Hyde this morning for no good reason, and that was not a good sign."
"'A broken, a beaten, but not a demoralized, army,'" muttered the doctor, from a London dispatch. "Can it be England's army of which such a thing is said?"
"'A broken, a beaten, but not a demoralized army,'" muttered the doctor in a dispatch from London. "Is it possible that this is referring to England's army?"
"It will be a long time now before the war is ended," said Mrs. Blythe despairingly.
"It will be a long time before the war is over," Mrs. Blythe said in despair.
Susan's faith, which had for a moment been temporarily submerged, now reappeared triumphantly.
Susan's faith, which had briefly been pushed down, now emerged triumphantly.
"Remember, Mrs. Dr. dear, that the British army is not the British navy. Never forget that. And the Russians are on their way, too, though Russians are people I do not know much about and consequently will not tie to."
"Remember, Mrs. Dr. dear, that the British army is not the British navy. Never forget that. And the Russians are on their way, too, although I don't know much about them, so I won't get involved."
"The Russians will not be in time to save Paris," said Walter gloomily. "Paris is the heart of France—and the road to it is open. Oh, I wish"—he stopped abruptly and went out.
"The Russians won't make it in time to save Paris," Walter said gloomily. "Paris is the heart of France—and the road to it is clear. Oh, I wish"—he stopped suddenly and walked out.
After a paralysed day the Ingleside folk found it was possible to "carry on" even in the face of ever-darkening bad news. Susan worked fiercely in her kitchen, the doctor went out on his round of visits, Nan and Di returned to their Red Cross activities; Mrs. Blythe went to Charlottetown to attend a Red Cross Convention; Rilla after relieving her feelings by a stormy fit of tears in Rainbow Valley and an outburst in her diary, remembered that she had elected to be brave and heroic. And, she thought, it really was heroic to volunteer to drive about the Glen and Four Winds one day, collecting promised Red Cross supplies with Abner Crawford's old grey horse. One of the Ingleside horses was lame and the doctor needed the other, so there was nothing for it but the Crawford nag, a placid, unhasting, thick-skinned creature with an amiable habit of stopping every few yards to kick a fly off one leg with the foot of the other. Rilla felt that this, coupled with the fact that the Germans were only fifty miles from Paris, was hardly to be endured. But she started off gallantly on an errand fraught with amazing results.
After a quiet day, the folks at Ingleside realized they could still "carry on" even with the increasingly grim news. Susan worked hard in her kitchen, the doctor went out to make his rounds, and Nan and Di got back to their Red Cross work. Mrs. Blythe headed to Charlottetown for a Red Cross convention. Rilla, after expressing her emotions through a tearful episode in Rainbow Valley and a rant in her diary, reminded herself that she had chosen to be brave and heroic. And she thought it really was heroic to volunteer to drive around the Glen and Four Winds one day, collecting promised Red Cross supplies with Abner Crawford's old grey horse. One of the Ingleside horses was lame, and the doctor needed the other, so there was no choice but to use the Crawford nag, a calm, unhurried, thick-skinned animal with a quirky habit of stopping every few yards to kick a fly off one leg with the other foot. Rilla felt that this, coupled with the fact that the Germans were only fifty miles from Paris, was almost unbearable. But she set off bravely on a mission that would lead to unexpected outcomes.
Late in the afternoon she found herself, with a buggy full of parcels, at the entrance to a grassy, deep-rutted lane leading to the harbour shore, wondering whether it was worth while to call down at the Anderson house. The Andersons were desperately poor and it was not likely Mrs. Anderson had anything to give. On the other hand, her husband, who was an Englishman by birth and who had been working in Kingsport when the war broke out, had promptly sailed for England to enlist there, without, it may be said, coming home or sending much hard cash to represent him. So possibly Mrs. Anderson might feel hurt if she were overlooked. Rilla decided to call. There were times afterwards when she wished she hadn't, but in the long run she was very thankful that she did.
Late in the afternoon, she found herself with a cart full of packages at the entrance to a grassy, deeply rutted lane leading to the harbor, wondering if it was worth stopping by the Anderson house. The Andersons were struggling financially, and it was unlikely that Mrs. Anderson had anything to offer. On the other hand, her husband, who was originally from England and had been working in Kingsport when the war started, had quickly sailed back to England to enlist, without returning home or sending much money to support her. So, Mrs. Anderson might feel hurt if she were ignored. Rilla decided to stop by. There were times later when she wished she hadn't, but in the end, she was really glad she did.
The Anderson house was a small and tumbledown affair, crouching in a grove of battered spruces near the shore as if rather ashamed of itself and anxious to hide. Rilla tied her grey nag to the rickety fence and went to the door. It was open; and the sight she saw bereft her temporarily of the power of speech or motion.
The Anderson house was a small, run-down place, huddled among a group of worn-out spruces by the shore, as if it were embarrassed and trying to blend in. Rilla tied her grey horse to the shaky fence and walked to the door. It was open; the sight that greeted her momentarily left her speechless and motionless.
Through the open door of the small bedroom opposite her, Rilla saw Mrs. Anderson lying on the untidy bed; and Mrs. Anderson was dead. There was no doubt of that; neither was there any doubt that the big, frowzy, red-headed, red-faced, over-fat woman sitting near the door-way, smoking a pipe quite comfortably, was very much alive. She rocked idly back and forth amid her surroundings of squalid disorder, and paid no attention whatever to the piercing wails proceeding from a cradle in the middle of the room.
Through the open door of the small bedroom across from her, Rilla saw Mrs. Anderson lying on the messy bed; and Mrs. Anderson was dead. There was no question about that; nor was there any doubt that the large, disheveled, red-haired, red-faced, overweight woman sitting near the doorway, smoking a pipe quite comfortably, was very much alive. She rocked back and forth casually among the clutter and paid no attention at all to the loud cries coming from a cradle in the center of the room.
Rilla knew the woman by sight and reputation. Her name was Mrs. Conover; she lived down at the fishing village; she was a great-aunt of Mrs. Anderson; and she drank as well as smoked.
Rilla recognized the woman by sight and what people said about her. Her name was Mrs. Conover; she lived down in the fishing village; she was a great-aunt of Mrs. Anderson; and she drank as much as she smoked.
Rilla's first impulse was to turn and flee. But that would never do. Perhaps this woman, repulsive as she was, needed help—though she certainly did not look as if she were worrying over the lack of it.
Rilla's first instinct was to turn and run. But that wouldn't work. Maybe this woman, as disgusting as she was, needed help—though she definitely didn't seem like she was concerned about not having any.
"Come in," said Mrs. Conover, removing her pipe and staring at Rilla with her little, rat-like eyes.
"Come in," said Mrs. Conover, taking out her pipe and fixing her gaze on Rilla with her small, rat-like eyes.
"Is—is Mrs. Anderson really dead?" asked Rilla timidly, as she stepped over the sill.
"Is—is Mrs. Anderson really dead?" Rilla asked nervously as she stepped over the threshold.
"Dead as a door nail," responded Mrs. Conover cheerfully. "Kicked the bucket half an hour ago. I've sent Jen Conover to 'phone for the undertaker and get some help up from the shore. You're the doctor's miss, ain't ye? Have a cheer?"
"Dead as a door nail," Mrs. Conover replied cheerfully. "Kicked the bucket half an hour ago. I’ve sent Jen Conover to call the undertaker and get some help from the shore. You’re the doctor’s assistant, right? Care for a drink?"
Rilla did not see any chair which was not cluttered with something. She remained standing.
Rilla couldn't find a single chair that wasn't piled with something. She stayed standing.
"Wasn't it—very sudden?"
"Wasn't that pretty sudden?"
"Well, she's been a-pining ever since that worthless Jim lit out for England—which I say it's a pity as he ever left. It's my belief she was took for death when she heard the news. That young un there was born a fortnight ago and since then she's just gone down and today she up and died, without a soul expecting it."
"Well, she’s been heartbroken ever since that good-for-nothing Jim left for England—which I think is a shame he ever went. I believe she was devastated when she heard the news. That little one there was born two weeks ago, and since then she’s just been getting worse, and today she suddenly died, catching everyone by surprise."
"Is there anything I can do to—to help?" hesitated Rilla.
"Is there anything I can do to help?" Rilla hesitated.
"Bless yez, no—unless ye've a knack with kids. I haven't. That young un there never lets up squalling, day or night. I've just got that I take no notice of it."
"Bless you, no—unless you’re good with kids. I’m not. That little one over there never stops crying, day or night. I’ve just gotten used to ignoring it."
Rilla tiptoed gingerly over to the cradle and more gingerly still pulled down the dirty blanket. She had no intention of touching the baby—she had no "knack with kids" either. She saw an ugly midget with a red, distorted little face, rolled up in a piece of dingy old flannel. She had never seen an uglier baby. Yet a feeling of pity for the desolate, orphaned mite which had "come out of the everywhere" into such a dubious "here", took sudden possession of her.
Rilla tiptoed carefully over to the crib and even more cautiously pulled down the dirty blanket. She had no plans to touch the baby—she wasn't good with kids either. She saw a really ugly tiny baby with a red, twisted little face, bundled up in a piece of worn-out flannel. She had never seen a more unattractive baby. Yet, a wave of pity for the lonely, orphaned little one that had "come out of the everywhere" into such an uncertain "here" suddenly overwhelmed her.
"What is going to become of the baby?" she asked.
"What will happen to the baby?" she asked.
"Lord knows," said Mrs. Conover candidly. "Min worried awful over that before she died. She kept on a-saying 'Oh, what will become of my pore baby' till it really got on my nerves. I ain't a-going to trouble myself with it, I can tell yez. I brung up a boy that my sister left and he skinned out as soon as he got to be some good and won't give me a mite o' help in my old age, ungrateful whelp as he is. I told Min it'd have to be sent to an orphan asylum till we'd see if Jim ever came back to look after it. Would yez believe it, she didn't relish the idee. But that's the long and short of it."
"God knows," Mrs. Conover said honestly. "Min worried a lot about that before she passed away. She kept saying, 'Oh, what will happen to my poor baby' until it really got on my nerves. I'm not going to stress about it, I can tell you. I raised a boy that my sister left me, and he ran off as soon as he could and won't give me a bit of help in my old age, ungrateful little brat that he is. I told Min that it would have to go to an orphanage until we could see if Jim ever came back to take care of it. Can you believe it? She didn't like the idea at all. But that's just the way it is."
"But who will look after it until it can be taken to the asylum?" persisted Rilla. Somehow the baby's fate worried her.
"But who's going to take care of it until we can take it to the asylum?" Rilla insisted. The baby's future somehow troubled her.
"S'pose I'll have to," grunted Mrs. Conover. She put away her pipe and took an unblushing swig from a black bottle she produced from a shelf near her. "It's my opinion the kid won't live long. It's sickly. Min never had no gimp and I guess it hain't either. Likely it won't trouble any one long and good riddance, sez I."
"Suppose I'll have to," Mrs. Conover grunted. She put away her pipe and took a bold swig from a black bottle she pulled from a shelf nearby. "I think the kid won't live long. It's sickly. Min never had any issues like that, and I guess this one won't either. Probably won't bother anyone for long, and good riddance, I say."
Rilla drew the blanket down a little farther.
Rilla pulled the blanket down a bit more.
"Why, the baby isn't dressed!" she exclaimed, in a shocked tone.
"Why, the baby isn't dressed!" she exclaimed, shocked.
"Who was to dress him I'd like to know," demanded Mrs. Conover truculently. "I hadn't time—took me all the time there was looking after Min. 'Sides, as I told yez, I don't know nithing about kids. Old Mrs. Billy Crawford, she was here when it was born and she washed it and rolled it up in that flannel, and Jen she's tended it a bit since. The critter is warm enough. This weather would melt a brass monkey."
"Who was supposed to dress him, I'd like to know," Mrs. Conover asked aggressively. "I didn’t have time—spent all my time taking care of Min. Besides, like I told you, I don’t know anything about kids. Old Mrs. Billy Crawford was here when it was born, and she washed it and wrapped it in that flannel, and Jen has taken care of it a bit since then. The little one is warm enough. This weather would melt a brass monkey."
Rilla was silent, looking down at the crying baby. She had never encountered any of the tragedies of life before and this one smote her to the core of her heart. The thought of the poor mother going down into the valley of the shadow alone, fretting about her baby, with no one near but this abominable old woman, hurt her terribly. If she had only come a little sooner! Yet what could she have done—what could she do now? She didn't know, but she must do something. She hated babies—but she simply could not go away and leave that poor little creature with Mrs. Conover—who was applying herself again to her black bottle and would probably be helplessly drunk before anybody came.
Rilla stood quietly, staring at the crying baby. She had never faced any of life's tragedies before, and this one hit her hard. The idea of the poor mother going into the valley of shadows all alone, worrying about her baby, with only that horrid old woman nearby, pained her deeply. If only she had arrived a little earlier! But what could she have done—what could she do now? She had no idea, but she knew she had to do something. She wasn't fond of babies—but she simply could not walk away and leave that poor little one with Mrs. Conover, who was once again reaching for her black bottle and would likely be completely drunk before anyone showed up.
"I can't stay," thought Rilla. "Mr. Crawford said I must be home by supper-time because he wanted the pony this evening himself. Oh, what can I do?"
"I can't stay," Rilla thought. "Mr. Crawford said I have to be home by dinner because he wants the pony tonight himself. Oh, what can I do?"
She made a sudden, desperate, impulsive resolution.
She made a quick, desperate decision on impulse.
"I'll take the baby home with me," she said. "Can I?"
"I'll take the baby home with me," she said. "Is that okay?"
"Sure, if yez wants to," said Mrs. Conover amiably. "I hain't any objection. Take it and welcome."
"Sure, if you want to," said Mrs. Conover cheerfully. "I have no objection. Take it and feel free."
"I—I can't carry it," said Rilla. "I have to drive the horse and I'd be afraid I'd drop it. Is there a—a basket anywhere that I could put it in?"
"I—I can't carry it," Rilla said. "I have to drive the horse, and I’d be worried I’d drop it. Is there a—a basket around that I could put it in?"
"Not as I knows on. There ain't much here of anything, I kin tell yez. Min was pore and as shiftless as Jim. Ef ye opens that drawer over there yez'll find a few baby clo'es. Best take them along."
"Not that I know of. There isn't much here at all, I can tell you. Min was poor and as lazy as Jim. If you open that drawer over there, you'll find some baby clothes. You should probably take them with you."
Rilla got the clothes—the cheap, sleazy garments the poor mother had made ready as best she could. But this did not solve the pressing problem of the baby's transportation. Rilla looked helplessly round. Oh, for mother—or Susan! Her eyes fell on an enormous blue soup tureen at the back of the dresser.
Rilla got the clothes—the cheap, shabby outfits that her struggling mother had put together as best as she could. But this didn’t solve the urgent issue of how to carry the baby. Rilla glanced around helplessly. Oh, for her mom—or Susan! Her gaze landed on a huge blue soup tureen at the back of the dresser.
"May I have this to—to lay him in?" she asked.
"Can I have this to lay him in?" she asked.
"Well, 'tain't mine but I guess yez kin take it. Don't smash it if yez can help—Jim might make a fuss about it if he comes back alive—which he sure will, seein' he ain't any good. He brung that old tureen out from England with him—said it'd always been in the family. Him and Min never used it—never had enough soup to put in it—but Jim thought the world of it. He was mighty perticuler about some things but didn't worry him none that there weren't much in the way o' eatables to put in the dishes."
"Well, it’s not mine, but I guess you can take it. Try not to break it if you can help it—Jim might make a fuss about it if he comes back alive—which he definitely will, since he’s no good at all. He brought that old tureen over from England—said it had always been in the family. He and Min never used it—never had enough soup to put in it—but Jim really valued it. He was very particular about certain things, but it didn’t bother him at all that there wasn’t much food to put in the dishes."
For the first time in her life Rilla Blythe touched a baby—lifted it—rolled it in a blanket, trembling with nervousness lest she drop it or—or—break it. Then she put it in the soup tureen.
For the first time in her life, Rilla Blythe held a baby—lifted it—wrapped it in a blanket, shaking with anxiety that she might drop it or—or—hurt it. Then she placed it in the soup tureen.
"Is there any fear of it smothering?" she asked anxiously.
"Are you worried it might smother?" she asked nervously.
"Not much odds if it do," said Mrs. Conover.
"Doesn't really matter if it does," said Mrs. Conover.
Horrified Rilla loosened the blanket round the baby's face a little. The mite had stopped crying and was blinking up at her. It had big dark eyes in its ugly little face.
Horrified Rilla loosened the blanket around the baby's face a bit. The little one had stopped crying and was blinking up at her. It had big dark eyes in its unattractive little face.
"Better not let the wind blow on it," admonished Mrs. Conover. "Take its breath if it do."
"Better not let the wind blow on it," warned Mrs. Conover. "It might take its breath away."
Rilla wrapped the tattered little quilt around the soup tureen.
Rilla wrapped the worn little quilt around the soup dish.
"Will you hand this to me after I get into the buggy, please?"
"Can you pass this to me after I get into the buggy, please?"
"Sure I will," said Mrs. Conover, getting up with a grunt.
"Of course I will," said Mrs. Conover, standing up with a grunt.
And so it was that Rilla Blythe, who had driven to the Anderson house a self-confessed hater of babies, drove away from it carrying one in a soup tureen on her lap!
And so it was that Rilla Blythe, who had driven to the Anderson house as a self-proclaimed hater of babies, drove away from it with one in a soup tureen on her lap!
Rilla thought she would never get to Ingleside. In the soup tureen there was an uncanny silence. In one way she was thankful the baby did not cry but she wished it would give an occasional squeak to prove that it was alive. Suppose it were smothered! Rilla dared not unwrap it to see, lest the wind, which was now blowing a hurricane, should "take its breath," whatever dreadful thing that might be. She was a thankful girl when at last she reached harbour at Ingleside.
Rilla thought she would never make it to Ingleside. In the soup tureen, there was an eerie silence. On one hand, she was relieved the baby wasn’t crying, but she wished it would make a little noise now and then to show it was alive. What if it were smothered? Rilla didn’t dare unwrap it to check, fearing that the wind, which was now blowing like a hurricane, would "take its breath," whatever that terrifying thing might be. She felt grateful when she finally arrived at Ingleside.
Rilla carried the soup tureen to the kitchen, and set it on the table under Susan's eyes. Susan looked into the tureen and for once in her life was so completely floored that she had not a word to say.
Rilla brought the soup tureen to the kitchen and put it on the table in front of Susan. Susan glanced into the tureen and, for the first time in her life, was so completely stunned that she couldn't find a single word to say.
"What in the world is this?" asked the doctor, coming in.
"What on earth is this?" asked the doctor, walking in.
Rilla poured out her story. "I just had to bring it, father," she concluded. "I couldn't leave it there."
Rilla shared her story. "I just had to bring it, Dad," she finished. "I couldn't leave it there."
"What are you going to do with it?" asked the doctor coolly.
"What are you going to do with it?" the doctor asked casually.
Rilla hadn't exactly expected this kind of question.
Rilla didn't exactly expect this kind of question.
"We—we can keep it here for awhile—can't we—until something can be arranged?" she stammered confusedly.
"We—we can keep it here for a while—right?—until we can figure something out?" she stammered, confused.
Dr. Blythe walked up and down the kitchen for a moment or two while the baby stared at the white walls of the soup tureen and Susan showed signs of returning animation.
Dr. Blythe paced back and forth in the kitchen for a moment while the baby looked at the white walls of the soup tureen and Susan began to show signs of coming back to life.
Presently the doctor confronted Rilla.
The doctor confronted Rilla now.
"A young baby means a great deal of additional work and trouble in a household, Rilla. Nan and Di are leaving for Redmond next week and neither your mother nor Susan is able to assume so much extra care under present conditions. If you want to keep that baby here you must attend to it yourself."
"A young baby means a lot more work and hassle in a household, Rilla. Nan and Di are leaving for Redmond next week, and neither your mom nor Susan can take on that much extra care right now. If you want to keep that baby here, you’ll have to take care of it yourself."
"Me!" Rilla was dismayed into being ungrammatical. "Why—father—I—I couldn't!"
"Me!" Rilla exclaimed, clearly upset. "Why—Dad—I—I couldn't!"
"Younger girls than you have had to look after babies. My advice and Susan's is at your disposal. If you cannot, then the baby must go back to Meg Conover. Its lease of life will be short if it does for it is evident that it is a delicate child and requires particular care. I doubt if it would survive even if sent to an orphans' home. But I cannot have your mother and Susan over-taxed."
"Younger girls than you have had to take care of babies. My advice and Susan's are available to you. If you can't handle it, then the baby has to go back to Meg Conover. Its life will be short if that happens, as it's clear that it's a fragile child that needs special attention. I doubt it would even make it if sent to an orphanage. But I can't have your mom and Susan overwhelmed."
The doctor walked out of the kitchen, looking very stern and immovable. In his heart he knew quite well that the small inhabitant of the big soup tureen would remain at Ingleside, but he meant to see if Rilla could not be induced to rise to the occasion.
The doctor walked out of the kitchen, looking very serious and unyielding. Deep down, he knew that the small creature in the large soup tureen would stay at Ingleside, but he wanted to see if Rilla could be encouraged to step up.
Rilla sat looking blankly at the baby. It was absurd to think she could take care of it. But—that poor little, frail, dead mother who had worried about it—that dreadful old Meg Conover.
Rilla sat staring blankly at the baby. It seemed ridiculous to think she could take care of it. But—that poor little, fragile, dead mother who had worried about it—that awful old Meg Conover.
"Susan, what must be done for a baby?" she asked dolefully.
"Susan, what needs to be done for a baby?" she asked sadly.
"You must keep it warm and dry and wash it every day, and be sure the water is neither too hot nor too cold, and feed it every two hours. If it has colic, you put hot things on its stomach," said Susan, rather feebly and flatly for her.
"You have to keep it warm and dry and wash it every day, making sure the water isn’t too hot or too cold, and feed it every two hours. If it has colic, you put something warm on its stomach," said Susan, sounding rather weak and flat for her.
The baby began to cry again.
The baby started crying again.
"It must be hungry—it has to be fed anyhow," said Rilla desperately. "Tell me what to get for it, Susan, and I'll get it."
"It must be hungry—it needs to be fed anyway," Rilla said urgently. "Tell me what to get for it, Susan, and I'll get it."
Under Susan's directions a ration of milk and water was prepared, and a bottle obtained from the doctor's office. Then Rilla lifted the baby out of the soup tureen and fed it. She brought down the old basket of her own infancy from the attic and laid the now sleeping baby in it. She put the soup tureen away in the pantry. Then she sat down to think things over.
Under Susan's guidance, a mix of milk and water was ready, and they got a bottle from the doctor's office. Then Rilla took the baby out of the soup tureen and fed it. She retrieved the old basket from her own childhood in the attic and placed the now sleeping baby in it. She put the soup tureen away in the pantry. Then she sat down to think things through.
The result of her thinking things over was that she went to Susan when the baby woke.
The result of her reflecting on things was that she went to Susan when the baby woke up.
"I'm going to see what I can do, Susan. I can't let that poor little thing go back to Mrs. Conover. Tell me how to wash and dress it."
"I'm going to see what I can do, Susan. I can't let that poor little thing go back to Mrs. Conover. Tell me how to wash and dress it."
Under Susan's supervision Rilla bathed the baby. Susan dared not help, other than by suggestion, for the doctor was in the living-room and might pop in at any moment. Susan had learned by experience that when Dr. Blythe put his foot down and said a thing must be, that thing was. Rilla set her teeth and went ahead. In the name of goodness, how many wrinkles and kinks did a baby have? Why, there wasn't enough of it to take hold of. Oh, suppose she let it slip into the water—it was so wobbly! If it would only stop howling like that! How could such a tiny morsel make such an enormous noise. Its shrieks could be heard over Ingleside from cellar to attic.
Under Susan's watchful eye, Rilla bathed the baby. Susan didn’t want to help, except to offer suggestions, because the doctor was in the living room and might step in at any moment. Susan had learned from experience that when Dr. Blythe insisted on something, it happened. Rilla clenched her teeth and went ahead. Goodness, how many wrinkles and creases did a baby have? There wasn’t enough of it to grip. Oh, what if she let it slip into the water—it was so slippery! If only it would stop crying like that! How could such a tiny little thing make such a huge noise? Its screams could be heard all over Ingleside, from the basement to the attic.
"Am I really hurting it much, Susan, do you suppose?" she asked piteously.
"Do you think I'm really hurting it a lot, Susan?" she asked sadly.
"No, dearie. Most new babies hate like poison to be washed. You are real knacky for a beginner. Keep your hand under its back, whatever you do, and keep cool."
"No, sweetheart. Most newborns really dislike being bathed. You're actually quite good for a beginner. Make sure to support its back with your hand, no matter what, and stay calm."
Keep cool! Rilla was oozing perspiration at every pore. When the baby was dried and dressed and temporarily quieted with another bottle she was as limp as a rag.
Keep calm! Rilla was sweating from every pore. Once the baby was dried, dressed, and momentarily settled with another bottle, she felt as limp as a rag.
"What must I do with it tonight, Susan?"
"What should I do with it tonight, Susan?"
A baby by day was dreadful enough; a baby by night was unthinkable.
A baby during the day was bad enough; a baby at night was unimaginable.
"Set the basket on a chair by your bed and keep it covered. You will have to feed it once or twice in the night, so you would better take the oil heater upstairs. If you cannot manage it call me and I will go, doctor or no doctor."
"Put the basket on a chair next to your bed and keep it covered. You'll need to feed it once or twice during the night, so it would be good to take the oil heater upstairs. If you can't handle it, call me and I'll take care of it, doctor or not."
"But, Susan, if it cries?"
"But, Susan, what if it cries?"
The baby, however, did not cry. It was surprisingly good—perhaps because its poor little stomach was filled with proper food. It slept most of the night but Rilla did not. She was afraid to go to sleep for fear something would happen to the baby. She prepared its three o'clock ration with a grim determination that she would not call Susan. Oh, was she dreaming? Was it really she, Rilla Blythe, who had got into this absurd predicament? She did not care if the Germans were near Paris—she did not care if they were in Paris—if only the baby wouldn't cry or choke or smother or have convulsions. Babies did have convulsions, didn't they? Oh, why had she forgotten to ask Susan what she must do if the baby had convulsions? She reflected rather bitterly that father was very considerate of mother's and Susan's health, but what about hers? Did he think she could continue to exist if she never got any sleep? But she was not going to back down now—not she. She would look after this detestable little animal if it killed her. She would get a book on baby hygiene and be beholden to nobody. She would never go to father for advice—she wouldn't bother mother—and she would only condescend to Susan in dire extremity. They would all see!
The baby, however, didn’t cry. It was surprisingly peaceful—maybe because its poor little stomach was filled with proper food. It slept most of the night, but Rilla didn’t. She was too afraid to fall asleep, worried that something would happen to the baby. She prepared its three o'clock feeding with a grim determination not to call Susan. Oh, was she dreaming? Was it really her, Rilla Blythe, who had gotten into this ridiculous situation? She didn’t care if the Germans were near Paris—she didn’t care if they were in Paris—if only the baby wouldn’t cry or choke or smother or have seizures. Babies did have seizures, right? Oh, why had she forgotten to ask Susan what to do if the baby had seizures? She thought a bit bitterly that her father was very considerate of her mother’s and Susan’s health, but what about hers? Did he think she could go on living if she never got any sleep? But she wasn’t going to back down now—not her. She would take care of this annoying little creature even if it killed her. She would get a book on baby care and owe no one anything. She wouldn’t go to her father for advice—she wouldn’t bother her mother—and she would only reach out to Susan in absolute desperation. They would all see!
Thus it came about that Mrs. Blythe, when she returned home two nights later and asked Susan where Rilla was, was electrified by Susan's composed reply.
Thus it happened that Mrs. Blythe, when she came home two nights later and asked Susan where Rilla was, was shocked by Susan's calm response.
"She's upstairs, Mrs. Dr. dear, putting her baby to bed."
"She's upstairs, Mrs. Doctor dear, putting her baby to sleep."
CHAPTER VIII
RILLA DECIDES
Families and individuals alike soon become used to new conditions and accept them unquestioningly. By the time a week had elapsed it seemed as it the Anderson baby had always been at Ingleside. After the first three distracted nights Rilla began to sleep again, waking automatically to attend to her charge on schedule time. She bathed and fed and dressed it as skilfully as if she had been doing it all her life. She liked neither her job nor the baby any the better; she still handled it as gingerly as if it were some kind of a small lizard, and a breakable lizard at that; but she did her work thoroughly and there was not a cleaner, better-cared-for infant in Glen St. Mary. She even took to weighing the creature every day and jotting the result down in her diary; but sometimes she asked herself pathetically why unkind destiny had ever led her down the Anderson lane on that fatal day. Shirley, Nan, and Di did not tease her as much as she had expected. They all seemed rather stunned by the mere fact of Rilla adopting a war-baby; perhaps, too, the doctor had issued instructions. Walter, of course, never had teased her over anything; one day he told her she was a brick.
Families and individuals quickly adjust to new situations and accept them without question. By the end of the week, it felt like the Anderson baby had always been at Ingleside. After the first three restless nights, Rilla started sleeping again, waking up automatically to take care of her responsibilities on schedule. She bathed, fed, and dressed the baby as if she had done it her whole life. She still didn’t like her job or the baby any more than before; she handled it as delicately as if it were a small, fragile lizard, but she did her job thoroughly, and there wasn’t a cleaner, better-cared-for infant in Glen St. Mary. She even began weighing the baby every day and noting the results in her diary; but sometimes she sadly wondered why unkind fate had brought her down the Anderson lane on that fateful day. Shirley, Nan, and Di didn’t tease her as much as she had expected. They all seemed a bit shocked by the simple fact of Rilla adopting a war baby; perhaps the doctor had given them instructions, too. Walter, of course, had never teased her about anything; one day he told her she was a brick.
"It took more courage for you to tackle that five pounds of new infant, Rilla-my-Rilla, than it would be for Jem to face a mile of Germans. I wish I had half your pluck," he said ruefully.
"It took way more courage for you to handle that five pounds of new baby, Rilla-my-Rilla, than it would take for Jem to deal with a mile of Germans. I wish I had half your guts," he said with a hint of regret.
Rilla was very proud of Walter's approval; nevertheless, she wrote gloomily in her diary that night:—
Rilla was really proud of Walter's approval; however, she wrote sadly in her diary that night:—
"I wish I could like the baby a little bit. It would make things easier. But I don't. I've heard people say that when you took care of a baby you got fond of it—but you don't—I don't, anyway. And it's a nuisance—it interferes with everything. It just ties me down—and now of all times when I'm trying to get the Junior Reds started. And I couldn't go to Alice Clow's party last night and I was just dying to. Of course father isn't really unreasonable and I can always get an hour or two off in the evening when it's necessary; but I knew he wouldn't stand for my being out half the night and leaving Susan or mother to see to the baby. I suppose it was just as well, because the thing did take colic—or something—about one o'clock. It didn't kick or stiffen out, so I knew that, according to Morgan, it wasn't crying for temper; and it wasn't hungry and no pins were sticking in it. It screamed till it was black in the face; I got up and heated water and put the hot-water bottle on its stomach, and it howled worse than ever and drew up its poor wee thin legs. I was afraid I had burnt it but I don't believe I did. Then I walked the floor with it although 'Morgan on Infants' says that should never be done. I walked miles, and oh, I was so tired and discouraged and mad—yes, I was. I could have shaken the creature if it had been big enough to shake, but it wasn't. Father was out on a case, and mother had had a headache and Susan is squiffy because when she and Morgan differ I insist upon going by what Morgan says, so I was determined I wouldn't call her unless I had to.
"I wish I could like the baby a little bit. It would make things easier. But I don’t. I’ve heard people say that once you take care of a baby, you get attached—but you don’t—I don’t, anyway. It’s a hassle—it gets in the way of everything. It just holds me down—and now of all times when I'm trying to get the Junior Reds started. I couldn't go to Alice Clow's party last night, and I was really looking forward to it. Of course, Dad isn't really unreasonable, and I can usually get an hour or two off in the evening if I need it; but I knew he wouldn't allow me to be out half the night and leave Susan or Mom to take care of the baby. I guess it was just as well because the baby did get colic—or something—around one o'clock. It didn’t kick or stiffen, so I figured, according to Morgan, it wasn’t crying out of temper; it wasn’t hungry and there were no pins poking it. It screamed until its face turned purple; I got up, heated some water, and put the hot-water bottle on its stomach, but that just made it howl worse and pull its tiny legs up. I was scared I had burnt it, but I don’t think I did. Then I walked around with it even though 'Morgan on Infants' says that should never be done. I walked miles, and oh, I was so tired and frustrated and angry—yes, I was. I could have shaken the little thing if it had been big enough to shake, but it wasn’t. Dad was gone on a case, Mom had a headache, and Susan was upset because when she and Morgan disagreed, I always go with what Morgan says, so I was determined not to call her unless I had to."
"Finally, Miss Oliver came in. She has rooms with Nan now, not me, all because of the baby, and I am broken-hearted about it. I miss our long talks after we went to bed, so much. It was the only time I ever had her to myself. I hated to think the baby's yells had wakened her up, for she has so much to bear now. Mr. Grant is at Valcartier, too, and Miss Oliver feels it dreadfully, though she is splendid about it. She thinks he will never come back and her eyes just break my heart—they are so tragic. She said it wasn't the baby that woke her—she hadn't been able to sleep because the Germans are so near Paris; she took the little wretch and laid it flat on its stomach across her knee and thumped its back gently a few times, and it stopped shrieking and went right off to sleep and slept like a lamb the rest of the night. I didn't—I was too worn out.
"Finally, Miss Oliver came in. She’s sharing a room with Nan now, not me, all because of the baby, and I’m heartbroken about it. I miss our long talks after we went to bed so much. It was the only time I ever had her to myself. I hated to think that the baby’s cries had woken her up, since she has so much to deal with now. Mr. Grant is at Valcartier, too, and Miss Oliver feels it terribly, even though she handles it so well. She thinks he will never come back, and her eyes just break my heart—they look so tragic. She said it wasn’t the baby that woke her—she hadn’t been able to sleep because the Germans are so close to Paris; she took the little one and laid it flat on its stomach across her knee, gently thumping its back a few times, and it stopped screaming and went right off to sleep, sleeping like a lamb the rest of the night. I didn’t—I was too exhausted."
"I'm having a perfectly dreadful time getting the Junior Reds started. I succeeded in getting Betty Mead as president, and I am secretary, but they put Jen Vickers in as treasurer and I despise her. She is the sort of girl who calls any clever, handsome, or distinguished people she knows slightly by their first names—behind their backs. And she is sly and two-faced. Una doesn't mind, of course. She is willing to do anything that comes to hand and never minds whether she has an office or not. She is just a perfect angel, while I am only angelic in spots and demonic in other spots. I wish Walter would take a fancy to her, but he never seems to think about her in that way, although I heard him say once she was like a tea rose. She is too. And she gets imposed upon, just because she is so sweet and willing; but I don't allow people to impose on Rilla Blythe and 'that you may tie to,' as Susan says.
"I'm having a really awful time getting the Junior Reds started. I managed to get Betty Mead as president, and I'm the secretary, but they put Jen Vickers in as treasurer, and I can't stand her. She's the type of girl who casually calls any clever, attractive, or impressive people she knows by their first names—behind their backs. And she's sneaky and two-faced. Una doesn't care, of course. She's happy to do anything that comes up and doesn't mind whether she has a title or not. She's just a perfect angel, while I’m only angelic sometimes and a bit demonic at other times. I wish Walter would take a liking to her, but he never seems to see her that way, even though I heard him say once that she was like a tea rose. She really is. And people take advantage of her just because she's so sweet and agreeable; but I don’t let anyone take advantage of Rilla Blythe, and 'that you can count on,' as Susan says."
"Just as I expected, Olive was determined we should have lunch served at our meetings. We had a battle royal over it. The majority was against eats and now the minority is sulking. Irene Howard was on the eats side and she has been very cool to me ever since and it makes me feel miserable. I wonder if mother and Mrs. Elliott have problems in the Senior Society too. I suppose they have, but they just go on calmly in spite of everything. I go on—but not calmly—I rage and cry—but I do it all in private and blow off steam in this diary; and when it's over I vow I'll show them. I never sulk. I detest people who sulk. Anyhow, we've got the society started and we're to meet once a week, and we're all going to learn to knit.
"Just as I expected, Olive was set on having lunch at our meetings. We had a huge argument about it. Most people were against food, and now those who wanted it are sulking. Irene Howard was on the food side, and she's been really cold to me ever since, which makes me feel awful. I wonder if my mom and Mrs. Elliott have issues in the Senior Society too. I guess they do, but they just carry on calmly despite everything. I keep going—but not calmly—I rage and cry—but I do it all in private and vent in this diary; and when it's over, I swear I'll show them. I never sulk. I can't stand people who sulk. Anyway, we've got the society going, and we're meeting once a week, and we're all going to learn to knit."
"Shirley and I went down to the station again to try to induce Dog Monday to come home but we failed. All the family have tried and failed. Three days after Jem had gone Walter went down and brought Monday home by main force in the buggy and shut him up for three days. Then Monday went on a hunger strike and howled like a Banshee night and day. We had to let him out or he would have starved to death.
"Shirley and I went back to the station to try to get Dog Monday to come home, but we failed again. The whole family has tried and failed. Three days after Jem left, Walter went down and brought Monday home by force in the buggy and locked him up for three days. Then Monday started a hunger strike and howled like crazy day and night. We had to let him out or he would have starved."
"So we have decided to let him alone and father has arranged with the butcher near the station to feed him with bones and scraps. Besides, one of us goes down nearly every day to take him something. He just lies curled up in the shipping-shed, and every time a train comes in he will rush over to the platform, wagging his tail expectantly, and tear around to every one who comes off the train. And then, when the train goes and he realizes that Jem has not come, he creeps dejectedly back to his shed, with his disappointed eyes, and lies down patiently to wait for the next train. Mr. Gray, the station master, says there are times when he can hardly help crying from sheer sympathy. One day some boys threw stones at Monday and old Johnny Mead, who never was known to take notice of anything before, snatched up a meat axe in the butcher's shop and chased them through the village. Nobody has molested Monday since.
"So we’ve decided to leave him be, and Dad has arranged with the butcher near the station to feed him bones and scraps. Plus, one of us goes down almost every day to bring him something. He just lies curled up in the shipping shed, and every time a train comes in, he rushes over to the platform, wagging his tail with excitement, and runs around to greet everyone who gets off the train. But when the train leaves and he realizes that Jem isn’t coming, he sadly creeps back to his shed, his eyes full of disappointment, and lies down patiently, waiting for the next train. Mr. Gray, the station master, says there are times when he can hardly hold back tears out of sympathy. One day, some boys threw stones at Monday, and old Johnny Mead, who usually never pays attention to anything, grabbed a meat axe from the butcher's shop and chased them through the village. No one has bothered Monday since then."
"Kenneth Ford has gone back to Toronto. He came up two evenings ago to say good-bye. I wasn't home—some clothes had to be made for the baby and Mrs. Meredith offered to help me, so I was over at the manse, and I didn't see Kenneth. Not that it matters; he told Nan to say good-bye to Spider for him and tell me not to forget him wholly in my absorbing maternal duties. If he could leave such a frivolous, insulting message as that for me it shows plainly that our beautiful hour on the sandshore meant nothing to him and I am not going to think about him or it again.
"Kenneth Ford has gone back to Toronto. He came up two nights ago to say goodbye. I wasn't home—some clothes had to be made for the baby and Mrs. Meredith offered to help me, so I was over at the manse, and I didn't see Kenneth. Not that it matters; he told Nan to say goodbye to Spider for him and to remind me not to forget him completely in my busy mom duties. If he could leave such a silly, disrespectful message for me, it clearly shows that our special moment on the sand meant nothing to him, and I'm not going to think about him or that again."
"Fred Arnold was at the manse and walked home with me. He is the new Methodist minister's son and very nice and clever, and would be quite handsome if it were not for his nose. It is a really dreadful nose. When he talks of commonplace things it does not matter so much, but when he talks of poetry and ideals the contrast between his nose and his conversation is too much for me and I want to shriek with laughter. It is really not fair, because everything he said was perfectly charming and if somebody like Kenneth had said it I would have been enraptured. When I listened to him with my eyes cast down I was quite fascinated; but as soon as I looked up and saw his nose the spell was broken. He wants to enlist, too, but can't because he is only seventeen. Mrs. Elliott met us as we were walking through the village and could not have looked more horrified if she caught me walking with the Kaiser himself. Mrs. Elliott detests the Methodists and all their works. Father says it is an obsession with her."
"Fred Arnold was at the manse and walked home with me. He's the new Methodist minister's son, really nice and smart, and he'd be quite good-looking if it weren't for his nose. It’s honestly a pretty awful nose. When he talks about ordinary things, it's not such a big deal, but when he gets into poetry and ideals, the difference between his nose and his words makes me want to burst out laughing. It’s really not fair, because everything he said was completely charming, and if someone like Kenneth had said it, I would have been captivated. When I listened to him with my eyes down, I was totally fascinated; but as soon as I looked up and saw his nose, the magic was gone. He wants to enlist too, but he can't because he’s only seventeen. Mrs. Elliott ran into us while we were walking through the village, and she could not have looked more horrified if she had caught me walking with the Kaiser himself. Mrs. Elliott really hates the Methodists and everything they stand for. Dad says it’s an obsession with her."
About 1st September there was an exodus from Ingleside and the manse. Faith, Nan, Di and Walter left for Redmond; Carl betook himself to his Harbour Head school and Shirley was off to Queen's. Rilla was left alone at Ingleside and would have been very lonely if she had had time to be. She missed Walter keenly; since their talk in Rainbow Valley they had grown very near together and Rilla discussed problems with Walter which she never mentioned to others. But she was so busy with the Junior Reds and her baby that there was rarely a spare minute for loneliness; sometimes, after she went to bed, she cried a little in her pillow over Walter's absence and Jem at Valcartier and Kenneth's unromantic farewell message, but she was generally asleep before the tears got fairly started.
Around September 1st, there was a mass departure from Ingleside and the manse. Faith, Nan, Di, and Walter headed off to Redmond; Carl went to his Harbour Head school, and Shirley was off to Queen’s. Rilla was left alone at Ingleside and would have felt very lonely if she’d had the time to be. She missed Walter deeply; since their conversation in Rainbow Valley, they had grown very close, and Rilla shared problems with Walter that she didn’t talk about with anyone else. However, she was so busy with the Junior Reds and her baby that there was hardly a moment to feel lonely; sometimes, after she went to bed, she cried a little into her pillow over Walter's absence, Jem at Valcartier, and Kenneth's unromantic farewell message, but she usually fell asleep before the tears really got going.
"Shall I make arrangements to have the baby sent to Hopetown?" the doctor asked one day two weeks after the baby's arrival at Ingleside.
"Should I arrange for the baby to be sent to Hopetown?" the doctor asked one day two weeks after the baby arrived at Ingleside.
For a moment Rilla was tempted to say "Yes." The baby could be sent to Hopetown—it would be decently looked after—she could have her free days and untrammelled nights back again. But—but—that poor young mother who hadn't wanted it to go to the asylum! Rilla couldn't get that out of her thoughts. And that very morning she discovered that the baby had gained eight ounces since its coming to Ingleside. Rilla had felt such a thrill of pride over this.
For a moment, Rilla was tempted to say "Yes." The baby could be sent to Hopetown—it would be well taken care of—she could have her free days and carefree nights back again. But—but—that poor young mother who didn’t want it to go to the asylum! Rilla couldn’t shake that thought. And that very morning, she found out that the baby had gained eight ounces since arriving at Ingleside. Rilla felt such a rush of pride over this.
"You—you said it mightn't live if it went to Hopetown," she said.
"You—you said it might not make it if it went to Hopetown," she said.
"It mightn't. Somehow, institutional care, no matter how good it may be, doesn't always succeed with delicate babies. But you know what it means if you want it kept here, Rilla."
"It might not. Somehow, institutional care, no matter how good it is, doesn't always work with fragile babies. But you know what it means if you want it kept here, Rilla."
"I've taken care of it for a fortnight—and it has gained half a pound," cried Rilla. "I think we'd better wait until we hear from its father anyhow. He mightn't want to have it sent to an orphan asylum, when he is fighting the battles of his country."
"I’ve been taking care of it for two weeks—and it has gained half a pound," Rilla exclaimed. "I think we should wait until we hear from its father anyway. He might not want it sent to an orphanage while he’s out fighting for his country."
The doctor and Mrs. Blythe exchanged amused, satisfied smiles behind Rilla's back; and nothing more was said about Hopetown.
The doctor and Mrs. Blythe shared amused, satisfied smiles behind Rilla's back, and nothing more was mentioned about Hopetown.
Then the smile faded from the doctor's face; the Germans were twenty miles from Paris. Horrible tales were beginning to appear in the papers of deeds done in martyred Belgium. Life was very tense at Ingleside for the older people.
Then the smile disappeared from the doctor's face; the Germans were twenty miles from Paris. Terrible stories were starting to show up in the papers about the atrocities committed in martyred Belgium. Life was very tense at Ingleside for the older folks.
"We eat up the war news," Gertrude Oliver told Mrs. Meredith, trying to laugh and failing. "We study the maps and nip the whole Hun army in a few well-directed strategic moves. But Papa Joffre hasn't the benefit of our advice—and so Paris—must—fall."
"We're all over the war news," Gertrude Oliver told Mrs. Meredith, attempting to laugh but not quite succeeding. "We analyze the maps and take down the entire German army with a few smart moves. But Papa Joffre doesn’t have the advantage of our advice—and so Paris—has to—fall."
"Will they reach it—will not some mighty hand yet intervene?" murmured John Meredith.
"Will they make it—will some powerful force step in?" John Meredith murmured.
"I teach school like one in a dream," continued Gertrude; "then I come home and shut myself in my room and walk the floor. I am wearing a path right across Nan's carpet. We are so horribly near this war."
"I teach school as if I'm in a dream," Gertrude continued. "Then I go home, lock myself in my room, and pace back and forth. I'm wearing a path right across Nan's carpet. This war is so frighteningly close."
"Them German men are at Senlis. Nothing nor nobody can save Paris now," wailed Cousin Sophia. Cousin Sophia had taken to reading the newspapers and had learned more about the geography of northern France, if not about the pronunciation of French names, in her seventy-first year than she had ever known in her schooldays.
"The German men are at Senlis. Nothing and no one can save Paris now," cried Cousin Sophia. Cousin Sophia had started reading the newspapers and had learned more about the geography of northern France, even if not about the pronunciation of French names, in her seventy-first year than she had ever known in her school days.
"I have not such a poor opinion of the Almighty, or of Kitchener," said Susan stubbornly. "I see there is a Bernstoff man in the States who says that the war is over and Germany has won—and they tell me Whiskers-on-the-moon says the same thing and is quite pleased about it, but I could tell them both that it is chancy work counting chickens even the day before they are hatched, and bears have been known to live long after their skins were sold."
"I don’t have such a low opinion of the Almighty or Kitchener," Susan said stubbornly. "I see there’s a Bernstoff guy in the States claiming the war is over and Germany has won—and I hear Whiskers-on-the-moon is saying the same thing and is pretty happy about it, but I could tell them both that it's risky business counting chickens even the day before they’re hatched, and bears have been known to live long after their skins were sold."
"Why ain't the British navy doing more?" persisted Cousin Sophia.
"Why isn't the British Navy doing more?" Cousin Sophia insisted.
"Even the British navy cannot sail on dry land, Sophia Crawford. I have not given up hope, and I shall not, Tomascow and Mobbage and all such barbarous names to the contrary notwithstanding. Mrs. Dr. dear, can you tell me if R-h-e-i-m-s is Rimes or Reems or Rames or Rems?"
"Even the British navy can’t sail on dry land, Sophia Crawford. I haven’t lost hope, and I won’t, despite Tomascow, Mobbage, and all those other barbaric names. Mrs. Dr. dear, can you tell me if R-h-e-i-m-s is Rimes, Reems, Rames, or Rems?"
"I believe it's really more like 'Rhangs,' Susan."
"I think it's actually more like 'Rhangs,' Susan."
"Oh, those French names," groaned Susan.
"Oh, those French names," Susan groaned.
"They tell me the Germans has about ruined the church there," sighed Cousin Sophia. "I always thought the Germans was Christians."
"They tell me the Germans have pretty much ruined the church there," sighed Cousin Sophia. "I always thought the Germans were Christians."
"A church is bad enough but their doings in Belgium are far worse," said Susan grimly. "When I heard the doctor reading about them bayonetting the babies, Mrs. Dr. dear, I just thought, 'Oh, what if it were our little Jem!' I was stirring the soup when that thought came to me and I just felt that if I could have lifted that saucepan full of that boiling soup and thrown it at the Kaiser I would not have lived in vain."
"A church is bad enough, but what they're doing in Belgium is even worse," Susan said grimly. "When I heard the doctor reading about them bayonetting the babies, Mrs. Dr., I just thought, 'Oh, what if it were our little Jem!' I was stirring the soup when that thought hit me, and I felt that if I could have lifted that saucepan full of boiling soup and thrown it at the Kaiser, I wouldn't have lived in vain."
"Tomorrow—tomorrow—will bring the news that the Germans are in Paris," said Gertrude Oliver, through her tense lips. She had one of those souls that are always tied to the stake, burning in the suffering of the world around them. Apart from her own personal interest in the war, she was racked by the thought of Paris falling into the ruthless hands of the hordes who had burned Louvain and ruined the wonder of Rheims.
"Tomorrow—tomorrow—will bring news that the Germans are in Paris," said Gertrude Oliver, her lips tight with anxiety. She had one of those souls that are constantly tormented, enduring the pain of the world around them. Besides her own personal stake in the war, she was tormented by the thought of Paris falling into the merciless hands of the invaders who had burned Louvain and destroyed the beauty of Rheims.
But on the morrow and the next morrow came the news of the miracle of the Marne. Rilla rushed madly home from the office waving the Enterprise with its big red headlines. Susan ran out with trembling hands to hoist the flag. The doctor stalked about muttering "Thank God." Mrs. Blythe cried and laughed and cried again.
But the next day and the day after that, news broke about the miracle of the Marne. Rilla hurried home from the office, excitedly waving the Enterprise with its big red headlines. Susan rushed out with shaky hands to raise the flag. The doctor walked around mumbling "Thank God." Mrs. Blythe cried, laughed, and then cried again.
"God just put out His hand and touched them—'thus far—no farther'," said Mr. Meredith that evening.
"God just reached out His hand and said, 'This far—no farther,'" said Mr. Meredith that evening.
Rilla was singing upstairs as she put the baby to bed. Paris was saved—the war was over—Germany had lost—there would soon be an end now—Jem and Jerry would be back. The black clouds had rolled by.
Rilla was singing upstairs while she put the baby to bed. Paris was safe—the war was over—Germany had lost—there would soon be an end now—Jem and Jerry would be back. The dark clouds had passed.
"Don't you dare have colic this joyful night," she told the baby. "If you do I'll clap you back into your soup tureen and ship you off to Hopetown—by freight—on the early train. You have got beautiful eyes—and you're not quite as red and wrinkled as you were—but you haven't a speck of hair—and your hands are like little claws—and I don't like you a bit better than I ever did. But I hope your poor little white mother knows that you're tucked in a soft basket with a bottle of milk as rich as Morgan allows instead of perishing by inches with old Meg Conover. And I hope she doesn't know that I nearly drowned you that first morning when Susan wasn't there and I let you slip right out of my hands into the water. Why will you be so slippery? No, I don't like you and I never will but for all that I'm going to make a decent, upstanding infant of you. You are going to get as fat as a self-respecting child should be, for one thing. I am not going to have people saying 'what a puny little thing that baby of Rilla Blythe's is' as old Mrs. Drew said at the senior Red Cross yesterday. If I can't love you I mean to be proud of you at least."
"Don't you dare have colic tonight, baby," she said. "If you do, I'll put you back in your soup tureen and ship you off to Hopetown—by freight—on the early train. You have beautiful eyes—and you're not as red and wrinkled as before—but you don't have any hair—and your hands are like little claws—and I don’t like you any better than I ever did. But I hope your poor little white mother knows that you’re tucked in a soft basket with a bottle of the richest milk Morgan allows, instead of suffering with old Meg Conover. And I hope she doesn’t know that I nearly drowned you that first morning when Susan wasn't there and I let you slip right out of my hands into the water. Why are you so slippery? No, I don’t like you and I probably never will, but despite that, I’m going to make you a decent, well-behaved infant. You’re going to get as chubby as a baby should be, for one thing. I’m not going to let people say 'what a puny little thing that baby of Rilla Blythe's is' like old Mrs. Drew said at the senior Red Cross yesterday. If I can’t love you, I at least intend to be proud of you."
CHAPTER IX
DOC HAS A MISADVENTURE
"The war will not be over before next spring now," said Dr. Blythe, when it became apparent that the long battle of the Aisne had resulted in a stalemate.
"The war won't be over before next spring," Dr. Blythe said, when it became clear that the prolonged battle of the Aisne had led to a stalemate.
Rilla was murmuring "knit four, purl one" under her breath, and rocking the baby's cradle with one foot. Morgan disapproved of cradles for babies but Susan did not, and it was worth while to make some slight sacrifice of principle to keep Susan in good humour. She laid down her knitting for a moment and said, "Oh, how can we bear it so long?"—then picked up her sock and went on. The Rilla of two months before would have rushed off to Rainbow Valley and cried.
Rilla was quietly saying "knit four, purl one" to herself and gently rocking the baby's cradle with her foot. Morgan didn’t approve of cradles for babies, but Susan did, and it was worth making a small compromise to keep Susan happy. She put down her knitting for a moment and said, "Oh, how can we stand this for so long?"—then picked up her sock and continued. The Rilla from two months ago would have dashed off to Rainbow Valley and cried.
Miss Oliver sighed and Mrs. Blythe clasped her hands for a moment. Then Susan said briskly, "Well, we must just gird up our loins and pitch in. Business as usual is England's motto, they tell me, Mrs. Dr. dear, and I have taken it for mine, not thinking I could easily find a better. I shall make the same kind of pudding today I always make on Saturday. It is a good deal of trouble to make, and that is well, for it will employ my thoughts. I will remember that Kitchener is at the helm and Joffer is doing very well for a Frenchman. I shall get that box of cake off to little Jem and finish that pair of socks today likewise. A sock a day is my allowance. Old Mrs. Albert Mead of Harbour Head manages a pair and a half a day but she has nothing to do but knit. You know, Mrs. Dr. dear, she has been bed-rid for years and she has been worrying terrible because she was no good to anybody and a dreadful expense, and yet could not die and be out of the way. And now they tell me she is quite chirked up and resigned to living because there is something she can do, and she knits for the soldiers from daylight to dark. Even Cousin Sophia has taken to knitting, Mrs. Dr. dear, and it is a good thing, for she cannot think of quite so many doleful speeches to make when her hands are busy with her needles instead of being folded on her stomach. She thinks we will all be Germans this time next year but I tell her it will take more than a year to make a German out of me. Do you know that Rick MacAllister has enlisted, Mrs. Dr. dear? And they say Joe Milgrave would too, only he is afraid that if he does that Whiskers-on-the-moon will not let him have Miranda. Whiskers says that he will believe the stories of German atrocities when he sees them, and that it is a good thing that Rangs Cathedral has been destroyed because it was a Roman Catholic church. Now, I am not a Roman Catholic, Mrs. Dr. dear, being born and bred a good Presbyterian and meaning to live and die one, but I maintain that the Catholics have as good a right to their churches as we have to ours and that the Huns had no kind of business to destroy them. Just think, Mrs. Dr. dear," concluded Susan pathetically, "how we would feel if a German shell knocked down the spire of our church here in the glen, and I'm sure it is every bit as bad to think of Rangs cathedral being hammered to pieces."
Miss Oliver sighed, and Mrs. Blythe clasped her hands for a moment. Then Susan said briskly, "Well, we just need to roll up our sleeves and get to work. 'Business as usual' is England's motto, or so I've heard, Mrs. Dr., and I've adopted it as my own because I can't think of a better one. I'll make the same kind of pudding today that I always make on Saturdays. It takes quite a bit of effort, and that's good because it will keep my mind occupied. I'll remind myself that Kitchener is in charge and Joffer is doing quite well for a Frenchman. I’ll send that box of cake to little Jem and finish that pair of socks today as well. One sock a day is my quota. Old Mrs. Albert Mead from Harbour Head manages to do one and a half a day, but she has nothing but knitting to keep her busy. You know, Mrs. Dr., she’s been bedridden for years and has been worrying terribly because she felt useless and a burden, yet couldn’t die to get out of the way. Now they say she’s perked up and accepted living because she can do something; she knits for the soldiers from dawn till dusk. Even Cousin Sophia has taken up knitting, Mrs. Dr., and that’s a good thing because it keeps her from coming up with too many miserable speeches while her hands are busy instead of resting on her stomach. She thinks we'll all be Germans by this time next year, but I tell her it would take more than a year to make a German out of me. Did you hear that Rick MacAllister has enlisted, Mrs. Dr.? They say Joe Milgrave would too, but he's worried that if he does, Whiskers-on-the-moon won't let him have Miranda. Whiskers insists he'll believe the stories about German atrocities when he sees them, and that it's good Rangs Cathedral was destroyed since it was a Catholic church. Now, I'm not a Catholic, Mrs. Dr., being born and raised a solid Presbyterian and planning to live and die one, but I believe that Catholics have just as much right to their churches as we do to ours, and the Huns had no business destroying them. Just think, Mrs. Dr.," Susan concluded sadly, "how we would feel if a German shell demolished the spire of our church here in the glen, and I’m sure it’s just as awful to think of Rangs Cathedral being smashed to bits."
And, meanwhile, everywhere, the lads of the world rich and poor, low and high, white and brown, were following the Piper's call.
And, in the meantime, everywhere, guys around the world—rich and poor, high and low, white and brown—were answering the Piper's call.
"Even Billy Andrews' boy is going—and Jane's only son—and Diana's little Jack," said Mrs. Blythe. "Priscilla's son has gone from Japan and Stella's from Vancouver—and both the Rev. Jo's boys. Philippa writes that her boys 'went right away, not being afflicted with her indecision.'"
"Even Billy Andrews' son is going—and Jane's only child—and Diana's little Jack," said Mrs. Blythe. "Priscilla's son has left from Japan and Stella's from Vancouver—and both of the Rev. Jo's sons. Philippa writes that her boys 'went straight away, not being held back by her indecision.'"
"Jem says that he thinks they will be leaving very soon now, and that he will not be able to get leave to come so far before they go, as they will have to start at a few hours' notice," said the doctor, passing the letter to his wife.
"Jem thinks they will be leaving any day now and that he won’t be able to get time off to come this far before they go since they’ll have to leave on short notice," said the doctor, handing the letter to his wife.
"That is not fair," said Susan indignantly. "Has Sir Sam Hughes no regard for our feelings? The idea of whisking that blessed boy away to Europe without letting us even have a last glimpse of him! If I were you, doctor dear, I would write to the papers about it."
"That's not fair," Susan said angrily. "Does Sir Sam Hughes have no consideration for our feelings? The thought of taking that dear boy to Europe without letting us even say goodbye! If I were you, dear doctor, I would write to the newspapers about it."
"Perhaps it is as well," said the disappointed mother. "I don't believe I could bear another parting from him—now that I know the war will not be over as soon as we hoped when he left first. Oh, if only—but no, I won't say it! Like Susan and Rilla," concluded Mrs. Blythe, achieving a laugh, "I am determined to be a heroine."
"Maybe it's for the best," said the disappointed mother. "I don’t think I could handle another goodbye from him—now that I know the war won’t be over as soon as we hoped when he first left. Oh, if only—but no, I won’t say it! Like Susan and Rilla," Mrs. Bly
"You're all good stuff," said the doctor, "I'm proud of my women folk. Even Rilla here, my 'lily of the field,' is running a Red Cross Society full blast and saving a little life for Canada. That's a good piece of work. Rilla, daughter of Anne, what are you going to call your war-baby?"
"You're all amazing," said the doctor, "I'm proud of the women in my life. Even Rilla here, my 'lily of the field,' is actively running a Red Cross Society and saving lives for Canada. That’s a great contribution. Rilla, daughter of Anne, what are you going to name your war-baby?"
"I'm waiting to hear from Jim Anderson," said Rilla. "He may want to name his own child."
"I'm waiting to hear from Jim Anderson," Rilla said. "He might want to name his own kid."
But as the autumn weeks went by no word came from Jim Anderson, who had never been heard from since he sailed from Halifax, and to whom the fate of wife and child seemed a matter of indifference. Eventually Rilla decided to call the baby James, and Susan opined that Kitchener should be added thereto. So James Kitchener Anderson became the possessor of a name somewhat more imposing than himself. The Ingleside family promptly shortened it to Jims, but Susan obstinately called him "Little Kitchener" and nothing else.
But as the autumn weeks passed, there was still no news from Jim Anderson, who hadn’t been heard from since he left Halifax, and it seemed like he didn’t care about the fate of his wife and child. Eventually, Rilla decided to name the baby James, and Susan suggested they add Kitchener to it. So, James Kitchener Anderson ended up with a name that was a bit more impressive than he actually was. The Ingleside family quickly shortened it to Jims, but Susan stubbornly insisted on calling him "Little Kitchener" and nothing else.
"Jims is no name for a Christian child, Mrs. Dr. dear," she said disapprovingly. "Cousin Sophia says it is too flippant, and for once I consider she utters sense, though I would not please her by openly agreeing with her. As for the child, he is beginning to look something like a baby, and I must admit that Rilla is wonderful with him, though I would not pamper pride by saying so to her face. Mrs. Dr. dear, I shall never, no never, forget the first sight I had of that infant, lying in that big soup tureen, rolled up in dirty flannel. It is not often that Susan Baker is flabbergasted, but flabbergasted I was then, and that you may tie to. For one awful moment I thought my mind had given way and that I was seeing visions. Then thinks I, 'No, I never heard of anyone having a vision of a soup tureen, so it must be real at least,' and I plucked up confidence. When I heard the doctor tell Rilla that she must take care of the baby I thought he was joking, for I did not believe for a minute she would or could do it. But you see what has happened and it is making a woman of her. When we have to do a thing, Mrs. Dr. dear, we can do it."
"Jims is not a suitable name for a Christian child, Mrs. Dr., dear," she said disapprovingly. "Cousin Sophia says it's too casual, and for once I think she makes a point, though I wouldn’t want to please her by agreeing out loud. As for the baby, he’s starting to look more like an infant, and I have to admit Rilla is doing an amazing job with him, even if I wouldn’t flatter her pride by saying it to her face. Mrs. Dr., dear, I will never, ever forget the first time I saw that little one, lying in that huge soup tureen, wrapped in dirty flannel. It’s not often that Susan Baker is shocked, but I was completely taken aback then, and that’s a promise. For one awful moment, I thought I had lost my mind and was seeing things. But then I thought, 'No, I’ve never heard of anyone having a vision of a soup tureen, so it must be real,' and I gathered my composure. When I heard the doctor tell Rilla she had to take care of the baby, I thought he was joking because I didn’t believe for a second she would or could do it. But look at what’s happened; it’s really helping her grow up. When we need to do something, Mrs. Dr., dear, we can make it happen."
Susan added another proof to this concluding dictum of hers one day in October. The doctor and his wife were away. Rilla was presiding over Jims' afternoon siesta upstairs, purling four and knitting one with ceaseless vim. Susan was seated on the back veranda, shelling beans, and Cousin Sophia was helping her. Peace and tranquility brooded over the Glen; the sky was fleeced over with silvery, shining clouds. Rainbow Valley lay in a soft, autumnal haze of fairy purple. The maple grove was a burning bush of colour and the hedge of sweet-briar around the kitchen yard was a thing of wonder in its subtle tintings. It did not seem that strife could be in the world, and Susan's faithful heart was lulled into a brief forgetfulness, although she had lain awake most of the preceding night thinking of little Jem far out on the Atlantic, where the great fleet was carrying Canada's first army across the ocean. Even Cousin Sophia looked less melancholy than usual and admitted that there was not much fault to be found in the day, although there was no doubt it was a weather-breeder and there would be an awful storm on its heels.
Susan added another proof to her final statement one day in October. The doctor and his wife were away. Rilla was taking care of Jim's afternoon nap upstairs, knitting with endless energy. Susan was sitting on the back porch, shelling beans, with Cousin Sophia helping her. Peace and calm hung over the Glen; the sky was covered with shiny, silvery clouds. Rainbow Valley was wrapped in a soft, autumn haze of fairy purple. The maple grove was bursting with color, and the hedge of sweet-briar around the kitchen yard was a marvel with its subtle shades. It didn't seem possible that there could be any conflict in the world, and Susan's loyal heart was lulled into a brief forgetfulness, even though she had stayed awake most of the previous night worrying about little Jem far out on the Atlantic, where the big fleet was taking Canada's first army across the ocean. Even Cousin Sophia looked less sad than usual and admitted that there wasn't much to complain about with the day, although there was no doubt it was a sign of changing weather and there would be a terrible storm coming soon.
"Things is too calm to last," she said.
"Things are too calm to last," she said.
As if in confirmation of her assertion, a most unearthly din suddenly arose behind them. It was quite impossible to describe the confused medley of bangs and rattles and muffled shrieks and yowls that proceeded from the kitchen, accompanied by occasional crashes. Susan and Cousin Sophia stared at each other in dismay.
As if to confirm her claim, a really otherworldly noise suddenly erupted behind them. It was completely impossible to describe the chaotic mix of bangs, rattles, muffled screams, and yowls coming from the kitchen, paired with occasional crashes. Susan and Cousin Sophia looked at each other in shock.
"What upon airth has bruk loose in there?" gasped Cousin Sophia.
"What on earth has broken loose in there?" gasped Cousin Sophia.
"It must be that Hyde-cat gone clean mad at last," muttered Susan. "I have always expected it."
"It must be that Hyde's gone completely crazy at last," muttered Susan. "I’ve always expected it."
Rilla came flying out of the side door of the living-room.
Rilla rushed out of the side door of the living room.
"What has happened?" she demanded.
"What happened?" she demanded.
"It is beyond me to say, but that possessed beast of yours is evidently at the bottom of it," said Susan. "Do not go near him, at least. I will open the door and peep in. There goes some more of the crockery. I have always said that the devil was in him and that I will tie to."
"It’s hard for me to say, but that wild animal of yours is clearly the source of the trouble," Susan said. "Just don’t go near him. I’ll open the door and take a look inside. There goes more of the dishes. I've always said there's something evil about him, and I stand by that."
"It is my opinion that the cat has hydrophobia," said Cousin Sophia solemnly. "I once heard of a cat that went mad and bit three people—and they all died a most terrible death, and turned black as ink."
"It seems to me that the cat is afraid of water," Cousin Sophia said seriously. "I once heard about a cat that went crazy and bit three people—and they all died in a really horrible way, and their skin turned as black as ink."
Undismayed by this, Susan opened the door and looked in. The floor was littered with fragments of broken dishes, for it seemed that the fatal tragedy had taken place on the long dresser where Susan's array of cooking bowls had been marshalled in shining state. Around the kitchen tore a frantic cat, with his head wedged tightly in an old salmon can. Blindly he careered about with shrieks and profanity commingled, now banging the can madly against anything he encountered, now trying vainly to wrench it off with his paws.
Unfazed by this, Susan opened the door and looked inside. The floor was covered with pieces of broken dishes, as it seemed that the disaster had occurred on the long dresser where Susan's collection of cooking bowls had been neatly displayed. A frantic cat raced around the kitchen, its head stuck firmly in an old salmon can. It blindly dashed about, shrieking and cursing, banging the can wildly against anything in its path, and desperately trying to pull it off with its paws.
The sight was so funny that Rilla doubled up with laughter. Susan looked at her reproachfully.
The scene was so amusing that Rilla burst into laughter. Susan shot her a disapproving glance.
"I see nothing to laugh at. That beast has broken your ma's big blue mixing-bowl that she brought from Green Gables when she was married. That is no small calamity, in my opinion. But the thing to consider now is how to get that can off Hyde's head."
"I don't see anything funny about this. That creature has smashed your mom's big blue mixing bowl that she got from Green Gables when she got married. That's a big deal, in my opinion. But right now, we need to figure out how to get that can off Hyde's head."
"Don't you dast go touching it," exclaimed Cousin Sophia, galvanized into animation. "It might be your death. Shut the kitchen up and send for Albert."
"Don't you dare touch it," Cousin Sophia exclaimed, suddenly animated. "It could kill you. Close the kitchen door and call for Albert."
"I am not in the habit of sending for Albert during family difficulties," said Susan loftily. "That beast is in torment, and whatever my opinion of him may be, I cannot endure to see him suffering pain. You keep away, Rilla, for little Kitchener's sake, and I will see what I can do."
"I don't usually call for Albert when there are family issues," Susan said proudly. "That guy is in agony, and no matter what I think of him, I can't stand to watch him suffer. You stay away, Rilla, for little Kitchener's sake, and I'll see what I can do."
Susan stalked undauntedly into the kitchen, seized an old storm coat of the doctor's and after a wild pursuit and several fruitless dashes and pounces, managed to throw it over the cat and can. Then she proceeded to saw the can loose with a can-opener, while Rilla held the squirming animal, rolled in the coat. Anything like Doc's shrieks while the process was going on was never heard at Ingleside. Susan was in mortal dread that the Albert Crawfords would hear it and conclude she was torturing the creature to death. Doc was a wrathful and indignant cat when he was freed. Evidently he thought the whole thing was a put-up job to bring him low. He gave Susan a baleful glance by way of gratitude and rushed out of the kitchen to take sanctuary in the jungle of the sweet-briar hedge, where he sulked for the rest of the day. Susan swept up her broken dishes grimly.
Susan marched into the kitchen without hesitation, grabbed an old storm coat belonging to the doctor, and after a chaotic chase and several failed attempts, managed to throw it over the cat and the can. Then she began to cut the can free with a can-opener while Rilla held the squirming animal, wrapped in the coat. The sounds of Doc's screams during this process were unlike anything ever heard at Ingleside. Susan was terrified that the Albert Crawfords would hear it and assume she was torturing the creature to death. Doc was furious and outraged when he was finally freed. Clearly, he believed the whole situation was a setup to humiliate him. He shot Susan an annoyed look as a thanks and bolted out of the kitchen to seek refuge in the thicket of the sweet-briar hedge, where he sulked for the rest of the day. Susan grimly cleaned up her broken dishes.
"The Huns themselves couldn't have worked more havoc here," she said bitterly. "But when people will keep a Satanic animal like that, in spite of all warnings, they cannot complain when their wedding bowls get broken. Things have come to a pretty pass when an honest woman cannot leave her kitchen for a few minutes without a fiend of a cat rampaging through it with his head in a salmon can."
"The Huns couldn't have caused more chaos here," she said bitterly. "But when people insist on keeping a devilish animal like that, despite all the warnings, they can't complain when their wedding dishes get broken. Things have gotten pretty bad when an honest woman can't step away from her kitchen for a few minutes without a crazy cat running through it with his head stuck in a salmon can."
CHAPTER X
THE TROUBLES OF RILLA
October passed out and the dreary days of November and December dragged by. The world shook with the thunder of contending armies; Antwerp fell—Turkey declared war—gallant little Serbia gathered herself together and struck a deadly blow at her oppressor; and in quiet, hill-girdled Glen St. Mary, thousands of miles away, hearts beat with hope and fear over the varying dispatches from day to day.
October passed, and the gloomy days of November and December dragged on. The world trembled with the rumble of warring armies; Antwerp fell—Turkey declared war—brave little Serbia gathered its strength and dealt a severe blow to its oppressor; and in the quiet, hill-encircled Glen St. Mary, thousands of miles away, hearts raced with hope and fear over the changing news each day.
"A few months ago," said Miss Oliver, "we thought and talked in terms of Glen St. Mary. Now, we think and talk in terms of military tactics and diplomatic intrigue."
"A few months ago," said Miss Oliver, "we were focused on Glen St. Mary. Now, we focus on military strategies and diplomatic maneuvering."
There was just one great event every day—the coming of the mail. Even Susan admitted that from the time the mail-courier's buggy rumbled over the little bridge between the station and the village until the papers were brought home and read, she could not work properly.
There was just one big event each day—the arrival of the mail. Even Susan admitted that from the moment the mail carrier's buggy rattled over the small bridge between the station and the village until the newspapers were brought home and read, she couldn't focus on her work properly.
"I must take up my knitting then and knit hard till the papers come, Mrs. Dr. dear. Knitting is something you can do, even when your heart is going like a trip-hammer and the pit of your stomach feels all gone and your thoughts are catawampus. Then when I see the headlines, be they good or be they bad, I calm down and am able to go about my business again. It is an unfortunate thing that the mail comes in just when our dinner rush is on, and I think the Government could arrange things better. But the drive on Calais has failed, as I felt perfectly sure it would, and the Kaiser will not eat his Christmas dinner in London this year. Do you know, Mrs. Dr. dear,"—Susan's voice lowered as a token that she was going to impart a very shocking piece of information,—"I have been told on good authority—or else you may be sure I would not be repeating it when it concerns a minster—that the Rev. Mr. Arnold goes to Charlottetown every week and takes a Turkish bath for his rheumatism. The idea of him doing that when we are at war with Turkey? One of his own deacons has always insisted that Mr. Arnold's theology was not sound and I am beginning to believe that there is some reason to fear it. Well, I must bestir myself this afternoon and get little Jem's Christmas cake packed up for him. He will enjoy it, if the blessed boy is not drowned in mud before that time."
"I need to pick up my knitting and knit hard until the papers arrive, Mrs. Dr. dear. Knitting is something you can do even when your heart is racing and your stomach feels all knotted up, and your thoughts are all over the place. Then, when I see the headlines, whether they’re good or bad, I calm down and can get back to my business. It’s unfortunate that the mail arrives just when we’re busy with dinner, and I think the government could manage things better. But the drive on Calais has failed, just as I was sure it would, and the Kaiser won’t be having his Christmas dinner in London this year. Do you know, Mrs. Dr. dear,"—Susan's voice dropped as a sign she was about to share some very shocking news,—"I've been told by a reliable source—or else I wouldn't be repeating it, especially about a minister—that Rev. Mr. Arnold goes to Charlottetown every week for a Turkish bath for his rheumatism. The thought of him doing that while we're at war with Turkey? One of his own deacons has always said Mr. Arnold's theology isn’t sound, and I’m starting to believe there’s some reason to worry about it. Well, I need to get moving this afternoon and pack up little Jem's Christmas cake for him. He will enjoy it, if the poor boy isn’t drowned in mud by then."
Jem was in camp on Salisbury Plain and was writing gay, cheery letters home in spite of the mud. Walter was at Redmond and his letters to Rilla were anything but cheerful. She never opened one without a dread tugging at her heart that it would tell her he had enlisted. His unhappiness made her unhappy. She wanted to put her arm round him and comfort him, as she had done that day in Rainbow Valley. She hated everybody who was responsible for Walter's unhappiness.
Jem was camping on Salisbury Plain and was writing cheerful, upbeat letters home despite the mud. Walter was at Redmond, and his letters to Rilla were anything but happy. She never opened one without a sinking feeling in her heart that it would say he had enlisted. His sadness made her sad. She wanted to wrap her arms around him and comfort him, like she had that day in Rainbow Valley. She hated everyone who was responsible for Walter's sadness.
"He will go yet," she murmured miserably to herself one afternoon, as she sat alone in Rainbow Valley, reading a letter from him, "he will go yet—and if he does I just can't bear it."
"He will go yet," she murmured sadly to herself one afternoon, as she sat alone in Rainbow Valley, reading a letter from him, "he will go yet—and if he does, I just can't handle it."
Walter wrote that some one had sent him an envelope containing a white feather.
Walter wrote that someone had sent him an envelope with a white feather inside.
"I deserved it, Rilla. I felt that I ought to put it on and wear it—proclaiming myself to all Redmond the coward I know I am. The boys of my year are going—going. Every day two or three of them join up. Some days I almost make up my mind to do it—and then I see myself thrusting a bayonet through another man—some woman's husband or sweetheart or son—perhaps the father of little children—I see myself lying alone torn and mangled, burning with thirst on a cold, wet field, surrounded by dead and dying men—and I know I never can. I can't face even the thought of it. How could I face the reality? There are times when I wish I had never been born. Life has always seemed such a beautiful thing to me—and now it is a hideous thing. Rilla-my-Rilla, if it weren't for your letters—your dear, bright, merry, funny, comical, believing letters—I think I'd give up. And Una's! Una is really a little brick, isn't she? There's a wonderful fineness and firmness under all that shy, wistful girlishness of her. She hasn't your knack of writing laugh-provoking epistles, but there's something in her letters—I don't know what—that makes me feel at least while I'm reading them, that I could even go to the front. Not that she ever says a word about my going—or hints that I ought to go—she isn't that kind. It's just the spirit of them—the personality that is in them. Well, I can't go. You have a brother and Una has a friend who is a coward."
"I deserved it, Rilla. I felt like I should wear it—showing everyone at Redmond that I’m the coward I know I am. The guys in my class are leaving—every day two or three of them enlist. Some days I almost convince myself to do it—and then I picture myself shoving a bayonet into another man—some woman’s husband or sweetheart or son—maybe even a father of little kids. I see myself alone, torn up and broken, burning with thirst on a cold, wet battlefield, surrounded by dead and dying men—and I know I can never do it. I can't even handle the thought. How could I deal with the reality? Sometimes I wish I had never been born. Life has always seemed so beautiful to me—and now it feels so grotesque. Rilla-my-Rilla, if it weren't for your letters—your dear, bright, cheerful, funny, optimistic letters—I think I'd just give up. And Una's! Una is really something special, isn't she? There’s an amazing strength and depth beneath all that shy, dreamy girliness of hers. She doesn't have your talent for writing laugh-out-loud letters, but there’s something in her messages—I can’t quite put my finger on it—that makes me feel, at least while I’m reading them, like I could even go to the front. Not that she ever says anything about me going—or hints that I should—she’s just not that type. It’s the spirit of her letters—the personality in them. Well, I can’t go. You have a brother and Una has a friend who is a coward."
"Oh, I wish Walter wouldn't write such things," sighed Rilla. "It hurts me. He isn't a coward—he isn't—he isn't!"
"Oh, I wish Walter wouldn't write stuff like that," Rilla sighed. "It really hurts me. He isn't a coward—he isn't—he isn't!"
She looked wistfully about her—at the little woodland valley and the grey, lonely fallows beyond. How everything reminded her of Walter! The red leaves still clung to the wild sweet-briars that overhung a curve of the brook; their stems were gemmed with the pearls of the gentle rain that had fallen a little while before. Walter had once written a poem describing them. The wind was sighing and rustling among the frosted brown bracken ferns, then lessening sorrowfully away down the brook. Walter had said once that he loved the melancholy of the autumn wind on a November day. The old Tree Lovers still clasped each other in a faithful embrace, and the White Lady, now a great white-branched tree, stood out beautifully fine, against the grey velvet sky. Walter had named them long ago; and last November, when he had walked with her and Miss Oliver in the Valley, he had said, looking at the leafless Lady, with a young silver moon hanging over her, "A white birch is a beautiful Pagan maiden who has never lost the Eden secret of being naked and unashamed." Miss Oliver had said, "Put that into a poem, Walter," and he had done so, and read it to them the next day—just a short thing with goblin imagination in every line of it. Oh, how happy they had been then!
She looked around her with a sense of longing—at the little woodland valley and the grey, lonely fields beyond. Everything reminded her of Walter! The red leaves still clung to the wild sweetbriars that hung over a bend in the brook; their stems were dotted with droplets from the gentle rain that had just fallen. Walter had once written a poem about them. The wind sighed and rustled through the frosted brown bracken ferns, then faded gently away down the brook. Walter had once said he loved the melancholy of the autumn wind on a November day. The old Tree Lovers still held onto each other in a faithful embrace, and the White Lady, now a grand white-branched tree, stood out beautifully against the grey velvet sky. Walter had named them long ago; and last November, when he had walked with her and Miss Oliver in the Valley, he had said, looking at the leafless Lady with a young silver moon hanging over her, "A white birch is a beautiful Pagan maiden who has never lost the Eden secret of being naked and unashamed." Miss Oliver had said, "Put that into a poem, Walter," and he had done just that, reading it to them the next day—just a short piece infused with goblin imagination in every line. Oh, how happy they had been back then!
Well—Rilla scrambled to her feet—time was up. Jims would soon be awake—his lunch had to be prepared—his little slips had to be ironed—there was a committee meeting of the Junior Reds that night—there was her new knitting bag to finish—it would be the handsomest bag in the Junior Society—handsomer even than Irene Howard's—she must get home and get to work. She was busy these days from morning till night. That little monkey of a Jims took so much time. But he was growing—he was certainly growing. And there were times when Rilla felt sure that it was not merely a pious hope but an absolute fact that he was getting decidedly better looking. Sometimes she felt quite proud of him; and sometimes she yearned to spank him. But she never kissed him or wanted to kiss him.
Well—Rilla scrambled to her feet—time was up. Jims would be waking up soon—she had to make his lunch—his little clothes needed to be ironed—there was a Junior Reds committee meeting that night—her new knitting bag needed to be finished—it was going to be the prettiest bag in the Junior Society—nicer even than Irene Howard's—she had to get home and get to work. She was busy these days from morning till night. That little troublemaker Jims took up so much time. But he was growing—he was definitely growing. And sometimes Rilla felt sure it wasn't just a hopeful thought but a real fact that he was becoming quite handsome. Occasionally, she felt proud of him; and sometimes she wanted to spank him. But she never kissed him or felt the urge to kiss him.
"The Germans captured Lodz today," said Miss Oliver, one December evening, when she, Mrs. Blythe, and Susan were busy sewing or knitting in the cosy living-room. "This war is at least extending my knowledge of geography. Schoolma'am though I am, three months ago I didn't know there was such a place in the world such as Lodz. Had I heard it mentioned I would have known nothing about it and cared as little. I know all about it now—its size, its standing, its military significance. Yesterday the news that the Germans have captured it in their second rush to Warsaw made my heart sink into my boots. I woke up in the night and worried over it. I don't wonder babies always cry when they wake up in the night. Everything presses on my soul then and no cloud has a silver lining."
"The Germans took Lodz today," Miss Oliver said one December evening while she, Mrs. Blythe, and Susan were busy sewing or knitting in the cozy living room. "This war is definitely expanding my knowledge of geography. Even though I'm a schoolteacher, three months ago, I didn’t even know Lodz existed. If I had heard it mentioned, I wouldn't have known anything about it and wouldn't have cared at all. But now I know all about it—its size, its importance, its military role. Yesterday, the news that the Germans captured it in their second push towards Warsaw made my heart sink. I woke up in the middle of the night worrying about it. I can see why babies always cry when they wake up at night. Everything weighs heavy on my mind then, and there's no silver lining to be found."
"When I wake up in the night and cannot go to sleep again," remarked Susan, who was knitting and reading at the same time, "I pass the moments by torturing the Kaiser to death. Last night I fried him in boiling oil and a great comfort it was to me, remembering those Belgian babies."
"When I wake up in the middle of the night and can't fall back asleep," said Susan, who was both knitting and reading at the same time, "I spend the time torturing the Kaiser to death. Last night I fried him in boiling oil, and it was really comforting to me, thinking about those Belgian babies."
"If the Kaiser were here and had a pain in his shoulder you'd be the first to run for the liniment bottle to rub him down," laughed Miss Oliver.
"If the Kaiser were here and had a shoulder ache, you'd be the first to grab the liniment bottle to massage him," laughed Miss Oliver.
"Would I?" cried outraged Susan. "Would I, Miss Oliver? I would rub him down with coal oil, Miss Oliver—and leave it to blister. That is what I would do and that you may tie to. A pain in his shoulder, indeed! He will have pains all over him before he is through with what he has started."
"Would I?" shouted an upset Susan. "Would I, Miss Oliver? I would slather him with coal oil, Miss Oliver—and let it blister. That's exactly what I would do, and you can bet on it. A pain in his shoulder, really! He will have aches everywhere before he's done with what he's started."
"We are told to love our enemies, Susan," said the doctor solemnly.
"We're told to love our enemies, Susan," the doctor said seriously.
"Yes, our enemies, but not King George's enemies, doctor dear," retorted Susan crushingly. She was so well pleased with herself over this flattening out of the doctor completely that she even smiled as she polished her glasses. Susan had never given in to glasses before, but she had done so at last in order to be able to read the war news—and not a dispatch got by her. "Can you tell me, Miss Oliver, how to pronounce M-l-a-w-a and B-z-u-r-a and P-r-z-e-m-y-s-l?"
"Yes, our enemies, but not King George's enemies, dear doctor," Susan shot back, triumphantly. She was so satisfied with herself for completely shutting down the doctor that she even smiled as she cleaned her glasses. Susan had never wanted to wear glasses before, but she finally agreed to them to be able to read the war news—and she didn't miss a single report. "Can you tell me, Miss Oliver, how to pronounce M-l-a-w-a, B-z-u-r-a, and P-r-z-e-m-y-s-l?"
"That last is a conundrum which nobody seems to have solved yet, Susan. And I can make only a guess at the others."
"That last one is a puzzle that nobody seems to have figured out yet, Susan. And I can only take a guess at the others."
"These foreign names are far from being decent, in my opinion," said disgusted Susan.
"These foreign names are definitely not decent, in my opinion," said disgusted Susan.
"I dare say the Austrians and Russians would think Saskatchewan and Musquodoboit about as bad, Susan," said Miss Oliver. "The Serbians have done wonderfully of late. They have captured Belgrade."
"I bet the Austrians and Russians would think Saskatchewan and Musquodoboit are just as bad, Susan," said Miss Oliver. "The Serbians have been doing great lately. They've captured Belgrade."
"And sent the Austrian creatures packing across the Danube with a flea in their ear," said Susan with a relish, as she settled down to examine a map of Eastern Europe, prodding each locality with the knitting needle to brand it on her memory. "Cousin Sophia said awhile ago that Serbia was done for, but I told her there was still such a thing as an over-ruling Providence, doubt it who might. It says here that the slaughter was terrible. For all they were foreigners it is awful to think of so many men being killed, Mrs. Dr. dear—for they are scarce enough as it is."
"And sent the Austrian forces packing across the Danube with a warning," Susan said eagerly as she settled down to look at a map of Eastern Europe, poking at each place with a knitting needle to help remember it. "Cousin Sophia mentioned not long ago that Serbia was finished, but I told her there's still such a thing as a higher power, no matter what anyone thinks. It says here that the slaughter was terrible. Even though they were foreigners, it’s awful to think about so many men being killed, Mrs. Dr. dear—for they’re rare enough as it is."
Rilla was upstairs relieving her over-charged feelings by writing in her diary.
Rilla was upstairs processing her intense emotions by writing in her diary.
"Things have all 'gone catawampus,' as Susan says, with me this week. Part of it was my own fault and part of it wasn't, and I seem to be equally unhappy over both parts.
"Things have all 'gone haywire,' as Susan says, with me this week. Part of it was my own fault and part of it wasn't, and I seem to be equally unhappy about both."
"I went to town the other day to buy a new winter hat. It was the first time nobody insisted on coming with me to help me select it, and I felt that mother had really given up thinking of me as a child. And I found the dearest hat—it was simply bewitching. It was a velvet hat, of the very shade of rich green that was made for me. It just goes with my hair and complexion beautifully, bringing out the red-brown shades and what Miss Oliver calls my 'creaminess' so well. Only once before in my life have I come across that precise shade of green. When I was twelve I had a little beaver hat of it, and all the girls in school were wild over it. Well, as soon as I saw this hat I felt that I simply must have it—and have it I did. The price was dreadful. I will not put it down here because I don't want my descendants to know I was guilty of paying so much for a hat, in war-time, too, when everybody is—or should be—trying to be economical.
I went to town the other day to buy a new winter hat. It was the first time nobody insisted on coming with me to help pick it out, and I felt like my mom had really accepted that I’m not a child anymore. And I found the cutest hat—it was just enchanting. It was a velvet hat in the exact rich shade of green that was made for me. It complements my hair and skin tone perfectly, highlighting the red-brown hues and what Miss Oliver calls my 'creaminess' so well. Only once before in my life have I encountered that exact shade of green. When I was twelve, I had a little beaver hat in that color, and all the girls at school went crazy for it. Well, as soon as I saw this hat, I knew I simply had to have it—and I did get it. The price was outrageous. I won't mention it here because I don’t want my descendants to know I spent so much on a hat, especially during wartime, when everyone is—or should be—trying to save money.
"When I got home and tried on the hat again in my room I was assailed by qualms. Of course, it was very becoming; but somehow it seemed too elaborate and fussy for church going and our quiet little doings in the Glen—too conspicuous, in short. It hadn't seemed so at the milliner's but here in my little white room it did. And that dreadful price tag! And the starving Belgians! When mother saw the hat and the tag she just looked at me. Mother is some expert at looking. Father says she looked him into love with her years ago in Avonlea school and I can well believe it—though I have heard a weird tale of her banging him over the head with a slate at the very beginning of their acquaintance. Mother was a limb when she was a little girl, I understand, and even up to the time when Jem went away she was full of ginger. But let me return to my mutton—that is to say, my new green velvet hat.
"When I got home and tried on the hat again in my room, I was hit with doubts. Of course, it looked great; but somehow it felt too fancy and over-the-top for church and our quiet little routines in the Glen—too noticeable, in short. It didn't seem that way at the milliner's, but here in my little white room it did. And that ridiculous price tag! And the starving Belgians! When my mom saw the hat and the tag, she just looked at me. My mom is really good at giving looks. My dad says she looked him into love with her years ago in Avonlea school, and I can totally believe it—though I’ve heard a strange story about her hitting him over the head with a slate at the very start of their relationship. My mom was a handful when she was a little girl, I hear, and she was full of energy even up until Jem left. But let me get back to the main point—that is to say, my new green velvet hat."
"'Do you think, Rilla,' mother said quietly—far too quietly—'that it was right to spend so much for a hat, especially when the need of the world is so great?'
"'Do you think, Rilla,' mother said quietly—far too quietly—'that it was right to spend so much on a hat, especially when there are so many needs in the world?'"
"'I paid for it out of my own allowance, mother,' I exclaimed.
"I bought it with my own allowance, mom," I said.
"'That is not the point. Your allowance is based on the principle of a reasonable amount for each thing you need. If you pay too much for one thing you must cut off somewhere else and that is not satisfactory. But if you think you did right, Rilla, I have no more to say. I leave it to your conscience.'
"'That's not the issue. Your allowance is based on what's reasonable for everything you need. If you overspend on one thing, you'll have to cut back somewhere else, and that's not okay. But if you believe you did the right thing, Rilla, I have nothing more to add. I'll leave it to your conscience.'"
"I wish mother would not leave things to my conscience! And anyway, what was I to do? I couldn't take that hat back—I had worn it to a concert in town—I had to keep it! I was so uncomfortable that I flew into a temper—a cold, calm, deadly temper.
"I wish Mom wouldn't leave everything to my conscience! And besides, what was I supposed to do? I couldn't return that hat—I had worn it to a concert in town—I had to keep it! I was so uneasy that I exploded in anger—a cold, calm, deadly anger."
"'Mother,' I said haughtily, 'I am sorry you disapprove of my hat—'
"'Mom,' I said arrogantly, 'I'm sorry you don't like my hat—'
"'Not of the hat exactly,' said mother, 'though I consider it in doubtful taste for so young a girl—but of the price you paid for it.'
"'Not exactly because of the hat,' said Mom, 'although I think it's a bit inappropriate for such a young girl—but rather the price you paid for it.'"
"Being interrupted didn't improve my temper, so I went on, colder and calmer and deadlier than ever, just as if mother had not spoken.
"Being interrupted didn't help my mood, so I continued, colder and calmer and more lethal than ever, as if my mother hadn't said a thing."
"'—but I have to keep it now. However, I promise you that I will not get another hat for three years or for the duration of the war, if it lasts longer than that. Even you'—oh, the sarcasm I put into the 'you'—'cannot say that what I paid was too much when spread over at least three years.'
"—but I have to keep it now. However, I promise you that I won't buy another hat for three years or for the duration of the war, if it lasts longer than that. Even you—oh, the sarcasm I put into the 'you'—cannot say that what I paid was too much when spread over at least three years."
"'You will be very tired of that hat before three years, Rilla,' said mother, with a provoking grin, which, being interpreted, meant that I wouldn't stick it out.
"You'll be really tired of that hat in less than three years, Rilla," said mom, with a teasing smile, which meant that she thought I wouldn't last.
"'Tired or not, I will wear it that long,' I said: and then I marched upstairs and cried to think that I had been sarcastic to mother.
"'Tired or not, I will wear it that long,' I said; then I marched upstairs and cried because I felt bad for being sarcastic to my mom."
"I hate that hat already. But three years or the duration of the war, I said, and three years or the duration of the war it shall be. I vowed and I shall keep my vow, cost what it will.
"I already hate that hat. But for three years or the length of the war, I said, and for three years or the length of the war it will be. I made a promise, and I will keep my promise, no matter the cost."
"That is one of the 'catawampus' things. The other is that I have quarrelled with Irene Howard—or she quarrelled with me—or, no, we both quarrelled.
"That's one of the messed-up things. The other is that I had a fight with Irene Howard—or she had a fight with me—or, no, we both fought."
"The Junior Red Cross met here yesterday. The hour of meeting was half-past two but Irene came at half-past one, because she got the chance of a drive down from the Upper Glen. Irene hasn't been a bit nice to me since the fuss about the eats; and besides I feel sure she resents not being president. But I have been determined that things should go smoothly, so I have never taken any notice, and when she came yesterday she seemed so nice and sweet again that I hoped she had got over her huffiness and we could be the chums we used to be.
"The Junior Red Cross met here yesterday. The meeting was at 2:30 PM, but Irene arrived at 1:30 PM because she got a ride down from the Upper Glen. Irene hasn't been very nice to me since the issue with the snacks, and I also feel like she's upset about not being president. But I've been set on making sure everything goes smoothly, so I've ignored it. When she showed up yesterday, she seemed really nice and sweet again, and I hoped she had gotten over her bad mood and that we could be friends like we used to be."
"But as soon as we sat down Irene began to rub me the wrong way. I saw her cast a look at my new knitting-bag. All the girls have always said Irene was jealous-minded and I would never believe them before. But now I feel that perhaps she is.
"But as soon as we sat down, Irene started getting on my nerves. I noticed her glance at my new knitting bag. All the girls have always said that Irene is jealous, and I never believed them before. But now I feel like maybe they were right."
"The first thing she did was to pounce on Jims—Irene pretends to adore babies—pick him out of his cradle and kiss him all over his face. Now, Irene knows perfectly well that I don't like to have Jims kissed like that. It is not hygienic. After she had worried him till he began to fuss, she looked at me and gave quite a nasty little laugh but she said, oh, so sweetly,
"The first thing she did was jump on Jims—Irene acts like she loves babies—pick him up from his crib and kiss him all over his face. Now, Irene knows very well that I don't like Jims being kissed like that. It’s not hygienic. After she had bothered him until he started to fuss, she looked at me and gave a pretty unpleasant little laugh but she said, oh, so sweetly,
"'Why, Rilla, darling, you look as if you thought I was poisoning the baby.'
"'Why, Rilla, sweetheart, you look like you think I'm poisoning the baby.'"
"'Oh, no, I don't, Irene,' I said—every bit as sweetly, 'but you know Morgan says that the only place a baby should be kissed is on its forehead, for fear of germs, and that is my rule with Jims.'
"'Oh, no, I don't, Irene,' I said—just as sweetly, 'but you know Morgan says that the only place a baby should be kissed is on its forehead, to avoid germs, and that’s my rule with Jims.'"
"'Dear me, am I so full of germs?' said Irene plaintively. I knew she was making fun of me and I began to boil inside—but outside no sign of a simmer. I was determined I would not scrap with Irene.
"'Oh my, am I really covered in germs?' said Irene sadly. I knew she was teasing me, and I started to get really angry inside—but on the outside, I didn’t show any signs of it. I was set on not getting into a fight with Irene."
"Then she began to bounce Jims. Now, Morgan says bouncing is almost the worst thing that can be done to a baby. I never allow Jims to be bounced. But Irene bounced him and that exasperating child liked it. He smiled—for the very first time. He is four months old and he has never smiled once before. Not even mother or Susan have been able to coax that thing to smile, try as they would. And here he was smiling because Irene Howard bounced him! Talk of gratitude!
"Then she started bouncing Jims. Now, Morgan says that bouncing is one of the worst things you can do to a baby. I never let Jims be bounced. But Irene bounced him, and that annoying little guy actually liked it. He smiled—for the very first time. He’s four months old and hasn’t smiled at all before. Not even mom or Susan could get that kid to smile, no matter how hard they tried. And here he was smiling because Irene Howard bounced him! Talk about gratitude!"
"I admit that smile made a big difference in him. Two of the dearest dimples came out in his cheeks and his big brown eyes seemed full of laughter. The way Irene raved over those dimples was silly, I consider. You would have supposed she thought she had really brought them into existence. But I sewed steadily and did not enthuse, and soon Irene got tired of bouncing Jims and put him back in his cradle. He did not like that after being played with, and he began to cry and was fussy the rest of the afternoon, whereas if Irene had only left him alone he would not have been a bit of trouble.
"I admit that smile made a big difference in him. Two of his cutest dimples showed up in his cheeks, and his big brown eyes seemed full of laughter. I think it’s silly how much Irene gushed over those dimples. You would have thought she believed she truly created them. But I kept sewing and didn’t get all excited, and soon Irene grew tired of bouncing Jims and put him back in his cradle. He didn’t like that after being played with, and he started to cry and was fussy for the rest of the afternoon, while if Irene had just left him alone, he wouldn’t have been any trouble at all."
"Irene looked at him and said, 'Does he often cry like that?' as if she had never heard a baby crying before.
"Irene looked at him and said, 'Does he cry like that often?' as if she had never heard a baby cry before."
"I explained patiently that children have to cry so many minutes per day in order to expand their lungs. Morgan says so.
"I patiently explained that kids need to cry for a certain amount of time each day to help expand their lungs. Morgan says so."
"'If Jims didn't cry at all I'd have to make him cry for at least twenty minutes,' I said.
"'If Jim didn't cry at all, I'd have to make him cry for at least twenty minutes,' I said."
"'Oh, indeed!' said Irene, laughing as if she didn't believe me. 'Morgan on the Care of Infants' was upstairs or I would soon have convinced her. Then she said Jims didn't have much hair—she had never seen a four months' old baby so bald.
"'Oh, really!' said Irene, laughing as if she didn't believe me. 'Morgan on the Care of Infants' was upstairs, or I would have easily convinced her. Then she mentioned that Jims didn't have much hair—she had never seen a four-month-old baby so bald."
"Of course, I knew Jims hadn't much hair—yet; but Irene said it in a tone that seemed to imply it was my fault that he hadn't any hair. I said I had seen dozens of babies every bit as bald as Jims, and Irene said, Oh very well, she hadn't meant to offend me—when I wasn't offended.
"Of course, I knew Jims didn't have much hair—yet; but Irene said it in a way that made it sound like it was my fault that he was bald. I mentioned that I had seen plenty of babies just as bald as Jims, and Irene said, 'Oh, fine, I didn't mean to upset you'—when I wasn't upset at all."
"It went on like that the rest of the hour—Irene kept giving me little digs all the time. The girls have always said she was revengeful like that if she were peeved about anything; but I never believed it before; I used to think Irene just perfect, and it hurt me dreadfully to find she could stoop to this. But I corked up my feelings and sewed away for dear life on a Belgian child's nightgown.
"It continued like that for the rest of the hour—Irene kept taking little jabs at me the whole time. The girls always said she could be vengeful like that if she was upset about something, but I never believed it before; I used to think Irene was perfect, and it really hurt to find out she could sink to this level. But I bottled up my feelings and focused on sewing a Belgian child's nightgown for dear life."
"Then Irene told me the meanest, most contemptible thing that someone had said about Walter. I won't write it down—I can't. Of course, she said it made her furious to hear it and all that—but there was no need for her to tell me such a thing even if she did hear it. She simply did it to hurt me.
"Then Irene told me the nastiest, most despicable thing someone had said about Walter. I won't write it down—I can't. Of course, she said it made her really angry to hear it and all that—but there was no reason for her to share something like that with me, even if she did hear it. She was just trying to hurt me."
"I just exploded. 'How dare you come here and repeat such a thing about my brother, Irene Howard?' I exclaimed. 'I shall never forgive you—never. Your brother hasn't enlisted—hasn't any idea of enlisting.'
"I just blew up. 'How dare you come here and say something like that about my brother, Irene Howard?' I shouted. 'I will never forgive you—never. Your brother hasn't enlisted—has no intention of enlisting.'"
"'Why Rilla, dear, I didn't say it,' said Irene. 'I told you it was Mrs. George Burr. And I told her—'
"'Why Rilla, dear, I didn't say it,' Irene said. 'I told you it was Mrs. George Burr. And I told her—'"
"'I don't want to hear what you told her. Don't you ever speak to me again, Irene Howard.'
"I don't want to hear what you said to her. Don't ever talk to me again, Irene Howard."
"Oh course, I shouldn't have said that. But it just seemed to say itself. Then the other girls all came in a bunch and I had to calm down and act the hostess' part as well as I could. Irene paired off with Olive Kirk all the rest of the afternoon and went away without so much as a look. So I suppose she means to take me at my word and I don't care, for I do not want to be friends with a girl who could repeat such a falsehood about Walter. But I feel unhappy over it for all that. We've always been such good chums and until lately Irene was lovely to me; and now another illusion has been stripped from my eyes and I feel as if there wasn't such a thing as real true friendship in the world.
"Oh, of course, I shouldn't have said that. But it just slipped out. Then the other girls came in all at once, and I had to calm down and do my best to play the hostess. Irene teamed up with Olive Kirk for the rest of the afternoon and left without even a glance at me. So I guess she’s taking me at my word, and I don’t mind, because I don't want to be friends with someone who would say such a lie about Walter. Still, I feel unhappy about it. We've always been such good friends, and until recently, Irene was so nice to me; now, another illusion has been taken away, and I feel like there’s no such thing as real true friendship anymore."
"Father got old Joe Mead to build a kennel for Dog Monday in the corner of the shipping-shed today. We thought perhaps Monday would come home when the cold weather came but he wouldn't. No earthly influence can coax Monday away from that shed even for a few minutes. There he stays and meets every train. So we had to do something to make him comfortable. Joe built the kennel so that Monday could lie in it and still see the platform, so we hope he will occupy it.
"Father had Joe Mead build a kennel for Dog Monday in the corner of the shipping shed today. We thought maybe Monday would come home when the cold weather hit, but he wouldn't. Nothing can lure Monday away from that shed, even for a few minutes. He stays there and watches every train. So we had to do something to make him comfortable. Joe built the kennel so that Monday could lie in it and still see the platform, so we hope he'll use it."
"Monday has become quite famous. A reporter of the Enterprise came out from town and photographed him and wrote up the whole story of his faithful vigil. It was published in the Enterprise and copied all over Canada. But that doesn't matter to poor little Monday, Jem has gone away—Monday doesn't know where or why—but he will wait until he comes back. Somehow it comforts me: it's foolish, I suppose, but it gives me a feeling that Jem will come back or else Monday wouldn't keep on waiting for him.
"Monday has become pretty well-known. A reporter from the Enterprise came out from town, took his picture, and wrote the whole story about his loyal watch. It got published in the Enterprise and shared all over Canada. But that doesn't matter to poor little Monday; Jem has gone away—Monday doesn’t know where or why—but he’s going to wait until Jem comes back. It somehow comforts me: it’s silly, I guess, but it makes me feel like Jem will return or else Monday wouldn’t keep waiting for him."
"Jims is snoring beside me in his cradle. It is just a cold that makes him snore—not adenoids. Irene had a cold yesterday and I know she gave it to him, kissing him. He is not quite such a nuisance as he was; he has got some backbone and can sit up quite nicely, and he loves his bath now and splashes unsmilingly in the water instead of twisting and shrieking. Oh, shall I ever forget those first two months! I don't know how I lived through them. But here I am and here is Jims and we both are going to 'carry on.' I tickled him a little bit tonight when I undressed him—I wouldn't bounce him but Morgan doesn't mention tickling—just to see if he would smile for me as well as Irene. And he did—and out popped the dimples. What a pity his mother couldn't have seen them!
Jims is snoring next to me in his crib. It's just a cold making him snore—not his adenoids. Irene had a cold yesterday, and I know she passed it to him when she kissed him. He's not as much of a bother as he used to be; he's shown some determination and can sit up pretty well now, and he really enjoys his bath, splashing happily in the water instead of screaming and twisting. Oh, I will never forget those first two months! I don’t know how I got through them. But here I am, and here’s Jims, and we’re both going to ‘carry on.’ I tickled him a little tonight when I was getting him undressed—I didn’t bounce him like Morgan suggested, but I thought I’d see if he would smile for me like he does for Irene. And he did—and out popped the dimples. What a shame his mother couldn’t have seen them!
"I finished my sixth pair of socks today. With the first three I got Susan to set the heel for me. Then I thought that was a bit of shirking, so I learned to do it myself. I hate it—but I have done so many things I hate since 4th of August that one more or less doesn't matter. I just think of Jem joking about the mud on Salisbury Plain and I go at them."
"I finished my sixth pair of socks today. For the first three, I had Susan set the heel for me. Then I realized that was a bit lazy, so I learned to do it myself. I hate it—but I've done so many things I dislike since August 4th that one more doesn't really matter. I just think of Jem joking about the mud on Salisbury Plain and get to it."
CHAPTER XI
DARK AND BRIGHT
At Christmas the college boys and girls came home and for a little while Ingleside was gay again. But all were not there—for the first time one was missing from the circle round the Christmas table. Jem, of the steady lips and fearless eyes, was far away, and Rilla felt that the sight of his vacant chair was more than she could endure. Susan had taken a stubborn freak and insisted on setting out Jem's place for him as usual, with the twisted little napkin ring he had always had since a boy, and the odd, high Green Gables goblet that Aunt Marilla had once given him and from which he always insisted on drinking.
At Christmas, the college boys and girls came home, and for a little while, Ingleside was cheerful again. But not everyone was there—this time, one was missing from the circle around the Christmas table. Jem, with his steady lips and fearless eyes, was far away, and Rilla felt that seeing his empty chair was more than she could bear. Susan had taken a stubborn stance and insisted on setting out Jem's place for him as usual, with the twisted little napkin ring he had always used since he was a boy, and the quirky, tall Green Gables goblet that Aunt Marilla had once given him and from which he always insisted on drinking.
"That blessed boy shall have his place, Mrs. Dr. dear," said Susan firmly, "and do not you feel over it, for you may be sure he is here in spirit and next Christmas he will be here in the body. Wait you till the Big Push comes in the spring and the war will be over in a jiffy."
"That beloved boy will have his spot, Mrs. Dr. dear," Susan said confidently, "and don't you worry about it, because you can be sure he's here in spirit, and next Christmas, he will be here in person. Just wait for the Big Push in the spring, and the war will be over in no time."
They tried to think so, but a shadow stalked in the background of their determined merrymaking. Walter, too, was quiet and dull, all through the holidays. He showed Rilla a cruel, anonymous letter he had received at Redmond—a letter far more conspicuous for malice than for patriotic indignation.
They wanted to believe otherwise, but a shadow loomed over their determined fun. Walter remained quiet and downcast throughout the holidays. He showed Rilla a cruel, anonymous letter he had received at Redmond—a letter that was more notable for its malice than for any patriotic outrage.
"Nevertheless, all it says is true, Rilla."
"Still, everything it says is true, Rilla."
Rilla had caught it from him and thrown it into the fire.
Rilla had taken it from him and tossed it into the fire.
"There isn't one word of truth in it," she declared hotly. "Walter, you've got morbid—as Miss Oliver says she gets when she broods too long over one thing."
"There isn't a single word of truth in it," she said angrily. "Walter, you've become obsessed—like Miss Oliver says she gets when she thinks too much about one thing."
"I can't get away from it at Redmond, Rilla. The whole college is aflame over the war. A perfectly fit fellow, of military age, who doesn't join up is looked upon as a shirker and treated accordingly. Dr. Milne, the English professor, who has always made a special pet of me, has two sons in khaki; and I can feel the change in his manner towards me."
"I can't escape it at Redmond, Rilla. The whole college is fired up about the war. A perfectly healthy guy of military age who doesn't enlist is seen as a slacker and treated that way. Dr. Milne, the English professor, who has always had a special fondness for me, has two sons in uniform; and I can sense the shift in how he treats me."
"It's not fair—you're not fit."
"It's unfair—you aren't fit."
"Physically I am. Sound as a bell. The unfitness is in the soul and it's a taint and a disgrace. There, don't cry, Rilla. I'm not going if that's what you're afraid of. The Piper's music rings in my ears day and night—but I cannot follow."
"Physically, I’m in great shape. As fit as a fiddle. The unfitness lies in the soul, and it’s a stain and a shame. There, don’t cry, Rilla. I’m not going anywhere if that’s what you’re worried about. The Piper's music plays in my ears day and night—but I can’t follow."
"You would break mother's heart and mine if you did," sobbed Rilla. "Oh, Walter, one is enough for any family."
"You would break Mom's heart and mine if you did," Rilla sobbed. "Oh, Walter, one is enough for any family."
The holidays were an unhappy time for her. Still, having Nan and Di and Walter and Shirley home helped in the enduring of things. A letter and book came for her from Kenneth Ford, too; some sentences in the letter made her cheeks burn and her heart beat—until the last paragraph, which sent an icy chill over everything.
The holidays were a tough time for her. Still, having Nan, Di, Walter, and Shirley home helped her get through it. She also received a letter and a book from Kenneth Ford; some lines in the letter made her blush and her heart race—until the last paragraph, which sent a chilling feeling over everything.
"My ankle is about as good as new. I'll be fit to join up in a couple of months more, Rilla-my-Rilla. It will be some feeling to get into khaki all right. Little Ken will be able to look the whole world in the face then and owe not any man. It's been rotten lately, since I've been able to walk without limping. People who don't know look at me as much as to say 'Slacker!' Well, they won't have the chance to look it much longer."
"My ankle is pretty much back to normal. I’ll be ready to join up in a couple of months, Rilla-my-Rilla. It's going to feel great to wear khaki again. Little Ken will finally be able to face the world confidently and not owe anything to anyone. It's been rough lately since I’ve been able to walk without limping. People who don’t know just look at me like I’m a ‘Slacker!’ Well, they won’t have that chance for much longer."
"I hate this war," said Rilla bitterly, as she gazed out into the maple grove that was a chill glory of pink and gold in the winter sunset.
"I hate this war," Rilla said bitterly, looking out at the maple grove that glowed with a cold mix of pink and gold in the winter sunset.
"Nineteen-fourteen has gone," said Dr. Blythe on New Year's Day. "Its sun, which rose fairly, has set in blood. What will nineteen-fifteen bring?"
"Nineteen fourteen is behind us," said Dr. Blythe on New Year's Day. "Its sun, which rose brightly, has set in blood. What will nineteen fifteen bring?"
"Victory!" said Susan, for once laconic.
"Victory!" Susan exclaimed, unusually short.
"Do you really believe we'll win the war, Susan?" said Miss Oliver drearily. She had come over from Lowbridge to spend the day and see Walter and the girls before they went back to Redmond. She was in a rather blue and cynical mood and inclined to look on the dark side.
"Do you really think we’re going to win the war, Susan?" said Miss Oliver sadly. She had come over from Lowbridge to spend the day and see Walter and the girls before they returned to Redmond. She was feeling pretty down and cynical, leaning toward a gloomy outlook.
"'Believe' we'll win the war!" exclaimed Susan. "No, Miss Oliver, dear, I do not believe—I know. That does not worry me. What does worry me is the trouble and expense of it all. But then you cannot make omelets without breaking eggs, so we must just trust in God and make big guns."
"'Believe' we'll win the war!" Susan exclaimed. "No, Miss Oliver, dear, I don’t just believe—I know. That doesn’t concern me. What worries me is the trouble and cost of it all. But then, you can’t make omelets without breaking eggs, so we just have to trust in God and build big guns."
"Sometimes I think the big guns are better to trust in than God," said Miss Oliver defiantly.
"Sometimes I think the big guns are more trustworthy than God," Miss Oliver said defiantly.
"No, no, dear, you do not. The Germans had the big guns at the Marne, had they not? But Providence settled them. Do not ever forget that. Just hold on to that when you feel inclined to doubt. Clutch hold of the sides of your chair and sit tight and keep saying, 'Big guns are good but the Almighty is better, and He is on our side, no matter what the Kaiser says about it.' I would have gone crazy many a day lately, Miss Oliver, dear, if I had not sat tight and repeated that to myself. My cousin Sophia is, like you, somewhat inclined to despond. 'Oh, dear me, what will we do if the Germans ever get here,' she wailed to me yesterday. 'Bury them,' said I, just as off-hand as that. 'There is plenty of room for the graves.' Cousin Sophia said that I was flippant but I was not flippant, Miss Oliver, dear, only calm and confident in the British navy and our Canadian boys. I am like old Mr. William Pollock of the Harbour Head. He is very old and has been ill for a long time, and one night last week he was so low that his daughter-in-law whispered to some one that she thought he was dead. 'Darn it, I ain't,' he called right out—only, Miss Oliver, dear, he did not use so mild a word as 'darn'—'darn it, I ain't, and I don't mean to die until the Kaiser is well licked.' Now, that, Miss Oliver, dear," concluded Susan, "is the kind of spirit I admire."
"No, no, dear, you don’t. The Germans had the big guns at the Marne, right? But Providence took care of that. Never forget that. Just keep that in mind when you start to doubt. Grip the sides of your chair and hold on tight, repeating to yourself, 'Big guns are good, but the Almighty is better, and He’s on our side, no matter what the Kaiser says.' I would have lost my mind many days lately, Miss Oliver, dear, if I hadn’t held on and reminded myself of that. My cousin Sophia is a bit prone to despair, too. 'Oh, dear, what will we do if the Germans ever get here?' she cried to me yesterday. 'Bury them,' I said, just as casually as that. 'There’s plenty of room for their graves.' Cousin Sophia said I was being flippant, but I wasn’t flippant, Miss Oliver, dear, just calm and confident in the British navy and our Canadian boys. I’m like old Mr. William Pollock from Harbour Head. He’s very old and has been sick for a long time, and one night last week, he was so low that his daughter-in-law whispered to someone that she thought he was dead. 'Darn it, I ain’t,' he shouted right out—though, Miss Oliver, dear, he didn’t use such a mild word as 'darn'—'darn it, I ain’t, and I don’t plan to die until the Kaiser is properly defeated.' Now, that, Miss Oliver, dear," concluded Susan, "is the kind of spirit I admire."
"I admire it but I can't emulate it," sighed Gertrude. "Before this, I have always been able to escape from the hard things of life for a little while by going into dreamland, and coming back like a giant refreshed. But I can't escape from this."
"I admire it but I can't mimic it," sighed Gertrude. "Before this, I’ve always been able to escape the tough things in life for a bit by diving into dreamland, and returning like a refreshed giant. But I can't run away from this."
"Nor I," said Mrs. Blythe. "I hate going to bed now. All my life I've liked going to bed, to have a gay, mad, splendid half-hour of imagining things before sleeping. Now I imagine them still. But such different things."
"Me neither," said Mrs. Blythe. "I hate going to bed now. My whole life, I've loved going to bed, having a fun, crazy, amazing half-hour of daydreaming before I fall asleep. Now I still daydream. But it's about such different things."
"I am rather glad when the time comes to go to bed," said Miss Oliver. "I like the darkness because I can be myself in it—I needn't smile or talk bravely. But sometimes my imagination gets out of hand, too, and I see what you do—terrible things—terrible years to come."
"I actually feel pretty happy when it's time to go to bed," said Miss Oliver. "I enjoy the darkness because I can be myself in it—I don’t have to smile or pretend to be strong. But sometimes my imagination runs wild, and I see the things you do—awful things—dreadful years ahead."
"I am very thankful that I never had any imagination to speak of," said Susan. "I have been spared that. I see by this paper that the Crown Prince is killed again. Do you suppose there is any hope of his staying dead this time? And I also see that Woodrow Wilson is going to write another note. I wonder," concluded Susan, with the bitter irony she had of late begun to use when referring to the poor President, "if that man's schoolmaster is alive."
"I’m really glad I never had much of an imagination," said Susan. "I've been spared that. I see in this paper that the Crown Prince has died again. Do you think there's any chance he’ll stay dead this time? And I also see that Woodrow Wilson is going to write another note. I wonder," Susan concluded, using the bitter irony she's started to apply when talking about the poor President, "if that man’s schoolteacher is still around."
In January Jims was five months old and Rilla celebrated the anniversary by shortening him.
In January, Jims was five months old, and Rilla marked the occasion by giving him a trim.
"He weighs fourteen pounds," she announced jubilantly. "Just exactly what he should weigh at five months, according to Morgan."
"He weighs fourteen pounds," she said excitedly. "That's exactly what he should weigh at five months, according to Morgan."
There was no longer any doubt in anybody's mind that Jims was getting positively pretty. His little cheeks were round and firm and faintly pink, his eyes were big and bright, his tiny paws had dimples at the root of every finger. He had even begun to grow hair, much to Rilla's unspoken relief. There was a pale golden fuzz all over his head that was distinctly visible in some lights. He was a good infant, generally sleeping and digesting as Morgan decreed. Occasionally he smiled but he had never laughed, in spite of all efforts to make him. This worried Rilla also, because Morgan said that babies usually laughed aloud from the third to the fifth month. Jims was five months and had no notion of laughing. Why hadn't he? Wasn't he normal?
There was no longer any doubt in anyone's mind that Jims was getting quite cute. His little cheeks were round and firm and a faint pink, his eyes were big and bright, and his tiny hands had dimples at the base of every finger. He had even started to grow hair, much to Rilla's unspoken relief. There was a light golden fuzz all over his head that could be seen in certain lights. He was a good baby, mostly sleeping and digesting as Morgan said he should. Occasionally, he smiled, but he had never laughed, despite all attempts to get him to. This also worried Rilla because Morgan mentioned that babies usually laugh out loud between three and five months. Jims was five months old and had no idea how to laugh. Why not? Was he abnormal?
One night Rilla came home late from a recruiting meeting at the Glen where she had been giving patriotic recitations. Rilla had never been willing to recite in public before. She was afraid of her tendency to lisp, which had a habit of reviving if she were doing anything that made her nervous. When she had first been asked to recite at the Upper Glen meeting she had refused. Then she began to worry over her refusal. Was it cowardly? What would Jem think if he knew? After two days of worry Rilla phoned to the president of the Patriotic Society that she would recite. She did, and lisped several times, and lay awake most of the night in an agony of wounded vanity. Then two nights after she recited again at Harbour Head. She had been at Lowbridge and over-harbour since then and had become resigned to an occasional lisp. Nobody except herself seemed to mind it. And she was so earnest and appealing and shining-eyed! More than one recruit joined up because Rilla's eyes seemed to look right at him when she passionately demanded how could men die better than fighting for the ashes of their fathers and the temples of their gods, or assured her audience with thrilling intensity that one crowded hour of glorious life was worth an age without a name. Even stolid Miller Douglas was so fired one night that it took Mary Vance a good hour to talk him back to sense. Mary Vance said bitterly that if Rilla Blythe felt as bad as she had pretended to feel over Jem's going to the front she wouldn't be urging other girls' brothers and friends to go.
One night, Rilla came home late from a recruiting meeting at the Glen where she had been giving patriotic speeches. Rilla had never wanted to recite in public before. She was worried about her tendency to lisp, which tended to come back whenever she was nervous. When she was first asked to recite at the Upper Glen meeting, she had refused. Then she started to regret her refusal. Was it cowardly? What would Jem think if he knew? After two days of anxiety, Rilla called the president of the Patriotic Society and said she would recite. She did, and lisped a few times, then stayed awake most of the night feeling humiliated. Two nights later, she recited again at Harbour Head. She had been to Lowbridge and over-harbour since then and had learned to accept her occasional lisp. No one else seemed to care. And she was so earnest, appealing, and bright-eyed! More than one recruit signed up because Rilla's eyes seemed to speak directly to him when she passionately asked how men could die better than fighting for the ashes of their fathers and the temples of their gods, or fervently declared that one crowded hour of glorious life was worth an age without a name. Even steady Miller Douglas was so inspired one night that it took Mary Vance a full hour to talk him back to reality. Mary Vance bitterly said that if Rilla Blythe felt as bad as she pretended to over Jem going to the front, she wouldn’t be encouraging other girls' brothers and friends to go.
On this particular night Rilla was tired and cold and very thankful to creep into her warm nest and cuddle down between her blankets, though as usual with a sorrowful wonder how Jem and Jerry were faring. She was just getting warm and drowsy when Jims suddenly began to cry—and kept on crying.
On this particular night, Rilla was tired, cold, and really grateful to snuggle into her warm bed and burrow down between her blankets, though she couldn’t help but feel a sorrowful curiosity about how Jem and Jerry were doing. She was just starting to get warm and sleepy when Jims suddenly began to cry—and wouldn’t stop.
Rilla curled herself up in her bed and determined she would let him cry. She had Morgan behind her for justification. Jims was warm, physically comfortable—his cry wasn't the cry of pain—and had his little tummy as full as was good for him. Under such circumstances it would be simply spoiling him to fuss over him, and she wasn't going to do it. He could cry until he got good and tired and ready to go to sleep again.
Rilla curled up in her bed and decided to let him cry. She felt justified with Morgan behind her. Jims was warm, physically comfortable—his cry wasn’t one of pain—and his little tummy was as full as it should be. In this situation, it would just spoil him to fuss over him, and she wasn’t going to do that. He could cry until he got really tired and ready to sleep again.
Then Rilla's imagination began to torment her. Suppose, she thought, I was a tiny, helpless creature only five months old, with my father somewhere in France and my poor little mother, who had been so worried about me, in the graveyard. Suppose I was lying in a basket in a big, black room, without one speck of light, and nobody within miles of me, for all I could see or know. Suppose there wasn't a human being anywhere who loved me—for a father who had never seen me couldn't love me very much, especially when he had never written a word to or about me. Wouldn't I cry, too? Wouldn't I feel just so lonely and forsaken and frightened that I'd have to cry?
Then Rilla's imagination started to haunt her. What if, she thought, I was a tiny, helpless baby only five months old, with my dad somewhere in France and my poor little mom, who had been so anxious about me, in the graveyard? What if I was lying in a basket in a big, dark room, with no light at all, and no one within miles of me, for all I could see or know? What if there wasn't a single person anywhere who loved me—for a dad who had never seen me couldn’t really love me much, especially since he hadn’t written a word to or about me? Wouldn't I cry, too? Wouldn’t I feel just as lonely and abandoned and scared that I'd have to cry?
Rilla hopped out. She picked Jims out of his basket and took him into her own bed. His hands were cold, poor mite. But he had promptly ceased to cry. And then, as she held him close to her in the darkness, suddenly Jims laughed—a real, gurgly, chuckly, delighted, delightful laugh.
Rilla jumped out. She picked Jims up from his basket and brought him into her own bed. His hands were cold, poor little guy. But he had stopped crying right away. Then, as she held him close to her in the dark, Jims suddenly laughed—a genuine, gurgly, chuckly, joyful laugh.
"Oh, you dear little thing!" exclaimed Rilla. "Are you so pleased at finding you're not all alone, lost in a huge, big, black room?" Then she knew she wanted to kiss him and she did. She kissed his silky, scented little head, she kissed his chubby little cheek, she kissed his little cold hands. She wanted to squeeze him—to cuddle him, just as she used to squeeze and cuddle her kittens. Something delightful and yearning and brooding seemed to have taken possession of her. She had never felt like this before.
"Oh, you sweet little thing!” Rilla exclaimed. “Are you really that happy to discover you’re not all alone in this big, dark room?” Then she realized she wanted to kiss him, and she did. She kissed his soft, fragrant little head, his round little cheek, and his tiny cold hands. She wanted to squeeze him—to cuddle him, just like she used to do with her kittens. Something wonderful, longing, and intense seemed to have taken over her. She had never felt this way before.
In a few minutes Jims was sound asleep; and, as Rilla listened to his soft, regular breathing and felt the little body warm and contented against her, she realized that—at last—she loved her war-baby.
In a few minutes, Jims was fast asleep; and as Rilla listened to his soft, even breathing and felt his little body warm and relaxed against her, she understood that—finally—she loved her war-baby.
"He has got to be—such—a—darling," she thought drowsily, as she drifted off to slumberland herself.
"He has to be—such—a—darling," she thought sleepily, as she drifted off to dreamland herself.
In February Jem and Jerry and Robert Grant were in the trenches and a little more tension and dread was added to the Ingleside life. In March "Yiprez," as Susan called it, had come to have a bitter significance. The daily list of casualties had begun to appear in the papers and no one at Ingleside ever answered the telephone without a horrible cold shrinking—for it might be the station-master phoning up to say a telegram had come from overseas. No one at Ingleside ever got up in the morning without a sudden piercing wonder over what the day might bring.
In February, Jem, Jerry, and Robert Grant were in the trenches, and a bit more tension and anxiety crept into life at Ingleside. By March, "Yiprez," as Susan called it, had taken on a bitter meaning. The daily list of casualties started showing up in the papers, and no one at Ingleside ever answered the phone without feeling a chilling dread, fearing it might be the station-master calling to say a telegram had arrived from overseas. Every morning at Ingleside began with a sharp, nagging worry about what the day might hold.
"And I used to welcome the mornings so," thought Rilla.
"And I used to greet the mornings like this," thought Rilla.
Yet the round of life and duty went steadily on and every week or so one of the Glen lads who had just the other day been a rollicking schoolboy went into khaki.
Yet the cycle of life and responsibility continued, and every week or so, one of the Glen boys who had just recently been a carefree schoolboy put on a military uniform.
"It is bitter cold out tonight, Mrs. Dr. dear," said Susan, coming in out of the clear starlit crispness of the Canadian winter twilight. "I wonder if the boys in the trenches are warm."
"It’s freezing out tonight, Mrs. Dr. dear," said Susan, stepping in from the clear, starry chill of the Canadian winter twilight. "I wonder if the boys in the trenches are warm."
"How everything comes back to this war," cried Gertrude Oliver. "We can't get away from it—not even when we talk of the weather. I never go out these dark cold nights myself without thinking of the men in the trenches—not only our men but everybody's men. I would feel the same if there were nobody I knew at the front. When I snuggle down in my comfortable bed I am ashamed of being comfortable. It seems as if it were wicked of me to be so when many are not."
"How everything leads back to this war," cried Gertrude Oliver. "We can't escape it—not even when we talk about the weather. I never go out on these dark, cold nights without thinking of the men in the trenches—not just our men but everyone’s men. I’d feel the same way even if I didn’t know anyone at the front. When I settle into my cozy bed, I feel ashamed of being comfortable. It seems wrong for me to be so when many are not."
"I saw Mrs. Meredith down at the store," said Susan, "and she tells me that they are really troubled over Bruce, he takes things so much to heart. He has cried himself to sleep for a week, over the starving Belgians. 'Oh, mother,' he will say to her, so beseeching-like, 'surely the babies are never hungry—oh, not the babies, mother! Just say the babies are not hungry, mother.' And she cannot say it because it would not be true, and she is at her wits' end. They try to keep such things from him but he finds them out and then they cannot comfort him. It breaks my heart to read about them myself, Mrs. Dr. dear, and I cannot console myself with the thought that the tales are not true. When I read a novel that makes me want to weep I just say severely to myself, 'Now, Susan Baker, you know that is all a pack of lies.' But we must carry on. Jack Crawford says he is going to the war because he is tired of farming. I hope he will find it a pleasant change. And Mrs. Richard Elliott over-harbour is worrying herself sick because she used to be always scolding her husband about smoking up the parlour curtains. Now that he has enlisted she wishes she had never said a word to him. You know Josiah Cooper and William Daley, Mrs. Dr. dear. They used to be fast friends but they quarrelled twenty years ago and have never spoken since. Well, the other day Josiah went to William and said right out, 'Let us be friends. 'Tain't any time to be holding grudges.' William was real glad and held out his hand, and they sat down for a good talk. And in less than half an hour they had quarrelled again, over how the war ought to be fought, Josiah holding that the Dardanelles expedition was rank folly and William maintaining that it was the one sensible thing the Allies had done. And now they are madder at each other than ever and William says Josiah is as bad a pro-German as Whiskers-on-the-Moon. Whiskers-on-the-moon vows he is no pro-German but calls himself a pacifist, whatever that may be. It is nothing proper or Whiskers would not be it and that you may tie to. He says that the big British victory at New Chapelle cost more than it was worth and he has forbid Joe Milgrave to come near the house because Joe ran up his father's flag when the news came. Have you noticed, Mrs. Dr. dear, that the Czar has changed that Prish name to Premysl, which proves that the man had good sense, Russian though he is? Joe Vickers told me in the store that he saw a very queer looking thing in the sky tonight over Lowbridge way. Do you suppose it could have been a Zeppelin, Mrs. Dr. dear?"
"I saw Mrs. Meredith at the store," said Susan, "and she told me they’re really worried about Bruce; he takes things so much to heart. He's cried himself to sleep for a week over the starving Belgians. 'Oh, mother,' he'll say to her, looking so pleading, 'surely the babies aren’t hungry—oh, not the babies, mother! Just say the babies aren't hungry, mother.' And she can’t say it because it wouldn’t be true, and she’s at her wit's end. They try to keep this stuff from him, but he figures it out and then they can’t comfort him. It breaks my heart to read about it myself, Mrs. Dr. dear, and I can’t console myself with the idea that those stories aren’t real. When I read a novel that makes me want to cry, I just tell myself sternly, 'Now, Susan Baker, you know that’s all a bunch of lies.' But we have to keep going. Jack Crawford says he’s going to war because he’s tired of farming. I hope he finds it a nice change. And Mrs. Richard Elliott over-harbor is making herself sick with worry because she always used to scold her husband about smoking up the parlor curtains. Now that he’s enlisted, she wishes she had never said anything to him. You know Josiah Cooper and William Daley, Mrs. Dr. dear. They used to be best friends but they had a falling out twenty years ago and haven’t spoken since. Well, the other day Josiah went to William and said straight out, 'Let’s be friends. It’s not the time to hold grudges.' William was really happy and shook his hand, and they sat down for a good chat. But in less than half an hour, they were arguing again about how the war should be fought, with Josiah saying the Dardanelles expedition was a total mistake and William insisting it was the only sensible thing the Allies did. Now they’re angrier at each other than ever, and William says Josiah is as much of a pro-German as Whiskers-on-the-Moon. Whiskers-on-the-Moon insists he’s not a pro-German but calls himself a pacifist, whatever that means. It’s nothing good or he wouldn’t be one, and that’s for sure. He says the big British victory at New Chapelle wasn’t worth the cost, and he’s forbidden Joe Milgrave from coming near the house because Joe raised his father’s flag when the news came. Have you noticed, Mrs. Dr. dear, that the Czar changed that Prish name to Premysl, which shows that the guy had some good sense, Russian as he is? Joe Vickers told me in the store that he saw a really strange thing in the sky tonight over Lowbridge way. Do you think it could have been a Zeppelin, Mrs. Dr. dear?"
"I do not think it very likely, Susan."
"I don't think that's very likely, Susan."
"Well, I would feel easier about it if Whiskers-on-the-moon were not living in the Glen. They say he was seen going through strange manoeuvres with a lantern in his back yard one night lately. Some people think he was signalling."
"Well, I'd feel better about it if Whiskers-on-the-moon weren't living in the Glen. They say he was spotted doing strange things with a lantern in his backyard one night recently. Some people think he was signaling."
"To whom—or what?"
"To whom or what?"
"Ah, that is the mystery, Mrs. Dr. dear. In my opinion the Government would do well to keep an eye on that man if it does not want us to be all murdered in our beds some night. Now I shall just look over the papers a minute before going to write a letter to little Jem. Two things I never did, Mrs. Dr. dear, were write letters and read politics. Yet here I am doing both regular and I find there is something in politics after all. Whatever Woodrow Wilson means I cannot fathom but I am hoping I will puzzle it out yet."
"Ah, that’s the mystery, Mrs. Doctor dear. I think the government should keep an eye on that man if it doesn’t want us all to be murdered in our beds one night. Now I’ll just look over the papers for a minute before I go write a letter to little Jem. There are two things I’ve never done, Mrs. Doctor dear: write letters and read politics. Yet here I am doing both regularly, and I’ve found there’s something to politics after all. Whatever Woodrow Wilson means, I can’t figure it out, but I’m hoping I’ll solve it eventually."
Susan, in her pursuit of Wilson and politics, presently came upon something that disturbed her and exclaimed in a tone of bitter disappointment,
Susan, in her quest for Wilson and politics, recently stumbled upon something that upset her and exclaimed in a tone of bitter disappointment,
"That devilish Kaiser has only a boil after all."
"That wicked Kaiser only has a boil after all."
"Don't swear, Susan," said Dr. Blythe, pulling a long face.
"Don't curse, Susan," Dr. Blythe said, making a serious face.
"'Devilish' is not swearing, doctor, dear. I have always understood that swearing was taking the name of the Almighty in vain?"
"'Devilish' isn't swearing, doctor, dear. I've always thought that swearing meant taking the name of the Almighty in vain?"
"Well, it isn't—ahem—refined," said the doctor, winking at Miss Oliver.
"Well, it isn't—uh—refined," said the doctor, winking at Miss Oliver.
"No, doctor, dear, the devil and the Kaiser—if so be that they are really two different people—are not refined. And you cannot refer to them in a refined way. So I abide by what I said, although you may notice that I am careful not to use such expressions when young Rilla is about. And I maintain that the papers have no right to say that the Kaiser has pneumonia and raise people's hopes, and then come out and say he has nothing but a boil. A boil, indeed! I wish he was covered with them."
"No, doctor, dear, the devil and the Kaiser—if they really are two different people—aren't refined. And you can't talk about them in a refined way. So I'm sticking to what I said, although I make sure not to use such language when young Rilla is around. And I believe the papers have no right to say the Kaiser has pneumonia and give people hope, only to turn around and say he just has a boil. A boil, really! I wish he had a bunch of them."
Susan stalked out to the kitchen and settled down to write to Jem; deeming him in need of some home comfort from certain passages in his letter that day.
Susan walked into the kitchen and sat down to write to Jem; she thought he could use some comfort from home after certain parts of his letter that day.
"We're in an old wine cellar tonight, dad," he wrote, "in water to our knees. Rats everywhere—no fire—a drizzling rain coming down—rather dismal. But it might be worse. I got Susan's box today and everything was in tip-top order and we had a feast. Jerry is up the line somewhere and he says the rations are rather worse than Aunt Martha's ditto used to be. But here they're not bad—only monotonous. Tell Susan I'd give a year's pay for a good batch of her monkey-faces; but don't let that inspire her to send any for they wouldn't keep.
"We're in an old wine cellar tonight, Dad," he wrote. "We're in water up to our knees. Rats everywhere—no fire—it's drizzling outside—pretty dismal. But it could be worse. I got Susan's box today, and everything was in great shape, so we had a feast. Jerry is somewhere up the line, and he says the rations are even worse than Aunt Martha's used to be. But here they're not bad—just a bit repetitive. Tell Susan I'd trade a year's salary for a good batch of her monkey-faces; but don't let that make her think to send any because they wouldn't last."
"We have been under fire since the last week in February. One boy—he was a Nova Scotian—was killed right beside me yesterday. A shell burst near us and when the mess cleared away he was lying dead—not mangled at all—he just looked a little startled. It was the first time I'd been close to anything like that and it was a nasty sensation, but one soon gets used to horrors here. We're in an absolutely different world. The only things that are the same are the stars—and they are never in their right places, somehow.
"We have been under fire since the last week of February. A boy—he was from Nova Scotia—was killed right next to me yesterday. A shell exploded near us and when the mess cleared away, he was lying dead—not mangled at all—he just looked a little shocked. It was the first time I’d been close to something like that and it felt awful, but you quickly get used to the horrors here. We're in a completely different world. The only things that are the same are the stars—and somehow, they’re never in their proper places."
"Tell mother not to worry—I'm all right—fit as a fiddle—and glad I came. There's something across from us here that has got to be wiped out of the world, that's all—an emanation of evil that would otherwise poison life for ever. It's got to be done, dad, however long it takes, and whatever it costs, and you tell the Glen people this for me. They don't realize yet what it is has broken loose—I didn't when I first joined up. I thought it was fun. Well, it isn't! But I'm in the right place all right—make no mistake about that. When I saw what had been done here to homes and gardens and people—well, dad, I seemed to see a gang of Huns marching through Rainbow Valley and the Glen, and the garden at Ingleside. There were gardens over here—beautiful gardens with the beauty of centuries—and what are they now? Mangled, desecrated things! We are fighting to make those dear old places where we had played as children, safe for other boys and girls—fighting for the preservation and safety of all sweet, wholesome things.
"Tell Mom not to worry—I'm doing fine—fit as a fiddle—and glad I came. There's something across from us here that needs to be wiped out of the world, that's all—an emanation of evil that would otherwise poison life forever. It has to be done, Dad, no matter how long it takes or what it costs, and you need to tell the Glen folks this for me. They don't realize yet what has been unleashed—I didn't when I first joined up. I thought it was fun. Well, it isn't! But I'm in the right place, make no mistake about that. When I saw what had been done here to homes and gardens and people—well, Dad, I seemed to see a gang of Huns marching through Rainbow Valley and the Glen, and the garden at Ingleside. There were gardens over here—beautiful gardens with the beauty of centuries—and what are they now? Mangled, desecrated things! We are fighting to make those dear old places where we played as kids safe for other boys and girls—fighting for the preservation and safety of all sweet, wholesome things."
"Whenever any of you go to the station be sure to give Dog Monday a double pat for me. Fancy the faithful little beggar waiting there for me like that! Honestly, dad, on some of these dark cold nights in the trenches, it heartens and braces me up no end to think that thousands of miles away at the old Glen station there is a small spotted dog sharing my vigil.
"Whenever any of you go to the station, make sure to give Dog Monday a double pat for me. Can you believe that loyal little guy waits there for me like that? Honestly, Dad, on some of these cold, dark nights in the trenches, it really lifts my spirits to think that thousands of miles away at the old Glen station, there’s a small spotted dog sharing my watch."
"Tell Rilla I'm glad her war-baby is turning out so well, and tell Susan that I'm fighting a good fight against both Huns and cooties."
"Tell Rilla I’m happy her war-baby is doing so well, and tell Susan that I’m putting up a good fight against both the Huns and the germs."
"Mrs. Dr. dear," whispered Susan solemnly, "what are cooties?"
"Mrs. Dr. dear," Susan whispered seriously, "what are cooties?"
Mrs. Blythe whispered back and then said in reply to Susan's horrified ejaculations, "It's always like that in the trenches, Susan."
Mrs. Blythe whispered back and then said in response to Susan's horrified exclamations, "It's always like that in the trenches, Susan."
Susan shook her head and went away in grim silence to re-open a parcel she had sewed up for Jem and slip in a fine tooth comb.
Susan shook her head and walked away in grim silence to reopen a package she had sewn up for Jem and slip in a fine-toothed comb.
CHAPTER XII
IN THE DAYS OF LANGEMARCK
"How can spring come and be beautiful in such a horror," wrote Rilla in her diary. "When the sun shines and the fluffy yellow catkins are coming out on the willow-trees down by the brook, and the garden is beginning to be beautiful I can't realize that such dreadful things are happening in Flanders. But they are!
"How can spring arrive and be so beautiful in the midst of such horror?" Rilla wrote in her diary. "When the sun is shining and the fluffy yellow catkins are popping out on the willow trees by the brook, and the garden is starting to look lovely, I can't fully grasp that such terrible things are happening in Flanders. But they are!"
"This past week has been terrible for us all, since the news came of the fighting around Ypres and the battles of Langemarck and St. Julien. Our Canadian boys have done splendidly—General French says they 'saved the situation,' when the Germans had all but broken through. But I can't feel pride or exultation or anything but a gnawing anxiety over Jem and Jerry and Mr. Grant. The casualty lists are coming out in the papers every day—oh, there are so many of them. I can't bear to read them for fear I'd find Jem's name—for there have been cases where people have seen their boys' names in the casualty lists before the official telegram came. As for the telephone, for a day or two I just refused to answer it, because I thought I could not endure the horrible moment that came between saying 'Hello' and hearing the response. That moment seemed a hundred years long, for I was always dreading to hear 'There is a telegram for Dr. Blythe.' Then, when I had shirked for a while, I was ashamed of leaving it all for mother or Susan, and now I make myself go. But it never gets any easier. Gertrude teaches school and reads compositions and sets examination papers just as she always has done, but I know her thoughts are over in Flanders all the time. Her eyes haunt me.
This past week has been awful for all of us since we heard about the fighting around Ypres and the battles of Langemarck and St. Julien. Our Canadian guys have done amazingly well—General French says they 'saved the situation' when the Germans were about to break through. But I can’t feel pride or joy, just a constant worry about Jem, Jerry, and Mr. Grant. The casualty lists are coming out in the papers every day—oh, there are so many of them. I can’t stand to read them for fear of seeing Jem’s name—there have been cases where families found out their boys were casualties before the official telegram arrived. As for the phone, for a day or two, I just refused to answer it because I thought I couldn’t handle the awful moment between saying 'Hello' and hearing the reply. That moment felt like forever because I was always afraid to hear, 'There is a telegram for Dr. Blythe.' Then, after avoiding it for a while, I felt guilty leaving it for Mother or Susan, so now I make myself pick up. But it never gets any easier. Gertrude teaches school, reads assignments, and sets exam papers just like she always has, but I know she’s always thinking about what’s happening in Flanders. Her eyes haunt me.
"And Kenneth is in khaki now, too. He has got a lieutenant's commission and expects to go overseas in midsummer, so he wrote me. There wasn't much else in the letter—he seemed to be thinking of nothing but going overseas. I shall not see him again before he goes—perhaps I will never see him again. Sometimes I ask myself if that evening at Four Winds was all a dream. It might as well be—it seems as if it happened in another life lived years ago—and everybody has forgotten it but me.
"And Kenneth is in khaki now, too. He has a lieutenant's commission and expects to go overseas in midsummer, so he wrote to me. There wasn’t much else in the letter—he seemed to be focused on nothing but going overseas. I won't see him again before he leaves—maybe I’ll never see him again. Sometimes I wonder if that evening at Four Winds was all just a dream. It might as well be—it feels like it happened in another life years ago—and everyone has forgotten it except me."
"Walter and Nan and Di came home last night from Redmond. When Walter stepped off the train Dog Monday rushed to meet him, frantic with joy. I suppose he thought Jem would be there, too. After the first moment, he paid no attention to Walter and his pats, but just stood there, wagging his tail nervously and looking past Walter at the other people coming out, with eyes that made me choke up, for I couldn't help thinking that, for all we knew, Monday might never see Jem come off that train again. Then, when all the people were out, Monday looked up at Walter, gave his hand a little lick as if to say, 'I know it isn't your fault he didn't come—excuse me for feeling disappointed,' and then he trotted back to his shed, with that funny little sidelong waggle of his that always makes it seem that his hind legs are travelling directly away from the point at which his forelegs are aiming.
"Walter, Nan, and Di came home last night from Redmond. When Walter stepped off the train, Dog Monday rushed to greet him, overjoyed. I guess he thought Jem would be there, too. After the initial moment, he ignored Walter and his pats, just standing there, wagging his tail nervously and looking past Walter at the other people coming out, with eyes that made me choke up, because I couldn’t help thinking that, for all we knew, Monday might never see Jem step off that train again. Then, when everyone had exited, Monday looked up at Walter, gave his hand a little lick as if to say, 'I know it’s not your fault he didn’t come—sorry for being disappointed,' and then he trotted back to his shed, with that funny little sideways wiggle of his that always makes it look like his hind legs are moving away from where his front legs are headed."
"We tried to coax him home with us—Di even got down and kissed him between the eyes and said, 'Monday, old duck, won't you come up with us just for the evening?' And Monday said—he did!—'I am very sorry but I can't. I've got a date to meet Jem here, you know, and there's a train goes through at eight.'
"We tried to persuade him to come home with us—Di even crouched down and kissed him between the eyes and said, 'Monday, come on, won't you join us just for the evening?' And Monday said—he really did!—'I'm really sorry, but I can't. I've got a date to meet Jem here, you know, and there's a train passing through at eight.'"
"It's lovely to have Walter back again though he seems quiet and sad, just as he was at Christmas. But I'm going to love him hard and cheer him up and make him laugh as he used to. It seems to me that every day of my life Walter means more to me.
"It's great to have Walter back, even though he seems quiet and sad, just like he was at Christmas. But I'm going to love him deeply, make him happy, and get him to laugh like he used to. It feels like every day, Walter means more to me."
"The other evening Susan happened to say that the mayflowers were out in Rainbow Valley. I chanced to be looking at mother when Susan spoke. Her face changed and she gave a queer little choked cry. Most of the time mother is so spunky and gay you would never guess what she feels inside; but now and then some little thing is too much for her and we see under the surface. 'Mayflowers!' she said. 'Jem brought me mayflowers last year!' and she got up and went out of the room. I would have rushed off to Rainbow Valley and brought her an armful of mayflowers, but I knew that wasn't what she wanted. And after Walter got home last night he slipped away to the valley and brought mother home all the mayflowers he could find. Nobody had said a word to him about it—he just remembered himself that Jem used to bring mother the first mayflowers and so he brought them in Jem's place. It shows how tender and thoughtful he is. And yet there are people who send him cruel letters!
"The other evening, Susan mentioned that the mayflowers were blooming in Rainbow Valley. I happened to be looking at Mom when Susan spoke. Her expression changed, and she let out a strange, choked cry. Most of the time, Mom is so spirited and cheerful that you’d never guess what she feels inside; but now and then, something small is too much for her, and we get a glimpse of what’s beneath. 'Mayflowers!' she said. 'Jem brought me mayflowers last year!' and she got up and left the room. I would have rushed off to Rainbow Valley to get her an armful of mayflowers, but I knew that’s not what she needed. Then, after Walter got home last night, he quietly went to the valley and brought back all the mayflowers he could find for Mom. Nobody had mentioned it to him—he just remembered that Jem used to bring her the first mayflowers, so he brought them in Jem's place. It really shows how caring and thoughtful he is. And yet, there are people who send him hurtful letters!"
"It seems strange that we can go in with ordinary life just as if nothing were happening overseas that concerned us, just as if any day might not bring us awful news. But we can and do. Susan is putting in the garden, and mother and she are housecleaning, and we Junior Reds are getting up a concert in aid of the Belgians. We have been practising for a month and having no end of trouble and bother with cranky people. Miranda Pryor promised to help with a dialogue and when she had her part all learnt her father put his foot down and refused to allow her to help at all. I am not blaming Miranda exactly, but I do think she might have a little more spunk sometimes. If she put her foot down once in a while she might bring her father to terms, for she is all the housekeeper he has and what would he do if she 'struck'? If I were in Miranda's shoes I'd find some way of managing Whiskers-on-the-moon. I would horse-whip him, or bite him, if nothing else would serve. But Miranda is a meek and obedient daughter whose days should be long in the land.
"It seems strange that we can go about our daily lives as if nothing is happening overseas that affects us, as if any day might not bring awful news. But we can and do. Susan is working on the garden, and she and Mom are busy with house cleaning, while we Junior Reds are organizing a concert to help the Belgians. We've been practicing for a month and dealing with all kinds of issues with difficult people. Miranda Pryor promised to help with a dialogue, and when she had her part all learned, her dad put his foot down and wouldn't let her participate at all. I'm not blaming Miranda exactly, but I do think she could show a bit more backbone sometimes. If she stood up to him once in a while, she might get him to see reason, since she's the only housekeeper he has. What would he do if she decided to stop? If I were in Miranda's position, I'd find a way to manage Whiskers-on-the-moon. I would horse-whip him or bite him if that’s what it took. But Miranda is a meek and obedient daughter whose days should be long in the land."
"I couldn't get anyone else to take the part, because nobody liked it, so finally I had to take it myself. Olive Kirk is on the concert committee and goes against me in every single thing. But I got my way in asking Mrs. Channing to come out from town and sing for us, anyhow. She is a beautiful singer and will draw such a crowd that we will make more than we will have to pay her. Olive Kirk thought our local talent good enough and Minnie Clow won't sing at all now in the choruses because she would be so nervous before Mrs. Channing. And Minnie is the only good alto we have! There are times when I am so exasperated that I feel tempted to wash my hands of the whole affair; but after I dance round my room a few times in sheer rage I cool down and have another whack at it. Just at present I am racked with worry for fear the Isaac Reeses are taking whooping-cough. They have all got a dreadful cold and there are five of them who have important parts in the programme and if they go and develop whooping-cough what shall I do? Dick Reese's violin solo is to be one of our titbits and Kit Reese is in every tableau and the three small girls have the cutest flag-drill. I've been toiling for weeks to train them in it, and now it seems likely that all my trouble will go for nothing.
"I couldn't find anyone else to take the role because nobody wanted it, so I ended up having to do it myself. Olive Kirk is on the concert committee and opposes me on everything. But I managed to get Mrs. Channing to come out from the city and perform for us. She's a fantastic singer and will attract such a crowd that we'll make more than we have to pay her. Olive Kirk thought our local talent was good enough, and Minnie Clow won't sing in the choruses anymore because she'd be too nervous around Mrs. Channing. And Minnie is the only good alto we have! There are times when I'm so frustrated that I want to just walk away from the whole thing; but after I pace around my room a few times in anger, I calm down and tackle it again. Right now, I'm really worried that the Isaac Reeses might be coming down with whooping cough. They all have a terrible cold and there are five of them with important parts in the program, and if they end up with whooping cough, what will I do? Dick Reese's violin solo is supposed to be one of our highlights, and Kit Reese is in every tableau, plus the three little girls have the cutest flag drill. I've been working hard for weeks to train them on it, and now it looks like all my effort might be wasted."
"Jims cut his first tooth today. I am very glad, for he is nearly nine months old and Mary Vance has been insinuating that he is awfully backward about cutting his teeth. He has begun to creep but doesn't crawl as most babies do. He trots about on all fours and carries things in his mouth like a little dog. Nobody can say he isn't up to schedule time in the matter of creeping anyway—away ahead of it indeed, since ten months is Morgan's average for creeping. He is so cute, it will be a shame if his dad never sees him. His hair is coming on nicely too, and I am not without hope that it will be curly.
"Jims cut his first tooth today. I'm really happy because he's almost nine months old, and Mary Vance has been implying that he’s pretty behind on getting his teeth. He has started to creep but doesn't crawl like most babies do. He moves around on all fours and carries things in his mouth like a little dog. No one can say he isn’t on track with creeping—he's actually ahead of schedule since the average for creeping is ten months. He’s so cute; it would be a shame if his dad never gets to see him. His hair is growing in nicely, and I’m hopeful that it will be curly."
"Just for a few minutes, while I've been writing of Jims and the concert, I've forgotten Ypres and the poison gas and the casualty lists. Now it all rushes back, worse than ever. Oh, if we could just know that Jem is all right! I used to be so furious with Jem when he called me Spider. And now, if he would just come whistling through the hall and call out, 'Hello, Spider,' as he used to do, I would think it the loveliest name in the world."
"Just for a few minutes, while I've been writing about Jims and the concert, I've forgotten about Ypres and the poison gas and the casualty lists. Now it all floods back, worse than ever. Oh, if only we could know that Jem is okay! I used to get so angry with Jem when he called me Spider. And now, if he would just come whistling through the hall and say, 'Hello, Spider,' like he used to, I would think it’s the sweetest name in the world."
Rilla put away her diary and went out to the garden. The spring evening was very lovely. The long, green, seaward-looking glen was filled with dusk, and beyond it were meadows of sunset. The harbour was radiant, purple here, azure there, opal elsewhere. The maple grove was beginning to be misty green. Rilla looked about her with wistful eyes. Who said that spring was the joy of the year? It was the heart-break of the year. And the pale-purply mornings and the daffodil stars and the wind in the old pine were so many separate pangs of the heart-break. Would life ever be free from dread again?
Rilla closed her diary and stepped out into the garden. The spring evening was beautiful. The long, green glen that looked out to sea was filled with twilight, and beyond it lay meadows bathed in the colors of sunset. The harbor was glowing, purple in some places, blue in others, and opalescent in between. The maple grove was starting to turn a misty green. Rilla surveyed her surroundings with longing eyes. Who said that spring was the joyful season? It felt more like the heartache of the year. The pale purple mornings, the daffodil stars, and the wind rustling through the old pine were just various reminders of that heartache. Would life ever be free of anxiety again?
"It's good to see P.E.I. twilight once more," said Walter, joining her. "I didn't really remember that the sea was so blue and the roads so red and the wood nooks so wild and fairy haunted. Yes, the fairies still abide here. I vow I could find scores of them under the violets in Rainbow Valley."
"It's great to see P.E.I. at twilight again," said Walter, joining her. "I had forgotten how blue the sea is, how red the roads are, and how wild and enchanted the wooded nooks are. Yes, the fairies are still here. I swear I could find plenty of them under the violets in Rainbow Valley."
Rilla was momentarily happy. This sounded like the Walter of yore. She hoped he was forgetting certain things that had troubled him.
Rilla felt a brief joy. This sounded like the Walter she remembered. She hoped he was starting to let go of some things that had been bothering him.
"And isn't the sky blue over Rainbow Valley?" she said, responding to his mood. "Blue—blue—you'd have to say 'blue' a hundred times before you could express how blue it is."
"And isn't the sky blue over Rainbow Valley?" she said, picking up on his mood. "Blue—blue—you'd have to say 'blue' a hundred times before you could capture how blue it really is."
Susan wandered by, her head tied up with a shawl, her hands full of garden implements. Doc, stealthy and wild-eyed, was shadowing her steps among the spirea bushes.
Susan strolled by, her head wrapped in a shawl, her hands full of gardening tools. Doc, sneaky and wild-eyed, was following her closely among the spirea bushes.
"The sky may be blue," said Susan, "but that cat has been Hyde all day so we will likely have rain tonight and by the same token I have rheumatism in my shoulder."
"The sky might be blue," said Susan, "but that cat has been acting weird all day, so we’ll probably get rain tonight, and on top of that, I have arthritis in my shoulder."
"It may rain—but don't think rheumatism, Susan—think violets," said Walter gaily—rather too gaily, Rilla thought.
"It might rain—but don't worry about rheumatism, Susan—think about violets," said Walter cheerfully—maybe a bit too cheerfully, Rilla thought.
Susan considered him unsympathetic.
Susan thought he was heartless.
"Indeed, Walter dear, I do not know what you mean by thinking violets," she responded stiffly, "and rheumatism is not a thing to be joked about, as you may some day realize for yourself. I hope I am not of the kind that is always complaining of their aches and pains, especially now when the news is so terrible. Rheumatism is bad enough but I realize, and none better, that it is not to be compared to being gassed by the Huns."
"Honestly, Walter, I have no idea what you mean by thinking about violets," she replied stiffly. "And rheumatism isn't something to joke about, as you might understand someday. I hope I'm not the type who constantly complains about aches and pains, especially now when the news is so awful. Rheumatism is bad enough, but I know very well that it can't compare to being gassed by the enemy."
"Oh, my God, no!" exclaimed Walter passionately. He turned and went back to the house.
"Oh my God, no!" Walter exclaimed passionately. He turned around and headed back to the house.
Susan shook her head. She disapproved entirely of such ejaculations. "I hope he will not let his mother hear him talking like that," she thought as she stacked the hoes and rake away.
Susan shook her head. She completely disapproved of such outbursts. "I hope he doesn’t let his mother hear him talking like that," she thought as she put the hoes and rake away.
Rilla was standing among the budding daffodils with tear-filled eyes. Her evening was spoiled; she detested Susan, who had somehow hurt Walter; and Jem—had Jem been gassed? Had he died in torture?
Rilla was standing among the blooming daffodils with teary eyes. Her evening was ruined; she couldn't stand Susan, who had somehow hurt Walter; and Jem—had Jem been gassed? Had he died suffering?
"I can't endure this suspense any longer," said Rilla desperately.
"I can't take this suspense anymore," Rilla said desperately.
But she endured it as the others did for another week. Then a letter came from Jem. He was all right.
But she put up with it like everyone else for another week. Then a letter arrived from Jem. He was doing okay.
"I've come through without a scratch, dad. Don't know how I or any of us did it. You'll have seen all about it in the papers—I can't write of it. But the Huns haven't got through—they won't get through. Jerry was knocked stiff by a shell one time, but it was only the shock. He was all right in a few days. Grant is safe, too."
"I came out without a scratch, Dad. I have no idea how I or any of us pulled it off. You must have read all about it in the papers—I can't write about it. But the Huns didn't get through—they won't get through. Jerry got knocked down by a shell once, but it was just the shock. He was fine in a few days. Grant is safe, too."
Nan had a letter from Jerry Meredith. "I came back to consciousness at dawn," he wrote. "Couldn't tell what had happened to me but thought that I was done for. I was all alone and afraid—terribly afraid. Dead men were all around me, lying on the horrible grey, slimy fields. I was woefully thirsty—and I thought of David and the Bethlehem water—and of the old spring in Rainbow Valley under the maples. I seemed to see it just before me—and you standing laughing on the other side of it—and I thought it was all over with me. And I didn't care. Honestly, I didn't care. I just felt a dreadful childish fear of loneliness and of those dead men around me, and a sort of wonder how this could have happened to me. Then they found me and carted me off and before long I discovered that there wasn't really anything wrong with me. I'm going back to the trenches tomorrow. Every man is needed there that can be got."
Nan had a letter from Jerry Meredith. "I woke up at dawn," he wrote. "I couldn't figure out what had happened to me but thought I was done for. I was all alone and scared—terribly scared. Dead men were all around me, lying on the horrible gray, slimy fields. I was incredibly thirsty—and I thought of David and the water from Bethlehem—and of the old spring in Rainbow Valley under the maples. I seemed to see it right in front of me—and you standing there laughing on the other side of it—and I thought it was all over for me. And I didn't care. Honestly, I didn't care. I just felt a terrible childish fear of being alone and of those dead men around me, and I wondered how this could have happened to me. Then they found me and took me away, and before long I realized that nothing was really wrong with me. I'm going back to the trenches tomorrow. Every man is needed there who can be got."
"Laughter is gone out of the world," said Faith Meredith, who had come over to report on her letters. "I remember telling old Mrs. Taylor long ago that the world was a world of laughter. But it isn't so any longer."
"Laughter has disappeared from the world," said Faith Meredith, who had come over to share her letters. "I remember telling old Mrs. Taylor a long time ago that the world was a place full of laughter. But that’s not the case anymore."
"It's a shriek of anguish," said Gertrude Oliver.
"It's a scream of pain," said Gertrude Oliver.
"We must keep a little laughter, girls," said Mrs. Blythe. "A good laugh is as good as a prayer sometimes—only sometimes," she added under her breath. She had found it very hard to laugh during the three weeks she had just lived through—she, Anne Blythe, to whom laughter had always come so easily and freshly. And what hurt most was that Rilla's laughter had grown so rare—Rilla whom she used to think laughed over-much. Was all the child's girlhood to be so clouded? Yet how strong and clever and womanly she was growing! How patiently she knitted and sewed and manipulated those uncertain Junior Reds! And how wonderful she was with Jims.
"We need to hold onto a little laughter, girls," Mrs. Blythe said. "A good laugh can be as powerful as a prayer sometimes—only sometimes," she added quietly. She had found it really hard to laugh during the three weeks she had just gone through—she, Anne Blythe, who had always found laughter so easy and refreshing. What hurt the most was that Rilla's laughter had become so rare—Rilla, who she used to think laughed too much. Was all of the girl's childhood going to be overshadowed? Yet how strong and smart and mature she was becoming! How patiently she knitted and sewed and managed those uncertain Junior Reds! And how wonderful she was with Jims.
"She really could not do better for that child than if she had raised a baker's dozen, Mrs. Dr. dear," Susan had avowed solemnly. "Little did I ever expect it of her on the day she landed here with that soup tureen."
"She really couldn't have done better for that kid than if she had raised thirteen of them, Mrs. Dr. dear," Susan had declared seriously. "I never expected it from her on the day she showed up here with that soup tureen."
CHAPTER XIII
A SLICE OF HUMBLE PIE
"I am very much afraid, Mrs. Dr. dear," said Susan, who had been on a pilgrimage to the station with some choice bones for Dog Monday, "that something terrible has happened. Whiskers-on-the-moon came off the train from Charlottetown and he was looking pleased. I do not remember that I ever saw him with a smile on in public before. Of course he may have just been getting the better of somebody in a cattle deal but I have an awful presentiment that the Huns have broken through somewhere."
"I’m really worried, Mrs. Dr. dear," said Susan, who had gone to the station with some special bones for Dog Monday, "that something terrible has happened. Whiskers-on-the-moon got off the train from Charlottetown, and he looked happy. I don’t think I’ve ever seen him smile in public before. Of course, he might just have won a cattle deal or something, but I have a terrible feeling that the Huns have broken through somewhere."
Perhaps Susan was unjust in connecting Mr. Pryor's smile with the sinking of the Lusitania, news of which circulated an hour later when the mail was distributed. But the Glen boys turned out that night in a body and broke all his windows in a fine frenzy of indignation over the Kaiser's doings.
Maybe Susan was unfair in linking Mr. Pryor's smile to the sinking of the Lusitania, news of which spread an hour later when the mail was delivered. But the boys from Glen showed up that night as a group and smashed all his windows in a fit of anger over the Kaiser's actions.
"I do not say they did right and I do not say they did wrong," said Susan, when she heard of it. "But I will say that I wouldn't have minded throwing a few stones myself. One thing is certain—Whiskers-on-the-moon said in the post office the day the news came, in the presence of witnesses, that folks who could not stay home after they had been warned deserved no better fate. Norman Douglas is fairly foaming at the mouth over it all. 'If the devil doesn't get those men who sunk the Lusitania then there is no use in there being a devil,' he was shouting in Carter's store last night. Norman Douglas always has believed that anybody who opposed him was on the side of the devil, but a man like that is bound to be right once in a while. Bruce Meredith is worrying over the babies who were drowned. And it seems he prayed for something very special last Friday night and didn't get it, and was feeling quite disgruntled over it. But when he heard about the Lusitania he told his mother that he understood now why God didn't answer his prayer—He was too busy attending to the souls of all the people who went down on the Lusitania. That child's brain is a hundred years older than his body, Mrs. Dr. dear. As for the Lusitania, it is an awful occurrence, whatever way you look at it. But Woodrow Wilson is going to write a note about it, so why worry? A pretty president!" and Susan banged her pots about wrathfully. President Wilson was rapidly becoming anathema in Susan's kitchen.
"I’m not saying they did the right thing, and I’m not saying they did the wrong thing," Susan said when she heard the news. "But I will say I wouldn’t have minded throwing a few stones myself. One thing is for sure—Whiskers-on-the-moon said in the post office the day the news broke, in front of witnesses, that people who couldn’t stay home after being warned deserved whatever happened to them. Norman Douglas is really furious about it all. 'If the devil doesn’t get those men who sank the Lusitania then there’s no point in having a devil,' he was shouting in Carter's store last night. Norman Douglas has always believed that anyone who disagreed with him was on the devil's side, but a guy like that is bound to be right once in a while. Bruce Meredith is worried about the babies who drowned. It seems he prayed for something very specific last Friday night and didn’t get it, so he was feeling quite upset about it. But when he heard about the Lusitania, he told his mother he understood why God didn’t answer his prayer—He was too busy looking after the souls of everyone who went down with the Lusitania. That kid’s brain is a hundred years older than his body, Mrs. Dr. dear. As for the Lusitania, it’s a terrible event, no matter how you look at it. But Woodrow Wilson is going to write a note about it, so why stress? What a great president!" Susan huffed as she banged her pots around angrily. President Wilson was quickly becoming unpopular in Susan's kitchen.
Mary Vance dropped in one evening to tell the Ingleside folks that she had withdrawn all opposition to Miller Douglas's enlisting.
Mary Vance stopped by one evening to let the Ingleside family know that she had dropped all opposition to Miller Douglas's enlistment.
"This Lusitania business was too much for me," said Mary brusquely. "When the Kaiser takes to drowning innocent babies it's high time somebody told him where he gets off at. This thing must be fought to a finish. It's been soaking into my mind slow but I'm on now. So I up and told Miller he could go as far as I was concerned. Old Kitty Alec won't be converted though. If every ship in the world was submarined and every baby drowned, Kitty wouldn't turn a hair. But I flatter myself that it was me kept Miller back all along and not the fair Kitty. I may have deceived myself—but we shall see."
"This Lusitania situation is too much for me," Mary said bluntly. "When the Kaiser starts drowning innocent babies, it's about time someone told him he's gone too far. This needs to be fought to the end. It's been getting to me slowly, but I get it now. So, I told Miller he could go as far as he wanted. Old Kitty Alec won't be swayed, though. If every ship in the world was sunk and every baby drowned, Kitty wouldn't blink. But I like to think it was me who held Miller back all along, not the charming Kitty. I might be fooling myself—but we’ll see."
They did see. The next Sunday Miller Douglas walked into the Glen Church beside Mary Vance in khaki. And Mary was so proud of him that her white eyes fairly blazed. Joe Milgrave, back under the gallery, looked at Miller and Mary and then at Miranda Pryor, and sighed so heavily that every one within a radius of three pews heard him and knew what his trouble was. Walter Blythe did not sigh. But Rilla, scanning his face anxiously, saw a look that cut into her heart. It haunted her for the next week and made an undercurrent of soreness in her soul, which was externally being harrowed up by the near approach of the Red Cross concert and the worries connected therewith. The Reese cold had not developed into whooping-cough, so that tangle was straightened out. But other things were hanging in the balance; and on the very day before the concert came a regretful letter from Mrs. Channing saying that she could not come to sing. Her son, who was in Kingsport with his regiment, was seriously ill with pneumonia, and she must go to him at once.
They did see. The next Sunday, Miller Douglas walked into the Glen Church next to Mary Vance, dressed in khaki. Mary was so proud of him that her bright eyes practically glowed. Joe Milgrave, sitting back under the gallery, looked at Miller and Mary and then at Miranda Pryor, and sighed so heavily that everyone within three pews could hear him and knew what was bothering him. Walter Blythe didn’t sigh. But Rilla, watching his face anxiously, saw an expression that pierced her heart. It haunted her for the next week and created a persistent ache in her soul, which was being further stressed by the upcoming Red Cross concert and the worries that came with it. The Reese cold hadn’t turned into whooping cough, so that issue was resolved. But other things were up in the air; and on the very day before the concert, Rilla received a regretful letter from Mrs. Channing saying she couldn’t come to sing. Her son, who was in Kingsport with his regiment, was seriously ill with pneumonia, and she had to go to him right away.
The members of the concert committee looked at each other in blank dismay. What was to be done?
The members of the concert committee stared at each other in shock. What should they do?
"This comes of depending on outside help," said Olive Kirk, disagreeably.
"This is what happens when you rely on help from others," said Olive Kirk, unpleasantly.
"We must do something," said Rilla, too desperate to care for Olive's manner. "We've advertised the concert everywhere—and crowds are coming—there's even a big party coming out from town—and we were short enough of music as it was. We must get some one to sing in Mrs. Channing's place."
"We have to do something," Rilla said, too desperate to worry about Olive's attitude. "We've promoted the concert everywhere—and crowds are coming—there's even a big group coming in from town—and we were already short on music. We need to find someone to sing in Mrs. Channing's place."
"I don't know who you can get at this late date," said Olive. "Irene Howard could do it; but it is not likely she will after the way she was insulted by our society."
"I don’t know who you can find at this late hour," Olive said. "Irene Howard could handle it, but it’s unlikely she will after the way our society insulted her."
"How did our society insult her?" asked Rilla, in what she called her 'cold-pale tone.' Its coldness and pallor did not daunt Olive.
"How did our society insult her?" Rilla asked, using what she referred to as her 'cold-pale tone.' The chill and lack of warmth in her voice didn't intimidate Olive.
"You insulted her," she answered sharply. "Irene told me all about it—she was literally heart-broken. You told her never to speak to you again—and Irene told me she simply could not imagine what she had said or done to deserve such treatment. That was why she never came to our meetings again but joined in with the Lowbridge Red Cross. I do not blame her in the least, and I, for one, will not ask her to lower herself by helping us out of this scrape."
"You insulted her," she replied sharply. "Irene told me everything—she was completely heartbroken. You told her never to talk to you again—and Irene said she just couldn’t understand what she had said or done to deserve that treatment. That’s why she never came to our meetings again and instead joined the Lowbridge Red Cross. I don’t blame her at all, and I, for one, won’t ask her to lower herself by helping us out of this mess."
"You don't expect me to ask her?" giggled Amy MacAllister, the other member of the committee. "Irene and I haven't spoken for a hundred years. Irene is always getting 'insulted' by somebody. But she is a lovely singer, I'll admit that, and people would just as soon hear her as Mrs. Channing."
"You don't expect me to ask her?" giggled Amy MacAllister, the other member of the committee. "Irene and I haven't talked in ages. Irene is always getting 'insulted' by someone. But I have to admit, she’s a fantastic singer, and people would just as soon listen to her as to Mrs. Channing."
"It wouldn't do any good if you did ask her," said Olive significantly. "Soon after we began planning this concert, back in April, I met Irene in town one day and asked her if she wouldn't help us out. She said she'd love to but she really didn't see how she could when Rilla Blythe was running the programme, after the strange way Rilla had behaved to her. So there it is and here we are, and a nice failure our concert will be."
"It wouldn’t help if you did ask her," Olive said meaningfully. "Not long after we started planning this concert back in April, I ran into Irene in town and asked if she could help us out. She said she’d love to, but she really didn’t see how she could with Rilla Blythe running the show, especially after the weird way Rilla had acted toward her. So that’s the situation, and here we are, and our concert is bound to be a big flop."
Rilla went home and shut herself up in her room, her soul in a turmoil. She would not humiliate herself by apologizing to Irene Howard! Irene had been as much in the wrong as she had been; and she had told such mean, distorted versions of their quarrel everywhere, posing as a puzzled, injured martyr. Rilla could never bring herself to tell her side of it. The fact that a slur at Walter was mixed up in it tied her tongue. So most people believed that Irene had been badly used, except a few girls who had never liked her and sided with Rilla. And yet—the concert over which she had worked so hard was going to be a failure. Mrs. Channing's four solos were the feature of the whole programme.
Rilla went home and locked herself in her room, her mind in a whirlwind. She wouldn’t embarrass herself by apologizing to Irene Howard! Irene had been just as wrong as she was; and she had spread such mean, twisted stories about their fight everywhere, acting like a confused, hurt victim. Rilla could never bring herself to share her side of the story. The fact that a dig at Walter was involved made her speechless. So most people thought that Irene had been mistreated, except for a few girls who had never liked her and stood with Rilla. And yet—the concert that she had worked so hard on was going to be a failure. Mrs. Channing's four solos were the highlight of the entire program.
"Miss Oliver, what do you think about it?" she asked in desperation.
"Miss Oliver, what do you think about it?" she asked desperately.
"I think Irene is the one who should apologize," said Miss Oliver. "But unfortunately my opinion will not fill the blanks in your programme."
"I think Irene is the one who should apologize," said Miss Oliver. "But unfortunately, my opinion won’t fill the gaps in your program."
"If I went and apologized meekly to Irene she would sing, I am sure," sighed Rilla. "She really loves to sing in public. But I know she'll be nasty about it—I feel I'd rather do anything than go. I suppose I should go—if Jem and Jerry can face the Huns surely I can face Irene Howard, and swallow my pride to ask a favour of her for the good of the Belgians. Just at present I feel that I cannot do it but for all that I have a presentiment that after supper you'll see me meekly trotting through Rainbow Valley on my way to the Upper Glen Road."
"If I went and apologized to Irene, she'd definitely sing, I'm sure," sighed Rilla. "She really loves performing in public. But I know she’ll make it unpleasant—I feel like I’d rather do anything than go. I guess I should go—if Jem and Jerry can face the Huns, then I can face Irene Howard and swallow my pride to ask her for a favor for the sake of the Belgians. Right now, I feel like I can’t do it, but I have a feeling that after dinner, you’ll see me reluctantly making my way through Rainbow Valley on my way to the Upper Glen Road."
Rilla's presentiment proved correct. After supper she dressed herself carefully in her blue, beaded crepe—for vanity is harder to quell than pride and Irene always saw any flaw or shortcoming in another girl's appearance. Besides, as Rilla had told her mother one day when she was nine years old, "It is easier to behave nicely when you have your good clothes on."
Rilla's feeling turned out to be right. After dinner, she took her time getting ready in her blue, beaded crepe dress—because vanity is harder to suppress than pride, and Irene always noticed any flaw or imperfection in another girl's looks. Also, as Rilla told her mom one day when she was nine, "It's easier to act nicely when you're wearing your nice clothes."
Rilla did her hair very becomingly and donned a long raincoat for fear of a shower. But all the while her thoughts were concerned with the coming distasteful interview, and she kept rehearsing mentally her part in it. She wished it were over—she wished she had never tried to get up a Belgian Relief concert—she wished she had not quarreled with Irene. After all, disdainful silence would have been much more effective in meeting the slur upon Walter. It was foolish and childish to fly out as she had done—well, she would be wiser in the future, but meanwhile a large and very unpalatable slice of humble pie had to be eaten, and Rilla Blythe was no fonder of that wholesome article of diet than the rest of us.
Rilla styled her hair nicely and put on a long raincoat just in case it rained. But the whole time, she was focused on the uncomfortable meeting ahead, mentally going over her part in it. She wished it were done—she regretted trying to organize a Belgian Relief concert—she regretted arguing with Irene. After all, keeping a cool, silent demeanor would have been much more effective in addressing the insult toward Walter. It was petty and immature to react the way she did—well, she’d be smarter about it next time, but for now, she had to swallow a big, bitter slice of humble pie, and Rilla Blythe didn't like that any more than the rest of us did.
By sunset she was at the door of the Howard house—a pretentious abode, with white scroll-work round the eaves and an eruption of bay-windows on all its sides. Mrs. Howard, a plump, voluble dame, met Rilla gushingly and left her in the parlour while she went to call Irene. Rilla threw off her rain-coat and looked at herself critically in the mirror over the mantel. Hair, hat, and dress were satisfactory—nothing there for Miss Irene to make fun of. Rilla remembered how clever and amusing she used to think Irene's biting little comments about other girls. Well, it had come home to her now.
By sunset, she arrived at the Howard house—a showy home with white scrollwork around the eaves and an abundance of bay windows on all sides. Mrs. Howard, a plump and talkative woman, greeted Rilla enthusiastically and left her in the living room while she went to fetch Irene. Rilla took off her raincoat and examined herself critically in the mirror above the mantel. Her hair, hat, and dress looked good—nothing there for Miss Irene to tease her about. Rilla remembered how clever and funny she used to think Irene's sharp remarks about other girls were. Well, it had hit home for her now.
Presently, Irene skimmed down, elegantly gowned, with her pale, straw-coloured hair done in the latest and most extreme fashion, and an over-luscious atmosphere of perfume enveloping her.
Currently, Irene glided down, dressed elegantly, with her light, straw-colored hair styled in the trendiest and most extravagant fashion, surrounded by an overpowering scent of perfume.
"Why how do you do, Miss Blythe?" she said sweetly. "This is a very unexpected pleasure."
"How are you, Miss Blythe?" she said warmly. "This is a lovely surprise."
Rilla had risen to take Irene's chilly finger-tips and now, as she sat down again, she saw something that temporarily stunned her. Irene saw it too, as she sat down, and a little amused, impertinent smile appeared on her lips and hovered there during the rest of the interview.
Rilla had stood up to take Irene's icy fingertips and now, as she sat back down, she noticed something that momentarily shocked her. Irene noticed it too, as she took her seat, and a slight, cheeky smile appeared on her lips, lingering throughout the rest of the conversation.
On one of Rilla's feet was a smart little steel-buckled shoe and a filmy blue silk stocking. The other was clad in a stout and rather shabby boot and black lisle!
On one of Rilla's feet was a stylish little shoe with a steel buckle and a sheer blue silk stocking. The other was in a sturdy and somewhat worn boot and black lisle!
Poor Rilla! She had changed, or begun to change her boots and stockings after she had put on her dress. This was the result of doing one thing with your hands and another with your brain. Oh, what a ridiculous position to be in—and before Irene Howard of all people—Irene, who was staring at Rilla's feet as if she had never seen feet before! And once she had thought Irene's manner perfection! Everything that Rilla had prepared to say vanished from her memory. Vainly trying to tuck her unlucky foot under her chair, she blurted out a blunt statement.
Poor Rilla! She had changed, or was starting to change, her shoes and stockings after she put on her dress. This was the result of doing one thing with her hands and another with her mind. Oh, what a ridiculous situation to be in—and in front of Irene Howard of all people—Irene, who was staring at Rilla's feet as if she had never seen feet before! And once, she had thought Irene's behavior was perfect! Everything Rilla had planned to say completely left her mind. Frantically trying to tuck her unfortunate foot under her chair, she blurted out a blunt remark.
"I have come to athk a favour of you, Irene."
"I've come to ask a favor of you, Irene."
There—lisping! Oh, she had been prepared for humiliation but not to this extent! Really, there were limits!
There—lisping! Oh, she had braced herself for embarrassment but not to this degree! Honestly, there are limits!
"Yes?" said Irene in a cool, questioning tone, lifting her shallowly-set, insolent eyes to Rilla's crimson face for a moment and then dropping them again as if she could not tear them from their fascinated gaze at the shabby boot and the gallant shoe.
"Yes?" Irene said in a cool, questioning tone, lifting her shallow, insolent eyes to Rilla's flushed face for a moment before dropping them again, as if she couldn’t pull them away from their fascinated gaze at the worn-out boot and the dashing shoe.
Rilla gathered herself together. She would not lisp—she would be calm and composed.
Rilla pulled herself together. She wouldn’t speak in a high-pitched voice—she would stay calm and composed.
"Mrs. Channing cannot come because her son is ill in Kingsport, and I have come on behalf of the committee to ask you if you will be so kind as to sing for us in her place." Rilla enunciated every word so precisely and carefully that she seemed to be reciting a lesson.
"Mrs. Channing can’t make it because her son is sick in Kingsport, and I’m here on behalf of the committee to ask if you would be kind enough to sing for us instead." Rilla pronounced every word so clearly and thoughtfully that it felt like she was reciting a lesson.
"It's something of a fiddler's invitation, isn't it?" said Irene, with one of her disagreeable smiles.
"It's kind of like a fiddler's invitation, right?" said Irene, with one of her unpleasant smiles.
"Olive Kirk asked you to help when we first thought of the concert and you refused," said Rilla.
"Olive Kirk asked you to help when we first came up with the idea for the concert, and you said no," Rilla said.
"Why, I could hardly help—then—could I?" asked Irene plaintively. "After you ordered me never to speak to you again? It would have been very awkward for us both, don't you think?"
"Why, I could barely help myself—back then—could I?" Irene asked sadly. "After you told me never to talk to you again? It would have been really uncomfortable for both of us, don’t you think?"
Now for the humble pie.
Now for the reality check.
"I want to apologize to you for saying that, Irene." said Rilla steadily. "I should not have said it and I have been very sorry ever since. Will you forgive me?"
"I want to apologize for saying that, Irene," Rilla said calmly. "I shouldn’t have said it, and I’ve been really sorry ever since. Will you forgive me?"
"And sing at your concert?" said Irene sweetly and insultingly.
"And are you going to sing at your concert?" Irene said sweetly but with a hint of sarcasm.
"If you mean," said Rilla miserably, "that I would not be apologizing to you if it were not for the concert perhaps that is true. But it is also true that I have felt ever since it happened that I should not have said what I did and that I have been sorry for it all winter. That is all I can say. If you feel you can't forgive me I suppose there is nothing more to be said."
"If you mean," Rilla said sadly, "that I wouldn't be apologizing to you if it weren't for the concert, then maybe that's true. But it's also true that ever since it happened, I've felt that I shouldn't have said what I did and that I've been sorry about it all winter. That's all I can say. If you feel like you can't forgive me, I guess there's nothing more to discuss."
"Oh, Rilla dear, don't snap me up like that," pleaded Irene. "Of course I'll forgive you—though I did feel awfully about it—how awfully I hope you'll never know. I cried for weeks over it. And I hadn't said or done a thing!"
"Oh, Rilla dear, please don't snap at me like that," Irene pleaded. "Of course I'll forgive you—although I felt really terrible about it—how much I hope you never find out. I cried for weeks over it. And I hadn't said or done anything!"
Rilla choked back a retort. After all, there was no use in arguing with Irene, and the Belgians were starving.
Rilla held back a response. After all, arguing with Irene was pointless, and the Belgians were starving.
"Don't you think you can help us with the concert," she forced herself to say. Oh, if only Irene would stop looking at that boot! Rilla could just hear her giving Olive Kirk an account of it.
"Don't you think you can help us with the concert?" she managed to say. Oh, if only Irene would stop staring at that boot! Rilla could almost hear her telling Olive Kirk all about it.
"I don't see how I really can at the last moment like this," protested Irene. "There isn't time to learn anything new."
"I don't see how I can do this at the last minute," Irene complained. "There's no time to learn anything new."
"Oh, you have lots of lovely songs that nobody in the Glen ever heard before," said Rilla, who knew Irene had been going to town all winter for lessons and that this was only a pretext. "They will all be new down there."
"Oh, you have so many beautiful songs that nobody in the Glen has ever heard before," said Rilla, who knew Irene had been going to town all winter for lessons and that this was just an excuse. "They'll all be new down there."
"But I have no accompanist," protested Irene.
"But I don't have anyone to play along with me," protested Irene.
"Una Meredith can accompany you," said Rilla.
"Una Meredith can go with you," said Rilla.
"Oh, I couldn't ask her," sighed Irene. "We haven't spoken since last fall. She was so hateful to me the time of our Sunday-school concert that I simply had to give her up."
"Oh, I can't ask her," sighed Irene. "We haven't talked since last fall. She was so awful to me during our Sunday-school concert that I just had to let her go."
Dear, dear, was Irene at feud with everybody? As for Una Meredith being hateful to anybody, the idea was so farcical that Rilla had much ado to keep from laughing in Irene's very face.
Dear, was Irene on bad terms with everyone? The thought of Una Meredith being mean to anyone was so ridiculous that Rilla barely managed to keep from laughing right in Irene's face.
"Miss Oliver is a beautiful pianist and can play any accompaniment at sight," said Rilla desperately. "She will play for you and you could run over your songs easily tomorrow evening at Ingleside before the concert."
"Miss Oliver is a talented pianist and can play any accompaniment on the spot," Rilla said urgently. "She'll play for you, and you can easily practice your songs tomorrow evening at Ingleside before the concert."
"But I haven't anything to wear. My new evening-dress isn't home from Charlottetown yet, and I simply cannot wear my old one at such a big affair. It is too shabby and old-fashioned."
"But I don't have anything to wear. My new evening dress isn't back from Charlottetown yet, and I just can't wear my old one to such a big event. It's too shabby and out of style."
"Our concert," said Rilla slowly, "is in aid of Belgian children who are starving to death. Don't you think you could wear a shabby dress once for their sake, Irene?"
"Our concert," Rilla said slowly, "is to help the Belgian children who are starving to death. Don’t you think you could wear an old dress just this once for their sake, Irene?"
"Oh, don't you think those accounts we get of the conditions of the Belgians are very much exaggerated?" said Irene. "I'm sure they can't be actually starving you know, in the twentieth century. The newspapers always colour things so highly."
"Oh, don't you think the stories we hear about the conditions in Belgium are really exaggerated?" said Irene. "I'm sure they can't actually be starving, you know, in the twentieth century. The newspapers always twist things so much."
Rilla concluded that she had humiliated herself enough. There was such a thing as self-respect. No more coaxing, concert or no concert. She got up, boot and all.
Rilla decided she had embarrassed herself enough. There was such a thing as self-respect. No more begging, concert or no concert. She got up, boots and all.
"I am sorry you can't help us, Irene, but since you cannot we must do the best we can."
"I'm sorry you can't help us, Irene, but since you can't, we have to do the best we can."
Now this did not suit Irene at all. She desired exceedingly to sing at that concert, and all her hesitations were merely by way of enhancing the boon of her final consent. Besides, she really wanted to be friends with Rilla again. Rilla's whole-hearted, ungrudging adoration had been very sweet incense to her. And Ingleside was a very charming house to visit, especially when a handsome college student like Walter was home. She stopped looking at Rilla's feet.
Now this didn't sit well with Irene at all. She really wanted to sing at that concert, and all her doubts were just a way of building up to her eventual yes. Plus, she genuinely wanted to be friends with Rilla again. Rilla's sincere, generous affection had been like sweet perfume to her. And Ingleside was a lovely place to visit, especially when a good-looking college student like Walter was around. She stopped staring at Rilla's feet.
"Rilla, darling, don't be so abrupt. I really want to help you, if I can manage it. Just sit down and let's talk it over."
"Rilla, sweetheart, don't be so short. I genuinely want to help you, if I can. Just sit down and let's discuss it."
"I'm sorry, but I can't. I have to be home soon—Jims has to be settled for the night, you know."
"I'm sorry, but I can't. I need to be home soon—Jims has to be settled for the night, you know."
"Oh, yes—the baby you are bringing up by the book. It's perfectly sweet of you to do it when you hate children so. How cross you were just because I kissed him! But we'll forget all that and be chums again, won't we? Now, about the concert—I dare say I can run into town on the morning train after my dress, and out again on the afternoon one in plenty of time for the concert, if you'll ask Miss Oliver to play for me. I couldn't—she's so dreadfully haughty and supercilious that she simply paralyses poor little me."
"Oh, yes—the baby you're raising by the book. It's really sweet of you to do that when you can't stand kids. You were so annoyed just because I kissed him! But let’s put that aside and be friends again, okay? Now, about the concert—I think I can catch the morning train into town to grab my dress and then take the afternoon train back in plenty of time for the concert, if you'll ask Miss Oliver to play for me. I couldn't—she's so extremely haughty and stuck-up that she totally intimidates me."
Rilla did not waste time or breath defending Miss Oliver. She coolly thanked Irene, who had suddenly become very amiable and gushing, and got away. She was very thankful the interview was over. But she knew now that she and Irene could never be the friends they had been. Friendly, yes—but friends, no. Nor did she wish it. All winter she had felt under her other and more serious worries, a little feeling of regret for her lost chum. Now it was suddenly gone. Irene was not as Mrs. Elliott would say, of the race that knew Joseph. Rilla did not say or think that she had outgrown Irene. Had the thought occurred to her she would have considered it absurd when she was not yet seventeen and Irene was twenty. But it was the truth. Irene was just what she had been a year ago—just what she would always be. Rilla Blythe's nature in that year had changed and matured and deepened. She found herself seeing through Irene with a disconcerting clearness—discerning under all her superficial sweetness, her pettiness, her vindictiveness, her insincerity, her essential cheapness. Irene had lost for ever her faithful worshipper.
Rilla didn’t waste any time or breath defending Miss Oliver. She coolly thanked Irene, who had suddenly turned very friendly and enthusiastic, and left. She was really glad the conversation was over. But she knew that she and Irene could never be the friends they once were. Friendly, sure—but friends, no. Nor did she want that. All winter, beneath her other more serious worries, she had felt a bit of regret for her lost friendship. Now that feeling was suddenly gone. Irene was not, as Mrs. Elliott would say, part of the elite circle. Rilla didn’t say or think that she had outgrown Irene. If that thought had crossed her mind, she would have found it ridiculous, since she was not yet seventeen and Irene was twenty. But it was the truth. Irene was exactly the same as she had been a year ago—just what she would always be. Rilla Blythe's nature had changed, matured, and deepened over that year. She found herself seeing through Irene with a troubling clarity—recognizing beneath all her surface sweetness, her pettiness, her vindictiveness, her insincerity, her essential cheapness. Irene had lost her devoted admirer for good.
But not until Rilla had traversed the Upper Glen Road and found herself in the moon-dappled solitude of Rainbow Valley did she fully recover her composure of spirit. Then she stopped under a tall wild plum that was ghostly white and fair in its misty spring bloom and laughed.
But it wasn't until Rilla walked along Upper Glen Road and reached the moonlit peace of Rainbow Valley that she fully regained her calm. Then she paused under a tall wild plum tree, which was ghostly white and beautiful in its soft spring flowers, and laughed.
"There is only one thing of importance just now—and that is that the Allies win the war," she said aloud. "Therefore, it follows without dispute that the fact that I went to see Irene Howard with odd shoes and stockings on is of no importance whatever. Nevertheless, I, Bertha Marilla Blythe, swear solemnly with the moon as witness"—Rilla lifted her hand dramatically to the said moon—"that I will never leave my room again without looking carefully at both my feet."
"There’s only one thing that matters right now—and that’s that the Allies win the war," she said out loud. "So it’s clear that the fact that I went to see Irene Howard wearing mismatched shoes and stockings doesn’t matter at all. Still, I, Bertha Marilla Blythe, solemnly swear with the moon as my witness"—Rilla dramatically raised her hand to the moon—"that I will never leave my room again without checking both my feet carefully."
CHAPTER XIV
THE VALLEY OF DECISION
Susan kept the flag flying at Ingleside all the next day, in honour of Italy's declaration of war.
Susan kept the flag flying at Ingleside all the next day, in honor of Italy's declaration of war.
"And not before it was time, Mrs. Dr. dear, considering the way things have begun to go on the Russian front. Say what you will, those Russians are kittle cattle, the grand duke Nicholas to the contrary notwithstanding. It is a fortunate thing for Italy that she has come in on the right side, but whether it is as fortunate for the Allies I will not predict until I know more about Italians than I do now. However, she will give that old reprobate of a Francis Joseph something to think about. A pretty Emperor indeed—with one foot in the grave and yet plotting wholesale murder"—and Susan thumped and kneaded her bread with as much vicious energy as she could have expended in punching Francis Joseph himself if he had been so unlucky as to fall into her clutches.
"And not a moment too soon, Mrs. Dr. dear, considering how things have started to unfold on the Russian front. Say what you want, those Russians are tricky, despite what Grand Duke Nicholas might say. It’s a lucky break for Italy that she’s on the right side, but whether it's as lucky for the Allies, I won’t guess until I know more about Italians than I do now. Still, she’ll give that old scoundrel Francis Joseph something to think about. A fine Emperor indeed—with one foot in the grave and still scheming for mass murder"—and Susan pounded and kneaded her bread with as much fierce energy as she could have used to punch Francis Joseph himself if he had been unfortunate enough to fall into her hands.
Walter had gone to town on the early train, and Nan offered to look after Jims for the day and so set Rilla free. Rilla was wildly busy all day, helping to decorate the Glen hall and seeing to a hundred last things. The evening was beautiful, in spite of the fact that Mr. Pryor was reported to have said that he "hoped it would rain pitch forks points down," and to have wantonly kicked Miranda's dog as he said it. Rilla, rushing home from the hall, dressed hurriedly. Everything had gone surprisingly well at the last; Irene was even then downstairs practising her songs with Miss Oliver; Rilla was excited and happy, forgetful even of the Western front for the moment. It gave her a sense of achievement and victory to have brought her efforts of weeks to such a successful conclusion. She knew that there had not lacked people who thought and hinted that Rilla Blythe had not the tact or patience to engineer a concert programme. She had shown them! Little snatches of song bubbled up from her lips as she dressed. She thought she was looking very well. Excitement brought a faint, becoming pink into her round creamy cheeks, quite drowning out her few freckles, and her hair gleamed with red-brown lustre. Should she wear crab-apple blossoms in it, or her little fillet of pearls? After some agonised wavering she decided on the crab-apple blossoms and tucked the white waxen cluster behind her left ear. Now for a final look at her feet. Yes, both slippers were on. She gave the sleeping Jims a kiss—what a dear little warm, rosy, satin face he had—and hurried down the hill to the hall. Already it was filling—soon it was crowded. Her concert was going to be a brilliant success.
Walter had taken the early train to town, and Nan offered to look after Jims for the day, which gave Rilla some freedom. Rilla was incredibly busy all day, helping to decorate the Glen hall and handling a hundred last-minute tasks. The evening was beautiful, even though Mr. Pryor was rumored to have said he "hoped it would rain pitchforks points down," and he had even kicked Miranda's dog as he said it. Rilla rushed home from the hall and dressed quickly. Everything had gone surprisingly well in the end; Irene was downstairs practicing her songs with Miss Oliver; Rilla felt excited and happy, forgetting about the Western front for the moment. It felt like a real achievement and victory to see her weeks of effort lead to this successful conclusion. She knew there were those who thought and hinted that Rilla Blythe didn’t have the tact or patience to organize a concert program. She had proven them wrong! Snippets of songs bubbled up from her lips as she got ready. She thought she looked great. Excitement brought a faint, pretty pink to her round creamy cheeks, almost covering her few freckles, and her hair shone with a red-brown glow. Should she wear crab-apple blossoms in her hair or her little string of pearls? After some agonizing indecision, she chose the crab-apple blossoms and tucked the white waxy cluster behind her left ear. Now for a final check on her feet. Yes, both slippers were on. She gave the sleeping Jims a kiss—what a dear little warm, rosy, satin face he had—and hurried down the hill to the hall. It was already filling up and soon it would be crowded. Her concert was going to be a huge success.
The first three numbers were successfully over. Rilla was in the little dressing-room behind the platform, looking out on the moonlit harbour and rehearsing her own recitations. She was alone, the rest of the performers being in the larger room on the other side. Suddenly she felt two soft bare arms slipping round her waist, then Irene Howard dropped a light kiss on her cheek.
The first three numbers went off without a hitch. Rilla was in the small dressing room behind the stage, gazing out at the moonlit harbor and practicing her own lines. She was alone since the other performers were in the bigger room on the other side. Suddenly, she felt two soft bare arms wrap around her waist, and then Irene Howard gave her a quick kiss on the cheek.
"Rilla, you sweet thing, you're looking simply angelic to-night. You have spunk—I thought you would feel so badly over Walter's enlisting that you'd hardly be able to bear up at all, and here you are as cool as a cucumber. I wish I had half your nerve."
"Rilla, you lovely thing, you look absolutely angelic tonight. You've got guts—I thought you would feel so upset about Walter enlisting that you wouldn't be able to handle it at all, and here you are, as calm as can be. I wish I had half your courage."
Rilla stood perfectly still. She felt no emotion whatever—she felt nothing. The world of feeling had just gone blank.
Rilla stood completely still. She felt no emotion at all—she felt nothing. The world of feelings had just gone blank.
"Walter—enlisting"—she heard herself saying—then she heard Irene's affected little laugh.
"Walter—enlisting"—she heard herself say—then she heard Irene's pretentious little laugh.
"Why, didn't you know? I thought you did of course, or I wouldn't have mentioned it. I am always putting my foot in it, aren't I? Yes, that is what he went to town for to-day—he told me coming out on the train to-night, I was the first person he told. He isn't in khaki yet—they were out of uniforms—but he will be in a day or two. I always said Walter had as much pluck as anybody. I assure you I felt proud of him, Rilla, when he told me what he'd done. Oh, there's an end of Rick MacAllister's reading. I must fly. I promised I'd play for the next chorus—Alice Clow has such a headache."
"Why, didn't you know? I thought you did, of course, or I wouldn't have brought it up. I always seem to stick my foot in my mouth, don’t I? Yes, that's what he went to town for today—he told me on the train coming back tonight, and I was the first person he told. He isn't in uniform yet—they were out of kits—but he will be in a day or two. I always said Walter had as much courage as anyone. I assure you, I felt proud of him, Rilla, when he shared what he’d done. Oh, there goes Rick MacAllister's reading. I have to hurry. I promised I’d play for the next chorus—Alice Clow has such a bad headache."
She was gone—oh, thank God, she was gone! Rilla was alone again, staring out at the unchanged, dream-like beauty of moonlit Four Winds. Feeling was coming back to her—a pang of agony so acute as to be almost physical seemed to rend her apart.
She was gone—oh, thank God, she was gone! Rilla was alone again, staring out at the same, dream-like beauty of moonlit Four Winds. Her emotions were coming back to her—a wave of pain so intense it felt almost physical seemed to tear her apart.
"I cannot bear it," she said. And then came the awful thought that perhaps she could bear it and that there might be years of this hideous suffering before her.
"I can't take it anymore," she said. Then the terrible thought hit her that maybe she could handle it and that there could be years of this awful suffering ahead of her.
She must get away—she must rush home—she must be alone. She could not go out there and play for drills and give readings and take part in dialogues now. It would spoil half the concert; but that did not matter—nothing mattered. Was this she, Rilla Blythe—this tortured thing, who had been quite happy a few minutes ago? Outside, a quartette was singing "We'll never let the old flag fall"—the music seemed to be coming from some remote distance. Why couldn't she cry, as she had cried when Jem told them he must go? If she could cry perhaps this horrible something that seemed to have seized on her very life might let go. But no tears came! Where were her scarf and coat? She must get away and hide herself like an animal hurt to the death.
She had to get away—she had to rush home—she needed to be alone. There was no way she could go out there and play for practices, give readings, or take part in discussions right now. It would ruin half the concert; but that didn't matter—nothing mattered. Was this really her, Rilla Blythe—this tormented person who had been so happy just a few minutes ago? Outside, a quartet was singing "We'll never let the old flag fall"—the music felt like it was coming from a faraway place. Why couldn't she cry, like she did when Jem told them he had to leave? If she could just cry, maybe this horrible thing that felt like it had taken hold of her very life would release its grip. But no tears would come! Where were her scarf and coat? She had to get away and hide like an injured animal.
Was it a coward's part to run away like this? The question came to her suddenly as if someone else had asked it. She thought of the shambles of the Flanders front—she thought of her brother and her playmate helping to hold those fire-swept trenches. What would they think of her if she shirked her little duty here—the humble duty of carrying the programme through for her Red Cross? But she couldn't stay—she couldn't—yet what was it mother had said when Jem went: "When our women fail in courage shall our men be fearless still?" But this—this was unbearable.
Was it cowardly to run away like this? The question hit her out of nowhere, almost as if someone else had asked it. She thought about the chaos at the Flanders front—she thought about her brother and her childhood friend fighting to hold those fire-swept trenches. What would they think of her if she backed out of her small responsibility here—the simple task of carrying the program for her Red Cross? But she couldn’t stay—she just couldn’t—yet what was it her mother had said when Jem left: "When our women lose their courage, can our men still be fearless?" But this—this was too much to handle.
Still, she stopped half-way to the door and went back to the window. Irene was singing now; her beautiful voice—the only real thing about her—soared clear and sweet through the building. Rilla knew that the girls' Fairy Drill came next. Could she go out there and play for it? Her head was aching now—her throat was burning. Oh, why had Irene told her just then, when telling could do no good? Irene had been very cruel. Rilla remembered now that more than once that day she had caught her mother looking at her with an odd expression. She had been too busy to wonder what it meant. She understood now. Mother had known why Walter went to town but wouldn't tell her until the concert was over. What spirit and endurance mother had!
Still, she stopped halfway to the door and went back to the window. Irene was singing now; her beautiful voice—the only real thing about her—soared clear and sweet through the building. Rilla knew that the girls' Fairy Drill was coming up next. Could she go out there and play for it? Her head was aching now—her throat was burning. Oh, why had Irene told her just then, when it couldn’t change anything? Irene had been really cruel. Rilla remembered now that more than once that day she had caught her mother looking at her with a strange expression. She had been too busy to wonder what it meant. She understood now. Mom had known why Walter went to town but wouldn't tell her until the concert was over. What spirit and endurance Mom had!
"I must stay here and see things through," said Rilla, clasping her cold hands together.
"I have to stay here and see this through," Rilla said, bringing her cold hands together.
The rest of the evening always seemed like a fevered dream to her. Her body was crowded by people but her soul was alone in a torture-chamber of its own. Yet she played steadily for the drills and gave her readings without faltering. She even put on a grotesque old Irish woman's costume and acted the part in the dialogue which Miranda Pryor had not taken. But she did not give her "brogue" the inimitable twist she had given it in the practices, and her readings lacked their usual fire and appeal. As she stood before the audience she saw one face only—that of the handsome, dark-haired lad sitting beside her mother—and she saw that same face in the trenches—saw it lying cold and dead under the stars—saw it pining in prison—saw the light of its eyes blotted out—saw a hundred horrible things as she stood there on the beflagged platform of the Glen hall with her own face whiter than the milky crab-blossoms in her hair. Between her numbers she walked restlessly up and down the little dressing-room. Would the concert never end!
The rest of the night always felt like a fever dream to her. Surrounded by people, but her soul was trapped in its own torture chamber. Still, she played steadily for the drills and delivered her readings without a hitch. She even wore a ridiculous old Irish woman's costume and performed the part in the dialogue that Miranda Pryor hadn’t taken. But she didn’t add the unique twist to her "brogue" that she had in rehearsals, and her readings lost their usual passion and charm. As she stood in front of the audience, she focused on one face only—that of the handsome, dark-haired guy sitting next to her mother—and she saw that same face in the trenches—saw it lying cold and lifeless under the stars—saw it wasting away in prison—saw the light in his eyes extinguished—witnessed a hundred terrible things as she stood there on the decorated platform of the Glen hall, her own face whiter than the milky crab blossoms in her hair. Between her performances, she paced restlessly in the little dressing room. Would the concert ever end!
It ended at last. Olive Kirk rushed up and told her exultantly that they had made a hundred dollars. "That's good," Rilla said mechanically. Then she was away from them all—oh, thank God, she was away from them all—Walter was waiting for her at the door. He put his arm through hers silently and they went together down the moonlit road. The frogs were singing in the marshes, the dim, ensilvered fields of home lay all around them. The spring night was lovely and appealing. Rilla felt that its beauty was an insult to her pain. She would hate moonlight for ever.
It was finally over. Olive Kirk ran up and told her excitedly that they had made a hundred dollars. "That's great," Rilla said mechanically. Then she left them all—oh, thank God, she was away from everyone—Walter was waiting for her at the door. He silently linked his arm with hers, and they walked together down the moonlit road. The frogs were croaking in the marshes, and the dim, silvery fields of home surrounded them. The spring night was beautiful and inviting. Rilla felt that its beauty was an insult to her pain. She would hate the moonlight forever.
"You know?" said Walter.
"You know?" Walter said.
"Yes. Irene told me," answered Rilla chokingly.
"Yeah. Irene told me," answered Rilla, her voice trembling.
"We didn't want you to know till the evening was over. I knew when you came out for the drill that you had heard. Little sister, I had to do it. I couldn't live any longer on such terms with myself as I have been since the Lusitania was sunk. When I pictured those dead women and children floating about in that pitiless, ice-cold water—well, at first I just felt a sort of nausea with life. I wanted to get out of the world where such a thing could happen—shake its accursed dust from my feet for ever. Then I knew I had to go."
"We didn't want you to find out until the evening was over. I knew when you stepped out for the drill that you had heard. Little sister, I had to do it. I couldn't keep living under the conditions I've been in since the Lusitania sank. When I imagined those dead women and children floating in that merciless, freezing water—well, at first, I just felt a wave of nausea at life. I wanted to escape from a world where such a thing could happen—shake its cursed dirt off my feet for good. Then I realized I had to go."
"There are—plenty—without you."
"There are plenty without you."
"That isn't the point, Rilla-my-Rilla. I'm going for my own sake—to save my soul alive. It will shrink to something small and mean and lifeless if I don't go. That would be worse than blindness or mutilation or any of the things I've feared."
"That's not the point, Rilla-my-Rilla. I'm going for myself—to keep my spirit alive. It will shrivel up into something small, petty, and lifeless if I don't go. That would be worse than being blind, losing a limb, or any of the things I've been afraid of."
"You may—be—killed," Rilla hated herself for saying it—she knew it was a weak and cowardly thing to say—but she had rather gone to pieces after the tension of the evening.
"You could be killed," Rilla hated herself for saying it—she knew it was a weak and cowardly thing to say—but she had pretty much fallen apart after the tension of the evening.
"'Comes he slow or comes he fast
It is but death who comes at last.'"
"'Whether he comes slowly or quickly,
it's just death who arrives in the end.'"
quoted Walter. "It's not death I fear—I told you that long ago. One can pay too high a price for mere life, little sister. There's so much hideousness in this war—I've got to go and help wipe it out of the world. I'm going to fight for the beauty of life, Rilla-my-Rilla—that is my duty. There may be a higher duty, perhaps—but that is mine. I owe life and Canada that, and I've got to pay it. Rilla, tonight for the first time since Jem left I've got back my self-respect. I could write poetry," Walter laughed. "I've never been able to write a line since last August. Tonight I'm full of it. Little sister, be brave—you were so plucky when Jem went."
quoted Walter. "I'm not afraid of death—I told you that a long time ago. You can pay too high a price for just being alive, little sister. There's so much ugliness in this war—I have to go and help get rid of it in the world. I'm going to fight for the beauty of life, Rilla-my-Rilla—that's my duty. There might be a higher duty, maybe—but this is mine. I owe life and Canada that, and I have to fulfill it. Rilla, tonight for the first time since Jem left, I've regained my self-respect. I could write poetry," Walter laughed. "I haven't been able to write a single line since last August. Tonight I'm overflowing with it. Little sister, be strong—you were so brave when Jem went."
"This—is—different," Rilla had to stop after every word to fight down a wild outburst of sobs. "I loved—Jem—of course—but—when—he went—away—we thought—the war—would soon—be over—and you are—everything to me, Walter."
"This is different," Rilla had to pause after every word to hold back a surge of tears. "I loved Jem, of course, but when he left, we thought the war would end soon, and you mean everything to me, Walter."
"You must be brave to help me, Rilla-my-Rilla. I'm exalted tonight—drunk with the excitement of victory over myself—but there will be other times when it won't be like this—I'll need your help then."
"You have to be brave to help me, Rilla-my-Rilla. I'm feeling amazing tonight—intoxicated by the thrill of overcoming my own challenges—but there will be other moments when it won't be this way—I’ll need your support then."
"When—do—you—go?" She must know the worst at once.
"When are you leaving?" She needed to know the worst right away.
"Not for a week—then we go to Kingsport for training. I suppose we'll go overseas about the middle of July—we don't know."
"Not for a week—we'll head to Kingsport for training. I guess we'll go overseas around mid-July, but we're not sure."
One week—only one week more with Walter! The eyes of youth did not see how she was to go on living.
One week—just one more week with Walter! The eyes of youth couldn't see how she was supposed to keep living.
When they turned in at the Ingleside gate Walter stopped in the shadows of the old pines and drew Rilla close to him.
When they reached the Ingleside gate, Walter stopped in the shadows of the old pines and pulled Rilla close to him.
"Rilla-my-Rilla, there were girls as sweet and pure as you in Belgium and Flanders. You—even you—know what their fate was. We must make it impossible for such things to happen again while the world lasts. You'll help me, won't you?"
"Rilla-my-Rilla, there were girls as sweet and pure as you in Belgium and Flanders. You—even you—know what their fate was. We have to make it impossible for things like that to happen again while the world lasts. You'll help me, right?"
"I'll try, Walter," she said. "Oh, I will try."
"I'll give it a shot, Walter," she said. "Oh, I definitely will try."
As she clung to him with her face pressed against his shoulder she knew that it had to be. She accepted the fact then and there. He must go—her beautiful Walter with his beautiful soul and dreams and ideals. And she had known all along that it would come sooner or later. She had seen it coming to her—coming—coming—as one sees the shadow of a cloud drawing near over a sunny field, swiftly and inescapably. Amid all her pain she was conscious of an odd feeling of relief in some hidden part of her soul, where a little dull, unacknowledged soreness had been lurking all winter. No one—no one could ever call Walter a slacker now.
As she held on to him with her face pressed against his shoulder, she understood that it had to happen. She accepted it right then and there. He had to go—her beautiful Walter with his beautiful soul, dreams, and ideals. And she had known all along that it would come eventually. She had seen it approaching—coming—coming—like the shadow of a cloud drifting over a sunny field, quickly and inevitably. Despite all her pain, she felt an odd sense of relief in some hidden part of her soul, where a dull, unacknowledged hurt had been lingering all winter. No one—no one could ever call Walter a slacker now.
Rilla did not sleep that night. Perhaps no one at Ingleside did except Jims. The body grows slowly and steadily, but the soul grows by leaps and bounds. It may come to its full stature in an hour. From that night Rilla Blythe's soul was the soul of a woman in its capacity for suffering, for strength, for endurance.
Rilla didn't sleep that night. Maybe no one at Ingleside did, except for Jims. The body develops slowly and steadily, but the soul can grow rapidly. It can reach its full maturity in no time. From that night on, Rilla Blythe's soul was that of a woman, with the ability for suffering, strength, and endurance.
When the bitter dawn came she rose and went to her window. Below her was a big apple-tree, a great swelling cone of rosy blossom. Walter had planted it years ago when he was a little boy. Beyond Rainbow Valley there was a cloudy shore of morning with little ripples of sunrise breaking over it. The far, cold beauty of a lingering star shone above it. Why, in this world of springtime loveliness, must hearts break?
When the harsh dawn arrived, she got up and went to her window. Below her was a large apple tree, a big, blooming cone of pink flowers. Walter had planted it many years ago when he was just a boy. Beyond Rainbow Valley, the morning sky was cloudy, with small waves of sunlight breaking over it. A distant, cold star twinkled above. Why, in this beautiful season of spring, do hearts have to break?
Rilla felt arms go about her lovingly, protectingly. It was mother—pale, large-eyed mother.
Rilla felt warm, protective arms wrap around her. It was her mother—pale, with big, loving eyes.
"Oh, mother, how can you bear it?" she cried wildly. "Rilla, dear, I've known for several days that Walter meant to go. I've had time to—to rebel and grow reconciled. We must give him up. There is a Call greater and more insistent than the call of our love—he has listened to it. We must not add to the bitterness of his sacrifice."
"Oh, Mom, how can you stand it?" she exclaimed frantically. "Rilla, sweetheart, I've known for a few days that Walter planned to leave. I've had time to—well, to struggle with it and come to terms. We have to let him go. There's a Call that’s stronger and more urgent than our love—he’s heard it. We mustn’t make his sacrifice any harder."
"Our sacrifice is greater than his," cried Rilla passionately. "Our boys give only themselves. We give them."
"Our sacrifice is bigger than his," Rilla shouted passionately. "Our boys give only themselves. We give them."
Before Mrs. Blythe could reply Susan stuck her head in at the door, never troubling over such frills of etiquette as knocking. Her eyes were suspiciously red but all she said was,
Before Mrs. Blythe could respond, Susan popped her head in through the door, not bothering with niceties like knocking. Her eyes were suspiciously red, but all she said was,
"Will I bring up your breakfast, Mrs. Dr. dear."
"Should I bring your breakfast, Mrs. Doctor dear?"
"No, no, Susan. We will all be down presently. Do you know—that Walter has joined up."
"No, no, Susan. We'll all be down soon. You know—Walter has signed up."
"Yes, Mrs. Dr. dear. The doctor told me last night. I suppose the Almighty has His own reasons for allowing such things. We must submit and endeavour to look on the bright side. It may cure him of being a poet, at least"—Susan still persisted in thinking that poets and tramps were tarred with the same brush—"and that would be something. But thank God," she muttered in a lower tone, "that Shirley is not old enough to go."
"Yes, Mrs. Doctor, dear. The doctor told me last night. I guess the Almighty has His reasons for letting things happen this way. We have to accept it and try to see the positive side. It might cure him of being a poet, at least"—Susan still believed that poets and tramps were basically the same—"and that would be something. But thank God," she murmured more quietly, "that Shirley isn’t old enough to go."
"Isn't that the same thing as thanking Him that some other woman's son has to go in Shirley's place?" asked the doctor, pausing on the threshold.
"Isn't that the same as thanking Him that some other woman's son has to take Shirley's place?" asked the doctor, stopping at the doorway.
"No, it is not, doctor dear," said Susan defiantly, as she picked up Jims, who was opening his big dark eyes and stretching up his dimpled paws. "Do not you put words in my mouth that I would never dream of uttering. I am a plain woman and cannot argue with you, but I do not thank God that anybody has to go. I only know that it seems they do have to go, unless we all want to be Kaiserised—for I can assure you that the Monroe doctrine, whatever it is, is nothing to tie to, with Woodrow Wilson behind it. The Huns, Dr. dear, will never be brought to book by notes. And now," concluded Susan, tucking Jims in the crook of her gaunt arms and marching downstairs, "having cried my cry and said my say I shall take a brace, and if I cannot look pleasant I will look as pleasant as I can."
"No, it isn't, doctor dear," Susan said defiantly, picking up Jims, who was opening his big dark eyes and stretching his dimpled paws. "Don’t put words in my mouth that I would never think of saying. I'm just a plain woman and can't argue with you, but I don't thank God that anyone has to leave. I just know that it seems they have to go, unless we all want to be controlled—because I can assure you that the Monroe Doctrine, whatever that is, isn't worth much with Woodrow Wilson behind it. The Huns, dear doctor, will never be held accountable with just notes. And now," Susan concluded, tucking Jims in the crook of her thin arms and marching downstairs, "having cried my cry and said my piece, I will pull myself together, and if I can't look cheerful, I'll look as cheerful as I can."
CHAPTER XV
UNTIL THE DAY BREAK
"The Germans have recaptured Premysl," said Susan despairingly, looking up from her newspaper, "and now I suppose we will have to begin calling it by that uncivilised name again. Cousin Sophia was in when the mail came and when she heard the news she hove a sigh up from the depths of her stomach, Mrs. Dr. dear, and said, 'Ah yes, and they will get Petrograd next I have no doubt.' I said to her, 'My knowledge of geography is not so profound as I wish it was but I have an idea that it is quite a walk from Premysl to Petrograd.' Cousin Sophia sighed again and said, 'The Grand Duke Nicholas is not the man I took him to be.' 'Do not let him know that,' said I. 'It might hurt his feelings and he has likely enough to worry him as it is. But you cannot cheer Cousin Sophia up, no matter how sarcastic you are, Mrs. Dr. dear. She sighed for the third time and groaned out, 'But the Russians are retreating fast,' and I said, 'Well, what of it? They have plenty of room for retreating, have they not?' But all the same, Mrs. Dr. dear, though I would never admit it to Cousin Sophia, I do not like the situation on the eastern front."
"The Germans have taken back Premysl," said Susan sadly, looking up from her newspaper, "and now I guess we’ll have to start using that uncivilized name again. Cousin Sophia was here when the mail arrived, and when she heard the news, she let out a deep sigh and said, 'Ah yes, and they’ll probably take Petrograd next, I have no doubt.' I told her, 'I don’t know geography as well as I’d like, but I think it’s quite a trek from Premysl to Petrograd.' Cousin Sophia sighed again and said, 'The Grand Duke Nicholas isn’t the man I thought he was.' 'Don’t let him know that,' I replied. 'It might hurt his feelings, and he has enough to worry about as it is. But you can’t cheer Cousin Sophia up no matter how sarcastic you are, Mrs. Dr. dear. She sighed for the third time and groaned out, 'But the Russians are retreating fast,' and I said, 'Well, so what? They have plenty of space to retreat to, don’t they?' But still, Mrs. Dr. dear, even though I would never admit it to Cousin Sophia, I don’t like the situation on the eastern front."
Nobody else liked it either; but all summer the Russian retreat went on—a long-drawn-out agony.
Nobody else liked it either, but all summer the Russian retreat dragged on—a long, painful struggle.
"I wonder if I shall ever again be able to await the coming of the mail with feelings of composure—never to speak of pleasure," said Gertrude Oliver. "The thought that haunts me night and day is—will the Germans smash Russia completely and then hurl their eastern army, flushed with victory, against the western front?"
"I wonder if I'll ever be able to look forward to the mail arriving calmly—let alone with excitement," said Gertrude Oliver. "What keeps me up at night is the thought—will the Germans completely defeat Russia and then send their victorious eastern army against the western front?"
"They will not, Miss Oliver dear," said Susan, assuming the role of prophetess.
"They won't, Miss Oliver dear," said Susan, taking on the role of a prophet.
"In the first place, the Almighty will not allow it, in the second, Grand Duke Nicholas, though he may have been a disappointment to us in some respects, knows how to run away decently and in order, and that is a very useful knowledge when Germans are chasing you. Norman Douglas declares he is just luring them on and killing ten of them to one he loses. But I am of the opinion he cannot help himself and is just doing the best he can under the circumstances, the same as the rest of us. So do not go so far afield to borrow trouble, Miss Oliver dear, when there is plenty of it already camping on our very doorstep."
"In the first place, God won't allow it. Second, Grand Duke Nicholas, even though he may have let us down in some ways, knows how to escape properly, which is a very handy skill when the Germans are after you. Norman Douglas claims he's just luring them in and taking out ten for every one he loses. But I think he can't help himself and is just doing his best under the circumstances, like the rest of us. So don't go looking for more trouble, dear Miss Oliver, when there’s already plenty right at our doorstep."
Walter had gone to Kingsport the first of June. Nan, Di and Faith had gone also to do Red Cross work in their vacation. In mid-July Walter came home for a week's leave before going overseas. Rilla had lived through the days of his absence on the hope of that week, and now that it had come she drank every minute of it thirstily, hating even the hours she had to spend in sleep, they seemed such a waste of precious moments. In spite of its sadness, it was a beautiful week, full of poignant, unforgettable hours, when she and Walter had long walks and talks and silences together. He was all her own and she knew that he found strength and comfort in her sympathy and understanding. It was very wonderful to know she meant so much to him—the knowledge helped her through moments that would otherwise have been unendurable, and gave her power to smile—and even to laugh a little. When Walter had gone she might indulge in the comfort of tears, but not while he was here. She would not even let herself cry at night, lest her eyes should betray her to him in the morning.
Walter had gone to Kingsport at the beginning of June. Nan, Di, and Faith had also gone to do Red Cross work during their vacation. In mid-July, Walter came home for a week's leave before heading overseas. Rilla got through the days of his absence holding onto the hope of that week, and now that it had arrived, she savored every moment of it, even resenting the hours she had to spend sleeping, as they felt like a waste of precious time. Despite the sadness, it was a beautiful week, filled with intense, unforgettable moments when she and Walter shared long walks, talks, and quiet times together. He was entirely hers, and she knew he drew strength and comfort from her compassion and understanding. It was incredibly meaningful to realize she mattered so much to him—the awareness helped her through moments that would have otherwise been unbearable and gave her the ability to smile—and even to laugh a little. When Walter left, she could allow herself to cry, but not while he was there. She wouldn’t even let herself cry at night, fearing her eyes would betray her to him in the morning.
On his last evening at home they went together to Rainbow Valley and sat down on the bank of the brook, under the White Lady, where the gay revels of olden days had been held in the cloudless years. Rainbow Valley was roofed over with a sunset of unusual splendour that night; a wonderful grey dusk just touched with starlight followed it; and then came moonshine, hinting, hiding, revealing, lighting up little dells and hollows here, leaving others in dark, velvet shadow.
On his last night at home, they went together to Rainbow Valley and sat down by the stream, under the White Lady, where the joyful celebrations of the past had taken place in the clear years. That night, Rainbow Valley was covered by an unusually beautiful sunset; a lovely grey twilight, just grazed by starlight, followed it; and then came the moonlight, suggesting, concealing, revealing, illuminating small valleys and dips here, while leaving others in deep, dark shadow.
"When I am 'somewhere in France,'" said Walter, looking around him with eager eyes on all the beauty his soul loved, "I shall remember these still, dewy, moon-drenched places. The balsam of the fir-trees; the peace of those white pools of moonshine; the 'strength of the hills'—what a beautiful old Biblical phrase that is. Rilla! Look at those old hills around us—the hills we looked up at as children, wondering what lay for us in the great world beyond them. How calm and strong they are—how patient and changeless—like the heart of a good woman. Rilla-my-Rilla, do you know what you have been to me the past year? I want to tell you before I go. I could not have lived through it if it had not been for you, little loving, believing heart."
"When I’m 'somewhere in France,'" Walter said, his eyes shining as he took in all the beauty around him, "I’ll remember these quiet, dewy, moonlit spots. The scent of the pine trees; the tranquility of those bright pools of moonlight; the 'strength of the hills'—isn’t that a lovely old Biblical phrase? Rilla! Look at those old hills surrounding us—the same hills we gazed at as kids, wondering what adventures awaited us in the vast world beyond. They’re so calm and strong—so patient and unchanging—like the heart of a good woman. Rilla-my-Rilla, do you know what you’ve meant to me this past year? I need to tell you before I leave. I couldn’t have made it through without you, my little loving, believing heart."
Rilla dared not try to speak. She slipped her hand into Walter's and pressed it hard.
Rilla didn't dare to say anything. She took Walter's hand and squeezed it tightly.
"And when I'm over there, Rilla, in that hell upon earth which men who have forgotten God have made, it will be the thought of you that will help me most. I know you'll be as plucky and patient as you have shown yourself to be this past year—I'm not afraid for you. I know that no matter what happens, you'll be Rilla-my-Rilla—no matter what happens."
"And when I'm over there, Rilla, in that hell on earth that men who have forgotten God have created, it will be the thought of you that helps me the most. I know you'll be as brave and patient as you've shown yourself to be this past year—I'm not worried about you. I know that no matter what happens, you'll be Rilla-my-Rilla—no matter what happens."
Rilla repressed tear and sigh, but she could not repress a little shiver, and Walter knew that he had said enough. After a moment of silence, in which each made an unworded promise to each other, he said, "Now we won't be sober any more. We'll look beyond the years—to the time when the war will be over and Jem and Jerry and I will come marching home and we'll all be happy again."
Rilla held back her tears and sighed, but she couldn’t hide the slight shiver that ran through her, and Walter realized he had said enough. After a brief silence, during which they both made a silent promise to one another, he said, "Now we won’t be sad anymore. We’ll look forward to the time when the war is over, and Jem, Jerry, and I will come marching home, and we’ll all be happy again."
"We won't be—happy—in the same way," said Rilla.
"We won't be happy in the same way," said Rilla.
"No, not in the same way. Nobody whom this war has touched will ever be happy again in quite the same way. But it will be a better happiness, I think, little sister—a happiness we've earned. We were very happy before the war, weren't we? With a home like Ingleside, and a father and mother like ours we couldn't help being happy. But that happiness was a gift from life and love; it wasn't really ours—life could take it back at any time. It can never take away the happiness we win for ourselves in the way of duty. I've realised that since I went into khaki. In spite of my occasional funks, when I fall to living over things beforehand, I've been happy since that night in May. Rilla, be awfully good to mother while I'm away. It must be a horrible thing to be a mother in this war—the mothers and sisters and wives and sweethearts have the hardest times. Rilla, you beautiful little thing, are you anybody's sweetheart? If you are, tell me before I go."
"No, not in the same way. Anyone affected by this war will never be happy again in the same way. But I think it will be a better kind of happiness, little sister—a happiness we've earned. We were really happy before the war, weren't we? With a home like Ingleside and parents like ours, happiness came easily. But that happiness was a gift from life and love; it didn't truly belong to us—life could take it back at any moment. It can never take away the happiness we create for ourselves through our duty. I've realized that since I joined the army. Despite my occasional doubts, when I start worrying about things ahead of time, I've been happy since that night in May. Rilla, please take good care of mom while I'm away. It must be awful to be a mother during this war—mothers, sisters, wives, and sweethearts have the hardest times. Rilla, you beautiful girl, are you anyone's sweetheart? If you are, please tell me before I leave."
"No," said Rilla. Then, impelled by a wish to be absolutely frank with Walter in this talk that might be the last they would ever have, she added, blushing wildly in the moonlight, "but if—Kenneth Ford—wanted me to be—"
"No," Rilla said. Then, driven by a desire to be completely honest with Walter in what might be their last conversation, she added, blushing fiercely in the moonlight, "but if—Kenneth Ford—wanted me to be—"
"I see," said Walter. "And Ken's in khaki, too. Poor little girlie, it's a bit hard for you all round. Well, I'm not leaving any girl to break her heart about me—thank God for that."
"I get it," said Walter. "And Ken's wearing khaki too. Poor girl, it's a tough situation for you all. Well, I'm not going to let any girl waste her feelings on me—thank God for that."
Rilla glanced up at the Manse on the hill. She could see a light in Una Meredith's window. She felt tempted to say something—then she knew she must not. It was not her secret: and, anyway, she did not know—she only suspected.
Rilla looked up at the Manse on the hill. She noticed a light in Una Meredith's window. She felt the urge to say something—but then she realized she shouldn't. It wasn't her secret, and besides, she didn't really know—she only suspected.
Walter looked about him lingeringly and lovingly. This spot had always been so dear to him. What fun they all had had here lang syne. Phantoms of memory seemed to pace the dappled paths and peep merrily through the swinging boughs—Jem and Jerry, bare-legged, sunburned schoolboys, fishing in the brook and frying trout over the old stone fireplace; Nan and Di and Faith, in their dimpled, fresh-eyed childish beauty; Una the sweet and shy, Carl, poring over ants and bugs, little slangy, sharp-tongued, good-hearted Mary Vance—the old Walter that had been himself lying on the grass reading poetry or wandering through palaces of fancy. They were all there around him—he could see them almost as plainly as he saw Rilla—as plainly as he had once seen the Pied Piper piping down the valley in a vanished twilight. And they said to him, those gay little ghosts of other days, "We were the children of yesterday, Walter—fight a good fight for the children of to-day and to-morrow."
Walter looked around him with nostalgia and affection. This place had always been so special to him. They had all shared so much joy here in the past. Shadows of memories seemed to stroll along the dappled paths and peek playfully through the swaying branches—Jem and Jerry, bare-legged, sun-kissed schoolboys, fishing in the creek and cooking trout over the old stone fireplace; Nan, Di, and Faith, with their cute, bright-eyed childhood beauty; Una, sweet and shy; Carl, absorbed in studying ants and bugs; and little, funny, sharp-tongued, kind-hearted Mary Vance—the old Walter, who had loved lying on the grass reading poetry or wandering through worlds of imagination. They were all there with him—he could see them almost as clearly as he saw Rilla—just as clearly as he once saw the Pied Piper playing down the valley in a lost twilight. And those cheerful little ghosts of the past told him, "We were the children of yesterday, Walter—fight a good fight for the children of today and tomorrow."
"Where are you, Walter," cried Rilla, laughing a little. "Come back—come back."
"Where are you, Walter?" Rilla called out, laughing a bit. "Come back—come back."
Walter came back with a long breath. He stood up and looked about him at the beautiful valley of moonlight, as if to impress on his mind and heart every charm it possessed—the great dark plumes of the firs against the silvery sky, the stately White Lady, the old magic of the dancing brook, the faithful Tree Lovers, the beckoning, tricksy paths.
Walter returned with a deep breath. He stood up and gazed around at the stunning valley bathed in moonlight, trying to take in every charm it had to offer—the tall dark fir trees silhouetted against the silvery sky, the elegant White Lady, the enchanting dance of the brook, the loyal Tree Lovers, and the inviting, playful paths.
"I shall see it so in my dreams," he said, as he turned away.
"I'll picture it that way in my dreams," he said, as he turned away.
They went back to Ingleside. Mr. and Mrs. Meredith were there, with Gertrude Oliver, who had come from Lowbridge to say good-bye. Everybody was quite cheerful and bright, but nobody said much about the war being soon over, as they had said when Jem went away. They did not talk about the war at all—and they thought of nothing else. At last they gathered around the piano and sang the grand old hymn:
They went back to Ingleside. Mr. and Mrs. Meredith were there, along with Gertrude Oliver, who had come from Lowbridge to say goodbye. Everyone was cheerful and lively, but no one mentioned that the war was almost over, like they had when Jem left. They didn't talk about the war at all—and it was all they could think about. Finally, they gathered around the piano and sang the grand old hymn:
"Oh God, our help in ages past
Our hope for years to come.
Our shelter from the stormy blast
And our eternal home."
"Oh God, our help in the past,
Our hope for the future.
Our refuge from the fierce storm
And our forever home."
"We all come back to God in these days of soul-sifting," said Gertrude to John Meredith. "There have been many days in the past when I didn't believe in God—not as God—only as the impersonal Great First Cause of the scientists. I believe in Him now—I have to—there's nothing else to fall back on but God—humbly, starkly, unconditionally."
"We all return to God during these challenging times," Gertrude told John Meredith. "There were many days before when I didn't really believe in God—not as a deity—just as the impersonal Great First Cause that scientists talk about. I believe in Him now—I have to—there's nothing else to rely on but God—humbly, plainly, without conditions."
"'Our help in ages past'—'the same yesterday, to-day and for ever,'" said the minister gently. "When we forget God—He remembers us."
"'Our help in ages past'—'the same yesterday, today, and forever,'" said the minister gently. "When we forget God—He remembers us."
There was no crowd at the Glen Station the next morning to see Walter off. It was becoming a commonplace for a khaki clad boy to board that early morning train after his last leave. Besides his own, only the Manse folk were there, and Mary Vance. Mary had sent her Miller off the week before, with a determined grin, and now considered herself entitled to give expert opinion on how such partings should be conducted.
There was no crowd at the Glen Station the next morning to see Walter off. It was becoming routine for a boy in khaki to catch that early morning train after his last leave. Besides him, only the people from the Manse were there, along with Mary Vance. Mary had sent her Miller off the week before, with a confident smile, and now felt entitled to offer her expert opinion on how these farewells should go.
"The main thing is to smile and act as if nothing was happening," she informed the Ingleside group. "The boys all hate the sob act like poison. Miller told me I wasn't to come near the station if I couldn't keep from bawling. So I got through with my crying beforehand, and at the last I said to him, 'Good luck, Miller, and if you come back you'll find I haven't changed any, and if you don't come back I'll always be proud you went, and in any case don't fall in love with a French girl.' Miller swore he wouldn't, but you never can tell about those fascinating foreign hussies. Anyhow, the last sight he had of me I was smiling to my limit. Gee, all the rest of the day my face felt as if it had been starched and ironed into a smile."
"The main thing is to smile and act like nothing's going on," she told the Ingleside group. "The boys can't stand the sob story at all. Miller told me I shouldn't come near the station if I couldn't stop crying. So I got all my crying out beforehand, and in the end, I said to him, 'Good luck, Miller, and if you come back, you'll see I haven't changed a bit, and if you don't come back, I'll always be proud that you went. And whatever you do, don't fall in love with a French girl.' Miller promised he wouldn't, but you can never be sure about those charming foreign girls. Anyway, the last time he saw me, I was smiling as much as I could. Honestly, the rest of the day, my face felt like it had been starched and ironed into a smile."
In spite of Mary's advice and example Mrs. Blythe, who had sent Jem off with a smile, could not quite manage one for Walter. But at least no one cried. Dog Monday came out of his lair in the shipping-shed and sat down close to Walter, thumping his tail vigorously on the boards of the platform whenever Walter spoke to him, and looking up with confident eyes, as if to say, "I know you'll find Jem and bring him back to me."
Despite Mary's advice and example, Mrs. Blythe, who had sent Jem off with a smile, couldn’t quite manage one for Walter. But at least no one cried. Dog Monday came out of his spot in the shipping-shed and settled down close to Walter, thumping his tail vigorously on the boards of the platform whenever Walter spoke to him, and looking up with trusting eyes, as if to say, "I know you'll find Jem and bring him back to me."
"So long, old fellow," said Carl Meredith cheerfully, when the good-byes had to be said. "Tell them over there to keep their spirits up—I am coming along presently."
"So long, buddy," Carl Meredith said cheerfully when it was time to say good-bye. "Tell them over there to stay positive—I’ll be joining them soon."
"Me too," said Shirley laconically, proffering a brown paw. Susan heard him and her face turned very grey.
"Me too," Shirley said flatly, extending a brown paw. Susan heard him, and her face went pale.
Una shook hands quietly, looking at him with wistful, sorrowful, dark-blue eyes. But then Una's eyes had always been wistful. Walter bent his handsome black head in its khaki cap and kissed her with the warm, comradely kiss of a brother. He had never kissed her before, and for a fleeting moment Una's face betrayed her, if anyone had noticed. But nobody did; the conductor was shouting "all aboard"; everybody was trying to look very cheerful. Walter turned to Rilla; she held his hands and looked up at him. She would not see him again until the day broke and the shadows vanished—and she knew not if that daybreak would be on this side of the grave or beyond it.
Una shook hands quietly, gazing at him with her wistful, sorrowful dark-blue eyes. But Una's eyes had always been that way. Walter lowered his handsome black head in its khaki cap and gave her a warm, friendly kiss on the cheek like a brother would. He had never kissed her before, and for a brief moment, Una's expression gave her away, if anyone had been paying attention. But no one did; the conductor was calling out "all aboard"; everyone was trying to appear very cheerful. Walter turned to Rilla; she held his hands and looked up at him. She wouldn't see him again until day broke and the shadows lifted—and she didn't know if that day would come on this side of life or the other.
"Good-bye," she said.
"Goodbye," she said.
On her lips it lost all the bitterness it had won through the ages of parting and bore instead all the sweetness of the old loves of all the women who had ever loved and prayed for the beloved.
On her lips, it shed all the bitterness it had accumulated over the years of separation and instead carried the sweetness of the past loves of all the women who had ever loved and prayed for their beloved.
"Write me often and bring Jims up faithfully, according to the gospel of Morgan," Walter said lightly, having said all his serious things the night before in Rainbow Valley. But at the last moment he took her face between his hands and looked deep into her gallant eyes. "God bless you, Rilla-my-Rilla," he said softly and tenderly. After all it was not a hard thing to fight for a land that bore daughters like this.
"Write to me often and keep bringing up Jims faithfully, following the teachings of Morgan," Walter said casually, having shared all his serious thoughts the night before in Rainbow Valley. But at the last moment, he cupped her face in his hands and looked deeply into her brave eyes. "God bless you, Rilla-my-Rilla," he said gently and with affection. After all, it wasn’t hard to fight for a country that had daughters like her.
He stood on the rear platform and waved to them as the train pulled out. Rilla was standing by herself, but Una Meredith came to her and the two girls who loved him most stood together and held each other's cold hands as the train rounded the curve of the wooded hill.
He stood on the back platform and waved to them as the train pulled away. Rilla was standing alone, but Una Meredith joined her, and the two girls who loved him the most stood together, holding each other's cold hands as the train rounded the bend of the wooded hill.
Rilla spent an hour in Rainbow Valley that morning about which she never said a word to anyone; she did not even write in her diary about it; when it was over she went home and made rompers for Jims. In the evening she went to a Junior Red Cross committee meeting and was severely businesslike.
Rilla spent an hour in Rainbow Valley that morning, and she never mentioned it to anyone; she didn’t even write about it in her diary. When it was done, she went home and made rompers for Jims. In the evening, she attended a Junior Red Cross committee meeting and was very serious and professional.
"You would never suppose," said Irene Howard to Olive Kirk afterwards, "that Walter had left for the front only this morning. But some people really have no depth of feeling. I often wish I could take things as lightly as Rilla Blythe."
"You'd never guess," said Irene Howard to Olive Kirk later, "that Walter just left for the front this morning. Some people really don’t have any real emotions. I often wish I could be as carefree as Rilla Blythe."
CHAPTER XVI
REALISM AND ROMANCE
"Warsaw has fallen," said Dr. Blythe with a resigned air, as he brought the mail in one warm August day.
"Warsaw has fallen," Dr. Blythe said with a resigned look as he brought in the mail on a warm August day.
Gertrude and Mrs. Blythe looked dismally at each other, and Rilla, who was feeding Jims a Morganized diet from a carefully sterilized spoon, laid the said spoon down on his tray, utterly regardless of germs, and said, "Oh, dear me," in as tragic a tone as if the news had come as a thunderbolt instead of being a foregone conclusion from the preceding week's dispatches. They had thought they were quite resigned to Warsaw's fall but now they knew they had, as always, hoped against hope.
Gertrude and Mrs. Blythe exchanged gloomy looks, and Rilla, who was feeding Jims a curated diet with a meticulously sterilized spoon, set the spoon down on his tray, completely ignoring the germs, and said, "Oh, dear me," in a dramatic tone as if the news had hit them like a lightning strike instead of being expected from last week's reports. They thought they had accepted Warsaw's fall, but now they realized they had, as usual, been hoping against hope.
"Now, let us take a brace," said Susan. "It is not the terrible thing we have been thinking. I read a dispatch three columns long in the Montreal Herald yesterday that proved that Warsaw was not important from a military point of view at all. So let us take the military point of view, doctor dear."
"Now, let’s take a break," said Susan. "It’s not as terrible as we’ve been thinking. I read a three-column article in the Montreal Herald yesterday that showed Warsaw isn’t important from a military standpoint at all. So let’s consider the military perspective, dear doctor."
"I read that dispatch, too, and it has encouraged me immensely," said Gertrude. "I knew then and I know now that it was a lie from beginning to end. But I am in that state of mind where even a lie is a comfort, providing it is a cheerful lie."
"I read that message, too, and it has really boosted my spirits," said Gertrude. "I knew then and I know now that it was a complete lie. But I’m in a place where even a lie can be comforting, as long as it’s a happy one."
"In that case, Miss Oliver dear, the German official reports ought to be all you need," said Susan sarcastically. "I never read them now because they make me so mad I cannot put my thoughts properly on my work after a dose of them. Even this news about Warsaw has taken the edge off my afternoon's plans. Misfortunes never come singly. I spoiled my baking of bread today—and now Warsaw has fallen—and here is little Kitchener bent on choking himself to death."
"In that case, Miss Oliver, those German reports should be all you need," Susan said sarcastically. "I don’t read them anymore because they make me so angry that I can’t focus on my work afterward. Even this news about Warsaw has messed up my afternoon plans. Trouble always comes in waves. I ruined my bread baking today—and now Warsaw has fallen—and here’s little Kitchener trying to choke himself to death."
Jims was evidently trying to swallow his spoon, germs and all. Rilla rescued him mechanically and was about to resume the operation of feeding him when a casual remark of her father's sent such a shock and thrill over her that for the second time she dropped that doomed spoon.
Jims was clearly trying to swallow his spoon, germs and all. Rilla automatically rescued him and was about to continue feeding him when a casual comment from her dad sent such a shock and thrill through her that, for the second time, she dropped that cursed spoon.
"Kenneth Ford is down at Martin West's over-harbour," the doctor was saying. "His regiment was on its way to the front but was held up in Kingsport for some reason, and Ken got leave of absence to come over to the Island."
"Kenneth Ford is at Martin West's place across the harbor," the doctor was saying. "His regiment was on its way to the front lines but was delayed in Kingsport for some reason, so Ken got a leave of absence to come over to the Island."
"I hope he will come up to see us," exclaimed Mrs. Blythe.
"I hope he’ll come to visit us," Mrs. Blythe exclaimed.
"He only has a day or two off, I believe," said the doctor absently.
"He only has a day or two off, I think," the doctor said absentmindedly.
Nobody noticed Rilla's flushed face and trembling hands. Even the most thoughtful and watchful of parents do not see everything that goes on under their very noses. Rilla made a third attempt to give the long-suffering Jims his dinner, but all she could think of was the question—Would Ken come to see her before he went away? She had not heard from him for a long while. Had he forgotten her completely? If he did not come she would know that he had. Perhaps there was even—some other girl back there in Toronto. Of course there was. She was a little fool to be thinking about him at all. She would not think about him. If he came, well and good. It would only be courteous of him to make a farewell call at Ingleside where he had often been a guest. If he did not come—well and good, too. It did not matter very much. Nobody was going to fret. That was all settled comfortably—she was quite indifferent—but meanwhile Jims was being fed with a haste and recklessness that would have filled the soul of Morgan with horror. Jims himself didn't like it, being a methodical baby, accustomed to swallowing spoonfuls with a decent interval for breath between each. He protested, but his protests availed him nothing. Rilla, as far as the care and feeding of infants was concerned, was utterly demoralized.
Nobody noticed Rilla's flushed face and trembling hands. Even the most thoughtful parents miss a lot of what happens right in front of them. Rilla made a third attempt to feed the endlessly patient Jims, but all she could think about was the question—Would Ken come to see her before he left? She hadn’t heard from him in ages. Had he completely forgotten her? If he didn’t come, she would know he had. Maybe there was even another girl back in Toronto. Of course there was. She was foolish to be thinking about him at all. She wouldn’t think about him. If he came, that would be great. It would just be polite of him to say goodbye at Ingleside, where he had often been a guest. If he didn’t come—well, that was fine too. It didn’t matter much. Nobody was going to worry. That was all settled nicely—she felt pretty indifferent—but meanwhile, Jims was being fed in a fast and careless way that would have horrified Morgan. Jims himself didn’t like it, being a methodical baby used to taking spoonfuls with a proper pause for breathing between each. He protested, but his protests didn’t do any good. Rilla, when it came to taking care of babies, was completely thrown off.
Then the telephone-bell rang. There was nothing unusual about the telephone ringing. It rang on an average every ten minutes at Ingleside. But Rilla dropped Jims' spoon again—on the carpet this time—and flew to the 'phone as if life depended on her getting there before anybody else. Jims, his patience exhausted, lifted up his voice and wept.
Then the phone rang. There was nothing unusual about the phone ringing. It rang about every ten minutes at Ingleside. But Rilla dropped Jim's spoon again—this time on the carpet—and dashed to the phone as if her life depended on getting there before anyone else. Jim, his patience worn out, cried out loudly and sobbed.
"Hello, is this Ingleside?"
"Hi, is this Ingleside?"
"Yes."
Yes.
"That you, Rilla?" "Yeth—yeth." Oh, why couldn't Jims stop howling for just one little minute? Why didn't somebody come in and choke him?
"Is that you, Rilla?" "Yeah—yeah." Oh, why couldn't Jims stop crying for just one little minute? Why didn't someone come in and quiet him down?
"Know who's speaking?"
"Do you know who's talking?"
Oh, didn't she know! Wouldn't she know that voice anywhere—at any time?
Oh, didn't she know! Wouldn't she recognize that voice anywhere—at any time?
"It's Ken—isn't it?"
"That's Ken, right?"
"Sure thing. I'm here for a look-in. Can I come up to Ingleside tonight and see you?"
"Of course. I’m just checking in. Can I come over to Ingleside tonight and see you?"
"Of courthe."
"Of course."
Had he used "you" in the singular or plural sense? Presently she would wring Jims' neck—oh, what was Ken saying?
Had he used "you" in the singular or plural sense? Right now she would strangle Jim—oh, what was Ken saying?
"See here, Rilla, can you arrange that there won't be more than a few dozen people round? Understand? I can't make my meaning clearer over this bally rural line. There are a dozen receivers down."
"Hey Rilla, can you make sure there won’t be more than a few dozen people around? Got it? I can’t explain it any clearer over this lousy rural line. There are a dozen receivers down."
Did she understand! Yes, she understood.
Did she get it! Yes, she got it.
"I'll try," she said.
"I'll give it a shot," she said.
"I'll be up about eight then. By-by."
"I'll get up around eight then. Bye."
Rilla hung up the 'phone and flew to Jims. But she did not wring that injured infant's neck. Instead she snatched him bodily out of his chair, crushed him against her face, kissed him rapturously on his milky mouth, and danced wildly around the room with him in her arms. After this Jims was relieved to find that she returned to sanity, gave him the rest of his dinner properly, and tucked him away for his afternoon nap with the little lullaby he loved best of all. She sewed at Red Cross shirts for the rest of the afternoon and built a crystal castle of dreams, all a-quiver with rainbows. Ken wanted to see her—to see her alone. That could be easily managed. Shirley wouldn't bother them, father and mother were going to the Manse, Miss Oliver never played gooseberry, and Jims always slept the clock round from seven to seven. She would entertain Ken on the veranda—it would be moonlight—she would wear her white georgette dress and do her hair up—yes, she would—at least in a low knot at the nape of her neck. Mother couldn't object to that, surely. Oh, how wonderful and romantic it would be! Would Ken say anything—he must mean to say something or why should he be so particular about seeing her alone? What if it rained—Susan had been complaining about Mr. Hyde that morning! What if some officious Junior Red called to discuss Belgians and shirts? Or, worst of all, what if Fred Arnold dropped in? He did occasionally.
Rilla hung up the phone and rushed to Jims. But she didn’t hurt that injured little one. Instead, she scooped him up from his chair, hugged him tightly against her face, kissed him joyfully on his soft mouth, and danced around the room with him in her arms. After that, Jims was happy to see her regain her composure, finish feeding him properly, and tuck him in for his afternoon nap with his favorite lullaby. She spent the rest of the afternoon sewing Red Cross shirts and building a crystal castle of dreams, all shimmering with rainbows. Ken wanted to see her—to see her alone. That could be easily arranged. Shirley wouldn’t interrupt them, mom and dad were heading to the Manse, Miss Oliver never played the chaperone, and Jims always slept soundly from seven to seven. She would entertain Ken on the porch—it would be a moonlit night—she would wear her white georgette dress and fix her hair—yes, she would—at least in a low bun at the back of her neck. Mom couldn’t possibly object to that. Oh, how wonderful and romantic it would be! Would Ken say anything—he must have something to say, or else why would he be so keen on seeing her alone? What if it rained—Susan had been grumbling about Mr. Hyde that morning! What if some pushy Junior Red came to talk about Belgians and shirts? Or, worst of all, what if Fred Arnold dropped by? He did occasionally.
The evening came at last and was all that could be desired in an evening. The doctor and his wife went to the Manse, Shirley and Miss Oliver went they alone knew where, Susan went to the store for household supplies, and Jims went to Dreamland. Rilla put on her georgette gown, knotted up her hair and bound a little double string of pearls around it. Then she tucked a cluster of pale pink baby roses at her belt. Would Ken ask her for a rose for a keepsake? She knew that Jem had carried to the trenches in Flanders a faded rose that Faith Meredith had kissed and given him the night before he left.
The evening finally arrived and was everything one could hope for in an evening. The doctor and his wife headed to the Manse, Shirley and Miss Oliver went to a place known only to them, Susan went to the store for household supplies, and Jims drifted off to Dreamland. Rilla put on her georgette dress, tied up her hair, and wrapped a little double strand of pearls around it. Then she pinned a cluster of soft pink baby roses to her belt. Would Ken ask her for a rose to keep? She remembered that Jem had taken a faded rose, kissed and given to him by Faith Meredith, to the trenches in Flanders the night before he left.
Rilla looked very sweet when she met Ken in the mingled moonlight and vine shadows of the big veranda. The hand she gave him was cold and she was so desperately anxious not to lisp that her greeting was prim and precise. How handsome and tall Kenneth looked in his lieutenant's uniform! It made him seem older, too—so much so that Rilla felt rather foolish. Hadn't it been the height of absurdity for her to suppose that this splendid young officer had anything special to say to her, little Rilla Blythe of Glen St. Mary? Likely she hadn't understood him after all—he had only meant that he didn't want a mob of folks around making a fuss over him and trying to lionize him, as they had probably done over-harbour. Yes, of course, that was all he meant—and she, little idiot, had gone and vainly imagined that he didn't want anybody but her. And he would think she had manoeuvred everybody away so that they could be alone together, and he would laugh to himself at her.
Rilla looked really sweet when she met Ken in the mixed moonlight and vine shadows on the big porch. The hand she gave him was cold, and she was so anxious not to lisp that her greeting was stiff and precise. How handsome and tall Kenneth looked in his lieutenant's uniform! It made him seem older, too—so much so that Rilla felt a bit silly. Wasn’t it totally absurd for her to think that this amazing young officer had anything special to say to her, little Rilla Blythe from Glen St. Mary? It’s likely she hadn’t understood him after all—he probably just meant that he didn’t want a crowd around making a fuss over him and trying to put him on a pedestal, like they’d probably done across the harbor. Yes, of course, that was all he meant—and she, little idiot, had gone and imagined vainly that he didn’t want anyone but her. And he would think she had maneuvered everyone away so they could be alone together, and he would laugh to himself about her.
"This is better luck than I hoped for," said Ken, leaning back in his chair and looking at her with very unconcealed admiration in his eloquent eyes. "I was sure someone would be hanging about and it was just you I wanted to see, Rilla-my-Rilla."
"This is better luck than I expected," Ken said, leaning back in his chair and looking at her with clear admiration in his expressive eyes. "I was certain someone would be around, and it was just you I wanted to see, Rilla-my-Rilla."
Rilla's dream castle flashed into the landscape again. This was unmistakable enough certainly—not much doubt as to his meaning here.
Rilla's dream castle appeared in the landscape again. This was definitely clear—there was no doubt about what he meant here.
"There aren't—so many of us—to poke around as there used to be," she said softly.
"There aren't as many of us to poke around as there used to be," she said softly.
"No, that's so," said Ken gently. "Jem and Walter and the girls away—it makes a big blank, doesn't it? But—" he leaned forward until his dark curls almost brushed her hair—"doesn't Fred Arnold try to fill the blank occasionally. I've been told so."
"No, that's true," Ken said softly. "With Jem, Walter, and the girls gone, it creates a big gap, doesn’t it? But—" he leaned in closer until his dark curls nearly touched her hair—"doesn’t Fred Arnold try to fill that gap sometimes? That’s what I’ve heard."
At this moment, before Rilla could make any reply, Jims began to cry at the top of his voice in the room whose open window was just above them—Jims, who hardly ever cried in the evening. Moreover, he was crying, as Rilla knew from experience, with a vim and energy that betokened that he had been already whimpering softly unheard for some time and was thoroughly exasperated. When Jims started in crying like that he made a thorough job of it. Rilla knew that there was no use to sit still and pretend to ignore him. He wouldn't stop; and conversation of any kind was out of the question when such shrieks and howls were floating over your head. Besides, she was afraid Kenneth would think she was utterly unfeeling if she sat still and let a baby cry like that. He was not likely acquainted with Morgan's invaluable volume.
At that moment, before Rilla could respond, Jims started crying loudly from the room with the open window just above them—Jims, who rarely cried in the evening. Moreover, Rilla knew from experience that his crying was intense and energetic, indicating that he had been softly whimpering for a while and was completely frustrated. When Jims cried like that, he really went all out. Rilla realized there was no point in staying still and pretending she didn't hear him. He wouldn’t stop, and talking at all was impossible with such screams and howls echoing above. Plus, she was worried Kenneth would think she was completely heartless if she just sat there and let a baby cry like that. He probably wasn’t familiar with Morgan's invaluable book.
She got up. "Jims has had a nightmare, I think. He sometimes has one and he is always badly frightened by it. Excuse me for a moment."
She got up. "I think Jim had a nightmare. He sometimes has them, and he's always really scared by it. Excuse me for a moment."
Rilla flew upstairs, wishing quite frankly that soup tureens had never been invented. But when Jims, at sight of her, lifted his little arms entreatingly and swallowed several sobs, with tears rolling down his cheeks, resentment went out of her heart. After all, the poor darling was frightened. She picked him up gently and rocked him soothingly until his sobs ceased and his eyes closed. Then she essayed to lay him down in his crib. Jims opened his eyes and shrieked a protest. This performance was repeated twice. Rilla grew desperate. She couldn't leave Ken down there alone any longer—she had been away nearly half an hour already. With a resigned air she marched downstairs, carrying Jims, and sat down on the veranda. It was, no doubt, a ridiculous thing to sit and cuddle a contrary war-baby when your best young man was making his farewell call, but there was nothing else to be done.
Rilla rushed upstairs, honestly wishing soup tureens had never been invented. But when Jims, seeing her, lifted his little arms pleadingly and swallowed back several sobs, tears streaming down his cheeks, all her resentment melted away. After all, the poor little guy was scared. She picked him up gently and rocked him soothingly until his sobs stopped and his eyes fluttered shut. Then she tried to lay him down in his crib. Jims opened his eyes and let out a loud protest. They went back and forth like this twice. Rilla felt frantic. She couldn’t leave Ken down there alone any longer—she had already been away for nearly half an hour. With a resigned sigh, she marched downstairs with Jims in her arms and sat down on the porch. It was probably silly to sit and cuddle a fussy war-baby when her best young man was making his goodbye visit, but there was nothing else she could do.
Jims was supremely happy. He kicked his little pink-soled feet rapturously out under his white nighty and gave one of his rare laughs. He was beginning to be a very pretty baby; his golden hair curled in silken ringlets all over his little round head and his eyes were beautiful.
Jims was very happy. He kicked his little pink-soled feet joyfully under his white nightgown and let out one of his rare laughs. He was becoming a really cute baby; his golden hair curled in soft ringlets all over his little round head, and his eyes were stunning.
"He's a decorative kiddy all right, isn't he?" said Ken.
"He's really a cute kid, isn't he?" said Ken.
"His looks are very well," said Rilla, bitterly, as if to imply that they were much the best of him. Jims, being an astute infant, sensed trouble in the atmosphere and realized that it was up to him to clear it away. He turned his face up to Rilla, smiled adorably and said, clearly and beguilingly, "Will—Will."
"His looks are pretty great," Rilla said bitterly, as if to suggest that they were the best part of him. Jims, being a sharp little kid, sensed the tension and knew it was his job to lighten the mood. He tilted his face up to Rilla, smiled cutely, and said, clearly and charmingly, "Will—Will."
It was the very first time he had spoken a word or tried to speak. Rilla was so delighted that she forgot her grudge against him. She forgave him with a hug and kiss. Jims, understanding that he was restored to favour, cuddled down against her just where a gleam of light from the lamp in the living-room struck across his hair and turned it into a halo of gold against her breast.
It was the very first time he had said a word or tried to talk. Rilla was so happy that she forgot her grudge against him. She forgave him with a hug and a kiss. Jims, realizing he was back in her good books, snuggled against her right where a beam of light from the lamp in the living room hit his hair and made it shine like a halo of gold against her chest.
Kenneth sat very still and silent, looking at Rilla—at the delicate, girlish silhouette of her, her long lashes, her dented lip, her adorable chin. In the dim moonlight, as she sat with her head bent a little over Jims, the lamplight glinting on her pearls until they glistened like a slender nimbus, he thought she looked exactly like the Madonna that hung over his mother's desk at home. He carried that picture of her in his heart to the horror of the battlefields of France. He had had a strong fancy for Rilla Blythe ever since the night of the Four Winds dance; but it was when he saw her there, with little Jims in her arms, that he loved her and realized it. And all the while, poor Rilla was sitting, disappointed and humiliated, feeling that her last evening with Ken was spoiled and wondering why things always had to go so contrarily outside of books. She felt too absurd to try to talk. Evidently Ken was completely disgusted, too, since he was sitting there in such stony silence.
Kenneth sat very still and silent, looking at Rilla—at the delicate, girlish outline of her, her long lashes, her pouty lip, her adorable chin. In the dim moonlight, as she sat with her head slightly bent over Jims, the lamplight twinkling on her pearls until they shone like a slender halo, he thought she looked just like the Madonna that hung over his mother's desk at home. He carried that image of her in his heart through the horrors of the battlefields in France. He had felt a strong attraction to Rilla Blythe ever since the night of the Four Winds dance; but it was when he saw her there, with little Jims in her arms, that he truly loved her and realized it. Meanwhile, poor Rilla was sitting there, disappointed and humiliated, feeling like her last evening with Ken was ruined and wondering why things always had to go so differently than in books. She felt too ridiculous to try to talk. Clearly, Ken was completely disgusted as well, since he was sitting there in such stony silence.
Hope revived momentarily when Jims went so thoroughly asleep that she thought it would be safe to lay him down on the couch in the living-room. But when she came out again Susan was sitting on the veranda, loosening her bonnet strings with the air of one who meant to stay where she was for some time.
Hope briefly returned when Jims fell into a deep sleep, and she thought it would be okay to lay him down on the couch in the living room. But when she came back out, Susan was sitting on the porch, loosening her bonnet strings, looking like she planned to stay there for a while.
"Have you got your baby to sleep?" she asked kindly.
"Have you gotten your baby to sleep?" she asked kindly.
Your baby! Really, Susan might have more tact.
Your baby! Seriously, Susan could show a little more sensitivity.
"Yes," said Rilla shortly.
"Yeah," Rilla replied briefly.
Susan laid her parcels on the reed table, as one determined to do her duty. She was very tired but she must help Rilla out. Here was Kenneth Ford who had come to call on the family and they were all unfortunately out, and "the poor child" had had to entertain him alone. But Susan had come to her rescue—Susan would do her part no matter how tired she was.
Susan set her packages on the wicker table, ready to do her duty. She was really tired, but she had to help Rilla out. Here was Kenneth Ford, who had come to visit the family, and they were all unfortunately out, leaving "the poor kid" to entertain him by herself. But Susan had come to her rescue—Susan would do her part no matter how exhausted she felt.
"Dear me, how you have grown up," she said, looking at Ken's six feet of khaki uniform without the least awe. Susan had grown used to khaki now, and at sixty-four even a lieutenant's uniform is just clothes and nothing else. "It is an amazing thing how fast children do grow up. Rilla here, now, is almost fifteen."
"Wow, look how much you've grown," she said, glancing at Ken's six-foot tall khaki uniform without any hint of admiration. Susan had gotten used to khaki by now, and at sixty-four, even a lieutenant's uniform was just clothes to her. "It's incredible how quickly kids grow up. Rilla here is almost fifteen."
"I'm going on seventeen, Susan," cried Rilla almost passionately. She was a whole month past sixteen. It was intolerable of Susan.
"I'm almost seventeen, Susan," Rilla exclaimed almost passionately. She was a full month past sixteen. It was so unreasonable of Susan.
"It seems just the other day that you were all babies," said Susan, ignoring Rilla's protest. "You were really the prettiest baby I ever saw, Ken, though your mother had an awful time trying to cure you of sucking your thumb. Do you remember the day I spanked you?"
"It feels like it was just yesterday that you were all little babies," said Susan, brushing aside Rilla's objection. "You were honestly the cutest baby I've ever seen, Ken, even though your mom had a tough time getting you to stop sucking your thumb. Do you remember the day I spanked you?"
"No," said Ken.
"No," Ken replied.
"Oh well, I suppose you would be too young—you were only about four and you were here with your mother and you insisted on teasing Nan until she cried. I had tried several ways of stopping you but none availed, and I saw that a spanking was the only thing that would serve. So I picked you up and laid you across my knee and lambasted you well. You howled at the top of your voice but you left Nan alone after that."
"Oh well, I guess you were too young—you were only about four, here with your mom, and you kept teasing Nan until she cried. I tried several ways to stop you, but nothing worked, and I realized that a spanking was the only thing that would help. So I picked you up, put you across my knee, and gave you a good smack. You yelled at the top of your lungs, but after that, you left Nan alone."
Rilla was writhing. Hadn't Susan any realization that she was addressing an officer of the Canadian Army? Apparently she had not. Oh, what would Ken think? "I suppose you do not remember the time your mother spanked you either," continued Susan, who seemed to be bent on reviving tender reminiscences that evening. "I shall never, no never, forget it. She was up here one night with you when you were about three, and you and Walter were playing out in the kitchen yard with a kitten. I had a big puncheon of rainwater by the spout which I was reserving for making soap. And you and Walter began quarrelling over the kitten. Walter was at one side of the puncheon standing on a chair, holding the kitten, and you were standing on a chair at the other side. You leaned across that puncheon and grabbed the kitten and pulled. You were always a great hand for taking what you wanted without too much ceremony. Walter held on tight and the poor kitten yelled but you dragged Walter and the kitten half over and then you both lost your balance and tumbled into that puncheon, kitten and all. If I had not been on the spot you would both have been drowned. I flew to the rescue and hauled you all three out before much harm was done, and your mother, who had seen it all from the upstairs window, came down and picked you up, dripping as you were, and gave you a beautiful spanking. Ah," said Susan with a sigh, "those were happy old days at Ingleside."
Rilla was squirming. Didn’t Susan realize she was talking to an officer of the Canadian Army? Apparently not. Oh, what would Ken think? "I guess you don’t remember the time your mom spanked you either," Susan said, clearly set on bringing up old memories that night. "I will never, ever forget it. She was here one night with you when you were about three, and you and Walter were playing out in the kitchen yard with a kitten. I had a big tub of rainwater by the spout that I was saving for making soap. You and Walter started arguing over the kitten. Walter was on one side of the tub standing on a chair, holding the kitten, and you were on the other side on a chair. You leaned across that tub, grabbed the kitten, and pulled. You’ve always had a talent for taking what you wanted without much thought. Walter held on tight, and the poor kitten screamed, but you dragged both Walter and the kitten halfway over, and then you both lost your balance and fell into that tub, kitten and all. If I hadn’t been there, you both would have drowned. I rushed in and pulled you three out before anything too bad happened, and your mom, who had seen the whole thing from the upstairs window, came down, picked you up all dripping, and gave you a good spanking. Ah," Susan sighed, "those were good old days at Ingleside."
"Must have been," said Ken. His voice sounded queer and stiff. Rilla supposed he was hopelessly enraged. The truth was he dared not trust his voice lest it betray his frantic desire to laugh.
"Must have been," said Ken. His voice sounded strange and tense. Rilla guessed he was really angry. The truth was he didn’t trust his voice because it might reveal his desperate urge to laugh.
"Rilla here, now," said Susan, looking affectionately at that unhappy damsel, "never was much spanked. She was a real well-behaved child for the most part. But her father did spank her once. She got two bottles of pills out of his office and dared Alice Clow to see which of them could swallow all the pills first, and if her father had not happened in the nick of time those two children would have been corpses by night. As it was, they were both sick enough shortly after. But the doctor spanked Rilla then and there and he made such a thorough job of it that she never meddled with anything in his office afterwards. We hear a great deal nowadays of something that is called 'moral persuasion,' but in my opinion a good spanking and no nagging afterwards is a much better thing."
"Rilla's here now," said Susan, looking affectionately at that unhappy girl, "she never really got spanked much. She was mostly a well-behaved kid. But her dad did spank her once. She took two bottles of pills from his office and dared Alice Clow to see which of them could swallow all the pills first, and if her dad hadn't walked in just in time, those two kids would have been dead by night. As it was, they both ended up really sick shortly after. But the doctor spanked Rilla right then and there, and he did such a thorough job that she never touched anything in his office again. We hear a lot these days about something called 'moral persuasion,' but in my opinion, a good spanking and no nagging afterwards is a way better approach."
Rilla wondered viciously whether Susan meant to relate all the family spankings. But Susan had finished with the subject and branched off to another cheerful one.
Rilla wondered angrily if Susan planned to share all the family spankings. But Susan had moved on from that topic and switched to another cheerful one.
"I remember little Tod MacAllister over-harbour killed himself that very way, eating up a whole box of fruitatives because he thought they were candy. It was a very sad affair. He was," said Susan earnestly, "the very cutest little corpse I ever laid my eyes on. It was very careless of his mother to leave the fruitatives where he could get them, but she was well-known to be a heedless creature. One day she found a nest of five eggs as she was going across the fields to church with a brand new blue silk dress on. So she put them in the pocket of her petticoat and when she got to church she forgot all about them and sat down on them and her dress was ruined, not to speak of the petticoat. Let me see—would not Tod be some relation of yours? Your great grandmother West was a MacAllister. Her brother Amos was a MacDonaldite in religion. I am told he used to take the jerks something fearful. But you look more like your great grandfather West than the MacAllisters. He died of a paralytic stroke quite early in life."
"I remember little Tod MacAllister from over the harbor, who accidentally killed himself that way by eating a whole box of fruitatives because he thought they were candy. It was such a sad situation. He was," Susan said earnestly, "the cutest little corpse I've ever seen. It was very careless of his mother to leave the fruitatives where he could reach them, but she was known to be pretty thoughtless. One day, she found a nest of five eggs while she was walking across the fields to church in her brand new blue silk dress. She put them in the pocket of her petticoat, but when she got to church, she forgot about them, sat down on them, and ruined her dress—let alone the petticoat. Let me see—wouldn't Tod be some relation of yours? Your great-grandmother West was a MacAllister. Her brother Amos was a MacDonaldite by religion. I hear he used to get the jitters quite badly. But you look more like your great-grandfather West than the MacAllisters. He died of a stroke quite early in life."
"Did you see anybody at the store?" asked Rilla desperately, in the faint hope of directing Susan's conversation into more agreeable channels.
"Did you see anyone at the store?" Rilla asked urgently, hoping to steer Susan's conversation in a more pleasant direction.
"Nobody except Mary Vance," said Susan, "and she was stepping round as brisk as the Irishman's flea."
"Nobody except Mary Vance," said Susan, "and she was moving around as lively as an Irishman's flea."
What terrible similes Susan used! Would Kenneth think she acquired them from the family!
What awful similes Susan used! Would Kenneth think she got them from the family?
"To hear Mary talk about Miller Douglas you would think he was the only Glen boy who had enlisted," Susan went on. "But of course she always did brag and she has some good qualities I am willing to admit, though I did not think so that time she chased Rilla here through the village with a dried codfish till the poor child fell, heels over head, into the puddle before Carter Flagg's store."
"Listening to Mary talk about Miller Douglas, you'd think he was the only guy from Glen who signed up," Susan continued. "But of course she always liked to brag, and I can acknowledge she has some good qualities, even though I didn't feel that way when she chased Rilla through the village with a dried codfish until the poor girl fell, head over heels, into the puddle in front of Carter Flagg's store."
Rilla went cold all over with wrath and shame. Were there any more disgraceful scenes in her past that Susan could rake up? As for Ken, he could have howled over Susan's speeches, but he would not so insult the duenna of his lady, so he sat with a preternaturally solemn face which seemed to poor Rilla a haughty and offended one.
Rilla felt a mix of anger and embarrassment wash over her. Were there any other humiliating moments from her past that Susan could bring up? As for Ken, he could have laughed at Susan's speeches, but he didn't want to disrespect the guardian of his lady, so he sat there with an unusually serious expression, which poor Rilla interpreted as arrogant and offended.
"I paid eleven cents for a bottle of ink tonight," complained Susan. "Ink is twice as high as it was last year. Perhaps it is because Woodrow Wilson has been writing so many notes. It must cost him considerable. My cousin Sophia says Woodrow Wilson is not the man she expected him to be—but then no man ever was. Being an old maid, I do not know much about men and have never pretended to, but my cousin Sophia is very hard on them, although she married two of them, which you might think was a fair share. Albert Crawford's chimney blew down in that big gale we had last week, and when Sophia heard the bricks clattering on the roof she thought it was a Zeppelin raid and went into hysterics. And Mrs. Albert Crawford says that of the two things she would have preferred the Zeppelin raid."
"I paid eleven cents for a bottle of ink tonight," complained Susan. "Ink is twice as expensive as it was last year. Maybe it's because Woodrow Wilson has been writing so many notes. It must be costing him a lot. My cousin Sophia says Woodrow Wilson isn't the man she thought he would be—but honestly, no man ever is. Since I'm an old maid, I don't know much about men and never claimed to, but my cousin Sophia is really tough on them, even though she married two of them, which seems like a decent amount. Albert Crawford's chimney blew down in that big storm we had last week, and when Sophia heard the bricks crashing on the roof, she thought it was a Zeppelin attack and went into hysterics. And Mrs. Albert Crawford says that out of the two, she would have preferred the Zeppelin attack."
Rilla sat limply in her chair like one hypnotized. She knew Susan would stop talking when she was ready to stop and that no earthly power could make her stop any sooner. As a rule, she was very fond of Susan but just now she hated her with a deadly hatred. It was ten o'clock. Ken would soon have to go—the others would soon be home—and she had not even had a chance to explain to Ken that Fred Arnold filled no blank in her life nor ever could. Her rainbow castle lay in ruins round her.
Rilla sat in her chair, feeling dazed, as if she were hypnotized. She knew that Susan would stop talking when she was ready and that nothing could make her stop any sooner. Generally, she really liked Susan, but at that moment, she felt a deep resentment toward her. It was ten o'clock. Ken would need to leave soon—the others would be home shortly—and she hadn't even had a chance to explain to Ken that Fred Arnold didn’t fill any void in her life, nor could he. Her dreams lay shattered around her.
Kenneth got up at last. He realized that Susan was there to stay as long as he did, and it was a three mile walk to Martin West's over-harbour. He wondered if Rilla had put Susan up to this, not wanting to be left alone with him, lest he say something Fred Arnold's sweetheart did not want to hear. Rilla got up, too, and walked silently the length of the veranda with him. They stood there for a moment, Ken on the lower step. The step was half sunk into the earth and mint grew thickly about and over its edge. Often crushed by so many passing feet it gave out its essence freely, and the spicy odour hung round them like a soundless, invisible benediction. Ken looked up at Rilla, whose hair was shining in the moonlight and whose eyes were pools of allurement. All at once he felt sure there was nothing in that gossip about Fred Arnold.
Kenneth finally got up. He realized that Susan was going to stick around for as long as he did, and it was a three-mile walk to Martin West's place across the harbor. He wondered if Rilla had encouraged Susan to do this, not wanting to be alone with him in case he said something that Fred Arnold's girlfriend wouldn't want to hear. Rilla also got up and silently walked the length of the porch with him. They stood there for a moment, Ken on the lower step. The step was half-buried in the ground, and mint grew thickly around and over its edge. Often trampled by so many passing feet, it released its scent freely, and the spicy aroma surrounded them like a soundless, invisible blessing. Ken looked up at Rilla, whose hair was shining in the moonlight and whose eyes were deep pools of attraction. Suddenly, he felt certain that the rumors about Fred Arnold weren’t true at all.
"Rilla," he said in a sudden, intense whisper, "you are the sweetest thing."
"Rilla," he said in a sudden, intense whisper, "you are the sweetest thing."
Rilla flushed and looked at Susan. Ken looked, too, and saw that Susan's back was turned. He put his arm about Rilla and kissed her. It was the first time Rilla had ever been kissed. She thought perhaps she ought to resent it but she didn't. Instead, she glanced timidly into Kenneth's seeking eyes and her glance was a kiss.
Rilla blushed and glanced at Susan. Ken looked as well and noticed that Susan had her back turned. He wrapped his arm around Rilla and kissed her. It was the first time Rilla had ever been kissed. She thought she might feel upset about it, but she didn't. Instead, she shyly met Kenneth's searching eyes and her gaze was a kiss.
"Rilla-my-Rilla," said Ken, "will you promise that you won't let anyone else kiss you until I come back?"
"Rilla-my-Rilla," Ken said, "will you promise that you won’t let anyone else kiss you until I get back?"
"Yes," said Rilla, trembling and thrilling.
"Yes," Rilla said, shaking with excitement.
Susan was turning round. Ken loosened his hold and stepped to the walk.
Susan was turning around. Ken loosened his grip and stepped onto the walkway.
"Good-bye," he said casually. Rilla heard herself saying it just as casually. She stood and watched him down the walk, out of the gate, and down the road. When the fir wood hid him from her sight she suddenly said "Oh," in a choked way and ran down to the gate, sweet blossomy things catching at her skirts as she ran. Leaning over the gate she saw Kenneth walking briskly down the road, over the bars of tree shadows and moonlight, his tall, erect figure grey in the white radiance. As he reached the turn he stopped and looked back and saw her standing amid the tall white lilies by the gate. He waved his hand—she waved hers—he was gone around the turn.
"Goodbye," he said casually. Rilla heard herself saying it just as casually. She stood and watched him walk down the path, out of the gate, and down the road. When the fir trees concealed him from her view, she suddenly exclaimed "Oh," in a choked voice and ran down to the gate, sweet blossomy things snagging at her skirts as she hurried. Leaning over the gate, she saw Kenneth walking briskly down the road, moving through the shadows of the trees and moonlight, his tall, upright figure appearing grey in the bright glow. As he reached the curve, he stopped, looked back, and saw her standing among the tall white lilies by the gate. He waved his hand—she waved hers—then he disappeared around the turn.
Rilla stood there for a little while, gazing across the fields of mist and silver. She had heard her mother say that she loved turns in roads—they were so provocative and alluring. Rilla thought she hated them. She had seen Jem and Jerry vanish from her around a bend in the road—then Walter—and now Ken. Brothers and playmate and sweetheart—they were all gone, never, it might be, to return. Yet still the Piper piped and the dance of death went on.
Rilla stood there for a moment, staring out at the misty fields and silver landscape. She remembered her mother saying that she loved the curves in the roads—they were so tempting and captivating. Rilla realized she actually hated them. She had watched Jem and Jerry disappear around a bend in the road—then Walter—and now Ken. Brothers, friends, and her love—they were all gone, possibly never to come back. Yet still the Piper played and the dance of death continued.
When Rilla walked slowly back to the house Susan was still sitting by the veranda table and Susan was sniffing suspiciously.
When Rilla slowly walked back to the house, Susan was still sitting at the veranda table, sniffing suspiciously.
"I have been thinking, Rilla dear, of the old days in the House of Dreams, when Kenneth's mother and father were courting and Jem was a little baby and you were not born or thought of. It was a very romantic affair and she and your mother were such chums. To think I should have lived to see her son going to the front. As if she had not had enough trouble in her early life without this coming upon her! But we must take a brace and see it through."
"I've been thinking, Rilla dear, about the old days in the House of Dreams, when Kenneth's parents were dating, Jem was just a baby, and you weren't born or even thought of yet. It was such a romantic time, and she and your mom were really close friends. Who would have thought I’d live to see her son heading off to war? As if she hadn’t faced enough struggles in her early life without this added to her plate! But we have to stay strong and get through this."
All Rilla's anger against Susan had evaporated. With Ken's kiss still burning on her lips, and the wonderful significance of the promise he had asked thrilling heart and soul, she could not be angry with anyone. She put her slim white hand into Susan's brown, work-hardened one and gave it a squeeze. Susan was a faithful old dear and would lay down her life for any one of them.
All of Rilla's anger towards Susan had vanished. With Ken's kiss still warm on her lips and the amazing significance of the promise he had made thrilling her heart and soul, she couldn't be upset with anyone. She placed her slim white hand into Susan's brown, calloused one and gave it a squeeze. Susan was a loyal old dear who would give her life for any one of them.
"You are tired, Rilla dear, and had better go to bed," Susan said, patting her hand. "I noticed you were too tired to talk tonight. I am glad I came home in time to help you out. It is very tiresome trying to entertain young men when you are not accustomed to it."
"You look tired, Rilla, and you should head to bed," Susan said, giving her hand a reassuring pat. "I noticed you were too worn out to chat this evening. I'm glad I made it back in time to help you. It’s exhausting trying to entertain young men when you’re not used to it."
Rilla carried Jims upstairs and went to bed, but not before she had sat for a long time at her window reconstructing her rainbow castle, with several added domes and turrets.
Rilla took Jims upstairs and went to bed, but not before she spent a long time at her window reimagining her rainbow castle, adding several new domes and turrets.
"I wonder," she said to herself, "if I am, or am not, engaged to Kenneth Ford."
"I wonder," she said to herself, "if I am or am not engaged to Kenneth Ford."
CHAPTER XVII
THE WEEKS WEAR BY
Rilla read her first love letter in her Rainbow Valley fir-shadowed nook, and a girl's first love letter, whatever blase, older people may think of it, is an event of tremendous importance in the teens. After Kenneth's regiment had left Kingsport there came a fortnight of dully-aching anxiety and when the congregation sang in Church on Sunday evenings,
Rilla read her first love letter in her cozy spot shaded by fir trees in Rainbow Valley, and a girl’s first love letter, no matter what jaded adults might think, is a huge deal during the teenage years. After Kenneth's regiment left Kingsport, she experienced two weeks of a dull, aching anxiety, and when the congregation sang in church on Sunday evenings,
"Oh, hear us when we cry to Thee
For those in peril on the sea,"
"Oh, listen to us when we call to You
For those in danger on the sea,"
Rilla's voice always failed her; for with the words came a horribly vivid mind picture of a submarined ship sinking beneath pitiless waves amid the struggles and cries of drowning men. Then word came that Kenneth's regiment had arrived safely in England; and now, at last, here was his letter. It began with something that made Rilla supremely happy for the moment and ended with a paragraph that crimsoned her cheeks with the wonder and thrill and delight of it. Between beginning and ending the letter was just such a jolly, newsy epistle as Ken might have written to anyone; but for the sake of that beginning and ending Rilla slept with the letter under her pillow for weeks, sometimes waking in the night to slip her fingers under and just touch it, and looked with secret pity on other girls whose sweethearts could never have written them anything half so wonderful and exquisite. Kenneth was not the son of a famous novelist for nothing. He "had a way" of expressing things in a few poignant, significant words that seemed to suggest far more than they uttered, and never grew stale or flat or foolish with ever so many scores of readings. Rilla went home from Rainbow Valley as if she flew rather than walked.
Rilla's voice always let her down; because with the words came a horrifying image of a submerged ship sinking beneath relentless waves amid the struggles and cries of drowning men. Then, news came that Kenneth's regiment had safely arrived in England; and now, at last, there was his letter. It started with something that made Rilla incredibly happy for the moment and ended with a paragraph that made her cheeks burn with wonder, excitement, and delight. Between the beginning and the end, the letter was just the kind of cheerful, newsy note Ken might have written to anyone; but because of that start and finish, Rilla kept the letter under her pillow for weeks, sometimes waking up at night to slip her fingers underneath to just touch it, feeling secret pity for other girls whose boyfriends could never have written them anything nearly as wonderful and exquisite. Kenneth wasn’t just the son of a famous novelist for nothing. He “had a way” of expressing things in a few powerful, meaningful words that seemed to imply much more than they said, and never felt stale or flat or silly after countless readings. Rilla left Rainbow Valley feeling as if she soared rather than walked.
But such moments of uplift were rare that autumn. To be sure, there was one day in September when great news came of a big Allied victory in the west and Susan ran out to hoist the flag—the first time she had hoisted it since the Russian line broke and the last time she was to hoist it for many dismal moons.
But those moments of joy were rare that autumn. There was one day in September when great news arrived about a major Allied victory in the west, and Susan ran out to raise the flag—the first time she had raised it since the Russian line broke and the last time she would raise it for many gloomy months.
"Likely the Big Push has begun at last, Mrs. Dr. dear," she exclaimed, "and we will soon see the finish of the Huns. Our boys will be home by Christmas now. Hurrah!"
"Looks like the Big Push has finally started, Mrs. Dr. dear," she exclaimed, "and we’ll soon see the end of the Huns. Our boys will be home by Christmas now. Hurrah!"
Susan was ashamed of herself for hurrahing the minute she had done it, and apologized meekly for such an outburst of juvenility. "But indeed, Mrs. Dr. dear, this good news has gone to my head after this awful summer of Russian slumps and Gallipoli setbacks."
Susan felt embarrassed for cheering the moment she completed it and quietly apologized for such a childish reaction. "But honestly, Mrs. Dr. dear, this good news has gone to my head after this terrible summer of Russian disappointments and Gallipoli failures."
"Good news!" said Miss Oliver bitterly. "I wonder if the women whose men have been killed for it will call it good news. Just because our own men are not on that part of the front we are rejoicing as if the victory had cost no lives."
"Good news!" Miss Oliver said bitterly. "I wonder if the women whose men have been killed will see it as good news. Just because our men aren’t fighting in that part of the front, we’re celebrating like the victory didn’t cost any lives."
"Now, Miss Oliver dear, do not take that view of it," deprecated Susan. "We have not had much to rejoice over of late and yet men were being killed just the same. Do not let yourself slump like poor Cousin Sophia. She said, when the word came, 'Ah, it is nothing but a rift in the clouds. We are up this week but we will be down the next.' 'Well, Sophia Crawford,' said I,—for I will never give in to her, Mrs. Dr. dear—'God himself cannot make two hills without a hollow between them, as I have heard it said, but that is no reason why we should not take the good of the hills when we are on them.' But Cousin Sophia moaned on. 'Here is the Gallipolly expedition a failure and the Grand Duke Nicholas sent off, and everyone knows the Czar of Rooshia is a pro-German and the Allies have no ammunition and Bulgaria is going against us. And the end is not yet, for England and France must be punished for their deadly sins until they repent in sackcloth and ashes.' 'I think myself,' I said, 'that they will do their repenting in khaki and trench mud, and it seems to me that the Huns should have a few sins to repent of also.' 'They are instruments in the hands of the Almighty, to purge the garner,' said Sophia. And then I got mad, Mrs. Dr. dear, and told her I did not and never would believe that the Almighty ever took such dirty instruments in hand for any purpose whatever, and that I did not consider it decent for her to be using the words of Holy Writ as glibly as she was doing in ordinary conversation. She was not, I told her, a minister or even an elder. And for the time being I squelched her, Mrs. Dr. dear. Cousin Sophia has no spirit. She is very different from her niece, Mrs. Dean Crawford over-harbour. You know the Dean Crawfords had five boys and now the new baby is another boy. All the connection and especially Dean Crawford were much disappointed because their hearts had been set on a girl; but Mrs. Dean just laughed and said, 'Everywhere I went this summer I saw the sign "MEN WANTED" staring me in the face. Do you think I could go and have a girl under such circumstances?' There is spirit for you, Mrs. Dr. dear. But Cousin Sophia would say the child was just so much more cannon fodder."
"Now, Miss Oliver dear, don’t think like that," Susan disagreed. "We haven’t had much to celebrate lately, yet men are still getting killed. Don’t let yourself get down like poor Cousin Sophia. When she heard the news, she said, 'Ah, it’s nothing but a rift in the clouds. We’re up this week but will be down next week.' 'Well, Sophia Crawford,' I said—because I won't give in to her, Mrs. Dr. dear—'God himself can’t create two hills without a valley in between, as I’ve heard it said, but that doesn’t mean we shouldn’t enjoy the good times when we have them.' But Cousin Sophia kept complaining. 'The Gallipoli expedition is a failure, the Grand Duke Nicholas has been sent away, everyone knows the Czar of Russia is pro-German, the Allies are low on ammunition, and Bulgaria is turning against us. And it’s not over yet; England and France must be punished for their terrible sins until they repent in sackcloth and ashes.' 'I think,' I said, 'that they’ll be doing their repenting in khaki and trench mud, and I believe the Germans should have a few sins to repent of too.' 'They are instruments in the hands of the Almighty, to cleanse the harvest,' said Sophia. And then I got upset, Mrs. Dr. dear, and told her I did not and would never believe that the Almighty would use such dirty instruments for any purpose and that I didn’t think it was appropriate for her to casually use biblical language in everyday conversation. She was not, I told her, a minister or even an elder. And for a while, I silenced her, Mrs. Dr. dear. Cousin Sophia has no spirit. She is very different from her niece, Mrs. Dean Crawford from over the harbor. You know the Dean Crawfords had five boys, and now the new baby is another boy. Everyone in the family, especially Dean Crawford, was very disappointed because they had their hearts set on a girl; but Mrs. Dean just laughed and said, 'Everywhere I went this summer, I saw the sign "MEN WANTED" staring me in the face. Do you think I could have a girl under such circumstances?' Now there’s some spirit for you, Mrs. Dr. dear. But Cousin Sophia would say the child is just more cannon fodder."
Cousin Sophia had full range for her pessimism that gloomy autumn, and even Susan, incorrigible old optimist as she was, was hard put to it for cheer. When Bulgaria lined up with Germany Susan only remarked scornfully, "One more nation anxious for a licking," but the Greek tangle worried her beyond her powers of philosophy to endure calmly.
Cousin Sophia had plenty of reason to be pessimistic that gloomy autumn, and even Susan, the hopeless optimist that she was, struggled to stay cheerful. When Bulgaria sided with Germany, Susan only scoffed, "Just another country looking for a defeat," but the situation in Greece troubled her more than her usual philosophy could handle.
"Constantine of Greece has a German wife, Mrs. Dr. dear, and that fact squelches hope. To think that I should have lived to care what kind of a wife Constantine of Greece had! The miserable creature is under his wife's thumb and that is a bad place for any man to be. I am an old maid and an old maid has to be independent or she will be squashed out. But if I had been a married woman, Mrs. Dr. dear, I would have been meek and humble. It is my opinion that this Sophia of Greece is a minx."
"Constantine of Greece is married to a German woman, Mrs. Dr. dear, and that kills any hope. Can you believe I actually care about what kind of wife Constantine of Greece has? The poor guy is completely under her control, and that’s never a good situation for a man. I'm an old maid, and I know that an old maid has to be independent or she'll get pushed around. But if I were married, Mrs. Dr. dear, I would have been submissive and compliant. Honestly, I think this Sophia of Greece is quite the troublemaker."
Susan was furious when the news came that Venizelos had met with defeat. "I could spank Constantine and skin him alive afterwards, that I could," she exclaimed bitterly.
Susan was angry when she heard that Venizelos had lost. "I could totally spank Constantine and then skin him alive afterward, that I could," she said bitterly.
"Oh, Susan, I'm surprised at you," said the doctor, pulling a long face. "Have you no regard for the proprieties? Skin him alive by all means but omit the spanking."
"Oh, Susan, I'm surprised at you," said the doctor, making a long face. "Don't you have any respect for what's appropriate? Go ahead and skin him alive, but please skip the spanking."
"If he had been well spanked in his younger days he might have more sense now," retorted Susan. "But I suppose princes are never spanked, more is the pity. I see the Allies have sent him an ultimatum. I could tell them that it will take more than ultimatums to skin a snake like Constantine. Perhaps the Allied blockade will hammer sense into his head; but that will take some time I am thinking, and in the meantime what is to become of poor Serbia?"
"If he had been disciplined properly in his younger days, he might be smarter now," Susan shot back. "But I guess princes never get disciplined, which is a shame. I see the Allies have sent him an ultimatum. I could tell them that it will take more than ultimatums to deal with a snake like Constantine. Maybe the Allied blockade will knock some sense into him; but I think that will take a while, and in the meantime, what will happen to poor Serbia?"
They saw what became of Serbia, and during the process Susan was hardly to be lived with. In her exasperation she abused everything and everybody except Kitchener, and she fell upon poor President Wilson tooth and claw.
They saw what happened to Serbia, and during that time, Susan was almost impossible to be around. In her frustration, she criticized everything and everyone except Kitchener, and she attacked poor President Wilson fiercely.
"If he had done his duty and gone into the war long ago we should not have seen this mess in Serbia," she avowed.
"If he had done his duty and gone to war a long time ago, we wouldn’t be seeing this mess in Serbia," she declared.
"It would be a serious thing to plunge a great country like the United States, with its mixed population, into the war, Susan," said the doctor, who sometimes came to the defence of the President, not because he thought Wilson needed it especially, but from an unholy love of baiting Susan.
"It would be serious to drag a huge country like the United States, with its diverse population, into the war, Susan," said the doctor, who sometimes defended the President, not because he thought Wilson really needed it, but out of a wicked enjoyment of teasing Susan.
"Maybe, doctor dear—maybe! But that makes me think of the old story of the girl who told her grandmother she was going to be married. 'It is a solemn thing to be married,' said the old lady. 'Yes, but it is a solemner thing not to be,' said the girl. And I can testify to that out of my own experience, doctor dear. And I think it is a solemner thing for the Yankees that they have kept out of the war than it would have been if they had gone into it. However, though I do not know much about them, I am of the opinion that we will see them starting something yet, Woodrow Wilson or no Woodrow Wilson, when they get it into their heads that this war is not a correspondence school. They will not," said Susan, energetically waving a saucepan with one hand and a soup ladle with the other, "be too proud to fight then."
"Maybe, doctor dear—maybe! But that makes me think of the old story of the girl who told her grandmother she was going to get married. 'Getting married is a serious thing,' said the old lady. 'Yes, but it’s even more serious not to be,' said the girl. And I can testify to that from my own experience, doctor dear. I believe it’s a bigger deal for the Yankees that they’ve stayed out of the war than if they had jumped in. However, even though I don’t know much about them, I think we’ll see them starting something soon, Woodrow Wilson or not, when they realize this war isn't just a correspondence course. They will not," said Susan, energetically waving a saucepan in one hand and a soup ladle in the other, "be too proud to fight then."
On a pale-yellow, windy evening in October Carl Meredith went away. He had enlisted on his eighteenth birthday. John Meredith saw him off with a set face. His two boys were gone—there was only little Bruce left now. He loved Bruce and Bruce's mother dearly; but Jerry and Carl were the sons of the bride of his youth and Carl was the only one of all his children who had Cecilia's very eyes. As they looked lovingly out at him above Carl's uniform the pale minister suddenly remembered the day when for the first and last time he had tried to whip Carl for his prank with the eel. That was the first time he had realised how much Carl's eyes were like Cecilia's. Now he realised it again once more. Would he ever again see his dead wife's eyes looking at him from his son's face? What a bonny, clean, handsome lad he was! It was—hard—to see him go. John Meredith seemed to be looking at a torn plain strewed with the bodies of "able-bodied men between the ages of eighteen and forty-five." Only the other day Carl had been a little scrap of a boy, hunting bugs in Rainbow Valley, taking lizards to bed with him, and scandalizing the Glen by carrying frogs to Sunday School. It seemed hardly—right—somehow that he should be an "able-bodied man" in khaki. Yet John Meredith had said no word to dissuade him when Carl had told him he must go.
On a pale-yellow, windy evening in October, Carl Meredith left. He had signed up on his eighteenth birthday. John Meredith saw him off with a serious expression. His two boys were gone—now there was only little Bruce left. He loved Bruce and Bruce's mother deeply; but Jerry and Carl were the children of his youth, and Carl was the only one of all his kids who had Cecilia's exact eyes. As they looked affectionately at him above Carl's uniform, the pale minister suddenly remembered the day he had tried for the first and last time to discipline Carl for his prank with the eel. That was when he first noticed how much Carl's eyes resembled Cecilia's. Now he was reminded of it once more. Would he ever see his late wife's eyes looking back at him from his son's face again? What a nice, clean, handsome young man he was! It was—hard—to watch him go. John Meredith felt like he was looking at a battlefield scattered with the bodies of "able-bodied men between the ages of eighteen and forty-five." Just the other day, Carl had been a little boy, chasing bugs in Rainbow Valley, taking lizards to bed with him, and shocking the community by bringing frogs to Sunday School. It felt hardly—right—somehow that he should be an "able-bodied man" in khaki. Yet John Meredith had said nothing to discourage him when Carl told him he had to go.
Rilla felt Carl's going keenly. They had always been cronies and playmates. He was only a little older than she was and they had been children in Rainbow Valley together. She recalled all their old pranks and escapades as she walked slowly home alone. The full moon peeped through the scudding clouds with sudden floods of weird illumination, the telephone wires sang a shrill weird song in the wind, and the tall spikes of withered, grey-headed golden-rod in the fence corners swayed and beckoned wildly to her like groups of old witches weaving unholy spells. On such a night as this, long ago, Carl would come over to Ingleside and whistle her out to the gate. "Let's go on a moon-spree, Rilla," he would say, and the two of them would scamper off to Rainbow Valley. Rilla had never been afraid of his beetles and bugs, though she drew a hard and fast line at snakes. They used to talk together of almost everything and were teased about each other at school; but one evening when they were about ten years of age they had solemnly promised, by the old spring in Rainbow Valley, that they would never marry each other. Alice Clow had "crossed out" their names on her slate in school that day, and it came out that "both married." They did not like the idea at all, hence the mutual vow in Rainbow Valley. There was nothing like an ounce of prevention. Rilla laughed over the old memory—and then sighed. That very day a dispatch from some London paper had contained the cheerful announcement that "the present moment is the darkest since the war began." It was dark enough, and Rilla wished desperately that she could do something besides waiting and serving at home, as day after day the Glen boys she had known went away. If she were only a boy, speeding in khaki by Carl's side to the Western front! She had wished that in a burst of romance when Jem had gone, without, perhaps, really meaning it. She meant it now. There were moments when waiting at home, in safety and comfort, seemed an unendurable thing.
Rilla felt Carl's departure deeply. They had always been best friends and playmates. He was just a bit older than her, and they had grown up together in Rainbow Valley. As she walked slowly home alone, she remembered all their childhood pranks and adventures. The full moon peeked through the moving clouds, casting strange flickers of light, the telephone wires sang a shrill, eerie tune in the wind, and the tall spikes of dried, grey-headed goldenrod in the corners of the fence swayed and beckoned to her wildly, like groups of old witches casting dark spells. On nights like this, long ago, Carl would come over to Ingleside and whistle her out to the gate. "Let’s go on a moonlit adventure, Rilla," he would say, and they’d run off to Rainbow Valley. Rilla had never been scared of his beetles and bugs, even though she drew the line at snakes. They used to talk about just about everything and were teased about each other at school; but one evening when they were around ten, they had made a serious promise by the old spring in Rainbow Valley that they would never marry each other. Alice Clow had "crossed out" their names on her slate at school that day, and it was announced that "both married." They didn’t like the idea at all, so they made their vow in Rainbow Valley. Better safe than sorry. Rilla chuckled at the old memory—and then sighed. That very day, a dispatch from a London paper had contained the upbeat announcement that "the present moment is the darkest since the war began." It was certainly dark enough, and Rilla desperately wished she could do something other than wait and serve at home, as day after day the boys from the Glen she had known left. If only she were a boy, speeding in uniform next to Carl at the Western front! She had wished that in a moment of romance when Jem left, maybe without truly meaning it. But now she meant it. There were times when waiting at home, in safety and comfort, felt completely unbearable.
The moon burst triumphantly through an especially dark cloud and shadow and silver chased each other in waves over the Glen. Rilla remembered one moonlit evening of childhood when she had said to her mother, "The moon just looks like a sorry, sorry face." She thought it looked like that still—an agonised, care-worn face, as though it looked down on dreadful sights. What did it see on the Western front? In broken Serbia? On shell-swept Gallipoli?
The moon shone brightly through a particularly dark cloud, and shadow and silver danced in waves over the Glen. Rilla recalled a moonlit night from her childhood when she told her mom, "The moon looks like a sad, sad face." She still thought it looked that way—an anguished, worn-out face, as if it were gazing down on horrific scenes. What was it witnessing on the Western front? In devastated Serbia? On the bombarded shores of Gallipoli?
"I am tired," Miss Oliver had said that day, in a rare outburst of impatience, "of this horrible rack of strained emotions, when every day brings a new horror or the dread of it. No, don't look reproachfully at me, Mrs. Blythe. There's nothing heroic about me today. I've slumped. I wish England had left Belgium to her fate—I wish Canada had never sent a man—I wish we'd tied our boys to our apron strings and not let one of them go. Oh—I shall be ashamed of myself in half an hour—but at this very minute I mean every word of it. Will the Allies never strike?"
"I’m exhausted," Miss Oliver had said that day, in a rare moment of frustration, "of this awful cycle of stressed emotions, where every day brings a new nightmare or the fear of it. No, don’t look at me like that, Mrs. Blythe. There’s nothing heroic about me today. I’ve hit a wall. I wish England had left Belgium to fend for itself—I wish Canada hadn’t sent a single soldier—I wish we’d kept our boys close and not let any of them go. Oh—I’ll feel ashamed of myself in half an hour—but at this very moment, I mean every word of it. Will the Allies ever make a move?"
"Patience is a tired mare but she jogs on," said Susan.
"Patience is a worn-out horse, but she keeps going," said Susan.
"While the steeds of Armageddon thunder, trampling over our hearts," retorted Miss Oliver. "Susan, tell me—don't you ever—didn't you ever—take spells of feeling that you must scream—or swear—or smash something—just because your torture reaches a point when it becomes unbearable?"
"While the horses of Armageddon roar, trampling over our hearts," Miss Oliver shot back. "Susan, tell me—don’t you ever—didn't you ever—have moments when you feel like you need to scream—or swear—or break something—just because your pain gets to a point where it’s too much to handle?"
"I have never sworn or desired to swear, Miss Oliver dear, but I will admit," said Susan, with the air of one determined to make a clean breast of it once and for all, "that I have experienced occasions when it was a relief to do considerable banging."
"I've never cursed or wanted to, Miss Oliver dear, but I will admit," said Susan, bravely deciding to come clean once and for all, "that I've had moments when it felt good to do some serious banging."
"Don't you think that is a kind of swearing, Susan? What is the difference between slamming a door viciously and saying d——"
"Don't you think that’s kind of swearing, Susan? What’s the difference between slamming a door hard and saying damn?"
"Miss Oliver dear," interrupted Susan, desperately determined to save Gertrude from herself, if human power could do it, "you are all tired out and unstrung—and no wonder, teaching those obstreperous youngsters all day and coming home to bad war news. But just you go upstairs and lie down and I will bring you up a cup of hot tea and a bite of toast and very soon you will not want to slam doors or swear."
"Miss Oliver, dear," interrupted Susan, desperately trying to save Gertrude from herself, if it was at all possible, "you’re completely worn out and stressed—and it’s no surprise, dealing with those rowdy kids all day and then coming home to bad news about the war. Just go upstairs and lie down, and I’ll bring you a cup of hot tea and a piece of toast, and soon enough you won’t feel like slamming doors or cursing."
"Susan, you're a good soul—a very pearl of Susans! But, Susan, it would be such a relief—to say just one soft, low, little tiny d—-"
"Susan, you're a good person—a true gem among Susans! But, Susan, it would be such a relief—to say just one soft, low, little tiny d---"
"I will bring you a hot-water bottle for the soles of your feet, also," interposed Susan resolutely, "and it would not be any relief to say that word you are thinking of, Miss Oliver, and that you may tie to."
"I'll get you a hot-water bottle for your feet, too," Susan said firmly, "and it wouldn’t help at all to say that word you're thinking of, Miss Oliver, that you might be clinging to."
"Well, I'll try the hot-water bottle first," said Miss Oliver, repenting herself on teasing Susan and vanishing upstairs, to Susan's intense relief. Susan shook her head ominously as she filled the hot-water bottle. The war was certainly relaxing the standards of behaviour woefully. Here was Miss Oliver admittedly on the point of profanity.
"Okay, I'll use the hot-water bottle first," said Miss Oliver, regretting her teasing of Susan and heading upstairs, much to Susan's relief. Susan shook her head in disapproval as she filled the hot-water bottle. The war was definitely lowering behavior standards significantly. Here was Miss Oliver, clearly on the verge of cursing.
"We must draw the blood from her brain," said Susan, "and if this bottle is not effective I will see what can be done with a mustard plaster."
"We need to draw blood from her brain," said Susan, "and if this bottle doesn't work, I'll figure out what can be done with a mustard plaster."
Gertrude rallied and carried on. Lord Kitchener went to Greece, whereat Susan foretold that Constantine would soon experience a change of heart. Lloyd George began to heckle the Allies regarding equipment and guns and Susan said you would hear more of Lloyd George yet. The gallant Anzacs withdrew from Gallipoli and Susan approved the step, with reservations. The siege of Kut-El-Amara began and Susan pored over maps of Mesopotamia and abused the Turks. Henry Ford started for Europe and Susan flayed him with sarcasm. Sir John French was superseded by Sir Douglas Haig and Susan dubiously opined that it was poor policy to swap horses crossing a stream, "though, to be sure, Haig was a good name and French had a foreign sound, say what you might." Not a move on the great chess-board of king or bishop or pawn escaped Susan, who had once read only Glen St. Mary notes. "There was a time," she said sorrowfully, "when I did not care what happened outside of P.E. Island, and now a king cannot have a toothache in Russia or China but it worries me. It may be broadening to the mind, as the doctor said, but it is very painful to the feelings."
Gertrude bounced back and kept going. Lord Kitchener went to Greece, and Susan predicted that Constantine would soon change his mind. Lloyd George started pressuring the Allies about their supplies and weapons, and Susan said you’d hear more from Lloyd George soon. The brave Anzacs pulled out of Gallipoli, and while Susan supported the decision, she had some reservations. The siege of Kut-El-Amara began, and Susan studied maps of Mesopotamia and criticized the Turks. Henry Ford was heading to Europe, and Susan mocked him with sarcasm. Sir John French was replaced by Sir Douglas Haig, and Susan skeptically commented that it was unwise to change horses in the middle of a stream, "though, to be fair, Haig was a solid name and French sounded foreign, no matter how you looked at it." No move on the great chessboard of kings, bishops, or pawns escaped Susan, who had once only read Glen St. Mary notes. "There was a time," she said sadly, "when I didn't care about anything outside of P.E. Island, and now it feels like if a king gets a toothache in Russia or China, it worries me. It may be good for the mind, as the doctor said, but it really hurts my feelings."
When Christmas came again Susan did not set any vacant places at the festive board. Two empty chairs were too much even for Susan who had thought in September that there would not be one.
When Christmas rolled around again, Susan didn't set any empty places at the festive table. Two empty chairs felt like too much, even for Susan, who had thought back in September that there wouldn't be a single one.
"This is the first Christmas that Walter was not home," Rilla wrote in her diary that night. "Jem used to be away for Christmases up in Avonlea, but Walter never was. I had letters from Ken and him today. They are still in England but expect to be in the trenches very soon. And then—but I suppose we'll be able to endure it somehow. To me, the strangest of all the strange things since 1914 is how we have all learned to accept things we never thought we could—to go on with life as a matter of course. I know that Jem and Jerry are in the trenches—that Ken and Walter will be soon—that if one of them does not come back my heart will break—yet I go on and work and plan—yes, and even enjoy life by times. There are moments when we have real fun because, just for the moment, we don't think about things and then—we remember—and the remembering is worse than thinking of it all the time would have been.
"This is the first Christmas that Walter isn't home," Rilla wrote in her diary that night. "Jem used to be away for Christmas in Avonlea, but Walter never was. I got letters from Ken and him today. They’re still in England but expect to be in the trenches very soon. And then—but I guess we’ll manage somehow. To me, the strangest thing since 1914 is how we've all learned to accept things we never thought we could—to keep going with life as if it's normal. I know that Jem and Jerry are in the trenches—that Ken and Walter will be soon—that if one of them doesn’t come back my heart will break—yet I keep working and planning—yes, and even find joy in life sometimes. There are moments when we genuinely have fun because, just for a moment, we don’t think about things and then—we remember—and remembering is worse than thinking about it all the time would have been."
"Today was dark and cloudy and tonight is wild enough, as Gertrude says, to please any novelist in search of suitable matter for a murder or elopement. The raindrops streaming over the panes look like tears running down a face, and the wind is shrieking through the maple grove.
"Today was dark and cloudy, and tonight is wild enough, as Gertrude puts it, to inspire any novelist looking for the perfect backdrop for a murder or an elopement. The raindrops streaming down the windows resemble tears rolling down a face, and the wind is howling through the maple grove."
"This hasn't been a nice Christmas Day in any way. Nan had toothache and Susan had red eyes, and assumed a weird and gruesome flippancy of manner to deceive us into thinking she hadn't; and Jims had a bad cold all day and I'm afraid of croup. He has had croup twice since October. The first time I was nearly frightened to death, for father and mother were both away—father always is away, it seems to me, when any of this household gets sick. But Susan was cool as a fish and knew just what to do, and by morning Jims was all right. That child is a cross between a duck and an imp. He's a year and four months old, trots about everywhere, and says quite a few words. He has the cutest little way of calling me "Willa-will." It always brings back that dreadful, ridiculous, delightful night when Ken came to say good-bye, and I was so furious and happy. Jims is pink and white and big-eyed and curly-haired and every now and then I discover a new dimple in him. I can never quite believe he is really the same creature as that scrawny, yellow, ugly little changeling I brought home in the soup tureen. Nobody has ever heard a word from Jim Anderson. If he never comes back I shall keep Jims always. Everybody here worships and spoils him—or would spoil him if Morgan and I didn't stand remorselessly in the way. Susan says Jims is the cleverest child she ever saw and can recognize Old Nick when he sees him—this because Jims threw poor Doc out of an upstairs window one day. Doc turned into Mr. Hyde on his way down and landed in a currant bush, spitting and swearing. I tried to console his inner cat with a saucer of milk but he would have none of it, and remained Mr. Hyde the rest of the day. Jims's latest exploit was to paint the cushion of the big arm-chair in the sun parlour with molasses; and before anybody found it out Mrs. Fred Clow came in on Red Cross business and sat down on it. Her new silk dress was ruined and nobody could blame her for being vexed. But she went into one of her tempers and said nasty things and gave me such slams about 'spoiling' Jims that I nearly boiled over, too. But I kept the lid on till she had waddled away and then I exploded.
"This hasn't been a nice Christmas Day at all. Nan had a toothache, and Susan had red eyes, pretending to act weirdly and gruesomely to fool us into thinking she wasn't feeling bad. Jim had a bad cold all day, and I'm worried about croup. He’s had croup twice since October. The first time, I was terrified because both Dad and Mom were away—Dad always seems to be gone when anyone in the house gets sick. But Susan was as cool as a cucumber and knew exactly what to do, and by morning, Jim was fine. That kid is a mix between a duck and a little demon. He’s a year and four months old, runs around everywhere, and says quite a few words. He has the cutest way of calling me "Willa-will." It always brings back that awful, ridiculous, wonderful night when Ken came to say goodbye, and I was furious and happy at the same time. Jim is pink, white, big-eyed, and curly-haired, and every now and then, I notice a new dimple on him. I can never quite believe he’s really the same little creature as that scrawny, yellow, ugly thing I brought home in the soup tureen. Nobody has heard a word from Jim Anderson. If he never comes back, I'm keeping Jim forever. Everyone here adores and spoils him—or would spoil him if Morgan and I didn’t stand firm in the way. Susan says Jim is the smartest child she’s ever seen and can recognize Old Nick when he sees him—this is because Jim threw poor Doc out of an upstairs window one day. Doc turned into Mr. Hyde on his way down and landed in a currant bush, spitting and swearing. I tried to soothe his inner cat with a saucer of milk, but he wouldn’t take it and stayed Mr. Hyde the rest of the day. Jim's latest stunt was painting the cushion of the big armchair in the sun parlor with molasses; and before anyone found out, Mrs. Fred Clow came in for Red Cross business and sat down on it. Her new silk dress was ruined, and nobody could blame her for being upset. But she flew into one of her tempers and said nasty things, giving me such lectures about 'spoiling' Jim that I nearly lost it, too. But I kept my cool until she waddled away, and then I exploded."
"'The fat, clumsy, horrid old thing,' I said—and oh, what a satisfaction it was to say it.
"'The fat, clumsy, awful old thing,' I said—and oh, what a satisfaction it was to say it.
"'She has three sons at the front,' mother said rebukingly.
"'She has three sons at the front,' Mom said, scolding."
"'I suppose that covers all her shortcomings in manners,' I retorted. But I was ashamed—for it is true that all her boys have gone and she was very plucky and loyal about it too; and she is a perfect tower of strength in the Red Cross. It's a little hard to remember all the heroines. Just the same, it was her second new silk dress in one year and that when everybody is—or should be—trying to 'save and serve.'
"I guess that sums up all her behavior issues," I shot back. But I felt guilty—because it’s true that all her sons are gone and she’s been really brave and faithful about it too; plus, she’s a real pillar of strength in the Red Cross. It’s a bit tough to keep track of all the heroines. Still, it was her second new silk dress in one year, and that’s when everyone is—or should be—trying to 'save and serve.'
"I had to bring out my green velvet hat again lately and begin wearing it. I hung on to my blue straw sailor as long as I could. How I hate the green velvet hat! It is so elaborate and conspicuous. I don't see how I could ever have liked it. But I vowed to wear it and wear it I will.
"I had to pull out my green velvet hat again recently and start wearing it. I held onto my blue straw sailor hat for as long as I could. I really hate the green velvet hat! It’s so fancy and eye-catching. I don’t understand how I ever liked it. But I promised to wear it, and wear it I will."
"Shirley and I went down to the station this morning to take Little Dog Monday a bang-up Christmas dinner. Dog Monday waits and watches there still, with just as much hope and confidence as ever. Sometimes he hangs around the station house and talks to people and the rest of his time he sits at his little kennel door and watches the track unwinkingly. We never try to coax him home now: we know it is of no use. When Jem comes back, Monday will come home with him; and if Jem—never comes back—Monday will wait there for him as long as his dear dog heart goes on beating.
"Shirley and I went to the station this morning to bring Little Dog Monday an amazing Christmas dinner. Dog Monday is still there, waiting and watching, just as hopeful and confident as ever. Sometimes he hangs around the station and chats with people, and the rest of the time he sits by his little kennel door, staring at the tracks. We don’t try to persuade him to come home anymore; we know it won’t work. When Jem returns, Monday will come home with him; and if Jem never comes back, Monday will wait there for him as long as his dear dog heart keeps beating."
"Fred Arnold was here last night. He was eighteen in November and is going to enlist just as soon as his mother is over an operation she has to have. He has been coming here very often lately and though I like him so much it makes me uncomfortable, because I am afraid he is thinking that perhaps I could care something for him. I can't tell him about Ken—because, after all, what is there to tell? And yet I don't like to behave coldly and distantly when he will be going away so soon. It is very perplexing. I remember I used to think it would be such fun to have dozens of beaux—and now I'm worried to death because two are too many.
Fred Arnold was here last night. He turned eighteen in November and is planning to enlist as soon as his mom recovers from the surgery she needs. He’s been coming over a lot lately, and even though I really like him, it makes me uneasy because I worry he might think I have feelings for him. I can’t tell him about Ken—because really, what is there to say? Yet, I don’t want to act cold and distant, especially since he’ll be leaving soon. It’s all very confusing. I remember thinking it would be so much fun to have a ton of boyfriends—and now I’m stressed out because two is already too many.
"I am learning to cook. Susan is teaching me. I tried to learn long ago—but no, let me be honest—Susan tried to teach me, which is a very different thing. I never seemed to succeed with anything and I got discouraged. But since the boys have gone away I wanted to be able to make cake and things for them myself and so I started in again and this time I'm getting on surprisingly well. Susan says it is all in the way I hold my mouth and father says my subconscious mind is desirous of learning now, and I dare say they're both right. Anyhow, I can make dandy short-bread and fruitcake. I got ambitious last week and attempted cream puffs, but made an awful failure of them. They came out of the oven flat as flukes. I thought maybe the cream would fill them up again and make them plump but it didn't. I think Susan was secretly pleased. She is past mistress in the art of making cream puffs and it would break her heart if anyone else here could make them as well. I wonder if Susan tampered—but no, I won't suspect her of such a thing.
"I’m learning to cook. Susan is teaching me. I tried to learn a long time ago—but honestly, Susan tried to teach me, which is a very different thing. I never seemed to succeed with anything and I got discouraged. But since the boys have left, I wanted to be able to bake cakes and other treats for them myself, so I started again, and this time I'm doing surprisingly well. Susan says it’s all in how I hold my mouth, and Dad says my subconscious mind is eager to learn now, and I guess they’re both right. Anyway, I can make great shortbread and fruitcake. I got ambitious last week and attempted cream puffs, but they turned out to be a total flop. They came out of the oven flat as pancakes. I thought maybe the cream would fill them up and make them fluffy, but it didn’t work. I think Susan was secretly happy about it. She’s a master at making cream puffs, and it would break her heart if anyone else here could make them just as well. I wonder if Susan messed with my recipe—but no, I won’t accuse her of that."
"Miranda Pryor spent an afternoon here a few days ago, helping me cut out certain Red Cross garments known by the charming name of 'vermin shirts.' Susan thinks that name is not quite decent, so I suggested she call them 'cootie sarks,' which is old Highland Sandy's version of it. But she shook her head and I heard her telling mother later that, in her opinion, 'cooties' and 'sarks' were not proper subjects for young girls to talk about. She was especially horrified when Jem wrote in his last letter to mother, 'Tell Susan I had a fine cootie hunt this morning and caught fifty-three!' Susan positively turned pea-green. 'Mrs. Dr. dear,' she said, 'when I was young, if decent people were so unfortunate as to get—those insects—they kept it a secret if possible. I do not want to be narrow-minded, Mrs. Dr. dear, but I still think it is better not to mention such things.'
"Miranda Pryor spent an afternoon here a few days ago, helping me cut out some Red Cross garments jokingly called 'vermin shirts.' Susan thinks that name is a bit inappropriate, so I suggested she call them 'cootie sarks,' which is old Highland Sandy's version. But she shook her head and later told my mom that, in her opinion, 'cooties' and 'sarks' weren't suitable topics for young girls. She was especially shocked when Jem wrote in his last letter to Mom, 'Tell Susan I had a great cootie hunt this morning and caught fifty-three!' Susan practically turned green. 'Mrs. Dr. dear,' she said, 'when I was young, if decent people were unfortunately infested with—those insects—they kept it a secret if they could. I don’t want to be narrow-minded, Mrs. Dr. dear, but I still think it’s better not to talk about such things.'"
"Miranda grew confidential over our vermin shirts and told me all her troubles. She is desperately unhappy. She is engaged to Joe Milgrave and Joe joined up in October and has been training in Charlottetown ever since. Her father was furious when he joined and forbade Miranda ever to have any dealing or communication with him again. Poor Joe expects to go overseas any day and wants Miranda to marry him before he goes, which shows that there have been 'communications' in spite of Whiskers-on-the-moon. Miranda wants to marry him but cannot, and she declares it will break her heart.
"Miranda opened up about her problems while we were in our ratty shirts. She's really unhappy. She's engaged to Joe Milgrave, who signed up in October and has been training in Charlottetown ever since. Her father was furious when he joined and banned Miranda from having any contact with him again. Poor Joe expects to be deployed overseas any day now and wants Miranda to marry him before he leaves, which proves they've been in touch despite her father's rules. Miranda wants to marry him but can't, and she says it will break her heart."
"'Why don't you run away and marry him?' I said. It didn't go against my conscience in the least to give her such advice. Joe Milgrave is a splendid fellow and Mr. Pryor fairly beamed on him until the war broke out and I know Mr. Pryor would forgive Miranda very quickly, once it was over and he wanted his housekeeper back. But Miranda shook her silvery head dolefully.
"'Why don't you just run away and marry him?' I said. I didn't feel guilty at all for giving her that advice. Joe Milgrave is a great guy, and Mr. Pryor used to light up when he saw him, until the war started. I know Mr. Pryor would forgive Miranda pretty quickly once it was over and he'd want his housekeeper back. But Miranda shook her silvery head sadly.
"'Joe wants me to but I can't. Mother's last words to me, as she lay on her dying-bed, were, "Never, never run away, Miranda," and I promised.'
"'Joe wants me to, but I can't. Mom's last words to me, as she lay on her deathbed, were, 'Never, never run away, Miranda,' and I promised.'"
"Miranda's mother died two years ago, and it seems, according to Miranda, that her mother and father actually ran away to be married themselves. To picture Whiskers-on-the-moon as the hero of an elopement is beyond my power. But such was the case and Mrs. Pryor at least lived to repent it. She had a hard life of it with Mr. Pryor, and she thought it was a punishment on her for running away. So she made Miranda promise she would never, for any reason whatever, do it.
"Miranda's mom passed away two years ago, and according to Miranda, her parents actually eloped to get married themselves. It's hard for me to imagine Whiskers-on-the-moon as the hero of a runaway wedding. But that's how it was, and Mrs. Pryor at least had the chance to regret it. She had a tough life with Mr. Pryor and believed it was a punishment for running away. So she made Miranda promise she would never, under any circumstances, do the same."
"Of course, you cannot urge a girl to break a promise made to a dying mother, so I did not see what Miranda could do unless she got Joe to come to the house when her father was away and marry her there. But Miranda said that couldn't be managed. Her father seemed to suspect she might be up to something of the sort and he never went away for long at a time, and, of course, Joe couldn't get leave of absence at an hour's notice.
"Of course, you can’t expect a girl to go back on a promise she made to her dying mother, so I didn’t see what Miranda could do unless she convinced Joe to come over while her dad was out and marry her then. But Miranda said that wouldn’t work. Her dad seemed to suspect she might be planning something and he never left for long, and, of course, Joe couldn’t just get time off on short notice."
"'No, I shall just have to let Joe go, and he will be killed—I know he will be killed—and my heart will break,' said Miranda, her tears running down and copiously bedewing the vermin shirts!
"'No, I just have to let Joe go, and he's going to get killed—I know he will be killed—and my heart will break,' said Miranda, her tears streaming down and soaking the filthy shirts!"
"I am not writing like this for lack of any real sympathy with poor Miranda. I've just got into the habit of giving things a comical twist if I can, when I'm writing to Jem and Walter and Ken, to make them laugh. I really felt sorry for Miranda who is as much in love with Joe as a china-blue girl can be with anyone and who is dreadfully ashamed of her father's pro-German sentiments. I think she understood that I did, for she said she had wanted to tell me all about her worries because I had grown so sympathetic this past year. I wonder if I have. I know I used to be a selfish, thoughtless creature—how selfish and thoughtless I am ashamed to remember now, so I can't be quite so bad as I was.
I'm not writing this way because I lack real sympathy for poor Miranda. I've just gotten into the habit of adding a humorous twist when I write to Jem, Walter, and Ken to make them laugh. I really felt sorry for Miranda, who is as much in love with Joe as a china-blue girl can be with anyone, and who is incredibly ashamed of her father's pro-German views. I think she understood that I felt for her, because she said she wanted to share all her worries with me since I've become so much more sympathetic this past year. I wonder if I really have. I know I used to be a selfish, thoughtless person—so selfish and thoughtless that it's embarrassing to remember now, so I can't be as bad as I was.
"I wish I could help Miranda. It would be very romantic to contrive a war-wedding and I should dearly love to get the better of Whiskers-on-the-moon. But at present the oracle has not spoken."
"I wish I could help Miranda. It would be really romantic to plan a war-wedding, and I would absolutely love to outsmart Whiskers-on-the-moon. But for now, the oracle hasn't said anything."
CHAPTER XVIII
A WAR-WEDDING
"I can tell you this Dr. dear," said Susan, pale with wrath, "that Germany is getting to be perfectly ridiculous."
"I can tell you this, dear Dr.," said Susan, pale with anger, "that Germany is becoming completely ridiculous."
They were all in the big Ingleside kitchen. Susan was mixing biscuits for supper. Mrs. Blythe was making shortbread for Jem, and Rilla was compounding candy for Ken and Walter—it had once been "Walter and Ken" in her thoughts but somehow, quite unconsciously, this had changed until Ken's name came naturally first. Cousin Sophia was also there, knitting. All the boys were going to be killed in the long run, so Cousin Sophia felt in her bones, but they might better die with warm feet than cold ones, so Cousin Sophia knitted faithfully and gloomily.
They were all in the big Ingleside kitchen. Susan was mixing biscuits for dinner. Mrs. Blythe was making shortbread for Jem, and Rilla was making candy for Ken and Walter—it had once been "Walter and Ken" in her mind, but somehow, without realizing it, this had switched until Ken's name came first naturally. Cousin Sophia was there too, knitting. She had a strong feeling that all the boys were going to end up being killed in the long run, but she figured they might as well die with warm feet instead of cold ones, so Cousin Sophia knitted diligently and sadly.
Into this peaceful scene erupted the doctor, wrathful and excited over the burning of the Parliament Buildings in Ottawa. And Susan became automatically quite as wrathful and excited.
Into this peaceful scene burst the doctor, angry and stirred up over the burning of the Parliament Buildings in Ottawa. And Susan became instantly just as angry and excited.
"What will those Huns do next?" she demanded. "Coming over here and burning our Parliament building! Did anyone ever hear of such an outrage?"
"What are those Huns going to do next?" she asked. "Coming over here and burning down our Parliament building! Has anyone ever heard of such a disgrace?"
"We don't know that the Germans are responsible for this," said the doctor—much as if he felt quite sure they were. "Fires do start without their agency sometimes. And Uncle Mark MacAllister's barn was burnt last week. You can hardly accuse the Germans of that, Susan."
"We can't say for sure that the Germans are to blame for this," the doctor said, almost as if he was confident they were. "Fires can start without their involvement sometimes. Plus, Uncle Mark MacAllister's barn was burned down last week. You can't really pin that on the Germans, Susan."
"Indeed, Dr. dear, I do not know." Susan nodded slowly and portentously. "Whiskers-on-the-moon was there that very day. The fire broke out half an hour after he was gone. So much is a fact—but I shall not accuse a Presbyterian elder of burning anybody's barn until I have proof. However, everybody knows, Dr. dear, that both Uncle Mark's boys have enlisted, and that Uncle Mark himself makes speeches at all the recruiting meetings. So no doubt Germany is anxious to get square with him."
"Honestly, Dr. dear, I have no idea." Susan nodded slowly and seriously. "Whiskers-on-the-moon was there that same day. The fire started half an hour after he left. That’s a fact—but I won’t accuse a Presbyterian elder of burning someone's barn without evidence. However, everyone knows, Dr. dear, that both of Uncle Mark's sons have signed up, and that Uncle Mark himself gives speeches at all the recruiting meetings. So it’s clear that Germany is eager to settle the score with him."
"I could never speak at a recruiting meeting," said Cousin Sophia solemnly. "I could never reconcile it to my conscience to ask another woman's son to go, to murder and be murdered."
"I could never speak at a recruiting meeting," Cousin Sophia said seriously. "I could never bring myself to ask another woman's son to go and kill or be killed."
"Could you not?" said Susan. "Well, Sophia Crawford, I felt as if I could ask anyone to go when I read last night that there were no children under eight years of age left alive in Poland. Think of that, Sophia Crawford"—Susan shook a floury finger at Sophia—"not—one—child—under—eight—years—of—age!"
"Could you not?" said Susan. "Well, Sophia Crawford, I felt like I could ask anyone to leave when I read last night that there were no kids under eight years old left alive in Poland. Think about that, Sophia Crawford"—Susan shook a flour-dusted finger at Sophia—"not—one—child—under—eight—years—old!"
"I suppose the Germans has et 'em all," sighed Cousin Sophia.
"I guess the Germans have eaten them all," sighed Cousin Sophia.
"Well, no-o-o," said Susan reluctantly, as if she hated to admit that there was any crime the Huns couldn't be accused of. "The Germans have not turned cannibal yet—as far as I know. They have died of starvation and exposure, the poor little creatures. There is murdering for you, Cousin Sophia Crawford. The thought of it poisons every bite and sup I take."
"Well, no," Susan said reluctantly, as if she hated to admit there was any crime the Huns couldn't be blamed for. "The Germans haven't turned to cannibalism yet—at least, not that I know of. They’ve died from starvation and exposure, those poor little things. That’s murder for you, Cousin Sophia Crawford. Just thinking about it ruins every bite and sip I take."
"I see that Fred Carson of Lowbridge has been awarded a Distinguished Conduct Medal," remarked the doctor, over his local paper.
"I see that Fred Carson from Lowbridge has received a Distinguished Conduct Medal," said the doctor, while reading his local paper.
"I heard that last week," said Susan. "He is a battalion runner and he did something extra brave and daring. His letter, telling his folks about it, came when his old Grandmother Carson was on her dying-bed. She had only a few minutes more to live and the Episcopal minister, who was there, asked her if she would not like him to pray. 'Oh yes, yes, you can pray,' she said impatient-like—she was a Dean, Dr. dear, and the Deans were always high-spirited—'you can pray, but for pity's sake pray low and don't disturb me. I want to think over this splendid news and I have not much time left to do it.' That was Almira Carson all over. Fred was the apple of her eye. She was seventy-five years of age and had not a grey hair in her head, they tell me."
"I heard about that last week," said Susan. "He's a battalion runner and he did something really brave and daring. His letter, telling his family about it, arrived just as his old Grandmother Carson was on her deathbed. She only had a few minutes left to live, and the Episcopal minister who was there asked her if she wanted him to pray. 'Oh yes, yes, you can pray,' she said impatiently—she was a Dean, dear Dr., and Deans are always spirited—'you can pray, but for pity's sake pray low and don’t disturb me. I want to think about this amazing news and I don’t have much time left to do it.' That was Almira Carson all over. Fred was the light of her life. She was seventy-five years old and hadn’t a grey hair on her head, so I hear."
"By the way, that reminds me—I found a grey hair this morning—my very first," said Mrs. Blythe.
"By the way, that reminds me—I found a gray hair this morning—my very first," said Mrs. Blythe.
"I have noticed that grey hair for some time, Mrs. Dr. dear, but I did not speak of it. Thought I to myself, 'She has enough to bear.' But now that you have discovered it let me remind you that grey hairs are honourable."
"I’ve noticed that gray hair for a while, Mrs. Dr. dear, but I didn’t say anything. I thought to myself, 'She has enough to deal with.' But now that you’ve noticed it, let me remind you that gray hairs are a sign of honor."
"I must be getting old, Gilbert." Mrs. Blythe laughed a trifle ruefully. "People are beginning to tell me I look so young. They never tell you that when you are young. But I shall not worry over my silver thread. I never liked red hair. Gilbert, did I ever tell you of that time, years ago at Green Gables, when I dyed my hair? Nobody but Marilla and I knew about it."
"I must be getting old, Gilbert." Mrs. Blythe laughed a little sadly. "People are starting to say I look so young. They never say that when you’re actually young. But I won't fret about my gray hairs. I never liked having red hair. Gilbert, do you remember that time, years ago at Green Gables, when I dyed my hair? Nobody except Marilla and I knew about it."
"Was that the reason you came out once with your hair shingled to the bone?"
"Is that why you came out once with your hair cut so short?"
"Yes. I bought a bottle of dye from a German Jew pedlar. I fondly expected it would turn my hair black—and it turned it green. So it had to be cut off."
"Yeah. I bought a bottle of dye from a German Jewish peddler. I hoped it would turn my hair black—and instead, it turned it green. So I had to cut it all off."
"You had a narrow escape, Mrs. Dr. dear," exclaimed Susan. "Of course you were too young then to know what a German was. It was a special mercy of Providence that it was only green dye and not poison."
"You had a close call, Mrs. Dr. dear," exclaimed Susan. "Of course, you were too young back then to know what a German was. It was a special blessing from Providence that it was just green dye and not poison."
"It seems hundreds of years since those Green Gables days," sighed Mrs. Blythe. "They belonged to another world altogether. Life has been cut in two by the chasm of war. What is ahead I don't know—but it can't be a bit like the past. I wonder if those of us who have lived half our lives in the old world will ever feel wholly at home in the new."
"It feels like it’s been hundreds of years since those Green Gables days," sighed Mrs. Blythe. "They were from a completely different world. Life has been split in two by the gap of war. I don’t know what’s ahead—but it definitely won’t be anything like the past. I wonder if those of us who have spent half our lives in the old world will ever truly feel at home in the new."
"Have you noticed," asked Miss Oliver, glancing up from her book, "how everything written before the war seems so far away now, too? One feels as if one was reading something as ancient as the Iliad. This poem of Wordsworth's—the Senior class have it in their entrance work—I've been glancing over it. Its classic calm and repose and the beauty of the lines seem to belong to another planet, and to have as little to do with the present world-welter as the evening star."
"Have you noticed," Miss Oliver asked, looking up from her book, "how everything written before the war feels so distant now, too? It’s like reading something as old as the Iliad. This poem by Wordsworth—the Senior class has it in their entrance work—I’ve been skimming through it. Its classic calmness and beauty seem to come from another world, completely disconnected from the chaos of today, just like the evening star."
"The only thing that I find much comfort in reading nowadays is the Bible," remarked Susan, whisking her biscuits into the oven. "There are so many passages in it that seem to me exactly descriptive of the Huns. Old Highland Sandy declares that there is no doubt that the Kaiser is the Anti-Christ spoken of in Revelations, but I do not go as far as that. It would, in my humble opinion, Mrs. Dr. dear, be too great an honour for him."
"The only thing I really find comfort in reading these days is the Bible," Susan said, popping her biscuits into the oven. "There are so many passages that I think perfectly describe the Huns. Old Highland Sandy insists that there's no doubt the Kaiser is the Anti-Christ mentioned in Revelation, but I don't go that far. It would, in my opinion, be too big of an honor for him, Mrs. Dr. dear."
Early one morning, several days later, Miranda Pryor slipped up to Ingleside, ostensibly to get some Red Cross sewing, but in reality to talk over with sympathetic Rilla troubles that were past bearing alone. She brought her dog with her—an over-fed, bandy-legged little animal very dear to her heart because Joe Milgrave had given it to her when it was a puppy. Mr. Pryor regarded all dogs with disfavour; but in those days he had looked kindly upon Joe as a suitor for Miranda's hand and so he had allowed her to keep the puppy. Miranda was so grateful that she endeavoured to please her father by naming her dog after his political idol, the great Liberal chieftain, Sir Wilfrid Laurier—though his title was soon abbreviated to Wilfy. Sir Wilfrid grew and flourished and waxed fat; but Miranda spoiled him absurdly and nobody else liked him. Rilla especially hated him because of his detestable trick of lying flat on his back and entreating you with waving paws to tickle his sleek stomach. When she saw that Miranda's pale eyes bore unmistakable testimony of her having cried all night, Rilla asked her to come up to her room, knowing Miranda had a tale of woe to tell, but she ordered Sir Wilfrid to remain below.
Early one morning, a few days later, Miranda Pryor made her way to Ingleside, supposedly to do some Red Cross sewing, but really to discuss her troubles with Rilla, who would understand. She brought her dog along—a chubby, short-legged little creature that was very special to her because Joe Milgrave had given it to her when it was just a puppy. Mr. Pryor always looked down on dogs, but back then he had been somewhat supportive of Joe as a potential match for Miranda, so he let her keep the puppy. Grateful for his approval, Miranda tried to please her father by naming her dog after his political hero, the great Liberal leader, Sir Wilfrid Laurier—though his name was quickly shortened to Wilfy. Sir Wilfrid grew hefty and full of himself, but Miranda spoiled him ridiculously, and nobody else really liked him. Rilla especially disliked him because of his annoying habit of lying on his back and begging for tummy rubs. When she saw that Miranda's pale eyes clearly showed she had been crying all night, Rilla invited her to come up to her room, knowing Miranda had a sad story to share, but she made sure to tell Sir Wilfrid to stay downstairs.
"Oh, can't he come, too?" said Miranda wistfully. "Poor Wilfy won't be any bother—and I wiped his paws so carefully before I brought him in. He is always so lonesome in a strange place without me—and very soon he'll be—all—I'll have left—to remind me—of Joe."
"Oh, can’t he come, too?" said Miranda, feeling a bit sad. "Poor Wilfy won't be any trouble—and I made sure to wipe his paws really well before I brought him in. He always feels so lonely in a new place without me—and pretty soon he'll be—all—I'll have left—to remind me—of Joe."
Rilla yielded, and Sir Wilfrid, with his tail curled at a saucy angle over his brindled back, trotted triumphantly up the stairs before them.
Rilla gave in, and Sir Wilfrid, with his tail curled at a cheeky angle over his brindled back, strutted triumphantly up the stairs ahead of them.
"Oh, Rilla," sobbed Miranda, when they had reached sanctuary. "I'm so unhappy. I can't begin to tell you how unhappy I am. Truly, my heart is breaking."
"Oh, Rilla," Miranda cried, once they had found safety. "I'm so unhappy. I can't even express how unhappy I feel. Honestly, my heart is breaking."
Rilla sat down on the lounge beside her. Sir Wilfrid squatted on his haunches before them, with his impertinent pink tongue stuck out, and listened. "What is the trouble, Miranda?"
Rilla sat down on the couch next to her. Sir Wilfrid crouched in front of them, his cheeky pink tongue sticking out, and listened. "What's going on, Miranda?"
"Joe is coming home tonight on his last leave. I had a letter from him on Saturday—he sends my letters in care of Bob Crawford, you know, because of father—and, oh, Rilla, he will only have four days—he has to go away Friday morning—and I may never see him again."
"Joe is coming home tonight for his last leave. I got a letter from him on Saturday—he sends my letters to Bob Crawford, you know, because of Dad—and, oh, Rilla, he will only be here for four days—he has to leave Friday morning—and I might never see him again."
"Does he still want you to marry him?" asked Rilla.
"Does he still want to marry you?" Rilla asked.
"Oh, yes. He implored me in his letter to run away and be married. But I cannot do that, Rilla, not even for Joe. My only comfort is that I will be able to see him for a little while tomorrow afternoon. Father has to go to Charlottetown on business. At least we will have one good farewell talk. But oh—afterwards—why, Rilla, I know father won't even let me go to the station Friday morning to see Joe off."
"Oh, yes. He begged me in his letter to run away and get married. But I can’t do that, Rilla, not even for Joe. My only comfort is that I’ll be able to see him for a little bit tomorrow afternoon. Dad has to go to Charlottetown for work. At least we’ll have one good goodbye chat. But oh—after that—well, Rilla, I know Dad won’t even let me go to the station Friday morning to see Joe off."
"Why in the world don't you and Joe get married tomorrow afternoon at home?" demanded Rilla.
"Why on earth don't you and Joe get married tomorrow afternoon at home?" Rilla asked.
Miranda swallowed a sob in such amazement that she almost choked.
Miranda swallowed a sob in such shock that she nearly choked.
"Why—why—that is impossible, Rilla."
"Why—that's impossible, Rilla."
"Why?" briefly demanded the organizer of the Junior Red Cross and the transporter of babies in soup tureens.
"Why?" the organizer of the Junior Red Cross and the person transporting babies in soup tureens asked sharply.
"Why—why—we never thought of such a thing—Joe hasn't a license—I have no dress—I couldn't be married in black—I—I—we—you—you—" Miranda lost herself altogether and Sir Wilfrid, seeing that she was in dire distress threw back his head and emitted a melancholy yelp.
"Why—why—we never thought of that—Joe doesn’t have a license—I don’t have a dress—I couldn’t get married in black—I—I—we—you—you—" Miranda completely lost her composure and Sir Wilfrid, seeing her in deep distress, threw back his head and let out a sorrowful yelp.
Rilla Blythe thought hard and rapidly for a few minutes. Then she said, "Miranda, if you will put yourself into my hands I'll have you married to Joe before four o'clock tomorrow afternoon."
Rilla Blythe thought deeply and quickly for a few minutes. Then she said, "Miranda, if you trust me, I’ll have you married to Joe before four o'clock tomorrow afternoon."
"Oh, you couldn't."
"Oh, you can't."
"I can and I will. But you'll have to do exactly as I tell you."
"I can and I will. But you need to follow my instructions exactly."
"Oh—I—don't think—oh, father will kill me—"
"Oh—I—don’t think—oh, Dad will kill me—"
"Nonsense. He'll be very angry I suppose. But are you more afraid of your father's anger than you are of Joe's never coming back to you?"
"Nonsense. He'll probably be really angry. But are you more scared of your dad's anger than you are of Joe never coming back to you?"
"No," said Miranda, with sudden firmness, "I'm not."
"No," Miranda said firmly, "I'm not."
"Will you do as I tell you then?"
"Will you do what I say then?"
"Yes, I will."
"Yeah, I will."
"Then get Joe on the long-distance at once and tell him to bring out a license and ring tonight."
"Then get Joe on the long-distance call right away and tell him to get a license and call tonight."
"Oh, I couldn't," wailed the aghast Miranda, "it—it would be so—so indelicate."
"Oh, I couldn't," cried the shocked Miranda, "it—it would be so—so inappropriate."
Rilla shut her little white teeth together with a snap. "Heaven grant me patience," she said under her breath. "I'll do it then," she said aloud, "and meanwhile, you go home and make what preparations you can. When I 'phone down to you to come up and help me sew come at once."
Rilla snapped her little white teeth together. "Heaven help me be patient," she muttered under her breath. "I'll take care of it then," she said out loud, "and in the meantime, you go home and get ready as best you can. When I call you to come up and help me sew, come immediately."
As soon as Miranda, pallid, scared, but desperately resolved, had gone, Rilla flew to the telephone and put in a long-distance call for Charlottetown. She got through with such surprising quickness that she was convinced Providence approved of her undertaking, but it was a good hour before she could get in touch with Joe Milgrave at his camp. Meanwhile, she paced impatiently about, and prayed that when she did get Joe there would be no listeners on the line to carry news to Whiskers-on-the-moon.
As soon as Miranda, pale, scared, but fiercely determined, had left, Rilla rushed to the phone and made a long-distance call to Charlottetown. She connected so quickly that she believed luck was on her side, but it took a full hour before she could reach Joe Milgrave at his camp. In the meantime, she walked back and forth anxiously, praying that when she finally got Joe, there wouldn’t be any eavesdroppers on the line to spill news to Whiskers-on-the-moon.
"Is that you, Joe? Rilla Blythe is speaking—Rilla—Rilla—oh, never mind. Listen to this. Before you come home tonight get a marriage license—a marriage license—yes, a marriage license—and a wedding-ring. Did you get that? And will you do it? Very well, be sure you do it—it is your only chance."
"Is that you, Joe? It’s Rilla Blythe—Rilla—Rilla—oh, forget it. Listen to this. Before you come home tonight, get a marriage license—a marriage license—yeah, a marriage license—and a wedding ring. Did you catch that? Will you do it? Good, just make sure you do—it’s your only chance."
Flushed with triumph—for her only fear was that she might not be able to locate Joe in time—Rilla rang the Pryor ring. This time she had not such good luck for she drew Whiskers-on-the-moon.
Flushed with excitement—her only worry was that she might not find Joe in time—Rilla rang the Pryor ring. This time she didn't have such good luck because she ended up with Whiskers-on-the-moon.
"Is that Miranda? Oh—Mr. Pryor! Well, Mr. Pryor, will you kindly ask Miranda if she can come up this afternoon and help me with some sewing. It is very important, or I would not trouble her. Oh—thank you."
"Is that Miranda? Oh—Mr. Pryor! Well, Mr. Pryor, could you please ask Miranda if she can come up this afternoon to help me with some sewing? It's really important, or I wouldn't bother her. Oh—thank you."
Mr. Pryor had consented somewhat grumpily, but he had consented—he did not want to offend Dr. Blythe, and he knew that if he refused to allow Miranda to do any Red Cross work public opinion would make the Glen too hot for comfort. Rilla went out to the kitchen, shut all the doors with a mysterious expression which alarmed Susan, and then said solemnly, "Susan can you make a wedding-cake this afternoon?"
Mr. Pryor had agreed, albeit a bit grumpily, but he had agreed—he didn't want to upset Dr. Blythe, and he knew that if he said no to Miranda doing any Red Cross work, public opinion would make things in the Glen really uncomfortable. Rilla went out to the kitchen, closed all the doors with a mysterious look that worried Susan, and then said seriously, "Susan, can you make a wedding cake this afternoon?"
"A wedding-cake!" Susan stared. Rilla had, without any warning, brought her a war-baby once upon a time. Was she now, with equal suddenness, going to produce a husband?
"A wedding cake!" Susan stared. Rilla had, without any warning, brought her a war baby once upon a time. Was she now, just as suddenly, going to reveal a husband?
"Yes, a wedding-cake—a scrumptious wedding-cake, Susan—a beautiful, plummy, eggy, citron-peely wedding-cake. And we must make other things too. I'll help you in the morning. But I can't help you in the afternoon for I have to make a wedding-dress and time is the essence of the contract, Susan."
"Yes, a wedding cake—a delicious wedding cake, Susan—a beautiful, rich, eggy, candied-peel wedding cake. And we need to make other things too. I’ll help you in the morning. But I can’t help you in the afternoon because I have to make a wedding dress, and time is of the essence, Susan."
Susan felt that she was really too old to be subjected to such shocks.
Susan felt that she was really too old to experience such shocks.
"Who are you going to marry, Rilla?" she asked feebly.
"Who are you going to marry, Rilla?" she asked weakly.
"Susan, darling, I am not the happy bride. Miranda Pryor is going to marry Joe Milgrave tomorrow afternoon while her father is away in town. A war-wedding, Susan—isn't that thrilling and romantic? I never was so excited in my life."
"Susan, sweetheart, I'm not the happy bride. Miranda Pryor is getting married to Joe Milgrave tomorrow afternoon while her dad is out of town. A war wedding, Susan—isn't that exciting and romantic? I've never been this thrilled in my life."
The excitement soon spread over Ingleside, infecting even Mrs. Blythe and Susan.
The excitement quickly spread throughout Ingleside, affecting even Mrs. Blythe and Susan.
"I'll go to work on that cake at once," vowed Susan, with a glance at the clock. "Mrs. Dr. dear, will you pick over the fruit and beat up the eggs? If you will I can have that cake ready for the oven by the evening. Tomorrow morning we can make salads and other things. I will work all night if necessary to get the better of Whiskers-on-the-moon."
"I'll start on that cake right away," promised Susan, looking at the clock. "Mrs. Dr. dear, could you sort through the fruit and beat the eggs? If you can, I can have the cake in the oven by this evening. Tomorrow morning, we can make salads and other dishes. I'll work all night if I have to in order to outdo Whiskers-on-the-moon."
Miranda arrived, tearful and breathless.
Miranda showed up, crying and out of breath.
"We must fix over my white dress for you to wear," said Rilla. "It will fit you very nicely with a little alteration."
"We need to adjust my white dress for you to wear," Rilla said. "It’ll fit you perfectly with a little alteration."
To work went the two girls, ripping, fitting, basting, sewing for dear life. By dint of unceasing effort they got the dress done by seven o'clock and Miranda tried it on in Rilla's room.
The two girls got to work, tearing, fitting, pinning, and sewing like crazy. After a lot of hard work, they finished the dress by seven o'clock, and Miranda tried it on in Rilla's room.
"It's very pretty—but oh, if I could just have a veil," sighed Miranda. "I've always dreamed of being married in a lovely white veil."
"It's really beautiful—but oh, if only I could have a veil," sighed Miranda. "I've always dreamed of getting married in a lovely white veil."
Some good fairy evidently waits on the wishes of war-brides. The door opened and Mrs. Blythe came in, her arms full of a filmy burden.
Some good fairy clearly looks after the wishes of war brides. The door opened, and Mrs. Blythe entered, her arms full of a delicate load.
"Miranda dear," she said, "I want you to wear my wedding-veil tomorrow. It is twenty-four years since I was a bride at old Green Gables—the happiest bride that ever was—and the wedding-veil of a happy bride brings good luck, they say."
"Miranda, sweetheart," she said, "I want you to wear my wedding veil tomorrow. It’s been twenty-four years since I was a bride at old Green Gables—the happiest bride ever—and they say the veil of a happy bride brings good luck."
"Oh, how sweet of you, Mrs. Blythe," said Miranda, the ready tears starting to her eyes.
"Oh, that's so sweet of you, Mrs. Blythe," said Miranda, the tears quickly welling up in her eyes.
The veil was tried on and draped. Susan dropped in to approve but dared not linger.
The veil was put on and hung. Susan stopped by to give her approval but didn't stay long.
"I've got that cake in the oven," she said, "and I am pursuing a policy of watchful waiting. The evening news is that the Grand Duke has captured Erzerum. That is a pill for the Turks. I wish I had a chance to tell the Czar just what a mistake he made when he turned Nicholas down."
"I've got that cake in the oven," she said, "and I'm taking a wait-and-see approach. The evening news is that the Grand Duke has taken Erzerum. That’s a tough break for the Turks. I wish I could tell the Czar what a mistake he made when he rejected Nicholas."
Susan disappeared downstairs to the kitchen, whence a dreadful thud and a piercing shriek presently sounded. Everybody rushed to the kitchen—the doctor and Miss Oliver, Mrs. Blythe, Rilla, Miranda in her wedding-veil. Susan was sitting flatly in the middle of the kitchen floor with a dazed, bewildered look on her face, while Doc, evidently in his Hyde incarnation, was standing on the dresser, with his back up, his eyes blazing, and his tail the size of three tails.
Susan went downstairs to the kitchen, where a horrible thud and a loud scream suddenly rang out. Everyone rushed to the kitchen—the doctor and Miss Oliver, Mrs. Blythe, Rilla, Miranda in her wedding veil. Susan was sitting flat on the kitchen floor, looking dazed and confused, while Doc, clearly in his Hyde mode, was standing on the dresser, with his back arched, eyes blazing, and his tail as big as three tails.
"Susan, what has happened?" cried Mrs. Blythe in alarm. "Did you fall? Are you hurt?"
"Susan, what happened?" Mrs. Blythe exclaimed in shock. "Did you fall? Are you okay?"
Susan picked herself up.
Susan got back up.
"No," she said grimly, "I am not hurt, though I am jarred all over. Do not be alarmed. As for what has happened—I tried to kick that darned cat with both feet, that is what happened."
"No," she said firmly, "I'm not hurt, but I feel shaken all over. Don't worry. As for what happened—I tried to kick that damn cat with both feet, that's what happened."
Everybody shrieked with laughter. The doctor was quite helpless.
Everybody burst out laughing. The doctor was completely at a loss.
"Oh, Susan, Susan," he gasped. "That I should live to hear you swear."
"Oh, Susan, Susan," he breathed. "I can't believe I'm hearing you swear."
"I am sorry," said Susan in real distress, "that I used such an expression before two young girls. But I said that beast was darned, and darned it is. It belongs to Old Nick."
"I'm sorry," Susan said, genuinely upset, "for using such a term in front of two young girls. But I called that beast darned, and it really is. It belongs to Old Nick."
"Do you expect it will vanish some of these days with a bang and the odour of brimstone, Susan?"
"Do you think it will disappear one of these days with a bang and the smell of sulfur, Susan?"
"It will go to its own place in due time and that you may tie to," said Susan dourly, shaking out her raddled bones and going to her oven. "I suppose my plunking down like that has shaken my cake so that it will be as heavy as lead."
"It will go to its own place in time, and you can count on that," Susan said grimly, stretching her tired body and heading to her oven. "I guess my plopping down like that shook my cake so it will be as dense as a brick."
But the cake was not heavy. It was all a bride's cake should be, and Susan iced it beautifully. Next day she and Rilla worked all the forenoon, making delicacies for the wedding-feast, and as soon as Miranda phoned up that her father was safely off everything was packed in a big hamper and taken down to the Pryor house. Joe soon arrived in his uniform and a state of violent excitement, accompanied by his best man, Sergeant Malcolm Crawford. There were quite a few guests, for all the Manse and Ingleside folk were there, and a dozen or so of Joe's relatives, including his mother, "Mrs. Dead Angus Milgrave," so called, cheerfully, to distinguish her from another lady whose Angus was living. Mrs. Dead Angus wore a rather disapproving expression, not caring over-much for this alliance with the house of Whiskers-on-the-moon.
But the cake wasn't heavy. It was everything a bride's cake should be, and Susan decorated it beautifully. The next day, she and Rilla worked all morning making treats for the wedding feast. As soon as Miranda called to say her father was safely off, everything was packed in a big hamper and taken down to the Pryor house. Joe soon arrived in his uniform, feeling very excited, and was accompanied by his best man, Sergeant Malcolm Crawford. There were quite a few guests, as all the folks from the Manse and Ingleside were there, along with a dozen or so of Joe's relatives, including his mother, “Mrs. Dead Angus Milgrave,” as she was cheerfully called to distinguish her from another lady whose Angus was still alive. Mrs. Dead Angus had a rather disapproving look, not too fond of this connection with the house of Whiskers-on-the-moon.
So Miranda Pryor was married to Private Joseph Milgrave on his last leave. It should have been a romantic wedding but it was not. There were too many factors working against romance, as even Rilla had to admit. In the first place, Miranda, in spite of her dress and veil, was such a flat-faced, commonplace, uninteresting little bride. In the second place, Joe cried bitterly all through the ceremony, and this vexed Miranda unreasonably. Long afterwards she told Rilla, "I just felt like saying to him then and there, 'If you feel so bad over having to marry me you don't have to.' But it was just because he was thinking all the time of how soon he would have to leave me."
So Miranda Pryor married Private Joseph Milgrave during his last leave. It should have been a romantic wedding, but it wasn't. There were too many things working against romance, as even Rilla had to admit. First of all, Miranda, despite her dress and veil, was such a plain, ordinary, uninteresting little bride. Secondly, Joe cried hard throughout the ceremony, and this upset Miranda for no good reason. Much later, she told Rilla, "I just felt like telling him right then and there, 'If you feel so bad about marrying me, you don’t have to.' But it was just because he was thinking all the time about how soon he would have to leave me."
In the third place, Jims, who was usually so well-behaved in public, took a fit of shyness and contrariness combined and began to cry at the top of his voice for "Willa." Nobody wanted to take him out, because everybody wanted to see the marriage, so Rilla who was a bridesmaid, had to take him and hold him during the ceremony.
In the third place, Jims, who usually behaved so well in public, suddenly got shy and rebellious at the same time and started to cry loudly for "Willa." Nobody wanted to take him out because everyone wanted to watch the wedding, so Rilla, who was a bridesmaid, had to take him and hold him during the ceremony.
In the fourth place, Sir Wilfrid Laurier took a fit.
In the fourth place, Sir Wilfrid Laurier had a fit.
Sir Wilfrid was entrenched in a corner of the room behind Miranda's piano. During his seizure he made the weirdest, most unearthly noises. He would begin with a series of choking, spasmodic sounds, continuing into a gruesome gurgle, and ending up with a strangled howl. Nobody could hear a word Mr. Meredith was saying, except now and then, when Sir Wilfrid stopped for breath. Nobody looked at the bride except Susan, who never dragged her fascinated eyes from Miranda's face—all the others were gazing at the dog. Miranda had been trembling with nervousness but as soon as Sir Wilfrid began his performance she forgot it. All that she could think of was that her dear dog was dying and she could not go to him. She never remembered a word of the ceremony.
Sir Wilfrid was stuck in a corner of the room behind Miranda's piano. During his seizure, he made the strangest, most otherworldly noises. He would start with a series of choking, spasm-like sounds, move into a horrifying gurgle, and finish with a strangled howl. Nobody could hear what Mr. Meredith was saying, except for the occasional moment when Sir Wilfrid paused to catch his breath. No one looked at the bride except Susan, who kept her captivated gaze locked on Miranda's face—everyone else was staring at the dog. Miranda had been shaking with nerves, but once Sir Wilfrid started his performance, she forgot all about it. All she could think about was that her beloved dog was dying and she couldn’t go to him. She didn’t remember a single word of the ceremony.
Rilla, who in spite of Jims, had been trying her best to look rapt and romantic, as beseemed a war bridesmaid, gave up the hopeless attempt, and devoted her energies to choking down untimely merriment. She dared not look at anybody in the room, especially Mrs. Dead Angus, for fear all her suppressed mirth should suddenly explode in a most un-young-ladylike yell of laughter.
Rilla, who despite Jim's presence had been doing her best to appear enchanted and romantic, as a war bridesmaid should, gave up that hopeless effort and focused on suppressing her inappropriate laughter. She didn't dare to look at anyone in the room, especially Mrs. Dead Angus, for fear that all her contained amusement would suddenly burst out in a totally unladylike laugh.
But married they were, and then they had a wedding-supper in the dining-room which was so lavish and bountiful that you would have thought it was the product of a month's labour. Everybody had brought something. Mrs. Dead Angus had brought a large apple-pie, which she placed on a chair in the dining-room and then absently sat down on it. Neither her temper nor her black silk wedding garment was improved thereby, but the pie was never missed at the gay bridal feast. Mrs. Dead Angus eventually took it home with her again. Whiskers-on-the-moon's pacifist pig should not get it, anyhow.
But they were married, and then they had a wedding dinner in the dining room that was so extravagant and plentiful that you would think it took a month to prepare. Everyone contributed something. Mrs. Dead Angus brought a big apple pie, which she set on a chair in the dining room and then absentmindedly sat on. Neither her mood nor her black silk wedding dress was improved by this, but the pie was never missed during the lively bridal celebration. Mrs. Dead Angus eventually took it home with her. Whiskers-on-the-moon's pacifist pig shouldn't get it, anyway.
That evening Mr. and Mrs. Joe, accompanied by the recovered Sir Wilfrid, departed for the Four Winds Lighthouse, which was kept by Joe's uncle and in which they meant to spend their brief honeymoon. Una Meredith and Rilla and Susan washed the dishes, tidied up, left a cold supper and Miranda's pitiful little note on the table for Mr. Pryor, and walked home, while the mystic veil of dreamy, haunted winter twilight wrapped itself over the Glen.
That evening, Mr. and Mrs. Joe, along with the recovered Sir Wilfrid, headed to the Four Winds Lighthouse, which was managed by Joe's uncle and where they planned to spend their short honeymoon. Una Meredith, Rilla, and Susan cleaned the dishes, tidied up, left a cold supper and Miranda's sad little note on the table for Mr. Pryor, and walked home as the enchanting, haunting winter twilight enveloped the Glen.
"I would really not have minded being a war-bride myself," remarked Susan sentimentally.
"I wouldn't have minded being a war bride myself," Susan said wistfully.
But Rilla felt rather flat—perhaps as a reaction to all the excitement and rush of the past thirty-six hours. She was disappointed somehow—the whole affair had been so ludicrous, and Miranda and Joe so lachrymose and commonplace.
But Rilla felt a bit deflated—maybe as a response to all the excitement and chaos of the last thirty-six hours. She felt let down somehow—the whole thing had been so ridiculous, and Miranda and Joe so emotional and ordinary.
"If Miranda hadn't given that wretched dog such an enormous dinner he wouldn't have had that fit," she said crossly. "I warned her—but she said she couldn't starve the poor dog—he would soon be all she had left, etc. I could have shaken her."
"If Miranda hadn't fed that miserable dog such a huge dinner, he wouldn't have had that fit," she said angrily. "I warned her—but she insisted she couldn't let the poor dog go hungry—he would soon be all she had left, and all that. I could have shaken her."
"The best man was more excited than Joe was," said Susan. "He wished Miranda many happy returns of the day. She did not look very happy, but perhaps you could not expect that under the circumstances."
"The best man was way more excited than Joe," Susan said. "He wished Miranda a lot of happy returns on her day. She didn't look very happy, but I guess you can't really expect that given the situation."
"Anyhow," thought Rilla, "I can write a perfectly killing account of it all to the boys. How Jem will howl over Sir Wilfrid's part in it!"
"Anyway," thought Rilla, "I can write an amazing account of it all to the guys. How Jem will laugh about Sir Wilfrid's role in it!"
But if Rilla was rather disappointed in the war wedding she found nothing lacking on Friday morning when Miranda said good-bye to her bridegroom at the Glen station. The dawn was white as a pearl, clear as a diamond. Behind the station the balsamy copse of young firs was frost-misted. The cold moon of dawn hung over the westering snow fields but the golden fleeces of sunrise shone above the maples up at Ingleside. Joe took his pale little bride in his arms and she lifted her face to his. Rilla choked suddenly. It did not matter that Miranda was insignificant and commonplace and flat-featured. It did not matter that she was the daughter of Whiskers-on-the-moon. All that mattered was that rapt, sacrificial look in her eyes—that ever-burning, sacred fire of devotion and loyalty and fine courage that she was mutely promising Joe she and thousands of other women would keep alive at home while their men held the Western front. Rilla walked away, realising that she must not spy on such a moment. She went down to the end of the platform where Sir Wilfrid and Dog Monday were sitting, looking at each other.
But if Rilla was a bit disappointed in the war wedding, she found nothing lacking on Friday morning when Miranda said goodbye to her groom at the Glen station. The dawn was as white as a pearl and as clear as a diamond. Behind the station, the fragrant grove of young firs was covered in frost. The cold moon of dawn hung over the sloping snow fields, but the golden rays of sunrise shone above the maples at Ingleside. Joe took his pale little bride in his arms, and she lifted her face to his. Rilla suddenly felt choked up. It didn’t matter that Miranda was ordinary and plain. It didn’t matter that she was the daughter of Whiskers-on-the-Moon. All that mattered was the look of deep devotion and courage in her eyes—that ever-burning, sacred fire of loyalty she was silently promising Joe she and thousands of other women would keep alive at home while their men fought on the Western front. Rilla walked away, realizing she shouldn’t intrude on such a moment. She went down to the end of the platform where Sir Wilfrid and Dog Monday were sitting, looking at each other.
Sir Wilfrid remarked condescendingly: "Why do you haunt this old shed when you might lie on the hearthrug at Ingleside and live on the fat of the land? Is it a pose? Or a fixed idea?"
Sir Wilfrid said condescendingly, "Why do you hang out in this old shed when you could be lounging on the rug at Ingleside and enjoying a comfortable life? Is it just a show? Or something you’re really committed to?"
Whereat Dog Monday, laconically: "I have a tryst to keep."
Whereupon Dog Monday casually said, "I have a meeting to attend."
When the train had gone Rilla rejoined the little trembling Miranda. "Well, he's gone," said Miranda, "and he may never come back—but I'm his wife, and I'm going to be worthy of him. I'm going home."
When the train left, Rilla went back to the scared little Miranda. "Well, he’s gone," said Miranda, "and he might never come back—but I’m his wife, and I’m going to make him proud. I’m going home."
"Don't you think you had better come with me now?" asked Rilla doubtfully. Nobody knew yet how Mr. Pryor had taken the matter.
"Don't you think you should come with me now?" Rilla asked uncertainly. Nobody knew yet how Mr. Pryor had reacted to the situation.
"No. If Joe can face the Huns I guess I can face father," said Miranda daringly. "A soldier's wife can't be a coward. Come on, Wilfy. I'll go straight home and meet the worst."
"No. If Joe can take on the Huns, then I guess I can handle Dad," said Miranda boldly. "A soldier's wife can't be a coward. Come on, Wilfy. I'm going right home to face whatever comes."
There was nothing very dreadful to face, however. Perhaps Mr. Pryor had reflected that housekeepers were hard to get and that there were many Milgrave homes open to Miranda—also, that there was such a thing as a separation allowance. At all events, though he told her grumpily that she had made a nice fool of herself, and would live to regret it, he said nothing worse, and Mrs. Joe put on her apron and went to work as usual, while Sir Wilfrid Laurier, who had a poor opinion of lighthouses for winter residences, went to sleep in his pet nook behind the woodbox, a thankful dog that he was done with war-weddings.
There wasn’t anything too terrible to deal with, though. Maybe Mr. Pryor figured that housekeepers were hard to find and that there were plenty of Milgrave homes available to Miranda—also, that there was such a thing as a separation allowance. In any case, even though he grumbled that she had made a complete fool of herself and would regret it, he didn’t say anything worse. Mrs. Joe put on her apron and got back to work as usual, while Sir Wilfrid Laurier, who didn’t think much of lighthouses as winter homes, settled down in his favorite spot behind the woodbox, grateful to be done with war-weddings.
CHAPTER XIX
"THEY SHALL NOT PASS"
One cold grey morning in February Gertrude Oliver wakened with a shiver, slipped into Rilla's room, and crept in beside her.
One cold gray morning in February, Gertrude Oliver woke up shivering, went into Rilla's room, and crawled in beside her.
"Rilla—I'm frightened—frightened as a baby—I've had another of my strange dreams. Something terrible is before us—I know."
"Rilla—I'm scared—scared like a baby—I had another one of my weird dreams. Something awful is coming our way—I can feel it."
"What was it?" asked Rilla.
"What was that?" asked Rilla.
"I was standing again on the veranda steps—just as I stood in that dream on the night before the lighthouse dance, and in the sky a huge black, menacing thunder cloud rolled up from the east. I could see its shadow racing before it and when it enveloped me I shivered with icy cold. Then the storm broke—and it was a dreadful storm—blinding flash after flash and deafening peal after peal, driving torrents of rain. I turned in panic and tried to run for shelter, and as I did so a man—a soldier in the uniform of a French army officer—dashed up the steps and stood beside me on the threshold of the door. His clothes were soaked with blood from a wound in his breast, he seemed spent and exhausted; but his white face was set and his eyes blazed in his hollow face. 'They shall not pass,' he said, in low, passionate tones which I heard distinctly amid all the turmoil of the storm. Then I awakened. Rilla, I'm frightened—the spring will not bring the Big Push we've all been hoping for—instead it is going to bring some dreadful blow to France. I am sure of it. The Germans will try to smash through somewhere."
"I was standing again on the veranda steps—just like I did in that dream the night before the lighthouse dance—and a huge, intimidating thundercloud rolled in from the east. I could see its shadow racing ahead, and when it enveloped me, I felt a chill run through me. Then the storm hit—and it was a terrible storm—blinding flashes of lightning and deafening claps of thunder, with torrents of rain pouring down. I panicked and tried to run for cover, and as I did, a man—a soldier in a French army officer's uniform—rushed up the steps and stood next to me in the doorway. His clothes were soaked with blood from a wound in his chest; he looked worn out and exhausted, but his pale face was determined and his eyes burned intensely in his hollow cheeks. 'They shall not pass,' he said, in low, passionate tones that I clearly heard despite the chaos of the storm. Then I woke up. Rilla, I'm scared—the spring won't bring the Big Push we've all been hoping for—instead, it's going to bring some terrible blow to France. I'm sure of it. The Germans will try to break through somewhere."
"But he told you that they would not pass," said Rilla, seriously. She never laughed at Gertrude's dreams as the doctor did.
"But he told you that they wouldn't pass," Rilla said earnestly. She never made fun of Gertrude's dreams like the doctor did.
"I do not know if that was prophecy or desperation, Rilla, the horror of that dream holds me yet in an icy grip. We shall need all our courage before long."
"I don’t know if that was a prophecy or just desperation, Rilla, but the terror of that dream still has me in a cold grip. We’re going to need all our courage soon."
Dr. Blythe did laugh at the breakfast table—but he never laughed at Miss Oliver's dreams again; for that day brought news of the opening of the Verdun offensive, and thereafter through all the beautiful weeks of spring the Ingleside family, one and all, lived in a trance of dread. There were days when they waited in despair for the end as foot by foot the Germans crept nearer and nearer to the grim barrier of desperate France.
Dr. Blythe laughed at the breakfast table, but he never laughed at Miss Oliver's dreams again; that day brought news of the start of the Verdun offensive, and from then on, throughout the beautiful weeks of spring, the Ingleside family lived in a state of dread. There were days when they waited in despair for the end as the Germans advanced closer and closer to the desperate barrier of France.
Susan's deeds were in her spotless kitchen at Ingleside, but her thoughts were on the hills around Verdun. "Mrs. Dr. dear," she would stick her head in at Mrs. Blythe's door the last thing at night to remark, "I do hope the French have hung onto the Crow's Wood today," and she woke at dawn to wonder if Dead Man's Hill—surely named by some prophet—was still held by the "poyloos." Susan could have drawn a map of the country around Verdun that would have satisfied a chief of staff.
Susan's actions took place in her spotless kitchen at Ingleside, but her mind was on the hills around Verdun. "Mrs. Dr. dear," she would pop her head into Mrs. Blythe's room right before bed to say, "I really hope the French managed to keep hold of Crow's Wood today," and she would wake at dawn wondering if Dead Man's Hill—surely named by some seer—was still under the control of the "poyloos." Susan could have drawn a detailed map of the area around Verdun that would impress any military leader.
"If the Germans capture Verdun the spirit of France will be broken," Miss Oliver said bitterly.
"If the Germans take Verdun, the spirit of France will be crushed," Miss Oliver said bitterly.
"But they will not capture it," staunchly said Susan, who could not eat her dinner that day for fear lest they do that very thing. "In the first place, you dreamed they would not—you dreamed the very thing the French are saying before they ever said it—'they shall not pass.' I declare to you, Miss Oliver, dear, when I read that in the paper, and remembered your dream, I went cold all over with awe. It seemed to me like Biblical times when people dreamed things like that quite frequently.
"But they won't capture it," Susan said firmly, unable to eat her dinner that day for fear they might actually do that. "First of all, you dreamed they wouldn’t—you dreamed the exact thing the French are saying before they even said it—'they shall not pass.' I have to tell you, Miss Oliver, dear, when I read that in the paper and remembered your dream, I felt a chill all over with awe. It reminded me of Biblical times when people had dreams like that all the time.
"I know—I know," said Gertrude, walking restlessly about. "I cling to a persistent faith in my dream, too—but every time bad news comes it fails me. Then I tell myself 'mere coincidence'—'subconscious memory' and so forth."
"I know—I know," Gertrude said, pacing back and forth. "I hold on to a stubborn belief in my dream as well—but every time I get bad news, it lets me down. Then I convince myself it's just 'bad luck'—'subconscious memory' and things like that."
"I do not see how any memory could remember a thing before it was ever said at all," persisted Susan, "though of course I am not educated like you and the doctor. I would rather not be, if it makes anything as simple as that so hard to believe. But in any case we need not worry over Verdun, even if the Huns get it. Joffre says it has no military significance."
"I don't see how any memory could recall something before it was ever said," Susan insisted, "though I admit I'm not as educated as you and the doctor. I’d rather not be, if it makes something as simple as that so hard to believe. But anyway, we shouldn't worry about Verdun, even if the Huns take it. Joffre says it has no military significance."
"That old sop of comfort has been served up too often already when reverses came," retorted Gertrude. "It has lost its power to charm."
"That old comfort line has been repeated too many times when things went wrong," Gertrude shot back. "It doesn't have its magic anymore."
"Was there ever a battle like this in the world before?" said Mr. Meredith, one evening in mid-April.
"Has there ever been a battle like this in the world before?" said Mr. Meredith, one evening in mid-April.
"It's such a titanic thing we can't grasp it," said the doctor. "What were the scraps of a few Homeric handfuls compared to this? The whole Trojan war might be fought around a Verdun fort and a newspaper correspondent would give it no more than a sentence. I am not in the confidence of the occult powers"—the doctor threw Gertrude a twinkle—"but I have a hunch that the fate of the whole war hangs on the issue of Verdun. As Susan and Joffre say, it has no real military significance; but it has the tremendous significance of an Idea. If Germany wins there she will win the war. If she loses, the tide will set against her."
"It's such a huge thing we can't fully understand," said the doctor. "What were the bits of a few epic moments compared to this? The entire Trojan War could be fought around a Verdun fort, and a newspaper reporter would only give it a sentence. I'm not privy to the secrets of the universe,"—the doctor gave Gertrude a playful look—"but I have a feeling that the fate of the whole war depends on what happens at Verdun. As Susan and Joffre say, it has no real military importance; but it carries the immense weight of an Idea. If Germany wins there, she will win the war. If she loses, the tide will turn against her."
"Lose she will," said Mr. Meredith: emphatically. "The Idea cannot be conquered. France is certainly very wonderful. It seems to me that in her I see the white form of civilization making a determined stand against the black powers of barbarism. I think our whole world realizes this and that is why we all await the issue so breathlessly. It isn't merely the question of a few forts changing hands or a few miles of blood-soaked ground lost and won."
"Lose she will," said Mr. Meredith emphatically. "The idea cannot be defeated. France is certainly amazing. It seems to me that in her I see the pure form of civilization making a strong stand against the dark forces of barbarism. I think our entire world recognizes this, and that's why we all wait for the outcome so anxiously. It’s not just about a few forts changing hands or a few miles of blood-soaked land lost and gained."
"I wonder," said Gertrude dreamily, "if some great blessing, great enough for the price, will be the meed of all our pain? Is the agony in which the world is shuddering the birth-pang of some wondrous new era? Or is it merely a futile
"I wonder," said Gertrude dreamily, "if some huge blessing, big enough for the price, will come as a reward for all our suffering? Is the pain that the world is experiencing the beginning of some amazing new era? Or is it just a pointless
struggle of ants
In the gleam of a million million of suns?
struggle of ants
In the shine of countless suns?
We think very lightly, Mr. Meredith, of a calamity which destroys an ant-hill and half its inhabitants. Does the Power that runs the universe think us of more importance than we think ants?"
We take very lightly, Mr. Meredith, a disaster that wipes out an ant hill and half of its residents. Does the force that governs the universe consider us more important than we consider ants?
"You forget," said Mr. Meredith, with a flash of his dark eyes, "that an infinite Power must be infinitely little as well as infinitely great. We are neither, therefore there are things too little as well as too great for us to apprehend. To the infinitely little an ant is of as much importance as a mastodon. We are witnessing the birth-pangs of a new era—but it will be born a feeble, wailing life like everything else. I am not one of those who expect a new heaven and a new earth as the immediate result of this war. That is not the way God works. But work He does, Miss Oliver, and in the end His purpose will be fulfilled."
"You forget," Mr. Meredith said, his dark eyes flashing, "that an infinite power must be both infinitely small and infinitely large. We are neither, so there are things that are too small and too large for us to understand. To the infinitely small, an ant is just as significant as a mastodon. We are witnessing the painful beginnings of a new era—but it will be born a fragile, crying life like everything else. I'm not one of those who expect a new heaven and a new earth to be the immediate outcome of this war. That’s not how God operates. But He is working, Miss Oliver, and in the end, His purpose will be realized."
"Sound and orthodox—sound and orthodox," muttered Susan approvingly in the kitchen. Susan liked to see Miss Oliver sat upon by the minister now and then. Susan was very fond of her but she thought Miss Oliver liked saying heretical things to ministers far too well, and deserved an occasional reminder that these matters were quite beyond her province.
"Sound and orthodox—sound and orthodox," Susan muttered to herself with approval in the kitchen. She enjoyed seeing Miss Oliver challenged by the minister every now and then. Susan really liked her, but she thought Miss Oliver had a bit too much fun making controversial statements to ministers and deserved a little reminder that those topics were well beyond her scope.
In May Walter wrote home that he had been awarded a D.C. Medal. He did not say what for, but the other boys took care that the Glen should know the brave thing Walter had done. "In any war but this," wrote Jerry Meredith, "it would have meant a V.C. But they can't make V.C.'s as common as the brave things done every day here."
In May, Walter wrote home that he had received a D.C. Medal. He didn’t mention why, but the other boys made sure the Glen knew about the brave thing Walter had done. "In any war but this," wrote Jerry Meredith, "it would have meant a V.C. But they can't hand out V.C.s as easily as the brave acts done every day here."
"He should have had the V.C.," said Susan, and was very indignant over it. She was not quite sure who was to blame for his not getting it, but if it were General Haig she began for the first time to entertain serious doubts as to his fitness for being Commander-in-Chief.
"He should have received the V.C.," said Susan, sounding very upset about it. She wasn't entirely sure who was responsible for him not getting it, but if it was General Haig, she was starting to seriously question his suitability for being Commander-in-Chief.
Rilla was beside herself with delight. It was her dear Walter who had done this thing—Walter, to whom someone had sent a white feather at Redmond—it was Walter who had dashed back from the safety of the trench to drag in a wounded comrade who had fallen on No-man's-land. Oh, she could see his white beautiful face and wonderful eyes as he did it! What a thing to be the sister of such a hero! And he hadn't thought it worth while writing about. His letter was full of other things—little intimate things that they two had known and loved together in the dear old cloudless days of a century ago.
Rilla was overwhelmed with joy. It was her dear Walter who had done this—Walter, who had received a white feather at Redmond—it was Walter who had rushed back from the safety of the trench to bring in a wounded comrade who had fallen in No-man's-land. Oh, she could picture his beautiful white face and wonderful eyes as he did it! What an incredible thing it was to be the sister of such a hero! And he hadn’t even thought it was worth mentioning in his letter. His letter was filled with other things—little personal memories that they had known and loved together during the good old days long ago.
"I've been thinking of the daffodils in the garden at Ingleside," he wrote. "By the time you get this they will be out, blowing there under that lovely rosy sky. Are they really as bright and golden as ever, Rilla? It seems to me that they must be dyed red with blood—like our poppies here. And every whisper of spring will be falling as a violet in Rainbow Valley.
"I’ve been thinking about the daffodils in the garden at Ingleside," he wrote. "By the time you get this, they will be blooming under that beautiful rosy sky. Are they really as bright and golden as ever, Rilla? It feels like they must be stained red with blood—like our poppies here. And every hint of spring will be dropping like a violet in Rainbow Valley."
"There is a young moon tonight—a slender, silver, lovely thing hanging over these pits of torment. Will you see it tonight over the maple grove?
"There’s a young moon tonight—a slim, silver, beautiful thing hanging over these pits of misery. Will you see it tonight over the maple grove?"
"I'm enclosing a little scrap of verse, Rilla. I wrote it one evening in my trench dug-out by the light of a bit of candle—or rather it came to me there—I didn't feel as if I were writing it—something seemed to use me as an instrument. I've had that feeling once or twice before, but very rarely and never so strongly as this time. That was why I sent it over to the London Spectator. It printed it and the copy came today. I hope you'll like it. It's the only poem I've written since I came overseas."
"I'm sending you a little piece of poetry, Rilla. I wrote it one evening in my trench dugout by the light of a small candle—or rather, it came to me there—I didn’t feel like I was writing it—something seemed to use me as a tool. I’ve had that feeling once or twice before, but very rarely and never as strongly as this time. That’s why I sent it to the London Spectator. They published it and the copy arrived today. I hope you enjoy it. It’s the only poem I’ve written since I came overseas."
The poem was a short, poignant little thing. In a month it had carried Walter's name to every corner of the globe. Everywhere it was copied—in metropolitan dailies and little village weeklies—in profound reviews and "agony columns," in Red Cross appeals and Government recruiting propaganda. Mothers and sisters wept over it, young lads thrilled to it, the whole great heart of humanity caught it up as an epitome of all the pain and hope and pity and purpose of the mighty conflict, crystallized in three brief immortal verses. A Canadian lad in the Flanders trenches had written the one great poem of the war. "The Piper," by Pte. Walter Blythe, was a classic from its first printing.
The poem was a short, powerful piece. In just a month, it brought Walter's name to every corner of the world. It was copied everywhere—in big city newspapers and small-town weeklies—in serious reviews and "agony columns," in Red Cross appeals and government recruitment ads. Mothers and sisters cried over it, young men were inspired by it, and the entire human spirit embraced it as a summary of all the pain, hope, compassion, and purpose of the massive conflict, captured in three brief, timeless verses. A Canadian soldier in the Flanders trenches had created the one great poem of the war. "The Piper," by Pte. Walter Blythe, became a classic from its first publication.
Rilla copied it in her diary at the beginning of an entry in which she poured out the story of the hard week that had just passed.
Rilla wrote it down in her diary at the start of an entry where she shared the story of the tough week that had just gone by.
"It has been such a dreadful week," she wrote, "and even though it is over and we know that it was all a mistake that does not seem to do away with the bruises left by it. And yet it has in some ways been a very wonderful week and I have had some glimpses of things I never realized before—of how fine and brave people can be even in the midst of horrible suffering. I am sure I could never be as splendid as Miss Oliver was.
"It’s been such a terrible week," she wrote, "and even though it’s over and we know it was all a mistake, that doesn’t erase the scars it left behind. And yet, in some ways, it’s been a really amazing week, and I’ve had some insights into things I never understood before—how strong and courageous people can be even in the face of awful pain. I’m sure I could never be as wonderful as Miss Oliver was."
"Just a week ago today she had a letter from Mr. Grant's mother in Charlottetown. And it told her that a cable had just come saying that Major Robert Grant had been killed in action a few days before.
"Just a week ago today, she received a letter from Mr. Grant's mother in Charlottetown. It informed her that a cable had just arrived saying that Major Robert Grant had been killed in action a few days earlier."
"Oh, poor Gertrude! At first she was crushed. Then after just a day she pulled herself together and went back to her school. She did not cry—I never saw her shed a tear—but oh, her face and her eyes!
"Oh, poor Gertrude! At first she was devastated. Then, after just a day, she got herself together and returned to school. She didn't cry—I never saw her shed a tear—but oh, her face and her eyes!"
"'I must go on with my work,' she said. 'That is my duty just now.'
"'I have to keep working,' she said. 'That's my responsibility right now.'"
"I could never have risen to such a height.
"I could never have reached such a level."
"She never spoke bitterly except once, when Susan said something about spring being here at last, and Gertrude said,
"She never spoke harshly except for once, when Susan mentioned that spring had finally arrived, and Gertrude replied,"
"'Can the spring really come this year?'
"'Can spring really come this year?'"
"Then she laughed—such a dreadful little laugh, just as one might laugh in the face of death, I think, and said,
"Then she laughed—such a terrible little laugh, like one might laugh when facing death, I think, and said,
"'Observe my egotism. Because I, Gertrude Oliver, have lost a friend, it is incredible that the spring can come as usual. The spring does not fail because of the million agonies of others—but for mine—oh, can the universe go on?'
"'Look at my self-centeredness. Because I, Gertrude Oliver, have lost a friend, it's hard to believe that spring can still arrive as usual. Spring doesn't stop for the countless sufferings of others—but for mine—oh, can the universe keep moving forward?'"
"'Don't feel bitter with yourself, dear,' mother said gently. 'It is a very natural thing to feel as if things couldn't go on just the same when some great blow has changed the world for us. We all feel like that.'
"'Don't be hard on yourself, dear,' mom said softly. 'It's completely normal to feel like everything can't just go on the same way after something big has changed our world. We all feel that way.'"
"Then that horrid old Cousin Sophia of Susan's piped up. She was sitting there, knitting and croaking like an old 'raven of bode and woe' as Walter used to call her.
"Then that awful old Cousin Sophia of Susan's spoke up. She was sitting there, knitting and croaking like an old 'raven of doom and gloom,' as Walter used to call her."
"'You ain't as bad off as some, Miss Oliver,' she said, 'and you shouldn't take it so hard. There's some as has lost their husbands; that's a hard blow; and there's some as has lost their sons. You haven't lost either husband or son.'
"'You're not as bad off as some, Miss Oliver,' she said, 'and you shouldn't take it so hard. There are those who have lost their husbands; that's a tough hit; and there are some who have lost their sons. You haven't lost either a husband or a son.'"
"'No,' said Gertrude, more bitterly still. 'It's true I haven't lost a husband—I have only lost the man who would have been my husband. I have lost no son—only the sons and daughters who might have been born to me—who will never be born to me now.'
"'No,' Gertrude said, even more bitterly. 'It's true I haven't lost a husband—I’ve only lost the man who could have been my husband. I haven't lost any children—only the sons and daughters who could have been born to me—who will never be born to me now.'"
"'It isn't ladylike to talk like that,' said Cousin Sophia in a shocked tone; and then Gertrude laughed right out, so wildly that Cousin Sophia was really frightened. And when poor tortured Gertrude, unable to endure it any longer, hurried out of the room, Cousin Sophia asked mother if the blow hadn't affected Miss Oliver's mind.
"'It's not proper for a lady to speak like that,' said Cousin Sophia in a shocked tone; and then Gertrude burst out laughing so uncontrollably that Cousin Sophia was genuinely scared. When poor, tormented Gertrude, unable to take it anymore, rushed out of the room, Cousin Sophia asked mother if the blow had affected Miss Oliver's mind.
"'I suffered the loss of two good kind partners,' she said, 'but it did not affect me like that.'
"'I lost two good partners,' she said, 'but it didn't hit me the same way.'"
"I should think it wouldn't! Those poor men must have been thankful to die.
"I don't think so! Those poor men must have been grateful to die.
"I heard Gertrude walking up and down her room most of the night. She walked like that every night. But never so long as that night. And once I heard her give a dreadful sudden little cry as if she had been stabbed. I couldn't sleep for suffering with her; and I couldn't help her. I thought the night would never end. But it did; and then 'joy came in the morning' as the Bible says. Only it didn't come exactly in the morning but well along in the afternoon. The telephone rang and I answered it. It was old Mrs. Grant speaking from Charlottetown, and her news was that it was all a mistake—Robert wasn't killed at all; he had only been slightly wounded in the arm and was safe in the hospital out of harm's way for a time anyhow. They hadn't learned yet how the mistake had happened but supposed there must have been another Robert Grant.
"I heard Gertrude pacing around her room most of the night. She did that every night, but never for as long as that night. At one point, I heard her let out a terrible, sudden little cry as if she had been stabbed. I couldn't sleep because I was so worried about her, and I couldn't help her. I thought the night would never end. But eventually it did, and then 'joy came in the morning,' as the Bible says. Only it didn't come right in the morning but well into the afternoon. The phone rang, and I answered it. It was old Mrs. Grant calling from Charlottetown, and her news was that it had all been a mistake—Robert wasn't killed at all; he had only been slightly wounded in the arm and was safe in the hospital, out of harm's way for a while anyway. They still didn't know how the mistake had happened but thought there must have been another Robert Grant."
"I hung up the telephone and flew to Rainbow Valley. I'm sure I did fly—I can't remember my feet ever touching the ground. I met Gertrude on her way home from school in the glade of spruces where we used to play, and I just gasped out the news to her. I ought to have had more sense, of course. But I was so crazy with joy and excitement that I never stopped to think. Gertrude just dropped there among the golden young ferns as if she had been shot. The fright it gave me ought to make me sensible—in this respect at least—for the rest of my life. I thought I had killed her—I remembered that her mother had died very suddenly from heart failure when quite a young woman. It seemed years to me before I discovered that her heart was still beating. A pretty time I had! I never saw anybody faint before, and I knew there was nobody up at the house to help, because everybody else had gone to the station to meet Di and Nan coming home from Redmond. But I knew—theoretically—how people in a faint should be treated, and now I know it practically. Luckily the brook was handy, and after I had worked frantically over her for a while Gertrude came back to life. She never said one word about my news and I didn't dare to refer to it again. I helped her walk up through the maple grove and up to her room, and then she said, 'Rob—is—living,' as if the words were torn out of her, and flung herself on her bed and cried and cried and cried. I never saw anyone cry so before. All the tears that she hadn't shed all that week came then. She cried most of last night, I think, but her face this morning looked as if she had seen a vision of some kind, and we were all so happy that we were almost afraid.
"I hung up the phone and raced to Rainbow Valley. I’m sure I didn’t just walk—I can’t remember my feet ever touching the ground. I ran into Gertrude on her way home from school in the clearing of spruces where we used to play, and I just blurted out the news to her. I should have been more sensible, of course. But I was so overwhelmed with joy and excitement that I didn’t stop to think. Gertrude just collapsed there among the golden young ferns as if she had been shot. The shock it gave me should have taught me to be cautious—in this way at least—for the rest of my life. I thought I had killed her—I remembered that her mother had died very suddenly from heart failure when she was still quite young. It felt like years before I realized that her heart was still beating. What a situation I was in! I had never seen anyone faint before, and I knew there wasn't anyone at the house to help because everyone else had gone to the station to meet Di and Nan coming home from Redmond. But I knew—theoretically—how to treat someone who fainted, and now I know it practically. Luckily, the brook was close by, and after I frantically worked over her for a while, Gertrude came back to life. She never mentioned my news, and I didn’t have the courage to bring it up again. I helped her walk through the maple grove and up to her room, and then she said, 'Rob—is—living,' as if the words were forced out of her, and she flung herself on her bed and cried and cried and cried. I had never seen anyone cry like that before. All the tears she hadn’t shed that whole week came out then. She cried for most of last night, I think, but her face this morning looked as if she had seen some kind of vision, and we were all so happy that we were almost afraid."
"Di and Nan are home for a couple of weeks. Then they go back to Red Cross work in the training camp at Kingsport. I envy them. Father says I'm doing just as good work here, with Jims and my Junior Reds. But it lacks the romance theirs must have.
"Di and Nan are home for a couple of weeks. Then they head back to Red Cross work at the training camp in Kingsport. I envy them. Dad says I'm doing just as good work here, with Jims and my Junior Reds. But it just doesn’t have the excitement theirs must have."
"Kut has fallen. It was almost a relief when it did fall, we had been dreading it so long. It crushed us flat for a day and then we picked up and put it behind us. Cousin Sophia was as gloomy as usual and came over and groaned that the British were losing everywhere.
"Kut has fallen. It was almost a relief when it finally happened; we had been dreading it for so long. It knocked us down for a day, but then we got back up and moved on. Cousin Sophia was as gloomy as ever and came over to complain that the British were losing everywhere."
"'They're good losers,' said Susan grimly. 'When they lose a thing they keep on looking till they find it again! Anyhow, my king and country need me now to cut potato sets for the back garden, so get you a knife and help me, Sophia Crawford. It will divert your thoughts and keep you from worrying over a campaign that you are not called upon to run.'
"'They're good losers,' Susan said with a serious look. 'When they lose something, they just keep searching until they find it again! Anyway, my king and country need me to cut up potato sets for the backyard, so grab a knife and help me, Sophia Crawford. It’ll take your mind off the campaign that you don’t have to worry about.'"
"Susan is an old brick, and the way she flattens out poor Cousin Sophia is beautiful to behold.
"Susan is tough as nails, and the way she puts poor Cousin Sophia in her place is something to see."
"As for Verdun, the battle goes on and on, and we see-saw between hope and fear. But I know that strange dream of Miss Oliver's foretold the victory of France. 'They shall not pass.'"
"As for Verdun, the battle keeps dragging on, and we fluctuate between hope and fear. But I believe that Miss Oliver's strange dream predicted France's victory. 'They shall not pass.'"
CHAPTER XX
NORMAN DOUGLAS SPEAKS OUT IN MEETING
"Where are you wandering, Anne o' mine?" asked the doctor, who even yet, after twenty-four years of marriage, occasionally addressed his wife thus when nobody was about. Anne was sitting on the veranda steps, gazing absently over the wonderful bridal world of spring blossom, Beyond the white orchard was a copse of dark young firs and creamy wild cherries, where the robins were whistling madly; for it was evening and the fire of early stars was burning over the maple grove.
"Where are you wandering, my Anne?" asked the doctor, who even after twenty-four years of marriage sometimes called his wife that when no one else was around. Anne was sitting on the veranda steps, lost in thought, looking out at the beautiful spring blossoms. Beyond the white orchard was a thicket of dark young firs and creamy wild cherries, where the robins were singing excitedly; it was evening, and the early stars were shining brightly over the maple grove.
Anne came back with a little sigh.
Anne returned with a small sigh.
"I was just taking relief from intolerable realities in a dream, Gilbert—a dream that all our children were home again—and all small again—playing in Rainbow Valley. It is always so silent now—but I was imagining I heard clear voices and gay, childish sounds coming up as I used to. I could hear Jem's whistle and Walter's yodel, and the twins' laughter, and for just a few blessed minutes I forgot about the guns on the Western front, and had a little false, sweet happiness."
"I was just escaping from unbearable realities in a dream, Gilbert—a dream where all our kids were back home—and small again—playing in Rainbow Valley. It's so quiet there now, but I was imagining I heard clear voices and cheerful, childlike sounds coming up like they used to. I could hear Jem's whistle, Walter's yodel, and the twins' laughter, and for just a few precious minutes, I forgot about the guns on the Western front and felt a little fake, sweet happiness."
The doctor did not answer. Sometimes his work tricked him into forgetting for a few moments the Western front, but not often. There was a good deal of grey now in his still thick curls that had not been there two years ago. Yet he smiled down into the starry eyes he loved—the eyes that had once been so full of laughter, and now seemed always full of unshed tears.
The doctor didn’t reply. Sometimes his job distracted him enough to forget about the Western front for a bit, but not very often. There was quite a bit of gray now in his still thick curls that hadn’t been there two years ago. Still, he smiled down into the starry eyes he loved—eyes that had once been so full of laughter and now always seemed full of unshed tears.
Susan wandered by with a hoe in her hand and her second best bonnet on her head.
Susan walked by with a hoe in her hand and her second-best bonnet on her head.
"I have just finished reading a piece in the Enterprise which told of a couple being married in an aeroplane. Do you think it would be legal, doctor dear?" she inquired anxiously.
"I just finished reading an article in the Enterprise about a couple getting married on an airplane. Do you think that would be legal, dear doctor?" she asked anxiously.
"I think so," said the doctor gravely.
"I think so," the doctor said seriously.
"Well," said Susan dubiously, "it seems to me that a wedding is too solemn for anything so giddy as an aeroplane. But nothing is the same as it used to be. Well, it is half an hour yet before prayer-meeting time, so I am going around to the kitchen garden to have a little evening hate with the weeds. But all the time I am strafing them I will be thinking about this new worry in the Trentino. I do not like this Austrian caper, Mrs. Dr. dear."
"Well," Susan said doubtfully, "I think a wedding is too serious for something as crazy as an airplane. But nothing is the same as it used to be. We've still got half an hour before prayer meeting, so I'm going to the kitchen garden to spend some time pulling out weeds. But while I'm at it, I'll be worrying about this new issue in the Trentino. I really don't like this Austrian situation, Mrs. Dr. dear."
"Nor I," said Mrs. Blythe ruefully. "All the forenoon I preserved rhubarb with my hands and waited for the war news with my soul. When it came I shrivelled. Well, I suppose I must go and get ready for the prayer-meeting, too."
"Me neither," Mrs. Blythe said with a sigh. "All morning I was canning rhubarb with my hands and anxiously waiting for the war news. When it finally came, I felt deflated. Well, I guess I should go get ready for the prayer meeting, too."
Every village has its own little unwritten history, handed down from lip to lip through the generations, of tragic, comic, and dramatic events. They are told at weddings and festivals, and rehearsed around winter firesides. And in these oral annals of Glen St. Mary the tale of the union prayer-meeting held that night in the Methodist Church was destined to fill an imperishable place.
Every village has its own unique, unwritten history, passed down through generations by word of mouth, filled with tragic, funny, and dramatic events. These stories are shared at weddings and festivals, and recounted around winter fires. In the oral history of Glen St. Mary, the story of the union prayer meeting held that night in the Methodist Church was meant to hold a lasting significance.
The union prayer-meeting was Mr. Arnold's idea. The county battalion, which had been training all winter in Charlottetown, was to leave shortly for overseas. The Four Winds Harbour boys belonging to it from the Glen and over-harbour and Harbour Head and Upper Glen were all home on their last leave, and Mr. Arnold thought, properly enough, that it would be a fitting thing to hold a union prayer-meeting for them before they went away. Mr. Meredith having agreed, the meeting was announced to be held in the Methodist Church. Glen prayer-meetings were not apt to be too well attended, but on this particular evening the Methodist Church was crowded. Everybody who could go was there. Even Miss Cornelia came—and it was the first time in her life that Miss Cornelia had ever set foot inside a Methodist Church. It took no less than a world conflict to bring that about.
The union prayer meeting was Mr. Arnold's idea. The county battalion, which had been training all winter in Charlottetown, was about to leave for overseas. The Four Winds Harbour boys who were part of it from the Glen, over-harbour, Harbour Head, and Upper Glen were all home on their last leave, and Mr. Arnold rightly thought it would be appropriate to hold a union prayer meeting for them before they left. Mr. Meredith agreed, so the meeting was announced to be held at the Methodist Church. Glen prayer meetings typically didn’t have great attendance, but on this particular evening, the Methodist Church was packed. Everyone who could attend was there. Even Miss Cornelia showed up—and it was the first time in her life that she had ever stepped foot inside a Methodist Church. It took nothing less than a world conflict to make that happen.
"I used to hate Methodists," said Miss Cornelia calmly, when her husband expressed surprise over her going, "but I don't hate them now. There is no sense in hating Methodists when there is a Kaiser or a Hindenburg in the world."
"I used to hate Methodists," Miss Cornelia said calmly when her husband expressed surprise at her going, "but I don't hate them anymore. It doesn't make sense to hate Methodists when there's a Kaiser or a Hindenburg in the world."
So Miss Cornelia went. Norman Douglas and his wife went too. And Whiskers-on-the-moon strutted up the aisle to a front pew, as if he fully realized what a distinction he conferred upon the building. People were somewhat surprised that he should be there, since he usually avoided all assemblages connected in any way with the war. But Mr. Meredith had said that he hoped his session would be well represented, and Mr. Pryor had evidently taken the request to heart. He wore his best black suit and white tie, his thick, tight, iron-grey curls were neatly arranged, and his broad, red round face looked, as Susan most uncharitably thought, more "sanctimonious" than ever.
So Miss Cornelia went. Norman Douglas and his wife went too. And Whiskers-on-the-moon strutted up the aisle to a front pew, as if he fully understood the honor he brought to the place. People were a bit surprised to see him there since he usually steered clear of any gatherings linked to the war. But Mr. Meredith had mentioned that he hoped his session would have a good turnout, and Mr. Pryor clearly took that to heart. He wore his best black suit and white tie, his thick, tight, iron-grey curls were neatly styled, and his broad, round red face looked, as Susan unfairly thought, more "self-righteous" than ever.
"The minute I saw that man coming into the Church, looking like that, I felt that mischief was brewing, Mrs. Dr. dear," she said afterwards. "What form it would take I could not tell, but I knew from face of him that he had come there for no good."
"The moment I saw that guy walk into the church looking like that, I knew trouble was on the way, dear Mrs. Doctor," she said later. "I couldn't predict what kind of trouble it would be, but I could tell from his expression that he wasn't there for anything good."
The prayer-meeting opened conventionally and continued quietly. Mr. Meredith spoke first with his usual eloquence and feeling. Mr. Arnold followed with an address which even Miss Cornelia had to confess was irreproachable in taste and subject-matter.
The prayer meeting started off like usual and carried on quietly. Mr. Meredith spoke first with his typical eloquence and emotion. Mr. Arnold followed with a speech that even Miss Cornelia had to admit was flawless in both taste and content.
And then Mr. Arnold asked Mr. Pryor to lead in prayer.
And then Mr. Arnold asked Mr. Pryor to start the prayer.
Miss Cornelia had always averred that Mr. Arnold had no gumption. Miss Cornelia was not apt to err on the side of charity in her judgment of Methodist ministers, but in this case she did not greatly overshoot the mark. The Rev. Mr. Arnold certainly did not have much of that desirable, indefinable quality known as gumption, or he would never have asked Whiskers-on-the-moon to lead in prayer at a khaki prayer-meeting. He thought he was returning the compliment to Mr. Meredith, who, at the conclusion of his address, had asked a Methodist deacon to lead.
Miss Cornelia had always claimed that Mr. Arnold had no common sense. Miss Cornelia wasn’t one to be overly generous in her judgment of Methodist ministers, but in this case, she wasn’t too far off. The Rev. Mr. Arnold definitely lacked that desirable, hard-to-define quality known as common sense, or he would never have asked Whiskers-on-the-moon to lead the prayer at a khaki prayer meeting. He thought he was returning the favor to Mr. Meredith, who, after finishing his speech, had asked a Methodist deacon to lead.
Some people expected Mr. Pryor to refuse grumpily—and that would have made enough scandal. But Mr. Pryor bounded briskly to his feet, unctuously said, "Let us pray," and forthwith prayed. In a sonorous voice which penetrated to every corner of the crowded building Mr. Pryor poured forth a flood of fluent words, and was well on in his prayer before his dazed and horrified audience awakened to the fact that they were listening to a pacifist appeal of the rankest sort. Mr. Pryor had at least the courage of his convictions; or perhaps, as people afterwards said, he thought he was safe in a church and that it was an excellent chance to air certain opinions he dared not voice elsewhere, for fear of being mobbed. He prayed that the unholy war might cease—that the deluded armies being driven to slaughter on the Western front might have their eyes opened to their iniquity and repent while yet there was time—that the poor young men present in khaki, who had been hounded into a path of murder and militarism, should yet be rescued—
Some people thought Mr. Pryor would grumpily refuse—and that would have caused quite a scandal. But Mr. Pryor quickly stood up, smoothly said, "Let us pray," and immediately started praying. In a deep voice that echoed throughout the packed building, Mr. Pryor unleashed a stream of eloquent words. He was already deep into his prayer before his stunned and shocked audience realized they were listening to a strong pacifist message. Mr. Pryor at least had the courage of his beliefs; or maybe, as people later said, he figured he was safe in a church and saw it as a good time to express certain views he couldn't share elsewhere, afraid of being attacked. He prayed for the immoral war to end—that the misguided armies being sent to slaughter on the Western front might see the truth and repent while there was still time—that the young men in khaki, who had been pushed into a path of violence and militarism, might still be saved—
Mr. Pryor had got this far without let or hindrance; and so paralysed were his hearers, and so deeply imbued with their born-and-bred conviction that no disturbance must ever be made in a church, no matter what the provocation, that it seemed likely that he would continue unchecked to the end. But one man at least in that audience was not hampered by inherited or acquired reverence for the sacred edifice. Norman Douglas was, as Susan had often vowed crisply, nothing more or less than a "pagan." But he was a rampantly patriotic pagan, and when the significance of what Mr. Pryor was saying fully dawned on him, Norman Douglas suddenly went berserk. With a positive roar he bounded to his feet in his side pew, facing the audience, and shouted in tones of thunder:
Mr. Pryor had gotten this far without any interruptions; and his listeners were so stunned and so deeply convinced that no disruption should ever occur in a church, regardless of the situation, that it seemed likely he would continue unchallenged to the end. But at least one person in that crowd was not constrained by deep-seated respect for the sacred space. Norman Douglas was, as Susan often bluntly stated, nothing more or less than a "pagan." However, he was an intensely patriotic pagan, and when the importance of what Mr. Pryor was saying hit him fully, Norman Douglas suddenly went wild. With a loud roar, he jumped to his feet in his side pew, facing the audience, and shouted in booming tones:
"Stop—stop—STOP that abominable prayer! What an abominable prayer!"
"Stop—stop—STOP that terrible prayer! What a terrible prayer!"
Every head in the church flew up. A boy in khaki at the back gave a faint cheer. Mr. Meredith raised a deprecating hand, but Norman was past caring for anything like that. Eluding his wife's restraining grasp, he gave one mad spring over the front of the pew and caught the unfortunate Whiskers-on-the-moon by his coat collar. Mr. Pryor had not "stopped" when so bidden, but he stopped now, perforce, for Norman, his long red beard literally bristling with fury, was shaking him until his bones fairly rattled, and punctuating his shakes with a lurid assortment of abusive epithets.
Every head in the church shot up. A boy in khaki at the back let out a weak cheer. Mr. Meredith raised a hand to calm things down, but Norman didn’t care about that anymore. Dodging his wife’s grasp, he leaped over the front of the pew and grabbed the unfortunate Whiskers-on-the-moon by his coat collar. Mr. Pryor hadn’t stopped when asked, but now he had to, as Norman, his long red beard practically standing on end with rage, was shaking him so hard his bones rattled, punctuating each shake with a colorful mix of insults.
"You blatant beast!"—shake—"You malignant carrion"—shake—"You pig-headed varmint!"—shake—"you putrid pup"—shake—"you pestilential parasite"—shake—"you—Hunnish scum"—shake—"you indecent reptile—you—you—" Norman choked for a moment. Everybody believed that the next thing he would say, church or no church, would be something that would have to be spelt with asterisks; but at that moment Norman encountered his wife's eye and he fell back with a thud on Holy Writ. "You whited sepulchre!" he bellowed, with a final shake, and cast Whiskers-on-the-moon from him with a vigour which impelled that unhappy pacifist to the very verge of the choir entrance door. Mr. Pryor's once ruddy face was ashen. But he turned at bay. "I'll have the law on you for this," he gasped.
"You bold beast!"—shake—"You disgusting carcass"—shake—"You stubborn fool!"—shake—"you rotten pup"—shake—"you disease-ridden parasite"—shake—"you—Hunnish scum"—shake—"you indecent reptile—you—you—" Norman paused for a moment. Everyone thought that the next thing he would say, church or no church, would definitely need to be censored; but at that moment Norman caught his wife's eye and fell back with a thud on the scriptures. "You hypocrite!" he shouted, with one last shake, and threw Whiskers-on-the-moon away from him with a force that sent that unfortunate pacifist almost to the choir entrance door. Mr. Pryor's once rosy face was now pale. But he confronted Norman. "I'll take legal action against you for this," he gasped.
"Do—do," roared Norman, making another rush. But Mr. Pryor was gone. He had no desire to fall a second time into the hands of an avenging militarist. Norman turned to the platform for one graceless, triumphant moment.
"Go on—go on," yelled Norman, charging again. But Mr. Pryor was gone. He had no intention of becoming a victim again to a vengeful militarist. Norman turned to the platform for one awkward, victorious moment.
"Don't look so flabbergasted, parsons," he boomed. "You couldn't do it—nobody would expect it of the cloth—but somebody had to do it. You know you're glad I threw him out—he couldn't be let go on yammering and yodelling and yawping sedition and treason. Sedition and treason—somebody had to deal with it. I was born for this hour—I've had my innings in church at last. I can sit quiet for another sixty years now! Go ahead with your meeting, parsons. I reckon you won't be troubled with any more pacifist prayers."
"Don't look so shocked, ministers," he yelled. "You couldn't handle it—no one would expect that from the clergy—but someone had to step up. You know you're relieved I kicked him out—he couldn't continue rambling and shouting about rebellion and betrayal. Rebellion and betrayal—someone had to take action. I was made for this moment—I've finally had my chance in the church. I can sit back for another sixty years now! Carry on with your meeting, ministers. I bet you won't have to deal with any more peace-praying."
But the spirit of devotion and reverence had fled. Both ministers realized it and realized that the only thing to do was to close the meeting quietly and let the excited people go. Mr. Meredith addressed a few earnest words to the boys in khaki—which probably saved Mr. Pryor's windows from a second onslaught—and Mr. Arnold pronounced an incongruous benediction, at least he felt it was incongruous, for he could not at once banish from his memory the sight of gigantic Norman Douglas shaking the fat, pompous little Whiskers-on-the-moon as a huge mastiff might shake an overgrown puppy. And he knew that the same picture was in everybody's mind. Altogether the union prayer-meeting could hardly be called an unqualified success. But it was remembered in Glen St. Mary when scores of orthodox and undisturbed assemblies were totally forgotten.
But the spirit of devotion and respect had vanished. Both ministers understood this and knew that the best course of action was to quietly end the meeting and let the agitated crowd disperse. Mr. Meredith said a few earnest words to the boys in khaki—which probably saved Mr. Pryor's windows from another attack—and Mr. Arnold offered a strange benediction; at least he felt it was strange, because he couldn't shake the image of the enormous Norman Douglas shaking the fat, pompous little Whiskers-on-the-moon like a massive mastiff might shake a clumsy puppy. He knew that everyone else had the same picture in their minds. All in all, the union prayer meeting couldn't really be called a complete success. But it was remembered in Glen St. Mary when many traditional and peaceful gatherings were completely forgotten.
"You will never, no, never, Mrs. Dr. dear, hear me call Norman Douglas a pagan again," said Susan when she reached home. "If Ellen Douglas is not a proud woman this night she should be."
"You will never, no, never, Mrs. Dr. dear, hear me call Norman Douglas a pagan again," said Susan when she got home. "If Ellen Douglas isn't feeling proud tonight, she should be."
"Norman Douglas did a wholly indefensible thing," said the doctor. "Pryor should have been let severely alone until the meeting was over. Then later on, his own minister and session should deal with him. That would have been the proper procedure. Norman's performance was utterly improper and scandalous and outrageous; but, by George,"—the doctor threw back his head and chuckled, "by George, Anne-girl, it was satisfying."
"Norman Douglas did something completely unacceptable," said the doctor. "Pryor should have been left alone until the meeting was finished. Then later, his own minister and session should handle it. That would have been the right way to go about it. Norman's actions were totally inappropriate, scandalous, and outrageous; but, you know,"—the doctor threw back his head and chuckled, "you know, Anne-girl, it was satisfying."
CHAPTER XXI
"LOVE AFFAIRS ARE HORRIBLE"
Ingleside
20th June 1916
Ingleside
June 20, 1916
"We have been so busy, and day after day has brought such exciting news, good and bad, that I haven't had time and composure to write in my diary for weeks. I like to keep it up regularly, for father says a diary of the years of the war should be a very interesting thing to hand down to one's children. The trouble is, I like to write a few personal things in this blessed old book that might not be exactly what I'd want my children to read. I feel that I shall be a far greater stickler for propriety in regard to them than I am for myself!
"We've been so busy, and every day has brought such exciting news, both good and bad, that I haven't had the time or peace of mind to write in my diary for weeks. I like to keep it updated regularly because my dad says a diary from the years of the war will be a really interesting thing to pass down to our kids. The problem is, I want to write a few personal things in this old book that I might not want my kids to read. I feel like I'll be much stricter about what’s appropriate for them than I am for myself!"
"The first week in June was another dreadful one. The Austrians seemed just on the point of overrunning Italy: and then came the first awful news of the Battle of Jutland, which the Germans claimed as a great victory. Susan was the only one who carried on. 'You need never tell me that the Kaiser has defeated the British Navy,' she said, with a contemptuous sniff. 'It is all a German lie and that you may tie to.' And when a couple of days later we found out that she was right and that it had been a British victory instead of a British defeat, we had to put up with a great many 'I told you so's,' but we endured them very comfortably.
The first week of June was another terrible one. The Austrians seemed ready to invade Italy, and then we got the shocking news about the Battle of Jutland, which the Germans touted as a huge win. Susan was the only one who held her ground. "You can’t convince me that the Kaiser has beaten the British Navy," she said, with a scornful sniff. "It's all a German lie, and you can take that to the bank." A couple of days later, when we learned she was right and it was actually a British victory instead of a defeat, we had to hear a lot of "I told you so's," but we took it in stride.
"It took Kitchener's death to finish Susan. For the first time I saw her down and out. We all felt the shock of it but Susan plumbed the depths of despair. The news came at night by 'phone but Susan wouldn't believe it until she saw the Enterprise headline the next day. She did not cry or faint or go into hysterics; but she forgot to put salt in the soup, and that is something Susan never did in my recollection. Mother and Miss Oliver and I cried but Susan looked at us in stony sarcasm and said, 'The Kaiser and his six sons are all alive and thriving. So the world is not left wholly desolate. Why cry, Mrs. Dr. dear?' Susan continued in this stony, hopeless condition for twenty-four hours, and then Cousin Sophia appeared and began to condole with her.
It took Kitchener's death to break Susan. For the first time, I saw her completely defeated. We all felt the shock of it, but Susan sank into despair. The news came at night by phone, but Susan wouldn't believe it until she saw the Enterprise headline the next day. She didn’t cry, faint, or go into hysterics; but she forgot to add salt to the soup, and that’s something Susan never did as far as I can remember. Mom, Miss Oliver, and I cried, but Susan looked at us with cold sarcasm and said, "The Kaiser and his six sons are all alive and doing well. So the world isn’t completely desolate. Why cry, Mrs. Dr. dear?" Susan stayed in this cold, hopeless state for twenty-four hours, and then Cousin Sophia showed up and started to console her.
"'This is terrible news, ain't it, Susan? We might as well prepare for the worst for it is bound to come. You said once—and well do I remember the words, Susan Baker—that you had complete confidence in God and Kitchener. Ah well, Susan Baker, there is only God left now.'
"'This is terrible news, isn't it, Susan? We might as well prepare for the worst because it's bound to happen. You once said—and I remember your words well, Susan Baker—that you had complete confidence in God and Kitchener. Ah well, Susan Baker, now there's only God left.'
"Whereat Cousin Sophia put her handkerchief to her eyes pathetically as if the world were indeed in terrible straits. As for Susan, Cousin Sophia was the salvation of her. She came to life with a jerk.
"At that, Cousin Sophia dramatically held her handkerchief to her eyes, as if the world were truly in dire trouble. For Susan, Cousin Sophia was her savior. She suddenly sprang to life."
"'Sophia Crawford, hold your peace!' she said sternly. 'You may be an idiot but you need not be an irreverent idiot. It is no more than decent to be weeping and wailing because the Almighty is the sole stay of the Allies now. As for Kitchener, his death is a great loss and I do not dispute it. But the outcome of this war does not depend on one man's life and now that the Russians are coming on again you will soon see a change for the better.'
"'Sophia Crawford, quiet down!' she said firmly. 'You might be foolish, but you don’t have to be a disrespectful fool. It's only decent to be crying and upset because God is the only support the Allies have right now. As for Kitchener, his death is a significant loss, and I won't argue that. But the result of this war doesn’t hinge on one man’s life, and with the Russians coming back in, you’ll soon see things improve.'
"Susan said this so energetically that she convinced herself and cheered up immediately. But Cousin Sophia shook her head.
"Susan said this so energetically that she convinced herself and felt better right away. But Cousin Sophia shook her head."
"'Albert's wife wants to call the baby after Brusiloff,' she said, 'but I told her to wait and see what becomes of him first. Them Russians has such a habit of petering out.'
"'Albert's wife wants to name the baby after Brusiloff,' she said, 'but I told her to wait and see what happens to him first. Those Russians have a way of fizzling out.'"
"The Russians are doing splendidly, however, and they have saved Italy. But even when the daily news of their sweeping advance comes we don't feel like running up the flag as we used to do. As Gertrude says, Verdun has slain all exultation. We would all feel more like rejoicing if the victories were on the western front. 'When will the British strike?' Gertrude sighed this morning. 'We have waited so long—so long.'
"The Russians are doing great, though, and they’ve saved Italy. But even when we hear the daily news of their major progress, we don't feel like celebrating as we used to. As Gertrude says, Verdun has killed all our excitement. We would all feel more like celebrating if the victories were on the Western Front. 'When will the British attack?' Gertrude sighed this morning. 'We’ve waited so long—so long.'"
"Our greatest local event in recent weeks was the route march the county battalion made through the county before it left for overseas. They marched from Charlottetown to Lowbridge, then round the Harbour Head and through the Upper Glen and so down to the St. Mary station. Everybody turned out to see them, except old Aunt Fannie Clow, who is bedridden and Mr. Pryor, who hadn't been seen out even in church since the night of the Union Prayer Meeting the previous week.
"Our biggest local event in the past few weeks was the march that the county battalion took through the area before leaving for overseas. They marched from Charlottetown to Lowbridge, then around the Harbour Head and through the Upper Glen, all the way down to the St. Mary station. Everyone came out to see them, except for old Aunt Fannie Clow, who is bedridden, and Mr. Pryor, who hasn't been seen out even for church since the night of the Union Prayer Meeting last week."
"It was wonderful and heartbreaking to see that battalion marching past. There were young men and middle-aged men in it. There was Laurie McAllister from over-harbour who is only sixteen but swore he was eighteen, so that he could enlist; and there was Angus Mackenzie, from the Upper Glen who is fifty-five if he is a day and swore he was forty-four. There were two South African veterans from Lowbridge, and the three eighteen-year-old Baxter triplets from Harbour Head. Everybody cheered as they went by, and they cheered Foster Booth, who is forty, walking side by side with his son Charley who is twenty. Charley's mother died when he was born, and when Charley enlisted Foster said he'd never yet let Charley go anywhere he daren't go himself, and he didn't mean to begin with the Flanders trenches. At the station Dog Monday nearly went out of his head. He tore about and sent messages to Jem by them all. Mr. Meredith read an address and Reta Crawford recited 'The Piper.' The soldiers cheered her like mad and cried 'We'll follow—we'll follow—we won't break faith,' and I felt so proud to think that it was my dear brother who had written such a wonderful, heart-stirring thing. And then I looked at the khaki ranks and wondered if those tall fellows in uniform could be the boys I've laughed with and played with and danced with and teased all my life. Something seems to have touched them and set them apart. They have heard the Piper's call.
It was both amazing and heartbreaking to see that battalion marching by. There were young men and middle-aged men in it. Laurie McAllister from over-harbour, who is only sixteen but claimed he was eighteen to enlist, was there; and so was Angus Mackenzie from the Upper Glen, who is at least fifty-five but insisted he was forty-four. Two South African veterans from Lowbridge and the eighteen-year-old Baxter triplets from Harbour Head also marched. Everyone cheered as they passed by, and they cheered for Foster Booth, who is forty, walking alongside his son Charley, who is twenty. Charley’s mother died when he was born, and when Charley enlisted, Foster said he’d never let Charley go anywhere he wouldn’t go himself, and he wasn’t going to start with the Flanders trenches. At the station, Dog Monday was almost beside himself. He ran around and sent messages to Jem through them all. Mr. Meredith read an address, and Reta Crawford recited 'The Piper.' The soldiers cheered for her wildly and shouted, 'We’ll follow—we’ll follow—we won’t break faith,' and I felt so proud knowing that my dear brother had written such a wonderful, stirring piece. Then I looked at the khaki ranks and wondered if those tall guys in uniform could really be the boys I’ve laughed with, played with, danced with, and teased all my life. Something seems to have changed them and set them apart. They have heard the Piper’s call.
"Fred Arnold was in the battalion and I felt dreadfully about him, for I realized that it was because of me that he was going away with such a sorrowful expression. I couldn't help it but I felt as badly as if I could.
"Fred Arnold was in the battalion, and I felt terrible about him because I realized it was my fault that he was leaving with such a sad expression. I couldn't help it, but I felt just as bad as if I could."
"The last evening of his leave Fred came up to Ingleside and told me he loved me and asked me if I would promise to marry him some day, if he ever came back. He was desperately in earnest and I felt more wretched than I ever did in my life. I couldn't promise him that—why, even if there was no question of Ken, I don't care for Fred that way and never could—but it seemed so cruel and heartless to send him away to the front without any hope of comfort. I cried like a baby; and yet—oh, I am afraid that there must be something incurably frivolous about me, because, right in the middle of it all, with me crying and Fred looking so wild and tragic, the thought popped into my head that it would be an unendurable thing to see that nose across from me at the breakfast table every morning of my life. There, that is one of the entries I wouldn't want my descendants to read in this journal. But it is the humiliating truth; and perhaps it's just as well that thought did come or I might have been tricked by pity and remorse into giving him some rash assurance. If Fred's nose were as handsome as his eyes and mouth some such thing might have happened. And then what an unthinkable predicament I should have been in!
The last night of his leave, Fred came over to Ingleside and told me he loved me. He asked if I would promise to marry him someday if he ever came back. He was so serious about it, and I felt more miserable than I ever had in my life. I couldn’t promise him that—honestly, even if there were no question of Ken, I don’t have feelings for Fred that way and never could—but it felt so cruel and heartless to send him off to the front without any hope for comfort. I cried like a baby; yet—oh, I’m afraid there must be something hopelessly shallow about me because, right in the middle of all that, with me sobbing and Fred looking so frantic and tragic, the thought popped into my head that it would be unbearable to see that nose across from me at the breakfast table every morning for the rest of my life. There, that’s one of the entries I wouldn’t want my descendants to read in this journal. But it’s the humiliating truth; and maybe it’s just as well that thought crossed my mind or I might have been fooled by pity and guilt into giving him some hasty promise. If Fred's nose had been as good-looking as his eyes and mouth, I might have done something like that. And then what an unimaginable situation I would have been in!
"When poor Fred became convinced that I couldn't promise him, he behaved beautifully—though that rather made things worse. If he had been nasty about it I wouldn't have felt so heartbroken and remorseful—though why I should feel remorseful I don't know, for I never encouraged Fred to think I cared a bit about him. Yet feel remorseful I did—and do. If Fred Arnold never comes back from overseas, this will haunt me all my life.
"When poor Fred became convinced that I couldn't promise him anything, he acted so nicely—though that just made things harder. If he had been rude about it, I wouldn't have felt so crushed and guilty—though I don't know why I should feel guilty since I never gave Fred any reason to think I cared about him at all. Still, I do feel guilty—and I still do. If Fred Arnold never comes back from overseas, this will bother me for the rest of my life."
"Then Fred said if he couldn't take my love with him to the trenches at least he wanted to feel that he had my friendship, and would I kiss him just once in good-bye before he went—perhaps for ever?
"Then Fred said that if he couldn't take my love with him to the trenches, at least he wanted to feel that he had my friendship. Would I kiss him just once in goodbye before he left—maybe forever?"
"I don't know how I could ever had imagined that love affairs were delightful, interesting things. They are horrible. I couldn't even give poor heartbroken Fred one little kiss, because of my promise to Ken. It seemed so brutal. I had to tell Fred that of course he would have my friendship, but that I couldn't kiss him because I had promised somebody else I wouldn't.
"I don't know how I ever thought that love affairs were enjoyable or exciting. They're awful. I couldn't even give poor heartbroken Fred a tiny kiss because I promised Ken I wouldn't. It felt so harsh. I had to tell Fred that he would always have my friendship, but I couldn't kiss him because I promised someone else I wouldn't."
"He said, 'It is—is it—Ken Ford?'
"He asked, 'Is it—Ken Ford?'"
"I nodded. It seemed dreadful to have to tell it—it was such a sacred little secret just between me and Ken.
I nodded. It felt terrible to have to share it—it was such a precious little secret just between me and Ken.
"When Fred went away I came up here to my room and cried so long and so bitterly that mother came up and insisted on knowing what was the matter. I told her. She listened to my tale with an expression that clearly said, 'Can it be possible that anyone has been wanting to marry this baby?' But she was so nice and understanding and sympathetic, oh, just so race-of-Josephy—that I felt indescribably comforted. Mothers are the dearest things.
"When Fred left, I came up to my room and cried for so long and so hard that my mom came up and insisted on knowing what was wrong. I told her. She listened to my story with a look that clearly said, 'Can it really be that someone wanted to marry this kid?' But she was so nice, understanding, and sympathetic, oh, just so much like a true mother—that I felt incredibly comforted. Moms are the sweetest."
"'But oh, mother,' I sobbed, 'he wanted me to kiss him good-bye—and I couldn't—and that hurt me worse than all the rest.'
"'But oh, Mom,' I sobbed, 'he wanted me to kiss him goodbye—and I couldn't—and that hurt me more than everything else.'"
"'Well, why didn't you kiss him?' asked mother coolly. 'Considering the circumstances, I think you might have.'
"'Well, why didn't you kiss him?' asked Mom coolly. 'Given the situation, I think you should have.'
"'But I couldn't, mother—I promised Ken when he went away that I wouldn't kiss anybody else until he came back.'
"'But I couldn’t, Mom—I promised Ken when he left that I wouldn’t kiss anyone else until he comes back.'"
"This was another high explosive for poor mother. She exclaimed, with the queerest little catch in her voice, 'Rilla, are you engaged to Kenneth Ford?'
"This was another shock for poor mom. She exclaimed, with the strangest little catch in her voice, 'Rilla, are you engaged to Kenneth Ford?'"
"'I—don't—know,' I sobbed.
"I don't know," I sobbed.
"'You—don't—know?' repeated mother.
"You don't know?" repeated mom.
"Then I had to tell her the whole story, too; and every time I tell it it seems sillier and sillier to imagine that Ken meant anything serious. I felt idiotic and ashamed by the time I got through.
"Then I had to share the whole story with her, too; and every time I do, it seems more and more ridiculous to think that Ken was serious about anything. I felt stupid and embarrassed by the time I finished."
"Mother sat a little while in silence. Then she came over, sat down beside me, and took me in her arms.
"Mom sat quietly for a bit. Then she came over, sat down next to me, and hugged me."
"'Don't cry, dear little Rilla-my-Rilla. You have nothing to reproach yourself with in regard to Fred; and if Leslie West's son asked you to keep your lips for him, I think you may consider yourself engaged to him. But—oh, my baby—my last little baby—I have lost you—the war has made a woman of you too soon.'
"'Don't cry, my dear little Rilla-my-Rilla. You have nothing to feel guilty about when it comes to Fred; and if Leslie West's son asked you to save your kisses for him, I think you can consider yourself engaged to him. But—oh, my baby—my last little baby—I have lost you—the war has made a woman of you too soon.'"
"I shall never be too much of a woman to find comfort in mother's hugs. Nevertheless, when I saw Fred marching by two days later in the parade, my heart ached unbearably.
"I will never be too much of a woman to find comfort in my mother's hugs. However, when I saw Fred marching by two days later in the parade, my heart ached unbearably."
"But I'm glad mother thinks I'm really engaged to Ken!"
"But I'm happy that Mom thinks I'm actually engaged to Ken!"
CHAPTER XXII
LITTLE DOG MONDAY KNOWS
"It is two years tonight since the dance at the light, when Jack Elliott brought us news of the war. Do you remember, Miss Oliver?"
"It’s been two years tonight since the dance at the light when Jack Elliott told us about the war. Do you remember, Miss Oliver?"
Cousin Sophia answered for Miss Oliver. "Oh, indeed, Rilla, I remember that evening only too well, and you a-prancing down here to show off your party clothes. Didn't I warn you that we could not tell what was before us? Little did you think that night what was before you."
Cousin Sophia answered for Miss Oliver. "Oh, I definitely remember that evening, Rilla, and you coming down here to show off your party dress. Didn't I tell you we couldn’t predict what was ahead? You had no idea that night what was coming your way."
"Little did any of us think that," said Susan sharply, "not being gifted with the power of prophecy. It does not require any great foresight, Sophia Crawford, to tell a body that she will have some trouble before her life is over. I could do as much myself."
"None of us ever thought that," Susan said sharply, "not having the gift of prophecy. It doesn't take much insight, Sophia Crawford, to say that someone will face some trouble before their life is over. I could do that myself."
"We all thought the war would be over in a few months then," said Rilla wistfully. "When I look back it seems so ridiculous that we ever could have supposed it."
"We all thought the war would be over in a few months back then," Rilla said with a hint of nostalgia. "When I look back, it seems so silly that we ever believed it."
"And now, two years later, it is no nearer the end than it was then," said Miss Oliver gloomily.
"And now, two years later, it's no closer to the end than it was back then," said Miss Oliver gloomily.
Susan clicked her knitting-needles briskly.
Susan clicked her knitting needles quickly.
"Now, Miss Oliver, dear, you know that is not a reasonable remark. You know we are just two years nearer the end, whenever the end is appointed to be."
"Now, Miss Oliver, you know that's not a sensible comment. We are just two years closer to the end, whenever that may be."
"Albert read in a Montreal paper today that a war expert gives it as his opinion that it will last five years more," was Cousin Sophia's cheerful contribution.
"Albert read in a Montreal paper today that a war expert believes it will last five more years," was Cousin Sophia's cheerful contribution.
"It can't," cried Rilla; then she added with a sigh, "Two years ago we would have said 'It can't last two years.' But five more years of this!"
"It can't," Rilla exclaimed; then she added with a sigh, "Two years ago we would have said, 'It can't last two years.' But five more years of this!"
"If Rumania comes in, as I have strong hopes now of her doing, you will see the end in five months instead of five years," said Susan.
"If Romania joins in, as I really hope she will, you'll see the end in five months instead of five years," said Susan.
"I've no faith in furriners," sighed Cousin Sophia.
"I have no trust in foreigners," sighed Cousin Sophia.
"The French are foreigners," retorted Susan, "and look at Verdun. And think of all the Somme victories this blessed summer. The Big Push is on and the Russians are still going well. Why, General Haig says that the German officers he has captured admit that they have lost the war."
"The French are outsiders," Susan shot back, "and just look at Verdun. And think about all the victories at the Somme this amazing summer. The Big Push is happening, and the Russians are still doing great. I mean, General Haig says that the German officers he’s captured admit they’ve lost the war."
"You can't believe a word the Germans say," protested Cousin Sophia. "There is no sense in believing a thing just because you'd like to believe it, Susan Baker. The British have lost millions of men at the Somme and how far have they got? Look facts in the face, Susan Baker, look facts in the face."
"You can't trust anything the Germans say," Cousin Sophia insisted. "It doesn't make sense to believe something just because you want to, Susan Baker. The British have lost millions of men at the Somme, and where has that got them? Face the facts, Susan Baker, face the facts."
"They are wearing the Germans out and so long as that happens it does not matter whether it is done a few miles east or a few miles west. I am not," admitted Susan in tremendous humility, "I am not a military expert, Sophia Crawford, but even I can see that, and so could you if you were not determined to take a gloomy view of everything. The Huns have not got all the cleverness in the world. Have you not heard the story of Alistair MacCallum's son Roderick, from the Upper Glen? He is a prisoner in Germany and his mother got a letter from him last week. He wrote that he was being very kindly treated and that all the prisoners had plenty of food and so on, till you would have supposed everything was lovely. But when he signed his name, right in between Roderick and MacCallum, he wrote two Gaelic words that meant 'all lies' and the German censor did not understand Gaelic and thought it was all part of Roddy's name. So he let it pass, never dreaming how he was diddled. Well, I am going to leave the war to Haig for the rest of the day and make a frosting for my chocolate cake. And when it is made I shall put it on the top shelf. The last one I made I left it on the lower shelf and little Kitchener sneaked in and clawed all the icing off and ate it. We had company for tea that night and when I went to get my cake what a sight did I behold!"
"They are wearing the Germans down, and as long as that’s happening, it doesn’t matter if it’s a few miles east or a few miles west. I’m not," admitted Susan with great humility, "I’m not a military expert, Sophia Crawford, but even I can see that, and you could too if you weren’t so determined to see everything in a negative light. The Huns don’t have all the smarts in the world. Haven’t you heard the story about Alistair MacCallum’s son Roderick from the Upper Glen? He’s a prisoner in Germany, and his mother got a letter from him last week. He wrote that he was being treated very kindly, and that all the prisoners had plenty of food and so on, making it seem like everything was great. But when he signed his name, right between Roderick and MacCallum, he wrote two Gaelic words that meant ‘all lies,’ and the German censor didn’t know Gaelic and thought it was just part of Roddy’s name. So he let it go, never realizing how he was played. Anyway, I’m going to leave the war to Haig for the rest of the day and make frosting for my chocolate cake. Once it’s done, I’ll put it on the top shelf. The last time I made frosting, I left it on the lower shelf, and little Kitchener sneaked in and took all the icing off and ate it. We had company for tea that night, and when I went to get my cake, what a sight I found!"
"Has that pore orphan's father never been heerd from yet?" asked Cousin Sophia.
"Has that poor orphan's father never been heard from yet?" asked Cousin Sophia.
"Yes, I had a letter from him in July," said Rilla. "He said that when he got word of his wife's death and of my taking the baby—Mr. Meredith wrote him, you know—he wrote right away, but as he never got any answer he had begun to think his letter must have been lost."
"Yeah, I got a letter from him in July," Rilla said. "He mentioned that when he found out about his wife's death and that I was taking the baby—Mr. Meredith told him, you know—he wrote back immediately, but since he never got a response, he started to think his letter must have gotten lost."
"It took him two years to begin to think it," said Susan scornfully. "Some people think very slow. Jim Anderson has not got a scratch, for all he has been two years in the trenches. A fool for luck, as the old proverb says."
"It took him two years to start thinking that," Susan said with disdain. "Some people are really slow to catch on. Jim Anderson hasn't gotten a single scratch, even after spending two years in the trenches. Just lucky, like the old saying goes."
"He wrote very nicely about Jims and said he'd like to see him," said Rilla. "So I wrote and told him all about the wee man, and sent him snapshots. Jims will be two years old next week and he is a perfect duck."
"He wrote really well about Jims and mentioned he’d like to meet him," Rilla said. "So I wrote back and told him all about the little guy, and sent him some photos. Jims will be two years old next week and he’s absolutely adorable."
"You didn't used to be very fond of babies," said Cousin Sophia.
"You weren't really into babies before," said Cousin Sophia.
"I'm not a bit fonder of babies in the abstract than ever I was," said Rilla, frankly. "But I do love Jims, and I'm afraid I wasn't really half as glad as I should have been when Jim Anderson's letter proved that he was safe and sound."
"I'm not any more fond of babies in general than I ever was," Rilla admitted. "But I really care about Jims, and honestly, I wasn't as happy as I should have been when Jim Anderson's letter confirmed that he was safe and sound."
"You wasn't hoping the man would be killed!" cried Cousin Sophia in horrified accents.
"You weren't hoping the man would be killed!" cried Cousin Sophia in horrified tones.
"No—no—no! I just hoped he would go on forgetting about Jims, Mrs. Crawford."
"No—no—no! I just hoped he would keep forgetting about Jims, Mrs. Crawford."
"And then your pa would have the expense of raising him," said Cousin Sophia reprovingly. "You young creeturs are terrible thoughtless."
"And then your dad would have to deal with the cost of raising him," said Cousin Sophia, disapprovingly. "You young kids are so thoughtless."
Jims himself ran in at this juncture, so rosy and curly and kissable, that he extorted a qualified compliment even from Cousin Sophia.
Jims ran in at this point, so rosy and curly and kissable, that he earned a reluctant compliment even from Cousin Sophia.
"He's a reel healthy-looking child now, though mebbee his colour is a mite too high—sorter consumptive looking, as you might say. I never thought you'd raise him when I saw him the day after you brung him home. I reely did not think it was in you and I told Albert's wife so when I got home. Albert's wife says, says she, 'There's more in Rilla Blythe than you'd think for, Aunt Sophia.' Them was her very words. 'More in Rilla Blythe than you'd think for.' Albert's wife always had a good opinion of you."
"He's a really healthy-looking kid now, although maybe his color is just a bit too high—kind of sickly-looking, if you know what I mean. I honestly didn't think you could raise him when I saw him the day after you brought him home. I really didn't believe it was in you, and I told Albert's wife so when I got home. Albert's wife said, 'There's more to Rilla Blythe than you think, Aunt Sophia.' Those were her exact words. Albert's wife always thought highly of you."
Cousin Sophia sighed, as if to imply that Albert's wife stood alone in this against the world. But Cousin Sophia really did not mean that. She was quite fond of Rilla in her own melancholy way; but young creeturs had to be kept down. If they were not kept down society would be demoralized.
Cousin Sophia sighed, as if to suggest that Albert's wife was somehow isolated in this struggle against the world. But Cousin Sophia didn’t truly mean that. She actually had a bit of affection for Rilla in her own sad way; however, young people needed to be kept in check. If they weren’t kept in check, society would fall apart.
"Do you remember your walk home from the light two years ago tonight?" whispered Gertrude Oliver to Rilla, teasingly.
"Do you remember your walk home from the light two years ago tonight?" whispered Gertrude Oliver to Rilla, playfully.
"I should think I do," smiled Rilla; and then her smile grew dreamy and absent; she was remembering something else—that hour with Kenneth on the sandshore. Where would Ken be tonight? And Jem and Jerry and Walter and all the other boys who had danced and moonlighted on the old Four Winds Point that evening of mirth and laughter—their last joyous unclouded evening. In the filthy trenches of the Somme front, with the roar of the guns and the groans of stricken men for the music of Ned Burr's violin, and the flash of star shells for the silver sparkles on the old blue gulf. Two of them were sleeping under the Flanders poppies—Alec Burr from the Upper Glen, and Clark Manley of Lowbridge. Others were wounded in the hospitals. But so far nothing had touched the manse and the Ingleside boys. They seemed to bear charmed lives. Yet the suspense never grew any easier to bear as the weeks and months of war went by.
"I think I do," smiled Rilla; then her smile turned dreamy and distant as she recalled that hour with Kenneth on the beach. Where would Ken be tonight? And Jem and Jerry and Walter and all the other boys who had danced and enjoyed the moonlight at old Four Winds Point during that last night of joy and laughter? In the dreadful trenches of the Somme, with the sound of gunfire and the cries of wounded men replacing Ned Burr's violin, and the flare of star shells standing in for the silver sparkles on the blue sea. Two of them were resting under the Flanders poppies—Alec Burr from the Upper Glen, and Clark Manley of Lowbridge. Others were injured in the hospitals. But so far, nothing had affected the manse and the Ingleside boys. They seemed to have charmed lives. Still, the uncertainty became harder to endure as the weeks and months of war dragged on.
"It isn't as if it were some sort of fever to which you might conclude they were immune when they hadn't taken it for two years," sighed Rilla. "The danger is just as great and just as real as it was the first day they went into the trenches. I know this, and it tortures me every day. And yet I can't help hoping that since they've come this far unhurt they'll come through. Oh, Miss Oliver, what would it be like not to wake up in the morning feeling afraid of the news the day would bring? I can't picture such a state of things somehow. And two years ago this morning I woke wondering what delightful gift the new day would give me. These are the two years I thought would be filled with fun."
"It’s not like it’s some kind of illness that they might be immune to just because they haven’t faced it in two years," Rilla sighed. "The danger is just as real and significant as it was the first day they went into the trenches. I know this, and it torments me every day. Still, I can’t help hoping that since they’ve made it this far unscathed, they will come through. Oh, Miss Oliver, what would it be like not to wake up every morning afraid of the news the day might bring? I just can’t imagine such a situation. And two years ago today, I woke up wondering what wonderful surprise the new day would bring me. These are the two years I thought would be filled with joy."
"Would you exchange them—now—for two years filled with fun?"
"Would you trade them—right now—for two years of fun?"
"No," said Rilla slowly. "I wouldn't. It's strange—isn't it?—They have been two terrible years—and yet I have a queer feeling of thankfulness for them—as if they had brought me something very precious, with all their pain. I wouldn't want to go back and be the girl I was two years ago, not even if I could. Not that I think I've made any wonderful progress—but I'm not quite the selfish, frivolous little doll I was then. I suppose I had a soul then, Miss Oliver—but I didn't know it. I know it now—and that is worth a great deal—worth all the suffering of the past two years. And still"—Rilla gave a little apologetic laugh, "I don't want to suffer any more—not even for the sake of more soul growth. At the end of two more years I might look back and be thankful for the development they had brought me, too; but I don't want it now."
"No," Rilla said slowly. "I wouldn't. It's strange, isn't it? They have been two awful years—and yet I feel a weird sense of gratitude for them—as if they've given me something really valuable, despite all the pain. I wouldn’t want to go back and be the girl I was two years ago, not even if I could. It’s not that I think I've made any amazing progress—but I'm not the selfish, shallow little doll I was back then. I guess I had a soul then, Miss Oliver—but I didn’t realize it. I know it now—and that's worth a lot—worth all the suffering of the past two years. And still"—Rilla gave a small apologetic laugh—"I don’t want to suffer anymore—not even for the sake of growing my soul. In another two years, I might look back and be thankful for the growth they brought me, too; but I don’t want that right now."
"We never do," said Miss Oliver. "That is why we are not left to choose our own means and measure of development, I suppose. No matter how much we value what our lessons have brought us we don't want to go on with the bitter schooling. Well, let us hope for the best, as Susan says; things are really going well now and if Rumania lines up, the end may come with a suddenness that will surprise us all."
"We never do," said Miss Oliver. "That’s why we’re not allowed to choose our own ways and pace of development, I guess. No matter how much we appreciate what our lessons have taught us, we don’t want to continue with the harsh learning process. Well, let’s hope for the best, as Susan says; things are really looking up now, and if Rumania gets on board, the end could come so suddenly that it would surprise all of us."
Rumania did come in—and Susan remarked approvingly that its king and queen were the finest looking royal couple she had seen pictures of. So the summer passed away. Early in September word came that the Canadians had been shifted to the Somme front and anxiety grew tenser and deeper. For the first time Mrs. Blythe's spirit failed her a little, and as the days of suspense wore on the doctor began to look gravely at her, and veto this or that special effort in Red Cross work.
Rumania did join in—and Susan commented positively that its king and queen were the best-looking royal couple she had seen in pictures. So the summer went by. Early in September, news came that the Canadians had been moved to the Somme front, and anxiety increased significantly. For the first time, Mrs. Blythe felt her spirit falter a bit, and as the days of uncertainty dragged on, the doctor started to regard her seriously and discourage certain efforts in Red Cross work.
"Oh, let me work—let me work, Gilbert," she entreated feverishly. "While I'm working I don't think so much. If I'm idle I imagine everything—rest is only torture for me. My two boys are on the frightful Somme front—and Shirley pores day and night over aviation literature and says nothing. But I see the purpose growing in his eyes. No, I cannot rest—don't ask it of me, Gilbert."
"Oh, please let me work—let me work, Gilbert," she pleaded anxiously. "When I'm busy, I don't think as much. If I'm just sitting around, my mind goes wild—rest is just torture for me. My two boys are on the awful Somme front—and Shirley spends all day and night reading aviation stuff and says nothing. But I can see the determination growing in his eyes. No, I can't rest—don't ask that of me, Gilbert."
But the doctor was inexorable.
But the doctor was unyielding.
"I can't let you kill yourself, Anne-girl," he said. "When the boys come back I want a mother here to welcome them. Why, you're getting transparent. It won't do—ask Susan there if it will do."
"I can't let you hurt yourself, Anne-girl," he said. "When the boys come back, I want a mom here to greet them. Honestly, you're becoming transparent. That won't work—ask Susan there if it will."
"Oh, if Susan and you are both banded together against me!" said Anne helplessly.
"Oh, if you and Susan are both teaming up against me!" said Anne helplessly.
One day the glorious news came that the Canadians had taken Courcelette and Martenpuich, with many prisoners and guns. Susan ran up the flag and said it was plain to be seen that Haig knew what soldiers to pick for a hard job. The others dared not feel exultant. Who knew what price had been paid?
One day, the amazing news came that the Canadians had captured Courcelette and Martenpuich, along with many prisoners and weapons. Susan raised the flag and said it was clear that Haig knew which soldiers to choose for a tough job. The others didn't dare celebrate. Who knew what price had been paid?
Rilla woke that morning when the dawn was beginning to break and went to her window to look out, her thick creamy eyelids heavy with sleep. Just at dawn the world looks as it never looks at any other time. The air was cold with dew and the orchard and grove and Rainbow Valley were full of mystery and wonder. Over the eastern hill were golden deeps and silvery-pink shallows. There was no wind, and Rilla heard distinctly a dog howling in a melancholy way down in the direction of the station. Was it Dog Monday? And if it were, why was he howling like that? Rilla shivered; the sound had something boding and grievous in it. She remembered that Miss Oliver said once, when they were coming home in the darkness and heard a dog howl, "When a dog cries like that the Angel of Death is passing." Rilla listened with a curdling fear at her heart. It was Dog Monday—she felt sure of it. Whose dirge was he howling—to whose spirit was he sending that anguished greeting and farewell?
Rilla woke up that morning as dawn was starting to break and went to her window to look outside, her heavy eyelids still crusted with sleep. Just at dawn, the world looks unlike it does at any other time. The air was chilly with dew, and the orchard, grove, and Rainbow Valley were filled with mystery and wonder. Over the eastern hill were deep golds and soft silvery-pinks. There was no wind, and Rilla distinctly heard a dog howling mournfully in the direction of the station. Was it Dog Monday? And if it was, why was he howling like that? Rilla shivered; the sound felt ominous and sorrowful. She remembered that Miss Oliver once said, while they were coming home in the dark and heard a dog howl, "When a dog cries like that, the Angel of Death is passing." Rilla listened, her heart pounding with fear. It was Dog Monday—she was sure of it. Whose funeral dirge was he howling—whose spirit was he sending that agonized greeting and farewell to?
Rilla went back to bed but she could not sleep. All day she watched and waited in a dread of which she did not speak to anyone. She went down to see Dog Monday and the station-master said, "That dog of yours howled from midnight to sunrise something weird. I dunno what got into him. I got up once and went out and hollered at him but he paid no 'tention to me. He was sitting all alone in the moonlight out there at the end of the platform, and every few minutes the poor lonely little beggar'd lift his nose and howl as if his heart was breaking. He never did it afore—always slept in his kennel real quiet and canny from train to train. But he sure had something on his mind last night."
Rilla went back to bed, but she couldn't sleep. All day she watched and waited in a fear she didn't share with anyone. She went to see Dog Monday, and the station-master said, "That dog of yours howled from midnight to sunrise like something weird. I don't know what got into him. I got up once and went outside to yell at him, but he didn't pay any attention to me. He was sitting all alone in the moonlight at the end of the platform, and every few minutes the poor lonely little guy would lift his nose and howl as if his heart was breaking. He never did that before—always slept in his kennel really quiet and calm between trains. But he sure had something weighing on his mind last night."
Dog Monday was lying in his kennel. He wagged his tail and licked Rilla's hand. But he would not touch the food she brought for him.
Dog Monday was lying in his kennel. He wagged his tail and licked Rilla's hand. But he wouldn’t eat the food she brought for him.
"I'm afraid he's sick," she said anxiously. She hated to go away and leave him. But no bad news came that day—nor the next—nor the next. Rilla's fear lifted. Dog Monday howled no more and resumed his routine of train meeting and watching. When five days had passed the Ingleside people began to feel that they might be cheerful again. Rilla dashed about the kitchen helping Susan with the breakfast and singing so sweetly and clearly that Cousin Sophia across the road heard her and croaked out to Mrs. Albert,
"I'm worried he's sick," she said anxiously. She hated to leave him behind. But no bad news came that day—or the next—or the one after that. Rilla's anxiety faded. Dog Monday stopped howling and went back to his usual routine of greeting trains and keeping watch. After five days, the Ingleside folks started to feel like they could be happy again. Rilla dashed around the kitchen, helping Susan with breakfast and singing so sweetly and clearly that Cousin Sophia across the road heard her and called out to Mrs. Albert,
"'Sing before eating, cry before sleeping,' I've always heard."
"'Sing before you eat, cry before you sleep,' I've always heard."
But Rilla Blythe shed no tears before the nightfall. When her father, his face grey and drawn and old, came to her that afternoon and told her that Walter had been killed in action at Courcelette she crumpled up in a pitiful little heap of merciful unconsciousness in his arms. Nor did she waken to her pain for many hours.
But Rilla Blythe didn’t cry before nightfall. When her father, looking grey, worn out, and old, came to her that afternoon and told her that Walter had been killed in action at Courcelette, she collapsed in a pitiful little heap of merciful unconsciousness in his arms. She didn’t wake to her pain for many hours.
CHAPTER XXIII
"AND SO, GOODNIGHT"
The fierce flame of agony had burned itself out and the grey dust of its ashes was over all the world. Rilla's younger life recovered physically sooner than her mother. For weeks Mrs. Blythe lay ill from grief and shock. Rilla found it was possible to go on with existence, since existence had still to be reckoned with. There was work to be done, for Susan could not do all. For her mother's sake she had to put on calmness and endurance as a garment in the day; but night after night she lay in her bed, weeping the bitter rebellious tears of youth until at last tears were all wept out and the little patient ache that was to be in her heart until she died took their place.
The intense pain had finally faded, leaving just a gray dust of its remnants across the world. Rilla's younger body recovered faster than her mother's. For weeks, Mrs. Blythe was sick from grief and shock. Rilla found she could keep going because life still had to be dealt with. There was work to do; Susan couldn’t manage everything alone. For her mother’s sake, she had to wear calmness and strength during the day, but night after night, she lay in bed, crying the angry, sorrowful tears of youth until eventually, she had no tears left. What remained was a small, constant ache in her heart that would stay with her for the rest of her life.
She clung to Miss Oliver, who knew what to say and what not to say. So few people did. Kind, well-meaning callers and comforters gave Rilla some terrible moments.
She held on to Miss Oliver, who knew what to say and what to avoid. So few people did. Kind, well-intentioned visitors and comforters put Rilla through some awful moments.
"You'll get over it in time," Mrs. William Reese said, cheerfully. Mrs. Reese had three stalwart sons, not one of whom had gone to the front.
"You'll get over it in time," Mrs. William Reese said with a smile. Mrs. Reese had three strong sons, none of whom had gone to the front.
"It's such a blessing it was Walter who was taken and not Jem," said Miss Sarah Clow. "Walter was a member of the church, and Jem wasn't. I've told Mr. Meredith many a time that he should have spoken seriously to Jem about it before he went away."
"It's such a blessing it was Walter who was taken and not Jem," said Miss Sarah Clow. "Walter was a member of the church, and Jem wasn't. I've told Mr. Meredith many times that he should have talked to Jem seriously about it before he left."
"Pore, pore Walter," sighed Mrs. Reese.
"Poor, poor Walter," sighed Mrs. Reese.
"Do not you come here calling him poor Walter," said Susan indignantly, appearing in the kitchen door, much to the relief of Rilla, who felt that she could endure no more just then. "He was not poor. He was richer than any of you. It is you who stay at home and will not let your sons go who are poor—poor and naked and mean and small—pisen poor, and so are your sons, with all their prosperous farms and fat cattle and their souls no bigger than a flea's—if as big."
"Don’t come here calling him poor Walter," Susan said angrily, appearing in the kitchen doorway, much to Rilla’s relief, as she felt she couldn’t take any more at that moment. "He wasn’t poor. He was richer than any of you. It’s you who stay at home and won’t let your sons go who are poor—poor and small-minded and mean—really poor, just like your sons, with all their successful farms and fat cattle and their souls no bigger than a flea’s—if that."
"I came here to comfort the afflicted and not to be insulted," said Mrs. Reese, taking her departure, unregretted by anyone. Then the fire went out of Susan and she retreated to her kitchen, laid her faithful old head on the table and wept bitterly for a time. Then she went to work and ironed Jims's little rompers. Rilla scolded her gently for it when she herself came in to do it.
"I came here to help those in need, not to be insulted," said Mrs. Reese as she left, without anyone regretting her departure. After that, Susan lost her spirit and went back to her kitchen, laying her faithful old head on the table and crying hard for a while. Then she got to work and ironed Jim's little rompers. Rilla gently scolded her for it when she came in to do it herself.
"I am not going to have you kill yourself working for any war-baby," Susan said obstinately.
"I’m not going to let you exhaust yourself working for any war-baby," Susan said firmly.
"Oh, I wish I could just keep on working all the time, Susan," cried poor Rilla. "And I wish I didn't have to go to sleep. It is hideous to go to sleep and forget it for a little while, and wake up and have it all rush over me anew the next morning. Do people ever get used to things like this, Susan? And oh, Susan, I can't get away from what Mrs. Reese said. Did Walter suffer much—he was always so sensitive to pain. Oh, Susan, if I knew that he didn't I think I could gather up a little courage and strength."
"Oh, I wish I could just keep working all the time, Susan," cried poor Rilla. "And I wish I didn't have to go to sleep. It’s terrible to go to sleep and forget for a bit, then wake up and have it all rush over me again the next morning. Do people ever get used to things like this, Susan? And oh, Susan, I can't stop thinking about what Mrs. Reese said. Did Walter suffer much—he was always so sensitive to pain. Oh, Susan, if I knew he didn’t, I think I could find a little courage and strength."
This merciful knowledge was given to Rilla. A letter came from Walter's commanding officer, telling them that he had been killed instantly by a bullet during a charge at Courcelette. The same day there was a letter for Rilla from Walter himself.
This compassionate news was given to Rilla. A letter arrived from Walter's commanding officer, informing them that he had been killed instantly by a bullet during a charge at Courcelette. On the same day, Rilla also received a letter from Walter himself.
Rilla carried it unopened to Rainbow Valley and read it there, in the spot where she had had her last talk with him. It is a strange thing to read a letter after the writer is dead—a bitter-sweet thing, in which pain and comfort are strangely mingled. For the first time since the blow had fallen Rilla felt—a different thing from tremulous hope and faith—that Walter, of the glorious gift and the splendid ideals, still lived, with just the same gift and just the same ideals. That could not be destroyed—these could suffer no eclipse. The personality that had expressed itself in that last letter, written on the eve of Courcelette, could not be snuffed out by a German bullet. It must carry on, though the earthly link with things of earth were broken.
Rilla took the letter unopened to Rainbow Valley and read it there, in the spot where she had last talked with him. It’s a strange experience to read a letter after the writer has died—a bittersweet thing, where pain and comfort are oddly mixed together. For the first time since the tragedy struck, Rilla felt—something different from shaky hope and faith—that Walter, with his wonderful gift and amazing ideals, still lived on, with the same gift and the same ideals. Those couldn’t be taken away—these could never fade. The personality that had come through in that last letter, written on the eve of Courcelette, couldn’t be extinguished by a German bullet. It had to continue, even though the earthly connection to the world was gone.
"We're going over the top tomorrow, Rilla-my-Rilla," wrote Walter. "I wrote mother and Di yesterday, but somehow I feel as if I must write you tonight. I hadn't intended to do any writing tonight—but I've got to. Do you remember old Mrs. Tom Crawford over-harbour, who was always saying that it was 'laid on her' to do such and such a thing? Well, that is just how I feel. It's 'laid on me' to write you tonight—you, sister and chum of mine. There are some things I want to say before—well, before tomorrow.
"We're going all out tomorrow, Rilla-my-Rilla," Walter wrote. "I wrote to Mom and Di yesterday, but for some reason, I feel like I need to write to you tonight. I didn't plan on writing tonight—but I have to. Do you remember old Mrs. Tom Crawford from across the harbor, who always said it was 'laid on her' to do this or that? Well, that's exactly how I feel. It's 'laid on me' to write to you tonight—you, my sister and friend. There are some things I want to say before—well, before tomorrow."
"You and Ingleside seem strangely near me tonight. It's the first time I've felt this since I came. Always home has seemed so far away—so hopelessly far away from this hideous welter of filth and blood. But tonight it is quite close to me—it seems to me I can almost see you—hear you speak. And I can see the moonlight shining white and still on the old hills of home. It has seemed to me ever since I came here that it was impossible that there could be calm gentle nights and unshattered moonlight anywhere in the world. But tonight somehow, all the beautiful things I have always loved seem to have become possible again—and this is good, and makes me feel a deep, certain, exquisite happiness. It must be autumn at home now—the harbour is a-dream and the old Glen hills blue with haze, and Rainbow Valley a haunt of delight with wild asters blowing all over it—our old "farewell-summers." I always liked that name better than 'aster'—it was a poem in itself.
"You and Ingleside feel surprisingly close to me tonight. This is the first time I've felt this way since I arrived. Home has always seemed so far away—so hopelessly distant from this ugly mess of filth and blood. But tonight it feels quite near—I almost think I can see you and hear you speak. I can picture the moonlight shining white and still on the old hills of home. Ever since I got here, it seemed impossible that there could be calm, peaceful nights and unbroken moonlight anywhere in the world. But tonight, somehow, all the beautiful things I've always loved seem possible again—and this brings me a deep, certain, exquisite happiness. It must be autumn at home now—the harbor is dreamy and the old Glen hills are blue with haze, and Rainbow Valley is a place of delight with wild asters blooming everywhere—our old "farewell-summers." I always liked that name better than 'aster'—it was a poem in itself."
"Rilla, you know I've always had premonitions. You remember the Pied Piper—but no, of course you wouldn't—you were too young. One evening long ago when Nan and Di and Jem and the Merediths and I were together in Rainbow Valley I had a queer vision or presentiment—whatever you like to call it. Rilla, I saw the Piper coming down the Valley with a shadowy host behind him. The others thought I was only pretending—but I saw him for just one moment. And Rilla, last night I saw him again. I was doing sentry-go and I saw him marching across No-man's-land from our trenches to the German trenches—the same tall shadowy form, piping weirdly—and behind him followed boys in khaki. Rilla, I tell you I saw him—it was no fancy—no illusion. I heard his music, and then—he was gone. But I had seen him—and I knew what it meant—I knew that I was among those who followed him.
"Rilla, you know I've always had a knack for sensing things. You remember the Pied Piper—but of course you wouldn't—you were too young. One evening a long time ago, when Nan, Di, Jem, the Merediths, and I were together in Rainbow Valley, I had a strange vision or feeling—whatever you want to call it. Rilla, I saw the Piper coming down the Valley with a shadowy crowd behind him. The others thought I was just pretending—but I saw him for a brief moment. And Rilla, I saw him again last night. I was on guard duty and saw him marching across No Man's Land from our trenches to the German trenches—the same tall, shadowy figure, playing a haunting tune—and behind him were boys in khaki. Rilla, I swear I saw him—it wasn't just in my head—no illusion. I heard his music, and then—he was gone. But I had seen him—and I knew what it meant—I understood that I was one of those who followed him."
"Rilla, the Piper will pipe me 'west' tomorrow. I feel sure of this. And Rilla, I'm not afraid. When you hear the news, remember that. I've won my own freedom here—freedom from all fear. I shall never be afraid of anything again—not of death—nor of life, if after all, I am to go on living. And life, I think, would be the harder of the two to face—for it could never be beautiful for me again. There would always be such horrible things to remember—things that would make life ugly and painful always for me. I could never forget them. But whether it's life or death, I'm not afraid, Rilla-my-Rilla, and I am not sorry that I came. I'm satisfied. I'll never write the poems I once dreamed of writing—but I've helped to make Canada safe for the poets of the future—for the workers of the future—ay, and the dreamers, too—for if no man dreams, there will be nothing for the workers to fulfil—the future, not of Canada only but of the world—when the 'red rain' of Langemarck and Verdun shall have brought forth a golden harvest—not in a year or two, as some foolishly think, but a generation later, when the seed sown now shall have had time to germinate and grow. Yes, I'm glad I came, Rilla. It isn't only the fate of the little sea-born island I love that is in the balance—nor of Canada nor of England. It's the fate of mankind. That is what we're fighting for. And we shall win—never for a moment doubt that, Rilla. For it isn't only the living who are fighting—the dead are fighting too. Such an army cannot be defeated.
"Rilla, the Piper will send me off tomorrow. I’m sure of it. And Rilla, I’m not scared. When you hear the news, remember that. I’ve earned my freedom here—freedom from all fear. I’ll never be afraid of anything again—not of death—nor of life, if I’m meant to keep living. And honestly, life would probably be harder to face again, because it could never be beautiful for me anymore. There would always be terrible things to remember—things that would make life ugly and painful for me. I could never forget them. But whether it’s life or death, I’m not afraid, Rilla-my-Rilla, and I have no regrets about coming here. I’m satisfied. I’ll never write the poems I once dreamed of writing—but I’ve helped make Canada safe for the poets of the future—for the workers of the future—yes, and the dreamers too—because if no one dreams, there will be nothing for the workers to accomplish—the future, not just of Canada but of the world—when the 'red rain' of Langemarck and Verdun will have produced a golden harvest—not in a year or two, as some naively think, but a generation later, when the seeds sown now will have had time to grow. Yes, I’m glad I came, Rilla. It’s not just the fate of the little sea-born island I love that’s at stake—nor of Canada nor of England. It’s the fate of mankind. That’s what we’re fighting for. And we will win—never doubt that for a moment, Rilla. Because it’s not just the living who are fighting—the dead are fighting too. Such an army cannot be defeated."
"Is there laughter in your face yet, Rilla? I hope so. The world will need laughter and courage more than ever in the years that will come next. I don't want to preach—this isn't any time for it. But I just want to say something that may help you over the worst when you hear that I've gone 'west.' I've a premonition about you, Rilla, as well as about myself. I think Ken will go back to you—and that there are long years of happiness for you by-and-by. And you will tell your children of the Idea we fought and died for—teach them it must be lived for as well as died for, else the price paid for it will have been given for nought. This will be part of your work, Rilla. And if you—all you girls back in the homeland—do it, then we who don't come back will know that you have not 'broken faith' with us.
"Is there laughter on your face yet, Rilla? I hope so. The world will need laughter and courage more than ever in the years ahead. I don't want to preach—this isn't the right time for that. But I just want to say something that may help you through the worst when you hear that I've gone 'west.' I have a feeling about you, Rilla, just like I do about myself. I think Ken will come back to you—and that there are years of happiness ahead for you. You'll tell your children about the cause we fought and died for—teach them that it needs to be lived for as well as died for, or else the sacrifices will have been for nothing. This will be part of your role, Rilla. And if you—all you girls back home—do this, then we who don't come back will know that you haven't 'broken faith' with us."
"I meant to write to Una tonight, too, but I won't have time now. Read this letter to her and tell her it's really meant for you both—you two dear, fine loyal girls. Tomorrow, when we go over the top—I'll think of you both—of your laughter, Rilla-my-Rilla, and the steadfastness in Una's blue eyes—somehow I see those eyes very plainly tonight, too. Yes, you'll both keep faith—I'm sure of that—you and Una. And so—goodnight. We go over the top at dawn."
"I wanted to write to Una tonight, too, but I don't have time now. Please read this letter to her and let her know it's really meant for both of you—my two dear, loyal girls. Tomorrow, when we go into battle—I'll be thinking of you both—of your laughter, Rilla-my-Rilla, and the strength in Una's blue eyes—I can see those eyes clearly tonight, too. Yes, I know you both will stay strong—I'm sure of it—you and Una. So—goodnight. We go into battle at dawn."
Rilla read her letter over many times. There was a new light on her pale young face when she finally stood up, amid the asters Walter had loved, with the sunshine of autumn around her. For the moment at least, she was lifted above pain and loneliness.
Rilla read her letter several times. A new light shone on her pale young face when she finally stood up, surrounded by the asters Walter had loved, with the autumn sunshine all around her. For that moment, at least, she felt lifted above pain and loneliness.
"I will keep faith, Walter," she said steadily. "I will work—and teach—and learn—and laugh, yes, I will even laugh—through all my years, because of you and because of what you gave when you followed the call."
"I'll stay true to my word, Walter," she said firmly. "I will work—and teach—and learn—and laugh, yes, I will even laugh—throughout all my years, because of you and because of what you gave when you answered the call."
Rilla meant to keep Walter's letter as a a sacred treasure. But, seeing the look on Una Meredith's face when Una had read it and held it back to her, she thought of something. Could she do it? Oh, no, she could not give up Walter's letter—his last letter. Surely it was not selfishness to keep it. A copy would be such a soulless thing. But Una—Una had so little—and her eyes were the eyes of a woman stricken to the heart, who yet must not cry out or ask for sympathy.
Rilla planned to keep Walter's letter as a precious keepsake. But when she saw the expression on Una Meredith's face after reading it and handing it back, she had a thought. Could she really do it? No, she couldn't let go of Walter's letter—his final letter. It couldn't be selfish to hold onto it. A copy would feel so empty. But Una—Una had so little—and her eyes looked like those of a woman deeply hurt, who still couldn't cry out or ask for pity.
"Una, would you like to have this letter—to keep?" she asked slowly.
"Una, would you like to keep this letter?" she asked slowly.
"Yes—if you can give it to me," Una said dully.
"Sure—if you can give it to me," Una said flatly.
"Then—you may have it," said Rilla hurriedly.
"Then—you can have it," Rilla said quickly.
"Thank you," said Una. It was all she said, but there was something in her voice which repaid Rilla for her bit of sacrifice.
"Thank you," said Una. That was all she said, but there was something in her voice that made Rilla feel that her small sacrifice was worth it.
Una took the letter and when Rilla had gone she pressed it against her lonely lips. Una knew that love would never come into her life now—it was buried for ever under the blood-stained soil "Somewhere in France." No one but herself—and perhaps Rilla—knew it—would ever know it. She had no right in the eyes of her world to grieve. She must hide and bear her long pain as best she could—alone. But she, too, would keep faith.
Una took the letter, and when Rilla had left, she pressed it against her lonely lips. Una knew that love would never come into her life again—it was buried forever beneath the bloodstained soil "Somewhere in France." No one but her—and maybe Rilla—knew it, and no one else would ever know. She had no right, in the eyes of her world, to grieve. She had to hide and endure her long pain as best as she could—alone. But she would keep faith, too.
CHAPTER XXIV
MARY IS JUST IN TIME
The autumn of 1916 was a bitter season for Ingleside. Mrs. Blythe's return to health was slow, and sorrow and loneliness were in all hearts. Every one tried to hide it from the others and "carry on" cheerfully. Rilla laughed a good deal. Nobody at Ingleside was deceived by her laughter; it came from her lips only, never from her heart. But outsiders said some people got over trouble very easily, and Irene Howard remarked that she was surprised to find how shallow Rilla Blythe really was. "Why, after all her pose of being so devoted to Walter, she doesn't seem to mind his death at all. Nobody has ever seen her shed a tear or heard her mention his name. She has evidently quite forgotten him. Poor fellow—you'd really think his family would feel it more. I spoke of him to Rilla at the last Junior Red meeting—of how fine and brave and splendid he was—and I said life could never be just the same to me again, now that Walter had gone—we were such friends, you know—why I was the very first person he told about having enlisted—and Rilla answered, as coolly and indifferently as if she were speaking of an entire stranger, 'He was just one of many fine and splendid boys who have given everything for their country.' Well, I wish I could take things as calmly—but I'm not made like that. I'm so sensitive—things hurt me terribly—I really never get over them. I asked Rilla right out why she didn't put on mourning for Walter. She said her mother didn't wish it. But every one is talking about it."
The autumn of 1916 was a tough season for Ingleside. Mrs. Blythe was slowly recovering, and sorrow and loneliness filled everyone’s hearts. Everyone tried to hide it from each other and “carry on” cheerfully. Rilla laughed a lot. Nobody at Ingleside was fooled by her laughter; it was just a facade, never genuine. But outsiders said some people got over trouble pretty easily, and Irene Howard commented that she was surprised to discover how superficial Rilla Blythe really was. "Honestly, after all her show of being so devoted to Walter, she doesn’t seem to care about his death at all. Nobody has ever seen her cry or heard her mention his name. She has clearly forgotten him. Poor guy—you’d think his family would feel it more. I brought him up to Rilla at the last Junior Red meeting—talked about how fine, brave, and incredible he was—and I said life could never be the same without Walter—we were such good friends, remember—I was the very first person he told when he enlisted—and Rilla responded, as coolly and indifferently as if she were talking about a complete stranger, 'He was just one of many fine and brave boys who have given everything for their country.' Well, I wish I could be as calm as that—but I’m not wired that way. I’m really sensitive—things hurt me deeply—I never really get over them. I asked Rilla directly why she didn’t wear mourning for Walter. She said her mother didn’t want her to. But everyone is talking about it."
"Rilla doesn't wear colours—nothing but white," protested Betty Mead.
"Rilla doesn't wear colors—only white," complained Betty Mead.
"White becomes her better than anything else," said Irene significantly. "And we all know black doesn't suit her complexion at all. But of course I'm not saying that is the reason she doesn't wear it. Only, it's funny. If my brother had died I'd have gone into deep mourning. I wouldn't have had the heart for anything else. I confess I'm disappointed in Rilla Blythe."
"White looks better on her than anything else," Irene said meaningfully. "And we all know black doesn’t suit her complexion at all. But of course, I’m not saying that’s why she doesn’t wear it. Still, it’s funny. If my brother had died, I would have gone into deep mourning. I wouldn’t have had the heart for anything else. I admit I’m disappointed in Rilla Blythe."
"I am not, then," cried Betty Meade, loyally, "I think Rilla is just a wonderful girl. A few years ago I admit I did think she was rather too vain and gigglesome; but now she is nothing of the sort. I don't think there is a girl in the Glen who is so unselfish and plucky as Rilla, or who has done her bit as thoroughly and patiently. Our Junior Red Cross would have gone on the rocks a dozen times if it hadn't been for her tact and perseverance and enthusiasm—you know that perfectly well, Irene."
"I’m definitely not," Betty Meade exclaimed loyally. "I think Rilla is an amazing girl. A few years ago, I have to admit I thought she was a bit too vain and giggly, but now that's not the case at all. I don’t think there’s a girl in the Glen who is as selfless and brave as Rilla, or who has contributed as thoroughly and patiently. Our Junior Red Cross would have fallen apart a dozen times if it weren't for her skill, determination, and enthusiasm—you know that quite well, Irene."
"Why, I am not running Rilla down," said Irene, opening her eyes widely. "It was only her lack of feeling I was criticizing. I suppose she can't help it. Of course, she's a born manager—everyone knows that. She's very fond of managing, too—and people like that are very necessary I admit. So don't look at me as if I'd said something perfectly dreadful, Betty, please. I'm quite willing to agree that Rilla Blythe is the embodiment of all the virtues, if that will please you. And no doubt it is a virtue to be quite unmoved by things that would crush most people."
"Look, I’m not trashing Rilla," said Irene, widening her eyes. "I was just pointing out her lack of feeling. I guess she can't help it. Obviously, she's a natural manager—everyone knows that. She really enjoys managing, too—and people like her are definitely important, I admit. So please don’t look at me like I said something totally terrible, Betty. I'm totally fine with agreeing that Rilla Blythe represents all the virtues, if that makes you happy. And it’s probably a virtue to be completely unaffected by things that would break most people."
Some of Irene's remarks were reported to Rilla; but they did not hurt her as they would once have done. They didn't matter, that was all. Life was too big to leave room for pettiness. She had a pact to keep and a work to do; and through the long hard days and weeks of that disastrous autumn she was faithful to her task. The war news was consistently bad, for Germany marched from victory to victory over poor Rumania. "Foreigners—foreigners," Susan muttered dubiously. "Russians or Rumanians or whatever they may be, they are foreigners and you cannot tie to them. But after Verdun I shall not give up hope. And can you tell me, Mrs. Dr. dear, if the Dobruja is a river or a mountain range, or a condition of the atmosphere?"
Some of Irene's comments were shared with Rilla, but they didn't affect her like they would have in the past. They just didn’t matter. Life was too vast for small-mindedness. She had a promise to uphold and work to finish; and throughout the long, tough days and weeks of that terrible autumn, she remained committed to her duties. The war news was constantly grim, as Germany moved from one victory to another over poor Romania. "Foreigners—foreigners," Susan murmured skeptically. "Russians or Romanians or whatever they are, they are foreigners, and you can’t rely on them. But after Verdun, I won’t lose hope. And can you tell me, Mrs. Dr. dear, if Dobruja is a river or a mountain range, or just a weather condition?"
The Presidential election in the United States came off in November, and Susan was red-hot over that—and quite apologetic for her excitement.
The presidential election in the United States took place in November, and Susan was really fired up about it—and pretty sorry for her excitement.
"I never thought I would live to see the day when I would be interested in a Yankee election, Mrs. Dr. dear. It only goes to show we can never know what we will come to in this world, and therefore we should not be proud."
"I never thought I would live to see the day when I’d be interested in a Yankee election, Mrs. Dr. dear. It just shows that we can never know what we’ll experience in this world, and so we shouldn’t be proud."
Susan stayed up late on the evening of the eleventh, ostensibly to finish a pair of socks. But she 'phoned down to Carter Flagg's store at intervals, and when the first report came through that Hughes had been elected she stalked solemnly upstairs to Mrs. Blythe's room and announced it in a thrilling whisper from the foot of the bed.
Susan stayed up late on the night of the eleventh, supposedly to finish a pair of socks. But she called Carter Flagg's store periodically, and when the first report came in that Hughes had been elected, she quietly went upstairs to Mrs. Blythe's room and announced it in an excited whisper from the foot of the bed.
"I thought if you were not asleep you would be interested in knowing it. I believe it is for the best. Perhaps he will just fall to writing notes, too, Mrs. Dr. dear, but I hope for better things. I never was very partial to whiskers, but one cannot have everything."
"I thought if you were still awake you’d want to know. I think it's for the best. Maybe he'll start writing notes too, Mrs. Dr. dear, but I hope for better things. I was never really a fan of beards, but you can't have everything."
When news came in the morning that after all Wilson was re-elected, Susan tacked to catch another breeze of optimism.
When the news came in the morning that Wilson was re-elected after all, Susan adjusted her sails to catch another gust of optimism.
"Well, better a fool you know than a fool you do not know, as the old proverb has it," she remarked cheerfully. "Not that I hold Woodrow to be a fool by any means, though by times you would not think he has the sense he was born with. But he is a good letter writer at least, and we do not know if the Hughes man is even that. All things being considered I commend the Yankees. They have shown good sense and I do not mind admitting it. Cousin Sophia wanted them to elect Roosevelt, and is much disgruntled because they would not give him a chance. I had a hankering for him myself, but we must believe that Providence over-rules these matters and be satisfied—though what the Almighty means in this affair of Rumania I cannot fathom—saying it with all reverence."
"Well, it's better to deal with a fool you know than a fool you don’t, as the saying goes," she said cheerfully. "Not that I think Woodrow is a fool by any means, though sometimes you wouldn't believe he has any common sense at all. But at least he’s a good letter writer, and we don’t even know if the Hughes guy has that talent. All things considered, I commend the Yankees. They’ve shown good judgment and I don’t mind admitting it. Cousin Sophia wanted them to choose Roosevelt, and she’s really upset that they didn’t give him a chance. I was hoping for him too, but we have to trust that Providence has a plan for these things and be content—though I can't understand what the Almighty means with this situation in Romania—saying that with all due respect."
Susan fathomed it—or thought she did—when the Asquith ministry went down and Lloyd George became Premier.
Susan understood it—or thought she did—when the Asquith government fell and Lloyd George became Prime Minister.
"Mrs. Dr. dear, Lloyd George is at the helm at last. I have been praying for this for many a day. Now we shall soon see a blessed change. It took the Rumanian disaster to bring it about, no less, and that is the meaning of it, though I could not see it before. There will be no more shilly-shallying. I consider that the war is as good as won, and that I shall tie to, whether Bucharest falls or not."
"Dear Mrs. Dr., Lloyd George is finally in charge. I’ve been hoping for this for a long time. Soon we’ll see a positive change. It took the disaster in Romania to make it happen, which is significant, even if I couldn’t see it before. There will be no more hesitating. I believe the war is practically won, and I’m committed to that, whether Bucharest falls or not."
Bucharest did fall—and Germany proposed peace negotiations. Whereat Susan scornfully turned a deaf ear and absolutely refused to listen to such proposals. When President Wilson sent his famous December peace note Susan waxed violently sarcastic.
Bucharest did fall—and Germany suggested peace talks. At this, Susan scornfully ignored it and completely refused to consider such proposals. When President Wilson sent his famous December peace note, Susan became extremely sarcastic.
"Woodrow Wilson is going to make peace, I understand. First Henry Ford had a try at it and now comes Wilson. But peace is not made with ink, Woodrow, and that you may tie to," said Susan, apostrophizing the unlucky President out of the kitchen window nearest the United States. "Lloyd George's speech will tell the Kaiser what is what, and you may keep your peace screeds at home and save postage."
"Woodrow Wilson is planning to make peace, I hear. First, Henry Ford tried, and now it's Wilson's turn. But peace can't be achieved with just words, Woodrow, and that's a fact," Susan said, addressing the unfortunate President from the kitchen window closest to the United States. "Lloyd George's speech will set the Kaiser straight, so you can save your peace talks and the postage."
"What a pity President Wilson can't hear you, Susan," said Rilla slyly.
"What a shame President Wilson can't hear you, Susan," Rilla said with a smirk.
"Indeed, Rilla dear, it is a pity that he has no one near him to give him good advice, as it is clear he has not, in all those Democrats and Republicans," retorted Susan. "I do not know the difference between them, for the politics of the Yankees is a puzzle I cannot solve, study it as I may. But as far as seeing through a grindstone goes, I am afraid—" Susan shook her head dubiously, "that they are all tarred with the same brush."
"Really, Rilla, it's a shame he doesn't have anyone around to offer him good advice, since it's obvious he doesn't, despite all those Democrats and Republicans," Susan replied. "I can't tell the difference between them because the politics of the Yankees is a mystery I just can’t figure out, no matter how much I try. But when it comes to seeing through a grindstone, I'm afraid—" Susan shook her head uncertainly, "that they're all pretty much the same."
"I am thankful Christmas is over," Rilla wrote in her diary during the last week of a stormy December. "We had dreaded it so—the first Christmas since Courcelette. But we had all the Merediths down for dinner and nobody tried to be gay or cheerful. We were all just quiet and friendly, and that helped. Then, too, I was so thankful that Jims had got better—so thankful that I almost felt glad—almost but not quite. I wonder if I shall ever feel really glad over anything again. It seems as if gladness were killed in me—shot down by the same bullet that pierced Walter's heart. Perhaps some day a new kind of gladness will be born in my soul—but the old kind will never live again.
"I'm glad Christmas is over," Rilla wrote in her diary during the last week of a stormy December. "We were so worried about it—the first Christmas since Courcelette. But we had all the Merediths over for dinner, and no one tried to be happy or cheerful. We were all just quiet and friendly, and that helped. Also, I was so grateful that Jims had gotten better—so grateful that I almost felt happy—almost but not quite. I wonder if I'll ever really feel happy about anything again. It feels like happiness has been killed in me—shot down by the same bullet that pierced Walter's heart. Maybe someday a new kind of happiness will be born in my soul—but the old kind will never come back."
"Winter set in awfully early this year. Ten days before Christmas we had a big snowstorm—at least we thought it big at the time. As it happened, it was only a prelude to the real performance. It was fine the next day, and Ingleside and Rainbow Valley were wonderful, with the trees all covered with snow, and big drifts everywhere, carved into the most fantastic shapes by the chisel of the northeast wind. Father and mother went up to Avonlea. Father thought the change would do mother good, and they wanted to see poor Aunt Diana, whose son Jock had been seriously wounded a short time before. They left Susan and me to keep house, and father expected to be back the next day. But he never got back for a week. That night it began to storm again, and it stormed unbrokenly for four days. It was the worst and longest storm that Prince Edward Island has known for years. Everything was disorganized—the roads were completely choked up, the trains blockaded, and the telephone wires put entirely out of commission.
"Winter set in really early this year. Ten days before Christmas, we had a huge snowstorm—at least we thought it was huge at the time. As it turned out, it was just a preview of what was to come. The next day was beautiful, and Ingleside and Rainbow Valley looked amazing, with the trees all covered in snow and big drifts everywhere, shaped into the most incredible forms by the northeast wind. Mom and Dad went up to Avonlea. Dad thought a change would do Mom good, and they wanted to see poor Aunt Diana, whose son Jock had been seriously injured not long ago. They left Susan and me to take care of the house, and Dad expected to be back the next day. But he didn’t return for a week. That night, it started snowing again, and it continued nonstop for four days. It was the worst and longest storm that Prince Edward Island has seen in years. Everything was in chaos—the roads were completely blocked, the trains were stuck, and the telephone lines were totally down."
"And then Jims took ill.
"And then Jims got sick."
"He had a little cold when father and mother went away, and he kept getting worse for a couple of days, but it didn't occur to me that there was danger of anything serious. I never even took his temperature, and I can't forgive myself, because it was sheer carelessness. The truth is I had slumped just then. Mother was away, so I let myself go. All at once I was tired of keeping up and pretending to be brave and cheerful, and I just gave up for a few days and spent most of the time lying on my face on my bed, crying. I neglected Jims—that is the hateful truth—I was cowardly and false to what I promised Walter—and if Jims had died I could never have forgiven myself.
"He had a bit of a cold when mom and dad left, and he kept getting worse for a couple of days, but it never crossed my mind that it could be serious. I didn't even check his temperature, and I can't forgive myself for that; it was pure carelessness. The truth is, I was in a slump. With mom gone, I let my guard down. Suddenly, I was just tired of pretending to be brave and cheerful, so I gave up for a few days and spent most of the time lying face down on my bed, crying. I neglected Jims—that's the harsh truth—I was cowardly and broke my promise to Walter—and if Jims had died, I could never have forgiven myself.
"Then, the third night after father and mother went away, Jims suddenly got worse—oh, so much worse—all at once. Susan and I were all alone. Gertrude had been at Lowbridge when the storm began and had never got back. At first we were not much alarmed. Jims has had several bouts of croup and Susan and Morgan and I have always brought him through without much trouble. But it wasn't very long before we were dreadfully alarmed.
"Then, on the third night after Mom and Dad left, Jims suddenly got a lot worse—so much worse—all at once. Susan and I were all alone. Gertrude had been at Lowbridge when the storm started and hadn’t made it back. At first, we weren’t too worried. Jims had several episodes of croup before, and Susan, Morgan, and I always managed to get him through it without much trouble. But it didn’t take long before we were really scared."
"'I never saw croup like this before,' said Susan.
"I've never seen croup like this before," said Susan.
"As for me, I knew, when it was too late, what kind of croup it was. I knew it was not the ordinary croup—'false croup' as doctors call it—but the 'true croup'—and I knew that it was a deadly and dangerous thing. And father was away and there was no doctor nearer than Lowbridge—and we could not 'phone and neither horse nor man could get through the drifts that night.
"As for me, I realized, when it was too late, what kind of croup it was. I understood it wasn’t the usual croup—what doctors call 'false croup'—but the 'true croup'—and I knew that it was a serious and dangerous condition. And Dad was away, and the nearest doctor was in Lowbridge—and we couldn’t call anyone, and neither horse nor man could get through the snow that night."
"Gallant little Jims put up a good fight for his life,—Susan and I tried every remedy we could think of or find in father's books, but he continued to grow worse. It was heart-rending to see and hear him. He gasped so horribly for breath—the poor little soul—and his face turned a dreadful bluish colour and had such an agonized expression, and he kept struggling with his little hands, as if he were appealing to us to help him somehow. I found myself thinking that the boys who had been gassed at the front must have looked like that, and the thought haunted me amid all my dread and misery over Jims. And all the time the fatal membrane in his wee throat grew and thickened and he couldn't get it up.
"Brave little Jims fought hard for his life—Susan and I tried every treatment we could think of or find in Dad's books, but he just kept getting worse. It was heartbreaking to see and hear him. He gasped painfully for breath—the poor little guy—and his face turned a terrible bluish color and had such a tortured expression. He kept struggling with his tiny hands, as if he was begging us to help him somehow. I found myself thinking that the boys who had been gassed at the front must have looked like that, and that thought stuck with me through all my fear and sorrow over Jims. And all the while, the deadly membrane in his little throat kept growing thicker, and he couldn't clear it."
"Oh, I was just wild! I never realized how dear Jims was to me until that moment. And I felt so utterly helpless."
"Oh, I was just out of control! I never understood how much Jims meant to me until that moment. And I felt so completely powerless."
"And then Susan gave up. 'We cannot save him! Oh, if your father was here—look at him, the poor little fellow! I know not what to do.'
"And then Susan gave up. 'We can’t save him! Oh, if your father were here—look at him, the poor little guy! I don’t know what to do.'"
"I looked at Jims and I thought he was dying. Susan was holding him up in his crib to give him a better chance for breath, but it didn't seem as if he could breathe at all. My little war-baby, with his dear ways and sweet roguish face, was choking to death before my very eyes, and I couldn't help him. I threw down the hot poultice I had ready in despair. Of what use was it? Jims was dying, and it was my fault—I hadn't been careful enough!
"I looked at Jims and thought he was dying. Susan was holding him up in his crib to help him breathe, but it seemed like he couldn’t take in any air at all. My little war baby, with his adorable habits and charmingly mischievous face, was choking to death right in front of me, and I couldn’t do anything to save him. I dropped the hot poultice I had ready in despair. What was the point? Jims was dying, and it was my fault—I hadn’t been careful enough!"
"Just then—at eleven o'clock at night—the door bell rang. Such a ring—it pealed all over the house above the roar of the storm. Susan couldn't go—she dared not lay Jims down—so I rushed downstairs. In the hall I paused just a minute—I was suddenly overcome by an absurd dread. I thought of a weird story Gertrude had told me once. An aunt of hers was alone in a house one night with her sick husband. She heard a knock at the door. And when she went and opened it there was nothing there—nothing that could be seen, at least. But when she opened the door a deadly cold wind blew in and seemed to sweep past her right up the stairs, although it was a calm, warm summer night outside. Immediately she heard a cry. She ran upstairs—and her husband was dead. And she always believed, so Gertrude said, that when she opened that door she let Death in.
"Just then—at eleven o'clock at night—the doorbell rang. Such a ring—it echoed throughout the house above the howl of the storm. Susan couldn't go—she didn’t want to put Jims down—so I rushed downstairs. In the hall, I hesitated for a moment—I was suddenly filled with a strange fear. I remembered a creepy story Gertrude had told me once. An aunt of hers was alone in a house one night with her sick husband. She heard a knock at the door. When she opened it, there was nothing there—nothing visible, at least. But as she opened the door, a bone-chilling wind rushed in and seemed to sweep past her right up the stairs, even though it was a calm, warm summer night outside. Immediately, she heard a cry. She ran upstairs—and her husband was dead. And she always believed, as Gertrude said, that when she opened that door, she let Death in."
"It was so ridiculous of me to feel so frightened. But I was distracted and worn out, and I simply felt for a moment that I dared not open the door—that death was waiting outside. Then I remembered that I had no time to waste—must not be so foolish—I sprang forward and opened the door.
"It was so silly of me to feel so scared. But I was distracted and exhausted, and for a moment, it really felt like I couldn't open the door—that death was waiting outside. Then I remembered that I had no time to waste—I couldn't be so foolish—I pushed myself forward and opened the door."
"Certainly a cold wind did blow in and filled the hall with a whirl of snow. But there on the threshold stood a form of flesh and blood—Mary Vance, coated from head to foot with snow—and she brought Life, not Death, with her, though I didn't know that then. I just stared at her.
"Sure enough, a cold wind blew in and filled the hall with a swirl of snow. But there on the doorstep stood a living person—Mary Vance, covered from head to toe in snow—and she brought Life, not Death, with her, although I didn't realize that at the time. I just stared at her."
"'I haven't been turned out,' grinned Mary, as she stepped in and shut the door. 'I came up to Carter Flagg's two days ago and I've been stormed-stayed there ever since. But old Abbie Flagg got on my nerves at last, and tonight I just made up my mind to come up here. I thought I could wade this far, but I can tell you it was as much as a bargain. Once I thought I was stuck for keeps. Ain't it an awful night?'
"'I haven't been kicked out,' Mary grinned as she stepped inside and shut the door. 'I came up to Carter Flagg's two days ago and I've been holed up there ever since. But old Abbie Flagg finally got on my nerves, and tonight I decided to come up here. I thought I could make it this far, but let me tell you, it was quite a struggle. At one point, I thought I was going to be stuck for good. Isn't it a terrible night?'"
"I came to myself and knew I must hurry upstairs. I explained as quickly as I could to Mary, and left her trying to brush the snow off. Upstairs I found that Jims was over that paroxysm, but almost as soon as I got back to the room he was in the grip of another. I couldn't do anything but moan and cry—oh, how ashamed I am when I think of it; and yet what could I do—we had tried everything we knew—and then all at once I heard Mary Vance saying loudly behind me, 'Why, that child is dying!'
I snapped back to reality and realized I needed to rush upstairs. I quickly explained to Mary what was going on and left her to brush the snow off. When I got upstairs, I found that Jims had come out of that fit, but just as I settled back into the room, he was hit with another one. All I could do was moan and cry—oh, how embarrassed I feel when I think about it; but what could I do? We had tried everything we could think of—and then suddenly I heard Mary Vance exclaiming loudly behind me, 'That child is dying!'
"I whirled around. Didn't I know he was dying—my little Jims! I could have thrown Mary Vance out of the door or the window—anywhere—at that moment. There she stood, cool and composed, looking down at my baby, with those, weird white eyes of hers, as she might look at a choking kitten. I had always disliked Mary Vance—and just then I hated her.
"I turned around. Didn't I know he was dying—my little Jims! I could have thrown Mary Vance out the door or out the window—anywhere—at that moment. There she was, calm and collected, looking down at my baby, with those strange white eyes of hers, as if she were looking at a choking kitten. I had always disliked Mary Vance—and in that moment, I hated her."
"'We have tried everything,' said poor Susan dully. 'It is not ordinary croup.'
"'We've tried everything,' said poor Susan flatly. 'This isn't ordinary croup.'"
"'No, it's the dipthery croup,' said Mary briskly, snatching up an apron. 'And there's mighty little time to lose—but I know what to do. When I lived over-harbour with Mrs. Wiley, years ago, Will Crawford's kid died of dipthery croup, in spite of two doctors. And when old Aunt Christina MacAllister heard of it—she was the one brought me round when I nearly died of pneumonia you know—she was a wonder—no doctor was a patch on her—they don't hatch her breed of cats nowadays, let me tell you—she said she could have saved him with her grandmother's remedy if she'd been there. She told Mrs. Wiley what it was and I've never forgot it. I've the greatest memory ever—a thing just lies in the back of my head till the time comes to use it. Got any sulphur in the house, Susan?'
"'No, it's the diphtheritic croup,' Mary said quickly, grabbing an apron. 'And we don't have much time—but I know what to do. When I lived across the harbor with Mrs. Wiley years ago, Will Crawford's kid died of diphtheritic croup, even with two doctors. And when old Aunt Christina MacAllister heard about it—she was the one who helped me when I nearly died of pneumonia, you know—she was amazing—no doctor compared to her—they don't make her kind of people anymore, let me tell you—she said she could have saved him with her grandmother's remedy if she had been there. She told Mrs. Wiley what it was, and I've never forgotten it. I have an incredible memory—the information just sits in the back of my mind until I need it. Do you have any sulfur in the house, Susan?'
"Yes, we had sulphur. Susan went down with Mary to get it, and I held Jims. I hadn't any hope—not the least. Mary Vance might brag as she liked—she was always bragging—but I didn't believe any grandmother's remedy could save Jims now. Presently Mary came back. She had tied a piece of thick flannel over her mouth and nose, and she carried Susan's old tin chip pan, half full of burning coals.
"Yeah, we had sulfur. Susan went with Mary to get it, and I held Jims. I had no hope—not even a little. Mary Vance could brag all she wanted—she was always bragging—but I didn't think any grandmother's remedy could save Jims now. Soon, Mary came back. She had tied a thick piece of flannel over her mouth and nose, and she carried Susan's old tin chip pan, half full of burning coals."
"'You watch me,' she said boastfully. 'I've never done this, but it's kill or cure that child is dying anyway.'
"'You just watch me,' she said proudly. 'I've never done this before, but it's either help that child or let them die anyway.'"
"She sprinkled a spoonful of sulphur over the coals; and then she picked up Jims, turned him over, and held him face downward, right over those choking, blinding fumes. I don't know why I didn't spring forward and snatch him away. Susan says it was because it was fore-ordained that I shouldn't, and I think she is right, because it did really seem that I was powerless to move. Susan herself seemed transfixed, watching Mary from the doorway. Jims writhed in those big, firm, capable hands of Mary—oh yes, she is capable all right—and choked and wheezed—and choked and wheezed—and I felt that he was being tortured to death—and then all at once, after what seemed to me an hour, though it really wasn't long, he coughed up the membrane that was killing him. Mary turned him over and laid him back on his bed. He was white as marble and the tears were pouring out of his brown eyes—but that awful livid look was gone from his face and he could breathe quite easily.
"She sprinkled a spoonful of sulfur over the coals; then she picked up Jims, flipped him over, and held him face down right over those choking, blinding fumes. I don't know why I didn't rush forward and pull him away. Susan says it was meant to be that I wouldn't, and I think she's right, because it truly felt like I was powerless to move. Susan herself seemed frozen, watching Mary from the doorway. Jims writhed in those strong, capable hands of Mary—oh yes, she's definitely capable—and choked and wheezed—and choked and wheezed—and I felt like he was being tortured to death—and then suddenly, after what felt like an hour, although it really wasn't long, he coughed up the membrane that was suffocating him. Mary turned him over and laid him back on his bed. He was as white as marble and tears were pouring from his brown eyes—but that awful blue look was gone from his face and he could breathe easily."
"'Wasn't that some trick?' said Mary gaily. 'I hadn't any idea how it would work, but I just took a chance. I'll smoke his throat out again once or twice before morning, just to kill all the germs, but you'll see he'll be all right now.'
"'Wasn't that a great trick?' Mary said cheerfully. 'I had no idea how it would work, but I just took a chance. I'll smoke him out again once or twice before morning, just to get rid of all the germs, but you'll see he'll be fine now.'"
"Jims went right to sleep—real sleep, not coma, as I feared at first. Mary 'smoked him,' as she called it, twice through the night, and at daylight his throat was perfectly clear and his temperature was almost normal. When I made sure of that I turned and looked at Mary Vance. She was sitting on the lounge laying down the law to Susan on some subject about which Susan must have known forty times as much as she did. But I didn't mind how much law she laid down or how much she bragged. She had a right to brag—she had dared to do what I would never have dared, and had saved Jims from a horrible death. It didn't matter any more that she had once chased me through the Glen with a codfish; it didn't matter that she had smeared goose-grease all over my dream of romance the night of the lighthouse dance; it didn't matter that she thought she knew more than anybody else and always rubbed it in—I would never dislike Mary Vance again. I went over to her and kissed her.
Jims fell right to sleep—real sleep, not just unconsciousness like I’d worried about at first. Mary "smoked him," as she called it, twice through the night, and by morning his throat was completely clear and his temperature was nearly normal. Once I confirmed that, I turned and looked at Mary Vance. She was on the couch, laying down the law to Susan about something that Susan probably knew way more about than she did. But I didn’t care how much she talked or how much she bragged. She had every right to brag—she had done what I would never have been brave enough to do, and saved Jims from a terrible death. It didn’t matter anymore that she had once chased me through the Glen with a codfish; it didn’t matter that she had ruined my romantic dreams with goose grease the night of the lighthouse dance; it didn’t matter that she thought she knew more than everyone else and always made a point of it—I would never dislike Mary Vance again. I walked over to her and kissed her.
"'What's up now?' she said.
"What's up now?" she asked.
"'Nothing—only I'm so grateful to you, Mary.'
"'Nothing—I'm just really grateful to you, Mary.'"
"'Well, I think you ought to be, that's a fact. You two would have let that baby die on your hands if I hadn't happened along,' said Mary, just beaming with complacency. She got Susan and me a tip-top breakfast and made us eat it, and 'bossed the life out of us,' as Susan says, for two days, until the roads were opened so that she could get home. Jims was almost well by that time, and father turned up. He heard our tale without saying much. Father is rather scornful generally about what he calls 'old wives' remedies.' He laughed a little and said, 'After this, Mary Vance will expect me to call her in for consultation in all my serious cases.'
"'Well, I think you should be, that's for sure. You two would have let that baby die if I hadn't shown up,' said Mary, just glowing with self-satisfaction. She made us a great breakfast and insisted that we eat it, and 'bossed us around like crazy,' as Susan puts it, for two days, until the roads opened up so she could get home. By then, Jims was almost better, and Dad showed up. He listened to our story without saying much. Dad is usually pretty dismissive about what he calls 'old wives' remedies.' He chuckled a bit and said, 'After this, Mary Vance will expect me to call her in for advice on all my serious cases.'
"So Christmas was not so hard as I expected it to be; and now the New Year is coming—and we are still hoping for the 'Big Push' that will end the war—and Little Dog Monday is getting stiff and rheumatic from his cold vigils, but still he 'carries on,' and Shirley continues to read the exploits of the aces. Oh, nineteen-seventeen, what will you bring?"
"So Christmas wasn't as tough as I thought it would be; and now the New Year is approaching—and we're still hoping for the 'Big Push' that will bring an end to the war—and Little Dog Monday is getting stiff and achy from his cold watchings, but he’s still 'carrying on,' and Shirley keeps reading about the exploits of the aces. Oh, nineteen seventeen, what will you bring?"
CHAPTER XXV
SHIRLEY GOES
"No, Woodrow, there will be no peace without victory," said Susan, sticking her knitting needle viciously through President Wilson's name in the newspaper column. "We Canadians mean to have peace and victory, too. You, if it pleases you, Woodrow, can have the peace without the victory"—and Susan stalked off to bed with the comfortable consciousness of having got the better of the argument with the President. But a few days later she rushed to Mrs. Blythe in red-hot excitement.
"No, Woodrow, there will be no peace without victory," Susan said, jabbing her knitting needle aggressively through President Wilson's name in the newspaper column. "We Canadians want both peace and victory, too. You, if you like, Woodrow, can have peace without the victory"—and Susan stormed off to bed feeling satisfied that she had won the argument with the President. But a few days later, she rushed to Mrs. Blythe in a frenzy of excitement.
"Mrs. Dr. dear, what do you think? A 'phone message has just come through from Charlottetown that Woodrow Wilson has sent that German ambassador man to the right about at last. They tell me that means war. So I begin to think that Woodrow's heart is in the right place after all, wherever his head may be, and I am going to commandeer a little sugar and celebrate the occasion with some fudge, despite the howls of the Food Board. I thought that submarine business would bring things to a crisis. I told Cousin Sophia so when she said it was the beginning of the end for the Allies."
"Mrs. Dr. dear, what do you think? A phone message just came in from Charlottetown saying that Woodrow Wilson has finally sent that German ambassador packing. They say that means war. So I'm starting to think that Woodrow's heart is in the right place after all, no matter where his head is, and I'm going to grab some sugar and celebrate with some fudge, despite the complaints from the Food Board. I figured that submarine situation would push things to a breaking point. I told Cousin Sophia that when she said it was the beginning of the end for the Allies."
"Don't let the doctor hear of the fudge, Susan," said Anne, with a smile. "You know he has laid down very strict rules for us along the lines of economy the government has asked for."
"Don't let the doctor find out about the fudge, Susan," Anne said with a smile. "You know he has set some really strict rules for us about saving, just like the government has requested."
"Yes, Mrs. Dr. dear, and a man should be master in his own household, and his women folk should bow to his decrees. I flatter myself that I am becoming quite efficient in economizing"—Susan had taken to using certain German terms with killing effect—"but one can exercise a little gumption on the quiet now and then. Shirley was wishing for some of my fudge the other day—the Susan brand, as he called it—and I said 'The first victory there is to celebrate I shall make you some.' I consider this news quite equal to a victory, and what the doctor does not know will never grieve him. I take the whole responsibility, Mrs. Dr. dear, so do not you vex your conscience."
"Yes, Mrs. Doctor dear, a man should be in charge of his own home, and the women should respect his decisions. I like to think I'm getting pretty good at saving money"—Susan had started using some German phrases with great effect—"but sometimes a person can be a little clever on the down-low. Shirley was hoping for some of my fudge the other day—the Susan kind, as he called it—and I said, 'When we have our first victory to celebrate, I’ll make you some.' I think this news is just as good as a victory, and what the doctor doesn’t know won’t hurt him. I take full responsibility, Mrs. Doctor dear, so don’t let it trouble you."
Susan spoiled Shirley shamelessly that winter. He came home from Queen's every week-end, and Susan had all his favourite dishes for him, in so far as she could evade or wheedle the doctor, and waited on him hand and foot. Though she talked war constantly to everyone else she never mentioned it to him or before him, but she watched him like a cat watching a mouse; and when the German retreat from the Bapaume salient began and continued, Susan's exultation was linked up with something deeper than anything she expressed. Surely the end was in sight—would come now before—anyone else—could go.
Susan completely spoiled Shirley that winter. He came home from Queen's every weekend, and Susan had all his favorite dishes ready for him, as much as she could talk the doctor into it, and she waited on him hand and foot. Even though she talked about the war constantly to everyone else, she never brought it up with him or in front of him, but she watched him closely like a cat watching a mouse; and when the German retreat from the Bapaume salient started and kept going, Susan’s excitement was tied to something deeper than what she showed. Surely the end was in sight—would arrive now before—anyone else—could go.
"Things are coming our way at last. We have got the Germans on the run," she boasted. "The United States has declared war at last, as I always believed they would, in spite of Woodrow's gift for letter writing, and you will see they will go into it with a vim since I understand that is their habit, when they do start. And we have got the Germans on the run, too."
"Things are finally going our way. We have the Germans on the run," she bragged. "The United States has declared war at last, just as I always knew they would, despite Woodrow's knack for writing letters, and you'll see they'll jump into it with enthusiasm since that's how they tend to operate when they do get started. And we really have the Germans on the run, too."
"The States mean well," moaned Cousin Sophia, "but all the vim in the world cannot put them on the fighting line this spring, and the Allies will be finished before that. The Germans are just luring them on. That man Simonds says their retreat has put the Allies in a hole."
"The States mean well," complained Cousin Sophia, "but no amount of enthusiasm can get them into the fight this spring, and the Allies will be done for by then. The Germans are just leading them on. That guy Simonds says their retreat has put the Allies in a tough spot."
"That man Simonds has said more than he will ever live to make good," retorted Susan. "I do not worry myself about his opinion as long as Lloyd George is Premier of England. He will not be bamboozled and that you may tie to. Things look good to me. The U. S. is in the war, and we have got Kut and Bagdad back—and I would not be surprised to see the Allies in Berlin by June—and the Russians, too, since they have got rid of the Czar. That, in my opinion was a good piece of work."
"That guy Simonds has said more than he will ever be able to back up," Susan shot back. "I’m not worried about his opinion as long as Lloyd George is the Prime Minister of England. He won’t be fooled, and you can count on that. Things look good to me. The U.S. is in the war, and we’ve got Kut and Baghdad back—and I wouldn’t be surprised to see the Allies in Berlin by June—and the Russians, too, now that they’ve gotten rid of the Czar. That, in my opinion, was a smart move."
"Time will show if it is," said Cousin Sophia, who would have been very indignant if anyone had told her that she would rather see Susan put to shame as a seer, than a successful overthrow of tyranny, or even the march of the Allies down Unter den Linden. But then the woes of the Russian people were quite unknown to Cousin Sophia, while this aggravating, optimistic Susan was an ever-present thorn in her side.
"Time will tell if it is," said Cousin Sophia, who would have been very upset if anyone had suggested that she would prefer to see Susan embarrassed as a fortune teller rather than witnessing a successful end to tyranny or even the Allies marching down Unter den Linden. But the suffering of the Russian people was completely unknown to Cousin Sophia, while this annoying, overly optimistic Susan was a constant irritation to her.
Just at that moment Shirley was sitting on the edge of the table in the living-room, swinging his legs—a brown, ruddy, wholesome lad, from top to toe, every inch of him—and saying coolly, "Mother and dad, I was eighteen last Monday. Don't you think it's about time I joined up?"
Just then, Shirley was sitting on the edge of the table in the living room, swinging his legs—he was a healthy, tan, robust kid from head to toe, every inch of him—and casually said, "Mom and Dad, I turned eighteen last Monday. Don’t you think it’s about time I signed up?"
The pale mother looked at him.
The pale mother stared at him.
"Two of my sons have gone and one will never return. Must I give you too, Shirley?"
"Two of my sons are gone, and one will never come back. Do I need to give you up too, Shirley?"
The age-old cry—"Joseph is not and Simeon is not; and ye will take Benjamin away." How the mothers of the Great War echoed the old Patriarch's moan of so many centuries agone!
The timeless cry—"Joseph is gone and Simeon is gone; and now you're taking Benjamin away." How the mothers of the Great War echoed the old Patriarch's lament from so many centuries ago!
"You wouldn't have me a slacker, mother? I can get into the flying-corps. What say, dad?"
"You wouldn't think I'm a slacker, would you, Mom? I can join the flying corps. What do you think, Dad?"
The doctor's hands were not quite steady as he folded up the powders he was concocting for Abbie Flagg's rheumatism. He had known this moment was coming, yet he was not altogether prepared for it. He answered slowly, "I won't try to hold you back from what you believe to be your duty. But you must not go unless your mother says you may."
The doctor's hands were unsteady as he mixed the powders he was preparing for Abbie Flagg's rheumatism. He had known this moment would come, but he wasn’t completely prepared for it. He replied slowly, "I won't stop you from doing what you think is your responsibility. But you can't go unless your mother gives you permission."
Shirley said nothing more. He was not a lad of many words. Anne did not say anything more just then, either. She was thinking of little Joyce's grave in the old burying-ground over-harbour—little Joyce who would have been a woman now, had she lived—of the white cross in France and the splendid grey eyes of the little boy who had been taught his first lessons of duty and loyalty at her knee—of Jem in the terrible trenches—of Nan and Di and Rilla, waiting—waiting—waiting, while the golden years of youth passed by—and she wondered if she could bear any more. She thought not; surely she had given enough.
Shirley didn’t say anything else. He wasn’t one to talk much. Anne stayed quiet too, lost in thoughts about little Joyce’s grave in the old cemetery over the harbor—little Joyce who would have grown up to be a woman by now, if she had lived—about the white cross in France and the bright grey eyes of the little boy who learned his first lessons of duty and loyalty at her side—about Jem in those awful trenches—about Nan, Di, and Rilla, waiting—waiting—waiting while the precious years of youth slipped away—and she wondered if she could handle any more. She thought not; surely she had already given enough.
Yet that night she told Shirley that he might go.
Yet that night she told Shirley that he could go.
They did not tell Susan right away. She did not know it until, a few days later, Shirley presented himself in her kitchen in his aviation uniform. Susan didn't make half the fuss she had made when Jem and Walter had gone. She said stonily, "So they're going to take you, too."
They didn’t tell Susan immediately. She didn’t find out until a few days later when Shirley showed up in her kitchen wearing his flight uniform. Susan didn’t make nearly as much of a scene as she did when Jem and Walter left. She said flatly, “So they’re taking you, too.”
"Take me? No. I'm going, Susan—got to."
"Take me? No. I'm leaving, Susan—I have to."
Susan sat down by the table, folded her knotted old hands, that had grown warped and twisted working for the Ingleside children to still their shaking, and said:
Susan sat down at the table, clasped her gnarled old hands, which had become warped and twisted from tending to the Ingleside children to calm their shaking, and said:
"Yes, you must go. I did not see once why such things must be, but I can see now."
"Yes, you have to go. I didn't understand before why things had to be this way, but I get it now."
"You're a brick, Susan," said Shirley. He was relieved that she took it so coolly—he had been a little afraid, with a boy's horror of "a scene." He went out whistling gaily; but half an hour later, when pale Anne Blythe came in, Susan was still sitting there.
"You're amazing, Susan," said Shirley. He felt relieved that she handled it so calmly—he had been a bit worried, having a boy's fear of "drama." He stepped outside whistling cheerfully; but half an hour later, when pale Anne Blythe walked in, Susan was still there.
"Mrs. Dr. dear," said Susan, making an admission she would once have died rather than make, "I feel very old. Jem and Walter were yours but Shirley is mine. And I cannot bear to think of him flying—his machine crashing down—the life crushed out of his body—the dear little body I nursed and cuddled when he was a wee baby."
"Mrs. Dr. dear," said Susan, confessing something she would have once rather died than admit, "I feel really old. Jem and Walter were yours, but Shirley is mine. And I can’t stand the thought of him flying—his plane crashing down—the life crushed out of his body—the dear little body I held and cuddled when he was just a baby."
"Susan—don't," cried Anne.
"Susan—no," cried Anne.
"Oh, Mrs. Dr. dear, I beg your pardon. I ought not to have said anything like that out loud. I sometimes forget that I resolved to be a heroine. This—this has shaken me a little. But I will not forget myself again. Only if things do not go as smoothly in the kitchen for a few days I hope you will make due allowance for me. At least," said poor Susan, forcing a grim smile in a desperate effort to recover lost standing, "at least flying is a clean job. He will not get so dirty and messed up as he would in the trenches, and that is well, for he has always been a tidy child."
"Oh, Mrs. Dr., I’m really sorry. I shouldn’t have said anything like that out loud. Sometimes I forget that I decided to be a heroine. This—this has thrown me off a bit. But I promise I won’t lose my composure again. Just if things don’t go as smoothly in the kitchen for a few days, I hope you’ll understand. At least," said poor Susan, forcing a strained smile in a desperate attempt to regain her good standing, "at least flying is a clean job. He won’t get as dirty and messy as he would in the trenches, and that’s a positive, because he’s always been a neat child."
So Shirley went—not radiantly, as to a high adventure, like Jem, not in a white flame of sacrifice, like Walter, but in a cool, business-like mood, as of one doing something, rather dirty and disagreeable, that had just got to be done. He kissed Susan for the first time since he was five years old, and said, "Good-bye, Susan—mother Susan."
So Shirley left—not excitedly, like Jem ready for an adventure, not in a selfless way like Walter, but in a calm, practical manner, like someone handling a task that was necessary but unpleasant. He kissed Susan for the first time since he was five years old and said, "Goodbye, Susan—mother Susan."
"My little brown boy—my little brown boy," said Susan. "I wonder," she thought bitterly, as she looked at the doctor's sorrowful face, "if you remember how you spanked him once when he was a baby. I am thankful I have nothing like that on my conscience now."
"My little brown boy—my little brown boy," said Susan. "I wonder," she thought bitterly, as she looked at the doctor's sorrowful face, "if you remember how you spanked him once when he was a baby. I’m glad I don’t have anything like that on my conscience now."
The doctor did not remember the old discipline. But before he put on his hat to go out on his round of calls he stood for a moment in the great silent living-room that had once been full of children's laughter.
The doctor didn’t remember the old rules. But before he put on his hat to head out for his rounds, he paused for a moment in the large, quiet living room that used to be filled with children’s laughter.
"Our last son—our last son," he said aloud. "A good, sturdy, sensible lad, too. Always reminded me of my father. I suppose I ought to be proud that he wanted to go—I was proud when Jem went—even when Walter went—but 'our house is left us desolate.'"
"Our last son—our last son," he said out loud. "A good, strong, sensible kid, too. Always reminded me of my father. I guess I should be proud that he wanted to leave—I was proud when Jem left—even when Walter left—but 'our house is left us desolate.'"
"I have been thinking, doctor," old Sandy of the Upper Glen said to him that afternoon, "that your house will be seeming very big the day."
"I've been thinking, doctor," old Sandy from the Upper Glen said to him that afternoon, "that your house is going to seem really big today."
Highland Sandy's quaint phrase struck the doctor as perfectly expressive. Ingleside did seem very big and empty that night. Yet Shirley had been away all winter except for week-ends, and had always been a quiet fellow even when home. Was it because he had been the only one left that his going seemed to leave such a huge blank—that every room seemed vacant and deserted—that the very trees on the lawn seemed to be trying to comfort each other with caresses of freshly-budding boughs for the loss of the last of the little lads who had romped under them in childhood?
Highland Sandy's charming phrase struck the doctor as spot on. Ingleside felt quite large and empty that night. Still, Shirley had been away all winter except for weekends and had always been a quiet guy, even when he was home. Was it because he was the last one left that his absence felt so significant—that every room felt empty and deserted—that even the trees on the lawn seemed to be trying to comfort each other with the gentle touch of their freshly budding branches for the loss of the last of the little boys who used to play under them in childhood?
Susan worked very hard all day and late into the night. When she had wound the kitchen clock and put Dr. Jekyll out, none too gently, she stood for a little while on the doorstep, looking down the Glen, which lay tranced in faint, silvery light from a sinking young moon. But Susan did not see the familiar hills and harbour. She was looking at the aviation camp in Kingsport where Shirley was that night.
Susan worked really hard all day and late into the night. After she wound the kitchen clock and put Dr. Jekyll away, not too gently, she stood for a little while on the doorstep, looking down the Glen, which was bathed in a soft, silvery light from a sinking young moon. But Susan didn’t see the familiar hills and harbor. She was focused on the aviation camp in Kingsport where Shirley was that night.
"He called me 'Mother Susan,'" she was thinking. "Well, all our men folk have gone now—Jem and Walter and Shirley and Jerry and Carl. And none of them had to be driven to it. So we have a right to be proud. But pride—" Susan sighed bitterly—"pride is cold company and that there is no gainsaying."
"He called me 'Mother Susan,'" she thought. "Well, all our men have gone now—Jem, Walter, Shirley, Jerry, and Carl. And none of them needed to be pushed to it. So we have a reason to be proud. But pride—" Susan sighed sadly—"pride is a cold companion, and there's no denying that."
The moon sank lower into a black cloud in the west, the Glen went out in an eclipse of sudden shadow—and thousands of miles away the Canadian boys in khaki—the living and the dead—were in possession of Vimy Ridge.
The moon dipped behind a dark cloud in the west, the Glen disappeared in a sudden shadow—and thousands of miles away, the Canadian soldiers in khaki—the living and the fallen—held Vimy Ridge.
Vimy Ridge is a name written in crimson and gold on the Canadian annals of the Great War. "The British couldn't take it and the French couldn't take it," said a German prisoner to his captors, "but you Canadians are such fools that you don't know when a place can't be taken!"
Vimy Ridge is a name marked in red and gold in Canada’s history of the Great War. "The Brits couldn't capture it and the French couldn’t capture it," a German prisoner told his captors, "but you Canadians are so naive that you don’t realize when a place can’t be taken!"
So the "fools" took it—and paid the price.
So the "fools" accepted it—and faced the consequences.
Jerry Meredith was seriously wounded at Vimy Ridge—shot in the back, the telegram said.
Jerry Meredith was seriously injured at Vimy Ridge—shot in the back, the telegram said.
"Poor Nan," said Mrs. Blythe, when the news came. She thought of her own happy girlhood at old Green Gables. There had been no tragedy like this in it. How the girls of to-day had to suffer! When Nan came home from Redmond two weeks later her face showed what those weeks had meant to her. John Meredith, too, seemed to have grown old suddenly in them. Faith did not come home; she was on her way across the Atlantic as a V.A.D. Di had tried to wring from her father consent to her going also, but had been told that for her mother's sake it could not be given. So Di, after a flying visit home, went back to her Red Cross work in Kingsport.
"Poor Nan," said Mrs. Blythe when the news arrived. She thought of her own happy girlhood at old Green Gables. There hadn’t been any tragedy like this during that time. How much the girls of today had to endure! When Nan came home from Redmond two weeks later, her face revealed what those weeks had meant to her. John Meredith also seemed to have aged suddenly during that time. Faith didn’t come home; she was on her way across the Atlantic as a V.A.D. Di had tried to get her father's permission to go as well, but he told her that for her mother's sake, it couldn’t be granted. So Di, after a quick visit home, returned to her Red Cross work in Kingsport.
The mayflowers bloomed in the secret nooks of Rainbow Valley. Rilla was watching for them. Jem had once taken his mother the earliest mayflowers; Walter brought them to her when Jem was gone; last spring Shirley had sought them out for her; now, Rilla thought she must take the boys' place in this. But before she had discovered any, Bruce Meredith came to Ingleside one twilight with his hands full of delicate pink sprays. He stalked up the steps of the veranda and laid them on Mrs. Blythe's lap.
The mayflowers bloomed in the hidden corners of Rainbow Valley. Rilla was waiting for them. Jem had once brought his mother the first mayflowers; Walter gave them to her when Jem was away; last spring Shirley had gone out to find them for her; now, Rilla thought she should take the boys' place in this. But before she found any, Bruce Meredith arrived at Ingleside one evening with his hands full of delicate pink blooms. He walked up the steps of the porch and placed them on Mrs. Blythe's lap.
"Because Shirley isn't here to bring them," he said in his funny, shy, blunt way.
"Because Shirley isn't here to bring them," he said in his awkward, shy, direct way.
"And you thought of this, you darling," said Anne, her lips quivering, as she looked at the stocky, black-browed little chap, standing before her, with his hands thrust into his pockets.
"And you thought of this, you sweetheart," said Anne, her lips trembling, as she looked at the stocky little guy with dark brows, standing in front of her with his hands stuffed in his pockets.
"I wrote Jem to-day and told him not to worry 'bout you not getting your mayflowers," said Bruce seriously, "'cause I'd see to that. And I told him I would be ten pretty soon now, so it won't be very long before I'll be eighteen, and then I'll go to help him fight, and maybe let him come home for a rest while I took his place. I wrote Jerry, too. Jerry's getting better, you know."
"I wrote to Jem today and told him not to worry about you not getting your mayflowers," Bruce said seriously, "because I'll take care of that. And I told him that I would be ten really soon now, so it won't be long before I'm eighteen, and then I'll go help him fight, and maybe let him come home for a break while I take his place. I wrote to Jerry, too. Jerry is getting better, you know."
"Is he? Have you had any good news about him?"
"Is he? Have you heard any good news about him?"
"Yes. Mother had a letter to-day, and it said he was out of danger."
"Yes. Mom got a letter today, and it said he was out of danger."
"Oh, thank God," murmured Mrs. Blythe, in a half-whisper.
"Oh, thank God," Mrs. Blythe whispered softly.
Bruce looked at her curiously.
Bruce looked at her with curiosity.
"That is what father said when mother told him. But when l said it the other day when I found out Mr. Mead's dog hadn't hurt my kitten—I thought he had shooken it to death, you know—father looked awful solemn and said I must never say that again about a kitten. But I couldn't understand why, Mrs. Blythe. I felt awful thankful, and it must have been God that saved Stripey, because that Mead dog had 'normous jaws, and oh, how it shook poor Stripey. And so why couldn't I thank Him? 'Course," added Bruce reminiscently, "maybe I said it too loud—'cause I was awful glad and excited when I found Stripey was all right. I 'most shouted it, Mrs. Blythe. Maybe if I'd said it sort of whispery like you and father it would have been all right. Do you know, Mrs. Blythe"—Bruce dropped to a "whispery" tone, edging a little nearer to Anne—"what I would like to do to the Kaiser if I could?"
"That’s what Dad said when Mom told him. But when I mentioned it the other day after I found out Mr. Mead's dog hadn’t harmed my kitten—I thought it had shaken it to death, you know—Dad looked really serious and told me never to say that about a kitten again. But I didn’t get why, Mrs. Blythe. I felt really grateful, and it must have been God who saved Stripey, because that Mead dog had huge jaws, and oh, how it shook poor Stripey. So why couldn’t I thank Him? Of course," Bruce added with a hint of nostalgia, "maybe I said it too loudly—because I was really glad and excited when I found out Stripey was fine. I almost shouted it, Mrs. Blythe. Maybe if I’d said it softly like you and Dad, it would have been okay. You know, Mrs. Blythe"—Bruce lowered his voice, leaning a little closer to Anne—"what I would like to do to the Kaiser if I could?"
"What would you like to do, laddie?"
"What do you want to do, kid?"
"Norman Reese said in school to-day that he would like to tie the Kaiser to a tree and set cross dogs to worrying him," said Bruce gravely. "And Emily Flagg said she would like to put him in a cage and poke sharp things into him. And they all said things like that. But Mrs. Blythe"—Bruce took a little square paw out of his pocket and put it earnestly on Anne's knee—"I would like to turn the Kaiser into a good man—a very good man—all at once if I could. That is what I would do. Don't you think, Mrs. Blythe, that would be the very worstest punishment of all?"
"Norman Reese said in school today that he would like to tie the Kaiser to a tree and let dogs worry him," Bruce said seriously. "And Emily Flagg said she would want to put him in a cage and poke him with sharp things. And they all said stuff like that. But Mrs. Blythe"—Bruce took a little square paw out of his pocket and earnestly placed it on Anne's knee—"I would like to turn the Kaiser into a good man—a really good man—all at once if I could. That's what I would do. Don't you think, Mrs. Blythe, that would be the worst punishment of all?"
"Bless the child," said Susan, "how do you make out that would be any kind of a punishment for that wicked fiend?"
"Bless the child," said Susan, "how do you think that would be any kind of punishment for that evil villain?"
"Don't you see," said Bruce, looking levelly at Susan, out of his blackly blue eyes, "if he was turned into a good man he would understand how dreadful the things he has done are, and he would feel so terrible about it that he would be more unhappy and miserable than he could ever be in any other way. He would feel just awful—and he would go on feeling like that forever. Yes"—Bruce clenched his hands and nodded his head emphatically, "yes, I would make the Kaiser a good man—that is what I would do—it would serve him 'zackly right."
"Don’t you get it," Bruce said, looking straight at Susan with his dark blue eyes, "if he were turned into a decent person, he would realize how horrible the things he’s done are, and he would feel so awful about it that he’d be more unhappy and miserable than he could ever be in any other way. He would feel just terrible—and he would keep feeling that way forever. Yes"—Bruce clenched his fists and nodded his head firmly, "yes, I would make the Kaiser a good person—that's what I would do—it would be just what he deserves."
CHAPTER XXVI
SUSAN HAS A PROPOSAL OF MARRIAGE
An aeroplane was flying over Glen St. Mary, like a great bird poised against the western sky—a sky so clear and of such a pale, silvery yellow, that it gave an impression of a vast, wind-freshened space of freedom. The little group on the Ingleside lawn looked up at it with fascinated eyes, although it was by no means an unusual thing to see an occasional hovering plane that summer. Susan was always intensely excited. Who knew but that it might be Shirley away up there in the clouds, flying over to the Island from Kingsport? But Shirley had gone overseas now, so Susan was not so keenly interested in this particular aeroplane and its pilot. Nevertheless, she looked at it with awe.
An airplane was flying over Glen St. Mary, like a huge bird against the western sky—a sky so clear and a soft, silvery yellow that it felt like a wide, breezy space of freedom. The small group on the Ingleside lawn stared up at it with fascinated eyes, even though spotting a plane that summer wasn’t all that unusual. Susan was always incredibly excited. Who knew, maybe it was Shirley up there in the clouds, flying over to the Island from Kingsport? But Shirley was overseas now, so Susan wasn’t as interested in this particular airplane and its pilot. Still, she gazed at it in awe.
"I wonder, Mrs. Dr. dear," she said solemnly, "what the old folks down there in the graveyard would think if they could rise out of their graves for one moment and behold that sight. I am sure my father would disapprove of it, for he was a man who did not believe in new-fangled ideas of any sort. He always cut his grain with a reaping hook to the day of his death. A mower he would not have. What was good enough for his father was good enough for him, he used to say. I hope it is not unfilial to say that I think he was wrong in that point of view, but I am not sure I go so far as to approve of aeroplanes, though they may be a military necessity. If the Almighty had meant us to fly he would have provided us with wings. Since He did not it is plain He meant us to stick to the solid earth. At any rate, you will never see me, Mrs. Dr. dear, cavorting through the sky in an aeroplane."
"I wonder, Mrs. Dr. dear," she said seriously, "what the old folks down in the graveyard would think if they could rise out of their graves for just one moment and see this sight. I'm sure my father would disapprove, as he was a man who didn't believe in new-fangled ideas at all. He always cut his grain with a reaping hook until the day he died. He would never have used a mower. What was good enough for his father was good enough for him, he used to say. I hope it’s not disrespectful to say that I think he was wrong about that, but I'm not sure I fully support aeroplanes, even if they might be a military necessity. If the Almighty had meant for us to fly, He would have given us wings. Since He didn't, it’s clear He meant for us to stay on solid ground. Anyway, you will never see me, Mrs. Dr. dear, flying through the sky in an aeroplane."
"But you won't refuse to cavort a bit in father's new automobile when it comes, will you, Susan?" teased Rilla.
"But you won't say no to having some fun in Dad's new car when it arrives, will you, Susan?" teased Rilla.
"I do not expect to trust my old bones in automobiles, either," retorted Susan. "But I do not look upon them as some narrow-minded people do. Whiskers-on-the-moon says the Government should be turned out of office for permitting them to run on the Island at all. He foams at the mouth, they tell me, when he sees one. The other day he saw one coming along that narrow side-road by his wheatfield, and Whiskers bounded over the fence and stood right in the middle of the road, with his pitchfork. The man in the machine was an agent of some kind, and Whiskers hates agents as much as he hates automobiles. He made the car come to a halt, because there was not room to pass him on either side, and the agent could not actually run over him. Then he raised his pitchfork and shouted, 'Get out of this with your devil-machine or I will run this pitchfork clean through you.' And Mrs. Dr. dear, if you will believe me, that poor agent had to back his car clean out to the Lowbridge road, nearly a mile, Whiskers following him every step, shaking his pitchfork and bellowing insults. Now, Mrs. Dr. dear, I call such conduct unreasonable; but all the same," added Susan, with a sigh, "what with aeroplanes and automobiles and all the rest of it, this Island is not what it used to be."
"I don't trust my old bones in cars either," Susan shot back. "But I don’t see them like some narrow-minded people do. Whiskers-on-the-moon says the government should be kicked out of office for letting them run on the Island at all. He literally foams at the mouth whenever he sees one. The other day, he spotted a car coming down that narrow side road by his wheatfield, and Whiskers jumped over the fence and stood right in the middle of the road with his pitchfork. The guy in the car was some kind of agent, and Whiskers hates agents just as much as he hates cars. He made the car stop because there wasn't enough room to pass him on either side, and the agent couldn't just run him over. Then he raised his pitchfork and yelled, 'Get out of here with your devil machine or I’ll run this pitchfork right through you.' And Mrs. Dr. dear, if you can believe it, that poor agent had to back his car all the way back to the Lowbridge road, nearly a mile, with Whiskers following him every step, shaking his pitchfork and yelling insults. Now, Mrs. Dr. dear, I think that's pretty unreasonable; but still," Susan added with a sigh, "with airplanes and cars and everything else, this Island isn't what it used to be."
The aeroplane soared and dipped and circled, and soared again, until it became a mere speck far over the sunset hills.
The airplane flew up and down, circling around, and then climbed again until it became just a tiny dot far over the hills at sunset.
"'With the majesty of pinion Which the Theban eagles bear Sailing with supreme dominion Through the azure fields of air.'"
"'With the majesty of wings that the Theban eagles possess, soaring with absolute power through the blue skies of the air.'"
quoted Anne Blythe dreamily.
quoted Anne Blythe wistfully.
"I wonder," said Miss Oliver, "if humanity will be any happier because of aeroplanes. It seems to me that the sum of human happiness remains much the same from age to age, no matter how it may vary in distribution, and that all the 'many inventions' neither lessen nor increase it."
"I wonder," said Miss Oliver, "if people will be any happier because of airplanes. It seems to me that the total happiness of humanity stays pretty consistent over time, regardless of how it's spread out, and that all the 'many inventions' neither reduce nor enhance it."
"After all, the 'kingdom of heaven is within you,'" said Mr. Meredith, gazing after the vanishing speck which symbolized man's latest victory in a world-old struggle. "It does not depend on material achievements and triumphs."
"After all, the 'kingdom of heaven is within you,'" said Mr. Meredith, watching the tiny speck disappear, representing humanity's latest victory in an age-old struggle. "It doesn't rely on material accomplishments and successes."
"Nevertheless, an aeroplane is a fascinating thing," said the doctor. "It has always been one of humanity's favourite dreams—the dream of flying. Dream after dream comes true—or rather is made true by persevering effort. I should like to have a flight in an aeroplane myself."
"Still, an airplane is an amazing thing," the doctor said. "It has always been one of humanity's favorite dreams—the dream of flying. One dream after another becomes reality—or is made real through persistent effort. I'd like to take a flight in an airplane myself."
"Shirley wrote me that he was dreadfully disappointed in his first flight," said Rilla. "He had expected to experience the sensation of soaring up from the earth like a bird—and instead he just had the feeling that he wasn't moving at all, but that the earth was dropping away under him. And the first time he went up alone he suddenly felt terribly homesick. He had never felt like that before; but all at once, he said, he felt as if he were adrift in space—and he had a wild desire to get back home to the old planet and the companionship of fellow creatures. He soon got over that feeling, but he says his first flight alone was a nightmare to him because of that dreadful sensation of ghastly loneliness."
"Shirley told me he was really disappointed with his first flight," said Rilla. "He had hoped to feel like he was soaring up from the ground like a bird—but instead, he felt like he wasn't moving at all, and that the ground was just falling away beneath him. And the first time he went up alone, he suddenly felt really homesick. He had never felt that way before; but out of nowhere, he said, he felt like he was lost in space—and he had a strong urge to get back home to Earth and be with other people. He eventually got over that feeling, but he says his first solo flight was a nightmare for him because of that awful sense of loneliness."
The aeroplane disappeared. The doctor threw back his head with a sigh.
The airplane vanished. The doctor leaned back his head with a sigh.
"When I have watched one of those bird-men out of sight I come back to earth with an odd feeling of being merely a crawling insect. Anne," he said, turning to his wife, "do you remember the first time I took you for a buggy ride in Avonlea—that night we went to the Carmody concert, the first fall you taught in Avonlea? I had out little black mare with the white star on her forehead, and a shining brand-new buggy—and I was the proudest fellow in the world, barring none. I suppose our grandson will be taking his sweetheart out quite casually for an evening 'fly' in his aeroplane."
"When I’ve watched one of those bird-men disappear from view, I come back to reality feeling like just a crawling insect. Anne," he said, turning to his wife, "do you remember the first time I took you for a buggy ride in Avonlea—that night we went to the Carmody concert, the first fall you taught in Avonlea? I had our little black mare with the white star on her forehead, and a shiny brand-new buggy—and I was the proudest guy in the world, hands down. I guess our grandson will be casually taking his girlfriend out for an evening 'fly' in his airplane."
"An aeroplane won't be as nice as little Silverspot was," said Anne. "A machine is simply a machine—but Silverspot, why she was a personality, Gilbert. A drive behind her had something in it that not even a flight among sunset clouds could have. No, I don't envy my grandson's sweetheart, after all. Mr. Meredith is right. 'The kingdom of Heaven'—and of love—and of happiness—doesn't depend on externals."
"An airplane won't be as great as little Silverspot was," said Anne. "A machine is just a machine—but Silverspot, she had character, Gilbert. There was something about driving her that even flying through sunset clouds couldn't match. No, I don't envy my grandson's girlfriend, after all. Mr. Meredith is right. 'The kingdom of Heaven'—and of love—and of happiness—doesn't rely on external things."
"Besides," said the doctor gravely, "our said grandson will have to give most of his attention to the aeroplane—he won't be able to let the reins lie on its back while he gazes into his lady's eyes. And I have an awful suspicion that you can't run an aeroplane with one arm. No"—the doctor shook his head—"I believe I'd still prefer Silverspot after all."
"Besides," the doctor said seriously, "our grandson is going to have to focus most of his attention on the airplane—he can't just let the controls sit there while he stares into his lady's eyes. And I have a strong feeling that you can't pilot an airplane with one arm. No"—the doctor shook his head—"I still think I'd prefer Silverspot after all."
The Russian line broke again that summer and Susan said bitterly that she had expected it ever since Kerensky had gone and got married.
The Russian front collapsed again that summer, and Susan said bitterly that she had seen it coming ever since Kerensky got married.
"Far be it from me to decry the holy state of matrimony, Mrs. Dr. dear, but I felt that when a man was running a revolution he had his hands full and should have postponed marriage until a more fitting season. The Russians are done for this time and there would be no sense in shutting our eyes to the fact. But have you seen Woodrow Wilson's reply to the Pope's peace proposals? It is magnificent. I really could not have expressed the rights of the matter better myself. I feel that I can forgive Wilson everything for it. He knows the meaning of words and that you may tie to. Speaking of meanings, have you heard the latest story about Whiskers-on-the-moon, Mrs. Dr. dear? It seems he was over at the Lowbridge Road school the other day and took a notion to examine the fourth class in spelling. They have the summer term there yet, you know, with the spring and fall vacations, being rather backward people on that road. My niece, Ella Baker, goes to that school and she it was who told me the story. The teacher was not feeling well, having a dreadful headache, and she went out to get a little fresh air while Mr. Pryor was examining the class. The children got along all right with the spelling but when Whiskers began to question them about the meanings of the words they were all at sea, because they had not learned them. Ella and the other big scholars felt terrible over it. They love their teacher so, and it seems Mr. Pryor's brother, Abel Pryor, who is trustee of that school, is against her and has been trying to turn the other trustees over to his way of thinking. And Ella and the rest were afraid that if the fourth class couldn't tell Whiskers the meanings of the words he would think the teacher was no good and tell Abel so, and Abel would have a fine handle. But little Sandy Logan saved the situation. He is a Home boy, but he is as smart as a steel trap, and he sized up Whiskers-on-the-moon right off. 'What does "anatomy" mean?' Whiskers demanded. 'A pain in your stomach,' Sandy replied, quick as a flash and never batting an eyelid. Whiskers-on-the-moon is a very ignorant man, Mrs. Dr. dear; he didn't know the meaning of the words himself, and he said 'Very good—very good.' The class caught right on—at least three or four of the brighter ones did—and they kept up the fun. Jean Blane said that 'acoustic' meant 'a religious squabble,' and Muriel Baker said that an 'agnostic' was 'a man who had indigestion,' and Jim Carter said that 'acerbity' meant that 'you ate nothing but vegetable food,' and so on all down the list. Whiskers swallowed it all, and kept saying 'Very good—very good' until Ella thought that die she would trying to keep a straight face. When the teacher came in, Whiskers complimented her on the splendid understanding the children had of their lesson and said he meant to tell the trustees what a jewel they had. It was 'very unusual,' he said, to find a fourth class who could answer up so prompt when it came to explaining what words meant. He went off beaming. But Ella told me this as a great secret, Mrs. Dr. dear, and we must keep it as such, for the sake of the Lowbridge Road teacher. It would likely be the ruin of her chances of keeping the school if Whiskers should ever find out how he had been bamboozled."
"Far from me to criticize the sacred institution of marriage, Mrs. Dr. dear, but I believe that when a man is leading a revolution, he has enough on his plate and should delay marriage until a more appropriate time. The Russians are finished for now, and it makes no sense to ignore that reality. But have you seen Woodrow Wilson's response to the Pope's peace proposals? It’s outstanding. I honestly couldn’t have articulated the core of the issue better myself. I feel like I can forgive Wilson everything for it. He understands the power of words, and that’s something you can rely on. Speaking of meanings, have you heard the latest about Whiskers-on-the-moon, Mrs. Dr. dear? It seems he visited the Lowbridge Road school the other day and had the idea to quiz the fourth class on spelling. They still have the summer term there, you know, with spring and fall breaks since they’re a bit slow on that road. My niece, Ella Baker, attends that school and she was the one who told me the story. The teacher wasn’t feeling well, suffering from a terrible headache, so she went out for some fresh air while Mr. Pryor was testing the class. The kids did fine with spelling, but when Whiskers started asking them about the meanings of the words, they were completely lost because they hadn’t learned them. Ella and the older students felt awful about it. They care deeply for their teacher, and it appears Mr. Pryor’s brother, Abel Pryor, who is a trustee of the school, is against her and has been trying to sway the other trustees to his opinion. Ella and the others were worried that if the fourth class couldn’t explain the meanings to Whiskers, he would think poorly of the teacher and inform Abel, giving him a strong argument against her. But little Sandy Logan saved the day. He’s a local kid and smart as a whip, and he read Whiskers-on-the-moon perfectly. 'What does "anatomy" mean?' Whiskers asked. 'A pain in your stomach,' Sandy shot back instantly without batting an eye. Whiskers-on-the-moon is quite uninformed, Mrs. Dr. dear; he didn’t know the meanings himself, and he said 'Very good—very good.' The class quickly caught on—at least three or four of the brighter kids did—and they kept the joke going. Jean Blane claimed that 'acoustic' meant 'a religious argument,' and Muriel Baker said an 'agnostic' was 'a man who has indigestion,' and Jim Carter said 'acerbity' meant 'you ate only vegetables,' and so forth all the way down the line. Whiskers bought all of it, repeatedly saying 'Very good—very good' until Ella nearly burst trying to keep a straight face. When the teacher returned, Whiskers praised her on the remarkable grasp the children had of their lesson and said he intended to tell the trustees what a gem they had. He mentioned it was 'very unusual' to find a fourth class that could respond so quickly when it came to explaining meanings of words. He left beaming. But Ella shared this with me as a big secret, Mrs. Dr. dear, and we must keep it that way for the sake of the Lowbridge Road teacher. It could seriously jeopardize her chance of keeping the job if Whiskers ever discovered how he’d been fooled."
Mary Vance came up to Ingleside that same afternoon to tell them that Miller Douglas, who had been wounded when the Canadians took Hill 70, had had to have his leg amputated. The Ingleside folk sympathized with Mary, whose zeal and patriotism had taken some time to kindle but now burned with a glow as steady and bright as any one's.
Mary Vance came to Ingleside that same afternoon to tell them that Miller Douglas, who had been injured when the Canadians took Hill 70, had to have his leg amputated. The people at Ingleside felt for Mary, whose enthusiasm and patriotism had taken a while to ignite but now burned with a steady and bright glow, just like anyone else's.
"Some folks have been twitting me about having a husband with only one leg. But," said Mary, rising to a lofty height, "I would rather Miller with only one leg than any other man in the world with a dozen—unless," she added as an after-thought, "unless it was Lloyd George. Well, I must be going. I thought you'd be interested in hearing about Miller so I ran up from the store, but I must hustle home for I promised Luke MacAllister I'd help him build his grain stack this evening. It's up to us girls to see that the harvest is got in, since the boys are so scarce. I've got overalls and I can tell you they're real becoming. Mrs. Alec Douglas says they're indecent and shouldn't be allowed, and even Mrs. Elliott kinder looks askance at them. But bless you, the world moves, and anyhow there's no fun for me like shocking Kitty Alec."
"Some people have been teasing me about being married to a guy with only one leg. But," Mary said, standing proudly, "I’d choose Miller with one leg over any other man in the world with a dozen—unless," she added as an afterthought, "it was Lloyd George. Anyway, I have to go. I thought you’d want to hear about Miller, so I ran over from the store, but I need to hurry home because I promised Luke MacAllister I’d help him build his grain stack tonight. It’s up to us girls to make sure the harvest is brought in since the guys are so few. I’ve got overalls, and let me tell you, they look really good on me. Mrs. Alec Douglas says they’re inappropriate and shouldn’t be worn, and even Mrs. Elliott gives me the side-eye about them. But honestly, the world keeps moving, and there’s nothing more fun for me than shocking Kitty Alec."
"By the way, father," said Rilla, "I'm going to take Jack Flagg's place in his father's store for a month. I promised him today that I would, if you didn't object. Then he can help the farmers get the harvest in. I don't think I'd be much use in a harvest myself—though lots of the girls are—but I can set Jack free while I do his work. Jims isn't much bother in the daytime now, and I'll always be home at night."
"By the way, Dad," Rilla said, "I'm going to fill in for Jack Flagg at his dad's store for a month. I promised him today that I would, as long as you’re okay with it. That way, he can help the farmers with the harvest. I don’t think I’d be that helpful during the harvest myself—though a lot of the girls are—but I can take over Jack's shifts while I do his job. Jims isn't too much trouble during the day now, and I'll always be home at night."
"Do you think you'll like weighing out sugar and beans, and trafficking in butter and eggs?" said the doctor, twinkling.
"Do you think you'll enjoy measuring out sugar and beans, and dealing with butter and eggs?" said the doctor, with a twinkle in his eye.
"Probably not. That isn't the question. It's just one way of doing my bit." So Rilla went behind Mr. Flagg's counter for a month; and Susan went into Albert Crawford's oat-fields.
"Probably not. That isn't the question. It's just one way of doing my part." So Rilla went behind Mr. Flagg's counter for a month, and Susan went into Albert Crawford's oat fields.
"I am as good as any of them yet," she said proudly. "Not a man of them can beat me when it comes to building a stack. When I offered to help Albert looked doubtful. 'I am afraid the work will be too hard for you,' he said. 'Try me for a day and see,' said I. 'I will do my darnedest.'"
"I’m just as good as any of them," she said proudly. "Not one of them can outdo me when it comes to building a stack. When I offered to help, Albert seemed unsure. 'I’m worried the work will be too tough for you,' he said. 'Just give me a day and see,' I replied. 'I’ll give it my all.'"
None of the Ingleside folks spoke for just a moment. Their silence meant that they thought Susan's pluck in "working out" quite wonderful. But Susan mistook their meaning and her sun-burned face grew red.
None of the Ingleside folks spoke for a moment. Their silence meant they thought Susan's courage in "working things out" was pretty amazing. But Susan misunderstood and her sunburned face turned red.
"This habit of swearing seems to be growing on me, Mrs. Dr. dear," she said apologetically. "To think that I should be acquiring it at my age! It is such a dreadful example to the young girls. I am of the opinion it comes of reading the newspapers so much. They are so full of profanity and they do not spell it with stars either, as used to be done in my young days. This war is demoralizing everybody."
"This habit of swearing seems to be rubbing off on me, Mrs. Dr. dear," she said apologetically. "Can you believe I’m picking it up at my age? It sets such a bad example for the young girls. I think it’s from reading the newspapers so much. They're full of profanity, and they don’t even use stars like they did back in my day. This war is demoralizing everyone."
Susan, standing on a load of grain, her grey hair whipping in the breeze and her skirt kilted up to her knees for safety and convenience—no overalls for Susan, if you please—neither a beautiful nor a romantic figure; but the spirit that animated her gaunt arms was the self-same one that captured Vimy Ridge and held the German legions back from Verdun.
Susan stood on a pile of grain, her grey hair blowing in the breeze and her skirt pulled up to her knees for safety and convenience—no overalls for her, thank you very much—not a beautiful or romantic figure; but the spirit that drove her thin arms was the same one that took Vimy Ridge and kept the German forces at bay from Verdun.
It is not the least likely, however, that this consideration was the one which appealed most strongly to Mr. Pryor when he drove past one afternoon and saw Susan pitching sheaves gamely.
It's still possible that this thought was the one that caught Mr. Pryor's attention the most when he drove by one afternoon and saw Susan enthusiastically pitching sheaves.
"Smart woman that," he reflected. "Worth two of many a younger one yet. I might do worse—I might do worse. If Milgrave comes home alive I'll lose Miranda and hired housekeepers cost more than a wife and are liable to leave a man in the lurch any time. I'll think it over."
"Smart woman," he thought. "She's worth more than a lot of younger ones. I could do worse—I could do worse. If Milgrave comes back alive, I'll lose Miranda, and hiring housekeepers costs more than having a wife and they can bail on you anytime. I'll think it over."
A week later Mrs. Blythe, coming up from the village late in the afternoon, paused at the gate of Ingleside in an amazement which temporarily bereft her of the power of motion. An extraordinary sight met her eyes. Round the end of the kitchen burst Mr. Pryor, running as stout, pompous Mr. Pryor had not run in years, with terror imprinted on every lineament—a terror quite justifiable, for behind him, like an avenging fate, came Susan, with a huge, smoking iron pot grasped in her hands, and an expression in her eye that boded ill to the object of her indignation, if she should overtake him. Pursuer and pursued tore across the lawn. Mr. Pryor reached the gate a few feet ahead of Susan, wrenched it open, and fled down the road, without a glance at the transfixed lady of Ingleside.
A week later, Mrs. Blythe was walking back from the village in the late afternoon when she stopped at the gate of Ingleside, stunned to the point of being unable to move. What she saw was unbelievable. Mr. Pryor came rushing around the end of the kitchen, running faster than the stout, pompous man had in years, fear visible on his face—a fear that was completely warranted, as right behind him like a force of nature was Susan, holding a large, smoking iron pot in her hands and a look in her eyes that promised trouble for him if she caught up. The chase continued across the lawn. Mr. Pryor reached the gate just a few steps ahead of Susan, threw it open, and bolted down the road without even looking at the shocked woman at Ingleside.
"Susan," gasped Anne.
"Susan," Anne gasped.
Susan halted in her mad career, set down her pot, and shook her fist after Mr. Pryor, who had not ceased to run, evidently believing that Susan was still full cry after him.
Susan stopped her furious chase, put down her pot, and shook her fist at Mr. Pryor, who continued to run, clearly believing that Susan was still hot on his heels.
"Susan, what does this mean?" demanded Anne, a little severely.
"Susan, what does this mean?" Anne asked, a bit sternly.
"You may well ask that, Mrs. Dr. dear," Susan replied wrathfully. "I have not been so upset in years. That—that—that pacifist has actually had the audacity to come up here and, in my own kitchen, to ask me to marry him. HIM!"
"You might wonder about that, Mrs. Dr. dear," Susan replied angrily. "I haven't been this upset in years. That—that—that pacifist has actually had the nerve to come up here and, in my own kitchen, ask me to marry him. HIM!"
Anne choked back a laugh.
Anne suppressed a laugh.
"But—Susan! Couldn't you have found a—well, a less spectacular method of refusing him? Think what a gossip this would have made if anyone had been going past and had seen such a performance."
"But—Susan! Couldn't you have found a—well, a less dramatic way of turning him down? Imagine the gossip this would have caused if anyone had walked by and seen such a scene."
"Indeed, Mrs. Dr. dear, you are quite right. I did not think of it because I was quite past thinking rationally. I was just clean mad. Come in the house and I will tell you all about it."
"You're absolutely right, Mrs. Dr. dear. I didn’t think about it because I was beyond rational thought. I was completely out of my mind. Come inside, and I’ll fill you in on everything."
Susan picked up her pot and marched into the kitchen, still trembling with wrathful excitement. She set her pot on the stove with a vicious thud. "Wait a moment until I open all the windows to air this kitchen well, Mrs. Dr. dear. There, that is better. And I must wash my hands, too, because I shook hands with Whiskers-on-the-moon when he came in—not that I wanted to, but when he stuck out his fat, oily hand I did not know just what else to do at the moment. I had just finished my afternoon cleaning and thanks be, everything was shining and spotless; and thought I 'now that dye is boiling and I will get my rug rags and have them nicely out of the way before supper.'
Susan grabbed her pot and walked into the kitchen, still shaking with angry excitement. She placed her pot on the stove with a loud thud. "Hold on a second while I open all the windows to air this kitchen out, Mrs. Dr. dear. There, that's better. And I need to wash my hands too, because I shook hands with Whiskers-on-the-moon when he came in—not that I wanted to, but when he held out his fat, oily hand, I didn’t know what else to do at that moment. I had just finished my afternoon cleaning, and thank goodness, everything was shiny and spotless; I thought, 'Now that the dye is boiling, I’ll get my rug rags and get them nicely out of the way before dinner.'"
"Just then a shadow fell over the floor and looking up I saw Whiskers-on-the-moon, standing in the doorway, dressed up and looking as if he had just been starched and ironed. I shook hands with him, as aforesaid, Mrs. Dr. dear, and told him you and the doctor were both away. But he said,
"Just then a shadow fell over the floor, and looking up, I saw Whiskers-on-the-moon standing in the doorway, all dressed up and looking like he had just been starched and ironed. I shook hands with him, like I said, Mrs. Dr. dear, and told him you and the doctor were both out."
"I have come to see you, Miss Baker.'
"I've come to see you, Miss Baker."
"I asked him to sit down, for the sake of my own manners, and then I stood there right in the middle of the floor and gazed at him as contemptuously as I could. In spite of his brazen assurance this seemed to rattle him a little; but he began trying to look sentimental at me out of his little piggy eyes, and all at once an awful suspicion flashed into my mind. Something told me, Mrs. Dr. dear, that I was about to receive my first proposal. I have always thought that I would like to have just one offer of marriage to reject, so that I might be able to look other women in the face, but you will not hear me bragging of this. I consider it an insult and if I could have thought of any way of preventing it I would. But just then, Mrs. Dr. dear, you will see I was at a disadvantage, being taken so completely by surprise. Some men, I am told, consider a little preliminary courting the proper thing before a proposal, if only to give fair warning of their intentions; but Whiskers-on-the-moon probably thought it was any port in a storm for me and that I would jump at him. Well, he is undeceived—yes, he is undeceived, Mrs. Dr. dear. I wonder if he has stopped running yet."
"I asked him to sit down, just for the sake of my own manners, and then I stood there right in the middle of the room and looked at him as contemptuously as I could. Despite his bold confidence, this seemed to rattle him a bit; but he started trying to look sentimental at me with his little piggy eyes, and suddenly a terrible suspicion flashed into my mind. Something told me, Mrs. Dr. dear, that I was about to get my first marriage proposal. I've always thought it would be nice to have just one marriage offer to reject, so I could look other women in the eye, but you won't hear me bragging about it. I see it as an insult, and if I could have thought of any way to stop it, I would. But at that moment, Mrs. Dr. dear, you can see I was at a disadvantage since I was completely caught off guard. Some men, I’ve heard, think a little preliminary flirting is the right thing to do before a proposal, just to give fair warning of their intentions; but Whiskers-on-the-moon probably thought I would jump at the chance. Well, he’s been disillusioned—yes, he’s been disillusioned, Mrs. Dr. dear. I wonder if he's stopped running yet."
"I understand that you don't feel flattered, Susan. But couldn't you have refused him a little more delicately than by chasing him off the premises in such a fashion?"
"I get that you don't feel flattered, Susan. But couldn't you have turned him down a bit more gracefully instead of chasing him off the premises like that?"
"Well, maybe I might have, Mrs. Dr. dear, and I intended to, but one remark he made aggravated me beyond my powers of endurance. If it had not been for that I would not have chased him with my dye-pot. I will tell you the whole interview. Whiskers sat down, as I have said, and right beside him on another chair Doc was lying. The animal was pretending to be asleep but I knew very well he was not, for he has been Hyde all day and Hyde never sleeps. By the way, Mrs. Dr. dear, have you noticed that that cat is far oftener Hyde than Jekyll now? The more victories Germany wins the Hyder he becomes. I leave you to draw your own conclusions from that. I suppose Whiskers thought he might curry favour with me by praising the creature, little dreaming what my real sentiments towards it were, so he stuck out his pudgy hand and stroked Mr. Hyde's back. 'What a nice cat,' he said. The nice cat flew at him and bit him. Then it gave a fearful yowl, and bounded out of the door. Whiskers looked after it quite amazed. 'That is a queer kind of a varmint,' he said. I agreed with him on that point, but I was not going to let him see it. Besides, what business had he to call our cat a varmint? 'It may be a varmint or it may not,' I said, 'but it knows the difference between a Canadian and a Hun.' You would have thought, would you not, Mrs. Dr. dear, that a hint like that would have been enough for him! But it went no deeper than his skin. I saw him settling back quite comfortable, as if for a good talk, and thought I, 'If there is anything coming it may as well come soon and be done with, for with all these rags to dye before supper I have no time to waste in flirting,' so I spoke right out. 'If you have anything particular to discuss with me, Mr. Pryor, I would feel obliged if you would mention it without loss of time, because I am very busy this afternoon.' He fairly beamed at me out of that circle of red whisker, and said, 'You are a business-like woman and I agree with you. There is no use in wasting time beating around the bush. I came up here today to ask you to marry me.' So there it was, Mrs. Dr. dear. I had a proposal at last, after waiting sixty-four years for one.
"Well, maybe I should have, Mrs. Doctor dear, and I meant to, but one remark he made pushed me beyond my limits. If it hadn't been for that, I wouldn’t have chased him with my dye-pot. Let me tell you about the whole meeting. Whiskers sat down, as I mentioned, and right next to him on another chair was Doc lying down. The cat was pretending to be asleep, but I knew he wasn’t because he’s been Hyde all day and Hyde never sleeps. By the way, Mrs. Doctor dear, have you noticed that cat is Hyde way more often than Jekyll now? The more victories Germany has, the more he acts like Hyde. I’ll let you draw your own conclusions from that. I guess Whiskers thought he could win me over by complimenting the creature, not realizing how I truly felt about it, so he reached out his chubby hand and pet Mr. Hyde’s back. 'What a nice cat,' he said. The nice cat jumped at him and bit him. Then it let out a loud yowl and dashed out the door. Whiskers looked after it, quite shocked. 'That’s a strange kind of animal,' he said. I agreed with him on that, but I wasn’t about to let him see it. Besides, what right did he have to call our cat an animal? 'It may be an animal or it may not,' I said, 'but it knows the difference between a Canadian and a Hun.' You’d think, wouldn’t you, Mrs. Doctor dear, that a hint like that would have been enough for him! But it didn’t sink in. I saw him getting comfortable, as if we were about to have a nice chat, and I thought, 'If something’s coming, it might as well come soon because I have all these rags to dye before supper, and I don’t have time to waste flirting,' so I said directly, 'If you have something specific to discuss with me, Mr. Pryor, I’d appreciate it if you could get to the point quickly, because I’m very busy this afternoon.' He lit up with that circle of red whiskers and said, 'You are a business-like woman and I agree with you. There’s no point in wasting time beating around the bush. I came up here today to ask you to marry me.' So there it was, Mrs. Doctor dear. I finally had a proposal after waiting sixty-four years for one."
"I just glared at that presumptuous creature and I said, 'I would not marry you if you were the last man on earth, Josiah Pryor. So there you have my answer and you can take it away forthwith.' You never saw a man so taken aback as he was, Mrs. Dr. dear. He was so flabbergasted that he just blurted out the truth. 'Why, I thought you'd be only too glad to get a chance to be married,' he said. That was when I lost my head, Mrs. Dr. dear. Do you think I had a good excuse, when a Hun and a pacifist made such an insulting remark to me? 'Go,' I thundered, and I just caught up that iron pot. I could see that he thought I had suddenly gone insane, and I suppose he considered an iron pot full of boiling dye was a dangerous weapon in the hands of a lunatic. At any rate he went, and stood not upon the order of his going, as you saw for yourself. And I do not think we will see him back here proposing to us again in a hurry. No, I think he has learned that there is at least one single woman in Glen St. Mary who has no hankering to become Mrs. Whiskers-on-the-moon."
"I just glared at that arrogant guy and said, 'I wouldn’t marry you if you were the last man on earth, Josiah Pryor. So there’s my answer, and you can take it away immediately.' You’ve never seen someone so shocked as he was, Mrs. Dr. dear. He was so stunned that he just blurted out the truth. 'Well, I thought you’d be more than happy to get a chance to get married,' he said. That’s when I lost my temper, Mrs. Dr. dear. Do you think I had a good reason when a bully and a pacifist made such a rude comment to me? 'Go,' I shouted, and I grabbed that iron pot. I could see he thought I had suddenly gone crazy, and I guess he figured an iron pot full of boiling dye was a dangerous weapon in the hands of a madwoman. Anyway, he left without wasting any time, as you saw for yourself. And I don’t think we’ll see him back here proposing to us again anytime soon. No, I think he’s realized that there’s at least one single woman in Glen St. Mary who has no desire to become Mrs. Whiskers-on-the-moon."
CHAPTER XXVII
WAITING
Ingleside,
1st November 1917
Ingleside,
November 1, 1917
"It is November—and the Glen is all grey and brown, except where the Lombardy poplars stand up here and there like great golden torches in the sombre landscape, although every other tree has shed its leaves. It has been very hard to keep our courage alight of late. The Caporetto disaster is a dreadful thing and not even Susan can extract much consolation out of the present state of affairs. The rest of us don't try. Gertrude keeps saying desperately, 'They must not get Venice—they must not get Venice,' as if by saying it often enough she can prevent them. But what is to prevent them from getting Venice I cannot see. Yet, as Susan fails not to point out, there was seemingly nothing to prevent them from getting to Paris in 1914, yet they did not get it, and she affirms they shall not get Venice either. Oh, how I hope and pray they will not—Venice the beautiful Queen of the Adriatic. Although I've never seen it I feel about it just as Byron did—I've always loved it—it has always been to me 'a fairy city of the heart.' Perhaps I caught my love of it from Walter, who worshipped it. It was always one of his dreams to see Venice. I remember we planned once—down in Rainbow Valley one evening just before the war broke out—that some time we would go together to see it and float in a gondola through its moonlit streets.
It’s November—and the Glen is all grey and brown, except for the Lombardy poplars that stand here and there like big golden torches in the gloomy landscape, even though every other tree has lost its leaves. It’s been really hard to keep our spirits up lately. The Caporetto disaster is a terrible thing, and even Susan can’t find much comfort in the current situation. The rest of us don’t bother trying. Gertrude keeps saying desperately, ‘They must not get Venice—they must not get Venice,’ as if repeating it enough will stop them. But I can’t see what’s going to stop them from taking Venice. Yet, as Susan keeps pointing out, there seemed to be nothing to stop them from reaching Paris in 1914, and they didn’t get it then, so she insists they won’t get Venice either. Oh, how I hope and pray they won’t—Venice, the beautiful Queen of the Adriatic. Although I’ve never seen it, I feel about it just like Byron did—I’ve always adored it—it has always been to me ‘a fairy city of the heart.’ Maybe I caught my love for it from Walter, who worshipped it. It was always one of his dreams to see Venice. I remember we once planned—down in Rainbow Valley one evening just before the war broke out—that someday we would go together to see it and ride in a gondola through its moonlit streets.
"Every fall since the war began there has been some terrible blow to our troops—Antwerp in 1914, Serbia in 1915; last fall, Rumania, and now Italy, the worst of all. I think I would give up in despair if it were not for what Walter said in his dear last letter—that 'the dead as well as the living were fighting on our side and such an army cannot be defeated.' No it cannot. We will win in the end. I will not doubt it for one moment. To let myself doubt would be to 'break faith.'
"Every fall since the war started, our troops have suffered a terrible setback—Antwerp in 1914, Serbia in 1915; last fall, Romania, and now Italy, the worst of all. I think I'd give up in despair if it weren't for what Walter wrote in his last letter—that 'the dead as well as the living were fighting on our side and such an army cannot be defeated.' No, it can't. We will win in the end. I won't doubt it for a second. To let myself doubt would be to 'break faith.'
"We have all been campaigning furiously of late for the new Victory Loan. We Junior Reds canvassed diligently and landed several tough old customers who had at first flatly refused to invest. I—even I—tackled Whiskers-on-the-moon. I expected a bad time and a refusal. But to my amazement he was quite agreeable and promised on the spot to take a thousand dollar bond. He may be a pacifist, but he knows a good investment when it is handed out to him. Five and a half per cent is five and a half per cent, even when a militaristic government pays it.
"We've all been campaigning hard lately for the new Victory Loan. We Junior Reds worked diligently and managed to convince some tough old customers who initially refused to invest. I—even I—approached Whiskers-on-the-moon. I expected a rough time and a refusal. But to my surprise, he was quite open to the idea and promised on the spot to buy a thousand-dollar bond. He may be a pacifist, but he knows a good investment when he sees one. Five and a half percent is five and a half percent, even when a militaristic government is offering it."
"Father, to tease Susan, says it was her speech at the Victory Loan Campaign meeting that converted Mr. Pryor. I don't think that at all likely, since Mr. Pryor has been publicly very bitter against Susan ever since her quite unmistakable rejection of his lover-like advances. But Susan did make a speech—and the best one made at the meeting, too. It was the first time she ever did such a thing and she vows it will be the last. Everybody in the Glen was at the meeting, and quite a number of speeches were made, but somehow things were a little flat and no especial enthusiasm could be worked up. Susan was quite dismayed at the lack of zeal, because she had been burningly anxious that the Island should go over the top in regard to its quota. She kept whispering viciously to Gertrude and me that there was 'no ginger' in the speeches; and when nobody went forward to subscribe to the loan at the close Susan 'lost her head.' At least, that is how she describes it herself. She bounded to her feet, her face grim and set under her bonnet—Susan is the only woman in Glen St. Mary who still wears a bonnet—and said sarcastically and loudly, 'No doubt it is much cheaper to talk patriotism than it is to pay for it. And we are asking charity, of course—we are asking you to lend us your money for nothing! No doubt the Kaiser will feel quite downcast when he hears of this meeting!"
"Dad, to tease Susan, says her speech at the Victory Loan Campaign meeting convinced Mr. Pryor. I really don’t think so, since Mr. Pryor has been openly bitter towards Susan ever since she clearly turned down his romantic advances. But Susan did give a speech—and it was the best one at the meeting, too. It was the first time she ever did something like that, and she promises it will be the last. Everyone in the Glen attended the meeting, and quite a few speeches were made, but for some reason, it felt a bit dull and there wasn’t much enthusiasm. Susan was really upset about the lack of energy because she was really eager for the Island to meet its quota. She kept whispering harshly to Gertrude and me that there was 'no spirit' in the speeches; and when no one stepped forward to pledge to the loan at the end, Susan 'lost her cool.' At least, that’s how she puts it. She jumped to her feet, her face stern under her bonnet—Susan is the only woman in Glen St. Mary who still wears a bonnet—and said sarcastically and loudly, 'No doubt it’s much easier to talk about patriotism than to pay for it. And we are asking for charity, of course—we’re asking you to lend us your money for nothing! I’m sure the Kaiser will feel quite disappointed when he hears about this meeting!'"
"Susan has an unshaken belief that the Kaiser's spies—presumably represented by Mr. Pryor—promptly inform him of every happening in our Glen.
"Susan firmly believes that the Kaiser's spies—likely represented by Mr. Pryor—quickly tell him about everything that happens in our Glen."
"Norman Douglas shouted out 'Hear! Hear!' and some boy at the back said, 'What about Lloyd George?' in a tone Susan didn't like. Lloyd George is her pet hero, now that Kitchener is gone.
"Norman Douglas shouted 'Hear! Hear!' and some kid at the back said, 'What about Lloyd George?' in a way Susan didn't like. Lloyd George is her favorite hero now that Kitchener is gone."
"'I stand behind Lloyd George every time,' retorted Susan.
"I always support Lloyd George," Susan shot back.
"'I suppose that will hearten him up greatly,' said Warren Mead, with one of his disagreeable 'haw-haws.'
"'I guess that will really cheer him up,' said Warren Mead, with one of his annoying 'haw-haws.'
"Warren's remark was spark to powder. Susan just 'sailed in' as she puts it, and 'said her say.' She said it remarkably well, too. There was no lack of 'ginger' in her speech, anyhow. When Susan is warmed up she has no mean powers of oratory, and the way she trimmed those men down was funny and wonderful and effective all at once. She said it was the likes of her, millions of her, that did stand behind Lloyd George, and did hearten him up. That was the key-note of her speech. Dear old Susan! She is a perfect dynamo of patriotism and loyalty and contempt for slackers of all kinds, and when she let it loose on that audience in her one grand outburst she electrified it. Susan always vows she is no suffragette, but she gave womanhood its due that night, and she literally made those men cringe. When she finished with them they were ready to eat out of her hand. She wound up by ordering them—yes, ordering them—to march up to the platform forthwith and subscribe for Victory Bonds. And after wild applause most of them did it, even Warren Mead. When the total amount subscribed came out in the Charlottetown dailies the next day we found that the Glen led every district on the Island—and certainly Susan has the credit for it. She, herself, after she came home that night was quite ashamed and evidently feared that she had been guilty of unbecoming conduct: she confessed to mother that she had been 'rather unladylike.'
Warren's comment ignited a spark. Susan just "sailed in," as she puts it, and "said her piece." And she said it remarkably well, too. There was definitely no shortage of enthusiasm in her speech. When Susan gets fired up, she has some serious oratory skills, and the way she took those men down was both funny and impressive. She pointed out that it was people like her—millions of them—who stood behind Lloyd George and encouraged him. That was the main focus of her speech. Dear old Susan! She is a powerhouse of patriotism, loyalty, and disdain for slackers of all kinds, and when she unleashed that on the audience in one grand moment, she electrified them. Susan always insists she's not a suffragette, but she gave women their due that night and practically made those men cringe. By the time she was done, they were ready to do whatever she said. She wrapped up by telling them—yes, telling them—to march up to the platform right away and sign up for Victory Bonds. And after wild applause, most of them did, even Warren Mead. The next day, when the total amounts contributed were published in the Charlottetown dailies, we saw that the Glen topped every district on the Island—and Susan definitely deserves the credit for that. When she got home that night, she felt a bit ashamed and clearly worried that she had acted inappropriately: she admitted to mom that she had been "rather unladylike."
"We were all—except Susan—out for a trial ride in father's new automobile tonight. A very good one we had, too, though we did get ingloriously ditched at the end, owing to a certain grim old dame—to wit, Miss Elizabeth Carr of the Upper Glen—who wouldn't rein her horse out to let us pass, honk as we might. Father was quite furious; but in my heart I believe I sympathized with Miss Elizabeth. If I had been a spinster lady, driving along behind my own old nag, in maiden meditation fancy free, I wouldn't have lifted a rein when an obstreperous car hooted blatantly behind me. I should just have sat up as dourly as she did and said 'Take the ditch if you are determined to pass.'
We were all—except Susan—out for a test drive in Dad's new car tonight. It was a lot of fun, too, even though we ended up stuck in a ditch at the end because of a certain stern woman—Miss Elizabeth Carr from the Upper Glen—who wouldn’t pull her horse over to let us go by, no matter how much we honked. Dad was really mad; but deep down, I think I felt for Miss Elizabeth. If I had been an unmarried woman driving along behind my own old horse, lost in my thoughts and carefree, I wouldn’t have moved a muscle when a loud car beeped behind me. I would have just sat there as seriously as she did and said, 'Go ahead and take the ditch if you’re set on passing.'
"We did take the ditch—and got up to our axles in sand—and sat foolishly there while Miss Elizabeth clucked up her horse and rattled victoriously away.
"We took the ditch—and got stuck up to our axles in sand—and sat there foolishly while Miss Elizabeth urged her horse on and triumphantly rode away."
"Jem will have a laugh when I write him this. He knows Miss Elizabeth of old.
"Jem is going to get a kick out of this when I send it to him. He knows Miss Elizabeth from way back."
"But—will—Venice—be—saved?"
"But will Venice be saved?"
19th November 1917
November 19, 1917
"It is not saved yet—it is still in great danger. But the Italians are making a stand at last on the Piave line. To be sure military critics say they cannot possibly hold it and must retreat to the Adige. But Susan and Gertrude and I say they must hold it, because Venice must be saved, so what are the military critics to do?
"It’s not safe yet—it’s still in a lot of danger. But the Italians are finally putting up a fight on the Piave line. Of course, military experts say they can’t possibly hold it and will have to retreat to the Adige. But Susan, Gertrude, and I believe they have to hold it because Venice needs to be saved, so what do the military experts know?"
"Oh, if I could only believe that they can hold it!
"Oh, if only I could believe that they can actually pull it off!
"Our Canadian troops have won another great victory—they have stormed the Passchendaele Ridge and held it in the face of all counter attacks. None of our boys were in the battle—but oh, the casualty list of other people's boys! Joe Milgrave was in it but came through safe. Miranda had some bad days until she got word from him. But it is wonderful how Miranda has bloomed out since her marriage. She isn't the same girl at all. Even her eyes seem to have darkened and deepened—though I suppose that is just because they glow with the greater intensity that has come to her. She makes her father stand round in a perfectly amazing fashion; she runs up the flag whenever a yard of trench on the western front is taken; and she comes up regularly to our Junior Red Cross; and she does—yes, she does—put on funny little 'married woman' airs that are quite killing. But she is the only war-bride in the Glen and surely nobody need grudge her the satisfaction she gets out of it.
"Our Canadian troops have achieved another incredible victory—they have attacked the Passchendaele Ridge and held their ground despite all the counterattacks. None of our guys were in the fight—but oh, the casualty list of other people's boys! Joe Milgrave was there but made it through safely. Miranda had some tough days until she heard from him. But it’s amazing how much Miranda has come into her own since getting married. She’s not the same girl anymore. Even her eyes seem darker and deeper—though I guess that’s just because they shine with a new intensity. She has her father in line in an astonishing way; she raises the flag whenever a section of trench on the western front is captured; and she shows up regularly at our Junior Red Cross events; and she does—yes, she does—put on these cute little 'married woman' airs that are quite charming. But she’s the only war bride in the Glen, and surely no one should begrudge her the happiness she gets from it."
"The Russian news is bad, too—Kerensky's government has fallen and Lenin is dictator of Russia. Somehow, it is very hard to keep up courage in the dull hopelessness of these grey autumn days of suspense and boding news. But we are beginning to 'get in a low,' as old Highland Sandy says, over the approaching election. Conscription is the real issue at stake and it will be the most exciting election we ever had. All the women 'who have got de age'—to quote Jo Poirier, and who have husbands, sons, and brothers at the front, can vote. Oh, if I were only twenty-one! Gertrude and Susan are both furious because they can't vote.
"The news from Russia is pretty grim—Kerensky's government has fallen and Lenin is now the dictator of Russia. It’s really tough to stay optimistic in the tedious hopelessness of these dull, grey autumn days filled with uncertainty and bad news. But we’re starting to feel a bit down, as old Highland Sandy would say, over the upcoming election. Conscription is the main issue at stake, and it’s going to be the most exciting election we’ve ever had. All the women ‘who are of age’—to quote Jo Poirier, and who have husbands, sons, and brothers at the front, can vote. Oh, if only I were twenty-one! Gertrude and Susan are both really upset that they can’t vote."
"'It is not fair,' Gertrude says passionately. 'There is Agnes Carr who can vote because her husband went. She did everything she could to prevent him from going, and now she is going to vote against the Union Government. Yet I have no vote, because my man at the front is only my sweetheart and not my husband!"
"'It's not fair,' Gertrude says passionately. 'There’s Agnes Carr who can vote because her husband went. She did everything she could to stop him from going, and now she's going to vote against the Union Government. Yet I have no vote because my guy at the front is just my boyfriend and not my husband!'"
"As for Susan, when she reflects that she cannot vote, while a rank old pacifist like Mr. Pryor can—and will—her comments are sulphurous.
"As for Susan, when she thinks about how she can’t vote, while an old pacifist like Mr. Pryor can—and definitely will—her remarks are scathing."
"I really feel sorry for the Elliotts and Crawfords and MacAllisters over-harbour. They have always lined up in clearly divided camps of Liberal and Conservative, and now they are torn from their moorings—I know I'm mixing my metaphors dreadfully—and set hopelessly adrift. It will kill some of those old Grits to vote for Sir Robert Borden's side—and yet they have to because they believe the time has come when we must have conscription. And some poor Conservatives who are against conscription must vote for Laurier, who always has been anathema to them. Some of them are taking it terribly hard. Others seem to be in much the same attitude as Mrs. Marshall Elliott has come to be regarding Church Union.
"I really feel sorry for the Elliotts, Crawfords, and MacAllisters across the harbor. They've always been clearly divided into Liberal and Conservative camps, and now they feel completely lost—I know I'm mixing my metaphors badly—and are left adrift. It's going to be really tough for some of those old Grits to vote for Sir Robert Borden's side—but they have to, because they believe the time has come for conscription. And some poor Conservatives who are against conscription are forced to vote for Laurier, who has always been repugnant to them. Some of them are really struggling with this. Others seem to share the same view that Mrs. Marshall Elliott has developed toward Church Union."
"She was up here last night. She doesn't come as often as she used to. She is growing too old to walk this far—dear old 'Miss Cornelia.' I hate to think of her growing old—we have always loved her so and she has always been so good to us Ingleside young fry.
"She was up here last night. She doesn't come as often as she used to. She's getting too old to walk this far—dear old 'Miss Cornelia.' It makes me sad to think about her getting older—we've always loved her so much, and she has always been so good to us Ingleside kids."
"She used to be so bitterly opposed to Church Union. But last night, when father told her it was practically decided, she said in a resigned tone, 'Well, in a world where everything is being rent and torn what matters one more rending and tearing? Anyhow, compared with Germans even Methodists seem attractive to me.'
"She used to be really against Church Union. But last night, when Dad told her it was pretty much settled, she said in a resigned tone, 'Well, in a world where everything is being ripped apart, what does one more rending and tearing matter? Anyway, compared to Germans, even Methodists seem appealing to me.'"
"Our Junior R.C. goes on quite smoothly, in spite of the fact that Irene has come back to it—having fallen out with the Lowbridge society, I understand. She gave me a sweet little jab last meeting—about knowing me across the square in Charlottetown 'by my green velvet hat.' Everybody knows me by that detestable and detested hat. This will be my fourth season for it. Even mother wanted me to get a new one this fall; but I said, 'No.' As long as the war lasts so long do I wear that velvet hat in winter."
"Our Junior R.C. is going pretty well, even though Irene is back—apparently, she had a falling out with the Lowbridge crowd. She threw me a cute little jab at the last meeting about recognizing me across the square in Charlottetown 'by my green velvet hat.' Everyone knows me by that annoying and hated hat. This will be my fourth season with it. Even my mom wanted me to get a new one this fall, but I said, 'No.' As long as the war goes on, I’ll keep wearing that velvet hat in winter."
23rd November 1917
November 23, 1917
"The Piave line still holds—and General Byng has won a splendid victory at Cambrai. I did run up the flag for that—but Susan only said 'I shall set a kettle of water on the kitchen range tonight. I notice little Kitchener always has an attack of croup after any British victory. I do hope he has no pro-German blood in his veins. Nobody knows much about his father's people.'
"The Piave line is still holding strong—and General Byng has achieved a fantastic victory at Cambrai. I did raise the flag for that—but Susan just said, 'I’ll put a kettle of water on the stove tonight. I’ve noticed little Kitchener always seems to come down with croup after any British win. I really hope he doesn't have any pro-German blood in him. Nobody knows much about his father's side of the family.'"
"Jims has had a few attacks of croup this fall—just the ordinary croup—not that terrible thing he had last year. But whatever blood runs in his little veins it is good, healthy blood. He is rosy and plump and curly and cute; and he says such funny things and asks such comical questions. He likes very much to sit in a special chair in the kitchen; but that is Susan's favourite chair, too, and when she wants it, out Jims must go. The last time she put him out of it he turned around and asked solemnly, 'When you are dead, Susan, can I sit in that chair?' Susan thought it quite dreadful, and I think that was when she began to feel anxiety about his possible ancestry. The other night I took Jims with me for a walk down to the store. It was the first time he had ever been out so late at night, and when he saw the stars he exclaimed, 'Oh, Willa, see the big moon and all the little moons!' And last Wednesday morning, when he woke up, my little alarm clock had stopped because I had forgotten to wind it up. Jims bounded out of his crib and ran across to me, his face quite aghast above his little blue flannel pyjamas. 'The clock is dead,' he gasped, 'oh Willa, the clock is dead.'
"Jims has had a few cases of croup this fall—just the usual croup—not that awful stuff he had last year. But whatever blood runs in his little veins is good, healthy blood. He is rosy and chubby and cute with curly hair; plus, he says such funny things and asks the silliest questions. He really likes to sit in a special chair in the kitchen; but that's Susan's favorite chair too, and when she wants it, Jims has to go. The last time she kicked him out, he turned around and asked seriously, 'When you’re dead, Susan, can I sit in that chair?' Susan found it quite shocking, and I think that’s when she started to worry about his possible family background. The other night, I took Jims with me for a walk to the store. It was the first time he had ever been out this late, and when he saw the stars, he exclaimed, 'Oh, Willa, look at the big moon and all the little moons!' And last Wednesday morning, when he woke up, my little alarm clock had stopped because I forgot to wind it. Jims jumped out of his crib and ran over to me, his face completely shocked above his little blue flannel pajamas. 'The clock is dead,' he gasped, 'oh Willa, the clock is dead.'"
"One night he was quite angry with both Susan and me because we would not give him something he wanted very much. When he said his prayers he plumped down wrathfully, and when he came to the petition 'Make me a good boy' he tacked on emphatically, 'and please make Willa and Susan good, 'cause they're not.'
"One night he was really upset with both Susan and me because we wouldn’t give him something he wanted really badly. When he said his prayers, he sat down angrily, and when he got to the part where he said, 'Make me a good boy,' he added emphatically, 'and please make Willa and Susan good, because they’re not.'"
"I don't go about quoting Jims's speeches to all I meet. That always bores me when other people do it! I just enshrine them in this old hotch-potch of a journal!
"I don't go around quoting Jim's speeches to everyone I meet. It always bores me when other people do that! I just keep them in this old mishmash of a journal!"
"This very evening as I put Jims to bed he looked up and asked me gravely, 'Why can't yesterday come back, Willa?'
"This evening, as I was putting Jims to bed, he looked up and asked me seriously, 'Why can't yesterday come back, Willa?'"
"Oh, why can't it, Jims? That beautiful 'yesterday' of dreams and laughter—when our boys were home—when Walter and I read and rambled and watched new moons and sunsets together in Rainbow Valley. If it could just come back! But yesterdays never come back, little Jims—and the todays are dark with clouds—and we dare not think about the tomorrows."
"Oh, why can't it, Jims? That beautiful 'yesterday' of dreams and laughter—when our boys were home—when Walter and I read and wandered and watched new moons and sunsets together in Rainbow Valley. If it could just return! But yesterdays never come back, little Jims—and the todays are dark with clouds—and we shouldn’t think about the tomorrows."
11th December 1917
December 11, 1917
"Wonderful news came today. The British troops captured Jerusalem yesterday. We ran up the flag and some of Gertrude's old sparkle came back to her for a moment.
"Great news came today. The British troops captured Jerusalem yesterday. We raised the flag and Gertrude's old sparkle returned for a moment."
"'After all,' she said, 'it is worth while to live in the days which see the object of the Crusades attained. The ghosts of all the Crusaders must have crowded the walls of Jerusalem last night, with Coeur-de-lion at their head.'
"'After all,' she said, 'it's worth it to live in a time that sees the goals of the Crusades achieved. The spirits of all the Crusaders must have filled the walls of Jerusalem last night, with Coeur-de-lion leading them.'"
"Susan had cause for satisfaction also.
"Susan had reasons to feel satisfied too."
"'I am so thankful I can pronounce Jerusalem and Hebron,' she said. 'They give me a real comfortable feeling after Przemysl and Brest-Litovsk! Well, we have got the Turks on the run, at least, and Venice is safe and Lord Lansdowne is not to be taken seriously; and I see no reason why we should be downhearted.'
"I’m really glad I can say Jerusalem and Hebron," she said. "They make me feel so much better after Przemysl and Brest-Litovsk! Well, at least we’ve got the Turks on the run, Venice is safe, and we shouldn't take Lord Lansdowne seriously; I don’t see any reason for us to be discouraged."
"Jerusalem! The 'meteor flag of England!' floats over you—the Crescent is gone. How Walter would have thrilled over that!"
"Jerusalem! The 'meteor flag of England!' flies above you—the Crescent has disappeared. How thrilled Walter would have been about that!"
18th December 1917
December 18, 1917
"Yesterday the election came off. In the evening mother and Susan and Gertrude and I forgathered in the living-room and waited in breathless suspense, father having gone down to the village. We had no way of hearing the news, for Carter Flagg's store is not on our line, and when we tried to get it Central always answered that the line 'was busy'—as no doubt it was, for everybody for miles around was trying to get Carter's store for the same reason we were.
"Yesterday, the election took place. In the evening, Mom, Susan, Gertrude, and I gathered in the living room, waiting in eager suspense while Dad went down to the village. We had no way of hearing the news since Carter Flagg's store isn't on our line, and whenever we tried to call, Central always said the line 'was busy'—which it probably was, because everyone for miles around was trying to reach Carter's store for the same reason we were."
"About ten o'clock Gertrude went to the 'phone and happened to catch someone from over-harbour talking to Carter Flagg. Gertrude shamelessly listened in and got for her comforting what eavesdroppers are proverbially supposed to get—to wit, unpleasant hearing; the Union Government had 'done nothing' in the West.
"About ten o'clock, Gertrude went to the phone and happened to catch someone from across the harbor talking to Carter Flagg. Gertrude shamelessly listened in and got what eavesdroppers are famously supposed to get—unpleasant news; the Union Government had 'done nothing' in the West."
"We looked at each other in dismay. If the Government had failed to carry the West, it was defeated.
"We looked at each other in shock. If the government couldn't win over the West, it was done for."
"'Canada is disgraced in the eyes of the world,' said Gertrude bitterly.
"'Canada is disgraced in the eyes of the world,' Gertrude said bitterly."
"'If everybody was like the Mark Crawfords over-harbour this would not have happened,' groaned Susan. 'They locked their Uncle up in the barn this morning and would not let him out until he promised to vote Union. That is what I call effective argument, Mrs. Dr. dear.'
"'If everyone was like the Mark Crawfords from across the harbor, this wouldn’t have happened,' Susan groaned. 'They locked their uncle in the barn this morning and wouldn’t let him out until he promised to vote Union. That’s what I call effective persuasion, Mrs. Dr. dear.'"
"Gertrude and I couldn't rest after all that. We walked the floor until our legs gave out and we had to sit down perforce. Mother knitted away as steadily as clockwork and pretended to be calm and serene—pretended so well that we were all deceived and envious until the next day, when I caught her ravelling out four inches of her sock. She had knit that far past where the heel should have begun!
"Gertrude and I couldn't settle down after everything that happened. We paced back and forth until our legs gave out and we had to sit down. Mom kept knitting steadily, acting all calm and collected—she faked it so well that we were all taken in and a bit jealous until the next day when I saw her undoing four inches of her sock. She had knit that much past where the heel should have started!"
"It was twelve before father came home. He stood in the doorway and looked at us and we looked at him. We did not dare ask him what the news was. Then he said that it was Laurier who had 'done nothing' in the West, and that the Union Government was in with a big majority. Gertrude clapped her hands. I wanted to laugh and cry, mother's eyes flashed with their old-time starriness and Susan emitted a queer sound between a gasp and a whoop.
"It was midnight when Dad finally came home. He stood in the doorway and stared at us, and we stared back at him. We didn't dare ask him what the news was. Then he said that Laurier had 'done nothing' in the West and that the Union Government had a huge majority. Gertrude clapped her hands. I wanted to laugh and cry, Mom's eyes sparkled like they used to, and Susan made a strange sound that was somewhere between a gasp and a cheer."
"This will not comfort the Kaiser much,' she said.
"This won't comfort the Kaiser much," she said.
"Then we went to bed, but were too excited to sleep. Really, as Susan said solemnly this morning, 'Mrs. Dr. dear, I think politics are too strenuous for women.'"
"Then we went to bed, but we were too excited to sleep. Honestly, as Susan said seriously this morning, 'Mrs. Dr. dear, I think politics are too intense for women.'"
31st December 1917
December 31, 1917
"Our fourth War Christmas is over. We are trying to gather up some courage wherewith to face another year of it. Germany has, for the most part, been victorious all summer. And now they say she has all her troops from the Russian front ready for a 'big push' in the spring. Sometimes it seems to me that we just cannot live through the winter waiting for that.
"Our fourth War Christmas is over. We're trying to muster up some courage to face another year of this. Germany has mostly been winning all summer. Now they say she has all her troops from the Russian front ready for a 'big push' in the spring. Sometimes it feels like we just can’t survive the winter waiting for that."
"I had a great batch of letters from overseas this week. Shirley is at the front now, too, and writes about it all as coolly and matter-of-factly as he used to write of football at Queen's. Carl wrote that it had been raining for weeks and that nights in the trenches always made him think of the night of long ago when he did penance in the graveyard for running away from Henry Warren's ghost. Carl's letters are always full of jokes and bits of fun. They had a great rat-hunt the night before he wrote—spearing rats with their bayonets—and he got the best bag and won the prize. He has a tame rat that knows him and sleeps in his pocket at night. Rats don't worry Carl as they do some people—he was always chummy with all little beasts. He says he is making a study of the habits of the trench rat and means to write a treatise on it some day that will make him famous.
"I received a great batch of letters from overseas this week. Shirley is at the front now too, and he writes about it all as casually and matter-of-factly as he used to write about football at Queen's. Carl mentioned that it had been raining for weeks, and that nights in the trenches always remind him of that long-ago night when he did penance in the graveyard for running away from Henry Warren's ghost. Carl's letters are always filled with jokes and bits of fun. They had a big rat hunt the night before he wrote—spearing rats with their bayonets—and he got the best haul and won a prize. He has a pet rat that knows him and sleeps in his pocket at night. Rats don't bother Carl the way they do some people—he's always been friendly with all little creatures. He says he is studying the habits of the trench rat and plans to write a treatise on it someday that will make him famous."
"Ken wrote a short letter. His letters are all rather short now—and he doesn't often slip in those dear little sudden sentences I love so much. Sometimes I think he has forgotten all about the night he was here to say goodbye—and then there will be just a line or a word that makes me think he remembers and always will remember. For instance to-day's letter hadn't a thing in it that mightn't have been written to any girl, except that he signed himself 'Your Kenneth,' instead of 'Yours, Kenneth,' as he usually does. Now, did he leave that 's' off intentionally or was it only carelessness? I shall lie awake half the night wondering. He is a captain now. I am glad and proud—and yet Captain Ford sounds so horribly far away and high up. Ken and Captain Ford seem like two different persons. I may be practically engaged to Ken—mother's opinion on that point is my stay and bulwark—but I can't be to Captain Ford!
"Ken wrote a quick letter. His letters are all pretty short now—and he doesn’t really include those sweet little sudden sentences I adore so much. Sometimes I think he has forgotten all about the night he was here to say goodbye—and then there’s just a line or a word that makes me feel like he remembers and always will. For example, today’s letter didn’t have anything in it that couldn’t have been written to any girl, except that he signed it 'Your Kenneth' instead of 'Yours, Kenneth,' which he normally does. Now, did he leave that 's' off on purpose or was it just a mistake? I’ll stay awake half the night wondering. He’s a captain now. I’m glad and proud—but 'Captain Ford' sounds so terribly far away and high up. Ken and Captain Ford feel like two separate people. I might be practically engaged to Ken—my mom’s view on that is my support and shield—but I can’t be to Captain Ford!"
"And Jem is a lieutenant now—won his promotion on the field. He sent me a snap-shot, taken in his new uniform. He looked thin and old—old—my boy-brother Jem. I can't forget mother's face when I showed it to her. 'That—my little Jem—the baby of the old House of Dreams?' was all she said.
"And Jem is a lieutenant now—he earned his promotion in the field. He sent me a snapshot in his new uniform. He looked thin and older—older—my little brother Jem. I can't forget the look on Mom's face when I showed it to her. 'That—my little Jem—the baby of the old House of Dreams?' was all she said."
"There was a letter from Faith, too. She is doing V.A.D. work in England and writes hopefully and brightly. I think she is almost happy—she saw Jem on his last leave and she is so near him she could go to him, if he were wounded. That means so much to her. Oh, if I were only with her! But my work is here at home. I know Walter wouldn't have wanted me to leave mother and in everything I try to 'keep faith' with him, even to the little details of daily life. Walter died for Canada—I must live for her. That is what he asked me to do."
There was also a letter from Faith. She’s doing V.A.D. work in England and writes with hope and positivity. I think she’s almost happy—she saw Jem on his last leave, and she’s so close to him that she could visit if he got wounded. That means a lot to her. Oh, if only I could be with her! But my place is here at home. I know Walter wouldn’t have wanted me to leave mom, and in everything, I try to 'keep faith' with him, even in the little details of everyday life. Walter died for Canada—I must live for her. That’s what he asked me to do.
28th January 1918
January 28, 1918
"'I shall anchor my storm-tossed soul to the British fleet and make a batch of bran biscuits,' said Susan today to Cousin Sophia, who had come in with some weird tale of a new and all-conquering submarine, just launched by Germany. But Susan is a somewhat disgruntled woman at present, owing to the regulations regarding cookery. Her loyalty to the Union Government is being sorely tried. It surmounted the first strain gallantly. When the order about flour came Susan said, quite cheerfully, 'I am an old dog to be learning new tricks, but I shall learn to make war bread if it will help defeat the Huns.'
"'I will anchor my storm-tossed soul to the British fleet and make a batch of bran biscuits,' said Susan today to Cousin Sophia, who had come in with some strange story about a new, unstoppable submarine just launched by Germany. But Susan is feeling a bit disgruntled at the moment, thanks to the cooking regulations. Her loyalty to the Union Government is being seriously tested. She handled the first challenge with courage. When the order about flour came out, Susan said quite cheerfully, 'I’m an old dog learning new tricks, but I’ll learn to make war bread if it helps defeat the Huns.'"
"But the later suggestions went against Susan's grain. Had it not been for father's decree I think she would have snapped her fingers at Sir Robert Borden.
But the later suggestions really annoyed Susan. If it hadn't been for her father's decision, I think she would have just dismissed Sir Robert Borden.
"'Talk about trying to make bricks without straw, Mrs. Dr. dear! How am I to make a cake without butter or sugar? It cannot be done—not cake that is cake. Of course one can make a slab, Mrs. Dr. dear. And we cannot even camooflash it with a little icing! To think that I should have lived to see the day when a government at Ottawa should step into my kitchen and put me on rations!'
"'Talk about trying to make bricks without straw, Mrs. Dr. dear! How am I supposed to make a cake without butter or sugar? It's impossible—not a real cake. Sure, I could make something that resembles one, Mrs. Dr. dear. And we can't even disguise it with a bit of icing! Can you believe I've lived to see the day when a government in Ottawa would step into my kitchen and limit my supplies!'
"Susan would give the last drop of her blood for her 'king and country,' but to surrender her beloved recipes is a very different and much more serious matter.
"Susan would give her last drop of blood for her 'king and country,' but giving up her beloved recipes is a completely different and much more serious issue."
"I had letters from Nan and Di too—or rather notes. They are too busy to write letters, for exams are looming up. They will graduate in Arts this spring. I am evidently to be the dunce of the family. But somehow I never had any hankering for a college course, and even now it doesn't appeal to me. I'm afraid I'm rather devoid of ambition. There is only one thing I really want to be—and I don't know if I'll be it or not. If not—I don't want to be anything. But I shan't write it down. It is all right to think it; but, as Cousin Sophia would say, it might be brazen to write it down.
"I got notes from Nan and Di too. They’re too busy to write letters because exams are coming up. They’re set to graduate in Arts this spring. It looks like I’m going to be the family underachiever. But honestly, I’ve never really wanted to go to college, and even now it doesn’t interest me. I’m afraid I don’t have much ambition. There’s only one thing I really want to be—and I’m not sure if I will be that. If not, I don’t want to be anything. But I won’t write it down. It’s fine to think it; but, as Cousin Sophia would say, it might be a bit bold to put it in writing."
"I will write it down. I won't be cowed by the conventions and Cousin Sophia! I want to be Kenneth Ford's wife! There now!
"I'll write it down. I won't be intimidated by the rules or Cousin Sophia! I want to be Kenneth Ford's wife! There, I said it!"
"I've just looked in the glass, and I hadn't the sign of a blush on my face. I suppose I'm not a properly constructed damsel at all.
"I just looked in the mirror, and there's not a hint of a blush on my face. I guess I’m not really a proper lady at all."
"I was down to see little Dog Monday today. He has grown quite stiff and rheumatic but there he sat, waiting for the train. He thumped his tail and looked pleadingly into my eyes. 'When will Jem come?' he seemed to say. Oh, Dog Monday, there is no answer to that question; and there is, as yet, no answer to the other which we are all constantly asking 'What will happen when Germany strikes again on the western front—her one great, last blow for victory!"
"I went to see little Dog Monday today. He's gotten pretty stiff and has some rheumatism, but there he was, waiting for the train. He thumped his tail and looked at me with those pleading eyes. 'When will Jem come?' he seemed to ask. Oh, Dog Monday, there's no answer to that question; and there's still no answer to the other one we keep asking: 'What will happen when Germany attacks again on the western front—her one last major effort for victory?'"
1st March 1918
1 March 1918
"'What will spring bring?' Gertrude said today. 'I dread it as I never dreaded spring before. Do you suppose there will ever again come a time when life will be free from fear? For almost four years we have lain down with fear and risen up with it. It has been the unbidden guest at every meal, the unwelcome companion at every gathering.'
"'What will spring bring?' Gertrude said today. 'I dread it like I’ve never dreaded spring before. Do you think there will ever be a time when life is free from fear? For almost four years, we have gone to bed with fear and woken up with it. It has been the uninvited guest at every meal, the unwelcome companion at every gathering.'"
"'Hindenburg says he will be in Paris on 1st April,' sighed Cousin Sophia.
"'Hindenburg says he'll be in Paris on April 1st,' sighed Cousin Sophia."
"'Hindenburg!' There is no power in pen and ink to express the contempt which Susan infused into that name. 'Has he forgotten what day the first of April is?'
"'Hindenburg!' There’s no way to capture in writing the disdain that Susan felt for that name. 'Has he forgotten what day April 1st is?'"
"'Hindenburg has kept his word hitherto,' said Gertrude, as gloomily as Cousin Sophia herself could have said it.
"'Hindenburg has kept his word so far,' Gertrude said, just as gloomily as Cousin Sophia herself could have said it."
"'Yes, fighting against the Russians and Rumanians,' retorted Susan. 'Wait you till he comes up against the British and French, not to speak of the Yankees, who are getting there as fast as they can and will no doubt give a good account of themselves.'
"'Yeah, fighting against the Russians and Romanians,' Susan shot back. 'Just wait until he faces the British and French, not to mention the Americans, who are arriving as quickly as they can and will definitely hold their own.'"
"'You said just the same thing before Mons, Susan,' I reminded her.
"'You said the exact same thing before Mons, Susan,' I reminded her.
"'Hindenburg says he will spend a million lives to break the Allied front,' said Gertrude. 'At such a price he must purchase some successes and how can we live through them, even if he is baffled in the end. These past two months when we have been crouching and waiting for the blow to fall have seemed as long as all the preceding months of the war put together. I work all day feverishly and waken at three o'clock at night to wonder if the iron legions have struck at last. It is then I see Hindenburg in Paris and Germany triumphant. I never see her so at any other time than that accursed hour.'
"'Hindenburg says he’ll spend a million lives to break the Allied front,’ Gertrude said. ‘At that price, he must achieve some victories, but how can we survive them, even if he ultimately fails? These last two months, as we've been huddled and waiting for the blow to land, have felt longer than all the previous months of war combined. I work feverishly all day and wake up at three in the morning, wondering if the iron legions have finally struck. It’s during those moments that I see Hindenburg in Paris and a victorious Germany. I only ever see it like that at that cursed hour.’"
"Susan looked dubious over Gertrude's adjective, but evidently concluded that the 'a' saved the situation.
"Susan looked skeptical about Gertrude's description, but clearly decided that the 'a' made it acceptable."
"'I wish it were possible to take some magic draught and go to sleep for the next three months—and then waken to find Armageddon over,' said mother, almost impatiently.
"'I wish there was a way to take some magic drink and sleep for the next three months—then wake up to find Armageddon has passed,' said mom, almost impatiently."
"It is not often that mother slumps into a wish like that—or at least the verbal expression of it. Mother has changed a great deal since that terrible day in September when we knew that Walter would not come back; but she has always been brave and patient. Now it seemed as if even she had reached the limit of her endurance.
"It’s not often that Mom gives in to a wish like that—or at least says it out loud. Mom has changed a lot since that awful day in September when we realized Walter wouldn’t be coming back; but she has always been strong and patient. Now it felt like even she had hit her breaking point."
"Susan went over to mother and touched her shoulder.
"Susan walked over to her mom and touched her shoulder."
"'Do not you be frightened or downhearted, Mrs. Dr. dear,' she said gently. 'I felt somewhat that way myself last night, and I rose from my bed and lighted my lamp and opened my Bible; and what do you think was the first verse my eyes lighted upon? It was 'And they shall fight against thee but they shall not prevail against thee, for I am with thee, saith the Lord of Hosts, to deliver thee.' I am not gifted in the way of dreaming, as Miss Oliver is, but I knew then and there, Mrs. Dr. dear, that it was a manifest leading, and that Hindenburg will never see Paris. So I read no further but went back to my bed and I did not waken at three o'clock or at any other hour before morning.'
"Don't be scared or discouraged, Mrs. Doctor dear," she said softly. "I felt a bit like that myself last night, so I got out of bed, turned on my lamp, and opened my Bible; and guess what the first verse I saw was? It was 'And they shall fight against you, but they shall not prevail against you, for I am with you, says the Lord of Hosts, to deliver you.' I'm not good at dreaming like Miss Oliver is, but at that moment, Mrs. Doctor dear, I knew it was a clear sign, and that Hindenburg will never see Paris. So I didn't read any more but went back to bed, and I didn't wake up at three o'clock or any other time before morning."
"I say that verse Susan read over and over again to myself. The Lord of Hosts is with us—and the spirits of all just men made perfect—and even the legions and guns that Germany is massing on the western front must break against such a barrier. This is in certain uplifted moments; but when other moments come I feel, like Gertrude, that I cannot endure any longer this awful and ominous hush before the coming storm."
"I keep repeating that verse Susan read over and over: The Lord of Hosts is with us—and the spirits of all righteous people made perfect—and even the armies and weapons that Germany is gathering on the western front will struggle against such a barrier. This is true in certain uplifting moments; but when other moments arrive, I feel, like Gertrude, that I can't stand this terrible and foreboding silence before the approaching storm any longer."
23rd March 1918
March 23, 1918
"Armageddon has begun!—'the last great fight of all!' Is it, I wonder? Yesterday I went down to the post office for the mail. It was a dull, bitter day. The snow was gone but the grey, lifeless ground was frozen hard and a biting wind was blowing. The whole Glen landscape was ugly and hopeless.
"Armageddon has started!—'the ultimate battle of all!' Is it really, I wonder? Yesterday I went to the post office to check the mail. It was a dreary, cold day. The snow was gone, but the gray, lifeless ground was frozen solid, and a biting wind was blowing. The whole Glen landscape looked ugly and desolate."
"Then I got the paper with its big black headlines. Germany struck on the twenty-first. She makes big claims of guns and prisoners taken. General Haig reports that 'severe fighting continues.' I don't like the sound of that last expression.
"Then I got the newspaper with its big black headlines. Germany attacked on the twenty-first. They’re making big claims about guns and prisoners taken. General Haig reports that 'severe fighting continues.' I don’t like the sound of that last phrase."
"We all find we cannot do any work that requires concentration of thought. So we all knit furiously, because we can do that mechanically. At least the dreadful waiting is over—the horrible wondering where and when the blow will fall. It has fallen—but they shall not prevail against us!
"We all realize we can’t focus on any work that needs deep thought. So we all knit like crazy, because that’s something we can do mindlessly. At least the awful waiting is over—the terrible uncertainty of when and where the next blow will hit. It has happened—but they won't defeat us!"
"Oh, what is happening on the western front tonight as I write this, sitting here in my room with my journal before me? Jims is asleep in his crib and the wind is wailing around the window; over my desk hangs Walter's picture, looking at me with his beautiful deep eyes; the Mona Lisa he gave me the last Christmas he was home hangs on one side of it, and on the other a framed copy of "The Piper." It seems to me that I can hear Walter's voice repeating it—that little poem into which he put his soul, and which will therefore live for ever, carrying Walter's name on through the future of our land. Everything about me is calm and peaceful and 'homey.' Walter seems very near me—if I could just sweep aside the thin wavering little veil that hangs between, I could see him—just as he saw the Pied Piper the night before Courcelette.
"Oh, what’s going on at the western front tonight as I write this, sitting in my room with my journal in front of me? Jims is asleep in his crib and the wind is howling around the window; above my desk hangs Walter's picture, gazing at me with his beautiful deep eyes; the Mona Lisa he gave me last Christmas hangs on one side of it, and on the other, a framed copy of 'The Piper.' It seems to me that I can hear Walter's voice reciting it—that little poem into which he poured his soul, which will therefore live on forever, carrying Walter's name into the future of our land. Everything around me feels calm and peaceful and 'homey.' Walter feels very close to me—if I could just push aside the thin, flickering veil that separates us, I could see him—just like he saw the Pied Piper the night before Courcelette."
"Over there in France tonight—does the line hold?"
"Over there in France tonight—does the line hold?"
CHAPTER XXVIII
BLACK SUNDAY
In March of the year of grace 1918 there was one week into which must have crowded more of searing human agony than any seven days had ever held before in the history of the world. And in that week there was one day when all humanity seemed nailed to the cross; on that day the whole planet must have been agroan with universal convulsion; everywhere the hearts of men were failing them for fear.
In March of 1918, there was one week that must have held more intense human suffering than any other seven days in history. During that week, there was one day when it felt like all of humanity was suffering; on that day, the entire world must have been shaken by a universal upheaval, and everywhere, people's hearts were failing them out of fear.
It dawned calmly and coldly and greyly at Ingleside. Mrs. Blythe and Rilla and Miss Oliver made ready for church in a suspense tempered by hope and confidence. The doctor was away, having been summoned during the wee sma's to the Marwood household in Upper Glen, where a little war-bride was fighting gallantly on her own battleground to give life, not death, to the world. Susan announced that she meant to stay home that morning—a rare decision for Susan.
It started off calm, cold, and gray at Ingleside. Mrs. Blythe, Rilla, and Miss Oliver got ready for church, feeling a mix of suspense along with hope and confidence. The doctor was away, having been called in the early hours to the Marwood household in Upper Glen, where a young war-bride was bravely fighting her own battle to bring life into the world. Susan declared that she planned to stay home that morning—a rare choice for her.
"But I would rather not go to church this morning, Mrs. Dr. dear," she explained. "If Whiskers-on-the-moon were there and I saw him looking holy and pleased, as he always looks when he thinks the Huns are winning, I fear I would lose my patience and my sense of decorum and hurl a Bible or hymn-book at him, thereby disgracing myself and the sacred edifice. No, Mrs. Dr. dear, I shall stay home from church till the tide turns and pray hard here."
"But I’d really prefer to skip church this morning, Mrs. Doctor dear," she explained. "If Whiskers-on-the-moon shows up and I see him looking all righteous and smug, like he does whenever he thinks things are going well for the Huns, I’m afraid I’ll lose my cool and throw a Bible or hymn book at him, which would embarrass me and disrespect the church. No, Mrs. Doctor dear, I’ll just stay home from church until things change and pray hard here."
"I think I might as well stay home, too, for all the good church will do me today," Miss Oliver said to Rilla, as they walked down the hard-frozen red road to the church. "I can think of nothing but the question, 'Does the line still hold?'"
"I guess I might as well just stay home, too, since church isn’t going to do me any good today," Miss Oliver said to Rilla as they walked down the hard-frozen red road to the church. "I can't stop thinking about the question, 'Does the line still hold?'"
"Next Sunday will be Easter," said Rilla. "Will it herald death or life to our cause?"
"Next Sunday is Easter," Rilla said. "Will it bring death or life to our cause?"
Mr. Meredith preached that morning from the text, "He that endureth to the end shall be saved," and hope and confidence rang through his inspiring sentences. Rilla, looking up at the memorial tablet on the wall above their pew, "sacred to the memory of Walter Cuthbert Blythe," felt herself lifted out of her dread and filled anew with courage. Walter could not have laid down his life for naught. His had been the gift of prophetic vision and he had foreseen victory. She would cling to that belief—the line would hold.
Mr. Meredith delivered a sermon that morning based on the verse, "He who endures to the end will be saved," and hope and confidence filled his inspiring words. Rilla, glancing at the memorial plaque on the wall above their pew, "dedicated to the memory of Walter Cuthbert Blythe," felt her fear lift and a new sense of courage wash over her. Walter couldn't have sacrificed his life for nothing. He had the gift of foresight and had predicted victory. She would hold on to that belief—the line would hold.
In this renewed mood she walked home from church almost gaily. The others, too, were hopeful, and all went smiling into Ingleside. There was no one in the living-room, save Jims, who had fallen asleep on the sofa, and Doc, who sat "hushed in grim repose" on the hearth-rug, looking very Hydeish indeed. No one was in the dining-room either—and, stranger still, no dinner was on the table, which was not even set. Where was Susan?
In this cheerful mood, she walked home from church almost happily. The others were also feeling hopeful, and they all went into Ingleside smiling. There was no one in the living room, except for Jims, who had fallen asleep on the sofa, and Doc, who sat quietly on the hearth rug, looking quite odd. No one was in the dining room either—and, even stranger, there was no dinner on the table, which wasn’t even set. Where was Susan?
"Can she have taken ill?" exclaimed Mrs. Blythe anxiously. "I thought it strange that she did not want to go to church this morning."
"Could she be sick?" Mrs. Blythe said anxiously. "I thought it was odd that she didn't want to go to church this morning."
The kitchen door opened and Susan appeared on the threshold with such a ghastly face that Mrs. Blythe cried out in sudden panic.
The kitchen door swung open, and Susan stood in the doorway with such a horrified expression that Mrs. Blythe gasped in sudden panic.
"Susan, what is it?"
"Susan, what's up?"
"The British line is broken and the German shells are falling on Paris," said Susan dully.
"The British line has collapsed, and the German shells are hitting Paris," said Susan flatly.
The three women stared at each other, stricken.
The three women looked at each other in shock.
"It's not true—it's not," gasped Rilla.
"It's not true—it's not," Rilla gasped.
"The thing would be—ridiculous," said Gertrude Oliver—and then she laughed horribly.
"The thing is—absurd," said Gertrude Oliver—and then she laughed uncomfortably.
"Susan, who told you this—when did the news come?" asked Mrs. Blythe.
"Susan, who told you this—when did you hear the news?" asked Mrs. Blythe.
"I got it over the long-distance phone from Charlottetown half an hour ago," said Susan. "The news came to town late last night. It was Dr. Holland phoned it out and he said it was only too true. Since then I have done nothing, Mrs. Dr. dear. I am very sorry dinner is not ready. It is the first time I have been so remiss. If you will be patient I will soon have something for you to eat. But I am afraid I let the potatoes burn."
"I got the news over the long-distance phone from Charlottetown half an hour ago," said Susan. "It arrived in town late last night. Dr. Holland called it in and confirmed that it was unfortunately true. Since then, I haven't done anything, Mrs. Dr. dear. I'm really sorry dinner isn't ready. This is the first time I've been so careless. If you could be patient, I’ll have something for you to eat soon. But I’m afraid I let the potatoes burn."
"Dinner! Nobody wants any dinner, Susan," said Mrs. Blythe wildly. "Oh, this thing is unbelievable—it must be a nightmare."
"Dinner! No one wants dinner, Susan," Mrs. Blythe exclaimed frantically. "Oh, this is unbelievable—it must be a nightmare."
"Paris is lost—France is lost—the war is lost," gasped Rilla, amid the utter ruins of hope and confidence and belief.
"Paris is gone—France is gone—the war is over," Rilla gasped, surrounded by the complete devastation of hope, confidence, and faith.
"Oh God—Oh God," moaned Gertrude Oliver, walking about the room and wringing her hands, "Oh—God!"
"Oh God—Oh God," moaned Gertrude Oliver, pacing the room and wringing her hands, "Oh—God!"
Nothing else—no other words—nothing but that age old plea—the old, old cry of supreme agony and appeal, from the human heart whose every human staff has failed it.
Nothing else—no other words—just that age-old plea—the timeless cry of deep suffering and desperation, from a human heart that has exhausted every possible support.
"Is God dead?" asked a startled little voice from the doorway of the living-room. Jims stood there, flushed from sleep, his big brown eyes filled with dread, "Oh Willa—oh, Willa, is God dead?"
"Is God dead?" asked a surprised little voice from the doorway of the living room. Jims stood there, flushed from sleep, his big brown eyes filled with fear, "Oh Willa—oh, Willa, is God dead?"
Miss Oliver stopped walking and exclaiming, and stared at Jims, in whose eyes tears of fright were beginning to gather. Rilla ran to his comforting, while Susan bounded up from the chair upon which she had dropped.
Miss Oliver stopped walking and shouting, and stared at Jims, whose eyes were starting to fill with tears of fear. Rilla rushed over to comfort him, while Susan quickly got up from the chair she had slumped into.
"No," she said briskly, with a sudden return of her real self. "No, God isn't dead—nor Lloyd George either. We were forgetting that, Mrs. Dr. dear. Don't cry, little Kitchener. Bad as things are, they might be worse. The British line may be broken but the British navy is not. Let us tie to that. I will take a brace and get up a bite to eat, for strength we must have."
"No," she said firmly, suddenly becoming her true self again. "No, God isn't dead—nor is Lloyd George. We were forgetting that, Mrs. Dr. dear. Don't cry, little Kitchener. As bad as things are, they could be worse. The British front may be in trouble, but the British navy is still strong. Let’s hold on to that. I’ll grab a drink and make us a snack because we need our strength."
They made a pretence of eating Susan's "bite," but it was only a pretence. Nobody at Ingleside ever forgot that black afternoon. Gertrude Oliver walked the floor—they all walked the floor; except Susan, who got out her grey war sock.
They pretended to eat Susan's "bite," but it was just an act. No one at Ingleside ever forgot that dark afternoon. Gertrude Oliver paced the room—they all paced; except for Susan, who took out her gray wartime sock.
"Mrs. Dr. dear, I must knit on Sunday at last. I have never dreamed of doing it before for, say what might be said, I have considered it was a violation of the third commandment. But whether it is or whether it is not I must knit today or I shall go mad."
"Dear Mrs. Doctor, I finally have to knit on Sunday. I've never thought of doing it before because, no matter what anyone says, I believed it violated the third commandment. But whether it does or not, I have to knit today or I'm going to lose my mind."
"Knit if you can, Susan," said Mrs. Blythe restlessly. "I would knit if I could—but I cannot—I cannot."
"Knit if you can, Susan," said Mrs. Blythe anxiously. "I would knit if I could—but I can't—I just can't."
"If we could only get fuller information," moaned Rilla. "There might be something to encourage us—if we knew all."
"If only we could get more information," Rilla complained. "There might be something to give us hope—if we knew everything."
"We know that the Germans are shelling Paris," said Miss Oliver bitterly. "In that case they must have smashed through everywhere and be at the very gates. No, we have lost—let us face the fact as other peoples in the past have had to face it. Other nations, with right on their side, have given their best and bravest—and gone down to defeat in spite of it. Ours is 'but one more To baffled millions who have gone before.'"
"We know the Germans are bombing Paris," Miss Oliver said bitterly. "If that's the case, they must have broken through everywhere and be at the very gates. No, we've lost—let's face it like others have in the past. Other nations, with the right on their side, have given their best and bravest—and still faced defeat. Ours is just 'one more to the baffled millions who have come before.'"
"I won't give up like that," cried Rilla, her pale face suddenly flushing. "I won't despair. We are not conquered—no, if Germany overruns all France we are not conquered. I am ashamed of myself for this hour of despair. You won't see me slump again like that, I'm going to ring up town at once and ask for particulars."
"I won't give up like that," Rilla exclaimed, her pale face suddenly turning red. "I won't lose hope. We are not defeated—no, even if Germany takes over all of France, we are not defeated. I'm ashamed of myself for feeling this way. You won't catch me feeling down like that again; I'm going to call town right now and ask for details."
But town could not be got. The long-distance operator there was submerged by similar calls from every part of the distracted country. Rilla finally gave up and slipped away to Rainbow Valley. There she knelt down on the withered grey grasses in the little nook where she and Walter had had their last talk together, with her head bowed against the mossy trunk of a fallen tree. The sun had broken through the black clouds and drenched the valley with a pale golden splendour. The bells on the Tree Lovers twinkled elfinly and fitfully in the gusty March wind.
But she couldn’t get through to town. The long-distance operator was overwhelmed by calls from all over the troubled country. Rilla finally gave up and went to Rainbow Valley. There, she knelt on the dry gray grass in the little spot where she and Walter had their last conversation, with her head resting against the moss-covered trunk of a fallen tree. The sun had broken through the dark clouds and bathed the valley in a soft golden light. The bells on the Tree Lovers jingled lightly and sporadically in the brisk March wind.
"Oh God, give me strength," Rilla whispered. "Just strength—and courage." Then like a child she clasped her hands together and said, as simply as Jims could have done, "Please send us better news tomorrow."
"Oh God, give me strength," Rilla whispered. "Just strength—and courage." Then, like a child, she clasped her hands together and said, as simply as Jims could have done, "Please send us better news tomorrow."
She knelt there a long time, and when she went back to Ingleside she was calm and resolute. The doctor had arrived home, tired but triumphant, little Douglas Haig Marwood having made a safe landing on the shores of time. Gertrude was still pacing restlessly but Mrs. Blythe and Susan had reacted from the shock, and Susan was already planning a new line of defence for the channel ports.
She knelt there for a long time, and when she returned to Ingleside, she felt calm and determined. The doctor had come home, exhausted but victorious, with little Douglas Haig Marwood safely arriving in the world. Gertrude was still walking around anxiously, but Mrs. Blythe and Susan had recovered from the shock, and Susan was already working on a new strategy for the channel ports.
"As long as we can hold them," she declared, "the situation is saved. Paris has really no military significance."
"As long as we can hold them," she declared, "the situation is secure. Paris doesn't really hold any military importance."
"Don't," said Gertrude sharply, as if Susan had run something into her. She thought the old worn phrase 'no military significance' nothing short of ghastly mockery under the circumstances, and more terrible to endure than the voice of despair would have been.
"Don't," Gertrude said sharply, as if Susan had hit a nerve. She found the old, tired phrase 'no military significance' nothing less than a terrible mockery given the situation, and far more unbearable than the sound of despair would have been.
"I heard up at Marwood's of the line being broken," said the doctor, "but this story of the Germans shelling Paris seems to be rather incredible. Even if they broke through they were fifty miles from Paris at the nearest point and how could they get their artillery close enough to shell it in so short a time? Depend upon it, girls, that part of the message can't be true. I'm going to try to try a long-distance call to town myself."
"I heard at Marwood's about the line being broken," the doctor said, "but this story about the Germans shelling Paris sounds pretty unbelievable. Even if they got through, they were at least fifty miles away from Paris at the closest point. How could they get their artillery close enough to shell it so quickly? Trust me, girls, that part of the message has to be false. I'm going to try to make a long-distance call to town myself."
The doctor was no more successful than Rilla had been, but his point of view cheered them all a little, and helped them through the evening. And at nine o'clock a long-distance message came through at last, that helped them through the night.
The doctor wasn't any more successful than Rilla had been, but his perspective lifted their spirits a bit and got them through the evening. And at nine o'clock, a long-distance message finally came through, which helped them get through the night.
"The line broke only in one place, before St. Quentin," said the doctor, as he hung up the receiver, "and the British troops are retreating in good order. That's not so bad. As for the shells that are falling on Paris, they are coming from a distance of seventy miles—from some amazing long-range gun the Germans have invented and sprung with the opening offensive. That is all the news to date, and Dr. Holland says it is reliable."
"The line only broke in one spot, before St. Quentin," said the doctor as he hung up the phone, "and the British troops are retreating in an orderly manner. That’s not too bad. As for the shells hitting Paris, they’re coming from seventy miles away—from some incredible long-range gun the Germans have developed and unleashed with their initial offensive. That’s all the news so far, and Dr. Holland says it’s reliable."
"It would have been dreadful news yesterday," said Gertrude, "but compared to what we heard this morning it is almost like good news. But still," she added, trying to smile, "I am afraid I will not sleep much tonight."
"It would have been terrible news yesterday," Gertrude said, "but compared to what we heard this morning, it feels almost like good news. But still," she added, trying to smile, "I'm afraid I won't get much sleep tonight."
"There is one thing to be thankful for at any rate, Miss Oliver, dear," said Susan, "and that is that Cousin Sophia did not come in today. I really could not have endured her on top of all the rest."
"There’s one thing to be grateful for, Miss Oliver, dear," said Susan, "and that’s that Cousin Sophia didn’t come in today. I honestly couldn’t have dealt with her on top of everything else."
CHAPTER XXIX
"WOUNDED AND MISSING"
"Battered but Not Broken" was the headline in Monday's paper, and Susan repeated it over and over to herself as she went about her work. The gap caused by the St. Quentin disaster had been patched up in time, but the Allied line was being pushed relentlessly back from the territory they had purchased in 1917 with half a million lives. On Wednesday the headline was "British and French Check Germans"; but still the retreat went on. Back—and back—and back! Where would it end? Would the line break again—this time disastrously?
"Battered but Not Broken" was the headline in Monday's paper, and Susan repeated it over and over to herself as she went about her work. The gap caused by the St. Quentin disaster had been patched up in time, but the Allied line was being pushed relentlessly back from the territory they had secured in 1917 with half a million lives. On Wednesday, the headline read "British and French Stop Germans"; but still, the retreat continued. Back—and back—and back! Where would it end? Would the line break again—this time with disastrous consequences?
On Saturday the headline was "Even Berlin Admits Offensive Checked," and for the first time in that terrible week the Ingleside folk dared to draw a long breath.
On Saturday, the headline read "Even Berlin Admits Offensive Checked," and for the first time in that awful week, the Ingleside folks felt they could finally take a deep breath.
"Well, we have got one week over—now for the next," said Susan staunchly.
"Well, we've got one week down—now for the next," said Susan confidently.
"I feel like a prisoner on the rack when they stopped turning it," Miss Oliver said to Rilla, as they went to church on Easter morning. "But I am not off the rack. The torture may begin again at any time."
"I feel like a prisoner on the rack when they stopped turning it," Miss Oliver told Rilla as they were on their way to church on Easter morning. "But I'm not off the rack. The torture could start again at any moment."
"I doubted God last Sunday," said Rilla, "but I don't doubt him today. Evil cannot win. Spirit is on our side and it is bound to outlast flesh."
"I questioned God last Sunday," Rilla said, "but I don’t question him today. Evil can’t prevail. Spirit is on our side, and it’s sure to outlast flesh."
Nevertheless her faith was often tried in the dark spring that followed. Armageddon was not, as they had hoped, a matter of a few days. It stretched out into weeks and months. Again and again Hindenburg struck his savage, sudden blows, with alarming, though futile success. Again and again the military critics declared the situation extremely perilous. Again and again Cousin Sophia agreed with the military critics.
Nevertheless, her faith was often tested in the dark spring that followed. Armageddon was not, as they had hoped, a matter of just a few days. It dragged on for weeks and months. Time after time, Hindenburg delivered his brutal, unexpected blows, achieving alarming, yet ultimately useless, success. Over and over, the military critics declared the situation to be extremely dangerous. Time and time again, Cousin Sophia agreed with the military critics.
"If the Allies go back three miles more the war is lost," she wailed.
"If the Allies retreat another three miles, we're going to lose the war," she cried.
"Is the British navy anchored in those three miles?" demanded Susan scornfully.
"Is the British navy really anchored in those three miles?" Susan asked mockingly.
"It is the opinion of a man who knows all about it," said Cousin Sophia solemnly.
"It’s the opinion of someone who knows everything about it," Cousin Sophia said seriously.
"There is no such person," retorted Susan. "As for the military critics, they do not know one blessed thing about it, any more than you or I. They have been mistaken times out of number. Why do you always look on the dark side, Sophia Crawford?"
"There’s no such person," Susan shot back. "As for the military critics, they don’t know anything about it, just like you or I. They’ve been wrong countless times. Why do you always focus on the negative, Sophia Crawford?"
"Because there ain't any bright side, Susan Baker."
"Because there isn't any bright side, Susan Baker."
"Oh, is there not? It is the twentieth of April, and Hindy is not in Paris yet, although he said he would be there by April first. Is that not a bright spot at least?"
"Oh, really? It's the twentieth of April, and Hindy still isn't in Paris, even though he said he'd be here by the first of April. Isn't that at least a little bit bright?"
"It is my opinion that the Germans will be in Paris before very long and more than that, Susan Baker, they will be in Canada."
"It’s my belief that the Germans will be in Paris soon, and more than that, Susan Baker, they will be in Canada."
"Not in this part of it. The Huns shall never set foot in Prince Edward Island as long as I can handle a pitchfork," declared Susan, looking, and feeling quite equal to routing the entire German army single-handed. "No, Sophia Crawford, to tell you the plain truth I am sick and tired of your gloomy predictions. I do not deny that some mistakes have been made. The Germans would never have got back Passchendaele if the Canadians had been left there; and it was bad business trusting to those Portuguese at the Lys River. But that is no reason why you or anyone should go about proclaiming the war is lost. I do not want to quarrel with you, least of all at such a time as this, but our morale must be kept up, and I am going to speak my mind out plainly and tell you that if you cannot keep from such croaking your room is better than your company."
"Not in this part of it. The Huns will never set foot on Prince Edward Island as long as I can handle a pitchfork," declared Susan, feeling completely capable of taking on the entire German army by herself. "No, Sophia Crawford, to be honest, I’m really tired of your negative predictions. I won’t deny that some mistakes have been made. The Germans would never have regained Passchendaele if the Canadians had stayed there; and it was a big mistake to rely on those Portuguese at the Lys River. But that doesn’t give you or anyone else the right to go around saying the war is lost. I don’t want to argue with you, especially not at a time like this, but we need to keep our spirits up, and I’ll speak my mind clearly: if you can’t stop this negativity, then you’re better off in your room than in my company."
Cousin Sophia marched home in high dudgeon to digest her affront, and did not reappear in Susan's kitchen for many weeks. Perhaps it was just as well, for they were hard weeks, when the Germans continued to strike, now here, now there, and seemingly vital points fell to them at every blow. And one day in early May, when wind and sunshine frolicked in Rainbow Valley and the maple grove was golden-green and the harbour all blue and dimpled and white-capped, the news came about Jem.
Cousin Sophia marched home in a huff to process her insult and didn’t show up in Susan's kitchen for several weeks. Maybe it was for the best, because those weeks were tough, with the Germans continuing to attack, hitting crucial locations with every strike. Then one day in early May, as the wind and sunshine played together in Rainbow Valley, the maple grove shimmered in golden-green, and the harbor was all blue, dimpled, and white-capped, the news about Jem arrived.
There had been a trench raid on the Canadian front—a little trench raid so insignificant that it was never even mentioned in the dispatches and when it was over Lieutenant James Blythe was reported "wounded and missing."
There had been a trench raid on the Canadian front—a small trench raid so minor that it was never even mentioned in the reports, and when it was over, Lieutenant James Blythe was reported "wounded and missing."
"I think this is even worse than the news of his death would have been," moaned Rilla through her white lips, that night.
"I think this is even worse than hearing about his death would have been," Rilla lamented through her pale lips that night.
"No—no—'missing' leaves a little hope, Rilla," urged Gertrude Oliver.
"No—no—'missing' gives a bit of hope, Rilla," urged Gertrude Oliver.
"Yes—torturing, agonized hope that keeps you from ever becoming quite resigned to the worst," said Rilla. "Oh, Miss Oliver—must we go for weeks and months—not knowing whether Jem is alive or dead? Perhaps we will never know. I—I cannot bear it—I cannot. Walter—and now Jem. This will kill mother—look at her face, Miss Oliver, and you will see that. And Faith—poor Faith—how can she bear it?"
"Yes—it's that torturous, painful hope that stops you from ever really accepting the worst," Rilla said. "Oh, Miss Oliver—do we have to go for weeks and months not knowing if Jem is alive or dead? Maybe we’ll never find out. I—I can’t stand it—I can’t. Walter—and now Jem. This is going to break mother—just look at her face, Miss Oliver, and you'll see that. And Faith—poor Faith—how can she handle this?"
Gertrude shivered with pain. She looked up at the pictures hanging over Rilla's desk and felt a sudden hatred of Mona Lisa's endless smile.
Gertrude shivered with pain. She looked up at the pictures hanging over Rilla's desk and felt a sudden hatred for Mona Lisa's endless smile.
"Will not even this blot it off your face?" she thought savagely.
"Won't this even wipe that off your face?" she thought angrily.
But she said gently, "No, it won't kill your mother. She's made of finer mettle than that. Besides, she refuses to believe Jem is dead; she will cling to hope and we must all do that. Faith, you may be sure, will do it."
But she said gently, "No, it won't kill your mother. She's tougher than that. Besides, she refuses to believe Jem is dead; she will hold onto hope and we all need to do that. You can be sure that faith will make it happen."
"I cannot," moaned Rilla, "Jem was wounded—what chance would he have? Even if the Germans found him—we know how they have treated wounded prisoners. I wish I could hope, Miss Oliver—it would help, I suppose. But hope seems dead in me. I can't hope without some reason for it—and there is no reason."
"I can't," Rilla said with a groan. "Jem was hurt—what chance does he have? Even if the Germans find him—we know how they've treated wounded prisoners. I wish I could have hope, Miss Oliver—it would probably help. But hope feels dead inside me. I can't hope without a reason—and there is no reason."
When Miss Oliver had gone to her own room and Rilla was lying on her bed in the moonlight, praying desperately for a little strength, Susan stepped in like a gaunt shadow and sat down beside her.
When Miss Oliver had gone to her own room and Rilla was lying on her bed in the moonlight, desperately praying for a little strength, Susan stepped in like a thin shadow and sat down beside her.
"Rilla, dear, do not you worry. Little Jem is not dead."
"Rilla, honey, don't worry. Little Jem is not dead."
"Oh, how can you believe that, Susan?"
"Oh, how can you believe that, Susan?"
"Because I know. Listen you to me. When that word came this morning the first thing I thought of was Dog Monday. And tonight, as soon as I got the supper dishes washed and the bread set, I went down to the station. There was Dog Monday, waiting for the train, just as patient as usual. Now, Rilla, dear, that trench raid was four days ago—last Monday—and I said to the station-agent, 'Can you tell me if that dog howled or made any kind of a fuss last Monday night?' He thought it over a bit, and then he said, 'No, he did not.' 'Are you sure?' I said. 'There's more depends on it than you think!' 'Dead sure,' he said. 'I was up all night last Monday night because my mare was sick, and there was never a sound out of him. I would have heard if there had been, for the stable door was open all the time and his kennel is right across from it!' Now Rilla dear, those were the man's very words. And you know how that poor little dog howled all night after the battle of Courcelette. Yet he did not love Walter as much as he loved Jem. If he mourned for Walter like that, do you suppose he would sleep sound in his kennel the night after Jem had been killed? No, Rilla dear, little Jem is not dead, and that you may tie to. If he were, Dog Monday would have known, just as he knew before, and he would not be still waiting for the trains."
"Because I know. Listen to me. When I heard the news this morning, the first thing that came to mind was Dog Monday. And tonight, as soon as I finished washing the dinner dishes and setting the bread, I went down to the station. There was Dog Monday, waiting for the train, just as patient as ever. Now, Rilla, dear, that trench raid was four days ago—last Monday—and I asked the station agent, 'Can you tell me if that dog howled or made any kind of fuss last Monday night?' He thought about it for a moment, and then he said, 'No, he didn’t.' 'Are you sure?' I asked. 'More depends on this than you think!' 'Absolutely sure,' he said. 'I was up all night last Monday night because my mare was sick, and there was never a sound from him. I would have heard if there had been, since the stable door was open the whole time and his kennel is right across from it!' Now Rilla, dear, those were the man's exact words. And you know how that poor little dog howled all night after the battle of Courcelette. Yet he didn’t love Walter as much as he loved Jem. If he mourned for Walter like that, do you think he would have slept soundly in his kennel the night after Jem was killed? No, Rilla dear, little Jem is not dead, and that you can count on. If he were, Dog Monday would have known, just like he did before, and he wouldn’t still be waiting for the trains."
It was absurd—and irrational—and impossible. But Rilla believed it, for all that; and Mrs. Blythe believed it; and the doctor, though he smiled faintly in pretended derision, felt an odd confidence replace his first despair; and foolish and absurd or not, they all plucked up heart and courage to carry on, just because a faithful little dog at the Glen station was still watching with unbroken faith for his master to come home. Common sense might scorn—incredulity might mutter "Mere superstition"—but in their hearts the folk of Ingleside stood by their belief that Dog Monday knew.
It was absurd and irrational and impossible. But Rilla believed it anyway; Mrs. Blythe believed it too; and the doctor, although he smiled faintly with fake ridicule, felt an odd sense of confidence replace his initial despair. And whether it was foolish and absurd or not, they all found the heart and courage to carry on, simply because a loyal little dog at the Glen station was still waiting with unwavering faith for his master to come home. Common sense might scoff—doubters might grumble, "Just superstition"—but in their hearts, the people of Ingleside held onto their belief that Dog Monday knew.
CHAPTER XXX
THE TURNING OF THE TIDE
Susan was very sorrowful when she saw the beautiful old lawn of Ingleside ploughed up that spring and planted with potatoes. Yet she made no protest, even when her beloved peony bed was sacrificed. But when the Government passed the Daylight Saving law Susan balked. There was a Higher Power than the Union Government, to which Susan owed allegiance.
Susan felt heartbroken when she saw the beautiful old lawn of Ingleside plowed up that spring and planted with potatoes. Still, she didn’t complain, even when her cherished peony bed was destroyed. But when the Government enacted the Daylight Saving law, Susan resisted. There was a Higher Power than the Union Government that Susan was loyal to.
"Do you think it right to meddle with the arrangements of the Almighty?" she demanded indignantly of the doctor. The doctor, quite unmoved, responded that the law must be observed, and the Ingleside clocks were moved on accordingly. But the doctor had no power over Susan's little alarm.
"Do you think it's okay to interfere with God's plans?" she asked angrily of the doctor. The doctor, completely unfazed, replied that the law had to be followed, and the Ingleside clocks were adjusted accordingly. But the doctor had no control over Susan's little alarm.
"I bought that with my own money, Mrs. Dr. dear," she said firmly, "and it shall go on God's time and not Borden's time."
"I bought that with my own money, Mrs. Dr. dear," she said confidently, "and it will run on God's time, not Borden's time."
Susan got up and went to bed by "God's time," and regulated her own goings and comings by it. She served the meals, under protest, by Borden's time, and she had to go to church by it, which was the crowning injury. But she said her prayers by her own clock, and fed the hens by it; so that there was always a furtive triumph in her eye when she looked at the doctor. She had got the better of him by so much at least.
Susan got up and went to bed by "God's time" and timed her comings and goings accordingly. She served the meals, reluctantly, according to Borden's time, and she had to go to church by it, which was the ultimate annoyance. But she said her prayers by her own clock and fed the hens by it; so there was always a sly triumph in her eye when she looked at the doctor. She had outsmarted him by at least this much.
"Whiskers-on-the-moon is very much delighted with this daylight saving business," she told him one evening. "Of course he naturally would be, since I understand that the Germans invented it. I hear he came near losing his entire wheat-crop lately. Warren Mead's cows broke into the field one day last week—it was the very day the Germans captured the Chemang-de-dam, which may have been a coincidence or may not—and were making fine havoc of it when Mrs. Dick Clow happened to see them from her attic window. At first she had no intention of letting Mr. Pryor know. She told me she had just gloated over the sight of those cows pasturing on his wheat. She felt it served him exactly right. But presently she reflected that the wheat-crop was a matter of great importance and that 'save and serve' meant that those cows must be routed out as much as it meant anything. So she went down and phoned over to Whiskers about the matter. All the thanks she got was that he said something queer right out to her. She is not prepared to state that it was actually swearing for you cannot be sure just what you hear over the phone; but she has her own opinion, and so have I, but I will not express it for here comes Mr. Meredith, and Whiskers is one of his elders, so we must be discreet."
"Whiskers-on-the-moon is really loving this daylight saving thing," she told him one evening. "Of course he would, since I hear the Germans came up with it. I’ve heard he nearly lost his whole wheat crop recently. Warren Mead's cows broke into the field one day last week—it was the same day the Germans captured the Chemang-de-dam, which could be a coincidence or not—and they were causing a real mess when Mrs. Dick Clow happened to see them from her attic window. At first, she didn’t plan to tell Mr. Pryor. She told me she enjoyed watching those cows munching on his wheat. She thought it was exactly what he deserved. But then she realized that the wheat crop was really important and that 'save and serve' meant those cows needed to be chased off as much as anything else. So she went downstairs and called Whiskers about it. The only thanks she got was something strange he said to her. She’s not sure it was actually swearing because you can’t really tell what you hear over the phone; but she has her opinion, and so do I, but I won’t say it since Mr. Meredith is coming, and Whiskers is one of his elders, so we have to be careful."
"Are you looking for the new star?" asked Mr. Meredith, joining Miss Oliver and Rilla, who were standing among the blossoming potatoes gazing skyward.
"Are you looking for the new star?" Mr. Meredith asked, joining Miss Oliver and Rilla, who were standing among the blooming potato plants, looking up at the sky.
"Yes—we have found it—see, it is just above the tip of the tallest old pine."
"Yes—we've found it—look, it's just above the tip of the tallest old pine."
"It's wonderful to be looking at something that happened three thousand years ago, isn't it?" said Rilla. "That is when astronomers think the collision took place which produced this new star. It makes me feel horribly insignificant," she added under her breath.
"It's amazing to be looking at something that happened three thousand years ago, right?" said Rilla. "That’s when astronomers believe the collision happened that created this new star. It makes me feel really insignificant," she added quietly.
"Even this event cannot dwarf into what may be the proper perspective in star systems the fact that the Germans are again only one leap from Paris," said Gertrude restlessly.
"Even this event can’t overshadow what should be the right perspective in star systems—that the Germans are just one leap away from Paris again," Gertrude said restlessly.
"I think I would like to have been an astronomer," said Mr. Meredith dreamily, gazing at the star.
"I think I'd like to be an astronomer," Mr. Meredith said dreamily, gazing at the star.
"There must be a strange pleasure in it," agreed Miss Oliver, "an unearthly pleasure, in more senses than one. I would like to have a few astronomers for my friends."
"There must be a weird kind of pleasure in it," Miss Oliver agreed, "an otherworldly pleasure, in more ways than one. I’d love to have a few astronomers as friends."
"Fancy talking the gossip of the hosts of heaven," laughed Rilla.
"Can you believe we're chatting about the gossip of the heavenly hosts?" Rilla laughed.
"I wonder if astronomers feel a very deep interest in earthly affairs?" said the doctor. "Perhaps students of the canals of Mars would not be so keenly sensitive to the significance of a few yards of trenches lost or won on the western front."
"I wonder if astronomers care much about what's happening on Earth?" said the doctor. "Maybe those studying the canals of Mars aren't all that moved by the importance of gaining or losing a few yards of trenches on the western front."
"I have read somewhere," said Mr. Meredith, "that Ernest Renan wrote one of his books during the siege of Paris in 1870 and 'enjoyed the writing of it very much.' I suppose one would call him a philosopher."
"I read somewhere," said Mr. Meredith, "that Ernest Renan wrote one of his books during the siege of Paris in 1870 and 'really enjoyed writing it.' I guess you could call him a philosopher."
"I have read also," said Miss Oliver, "that shortly before his death he said that his only regret in dying was that he must die before he had seen what that 'extremely interesting young man, the German Emperor,' would do in his life. If Ernest Renan 'walked' today and saw what that interesting young man had done to his beloved France, not to speak of the world, I wonder if his mental detachment would be as complete as it was in 1870."
"I’ve also read," said Miss Oliver, "that just before he died, he mentioned that his only regret about dying was that he wouldn’t get to see what that 'extremely interesting young man, the German Emperor,' would accomplish in his lifetime. If Ernest Renan were around today and saw what that interesting young man did to his beloved France, not to mention the world, I wonder if he’d still be as mentally detached as he was in 1870."
"I wonder where Jem is tonight," thought Rilla, in a sudden bitter inrush of remembrance.
"I wonder where Jem is tonight," Rilla thought, overwhelmed by a sudden wave of memories.
It was over a month since the news had come about Jem. Nothing had been discovered concerning him, in spite of all efforts. Two or three letters had come from him, written before the trench raid, and since then there had been only unbroken silence. Now the Germans were again at the Marne, pressing nearer and nearer Paris; now rumours were coming of another Austrian offensive against the Piave line. Rilla turned away from the new star, sick at heart. It was one of the moments when hope and courage failed her utterly—when it seemed impossible to go on even one more day. If only they knew what had happened to Jem—you can face anything you know. But a beleaguerment of fear and doubt and suspense is a hard thing for the morale. Surely, if Jem were alive, some word would have come through. He must be dead. Only—they would never know—they could never be quite sure; and Dog Monday would wait for the train until he died of old age. Monday was only a poor, faithful, rheumatic little dog, who knew nothing more of his master's fate than they did.
It had been over a month since they had heard any news about Jem. Despite all attempts, nothing had been found out about him. Two or three letters had arrived from him, written before the trench raid, and since then there had only been silence. Now the Germans were back at the Marne, getting closer and closer to Paris; rumors were also spreading about another Austrian offensive against the Piave line. Rilla turned away from the new star, feeling defeated. It was one of those moments when hope and courage completely failed her—when it felt impossible to keep going even one more day. If only they knew what had happened to Jem—it's easier to face anything, you know. But being surrounded by fear, doubt, and uncertainty is tough on the spirit. Surely, if Jem were alive, they would have heard something by now. He must be dead. Yet—they would never know—they could never be completely sure; and Dog Monday would wait for the train until he passed away from old age. Monday was just a poor, loyal, arthritic little dog who didn’t know any more about his owner's fate than they did.
Rilla had a "white night" and did not fall asleep until late. When she wakened Gertrude Oliver was sitting at her window leaning out to meet the silver mystery of the dawn. Her clever, striking profile, with the masses of black hair behind it, came out clearly against the pallid gold of the eastern sky. Rilla remembered Jem's admiration of the curve of Miss Oliver's brow and chin, and she shuddered. Everything that reminded her of Jem was beginning to give intolerable pain. Walter's death had inflicted on her heart a terrible wound. But it had been a clean wound and had healed slowly, as such wounds do, though the scar must remain for ever. But the torture of Jem's disappearance was another thing: there was a poison in it that kept it from healing. The alternations of hope and despair, the endless watching each day for the letter that never came—that might never come—the newspaper tales of ill-usage of prisoners—the bitter wonder as to Jem's wound—all were increasingly hard to bear.
Rilla had a sleepless night and didn’t fall asleep until late. When she woke up, Gertrude Oliver was sitting at her window, leaning out to greet the silver mystery of dawn. Her sharp, striking profile, with her dark hair piled behind it, stood out against the pale gold of the eastern sky. Rilla recalled Jem’s admiration for the curve of Miss Oliver’s brow and chin, and she shuddered. Everything that reminded her of Jem was becoming unbearably painful. Walter’s death had left a horrible wound in her heart. But that wound was clean and had healed slowly, as wounds tend to do, though the scar would always be there. But the agony of Jem’s disappearance was something else entirely: it had a poison that prevented it from healing. The ups and downs of hope and despair, the endless waiting every day for the letter that never arrived—that might never arrive—the newspaper stories about mistreatment of prisoners—the painful uncertainty about Jem’s injury—all of it was becoming increasingly hard to endure.
Gertrude Oliver turned her head. There was an odd brilliancy in her eyes.
Gertrude Oliver turned her head. There was a strange brightness in her eyes.
"Rilla, I've had another dream."
"Rilla, I had another dream."
"Oh, no—no," cried Rilla, shrinking. Miss Oliver's dreams had always foretold coming disaster.
"Oh no—no," Rilla cried, pulling away. Miss Oliver's dreams had always predicted upcoming trouble.
"Rilla, it was a good dream. Listen—I dreamed just as I did four years ago, that I stood on the veranda steps and looked down the Glen. And it was still covered by waves that lapped about my feet. But as I looked the waves began to ebb—and they ebbed as swiftly as, four years ago, they rolled in—ebbed out and out, to the gulf; and the Glen lay before me, beautiful and green, with a rainbow spanning Rainbow Valley—a rainbow of such splendid colour that it dazzled me—and I woke. Rilla—Rilla Blythe—the tide has turned."
"Rilla, it was a great dream. Listen—I dreamed just like I did four years ago, that I was standing on the steps of the porch and looking down the Glen. It was still covered by waves that lapped at my feet. But as I looked, the waves started to recede—and they pulled back as quickly as, four years ago, they came in—pulling out and out, to the gulf; and the Glen was in front of me, beautiful and green, with a rainbow arching over Rainbow Valley—a rainbow of such vibrant color that it amazed me—and I woke up. Rilla—Rilla Blythe—the tide has turned."
"I wish I could believe it," sighed Rilla.
"I wish I could believe it," Rilla sighed.
"Sooth was my prophecy of fear
Believe it when it augurs cheer,"
"So true was my prediction of fear
Trust it when it brings good news,"
quoted Gertrude, almost gaily. "I tell you I have no doubt."
quoted Gertrude, almost cheerfully. "I’m telling you, I have no doubt."
Yet, in spite of the great Italian victory at the Piave that came a few days later, she had doubt many a time in the hard month that followed; and when in mid-July the Germans crossed the Marne again despair came sickeningly. It was idle, they all felt, to hope that the miracle of the Marne would be repeated. But it was: again, as in 1914, the tide turned at the Marne. The French and the American troops struck their sudden smashing blow on the exposed flank of the enemy and, with the almost inconceivable rapidity of a dream, the whole aspect of the war changed.
Yet, despite the significant Italian victory at the Piave a few days later, she had doubts many times during the tough month that followed; and when the Germans crossed the Marne again in mid-July, despair hit hard. Everyone felt it was useless to hope that the miracle of the Marne would happen again. But it did: just like in 1914, the tide turned at the Marne. The French and American troops delivered a sudden and powerful blow to the enemy's exposed flank, and, with the almost unbelievable speed of a dream, the entire situation of the war shifted.
"The Allies have won two tremendous victories," said the doctor on 20th July.
"The Allies have achieved two significant victories," said the doctor on July 20th.
"It is the beginning of the end—I feel it—I feel it," said Mrs. Blythe.
"It’s the beginning of the end—I can feel it—I can feel it," said Mrs. Blythe.
"Thank God," said Susan, folding her trembling old hands, Then she added, under her breath, "but it won't bring our boys back."
"Thank God," Susan said, folding her trembling old hands. Then she added softly, "but it won't bring our boys back."
Nevertheless she went out and ran up the flag, for the first time since the fall of Jerusalem. As it caught the breeze and swelled gallantly out above her, Susan lifted her hand and saluted it, as she had seen Shirley do. "We've all given something to keep you flying," she said. "Four hundred thousand of our boys gone overseas—fifty thousand of them killed. But—you are worth it!" The wind whipped her grey hair about her face and the gingham apron that shrouded her from head to foot was cut on lines of economy, not of grace; yet, somehow, just then Susan made an imposing figure. She was one of the women—courageous, unquailing, patient, heroic—who had made victory possible. In her, they all saluted the symbol for which their dearest had fought. Something of this was in the doctor's mind as he watched her from the door.
Nevertheless, she went out and raised the flag for the first time since the fall of Jerusalem. As it caught the breeze and billowed proudly above her, Susan lifted her hand and saluted it, just like she had seen Shirley do. "We've all given something to keep you flying," she said. "Four hundred thousand of our boys have gone overseas—fifty thousand of them killed. But—you are worth it!" The wind whipped her gray hair around her face, and the gingham apron that covered her from head to toe was cut for practicality, not style; yet, somehow, at that moment, Susan looked impressive. She was one of the women—brave, unwavering, patient, heroic—who had made victory possible. In her, they all acknowledged the symbol for which their loved ones had fought. The doctor had some of these thoughts as he observed her from the door.
"Susan," he said, when she turned to come in, "from first to last of this business you have been a brick!"
"Susan," he said as she turned to come in, "you've been amazing from start to finish in all of this!"
CHAPTER XXXI
MRS. MATILDA PITTMAN
Rilla and Jims were standing on the rear platform of their car when the train stopped at the little Millward siding. The August evening was so hot and close that the crowded cars were stifling. Nobody ever knew just why trains stopped at Millward siding. Nobody was ever known to get off there or get on. There was only one house nearer to it than four miles, and it was surrounded by acres of blueberry barrens and scrub spruce-trees.
Rilla and Jims were standing on the back platform of their car when the train came to a halt at the small Millward siding. The August evening was so hot and humid that the packed cars felt suffocating. No one really knew why trains stopped at Millward siding. No one had ever been seen getting off or getting on there. The closest house was more than four miles away, and it was surrounded by acres of blueberry fields and scrubby spruce trees.
Rilla was on her way into Charlottetown to spend the night with a friend and the next day in Red Cross shopping; she had taken Jims with her, partly because she did not want Susan or her mother to be bothered with his care, partly because of a hungry desire in her heart to have as much of him as she could before she might have to give him up forever. James Anderson had written to her not long before this; he was wounded and in the hospital; he would not be able to go back to the front and as soon as he was able he would be coming home for Jims.
Rilla was on her way into Charlottetown to spend the night with a friend and the next day shopping for the Red Cross; she had brought Jims with her, partly because she didn’t want Susan or her mom to worry about taking care of him, and partly because she had a deep, hungry desire in her heart to hold onto him as much as she could before she might have to say goodbye for good. James Anderson had written to her not long before this; he was wounded and in the hospital; he wouldn’t be able to return to the front, and as soon as he could, he would be coming home for Jims.
Rilla was heavy-hearted over this, and worried also. She loved Jims dearly and would feel deeply giving him up in any case; but if Jim Anderson were a different sort of a man, with a proper home for the child, it would not be so bad. But to give Jims up to a roving, shiftless, irresponsible father, however kind and good-hearted he might be—and she knew Jim Anderson was kind and good-hearted enough—was a bitter prospect to Rilla. It was not even likely Anderson would stay in the Glen; he had no ties there now; he might even go back to England. She might never see her dear, sunshiny, carefully brought-up little Jims again. With such a father what might his fate be? Rilla meant to beg Jim Anderson to leave him with her, but, from his letter, she had not much hope that he would.
Rilla was feeling really sad and worried about this. She loved Jims dearly and would be heartbroken to give him up no matter what. But if Jim Anderson were a different kind of man, one with a stable home for the child, it wouldn't be as difficult. Giving Jims up to an wandering, careless, irresponsible father, no matter how kind and good-hearted he might be—and she knew Jim Anderson was kind and good-hearted enough—was a tough reality for Rilla. It was unlikely Anderson would stick around in the Glen; he had no connections there now; he might even go back to England. She might never see her beloved, cheerful, well-raised little Jims again. With a father like that, what could his future look like? Rilla planned to ask Jim Anderson to let her keep him, but from his letter, she didn't have much hope that he would agree.
"If he would only stay in the Glen, where I could keep an eye on Jims and have him often with me I wouldn't feel so worried over it," she reflected. "But I feel sure he won't—and Jims will never have any chance. And he is such a bright little chap—he has ambition, wherever he got it—and he isn't lazy. But his father will never have a cent to give him any education or start in life. Jims, my little war-baby, whatever is going to become of you?"
"If only he would stay in the Glen, where I could keep an eye on Jims and have him around more often, I wouldn't feel so anxious about it," she thought. "But I'm sure he won't—and Jims will never have a chance. He’s such a smart little guy—he's got ambition, no idea where he got it from—and he's not lazy. But his dad will never have any money to give him an education or a head start in life. Jims, my little war baby, what’s going to happen to you?"
Jims was not in the least concerned over what was to become of him. He was gleefully watching the antics of a striped chipmunk that was frisking over the roof of the little siding. As the train pulled out Jims leaned eagerly forward for a last look at Chippy, pulling his hand from Rilla's. Rilla was so engrossed in wondering what was to become of Jims in the future that she forgot to take notice of what was happening to him in the present. What did happen was that Jims lost his balance, shot headlong down the steps, hurtled across the little siding platform, and landed in a clump of bracken fern on the other side.
Jims wasn't worried at all about what was going to happen to him. He was happily watching a striped chipmunk playing on the roof of the small shed. As the train started to leave, Jims eagerly leaned forward for one last look at Chippy, pulling his hand away from Rilla's. Rilla was so caught up in wondering what would happen to Jims in the future that she didn't notice what was going on with him right then. What happened was that Jims lost his balance, tumbled down the steps, flew across the small siding platform, and landed in a patch of bracken fern on the other side.
Rilla shrieked and lost her head. She sprang down the steps and jumped off the train.
Rilla screamed and panicked. She dashed down the steps and leaped off the train.
Fortunately, the train was still going at a comparatively slow speed; fortunately also, Rilla retained enough sense to jump the way it was going; nevertheless, she fell and sprawled helplessly down the embankment, landing in a ditch full of a rank growth of golden-rod and fireweed.
Fortunately, the train was still moving at a relatively slow speed; thankfully, Rilla had enough sense to jump in the direction it was going; however, she fell and tumbled helplessly down the embankment, landing in a ditch filled with a thick growth of goldenrod and fireweed.
Nobody had seen what had happened and the train whisked briskly away round a curve in the barrens. Rilla picked herself up, dizzy but unhurt, scrambled out of the ditch, and flew wildly across the platform, expecting to find Jims dead or broken in pieces. But Jims, except for a few bruises, and a big fright, was quite uninjured. He was so badly scared that he didn't even cry, but Rilla, when she found that he was safe and sound, burst into tears and sobbed wildly.
Nobody had seen what happened, and the train sped quickly away around a bend in the barren landscape. Rilla picked herself up, feeling dizzy but unharmed, scrambled out of the ditch, and ran frantically across the platform, expecting to find Jims dead or seriously hurt. But Jims, aside from a few bruises and a big scare, was completely fine. He was so frightened that he didn’t even cry, but when Rilla realized he was safe, she burst into tears and sobbed uncontrollably.
"Nasty old twain," remarked Jims in disgust. "And nasty old God," he added, with a scowl at the heavens.
"Nasty old train," Jims said in disgust. "And nasty old God," he added, scowling at the sky.
A laugh broke into Rilla's sobbing, producing something very like what her father would have called hysterics. But she caught herself up before the hysteria could conquer her.
A laugh interrupted Rilla's crying, sounding a lot like what her dad would have called hysterics. But she pulled herself together before the hysteria could take over.
"Rilla Blythe, I'm ashamed of you. Pull yourself together immediately. Jims, you shouldn't have said anything like that."
"Rilla Blythe, I’m disappointed in you. Get it together right now. Jims, you shouldn’t have said something like that."
"God frew me off the twain," declared Jims defiantly. "Somebody frew me; you didn't frow me; so it was God."
"God threw me off the train," Jims declared defiantly. "Somebody threw me; you didn’t throw me; so it was God."
"No, it wasn't. You fell because you let go of my hand and bent too far forward. I told you not to do that. So that it was your own fault."
"No, it wasn't. You fell because you let go of my hand and leaned too far forward. I told you not to do that. So it was your own fault."
Jims looked to see if she meant it; then glanced up at the sky again.
Jims checked to see if she was serious; then he looked up at the sky again.
"Excuse me, then, God," he remarked airily.
"Excuse me, then, God," he said casually.
Rilla scanned the sky also; she did not like its appearance; a heavy thundercloud was appearing in the northwest. What in the world was to be done? There was no other train that night, since the nine o'clock special ran only on Saturdays. Would it be possible for them to reach Hannah Brewster's house, two miles away, before the storm broke? Rilla thought she could do it alone easily enough, but with Jims it was another matter. Were his little legs good for it?
Rilla looked at the sky too; she didn’t like how it looked. A big thundercloud was forming in the northwest. What in the world were they going to do? There was no other train that night since the nine o'clock special only ran on Saturdays. Could they make it to Hannah Brewster's house, two miles away, before the storm hit? Rilla thought she could manage it alone, but with Jims, it was a different story. Were his little legs up for it?
"We've got to try it," said Rilla desperately. "We might stay in the siding until the thunderstorm is over; but it may keep on raining all night and anyway it will be pitch dark. If we can get to Hannah's she will keep us all night."
"We have to give it a shot," Rilla said urgently. "We could wait in the siding until the thunderstorm passes, but it might rain all night, and either way, it will be completely dark. If we can reach Hannah's place, she’ll let us stay there all night."
Hannah Brewster, when she had been Hannah Crawford, had lived in the Glen and gone to school with Rilla. They had been good friends then, though Hannah had been three years the older. She had married very young and had gone to live in Millward. What with hard work and babies and a ne'er-do-well husband, her life had not been an easy one, and Hannah seldom revisited her old home. Rilla had visited her once soon after her marriage, but had not seen her or even heard of her for years; she knew, however, that she and Jims would find welcome and harbourage in any house where rosy-faced, open-hearted, generous Hannah lived.
Hannah Brewster, who used to be Hannah Crawford, had lived in the Glen and attended school with Rilla. They had been good friends back then, even though Hannah was three years older. She married very young and moved to Millward. Between hard work, raising kids, and dealing with a no-good husband, her life hadn't been easy, and Hannah rarely went back to her old home. Rilla had visited her once shortly after her marriage, but she hadn’t seen or heard from her in years; she knew, though, that she and Jims would always be welcomed and find a safe place in any home where the warm-hearted and generous Hannah lived.
For the first mile they got on very well but the second one was harder. The road, seldom used, was rough and deep-rutted. Jims grew so tired that Rilla had to carry him for the last quarter. She reached the Brewster house, almost exhausted, and dropped Jims on the walk with a sigh of thankfulness. The sky was black with clouds; the first heavy drops were beginning to fall; and the rumble of thunder was growing very loud. Then she made an unpleasant discovery. The blinds were all down and the doors locked. Evidently the Brewsters were not at home. Rilla ran to the little barn. It, too, was locked. No other refuge presented itself. The bare whitewashed little house had not even a veranda or porch.
For the first mile, they got along well, but the second one was tougher. The road, rarely used, was rough and full of deep ruts. Jims got so tired that Rilla had to carry him for the last quarter. She reached the Brewster house, almost worn out, and dropped Jims on the sidewalk with a sigh of relief. The sky was dark with clouds; the first heavy drops were starting to fall, and the rumble of thunder was getting louder. Then she made an unfortunate discovery. All the blinds were down and the doors locked. Clearly, the Brewsters weren't home. Rilla ran to the small barn. It was locked too. No other refuge was available. The bare little whitewashed house didn't even have a porch or veranda.
It was almost dark now and her plight seemed desperate.
It was getting almost dark now, and her situation felt desperate.
"I'm going to get in if I have to break a window," said Rilla resolutely. "Hannah would want me to do that. She'd never get over it if she heard I came to her house for refuge in a thunderstorm and couldn't get in."
"I'm going to get in even if I have to break a window," Rilla said firmly. "Hannah would want me to do that. She'd never forgive me if she found out I came to her house for shelter during a thunderstorm and couldn't get in."
Luckily she did not have to go to the length of actual housebreaking. The kitchen window went up quite easily. Rilla lifted Jims in and scrambled through herself, just as the storm broke in good earnest.
Luckily, she didn’t have to go to the extent of breaking into a house. The kitchen window opened up easily. Rilla lifted Jim inside and climbed through herself, just as the storm really started to kick in.
"Oh, see all the little pieces of thunder," cried Jims in delight, as the hail danced in after them. Rilla shut the window and with some difficulty found and lighted a lamp. They were in a very snug little kitchen. Opening off it on one side was a trim, nicely furnished parlour, and on the other a pantry, which proved to be well stocked.
"Oh, look at all the little bits of thunder," exclaimed Jims happily, as the hail danced in after them. Rilla closed the window and with some effort found and lit a lamp. They were in a cozy little kitchen. On one side was a neat, nicely furnished living room, and on the other was a pantry that turned out to be well stocked.
"I'm going to make myself at home," said Rilla. "I know that is just what Hannah would want me to do. I'll get a little snack for Jims and me, and then if the rain continues and nobody comes home I'll just go upstairs to the spare room and go to bed. There is nothing like acting sensibly in an emergency. If I had not been a goose when I saw Jims fall off the train I'd have rushed back into the car and got some one to stop it. Then I wouldn't have been in this scrape. Since I am in it I'll make the best of it.
"I'm going to make myself comfortable," said Rilla. "I know that's exactly what Hannah would want me to do. I'll grab a little snack for Jims and me, and then if the rain keeps up and nobody comes home, I'll just head upstairs to the spare room and go to bed. There’s nothing like being sensible in an emergency. If I hadn’t acted like an idiot when I saw Jims fall off the train, I would have rushed back into the car and gotten someone to stop it. Then I wouldn’t be in this situation. Since I am, I’ll make the best of it."
"This house," she added, looking around, "is fixed up much nicer than when I was here before. Of course Hannah and Ted were just beginning housekeeping then. But somehow I've had the idea that Ted hasn't been very prosperous. He must have done better than I've been led to believe, when they can afford furniture like this. I'm awfully glad for Hannah's sake."
"This house," she said, glancing around, "looks a lot nicer than it did last time I was here. Back then, Hannah and Ted were just starting out with their household. But I somehow got the impression that Ted hasn't been doing very well. He must be doing better than I thought if they can afford furniture like this. I'm really happy for Hannah."
The thunderstorm passed, but the rain continued to fall heavily. At eleven o'clock Rilla decided that nobody was coming home. Jims had fallen asleep on the sofa; she carried him up to the spare room and put him to bed. Then she undressed, put on a nightgown she found in the washstand drawer, and scrambled sleepily in between very nice lavender-scented sheets. She was so tired, after her adventures and exertions, that not even the oddity of her situation could keep her awake; she was sound asleep in a few minutes.
The thunderstorm had passed, but it was still raining heavily. At eleven o'clock, Rilla decided that no one was coming home. Jim had fallen asleep on the sofa, so she carried him to the spare room and put him to bed. Then she changed out of her clothes, put on a nightgown she found in the washstand drawer, and crawled sleepily into some really nice lavender-scented sheets. She was so exhausted from her adventures and efforts that even the strangeness of her situation couldn’t keep her awake; she fell sound asleep within a few minutes.
Rilla slept until eight o'clock the next morning and then wakened with startling suddenness. Somebody was saying in a harsh, gruff voice, "Here, you two, wake up. I want to know what this means."
Rilla slept until eight o'clock the next morning and then jolted awake. Someone was saying in a rough, grumpy voice, "Hey, you two, wake up. I need to know what this means."
Rilla did wake up, promptly and effectually. She had never in all her life wakened up so thoroughly before. Standing in the room were three people, one of them a man, who were absolute strangers to her. The man was a big fellow with a bushy black beard and an angry scowl. Beside him was a woman—a tall, thin, angular person, with violently red hair and an indescribable hat. She looked even crosser and more amazed than the man, if that were possible. In the background was another woman—a tiny old lady who must have been at least eighty. She was, in spite of her tinyness, a very striking-looking personage; she was dressed in unrelieved black, had snow-white hair, a dead-white face, and snapping, vivid, coal-black eyes. She looked as amazed as the other two, but Rilla realized that she didn't look cross.
Rilla woke up quickly and completely. She had never woken up so thoroughly before in her life. Standing in the room were three people, one of whom was a man, all complete strangers to her. The man was large, with a bushy black beard and an angry scowl. Next to him was a woman—a tall, thin, angular person with bright red hair and a bizarre hat. She looked even more annoyed and shocked than the man, if that was even possible. In the background was another woman—a tiny old lady who seemed to be at least eighty. Despite her small size, she was very striking; she was dressed all in black, had snow-white hair, a pale white face, and bright, intense coal-black eyes. She looked just as surprised as the other two, but Rilla noticed that she didn’t look angry.
Rilla also was realizing that something was wrong—fearfully wrong. Then the man said, more gruffly than ever, "Come now. Who are you and what business have you here?"
Rilla also was realizing that something was wrong—terribly wrong. Then the man said, even more roughly than before, "Come on. Who are you and what are you doing here?"
Rilla raised herself on one elbow, looking and feeling hopelessly bewildered and foolish. She heard the old black-and-white lady in the background chuckle to herself. "She must be real," Rilla thought. "I can't be dreaming her." Aloud she gasped,
Rilla propped herself up on one elbow, feeling completely confused and silly. In the background, she heard the old black-and-white lady chuckling to herself. "She has to be real," Rilla thought. "I can't be dreaming her." Out loud, she gasped,
"Isn't this Theodore Brewster's place?"
"Isn't this Ted Brewster's place?"
"No," said the big woman, speaking for the first time, "this place belongs to us. We bought it from the Brewsters last fall. They moved to Greenvale. Our name is Chapley."
"No," said the big woman, speaking for the first time. "This place belongs to us. We bought it from the Brewsters last fall. They moved to Greenvale. Our name is Chapley."
Poor Rilla fell back on her pillow, quite overcome.
Poor Rilla fell back on her pillow, totally overwhelmed.
"I beg your pardon," she said. "I—I—thought the Brewsters lived here. Mrs. Brewster is a friend of mine. I am Rilla Blythe—Dr. Blythe's daughter from Glen St. Mary. I—I was going to town with my—my—this little boy—and he fell off the train—and I jumped off after him—and nobody knew of it. I knew we couldn't get home last night and a storm was coming up—so we came here and when we found nobody at home—we—we—just got in through the window and—and—made ourselves at home."
"I’m sorry," she said. "I—I—thought the Brewsters lived here. Mrs. Brewster is a friend of mine. I’m Rilla Blythe—Dr. Blythe's daughter from Glen St. Mary. I—I was going to town with my—my—this little boy—and he fell off the train—and I jumped off after him—and no one knew about it. I realized we couldn’t get home last night and a storm was coming—so we came here and when we found no one at home—we—we—just got in through the window and—and—made ourselves comfortable."
"So it seems," said the woman sarcastically.
"So it looks," the woman said sarcastically.
"A likely story," said the man.
"A likely story," said the guy.
"We weren't born yesterday," added the woman.
"We weren't born yesterday," the woman added.
Madam Black-and-White didn't say anything; but when the other two made their pretty speeches she doubled up in a silent convulsion of mirth, shaking her head from side to side and beating the air with her hands.
Madam Black-and-White didn’t say anything; but when the other two gave their charming speeches, she doubled over in a silent fit of laughter, shaking her head from side to side and flailing her arms in the air.
Rilla, stung by the disagreeable attitude of the Chapleys, regained her self-possession and lost her temper. She sat up in bed and said in her haughtiest voice, "I do not know when you were born, or where, but it must have been somewhere where very peculiar manners were taught. If you will have the decency to leave my room—er—this room—until I can get up and dress I shall not transgress upon your hospitality"—Rilla was killingly sarcastic—"any longer. And I shall pay you amply for the food we have eaten and the night's lodging I have taken."
Rilla, upset by the unpleasant attitude of the Chapleys, regained her composure but lost her cool. She sat up in bed and said in her most haughty tone, "I don’t know when or where you were born, but it must have been a place where very strange manners were taught. If you could have the decency to leave my room—er—this room—until I can get up and get dressed, I won’t impose on your hospitality"—Rilla was extremely sarcastic—"any longer. And I will compensate you well for the food we have eaten and the night's stay I have had."
The black-and-white apparition went through the motion of clapping her hands, but not a sound did she make. Perhaps Mr. Chapley was cowed by Rilla's tone—or perhaps he was appeased at the prospect of payment; at all events, he spoke more civilly.
The black-and-white ghost mimicked clapping her hands, but she didn’t make a sound. Maybe Mr. Chapley was intimidated by Rilla's tone—or maybe he was reassured by the idea of getting paid; either way, he spoke more politely.
"Well, that's fair. If you pay up it's all right."
"Well, that makes sense. If you pay up, it’s all good."
"She shall do no such thing as pay you," said Madam Black-and-White in a surprisingly clear, resolute, authoritative tone of voice. "If you haven't got any shame for yourself, Robert Chapley, you've got a mother-in-law who can be ashamed for you. No strangers shall be charged for room and lodging in any house where Mrs. Matilda Pitman lives. Remember that, though I may have come down in the world, I haven't quite forgot all decency for all that. I knew you was a skinflint when Amelia married you, and you've made her as bad as yourself. But Mrs. Matilda Pitman has been boss for a long time, and Mrs. Matilda Pitman will remain boss. Here you, Robert Chapley, take yourself out of here and let that girl get dressed. And you, Amelia, go downstairs and cook a breakfast for her."
"She’s not going to pay you," Madam Black-and-White said in a surprisingly clear, firm, authoritative tone. "If you don’t have any shame for yourself, Robert Chapley, your mother-in-law can be ashamed for you. No strangers will be charged for a room and board in any house where Mrs. Matilda Pitman lives. Remember, even though I may have fallen on hard times, I haven’t forgotten about decency. I knew you were cheap when Amelia married you, and you've made her just like you. But Mrs. Matilda Pitman has been in charge for a long time, and Mrs. Matilda Pitman will stay in charge. Now you, Robert Chapley, get out of here and let that girl get dressed. And you, Amelia, go downstairs and make her breakfast."
Never, in all her life, had Rilla seen anything like the abject meekness with which those two big people obeyed that mite. They went without word or look of protest. As the door closed behind them Mrs. Matilda Pitman laughed silently, and rocked from side to side in her merriment.
Never, in all her life, had Rilla seen anything like the utter submissiveness with which those two tall people followed that little one’s commands. They left without a word or a hint of complaint. As the door closed behind them, Mrs. Matilda Pitman chuckled quietly and swayed back and forth in her amusement.
"Ain't it funny?" she said. "I mostly lets them run the length of their tether, but sometimes I has to pull them up, and then I does it with a jerk. They don't dast aggravate me, because I've got considerable hard cash, and they're afraid I won't leave it all to them. Neither I will. I'll leave 'em some, but some I won't, just to vex 'em. I haven't made up my mind where I will leave it but I'll have to, soon, for at eighty a body is living on borrowed time. Now, you can take your time about dressing, my dear, and I'll go down and keep them mean scallawags in order. That's a handsome child you have there. Is he your brother?"
"Isn't it funny?" she said. "I usually let them go as far as they can, but sometimes I have to pull them back, and when I do, I do it with a jerk. They don’t dare annoy me because I’ve got quite a bit of money, and they’re scared I won’t leave it all to them. I won’t, either. I’ll leave them some, but not all, just to tease them. I haven't decided where I’ll leave it yet, but I have to soon because at eighty, you’re living on borrowed time. Now, you can take your time getting dressed, my dear, and I’ll go down and keep those little rascals in check. That’s a beautiful child you have there. Is he your brother?"
"No, he's a little war-baby I've been taking care of, because his mother died and his father was overseas," answered Rilla in a subdued tone.
"No, he's a little war baby I've been taking care of because his mother died and his father is overseas," Rilla replied in a quiet voice.
"War-baby! Humph! Well, I'd better skin out before he wakes up or he'll likely start crying. Children don't like me—never did. I can't recollect any youngster ever coming near me of its own accord. Never had any of my own. Amelia was my step-daughter. Well, it's saved me a world of bother. If kids don't like me I don't like them, so that's an even score. But that certainly is a handsome child."
"War baby! Humph! I should probably slip out before he wakes up, or he’ll probably start crying. Kids don't like me—never have. I can't remember any child ever coming up to me on their own. I’ve never had any kids of my own. Amelia was my stepdaughter. Well, that’s saved me a lot of hassle. If kids don’t like me, I don’t like them, so it’s a fair trade. But that is definitely a beautiful child."
Jims chose this moment for waking up. He opened his big brown eyes and looked at Mrs. Matilda Pitman unblinkingly. Then he sat up, dimpled deliciously, pointed to her and said solemnly to Rilla, "Pwitty lady, Willa, pwitty lady."
Jims picked this moment to wake up. He opened his big brown eyes and stared at Mrs. Matilda Pitman without blinking. Then he sat up, smiled adorably, pointed at her, and said seriously to Rilla, "Pretty lady, Willa, pretty lady."
Mrs. Matilda Pitman smiled. Even eighty-odd is sometimes vulnerable in vanity. "I've heard that children and fools tell the truth," she said. "I was used to compliments when I was young—but they're scarcer when you get as far along as I am. I haven't had one for years. It tastes good. I s'pose now, you monkey, you wouldn't give me a kiss."
Mrs. Matilda Pitman smiled. Even at her age, she could still feel a bit vain. "I've heard that kids and fools speak the truth," she said. "I used to get a lot of compliments when I was younger—but they're harder to come by now that I'm this far along. I haven't received one in years. It feels nice. I bet you, little rascal, wouldn't give me a kiss now."
Then Jims did a quite surprising thing. He was not a demonstrative youngster and was chary with kisses even to the Ingleside people. But without a word he stood up in bed, his plump little body encased only in his undershirt, ran to the footboard, flung his arms about Mrs. Matilda Pitman's neck, and gave her a bear hug, accompanied by three or four hearty, ungrudging smacks.
Then Jims did something quite surprising. He wasn’t an overly affectionate kid and was careful with kisses even for the Ingleside people. But without saying anything, he stood up in bed, his chubby little body only in his undershirt, ran to the footboard, wrapped his arms around Mrs. Matilda Pitman's neck, and gave her a bear hug, along with three or four hearty, generous kisses.
"Jims," protested Rilla, aghast at this liberty.
"Jims," Rilla protested, shocked by this audacity.
"You leave him be," ordered Mrs. Matilda Pitman, setting her bonnet straight.
"You leave him alone," instructed Mrs. Matilda Pitman, adjusting her bonnet.
"Laws I like to see some one that isn't skeered of me. Everybody is—you are, though you're trying to hide it. And why? Of course Robert and Amelia are because I make 'em skeered on purpose. But folks always are—no matter how civil I be to them. Are you going to keep this child?"
"Laws, I want to see someone who isn't scared of me. Everyone is—you are, even if you’re trying to hide it. And why? Of course, Robert and Amelia are scared because I make them scared on purpose. But people always are—no matter how polite I am to them. Are you going to keep this child?"
"I'm afraid not. His father is coming home before long."
"I'm afraid not. His dad is coming home soon."
"Is he any good—the father, I mean?"
"Is he any good—the dad, I mean?"
"Well—he's kind and nice—but he's poor—and I'm afraid he always will be," faltered Rilla.
"Well—he's kind and nice—but he doesn't have money—and I'm afraid he always will be," Rilla said hesitantly.
"I see—shiftless—can't make or keep. Well, I'll see—I'll see. I have an idea. It's a good idea, and besides it will make Robert and Amelia squirm. That's its main merit in my eyes, though I like that child, mind you, because he ain't skeered of me. He's worth some bother. Now, you get dressed, as I said before, and come down when you're good and ready."
"I get it—lazy—can't create or hold on to anything. Well, I’ll figure it out—I’ll figure it out. I have a plan. It’s a solid plan, and on top of that, it’ll make Robert and Amelia uncomfortable. That’s its main appeal to me, though I like that kid, just so you know, because he’s not afraid of me. He’s worth the trouble. Now, you get dressed, like I mentioned before, and come down when you’re ready."
Rilla was stiff and sore after her tumble and walk of the night before but she was not long in dressing herself and Jims. When she went down to the kitchen she found a smoking hot breakfast on the table. Mr. Chapley was nowhere in sight and Mrs. Chapley was cutting bread with a sulky air. Mrs. Matilda Pitman was sitting in an armchair, knitting a grey army sock. She still wore her bonnet and her triumphant expression.
Rilla felt stiff and sore after her fall and walk the night before, but she quickly got herself and Jims ready. When she went down to the kitchen, she found a steaming hot breakfast on the table. Mr. Chapley was nowhere to be seen, and Mrs. Chapley was cutting bread with a sulky expression. Mrs. Matilda Pitman was sitting in an armchair, knitting a grey army sock. She still had her bonnet on and wore a triumphant look.
"Set right in, dears, and make a good breakfast," she said.
"Come on in, everyone, and have a nice breakfast," she said.
"I am not hungry," said Rilla almost pleadingly. "I don't think I can eat anything. And it is time I was starting for the station. The morning train will soon be along. Please excuse me and let us go—I'll take a piece of bread and butter for Jims."
"I’m not hungry," Rilla said almost desperately. "I don’t think I can eat anything. And it’s time for me to head to the station. The morning train will be here soon. Please excuse me and let’s go—I’ll grab a piece of bread and butter for Jims."
Mrs. Matilda Pitman shook a knitting-needle playfully at Rilla.
Mrs. Matilda Pitman playfully shook a knitting needle at Rilla.
"Sit down and take your breakfast," she said. "Mrs. Matilda Pitman commands you. Everybody obeys Mrs. Matilda Pitman—even Robert and Amelia. You must obey her too."
"Sit down and have your breakfast," she said. "Mrs. Matilda Pitman is telling you to. Everyone listens to Mrs. Matilda Pitman—even Robert and Amelia. You need to listen to her too."
Rilla did obey her. She sat down and, such was the influence of Mrs. Matilda Pitman's mesmeric eye, she ate a tolerable breakfast. The obedient Amelia never spoke; Mrs. Matilda Pitman did not speak either; but she knitted furiously and chuckled. When Rilla had finished, Mrs. Matilda Pitman rolled up her sock.
Rilla did what she was told. She sat down, and thanks to Mrs. Matilda Pitman's intense gaze, she managed to eat a decent breakfast. The obedient Amelia didn't say a word; neither did Mrs. Matilda Pitman, but she knit furiously and chuckled. Once Rilla was done, Mrs. Matilda Pitman rolled up her sock.
"Now you can go if you want to," she said, "but you don't have to go. You can stay here as long as you want to and I'll make Amelia cook your meals for you."
"Now you can leave if you want," she said, "but you don't have to. You can stay here as long as you want, and I'll have Amelia cook your meals for you."
The independent Miss Blythe, whom a certain clique of Junior Red Cross girls accused of being domineering and "bossy," was thoroughly cowed.
The independent Miss Blythe, who was accused by a certain group of Junior Red Cross girls of being controlling and "bossy," was completely intimidated.
"Thank you," she said meekly, "but we must really go."
"Thanks," she said quietly, "but we really have to go."
"Well, then," said Mrs. Matilda Pitman, throwing open the door, "your conveyance is ready for you. I told Robert he must hitch up and drive you to the station. I enjoy making Robert do things. It's almost the only sport I have left. I'm over eighty and most things have lost their flavour except bossing Robert."
"Well, then," said Mrs. Matilda Pitman, throwing open the door, "your ride is ready for you. I told Robert he had to get the car ready and take you to the station. I love making Robert do things. It's pretty much the only fun I have left. I'm over eighty and most things don't excite me anymore except directing Robert."
Robert sat before the door on the front seat of a trim, double-seated, rubber-tired buggy. He must have heard every word his mother-in-law said but he gave no sign.
Robert sat in front of the door on the front seat of a neat, double-seated, rubber-tired buggy. He must have heard every word his mother-in-law said, but he didn’t show any sign of it.
"I do wish," said Rilla, plucking up what little spirit she had left, "that you would let me—oh—ah—" then she quailed again before Mrs. Matilda Pitman's eye—"recompense you for—for—"
"I really wish," said Rilla, mustering what little courage she had left, "that you would let me—oh—ah—" then she shrank back again before Mrs. Matilda Pitman's gaze—"repay you for—for—"
"Mrs. Matilda Pitman said before—and meant it—that she doesn't take pay for entertaining strangers, nor let other people where she lives do it, much as their natural meanness would like to do it. You go along to town and don't forget to call the next time you come this way. Don't be scared. Not that you are scared of much, I reckon, considering the way you sassed Robert back this morning. I like your spunk. Most girls nowadays are such timid, skeery creeturs. When I was a girl I wasn't afraid of nothing nor nobody. Mind you take good care of that boy. He ain't any common child. And make Robert drive round all the puddles in the road. I won't have that new buggy splashed."
"Mrs. Matilda Pitman has always said—and really means it—that she doesn't accept payment for entertaining strangers, nor does she allow others where she lives to do it, even though their natural stinginess would like to. You should head into town and remember to drop by the next time you’re this way. Don’t worry. Not that you get scared easily, considering how you talked back to Robert this morning. I admire your spirit. Most girls these days are such timid, fearful creatures. When I was a girl, I wasn’t afraid of anything or anyone. Make sure to take good care of that boy. He’s not an ordinary child. And make Robert drive around all the puddles in the road. I won’t have that new buggy getting splashed."
As they drove away Jims threw kisses at Mrs. Matilda Pitman as long as he could see her, and Mrs. Matilda Pitman waved her sock back at him. Robert spoke no word, either good or bad, all the way to the station, but he remembered the puddles. When Rilla got out at the siding she thanked him courteously. The only response she got was a grunt as Robert turned his horse and started for home.
As they drove away, Jim blew kisses at Mrs. Matilda Pitman for as long as he could see her, and Mrs. Matilda Pitman waved her sock back at him. Robert said nothing, good or bad, all the way to the station, but he remembered the puddles. When Rilla got out at the siding, she thanked him politely. The only response she got was a grunt as Robert turned his horse and headed home.
"Well"—Rilla drew a long breath—"I must try to get back into Rilla Blythe again. I've been somebody else these past few hours—I don't know just who—some creation of that extraordinary old person's. I believe she hypnotized me. What an adventure this will be to write the boys."
"Well"—Rilla took a deep breath—"I need to try to get back to being Rilla Blythe again. I've been someone else these past few hours—I’m not sure who—some creation of that incredible old person’s. I think she hypnotized me. This is going to be quite the adventure to tell the boys about."
And then she sighed. Bitter remembrance came that there were only Jerry, Ken, Carl and Shirley to write it to now. Jem—who would have appreciated Mrs. Matilda Pitman keenly—where was Jem?
And then she sighed. A bitter memory hit her that there were only Jerry, Ken, Carl, and Shirley left to write to now. Jem—who would have really appreciated Mrs. Matilda Pitman—where was Jem?
CHAPTER XXXII
WORD FROM JEM
4th August 1918
August 4, 1918
"It is four years tonight since the dance at the lighthouse—four years of war. It seems like three times four. I was fifteen then. I am nineteen now. I expected that these past four years would be the most delightful years of my life and they have been years of war—years of fear and grief and worry—but I humbly hope, of a little growth in strength and character as well.
"It’s been four years tonight since the dance at the lighthouse—four years of war. It feels like twelve. I was fifteen then. I’m nineteen now. I thought these past four years would be the most wonderful of my life, but they’ve been years of war—years filled with fear, grief, and worry—but I sincerely hope there’s been a bit of personal growth in strength and character too."
"Today I was going through the hall and I heard mother saying something to father about me. I didn't mean to listen—I couldn't help hearing her as I went along the hall and upstairs—so perhaps that is why I heard what listeners are said never to hear—something good of myself. And because it was mother who said it I'm going to write it here in my journal, for my comforting when days of discouragement come upon me, in which I feel that I am vain and selfish and weak and that there is no good thing in me.
"Today I was walking down the hallway and I heard my mom saying something to my dad about me. I didn’t mean to eavesdrop—I just couldn’t help overhearing her as I walked by and went upstairs—so maybe that’s why I heard what people say listeners never catch—the good stuff about myself. And because it was my mom who said it, I’m going to write it down in my journal for comfort on the days when I feel discouraged, when I think I’m vain, selfish, and weak, and that there’s nothing good in me."
"'Rilla has developed in a wonderful fashion these past four years. She used to be such an irresponsible young creature. She has changed into a capable, womanly girl and she is such a comfort to me. Nan and Di have grown a little away from me—they have been so little at home—but Rilla has grown closer and closer to me. We are chums. I don't see how I could have got through these terrible years without her, Gilbert.'
"'Rilla has grown so much in these past four years. She used to be such an irresponsible young girl. Now she's become a capable, mature young woman, and she brings me so much comfort. Nan and Di have drifted a bit from me—they haven't been home much—but Rilla has gotten closer and closer to me. We're best friends. I honestly don't know how I would have managed through these tough years without her, Gilbert.'"
"There, that is just what mother said—and I feel glad—and sorry—and proud—and humble! It's beautiful to have my mother think that about me—but I don't deserve it quite. I'm not as good and strong as all that. There are heaps of times when I have felt cross and impatient and woeful and despairing. It is mother and Susan who have been this family's backbone. But I have helped a little, I believe, and I am so glad and thankful.
"There, that's exactly what mom said—and I feel happy—and sad—and proud—and humble! It's wonderful to have my mom think that about me—but I don't really deserve it. I'm not that good and strong. There have been plenty of times when I've felt angry and impatient and miserable and hopeless. It's mom and Susan who have been the backbone of this family. But I think I've helped a little, and I'm really glad and thankful."
"The war news has been good right along. The French and Americans are pushing the Germans back and back and back. Sometimes I am afraid it is too good to last—after nearly four years of disasters one has a feeling that this constant success is unbelievable. We don't rejoice noisily over it. Susan keeps the flag up but we go softly. The price paid has been too high for jubilation. We are just thankful that it has not been paid in vain.
"The war news has been positive all along. The French and Americans are pushing the Germans back and back. Sometimes I worry it might be too good to last—after almost four years of disasters, it feels unbelievable that we’re having such consistent success. We don't celebrate loudly. Susan keeps the flag up, but we stay subdued. The cost has been too high for celebration. We are just grateful that it hasn’t been paid in vain."
"No word has come from Jem. We hope—because we dare not do anything else. But there are hours when we all feel—though we never say so—that such hoping is foolishness. These hours come more and more frequently as the weeks go by. And we may never know. That is the most terrible thought of all. I wonder how Faith is bearing it. To judge from her letters she has never for a moment given up hope, but she must have had her dark hours of doubt like the rest of us."
"No word has come from Jem. We hope—because we dare not do anything else. But there are times when we all feel—though we never say it—that such hope is foolishness. These times come more and more often as the weeks pass. And we may never know. That's the most terrible thought of all. I wonder how Faith is handling it. Judging by her letters, she has never once given up hope, but she must have had her dark moments of doubt like the rest of us."
20th August 1918
August 20, 1918
"The Canadians have been in action again and Mr. Meredith had a cable today saying that Carl had been slightly wounded and is in the hospital. It did not say where the wound was, which is unusual, and we all feel worried. There is news of a fresh victory every day now."
"The Canadians have been active again, and Mr. Meredith received a message today saying that Carl was slightly injured and is in the hospital. It didn’t specify where the injury is, which is unusual, and we’re all feeling anxious. There’s news of a new victory every day now."
30th August 1918
August 30, 1918
"The Merediths had a letter from Carl today. His wound was "only a slight one"—but it was in his right eye and the sight is gone for ever!
"The Merediths received a letter from Carl today. His injury was 'just a minor one'—but it was in his right eye and he’ll never see out of it again!"
"'One eye is enough to watch bugs with,' Carl writes cheerfully. And we know it might have been oh so much worse! If it had been both eyes! But I cried all the afternoon after I saw Carl's letter. Those beautiful, fearless blue eyes of his!
"'One eye is enough to watch bugs with,' Carl writes cheerfully. And we know it could have been so much worse! If it had been both eyes! But I cried all afternoon after I saw Carl's letter. Those beautiful, fearless blue eyes of his!
"There is one comfort—he will not have to go back to the front. He is coming home as soon as he is out of the hospital—the first of our boys to return. When will the others come?
"There is one comfort—he won't have to go back to the front. He’s coming home as soon as he’s out of the hospital—the first of our boys to return. When will the others come?"
"And there is one who will never come. At least we will not see him if he does. But, oh, I think he will be there—when our Canadian soldiers return there will be a shadow army with them—the army of the fallen. We will not see them—but they will be there!"
"And there’s one who will never show up. At least we won’t see him if he does. But, oh, I believe he will be present—when our Canadian soldiers come back, there will be a shadow army along with them—the army of the fallen. We won’t see them—but they will be there!"
1st September 1918
1st September 1918
"Mother and I went into Charlottetown yesterday to see the moving picture, "Hearts of the World." I made an awful goose of myself—father will never stop teasing me about it for the rest of my life. But it all seemed so horribly real—and I was so intensely interested that I forgot everything but the scenes I saw enacted before my eyes. And then, quite near the last came a terribly exciting one. The heroine was struggling with a horrible German soldier who was trying to drag her away. I knew she had a knife—I had seen her hide it, to have it in readiness—and I couldn't understand why she didn't produce it and finish the brute. I thought she must have forgotten it, and just at the tensest moment of the scene I lost my head altogether. I just stood right up on my feet in that crowded house and shrieked at the top of my voice—'The knife is in your stocking—the knife is in your stocking!'
"Mom and I went to Charlottetown yesterday to see the movie, "Hearts of the World." I made a complete fool of myself—Dad will never stop teasing me about it for the rest of my life. But it all felt so incredibly real—and I was so caught up in it that I forgot everything except the scenes happening right in front of me. Then, near the end, there was a really intense scene. The heroine was struggling with a terrifying German soldier who was trying to drag her away. I knew she had a knife—I had seen her hide it to be ready—and I couldn't understand why she didn't pull it out and deal with the guy. I thought she must have forgotten it, and just at the most intense moment of the scene, I completely lost it. I stood up in that packed theater and shouted at the top of my lungs—'The knife is in your stocking—the knife is in your stocking!'"
"I created a sensation!
"I caused a stir!"
"The funny part was, that just as I said it, the girl did snatch out the knife and stab the soldier with it!
"The funny part was, that just as I said it, the girl pulled out the knife and stabbed the soldier with it!"
"Everybody in the house laughed. I came to my senses and fell back in my seat, overcome with mortification. Mother was shaking with laughter. I could have shaken her. Why hadn't she pulled me down and choked me before I had made such an idiot of myself. She protests that there wasn't time.
"Everyone in the house laughed. I came to my senses and sank back into my seat, overwhelmed with embarrassment. Mom was shaking with laughter. I could have shaken her. Why didn’t she pull me down and stop me before I made such a fool of myself? She claims there wasn’t time."
"Fortunately the house was dark, and I don't believe there was anybody there who knew me. And I thought I was becoming sensible and self-controlled and womanly! It is plain I have some distance to go yet before I attain that devoutly desired consummation."
"Luckily, the house was dark, and I don’t think anyone there knew who I was. I thought I was becoming sensible, self-controlled, and more feminine! Clearly, I still have a long way to go before I reach that deeply desired goal."
20th September 1918
September 20, 1918
"In the east Bulgaria has asked for peace, and in the west the British have smashed the Hindenburg line; and right here in Glen St. Mary little Bruce Meredith has done something that I think wonderful—wonderful because of the love behind it. Mrs. Meredith was here tonight and told us about it—and mother and I cried, and Susan got up and clattered the things about the stove.
"In the east, Bulgaria has requested peace, and in the west, the British have broken through the Hindenburg line; and right here in Glen St. Mary, little Bruce Meredith has done something that I find amazing—amazing because of the love behind it. Mrs. Meredith was here tonight and shared the story with us—and my mother and I cried, while Susan got up and rattled the dishes by the stove."
"Bruce always loved Jem very devotedly, and the child has never forgotten him in all these years. He has been as faithful in his way as Dog Monday was in his. We have always told him that Jem would come back. But it seems that he was in Carter Flagg's store last night and he heard his Uncle Norman flatly declaring that Jem Blythe would never come back and that the Ingleside folk might as well give up hoping he would. Bruce went home and cried himself to sleep. This morning his mother saw him going out of the yard, with a very sorrowful and determined look, carrying his pet kitten. She didn't think much more about it until later on he came in, with the most tragic little face, and told her, his little body shaking with sobs, that he had drowned Stripey.
"Bruce always loved Jem very devotedly, and he has never forgotten him all these years. He's been as loyal in his own way as Dog Monday was in his. We’ve always told him that Jem would come back. But it seems he was at Carter Flagg's store last night and heard his Uncle Norman declaring flat out that Jem Blythe would never return and that the Ingleside folks might as well stop hoping he would. Bruce went home and cried himself to sleep. This morning, his mom saw him leaving the yard with a very sad and determined look, carrying his pet kitten. She didn’t think much of it until later when he came in with the most tragic little face, and told her, his little body shaking with sobs, that he had drowned Stripey."
"'Why did you do that?' Mrs. Meredith exclaimed.
"'Why did you do that?' Mrs. Meredith shouted."
"'To bring Jem back,' sobbed Bruce. 'I thought if I sacrificed Stripey God would send Jem back. So I drownded him—and, oh mother, it was awful hard—but surely God will send Jem back now, 'cause Stripey was the dearest thing I had. I just told God I would give Him Stripey if He would send Jem back. And He will, won't He, mother?'
"'To bring Jem back,' cried Bruce. 'I thought if I sacrificed Stripey, God would send Jem back. So I drowned him—and, oh mother, it was so difficult—but surely God will send Jem back now, because Stripey was the most precious thing I had. I just told God I would give Him Stripey if He would send Jem back. And He will, right, mother?'"
"Mrs. Meredith didn't know what to say to the poor child. She just could not tell him that perhaps his sacrifice wouldn't bring Jem back—that God didn't work that way. She told him that he mustn't expect it right away—that perhaps it would be quite a long time yet before Jem came back.
"Mrs. Meredith didn't know what to say to the poor child. She just couldn't tell him that maybe his sacrifice wouldn't bring Jem back—that God didn't operate like that. She told him that he shouldn't expect it right away—that it might be quite a while before Jem returned."
"But Bruce said, 'It oughtn't to take longer'n a week, mother. Oh, mother, Stripey was such a nice little cat. He purred so pretty. Don't you think God ought to like him enough to let us have Jem?"
"But Bruce said, 'It shouldn't take longer than a week, Mom. Oh, Mom, Stripey was such a nice little cat. He purred so sweetly. Don't you think God should like him enough to let us have Jem?"
"Mr. Meredith is worried about the effect on Bruce's faith in God, and Mrs. Meredith is worried about the effect on Bruce himself if his hope isn't fulfilled. And I feel as if I must cry every time I think of it. It was so splendid—and sad—and beautiful. The dear devoted little fellow! He worshipped that kitten. And if it all goes for nothing—as so many sacrifices seem to go for nothing—he will be brokenhearted, for he isn't old enough to understand that God doesn't answer our prayers just as we hope—and doesn't make bargains with us when we yield something we love up to Him."
"Mr. Meredith is concerned about how this will affect Bruce's faith in God, and Mrs. Meredith worries about what will happen to Bruce if his hope isn't fulfilled. I feel like crying every time I think about it. It was so wonderful—and sad—and beautiful. That sweet, devoted little guy! He adored that kitten. And if it all ends up being for nothing—as so many sacrifices seem to be—he will be heartbroken, because he's not old enough to understand that God doesn't always answer our prayers the way we wish and doesn't make deals with us when we give up something we love for Him."
24th September 1918
September 24, 1918
"I have been kneeling at my window in the moonshine for a long time, just thanking God over and over again. The joy of last night and today has been so great that it seemed half pain—as if our hearts weren't big enough to hold it.
"I've been kneeling at my window in the moonlight for a long time, just thanking God repeatedly. The joy from last night and today has been so intense that it felt almost painful—as if our hearts weren't big enough to contain it."
"Last night I was sitting here in my room at eleven o'clock writing a letter to Shirley. Every one else was in bed, except father, who was out. I heard the telephone ring and I ran out to the hall to answer it, before it should waken mother. It was long-distance calling, and when I answered it said 'This is the telegraph Company's office in Charlottetown. There is an overseas cable for Dr. Blythe.'
"Last night, I was sitting in my room at eleven o'clock writing a letter to Shirley. Everyone else was in bed, except for Dad, who was out. I heard the phone ring and rushed to the hall to pick it up before it woke Mom. It was a long-distance call, and when I answered, it said, 'This is the telegraph company's office in Charlottetown. There is an overseas cable for Dr. Blythe.'"
"I thought of Shirley—my heart stood still—and then I heard him saying, 'It's from Holland.'
"I thought about Shirley—my heart stopped—and then I heard him say, 'It's from Holland.'"
"The message was,
"The message was,"
'Just arrived. Escaped from Germany. Quite well. Writing.
James Blythe.'
'Just arrived. Escaped from Germany. Doing pretty well. Writing.
James Blythe.'
"I didn't faint or fall or scream. I didn't feel glad or surprised. I didn't feel anything. I felt numb, just as I did when I heard Walter had enlisted. I hung up the receiver and turned round. Mother was standing in her doorway. She wore her old rose kimono, and her hair was hanging down her back in a long thick braid, and her eyes were shining. She looked just like a young girl.
"I didn't faint or fall or scream. I didn't feel happy or surprised. I didn’t feel anything. I felt numb, the same way I felt when I found out Walter had enlisted. I hung up the phone and turned around. Mom was standing in her doorway. She was wearing her old rose kimono, and her hair was hanging down her back in a thick long braid, and her eyes were shining. She looked just like a young girl."
"'There is word from Jem?' she said.
"'Have you heard from Jem?' she asked."
"How did she know? I hadn't said a word at the phone except 'Yes—yes—yes.' She says she doesn't know how she knew, but she did know. She was awake and she heard the ring and she knew that there was word from Jem.
"How did she know? I hadn't said anything on the phone except 'Yes—yes—yes.' She says she doesn't know how she knew, but she really did. She was awake, she heard the phone ring, and she knew it was news about Jem."
"'He's alive—he's well—he's in Holland,' I said.
'He's alive—he's doing great—he's in Holland,' I said.
"Mother came out into the hall and said, 'I must get your father on the 'phone and tell him. He is in the Upper Glen.'
"Mom stepped into the hallway and said, 'I need to call your dad and let him know. He's in the Upper Glen.'"
"She was very calm and quiet—not a bit like I would have expected her to be. But then I wasn't either. I went and woke up Gertrude and Susan and told them. Susan said 'Thank God,' firstly, and secondly she said 'Did I not tell you Dog Monday knew?' and thirdly, 'I'll go down and make a cup of tea'—and she stalked down in her nightdress to make it. She did make it—and made mother and Gertrude drink it—but I went back to my room and shut my door and locked it, and I knelt by my window and cried—just as Gertrude did when her great news came.
"She was really calm and quiet—not at all how I expected her to be. But then again, I wasn’t either. I went and woke up Gertrude and Susan and told them. Susan said, 'Thank God,' first, and then she said, 'Didn’t I tell you Dog Monday knew?' and then, 'I’ll go downstairs and make a cup of tea'—and she marched down in her nightgown to make it. She did make it—and got Mom and Gertrude to drink it—but I went back to my room and shut my door and locked it, and I knelt by my window and cried—just like Gertrude did when her big news came."
"I think I know at last exactly what I shall feel like on the resurrection morning."
"I think I finally know exactly how I’ll feel on resurrection morning."
4th October 1918
October 4, 1918
"Today Jem's letter came. It has been in the house only six hours and it is almost read to pieces. The post-mistress told everybody in the Glen it had come, and everybody came up to hear the news.
"Today Jem's letter arrived. It has only been in the house for six hours, and it's almost torn to shreds. The post-mistress told everyone in the Glen that it had come, and everyone came over to hear the news."
"Jem was badly wounded in the thigh—and he was picked up and taken to prison, so delirious with fever that he didn't know what was happening to him or where he was. It was weeks before he came to his senses and was able to write. Then he did write—but it never came. He wasn't treated at all badly at his camp—only the food was poor. He had nothing to eat but a little black bread and boiled turnips and now and then a little soup with black peas in it. And we sat down every one of those days to three good square luxurious meals! He wrote us as often as he could but he was afraid we were not getting his letters because no reply came. As soon as he was strong enough he tried to escape, but was caught and brought back; a month later he and a comrade made another attempt and succeeded in reaching Holland.
"Jem was seriously injured in the thigh—and he was taken to prison, so feverish that he didn’t know what was happening to him or where he was. It took weeks for him to regain his senses and be able to write. When he finally wrote, the message never got sent. He wasn’t treated too badly in his camp—only the food was awful. He lived on a bit of black bread, boiled turnips, and occasionally a little soup with black peas in it. Meanwhile, we enjoyed three hearty, indulgent meals every day! He wrote to us as often as he could, but he worried we weren’t getting his letters because we didn’t respond. As soon as he was strong enough, he tried to escape, but he was caught and brought back; a month later, he and a friend made another attempt and managed to reach Holland."
"Jem can't come home right away. He isn't quite so well as his cable said, for his wound has not healed properly and he has to go into a hospital in England for further treatment. But he says he will be all right eventually, and we know he is safe and will be back home sometime, and oh, the difference it makes in everything!
"Jem can't come home right away. He's not doing as well as his message said, because his wound hasn't healed properly and he needs to go to a hospital in England for more treatment. But he says he’ll be okay eventually, and we know he's safe and will be back home sometime, and oh, what a difference that makes in everything!"
"I had a letter from Jim Anderson today, too. He has married an English girl, got his discharge, and is coming right home to Canada with his bride. I don't know whether to be glad or sorry. It will depend on what kind of a woman she is. I had a second letter also of a somewhat mysterious tenor. It is from a Charlottetown lawyer, asking me to go in to see him at my earliest convenience in regard to a certain matter connected with the estate of the 'late Mrs. Matilda Pitman.'
"I got a letter from Jim Anderson today, too. He's married an English girl, got his discharge, and is coming straight home to Canada with his wife. I don't know whether to feel happy or sad. It all depends on what kind of person she is. I also received a second letter that was a bit mysterious. It’s from a lawyer in Charlottetown, asking me to come in and see him as soon as I can about something related to the estate of the 'late Mrs. Matilda Pitman.'
"I read a notice of Mrs. Pitman's death—from heart failure—in the Enterprise a few weeks ago. I wonder if this summons has anything to do with Jims."
"I saw an obituary for Mrs. Pitman—she passed away from heart failure—in the Enterprise a few weeks back. I’m curious if this summons is related to Jims."
5th October 1918
October 5, 1918
"I went into town this morning and had an interview with Mrs. Pitman's lawyer—a little thin, wispy man, who spoke of his late client with such a profound respect that it is evident that he as was much under her thumb as Robert and Amelia were. He drew up a new will for her a short time before her death. She was worth thirty thousand dollars, the bulk of which was left to Amelia Chapley. But she left five thousand to me in trust for Jims. The interest is to be used as I see fit for his education, and the principal is to be paid over to him on his twentieth birthday. Certainly Jims was born lucky. I saved him from slow extinction at the hands of Mrs. Conover—Mary Vance saved him from death by diptheritic croup—his star saved him when he fell off the train. And he tumbled not only into a clump of bracken, but right into this nice little legacy.
I went into town this morning and had a meeting with Mrs. Pitman's lawyer—a small, thin guy who talked about his late client with such deep respect that it was clear he was just as much under her control as Robert and Amelia were. He drafted a new will for her shortly before she passed away. She was worth thirty thousand dollars, most of which went to Amelia Chapley. But she left five thousand for me in trust for Jims. The interest is to be used as I see fit for his education, and the principal is to be given to him on his twentieth birthday. Jims really was born lucky. I saved him from a slow demise at the hands of Mrs. Conover—Mary Vance saved him from dying of diphtheritic croup—his luck saved him when he fell off the train. And he fell not only into a patch of ferns but right into this nice little inheritance.
"Evidently, as Mrs. Matilda Pitman said, and as I have always believed, he is no common child and he has no common destiny in store for him.
"Evidently, as Mrs. Matilda Pitman said, and as I've always believed, he is no ordinary child and he has no ordinary destiny ahead of him."
"At all events he is provided for, and in such a fashion that Jim Anderson can't squander his inheritance if he wanted to. Now, if the new English stepmother is only a good sort I shall feel quite easy about the future of my war-baby.
"Anyway, he’s taken care of, and in a way that Jim Anderson can’t waste his inheritance even if he tried. Now, if the new English stepmom is just a decent person, I’ll feel pretty good about the future of my war baby."
"I wonder what Robert and Amelia think of it. I fancy they will nail down their windows when they leave home after this!"
"I wonder what Robert and Amelia think about it. I bet they’ll board up their windows when they leave home after this!"
CHAPTER XXXIII
VICTORY!
"A day 'of chilling winds and gloomy skies,'" Rilla quoted one Sunday afternoon—the sixth of October to be exact. It was so cold that they had lighted a fire in the living-room and the merry little flames were doing their best to counteract the outside dourness. "It's more like November than October—November is such an ugly month."
"A day of cold winds and gloomy skies," Rilla quoted one Sunday afternoon—the sixth of October, to be exact. It was so chilly that they had lit a fire in the living room, and the cheerful little flames were trying their best to fight off the gloom outside. "It feels more like November than October—November is such a dreary month."
Cousin Sophia was there, having again forgiven Susan, and Mrs. Martin Clow, who was not visiting on Sunday but had dropped in to borrow Susan's cure for rheumatism—that being cheaper than getting one from the doctor. "I'm afeared we're going to have an airly winter," foreboded Cousin Sophia. "The muskrats are building awful big houses round the pond, and that's a sign that never fails. Dear me, how that child has grown!" Cousin Sophia sighed again, as if it were an unhappy circumstance that a child should grow. "When do you expect his father?"
Cousin Sophia was there, having once again forgiven Susan, and Mrs. Martin Clow, who wasn’t visiting on Sunday but had stopped by to borrow Susan’s remedy for rheumatism—since it was cheaper than getting one from the doctor. "I’m afraid we’re in for an early winter," Cousin Sophia predicted. "The muskrats are building really big houses around the pond, and that’s a sign that never fails. Goodness, how that child has grown!" Cousin Sophia sighed again, as if it were a sad thing for a child to grow. "When do you expect his father?"
"Next week," said Rilla.
"Next week," Rilla said.
"Well, I hope the stepmother won't abuse the pore child," sighed Cousin Sophia, "but I have my doubts—I have my doubts. Anyhow, he'll be sure to feel the difference between his usage here and what he'll get anywhere else. You've spoiled him so, Rilla, waiting on him hand and foot the way you've always done."
"Well, I hope the stepmother won't mistreat the poor child," sighed Cousin Sophia, "but I have my doubts—I really do. Anyway, he’s definitely going to notice the difference between how he’s treated here and what he’ll experience anywhere else. You’ve spoiled him so much, Rilla, catering to him hand and foot like you always have."
Rilla smiled and pressed her cheek to Jims' curls. She knew sweet-tempered, sunny, little Jims was not spoiled. Nevertheless her heart was anxious behind her smile. She, too, thought much about the new Mrs. Anderson and wondered uneasily what she would be like.
Rilla smiled and pressed her cheek to Jim's curls. She knew that sweet-tempered, cheerful little Jim wasn't spoiled. Still, her heart felt anxious behind her smile. She also thought a lot about the new Mrs. Anderson and wondered nervously what she would be like.
"I can't give Jims up to a woman who won't love him," she thought rebelliously.
"I can't let Jim go to a woman who won't love him," she thought defiantly.
"I b'lieve it's going to rain," said Cousin Sophia. "We have had an awful lot of rain this fall already. It's going to make it awful hard for people to get their roots in. It wasn't so in my young days. We gin'rally had beautiful Octobers then. But the seasons is altogether different now from what they used to be." Clear across Cousin Sophia's doleful voice cut the telephone bell. Gertrude Oliver answered it. "Yes—what? What? Is it true—is it official? Thank you—thank you."
"I believe it’s going to rain," said Cousin Sophia. "We’ve already had a lot of rain this fall. It’s going to make it really difficult for people to get their roots in. It wasn’t like this when I was young. We typically had beautiful Octobers back then. But the seasons are completely different now from what they used to be." Just then, the telephone rang, cutting through Cousin Sophia's gloomy voice. Gertrude Oliver picked it up. "Yes—what? What? Is it true— is it official? Thank you—thank you."
Gertrude turned and faced the room dramatically, her dark eyes flashing, her dark face flushed with feeling. All at once the sun broke through the thick clouds and poured through the big crimson maple outside the window. Its reflected glow enveloped her in a weird immaterial flame. She looked like a priestess performing some mystic, splendid rite.
Gertrude turned and dramatically faced the room, her dark eyes flashing and her face glowing with emotion. Suddenly, the sun broke through the thick clouds and streamed through the large crimson maple outside the window. Its reflected light surrounded her in an almost ethereal glow. She looked like a priestess performing some mystical, magnificent ritual.
"Germany and Austria are suing for peace," she said.
"Germany and Austria are asking for peace," she said.
Rilla went crazy for a few minutes. She sprang up and danced around the room, clapping her hands, laughing, crying.
Rilla went wild for a few minutes. She jumped up and danced around the room, clapping her hands, laughing and crying.
"Sit down, child," said Mrs. Clow, who never got excited over anything, and so had missed a tremendous amount of trouble and delight in her journey through life.
"Sit down, kid," said Mrs. Clow, who never got worked up about anything, and so had missed out on a huge amount of trouble and joy in her journey through life.
"Oh," cried Rilla, "I have walked the floor for hours in despair and anxiety in these past four years. Now let me walk in joy. It was worth living long dreary years for this minute, and it would be worth living them again just to look back to it. Susan, let's run up the flag—and we must phone the news to every one in the Glen."
"Oh," shouted Rilla, "I’ve paced the floor for hours in despair and anxiety over these past four years. Now let me walk in joy. It was worth living through those long, dreary years for this moment, and I’d do it all over again just to look back on it. Susan, let’s run up the flag—and we need to call everyone in the Glen with the news."
"Can we have as much sugar as we want to now?" asked Jims eagerly.
"Can we have as much sugar as we want now?" Jims asked eagerly.
It was a never-to-be-forgotten afternoon. As the news spread excited people ran about the village and dashed up to Ingleside. The Merediths came over and stayed to supper and everybody talked and nobody listened. Cousin Sophia tried to protest that Germany and Austria were not to be trusted and it was all part of a plot, but nobody paid the least attention to her.
It was an unforgettable afternoon. As the news spread, excited people ran through the village and rushed up to Ingleside. The Merediths came over and stayed for dinner, and everyone talked while no one listened. Cousin Sophia tried to argue that Germany and Austria couldn't be trusted and that it was all part of a scheme, but nobody paid her any attention.
"This Sunday makes up for that one in March," said Susan.
"This Sunday makes up for that one in March," Susan said.
"I wonder," said Gertrude dreamily, apart to Rilla, "if things won't seem rather flat and insipid when peace really comes. After being fed for four years on horrors and fears, terrible reverses, amazing victories, won't anything less be tame and uninteresting? How strange—and blessed—and dull it will be not to dread the coming of the mail every day."
"I wonder," said Gertrude dreamily, to Rilla, "if things will feel a bit flat and boring when peace finally comes. After being caught up in horrors and fears for four years, with terrible setbacks and incredible victories, won't anything less feel dull and unexciting? How strange—and wonderful—and boring it will be not to worry about the mail every day."
"We must dread it for a little while yet, I suppose," said Rilla. "Peace won't come—can't come—for some weeks yet. And in those weeks dreadful things may happen. My excitement is over. We have won the victory—but oh, what a price we have paid!"
"We probably have to worry about it a bit longer," Rilla said. "Peace won't arrive—can't arrive—for a few weeks. And during those weeks, terrible things could happen. I'm no longer excited. We've won the victory—but oh, what a price we've paid!"
"Not too high a price for freedom," said Gertrude softly. "Do you think it was, Rilla?"
"Not too high a price for freedom," Gertrude said softly. "Do you think it was, Rilla?"
"No," said Rilla, under her breath. She was seeing a little white cross on a battlefield of France. "No—not if those of us who live will show ourselves worthy of it—if we 'keep faith.'"
"No," Rilla said quietly. She was envisioning a small white cross on a battlefield in France. "No—not if those of us who survive prove ourselves worthy of it—if we 'keep faith.'"
"We will keep faith," said Gertrude. She rose suddenly. A silence fell around the table, and in the silence Gertrude repeated Walter's famous poem "The Piper." When she finished Mr. Meredith stood up and held up his glass. "Let us drink," he said, "to the silent army—to the boys who followed when the Piper summoned. 'For our tomorrow they gave their today'—theirs is the victory!"
"We will stay true," Gertrude said. She suddenly stood up. A hush settled around the table, and in that quiet moment, Gertrude recited Walter's famous poem "The Piper." When she was done, Mr. Meredith got to his feet and raised his glass. "Let's raise a toast," he said, "to the silent army—to the boys who followed when the Piper called. 'For our tomorrow, they gave their today'—theirs is the victory!"
CHAPTER XXXIV
MR. HYDE GOES TO HIS OWN PLACE AND SUSAN TAKES A HONEYMOON
Early in November Jims left Ingleside. Rilla saw him go with many tears but a heart free from boding. Mrs. Jim Anderson, Number Two, was such a nice little woman that one was rather inclined to wonder at the luck which bestowed her on Jim. She was rosy-faced and blue-eyed and wholesome, with the roundness and trigness of a geranium leaf. Rilla saw at first glance that she was to be trusted with Jims.
Early in November, Jims left Ingleside. Rilla watched him go with plenty of tears but felt no worry. Mrs. Jim Anderson, Number Two, was such a lovely woman that one couldn't help but be amazed by Jim's good fortune. She had a rosy face, blue eyes, and an overall healthy look, with the roundness and neatness of a geranium leaf. Rilla sensed immediately that she could be trusted with Jims.
"I'm fond of children, miss," she said heartily. "I'm used to them—I've left six little brothers and sisters behind me. Jims is a dear child and I must say you've done wonders in bringing him up so healthy and handsome. I'll be as good to him as if he was my own, miss. And I'll make Jim toe the line all right. He's a good worker—all he needs is some one to keep him at it, and to take charge of his money. We've rented a little farm just out of the village, and we're going to settle down there. Jim wanted to stay in England but I says 'No.' I hankered to try a new country and I've always thought Canada would suit me."
"I'm fond of kids, miss," she said warmly. "I'm used to them—I’ve got six little siblings back home. Jim is a sweet boy, and I have to say you’ve done a great job raising him to be so healthy and good-looking. I'll treat him like he’s my own, miss. And I'll make sure Jim stays on track. He’s a hard worker—all he needs is someone to keep him motivated and manage his money. We’ve rented a small farm just outside the village, and we’re going to settle down there. Jim wanted to stay in England, but I said 'No.' I was eager to try a new country, and I’ve always thought Canada would be a good fit for me."
"I'm so glad you are going to live near us. You'll let Jims come here often, won't you? I love him dearly."
"I'm really happy you're going to live close to us. You'll let Jims come over a lot, right? I care about him a lot."
"No doubt you do, miss, for a lovabler child I never did see. We understand, Jim and me, what you've done for him, and you won't find us ungrateful. He can come here whenever you want him and I'll always be glad of any advice from you about his bringing up. He is more your baby than anyone else's I should say, and I'll see that you get your fair share of him, miss."
"No doubt you do, miss, because I’ve never seen a sweeter child. Jim and I understand what you’ve done for him, and we really appreciate it. He can come here whenever you want, and I'll always welcome any advice you have about raising him. I’d say he’s more your baby than anyone else’s, and I’ll make sure you get your fair share of him, miss."
So Jims went away—with the soup tureen, though not in it. Then the news of the Armistice came, and even Glen St. Mary went mad. That night the village had a bonfire, and burned the Kaiser in effigy. The fishing village boys turned out and burned all the sandhills off in one grand glorious conflagration that extended for seven miles. Up at Ingleside Rilla ran laughing to her room.
So Jims left—with the soup tureen, though not inside it. Then the news of the Armistice arrived, and even Glen St. Mary went crazy. That night, the village had a bonfire and burned the Kaiser in effigy. The boys from the fishing village showed up and set fire to all the sandhills in one big, glorious blaze that stretched for seven miles. Up at Ingleside, Rilla ran to her room laughing.
"Now I'm going to do a most unladylike and inexcusable thing," she said, as she pulled her green velvet hat out of its box. "I'm going to kick this hat about the room until it is without form and void; and I shall never as long as I live wear anything of that shade of green again."
"Now I'm going to do something really unladylike and totally unacceptable," she said, pulling her green velvet hat out of its box. "I'm going to kick this hat around the room until it’s completely ruined, and I will never, as long as I live, wear anything that shade of green again."
"You've certainly kept your vow pluckily," laughed Miss Oliver.
"You've definitely kept your promise bravely," laughed Miss Oliver.
"It wasn't pluck—it was sheer obstinacy—I'm rather ashamed of it," said Rilla, kicking joyously. "I wanted to show mother. It's mean to want to show your own mother—most unfilial conduct! But I have shown her. And I've shown myself a few things! Oh, Miss Oliver, just for one moment I'm really feeling quite young again—young and frivolous and silly. Did I ever say November was an ugly month? Why it's the most beautiful month in the whole year. Listen to the bells ringing in Rainbow Valley! I never heard them so clearly. They're ringing for peace—and new happiness—and all the dear, sweet, sane, homey things that we can have again now, Miss Oliver. Not that I am sane just now—I don't pretend to be. The whole world is having a little crazy spell today. Soon we'll sober down—and 'keep faith'—and begin to build up our new world. But just for today let's be mad and glad."
"It wasn't bravery—it was pure stubbornness—I'm a bit embarrassed about it," said Rilla, kicking joyfully. "I wanted to impress my mom. It's kind of petty to want to impress your own mother—totally unfilial! But I have impressed her. And I've learned a few things about myself too! Oh, Miss Oliver, for just one moment I'm really feeling quite young again—young and carefree and silly. Did I ever say November was a gloomy month? It's actually the most beautiful month of the whole year. Listen to the bells ringing in Rainbow Valley! I've never heard them so clearly. They're ringing for peace—and new happiness—and all the lovely, sweet, normal, homely things that we can have again now, Miss Oliver. Not that I'm completely sane right now—I won't pretend I am. The whole world is having a bit of a crazy moment today. Soon we'll settle down—and 'keep faith'—and start to build our new world. But just for today, let’s be wild and happy."
Susan came in from the outdoor sunlight looking supremely satisfied.
Susan walked in from the bright sunlight outside, looking extremely pleased.
"Mr. Hyde is gone," she announced.
"Mr. Hyde is gone," she said.
"Gone! Do you mean he is dead, Susan?"
"Gone! Are you saying he’s dead, Susan?"
"No, Mrs. Dr. dear, that beast is not dead. But you will never see him again. I feel sure of that."
"No, dear Mrs. Doctor, that creature isn't dead. But you won’t ever see him again. I’m certain of it."
"Don't be so mysterious, Susan. What has happened to him?"
"Stop being so mysterious, Susan. What happened to him?"
"Well, Mrs. Dr. dear, he was sitting out on the back steps this afternoon. It was just after the news came that the Armistice had been signed and he was looking his Hydest. I can assure you he was an awesome looking beast. All at once, Mrs. Dr. dear, Bruce Meredith came around the corner of the kitchen walking on his stilts. He has been learning to walk on them lately and came over to show me how well he could do it. Mr. Hyde just took a look and one bound carried him over the yard fence. Then he went tearing through the maple grove in great leaps with his ears laid back. You never saw a creature so terrified, Mrs. Dr. dear. He has never returned."
"Well, Mrs. Doctor, he was sitting on the back steps this afternoon. It was just after the news came that the Armistice had been signed, and he looked really impressive. I can assure you he was an incredible sight. Suddenly, Mrs. Doctor, Bruce Meredith came around the corner of the kitchen walking on his stilts. He’s been practicing lately and came over to show me how well he could do it. Mr. Hyde just took one look and jumped over the yard fence in one leap. Then he took off through the maple grove in big bounds with his ears back. You’ve never seen a creature so scared, Mrs. Doctor. He hasn’t come back since."
"Oh, he'll come back, Susan, probably chastened in spirit by his fright."
"Oh, he'll be back, Susan, probably humbled by his scare."
"We will see, Mrs. Dr. dear—we will see. Remember, the Armistice has been signed. And that reminds me that Whiskers-on-the-moon had a paralytic stroke last night. I am not saying it is a judgment on him, because I am not in the counsels of the Almighty, but one can have one's own thoughts about it. Neither Whiskers-on-the-moon or Mr. Hyde will be much more heard of in Glen St. Mary, Mrs. Dr. dear, and that you may tie to."
"We'll see, Mrs. Doctor dear—we'll see. Remember, the Armistice has been signed. And that reminds me that Whiskers-on-the-Moon had a stroke last night. I'm not saying it's a judgment on him, because I'm not in the mind of the Almighty, but one can have their own thoughts about it. Neither Whiskers-on-the-Moon nor Mr. Hyde will be heard from much in Glen St. Mary, Mrs. Doctor dear, and you can count on that."
Mr. Hyde certainly was heard of no more. As it could hardly have been his fright that kept him away the Ingleside folk decided that some dark fate of shot or poison had descended on him—except Susan, who believed and continued to affirm that he had merely "gone to his own place." Rilla lamented him, for she had been very fond of her stately golden pussy, and had liked him quite as well in his weird Hyde moods as in his tame Jekyll ones.
Mr. Hyde definitely wasn’t seen again. Since it could hardly be his fear that kept him away, the people of Ingleside thought that some dark fate, like being shot or poisoned, had befallen him—except for Susan, who insisted that he had simply "gone to his own place." Rilla missed him because she had really liked her elegant golden cat, and she appreciated him just as much in his strange Hyde moments as in his gentle Jekyll ones.
"And now, Mrs. Dr. dear," said Susan, "since the fall house-cleaning is over and the garden truck is all safe in cellar, I am going to take a honeymoon to celebrate the peace."
"And now, Mrs. Dr. dear," Susan said, "since the autumn cleaning is done and the garden produce is safely stored in the cellar, I'm going to take a honeymoon to celebrate the calm."
"A honeymoon, Susan?"
"A honeymoon, Susan?"
"Yes, Mrs. Dr. dear, a honeymoon," repeated Susan firmly. "I shall never be able to get a husband but I am not going to be cheated out of everything and a honeymoon I intend to have. I am going to Charlottetown to visit my married brother and his family. His wife has been ailing all the fall, but nobody knows whether she is going to die not. She never did tell anyone what she was going to do until she did it. That is the main reason why she was never liked in our family. But to be on the safe side I feel that I should visit her. I have not been in town for over a day for twenty years and I have a feeling that I might as well see one of those moving pictures there is so much talk of, so as not to be wholly out of the swim. But have no fear that I shall be carried away with them, Mrs. Dr. dear. I shall be away a fortnight if you can spare me so long."
"Yes, Mrs. Dr. dear, a honeymoon," Susan insisted firmly. "I may never find a husband, but I refuse to be cheated out of everything, and I intend to have my honeymoon. I'm going to Charlottetown to visit my married brother and his family. His wife has been sick all fall, but no one knows if she's going to pull through. She never told anyone what she planned to do until she actually did it. That's one of the main reasons why she's not well-liked in our family. But just to be safe, I feel I should visit her. I haven’t been in town for over a day in twenty years, and I think I might as well check out one of those moving pictures everyone is talking about, so I’m not totally out of the loop. But don’t worry, I won’t get swept away by them, Mrs. Dr. dear. I’ll be gone for two weeks if you can spare me that long."
"You certainly deserve a good holiday, Susan. Better take a month—that is the proper length for a honeymoon."
"You definitely deserve a nice vacation, Susan. You should take a month—that's the right amount of time for a honeymoon."
"No, Mrs. Dr. dear, a fortnight is all I require. Besides, I must be home for at least three weeks before Christmas to make the proper preparations. We will have a Christmas that is a Christmas this year, Mrs. Dr. dear. Do you think there is any chance of our boys being home for it?"
"No, Mrs. Dr., I only need two weeks. Plus, I have to be home for at least three weeks before Christmas to get everything ready. We're going to have a real Christmas this year, Mrs. Dr. Do you think there's any chance our boys will be home for it?"
"No, I think not, Susan. Both Jem and Shirley write that they don't expect to be home before spring—it may be even midsummer before Shirley comes. But Carl Meredith will be home, and Nan and Di, and we will have a grand celebration once more. We'll set chairs for all, Susan, as you did our first war Christmas—yes, for all—for my dear lad whose chair must always be vacant, as well as for the others, Susan."
"No, I don’t think so, Susan. Both Jem and Shirley wrote that they don’t expect to be home before spring—it might even be midsummer before Shirley arrives. But Carl Meredith will be home, along with Nan and Di, and we’ll have a big celebration again. We'll set chairs for everyone, Susan, just like you did for our first Christmas during the war—yes, for everyone—for my dear boy whose chair will always be empty, as well as for the others, Susan."
"It is not likely I would forget to set his place, Mrs. Dr. dear," said Susan, wiping her eyes as she departed to pack up for her "honeymoon."
"It’s unlikely I’d forget to set his spot, Mrs. Dr. dear," said Susan, wiping her eyes as she left to pack for her "honeymoon."
CHAPTER XXXV
"RILLA-MY-RILLA!"
Carl Meredith and Miller Douglas came home just before Christmas and Glen St. Mary met them at the station with a brass band borrowed from Lowbridge and speeches of home manufacture. Miller was brisk and beaming in spite of his wooden leg; he had developed into a broad-shouldered, imposing looking fellow and the D. C. Medal he wore reconciled Miss Cornelia to the shortcomings of his pedigree to such a degree that she tacitly recognized his engagement to Mary.
Carl Meredith and Miller Douglas came home just before Christmas, and Glen St. Mary greeted them at the station with a brass band borrowed from Lowbridge and some homemade speeches. Miller was lively and smiling despite his wooden leg; he had grown into a broad-shouldered, impressive-looking guy, and the D. C. Medal he wore made Miss Cornelia overlook the flaws in his background enough that she quietly accepted his engagement to Mary.
The latter put on a few airs—especially when Carter Flagg took Miller into his store as head clerk—but nobody grudged them to her.
The latter acted a bit superior—especially when Carter Flagg made Miller the head clerk in his store—but no one was resentful toward her.
"Of course farming's out of the question for us now," she told Rilla, "but Miller thinks he'll like storekeeping fine once he gets used to a quiet life again, and Carter Flagg will be a more agreeable boss than old Kitty. We're going to be married in the fall and live in the old Mead house with the bay windows and the mansard roof. I've always thought that the handsomest house in the Glen, but never did I dream I'd ever live there. We're only renting it, of course, but if things go as we expect and Carter Flagg takes Miller into partnership we'll own it some day. Say, I've got on some in society, haven't I, considering what I come from? I never aspired to being a storekeeper's wife. But Miller's real ambitious and he'll have a wife that'll back him up. He says he never saw a French girl worth looking at twice and that his heart beat true to me every moment he was away."
"Of course, farming is out of the question for us now," she told Rilla, "but Miller thinks he’ll really enjoy running a store once he gets used to a quieter life again, and Carter Flagg will be a better boss than old Kitty. We’re getting married in the fall and moving into the old Mead house with the bay windows and the mansard roof. I’ve always thought it was the prettiest house in the Glen, but I never dreamed I’d actually live there. We’re only renting it, of course, but if everything goes as we hope and Carter Flagg brings Miller in as a partner, we could own it one day. You know, I’ve really moved up in society, considering where I started from? I never aimed to be a storekeeper’s wife. But Miller is really ambitious, and he’ll have a wife who supports him. He says he’s never seen a French girl worth looking at twice and that his heart beats true for me every moment he’s away."
Jerry Meredith and Joe Milgrave came back in January, and all winter the boys from the Glen and its environs came home by twos and threes. None of them came back just as they went away, not even those who had been so fortunate as to escape injury.
Jerry Meredith and Joe Milgrave returned in January, and all winter, the guys from the Glen and nearby areas came back in twos and threes. None of them returned exactly the same as when they left, not even those who had been lucky enough to avoid injury.
One spring day, when the daffodils were blowing on the Ingleside lawn, and the banks of the brook in Rainbow Valley were sweet with white and purple violets, the little, lazy afternoon accommodation train pulled into the Glen station. It was very seldom that passengers for the Glen came by that train, so nobody was there to meet it except the new station agent and a small black-and-yellow dog, who for four and a half years had met every train that had steamed into Glen St. Mary. Thousands of trains had Dog Monday met and never had the boy he waited and watched for returned. Yet still Dog Monday watched on with eyes that never quite lost hope. Perhaps his dog-heart failed him at times; he was growing old and rheumatic; when he walked back to his kennel after each train had gone his gait was very sober now—he never trotted but went slowly with a drooping head and a depressed tail that had quite lost its old saucy uplift.
One spring day, when the daffodils were swaying on the Ingleside lawn, and the banks of the brook in Rainbow Valley were filled with fragrant white and purple violets, the little, lazy afternoon train pulled into the Glen station. It was rare for anyone traveling to Glen to arrive on that train, so there was no one there to greet it except the new station agent and a small black-and-yellow dog, who had been there to meet every train that rolled into Glen St. Mary for the past four and a half years. Dog Monday had welcomed thousands of trains, and not once had the boy he waited for returned. Yet, Dog Monday continued to watch with eyes that never fully lost hope. Maybe his dog-heart wavered at times; he was getting old and stiff. As he walked back to his kennel after each train left, his pace was now very slow—he no longer trotted but ambled with a drooping head and a sad tail that had completely lost its playful lift.
One passenger stepped off the train—a tall fellow in a faded lieutenant's uniform, who walked with a barely perceptible limp. He had a bronzed face and there were some grey hairs in the ruddy curls that clustered around his forehead. The new station agent looked at him anxiously. He was used to seeing the khaki-clad figures come off the train, some met by a tumultuous crowd, others, who had sent no word of their coming, stepping off quietly like this one. But there was a certain distinction of bearing and features in this soldier that caught his attention and made him wonder a little more interestedly who he was.
One passenger stepped off the train—a tall guy in a faded lieutenant's uniform, walking with a barely noticeable limp. He had a sun-kissed face, and there were some gray hairs mixed in with the reddish curls around his forehead. The new station agent watched him anxiously. He was used to seeing khaki-clad figures get off the train, some greeted by excited crowds, while others, who hadn’t let anyone know they were coming, quietly stepped off like this one. But there was something distinguished about this soldier's posture and features that caught his attention and made him curious about who he was.
A black-and-yellow streak shot past the station agent. Dog Monday stiff? Dog Monday rheumatic? Dog Monday old? Never believe it. Dog Monday was a young pup, gone clean mad with rejuvenating joy.
A black-and-yellow streak zipped past the station agent. Dog Monday stiff? Dog Monday got arthritis? Dog Monday old? Never believe it. Dog Monday was a young pup, completely crazed with refreshing joy.
He flung himself against the tall soldier, with a bark that choked in his throat from sheer rapture. He flung himself on the ground and writhed in a frenzy of welcome. He tried to climb the soldier's khaki legs and slipped down and groveled in an ecstasy that seemed as if it must tear his little body in pieces. He licked his boots and when the lieutenant had, with laughter on his lips and tears in his eyes, succeeded in gathering the little creature up in his arms Dog Monday laid his head on the khaki shoulder and licked the sunburned neck, making queer sounds between barks and sobs.
He threw himself against the tall soldier, barking in a way that choked him up from pure joy. He dropped to the ground and writhed in a frenzy of excitement. He tried to climb the soldier's khaki legs but kept slipping down, groveling in a happiness so intense it seemed like it could tear his little body apart. He licked the soldier's boots, and when the lieutenant finally managed to gather him up in his arms, laughing and teary-eyed, Dog Monday laid his head on the khaki shoulder and licked the sunburned neck, making strange sounds that mixed barking and sobbing.
The station agent had heard the story of Dog Monday. He knew now who the returned soldier was. Dog Monday's long vigil was ended. Jem Blythe had come home.
The station agent had heard the story of Dog Monday. He now knew who the returning soldier was. Dog Monday's long wait was finally over. Jem Blythe had come home.
"We are all very happy—and sad—and thankful," wrote Rilla in her diary a week later, "though Susan has not yet recovered—never will recover, I believe—from the shock of having Jem come home the very night she had, owing to a strenuous day, prepared a 'pick up' supper. I shall never forget the sight of her, tearing madly about from pantry to cellar, hunting out stored away goodies. Just as if anybody cared what was on the table—none of us could eat, anyway. It was meat and drink just to look at Jem. Mother seemed afraid to take her eyes off him lest he vanish out of her sight. It is wonderful to have Jem back—and little Dog Monday. Monday refuses to be separated from Jem for a moment. He sleeps on the foot of his bed and squats beside him at meal-times. And on Sunday he went to church with him and insisted on going right into our pew, where he went to sleep on Jem's feet. In the middle of the sermon he woke up and seemed to think he must welcome Jem all over again, for he bounded up with a series of barks and wouldn't quiet down until Jem took him up in his arms. But nobody seemed to mind, and Mr. Meredith came and patted his head after the service and said, "'Faith and affection and loyalty are precious things wherever they are found. That little dog's love is a treasure, Jem.'
"We're all really happy—and sad—and grateful," Rilla wrote in her diary a week later, "even though Susan hasn’t fully recovered—I'm not sure she ever will—from the shock of having Jem come home the very night she had, after a long day, prepared a 'pick up' supper. I’ll never forget the sight of her, racing around from the pantry to the cellar, digging out stored treats. As if anyone cared what was on the table—none of us could eat anyway. Just seeing Jem was enough. Mother looked like she was afraid to take her eyes off him, worried he might disappear. It’s amazing to have Jem back—and little Dog Monday. Monday won’t leave Jem’s side for a second. He sleeps at the foot of his bed and sits next to him at mealtimes. On Sunday, he even went to church with Jem and insisted on joining us in our pew, where he fell asleep on Jem’s feet. In the middle of the sermon, he woke up and seemed to think he needed to greet Jem all over again, because he jumped up with a bunch of barks and wouldn’t settle down until Jem picked him up. But no one seemed to mind, and Mr. Meredith came over and patted his head after the service and said, "'Faith and affection and loyalty are precious things wherever they are found. That little dog's love is a treasure, Jem.'"
"One night when Jem and I were talking things over in Rainbow Valley, I asked him if he had ever felt afraid at the front.
"One night when Jem and I were chatting in Rainbow Valley, I asked him if he had ever felt scared on the front lines."
"Jem laughed.
Jem chuckled.
"'Afraid! I was afraid scores of times—sick with fear—I who used to laugh at Walter when he was frightened. Do you know, Walter was never frightened after he got to the front. Realities never scared him—only his imagination could do that. His colonel told me that Walter was the bravest man in the regiment. Rilla, I never realized that Walter was dead till I came back home. You don't know how I miss him now—you folks here have got used to it in a sense—but it's all fresh to me. Walter and I grew up together—we were chums as well as brothers—and now here, in this old valley we loved when we were children, it has come home to me that I'm not to see him again.'
"'Afraid! I was terrified countless times—sick with fear—I, who used to laugh at Walter when he was scared. You know, Walter wasn't ever scared once he made it to the front. Reality never frightened him—only his imagination could do that. His colonel told me Walter was the bravest man in the regiment. Rilla, I didn't realize Walter was dead until I came back home. You have no idea how much I miss him now—you all have gotten used to it in a way—but it’s still new for me. Walter and I grew up together—we were not just brothers but best friends—and now, here in this old valley we loved as kids, it hit me that I won’t ever see him again.'"
"Jem is going back to college in the fall and so are Jerry and Carl. I suppose Shirley will, too. He expects to be home in July. Nan and Di will go on teaching. Faith doesn't expect to be home before September. I suppose she will teach then too, for she and Jem can't be married until he gets through his course in medicine. Una Meredith has decided, I think, to take a course in Household Science at Kingsport—and Gertrude is to be married to her Major and is frankly happy about it—'shamelessly happy' she says; but I think her attitude is very beautiful. They are all talking of their plans and hopes—more soberly than they used to do long ago, but still with interest, and a determination to carry on and make good in spite of lost years.
Jem is going back to college in the fall, and so are Jerry and Carl. I guess Shirley will too. He expects to be home in July. Nan and Di will continue teaching. Faith doesn’t think she’ll be home before September. I assume she’ll teach then as well, since she and Jem can’t get married until he finishes his medical course. Una Meredith has decided, I think, to take a course in Household Science at Kingsport—and Gertrude is getting married to her Major and is honestly happy about it—'shamelessly happy,' she says; but I find her attitude really beautiful. They’re all discussing their plans and hopes—more seriously than they used to a while ago, but still with interest and a determination to move forward and succeed despite the lost years.
"'We're in a new world,' Jem says, 'and we've got to make it a better one than the old. That isn't done yet, though some folks seem to think it ought to be. The job isn't finished—it isn't really begun. The old world is destroyed and we must build up the new one. It will be the task of years. I've seen enough of war to realize that we've got to make a world where wars can't happen. We've given Prussianism its mortal wound but it isn't dead yet and it isn't confined to Germany either. It isn't enough to drive out the old spirit—we've got to bring in the new.'
"'We're in a new world,' Jem says, 'and we need to make it a better one than before. That hasn’t happened yet, even though some people seem to think it should have. The work isn't finished—it hasn't really started. The old world is gone, and we have to build up the new one. This will take years. I've seen enough of war to understand that we need to create a world where wars can't happen. We've dealt a serious blow to Prussianism, but it's not dead yet, and it's not just confined to Germany. It’s not enough to push out the old spirit—we have to bring in the new.'"
"I'm writing down those words of Jem's in my diary so that I can read them over occasionally and get courage from them, when moods come when I find it not so easy to 'keep faith.'"
"I'm writing down Jem's words in my diary so I can read them from time to time and draw strength from them when I have moments when it's hard to 'keep faith.'"
Rilla closed her journal with a little sigh. Just then she was not finding it easy to keep faith. All the rest seemed to have some special aim or ambition about which to build up their lives—she had none. And she was very lonely, horribly lonely. Jem had come back—but he was not the laughing boy-brother who had gone away in 1914 and he belonged to Faith. Walter would never come back. She had not even Jims left. All at once her world seemed wide and empty—that is, it had seemed wide and empty from the moment yesterday when she had read in a Montreal paper a fortnight-old list of returned soldiers in which was the name of Captain Kenneth Ford.
Rilla closed her journal with a small sigh. At that moment, she was struggling to keep her faith. Everyone else seemed to have a specific goal or ambition to shape their lives around—she had none. And she felt very alone, terribly alone. Jem had returned—but he was no longer the laughing brother who had left in 1914, and he belonged to Faith. Walter would never come back. She didn’t even have Jims anymore. Suddenly, her world felt vast and empty—that is, it had felt vast and empty since yesterday when she read in a Montreal paper a two-week-old list of returned soldiers that included the name of Captain Kenneth Ford.
So Ken was home—and he had not even written her that he was coming. He had been in Canada two weeks and she had not had a line from him. Of course he had forgotten—if there was ever anything to forget—a handclasp—a kiss—a look—a promise asked under the influence of a passing emotion. It was all absurd—she had been a silly, romantic, inexperienced goose. Well, she would be wiser in the future—very wise—and very discreet—and very contemptuous of men and their ways.
So Ken was home—and he hadn't even told her he was coming. He had been in Canada for two weeks and she hadn't heard a word from him. Of course, he had forgotten—if there was ever anything to forget—a handshake—a kiss—a look—a promise made in a moment of emotion. It was all ridiculous—she had been a silly, romantic, inexperienced fool. Well, she would be smarter in the future—very smart—and very careful—and very scornful of men and their ways.
"I suppose I'd better go with Una and take up Household Science too," she thought, as she stood by her window and looked down through a delicate emerald tangle of young vines on Rainbow Valley, lying in a wonderful lilac light of sunset. There did not seem anything very attractive just then about Household Science, but, with a whole new world waiting to be built, a girl must do something.
"I guess I should join Una and study Household Science too," she thought, standing by her window and looking down through a delicate tangle of young green vines at Rainbow Valley, bathed in a beautiful lilac light at sunset. It didn’t seem like there was anything particularly appealing about Household Science at that moment, but with an entirely new world waiting to be built, a girl had to do something.
The door bell rang, Rilla turned reluctantly stairwards. She must answer it—there was no one else in the house; but she hated the idea of callers just then. She went downstairs slowly, and opened the front door.
The doorbell rang, and Rilla turned with some hesitation toward the stairs. She had to answer it—there was no one else in the house; but she really didn’t want to deal with visitors right now. She made her way down the stairs slowly and opened the front door.
A man in khaki was standing on the steps—a tall fellow, with dark eyes and hair, and a narrow white scar running across his brown cheek. Rilla stared at him foolishly for a moment. Who was it?
A man in khaki was standing on the steps—a tall guy, with dark eyes and hair, and a narrow white scar running across his brown cheek. Rilla stared at him blankly for a moment. Who was he?
She ought to know him—there was certainly something very familiar about him—"Rilla-my-Rilla," he said.
She should recognize him—there was definitely something very familiar about him—"Rilla-my-Rilla," he said.
"Ken," gasped Rilla. Of course, it was Ken—but he looked so much older—he was so much changed—that scar—the lines about his eyes and lips—her thoughts went whirling helplessly.
"Ken," Rilla gasped. Of course, it was Ken—but he looked so much older—he had changed so much—that scar—the lines around his eyes and lips—her thoughts spun helplessly.
Ken took the uncertain hand she held out, and looked at her. The slim Rilla of four years ago had rounded out into symmetry. He had left a school girl, and he found a woman—a woman with wonderful eyes and a dented lip, and rose-bloom cheek—a woman altogether beautiful and desirable—the woman of his dreams.
Ken took the uncertain hand she extended and looked at her. The slim Rilla of four years ago had developed into a woman with a beautiful shape. He had left a schoolgirl behind, and now he found a woman—one with stunning eyes and a slightly imperfect lip, and a rosy cheek—a woman who was entirely beautiful and desirable—the woman of his dreams.
"Is it Rilla-my-Rilla?" he asked, meaningly.
"Is it Rilla-my-Rilla?" he asked, with significance.
Emotion shook Rilla from head to foot. Joy—happiness—sorrow—fear—every passion that had wrung her heart in those four long years seemed to surge up in her soul for a moment as the deeps of being were stirred. She had tried to speak; at first voice would not come. Then—"Yeth," said Rilla.
Emotion shook Rilla from head to toe. Joy, happiness, sorrow, fear—every feeling that had tugged at her heart during those long four years seemed to surge up in her soul for a moment as the depths of her being were stirred. She had tried to speak; at first, no words came. Then—"Yes," said Rilla.
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