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THE GOLDEN BOWL
Volumes I and II, Complete
By Henry James
1904
Contents
BOOK FIRST: THE PRINCE |
PART FIRST |
PART SECOND |
PART THIRD |
BOOK SECOND: THE PRINCESS |
PART FOURTH |
PART FIFTH |
PART SIXTH |
BOOK FIRST: THE PRINCE
PART FIRST
I
I
The Prince had always liked his London, when it had come to him; he was one of the modern Romans who find by the Thames a more convincing image of the truth of the ancient state than any they have left by the Tiber. Brought up on the legend of the City to which the world paid tribute, he recognised in the present London much more than in contemporary Rome the real dimensions of such a case. If it was a question of an Imperium, he said to himself, and if one wished, as a Roman, to recover a little the sense of that, the place to do so was on London Bridge, or even, on a fine afternoon in May, at Hyde Park Corner. It was not indeed to either of those places that these grounds of his predilection, after all sufficiently vague, had, at the moment we are concerned with him, guided his steps; he had strayed, simply enough, into Bond Street, where his imagination, working at comparatively short range, caused him now and then to stop before a window in which objects massive and lumpish, in silver and gold, in the forms to which precious stones contribute, or in leather, steel, brass, applied to a hundred uses and abuses, were as tumbled together as if, in the insolence of the Empire, they had been the loot of far-off victories. The young man’s movements, however, betrayed no consistency of attention—not even, for that matter, when one of his arrests had proceeded from possibilities in faces shaded, as they passed him on the pavement, by huge beribboned hats, or more delicately tinted still under the tense silk of parasols held at perverse angles in waiting victorias. And the Prince’s undirected thought was not a little symptomatic, since, though the turn of the season had come and the flush of the streets begun to fade, the possibilities of faces, on the August afternoon, were still one of the notes of the scene. He was too restless—that was the fact—for any concentration, and the last idea that would just now have occurred to him in any connection was the idea of pursuit.
The Prince had always loved his London when it was presented to him; he was one of the modern Romans who found by the Thames a more convincing reflection of the ancient state than anything they had left by the Tiber. Raised on the legend of the City to which the world paid tribute, he recognized in present-day London far more than in contemporary Rome the true scale of such a notion. If it were about an Imperium, he thought to himself, and if one wanted, as a Roman, to recapture even a hint of that feeling, the best place to do so was on London Bridge, or even, on a lovely May afternoon, at Hyde Park Corner. However, it was not to either of those spots that these rather vague preferences had, at the moment we are concerned with him, directed his steps; he had simply wandered into Bond Street, where his imagination, operating at a relatively close range, caused him to stop occasionally in front of windows displaying massive and clunky objects, in silver and gold, in forms enhanced by precious stones, or in leather, steel, and brass, used in countless ways, all jumbled together as if, in the arrogance of the Empire, they were spoils of far-off victories. The young man's movements, however, showed no consistent focus—not even, in fact, when one of his pauses had been triggered by possibilities in faces shaded, as they passed him on the sidewalk, by large beribboned hats, or even more delicately tinted beneath the taut silk of parasols held at awkward angles in waiting victorias. The Prince’s wandering thoughts were telling, since, although the season had changed and the vibrancy of the streets began to fade, the potential of faces on this August afternoon was still one of the highlights of the scene. He was simply too restless—that was the truth—for any real concentration, and the last thought that would have come to him in any context right now was the idea of pursuit.
He had been pursuing for six months as never in his life before, and what had actually unsteadied him, as we join him, was the sense of how he had been justified. Capture had crowned the pursuit—or success, as he would otherwise have put it, had rewarded virtue; whereby the consciousness of these things made him, for the hour, rather serious than gay. A sobriety that might have consorted with failure sat in his handsome face, constructively regular and grave, yet at the same time oddly and, as might be, functionally almost radiant, with its dark blue eyes, its dark brown moustache and its expression no more sharply “foreign” to an English view than to have caused it sometimes to be observed of him with a shallow felicity that he looked like a “refined” Irishman. What had happened was that shortly before, at three o’clock, his fate had practically been sealed, and that even when one pretended to no quarrel with it the moment had something of the grimness of a crunched key in the strongest lock that could be made. There was nothing to do as yet, further, but feel what one had done, and our personage felt it while he aimlessly wandered. It was already as if he were married, so definitely had the solicitors, at three o’clock, enabled the date to be fixed, and by so few days was that date now distant. He was to dine at half-past eight o’clock with the young lady on whose behalf, and on whose father’s, the London lawyers had reached an inspired harmony with his own man of business, poor Calderoni, fresh from Rome and now apparently in the wondrous situation of being “shown London,” before promptly leaving it again, by Mr. Verver himself, Mr. Verver whose easy way with his millions had taxed to such small purpose, in the arrangements, the principle of reciprocity. The reciprocity with which the Prince was during these minutes most struck was that of Calderoni’s bestowal of his company for a view of the lions. If there was one thing in the world the young man, at this juncture, clearly intended, it was to be much more decent as a son-in-law than lots of fellows he could think of had shown themselves in that character. He thought of these fellows, from whom he was so to differ, in English; he used, mentally, the English term to describe his difference, for, familiar with the tongue from his earliest years, so that no note of strangeness remained with him either for lip or for ear, he found it convenient, in life, for the greatest number of relations. He found it convenient, oddly, even for his relation with himself—though not unmindful that there might still, as time went on, be others, including a more intimate degree of that one, that would seek, possibly with violence, the larger or the finer issue—which was it?—of the vernacular. Miss Verver had told him he spoke English too well—it was his only fault, and he had not been able to speak worse even to oblige her. “When I speak worse, you see, I speak French,” he had said; intimating thus that there were discriminations, doubtless of the invidious kind, for which that language was the most apt. The girl had taken this, she let him know, as a reflection on her own French, which she had always so dreamed of making good, of making better; to say nothing of his evident feeling that the idiom supposed a cleverness she was not a person to rise to. The Prince’s answer to such remarks—genial, charming, like every answer the parties to his new arrangement had yet had from him—was that he was practising his American in order to converse properly, on equal terms as it were, with Mr. Verver. His prospective father-in-law had a command of it, he said, that put him at a disadvantage in any discussion; besides which—well, besides which he had made to the girl the observation that positively, of all his observations yet, had most finely touched her.
He had been pursuing this for six months like never before, and what actually unsettled him, as we find him, was the realization of how justified he had been. The capture had crowned the pursuit—or success, as he would have put it—rewarding virtue; thus, the awareness of these things made him, for the moment, more serious than cheerful. A seriousness that might have fit with failure sat on his handsome face, which was neatly structured and grave, yet at the same time oddly, and almost functionally, radiant, with his dark blue eyes, dark brown mustache, and an expression that was no more sharply “foreign” to an English perspective than that it had sometimes been observed that he looked like a “refined” Irishman. What had happened was that shortly before, at three o’clock, his fate had practically been sealed, and even without any quarrel with it, the moment had a grim quality, like a key being crushed in the strongest lock possible. There was nothing more to do for now but feel what he had done, and our character felt it as he wandered aimlessly. It was almost as if he were already married, so definitely had the solicitors, at three o’clock, arranged for the date to be fixed, and that date was now only a few days away. He was to have dinner at half-past eight with the young lady on whose behalf, and on her father’s, the London lawyers had reached a successful agreement with his own business associate, poor Calderoni, who had just arrived from Rome and was now, apparently, in the remarkable position of being “shown London” by Mr. Verver himself, who managed his millions in such a relaxed manner that it hardly affected the arrangements, governed by the principle of reciprocity. The reciprocity that most struck the Prince during these moments was Calderoni’s gift of his company for a view of the sights. If there was one thing in the world the young man clearly intended at this moment, it was to be a much better son-in-law than many fellows he could think of had been in that role. He thought of those fellows he aimed to differ from in English; he mentally used the English term to describe his difference, as he was familiar with the language from an early age, leaving no hint of strangeness for either speaking or hearing, so he found it convenient in most of his relationships. Oddly, he found it convenient even for his relationship with himself—though he was well aware that, as time went on, there could be others, possibly more intimate, that might seek, perhaps forcefully, the larger or finer version—which was it?—of the vernacular. Miss Verver had told him he spoke English too well—it was his only flaw, and he had been unable to speak worse even to please her. “When I speak worse, you see, I speak French,” he had said, suggesting that there were distinctions, certainly of the competitive kind, that made that language the most suitable. The girl had taken this, as she let him know, as a reflection on her own French, which she had always dreamed of improving; to say nothing of his clear implication that the language came with a cleverness she was not someone to achieve. The Prince’s response to such comments—warm, charming, like every response the parties to his new arrangement had received from him—was that he was practicing his American to converse properly, on equal terms, with Mr. Verver. His soon-to-be father-in-law had such a command of it, he said, that it put him at a disadvantage in any conversation; besides which—well, in addition to that, he had remarked to the girl that, of all his remarks so far, this had most beautifully touched her.
“You know I think he’s a REAL galantuomo—‘and no mistake.’ There are plenty of sham ones about. He seems to me simply the best man I’ve ever seen in my life.”
"You know, I think he's a genuine gentleman—and no doubt about it. There are plenty of fake ones around. He seems to be the best man I've ever met in my life."
“Well, my dear, why shouldn’t he be?” the girl had gaily inquired.
“Well, my dear, why shouldn’t he be?” the girl had playfully asked.
It was this, precisely, that had set the Prince to think. The things, or many of them, that had made Mr. Verver what he was seemed practically to bring a charge of waste against the other things that, with the other people known to the young man, had failed of such a result. “Why, his ‘form,’” he had returned, “might have made one doubt.”
It was exactly this that made the Prince start thinking. The things that shaped Mr. Verver, many of them, seemed to highlight the waste of the other things that, along with the other people the young man knew, didn’t lead to anything similar. “Well, his ‘form,’” he had replied, “might make someone question that.”
“Father’s form?” She hadn’t seen it. “It strikes me he hasn’t got any.”
“Father’s form?” She hadn’t seen it. “It seems to me he doesn’t have one.”
“He hasn’t got mine—he hasn’t even got yours.”
“He doesn't have mine—he doesn't even have yours.”
“Thank you for ‘even’!” the girl had laughed at him. “Oh, yours, my dear, is tremendous. But your father has his own. I’ve made that out. So don’t doubt it. It’s where it has brought him out—that’s the point.”
“Thank you for ‘even’!” the girl laughed at him. “Oh, yours, my dear, is amazing. But your father has his own. I figured that out. So don’t doubt it. It’s where it has taken him—that’s the point.”
“It’s his goodness that has brought him out,” our young woman had, at this, objected.
“It’s his kindness that brought him here,” our young woman objected at this.
“Ah, darling, goodness, I think, never brought anyone out. Goodness, when it’s real, precisely, rather keeps people in.” He had been interested in his discrimination, which amused him. “No, it’s his WAY. It belongs to him.”
“Ah, darling, goodness, I think, never brought anyone out. Goodness, when it’s real, actually keeps people in.” He had been intrigued by his ability to distinguish things, which made him laugh. “No, it’s his WAY. It belongs to him.”
But she had wondered still. “It’s the American way. That’s all.”
But she still wondered. “It’s the American way. That’s it.”
“Exactly—it’s all. It’s all, I say! It fits him—so it must be good for something.”
“Exactly—it’s everything. It’s everything, I say! It suits him—so it has to be good for something.”
“Do you think it would be good for you?” Maggie Verver had smilingly asked.
“Do you think it would be good for you?” Maggie Verver had asked with a smile.
To which his reply had been just of the happiest. “I don’t feel, my dear, if you really want to know, that anything much can now either hurt me or help me. Such as I am—but you’ll see for yourself. Say, however, I am a galantuomo—which I devoutly hope: I’m like a chicken, at best, chopped up and smothered in sauce; cooked down as a creme de volaille, with half the parts left out. Your father’s the natural fowl running about the bassecour. His feathers, movements, his sounds—those are the parts that, with me, are left out.”
His response was incredibly cheerful. “Honestly, my dear, if you really want to know, I don’t feel like anything can really hurt me or help me anymore. I am who I am—but you'll see for yourself. Let’s just say, I am a gentleman—which I sincerely hope: I’m like a chicken, at best, chopped up and smothered in sauce; cooked down like a cream from chicken, with half the parts missing. Your father is the natural bird wandering around the yard. His feathers, movements, and sounds—those are the parts that are missing with me.”
“All, as a matter of course—since you can’t eat a chicken alive!”
“All, as a matter of course—since you can’t eat a chicken while it’s alive!”
The Prince had not been annoyed at this, but he had been positive. “Well, I’m eating your father alive—which is the only way to taste him. I want to continue, and as it’s when he talks American that he is most alive, so I must also cultivate it, to get my pleasure. He couldn’t make one like him so much in any other language.”
The Prince wasn’t bothered by this; he was confident. “Well, I’m savoring your father—it's the only way to really experience him. I want to keep going, and since he’s most vibrant when he speaks American, I need to embrace that to enjoy it. He couldn’t be as amazing in any other language.”
It mattered little that the girl had continued to demur—it was the mere play of her joy. “I think he could make you like him in Chinese.”
It didn't really matter that the girl kept hesitating—it was just a reflection of her happiness. “I think he could get you to like him in Chinese.”
“It would be an unnecessary trouble. What I mean is that he’s a kind of result of his inevitable tone. My liking is accordingly FOR the tone—which has made him possible.”
“It would be an unnecessary hassle. What I mean is that he’s essentially a product of his unavoidable tone. My preference is therefore FOR the tone—which has made him possible.”
“Oh, you’ll hear enough of it,” she laughed, “before you’ve done with us.”
“Oh, you’ll hear plenty of it,” she laughed, “before you’re done with us.”
Only this, in truth, had made him frown a little.
Only this, honestly, had made him frown a bit.
“What do you mean, please, by my having ‘done’ with you?”
“What do you mean, please, by my being ‘done’ with you?”
“Why, found out about us all there is to find.”
“Why, you've discovered everything there is to know about us.”
He had been able to take it indeed easily as a joke. “Ah, love, I began with that. I know enough, I feel, never to be surprised. It’s you yourselves meanwhile,” he continued, “who really know nothing. There are two parts of me”—yes, he had been moved to go on. “One is made up of the history, the doings, the marriages, the crimes, the follies, the boundless betises of other people—especially of their infamous waste of money that might have come to me. Those things are written—literally in rows of volumes, in libraries; are as public as they’re abominable. Everybody can get at them, and you’ve, both of you, wonderfully, looked them in the face. But there’s another part, very much smaller doubtless, which, such as it is, represents my single self, the unknown, unimportant, unimportant—unimportant save to YOU—personal quantity. About this you’ve found out nothing.”
He could easily take it as a joke. “Ah, love, I started with that. I know enough, I feel, never to be surprised. It’s you both, meanwhile," he continued, "who really know nothing. There are two parts of me”—yes, he felt compelled to continue. “One is made up of the history, the actions, the marriages, the crimes, the mistakes, the endless nonsense of other people—especially their terrible waste of money that could have come to me. Those things are documented—literally in rows of volumes, in libraries; they are as public as they are terrible. Everyone can access them, and you’ve both, wonderfully, faced them. But there’s another part, much smaller for sure, which, as it is, represents my true self, the unknown, insignificant—insignificant except to YOU—personal aspect. You’ve learned nothing about this.”
“Luckily, my dear,” the girl had bravely said; “for what then would become, please, of the promised occupation of my future?”
“Luckily, my dear,” the girl had bravely said; “for what would happen, please, to the promised job of my future?”
The young man remembered even now how extraordinarily CLEAR—he couldn’t call it anything else—she had looked, in her prettiness, as she had said it. He also remembered what he had been moved to reply. “The happiest reigns, we are taught, you know, are the reigns without any history.”
The young man still remembered how incredibly CLEAR—he couldn’t call it anything else—she had looked in her beauty when she said it. He also recalled what he felt compelled to reply. “We’re taught that the happiest reigns, you know, are the ones without any history.”
“Oh, I’m not afraid of history!” She had been sure of that. “Call it the bad part, if you like—yours certainly sticks out of you. What was it else,” Maggie Verver had also said, “that made me originally think of you? It wasn’t—as I should suppose you must have seen—what you call your unknown quantity, your particular self. It was the generations behind you, the follies and the crimes, the plunder and the waste—the wicked Pope, the monster most of all, whom so many of the volumes in your family library are all about. If I’ve read but two or three yet, I shall give myself up but the more—as soon as I have time—to the rest. Where, therefore”—she had put it to him again—“without your archives, annals, infamies, would you have been?”
“Oh, I’m not afraid of history!” She had been certain of that. “Call it the bad part if you want—yours definitely shows. What else,” Maggie Verver had also said, “made me think of you in the first place? It wasn’t—like you probably noticed—what you call your unknown quantity, your unique self. It was the generations behind you, the mistakes and the crimes, the greed and the waste—the wicked Pope, the real monster, whom so many of the books in your family library are about. If I’ve only read a couple so far, I’ll dive deeper into the rest as soon as I have time. So, where”—she had asked him again—“without your archives, your history, your scandals, would you be?”
He recalled what, to this, he had gravely returned. “I might have been in a somewhat better pecuniary situation.” But his actual situation under the head in question positively so little mattered to them that, having by that time lived deep into the sense of his advantage, he had kept no impression of the girl’s rejoinder. It had but sweetened the waters in which he now floated, tinted them as by the action of some essence, poured from a gold-topped phial, for making one’s bath aromatic. No one before him, never—not even the infamous Pope—had so sat up to his neck in such a bath. It showed, for that matter, how little one of his race could escape, after all, from history. What was it but history, and of THEIR kind very much, to have the assurance of the enjoyment of more money than the palace-builder himself could have dreamed of? This was the element that bore him up and into which Maggie scattered, on occasion, her exquisite colouring drops. They were of the colour—of what on earth? of what but the extraordinary American good faith? They were of the colour of her innocence, and yet at the same time of her imagination, with which their relation, his and these people’s, was all suffused. What he had further said on the occasion of which we thus represent him as catching the echoes from his own thoughts while he loitered—what he had further said came back to him, for it had been the voice itself of his luck, the soothing sound that was always with him. “You Americans are almost incredibly romantic.”
He remembered what he had seriously replied. “I might have been in a somewhat better financial situation.” But his actual situation in that regard mattered so little to them that, by that time, having fully embraced his advantage, he had no memory of the girl’s response. It had only enhanced the waters he was now floating in, coloring them like some essence poured from a gold-topped bottle to make one's bath fragrant. No one before him—not even the notorious Pope—had ever been so immersed in such a bath. It demonstrated, after all, how little someone like him could truly escape from history. What was it if not history, especially of THEIR kind, to have the assurance of enjoying more money than even the palace-builder himself could have dreamed of? This was the element that lifted him up, into which Maggie occasionally sprinkled her exquisite coloring drops. They were the color of—what on earth?—of nothing less than extraordinary American good faith. They were the color of her innocence, yet also of her imagination, which suffused their relationship—his and these people’s. What he had further said while we see him reflecting on his own thoughts as he lingered—what he had further said returned to him, as it had been the very voice of his luck, the comforting sound that was always with him. “You Americans are almost unbelievably romantic.”
“Of course we are. That’s just what makes everything so nice for us.”
“Of course we are. That’s what makes everything so great for us.”
“Everything?” He had wondered.
"Everything?" he wondered.
“Well, everything that’s nice at all. The world, the beautiful, world—or everything in it that is beautiful. I mean we see so much.”
“Well, everything that’s nice. The world, the beautiful world—or everything in it that’s beautiful. I mean, we see so much.”
He had looked at her a moment—and he well knew how she had struck him, in respect to the beautiful world, as one of the beautiful, the most beautiful things. But what he had answered was: “You see too much—that’s what may sometimes make you difficulties. When you don’t, at least,” he had amended with a further thought, “see too little.” But he had quite granted that he knew what she meant, and his warning perhaps was needless.
He had looked at her for a moment—and he knew exactly how she had affected him, in terms of the beautiful world, as one of the beautiful, the most beautiful things. But what he replied was: “You see too much—that might sometimes create issues for you. When you don’t, at least,” he added with another thought, “see too little.” But he fully acknowledged that he understood what she meant, and his warning was probably unnecessary.
He had seen the follies of the romantic disposition, but there seemed somehow no follies in theirs—nothing, one was obliged to recognise, but innocent pleasures, pleasures without penalties. Their enjoyment was a tribute to others without being a loss to themselves. Only the funny thing, he had respectfully submitted, was that her father, though older and wiser, and a man into the bargain, was as bad—that is as good—as herself.
He had witnessed the foolishness of romantic tendencies, but theirs seemed to be free of any folly—only innocent joys, pleasures without consequences. Their enjoyment brought happiness to others without costing them anything. The amusing part, he humbly pointed out, was that her father, although older and wiser, and a man at that, was just as bad—meaning just as good—as she was.
“Oh, he’s better,” the girl had freely declared “that is he’s worse. His relation to the things he cares for—and I think it beautiful—is absolutely romantic. So is his whole life over here—it’s the most romantic thing I know.”
“Oh, he’s better,” the girl had openly declared, “that is, he’s worse. His connection to the things he cares about—and I think it’s beautiful—is absolutely romantic. So is his entire life here—it’s the most romantic thing I know.”
“You mean his idea for his native place?”
“You're talking about his idea for his hometown?”
“Yes—the collection, the Museum with which he wishes to endow it, and of which he thinks more, as you know, than of anything in the world. It’s the work of his life and the motive of everything he does.”
“Yes—the collection, the Museum he wants to establish, and which he values more than anything else in the world, as you know. It’s the culmination of his life’s work and the reason behind everything he does.”
The young man, in his actual mood, could have smiled again—smiled delicately, as he had then smiled at her. “Has it been his motive in letting me have you?”
The young man, in his current mood, could have smiled again—smiled softly, just as he had smiled at her then. “Was it his reason for letting me have you?”
“Yes, my dear, positively—or in a manner,” she had said.
“Yes, my dear, definitely—or in a way,” she had said.
“American City isn’t, by the way, his native town, for, though he’s not old, it’s a young thing compared with him—a younger one. He started there, he has a feeling about it, and the place has grown, as he says, like the programme of a charity performance. You’re at any rate a part of his collection,” she had explained—“one of the things that can only be got over here. You’re a rarity, an object of beauty, an object of price. You’re not perhaps absolutely unique, but you’re so curious and eminent that there are very few others like you—you belong to a class about which everything is known. You’re what they call a morceau de musee.”
“American City isn’t actually his hometown because, even though he’s not old, it feels young compared to him—it’s a younger place. He got his start there, he has an emotional connection to it, and the place has expanded, as he puts it, like the program of a charity event. You are, at the very least, part of his collection,” she explained, “one of those things that can only be found here. You’re a rarity, an object of beauty, something of value. You might not be completely unique, but you’re so intriguing and distinguished that there aren’t many like you—you belong to a category where everything is known. You’re what they call a museum piece.”
“I see. I have the great sign of it,” he had risked—“that I cost a lot of money.”
“I understand. I have the obvious evidence of it,” he had dared to say—“that I’m quite expensive.”
“I haven’t the least idea,” she had gravely answered, “what you cost”—and he had quite adored, for the moment, her way of saying it. He had felt even, for the moment, vulgar. But he had made the best of that. “Wouldn’t you find out if it were a question of parting with me? My value would in that case be estimated.”
“I have no idea,” she had responded thoughtfully, “what you’re worth”—and he had found himself momentarily captivated by the way she said it. He even felt, for that brief moment, a bit cheap. But he had tried to make the most of it. “Wouldn’t you want to know if it came down to losing me? My worth would then be assessed.”
She had looked at him with her charming eyes, as if his value were well before her. “Yes, if you mean that I’d pay rather than lose you.”
She looked at him with her charming eyes, as if she could see his worth clearly. “Yeah, if you’re saying I’d rather pay than lose you.”
And then there came again what this had made him say. “Don’t talk about ME—it’s you who are not of this age. You’re a creature of a braver and finer one, and the cinquecento, at its most golden hour, wouldn’t have been ashamed of you. It would of me, and if I didn’t know some of the pieces your father has acquired, I should rather fear, for American City, the criticism of experts. Would it at all events be your idea,” he had then just ruefully asked, “to send me there for safety?”
And then he found himself saying it again. “Don’t talk about ME—it’s you who doesn’t belong in this time. You’re from a braver and better era, and the cinquecento, at its peak, wouldn’t be ashamed of you. It would be of me, and if I didn’t know some of the things your father has collected, I’d be worried, for American City, about what the experts would say. Would it be your plan,” he then asked with a hint of regret, “to send me there for safety?”
“Well, we may have to come to it.”
“Well, we might have to face it.”
“I’ll go anywhere you want.”
“I’ll go wherever you want.”
“We must see first—it will be only if we have to come to it. There are things,” she had gone on, “that father puts away—the bigger and more cumbrous of course, which he stores, has already stored in masses, here and in Paris, in Italy, in Spain, in warehouses, vaults, banks, safes, wonderful secret places. We’ve been like a pair of pirates—positively stage pirates, the sort who wink at each other and say ‘Ha-ha!’ when they come to where their treasure is buried. Ours is buried pretty well everywhere—except what we like to see, what we travel with and have about us. These, the smaller pieces, are the things we take out and arrange as we can, to make the hotels we stay at and the houses we hire a little less ugly. Of course it’s a danger, and we have to keep watch. But father loves a fine piece, loves, as he says, the good of it, and it’s for the company of some of his things that he’s willing to run his risks. And we’ve had extraordinary luck”—Maggie had made that point; “we’ve never lost anything yet. And the finest objects are often the smallest. Values, in lots of cases, you must know, have nothing to do with size. But there’s nothing, however tiny,” she had wound up, “that we’ve missed.”
“We need to see first—only if we have to. There are things,” she continued, “that dad puts away—the bigger and more cumbersome ones of course, which he stores, has already stored in bulk, here and in Paris, in Italy, in Spain, in warehouses, vaults, banks, safes, and other amazing secret places. We’ve been like a couple of pirates—definitely stage pirates, the kind who wink at each other and say ‘Ha-ha!’ when they arrive at their buried treasure. Ours is buried pretty much everywhere—except for what we like to display, what we travel with and keep around us. These, the smaller pieces, are what we take out and arrange as best we can, to make the hotels we stay in and the houses we rent a little less ugly. Of course, it’s risky, and we have to keep an eye out. But dad loves a fine piece, appreciates, as he says, the value in it, and it’s for the company of some of his things that he’s willing to take those risks. And we’ve had incredible luck”—Maggie made that point; “we’ve never lost anything yet. And the best items are often the smallest. You must know that in many cases, value has nothing to do with size. But there’s nothing, no matter how tiny,” she concluded, “that we’ve overlooked.”
“I like the class,” he had laughed for this, “in which you place me! I shall be one of the little pieces that you unpack at the hotels, or at the worst in the hired houses, like this wonderful one, and put out with the family photographs and the new magazines. But it’s something not to be so big that I have to be buried.”
“I like the class,” he laughed at this, “that you’ve placed me in! I’ll be one of the little items you unpack at hotels, or at worst in rented houses, like this amazing one, and set out with family photos and new magazines. But at least it’s something to not be so big that I have to be buried.”
“Oh,” she had returned, “you shall not be buried, my dear, till you’re dead. Unless indeed you call it burial to go to American City.”
“Oh,” she replied, “you won’t be buried, my dear, until you’re dead. Unless you consider going to American City as burial.”
“Before I pronounce I should like to see my tomb.” So he had had, after his fashion, the last word in their interchange, save for the result of an observation that had risen to his lips at the beginning, which he had then checked, and which now came back to him. “Good, bad or indifferent, I hope there’s one thing you believe about me.”
“Before I speak, I’d like to see my tomb.” So he had, in his own way, the last say in their conversation, except for the outcome of a thought that had almost slipped out at the start, which he had then held back, and which now returned to him. “Whether you think I’m good, bad, or just okay, I hope there’s one thing you believe about me.”
He had sounded solemn, even to himself, but she had taken it gaily. “Ah, don’t fix me down to ‘one’! I believe things enough about you, my dear, to have a few left if most of them, even, go to smash. I’ve taken care of THAT. I’ve divided my faith into water-tight compartments. We must manage not to sink.”
He had sounded serious, even to himself, but she had responded playfully. “Oh, don’t pin me down to ‘one’! I believe enough about you, my dear, to have a few beliefs left if most of them end up failing. I’ve made sure of that. I’ve compartmentalized my faith. We have to make sure we don’t sink.”
“You do believe I’m not a hypocrite? You recognise that I don’t lie or dissemble or deceive? Is THAT water-tight?”
"You really believe I'm not a hypocrite? You see that I don’t lie or hide things or trick anyone? Is THAT totally clear?"
The question, to which he had given a certain intensity, had made her, he remembered, stare an instant, her colour rising as if it had sounded to her still stranger than he had intended. He had perceived on the spot that any SERIOUS discussion of veracity, of loyalty, or rather of the want of them, practically took her unprepared, as if it were quite new to her. He had noticed it before: it was the English, the American sign that duplicity, like “love,” had to be joked about. It couldn’t be “gone into.” So the note of his inquiry was—well, to call it nothing else— premature; a mistake worth making, however, for the almost overdone drollery in which her answer instinctively sought refuge.
The question he had asked with a certain intensity had made her pause for a moment, her face flushing as if the subject was even stranger to her than he intended. He realized right away that any serious talk about truthfulness, loyalty, or the lack of them, caught her off guard, as if it were completely new to her. He had noticed this before: it was the English, the American way of thinking that deception, like “love,” had to be treated lightly. It couldn’t be taken seriously. So the tone of his inquiry was—well, to put it plainly—premature; a mistake worth making, though, because of the almost exaggerated humor her response instinctively sought.
“Water-tight—the biggest compartment of all? Why, it’s the best cabin and the main deck and the engine-room and the steward’s pantry! It’s the ship itself—it’s the whole line. It’s the captain’s table and all one’s luggage—one’s reading for the trip.” She had images, like that, that were drawn from steamers and trains, from a familiarity with “lines,” a command of “own” cars, from an experience of continents and seas, that he was unable as yet to emulate; from vast modern machineries and facilities whose acquaintance he had still to make, but as to which it was part of the interest of his situation as it stood that he could, quite without wincing, feel his future likely to bristle with them.
“Water-tight—the largest compartment of all? It’s the best cabin, the main deck, the engine room, and the steward’s pantry! It’s the ship itself—it’s the entire line. It’s the captain’s table and all your luggage—your reading material for the trip.” She had images like that, influenced by steamers and trains, a familiarity with “lines,” a command of “own” cars, and experiences from continents and seas that he couldn’t quite match yet; they came from vast modern machines and facilities he had yet to encounter, but part of the intrigue of his current situation was that he could, without flinching, sense that his future would likely be filled with them.
It was in fact, content as he was with his engagement and charming as he thought his affianced bride, his view of THAT furniture that mainly constituted our young man’s “romance”—and to an extent that made of his inward state a contrast that he was intelligent enough to feel. He was intelligent enough to feel quite humble, to wish not to be in the least hard or voracious, not to insist on his own side of the bargain, to warn himself in short against arrogance and greed. Odd enough, of a truth, was his sense of this last danger—which may illustrate moreover his general attitude toward dangers from within. Personally, he considered, he hadn’t the vices in question—and that was so much to the good. His race, on the other hand, had had them handsomely enough, and he was somehow full of his race. Its presence in him was like the consciousness of some inexpugnable scent in which his clothes, his whole person, his hands and the hair of his head, might have been steeped as in some chemical bath: the effect was nowhere in particular, yet he constantly felt himself at the mercy of the cause. He knew his antenatal history, knew it in every detail, and it was a thing to keep causes well before him. What was his frank judgment of so much of its ugliness, he asked himself, but a part of the cultivation of humility? What was this so important step he had just taken but the desire for some new history that should, so far as possible, contradict, and even if need be flatly dishonour, the old? If what had come to him wouldn’t do he must MAKE something different. He perfectly recognised—always in his humility—that the material for the making had to be Mr. Verver’s millions. There was nothing else for him on earth to make it with; he had tried before—had had to look about and see the truth. Humble as he was, at the same time, he was not so humble as if he had known himself frivolous or stupid. He had an idea—which may amuse his historian—that when you were stupid enough to be mistaken about such a matter you did know it. Therefore he wasn’t mistaken—his future might be MIGHT be scientific. There was nothing in himself, at all events, to prevent it. He was allying himself to science, for what was science but the absence of prejudice backed by the presence of money? His life would be full of machinery, which was the antidote to superstition, which was in its turn, too much, the consequence, or at least the exhalation, of archives. He thought of these—of his not being at all events futile, and of his absolute acceptance of the developments of the coming age to redress the balance of his being so differently considered. The moments when he most winced were those at which he found himself believing that, really, futility would have been forgiven him. Even WITH it, in that absurd view, he would have been good enough. Such was the laxity, in the Ververs, of the romantic spirit. They didn’t, indeed, poor dears, know what, in that line—the line of futility—the real thing meant. HE did— having seen it, having tried it, having taken its measure. This was a memory in fact simply to screen out—much as, just in front of him while he walked, the iron shutter of a shop, closing early to the stale summer day, rattled down at the turn of some crank. There was machinery again, just as the plate glass, all about him, was money, was power, the power of the rich peoples. Well, he was OF them now, of the rich peoples; he was on their side—if it wasn’t rather the pleasanter way of putting it that they were on his.
He was happy with his engagement and thought his fiancée was charming, but his view of THAT furniture was what really fueled his "romance"—and it created an inner conflict he was smart enough to recognize. He felt humble and wanted to avoid being hard or greedy, not pushing for his own interests, and reminding himself to steer clear of arrogance and greed. It was quite odd that he was aware of this last danger, which also showed his general approach to internal struggles. He personally believed he didn’t have those vices—and that was a good thing. However, his background certainly had enough of them, and he felt deeply connected to it. The essence of his lineage was like a stubborn scent that permeated his clothes, his whole being, his hands, and his hair, as if he had soaked it all in some chemical solution: the impact was subtle, yet he constantly felt affected by it. He knew his family history in detail and believed it was crucial to stay aware of those influences. He wondered if his honest assessment of that ugliness was part of embracing humility. What was this important step he had just taken but a quest for a new narrative that would, as much as possible, contradict and even outright disgrace the old one? If what he had inherited wasn’t enough, he would HAVE to create something different. He completely understood—always with humility—that the materials for that creation had to come from Mr. Verver’s wealth. He had nothing else to work with; he had tried before and had to face the truth. Humble as he was, he didn’t consider himself frivolous or stupid. He even thought—something that might amuse a historian—that if you were ignorant enough to be wrong about such matters, you would know it. So he wasn’t mistaken—his future could be scientific. There was nothing within himself to stop that from happening. He was aligning himself with science, which he saw as the absence of bias supported by the presence of money. His life would be filled with machinery, which acted as a remedy for superstition, which, in turn, often stemmed from archives. He reflected on these ideas—not being futile at all and completely accepting the advancements of the upcoming era to correct how he was perceived. The moments that made him most uncomfortable were when he thought that, in reality, futility would have been overlooked. Even WITH it, in that absurd perspective, he would have been deemed acceptable. Such was the leniency of the Ververs’ romantic spirit. They didn’t understand what true futility meant; HE did—having seen it, experienced it, and measured it. This was a memory to push aside—much like the iron shutter of a shop rattling down as it closed early on a tired summer day. There was machinery again, just like the plate glass around him represented money, represented power, the power of the wealthy. Well, he was now one of them, part of the wealthy; he was on their side—though perhaps it was better to say they were on his side.
Something of this sort was in any case the moral and the murmur of his walk. It would have been ridiculous—such a moral from such a source—if it hadn’t all somehow fitted to the gravity of the hour, that gravity the oppression of which I began by recording. Another feature was the immediate nearness of the arrival of the contingent from home. He was to meet them at Charing Cross on the morrow: his younger brother, who had married before him, but whose wife, of Hebrew race, with a portion that had gilded the pill, was not in a condition to travel; his sister and her husband, the most anglicised of Milanesi, his maternal uncle, the most shelved of diplomatists, and his Roman cousin, Don Ottavio, the most disponible of ex-deputies and of relatives—a scant handful of the consanguineous who, in spite of Maggie’s plea for hymeneal reserve, were to accompany him to the altar. It was no great array, yet it was apparently to be a more numerous muster than any possible to the bride herself, having no wealth of kinship to choose from and making it up, on the other hand, by loose invitations. He had been interested in the girl’s attitude on the matter and had wholly deferred to it, giving him, as it did, a glimpse, distinctly pleasing, of the kind of ruminations she would in general be governed by—which were quite such as fell in with his own taste. They hadn’t natural relations, she and her father, she had explained; so they wouldn’t try to supply the place by artificial, by make-believe ones, by any searching of highways and hedges. Oh yes, they had acquaintances enough—but a marriage was an intimate thing. You asked acquaintances when you HAD your kith and kin—you asked them over and above. But you didn’t ask them alone, to cover your nudity and look like what they weren’t. She knew what she meant and what she liked, and he was all ready to take from her, finding a good omen in both of the facts. He expected her, desired her, to have character; his wife SHOULD have it, and he wasn’t afraid of her having much. He had had, in his earlier time, to deal with plenty of people who had had it; notably with the three four ecclesiastics, his great-uncle, the Cardinal, above all, who had taken a hand and played a part in his education: the effect of all of which had never been to upset him. He was thus fairly on the look-out for the characteristic in this most intimate, as she was to come, of his associates. He encouraged it when it appeared.
Something like this was definitely the vibe and the underlying theme of his walk. It would have been absurd—such a theme from such a source—but it somehow matched the seriousness of the moment, a seriousness that I began by noting. Another aspect was the immediate arrival of the family contingent from home. He was set to meet them at Charing Cross tomorrow: his younger brother, who had married before him, but whose wife, who was of Hebrew descent and had come with a nice financial settlement, wasn’t able to travel; his sister and her husband, the most English-spirited of Milanese, his maternal uncle, the most sidelined of diplomats, and his Roman cousin, Don Ottavio, the most available of former deputies and relatives—a small group of family members who, despite Maggie’s request for restraint when it came to weddings, were going to accompany him to the altar. It wasn’t a large crowd, but it was clearly going to be a bigger turnout than anyone the bride could summon, given that she had no wealth of family connections and was compensating for that with casual invitations. He had been intrigued by the girl's perspective on this and had completely gone along with it, getting a distinctly pleasant sense of the kind of thoughts that would generally guide her—which aligned nicely with his own preferences. She had explained that she and her father didn’t have a close relationship, so they wouldn’t try to fake it by filling the space with pretend family members, by scouring every avenue for random guests. Sure, they had plenty of acquaintances—but a wedding is a personal affair. You invite acquaintances when you have your relatives; you invite them in addition to your family. But you don’t invite them alone just to cover up your lack of connections and pretend to be something they weren’t. She knew what she meant and what she wanted, and he was completely open to that, seeing it as a good sign in both respects. He anticipated and wanted her to have a strong personality; his wife SHOULD have one, and he wasn’t worried about her having a lot of it. In the past, he had dealt with many people who had strong personalities; notably, the three or four religious figures, especially his great-uncle, the Cardinal, who had been influential in his upbringing: none of this ever unsettled him. So, he was quite eager for that distinctiveness in this most personal of his future companions. He welcomed it whenever it showed up.
He felt therefore, just at present, as if his papers were in order, as if his accounts so balanced as they had never done in his life before and he might close the portfolio with a snap. It would open again, doubtless, of itself, with the arrival of the Romans; it would even perhaps open with his dining to-night in Portland Place, where Mr. Verver had pitched a tent suggesting that of Alexander furnished with the spoils of Darius. But what meanwhile marked his crisis, as I have said, was his sense of the immediate two or three hours. He paused on corners, at crossings; there kept rising for him, in waves, that consciousness, sharp as to its source while vague as to its end, which I began by speaking of—the consciousness of an appeal to do something or other, before it was too late, for himself. By any friend to whom he might have mentioned it the appeal could have been turned to frank derision. For what, for whom indeed but himself and the high advantages attached, was he about to marry an extraordinarily charming girl, whose “prospects,” of the solid sort, were as guaranteed as her amiability? He wasn’t to do it, assuredly, all for her. The Prince, as happened, however, was so free to feel and yet not to formulate that there rose before him after a little, definitely, the image of a friend whom he had often found ironic. He withheld the tribute of attention from passing faces only to let his impulse accumulate. Youth and beauty made him scarcely turn, but the image of Mrs. Assingham made him presently stop a hansom. HER youth, her beauty were things more or less of the past, but to find her at home, as he possibly might, would be “doing” what he still had time for, would put something of a reason into his restlessness and thereby probably soothe it. To recognise the propriety of this particular pilgrimage—she lived far enough off, in long Cadogan Place—was already in fact to work it off a little. A perception of the propriety of formally thanking her, and of timing the act just as he happened to be doing—this, he made out as he went, was obviously all that had been the matter with him. It was true that he had mistaken the mood of the moment, misread it rather, superficially, as an impulse to look the other way—the other way from where his pledges had accumulated. Mrs. Assingham, precisely, represented, embodied his pledges—was, in her pleasant person, the force that had set them successively in motion. She had MADE his marriage, quite as truly as his papal ancestor had made his family—though he could scarce see what she had made it for unless because she too was perversely romantic. He had neither bribed nor persuaded her, had given her nothing—scarce even till now articulate thanks; so that her profit-to think of it vulgarly—must have all had to come from the Ververs.
He felt, at that moment, like everything was in order, as if his accounts had balanced in a way they never had before, and he could snap closed his portfolio. It would probably open again on its own with the arrival of the Romans; it might even reopen during his dinner tonight in Portland Place, where Mr. Verver had set up a tent that reminded him of Alexander's, furnished with Darius's spoils. But what marked his moment, as I mentioned, was his awareness of the next two or three hours. He paused at street corners, at intersections; an awareness kept rising up for him, sharp in its source but vague in its end, which I started out discussing—the feeling of needing to do something for himself before it was too late. Any friend he might have mentioned it to would have laughed it off. After all, why was he about to marry an incredibly charming girl, whose solid prospects were as certain as her friendliness, if not for his own benefit? He definitely wasn't just doing it for her. The Prince, as it happened, was free to feel yet not to articulate, so after a bit, the image of a friend he had often found ironic started to form in his mind. He ignored the faces passing by to let his thoughts build up. Youth and beauty barely made him look away, but the thought of Mrs. Assingham made him stop a cab. HER youth and beauty were mostly in the past, but finding her at home, as he just might, would be something worth doing with the time he had left, giving some reason to his restlessness and likely calming it down. Acknowledging the necessity of this particular visit—since she lived quite a distance away in long Cadogan Place—was already helping him let it go a little. Realizing that he should formally thank her and time it just right—this was clearly what had been bothering him. He had misunderstood the mood of the moment, reading it superficially as an urge to look elsewhere—away from the commitments he had accumulated. Mrs. Assingham, in fact, represented those commitments—she was, in her pleasant presence, the force that had set them in motion. She had MADE his marriage, just as his papal ancestor had established his family—though he could hardly see what she had achieved it for, unless she was also strangely romantic. He hadn’t bribed or persuaded her, hadn’t given her anything—not even proper thanks until now; so her benefit—if you want to think of it in a crude way—had to come from the Ververs.
Yet he was far, he could still remind himself, from supposing that she had been grossly remunerated. He was wholly sure she hadn’t; for if there were people who took presents and people who didn’t she would be quite on the right side and of the proud class. Only then, on the other hand, her disinterestedness was rather awful—it implied, that is, such abysses of confidence. She was admirably attached to Maggie—whose possession of such a friend might moreover quite rank as one of her “assets”; but the great proof of her affection had been in bringing them, with her design, together. Meeting him during a winter in Rome, meeting him afterwards in Paris, and “liking” him, as she had in time frankly let him know from the first, she had marked him for her young friend’s own and had then, unmistakably, presented him in a light. But the interest in Maggie—that was the point—would have achieved but little without her interest in HIM. On what did that sentiment, unsolicited and unrecompensed, rest? what good, again—for it was much like his question about Mr. Verver—should he ever have done her? The Prince’s notion of a recompense to women—similar in this to his notion of an appeal—was more or less to make love to them. Now he hadn’t, as he believed, made love the least little bit to Mrs. Assingham—nor did he think she had for a moment supposed it. He liked in these days, to mark them off, the women to whom he hadn’t made love: it represented— and that was what pleased him in it—a different stage of existence from the time at which he liked to mark off the women to whom he had. Neither, with all this, had Mrs. Assingham herself been either aggressive or resentful. On what occasion, ever, had she appeared to find him wanting? These things, the motives of such people, were obscure—a little alarmingly so; they contributed to that element of the impenetrable which alone slightly qualified his sense of his good fortune. He remembered to have read, as a boy, a wonderful tale by Allan Poe, his prospective wife’s countryman-which was a thing to show, by the way, what imagination Americans COULD have: the story of the shipwrecked Gordon Pym, who, drifting in a small boat further toward the North Pole—or was it the South?—than anyone had ever done, found at a given moment before him a thickness of white air that was like a dazzling curtain of light, concealing as darkness conceals, yet of the colour of milk or of snow. There were moments when he felt his own boat move upon some such mystery. The state of mind of his new friends, including Mrs. Assingham herself, had resemblances to a great white curtain. He had never known curtains but as purple even to blackness—but as producing where they hung a darkness intended and ominous. When they were so disposed as to shelter surprises the surprises were apt to be shocks.
Yet he reminded himself that he was far from thinking she had been paid a lot. He was completely sure she hadn’t; if there were people who accepted gifts and those who didn’t, she would definitely be in the right camp and part of the proud crowd. On the other hand, her lack of self-interest was somewhat terrifying—it suggested such extreme trust. She was incredibly devoted to Maggie—whom she could truly count as one of her "assets"; but the greatest proof of her love was in bringing them together on purpose. Having met him during a winter in Rome, and then again in Paris, she genuinely liked him, as she had openly told him from the start, and she had clearly presented him in a favorable light for her young friend. But the key point about her interest in Maggie was that it wouldn’t have meant much without her interest in HIM. What was the source of that sentiment, unprompted and unrewarded? What benefit could he possibly have provided her? The Prince’s idea of a reward for women—similar to his idea of a romantic connection—was basically to charm them. Yet, as he believed, he hadn’t flirted at all with Mrs. Assingham—nor did he think she had ever hinted that he did. Nowadays, he liked to note the women he hadn't pursued romantically: it signified—a fact that pleased him—a different phase of life compared to when he enjoyed marking the women he had flirted with. Still, throughout this, Mrs. Assingham had neither been aggressive nor resentful. When had she ever seemed to find him lacking? The motivations of such people were unclear—somewhat unsettlingly so; it added to the element of mystery that slightly tempered his sense of good fortune. He remembered reading, as a boy, a fascinating story by Edgar Allan Poe, his fiancée’s fellow countryman—which showcased the kind of imagination Americans COULD have: the tale of the shipwrecked Gordon Pym, who, drifting in a small boat further toward the North Pole—or was it the South?—than anyone had before, came upon a moment when he faced a dense white air that resembled a brilliant curtain of light, hiding everything as darkness does, yet colored like milk or snow. There were times when he felt his own boat move through such a mystery. The mindset of his new friends, including Mrs. Assingham, resembled a great white curtain. He had only known curtains as purple to black—always casting a darkness that felt intended and ominous. When they were arranged to conceal surprises, those surprises often turned out to be shocks.
Shocks, however, from these quite different depths, were not what he saw reason to apprehend; what he rather seemed to himself not yet to have measured was something that, seeking a name for it, he would have called the quantity of confidence reposed in him. He had stood still, at many a moment of the previous month, with the thought, freshly determined or renewed, of the general expectation—to define it roughly—of which he was the subject. What was singular was that it seemed not so much an expectation of anything in particular as a large, bland, blank assumption of merits almost beyond notation, of essential quality and value. It was as if he had been some old embossed coin, of a purity of gold no longer used, stamped with glorious arms, mediaeval, wonderful, of which the “worth” in mere modern change, sovereigns and half crowns, would be great enough, but as to which, since there were finer ways of using it, such taking to pieces was superfluous. That was the image for the security in which it was open to him to rest; he was to constitute a possession, yet was to escape being reduced to his component parts. What would this mean but that, practically, he was never to be tried or tested? What would it mean but that, if they didn’t “change” him, they really wouldn’t know—he wouldn’t know himself—how many pounds, shillings and pence he had to give? These at any rate, for the present, were unanswerable questions; all that was before him was that he was invested with attributes. He was taken seriously. Lost there in the white mist was the seriousness in them that made them so take him. It was even in Mrs. Assingham, in spite of her having, as she had frequently shown, a more mocking spirit. All he could say as yet was that he had done nothing, so far as to break any charm. What should he do if he were to ask her frankly this afternoon what was, morally speaking, behind their veil. It would come to asking what they expected him to do. She would answer him probably: “Oh, you know, it’s what we expect you to be!” on which he would have no resource but to deny his knowledge. Would that break the spell, his saying he had no idea? What idea in fact could he have? He also took himself seriously—made a point of it; but it wasn’t simply a question of fancy and pretension. His own estimate he saw ways, at one time and another, of dealing with: but theirs, sooner or later, say what they might, would put him to the practical proof. As the practical proof, accordingly, would naturally be proportionate to the cluster of his attributes, one arrived at a scale that he was not, honestly, the man to calculate. Who but a billionaire could say what was fair exchange for a billion? That measure was the shrouded object, but he felt really, as his cab stopped in Cadogan Place, a little nearer the shroud. He promised himself, virtually, to give the latter a twitch.
However, the shocks from these very different depths weren’t what he thought he needed to worry about; what he felt he hadn’t yet fully grasped was something he would have called the level of confidence others had in him. He had paused many times over the past month, freshly realizing or reconsidering the general expectation—roughly speaking—that surrounded him. What was strange was that it didn’t feel like an expectation of anything specific, but rather a broad, vague assumption of merits that were almost indescribable, of essential quality and value. It was as if he were some old embossed coin, made of gold no longer in circulation, stamped with glorious, medieval insignia that would hold great worth in modern currency like sovereigns and half crowns, but that, since there were better ways to use it, such an exchange was unnecessary. That was the image representing the security in which he could comfortably rest; he was meant to be valued yet not reduced to his individual parts. What would this mean if not that, practically, he would never truly be tested? What would it mean if, without any “changes,” they really wouldn’t know—he wouldn’t know himself—how much he had to offer? For now, these were unanswerable questions; all that lay ahead was that he was filled with certain qualities. He was taken seriously. Lost in the white mist was the seriousness in them that made them take him that way. This seriousness was even present in Mrs. Assingham, despite her often showing a more teasing attitude. All he could say so far was that he hadn’t done anything to break any spell. What should he do if he were to ask her honestly this afternoon what was, morally speaking, behind their facade? It would come down to asking what they expected him to do. She would likely respond, “Oh, you know, it’s about what we expect you to be!” at which point he could only deny his knowledge. Would his claim of not knowing break the spell? What could he possibly know? He took himself seriously—made it a point of honor; but it wasn’t just about pretense or illusion. He could manage his own evaluation in various ways, but theirs, no matter what they said, would eventually put him to the test. Since that practical proof would naturally be proportional to the collection of his characteristics, he realized that he truly wasn’t equipped to calculate it honestly. Who but a billionaire could determine what’s a fair exchange for a billion? That measure was the hidden objective, but he really felt, as his cab pulled up in Cadogan Place, a little closer to uncovering it. He promised himself, in essence, to give it a nudge.
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“They’re not good days, you know,” he had said to Fanny Assingham after declaring himself grateful for finding her, and then, with his cup of tea, putting her in possession of the latest news—the documents signed an hour ago, de part et d’autre, and the telegram from his backers, who had reached Paris the morning before, and who, pausing there a little, poor dears, seemed to think the whole thing a tremendous lark. “We’re very simple folk, mere country cousins compared with you,” he had also observed, “and Paris, for my sister and her husband, is the end of the world. London therefore will be more or less another planet. It has always been, as with so many of us, quite their Mecca, but this is their first real caravan; they’ve mainly known ‘old England’ as a shop for articles in india-rubber and leather, in which they’ve dressed themselves as much as possible. Which all means, however, that you’ll see them, all of them, wreathed in smiles. We must be very easy with them. Maggie’s too wonderful—her preparations are on a scale! She insists on taking in the sposi and my uncle. The others will come to me. I’ve been engaging their rooms at the hotel, and, with all those solemn signatures of an hour ago, that brings the case home to me.”
“They're not great days, you know,” he said to Fanny Assingham after expressing his gratitude for finding her. Then, while sipping his tea, he updated her on the latest news—the documents signed just an hour ago, on both sides, and the telegram from his backers, who had arrived in Paris the morning before. They seemed to think the whole situation was quite amusing. “We’re really just simple people, mere country cousins compared to you,” he added, “and for my sister and her husband, Paris is the end of the world. So London will feel like a whole other planet. For them, it has always been, as it is for so many of us, their ultimate destination, but this is their first real adventure. They've mostly known ‘old England’ as a store for rubber and leather goods, which they've used to dress themselves as much as possible. This means, however, that you’ll see them all beaming with smiles. We need to be very easygoing with them. Maggie's amazing—her preparations are on such a grand scale! She insists on taking in the newlyweds and my uncle. The others will come to my place. I’ve been reserving their rooms at the hotel, and with all those serious signatures from an hour ago, that really brings it all home for me.”
“Do you mean you’re afraid?” his hostess had amusedly asked.
“Are you saying you’re scared?” his hostess had asked with a laugh.
“Terribly afraid. I’ve now but to wait to see the monster come. They’re not good days; they’re neither one thing nor the other. I’ve really got nothing, yet I’ve everything to lose. One doesn’t know what still may happen.”
“I'm really scared. All I can do now is wait to see the monster arrive. These days are tough; they’re not really anything. I don’t have much, yet I have everything to lose. You never know what could still happen.”
The way she laughed at him was for an instant almost irritating; it came out, for his fancy, from behind the white curtain. It was a sign, that is, of her deep serenity, which worried instead of soothing him. And to be soothed, after all, to be tided over, in his mystic impatience, to be told what he could understand and believe—that was what he had come for. “Marriage then,” said Mrs. Assingham, “is what you call the monster? I admit it’s a fearful thing at the best; but, for heaven’s sake, if that’s what you’re thinking of, don’t run away from it.”
The way she laughed at him was almost irritating for a moment; it seemed to come from behind the white curtain, which he imagined. It was a sign of her deep calmness, which worried him instead of calming him down. And to be calmed, after all, to be helped through his restless impatience, to be told what he could understand and believe—that was why he had come. “So, marriage then,” Mrs. Assingham said, “is what you call the monster? I get it, it’s a scary thing at its best; but, for heaven’s sake, if that’s what you’re thinking about, don’t run away from it.”
“Ah, to run away from it would be to run away from you,” the Prince replied; “and I’ve already told you often enough how I depend on you to see me through.” He so liked the way she took this, from the corner of her sofa, that he gave his sincerity—for it WAS sincerity—fuller expression. “I’m starting on the great voyage—across the unknown sea; my ship’s all rigged and appointed, the cargo’s stowed away and the company complete. But what seems the matter with me is that I can’t sail alone; my ship must be one of a pair, must have, in the waste of waters, a—what do you call it?—a consort. I don’t ask you to stay on board with me, but I must keep your sail in sight for orientation. I don’t in the least myself know, I assure you, the points of the compass. But with a lead I can perfectly follow. You MUST be my lead.”
“Ah, running away from it would mean running away from you,” the Prince replied; “and I've already told you enough times how much I rely on you to guide me through.” He appreciated how she received this from the corner of her sofa, so he expressed his sincerity—because it WAS sincerity—even more. “I’m setting off on a great journey—across the unknown sea; my ship is all set up and ready, the cargo’s stowed away, and the crew is complete. But what troubles me is that I can’t sail alone; my ship needs to be part of a pair, it must have, out in the vast waters, a—what do you call it?—a companion. I’m not asking you to stay on board with me, but I need to keep your sail in my sight for guidance. I honestly don’t know the directions myself, but with a lead, I can follow perfectly. You MUST be my lead.”
“How can you be sure,” she asked, “where I should take you?”
“How can you be sure,” she asked, “where I should take you?”
“Why, from your having brought me safely thus far. I should never have got here without you. You’ve provided the ship itself, and, if you’ve not quite seen me aboard, you’ve attended me, ever so kindly, to the dock. Your own vessel is, all conveniently, in the next berth, and you can’t desert me now.”
“Thanks to you for getting me this far. I wouldn't have made it here without you. You’ve provided the ship itself, and even if you didn't get me all the way on board, you’ve been incredibly kind in getting me to the dock. Your own boat is conveniently in the next spot, so you can't leave me now.”
She showed him again her amusement, which struck him even as excessive, as if, to his surprise, he made her also a little nervous; she treated him in fine as if he were not uttering truths, but making pretty figures for her diversion. “My vessel, dear Prince?” she smiled. “What vessel, in the world, have I? This little house is all our ship, Bob’s and mine—and thankful we are, now, to have it. We’ve wandered far, living, as you may say, from hand to mouth, without rest for the soles of our feet. But the time has come for us at last to draw in.”
She showed him her amusement again, which he found to be over the top, as if, surprisingly, he made her a little nervous too; she treated him like he wasn't speaking the truth but just making up pretty stories for her entertainment. “My vessel, dear Prince?” she smiled. “What vessel do I have in the world? This little house is our entire ship, Bob’s and mine—and we’re really grateful to have it now. We’ve traveled far, living hand to mouth, without a moment's rest for our feet. But the time has finally come for us to settle down.”
He made at this, the young man, an indignant protest. “You talk about rest—it’s too selfish!—when you’re just launching me on adventures?”
He protested indignantly, “You talk about rest—it’s so selfish!—when you’re just sending me off on adventures?”
She shook her head with her kind lucidity. “Not adventures—heaven forbid! You’ve had yours—as I’ve had mine; and my idea has been, all along, that we should neither of us begin again. My own last, precisely, has been doing for you all you so prettily mention. But it consists simply in having conducted you to rest. You talk about ships, but they’re not the comparison. Your tossings are over—you’re practically IN port. The port,” she concluded, “of the Golden Isles.”
She shook her head with her gentle clarity. “Not adventures—heaven forbid! You’ve had yours, just like I’ve had mine; and my thought all along has been that we shouldn’t start over. My last, to be exact, has been doing for you all those lovely things you mentioned. But it just means I’ve helped you find peace. You talk about ships, but that's not the right comparison. Your struggles are over—you’re practically IN port. The port,” she finished, “of the Golden Isles.”
He looked about, to put himself more in relation with the place; then, after an hesitation, seemed to speak certain words instead of certain others. “Oh, I know where I AM—! I do decline to be left, but what I came for, of course, was to thank you. If to-day has seemed, for the first time, the end of preliminaries, I feel how little there would have been any at all without you. The first were wholly yours.”
He looked around to connect more with the place; then, after a moment of hesitation, he seemed to choose some words over others. “Oh, I know where I am—! I refuse to be left behind, but what I really came for was to thank you. If today feels, for the first time, like the end of the preliminaries, I realize how little any of this would have happened without you. The first ones were entirely yours.”
“Well,” said Mrs. Assingham, “they were remarkably easy. I’ve seen them, I’ve HAD them,” she smiled, “more difficult. Everything, you must feel, went of itself. So, you must feel, everything still goes.”
“Well,” said Mrs. Assingham, “they were surprisingly easy. I’ve seen them, I’ve had them,” she smiled, “more challenging. Everything, you must agree, went smoothly. So, you must agree, everything still continues.”
The Prince quickly agreed. “Oh, beautifully! But you had the conception.”
The Prince quickly agreed. “Oh, that’s great! But you came up with the idea.”
“Ah, Prince, so had you!”
"Ah, Prince, you had that!"
He looked at her harder a moment. “You had it first. You had it most.”
He stared at her for a moment. “You got it first. You had it the longest.”
She returned his look as if it had made her wonder. “I LIKED it, if that’s what you mean. But you liked it surely yourself. I protest, that I had easy work with you. I had only at last—when I thought it was time—to speak for you.”
She met his gaze as if it had made her think. “I liked it, if that’s what you’re asking. But you liked it too, didn’t you? I insist, I had it easy with you. I just had to finally—when I thought it was the right moment—speak for you.”
“All that is quite true. But you’re leaving me, all the same, you’re leaving me—you’re washing your hands of me,” he went on. “However, that won’t be easy; I won’t BE left.” And he had turned his eyes about again, taking in the pretty room that she had just described as her final refuge, the place of peace for a world-worn couple, to which she had lately retired with “Bob.” “I shall keep this spot in sight. Say what you will, I shall need you. I’m not, you know,” he declared, “going to give you up for anybody.”
“All of that is absolutely true. But you’re still leaving me, you’re washing your hands of me,” he continued. “However, that won’t be easy; I won’t be left behind.” He looked around again, taking in the pretty room she had just described as her final refuge, the place of peace for a weary couple, to which she had recently retreated with “Bob.” “I will keep this place in sight. No matter what you say, I’m going to need you. I’m not going to give you up for anyone,” he asserted.
“If you’re afraid—which of course you’re not—are you trying to make me the same?” she asked after a moment.
“If you’re scared—which of course you’re not—are you trying to make me feel the same?” she asked after a moment.
He waited a minute too, then answered her with a question. “You say you ‘liked’ it, your undertaking to make my engagement possible. It remains beautiful for me that you did; it’s charming and unforgettable. But, still more, it’s mysterious and wonderful. WHY, you dear delightful woman, did you like it?”
He waited a moment, then responded with a question. “You say you ‘liked’ helping me make my engagement possible. It’s beautiful to me that you did; it’s charming and unforgettable. But even more, it’s mysterious and amazing. WHY, you lovely woman, did you like it?”
“I scarce know what to make,” she said, “of such an inquiry. If you haven’t by this time found out yourself, what meaning can anything I say have for you? Don’t you really after all feel,” she added while nothing came from him—“aren’t you conscious every minute, of the perfection of the creature of whom I’ve put you into possession?”
“I hardly know what to make of such a question,” she said. “If you haven’t figured it out by now, what could anything I say mean to you? Don’t you actually feel,” she added as he remained silent—“aren’t you aware every moment of the perfection of the person I’ve introduced you to?”
“Every minute—gratefully conscious. But that’s exactly the ground of my question. It wasn’t only a matter of your handing me over—it was a matter of your handing her. It was a matter of HER fate still more than of mine. You thought all the good of her that one woman can think of another, and yet, by your account, you enjoyed assisting at her risk.”
“Every minute—thankfully aware. But that’s exactly where my question comes from. It wasn’t just about you handing me over—it was about you handing her over. It was about HER fate even more than mine. You thought all the good of her that one woman can think of another, and yet, according to you, you enjoyed helping her take that risk.”
She had kept her eyes on him while he spoke, and this was what, visibly, determined a repetition for her. “Are you trying to frighten me?”
She kept her eyes on him as he talked, and this was what clearly made her want to repeat herself. “Are you trying to scare me?”
“Ah, that’s a foolish view—I should be too vulgar. You apparently can’t understand either my good faith or my humility. I’m awfully humble,” the young man insisted; “that’s the way I’ve been feeling to-day, with everything so finished and ready. And you won’t take me for serious.”
“Ah, that’s a silly perspective—I should be too basic. You clearly can’t appreciate either my sincerity or my modesty. I’m really humble,” the young man insisted; “that’s how I’ve been feeling today, with everything so done and set up. And you won’t take me seriously.”
She continued to face him as if he really troubled her a little. “Oh, you deep old Italians!”
She kept looking at him as if he actually bothered her a bit. “Oh, you wise old Italians!”
“There you are,” he returned—“it’s what I wanted you to come to. That’s the responsible note.”
“There you are,” he replied—“that’s what I wanted you to understand. That’s the serious point.”
“Yes,” she went on—“if you’re ‘humble’ you MUST be dangerous.”
“Yes,” she continued—“if you’re ‘humble’ you HAVE to be dangerous.”
She had a pause while he only smiled; then she said: “I don’t in the least want to lose sight of you. But even if I did I shouldn’t think it right.”
She paused as he just smiled; then she said, “I really don’t want to lose track of you. But even if I did, I wouldn’t think it’s right.”
“Thank you for that—it’s what I needed of you. I’m sure, after all, that the more you’re with me the more I shall understand. It’s the only thing in the world I want. I’m excellent, I really think, all round—except that I’m stupid. I can do pretty well anything I SEE. But I’ve got to see it first.” And he pursued his demonstration. “I don’t in the least mind its having to be shown me—in fact I like that better. Therefore it is that I want, that I shall always want, your eyes. Through THEM I wish to look—even at any risk of their showing me what I mayn’t like. For then,” he wound up, “I shall know. And of that I shall never be afraid.”
“Thanks for that—it’s exactly what I needed from you. I’m sure that the more time you spend with me, the more I’ll understand. It’s the only thing I truly want. I think I’m great overall—except for the fact that I can be clueless. I can do pretty much anything I SEE. But I need to see it first.” He continued his demonstration. “I don’t mind at all if it has to be shown to me—in fact, I prefer it that way. That’s why I want, and will always want, your eyes. I want to see through THEM—even if it means they might show me something I don’t want to see. Because then,” he concluded, “I’ll know. And I’ll never be afraid of that.”
She might quite have been waiting to see what he would come to, but she spoke with a certain impatience. “What on earth are you talking about?”
She might have been waiting to see what he would say, but she spoke with a hint of impatience. “What are you talking about?”
But he could perfectly say: “Of my real, honest fear of being ‘off’ some day, of being wrong, WITHOUT knowing it. That’s what I shall always trust you for—to tell me when I am. No—with you people it’s a sense. We haven’t got it—not as you have. Therefore—!” But he had said enough. “Ecco!” he simply smiled.
But he could easily say: “Of my genuine, honest fear of being ‘off’ one day, of being wrong, WITHOUT realizing it. That’s what I will always rely on you for—to tell me when I am. No—with you people it’s a feeling. We don’t have it—not like you do. So—!” But he had said enough. “There you go!” he just smiled.
It was not to be concealed that he worked upon her, but of course she had always liked him. “I should be interested,” she presently remarked, “to see some sense you don’t possess.”
It wasn't a secret that he was trying to impress her, but she had always liked him. "I would be curious," she commented, "to see some sense you don't have."
Well, he produced one on the spot. “The moral, dear Mrs. Assingham. I mean, always, as you others consider it. I’ve of course something that in our poor dear backward old Rome sufficiently passes for it. But it’s no more like yours than the tortuous stone staircase—half-ruined into the bargain!—in some castle of our quattrocento is like the `lightning elevator’ in one of Mr. Verver’s fifteen-storey buildings. Your moral sense works by steam—it sends you up like a rocket. Ours is slow and steep and unlighted, with so many of the steps missing that—well, that it’s as short, in almost any case, to turn round and come down again.”
Well, he came up with one right away. “The moral, dear Mrs. Assingham. I mean, always, as you all see it. I’ve got something that, in our poor old backward Rome, might somewhat qualify as it. But it’s nothing like yours; it’s as different as a twisted, crumbling stone staircase—half-ruined too!—in some 15th-century castle is from the ‘lightning elevator’ in one of Mr. Verver’s fifteen-story buildings. Your moral sense runs on steam—it shoots you up like a rocket. Ours is slow, steep, and unlit, with so many missing steps that—well, it’s often just quicker to turn around and come back down.”
“Trusting,” Mrs. Assingham smiled, “to get up some other way?”
“Trusting,” Mrs. Assingham smiled, “to find another way to get up?”
“Yes—or not to have to get up at all. However,” he added, “I told you that at the beginning.”
“Yes—or not having to get up at all. But,” he added, “I mentioned that at the start.”
“Machiavelli!” she simply exclaimed.
“Machiavelli!” she exclaimed.
“You do me too much honour. I wish indeed I had his genius. However, if you really believe I have his perversity you wouldn’t say it. But it’s all right,” he gaily enough concluded; “I shall always have you to come to.”
“You're giving me too much credit. I really wish I had his talent. But if you truly think I have his stubbornness, you wouldn’t say that. But it's all good,” he cheerfully concluded; “I’ll always have you to turn to.”
On this, for a little, they sat face to face; after which, without comment, she asked him if he would have more tea. All she would give him, he promptly signified; and he developed, making her laugh, his idea that the tea of the English race was somehow their morality, “made,” with boiling water, in a little pot, so that the more of it one drank the more moral one would become. His drollery served as a transition, and she put to him several questions about his sister and the others, questions as to what Bob, in particular, Colonel Assingham, her husband, could do for the arriving gentlemen, whom, by the Prince’s leave, he would immediately go to see. He was funny, while they talked, about his own people too, whom he described, with anecdotes of their habits, imitations of their manners and prophecies of their conduct, as more rococo than anything Cadogan Place would ever have known. This, Mrs. Assingham professed, was exactly what would endear them to her, and that, in turn, drew from her visitor a fresh declaration of all the comfort of his being able so to depend on her. He had been with her, at this point, some twenty minutes; but he had paid her much longer visits, and he stayed now as if to make his attitude prove his appreciation. He stayed moreover—THAT was really the sign of the hour—in spite of the nervous unrest that had brought him and that had in truth much rather fed on the scepticism by which she had apparently meant to soothe it. She had not soothed him, and there arrived, remarkably, a moment when the cause of her failure gleamed out. He had not frightened her, as she called it—he felt that; yet she was herself not at ease. She had been nervous, though trying to disguise it; the sight of him, following on the announcement of his name, had shown her as disconcerted. This conviction, for the young man, deepened and sharpened; yet with the effect, too, of making him glad in spite of it. It was as if, in calling, he had done even better than he intended. For it was somehow IMPORTANT—that was what it was—that there should be at this hour something the matter with Mrs. Assingham, with whom, in all their acquaintance, so considerable now, there had never been the least little thing the matter. To wait thus and watch for it was to know, of a truth, that there was something the matter with HIM; since strangely, with so little to go upon—his heart had positively begun to beat to the tune of suspense. It fairly befell at last, for a climax, that they almost ceased to pretend—to pretend, that is, to cheat each other with forms. The unspoken had come up, and there was a crisis—neither could have said how long it lasted—during which they were reduced, for all interchange, to looking at each other on quite an inordinate scale. They might at this moment, in their positively portentous stillness, have been keeping it up for a wager, sitting for their photograph or even enacting a tableau-vivant.
For a moment, they sat across from each other; then, without saying anything, she asked him if he wanted more tea. He quickly indicated that he would take all she offered, and then, making her laugh, he shared his amusing idea that English tea was like their morality, “brewed,” with boiling water, in a small pot, so that the more you drank, the more moral you became. His humor created a shift in the conversation, and she asked him several questions about his sister and the others, specifically what Bob, Colonel Assingham, her husband, could do for the arriving gentlemen, whom he would go to see at the Prince’s request. He was funny while talking about his own family too, sharing anecdotes about their quirks, mimicking their manners, and predicting their behavior, describing them as more flamboyant than anything Cadogan Place would ever know. Mrs. Assingham claimed that this was exactly what would endear them to her, which prompted her visitor to express again how comforting it was to rely on her. He had spent about twenty minutes with her at this point; however, he had paid her much longer visits before, and he lingered now to show his appreciation. He stayed, in fact—THAT was the real sign of the hour—despite the nervousness that had brought him here, which had actually been fed more by the skepticism she seemed to want to calm. She hadn't calmed him, and there was a striking moment when the reason for her failure became clear. He hadn’t scared her, as she put it—he sensed that; yet she herself wasn't relaxed. She had been anxious, though trying to hide it; the sight of him, following the announcement of his name, had left her looking unsettled. This realization deepened for the young man, sharpening his feelings; yet curiously, it also made him feel pleased despite it. It felt significant—indeed, it was—that something was wrong with Mrs. Assingham at this moment, as, in all their considerable acquaintance, there had never been the slightest issue before. To wait here and observe was to understand that something was also wrong with HIM; since, oddly, with so little to go on—his heart had actually started beating in suspense. Ultimately, it happened that they nearly stopped pretending—pretending, that is, to fool each other with superficialities. The unspoken tension rose, and there was a moment of crisis—neither could say how long it lasted—during which they were reduced, in terms of communication, to simply looking at each other as if on an exaggerated scale. In their almost heavy stillness, they could have been keeping up a bet, posing for a photograph or even acting out a tableau-vivant.
The spectator of whom they would thus well have been worthy might have read meanings of his own into the intensity of their communion—or indeed, even without meanings, have found his account, aesthetically, in some gratified play of our modern sense of type, so scantly to be distinguished from our modern sense of beauty. Type was there, at the worst, in Mrs. Assingham’s dark, neat head, on which the crisp black hair made waves so fine and so numerous that she looked even more in the fashion of the hour than she desired. Full of discriminations against the obvious, she had yet to accept a flagrant appearance and to make the best of misleading signs. Her richness of hue, her generous nose, her eyebrows marked like those of an actress—these things, with an added amplitude of person on which middle age had set its seal, seemed to present her insistently as a daughter of the south, or still more of the east, a creature formed by hammocks and divans, fed upon sherbets and waited upon by slaves. She looked as if her most active effort might be to take up, as she lay back, her mandolin, or to share a sugared fruit with a pet gazelle. She was in fact, however, neither a pampered Jewess nor a lazy Creole; New York had been, recordedly, her birthplace and “Europe” punctually her discipline. She wore yellow and purple because she thought it better, as she said, while one was about it, to look like the Queen of Sheba than like a revendeuse; she put pearls in her hair and crimson and gold in her tea-gown for the same reason: it was her theory that nature itself had overdressed her and that her only course was to drown, as it was hopeless to try to chasten, the overdressing. So she was covered and surrounded with “things,” which were frankly toys and shams, a part of the amusement with which she rejoiced to supply her friends. These friends were in the game that of playing with the disparity between her aspect and her character. Her character was attested by the second movement of her face, which convinced the beholder that her vision of the humours of the world was not supine, not passive. She enjoyed, she needed the warm air of friendship, but the eyes of the American city looked out, somehow, for the opportunity of it, from under the lids of Jerusalem. With her false indolence, in short, her false leisure, her false pearls and palms and courts and fountains, she was a person for whom life was multitudinous detail, detail that left her, as it at any moment found her, unappalled and unwearied.
The observer who would have truly appreciated them might have interpreted the depth of their connection in his own way—or even without any interpretation, he could have found aesthetic satisfaction in the playful contrast of modern style and beauty. At the very least, Mrs. Assingham’s dark, neat hairstyle, with its crisp black hair styled in so many fine waves, made her appear even more fashionable than she intended. Despite her keen awareness of the obvious, she still had to embrace a bold appearance and make the best of misleading signs. The richness of her complexion, her prominent nose, and her distinctively shaped eyebrows, reminiscent of an actress, along with a fuller figure marked by the passage of time, presented her insistently as a daughter of the south or, even more, of the east—a woman shaped by hammocks and lounges, indulged with sherbets and served by attendants. She seemed to be someone whose greatest effort might be to pick up her mandolin while reclining or to share a sweet fruit with a pet gazelle. In reality, however, she was neither a spoiled Jewess nor a lazy Creole; she was proudly born in New York, and “Europe” had been her training ground. She wore yellow and purple because she believed that if one went all out, it was better to look like the Queen of Sheba than a lower-class woman; she adorned her hair with pearls and added crimson and gold to her tea gown for the same reason: she thought nature had already overdressed her and that her only option was to drown the excess rather than try to tone it down. Thus, she was enveloped with “things,” which were clearly just decorative items, part of the fun that she delighted in providing for her friends. These friends were engaged in the playful contrast between her appearance and her true nature. Her nature was revealed by the expressions on her face, which made it clear to onlookers that her perspective on life was not passive or complacent. She thrived on the warmth of friendship, but somehow, the gaze of the American city peered out from beneath the serene facade of Jerusalem. With her feigned laziness, her contrived leisure, her fake pearls, palms, courts, and fountains, she was someone for whom life was full of intricate details, a complexity that kept her, at every moment, both untroubled and tireless.
“Sophisticated as I may appear”—it was her frequent phrase—she had found sympathy her best resource. It gave her plenty to do; it made her, as she also said, sit up. She had in her life two great holes to fill, and she described herself as dropping social scraps into them as she had known old ladies, in her early American time, drop morsels of silk into the baskets in which they collected the material for some eventual patchwork quilt.
"Sophisticated as I may seem"—it was her usual phrase—she had discovered that sympathy was her greatest resource. It kept her busy; it made her, as she also said, sit up. In her life, she had two significant gaps to fill, and she described herself as dropping social scraps into them like she had seen elderly women, back in her early American days, drop bits of silk into baskets they used to gather material for some future patchwork quilt.
One of these gaps in Mrs. Assingham’s completeness was her want of children; the other was her want of wealth. It was wonderful how little either, in the fulness of time, came to show; sympathy and curiosity could render their objects practically filial, just as an English husband who in his military years had “run” everything in his regiment could make economy blossom like the rose. Colonel Bob had, a few years after his marriage, left the army, which had clearly, by that time, done its laudable all for the enrichment of his personal experience, and he could thus give his whole time to the gardening in question. There reigned among the younger friends of this couple a legend, almost too venerable for historical criticism, that the marriage itself, the happiest of its class, dated from the far twilight of the age, a primitive period when such things—such things as American girls accepted as “good enough”—had not begun to be;—so that the pleasant pair had been, as to the risk taken on either side, bold and original, honourably marked, for the evening of life, as discoverers of a kind of hymeneal Northwest Passage. Mrs. Assingham knew better, knew there had been no historic hour, from that of Pocahontas down, when some young Englishman hadn’t precipitately believed and some American girl hadn’t, with a few more gradations, availed herself to the full of her incapacity to doubt; but she accepted resignedly the laurel of the founder, since she was in fact pretty well the doyenne, above ground, of her transplanted tribe, and since, above all, she HAD invented combinations, though she had not invented Bob’s own. It was he who had done that, absolutely puzzled it out, by himself, from his first odd glimmer-resting upon it moreover, through the years to come, as proof enough, in him, by itself, of the higher cleverness. If she kept her own cleverness up it was largely that he should have full credit. There were moments in truth when she privately felt how little—striking out as he had done—he could have afforded that she should show the common limits. But Mrs. Assingham’s cleverness was in truth tested when her present visitor at last said to her: “I don’t think, you know, that you’re treating me quite right. You’ve something on your mind that you don’t tell me.”
One of the things missing from Mrs. Assingham’s life was her lack of children; the other was her lack of money. It was surprising how little either of these showed, over time; sympathy and curiosity could make people feel almost like family, just like an English husband who had been in the military and ran everything in his regiment could make frugality seem beautiful. A few years after his marriage, Colonel Bob had left the army, which, at that point, had done all it could to enrich his life experiences, allowing him to devote all his time to the gardening in question. Among the younger friends of this couple, there circulated a legend, almost too old for serious questioning, that their marriage, the happiest of its kind, originated from a distant time when such things—like the kind of American girls who accepted what was “good enough”—had not yet begun; thus, this lovely couple had been, in terms of the risks taken on both sides, bold and original, marked for their later years as adventurers who had discovered a sort of matrimonial Northwest Passage. Mrs. Assingham understood better; she knew there had never been a historic moment, since Pocahontas, when some young Englishman hadn’t hurriedly believed and some American girl hadn’t, with varying degrees, taken full advantage of her ability to not doubt; but she resignedly accepted the honor of being a pioneer, as she was effectively the eldest member, publicly, of her transplanted community, and, most importantly, she HAD created combinations, even if she hadn’t made Bob’s own. He had figured that out completely by himself, and that was, in itself, proof of his superior intelligence over the years. If she maintained her own cleverness, it was largely so he could receive full credit. There were indeed moments when she quietly felt how little—having ventured out as he had—he could afford for her to show her own limitations. But Mrs. Assingham’s cleverness was truly tested when her current visitor finally said to her: “I don’t think, you know, that you’re treating me quite right. You’ve got something on your mind that you’re not telling me.”
It was positive too that her smile, in reply, was a trifle dim. “Am I obliged to tell you everything I have on my mind?”
It was also good that her smile in response was a bit faint. “Do I have to tell you everything I’m thinking?”
“It isn’t a question of everything, but it’s a question of anything that may particularly concern me. Then you shouldn’t keep it back. You know with what care I desire to proceed, taking everything into account and making no mistake that may possibly injure HER.”
“It’s not about everything, but it’s about anything that might specifically concern me. So you shouldn’t hold it back. You know how carefully I want to handle this, considering everything and avoiding any mistake that could possibly hurt HER.”
Mrs. Assingham, at this, had after an instant an odd interrogation. “‘Her’?”
Mrs. Assingham, upon hearing this, had a curious look after a moment. “‘Her’?”
“Her and him. Both our friends. Either Maggie or her father.”
“Her and him. Both our friends. Either Maggie or her dad.”
“I have something on my mind,” Mrs. Assingham presently returned; “something has happened for which I hadn’t been prepared. But it isn’t anything that properly concerns you.”
“I have something on my mind,” Mrs. Assingham replied; “something happened that I wasn’t ready for. But it’s not something that really concerns you.”
The Prince, with immediate gaiety, threw back his head. “What do you mean by ‘properly’? I somehow see volumes in it. It’s the way people put a thing when they put it—well, wrong. I put things right. What is it that has happened for me?”
The Prince, feeling cheerful, tilted his head back. “What do you mean by ‘properly’? I can see a lot in that. It’s how people frame things when they frame them—well, incorrectly. I set things straight. What is it that has happened for me?”
His hostess, the next moment, had drawn spirit from his tone.
His hostess, in that moment, had picked up on the energy in his tone.
“Oh, I shall be delighted if you’ll take your share of it. Charlotte Stant is in London. She has just been here.”
“Oh, I would be thrilled if you’d take your part of it. Charlotte Stant is in London. She just left.”
“Miss Stant? Oh really?” The Prince expressed clear surprise—a transparency through which his eyes met his friend’s with a certain hardness of concussion. “She has arrived from America?” he then quickly asked.
“Miss Stant? No way?” The Prince showed clear surprise—his eyes met his friend's with a certain intensity. “She’s come from America?” he quickly asked next.
“She appears to have arrived this noon—coming up from Southampton; at an hotel. She dropped upon me after luncheon and was here for more than an hour.”
“She seems to have arrived this afternoon—coming up from Southampton; at a hotel. She came by after lunch and was here for over an hour.”
The young man heard with interest, though not with an interest too great for his gaiety. “You think then I’ve a share in it? What IS my share?”
The young man listened with interest, but not so much that it dampened his cheerfulness. “So you think I have a part in it? What IS my part?”
“Why, any you like—the one you seemed just now eager to take. It was you yourself who insisted.”
“Choose any you want—the one you seemed really eager to take just now. You’re the one who insisted.”
He looked at her on this with conscious inconsistency, and she could now see that he had changed colour. But he was always easy.
He looked at her with a noticeable inconsistency, and she could see that he had turned pale. But he always seemed relaxed.
“I didn’t know then what the matter was.”
“I didn’t know at the time what the issue was.”
“You didn’t think it could be so bad?”
“You didn’t think it would be this bad?”
“Do you call it very bad?” the young man asked. “Only,” she smiled, “because that’s the way it seems to affect YOU.”
“Do you think it's really bad?” the young man asked. “Only,” she smiled, “because that’s how it seems to affect YOU.”
He hesitated, still with the trace of his quickened colour, still looking at her, still adjusting his manner. “But you allowed you were upset.”
He hesitated, still flushed, still looking at her, still trying to find the right way to act. “But you said you were upset.”
“To the extent—yes—of not having in the least looked for her. Any more,” said Mrs. Assingham, “than I judge Maggie to have done.”
“To the extent—yes—of not having really looked for her. Any more,” said Mrs. Assingham, “than I think Maggie has.”
The Prince thought; then as if glad to be able to say something very natural and true: “No—quite right. Maggie hasn’t looked for her. But I’m sure,” he added, “she’ll be delighted to see her.”
The Prince thought for a moment and then, seemingly happy to express something simple and honest, said, “No—you're absolutely right. Maggie hasn’t searched for her. But I’m sure,” he continued, “she’ll be excited to see her.”
“That, certainly”—and his hostess spoke with a different shade of gravity.
"That, for sure"—and his hostess spoke with a different level of seriousness.
“She’ll be quite overjoyed,” the Prince went on. “Has Miss Stant now gone to her?”
“She’ll be really happy,” the Prince continued. “Has Miss Stant gone to see her yet?”
“She has gone back to her hotel, to bring her things here. I can’t have her,” said Mrs. Assingham, “alone at an hotel.”
“She’s gone back to her hotel to grab her stuff and bring it here. I can’t have her,” said Mrs. Assingham, “alone at a hotel.”
“No; I see.”
“No, I get it.”
“If she’s here at all she must stay with me.” He quite took it in. “So she’s coming now?”
“If she’s here at all, she has to stay with me.” He completely understood. “So, she’s coming now?”
“I expect her at any moment. If you wait you’ll see her.”
“I expect her any minute now. If you wait, you’ll see her.”
“Oh,” he promptly declared—“charming!” But this word came out as if, a little, in sudden substitution for some other. It sounded accidental, whereas he wished to be firm. That accordingly was what he next showed himself. “If it wasn’t for what’s going on these next days Maggie would certainly want to have her. In fact,” he lucidly continued, “isn’t what’s happening just a reason to MAKE her want to?” Mrs. Assingham, for answer, only looked at him, and this, the next instant, had apparently had more effect than if she had spoken. For he asked a question that seemed incongruous. “What has she come for!”
“Oh,” he quickly said—“charming!” But it came out as if, a bit, he had suddenly replaced it with something else. It sounded accidental, while he wanted to sound confident. That was what he tried to show next. “If it weren’t for everything happening over the next few days, Maggie would definitely want to see her. In fact,” he continued clearly, “isn’t what’s going on just a reason to MAKE her want to?” Mrs. Assingham, in response, simply looked at him, and this, in the next moment, seemed to have more impact than if she had spoken. So he asked a question that felt out of place. “What has she come for!”
It made his companion laugh. “Why, for just what you say. For your marriage.”
It made his friend laugh. "Well, for exactly what you said. For your wedding."
“Mine?”—he wondered.
"Mine?" he thought.
“Maggie’s—it’s the same thing. It’s ‘for’ your great event. And then,” said Mrs. Assingham, “she’s so lonely.”
“Maggie’s—it’s the same thing. It’s ‘for’ your big event. And then,” said Mrs. Assingham, “she’s so lonely.”
“Has she given you that as a reason?”
“Has she told you that as a reason?”
“I scarcely remember—she gave me so many. She abounds, poor dear, in reasons. But there’s one that, whatever she does, I always remember for myself.”
"I hardly remember—she gave me so many. She has plenty, the poor thing, of reasons. But there’s one that, no matter what she does, I always remember for myself."
“And which is that?” He looked as if he ought to guess but couldn’t.
“And which one is that?” He looked like he should be able to guess but couldn’t.
“Why, the fact that she has no home—absolutely none whatever. She’s extraordinarily alone.”
“Honestly, she has no home—none at all. She’s incredibly alone.”
Again he took it in. “And also has no great means.”
Again he absorbed it. “And also has limited resources.”
“Very small ones. Which is not, however, with the expense of railways and hotels, a reason for her running to and fro.”
“Very small ones. However, that doesn’t justify her running back and forth, especially considering the costs of railways and hotels.”
“On the contrary. But she doesn’t like her country.”
“On the other hand. But she doesn’t like her country.”
“Hers, my dear man?—it’s little enough ‘hers.’” The attribution, for the moment, amused his hostess. “She has rebounded now—but she has had little enough else to do with it.”
“Hers, my dear man?—it’s hardly ‘hers’ at all.” The comment, for the time being, entertained his hostess. “She has bounced back now—but she hasn’t had much else to do with it.”
“Oh, I say hers,” the Prince pleasantly explained, “very much as, at this time of day, I might say mine. I quite feel, I assure you, as if the great place already more or less belonged to ME.”
“Oh, I mean hers,” the Prince said cheerfully, “just like I might say mine at this time of day. I really feel, I promise you, as if the grand place already kind of belongs to ME.”
“That’s your good fortune and your point of view. You own—or you soon practically WILL own—so much of it. Charlotte owns almost nothing in the world, she tells me, but two colossal trunks-only one of which I have given her leave to introduce into this house. She’ll depreciate to you,” Mrs. Assingham added, “your property.”
"That's your luck and your perspective. You have—or you'll soon basically HAVE—so much of it. Charlotte says she has almost nothing in the world, just two huge trunks—only one of which I've allowed her to bring into this house. She'll look down on your property," Mrs. Assingham added.
He thought of these things, he thought of every thing; but he had always his resource at hand of turning all to the easy. “Has she come with designs upon me?” And then in a moment, as if even this were almost too grave, he sounded the note that had least to do with himself. “Est-elle toujours aussi belle?” That was the furthest point, somehow, to which Charlotte Stant could be relegated.
He thought about all these things; he considered everything. Yet he always had the ability to make it easy. “Has she come with plans for me?” Then, almost as if this thought was too serious, he focused on something that mattered less to him. “Is she still as beautiful?” That was the most distant aspect he could attribute to Charlotte Stant.
Mrs. Assingham treated it freely. “Just the same. The person in the world, to my sense, whose looks are most subject to appreciation. It’s all in the way she affects you. One admires her if one doesn’t happen not to. So, as well, one criticises her.”
Mrs. Assingham addressed it openly. “Just the same. The person in the world, in my opinion, whose looks are most open to interpretation. It all depends on how she strikes you. You admire her unless you don’t. So, naturally, you can also criticize her.”
“Ah, that’s not fair!” said the Prince.
“Ugh, that’s so unfair!” said the Prince.
“To criticise her? Then there you are! You’re answered.”
“To criticize her? Well, there you go! You’ve got your answer.”
“I’m answered.” He took it, humorously, as his lesson—sank his previous self-consciousness, with excellent effect, in grateful docility. “I only meant that there are perhaps better things to be done with Miss Stant than to criticise her. When once you begin THAT, with anyone—!” He was vague and kind.
“I understand now.” He took it lightly, as his lesson—dropped his earlier self-consciousness, with great results, in thankful acceptance. “I just meant that there might be better things to do with Miss Stant than to criticize her. Once you start THAT with anyone—!” He was unclear and gentle.
“I quite agree that it’s better to keep out of it as long as one can. But when one MUST do it—”
"I totally agree that it's best to stay out of it for as long as possible. But when you HAVE to do it—"
“Yes?” he asked as she paused. “Then know what you mean.”
“Yes?” he asked as she paused. “Then understand what you mean.”
“I see. Perhaps,” he smiled, “I don’t know what I mean.”
“I see. Maybe,” he smiled, “I don’t really know what I mean.”
“Well, it’s what, just now, in all ways, you particularly should know.” Mrs. Assingham, however, made no more of this, having, before anything else, apparently, a scruple about the tone she had just used. “I quite understand, of course, that, given her great friendship with Maggie, she should have wanted to be present. She has acted impulsively—but she has acted generously.”
“Well, it’s what, just now, in every way, you really should know.” Mrs. Assingham, however, didn't dwell on this, having, before anything else, apparently, a concern about the tone she had just used. “I completely understand, of course, that, given her close friendship with Maggie, she would have wanted to be there. She has acted on impulse—but she has acted out of generosity.”
“She has acted beautifully,” said the Prince.
“She has acted wonderfully,” said the Prince.
“I say ‘generously’ because I mean she hasn’t, in any way, counted the cost. She’ll have it to count, in a manner, now,” his hostess continued. “But that doesn’t matter.”
“I say ‘generously’ because I mean she hasn’t, in any way, considered the cost. She’ll have that to think about, in a way, now,” his hostess continued. “But that doesn’t matter.”
He could see how little. “You’ll look after her.”
He could see how little. “You’ll take care of her.”
“I’ll look after her.”
“I’ll take care of her.”
“So it’s all right.”
"So it's okay."
“It’s all right,” said Mrs. Assingham. “Then why are you troubled?”
“It’s okay,” Mrs. Assingham said. “So why are you worried?”
It pulled her up—but only for a minute. “I’m not—any more than you.”
It lifted her up—but only for a moment. “I’m not—any more than you.”
The Prince’s dark blue eyes were of the finest, and, on occasion, precisely, resembled nothing so much as the high windows of a Roman palace, of an historic front by one of the great old designers, thrown open on a feast-day to the golden air. His look itself, at such times, suggested an image—that of some very noble personage who, expected, acclaimed by the crowd in the street and with old precious stuffs falling over the sill for his support, had gaily and gallantly come to show himself: always moreover less in his own interest than in that of spectators and subjects whose need to admire, even to gape, was periodically to be considered. The young man’s expression became, after this fashion, something vivid and concrete—a beautiful personal presence, that of a prince in very truth, a ruler, warrior, patron, lighting up brave architecture and diffusing the sense of a function. It had been happily said of his face that the figure thus appearing in the great frame was the ghost of some proudest ancestor. Whoever the ancestor now, at all events, the Prince was, for Mrs. Assingham’s benefit, in view of the people. He seemed, leaning on crimson damask, to take in the bright day. He looked younger than his years; he was beautiful, innocent, vague.
The Prince’s dark blue eyes were exceptional and, at times, looked a lot like the tall windows of a Roman palace, opened wide on a festive day to let in the golden air. His gaze, during those moments, suggested an image—of a noble figure who, awaited and cheered by the crowd in the street, with old precious fabrics cascading over the edge for support, had cheerfully and gallantly come to make an appearance: always, moreover, less for his own sake than for the spectators and subjects, whose need to admire, even to stare, had to be acknowledged now and then. The young man’s expression became, in this way, something lively and tangible—a striking personal presence, truly princely, a ruler, warrior, patron, illuminating impressive architecture and spreading a sense of purpose. It had been aptly said of his face that the figure thus framed was the spirit of some proud ancestor. Whoever the ancestor was, one thing was clear for Mrs. Assingham’s sake, he was there for the people. Leaning against crimson damask, he took in the bright day. He looked younger than his age; he was beautiful, innocent, and somewhat vague.
“Oh, well, I’M not!” he rang out clear.
“Oh, well, I’M not!” he said loudly.
“I should like to SEE you, sir!” she said. “For you wouldn’t have a shadow of excuse.” He showed how he agreed that he would have been at a loss for one, and the fact of their serenity was thus made as important as if some danger of its opposite had directly menaced them. The only thing was that if the evidence of their cheer was so established Mrs. Assingham had a little to explain her original manner, and she came to this before they dropped the question. “My first impulse is always to behave, about everything, as if I feared complications. But I don’t fear them—I really like them. They’re quite my element.”
“I’d really like to see you, sir!” she said. “Because you wouldn’t have any excuse.” He acknowledged that he would have struggled to come up with one, and the fact that they were calm was made just as important as if some danger of the opposite had threatened them directly. The only issue was that if their cheerfulness was so well-established, Mrs. Assingham had a bit to explain regarding her original demeanor, and she addressed this before they moved on from the topic. “My first instinct is always to act as if I’m afraid of complications. But I’m not afraid of them—I actually enjoy them. They’re totally my thing.”
He deferred, for her, to this account of herself. “But still,” he said, “if we’re not in the presence of a complication.”
He backed down for her, regarding this story of herself. “But still,” he said, “if we’re not dealing with a complication.”
She hesitated. “A handsome, clever, odd girl staying with one is always a complication.”
She hesitated. “A smart, attractive, quirky girl living with you is always a complication.”
The young man weighed it almost as if the question were new to him. “And will she stay very long?”
The young man considered it as if the question was new to him. “And will she be staying for a long time?”
His friend gave a laugh. “How in the world can I know? I’ve scarcely asked her.”
His friend laughed. “How am I supposed to know? I’ve hardly asked her.”
“Ah yes. You can’t.”
“Yeah, no. You can’t.”
But something in the tone of it amused her afresh. “Do you think you could?”
But something about the way it was said made her laugh again. “Do you think you could?”
“I?” he wondered.
"Me?" he wondered.
“Do you think you could get it out of her for me—the probable length of her stay?”
“Do you think you could ask her for me how long she’s likely to stay?”
He rose bravely enough to the occasion and the challenge. “I daresay, if you were to give me the chance.”
He stepped up to the occasion and the challenge with courage. “I’d say, if you were to give me the opportunity.”
“Here it is then for you,” she answered; for she had heard, within the minute, the stop of a cab at her door. “She’s back.”
“Here it is for you,” she replied, as she heard a cab pull up to her door. “She’s back.”
III
III
It had been said as a joke, but as, after this, they awaited their friend in silence, the effect of the silence was to turn the time to gravity—a gravity not dissipated even when the Prince next spoke. He had been thinking the case over and making up his mind. A handsome, clever, odd girl staying with one was a complication. Mrs. Assingham, so far, was right. But there were the facts—the good relations, from schooldays, of the two young women, and the clear confidence with which one of them had arrived. “She can come, you know, at any time, to US.”
It was said as a joke, but as they waited for their friend in silence, the weight of that silence made time feel serious—a seriousness that didn’t fade even when the Prince spoke next. He had been considering the situation and making up his mind. A beautiful, smart, quirky girl staying with you was a complication. Mrs. Assingham was right about that. But there were the facts—the solid relationship between the two young women from their school days, and the clear confidence with which one of them had arrived. “She can come, you know, at any time, to us.”
Mrs. Assingham took it up with an irony beyond laughter. “You’d like her for your honeymoon?”
Mrs. Assingham addressed it with an irony that went deeper than laughter. “You want her for your honeymoon?”
“Oh no, you must keep her for that. But why not after?”
“Oh no, you have to save her for that. But why not afterward?”
She had looked at him a minute; then, at the sound of a voice in the corridor, they had got up. “Why not? You’re splendid!” Charlotte Stant, the next minute, was with them, ushered in as she had alighted from her cab, and prepared for not finding Mrs. Assingham alone—this would have been to be noticed—by the butler’s answer, on the stairs, to a question put to him. She could have looked at her hostess with such straightness and brightness only from knowing that the Prince was also there—the discrimination of but a moment, yet which let him take her in still better than if she had instantly faced him. He availed himself of the chance thus given him, for he was conscious of all these things. What he accordingly saw, for some seconds, with intensity, was a tall, strong, charming girl who wore for him, at first, exactly the look of her adventurous situation, a suggestion, in all her person, in motion and gesture, in free, vivid, yet altogether happy indications of dress, from the becoming compactness of her hat to the shade of tan in her shoes, of winds and waves and custom-houses, of far countries and long journeys, the knowledge of how and where and the habit, founded on experience, of not being afraid. He was aware, at the same time, that of this combination the “strongminded” note was not, as might have been apprehended, the basis; he was now sufficiently familiar with English-speaking types, he had sounded attentively enough such possibilities, for a quick vision of differences. He had, besides, his own view of this young lady’s strength of mind. It was great, he had ground to believe, but it would never interfere with the play of her extremely personal, her always amusing taste. This last was the thing in her—for she threw it out positively, on the spot, like a light—that she might have reappeared, during these moments, just to cool his worried eyes with. He saw her in her light that immediate, exclusive address to their friend was like a lamp she was holding aloft for his benefit and for his pleasure. It showed him everything—above all her presence in the world, so closely, so irretrievably contemporaneous with his own: a sharp, sharp fact, sharper during these instants than any other at all, even than that of his marriage, but accompanied, in a subordinate and controlled way, with those others, facial, physiognomic, that Mrs. Assingham had been speaking of as subject to appreciation. So they were, these others, as he met them again, and that was the connection they instantly established with him. If they had to be interpreted, this made at least for intimacy. There was but one way certainly for HIM—to interpret them in the sense of the already known.
She had looked at him for a minute; then, when they heard a voice in the hallway, they got up. “Why not? You’re amazing!” Charlotte Stant, a moment later, joined them, having just gotten out of her cab, and ready to see that Mrs. Assingham wasn’t alone—this would have been obvious—from the butler’s response to a question he was asked on the stairs. She could only gaze at her hostess with such straightforwardness and brightness because she knew the Prince was also there—that small realization made him take her in even more than if she had faced him immediately. He seized the opportunity, fully aware of all these things. What he observed, for several seconds, with intensity, was a tall, strong, charming girl who, to him at first, perfectly captured the essence of her exciting situation, suggesting through her entire presence—her movements and gestures, as well as her free, vibrant, yet entirely happy clothing choices, from her stylish hat to the tan color of her shoes—the allure of adventures, customs, distant lands, and extensive travels, along with the confidence that comes from experience and the habit of not feeling afraid. At the same time, he recognized that the “strong-minded” aspect was not, as one might think, the foundation; he was now pretty familiar with English-speaking types, having carefully considered such distinctions for a quick understanding of differences. Moreover, he had his own opinion about this young lady’s strength of mind. He believed it was substantial, but it would never overshadow her incredibly personal and always delightful taste. This was the quality in her—it shone through instantly, like a light—that might have reappeared during these moments just to ease his troubled mind. He perceived her vibrant, direct interaction with their friend as a light she was holding high for his benefit and enjoyment. It revealed everything to him—especially her existence in the world, so closely and undeniably intertwined with his own: a sharp, undeniable fact, more acute in those moments than anything else, even his marriage, yet connected, in a subtle and managed way, to those other aspects, facial and physical, that Mrs. Assingham had mentioned as open to interpretation. And so they were, those other aspects, as he encountered them again, forming an instant connection with him. If they needed interpretation, at least this fostered intimacy. There was only one sure way for HIM—to interpret them in light of what he already knew.
Making use then of clumsy terms of excess, the face was too narrow and too long, the eyes not large, and the mouth, on the other hand, by no means small, with substance in its lips and a slight, the very slightest, tendency to protrusion in the solid teeth, otherwise indeed well arrayed and flashingly white. But it was, strangely, as a cluster of possessions of his own that these things, in Charlotte Stant, now affected him; items in a full list, items recognised, each of them, as if, for the long interval, they had been “stored” wrapped up, numbered, put away in a cabinet. While she faced Mrs. Assingham the door of the cabinet had opened of itself; he took the relics out, one by one, and it was more and more, each instant, as if she were giving him time. He saw again that her thick hair was, vulgarly speaking, brown, but that there was a shade of tawny autumn leaf in it, for “appreciation”—a colour indescribable and of which he had known no other case, something that gave her at moments the sylvan head of a huntress. He saw the sleeves of her jacket drawn to her wrists, but he again made out the free arms within them to be of the completely rounded, the polished slimness that Florentine sculptors, in the great time, had loved, and of which the apparent firmness is expressed in their old silver and old bronze. He knew her narrow hands, he knew her long fingers and the shape and colour of her finger-nails, he knew her special beauty of movement and line when she turned her back, and the perfect working of all her main attachments, that of some wonderful finished instrument, something intently made for exhibition, for a prize. He knew above all the extraordinary fineness of her flexible waist, the stem of an expanded flower, which gave her a likeness also to some long, loose silk purse, well filled with gold pieces, but having been passed, empty, through a finger-ring that held it together. It was as if, before she turned to him, he had weighed the whole thing in his open palm and even heard a little the chink of the metal. When she did turn to him it was to recognise with her eyes what he might have been doing. She made no circumstance of thus coming upon him, save so far as the intelligence in her face could at any moment make a circumstance of almost anything. If when she moved off she looked like a huntress, she looked when she came nearer like his notion, perhaps not wholly correct, of a muse. But what she said was simply: “You see you’re not rid of me. How is dear Maggie?”
Using somewhat awkward words, he noted that her face was too narrow and elongated, her eyes not large, and her mouth, on the other hand, was definitely not small, with full lips and a slight, barely noticeable, protrusion of her solid, otherwise well-formed and bright white teeth. Oddly enough, these features in Charlotte Stant felt like possessions of his own; each was an item in a comprehensive list, items he recognized as if they had been “stored” away, wrapped up, numbered, and placed in a cabinet for a long time. While she faced Mrs. Assingham, the cabinet door had opened by itself; he took out the memories, one after another, and it increasingly felt, in each moment, as if she were giving him time. He noticed again that her thick hair was, to put it bluntly, brown, but it had a hint of tawny autumn leaf, a color that was indescribable and unique, giving her at times the look of a huntress. He saw that the sleeves of her jacket were pulled down to her wrists, but the arms inside were perfectly rounded and sleek in a way that Florentine sculptors, in their heyday, admired, their old silver and bronze expressing that apparent firmness. He recognized her slender hands, her long fingers, the shape and color of her nails, the special beauty of her movement and line when she turned her back, and the flawless working of all her main features, like a beautifully crafted instrument made for display, for a prize. Most of all, he knew the extraordinary delicacy of her flexible waist, reminiscent of the stem of a fully blossomed flower, which also compared to a long silk purse, well-stocked with coins, but having passed, empty, through a finger-ring that held it together. It felt as if he had weighed it all in his open palm and could almost hear the faint sound of metal clinking. When she finally turned to him, it was to acknowledge with her eyes what he might have been thinking. She made no fuss about encountering him, except that the expression on her face could turn any moment into something significant. If, when she walked away, she resembled a huntress, as she approached him, she embodied, perhaps not altogether accurately, his idea of a muse. But what she simply said was: “You see you’re not rid of me. How is dear Maggie?”
It was to come soon enough by the quite unforced operation of chance, the young man’s opportunity to ask her the question suggested by Mrs. Assingham shortly before her entrance. The license, had he chosen to embrace it, was within a few minutes all there—the license given him literally to inquire of this young lady how long she was likely to be with them. For a matter of the mere domestic order had quickly determined, on Mrs. Assingham’s part, a withdrawal, of a few moments, which had the effect of leaving her visitors free. “Mrs. Betterman’s there?” she had said to Charlotte in allusion to some member of the household who was to have received her and seen her belongings settled; to which Charlotte had replied that she had encountered only the butler, who had been quite charming. She had deprecated any action taken on behalf of her effects; but her hostess, rebounding from accumulated cushions, evidently saw more in Mrs. Betterman’s non-appearance than could meet the casual eye. What she saw, in short, demanded her intervention, in spite of an earnest “Let ME go!” from the girl, and a prolonged smiling wail over the trouble she was giving. The Prince was quite aware, at this moment, that departure, for himself, was indicated; the question of Miss Stant’s installation didn’t demand his presence; it was a case for one to go away—if one hadn’t a reason for staying. He had a reason, however—of that he was equally aware; and he had not for a good while done anything more conscious and intentional than not, quickly, to take leave. His visible insistence—for it came to that—even demanded of him a certain disagreeable effort, the sort of effort he had mostly associated with acting for an idea. His idea was there, his idea was to find out something, something he wanted much to know, and to find it out not tomorrow, not at some future time, not in short with waiting and wondering, but if possible before quitting the place. This particular curiosity, moreover, confounded itself a little with the occasion offered him to satisfy Mrs. Assingham’s own; he wouldn’t have admitted that he was staying to ask a rude question—there was distinctly nothing rude in his having his reasons. It would be rude, for that matter, to turn one’s back, without a word or two, on an old friend.
It was about to happen soon enough through the simple twists of fate: the young man's chance to ask her the question that Mrs. Assingham had suggested just before she arrived. The opportunity was there—all within a few minutes—for him to ask this young lady how long she would be with them. A straightforward domestic matter had quickly led to a brief exit from Mrs. Assingham, which left her guests free. “Mrs. Betterman is there?” she had asked Charlotte, referring to someone in the household who was supposed to receive her and settle her belongings. Charlotte responded that she had only run into the butler, who had been quite charming. She downplayed any actions taken regarding her things, but her hostess, rising from her piled-up cushions, clearly saw more in Mrs. Betterman’s absence than met the eye. What she saw, essentially, called for her intervention, despite the girl’s earnest “Let ME go!” and her ongoing playful lament about the trouble she was causing. The Prince was very much aware at that moment that it was time for him to leave; Miss Stant’s settling in didn’t require his presence—it was a situation where one could exit if there was no reason to stay. However, he did have a reason—he was fully conscious of that—and he hadn’t for quite a while done anything more deliberate than not quickly say goodbye. His visible determination—even in that—to stay required a sort of uncomfortable effort, the kind he usually associated with acting on a principle. His principle was clear: he wanted to find out something, something he was eager to know, and he wanted to do it not tomorrow or at some future point, but ideally before leaving the place. This specific curiosity, moreover, was somewhat tangled up with the chance he had to fulfill Mrs. Assingham’s own; he wouldn’t have admitted that he was staying to ask an awkward question—there was definitely nothing improper about having his reasons. In fact, it would have been rude to turn his back on an old friend without exchanging a word or two.
Well, as it came to pass, he got the word or two, for Mrs. Assingham’s preoccupation was practically simplifying. The little crisis was of shorter duration than our account of it; duration, naturally, would have forced him to take up his hat. He was somehow glad, on finding himself alone with Charlotte, that he had not been guilty of that inconsequence. Not to be flurried was the kind of consistency he wanted, just as consistency was the kind of dignity. And why couldn’t he have dignity when he had so much of the good conscience, as it were, on which such advantages rested? He had done nothing he oughtn’t—he had in fact done nothing at all. Once more, as a man conscious of having known many women, he could assist, as he would have called it, at the recurrent, the predestined phenomenon, the thing always as certain as sunrise or the coming round of Saints’ days, the doing by the woman of the thing that gave her away. She did it, ever, inevitably, infallibly—she couldn’t possibly not do it. It was her nature, it was her life, and the man could always expect it without lifting a finger. This was HIS, the man’s, any man’s, position and strength—that he had necessarily the advantage, that he only had to wait, with a decent patience, to be placed, in spite of himself, it might really be said, in the right. Just so the punctuality of performance on the part of the other creature was her weakness and her deep misfortune—not less, no doubt, than her beauty. It produced for the man that extraordinary mixture of pity and profit in which his relation with her, when he was not a mere brute, mainly consisted; and gave him in fact his most pertinent ground of being always nice to her, nice about her, nice FOR her. She always dressed her act up, of course, she muffled and disguised and arranged it, showing in fact in these dissimulations a cleverness equal to but one thing in the world, equal to her abjection: she would let it be known for anything, for everything, but the truth of which it was made. That was what, precisely, Charlotte Stant would be doing now; that was the present motive and support, to a certainty, of each of her looks and motions. She was the twentieth woman, she was possessed by her doom, but her doom was also to arrange appearances, and what now concerned him was to learn how she proposed. He would help her, would arrange WITH her to any point in reason; the only thing was to know what appearance could best be produced and best be preserved. Produced and preserved on her part of course; since on his own there had been luckily no folly to cover up, nothing but a perfect accord between conduct and obligation.
Well, as it turned out, he got the message or two, because Mrs. Assingham’s focus was pretty straightforward. The little crisis lasted less time than our description of it; if it had dragged on, he would have had to grab his hat. He was oddly relieved, when he found himself alone with Charlotte, that he hadn’t acted thoughtlessly. Staying calm was the kind of consistency he wanted, just like consistency embodied dignity. And why couldn’t he have dignity when he had so much of a clear conscience, which was the basis for such advantages? He hadn’t done anything wrong—he had, in fact, done nothing at all. Once again, as a man who had known many women, he could witness, as he would say, the recurrent, the destined phenomenon, something as certain as sunrise or the recurring Saints' days: the woman would inevitably reveal what she truly was. She always did it, without fail—she couldn’t possibly not do it. It was her nature, it was her life, and the man could always expect it without lifting a finger. This was HIS, the man’s, any man’s, position and strength—that he had the inherent advantage, that he just had to wait, with decent patience, to be placed, despite himself, in the right. In contrast, the punctuality of her actions was her weakness and her deep misfortune—not less than her beauty. It created that strange mix of pity and gain for the man, which characterized his relationship with her, provided he wasn’t a complete brute; and it actually gave him his main reason to be kind to her, nice about her, nice FOR her. She always dressed up her actions, of course; she muffled and disguised and arranged them, showing in those dissimulations a cleverness equal to only one thing in the world, equal to her subservience: she would reveal everything except the truth of what it was. That was exactly what Charlotte Stant would be doing now; that was the present motive and support, without a doubt, behind each of her looks and movements. She was the twentieth woman, driven by her fate, but her fate also involved curating appearances, and what mattered to him now was to understand how she planned to do that. He would help her, would collaborate WITH her to any reasonable extent; the only thing was to figure out what appearance could be best created and best maintained. Created and maintained on her end, of course; because luckily on his side, there had been no foolishness to hide, just a perfect alignment between his actions and his obligations.
They stood there together, at all events, when the door had closed behind their friend, with a conscious, strained smile and very much as if each waited for the other to strike the note or give the pitch. The young man held himself, in his silent suspense—only not more afraid because he felt her own fear. She was afraid of herself, however; whereas, to his gain of lucidity, he was afraid only of her. Would she throw herself into his arms, or would she be otherwise wonderful? She would see what he would do—so their queer minute without words told him; and she would act accordingly. But what could he do but just let her see that he would make anything, everything, for her, as honourably easy as possible? Even if she should throw herself into his arms he would make that easy—easy, that is, to overlook, to ignore, not to remember, and not, by the same token, either, to regret. This was not what in fact happened, though it was also not at a single touch, but by the finest gradations, that his tension subsided. “It’s too delightful to be back!” she said at last; and it was all she definitely gave him—being moreover nothing but what anyone else might have said. Yet with two or three other things that, on his response, followed it, it quite pointed the path, while the tone of it, and her whole attitude, were as far removed as need have been from the truth of her situation. The abjection that was present to him as of the essence quite failed to peep out, and he soon enough saw that if she was arranging she could be trusted to arrange. Good—it was all he asked; and all the more that he could admire and like her for it.
They stood there together, after their friend had closed the door, with a knowing, tense smile, each waiting for the other to make the first move. The young man was caught in his silence—not more scared because he sensed her fear. She was scared of herself; he was only scared of her. Would she leap into his arms, or would she surprise him in some other way? She was watching to see what he would do, and she would react based on that. But what could he do except show her that he would make everything as easy as possible for her? Even if she did throw herself into his arms, he would make it easy to overlook, ignore, and not remember, and therefore not regret either. However, that was not what actually happened. It wasn’t a sudden change but a gradual letting go of tension. “It’s so nice to be back!” she finally said, and that was all she really gave him—something anyone else might have said. Yet, with a few other things that followed his response, it clearly pointed to their next steps, while her tone and her entire demeanor were far from the truth of her situation. The humiliation he sensed was completely hidden, and he soon realized that if she was planning something, she could be trusted to do it. That was all he wanted, and it made him admire and appreciate her even more.
The particular appearance she would, as they said, go in for was that of having no account whatever to give him—it would be in fact that of having none to give anybody—of reasons or of motives, of comings or of goings. She was a charming young woman who had met him before, but she was also a charming young woman with a life of her own. She would take it high—up, up, up, ever so high. Well then, he would do the same; no height would be too great for them, not even the dizziest conceivable to a young person so subtle. The dizziest seemed indeed attained when, after another moment, she came as near as she was to come to an apology for her abruptness.
The way she planned to present herself, as they put it, was to seem like she had no explanation to give him—actually, as if she had no explanation for anyone—no reasons, no motives, no comings or goings. She was a lovely young woman who had met him before, but she was also a lovely young woman with her own life. She would rise high—up, up, up, so high. Well then, he would rise too; no height would be too much for them, not even the most dizzying one for a young person so insightful. The most dizzying moment seemed to arrive when, after a brief pause, she came as close as she could to apologizing for her suddenness.
“I’ve been thinking of Maggie, and at last I yearned for her. I wanted to see her happy—and it doesn’t strike me I find you too shy to tell me I SHALL.”
“I’ve been thinking about Maggie, and finally, I longed for her. I wanted to see her happy—and it doesn’t seem to me that you’re too shy to tell me I WILL.”
“Of course she’s happy, thank God! Only it’s almost terrible, you know, the happiness of young, good, generous creatures. It rather frightens one. But the Blessed Virgin and all the Saints,” said the Prince, “have her in their keeping.”
“Of course she’s happy, thank God! It’s just that the happiness of young, kind, generous people can be almost overwhelming, you know. It’s a bit scary. But the Blessed Virgin and all the Saints,” said the Prince, “are watching over her.”
“Certainly they have. She’s the dearest of the dear. But I needn’t tell you,” the girl added.
“Of course they have. She’s the closest of the close. But I don’t need to tell you,” the girl added.
“Ah,” he returned with gravity, “I feel that I’ve still much to learn about her.” To which he subjoined “She’ll rejoice awfully in your being with us.”
“Ah,” he replied seriously, “I feel like I still have a lot to learn about her.” Then he added, “She’ll be really happy to have you with us.”
“Oh, you don’t need me!” Charlotte smiled. “It’s her hour. It’s a great hour. One has seen often enough, with girls, what it is. But that,” she said, “is exactly why. Why I’ve wanted, I mean, not to miss it.”
“Oh, you don’t need me!” Charlotte smiled. “This is her moment. It’s a fantastic moment. You’ve seen it often enough with girls, you know what it is. But that,” she said, “is precisely why. Why I’ve been so eager not to miss it.”
He bent on her a kind, comprehending face. “You mustn’t miss anything.” He had got it, the pitch, and he could keep it now, for all he had needed was to have it given him. The pitch was the happiness of his wife that was to be—the sight of that happiness as a joy for an old friend. It was, yes, magnificent, and not the less so for its coming to him, suddenly, as sincere, as nobly exalted. Something in Charlotte’s eyes seemed to tell him this, seemed to plead with him in advance as to what he was to find in it. He was eager—and he tried to show her that too—to find what she liked; mindful as he easily could be of what the friendship had been for Maggie. It had been armed with the wings of young imagination, young generosity; it had been, he believed—always counting out her intense devotion to her father—the liveliest emotion she had known before the dawn of the sentiment inspired by himself. She had not, to his knowledge, invited the object of it to their wedding, had not thought of proposing to her, for a matter of a couple of hours, an arduous and expensive journey. But she had kept her connected and informed, from week to week, in spite of preparations and absorptions. “Oh, I’ve been writing to Charlotte—I wish you knew her better:” he could still hear, from recent weeks, this record of the fact, just as he could still be conscious, not otherwise than queerly, of the gratuitous element in Maggie’s wish, which he had failed as yet to indicate to her. Older and perhaps more intelligent, at any rate, why shouldn’t Charlotte respond—and be quite FREE to respond—to such fidelities with something more than mere formal good manners? The relations of women with each other were of the strangest, it was true, and he probably wouldn’t have trusted here a young person of his own race. He was proceeding throughout on the ground of the immense difference—difficult indeed as it might have been to disembroil in this young person HER race-quality. Nothing in her definitely placed her; she was a rare, a special product. Her singleness, her solitude, her want of means, that is her want of ramifications and other advantages, contributed to enrich her somehow with an odd, precious neutrality, to constitute for her, so detached yet so aware, a sort of small social capital. It was the only one she had—it was the only one a lonely, gregarious girl COULD have, since few, surely, had in anything like the same degree arrived at it, and since this one indeed had compassed it but through the play of some gift of nature to which you could scarce give a definite name.
He looked at her with a kind, understanding expression. “You can’t miss anything.” He had figured it out, the feeling, and he could hold onto it now because all he needed was for it to be revealed to him. The feeling was the happiness of his future wife—the joy of seeing that happiness as a delight for an old friend. It was, indeed, magnificent, and it felt even more so because it came to him suddenly, sincere and elevated. Something in Charlotte’s eyes seemed to convey this to him, as if it were pleading with him in advance about what he was going to discover in it. He was eager—and he tried to show her this too—to learn what she liked, easily recalling what their friendship had meant for Maggie. Their friendship had been fueled by youthful imagination and generosity; he believed it had been—after considering her deep devotion to her father—the most vibrant emotion she had experienced before developing feelings for him. To his knowledge, she hadn’t invited the object of her affection to their wedding and hadn’t thought about proposing to her, even for a brief, challenging, and costly trip. But she had kept her connected and updated, week by week, despite all the wedding preparations and distractions. “Oh, I’ve been writing to Charlotte—I wish you knew her better:" he could still hear this statement from recent weeks, just as he could still feel, in a somewhat strange way, the unnecessary aspect of Maggie’s wish, which he hadn’t yet expressed to her. Being older and perhaps more insightful, why shouldn’t Charlotte respond—and be completely FREE to respond—to such loyalty with more than just polite gestures? Women’s relationships with each other were indeed peculiar, and he probably wouldn’t have trusted a young person from his own background in this situation. He proceeded on the basis of the immense difference—difficult as it might have been to identify this young person’s racial traits. Nothing about her definitively categorized her; she was unique, a special individual. Her solitude, isolation, and lack of resources—meaning her absence of connections and other advantages—somehow enriched her with a strange, valuable neutrality, giving her, so detached yet so aware, a sort of small social capital. That was all she had—it was the only thing a lonely, sociable girl COULD have, since surely few had achieved it to anything like the same extent, and this girl had attained it partly through a natural gift that was hard to define.
It wasn’t a question of her strange sense for tongues, with which she juggled as a conjuror at a show juggled with balls or hoops or lighted brands—it wasn’t at least entirely that, for he had known people almost as polyglot whom their accomplishment had quite failed to make interesting. He was polyglot himself, for that matter—as was the case too with so many of his friends and relations; for none of whom, more than for himself, was it anything but a common convenience. The point was that in this young woman it was a beauty in itself, and almost a mystery: so, certainly, he had more than once felt in noting, on her lips, that rarest, among the Barbarians, of all civil graces, a perfect felicity in the use of Italian. He had known strangers—a few, and mostly men—who spoke his own language agreeably; but he had known neither man nor woman who showed for it Charlotte’s almost mystifying instinct. He remembered how, from the first of their acquaintance, she had made no display of it, quite as if English, between them, his English so matching with hers, were their inevitable medium. He had perceived all by accident—by hearing her talk before him to somebody else that they had an alternative as good; an alternative in fact as much better as the amusement for him was greater in watching her for the slips that never came. Her account of the mystery didn’t suffice: her recall of her birth in Florence and Florentine childhood; her parents, from the great country, but themselves already of a corrupt generation, demoralised, falsified, polyglot well before her, with the Tuscan balia who was her first remembrance; the servants of the villa, the dear contadini of the poder, the little girls and the other peasants of the next podere, all the rather shabby but still ever so pretty human furniture of her early time, including the good sisters of the poor convent of the Tuscan hills, the convent shabbier than almost anything else, but prettier too, in which she had been kept at school till the subsequent phase, the phase of the much grander institution in Paris at which Maggie was to arrive, terribly frightened, and as a smaller girl, three years before her own ending of her period of five. Such reminiscences, naturally, gave a ground, but they had not prevented him from insisting that some strictly civil ancestor—generations back, and from the Tuscan hills if she would—made himself felt, ineffaceably, in her blood and in her tone. She knew nothing of the ancestor, but she had taken his theory from him, gracefully enough, as one of the little presents that make friendship flourish. These matters, however, all melted together now, though a sense of them was doubtless concerned, not unnaturally, in the next thing, of the nature of a surmise, that his discretion let him articulate. “You haven’t, I rather gather, particularly liked your country?” They would stick, for the time, to their English.
It wasn't just her unusual talent for languages, with which she played like a magician with balls or hoops or flaming torches—it wasn't entirely that, because he had known people who were almost as multilingual, yet their skills didn't make them interesting at all. He was multilingual himself, and so were many of his friends and family; for none of them, including himself, considered it anything more than a useful skill. The thing was that in this young woman, it was a kind of beauty, almost a mystery. He had definitely noticed, more than once, that she had a rare grace, something special in her use of Italian, which stood out among others. He had met a few strangers—mostly men—who spoke his language pleasantly, but he had never encountered anyone, man or woman, who had Charlotte's almost enchanting instinct for it. He remembered that ever since they met, she never flaunted her skills, as if English—his English matching hers perfectly—was their natural way of communicating. He discovered her ability purely by accident—overhearing her talk to someone else in a way that revealed they had an equally good alternative; in fact, it was much better because he enjoyed watching her for the mistakes that never happened. Her explanation of her background didn’t provide enough: her memories of being born in Florence and growing up there; her parents, originally from the countryside but already part of a corrupt generation, moralized, and multilingual even before she came along; her first memory being the Tuscan nanny; the villa staff, the wonderful farmers from the estate, the little girls, and other peasants from the neighboring farm—all the rather shabby yet still charming people from her early years, including the kind sisters from the poor convent in the Tuscan hills, the convent that was shabbier than most things but still beautiful, where she had attended school until she moved on to a much grander institution in Paris, where Maggie would arrive, utterly terrified, three years before she finished her own five-year term there. Those memories naturally provided some context, but they didn’t stop him from insisting that some long-lost civil ancestor—from generations back and from the Tuscan hills, if she liked—made an indelible mark on her blood and tone. She knew nothing about this ancestor, but she accepted his theory graciously as one of those small gifts that help friendships grow. Now, however, all those things seemed to blend together, though he was aware that they played a role in the next thing he dared to suggest. “I gather you haven’t particularly liked your country?” For the moment, they would stick to English.
“It doesn’t, I fear, seem particularly mine. And it doesn’t in the least matter, over there, whether one likes it or not—that is to anyone but one’s self. But I didn’t like it,” said Charlotte Stant.
“It doesn’t, I’m afraid, feel particularly like mine. And it doesn’t really matter, over there, whether you like it or not—that is to anyone except yourself. But I didn’t like it,” said Charlotte Stant.
“That’s not encouraging then to me, is it?” the Prince went on.
"That doesn't sound encouraging to me, does it?" the Prince continued.
“Do you mean because you’re going?”
“Are you saying that it's because you're leaving?”
“Oh yes, of course we’re going. I’ve wanted immensely to go.” She hesitated. “But now?—immediately?”
“Oh yes, of course we’re going. I’ve really wanted to go.” She hesitated. “But now?—right away?”
“In a month or two—it seems to be the new idea.” On which there was something in her face—as he imagined—that made him say: “Didn’t Maggie write to you?”
“In a month or two—it seems to be the new idea.” The expression on her face suggested something to him, prompting him to ask, “Didn’t Maggie write to you?”
“Not of your going at once. But of course you must go. And of course you must stay”—Charlotte was easily clear—“as long as possible.”
“Not that you should leave right away. But of course you have to go. And of course you have to stay”—Charlotte was very straightforward—“as long as you can.”
“Is that what you did?” he laughed. “You stayed as long as possible?”
“Is that what you did?” he chuckled. “You hung around for as long as you could?”
“Well, it seemed to me so—but I hadn’t ‘interests.’ You’ll have them—on a great scale. It’s the country for interests,” said Charlotte. “If I had only had a few I doubtless wouldn’t have left it.”
“Well, it seemed that way to me—but I didn’t have any ‘interests.’ You’ll have them—on a huge scale. It’s the place for interests,” said Charlotte. “If I had just had a few, I probably wouldn’t have left.”
He waited an instant; they were still on their feet. “Yours then are rather here?”
He waited for a moment; they were still standing. "So yours are here then?"
“Oh, mine!”—the girl smiled. “They take up little room, wherever they are.”
“Oh, mine!”—the girl smiled. “They don’t take up much space, no matter where they are.”
It determined in him, the way this came from her and what it somehow did for her—it determined in him a speech that would have seemed a few minutes before precarious and in questionable taste. The lead she had given him made the difference, and he felt it as really a lift on finding an honest and natural word rise, by its license, to his lips. Nothing surely could be, for both of them, more in the note of a high bravery. “I’ve been thinking it all the while so probable, you know, that you would have seen your way to marrying.”
It made him realize, based on where this came from her and what it somehow did for her—it made him say something that would have seemed a few minutes ago risky and in bad taste. The hint she had given him made all the difference, and he truly felt a boost when he found an honest and natural word coming to his lips. Nothing could be, for both of them, more in the spirit of true courage. “I’ve been thinking all along that it was very likely you would consider marrying.”
She looked at him an instant, and, just for these seconds, he feared for what he might have spoiled. “To marrying whom?”
She glanced at him for a moment, and during those few seconds, he worried about what he might have messed up. “To marrying who?”
“Why, some good, kind, clever, rich American.”
“Why, some nice, generous, smart, wealthy American.”
Again his security hung in the balance—then she was, as he felt, admirable.
Again, his safety was at risk—then she appeared, and he found her admirable.
“I tried everyone I came across. I did my best. I showed I had come, quite publicly, FOR that. Perhaps I showed it too much. At any rate it was no use. I had to recognise it. No one would have me.” Then she seemed to show as sorry for his having to hear of her anything so disconcerting. She pitied his feeling about it; if he was disappointed she would cheer him up. “Existence, you know, all the same, doesn’t depend on that. I mean,” she smiled, “on having caught a husband.”
“I tried everyone I met. I did my best. I made it clear that I was there, very openly, for that. Maybe I made it too obvious. Either way, it didn’t work. I had to accept it. No one wanted me.” Then she seemed to feel sorry for him having to hear something so unsettling about her. She felt for him; if he was let down, she would lift his spirits. “Still, existence doesn’t rely on that, you know. I mean,” she smiled, “on finding a husband.”
“Oh—existence!” the Prince vaguely commented. “You think I ought to argue for more than mere existence?” she asked. “I don’t see why MY existence—even reduced as much as you like to being merely mine—should be so impossible. There are things, of sorts, I should be able to have—things I should be able to be. The position of a single woman to-day is very favourable, you know.”
“Oh—existence!” the Prince said vaguely. “You think I should argue for more than just existing?” she asked. “I don’t see why my existence—even if it’s just mine—should be so impossible. There are things, in a way, I should be able to have—things I should be able to be. The situation for a single woman today is actually quite favorable, you know.”
“Favourable to what?”
“Favorable to what?”
“Why, just TO existence—which may contain, after all, in one way and another, so much. It may contain, at the worst, even affections; affections in fact quite particularly; fixed, that is, on one’s friends. I’m extremely fond of Maggie, for instance—I quite adore her. How could I adore her more if I were married to one of the people you speak of?”
“Why, just to be alive—which can hold, after all, so much in different ways. It might even hold, at the very least, feelings; feelings that are specifically directed at one’s friends. I really like Maggie, for example—I adore her. How could I adore her more if I were married to one of the people you mentioned?”
The Prince gave a laugh. “You might adore HIM more—!”
The Prince chuckled. “You might like HIM more—!”
“Ah, but it isn’t, is it?” she asked, “a question of that.”
“Ah, but it’s not, is it?” she asked, “a matter of that.”
“My dear friend,” he returned, “it’s always a question of doing the best for one’s self one can—without injury to others.” He felt by this time that they were indeed on an excellent basis; so he went on again, as if to show frankly his sense of its firmness. “I venture therefore to repeat my hope that you’ll marry some capital fellow; and also to repeat my belief that such a marriage will be more favourable to you, as you call it, than even the spirit of the age.”
“My dear friend,” he replied, “it’s always about doing what’s best for yourself—without hurting others.” By this point, he felt they were definitely on solid ground, so he continued, wanting to express his confidence in their relationship. “I’ll therefore repeat my hope that you’ll marry a great guy; and I’ll also say again that such a marriage will be better for you, as you put it, than even the trends of the time.”
She looked at him at first only for answer, and would have appeared to take it with meekness had she not perhaps appeared a little more to take it with gaiety. “Thank you very much,” she simply said; but at that moment their friend was with them again. It was undeniable that, as she came in, Mrs. Assingham looked, with a certain smiling sharpness, from one of them to the other; the perception of which was perhaps what led Charlotte, for reassurance, to pass the question on. “The Prince hopes so much I shall still marry some good person.”
She initially looked at him just for an answer, and she might have seemed to accept it with humility if she didn’t also appear a bit more cheerful. “Thank you very much,” she said simply; but at that moment, their friend joined them again. It was clear that as she entered, Mrs. Assingham was looking at them both with a somewhat sharp smile; realizing this might have prompted Charlotte to pass the question along for reassurance. “The Prince really hopes that I will still marry someone good.”
Whether it worked for Mrs. Assingham or not, the Prince was himself, at this, more than ever reassured. He was SAFE, in a word—that was what it all meant; and he had required to be safe. He was really safe enough for almost any joke. “It’s only,” he explained to their hostess, “because of what Miss Stant has been telling me. Don’t we want to keep up her courage?” If the joke was broad he had at least not begun it—not, that is, AS a joke; which was what his companion’s address to their friend made of it. “She has been trying in America, she says, but hasn’t brought it off.”
Whether it worked for Mrs. Assingham or not, the Prince felt more reassured than ever. He was SAFE, in short—that was the bottom line; and he needed to feel safe. He was really safe enough for almost any joke. “It’s just,” he explained to their hostess, “because of what Miss Stant has been telling me. Don’t we want to keep her spirits up?” If the joke was a bit over-the-top, at least he hadn’t started it—not, that is, AS a joke; which was what his companion’s remarks to their friend turned it into. “She has been trying in America, she says, but hasn’t been successful.”
The tone was somehow not what Mrs. Assingham had expected, but she made the best of it. “Well then,” she replied to the young man, “if you take such an interest you must bring it off.”
The tone was somehow different from what Mrs. Assingham had expected, but she adjusted to it. “Well then,” she said to the young man, “if you’re so interested, you have to make it happen.”
“And you must help, dear,” Charlotte said unperturbed—“as you’ve helped, so beautifully, in such things before.” With which, before Mrs. Assingham could meet the appeal, she had addressed herself to the Prince on a matter much nearer to him. “YOUR marriage is on Friday?—on Saturday?”
“And you have to help, dear,” Charlotte said calmly, “just like you’ve helped so beautifully with these things before.” With that, before Mrs. Assingham could respond to the request, she turned to the Prince about something much closer to him. “YOUR wedding is on Friday?—on Saturday?”
“Oh, on Friday, no! For what do you take us? There’s not a vulgar omen we’re neglecting. On Saturday, please, at the Oratory, at three o’clock—before twelve assistants exactly.”
“Oh, not on Friday! What do you think we are? We’re not ignoring any bad signs. On Saturday, please, at the Oratory, at three o’clock—exactly before twelve helpers.”
“Twelve including ME?”
“Twelve including me?”
It struck him—he laughed. “You’ll make the thirteenth. It won’t do!”
It hit him—he laughed. “You’ll be the thirteenth. That won’t work!”
“Not,” said Charlotte, “if you’re going in for ‘omens.’ Should you like me to stay away?”
“Not,” said Charlotte, “if you believe in ‘omens.’ Do you want me to stay away?”
“Dear no—we’ll manage. We’ll make the round number—we’ll have in some old woman. They must keep them there for that, don’t they?”
“Of course not—we’ll handle it. We’ll hit the round number—we’ll bring in some old woman. They have to keep them around for that, right?”
Mrs. Assingham’s return had at last indicated for him his departure; he had possessed himself again of his hat and approached her to take leave. But he had another word for Charlotte. “I dine to-night with Mr. Verver. Have you any message?”
Mrs. Assingham’s return finally signaled his departure; he had picked up his hat and walked over to say goodbye to her. But he had one more thing to say to Charlotte. “I’m having dinner tonight with Mr. Verver. Do you have any message?”
The girl seemed to wonder a little. “For Mr. Verver?”
The girl looked a bit puzzled. “For Mr. Verver?”
“For Maggie—about her seeing you early. That, I know, is what she’ll like.”
“For Maggie—about her seeing you earlier. I know that’s what she’ll appreciate.”
“Then I’ll come early—thanks.”
“Then I'll come early—thanks!”
“I daresay,” he went on, “she’ll send for you. I mean send a carriage.”
“I bet,” he continued, “she’ll send for you. I mean send a car.”
“Oh, I don’t require that, thanks. I can go, for a penny, can’t I?” she asked of Mrs. Assingham, “in an omnibus.”
“Oh, I don’t need that, thanks. I can go for a penny, can’t I?” she asked Mrs. Assingham, “in a bus.”
“Oh, I say!” said the Prince while Mrs. Assingham looked at her blandly.
“Oh, I can’t believe it!” said the Prince while Mrs. Assingham looked at her calmly.
“Yes, love—and I’ll give you the penny. She shall get there,” the good lady added to their friend.
“Yes, love—and I’ll give you the penny. She will get there,” the good lady added to their friend.
But Charlotte, as the latter took leave of her, thought of something else. “There’s a great favour, Prince, that I want to ask of you. I want, between this and Saturday, to make Maggie a marriage-present.”
But Charlotte, as the latter said goodbye to her, thought of something else. “There’s a big favor, Prince, that I want to ask of you. I want, between now and Saturday, to make Maggie a wedding present.”
“Oh, I say!” the young man again soothingly exclaimed.
“Oh, I can't believe it!” the young man said again in a calming voice.
“Ah, but I MUST,” she went on. “It’s really almost for that I came back. It was impossible to get in America what I wanted.”
“Ah, but I HAVE to,” she continued. “That’s really almost why I came back. It was impossible to get what I wanted in America.”
Mrs. Assingham showed anxiety. “What is it then, dear, you want?”
Mrs. Assingham looked worried. “What is it, dear, that you want?”
But the girl looked only at their companion. “That’s what the Prince, if he’ll be so good, must help me to decide.”
But the girl just focused on their friend. “That’s what the Prince, if he’s willing, needs to help me figure out.”
“Can’t I,” Mrs. Assingham asked, “help you to decide?”
“Can’t I,” Mrs. Assingham asked, “help you decide?”
“Certainly, darling, we must talk it well over.” And she kept her eyes on the Prince. “But I want him, if he kindly will, to go with me to look. I want him to judge with me and choose. That, if you can spare the hour,” she said, “is the great favour I mean.”
“Of course, darling, we need to discuss this thoroughly.” She kept her eyes on the Prince. “But I want him, if he’s willing, to come with me to take a look. I want him to help me judge and choose. That, if you can spare the time,” she said, “is the big favor I’m asking for.”
He raised his eyebrows at her—he wonderfully smiled. “What you came back from America to ask? Ah, certainly then, I must find the hour!” He wonderfully smiled, but it was rather more, after all, than he had been reckoning with. It went somehow so little with the rest that, directly, for him, it wasn’t the note of safety; it preserved this character, at the best, but by being the note of publicity. Quickly, quickly, however, the note of publicity struck him as better than any other. In another moment even it seemed positively what he wanted; for what so much as publicity put their relation on the right footing? By this appeal to Mrs. Assingham it was established as right, and she immediately showed that such was her own understanding.
He raised his eyebrows at her and smiled brightly. “What did you come back from America to ask? Ah, of course, I need to find the time!” He smiled again, but it was more than he had expected. It felt a bit off compared to everything else, so for him, it didn’t feel safe; it created a sense of exposure instead. However, the idea of exposure quickly seemed better than any other option. In another moment, it even felt exactly what he needed, because what better than exposure could set their relationship on the right path? By reaching out to Mrs. Assingham, it was established as valid, and she immediately showed that she understood it that way too.
“Certainly, Prince,” she laughed, “you must find the hour!” And it was really so express a license from her, as representing friendly judgment, public opinion, the moral law, the margin allowed a husband about to be, or whatever, that, after observing to Charlotte that, should she come to Portland Place in the morning, he would make a point of being there to see her and so, easily, arrange with her about a time, he took his departure with the absolutely confirmed impression of knowing, as he put it to himself, where he was. Which was what he had prolonged his visit for. He was where he could stay.
“Of course, Prince,” she laughed, “you have to find the time!” And it was really such a clear permission from her, as if she were representing friendly advice, public opinion, the moral law, or the leeway granted to a soon-to-be husband. After telling Charlotte that if she came to Portland Place in the morning, he would make sure to be there to see her and easily work out a time with her, he left with the strong feeling that he knew, as he put it to himself, exactly where he stood. Which was why he had extended his visit. He was in a place where he could remain.
IV
IV
“I don’t quite see, my dear,” Colonel Assingham said to his wife the night of Charlotte’s arrival, “I don’t quite see, I’m bound to say, why you take it, even at the worst, so ferociously hard. It isn’t your fault, after all, is it? I’ll be hanged, at any rate, if it’s mine.”
“I don’t really understand, my dear,” Colonel Assingham said to his wife the night Charlotte arrived, “I don’t really understand, I have to say, why you take it, even at its worst, so incredibly hard. It isn’t your fault, after all, is it? I’ll be damned, in any case, if it’s mine.”
The hour was late, and the young lady who had disembarked at Southampton that morning to come up by the “steamer special,” and who had then settled herself at an hotel only to re-settle herself a couple of hours later at a private house, was by this time, they might hope, peacefully resting from her exploits. There had been two men at dinner, rather battered brothers-in-arms, of his own period, casually picked up by her host the day before, and when the gentlemen, after the meal, rejoined the ladies in the drawing-room, Charlotte, pleading fatigue, had already excused herself. The beguiled warriors, however, had stayed till after eleven—Mrs. Assingham, though finally quite without illusions, as she said, about the military character, was always beguiling to old soldiers; and as the Colonel had come in, before dinner, only in time to dress, he had not till this moment really been summoned to meet his companion over the situation that, as he was now to learn, their visitor’s advent had created for them. It was actually more than midnight, the servants had been sent to bed, the rattle of the wheels had ceased to come in through a window still open to the August air, and Robert Assingham had been steadily learning, all the while, what it thus behoved him to know. But the words just quoted from him presented themselves, for the moment, as the essence of his spirit and his attitude. He disengaged, he would be damned if he didn’t—they were both phrases he repeatedly used—his responsibility. The simplest, the sanest, the most obliging of men, he habitually indulged in extravagant language. His wife had once told him, in relation to his violence of speech; that such excesses, on his part, made her think of a retired General whom she had once seen playing with toy soldiers, fighting and winning battles, carrying on sieges and annihilating enemies with little fortresses of wood and little armies of tin. Her husband’s exaggerated emphasis was his box of toy soldiers, his military game. It harmlessly gratified in him, for his declining years, the military instinct; bad words, when sufficiently numerous and arrayed in their might, could represent battalions, squadrons, tremendous cannonades and glorious charges of cavalry. It was natural, it was delightful—the romance, and for her as well, of camp life and of the perpetual booming of guns. It was fighting to the end, to the death, but no one was ever killed.
It was late, and the young woman who had arrived at Southampton that morning on the “special steamer” and had then settled into a hotel, only to move again a couple of hours later to a private home, was hopefully now resting peacefully from her adventures. There had been two men at dinner, worn-out comrades from his own time, casually picked up by her host the day before. When the gentlemen rejoined the ladies in the drawing room after the meal, Charlotte, claiming fatigue, had already excused herself. However, the captivated soldiers stayed until after eleven—Mrs. Assingham, despite having no illusions left about the military types, was always charming to old soldiers. The Colonel had come in just in time to get dressed before dinner and hadn’t yet faced the situation he was about to learn had arisen because of their visitor’s arrival. It was actually past midnight, the servants had been sent to bed, the sound of the wheels passing by had faded from the window still open to the August air, and Robert Assingham had been steadily figuring out what he needed to know. But the words just quoted from him seemed, for a moment, to capture his spirit and attitude. He disengaged; he would be damned if he didn’t—both phrases he used frequently—his responsibility. The simplest, sanest, most accommodating of men, he often expressed himself in exaggerated language. His wife had once remarked, in relation to his violent speech, that his excesses reminded her of a retired General she once saw playing with toy soldiers, fighting and winning battles, laying siege and wiping out enemies with little wooden fortresses and tiny tin armies. Her husband's exaggerated emphasis was his box of toy soldiers, his military game. It harmlessly satisfied his military instinct in his later years; bad words, if there were enough of them and arranged in their might, could represent battalions, squadrons, massive artillery, and glorious cavalry charges. It was natural, it was delightful—the romance of camp life and the constant booming of guns. It was fighting to the end, to the death, but no one ever got hurt.
Less fortunate than she, nevertheless, in spite of his wealth of expression, he had not yet found the image that described her favourite game; all he could do was practically to leave it to her, emulating her own philosophy. He had again and again sat up late to discuss those situations in which her finer consciousness abounded, but he had never failed to deny that anything in life, anything of hers, could be a situation for himself. She might be in fifty at once if she liked—and it was what women did like, at their ease, after all; there always being, when they had too much of any, some man, as they were well aware, to get them out. He wouldn’t at any price, have one, of any sort whatever, of his own, or even be in one along with her. He watched her, accordingly, in her favourite element, very much as he had sometimes watched, at the Aquarium, the celebrated lady who, in a slight, though tight, bathing-suit, turned somersaults and did tricks in the tank of water which looked so cold and uncomfortable to the non-amphibious. He listened to his companion to-night, while he smoked his last pipe, he watched her through her demonstration, quite as if he had paid a shilling. But it was true that, this being the case, he desired the value of his money. What was it, in the name of wonder, that she was so bent on being responsible FOR? What did she pretend was going to happen, and what, at the worst, could the poor girl do, even granting she wanted to do anything? What, at the worst, for that matter, could she be conceived to have in her head?
Less fortunate than she was, but despite his expressive nature, he still hadn’t found the right words to capture her favorite game; all he could do was mimic her philosophy. He had stayed up late repeatedly to discuss the situations where her deeper awareness shone, but he had always insisted that nothing in life, nothing of hers, could be a situation for him. She could have dozens of them at once if she wanted—and it was what women often liked to do, after all; whenever they had too much of anything, there was always some guy, as they well knew, to pull them out of it. He wouldn’t at any cost have one of his own, of any kind, or even be caught in one with her. He watched her, then, in her favorite setting, much like he had observed, at the Aquarium, the famous woman in a fitted but slightly loose swimsuit, doing flips and tricks in the tank of water that looked so cold and uncomfortable to someone not amphibious. He listened to her tonight while smoking his last pipe, watching her perform the demonstration as if he had paid for a ticket. But it was true that, given this situation, he wanted to get his money’s worth. What on earth was she so determined to be responsible FOR? What was she pretending would happen, and what, at the worst, could the poor girl even do, assuming she wanted to do anything? What, at the worst, could she possibly be thinking?
“If she had told me the moment she got here,” Mrs. Assingham replied, “I shouldn’t have my difficulty in finding out. But she wasn’t so obliging, and I see no sign at all of her becoming so. What’s certain is that she didn’t come for nothing. She wants”—she worked it out at her leisure—“to see the Prince again. THAT isn’t what troubles me. I mean that such a fact, as a fact, isn’t. But what I ask myself is, What does she want it FOR?”
“If she had told me the moment she arrived,” Mrs. Assingham replied, “I wouldn’t have had any trouble figuring it out. But she wasn’t that helpful, and I don’t see any sign that she will be. What’s clear is that she didn’t come just for fun. She wants”—she thought it over—“to see the Prince again. THAT isn’t what bothers me. I mean that the fact itself isn’t. But what I keep asking myself is, What does she want it FOR?”
“What’s the good of asking yourself if you know you don’t know?” The Colonel sat back at his own ease, with an ankle resting on the other knee and his eyes attentive to the good appearance of an extremely slender foot which he kept jerking in its neat integument of fine-spun black silk and patent leather. It seemed to confess, this member, to consciousness of military discipline, everything about it being as polished and perfect, as straight and tight and trim, as a soldier on parade. It went so far as to imply that someone or other would have “got” something or other, confinement to barracks or suppression of pay, if it hadn’t been just as it was. Bob Assingham was distinguished altogether by a leanness of person, a leanness quite distinct from physical laxity, which might have been determined, on the part of superior powers, by views of transport and accommodation, and which in fact verged on the abnormal. He “did” himself as well as his friends mostly knew, yet remained hungrily thin, with facial, with abdominal cavities quite grim in their effect, and with a consequent looseness of apparel that, combined with a choice of queer light shades and of strange straw-like textures, of the aspect of Chinese mats, provocative of wonder at his sources of supply, suggested the habit of tropic islands, a continual cane-bottomed chair, a governorship exercised on wide verandahs. His smooth round head, with the particular shade of its white hair, was like a silver pot reversed; his cheekbones and the bristle of his moustache were worthy of Attila the Hun. The hollows of his eyes were deep and darksome, but the eyes within them, were like little blue flowers plucked that morning. He knew everything that could be known about life, which he regarded as, for far the greater part, a matter of pecuniary arrangement. His wife accused him of a want, alike, of moral and of intellectual reaction, or rather indeed of a complete incapacity for either. He never went even so far as to understand what she meant, and it didn’t at all matter, since he could be in spite of the limitation a perfectly social creature. The infirmities, the predicaments of men neither surprised nor shocked him, and indeed—which was perhaps his only real loss in a thrifty career—scarce even amused; he took them for granted without horror, classifying them after their kind and calculating results and chances. He might, in old bewildering climates, in old campaigns of cruelty and license, have had such revelations and known such amazements that he had nothing more to learn. But he was wholly content, in spite of his fondness, in domestic discussion, for the superlative degree; and his kindness, in the oddest way, seemed to have nothing to do with his experience. He could deal with things perfectly, for all his needs, without getting near them.
“What’s the point of asking yourself if you know you don’t know?” The Colonel leaned back comfortably, one ankle resting on the opposite knee, his gaze fixed on the well-groomed, extremely slender foot he kept bouncing in its sleek black silk and patent leather. It seemed to reveal a sense of military discipline, every aspect of it being polished and perfect, straight and tight like a soldier on parade. It hinted that someone might have faced some kind of punishment—like being confined to barracks or having their pay withheld—if it hadn’t looked just as it did. Bob Assingham stood out for his lean physique, a leanness that was clearly different from physical slackness, which might have been attributed, by those in charge, to considerations of transport and accommodation, and which actually bordered on the abnormal. He presented himself well, as his friends mostly knew, yet remained desperately thin, with gaunt facial features and a hollow stomach, creating a grim appearance, along with a loose-fitting wardrobe that, paired with his choice of odd light colors and strange straw-like textures reminiscent of Chinese mats, evoked thoughts of tropical islands, a constant cane-bottomed chair, and a governorship conducted on wide verandahs. His smooth, round head, with its distinctive white hair, resembled an upturned silver pot; his cheekbones and the stubble of his moustache seemed fit for Attila the Hun. The hollows under his eyes were dark and deep, but the eyes themselves were like little blue flowers picked that morning. He knew everything there was to know about life, which he mainly viewed as a financial arrangement. His wife accused him of lacking both moral and intellectual responsiveness, or rather of being completely incapable of either. He never quite understood what she meant, but it didn’t matter at all, as he managed to be a perfectly sociable person regardless of his limitations. The weaknesses and troubles of others neither shocked nor surprised him, and indeed—which might have been his only real loss in a frugal life—they hardly even amused him; he accepted them without horror, categorizing them by type and calculating outcomes and probabilities. He might have had such revelations and experiences in past bewildering climates and campaigns of cruelty and excess that there was nothing left for him to learn. Still, he remained completely content, despite his fondness for extreme expressions in domestic discussions; his kindness, in a strange way, seemed unrelated to his experiences. He could handle everything he needed perfectly well without ever getting too close to it.
This was the way he dealt with his wife, a large proportion of whose meanings he knew he could neglect. He edited, for their general economy, the play of her mind, just as he edited, savingly, with the stump of a pencil, her redundant telegrams. The thing in the world that was least of a mystery to him was his Club, which he was accepted as perhaps too completely managing, and which he managed on lines of perfect penetration. His connection with it was really a master-piece of editing. This was in fact, to come back, very much the process he might have been proposing to apply to Mrs. Assingham’s view of what was now before them; that is to their connection with Charlotte Stant’s possibilities. They wouldn’t lavish on them all their little fortune of curiosity and alarm; certainly they wouldn’t spend their cherished savings so early in the day. He liked Charlotte, moreover, who was a smooth and compact inmate, and whom he felt as, with her instincts that made against waste, much more of his own sort than his wife. He could talk with her about Fanny almost better than he could talk with Fanny about Charlotte. However, he made at present the best of the latter necessity, even to the pressing of the question he has been noted as having last uttered. “If you can’t think what to be afraid of, wait till you can think. Then you’ll do it much better. Or otherwise, if that’s waiting too long, find out from HER. Don’t try to find out from ME. Ask her herself.”
This was how he dealt with his wife, a large part of whose feelings he knew he could overlook. He adjusted, for the sake of simplicity, the way she thought, just like he trimmed her excessive messages with the stub of a pencil. The thing in the world that was least of a mystery to him was his Club, which he perhaps managed a bit too completely, and he handled it with keen insight. His connection to it was really a masterclass in editing. This was, in fact, much like the approach he might have proposed for Mrs. Assingham’s perspective on what lay ahead of them; that is, their connection with Charlotte Stant’s potential. They wouldn’t spend all their precious curiosity and anxiety on it; certainly, they wouldn’t invest their treasured resources so soon. He liked Charlotte, who was a polished and straightforward person, and he felt she was much more like him, with her instincts that avoided waste, than his wife was. He could discuss Fanny with Charlotte almost better than he could discuss Charlotte with Fanny. Still, he made the best of the current situation, even to the point of pressing the question he had just been noted as asking. “If you can’t think of what to be afraid of, wait until you can think. Then you’ll handle it much better. Or, if that takes too long, ask HER. Don’t try to figure it out from ME. Ask her directly.”
Mrs. Assingham denied, as we know, that her husband had a play of mind; so that she could, on her side, treat these remarks only as if they had been senseless physical gestures or nervous facial movements. She overlooked them as from habit and kindness; yet there was no one to whom she talked so persistently of such intimate things. “It’s her friendship with Maggie that’s the immense complication. Because THAT,” she audibly mused, “is so natural.”
Mrs. Assingham denied, as we know, that her husband had a play of mind; so she could, on her side, treat these remarks only as if they had been senseless physical gestures or nervous facial movements. She overlooked them out of habit and kindness; yet there was no one to whom she talked so persistently about such intimate things. “It’s her friendship with Maggie that’s the huge complication. Because THAT,” she audibly mused, “is so natural.”
“Then why can’t she have come out for it?”
“Then why couldn't she have come out for it?”
“She came out,” Mrs. Assingham continued to meditate, “because she hates America. There was no place for her there—she didn’t fit in. She wasn’t in sympathy—no more were the people she saw. Then it’s hideously dear; she can’t, on her means, begin to live there. Not at all as she can, in a way, here.”
“She came out,” Mrs. Assingham continued to think, “because she hates America. There was no place for her there—she didn’t fit in. She wasn’t in sync—neither were the people she encountered. Plus, it’s ridiculously expensive; she can’t, with her budget, even start to live there. Not at all like she can, in a way, here.”
“In the way, you mean, of living with US?”
“In the way you mean, living with us?”
“Of living with anyone. She can’t live by visits alone—and she doesn’t want to. She’s too good for it even if she could. But she will—she MUST, sooner or later—stay with THEM. Maggie will want her—Maggie will make her. Besides, she’ll want to herself.”
“Of living with anyone. She can’t survive on visits alone—and she doesn’t want to. She’s too good for that even if she could. But she will—she MUST, sooner or later—stay with THEM. Maggie will want her—Maggie will insist. Besides, she’ll want it herself.”
“Then why won’t that do,” the Colonel asked, “for you to think it’s what she has come for?”
“Then why won’t that work,” the Colonel asked, “for you to believe it’s what she’s here for?”
“How will it do, HOW?”—she went on as without hearing him.
“How will it work, HOW?”—she continued as if she didn't hear him.
“That’s what one keeps feeling.”
"That's what you keep feeling."
“Why shouldn’t it do beautifully?”
“Why shouldn’t it do well?”
“That anything of the past,” she brooded, “should come back NOW? How will it do, how will it do?”
"That anything from the past," she pondered, "could come back NOW? How will it happen, how will it happen?"
“It will do, I daresay, without your wringing your hands over it. When, my dear,” the Colonel pursued as he smoked, “have you ever seen anything of yours—anything that you’ve done—NOT do?”
“It'll be fine, I think, without you stressing over it. When, my dear,” the Colonel went on as he smoked, “have you ever seen anything of yours—anything that you've done—NOT happen?”
“Ah, I didn’t do this!” It brought her answer straight. “I didn’t bring her back.”
“Ah, I didn’t do this!” Her response was direct. “I didn’t bring her back.”
“Did you expect her to stay over there all her days to oblige you?”
“Did you really think she would stay there for the rest of her life just to please you?”
“Not a bit—for I shouldn’t have minded her coming after their marriage. It’s her coming, this way, before.” To which she added with inconsequence: “I’m too sorry for her—of course she can’t enjoy it. But I don’t see what perversity rides her. She needn’t have looked it all so in the face—as she doesn’t do it, I suppose, simply for discipline. It’s almost—that’s the bore of it—discipline to ME.”
“Not at all—I wouldn’t have cared if she came after their marriage. It’s her coming like this, beforehand, that bothers me.” She added, almost thoughtlessly: “I feel too sorry for her—she obviously can’t be enjoying it. But I don’t understand what’s going on with her. She didn’t have to face it all so boldly—unless she’s doing it just for the sake of discipline. It’s almost—well, that’s the annoying part—discipline for ME.”
“Perhaps then,” said Bob Assingham, “that’s what has been her idea. Take it, for God’s sake, as discipline to you and have done with it. It will do,” he added, “for discipline to me as well.”
“Maybe that’s what she has in mind,” Bob Assingham said. “Take it, for God's sake, as a lesson and just move on. It’ll work,” he added, “as a lesson for me too.”
She was far, however, from having done with it; it was a situation with such different sides, as she said, and to none of which one could, in justice, be blind. “It isn’t in the least, you know, for instance, that I believe she’s bad. Never, never,” Mrs. Assingham declared. “I don’t think that of her.”
She was nowhere near finished with it; it was a situation with so many different aspects, as she put it, and none of which one could, honestly, ignore. “It’s not at all, you know, for example, that I think she’s bad. Never, ever,” Mrs. Assingham insisted. “I don’t believe that about her.”
“Then why isn’t that enough?”
“Then why isn't that enough?”
Nothing was enough, Mrs. Assingham signified, but that she should develop her thought. “She doesn’t deliberately intend, she doesn’t consciously wish, the least complication. It’s perfectly true that she thinks Maggie a dear—as who doesn’t? She’s incapable of any PLAN to hurt a hair of her head. Yet here she is—and there THEY are,” she wound up.
Nothing was ever enough, Mrs. Assingham pointed out, except for her to elaborate on her thoughts. “She doesn’t intentionally mean to complicate things, she doesn’t even want to cause any trouble. It’s absolutely true that she thinks Maggie is wonderful—as anyone would. She would never intentionally do anything to hurt her. Yet here she is—and there THEY are,” she concluded.
Her husband again, for a little, smoked in silence. “What in the world, between them, ever took place?”
Her husband, once again, smoked in silence for a bit. “What in the world ever happened between them?”
“Between Charlotte and the Prince? Why, nothing—except their having to recognise that nothing COULD. That was their little romance—it was even their little tragedy.”
“Between Charlotte and the Prince? Nothing—except for the fact that they had to face the reality that nothing COULD. That was their little romance—it was even their little tragedy.”
“But what the deuce did they DO?”
“But what on earth did they DO?”
“Do? They fell in love with each other—but, seeing it wasn’t possible, gave each other up.”
“Do? They fell in love with each other—but realizing it wasn’t possible, they let each other go.”
“Then where was the romance?”
“Then where's the romance?”
“Why, in their frustration, in their having the courage to look the facts in the face.”
“Why, in their frustration, in their courage to face the facts.”
“What facts?” the Colonel went on.
"What facts?" the Colonel asked.
“Well, to begin with, that of their neither of them having the means to marry. If she had had even a little—a little, I mean, for two—I believe he would bravely have done it.” After which, as her husband but emitted an odd vague sound, she corrected herself. “I mean if he himself had had only a little—or a little more than a little, a little for a prince. They would have done what they could”—she did them justice”—if there had been a way. But there wasn’t a way, and Charlotte, quite to her honour, I consider, understood it. He HAD to have money—it was a question of life and death. It wouldn’t have been a bit amusing, either, to marry him as a pauper—I mean leaving him one. That was what she had—as HE had—the reason to see.”
“Well, to start, neither of them had the means to get married. If she had even a little—just a little, enough for two—I think he would have gone for it.” After her husband made an odd sound, she adjusted her statement. “I mean if he himself had just a little—or maybe a bit more than a little, a little for a prince. They would have done what they could”—she gave them credit—“if there had been a way. But there wasn’t a way, and to her credit, I believe Charlotte understood that. He HAD to have money—it was a matter of life and death. It wouldn’t have been funny at all to marry him while he was broke—I mean, leaving him broke. That’s what she had—as HE had—the reason to see.”
“And their reason is what you call their romance?”
“And is that what you refer to as their romance?”
She looked at him a moment. “What do you want more?”
She stared at him for a moment. “What do you want more?”
“Didn’t HE,” the Colonel inquired, “want anything more? Or didn’t, for that matter, poor Charlotte herself?”
“Didn’t he,” the Colonel asked, “want anything more? Or didn’t, for that matter, poor Charlotte herself?”
She kept her eyes on him; there was a manner in it that half answered. “They were thoroughly in love. She might have been his—” She checked herself; she even for a minute lost herself. “She might have been anything she liked—except his wife.”
She kept her eyes on him; there was something about it that almost answered. “They were completely in love. She could have been his—” She paused, even losing herself for a moment. “She could have been anything she wanted—except his wife.”
“But she wasn’t,” said the Colonel very smokingly.
“But she wasn’t,” said the Colonel, smoking heavily.
“She wasn’t,” Mrs. Assingham echoed.
“She wasn’t,” Mrs. Assingham repeated.
The echo, not loud but deep, filled for a little the room. He seemed to listen to it die away; then he began again. “How are you sure?”
The echo, not loud but deep, filled the room for a brief moment. He seemed to listen to it fade away; then he started again. “How can you be sure?”
She waited before saying, but when she spoke it was definite. “There wasn’t time.”
She paused before speaking, but when she finally did, it was clear. “There wasn’t time.”
He had a small laugh for her reason; he might have expected some other. “Does it take so much time?”
He chuckled a bit at her reasoning; he might have anticipated something different. “Does it really take that long?”
She herself, however, remained serious. “It takes more than they had.”
She, on the other hand, stayed serious. “It takes more than what they had.”
He was detached, but he wondered. “What was the matter with their time?” After which, as, remembering it all, living it over and piecing it together, she only considered, “You mean that you came in with your idea?” he demanded.
He was distant, but he was curious. “What was wrong with their time?” Then, as she recalled everything, reliving it and putting it all together, she only thought, “You mean you came in with your idea?” he asked.
It brought her quickly to the point, and as if also in a measure to answer herself. “Not a bit of it—THEN. But you surely recall,” she went on, “the way, a year ago, everything took place. They had parted before he had ever heard of Maggie.”
It got straight to the point for her, almost as if she was trying to answer her own question. “Not at all—BACK THEN. But you definitely remember,” she continued, “how everything unfolded a year ago. They had broken up before he even knew about Maggie.”
“Why hadn’t he heard of her from Charlotte herself?”
“Why hadn’t he heard about her from Charlotte herself?”
“Because she had never spoken of her.”
“Because she had never talked about her.”
“Is that also,” the Colonel inquired, “what she has told you?”
“Is that also,” the Colonel asked, “what she told you?”
“I’m not speaking,” his wife returned, “of what she has told me. That’s one thing. I’m speaking of what I know by myself. That’s another.”
“I’m not talking,” his wife replied, “about what she told me. That’s one thing. I’m talking about what I know for myself. That’s something else.”
“You feel, in other words, that she lies to you?” Bob Assingham more sociably asked.
“You think, in other words, that she’s lying to you?” Bob Assingham asked more casually.
She neglected the question, treating it as gross. “She never so much, at the time, as named Maggie.”
She ignored the question, thinking it was ridiculous. “She didn’t even mention Maggie at all.”
It was so positive that it appeared to strike him. “It’s he then who has told you?”
It was so surprising that it seemed to hit him. “So it's him who has told you?”
She after a moment admitted it. “It’s he.”
She admitted it after a moment. “It’s him.”
“And he doesn’t lie?”
"And he doesn't tell lies?"
“No—to do him justice. I believe he absolutely doesn’t. If I hadn’t believed it,” Mrs. Assingham declared, for her general justification, “I would have had nothing to do with him—that is in this connection. He’s a gentleman—I mean ALL as much of one as he ought to be. And he had nothing to gain. That helps,” she added, “even a gentleman. It was I who named Maggie to him—a year from last May. He had never heard of her before.”
“No—to be fair to him. I truly believe he doesn’t. If I hadn’t believed it,” Mrs. Assingham stated, to justify herself, “I wouldn’t have gotten involved with him—at least not in this situation. He’s a gentleman—I mean as much of a gentleman as he should be. And he had nothing to gain from it. That makes a difference,” she added, “even for a gentleman. I was the one who mentioned Maggie to him—a year ago last May. He had never heard of her before.”
“Then it’s grave,” said the Colonel.
"Then it's serious," said the Colonel.
She hesitated. “Do you mean grave for me?”
She paused. “Are you saying it's serious for me?”
“Oh, that everything’s grave for ‘you’ is what we take for granted and are fundamentally talking about. It’s grave—it WAS—for Charlotte. And it’s grave for Maggie. That is it WAS—when he did see her. Or when she did see HIM.”
“Oh, we assume that everything is serious for ‘you,’ and that’s really what we’re discussing. It’s serious—it WAS—for Charlotte. And it’s serious for Maggie. That is, it WAS—when he saw her. Or when she saw HIM.”
“You don’t torment me as much as you would like,” she presently went on, “because you think of nothing that I haven’t a thousand times thought of, and because I think of everything that you never will. It would all,” she recognised, “have been grave if it hadn’t all been right. You can’t make out,” she contended, “that we got to Rome before the end of February.”
“You don’t torment me as much as you want to,” she continued, “because you think of nothing I haven’t thought about a thousand times, and because I think of everything you never will. It would all,” she admitted, “have been serious if it hadn’t all been right. You can’t deny,” she argued, “that we got to Rome before the end of February.”
He more than agreed. “There’s nothing in life, my dear, that I CAN make out.”
He completely agreed. “There’s nothing in life, my dear, that I can figure out.”
Well, there was nothing in life, apparently, that she, at real need, couldn’t. “Charlotte, who had been there, that year, from early, quite from November, left suddenly, you’ll quite remember, about the 10th of April. She was to have stayed on—she was to have stayed, naturally, more or less, for us; and she was to have stayed all the more that the Ververs, due all winter, but delayed, week after week, in Paris, were at last really coming. They were coming—that is Maggie was—largely to see her, and above all to be with her THERE. It was all altered—by Charlotte’s going to Florence. She went from one day to the other—you forget everything. She gave her reasons, but I thought it odd, at the time; I had a sense that something must have happened. The difficulty was that, though I knew a little, I didn’t know enough. I didn’t know her relation with him had been, as you say, a ‘near’ thing—that is I didn’t know HOW near. The poor girl’s departure was a flight—she went to save herself.”
Well, it seemed there was nothing in life that she couldn’t handle when it really mattered. “Charlotte, who had been there since early November, suddenly left around April 10th, as you probably remember. She was supposed to stay longer—especially for us—and even more so since the Ververs, who had been delayed in Paris all winter, were finally arriving. They were coming—mainly Maggie—just to see her and, most importantly, to be with her THERE. But everything changed with Charlotte’s move to Florence. She made the decision overnight—you just forget everything. She gave her reasons, but I thought it was strange at the time; I had a feeling something must have happened. The problem was, even though I knew a bit, I didn’t know enough. I didn’t realize her relationship with him had been, as you put it, a ‘close’ one—that is, I didn’t know HOW close. The poor girl’s departure was an escape—she left to save herself.”
He had listened more than he showed—as came out in his tone. “To save herself?”
He had listened more than he let on—as revealed in his tone. “To save herself?”
“Well, also, really, I think, to save HIM too. I saw it afterwards—I see it all now. He would have been sorry—he didn’t want to hurt her.”
“Well, honestly, I think it was to save HIM too. I realized it later—I see it all now. He would have felt bad—he didn’t want to hurt her.”
“Oh, I daresay,” the Colonel laughed. “They generally don’t!”
“Oh, I bet,” the Colonel laughed. “They usually don’t!”
“At all events,” his wife pursued, “she escaped—they both did; for they had had simply to face it. Their marriage couldn’t be, and, if that was so, the sooner they put the Apennines between them the better. It had taken them, it is true, some time to feel this and to find it out. They had met constantly, and not always publicly, all that winter; they had met more than was known—though it was a good deal known. More, certainly,” she said, “than I then imagined—though I don’t know what difference it would after all have made with me. I liked him, I thought him charming, from the first of our knowing him; and now, after more than a year, he has done nothing to spoil it. And there are things he might have done—things that many men easily would. Therefore I believe in him, and I was right, at first, in knowing I was going to. So I haven’t”—and she stated it as she might have quoted from a slate, after adding up the items, the sum of a column of figures—“so I haven’t, I say to myself, been a fool.”
“At any rate,” his wife continued, “they got away—they both did; because they just had to face it. Their marriage couldn’t happen, and if that was the case, the sooner they put distance between them, the better. It did take them some time to realize this, it’s true. They had been seeing each other regularly, and not always in public, all winter; they had met more often than anyone knew—though a fair bit was known. More, definitely,” she said, “than I realized back then—though I’m not sure it would have made a difference to me anyway. I liked him; I found him charming from the very first time we met; and now, after more than a year, he hasn’t done anything to change that. There are things he could have done—things many men easily would. So I believe in him, and I was right from the start in knowing I would. So I haven’t”—and she stated it as if she were quoting from a slate, after adding up the items, the total of a column of figures—“so I haven’t, I tell myself, been a fool.”
“Well, are you trying to make out that I’ve said you have? All their case wants, at any rate,” Bob Assingham declared, “is that you should leave it well alone. It’s theirs now; they’ve bought it, over the counter, and paid for it. It has ceased to be yours.”
“Well, are you suggesting that I said you have? All their case needs, anyway,” Bob Assingham stated, “is for you to just leave it alone. It's theirs now; they've purchased it, over the counter, and paid for it. It no longer belongs to you.”
“Of which case,” she asked, “are you speaking?”
"Which case are you talking about?" she asked.
He smoked a minute: then with a groan: “Lord, are there so many?”
He smoked for a minute, then groaned, “Wow, are there really that many?”
“There’s Maggie’s and the Prince’s, and there’s the Prince’s and Charlotte’s.”
“There's Maggie's and the Prince's, and then there's the Prince's and Charlotte's.”
“Oh yes; and then,” the Colonel scoffed, “there’s Charlotte’s and the Prince’s.”
“Oh yes; and then,” the Colonel scoffed, “there’s Charlotte’s and the Prince’s.”
“There’s Maggie’s and Charlotte’s,” she went on—“and there’s also Maggie’s and mine. I think too that there’s Charlotte’s and mine. Yes,” she mused, “Charlotte’s and mine is certainly a case. In short, you see, there are plenty. But I mean,” she said, “to keep my head.”
“There’s Maggie’s and Charlotte’s,” she continued—“and there’s also Maggie’s and mine. I think, too, that there’s Charlotte’s and mine. Yes,” she reflected, “Charlotte’s and mine is definitely a situation. In short, you see, there are plenty. But I mean,” she said, “to keep my head.”
“Are we to settle them all,” he inquired, “to-night?”
“Are we going to settle all of them tonight?” he asked.
“I should lose it if things had happened otherwise—if I had acted with any folly.” She had gone on in her earnestness, unheeding of his question. “I shouldn’t be able to bear that now. But my good conscience is my strength; no one can accuse me. The Ververs came on to Rome alone—Charlotte, after their days with her in Florence, had decided about America. Maggie, I daresay, had helped her; she must have made her a present, and a handsome one, so that many things were easy. Charlotte left them, came to England, ‘joined’ somebody or other, sailed for New York. I have still her letter from Milan, telling me; I didn’t know at the moment all that was behind it, but I felt in it nevertheless the undertaking of a new life. Certainly, in any case, it cleared THAT air—I mean the dear old Roman, in which we were steeped. It left the field free—it gave me a free hand. There was no question for me of anybody else when I brought the two others together. More than that, there was no question for them. So you see,” she concluded, “where that puts me.” She got up, on the words, very much as if they were the blue daylight towards which, through a darksome tunnel, she had been pushing her way, and the elation in her voice, combined with her recovered alertness, might have signified the sharp whistle of the train that shoots at last into the open. She turned about the room; she looked out a moment into the August night; she stopped, here and there, before the flowers in bowls and vases. Yes, it was distinctly as if she had proved what was needing proof, as if the issue of her operation had been, almost unexpectedly, a success. Old arithmetic had perhaps been fallacious, but the new settled the question. Her husband, oddly, however, kept his place without apparently measuring these results. As he had been amused at her intensity, so he was not uplifted by her relief; his interest might in fact have been more enlisted than he allowed. “Do you mean,” he presently asked, “that he had already forgot about Charlotte?”
“I would have lost it if things had gone differently—if I had acted foolishly.” She continued with her seriousness, ignoring his question. “I couldn’t handle that now. But my clear conscience is my strength; no one can accuse me. The Ververs came to Rome alone—Charlotte, after their time with her in Florence, decided about America. I imagine Maggie helped her; she must have given her a gift, a generous one, making many things easier. Charlotte left them, went to England, ‘joined’ someone or other, and sailed for New York. I still have her letter from Milan telling me about it; at that moment, I didn’t know everything behind it, but I sensed it marked the start of a new life. Surely, it cleared the air— I mean the dear old Roman environment we were immersed in. It left the field open—it gave me a free hand. There was no question for me about anyone else when I brought the two of them together. More than that, there was no question for them either. So you see,” she concluded, “where that leaves me.” She stood up as if her words were the blue daylight she had been pushing through a dark tunnel to reach, and the excitement in her voice, combined with her regained alertness, could have signified the sharp whistle of the train finally bursting into the open. She moved around the room, glanced out momentarily at the August night, and paused in front of the flowers in bowls and vases. Yes, it definitely felt like she had confirmed what needed confirming, as if the outcome of her effort had been, almost unexpectedly, a success. Old calculations may have been off, but the new ones settled the matter. Strangely, her husband remained seated, seemingly unaffected by these results. Just as he had been entertained by her intensity, he wasn’t uplifted by her relief; his interest might have been more engaged than he let on. “Do you mean,” he eventually asked, “that he had already forgotten about Charlotte?”
She faced round as if he had touched a spring. “He WANTED to, naturally—and it was much the best thing he could do.” She was in possession of the main case, as it truly seemed; she had it all now. “He was capable of the effort, and he took the best way. Remember too what Maggie then seemed to us.”
She turned around as if he had pressed a button. “He WANTED to, of course—and that was the best thing he could do.” She felt like she had the main point, as it really appeared; she had it all figured out now. “He was able to put in the effort, and he chose the best approach. Also, remember what Maggie seemed like to us back then.”
“She’s very nice; but she always seems to me, more than anything else, the young woman who has a million a year. If you mean that that’s what she especially seemed to him, you of course place the thing in your light. The effort to forget Charlotte couldn’t, I grant you, have been so difficult.”
"She’s really nice, but she always comes across to me as the young woman with a million a year. If you think that's how she especially appears to him, then you’re definitely viewing it from your perspective. I admit, the struggle to forget Charlotte couldn’t have been that hard."
This pulled her up but for an instant. “I never said he didn’t from the first—I never said that he doesn’t more and more—like Maggie’s money.”
This lifted her up but only for a moment. “I never said he didn’t from the beginning—I never said that he doesn’t more and more—like Maggie’s money.”
“I never said I shouldn’t have liked it myself,” Bob Assingham returned. He made no movement; he smoked another minute. “How much did Maggie know?”
“I never said I shouldn’t have liked it myself,” Bob Assingham replied. He didn't move; he smoked for another minute. “How much did Maggie know?”
“How much?” She seemed to consider—as if it were between quarts and gallons—how best to express the quantity. “She knew what Charlotte, in Florence, had told her.”
“How much?” She appeared to think about it—as if it were between quarts and gallons—how to best say the amount. “She knew what Charlotte, in Florence, had told her.”
“And what had Charlotte told her?”
"And what did Charlotte tell her?"
“Very little.”
“Not much.”
“What makes you so sure?”
"What makes you so certain?"
“Why, this—that she couldn’t tell her.” And she explained a little what she meant. “There are things, my dear—haven’t you felt it yourself, coarse as you are?—that no one could tell Maggie. There are things that, upon my word, I shouldn’t care to attempt to tell her now.”
“Why, this—that she couldn’t share with her.” And she clarified a bit of what she meant. “There are things, my dear—haven’t you felt it yourself, as rough around the edges as you are?—that no one could tell Maggie. There are things that, honestly, I wouldn’t want to try to tell her now.”
The Colonel smoked on it. “She’d be so scandalised?”
The Colonel took a drag from it. “She’d be so scandalized?”
“She’d be so frightened. She’d be, in her strange little way, so hurt. She wasn’t born to know evil. She must never know it.” Bob Assingham had a queer grim laugh; the sound of which, in fact, fixed his wife before him. “We’re taking grand ways to prevent it.”
“She’d be so scared. She’d be, in her odd little way, so hurt. She wasn’t meant to know evil. She must never know it.” Bob Assingham had a strange, grim laugh; the sound of which, in fact, made his wife freeze in front of him. “We’re going to great lengths to keep that from happening.”
But she stood there to protest. “We’re not taking any ways. The ways are all taken; they were taken from the moment he came up to our carriage that day in Villa Borghese—the second or third of her days in Rome, when, as you remember, you went off somewhere with Mr. Verver, and the Prince, who had got into the carriage with us, came home with us to tea. They had met; they had seen each other well; they were in relation: the rest was to come of itself and as it could. It began, practically, I recollect, in our drive. Maggie happened to learn, by some other man’s greeting of him, in the bright Roman way, from a streetcorner as we passed, that one of the Prince’s baptismal names, the one always used for him among his relations, was Amerigo: which (as you probably don’t know, however, even after a lifetime of ME), was the name, four hundred years ago, or whenever, of the pushing man who followed, across the sea, in the wake of Columbus and succeeded, where Columbus had failed, in becoming godfather, or name-father, to the new Continent; so that the thought of any connection with him can even now thrill our artless breasts.”
But she stood there to protest. “We’re not taking any paths. The paths are all taken; they were taken from the moment he approached our carriage that day in Villa Borghese—the second or third of her days in Rome, when, as you remember, you went off somewhere with Mr. Verver, and the Prince, who had joined us in the carriage, came home with us for tea. They had met; they had seen each other well; they were already connected: the rest would unfold on its own. It actually started, I remember, during our drive. Maggie happened to discover, through another man’s greeting of him, in the bright Roman way, from a street corner as we passed, that one of the Prince’s baptismal names, the one always used for him among his family, was Amerigo: which (as you probably don’t know, even after a lifetime of ME), was the name, four hundred years ago, or whenever, of the driven man who followed across the sea in Columbus's wake and succeeded, where Columbus had failed, in becoming godfather, or name-father, to the new Continent; so even now the thought of any connection with him can thrill our innocent hearts.”
The Colonel’s grim placidity could always quite adequately meet his wife’s not infrequent imputation of ignorances, on the score of the land of her birth, unperturbed and unashamed; and these dark depths were even at the present moment not directly lighted by an inquiry that managed to be curious without being apologetic. “But where does the connection come in?”
The Colonel’s serious calm could always handle his wife’s frequent accusations of ignorance about her homeland, remaining unfazed and unapologetic; and these dark depths were even now not directly illuminated by a question that was curious without being apologetic. “But where does the connection come in?”
His wife was prompt. “By the women—that is by some obliging woman, of old, who was a descendant of the pushing man, the make-believe discoverer, and whom the Prince is therefore luckily able to refer to as an ancestress. A branch of the other family had become great—great enough, at least, to marry into his; and the name of the navigator, crowned with glory, was, very naturally, to become so the fashion among them that some son, of every generation, was appointed to wear it. My point is, at any rate, that I recall noticing at the time how the Prince was, from the start, helped with the dear Ververs by his wearing it. The connection became romantic for Maggie the moment she took it in; she filled out, in a flash, every link that might be vague. ‘By that sign,’ I quite said to myself, ‘he’ll conquer’—with his good fortune, of course, of having the other necessary signs too. It really,” said Mrs. Assingham, “was, practically, the fine side of the wedge. Which struck me as also,” she wound up, “a lovely note for the candour of the Ververs.”
His wife was quick to respond. “By the women—that is, by some helpful woman from long ago, who was a descendant of the ambitious man, the pretend discoverer, and whom the Prince can luckily refer to as an ancestor. A branch of the other family had risen to prominence—enough, at least, to marry into his; and the name of the navigator, celebrated and honored, naturally became fashionable among them, so that some son of each generation was designated to carry it. My point is, I remember noticing at the time how the Prince was, from the beginning, assisted with the dear Ververs by using it. The connection became romantic for Maggie the moment she understood it; she instantly filled in every link that may have been unclear. ‘By that sign,’ I thought to myself, ‘he’ll succeed’—with his good fortune, of course, of having all the other essential signs too. It really,” said Mrs. Assingham, “was, essentially, the advantageous side of the wedge. Which also struck me,” she concluded, “as a lovely acknowledgment of the openness of the Ververs.”
The Colonel took in the tale, but his comment was prosaic. “He knew, Amerigo, what he was about. And I don’t mean the OLD one.”
The Colonel listened to the story, but his response was straightforward. “He knew, Amerigo, what he was doing. And I’m not talking about the OLD one.”
“I know what you mean!” his wife bravely threw off.
“I know what you mean!” his wife said boldly.
“The old one”—he pointed his effect “isn’t the only discoverer in the family.”
“The old one”—he pointed with emphasis—“isn’t the only one in the family who discovers things.”
“Oh, as much as you like! If he discovered America—or got himself honoured as if he had—his successors were, in due time, to discover the Americans. And it was one of them in particular, doubtless, who was to discover how patriotic we are.”
“Oh, as much as you want! If he found America—or was celebrated as if he had—his descendants would eventually discover the Americans. And it was probably one of them who was going to find out just how patriotic we are.”
“Wouldn’t this be the same one,” the Colonel asked, “who really discovered what you call the connection?”
“Isn’t this the same person,” the Colonel asked, “who actually figured out what you call the connection?”
She gave him a look. “The connection’s a true thing—the connection’s perfectly historic, Your insinuations recoil upon your cynical mind. Don’t you understand,” she asked, “that the history of such people is known, root and branch, at every moment of its course?”
She shot him a look. “The connection is real—the connection is totally historic. Your insinuations just reflect your cynical mindset. Don’t you get it,” she asked, “that the history of these people is known, inside and out, at every moment of its course?”
“Oh, it’s all right,” said Bob Assingham.
“Oh, it’s all good,” said Bob Assingham.
“Go to the British Museum,” his companion continued with spirit.
“Go to the British Museum,” his friend said excitedly.
“And what am I to do there?”
“And what am I supposed to do there?”
“There’s a whole immense room, or recess, or department, or whatever, filled with books written about his family alone. You can see for yourself.”
“There’s a huge room, or section, or area, or whatever, filled with books written about his family alone. You can check it out yourself.”
“Have you seen for YOUR self?”
"Have you seen it yourself?"
She faltered but an instant. “Certainly—I went one day with Maggie. We looked him up, so to say. They were most civil.” And she fell again into the current her husband had slightly ruffled. “The effect was produced, the charm began to work, at all events, in Rome, from that hour of the Prince’s drive with us. My only course, afterwards, had to be to make the best of it. It was certainly good enough for that,” Mrs. Assingham hastened to add, “and I didn’t in the least see my duty in making the worst. In the same situation, to-day; I wouldn’t act differently. I entered into the case as it then appeared to me—and as, for the matter of that, it still does. I LIKED it, I thought all sorts of good of it, and nothing can even now,” she said with some intensity, “make me think anything else.”
She hesitated for just a moment. “Of course—I went one day with Maggie. We went to find him, so to speak. They were really polite.” Then she got back into the flow that her husband had briefly interrupted. “The effect was created, the charm started to work, at least in Rome, from that moment of the Prince’s drive with us. My only option afterwards was to make the best of it. It was certainly good enough for that,” Mrs. Assingham quickly added, “and I didn’t see any reason to make it worse. If I were in the same situation today, I wouldn’t act any differently. I approached the situation as it seemed to me then—and honestly, it still does. I LIKED it, I thought all sorts of good things about it, and nothing can ever make me think otherwise,” she said with some emphasis.
“Nothing can ever make you think anything you don’t want to,” the Colonel, still in his chair, remarked over his pipe. “You’ve got a precious power of thinking whatever you do want. You want also, from moment to moment, to think such desperately different things. What happened,” he went on, “was that you fell violently in love with the Prince yourself, and that as you couldn’t get me out of the way you had to take some roundabout course. You couldn’t marry him, any more than Charlotte could—that is not to yourself. But you could to somebody else—it was always the Prince, it was always marriage. You could to your little friend, to whom there were no objections.”
“Nothing can ever make you think something you don’t want to,” the Colonel, still in his chair, said over his pipe. “You have an incredible ability to think whatever you do want. You also want, from moment to moment, to think such wildly different things. What happened,” he continued, “was that you fell hard for the Prince yourself, and since you couldn’t get me out of the way, you had to find some other way around it. You couldn’t marry him, any more than Charlotte could—that is, not to yourself. But you could marry him to someone else—it was always the Prince, it was always about marriage. You could with your little friend, who had no objections.”
“Not only there were no objections, but there were reasons, positive ones—and all excellent, all charming.” She spoke with an absence of all repudiation of his exposure of the spring of her conduct; and this abstention, clearly and effectively conscious, evidently cost her nothing. “It IS always the Prince; and it IS always, thank heaven, marriage. And these are the things, God grant, that it will always be. That I could help, a year ago, most assuredly made me happy, and it continues to make me happy.”
“Not only were there no objections, but there were positive reasons—great ones, all lovely.” She spoke without rejecting his explanation of her actions; this lack of denial, clearly intentional, seemed effortless for her. “It’s always the Prince; and fortunately, it’s always about marriage. And these are the things, hopefully, that will always be. The fact that I could help a year ago truly made me happy, and it still brings me joy.”
“Then why aren’t you quiet?”
"Then why aren't you silent?"
“I AM quiet,” said Fanny Assingham.
"I’m quiet," said Fanny Assingham.
He looked at her, with his colourless candour, still in his place; she moved about again, a little, emphasising by her unrest her declaration of her tranquillity. He was as silent, at first, as if he had taken her answer, but he was not to keep it long. “What do you make of it that, by your own show, Charlotte couldn’t tell her all? What do you make of it that the Prince didn’t tell her anything? Say one understands that there are things she can’t be told—since, as you put it, she is so easily scared and shocked.” He produced these objections slowly, giving her time, by his pauses, to stop roaming and come back to him. But she was roaming still when he concluded his inquiry. “If there hadn’t been anything there shouldn’t have been between the pair before Charlotte bolted—in order, precisely, as you say, that there SHOULDN’T be: why in the world was what there HAD been too bad to be spoken of?”
He looked at her with his blank honesty, still where he was; she moved around a bit, emphasizing her restlessness despite claiming to be calm. At first, he was as quiet as if he had accepted her answer, but he didn’t hold back for long. “What do you think about the fact that, according to you, Charlotte couldn’t share everything? What do you think about the Prince not telling her anything? It makes sense that there are things she can’t hear—since, as you said, she gets scared and shocked so easily.” He raised these points slowly, giving her time with his pauses to stop wandering and return to him. But she was still distracted when he finished his question. “If there wasn’t anything that should have existed between them before Charlotte left—exactly as you say, so that there SHOULDN’T be—why was what had happened too bad to talk about?”
Mrs. Assingham, after this question, continued still to circulate—not directly meeting it even when at last she stopped.
Mrs. Assingham, after this question, kept moving around—not addressing it directly even when she finally paused.
“I thought you wanted me to be quiet.”
“I thought you wanted me to stay quiet.”
“So I do—and I’m trying to make you so much so that you won’t worry more. Can’t you be quiet on THAT?”
“So I am—and I’m trying to help you so much that you won’t worry anymore. Can't you be quiet about THAT?”
She thought a moment—then seemed to try. “To relate that she had to ‘bolt’ for the reasons we speak of, even though the bolting had done for her what she wished—THAT I can perfectly feel Charlotte’s not wanting to do.”
She thought for a moment—then seemed to make an effort. “To explain that she had to ‘bolt’ for the reasons we discussed, even though running away had given her what she wanted—THAT I can totally understand Charlotte’s hesitation about.”
“Ah then, if it HAS done for her what she wished-!” But the Colonel’s conclusion hung by the “if” which his wife didn’t take up. So it hung but the longer when he presently spoke again. “All one wonders, in that case, is why then she has come back to him.”
“Ah then, if it HAS done for her what she wished-!” But the Colonel’s conclusion depended on the “if” that his wife didn’t address. So it lingered even longer when he spoke again. “In that case, all one wonders is why she came back to him.”
“Say she hasn’t come back to him. Not really to HIM.”
“Say she hasn’t come back to him. Not truly to HIM.”
“I’ll say anything you like. But that won’t do me the same good as your saying it.”
“I can say whatever you want. But that won’t help me as much as you saying it.”
“Nothing, my dear, will do you good,” Mrs. Assingham returned. “You don’t care for anything in itself; you care for nothing but to be grossly amused because I don’t keep washing my hands—!”
“Nothing, my dear, will help you,” Mrs. Assingham replied. “You don’t care about anything for its own sake; you only care about being entertained because I don’t keep washing my hands—!”
“I thought your whole argument was that everything is so right that this is precisely what you do.”
“I thought your whole argument was that everything is so perfect that this is exactly what you do.”
But his wife, as it was a point she had often made, could go on as she had gone on before. “You’re perfectly indifferent, really; you’re perfectly immoral. You’ve taken part in the sack of cities, and I’m sure you’ve done dreadful things yourself. But I DON’T trouble my head, if you like. ‘So now there!’” she laughed.
But his wife, as she had often pointed out, could continue just like before. “You’re totally indifferent, honestly; you’re really immoral. You’ve been part of the plundering of cities, and I’m sure you’ve done terrible things yourself. But I’m not going to worry about it, if that’s what you want. ‘So there!’” she laughed.
He accepted her laugh, but he kept his way. “Well, I back poor Charlotte.”
He acknowledged her laugh, but he continued on his path. “Well, I stand by poor Charlotte.”
“‘Back’ her?”
“Support her?”
“To know what she wants.”
"To understand what she wants."
“Ah then, so do I. She does know what she wants.” And Mrs. Assingham produced this quantity, at last, on the girl’s behalf, as the ripe result of her late wanderings and musings. She had groped through their talk, for the thread, and now she had got it. “She wants to be magnificent.”
“Ah then, so do I. She knows what she wants.” And Mrs. Assingham finally revealed this on the girl’s behalf, as the clear outcome of her recent reflections. She had sifted through their conversation for the clue, and now she had found it. “She wants to be amazing.”
“She is,” said the Colonel almost cynically.
“She is,” the Colonel said with a hint of cynicism.
“She wants”—his wife now had it fast “to be thoroughly superior, and she’s capable of that.”
“She wants”—his wife now had it figured out “to be totally superior, and she’s definitely capable of that.”
“Of wanting to?”
"Do you want to?"
“Of carrying out her idea.”
"Implementing her idea."
“And what IS her idea?”
"And what is her idea?"
“To see Maggie through.”
"To support Maggie."
Bob Assingham wondered. “Through what?”
Bob Assingham wondered, "Through what?"
“Through everything. She KNOWS the Prince.”
“Through everything. She knows the prince.”
“And Maggie doesn’t. No, dear thing”—Mrs. Assingham had to recognise it—“she doesn’t.”
“And Maggie doesn’t. No, sweetheart”—Mrs. Assingham had to admit it—“she doesn’t.”
“So that Charlotte has come out to give her lessons?”
“So Charlotte has come out to give her lessons?”
She continued, Fanny Assingham, to work out her thought. “She has done this great thing for him. That is, a year ago, she practically did it. She practically, at any rate, helped him to do it himself—and helped me to help him. She kept off, she stayed away, she left him free; and what, moreover, were her silences to Maggie but a direct aid to him? If she had spoken in Florence; if she had told her own poor story; if she had, come back at any time—till within a few weeks ago; if she hadn’t gone to New York and hadn’t held out there: if she hadn’t done these things all that has happened since would certainly have been different. Therefore she’s in a position to be consistent now. She knows the Prince,” Mrs. Assingham repeated. It involved even again her former recognition. “And Maggie, dear thing, doesn’t.”
She continued, Fanny Assingham, to work through her thoughts. “She did this incredible thing for him. A year ago, she basically made it happen. She practically helped him to do it on his own—and helped me to help him. She stepped back, stayed away, left him free; and what were her silences to Maggie if not a direct support for him? If she had spoken in Florence; if she had shared her own difficult story; if she had come back at any time—up until a few weeks ago; if she hadn’t gone to New York and hadn’t held firm there: if she hadn’t done these things, everything that's happened since would definitely have been different. So now she’s in a position to be consistent. She knows the Prince,” Mrs. Assingham repeated. This even brought back her previous acknowledgment. “And Maggie, poor thing, doesn’t.”
She was high, she was lucid, she was almost inspired; and it was but the deeper drop therefore to her husband’s flat common sense. “In other words Maggie is, by her ignorance, in danger? Then if she’s in danger, there IS danger.”
She was high, she was clear-headed, she was almost inspired; and that just made the contrast to her husband’s flat common sense even more striking. “So, in other words, Maggie is, because of her ignorance, in danger? Then if she’s in danger, there IS danger.”
“There WON’T be—with Charlotte’s understanding of it. That’s where she has had her conception of being able to be heroic, of being able in fact to be sublime. She is, she will be”—the good lady by this time glowed. “So she sees it—to become, for her best friend, an element of POSITIVE safety.”
“There won’t be—with Charlotte’s understanding of it. That’s where she has had her idea of being able to be heroic, of being able to be truly amazing. She is, she will be”—the good lady by this time glowed. “So she sees it—to become, for her best friend, a source of positive safety.”
Bob Assingham looked at it hard. “Which of them do you call her best friend?”
Bob Assingham stared at it intently. “Which one of them do you consider her best friend?”
She gave a toss of impatience. “I’ll leave you to discover!” But the grand truth thus made out she had now completely adopted. “It’s for US, therefore, to be hers.”
She tossed her head in annoyance. “I’ll let you figure it out!” But she had fully embraced the important truth now. “It’s up to US to be hers.”
“‘Hers’?”
“‘Hers’?”
“You and I. It’s for us to be Charlotte’s. It’s for us, on our side, to see HER through.”
“You and I. It's our job to be Charlotte's. It's up to us to support HER.”
“Through her sublimity?”
"By her greatness?"
“Through her noble, lonely life. Only—that’s essential—it mustn’t be lonely. It will be all right if she marries.”
“Through her noble, lonely life. Only—that's important—it can't be lonely. It will be fine if she gets married.”
“So we’re to marry her?”
"So we’re marrying her?"
“We’re to marry her. It will be,” Mrs. Assingham continued, “the great thing I can do.” She made it out more and more. “It will make up.”
“We're going to marry her. It will be,” Mrs. Assingham continued, “the greatest thing I can do.” She emphasized it more and more. “It will make up for everything.”
“Make up for what?” As she said nothing, however, his desire for lucidity renewed itself. “If everything’s so all right what is there to make up for?”
“Make up for what?” When she didn't respond, his need for clarity grew stronger. “If everything’s fine, what is there to make up for?”
“Why, if I did do either of them, by any chance, a wrong. If I made a mistake.”
“Why, if I happened to do either of those things, by any chance, something wrong. If I made a mistake.”
“You’ll make up for it by making another?” And then as she again took her time: “I thought your whole point is just that you’re sure.”
“You’ll make up for it by doing another one?” And then as she took her time again: “I thought your whole point was that you’re sure.”
“One can never be ideally sure of anything. There are always possibilities.”
“One can never be completely sure of anything. There are always possibilities.”
“Then, if we can but strike so wild, why keep meddling?”
“Then, if we can be so reckless, why keep interfering?”
It made her again look at him. “Where would you have been, my dear, if I hadn’t meddled with YOU?”
It made her look at him again. “Where would you be, my dear, if I hadn't gotten involved with YOU?”
“Ah, that wasn’t meddling—I was your own. I was your own,” said the Colonel, “from the moment I didn’t object.”
“Ah, that wasn’t interference—I was yours. I was yours,” said the Colonel, “from the moment I didn’t say anything.”
“Well, these people won’t object. They are my own too—in the sense that I’m awfully fond of them. Also in the sense,” she continued, “that I think they’re not so very much less fond of me. Our relation, all round, exists—it’s a reality, and a very good one; we’re mixed up, so to speak, and it’s too late to change it. We must live IN it and with it. Therefore to see that Charlotte gets a good husband as soon as possible—that, as I say, will be one of my ways of living. It will cover,” she said with conviction, “all the ground.” And then as his own conviction appeared to continue as little to match: “The ground, I mean, of any nervousness I may ever feel. It will be in fact my duty and I shan’t rest till my duty’s performed.” She had arrived by this time at something like exaltation. “I shall give, for the next year or two if necessary, my life to it. I shall have done in that case what I can.”
"Well, these people won’t mind. They’re my own too—in the sense that I care about them a lot. Also in the sense,” she continued, “that I think they care about me quite a bit as well. Our relationship, overall, is real—it’s a good one; we’re all mixed together, so to speak, and it’s too late to change it. We have to live IN it and with it. So, making sure Charlotte finds a good husband as soon as possible—that, as I said, will be part of how I live. It will cover,” she said confidently, “all the bases.” And then as his own conviction seemed to match very little: “The bases, I mean, of any anxiety I might ever feel. It will actually be my duty, and I won’t rest until my duty is fulfilled.” At this point, she had reached a sort of excitement. “I’m going to dedicate, for the next year or two if needed, my life to this. I will have done what I can in that case.”
He took it at last as it came. “You hold there’s no limit to what you ‘can’?”
He finally accepted it as it was. “You believe there’s no limit to what you 'can'?”
“I don’t say there’s no limit, or anything of the sort. I say there are good chances—enough of them for hope. Why shouldn’t there be when a girl is, after all, all that she is?”
“I’m not saying there are no limits or anything like that. I’m saying there are good chances—enough for hope. Why wouldn’t there be when a girl is, after all, everything she is?”
“By after ‘all’ you mean after she’s in love with somebody else?”
“By 'after all,' do you mean after she's in love with someone else?”
The Colonel put his question with a quietude doubtless designed to be fatal; but it scarcely pulled her up. “She’s not too much in love not herself to want to marry. She would now particularly like to.”
The Colonel asked his question with a calmness that was probably meant to be deadly; however, it hardly made her hesitate. “She’s not so in love that she doesn’t want to get married. In fact, she especially wants to now.”
“Has she told you so?”
"Has she said that?"
“Not yet. It’s too soon. But she will. Meanwhile, however, I don’t require the information. Her marrying will prove the truth.”
“Not yet. It’s too soon. But she will. In the meantime, though, I don’t need the information. Her getting married will confirm the truth.”
“And what truth?”
"And what is the truth?"
“The truth of everything I say.”
“The truth of everything I say.”
“Prove it to whom?”
“Prove it to who?”
“Well, to myself, to begin with. That will be enough for me—to work for her. What it will prove,” Mrs. Assingham presently went on, “will be that she’s cured. That she accepts the situation.”
“Well, for myself, to start with. That will be enough for me—to work for her. What it will prove,” Mrs. Assingham continued, “is that she’s healed. That she accepts the situation.”
He paid this the tribute of a long pull at his pipe. “The situation of doing the one thing she can that will really seem to cover her tracks?”
He took a long pull on his pipe as a nod to this. “Is she really trying to do the one thing that will actually make her cover her tracks?”
His wife looked at him, the good dry man, as if now at last he was merely vulgar. “The one thing she can do that will really make new tracks altogether. The thing that, before any other, will be wise and right. The thing that will best give her her chance to be magnificent.”
His wife looked at him, the good dry man, as if now he was just plain vulgar. “The one thing she can do that will truly create a new path altogether. The thing that, before anything else, will be smart and right. The thing that will best give her the opportunity to be amazing.”
He slowly emitted his smoke. “And best give you, by the same token, yours to be magnificent with her?”
He slowly let out his smoke. “So, should I give you, in the same way, yours to be great with her?”
“I shall be as magnificent, at least, as I can.”
“I'll be as great as I can be.”
Bob Assingham got up. “And you call ME immoral?”
Bob Assingham stood up. “And you think I’m the immoral one?”
She hesitated. “I’ll call you stupid if you prefer. But stupidity pushed to a certain point IS, you know, immorality. Just so what is morality but high intelligence?” This he was unable to tell her; which left her more definitely to conclude. “Besides, it’s all, at the worst, great fun.”
She hesitated. “I’ll call you dumb if that’s what you want. But stupidity taken to an extreme is, well, immorality. So what is morality, if not just high intelligence?” He couldn’t respond to her, which made her draw a clearer conclusion. “Besides, it’s all, at the end of the day, just a lot of fun.”
“Oh, if you simply put it at THAT—!”
“Oh, if you just put it like THAT—!”
His implication was that in this case they had a common ground; yet even thus he couldn’t catch her by it. “Oh, I don’t mean,” she said from the threshold, “the fun that you mean. Good-night.” In answer to which, as he turned out the electric light, he gave an odd, short groan, almost a grunt. He HAD apparently meant some particular kind.
His implication was that they had something in common this time; still, he couldn't use that to his advantage. "Oh, I don’t mean," she said from the doorway, "the fun you’re talking about. Good night." In response, as he switched off the lights, he let out a strange, brief groan, almost like a grunt. He HAD clearly meant some specific kind.
V
V
“Well, now I must tell you, for I want to be absolutely honest.” So Charlotte spoke, a little ominously, after they had got into the Park. “I don’t want to pretend, and I can’t pretend a moment longer. You may think of me what you will, but I don’t care. I knew I shouldn’t and I find now how little. I came back for this. Not really for anything else. For this,” she repeated as, under the influence of her tone, the Prince had already come to a pause.
“Well, I have to be completely honest with you,” Charlotte said, sounding a bit serious, once they entered the Park. “I don’t want to pretend anymore, and I can’t keep pretending for even a second. You can think whatever you want about me, but it doesn't bother me. I knew I shouldn’t have come back, and now I see how little that matters. I came back for this. Not really for anything else. For this,” she repeated, and the Prince had already stopped in his tracks, influenced by her tone.
“For ‘this’?” He spoke as if the particular thing she indicated were vague to him—or were, rather, a quantity that couldn’t, at the most, be much.
“For ‘this’?” He spoke as if what she was pointing to was unclear to him—or was, in fact, something that couldn’t possibly be much.
It would be as much, however, as she should be able to make it. “To have one hour alone with you.” It had rained heavily in the night, and though the pavements were now dry, thanks to a cleansing breeze, the August morning, with its hovering, thick-drifting clouds and freshened air, was cool and grey. The multitudinous green of the Park had been deepened, and a wholesome smell of irrigation, purging the place of dust and of odours less acceptable, rose from the earth. Charlotte had looked about her, with expression, from the first of their coming in, quite as if for a deep greeting, for general recognition: the day was, even in the heart of London, of a rich, low-browed, weatherwashed English type. It was as if it had been waiting for her, as if she knew it, placed it, loved it, as if it were in fact a part of what she had come back for. So far as this was the case the impression of course could only be lost on a mere vague Italian; it was one of those for which you had to be, blessedly, an American—as indeed you had to be, blessedly, an American for all sorts of things: so long as you hadn’t, blessedly or not, to remain in America. The Prince had, by half-past ten—as also by definite appointment—called in Cadogan Place for Mrs. Assingham’s visitor, and then, after brief delay, the two had walked together up Sloane Street and got straight into the Park from Knightsbridge. The understanding to this end had taken its place, after a couple of days, as inevitably consequent on the appeal made by the girl during those first moments in Mrs. Assingham’s drawing-room. It was an appeal the couple of days had done nothing to invalidate—everything, much rather, to place in a light, and as to which, obviously, it wouldn’t have fitted that anyone should raise an objection. Who was there, for that matter, to raise one, from the moment Mrs. Assingham, informed and apparently not disapproving, didn’t intervene? This the young man had asked himself—with a very sufficient sense of what would have made him ridiculous. He wasn’t going to begin—that at least was certain—by showing a fear. Even had fear at first been sharp in him, moreover, it would already, not a little, have dropped; so happy, all round, so propitious, he quite might have called it, had been the effect of this rapid interval.
It would be as much as she could manage. “To have one hour alone with you.” It had rained heavily during the night, and even though the sidewalks were now dry, thanks to a refreshing breeze, the August morning, with its low-hanging, thick clouds and fresh air, felt cool and grey. The lush greenery of the Park had become richer, and a clean smell of freshly watered earth rose up, clearing away dust and less pleasant odors. Charlotte had looked around, as if she was searching for a warm welcome, for a sense of recognition: the day was, even in the heart of London, distinctly English—rich, unpretentious, and washed clean by the weather. It felt as if it had been waiting for her, as if she knew it, cherished it, as if it was a part of why she had returned. This impression, of course, could only be missed by someone vaguely Italian; it was one of those experiences that you had to be, thankfully, an American to truly appreciate—just as you had to be, thankfully, an American for many things: as long as you didn’t have to remain in America. The Prince had, by half-past ten—as per their specific arrangement—stopped by Cadogan Place for Mrs. Assingham’s guest, and then, after a short delay, the two had walked up Sloane Street and directly into the Park from Knightsbridge. The understanding had quickly formed, after a couple of days, as a natural result of the girl’s request during those initial moments in Mrs. Assingham’s drawing room. Those couple of days hadn’t changed anything; rather, they had illuminated the situation, and clearly, it wouldn’t have made sense for anyone to object. Who, for that matter, would raise an objection, once Mrs. Assingham, informed and seemingly approving, didn’t intervene? This was what the young man had wondered, with a solid awareness of what could make him look foolish. He wasn’t going to start—at least that was certain—by showing any fear. Even if he had felt fear at the beginning, it had already lessened significantly; the overall atmosphere had been so joyful, so favorable, he might well have called it.
The time had been taken up largely by his active reception of his own wedding-guests and by Maggie’s scarce less absorbed entertainment of her friend, whom she had kept for hours together in Portland Place; whom she had not, as wouldn’t have been convenient, invited altogether as yet to migrate, but who had been present, with other persons, his contingent, at luncheon, at tea, at dinner, at perpetual repasts—he had never in his life, it struck him, had to reckon with so much eating—whenever he had looked in. If he had not again, till this hour, save for a minute, seen Charlotte alone, so, positively, all the while, he had not seen even Maggie; and if, therefore, he had not seen even Maggie, nothing was more natural than that he shouldn’t have seen Charlotte. The exceptional minute, a mere snatch, at the tail of the others, on the huge Portland Place staircase had sufficiently enabled the girl to remind him—so ready she assumed him to be—of what they were to do. Time pressed if they were to do it at all. Everyone had brought gifts; his relations had brought wonders—how did they still have, where did they still find, such treasures? She only had brought nothing, and she was ashamed; yet even by the sight of the rest of the tribute she wouldn’t be put off. She would do what she could, and he was, unknown to Maggie, he must remember, to give her his aid. He had prolonged the minute so far as to take time to hesitate, for a reason, and then to risk bringing his reason out. The risk was because he might hurt her—hurt her pride, if she had that particular sort. But she might as well be hurt one way as another; and, besides, that particular sort of pride was just what she hadn’t. So his slight resistance, while they lingered, had been just easy enough not to be impossible.
The time had mainly been spent with him greeting his wedding guests and with Maggie, who was just as busy entertaining her friend. She had kept her friend occupied for hours in Portland Place, not inviting her to move in just yet, but she had been around, along with other guests, at lunch, tea, dinner, and countless meals—he realized he had never encountered so much eating in his life—whenever he stopped by. If he hadn’t seen Charlotte alone until now, except for a quick moment, it made total sense that he hadn’t seen Maggie either. Since he hadn’t seen Maggie, it was only natural that he hadn’t seen Charlotte. That brief moment on the grand Portland Place staircase had been enough for the girl to remind him—she assumed he was ready—of what they needed to do. Time was running out if they were going to do it at all. Everyone had brought gifts; his relatives had brought amazing things—how did they still manage to find such treasures? She, however, hadn’t brought anything, and she felt embarrassed; yet seeing the rest of the gifts wouldn’t stop her. She would do what she could, and he had to remember that, unbeknownst to Maggie, he was supposed to help her. He had stretched that moment long enough to hesitate for a reason and then to take a risk by sharing his reason. The risk was that he might hurt her—hurt her pride, if she had that kind. But she could get hurt either way; besides, that kind of pride was something she didn’t actually have. So his slight hesitation while they lingered was just easy enough not to be impossible.
“I hate to encourage you—and for such a purpose, after all—to spend your money.”
“I really don’t want to push you—and for this reason, after all—to spend your money.”
She had stood a stair or two below him; where, while she looked up at him beneath the high, domed light of the hall, she rubbed with her palm the polished mahogany of the balustrade, which was mounted on fine ironwork, eighteenth-century English. “Because you think I must have so little? I’ve enough, at any rate—enough for us to take our hour. Enough,” she had smiled, “is as good as a feast! And then,” she had said, “it isn’t of course a question of anything expensive, gorged with treasure as Maggie is; it isn’t a question of competing or outshining. What, naturally, in the way of the priceless, hasn’t she got? Mine is to be the offering of the poor—something, precisely, that—no rich person COULD ever give her, and that, being herself too rich ever to buy it, she would therefore never have.” Charlotte had spoken as if after so much thought. “Only, as it can’t be fine, it ought to be funny—and that’s the sort of thing to hunt for. Hunting in London, besides, is amusing in itself.”
She stood a step or two below him, looking up at him under the high, domed light of the hall. She rubbed her palm over the polished mahogany of the balustrade, which was topped with fine ironwork from the eighteenth century. “Do you really think I must have so little? I have enough, at least—enough for us to take our hour. Enough,” she smiled, “is as good as a feast! And really, it’s not about anything extravagant, piled high with treasures like Maggie’s; it’s not about competing or trying to outshine anyone. Naturally, what priceless thing doesn’t she have? What I can offer is the gift of a poor person—something that no rich person COULD ever give her, and since she’s too rich to ever buy it, she will never have it.” Charlotte spoke as if she had thought about this a lot. “Only, since it can’t be elegant, it should be funny—and that’s the kind of thing to look for. Plus, hunting in London is entertaining in itself.”
He recalled even how he had been struck with her word. “‘Funny’?” “Oh, I don’t mean a comic toy—I mean some little thing with a charm. But absolutely RIGHT, in its comparative cheapness. That’s what I call funny,” she had explained. “You used,” she had also added, “to help me to get things cheap in Rome. You were splendid for beating down. I have them all still, I needn’t say—the little bargains I there owed you. There are bargains in London in August.”
He remembered how her words had hit him. “‘Funny’?” “Oh, I don’t mean something silly—I mean something small with charm. But absolutely RIGHT, considering how cheap it is. That’s what I call funny,” she explained. “You used,” she added, “to help me find good deals in Rome. You were great at haggling. I still have all the little bargains I owe you from there. There are deals in London in August.”
“Ah, but I don’t understand your English buying, and I confess I find it dull.” So much as that, while they turned to go up together, he had objected. “I understood my poor dear Romans.”
“Ah, but I don’t get your English way of buying, and I have to admit I find it boring.” That’s how he objected while they were walking up together. “I understood my poor dear Romans.”
“It was they who understood you—that was your pull,” she had laughed. “Our amusement here is just that they don’t understand us. We can make it amusing. You’ll see.”
“It was them who got you—that was your charm,” she had laughed. “Our fun here is just that they don’t get us. We can make it entertaining. You’ll see.”
If he had hesitated again it was because the point permitted. “The amusement surely will be to find our present.”
If he hesitated again, it was because the situation allowed it. “The fun will definitely be in discovering our gift.”
“Certainly—as I say.”
“Of course—as I mentioned.”
“Well, if they don’t come down—?”
"Well, if they don't come down—?"
“Then we’ll come up. There’s always something to be done. Besides, Prince,” she had gone on, “I’m not, if you come to that, absolutely a pauper. I’m too poor for some things,” she had said—yet, strange as she was, lightly enough; “but I’m not too poor for others.” And she had paused again at the top. “I’ve been saving up.”
“Then we'll head up. There's always something to do. Besides, Prince,” she continued, “I’m not really a total pauper. I might be too broke for some things,” she had said—yet, oddly enough, she said it lightly; “but I’m not too broke for others.” And she paused again at the top. “I’ve been saving up.”
He had really challenged it. “In America?”
He really pushed back. “In America?”
“Yes, even there—with my motive. And we oughtn’t, you know,” she had wound up, “to leave it beyond to-morrow.”
“Yes, even there—with my motive. And we really shouldn’t, you know,” she finished, “leave it until tomorrow.”
That, definitely, with ten words more, was what had passed—he feeling all the while how any sort of begging-off would only magnify it. He might get on with things as they were, but he must do anything rather than magnify. Besides which it was pitiful to make her beg of him. He WAS making her—she had begged; and this, for a special sensibility in him, didn’t at all do. That was accordingly, in fine, how they had come to where they were: he was engaged, as hard as possible, in the policy of not magnifying. He had kept this up even on her making a point—and as if it were almost the whole point—that Maggie of course was not to have an idea. Half the interest of the thing at least would be that she shouldn’t suspect; therefore he was completely to keep it from her—as Charlotte on her side would—that they had been anywhere at all together or had so much as seen each other for five minutes alone. The absolute secrecy of their little excursion was in short of the essence; she appealed to his kindness to let her feel that he didn’t betray her. There had been something, frankly, a little disconcerting in such an appeal at such an hour, on the very eve of his nuptials: it was one thing to have met the girl casually at Mrs. Assingham’s and another to arrange with her thus for a morning practically as private as their old mornings in Rome and practically not less intimate. He had immediately told Maggie, the same evening, of the minutes that had passed between them in Cadogan Place—though not mentioning those of Mrs. Assingham’s absence any more than he mentioned the fact of what their friend had then, with such small delay, proposed. But what had briefly checked his assent to any present, to any positive making of mystery—what had made him, while they stood at the top of the stairs, demur just long enough for her to notice it—was the sense of the resemblance of the little plan before him to occasions, of the past, from which he was quite disconnected, from which he could only desire to be. This was like beginning something over, which was the last thing he wanted. The strength, the beauty of his actual position was in its being wholly a fresh start, was that what it began would be new altogether. These items of his consciousness had clustered so quickly that by the time Charlotte read them in his face he was in presence of what they amounted to. She had challenged them as soon as read them, had met them with a “Do you want then to go and tell her?” that had somehow made them ridiculous. It had made him, promptly, fall back on minimizing it—that is on minimizing “fuss.” Apparent scruples were, obviously, fuss, and he had on the spot clutched, in the light of this truth, at the happy principle that would meet every case.
That, for sure, with ten more words, was what had happened—he felt all the while that any kind of excuse would just make it worse. He could carry on as things were, but he had to do everything possible to avoid exaggerating. Besides, it was sad to make her plead with him. He WAS making her—she had pleaded; and this, for a particular sensitivity he had, didn’t sit well with him. So, in short, that was how they ended up where they were: he was doing his best not to make things worse. He had maintained this even when she insisted—and it was as if it were almost the key issue—that Maggie obviously wasn’t supposed to have any idea. At least half the intrigue would be that she shouldn’t suspect; therefore, he had to completely hide it from her—as Charlotte, on her end, would—as if they had never been anywhere together or had seen each other alone for even five minutes. The complete secrecy of their little outing was, in essence, crucial; she appealed to his kindness to let her feel that he wasn’t betraying her. There was something, honestly, a bit unsettling about such a request at that moment, right before his wedding: meeting the girl casually at Mrs. Assingham’s was one thing, but arranging a morning with her that was practically as private as their old mornings in Rome and almost as intimate was another. That same evening, he had immediately told Maggie about the brief time they spent together in Cadogan Place—even though he didn't mention that Mrs. Assingham was absent anymore than he mentioned what their friend had proposed without much delay. However, what had briefly held him back from any current arrangement, from creating any kind of mystery—what had made him pause just long enough for her to catch it while they were at the top of the stairs—was the feeling that the little plan before him resembled past occasions he wanted to distance himself from, which he could only wish to escape. It felt like starting something over again, which was the last thing he wanted. The strength and beauty of his current situation lay in the fact that it was a completely fresh start, meaning whatever began would be entirely new. These thoughts had come together so quickly that by the time Charlotte perceived them in his expression, he understood their significance. She had confronted them as soon as she sensed them, responding with a “Do you want to go tell her?” that somehow made them seem absurd. It made him quickly retreat to downplaying it—that is, downplaying “drama.” Obvious hesitations were, clearly, drama, and right then he seized, in light of this truth, on the happy principle that would cover any situation.
This principle was simply to be, with the girl, always simple—and with the very last simplicity. That would cover everything. It had covered, then and there, certainly, his immediate submission to the sight of what was clearest. This was, really, that what she asked was little compared to what she gave. What she gave touched him, as she faced him, for it was the full tune of her renouncing. She really renounced—renounced everything, and without even insisting now on what it had all been for her. Her only insistence was her insistence on the small matter of their keeping their appointment to themselves. That, in exchange for “everything,” everything she gave up, was verily but a trifle. He let himself accordingly be guided; he so soon assented, for enlightened indulgence, to any particular turn she might wish the occasion to take, that the stamp of her preference had been well applied to it even while they were still in the Park. The application in fact presently required that they should sit down a little, really to see where they were; in obedience to which propriety they had some ten minutes, of a quality quite distinct, in a couple of penny-chairs under one of the larger trees. They had taken, for their walk, to the cropped, rain-freshened grass, after finding it already dry; and the chairs, turned away from the broad alley, the main drive and the aspect of Park Lane, looked across the wide reaches of green which seemed in a manner to refine upon their freedom. They helped Charlotte thus to make her position—her temporary position—still more clear, and it was for this purpose, obviously, that, abruptly, on seeing her opportunity, she sat down. He stood for a little before her, as if to mark the importance of not wasting time, the importance she herself had previously insisted on; but after she had said a few words it was impossible for him not to resort again to good-nature. He marked as he could, by this concession, that if he had finally met her first proposal for what would be “amusing” in it, so any idea she might have would contribute to that effect. He had consequently—in all consistency—to treat it as amusing that she reaffirmed, and reaffirmed again, the truth that was HER truth.
This principle was simply to be, with the girl, always straightforward—and with the utmost simplicity. That would cover everything. It had covered, right then and there, his immediate acceptance of the clearest sight before him. The truth was that what she asked was small compared to what she gave. What she offered touched him as she faced him, for it was the full expression of her giving up. She really gave up—gave up everything, without even stressing what it had all meant for her. Her only insistence was on the minor detail of keeping their appointment just between the two of them. That, in exchange for “everything,” everything she let go of, was truly just a tiny thing. He allowed himself to be guided accordingly; he quickly agreed, out of generous understanding, to any particular direction she wanted to take, so much so that her preference was clearly imprinted on it even while they were still in the Park. In fact, it soon required that they sit down for a bit, just to see where they stood; in compliance with this propriety, they spent about ten minutes in a couple of inexpensive chairs under one of the larger trees. They had chosen to walk on the freshly trimmed, rain-soaked grass after finding it already dry; and the chairs, turned away from the wide path, the main drive, and the view of Park Lane, overlooked the broad stretches of green that seemed to enhance their sense of freedom. This helped Charlotte make her position—her temporary position—even clearer, and it was for this reason that, seizing her opportunity, she sat down abruptly. He stood for a moment before her, as if to emphasize the importance of not wasting time, the significance she had previously stressed; but after she said a few words, it was impossible for him not to return to his good-natured self. He noted, as best as he could, by this concession, that if he had eventually met her initial suggestion for what would be “fun” about it, then any idea she had would contribute to that effect. He had, therefore—in all consistency—to treat it as entertaining that she repeated, and repeated again, the truth that was HER truth.
“I don’t care what you make of it, and I don’t ask anything whatever of you—anything but this. I want to have said it—that’s all; I want not to have failed to say it. To see you once and be with you, to be as we are now and as we used to be, for one small hour—or say for two—that’s what I have had for weeks in my head. I mean, of course, to get it BEFORE—before what you’re going to do. So, all the while, you see,” she went on with her eyes on him, “it was a question for me if I should be able to manage it in time. If I couldn’t have come now I probably shouldn’t have come at all—perhaps even ever. Now that I’m here I shall stay, but there were moments, over there, when I despaired. It wasn’t easy—there were reasons; but it was either this or nothing. So I didn’t struggle, you see, in vain. AFTER—oh, I didn’t want that! I don’t mean,” she smiled, “that it wouldn’t have been delightful to see you even then—to see you at any time; but I would never have come for it. This is different. This is what I wanted. This is what I’ve got. This is what I shall always have. This is what I should have missed, of course,” she pursued, “if you had chosen to make me miss it. If you had thought me horrid, had refused to come, I should, naturally, have been immensely ‘sold.’ I had to take the risk. Well, you’re all I could have hoped. That’s what I was to have said. I didn’t want simply to get my time with you, but I wanted you to know. I wanted you”—she kept it up, slowly, softly, with a small tremor of voice, but without the least failure of sense or sequence—“I wanted you to understand. I wanted you, that is, to hear. I don’t care, I think, whether you understand or not. If I ask nothing of you I don’t—I mayn’t—ask even so much as that. What you may think of me—that doesn’t in the least matter. What I want is that it shall always be with you—so that you’ll never be able quite to get rid of it—that I DID. I won’t say that you did—you may make as little of that as you like. But that I was here with you where we are and as we are—I just saying this. Giving myself, in other words, away—and perfectly willing to do it for nothing. That’s all.”
“I don’t care how you interpret this, and I’m not asking anything from you—anything except this. I want to have said it—that’s all; I want to make sure I don’t miss saying it. To see you once and be with you, to be as we are now and were before, for just one small hour—or even two—that’s been on my mind for weeks. I mean, of course, to do it BEFORE—before what you’re planning to do. So, all this time, you see,” she continued, looking at him, “it was a question of whether I could manage to do it in time. If I couldn’t have come now, I probably wouldn’t have come at all—maybe even ever. Now that I’m here, I’ll stay, but there were moments, back there, when I felt hopeless. It wasn’t easy—there were reasons; but it was either this or nothing. So I didn’t struggle, you see, in vain. AFTER—oh, I didn’t want that! I don’t mean,” she smiled, “that it wouldn’t have been wonderful to see you even then—to see you anytime; but I would never have come just for that. This is different. This is what I wanted. This is what I have. This is what I will always have. This is what I would have missed, of course,” she went on, “if you had chosen to make me miss it. If you had thought I was awful, if you had refused to come, I would, of course, have been immensely disappointed. I had to take the risk. Well, you’re everything I could have hoped for. That’s what I wanted to say. I didn’t just want to have time with you; I wanted you to know. I wanted you”—she kept going, slowly, softly, with a slight tremor in her voice, but without losing track of her thoughts—“I wanted you to understand. I wanted you, that is, to hear. I don’t care, I think, whether you understand or not. If I ask nothing from you, I don’t—I can’t—ask even for that. What you think of me—that doesn’t matter at all. What I want is for it to always be with you—so that you can never quite forget that I DID. I won’t say that you did—you can think as little of that as you like. But that I was here with you, where we are and as we are—I’m just saying this. Giving myself, in other words, away—and perfectly willing to do it for nothing. That’s it.”
She paused as if her demonstration was complete—yet, for the moment, without moving; as if in fact to give it a few minutes to sink in; into the listening air, into the watching space, into the conscious hospitality of nature, so far as nature was, all Londonised, all vulgarised, with them there; or even, for that matter, into her own open ears, rather than into the attention of her passive and prudent friend. His attention had done all that attention could do; his handsome, slightly anxious, yet still more definitely “amused” face sufficiently played its part. He clutched, however, at what he could best clutch at—the fact that she let him off, definitely let him off. She let him off, it seemed, even from so much as answering; so that while he smiled back at her in return for her information he felt his lips remain closed to the successive vaguenesses of rejoinder, of objection, that rose for him from within. Charlotte herself spoke again at last—“You may want to know what I get by it. But that’s my own affair.” He really didn’t want to know even this—or continued, for the safest plan, quite to behave as if he didn’t; which prolonged the mere dumbness of diversion in which he had taken refuge. He was glad when, finally—the point she had wished to make seeming established to her satisfaction—they brought to what might pass for a close the moment of his life at which he had had least to say. Movement and progress, after this, with more impersonal talk, were naturally a relief; so that he was not again, during their excursion, at a loss for the right word. The air had been, as it were, cleared; they had their errand itself to discuss, and the opportunities of London, the sense of the wonderful place, the pleasures of prowling there, the question of shops, of possibilities, of particular objects, noticed by each in previous prowls. Each professed surprise at the extent of the other’s knowledge; the Prince in especial wondered at his friend’s possession of her London. He had rather prized his own possession, the guidance he could really often give a cabman; it was a whim of his own, a part of his Anglomania, and congruous with that feature, which had, after all, so much more surface than depth. When his companion, with the memory of other visits and other rambles, spoke of places he hadn’t seen and things he didn’t know, he actually felt again—as half the effect—just a shade humiliated. He might even have felt a trifle annoyed—if it hadn’t been, on this spot, for his being, even more, interested. It was a fresh light on Charlotte and on her curious world-quality, of which, in Rome, he had had his due sense, but which clearly would show larger on the big London stage. Rome was, in comparison, a village, a family-party, a little old-world spinnet for the fingers of one hand. By the time they reached the Marble Arch it was almost as if she were showing him a new side, and that, in fact, gave amusement a new and a firmer basis. The right tone would be easy for putting himself in her hands. Should they disagree a little—frankly and fairly—about directions and chances, values and authenticities, the situation would be quite gloriously saved. They were none the less, as happened, much of one mind on the article of their keeping clear of resorts with which Maggie would be acquainted. Charlotte recalled it as a matter of course, named it in time as a condition—they would keep away from any place to which he had already been with Maggie.
She paused as if she was done demonstrating—yet, for a moment, she remained still; as if to give it a few minutes to sink in; into the listening air, into the observing space, into the welcoming embrace of nature, as much as nature could be, all commercialized, all cheapened, with them there; or even, for that matter, into her own open ears, rather than into the attention of her passive and careful friend. His attention had done all it could; his handsome, slightly anxious, yet still distinctly "amused" face played its part well. He grasped at what he could—the fact that she let him off, definitely let him off. She seemed to allow him not even to answer; so, while he smiled back at her in response to her information, he felt his lips stay sealed against the vague replies, objections, that bubbled up from within. Charlotte finally spoke again—"You might be curious about what I gain from it. But that’s my own business." He really didn’t want to know this—or so he continued to act for the safest option, behaving as if he didn’t; which extended the mere silence of distraction he had taken refuge in. He was relieved when, at last—the point she aimed to make seemingly established to her satisfaction—they wrapped up the moment of his life where he had the least to say. Movement and progress after this, with more impersonal conversation, felt like a relief; so he wasn’t at a loss for words again during their outing. The air felt, as it were, cleared; they had their mission to discuss, and the opportunities in London, the sense of the wonderful place, the joys of exploring there, the matter of shops, possibilities, particular items, noted by each in previous explorations. Each pretended to be surprised by the extent of the other’s knowledge; particularly, the Prince was astonished at how well his friend knew her London. He had rather valued his own knowledge, the guidance he could often provide a cab driver; it was a personal quirk of his, a part of his Anglomania, and fit with that quality, which, after all, had so much more surface than depth. When his companion, recalling other visits and strolls, spoke of places he hadn’t seen and things he didn’t know, he felt again—partly as an effect—just a bit embarrassed. He might have felt slightly annoyed—if it hadn’t been, at that moment, for his even greater interest. It offered a new perspective on Charlotte and her fascinating worldly quality, of which, in Rome, he had had a decent understanding, but which would clearly stand out more on the grand London stage. Rome was, by comparison, a village, a family gathering, a small old-world spinet for the fingers of one hand. By the time they reached the Marble Arch, it was almost as if she was revealing a new aspect to him, and that, in fact, gave amusement a new and firmer foundation. The right tone would be easy for him to adopt in her presence. If they should disagree a bit—openly and fairly—about directions and chances, values and authenticities, the situation would be wonderfully salvaged. Nonetheless, as it happened, they were largely of one mind about avoiding places that Maggie would be familiar with. Charlotte mentioned it as a matter of course, naming it promptly as a condition—they would steer clear of any place he had already been with Maggie.
This made indeed a scant difference, for though he had during the last month done few things so much as attend his future wife on her making of purchases, the antiquarii, as he called them with Charlotte, had not been the great affair. Except in Bond Street, really, Maggie had had no use for them: her situation indeed, in connection with that order of traffic, was full of consequences produced by her father’s. Mr. Verver, one of the great collectors of the world, hadn’t left his daughter to prowl for herself; he had little to do with shops, and was mostly, as a purchaser, approached privately and from afar. Great people, all over Europe, sought introductions to him; high personages, incredibly high, and more of them than would ever be known, solemnly sworn as everyone was, in such cases, to discretion, high personages made up to him as the one man on the short authentic list likely to give the price. It had therefore been easy to settle, as they walked, that the tracks of the Ververs, daughter’s as well as father’s, were to be avoided; the importance only was that their talk about it led for a moment to the first words they had as yet exchanged on the subject of Maggie. Charlotte, still in the Park, proceeded to them—for it was she who began—with a serenity of appreciation that was odd, certainly, as a sequel to her words of ten minutes before. This was another note on her—what he would have called another light—for her companion, who, though without giving a sign, admired, for what it was, the simplicity of her transition, a transition that took no trouble either to trace or to explain itself. She paused again an instant, on the grass, to make it; she stopped before him with a sudden “Anything of course, dear as she is, will do for her. I mean if I were to give her a pin-cushion from the Baker-Street Bazaar.”
This really didn’t make much of a difference, because even though he had spent the last month mostly accompanying his future wife while she shopped, the antiques, as he referred to them with Charlotte, hadn’t been a big deal. Aside from Bond Street, Maggie hadn’t had much use for them at all; her situation regarding that kind of shopping was heavily influenced by her father’s reputation. Mr. Verver, one of the world's top collectors, didn’t let his daughter wander off on her own; he rarely shopped in person and was mostly approached privately and indirectly as a buyer. Important people from all over Europe sought introductions to him; incredibly high-profile individuals, more than anyone would ever know, all solemnly sworn to discretion in such matters, approached him as the one man on the short list who might actually give the right price. So, as they walked, it was easy to agree that they should steer clear of the Ververs—both father and daughter. The important thing was that their discussion led to the first real mention of Maggie. Charlotte, still in the Park, took the lead—she was the one who initiated it—with a calmness that was unusual, especially considering what she had just said ten minutes earlier. This was another side of her—what he might have called another aspect—for her companion, who, without showing it, appreciated the simplicity of her shift, a shift that required no effort to follow or explain. She paused for a moment on the grass to articulate it; she stopped in front of him and suddenly said, “Anything, of course, dear as she is, will be fine for her. I mean, if I were to give her a pin-cushion from the Baker-Street Bazaar.”
“That’s exactly what I meant”—the Prince laughed out this allusion to their snatch of talk in Portland Place. “It’s just what I suggested.”
"That’s exactly what I meant”—the Prince laughed while referencing their conversation in Portland Place. “It’s exactly what I suggested.”
She took, however, no notice of the reminder; she went on in her own way. “But it isn’t a reason. In that case one would never do anything for her. I mean,” Charlotte explained, “if one took advantage of her character.”
She ignored the reminder and continued doing things her own way. “But that's not a reason. If that were the case, no one would ever do anything for her. I mean,” Charlotte clarified, “if someone were to take advantage of her personality.”
“Of her character?”
"About her character?"
“We mustn’t take advantage of her character,” the girl, again unheeding, pursued. “One mustn’t, if not for HER, at least for one’s self. She saves one such trouble.”
“We shouldn’t take advantage of her personality,” the girl continued, not paying attention again. “You shouldn’t, if not for HER, at least for yourself. She saves you so much hassle.”
She had spoken thoughtfully, with her eyes on her friend’s; she might have been talking, preoccupied and practical, of someone with whom he was comparatively unconnected. “She certainly GIVES one no trouble,” said the Prince. And then as if this were perhaps ambiguous or inadequate: “She’s not selfish—God forgive her!—enough.”
She spoke thoughtfully, looking into her friend's eyes; she could have been discussing someone with whom he had little connection. “She definitely doesn’t cause any trouble,” said the Prince. Then, as if that might be unclear or not enough: “She’s not selfish—God forgive her!—not enough.”
“That’s what I mean,” Charlotte instantly said. “She’s not selfish enough. There’s nothing, absolutely, that one NEED do for her. She’s so modest,” she developed—“she doesn’t miss things. I mean if you love her—or, rather, I should say, if she loves you. She lets it go.”
"That’s what I mean," Charlotte quickly replied. "She’s not selfish enough. There’s nothing, absolutely, that you NEED to do for her. She’s so modest," she continued. "She doesn’t miss anything. I mean if you love her—or, rather, I should say, if she loves you. She just lets it go."
The Prince frowned a little—as a tribute, after all, to seriousness. “She lets what—?”
The Prince frowned slightly—as a nod, after all, to seriousness. “She lets what—?”
“Anything—anything that you might do and that you don’t. She lets everything go but her own disposition to be kind to you. It’s of herself that she asks efforts—so far as she ever HAS to ask them. She hasn’t, much. She does everything herself. And that’s terrible.”
“Anything—anything you could do but don’t. She lets everything slide except her own choice to be kind to you. It’s herself she asks to put in the effort—as much as she ever HAS to ask for it. She doesn’t, much. She does everything herself. And that’s awful.”
The Prince had listened; but, always with propriety, he didn’t commit himself. “Terrible?”
The Prince had listened, but, as always, he remained noncommittal. “Terrible?”
“Well, unless one is almost as good as she. It makes too easy terms for one. It takes stuff, within one, so far as one’s decency is concerned, to stand it. And nobody,” Charlotte continued in the same manner, “is decent enough, good enough, to stand it—not without help from religion, or something of that kind. Not without prayer and fasting—that is without taking great care. Certainly,” she said, “such people as you and I are not.”
“Well, unless someone is nearly as good as she is, it's too easy for anyone else. It requires a lot from within to handle it, especially regarding one's decency. And nobody,” Charlotte continued in the same way, “is decent enough or good enough to manage it—not without help from religion or something similar. Not without prayer and fasting—that is, without taking great care. Certainly,” she said, “people like you and me are not.”
The Prince, obligingly, thought an instant. “Not good enough to stand it?”
The Prince thought for a moment. “Not good enough to handle it?”
“Well, not good enough not rather to feel the strain. We happen each, I think, to be of the kind that are easily spoiled.”
“Well, not good enough to avoid feeling the pressure. I believe each of us happens to be the kind that gets spoiled easily.”
Her friend, again, for propriety, followed the argument. “Oh, I don’t know. May not one’s affection for her do something more for one’s decency, as you call it, than her own generosity—her own affection, HER ‘decency’—has the unfortunate virtue to undo?”
Her friend, once again, for the sake of appearance, continued the discussion. “Oh, I don’t know. Can’t someone’s feelings for her do more for their sense of decency, as you put it, than her own kindness—her own feelings, HER ‘decency’—have the frustrating tendency to ruin?”
“Ah, of course it must be all in that.”
“Ah, of course, it has to be all about that.”
But she had made her question, all the same, interesting to him. “What it comes to—one can see what you mean—is the way she believes in one. That is if she believes at all.”
But she had made her question, interesting to him nonetheless. “What it boils down to—one can see what you mean—is the way she believes in someone. That is, if she believes at all.”
“Yes, that’s what it comes to,” said Charlotte Stant.
“Yes, that’s what it comes down to,” said Charlotte Stant.
“And why,” he asked, almost soothingly, “should it be terrible?” He couldn’t, at the worst, see that.
“And why,” he asked, almost gently, “should it be awful?” He couldn’t, at the very least, understand that.
“Because it’s always so—the idea of having to pity people.”
“Because it’s always like that—the idea of having to feel sorry for people.”
“Not when there’s also, with it, the idea of helping them.”
“Not when there’s also the idea of helping them.”
“Yes, but if we can’t help them?”
“Yes, but what if we can’t help them?”
“We CAN—we always can. That is,” he competently added, “if we care for them. And that’s what we’re talking about.”
“We can—we always can. That is,” he confidently added, “if we care about them. And that’s what we’re talking about.”
“Yes”—she on the whole assented. “It comes back then to our absolutely refusing to be spoiled.”
"Yes," she mostly agreed. "So it comes down to us completely refusing to be spoiled."
“Certainly. But everything,” the Prince laughed as they went on—“all your ‘decency,’ I mean—comes back to that.”
“Of course. But everything,” the Prince laughed as they continued—“all your ‘decency,’ I’m talking about—comes back to that.”
She walked beside him a moment. “It’s just what I meant,” she then reasonably said.
She walked next to him for a moment. “It’s exactly what I meant,” she then said calmly.
VI
VI
The man in the little shop in which, well after this, they lingered longest, the small but interesting dealer in the Bloomsbury street who was remarkable for an insistence not importunate, inasmuch as it was mainly mute, but singularly, intensely coercive—this personage fixed on his visitors an extraordinary pair of eyes and looked from one to the other while they considered the object with which he appeared mainly to hope to tempt them. They had come to him last, for their time was nearly up; an hour of it at least, from the moment of their getting into a hansom at the Marble Arch, having yielded no better result than the amusement invoked from the first. The amusement, of course, was to have consisted in seeking, but it had also involved the idea of finding; which latter necessity would have been obtrusive only if they had found too soon. The question at present was if they were finding, and they put it to each other, in the Bloomsbury shop, while they enjoyed the undiverted attention of the shopman. He was clearly the master, and devoted to his business—the essence of which, in his conception, might precisely have been this particular secret that he possessed for worrying the customer so little that it fairly made for their relations a sort of solemnity. He had not many things, none of the redundancy of “rot” they had elsewhere seen, and our friends had, on entering, even had the sense of a muster so scant that, as high values obviously wouldn’t reign, the effect might be almost pitiful. Then their impression had changed; for, though the show was of small pieces, several taken from the little window and others extracted from a cupboard behind the counter—dusky, in the rather low-browed place, despite its glass doors—each bid for their attention spoke, however modestly, for itself, and the pitch of their entertainer’s pretensions was promptly enough given. His array was heterogeneous and not at all imposing; still, it differed agreeably from what they had hitherto seen.
The man in the tiny shop where they lingered the longest—a small but intriguing dealer on Bloomsbury Street—had a remarkable but not overbearing insistence, mostly silent yet uniquely compelling. He locked eyes with his visitors and glanced between them as they examined the object he hoped would entice them. They had saved him for last since their time was almost up; they had spent at least an hour getting into a cab at Marble Arch, which had turned out to be no better than mere amusement at first. The amusement was supposed to come from the search, but it also included the expectation of finding something, which would have felt too urgent only if they had discovered something too soon. The current question was whether they were finding anything, and they posed it to each other in the Bloomsbury shop while enjoying the shopkeeper’s undivided attention. He clearly ran the place and was committed to his work—the essence of which, in his mind, was to bother the customer so little that it created a sense of seriousness in their interactions. He didn’t have many items, lacking the excessive “junk” they had seen elsewhere, and when our friends entered, they sensed the inventory was so meager that, since high-value items clearly wouldn’t be found, it felt almost sad. But their impression soon changed; although the display consisted of small pieces, several taken from the little window and others pulled from a cupboard behind the counter—dim in the rather low-ceilinged shop despite its glass doors—each item quietly spoke for itself, and the level of the dealer’s aspirations was made clear quickly enough. His collection was varied and not particularly grand, yet it was refreshingly different from what they had seen before.
Charlotte, after the incident, was to be full of impressions, of several of which, later on, she gave her companion—always in the interest of their amusement—the benefit; and one of the impressions had been that the man himself was the greatest curiosity they had looked at. The Prince was to reply to this that he himself hadn’t looked at him; as, precisely, in the general connection, Charlotte had more than once, from other days, noted, for his advantage, her consciousness of how, below a certain social plane, he never SAW. One kind of shopman was just like another to him—which was oddly inconsequent on the part of a mind that, where it did notice, noticed so much. He took throughout, always, the meaner sort for granted—the night of their meanness, or whatever name one might give it for him, made all his cats grey. He didn’t, no doubt, want to hurt them, but he imaged them no more than if his eyes acted only for the level of his own high head. Her own vision acted for every relation—this he had seen for himself: she remarked beggars, she remembered servants, she recognised cabmen; she had often distinguished beauty, when out with him, in dirty children; she had admired “type” in faces at hucksters’ stalls. Therefore, on this occasion, she had found their antiquario interesting; partly because he cared so for his things, and partly because he cared—well, so for them. “He likes his things—he loves them,” she was to say; “and it isn’t only—it isn’t perhaps even at all—that he loves to sell them. I think he would love to keep them if he could; and he prefers, at any rate, to sell them to right people. We, clearly, were right people—he knows them when he sees them; and that’s why, as I say, you could make out, or at least I could, that he cared for us. Didn’t you see”—she was to ask it with an insistence—“the way he looked at us and took us in? I doubt if either of us have ever been so well looked at before. Yes, he’ll remember us”—she was to profess herself convinced of that almost to uneasiness. “But it was after all”—this was perhaps reassuring—“because, given his taste, since he HAS taste, he was pleased with us, he was struck—he had ideas about us. Well, I should think people might; we’re beautiful—aren’t we?—and he knows. Then, also, he has his way; for that way of saying nothing with his lips when he’s all the while pressing you so with his face, which shows how he knows you feel it—that is a regular way.”
After the incident, Charlotte was full of impressions, many of which she shared with her companion—always for their amusement. One impression was that the man himself was the most fascinating thing they had seen. The Prince responded that he hadn’t even looked at him; Charlotte had often noticed, for his sake, that below a certain social level, he simply didn’t SEE. To him, one kind of shopkeeper was just like another—which seemed strange for someone who noticed so many details when he did pay attention. He always took the lower class for granted—their ugliness, or whatever you might call it, made all their flaws the same in his eyes. He didn’t want to hurt them, but he regarded them as if his vision was only meant for his own elevated status. Her perception, on the other hand, extended to every relationship—he had seen that for himself: she noticed beggars, remembered servants, recognized cab drivers; she often spotted beauty in dirty children when she was with him; she admired different “types” in faces at street stalls. That’s why, on this occasion, she found their antique dealer interesting; partly because he cared so much for his items, and partly because he cared about them. “He likes his things—he loves them,” she would say; “and it’s not just—it might not even be at all—that he loves to sell them. I think he would keep them if he could; and he prefers to sell them to the right people. Clearly, we were the right people—he knows them when he sees them; that’s why, as I said, you could tell, or at least I could, that he cared for us. Didn’t you notice”—she insisted—“the way he looked at us and took us in? I doubt we’ve ever been looked at so well before. Yes, he’ll remember us”—she seemed almost anxious in her conviction. “But after all”—this was maybe reassuring—“because, given his taste, since he HAS taste, he was pleased with us, he was impressed—he had thoughts about us. Well, I would think people could; we’re beautiful—aren’t we?—and he knows. Then, he also has his style; that way of saying nothing with his lips while completely engaging you with his face shows he knows you feel it—that's his signature approach.”
Of decent old gold, old silver, old bronze, of old chased and jewelled artistry, were the objects that, successively produced, had ended by numerously dotting the counter, where the shopman’s slim, light fingers, with neat nails, touched them at moments, briefly, nervously, tenderly, as those of a chess-player rest, a few seconds, over the board, on a figure he thinks he may move and then may not: small florid ancientries, ornaments, pendants, lockets, brooches, buckles, pretexts for dim brilliants, bloodless rubies, pearls either too large or too opaque for value; miniatures mounted with diamonds that had ceased to dazzle; snuffboxes presented to—or by—the too-questionable great; cups, trays, taper-stands, suggestive of pawn-tickets, archaic and brown, that would themselves, if preserved, have been prized curiosities. A few commemorative medals, of neat outline but dull reference; a classic monument or two, things of the first years of the century; things consular, Napoleonic, temples, obelisks, arches, tinily re-embodied, completed the discreet cluster; in which, however, even after tentative reinforcement from several quaint rings, intaglios, amethysts, carbuncles, each of which had found a home in the ancient sallow satin of some weakly-snapping little box, there was, in spite of the due proportion of faint poetry, no great force of persuasion. They looked, the visitors, they touched, they vaguely pretended to consider, but with scepticism, so far as courtesy permitted, in the quality of their attention. It was impossible they shouldn’t, after a little, tacitly agree as to the absurdity of carrying to Maggie a token from such a stock. It would be—that was the difficulty—pretentious without being “good”; too usual, as a treasure, to have been an inspiration of the giver, and yet too primitive to be taken as tribute welcome on any terms. They had been out more than two hours and, evidently, had found nothing. It forced from Charlotte a kind of admission.
The table was covered with various items made of old gold, silver, and bronze, showcasing intricate designs and jewel work. The shopkeeper's slim fingers, with neatly manicured nails, occasionally touched the objects—briefly, nervously, tenderly—like a chess player pausing over a piece he might move but then thinks better of it. There were small, ornate antiques, jewelry, pendants, lockets, brooches, buckles, and items meant to highlight dull gems, lifeless rubies, and pearls that were either too large or too cloudy to be valuable. Miniatures set with diamonds that had lost their sparkle, snuffboxes given to—or by—troublesome elites, and cups, trays, and candle holders that reminded one of pawn tickets, all were old and brown and would have been prized if kept in better condition. A few commemorative medals, neatly shaped but lacking significance; a couple of classic monuments from the early years of the century; consular and Napoleonic pieces like tiny temples, obelisks, and arches rounded out the quiet collection. However, even with the addition of a few quirky rings, intaglios, amethysts, and carbuncles, each tucked away in a faded satin box that barely held together, there was a faint hint of poetry but no strong persuasiveness. The visitors looked, touched, and pretended to consider the items, but their skepticism was evident, limited only by their politeness. It was inevitable that they would eventually agree, silently, on the ridiculousness of bringing Maggie something from such a selection. It would be—this was the issue—pretentious but not “good”; too commonplace as a gift to have truly inspired the giver, yet too basic to be seen as a welcome offering. They had been searching for over two hours and clearly hadn't found anything. This realization brought a sort of acknowledgment from Charlotte.
“It ought, really, if it should be a thing of this sort, to take its little value from having belonged to one’s self.”
“It should, really, if it’s going to be something like this, take its worth from having belonged to you.”
“Ecco!” said the Prince—just triumphantly enough. “There you are.”
“Look!” said the Prince—just triumphant enough. “There you are.”
Behind the dealer were sundry small cupboards in the wall. Two or three of these Charlotte had seen him open, so that her eyes found themselves resting on those he had not visited. But she completed her admission. “There’s nothing here she could wear.”
Behind the dealer were various small cupboards in the wall. Two or three of these Charlotte had seen him open, so her eyes ended up resting on the ones he hadn't visited. But she finished her thought. “There’s nothing here she could wear.”
It was only after a moment that her companion rejoined. “Is there anything—do you think—that you could?”
It was only after a moment that her companion came back. “Is there anything—do you think—that you could?”
It made her just start. She didn’t, at all events, look at the objects; she but looked for an instant very directly at him. “No.”
It made her jump. She didn’t, in any case, look at the objects; she just looked directly at him for a moment. “No.”
“Ah!” the Prince quietly exclaimed.
“Wow!” the Prince quietly exclaimed.
“Would it be,” Charlotte asked, “your idea to offer me something?”
“Is it your idea to offer me something?” Charlotte asked.
“Well, why not—as a small ricordo.”
“Well, why not—as a small reminder.”
“But a ricordo of what?”
“But a reminder of what?”
“Why, of ‘this’—as you yourself say. Of this little hunt.”
“Why, about ‘this’—as you put it. About this little hunt.”
“Oh, I say it—but hasn’t my whole point been that I don’t ask you to. Therefore,” she demanded—but smiling at him now—“where’s the logic?”
“Oh, I say it—but hasn’t my whole point been that I don’t ask you to. Therefore,” she insisted—but now smiling at him—“where’s the logic?”
“Oh, the logic—!” he laughed.
“Oh, the logic—!” he laughed.
“But logic’s everything. That, at least, is how I feel it. A ricordo from you—from you to me—is a ricordo of nothing. It has no reference.”
“But logic is everything. That's how I see it, at least. A memory from you—from you to me—is a memory of nothing. It has no reference.”
“Ah, my dear!” he vaguely protested. Their entertainer, meanwhile, stood there with his eyes on them, and the girl, though at this minute more interested in her passage with her friend than in anything else, again met his gaze. It was a comfort to her that their foreign tongue covered what they said—and they might have appeared of course, as the Prince now had one of the snuffboxes in his hand, to be discussing a purchase.
“Ah, my dear!” he weakly protested. Their entertainer, in the meantime, stood there watching them, and the girl, although at that moment more focused on her conversation with her friend than anything else, caught his eye again. It was reassuring to her that their foreign language masked what they were saying—and they might have seemed, of course, since the Prince now held one of the snuffboxes, to be talking about a purchase.
“You don’t refer,” she went on to her companion. “I refer.”
“You don’t refer,” she continued to her friend. “I refer.”
He had lifted the lid of his little box and he looked into it hard. “Do you mean by that then that you would be free—?”
He lifted the lid of his small box and looked into it intently. “Are you saying that you would be free—?”
“‘Free’—?”
“‘Free’—?”
“To offer me something?”
“Are you offering me something?”
This gave her a longer pause, and when she spoke again she might have seemed, oddly, to be addressing the dealer. “Would you allow me—?”
This made her take a longer pause, and when she spoke again, it might have seemed, strangely, like she was addressing the dealer. “Would you let me—?”
“No,” said the Prince into his little box.
“No,” said the Prince into his small box.
“You wouldn’t accept it from me?”
“You wouldn’t take it from me?”
“No,” he repeated in the same way.
“No,” he said again in the same way.
She exhaled a long breath that was like a guarded sigh. “But you’ve touched an idea that HAS been mine. It’s what I’ve wanted.” Then she added: “It was what I hoped.”
She let out a long breath that felt like a restrained sigh. “But you’ve tapped into an idea that’s been mine. It’s what I’ve wanted.” Then she added: “It was what I hoped.”
He put down his box—this had drawn his eyes. He made nothing, clearly, of the little man’s attention. “It’s what you brought me out for?”
He set down his box—this had caught his eye. He didn’t make anything of the little man's attention. "Is that what you brought me out here for?"
“Well, that’s, at any rate,” she returned, “my own affair. But it won’t do?”
“Well, that’s, anyway,” she replied, “my own business. But it won’t work?”
“It won’t do, cara mia.”
“It won’t work, my dear.”
“It’s impossible?”
"Is it impossible?"
“It’s impossible.” And he took up one of the brooches.
“It’s impossible.” And he picked up one of the brooches.
She had another pause, while the shopman only waited. “If I were to accept from you one of these charming little ornaments as you suggest, what should I do with it?”
She paused again, while the shopkeeper just waited. “If I were to take one of these lovely little ornaments from you, as you suggested, what would I do with it?”
He was perhaps at last a little irritated; he even—as if HE might understand—looked vaguely across at their host. “Wear it, per Bacco!”
He was maybe finally a bit annoyed; he even—as if he could understand—glanced vaguely at their host. “Wear it, by Bacchus!”
“Where then, please? Under my clothes?”
“Where, then? Under my clothes?”
“Wherever you like. But it isn’t then, if you will,” he added, “worth talking about.”
“Wherever you want. But if that's the case, it's not worth discussing.”
“It’s only worth talking about, mio caro,” she smiled, “from your having begun it. My question is only reasonable—so that your idea may stand or fall by your answer to it. If I should pin one of these things on for you would it be, to your mind, that I might go home and show it to Maggie as your present?”
“It’s only worth discussing, my dear,” she smiled, “because you brought it up. My question is fair—so that your idea can stand or fall based on your answer. If I were to put one of these on for you, would you think that I could take it home and show it to Maggie as your gift?”
They had had between them often in talk the refrain, jocosely, descriptively applied, of “old Roman.” It had been, as a pleasantry, in the other time, his explanation to her of everything; but nothing, truly, had even seemed so old-Roman as the shrug in which he now indulged. “Why in the world not?”
They often joked around by calling each other "old Roman." It used to be his way of explaining everything to her in a light-hearted manner, but nothing ever seemed more "old Roman" than the shrug he gave now. "Why not, right?"
“Because—on our basis—it would be impossible to give her an account of the pretext.”
“Because—based on what we know—it would be impossible to explain the reason to her.”
“The pretext—?” He wondered.
"The excuse—?" He wondered.
“The occasion. This ramble that we shall have had together and that we’re not to speak of.”
“The occasion. This stroll we’re about to take together, which we won’t talk about.”
“Oh yes,” he said after a moment “I remember we’re not to speak of it.”
“Oh yeah,” he said after a moment, “I remember we’re not supposed to talk about it.”
“That of course you’re pledged to. And the one thing, you see, goes with the other. So you don’t insist.”
“That, of course, you’re committed to. And the one thing, you see, is connected to the other. So you don’t push it.”
He had again, at random, laid back his trinket; with which he quite turned to her, a little wearily at last—even a little impatiently. “I don’t insist.”
He had once again casually put away his trinket; then he turned to her, feeling a bit tired and even somewhat impatient. “I’m not insisting.”
It disposed for the time of the question, but what was next apparent was that it had seen them no further. The shopman, who had not stirred, stood there in his patience—which, his mute intensity helping, had almost the effect of an ironic comment. The Prince moved to the glass door and, his back to the others, as with nothing more to contribute, looked—though not less patiently—into the street. Then the shopman, for Charlotte, momentously broke silence. “You’ve seen, disgraziatamente, signora principessa,” he sadly said, “too much”—and it made the Prince face about. For the effect of the momentous came, if not from the sense, from the sound of his words; which was that of the suddenest, sharpest Italian. Charlotte exchanged with her friend a glance that matched it, and just for the minute they were held in check. But their glance had, after all, by that time, said more than one thing; had both exclaimed on the apprehension, by the wretch, of their intimate conversation, let alone of her possible, her impossible, title, and remarked, for mutual reassurance, that it didn’t, all the same, matter. The Prince remained by the door, but immediately addressing the speaker from where he stood.
It settled the question for the moment, but what became clear next was that it hadn’t gone any further. The shopkeeper, who hadn’t moved, stood there patiently—his silent intensity almost creating an ironic comment. The Prince walked to the glass door and, with his back to the others, seemingly having nothing more to add, looked—still patiently—into the street. Then, for Charlotte, the shopkeeper momentously broke the silence. “You’ve seen, unfortunately, your Highness,” he said sadly, “too much”—and this made the Prince turn around. The weight of the moment came not just from what was said but from how it sounded—like the sharpest, most immediate Italian. Charlotte exchanged a look with her friend that matched it, and for a moment they were both taken aback. But their glance had, by that time, communicated more than one thing; it expressed alarm at the unfortunate eavesdropping on their private conversation, not to mention the implications of her potential, even impossible, title, and shared a silent reassurance that, in the end, it didn’t really matter. The Prince stayed by the door but immediately addressed the shopkeeper from where he stood.
“You’re Italian then, are you?”
"So, you're Italian, right?"
But the reply came in English. “Oh dear no.”
But the response came in English. "Oh no, not at all."
“You’re English?”
"Are you English?"
To which the answer was this time, with a smile, in briefest Italian. “Che!” The dealer waived the question—he practically disposed of it by turning straightway toward a receptacle to which he had not yet resorted and from which, after unlocking it, he extracted a square box, of some twenty inches in height, covered with worn-looking leather. He placed the box on the counter, pushed back a pair of small hooks, lifted the lid and removed from its nest a drinking-vessel larger than a common cup, yet not of exorbitant size, and formed, to appearance, either of old fine gold or of some material once richly gilt. He handled it with tenderness, with ceremony, making a place for it on a small satin mat. “My Golden Bowl,” he observed—and it sounded, on his lips, as if it said everything. He left the important object—for as “important” it did somehow present itself—to produce its certain effect. Simple, but singularly elegant, it stood on a circular foot, a short pedestal with a slightly spreading base, and, though not of signal depth, justified its title by the charm of its shape as well as by the tone of its surface. It might have been a large goblet diminished, to the enhancement of its happy curve, by half its original height. As formed of solid gold it was impressive; it seemed indeed to warn off the prudent admirer. Charlotte, with care, immediately took it up, while the Prince, who had after a minute shifted his position again, regarded it from a distance.
The dealer smiled and simply responded in quick Italian, “Che!” He dismissed the question and turned to a container he hadn’t used yet. After unlocking it, he pulled out a square box about twenty inches tall, covered in worn leather. He set the box on the counter, pushed back a couple of small hooks, lifted the lid, and removed a drinking vessel larger than an average cup but not overly large, made of something that looked like old fine gold or maybe a lavishly gilded material. He handled it carefully and ceremoniously, placing it on a small satin mat. “My Golden Bowl,” he said, and it sounded like it conveyed everything. He left the significant object—since “significant” is how it felt—to make its impression. Simple yet beautifully elegant, it stood on a circular base, a short pedestal with a slightly flared base. Although it wasn’t particularly deep, it earned its title through the charm of its shape and the quality of its surface. It resembled a large goblet reduced by half, enhancing its pleasing curve. Made of solid gold, it was impressive enough to intimidate any cautious admirer. Charlotte picked it up carefully, while the Prince, after moving again, observed it from a distance.
It was heavier than Charlotte had thought. “Gold, really gold?” she asked of their companion.
It was heavier than Charlotte had expected. "Gold, actual gold?" she asked their friend.
He hesitated. “Look a little, and perhaps you’ll make out.”
He hesitated. “Take a look, and maybe you’ll see it.”
She looked, holding it up in both her fine hands, turning it to the light. “It may be cheap for what it is, but it will be dear, I’m afraid, for me.”
She looked at it, holding it up in both her elegant hands, turning it to the light. “It might be a good price for what it is, but I'm afraid it's going to cost me a lot.”
“Well,” said the man, “I can part with it for less than its value. I got it, you see, for less.”
“Well,” said the man, “I can sell it for less than it's worth. I got it, you see, for less.”
“For how much then?”
“How much is that then?”
Again he waited, always with his serene stare. “Do you like it then?”
Again he waited, always with his calm gaze. “So, do you like it?”
Charlotte turned to her friend. “Do YOU like it?” He came no nearer; he looked at their companion. “Cos’e?”
Charlotte turned to her friend. “Do YOU like it?” He didn’t move closer; he looked at their companion. “What’s that?”
“Well, signori miei, if you must know, it’s just a perfect crystal.”
“Well, my friends, if you really want to know, it’s just a perfect crystal.”
“Of course we must know, per Dio!” said the Prince. But he turned away again—he went back to his glass door.
“Of course we need to know, according to Dio!” said the Prince. But he turned away again—he walked back to his glass door.
Charlotte set down the bowl; she was evidently taken. “Do you mean it’s cut out of a single crystal?”
Charlotte set down the bowl; she was clearly impressed. “Are you saying it’s made from a single crystal?”
“If it isn’t I think I can promise you that you’ll never find any joint or any piecing.”
“If it isn’t, I think I can promise you that you’ll never find any joint or any seam.”
She wondered. “Even if I were to scrape off the gold?”
She wondered, “What if I just scraped off the gold?”
He showed, though with due respect, that she amused him. “You couldn’t scrape it off—it has been too well put on; put on I don’t know when and I don’t know how. But by some very fine old worker and by some beautiful old process.”
He pointed out, with all due respect, that she entertained him. “You can’t just wipe it away—it’s been applied too well; I have no idea when or how it was done. But it was by some really skilled craftsman and through some lovely traditional method.”
Charlotte, frankly charmed with the cup, smiled back at him now. “A lost art?”
Charlotte, clearly taken with the cup, smiled back at him now. “A lost art?”
“Call it a lost art,”
“Consider it a lost art,”
“But of what time then is the whole thing?”
“But what time is the whole thing happening then?”
“Well, say also of a lost time.”
“Well, let’s also talk about a lost time.”
The girl considered. “Then if it’s so precious, how comes it to be cheap?”
The girl thought for a moment. “If it's so valuable, why is it so cheap?”
Her interlocutor once more hung fire, but by this time the Prince had lost patience. “I’ll wait for you out in the air,” he said to his companion, and, though he spoke without irritation, he pointed his remark by passing immediately into the street, where, during the next minutes, the others saw him, his back to the shopwindow, philosophically enough hover and light a fresh cigarette. Charlotte even took, a little, her time; she was aware of his funny Italian taste for London street-life.
Her conversation partner hesitated again, but by this point, the Prince had lost his patience. “I’ll wait for you outside,” he said to his companion, and even though he spoke calmly, he emphasized his words by stepping right out into the street, where for the next few minutes, the others saw him, back to the shop window, sufficiently relaxed as he hovered and lit a new cigarette. Charlotte even took her time a bit; she knew about his quirky Italian taste for London street life.
Her host meanwhile, at any rate, answered her question. “Ah, I’ve had it a long time without selling it. I think I must have been keeping it, madam, for you.”
Her host, at least, responded to her question. “Ah, I’ve had it for a long time without selling it. I think I must have been holding onto it, ma’am, for you.”
“You’ve kept it for me because you’ve thought I mightn’t see what’s the matter with it?”
“You’ve kept it for me because you thought I might not see what’s wrong with it?”
He only continued to face her—he only continued to appear to follow the play of her mind. “What IS the matter with it?”
He just kept looking at her—he just kept seeming to follow the flow of her thoughts. “What’s wrong with it?”
“Oh, it’s not for me to say; it’s for you honestly to tell me. Of course I know something must be.”
“Oh, it’s not my place to say; it’s up to you to honestly tell me. Of course, I know something must be."
“But if it’s something you can’t find out, isn’t it as good as if it were nothing?”
“But if it’s something you can’t figure out, isn’t it just as good as if it didn’t exist?”
“I probably SHOULD find out as soon as I had paid for it.”
“I probably should find out as soon as I’ve paid for it.”
“Not,” her host lucidly insisted, “if you hadn’t paid too much.”
“Not,” her host clearly insisted, “if you hadn’t overpaid.”
“What do you call,” she asked, “little enough?”
“What do you call,” she asked, “not enough?”
“Well, what should you say to fifteen pounds?”
“Well, what do you say to fifteen pounds?”
“I should say,” said Charlotte with the utmost promptitude, “that it’s altogether too much.”
“I have to say,” Charlotte replied quickly, “that it’s just too much.”
The dealer shook his head slowly and sadly, but firmly. “It’s my price, madam—and if you admire the thing I think it really might be yours. It’s not too much. It’s too little. It’s almost nothing. I can’t go lower.”
The dealer shook his head slowly and sadly, but firmly. “That’s my price, ma’am—and if you like it, I really think it could be yours. It’s not too much. It’s too little. It’s practically nothing. I can’t go any lower.”
Charlotte, wondering, but resisting, bent over the bowl again. “Then it’s impossible. It’s more than I can afford.”
Charlotte, curious but holding back, leaned over the bowl again. “Then it’s impossible. It’s more than I can afford.”
“Ah,” the man returned, “one can sometimes afford for a present more than one can afford for one’s self.” He said it so coaxingly that she found herself going on without, as might be said, putting him in his place. “Oh, of course it would be only for a present—!”
“Ah,” the man replied, “sometimes you can spend more on a gift than you would on yourself.” He said it so gently that she realized she was continuing the conversation without, as people say, calling him out. “Oh, of course it would just be for a gift—!”
“Then it would be a lovely one.”
“Then it would be a nice one.”
“Does one make a present,” she asked, “of an object that contains, to one’s knowledge, a flaw?”
“Do you give a gift,” she asked, “of something that you know has a flaw?”
“Well, if one knows of it one has only to mention it. The good faith,” the man smiled, “is always there.”
"Well, if you know about it, you just have to bring it up. The good faith," the man smiled, "is always present."
“And leave the person to whom one gives the thing, you mean, to discover it?”
“And leave the person receiving the thing to figure it out?”
“He wouldn’t discover it—if you’re speaking of a gentleman.”
“He wouldn’t find out—if you’re talking about a gentleman.”
“I’m not speaking of anyone in particular,” Charlotte said.
"I'm not talking about anyone specific," Charlotte said.
“Well, whoever it might be. He might know—and he might try. But he wouldn’t find.”
“Well, whoever it is, he might know—and he might try. But he wouldn’t find.”
She kept her eyes on him as if, though unsatisfied, mystified, she yet had a fancy for the bowl. “Not even if the thing should come to pieces?” And then as he was silent: “Not even if he should have to say to me ‘The Golden Bowl is broken’?”
She watched him closely, as if she was confused and not quite satisfied, yet still intrigued by the bowl. “Not even if it falls apart?” And when he didn’t answer, she added, “Not even if he has to tell me ‘The Golden Bowl is broken’?”
He was still silent; after which he had his strangest smile. “Ah, if anyone should WANT to smash it—!”
He remained quiet, then gave his oddest smile. “Ah, if anyone really wanted to smash it—!”
She laughed; she almost admired the little man’s expression. “You mean one could smash it with a hammer?”
She laughed; she almost admired the little man’s expression. “Are you saying someone could just smash it with a hammer?”
“Yes; if nothing else would do. Or perhaps even by dashing it with violence—say upon a marble floor.”
“Yes; if nothing else would work. Or maybe by smashing it with force—like on a marble floor.”
“Oh, marble floors!” But she might have been thinking—for they were a connection, marble floors; a connection with many things: with her old Rome, and with his; with the palaces of his past, and, a little, of hers; with the possibilities of his future, with the sumptuosities of his marriage, with the wealth of the Ververs. All the same, however, there were other things; and they all together held for a moment her fancy. “Does crystal then break—when it IS crystal? I thought its beauty was its hardness.”
“Oh, marble floors!” But she might have been thinking—because they were a connection, marble floors; a connection with many things: with her old Rome, and with his; with the palaces of his past, and a little of hers; with the possibilities of his future, with the extravagance of his marriage, with the wealth of the Ververs. Still, there were other things; and all of them together captured her imagination for a moment. “Does crystal break—when it really is crystal? I thought its beauty came from its hardness.”
Her friend, in his way, discriminated. “Its beauty is its BEING crystal. But its hardness is certainly, its safety. It doesn’t break,” he went on, “like vile glass. It splits—if there is a split.”
Her friend, in his own way, judged. “Its beauty is in its clarity. But its strength is definitely its security. It doesn’t shatter,” he continued, “like cheap glass. It cracks—if there’s a crack.”
“Ah!”—Charlotte breathed with interest. “If there is a split.” And she looked down again at the bowl. “There IS a split, eh? Crystal does split, eh?”
“Ah!”—Charlotte exclaimed with interest. “If there’s a crack.” And she looked down again at the bowl. “There IS a crack, right? Crystal does crack, right?”
“On lines and by laws of its own.”
“On its own rules and guidelines.”
“You mean if there’s a weak place?”
“You mean if there’s a vulnerable spot?”
For all answer, after an hesitation, he took the bowl up again, holding it aloft and tapping it with a key. It rang with the finest, sweetest sound. “Where is the weak place?”
For all his answers, after a pause, he picked up the bowl again, holding it up and tapping it with a key. It rang with the most beautiful, sweetest sound. “Where is the weak spot?”
She then did the question justice. “Well, for ME, only the price. I’m poor, you see—very poor. But I thank you and I’ll think.” The Prince, on the other side of the shop-window, had finally faced about and, as to see if she hadn’t done, was trying to reach, with his eyes, the comparatively dim interior. “I like it,” she said—“I want it. But I must decide what I can do.”
She then answered the question honestly. “Well, for ME, it’s just the price. I’m broke, you know—really broke. But I appreciate it, and I’ll think it over.” The Prince, on the other side of the shop window, had finally turned around and was trying to see the somewhat dim interior with his eyes. “I like it,” she said—“I want it. But I need to figure out what I can afford.”
The man, not ungraciously, resigned himself. “Well, I’ll keep it for you.”
The man, not without a bit of reluctance, accepted his situation. “Alright, I’ll hold onto it for you.”
The small quarter-of-an-hour had had its marked oddity—this she felt even by the time the open air and the Bloomsbury aspects had again, in their protest against the truth of her gathered impression, made her more or less their own. Yet the oddity might have been registered as small as compared to the other effect that, before they had gone much further, she had, with her companion, to take account of. This latter was simply the effect of their having, by some tacit logic, some queer inevitability, quite dropped the idea of a continued pursuit. They didn’t say so, but it was on the line of giving up Maggie’s present that they practically proceeded—the line of giving it up without more reference to it. The Prince’s first reference was in fact quite independently made. “I hope you satisfied yourself, before you had done, of what was the matter with that bowl.”
The brief fifteen minutes had a notable strangeness—she could feel it even as the fresh air and the Bloomsbury surroundings, in their effort to contradict her gathered impression, made her somewhat their own again. Still, this strangeness seemed minor compared to another effect that she and her companion had to acknowledge before they went much further. This was simply the result of their having, through some unspoken logic, some strange inevitability, completely let go of the idea of continuing their pursuit. They didn’t state it outright, but they were effectively moving in the direction of giving up on Maggie’s present—moving forward without any further reference to it. In fact, the Prince’s first mention of it was made quite independently. “I hope you made sure, before you finished, of what was wrong with that bowl.”
“No indeed, I satisfied myself of nothing. Of nothing at least but that the more I looked at it the more I liked it, and that if you weren’t so unaccommodating this would be just the occasion for your giving me the pleasure of accepting it.”
“No, I really didn’t confirm anything. At least not anything other than that the more I looked at it, the more I liked it, and that if you weren’t so unhelpful, this would be the perfect opportunity for you to give me the pleasure of accepting it.”
He looked graver for her, at this, than he had looked all the morning. “Do you propose it seriously—without wishing to play me a trick?”
He looked more serious for her than he had all morning. “Are you really serious about this—without trying to trick me?”
She wondered. “What trick would it be?”
She thought, "What trick could it be?"
He looked at her harder. “You mean you really don’t know?”
He stared at her more intensely. “You seriously don’t know?”
“But know what?”
"But guess what?"
“Why, what’s the matter with it. You didn’t see, all the while?”
“Why, what’s wrong with it? You didn’t notice all this time?”
She only continued, however, to stare. “How could you see—out in the street?”
She just kept staring. “How could you see—out in the street?”
“I saw before I went out. It was because I saw that I did go out. I didn’t want to have another scene with you, before that rascal, and I judged you would presently guess for yourself.”
“I saw before I left. It was because I realized that I did leave. I didn’t want to have another confrontation with you in front of that troublemaker, and I figured you would soon figure it out on your own.”
“Is he a rascal?” Charlotte asked. “His price is so moderate.” She waited but a moment. “Five pounds. Really so little.”
“Is he a troublemaker?” Charlotte asked. “His price is so reasonable.” She paused for just a moment. “Five pounds. That's so little.”
“Five pounds?”
"Five bucks?"
He continued to look at her. “Five pounds.”
He kept looking at her. “Five pounds.”
He might have been doubting her word, but he was only, it appeared, gathering emphasis. “It would be dear—to make a gift of—at five shillings. If it had cost you even but five pence I wouldn’t take it from you.”
He might have been doubting her, but he was just, it seemed, trying to stress his point. “It would be too expensive—to give it as a gift—at five shillings. If it had cost you even just five pence, I wouldn’t accept it from you.”
“Then,” she asked, “what IS the matter?”
“Then,” she asked, “what's up?”
“Why, it has a crack.”
"It has a crack."
It sounded, on his lips, so sharp, it had such an authority, that she almost started, while her colour, at the word, rose. It was as if he had been right, though his assurance was wonderful. “You answer for it without having looked?”
It sounded so sharp on his lips, with such authority, that she nearly flinched, her face flushing at the word. It felt like he was right, even though his confidence was impressive. "Are you sure about it without even looking?"
“I did look. I saw the object itself. It told its story. No wonder it’s cheap.”
“I looked. I saw the object itself. It told its story. No wonder it’s cheap.”
“But it’s exquisite,” Charlotte, as if with an interest in it now made even tenderer and stranger, found herself moved to insist.
“But it’s exquisite,” Charlotte found herself compelled to insist, her interest now feeling even more tender and strange.
“Of course it’s exquisite. That’s the danger.” Then a light visibly came to her—a light in which her friend suddenly and intensely showed. The reflection of it, as she smiled at him, was in her own face. “The danger—I see—is because you’re superstitious.”
“Of course it’s beautiful. That’s the risk.” Then a light clearly appeared in her—a light in which her friend suddenly and intensely shone. The reflection of it, as she smiled at him, was in her own face. “The risk—I see—is because you’re superstitious.”
“Per Dio, I’m superstitious! A crack is a crack—and an omen’s an omen.”
“Honestly, I’m superstitious! A crack is a crack—and an omen’s an omen.”
“You’d be afraid—?”
"You'd be scared—?"
“Per Bacco!”
"By Bacchus!"
“For your happiness?”
"For your happiness?"
“For my happiness.”
"For my happiness."
“For your safety?”
"For your safety?"
“For my safety.”
"For my safety."
She just paused. “For your marriage?”
She just paused. “For your marriage?”
“For my marriage. For everything.”
"For my marriage. For all."
She thought again. “Thank goodness then that if there BE a crack we know it! But if we may perish by cracks in things that we don’t know—!” And she smiled with the sadness of it. “We can never then give each other anything.”
She thought again. “Thank goodness that if there is a crack, we know about it! But if we could be harmed by cracks in things we don’t know about—!” And she smiled sadly at that. “We can never truly give each other anything.”
He considered, but he met it. “Ah, but one does know. I do, at least—and by instinct. I don’t fail. That will always protect me.”
He thought about it, but he faced it. “Ah, but one does know. I do, at least—and it’s instinct. I never fail. That will always keep me safe.”
It was funny, the way he said such things; yet she liked him, really, the more for it. They fell in for her with a general, or rather with a special, vision. But she spoke with a mild despair.
It was amusing the way he said things like that; still, she liked him even more for it. They were drawn to her with a common, or maybe a more specific, perspective. But she spoke with a gentle sense of hopelessness.
“What then will protect ME?”
“What will protect me now?”
“Where I’m concerned I will. From me at least you’ve nothing to fear,” he now quite amiably responded. “Anything you consent to accept from me—” But he paused.
“Where I’m concerned I will. You have nothing to fear from me, at least,” he replied in a friendly manner. “Anything you agree to accept from me—” But he stopped.
“Well?”
"What's up?"
“Well, shall be perfect.”
"Well, it will be perfect."
“That’s very fine,” she presently answered. “It’s vain, after all, for you to talk of my accepting things when you’ll accept nothing from me.”
"That's great," she replied after a moment. "It's pretty arrogant for you to talk about me accepting things when you won't accept anything from me."
Ah, THERE, better still, he could meet her. “You attach an impossible condition. That, I mean, of my keeping your gift so to myself.”
Ah, THERE, even better, he could meet her. “You’re putting an impossible condition on me. That is, about my keeping your gift all to myself.”
Well, she looked, before him there, at the condition—then, abruptly, with a gesture, she gave it up. She had a headshake of disenchantment—so far as the idea had appealed to her. It all appeared too difficult. “Oh, my ‘condition’—I don’t hold to it. You may cry it on the housetops—anything I ever do.”
Well, she looked at the situation in front of him, and then, suddenly, she gave up with a gesture. She shook her head in disappointment, as the idea had once caught her interest. It all seemed too hard. “Oh, my ‘situation’—I don’t really care about it. You can shout it from the rooftops—whatever I do.”
“Ah well, then—!” This made, he laughed, all the difference.
“Ah well, then—!” With that, he laughed, and it changed everything.
But it was too late. “Oh, I don’t care now! I SHOULD have liked the Bowl. But if that won’t do there’s nothing.”
But it was too late. “Oh, I don’t care anymore! I SHOULD have liked the Bowl. But if that won’t work, there’s nothing.”
He considered this; he took it in, looking graver again; but after a moment he qualified. “Yet I shall want some day to give you something.”
He thought about this; he absorbed it, looking serious again; but after a moment, he added, “Still, I’m going to want to give you something someday.”
She wondered at him. “What day?”
She looked at him in curiosity. “What day?”
“The day you marry. For you WILL marry. You must—SERIOUSLY—marry.”
“The day you get married. Because you WILL get married. You have to—SERIOUSLY—get married.”
She took it from him, but it determined in her the only words she was to have uttered, all the morning, that came out as if a spring had been pressed. “To make you feel better?”
She took it from him, but it made her say the only words she would have spoken all morning, and they came out as if a spring had been pressed. “To make you feel better?”
“Well,” he replied frankly, wonderfully—“it will. But here,” he added, “is your hansom.”
“Well,” he replied honestly and impressively, “it will. But here,” he added, “is your cab.”
He had signalled—the cab was charging. She put out no hand for their separation, but she prepared to get in. Before she did so, however, she said what had been gathering while she waited. “Well, I would marry, I think, to have something from you in all freedom.”
He had indicated—the cab was coming. She didn’t reach out for their goodbye, but she got ready to get in. Before she did, though, she said what had been building up while she waited. “Well, I think I would marry just to have something from you without any restrictions.”
PART SECOND
VII
VII
Adam Verver, at Fawns, that autumn Sunday, might have been observed to open the door of the billiard-room with a certain freedom—might have been observed, that is, had there been a spectator in the field. The justification of the push he had applied, however, and of the push, equally sharp, that, to shut himself in, he again applied—the ground of this energy was precisely that he might here, however briefly, find himself alone, alone with the handful of letters, newspapers and other unopened missives, to which, during and since breakfast, he had lacked opportunity to give an eye. The vast, square, clean apartment was empty, and its large clear windows looked out into spaces of terrace and garden, of park and woodland and shining artificial lake, of richly-condensed horizon, all dark blue upland and church-towered village and strong cloudshadow, which were, together, a thing to create the sense, with everyone else at church, of one’s having the world to one’s self. We share this world, none the less, for the hour, with Mr. Verver; the very fact of his striking, as he would have said, for solitude, the fact of his quiet flight, almost on tiptoe, through tortuous corridors, investing him with an interest that makes our attention—tender indeed almost to compassion—qualify his achieved isolation. For it may immediately be mentioned that this amiable man bethought himself of his personal advantage, in general, only when it might appear to him that other advantages, those of other persons, had successfully put in their claim. It may be mentioned also that he always figured other persons—such was the law of his nature—as a numerous array, and that, though conscious of but a single near tie, one affection, one duty deepest-rooted in his life, it had never, for many minutes together, been his portion not to feel himself surrounded and committed, never quite been his refreshment to make out where the many-coloured human appeal, represented by gradations of tint, diminishing concentric zones of intensity, of importunity, really faded to the blessed impersonal whiteness for which his vision sometimes ached. It shaded off, the appeal—he would have admitted that; but he had as yet noted no point at which it positively stopped.
Adam Verver, at Fawns, that autumn Sunday, might have been seen to open the door of the billiard room rather freely—might have been seen, that is, if anyone had been around. The reason for the push he used to enter, and the equally strong push he applied to shut himself in, was simply so he could find a moment alone, even briefly, with the pile of letters, newspapers, and other unopened messages that he hadn’t had a chance to look at since breakfast. The spacious, clean room was empty, and its large windows opened onto views of the terrace, garden, park, and woodland, along with a shiny artificial lake, all against a rich horizon of dark blue hills and a village with a church tower, creating a sense of having the entire world to himself while everyone else was at church. Still and all, for that hour, we share this world with Mr. Verver; the very fact that he was, as he would have put it, seeking solitude, and his quiet, almost tiptoeing journey through the winding hallways made him interesting enough to draw our attention—tender, almost compassionate—toward his achieved isolation. It’s worth noting that this kind man typically thought about his own interests only when he perceived that the interests of others had already made their claims. It's also notable that he always envisioned other people—such was his nature—as a large group, and though he was aware of only one close connection, one love, one deeply-rooted duty in his life, he had never experienced a single minute when he didn’t feel surrounded and obligated to many, and he never found it refreshing to identify where the rainbow of human appeal—represented by varying shades and diminishing circles of intensity and insistence—actually faded into the blessed impersonal blankness that sometimes made his eyes ache. He would have acknowledged that the appeal faded, but he hadn’t yet seen any point where it completely stopped.
Thus had grown in him a little habit—his innermost secret, not confided even to Maggie, though he felt she understood it, as she understood, to his view, everything—thus had shaped itself the innocent trick of occasionally making believe that he had no conscience, or at least that blankness, in the field of duty, did reign for an hour; a small game to which the few persons near enough to have caught him playing it, and of whom Mrs. Assingham, for instance, was one, attached indulgently that idea of quaintness, quite in fact that charm of the pathetic, involved in the preservation by an adult of one of childhood’s toys. When he took a rare moment “off,” he did so with the touching, confessing eyes of a man of forty-seven caught in the act of handling a relic of infancy—sticking on the head of a broken soldier or trying the lock of a wooden gun. It was essentially, in him, the IMITATION of depravity—which, for amusement, as might have been, he practised “keeping up.” In spite of practice he was still imperfect, for these so artlessly-artful interludes were condemned, by the nature of the case, to brevity. He had fatally stamped himself—it was his own fault—a man who could be interrupted with impunity. The greatest of wonders, moreover, was exactly in this, that so interrupted a man should ever have got, as the phrase was, should above all have got so early, to where he was. It argued a special genius; he was clearly a case of that. The spark of fire, the point of light, sat somewhere in his inward vagueness as a lamp before a shrine twinkles in the dark perspective of a church; and while youth and early middle-age, while the stiff American breeze of example and opportunity were blowing upon it hard, had made of the chamber of his brain a strange workshop of fortune. This establishment, mysterious and almost anonymous, the windows of which, at hours of highest pressure, never seemed, for starers and wonderers, perceptibly to glow, must in fact have been during certain years the scene of an unprecedented, a miraculous white-heat, the receipt for producing which it was practically felt that the master of the forge could not have communicated even with the best intentions.
Thus had developed in him a little habit—his deepest secret, not shared even with Maggie, though he felt she understood it, as she seemed to understand everything to him—thus had formed the innocent trick of occasionally pretending that he had no conscience, or at least that a blankness regarding duty reigned for an hour; a small game that the few people close enough to catch him at it, and among them Mrs. Assingham, viewed indulgently with a sense of quaintness, in fact that charm of the pathetic involved in an adult holding onto one of childhood’s toys. When he took a rare moment "off," he did so with the touching, revealing eyes of a forty-seven-year-old man caught in the act of handling a treasure from his youth—fixing the head of a broken soldier or trying the lock on a wooden gun. It was essentially, in him, the IMITATION of depravity—which, for amusement, he practiced “keeping up.” Despite the practice, he was still not perfect, for these so artlessly artful interludes were always, by their nature, short-lived. He had tragically branded himself—it was his own fault—a man who could be interrupted without consequence. The greatest wonder, moreover, lay precisely in this: that such an interrupted man should ever have reached, as the saying goes, and above all have reached so early, where he was. This indicated a unique genius; he was clearly an example of that. The spark of creativity, the flicker of insight, sat somewhere in his inner ambiguity like a lamp before a shrine twinkling in the dim depths of a church; and while youth and early middle age, along with the strong American winds of example and opportunity, were blowing hard upon it, had turned the chamber of his mind into a strange workshop of fortune. This establishment, mysterious and almost anonymous, the windows of which, during peak hours of stress, never seemed to glow perceptibly to onlookers and wonderers, must indeed have been at certain times the site of an unprecedented, miraculous white heat, the recipe for which it felt practically impossible that the master of the forge could have communicated, even with the best intentions.
The essential pulse of the flame, the very action of the cerebral temperature, brought to the highest point, yet extraordinarily contained—these facts themselves were the immensity of the result; they were one with perfection of machinery, they had constituted the kind of acquisitive power engendered and applied, the necessary triumph of all operations. A dim explanation of phenomena once vivid must at all events for the moment suffice us; it being obviously no account of the matter to throw on our friend’s amiability alone the weight of the demonstration of his economic history. Amiability, of a truth, is an aid to success; it has even been known to be the principle of large accumulations; but the link, for the mind, is none the less fatally missing between proof, on such a scale, of continuity, if of nothing more insolent, in one field, and accessibility to distraction in every other. Variety of imagination—what is that but fatal, in the world of affairs, unless so disciplined as not to be distinguished from monotony? Mr. Verver then, for a fresh, full period, a period betraying, extraordinarily, no wasted year, had been inscrutably monotonous behind an iridescent cloud. The cloud was his native envelope—the soft looseness, so to say, of his temper and tone, not directly expressive enough, no doubt, to figure an amplitude of folds, but of a quality unmistakable for sensitive feelers. He was still reduced, in fine, to getting his rare moments with himself by feigning a cynicism. His real inability to maintain the pretence, however, had perhaps not often been better instanced than by his acceptance of the inevitable to-day—his acceptance of it on the arrival, at the end of a quarter-of-an hour, of that element of obligation with which he had all the while known he must reckon. A quarter-of-an-hour of egoism was about as much as he, taking one situation with another, usually got. Mrs. Rance opened the door—more tentatively indeed than he himself had just done; but on the other hand, as if to make up for this, she pushed forward even more briskly on seeing him than he had been moved to do on seeing nobody. Then, with force, it came home to him that he had, definitely, a week before, established a precedent. He did her at least that justice—it was a kind of justice he was always doing someone. He had on the previous Sunday liked to stop at home, and he had exposed himself thereby to be caught in the act. To make this possible, that is, Mrs. Rance had only had to like to do the same—the trick was so easily played. It had not occurred to him to plan in any way for her absence—which would have destroyed, somehow, in principle, the propriety of his own presence. If persons under his roof hadn’t a right not to go to church, what became, for a fair mind, of his own right? His subtlest manoeuvre had been simply to change from the library to the billiard-room, it being in the library that his guest, or his daughter’s, or the guest of the Miss Lutches—he scarce knew in which light to regard her—had then, and not unnaturally, of course, joined him. It was urged on him by his memory of the duration of the visit she had that time, as it were, paid him, that the law of recurrence would already have got itself enacted. She had spent the whole morning with him, was still there, in the library, when the others came back—thanks to her having been tepid about their taking, Mr. Verver and she, a turn outside. It had been as if she looked on that as a kind of subterfuge—almost as a form of disloyalty. Yet what was it she had in mind, what did she wish to make of him beyond what she had already made, a patient, punctilious host, mindful that she had originally arrived much as a stranger, arrived not at all deliberately or yearningly invited?—so that one positively had her possible susceptibilities the MORE on one’s conscience. The Miss Lutches, the sisters from the middle West, were there as friends of Maggie’s, friends of the earlier time; but Mrs. Rance was there—or at least had primarily appeared—only as a friend of the Miss Lutches.
The core energy of the flame, the peak of thought, pushed to its limits yet surprisingly contained—these elements made up the vastness of the outcome; they merged with the perfection of machinery, embodying the kind of power that drives success in all endeavors. A vague explanation of what was once clear must suffice for now; it wouldn't do to place the entire burden of proving his financial history solely on our friend's friendliness. Being friendly, indeed, contributes to success; it’s been known to facilitate significant wealth; but the crucial link for the mind is still tragically absent between evidence, even if it’s glaring, in one area and the tendency to drift in all others. What is variety in thought but a hindrance in the business world unless it’s controlled to the point of resembling monotony? Mr. Verver, then, for a long time, had been frustratingly consistent despite his seemingly colorful outer persona. That persona was his natural demeanor—the gentle ease of his disposition—not expressive enough, perhaps, to reveal a depth of complexity, but a quality unmistakable to those sensitive enough to notice. In short, he was still left to create rare moments of solitude by pretending to be cynical. His true inability to keep up the act was perhaps best demonstrated by how he accepted today’s reality—the obligation he’d known he had to face after just a quarter of an hour had passed. A brief moment of selfishness was about all he usually got. Mrs. Rance opened the door—tentatively, more so than he had—with a quickness that seemed to compensate for her hesitation. It suddenly struck him that he had, a week earlier, set a precedent. He acknowledged that at least; it was a kind of fairness he extended to others. The previous Sunday, he had chosen to stay home, exposing himself to being caught in the act. To make this happen, all Mrs. Rance had to do was want to do the same—the trick was so simple. It hadn’t crossed his mind to plan for her absence—which would have, in principle, undermined his own right to be there. If the people in his home didn’t have the right to skip church, what did that mean for his own rights? His subtlest tactic had been merely to move from the library to the billiard room, since it was in the library that his guest—or perhaps his daughter’s guest, or however he saw her—had naturally joined him. His memory of how long she had stayed with him that time suggested the cycle was already set to repeat. She had spent the entire morning with him and was still there in the library when the others returned—because she had been indifferent about taking a walk with him outside. It felt as if she saw that as a sort of deception—almost as a betrayal. Yet what did she hope for from him beyond what he had already become, a patient, attentive host, aware that she had initially arrived like a stranger—not explicitly or eagerly invited?—making her potential feelings weigh even more heavily on his mind. The Miss Lutches, sisters from the Midwest, were there as friends of Maggie’s, friends from an earlier time; but Mrs. Rance was present—or at least had originally come—only as a friend of the Miss Lutches.
This lady herself was not of the middle West—she rather insisted on it—but of New Jersey, Rhode Island or Delaware, one of the smallest and most intimate States: he couldn’t remember which, though she insisted too on that. It was not in him—we may say it for him—to go so far as to wonder if their group were next to be recruited by some friend of her own; and this partly because she had struck him, verily, rather as wanting to get the Miss Lutches themselves away than to extend the actual circle, and partly, as well as more essentially, because such connection as he enjoyed with the ironic question in general resided substantially less in a personal use of it than in the habit of seeing it as easy to others. He was so framed by nature as to be able to keep his inconveniences separate from his resentments; though indeed if the sum of these latter had at the most always been small, that was doubtless in some degree a consequence of the fewness of the former. His greatest inconvenience, he would have admitted, had he analyzed, was in finding it so taken for granted that, as he had money, he had force. It pressed upon him hard, and all round, assuredly, this attribution of power. Everyone had need of one’s power, whereas one’s own need, at the best, would have seemed to be but some trick for not communicating it. The effect of a reserve so merely, so meanly defensive would in most cases, beyond question, sufficiently discredit the cause; wherefore, though it was complicating to be perpetually treated as an infinite agent, the outrage was not the greatest of which a brave man might complain. Complaint, besides, was a luxury, and he dreaded the imputation of greed. The other, the constant imputation, that of being able to “do,” would have no ground if he hadn’t been, to start with—this was the point—provably luxurious. His lips, somehow, were closed—and by a spring connected moreover with the action of his eyes themselves. The latter showed him what he had done, showed him where he had come out; quite at the top of his hill of difficulty, the tall sharp spiral round which he had begun to wind his ascent at the age of twenty, and the apex of which was a platform looking down, if one would, on the kingdoms of the earth and with standing-room for but half-a-dozen others.
This woman insisted she wasn't from the Midwest, but rather from New Jersey, Rhode Island, or Delaware—one of the smallest and most close-knit states. He couldn't remember which one, though she wanted him to. He didn't feel it was worth wondering if their group might be joined by some friend of hers; partly because it seemed she was more interested in getting the Miss Lutches away than expanding the actual group, and also because his connection to the ironic question wasn't really personal—it was more about observing that it seemed easy for others. By nature, he was the kind of person who could keep his frustrations separate from his feelings of resentment. Although if his resentments were always minimal, that was likely because he experienced few inconveniences. He would have admitted that his biggest inconvenience, if he had thought it through, was that people assumed his wealth equated to power. That expectation weighed heavily on him. Everyone expected something from him, whereas his own needs often felt like just a way to avoid sharing his power. Generally, a defensive attitude like that would discredit his cause, but while it was frustrating to be seen as a limitless source of power, it wasn't the worst complaint a brave person could have. Besides, complaining felt like a luxury, and he was wary of being seen as greedy. The constant assumption that he could "make things happen" wouldn't exist if he hadn't, to begin with—this was the key point—proven himself to be privileged. Somehow, he kept his mouth shut—and it was connected to the way his eyes operated. They revealed what he had accomplished and showed him where he stood; right at the top of the challenging path he had started climbing at twenty, with the summit offering a view over the kingdoms of the earth and only room for half a dozen others.
His eyes, in any case, now saw Mrs. Rance approach with an instant failure to attach to the fact any grossness of avidity of Mrs. Rance’s own—or at least to descry any triumphant use even for the luridest impression of her intensity. What was virtually supreme would be her vision of his having attempted, by his desertion of the library, to mislead her—which in point of fact barely escaped being what he had designed. It was not easy for him, in spite of accumulations fondly and funnily regarded as of systematic practice, not now to be ashamed; the one thing comparatively easy would be to gloss over his course. The billiard-room was NOT, at the particular crisis, either a natural or a graceful place for the nominally main occupant of so large a house to retire to—and this without prejudice, either, to the fact that his visitor wouldn’t, as he apprehended, explicitly make him a scene. Should she frankly denounce him for a sneak he would simply go to pieces; but he was, after an instant, not afraid of that. Wouldn’t she rather, as emphasising their communion, accept and in a manner exploit the anomaly, treat it perhaps as romantic or possibly even as comic?—show at least that they needn’t mind even though the vast table, draped in brown holland, thrust itself between them as an expanse of desert sand. She couldn’t cross the desert, but she could, and did, beautifully get round it; so that for him to convert it into an obstacle he would have had to cause himself, as in some childish game or unbecoming romp, to be pursued, to be genially hunted. This last was a turn he was well aware the occasion should on no account take; and there loomed before him—for the mere moment—the prospect of her fairly proposing that they should knock about the balls. That danger certainly, it struck him, he should manage in some way to deal with. Why too, for that matter, had he need of defences, material or other?—how was it a question of dangers really to be called such? The deep danger, the only one that made him, as an idea, positively turn cold, would have been the possibility of her seeking him in marriage, of her bringing up between them that terrible issue. Here, fortunately, she was powerless, it being apparently so provable against her that she had a husband in undiminished existence.
His eyes, anyway, now saw Mrs. Rance coming toward him without any immediate sense of the greediness that Mrs. Rance herself displayed—or at least he couldn’t quite see any triumph in her intense expression. What would be most significant was her belief that he had intended to mislead her by leaving the library—which, in reality, was nearly what he had meant to do. Despite his past attempts to view it lightly and humorously, it was hard for him not to feel ashamed now; the one thing that was relatively easy would be to smooth over his actions. The billiard room was NOT, at that moment, a natural or graceful place for the supposed main resident of such a large house to retreat to—and this didn’t change the fact that his visitor, as he suspected, wouldn’t openly confront him. If she outright accused him of being a sneak, he would totally fall apart; but he wasn’t afraid of that, at least not right now. Wouldn’t she prefer, to emphasize their connection, to accept and possibly make the best out of the awkward situation, treating it as romantic or maybe even funny?—showing that they didn’t have to mind even if the large table covered in brown cloth loomed between them like a stretch of desert sand. She couldn’t cross the desert, but she could and did beautifully navigate around it; so for him to turn it into an obstacle, he would have had to make himself, like in some childish game or embarrassing chase, seem to be running away, to be playfully hunted. This was a direction he knew he absolutely should avoid; and for a brief moment, he envisioned her suggesting that they should play billiards together. That definitely struck him as something he’d have to figure out how to handle. After all, why did he need defenses, whether material or otherwise? Why was this really a matter of dangers in the first place? The deep danger, the only one that made him feel genuinely cold at the thought, would have been her potentially proposing marriage, bringing up that awful topic between them. Thankfully, she was powerless in that regard, as it was clearly provable that she had a husband still alive and well.
She had him, it was true, only in America, only in Texas, in Nebraska, in Arizona or somewhere—somewhere that, at old Fawns House, in the county of Kent, scarcely counted as a definite place at all; it showed somehow, from afar, as so lost, so indistinct and illusory, in the great alkali desert of cheap Divorce. She had him even in bondage, poor man, had him in contempt, had him in remembrance so imperfect as barely to assert itself, but she had him, none the less, in existence unimpeached: the Miss Lutches had seen him in the flesh—as they had appeared eager to mention; though when they were separately questioned their descriptions failed to tally. He would be at the worst, should it come to the worst, Mrs. Rance’s difficulty, and he served therefore quite enough as the stout bulwark of anyone else. This was in truth logic without a flaw, yet it gave Mr. Verver less comfort than it ought. He feared not only danger—he feared the idea of danger, or in other words feared, hauntedly, himself. It was above all as a symbol that Mrs. Rance actually rose before him—a symbol of the supreme effort that he should have sooner or later, as he felt, to make. This effort would be to say No—he lived in terror of having to. He should be proposed to at a given moment—it was only a question of time—and then he should have to do a thing that would be extremely disagreeable. He almost wished, on occasion, that he wasn’t so sure he WOULD do it. He knew himself, however, well enough not to doubt: he knew coldly, quite bleakly, where he would, at the crisis, draw the line. It was Maggie’s marriage and Maggie’s finer happiness—happy as he had supposed her before—that had made the difference; he hadn’t in the other time, it now seemed to him, had to think of such things. They hadn’t come up for him, and it was as if she, positively, had herself kept them down. She had only been his child—which she was indeed as much as ever; but there were sides on which she had protected him as if she were more than a daughter. She had done for him more than he knew—much, and blissfully, as he always HAD known. If she did at present more than ever, through having what she called the change in his life to make up to him for, his situation still, all the same, kept pace with her activity—his situation being simply that there was more than ever to be done.
She had him, it was true, but only in America, only in Texas, in Nebraska, in Arizona, or somewhere else—someplace that, at old Fawns House, in Kent County, hardly counted as a real location at all; it appeared from a distance as so lost, so vague and illusory, in the vast desert of cheap Divorce. She had him even while he was trapped, poor guy, had him in disdain, had him in memories so imperfect they barely asserted themselves, but she had him nonetheless, existing without any blemish: the Miss Lutches had seen him in person—as they were eager to point out; but when they were asked separately, their descriptions didn’t match. He would be at worst, if it came to the worst, Mrs. Rance’s problem, and he served therefore quite adequately as a solid defense for anyone else. This was, in reality, flawless logic, yet it brought Mr. Verver less comfort than it should have. He feared not only danger—he feared the thought of danger, or more accurately, he feared, dreadfully, himself. Above all, Mrs. Rance actually represented a symbol for him—a symbol of the huge effort he felt he would have to make sooner or later. This effort would be to say No—he was terrified he would have to. He would be proposed to at a certain moment—it was just a matter of time—and then he would have to do something that would be extremely unpleasant. Sometimes he almost wished he wasn’t so sure he WOULD do it. However, he knew himself well enough not to doubt: he knew coldly, quite starkly, where he would, at the critical moment, draw the line. It was Maggie’s marriage and Maggie’s greater happiness—happy as he had thought her to be before—that had made the difference; it seemed to him that back then he hadn’t had to consider such things. They hadn’t come up for him, and it was as if she had actively kept them at bay. She had only been his child—which she still was just as much; but in some ways, she had protected him as if she were more than just a daughter. She had done more for him than he realized—much, and blissfully, as he always had known. If she was now doing more than ever, trying to make up for what she called the change in his life, his situation nonetheless kept pace with her activity—his situation simply being that there was more than ever to be done.
There had not yet been quite so much, on all the showing, as since their return from their twenty months in America, as since their settlement again in England, experimental though it was, and the consequent sense, now quite established for him, of a domestic air that had cleared and lightened, producing the effect, for their common personal life, of wider perspectives and large waiting spaces. It was as if his son-in-law’s presence, even from before his becoming his son-in-law, had somehow filled the scene and blocked the future—very richly and handsomely, when all was said, not at all inconveniently or in ways not to have been desired: inasmuch as though the Prince, his measure now practically taken, was still pretty much the same “big fact,” the sky had lifted, the horizon receded, the very foreground itself expanded, quite to match him, quite to keep everything in comfortable scale. At first, certainly, their decent little old-time union, Maggie’s and his own, had resembled a good deal some pleasant public square, in the heart of an old city, into which a great Palladian church, say—something with a grand architectural front—had suddenly been dropped; so that the rest of the place, the space in front, the way round, outside, to the east end, the margin of street and passage, the quantity of over-arching heaven, had been temporarily compromised. Not even then, of a truth, in a manner disconcerting—given, that is, for the critical, or at least the intelligent, eye, the great style of the facade and its high place in its class. The phenomenon that had since occurred, whether originally to have been pronounced calculable or not, had not, naturally, been the miracle of a night, but had taken place so gradually, quietly, easily, that from this vantage of wide, wooded Fawns, with its eighty rooms, as they said, with its spreading park, with its acres and acres of garden and its majesty of artificial lake—though that, for a person so familiar with the “great” ones, might be rather ridiculous—no visibility of transition showed, no violence of adjustment, in retrospect, emerged. The Palladian church was always there, but the piazza took care of itself. The sun stared down in his fulness, the air circulated, and the public not less; the limit stood off, the way round was easy, the east end was as fine, in its fashion, as the west, and there were also side doors for entrance, between the two—large, monumental, ornamental, in their style—as for all proper great churches. By some such process, in fine, had the Prince, for his father-in-law, while remaining solidly a feature, ceased to be, at all ominously, a block.
There hadn’t been quite as much happening since their return from their twenty-month stay in America and their settlement back in England, even though it felt a bit experimental. This created a clear sense of domestic life that felt lighter, bringing wider perspectives and larger spaces for their shared lives together. It was like his son-in-law’s presence, even before he became his son-in-law, had filled the scene and changed the future—very richly and well, not inconveniently or in ways that weren't welcome. Even though the Prince, now measured and defined, was still pretty much the same “big fact,” everything had shifted: the sky had cleared, the horizon had moved away, and even the very foreground had expanded to accommodate him, keeping everything comfortably in scale. Initially, their respectable little old-fashioned union, Maggie's and his, felt a lot like a charming public square in the center of an old city, suddenly overshadowed by a grand Palladian church—something with a stunning architectural front—so that the rest of the area, the space in front, the path around to the east end, the borders of street and passage, and the vast expanse above, felt temporarily constrained. Yet, it wasn’t disconcerting at all—at least not to a critical or intelligent eye—given the magnificent style of the facade and its esteemed place in its category. The transformation that had occurred, whether it was predictable or not, hadn’t happened overnight but had unfolded gradually, quietly, and smoothly. From the perspective of wide, wooded Fawns, with its eighty rooms, beautiful park, acres of garden, and impressive artificial lake—though that might seem a bit silly to someone well-acquainted with the “great” ones—there was no clear visibility of transition and no harsh adjustments seen in hindsight. The Palladian church was always there, but the piazza managed itself. The sun shone brightly, the air circulated, and the public did too; the limits were far away, the paths were easy to navigate, the east end was just as nice as the west, and there were also side doors for entry—large, monumental, and ornately styled like all proper grand churches. In this way, the Prince, while firmly a part of his father-in-law's life, ceased to be an intimidating obstacle.
Mr. Verver, it may further be mentioned, had taken at no moment sufficient alarm to have kept in detail the record of his reassurance; but he would none the less not have been unable, not really have been indisposed, to impart in confidence to the right person his notion of the history of the matter. The right person—it is equally distinct—had not, for this illumination, been wanting, but had been encountered in the form of Fanny Assingham, not for the first time indeed admitted to his counsels, and who would have doubtless at present, in any case, from plenitude of interest and with equal guarantees, repeated his secret. It all came then, the great clearance, from the one prime fact that the Prince, by good fortune, hadn’t proved angular. He clung to that description of his daughter’s husband as he often did to terms and phrases, in the human, the social connection, that he had found for himself: it was his way to have times of using these constantly, as if they just then lighted the world, or his own path in it, for him—even when for some of his interlocutors they covered less ground. It was true that with Mrs. Assingham he never felt quite sure of the ground anything covered; she disputed with him so little, agreed with him so much, surrounded him with such systematic consideration, such predetermined tenderness, that it was almost—which he had once told her in irritation as if she were nursing a sick baby. He had accused her of not taking him seriously, and she had replied—as from her it couldn’t frighten him—that she took him religiously, adoringly. She had laughed again, as she had laughed before, on his producing for her that good right word about the happy issue of his connection with the Prince—with an effect the more odd perhaps as she had not contested its value. She couldn’t of course, however, be, at the best, as much in love with his discovery as he was himself. He was so much so that he fairly worked it—to his own comfort; came in fact sometimes near publicly pointing the moral of what might have occurred if friction, so to speak, had occurred. He pointed it frankly one day to the personage in question, mentioned to the Prince the particular justice he did him, was even explicit as to the danger that, in their remarkable relation, they had thus escaped. Oh, if he HAD been angular!—who could say what might THEN have happened? He spoke—and it was the way he had spoken to Mrs. Assingham too—as if he grasped the facts, without exception, for which angularity stood.
Mr. Verver, it’s worth noting, never really got alarmed enough to keep a detailed record of his reassurances; still, he wouldn’t have been unable—or really unwilling—to share his thoughts on the matter's history in confidence with the right person. That right person, it’s clear, was available and had shown up in the form of Fanny Assingham, who had, not for the first time, been brought into his discussions and would likely have told him his secret again out of sheer interest and trust. The big revelation came from one main fact: the Prince, luckily, hadn’t turned out to be difficult. He held onto that description of his daughter’s husband as he often did with words and phrases he had come up with in the social context: it was just his way to use these consistently at times, as if they were lighting up the world or his own path, even when they covered less ground for some of his conversation partners. With Mrs. Assingham, it was true he never felt entirely sure of what ground anything covered; she argued with him so little, agreed with him so much, and surrounded him with such systematic consideration and predetermined kindness that it was almost—as he had once told her in frustration—like she was tending to a sick child. He had accused her of not taking him seriously, and she had replied—without any fear—that she took him very seriously, almost worshipfully. She laughed again, just as she had before, when he told her that perfect word about the successful outcome of his connection with the Prince—an effect that felt even weirder because she hadn’t contested its significance. She couldn’t, of course, be as in love with his revelation as he was. He was so enamored that he often drew comfort from it; sometimes, he even came close to publicly highlighting the moral of what might have happened if friction, so to speak, had occurred. One day, he pointed it out directly to the Prince, mentioned the particular justice he showed him, and was clear about the danger they had managed to dodge in their unusual relationship. Oh, if he HAD been difficult!—who could say what might HAVE happened then? He spoke—as he had to Mrs. Assingham too—as if he fully understood all the facts that angularity represented.
It figured for him, clearly, as a final idea, a conception of the last vividness. He might have been signifying by it the sharp corners and hard edges, all the stony pointedness, the grand right geometry of his spreading Palladian church. Just so, he was insensible to no feature of the felicity of a contact that, beguilingly, almost confoundingly, was a contact but with practically yielding lines and curved surfaces. “You’re round, my boy,” he had said—“you’re ALL, you’re variously and inexhaustibly round, when you might, by all the chances, have been abominably square. I’m not sure, for that matter,” he had added, “that you’re not square in the general mass—whether abominably or not. The abomination isn’t a question, for you’re inveterately round—that’s what I mean—in the detail. It’s the sort of thing, in you, that one feels—or at least I do—with one’s hand. Say you had been formed, all over, in a lot of little pyramidal lozenges like that wonderful side of the Ducal Palace in Venice—so lovely in a building, but so damnable, for rubbing against, in a man, and especially in a near relation. I can see them all from here—each of them sticking out by itself—all the architectural cut diamonds that would have scratched one’s softer sides. One would have been scratched by diamonds—doubtless the neatest way if one was to be scratched at all—but one would have been more or less reduced to a hash. As it is, for living with, you’re a pure and perfect crystal. I give you my idea—I think you ought to have it—just as it has come to me.” The Prince had taken the idea, in his way, for he was well accustomed, by this time, to taking; and nothing perhaps even could more have confirmed Mr. Verver’s account of his surface than the manner in which these golden drops evenly flowed over it. They caught in no interstice, they gathered in no concavity; the uniform smoothness betrayed the dew but by showing for the moment a richer tone. The young man, in other words, unconfusedly smiled—though indeed as if assenting, from principle and habit, to more than he understood. He liked all signs that things were well, but he cared rather less WHY they were.
It was clear to him that this was a final idea, a vision of ultimate clarity. He might have been referring to the sharp corners and hard edges, all the pointed stoniness, the grand right angles of his expansive Palladian church. Similarly, he wasn’t oblivious to the joy of a connection that was enticingly, almost confusingly, a connection but with mostly soft lines and curved surfaces. “You’re round, my boy,” he had said—“you’re ALL, you’re endlessly and variedly round, when you could have easily been dreadfully square. I’m not sure, in fact,” he added, “that you’re not square in your overall shape—whether dreadfully or not. The awkwardness isn’t the main issue, because you’re definitely round—that’s what I’m getting at—in the details. It’s the kind of thing, in you, that one feels—or at least I do—by touch. Imagine if you had been shaped all over with a bunch of little pyramidal diamonds like that stunning side of the Ducal Palace in Venice—so beautiful in a building, but so irritating to deal with in a person, especially in a close relation. I can picture them all from here—each one sticking out independently—all the architectural diamond cuts that would have scratched at one’s softer sides. One would have been scratched by diamonds—certainly the neatest way to get scratched if that was to happen—but one would have been more or less crushed. As it is, for living with, you’re a pure and perfect crystal. I share my idea with you—I think you should have it—just as it has come to me.” The Prince had received the idea, in his own way, as he was quite used to receiving things by now; and possibly nothing could have confirmed Mr. Verver’s description of his surface more than how these golden drops evenly flowed over it. They didn’t get caught in any gaps, they didn’t pool in any dents; the uniform smoothness revealed the dew only by briefly showing a richer tone. In other words, the young man smiled clearly—though indeed it seemed like he was agreeing, out of routine and instinct, to more than he truly understood. He appreciated all signs that things were going well, but he cared a bit less WHY they were.
In regard to the people among whom he had since his marriage been living, the reasons they so frequently gave—so much oftener than he had ever heard reasons given before—remained on the whole the element by which he most differed from them; and his father-in-law and his wife were, after all, only first among the people among whom he had been living. He was never even yet sure of how, at this, that or the other point, he would strike them; they felt remarkably, so often, things he hadn’t meant, and missed not less remarkably, and not less often, things he had. He had fallen back on his general explanation—“We haven’t the same values;” by which he understood the same measure of importance. His “curves” apparently were important because they had been unexpected, or, still more, unconceived; whereas when one had always, as in his relegated old world, taken curves, and in much greater quantities too, for granted, one was no more surprised at the resulting feasibility of intercourse than one was surprised at being upstairs in a house that had a staircase. He had in fact on this occasion disposed alertly enough of the subject of Mr. Verver’s approbation. The promptitude of his answer, we may in fact well surmise, had sprung not a little from a particular kindled remembrance; this had given his acknowledgment its easiest turn. “Oh, if I’m a crystal I’m delighted that I’m a perfect one, for I believe that they sometimes have cracks and flaws—in which case they’re to be had very cheap!” He had stopped short of the emphasis it would have given his joke to add that there had been certainly no having HIM cheap; and it was doubtless a mark of the good taste practically reigning between them that Mr. Verver had not, on his side either, taken up the opportunity. It is the latter’s relation to such aspects, however, that now most concerns us, and the bearing of his pleased view of this absence of friction upon Amerigo’s character as a representative precious object. Representative precious objects, great ancient pictures and other works of art, fine eminent “pieces” in gold, in silver, in enamel, majolica, ivory, bronze, had for a number of years so multiplied themselves round him and, as a general challenge to acquisition and appreciation, so engaged all the faculties of his mind, that the instinct, the particular sharpened appetite of the collector, had fairly served as a basis for his acceptance of the Prince’s suit.
Regarding the people he had been living with since his marriage, the reasons they often gave—much more frequently than he had ever heard reasons before—were the main way he felt different from them. His father-in-law and his wife were, after all, just the leaders among the people he surrounded himself with. He still wasn’t sure how he would react at various points; they often sensed things he hadn’t intended and, just as often, missed things he had meant. He had reverted to his usual explanation—“We don’t share the same values;” which he understood as differing in significance. His “curves” seemed significant because they were unexpected or even unimaginable; whereas in his previous life, where curves were taken for granted, he was no more surprised by the possibility of interaction than by being upstairs in a house with a staircase. On this occasion, he had handled the topic of Mr. Verver’s approval with enough alertness. The quickness of his response likely came from a specific recollection that made his acknowledgment smoothly easy. “Oh, if I’m a crystal I’m thrilled to be a perfect one, because I believe some have cracks and flaws—in which case they’re very cheap!” He had refrained from emphasizing that there was certainly no way to get HIM cheaply; and it was probably a sign of the good taste shared between them that Mr. Verver hadn’t taken that opportunity either. However, it’s Mr. Verver’s relationship to these details that concerns us most now, and how his pleased perspective on this lack of conflict relates to Amerigo’s character as a valuable object. Valuable objects, significant old paintings, and other artworks, as well as fine pieces in gold, silver, enamel, majolica, ivory, and bronze, had multiplied around him for a number of years, and as a general challenge for acquisition and appreciation, they had engaged all of his mental faculties, making the instinct and sharpened desire of the collector the foundation for his acceptance of the Prince’s proposal.
Over and above the signal fact of the impression made on Maggie herself, the aspirant to his daughter’s hand showed somehow the great marks and signs, stood before him with the high authenticities, he had learned to look for in pieces of the first order. Adam Verver knew, by this time, knew thoroughly; no man in Europe or in America, he privately believed, was less capable, in such estimates, of vulgar mistakes. He had never spoken of himself as infallible—it was not his way; but, apart from the natural affections, he had acquainted himself with no greater joy, of the intimately personal type, than the joy of his originally coming to feel, and all so unexpectedly, that he had in him the spirit of the connoisseur. He had, like many other persons, in the course of his reading, been struck with Keats’s sonnet about stout Cortez in the presence of the Pacific; but few persons, probably, had so devoutly fitted the poet’s grand image to a fact of experience. It consorted so with Mr. Verver’s consciousness of the way in which, at a given moment, he had stared at HIS Pacific, that a couple of perusals of the immortal lines had sufficed to stamp them in his memory. His “peak in Darien” was the sudden hour that had transformed his life, the hour of his perceiving with a mute inward gasp akin to the low moan of apprehensive passion, that a world was left him to conquer and that he might conquer it if he tried. It had been a turning of the page of the book of life—as if a leaf long inert had moved at a touch and, eagerly reversed, had made such a stir of the air as sent up into his face the very breath of the Golden Isles. To rifle the Golden Isles had, on the spot, become the business of his future, and with the sweetness of it—what was most wondrous of all—still more even in the thought than in the act. The thought was that of the affinity of Genius, or at least of Taste, with something in himself—with the dormant intelligence of which he had thus almost violently become aware and that affected him as changing by a mere revolution of the screw his whole intellectual plane. He was equal, somehow, with the great seers, the invokers and encouragers of beauty—and he didn’t after all perhaps dangle so far below the great producers and creators. He had been nothing of that kind before-too decidedly, too dreadfully not; but now he saw why he had been what he had, why he had failed and fallen short even in huge success; now he read into his career, in one single magnificent night, the immense meaning it had waited for.
Besides the clear impression made on Maggie herself, the suitor for his daughter’s hand somehow showed all the important signs, standing before him with the undeniable qualities he had learned to recognize in the best of the best. Adam Verver knew by now, without a doubt, that no man in Europe or America, he privately believed, was less prone to make crude mistakes in such assessments. He never claimed to be infallible—it just wasn't his style; but aside from natural affections, he hadn’t found a greater joy, of a deeply personal nature, than realizing unexpectedly that he possessed the spirit of a connoisseur. Like many others, during his reading, he had been struck by Keats’s sonnet about stout Cortez in front of the Pacific; but probably few had so sincerely applied the poet’s grand image to a real experience. It resonated deeply with Mr. Verver’s awareness of the moment when he had gazed at his own Pacific, such that a couple of readings of those immortal lines had been enough to etch them into his memory. His “peak in Darien” was that sudden moment that had changed his life, the moment he felt, with a silent inward gasp akin to the soft moan of eager passion, that there was a world left for him to conquer and he could do it if he tried. It was like turning the page in the book of life—as if a leaf that had long been still had moved at a touch and, eagerly flipped, created such a stir in the air that it sent the very essence of the Golden Isles into his face. The quest to explore the Golden Isles had, right then and there, become the mission of his future, and what was most astonishing was that the sweetness of it was even more radiant in thought than in action. The thought was about the connection between Genius, or at least Taste, with something within himself—something he had suddenly and almost forcefully become aware of, altering his entire intellectual perspective. He was somehow on par with the great visionaries, the invokers and encouragers of beauty—and perhaps he wasn’t so far removed from the great creators after all. He hadn’t been any of that before—too clearly, too overwhelmingly not; but now he understood why he had been as he was, why he had failed and fallen short even amidst significant successes; now he saw the immense meaning his career had waited for, all revealed in one magnificent night.
It was during his first visit to Europe after the death of his wife, when his daughter was ten years old, that the light, in his mind, had so broken—and he had even made out at that time why, on an earlier occasion, the journey of his honeymoon year, it had still been closely covered. He had “bought” then, so far as he had been able, but he had bought almost wholly for the frail, fluttered creature at his side, who had had her fancies, decidedly, but all for the art, then wonderful to both of them, of the Rue de la Paix, the costly authenticities of dressmakers and jewellers. Her flutter—pale disconcerted ghost as she actually was, a broken white flower tied round, almost grotesquely for his present sense, with a huge satin “bow” of the Boulevard—her flutter had been mainly that of ribbons, frills and fine fabrics; all funny, pathetic evidence, for memory, of the bewilderments overtaking them as a bridal pair confronted with opportunity. He could wince, fairly, still, as he remembered the sense in which the poor girl’s pressure had, under his fond encouragement indeed, been exerted in favour of purchase and curiosity. These were wandering images, out of the earlier dusk, that threw her back, for his pity, into a past more remote than he liked their common past, their young affection, to appear. It would have had to be admitted, to an insistent criticism, that Maggie’s mother, all too strangely, had not so much failed of faith as of the right application of it; since she had exercised it eagerly and restlessly, made it a pretext for innocent perversities in respect to which philosophic time was at, last to reduce all groans to gentleness. And they had loved each other so that his own intelligence, on the higher line, had temporarily paid for it. The futilities, the enormities, the depravities, of decoration and ingenuity, that, before his sense was unsealed, she had made him think lovely! Musing, reconsidering little man that he was, and addicted to silent pleasures—as he was accessible to silent pains—he even sometimes wondered what would have become of his intelligence, in the sphere in which it was to learn more and more exclusively to play, if his wife’s influence upon it had not been, in the strange scheme of things, so promptly removed. Would she have led him altogether, attached as he was to her, into the wilderness of mere mistakes? Would she have prevented him from ever scaling his vertiginous Peak?—or would she, otherwise, have been able to accompany him to that eminence, where he might have pointed out to her, as Cortez to HIS companions, the revelation vouchsafed? No companion of Cortez had presumably been a real lady: Mr. Verver allowed that historic fact to determine his inference.
It was during his first trip to Europe after his wife’s death, when his daughter was ten, that everything fell into place for him. He realized at that time why, on an earlier occasion—during their honeymoon—that journey had felt so tightly wrapped up. He had “bought” things then, as much as he could, but he had mostly bought for the delicate, nervous person by his side, who had her own dreams, particularly related to the amazing art of Rue de la Paix and the expensive authenticity of tailors and jewelers. Her excitement—faded and confused as she was, like a broken white flower tied with a huge satin bow that seemed almost ridiculous to him now—was mostly about ribbons, frills, and fine fabrics; all silly, touching reminders of the bewildering experiences they faced as a newlywed couple confronted with choices. He could still wince as he remembered how heavily the poor girl had leaned on his affectionate support to push for purchases and curiosity. These were wandering images from a past he wished was more distant than their shared history and youthful love. It had to be admitted, under persistent scrutiny, that Maggie’s mother hadn’t so much lost her faith as failed to apply it properly; she had practiced it eagerly and nervously, using it as an excuse for harmless quirks for which time would eventually soften the pain. They had loved each other in such a way that his own intellect had momentarily suffered for it. The trivialities, the absurdities, the corrupting details of design and creativity that she had made him find beautiful before he saw things clearly! As he pondered, reflective little man that he was, finding joy in quiet moments—as much as he felt sadness in silence—he sometimes wondered what would have happened to his intellect, in the realm where it would eventually learn to focus solely on enjoyment, if his wife's influence hadn’t been, in the odd way of life, abruptly taken from him. Would she have completely led him, so attached was he to her, into a maze of errors? Would she have prevented him from climbing to his dizzying height? Or, on the other hand, would she have been able to join him at that peak, where he could have shown her, like Cortez to his men, the revelation granted to him? No companion of Cortez had likely been a true lady: Mr. Verver acknowledged that historical fact when drawing his conclusions.
VIII
VIII
What was at all events not permanently hidden from him was a truth much less invidious about his years of darkness. It was the strange scheme of things again: the years of darkness had been needed to render possible the years of light. A wiser hand than he at first knew had kept him hard at acquisition of one sort as a perfect preliminary to acquisition of another, and the preliminary would have been weak and wanting if the good faith of it had been less. His comparative blindness had made the good faith, which in its turn had made the soil propitious for the flower of the supreme idea. He had had to LIKE forging and sweating, he had had to like polishing and piling up his arms. They were things at least he had had to believe he liked, just as he had believed he liked transcendent calculation and imaginative gambling all for themselves, the creation of “interests” that were the extinction of other interests, the livid vulgarity, even, of getting in, or getting out, first. That had of course been so far from really the case—with the supreme idea, all the while, growing and striking deep, under everything, in the warm, rich earth. He had stood unknowing, he had walked and worked where it was buried, and the fact itself, the fact of his fortune, would have been a barren fact enough if the first sharp tender shoot had never struggled into day. There on one side was the ugliness his middle time had been spared; there on the other, from all the portents, was the beauty with which his age might still be crowned. He was happier, doubtless, than he deserved; but THAT, when one was happy at all, it was easy to be. He had wrought by devious ways, but he had reached the place, and what would ever have been straighter, in any man’s life, than his way, now, of occupying it? It hadn’t merely, his plan, all the sanctions of civilization; it was positively civilization condensed, concrete, consummate, set down by his hands as a house on a rock—a house from whose open doors and windows, open to grateful, to thirsty millions, the higher, the highest knowledge would shine out to bless the land. In this house, designed as a gift, primarily, to the people of his adoptive city and native State, the urgency of whose release from the bondage of ugliness he was in a position to measure—in this museum of museums, a palace of art which was to show for compact as a Greek temple was compact, a receptacle of treasures sifted to positive sanctity, his spirit to-day almost altogether lived, making up, as he would have said, for lost time and haunting the portico in anticipation of the final rites.
What was never completely hidden from him was a truth that was a lot less troubling about his dark years. It was the odd order of things again: the years of darkness were necessary to make the years of light possible. A wiser force than he initially realized had kept him focused on one type of gain as a perfect groundwork for another, and that groundwork would have been weak and lacking if it hadn't been genuinely pursued. His relative ignorance had fostered the sincerity that, in turn, had created the right conditions for the blossoming of the supreme idea. He had to genuinely enjoy the hard work and effort; he had to find pleasure in sharpening and stacking his tools. They were things he had to convince himself he liked, just as he had convinced himself he enjoyed complex calculations and risky bets for their own sake, creating “interests” that eliminated others, the crass reality of getting in or out first. But this was far from the truth—meanwhile, the supreme idea was growing and taking root, quietly, in the fertile ground underneath everything. He had walked and worked where it lay hidden, and the fact itself, the fact of his fortune, would have been a hollow fact if the first fragile shoot had never pushed through to the light. One side showed the ugliness that his middle years had avoided; the other side held the beauty that could still crown his age. He was certainly happier than he deserved; but when one was happy, it was easy to be so. He had traveled winding paths, but he had arrived at his destination, and what could have been more straightforward, in anyone’s life, than his current way of claiming it? His plan had not just the support of civilization; it was the essence of civilization—tangible, complete, built by his own hands like a house on solid ground—a house from whose open doors and windows, welcoming grateful, thirsty millions, would shine the highest knowledge to bless the land. In this house, designed as a gift primarily for the people of his adoptive city and home State, which he was positioned to help free from the bondage of ugliness—in this museum of museums, a palace of art compact as a Greek temple, a repository of treasures purified to true sanctity, his spirit lived almost entirely today, making up for lost time and lingering in the entrance in anticipation of the final ceremonies.
These would be the “opening exercises,” the august dedication of the place. His imagination, he was well aware, got over the ground faster than his judgment; there was much still to do for the production of his first effect. Foundations were laid and walls were rising, the structure of the shell all determined; but raw haste was forbidden him in a connection so intimate with the highest effects of patience and piety; he should belie himself by completing without a touch at least of the majesty of delay a monument to the religion he wished to propagate, the exemplary passion, the passion for perfection at any price. He was far from knowing as yet where he would end, but he was admirably definite as to where he wouldn’t begin. He wouldn’t begin with a small show—he would begin with a great, and he could scarce have indicated, even had he wished to try, the line of division he had drawn. He had taken no trouble to indicate it to his fellow-citizens, purveyors and consumers, in his own and the circumjacent commonwealths, of comic matter in large lettering, diurnally “set up,” printed, published, folded and delivered, at the expense of his presumptuous emulation of the snail. The snail had become for him, under this ironic suggestion, the loveliest beast in nature, and his return to England, of which we are present witnesses, had not been unconnected with the appreciation so determined. It marked what he liked to mark, that he needed, on the matter in question, instruction from no one on earth. A couple of years of Europe again, of renewed nearness to changes and chances, refreshed sensibility to the currents of the market, would fall in with the consistency of wisdom, the particular shade of enlightened conviction, that he wished to observe. It didn’t look like much for a whole family to hang about waiting—they being now, since the birth of his grandson, a whole family; and there was henceforth only one ground in all the world, he felt, on which the question of appearance would ever really again count for him. He cared that a work of art of price should “look like” the master to whom it might perhaps be deceitfully attributed; but he had ceased on the whole to know any matter of the rest of life by its looks.
These would be the “opening exercises,” the grand dedication of the place. He was well aware that his imagination moved faster than his judgment; there was still much to do to create his first impact. Foundations were laid and walls were rising, and the structure of the shell was all set; but he couldn’t rush in a process so deeply tied to the highest outcomes of patience and devotion. To finish without a hint of the grandeur of delay would betray the monument he wanted to create for the faith he aimed to spread, the exemplary passion, the passion for perfection at any cost. He wasn’t sure where he would end up, but he was very clear about where he wouldn’t start. He wouldn't begin with a small endeavor—he would start with a grand one, and he could hardly even express, even if he wanted to, the line he had drawn. He hadn’t made any effort to show his fellow citizens, providers and consumers in his own and neighboring areas, the comic content he produced in large print, daily “set up,” printed, published, folded, and delivered, at the expense of his ambitious imitation of the snail. The snail had become, under this ironic twist, the most beautiful creature in nature for him, and his return to England, which we are witnessing now, was definitely linked to this newfound appreciation. It marked what he liked to emphasize: he didn’t need instruction from anyone on earth regarding this subject. A couple more years in Europe, getting close to changes and opportunities, and being attuned to market trends, would align with the wisdom he wanted to embody, the particular shade of enlightened belief he aimed to uphold. It didn’t seem like much for an entire family to hang around waiting—they were now, since the birth of his grandson, a complete family; and from then on, he felt there would only be one reason in the world why the question of appearance would ever really matter to him again. He cared that a valuable work of art should “look like” the master to whom it might, perhaps deceptively, be attributed; but he had generally stopped judging the rest of life by its appearance.
He took life in general higher up the stream; so far as he was not actually taking it as a collector, he was taking it, decidedly, as a grandfather. In the way of precious small pieces he had handled nothing so precious as the Principino, his daughter’s first-born, whose Italian designation endlessly amused him and whom he could manipulate and dandle, already almost toss and catch again, as he couldn’t a correspondingly rare morsel of an earlier pate tendre. He could take the small clutching child from his nurse’s arms with an iteration grimly discountenanced, in respect to their contents, by the glass doors of high cabinets. Something clearly beatific in this new relation had, moreover, without doubt, confirmed for him the sense that none of his silent answers to public detraction, to local vulgarity, had ever been so legitimately straight as the mere element of attitude—reduce it, he said, to that—in his easy weeks at Fawns. The element of attitude was all he wanted of these weeks, and he was enjoying it on the spot, even more than he had hoped: enjoying it in spite of Mrs. Rance and the Miss Lutches; in spite of the small worry of his belief that Fanny Assingham had really something for him that she was keeping back; in spite of his full consciousness, overflowing the cup like a wine too generously poured, that if he had consented to marry his daughter, and thereby to make, as it were, the difference, what surrounded him now was, exactly, consent vivified, marriage demonstrated, the difference, in fine, definitely made. He could call back his prior, his own wedded consciousness—it was not yet out of range of vague reflection. He had supposed himself, above all he had supposed his wife, as married as anyone could be, and yet he wondered if their state had deserved the name, or their union worn the beauty, in the degree to which the couple now before him carried the matter. In especial since the birth of their boy, in New York—the grand climax of their recent American period, brought to so right an issue—the happy pair struck him as having carried it higher, deeper, further; to where it ceased to concern his imagination, at any rate, to follow them. Extraordinary, beyond question, was one branch of his characteristic mute wonderment—it characterised above all, with its subject before it, his modesty: the strange dim doubt, waking up for him at the end of the years, of whether Maggie’s mother had, after all, been capable of the maximum. The maximum of tenderness he meant—as the terms existed for him; the maximum of immersion in the fact of being married. Maggie herself was capable; Maggie herself at this season, was, exquisitely, divinely, the maximum: such was the impression that, positively holding off a little for the practical, the tactful consideration it inspired in him, a respect for the beauty and sanctity of it almost amounting to awe—such was the impression he daily received from her. She was her mother, oh yes—but her mother and something more; it becoming thus a new light for him, and in such a curious way too, that anything more than her mother should prove at this time of day possible.
He approached life in general from a higher perspective; as much as he wasn’t just collecting experiences, he was definitely experiencing life as a grandfather. When it came to precious little things, nothing was as dear to him as the Principino, his daughter’s first child, whose Italian name endlessly amused him and whom he could hold and play with, almost toss in the air and catch again, unlike any similarly rare treat from his earlier years. He could take the small, grasping child from his nurse's arms with a stoic seriousness, particularly contrasting with what was behind the glass doors of high cabinets. There was something undeniably blissful about this new relationship that reinforced his belief that none of his quiet responses to public criticism or local crudeness had ever been as genuinely straightforward as his simple attitude—he said to reduce it down to that—during his relaxing weeks at Fawns. The attitude was all he wanted from those weeks, and he was relishing it in the moment, even more than he had anticipated: enjoying it despite Mrs. Rance and the Miss Lutches; despite the slight worry that Fanny Assingham was holding back something from him; despite his full awareness, overflowing like a glass too generously filled, that if he had agreed to marry off his daughter, and thus bring about a change, what surrounded him now was, precisely, a revitalization of consent, marriage showcased, and the difference unmistakably established. He could still recall his own sense of being married—it was not yet beyond the reach of vague reflection. He had considered himself, and especially his wife, as married as anyone could be, yet he wondered if their relationship truly deserved that title or if the beauty of their union matched the level of connection that the couple in front of him maintained. Especially since the birth of their son in New York—the grand peak of their recent American chapter, resolved more perfectly than expected—the happy couple struck him as having taken their connection to a higher, deeper, and further place; a place where it no longer concerned him to try to keep up. Undoubtedly, one aspect of his trademark silent amazement characterized his modesty: the strange, lingering doubt, awakening for him after all these years, of whether Maggie's mother had ever truly been capable of giving the utmost. By utmost, he meant the highest level of tenderness; the deepest immersion in the experience of being married. Maggie herself had that capability; at this moment, she embodied, exquisitely and divine, the utmost: such was the impression that, while allowing for some practical and thoughtful consideration it inspired in him, a respect for its beauty and sanctity bordering on reverence—such was the impression he received from her daily. She was her mother, of course—but she was also something more; it became a new revelation for him, in such a curious way that anything beyond her being just her mother should seem possible at this point in time.
He could live over again at almost any quiet moment the long process of his introduction to his present interests—an introduction that had depended all on himself, like the “cheek” of the young man who approaches a boss without credentials or picks up an acquaintance, makes even a real friend, by speaking to a passer in the street. HIS real friend, in all the business, was to have been his own mind, with which nobody had put him in relation. He had knocked at the door of that essentially private house, and his call, in truth, had not been immediately answered; so that when, after waiting and coming back, he had at last got in, it was, twirling his hat, as an embarrassed stranger, or, trying his keys, as a thief at night. He had gained confidence only with time, but when he had taken real possession of the place it had been never again to come away. All of which success represented, it must be allowed, his one principle of pride. Pride in the mere original spring, pride in his money, would have been pride in something that had come, in comparison, so easily. The right ground for elation was difficulty mastered, and his difficulty—thanks to his modesty—had been to believe in his facility. THIS was the problem he had worked out to its solution—the solution that was now doing more than all else to make his feet settle and his days flush; and when he wished to feel “good,” as they said at American City, he had but to retrace his immense development. That was what the whole thing came back to—that the development had not been somebody’s else passing falsely, accepted too ignobly, for his. To think how servile he might have been was absolutely to respect himself, was in fact, as much as he liked, to admire himself, as free. The very finest spring that ever responded to his touch was always there to press—the memory of his freedom as dawning upon him, like a sunrise all pink and silver, during a winter divided between Florence, Rome and Naples some three years after his wife’s death. It was the hushed daybreak of the Roman revelation in particular that he could usually best recover, with the way that there, above all, where the princes and Popes had been before him, his divination of his faculty most went to his head. He was a plain American citizen, staying at an hotel where, sometimes, for days together, there were twenty others like him; but no Pope, no prince of them all had read a richer meaning, he believed, into the character of the Patron of Art. He was ashamed of them really, if he wasn’t afraid, and he had on the whole never so climbed to the tip-top as in judging, over a perusal of Hermann Grimm, where Julius II and Leo X were “placed” by their treatment of Michael Angelo. Far below the plain American citizen—in the case at least in which this personage happened not to be too plain to be Adam Verver. Going to our friend’s head, moreover, some of the results of such comparisons may doubtless be described as having stayed there. His freedom to see—of which the comparisons were part—what could it do but steadily grow and grow?
He could relive almost any quiet moment spent getting into his current interests—an introduction that had all depended on him, like the boldness of a young man who approaches a boss without any credentials or strikes up a conversation with a stranger, even forming a real friendship by talking to someone on the street. His true friend, in all of this, was meant to be his own mind, which no one had connected him to. He had knocked on the door of that deeply private space, and honestly, his call hadn't been answered right away; so when he had finally gotten in after waiting and returning, it felt like he was a nervous stranger twirling his hat or a thief trying his keys in the dark. He had only gained confidence over time, but once he truly claimed that space, he never planned to leave it again. This success represented, without a doubt, his one source of pride. Being proud of mere initial gains or his wealth would have felt like taking pride in something achieved too easily. The true reason for celebration was the challenges he had overcome, and his challenge—thanks to his humility—had been believing in his own abilities. This was the problem he had figured out—the solution that was now more than anything else grounding him and enriching his days; and whenever he wanted to feel "good," as they said in American City, he just needed to reflect on his significant growth. That was what it all came down to—the fact that his growth hadn’t been someone else’s false passing, taken too shamefully for his own. To think how subservient he might have been was to genuinely respect himself, to admire himself as free. The most profound realization he could ever respond to was always accessible—the memory of his freedom awakening within him, like a sunrise in shades of pink and silver, during a winter split between Florence, Rome, and Naples about three years after his wife’s death. It was particularly the quiet dawn of the Roman revelation that he could usually best recall, especially since there, above all, where princes and Popes had been before him, his awareness of his own talent felt most intoxicating. He was a simple American citizen, staying at a hotel where sometimes, for days at a time, there were twenty others just like him; but he believed no Pope, no prince among them had discerned a richer meaning in the essence of the Patron of Art. He felt embarrassed by them, really, even if he didn't feel afraid, and he had never ascended to such heights as when evaluating, after reading Hermann Grimm, how Julius II and Leo X were “placed” based on their treatment of Michelangelo. Far beneath the plain American citizen—at least when this character happened to be not too plain to be Adam Verver. Furthermore, some of the results of such comparisons likely lingered in his mind. His freedom to perceive—of which the comparisons were a part—what could it do but continue to expand and grow?
It came perhaps even too much to stand to him for ALL freedom—since, for example, it was as much there as ever at the very time of Mrs. Rance’s conspiring against him, at Fawns, with the billiard-room and the Sunday morning, on the occasion round which we have perhaps drawn our circle too wide. Mrs. Rance at least controlled practically each other license of the present and the near future: the license to pass the hour as he would have found convenient; the license to stop remembering, for a little, that, though if proposed to—and not only by this aspirant but by any other—he wouldn’t prove foolish, the proof of wisdom was none the less, in such a fashion, rather cruelly conditioned; the license in especial to proceed from his letters to his journals and insulate, orientate, himself afresh by the sound, over his gained interval, of the many-mouthed monster the exercise of whose lungs he so constantly stimulated. Mrs. Rance remained with him till the others came back from church, and it was by that time clearer than ever that his ordeal, when it should arrive, would be really most unpleasant. His impression—this was the point—took somehow the form not so much of her wanting to press home her own advantage as of her building better than she knew; that is of her symbolising, with virtual unconsciousness, his own special deficiency, his unfortunate lack of a wife to whom applications could be referred. The applications, the contingencies with which Mrs. Rance struck him as potentially bristling, were not of a sort, really, to be met by one’s self. And the possibility of them, when his visitor said, or as good as said, “I’m restrained, you see, because of Mr. Rance, and also because I’m proud and refined; but if it WASN’T for Mr. Rance and for my refinement and my pride!”—the possibility of them, I say, turned to a great murmurous rustle, of a volume to fill the future; a rustle of petticoats, of scented, many-paged letters, of voices as to which, distinguish themselves as they might from each other, it mattered little in what part of the resounding country they had learned to make themselves prevail. The Assinghams and the Miss Lutches had taken the walk, through the park, to the little old church, “on the property,” that our friend had often found himself wishing he were able to transport, as it stood, for its simple sweetness, in a glass case, to one of his exhibitory halls; while Maggie had induced her husband, not inveterate in such practices, to make with her, by carriage, the somewhat longer pilgrimage to the nearest altar, modest though it happened to be, of the faith—her own as it had been her mother’s, and as Mr. Verver himself had been loosely willing, always, to let it be taken for his—without the solid ease of which, making the stage firm and smooth, the drama of her marriage might not have been acted out.
It might have been too much for him to handle regarding ALL freedom—since, for instance, it was as present as ever during Mrs. Rance’s plotting against him at Fawns, in the billiard room on that Sunday morning, around which we may have drawn our circle too wide. Mrs. Rance practically controlled every possibility of the present and near future: the chance to spend the hour as he found convenient; the chance to stop remembering, for a bit, that while he wouldn’t be foolish if proposed to—and not just by this hopeful but by anyone—his wisdom was nonetheless rather cruelly conditional; especially the chance to move from his letters to his journals and isolate, reorient, himself anew by the sound, over the time he gained, of the many-voiced monster whose voice he constantly stimulated. Mrs. Rance stayed with him until the others returned from church, and by that time it was clearer than ever that his ordeal, when it came, would be quite unpleasant. His impression—this was the key—somehow shaped into the idea that it wasn’t so much her desire to press her advantage as it was her unknowingly symbolizing his own special deficiency, his unfortunate lack of a wife to whom he could refer such matters. The situations and contingencies that Mrs. Rance made him feel were not really the kind one could handle alone. And the potential of them, when his visitor implied, “I’m held back, you see, because of Mr. Rance, and also because I’m proud and refined; but if it WEREN’T for Mr. Rance and for my refinement and my pride!”—the possibility of them, I say, turned into a significant murmurous rustle, a sound that seemed to fill the future; a rustle of skirts, of scented, multi-page letters, of voices that, no matter how much they tried to distinguish themselves from one another, it mattered little where in the vast country they had learned to make themselves heard. The Assinghams and the Miss Lutches had taken a walk through the park to the little old church “on the property” that our friend often wished he could transport, as it stood, for its simple beauty, into a glass case for one of his exhibit halls; while Maggie had persuaded her husband, not usually one for such things, to join her, by carriage, on the somewhat longer journey to the nearest altar, humble though it was, of her faith—her own, as it had been her mother’s, and as Mr. Verver himself had always been loosely willing to let it be assumed to be his—without which solid ease, ensuring the stage was firm and smooth, the drama of her marriage might not have played out.
What at last appeared to have happened, however, was that the divided parties, coming back at the same moment, had met outside and then drifted together, from empty room to room, yet not in mere aimless quest of the pair of companions they had left at home. The quest had carried them to the door of the billiard-room, and their appearance, as it opened to admit them, determined for Adam Verver, in the oddest way in the world, a new and sharp perception. It was really remarkable: this perception expanded, on the spot, as a flower, one of the strangest, might, at a breath, have suddenly opened. The breath, for that matter, was more than anything else, the look in his daughter’s eyes—the look with which he SAW her take in exactly what had occurred in her absence: Mrs. Rance’s pursuit of him to this remote locality, the spirit and the very form, perfectly characteristic, of his acceptance of the complication—the seal set, in short, unmistakably, on one of Maggie’s anxieties. The anxiety, it was true, would have been, even though not imparted, separately shared; for Fanny Assingham’s face was, by the same stroke, not at all thickly veiled for him, and a queer light, of a colour quite to match, fairly glittered in the four fine eyes of the Miss Lutches. Each of these persons—counting out, that is, the Prince and the Colonel, who didn’t care, and who didn’t even see that the others did—knew something, or had at any rate had her idea; the idea, precisely, that this was what Mrs. Rance, artfully biding her time, WOULD do. The special shade of apprehension on the part of the Miss Lutches might indeed have suggested the vision of an energy supremely asserted. It was droll, in truth, if one came to that, the position of the Miss Lutches: they had themselves brought, they had guilelessly introduced Mrs. Rance, strong in the fact of Mr. Rance’s having been literally beheld of them; and it was now for them, positively, as if their handful of flowers—since Mrs. Rance was a handful!—had been but the vehicle of a dangerous snake. Mr. Verver fairly felt in the air the Miss Lutches’ imputation—in the intensity of which, really, his own propriety might have been involved.
What seemed to have happened, however, was that the two separate groups, arriving at the same time, met outside and then wandered together from empty room to room, not just aimlessly searching for the two friends they had left at home. Their search led them to the door of the billiard room, and when the door opened to let them in, it sparked a new and intense realization for Adam Verver in the oddest way. It was truly remarkable: this realization blossomed right there, like a strange flower suddenly opening with a breath. That breath, more than anything, was the look in his daughter’s eyes—the look that told him she understood exactly what had gone on in her absence: Mrs. Rance’s pursuit of him to this secluded place, the essence and specific nature, unmistakably his, of how he had dealt with the situation—the confirmation, in short, of one of Maggie’s worries. This anxiety, though not directly communicated, was still shared; for Fanny Assingham’s expression was also not at all obscured from him, and a strange light, perfectly matching, sparkled in the eyes of the Miss Lutches. Each of these people—excluding the Prince and the Colonel, who didn’t care and didn’t even notice that the others did—knew something or at least had an idea; the idea, specifically, that this was exactly what Mrs. Rance, cleverly waiting her turn, WOULD do. The particular shade of concern from the Miss Lutches could indeed have suggested a vision of a power assertively expressed. It was amusing, really, if you thought about it, the situation of the Miss Lutches: they had themselves brought Mrs. Rance into the fold, having innocently introduced her, knowing that Mr. Rance had literally been seen by them; and now it was as if their handful of flowers—since Mrs. Rance was quite a handful!—had turned out to be the carrier of a dangerous snake. Mr. Verver could almost sense the Miss Lutches' blame hanging in the air—which, in its intensity, might actually involve his own sense of propriety.
That, none the less, was but a flicker; what made the real difference, as I have hinted, was his mute passage with Maggie. His daughter’s anxiety alone had depths, and it opened out for him the wider that it was altogether new. When, in their common past, when till this moment, had she shown a fear, however dumbly, for his individual life? They had had fears together, just as they had had joys, but all of hers, at least, had been for what equally concerned them. Here of a sudden was a question that concerned him alone, and the soundless explosion of it somehow marked a date. He was on her mind, he was even in a manner on her hands—as a distinct thing, that is, from being, where he had always been, merely deep in her heart and in her life; too deep down, as it were, to be disengaged, contrasted or opposed, in short objectively presented. But time finally had done it; their relation was altered: he SAW, again, the difference lighted for her. This marked it to himself—and it wasn’t a question simply of a Mrs. Rance the more or the less. For Maggie too, at a stroke, almost beneficently, their visitor had, from being an inconvenience, become a sign. They had made vacant, by their marriage, his immediate foreground, his personal precinct—they being the Princess and the Prince. They had made room in it for others—so others had become aware. He became aware himself, for that matter, during the minute Maggie stood there before speaking; and with the sense, moreover, of what he saw her see, he had the sense of what she saw HIM. This last, it may be added, would have been his intensest perception had there not, the next instant, been more for him in Fanny Assingham. Her face couldn’t keep it from him; she had seen, on top of everything, in her quick way, what they both were seeing.
That, however, was just a brief moment; what really mattered, as I’ve mentioned, was his silent interaction with Maggie. His daughter's worry alone had depth, and it opened up for him because it was completely new. When in their shared history had she ever shown any fear, even in a nonverbal way, for his own life? They had shared fears, just as they had shared joys, but all of hers had been about things that concerned them both. Suddenly, there was a concern that was only about him, and the silent impact of it marked a significant moment. He was on her mind; he was even in a way on her hands—as something separate, rather than just being buried deep in her heart and life, too deep to be pulled out, contrasted, or opposed, in short, to be presented objectively. But time had finally changed that; their relationship had evolved: he SAW, once again, the difference that was evident to her. This marked a change for him—and it wasn’t just about Mrs. Rance one way or another. For Maggie too, at once, almost benevolently, their visitor had transformed from a hassle into a symbol. By getting married, they had cleared out his immediate surroundings, his personal space—they were the Princess and the Prince. They had created room for others—so others had started to notice. He became aware himself, in fact, during the moment Maggie stood there before speaking; and with the understanding of what he saw her perceive, he was aware of what she saw in HIM. This last insight would have been his most intense realization, had there not, in that next moment, been even more for him in Fanny Assingham. Her expression couldn't hide it from him; she had quickly grasped what they were both seeing.
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So much mute communication was doubtless, all this time, marvellous, and we may confess to having perhaps read into the scene, prematurely, a critical character that took longer to develop. Yet the quiet hour of reunion enjoyed that afternoon by the father and the daughter did really little else than deal with the elements definitely presented to each in the vibration produced by the return of the church-goers. Nothing allusive, nothing at all insistent, passed between them either before or immediately after luncheon—except indeed so far as their failure soon again to meet might be itself an accident charged with reference. The hour or two after luncheon—and on Sundays with especial rigour, for one of the domestic reasons of which it belonged to Maggie quite multitudinously to take account—were habitually spent by the Princess with her little boy, in whose apartment she either frequently found her father already established or was sooner or later joined by him. His visit to his grandson, at some hour or other, held its place, in his day, against all interventions, and this without counting his grandson’s visits to HIM, scarcely less ordered and timed, and the odd bits, as he called them, that they picked up together when they could—communions snatched, for the most part, on the terrace, in the gardens or the park, while the Principino, with much pomp and circumstance of perambulator, parasol, fine lace over-veiling and incorruptible female attendance, took the air. In the private apartments, which, occupying in the great house the larger part of a wing of their own, were not much more easily accessible than if the place had been a royal palace and the small child an heir-apparent—in the nursery of nurseries the talk, at these instituted times, was always so prevailingly with or about the master of the scene that other interests and other topics had fairly learned to avoid the slighting and inadequate notice there taken of them. They came in, at the best, but as involved in the little boy’s future, his past, or his comprehensive present, never getting so much as a chance to plead their own merits or to complain of being neglected. Nothing perhaps, in truth, had done more than this united participation to confirm in the elder parties that sense of a life not only uninterrupted but more deeply associated, more largely combined, of which, on Adam Verver’s behalf, we have made some mention. It was of course an old story and a familiar idea that a beautiful baby could take its place as a new link between a wife and a husband, but Maggie and her father had, with every ingenuity, converted the precious creature into a link between a mamma and a grandpapa. The Principino, for a chance spectator of this process, might have become, by an untoward stroke, a hapless half-orphan, with the place of immediate male parent swept bare and open to the next nearest sympathy.
So much unspoken communication was undoubtedly amazing all this time, and we might admit that we perhaps read too much into the scene too soon, assigning a critical character that took longer to develop. Still, the quiet hour of reunion shared that afternoon between the father and daughter mostly dealt with the elements each sensed from the energy created by the return of the church-goers. Nothing suggestive, nothing at all pressing, passed between them before or right after lunch—except perhaps that their soon-to-be separation might, in itself, carry some significance. The hour or two after lunch—and especially on Sundays, for various domestic reasons that Maggie had to meticulously consider—were usually spent by the Princess with her little boy, in whose room she either often found her father already there or who joined her later on. His visits to his grandson, at some point during the day, took precedence over all other activities without including the times his grandson came to see HIM, which were planned and timed equally, along with the little moments, as he referred to them, that they shared whenever possible—interactions mostly snatched on the terrace, in the gardens, or at the park, while the Principino, surrounded by all the pomp and circumstance of a stroller, parasol, delicate lace covering, and loyal female attendants, enjoyed the fresh air. In the private quarters, which occupied the larger part of a wing in the grand house and were not much easier to access than if the place had been a royal palace and the small child an heir, the discussions during these established times consistently revolved around the master of the scene, to the point where other interests and topics learned to avoid being given only slight and inadequate attention. They entered, at best, as concerns related to the little boy’s future, his past, or his overall present, never getting even a chance to advocate for their own importance or to lament being overlooked. In truth, nothing perhaps had done more than this shared participation to solidify the elder parties' feeling of a life that was not only unbroken but deeply connected, more broadly intertwined, which we’ve mentioned regarding Adam Verver. It was, of course, an old story and a well-known idea that a beautiful baby could serve as a new link between a wife and husband, but Maggie and her father had, with great creativity, transformed the precious child into a connection between a mother and a grandfather. The Principino, as an unsuspecting observer of this process, might have become, through an unfortunate twist, a hapless half-orphan, with the position of immediate male parent wide open to the next nearest source of comfort.
They had no occasion thus, the conjoined worshippers, to talk of what the Prince might be or might do for his son—the sum of service, in his absence, so completely filled itself out. It was not in the least, moreover, that there was doubt of him, for he was conspicuously addicted to the manipulation of the child, in the frank Italian way, at such moments as he judged discreet in respect to other claims: conspicuously, indeed, that is, for Maggie, who had more occasion, on the whole, to speak to her husband of the extravagance of her father than to speak to her father of the extravagance of her husband. Adam Verver had, all round, in this connection, his own serenity. He was sure of his son-in-law’s auxiliary admiration—admiration, he meant, of his grand-son; since, to begin with, what else had been at work but the instinct—or it might fairly have been the tradition—of the latter’s making the child so solidly beautiful as to HAVE to be admired? What contributed most to harmony in this play of relations, however, was the way the young man seemed to leave it to be gathered that, tradition for tradition, the grandpapa’s own was not, in any estimate, to go for nothing. A tradition, or whatever it was, that had flowered prelusively in the Princess herself—well, Amerigo’s very discretions were his way of taking account of it. His discriminations in respect to his heir were, in fine, not more angular than any others to be observed in him; and Mr. Verver received perhaps from no source so distinct an impression of being for him an odd and important phenomenon as he received from this impunity of appropriation, these unchallenged nursery hours. It was as if the grandpapa’s special show of the character were but another side for the observer to study, another item for him to note. It came back, this latter personage knew, to his own previous perception—that of the Prince’s inability, in any matter in which he was concerned, to CONCLUDE. The idiosyncrasy, for him, at each stage, had to be demonstrated—on which, however, he admirably accepted it. This last was, after all, the point; he really worked, poor young man, for acceptance, since he worked so constantly for comprehension. And how, when you came to that, COULD you know that a horse wouldn’t shy at a brass-band, in a country road, because it didn’t shy at a traction-engine? It might have been brought up to traction-engines without having been brought up to brass-bands. Little by little, thus, from month to month, the Prince was learning what his wife’s father had been brought up to; and now it could be checked off—he had been brought, up to the romantic view of principini. Who would have thought it, and where would it all stop? The only fear somewhat sharp for Mr. Verver was a certain fear of disappointing him for strangeness. He felt that the evidence he offered, thus viewed, was too much on the positive side. He didn’t know—he was learning, and it was funny for him—to how many things he HAD been brought up. If the Prince could only strike something to which he hadn’t! This wouldn’t, it seemed to him, ruffle the smoothness, and yet MIGHT, a little, add to the interest.
The worshippers had no reason to discuss what the Prince might be or do for his son—the responsibilities in his absence filled every need. There was no doubt about him either, as he openly engaged with the child in that straightforward Italian way whenever he thought it was appropriate considering other demands. This was especially clear to Maggie, who often had to tell her husband about her father's extravagance rather than vice versa. Adam Verver, in this context, maintained his calm. He was confident in his son-in-law’s admiration—specifically for his grandson; after all, what else could explain the instinct—or perhaps it was the tradition—behind making the child so strikingly beautiful that he had to be admired? What truly created harmony in these relationships was how the young man implied that, tradition aside, the grandfather’s legacy mattered as well. This tradition—or whatever it was—had already bloomed in the Princess herself; Amerigo’s apparent discretion reflected this acknowledgment. His decisions regarding his heir were as nuanced as his other traits, and Mr. Verver found it hard to see anything as distinctively odd or significant about him as he did in the way Amerigo claimed those unchallenged moments with the child. It was as if the grandfather’s unique character was just another facet for him to observe, another detail to note. This understanding tied back to the Prince’s inability, in situations involving him, to reach a conclusion. His quirks had to be displayed at every turn, yet he accepted them graciously. Ultimately, this was the point; the poor young man was striving for acceptance, constantly seeking understanding. And how could one know whether a horse wouldn’t be startled by a brass band on a country road just because it wasn’t startled by a traction engine? It might have been accustomed to traction engines but not to brass bands. Gradually, over time, the Prince was learning about what his wife’s father had been accustomed to; now it was clear—he had been brought up to a romantic view of little princes. Who would have guessed, and how far would this go? Mr. Verver’s only sharp concern was a slight fear of disappointing him with his oddness. He felt that the evidence he presented, when viewed in this light, leaned too far toward the positive. He was unsure—he was discovering how many things he had been accustomed to, and amusingly so. If only the Prince could find something he hadn’t! This, he thought, wouldn’t disrupt the flow but might add a bit of intrigue.
What was now clear, at all events, for the father and the daughter, was their simply knowing they wanted, for the time, to be together—at any cost, as it were; and their necessity so worked in them as to bear them out of the house, in a quarter hidden from that in which their friends were gathered, and cause them to wander, unseen, unfollowed, along a covered walk in the “old” garden, as it was called, old with an antiquity of formal things, high box and shaped yew and expanses of brick wall that had turned at once to purple and to pink. They went out of a door in the wall, a door that had a slab with a date set above it, 1713, but in the old multiplied lettering, and then had before them a small white gate, intensely white and clean amid all the greenness, through which they gradually passed to where some of the grandest trees spaciously clustered and where they would find one of the quietest places. A bench had been placed, long ago, beneath a great oak that helped to crown a mild eminence, and the ground sank away below it, to rise again, opposite, at a distance sufficient to enclose the solitude and figure a bosky horizon. Summer, blissfully, was with them yet, and the low sun made a splash of light where it pierced the looser shade; Maggie, coming down to go out, had brought a parasol, which, as, over her charming bare head, she now handled it, gave, with the big straw hat that her father in these days always wore a good deal tipped back, definite intention to their walk. They knew the bench; it was “sequestered”—they had praised it for that together, before, and liked the word; and after they had begun to linger there they could have smiled (if they hadn’t been really too serious, and if the question hadn’t so soon ceased to matter), over the probable wonder of the others as to what would have become of them.
What was clear now for both the father and the daughter was that they simply wanted to be together—no matter the cost. Their need pulled them out of the house, away from their friends, and led them to wander, unseen and unbothered, along a covered pathway in the so-called "old" garden, which had a timeless feel with its neatly trimmed box hedges, shaped yew trees, and sprawling brick walls that had turned shades of purple and pink. They exited through a wall door marked with a date, 1713, written in old-fashioned lettering, and came across a small, bright white gate, strikingly clean against the greenery, which they passed through to where some grand trees were clustered, leading them to one of the quietest spots. A bench had been placed long ago under a large oak tree that crowned a gentle rise, with the ground sloping down before it and rising again in the distance, creating a secluded and peaceful horizon. Fortunately, summer was still with them, and the low sun cast patches of light wherever it broke through the dappled shade. Maggie, on her way out, had brought a parasol, which, as she held it over her lovely bare head, combined with her father's straw hat, which he tilted back, gave a clear purpose to their stroll. They were familiar with the bench; it was “secluded”—they had praised it together before and liked the word. As they lingered there, they might have smiled (if they hadn't been truly serious, and if the question hadn't quickly become irrelevant) at the probable curiosity of others about what had happened to them.
The extent to which they enjoyed their indifference to any judgment of their want of ceremony, what did that of itself speak but for the way that, as a rule, they almost equally had others on their mind? They each knew that both were full of the superstition of not “hurting,” but might precisely have been asking themselves, asking in fact each other, at this moment, whether that was to be, after all, the last word of their conscientious development. Certain it was, at all events, that, in addition to the Assinghams and the Lutches and Mrs. Rance, the attendance at tea, just in the right place on the west terrace, might perfectly comprise the four or five persons—among them the very pretty, the typically Irish Miss Maddock, vaunted, announced and now brought—from the couple of other houses near enough, one of these the minor residence of their proprietor, established, thriftily, while he hired out his ancestral home, within sight and sense of his profit. It was not less certain, either, that, for once in a way, the group in question must all take the case as they found it. Fanny Assingham, at any time, for that matter, might perfectly be trusted to see Mr. Verver and his daughter, to see their reputation for a decent friendliness, through any momentary danger; might be trusted even to carry off their absence for Amerigo, for Amerigo’s possible funny Italian anxiety; Amerigo always being, as the Princess was well aware, conveniently amenable to this friend’s explanations, beguilements, reassurances, and perhaps in fact rather more than less dependent on them as his new life—since that was his own name for it—opened out. It was no secret to Maggie—it was indeed positively a public joke for her—that she couldn’t explain as Mrs. Assingham did, and that, the Prince liking explanations, liking them almost as if he collected them, in the manner of book-plates or postage-stamps, for themselves, his requisition of this luxury had to be met. He didn’t seem to want them as yet for use—rather for ornament and amusement, innocent amusement of the kind he most fancied and that was so characteristic of his blessed, beautiful, general, slightly indolent lack of more dissipated, or even just of more sophisticated, tastes.
The extent to which they enjoyed not caring about any judgment regarding their lack of formality—what did that say about how they generally cared about others? They both knew that they were filled with the superstition of not wanting to "hurt" anyone, but they might have been wondering, even asking each other at that moment, whether this was really going to be the last word on their thoughtful development. It was certain, at least, that besides the Assinghams, the Lutches, and Mrs. Rance, the tea gathering on the west terrace could easily include four or five people—among them the very attractive, typically Irish Miss Maddock, who had been mentioned and now brought in from one of the nearby houses, including the smaller home of their owner, set up thriftily while he rented out his ancestral house, all within view and earshot of his profits. It was equally clear that, for once, this group had to accept the situation as it was. Fanny Assingham could always be relied upon to support Mr. Verver and his daughter to maintain their reputation for decent friendliness, even through any temporary issues; she could also manage their absence for Amerigo, considering his likely humorous Italian worries; Amerigo, as the Princess knew well, was conveniently responsive to this friend's explanations, reassurances, and perhaps even a bit more dependent on them as his new life—his own term for it—unfolded. It was no secret to Maggie—it was actually a well-known joke among them—that she couldn't explain things like Mrs. Assingham could, and since the Prince liked explanations, almost as if he collected them like bookplates or postage stamps, he needed this luxury provided. He didn't seem to want them for practical use yet—more for decoration and enjoyment, innocent fun of the kind he preferred that was so characteristic of his lovely, general, slightly lazy lack of more indulgent, or even just more refined, tastes.
However that might be, the dear woman had come to be frankly and gaily recognised—and not least by herself—as filling in the intimate little circle an office that was not always a sinecure. It was almost as if she had taken, with her kind, melancholy Colonel at her heels, a responsible engagement; to be within call, as it were, for all those appeals that sprang out of talk, that sprang not a little, doubtless too, out of leisure. It naturally led her position in the household, as, she called it, to considerable frequency of presence, to visits, from the good couple, freely repeated and prolonged, and not so much as under form of protest. She was there to keep him quiet—it was Amerigo’s own description of her influence; and it would only have needed a more visible disposition to unrest in him to make the account perfectly fit. Fanny herself limited indeed, she minimised, her office; you didn’t need a jailor, she contended, for a domesticated lamb tied up with pink ribbon. This was not an animal to be controlled—it was an animal to be, at the most, educated. She admitted accordingly that she was educative—which Maggie was so aware that she herself, inevitably, wasn’t; so it came round to being true that what she was most in charge of was his mere intelligence. This left, goodness knew, plenty of different calls for Maggie to meet—in a case in which so much pink ribbon, as it might be symbolically named, was lavished on the creature. What it all amounted to, at any rate, was that Mrs. Assingham would be keeping him quiet now, while his wife and his father-in-law carried out their own little frugal picnic; quite moreover, doubtless, not much less neededly in respect to the members of the circle that were with them there than in respect to the pair they were missing almost for the first time. It was present to Maggie that the Prince could bear, when he was with his wife, almost any queerness on the part of people, strange English types, who bored him, beyond convenience, by being so little as he himself was; for this was one of the ways in which a wife was practically sustaining. But she was as positively aware that she hadn’t yet learned to see him as meeting such exposure in her absence. How did he move and talk, how above all did he, or how WOULD he, look—he who, with his so nobly handsome face, could look such wonderful things—in case of being left alone with some of the subjects of his wonder? There were subjects for wonder among these very neighbours; only Maggie herself had her own odd way—which didn’t moreover the least irritate him—of really liking them in proportion as they could strike her as strange. It came out in her by heredity, he amused himself with declaring, this love of chinoiseries; but she actually this evening didn’t mind—he might deal with her Chinese as he could.
However that might be, the dear woman had come to be openly and happily recognized—and not least by herself—as filling a role in their close-knit group that wasn't always easy. It was almost as if she had taken on, with her kind, melancholy Colonel following her around, a serious responsibility; to be available, so to speak, for all those pleas that arose from conversation, which undoubtedly came from leisure as well. This naturally positioned her in the household, as she called it, to frequently be present, with visits from the good couple, often recurring and prolonged, and not even protested against. She was there to keep him calm—it was Amerigo’s own description of her influence; and it would have only required a more obvious restlessness in him to make that description fit perfectly. Fanny herself did limit, indeed minimize, her role; she argued that you didn’t need a jailer for a domesticated lamb tied up with pink ribbon. This was not an animal to be controlled—it was an animal to be, at most, educated. She therefore admitted that she had an educational role—which Maggie was fully aware she herself, inevitably, didn’t. So it ended up being true that what she was mostly in charge of was his mere intelligence. This left, goodness knows, plenty of different needs for Maggie to address—in a situation where so much pink ribbon, as it might symbolically be called, was poured over the creature. What it all came down to, at any rate, was that Mrs. Assingham would be keeping him quiet now, while his wife and father-in-law enjoyed their own little simple picnic; moreover, this was probably just as necessary for the people in their circle who were with them as for the couple they were missing almost for the first time. Maggie realized that the Prince could tolerate, when he was with his wife, almost any oddity from people, strange English types, who bored him excessively by being so unlike himself; for this was one of the ways a wife provided support. But she was also acutely aware that she hadn’t yet learned to see him as handling such exposure in her absence. How did he move and speak, how above all did he, or how WOULD he, look—he who, with his so nobly handsome face, could express such wonderful things—if left alone with some of the subjects of his admiration? There were indeed subjects to admire among these very neighbors; only Maggie herself had her own peculiar way—which didn’t irritate him in the least—of genuinely liking them as they struck her as strange. It came from her by heredity, he amusingly declared, this love of the exotic; but she really didn't mind this evening—he could engage with her eccentricities however he liked.
Maggie indeed would always have had for such moments, had they oftener occurred, the impression made on her by a word of Mrs. Assingham’s, a word referring precisely to that appetite in Amerigo for the explanatory which we have just found in our path. It wasn’t that the Princess could be indebted to another person, even to so clever a one as this friend, for seeing anything in her husband that she mightn’t see unaided; but she had ever, hitherto, been of a nature to accept with modest gratitude any better description of a felt truth than her little limits—terribly marked, she knew, in the direction of saying the right things—enabled her to make. Thus it was, at any rate, that she was able to live more or less in the light of the fact expressed so lucidly by their common comforter—the fact that the Prince was saving up, for some very mysterious but very fine eventual purpose, all the wisdom, all the answers to his questions, all the impressions and generalisations, he gathered; putting them away and packing them down because he wanted his great gun to be loaded to the brim on the day he should decide to let it off. He wanted first to make sure of the whole of the subject that was unrolling itself before him; after which the innumerable facts he had collected would find their use. He knew what he was about—-trust him at last therefore to make, and to some effect, his big noise. And Mrs. Assingham had repeated that he knew what he was about. It was the happy form of this assurance that had remained with Maggie; it could always come in for her that Amerigo knew what he was about. He might at moments seem vague, seem absent, seem even bored: this when, away from her father, with whom it was impossible for him to appear anything but respectfully occupied, he let his native gaiety go in outbreaks of song, or even of quite whimsical senseless sound, either expressive of intimate relaxation or else fantastically plaintive. He might at times reflect with the frankest lucidity on the circumstance that the case was for a good while yet absolutely settled in regard to what he still had left, at home, of his very own; in regard to the main seat of his affection, the house in Rome, the big black palace, the Palazzo Nero, as he was fond of naming it, and also on the question of the villa in the Sabine hills, which she had, at the time of their engagement, seen and yearned over, and the Castello proper, described by him always as the “perched” place, that had, as she knew, formerly stood up, on the pedestal of its mountain-slope, showing beautifully blue from afar, as the head and front of the princedom. He might rejoice in certain moods over the so long-estranged state of these properties, not indeed all irreclaimably alienated, but encumbered with unending leases and charges, with obstinate occupants, with impossibilities of use—all without counting the cloud of mortgages that had, from far back, buried them beneath the ashes of rage and remorse, a shroud as thick as the layer once resting on the towns at the foot of Vesuvius, and actually making of any present restorative effort a process much akin to slow excavation. Just so he might with another turn of his humour almost wail for these brightest spots of his lost paradise, declaring that he was an idiot not to be able to bring himself to face the sacrifices—sacrifices resting, if definitely anywhere, with Mr. Verver—necessary for winning them back.
Maggie would always have had a lasting impression from a word of Mrs. Assingham’s, specifically about Amerigo's need for explanations, which we have just encountered. It wasn't that the Princess relied on anyone, even someone as insightful as this friend, to see anything in her husband that she couldn't figure out on her own; but she had always been the type to accept, with modest gratitude, any clearer description of a truth she felt, which her limited abilities—terribly constrained, she knew, when it came to saying the right things—couldn't quite capture. This was how she could live, more or less, in the light of the fact he had expressed so clearly—namely, that the Prince was saving up all the wisdom, all the answers to his questions, and all the impressions and generalizations he gathered for some mysterious but significant future purpose; he was storing them away because he wanted his big moment to be fully prepared when he finally decided to use it. He wanted to be completely sure of everything unfolding before him; only then would the countless facts he had collected serve their purpose. He knew what he was doing—so trust him to make a significant impact when the time came. Mrs. Assingham had confirmed that he knew what he was doing. This was the comforting thought that stuck with Maggie; it always reassured her that Amerigo knew what he was doing. He might sometimes seem vague or distant, even bored—especially when he wasn't around her father, with whom he had to appear respectfully engaged—letting his natural cheer come out in bursts of song or whimsical sounds, either expressing relaxation or an oddly plaintive note. At times, he might honestly reflect on how things were settled regarding what he still had at home; his main affection, the house in Rome, the big black palace he liked to call the Palazzo Nero, and the villa in the Sabine hills, which she had once longed for when they were engaged, along with the Castello proper, which he always described as the "perched" place, that used to stand beautifully visible from afar on its mountain slope, representing the heart of the princedom. He might feel a certain joy in some moods over the now-distant state of these properties—not completely lost, but burdened with endless leases and charges, challenging occupants, and unresolvable issues—not to mention the mountain of mortgages that had, for a long time, buried them in a haze of anger and regret, a veil as thick as the ash that once covered the towns at the foot of Vesuvius, making any attempt at restoration a slow and painstaking process. In another moment, he might almost lament these shining pieces of his lost paradise, insisting he was foolish for not facing the sacrifices—sacrifices, if anywhere at all, resting with Mr. Verver—that were required to reclaim them.
One of the most comfortable things between the husband and the wife meanwhile—one of those easy certitudes they could be merely gay about—was that she never admired him so much, or so found him heartbreakingly handsome, clever, irresistible, in the very degree in which he had originally and fatally dawned upon her, as when she saw other women reduced to the same passive pulp that had then begun, once for all, to constitute HER substance. There was really nothing they had talked of together with more intimate and familiar pleasantry than of the license and privilege, the boundless happy margin, thus established for each: she going so far as to put it that, even should he some day get drunk and beat her, the spectacle of him with hated rivals would, after no matter what extremity, always, for the sovereign charm of it, charm of it in itself and as the exhibition of him that most deeply moved her, suffice to bring her round. What would therefore be more open to him than to keep her in love with him? He agreed, with all his heart, at these light moments, that his course wouldn’t then be difficult, inasmuch as, so simply constituted as he was on all the precious question—and why should he be ashamed of it?—he knew but one way with the fair. They had to be fair—and he was fastidious and particular, his standard was high; but when once this was the case what relation with them was conceivable, what relation was decent, rudimentary, properly human, but that of a plain interest in the fairness? His interest, she always answered, happened not to be “plain,” and plainness, all round, had little to do with the matter, which was marked, on the contrary, by the richest variety of colour; but the working basis, at all events, had been settled—the Miss Maddocks of life been assured of their importance for him. How conveniently assured Maggie—to take him too into the joke—had more than once gone so far as to mention to her father; since it fell in easily with the tenderness of her disposition to remember she might occasionally make him happy by an intimate confidence. This was one of her rules-full as she was of little rules, considerations, provisions. There were things she of course couldn’t tell him, in so many words, about Amerigo and herself, and about their happiness and their union and their deepest depths—and there were other things she needn’t; but there were also those that were both true and amusing, both communicable and real, and of these, with her so conscious, so delicately cultivated scheme of conduct as a daughter, she could make her profit at will. A pleasant hush, for that matter, had fallen on most of the elements while she lingered apart with her companion; it involved, this serenity, innumerable complete assumptions: since so ordered and so splendid a rest, all the tokens, spreading about them, of confidence solidly supported, might have suggested for persons of poorer pitch the very insolence of facility. Still, they weren’t insolent—THEY weren’t, our pair could reflect; they were only blissful and grateful and personally modest, not ashamed of knowing, with competence, when great things were great, when good things were good, and when safe things were safe, and not, therefore, placed below their fortune by timidity which would have been as bad as being below it by impudence. Worthy of it as they were, and as each appears, under our last possible analysis, to have wished to make the other feel that they were, what they most finally exhaled into the evening air as their eyes mildly met may well have been a kind of helplessness in their felicity. Their rightness, the justification of everything—something they so felt the pulse of—sat there with them; but they might have been asking themselves a little blankly to what further use they could put anything so perfect. They had created and nursed and established it; they had housed it here in dignity and crowned it with comfort; but mightn’t the moment possibly count for them—or count at least for us while we watch them with their fate all before them—as the dawn of the discovery that it doesn’t always meet ALL contingencies to be right? Otherwise why should Maggie have found a word of definite doubt—the expression of the fine pang determined in her a few hours before—rise after a time to her lips? She took so for granted moreover her companion’s intelligence of her doubt that the mere vagueness of her question could say it all. “What is it, after all, that they want to do to you?” “They” were for the Princess too the hovering forces of which Mrs. Rance was the symbol, and her father, only smiling back now, at his ease, took no trouble to appear not to know what she meant. What she meant—when once she had spoken—could come out well enough; though indeed it was nothing, after they had come to the point, that could serve as ground for a great defensive campaign. The waters of talk spread a little, and Maggie presently contributed an idea in saying: “What has really happened is that the proportions, for us, are altered.” He accepted equally, for the time, this somewhat cryptic remark; he still failed to challenge her even when she added that it wouldn’t so much matter if he hadn’t been so terribly young. He uttered a sound of protest only when she went to declare that she ought as a daughter, in common decency, to have waited. Yet by that time she was already herself admitting that she should have had to wait long—if she waited, that is, till he was old. But there was a way. “Since you ARE an irresistible youth, we’ve got to face it. That, somehow, is what that woman has made me feel. There’ll be others.”
One of the most comfortable things between the husband and wife was that they could casually feel secure in their relationship—she never admired him so much or found him heartbreakingly handsome, smart, or irresistible, as when she saw other women turned into the same passive state that had now become her essence. They often joked intimately about the freedom and privilege established for each of them: she even claimed that even if he were to get drunk and hit her one day, just seeing him with rivals she despised would charm her enough to forgive him, no matter what. So, what would be easier for him than to keep her in love with him? He wholeheartedly agreed in those light moments that it wouldn’t be hard for him, since he was simply built to understand women—in a way, why should he be ashamed of it? He only knew one way to relate to women: they had to be attractive—and he had high standards; but once that was settled, what kind of relationship with them was conceivable, what relationship was decent and fundamentally human, other than a straightforward interest in their beauty? She always replied that his interest wasn't "straightforward," and that simplicity had little to do with it; rather, the matter was marked by a rich variety of nuances. But at least the foundation was in place—the Miss Maddocks in life had secured their significance in his eyes. How conveniently assured Maggie had playfully mentioned to her father before, since it suited her tender nature to remember she could occasionally bring him joy by sharing an intimate confidence. This was one of her many little rules—she was full of rules, considerations, and plans. There were things she couldn’t tell him directly about Amerigo and their happiness, about their union and their deeper feelings—and some things she didn’t need to disclose; but there were also true and funny things that she could share, and she consciously took advantage of her carefully nurtured conduct as a daughter. A pleasant calm had settled over most of the surroundings while she spent time with her companion; this tranquility involved countless complete assumptions: given such an ordered and splendid peace, all the signs of firm confidence around them might have suggested to less fortunate people sheer arrogance. But they weren’t arrogant—they were just blissful and grateful, personally modest, not ashamed of knowing when great things were great, good things were good, and safe things were safe, and thus not diminished by timidity that would have been just as bad as being diminished by arrogance. As worthy as they were, and as much as each tried to help the other feel that they were, what they finally exhaled into the evening air as their eyes softly met might have been a kind of helplessness in their happiness. Their rightness, the justification of everything—something they so felt deeply—sat with them; but they might have been wondering a little blankly what further use they could make of anything so perfect. They had created and nurtured it, established it, housed it with dignity, and crowned it with comfort; but might this moment possibly count for them—or at least for us as we watch them with their fate ahead—as the beginning of the realization that being right doesn’t always cover all situations? Otherwise, why would Maggie have found a word of definite doubt—reflecting the subtle pain that had defined her hours before—rise to her lips? Moreover, she took for granted her companion’s understanding of her doubt, so the mere vagueness of her question could convey everything. “What do they really want to do to you?” “They” referred to the ominous forces represented by Mrs. Rance, and her father, now smiling back at ease, made no effort to pretend he didn’t understand what she meant. What she meant—once she spoke—would come out clearly enough; yet indeed, once they reached the point, it was nothing that could justify a defensive struggle. Their conversation drifted a bit, and Maggie eventually suggested: “What’s really happened is that the circumstances have changed for us.” He accepted this somewhat cryptic remark without challenge for the time being; he didn’t question her even when she added that it wouldn’t matter so much if he hadn’t been so extremely young. He only protested when she stated that, as a daughter, she should have waited out of common decency. By then, however, she was already admitting that she would have had to wait a long time—if she waited until he was old, that is. But there was a way. “Since you ARE an irresistible young man, we’ve got to face it. That’s somehow what that woman has made me feel. There will be others.”
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To talk of it thus appeared at last a positive relief to him. “Yes, there’ll be others. But you’ll see me through.”
To discuss it like this finally felt like a real relief to him. “Yeah, there will be others. But you’ll help me get through this.”
She hesitated. “Do you mean if you give in?”
She hesitated. “Are you saying if you give in?”
“Oh no. Through my holding out.”
“Oh no. Because I held out.”
Maggie waited again, but when she spoke it had an effect of abruptness. “Why SHOULD you hold out forever?”
Maggie waited again, but when she spoke, it sounded abrupt. “Why should you keep holding out forever?”
He gave, none the less, no start—and this as from the habit of taking anything, taking everything, from her as harmonious. But it was quite written upon him too, for that matter, that holding out wouldn’t be, so very completely, his natural, or at any rate his acquired, form. His appearance would have testified that he might have to do so a long time—for a man so greatly beset. This appearance, that is, spoke but little, as yet, of short remainders and simplified senses—and all in spite of his being a small, spare, slightly stale person, deprived of the general prerogative of presence. It was not by mass or weight or vulgar immediate quantity that he would in the future, any more than he had done in the past, insist or resist or prevail. There was even something in him that made his position, on any occasion, made his relation to any scene or to any group, a matter of the back of the stage, of an almost visibly conscious want of affinity with the footlights. He would have figured less than anything the stage-manager or the author of the play, who most occupy the foreground; he might be, at the best, the financial “backer,” watching his interests from the wing, but in rather confessed ignorance of the mysteries of mimicry. Barely taller than his daughter, he pressed at no point on the presumed propriety of his greater stoutness. He had lost early in life much of his crisp, closely-curling hair, the fineness of which was repeated in a small neat beard, too compact to be called “full,” though worn equally, as for a mark where other marks were wanting, on lip and cheek and chin. His neat, colourless face, provided with the merely indispensable features, suggested immediately, for a description, that it was CLEAR, and in this manner somewhat resembled a small decent room, clean-swept and unencumbered with furniture, but drawing a particular advantage, as might presently be noted, from the outlook of a pair of ample and uncurtained windows. There was something in Adam Verver’s eyes that both admitted the morning and the evening in unusual quantities and gave the modest area the outward extension of a view that was “big” even when restricted to stars. Deeply and changeably blue, though not romantically large, they were yet youthfully, almost strangely beautiful, with their ambiguity of your scarce knowing if they most carried their possessor’s vision out or most opened themselves to your own. Whatever you might feel, they stamped the place with their importance, as the house-agents say; so that, on one side or the other, you were never out of their range, were moving about, for possible community, opportunity, the sight of you scarce knew what, either before them or behind them. If other importances, not to extend the question, kept themselves down, they were in no direction less obtruded than in that of our friend’s dress, adopted once for all as with a sort of sumptuary scruple. He wore every day of the year, whatever the occasion, the same little black “cut away” coat, of the fashion of his younger time; he wore the same cool-looking trousers, chequered in black and white—the proper harmony with which, he inveterately considered, was a sprigged blue satin necktie; and, over his concave little stomach, quaintly indifferent to climates and seasons, a white duck waistcoat. “Should you really,” he now asked, “like me to marry?” He spoke as if, coming from his daughter herself, it MIGHT be an idea; which, for that matter, he would be ready to carry out should she definitely say so.
He didn’t flinch at all, which was just his way of accepting everything from her as normal. But it was also clear that holding back wasn’t really his nature, or at least not what he had learned to do. His looks suggested that he might have to hold back for a long while—considering the difficulties he faced. His appearance didn’t say much about being short-tempered or oversimplified, despite him being a small, thin, slightly worn-out guy who lacked the usual presence. In the future, just like in the past, he wouldn’t assert himself or resist based on size or weight. There was even something about him that made his place in any situation—the way he related to a scene or a group—feel like he belonged backstage, clearly aware of his lack of connection to the spotlight. He would have seemed less than the stage manager or the playwright, the ones who typically took center stage; at best, he might be the financial backer watching his interests from the sidelines, a bit clueless about the art of performance. He was barely taller than his daughter and didn’t push back against the assumption that his bigger build was any more appropriate. Early in life, he had lost much of his crisp, tightly curled hair, with the remaining fine strands replicated in a small neat beard—too trimmed to be called “full,” yet worn just enough to indicate where he lacked other features, on his lip, cheek, and chin. His tidy, colorless face, with only essential features, immediately struck one as CLEAR, somewhat resembling a small, tidy room, swept clean and free of clutter, but notably enhanced by a pair of large, uncurtained windows. There was something about Adam Verver’s eyes that let in both morning and evening light in unusual amounts, giving that modest space the feel of a “big” view even when limited to the stars. Deep and changeably blue, though not grandly large, they were still youthfully, oddly beautiful, with an ambiguity that made it hard to tell whether they were drawing your view outward or if they were opening up to yours. Whatever you felt, they marked the place with their significance, as real estate agents might say; so that, on either side, you were never out of their sight, moving around, looking for connection, opportunity, or just a sense of what was there, both in front of them and behind them. If there were other significant aspects, not to complicate things, they were hardly noticed in the way our friend dressed, which seemed to be a sort of habitual choice. Every day of the year, regardless of the occasion, he wore the same little black cutaway coat, a style from his younger days; he had the same cool-looking black and white checked trousers, which he believed paired perfectly with a blue satin necktie with a sprig pattern; and over his concave stomach, he wore a white duck waistcoat, oddly indifferent to weather and seasons. “Do you really,” he now asked, “want me to get married?” He spoke as if it might be an idea coming from his daughter herself; and in fact, he would be willing to go along with it if she firmly expressed that desire.
Definite, however, just yet, she was not prepared to be, though it seemed to come to her with force, as she thought, that there was a truth, in the connection, to utter. “What I feel is that there is somehow something that used to be right and that I’ve made wrong. It used to be right that you hadn’t married, and that you didn’t seem to want to. It used also”—she continued to make out “to seem easy for the question not to come up. That’s what I’ve made different. It does come up. It WILL come up.”
She wasn't ready to be definite about it yet, but it hit her hard that there was a truth in their connection that needed to be said. “What I feel is that there used to be something right that I've messed up. It used to be okay that you weren't married and that you didn't seem to want to be. It also seemed easy for the question not to come up. That’s what I’ve changed. It does come up. It WILL come up.”
“You don’t think I can keep it down?” Mr. Verver’s tone was cheerfully pensive.
“You don’t think I can hold it down?” Mr. Verver’s tone was happily thoughtful.
“Well, I’ve given you, by MY move, all the trouble of having to.”
“Well, I’ve put you through all this trouble because of MY choice.”
He liked the tenderness of her idea, and it made him, as she sat near him, pass his arm about her. “I guess I don’t feel as if you had ‘moved’ very far. You’ve only moved next door.”
He appreciated the softness of her idea, and it led him, while she sat beside him, to put his arm around her. “I don’t think you’ve really ‘moved’ that far. You’ve just moved next door.”
“Well,” she continued, “I don’t feel as if it were fair for me just to have given you a push and left you so. If I’ve made the difference for you, I must think of the difference.”
“Well,” she continued, “I don’t think it’s fair for me to just give you a push and then walk away. If I’ve made a difference for you, I have to consider that difference.”
“Then what, darling,” he indulgently asked, “DO you think?”
“Then what, darling,” he asked with a playful tone, “do you think?”
“That’s just what I don’t yet know. But I must find out. We must think together—as we’ve always thought. What I mean,” she went on after a moment, “is that it strikes me that I ought to at least offer you some alternative. I ought to have worked one out for you.”
“That’s exactly what I still don’t know. But I need to figure it out. We should brainstorm together—like we always have. What I mean,” she continued after a moment, “is that it seems to me I should at least present you with some options. I should have come up with one for you.”
“An alternative to what?”
"An alternative to what exactly?"
“Well, to your simply missing what you’ve lost—without anything being done about it.”
“Well, you’re just missing what you’ve lost—without anything being done about it.”
“But what HAVE I lost?”
"But what have I lost?"
She thought a minute, as if it were difficult to say, yet as if she more and more saw it. “Well, whatever it was that, BEFORE, kept us from thinking, and kept you, really, as you might say, in the market. It was as if you couldn’t be in the market when you were married to me. Or rather as if I kept people off, innocently, by being married to you. Now that I’m married to some one else you’re, as in consequence, married to nobody. Therefore you may be married to anybody, to everybody. People don’t see why you shouldn’t be married to THEM.”
She thought for a moment, as if it were hard to express, yet it seemed she was starting to understand it more clearly. “Well, whatever it was that, BEFORE, stopped us from thinking, and really kept you, as you might say, in the market. It felt like you couldn’t be in the market when you were married to me. Or rather, it’s like I kept people away, unintentionally, by being married to you. Now that I’m married to someone else, you’re, as a result, married to no one. So, you can be married to anybody, to everyone. People don’t see why you shouldn’t be married to THEM.”
“Isn’t it enough of a reason,” he mildly inquired, “that I don’t want to be?”
“Isn’t that reason enough,” he asked softly, “that I don’t want to be?”
“It’s enough of a reason, yes. But to BE enough of a reason it has to be too much of a trouble. I mean FOR you. It has to be too much of a fight. You ask me what you’ve lost,” Maggie continued to explain. “The not having to take the trouble and to make the fight—that’s what you’ve lost. The advantage, the happiness of being just as you were—because I was just as I was—that’s what you miss.”
“It’s definitely a reason, sure. But to truly be a reason, it needs to be too much of a hassle. I mean FOR you. It has to feel like too much of a struggle. You’re asking me what you’ve lost,” Maggie went on to say. “The ease of not having to deal with the hassle and the struggle—that’s what you’ve lost. The benefit, the joy of being exactly as you were—because I was exactly as I was—that’s what you’re missing.”
“So that you think,” her father presently said, “that I had better get married just in order to be as I was before?”
“So you think,” her father said, “that I should get married just to be the way I was before?”
The detached tone of it—detached as if innocently to amuse her by showing his desire to accommodate—was so far successful as to draw from her gravity a short, light laugh. “Well, what I don’t want you to feel is that if you were to I shouldn’t understand. I SHOULD understand. That’s all,” said the Princess gently.
The cool tone of it—cool as if just to entertain her by revealing his willingness to help—was enough to pull a brief, light laugh from her seriousness. “Well, what I don’t want you to think is that if you were to, I wouldn’t understand. I WOULD understand. That’s all,” said the Princess softly.
Her companion turned it pleasantly over. “You don’t go so far as to wish me to take somebody I don’t like?”
Her friend flipped it over with a smile. “You’re not actually hoping I’ll end up with someone I don’t like, are you?”
“Ah, father,” she sighed, “you know how far I go—how far I COULD go. But I only wish that if you ever SHOULD like anybody, you may never doubt of my feeling how I’ve brought you to it. You’ll always know that I know that it’s my fault.”
“Ah, Dad,” she sighed, “you know how far I go—how far I COULD go. But I just hope that if you ever DO like someone, you won’t doubt how I’ve contributed to that. You’ll always know that I know it’s my fault.”
“You mean,” he went on in his contemplative way, “that it will be you who’ll take the consequences?”
“You're saying,” he continued thoughtfully, “that you’ll be the one who faces the consequences?”
Maggie just considered. “I’ll leave you all the good ones, but I’ll take the bad.”
Maggie just thought, “I’ll leave you all the good ones, but I’ll take the bad.”
“Well, that’s handsome.” He emphasised his sense of it by drawing her closer and holding her more tenderly. “It’s about all I could expect of you. So far as you’ve wronged me, therefore, we’ll call it square. I’ll let you know in time if I see a prospect of your having to take it up. But am I to understand meanwhile,” he soon went on, “that, ready as you are to see me through my collapse, you’re not ready, or not AS ready, to see me through my resistance? I’ve got to be a regular martyr before you’ll be inspired?”
"Well, that's good-looking." He emphasized this by pulling her closer and holding her more gently. "It's about all I could expect from you. As far as you've wronged me, we'll consider it even. I'll let you know in time if I see a reason for you to step up. But can I take it to mean that, while you're eager to help me through my downfall, you're not as eager to support me through my struggles? Do I have to be a total victim before you'll feel inspired?"
She demurred at his way of putting it. “Why, if you like it, you know, it won’t BE a collapse.”
She hesitated at his phrasing. “Well, if you like it, you know, it won't BE a collapse.”
“Then why talk about seeing me through at all? I shall only collapse if I do like it. But what I seem to feel is that I don’t WANT to like it. That is,” he amended, “unless I feel surer I do than appears very probable. I don’t want to have to THINK I like it in a case when I really shan’t. I’ve had to do that in some cases,” he confessed—“when it has been a question of other things. I don’t want,” he wound up, “to be MADE to make a mistake.”
“Then why even bother talking about helping me out? I'll only break down if I actually enjoy it. But what I'm really sensing is that I don’t WANT to enjoy it. That is,” he corrected himself, “unless I feel more certain about it than seems likely. I don’t want to have to convince myself that I like something when I really don’t. I've had to do that in some situations,” he admitted—“when it came to other matters. I don’t want,” he concluded, “to be FORCED into making a mistake.”
“Ah, but it’s too dreadful,” she returned, “that you should even have to FEAR—or just nervously to dream—that you may be. What does that show, after all,” she asked, “but that you do really, well within, feel a want? What does it show but that you’re truly susceptible?”
“Ah, but it’s too awful,” she replied, “that you should even have to FEAR—or just anxiously dream—that you might be. What does that indicate, after all,” she asked, “but that you really, deep down, feel a need? What does it show but that you’re genuinely sensitive?”
“Well, it may show that”—he defended himself against nothing. “But it shows also, I think, that charming women are, in the kind of life we’re leading now, numerous and formidable.”
“Well, it might indicate that”—he was justifying himself against nothing. “But I also think it shows that charming women are, in the kind of life we’re living now, plentiful and powerful.”
Maggie entertained for a moment the proposition; under cover of which, however, she passed quickly from the general to the particular. “Do you feel Mrs. Rance to be charming?”
Maggie considered the suggestion for a moment; during which, however, she quickly shifted from the general to the specific. “Do you think Mrs. Rance is charming?”
“Well, I feel her to be formidable. When they cast a spell it comes to the same thing. I think she’d do anything.”
"Well, I think she's pretty intense. When they use magic, it's basically the same deal. I believe she'd go to any lengths."
“Oh well, I’d help you,” the Princess said with decision, “as against HER—if that’s all you require. It’s too funny,” she went on before he again spoke, “that Mrs. Rance should be here at all. But if you talk of the life we lead, much of it is, altogether, I’m bound to say, too funny. The thing is,” Maggie developed under this impression, “that I don’t think we lead, as regards other people, any life at all. We don’t at any rate, it seems to me, lead half the life we might. And so it seems, I think, to Amerigo. So it seems also, I’m sure, to Fanny Assingham.”
“Oh well, I’d help you,” the Princess said with determination, “if it’s against HER—that’s all you need. It’s just hilarious,” she continued before he spoke again, “that Mrs. Rance is here at all. But when you talk about the life we live, so much of it is, honestly, too funny. The thing is,” Maggie expanded on this thought, “that I don’t think we really live, in terms of other people, any life at all. We definitely don't, it seems to me, live half the life we could. And I think Amerigo feels the same way. I’m sure Fanny Assingham thinks so too.”
Mr. Verver—as if from due regard for these persons—considered a little. “What life would they like us to lead?”
Mr. Verver—out of respect for these people—thought for a moment. “What kind of life do they want us to live?”
“Oh, it’s not a question, I think, on which they quite feel together. SHE thinks, dear Fanny, that we ought to be greater.”
“Oh, it's not a question, I think, that they fully agree on. SHE thinks, dear Fanny, that we should be greater.”
“Greater—?” He echoed it vaguely. “And Amerigo too, you say?”
“Greater—?” He repeated it slightly confused. “And Amerigo as well, you say?”
“Ah yes"—her reply was prompt—“but Amerigo doesn’t mind. He doesn’t care, I mean, what we do. It’s for us, he considers, to see things exactly as we wish. Fanny herself,” Maggie pursued, “thinks he’s magnificent. Magnificent, I mean, for taking everything as it is, for accepting the ‘social limitations’ of our life, for not missing what we don’t give him.”
“Ah yes”—she replied quickly—“but Amerigo doesn’t mind. He doesn’t care, I mean, about what we do. He believes it’s up to us to see things exactly as we want. Fanny herself,” Maggie continued, “thinks he’s amazing. Amazing, I mean, for taking everything as it is, for accepting the ‘social limitations’ of our life, for not missing what we don’t offer him.”
Mr. Verver attended. “Then if he doesn’t miss it his magnificence is easy.”
Mr. Verver attended. “So, if he doesn't miss it, his greatness is easy.”
“It IS easy—that’s exactly what I think. If there were things he DID miss, and if in spite of them he were always sweet, then, no doubt, he would be a more or less unappreciated hero. He COULD be a Hero—he WILL be one if it’s ever necessary. But it will be about something better than our dreariness. I know,” the Princess declared, “where he’s magnificent.” And she rested a minute on that. She ended, however, as she had begun. “We’re not, all the same, committed to anything stupid. If we ought to be grander, as Fanny thinks, we CAN be grander. There’s nothing to prevent.”
“It’s easy—that’s exactly what I think. If there were things he missed, and if despite them he was always kind, then, no doubt, he would be a somewhat unappreciated hero. He could be a hero—he will be one if it’s ever needed. But it will be about something better than our dullness. I know,” the Princess said, “where he’s amazing.” And she paused for a moment on that. She concluded, however, as she had started. “We’re still not committed to anything foolish. If we should be greater, as Fanny thinks, we can be greater. There’s nothing stopping us.”
“Is it a strict moral obligation?” Adam Verver inquired.
“Is it a strict moral obligation?” Adam Verver asked.
“No—it’s for the amusement.”
“No—it’s for fun.”
“For whose? For Fanny’s own?”
"For whom? For Fanny's?"
“For everyone’s—though I dare say Fanny’s would be a large part.” She hesitated; she had now, it might have appeared, something more to bring out, which she finally produced. “For yours in particular, say—if you go into the question.” She even bravely followed it up. “I haven’t really, after all, had to think much to see that much more can be done for you than is done.”
“For everyone’s—though I’d say Fanny’s would be a big part.” She paused; she now seemed to have something more to say, which she finally expressed. “For you in particular, let’s say—if you consider the matter.” She even boldly continued. “I haven’t really had to think hard to realize that a lot more can be done for you than what’s currently being done.”
Mr. Verver uttered an odd vague sound. “Don’t you think a good deal is done when you come out and talk to me this way?”
Mr. Verver made a strange, unclear noise. “Don’t you think it means a lot when you come out and speak to me like this?”
“Ah,” said his daughter, smiling at him, “we make too much of that!” And then to explain: “That’s good, and it’s natural—but it isn’t great. We forget that we’re as free as air.”
“Ah,” said his daughter, smiling at him, “we make too much of that!” And then to explain: “That’s good, and it’s natural—but it isn’t great. We forget that we’re as free as air.”
“Well, THAT’S great,” Mr. Verver pleaded. “Great if we act on it. Not if we don’t.”
“Well, THAT’S great,” Mr. Verver pleaded. “Great if we act on it. Not if we don’t.”
She continued to smile, and he took her smile; wondering again a little by this time, however; struck more and more by an intensity in it that belied a light tone. “What do you want,” he demanded, “to do to me?” And he added, as she didn’t say: “You’ve got something in your mind.” It had come to him within the minute that from the beginning of their session there she had been keeping something back, and that an impression of this had more than once, in spite of his general theoretic respect for her present right to personal reserves and mysteries, almost ceased to be vague in him. There had been from the first something in her anxious eyes, in the way she occasionally lost herself, that it would perfectly explain. He was therefore now quite sure.
She kept smiling, and he took in her smile, wondering again, but this time feeling increasingly struck by an intensity in it that contradicted its lightness. “What do you want to do to me?” he demanded. He added, since she didn’t respond, “You’ve got something on your mind.” It hit him in that moment that ever since their session started, she had been holding something back, and that this impression had, more than once, despite his general respect for her right to keep personal matters private, started to feel less vague. There had always been something in her anxious eyes, in the way she occasionally seemed lost in thought, that would perfectly explain it. So, he was now completely sure.
“You’ve got something up your sleeve.”
"You're hiding something."
She had a silence that made him right. “Well, when I tell you you’ll understand. It’s only up my sleeve in the sense of being in a letter I got this morning. All day, yes—it HAS been in my mind. I’ve been asking myself if it were quite the right moment, or in any way fair, to ask you if you could stand just now another woman.”
She had a silence that validated him. “Well, when I tell you, you’ll understand. It’s only a secret in the sense that it’s in a letter I received this morning. All day, yes—it HAS been on my mind. I’ve been wondering if this is the right moment, or if it’s even fair, to ask you if you could handle another woman right now.”
It relieved him a little, yet the beautiful consideration of her manner made it in a degree portentous. “Stand one—?”
It eased him a bit, but the lovely way she acted made it somewhat ominous. “Stand one—?”
“Well, mind her coming.”
“Well, be mindful of her coming.”
He stared—then he laughed. “It depends on who she is.”
He stared for a moment—then he laughed. “It depends on who she is.”
“There—you see! I’ve at all events been thinking whether you’d take this particular person but as a worry the more. Whether, that is, you’d go so far with her in your notion of having to be kind.”
“There—you see! I’ve definitely been wondering if you’d consider this specific person as just another concern. That is, if you would go as far with her in your idea of needing to be kind.”
He gave at this the quickest shake to his foot. How far would she go in HER notion of it.
He quickly shook his foot at this. How far would she take HER idea of it?
“Well,” his daughter returned, “you know how far, in a general way, Charlotte Stant goes.”
“Well,” his daughter replied, “you know generally how far Charlotte Stant goes.”
“Charlotte? Is SHE coming?”
"Charlotte? Is she coming?"
“She writes me, practically, that she’d like to if we’re so good as to ask her.”
“She basically writes to me that she'd like to if we’re kind enough to ask her.”
Mr. Verver continued to gaze, but rather as if waiting for more. Then, as everything appeared to have come, his expression had a drop. If this was all it was simple. “Then why in the world not?”
Mr. Verver kept staring, almost like he was waiting for something else. When it seemed like everything had come to an end, his expression fell. If this was all, it was straightforward. “Then why on earth not?”
Maggie’s face lighted anew, but it was now another light. “It isn’t a want of tact?”
Maggie’s face lit up again, but it was a different kind of light. “Is it a lack of tact?”
“To ask her?”
"Should I ask her?"
“To propose it to you.”
"To suggest it to you."
“That I should ask her?”
"Should I ask her?"
He put the question as an effect of his remnant of vagueness, but this had also its own effect. Maggie wondered an instant; after which, as with a flush of recognition, she took it up. “It would be too beautiful if you WOULD!”
He asked the question because he still felt a bit unclear, but this had its own impact. Maggie paused for a moment; then, with a sudden realization, she replied, “It would be amazing if you WOULD!”
This, clearly, had not been her first idea—the chance of his words had prompted it. “Do you mean write to her myself?”
This clearly wasn't her first idea—his words had sparked it. “Are you saying I should write to her myself?”
“Yes—it would be kind. It would be quite beautiful of you. That is, of course,” said Maggie, “if you sincerely CAN.”
“Yes—it would be kind. It would be really beautiful of you. That is, of course,” said Maggie, “if you really CAN.”
He appeared to wonder an instant why he sincerely shouldn’t, and indeed, for that matter, where the question of sincerity came in. This virtue, between him and his daughter’s friend, had surely been taken for granted. “My dear child,” he returned, “I don’t think I’m afraid of Charlotte.”
He seemed to pause for a moment, wondering why he really shouldn’t, and honestly, where the issue of sincerity even fit in. This quality between him and his daughter’s friend had definitely been assumed. “My dear child,” he replied, “I don’t think I’m afraid of Charlotte.”
“Well, that’s just what it’s lovely to have from you. From the moment you’re NOT—the least little bit—I’ll immediately invite her.”
“Well, that’s just what it’s great to hear from you. The moment you’re not—at all—I’ll immediately invite her.”
“But where in the world is she?” He spoke as if he had not thought of Charlotte, nor so much as heard her name pronounced, for a very long time. He quite in fact amicably, almost amusedly, woke up to her.
“But where in the world is she?” He spoke as if he hadn’t thought about Charlotte, or even heard her name in a long time. He actually seemed to wake up to her with a friendly, almost amused, attitude.
“She’s in Brittany, at a little bathing-place, with some people I don’t know. She’s always with people, poor dear—she rather has to be; even when, as is sometimes the case; they’re people she doesn’t immensely like.”
“She’s in Brittany, at a small beach town, with some people I don’t know. She’s always around others, poor thing—she kind of has to be; even when, as sometimes happens, they’re people she doesn’t really like.”
“Well, I guess she likes US,” said Adam Verver. “Yes—fortunately she likes us. And if I wasn’t afraid of spoiling it for you,” Maggie added, “I’d even mention that you’re not the one of our number she likes least.”
“Well, I guess she likes us,” said Adam Verver. “Yes—luckily she likes us. And if I wasn’t afraid of ruining it for you,” Maggie added, “I’d even say that you’re not the one of our group she likes the least.”
“Why should that spoil it for me?”
“Why should that ruin it for me?”
“Oh, my dear, you know. What else have we been talking about? It costs you so much to be liked. That’s why I hesitated to tell you of my letter.”
“Oh, my dear, you know. What else have we been talking about? It costs you so much to be liked. That’s why I hesitated to tell you about my letter.”
He stared a moment—as if the subject had suddenly grown out of recognition. “But Charlotte—on other visits—never used to cost me anything.”
He stared for a moment—as if the topic had suddenly become unrecognizable. “But Charlotte—during other visits—never used to cost me anything.”
“No—only her ‘keep,’” Maggie smiled.
“No—just her ‘keep,’” Maggie smiled.
“Then I don’t think I mind her keep—if that’s all.” The Princess, however, it was clear, wished to be thoroughly conscientious. “Well, it may not be quite all. If I think of its being pleasant to have her, it’s because she WILL make a difference.”
“Then I don’t think I mind her staying—if that’s all.” The Princess, however, clearly wanted to be completely responsible. “Well, it might not be exactly all. If I find it nice to have her around, it’s because she WILL make a difference.”
“Well, what’s the harm in that if it’s but a difference for the better?”
“Well, what’s the harm in that if it’s just a change for the better?”
“Ah then—there you are!” And the Princess showed in her smile her small triumphant wisdom. “If you acknowledge a possible difference for the better we’re not, after all, so tremendously right as we are. I mean we’re not—as satisfied and amused. We do see there are ways of being grander.”
“Ah, there you are!” The Princess smiled, revealing a hint of triumphant wisdom. “If you admit there could be a better way, then we’re not as perfectly right as we think. I mean, we’re not—so satisfied and entertained. We can see there are ways to be more impressive.”
“But will Charlotte Stant,” her father asked with surprise, “make us grander?”
“But will Charlotte Stant,” her father asked in surprise, “make us more impressive?”
Maggie, on this, looking at him well, had a remarkable reply. “Yes, I think. Really grander.”
Maggie, considering this and looking at him closely, had a remarkable response. “Yes, I think so. Really more impressive.”
He thought; for if this was a sudden opening he wished but the more to meet it. “Because she’s so handsome?”
He thought, because if this was a sudden opportunity, he only wanted to embrace it even more. “Is it because she’s so attractive?”
“No, father.” And the Princess was almost solemn. “Because she’s so great.”
“No, dad.” And the Princess was almost serious. “Because she’s so amazing.”
“Great—?”
"Awesome—?"
“Great in nature, in character, in spirit. Great in life.”
“Awesome in nature, in character, in spirit. Awesome in life.”
“So?” Mr. Verver echoed. “What has she done—in life?”
“So?” Mr. Verver repeated. “What has she done—with her life?”
“Well, she has been brave and bright,” said Maggie. “That mayn’t sound like much, but she has been so in the face of things that might well have made it too difficult for many other girls. She hasn’t a creature in the world really—that is nearly—belonging to her. Only acquaintances who, in all sorts of ways, make use of her, and distant relations who are so afraid she’ll make use of THEM that they seldom let her look at them.”
“Well, she has been brave and smart,” said Maggie. “That might not sound like much, but she has been that way even when faced with things that would have made it very hard for many other girls. She doesn’t really have anyone in the world—almost—who belongs to her. Just acquaintances who, in various ways, take advantage of her, and distant relatives who are so worried she’ll take advantage of THEM that they hardly ever let her look at them.”
Mr. Verver was struck—and, as usual, to some purpose. “If we get her here to improve us don’t we too then make use of her?”
Mr. Verver was hit with a realization—and, as always, it meant something. “If we bring her here to better ourselves, aren’t we also taking advantage of her?”
It pulled the Princess up, however, but an instant. “We’re old, old friends—we do her good too. I should always, even at the worst—speaking for myself—admire her still more than I used her.”
It lifted the Princess up, but only for a moment. “We’re long-time friends—we do good for her too. I would always, even in the worst times—speaking for myself—admire her even more than I used to.”
“I see. That always does good.”
"I get it. That always helps."
Maggie hesitated. “Certainly—she knows it. She knows, I mean, how great I think her courage and her cleverness. She’s not afraid—not of anything; and yet she no more ever takes a liberty with you than if she trembled for her life. And then she’s INTERESTING—which plenty of other people with plenty of other merits never are a bit.” In which fine flicker of vision the truth widened to the Princess’s view. “I myself of course don’t take liberties, but then I do, always, by nature, tremble for my life. That’s the way I live.”
Maggie paused. “Of course—she knows. She knows how much I admire her courage and intelligence. She’s not scared—not of anything; and yet she never oversteps with you as if she’s afraid for her life. And then she’s INTERESTING—which a lot of other people with different strengths just aren’t at all.” In this insightful moment, the truth became clearer to the Princess. “I don’t overstep either, but I do, by nature, always fear for my life. That’s just how I live.”
“Oh I say, love!” her father vaguely murmured.
"Oh, I say, sweetheart!" her father said dreamily.
“Yes, I live in terror,” she insisted. “I’m a small creeping thing.”
“Yes, I live in fear,” she insisted. “I’m just a tiny, crawling creature.”
“You’ll not persuade me that you’re not as good as Charlotte Stant,” he still placidly enough remarked.
"You won't convince me that you're not as good as Charlotte Stant," he said calmly enough.
“I may be as good, but I’m not so great—and that’s what we’re talking about. She has a great imagination. She has, in every way, a great attitude. She has above all a great conscience.” More perhaps than ever in her life before Maggie addressed her father at this moment with a shade of the absolute in her tone. She had never come so near telling him what he should take it from her to believe. “She has only twopence in the world—but that has nothing to do with it. Or rather indeed”—she quickly corrected herself—“it has everything. For she doesn’t care. I never saw her do anything but laugh at her poverty. Her life has been harder than anyone knows.”
“I might be decent, but I’m not that amazing—and that’s what we’re discussing. She has a fantastic imagination. She’s got, in every way, a fantastic attitude. Above all, she has a strong sense of ethics.” More than ever before, Maggie spoke to her father with a hint of certainty in her voice. She had never been so close to telling him what he should take her word on. “She only has two cents to her name—but that doesn’t matter. Or actually”—she quickly corrected herself—“it matters a lot. Because she doesn’t care. I’ve only ever seen her laugh at her struggles. Her life has been tougher than anyone realizes.”
It was moreover as if, thus unprecedentedly positive, his child had an effect upon him that Mr. Verver really felt as a new thing. “Why then haven’t you told me about her before?”
It was also as if, in this completely new and uplifting way, his child had an effect on him that Mr. Verver genuinely experienced as something new. “So why haven’t you told me about her before?”
“Well, haven’t we always known—?”
“Well, haven’t we always known?”
“I should have thought,” he submitted, “that we had already pretty well sized her up.”
"I should have thought," he said, "that we had already figured her out pretty well."
“Certainly—we long ago quite took her for granted. But things change, with time, and I seem to know that, after this interval, I’m going to like her better than ever. I’ve lived more myself, I’m older, and one judges better. Yes, I’m going to see in Charlotte,” said the Princess—and speaking now as with high and free expectation—“more than I’ve ever seen.”
“Of course—we definitely took her for granted before. But things change over time, and I feel like after this break, I’m going to appreciate her more than ever. I’ve experienced more, I’m older, and I can judge better. Yes, I’m going to see more in Charlotte,” said the Princess—now speaking with high hopes and a sense of freedom—“than I’ve ever seen before.”
“Then I’ll try to do so too. She WAS”—it came back to Mr. Verver more—“the one of your friends I thought the best for you.”
“Then I’ll try to do that too. She WAS”—it came back to Mr. Verver more—“the one of your friends I thought was the best for you.”
His companion, however, was so launched in her permitted liberty of appreciation that she for the moment scarce heard him. She was lost in the case she made out, the vision of the different ways in which Charlotte had distinguished herself.
His companion, however, was so absorbed in her allowed freedom of appreciation that she barely heard him for the moment. She was caught up in the argument she was forming, envisioning the different ways Charlotte had set herself apart.
“She would have liked for instance—I’m sure she would have liked extremely—to marry; and nothing in general is more ridiculous, even when it has been pathetic, than a woman who has tried and has not been able.”
“She would have really liked, for example—I’m sure she would have really liked—to marry; and nothing in general is more ridiculous, even when it has been sad, than a woman who has tried and hasn’t been able to.”
It had all Mr. Verver’s attention. “She has ‘tried’—?”
It had all of Mr. Verver's attention. "She has 'tried'—?"
“She has seen cases where she would have liked to.”
“She has seen situations where she would have wanted to.”
“But she has not been able?”
“But she hasn't been able to?”
“Well, there are more cases, in Europe, in which it doesn’t come to girls who are poor than in which it does come to them. Especially,” said Maggie with her continued competence, “when they’re Americans.”
“Well, there are more situations in Europe where it doesn't involve girls who are poor than where it does. Especially,” Maggie added confidently, “when they're Americans.”
Well, her father now met her, and met her cheerfully, on all sides. “Unless you mean,” he suggested, “that when the girls are American there are more cases in which it comes to the rich than to the poor.”
Well, her father now met her, and greeted her happily, from all sides. “Unless you mean,” he suggested, “that when the girls are American, there are more situations where it affects the rich than the poor.”
She looked at him good-humouredly. “That may be—but I’m not going to be smothered in MY case. It ought to make me—if I were in danger of being a fool—all the nicer to people like Charlotte. It’s not hard for ME,” she practically explained, “not to be ridiculous—unless in a very different way. I might easily be ridiculous, I suppose, by behaving as if I thought I had done a great thing. Charlotte, at any rate, has done nothing, and anyone can see it, and see also that it’s rather strange; and yet no one—no one not awfully presumptuous or offensive would like, or would dare, to treat her, just as she is, as anything but quite RIGHT. That’s what it is to have something about you that carries things off.”
She looked at him with a smile. “That might be true—but I’m not going to let myself be suffocated in my situation. It should make me—if I were at risk of being foolish—all the nicer to people like Charlotte. It’s not hard for me,” she explained, “not to act ridiculous—unless in a very different way. I could easily seem ridiculous, I guess, by acting like I thought I’d done something amazing. Charlotte, at least, hasn’t done anything, and it’s obvious to anyone who looks, and it’s also a bit strange; and yet no one—no one who isn’t extremely arrogant or rude would want, or would dare, to treat her, just as she is, as anything but completely fine. That’s what it means to have something about you that stands out.”
Mr. Verver’s silence, on this, could only be a sign that she had caused her story to interest him; though the sign when he spoke was perhaps even sharper. “And is it also what you mean by Charlotte’s being ‘great’?”
Mr. Verver’s silence on this could only mean that she had made her story interesting to him; though the sign when he spoke was perhaps even clearer. “And is that also what you mean by Charlotte being ‘great’?”
“Well,” said Maggie, “it’s one of her ways. But she has many.”
“Well,” said Maggie, “that’s just one of her quirks. But she has plenty more.”
Again for a little her father considered. “And who is it she has tried to marry?”
Again for a moment, her father thought. “And who is it that she has tried to marry?”
Maggie, on her side as well, waited as if to bring it out with effect; but she after a minute either renounced or encountered an obstacle. “I’m afraid I’m not sure.”
Maggie also waited, as if trying to make a point, but after a minute, she either gave up or hit a wall. “I’m afraid I’m not sure.”
“Then how do you know?”
"Then how do you know?"
“Well, I don’t KNOW”—and, qualifying again, she was earnestly emphatic. “I only make it out for myself.”
“Well, I don’t KNOW”—and, qualifying again, she was earnestly emphatic. “I only figure it out for myself.”
“But you must make it out about someone in particular.”
“But you have to figure it out about someone specific.”
She had another pause. “I don’t think I want even for myself to put names and times, to pull away any veil. I’ve an idea there has been, more than once, somebody I’m not acquainted with—and needn’t be or want to be. In any case it’s all over, and, beyond giving her credit for everything, it’s none of my business.”
She took another pause. “I don’t think I want to name names or put a timeline on things, to lift any curtain. I believe there has been, more than once, someone I don’t know—and don’t need to know or want to know. In any case, it’s all in the past, and aside from giving her credit for everything, it’s none of my concern.”
Mr. Verver deferred, yet he discriminated. “I don’t see how you can give credit without knowing the facts.”
Mr. Verver hesitated, but he was clear in his judgment. “I don’t understand how you can trust someone without knowing the facts.”
“Can’t I give it—generally—for dignity? Dignity, I mean, in misfortune.”
“Can’t I say it’s generally about dignity? Dignity, I mean, in tough times.”
“You’ve got to postulate the misfortune first.”
“You need to assume the misfortune first.”
“Well,” said Maggie, “I can do that. Isn’t it always a misfortune to be—when you’re so fine—so wasted? And yet,” she went on, “not to wail about it, not to look even as if you knew it?”
“Well,” Maggie said, “I can do that. Isn’t it always unfortunate to be—when you’re so great—so wasted? And yet,” she continued, “not to complain about it, not to even look like you’re aware of it?”
Mr. Verver seemed at first to face this as a large question, and then, after a little, solicited by another view, to let the appeal drop. “Well, she mustn’t be wasted. We won’t at least have waste.”
Mr. Verver initially appeared to see this as a big issue, but then, after a moment, influenced by another perspective, he decided to let it go. “Well, she shouldn’t be wasted. We won't at least have waste.”
It produced in Maggie’s face another gratitude. “Then, dear sir, that’s all I want.”
It created a new sense of gratitude in Maggie's face. "Then, dear sir, that's all I need."
And it would apparently have settled their question and ended their talk if her father had not, after a little, shown the disposition to revert. “How many times are you supposing that she has tried?”
And it would have apparently resolved their question and ended their conversation if her father hadn't, after a while, shown a willingness to go back to it. “How many times do you think she has tried?”
Once more, at this, and as if she hadn’t been, couldn’t be, hated to be, in such delicate matters, literal, she was moved to attenuate. “Oh, I don’t say she absolutely ever TRIED—!”
Once again, at this, and as if she hadn’t been, couldn't be, and hated to be, so straightforward in such sensitive matters, she felt compelled to soften her words. “Oh, I’m not saying she ever really TRIED—!”
He looked perplexed. “But if she has so absolutely failed, what then had she done?”
He looked confused. “But if she has completely failed, what did she do?”
“She has suffered—she has done that.” And the Princess added: “She has loved—and she has lost.”
“She’s been through a lot—she really has.” And the Princess added: “She has loved—and she has lost.”
Mr. Verver, however, still wondered. “But how many times.”
Mr. Verver, however, still wondered. “But how many times?”
Maggie hesitated, but it cleared up. “Once is enough. Enough, that is, for one to be kind to her.”
Maggie hesitated, but it became clear. “Once is enough. Enough, that is, for someone to be kind to her.”
Her father listened, yet not challenging—only as with a need of some basis on which, under these new lights, his bounty could be firm. “But has she told you nothing?”
Her father listened, but didn’t challenge her—he just seemed to need some solid reason for why, given this new perspective, his generosity could be justified. “But hasn’t she said anything to you?”
“Ah, thank goodness, no!”
"Ah, thank goodness, no!"
He stared. “Then don’t young women tell?”
He stared. “So, don’t young women talk?”
“Because, you mean, it’s just what they’re supposed to do?” She looked at him, flushed again now; with which, after another hesitation, “Do young men tell?” she asked.
“Because, you mean, it’s just what they’re supposed to do?” She looked at him, flushed again now; with which, after another hesitation, “Do young men tell?” she asked.
He gave a short laugh. “How do I know, my dear, what young men do?”
He let out a quick laugh. “How should I know, my dear, what young guys do?”
“Then how do I know, father, what vulgar girls do?”
“Then how do I know, dad, what trashy girls do?”
“I see—I see,” he quickly returned.
“I get it—I get it,” he quickly replied.
But she spoke the next moment as if she might, odiously, have been sharp. “What happens at least is that where there’s a great deal of pride there’s a great deal of silence. I don’t know, I admit, what I should do if I were lonely and sore—for what sorrow, to speak of, have I ever had in my life? I don’t know even if I’m proud—it seems to me the question has never come up for me.”
But she spoke a moment later as if she might, unpleasantly, have been harsh. “What happens, at least, is that where there’s a lot of pride, there’s also a lot of silence. I don’t know, I admit, what I would do if I were lonely and hurting—for what sorrow, really, have I ever experienced in my life? I don’t even know if I’m proud—it seems to me that question has never come up for me.”
“Oh, I guess you’re proud, Mag,” her father cheerfully interposed. “I mean I guess you’re proud enough.”
“Oh, I guess you’re proud, Mag,” her father happily interrupted. “I mean, I guess you’re proud enough.”
“Well then, I hope I’m humble enough too. I might, at all events, for all I know, be abject under a blow. How can I tell? Do you realise, father, that I’ve never had the least blow?”
“Well then, I hope I’m humble enough too. I might, for all I know, crumble under a hit. How can I be sure? Do you understand, Dad, that I’ve never experienced even the slightest blow?”
He gave her a long, quiet look. “Who SHOULD realise if I don’t?”
He gave her a long, silent look. “Who SHOULD figure it out if I don’t?”
“Well, you’ll realise when I HAVE one!” she exclaimed with a short laugh that resembled, as for good reasons, his own of a minute before. “I wouldn’t in any case have let her tell me what would have been dreadful to me. For such wounds and shames are dreadful: at least,” she added, catching herself up, “I suppose they are; for what, as I say, do I know of them? I don’t WANT to know!”—she spoke quite with vehemence. “There are things that are sacred whether they’re joys or pains. But one can always, for safety, be kind,” she kept on; “one feels when that’s right.”
“Well, you'll understand when I actually have one!” she said with a brief laugh that reminded him, for good reason, of his own from a minute ago. “In any case, I wouldn’t have let her tell me what would have been terrible to me. Such wounds and humiliations are awful: at least,” she added, pausing for a moment, “I guess they are; because, as I said, what do I know about them? I don’t WANT to know!”—she spoke with real intensity. “There are things that are sacred, whether they're joys or sorrows. But one can always, for safety, be kind,” she continued; “you can tell when that’s the right thing to do.”
She had got up with these last words; she stood there before him with that particular suggestion in her aspect to which even the long habit of their life together had not closed his sense, kept sharp, year after year, by the collation of types and signs, the comparison of fine object with fine object, of one degree of finish, of one form of the exquisite with another—the appearance of some slight, slim draped “antique” of Vatican or Capitoline halls, late and refined, rare as a note and immortal as a link, set in motion by the miraculous infusion of a modern impulse and yet, for all the sudden freedom of folds and footsteps forsaken after centuries by their pedestal, keeping still the quality, the perfect felicity, of the statue; the blurred, absent eyes, the smoothed, elegant, nameless head, the impersonal flit of a creature lost in an alien age and passing as an image in worn relief round and round a precious vase. She had always had odd moments of striking him, daughter of his very own though she was, as a figure thus simplified, “generalised” in its grace, a figure with which his human connection was fairly interrupted by some vague analogy of turn and attitude, something shyly mythological and nymphlike. The trick, he was not uncomplacently aware, was mainly of his own mind; it came from his caring for precious vases only less than for precious daughters. And what was more to the point still, it often operated while he was quite at the same time conscious that Maggie had been described, even in her prettiness, as “prim”—Mrs. Rance herself had enthusiastically used the word of her; while he remembered that when once she had been told before him, familiarly, that she resembled a nun, she had replied that she was delighted to hear it and would certainly try to; while also, finally, it was present to him that, discreetly heedless, thanks to her long association with nobleness in art, to the leaps and bounds of fashion, she brought her hair down very straight and flat over her temples, in the constant manner of her mother, who had not been a bit mythological. Nymphs and nuns were certainly separate types, but Mr. Verver, when he really amused himself, let consistency go. The play of vision was at all events so rooted in him that he could receive impressions of sense even while positively thinking. He was positively thinking while Maggie stood there, and it led for him to yet another question—which in its turn led to others still. “Do you regard the condition as hers then that you spoke of a minute ago?”
She had gotten up after saying those last words; she stood there before him with that particular look that had always kept his senses sharp, despite the many years of their life together. He had compared various types and signs, fine objects with fine objects, one kind of exquisite detail with another—the way some delicate, slim draped “antique” from the Vatican or Capitoline halls appeared, late and refined, rare as a note and timeless as a link, energized by a sudden modern impulse yet still maintaining the quality and grace of the statue; the vague, distant eyes, the smooth, elegant, nameless head, the impersonal presence of a being lost in a different time, passing like an image around a beautiful vase. She often struck him as a figure simplified in that way, “generalized” in her grace, a figure that somewhat disrupted his human connection with her, instead resembling something shyly mythical and nymph-like. He was not entirely unaware that this impression was largely created by his own mind; it stemmed from his valuing precious vases just a little less than his precious daughter. More importantly, it often happened while he was fully aware that Maggie had been described, even in her beauty, as “prim”—Mrs. Rance herself had enthusiastically used that word about her; he recalled that once, when someone had casually said she resembled a nun in front of him, she had replied she was thrilled to hear it and would certainly try to keep that in mind; and he also remembered that, despite being oblivious, thanks to her long association with noble art and the rapid changes in fashion, she wore her hair very straight and flat over her temples, just like her mother, who had been anything but mythological. Nymphs and nuns were clearly distinct types, but Mr. Verver, when he truly allowed himself to reflect, could disregard consistency. The way he perceived things was so ingrained in him that he could gain sensory impressions even while actively thinking. He was actively thinking while Maggie stood there, which led him to yet another question—and that in turn led to even more. “So, do you consider the condition as hers that you just mentioned?”
“The condition—?”
"The situation—?"
“Why that of having loved so intensely that she’s, as you say, ‘beyond everything’?”
“Why has she loved so intensely that she’s, as you put it, ‘beyond everything’?”
Maggie had scarcely to reflect—her answer was so prompt. “Oh no. She’s beyond nothing. For she has had nothing.”
Maggie barely had to think—her response was immediate. “Oh no. She’s beyond anything. Because she has had nothing.”
“I see. You must have had things to be beyond them. It’s a kind of law of perspective.”
“I get it. You must have seen things that were beyond them. It’s a sort of perspective law.”
Maggie didn’t know about the law, but she continued definite. “She’s not, for example, beyond help.”
Maggie didn’t know about the law, but she remained certain. “She’s not, for instance, beyond help.”
“Oh well then, she shall have all we can give her. I’ll write to her,” he said, “with pleasure.”
“Oh well then, she will get everything we can give her. I’ll write to her,” he said, “gladly.”
“Angel!” she answered as she gaily and tenderly looked at him.
“Angel!” she replied, looking at him cheerfully and lovingly.
True as this might be, however, there was one thing more—he was an angel with a human curiosity. “Has she told you she likes me much?”
True as this might be, however, there was one more thing—he was an angel with a human curiosity. “Has she told you she really likes me?”
“Certainly she has told me—but I won’t pamper you. Let it be enough for you it has always been one of my reasons for liking HER.”
“Sure, she has told me—but I won’t indulge you. Just know that it’s always been one of the reasons I like HER.”
“Then she’s indeed not beyond everything,” Mr. Verver more or less humorously observed.
“Then she’s definitely not over it all,” Mr. Verver remarked with a bit of humor.
“Oh it isn’t, thank goodness, that she’s in love with you. It’s not, as I told you at first, the sort of thing for you to fear.”
“Oh, it’s not, thank goodness, that she’s in love with you. It’s not, as I told you at first, something for you to worry about.”
He had spoken with cheer, but it appeared to drop before this reassurance, as if the latter overdid his alarm, and that should be corrected. “Oh, my dear, I’ve always thought of her as a little girl.”
He had spoken cheerfully, but it seemed to fade away after this reassurance, as if the latter had exaggerated his concern, and that needed to be addressed. “Oh, my dear, I’ve always seen her as a little girl.”
“Ah, she’s not a little girl,” said the Princess.
“Ah, she’s not a little girl,” said the Princess.
“Then I’ll write to her as a brilliant woman.”
“Then I’ll write to her like a brilliant woman.”
“It’s exactly what she is.”
“It’s exactly who she is.”
Mr. Verver had got up as he spoke, and for a little, before retracing their steps, they stood looking at each other as if they had really arranged something. They had come out together for themselves, but it had produced something more. What it had produced was in fact expressed by the words with which he met his companion’s last emphasis. “Well, she has a famous friend in you, Princess.”
Mr. Verver stood up as he spoke, and for a moment, before they turned back, they looked at each other as if they had truly made a plan. They had come out together for their own sake, but it had led to something more. What it had led to was, in fact, captured by the words with which he responded to his companion’s final emphasis. “Well, she has a great friend in you, Princess.”
Maggie took this in—it was too plain for a protest. “Do you know what I’m really thinking of?” she asked.
Maggie absorbed this—it was too obvious for a protest. “Do you know what I'm really thinking about?” she asked.
He wondered, with her eyes on him—eyes of contentment at her freedom now to talk; and he wasn’t such a fool, he presently showed, as not, suddenly, to arrive at it. “Why, of your finding her at last yourself a husband.”
He wondered, with her eyes on him—eyes filled with happiness at her freedom to talk; and he wasn’t as foolish as he seemed, as he quickly grasped. “Well, it’s about you finally finding a husband for yourself.”
“Good for YOU!” Maggie smiled. “But it will take,” she added, “some looking.”
“Good for YOU!” Maggie smiled. “But it will take,” she added, “some searching.”
“Then let me look right here with you,” her father said as they walked on.
“Then let me check right here with you,” her father said as they continued walking.
XI
XI
Mrs. Assingham and the Colonel, quitting Fawns before the end of September, had come back later on; and now, a couple of weeks after, they were again interrupting their stay, but this time with the question of their return left to depend, on matters that were rather hinted at than importunately named. The Lutches and Mrs. Rance had also, by the action of Charlotte Stant’s arrival, ceased to linger, though with hopes and theories, as to some promptitude of renewal, of which the lively expression, awakening the echoes of the great stone-paved, oak-panelled, galleried hall that was not the least interesting feature of the place, seemed still a property of the air. It was on this admirable spot that, before her October afternoon had waned, Fanny Assingham spent with her easy host a few moments which led to her announcing her own and her husband’s final secession, at the same time as they tempted her to point the moral of all vain reverberations. The double door of the house stood open to an effect of hazy autumn sunshine, a wonderful, windless, waiting, golden hour, under the influence of which Adam Verver met his genial friend as she came to drop into the post-box with her own hand a thick sheaf of letters. They presently thereafter left the house together and drew out half-an-hour on the terrace in a manner they were to revert to in thought, later on, as that of persons who really had been taking leave of each other at a parting of the ways. He traced his impression, on coming to consider, back to a mere three words she had begun by using about Charlotte Stant. She simply “cleared them out”—those had been the three words, thrown off in reference to the general golden peace that the Kentish October had gradually ushered in, the “halcyon” days the full beauty of which had appeared to shine out for them after Charlotte’s arrival. For it was during these days that Mrs. Rance and the Miss Lutches had been observed to be gathering themselves for departure, and it was with that difference made that the sense of the whole situation showed most fair—the sense of how right they had been to engage for so ample a residence, and of all the pleasure so fruity an autumn there could hold in its lap. This was what had occurred, that their lesson had been learned; and what Mrs. Assingham had dwelt upon was that without Charlotte it would have been learned but half. It would certainly not have been taught by Mrs. Rance and the Miss Lutches if these ladies had remained with them as long as at one time seemed probable. Charlotte’s light intervention had thus become a cause, operating covertly but none the less actively, and Fanny Assingham’s speech, which she had followed up a little, echoed within him, fairly to startle him, as the indication of something irresistible. He could see now how this superior force had worked, and he fairly liked to recover the sight—little harm as he dreamed of doing, little ill as he dreamed of wishing, the three ladies, whom he had after all entertained for a stiffish series of days. She had been so vague and quiet about it, wonderful Charlotte, that he hadn’t known what was happening—happening, that is, as a result of her influence. “Their fires, as they felt her, turned to smoke,” Mrs. Assingham remarked; which he was to reflect on indeed even while they strolled. He had retained, since his long talk with Maggie—the talk that had settled the matter of his own direct invitation to her friend—an odd little taste, as he would have described it, for hearing things said about this young woman, hearing, so to speak, what COULD be said about her: almost as if her portrait, by some eminent hand, were going on, so that he watched it grow under the multiplication of touches. Mrs. Assingham, it struck him, applied two or three of the finest in their discussion of their young friend—so different a figure now from that early playmate of Maggie’s as to whom he could almost recall from of old the definite occasions of his having paternally lumped the two children together in the recommendation that they shouldn’t make too much noise nor eat too much jam. His companion professed that in the light of Charlotte’s prompt influence she had not been a stranger to a pang of pity for their recent visitors. “I felt in fact, privately, so sorry for them, that I kept my impression to myself while they were here—wishing not to put the rest of you on the scent; neither Maggie, nor the Prince, nor yourself, nor even Charlotte HERself, if you didn’t happen to notice. Since you didn’t, apparently, I perhaps now strike you as extravagant. But I’m not—I followed it all. One SAW the consciousness I speak of come over the poor things, very much as I suppose people at the court of the Borgias may have watched each other begin to look queer after having had the honour of taking wine with the heads of the family. My comparison’s only a little awkward, for I don’t in the least mean that Charlotte was consciously dropping poison into their cup. She was just herself their poison, in the sense of mortally disagreeing with them—but she didn’t know it.”
Mrs. Assingham and the Colonel left Fawns before the end of September but returned later; now, a couple of weeks later, they were interrupting their stay again, this time with their return depending on matters that were more suggested than explicitly stated. The Lutches and Mrs. Rance had also ceased to linger, thanks to Charlotte Stant's arrival, though they held onto hopes and theories about a quick renewal, the lively expressions echoing in the large stone-paved, oak-paneled, galleried hall, which was one of the most interesting features of the place, still filled the air. It was in this beautiful spot, before her October afternoon faded, that Fanny Assingham spent a few moments with her easygoing host, which led to her announcing her and her husband's final departure while tempting her to emphasize the futility of all those vain reverberations. The double door of the house stood open to a soft autumn sunshine—a beautiful, windless, golden hour—during which Adam Verver met his cheerful friend as she approached to drop a thick stack of letters into the mailbox. They soon left the house together and spent half an hour on the terrace in a way they would later recall as a moment of truly saying goodbye at a crossroads. He traced back his impression, upon reflection, to the three words she used about Charlotte Stant. She simply “cleared them out”—those were the words she casually mentioned concerning the overall golden tranquility that the Kentish October had slowly ushered in, the “halcyon” days that seemed to shine for them after Charlotte's arrival. It was during these days that Mrs. Rance and the Miss Lutches were observed getting ready to leave, and with that change, the entire situation appeared more favorable—the realization of how right they had been to stay for so long and the enjoyment that such a fruitful autumn could offer. This was what had happened; their lesson had been learned, and Mrs. Assingham emphasized that without Charlotte, it would have been only half learned. It certainly wouldn’t have been taught by Mrs. Rance and the Miss Lutches if those women had stayed as long as it once seemed they might. Charlotte’s subtle intervention thus became a cause, operating quietly but quite actively, and Fanny Assingham's words, which she had briefly followed up, struck him, indicating something he couldn’t resist. He could now see how this superior influence had worked, and he actually enjoyed remembering it—no harm as he imagined doing, no ill will as he imagined wishing, toward the three women he had hosted for a somewhat stiff series of days. She had been so vague and calm about it, wonderful Charlotte, that he hadn’t realized what was happening—happening, that is, as a result of her influence. “Their fires, as they felt her, turned to smoke,” Mrs. Assingham noted; he was to ponder this even as they strolled. Since his long talk with Maggie—the discussion that had resolved the issue of his direct invitation to her friend—he had retained a curious little taste, as he would have put it, for hearing things said about this young woman, hearing what COULD be said about her: almost as if someone skilled were painting her portrait, and he watched it take shape with each new detail. It struck him that Mrs. Assingham offered two or three of the finest insights in their conversation about their young friend—so different from the early playmate of Maggie's that he could almost remember specific occasions when he had suggestively clumped the two kids together, advising them not to make too much noise or eat too much jam. His companion admitted that in light of Charlotte’s quick influence, she had felt a pang of pity for their recent guests. “I actually felt so sorry for them that I kept it to myself while they were here—wanting to avoid putting the rest of you on the scent; neither Maggie, nor the Prince, nor you, nor even Charlotte HERself, if you didn’t happen to notice. Since you didn’t, apparently, I might seem extravagant now. But I’m not—I saw it all. One SAW the awareness I’m talking about creep over the poor things, very much like how I suppose people at the court of the Borgias might have seen each other start to look uneasy after sharing wine with the family's heads. My comparison isn’t perfect, because I don’t mean at all that Charlotte was consciously poisoning their drinks. She was simply their poison in the sense that she fundamentally disagreed with them—but she didn’t realize it.”
“Ah, she didn’t know it?” Mr. Verver had asked with interest.
“Wait, she didn’t know that?” Mr. Verver asked, intrigued.
“Well, I THINK she didn’t”—Mrs. Assingham had to admit that she hadn’t pressingly sounded her. “I don’t pretend to be sure, in every connection, of what Charlotte knows. She doesn’t, certainly, like to make people suffer—not, in general, as is the case with so many of us, even other women: she likes much rather to put them at their ease with her. She likes, that is—as all pleasant people do—to be liked.”
“Well, I think she didn’t,” Mrs. Assingham had to admit that she hadn’t really asked her. “I can’t say for sure, in every situation, what Charlotte knows. She definitely doesn’t like to make people suffer—not like many of us do, even other women; she actually prefers to put them at ease. She wants, like all nice people do, to be liked.”
“Ah, she likes to be liked?” her companion had gone on.
“Ah, she wants people to like her?” her companion had continued.
“She did, at the same time, no doubt, want to help us—to put us at our ease. That is she wanted to put you—and to put Maggie about you. So far as that went she had a plan. But it was only AFTER—it was not before, I really believe—that she saw how effectively she could work.”
“She definitely wanted to help us at the same time—to make us feel comfortable. She wanted to ease your mind—and to assure Maggie about you. In that regard, she had a plan. But it was only AFTER—it wasn’t before, that I truly believe—she realized how effectively she could make it happen.”
Again, as Mr. Verver felt, he must have taken it up. “Ah, she wanted to help us?—wanted to help ME?”
Again, as Mr. Verver thought, he must have picked it up. “Oh, she wanted to help us?—wanted to help ME?”
“Why,” Mrs. Assingham asked after an instant, “should it surprise you?”
“Why,” Mrs. Assingham asked after a moment, “should that surprise you?”
He just thought. “Oh, it doesn’t!”
He just thought, “Oh, it doesn’t!”
“She saw, of course, as soon as she came, with her quickness, where we all were. She didn’t need each of us to go, by appointment, to her room at night, or take her out into the fields, for our palpitating tale. No doubt even she was rather impatient.”
“She noticed right away, with her sharp instincts, where we all were. She didn’t need each of us to visit her in her room at night, or take her into the fields, to share our anxious story. No doubt she was a bit impatient herself.”
“OF the poor things?” Mr. Verver had here inquired while he waited.
“Of the poor things?” Mr. Verver asked as he waited.
“Well, of your not yourselves being so—and of YOUR not in particular. I haven’t the least doubt in the world, par exemple, that she thinks you too meek.”
“Well, it's not really about you being like that—especially not you. I have no doubt at all, for example, that she thinks you're too submissive.”
“Oh, she thinks me too meek?”
“Oh, she thinks I’m too meek?”
“And she had been sent for, on the very face of it, to work right in. All she had to do, after all, was to be nice to you.”
“And she was called in, obviously, to get right to work. All she really had to do was be nice to you.”
“To—a—ME?” said Adam Verver.
“To—a—ME?” Adam Verver said.
He could remember now that his friend had positively had a laugh for his tone. “To you and to every one. She had only to be what she is—and to be it all round. If she’s charming, how can she help it? So it was, and so only, that she ‘acted’-as the Borgia wine used to act. One saw it come over them—the extent to which, in her particular way, a woman, a woman other, and SO other, than themselves, COULD be charming. One saw them understand and exchange looks, then one saw them lose heart and decide to move. For what they had to take home was that it’s she who’s the real thing.”
He could now recall that his friend had definitely laughed at his tone. “To you and everyone else. She just had to be herself—and fully embrace it. If she’s charming, how can she help it? That’s how she ‘acted’—like the Borgia wine used to affect people. You could see it wash over them—the degree to which, in her unique way, a woman, a woman who was so different from them, COULD be charming. You could see them get it and exchange glances, then you saw them lose confidence and decide to leave. Because what they took away was that she’s the real deal.”
“Ah, it’s she who’s the real thing?” As HE had not hitherto taken it home as completely as the Miss Lutches and Mrs. Rance, so, doubtless, he had now, a little, appeared to offer submission in his appeal. “I see, I see”—he could at least simply take it home now; yet as not without wanting, at the same time, to be sure of what the real thing was. “And what would it be—a—definitely that you understand by that?”
“Ah, so she’s the real deal?” Since he hadn’t fully grasped it like Miss Lutches and Mrs. Rance had, he was probably now showing some willingness in his request. “I get it, I get it”—he could at least take it home now; but at the same time, he wanted to be sure of what the real deal actually was. “And what exactly do you mean by that?”
She had only for an instant not found it easy to say. “Why, exactly what those women themselves want to be, and what her effect on them is to make them recognise that they never will.”
She had only for a moment found it hard to say. “Well, it’s exactly what those women want to be, and how she makes them realize that they never will.”
“Oh—of course never?”
“Oh—definitely not?”
It not only remained and abode with them, it positively developed and deepened, after this talk, that the luxurious side of his personal existence was now again furnished, socially speaking, with the thing classed and stamped as “real”—just as he had been able to think of it as not otherwise enriched in consequence of his daughter’s marriage. The note of reality, in so much projected light, continued to have for him the charm and the importance of which the maximum had occasionally been reached in his great “finds”—continued, beyond any other, to keep him attentive and gratified. Nothing perhaps might affect us as queerer, had we time to look into it, than this application of the same measure of value to such different pieces of property as old Persian carpets, say, and new human acquisitions; all the more indeed that the amiable man was not without an inkling, on his own side, that he was, as a taster of life, economically constructed. He put into his one little glass everything he raised to his lips, and it was as if he had always carried in his pocket, like a tool of his trade, this receptacle, a little glass cut with a fineness of which the art had long since been lost, and kept in an old morocco case stamped in uneffaceable gilt with the arms of a deposed dynasty. As it had served him to satisfy himself, so to speak, both about Amerigo and about the Bernadino Luini he had happened to come to knowledge of at the time he was consenting to the announcement of his daughter’s betrothal, so it served him at present to satisfy himself about Charlotte Stant and an extraordinary set of oriental tiles of which he had lately got wind, to which a provoking legend was attached, and as to which he had made out, contentedly, that further news was to be obtained from a certain Mr. Gutermann-Seuss of Brighton. It was all, at bottom, in him, the aesthetic principle, planted where it could burn with a cold, still flame; where it fed almost wholly on the material directly involved, on the idea (followed by appropriation) of plastic beauty, of the thing visibly perfect in its kind; where, in short, in spite of the general tendency of the “devouring element” to spread, the rest of his spiritual furniture, modest, scattered, and tended with unconscious care, escaped the consumption that in so many cases proceeds from the undue keeping-up of profane altar-fires. Adam Verver had in other words learnt the lesson of the senses, to the end of his own little book, without having, for a day, raised the smallest scandal in his economy at large; being in this particular not unlike those fortunate bachelors, or other gentlemen of pleasure, who so manage their entertainment of compromising company that even the austerest housekeeper, occupied and competent below-stairs, never feels obliged to give warning.
It didn’t just stay with them; it actually grew and deepened after this conversation. Socially speaking, the luxurious side of his personal life was once again filled with what he considered “real”—just as he had thought it wouldn’t be enriched since his daughter got married. The note of reality, amidst so much projected light, still held for him the charm and significance that he had sometimes reached in his grand “discoveries”—it continued, more than anything else, to keep him engaged and satisfied. Nothing might seem weirder, if we had the time to think about it, than applying the same measure of value to such different possessions as old Persian carpets and new personal acquisitions; especially since the pleasant man wasn’t completely unaware that he was, in a way, economically inclined as a connoisseur of life. He poured everything he tasted into his one little glass, as if he had always carried this small vessel, a finely cut glass from a lost art, in his pocket like a tool of his trade, kept in an old morocco case stamped in permanent gold with the arms of a fallen dynasty. Just as it had helped him judge Amerigo and the Bernardino Luini he learned about when agreeing to announce his daughter’s engagement, it helped him now to assess Charlotte Stant and a remarkable set of oriental tiles he had recently heard about, which came with an intriguing legend. He had happily figured out that more information could be obtained from a certain Mr. Gutermann-Seuss of Brighton. Ultimately, it was all inside him—the aesthetic principle, planted where it could glow with a cold, steady flame; where it mostly fed on the material at hand, on the idea (followed by possession) of visual beauty, of things perfectly made; where, despite the general tendency of the “devouring element” to spread, the rest of his spiritual belongings, modest, scattered, and cared for unconsciously, escaped the consumption that often comes from maintaining profane altar fires. Adam Verver had, in other words, learned the lessons of the senses, adding to his own little collection, without ever causing the slightest scandal in his overall life; in this way, he was not unlike those fortunate bachelors or other pleasure-seeking gentlemen who manage their dealings with compromising company so skillfully that even the strictest housekeeper below stairs never feels the need to sound the alarm.
That figure has, however, a freedom that the occasion doubtless scarce demands, though we may retain it for its rough negative value. It was to come to pass, by a pressure applied to the situation wholly from within, that before the first ten days of November had elapsed he found himself practically alone at Fawns with his young friend; Amerigo and Maggie having, with a certain abruptness, invited his assent to their going abroad for a month, since his amusement was now scarce less happily assured than his security. An impulse eminently natural had stirred within the Prince; his life, as for some time established, was deliciously dull, and thereby, on the whole, what he best liked; but a small gust of yearning had swept over him, and Maggie repeated to her father, with infinite admiration, the pretty terms in which, after it had lasted a little, he had described to her this experience. He called it a “serenade,” a low music that, outside one of the windows of the sleeping house, disturbed his rest at night. Timid as it was, and plaintive, he yet couldn’t close his eyes for it, and when finally, rising on tiptoe, he had looked out, he had recognised in the figure below with a mandolin, all duskily draped in her grace, the raised appealing eyes and the one irresistible voice of the ever-to-be-loved Italy. Sooner or later, that way, one had to listen; it was a hovering, haunting ghost, as of a creature to whom one had done a wrong, a dim, pathetic shade crying out to be comforted. For this there was obviously but one way—as there were doubtless also many words for the simple fact that so prime a Roman had a fancy for again seeing Rome. They would accordingly—hadn’t they better?—go for a little; Maggie meanwhile making the too-absurdly artful point with her father, so that he repeated it, in his amusement, to Charlotte Stant, to whom he was by this time conscious of addressing many remarks, that it was absolutely, when she came to think, the first thing Amerigo had ever asked of her. “She doesn’t count of course his having asked of her to marry him”— this was Mr. Verver’s indulgent criticism; but he found Charlotte, equally touched by the ingenuous Maggie, in easy agreement with him over the question. If the Prince had asked something of his wife every day in the year, this would be still no reason why the poor dear man should not, in a beautiful fit of homesickness, revisit, without reproach, his native country.
That guy has a freedom that the situation definitely doesn’t really require, but we can keep it for its rough negative value. It was going to happen, due to some internal pressure, that before the first ten days of November were over, he found himself practically alone at Fawns with his young friend; Amerigo and Maggie had, quite abruptly, asked for his approval to go abroad for a month, since his enjoyment was now almost as sure as his safety. A natural impulse had stirred within the Prince; his life, as it had been for some time, was pleasantly dull, and overall that’s what he liked best; but a small wave of longing had washed over him, and Maggie repeated to her father, with great admiration, the lovely way in which, after it lasted a bit, he had described this experience to her. He called it a “serenade,” a soft music that, outside one of the windows of the sleeping house, disturbed his rest at night. As timid and sad as it was, he couldn’t shut his eyes to it, and when he finally rose on tiptoe to look out, he recognized in the figure below with a mandolin, all shadowed in her elegance, the raised pleading eyes and the one irresistible voice of beloved Italy. Sooner or later, one had to listen; it was a hovering, haunting ghost, like a being to whom one had done wrong, a dim, sad shade crying out to be comforted. For this, there was obviously only one way—just as there were certainly many words for the simple fact that such a prominent Roman had a desire to see Rome again. So they would—hadn’t they better?—go for a little while; meanwhile, Maggie made the overly clever point to her father, which he repeated, in amusement, to Charlotte Stant, to whom he was now aware he was addressing many comments, that it was absolutely, when she thought about it, the first thing Amerigo had ever asked of her. “Of course, she doesn’t count his asking her to marry him”—this was Mr. Verver’s indulgent criticism; but he found Charlotte, equally touched by the sincere Maggie, in easy agreement with him on the matter. If the Prince had asked something of his wife every day of the year, that would still not be a reason why the poor guy shouldn’t, in a beautiful moment of homesickness, return to his native country, without feeling guilty.
What his father-in-law frankly counselled was that the reasonable, the really too reasonable, pair should, while they were about it, take three or four weeks of Paris as well—Paris being always, for Mr. Verver, in any stress of sympathy, a suggestion that rose of itself to the lips. If they would only do that, on their way back, or however they preferred it, Charlotte and he would go over to join them there for a small look—though even then, assuredly, as he had it at heart to add, not in the least because they should have found themselves bored at being left together. The fate of this last proposal indeed was that it reeled, for the moment, under an assault of destructive analysis from Maggie, who—having, as she granted, to choose between being an unnatural daughter or an unnatural mother, and “electing” for the former—wanted to know what would become of the Principino if the house were cleared of everyone but the servants. Her question had fairly resounded, but it had afterwards, like many of her questions, dropped still more effectively than it had risen: the highest moral of the matter being, before the couple took their departure, that Mrs. Noble and Dr. Brady must mount unchallenged guard over the august little crib. If she hadn’t supremely believed in the majestic value of the nurse, whose experience was in itself the amplest of pillows, just as her attention was a spreading canopy from which precedent and reminiscence dropped as thickly as parted curtains—if she hadn’t been able to rest in this confidence she would fairly have sent her husband on his journey without her. In the same manner, if the sweetest—for it was so she qualified him—of little country doctors hadn’t proved to her his wisdom by rendering irresistible, especially on rainy days and in direct proportion to the frequency of his calls, adapted to all weathers, that she should converse with him for hours over causes and consequences, over what he had found to answer with his little five at home, she would have drawn scant support from the presence of a mere grandfather and a mere brilliant friend. These persons, accordingly, her own predominance having thus, for the time, given way, could carry with a certain ease, and above all with mutual aid, their consciousness of a charge. So far as their office weighed they could help each other with it—which was in fact to become, as Mrs. Noble herself loomed larger for them, not a little of a relief and a diversion.
What his father-in-law honestly suggested was that the perfectly reasonable couple should, while they were at it, take three or four weeks in Paris as well—since Paris, for Mr. Verver, was always a comforting thought that came to mind during moments of sympathy. If they would only do that, on their way back or however they preferred, Charlotte and he would join them there for a quick visit—though he definitely wanted to add that it wasn’t at all because they would have felt bored being left alone together. The fate of this last suggestion was that it stumbled, for the moment, under a barrage of critical analysis from Maggie, who—acknowledging that she had to choose between being a bad daughter or a bad mother, and opting for the former—wanted to know what would happen to the Principino if everyone but the servants were gone. Her question echoed, but like many of her questions, it soon faded more thoroughly than it had appeared: the most important takeaway was that before the couple left, Mrs. Noble and Dr. Brady had to keep a watchful eye on the little crib. If she hadn’t completely believed in the immense value of the nurse, whose experience was the softest of safety nets, and whose attention created a shelter filled with memories and precedents—if she hadn’t been able to rely on this confidence, she would have sent her husband on his trip without her. Similarly, if the sweetest—because that’s how she described him—of the local doctors hadn’t shown her his wisdom by making her chat with him for hours about causes and effects, especially on rainy days and the more frequently he visited, she wouldn’t have felt supported by just a mere grandfather and a mere brilliant friend. Thus, with her authority temporarily set aside, these two could manage their shared responsibility with relative ease, especially with each other’s help, which actually became, as Mrs. Noble became more prominent in their minds, a bit of relief and a distraction.
Mr. Verver met his young friend, at certain hours, in the day-nursery, very much as he had regularly met the child’s fond mother—Charlotte having, as she clearly considered, given Maggie equal pledges and desiring never to fail of the last word for the daily letter she had promised to write. She wrote with high fidelity, she let her companion know, and the effect of it was, remarkably enough, that he himself didn’t write. The reason of this was partly that Charlotte “told all about him”—which she also let him know she did—and partly that he enjoyed feeling, as a consequence, that he was generally, quite systematically, eased and, as they said, “done” for. Committed, as it were, to this charming and clever young woman, who, by becoming for him a domestic resource, had become for him practically a new person—and committed, especially, in his own house, which somehow made his sense of it a deeper thing—he took an interest in seeing how far the connection could carry him, could perhaps even lead him, and in thus putting to the test, for pleasant verification, what Fanny Assingham had said, at the last, about the difference such a girl could make. She was really making one now, in their simplified existence, and a very considerable one, though there was no one to compare her with, as there had been, so usefully, for Fanny—no Mrs. Rance, no Kitty, no Dotty Lutch, to help her to be felt, according to Fanny’s diagnosis, as real. She was real, decidedly, from other causes, and Mr. Verver grew in time even a little amused at the amount of machinery Mrs. Assingham had seemed to see needed for pointing it. She was directly and immediately real, real on a pleasantly reduced and intimate scale, and at no moments more so than during those—at which we have just glanced—when Mrs. Noble made them both together feel that she, she alone, in the absence of the queen-mother, was regent of the realm and governess of the heir. Treated on such occasions as at best a pair of dangling and merely nominal court-functionaries, picturesque hereditary triflers entitled to the petites entrees but quite external to the State, which began and ended with the Nursery, they could only retire, in quickened sociability, to what was left them of the Palace, there to digest their gilded insignificance and cultivate, in regard to the true Executive, such snuff-taking ironies as might belong to rococo chamberlains moving among china lap-dogs.
Mr. Verver met his young friend at certain times in the day-nursery, much like he regularly met the child's loving mother—Charlotte, who believed she had given Maggie equal commitments, and insisted on having the last word in the daily letter she promised to write. She wrote diligently, letting him know, and the interesting thing was that he didn’t write back. This was partly because Charlotte “told all about him”—which she made clear she was doing—and partly because he enjoyed feeling, as a result, that he was generally, quite systematically, taken care of. He was, in a sense, committed to this charming and clever young woman, who, by becoming a resource for him at home, had practically become a new person for him—and especially so in his own house, which made it feel even more significant. He was curious about how far their connection could go, and where it might lead him, testing for himself what Fanny Assingham had recently said about the difference such a girl could make. She was truly making a difference in their simpler lives, a notable one, though there was no one to compare her to, as Fanny had found so effectively—no Mrs. Rance, no Kitty, no Dotty Lutch, to help her be perceived, as Fanny had diagnosed, as real. She was definitely real for different reasons, and over time, Mr. Verver even found it a bit amusing how much effort Mrs. Assingham seemed to think was necessary to highlight that. She was straightforwardly and immediately real, in a delightfully down-to-earth way, most of all during those moments—like the ones we just mentioned—when Mrs. Noble made them both feel that she alone, in the absence of the queen-mother, was the regent of the realm and the governess of the heir. During such times, they were treated as little more than a pair of nominal court functionaries, picturesque hereditary triflers entitled to the petites entrées but entirely outside the realm of State, which began and ended with the Nursery. They could only retreat, with a renewed sense of camaraderie, to what was left of the Palace, where they could reflect on their gilded inconsequentiality and enjoy, in relation to the true Executive, some sarcastic humor reminiscent of rococo chamberlains amid china lap-dogs.
Every evening, after dinner, Charlotte Stant played to him; seated at the piano and requiring no music, she went through his “favourite things”—and he had many favourites—with a facility that never failed, or that failed but just enough to pick itself up at a touch from his fitful voice. She could play anything, she could play everything—always shockingly, she of course insisted, but always, by his own vague measure, very much as if she might, slim, sinuous and strong, and with practised passion, have been playing lawn-tennis or endlessly and rhythmically waltzing. His love of music, unlike his other loves, owned to vaguenesses, but while, on his comparatively shaded sofa, and smoking, smoking, always smoking, in the great Fawns drawing-room as everywhere, the cigars of his youth, rank with associations—while, I say, he so listened to Charlotte’s piano, where the score was ever absent but, between the lighted candles, the picture distinct, the vagueness spread itself about him like some boundless carpet, a surface delightfully soft to the pressure of his interest. It was a manner of passing the time that rather replaced conversation, but the air, at the end, none the less, before they separated, had a way of seeming full of the echoes of talk. They separated, in the hushed house, not quite easily, yet not quite awkwardly either, with tapers that twinkled in the large dark spaces, and for the most part so late that the last solemn servant had been dismissed for the night.
Every evening, after dinner, Charlotte Stant would play for him; seated at the piano and needing no sheet music, she played his “favorite songs”—and he had many favorites—with a skill that never failed, or only failed just enough to be rescued by his unpredictable voice. She could play anything, everything—always shockingly, as she would insist, but always, by his own vague standards, very much as if she might, slim, graceful and strong, with practiced passion, have been playing lawn tennis or endlessly and rhythmically waltzing. His love for music, unlike his other loves, was marked by vagueness, but while, on his relatively shaded sofa, smoking, always smoking, in the grand Fawns drawing-room, the cigars of his youth were thick with memories—while, I say, he listened to Charlotte’s piano, where the sheet music was always absent but, between the lit candles, the picture was clear, the vagueness spread around him like a boundless carpet, a surface pleasantly soft to the touch of his interest. It was a way to pass the time that somewhat replaced conversation, but the atmosphere, in the end, before they parted, still felt full of echoes of their talk. They parted, in the quiet house, not quite easily, but not really awkwardly either, with candles flickering in the large dark spaces, and mostly so late that the last solemn servant had been dismissed for the night.
Late as it was on a particular evening toward the end of October, there had been a full word or two dropped into the still-stirring sea of other voices—a word or two that affected our friend even at the moment, and rather oddly, as louder and rounder than any previous sound; and then he had lingered, under pretext of an opened window to be made secure, after taking leave of his companion in the hall and watching her glimmer away up the staircase. He had for himself another impulse than to go to bed; picking up a hat in the hall, slipping his arms into a sleeveless cape and lighting still another cigar, he turned out upon the terrace through one of the long drawing-room windows and moved to and fro there for an hour beneath the sharp autumn stars. It was where he had walked in the afternoon sun with Fanny Assingham, and the sense of that other hour, the sense of the suggestive woman herself, was before him again as, in spite of all the previous degustation we have hinted at, it had not yet been. He thought, in a loose, an almost agitated order, of many things; the power that was in them to agitate having been part of his conviction that he should not soon sleep. He truly felt for a while that he should never sleep again till something had come to him; some light, some idea, some mere happy word perhaps, that he had begun to want, but had been till now, and especially the last day or two, vainly groping for. “Can you really then come if we start early?”—that was practically all he had said to the girl as she took up her bedroom light. And “Why in the world not, when I’ve nothing else to do, and should, besides, so immensely like it?”—this had as definitely been, on her side, the limit of the little scene. There had in fact been nothing to call a scene, even of the littlest, at all—though he perhaps didn’t quite know why something like the menace of one hadn’t proceeded from her stopping half-way upstairs to turn and say, as she looked down on him, that she promised to content herself, for their journey, with a toothbrush and a sponge. There hovered about him, at all events, while he walked, appearances already familiar, as well as two or three that were new, and not the least vivid of the former connected itself with that sense of being treated with consideration which had become for him, as we have noted, one of the minor yet so far as there were any such, quite one of the compensatory, incidents of being a father-in-law. It had struck him, up to now, that this particular balm was a mixture of which Amerigo, as through some hereditary privilege, alone possessed the secret; so that he found himself wondering if it had come to Charlotte, who had unmistakably acquired it, through the young man’s having amiably passed it on. She made use, for her so quietly grateful host, however this might be, of quite the same shades of attention and recognition, was mistress in an equal degree of the regulated, the developed art of placing him high in the scale of importance. That was even for his own thought a clumsy way of expressing the element of similarity in the agreeable effect they each produced on him, and it held him for a little only because this coincidence in their felicity caused him vaguely to connect or associate them in the matter of tradition, training, tact, or whatever else one might call it. It might almost have been—if such a link between them was to be imagined—that Amerigo had, a little, “coached” or incited their young friend, or perhaps rather that she had simply, as one of the signs of the general perfection Fanny Assingham commended in her, profited by observing, during her short opportunity before the start of the travellers, the pleasant application by the Prince of his personal system. He might wonder what exactly it was that they so resembled each other in treating him like—from what noble and propagated convention, in cases in which the exquisite “importance” was to be neither too grossly attributed nor too grossly denied, they had taken their specific lesson; but the difficulty was here of course that one could really never know—couldn’t know without having been one’s self a personage; whether a Pope, a King, a President, a Peer, a General, or just a beautiful Author.
It was late on a particular evening near the end of October when a few words broke through the ongoing chatter around us—words that caught our friend's attention in a way that felt surprisingly loud amidst everything else. He hung back, pretending to secure an open window after saying goodbye to his companion in the hall and watching her disappear up the staircase. He had other intentions besides going to bed; grabbing a hat from the hall, slipping on a sleeveless cape, and lighting another cigar, he stepped out onto the terrace through one of the long drawing-room windows and wandered there for an hour under the sharp autumn stars. It was the same place he had walked with Fanny Assingham in the afternoon sun, and now, despite everything we’ve hinted at before, the memory of that moment and the presence of that intriguing woman came back to him more potently than ever. He found himself thinking in a scattered, almost anxious way about many things; the emotions they stirred in him convinced him that sleep would not come anytime soon. For a while, he felt that he might never sleep again until something struck him—some clarity, some idea, perhaps just a happy phrase he had started longing for, though he had been searching for it in vain, especially in the last couple of days. “Can you really come if we leave early?”—that was pretty much all he had said to the girl as she picked up her bedroom light. And “Why not? I've got nothing else to do and would really love to!”—that had been her definite response, marking the extent of their brief interaction. In fact, there hadn’t been much of a scene at all—though he might not have understood why there seemed to be a hint of one when she paused halfway up the stairs to promise him that she would be ready for their trip with just a toothbrush and a sponge. As he walked, familiar sights hovered around him, along with a few new ones, including a vivid sense of being treated with consideration, which had become one of the few perks of being a father-in-law. He had thought until now that this particular comfort was something Amerigo uniquely possessed, thanks to some hereditary privilege; he wondered if Charlotte had picked it up, unmistakably, through the young man’s generous example.
Before such a question, as before several others when they recurred, he would come to a pause, leaning his arms on the old parapet and losing himself in a far excursion. He had as to so many of the matters in hand a divided view, and this was exactly what made him reach out, in his unrest, for some idea, lurking in the vast freshness of the night, at the breath of which disparities would submit to fusion, and so, spreading beneath him, make him feel that he floated. What he kept finding himself return to, disturbingly enough, was the reflection, deeper than anything else, that in forming a new and intimate tie he should in a manner abandon, or at the best signally relegate, his daughter. He should reduce to definite form the idea that he had lost her—as was indeed inevitable—by her own marriage; he should reduce to definite form the idea of his having incurred an injury, or at the best an inconvenience, that required some makeweight and deserved some amends. And he should do this the more, which was the great point, that he should appear to adopt, in doing it, the sentiment, in fact the very conviction, entertained, and quite sufficiently expressed, by Maggie herself, in her beautiful generosity, as to what he had suffered—putting it with extravagance—at her hands. If she put it with extravagance the extravagance was yet sincere, for it came—which she put with extravagance too—from her persistence, always, in thinking, feeling, talking about him, as young. He had had glimpses of moments when to hear her thus, in her absolutely unforced compunction, one would have supposed the special edge of the wrong she had done him to consist in his having still before him years and years to groan under it. She had sacrificed a parent, the pearl of parents, no older than herself: it wouldn’t so much have mattered if he had been of common parental age. That he wasn’t, that he was just her extraordinary equal and contemporary, this was what added to her act the long train of its effect. Light broke for him at last, indeed, quite as a consequence of the fear of breathing a chill upon this luxuriance of her spiritual garden. As at a turn of his labyrinth he saw his issue, which opened out so wide, for the minute, that he held his breath with wonder. He was afterwards to recall how, just then, the autumn night seemed to clear to a view in which the whole place, everything round him, the wide terrace where he stood, the others, with their steps, below, the gardens, the park, the lake, the circling woods, lay there as under some strange midnight sun. It all met him during these instants as a vast expanse of discovery, a world that looked, so lighted, extraordinarily new, and in which familiar objects had taken on a distinctness that, as if it had been a loud, a spoken pretension to beauty, interest, importance, to he scarce knew what, gave them an inordinate quantity of character and, verily, an inordinate size. This hallucination, or whatever he might have called it, was brief, but it lasted long enough to leave him gasping. The gasp of admiration had by this time, however, lost itself in an intensity that quickly followed—the way the wonder of it, since wonder was in question, truly had been the strange DELAY of his vision. He had these several days groped and groped for an object that lay at his feet and as to which his blindness came from his stupidly looking beyond. It had sat all the while at his hearth-stone, whence it now gazed up in his face.
Before such a question, as with several others when they came up again, he would pause, leaning his arms on the old wall and getting lost in distant thoughts. He had mixed feelings about many of the issues at hand, and this was exactly what drove him, in his restlessness, to reach for some idea, hidden in the vast freshness of the night, where differences could merge and make him feel as if he were floating. What he kept coming back to, disturbingly enough, was the realization that by forming a new and close connection, he would, in a way, be abandoning—or at best significantly sidelining—his daughter. He would have to accept the reality that he had lost her—an inevitability—due to her marriage; he would have to acknowledge the notion of having suffered a loss, or at best a burden, that required some compensation and deserved an acknowledgment. And he would do this even more so, which was the crucial point, by seemingly adopting, in doing so, the sentiment, or even the very belief, expressed by Maggie herself, in her beautiful generosity, regarding what he had endured—putting it, perhaps exaggeratedly, at her hands. If she expressed it exaggeratedly, her exaggeration was sincere, as it came—from her persistence—in thinking, feeling, and talking about him as young. He had glimpsed moments when, to hear her expressing her heartfelt remorse, one might have thought the actual edge of the wrong she had done him resided in the fact that he still had many years ahead to bear it. She had sacrificed a parent, the most precious of parents, no older than herself: it wouldn’t have mattered as much if he had been of typical parental age. But he wasn’t; he was just her extraordinary equal and contemporary, which added a lasting impact to her action. Clarity finally broke for him, indeed, as a result of the fear of cooling the richness of her spiritual garden. At a twist in his labyrinth, he saw his way out, which opened up so wide for a moment that he held his breath in awe. He would later remember how, at that moment, the autumn night seemed to clear, revealing the entire scene around him—the wide terrace where he stood, the others moving below, the gardens, the park, the lake, and the encircling woods—lay there under some strange midnight sun. For those moments, everything appeared to him as a vast expanse of discovery, a world that, bathed in light, looked extraordinarily new, where familiar objects took on an extraordinary sharpness that seemed to loudly claim beauty, interest, importance—he hardly knew what—giving them an excessive amount of character and genuinely, an excessive size. This vision, or whatever he might have called it, was brief but lasted long enough to leave him breathless. However, the gasp of admiration had now faded into a more intense feeling that quickly followed—how the wonder of it had truly been the strange DELAY of his vision. These past few days, he had been groping for something that lay at his feet while his blindness stemmed from looking beyond it. It had been sitting all along at his very hearthstone, now gazing up at him.
Once he had recognised it there everything became coherent. The sharp point to which all his light converged was that the whole call of his future to him, as a father, would be in his so managing that Maggie would less and less appear to herself to have forsaken him. And it not only wouldn’t be decently humane, decently possible, not to make this relief easy to her—the idea shone upon him, more than that, as exciting, inspiring, uplifting. It fell in so beautifully with what might be otherwise possible; it stood there absolutely confronted with the material way in which it might be met. The way in which it might be met was by his putting his child at peace, and the way to put her at peace was to provide for his future—that is for hers—by marriage, by a marriage as good, speaking proportionately, as hers had been. As he fairly inhaled this measure of refreshment he tasted the meaning of recent agitations. He had seen that Charlotte could contribute—what he hadn’t seen was what she could contribute TO. When it had all supremely cleared up and he had simply settled this service to his daughter well before him as the proper direction of his young friend’s leisure, the cool darkness had again closed round him, but his moral lucidity was constituted. It wasn’t only moreover that the word, with a click, so fitted the riddle, but that the riddle, in such perfection, fitted the word. He might have been equally in want and yet not have had his remedy. Oh, if Charlotte didn’t accept him, of course the remedy would fail; but, as everything had fallen together, it was at least there to be tried. And success would be great—that was his last throb—if the measure of relief effected for Maggie should at all prove to have been given by his own actual sense of felicity. He really didn’t know when in his life he had thought of anything happier. To think of it merely for himself would have been, even as he had just lately felt, even doing all justice to that condition—yes, impossible. But there was a grand difference in thinking of it for his child.
Once he recognized it, everything started to make sense. The main focus of all his thoughts was that his future as a father would hinge on making it so Maggie would feel less and less like she had abandoned him. It wasn’t just decent and possible to make this relief easy for her; the idea struck him as exciting, inspiring, and uplifting. It fit perfectly with what might otherwise be possible; it faced him head-on in terms of how it could be achieved. The way to achieve it was to put his child at peace, and the way to do that was to secure his future—that is, hers—through marriage, a marriage that was, relatively speaking, as good as hers had been. As he embraced this refreshing thought, he understood the meaning behind recent events. He realized that Charlotte could contribute—what he hadn’t seen was what she could contribute to. When everything finally cleared up, and he had determined this service to his daughter as the right direction for his young friend’s time, the cool darkness enveloped him again, but his moral clarity remained intact. It wasn’t just that the word fit the puzzle perfectly; the puzzle matched the word as well. He could have been equally in need and still not found his solution. If Charlotte didn’t accept him, then, of course, the solution would fail. But since everything had converged, it was at least worth a shot. And success would be significant—that was his last thought—if the relief he achieved for Maggie was reflected in his own genuine happiness. He honestly didn’t know when he had felt anything happier in his life. To think of it just for himself would have been, as he had recently felt, impossible, even if he had fully acknowledged that situation. But there was a huge difference in thinking of it for his child.
XII
XII
It was at Brighton, above all, that this difference came out; it was during the three wonderful days he spent there with Charlotte that he had acquainted himself further—though doubtless not even now quite completely—with the merits of his majestic scheme. And while, moreover, to begin with, he still but held his vision in place, steadying it fairly with his hands, as he had often steadied, for inspection, a precarious old pot or kept a glazed picture in its right relation to the light, the other, the outer presumptions in his favour, those independent of what he might himself contribute and that therefore, till he should “speak,” remained necessarily vague—that quantity, I say, struck him as positively multiplying, as putting on, in the fresh Brighton air and on the sunny Brighton front, a kind of tempting palpability. He liked, in this preliminary stage, to feel that he should be able to “speak” and that he would; the word itself being romantic, pressing for him the spring of association with stories and plays where handsome and ardent young men, in uniforms, tights, cloaks, high-boots, had it, in soliloquies, ever on their lips; and the sense on the first day that he should probably have taken the great step before the second was over conduced already to make him say to his companion that they must spend more than their mere night or two. At his ease on the ground of what was before him he at all events definitely desired to be, and it was strongly his impression that he was proceeding step by step. He was acting—it kept coming back to that—not in the dark, but in the high golden morning; not in precipitation, flurry, fever, dangers these of the path of passion properly so called, but with the deliberation of a plan, a plan that might be a thing of less joy than a passion, but that probably would, in compensation for that loss, be found to have the essential property, to wear even the decent dignity, of reaching further and of providing for more contingencies. The season was, in local parlance, “on,” the elements were assembled; the big windy hotel, the draughty social hall, swarmed with “types,” in Charlotte’s constant phrase, and resounded with a din in which the wild music of gilded and befrogged bands, Croatian, Dalmatian, Carpathian, violently exotic and nostalgic, was distinguished as struggling against the perpetual popping of corks. Much of this would decidedly have disconcerted our friends if it hadn’t all happened, more preponderantly, to give them the brighter surprise. The noble privacy of Fawns had left them—had left Mr. Verver at least—with a little accumulated sum of tolerance to spend on the high pitch and high colour of the public sphere. Fawns, as it had been for him, and as Maggie and Fanny Assingham had both attested, was out of the world, whereas the scene actually about him, with the very sea a mere big booming medium for excursions and aquariums, affected him as so plump in the conscious centre that nothing could have been more complete for representing that pulse of life which they had come to unanimity at home on the subject of their advisedly not hereafter forgetting. The pulse of life was what Charlotte, in her way, at home, had lately reproduced, and there were positively current hours when it might have been open to her companion to feel himself again indebted to her for introductions. He had “brought” her, to put it crudely, but it was almost as if she were herself, in her greater gaiety, her livelier curiosity and intensity, her readier, happier irony, taking him about and showing him the place. No one, really, when he came to think, had ever taken him about before—it had always been he, of old, who took others and who in particular took Maggie. This quickly fell into its relation with him as part of an experience—marking for him, no doubt, what people call, considerately, a time of life; a new and pleasant order, a flattered passive state, that might become—why shouldn’t it?— one of the comforts of the future.
It was at Brighton, above all, that this difference became clear; during the three amazing days he spent there with Charlotte, he got to know more—though probably not completely yet—about the strengths of his grand plan. To begin with, he was still holding onto his vision, steadying it carefully with his hands, like he often did with a fragile old pot or aligned a glazed picture with the light. The other things, the outside factors that worked in his favor, those independent of his own contributions and that remained vague until he would “speak,” struck him as clearly increasing, taking on a kind of tempting reality in the fresh Brighton air and on the sunny front. In this early stage, he liked feeling that he would be able to "speak," and that he would; the word itself held a romantic pull for him, reminding him of stories and plays where handsome, passionate young men in uniforms, tights, cloaks, and high boots frequently expressed it in their soliloquies. The sense, on the first day, that he would likely take the big step before the second day was over encouraged him to tell his companion that they needed to spend more than just one or two nights. He felt at ease with what lay ahead and was definitely determined to move forward step by step. He was acting—it kept coming back to that—not in the dark, but in the bright morning; not in haste or with anxiety, the real dangers of true passion, but with the careful consideration of a plan—a plan that, while possibly less joyful than passion, would likely compensate for that loss by offering the essential quality of reaching further and accounting for more possibilities. The season was, as locals say, “on,” the elements were gathered; the large, drafty hotel and the boisterous social hall buzzed with “types,” as Charlotte often put it, and echoed with a noise where the lively music of lavish and flashy bands—Croatian, Dalmatian, Carpathian, wildly exotic and nostalgic—struggled against the constant popping of corks. Much of this would definitely have unsettled our friends if it hadn’t mainly impressed them with a bright surprise. The noble privacy of Fawns had left them—at least Mr. Verver—with a bit of tolerance to spend on the vibrant atmosphere of the public sphere. Fawns, as it had been for him, and as Maggie and Fanny Assingham had both confirmed, was secluded, while the scene around him, with the sea serving merely as a booming backdrop for excursions and aquariums, felt so rich in the pulse of life that nothing could have better captured that energy they had decided at home to never forget. The pulse of life was what Charlotte had recently recreated at home in her own way, and there were times when it could have seemed to her companion that he owed her for those introductions. He had “brought” her, to put it bluntly, but it was almost as if she herself, with her greater joy, livelier curiosity and intensity, and more spontaneous, cheerful irony, was guiding him around and showing him the place. No one, really, when he thought about it, had ever shown him around before—it had always been him who took others, especially Maggie. This quickly became part of an experience for him—marking, no doubt, what people tactfully call a time of life; a new and pleasant order, a flattering, passive state that could become—why not?—one of the comforts of the future.
Mr. Gutermann-Seuss proved, on the second day—our friend had waited till then—a remarkably genial, a positively lustrous young man occupying a small neat house in a quarter of the place remote from the front and living, as immediate and striking signs testified, in the bosom of his family. Our visitors found themselves introduced, by the operation of close contiguity, to a numerous group of ladies and gentlemen older and younger, and of children larger and smaller, who mostly affected them as scarce less anointed for hospitality and who produced at first the impression of a birthday party, of some anniversary gregariously and religiously kept, though they subsequently fell into their places as members of one quiet domestic circle, preponderantly and directly indebted for their being, in fact, to Mr. Gutermann-Seuss. To the casual eye a mere smart and shining youth of less than thirty summers, faultlessly appointed in every particular, he yet stood among his progeny—eleven in all, as he confessed without a sigh, eleven little brown clear faces, yet with such impersonal old eyes astride of such impersonal old noses—while he entertained the great American collector whom he had so long hoped he might meet, and whose charming companion, the handsome, frank, familiar young lady, presumably Mrs. Verver, noticed the graduated offspring, noticed the fat, ear-ringed aunts and the glossy, cockneyfied, familiar uncles, inimitable of accent and assumption, and of an attitude of cruder intention than that of the head of the firm; noticed the place in short, noticed the treasure produced, noticed everything, as from the habit of a person finding her account at any time, according to a wisdom well learned of life, in almost any “funny” impression. It really came home to her friend on the spot that this free range of observation in her, picking out the frequent funny with extraordinary promptness, would verily henceforth make a different thing for him of such experiences, of the customary hunt for the possible prize, the inquisitive play of his accepted monomania; which different thing could probably be a lighter and perhaps thereby a somewhat more boisterously refreshing form of sport. Such omens struck him as vivid, in any case, when Mr. Gutermann-Seuss, with a sharpness of discrimination he had at first scarce seemed to promise, invited his eminent couple into another room, before the threshold of which the rest of the tribe, unanimously faltering, dropped out of the scene. The treasure itself here, the objects on behalf of which Mr. Verver’s interest had been booked, established quickly enough their claim to engage the latter’s attention; yet at what point of his past did our friend’s memory, looking back and back, catch him, in any such place, thinking so much less of wares artfully paraded than of some other and quite irrelevant presence? Such places were not strange to him when they took the form of bourgeois back-parlours, a trifle ominously grey and grim from their north light, at watering-places prevailingly homes of humbug, or even when they wore some aspect still less, if not perhaps still more, insidious. He had been everywhere, pried and prowled everywhere, going, on occasion, so far as to risk, he believed, life, health and the very bloom of honour; but where, while precious things, extracted one by one from thrice-locked yet often vulgar drawers and soft satchels of old oriental silk, were impressively ranged before him, had he, till now, let himself, in consciousness, wander like one of the vague?
Mr. Gutermann-Seuss turned out to be a remarkably friendly and charming young man, living in a small, tidy house in a part of town that was far from the main areas. He was clearly surrounded by his family, as evident from the immediate and striking signs. Our visitors soon found themselves introduced—due to their close proximity—to a large group of adults and children of all ages, who seemed just as welcoming and gave the initial impression of a birthday party or some kind of celebration that was cherished and joyfully observed. However, they soon settled into their roles as members of a quiet family unit, primarily existing thanks to Mr. Gutermann-Seuss. To a casual observer, he appeared to be just a polished young man under thirty, impeccably dressed. Yet, among his eleven children—who he admitted without a hint of regret—he sat, each of the kids displaying clear, brown faces with wise old eyes and defining noses. He was entertaining a prominent American collector he had long wished to meet, while his charming companion, the attractive and open young lady who seemed to be Mrs. Verver, took notice of the array of children, the plump, earring-wearing aunts, and the stylish, cheeky uncles, each unique in their accents and attitudes, all of which were more raw than that of the head of the household. She observed everything, finding enjoyment in those quirky moments, applying her well-earned life wisdom to any amusing situation. It struck her friend at that moment that this keen ability to spot the funny side in things would definitely change his experiences in the usual pursuit of possible treasures and his curious obsession, possibly turning it into a lighter and more lively pastime. Such realizations were indeed vivid for him when Mr. Gutermann-Seuss, showing an unexpected sharpness in perception, invited the distinguished couple into another room, while the rest of the family hesitated and faded from sight. The treasures that Mr. Verver was interested in quickly made their presence known and demanded his attention; yet in reflecting on his past, at what moment had he found himself, in a similar space, focused less on cleverly displayed goods and more on some unrelated presence? He was familiar with such places, especially those dull and bleak bourgeois sitting rooms lit by a northern light, often found in watering holes that were mostly homes of deceit, or even in spots that were even more insidious. He had explored everywhere, searching and lurking in countless places, sometimes going as far as risking his life, health, and honor; but now, as precious items were carefully placed in front of him, all taken from tightly sealed yet often tasteless drawers and old silk bags, he wondered where in his consciousness he had allowed himself to drift aimlessly like someone lost.
He didn’t betray it—ah THAT he knew; but two recognitions took place for him at once, and one of them suffered a little in sweetness by the confusion. Mr. Gutermann-Seuss had truly, for the crisis, the putting down of his cards, a rare manner; he was perfect master of what not to say to such a personage as Mr. Verver while the particular importance that dispenses with chatter was diffused by his movements themselves, his repeated act of passage between a featureless mahogany meuble and a table so virtuously disinterested as to look fairly smug under a cotton cloth of faded maroon and indigo, all redolent of patriarchal teas. The Damascene tiles, successively, and oh so tenderly, unmuffled and revealed, lay there at last in their full harmony and their venerable splendour, but the tribute of appreciation and decision was, while the spectator considered, simplified to a point that but just failed of representing levity on the part of a man who had always acknowledged without shame, in such affairs, the intrinsic charm of what was called discussion. The infinitely ancient, the immemorial amethystine blue of the glaze, scarcely more meant to be breathed upon, it would seem, than the cheek of royalty—this property of the ordered and matched array had inevitably all its determination for him, but his submission was, perhaps for the first time in his life, of the quick mind alone, the process really itself, in its way, as fine as the perfection perceived and admired: every inch of the rest of him being given to the foreknowledge that an hour or two later he should have “spoken.” The burning of his ships therefore waited too near to let him handle his opportunity with his usual firm and sentient fingers—waited somehow in the predominance of Charlotte’s very person, in her being there exactly as she was, capable, as Mr. Gutermann-Seuss himself was capable, of the right felicity of silence, but with an embracing ease, through it all, that made deferred criticism as fragrant as some joy promised a lover by his mistress, or as a big bridal bouquet held patiently behind her. He couldn’t otherwise have explained, surely, why he found himself thinking, to his enjoyment, of so many other matters than the felicity of his acquisition and the figure of his cheque, quite equally high; any more than why, later on, with their return to the room in which they had been received and the renewed encompassment of the tribe, he felt quite merged in the elated circle formed by the girl’s free response to the collective caress of all the shining eyes, and by her genial acceptance of the heavy cake and port wine that, as she was afterwards to note, added to their transaction, for a finish, the touch of some mystic rite of old Jewry.
He didn’t betray it—oh, he knew that; but two realizations hit him at once, and one of them lost a bit of its sweetness due to the mix-up. Mr. Gutermann-Seuss had a rare style when it came to the moment of revealing his cards; he knew exactly what not to say to someone like Mr. Verver, while the particular seriousness that naturally avoided small talk was conveyed through his very actions, his repeated movements between a plain mahogany piece and a table that seemed too virtuous to not come across as a bit smug under a faded maroon and indigo cloth, all smelling of traditional teas. The intricate tiles, slowly and gently uncovered, finally lay there in their complete beauty and aged glory, but the appreciation and decisions of the viewer, while he contemplated, were simplified to the point where it barely concealed the lightness of a man who had always openly acknowledged the intrinsic appeal of what was called discussion. The timeless, deep blue of the glaze, seemingly as precious as royal skin—this orderly and harmonious display captivated him, but his submission was, perhaps for the first time in his life, purely intellectual, the process itself, in its way, as fine as the perfection he admired: every part of him focused on the knowledge that an hour or two later he would have “spoken.” So, the burning of his bridges waited too close for him to seize his opportunity with his usual confident touch—waited somehow under Charlotte’s very presence, her being there just as she was, able, like Mr. Gutermann-Seuss, to share the perfect silence but with a comforting ease that made the delayed criticism as delightful as a joy promised to a lover by his beloved, or like a large bridal bouquet patiently held behind her. He couldn’t have explained otherwise why he found himself happily thinking about so many other things besides the joy of his acquisition and the amount on his check, equally significant; nor could he explain why, later, as they returned to the room where they had been welcomed and rejoined the familiar group, he felt completely immersed in the joyful circle created by the girl’s open response to the collective warmth of all the shining eyes, and by her cheerful acceptance of the rich cake and port wine that, as she would later point out, added to their experience a touch of some ancient rite of old Jewish custom.
This characterisation came from her as they walked away—walked together, in the waning afternoon, back to the breezy sea and the bustling front, back to the nimble and the flutter and the shining shops that sharpened the grin of solicitation on the mask of night. They were walking thus, as he felt, nearer and nearer to where he should see his ships burn, and it was meanwhile for him quite as if this red glow would impart, at the harmonious hour, a lurid grandeur to his good faith. It was meanwhile too a sign of the kind of sensibility often playing up in him that—fabulous as this truth may sound—he found a sentimental link, an obligation of delicacy, or perhaps even one of the penalties of its opposite, in his having exposed her to the north light, the quite properly hard business-light, of the room in which they had been alone with the treasure and its master. She had listened to the name of the sum he was capable of looking in the face. Given the relation of intimacy with him she had already, beyond all retractation, accepted, the stir of the air produced at the other place by that high figure struck him as a thing that, from the moment she had exclaimed or protested as little as he himself had apologised, left him but one thing more to do. A man of decent feeling didn’t thrust his money, a huge lump of it, in such a way, under a poor girl’s nose—a girl whose poverty was, after a fashion, the very basis of her enjoyment of his hospitality—without seeing, logically, a responsibility attached. And this was to remain none the less true for the fact that twenty minutes later, after he had applied his torch, applied it with a sign or two of insistence, what might definitely result failed to be immediately clear. He had spoken—spoken as they sat together on the out-of-the-way bench observed during one of their walks and kept for the previous quarter of the present hour well in his memory’s eye; the particular spot to which, between intense pauses and intenser advances, he had all the while consistently led her. Below the great consolidated cliff, well on to where the city of stucco sat most architecturally perched, with the rumbling beach and the rising tide and the freshening stars in front and above, the safe sense of the whole place yet prevailed in lamps and seats and flagged walks, hovering also overhead in the close neighbourhood of a great replete community about to assist anew at the removal of dish-covers.
This characterization came from her as they walked away—walking together in the fading afternoon, back to the breezy sea and the lively promenade, back to the quick pace and flutter of the bright shops that enhanced the eager smiles in the dim light of night. They walked like this, as he felt, closer and closer to where he should see his ships burning, and it almost seemed to him that this red glow would, at the right moment, add a dramatic flair to his good faith. It was also a sign of the sensitivity often stirred within him that—fabulous as this may sound—he felt a sentimental connection, a sense of responsibility, or perhaps even a consequence of its opposite, in having exposed her to the harsh, business-like light of the room where they had been alone with the treasure and its master. She had heard the amount of money he was willing to face. Given the close relationship they already shared, beyond any possibility of turning back, the disruption in the air caused by that imposing figure struck him as something that, from the moment she had reacted as little as he had apologized, left him with only one thing more to do. A man of decent feelings wouldn’t shove a large sum of money right in front of a poor girl—a girl whose poverty, in a way, was the very reason she enjoyed his hospitality—without logically seeing the responsibility that came with it. And this remained true, even though twenty minutes later, after he had shone his light—doing so with a few signs of insistence—what might definitely happen wasn’t immediately clear. He had spoken—spoken as they sat together on the secluded bench he had noticed during one of their walks and had kept clearly in his memory; the specific spot to which, through intense pauses and deeper advances, he had consistently guided her. Below the massive, solid cliff, approaching the stylishly perched city of stucco, with the crashing beach and rising tide and twinkling stars in front and above, the comforting atmosphere of the entire place still prevailed in the lamps and seating and paved paths, also echoing overhead among a vibrant community about to once again start lifting dish covers.
“We’ve had, as it seems to me, such quite beautiful days together, that I hope it won’t come to you too much as a shock when I ask if you think you could regard me with any satisfaction as a husband.” As if he had known she wouldn’t, she of course couldn’t, at all gracefully, and whether or no, reply with a rush, he had said a little more—quite as he had felt he must in thinking it out in advance. He had put the question on which there was no going back and which represented thereby the sacrifice of his vessels, and what he further said was to stand for the redoubled thrust of flame that would make combustion sure. “This isn’t sudden to me, and I’ve wondered at moments if you haven’t felt me coming to it. I’ve been coming ever since we left Fawns—I really started while we were there.” He spoke slowly, giving her, as he desired, time to think; all the more that it was making her look at him steadily, and making her also, in a remarkable degree, look “well” while she did so—a large and, so far, a happy, consequence. She wasn’t at all events shocked—which he had glanced at but for a handsome humility—and he would give her as many minutes as she liked. “You mustn’t think I’m forgetting that I’m not young.”
“We’ve had such beautiful days together that I hope it won’t be too much of a shock when I ask if you could see me as a satisfying husband.” As if he knew she wouldn’t, she obviously couldn’t respond gracefully, and whether or not she replied quickly, he had said a bit more—just as he felt he had to while thinking it through in advance. He had asked the question with no turning back, which represented his sacrifice, and what he said next was to ensure a stronger flame of passion. “This isn’t sudden for me, and I’ve wondered if you’ve sensed me getting to this point. I’ve been feeling this way since we left Fawns—I really started while we were there.” He spoke slowly, giving her the time to think, which also made her look steadily at him and, in a remarkable way, made her appear “well” while doing so—a big and, so far, a happy result. She wasn’t shocked at all—which he had considered but with a thoughtful humility—and he would give her as much time as she needed. “Don’t think I’m forgetting that I’m not young.”
“Oh, that isn’t so. It’s I that am old. You ARE young.” This was what she had at first answered—and quite in the tone too of having taken her minutes. It had not been wholly to the point, but it had been kind—which was what he most wanted. And she kept, for her next words, to kindness, kept to her clear, lowered voice and unshrinking face. “To me too it thoroughly seems that these days have been beautiful. I shouldn’t be grateful to them if I couldn’t more or less have imagined their bringing us to this.” She affected him somehow as if she had advanced a step to meet him and yet were at the same time standing still. It only meant, however, doubtless, that she was, gravely and reasonably, thinking—as he exactly desired to make her. If she would but think enough she would probably think to suit him. “It seems to me,” she went on, “that it’s for YOU to be sure.”
"Oh, that's not true. I'm the one who's old. You are young." This was her initial response—and she said it with a tone that suggested she'd taken her time. It wasn't entirely relevant, but it was kind—exactly what he needed. She stuck to kindness in her next words, maintaining her calm, soft voice and unwavering expression. "It seems to me that these days have been beautiful. I wouldn’t feel thankful for them if I couldn’t imagine they would lead us to this." She somehow made him feel like she had taken a step toward him while still standing her ground. But it just meant that she was thoughtfully considering things—as he hoped she would. If she thought enough, she would likely come to the conclusions he wanted. "It seems to me," she continued, "that it's up to you to be sure."
“Ah, but I AM sure,” said Adam Verver. “On matters of importance I never speak when I’m not. So if you can yourself FACE such a union you needn’t in the least trouble.”
“Ah, but I AM sure,” said Adam Verver. “On important matters, I never speak unless I am. So if you can personally HANDLE such a union, you don’t need to worry at all.”
She had another pause, and she might have been felt as facing it while, through lamplight and dusk, through the breath of the mild, slightly damp southwest, she met his eyes without evasion. Yet she had at the end of another minute debated only to the extent of saying: “I won’t pretend I don’t think it would be good for me to marry. Good for me, I mean,” she pursued, “because I’m so awfully unattached. I should like to be a little less adrift. I should like to have a home. I should like to have an existence. I should like to have a motive for one thing more than another—a motive outside of myself. In fact,” she said, so sincerely that it almost showed pain, yet so lucidly that it almost showed humour, “in fact, you know, I want to BE married. It’s—well, it’s the condition.”
She paused again, and it seemed like she was really facing it while, through the lamplight and dusk, and the gentle, slightly damp breeze from the southwest, she met his gaze without flinching. However, after another minute, she had only thought through it enough to say: “I won’t deny that it would be good for me to get married. Good for me, I mean,” she continued, “because I feel so incredibly unattached. I’d like to feel a little less lost. I’d like to have a home. I’d like to have a purpose. I’d like to have a reason for one thing over another—a reason that comes from outside myself. Actually,” she said, so earnestly that it nearly showed pain, yet so clearly that it almost seemed funny, “actually, you know, I want to BE married. It’s—well, it’s the state of being.”
“The condition—?” He was just vague.
“The condition—?” He was being really vague.
“It’s the state, I mean. I don’t like my own. ‘Miss,’ among us all, is too dreadful—except for a shopgirl. I don’t want to be a horrible English old-maid.”
“It’s the state, you know. I don’t like my own. ‘Miss,’ among us all, is just too awful—except for a shopgirl. I don’t want to end up a miserable English old maid.”
“Oh, you want to be taken care of. Very well then, I’ll do it.”
“Oh, you want someone to take care of you. Alright, I’ll handle it.”
“I dare say it’s very much that. Only I don’t see why, for what I speak of,” she smiled—“for a mere escape from my state—I need do quite so MUCH.”
“I’m pretty sure that’s it. I just don’t understand why, for what I’m talking about,” she smiled—“for just a way to get away from my situation—I need to do quite so MUCH.”
“So much as marry me in particular?”
“So you want to marry me specifically?”
Her smile was as for true directness. “I might get what I want for less.”
Her smile was genuinely straightforward. “I might get what I want for less.”
“You think it so much for you to do?”
“You think it's too much for you to handle?”
“Yes,” she presently said, “I think it’s a great deal.”
“Yes,” she said after a moment, “I think it’s a lot.”
Then it was that, though she was so gentle, so quite perfect with him, and he felt he had come on far—then it was that of a sudden something seemed to fail and he didn’t quite know where they were. There rose for him, with this, the fact, to be sure, of their disparity, deny it as mercifully and perversely as she would. He might have been her father. “Of course, yes—that’s my disadvantage: I’m not the natural, I’m so far from being the ideal match to your youth and your beauty. I’ve the drawback that you’ve seen me always, so inevitably, in such another light.”
Then it happened that, even though she was so gentle and perfect with him, and he felt he had made a lot of progress, suddenly something seemed to break down, and he didn’t really know where they stood. Along with this, he couldn’t deny the reality of their differences, no matter how much she tried to ignore it. He could have been her father. “Of course, yes—that's my limitation: I'm not the right match for your youth and beauty. The problem is that you've always seen me, so inevitably, in a completely different light.”
But she gave a slow headshake that made contradiction soft—made it almost sad, in fact, as from having to be so complete; and he had already, before she spoke, the dim vision of some objection in her mind beside which the one he had named was light, and which therefore must be strangely deep. “You don’t understand me. It’s of all that it is for YOU to do—it’s of that I’m thinking.”
But she shook her head slowly, which softened her disagreement—made it almost sad, in fact, as if it had to be so thorough; and he had already, before she spoke, a vague sense of some objection in her mind that made the one he mentioned seem minor, and which must therefore be quite significant. “You don’t get me. It’s all about what YOU need to do—it’s that I’m thinking about.”
Oh, with this, for him, the thing was clearer! “Then you needn’t think. I know enough what it is for me to do.”
Oh, with this, everything was clearer for him! “Then you don’t have to think. I know exactly what I need to do.”
But she shook her head again. “I doubt if you know. I doubt if you CAN.”
But she shook her head again. “I don’t think you know. I don’t think you CAN.”
“And why not, please—when I’ve had you so before me? That I’m old has at least THAT fact about it to the good—that I’ve known you long and from far back.”
“And why not, please—when I’ve had you right in front of me? Being old has at least one good thing about it—that I’ve known you for a long time and from way back.”
“Do you think you’ve ‘known’ me?” asked Charlotte Stant. He hesitated—for the tone of it, and her look with it might have made him doubt. Just these things in themselves, however, with all the rest, with his fixed purpose now, his committed deed, the fine pink glow, projected forward, of his ships, behind him, definitely blazing and crackling—this quantity was to push him harder than any word of her own could warn him. All that she was herself, moreover, was so lighted, to its advantage, by the pink glow. He wasn’t rabid, but he wasn’t either, as a man of a proper spirit, to be frightened. “What is that then—if I accept it—but as strong a reason as I can want for just LEARNING to know you?”
“Do you think you really ‘know’ me?” Charlotte Stant asked. He paused—her tone and expression made him second-guess himself. But all of that, along with his strong determination now, his committed action, and the bright pink glow radiating from his ships behind him, definitely shining and crackling—this was enough to push him harder than any words from her could warn him. Everything about her was highlighted to its advantage by the pink glow. He wasn’t frantic, but he also wasn’t, as a person of integrity, going to be intimidated. “What does that mean—if I accept it—but as strong a reason as I need to just LEARN to know you?”
She faced him always—kept it up as for honesty, and yet at the same time, in her odd way, as for mercy. “How can you tell whether if you did you would?”
She always faced him—maintained it for honesty, and yet, in her unique way, also for mercy. “How can you know if you would?”
It was ambiguous for an instant, as she showed she felt. “I mean when it’s a question of learning, one learns sometimes too late.”
It was unclear for a moment, as she expressed how she felt. “I mean, when it comes to learning, sometimes you realize things too late.”
“I think it’s a question,” he promptly enough made answer, “of liking you the more just for your saying these things. You should make something,” he added, “of my liking you.”
“I think it’s a question,” he responded quickly, “of liking you even more because you say these things. You should take advantage of my feelings for you.”
“I make everything. But are you sure of having exhausted all other ways?”
“I can create anything. But are you certain you’ve explored all the other options?”
This, of a truth, enlarged his gaze. “But what other ways?”
This truly broadened his perspective. “But what other options are there?”
“Why, you’ve more ways of being kind than anyone I ever knew.”
“Wow, you have more ways of being kind than anyone I’ve ever met.”
“Take it then,” he answered, “that I’m simply putting them all together for you.” She looked at him, on this, long again—still as if it shouldn’t be said she hadn’t given him time or had withdrawn from his view, so to speak, a single inch of her surface. This at least she was fully to have exposed. It represented her as oddly conscientious, and he scarce knew in what sense it affected him. On the whole, however, with admiration. “You’re very, very honourable.”
“Okay then,” he replied, “I’m just bringing them all together for you.” She gazed at him for a long moment—still as if it shouldn’t be said she hadn't given him any space or had pulled back even a tiny bit of her presence. This was something she was completely open about. It made her seem strangely principled, and he hardly knew how it influenced him. Overall, though, it was with admiration. “You’re really, really honorable.”
“It’s just what I want to be. I don’t see,” she added, “why you’re not right, I don’t see why you’re not happy, as you are. I can not ask myself, I can not ask YOU,” she went on, “if you’re really as much at liberty as your universal generosity leads you to assume. Oughtn’t we,” she asked, “to think a little of others? Oughtn’t I, at least, in loyalty—at any rate in delicacy—to think of Maggie?” With which, intensely gentle, so as not to appear too much to teach him his duty, she explained. “She’s everything to you—she has always been. Are you so certain that there’s room in your life—?”
“It’s exactly what I want to be. I don’t understand,” she added, “why you’re not right, why you’re not happy, just as you are. I can’t ask myself, I can’t ask YOU,” she continued, “if you’re really as free as your universal generosity makes you think. Shouldn’t we,” she asked, “consider others a little? Shouldn’t I, at least out of loyalty—at least out of delicacy—think of Maggie?” With that, she spoke very gently, trying not to seem like she was lecturing him about his responsibilities. “She’s everything to you—she always has been. Are you really sure there’s room in your life—?”
“For another daughter?—is that what you mean?” She had not hung upon it long, but he had quickly taken her up.
“For another daughter?—is that what you mean?” She hadn’t thought about it for long, but he had quickly picked up on it.
He had not, however, disconcerted her. “For another young woman—very much of her age, and whose relation to her has always been so different from what our marrying would make it. For another companion,” said Charlotte Stant.
He hadn’t, however, unsettled her. “For another young woman—very much her age, and whose relationship with her has always been so different from what our marriage would create. For another friend,” Charlotte Stant said.
“Can’t a man be, all his life then,” he almost fiercely asked, “anything but a father?” But he went on before she could answer. “You talk about differences, but they’ve been already made—as no one knows better than Maggie. She feels the one she made herself by her own marriage—made, I mean, for me. She constantly thinks of it—it allows her no rest. To put her at peace is therefore,” he explained, “what I’m trying, with you, to do. I can’t do it alone, but I can do it with your help. You can make her,” he said, “positively happy about me.”
“Can’t a man be anything but a father his whole life?” he almost shouted. “But before you can answer, let me continue. You talk about differences, but they’ve already been established—more than anyone, Maggie knows this. She feels the divide created by her own marriage—the one she made for me. She’s always thinking about it; it doesn’t give her any peace. So, to bring her peace is what I’m trying to accomplish, and I need your help. You can make her,” he said, “truly happy about me.”
“About you?” she thoughtfully echoed. “But what can I make her about herself?”
“About you?” she echoed, thinking it over. “But what can I do to help her understand herself?”
“Oh, if she’s at ease about me the rest will take care of itself. The case,” he declared, “is in your hands. You’ll effectually put out of her mind that I feel she has abandoned me.”
“Oh, if she’s comfortable with me, everything else will fall into place. The case,” he said, “is in your hands. You’ll make it clear to her that I think she hasn’t left me behind.”
Interest certainly now was what he had kindled in her face, but it was all the more honourable to her, as he had just called it that she should want to see each of the steps of his conviction. “If you’ve been driven to the ‘likes’ of me, mayn’t it show that you’ve felt truly forsaken?”
Interest was definitely what he had sparked in her expression, but it was even more admirable of her to want to witness each step of his belief. “If you’ve been drawn to someone like me, doesn’t that suggest you’ve felt genuinely abandoned?”
“Well, I’m willing to suggest that, if I can show at the same time that I feel consoled.”
“Well, I’m happy to suggest that if I can also show that I feel comforted.”
“But HAVE you,” she demanded, “really felt so?” He hesitated.
“But HAVE you,” she asked, “actually felt that way?” He hesitated.
“Consoled?”
"Comforted?"
“Forsaken.”
"Abandoned."
“No—I haven’t. But if it’s her idea—!” If it was her idea, in short, that was enough. This enunciation of motive, the next moment, however, sounded to him perhaps slightly thin, so that he gave it another touch. “That is if it’s my idea. I happen, you see, to like my idea.”
“No—I haven’t. But if it’s her idea—!” If it was her idea, then that was enough. However, this explanation of motive sounded a bit weak to him, so he refined it a bit. “I mean, if it’s my idea. I just happen to really like my idea.”
“Well, it’s beautiful and wonderful. But isn’t it, possibly,” Charlotte asked, “not quite enough to marry me for?”
“Well, it’s beautiful and wonderful. But isn’t it, maybe,” Charlotte asked, “not really enough to marry me for?”
“Why so, my dear child? Isn’t a man’s idea usually what he does marry for?”
“Why’s that, my dear? Isn’t a man’s idea usually what he’s looking to marry for?”
Charlotte, considering, looked as if this might perhaps be a large question, or at all events something of an extension of one they were immediately concerned with. “Doesn’t that a good deal depend on the sort of thing it may be?” She suggested that, about marriage, ideas, as he called them, might differ; with which, however, giving no more time to it, she sounded another question. “Don’t you appear rather to put it to me that I may accept your offer for Maggie’s sake? Somehow”—she turned it over—“I don’t so clearly SEE her quite so much finding reassurance, or even quite so much needing it.”
Charlotte thought for a moment, looking like this might be a big question, or at least an extension of the one they were currently discussing. “Doesn’t that depend a lot on what kind of situation it is?” She suggested that when it comes to marriage, people’s ideas—like you call them—might vary; but without spending more time on that, she asked another question. “Aren’t you sort of implying that I should accept your offer for Maggie’s sake? Somehow”—she considered it—“I don’t really see her needing reassurance that much, or even needing it at all.”
“Do you then make nothing at all of her having been so ready to leave us?”
“Do you really not care at all that she was so quick to leave us?”
Ah, Charlotte on the contrary made much! “She was ready to leave us because she had to be. From the moment the Prince wanted it she could only go with him.”
Ah, Charlotte, on the other hand, made a big deal out of it! “She was ready to leave us because she had to be. Once the Prince wanted it, she had no choice but to go with him.”
“Perfectly—so that, if you see your way, she will be able to ‘go with him’ in future as much as she likes.”
“Perfectly—so that, if you see your way, she'll be able to ‘go with him’ in the future as much as she wants.”
Charlotte appeared to examine for a minute, in Maggie’s interest, this privilege—the result of which was a limited concession. “You’ve certainly worked it out!”
Charlotte seemed to think for a moment, in Maggie’s interest, about this privilege—the result of which was a small concession. “You’ve really figured it out!”
“Of course I’ve worked it out—that’s exactly what I HAVE done. She hadn’t for a long time been so happy about anything as at your being there with me.”
“Of course I figured it out—that’s exactly what I HAVE done. She hadn’t been this happy about anything in a long time as she was about you being there with me.”
“I was to be with you,” said Charlotte, “for her security.”
“I was meant to be with you,” said Charlotte, “for her safety.”
“Well,” Adam Verver rang out, “this IS her security. You’ve only, if you can’t see it, to ask her.”
“Well,” Adam Verver said, “this IS her security. You just need to ask her, if you can’t see it.”
“‘Ask’ her?”—the girl echoed it in wonder. “Certainly—in so many words. Telling her you don’t believe me.”
“‘Ask’ her?” the girl repeated in amazement. “Of course—in so many words. Just tell her you don’t believe me.”
Still she debated. “Do you mean write it to her?”
Still, she debated. “Are you saying I should write it to her?”
“Quite so. Immediately. To-morrow.”
"Absolutely. Right away. Tomorrow."
“Oh, I don’t think I can write it,” said Charlotte Stant. “When I write to her”—and she looked amused for so different a shade—“it’s about the Principino’s appetite and Dr. Brady’s visits.”
“Oh, I don't think I can write it,” said Charlotte Stant. “When I write to her”—and she looked amused at such a different tone—“it's about the Principino's appetite and Dr. Brady's visits.”
“Very good then—put it to her face to face. We’ll go straight to Paris to meet them.”
“Alright then—let’s say it to her face. We’ll head straight to Paris to meet them.”
Charlotte, at this, rose with a movement that was like a small cry; but her unspoken sense lost itself while she stood with her eyes on him—he keeping his seat as for the help it gave him, a little, to make his appeal go up. Presently, however, a new sense had come to her, and she covered him, kindly, with the expression of it. “I do think, you know, you must rather ‘like’ me.”
Charlotte, at this, stood up with a slight gasp; but her unspoken feelings faded as she focused on him—he remained seated, partly to help strengthen his request. Soon, though, a new feeling welled up in her, and she looked at him kindly, conveying that feeling. “I really think you must kind of ‘like’ me.”
“Thank you,” said Adam Verver. “You WILL put it to her yourself then?”
“Thanks,” said Adam Verver. “You’ll tell her yourself then?”
She had another hesitation. “We go over, you say, to meet them?”
She hesitated again. “So, we’re going over to meet them?”
“As soon as we can get back to Fawns. And wait there for them, if necessary, till they come.”
“As soon as we can get back to Fawns. And wait there for them, if needed, until they arrive.”
“Wait—a—at Fawns?”
"Wait—at Fawns?"
“Wait in Paris. That will be charming in itself.”
“Wait in Paris. That will be delightful in itself.”
“You take me to pleasant places.” She turned it over. “You propose to me beautiful things.”
“You take me to nice places.” She flipped it over. “You offer me lovely things.”
“It rests but with you to make them beautiful and pleasant. You’ve made Brighton—!”
“It’s up to you to make them beautiful and enjoyable. You’ve created Brighton—!”
“Ah!”—she almost tenderly protested. “With what I’m doing now?”
“Ah!”—she almost lovingly protested. “With what I’m doing now?”
“You’re promising me now what I want. Aren’t you promising me,” he pressed, getting up, “aren’t you promising me to abide by what Maggie says?”
“You're promising me what I want right now, aren't you?” he insisted, standing up. “Aren't you promising me that you'll go along with what Maggie says?”
Oh, she wanted to be sure she was. “Do you mean she’ll ASK it of me?”
Oh, she wanted to make sure she was. “Are you saying she’ll REQUEST it from me?”
It gave him indeed, as by communication, a sense of the propriety of being himself certain. Yet what was he but certain? “She’ll speak to you. She’ll speak to you FOR me.”
It really gave him, through their conversation, a feeling of the importance of being sure of himself. But what was he, if not sure? “She’ll talk to you. She’ll talk to you FOR me.”
This at last then seemed to satisfy her. “Very good. May we wait again to talk of it till she has done so?” He showed, with his hands down in his pockets and his shoulders expressively up, a certain disappointment. Soon enough, none the less, his gentleness was all back and his patience once more exemplary. “Of course I give you time. Especially,” he smiled, “as it’s time that I shall be spending with you. Our keeping on together will help you perhaps to see. To see, I mean, how I need you.”
This finally seemed to satisfy her. “Alright. Can we wait to talk about it until she’s done?” He expressed a bit of disappointment, with his hands in his pockets and his shoulders shrugging. But soon enough, his kindness returned, and his patience was again remarkable. “Of course, I’ll give you time. Especially,” he smiled, “since it’s time I’ll be spending with you. Being together might help you understand. Understand, I mean, how much I need you.”
“I already see,” said Charlotte, “how you’ve persuaded yourself you do.” But she had to repeat it. “That isn’t, unfortunately, all.”
“I already see,” said Charlotte, “how you’ve convinced yourself you do.” But she had to say it again. “That isn’t, unfortunately, everything.”
“Well then, how you’ll make Maggie right.”
“Well then, how are you going to fix Maggie?”
“‘Right’?” She echoed it as if the word went far. And “O—oh!” she still critically murmured as they moved together away.
“‘Right’?” She repeated it as if the word held a lot of weight. And “O—oh!” she still remarked with some skepticism as they walked away together.
XIII
XIII
He had talked to her of their waiting in Paris, a week later, but on the spot there this period of patience suffered no great strain. He had written to his daughter, not indeed from Brighton, but directly after their return to Fawns, where they spent only forty-eight hours before resuming their journey; and Maggie’s reply to his news was a telegram from Rome, delivered to him at noon of their fourth day and which he brought out to Charlotte, who was seated at that moment in the court of the hotel, where they had agreed that he should join her for their proceeding together to the noontide meal. His letter, at Fawns—a letter of several pages and intended lucidly, unreservedly, in fact all but triumphantly, to inform—had proved, on his sitting down to it, and a little to his surprise, not quite so simple a document to frame as even his due consciousness of its weight of meaning had allowed him to assume: this doubtless, however, only for reasons naturally latent in the very wealth of that consciousness, which contributed to his message something of their own quality of impatience. The main result of their talk, for the time, had been a difference in his relation to his young friend, as well as a difference, equally sensible, in her relation to himself; and this in spite of his not having again renewed his undertaking to “speak” to her so far even as to tell her of the communication despatched to Rome. Delicacy, a delicacy more beautiful still, all the delicacy she should want, reigned between them—it being rudimentary, in their actual order, that she mustn’t be further worried until Maggie should have put her at her ease.
He had talked to her about their wait in Paris, a week later, but in that moment, the wait didn't feel too stressful. He had written to his daughter, not from Brighton, but right after they got back to Fawns, where they only stayed for forty-eight hours before continuing their journey. Maggie’s reply to his news was a telegram from Rome, which he received at noon on their fourth day. He took it to Charlotte, who was sitting in the hotel courtyard, where they had agreed to meet for lunch. His letter, written at Fawns—a lengthy letter meant to clearly and honestly inform—turned out, surprisingly, to be harder to write than he had anticipated, despite knowing how important it was. This was likely due to the weight of his feelings, which influenced his message with a sense of impatience. The main outcome of their conversation had shifted his relationship with his young friend, and he sensed a change in her attitude toward him as well, even though he hadn’t yet followed through on his promise to “speak” to her about the message sent to Rome. A beautiful delicacy lingered between them—an understanding that she shouldn’t be disturbed further until Maggie made her feel comfortable.
It was just the delicacy, however, that in Paris—which, suggestively, was Brighton at a hundredfold higher pitch—made, between him and his companion, the tension, made the suspense, made what he would have consented perhaps to call the provisional peculiarity, of present conditions. These elements acted in a manner of their own, imposing and involving, under one head, many abstentions and precautions, twenty anxieties and reminders—things, verily, he would scarce have known how to express; and yet creating for them at every step an acceptance of their reality. He was hanging back, with Charlotte, till another person should intervene for their assistance, and yet they had, by what had already occurred, been carried on to something it was out of the power of other persons to make either less or greater. Common conventions—that was what was odd—had to be on this basis more thought of; those common conventions that, previous to the passage by the Brighton strand, he had so enjoyed the sense of their overlooking. The explanation would have been, he supposed—or would have figured it with less of unrest—that Paris had, in its way, deeper voices and warnings, so that if you went at all “far” there it laid bristling traps, as they might have been viewed, all smothered in flowers, for your going further still. There were strange appearances in the air, and before you knew it you might be unmistakably matching them. Since he wished therefore to match no appearance but that of a gentleman playing with perfect fairness any game in life he might be called to, he found himself, on the receipt of Maggie’s missive, rejoicing with a certain inconsistency. The announcement made her from home had, in the act, cost some biting of his pen to sundry parts of him—his personal modesty, his imagination of her prepared state for so quick a jump, it didn’t much matter which—and yet he was more eager than not for the drop of delay and for the quicker transitions promised by the arrival of the imminent pair. There was after all a hint of offence to a man of his age in being taken, as they said at the shops, on approval. Maggie, certainly, would have been as far as Charlotte herself from positively desiring this, and Charlotte, on her side, as far as Maggie from holding him light as a real value. She made him fidget thus, poor girl, but from generous rigour of conscience.
It was just the delicacy, however, that in Paris—which, interestingly, was like Brighton turned up to a hundred—that created the tension, the suspense, and what he might have reluctantly called the unusual nature of their current situation. These factors worked in their own way, imposing and intertwining, under one umbrella, countless hesitations and precautions, a multitude of anxieties and reminders—things he truly had trouble expressing; and yet, they made it clear to them at every turn that this was real. He was holding back with Charlotte, waiting for someone else to step in and help them, and yet they had, due to what had already happened, been pushed into something that no one else could diminish or amplify. What was strange was that common conventions needed more consideration based on this; those same conventions that, before passing by the Brighton beach, he had enjoyed overlooking. He assumed that the explanation would be—or would have seemed less uneasy—that Paris had, in its own way, deeper layers of meaning and warnings, so that if you ventured “far,” it might present hidden traps, all disguised by beauty, for you to go even further. There were strange vibes in the air, and before you knew it, you could be undeniably influenced by them. Since he wanted to avoid any vibe except that of a gentleman playing fairly in whatever game life threw at him, he found himself, upon receiving Maggie’s note, oddly pleased. The announcement from her home had, in reality, cost him some angst over various parts of himself—his personal modesty, his thoughts about her readiness for such a quick leap, it didn’t really matter—but overall, he was more eager than hesitant about the delay and the quicker changes expected from the arrival of the couple. After all, it was a bit offensive for a man his age to be seen, as they say in shops, on approval. Maggie certainly wouldn’t have been any more inclined than Charlotte to actually want this, and Charlotte, on her part, was just as far from seeing him as anything less than a true value. She made him fidget like this, poor girl, but it was out of a sincere sense of duty.
These allowances of his spirit were, all the same, consistent with a great gladness at the sight of the term of his ordeal; for it was the end of his seeming to agree that questions and doubts had a place. The more he had inwardly turned the matter over the more it had struck him that they had in truth only an ugliness. What he could have best borne, as he now believed, would have been Charlotte’s simply saying to him that she didn’t like him enough. This he wouldn’t have enjoyed, but he would quite have understood it and been able ruefully to submit. She did like him enough—nothing to contradict that had come out for him; so that he was restless for her as well as for himself. She looked at him hard a moment when he handed her his telegram, and the look, for what he fancied a dim, shy fear in it, gave him perhaps his best moment of conviction that—as a man, so to speak—he properly pleased her. He said nothing—the words sufficiently did it for him, doing it again better still as Charlotte, who had left her chair at his approach, murmured them out. “We start to-night to bring you all our love and joy and sympathy.” There they were, the words, and what did she want more? She didn’t, however, as she gave him back the little unfolded leaf, say they were enough—though he saw, the next moment, that her silence was probably not disconnected from her having just visibly turned pale. Her extraordinarily fine eyes, as it was his present theory that he had always thought them, shone at him the more darkly out of this change of colour; and she had again, with it, her apparent way of subjecting herself, for explicit honesty and through her willingness to face him, to any view he might take, all at his ease, and even to wantonness, of the condition he produced in her. As soon as he perceived that emotion kept her soundless he knew himself deeply touched, since it proved that, little as she professed, she had been beautifully hoping. They stood there a minute while he took in from this sign that, yes then, certainly she liked him enough—liked him enough to make him, old as he was ready to brand himself, flush for the pleasure of it. The pleasure of it accordingly made him speak first. “Do you begin, a little, to be satisfied?”
These allowances of his spirit were, nonetheless, consistent with a deep happiness at the end of his ordeal; for it marked the conclusion of his pretense that questions and doubts had validity. The more he reflected on the situation, the more he realized that they truly only brought discomfort. What he would have preferred, he now believed, was if Charlotte had simply told him that she didn't like him enough. He wouldn't have enjoyed hearing that, but he would have understood and accepted it with a resigned attitude. She did like him enough—there was nothing to counter that in his experience; so he felt anxious for her as much as for himself. She looked at him intently for a moment when he handed her his telegram, and the expression, which he sensed held a faint, shy fear, gave him perhaps his clearest conviction that, in a way, he pleased her just right. He remained silent—the words spoke for themselves, and they resonated even more profoundly when Charlotte, who had left her chair at his approach, quietly repeated them: “We start tonight to bring you all our love and joy and sympathy.” There they were, the words, and what more could she want? However, she didn't say they were enough as she returned the small, unfolded paper; though he noticed, just a moment later, that her silence was likely connected to her having visibly turned pale. Her extraordinarily lovely eyes, which he had always considered them to be, appeared to shine even more deeply from this change in color; and she once again displayed her typical way of subjecting herself, with complete honesty and a willingness to confront him, to any perspective he might have—all at his ease, and even to the extreme of the emotional effect he had on her. As soon as he realized that her emotion rendered her speechless, he felt deeply touched, as it showed that, despite her modesty, she had been beautifully hopeful. They stood there for a moment while he understood from this sign that, yes indeed, she liked him enough—liked him enough to make him, even as he was ready to mark himself old, blush from the joy of it. This joy prompted him to speak first. “Are you starting, a little, to feel satisfied?”
Still, however, she had to think. “We’ve hurried them, you see. Why so breathless a start?”
Still, she had to think. “We rushed them, you see. Why such a hectic start?”
“Because they want to congratulate us. They want,” said Adam Verver, “to SEE our happiness.”
“Because they want to congratulate us. They want,” said Adam Verver, “to SEE our happiness.”
She wondered again—and this time also, for him, as publicly as possible. “So much as that?”
She questioned again—and this time, as openly as possible for him. “Really that much?”
“Do you think it’s too much?”
“Do you think it’s over the top?”
She continued to think plainly. “They weren’t to have started for another week.”
She kept thinking clearly. “They weren’t supposed to start for another week.”
“Well, what then? Isn’t our situation worth the little sacrifice? We’ll go back to Rome as soon as you like WITH them.”
“Well, what now? Isn’t our situation worth a small sacrifice? We’ll head back to Rome whenever you want WITH them.”
This seemed to hold her—as he had previously seen her held, just a trifle inscrutably, by his allusions to what they would do together on a certain contingency. “Worth it, the little sacrifice, for whom? For us, naturally—yes,” she said. “We want to see them—for our reasons. That is,” she rather dimly smiled, “YOU do.”
This seemed to keep her engaged—just like he had seen her engaged before, somewhat mysteriously, by his hints about what they would do together under certain circumstances. “It's worth the small sacrifice, for whom? For us, of course—yes,” she said. “We want to see them—for our own reasons. That is,” she smiled faintly, “YOU do.”
“And you do, my dear, too!” he bravely declared. “Yes then—I do too,” she after an instant ungrudging enough acknowledged. “For us, however, something depends on it.”
“And you do, my dear, too!” he bravely declared. “Yes then—I do too,” she acknowledged after a moment, without any reluctance. “For us, however, something depends on it.”
“Rather! But does nothing depend on it for them?”
“Really! But does that not matter to them at all?”
“What CAN—from the moment that, as appears, they don’t want to nip us in the bud? I can imagine their rushing up to prevent us. But an enthusiasm for us that can wait so very little—such intense eagerness, I confess,” she went on, “more than a little puzzles me. You may think me,” she also added, “ungracious and suspicious, but the Prince can’t at all want to come back so soon. He wanted quite too intensely to get away.”
“What can—since it seems they don’t want to stop us before we even get started? I can picture them rushing over to try to prevent us. But an enthusiasm for us that can wait so little—such intense eagerness, I admit,” she continued, “more than a little confuses me. You might think I’m being ungrateful and suspicious, but the Prince can’t possibly want to come back so soon. He wanted to escape far too much.”
Mr. Verver considered. “Well, hasn’t he been away?”
Mr. Verver thought for a moment. “Well, hasn’t he been gone?”
“Yes, just long enough to see how he likes it. Besides,” said Charlotte, “he may not be able to join in the rosy view of our case that you impute to her. It can’t in the least have appeared to him hitherto a matter of course that you should give his wife a bouncing stepmother.”
"Yeah, just long enough to see how he feels about it. Besides," Charlotte said, "he might not share the optimistic perspective on our situation that you assume she has. It probably hasn't seemed at all normal to him that you would give his wife an energetic stepmom."
Adam Verver, at this, looked grave. “I’m afraid then he’ll just have to accept from us whatever his wife accepts; and accept it—if he can imagine no better reason—just because she does. That,” he declared, “will have to do for him.”
Adam Verver looked serious. “I guess he’ll just have to accept from us whatever his wife accepts; and accept it—if he can’t think of any better reason—just because she does. That,” he said, “will have to be enough for him.”
His tone made her for a moment meet his face; after which, “Let me,” she abruptly said, “see it again”—taking from him the folded leaf that she had given back and he had kept in his hand. “Isn’t the whole thing,” she asked when she had read it over, “perhaps but a way like another for their gaining time?”
His tone made her look at him for a moment; then she suddenly said, “Let me see it again,” taking back the folded paper she had returned and he had been holding. “Isn’t this whole thing,” she asked after reading it again, “just another way for them to buy time?”
He again stood staring; but the next minute, with that upward spring of his shoulders and that downward pressure of his pockets which she had already, more than once, at disconcerted moments, determined in him, he turned sharply away and wandered from her in silence. He looked about in his small despair; he crossed the hotel court, which, overarched and glazed, muffled against loud sounds and guarded against crude sights, heated, gilded, draped, almost carpeted, with exotic trees in tubs, exotic ladies in chairs, the general exotic accent and presence suspended, as with wings folded or feebly fluttering, in the superior, the supreme, the inexorably enveloping Parisian medium, resembled some critical apartment of large capacity, some “dental,” medical, surgical waiting-room, a scene of mixed anxiety and desire, preparatory, for gathered barbarians, to the due amputation or extraction of excrescences and redundancies of barbarism. He went as far as the porte-cochere, took counsel afresh of his usual optimism, sharpened even, somehow, just here, by the very air he tasted, and then came back smiling to Charlotte. “It is incredible to you that when a man is still as much in love as Amerigo his most natural impulse should be to feel what his wife feels, to believe what she believes, to want what she wants?—in the absence, that is, of special impediments to his so doing.” The manner of it operated—she acknowledged with no great delay this natural possibility. “No—nothing is incredible to me of people immensely in love.”
He stood there staring again; but a moment later, with that upward lift of his shoulders and the downward pull of his pockets that she had noticed before during awkward moments, he turned sharply away and walked off in silence. He looked around in his small despair; he crossed the hotel courtyard, which was covered and glass-roofed, muffled against loud noises and shielded from harsh sights, heated, elegant, draped, nearly carpeted, filled with exotic trees in pots, exotic women in chairs, the overall exotic vibe and presence suspended, as if with wings folded or barely fluttering, in the grand, overarching, and unavoidably enveloping Parisian atmosphere. It felt like a critical waiting room of significant size, a “dental,” medical, or surgical space, a scene filled with mixed anxiety and desire, preparing gathered outsiders for the necessary removal or treatment of the excesses and flaws of barbarism. He walked all the way to the porte-cochere, took a moment to tap into his usual optimism, which was somehow sharpened by the very air he breathed, and then returned to Charlotte with a smile. “Is it really hard for you to believe that when a man is still very much in love, like Amerigo, his most natural impulse would be to feel what his wife feels, to believe what she believes, to want what she wants?—unless, of course, there are specific obstacles preventing this.” She acknowledged this natural possibility without much delay. “No—nothing is too incredible for me about people who are deeply in love.”
“Well, isn’t Amerigo immensely in love?”
“Well, isn’t Amerigo totally in love?”
She hesitated but as for the right expression of her sense of the degree—but she after all adopted Mr. Verver’s. “Immensely.”
She hesitated, unsure of how to express her feelings about the situation, but in the end, she went with Mr. Verver’s word. “Immensely.”
“Then there you are!”
“Here you are!”
She had another smile, however—she wasn’t there quite yet. “That isn’t all that’s wanted.”
She had another smile, though—she wasn’t there just yet. “That’s not everything that’s wanted.”
“But what more?”
“But what else?”
“Why that his wife shall have made him really believe that SHE really believes.” With which Charlotte became still more lucidly logical. “The reality of his belief will depend in such a case on the reality of hers. The Prince may for instance now,” she went on, “have made out to his satisfaction that Maggie may mainly desire to abound in your sense, whatever it is you do. He may remember that he has never seen her do anything else.”
“Why has his wife convinced him that SHE actually believes.” With that, Charlotte became even more clearly logical. “The truth of his belief will depend on how genuine hers is. The Prince might now,” she continued, “have concluded to his satisfaction that Maggie primarily wants to please you, no matter what it is you do. He might recall that he has never seen her act any other way.”
“Well,” said Adam Verver, “what kind of a warning will he have found in that? To what catastrophe will he have observed such a disposition in her to lead?”
“Well,” said Adam Verver, “what kind of warning will he have seen in that? What catastrophe has he noticed in her behavior that might lead to?”
“Just to THIS one!” With which she struck him as rising straighter and clearer before him than she had done even yet.
“Just to THIS one!” With that, she hit him, standing taller and clearer in front of him than she ever had before.
“Our little question itself?” Her appearance had in fact, at the moment, such an effect on him that he could answer but in marvelling mildness. “Hadn’t we better wait a while till we call it a catastrophe?”
“Our little question itself?” Her presence had such an impact on him at that moment that he could only respond with gentle amazement. “Shouldn't we wait a bit before we label it a disaster?”
Her rejoinder to this was to wait—though by no means as long as he meant. When at the end of her minute she spoke, however, it was mildly too. “What would you like, dear friend, to wait for?” It lingered between them in the air, this demand, and they exchanged for the time a look which might have made each of them seem to have been watching in the other the signs of its overt irony. These were indeed immediately so visible in Mr. Verver’s face that, as if a little ashamed of having so markedly produced them—and as if also to bring out at last, under pressure, something she had all the while been keeping back—she took a jump to pure plain reason. “You haven’t noticed for yourself, but I can’t quite help noticing, that in spite of what you assume—WE assume, if you like—Maggie wires her joy only to you. She makes no sign of its overflow to me.”
Her response was to wait—but definitely not for as long as he intended. When she finally spoke after a minute, her tone was gentle too. “What would you like to wait for, dear friend?” This question hung in the air between them, and for a moment, they exchanged a look that revealed they might have both been sensing the irony in the other’s expression. It was so evident on Mr. Verver’s face that, feeling a bit embarrassed for highlighting it, and wanting to finally bring out something she had been holding back, she shifted to straightforward reasoning. “You might not have noticed it yourself, but I can’t help but see that, despite what you think—WE think, if you prefer—Maggie only shares her happiness with you. She shows no signs of it spilling over to me.”
It was a point—and, staring a moment, he took account of it. But he had, as before, his presence of mind—to say nothing of his kindly humour. “Why, you complain of the very thing that’s most charmingly conclusive! She treats us already as ONE.”
It was a moment—and, after a quick look, he considered it. But he still had his composure—not to mention his friendly sense of humor. “You’re complaining about the very thing that’s most beautifully clear! She already treats us as ONE.”
Clearly now, for the girl, in spite of lucidity and logic, there was something in the way he said things—! She faced him in all her desire to please him, and then her word quite simply and definitely showed it. “I do like you, you know.”
Clearly now, for the girl, despite her clarity and logic, there was something in the way he spoke—! She confronted him, fully wanting to please him, and her words simply and definitively revealed it. “I do like you, you know.”
Well, what could this do but stimulate his humour? “I see what’s the matter with you. You won’t be quiet till you’ve heard from the Prince himself. I think,” the happy man added, “that I’ll go and secretly wire to him that you’d like, reply paid, a few words for yourself.”
Well, what else could this do but make him more cheerful? “I see what’s bothering you. You won’t be satisfied until you hear from the Prince himself. I think,” the happy man added, “that I’ll go and secretly message him that you’d like a few words for yourself, reply paid.”
It could apparently but encourage her further to smile. “Reply paid for him, you mean—or for me?”
It seemed to only make her smile more. “You mean paid for him, right—or for me?”
“Oh, I’ll pay, with pleasure, anything back for you—as many words as you like.” And he went on, to keep it up. “Not requiring either to see your message.”
“Oh, I’ll gladly pay you back for anything—for as many words as you want.” And he continued to keep it going. “I don’t need to see your message either.”
She could take it, visibly, as he meant it. “Should you require to see the Prince’s?”
She could take it, obviously, as he intended. “Do you need to see the Prince’s?”
“Not a bit. You can keep that also to yourself.”
“Not at all. You can keep that to yourself too.”
On his speaking, however, as if his transmitting the hint were a real question, she appeared to consider—and almost as if for good taste—that the joke had gone far enough. “It doesn’t matter. Unless he speaks of his own movement—! And why should it be,” she asked, “a thing that WOULD occur to him?”
On his speaking, however, as if passing the hint were a genuine question, she seemed to think—and almost as if for good measure—that the joke had gone far enough. “It doesn’t matter. Unless he talks about his own actions—! And why would it be,” she asked, “something that WOULD come to his mind?”
“I really think,” Mr. Verver concurred, “that it naturally wouldn’t. HE doesn’t know you’re morbid.”
“I honestly believe,” Mr. Verver agreed, “that it naturally wouldn’t. He doesn’t realize you’re obsessed.”
She just wondered—but she agreed. “No—he hasn’t yet found it out. Perhaps he will, but he hasn’t yet; and I’m willing to give him meanwhile the benefit of the doubt.” So with this the situation, to her view, would appear to have cleared had she not too quickly had one of her restless relapses. “Maggie, however, does know I’m morbid. SHE hasn’t the benefit.”
She just wondered—but she agreed. “No—he hasn’t figured it out yet. Maybe he will, but he hasn’t so far; and I’m willing to give him the benefit of the doubt in the meantime.” So with this, the situation, from her perspective, seemed to have cleared up had she not too quickly experienced one of her restless relapses. “Maggie, though, knows I’m morbid. SHE doesn’t have the benefit.”
“Well,” said Adam Verver a little wearily at last, “I think I feel that you’ll hear from her yet.” It had even fairly come over him, under recurrent suggestion, that his daughter’s omission WAS surprising. And Maggie had never in her life been wrong for more than three minutes.
“Well,” Adam Verver said a bit tiredly at last, “I think you’ll hear from her soon.” It had genuinely begun to sink in for him, with repeated nudging, that his daughter’s absence was indeed surprising. And Maggie had never been wrong for more than three minutes in her life.
“Oh, it isn’t that I hold that I’ve a RIGHT to it,” Charlotte the next instant rather oddly qualified—and the observation itself gave him a further push.
“Oh, it’s not that I think I have a RIGHT to it,” Charlotte immediately added in a somewhat strange way—and her comment actually pushed him even further.
“Very well—I shall like it myself.”
“Alright—I’ll enjoy it myself.”
At this then, as if moved by his way of constantly—and more or less against his own contention—coming round to her, she showed how she could also always, and not less gently, come half way. “I speak of it only as the missing GRACE—the grace that’s in everything that Maggie does. It isn’t my due”—she kept it up—“but, taking from you that we may still expect it, it will have the touch. It will be beautiful.”
At this, as if influenced by his tendency to keep coming back to her—often contradicting his own arguments—she demonstrated how she could also, gently and willingly, meet him halfway. “I’m talking about the lost GRACE—the grace that’s in everything Maggie does. I don’t deserve it”—she continued—“but if we take from you the idea that we can still expect it, it will have that special touch. It will be beautiful.”
“Then come out to breakfast.” Mr. Verver had looked at his watch. “It will be here when we get back.”
“Then let’s head out for breakfast.” Mr. Verver glanced at his watch. “It will be here when we return.”
“If it isn’t”—and Charlotte smiled as she looked about for a feather boa that she had laid down on descending from her room—“if it isn’t it will have had but THAT slight fault.”
“If it isn’t”—and Charlotte smiled as she looked around for a feather boa that she had set down after coming down from her room—“if it isn’t, it will have just THAT minor flaw.”
He saw her boa on the arm of the chair from which she had moved to meet him, and, after he had fetched it, raising it to make its charming softness brush his face—for it was a wondrous product of Paris, purchased under his direct auspices the day before—he held it there a minute before giving it up. “Will you promise me then to be at peace?”
He spotted her boa on the arm of the chair where she had gotten up to greet him, and after he retrieved it, he lifted it to let its delightful softness brush against his face—because it was a fabulous piece from Paris, bought with his direct involvement the day before—and he kept it there for a moment before handing it over. “Will you promise me to be at peace then?”
She looked, while she debated, at his admirable present. “I promise you.”
She looked at his impressive gift while she thought about it. “I promise you.”
“Quite for ever?”
“Forever?”
“Quite for ever.”
"Absolutely forever."
“Remember,” he went on, to justify his demand, “remember that in wiring you she’ll naturally speak even more for her husband than she has done in wiring me.”
“Remember,” he continued, to explain his request, “consider that in writing to you, she’ll naturally advocate even more for her husband than she has when she wrote to me.”
It was only at a word that Charlotte had a demur. “‘Naturally’—?”
It was just with one word that Charlotte hesitated. “‘Naturally’—?”
“Why, our marriage puts him for you, you see—or puts you for him—into a new relation, whereas it leaves his relation to me unchanged. It therefore gives him more to say to you about it.”
“Look, our marriage changes his relationship with you—or yours with him—while his relationship with me stays the same. So, it gives him more to discuss with you about it.”
“About its making me his stepmother-in-law—or whatever I SHOULD become?” Over which, for a little, she not undivertedly mused. “Yes, there may easily be enough for a gentleman to say to a young woman about that.”
“About me becoming his stepmother-in-law—or whatever I SHOULD turn into?” Over which, for a bit, she thought without much distraction. “Yes, there’s definitely enough for a gentleman to say to a young woman about that.”
“Well, Amerigo can always be, according to the case, either as funny or as serious as you like; and whichever he may be for you, in sending you a message, he’ll be it ALL.” And then as the girl, with one of her so deeply and oddly, yet so tenderly, critical looks at him, failed to take up the remark, he found himself moved, as by a vague anxiety, to add a question. “Don’t you think he’s charming?”
“Well, Amerigo can always be as funny or as serious as you want; and whichever you see him as when he sends you a message, he’ll be that completely.” And then, as the girl, with one of her deeply and oddly, yet tenderly critical looks at him, didn’t respond, he felt a vague sense of anxiety and added a question. “Don’t you think he’s charming?”
“Oh, charming,” said Charlotte Stant. “If he weren’t I shouldn’t mind.”
“Oh, charming,” said Charlotte Stant. “If he weren't, I wouldn't care.”
“No more should I!” her friend harmoniously returned.
“No way!” her friend replied in agreement.
“Ah, but you DON’T mind. You don’t have to. You don’t have to, I mean, as I have. It’s the last folly ever to care, in an anxious way, the least particle more than one is absolutely forced. If I were you,” she went on—“if I had in my life, for happiness and power and peace, even a small fraction of what you have, it would take a great deal to make me waste my worry. I don’t know,” she said, “what in the world—that didn’t touch my luck—I should trouble my head about.”
“Ah, but you don’t mind. You don’t have to. You don’t have to, I mean, like I do. It’s the last foolishness to care, in a nervous way, even a tiny bit more than one absolutely needs to. If I were you,” she continued, “if I had in my life, for happiness and power and peace, even a small fraction of what you have, it would take a lot to make me waste my worry. I don’t know,” she said, “what in the world—that didn’t affect my luck—I should bother my head about.”
“I quite understand you—yet doesn’t it just depend,” Mr. Verver asked, “on what you call one’s luck? It’s exactly my luck that I’m talking about. I shall be as sublime as you like when you’ve made me all right. It’s only when one is right that one really has the things you speak of. It isn’t they,” he explained, “that make one so: it’s the something else I want that makes THEM right. If you’ll give me what I ask, you’ll see.”
“I totally get what you're saying—still, doesn’t it really depend,” Mr. Verver asked, “on how you define luck? It’s exactly my luck that I’m discussing. I’ll be as amazing as you want once you’ve sorted me out. It’s only when things are right that you truly have what you’re talking about. It’s not those things,” he explained, “that make someone feel that way: it’s the other thing I’m after that makes THEM right. If you give me what I want, you’ll see.”
She had taken her boa and thrown it over her shoulders, and her eyes, while she still delayed, had turned from him, engaged by another interest, though the court was by this time, the hour of dispersal for luncheon, so forsaken that they would have had it, for free talk, should they have been moved to loudness, quite to themselves. She was ready for their adjournment, but she was also aware of a pedestrian youth, in uniform, a visible emissary of the Postes et Telegraphes, who had approached, from the street, the small stronghold of the concierge and who presented there a missive taken from the little cartridge-box slung over his shoulder. The portress, meeting him on the threshold, met equally, across the court, Charlotte’s marked attention to his visit, so that, within the minute, she had advanced to our friends with her cap-streamers flying and her smile of announcement as ample as her broad white apron. She raised aloft a telegraphic message and, as she delivered it, sociably discriminated. “Cette fois-ci pour madame!”—with which she as genially retreated, leaving Charlotte in possession. Charlotte, taking it, held it at first unopened. Her eyes had come back to her companion, who had immediately and triumphantly greeted it. “Ah, there you are!”
She had draped her boa over her shoulders, and while she hesitated, her eyes diverted from him, captivated by something else. By this time, the courtyard was so empty during the lunchtime break that they could have spoken freely without anyone else around. She was ready for everyone to leave, but she noticed a young man in uniform, clearly an employee of the Post Office, approaching the concierge's small office from the street. He handed her a message taken from the small bag slung over his shoulder. The concierge met him at the door and, across the courtyard, Charlotte was drawn to his arrival, so within a minute, she rushed over to our friends with her cap ribbons flying and a beaming smile as broad as her wide white apron. She held up the telegram and, as she delivered it, did so with a friendly distinction, saying, “This one’s for you, madame!”—then she cheerfully stepped back, leaving Charlotte with the message. Charlotte took it but held it unopened at first. Her gaze returned to her companion, who greeted it with immediate triumph. “Ah, there you are!”
She broke the envelope then in silence, and for a minute, as with the message he himself had put before her, studied its contents without a sign. He watched her without a question, and at last she looked up. “I’ll give you,” she simply said, “what you ask.”
She opened the envelope quietly, and for a minute, just like with the message he had given her, she examined its contents without any expression. He watched her in silence, and finally, she looked up. “I’ll give you,” she said plainly, “what you want.”
The expression of her face was strange—but since when had a woman’s at moments of supreme surrender not a right to be? He took it in with his own long look and his grateful silence—so that nothing more, for some instants, passed between them. Their understanding sealed itself—he already felt that she had made him right. But he was in presence too of the fact that Maggie had made HER so; and always, therefore, without Maggie, where, in fine, would he be? She united them, brought them together as with the click of a silver spring, and, on the spot, with the vision of it, his eyes filled, Charlotte facing him meanwhile with her expression made still stranger by the blur of his gratitude. Through it all, however, he smiled. “What my child does for me—!”
The expression on her face was unusual—but when has a woman’s face not had the right to be that way during moments of complete surrender? He took it all in with his own long glance and grateful silence—so that for a few moments, nothing else passed between them. Their connection solidified—it was clear to him that she had made him whole. But he was also aware that Maggie had made her that way; and thus, without Maggie, where would he ultimately be? She brought them together, like the snap of a silver spring, and in that moment, with the realization of it, his eyes filled with tears, while Charlotte faced him, her expression becoming even stranger through the haze of his gratitude. Yet through it all, he smiled. “What my child does for me—!”
Through it all as well, that is still through the blur, he saw Charlotte, rather than heard her, reply. She held her paper wide open, but her eyes were all for his. “It isn’t Maggie. It’s the Prince.”
Through it all, even amidst the blur, he saw Charlotte instead of hearing her respond. She held her paper wide open, but her eyes were focused solely on him. “It’s not Maggie. It’s the Prince.”
“I SAY!”—he gaily rang out. “Then it’s best of all.”
“I SAY!”—he cheerfully exclaimed. “Then it’s the best of all.”
“It’s enough.”
"That's sufficient."
“Thank you for thinking so!” To which he added “It’s enough for our question, but it isn’t—is it? quite enough for our breakfast? Dejeunons.”
“Thanks for thinking that!” He added, “It’s enough for our question, but it isn’t—is it? quite enough for our breakfast? Let’s have lunch.”
She stood there, however, in spite of this appeal, her document always before them. “Don’t you want to read it?”
She stood there, though, despite this invitation, her document always in front of them. “Don’t you want to read it?”
He thought. “Not if it satisfies you. I don’t require it.”
He thought, "Not if it makes you happy. I don't need it."
But she gave him, as for her conscience, another chance. “You can if you like.”
But she gave him, for her own peace of mind, another chance. “You can if you want.”
He hesitated afresh, but as for amiability, not for curiosity. “Is it funny?”
He hesitated again, but it wasn't out of curiosity; it was about being friendly. “Is it funny?”
Thus, finally, she again dropped her eyes on it, drawing in her lips a little. “No—I call it grave.”
Thus, finally, she looked down at it again, her lips slightly pursed. “No—I think it's serious.”
“Ah, then, I don’t want it.”
“Ah, then, I don’t want it.”
“Very grave,” said Charlotte Stant.
"Very serious," said Charlotte Stant.
“Well, what did I tell you of him?” he asked, rejoicing, as they started: a question for all answer to which, before she took his arm, the girl thrust her paper, crumpled, into the pocket of her coat.
“Well, what did I say about him?” he asked, happily, as they began walking. A question for which, before she took his arm, the girl shoved her crumpled paper into the pocket of her coat.
PART THIRD
XIV
XIV
Charlotte, half way up the “monumental” staircase, had begun by waiting alone—waiting to be rejoined by her companion, who had gone down all the way, as in common kindness bound, and who, his duty performed, would know where to find her. She was meanwhile, though extremely apparent, not perhaps absolutely advertised; but she would not have cared if she had been—so little was it, by this time, her first occasion of facing society with a consciousness materially, with a confidence quite splendidly, enriched. For a couple of years now she had known as never before what it was to look “well”—to look, that is, as well as she had always felt, from far back, that, in certain conditions, she might. On such an evening as this, that of a great official party in the full flush of the London spring-time, the conditions affected her, her nerves, her senses, her imagination, as all profusely present; so that perhaps at no moment yet had she been so justified of her faith as at the particular instant of our being again concerned with her, that of her chancing to glance higher up from where she stood and meeting in consequence the quiet eyes of Colonel Assingham, who had his elbows on the broad balustrade of the great gallery overhanging the staircase and who immediately exchanged with her one of his most artlessly familiar signals. This simplicity of his visual attention struck her, even with the other things she had to think about, as the quietest note in the whole high pitch—much, in fact, as if she had pressed a finger on a chord or a key and created, for the number of seconds, an arrest of vibration, a more muffled thump. The sight of him suggested indeed that Fanny would be there, though so far as opportunity went she had not seen her. This was about the limit of what it could suggest.
Charlotte, halfway up the “monumental” staircase, began by waiting alone—waiting to be joined again by her companion, who had gone all the way down as common courtesy required, and who, having fulfilled his duty, would know where to find her. Meanwhile, she was very noticeable, though perhaps not completely obvious; but she wouldn't have minded if she had been—by this point, it was far from her first time facing society with a sense of confidence that was materially, and quite impressively, enriched. For a couple of years now, she had known more than ever what it was to look “good”—to look, that is, as good as she had always felt she could in certain situations. On an evening like this one, during a big official party in the vibrant springtime of London, the environment affected her—her nerves, her senses, her imagination—as everything was abundantly present; so much so that perhaps she had never felt so justified in her belief as she did at the moment we are concerned with her again, when she happened to glance up from where she was and met the calm gaze of Colonel Assingham, who had his elbows resting on the broad balustrade of the grand gallery overlooking the staircase and immediately exchanged one of his most casually familiar signals with her. The simplicity of his attention registered with her, even amidst her other thoughts, as the most soothing note in the entire high-pitched atmosphere—much like pressing a finger on a chord or a key and, for a few seconds, creating an arrest of vibration, a muted thump. The sight of him did suggest that Fanny would be there, although she had not seen her yet. This was about the extent of what it could imply.
The air, however, had suggestions enough—it abounded in them, many of them precisely helping to constitute those conditions with which, for our young woman, the hour was brilliantly crowned. She was herself in truth crowned, and it all hung together, melted together, in light and colour and sound: the unsurpassed diamonds that her head so happily carried, the other jewels, the other perfections of aspect and arrangement that made her personal scheme a success, the PROVED private theory that materials to work with had been all she required and that there were none too precious for her to understand and use—to which might be added lastly, as the strong-scented flower of the total sweetness, an easy command, a high enjoyment, of her crisis. For a crisis she was ready to take it, and this ease it was, doubtless, that helped her, while she waited, to the right assurance, to the right indifference, to the right expression, and above all, as she felt, to the right view of her opportunity for happiness—unless indeed the opportunity itself, rather, were, in its mere strange amplitude, the producing, the precipitating cause. The ordered revellers, rustling and shining, with sweep of train and glitter of star and clink of sword, and yet, for all this, but so imperfectly articulate, so vaguely vocal—the double stream of the coming and the going, flowing together where she stood, passed her, brushed her, treated her to much crude contemplation and now and then to a spasm of speech, an offered hand, even in some cases to an unencouraged pause; but she missed no countenance and invited no protection: she fairly liked to be, so long as she might, just as she was—exposed a little to the public, no doubt, in her unaccompanied state, but, even if it were a bit brazen, careless of queer reflections on the dull polish of London faces, and exposed, since it was a question of exposure, to much more competent recognitions of her own. She hoped no one would stop—she was positively keeping herself; it was her idea to mark in a particular manner the importance of something that had just happened. She knew how she should mark it, and what she was doing there made already a beginning.
The air, however, was full of hints—so many of them actually contributing to the conditions that made this moment shine for our young woman. She felt like royalty and everything blended together—light, color, and sound: the stunning diamonds on her head, the other jewels, and the overall beauty and arrangement that made her look amazing. It confirmed her belief that all she needed were the right materials to work with, and that none were too valuable for her to understand and use. Adding to this was her calm confidence, a deep enjoyment of her situation. She was ready for the challenge, and this ease surely gave her the right assurance, indifference, and expression, and, most importantly, the right perspective on her chance for happiness—unless the opportunity itself, in its bizarre vastness, was actually the catalyst. The organized revelers, shining and rustling with flowing trains, sparkling stars, and clinking swords, were, despite all this, somewhat inarticulate, vaguely vocal—the mingling of coming and going people around her, brushing past, offering brief conversations, a handshake, or sometimes just an awkward pause; but she noticed every face and didn’t seek any protection: she genuinely preferred to be, for as long as possible, just as she was—exposed to the public, it’s true, in her solo state, but indifferent to odd judgments from the uninspired faces of London, and even more open to genuine recognition of her own self. She hoped no one would stop her—she was firmly focused; her goal was to highlight the significance of something that had just occurred. She knew exactly how to emphasize it, and what she was doing there was already a start.
When presently, therefore, from her standpoint, she saw the Prince come back she had an impression of all the place as higher and wider and more appointed for great moments; with its dome of lustres lifted, its ascents and descents more majestic, its marble tiers more vividly overhung, its numerosity of royalties, foreign and domestic, more unprecedented, its symbolism of “State” hospitality both emphasised and refined. This was doubtless a large consequence of a fairly familiar cause, a considerable inward stir to spring from the mere vision, striking as that might be, of Amerigo in a crowd; but she had her reasons, she held them there, she carried them in fact, responsibly and overtly, as she carried her head, her high tiara, her folded fan, her indifferent, unattended eminence; and it was when he reached her and she could, taking his arm, show herself as placed in her relation, that she felt supremely justified. It was her notion of course that she gave a glimpse of but few of her grounds for this discrimination—indeed of the most evident alone; yet she would have been half willing it should be guessed how she drew inspiration, drew support, in quantity sufficient for almost anything, from the individual value that, through all the picture, her husband’s son-in-law kept for the eye, deriving it from his fine unconscious way, in the swarming social sum, of outshining, overlooking and overtopping. It was as if in separation, even the shortest, she half forgot or disbelieved how he affected her sight, so that reappearance had, in him, each time, a virtue of its own—a kind of disproportionate intensity suggesting his connection with occult sources of renewal. What did he do when he was away from her that made him always come back only looking, as she would have called it, “more so?” Superior to any shade of cabotinage, he yet almost resembled an actor who, between his moments on the stage, revisits his dressing-room and, before the glass, pressed by his need of effect, retouches his make-up. The Prince was at present, for instance, though he had quitted her but ten minutes before, still more than then the person it pleased her to be left with—a truth that had all its force for her while he made her his care for their conspicuous return together to the upper rooms. Conspicuous beyond any wish they could entertain was what, poor wonderful man, he couldn’t help making it; and when she raised her eyes again, on the ascent, to Bob Assingham, still aloft in his gallery and still looking down at her, she was aware that, in spite of hovering and warning inward voices, she even enjoyed the testimony rendered by his lonely vigil to the lustre she reflected.
When she saw the Prince come back, her perspective made the whole place seem higher, wider, and more grandly set for important moments; the dome of lights was lifted, the levels more impressive, the marble steps more vividly adorned, the number of royals, both foreign and domestic, more astonishing, and the symbolism of “State” hospitality was both emphasized and refined. This was likely a significant effect of something she was quite familiar with, a substantial inner thrill sparked just by seeing Amerigo in a crowd; but she had her reasons, and she held onto them, carrying them just like she carried her head, her tiara, her folded fan, and her aloof, untouchable status. It was when he reached her and she took his arm, showing her place in relation to him, that she felt completely justified. She thought that she revealed only a few of her reasons for this distinction—only the most obvious ones; yet she would have been somewhat pleased if people guessed how much inspiration and support she drew from the individual value that her husband’s son-in-law brought to the scene, effortlessly shining, overshadowing, and elevating himself amid the crowded social environment. It was as if, even during the shortest separation, she half forgot or doubted how he affected her view, so that every time he reappeared, it felt like he had a unique quality—a sort of exaggerated intensity suggesting a connection to hidden sources of renewal. What did he do when he was away from her that made him always come back looking, as she would have said, "even more so?" Above any hint of showiness, he almost resembled an actor who, between performances, returns to the dressing room and, looking in the mirror, touches up his makeup, driven by his need for effect. The Prince, for instance, even though he had left her only ten minutes ago, was even more the person she liked being around—a truth that held all its meaning for her while he guided her for their prominent return to the upper rooms. It was unmistakably evident beyond anything they could wish for; poor wonderful man, he couldn’t help but create that effect. And when she looked up again, climbing the stairs, at Bob Assingham, still high up in his gallery and still gazing down at her, she realized that, despite the inner voices warning her, she actually enjoyed the acknowledgment of her shine reflected by his solitary watch.
He was always lonely at great parties, the dear Colonel—it wasn’t in such places that the seed he sowed at home was ever reaped by him; but nobody could have seemed to mind it less, to brave it with more bronzed indifference; so markedly that he moved about less like one of the guests than like some quite presentable person in charge of the police arrangements or the electric light. To Mrs. Verver, as will be seen, he represented, with the perfect good faith of his apparent blankness, something definite enough; though her bravery was not thereby too blighted for her to feel herself calling him to witness that the only witchcraft her companion had used, within the few minutes, was that of attending Maggie, who had withdrawn from the scene, to her carriage. Notified, at all events, of Fanny’s probable presence, Charlotte was, for a while after this, divided between the sense of it as a fact somehow to reckon with and deal with, which was a perception that made, in its degree, for the prudence, the pusillanimity of postponement, of avoidance—and a quite other feeling, an impatience that presently ended by prevailing, an eagerness, really, to BE suspected, sounded, veritably arraigned, if only that she might have the bad moment over, if only that she might prove to herself, let alone to Mrs. Assingham also, that she could convert it to good; if only, in short, to be “square,” as they said, with her question. For herself indeed, particularly, it wasn’t a question; but something in her bones told her that Fanny would treat it as one, and there was truly nothing that, from this friend, she was not bound in decency to take. She might hand things back with every tender precaution, with acknowledgments and assurances, but she owed it to them, in any case, and it to all Mrs. Assingham had done for her, not to get rid of them without having well unwrapped and turned them over.
He always felt lonely at big parties, the dear Colonel—it wasn’t at those events that he ever reaped the rewards of the seeds he planted at home; but no one seemed to care less, handling it all with a sort of relaxed indifference. So much so that he moved around more like someone managing the police arrangements or the lighting rather than one of the guests. To Mrs. Verver, as will be shown, he represented something quite definite, despite his apparent blankness. Yet her courage wasn’t so diminished that she couldn’t summon him as a witness to the fact that the only charm her companion had used in those few minutes was simply escorting Maggie, who had taken her leave, to her carriage. After being notified about Fanny’s likely presence, Charlotte found herself torn between acknowledging it as a reality to confront and address, which led to a somewhat cautious and timid mindset of postponement and avoidance, and a different feeling—a rising impatience that ultimately won out, an eagerness, really, to be suspected, to be genuinely challenged, if only to get through the uncomfortable moment, if only to prove to herself, and Mrs. Assingham, that she could turn it into something good; if only, in short, to be “square,” as they said, with her question. For her, it wasn’t a question at all; but something deep down told her that Fanny would see it as one, and honestly, there was nothing from that friend that she wasn’t obligated to receive with decency. She could return things with the utmost care, with thanks and reassurances, but she owed it to them, given all Mrs. Assingham had done for her, not to discard them without thoroughly examining and reflecting on them first.
To-night, as happened—and she recognised it more and more, with the ebbing minutes, as an influence of everything about her—to-night exactly, she would, no doubt, since she knew why, be as firm as she might at any near moment again hope to be for going through that process with the right temper and tone. She said, after a little, to the Prince, “Stay with me; let no one take you; for I want her, yes, I do want her to see us together, and the sooner the better”—said it to keep her hand on him through constant diversions, and made him, in fact, by saying it, profess a momentary vagueness. She had to explain to him that it was Fanny Assingham, she wanted to see—who clearly would be there, since the Colonel never either stirred without her or, once arrived, concerned himself for her fate; and she had, further, after Amerigo had met her with “See us together? why in the world? hasn’t she often seen us together?” to inform him that what had elsewhere and otherwise happened didn’t now matter and that she at any rate well knew, for the occasion, what she was about. “You’re strange, cara mia,” he consentingly enough dropped; but, for whatever strangeness, he kept her, as they circulated, from being waylaid, even remarking to her afresh as he had often done before, on the help rendered, in such situations, by the intrinsic oddity of the London “squash,” a thing of vague, slow, senseless eddies, revolving as in fear of some menace of conversation suspended over it, the drop of which, with some consequent refreshing splash or spatter, yet never took place. Of course she was strange; this, as they went, Charlotte knew for herself: how could she be anything else when the situation holding her, and holding him, for that matter, just as much, had so the stamp of it? She had already accepted her consciousness, as we have already noted, that a crisis, for them all, was in the air; and when such hours were not depressing, which was the form indeed in which she had mainly known them, they were apparently in a high degree exhilarating.
Tonight, as it happened—and she recognized it more and more, with each passing minute, as an influence of everything around her—tonight, she would, no doubt, since she knew why, be as determined as she might hope to be in going through that process with the right attitude and tone. After a moment, she said to the Prince, “Stay with me; don’t let anyone take you away; I want her, yes, I really want her to see us together, and the sooner, the better”—she said this to keep her hand on him through constant distractions and made him, in fact, by saying it, show a momentary confusion. She had to explain to him that it was Fanny Assingham she wanted to see—who would clearly be there, since the Colonel never moved without her and, once arrived, never concerned himself with her well-being; and she had to inform Amerigo, after he had met her with “See us together? Why on earth? hasn’t she often seen us together?” that what had happened elsewhere didn't matter now and that she knew very well, for this occasion, what she was doing. “You’re strange, cara mia,” he conceded, but for whatever strangeness, he kept her from being sidetracked as they moved around, even remarking to her again, as he had often done before, about the help offered in such situations by the inherent oddity of the London “squash,” a thing of vague, slow, senseless eddies, swirling as if fearful of some threat of conversation looming over it, the fall of which, with some refreshing splash or spatter, never actually happened. Of course she was strange; as they walked, Charlotte recognized this about herself: how could she be anything else when the situation holding her, and holding him just as much, bore that mark? She had already accepted her awareness, as we’ve noted, that a crisis was in the air for them all; and when such moments weren’t depressing, which was how she had mainly experienced them, they were apparently highly exhilarating.
Later on, in a corner to which, at sight of an empty sofa, Mrs. Assingham had, after a single attentive arrest, led her with a certain earnestness, this vision of the critical was much more sharpened than blurred. Fanny had taken it from her: yes, she was there with Amerigo alone, Maggie having come with them and then, within ten minutes, changed her mind, repented and departed. “So you’re staying on together without her?” the elder woman had asked; and it was Charlotte’s answer to this that had determined for them, quite indeed according to the latter’s expectation, the need of some seclusion and her companion’s pounce at the sofa. They were staying on together alone, and—oh distinctly!—it was alone that Maggie had driven away, her father, as usual, not having managed to come. “‘As usual’—?” Mrs. Assingham had seemed to wonder; Mr. Verver’s reluctances not having, she in fact quite intimated, hitherto struck her. Charlotte responded, at any rate, that his indisposition to go out had lately much increased—even though to-night, as she admitted, he had pleaded his not feeling well. Maggie had wished to stay with him—for the Prince and she, dining out, had afterwards called in Portland Place, whence, in the event, they had brought her, Charlotte, on. Maggie had come but to oblige her father—she had urged the two others to go without her; then she had yielded, for the time, to Mr. Verver’s persuasion. But here, when they had, after the long wait in the carriage, fairly got in; here, once up the stairs, with the rooms before them, remorse had ended by seizing her: she had listened to no other remonstrance, and at present therefore, as Charlotte put it, the two were doubtless making together a little party at home. But it was all right—so Charlotte also put it: there was nothing in the world they liked better than these snatched felicities, little parties, long talks, with “I’ll come to you to-morrow,” and “No, I’ll come to you,” make-believe renewals of their old life. They were fairly, at times, the dear things, like children playing at paying visits, playing at “Mr. Thompson” and “Mrs. Fane,” each hoping that the other would really stay to tea. Charlotte was sure she should find Maggie there on getting home—a remark in which Mrs. Verver’s immediate response to her friend’s inquiry had culminated. She had thus, on the spot, the sense of having given her plenty to think about, and that moreover of liking to see it even better than she had expected. She had plenty to think about herself, and there was already something in Fanny that made it seem still more.
Later, in a corner with an empty sofa, Mrs. Assingham had led her there with a certain seriousness after a moment of careful consideration. The situation was clearer rather than confusing. Fanny had taken it in: yes, she was there alone with Amerigo, while Maggie had come with them but changed her mind, regretted it, and left within ten minutes. “So you’re staying together without her?” the older woman had asked, and Charlotte’s answer determined what they felt they needed—a bit of privacy—and her companion's quick move to the sofa. They were alone together, and—oh clearly!—Maggie had left, as usual, with her father unable to come. “‘As usual’—?” Mrs. Assingham had seemed surprised; she hinted that Mr. Verver’s hesitations hadn’t previously struck her. Charlotte replied that his reluctance to go out had actually increased lately—even though tonight, as she admitted, he had said he wasn’t feeling well. Maggie wanted to stay with him; the Prince and she had gone out for dinner and later stopped by Portland Place, from where they had brought Charlotte along. Maggie only came to please her father—she had encouraged the two to go without her; then she had eventually given in to Mr. Verver’s coaxing. But now, after the long wait in the carriage, once they had finally arrived and ascended the stairs, guilt had taken over: she listened to no other objections, and so now, as Charlotte said, those two were probably having a little gathering at home. But that was fine—Charlotte said too: nothing in the world suited them better than these stolen moments of joy, little get-togethers, long discussions, with “I’ll come to you tomorrow,” and “No, I’ll come to you,” pretending to renew their old life. They were quite sweetly, at times, like children playing at visiting, pretending to be “Mr. Thompson” and “Mrs. Fane,” each hoping the other would really stay for tea. Charlotte was sure she’d find Maggie there when she got home—a remark that captured Mrs. Verver’s immediate response to her friend’s question. She felt, right then, she had given her a lot to think about, and she even liked it better than she had expected. She had plenty on her mind herself, and something about Fanny made it all seem even more significant.
“You say your husband’s ill? He felt too ill to come?”
“You say your husband is sick? He was too unwell to come?”
“No, my dear—I think not. If he had been too ill I wouldn’t have left him.”
“No, my dear—I don’t think so. If he had been too sick, I wouldn’t have left him.”
“And yet Maggie was worried?” Mrs. Assingham asked.
“And yet Maggie was worried?” Mrs. Assingham asked.
“She worries, you know, easily. She’s afraid of influenza—of which he has had, at different times, though never with the least gravity, several attacks.”
“She gets worried easily, you know. She’s afraid of the flu—he’s had it a few times at different points, but never seriously.”
“But you’re not afraid of it?”
“But you’re not scared of it?”
Charlotte had for a moment a pause; it had continued to come to her that really to have her case “out,” as they said, with the person in the world to whom her most intimate difficulties had oftenest referred themselves, would help her, on the whole, more than hinder; and under that feeling all her opportunity, with nothing kept back; with a thing or two perhaps even thrust forward, seemed temptingly to open. Besides, didn’t Fanny at bottom half expect, absolutely at the bottom half WANT, things?—so that she would be disappointed if, after what must just have occurred for her, she didn’t get something to put between the teeth of her so restless rumination, that cultivation of the fear, of which our young woman had already had glimpses, that she might have “gone too far” in her irrepressible interest in other lives. What had just happened—it pieced itself together for Charlotte—was that the Assingham pair, drifting like everyone else, had had somewhere in the gallery, in the rooms, an accidental concussion; had it after the Colonel, over his balustrade, had observed, in the favouring high light, her public junction with the Prince. His very dryness, in this encounter, had, as always, struck a spark from his wife’s curiosity, and, familiar, on his side, with all that she saw in things, he had thrown her, as a fine little bone to pick, some report of the way one of her young friends was “going on” with another. He knew perfectly—such at least was Charlotte’s liberal assumption—that she wasn’t going on with anyone, but she also knew that, given the circumstances, she was inevitably to be sacrificed, in some form or another, to the humorous intercourse of the inimitable couple. The Prince meanwhile had also, under coercion, sacrificed her; the Ambassador had come up to him with a message from Royalty, to whom he was led away; after which she had talked for five minutes with Sir John Brinder, who had been of the Ambassador’s company and who had rather artlessly remained with her. Fanny had then arrived in sight of them at the same moment as someone else she didn’t know, someone who knew Mrs. Assingham and also knew Sir John. Charlotte had left it to her friend’s competence to throw the two others immediately together and to find a way for entertaining her in closer quarters. This was the little history of the vision, in her, that was now rapidly helping her to recognise a precious chance, the chance that mightn’t again soon be so good for the vivid making of a point. Her point was before her; it was sharp, bright, true; above all it was her own. She had reached it quite by herself; no one, not even Amerigo—Amerigo least of all, who would have nothing to do with it—had given her aid. To make it now with force for Fanny Assingham’s benefit would see her further, in the direction in which the light had dawned, than any other spring she should, yet awhile, doubtless, be able to press. The direction was that of her greater freedom—which was all in the world she had in mind. Her opportunity had accordingly, after a few minutes of Mrs. Assingham’s almost imprudently interested expression of face, positively acquired such a price for her that she may, for ourselves, while the intensity lasted, rather resemble a person holding out a small mirror at arm’s length and consulting it with a special turn of the head. It was, in a word, with this value of her chance that she was intelligently playing when she said in answer to Fanny’s last question: “Don’t you remember what you told me, on the occasion of something or other, the other day? That you believe there’s nothing I’m afraid of? So, my dear, don’t ask me!”
Charlotte paused for a moment; she had come to realize that sharing her situation, as they called it, with the one person she often confided her deepest struggles to, would ultimately help her more than it would hurt. With that thought in mind, every opportunity seemed to open up before her, unreservedly; she might even be tempted to push a detail or two forward. Besides, didn’t Fanny, at heart, expect things?—in fact, wasn’t she kind of hoping for them? So she would probably be let down if after what had just happened, she didn’t have something to chew on for her restless thoughts, that nagging fear Charlotte had already sensed, that she might have “gone too far” in her uncontrollable interest in others’ lives. What had just taken place—it all fell into place for Charlotte—was that the Assingham couple, like everyone else, had experienced an accidental encounter somewhere in the gallery or the rooms; it had happened right after the Colonel, from his vantage point, had noticed her public interaction with the Prince in the flattering light. His typical dryness in this exchange had sparked his wife’s curiosity as always, and, being fully aware of everything she noticed, he had tossed her, as a tasty morsel to ponder, some gossip about how one of her young friends was “getting on” with someone else. He knew perfectly—at least that was Charlotte’s generous assumption—that she wasn’t getting involved with anyone, but she also understood that, given the circumstances, she was bound to be sacrificed, in some way, for the playful banter of the unique couple. Meanwhile, the Prince had also, under pressure, sacrificed her; the Ambassador had approached him with a message from Royalty, taking him away; after that, she had chatted for five minutes with Sir John Brinder, who had been part of the Ambassador’s group and had somewhat naively stayed with her. Just then, Fanny appeared alongside someone else she didn’t recognize, someone who knew Mrs. Assingham and also recognized Sir John. Charlotte left it to her friend’s skill to quickly introduce the two others and find a way to entertain her in closer quarters. This was the backstory of the moment that was now quickly helping her to realize a golden opportunity, one that might not come around so soon again for making a significant point. Her point was right in front of her; it was sharp, bright, and true; above all, it was her own. She had reached it entirely on her own; no one, not even Amerigo—least of all Amerigo, who wanted nothing to do with it—had assisted her. To now present it forcefully for Fanny Assingham’s benefit would take her further in the direction where the light had begun to shine than any other chance she would likely, for a while, be able to pursue. The direction was toward her greater freedom—which was all she had in mind. After just a few minutes of Mrs. Assingham’s almost imprudently interested expression, her opportunity had thus gained such value that she might, for our sake, while the moment lasted, resemble someone holding a small mirror at arm’s length, checking her reflection with a special tilt of the head. In short, it was with this newfound value of her opportunity that she was skillfully engaging when she responded to Fanny’s last question: “Don’t you remember what you told me the other day about something? That you believe there’s nothing I’m afraid of? So, dear, don’t ask me!”
“Mayn’t I ask you,” Mrs. Assingham returned, “how the case stands with your poor husband?”
“May I ask you,” Mrs. Assingham replied, “how things are with your poor husband?”
“Certainly, dear. Only, when you ask me as if I mightn’t perhaps know what to think, it seems to me best to let you see that I know perfectly what to think.”
“Of course, dear. But when you ask me as though I might not know what to think, it feels right to show you that I absolutely know what to think.”
Mrs. Assingham hesitated; then, blinking a little, she took her risk. “You didn’t think that if it was a question of anyone’s returning to him, in his trouble, it would be better you yourself should have gone?”
Mrs. Assingham hesitated; then, blinking a little, she took her risk. “You didn’t think that if it was a question of someone returning to him in his trouble, it would have been better for you to go yourself?”
Well, Charlotte’s answer to this inquiry visibly shaped itself in the interest of the highest considerations. The highest considerations were good humour, candour, clearness and, obviously, the REAL truth. “If we couldn’t be perfectly frank and dear with each other, it would be ever so much better, wouldn’t it? that we shouldn’t talk about anything at all; which, however, would be dreadful—and we certainly, at any rate, haven’t yet come to it. You can ask me anything under the sun you like, because, don’t you see? you can’t upset me.”
Well, Charlotte’s response to this question clearly focused on the most important factors. Those factors were good humor, honesty, clarity, and obviously, the REAL truth. “If we can’t be completely open and honest with each other, it would honestly be better if we didn’t talk about anything at all; which, however, would be terrible—and we definitely haven’t reached that point yet. You can ask me anything you want, because, don’t you see? you can’t upset me.”
“I’m sure, my dear Charlotte,” Fanny Assingham laughed, “I don’t want to upset you.”
“I’m sure, my dear Charlotte,” Fanny Assingham laughed, “I don’t want to upset you.”
“Indeed, love, you simply COULDN’T even if you thought it necessary—that’s all I mean. Nobody could, for it belongs to my situation that I’m, by no merit of my own, just fixed—fixed as fast as a pin stuck, up to its head, in a cushion. I’m placed—I can’t imagine anyone MORE placed. There I AM!”
“Honestly, love, you just couldn’t even if you thought you had to—that’s all I mean. No one could, because it’s part of my situation that I’m, without any effort on my part, completely stuck—stuck like a pin pushed all the way into a cushion. I’m set in my place—I can’t imagine anyone being MORE set in their place. There I AM!”
Fanny had indeed never listened to emphasis more firmly applied, and it brought into her own eyes, though she had reasons for striving to keep them from betrayals, a sort of anxiety of intelligence. “I dare say—but your statement of your position, however you see it, isn’t an answer to my inquiry. It seems to me, at the same time, I confess,” Mrs. Assingham added, “to give but the more reason for it. You speak of our being ‘frank.’ How can we possibly be anything else? If Maggie has gone off through finding herself too distressed to stay, and if she’s willing to leave you and her husband to show here without her, aren’t the grounds of her preoccupation more or less discussable?”
Fanny had truly never heard emphasis used so strongly, and it brought a kind of anxious understanding into her eyes, even though she tried to hide it. “I can see your point—but your explanation of your situation, no matter how you view it, doesn’t really answer my question. In fact, I admit,” Mrs. Assingham added, “it gives even more reason for it. You talk about us being ‘frank.’ How could we be anything else? If Maggie has left because she felt too upset to stay, and if she’s okay with leaving you and her husband here without her, doesn’t that mean the reasons for her distress are somewhat open for discussion?”
“If they’re not,” Charlotte replied, “it’s only from their being, in a way, too evident. They’re not grounds for me—they weren’t when I accepted Adam’s preference that I should come to-night without him: just as I accept, absolutely, as a fixed rule, ALL his preferences. But that doesn’t alter the fact, of course, that my husband’s daughter, rather than his wife, should have felt SHE could, after all, be the one to stay with him, the one to make the sacrifice of this hour—seeing, especially, that the daughter has a husband of her own in the field.” With which she produced, as it were, her explanation. “I’ve simply to see the truth of the matter—see that Maggie thinks more, on the whole, of fathers than of husbands. And my situation is such,” she went on, “that this becomes immediately, don’t you understand? a thing I have to count with.”
“If they’re not,” Charlotte replied, “it’s only because they’re, in a way, too obvious. They don’t apply to me—they didn’t when I accepted Adam’s wish for me to come tonight without him: just as I completely accept, as a fixed rule, ALL his wishes. But that doesn’t change the fact, of course, that my husband’s daughter, rather than his wife, should have felt SHE could, after all, be the one to stay with him, the one to sacrifice this hour—especially considering that the daughter has her own husband away. With that, she provided her explanation. “I just have to recognize the truth of the matter—know that Maggie, overall, thinks more of fathers than of husbands. And my situation is such,” she continued, “that this immediately, don’t you see? becomes something I have to reckon with.”
Mrs. Assingham, vaguely heaving, panting a little but trying not to show it, turned about, from some inward spring, in her seat. “If you mean such a thing as that she doesn’t adore the Prince—!”
Mrs. Assingham, breathing a bit heavily but trying not to show it, turned around in her seat. “If you mean to say that she doesn’t adore the Prince—!”
“I don’t say she doesn’t adore him. What I say is that she doesn’t think of him. One of those conditions doesn’t always, at all stages, involve the other. This is just HOW she adores him,” Charlotte said. “And what reason is there, in the world, after all, why he and I shouldn’t, as you say, show together? We’ve shown together, my dear,” she smiled, “before.”
“I’m not saying she doesn’t love him. What I’m saying is that she doesn’t think about him. Just because one of those feelings exists doesn’t mean the other one does at every moment. This is just HOW she loves him,” Charlotte said. “And what reason is there, really, for him and me not to, as you put it, appear together? We’ve appeared together, my dear,” she smiled, “before.”
Her friend, for a little, only looked at her—speaking then with abruptness. “You ought to be absolutely happy. You live with such GOOD people.”
Her friend paused for a moment, just looking at her before speaking suddenly. “You should be totally happy. You live with such great people.”
The effect of it, as well, was an arrest for Charlotte; whose face, however, all of whose fine and slightly hard radiance, it had caused, the next instant, further to brighten. “Does one ever put into words anything so fatuously rash? It’s a thing that must be said, in prudence, FOR one—by somebody who’s so good as to take the responsibility: the more that it gives one always a chance to show one’s best manners by not contradicting it. Certainly, you’ll never have the distress, or whatever, of hearing me complain.”
The effect of it brought Charlotte to a halt; her face, with all its fine but slightly sharp glow, brightened even more in the next moment. “Can you really put something so incredibly foolish into words? It’s something that should be said, wisely, by someone who’s generous enough to take the blame: the more so because it always gives one the opportunity to show good manners by not arguing against it. For sure, you’ll never have to deal with the annoyance or whatever of hearing me complain.”
“Truly, my dear, I hope in all conscience not!” and the elder woman’s spirit found relief in a laugh more resonant than was quite advised by their pursuit of privacy.
“Honestly, my dear, I really hope not!” and the older woman found some comfort in a laugh that was louder than what was appropriate for their attempt at privacy.
To this demonstration her friend gave no heed. “With all our absence after marriage, and with the separation from her produced in particular by our so many months in America, Maggie has still arrears, still losses to make up—still the need of showing how, for so long, she simply kept missing him. She missed his company—a large allowance of which is, in spite of everything else, of the first necessity to her. So she puts it in when she can—a little here, a little there, and it ends by making up a considerable amount. The fact of our distinct establishments—which has, all the same, everything in its favour,” Charlotte hastened to declare, “makes her really see more of him than when they had the same house. To make sure she doesn’t fail of it she’s always arranging for it—which she didn’t have to do while they lived together. But she likes to arrange,” Charlotte steadily proceeded; “it peculiarly suits her; and the result of our separate households is really, for them, more contact and more intimacy. To-night, for instance, has been practically an arrangement. She likes him best alone. And it’s the way,” said our young woman, “in which he best likes HER. It’s what I mean therefore by being ‘placed.’ And the great thing is, as they say, to ‘know’ one’s place. Doesn’t it all strike you,” she wound up, “as rather placing the Prince too?”
Her friend paid no attention to this. “Even with all the time apart after getting married, and the distance created by our months in America, Maggie still has some catching up to do—she has to show how much she’s really missed him. She misses his company, which she needs a lot of despite everything else. So she tries to fit him in when she can—here a little, there a little, and it adds up to a significant amount. The fact that we live separately—which, by the way, has its advantages,” Charlotte quickly added, “actually makes her see more of him than when they shared a home. To ensure she doesn't miss out, she's always making plans—which she didn't have to do when they lived together. But she enjoys organizing things,” Charlotte continued calmly; “it truly suits her. And the result of our separate lives is actually more time and intimacy for them. Tonight, for example, was practically planned. She prefers to be with him one-on-one. And that’s how he prefers being with HER. That’s what I mean by being ‘placed.’ And the important thing is, as they say, to ‘know’ your place. Doesn’t it all seem to elevate the Prince a bit too?”
Fanny Assingham had at this moment the sense as of a large heaped dish presented to her intelligence and inviting it to a feast—so thick were the notes of intention in this remarkable speech. But she also felt that to plunge at random, to help herself too freely, would—apart from there not being at such a moment time for it—tend to jostle the ministering hand, confound the array and, more vulgarly speaking, make a mess. So she picked out, after consideration, a solitary plum. “So placed that YOU have to arrange?”
Fanny Assingham felt like a big, overflowing dish was being offered to her mind, inviting her to indulge in a feast—so clear were the intentions in this remarkable speech. But she also realized that diving in without thought or taking too much would—besides the fact that there wasn't enough time for that—likely disrupt the process, confuse the layout, and, frankly, create chaos. So she carefully chose a single plum. “So placed that YOU have to arrange?”
“Certainly I have to arrange.”
“Of course, I need to plan.”
“And the Prince also—if the effect for him is the same?”
“And what about the Prince—does he feel the same way?”
“Really, I think, not less.”
“Honestly, I think, not less.”
“And does he arrange,” Mrs. Assingham asked, “to make up HIS arrears?” The question had risen to her lips—it was as if another morsel, on the dish, had tempted her. The sound of it struck her own ear, immediately, as giving out more of her thought than she had as yet intended; but she quickly saw that she must follow it up, at any risk, with simplicity, and that what was simplest was the ease of boldness. “Make them up, I mean, by coming to see YOU?”
“And is he planning,” Mrs. Assingham asked, “to catch up on HIS payments?” The question had popped into her mind—it felt like another tempting bite on her plate. The sound of it hit her ear right away, revealing more of her thoughts than she meant to share; but she quickly realized she had to pursue it, no matter the consequences, with straightforwardness, and that the simplest approach was to be bold. “Catch up, I mean, by coming to see YOU?”
Charlotte replied, however, without, as her friend would have phrased it, turning a hair. She shook her head, but it was beautifully gentle. “He never comes.”
Charlotte replied, however, without, as her friend would have said, showing any reaction. She shook her head, but it was very gentle. “He never comes.”
“Oh!” said Fanny Assingham: with which she felt a little stupid. “There it is. He might so well, you know, otherwise.”
“Oh!” said Fanny Assingham, feeling a bit foolish. “There it is. He could easily, you know, otherwise.”
“‘Otherwise’?”—and Fanny was still vague.
“‘Otherwise’?”—and Fanny was still unclear.
It passed, this time, over her companion, whose eyes, wandering, to a distance, found themselves held. The Prince was at hand again; the Ambassador was still at his side; they were stopped a moment by a uniformed personage, a little old man, of apparently the highest military character, bristling with medals and orders. This gave Charlotte time to go on. “He has not been for three months.” And then as with her friend’s last word in her ear: “‘Otherwise’—yes. He arranges otherwise. And in my position,” she added, “I might too. It’s too absurd we shouldn’t meet.”
It passed, this time, over her companion, whose eyes, wandering off to a distance, found something to focus on. The Prince was nearby again; the Ambassador was still by his side; they were briefly stopped by a uniformed figure, an old man who seemed to have the highest military rank, adorned with medals and honors. This gave Charlotte a moment to continue. “He hasn’t been around for three months.” And then, with her friend’s last word lingering in her ear: “‘Otherwise’—yes. He’s making other arrangements. And in my situation,” she added, “I could too. It’s ridiculous that we shouldn’t meet.”
“You’ve met, I gather,” said Fanny Assingham, “to-night.”
“You’ve met, I assume,” said Fanny Assingham, “tonight.”
“Yes—as far as that goes. But what I mean is that I might—placed for it as we both are—go to see HIM.”
"Yeah—as far as that goes. But what I really mean is that I might—since we're both in the same position—go see HIM."
“And do you?” Fanny asked with almost mistaken solemnity.
“And do you?” Fanny asked with what seemed like mistaken seriousness.
The perception of this excess made Charlotte, whether for gravity or for irony, hang fire a minute. “I HAVE been. But that’s nothing,” she said, “in itself, and I tell you of it only to show you how our situation works. It essentially becomes one, a situation, for both of us. The Prince’s, however, is his own affair—I meant but to speak of mine.”
The way people see this excess made Charlotte pause for a moment, whether seriously or sarcastically. “I HAVE been. But that doesn’t mean much,” she said, “by itself, and I’m only telling you this to show you how our situation is connected. It basically becomes a situation for both of us. The Prince’s, though, is his own issue—I only meant to talk about mine.”
“Your situation’s perfect,” Mrs. Assingham presently declared.
“Your situation is perfect,” Mrs. Assingham said.
“I don’t say it isn’t. Taken, in fact, all round, I think it is. And I don’t, as I tell you, complain of it. The only thing is that I have to act as it demands of me.”
“I’m not saying it isn’t. Honestly, I think it is. And I don’t, as I mentioned, complain about it. The only thing is that I have to do what it requires of me.”
“To ‘act’?” said Mrs. Assingham with an irrepressible quaver.
“To ‘act’?” said Mrs. Assingham with an uncontrollable quiver.
“Isn’t it acting, my dear, to accept it? I do accept it. What do you want me to do less?”
“Isn’t it acting, my dear, to accept it? I do accept it. What do you want me to do less?”
“I want you to believe that you’re a very fortunate person.”
“I want you to believe that you’re really lucky.”
“Do you call that LESS?” Charlotte asked with a smile. “From the point of view of my freedom I call it more. Let it take, my position, any name you like.”
“Do you consider that LESS?” Charlotte asked with a smile. “From my perspective on freedom, I see it as more. Call my position whatever you want.”
“Don’t let it, at any rate”—and Mrs. Assingham’s impatience prevailed at last over her presence of mind—“don’t let it make you think too much of your freedom.”
“Don’t let it, anyway”—and Mrs. Assingham’s impatience finally overcame her composure—“don’t let it make you think too highly of your freedom.”
“I don’t know what you call too much—for how can I not see it as it is? You’d see your own quickly enough if the Colonel gave you the same liberty—and I haven’t to tell you, with your so much greater knowledge of everything, what it is that gives such liberty most. For yourself personally of course,” Charlotte went on, “you only know the state of neither needing it nor missing it. Your husband doesn’t treat you as of less importance to him than some other woman.”
“I don’t know what you consider too much—how can I not see it for what it is? You’d realize your own situation quickly enough if the Colonel allowed you the same freedom—and I don’t need to explain to you, with your much greater understanding of everything, what gives that kind of freedom most. For you personally, of course,” Charlotte continued, “you only know what it’s like to neither need it nor miss it. Your husband doesn’t treat you as less important than any other woman.”
“Ah, don’t talk to me of other women!” Fanny now overtly panted. “Do you call Mr. Verver’s perfectly natural interest in his daughter—?”
“Ah, don’t talk to me about other women!” Fanny now openly panted. “Do you call Mr. Verver’s perfectly natural interest in his daughter—?”
“The greatest affection of which he is capable?” Charlotte took it up in all readiness. “I do distinctly—and in spite of my having done all I could think of—to make him capable of a greater. I’ve done, earnestly, everything I could—I’ve made it, month after month, my study. But I haven’t succeeded—it has been vividly brought home to me to-night. However,” she pursued, “I’ve hoped against hope, for I recognise that, as I told you at the time, I was duly warned.” And then as she met in her friend’s face the absence of any such remembrance: “He did tell me that he wanted me just BECAUSE I could be useful about her.” With which Charlotte broke into a wonderful smile. “So you see I AM!”
“The greatest love he’s capable of?” Charlotte eagerly responded. “I definitely—and despite trying everything I could think of—to make him capable of a deeper love. I’ve worked hard, month after month, on this. But I haven’t succeeded—it hit me hard tonight. Still,” she continued, “I’ve held on to hope, because I know that, as I told you before, I was properly warned.” And then, noticing her friend's confusion, she added, “He did tell me that he wanted me just BECAUSE I could help with her.” With that, Charlotte broke into a radiant smile. “So you see I AM!”
It was on Fanny Assingham’s lips for the moment to reply that this was, on the contrary, exactly what she didn’t see; she came in fact within an ace of saying: “You strike me as having quite failed to help his idea to work—since, by your account, Maggie has him not less, but so much more, on her mind. How in the world, with so much of a remedy, comes there to remain so much of what was to be obviated?” But she saved herself in time, conscious above all that she was in presence of still deeper things than she had yet dared to fear, that there was “more in it” than any admission she had made represented—and she had held herself familiar with admissions: so that, not to seem to understand where she couldn’t accept, and not to seem to accept where she couldn’t approve, and could still less, with precipitation, advise, she invoked the mere appearance of casting no weight whatever into the scales of her young friend’s consistency. The only thing was that, as she was quickly enough to feel, she invoked it rather to excess. It brought her, her invocation, too abruptly to her feet. She brushed away everything. “I can’t conceive, my dear, what you’re talking about!”
It almost came out of Fanny Assingham's mouth to say that, on the contrary, this was exactly what she didn’t see; she nearly responded, “It seems to me you’ve completely failed to support his idea—since, according to you, Maggie is thinking about him even more than before. How can there still be so much left to address when there's supposed to be a solution?” But she caught herself just in time, realizing that there were deeper issues at play than she had dared to confront, that there was “more to it” than any acknowledgment she had made suggested—and she had thought she was comfortable with those acknowledgments. So, to avoid seeming to understand where she couldn’t agree, and not to appear to agree where she couldn’t approve, and even less to rush into offering advice, she made it look like she wasn't adding any pressure on her young friend’s situation. The only issue was that, as she quickly realized, she was leaning a bit too heavily on that appearance. It brought her very abruptly to her feet. She dismissed everything. “I just can’t understand what you’re talking about!”
Charlotte promptly rose then, as might be, to meet it, and her colour, for the first time, perceptibly heightened. She looked, for the minute, as her companion had looked—as if twenty protests, blocking each other’s way, had surged up within her. But when Charlotte had to make a selection, her selection was always the most effective possible. It was happy now, above all, for being made not in anger but in sorrow. “You give me up then?”
Charlotte quickly stood up to face it, and for the first time, her cheeks noticeably flushed. For that moment, she looked just like her companion had—like there were a dozen conflicting protests battling inside her. But when it was time for Charlotte to choose, she always made the most effective choice. It was especially meaningful now because it came not from anger but from sorrow. “So, you're giving up on me then?”
“Give you up—?”
"Give you up?"
“You forsake me at the hour of my life when it seems to me I most deserve a friend’s loyalty? If you do you’re not just, Fanny; you’re even, I think,” she went on, “rather cruel; and it’s least of all worthy of you to seem to wish to quarrel with me in order to cover your desertion.” She spoke, at the same time, with the noblest moderation of tone, and the image of high, pale, lighted disappointment she meanwhile presented, as of a creature patient and lonely in her splendour, was an impression so firmly imposed that she could fill her measure to the brim and yet enjoy the last word, as it is called in such cases, with a perfection void of any vulgarity of triumph. She merely completed, for truth’s sake, her demonstration. “What is a quarrel with me but a quarrel with my right to recognise the conditions of my bargain? But I can carry them out alone,” she said as she turned away. She turned to meet the Ambassador and the Prince, who, their colloquy with their Field-Marshal ended, were now at hand and had already, between them, she was aware, addressed her a remark that failed to penetrate the golden glow in which her intelligence was temporarily bathed. She had made her point, the point she had foreseen she must make; she had made it thoroughly and once for all, so that no more making was required; and her success was reflected in the faces of the two men of distinction before her, unmistakably moved to admiration by her exceptional radiance. She at first but watched this reflection, taking no note of any less adequate form of it possibly presented by poor Fanny—poor Fanny left to stare at her incurred “score,” chalked up in so few strokes on the wall; then she took in what the Ambassador was saying, in French, what he was apparently repeating to her.
“You abandon me at a time in my life when I most deserve a friend’s loyalty? If you do, that’s unjust, Fanny; I think it's even a bit cruel. It’s certainly not like you to want to argue with me just to cover up your betrayal.” She spoke with the utmost calmness, and the image she projected—a high, pale figure illuminated by disappointment, patient and lonely in her elegance—left a strong impression. She could express her feelings completely and still enjoy having the last word, free from any hint of triumph. She simply finished her point for the sake of honesty. “What is a quarrel with me but a dispute over my right to acknowledge the terms of my agreement? But I can handle them on my own,” she said as she turned away. She then faced the Ambassador and the Prince, who had just wrapped up their conversation with the Field-Marshal and were now approaching her. She sensed they’d already made a comment directed at her, which didn’t quite reach her, as she was lost in the warmth of her thoughts. She had made her point, exactly as she knew she needed to; she had done it thoroughly and definitively, leaving no room for further discussion. Her success was evident on the faces of the two distinguished men in front of her, clearly impressed by her exceptional presence. At first, she simply observed this reflection, not acknowledging the lesser response possibly shown by poor Fanny—poor Fanny left to contemplate her “score,” marked in barely more than a few strokes on the wall; then she began to listen to what the Ambassador was saying in French, what he seemed to be repeating to her.
“A desire for your presence, Madame, has been expressed en tres-haut lieu, and I’ve let myself in for the responsibility, to say nothing of the honour, of seeing, as the most respectful of your friends, that so august an impatience is not kept waiting.” The greatest possible Personage had, in short, according to the odd formula of societies subject to the greatest personages possible, “sent for” her, and she asked, in her surprise, “What in the world does he want to do to me?” only to know, without looking, that Fanny’s bewilderment was called to a still larger application, and to hear the Prince say with authority, indeed with a certain prompt dryness: “You must go immediately—it’s a summons.” The Ambassador, using authority as well, had already somehow possessed himself of her hand, which he drew into his arm, and she was further conscious as she went off with him that, though still speaking for her benefit, Amerigo had turned to Fanny Assingham. He would explain afterwards—besides which she would understand for herself. To Fanny, however, he had laughed—as a mark, apparently, that for this infallible friend no explanation at all would be necessary.
“A desire for your presence, Madame, has been expressed at a very high level, and I’ve taken on the responsibility, not to mention the honor, of ensuring that such an important request isn’t kept waiting.” In short, the most significant person had “sent for” her, and she wondered, in her surprise, “What in the world does he want with me?” only to realize, without looking, that Fanny’s confusion was related to an even bigger matter, and to hear the Prince say with authority, indeed with a certain dryness: “You must go immediately—it’s a summons.” The Ambassador, wielding his authority as well, had already taken her hand and led her on his arm, and she was aware as she left with him that, although he was still talking for her benefit, Amerigo had turned to Fanny Assingham. He would explain later—besides, she would understand on her own. To Fanny, however, he had laughed—as a signal, apparently, that for this trusted friend, no explanation whatsoever was needed.
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It may be recorded none the less that the Prince was the next moment to see how little any such assumption was founded. Alone with him now Mrs. Assingham was incorruptible. “They send for Charlotte through YOU?”
It’s worth noting that the Prince would soon realize how unfounded that assumption was. Now alone with him, Mrs. Assingham remained unwavering. “They’re sending for Charlotte through YOU?”
“No, my dear; as you see, through the Ambassador.”
“No, my dear; as you can see, through the Ambassador.”
“Ah, but the Ambassador and you, for the last quarter-of-an-hour, have been for them as one. He’s YOUR ambassador.” It may indeed be further mentioned that the more Fanny looked at it the more she saw in it. “They’ve connected her with you—she’s treated as your appendage.”
“Ah, but the Ambassador and you, for the last fifteen minutes, have been like one person to them. He’s YOUR ambassador.” It can also be noted that the more Fanny considered it, the more she realized its implications. “They’ve linked her to you—she’s seen as your accessory.”
“Oh, my ‘appendage,’” the Prince amusedly exclaimed—“cara mia, what a name! She’s treated, rather, say, as my ornament and my glory. And it’s so remarkable a case for a mother-in-law that you surely can’t find fault with it.”
“Oh, my ‘appendage,’” the Prince said with a laugh—“my dear, what a name! She’s treated more like my decoration and my pride. And it’s such an unusual situation for a mother-in-law that you surely can't complain about it.”
“You’ve ornaments enough, it seems to me—as you’ve certainly glories enough—without her. And she’s not the least little bit,” Mrs. Assingham observed, “your mother-in-law. In such a matter a shade of difference is enormous. She’s no relation to you whatever, and if she’s known in high quarters but as going about with you, then—then—!” She failed, however, as from positive intensity of vision. “Then, then what?” he asked with perfect good-nature.
“You have plenty of ornaments, it seems to me—just as you have plenty of glories—without her. And she’s not your mother-in-law at all,” Mrs. Assingham pointed out. “In this case, even a slight difference matters a lot. She’s not related to you in any way, and if she’s known in high places just for being with you, then—then—!” She hesitated, seemingly lost in thought. “Then, then what?” he asked, maintaining a perfectly good-natured tone.
“She had better in such a case not be known at all.”
“She’d be better off not being known at all in that situation.”
“But I assure you I never, just now, so much as mentioned her. Do you suppose I asked them,” said the young man, still amused, “if they didn’t want to see her? You surely don’t need to be shown that Charlotte speaks for herself—that she does so above all on such an occasion as this and looking as she does to-night. How, so looking, can she pass unnoticed? How can she not have ‘success’? Besides,” he added as she but watched his face, letting him say what he would, as if she wanted to see how he would say it, “besides, there IS always the fact that we’re of the same connection, of—what is your word?—the same ‘concern.’ We’re certainly not, with the relation of our respective sposi, simply formal acquaintances. We’re in the same boat”—and the Prince smiled with a candour that added an accent to his emphasis.
"But I assure you, I never even mentioned her just now. Do you really think I asked them if they wanted to see her?" said the young man, still amused. "You don’t need me to point out that Charlotte can speak for herself—she definitely does, especially on an occasion like this, looking the way she does tonight. How could she possibly go unnoticed? How could she not be a success? Besides," he added as she merely watched his face, letting him say whatever he wanted, as if she was curious about how he would phrase it, "besides, there’s always the fact that we’re from the same circle, what’s your word?—the same ‘concern.’ We’re definitely not just formal acquaintances because of our respective partners. We’re in the same boat”—and the Prince smiled with a straightforwardness that emphasized his point.
Fanny Assingham was full of the special sense of his manner: it caused her to turn for a moment’s refuge to a corner of her general consciousness in which she could say to herself that she was glad SHE wasn’t in love with such a man. As with Charlotte just before, she was embarrassed by the difference between what she took in and what she could say, what she felt and what she could show. “It only appears to me of great importance that—now that you all seem more settled here—Charlotte should be known, for any presentation, any further circulation or introduction, as, in particular, her husband’s wife; known in the least possible degree as anything else. I don’t know what you mean by the ‘same’ boat. Charlotte is naturally in Mr. Verver’s boat.”
Fanny Assingham was very aware of his attitude; it made her briefly seek comfort in a part of her mind where she could remind herself that she was glad SHE wasn't in love with a man like him. Like with Charlotte just before, she felt awkward about the gap between what she understood and what she could express, between what she felt and what she could display. “I really believe it’s very important that—now that you all seem more settled here—Charlotte should be recognized, for any introductions or future interactions, specifically as her husband’s wife; and understood as little else as possible. I’m not sure what you mean by the ‘same’ boat. Charlotte is naturally in Mr. Verver’s boat.”
“And, pray, am I not in Mr. Verver’s boat too? Why, but for Mr. Verver’s boat, I should have been by this time”—and his quick Italian gesture, an expressive direction and motion of his forefinger, pointed to deepest depths—“away down, down, down.” She knew of course what he meant—how it had taken his father-in-law’s great fortune, and taken no small slice, to surround him with an element in which, all too fatally weighted as he had originally been, he could pecuniarily float; and with this reminder other things came to her—how strange it was that, with all allowance for their merit, it should befall some people to be so inordinately valued, quoted, as they said in the stock-market, so high, and how still stranger, perhaps, that there should be cases in which, for some reason, one didn’t mind the so frequently marked absence in them of the purpose really to represent their price. She was thinking, feeling, at any rate, for herself; she was thinking that the pleasure SHE could take in this specimen of the class didn’t suffer from his consent to be merely made buoyant: partly because it was one of those pleasures (he inspired them) that, by their nature, COULDN’T suffer, to whatever proof they were put; and partly because, besides, he after all visibly had on his conscience some sort of return for services rendered. He was a huge expense assuredly—but it had been up to now her conviction that his idea was to behave beautifully enough to make the beauty well nigh an equivalent. And that he had carried out his idea, carried it out by continuing to lead the life, to breathe the air, very nearly to think the thoughts, that best suited his wife and her father— this she had till lately enjoyed the comfort of so distinctly perceiving as to have even been moved more than once, to express to him the happiness it gave her. He had that in his favour as against other matters; yet it discouraged her too, and rather oddly, that he should so keep moving, and be able to show her that he moved, on the firm ground of the truth. His acknowledgment of obligation was far from unimportant, but she could find in his grasp of the real itself a kind of ominous intimation. The intimation appeared to peep at her even out of his next word, lightly as he produced it.
“And, am I not in Mr. Verver’s boat too? Without Mr. Verver’s boat, I would have been by now”—and his quick Italian gesture, an expressive direction and motion of his forefinger, pointed to the deepest depths—“away down, down, down.” She knew exactly what he meant—how it had taken his father-in-law’s great fortune, and taken quite a bit, to surround him with an environment in which, heavily weighted as he had been initially, he could float financially; and with this reminder, other thoughts came to her—how strange it was that, despite their merits, some people ended up being so disproportionately valued, quoted, as they said in the stock market, so high, and how even stranger, perhaps, that there were cases in which, for some reason, one didn’t mind the noticeable absence of the intention to truly reflect their worth. She was thinking, feeling, at any rate, for herself; she was thinking that the pleasure she could take in this person didn’t suffer from his willingness to simply be buoyant: partly because it was one of those pleasures (he inspired them) that, by nature, couldn’t suffer, no matter the proof they were put to; and partly because, after all, he visibly had on his mind some sort of return for services rendered. He was certainly a huge expense—but until now, she had believed that his goal was to behave beautifully enough to make that beauty almost an equivalent. And that he had realized his goal, carried it out by continuing to lead the life, breathe the air, and think the thoughts that best suited his wife and her father—this she had recently found comfort in perceiving so clearly that she had even been moved more than once to express to him the happiness it brought her. He had that going for him against other matters; yet it discouraged her oddly, that he should keep moving, and be able to show her that he was moving, on the firm ground of reality. His acknowledgment of obligation was significant, but she sensed in his grasp of reality a kind of ominous suggestion. The suggestion seemed to peek at her even from his next word, lightly as he said it.
“Isn’t it rather as if we had, Charlotte and I, for bringing us together, a benefactor in common?” And the effect, for his interlocutress, was still further to be deepened. “I somehow feel, half the time, as if he were her father-in-law too. It’s as if he had saved us both—which is a fact in our lives, or at any rate in our hearts, to make of itself a link. Don’t you remember”—he kept it up—“how, the day she suddenly turned up for you, just before my wedding, we so frankly and funnily talked, in her presence, of the advisability, for her, of some good marriage?” And then as his friend’s face, in her extremity, quite again as with Charlotte, but continued to fly the black flag of general repudiation: “Well, we really began then, as it seems to me, the work of placing her where she is. We were wholly right—and so was she. That it was exactly the thing is shown by its success. We recommended a good marriage at almost any price, so to speak, and, taking us at our word, she has made the very best. That was really what we meant, wasn’t it? Only—what she has got—something thoroughly good. It would be difficult, it seems to me, for her to have anything better—once you allow her the way it’s to be taken. Of course if you don’t allow her that the case is different. Her offset is a certain decent freedom— which, I judge, she’ll be quite contented with. You may say that will be very good of her, but she strikes me as perfectly humble about it. She proposes neither to claim it nor to use it with any sort of retentissement. She would enjoy it, I think, quite as quietly as it might be given. The ‘boat,’ you see”—the Prince explained it no less considerately and lucidly—“is a good deal tied up at the dock, or anchored, if you like, out in the stream. I have to jump out from time to time to stretch my legs, and you’ll probably perceive, if you give it your attention, that Charlotte really can’t help occasionally doing the same. It isn’t even a question, sometimes, of one’s getting to the dock—one has to take a header and splash about in the water. Call our having remained here together to-night, call the accident of my having put them, put our illustrious friends there, on my companion’s track—for I grant you this as a practical result of our combination—call the whole thing one of the harmless little plunges off the deck, inevitable for each of us. Why not take them, when they occur, as inevitable—and, above all, as not endangering life or limb? We shan’t drown, we shan’t sink—at least I can answer for myself. Mrs. Verver too, moreover—do her the justice—visibly knows how to swim.”
“Isn’t it like we, Charlotte and I, have a shared benefactor bringing us together?” The impact of this idea deepened for his conversation partner. “Sometimes, it feels like he’s her father-in-law too. It’s as if he saved us both—which is true in our lives, or at least in our hearts, creating a bond between us. Don’t you remember”—he continued—“the day she suddenly showed up for you, right before my wedding, when we openly and jokingly talked, in her presence, about the benefits of a good marriage for her?” And then, as his friend’s expression, in her distress, mirrored Charlotte's, but still rejected the idea outright: “Well, it seems to me we really started the process of placing her where she is at that moment. We were absolutely right—and so was she. The fact that it worked out proves it. We suggested a good marriage at almost any cost, and she took us seriously, making the absolute best choice. That’s exactly what we meant, right? Only—what she has is truly exceptional. It would be hard for her to find anything better—once you consider the situation. Of course, if you don’t accept that, the situation changes. Her counterbalance is a certain decent freedom—which, I believe, she’ll be quite happy with. You might say it’s generous of her, but she seems perfectly humble about it. She doesn’t intend to assert it or use it to make a big deal. I think she’d enjoy it quietly, just as it’s given. The ‘boat,’ you see”—the Prince explained thoughtfully—“is pretty much tied up at the dock, or anchored, if you prefer, out in the stream. I have to jump out sometimes to stretch my legs, and you’ll probably notice, if you pay attention, that Charlotte really can’t help but do the same occasionally. Sometimes, it isn’t even about getting to the dock—one has to take a plunge and splash around in the water. Call our staying here together tonight, or the coincidence of my having introduced our distinguished friends to my companion—because I’ll admit this is a practical outcome of our pairing—call it one of those harmless little dives off the deck, inevitable for each of us. Why not treat them as inevitable—and, most importantly, as not putting anyone's life or safety at risk? We won’t drown, we won’t sink—at least I can assure you of that. Mrs. Verver too, to give her credit, clearly knows how to swim.”
He could easily go on, for she didn’t interrupt him; Fanny felt now that she wouldn’t have interrupted him for the world. She found his eloquence precious; there was not a drop of it that she didn’t, in a manner, catch, as it came, for immediate bottling, for future preservation. The crystal flask of her innermost attention really received it on the spot, and she had even already the vision of how, in the snug laboratory of her afterthought, she should be able chemically to analyse it. There were moments, positively, still beyond this, when, with the meeting of their eyes, something as yet unnamable came out for her in his look, when something strange and subtle and at variance with his words, something that GAVE THEM AWAY, glimmered deep down, as an appeal, almost an incredible one, to her finer comprehension. What, inconceivably, was it like? Wasn’t it, however gross, such a rendering of anything so occult, fairly like a quintessential wink, a hint of the possibility of their REALLY treating their subject—of course on some better occasion—and thereby, as well, finding it much more interesting? If this far red spark, which might have been figured by her mind as the head-light of an approaching train seen through the length of a tunnel, was not, on her side, an ignis fatuus, a mere subjective phenomenon, it twinkled there at the direct expense of what the Prince was inviting her to understand. Meanwhile too, however, and unmistakably, the real treatment of their subject did, at a given moment, sound. This was when he proceeded, with just the same perfect possession of his thought—on the manner of which he couldn’t have improved—to complete his successful simile by another, in fact by just the supreme touch, the touch for which it had till now been waiting. “For Mrs. Verver to be known to people so intensely and exclusively as her husband’s wife, something is wanted that, you know, they haven’t exactly got. He should manage to be known—or at least to be seen—a little more as his wife’s husband. You surely must by this time have seen for yourself that he has his own habits and his own ways, and that he makes, more and more—as of course he has a perfect right to do—his own discriminations. He’s so perfect, so ideal a father, and, doubtless largely by that very fact, a generous, a comfortable, an admirable father-in-law, that I should really feel it base to avail myself of any standpoint whatever to criticise him. To YOU, nevertheless, I may make just one remark; for you’re not stupid—you always understand so blessedly what one means.”
He could easily keep talking, since she didn’t interrupt him; Fanny now felt that she wouldn’t have interrupted him for anything. She cherished his eloquence; there wasn’t a single bit of it that she didn’t, in a way, capture as it flowed by, ready to be bottled for later. Her deepest focus truly received it on the spot, and she even imagined how, in her cozy space of reflection later on, she would be able to analyze it. There were moments, definitely beyond that, when their eyes met, and something still unnamed emerged for her in his gaze—something strange and subtle that clashed with his words, something that GAVE THEM AWAY, shimmered deep down as almost an incredible appeal to her deeper understanding. What, inconceivably, was it like? Wasn’t it, however obvious, a kind of rendering of something so mysterious, almost like a quintessential wink, hinting at the possibility of their REALLY discussing their topic—of course, on a better occasion—and thereby finding it much more interesting? If this distant red spark, which she could picture as the headlight of an approaching train seen through a tunnel, was not just a figment of her imagination, it twinkled there at the direct expense of what the Prince was inviting her to understand. Meanwhile, unmistakably, the real discussion of their topic did, at a certain moment, make itself known. This was when he continued, with the same perfect command of his thoughts—something he couldn’t have improved—to complete his successful metaphor with another, in fact, with just the crucial touch that it had been waiting for. “For Mrs. Verver to be known to people so intensely and exclusively as her husband’s wife, something is needed that, you know, they haven’t quite achieved. He should manage to be known—or at least seen—a bit more as his wife’s husband. You must have seen by now that he has his own habits and ways, and that he increasingly—of course he has every right to—makes his own distinctions. He’s such a perfect, ideal father, and, largely because of that, a generous, comfortable, admirable father-in-law, that I would genuinely feel it was wrong to criticize him from any perspective. To YOU, however, I can make just one comment; for you’re not foolish—you always understand so wonderfully what one means.”
He paused an instant, as if even this one remark might be difficult for him should she give no sign of encouraging him to produce it. Nothing would have induced her, however, to encourage him; she was now conscious of having never in her life stood so still or sat, inwardly, as it were, so tight; she felt like the horse of the adage, brought—and brought by her own fault—to the water, but strong, for the occasion, in the one fact that she couldn’t be forced to drink. Invited, in other words, to understand, she held her breath for fear of showing she did, and this for the excellent reason that she was at last fairly afraid to. It was sharp for her, at the same time, that she was certain, in advance, of his remark; that she heard it before it had sounded, that she already tasted, in fine, the bitterness it would have for her special sensibility. But her companion, from an inward and different need of his own, was presently not deterred by her silence. “What I really don’t see is why, from his own point of view—given, that is, his conditions, so fortunate as they stood—he should have wished to marry at all.” There it was then—exactly what she knew would come, and exactly, for reasons that seemed now to thump at her heart, as distressing to her. Yet she was resolved, meanwhile, not to suffer, as they used to say of the martyrs, then and there; not to suffer, odiously, helplessly, in public—which could be prevented but by her breaking off, with whatever inconsequence; by her treating their discussion as ended and getting away. She suddenly wanted to go home much as she had wanted, an hour or two before, to come. She wanted to leave well behind her both her question and the couple in whom it had, abruptly, taken such vivid form—but it was dreadful to have the appearance of disconcerted flight. Discussion had of itself, to her sense, become danger—such light, as from open crevices, it let in; and the overt recognition of danger was worse than anything else. The worst in fact came while she was thinking how she could retreat and still not overtly recognise. Her face had betrayed her trouble, and with that she was lost. “I’m afraid, however,” the Prince said, “that I, for some reason, distress you—for which I beg your pardon. We’ve always talked so well together—it has been, from the beginning, the greatest pull for me.” Nothing so much as such a tone could have quickened her collapse; she felt he had her now at his mercy, and he showed, as he went on, that he knew it. “We shall talk again, all the same, better than ever—I depend on it too much. Don’t you remember what I told you, so definitely, one day before my marriage?—that, moving as I did in so many ways among new things, mysteries, conditions, expectations, assumptions different from any I had known, I looked to you, as my original sponsor, my fairy godmother, to see me through. I beg you to believe,” he added, “that I look to you yet.”
He paused for a moment, as if even this one comment might be hard for him if she didn’t give any sign of encouraging him to say it. Nothing would have convinced her to encourage him, though; she realized she had never in her life been so still or sat, in a way, so tightly wound. She felt like the horse in the saying, brought—and brought by her own fault—to the water, yet strong in the one fact that she couldn't be forced to drink. Invited, in other words, to understand, she held her breath for fear of showing that she did, and this was for the very good reason that she was finally quite afraid to. It was painful for her, at the same time, that she was already certain of his remark; that she heard it in her mind before it was spoken, that she had already tasted the bitterness it would hold for her sensitive nature. But her companion, driven by a different internal need, was not deterred by her silence. “What I really don’t understand is why, from his own perspective—given how fortunate his situation is—he would want to marry at all.” There it was—exactly what she knew would come, and precisely, for reasons that now felt like they were pounding in her heart, as distressing to her. Yet she was determined, meanwhile, not to suffer, as they used to say of martyrs, then and there; not to suffer, painfully and helplessly, in public—which could only be avoided if she broke off the conversation, no matter how trivial; by treating their discussion as finished and getting away. She suddenly wanted to go home just as much as she had wanted to come an hour or two before. She wanted to leave behind both her question and the couple in whom it had suddenly taken such vivid form—but it felt terrible to look like she was fleeing in a disconcerted manner. The discussion, in her eyes, had become dangerous—like light seeping in from open cracks; and the open acknowledgment of danger was worse than anything else. The worst part actually came while she was thinking about how she could retreat without openly recognizing it. Her face had revealed her distress, and with that, she was lost. “I’m afraid, however,” the Prince said, “that, for some reason, I distress you—for which I apologize. We’ve always talked so well together—it’s been, from the start, the biggest draw for me.” Nothing could have made her feel more vulnerable than that tone; she sensed that he had her at his mercy now, and he showed, as he continued, that he was aware of it. “We will talk again, though, better than ever—I rely on it too much. Don’t you remember what I told you so clearly one day before my wedding?—that, moving as I did in so many ways among new things, mysteries, situations, expectations, and assumptions unlike any I had known, I looked to you, as my original sponsor, my fairy godmother, to see me through. I ask you to believe,” he added, “that I still look to you.”
His very insistence had, fortunately, the next moment, affected her as bringing her help; with which, at least, she could hold up her head to speak. “Ah, you ARE through—you were through long ago. Or if you aren’t you ought to be.”
His insistence, fortunately, affected her in the next moment by providing her with the support she needed; with this, she could at least lift her head to speak. “Ah, you ARE done—you were done a long time ago. Or if you aren’t, you should be.”
“Well then, if I ought to be it’s all the more reason why you should continue to help me. Because, very distinctly, I assure you, I’m not. The new things or ever so many of them—are still for me new things; the mysteries and expectations and assumptions still contain an immense element that I’ve failed to puzzle out. As we’ve happened, so luckily, to find ourselves again really taking hold together, you must let me, as soon as possible, come to see you; you must give me a good, kind hour. If you refuse it me”—and he addressed himself to her continued reserve—“I shall feel that you deny, with a stony stare, your responsibility.”
“Well then, if I’m supposed to be, it’s even more reason for you to keep helping me. Because, I assure you clearly, I’m not. The new things—so many of them—are still new to me; the mysteries, expectations, and assumptions still hold a lot that I haven’t been able to figure out. Since we’ve fortunately found ourselves really connecting again, you have to let me come see you as soon as possible; you need to give me a good, kind hour. If you refuse me”—and he addressed her ongoing distance—“I’ll feel like you’re coldly denying your responsibility.”
At this, as from a sudden shake, her reserve proved an inadequate vessel. She could bear her own, her private reference to the weight on her mind, but the touch of another hand made it too horribly press. “Oh, I deny responsibility—to YOU. So far as I ever had it I’ve done with it.”
At this, as if she had been jolted, her self-control became an insufficient barrier. She could handle her own, her personal thoughts about the burden on her mind, but the touch of someone else's hand made it feel unbearably heavy. “Oh, I refuse to take responsibility—toward YOU. As far as I ever had it, I’m done with it.”
He had been, all the while, beautifully smiling; but she made his look, now, penetrate her again more. “As to whom then do you confess it?”
He had been smiling beautifully the whole time; but now she made his gaze penetrate her even more. "So who are you confessing it to?"
“Ah, mio caro, that’s—if to anyone—my own business!”
“Ah, my dear, that’s—if it’s anyone’s business—my own!”
He continued to look at her hard. “You give me up then?”
He kept staring at her intently. “So, you’re just giving me up?”
It was what Charlotte had asked her ten minutes before, and its coming from him so much in the same way shook her in her place. She was on the point of replying “Do you and she agree together for what you’ll say to me?”—but she was glad afterwards to have checked herself in time, little as her actual answer had perhaps bettered it. “I think I don’t know what to make of you.”
It was what Charlotte had asked her ten minutes earlier, and hearing it from him in such a similar way shook her to her core. She was about to reply, “Do you and she talk about what you’ll say to me?”—but she was relieved later that she had held herself back, even if her actual answer might not have improved things much. “I think I don’t know what to make of you.”
“You must receive me at least,” he said.
“You have to accept me at least,” he said.
“Oh, please, not till I’m ready for you!”—and, though she found a laugh for it, she had to turn away. She had never turned away from him before, and it was quite positively for her as if she were altogether afraid of him.
“Oh, come on, not until I’m ready for you!”—and, even though she managed to laugh, she had to look away. She had never looked away from him before, and it honestly felt to her like she was completely scared of him.
XVI
XVI
Later on, when their hired brougham had, with the long vociferation that tormented her impatience, been extricated from the endless rank, she rolled into the London night, beside her husband, as into a sheltering darkness where she could muffle herself and draw breath. She had stood for the previous half-hour in a merciless glare, beaten upon, stared out of countenance, it fairly seemed to her, by intimations of her mistake. For what she was most immediately feeling was that she had, in the past, been active, for these people, to ends that were now bearing fruit and that might yet bear a larger crop. She but brooded, at first, in her corner of the carriage: it was like burying her exposed face, a face too helplessly exposed, in the cool lap of the common indifference, of the dispeopled streets, of the closed shops and darkened houses seen through the window of the brougham, a world mercifully unconscious and unreproachful. It wouldn’t, like the world she had just left, know sooner or later what she had done, or would know it, at least, only if the final consequence should be some quite overwhelming publicity. She fixed this possibility itself so hard, however, for a few moments, that the misery of her fear produced the next minute a reaction; and when the carriage happened, while it grazed a turn, to catch the straight shaft from the lamp of a policeman in the act of playing his inquisitive flash over an opposite house-front, she let herself wince at being thus incriminated only that she might protest, not less quickly, against mere blind terror. It had become, for the occasion, preposterously, terror—of which she must shake herself free before she could properly measure her ground. The perception of this necessity had in truth soon aided her; since she found, on trying, that, lurid as her prospect might hover there, she could none the less give it no name. The sense of seeing was strong in her, but she clutched at the comfort of not being sure of what she saw. Not to know what it would represent on a longer view was a help, in turn, to not making out that her hands were embrued; since if she had stood in the position of a producing cause she should surely be less vague about what she had produced. This, further, in its way, was a step toward reflecting that when one’s connection with any matter was too indirect to be traced it might be described also as too slight to be deplored. By the time they were nearing Cadogan Place she had in fact recognised that she couldn’t be as curious as she desired without arriving at some conviction of her being as innocent. But there had been a moment, in the dim desert of Eaton Square, when she broke into speech.
Later on, when their hired carriage finally made its way out of the long, loud line that had tested her patience, she rolled into the London night beside her husband, as if stepping into a comforting darkness where she could relax and breathe. For the past half-hour, she had stood in a harsh light, feeling as if she were being harshly scrutinized and tormented by reminders of her mistake. What weighed on her most was the realization that she had, in the past, been active for these people, working towards goals that were now coming to fruition and that might still yield even more. At first, she just sat quietly in her corner of the carriage; it felt like burying her exposed face—too vulnerably visible—in the coolness of the indifferent world around her: the deserted streets, the closed shops, and darkened houses she saw through the carriage window, a world blissfully unaware and free from judgment. This world wouldn’t, like the one she had just left, find out about her actions unless the end result turned out to be some overwhelming scandal. However, she concentrated so hard on that possibility for a moment that her fear turned into a kind of misery; when the carriage happened to catch the sharp light from a policeman’s lamp illuminating a house across the street, she flinched at the implication of guilt, but then quickly pushed back against the sheer panic. It felt absurdly like fear—something she had to shake off before she could truly assess her situation. Recognizing this necessity helped her, as she realized that, no matter how grim the future seemed, she could still refuse to label it. Her sense of perception was strong, but she clung to the relief of uncertainty regarding what she was witnessing. Not knowing what it might mean in the long run helped her ignore the idea that her hands were stained; if she was truly responsible for something, she would have to be more clear about what she had caused. This, in turn, led her to reflect that if her involvement in something was too indirect to trace, it might also be considered too minor to regret. By the time they approached Cadogan Place, she had come to understand that she couldn’t be as curious as she wished without concluding that she was innocent. But there was a moment in the dim emptiness of Eaton Square when she broke the silence.
“It’s only their defending themselves so much more than they need—it’s only THAT that makes me wonder. It’s their having so remarkably much to say for themselves.”
“It’s just that they’re defending themselves way more than they need to—that’s what makes me curious. They have so much to say for themselves.”
Her husband had, as usual, lighted his cigar, remaining apparently as busy with it as she with her agitation. “You mean it makes you feel that you have nothing?” To which, as she made no answer, the Colonel added: “What in the world did you ever suppose was going to happen? The man’s in a position in which he has nothing in life to do.”
Her husband had, as usual, lit his cigar, seeming just as preoccupied with it as she was with her anxiety. “You mean it makes you feel like you have nothing?” When she didn’t respond, the Colonel continued, “What did you think was going to happen? The guy is in a position where he has nothing to do in life.”
Her silence seemed to characterise this statement as superficial, and her thoughts, as always in her husband’s company, pursued an independent course. He made her, when they were together, talk, but as if for some other person; who was in fact for the most part herself. Yet she addressed herself with him as she could never have done without him. “He has behaved beautifully—he did from the first. I’ve thought it, all along, wonderful of him; and I’ve more than once, when I’ve had a chance, told him so. Therefore, therefore—!” But it died away as she mused.
Her silence made this statement seem shallow, and her thoughts, as always when she was with her husband, followed their own path. He got her to talk when they were together, but it felt like she was speaking for someone else; mostly, that someone was actually herself. Still, she found a way to express herself with him that she could never have done without him. “He has been amazing—he really has from the start. I’ve thought it was wonderful of him all along, and I’ve told him so whenever I could. So, so—!” But it trailed off as she reflected.
“Therefore he has a right, for a change, to kick up his heels?”
“Does that mean he has a right, for once, to let loose?”
“It isn’t a question, of course, however,” she undivertedly went on, “of their behaving beautifully apart. It’s a question of their doing as they should when together—which is another matter.”
“It isn’t a question, of course, however,” she continued without hesitation, “of them behaving beautifully separately. It’s a question of them acting as they should when they’re together—which is a different issue.”
“And how do you think then,” the Colonel asked with interest, “that, when together, they SHOULD do? The less they do, one would say, the better—if you see so much in it.”
“And how do you think,” the Colonel asked with interest, “that, when they’re together, they SHOULD act? One might say the less they do, the better—if you see so much in it.”
His wife, at this, appeared to hear him. “I don’t see in it what YOU’D see. And don’t, my dear,” she further answered, “think it necessary to be horrid or low about them. They’re the last people, really, to make anything of that sort come in right.”
His wife, at this, seemed to understand him. “I don’t see what YOU’D see in it. And don’t, my dear,” she added, “feel like you need to be awful or petty about them. They’re really the last people to bring anything like that into play.”
“I’m surely never horrid or low,” he returned, “about anyone but my extravagant wife. I can do with all our friends—as I see them myself: what I can’t do with is the figures you make of them. And when you take to adding your figures up—!” But he exhaled it again in smoke.
“I’m definitely not awful or petty,” he replied, “about anyone except my flashy wife. I can handle all our friends—how I see them myself: what I struggle with is the way you calculate them. And when you start adding your calculations—!” But he let it out again in smoke.
“My additions don’t matter when you’ve not to pay the bill.” With which her meditation again bore her through the air. “The great thing was that when it so suddenly came up for her he wasn’t afraid. If he had been afraid he could perfectly have prevented it. And if I had seen he was—if I hadn’t seen he wasn’t—so,” said Mrs. Assingham, “could I. So,” she declared, “WOULD I. It’s perfectly true,” she went on—“it was too good a thing for her, such a chance in life, not to be accepted. And I LIKED his not keeping her out of it merely from a fear of his own nature. It was so wonderful it should come to her. The only thing would have been if Charlotte herself couldn’t have faced it. Then, if SHE had not had confidence, we might have talked. But she had it to any amount.”
“My contributions don’t matter when you don’t have to pay the bill.” With this, her thoughts once again lifted her through the air. “The important thing was that when it suddenly came up for her, he wasn’t afraid. If he had been afraid, he could have easily prevented it. And if I had seen that he was—if I hadn’t seen that he wasn’t—then,” said Mrs. Assingham, “I could have. So,” she declared, “I WOULD. It’s absolutely true,” she continued—“it was too great an opportunity for her, such a chance in life, to not be taken. And I LIKED that he didn’t keep her from it just because of his own fears. It was so amazing that it came to her. The only issue would have been if Charlotte herself couldn’t have handled it. Then, if SHE hadn’t had confidence, we might have had a conversation. But she had it in abundance.”
“Did you ask her how much?” Bob Assingham patiently inquired.
“Did you ask her how much?” Bob Assingham asked patiently.
He had put the question with no more than his usual modest hope of reward, but he had pressed, this time, the sharpest spring of response. “Never, never—it wasn’t a time to ‘ask.’ Asking is suggesting—and it wasn’t a time to suggest. One had to make up one’s mind, as quietly as possible, by what one could judge. And I judge, as I say, that Charlotte felt she could face it. For which she struck me at the time as—for so proud a creature—almost touchingly grateful. The thing I should never forgive her for would be her forgetting to whom it is her thanks have remained most due.”
He had asked the question with his usual modest hope for an answer, but this time he had pulled the strongest trigger for a response. “Never, never—it wasn’t the right time to ‘ask.’ Asking is suggesting—and it wasn’t the right time to suggest. One had to decide, as quietly as possible, based on what one could observe. And I believe, as I said, that Charlotte felt she could handle it. For which she struck me at the time as—considering how proud she was—almost touchingly grateful. The one thing I could never forgive her for would be forgetting to whom her thanks are truly owed.”
“That is to Mrs. Assingham?”
"Is that for Mrs. Assingham?"
She said nothing for a little—there were, after all, alternatives. “Maggie herself of course—astonishing little Maggie.”
She was silent for a moment—there were, after all, other options. “Maggie herself, of course—amazing little Maggie.”
“Is Maggie then astonishing too?”—and he gloomed out of his window.
“Is Maggie also amazing?”—and he brooded out of his window.
His wife, on her side now, as they rolled, projected the same look. “I’m not sure that I don’t begin to see more in her than—dear little person as I’ve always thought—I ever supposed there was. I’m not sure that, putting a good many things together, I’m not beginning to make her out rather extraordinary.”
His wife, for her part, as they turned, wore the same expression. “I’m not sure that I don’t start to see more in her than—sweet little person that I’ve always thought—than I ever believed there was. I’m not sure that, putting a lot of things together, I’m not starting to think of her as quite extraordinary.”
“You certainly will if you can,” the Colonel resignedly remarked.
“You definitely will if you can,” the Colonel said with a sense of resignation.
Again his companion said nothing; then again she broke out. “In fact—I do begin to feel it—Maggie’s the great comfort. I’m getting hold of it. It will be SHE who’ll see us through. In fact she’ll have to. And she’ll be able.”
Again his companion said nothing; then she spoke up again. “Actually—I’m starting to feel it—Maggie’s our biggest comfort. I’m getting the hang of it. It will be HER who’ll get us through. In fact, she’ll have to. And she’ll be able to.”
Touch by touch her meditation had completed it, but with a cumulative effect for her husband’s general sense of her method that caused him to overflow, whimsically enough, in his corner, into an ejaculation now frequent on his lips for the relief that, especially in communion like the present, it gave him, and that Fanny had critically traced to the quaint example, the aboriginal homeliness, still so delightful, of Mr. Verver. “Oh, Lordy, Lordy!”
Touch by touch, her meditation was complete, but it had a cumulative effect on her husband’s overall sense of her approach that caused him, rather whimsically, to frequently exclaim in his corner about the relief it brought him, especially in moments of togetherness like this. Fanny had thoughtfully linked this relief to the charming simplicity, still so enjoyable, of Mr. Verver. “Oh, Lordy, Lordy!”
“If she is, however,” Mrs. Assingham continued, “she’ll be extraordinary enough—and that’s what I’m thinking of. But I’m not indeed so very sure,” she added, “of the person to whom Charlotte ought in decency to be most grateful. I mean I’m not sure if that person is even almost the incredible little idealist who has made her his wife.”
“If she is, though,” Mrs. Assingham continued, “she’ll be quite extraordinary—and that’s what I’m thinking about. But I’m really not so sure,” she added, “about the person Charlotte should be most grateful to. I mean, I’m not sure if that person is even close to the unbelievably idealistic little guy who has made her his wife.”
“I shouldn’t think you would be, love,” the Colonel with some promptness responded. “Charlotte as the wife of an incredible little idealist—!” His cigar, in short, once more, could alone express it.
“I wouldn’t think you would be, my dear,” the Colonel quickly replied. “Charlotte as the wife of an incredible little idealist—!” His cigar, once again, could only express it.
“Yet what is that, when one thinks, but just what she struck one as more or less persuaded that she herself was really going to be?”—this memory, for the full view, Fanny found herself also invoking.
“Yet what is that, when you think about it, but exactly what she seemed more or less convinced she was actually going to become?”—this memory, for the complete picture, Fanny found herself also recalling.
It made her companion, in truth, slightly gape. “An incredible little idealist—Charlotte herself?”
It genuinely left her friend a bit shocked. “An amazing little idealist—Charlotte herself?”
“And she was sincere,” his wife simply proceeded “she was unmistakably sincere. The question is only how much is left of it.”
“And she was sincere,” his wife continued, “she was definitely sincere. The only question is how much of it remains.”
“And that—I see—happens to be another of the questions you can’t ask her. You have to do it all,” said Bob Assingham, “as if you were playing some game with its rules drawn up—though who’s to come down on you if you break them I don’t quite see. Or must you do it in three guesses—like forfeits on Christmas eve?” To which, as his ribaldry but dropped from her, he further added: “How much of anything will have to be left for you to be able to go on with it?”
“And that—I see—happens to be another question you can’t ask her. You have to figure it all out,” said Bob Assingham, “as if you were playing some game with rules established—though I don’t quite get who would penalize you if you break them. Or do you have to do it in three guesses—like playing games on Christmas Eve?” To which, as his joking tone faded from her, he added: “How much of anything will need to be left for you to keep going with this?”
“I shall go on,” Fanny Assingham a trifle grimly declared, “while there’s a scrap as big as your nail. But we’re not yet, luckily, reduced only to that.” She had another pause, holding the while the thread of that larger perception into which her view of Mrs. Verver’s obligation to Maggie had suddenly expanded. “Even if her debt was not to the others—even then it ought to be quite sufficiently to the Prince himself to keep her straight. For what, really, did the Prince do,” she asked herself, “but generously trust her? What did he do but take it from her that if she felt herself willing it was because she felt herself strong? That creates for her, upon my word,” Mrs. Assingham pursued, “a duty of considering him, of honourably repaying his trust, which—well, which she’ll be really a fiend if she doesn’t make the law of her conduct. I mean of course his trust that she wouldn’t interfere with him—expressed by his holding himself quiet at the critical time.”
“I’ll keep going,” Fanny Assingham said somewhat grimly, “as long as there’s even the tiniest bit left. But luckily, we’re not down to just that yet.” She paused again, holding on to the broader perspective that had suddenly expanded her view of Mrs. Verver’s responsibility to Maggie. “Even if her obligation wasn’t to anyone else—even then, it should be more than enough to the Prince himself to keep her on track. Because really, what did the Prince do,” she asked herself, “but trust her generously? What did he do but take it from her that if she felt willing, it was because she felt strong? That creates for her, honestly,” Mrs. Assingham continued, “a duty to consider him, to honorably repay his trust, which—well, she’d truly be a fiend if she didn’t make that her guiding principle. I mean, of course, his trust that she wouldn’t interfere with him—shown by his staying calm at the crucial moment.”
The brougham was nearing home, and it was perhaps this sense of ebbing opportunity that caused the Colonel’s next meditation to flower in a fashion almost surprising to his wife. They were united, for the most part, but by his exhausted patience; so that indulgent despair was generally, at the best, his note. He at present, however, actually compromised with his despair to the extent of practically admitting that he had followed her steps. He literally asked, in short, an intelligent, well nigh a sympathising, question. “Gratitude to the Prince for not having put a spoke in her wheel—that, you mean, should, taking it in the right way, be precisely the ballast of her boat?”
The brougham was getting close to home, and it was probably this feeling of lost opportunity that led to the Colonel’s next thought taking shape in a way that almost surprised his wife. They were mostly together, but it was often just his worn-out patience that held them there; so that a resigned despair was usually his only mood. However, at this moment, he actually compromised with his despair enough to practically admit that he had been following her. He straightforwardly asked, in fact, an intelligent, almost sympathetic, question. “Gratitude to the Prince for not getting in her way—that’s what you mean, right? It should, if viewed positively, be exactly what keeps her afloat?”
“Taking it in the right way.” Fanny, catching at this gleam, emphasised the proviso.
“Taking it the right way.” Fanny, seizing on this hint, highlighted the condition.
“But doesn’t it rather depend on what she may most feel to BE the right way?”
“But doesn’t it really depend on what she thinks is the right way?”
“No—it depends on nothing. Because there’s only one way—for duty or delicacy.”
“No—it doesn’t depend on anything. Because there’s only one way—for duty or for sensitivity.”
“Oh—delicacy!” Bob Assingham rather crudely murmured.
“Oh—delicacy!” Bob Assingham said in a rather rude way.
“I mean the highest kind—moral. Charlotte’s perfectly capable of appreciating that. By every dictate of moral delicacy she must let him alone.”
“I mean the highest kind—moral. Charlotte’s completely capable of appreciating that. By every standard of moral decency, she has to leave him alone.”
“Then you’ve made up your mind it’s all poor Charlotte?” he asked with an effect of abruptness.
“Then you've decided it's all about poor Charlotte?” he asked suddenly.
The effect, whether intended or not, reached her—brought her face short round. It was a touch at which she again lost her balance, at which, somehow, the bottom dropped out of her recovered comfort. “Then you’ve made up yours differently? It really struck you that there IS something?”
The effect, whether intended or not, reached her—made her face round and short. It was a moment when she once again lost her balance, at which, somehow, her newfound comfort completely fell apart. “So, you've made up your mind in a different way? It really hit you that there IS something?”
The movement itself, apparently, made him once more stand off. He had felt on his nearer approach the high temperature of the question. “Perhaps that’s just what she’s doing: showing him how much she’s letting him alone—pointing it out to him from day to day.”
The movement itself seemed to make him pull back again. He had sensed the intensity of the issue as he got closer. “Maybe that’s exactly what she’s doing: demonstrating how much she’s giving him space—highlighting it for him each day.”
“Did she point it out by waiting for him to-night on the stair-case in the manner you described to me?”
“Did she show it by waiting for him tonight on the stairs like you described to me?”
“I really, my dear, described to you a manner?” the Colonel, clearly, from want of habit, scarce recognised himself in the imputation.
“I really, my dear, did I describe a manner to you?” the Colonel said, clearly not used to it, barely recognizing himself in that accusation.
“Yes—for once in a way; in those few words we had after you had watched them come up you told me something of what you had seen. You didn’t tell me very much—THAT you couldn’t for your life; but I saw for myself that, strange to say, you had received your impression, and I felt therefore that there must indeed have been something out of the way for you so to betray it.” She was fully upon him now, and she confronted him with his proved sensibility to the occasion—confronted him because of her own uneasy need to profit by it. It came over her still more than at the time, it came over her that he had been struck with something, even HE, poor dear man; and that for this to have occurred there must have been much to be struck with. She tried in fact to corner him, to pack him insistently down, in the truth of his plain vision, the very plainness of which was its value; for so recorded, she felt, none of it would escape—she should have it at hand for reference. “Come, my dear—you thought what you thought: in the presence of what you saw you couldn’t resist thinking. I don’t ask more of it than that. And your idea is worth, this time, quite as much as any of mine—so that you can’t pretend, as usual, that mine has run away with me. I haven’t caught up with you. I stay where I am. But I see,” she concluded, “where you are, and I’m much obliged to you for letting me. You give me a point de repere outside myself—which is where I like it. Now I can work round you.”
"Yes—for once, in those few words after you watched them come up, you shared a bit of what you saw. You didn’t say much—there was no way you could; but I could tell that, oddly enough, you had made an impression, and that meant there must have been something unusual for you to show it. She was fully engaged with him now, confronting him with his evident sensitivity to the moment—she did this because of her own anxious need to take advantage of it. It struck her even more than before that he had been affected by something, even HE, the poor dear; and for that to happen, there must have been a lot to be affected by. She tried to pin him down, to insistently focus on the truth of his straightforward observation, the very straightforwardness of which was its value; because, as she felt, recorded like that, nothing would slip away—she would have it handy for reference. “Come on, my dear—you thought what you thought: in the face of what you saw, you couldn’t help but think. I don’t expect more than that from you. And your opinion is just as valuable this time as any of mine—so you can’t pretend, as usual, that mine has taken over. I haven’t caught up with you. I’m staying where I am. But I see,” she concluded, “where you are, and I appreciate you letting me. You give me a point of reference outside myself—which is where I prefer it. Now I can work around you.”
Their conveyance, as she spoke, stopped at their door, and it was, on the spot, another fact of value for her that her husband, though seated on the side by which they must alight, made no movement. They were in a high degree votaries of the latch-key, so that their household had gone to bed; and as they were unaccompanied by a footman the coachman waited in peace. It was so indeed that for a minute Bob Assingham waited—conscious of a reason for replying to this address otherwise than by the so obvious method of turning his back. He didn’t turn his face, but he stared straight before him, and his wife had already perceived in the fact of his not moving all the proof she could desire— proof, that is, of her own contention. She knew he never cared what she said, and his neglect of his chance to show it was thereby the more eloquent. “Leave it,” he at last remarked, “to THEM.”
Their ride, as she spoke, pulled up to their door, and it struck her right away that her husband, even though he was sitting on the side they needed to get out, didn’t budge. They were big fans of using the latch-key, so their household had gone to bed; and since they didn’t have a footman with them, the driver waited quietly. In fact, Bob Assingham held off for a minute—aware that he had a reason to respond to her in a way that was more than just the obvious move of turning away. He didn’t turn his face, but stared straight ahead, and his wife had already picked up on the fact that his lack of movement was all the proof she needed—proof, that is, of her own point. She knew he never cared about what she said, and his choice to ignore the chance to show it was even more telling. “Leave it,” he finally said, “to THEM.”
“‘Leave’ it—?” She wondered.
“‘Leave’ it—?" she wondered.
“Let them alone. They’ll manage.”
"Leave them be. They'll handle it."
“They’ll manage, you mean, to do everything they want? Ah, there then you are!”
“They’ll figure it out, you mean, to do everything they want? Ah, there you go!”
“They’ll manage in their own way,” the Colonel almost cryptically repeated.
“They’ll handle it in their own way,” the Colonel said almost cryptically.
It had its effect for her: quite apart from its light on the familiar phenomenon of her husband’s indurated conscience, it gave her, full in her face, the particular evocation of which she had made him guilty. It was wonderful truly, then, the evocation. “So cleverly—THAT’S your idea?—that no one will be the wiser? It’s your idea that we shall have done all that’s required of us if we simply protect them?”
It affected her significantly: aside from shedding light on her husband’s hardened conscience, it confronted her directly with the specific wrongdoing she had made him guilty of. The evocation was truly remarkable. “So cleverly—THAT’S your idea?—that no one will catch on? Your idea is that we’ve done everything we’re supposed to do if we just keep them safe?”
The Colonel, still in his place, declined, however, to be drawn into a statement of his idea. Statements were too much like theories, in which one lost one’s way; he only knew what he said, and what he said represented the limited vibration of which his confirmed old toughness had been capable. Still, none the less, he had his point to make—for which he took another instant. But he made it, for the third time, in the same fashion. “They’ll manage in their own way.” With which he got out.
The Colonel, still in his spot, refused to elaborate on his thoughts. He believed that statements were too close to theories, which could lead you astray; he only knew what he communicated, and that reflected the limited perspective that his hardened experience allowed. Nevertheless, he still had a point to make—so he took another moment. But he expressed it, for the third time, in the same way. “They’ll handle it in their own way.” With that, he left.
Oh yes, at this, for his companion, it had indeed its effect, and while he mounted their steps she but stared, without following him, at his opening of their door. Their hall was lighted, and as he stood in the aperture looking back at her, his tall lean figure outlined in darkness and with his crush-hat, according to his wont, worn cavalierly, rather diabolically, askew, he seemed to prolong the sinister emphasis of his meaning. In general, on these returns, he came back for her when he had prepared their entrance; so that it was now as if he were ashamed to face her in closer quarters. He looked at her across the interval, and, still in her seat, weighing his charge, she felt her whole view of everything flare up. Wasn’t it simply what had been written in the Prince’s own face BENEATH what he was saying?—didn’t it correspond with the mocking presence there that she had had her troubled glimpse of? Wasn’t, in fine, the pledge that they would “manage in their own way” the thing he had been feeling for his chance to invite her to take from him? Her husband’s tone somehow fitted Amerigo’s look—the one that had, for her, so strangely, peeped, from behind, over the shoulder of the one in front. She had not then read it—but wasn’t she reading it when she now saw in it his surmise that she was perhaps to be squared? She wasn’t to be squared, and while she heard her companion call across to her “Well, what’s the matter?” she also took time to remind herself that she had decided she couldn’t be frightened. The “matter”?—why, it was sufficiently the matter, with all this, that she felt a little sick. For it was not the Prince that she had been prepared to regard as primarily the shaky one. Shakiness in Charlotte she had, at the most, perhaps postulated—it would be, she somehow felt, more easy to deal with. Therefore if HE had come so far it was a different pair of sleeves. There was nothing to choose between them. It made her so helpless that, as the time passed without her alighting, the Colonel came back and fairly drew her forth; after which, on the pavement, under the street-lamp, their very silence might have been the mark of something grave—their silence eked out for her by his giving her his arm and their then crawling up their steps quite mildly and unitedly together, like some old Darby and Joan who have had a disappointment. It almost resembled a return from a funeral—unless indeed it resembled more the hushed approach to a house of mourning. What indeed had she come home for but to bury, as decently as possible, her mistake?
Oh yes, this definitely affected his companion, and while he climbed the steps, she just stared at him without following as he opened the door. Their hallway was lighted, and as he stood in the doorway looking back at her, his tall, lean figure silhouetted against the darkness and his hat worn askew like a rogue, he seemed to emphasize his meaning ominously. Usually, when he returned, he would come back for her after preparing their entrance; now it felt as if he was reluctant to face her up close. He looked at her from across the space, and still seated, weighing his intentions, she felt her entire perspective shift. Wasn’t it simply the expression on the Prince’s face that contradicted what he was saying? Didn’t it align with the mocking look she had briefly noticed? Ultimately, wasn’t the underlying message that they would “manage things their own way” what he had been waiting to invite her into? Her husband’s tone somehow matched Amerigo’s expression—the one that had, so strangely for her, peeked from behind the person in front. She hadn’t understood it then—but wasn’t she beginning to now see his assumption that she might be manipulated? She wasn’t going to be manipulated, and while she heard her companion call out to her, “Well, what’s the matter?” she took a moment to remind herself that she had decided she couldn’t be scared. The “matter”?—well, it was definitely significant enough that she felt a little sick. It was not the Prince she had prepared to see as the shaky one. She had maybe guessed Charlotte would be the shaky one—it felt like it would be easier to handle. So if HE had come this far, it was a different story altogether. There was no difference between them. It made her feel so helpless that as time passed without her moving, the Colonel came back and practically pulled her along; then, on the pavement, under the streetlamp, their silence might have signified something serious—the silence was punctuated by him offering her his arm as they climbed the steps together slowly and gently, like an old couple who had experienced disappointment. It almost felt like returning from a funeral—unless it felt more like quietly approaching a house in mourning. What had she come home for but to bury, as decently as possible, her mistake?
XVII
XVII
It appeared thus that they might enjoy together extraordinary freedom, the two friends, from the moment they should understand their position aright. With the Prince himself, from an early stage, not unnaturally, Charlotte had made a great point of their so understanding it; she had found frequent occasion to describe to him this necessity, and, her resignation tempered, or her intelligence at least quickened, by irrepressible irony, she applied at different times different names to the propriety of their case. The wonderful thing was that her sense of propriety had been, from the first, especially alive about it. There were hours when she spoke of their taking refuge in what she called the commonest tact—as if this principle alone would suffice to light their way; there were others when it might have seemed, to listen to her, that their course would demand of them the most anxious study and the most independent, not to say original, interpretation of signs. She talked now as if it were indicated, at every turn, by finger-posts of almost ridiculous prominence; she talked again as if it lurked in devious ways and were to be tracked through bush and briar; and she even, on occasion, delivered herself in the sense that, as their situation was unprecedented, so their heaven was without stars. “‘Do’?” she once had echoed to him as the upshot of passages covertly, though briefly, occurring between them on her return from the visit to America that had immediately succeeded her marriage, determined for her by this event as promptly as an excursion of the like strange order had been prescribed in his own case. “Isn’t the immense, the really quite matchless beauty of our position that we have to ‘do’ nothing in life at all?—nothing except the usual, necessary, everyday thing which consists in one’s not being more of a fool than one can help. That’s all—but that’s as true for one time as for another. There has been plenty of ‘doing,’ and there will doubtless be plenty still; but it’s all theirs, every inch of it; it’s all a matter of what they’ve done TO us.” And she showed how the question had therefore been only of their taking everything as everything came, and all as quietly as might be. Nothing stranger surely had ever happened to a conscientious, a well-meaning, a perfectly passive pair: no more extraordinary decree had ever been launched against such victims than this of forcing them against their will into a relation of mutual close contact that they had done everything to avoid.
It seemed that the two friends could enjoy an extraordinary freedom together once they truly understood their situation. From early on, Charlotte had made it a priority to help the Prince grasp this; she often explained this necessity to him, and, with her resignation softened or her intelligence at least sharpened by a biting irony, she used different terms at different times to describe the appropriateness of their situation. The remarkable thing was that her sense of propriety had always been particularly sensitive to it. There were times when she talked about their taking refuge in what she called the most basic tact—as if that principle alone could guide them; at other moments, it might have seemed, from listening to her, that their path would require the most careful consideration and an independent, if not original, interpretation of signs. She spoke as if it was pointed out at every turn with almost ridiculous clarity; then again, she’d say it lurked in winding paths, needing to be tracked through underbrush and thorns; and sometimes she even suggested that since their situation was unprecedented, their destiny was without stars. “To ‘do’?” she once echoed to him, summing up some discreet yet brief exchanges between them after her trip to America that came right after her marriage, a change that had been imposed on her as swiftly as a similar unusual trip had been required in his case. “Isn’t the amazing, truly unmatched beauty of our situation that we don’t have to ‘do’ anything at all in life?—nothing except the usual, everyday task of not being more of a fool than we can help. That's it—but that's just as true no matter when. There’s been plenty of ‘doing,’ and there will be plenty more; but it's all theirs, every bit of it; it’s all about what they’ve done TO us.” She explained that the only question was how they would take everything as it came, all as calmly as possible. Nothing stranger had ever happened to a responsible, well-meaning, completely passive pair: no more extraordinary decree had ever been aimed at such victims than this one that forced them against their will into a close relationship they had done everything to avoid.
She was to remember not a little, meanwhile, the particular prolonged silent look with which the Prince had met her allusion to these primary efforts at escape. She was inwardly to dwell on the element of the unuttered that her tone had caused to play up into his irresistible eyes; and this because she considered with pride and joy that she had, on the spot, disposed of the doubt, the question, the challenge, or whatever else might have been, that such a look could convey. He had been sufficiently off his guard to show some little wonder as to their having plotted so very hard against their destiny, and she knew well enough, of course, what, in this connection, was at the bottom of his thought, and what would have sounded out more or less if he had not happily saved himself from words. All men were brutes enough to catch when they might at such chances for dissent—for all the good it really did them; but the Prince’s distinction was in being one of the few who could check himself before acting on the impulse. This, obviously, was what counted in a man as delicacy. If her friend had blurted or bungled he would have said, in his simplicity, “Did we do ‘everything to avoid’ it when we faced your remarkable marriage?”—quite handsomely of course using the plural, taking his share of the case, by way of a tribute of memory to the telegram she had received from him in Paris after Mr. Verver had despatched to Rome the news of their engagement. That telegram, that acceptance of the prospect proposed to them—an acceptance quite other than perfunctory—she had never destroyed; though reserved for no eyes but her own it was still carefully reserved. She kept it in a safe place—from which, very privately, she sometimes took it out to read it over. “A la guerre comme a la guerre then”—it had been couched in the French tongue. “We must lead our lives as we see them; but I am charmed with your courage and almost surprised at my own.” The message had remained ambiguous; she had read it in more lights than one; it might mean that even without her his career was up-hill work for him, a daily fighting-matter on behalf of a good appearance, and that thus, if they were to become neighbours again, the event would compel him to live still more under arms. It might mean on the other hand that he found he was happy enough, and that accordingly, so far as she might imagine herself a danger, she was to think of him as prepared in advance, as really seasoned and secure. On his arrival in Paris with his wife, none the less, she had asked for no explanation, just as he himself had not asked if the document were still in her possession. Such an inquiry, everything implied, was beneath him—just as it was beneath herself to mention to him, uninvited, that she had instantly offered, and in perfect honesty, to show the telegram to Mr. Verver, and that if this companion had but said the word she would immediately have put it before him. She had thereby forborne to call his attention to her consciousness that such an exposure would, in all probability, straightway have dished her marriage; that all her future had in fact, for the moment, hung by the single hair of Mr. Verver’s delicacy (as she supposed they must call it); and that her position, in the matter of responsibility, was therefore inattackably straight.
She was to remember well, meanwhile, the long, silent look with which the Prince had responded to her mention of their attempts to escape. She was to reflect on the unspoken element that her tone had brought to life in his captivating eyes; this was because she felt proud and joyful that she had, right then and there, put to rest the doubt, the question, the challenge, or whatever else such a look might imply. He had let his guard down just enough to show a bit of surprise at how hard they had plotted against their fate, and she knew precisely what lay behind his thoughts, which would have been clearer if he hadn’t managed to hold back his words. All men were crude enough to seize on opportunities for disagreement—for all the good it really did them; but the Prince’s distinction was that he was one of the few who could restrain himself before acting on impulse. This, clearly, was what counted in a man as sensitivity. If her friend had blurted out or fumbled, he would have said, in his straightforwardness, “Did we do ‘everything to avoid’ it when we faced your unusual marriage?”—of course using the plural, taking his share of the situation, as a nod to the telegram she had received from him in Paris after Mr. Verver had sent the news of their engagement to Rome. That telegram, that acceptance of the future laid out for them—an acceptance that was anything but casual—she had never destroyed; though reserved for no eyes but her own, it was still kept safely. She kept it in a secure spot—from which, very privately, she sometimes took it out to reread. “A la guerre comme à la guerre then”—it had been written in French. “We must live our lives as we see fit; but I admire your courage and am almost surprised at my own.” The message had remained ambiguous; she had interpreted it in multiple ways; it might mean that even without her, his career was a struggle for him, a daily fight to maintain appearances, and that if they were to become neighbors again, the situation would force him to be even more on guard. On the other hand, it might mean that he found himself happy enough, and thus, as far as she might see herself as a threat, she should think of him as prepared in advance, genuinely composed and secure. However, upon his arrival in Paris with his wife, she didn’t ask for any explanation, just as he hadn’t asked if the document was still in her possession. Such a question, everything suggested, was beneath him—just as it was beneath her to bring up unprompted that she had immediately offered, and honestly, to show the telegram to Mr. Verver, and that if he had only said the word, she would have readily presented it to him. By doing so, she had refrained from drawing his attention to her awareness that such exposure would probably have jeopardized her marriage; that all her future had, at that moment, hung by the single thread of Mr. Verver’s delicacy (as she thought it should be called); and that her situation, in terms of responsibility, was therefore solidly unassailable.
For the Prince himself, meanwhile, time, in its measured allowance, had originally much helped him—helped him in the sense of there not being enough of it to trip him up; in spite of which it was just this accessory element that seemed, at present, with wonders of patience, to lie in wait. Time had begotten at first, more than anything else, separations, delays and intervals; but it was troublesomely less of an aid from the moment it began so to abound that he had to meet the question of what to do with it. Less of it was required for the state of being married than he had, on the whole, expected; less, strangely, for the state of being married even as he was married. And there was a logic in the matter, he knew; a logic that but gave this truth a sort of solidity of evidence. Mr. Verver, decidedly, helped him with it—with his wedded condition; helped him really so much that it made all the difference. In the degree in which he rendered it the service on Mr. Verver’s part was remarkable—as indeed what service, from the first of their meeting, had not been? He was living, he had been living these four or five years, on Mr. Verver’s services: a truth scarcely less plain if he dealt with them, for appreciation, one by one, than if he poured them all together into the general pot of his gratitude and let the thing simmer to a nourishing broth. To the latter way with them he was undoubtedly most disposed; yet he would even thus, on occasion, pick out a piece to taste on its own merits. Wondrous at such hours could seem the savour of the particular “treat,” at his father-in-law’s expense, that he more and more struck himself as enjoying. He had needed months and months to arrive at a full appreciation—he couldn’t originally have given offhand a name to his deepest obligation; but by the time the name had flowered in his mind he was practically living at the ease guaranteed him. Mr. Verver then, in a word, took care of his relation to Maggie, as he took care, and apparently always would, of everything else. He relieved him of all anxiety about his married life in the same manner in which he relieved him on the score of his bank-account. And as he performed the latter office by communicating with the bankers, so the former sprang as directly from his good understanding with his daughter. This understanding had, wonderfully—THAT was in high evidence—the same deep intimacy as the commercial, the financial association founded, far down, on a community of interest. And the correspondence, for the Prince, carried itself out in identities of character the vision of which, fortunately, rather tended to amuse than to—as might have happened—irritate him. Those people—and his free synthesis lumped together capitalists and bankers, retired men of business, illustrious collectors, American fathers-in-law, American fathers, little American daughters, little American wives—those people were of the same large lucky group, as one might say; they were all, at least, of the same general species and had the same general instincts; they hung together, they passed each other the word, they spoke each other’s language, they did each other “turns.” In this last connection it of course came up for our young man at a given moment that Maggie’s relation with HIM was also, on the perceived basis, taken care of. Which was in fact the real upshot of the matter. It was a “funny” situation—that is it was funny just as it stood. Their married life was in question, but the solution was, not less strikingly, before them. It was all right for himself, because Mr. Verver worked it so for Maggie’s comfort; and it was all right for Maggie, because he worked it so for her husband’s.
For the Prince himself, time had initially been a help—there simply wasn’t enough of it to trip him up. However, right now, this very factor seemed to be lurking patiently in the shadows. At first, time had mostly created separations, delays, and gaps, but it became less of an ally once it started to overflow, forcing him to confront what to do with it. He found he needed less time for being married than he’d expected; even less strangely for the kind of marriage he had. He understood there was a logic to it, a logic that gave this truth a solid foundation. Mr. Verver definitely assisted him with his marriage; he was such a big help that it made a significant difference. The extent of Mr. Verver’s assistance was noteworthy—as indeed every service from the very start had been. For four or five years, he had been living off Mr. Verver's support: a reality that was just as clear if he evaluated them one by one as if he combined them into a big pot of gratitude and let it simmer into a nourishing broth. While he was more inclined to the latter approach, he would sometimes sample a single piece to appreciate it on its own. At those times, it struck him just how enjoyable those "treats" from his father-in-law had become. It had taken him months to fully appreciate this—initially, he couldn’t have named his greatest obligation off the top of his head; but by the time he could, he was practically enjoying the ease it provided. So, in short, Mr. Verver took care of his relationship with Maggie, just as he did, and would always do, with everything else. He removed all concerns about his married life, just like he took care of his bank account. And as he managed the financial side by communicating with the bankers, the marital issue stemmed directly from his good relationship with Maggie. This connection had, remarkably—this was quite evident—the same level of intimacy as the commercial ties, rooted deeply in shared interests. For the Prince, the similarities played out in a way that amusingly appealed to him rather than annoyed him. Those people—and he combined capitalists and bankers, retired businesspeople, distinguished collectors, American fathers-in-law, American fathers, little American daughters, and little American wives—were part of the same fortunate group, so to speak; they were all, at least, of the same general type and shared similar instincts. They stuck together, communicated with one another, spoke the same language, and did each other favors. In connection with this, it naturally occurred to our young man that Maggie’s relationship with HIM was also, in a way, looked after. This was really the crux of the matter. It was a “funny” situation—it was funny just as it was. Their married life was at stake, but the solution was strikingly clear. It worked out for him because Mr. Verver arranged it for Maggie’s comfort; and it worked out for Maggie because he set it up for her husband's benefit.
The fact that time, however, was not, as we have said, wholly on the Prince’s side might have shown for particularly true one dark day on which, by an odd but not unprecedented chance, the reflections just noted offered themselves as his main recreation. They alone, it appeared, had been appointed to fill the hours for him, and even to fill the great square house in Portland Place, where the scale of one of the smaller saloons fitted them but loosely. He had looked into this room on the chance that he might find the Princess at tea; but though the fireside service of the repast was shiningly present the mistress of the table was not, and he had waited for her, if waiting it could be called, while he measured again and again the stretch of polished floor. He could have named to himself no pressing reason for seeing her at this moment, and her not coming in, as the half-hour elapsed, became in fact quite positively, however perversely, the circumstance that kept him on the spot. Just there, he might have been feeling, just there he could best take his note. This observation was certainly by itself meagre amusement for a dreary little crisis; but his walk to and fro, and in particular his repeated pause at one of the high front windows, gave each of the ebbing minutes, none the less, after a time, a little more of the quality of a quickened throb of the spirit. These throbs scarce expressed, however, the impatience of desire, any more than they stood for sharp disappointment: the series together resembled perhaps more than anything else those fine waves of clearness through which, for a watcher of the east, dawn at last trembles into rosy day. The illumination indeed was all for the mind, the prospect revealed by it a mere immensity of the world of thought; the material outlook was all the while a different matter. The March afternoon, judged at the window, had blundered back into autumn; it had been raining for hours, and the colour of the rain, the colour of the air, of the mud, of the opposite houses, of life altogether, in so grim a joke, so idiotic a masquerade, was an unutterable dirty brown. There was at first even, for the young man, no faint flush in the fact of the direction taken, while he happened to look out, by a slow-jogging four-wheeled cab which, awkwardly deflecting from the middle course, at the apparent instance of a person within, began to make for the left-hand pavement and so at last, under further instructions, floundered to a full stop before the Prince’s windows. The person within, alighting with an easier motion, proved to be a lady who left the vehicle to wait and, putting up no umbrella, quickly crossed the wet interval that separated her from the house. She but flitted and disappeared; yet the Prince, from his standpoint, had had time to recognise her, and the recognition kept him for some minutes motionless.
The truth that time wasn't completely on the Prince's side became particularly clear one dark day when, by a strange but not unexpected turn of events, his thoughts became his main source of distraction. It seemed they were the only thing available to fill his hours and even the spacious square house on Portland Place, where the size of one of the smaller rooms barely accommodated them. He had looked into this room hoping to find the Princess having tea, but although the tea service was beautifully arranged, the lady of the house was absent. He waited for her, if you could call it waiting, while he paced back and forth across the polished floor. He couldn't think of any urgent reason to see her right then, and as half an hour passed without her arrival, it actually became the very thing that kept him there, almost defiantly. Right there, he may have felt, was where he could best gather his thoughts. This realization was admittedly a poor form of amusement during his dreary little crisis; however, his back-and-forth movements, especially his repeated stops at one of the large front windows, gave each passing minute a little more of an invigorating pulse over time. Yet, these pulses hardly conveyed impatience or sharp disappointment; together, they reminded him more of those beautiful waves of clarity that signal the dawn breaking into a rosy day for someone watching in the east. The enlightenment was all in his mind, while the view it offered was an immense world of thought; the actual outlook was another story. From the window, the March afternoon had slipped back into autumn; it had been raining for hours, and the color of the rain, the air, the mud, the opposite houses, and life in general was all an indescribably murky brown. Initially, there was no hint of excitement for the young man when he glanced outside and saw a slow-moving cab awkwardly veer off course at the apparent request of someone inside, eventually making its way to the left side of the street before coming to a halt in front of the Prince’s windows. The person inside, getting out with an easier motion, turned out to be a lady who left the cab waiting and, without opening an umbrella, quickly crossed the wet path to the house. She barely paused before disappearing; however, the Prince, from where he stood, had enough time to recognize her, and that recognition left him motionless for several minutes.
Charlotte Stant, at such an hour, in a shabby four-wheeler and a waterproof, Charlotte Stant turning up for him at the very climax of his special inner vision, was an apparition charged with a congruity at which he stared almost as if it had been a violence. The effect of her coming to see him, him only, had, while he stood waiting, a singular intensity—though after some minutes had passed the certainty of this began to drop. Perhaps she had NOT come, or had come only for Maggie; perhaps, on learning below that the Princess had not returned, she was merely leaving a message, writing a word on a card. He should see, at any rate; and meanwhile, controlling himself, would do nothing. This thought of not interfering took on a sudden force for him; she would doubtless hear he was at home, but he would let her visit to him be all of her own choosing. And his view of a reason for leaving her free was the more remarkable that, though taking no step, he yet intensely hoped. The harmony of her breaking into sight while the superficial conditions were so against her was a harmony with conditions that were far from superficial and that gave, for his imagination, an extraordinary value to her presence. The value deepened strangely, moreover, with the rigour of his own attitude—with the fact too that, listening hard, he neither heard the house-door close again nor saw her go back to her cab; and it had risen to a climax by the time he had become aware, with his quickened sense, that she had followed the butler up to the landing from which his room opened. If anything could further then have added to it, the renewed pause outside, as if she had said to the man “Wait a moment!” would have constituted this touch. Yet when the man had shown her in, had advanced to the tea-table to light the lamp under the kettle and had then busied himself, all deliberately, with the fire, she made it easy for her host to drop straight from any height of tension and to meet her, provisionally, on the question of Maggie. While the butler remained it was Maggie that she had come to see and Maggie that—in spite of this attendant’s high blankness on the subject of all possibilities on that lady’s part—she would cheerfully, by the fire, wait for. As soon as they were alone together, however, she mounted, as with the whizz and the red light of a rocket, from the form to the fact, saying straight out, as she stood and looked at him: “What else, my dear, what in the world else can we do?”
Charlotte Stant, at that hour, in a rundown cab and a raincoat, showing up for him right when he was having his deepest thoughts, was like a ghost that he stared at almost as if it were an attack. The impact of her coming to see him, and him only, felt intense while he waited, but after a few minutes, that certainty started to fade. Maybe she hadn’t come, or maybe she just came for Maggie; perhaps, learning below that the Princess hadn’t returned, she was just leaving a note or writing something on a card. He would find out, anyway; in the meantime, he would keep himself in check and not act. The idea of not interfering then suddenly felt powerful to him; she would probably find out he was home, but he would let her choice to visit him be completely hers. His reasoning for letting her be free was even more striking because, while he took no action, he still hoped intensely. The coincidence of her appearing when things seemed so unfavorable was in harmony with realities that were far from surface-level, adding extraordinary importance to her presence in his imagination. This importance deepened oddly, too, with the strictness of his own demeanor—especially since, listening closely, he neither heard the front door close nor saw her return to her cab; his awareness sharpened when he realized she had followed the butler up to the landing outside his room. If anything could have added to this, the pause outside, as if she had told him, “Wait a moment!” would have been the finishing touch. But when the butler showed her in, went to the tea table to light the lamp under the kettle, and then busied himself with the fire, she made it easy for him to drop straight from any tension and talk with her, at least for now, about Maggie. While the butler was there, it was Maggie she had come to see, and despite the butler's total indifference to what might happen with that lady, she was happy to wait by the fire for her. However, as soon as they were alone, she shot straight from the surface to the heart of the matter, saying plainly, while standing and looking at him: “What else, my dear, what in the world else can we do?”
It was as if he then knew, on the spot, why he had been feeling, for hours, as he had felt—as if he in fact knew, within the minute, things he had not known even while she was panting, as from the effect of the staircase, at the door of the room. He knew at the same time, none the less, that she knew still more than he—in the sense, that is, of all the signs and portents that might count for them; and his vision of alternative—she could scarce say what to call them, solutions, satisfactions—opened out, altogether, with this tangible truth of her attitude by the chimney-place, the way she looked at him as through the gained advantage of it; her right hand resting on the marble and her left keeping her skirt from the fire while she held out a foot to dry. He couldn’t have told what particular links and gaps had at the end of a few minutes found themselves renewed and bridged; for he remembered no occasion, in Rome, from which the picture could have been so exactly copied. He remembered, that is, none of her coming to see him in the rain while a muddy four-wheeler waited, and while, though having left her waterproof downstairs, she was yet invested with the odd eloquence—the positive picturesqueness, yes, given all the rest of the matter—of a dull dress and a black Bowdlerised hat that seemed to make a point of insisting on their time of life and their moral intention, the hat’s and the frock’s own, as well as on the irony of indifference to them practically playing in her so handsome rain-freshened face. The sense of the past revived for him nevertheless as it had not yet done: it made that other time somehow meet the future close, interlocking with it, before his watching eyes, as in a long embrace of arms and lips, and so handling and hustling the present that this poor quantity scarce retained substance enough, scarce remained sufficiently THERE, to be wounded or shocked.
It felt like he suddenly understood why he had been feeling the way he had for hours—as if, in that moment, he realized things he hadn’t even known when she was catching her breath at the door of the room. At the same time, he recognized that she knew even more than he did—all the signs and signals that might matter to them. His vision of different options—she could barely find the right term for them, solutions or satisfactions—opened up completely with the undeniable truth of her presence by the fireplace, the way she looked at him as if she had an advantage; her right hand resting on the marble, her left hand keeping her skirt away from the fire while she stretched out a foot to dry. He couldn’t pinpoint which specific connections and gaps had, after a few minutes, been renewed and bridged; he didn’t recall any moment in Rome that could match this scene so perfectly. He didn’t remember her coming to see him in the rain while a muddy cab waited, and even though she had left her raincoat downstairs, she was still wrapped in an odd charm—the striking picturesqueness, given everything else—of a dull dress and a black hat that seemed to emphasize their age and moral implications, just like the dress, while also reflecting the irony of indifference playing out on her beautiful rain-drenched face. Despite that, the sense of the past came back to him stronger than before: it made that other time somehow connect with the future, intertwining in front of his eyes like a long embrace, reshaping the present so much that it barely felt tangible, hardly enough to be affected or shocked.
What had happened, in short, was that Charlotte and he had, by a single turn of the wrist of fate—“led up” to indeed, no doubt, by steps and stages that conscious computation had missed—been placed face to face in a freedom that partook, extraordinarily, of ideal perfection, since the magic web had spun itself without their toil, almost without their touch. Above all, on this occasion, once more, there sounded through their safety, as an undertone, the very voice he had listened to on the eve of his marriage with such another sort of unrest. Dimly, again and again, from that period on, he had seemed to hear it tell him why it kept recurring; but it phrased the large music now in a way that filled the room. The reason was—into which he had lived, quite intimately, by the end of a quarter-of-an-hour—that just this truth of their safety offered it now a kind of unexampled receptacle, letting it spread and spread, but at the same time elastically enclosing it, banking it in, for softness, as with billows of eiderdown. On that morning; in the Park there had been, however dissimulated, doubt and danger, whereas the tale this afternoon was taken up with a highly emphasised confidence. The emphasis, for their general comfort, was what Charlotte had come to apply; inasmuch as, though it was not what she definitely began with, it had soon irrepressibly shaped itself. It was the meaning of the question she had put to him as soon as they were alone—even though indeed, as from not quite understanding, he had not then directly replied; it was the meaning of everything else, down to the conscious quaintness of her ricketty “growler” and the conscious humility of her dress. It had helped him a little, the question of these eccentricities, to let her immediate appeal pass without an answer. He could ask her instead what had become of her carriage and why, above all, she was not using it in such weather.
What had happened, in short, was that Charlotte and he had, by a single twist of fate—“led up” to indeed, no doubt, by steps and stages that conscious computation had missed—found themselves face to face in a freedom that was, remarkably, almost ideal, since the magic web had woven itself without their effort, almost without their touch. Above all, on this occasion, once again, there echoed through their safety, as an undertone, the very voice he had listened to on the night before his marriage, with a similar kind of unrest. Vaguely, again and again, since that time, it had seemed to tell him why it kept coming back; but it expressed the larger truth now in a way that filled the room. The reason was—into which he had become quite intimately aware within just fifteen minutes—that this very truth of their safety now offered it a sort of unprecedented space, allowing it to expand and expand, but at the same time enclosing it flexibly, cushioning it, like billows of down feathers. That morning in the Park, there had been, however hidden, doubt and danger, whereas the story this afternoon was filled with a strong sense of confidence. The emphasis, for their overall comfort, was what Charlotte had started to apply; although it wasn’t what she initially began with, it had soon become inevitable. It was the meaning of the question she had asked him as soon as they were alone—even though, not quite understanding, he hadn't directly responded at that moment; it was the meaning of everything else, down to the quirky nature of her rickety “growler” and the conscious simplicity of her dress. It had helped him a bit, this question about her eccentricities, to let her immediate plea go unanswered. He could instead ask her what had happened to her carriage and why, above all, she wasn't using it in such weather.
“It’s just because of the weather,” she explained. “It’s my little idea. It makes me feel as I used to—when I could do as I liked.”
“It’s just because of the weather,” she explained. “It’s my little idea. It makes me feel like I used to—when I could do what I wanted.”
XVIII
18
This came out so straight that he saw at once how much truth it expressed; yet it was truth that still a little puzzled him. “But did you ever like knocking about in such discomfort?”
This was so clear that he instantly recognized how much truth it conveyed; yet it was a truth that still slightly confused him. “But did you ever enjoy hanging out in such discomfort?”
“It seems to me now that I then liked everything. It’s the charm, at any rate,” she said from her place at the fire, “of trying again the old feelings. They come back—they come back. Everything,” she went on, “comes back. Besides,” she wound up, “you know for yourself.”
“It feels to me now that I used to enjoy everything. There’s just something about it,” she said from her spot by the fire, “the thrill of experiencing those old feelings again. They return—they really do. Everything,” she continued, “always comes back. Plus,” she concluded, “you know it yourself.”
He stood near her, his hands in his pockets; but not looking at her, looking hard at the tea-table. “Ah, I haven’t your courage. Moreover,” he laughed, “it seems to me that, so far as that goes, I do live in hansoms. But you must awfully want your tea,” he quickly added; “so let me give you a good stiff cup.”
He stood close to her, his hands in his pockets, but he wasn’t looking at her; instead, he was staring intensely at the tea table. “Ah, I don’t have your courage. Besides,” he laughed, “it seems to me that, as far as that goes, I do live in taxis. But you must really want your tea,” he quickly added, “so let me make you a strong cup.”
He busied himself with this care, and she sat down, on his pushing up a low seat, where she had been standing; so that, while she talked, he could bring her what she further desired. He moved to and fro before her, he helped himself; and her visit, as the moments passed, had more and more the effect of a signal communication that she had come, all responsibly and deliberately, as on the clear show of the clock-face of their situation, to make. The whole demonstration, none the less, presented itself as taking place at a very high level of debate—in the cool upper air of the finer discrimination, the deeper sincerity, the larger philosophy. No matter what were the facts invoked and arrayed, it was only a question, as yet, of their seeing their way together: to which indeed, exactly, the present occasion appeared to have so much to contribute. “It’s not that you haven’t my courage,” Charlotte said, “but that you haven’t, I rather think, my imagination. Unless indeed it should turn out after all,” she added, “that you haven’t even my intelligence. However, I shall not be afraid of that till you’ve given me more proof.” And she made again, but more clearly, her point of a moment before. “You knew, besides, you knew to-day, I would come. And if you knew that you know everything.” So she pursued, and if he didn’t meanwhile, if he didn’t even at this, take her up, it might be that she was so positively fitting him again with the fair face of temporising kindness that he had given her, to keep her eyes on, at the other important juncture, and the sense of which she might ever since have been carrying about with her like a precious medal—not exactly blessed by the Pope suspended round her neck. She had come back, however this might be, to her immediate account of herself, and no mention of their great previous passage was to rise to the lips of either. “Above all,” she said, “there has been the personal romance of it.”
He kept himself busy with this task, and she sat down on the low seat he pushed up for her, where she had been standing. While she talked, he could fetch her what she needed. He moved back and forth in front of her, helping himself to what he needed; as time went on, her visit increasingly felt like a purposeful communication she had come to make, clearly reflected in the situation they were in. Nevertheless, the entire exchange happened at a very elevated level of discussion—in the cool, refined atmosphere of deeper understanding, sincerity, and broader philosophy. Regardless of the facts presented, it was still just a matter of figuring things out together: and this particular moment seemed to contribute significantly to that. “It’s not that you lack my courage,” Charlotte said, “but rather, I think, you lack my imagination. Unless it turns out, after all,” she added, “that you even lack my intelligence. But I won’t worry about that until you give me more proof.” She reiterated, more clearly this time, her earlier point. “You knew, after all, that I would come today. And if you knew that, then you know everything.” She continued, and if he didn’t respond, even now, it might be because she was fitting him once again with the kind, fair demeanor he had shown her, which she had kept in mind since their important previous encounter, carrying it with her like a precious medal—not exactly blessed by the Pope, but hanging around her neck. However it was, she returned to speaking about herself, and neither of them mentioned their significant past together. “Above all,” she said, “there’s been the personal romance of it.”
“Of tea with me over the fire? Ah, so far as that goes I don’t think even my intelligence fails me.”
“Tea with me by the fire? Well, as far as that goes, I don’t think my intelligence lets me down.”
“Oh, it’s further than that goes; and if I’ve had a better day than you it’s perhaps, when I come to think of it, that I AM braver. You bore yourself, you see. But I don’t. I don’t, I don’t,” she repeated.
“Oh, it goes further than that; and if I’ve had a better day than you, it might be, when I think about it, that I AM braver. You just complain, you see. But I don’t. I don’t, I don’t,” she repeated.
“It’s precisely boring one’s self without relief,” he protested, “that takes courage.”
“It’s exactly boring yourself without any break,” he protested, “that requires courage.”
“Passive then—not active. My romance is that, if you want to know, I’ve been all day on the town. Literally on the town—isn’t that what they call it? I know how it feels.” After which, as if breaking off, “And you, have you never been out?” she asked.
“Not active, just passive. My love life is like that, if you’re curious. I’ve spent the whole day out in the city. Literally out in the city—isn’t that what they say? I know what it feels like.” Then, almost changing the subject, she asked, “What about you? Haven’t you ever gone out?”
He still stood there with his hands in his pockets. “What should I have gone out for?”
He still stood there with his hands in his pockets. “What was I supposed to go out for?”
“Oh, what should people in our case do anything for? But you’re wonderful, all of YOU—you know how to live. We’re clumsy brutes, we other’s, beside you—we must always be ‘doing’ something. However,” Charlotte pursued, “if you had gone out you might have missed the chance of me—which I’m sure, though you won’t confess it, was what you didn’t want; and might have missed, above all, the satisfaction that, look blank about it as you will, I’ve come to congratulate you on. That’s really what I can at last do. You can’t not know at least, on such a day as this—you can’t not know,” she said, “where you are.” She waited as for him either to grant that he knew or to pretend that he didn’t; but he only drew a long deep breath which came out like a moan of impatience. It brushed aside the question of where he was or what he knew; it seemed to keep the ground clear for the question of his visitor herself, that of Charlotte Verver exactly as she sat there. So, for some moments, with their long look, they but treated the matter in silence; with the effect indeed, by the end of the time, of having considerably brought it on. This was sufficiently marked in what Charlotte next said. “There it all is—extraordinary beyond words. It makes such a relation for us as, I verily believe, was never before in the world thrust upon two well-meaning creatures. Haven’t we therefore to take things as we find them?” She put the question still more directly than that of a moment before, but to this one, as well, he returned no immediate answer. Noticing only that she had finished her tea, he relieved her of her cup, carried it back to the table, asked her what more she would have; and then, on her “Nothing, thanks,” returned to the fire and restored a displaced log to position by a small but almost too effectual kick. She had meanwhile got up again, and it was on her feet that she repeated the words she had first frankly spoken. “What else can we do, what in all the world else?”
“Oh, what should people in our situation do anything for? But you’re amazing, all of you—you know how to enjoy life. We’re just clumsy beasts compared to you—we always have to be 'doing' something. However,” Charlotte continued, “if you had gone out, you might have missed the chance to see me—which I’m sure, even if you won’t admit it, was what you didn’t want; and you might have missed, most importantly, the satisfaction that, no matter how uninterested you act, I’ve come to congratulate you on. That’s really what I can finally do. You can’t possibly not know, especially on a day like this—you can’t not know,” she said, “where you are.” She waited for him to either admit that he knew or pretend that he didn’t; but he just let out a long, deep breath that sounded like a moan of impatience. It brushed aside the question of where he was or what he knew; it seemed to keep the focus clear for the question of his visitor herself, that of Charlotte Verver exactly as she sat there. So, for a few moments, they just exchanged long looks in silence; by the end of this time, they had significantly brought the matter to light. This was clearly reflected in what Charlotte said next. “There it all is—absolutely extraordinary. It creates a relationship for us that, I truly believe, has never before been thrust upon two well-meaning people. Don’t we therefore have to accept things as they are?” She posed the question even more directly than the one just before, but like the last one, he didn’t give an immediate answer. Noticing that she had finished her tea, he took her cup, carried it back to the table, asked her if she wanted anything else; and then, on her “Nothing, thanks,” he returned to the fire and repositioned a displaced log with a small but almost too effective kick. Meanwhile, she had stood up again, and it was while standing that she reiterated the words she had first spoken so openly. “What else can we do, what else in the entire world?”
He took them up, however, no more than at first. “Where then have you been?” he asked as from mere interest in her adventure.
He picked them up, but no more than he had initially. “So where have you been?” he asked, showing just curiosity about her adventure.
“Everywhere I could think of—except to see people. I didn’t want people—I wanted too much to think. But I’ve been back at intervals—three times; and then come away again. My cabman must think me crazy—it’s very amusing; I shall owe him, when we come to settle, more money than he has ever seen. I’ve been, my dear,” she went on, “to the British Museum—which, you know, I always adore. And I’ve been to the National Gallery, and to a dozen old booksellers’, coming across treasures, and I’ve lunched, on some strange nastiness, at a cookshop in Holborn. I wanted to go to the Tower, but it was too far—my old man urged that; and I would have gone to the Zoo if it hadn’t been too wet—which he also begged me to observe. But you wouldn’t believe—I did put in St. Paul’s. Such days,” she wound up, “are expensive; for, besides the cab, I’ve bought quantities of books.” She immediately passed, at any rate, to another point: “I can’t help wondering when you must last have laid eyes on them.” And then as it had apparently for her companion an effect of abruptness: “Maggie, I mean, and the child. For I suppose you know he’s with her.”
"Everywhere I could think of—except to see people. I didn’t want people—I just wanted to think. But I’ve been back a few times—three times, actually; and then I left again. My cab driver must think I’m crazy—it’s pretty funny; I’ll owe him more money when we settle up than he’s ever seen. I’ve been, my dear,” she continued, “to the British Museum—which, you know, I always love. And I went to the National Gallery, and to a dozen old bookstores, finding treasures, and I had lunch, which was some strange unpleasantness, at a food shop in Holborn. I wanted to go to the Tower, but it was too far—my old man insisted on that; and I would have gone to the Zoo if it hadn’t been too wet—which he also reminded me of. But you wouldn’t believe—I did manage to visit St. Paul’s. Such days,” she concluded, “are expensive; because, on top of the cab fare, I’ve bought a ton of books.” She quickly shifted, at any rate, to another topic: “I can’t help wondering when you last saw them.” And then, as it seemed to catch her companion off guard: “Maggie, I mean, and the child. Because I assume you know he’s with her.”
“Oh yes, I know he’s with her. I saw them this morning.”
“Oh yeah, I know he's with her. I saw them this morning.”
“And did they then announce their programme?”
“And did they announce their agenda then?”
“She told me she was taking him, as usual, da nonno.”
“She told me she was taking him, as usual, to grandpa’s.”
“And for the whole day?”
"And for the entire day?"
He hesitated, but it was as if his attitude had slowly shifted.
He hesitated, but it felt like his attitude had gradually changed.
“She didn’t say. And I didn’t ask.”
“She didn’t say anything. And I didn’t ask.”
“Well,” she went on, “it can’t have been later than half-past ten—I mean when you saw them. They had got to Eaton Square before eleven. You know we don’t formally breakfast, Adam and I; we have tea in our rooms—at least I have; but luncheon is early, and I saw my husband, this morning, by twelve; he was showing the child a picture-book. Maggie had been there with them, had left them settled together. Then she had gone out—taking the carriage for something he had been intending but that she offered to do instead.”
“Well,” she continued, “it couldn’t have been later than 10:30 when you saw them. They had made it to Eaton Square by 11:00. You know Adam and I don’t have a formal breakfast; we just have tea in our rooms—at least I do. But lunch is early, and I saw my husband this morning by noon; he was showing the child a picture book. Maggie was there with them and had left them together. Then she went out, taking the carriage to do something he had planned, but she offered to take care of it instead.”
The Prince appeared to confess, at this, to his interest.
The Prince seemed to admit his interest at this point.
“Taking, you mean, YOUR carriage?”
"Are you taking YOUR carriage?"
“I don’t know which, and it doesn’t matter. It’s not a question,” she smiled, “of a carriage the more or the less. It’s not a question even, if you come to that, of a cab. It’s so beautiful,” she said, “that it’s not a question of anything vulgar or horrid.” Which she gave him time to agree about; and though he was silent it was, rather remarkably, as if he fell in. “I went out—I wanted to. I had my idea. It seemed to me important. It has BEEN—it IS important. I know as I haven’t known before the way they feel. I couldn’t in any other way have made so sure of it.”
“I don’t know which, and it doesn’t matter. It’s not a question,” she smiled, “of one carriage or another. It’s not even a question of a cab, for that matter. It’s so beautiful,” she said, “that it’s not about anything crude or awful.” She gave him time to agree, and even though he was silent, it was, rather surprisingly, like he was on the same page. “I went out—I wanted to. I had my idea. It seemed important to me. It has BEEN—it IS important. I know now, more than I ever have, how they feel. I couldn’t have been so sure of it any other way.”
“They feel a confidence,” the Prince observed.
“They feel confident,” the Prince observed.
He had indeed said it for her. “They feel a confidence.” And she proceeded, with lucidity, to the fuller illustration of it; speaking again of the three different moments that, in the course of her wild ramble, had witnessed her return—for curiosity, and even really a little from anxiety—to Eaton Square. She was possessed of a latch-key, rarely used: it had always irritated Adam—one of the few things that did—to find servants standing up so inhumanly straight when they came home, in the small hours, after parties. “So I had but to slip in, each time, with my cab at the door, and make out for myself, without their knowing it, that Maggie was still there. I came, I went—without their so much as dreaming. What do they really suppose,” she asked, “becomes of one?—not so much sentimentally or morally, so to call it, and since that doesn’t matter; but even just physically, materially, as a mere wandering woman: as a decent harmless wife, after all; as the best stepmother, after all, that really ever was; or at the least simply as a maitresse de maison not quite without a conscience. They must even in their odd way,” she declared, “have SOME idea.”
He really did say that for her. “They feel confident.” And she went on, clearly, to explain it further; talking again about the three different moments that, during her wild wandering, had marked her return—for curiosity, and even a bit out of anxiety—to Eaton Square. She had a latch-key, which she rarely used: it always annoyed Adam—one of the few things that did—to see servants standing so unnaturally straight when they came home late after parties. “So I just had to slip in, each time, with my cab waiting at the door, and figure out for myself, without them knowing it, that Maggie was still there. I came and went—without them even dreaming of it. What do they really think happens to someone?—not so much sentimentally or morally, because that doesn’t really matter; but even just physically, materially, as a mere wandering woman: as a decent harmless wife, after all; as the best stepmother there ever was; or at least simply as a housekeeper who isn’t completely without a conscience. They must, in their strange way,” she insisted, “have SOME idea.”
“Oh, they’ve a great deal of idea,” said the Prince. And nothing was easier than to mention the quantity. “They think so much of us. They think in particular so much of you.”
“Oh, they have a lot of ideas,” said the Prince. And it was very easy to point out the quantity. “They care about us a lot. They especially care about you.”
“Ah, don’t put it all on ‘me’!” she smiled.
“Ah, don’t blame it all on ‘me’!” she smiled.
But he was putting it now where she had admirably prepared the place. “It’s a matter of your known character.”
But he was now placing it where she had skillfully set everything up. “It’s about your established reputation.”
“Ah, thank you for ‘known’!” she still smiled.
“Ah, thank you for ‘knowing’!” she still smiled.
“It’s a matter of your wonderful cleverness and wonderful charm. It’s a matter of what those things have done for you in the world—I mean in THIS world and this place. You’re a Personage for them—and Personages do go and come.”
“It’s all about your amazing intelligence and charm. It’s about how those qualities have worked for you in this world—I mean in THIS world and this place. You’re a big deal to them—and big deals come and go.”
“Oh no, my dear; there you’re quite wrong.” And she laughed now in the happier light they had diffused. “That’s exactly what Personages don’t do: they live in state and under constant consideration; they haven’t latch-keys, but drums and trumpets announce them; and when they go out in growlers it makes a greater noise still. It’s you, caro mio,” she said, “who, so far as that goes, are the Personage.”
“Oh no, my dear; you’re completely mistaken.” And she laughed now in the happier vibe they had created. “That’s exactly what important people don’t do: they live in style and under constant scrutiny; they don’t have latchkeys, but drums and trumpets announce them; and when they go out in carriages, it makes an even bigger commotion. It’s you, my dear,” she said, “who, in that sense, are the important person.”
“Ah,” he in turn protested, “don’t put it all on me! What, at any rate, when you get home,” he added, “shall you say that you’ve been doing?”
“Hey,” he replied, “don’t blame everything on me! Anyway, what will you tell them you’ve been doing when you get home?”
“I shall say, beautifully, that I’ve been here.”
“I’ll say, beautifully, that I’ve been here.”
“All day?”
"All day long?"
“Yes—all day. Keeping you company in your solitude. How can we understand anything,” she went on, “without really seeing that this is what they must like to think I do for you?—just as, quite as comfortably, you do it for me. The thing is for us to learn to take them as they are.”
“Yes—all day. Keeping you company in your solitude. How can we understand anything,” she continued, “without truly seeing that this is what they must think I do for you?—just as, just as comfortably, you do it for me. The point is for us to learn to accept them as they are.”
He considered this a while, in his restless way, but with his eyes not turning from her; after which, rather disconnectedly, though very vehemently, he brought out: “How can I not feel more than anything else how they adore together my boy?” And then, further, as if, slightly disconcerted, she had nothing to meet this and he quickly perceived the effect: “They would have done the same for one of yours.”
He thought about this for a bit, shifting restlessly but keeping his eyes on her; then, rather abruptly but with a lot of intensity, he said, “How can I not feel more than anything how much they adore my son together?” And then, noticing that she seemed a bit thrown off and had no response, he quickly added, “They would have done the same for one of yours.”
“Ah, if I could have had one—! I hoped and I believed,” said Charlotte, “that that would happen. It would have been better. It would have made perhaps some difference. He thought so too, poor duck—that it might have been. I’m sure he hoped and intended so. It’s not, at any rate,” she went on, “my fault. There it is.” She had uttered these statements, one by one, gravely, sadly and responsibly, owing it to her friend to be clear. She paused briefly, but, as if once for all, she made her clearness complete. “And now I’m too sure. It will never be.”
“Ah, if I could have had one—! I hoped and believed,” Charlotte said, “that it would happen. It would have been better. It might have made a difference. He thought so too, poor thing—that it could have been. I’m sure he hoped for it and intended it. It’s not, at least,” she continued, “my fault. There it is.” She had spoken these words, one at a time, seriously, sadly, and responsibly, feeling it was her duty to be clear with her friend. She paused for a moment, but then, as if to finalize her clarity, she made everything clear. “And now I’m too certain. It will never be.”
He waited for a moment. “Never?”
He paused for a moment. “Never?”
“Never.” They treated the matter not exactly with solemnity, but with a certain decency, even perhaps urgency, of distinctness. “It would probably have been better,” Charlotte added. “But things turn out—! And it leaves us”—she made the point—“more alone.”
“Never.” They handled the situation not so much with seriousness, but with a certain decency, maybe even a sense of urgency, of clarity. “It probably would have been better,” Charlotte said. “But things end up—! And it leaves us”—she emphasized—“more alone.”
He seemed to wonder. “It leaves you more alone.”
He looked thoughtful. “It makes you feel more alone.”
“Oh,” she again returned, “don’t put it all on me! Maggie would have given herself to his child, I’m sure, scarcely less than he gives himself to yours. It would have taken more than any child of mine,” she explained—“it would have taken more than ten children of mine, could I have had them—to keep our sposi apart.” She smiled as for the breadth of the image, but, as he seemed to take it, in spite of this, for important, she then spoke gravely enough. “It’s as strange as you like, but we’re immensely alone.” He kept vaguely moving, but there were moments when, again, with an awkward ease and his hands in his pockets, he was more directly before her. He stood there at these last words, which had the effect of making him for a little throw back his head and, as thinking something out, stare up at the ceiling. “What will you say,” she meanwhile asked, “that you’ve been doing?” This brought his consciousness and his eyes back to her, and she pointed her question. “I mean when she comes in—for I suppose she WILL, some time, come in. It seems to me we must say the same thing.”
“Oh,” she replied again, “don’t put all the blame on me! I'm sure Maggie would have given herself to his child just as much as he gives himself to yours. It would have taken more than just one child of mine,” she explained—“it would have taken more than ten children of mine, if I could have had them—to keep our spouses apart.” She smiled at the idea, but since he seemed to take it seriously, she then spoke more seriously. “It’s as strange as it sounds, but we’re incredibly alone.” He kept moving around aimlessly, but there were times when, awkwardly relaxed with his hands in his pockets, he stood right in front of her. He paused at her last words, which made him tilt his head back for a moment and stare up at the ceiling as if he were thinking something through. “What will you say,” she asked in the meantime, “that you’ve been doing?” This brought his attention and his gaze back to her, and she clarified her question. “I mean when she comes in—because I assume she WILL come in at some point. It seems to me we should say the same thing.”
Well, he thought again. “Yet I can scarce pretend to have had what I haven’t.”
Well, he thought again. “But I can hardly pretend to have experienced what I haven’t.”
“Ah, WHAT haven’t you had?—what aren’t you having?”
“Ah, what haven’t you tried?—what aren’t you experiencing?”
Her question rang out as they lingered face to face, and he still took it, before he answered, from her eyes. “We must at least then, not to be absurd together, do the same thing. We must act, it would really seem, in concert.”
Her question echoed as they stood facing each other, and he still took it, before he answered, from her eyes. “We should at least, to avoid being ridiculous together, do the same thing. We really need to act in unison.”
“It would really seem!” Her eyebrows, her shoulders went up, quite in gaiety, as for the relief this brought her. “It’s all in the world I pretend. We must act in concert. Heaven knows,” she said, “THEY do!”
“It really seems that way!” Her eyebrows raised, her shoulders lifted, full of joy, relieved by the news. “It’s everything I’ve been pretending. We need to work together. God knows,” she said, “THEY do!”
So it was that he evidently saw and that, by his admission, the case, could fairly be put. But what he evidently saw appeared to come over him, at the same time, as too much for him, so that he fell back suddenly to ground where she was not awaiting him. “The difficulty is, and will always be, that I don’t understand them. I didn’t at first, but I thought I should learn to. That was what I hoped, and it appeared then that Fanny Assingham might help me.”
So, he clearly saw it and admitted that the situation could be explained. But what he saw seemed to overwhelm him, causing him to retreat suddenly to a place where she wasn’t waiting for him. “The problem is, and always will be, that I don’t understand them. I didn’t at first, but I thought I would figure it out. That was my hope, and it seemed that Fanny Assingham might be able to help me.”
“Oh, Fanny Assingham!” said Charlotte Verver.
“Oh, Fanny Assingham!” Charlotte Verver exclaimed.
He stared a moment at her tone. “She would do anything for us.”
He paused for a moment at her tone. “She would do anything for us.”
To which Charlotte at first said nothing—as if from the sense of too much. Then, indulgently enough, she shook her head. “We’re beyond her.”
To which Charlotte initially said nothing, as if feeling overwhelmed. Then, with a hint of indulgence, she shook her head. “We’ve moved past her.”
He thought a moment—as of where this placed them. “She’d do anything then for THEM.”
He paused for a moment, considering where that left them. “She’d do anything for THEM.”
“Well, so would we—so that doesn’t help us. She has broken down. She doesn’t understand us. And really, my dear,” Charlotte added, “Fanny Assingham doesn’t matter.”
“Well, so would we—so that doesn’t help us. She has broken down. She doesn’t understand us. And really, my dear,” Charlotte added, “Fanny Assingham doesn’t matter.”
He wondered again. “Unless as taking care of THEM.”
He pondered once more. “Unless it’s about taking care of THEM.”
“Ah,” Charlotte instantly said, “isn’t it for us, only, to do that?” She spoke as with a flare of pride for their privilege and their duty. “I think we want no one’s aid.”
“Ah,” Charlotte immediately said, “isn’t it just for us to do that?” She spoke with a sense of pride in their privilege and their responsibility. “I don’t think we need anyone’s help.”
She spoke indeed with a nobleness not the less effective for coming in so oddly; with a sincerity visible even through the complicated twist by which any effort to protect the father and the daughter seemed necessarily conditioned for them. It moved him, in any case, as if some spring of his own, a weaker one, had suddenly been broken by it. These things, all the while, the privilege, the duty, the opportunity, had been the substance of his own vision; they formed the note he had been keeping back to show her that he was not, in their so special situation, without a responsible view. A conception that he could name, and could act on, was something that now, at last, not to be too eminent a fool, he was required by all the graces to produce, and the luminous idea she had herself uttered would have been his expression of it. She had anticipated him, but, as her expression left, for positive beauty, nothing to be desired, he felt rather righted than wronged. A large response, as he looked at her, came into his face, a light of excited perception all his own, in the glory of which—as it almost might be called—what he gave her back had the value of what she had, given him. “They’re extraordinarily happy.”
She spoke with a nobleness that was even more impactful because of its oddness; her sincerity shone through the complicated way she tried to protect both the father and daughter. It moved him, as if a weaker part of himself had suddenly been set free. All the while, the privilege, the duty, and the opportunity had been the core of his own vision; they represented the point he had been holding back to show her that he wasn’t without a responsible perspective in their unique situation. He needed to articulate and act on a concept, and the brilliant idea she had expressed would have been his way of doing that. She had seen it before him, but since her expression was so beautifully perfect, he felt more validated than slighted. As he looked at her, a strong response overtook his face, a light of excitement that belonged solely to him, in which what he returned to her matched the value of what she had given him. “They’re incredibly happy.”
Oh, Charlotte’s measure of it was only too full. “Beatifically.”
Oh, Charlotte's understanding of it was definitely spot on. “Beatifically.”
“That’s the great thing,” he went on; “so that it doesn’t matter, really, that one doesn’t understand. Besides, you do—enough.”
"That’s the great thing," he continued; "so it really doesn’t matter if you don’t fully understand. Besides, you do—enough."
“I understand my husband perhaps,” she after an instant conceded. “I don’t understand your wife.”
“I get my husband, I guess,” she admitted after a moment. “I don’t understand your wife.”
“You’re of the same race, at any rate—more or less; of the same general tradition and education, of the same moral paste. There are things you have in common with them. But I, on my side, as I’ve gone on trying to see if I haven’t some of these things too—I, on my side, have more and more failed. There seem at last to be none worth mentioning. I can’t help seeing it—I’m decidedly too different.”
“You’re part of the same race, more or less; you share the same general tradition and education, the same basic values. There are things you have in common with them. But on my end, as I’ve tried to figure out if I share any of these things too—I’ve increasingly realized that I don’t. It seems there are really none worth mentioning. I can’t help but notice it—I’m definitely too different.”
“Yet you’re not”—Charlotte made the important point—“too different from ME.”
“Yet you’re not”—Charlotte made the important point—“too different from me.”
“I don’t know—as we’re not married. That brings things out. Perhaps if we were,” he said, “you WOULD find some abyss of divergence.”
“I don’t know—since we’re not married. That changes things. Maybe if we were,” he said, “you WOULD find some deep difference.”
“Since it depends on that then,” she smiled, “I’m safe—as you are anyhow. Moreover, as one has so often had occasion to feel, and even to remark, they’re very, very simple. That makes,” she added, “a difficulty for belief; but when once one has taken it in it makes less difficulty for action. I HAVE at last, for myself, I think, taken it in. I’m not afraid.”
“Since it relies on that then,” she smiled, “I’m safe—as you are anyway. Plus, as we’ve often felt and even mentioned, they’re really, really simple. That creates,” she added, “a challenge for belief; but once you understand it, it makes things easier for action. I HAVE finally, for myself, I think, understood it. I’m not afraid.”
He wondered a moment. “Not afraid of what?”
He paused for a moment. “What’s there to be afraid of?”
“Well, generally, of some beastly mistake. Especially of any mistake founded on one’s idea of their difference. For that idea,” Charlotte developed, “positively makes one so tender.”
“Well, usually, it’s because of some awful mistake. Especially one based on our perception of differences. Because that perception,” Charlotte elaborated, “really makes us so sensitive.”
“Ah, but rather!”
“Ah, but actually!”
“Well then, there it is. I can’t put myself into Maggie’s skin—I can’t, as I say. It’s not my fit—I shouldn’t be able, as I see it, to breathe in it. But I can feel that I’d do anything—to shield it from a bruise. Tender as I am for her too,” she went on, “I think I’m still more so for my husband. HE’S in truth of a sweet simplicity—!”
"Well then, there it is. I can’t put myself in Maggie’s shoes—I really can’t. It’s just not for me—I wouldn’t be able to, as I see it, to breathe in her skin. But I know I’d do anything to protect her from getting hurt. As much as I care for her, I think I care even more for my husband. He really is just so wonderfully simple—!"
The Prince turned over a while the sweet simplicity of Mr. Verver. “Well, I don’t know that I can choose. At night all cats are grey. I only see how, for so many reasons, we ought to stand toward them—and how, to do ourselves justice, we do. It represents for us a conscious care—”
The Prince thought for a moment about Mr. Verver's charming simplicity. “Well, I’m not sure I can decide. At night, all cats look the same. I just see how, for so many reasons, we should approach them—and how, to be fair to ourselves, we actually do. It shows that we have a deliberate concern—”
“Of every hour, literally,” said Charlotte. She could rise to the highest measure of the facts. “And for which we must trust each other—!”
“Every single hour, honestly,” said Charlotte. She could handle the highest level of the facts. “And for that, we have to trust each other—!”
“Oh, as we trust the saints in glory. Fortunately,” the Prince hastened to add, “we can.” With which, as for the full assurance and the pledge it involved, their hands instinctively found their hands. “It’s all too wonderful.”
“Oh, just like we trust the saints in heaven. Luckily,” the Prince quickly added, “we can.” With that, as if for the full assurance and promise it brought, their hands instinctively found each other. “It’s all too amazing.”
Firmly and gravely she kept his hand. “It’s too beautiful.”
Firmly and seriously, she held his hand. “It’s too beautiful.”
And so for a minute they stood together, as strongly held and as closely confronted as any hour of their easier past even had seen them. They were silent at first, only facing and faced, only grasping and grasped, only meeting and met. “It’s sacred,” he said at last.
And so for a minute they stood together, as tightly bound and as closely facing each other as they ever had in their simpler past. They were silent at first, just looking at each other, just holding on, just connecting. “It’s sacred,” he finally said.
“It’s sacred,” she breathed back to him. They vowed it, gave it out and took it in, drawn, by their intensity, more closely together. Then of a sudden, through this tightened circle, as at the issue of a narrow strait into the sea beyond, everything broke up, broke down, gave way, melted and mingled. Their lips sought their lips, their pressure their response and their response their pressure; with a violence that had sighed itself the next moment to the longest and deepest of stillnesses they passionately sealed their pledge.
“It’s sacred,” she whispered back to him. They promised it, shared it, and embraced it, drawn closer together by their intensity. Then, all of a sudden, through this tight circle, like passing from a narrow strait into the open sea beyond, everything shattered, fell apart, gave way, melted, and blended. Their lips found each other, their pressure met their response, and their response met their pressure; with a force that soon softened into the longest and deepest silence, they passionately sealed their commitment.
XIX
XIX
He had taken it from her, as we have seen, moreover, that Fanny Assingham didn’t now matter—the “now” he had even himself supplied, as no more than fair to his sense of various earlier stages; and, though his assent remained scarce more than tacit, his behaviour, for the hour, so fell into line that, for many days, he kept postponing the visit he had promised his old friend on the occasion of their talk at the Foreign Office. With regret, none the less, would he have seen it quite extinguished, that theory of their relation as attached pupil and kind instructress in which they had from the first almost equally found a convenience. It had been he, no doubt, who had most put it forward, since his need of knowledge fairly exceeded her mild pretension; but he had again and again repeated to her that he should never, without her, have been where he was, and she had not successfully concealed the pleasure it might give her to believe it, even after the question of where he was had begun to show itself as rather more closed than open to interpretation. It had never indeed, before that evening, come up as during the passage at the official party, and he had for the first time at those moments, a little disappointedly, got the impression of a certain failure, on the dear woman’s part, of something he was aware of having always rather freely taken for granted in her. Of what exactly the failure consisted he would still perhaps have felt it a little harsh to try to say; and if she had in fact, as by Charlotte’s observation, “broken down,” the details of the collapse would be comparatively unimportant. They came to the same thing, all such collapses—the failure of courage, the failure of friendship, or the failure just simply of tact; for didn’t any one of them by itself amount really to the failure of wit?—which was the last thing he had expected of her and which would be but another name for the triumph of stupidity. It had been Charlotte’s remark that they were at last “beyond” her; whereas he had ever enjoyed believing that a certain easy imagination in her would keep up with him to the end. He shrank from affixing a label to Mrs. Assingham’s want of faith; but when he thought, at his ease, of the way persons who were capable really entertained—or at least with any refinement—the passion of personal loyalty, he figured for them a play of fancy neither timorous nor scrupulous. So would his personal loyalty, if need be, have accepted the adventure for the good creature herself; to that definite degree that he had positively almost missed the luxury of some such call from her. That was what it all came back to again with these people among whom he was married—that one found one used one’s imagination mainly for wondering how they contrived so little to appeal to it. He felt at moments as if there were never anything to do for them that was worthy—to call worthy—of the personal relation; never any charming charge to take of any confidence deeply reposed. He might vulgarly have put it that one had never to plot or to lie for them; he might humourously have put it that one had never, as by the higher conformity, to lie in wait with the dagger or to prepare, insidiously, the cup. These were the services that, by all romantic tradition, were consecrated to affection quite as much as to hate. But he could amuse himself with saying—so far as the amusement went—that they were what he had once for all turned his back on.
He had taken it from her, as we've seen, and it didn’t really matter to Fanny Assingham anymore—the “now” he even supplied himself, as it seemed fair considering various earlier stages; and although his agreement was hardly more than implied, his behavior for the time was in line that he kept putting off the visit he had promised his old friend after their talk at the Foreign Office. He would have regretted seeing extinguished that theory of their relationship as devoted student and kind teacher, which they had both found convenient from the start. It had definitely been him who had pushed that idea more since he needed knowledge far more than her mild pretensions; but he had repeatedly told her that he would never have gotten to where he was without her, and she hadn’t hidden the pleasure it gave her to believe that, even when the question of where he was started to seem more closed than open to interpretation. It had never really come up before that evening like it did at the official party, and for the first time at those moments, a little disappointingly, he felt a sense of failure on the dear woman’s part regarding something he had always taken for granted in her. He might have still thought it a bit harsh to pin down exactly what the failure was; and if she had indeed, as Charlotte pointed out, “broken down,” the specifics of that collapse would be relatively unimportant. They all amounted to the same thing—the failure of courage, the failure of friendship, or just simply the failure of tact; because didn’t any one of those really mean the failure of wit?—which was the last thing he expected from her and which would be just another way of saying the triumph of stupidity. It had been Charlotte’s remark that they were finally “beyond” her; whereas he had always liked to think that her easy imagination would keep up with him to the end. He hesitated to label Mrs. Assingham’s lack of faith; but when he thought about how people capable of true personal loyalty entertained that passion—especially with any kind of refinement—he imagined a playful fancy that was neither timid nor overly cautious. His own loyalty would have, if necessary, embraced the adventure for her sake; to such an extent that he had almost missed the luxury of her calling on him for it. That’s what it always came back to with these people he was married to—that he often found himself using his imagination mostly to wonder why they managed so little to appeal to it. At times, he felt there was never anything truly worthy of that personal relationship; never any charming responsibility to take on any deep confidence. He might crudely say that one never had to scheme or lie for them; he might humorously say that one never had to, in some higher way, lie in wait with a dagger or prepare the cup insidiously. These were the services that, by all romantic tradition, were dedicated to love just as much as to hate. But he could amuse himself with saying—so far as it provided any amusement—that they were what he had once and for all turned his back on.
Fanny was meanwhile frequent, it appeared, in Eaton Square; so much he gathered from the visitor who was not infrequent, least of all at tea-time, during the same period, in Portland Place; though they had little need to talk of her after practically agreeing that they had outlived her. To the scene of these conversations and suppressions Mrs. Assingham herself made, actually, no approach; her latest view of her utility seeming to be that it had found in Eaton Square its most urgent field. It was finding there in fact everything and everyone but the Prince, who mostly, just now, kept away, or who, at all events, on the interspaced occasions of his calling, happened not to encounter the only person from whom he was a little estranged. It would have been all prodigious if he had not already, with Charlotte’s aid, so very considerably lived into it—it would have been all indescribably remarkable, this fact that, with wonderful causes for it so operating on the surface, nobody else, as yet, in the combination, seemed estranged from anybody. If Mrs. Assingham delighted in Maggie she knew by this time how most easily to reach her, and if she was unhappy about Charlotte she knew, by the same reasoning, how most probably to miss that vision of her on which affliction would feed. It might feed of course on finding her so absent from her home—just as this particular phenomenon of her domestic detachment could be, by the anxious mind, best studied there. Fanny was, however, for her reasons, “shy” of Portland Place itself—this was appreciable; so that she might well, after all, have no great light on the question of whether Charlotte’s appearances there were frequent or not, any more than on that of the account they might be keeping of the usual solitude (since it came to this) of the head of that house. There was always, to cover all ambiguities, to constitute a fund of explanation for the divisions of Mrs. Verver’s day, the circumstance that, at the point they had all reached together, Mrs. Verver was definitely and by general acclamation in charge of the “social relations” of the family, literally of those of the two households; as to her genius for representing which in the great world and in the grand style vivid evidence had more and more accumulated. It had been established in the two households at an early stage, and with the highest good-humour, that Charlotte was a, was THE, “social success,” whereas the Princess, though kind, though punctilious, though charming, though in fact the dearest little creature in the world and the Princess into the bargain, was distinctly not, would distinctly never be, and might as well, practically, give it up: whether through being above it or below it, too much outside of it or too much lost in it, too unequipped or too indisposed, didn’t especially matter. What sufficed was that the whole thing, call it appetite or call it patience, the act of representation at large and the daily business of intercourse, fell in with Charlotte’s tested facility and, not much less visibly, with her accommodating, her generous, view of her domestic use. She had come, frankly, into the connection, to do and to be what she could, “no questions asked,” and she had taken over, accordingly, as it stood, and in the finest practical spirit, the burden of a visiting-list that Maggie, originally, left to herself, and left even more to the Principino, had suffered to get inordinately out of hand.
Fanny was often seen in Eaton Square; he picked this up from a visitor who frequently showed up, especially at tea time, during the same period in Portland Place. They didn’t need to discuss her much after practically agreeing that they had moved on from her. Mrs. Assingham didn’t actually engage in these conversations or self-censorship; she seemed to think her usefulness was most needed in Eaton Square. There, in fact, she was finding everything and everyone except the Prince, who was mostly keeping his distance or, at least, when he did drop by, he didn’t run into the one person he was a bit estranged from. It would have been incredible if he hadn’t, with Charlotte's help, already gotten deeply involved—it would have been truly remarkable that, despite the many reasons for it, no one else in the group seemed disconnected from anyone else. If Mrs. Assingham had taken pleasure in Maggie, she had figured out how to easily reach her, and if she felt unhappy about Charlotte, she clearly knew how to avoid that vision of her which her distress would thrive on. This distress could stem from finding Charlotte so absent from her home—just as this particular aspect of her domestic detachment could be best observed there by an anxious mind. However, for her own reasons, Fanny was hesitant to visit Portland Place—it was clear. So, she might not have had much insight into whether Charlotte’s visits there were frequent or not, nor into the usual solitude of the head of that household. To clarify all uncertainties, there was always the point that Mrs. Verver, at their current stage, was recognized by everyone as being in charge of the “social relations” of the family, literally those of both households; evidence of her talent for representing this in the wider world and in a grand manner had increasingly accumulated. It had been established early on, with much good humor, that Charlotte was the social star, while the Princess, although kind, precise, charming, and indeed the sweetest little creature in the world, was definitely not one, would never be one, and might as well give it up: whether that was due to being above or below it, too far outside of it, or too lost in it, too unprepared, or too unwilling, didn't particularly matter. What mattered was that the entire situation—whether you called it desire or patience, the act of representing broadly and the daily interactions—aligned with Charlotte’s proven ability and her accommodating, generous approach to her domestic role. She had frankly come into the situation to do what she could, “no questions asked,” and had taken on the responsibility of a guest list that Maggie, originally left to herself and even more to the Principino, had allowed to get completely out of control.
She had in a word not only mounted, cheerfully, the London treadmill—she had handsomely professed herself, for the further comfort of the three others, sustained in the effort by a “frivolous side,” if that were not too harsh a name for a pleasant constitutional curiosity. There were possibilities of dulness, ponderosities of practice, arid social sands, the bad quarters-of-an-hour that turned up like false pieces in a debased currency, of which she made, on principle, very nearly as light as if she had not been clever enough to distinguish. The Prince had, on this score, paid her his compliment soon after her return from her wedding-tour in America, where, by all accounts, she had wondrously borne the brunt; facing brightly, at her husband’s side, everything that came up—and what had come, often, was beyond words: just as, precisely, with her own interest only at stake, she had thrown up the game during the visit paid before her marriage. The discussion of the American world, the comparison of notes, impressions and adventures, had been all at hand, as a ground of meeting for Mrs. Verver and her husband’s son-in-law, from the hour of the reunion of the two couples. Thus it had been, in short, that Charlotte could, for her friend’s appreciation, so promptly make her point; even using expressions from which he let her see, at the hour, that he drew amusement of his own. “What could be more simple than one’s going through with everything,” she had asked, “when it’s so plain a part of one’s contract? I’ve got so much, by my marriage”—for she had never for a moment concealed from him how “much” she had felt it and was finding it “that I should deserve no charity if I stinted my return. Not to do that, to give back on the contrary all one can, are just one’s decency and one’s honour and one’s virtue. These things, henceforth, if you’re interested to know, are my rule of life, the absolute little gods of my worship, the holy images set up on the wall. Oh yes, since I’m not a brute,” she had wound up, “you shall see me as I AM!” Which was therefore as he had seen her—dealing always, from month to month, from day to day and from one occasion to the other, with the duties of a remunerated office. Her perfect, her brilliant efficiency had doubtless, all the while, contributed immensely to the pleasant ease in which her husband and her husband’s daughter were lapped. It had in fact probably done something more than this—it had given them a finer and sweeter view of the possible scope of that ease. They had brought her in—on the crudest expression of it—to do the “worldly” for them, and she had done it with such genius that they had themselves in consequence renounced it even more than they had originally intended. In proportion as she did it, moreover, was she to be relieved of other and humbler doings; which minor matters, by the properest logic, devolved therefore upon Maggie, in whose chords and whose province they more naturally lay. Not less naturally, by the same token, they included the repair, at the hands of the latter young woman, of every stitch conceivably dropped by Charlotte in Eaton Square. This was homely work, but that was just what made it Maggie’s. Bearing in mind dear Amerigo, who was so much of her own great mundane feather, and whom the homeliness in question didn’t, no doubt, quite equally provide for—that would be, to balance, just in a manner Charlotte’s very most charming function, from the moment Charlotte could be got adequately to recognise it.
She had, in short, not only jumped back into the hustle and bustle of London, but she had cheerily declared herself, for the comfort of her three companions, uplifted by a “frivolous side,” if that wasn’t too harsh a term for a pleasant curiosity. There were risks of boredom, the heaviness of routine, dry social interactions, and those awkward moments that popped up like counterfeit coins in a flawed currency—yet she managed to brush them off as if she couldn’t tell the difference. The Prince had complimented her on this soon after she returned from her honeymoon in America, where she had bravely handled everything that came her way alongside her husband—even though what arose was often beyond words. Just as she had, purely for her own interest, given up during the visit before her marriage, the conversations about the American scene, sharing notes, impressions, and experiences, had been plentiful since the reunion of the two couples. This is why Charlotte could quickly make her point for her friend’s appreciation, even using phrases that showed him she was having her own fun in the moment. “What could be simpler than going through with everything,” she had asked, “when it’s such a clear part of the contract? I’ve gained so much from my marriage”—she had never hidden from him how “much” that meant to her and that she felt it “would be selfish of me not to give back. To do the opposite, to return everything I can, is just basic decency, honor, and virtue. These principles, if you’re curious, are my guiding rules from now on, my little gods to worship, the holy figures on my wall. Oh yes, since I’m not a savage,” she concluded, “you’ll see me as I AM!” Which was exactly how he had always seen her—managing, month by month, day by day, and from one event to another, the responsibilities of a paid position. Her perfect, brilliant efficiency had undoubtedly added to the comfortable ease surrounding her husband and her husband’s daughter. In fact, it probably did even more—it gave them a richer and sweeter perspective on that ease. They had brought her in—using the simplest expression—to handle the “social” side for them, and she had done it so expertly that they had even chosen to step back from it more than they initially planned. The more she took on, the less they had to deal with other, simpler tasks; those were logically left to Maggie, for whom they were much more suited. Similarly, it naturally fell to the latter young woman to fix every little thing that Charlotte had overlooked in Eaton Square. This was down-to-earth work, but that was exactly what made it Maggie’s domain. Considering dear Amerigo, who shared so much of her worldly essence, and recognizing that this homely task probably wouldn’t quite fit him—this would essentially balance Charlotte's most delightful role, as soon as Charlotte could genuinely acknowledge it.
Well, that Charlotte might be appraised as at last not ineffectually recognising it, was a reflection that, during the days with which we are actually engaged, completed in the Prince’s breast these others, these images and ruminations of his leisure, these gropings and fittings of his conscience and his experience, that we have attempted to set in order there. They bore him company, not insufficiently—considering, in especial, his fuller resources in that line—while he worked out—to the last lucidity the principle on which he forbore either to seek Fanny out in Cadogan Place or to perpetrate the error of too marked an assiduity in Eaton Square. This error would be his not availing himself to the utmost of the convenience of any artless theory of his constitution, or of Charlotte’s, that might prevail there. That artless theories could and did prevail was a fact he had ended by accepting, under copious evidence, as definite and ultimate; and it consorted with common prudence, with the simplest economy of life, not to be wasteful of any odd gleaning. To haunt Eaton Square, in fine, would be to show that he had not, like his brilliant associate, a sufficiency of work in the world. It was just his having that sufficiency, it was just their having it together, that, so strangely and so blessedly, made, as they put it to each other, everything possible. What further propped up the case, moreover, was that the “world,” by still another beautiful perversity of their chance, included Portland Place without including to anything like the same extent Eaton Square. The latter residence, at the same time, it must promptly be added, did, on occasion, wake up to opportunity and, as giving itself a frolic shake, send out a score of invitations—one of which fitful flights, precisely, had, before Easter, the effect of disturbing a little our young man’s measure of his margin. Maggie, with a proper spirit, held that her father ought from time to time to give a really considered dinner, and Mr. Verver, who had as little idea as ever of not meeting expectation, was of the harmonious opinion that his wife ought. Charlotte’s own judgment was, always, that they were ideally free—the proof of which would always be, she maintained, that everyone they feared they might most have alienated by neglect would arrive, wreathed with smiles, on the merest hint of a belated signal. Wreathed in smiles, all round, truly enough, these apologetic banquets struck Amerigo as being; they were, frankly, touching occasions to him, marked, in the great London bousculade, with a small, still grace of their own, an investing amenity and humanity. Everybody came, everybody rushed; but all succumbed to the soft influence, and the brutality of mere multitude, of curiosity without tenderness, was put off, at the foot of the fine staircase, with the overcoats and shawls. The entertainment offered a few evenings before Easter, and at which Maggie and he were inevitably present as guests, was a discharge of obligations not insistently incurred, and had thereby, possibly, all the more, the note of this almost Arcadian optimism: a large, bright, dull, murmurous, mild-eyed, middle-aged dinner, involving for the most part very bland, though very exalted, immensely announceable and hierarchically placeable couples, and followed, without the oppression of a later contingent, by a brief instrumental concert, over the preparation of which, the Prince knew, Maggie’s anxiety had conferred with Charlotte’s ingenuity and both had supremely revelled, as it were, in Mr. Verver’s solvency.
Well, the fact that Charlotte might finally be recognized as not completely ineffective was a thought that, during the days we are currently navigating, completed in the Prince’s mind these other images and reflections of his leisure—his struggles and adjustments with his conscience and experiences that we have tried to organize. They kept him company, considering especially his greater resources in that area, while he worked out—to the last clarity—the reason he avoided either looking for Fanny in Cadogan Place or making the mistake of being too overly attentive in Eaton Square. This mistake would be his failure to fully take advantage of any straightforward theory about his or Charlotte’s nature that might apply there. He had come to accept, with abundant evidence, that simple theories could and did exist as definite and final; and it was wise, aligned with the simplest way of living, not to waste any small opportunity. To frequent Eaton Square, in short, would suggest that he did not have, unlike his brilliant colleague, a sufficient amount of work in the world. It was precisely his having that sufficiency and their shared possession of it that, as they said to each other, made everything possible in such a strange and fortunate way. What further supported the situation was that the “world,” representing yet another delightful irony of their situation, included Portland Place without including Eaton Square to anything close to the same extent. It should also be noted that this later residence did occasionally awaken to opportunities and, as if giving itself a playful shake, send out a flurry of invitations—one of which, in fact, before Easter, caused a slight disruption in our young man’s sense of his own boundaries. Maggie, with the right spirit, insisted that her father should occasionally host a well-thought-out dinner, and Mr. Verver, who had no notion of disappointing expectations, agreed wholeheartedly that his wife should. Charlotte always believed that they were ideally free—the proof of which, she maintained, would be that everyone they feared they might have alienated through neglect would show up, beaming, at the slightest hint of a late invitation. Truly enough, these apologetic gatherings seemed to Amerigo to be filled with smiles all around; they were, frankly, touching events for him, marked amidst the bustling chaos of London with a small, quiet grace, an inherent charm and humanity. Everyone came, everyone rushed; but they all yielded to the gentle influence, and the harshness of mere crowds or curiosity without warmth was left behind at the foot of the grand staircase with coats and shawls. The gathering held a few evenings before Easter, at which Maggie and he were inevitably present as guests, was a casual fulfillment of duties not strictly required, and thus perhaps possessed even more of this almost idyllic optimism: a large, bright, dull, murmurous, mild-eyed, middle-aged dinner, mainly featuring very agreeable, though very distinguished, immensely notable and socially ranked couples, followed without the pressure of a later crowd by a brief instrumental concert, for which, the Prince knew, Maggie’s concern had collaborated with Charlotte’s cleverness—and both had immensely enjoyed, as it were, Mr. Verver’s financial stability.
The Assinghams were there, by prescription, though quite at the foot of the social ladder, and with the Colonel’s wife, in spite of her humility of position, the Prince was more inwardly occupied than with any other person except Charlotte. He was occupied with Charlotte because, in the first place, she looked so inordinately handsome and held so high, where so much else was mature and sedate, the torch of responsive youth and the standard of passive grace; and because of the fact that, in the second, the occasion, so far as it referred itself with any confidence of emphasis to a hostess, seemed to refer itself preferentially, well-meaningly and perversely, to Maggie. It was not indistinguishable to him, when once they were all stationed, that his wife too had in perfection her own little character; but he wondered how it managed so visibly to simplify itself—and this, he knew, in spite of any desire she entertained—to the essential air of having overmuch on her mind the felicity, and indeed the very conduct and credit, of the feast. He knew, as well, the other things of which her appearance was at any time—and in Eaton Square especially—made up: her resemblance to her father, at times so vivid, and coming out, in the delicate warmth of occasions, like the quickened fragrance of a flower; her resemblance, as he had hit it off for her once in Rome, in the first flushed days, after their engagement, to a little dancing-girl at rest, ever so light of movement but most often panting gently, even a shade compunctiously, on a bench; her approximation, finally—for it was analogy, somehow, more than identity—to the transmitted images of rather neutral and negative propriety that made up, in his long line, the average of wifehood and motherhood. If the Roman matron had been, in sufficiency, first and last, the honour of that line, Maggie would no doubt, at fifty, have expanded, have solidified to some such dignity, even should she suggest a little but a Cornelia in miniature. A light, however, broke for him in season, and when once it had done so it made him more than ever aware of Mrs. Verver’s vaguely, yet quite exquisitely, contingent participation—a mere hinted or tendered discretion; in short of Mrs. Verver’s indescribable, unfathomable relation to the scene. Her placed condition, her natural seat and neighbourhood, her intenser presence, her quieter smile, her fewer jewels, were inevitably all as nothing compared with the preoccupation that burned in Maggie like a small flame and that had in fact kindled in each of her cheeks a little attesting, but fortunately by no means unbecoming, spot. The party was her father’s party, and its greater or smaller success was a question having for her all the importance of his importance; so that sympathy created for her a sort of visible suspense, under pressure of which she bristled with filial reference, with little filial recalls of expression, movement, tone. It was all unmistakable, and as pretty as possible, if one would, and even as funny; but it put the pair so together, as undivided by the marriage of each, that the Princess il n’y avait pas a dire—might sit where she liked: she would still, always, in that house, be irremediably Maggie Verver. The Prince found himself on this occasion so beset with that perception that its natural complement for him would really have been to wonder if Mr. Verver had produced on people something of the same impression in the recorded cases of his having dined with his daughter.
The Assinghams were there, by custom, even though they were at the bottom of the social ladder, and the Prince was more engaged with the Colonel’s wife, despite her humble position, than with anyone else except Charlotte. He was interested in Charlotte because, first, she looked incredibly beautiful and represented the vibrant spirit of youth and grace amidst the more mature and composed surroundings; and second, because the event, regarding a hostess, seemed to focus preferentially, well-meaning yet ironically, on Maggie. Once they were all settled, it became clear to him that his wife had her own distinct character; however, he was curious how it effortlessly exposed itself—to his knowledge, despite her intentions—to a hint of being overwhelmed by the joy, and indeed the very management and reputation, of the gathering. He also recognized the other elements that her presence at any moment—and particularly in Eaton Square—conveyed: her resemblance to her father, which was sometimes striking and emerged, in the warm glow of the occasion, like a vibrant bloom; her likeness, as he had once noted in Rome during their early engagement, to a little dancing-girl at rest, moving lightly yet often gently panting, perhaps a bit regretfully, on a bench; and her comparison, ultimately—more like an analogy than mere similarity—to the conveyed images of somewhat neutral and modest propriety that represented, in his long lineage, the norm of wifehood and motherhood. If the Roman matron had been, above all, the pride of that lineage, Maggie would undoubtedly, at fifty, have grown into a similar dignity, even if she suggested a miniature version of Cornelia. However, a realization dawned on him, and once it did, he became increasingly aware of Mrs. Verver’s subtly yet exquisitely contingent involvement—a mere hint or gentle discretion; in short, the indescribable and unfathomable connection Mrs. Verver had to the scene. Her position, her natural space and proximity, her more intense presence, her softer smile, and her fewer jewels were all insignificant compared to the intense focus that glowed in Maggie like a small flame, which had indeed lit a little telling, yet fortunately not unflattering, spot on each of her cheeks. The gathering was her father's event, and its overall success held for her all the weight of his significance; thus, sympathy created an almost visible tension for her, under which she bubbled with daughterly references, little reminders in her expression, movement, and tone. It was all unmistakable and as charming as could be, even somewhat amusing; but it brought the couple so close together, as if unbroken by their respective marriages, that the Princess—there was no doubt—could sit wherever she chose: she would always, in that house, be irretrievably Maggie Verver. On this occasion, the Prince found himself so overwhelmed by this understanding that he actually wondered if Mr. Verver had left people with a similar impression in the documented instances of his dinners with his daughter.
This backward speculation, had it begun to play, however, would have been easily arrested; for it was at present to come over Amerigo as never before that his remarkable father-in-law was the man in the world least equipped with different appearances for different hours. He was simple, he was a revelation of simplicity, and that was the end of him so far as he consisted of an appearance at all—a question that might verily, for a weakness in it, have been argued. It amused our young man, who was taking his pleasure to-night, it will be seen, in sundry occult ways, it amused him to feel how everything else the master of the house consisted of, resources, possessions, facilities and amiabilities amplified by the social legend, depended, for conveying the effect of quantity, on no personal “equation,” no mere measurable medium. Quantity was in the air for these good people, and Mr. Verver’s estimable quality was almost wholly in that pervasion. He was meagre and modest and clearbrowed, and his eyes, if they wandered without fear, yet stayed without defiance; his shoulders were not broad, his chest was not high, his complexion was not fresh, and the crown of his head was not covered; in spite of all of which he looked, at the top of his table, so nearly like a little boy shyly entertaining in virtue of some imposed rank, that he COULD only be one of the powers, the representative of a force—quite as an infant king is the representative of a dynasty. In this generalised view of his father-in-law, intensified to-night but always operative, Amerigo had now for some time taken refuge. The refuge, after the reunion of the two households in England, had more and more offered itself as the substitute for communities, from man to man, that, by his original calculation, might have become possible, but that had not really ripened and flowered. He met the decent family eyes across the table, met them afterwards in the music-room, but only to read in them still what he had learned to read during his first months, the time of over-anxious initiation, a kind of apprehension in which the terms and conditions were finally fixed and absolute. This directed regard rested at its ease, but it neither lingered nor penetrated, and was, to the Prince’s fancy, much of the same order as any glance directed, for due attention, from the same quarter, to the figure of a cheque received in the course of business and about to be enclosed to a banker. It made sure of the amount—and just so, from time to time, the amount of the Prince was made sure. He was being thus, in renewed instalments, perpetually paid in; he already reposed in the bank as a value, but subject, in this comfortable way, to repeated, to infinite endorsement. The net result of all of which, moreover, was that the young man had no wish to see his value diminish. He himself, after all, had not fixed it—the “figure” was a conception all of Mr. Verver’s own. Certainly, however, everything must be kept up to it; never so much as to-night had the Prince felt this. He would have been uncomfortable, as these quiet expressions passed, had the case not been guaranteed for him by the intensity of his accord with Charlotte. It was impossible that he should not now and again meet Charlotte’s eyes, as it was also visible that she too now and again met her husband’s. For her as well, in all his pulses, he felt the conveyed impression. It put them, it kept them together, through the vain show of their separation, made the two other faces, made the whole lapse of the evening, the people, the lights, the flowers, the pretended talk, the exquisite music, a mystic golden bridge between them, strongly swaying and sometimes almost vertiginous, for that intimacy of which the sovereign law would be the vigilance of “care,” would be never rashly to forget and never consciously to wound.
This backward thinking, if it had begun to surface, would have been easily stopped; for it was clear to Amerigo that his remarkable father-in-law was the least capable person in the world of changing his appearance for different occasions. He was simple, a true embodiment of simplicity, and that was all there was to him in terms of appearance—a question that could certainly have been debated due to its inherent weakness. It amused our young man, who was enjoying himself tonight in various hidden ways, to realize that everything else the master of the house was made of—his resources, possessions, facilities, and friendliness, all amplified by social reputation—relied, for creating a sense of abundance, on no personal “equation,” no measurable factor. Abundance was in the air for these good people, and Mr. Verver’s admirable quality was almost entirely in that atmosphere. He was thin and modest with a clear brow; his eyes, though wandering without fear, stayed without challenge; his shoulders weren't broad, his chest wasn't deep, his complexion wasn't fresh, and his head was bare; despite all this, he looked, sitting at the top of the table, almost like a little boy shyly playing host because of some imposed status, making him a figure of authority, much like a young king represents a dynasty. In this generalized view of his father-in-law, heightened tonight but always present, Amerigo had taken refuge for some time. This refuge, after the reunion of the two families in England, increasingly served as a substitute for relationships, man to man, that he initially thought might develop, but which had never truly blossomed. He met the respectable family eyes across the table, later in the music room, only to read in them what he had learned to understand during his initial visits—a kind of apprehension where the terms and conditions were ultimately set and absolute. This directed gaze was relaxed, but it neither lingered nor probed, and was, in the Prince’s view, much like any glance of due interest directed from the same source toward a cheque received in the course of business, ready to be sent to a bank. It confirmed the amount—and similarly, from time to time, the Prince's worth was confirmed. He was, in effect, being continually paid in renewed installments; he already had value in the bank but was, in this comfortable manner, subject to repeated, endless endorsement. The net result of all this was that the young man had no desire to see his value decrease. After all, he hadn't defined it—the “figure” was entirely Mr. Verver's own concept. However, everything had to maintain that standard; never had the Prince felt this more acutely than tonight. He would have felt uneasy, as these calm exchanges occurred, if his sense of security hadn’t been assured by the strength of his connection with Charlotte. It was inevitable that he would occasionally meet Charlotte’s eyes, just as it was clear that she too occasionally met her husband’s. For her, as well, he felt that underlying connection. It united them despite the superficial division, making the two other faces, the entire course of the evening, the people, the lights, the flowers, the superficial conversation, the beautiful music, a mystical golden bridge between them—strongly swaying and sometimes almost dizzying—for that intimacy whose guiding principle was the vigilance of “care,” ensuring that they would never forget or consciously hurt one another.
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The main interest of these hours for us, however, will have been in the way the Prince continued to know, during a particular succession of others, separated from the evening in Eaton Square by a short interval, a certain persistent aftertaste. This was the lingering savour of a cup presented to him by Fanny Assingham’s hand after dinner, while the clustered quartette kept their ranged companions, in the music-room, moved if one would, but conveniently motionless. Mrs. Assingham contrived, after a couple of pieces, to convey to her friend that, for her part, she was moved—by the genius of Brahms—beyond what she could bear; so that, without apparent deliberation, she had presently floated away, at the young man’s side, to such a distance as permitted them to converse without the effect of disdain. It was the twenty minutes enjoyed with her, during the rest of the concert, in the less associated electric glare of one of the empty rooms—it was their achieved and, as he would have said, successful, most pleasantly successful, talk on one of the sequestered sofas, it was this that was substantially to underlie his consciousness of the later occasion. The later occasion, then mere matter of discussion, had formed her ground for desiring—in a light undertone into which his quick ear read indeed some nervousness—these independent words with him: she had sounded, covertly but distinctly, by the time they were seated together, the great question of what it might involve. It had come out for him before anything else, and so abruptly that this almost needed an explanation. Then the abruptness itself had appeared to explain—which had introduced, in turn, a slight awkwardness. “Do you know that they’re not, after all, going to Matcham; so that, if they don’t—if, at least, Maggie doesn’t—you won’t, I suppose, go by yourself?” It was, as I say, at Matcham, where the event had placed him, it was at Matcham during the Easter days, that it most befell him, oddly enough, to live over, inwardly, for its wealth of special significance, this passage by which the event had been really a good deal determined. He had paid, first and last, many an English country visit; he had learned, even from of old, to do the English things, and to do them, all sufficiently, in the English way; if he didn’t always enjoy them madly he enjoyed them at any rate as much, to an appearance, as the good people who had, in the night of time, unanimously invented them, and who still, in the prolonged afternoon of their good faith, unanimously, even if a trifle automatically, practised them; yet, with it all, he had never so much as during such sojourns the trick of a certain detached, the amusement of a certain inward critical, life; the determined need, which apparently all participant, of returning upon itself, of backing noiselessly in, far in again, and rejoining there, as it were, that part of his mind that was not engaged at the front. His body, very constantly, was engaged at the front—in shooting, in riding, in golfing, in walking, over the fine diagonals of meadow-paths or round the pocketed corners of billiard-tables; it sufficiently, on the whole, in fact, bore the brunt of bridge-playing, of breakfasting, lunching, tea-drinking, dining, and of the nightly climax over the bottigliera, as he called it, of the bristling tray; it met, finally, to the extent of the limited tax on lip, on gesture, on wit, most of the current demands of conversation and expression. Therefore something of him, he often felt at these times, was left out; it was much more when he was alone, or when he was with his own people—or when he was, say, with Mrs. Verver and nobody else—that he moved, that he talked, that he listened, that he felt, as a congruous whole.
The main interest for us during these hours, however, is how the Prince continued to know, during a specific sequence of others, separated from the evening in Eaton Square by a brief interval, a certain persistent aftertaste. This was the lingering flavor of a cup presented to him by Fanny Assingham after dinner, while the grouped quartet kept their arranged companions in the music room, moving if they chose to, but conveniently still. Mrs. Assingham managed, after a couple of pieces, to communicate to her friend that, for her part, she was moved—by the genius of Brahms—more than she could handle; so that, without any apparent planning, she soon glided away, at the young man’s side, to a distance that allowed them to converse without seeming disrespectful. It was the twenty minutes spent with her, during the remainder of the concert, in the softer electric light of one of the empty rooms—it was their enjoyable and, as he would have put it, successful conversation on one of the secluded sofas, that was fundamentally to shape his awareness of the later occasion. The later occasion, then merely a topic of discussion, formed her reason for wanting—in a soft voice that his sharp ear detected carried some nervousness—this direct conversation with him: she had subtly but clearly considered, by the time they were seated together, the crucial question of what it might involve. It had come up for him before anything else, and so suddenly that it almost needed explaining. Then the suddenness itself seemed to explain— which introduced, in turn, a slight awkwardness. “Do you know that they’re not, after all, going to Matcham; so if they don’t—if, at least, Maggie doesn’t—you won’t, I guess, go by yourself?” It was, as I mention, at Matcham, where the event had positioned him, it was at Matcham during the Easter days, that he oddly found himself reflecting inwardly on the wealth of special significance this passage held, as it had played a large role in determining the event. He had made, time and again, many an English country visit; he had learned, even from a long time ago, to engage in English pastimes, and to do them sufficiently in the English way; if he didn’t always enjoy them wildly, he at least enjoyed them enough, on the surface, as much as the good people who, in the distant past, unanimously created them, and who still, in the prolonged afternoon of their good faith, together, even if somewhat mechanically, practiced them; yet, with all that, he had never really possessed, even during such stays, the knack of a certain detached amusement or a certain critical introspection; the determined need, which apparently everyone shared, of retreating back into themselves, quietly going deep within, and reconnecting, so to speak, with that part of his mind that wasn’t focused on the surface. His body was consistently engaged on the surface—in shooting, in riding, in golfing, in walking, across the fine diagonals of meadow paths or around the tucked-away corners of billiard tables; it adequately, overall, bore the weight of playing bridge, having breakfast, lunching, drinking tea, dining, and the nightly highlight over the bottigliera, as he called it, of the bristling tray; it met, finally, to the extent of the limited demands on his lips, gestures, and wit, most of the current requirements of conversation and expression. Therefore, he often felt at these times that something of him was missing; it was much more when he was alone, or when he was with his own people—or when he was, say, with Mrs. Verver and nobody else—that he moved, that he talked, that he listened, that he felt, as a cohesive whole.
“English society,” as he would have said, cut him, accordingly, in two, and he reminded himself often, in his relations with it, of a man possessed of a shining star, a decoration, an order of some sort, something so ornamental as to make his identity not complete, ideally, without it, yet who, finding no other such object generally worn, should be perpetually, and the least bit ruefully, unpinning it from his breast to transfer it to his pocket. The Prince’s shining star may, no doubt, having been nothing more precious than his private subtlety; but whatever the object was he just now fingered it a good deal, out of sight—amounting as it mainly did for him to a restless play of memory and a fine embroidery of thought. Something had rather momentously occurred, in Eaton Square, during his enjoyed minutes with his old friend: his present perspective made definitely clear to him that she had plumped out for him her first little lie. That took on—and he could scarce have said why—a sharpness of importance: she had never lied to him before—if only because it had never come up for her, properly, intelligibly, morally, that she must. As soon as she had put to him the question of what he would do—by which she meant of what Charlotte would also do—in that event of Maggie’s and Mr. Verver’s not embracing the proposal they had appeared for a day or two resignedly to entertain; as soon as she had betrayed her curiosity as to the line the other pair, so left to themselves, might take, a desire to avoid the appearance of at all too directly prying had become marked in her. Betrayed by the solicitude of which she had, already, three weeks before, given him a view, she had been obliged, on a second thought, to name, intelligibly, a reason for her appeal; while the Prince, on his side, had had, not without mercy, his glimpse of her momentarily groping for one and yet remaining unprovided. Not without mercy because, absolutely, he had on the spot, in his friendliness, invented one for her use, presenting it to her with a look no more significant than if he had picked up, to hand back to her, a dropped flower. “You ask if I’m likely also to back out then, because it may make a difference in what you and the Colonel decide?”—he had gone as far as that for her, fairly inviting her to assent, though not having had his impression, from any indication offered him by Charlotte, that the Assinghams were really in question for the large Matcham party. The wonderful thing, after this, was that the active couple had, in the interval, managed to inscribe themselves on the golden roll; an exertion of a sort that, to do her justice, he had never before observed Fanny to make. This last passage of the chapter but proved, after all, with what success she could work when she would.
“English society,” as he would say, split him in two, and he often reminded himself, in his interactions with it, of a man with a shining star, a decoration, some kind of honor, something so ornamental that his identity wouldn't feel complete without it. Yet, finding no other such object typically worn, he would often, and somewhat ruefully, unpin it from his chest to tuck it away in his pocket. The Prince’s shining star might have been nothing more than his private cleverness; but whatever it was, he constantly fidgeted with it out of sight—mainly as a restless play of memory and a delicate weaving of thought. Something important had happened in Eaton Square during his pleasant moments with his old friend: his current viewpoint made it clear that she had just offered him her first little lie. This took on—he couldn't quite say why—a surprising significance: she had never lied to him before—not least because it had never truly arisen for her, in a proper, understandable, moral way, that she needed to. As soon as she asked him what he would do—by which she meant what Charlotte would also do—if Maggie and Mr. Verver did not go along with the proposal they had seemed resigned to consider for a day or two; as soon as she showed her curiosity about how the other couple, left to their own devices, might respond, a desire to avoid looking too directly intrusive had clearly marked her. Revealed by the concern she'd already shown him three weeks earlier, she realized she had to give a clear reason for her question; while the Prince, on his side, had, not without compassion, noticed her momentarily fumbling for one, yet finding herself empty-handed. Not without compassion, because, on the spot, he had in his kindness invented one for her, presenting it to her with a look no more significant than if he had picked up a fallen flower to return to her. “You’re wondering if I'm likely to back out too, since it might affect what you and the Colonel decide?”—he had gone that far for her, clearly inviting her to agree, even though he hadn’t gotten the impression from Charlotte that the Assinghams were really being considered for the big Matcham party. The remarkable thing, after this, was that the active couple had managed, in the meantime, to secure their place on the golden roll; an effort of a kind that, to be fair, he had never seen Fanny make before. This last turn of the chapter just proved how successful she could be when she put her mind to it.
Once launched, himself, at any rate, as he had been directed by all the terms of the intercourse between Portland Place and Eaton Square, once steeped, at Matcham, in the enjoyment of a splendid hospitality, he found everything, for his interpretation, for his convenience, fall easily enough into place; and all the more that Mrs. Verver was at hand to exchange ideas and impressions with. The great house was full of people, of possible new combinations, of the quickened play of possible propinquity, and no appearance, of course, was less to be cultivated than that of his having sought an opportunity to foregather with his friend at a safe distance from their respective sposi. There was a happy boldness, at the best, in their mingling thus, each unaccompanied, in the same sustained sociability—just exactly a touch of that eccentricity of associated freedom which sat so lightly on the imagination of the relatives left behind. They were exposed as much as one would to its being pronounced funny that they should, at such a rate, go about together—though, on the other hand, this consideration drew relief from the fact that, in their high conditions and with the easy tradition, the almost inspiring allowances, of the house in question, no individual line, however freely marked, was pronounced anything more than funny. Both our friends felt afresh, as they had felt before, the convenience of a society so placed that it had only its own sensibility to consider—looking as it did well over the heads of all lower growths; and that moreover treated its own sensibility quite as the easiest, friendliest, most informal and domesticated party to the general alliance. What anyone “thought” of anyone else—above all of anyone else with anyone else—was a matter incurring in these lulls so little awkward formulation that hovering judgment, the spirit with the scales, might perfectly have been imaged there as some rather snubbed and subdued, but quite trained and tactful poor relation, of equal, of the properest, lineage, only of aspect a little dingy, doubtless from too limited a change of dress, for whose tacit and abstemious presence, never betrayed by a rattle of her rusty machine, a room in the attic and a plate at the side-table were decently usual. It was amusing, in such lightness of air, that the Prince should again present himself only to speak for the Princess, so unfortunately unable, again, to leave home; and that Mrs. Verver should as regularly figure as an embodied, a beautifully deprecating apology for her husband, who was all geniality and humility among his own treasures, but as to whom the legend had grown up that he couldn’t bear, with the height of his standards and the tone of the company, in the way of sofas and cabinets, habitually kept by him, the irritation and depression to which promiscuous visiting, even at pompous houses, had been found to expose him. That was all right, the noted working harmony of the clever son-in-law and the charming stepmother, so long as the relation was, for the effect in question, maintained at the proper point between sufficiency and excess.
Once he was put into the situation he had been guided towards by the dynamics between Portland Place and Eaton Square, and once he was indulging in the lavish hospitality at Matcham, everything began to fall into place for him. This was especially true since Mrs. Verver was nearby to share thoughts and impressions. The large house was filled with people, potential new connections, and the exciting interactions that came with being in close proximity to each other. Naturally, the last thing to foster was the appearance that he had sought out his friend at a safe remove from their respective spouses. There was a joyful boldness in their mingling like this, each of them alone but enjoying the same ongoing sociability—just a hint of that quirky freedom that was easy to entertain for their family members left behind. They were just as exposed to the idea that it was amusing for them to be seen together, though, on the other hand, the high social standing and easygoing traditions of the household ensured that no clear boundary, however distinct, was viewed as anything more than amusing. Both friends felt once again the advantage of a community structured to consider only its own sensibility—looking well above the lower classes—and treating its own sensibility as the most easygoing, friendly, informal, and homely element of the overall mix. What anyone thought of anyone else—especially when it involved others—was a topic that attracted so little awkwardness that hovering judgment, the spirit weighing things, could easily be envisioned as a slightly neglected but well-trained and tactful relative, of the right background but somewhat shabby due to a lack of variety in appearance. The tacit presence of this relative, never making a sound, could be symbolized by a room in the attic and a place at the side table, which were perfectly acceptable. It was somewhat amusing, in such a light atmosphere, that the Prince would again appear only to speak on behalf of the Princess, who regrettably was unable to leave home yet again; and that Mrs. Verver would consistently serve as a charming, apologetic stand-in for her husband, who was all warmth and humility among his belongings, but had developed a reputation for being unable to handle the irritation and sadness brought on by socializing, even in fancy houses, given the high standards and quality of decor he maintained. This was fine, the well-known collaboration between the clever son-in-law and the delightful stepmother, as long as their relationship was balanced perfectly between adequacy and excess.
What with the noble fairness of the place, meanwhile, the generous mood of the sunny, gusty, lusty English April, all panting and heaving with impatience, or kicking and crying, even, at moments, like some infant Hercules who wouldn’t be dressed; what with these things and the bravery of youth and beauty, the insolence of fortune and appetite so diffused among his fellow-guests that the poor Assinghams, in their comparatively marked maturity and their comparatively small splendour, were the only approach to a false note in the concert, the stir of the air was such, for going, in a degree, to one’s head, that, as a mere matter of exposure, almost grotesque in its flagrancy, his situation resembled some elaborate practical joke carried out at his expense. Every voice in the great bright house was a call to the ingenuities and impunities of pleasure; every echo was a defiance of difficulty, doubt or danger; every aspect of the picture, a glowing plea for the immediate, and as with plenty more to come, was another phase of the spell. For a world so constituted was governed by a spell, that of the smile of the gods and the favour of the powers; the only handsome, the only gallant, in fact the only intelligent acceptance of which was a faith in its guarantees and a high spirit for its chances. Its demand—to that the thing came back—was above all for courage and good-humour; and the value of this as a general assurance—that is for seeing one through at the worst—had not even in the easiest hours of his old Roman life struck the Prince so convincingly. His old Roman life had had more poetry, no doubt, but as he looked back upon it now it seemed to hang in the air of mere iridescent horizons, to have been loose and vague and thin, with large languorous unaccountable blanks. The present order, as it spread about him, had somehow the ground under its feet, and a trumpet in its ears, and a bottomless bag of solid shining British sovereigns—which was much to the point—in its hand. Courage and good-humour therefore were the breath of the day; though for ourselves at least it would have been also much to the point that, with Amerigo, really, the innermost effect of all this perceptive ease was perhaps a strange final irritation. He compared the lucid result with the extraordinary substitute for perception that presided, in the bosom of his wife, at so contented a view of his conduct and course—a state of mind that was positively like a vicarious good conscience, cultivated ingeniously on his behalf, a perversity of pressure innocently persisted in; and this wonder of irony became on occasion too intense to be kept wholly to himself. It wasn’t that, at Matcham, anything particular, anything monstrous, anything that had to be noticed permitted itself, as they said, to “happen”; there were only odd moments when the breath of the day, as it has been called, struck him so full in the face that he broke out with all the hilarity of “What indeed would THEY have made of it?” “They” were of course Maggie and her father, moping—so far as they ever consented to mope in monotonous Eaton Square, but placid too in the belief that they knew beautifully what their expert companions were in for. They knew, it might have appeared in these lights, absolutely nothing on earth worth speaking of—whether beautifully or cynically; and they would perhaps sometimes be a little less trying if they would only once for all peacefully admit that knowledge wasn’t one of their needs and that they were in fact constitutionally inaccessible to it. They were good children, bless their hearts, and the children of good children; so that, verily, the Principino himself, as less consistently of that descent, might figure to the fancy as the ripest genius of the trio.
With the noble charm of the place and the generous atmosphere of sunny, breezy English April—full of energy and almost throwing a tantrum like a baby Hercules refusing to get dressed—along with the youth and beauty around him, the Assinghams stood out in their noticeably older age and lesser splendor. They felt like the only off-key note in the concert. The lively atmosphere was so overwhelming that it almost felt like a cruel joke aimed at him. Every voice in the bright house called for enjoyment; every echo challenged hardship, doubt, or danger; every scene painted a vivid picture urging immediate action, with more good times to come. This world felt enchanted, ruled by the favor of the gods and fortune; the best approach was to believe in its promises and maintain a positive spirit for whatever might happen. Its main requirement was simply courage and humor, which had never been so compelling to him, even in the happiest moments of his past life. His old life had its share of poetry, but now it felt distant and thin, like fading memories. The present had solid ground beneath it, a joyful noise all around, and a seemingly endless supply of shining British coins—very much relevant. So, courage and humor were the essence of the day; however, for him, the overall sense of ease also sparked a unique irritation. Comparing this clear outcome with the vague perception his wife held about his choices triggered a strange irony, too intense to keep to himself. At Matcham, nothing particularly shocking happened in a noticeable way; only sometimes did the prevailing atmosphere hit him so strongly that he wondered, “What would THEY think of this?” “They” referred to Maggie and her father, sulking—at least when they chose to sulk—in boring Eaton Square, yet content in thinking they understood what their sophisticated friends were up to. In reality, they seemed to grasp nothing of importance—neither beautifully nor cynically. They might be less bothersome if they admitted that knowledge wasn’t crucial for them and that they were basically closed off to it. They were good-hearted, innocent kids, from good-hearted families too; so much so that the Principino, being less consistently of that line, might appear to be the most brilliant of the group.
The difficulty was, for the nerves of daily intercourse with Maggie in particular, that her imagination was clearly never ruffled by the sense of any anomaly. The great anomaly would have been that her husband, or even that her father’s wife, should prove to have been made, for the long run, after the pattern set from so far back to the Ververs. If one was so made one had certainly no business, on any terms, at Matcham; whereas if one wasn’t one had no business there on the particular terms—terms of conformity with the principles of Eaton Square—under which one had been so absurdly dedicated. Deep at the heart of that resurgent unrest in our young man which we have had to content ourselves with calling his irritation—deep in the bosom of this falsity of position glowed the red spark of his inextinguishable sense of a higher and braver propriety. There were situations that were ridiculous, but that one couldn’t yet help, as for instance when one’s wife chose, in the most usual way, to make one so. Precisely here, however, was the difference; it had taken poor Maggie to invent a way so extremely unusual—yet to which, none the less, it would be too absurd that he should merely lend himself. Being thrust, systematically, with another woman, and a woman one happened, by the same token, exceedingly to like, and being so thrust that the theory of it seemed to publish one as idiotic or incapable—this WAS a predicament of which the dignity depended all on one’s own handling. What was supremely grotesque, in fact, was the essential opposition of theories—as if a galantuomo, as HE at least constitutionally conceived galantuomini, could do anything BUT blush to “go about” at such a rate with such a person as Mrs. Verver in a state of childlike innocence, the state of our primitive parents before the Fall. The grotesque theory, as he would have called it, was perhaps an odd one to resent with violence, and he did it—also as a man of the world—all merciful justice; but, assuredly, none the less, there was but one way REALLY to mark, and for his companion as much as for himself, the commiseration in which they held it. Adequate comment on it could only be private, but it could also at least be active, and of rich and effectual comment Charlotte and he were fortunately alike capable. Wasn’t this consensus literally their only way not to be ungracious? It was positively as if the measure of their escape from that danger were given by the growth between them, during their auspicious visit, of an exquisite sense of complicity.
The problem was, especially for the nerves involved in daily interactions with Maggie, that her imagination was clearly never unsettled by the sense of any odd situation. The real oddity would have been if her husband, or even her father’s wife, turned out to have been shaped, over time, by the traditions established long ago by the Ververs. If someone was shaped that way, they definitely had no reason to be at Matcham; on the other hand, if someone wasn’t, they also had no reason to be there under the ridiculous terms—terms that demanded conformity to the principles of Eaton Square—under which they had been so absurdly bound. Deep within the core of that renewed restlessness in our young man, which we can only describe as his irritation, lay the undeniable spark of his persistent sense of a higher and braver decorum. There were situations that were laughable, yet one couldn’t help but be part of them, like when one’s wife decided, in the most typical fashion, to make one look that way. However, here was the distinction; it took poor Maggie to come up with a method that was so extraordinarily unusual—yet it would be just too absurd for him to simply go along with it. Being pushed, systematically, with another woman—one he happened to like a lot—and being pushed in such a way that the idea of it seemed to showcase him as foolish or incapable—this WAS a situation where his dignity depended entirely on how he handled it. What was truly ridiculous, in fact, was the fundamental contradiction in the theories—like a galantuomo, as he at least understood them, could do anything BUT feel embarrassed to “be seen” at such a pace with someone like Mrs. Verver in a state of complete innocence, resembling our primitive ancestors before the Fall. The ridiculous theory, as he might have called it, was perhaps a strange one to react to with anger, and he did so—though, as a worldly man, with all fairness; but, certainly, there was only one real way to acknowledge, for both himself and his companion, the sympathy they held for it. Sufficient commentary on it could only be private, but it could also at least be active, and fortunately both he and Charlotte were capable of rich and effective commentary. Wasn’t this shared understanding literally their only way to avoid being rude? It was as if the measure of their escape from that danger was determined by the bond of exquisite complicity that grew between them during their fortunate visit.
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He found himself therefore saying, with gaiety, even to Fanny Assingham, for their common, concerned glance at Eaton Square, the glance that was so markedly never, as it might have been, a glance at Portland Place: “What WOULD our cari sposi have made of it here? what would they, you know, really?”—which overflow would have been reckless if, already, and surprisingly perhaps even to himself, he had not got used to thinking of this friend as a person in whom the element of protest had of late been unmistakably allayed. He exposed himself of course to her replying: “Ah, if it would have been so bad for them, how can it be so good for you?”—but, quite apart from the small sense the question would have had at the best, she appeared already to unite with him in confidence and cheer. He had his view, as well—or at least a partial one—of the inner spring of this present comparative humility, which was all consistent with the retraction he had practically seen her make after Mr. Verver’s last dinner. Without diplomatising to do so, with no effort to square her, none to bribe her to an attitude for which he would have had no use in her if it were not sincere, he yet felt how he both held her and moved her by the felicity of his taking pity, all instinctively, on her just discernible depression. By just so much as he guessed that she felt herself, as the slang was, out of it, out of the crystal current and the expensive picture, by just so much had his friendship charmingly made up to her, from hour to hour, for the penalties, as they might have been grossly called, of her mistake. Her mistake had only been, after all, in her wanting to seem to him straight; she had let herself in for being—as she had made haste, for that matter, during the very first half-hour, at tea, to proclaim herself—the sole and single frump of the party. The scale of everything was so different that all her minor values, her quainter graces, her little local authority, her humour and her wardrobe alike, for which it was enough elsewhere, among her bons amis, that they were hers, dear Fanny Assingham’s—these matters and others would be all, now, as nought: five minutes had sufficed to give her the fatal pitch. In Cadogan Place she could always, at the worst, be picturesque—for she habitually spoke of herself as “local” to Sloane Street whereas at Matcham she should never be anything but horrible. And it all would have come, the disaster, from the real refinement, in her, of the spirit of friendship. To prove to him that she wasn’t really watching him—ground for which would have been too terribly grave—she had followed him in his pursuit of pleasure: SO she might, precisely, mark her detachment. This was handsome trouble for her to take—the Prince could see it all: it wasn’t a shade of interference that a good-natured man would visit on her. So he didn’t even say, when she told him how frumpy she knew herself, how frumpy her very maid, odiously going back on her, rubbed it into her, night and morning, with unsealed eyes and lips, that she now knew her—he didn’t then say “Ah, see what you’ve done: isn’t it rather your own fault?” He behaved differently altogether: eminently distinguished himself—for she told him she had never seen him so universally distinguished—he yet distinguished her in her obscurity, or in what was worse, her objective absurdity, and frankly invested her with her absolute value, surrounded her with all the importance of her wit. That wit, as discriminated from stature and complexion, a sense for “bridge” and a credit for pearls, could have importance was meanwhile but dimly perceived at Matcham; so that his “niceness” to her—she called it only niceness, but it brought tears into her eyes—had the greatness of a general as well as of a special demonstration.
He found himself saying, cheerfully, even to Fanny Assingham, about their shared, concerned look at Eaton Square, a look that was definitely not, as it could have been, a look at Portland Place: “What would our newlyweds have made of it here? What would they really?”—which might have been a reckless outburst if he hadn't surprisingly, even to himself, gotten used to thinking of this friend as someone in whom the element of protest had recently clearly faded. He braced himself for her to respond: “Ah, if it would have been so bad for them, how can it be so good for you?”—but, aside from how little sense the question would have made, she already seemed to share his confidence and cheer. He had his perspective, at least a partial one, on the reason behind this ongoing modesty, which matched the retraction he had practically seen her make after Mr. Verver’s last dinner. Without trying to negotiate, without any effort to mold her or bribe her into a sincere attitude he would have had no use for otherwise, he nonetheless felt how he both held her and influenced her through the kindness he felt, entirely instinctively, toward her barely perceptible sadness. Just as he sensed she felt, as the slang went, out of it, out of the clear stream and the lavish scene, his friendship pleasantly compensated her, hour by hour, for the burdens of her blunder, as they could have been bluntly termed. Her blunder had simply been wanting to seem straightforward to him; she had allowed herself to be— as she had hastened to proclaim during their very first half-hour at tea—the one and only frump of the group. The scale of everything was so different that all her minor values, her charming quirks, her slight local authority, her humor and her wardrobe, which mattered elsewhere among her close friends, dear Fanny Assingham’s—these things and others would now be worth practically nothing: five minutes had been enough to give her the harsh reality. In Cadogan Place, she could always, at the very least, be interesting—she commonly referred to herself as “local” to Sloane Street, whereas at Matcham, she would never be anything but a disaster. And it all stemmed from the genuine refinement in her spirit of friendship. To prove to him that she wasn’t really watching him— which would have been too serious—she had followed him in his pursuit of fun: THIS was precisely how she marked her detachment. It was a generous effort for her to make—the Prince noticed it all: it wasn’t a hint of interference that a good-natured man would impose on her. So he didn’t even say, when she told him how frumpy she felt, how frumpy her very maid, cruelly reminding her day and night, made it worse for her, that she now understood her—he didn’t say, “Ah, see what you’ve done: isn’t it rather your own fault?” He behaved entirely differently: he stood out in a way that was notable—she said she’d never seen him so universally impressive—yet he recognized her in her obscurity, or in what was worse, her clear absurdity, and openly acknowledged her true worth, surrounding her with all the significance of her wit. That wit, distinct from physical stature and complexion, a knack for “bridge,” and a reputation for pearls, could hold value, but was only vaguely acknowledged at Matcham; thus, his “kindness” toward her—she called it merely kindness, but it brought tears to her eyes—was monumental, as well as being a personal demonstration.
“She understands,” he said, as a comment on all this, to Mrs. Verver—“she understands all she needs to understand. She has taken her time, but she has at last made it out for herself: she sees how all we can desire is to give them the life they prefer, to surround them with the peace and quiet, and above all with the sense of security, most favourable to it. She can’t of course very well put it to us that we have, so far as she is concerned, but to make the best of our circumstances; she can’t say in so many words ‘Don’t think of me, for I too must make the best of mine: arrange as you can, only, and live as you must.’ I don’t get quite THAT from her, any more than I ask for it. But her tone and her whole manner mean nothing at all unless they mean that she trusts us to take as watchful, to take as artful, to take as tender care, in our way, as she so anxiously takes in hers. So that she’s—well,” the Prince wound up, “what you may call practically all right.” Charlotte in fact, however, to help out his confidence, didn’t call it anything; return as he might to the lucidity, the importance, or whatever it was, of this lesson, she gave him no aid toward reading it aloud. She let him, two or three times over, spell it out for himself; only on the eve of their visit’s end was she, for once, clear or direct in response. They had found a minute together in the great hall of the house during the half-hour before dinner; this easiest of chances they had already, a couple of times, arrived at by waiting persistently till the last other loiterers had gone to dress, and by being prepared themselves to dress so expeditiously that they might, a little later on, be among the first to appear in festal array. The hall then was empty, before the army of rearranging, cushion-patting housemaids were marshalled in, and there was a place by the forsaken fire, at one end, where they might imitate, with art, the unpremeditated. Above all, here, for the snatched instants, they could breathe so near to each other that the interval was almost engulfed in it, and the intensity both of the union and the caution became a workable substitute for contact. They had prolongations of instants that counted as visions of bliss; they had slow approximations that counted as long caresses. The quality of these passages, in truth, made the spoken word, and especially the spoken word about other people, fall below them; so that our young woman’s tone had even now a certain dryness. “It’s very good of her, my dear, to trust us. But what else can she do?”
“She understands,” he said, commenting on all of this to Mrs. Verver—“she understands everything she needs to. She’s taken her time, but she has finally figured it out for herself: she knows that all we want is to give them the life they prefer, to surround them with the peace and quiet, and above all with the sense of security that’s most supportive of it. She can’t really express to us that, as far as she’s concerned, we should just make the best of our circumstances; she can’t outright say ‘Don’t worry about me, because I also have to make the best of my situation: do what you can, and live as you need to.’ I don’t get exactly THAT from her, just as I don’t expect it. But her tone and her whole demeanor mean nothing at all unless they convey that she trusts us to take as careful, as clever, as tender care in our own way, as she so anxiously takes in hers. So she’s—well,” the Prince concluded, “what you might call practically all right.” However, Charlotte, to support his confidence, didn’t call it anything; no matter how he tried to return to the clarity, the importance, or whatever it was, of this lesson, she didn’t help him articulate it aloud. She let him, two or three times, work it out for himself; only on the eve of their visit’s end was she, for once, clear or direct in her response. They had found a moment together in the great hall of the house during the half-hour before dinner; they had already achieved this easy opportunity a couple of times by waiting persistently until the last lingering guests had left to dress, and by being ready themselves to dress quickly so that they might, a little later, be among the first to appear dressed up. The hall was then empty, before the army of housemaids arrived to rearrange and fluff cushions, and there was a spot by the abandoned fire at one end, where they could artfully imitate the spontaneous. Above all, here, in those snatched moments, they could breathe so close to each other that the distance was almost swallowed up, and the intensity of both their connection and caution became a workable substitute for physical touch. They shared extended moments that felt like glimpses of bliss; they had gradual approaches that felt like long embraces. The nature of these exchanges, in truth, made spoken words, especially words about other people, seem shallow in comparison; so that our young woman’s tone even now had a certain dryness. “It’s very kind of her, my dear, to trust us. But what else can she do?”
“Why, whatever people do when they don’t trust. Let one see they don’t.”
“Why, whatever people do when they don’t trust. Let someone see they don’t.”
“But let whom see?”
“But let who see?”
“Well, let ME, say, to begin with.”
"Okay, I’ll begin."
“And should you mind that?”
“Do you care about that?”
He had a slight show of surprise. “Shouldn’t you?”
He looked a bit surprised. “Shouldn’t you?”
“Her letting you see? No,” said Charlotte; “the only thing I can imagine myself minding is what you yourself, if you don’t look out, may let HER see.” To which she added: “You may let her see, you know, that you’re afraid.”
“Her letting you see? No,” said Charlotte; “the only thing I can think of that would bother me is what you might let HER see if you’re not careful.” She then added, “You might let her see that you’re scared, you know.”
“I’m only afraid of you, a little, at moments,” he presently returned. “But I shan’t let Fanny see that.”
“I’m only a little afraid of you, at times,” he replied. “But I won’t let Fanny see that.”
It was clear, however, that neither the limits nor the extent of Mrs. Assingham’s vision were now a real concern to her, and she gave expression to this as she had not even yet done. “What in the world can she do against us? There’s not a word that she can breathe. She’s helpless; she can’t speak; she would be herself the first to be dished by it.” And then as he seemed slow to follow: “It all comes back to her. It all began with her. Everything, from the first. She introduced you to Maggie. She made your marriage.”
It was obvious, though, that neither the limits nor the scope of Mrs. Assingham’s perspective were a real concern for her anymore, and she expressed this even more than before. “What can she possibly do to us? She can’t say a single word. She’s powerless; she can’t speak; she would be the first one to be hurt by it.” And then, as he appeared to take his time to understand: “It all comes down to her. It all started with her. Everything, from the beginning. She introduced you to Maggie. She was the one who made your marriage.”
The Prince might have had his moment of demur, but at this, after a little, as with a smile dim but deep, he came on. “Mayn’t she also be said, a good deal, to have made yours? That was intended, I think, wasn’t it? for a kind of rectification.”
The Prince might have hesitated for a moment, but after a little while, with a faint yet profound smile, he continued. “Can’t she also be said to have made yours, to a large extent? That was intended, I think, wasn’t it? as a sort of correction.”
Charlotte, on her side, for an instant, hesitated; then she was prompter still. “I don’t mean there was anything to rectify; everything was as it had to be, and I’m not speaking of how she may have been concerned for you and me. I’m speaking of how she took, in her way, each time, THEIR lives in hand, and how, therefore, that ties her up to-day. She can’t go to them and say ‘It’s very awkward of course, you poor dear things, but I was frivolously mistaken.’”
Charlotte paused for a moment, then quickly continued. “I’m not saying there was anything to fix; everything happened as it should have, and I’m not talking about how she may have worried about you and me. I’m talking about how she took charge of THEIR lives each time in her own way, and because of that, she’s stuck now. She can’t go to them and say, ‘This is really awkward, you poor things, but I was immaturely wrong.’”
He took it in still, with his long look at her. “All the more that she wasn’t. She was right. Everything’s right,” he went on, “and everything will stay so.”
He took it in quietly, looking at her for a long time. “Even more so that she wasn’t. She was right. Everything’s right,” he continued, “and everything will stay that way.”
“Then that’s all I say.”
“Then that's all I have to say.”
But he worked it out, for the deeper satisfaction, even to superfluous lucidity. “We’re happy, and they’re happy. What more does the position admit of? What more need Fanny Assingham want?”
But he figured it out, for the deeper satisfaction, even to excessive clarity. “We’re happy, and they’re happy. What more can the situation allow? What more does Fanny Assingham need?”
“Ah, my dear,” said Charlotte, “it’s not I who say that she need want anything. I only say that she’s FIXED, that she must stand exactly where everything has, by her own act, placed her. It’s you who have seemed haunted with the possibility, for her, of some injurious alternative, something or other we must be prepared for.” And she had, with her high reasoning, a strange cold smile. “We ARE prepared—for anything, for everything; and AS we are, practically, so she must take us. She’s condemned to consistency; she’s doomed, poor thing, to a genial optimism. That, luckily for her, however, is very much the law of her nature. She was born to soothe and to smooth. Now then, therefore,” Mrs. Verver gently laughed, “she has the chance of her life!”
“Ah, my dear,” Charlotte said, “it’s not me saying that she needs anything. I’m just pointing out that she’s FIXED, that she has to stay exactly where everything has, by her own choice, placed her. It’s you who seem haunted by the thought of some harmful alternative for her, something we need to be ready for.” With her lofty reasoning, she wore a strange, cold smile. “We ARE prepared—for anything, for everything; and as we are, practically, she has to accept us. She’s stuck with consistency; she’s destined, poor thing, for a cheerful optimism. Luckily for her, that’s really in her nature. She was born to soothe and smooth things over. So, therefore,” Mrs. Verver gently laughed, “she has the chance of her life!”
“So that her present professions may, even at the best, not be sincere?—may be but a mask for doubts and fears, and for gaining time?”
“So that her current claims may, at best, not be genuine?—might they just be a facade for uncertainties and anxieties, and for buying time?”
The Prince had looked, with the question, as if this, again, could trouble him, and it determined in his companion a slight impatience. “You keep talking about such things as if they were our affair at all. I feel, at any rate, that I’ve nothing to do with her doubts and fears, or with anything she may feel. She must arrange all that for herself. It’s enough for me that she’ll always be, of necessity, much more afraid for herself, REALLY, either to see or to speak, than we should be to have her do it even if we were the idiots and cowards we aren’t.” And Charlotte’s face, with these words—to the mitigation of the slightly hard ring there might otherwise have been in them—fairly lightened, softened, shone out. It reflected as really never yet the rare felicity of their luck. It made her look for the moment as if she had actually pronounced that word of unpermitted presumption—so apt is the countenance, as with a finer consciousness than the tongue, to betray a sense of this particular lapse. She might indeed, the next instant, have seen her friend wince, in advance, at her use of a word that was already on her lips; for it was still unmistakable with him that there were things he could prize, forms of fortune he could cherish, without at all proportionately liking their names. Had all this, however, been even completely present to his companion, what other term could she have applied to the strongest and simplest of her ideas but the one that exactly fitted it? She applied it then, though her own instinct moved her, at the same time, to pay her tribute to the good taste from which they hadn’t heretofore by a hair’s breadth deviated. “If it didn’t sound so vulgar I should say that we’re—fatally, as it were—SAFE. Pardon the low expression—since it’s what we happen to be. We’re so because they are. And they’re so because they can’t be anything else, from the moment that, having originally intervened for them, she wouldn’t now be able to bear herself if she didn’t keep them so. That’s the way she’s inevitably WITH us,” said Charlotte over her smile. “We hang, essentially, together.”
The Prince looked like the question bothered him, which made his companion a bit impatient. “You keep talking about this stuff as if it concerns us at all. I feel like I have nothing to do with her doubts and fears, or anything she might feel. She has to deal with all that herself. It’s enough for me that she will always be way more afraid for herself, honestly, either to see or to speak, than we would be about her doing it, even if we were the idiots and cowards we’re not.” With these words, Charlotte’s face—softening the potentially harsh tone—brightened and shone. It reflected the kind of rare happiness that their luck had brought them. For a moment, she looked as if she had actually dared to say something inappropriate—how often the expression reveals a sense of such a slip more than words do. She might have even seen her friend flinch at the word that was already on her lips; he certainly understood there were things he valued, forms of luck he cherished, without really liking their names. But if all this had been completely clear to her companion, what else could she have called the strongest and simplest of her ideas but the term that fit it perfectly? So she used it, even while her instinct urged her to acknowledge the good taste they had yet to stray from. “If it didn’t sound so crude, I’d say that we’re—fatally, in a way—SAFE. Sorry for the blunt expression—since it’s what we are. We’re safe because they are. And they’re safe because they can’t be anything else, since once she had originally gotten involved for them, she wouldn’t be able to handle it if she didn’t keep them that way. That’s just how she is with us,” Charlotte said with a smile. “We’re essentially in this together.”
Well, the Prince candidly allowed she did bring it home to him. Every way it worked out. “Yes, I see. We hang, essentially, together.”
Well, the Prince honestly admitted that she did make it clear to him. It turned out that way. “Yes, I get it. We’re basically in this together.”
His friend had a shrug—a shrug that had a grace. “Cosa volete?” The effect, beautifully, nobly, was more than Roman. “Ah, beyond doubt, it’s a case.”
His friend had a shrug—a shrug that was graceful. “What do you want?” The effect, beautifully and nobly, was more than Roman. “Oh, there’s no doubt, it’s a situation.”
He stood looking at her. “It’s a case. There can’t,” he said, “have been many.”
He stood there staring at her. “It’s a case. There can’t,” he said, “have been that many.”
“Perhaps never, never, never any other. That,” she smiled, “I confess I should like to think. Only ours.”
“Maybe never, ever, ever anyone else. That,” she smiled, “I admit I would like to believe. Just ours.”
“Only ours—most probably. Speriamo.” To which, as after hushed connections, he presently added: “Poor Fanny!” But Charlotte had already, with a start and a warning hand, turned from a glance at the clock. She sailed away to dress, while he watched her reach the staircase. His eyes followed her till, with a simple swift look round at him, she vanished. Something in the sight, however, appeared to have renewed the spring of his last exclamation, which he breathed again upon the air. “Poor, poor Fanny!”
“Probably just ours. Let’s hope.” After a moment of silence, he added, “Poor Fanny!” But Charlotte had already turned away with a start, raising a warning hand as she glanced at the clock. She headed off to get ready, while he watched her walk to the staircase. He followed her with his eyes until she disappeared, giving him one quick look as she left. Still, something about the sight seemed to revive the emotion behind his last words, which he let out into the air again. “Poor, poor Fanny!”
It was to prove, however, on the morrow, quite consistent with the spirit of these words that, the party at Matcham breaking up and multitudinously dispersing, he should be able to meet the question of the social side of the process of repatriation with due presence of mind. It was impossible, for reasons, that he should travel to town with the Assinghams; it was impossible, for the same reasons, that he should travel to town save in the conditions that he had for the last twenty-four hours been privately, and it might have been said profoundly, thinking out. The result of his thought was already precious to him, and this put at his service, he sufficiently believed, the right tone for disposing of his elder friend’s suggestion, an assumption in fact equally full and mild, that he and Charlotte would conveniently take the same train and occupy the same compartment as the Colonel and herself. The extension of the idea to Mrs. Verver had been, precisely, a part of Mrs. Assingham’s mildness, and nothing could better have characterised her sense for social shades than her easy perception that the gentleman from Portland Place and the lady from Eaton Square might now confess, quite without indiscretion, to simultaneity of movement. She had made, for the four days, no direct appeal to the latter personage, but the Prince was accidental witness of her taking a fresh start at the moment the company were about to scatter for the last night of their stay. There had been, at this climax, the usual preparatory talk about hours and combinations, in the midst of which poor Fanny gently approached Mrs. Verver. She said “You and the Prince, love,”—quite, apparently, without blinking; she took for granted their public withdrawal together; she remarked that she and Bob were alike ready, in the interest of sociability, to take any train that would make them all one party. “I feel really as if, all this time, I had seen nothing of you”—that gave an added grace to the candour of the dear thing’s approach. But just then it was, on the other hand, that the young man found himself borrow most effectively the secret of the right tone for doing as he preferred. His preference had, during the evening, not failed of occasion to press him with mute insistences; practically without words, without any sort of straight telegraphy, it had arrived at a felt identity with Charlotte’s own. She spoke all for their friend while she answered their friend’s question, but she none the less signalled to him as definitely as if she had fluttered a white handkerchief from a window. “It’s awfully sweet of you, darling—our going together would be charming. But you mustn’t mind us—you must suit yourselves we’ve settled, Amerigo and I, to stay over till after luncheon.”
However, it would become clear the next day, in line with the spirit of these words, that as the group at Matcham broke up and dispersed, he would be able to handle the social aspects of repatriation with the right mindset. It was impossible, for certain reasons, for him to travel to the city with the Assinghams; for the same reasons, it was also impossible for him to go to town unless he followed the arrangements he had been privately considering for the last twenty-four hours. The outcome of his thoughts was already valuable to him, and he believed this would give him the right approach to dismiss his older friend's suggestion—that he and Charlotte would conveniently take the same train and share a compartment with the Colonel and her. Extending this idea to Mrs. Verver was a part of Mrs. Assingham’s gentle demeanor, and nothing better captured her awareness of social dynamics than her easy realization that the gentleman from Portland Place and the lady from Eaton Square could now admit, without any impropriety, to moving at the same time. She hadn’t directly approached the latter over the four days, but the Prince coincidentally witnessed her making a fresh effort just as the group was about to break apart for the last night of their stay. At this point, the usual preparatory discussion about schedules and arrangements took place, during which poor Fanny gently reached out to Mrs. Verver. She said, “You and the Prince, dear,”—seemingly without hesitation; she assumed they would publicly leave together; she noted that she and Bob were both ready, for the sake of sociability, to take any train that would keep them all in one group. “I really feel like I haven’t seen you at all this whole time”—that added a nice touch to her straightforward approach. But at that moment, the young man found himself effectively borrowing the right tone to do what he preferred. His preference had, throughout the evening, strongly urged him silently; without any words or direct communication, it had aligned closely with Charlotte’s own feelings. She spoke on behalf of their friend while responding to the friend’s question, but she also sent him a clear signal, as if she had waved a white handkerchief from a window. “It’s incredibly sweet of you, darling—going together would be lovely. But you mustn’t worry about us—you should do what works for you. Amerigo and I have decided to stay over until after lunch.”
Amerigo, with the chink of this gold in his ear, turned straight away, so as not to be instantly appealed to; and for the very emotion of the wonder, furthermore, of what divination may achieve when winged by a community of passion. Charlotte had uttered the exact plea that he had been keeping ready for the same foreseen necessity, and had uttered it simply as a consequence of their deepening unexpressed need of each other and without the passing between them of a word. He hadn’t, God knew, to take it from her—he was too conscious of what he wanted; but the lesson for him was in the straight clear tone that Charlotte could thus distil, in the perfect felicity of her adding no explanation, no touch for plausibility, that she wasn’t strictly obliged to add, and in the truly superior way in which women, so situated, express and distinguish themselves. She had answered Mrs. Assingham quite adequately; she had not spoiled it by a reason a scrap larger than the smallest that would serve, and she had, above all, thrown off, for his stretched but covered attention, an image that flashed like a mirror played at the face of the sun. The measure of EVERYTHING, to all his sense, at these moments, was in it—the measure especially of the thought that had been growing with him a positive obsession and that began to throb as never yet under this brush of her having, by perfect parity of imagination, the match for it. His whole consciousness had by this time begun almost to ache with a truth of an exquisite order, at the glow of which she too had, so unmistakably then, been warming herself—the truth that the occasion constituted by the last few days couldn’t possibly, save by some poverty of their own, refuse them some still other and still greater beauty. It had already told them, with an hourly voice, that it had a meaning—a meaning that their associated sense was to drain even as thirsty lips, after the plough through the sands and the sight, afar, of the palm-cluster, might drink in at last the promised well in the desert. There had been beauty, day after day, and there had been, for the spiritual lips, something of the pervasive taste of it; yet it was all, none the less, as if their response had remained below their fortune. How to bring it, by some brave, free lift, up to the same height was the idea with which, behind and beneath everything, he was restlessly occupied, and in the exploration of which, as in that of the sun-chequered greenwood of romance, his spirit thus, at the opening of a vista, met hers. They were already, from that moment, so hand-in-hand in the place that he found himself making use, five minutes later, of exactly the same tone as Charlotte’s for telling Mrs. Assingham that he was likewise, in the matter of the return to London, sorry for what mightn’t be.
Amerigo, with the clink of gold in his ear, turned away immediately to avoid being confronted. He was struck by the wonder of what intuition can achieve when fueled by a shared passion. Charlotte had made the exact request he was prepared to voice for the same anticipated need, and she had expressed it simply because of their deepening, unspoken longing for each other, without exchanging a single word. He didn’t need to take it from her—he was fully aware of what he wanted; but what he learned was in the clear, straightforward way Charlotte communicated, in the perfect simplicity of her not adding any explanations or justifications that weren’t strictly required, and in the truly remarkable way women in her position express and differentiate themselves. She had responded to Mrs. Assingham perfectly; she hadn’t complicated it with any reasoning larger than the tiniest needed, and most importantly, she had conveyed to his attentive but hidden gaze an image that shone like a reflection in sunlight. The measure of EVERYTHING, it seemed to him, was in that moment—the measure particularly of the idea that had become an obsession for him and began to pulse like never before, as she matched it through a perfect understanding. By this point, his whole awareness had almost begun to ache with a beautiful truth, at the glow of which she had unmistakably been soaking up—the realization that the recent days couldn’t possibly deny them some even greater beauty, except through their own shortcomings. It had already been telling them, with a constant voice, that it had a purpose—a purpose that their combined intuition was meant to absorb like thirsty lips drinking from the promised well in the desert after a long journey through the sands and the sight of palm trees in the distance. There had been beauty every day, and for their spiritual selves, a taste of that beauty was undeniably present; yet still, it felt as if their response had fallen short of their potential. He was restlessly preoccupied with the idea of how to lift it, in some courageous and free way, to match its true height, and in seeking this, as in exploring a sun-dappled grove of romance, his spirit connected with hers as they opened a path together. From that moment on, they were already so united that he found himself, five minutes later, using exactly the same tone as Charlotte’s to tell Mrs. Assingham that he too felt sorry about what might not happen regarding their return to London.
This had become, of a sudden, the simplest thing in the world—the sense of which moreover seemed really to amount to a portent that he should feel, forevermore, on the general head, conveniently at his ease with her. He went in fact a step further than Charlotte—put the latter forward as creating his necessity. She was staying over luncheon to oblige their hostess—as a consequence of which he must also stay to see her decently home. He must deliver her safe and sound, he felt, in Eaton Square. Regret as he might, too, the difference made by this obligation, he frankly didn’t mind, inasmuch as, over and above the pleasure itself, his scruple would certainly gratify both Mr. Verver and Maggie. They never yet had absolutely and entirely learned, he even found deliberation to intimate, how little he really neglected the first—as it seemed nowadays quite to have become—of his domestic duties: therefore he still constantly felt how little he must remit his effort to make them remark it. To which he added with equal lucidity that they would return in time for dinner, and if he didn’t, as a last word, subjoin that it would be “lovely” of Fanny to find, on her own return, a moment to go to Eaton Square and report them as struggling bravely on, this was not because the impulse, down to the very name for the amiable act, altogether failed to rise. His inward assurance, his general plan, had at moments, where she was concerned, its drops of continuity, and nothing would less have pleased him than that she should suspect in him, however tempted, any element of conscious “cheek.” But he was always—that was really the upshot—cultivating thanklessly the considerate and the delicate: it was a long lesson, this unlearning, with people of English race, all the little superstitions that accompany friendship. Mrs. Assingham herself was the first to say that she would unfailingly “report”; she brought it out in fact, he thought, quite wonderfully—having attained the summit of the wonderful during the brief interval that had separated her appeal to Charlotte from this passage with himself. She had taken the five minutes, obviously, amid the rest of the talk and the movement, to retire into her tent for meditation—which showed, among several things, the impression Charlotte had made on her. It was from the tent she emerged, as with arms refurbished; though who indeed could say if the manner in which she now met him spoke most, really, of the glitter of battle or of the white waver of the flag of truce? The parley was short either way; the gallantry of her offer was all sufficient.
This suddenly became the easiest thing in the world—the feeling that he would always be comfortable with her. He actually went a step further than Charlotte—he said she was the reason he needed to stay. She was staying for lunch to help their hostess, and because of that, he had to stay too to see her home safely. He felt he must ensure she made it back to Eaton Square without any issues. Even though he regretted how this obligation changed things, he honestly didn’t mind, since, in addition to the pleasure it brought him, it would please both Mr. Verver and Maggie. They had never completely understood how little he actually neglected the first of his domestic duties, which now seemed to have become quite clear; therefore, he still felt he needed to make an effort for them to notice it. He also clearly noted that they would return in time for dinner, and if he didn’t add that it would be "lovely" for Fanny to stop by Eaton Square on her way back to report that they were managing well, it wasn't because he didn’t feel the impulse to do so. His inner confidence, his general plan, occasionally had moments of continuity concerning her, and nothing would have pleased him less than for her to think he had any conscious "cheek." But in the end, he was always—this was really the point—trying to be thoughtful and considerate: it was a long process of unlearning all the little superstitions that come with friendship, especially with English people. Mrs. Assingham herself was the first to say she would definitely "report"; he thought she expressed it quite wonderfully—having reached a high point during the short time between her asking Charlotte and this moment with him. She had obviously taken those five minutes, amidst all the conversation and bustle, to retreat into her thoughts—which showed just how much Charlotte had influenced her. She emerged from her mental retreat, looking ready to engage; though who could really say if her approach now reflected more the excitement of battle or the peace of a truce? Either way, the conversation was brief; the kindness of her offer was more than enough.
“I’ll go to our friends then—I’ll ask for luncheon. I’ll tell them when to expect you.”
"I'll go to our friends then—I'll ask for lunch. I'll let them know when to expect you."
“That will be charming. Say we’re all right.”
"That sounds great. Just say we're fine."
“All right—precisely. I can’t say more,” Mrs. Assingham smiled.
“All right—exactly. I can’t say more,” Mrs. Assingham smiled.
“No doubt.” But he considered, as for the possible importance of it. “Neither can you, by what I seem to feel, say less.”
“No doubt.” But he thought about how important it could be. “You also can’t, from what I can tell, say any less.”
“Oh, I WON’T say less!” Fanny laughed; with which, the next moment, she had turned away. But they had it again, not less bravely, on the morrow, after breakfast, in the thick of the advancing carriages and the exchange of farewells. “I think I’ll send home my maid from Euston,” she was then prepared to amend, “and go to Eaton Square straight. So you can be easy.”
“Oh, I WON’T hold back!” Fanny laughed, and in the next moment, she turned away. But they had the same conversation again, just as boldly, the next day after breakfast, amidst the hustle of the arriving carriages and the exchange of goodbyes. “I think I’ll send my maid home from Euston,” she was ready to change her mind, “and head straight to Eaton Square. So you can relax.”
“Oh, I think we’re easy,” the Prince returned. “Be sure to say, at any rate, that we’re bearing up.”
“Oh, I think we’re pretty easygoing,” the Prince replied. “Make sure to say, at least, that we’re holding up.”
“You’re bearing up—good. And Charlotte returns to dinner?”
“You're holding up well—great. And Charlotte is coming back for dinner?”
“To dinner. We’re not likely, I think, to make another night away.”
“To dinner. I don’t think we’re going to spend another night away.”
“Well then, I wish you at least a pleasant day,”
“Well then, I hope you have a nice day,”
“Oh,” he laughed as they separated, “we shall do our best for it!”—after which, in due course, with the announcement of their conveyance, the Assinghams rolled off.
“Oh,” he laughed as they pulled apart, “we’ll do our best for it!”—after which, eventually, with the announcement of their ride, the Assinghams drove away.
XXII
XXII
It was quite, for the Prince, after this, as if the view had further cleared; so that the half-hour during which he strolled on the terrace and smoked—the day being lovely—overflowed with the plenitude of its particular quality. Its general brightness was composed, doubtless, of many elements, but what shone out of it as if the whole place and time had been a great picture, from the hand of genius, presented to him as a prime ornament for his collection and all varnished and framed to hang up—what marked it especially for the highest appreciation was his extraordinarily unchallenged, his absolutely appointed and enhanced possession of it. Poor Fanny Assingham’s challenge amounted to nothing: one of the things he thought of while he leaned on the old marble balustrade—so like others that he knew in still more nobly-terraced Italy—was that she was squared, all-conveniently even to herself, and that, rumbling toward London with this contentment, she had become an image irrelevant to the scene. It further passed across him, as his imagination was, for reasons, during the time, unprecedentedly active,—that he had, after all, gained more from women than he had ever lost by them; there appeared so, more and more, on those mystic books that are kept, in connection with such commerce, even by men of the loosest business habits, a balance in his favour that he could pretty well, as a rule, take for granted. What were they doing at this very moment, wonderful creatures, but combine and conspire for his advantage?—from Maggie herself, most wonderful, in her way, of all, to his hostess of the present hour, into whose head it had so inevitably come to keep Charlotte on, for reasons of her own, and who had asked, in this benevolent spirit, why in the world, if not obliged, without plausibility, to hurry, her husband’s son-in-law should not wait over in her company. He would at least see, Lady Castledean had said, that nothing dreadful should happen to her, either while still there or during the exposure of the run to town; and, for that matter, if they exceeded a little their license it would positively help them to have done so together. Each of them would, in this way, at home, have the other comfortably to blame. All of which, besides, in Lady Castledean as in Maggie, in Fanny Assingham as in Charlotte herself, was working; for him without provocation or pressure, by the mere play of some vague sense on their part—definite and conscious at the most only in Charlotte—that he was not, as a nature, as a character, as a gentleman, in fine, below his remarkable fortune.
It was as if the view had become clearer for the Prince; the half-hour he spent strolling on the terrace and smoking—thanks to the beautiful day—was filled with its unique quality. Its overall brightness came from many different elements, but what stood out to him, like a magnificent artwork crafted by a genius, was the feeling that it was a special addition to his collection, all polished and framed for display. What made it particularly worthy of his appreciation was his incredible, unquestioned, and absolute ownership of it. Poor Fanny Assingham’s objections were meaningless: while leaning on the old marble balustrade, reminiscent of others he had seen in more elegantly terraced Italy, he considered that she was conveniently fixed in her own perspective, rumbling toward London content with herself, having become irrelevant to the scenery. It also crossed his mind, as his imagination was unusually active at that moment, that he had ultimately gained more from women than he had ever lost to them; there seemed to be a favorable balance in his favor, which he could generally take for granted, reflected in those mysterious accounts kept in relation to such interactions, even by men known for their lax business practices. What were these amazing women doing right now, but teaming up and plotting for his benefit?—from Maggie, most remarkable in her way, to his current hostess, who had decided to keep Charlotte around for her own reasons, and who, in a kind spirit, had asked why, if not obligated to rush, her husband's son-in-law shouldn't stay with her a bit longer. At the very least, Lady Castledean said, she’d ensure that nothing terrible would happen to her, either while she was still there or during the drive to town; and indeed, if they pushed their limits a little, it would actually work out better for them to have done so together. Each would, in this way, have the other to blame comfortably at home. All of this was affecting him without any provocation or pressure, simply through some vague sense on their part—clear and conscious at most only in Charlotte—that, as a person, as a character, as a gentleman, he was not unworthy of his remarkable fortune.
But there were more things before him than even these; things that melted together, almost indistinguishably, to feed his sense of beauty. If the outlook was in every way spacious—and the towers of three cathedrals, in different counties, as had been pointed out to him, gleamed discernibly, like dim silver, in the rich sameness of tone—didn’t he somehow the more feel it so because, precisely, Lady Castledean had kept over a man of her own, and that this offered a certain sweet intelligibility as the note of the day? It made everything fit; above all it diverted him to the extent of keeping up, while he lingered and waited, his meditative smile. She had detained Charlotte because she wished to detain Mr. Blint, and she couldn’t detain Mr. Blint, disposed though he clearly was to oblige her, without spreading over the act some ampler drapery. Castledean had gone up to London; the place was all her own; she had had a fancy for a quiet morning with Mr. Blint, a sleek, civil, accomplished young man—distinctly younger than her ladyship—who played and sang delightfully (played even “bridge” and sang the English-comic as well as the French-tragic), and the presence—which really meant the absence—of a couple of other friends, if they were happily chosen, would make everything all right. The Prince had the sense, all good-humouredly, of being happily chosen, and it was not spoiled for him even by another sense that followed in its train and with which, during his life in England, he had more than once had reflectively to deal: the state of being reminded how, after all, as an outsider, a foreigner, and even as a mere representative husband and son-in-law, he was so irrelevant to the working of affairs that he could be bent on occasion to uses comparatively trivial. No other of her guests would have been thus convenient for their hostess; affairs, of whatever sorts, had claimed, by early trains, every active, easy, smoothly-working man, each in his way a lubricated item of the great social, political, administrative engrenage—claimed most of all Castledean himself, who was so very oddly, given the personage and the type, rather a large item. If he, on the other hand, had an affair, it was not of that order; it was of the order, verily, that he had been reduced to as a not quite glorious substitute.
But there were more things in front of him than just those; things that blended together, almost unnoticeably, to enhance his sense of beauty. The view was undeniably vast—and the towers of three cathedrals, in different counties, as he had been told, shone faintly, like dull silver, in the rich uniformity of color—didn't he somehow feel it even more because, specifically, Lady Castledean had someone of her own, and that this offered a certain sweet clarity as the theme of the day? It made everything come together; most importantly, it kept his meditative smile going as he lingered and waited. She had held up Charlotte because she wanted to keep Mr. Blint around, and she couldn’t keep Mr. Blint there, even though he clearly wanted to help her, without adding a little more flair to the situation. Castledean had gone up to London; the place was entirely hers; she had a desire for a peaceful morning with Mr. Blint, a polished, polite, accomplished young man—definitely younger than her ladyship—who played and sang wonderfully (played even “bridge” and sang the English-comic as well as the French-tragic), and the presence—which really meant the absence—of a couple of other friends, if they were well-picked, would make everything just fine. The Prince had the sense, in a good-natured way, of being a good choice, and it wasn’t spoiled for him even by another realization that accompanied it and with which, during his life in England, he had often had to deal reflectively: the awareness that, after all, as an outsider, a foreigner, and even as a mere representative husband and son-in-law, he was so irrelevant to the workings of affairs that he could be used for relatively trivial purposes. No other of her guests would have been as convenient for their hostess; matters, of any kind, had claimed, through early trains, every active, easy, smoothly-working man, each in his way a well-oiled part of the great social, political, administrative machine—most notably Castledean himself, who was rather remarkably, given his status and type, a significant player. If he, on the other hand, had a matter, it wasn’t of that nature; it was of the sort that truly showed he had been reduced to a not-so-glorious substitute.
It marked, however, the feeling of the hour with him that this vision of being “reduced” interfered not at all with the measure of his actual ease. It kept before him again, at moments, the so familiar fact of his sacrifices—down to the idea of the very relinquishment, for his wife’s convenience, of his real situation in the world; with the consequence, thus, that he was, in the last analysis, among all these so often inferior people, practically held cheap and made light of. But though all this was sensible enough there was a spirit in him that could rise above it, a spirit that positively played with the facts, with all of them; from that of the droll ambiguity of English relations to that of his having in mind something quite beautiful and independent and harmonious, something wholly his own. He couldn’t somehow take Mr. Blint seriously—he was much more an outsider, by the larger scale, even than a Roman prince who consented to be in abeyance. Yet it was past finding out, either, how such a woman as Lady Castledean could take him—since this question but sank for him again into the fathomless depths of English equivocation. He knew them all, as was said, “well”; he had lived with them, stayed with them, dined, hunted, shot and done various other things with them; but the number of questions about them he couldn’t have answered had much rather grown than shrunken, so that experience struck him for the most part as having left in him but one residual impression. They didn’t like les situations nettes—that was all he was very sure of. They wouldn’t have them at any price; it had been their national genius and their national success to avoid them at every point. They called it themselves, with complacency, their wonderful spirit of compromise—the very influence of which actually so hung about him here, from moment to moment, that the earth and the air, the light and the colour, the fields and the hills and the sky, the blue-green counties and the cold cathedrals, owed to it every accent of their tone. Verily, as one had to feel in presence of such a picture, it had succeeded; it had made, up to now, for that seated solidity, in the rich sea-mist, on which the garish, the supposedly envious, peoples have ever cooled their eyes. But it was at the same time precisely why even much initiation left one, at given moments, so puzzled as to the element of staleness in all the freshness and of freshness in all the staleness, of innocence in the guilt and of guilt in the innocence. There were other marble terraces, sweeping more purple prospects, on which he would have known what to think, and would have enjoyed thereby at least the small intellectual fillip of a discerned relation between a given appearance and a taken meaning. The inquiring mind, in these present conditions, might, it was true, be more sharply challenged; but the result of its attention and its ingenuity, it had unluckily learned to know, was too often to be confronted with a mere dead wall, a lapse of logic, a confirmed bewilderment. And moreover, above all, nothing mattered, in the relation of the enclosing scene to his own consciousness, but its very most direct bearings.
It definitely captured how he felt at that moment that this idea of being “reduced” didn’t affect his actual comfort at all. It reminded him, at times, of his well-known sacrifices—right down to the fact that he had given up his real position in the world for his wife’s convenience; as a result, he found himself, in the end, regarded as less significant and overlooked among all these often inferior people. But even though all of this seemed quite reasonable, there was a part of him that could rise above it, a part that playfully engaged with all the facts, from the amusing ambiguity of English relationships to the thought of something beautiful, independent, and harmonious that was entirely his own. He just couldn’t take Mr. Blint seriously—he was much more of an outsider, on a larger scale, even than a Roman prince who chose to be on the sidelines. Still, it was hard to understand how someone like Lady Castledean could take him seriously either—this question just sank for him once more into the deep waters of English ambiguity. He knew them all “well,” as they said; he had lived with them, hung out with them, dined, hunted, shot, and done various other things with them; but the number of questions he couldn’t answer had only grown, so that his experiences mostly left him with just one lingering impression. They didn’t like neat situations—that was all he was really sure of. They wouldn’t accept them at any cost; it had been their national talent and success to avoid them at every turn. They described it themselves, with pride, as their wonderful spirit of compromise—the very influence of which constantly surrounded him here, moment by moment, so that the earth and the air, the light and colors, the fields, hills, and sky, the blue-green counties and cold cathedrals, drew every nuance from it. Truly, as one had to feel in front of such a scene, it had succeeded; up until now, it had created that grounded solidity, wrapped in rich sea mist, on which the flashy, supposedly envious peoples have always tried to cool their eyes. Yet, at the same time, it was precisely why even after much knowledge, one could feel so confused at times about the stale quality in all the freshness and the freshness in all the staleness, the innocence in the guilt, and the guilt in the innocence. There were other marble terraces, with broader purple views, where he would have known what to think and would have enjoyed at least the small intellectual thrill of recognizing a connection between a given appearance and a perceived meaning. The inquisitive mind, under these current conditions, might indeed be more sharply challenged; but unfortunately, it had learned that the outcome of its focus and creativity was too often facing a mere dead end, a breakdown of logic, a deep confusion. Moreover, above all else, nothing mattered in the connection of the enclosing scene to his own awareness, except for its most direct implications.
Lady Castledean’s dream of Mr. Blint for the morning was doubtless already, with all the spacious harmonies re-established, taking the form of “going over” something with him, at the piano, in one of the numerous smaller rooms that were consecrated to the less gregarious uses; what she had wished had been effected—her convenience had been assured. This made him, however, wonder the more where Charlotte was—since he didn’t at all suppose her to be making a tactless third, which would be to have accepted mere spectatorship, in the duet of their companions. The upshot of everything for him, alike of the less and of the more, was that the exquisite day bloomed there like a large fragrant flower that he had only to gather. But it was to Charlotte he wished to make the offering, and as he moved along the terrace, which rendered visible parts of two sides of the house, he looked up at all the windows that were open to the April morning, and wondered which of them would represent his friend’s room. It befell thus that his question, after no long time, was answered; he saw Charlotte appear above as if she had been called by the pausing of his feet on the flags. She had come to the sill, on which she leaned to look down, and she remained there a minute smiling at him. He had been immediately struck with her wearing a hat and a jacket—which conduced to her appearance of readiness not so much to join him, with a beautiful uncovered head and a parasol, where he stood, as to take with him some larger step altogether. The larger step had been, since the evening before, intensely in his own mind, though he had not fully thought out, even yet, the slightly difficult detail of it; but he had had no chance, such as he needed, to speak the definite word to her, and the face she now showed affected him, accordingly, as a notice that she had wonderfully guessed it for herself. They had these identities of impulse—they had had them repeatedly before; and if such unarranged but unerring encounters gave the measure of the degree in which people were, in the common phrase, meant for each other, no union in the world had ever been more sweetened with rightness. What in fact most often happened was that her rightness went, as who should say, even further than his own; they were conscious of the same necessity at the same moment, only it was she, as a general thing, who most clearly saw her way to it. Something in her long look at him now out of the old grey window, something in the very poise of her hat, the colour of her necktie, the prolonged stillness of her smile, touched into sudden light for him all the wealth of the fact that he could count on her. He had his hand there, to pluck it, on the open bloom of the day; but what did the bright minute mean but that her answering hand was already intelligently out? So, therefore, while the minute lasted, it passed between them that their cup was full; which cup their very eyes, holding it fast, carried and steadied and began, as they tasted it, to praise. He broke, however, after a moment, the silence.
Lady Castledean’s morning dream of Mr. Blint was probably already taking shape in her mind, with everything beautifully in harmony, as she imagined going over something with him at the piano in one of the many smaller rooms meant for more private interactions. What she wanted had been achieved—her convenience was secured. This, however, made him even more curious about where Charlotte was since he didn't think she would just be a tactless third wheel, simply watching the duet of their friends. The overall feeling for him, in both the small and large things, was that the lovely day bloomed like a large fragrant flower just waiting for him to pick. But it was Charlotte he wanted to share this with. As he walked along the terrace, which allowed him to see parts of both sides of the house, he gazed up at all the windows open to the April morning, wondering which one was his friend's room. Soon, his question was answered; he saw Charlotte appear above as if his footsteps had called her. She had come to the window, leaning out to look down at him, and stayed there for a minute, smiling. He was immediately struck by her wearing a hat and a jacket—this made her look ready not just to join him with a beautiful bare head and a parasol, but also to take a bigger step altogether. That bigger step had been intensely on his mind since the night before, although he hadn’t fully figured out the slightly tricky details yet. But he hadn’t had the right opportunity to say the definite word to her, and the expression she showed now seemed to hint that she had wonderfully guessed it for herself. They had this shared impulse—they had experienced it many times before; and if such unplanned but perfectly in-tune encounters indicated how well people were meant for each other, no relationship in the world could have been sweeter with the rightness of it all. What often happened was that her understanding went even further than his; they recognized the same need at the same moment, though she usually saw the way to respond to it more clearly. Something in her long gaze at him from the old gray window, the way her hat sat, the color of her necktie, and the prolonged stillness of her smile lit up in him the realization that he could truly count on her. He felt ready to reach out for that open bloom of the day; but what did that bright moment signify except that her answering hand was already poised and ready? So, in that moment, they understood their cup was full; and their eyes, holding it steady, began to taste it and praise it together. However, after a moment, he broke the silence.
“It only wants a moon, a mandolin, and a little danger, to be a serenade.”
“It just needs a moon, a mandolin, and a bit of danger to be a serenade.”
“Ah, then,” she lightly called down, “let it at least have THIS!” With which she detached a rich white rosebud from its company with another in the front of her dress and flung it down to him. He caught it in its fall, fixing her again after she had watched him place it in his buttonhole. “Come down quickly!” he said in an Italian not loud but deep.
“Ah, then,” she called down playfully, “let it at least have THIS!” With that, she pulled a beautiful white rosebud from another one on the front of her dress and tossed it down to him. He caught it as it fell, looking at her again after she saw him put it in his buttonhole. “Come down quickly!” he said in a quiet but deep Italian voice.
“Vengo, vengo!” she as clearly, but more lightly, tossed out; and she had left him the next minute to wait for her.
“I'm coming, I'm coming!” she said clearly, but with a lighter tone; and she left him the next minute to wait for her.
He came along the terrace again, with pauses during which his eyes rested, as they had already often done, on the brave darker wash of far-away watercolour that represented the most distant of the cathedral towns. This place, with its great church and its high accessibility, its towers that distinguishably signalled, its English history, its appealing type, its acknowledged interest, this place had sounded its name to him half the night through, and its name had become but another name, the pronounceable and convenient one, for that supreme sense of things which now throbbed within him. He had kept saying to himself “Gloucester, Gloucester, Gloucester,” quite as if the sharpest meaning of all the years just passed were intensely expressed in it. That meaning was really that his situation remained quite sublimely consistent with itself, and that they absolutely, he and Charlotte, stood there together in the very lustre of this truth. Every present circumstance helped to proclaim it; it was blown into their faces as by the lips of the morning. He knew why, from the first of his marriage, he had tried with such patience for such conformity; he knew why he had given up so much and bored himself so much; he knew why he, at any rate, had gone in, on the basis of all forms, on the basis of his having, in a manner, sold himself, for a situation nette. It had all been just in order that his—well, what on earth should he call it but his freedom?—should at present be as perfect and rounded and lustrous as some huge precious pearl. He hadn’t struggled nor snatched; he was taking but what had been given him; the pearl dropped itself, with its exquisite quality and rarity, straight into his hand. Here, precisely, it was, incarnate; its size and its value grew as Mrs. Verver appeared, afar off, in one of the smaller doorways. She came toward him in silence, while he moved to meet her; the great scale of this particular front, at Matcham, multiplied thus, in the golden morning, the stages of their meeting and the successions of their consciousness. It wasn’t till she had come quite close that he produced for her his “Gloucester, Gloucester, Gloucester,” and his “Look at it over there!”
He walked along the terrace again, pausing now and then to gaze, as he had many times before, at the bold dark wash of distant watercolor that depicted the far-off cathedral town. This place, with its impressive church and easy access, its towers that clearly marked the skyline, its rich English history, its charming character, and its recognized significance, had echoed its name in his mind half the night, and that name had become just another term—the easy and articulate one—for the profound sense of everything that now pulsed within him. He kept repeating to himself, “Gloucester, Gloucester, Gloucester,” as if the deepest meaning of all the past years was intensely captured in it. That meaning was really that his situation remained wonderfully consistent with itself and that he and Charlotte stood together in the brilliant light of that truth. Every current circumstance seemed to announce it; it was blown into their faces like the morning breeze. He understood why, from the very start of his marriage, he had patiently sought such alignment; he understood why he had sacrificed so much and endured boredom; he knew why he had, in essence, sold himself for a more comfortable existence. It was all just so that his—well, what should he even call it but his freedom?—should now be as complete, smooth, and shining as a large precious pearl. He hadn’t fought or grabbed for it; he was simply accepting what had been given to him; the pearl had dropped, with its exquisite quality and rarity, right into his hand. Here it was, in its essence; its size and value grew as Mrs. Verver appeared in one of the smaller doorways in the distance. She walked toward him silently as he moved to meet her; the grand scale of this particular setting at Matcham amplified the moments of their meeting and the flow of their awareness in the golden morning. It wasn’t until she had come quite close that he shared with her his “Gloucester, Gloucester, Gloucester,” and his “Look at it over there!”
She knew just where to look. “Yes—isn’t it one of the best? There are cloisters or towers or some thing.” And her eyes, which, though her lips smiled, were almost grave with their depths of acceptance; came back to him. “Or the tomb of some old king.”
She knew exactly where to look. “Yeah—Isn’t it one of the best? There are cloisters or towers or something.” And her eyes, which, even though her lips smiled, were almost serious with their depth of understanding, returned to him. “Or the tomb of some old king.”
“We must see the old king; we must ‘do’ the cathedral,” he said; “we must know all about it. If we could but take,” he exhaled, “the full opportunity!” And then while, for all they seemed to give him, he sounded again her eyes: “I feel the day like a great gold cup that we must somehow drain together.”
“We have to see the old king; we have to check out the cathedral,” he said; “we need to know everything about it. If only we could take,” he sighed, “the full opportunity!” And then, despite all they seemed to give him, he looked into her eyes again: “I feel like this day is a massive gold cup that we have to somehow empty together.”
“I feel it, as you always make me feel everything, just as you do; so that I know ten miles off how you feel! But do you remember,” she asked, “apropos of great gold cups, the beautiful one, the real one, that I offered you so long ago and that you wouldn’t have? Just before your marriage”—she brought it back to him: “the gilded crystal bowl in the little Bloomsbury shop.”
“I feel it, just like you always make me feel everything; I can tell how you feel from miles away! But do you remember,” she asked, “speaking of those great gold cups, the beautiful one, the real one, that I offered you a long time ago and that you turned down? Just before your wedding”—she reminded him: “the gilded crystal bowl in that little shop in Bloomsbury.”
“Oh yes!”—but it took, with a slight surprise on the ‘Prince’s part, some small recollecting. “The treacherous cracked thing you wanted to palm off on me, and the little swindling Jew who understood Italian and who backed you up! But I feel this an occasion,” he immediately added, “and I hope you don’t mean,” he smiled, “that AS an occasion it’s also cracked.”
“Oh yes!”—but it took, with a hint of surprise from the 'Prince', some minor remembering. “The deceitful broken thing you tried to pass off on me, and the little con artist who understood Italian and supported you! But I see this as a moment,” he quickly added, “and I hope you don’t mean,” he smiled, “that as a moment it’s also broken.”
They spoke, naturally, more low than loud, overlooked as they were, though at a respectful distance, by tiers of windows; but it made each find in the other’s voice a taste as of something slowly and deeply absorbed. “Don’t you think too much of ‘cracks,’ and aren’t you too afraid of them? I risk the cracks,” said Charlotte, “and I’ve often recalled the bowl and the little swindling Jew, wondering if they’ve parted company. He made,” she said, “a great impression on me.”
They spoke, of course, more quietly than loudly, overlooked as they were, though at a respectful distance, by rows of windows; but it gave each note in the other’s voice a flavor of something slowly and deeply understood. “Don’t you think you worry too much about ‘cracks,’ and aren’t you too scared of them? I take my chances with the cracks,” said Charlotte, “and I’ve often thought about the bowl and the little con artist Jew, wondering if they’re no longer together. He really made a big impression on me,” she said.
“Well, you also, no doubt, made a great impression on him, and I dare say that if you were to go back to him you’d find he has been keeping that treasure for you. But as to cracks,” the Prince went on—“what did you tell me the other day you prettily call them in English?-’rifts within the lute’?—risk them as much as you like for yourself, but don’t risk them for me.” He spoke it in all the gaiety of his just barely-tremulous serenity. “I go, as you know, by my superstitions. And that’s why,” he said, “I know where we are. They’re every one, to-day, on our side.”
"Well, you definitely made a strong impression on him, and I bet if you went back to him, you’d find he’s been keeping that treasure for you. But about those cracks,” the Prince continued—“what did you say you call them in English? ‘Rifts within the lute’?—take those risks for yourself if you want, but don’t take them for me.” He said this with all the lightness of his slightly unsteady calm. “I follow my superstitions, as you know. And that’s why,” he said, “I can tell where we are. They’re all on our side today.”
Resting on the parapet; toward the great view, she was silent a little, and he saw the next moment that her eyes were closed. “I go but by one thing.” Her hand was on the sun-warmed stone; so that, turned as they were away from the house, he put his own upon it and covered it. “I go by YOU,” she said. “I go by you.”
Resting on the ledge, looking out at the amazing view, she was quiet for a moment, and he noticed next that her eyes were closed. "I only go by one thing." Her hand was on the sun-warmed stone, so since they were turned away from the house, he placed his hand on top of hers and covered it. "I go by YOU," she said. "I go by you."
So they remained a moment, till he spoke again with a gesture that matched. “What is really our great necessity, you know, is to go by my watch. It’s already eleven”—he had looked at the time; “so that if we stop here to luncheon what becomes of our afternoon?”
So they stayed quiet for a moment until he spoke again with a matching gesture. "What we really need to do is go by my watch. It's already eleven,"—he had checked the time—"so if we stop here for lunch, what happens to our afternoon?"
To this Charlotte’s eyes opened straight. “There’s not the slightest need of our stopping here to luncheon. Don’t you see,” she asked, “how I’m ready?” He had taken it in, but there was always more and more of her. “You mean you’ve arranged—?”
To this, Charlotte's eyes widened. “We really don’t need to stop here for lunch. Don’t you see,” she asked, “how ready I am?” He understood, but there was always more to her. “You mean you’ve planned—?”
“It’s easy to arrange. My maid goes up with my things. You’ve only to speak to your man about yours, and they can go together.”
“It’s simple to set up. My maid will take my things up. You just need to talk to your guy about yours, and they can go together.”
“You mean we can leave at once?”
“You mean we can leave right away?”
She let him have it all. “One of the carriages, about which I spoke, will already have come back for us. If your superstitions are on our side,” she smiled, “so my arrangements are, and I’ll back my support against yours.”
She gave him everything. “One of the carriages I mentioned will have already come back for us. If your superstitions are in our favor,” she smiled, “then my plans are too, and I’ll put my support up against yours.”
“Then you had thought,” he wondered, “about Gloucester?”
“Then you were thinking,” he wondered, “about Gloucester?”
She hesitated—but it was only her way. “I thought you would think. We have, thank goodness, these harmonies. They are food for superstition if you like. It’s beautiful,” she went on, “that it should be Gloucester; ‘Glo’ster, Glo’ster,’ as you say, making it sound like an old song. However, I’m sure Glo’ster, Glo’ster will be charming,” she still added; “we shall be able easily to lunch there, and, with our luggage and our servants off our hands, we shall have at least three or four hours. We can wire,” she wound up, “from there.”
She paused—but that was just her style. “I thought you would consider. Thankfully, we have these harmonies. They can be seen as food for superstition if you want. It’s beautiful,” she continued, “that it’s Gloucester; ‘Glo’ster, Glo’ster,’ as you say, making it sound like an old song. Still, I’m sure Glo’ster, Glo’ster will be lovely,” she added; “we’ll easily be able to have lunch there, and with our luggage and our servants out of the way, we’ll have at least three or four hours. We can send a message,” she concluded, “from there.”
Ever so quietly she had brought it, as she had thought it, all out, and it had to be as covertly that he let his appreciation expand. “Then Lady Castledean—?”
Ever so quietly she had brought it out, just as she had imagined, and he had to let his gratitude expand just as subtly. “Then Lady Castledean—?”
“Doesn’t dream of our staying.”
"Doesn’t dream of us staying."
He took it, but thinking yet. “Then what does she dream—?”
He took it, but he was still thinking. “So what does she dream about—?”
“Of Mr. Blint, poor dear; of Mr. Blint only.” Her smile for him—for the Prince himself—was free. “Have I positively to tell you that she doesn’t want us? She only wanted us for the others—to show she wasn’t left alone with him. Now that that’s done, and that they’ve all gone, she of course knows for herself—!”
“About Mr. Blint, poor thing; just about Mr. Blint.” Her smile for him—for the Prince himself—was genuine. “Do I really have to tell you that she doesn’t want us? She only wanted us around for the others—to prove she wasn’t left alone with him. Now that that’s over, and they’ve all left, she obviously knows for herself—!”
“‘Knows’?” the Prince vaguely echoed.
“‘Knows’?” the Prince echoed unsurely.
“Why, that we like cathedrals; that we inevitably stop to see them, or go round to take them in, whenever we’ve a chance; that it’s what our respective families quite expect of us and would be disappointed for us to fail of. This, as forestieri,” Mrs. Verver pursued, “would be our pull—if our pull weren’t indeed so great all round.”
“Why, it's because we enjoy cathedrals; we always stop to see them or go out of our way to take them in whenever we get the chance; it’s what our families expect from us, and they would be disappointed if we didn’t. This, as outsiders,” Mrs. Verver continued, “would be our draw—if our draw weren’t really so strong all around.”
He could only keep his eyes on her. “And have you made out the very train—?”
He could only keep his eyes on her. “So, have you figured out the exact train—?”
“The very one. Paddington—the 6.50 ‘in.’ That gives us oceans; we can dine, at the usual hour, at home; and as Maggie will of course be in Eaton Square I hereby invite you.”
“The very one. Paddington—the 6:50 ‘in.’ That gives us plenty of time; we can have dinner, at our usual time, at home; and since Maggie will definitely be in Eaton Square, I’m inviting you.”
For a while he still but looked at her; it was a minute before he spoke. “Thank you very much. With pleasure.” To which he in a moment added: “But the train for Gloucester?”
For a moment, he just looked at her; it took him a minute before he spoke. “Thank you very much. It’s my pleasure.” He then quickly added, “But what about the train to Gloucester?”
“A local one—11.22; with several stops, but doing it a good deal, I forget how much, within the hour. So that we’ve time. Only,” she said, “we must employ our time.”
“A local one—11.22; with several stops, but it gets you there pretty quickly, I can’t remember how much, within the hour. So we have time. Only,” she said, “we need to make good use of our time.”
He roused himself as from the mere momentary spell of her; he looked again at his watch while they moved back to the door through which she had advanced. But he had also again questions and stops—all as for the mystery and the charm. “You looked it up—without my having asked you?”
He shook off the brief daze she had put him in and checked his watch again as they walked back to the door she had come through. But he still had questions and hesitations, all tied to the mystery and allure. “You found that out—without me even asking you?”
“Ah, my dear,” she laughed, “I’ve seen you with Bradshaw! It takes Anglo-Saxon blood.”
“Ah, my dear,” she laughed, “I’ve seen you with Bradshaw! It takes English blood.”
“‘Blood’?” he echoed. “You’ve that of every race!” It kept her before him. “You’re terrible.”
“‘Blood’?” he repeated. “You have that from every race!” It kept her in front of him. “You’re awful.”
Well, he could put it as he liked. “I know the name of the inn.”
Well, he could say it however he wanted. “I know the name of the inn.”
“What is it then?”
"What's going on?"
“There are two—you’ll see. But I’ve chosen the right one. And I think I remember the tomb,” she smiled.
“There are two—you’ll see. But I’ve picked the right one. And I think I remember the tomb,” she smiled.
“Oh, the tomb—!” Any tomb would do for him. “But I mean I had been keeping my idea so cleverly for you, while there you already were with it.”
“Oh, the tomb—!” Any tomb would work for him. “But I mean I had been holding onto my idea so well for you, while you were already there with it.”
“You had been keeping it ‘for’ me as much as you like. But how do you make out,” she asked, “that you were keeping it FROM me?”
“You had been saving it ‘for’ me as much as you wanted. But how do you explain,” she asked, “that you were keeping it FROM me?”
“I don’t—now. How shall I ever keep anything—some day when I shall wish to?”
“I don't—now. How will I ever hold onto anything—someday when I want to?”
“Ah, for things I mayn’t want to know, I promise you shall find me stupid.” They had reached their door, where she herself paused to explain. “These days, yesterday, last night, this morning, I’ve wanted everything.”
“Ah, for things I might not want to know, I promise you will find me stupid.” They had reached their door, where she herself stopped to explain. “These days, yesterday, last night, this morning, I’ve wanted everything.”
Well, it was all right. “You shall have everything.”
Well, it was fine. “You’ll get everything.”
XXIII
XXIII
Fanny, on her arrival in town, carried out her second idea, despatching the Colonel to his club for luncheon and packing her maid into a cab, for Cadogan Place, with the variety of their effects. The result of this for each of the pair was a state of occupation so unbroken that the day practically passed without fresh contact between them. They dined out together, but it was both in going to their dinner and in coming back that they appeared, on either side, to have least to communicate. Fanny was wrapped in her thoughts still more closely than in the lemon-coloured mantle that protected her bare shoulders, and her husband, with her silence to deal with, showed himself not less disposed than usual, when so challenged, to hold up, as he would have said, his end of it. They had, in general, in these days, longer pauses and more abrupt transitions; in one of which latter they found themselves, for a climax, launched at midnight. Mrs. Assingham, rather wearily housed again, ascended to the first floor, there to sink, overburdened, on the landing outside the drawing-room, into a great gilded Venetian chair—of which at first, however, she but made, with her brooding face, a sort of throne of meditation. She would thus have recalled a little, with her so free orientalism of type, the immemorially speechless Sphinx about at last to become articulate. The Colonel, not unlike, on his side, some old pilgrim of the desert camping at the foot of that monument, went, by way of reconnoissance, into the drawing-room. He visited, according to his wont, the windows and their fastenings; he cast round the place the eye, all at once, of the master and the manager, the commandant and the rate-payer; then he came back to his wife, before whom, for a moment, he stood waiting. But she herself, for a time, continued to wait, only looking up at him inscrutably. There was in these minor manoeuvres and conscious patiences something of a suspension of their old custom of divergent discussion, that intercourse by misunderstanding which had grown so clumsy now. This familiar pleasantry seemed to desire to show it could yield, on occasion, to any clear trouble; though it was also sensibly, and just incoherently, in the air that no trouble was at present to be vulgarly recognised as clear.
Fanny, upon arriving in town, put her second plan into action, sending the Colonel off to his club for lunch while packing her maid into a cab for Cadogan Place, along with their belongings. This left both of them so preoccupied that they barely interacted throughout the day. They dined out together, yet it was during both their trip to dinner and their return that they seemed to have the least to say to each other. Fanny was lost in her thoughts, more wrapped up in them than in the lemon-colored coat that protected her bare shoulders, and her husband, faced with her silence, was as inclined as ever to just keep things going, as he would have put it. Generally, these days, they shared longer silences and more abrupt changes; it was in one of these moments that they found themselves, for a climax, out at midnight. Mrs. Assingham, rather tired upon returning home, climbed to the first floor and sank, overwhelmed, on the landing outside the drawing-room into a grand gilded Venetian chair—which initially, however, she turned into a sort of throne of meditation with her brooding expression. In her free-spirited, Eastern style, she could almost evoke the timelessly mute Sphinx about to speak. The Colonel, somewhat like an old desert traveler camping at the foot of that monument, went into the drawing-room to check things out. He inspected the windows and their locks as was his habit; he surveyed the room with the eyes of both a master and a manager, a commander and a taxpayer; then he returned to his wife, standing quietly in front of her for a moment. But she, for a while, just looked up at him inscrutably. In these little maneuvers and conscious pauses, there was a hint of a break from their usual pattern of arguing, that back-and-forth conversation filled with misunderstandings that had become so awkward. This familiar banter seemed to want to show that it could give way to any serious issue if necessary; though it was also clear, and somewhat confusingly in the air, that there wasn’t any trouble right now that could be straightforwardly addressed.
There might, for that matter, even have been in Mr. Assingham’s face a mild perception of some finer sense—a sense for his wife’s situation, and the very situation she was, oddly enough, about to repudiate—that she had fairly caused to grow in him. But it was a flower to breathe upon gently, and this was very much what she finally did. She knew he needed no telling that she had given herself, all the afternoon, to her friends in Eaton Square, and that her doing so would have been but the prompt result of impressions gathered, in quantities, in brimming baskets, like the purple grapes of the vintage, at Matcham; a process surrounded by him, while it so unmistakably went on, with abstentions and discretions that might almost have counted as solemnities. The solemnities, at the same time, had committed him to nothing—to nothing beyond this confession itself of a consciousness of deep waters. She had been out on these waters, for him, visibly; and his tribute to the fact had been his keeping her, even if without a word, well in sight. He had not quitted for an hour, during her adventure, the shore of the mystic lake; he had on the contrary stationed himself where she could signal to him at need. Her need would have arisen if the planks of her bark had parted—THEN some sort of plunge would have become his immediate duty. His present position, clearly, was that of seeing her in the centre of her sheet of dark water, and of wondering if her actual mute gaze at him didn’t perhaps mean that her planks WERE now parting. He held himself so ready that it was quite as if the inward man had pulled off coat and waistcoat. Before he had plunged, however—that is before he had uttered a question—he perceived, not without relief, that she was making for land. He watched her steadily paddle, always a little nearer, and at last he felt her boat bump. The bump was distinct, and in fact she stepped ashore. “We were all wrong. There’s nothing.”
There might have even been a hint of a finer understanding in Mr. Assingham’s face—a sense of his wife’s situation, and the very situation she was, strangely enough, about to deny—that she had pretty much created in him. But it was something delicate to nurture, and that was exactly what she ultimately did. She knew he didn’t need to be told that she had spent all afternoon with her friends in Eaton Square, and that her doing so was just the immediate result of impressions gathered, in abundance, like ripe grapes from the harvest at Matcham; a process that was happening unmistakably around him, with certain avoidance and carefulness that could almost be seen as rituals. These rituals, at the same time, hadn’t bound him to anything—nothing beyond this acknowledgment of a deeper awareness. She had been out on those depths, visibly for him; and his acknowledgment of that fact had been keeping her, even without a word, clearly in view. He hadn’t left the edge of the mysterious lake for even an hour during her outing; rather, he had positioned himself where she could call out to him if needed. Her need would have arisen if her boat had begun to break apart—THEN some sort of dive would have been his immediate obligation. His current stance was clearly that of watching her in the center of her dark waters, and wondering if her silent gaze at him might mean that her boat WAS indeed breaking apart. He was so ready that it was almost as if the inner man had stripped off his coat and vest. Before he had to dive in, however—that is, before he had asked a question—he noticed, with some relief, that she was heading back to shore. He watched her steadily paddle closer, and finally he felt her boat bump against the dock. The bump was clear, and in fact, she stepped ashore. “We were all wrong. There’s nothing.”
“Nothing—?” It was like giving her his hand up the bank.
“Nothing—?” It felt like he was offering her a hand to help her up the hill.
“Between Charlotte Verver and the Prince. I was uneasy—but I’m satisfied now. I was in fact quite mistaken. There’s nothing.”
“Between Charlotte Verver and the Prince. I felt uneasy—but now I’m okay with it. I was actually quite wrong. There’s nothing.”
“But I thought,” said Bob Assingham, “that that was just what you did persistently asseverate. You’ve guaranteed their straightness from the first.”
“But I thought,” said Bob Assingham, “that’s exactly what you kept insisting. You’ve guaranteed their honesty from the beginning.”
“No—I’ve never till now guaranteed anything but my own disposition to worry. I’ve never till now,” Fanny went on gravely from her chair, “had such a chance to see and to judge. I had it at that place—if I had, in my infatuation and my folly,” she added with expression, “nothing else. So I did see—I HAVE seen. And now I know.” Her emphasis, as she repeated the word, made her head, in her seat of infallibility, rise higher. “I know.”
“No—I’ve never until now promised anything other than my own tendency to worry. I’ve never until now,” Fanny continued seriously from her chair, “had such an opportunity to see and to evaluate. I had it back there—if I had, in my obsession and my foolishness,” she added with feeling, “nothing else. So I did see—I HAVE seen. And now I know.” Her emphasis, as she repeated the word, made her head, in her seat of certainty, lift higher. “I know.”
The Colonel took it—but took it at first in silence. “Do you mean they’ve TOLD you—?”
The Colonel accepted it—but he was silent at first. “Are you saying they’ve TOLD you—?”
“No—I mean nothing so absurd. For in the first place I haven’t asked them, and in the second their word in such a matter wouldn’t count.”
“No—I don’t mean anything that ridiculous. First of all, I haven’t asked them, and second, their opinion wouldn’t matter in this situation.”
“Oh,” said the Colonel with all his oddity, “they’d tell US.”
“Oh,” said the Colonel in his usual quirky way, “they’d tell US.”
It made her face him an instant as with her old impatience of his short cuts, always across her finest flower-beds; but she felt, none the less, that she kept her irony down. “Then when they’ve told you, you’ll be perhaps so good as to let me know.”
It made her look at him for a moment, her old frustration with his shortcuts across her best flower beds surfacing, but she still managed to keep her sarcasm in check. “So once you’ve heard it, you’ll be kind enough to let me know.”
He jerked up his chin, testing the growth of his beard with the back of his hand while he fixed her with a single eye. “Ah, I don’t say that they’d necessarily tell me that they ARE over the traces.”
He lifted his chin, feeling the growth of his beard with the back of his hand while staring at her with one eye. “Well, I wouldn’t say they’d actually admit that they’re off track.”
“They’ll necessarily, whatever happens, hold their tongues, I hope, and I’m talking of them now as I take them for myself only. THAT’S enough for me—it’s all I have to regard.” With which, after an instant, “They’re wonderful,” said Fanny Assingham.
“They’ll definitely keep quiet, no matter what happens, I hope, and I’m referring to them now as if they’re just for me. THAT’S all I need to worry about.” With that, after a moment, “They’re amazing,” said Fanny Assingham.
“Indeed,” her husband concurred, “I really think they are.”
“Yeah,” her husband agreed, “I really think they are.”
“You’d think it still more if you knew. But you don’t know—because you don’t see. Their situation”—this was what he didn’t see—“is too extraordinary.”
“You’d think it even more if you knew. But you don’t know—because you can’t see. Their situation”—this was what he didn’t see—“is too extraordinary.”
“‘Too’?” He was willing to try.
“‘Too’?” He was ready to give it a shot.
“Too extraordinary to be believed, I mean, if one didn’t see. But just that, in a way, is what saves them. They take it seriously.”
“Too amazing to be believed, I mean, if you didn’t see it. But that, in a way, is what saves them. They take it seriously.”
He followed at his own pace. “Their situation?”
He walked at his own speed. “Their situation?”
“The incredible side of it. They make it credible.”
“The amazing part of it. They make it believable.”
“Credible then—you do say—to YOU?”
“Reliable then—you do say—to YOU?”
She looked at him again for an interval. “They believe in it themselves. They take it for what it is. And that,” she said, “saves them.”
She looked at him again for a moment. “They believe in it themselves. They accept it for what it is. And that,” she said, “saves them.”
“But if what it ‘is’ is just their chance—?”
“But if what it ‘is’ is just their opportunity—?”
“It’s their chance for what I told you when Charlotte first turned up. It’s their chance for the idea that I was then sure she had.”
“It’s their opportunity for what I mentioned when Charlotte first arrived. It’s their chance for the concept that I was then certain she had.”
The Colonel showed his effort to recall. “Oh, your idea, at different moments, of any one of THEIR ideas!” This dim procession, visibly, mustered before him, and, with the best will in the world, he could but watch its immensity. “Are you speaking now of something to which you can comfortably settle down?”
The Colonel tried to remember. “Oh, your thoughts, at various times, about any of THEIR ideas!” This vague lineup, clearly, gathered in front of him, and, despite his best intentions, he could only observe its vastness. “Are you talking now about something you can actually relax into?”
Again, for a little, she only glowered at him. “I’ve come back to my belief, and that I have done so—”
Again, for a moment, she just glared at him. “I’ve returned to my belief, and I have done so—”
“Well?” he asked as she paused.
“Well?” he asked as she hesitated.
“Well, shows that I’m right—for I assure you I had wandered far. Now I’m at home again, and I mean,” said Fanny Assingham, “to stay here. They’re beautiful,” she declared.
“Well, that proves I’m right—for I promise you I had gone far. Now I’m back home, and I plan to stay here,” Fanny Assingham said. “They’re beautiful,” she declared.
“The Prince and Charlotte?”
“Prince and Charlotte?”
“The Prince and Charlotte. THAT’S how they’re so remarkable. And the beauty,” she explained, “is that they’re afraid for them. Afraid, I mean, for the others.”
“The Prince and Charlotte. THAT’S what makes them so special. And the beauty,” she explained, “is that they’re worried for them. Worried, I mean, for everyone else.”
“For Mr. Verver and Maggie?” It did take some following. “Afraid of what?”
“For Mr. Verver and Maggie?” It did take some figuring out. “What are you afraid of?”
“Afraid of themselves.”
"Scared of themselves."
The Colonel wondered. “Of THEMSELVES? Of Mr. Verver’s and Maggie’s selves?”
The Colonel wondered, “About THEMSELVES? About Mr. Verver and Maggie?”
Mrs. Assingham remained patient as well as lucid. “Yes—of SUCH blindness too. But most of all of their own danger.”
Mrs. Assingham stayed calm and clear-headed. “Yes—of THAT kind of blindness too. But mostly about their own danger.”
He turned it over. “That danger BEING the blindness—?”
He flipped it over. “That danger being the blindness—?”
“That danger being their position. What their position contains—of all the elements—I needn’t at this time of day attempt to tell you. It contains, luckily—for that’s the mercy—everything BUT blindness: I mean on their part. The blindness,” said Fanny, “is primarily her husband’s.”
“That danger is in their position. What their position includes—of all the elements—I don’t need to explain to you right now. Fortunately—for that’s the bright side—it has everything EXCEPT blindness: I mean on their part. The blindness,” Fanny said, “is mainly her husband’s.”
He stood for a moment; he WOULD have it straight. “Whose husband’s?”
He paused for a moment; he needed to get it straight. “Whose husband’s?”
“Mr. Verver’s,” she went on. “The blindness is most of all his. That they feel—that they see. But it’s also his wife’s.”
“Mr. Verver’s,” she continued. “The blindness is mostly his. They think—they see. But it’s also his wife’s.”
“Whose wife’s?” he asked as she continued to gloom at him in a manner at variance with the comparative cheer of her contention. And then as she only gloomed: “The Prince’s?”
“Whose wife’s?” he asked as she kept frowning at him in a way that didn't match the relative cheer of her argument. And then, since she only continued to frown: “The Prince’s?”
“Maggie’s own—Maggie’s very own,” she pursued as for herself.
“Maggie’s own—Maggie’s very own,” she continued as if it were for herself.
He had a pause. “Do you think Maggie so blind?”
He paused. “Do you really think Maggie is that blind?”
“The question isn’t of what I think. The question’s of the conviction that guides the Prince and Charlotte—who have better opportunities than I for judging.”
“The question isn’t what I think. The question is the belief that guides the Prince and Charlotte—who have better chances than I do for judging.”
The Colonel again wondered. “Are you so very sure their opportunities are better?”
The Colonel wondered again, “Are you really sure their opportunities are better?”
“Well,” his wife asked, “what is their whole so extraordinary situation, their extraordinary relation, but an opportunity?”
“Well,” his wife asked, “what is their whole extraordinary situation, their extraordinary relationship, but an opportunity?”
“Ah, my dear, you have that opportunity—of their extraordinary situation and relation—as much as they.”
“Ah, my dear, you have that chance—like they do—because of their unique situation and relationship.”
“With the difference, darling,” she returned with some spirit, “that neither of those matters are, if you please, mine. I see the boat they’re in, but I’m not, thank God, in it myself. To-day, however,” Mrs. Assingham added, “to-day in Eaton Square I did see.”
“With the difference, darling,” she replied with some energy, “that neither of those things are, if you don’t mind, mine. I see the boat they’re in, but thankfully, I’m not in it myself. Today, however,” Mrs. Assingham added, “today in Eaton Square I did see.”
“Well then, what?”
"Alright then, what now?"
But she mused over it still. “Oh, many things. More, somehow, than ever before. It was as if, God help me, I was seeing FOR them—I mean for the others. It was as if something had happened—I don’t know what, except some effect of these days with them at that place—that had either made things come out or had cleared my own eyes.” These eyes indeed of the poor lady’s rested on her companion’s, meanwhile, with the lustre not so much of intenser insight as of a particular portent that he had at various other times had occasion to recognise. She desired, obviously, to reassure him, but it apparently took a couple of large, candid, gathering, glittering tears to emphasise the fact. They had immediately, for him, their usual direct action: she must reassure him, he was made to feel, absolutely in her own way. He would adopt it and conform to it as soon as he should be able to make it out. The only thing was that it took such incalculable twists and turns. The twist seemed remarkable for instance as she developed her indication of what had come out in the afternoon. “It was as if I knew better than ever what makes them—”
But she thought about it more. “Oh, so many things. More than ever before. It was like, God help me, I was seeing FOR them—I mean for the others. It felt like something had happened—I don’t know what, except some effect of these days with them at that place—that had either revealed things or cleared my own vision.” Her eyes rested on her companion’s, not shining with clearer insight but with a specific omen that he had noticed at various times before. She clearly wanted to reassure him, but it took a couple of big, honest, glistening tears to underline the point. They had their usual immediate effect on him: he felt she needed to reassure him, absolutely in her own way. He would accept it and adjust to it as soon as he figured it out. The only thing was that it took such unpredictable twists and turns. The twist seemed striking, for example, as she began to explain what she had realized in the afternoon. “It was as if I knew better than ever what drives them—”
“What makes them?”—he pressed her as she fitfully dropped.
“What makes them?”—he pressed her as she dropped fitfully.
“Well, makes the Prince and Charlotte take it all as they do. It might well have been difficult to know HOW to take it; and they may even say for themselves that they were a long time trying to see. As I say, to-day,” she went on, “it was as if I were suddenly, with a kind of horrible push, seeing through their eyes.” On which, as to shake off her perversity, Fanny Assingham sprang up. But she remained there, under the dim illumination, and while the Colonel, with his high, dry, spare look of “type,” to which a certain conformity to the whiteness of inaccessible snows in his necktie, shirt-front and waistcoat gave a rigour of accent, waited, watching her, they might, at the late hour and in the still house, have been a pair of specious worldly adventurers, driven for relief, under sudden stress, to some grim midnight reckoning in an odd corner. Her attention moved mechanically over the objects of ornament disposed too freely on the walls of staircase and landing, as to which recognition, for the time, had lost both fondness and compunction. “I can imagine the way it works,” she said; “it’s so easy to understand. Yet I don’t want to be wrong,” she the next moment broke out “I don’t, I don’t want to be wrong!”
“Well, it makes the Prince and Charlotte take it all as they do. It might have been tough to know HOW to take it, and they might even say for themselves that they spent a long time trying to figure it out. As I said today,” she continued, “it was like I was suddenly, with a sort of horrible jolt, seeing through their eyes.” After that, in an attempt to shake off her stubbornness, Fanny Assingham jumped up. But she stayed there, under the dim light, and while the Colonel, with his high, dry, spare look of “type,” which had a certain conformity to the whiteness of untouched snow in his necktie, shirt-front, and waistcoat that added a touch of sharpness, waited, watching her, they might, at that late hour in the quiet house, have appeared as a couple of slick worldly adventurers, forced by sudden pressure to some grim midnight confrontation in an unusual spot. Her attention drifted mechanically over the decorative items scattered too freely on the walls of the staircase and landing, and recognition, for the moment, had lost both warmth and regret. “I can imagine how it works,” she said; “it’s so easy to understand. Yet I don’t want to be wrong,” she suddenly exclaimed. “I don’t, I don’t want to be wrong!”
“To make a mistake, you mean?”
“To make a mistake, you mean?”
Oh no, she meant nothing of the sort; she knew but too well what she meant. “I don’t make mistakes. But I perpetrate—in thought—crimes.” And she spoke with all intensity. “I’m a most dreadful person. There are times when I seem not to mind a bit what I’ve done, or what I think or imagine or fear or accept; when I feel that I’d do it again—feel that I’d do things myself.”
Oh no, she didn’t mean anything like that; she knew exactly what she meant. “I don’t make mistakes. But I commit—in thought—crimes.” And she spoke with great intensity. “I’m a truly awful person. There are times when I don’t care at all about what I’ve done, or what I think or imagine or fear or accept; when I feel that I’d do it again—like I’d do those things myself.”
“Ah, my dear!” the Colonel remarked in the coolness of debate.
“Ah, my dear!” the Colonel said calmly during the discussion.
“Yes, if you had driven me back on my ‘nature.’ Luckily for you you never have. You’ve done every thing else, but you’ve never done that. But what I really don’t a bit want,” she declared, “is to abet them or to protect them.”
“Yes, if you had driven me back to my ‘nature.’ Luckily for you, you never have. You’ve done everything else, but you’ve never done that. But what I really don’t want at all,” she said, “is to support them or to defend them.”
Her companion turned this over. “What is there to protect them from?—if, by your now so settled faith, they’ve done nothing that justly exposes them.”
Her companion considered this. “What do they need protection from?—if, according to your now firm belief, they haven’t done anything that justly puts them at risk.”
And it in fact half pulled her up. “Well, from a sudden scare. From the alarm, I mean, of what Maggie MAY think.”
And it actually half lifted her up. “Well, from a sudden scare. From the alarm, I mean, of what Maggie MIGHT think.”
“Yet if your whole idea is that Maggie thinks nothing—?”
“Yet if your whole point is that Maggie doesn’t think at all—?”
She waited again. “It isn’t my ‘whole’ idea. Nothing is my ‘whole’ idea—for I felt to-day, as I tell you, that there’s so much in the air.”
She waited again. “It’s not my ‘whole’ idea. Nothing is my ‘whole’ idea—because I felt today, as I’m telling you, that there’s so much going on.”
“Oh, in the air—!” the Colonel dryly breathed.
“Oh, in the air—!” the Colonel said dryly.
“Well, what’s in the air always HAS—hasn’t it?—to come down to the earth. And Maggie,” Mrs. Assingham continued, “is a very curious little person. Since I was ‘in,’ this afternoon, for seeing more than I had ever done—well, I felt THAT too, for some reason, as I hadn’t yet felt it.”
“Well, whatever's in the air always HAS—hasn't it?—to come down to the ground. And Maggie,” Mrs. Assingham went on, “is a very curious little person. Since I was ‘in’ this afternoon, seeing more than I ever had before—well, I felt THAT too, for some reason, in a way I hadn’t felt it yet.”
“For ‘some’ reason? For what reason?” And then, as his wife at first said nothing: “Did she give any sign? Was she in any way different?”
“For ‘some’ reason? What reason?” And then, as his wife initially said nothing: “Did she give any hints? Was she in any way different?”
“She’s always so different from anyone else in the world that it’s hard to say when she’s different from herself. But she has made me,” said Fanny after an instant, “think of her differently. She drove me home.”
“She’s always so unique compared to everyone else that it’s tough to tell when she’s different from her usual self. But she has made me,” Fanny said after a moment, “think of her in a different way. She drove me home.”
“Home here?”
“Is this home?”
“First to Portland Place—on her leaving her father: since she does, once in a while, leave him. That was to keep me with her a little longer. But she kept the carriage and, after tea there, came with me herself back here. This was also for the same purpose. Then she went home, though I had brought her a message from the Prince that arranged their movements otherwise. He and Charlotte must have arrived—if they have arrived—expecting to drive together to Eaton Square and keep Maggie on to dinner there. She has everything there, you know—she has clothes.”
“First to Portland Place—after she left her dad: since she does, occasionally, leave him. That was to keep me with her a little longer. But she kept the carriage and, after tea there, came back here with me herself. This was also for the same reason. Then she went home, even though I had brought her a message from the Prince that changed their plans. He and Charlotte must have arrived—if they have arrived—expecting to drive together to Eaton Square and keep Maggie there for dinner. She has everything there, you know—she has clothes.”
The Colonel didn’t in fact know, but he gave it his apprehension. “Oh, you mean a change?”
The Colonel didn’t actually know, but he felt uneasy about it. “Oh, you mean a change?”
“Twenty changes, if you like—all sorts of things. She dresses, really, Maggie does, as much for her father—and she always did—as for her husband or for herself. She has her room in his house very much as she had it before she was married—and just as the boy has quite a second nursery there, in which Mrs. Noble, when she comes with him, makes herself, I assure you, at home. Si bien that if Charlotte, in her own house, so to speak, should wish a friend or two to stay with her, she really would be scarce able to put them up.”
“Twenty changes, if you want—all kinds of things. Honestly, Maggie dresses not just for her husband or herself, but also for her father—always has. She has her room in his house just like she did before she got married—and just like the boy has a second nursery there, where Mrs. Noble, when she visits with him, totally makes herself at home. So much so that if Charlotte, in her own house, wanted to have a friend or two stay over, she would hardly have enough space for them.”
It was a picture into which, as a thrifty entertainer himself, Bob Assingham could more or less enter. “Maggie and the child spread so?”
It was a scene that, as a budget-conscious host himself, Bob Assingham could somewhat relate to. “Maggie and the kid sprawled out like that?”
“Maggie and the child spread so.”
“Maggie and the child spread out like that.”
Well, he considered. “It IS rather rum,”
Well, he thought. “It’s pretty strange,”
“That’s all I claim”—she seemed thankful for the word. “I don’t say it’s anything more—but it IS, distinctly, rum.”
"That's all I'm saying," she looked relieved to hear that. "I'm not claiming it's anything more—but it definitely is rum."
Which, after an instant, the Colonel took up. “‘More’? What more COULD it be?”
Which, after a moment, the Colonel picked up. “‘More’? What more COULD it be?”
“It could be that she’s unhappy, and that she takes her funny little way of consoling herself. For if she were unhappy”—Mrs. Assingham had figured it out—“that’s just the way, I’m convinced, she would take. But how can she be unhappy, since—as I’m also convinced—she, in the midst of everything, adores her husband as much as ever?”
“It could be that she’s feeling down, and that’s her quirky way of coping. Because if she were unhappy”—Mrs. Assingham had figured it out—“that’s exactly how I think she would handle it. But how could she be unhappy when—I’m also sure of this—she still loves her husband just as much as always?”
The Colonel at this brooded for a little at large. “Then if she’s so happy, please what’s the matter?”
The Colonel thought about this for a moment. “If she’s so happy, then what’s the problem?”
It made his wife almost spring at him. “You think then she’s secretly wretched?”
It made his wife nearly jump at him. “You think she’s secretly miserable?”
But he threw up his arms in deprecation. “Ah, my dear, I give them up to YOU. I’ve nothing more to suggest.”
But he threw up his arms in defeat. “Ah, my dear, I leave them to YOU. I have nothing more to suggest.”
“Then it’s not sweet of you.” She spoke at present as if he were frequently sweet. “You admit that it is ‘rum.’”
“Then it’s not nice of you.” She said it as if he often was nice. “You’re admitting that it is ‘rum.’”
And this indeed fixed again, for a moment, his intention. “Has Charlotte complained of the want of rooms for her friends?”
And this definitely made him pause for a moment and reconsider. “Has Charlotte said anything about not having enough rooms for her friends?”
“Never, that I know of, a word. It isn’t the sort of thing she does. And whom has she, after all,” Mrs. Assingham added, “to complain to?”
“Never, as far as I know, a word. That’s just not her style. And who does she have, after all,” Mrs. Assingham added, “to complain to?”
“Hasn’t she always you?”
“Hasn’t she always been there for you?”
“Oh, ‘me’! Charlotte and I, nowadays—!” She spoke as of a chapter closed. “Yet see the justice I still do her. She strikes me, more and more, as extraordinary.”
“Oh, ‘me’! Charlotte and I, these days—!” She spoke as if a chapter had closed. “Yet look at the fairness I still give her. She seems to me, more and more, extraordinary.”
A deeper shade, at the renewal of the word, had come into the Colonel’s face. “If they’re each and all so extraordinary then, isn’t that why one must just resign one’s self to wash one’s hands of them—to be lost?” Her face, however, so met the question as if it were but a flicker of the old tone that their trouble had now become too real for—her charged eyes so betrayed the condition of her nerves that he stepped back, alertly enough, to firmer ground. He had spoken before in this light of a plain man’s vision, but he must be something more than a plain man now. “Hasn’t she then, Charlotte, always her husband—?”
A deeper shade settled on the Colonel’s face as he spoke again. “If they’re all so extraordinary, isn’t that why we have to just wash our hands of them and be lost?” Her expression responded to his question as if it was just a hint of the old tone they had shared, but their issues had become too real for that—her intense eyes revealed her nervous state, making him step back, cautious and seeking solid ground. He had previously described things from a simple perspective, but now he felt he needed to be more than just a simple man. “Hasn’t she always had her husband, Charlotte?”
“To complain to? She’d rather die.”
“To complain to? She’d rather die.”
“Oh!”—and Bob Assingham’s face, at the vision of such extremities, lengthened for very docility. “Hasn’t she the Prince then?”
“Oh!”—and Bob Assingham’s face, at the sight of such extremes, grew long with genuine submission. “Doesn’t she have the Prince then?”
“For such matters? Oh, he doesn’t count.”
“For stuff like that? Oh, he doesn’t matter.”
“I thought that was just what—as the basis of our agitation—he does do!”
“I thought that was exactly what—at the core of our protest—he really does!”
Mrs. Assingham, however, had her distinction ready. “Not a bit as a person to bore with complaints. The ground of MY agitation is, exactly, that she never on any pretext bores him. Not Charlotte!” And in the imagination of Mrs. Verver’s superiority to any such mistake she gave, characteristically, something like a toss of her head—as marked a tribute to that lady’s general grace, in all the conditions, as the personage referred to doubtless had ever received.
Mrs. Assingham, however, had her unique perspective ready. “Not at all someone who bores others with complaints. The reason I'm upset is that she never, under any circumstances, bores him. Not Charlotte!” And with her belief in Mrs. Verver’s superiority over such mistakes, she gave, in her typical fashion, something like a toss of her head—an unmistakable nod to that lady’s overall elegance, in every situation, that the person mentioned had probably ever received.
“Ah, only Maggie!” With which the Colonel gave a short low gurgle. But it found his wife again prepared.
“Ah, just Maggie!” With that, the Colonel let out a low gurgle. But his wife was ready for him again.
“No—not only Maggie. A great many people in London—and small wonder!—bore him.”
“No—not just Maggie. A lot of people in London—and it's no surprise!—annoyed him.”
“Maggie only worst then?” But it was a question that he had promptly dropped at the returning brush of another, of which she had shortly before sown the seed. “You said just now that he would by this time be back with Charlotte ‘if they HAVE arrived.’ You think it then possible that they really won’t have returned?”
“Maggie only worse then?” But it was a question he quickly let go as another thought came to mind, one she had hinted at earlier. “You just said that he would be back with Charlotte by now ‘if they HAVE arrived.’ Do you really think it’s possible they won’t have returned?”
His companion exhibited to view, for the idea, a sense of her responsibility; but this was insufficient, clearly, to keep her from entertaining it. “I think there’s nothing they’re not now capable of—in their so intense good faith.”
His companion showed a sense of responsibility regarding the idea; however, this clearly wasn't enough to stop her from considering it. “I think there’s nothing they’re not capable of now—in their intense good faith.”
“Good faith?”—he echoed the words, which had in fact something of an odd ring, critically.
“Good faith?”—he repeated the words, which actually had a somewhat strange tone, critically.
“Their false position. It comes to the same thing.” And she bore down, with her decision, the superficial lack of sequence. “They may very possibly, for a demonstration—as I see them—not have come back.”
“Their false position. It amounts to the same thing.” And she pressed on, with her decision, ignoring the superficial inconsistencies. “They might very well, for a demonstration—as I see it—not have returned.”
He wondered, visibly, at this, how she did see them. “May have bolted somewhere together?”
He visibly wondered about this, how she could see them. “Maybe they ran off somewhere together?”
“May have stayed over at Matcham itself till tomorrow. May have wired home, each of them, since Maggie left me. May have done,” Fanny Assingham continued, “God knows what!” She went on, suddenly, with more emotion—which, at the pressure of some spring of her inner vision, broke out in a wail of distress, imperfectly smothered. “Whatever they’ve done I shall never know. Never, never—because I don’t want to, and because nothing will induce me. So they may do as they like. But I’ve worked for them ALL” She uttered this last with another irrepressible quaver, and the next moment her tears had come, though she had, with the explosion, quitted her husband as if to hide it from him. She passed into the dusky drawing-room, where, during his own prowl, shortly previous, he had drawn up a blind, so that the light of the street-lamps came in a little at the window. She made for this window, against which she leaned her head, while the Colonel, with his lengthened face, looked after her for a minute and hesitated. He might have been wondering what she had really done, to what extent, beyond his knowledge or his conception, in the affairs of these people, she COULD have committed herself. But to hear her cry, and yet try not to, was, quickly enough, too much for him; he had known her at other times quite not try not to, and that had not been so bad. He went to her and put his arm round her; he drew her head to his breast, where, while she gasped, she let it stay a little—all with a patience that presently stilled her. Yet the effect of this small crisis, oddly enough, was not to close their colloquy, with the natural result of sending them to bed: what was between them had opened out further, had somehow, through the sharp show of her feeling, taken a positive stride, had entered, as it were, without more words, the region of the understood, shutting the door after it and bringing them so still more nearly face to face. They remained for some minutes looking at it through the dim window which opened upon the world of human trouble in general and which let the vague light play here and there upon gilt and crystal and colour, the florid features, looming dimly, of Fanny’s drawing-room. And the beauty of what thus passed between them, passed with her cry of pain, with her burst of tears, with his wonderment and his kindness and his comfort, with the moments of their silence, above all, which might have represented their sinking together, hand in hand, for a time, into the mystic lake where he had begun, as we have hinted, by seeing her paddle alone—the beauty of it was that they now could really talk better than before, because the basis had at last, once for all, defined itself. What was the basis, which Fanny absolutely exacted, but that Charlotte and the Prince must be saved—so far as consistently speaking of them as still safe might save them? It did save them, somehow, for Fanny’s troubled mind—for that was the nature of the mind of women. He conveyed to her now, at all events, by refusing her no gentleness, that he had sufficiently got the tip, and that the tip was all he had wanted. This remained quite clear even when he presently reverted to what she had told him of her recent passage with Maggie. “I don’t altogether see, you know, what you infer from it, or why you infer anything.” When he so expressed himself it was quite as if in possession of what they had brought up from the depths.
“Maybe they stayed at Matcham themselves until tomorrow. Maybe they contacted home, each of them, since Maggie left me. Maybe they did,” Fanny Assingham continued, “God knows what!” She suddenly spoke with more emotion, which, pressed down by some inner force, erupted into a cry of distress, imperfectly suppressed. “Whatever they’ve done, I’ll never know. Never, never—because I don’t want to, and nothing will make me. So they can do as they like. But I’ve worked for them ALL.” She said this last with another uncontrollable tremor, and the next moment, tears came, though she turned away from her husband as if to hide it from him. She moved into the dim drawing-room, where, during his earlier wandering, he had pulled up a blind, allowing a little light from the street lamps to come through the window. She headed for this window, resting her head against it, while the Colonel, with his elongated face, watched her for a minute and hesitated. He might have been wondering what she had really done, how deeply, beyond his knowledge or understanding, in the affairs of these people, she COULD have involved herself. But hearing her cry—and trying not to—was quickly too much for him; he had seen her at other times try not to, and that hadn’t been so bad. He went to her and wrapped his arm around her; he drew her head to his chest, where, as she gasped, she let it stay for a bit—all with a patience that eventually calmed her. Yet oddly enough, the effect of this small crisis didn’t end their conversation, leading them to bed: what was between them had opened up further, had somehow taken a positive leap through the sharp display of her feelings, had entered, as it were, without more words, the realm of the understood, shutting the door behind it and bringing them even closer together. They spent a few minutes gazing through the dim window that opened onto the world of human troubles in general, letting the vague light dance here and there over gold and crystal and color, the fading outlines of Fanny’s drawing-room. And the beauty of what flowed between them, tied to her cry of pain, her outburst of tears, his bewilderment, his kindness, and his comfort, along with their moments of silence, particularly, might have symbolized them sinking together, hand in hand, for a time, into the mystic lake where he had initially begun, as we’ve hinted, by seeing her paddle alone—the beauty of it was that they could now really communicate better than before, because the foundation had finally, once and for all, established itself. What was the foundation, which Fanny insisted upon, but that Charlotte and the Prince must be saved—as far as consistently referring to them as still safe could save them? It did somehow rescue them for Fanny’s worried mind—for that was the nature of women’s minds. He conveyed to her now, at least, by refusing her no gentleness, that he had gotten the hint, and that the hint was all he had wanted. This remained clear even as he soon returned to what she had told him about her recent encounter with Maggie. “I don’t quite see, you know, what you’re inferring from it, or why you’re inferring anything.” When he expressed this, it was as though he possessed what they had brought up from the depths.
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“I can’t say more,” this made his companion reply, “than that something in her face, her voice and her whole manner acted upon me as nothing in her had ever acted before; and just for the reason, above all, that I felt her trying her very best—and her very best, poor duck, is very good—to be quiet and natural. It’s when one sees people who always ARE natural making little pale, pathetic, blinking efforts for it—then it is that one knows something’s the matter. I can’t describe my impression—you would have had it for yourself. And the only thing that ever CAN be the matter with Maggie is that. By ‘that’ I mean her beginning to doubt. To doubt, for the first time,” Mrs. Assingham wound up, “of her wonderful little judgment of her wonderful little world.”
“I can’t say much more,” his companion responded, “than that something about her face, her voice, and her whole demeanor affected me in a way nothing else ever has. It’s mostly because I sensed she was really trying— and her best, poor thing, is pretty good—to be calm and genuine. It’s when you see people who are usually natural making these little pale, sad, awkward attempts that you know something’s wrong. I can’t put my impression into words—you would have felt it yourself. And the only thing that could possibly be wrong with Maggie is that. By ‘that’ I mean her starting to doubt. To doubt, for the first time,” Mrs. Assingham concluded, “about her amazing little judgment of her amazing little world.”
It was impressive, Fanny’s vision, and the Colonel, as if himself agitated by it, took another turn of prowling. “To doubt of fidelity—to doubt of friendship! Poor duck indeed! It will go hard with her. But she’ll put it all,” he concluded, “on Charlotte.”
It was impressive, Fanny’s vision, and the Colonel, as if he felt the same agitation, took another turn of walking around. “To doubt loyalty—to doubt friendship! Poor thing indeed! It’s going to be tough for her. But she’ll attribute it all,” he concluded, “to Charlotte.”
Mrs. Assingham, still darkly contemplative, denied this with a headshake. “She won’t ‘put’ it anywhere. She won’t do with it anything anyone else would. She’ll take it all herself.”
Mrs. Assingham, still deep in thought, shook her head in disagreement. “She won’t ‘put’ it anywhere. She won’t use it like anyone else would. She’ll keep it all for herself.”
“You mean she’ll make it out her own fault?”
"You mean she'll get in trouble because of her own mistakes?"
“Yes—she’ll find means, somehow, to arrive at that.”
“Yes—she’ll figure out a way to get there.”
“Ah then,” the Colonel dutifully declared, “she’s indeed a little brick!”
“Ah then,” the Colonel said with dedication, “she’s definitely a little brick!”
“Oh,” his wife returned, “you’ll see, in one way or another, to what tune!” And she spoke, of a sudden, with an approach to elation—so that, as if immediately feeling his surprise, she turned round to him. “She’ll see me somehow through!”
“Oh,” his wife replied, “you’ll find out, one way or another, what’s going on!” And she suddenly spoke with a hint of excitement—so much so that, sensing his surprise, she turned to him. “She’ll figure out a way to see me!”
“See YOU—?”
"See you—?"
“Yes, me. I’m the worst. For,” said Fanny Assingham, now with a harder exaltation, “I did it all. I recognise that—I accept it. She won’t cast it up at me—she won’t cast up anything. So I throw myself upon her—she’ll bear me up.” She spoke almost volubly—she held him with her sudden sharpness. “She’ll carry the whole weight of us.”
"Yeah, it's me. I'm the worst. Because," said Fanny Assingham, now with a tougher excitement, "I did everything. I totally get that—I own it. She won't hold it against me—she won't bring up anything. So I lean on her—she'll support me." She spoke almost rapidly—she had him with her unexpected intensity. "She'll take on the entire burden of us."
There was still, nevertheless, wonder in it. “You mean she won’t mind? I SAY, love—!” And he not unkindly stared. “Then where’s the difficulty?”
There was still, however, a sense of wonder in it. “You mean she won’t care? I CAN'T BELIEVE IT, love—!” And he looked at her, not unkindly. “So where’s the problem?”
“There isn’t any!” Fanny declared with the same rich emphasis. It kept him indeed, as by the loss of the thread, looking at her longer. “Ah, you mean there isn’t any for US!”
“There isn’t any!” Fanny declared with the same strong emphasis. It really kept him, as if he had lost the thread, looking at her longer. “Oh, you mean there isn’t any for US!”
She met his look for a minute as if it perhaps a little too much imputed a selfishness, a concern, at any cost, for their own surface. Then she might have been deciding that their own surface was, after all, what they had most to consider. “Not,” she said with dignity, “if we properly keep our heads.” She appeared even to signify that they would begin by keeping them now. This was what it was to have at last a constituted basis. “Do you remember what you said to me that night of my first REAL anxiety—after the Foreign Office party?”
She held his gaze for a moment, as if it suggested a bit too much selfishness, a concern for their own image at any cost. Then she seemed to conclude that their image was, after all, what they needed to focus on the most. "Not," she said with dignity, "if we keep our heads." It felt like she was indicating that they should start by doing just that. This was what it meant to finally have a solid foundation. "Do you remember what you told me that night of my first real anxiety—after the Foreign Office party?"
“In the carriage—as we came home?” Yes—he could recall it. “Leave them to pull through?”
“In the carriage—as we were coming home?” Yes—he could remember it. “Let them handle it?”
“Precisely. ‘Trust their own wit,’ you practically said, ‘to save all appearances.’ Well, I’ve trusted it. I HAVE left them to pull through.”
“Exactly. ‘Rely on their own cleverness,’ you pretty much said, ‘to maintain the image.’ Well, I’ve relied on it. I HAVE let them figure it out.”
He hesitated. “And your point is that they’re not doing so?”
He paused. “So you’re saying they aren’t doing that?”
“I’ve left them,” she went on, “but now I see how and where. I’ve been leaving them all the while, without knowing it, to HER.”
“I’ve left them,” she continued, “but now I understand how and where. I’ve been leaving them all along, without realizing it, to HER.”
“To the Princess?”
“To the Princess?”
“And that’s what I mean,” Mrs. Assingham pensively pursued. “That’s what happened to me with her to-day,” she continued to explain. “It came home to me that that’s what I’ve really been doing.”
“And that’s what I mean,” Mrs. Assingham thoughtfully continued. “That’s what happened to me with her today,” she went on to explain. “It hit me that that’s what I’ve really been doing.”
“Oh, I see.”
“Got it.”
“I needn’t torment myself. She has taken them over.”
“I don’t need to torture myself. She has taken control of them.”
The Colonel declared that he “saw”; yet it was as if, at this, he a little sightlessly stared. “But what then has happened, from one day to the other, to HER? What has opened her eyes?”
The Colonel stated that he "saw"; yet it felt like he was staring a bit blindly. "But what has happened, from one day to the next, to HER? What has made her see?"
“They were never really shut. She misses him.”
“They were never truly closed. She misses him.”
“Then why hasn’t she missed him before?”
“Then why hasn’t she missed him until now?”
Well, facing him there, among their domestic glooms and glints, Fanny worked it out. “She did—but she wouldn’t let herself know it. She had her reason—she wore her blind. Now, at last, her situation has come to a head. To-day she does know it. And that’s illuminating. It has been,” Mrs. Assingham wound up, “illuminating to ME.”
Well, standing there with him, amidst their home’s shadows and highlights, Fanny figured it out. “She did know—but she wouldn’t allow herself to admit it. She had her reasons—she was in denial. Now, finally, her situation has reached a breaking point. Today, she does know. And that’s enlightening. It has been,” Mrs. Assingham concluded, “enlightening for ME.”
Her husband attended, but the momentary effect of his attention was vagueness again, and the refuge of his vagueness was a gasp. “Poor dear little girl!”
Her husband was there, but the brief impact of his attention was just confusion again, and the safety of his confusion was a gasp. “Poor dear little girl!”
“Ah no—don’t pity her!”
“Ah no—don’t feel sorry for her!”
This did, however, pull him up. “We mayn’t even be sorry for her?”
This did, however, make him stop. “We might not even feel sorry for her?”
“Not now—or at least not yet. It’s too soon—that is if it isn’t very much too late. This will depend,” Mrs. Assingham went on; “at any rate we shall see. We might have pitied her before—for all the good it would then have done her; we might have begun some time ago. Now, however, she has begun to live. And the way it comes to me, the way it comes to me—” But again she projected her vision.
“Not now—or at least not yet. It’s too soon—that is if it isn’t really too late. This will depend,” Mrs. Assingham continued; “either way, we shall see. We could have felt sorry for her before—for all the good that would have done; we could have started this some time ago. But now, she’s finally starting to live. And the way I see it, the way it comes to me—” But again she looked ahead.
“The way it comes to you can scarcely be that she’ll like it!”
“The way it comes to you, there's hardly a chance she'll like it!”
“The way it comes to me is that she will live. The way it comes to me is that she’ll triumph.”
"The way I see it is that she will survive. The way I see it is that she’ll succeed."
She said this with so sudden a prophetic flare that it fairly cheered her husband. “Ah then, we must back her!”
She said this with such sudden prophetic enthusiasm that it genuinely encouraged her husband. “Ah then, we must support her!”
“No—we mustn’t touch her. We mayn’t touch any of them. We must keep our hands off; we must go on tiptoe. We must simply watch and wait. And meanwhile,” said Mrs. Assingham, “we must bear it as we can. That’s where we are—and serves us right. We’re in presence.”
“No—we shouldn’t touch her. We can’t touch any of them. We have to keep our hands off; we have to walk softly. We just have to watch and wait. And in the meantime,” said Mrs. Assingham, “we have to deal with it as best we can. That’s our situation—and we brought it on ourselves. We’re right here.”
And so, moving about the room as in communion with shadowy portents, she left it till he questioned again. “In presence of what?”
And so, moving around the room as if in touch with vague signs, she waited until he asked again. “In the presence of what?”
“Well, of something possibly beautiful. Beautiful as it MAY come off.”
“Well, of something that might be beautiful. Beautiful as it might seem.”
She had paused there before him while he wondered. “You mean she’ll get the Prince back?”
She stopped there in front of him while he thought. "You mean she'll get the Prince back?"
She raised her hand in quick impatience: the suggestion might have been almost abject. “It isn’t a question of recovery. It won’t be a question of any vulgar struggle. To ‘get him back’ she must have lost him, and to have lost him she must have had him.” With which Fanny shook her head. “What I take her to be waking up to is the truth that, all the while, she really HASN’T had him. Never.”
She raised her hand in quick impatience: the suggestion might have seemed almost desperate. “It’s not about recovery. It’s not about any petty struggle. To ‘get him back’ means she must have lost him, and to have lost him means she must have had him.” With that, Fanny shook her head. “What I think she’s finally realizing is the truth that, all along, she really HASN’T had him. Not ever.”
“Ah, my dear—!” the poor Colonel panted.
“Ah, my dear—!” the poor Colonel gasped.
“Never!” his wife repeated. And she went on without pity. “Do you remember what I said to you long ago—that evening, just before their marriage, when Charlotte had so suddenly turned up?”
“Never!” his wife repeated. And she continued without mercy. “Do you remember what I told you a long time ago—that evening, right before their wedding, when Charlotte showed up out of the blue?”
The smile with which he met this appeal was not, it was to be feared, robust. “What haven’t you, love, said in your time?”
The smile he gave in response to this request wasn’t exactly confident. “What haven’t you, love, said over the years?”
“So many things, no doubt, that they make a chance for my having once or twice spoken the truth. I never spoke it more, at all events, than when I put it to you, that evening, that Maggie was the person in the world to whom a wrong thing could least be communicated. It was as if her imagination had been closed to it, her sense altogether sealed, That therefore,” Fanny continued, “is what will now HAVE to happen. Her sense will have to open.”
“So many things, without a doubt, that they make it possible for me to have spoken the truth once or twice. I never spoke it more, in any case, than when I told you that night that Maggie was the person in the world who could least be influenced by a wrong thing. It was as if her imagination had been shut off from it, her senses completely sealed. Therefore,” Fanny continued, “that is what will now HAVE to happen. Her senses will have to open.”
“I see.” He nodded. “To the wrong.” He nodded again, almost cheerfully—as if he had been keeping the peace with a baby or a lunatic. “To the very, very wrong.”
“I understand.” He nodded. “To the wrong direction.” He nodded again, almost happily—as if he was trying to keep things calm with a child or someone unstable. “To the really, really wrong.”
But his wife’s spirit, after its effort of wing, was able to remain higher. “To what’s called Evil—with a very big E: for the first time in her life. To the discovery of it, to the knowledge of it, to the crude experience of it.” And she gave, for the possibility, the largest measure. “To the harsh, bewildering brush, the daily chilling breath of it. Unless indeed”—and here Mrs. Assingham noted a limit “unless indeed, as yet (so far as she has come, and if she comes no further), simply to the suspicion and the dread. What we shall see is whether that mere dose of alarm will prove enough.”
But his wife's spirit, after its effort to soar, was able to stay up high. "To what’s called Evil—with a very big E: for the first time in her life. To the discovery of it, to the understanding of it, to the raw experience of it." And she gave, for that possibility, the largest measure. "To the harsh, confusing reality, the daily chilling breath of it. Unless—" and here Mrs. Assingham noticed a limit "unless, so far as she has come (and if she goes no further), it’s simply to the suspicion and the fear. What we’ll see is whether that mere dose of alarm will be enough."
He considered. “But enough for what then, dear—if not enough to break her heart?”
He thought about it. “But enough for what, dear—if not enough to break her heart?”
“Enough to give her a shaking!” Mrs. Assingham rather oddly replied. “To give her, I mean, the right one. The right one won’t break her heart. It will make her,” she explained—“well, it will make her, by way of a change, understand one or two things in the world.”
“Enough to give her a shake!” Mrs. Assingham responded surprisingly. “To give her, I mean, the right one. The right one won’t break her heart. It will help her,” she explained—“well, it will help her, for a change, understand a couple of things in the world.”
“But isn’t it a pity,” the Colonel asked, “that they should happen to be the one or two that will be the most disagreeable to her?”
“But isn’t it a pity,” the Colonel asked, “that they just happen to be the one or two that will be the most unpleasant for her?”
“Oh, ‘disagreeable’—? They’ll have had to be disagreeable—to show her a little where she is. They’ll have HAD to be disagreeable to make her sit up. They’ll have had to be disagreeable to make her decide to live.”
“Oh, ‘disagreeable’—? They must have had to be disagreeable—to show her a little where she stands. They must have HAD to be disagreeable to make her pay attention. They must have had to be disagreeable to make her choose to live.”
Bob Assingham was now at the window, while his companion slowly revolved; he had lighted a cigarette, for final patience, and he seemed vaguely to “time” her as she moved to and fro. He had at the same time to do justice to the lucidity she had at last attained, and it was doubtless by way of expression of this teachability that he let his eyes, for a minute, roll, as from the force of feeling, over the upper dusk of the room. He had thought of the response his wife’s words ideally implied.
Bob Assingham was now at the window, while his companion slowly moved around; he had lit a cigarette, seeking a final bit of patience, and he seemed to vaguely "time" her as she went back and forth. He also had to acknowledge the clarity she had finally achieved, and it was probably in acknowledgment of this openness that he let his gaze wander, for a moment, over the dimness of the room. He reflected on the response that his wife’s words ideally suggested.
“Decide to live—ah yes!—for her child.”
“Choose to live—for her child.”
“Oh, bother her child!”—and he had never felt so snubbed, for an exemplary view, as when Fanny now stopped short. “To live, you poor dear, for her father—which is another pair of sleeves!”
“Oh, come on, her kid!”—and he had never felt so rejected, for a perfect view, as when Fanny suddenly stopped. “To live, you poor thing, for her dad—which is a whole different story!”
And Mrs. Assingham’s whole ample, ornamented person irradiated, with this, the truth that had begun, under so much handling, to glow. “Any idiot can do things for her child. She’ll have a motive more original, and we shall see how it will work her. She’ll have to save HIM.”
And Mrs. Assingham’s entire, well-decorated figure lit up with this, the truth that had started to shine through all the fuss. “Any fool can do things for her child. She'll have a more unique motivation, and we’ll see how that plays out for her. She’ll need to save HIM.”
“To ‘save’ him—?”
"To 'save' him?"
“To keep her father from her own knowledge. THAT”—and she seemed to see it, before her, in her husband’s very eyes—“will be work cut out!” With which, as at the highest conceivable climax, she wound up their colloquy. “Good night!”
“To keep her father from knowing what she knows. THAT”—and she appeared to see it, right before her, in her husband’s very eyes—“that’ll be quite a challenge!” With that, as if it were the most intense moment possible, she ended their conversation. “Good night!”
There was something in her manner, however—or in the effect, at least, of this supreme demonstration that had fairly, and by a single touch, lifted him to her side; so that, after she had turned her back to regain the landing and the staircase, he overtook her, before she had begun to mount, with the ring of excited perception. “Ah, but, you know, that’s rather jolly!”
There was something about her demeanor, or at least the impact of this powerful show, that had completely, with just one move, brought him to her side; so that, after she turned her back to head toward the landing and the staircase, he caught up to her before she started going up, with a spark of eager realization. “Oh, but you know, that’s pretty great!”
“Jolly’—?” she turned upon it, again, at the foot of the staircase.
“Jolly’—?” she turned to it again at the foot of the staircase.
“I mean it’s rather charming.”
"It's quite charming."
“‘Charming’—?” It had still to be their law, a little, that she was tragic when he was comic.
“‘Charming’—?” It still had to be their nature, slightly, that she was tragic when he was funny.
“I mean it’s rather beautiful. You just said, yourself, it would be. Only,” he pursued promptly, with the impetus of this idea, and as if it had suddenly touched with light for him connections hitherto dim—“only I don’t quite see why that very care for him which has carried her to such other lengths, precisely, as affect one as so ‘rum,’ hasn’t also, by the same stroke, made her notice a little more what has been going on.”
“I mean, it’s really beautiful. You just said it would be. But,” he continued quickly, inspired by this thought, as if it had suddenly illuminated connections that were previously unclear—“but I don’t quite understand why that very concern for him, which has led her to such extreme lengths, especially in a way that affects someone as ‘strange’ as me, hasn’t also, at the same time, made her realize a bit more what’s been happening.”
“Ah, there you are! It’s the question that I’ve all along been asking myself.” She had rested her eyes on the carpet, but she raised them as she pursued—she let him have it straight. “And it’s the question of an idiot.”
“Ah, there you are! It’s the question I’ve been asking myself all along.” She had been looking at the carpet, but she lifted her gaze as she continued—she told him plainly. “And it’s a question for an idiot.”
“An idiot—?”
"An idiot?"
“Well, the idiot that I’VE been, in all sorts of ways—so often, of late, have I asked it. You’re excusable, since you ask it but now. The answer, I saw to-day, has all the while been staring me in the face.”
“Well, I’ve been such an idiot in so many ways—so often lately, I’ve asked myself that. You’re off the hook for asking it now. The answer, as I realized today, has been right in front of me all along.”
“Then what in the world is it?”
“Then what on earth is it?”
“Why, the very intensity of her conscience about him—the very passion of her brave little piety. That’s the way it has worked,” Mrs. Assingham explained “and I admit it to have been as ‘rum’ a way as possible. But it has been working from a rum start. From the moment the dear man married to ease his daughter off, and it then happened, by an extraordinary perversity, that the very opposite effect was produced—!” With the renewed vision of this fatality, however, she could give but a desperate shrug.
"Honestly, the intensity of her feelings for him—the depth of her brave little faith. That’s how it’s gone," Mrs. Assingham explained, "and I admit it’s been the most weird way imaginable. But it started off in a weird way too. From the moment the poor guy got married to help his daughter move on, and then, in a bizarre twist, it resulted in the exact opposite effect—!" With the fresh realization of this inevitability, she could only give a desperate shrug.
“I see,” the Colonel sympathetically mused. “That WAS a rum start.”
“I see,” the Colonel said with sympathy. “That was a strange beginning.”
But his very response, as she again flung up her arms, seemed to make her sense, for a moment, intolerable. “Yes—there I am! I was really at the bottom of it,” she declared; “I don’t know what possessed me—but I planned for him, I goaded him on.” With which, however, the next moment, she took herself up. “Or, rather, I DO know what possessed me—for wasn’t he beset with ravening women, right and left, and didn’t he, quite pathetically, appeal for protection, didn’t he, quite charmingly, show one how he needed and desired it? Maggie,” she thus lucidly continued, “couldn’t, with a new life of her own, give herself up to doing for him in the future all she had done in the past—to fencing him in, to keeping him safe and keeping THEM off. One perceived this,” she went on—“out of the abundance of one’s affection and one’s sympathy.” It all blessedly came back to her—when it wasn’t all, for the fiftieth time, obscured, in face of the present facts, by anxiety and compunction. “One was no doubt a meddlesome fool; one always IS, to think one sees people’s lives for them better than they see them for themselves. But one’s excuse here,” she insisted, “was that these people clearly DIDN’T see them for themselves—didn’t see them at all. It struck one for very pity—that they were making a mess of such charming material; that they were but wasting it and letting it go. They didn’t know HOW to live—and somehow one couldn’t, if one took an interest in them at all, simply stand and see it. That’s what I pay for”—and the poor woman, in straighter communion with her companion’s intelligence at this moment, she appeared to feel, than she had ever been before, let him have the whole of the burden of her consciousness. “I always pay for it, sooner or later, my sociable, my damnable, my unnecessary interest. Nothing of course would suit me but that it should fix itself also on Charlotte—Charlotte who was hovering there on the edge of our lives, when not beautifully, and a trifle mysteriously, flitting across them, and who was a piece of waste and a piece of threatened failure, just as, for any possible good to the WORLD, Mr. Verver and Maggie were. It began to come over me, in the watches of the night, that Charlotte was a person who COULD keep off ravening women—without being one herself, either, in the vulgar way of the others; and that this service to Mr. Verver would be a sweet employment for her future. There was something, of course, that might have stopped me: you know, you know what I mean—it looks at me,” she veritably moaned, “out of your face! But all I can say is that it didn’t; the reason largely being—once I had fallen in love with the beautiful symmetry of my plan—that I seemed to feel sure Maggie would accept Charlotte, whereas I didn’t quite make out either what other woman, or what other KIND of woman, one could think of her accepting.”
But his reaction, as she threw her arms up again, made her feel, for a moment, overwhelmed. “Yes—there I am! I was really at the core of it,” she said; “I don’t know what got into me—but I set things in motion for him, I pushed him along.” But then, just like that, she turned it around. “Or, rather, I DO know what got into me—wasn’t he surrounded by needy women, left and right, and didn’t he, quite helplessly, ask for support, didn’t he, quite charmingly, show how much he needed and wanted it? Maggie,” she continued clearly, “couldn’t, with a new life of her own, devote herself to doing for him in the future all she had done in the past—keeping him safe and keeping THEM away. One realized this,” she went on—“out of the depth of one’s affection and sympathy.” It all miraculously returned to her—when it wasn’t all, for the fiftieth time, clouded, in light of the current facts, by worry and guilt. “One was surely a meddlesome fool; one always IS, to think one understands people’s lives better than they do. But one’s excuse here,” she insisted, “was that these people clearly DIDN’T see their own lives—didn’t see them at all. It struck one for sheer pity—that they were messing up such delightful material; that they were just wasting it and letting it slip away. They didn’t know HOW to live—and somehow one couldn’t, if one cared about them at all, just stand back and watch it happen. That’s what I pay for”—and the poor woman, feeling more connected to her companion’s understanding than ever before, allowed him to carry the full weight of her thoughts. “I always pay for it, sooner or later, my social, my cursed, my unnecessary interest. Nothing, of course, would satisfy me more than for it to extend to Charlotte—Charlotte who was lingering on the outskirts of our lives, when she wasn’t beautifully and a bit mysteriously crossing them, and who was a piece of waste and a piece of impending failure, just like, for any possible good to the WORLD, Mr. Verver and Maggie were. It started to dawn on me, in the quiet hours of the night, that Charlotte was someone who COULD keep away needy women—without being one herself, in the crass way the others were; and that this role for Mr. Verver would be a lovely task for her future. There was something, of course, that might have held me back: you know, you know what I mean—it looks at me,” she painfully moaned, “out of your face! But all I can say is that it didn’t; the main reason being—once I had fallen for the beautiful symmetry of my plan—that I felt sure Maggie would welcome Charlotte, whereas I couldn’t quite figure out what other woman, or what other KIND of woman, one could imagine her accepting.”
“I see—I see.” She had paused, meeting all the while his listening look, and the fever of her retrospect had so risen with her talk that the desire was visibly strong in him to meet her, on his side, but with cooling breath. “One quite understands, my dear.”
“I understand—I understand.” She had paused, maintaining her gaze on him, and the intensity of her memories had escalated with her conversation to the point where it was clear he strongly wanted to engage with her, but he needed to take a step back. “One completely understands, my dear.”
It only, however, kept her there sombre. “I naturally see, love, what you understand; which sits again, perfectly, in your eyes. You see that I saw that Maggie would accept her in helpless ignorance. Yes, dearest”—and the grimness of her dreariness suddenly once more possessed her: “you’ve only to tell me that that knowledge was my reason for what I did. How, when you do, can I stand up to you? You see,” she said with an ineffable headshake, “that I don’t stand up! I’m down, down, down,” she declared; “yet” she as quickly added—“there’s just one little thing that helps to save my life.” And she kept him waiting but an instant. “They might easily—they would perhaps even certainly—have done something worse.”
It only made her feel dark. “I can see, love, what you understand; it’s clear in your eyes. You realize that I noticed Maggie would accept her in total ignorance. Yes, darling”—and the weight of her sadness suddenly overwhelmed her again: “all you have to say is that this understanding was my reason for what I did. How, when you do, can I stand up to you? You see,” she said with a deep shake of her head, “that I can’t stand tall! I’m down, down, down,” she insisted; “yet” she quickly added—“there’s just one small thing that helps me hold on to life.” And she made him wait just a moment. “They might have easily—they’d probably even definitely—done something worse.”
He thought. “Worse than that Charlotte—?”
He thought, "Worse than that, Charlotte?"
“Ah, don’t tell me,” she cried, “that there COULD have been nothing worse. There might, as they were, have been many things. Charlotte, in her way, is extraordinary.”
“Ah, don’t tell me,” she exclaimed, “that there couldn’t have been anything worse. There could have been many things, just as they are. Charlotte, in her own way, is remarkable.”
He was almost simultaneous. “Extraordinary!”
He was almost simultaneous. “Amazing!”
“She observes the forms,” said Fanny Assingham.
“She sees the shapes,” said Fanny Assingham.
He hesitated. “With the Prince—?”
He paused. “With the Prince—?”
“FOR the Prince. And with the others,” she went on. “With Mr. Verver—wonderfully. But above all with Maggie. And the forms”—she had to do even THEM justice—“are two-thirds of conduct. Say he had married a woman who would have made a hash of them.”
“FOR the Prince. And with the others,” she continued. “With Mr. Verver—wonderfully. But most importantly with Maggie. And the forms”—she needed to give them even that much credit—“are two-thirds of behavior. Imagine if he’d married a woman who would have messed it all up.”
But he jerked back. “Ah, my dear, I wouldn’t say it for the world!”
But he pulled back. “Oh, my dear, I wouldn’t say it for anything!”
“Say,” she none the less pursued, “he had married a woman the Prince would really have cared for.”
"Say," she continued, "he had married a woman the Prince would actually have cared for."
“You mean then he doesn’t care for Charlotte—?” This was still a new view to jump to, and the Colonel, perceptibly, wished to make sure of the necessity of the effort. For that, while he stared, his wife allowed him time; at the end of which she simply said: “No!”
“You're saying he doesn't care about Charlotte—?” This was still a new conclusion to reach, and the Colonel clearly wanted to confirm whether it was necessary to consider it. As he pondered, his wife gave him space; after a moment, she simply replied, “No!”
“Then what on earth are they up to?” Still, however, she only looked at him; so that, standing there before her with his hands in his pockets, he had time, further, to risk, soothingly, another question. “Are the ‘forms’ you speak of—that are two-thirds of conduct—what will be keeping her now, by your hypothesis, from coming home with him till morning?”
“Then what the heck are they doing?” Still, she just looked at him; so, standing there with his hands in his pockets, he had time to calmly ask another question. “Are the ‘forms’ you mentioned—that are two-thirds of behavior—what's supposed to stop her from coming home with him until morning, according to your theory?”
“Yes—absolutely. THEIR forms.”
“Yes—totally. THEIR forms.”
“‘Theirs’—?”
“‘Their’s’—?”
“Maggie’s and Mr. Verver’s—those they IMPOSE on Charlotte and the Prince. Those,” she developed, “that, so perversely, as I say, have succeeded in setting themselves up as the right ones.”
“Maggie’s and Mr. Verver’s—those they FORCE on Charlotte and the Prince. Those,” she continued, “that, so strangely, as I said, have managed to position themselves as the proper ones.”
He considered—but only now, at last, really to relapse into woe. “Your ‘perversity,’ my dear, is exactly what I don’t understand. The state of things existing hasn’t grown, like a field of mushrooms, in a night. Whatever they, all round, may be in for now is at least the consequence of what they’ve DONE. Are they mere helpless victims of fate?”
He thought about it—but only now, finally, truly ready to sink back into sorrow. “Your ‘perversity,’ my dear, is precisely what I don’t get. The situation we’re in hasn’t just appeared overnight, like mushrooms sprouting in a field. Whatever they’re all dealing with now is at least the result of what they’ve DONE. Are they just helpless victims of fate?”
Well, Fanny at last had the courage of it, “Yes—they are. To be so abjectly innocent—that IS to be victims of fate.”
Well, Fanny finally had the courage to say it, “Yes—they are. Being so completely innocent—that IS being victims of fate.”
“And Charlotte and the Prince are abjectly innocent—?”
“And Charlotte and the Prince are completely innocent—?”
It took her another minute, but she rose to the full height. “Yes. That is they WERE—as much so in their way as the others. There were beautiful intentions all round. The Prince’s and Charlotte’s were beautiful—of THAT I had my faith. They WERE—I’d go to the stake. Otherwise,” she added, “I should have been a wretch. And I’ve not been a wretch. I’ve only been a double-dyed donkey.”
It took her another minute, but she stood tall. “Yes. They were—as much in their own way as the others. There were beautiful intentions all around. The Prince’s and Charlotte’s were beautiful—I believe that wholeheartedly. They were—I’d stake everything on it. Otherwise,” she added, “I would have been miserable. And I haven’t been miserable. I’ve just been a complete fool.”
“Ah then,” he asked, “what does our muddle make THEM to have been?”
“Ah then,” he asked, “what does our mess make THEM out to be?”
“Well, too much taken up with considering each other. You may call such a mistake as that by what ever name you please; it at any rate means, all round, their case. It illustrates the misfortune,” said Mrs. Assingham gravely, “of being too, too charming.”
“Well, too caught up in thinking about each other. You can call that mistake whatever you like; it still reflects their situation. It highlights the misfortune,” Mrs. Assingham said seriously, “of being just too charming.”
This was another matter that took some following, but the Colonel again did his best. “Yes, but to whom?—doesn’t it rather depend on that? To whom have the Prince and Charlotte then been too charming?”
This was another issue that needed some attention, but the Colonel once more did his best. “Yes, but to whom?—doesn’t it largely depend on that? To whom have the Prince and Charlotte been so charming?”
“To each other, in the first place—obviously. And then both of them together to Maggie.”
“To each other, obviously. And then both of them together to Maggie.”
“To Maggie?” he wonderingly echoed.
“To Maggie?” he asked, astonished.
“To Maggie.” She was now crystalline. “By having accepted, from the first, so guilelessly—yes, so guilelessly, themselves—her guileless idea of still having her father, of keeping him fast, in her life.”
“To Maggie.” She was now clear as crystal. “By having accepted, from the very beginning, so naively—yes, so naively, themselves—her innocent idea of still having her father, of keeping him close in her life.”
“Then isn’t one supposed, in common humanity, and if one hasn’t quarrelled with him, and one has the means, and he, on his side, doesn’t drink or kick up rows—isn’t one supposed to keep one’s aged parent in one’s life?”
“Then isn’t it only humane, and if you haven’t had a falling out with him, and if you can afford it, and he, for his part, doesn’t drink or cause trouble—isn’t it expected to keep your elderly parent in your life?”
“Certainly—when there aren’t particular reasons against it. That there may be others than his getting drunk is exactly the moral of what is before us. In the first place Mr. Verver isn’t aged.”
“Sure—unless there are specific reasons not to. The fact that there could be other reasons besides his getting drunk is exactly the point of what we’re discussing. First of all, Mr. Verver isn’t old.”
The Colonel just hung fire—but it came. “Then why the deuce does he—oh, poor dear man!—behave as if he were?”
The Colonel just hesitated—but it came. “Then why the heck does he—oh, poor guy!—act like he is?”
She took a moment to meet it. “How do you know how he behaves?”
She paused to consider it. “How do you know what he's like?”
“Well, my own love, we see how Charlotte does!” Again, at this, she faltered; but again she rose. “Ah, isn’t my whole point that he’s charming to her?”
“Well, my love, we see how Charlotte is doing!” Again, she hesitated, but once more she gathered herself. “Ah, isn’t my whole point that he’s charming to her?”
“Doesn’t it depend a bit on what she regards as charming?”
“Doesn’t it depend a little on what she considers charming?”
She faced the question as if it were flippant, then with a headshake of dignity she brushed it away. “It’s Mr. Verver who’s really young—it’s Charlotte who’s really old. And what I was saying,” she added, “isn’t affected!”
She responded to the question as if it were trivial, then shook her head with dignity and dismissed it. “It’s Mr. Verver who’s really young—it’s Charlotte who’s really old. And what I was saying,” she continued, “isn’t affected!”
“You were saying”—he did her the justice—“that they’re all guileless.”
“You were saying”—he was fair to her—“that they’re all innocent.”
“That they were. Guileless, all, at first—quite extraordinarily. It’s what I mean by their failure to see that the more they took for granted they could work together the more they were really working apart. For I repeat,” Fanny went on, “that I really believe Charlotte and the Prince honestly to have made up their minds, originally, that their very esteem for Mr. Verver—which was serious, as well it might be!—would save them.”
“They really were. Completely innocent at first—pretty remarkable. It’s what I mean when I say their failure to recognize that the more they assumed they could collaborate, the more they were actually drifting apart. For I’ll say again,” Fanny continued, “I truly believe that Charlotte and the Prince genuinely decided, from the beginning, that their deep respect for Mr. Verver—which was genuine, as it should be!—would protect them.”
“I see.” The Colonel inclined himself. “And save HIM.”
"I see." The Colonel leaned in. "And save HIM."
“It comes to the same thing!”
“It amounts to the same thing!”
“Then save Maggie.”
"Then save Maggie."
“That comes,” said Mrs. Assingham, “to something a little different. For Maggie has done the most.”
“That comes,” said Mrs. Assingham, “to something a bit different. Because Maggie has done the most.”
He wondered. “What do you call the most?”
He wondered, "What do you call the most?"
“Well, she did it originally—she began the vicious circle. For that—though you make round eyes at my associating her with ‘vice’—is simply what it has been. It’s their mutual consideration, all round, that has made it the bottomless gulf; and they’re really so embroiled but because, in their way, they’ve been so improbably GOOD.”
“Well, she started it—she created the vicious cycle. For that—though you might be surprised by my associating her with ‘vice’—is exactly what it’s been. It’s their mutual consideration that has turned it into a bottomless pit; and they’re really tangled up in it all because, in their own way, they’ve been so improbably GOOD.”
“In their way—yes!” the Colonel grinned.
“In their own way—yeah!” the Colonel grinned.
“Which was, above all, Maggie’s way.” No flicker of his ribaldry was anything to her now. “Maggie had in the first place to make up to her father for her having suffered herself to become—poor little dear, as she believed—so intensely married. Then she had to make up to her husband for taking so much of the time they might otherwise have spent together to make this reparation to Mr. Verver perfect. And her way to do this, precisely, was by allowing the Prince the use, the enjoyment, whatever you may call it, of Charlotte to cheer his path—by instalments, as it were—in proportion as she herself, making sure her father was all right, might be missed from his side. By so much, at the same time, however,” Mrs. Assingham further explained, “by so much as she took her young stepmother, for this purpose, away from Mr. Verver, by just so much did this too strike her as something again to be made up for. It has saddled her, you will easily see, with a positively new obligation to her father, an obligation created and aggravated by her unfortunate, even if quite heroic, little sense of justice. She began with wanting to show him that his marriage could never, under whatever temptation of her own bliss with the Prince, become for her a pretext for deserting or neglecting HIM. Then that, in its order, entailed her wanting to show the Prince that she recognised how the other desire—this wish to remain, intensely, the same passionate little daughter she had always been—involved in some degree, and just for the present, so to speak, her neglecting and deserting him. I quite hold,” Fanny with characteristic amplitude parenthesised, “that a person can mostly feel but one passion—one TENDER passion, that is—at a time. Only, that doesn’t hold good for our primary and instinctive attachments, the ‘voice of blood,’ such as one’s feeling for a parent or a brother. Those may be intense and yet not prevent other intensities—as you will recognise, my dear, when you remember how I continued, tout betement, to adore my mother, whom you didn’t adore, for years after I had begun to adore you. Well, Maggie”—she kept it up—“is in the same situation as I was, PLUS complications from which I was, thank heaven, exempt: PLUS the complication, above all, of not having in the least begun with the sense for complications that I should have had. Before she knew it, at any rate, her little scruples and her little lucidities, which were really so divinely blind—her feverish little sense of justice, as I say—had brought the two others together as her grossest misconduct couldn’t have done. And now she knows something or other has happened—yet hasn’t heretofore known what. She has only piled up her remedy, poor child—something that she has earnestly but confusedly seen as her necessary policy; piled it on top of the policy, on top of the remedy, that she at first thought out for herself, and that would really have needed, since then, so much modification. Her only modification has been the growth of her necessity to prevent her father’s wondering if all, in their life in common, MAY be so certainly for the best. She has now as never before to keep him unconscious that, peculiar, if he makes a point of it, as their situation is, there’s anything in it all uncomfortable or disagreeable, anything morally the least out of the way. She has to keep touching it up to make it, each day, each month, look natural and normal to him; so that—God forgive me the comparison!—she’s like an old woman who has taken to ‘painting’ and who has to lay it on thicker, to carry it off with a greater audacity, with a greater impudence even, the older she grows.” And Fanny stood a moment captivated with the image she had thrown off. “I like the idea of Maggie audacious and impudent—learning to be so to gloss things over. She could—she even will, yet, I believe—learn it, for that sacred purpose, consummately, diabolically. For from the moment the dear man should see it’s all rouge—!” She paused, staring at the vision.
“Which was, above all, Maggie’s way.” Nothing about his joking bothered her now. “Maggie first had to make up to her father for allowing herself to become—poor little dear, as she thought—so deeply married. Then she had to make up to her husband for taking so much of the time they could have spent together to ensure this reconciliation with Mr. Verver was perfect. And her way of doing this, precisely, was by letting the Prince enjoy Charlotte to lighten his journey—bit by bit, as it were—depending on how much she herself might be missed from his side after making sure her father was alright. At the same time, however,” Mrs. Assingham further explained, “the more she took her young stepmother away from Mr. Verver, the more she felt this too was something to make up for. It has burdened her, as you can easily see, with a completely new obligation to her father, an obligation created and intensified by her unfortunate, even if quite heroic, little sense of justice. She started out wanting to show him that his marriage could never, no matter how tempted she might be by her own happiness with the Prince, become a reason for her to abandon or neglect HIM. Then that, in turn, required her to show the Prince that she understood how the other desire—this wish to continue being the same passionate little daughter she had always been—involved, to some extent, and just for now, so to speak, her neglecting and abandoning him. I firmly believe,” Fanny added in her characteristic manner, “that a person can usually feel only one passion—one TENDER passion, that is—at a time. However, that doesn’t apply to our primary and instinctive attachments, the ‘voice of blood,’ like our feelings for a parent or a sibling. Those can be intense and still not stop other strong feelings—as you’ll understand, my dear, when you recall how I foolishly continued to adore my mother, who you didn’t adore, for years after I began to adore you. Well, Maggie”—she continued—“is in the same situation I was, PLUS complications that I thankfully didn’t have: PLUS, above all, the complication of not having started out with the awareness of complications that I should have had. Before she realized it, anyway, her little scruples and little insights, which were really so wonderfully blind—her feverish little sense of justice, as I said—had brought the two others together in a way that her grossest misbehavior couldn’t have accomplished. And now she knows something has happened—though she hasn’t figured out what yet. She has only stacked on her remedy, poor child—something she has urgently but confusedly viewed as her necessary strategy; layered it on top of the policy, on top of the remedy that she initially devised for herself, which really would have required so much adjustment since then. Her only adjustment has been the increasing need to prevent her father from questioning if everything in their shared life is definitely for the best. She must now, more than ever, keep him unaware that, if he insists, their situation is anything uncomfortable or troubling, anything morally out of the ordinary. She needs to keep polishing it up to make it, each day, each month, appear natural and normal to him; so that—God forgive me for the comparison!—she’s like an old woman who has started using makeup and has to layer it on thicker, to carry it off with greater boldness, even more audacity, the older she gets.” And Fanny paused for a moment, captivated by the image she had conjured up. “I like the thought of Maggie being bold and audacious—learning to do so to smooth things over. She could—no, I believe she will—master it, for that sacred aim, perfectly, diabolically. For the moment that dear man realizes it’s all just makeup—!” She stopped, staring at the vision.
It imparted itself even to Bob. “Then the fun would begin?” As it but made her look at him hard, however, he amended the form of his inquiry. “You mean that in that case she WILL, charming creature, be lost?”
It even affected Bob. “So, then the fun would start?” But when it made her look at him intently, he changed his question. “You mean that in that case she WILL, lovely girl, be lost?”
She was silent a moment more. “As I’ve told you before, she won’t be lost if her father’s saved. She’ll see that as salvation enough.”
She paused for a moment longer. “Like I’ve said before, she won’t feel lost if her dad is saved. That will be enough for her to see it as salvation.”
The Colonel took it in. “Then she’s a little heroine.”
The Colonel understood. “So she’s a little hero.”
“Rather—she’s a little heroine. But it’s his innocence, above all,” Mrs. Assingham added, “that will pull them through.”
“Actually—she’s a bit of a hero. But it’s his innocence, more than anything else,” Mrs. Assingham added, “that will help them get through this.”
Her companion, at this, focussed again Mr. Verver’s innocence. “It’s awfully quaint.”
Her companion, at this, refocused on Mr. Verver’s innocence. “It’s really charming.”
“Of course it’s awfully quaint! That it’s awfully quaint, that the pair are awfully quaint, quaint with all our dear old quaintness—by which I don’t mean yours and mine, but that of my own sweet countrypeople, from whom I’ve so deplorably degenerated—that,” Mrs. Assingham declared, “was originally the head and front of their appeal to me and of my interest in them. And of course I shall feel them quainter still,” she rather ruefully subjoined, “before they’ve done with me!”
“Of course it’s really charming! That it’s really charming, that the two of them are really charming, charming with all our beloved old charm—by which I don’t mean yours and mine, but that of my own lovely country folks, from whom I’ve so terribly lost my way—that,” Mrs. Assingham said, “was what originally attracted me to them and sparked my interest. And of course I’ll find them even more charming,” she added somewhat regretfully, “before they’re done with me!”
This might be, but it wasn’t what most stood in the Colonel’s way. “You believe so in Mr. Verver’s innocence after two years of Charlotte?”
This might be true, but it wasn't what mostly held the Colonel back. “You still believe in Mr. Verver’s innocence after two years with Charlotte?”
She stared. “But the whole point is just that two years of Charlotte are what he hasn’t really—or what you may call undividedly—had.”
She stared. “But the whole point is that two years with Charlotte are what he hasn’t really—what you might call completely—had.”
“Any more than Maggie, by your theory, eh, has ‘really or undividedly,’ had four of the Prince? It takes all she hasn’t had,” the Colonel conceded, “to account for the innocence that in her, too, so leaves us in admiration.”
“Any more than Maggie, according to your theory, has really or fully had four of the Prince? It takes everything she hasn’t had,” the Colonel admitted, “to explain the innocence in her that also leaves us in admiration.”
So far as it might be ribald again she let this pass. “It takes a great many things to account for Maggie. What is definite, at all events, is that—strange though this be—her effort for her father has, up to now, sufficiently succeeded. She has made him, she makes him, accept the tolerably obvious oddity of their relation, all round, for part of the game. Behind her there, protected and amused and, as it were, exquisitely humbugged—the Principino, in whom he delights, always aiding—he has safely and serenely enough suffered the conditions of his life to pass for those he had sublimely projected. He hadn’t worked them out in detail—any more than I had, heaven pity me!—and the queerness has been, exactly, in the detail. This, for him, is what it was to have married Charlotte. And they both,” she neatly wound up, “‘help.’”
So far as it might be inappropriate again she let this slide. “There are many factors that explain Maggie. What’s clear, in any case, is that—strange as it is—her efforts for her father have, up to now, been quite successful. She has managed to make him, and continues to make him, accept the fairly obvious oddity of their relationship as just part of the game. Behind her there, safe and entertained and, in a way, brilliantly deceived—the Principino, whom he enjoys, always helping—he has comfortably and calmly allowed the conditions of his life to be viewed as those he had grandly imagined. He hadn’t figured them out in detail—any more than I had, heaven help me!—and the oddness has been, precisely, in the details. This, for him, is what it meant to marry Charlotte. And they both,” she neatly concluded, “‘help.’”
“‘Both’—?”
"Both?"
“I mean that if Maggie, always in the breach, makes it seem to him all so flourishingly to fit, Charlotte does her part not less. And her part is very large. Charlotte,” Fanny declared, “works like a horse.”
“I mean that if Maggie, always in the middle of things, makes it all seem to fit perfectly for him, Charlotte does her part just as much. And her part is substantial. Charlotte,” Fanny declared, “works like a horse.”
So there it all was, and her husband looked at her a minute across it. “And what does the Prince work like?”
So there it all was, and her husband looked at her for a moment across it. “And what does the Prince do for work?”
She fixed him in return. “Like a Prince!” Whereupon, breaking short off, to ascend to her room, she presented her highly—decorated back—in which, in odd places, controlling the complications of its aspect, the ruby or the garnet, the turquoise and the topaz, gleamed like faint symbols of the wit that pinned together the satin patches of her argument.
She looked at him in response. “Like a prince!” Then, abruptly stopping, she headed up to her room, showing off her intricately decorated back, where, in unexpected places, the ruby or garnet, the turquoise and topaz shone like subtle symbols of the cleverness that held the satin pieces of her argument together.
He watched her as if she left him positively under the impression of her mastery of her subject; yes, as if the real upshot of the drama before them was but that he had, when it came to the tight places of life—as life had shrunk for him now—the most luminous of wives. He turned off, in this view of her majestic retreat, the comparatively faint little electric lamp which had presided over their talk; then he went up as immediately behind her as the billows of her amber train allowed, making out how all the clearness they had conquered was even for herself a relief—how at last the sense of the amplitude of her exposition sustained and floated her. Joining her, however, on the landing above, where she had already touched a metallic point into light, he found she had done perhaps even more to create than to extinguish in him the germ of a curiosity. He held her a minute longer—there was another plum in the pie. “What did you mean some minutes ago by his not caring for Charlotte?”
He watched her as if she had completely impressed him with her mastery of the topic; yes, as if the real outcome of the situation before them was simply that he had, during the tough times in life—as life had become for him now—the most radiant wife. He turned off the relatively dim little electric lamp that had been illuminating their conversation; then he followed her closely as her flowing amber train allowed, realizing how all the clarity they had achieved was even a relief for her—how finally the confidence in her explanation supported and uplifted her. However, when he joined her on the landing above, where she had already turned on a metallic light, he found that she perhaps had done even more to spark his curiosity than to snuff it out. He held onto her a moment longer—there was something else to consider. “What did you mean a few minutes ago when you said he doesn't care for Charlotte?”
“The Prince’s? By his not ‘really’ caring?” She recalled, after a little, benevolently enough. “I mean that men don’t, when it has all been too easy. That’s how, in nine cases out of ten, a woman is treated who has risked her life. You asked me just now how he works,” she added; “but you might better perhaps have asked me how he plays.”
“The Prince’s? By him not ‘really’ caring?” She thought for a moment, feeling rather kind about it. “I mean that men tend not to when everything has come too easily. That’s how, in nine out of ten cases, a woman is treated who has put her life on the line. You just asked me how he works,” she continued, “but maybe you should have asked me how he has fun.”
Well, he made it up. “Like a Prince?”
Well, he made it up. “Like a prince?”
“Like a Prince. He is, profoundly, a Prince. For that,” she said with expression, “he’s—beautifully—a case. They’re far rarer, even in the ‘highest circles,’ than they pretend to be—and that’s what makes so much of his value. He’s perhaps one of the very last—the last of the real ones. So it is we must take him. We must take him all round.”
“Like a Prince. He truly is a Prince. For that,” she said with feeling, “he’s—beautifully—a rare find. They’re much rarer, even in the ‘highest circles,’ than they like to think—and that’s what adds to his value. He might be one of the very last—the last of the genuine ones. So we have to take him. We have to take him fully.”
The Colonel considered. “And how must Charlotte—if anything happens—take him?”
The Colonel thought for a moment. “And how should Charlotte—if something happens—handle him?”
The question held her a minute, and while she waited, with her eyes on him, she put out a grasping hand to his arm, in the flesh of which he felt her answer distinctly enough registered. Thus she gave him, standing off a little, the firmest, longest, deepest injunction he had ever received from her. “Nothing—in spite of everything—WILL happen. Nothing HAS happened. Nothing IS happening.”
The question kept her for a moment, and while she waited, keeping her eyes on him, she reached out and grabbed his arm, through which he clearly felt her answer. Standing a bit apart, she gave him the strongest, longest, deepest command he had ever received from her. “Nothing—in spite of everything—WILL happen. Nothing HAS happened. Nothing IS happening.”
He looked a trifle disappointed. “I see. For US.”
He looked a bit disappointed. “I get it. For us.”
“For us. For whom else?” And he was to feel indeed how she wished him to understand it. “We know nothing on earth—!” It was an undertaking he must sign.
“For us. Who else would it be for?” And he was meant to truly grasp how she wanted him to understand it. “We know absolutely nothing on this planet—!” It was a commitment he had to agree to.
So he wrote, as it were, his name. “We know nothing on earth.” It was like the soldiers’ watchword at night.
So he wrote, in a way, his name. “We know nothing on earth.” It felt like the soldiers’ password at night.
“We’re as innocent,” she went on in the same way, “as babes.”
“We’re as innocent,” she continued in the same tone, “as babies.”
“Why not rather say,” he asked, “as innocent as they themselves are?”
“Why not just say,” he asked, “as innocent as they are?”
“Oh, for the best of reasons! Because we’re much more so.”
“Oh, for the best reasons! Because we’re way more so.”
He wondered. “But how can we be more—?”
He wondered. “But how can we be better—?”
“For them? Oh, easily! We can be anything.”
“For them? Oh, that's easy! We can be anything.”
“Absolute idiots then?”
"Complete idiots then?"
“Absolute idiots. And oh,” Fanny breathed, “the way it will rest us!”
"Complete idiots. And oh," Fanny exclaimed, "the way it will refresh us!"
Well, he looked as if there were something in that. “But won’t they know we’re not?”
Well, he looked like there was some truth to that. “But won’t they realize we’re not?”
She barely hesitated. “Charlotte and the Prince think we are—which is so much gained. Mr. Verver believes in our intelligence—but he doesn’t matter.”
She hardly paused. “Charlotte and the Prince think we are—which is a big win. Mr. Verver believes in our smarts—but he doesn’t matter.”
“And Maggie? Doesn’t SHE know—?”
“And Maggie? Doesn’t she know—?”
“That we see before our noses?” Yes, this indeed took longer. “Oh, so far as she may guess it she’ll give no sign. So it comes to the same thing.”
“Is that what’s right in front of us?” Yes, this definitely took longer. “Oh, as far as she can figure it out, she won’t show any sign. So it amounts to the same thing.”
He raised his eyebrows. “Comes to our not being able to help her?”
He raised his eyebrows. “So, it’s about us not being able to help her?”
“That’s the way we SHALL help her.”
"That's how we will help her."
“By looking like fools?”
"By looking like idiots?"
She threw up her hands. “She only wants, herself, to look like a bigger! So there we are!” With which she brushed it away—his conformity was promised. Something, however, still held her; it broke, to her own vision, as a last wave of clearness. “Moreover NOW,” she said, “I see! I mean,” she added,—“what you were asking me: how I knew to-day, in Eaton Square, that Maggie’s awake.” And she had indeed visibly got it. “It was by seeing them together.”
She threw up her hands. “She just wants to make herself look more important! So there you go!” With that, she dismissed it—his agreement was assured. Yet, something still kept her there; it shattered, in her perspective, like a final burst of clarity. “And now,” she said, “I understand! I mean,” she added, “what you were asking me: how I knew today, in Eaton Square, that Maggie’s awake.” And she had indeed figured it out. “It was by seeing them together.”
“Seeing her with her father?” He fell behind again. “But you’ve seen her often enough before.”
“Seeing her with her dad?” He lagged behind again. “But you’ve hung out with her plenty of times before.”
“Never with my present eyes. For nothing like such a test—that of this length of the others’ absence together—has hitherto occurred.”
“Never with my current eyes. Because nothing like this test—of this long absence from others—has ever happened before.”
“Possibly! But if she and Mr. Verver insisted upon it—?”
"Maybe! But what if she and Mr. Verver were set on it—?"
“Why is it such a test? Because it has become one without their intending it. It has spoiled, so to speak, on their hands.”
“Why is it such a challenge? Because it has turned into one without their intention. It has gone bad, so to speak, in their hands.”
“It has soured, eh?” the Colonel said.
“It has soured, huh?” the Colonel said.
“The word’s horrible—say rather it has ‘changed.’ Perhaps,” Fanny went on, “she did wish to see how much she can bear. In that case she HAS seen. Only it was she alone who—about the visit—insisted. Her father insists on nothing. And she watches him do it.”
“The word’s terrible—let’s say it has ‘changed.’ Maybe,” Fanny continued, “she wanted to see how much she could handle. If that’s the case, she HAS seen. But it was only her who—regarding the visit—demanded it. Her father doesn’t insist on anything. And she observes him doing it.”
Her husband looked impressed. “Watches him?”
Her husband looked impressed. “He watches him?”
“For the first faint sign. I mean of his noticing. It doesn’t, as I tell you, come. But she’s there for it to see. And I felt,” she continued, “HOW she’s there; I caught her, as it were, in the fact. She couldn’t keep it from me—though she left her post on purpose—came home with me to throw dust in my eyes. I took it all—her dust; but it was what showed me.” With which supreme lucidity she reached the door of her room. “Luckily it showed me also how she has succeeded. Nothing—from him—HAS come.”
“For the first subtle sign. I mean of him noticing. It doesn’t, as I mentioned, happen. But she’s there for it to notice. And I felt,” she continued, “HOW she’s present; I caught her, so to speak, in the act. She couldn’t hide it from me—though she intentionally left her post—came home with me to deceive me. I accepted it all—her deception; but it was what revealed the truth to me.” With that clear understanding, she reached the door of her room. “Fortunately, it also showed me how well she has succeeded. Nothing—from him—HAS come.”
“You’re so awfully sure?”
"Are you really that sure?"
“Sure. Nothing WILL. Good-night,” she said. “She’ll die first.”
“Sure. Nothing will. Good night,” she said. “She’ll die first.”
BOOK SECOND: THE PRINCESS
PART FOURTH
XXV
XXV
It was not till many days had passed that the Princess began to accept the idea of having done, a little, something she was not always doing, or indeed that of having listened to any inward voice that spoke in a new tone. Yet these instinctive postponements of reflection were the fruit, positively, of recognitions and perceptions already active; of the sense, above all, that she had made, at a particular hour, made by the mere touch of her hand, a difference in the situation so long present to her as practically unattackable. This situation had been occupying, for months and months, the very centre of the garden of her life, but it had reared itself there like some strange, tall tower of ivory, or perhaps rather some wonderful, beautiful, but outlandish pagoda, a structure plated with hard, bright porcelain, coloured and figured and adorned, at the overhanging eaves, with silver bells that tinkled, ever so charmingly, when stirred by chance airs. She had walked round and round it—that was what she felt; she had carried on her existence in the space left her for circulation, a space that sometimes seemed ample and sometimes narrow: looking up, all the while, at the fair structure that spread itself so amply and rose so high, but never quite making out, as yet, where she might have entered had she wished. She had not wished till now—such was the odd case; and what was doubtless equally odd, besides, was that, though her raised eyes seemed to distinguish places that must serve, from within, and especially far aloft, as apertures and outlooks, no door appeared to give access from her convenient garden level. The great decorated surface had remained consistently impenetrable and inscrutable. At present, however, to her considering mind, it was as if she had ceased merely to circle and to scan the elevation, ceased so vaguely, so quite helplessly to stare and wonder: she had caught herself distinctly in the act of pausing, then in that of lingering, and finally in that of stepping unprecedentedly near. The thing might have been, by the distance at which it kept her, a Mahometan mosque, with which no base heretic could take a liberty; there so hung about it the vision of one’s putting off one’s shoes to enter, and even, verily, of one’s paying with one’s life if found there as an interloper. She had not, certainly, arrived at the conception of paying with her life for anything she might do; but it was nevertheless quite as if she had sounded with a tap or two one of the rare porcelain plates. She had knocked, in short—though she could scarce have said whether for admission or for what; she had applied her hand to a cool smooth spot and had waited to see what would happen. Something had happened; it was as if a sound, at her touch, after a little, had come back to her from within; a sound sufficiently suggesting that her approach had been noted.
It wasn’t until many days had passed that the Princess started to accept the idea that she had, in some small way, done something different from her usual routine, or that she had even listened to an inner voice that spoke in a new way. However, these instinctive delays in reflection were really the result of recognitions and perceptions that were already active; especially the sense that, at a particular moment, she had made a change in a situation she had long thought was unchangeable just by the mere touch of her hand. This situation had occupied the very center of the garden of her life for months, but it stood there like a strange, tall tower of ivory, or maybe more like a beautiful, exotic pagoda, a structure covered with shiny, colorful porcelain, decorated and adorned with silver bells that tinkled charmingly when stirred by the breeze. She had walked around it—this is how she felt; she had lived her life in the space left for movement around it, a space that sometimes felt wide and sometimes cramped: always looking up at the lovely structure that stretched so high but never quite figuring out how she might have entered if she had wanted to. She hadn’t wanted to until now—this was the peculiar part; and what was equally strange was that, although her upraised gaze seemed to spot places that might serve as openings, especially high up, no door appeared to allow access from her convenient garden level. The beautifully decorated surface had remained consistently impenetrable and mysterious. However, at this moment, in her reflecting mind, it felt as if she had stopped merely circling and scanning the height, ceased to vaguely, helplessly stare and wonder: she caught herself distinctly pausing, then lingering, and finally stepping unexpectedly closer. The thing might have seemed, by the distance it held from her, like a mosque that no base heretic could approach; there hung around it the vision of someone removing their shoes to enter, and even the thought that one could risk their life if found there uninvited. She certainly hadn’t considered risking her life for anything she might do; but it felt as if she had lightly tapped a rare porcelain plate. In short, she knocked—though she couldn’t quite say whether it was to enter or for something else; she placed her hand on a cool, smooth spot and waited to see what would happen. Something did happen; it was as if a sound, in response to her touch, had eventually echoed back to her from within; a sound that strongly suggested that her presence had been acknowledged.
If this image, however, may represent our young woman’s consciousness of a recent change in her life—a change now but a few days old—it must at the same time be observed that she both sought and found in renewed circulation, as I have called it, a measure of relief from the idea of having perhaps to answer for what she had done. The pagoda in her blooming garden figured the arrangement—how otherwise was it to be named?—by which, so strikingly, she had been able to marry without breaking, as she liked to put it, with the past. She had surrendered herself to her husband without the shadow of a reserve or a condition, and yet she had not, all the while, given up her father—the least little inch. She had compassed the high city of seeing the two men beautifully take to each other, and nothing in her marriage had marked it as more happy than this fact of its having practically given the elder, the lonelier, a new friend. What had moreover all the while enriched the whole aspect of success was that the latter’s marriage had been no more meassurably paid for than her own. His having taken the same great step in the same free way had not in the least involved the relegation of his daughter. That it was remarkable they should have been able at once so to separate and so to keep together had never for a moment, from however far back, been equivocal to her; that it was remarkable had in fact quite counted, at first and always, and for each of them equally, as part of their inspiration and their support. There were plenty of singular things they were NOT enamoured of—flights of brilliancy, of audacity, of originality, that, speaking at least for the dear man and herself, were not at all in their line; but they liked to think they had given their life this unusual extension and this liberal form, which many families, many couples, and still more many pairs of couples, would not have found workable. That last truth had been distinctly brought home to them by the bright testimony, the quite explicit envy, of most of their friends, who had remarked to them again and again that they must, on all the showing, to keep on such terms, be people of the highest amiability—equally including in the praise, of course, Amerigo and Charlotte. It had given them pleasure—as how should it not?—to find themselves shed such a glamour; it had certainly, that is, given pleasure to her father and herself, both of them distinguishably of a nature so slow to presume that they would scarce have been sure of their triumph without this pretty reflection of it. So it was that their felicity had fructified; so it was that the ivory tower, visible and admirable doubtless, from any point of the social field, had risen stage by stage. Maggie’s actual reluctance to ask herself with proportionate sharpness why she had ceased to take comfort in the sight of it represented accordingly a lapse from that ideal consistency on which her moral comfort almost at any time depended. To remain consistent she had always been capable of cutting down more or less her prior term.
If this image represents our young woman’s awareness of a recent change in her life—a change only a few days old—it should also be noted that she both sought and found relief through what I've called renewed circulation, from the worry of having to account for her actions. The pagoda in her flourishing garden symbolized the arrangement—what else could it be called?—that allowed her to marry without fully breaking with her past, as she liked to say. She had completely given herself to her husband without any holds barred, yet she hadn’t, in any way, let go of her father—not even a little bit. She had managed to create a beautiful bond between the two men, and nothing in her marriage highlighted its happiness more than the fact that it had practically provided the elder, lonelier man with a new friend. Additionally, what enhanced the whole aspect of success was that his marriage had not been any more costly than her own. His decision to take the same significant step so freely hadn’t meant that he had to push his daughter away. It was remarkable that they had been able to both separate and stay connected at the same time, and it had never seemed ambiguous to her, no matter how far back she looked; in fact, that it was remarkable had always counted for both of them as part of their inspiration and support. There were plenty of unusual things they were NOT fond of—flights of brilliance, boldness, or originality that, at least for the dear man and herself, weren’t at all their style—but they liked to think they had given their life this unique extension and generous form, which many families, couples, and especially many pairs of couples, would have struggled to manage. That last truth had clearly been made evident to them by the bright feedback, the clear envy, of most of their friends, who had repeatedly pointed out that they must, by all appearances, be people of great friendliness—naturally including Amerigo and Charlotte in the praise. It had brought them joy—how could it not?—to find themselves surrounded by such admiration; it certainly had pleased both her father and her, both being of such a reserved nature that they would hardly have felt confident of their success without this lovely validation of it. So it was that their happiness had flourished; so it was that the ivory tower, undoubtedly visible and admirable from any social perspective, had risen gradually. Maggie’s actual hesitation to sharply question why she had stopped finding comfort in that sight reflected a departure from the ideal consistency on which her moral reassurance had almost always relied. To stay consistent, she had always been able to somewhat diminish her prior standards.
Moving for the first time in her life as in the darkening shadow of a false position, she reflected that she should either not have ceased to be right—that is, to be confident—or have recognised that she was wrong; though she tried to deal with herself, for a space, only as a silken-coated spaniel who has scrambled out of a pond and who rattles the water from his ears. Her shake of her head, again and again, as she went, was much of that order, and she had the resource, to which, save for the rude equivalent of his generalising bark, the spaniel would have been a stranger, of humming to herself hard as a sign that nothing had happened to her. She had not, so to speak, fallen in; she had had no accident and had not got wet; this at any rate was her pretension until after she began a little to wonder if she mightn’t, with or without exposure, have taken cold. She could at all events remember no time at which she had felt so excited, and certainly none—which was another special point—that so brought with it as well the necessity for concealing excitement. This birth of a new eagerness became a high pastime, in her view, precisely by reason of the ingenuity required for keeping the thing born out of sight. The ingenuity was thus a private and absorbing exercise, in the light of which, might I so far multiply my metaphors, I should compare her to the frightened but clinging young mother of an unlawful child. The idea that had possession of her would be, by our new analogy, the proof of her misadventure, but likewise, all the while, only another sign of a relation that was more to her than anything on earth. She had lived long enough to make out for herself that any deep-seated passion has its pangs as well as its joys, and that we are made by its aches and its anxieties most richly conscious of it. She had never doubted of the force of the feeling that bound her to her husband; but to become aware, almost suddenly, that it had begun to vibrate with a violence that had some of the effect of a strain would, rightly looked at, after all but show that she was, like thousands of women, every day, acting up to the full privilege of passion. Why in the world shouldn’t she, with every right—if, on consideration, she saw no good reason against it? The best reason against it would have been the possibility of some consequence disagreeable or inconvenient to others— especially to such others as had never incommoded her by the egotism of THEIR passions; but if once that danger were duly guarded against the fulness of one’s measure amounted to no more than the equal use of one’s faculties or the proper playing of one’s part. It had come to the Princess, obscurely at first, but little by little more conceivably, that her faculties had not for a good while been concomitantly used; the case resembled in a manner that of her once-loved dancing, a matter of remembered steps that had grown vague from her ceasing to go to balls. She would go to balls again—that seemed, freely, even crudely, stated, the remedy; she would take out of the deep receptacles in which she had laid them away the various ornaments congruous with the greater occasions, and of which her store, she liked to think, was none of the smallest. She would have been easily to be figured for us at this occupation; dipping, at off moments and quiet hours, in snatched visits and by draughty candle-light, into her rich collections and seeing her jewels again a little shyly, but all unmistakably, glow. That in fact may pass as the very picture of her semi-smothered agitation, of the diversion she to some extent successfully found in referring her crisis, so far as was possible, to the mere working of her own needs.
For the first time in her life, feeling like she was in the dark shadow of a mistaken situation, she thought she should either have remained confident or accepted that she was wrong. She tried to handle her feelings for a while by imagining herself as a silky-coated spaniel that had just jumped out of a pond, shaking the water from its ears. She kept shaking her head repeatedly as she walked, and she had the distraction of humming to herself, as if to prove that nothing was wrong. She hadn’t, in a sense, fallen in; she hadn’t had an accident or gotten wet; that was her belief until she started to wonder if she might catch a cold, exposed or not. At least she couldn’t remember ever feeling so excited, and certainly never felt the strong need to hide that excitement. The emergence of this new eagerness became a hobby for her, particularly because of the cleverness it took to keep it hidden. This cleverness became a personal and engaging challenge, and if I may stretch my metaphors, I would compare her to a scared but holding-on young mother of an illegitimate child. The thought consuming her was, by our new analogy, the proof of her misstep, yet at the same time, it was a sign of a connection that meant more to her than anything else. She had lived long enough to understand that any deep-seated passion comes with its pains as well as its joys, and that the aches and anxieties make us hyper-aware of it. She had never doubted the strength of the feelings that tied her to her husband; but to suddenly realize that these feelings were vibrating with an intensity similar to a strain would, if looked at correctly, simply show that she was, like thousands of women, fully embracing the rights that come with passion. Why shouldn’t she, especially if she didn’t see any good reason not to? The best reason against it might be the chance of some unpleasant or inconvenient consequence for others—especially for those who had never troubled her with their own selfish pursuits; but if that risk was properly managed, fully engaging in one’s desires was just a matter of fairly using one’s abilities or playing one’s role correctly. The Princess had gradually come to realize that she hadn’t been using her talents together for some time; it reminded her, in a way, of the dancing she once loved, a dance she had forgotten as she had stopped going to balls. She would go to balls again—that felt like the simple answer; she would dig out the various beautiful items she had stowed away for those special occasions, and she liked to think her collection wasn’t small. It would be easy to picture her in this task; sneaking in quiet moments by flickering candlelight, she would look through her rich treasures, seeing her jewels again with a bit of shyness, yet unmistakably glowing. That truly represents the essence of her somewhat suppressed restlessness, of the distraction she somewhat successfully found in trying to link her crisis to simply meeting her own needs.
It must be added, however, that she would have been at a loss to determine—and certainly at first—to which order, that of self-control or that of large expression, the step she had taken the afternoon of her husband’s return from Matcham with his companion properly belonged. For it had been a step, distinctly, on Maggie’s part, her deciding to do something, just then and there, which would strike Amerigo as unusual, and this even though her departure from custom had merely consisted in her so arranging that he wouldn’t find her, as he would definitely expect to do, in Eaton Square. He would have, strangely enough, as might seem to him, to come back home for it, and there get the impression of her rather pointedly, or at least all impatiently and independently, awaiting him. These were small variations and mild manoeuvres, but they went accompanied on Maggie’s part, as we have mentioned, with an infinite sense of intention. Her watching by his fireside for her husband’s return from an absence might superficially have presented itself as the most natural act in the world, and the only one, into the bargain, on which he would positively have reckoned. It fell by this circumstance into the order of plain matters, and yet the very aspect by which it was, in the event, handed over to her brooding fancy was the fact that she had done with it all she had designed. She had put her thought to the proof, and the proof had shown its edge; this was what was before her, that she was no longer playing with blunt and idle tools, with weapons that didn’t cut. There passed across her vision ten times a day the gleam of a bare blade, and at this it was that she most shut her eyes, most knew the impulse to cheat herself with motion and sound. She had merely driven, on a certain Wednesday, to Portland Place, instead of remaining in Eaton Square, and she privately repeated it again and again—there had appeared beforehand no reason why she should have seen the mantle of history flung, by a single sharp sweep, over so commonplace a deed. That, all the same, was what had happened; it had been bitten into her mind, all in an hour, that nothing she had ever done would hereafter, in some way yet to be determined, so count for her—perhaps not even what she had done in accepting, in their old golden Rome, Amerigo’s proposal of marriage. And yet, by her little crouching posture there, that of a timid tigress, she had meant nothing recklessly ultimate, nothing clumsily fundamental; so that she called it names, the invidious, the grotesque attitude, holding it up to her own ridicule, reducing so far as she could the portee of what had followed it. She had but wanted to get nearer—nearer to something indeed that she couldn’t, that she wouldn’t, even to herself, describe; and the degree of this achieved nearness was what had been in advance incalculable. Her actual multiplication of distractions and suppressions, whatever it did for her, failed to prevent her living over again any chosen minute—for she could choose them, she could fix them—of the freshness of relation produced by her having administered to her husband the first surprise to which she had ever treated him. It had been a poor thing, but it had been all her own, and the whole passage was backwardly there, a great picture hung on the wall of her daily life, for her to make what she would of.
She had to admit, though, that she was unsure—at least initially—about whether her decision that afternoon, when her husband returned from Matcham with his friend, fell under the category of self-control or bold expression. It was definitely a decision on Maggie’s part; she chose to do something in that moment that would surprise Amerigo, even if her change in routine was simply that she arranged it so he wouldn’t find her, as he would probably expect, in Eaton Square. Strangely enough, he would have to come home to find her there, and he would feel that she was pointedly, or at least somewhat impatiently and independently, waiting for him. These were small changes and gentle maneuvers, but for Maggie, they came with an immense sense of purpose. Her waiting by the fire for her husband’s return after an absence might have seemed like the most natural thing in the world—and the only thing he would have counted on. However, due to this situation, it entered the realm of ordinary matters, and yet the very fact that it had been turned over to her reflecting mind was that she had executed everything she intended. She had tested her thoughts, and the test had proven effective; what lay before her was that she was no longer working with dull, ineffective tools—she was wielding a sharp blade. Multiple times a day, she glimpsed that bare blade, and at this sight, she closed her eyes, feeling the urge to distract herself with movement and noise. All she had done was drive to Portland Place one Wednesday instead of staying in Eaton Square, and she kept repeating it to herself—there was no apparent reason for such a simple act to be draped in the weight of history. Yet, that was exactly what had happened; within an hour, it had struck her mind that nothing she had done would count as much for her in the future—not even the way she had accepted Amerigo’s marriage proposal in their old golden Rome. Still, in her little crouched position there, like a shy tigress, she hadn't meant anything recklessly final or clumsily fundamental; she mocked the ugly, absurd posture, trying to minimize the significance of what had followed. She just wanted to get closer—closer to something that she couldn’t even articulate to herself. The extent of that closeness was something she couldn’t measure beforehand. No matter how much she distracted herself or suppressed her thoughts, she couldn’t prevent reliving any chosen moment—because she could choose them, she could focus on them—of the unique connection that had arisen from giving her husband the first surprise he had ever received from her. It had been something small, but it was entirely her own, and the whole experience was, in a way, a grand picture hanging on the wall of her everyday life, for her to interpret as she wished.
It fell, for retrospect, into a succession of moments that were WATCHABLE still; almost in the manner of the different things done during a scene on the stage, some scene so acted as to have left a great impression on the tenant of one of the stalls. Several of these moments stood out beyond the others, and those she could feel again most, count again like the firm pearls on a string, had belonged more particularly to the lapse of time before dinner—dinner which had been so late, quite at nine o’clock, that evening, thanks to the final lateness of Amerigo’s own advent. These were parts of the experience—though in fact there had been a good many of them—between which her impression could continue sharply to discriminate. Before the subsequent passages, much later on, it was to be said, the flame of memory turned to an equalising glow, that of a lamp in some side-chapel in which incense was thick. The great moment, at any rate, for conscious repossession, was doubtless the first: the strange little timed silence which she had fully gauged, on the spot, as altogether beyond her own intention, but which—for just how long? should she ever really know for just how long?—she could do nothing to break. She was in the smaller drawing-room, in which she always “sat,” and she had, by calculation, dressed for dinner on finally coming in. It was a wonder how many things she had calculated in respect to this small incident—a matter for the importance of which she had so quite indefinite a measure. He would be late—he would be very late; that was the one certainty that seemed to look her in the face. There was still also the possibility that if he drove with Charlotte straight to Eaton Square he might think it best to remain there even on learning she had come away. She had left no message for him on any such chance; this was another of her small shades of decision, though the effect of it might be to keep him still longer absent. He might suppose she would already have dined; he might stay, with all he would have to tell, just on purpose to be nice to her father. She had known him to stretch the point, to these beautiful ends, far beyond that; he had more than once stretched it to the sacrifice of the opportunity of dressing.
It fell, in hindsight, into a series of moments that were still WATCHABLE; almost like the different things happening in a scene on stage, some scene so performed that it left a lasting impression on someone sitting in the audience. Several of these moments stood out more than the others, and those she could feel again most clearly, like counting the firm pearls on a string, were particularly from the time leading up to dinner—dinner that was so late, around nine o’clock that evening, thanks to the final delay of Amerigo’s arrival. These were parts of the experience—though there had actually been quite a few of them—among which her impressions could sharply distinguish. Before the later events, it should be noted, the warmth of memory blended into a soothing glow, like a lamp in a side chapel where incense was thick. The most significant moment for conscious reflection was undoubtedly the first: the odd little silence she had fully grasped, in the moment, as completely beyond her own intention, but which—just how long? Would she ever truly know for how long?—she couldn’t break. She was in the smaller drawing-room, where she always “sat,” and she had calculated that she dressed for dinner upon arriving. It was amazing how many things she had considered about this small incident—a matter for which she had such an unclear measure of importance. He would be late—he would be very late; that was the one certainty that seemed to confront her. There was still the possibility that if he drove with Charlotte directly to Eaton Square, he might decide to stay there even after learning she had left. She had left no message for him in that regard; this was another of her small decisions, though the effect could possibly keep him away even longer. He might think she had already eaten; he might stay, with everything he had to share, just to be nice to her father. She had seen him stretch things out for these lovely reasons, far beyond what would be expected; he had often done so at the expense of the chance to get dressed.
If she herself had now avoided any such sacrifice, and had made herself, during the time at her disposal, quite inordinately fresh and quite positively smart, this had probably added, while she waited and waited, to that very tension of spirit in which she was afterwards to find the image of her having crouched. She did her best, quite intensely, by herself, to banish any such appearance; she couldn’t help it if she couldn’t read her pale novel—ah, that, par exemple, was beyond her! but she could at least sit by the lamp with the book, sit there with her newest frock, worn for the first time, sticking out, all round her, quite stiff and grand; even perhaps a little too stiff and too grand for a familiar and domestic frock, yet marked none the less, this time, she ventured to hope, by incontestable intrinsic merit. She had glanced repeatedly at the clock, but she had refused herself the weak indulgence of walking up and down, though the act of doing so, she knew, would make her feel, on the polished floor, with the rustle and the “hang,” still more beautifully bedecked. The difficulty was that it would also make her feel herself still more sharply in a state; which was exactly what she proposed not to do. The only drops of her anxiety had been when her thought strayed complacently, with her eyes, to the front of her gown, which was in a manner a refuge, a beguilement, especially when she was able to fix it long enough to wonder if it would at last really satisfy Charlotte. She had ever been, in respect to her clothes, rather timorous and uncertain; for the last year, above all, she had lived in the light of Charlotte’s possible and rather inscrutable judgment of them. Charlotte’s own were simply the most charming and interesting that any woman had ever put on; there was a kind of poetic justice in her being at last able, in this particular, thanks to means, thanks quite to omnipotence, freely to exercise her genius. But Maggie would have described herself as, in these connections, constantly and intimately “torn”; conscious on one side of the impossibility of copying her companion and conscious on the other of the impossibility of sounding her, independently, to the bottom. Yes, it was one of the things she should go down to her grave without having known—how Charlotte, after all had been said, really thought her stepdaughter looked under any supposedly ingenious personal experiment. She had always been lovely about the stepdaughter’s material braveries—had done, for her, the very best with them; but there had ever fitfully danced at the back of Maggie’s head the suspicion that these expressions were mercies, not judgments, embodying no absolute, but only a relative, frankness. Hadn’t Charlotte, with so perfect a critical vision, if the truth were known, given her up as hopeless—hopeless by a serious standard, and thereby invented for her a different and inferior one, in which, as the only thing to be done, she patiently and soothingly abetted her? Hadn’t she, in other words, assented in secret despair, perhaps even in secret irritation, to her being ridiculous?—so that the best now possible was to wonder, once in a great while, whether one mightn’t give her the surprise of something a little less out of the true note than usual. Something of this kind was the question that Maggie, while the absentees still delayed, asked of the appearance she was endeavouring to present; but with the result, repeatedly again, that it only went and lost itself in the thick air that had begun more and more to hang, for our young woman, over her accumulations of the unanswered. They were THERE, these accumulations; they were like a roomful of confused objects, never as yet “sorted,” which for some time now she had been passing and re-passing, along the corridor of her life. She passed it when she could without opening the door; then, on occasion, she turned the key to throw in a fresh contribution. So it was that she had been getting things out of the way. They rejoined the rest of the confusion; it was as if they found their place, by some instinct of affinity, in the heap. They knew, in short, where to go; and when she, at present, by a mental act, once more pushed the door open, she had practically a sense of method and experience. What she should never know about Charlotte’s thought—she tossed THAT in. It would find itself in company, and she might at last have been standing there long enough to see it fall into its corner. The sight moreover would doubtless have made her stare, had her attention been more free—the sight of the mass of vain things, congruous, incongruous, that awaited every addition. It made her in fact, with a vague gasp, turn away, and what had further determined this was the final sharp extinction of the inward scene by the outward. The quite different door had opened and her husband was there.
If she had managed to avoid any such sacrifice lately and had made herself, during the time she had, quite unusually fresh and definitely stylish, this probably added to that tension she felt while she waited, ultimately leading to the image of her feeling crouched. She tried her best, with intensity, to get rid of any such impression; she couldn’t help that she couldn’t focus on her dull novel—ah, that was beyond her! But at least she could sit by the lamp with the book, wearing her newest dress, which she had on for the first time, puffing out all around her, quite stiff and elegant; perhaps even a bit too stiff and elegant for a casual domestic dress, yet she dared to hope it was marked this time by undeniable intrinsic worth. She checked the clock repeatedly, but she denied herself the comforting indulgence of pacing back and forth, even though she knew that doing so on the polished floor, with the rustle and the drape, would make her feel even more beautifully adorned. The drawback was that it would also make her acutely aware of her feelings; which was exactly what she aimed to avoid. The only moments of her anxiety came when her thoughts wandered aimlessly, along with her eyes, to the front of her dress, which was kind of a refuge, a distraction, especially when she could focus long enough to wonder if it would finally satisfy Charlotte. She had always been a bit timid and unsure about her clothes; for the past year especially, she had lived in the shadow of Charlotte’s unpredictable judgment of them. Charlotte’s clothes were simply the most charming and intriguing that any woman had ever worn; there was a kind of poetic fairness in her finally being able, in this regard, thanks to her means, to fully exercise her creativity. But Maggie would describe herself as being perpetually and intimately “torn”; aware on one side of the impossibility of imitating her companion and aware on the other side of the impossibility of understanding her deeply, independently. Yes, it was one of those things she would go to her grave not knowing—how Charlotte really thought her stepdaughter looked under any supposedly clever personal experiment. Charlotte had always been lovely about the stepdaughter’s attempts to be brave with her appearance—had done her best with them; but Maggie always had a nagging suspicion in the back of her mind that these compliments were acts of kindness, not honest assessments, reflecting no absolute truth, but just relative frankness. Hadn’t Charlotte, with her keen critical insight, secretly given her up as a lost cause—hopeless by serious standards, and therefore created a different and inferior standard for her, in which she patiently and soothingly supported her? Hadn’t she, in other words, silently agreed, perhaps even with hidden irritation, to Maggie being ridiculous?—so that the best she could do now was to occasionally wonder if she might surprise Charlotte with something a little less off-key than usual. This was the question that Maggie, while the others still delayed, pondered about the appearance she was trying to present; but repeatedly, it only got lost in the thick air that was increasingly hanging over her pile of unanswered questions. They were THERE, these unresolved issues; they were like a room full of mixed-up things that hadn’t yet been “sorted,” which she had been passing by for some time in the corridor of her life. She walked past it when she could without opening the door; then, occasionally, she turned the key to toss in another complication. This way, she had been clearing things out of her way. They joined the rest of the mess; it was as if they found their spot, drawn by some instinct of connection, in the heap. They knew, in short, where to go; and when she, at that moment, opened the door again in her mind, she felt practically organized and experienced. What she would never know about Charlotte’s thoughts—she tossed THAT in. It would find companionship, and she might have been standing there long enough to see it settle into its corner. The sight would have likely made her gape, had her attention been less occupied—the sight of the mass of trivial things, fitting and unfitting, that awaited every new addition. It made her, with a vague gasp, turn away, and what further pushed her to do so was the sudden sharp disruption of her inner scene by the external one. The completely different door had opened, and her husband was there.
It had been as strange as she could consent, afterwards, to think it; it had been, essentially, what had made the abrupt bend in her life: he had come back, had followed her from the other house, VISIBLY uncertain—this was written in the face he for the first minute showed her. It had been written only for those seconds, and it had appeared to go, quickly, after they began to talk; but while it lasted it had been written large, and, though she didn’t quite know what she had expected of him, she felt she hadn’t expected the least shade of embarrassment. What had made the embarrassment—she called it embarrassment so as to be able to assure herself she put it at the very worst—what had made the particular look was his thus distinguishably wishing to see how he should find her. Why FIRST—that had, later on, kept coming to her; the question dangled there as if it were the key to everything. With the sense of it on the spot, she had felt, overwhelmingly, that she was significant, that so she must instantly strike him, and that this had a kind of violence beyond what she had intended. It was in fact even at the moment not absent from her view that he might easily have made an abject fool of her—at least for the time. She had indeed, for just ten seconds, been afraid of some such turn: the uncertainty in his face had become so, the next thing, an uncertainty in the very air. Three words of impatience the least bit loud, some outbreak of “What in the world are you ‘up to’, and what do you mean?” any note of that sort would instantly have brought her low—and this all the more that heaven knew she hadn’t in any manner designed to be high. It was such a trifle, her small breach with custom, or at any rate with his natural presumption, that all magnitude of wonder had already had, before one could deprecate the shadow of it, the effect of a complication. It had made for him some difference that she couldn’t measure, this meeting him at home and alone instead of elsewhere and with others, and back and back it kept coming to her that the blankness he showed her before he was able to SEE might, should she choose to insist on it, have a meaning—have, as who should say, an historic value—beyond the importance of momentary expressions in general. She had naturally had on the spot no ready notion of what he might want to see; it was enough for a ready notion, not to speak of a beating heart, that he DID see, that he saw his wife in her own drawing-room at the hour when she would most properly be there. He hadn’t in any way challenged her, it was true, and, after those instants during which she now believed him to have been harbouring the impression of something unusually prepared and pointed in her attitude and array, he had advanced upon her smiling and smiling, and thus, without hesitation at the last, had taken her into his arms. The hesitation had been at the first, and she at present saw that he had surmounted it without her help. She had given him no help; for if, on the one hand, she couldn’t speak for hesitation, so on the other—and especially as he didn’t ask her—she couldn’t explain why she was agitated. She had known it all the while down to her toes, known it in his presence with fresh intensity, and if he had uttered but a question it would have pressed in her the spring of recklessness. It had been strange that the most natural thing of all to say to him should have had that appearance; but she was more than ever conscious that any appearance she had would come round, more or less straight, to her father, whose life was now so quiet, on the basis accepted for it, that any alteration of his consciousness even in the possible sense of enlivenment, would make their precious equilibrium waver. THAT was at the bottom of her mind, that their equilibrium was everything, and that it was practically precarious, a matter of a hair’s breadth for the loss of the balance. It was the equilibrium, or at all events her conscious fear about it, that had brought her heart into her mouth; and the same fear was, on either side, in the silent look she and Amerigo had exchanged. The happy balance that demanded this amount of consideration was truly thus, as by its own confession, a delicate matter; but that her husband had also HIS habit of anxiety and his general caution only brought them, after all, more closely together. It would have been most beautifully, therefore, in the name of the equilibrium, and in that of her joy at their feeling so exactly the same about it, that she might have spoken if she had permitted the truth on the subject of her behaviour to ring out—on the subject of that poor little behaviour which was for the moment so very limited a case of eccentricity.
It was as strange as she could let herself think later; it had essentially caused the sudden shift in her life: he had come back, had followed her from the other house, clearly uncertain—this was evident on the face he showed her for that first minute. It was only visible for those seconds, and it seemed to fade quickly after they started talking; but while it lasted, it was prominent, and even though she wasn’t sure what she expected from him, she felt she hadn’t anticipated even a hint of embarrassment. What caused the embarrassment—she called it embarrassment to assure herself she was only seeing it at its worst—what created that specific look was his distinct desire to see how he would find her. Why FIRST—that question kept coming back to her later; it hung there as if it held the key to everything. In that moment, she felt, overwhelmingly, that she was significant, that she had to make an immediate impression on him, and this had an intensity beyond what she had intended. In fact, even then, she was aware that he could easily have made a complete fool of her—at least for the time being. For just ten seconds, she had feared such an outcome: his uncertainty had quickly turned into a tension in the air. Just three loud words of impatience or an outburst like “What on earth are you up to, and what do you mean?” would have brought her down to earth, especially since she knew she hadn’t intended to come across as high and mighty. It was such a minor breach of decorum, or at least his natural assumptions, that all the significance of wonder had turned, before she could downplay it, into a complicated situation. Meeting him at home and alone instead of elsewhere and with others had made some difference she couldn’t measure, and it kept coming back to her that the blank look he gave her before he was able to SEE could, if she chose to insist on it, hold special meaning—indeed, a historical value—beyond just the importance of fleeting expressions in general. At that moment, she had no clear idea of what he might want to see; it was enough—instead of her racing heart—that he DID see, that he saw his wife in her own drawing-room when she should rightly be there. It was true he hadn’t challenged her, and after those moments when she now thought he had been holding the impression of something particularly prepared and pointed in her demeanor and appearance, he had approached her smiling, and without hesitation, had taken her in his arms. The hesitation had been at first, and now she realized he had overcome it without her help. She hadn’t helped him; for while she couldn’t find words for her hesitation, she also couldn’t explain why she felt so agitated—especially since he didn’t ask her. She had known it all along, deep in her gut, felt it with fresh intensity in his presence, and if he had asked even one question, it would have pushed her into a reckless state. It was odd that the most natural thing to say to him would feel that way; but she was more aware than ever that any appearance she had would eventually connect back to her father, whose life was now so calm, that any change in his mood—even for the better—would disrupt their precious balance. THAT was at the forefront of her mind, that their equilibrium was everything, and it was practically precarious, hanging by a thread. It was this equilibrium, or at least her conscious fear about it, that had made her heart race; and the same fear was present in the silent look she and Amerigo exchanged. The delicate balance that required such careful consideration was indeed, by its own admission, a fragile matter; but her husband’s habits of worry and general caution only brought them even closer together. So it would have beautifully served in the name of equilibrium, and in the joy of their shared feelings about it, had she spoken the truth about her behavior—about that poor little behavior which was, at the moment, such a limited case of eccentricity.
“‘Why, why’ have I made this evening such a point of our not all dining together? Well, because I’ve all day been so wanting you alone that I finally couldn’t bear it, and that there didn’t seem any great reason why I should try to. THAT came to me—funny as it may at first sound, with all the things we’ve so wonderfully got into the way of bearing for each other. You’ve seemed these last days—I don’t know what: more absent than ever before, too absent for us merely to go on so. It’s all very well, and I perfectly see how beautiful it is, all round; but there comes a day when something snaps, when the full cup, filled to the very brim, begins to flow over. That’s what has happened to my need of you—the cup, all day, has been too full to carry. So here I am with it, spilling it over you—and just for the reason that is the reason of my life. After all, I’ve scarcely to explain that I’m as much in love with you now as the first hour; except that there are some hours—which I know when they come, because they almost frighten me—that show me I’m even more so. They come of themselves—and, ah, they’ve been coming! After all, after all—!” Some such words as those were what DIDN’T ring out, yet it was as if even the unuttered sound had been quenched here in its own quaver. It was where utterance would have broken down by its very weight if he had let it get so far. Without that extremity, at the end of a moment, he had taken in what he needed to take—that his wife was TESTIFYING, that she adored and missed and desired him. “After all, after all,” since she put it so, she was right. That was what he had to respond to; that was what, from the moment that, as has been said, he “saw,” he had to treat as the most pertinent thing possible. He held her close and long, in expression of their personal reunion—this, obviously, was one way of doing so. He rubbed his cheek, tenderly, and with a deep vague murmur, against her face, that side of her face she was not pressing to his breast. That was, not less obviously, another way, and there were ways enough, in short, for his extemporised ease, for the good humour she was afterwards to find herself thinking of as his infinite tact. This last was partly, no doubt, because the question of tact might be felt as having come up at the end of a quarter of an hour during which he had liberally talked and she had genially questioned. He had told her of his day, the happy thought of his roundabout journey with Charlotte, all their cathedral-hunting adventure, and how it had turned out rather more of an affair than they expected. The moral of it was, at any rate, that he was tired, verily, and must have a bath and dress—to which end she would kindly excuse him for the shortest time possible. She was to remember afterwards something that had passed between them on this—how he had looked, for her, during an instant, at the door, before going out, how he had met her asking him, in hesitation first, then quickly in decision, whether she couldn’t help him by going up with him. He had perhaps also for a moment hesitated, but he had declined her offer, and she was to preserve, as I say, the memory of the smile with which he had opined that at that rate they wouldn’t dine till ten o’clock and that he should go straighter and faster alone. Such things, as I say, were to come back to her—they played, through her full after-sense, like lights on the whole impression; the subsequent parts of the experience were not to have blurred their distinctness. One of these subsequent parts, the first, had been the not inconsiderable length, to her later and more analytic consciousness, of this second wait for her husband’s reappearance. She might certainly, with the best will in the world, had she gone up with him, have been more in his way than not, since people could really, almost always, hurry better without help than with it. Still, she could actually hardly have made him take more time than he struck her taking, though it must indeed be added that there was now in this much-thinking little person’s state of mind no mere crudity of impatience. Something had happened, rapidly, with the beautiful sight of him and with the drop of her fear of having annoyed him by making him go to and fro. Subsidence of the fearsome, for Maggie’s spirit, was always, at first, positive emergence of the sweet, and it was long since anything had been so sweet to her as the particular quality suddenly given by her present emotion to the sense of possession.
“‘Why, why’ have I made such a big deal this evening about us not all dining together? Well, because I’ve wanted you alone all day, and I finally couldn’t stand it anymore, and there really didn’t seem to be a good reason to hold back. It may sound strange, given all the things we’ve managed to handle for each other. You’ve seemed more distant these last few days—I don’t know why—more absent than ever, too distant for us to just keep going like this. Everything seems great, and I completely see how beautiful it all is, but there comes a point when something breaks, when the full cup, filled to the very brim, starts to overflow. That’s what’s happened with my need for you—the cup has been too full to hold all day. So here I am, spilling it all over you—and just for the reason that gives my life meaning. After all, I hardly need to explain that I’m as much in love with you now as I was from the very start; except that there are some moments—which I recognize when they come, because they almost scare me—that show me I’m even more in love. They just happen—and, oh, they’ve been happening! After all, after all—!” Some words like those didn’t come out, yet it felt as if even the unspoken feelings had been stifled in their own trembling. It was a moment where the weight of his feelings would have crushed his words if he had let it get that far. Without that pressure, in a moment’s pause, he understood what he needed to know—that his wife was TESTIFYING, that she adored, missed, and desired him. “After all, after all,” since she put it that way, she was right. That was what he had to respond to; that was what, from the moment that, as mentioned, he “saw,” he had to view as the most important thing possible. He held her close and for a long time, expressing their personal reunion—this, obviously, was one way of doing it. He gently rubbed his cheek against her face, the side she wasn't pressing against his chest. That was, unmistakably, another way, and there were plenty of ways, in short, for his spontaneous ease, for the good humor she would later remember as his infinite tact. This was partly, undoubtedly, because the issue of tact had seemed to come up after a quarter of an hour during which he had freely talked and she had sweetly asked questions. He had told her about his day, the happy thought of his winding trip with Charlotte, all their adventures hunting cathedrals, and how it turned into more than they expected. The takeaway was, at any rate, that he was really tired and needed a bath and to get dressed—to which she would kindly excuse him for the shortest time possible. She would eventually remember something that happened between them on this—how he had looked at her for a moment at the door before leaving, how she had asked him, first hesitantly and then decisively, if she could help him by going upstairs with him. He might have hesitated for a moment, but he declined her offer, and she would keep the memory of the smile he gave when he suggested that at this rate they wouldn’t eat until ten o’clock and that he should go straight and fast on his own. Those details, as I say, would come back to her—they played through her lingering thoughts like lights on the overall impression; the later parts of the experience were not going to blur their clarity. One of those subsequent elements, the first one, was the frustratingly long wait for her husband to return. With all good intentions, if she had gone up with him, she might have ended up being more of a hindrance than a help since people usually could hurry better on their own. Still, she could hardly have made him take longer than he appeared to be taking, although it’s worth noting that there was no simple impatience in this thoughtful person’s state of mind. Something had changed, quickly, with the wonderful sight of him and the easing of her fear of having irritated him by making him go back and forth. The calming of her worries, for Maggie’s spirit, was always an initial step toward the emergence of something sweet, and it had been a long time since anything felt as sweet to her as the particular quality her current feelings added to her sense of belonging.
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XXVI
Amerigo was away from her again, as she sat there, as she walked there without him—for she had, with the difference of his presence in the house, ceased to keep herself from moving about; but the hour was filled nevertheless with the effect of his nearness, and above all with the effect, strange in an intimacy so established, of an almost renewed vision of the facts of his aspect. She had seen him last but five days since, yet he had stood there before her as if restored from some far country, some long voyage, some combination of dangers or fatigues. This unquenchable variety in his appeal to her interest, what did it mean but that—reduced to the flatness of mere statement—she was married, by good fortune, to an altogether dazzling person? That was an old, old story, but the truth of it shone out to her like the beauty of some family picture, some mellow portrait of an ancestor, that she might have been looking at, almost in surprise, after a long intermission. The dazzling person was upstairs and she was down, and there were moreover the other facts of the selection and decision that this demonstration of her own had required, and of the constant care that the equilibrium involved; but she had, all the same, never felt so absorbingly married, so abjectly conscious of a master of her fate. He could do what he would with her; in fact what was actually happening was that he was actually doing it. “What he would,” what he REALLY would—only that quantity itself escaped perhaps, in the brightness of the high harmony, familiar naming and discussing. It was enough of a recognition for her that, whatever the thing he might desire, he would always absolutely bring it off. She knew at this moment, without a question, with the fullest surrender, how he had brought off, in her, by scarce more than a single allusion, a perfect flutter of tenderness. If he had come back tired, tired from his long day, the exertion had been, literally, in her service and her father’s. They two had sat at home at peace, the Principino between them, the complications of life kept down, the bores sifted out, the large ease of the home preserved, because of the way the others held the field and braved the weather. Amerigo never complained—any more than, for that matter, Charlotte did; but she seemed to see to-night as she had never yet quite done that their business of social representation, conceived as they conceived it, beyond any conception of her own, and conscientiously carried out, was an affair of living always in harness. She remembered Fanny Assingham’s old judgment, that friend’s description of her father and herself as not living at all, as not knowing what to do or what might be done for them; and there came back to her with it an echo of the long talk they had had together, one September day at Fawns, under the trees, when she put before him this dictum of Fanny’s.
Amerigo was away from her again as she sat there, as she walked there without him—because, with the difference of his presence in the house, she had stopped holding herself back from moving around; but the hour was still filled with the feeling of his closeness, and above all with the strange effect, in such an established intimacy, of a nearly renewed perception of his appearance. She had last seen him only five days ago, yet he stood before her as if he had returned from a distant country, a long journey, or some combination of dangers or fatigue. This unending variety in his appeal to her interest—what did it mean but that, in simple terms, she was lucky enough to be married to a truly amazing person? That was an old story, but the truth of it shone through to her like the beauty of an old family photo, a warm portrait of an ancestor that she might have been gazing at in surprise after a long time. The incredible person was upstairs while she was downstairs, and there were other factors from the choices and decisions that this experience of hers had required, and the constant effort to maintain balance; yet she had never felt so completely married, so acutely aware of a master of her fate. He could do whatever he wanted with her; in fact, what was happening was that he was actually doing it. “What he wanted,” what he really wanted—only that specific quantity seemed to slip away, perhaps in the brightness of the high harmony of familiar naming and discussing. It was enough for her to recognize that, whatever he might desire, he would always absolutely achieve it. At that moment, without a doubt and with complete surrender, she understood how he had caused, with barely a single hint, an overwhelming wave of tenderness within her. If he had returned tired from his long day, his exertion had been, literally, in service to her and her father. They had stayed home in peace, the Principino between them, the complications of life kept at bay, the annoyances filtered out, and the great comfort of home maintained because of how others held their ground and faced the challenges. Amerigo never complained—just as Charlotte didn’t either; but tonight she seemed to see, as she never quite had before, that their business of social representation, as they understood it, beyond anything she could conceive, and carried out with care, was a matter of always being in harness. She remembered Fanny Assingham’s old judgment, that friend’s description of her father and herself as not living at all, as not knowing what to do or what could be done for them; and with it came back the memory of the long conversation they had shared one September day at Fawns, under the trees, when she presented him with this saying from Fanny.
That occasion might have counted for them—she had already often made the reflection—as the first step in an existence more intelligently arranged. It had been an hour from which the chain of causes and consequences was definitely traceable—so many things, and at the head of the list her father’s marriage, having appeared to her to flow from Charlotte’s visit to Fawns, and that event itself having flowed from the memorable talk. But what perhaps most came out in the light of these concatenations was that it had been, for all the world, as if Charlotte had been “had in,” as the servants always said of extra help, because they had thus suffered it to be pointed out to them that if their family coach lumbered and stuck the fault was in its lacking its complement of wheels. Having but three, as they might say, it had wanted another, and what had Charlotte done from the first but begin to act, on the spot, and ever so smoothly and beautifully, as a fourth? Nothing had been, immediately, more manifest than the greater grace of the movement of the vehicle—as to which, for the completeness of her image, Maggie was now supremely to feel how every strain had been lightened for herself. So far as SHE was one of the wheels she had but to keep in her place; since the work was done for her she felt no weight, and it wasn’t too much to acknowledge that she had scarce to turn round. She had a long pause before the fire during which she might have been fixing with intensity her projected vision, have been conscious even of its taking an absurd, fantastic shape. She might have been watching the family coach pass and noting that, somehow, Amerigo and Charlotte were pulling it while she and her father were not so much as pushing. They were seated inside together, dandling the Principino and holding him up to the windows, to see and be seen, like an infant positively royal; so that the exertion was ALL with the others. Maggie found in this image a repeated challenge; again and yet again she paused before the fire: after which, each time, in the manner of one for whom a strong light has suddenly broken, she gave herself to livelier movement. She had seen herself at last, in the picture she was studying, suddenly jump from the coach; whereupon, frankly, with the wonder of the sight, her eyes opened wider and her heart stood still for a moment. She looked at the person so acting as if this person were somebody else, waiting with intensity to see what would follow. The person had taken a decision—which was evidently because an impulse long gathering had at last felt a sharpest pressure. Only how was the decision to be applied?—what, in particular, would the figure in the picture do? She looked about her, from the middle of the room, under the force of this question, as if THERE, exactly, were the field of action involved. Then, as the door opened again, she recognised, whatever the action, the form, at any rate, of a first opportunity. Her husband had reappeared—he stood before her refreshed, almost radiant, quite reassuring. Dressed, anointed, fragrant, ready, above all, for his dinner, he smiled at her over the end of their delay. It was as if her opportunity had depended on his look—and now she saw that it was good. There was still, for the instant, something in suspense, but it passed more quickly than on his previous entrance. He was already holding out his arms. It was, for hours and hours, later on, as if she had somehow been lifted aloft, were floated and carried on some warm high tide beneath which stumbling blocks had sunk out of sight. This came from her being again, for the time, in the enjoyment of confidence, from her knowing, as she believed, what to do. All the next day, and all the next, she appeared to herself to know it. She had a plan, and she rejoiced in her plan: this consisted of the light that, suddenly breaking into her restless reverie, had marked the climax of that vigil. It had come to her as a question—“What if I’ve abandoned THEM, you know? What if I’ve accepted too passively the funny form of our life?” There would be a process of her own by which she might do differently in respect to Amerigo and Charlotte—a process quite independent of any process of theirs. Such a solution had but to rise before her to affect her, to charm her, with its simplicity, an advantageous simplicity she had been stupid, for so long, not to have been struck by; and the simplicity meanwhile seemed proved by the success that had already begun to attend her. She had only had herself to do something to see how immediately it answered. This consciousness of its having answered with her husband was the uplifting, sustaining wave. He had “met” her—she so put it to herself; met her with an effect of generosity and of gaiety, in especial, on his coming back to her ready for dinner, which she wore in her breast as the token of an escape for them both from something not quite definite, but clearly, much less good. Even at that moment, in fact, her plan had begun to work; she had been, when he brightly reappeared, in the act of plucking it out of the heart of her earnestness—plucking it, in the garden of thought, as if it had been some full-blown flower that she could present to him on the spot. Well, it was the flower of participation, and as that, then and there, she held it out to him, putting straightway into execution the idea, so needlessly, so absurdly obscured, of her SHARING with him, whatever the enjoyment, the interest, the experience might be—and sharing also, for that matter, with Charlotte.
That moment could have been seen as the first step toward a more thoughtfully arranged life. It was an hour that clearly marked a chain of events—her father's marriage being the top item, stemming from Charlotte's visit to Fawns, which itself had resulted from that memorable conversation. What stood out most from these connections was that it felt as if Charlotte had been “brought in,” as the staff often referred to additional help, pointing out to them that if their family coach was struggling, it was due to missing some wheels. With only three, it needed a fourth, and from the beginning, Charlotte had seamlessly and beautifully stepped in to fill that role. It quickly became obvious how much smoother the vehicle was moving; Maggie realized how much lighter every strain felt for her. As one of the wheels, she only needed to stay in place; with the work done for her, she felt no burden, hardly even needing to turn around. She paused in front of the fire, lost in thought, perhaps envisioning something oddly fantastical. She might have seen the family coach pass, noticing that Amerigo and Charlotte were pulling it while she and her father weren’t really pushing it at all. They were inside together, playing with the Principino and holding him up to the windows to be seen, like an infant who was definitely royal; all the effort was on the others. Maggie found this imagery challenging; again and again, she paused before the fire, and with each pause, like someone suddenly hit by bright light, she moved with more energy. She finally saw herself in the scene she was focusing on, suddenly jumping out of the coach; this realization was so surprising that her eyes widened, and her heart paused for a moment. She looked at that person as if they were someone else, intensely waiting to see what would happen next. The person had made a decision—probably because a long-bottled impulse finally experienced a strong push. But how would the decision be acted on? What would that figure in her picture do? She scanned the room as if that was where action needed to begin. Then, as the door opened again, she recognized the opportunity. Her husband had come back—he stood there looking refreshed, almost glowing, and quite reassuring. Dressed, groomed, smelling great, ready for dinner, he smiled at her from the end of their wait. It was as if her opportunity depended on how he looked—and now she could see it was good. There was still a moment of suspense, but it passed faster than during his last entrance. He was already reaching for her. Later on, it felt as though she had been lifted up, carried along on a warm wave that made past obstacles vanish. This came from her enjoying confidence once more, believing she knew what to do. The next day and the day after, she felt certain about it. She had a plan, and she took joy in it: this was the realization that had broken through her restless thoughts, marking the peak of her vigil. It had come to her as a question—“What if I’ve abandoned THEM, you know? What if I’ve accepted too passively the strange shape of our life?” She could find a way to act differently toward Amerigo and Charlotte—a way entirely separate from their actions. This solution quickly emerged before her, captivating her with its simplicity, a straightforwardness she had been foolish not to notice for so long; the simplicity felt confirmed by her early successes. All she had to do was take action to see how well it would work. The awareness that it had worked with her husband was the uplifting force. He had “met” her—she thought of it that way; he met her with a sense of generosity and joy, especially when he came back to her ready for dinner, which she kept in her heart as a sign of their escape from something vague but clearly much less good. In fact, at that moment, her plan was already in motion; when he cheerfully reappeared, she had been on the verge of pulling it from her earnestness—pulling it, in her mental garden, like a full-bloom flower she could show him right away. It was the flower of participation, and at that moment, she offered it, immediately putting into action the idea, so unnecessarily and absurdly obscured, of SHARING with him, whatever the joy, the interest, or the experience might be—and sharing, incidentally, with Charlotte as well.
She had thrown herself, at dinner, into every feature of the recent adventure of the companions, letting him see, without reserve, that she wished to hear everything about it, and making Charlotte in particular, Charlotte’s judgment of Matcham, Charlotte’s aspect, her success there, her effect traceably produced, her clothes inimitably worn, her cleverness gracefully displayed, her social utility, in fine, brilliantly exemplified, the subject of endless inquiry. Maggie’s inquiry was most empathetic, moreover, for the whole happy thought of the cathedral-hunt, which she was so glad they had entertained, and as to the pleasant results of which, down to the cold beef and bread-and-cheese, the queer old smell and the dirty table-cloth at the inn, Amerigo was good-humouredly responsive. He had looked at her across the table, more than once, as if touched by the humility of this welcome offered to impressions at second-hand, the amusements, the large freedoms only of others—as if recognising in it something fairly exquisite; and at the end, while they were alone, before she had rung for a servant, he had renewed again his condonation of the little irregularity, such as it was, on which she had ventured. They had risen together to come upstairs; he had been talking at the last about some of the people, at the very last of all about Lady Castledean and Mr. Blint; after which she had once more broken ground on the matter of the “type” of Gloucester. It brought her, as he came round the table to join her, yet another of his kind conscious stares, one of the looks, visibly beguiled, but at the same time not invisibly puzzled, with which he had already shown his sense of this charming grace of her curiosity. It was as if he might for a moment be going to say:—“You needn’t PRETEND, dearest, quite so hard, needn’t think it necessary to care quite so much!”—it was as if he stood there before her with some such easy intelligence, some such intimate reassurance, on his lips. Her answer would have been all ready—that she wasn’t in the least pretending; and she looked up at him, while he took her hand, with the maintenance, the real persistence, of her lucid little plan in her eyes. She wanted him to understand from that very moment that she was going to be WITH him again, quite with them, together, as she doubtless hadn’t been since the “funny” changes—that was really all one could call them—into which they had each, as for the sake of the others, too easily and too obligingly slipped. They had taken too much for granted that their life together required, as people in London said, a special “form”—which was very well so long as the form was kept only for the outside world and was made no more of among themselves than the pretty mould of an iced pudding, or something of that sort, into which, to help yourself, you didn’t hesitate to break with the spoon. So much as that she would, with an opening, have allowed herself furthermore to observe; she wanted him to understand how her scheme embraced Charlotte too; so that if he had but uttered the acknowledgment she judged him on the point of making—the acknowledgment of his catching at her brave little idea for their case—she would have found herself, as distinctly, voluble almost to eloquence.
At dinner, she fully engaged in discussing every detail of the recent adventure with their friends, making it clear to him that she wanted to know everything about it. She especially focused on Charlotte—Charlotte’s opinion of Matcham, how Charlotte looked, her success there, the impact she made, her stylish clothes, her displayed cleverness, and her social contributions, all becoming endless topics of discussion. Maggie’s questions were genuinely empathetic, reflecting her delight in their shared idea of the cathedral-hunt, and Amerigo was humorously responsive about all aspects of it, even down to the cold beef and bread-and-cheese, the odd smell, and the dirty tablecloth at the inn. He looked at her across the table several times, as if he were touched by her willingness to embrace second-hand experiences, enjoying the fun and freedoms enjoyed by others—as if recognizing something truly exquisite in her attitude. Later, when they were alone and before she called for a servant, he once again accepted the small irregularity she had dared to bring up. They had stood up together to go upstairs; he had been talking about some people, finally mentioning Lady Castledean and Mr. Blint. Afterward, she had reopened the conversation about the “type” from Gloucester. This prompted him to give her another of those conscious stares as he came around the table to join her—one that was visibly enchanted but also a bit puzzled, indicating his appreciation for her charming curiosity. It was as if he wanted to say: “You don’t have to pretend so much, dear, or feel you need to care that deeply!”—standing before her with an easy understanding and intimate reassurance in his expression. She was ready to respond that she wasn’t pretending at all; she looked up at him as he took her hand, her eyes reflecting her genuine determination to be with him again, fully together, as she hadn’t been since the “funny” changes—really the only way to describe them—that they had each slipped into a bit too easily and obligingly for the sake of the others. They had assumed too much that their life together required a special “form,” as people in London said, which was fine as long as that form was reserved for the outside world and treated among themselves like the pretty mold of an iced pudding that you would happily break into with a spoon. She would have allowed herself to express this point further if she could have; she wanted him to see that her plan included Charlotte too. If he had simply acknowledged what she sensed he was about to say—recognizing her brave little idea for them—she would have found herself almost eloquently enthusiastic.
What befell, however, was that even while she thus waited she felt herself present at a process taking place rather deeper within him than the occasion, on the whole, appeared to require—a process of weighing something in the balance, of considering, deciding, dismissing. He had guessed that she was there with an idea, there in fact by reason of her idea; only this, oddly enough, was what at the last stayed his words. She was helped to these perceptions by his now looking at her still harder than he had yet done—which really brought it to the turn of a hair, for her, that she didn’t make sure his notion of her idea was the right one. It was the turn of a hair, because he had possession of her hands and was bending toward her, ever so kindly, as if to see, to understand, more, or possibly give more—she didn’t know which; and that had the effect of simply putting her, as she would have said, in his power. She gave up, let her idea go, let everything go; her one consciousness was that he was taking her again into his arms. It was not till afterwards that she discriminated as to this; felt how the act operated with him instead of the words he hadn’t uttered—operated, in his view, as probably better than any words, as always better, in fact, at any time, than anything. Her acceptance of it, her response to it, inevitable, foredoomed, came back to her, later on, as a virtual assent to the assumption he had thus made that there was really nothing such a demonstration didn’t anticipate and didn’t dispose of, and that the spring acting within herself moreover might well have been, beyond any other, the impulse legitimately to provoke it. It made, for any issue, the third time since his return that he had drawn her to his breast; and at present, holding her to his side as they left the room, he kept her close for their moving into the hall and across it, kept her for their slow return together to the apartments above. He had been right, overwhelmingly right, as to the felicity of his tenderness and the degree of her sensibility, but even while she felt these things sweep all others away she tasted of a sort of terror of the weakness they produced in her. It was still, for her, that she had positively something to do, and that she mustn’t be weak for this, must much rather be strong. For many hours after, none the less, she remained weak—if weak it was; though holding fast indeed to the theory of her success, since her agitated overture had been, after all, so unmistakably met.
What happened, however, was that even while she waited, she felt like she was part of a deeper process taking place within him than the situation seemed to require—a process of weighing options, thinking things through, deciding, and dismissing. He had sensed that she was there with an idea, and that she was there because of that idea; ironically, this was what ultimately held him back from speaking. She was prompted to these thoughts by his now looking at her even more intensely than before—which really made it crucial for her to ensure that his understanding of her idea was correct. It was crucial because he had her hands and was leaning towards her, very kindly, as if trying to see or understand more, or possibly to give more—she wasn’t sure which; and that made her feel, as she might have said, like she was in his power. She surrendered, let her idea go, let everything go; all she was aware of was that he was taking her back into his arms. It wasn’t until later that she reflected on this and realized how the action communicated more to him than the words he hadn’t spoken—how it probably conveyed more than any words could, always better than anything at any time. Her acceptance of it, her response to it, inevitable and destined, later struck her as a sort of agreement to his assumption that there was nothing this display didn’t anticipate or resolve, and that the spark inside her might very well have been, more than anything else, the drive to provoke it. It made, for anything that followed, the third time since his return that he had drawn her to him; and now, holding her to his side as they left the room, he kept her close as they moved into the hall and across it, maintaining that closeness on their slow walk back to the rooms above. He had been right, overwhelmingly right, about the happiness of his tenderness and her emotional response, but even while she felt these things wipe everything else away, she experienced a kind of fear about the vulnerability they created in her. It remained, for her, that she definitely had something to do, and that she couldn’t be weak about this, but must instead be strong. Yet, for many hours afterward, she remained weak—if that was indeed weakness; although she firmly held onto her belief in her success, since her anxious attempt had been so unmistakably met.
She recovered soon enough on the whole, the sense that this left her Charlotte always to deal with—Charlotte who, at any rate, however SHE might meet overtures, must meet them, at the worst, more or less differently. Of that inevitability, of such other ranges of response as were open to Charlotte, Maggie took the measure in approaching her, on the morrow of her return from Matcham, with the same show of desire to hear all her story. She wanted the whole picture from her, as she had wanted it from her companion, and, promptly, in Eaton Square, whither, without the Prince, she repaired, almost ostentatiously, for the purpose, this purpose only, she brought her repeatedly back to the subject, both in her husband’s presence and during several scraps of independent colloquy. Before her father, instinctively, Maggie took the ground that his wish for interesting echoes would be not less than her own—allowing, that is, for everything his wife would already have had to tell him, for such passages, between them, as might have occurred since the evening before. Joining them after luncheon, reaching them, in her desire to proceed with the application of her idea, before they had quitted the breakfast-room, the scene of their mid-day meal, she referred, in her parent’s presence, to what she might have lost by delay, and expressed the hope that there would be an anecdote or two left for her to pick up. Charlotte was dressed to go out, and her husband, it appeared, rather positively prepared not to; he had left the table, but was seated near the fire with two or three of the morning papers and the residuum of the second and third posts on a stand beside him—more even than the usual extravagance, as Maggie’s glance made out, of circulars, catalogues, advertisements, announcements of sales, foreign envelopes and foreign handwritings that were as unmistakable as foreign clothes. Charlotte, at the window, looking into the side-street that abutted on the Square, might have been watching for their visitor’s advent before withdrawing; and in the light, strange and coloured, like that of a painted picture, which fixed the impression for her, objects took on values not hitherto so fully shown. It was the effect of her quickened sensibility; she knew herself again in presence of a problem, in need of a solution for which she must intensely work: that consciousness, lately born in her, had been taught the evening before to accept a temporary lapse, but had quickly enough again, with her getting out of her own house and her walking across half the town—for she had come from Portland Place on foot—found breath still in its lungs.
She recovered quickly overall, but the feeling that this left her with was always about Charlotte—Charlotte who, no matter how SHE might react to advances, would have to respond, at the very least, somewhat differently. This inevitability, along with the different ways Charlotte could respond, became clear to Maggie as she approached her on the day after returning from Matcham, eager to hear the whole story. She wanted the complete picture from Charlotte, just like she had wanted from her companion. Promptly, in Eaton Square, where she went without the Prince for that specific purpose, she brought up the topic multiple times, both in her husband’s presence and during various private conversations. In her father’s presence, Maggie instinctively assumed that his interest in interesting stories would be just as strong as hers—considering everything his wife would have already shared with him, and the conversations they might have had since the night before. After lunch, eager to continue with her idea before they left the breakfast room, she mentioned, while her parents were present, what she might have lost by waiting, expressing hope that there would still be a story or two left for her to hear. Charlotte was dressed to go out, while her husband seemed quite set on staying in; he had left the table but was sitting near the fire with a few of the morning papers and a pile of second and third-class mail beside him—more than his usual collection of circulars, catalogs, advertisements, sale announcements, foreign envelopes, and handwritings as unmistakable as foreign clothes. Charlotte, at the window, looking into the side street that bounded the Square, might have been watching for their visitor’s arrival before stepping away; and in the light, which was strange and colorful, like a painted picture, objects took on meanings not fully visible before. It was the effect of her heightened sensitivity; she recognized once again that she faced a problem needing a solution that she would have to work really hard to achieve: that new awareness, learned the evening before to tolerate a temporary pause, had quickly revived as she left her house and walked across half the city—having come from Portland Place on foot—still very much alive in her.
It exhaled this breath in a sigh, faint and unheard; her tribute, while she stood there before speaking, to realities looming through the golden mist that had already begun to be scattered. The conditions facing her had yielded, for the time, to the golden mist—had considerably melted away; but there they were again, definite, and it was for the next quarter of an hour as if she could have counted them one by one on her fingers. Sharp to her above all was the renewed attestation of her father’s comprehensive acceptances, which she had so long regarded as of the same quality with her own, but which, so distinctly now, she should have the complication of being obliged to deal with separately. They had not yet struck her as absolutely extraordinary—which had made for her lumping them with her own, since her view of her own had but so lately begun to change; though it instantly stood out for her that there was really no new judgment of them she should be able to show without attracting in some degree his attention, without perhaps exciting his surprise and making thereby, for the situation she shared with him, some difference. She was reminded and warned by the concrete image; and for a minute Charlotte’s face, immediately presented to her, affected her as searching her own to see the reminder tell. She had not less promptly kissed her stepmother, and then had bent over her father, from behind, and laid her cheek upon him; little amenities tantamount heretofore to an easy change of guard—Charlotte’s own frequent, though always cheerful, term of comparison for this process of transfer. Maggie figured thus as the relieving sentry, and so smoothly did use and custom work for them that her mate might even, on this occasion, after acceptance of the pass-word, have departed without irrelevant and, in strictness, unsoldierly gossip. This was not, none the less, what happened; inasmuch as if our young woman had been floated over her first impulse to break the existing charm at a stroke, it yet took her but an instant to sound, at any risk, the note she had been privately practising. If she had practised it the day before, at dinner, on Amerigo, she knew but the better how to begin for it with Mrs. Verver, and it immensely helped her, for that matter, to be able at once to speak of the Prince as having done more to quicken than to soothe her curiosity. Frankly and gaily she had come to ask—to ask what, in their unusually prolonged campaign, the two had achieved. She had got out of her husband, she admitted, what she could, but husbands were never the persons who answered such questions ideally. He had only made her more curious, and she had arrived early, this way, in order to miss as little as possible of Charlotte’s story.
It breathed out a quiet sigh, barely audible; her way of acknowledging the realities that loomed through the golden mist that was already starting to dissipate. The challenges she faced had, for the moment, faded into that golden mist—had mostly melted away; but now they were back, clear and present, and for the next fifteen minutes, it felt like she could count them one by one on her fingers. What struck her most was the renewed awareness of her father’s broad acceptance, which she had always thought matched her own, but now she realized she would have to deal with them as separate issues. They hadn’t yet seemed completely out of the ordinary to her—this had led her to lump them together with her own, since her perspective on her own had only recently begun to shift; although it quickly became clear to her that she wouldn’t be able to share a new perspective on them without drawing his attention, perhaps even surprising him and creating some shift in the situation they shared. The concrete image served as both a reminder and a warning; for a moment, the sight of Charlotte’s face made her feel like she was searching her own for that reminder. She promptly kissed her stepmother and then leaned over her father from behind, resting her cheek on him; small gestures that had previously been mere routine—Charlotte’s cheerful comparison for this transition. Maggie saw herself as the relieving sentry, and so seamlessly did their usual pattern work that her partner could have, on this occasion, after accepting the pass-word, left without irrelevant and, strictly speaking, unsoldierly chatter. However, that’s not what happened; although our young woman had floated above her first impulse to break the existing spell suddenly, it took her just a moment to risk sounding the note she had been privately practicing. If she had worked on it the day before at dinner with Amerigo, she knew just how to start with Mrs. Verver, and it really helped her to immediately talk about the Prince as someone who had sparked her curiosity more than calmed it. She candidly and cheerfully came to ask what the two had accomplished during their unusually long campaign. She admitted she got what she could from her husband, but husbands were never the best at answering such questions ideally. He had only made her more curious, and she had arrived early to make sure she missed as little of Charlotte’s story as possible.
“Wives, papa,” she said; “are always much better reporters—though I grant,” she added for Charlotte, “that fathers are not much better than husbands. He never,” she smiled, “tells me more than a tenth of what you tell him; so I hope you haven’t told him everything yet, since in that case I shall probably have lost the best part of it.” Maggie went, she went—she felt herself going; she reminded herself of an actress who had been studying a part and rehearsing it, but who suddenly, on the stage, before the footlights, had begun to improvise, to speak lines not in the text. It was this very sense of the stage and the footlights that kept her up, made her rise higher: just as it was the sense of action that logically involved some platform—action quite positively for the first time in her life, or, counting in the previous afternoon, for the second. The platform remained for three or four days thus sensibly under her feet, and she had all the while, with it, the inspiration of quite remarkably, of quite heroically improvising. Preparation and practice had come but a short way; her part opened out, and she invented from moment to moment what to say and to do. She had but one rule of art—to keep within bounds and not lose her head; certainly she might see for a week how far that would take her. She said to herself, in her excitement, that it was perfectly simple: to bring about a difference, touch by touch, without letting either of the three, and least of all her father, so much as suspect her hand. If they should suspect they would want a reason, and the humiliating truth was that she wasn’t ready with a reason—not, that is, with what she would have called a reasonable one. She thought of herself, instinctively, beautifully, as having dealt, all her life, at her father’s side and by his example, only in reasonable reasons; and what she would really have been most ashamed of would be to produce for HIM, in this line, some inferior substitute. Unless she were in a position to plead, definitely, that she was jealous she should be in no position to plead, decently, that she was dissatisfied. This latter condition would be a necessary implication of the former; without the former behind it it would HAVE to fall to the ground. So had the case, wonderfully, been arranged for her; there was a card she could play, but there was only one, and to play it would be to end the game. She felt herself—as at the small square green table, between the tall old silver candlesticks and the neatly arranged counters—her father’s playmate and partner; and what it constantly came back to, in her mind, was that for her to ask a question, to raise a doubt, to reflect in any degree on the play of the others, would be to break the charm. The charm she had to call it, since it kept her companion so constantly engaged, so perpetually seated and so contentedly occupied. To say anything at all would be, in fine, to have to say WHY she was jealous; and she could, in her private hours, but stare long, with suffused eyes, at that impossibility.
"Wives, Dad," she said, "are usually way better at sharing news—though I admit," she added while glancing at Charlotte, "that dads aren’t much better than husbands. He never," she smiled, "fills me in on more than a tenth of what you tell him; so I hope you haven’t shared everything yet, because if that’s the case, I’ll probably have missed out on the best parts." Maggie went on, she kept going—she felt herself moving forward; she thought of herself like an actress who had been rehearsing a role and studying her lines but suddenly, on stage, under the spotlight, started to improvise, saying lines not in the script. It was that very feeling of being on stage and in the spotlight that kept her motivated, made her rise higher: just like the sense of action that clearly implied some platform—action quite definitely for the first time in her life, or, if she counted the day before, for the second. This platform remained noticeably beneath her for three or four days, and throughout that time, she felt the thrill of creatively, and quite heroically, improvising. Preparation and practice had only taken her part so far; her role opened up, and she made up what to say and do moment by moment. She had just one rule of art—to stay grounded and not lose her cool; surely she could see for a week how far that would get her. In her excitement, she told herself that it was perfectly simple: to create a change, bit by bit, without any of the three—especially her dad—suspecting her influence. If they suspected, they would want an explanation, and the embarrassing truth was that she wasn’t ready with one—not, at least, with what she would consider a reasonable one. She thought of herself, instinctively, beautifully, as having operated, all her life, alongside her father and by his example, only with sensible reasons; and what she would have truly been most ashamed of would be to offer him, in this context, some lesser substitute. Unless she was in a position to argue, clearly, that she was jealous, she wouldn’t be able to argue, decently, that she was dissatisfied. This latter condition would logically follow from the former; without the first behind it, it would HAVE to fall apart. So, wonderfully, the situation had arranged itself for her; there was one card she could play, but only one, and playing it would mean ending the game. She felt like—at the small square green table, between the tall old silver candlesticks and the neatly arranged counters—her father’s partner and playmate; and what kept coming back to her was that for her to ask a question, to raise a doubt, to reflect even slightly on the actions of the others, would be to shatter the spell. She had to call it a spell, since it kept her companion so constantly engaged, so perpetually seated and blissfully occupied. To say anything at all would mean having to explain WHY she felt jealous; and in her quiet moments, she could only stare long, with teary eyes, at that impossibility.
By the end of a week, the week that had begun, especially, with her morning hour, in Eaton Square, between her father and his wife, her consciousness of being beautifully treated had become again verily greater than her consciousness of anything else; and I must add, moreover, that she at last found herself rather oddly wondering what else, as a consciousness, could have been quite so overwhelming. Charlotte’s response to the experiment of being more with her OUGHT, as she very well knew, to have stamped the experiment with the feeling of success; so that if the success itself seemed a boon less substantial than the original image of it, it enjoyed thereby a certain analogy with our young woman’s aftertaste of Amerigo’s own determined demonstrations. Maggie was to have retained, for that matter, more than one aftertaste, and if I have spoken of the impressions fixed in her as soon as she had, so insidiously, taken the field, a definite note must be made of her perception, during those moments, of Charlotte’s prompt uncertainty. She had shown, no doubt—she couldn’t not have shown—that she had arrived with an idea; quite exactly as she had shown her husband, the night before, that she was awaiting him with a sentiment. This analogy in the two situations was to keep up for her the remembrance of a kinship of expression in the two faces in respect to which all she as yet professed to herself was that she had affected them, or at any rate the sensibility each of them so admirably covered, in the same way. To make the comparison at all was, for Maggie, to return to it often, to brood upon it, to extract from it the last dregs of its interest—to play with it, in short, nervously, vaguely, incessantly, as she might have played with a medallion containing on either side a cherished little portrait and suspended round her neck by a gold chain of a firm fineness that no effort would ever snap. The miniatures were back to back, but she saw them forever face to face, and when she looked from one to the other she found in Charlotte’s eyes the gleam of the momentary “What does she really want?” that had come and gone for her in the Prince’s. So again, she saw the other light, the light touched into a glow both in Portland Place and in Eaton Square, as soon as she had betrayed that she wanted no harm—wanted no greater harm of Charlotte, that is, than to take in that she meant to go out with her. She had been present at that process as personally as she might have been present at some other domestic incident—the hanging of a new picture, say, or the fitting of the Principino with his first little trousers.
By the end of the week, the week that had started especially with her morning at Eaton Square, between her father and his wife, her awareness of being treated beautifully had truly become greater than her awareness of anything else. I should also mention that she found herself oddly wondering what else, as a feeling, could be so overwhelming. Charlotte’s reaction to the effort of being closer to her should, as she knew well, have marked the effort as a success; so, if the success itself felt less substantial than she had originally imagined, it did share a certain similarity with Maggie’s lingering feelings about Amerigo’s determined gestures. Maggie was going to keep more than one lingering impression, and while I have talked about the feelings established in her once she had, quite subtly, taken her stance, it’s important to note her observation during those moments of Charlotte’s quick uncertainty. She had definitely shown—she couldn't help but show—that she had come with a plan; just as she had shown her husband the night before that she was waiting for him with a feeling. This similarity between the two situations would keep alive for her the memory of a shared expression in the two faces, regarding which all she admitted to herself was that she had influenced them, or at least the sensitivity each of them so beautifully masked, in the same way. To even make the comparison was, for Maggie, to revisit it often, to ponder it, to wring out every bit of its intrigue—to play with it, in other words, nervously, vaguely, continuously, as she might have played with a medallion containing on either side a treasured little portrait, hanging around her neck with a gold chain so strong that no effort could ever break it. The miniatures were back to back, but she always saw them facing each other, and when she looked from one to the other, she found in Charlotte’s eyes the fleeting "What does she really want?" that had come and gone for her in the Prince’s. So again, she saw the other light, a light that sparked a glow both in Portland Place and in Eaton Square, as soon as she revealed that she meant no harm—wanted no greater harm for Charlotte, that is, than for her to understand that she intended to accompany her. She had witnessed that moment as closely as she might have been present for some other domestic event—the hanging of a new picture, for example, or the fitting of the Principino with his first little trousers.
She remained present, accordingly, all the week, so charmingly and systematically did Mrs. Verver now welcome her company. Charlotte had but wanted the hint, and what was it but the hint, after all, that, during the so subdued but so ineffaceable passage in the breakfast-room, she had seen her take? It had been taken moreover not with resignation, not with qualifications or reserves, however bland; it had been taken with avidity, with gratitude, with a grace of gentleness that supplanted explanations. The very liberality of this accommodation might indeed have appeared in the event to give its own account of the matter—as if it had fairly written the Princess down as a person of variations and had accordingly conformed but to a rule of tact in accepting these caprices for law. The caprice actually prevailing happened to be that the advent of one of the ladies anywhere should, till the fit had changed, become the sign, unfailingly, of the advent of the other; and it was emblazoned, in rich colour, on the bright face of this period, that Mrs. Verver only wished to know, on any occasion, what was expected of her, only held herself there for instructions, in order even to better them if possible. The two young women, while the passage lasted, became again very much the companions of other days, the days of Charlotte’s prolonged visits to the admiring and bountiful Maggie, the days when equality of condition for them had been all the result of the latter’s native vagueness about her own advantages. The earlier elements flushed into life again, the frequency, the intimacy, the high pitch of accompanying expression—appreciation, endearment, confidence; the rarer charm produced in each by this active contribution to the felicity of the other: all enhanced, furthermore—enhanced or qualified, who should say which?—by a new note of diplomacy, almost of anxiety, just sensible on Charlotte’s part in particular; of intensity of observance, in the matter of appeal and response, in the matter of making sure the Princess might be disposed or gratified, that resembled an attempt to play again, with more refinement, at disparity of relation. Charlotte’s attitude had, in short, its moments of flowering into pretty excesses of civility, self-effacements in the presence of others, sudden little formalisms of suggestion and recognition, that might have represented her sense of the duty of not “losing sight” of a social distinction. This impression came out most for Maggie when, in their easier intervals, they had only themselves to regard, and when her companion’s inveteracy of never passing first, of not sitting till she was seated, of not interrupting till she appeared to give leave, of not forgetting, too, familiarly, that in addition to being important she was also sensitive, had the effect of throwing over their intercourse a kind of silver tissue of decorum. It hung there above them like a canopy of state, a reminder that though the lady-in-waiting was an established favourite, safe in her position, a little queen, however, good-natured, was always a little queen and might, with small warning, remember it.
She stayed around all week because Mrs. Verver was so charming and welcoming. Charlotte just needed a hint, and that’s what she saw during that quiet but unforgettable moment in the breakfast room. It wasn’t taken reluctantly or with any hesitation, no matter how polite; it was taken eagerly, with gratitude, and a gentle grace that replaced the need for explanations. The very openness of this arrangement might have suggested that it showed who the Princess was—a person of variety—thus following a tactful rule of accepting these quirks as the norm. The current quirk was that whenever one of the women arrived, the other would inevitably follow until things changed, and it was clear during this time that Mrs. Verver only wanted to know what was expected of her. She was there to take instructions and even improve upon them if she could. The two young women, during this phase, became very much like the friends they were in the past, during Charlotte’s lengthy visits to the hospitable and generous Maggie, in a time when they were equals, thanks to Maggie’s natural tendency to overlook her own advantages. The earlier feelings came back to life—the frequency, the closeness, the heightened expressions of appreciation, affection, and trust; the rare charm they brought to each other’s happiness was heightened—whether enhanced or complicated, who could say?—by a new element of diplomacy, almost anxiety, particularly noticeable in Charlotte, as she carefully noticed how to appeal to and respond to the Princess, trying to navigate their relationship with more subtlety. Charlotte’s demeanor sometimes bloomed into excessive politeness, self-effacement in front of others, and sudden little formalities of suggestion and acknowledgment, as if she was aware of the importance of maintaining a social distinction. This impression was most apparent to Maggie during their more relaxed moments when they focused only on each other. Charlotte’s habit of never going first, of waiting until Maggie sat down, of not interrupting unless given a sign, and of remembering that Maggie was both important and sensitive created a kind of silver veil of decorum over their interactions. It hung over them like a royal canopy, reminding them that while the lady-in-waiting was a cherished favorite, safe in her position, a little queen—even a good-natured one—was always a little queen and could easily be reminded of it.
And yet another of these concomitants of feverish success, all the while, was the perception that in another quarter too things were being made easy. Charlotte’s alacrity in meeting her had, in one sense, operated slightly overmuch as an intervention: it had begun to reabsorb her at the very hour of her husband’s showing her that, to be all there, as the phrase was, he likewise only required—as one of the other phrases was too—the straight tip. She had heard him talk about the straight tip, in his moods of amusement at English slang, in his remarkable displays of assimilative power, power worthy of better causes and higher inspirations; and he had taken it from her, at need, in a way that, certainly in the first glow of relief, had made her brief interval seem large. Then, however, immediately, and even though superficially, there had declared itself a readjustment of relations to which she was, once more, practically a little sacrificed. “I must do everything,” she had said, “without letting papa see what I do—at least till it’s done!” but she scarce knew how she proposed, even for the next few days, to blind or beguile this participant in her life. What had in fact promptly enough happened, she presently recognised, was that if her stepmother had beautifully taken possession of her, and if she had virtually been rather snatched again thereby from her husband’s side, so, on the other hand, this had, with as little delay, entailed some very charming assistance for her in Eaton Square. When she went home with Charlotte, from whatever happy demonstration, for the benefit of the world in which they supposed themselves to live, that there was no smallest reason why their closer association shouldn’t be public and acclaimed—at these times she regularly found that Amerigo had come either to sit with his father-in-law in the absence of the ladies, or to make, on his side, precisely some such display of the easy working of the family life as would represent the equivalent of her excursions with Charlotte. Under this particular impression it was that everything in Maggie most melted and went to pieces—every thing, that is, that belonged to her disposition to challenge the perfection of their common state. It divided them again, that was true, this particular turn of the tide—cut them up afresh into pairs and parties; quite as if a sense for the equilibrium was what, between them all, had most power of insistence; quite as if Amerigo himself were all the while, at bottom, equally thinking of it and watching it. But, as against that, he was making her father not miss her, and he could have rendered neither of them a more excellent service. He was acting in short on a cue, the cue given him by observation; it had been enough for him to see the shade of change in her behaviour; his instinct for relations, the most exquisite conceivable, prompted him immediately to meet and match the difference, to play somehow into its hands. That was what it was, she renewedly felt, to have married a man who was, sublimely, a gentleman; so that, in spite of her not wanting to translate ALL their delicacies into the grossness of discussion, she yet found again and again, in Portland Place, moments for saying: “If I didn’t love you, you know, for yourself, I should still love you for HIM.” He looked at her, after such speeches, as Charlotte looked, in Eaton Square, when she called HER attention to his benevolence: through the dimness of the almost musing smile that took account of her extravagance, harmless though it might be, as a tendency to reckon with. “But my poor child,” Charlotte might under this pressure have been on the point of replying, “that’s the way nice people ARE, all round—so that why should one be surprised about it? We’re all nice together—as why shouldn’t we be? If we hadn’t been we wouldn’t have gone far—and I consider that we’ve gone very far indeed. Why should you ‘take on’ as if you weren’t a perfect dear yourself, capable of all the sweetest things?—as if you hadn’t in fact grown up in an atmosphere, the atmosphere of all the good things that I recognised, even of old, as soon as I came near you, and that you’ve allowed me now, between you, to make so blessedly my own.” Mrs. Verver might in fact have but just failed to make another point, a point charmingly natural to her as a grateful and irreproachable wife. “It isn’t a bit wonderful, I may also remind you, that your husband should find, when opportunity permits, worse things to do than to go about with mine. I happen, love, to appreciate my husband—I happen perfectly to understand that his acquaintance should be cultivated and his company enjoyed.”
And yet another result of this intense success was the feeling that, in another aspect, things were also being made easier. Charlotte’s eagerness to meet her had, in a way, intervened a bit too much: it had started to pull her back in just as her husband revealed that, to be fully present, he too only needed—another phrase used—some straightforward input. She had heard him discuss the straightforward input, in his playful moods about English slang, in his impressive ability to absorb ideas, a skill deserving of better causes and higher inspirations; and he had taken it from her, when necessary, in a way that, at that moment of relief, made her brief break seem significant. Then, however, right away, and even if only on the surface, the dynamics of their relationship shifted again, and she felt, once more, somewhat sacrificed. “I have to do everything,” she said, “without letting Dad see what I’m doing—at least until it’s done!” but she hardly knew how she planned to fool or distract this partner in her life for the next few days. What had actually happened, she soon realized, was that if her stepmother had beautifully taken control of her, and if she had effectively been pulled away from her husband’s side, this had also quickly provided some very delightful support for her in Eaton Square. When she went home with Charlotte, from whatever happy event they put on for the world they believed they belonged to, demonstrating that there was no reason why their closer connection shouldn’t be public and celebrated—at those moments she consistently found that Amerigo had come either to sit with his father-in-law during the ladies’ absence or to showcase the smooth functioning of family life, which mirrored her outings with Charlotte. Under this particular impression, everything in Maggie melted away—everything, that is, that inclined her to question the perfection of their shared life. This particular change did indeed create distance between them, dividing them into pairs and groups; just as if a sense of balance was what held the most weight between them all; just as if Amerigo himself were, all the while, quietly considering it and monitoring it. But against that, he was ensuring her father didn’t miss her, and he couldn’t have done a better job for either of them. In short, he was acting on a cue drawn from observation; it had been enough for him to notice the slight shift in her behavior; his exquisitely refined instinct for relationships immediately prompted him to respond and align with the change, to somehow work with it. That was what it felt like to have married a man who was, in every way, a true gentleman; so, despite her not wanting to express ALL their subtleties in blunt words, she continuously found moments in Portland Place to say: “If I didn’t love you for who you are, I would still love you for HIM.” He looked at her, after such declarations, just as Charlotte did in Eaton Square when she pointed out his kindness: with a soft, almost contemplative smile that acknowledged her extravagant feelings, harmless as they might be, as something to consider. “But my poor child,” Charlotte might have been ready to reply under the circumstances, “that’s just how nice people ARE, really—so why should anyone be surprised? We’re all nice to each other—why shouldn’t we be? If we weren’t, we wouldn’t have gotten very far—and I think we’ve come a long way. Why should you ‘worry’ as if you aren’t a perfect dear yourself, capable of all the sweetest things?—as if you didn’t grow up in an atmosphere of all the good things I recognized right away when I got close to you, and that you’ve allowed me to make so beautifully my own.” Mrs. Verver might have just failed to make an additional point, a point wonderfully natural for her as a grateful and unimpeachable wife. “It’s not surprising, I should remind you, that your husband might find, when the chance arises, that there are better things to do than hanging out with mine. I happen to appreciate my husband—I happen to understand perfectly that his friendships should be nurtured and his company valued.”
Some such happily-provoked remarks as these, from Charlotte, at the other house, had been in the air, but we have seen how there was also in the air, for our young woman, as an emanation from the same source, a distilled difference of which the very principle was to keep down objections and retorts. That impression came back—it had its hours of doing so; and it may interest us on the ground of its having prompted in Maggie a final reflection, a reflection out of the heart of which a light flashed for her like a great flower grown in a night. As soon as this light had spread a little it produced in some quarters a surprising distinctness, made her of a sudden ask herself why there should have been even for three days the least obscurity. The perfection of her success, decidedly, was like some strange shore to which she had been noiselessly ferried and where, with a start, she found herself quaking at the thought that the boat might have put off again and left her. The word for it, the word that flashed the light, was that they were TREATING her, that they were proceeding with her—and, for that matter, with her father—by a plan that was the exact counterpart of her own. It was not from her that they took their cue, but—and this was what in particular made her sit up—from each other; and with a depth of unanimity, an exact coincidence of inspiration that, when once her attention had begun to fix it, struck her as staring out at her in recovered identities of behaviour, expression and tone. They had a view of her situation, and of the possible forms her own consciousness of it might take—a view determined by the change of attitude they had had, ever so subtly, to recognise in her on their return from Matcham. They had had to read into this small and all-but-suppressed variation a mute comment—on they didn’t quite know what; and it now arched over the Princess’s head like a vault of bold span that important communication between them on the subject couldn’t have failed of being immediate. This new perception bristled for her, as we have said, with odd intimations, but questions unanswered played in and out of it as well—the question, for instance, of why such promptitude of harmony SHOULD have been important. Ah, when she began to recover, piece by piece, the process became lively; she might have been picking small shining diamonds out of the sweepings of her ordered house. She bent, in this pursuit, over her dust-bin; she challenged to the last grain the refuse of her innocent economy. Then it was that the dismissed vision of Amerigo, that evening, in arrest at the door of her salottino while her eyes, from her placed chair, took him in—then it was that this immense little memory gave out its full power. Since the question was of doors, she had afterwards, she now saw, shut it out; she had responsibly shut in, as we have understood, shut in there with her sentient self, only the fact of his reappearance and the plenitude of his presence. These things had been testimony, after all, to supersede any other, for on the spot, even while she looked, the warmly-washing wave had travelled far up the strand. She had subsequently lived, for hours she couldn’t count, under the dizzying, smothering welter positively in submarine depths where everything came to her through walls of emerald and mother-of-pearl; though indeed she had got her head above them, for breath, when face to face with Charlotte again, on the morrow, in Eaton Square. Meanwhile, none the less, as was so apparent, the prior, the prime impression had remained, in the manner of a spying servant, on the other side of the barred threshold; a witness availing himself, in time, of the lightest pretext to re-enter. It was as if he had found this pretext in her observed necessity of comparing—comparing the obvious common elements in her husband’s and her stepmother’s ways of now “taking” her. With or without her witness, at any rate, she was led by comparison to a sense of the quantity of earnest intention operating, and operating so harmoniously, between her companions; and it was in the mitigated midnight of these approximations that she had made out the promise of her dawn.
Some comments from Charlotte at the other house had been floating around, but we’ve noticed there was also something else in the air for our young woman—a subtle difference that was meant to suppress objections and responses. That feeling returned—it would pop up at intervals; and it might be interesting to note that it prompted a final thought in Maggie, a thought out of which a light suddenly bloomed for her like a beautiful flower blooming overnight. Once this light began to spread, it caught her off guard and made her wonder why there had even been a hint of confusion for those three days. The perfection of her success felt like a strange new shore she had quietly been brought to, and suddenly she found herself trembling at the idea that the boat might have left her behind. The realization that sparked this light was that they were TREATING her, that they were proceeding with her—and, for that matter, with her father—according to a plan that exactly mirrored her own. They weren’t taking cues from her, but—and this particularly made her sit up—from each other; and with a level of agreement and an exact coincidence of feelings that, as soon as she focused on it, struck her in the familiar ways of behavior, expression, and tone. They had a perspective on her situation and the possible ways her own understanding of it could unfold—a perspective determined by the subtle change in how they recognized her when they returned from Matcham. They had to interpret this small, nearly unnoticeable shift as a silent comment—on something they weren’t quite sure of; and now it loomed over the Princess like a bold arch, suggesting that their important communication on the subject couldn’t have been delayed. This new insight came with odd hints, but questions without answers also floated in and out of it—the question, for instance, of why such quick harmony mattered. Oh, as she started to piece things together, the process became vibrant; it was like picking up small sparkling diamonds from the floor of her tidy home. She bent down over her dustbin, scrutinizing every little bit of the remnants of her innocent life. Then it was that the image of Amerigo, standing at the door of her cozy living room that evening while she took him in from her chair, suddenly unleashed its full impact. Since we were discussing doors, she realized she had shut it out; she had intentionally kept in there with her aware self only the fact of his return and the fullness of his presence. These elements had been enough to overshadow anything else, for right there, even while she looked, the warm, washing wave had surged far up the beach. She had lived for hours she couldn’t count in a dizzying, smothering place, almost submerged, where everything reached her through walls of emerald and mother-of-pearl; though she had managed to lift her head for air when she faced Charlotte again the next day in Eaton Square. Meanwhile, it was clear that the original, dominant impression lingered, like a watchful servant, on the other side of the barred threshold; a witness ready to seize any opportunity to re-enter. It was as if he had found this opportunity in her observed need to compare—the similarities in how her husband and her stepmother were now “dealing” with her. Regardless of having her witness, she was led by comparison to understand the significant intent working between her companions so harmoniously; and it was in the softened twilight of these realizations that she had glimpsed the promise of her dawn.
It was a worked-out scheme for their not wounding her, for their behaving to her quite nobly; to which each had, in some winning way, induced the other to contribute, and which therefore, so far as that went, proved that she had become with them a subject of intimate study. Quickly, quickly, on a certain alarm taken, eagerly and anxiously, before they SHOULD, without knowing it, wound her, they had signalled from house to house their clever idea, the idea by which, for all these days, her own idea had been profiting. They had built her in with their purpose—which was why, above her, a vault seemed more heavily to arch; so that she sat there, in the solid chamber of her helplessness, as in a bath of benevolence artfully prepared for her, over the brim of which she could but just manage to see by stretching her neck. Baths of benevolence were very well, but, at least, unless one were a patient of some sort, a nervous eccentric or a lost child, one was usually not so immersed save by one’s request. It wasn’t in the least what she had requested. She had flapped her little wings as a symbol of desired flight, not merely as a plea for a more gilded cage and an extra allowance of lumps of sugar. Above all she hadn’t complained, not by the quaver of a syllable—so what wound in particular had she shown her fear of receiving? What wound HAD she received—as to which she had exchanged the least word with them? If she had ever whined or moped they might have had some reason; but she would be hanged—she conversed with herself in strong language—if she had been, from beginning to end, anything but pliable and mild. It all came back, in consequence, to some required process of their own, a process operating, quite positively, as a precaution and a policy. They had got her into the bath and, for consistency with themselves—which was with each other—must keep her there. In that condition she wouldn’t interfere with the policy, which was established, which was arranged. Her thought, over this, arrived at a great intensity—had indeed its pauses and timidities, but always to take afterwards a further and lighter spring. The ground was well-nigh covered by the time she had made out her husband and his colleague as directly interested in preventing her freedom of movement. Policy or no policy, it was they themselves who were arranged. She must be kept in position so as not to DISarrange them. It fitted immensely together, the whole thing, as soon as she could give them a motive; for, strangely as it had by this time begun to appear to herself, she had hitherto not imagined them sustained by an ideal distinguishably different from her own. Of course they were arranged—all four arranged; but what had the basis of their life been, precisely, but that they were arranged together? Amerigo and Charlotte were arranged together, but she—to confine the matter only to herself—was arranged apart. It rushed over her, the full sense of all this, with quite another rush from that of the breaking wave of ten days before; and as her father himself seemed not to meet the vaguely-clutching hand with which, during the first shock of complete perception, she tried to steady herself, she felt very much alone.
It was a carefully planned scheme for them not to hurt her, for them to treat her nobly; each had, in some charming way, encouraged the other to participate, which showed that she had become a subject of close observation for them. Quickly, at the first sign of alarm, eager and anxious, before they accidentally hurt her without realizing it, they signaled from house to house their clever idea—the idea that had benefited her during all these days. They had trapped her in their purpose—which is why, above her, the ceiling felt darker; so that she sat there, in the solid chamber of her helplessness, like she was in a pool of carefully prepared kindness, just able to see over the edge if she stretched her neck. Pools of kindness are nice and all, but typically, unless someone is a patient of some sort, a nervous eccentric, or a lost child, people don’t often end up in them without asking for it. This wasn't at all what she had asked for. She had flapped her little wings as a sign of wanting to fly, not just as a request for a fancier cage and more treats. Above all, she hadn't complained, not even the slightest hint—so what particular pain had she shown her fear of experiencing? What pain HAD she experienced about which she had said not a word to them? If she had ever whined or sulked, they might have had some reason; but she would be damned—she thought to herself in strong terms—if she had been anything but adaptable and gentle from start to finish. It all came back, then, to some necessary process of their own, operating positively as a precaution and a policy. They had gotten her into the pool and, for the sake of consistency with themselves—which was also consistency with each other—had to keep her there. In that state, she wouldn’t disrupt their policy, which was established and organized. Her thoughts on this reached a great intensity—had indeed its pauses and hesitations, but always rebounded after into a lighter spring. By the time she figured out her husband and his colleague were directly interested in restricting her freedom of movement, the ground was almost fully covered. Policy or no policy, it was they themselves who were arranged. She had to be kept in place to avoid unsettling them. The whole thing fit together immensely, as soon as she could find a motive for them; for, strangely as it had begun to appear to her by this time, she hadn’t thought of them as being supported by an ideal noticeably different from her own. Of course they were organized—all four of them arranged; but what had been the foundation of their lives, specifically, except that they were arranged together? Amerigo and Charlotte were arranged together, but she—to limit the matter to herself—was arranged apart. It rushed over her, the complete awareness of all this, with a very different wave from the one that had crashed down on her ten days before; and since her father himself didn’t meet the vaguely grasping hand with which, during the initial shock of total realization, she tried to steady herself, she felt very much alone.
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There had been, from far back—that is from the Christmas time on—a plan that the parent and the child should “do something lovely” together, and they had recurred to it on occasion, nursed it and brought it up theoretically, though without as yet quite allowing it to put its feet to the ground. The most it had done was to try a few steps on the drawing-room carpet, with much attendance, on either side, much holding up and guarding, much anticipation, in fine, of awkwardness or accident. Their companions, by the same token, had constantly assisted at the performance, following the experiment with sympathy and gaiety, and never so full of applause, Maggie now made out for herself, as when the infant project had kicked its little legs most wildly—kicked them, for all the world, across the Channel and half the Continent, kicked them over the Pyrenees and innocently crowed out some rich Spanish name. She asked herself at present if it had been a “real” belief that they were but wanting, for some such adventure, to snatch their moment; whether either had at any instant seen it as workable, save in the form of a toy to dangle before the other, that they should take flight, without wife or husband, for one more look, “before they died,” at the Madrid pictures as well as for a drop of further weak delay in respect to three or four possible prizes, privately offered, rarities of the first water, responsibly reported on and profusely photographed, still patiently awaiting their noiseless arrival in retreats to which the clue had not otherwise been given away. The vision dallied with during the duskier days in Eaton Square had stretched to the span of three or four weeks of springtime for the total adventure, three or four weeks in the very spirit, after all, of their regular life, as their regular life had been persisting; full of shared mornings, afternoons, evenings, walks, drives, “looks-in,” at old places, on vague chances; full also, in especial, of that purchased social ease, the sense of the comfort and credit of their house, which had essentially the perfection of something paid for, but which “came,” on the whole, so cheap that it might have been felt as costing—as costing the parent and child—nothing. It was for Maggie to wonder, at present, if she had been sincere about their going, to ask herself whether she would have stuck to their plan even if nothing had happened.
There had been, going back a while—that is, since Christmas—a plan for the parent and the child to “do something wonderful” together. They had mentioned it occasionally, nurtured it and discussed it theoretically, although they hadn’t quite allowed it to take shape yet. The most it had done was to take a few tentative steps on the drawing-room carpet, with plenty of support on either side, lots of holding up and caution, and a lot of anticipation for potential awkwardness or accidents. Their friends, meanwhile, had consistently cheered them on, showing sympathy and joy, and Maggie now realized that they had applauded the loudest when the little idea seemed to kick its legs the hardest—kicking them, it felt, all the way across the Channel and half the continent, even kicking over the Pyrenees and joyfully calling out some fancy Spanish name. She wondered now if they actually believed that all they needed was to seize the moment for an adventure; whether either of them had ever truly seen it as a real possibility, other than as a playful idea to dangle in front of each other, to take off—without spouses—for one last look, “before they died,” at the paintings in Madrid, along with a chance to grab a few rare items, privately offered, valuable treasures that had been thoroughly reviewed and extensively photographed, still patiently waiting for their silent arrival in places whose locations hadn’t been made known. The daydream they’d indulged during the darker days in Eaton Square had expanded into the idea of three or four weeks of spring for the entire adventure, weeks that, after all, mirrored their regular life, which had continued to feel like it had always been—full of shared mornings, afternoons, evenings, walks, drives, and visits to familiar spots on the off chance; particularly rich in that bought social ease, the comfort and status of their home, which had the smoothness of something paid for, yet “came,” overall, so inexpensively that it felt as if it cost—at least for the parent and child—nothing at all. Now Maggie found herself wondering if she had genuinely wanted to go through with their plans, questioning whether she would have stuck to it even if nothing had come of it.
Her view of the impossibility of sticking to it now may give us the measure of her sense that everything had happened. A difference had been made in her relation to each of her companions, and what it compelled her to say to herself was that to behave as she might have behaved before would be to act, for Amerigo and Charlotte, with the highest hypocrisy. She saw in these days that a journey abroad with her father would, more than anything else, have amounted, on his part and her own, to a last expression of an ecstasy of confidence, and that the charm of the idea, in fact, had been in some such sublimity. Day after day she put off the moment of “speaking,” as she inwardly and very comprehensively, called it—speaking, that is, to her father; and all the more that she was ridden by a strange suspense as to his himself breaking silence. She gave him time, gave him, during several days, that morning, that noon, that night, and the next and the next and the next; even made up her mind that if he stood off longer it would be proof conclusive that he too wasn’t at peace. They would then have been, all successfully, throwing dust in each other’s eyes; and it would be at last as if they must turn away their faces, since the silver mist that protected them had begun to grow sensibly thin. Finally, at the end of April, she decided that if he should say nothing for another period of twenty-four hours she must take it as showing that they were, in her private phraseology, lost; so little possible sincerity could there be in pretending to care for a journey to Spain at the approach of a summer that already promised to be hot. Such a proposal, on his lips, such an extravagance of optimism, would be HIS way of being consistent—for that he didn’t really want to move, or to move further, at the worst, than back to Fawns again, could only signify that he wasn’t, at heart, contented. What he wanted, at any rate, and what he didn’t want were, in the event, put to the proof for Maggie just in time to give her a fresh wind. She had been dining, with her husband, in Eaton Square, on the occasion of hospitality offered by Mr. and Mrs. Verver to Lord and Lady Castledean. The propriety of some demonstration of this sort had been for many days before our group, the question reduced to the mere issue of which of the two houses should first take the field. The issue had been easily settled—in the manner of every issue referred in any degree to Amerigo and Charlotte: the initiative obviously belonged to Mrs. Verver, who had gone to Matcham while Maggie had stayed away, and the evening in Eaton Square might have passed for a demonstration all the more personal that the dinner had been planned on “intimate” lines. Six other guests only, in addition to the host and the hostess of Matcham, made up the company, and each of these persons had for Maggie the interest of an attested connection with the Easter revels at that visionary house. Their common memory of an occasion that had clearly left behind it an ineffaceable charm—this air of beatific reference, less subdued in the others than in Amerigo and Charlotte, lent them, together, an inscrutable comradeship against which the young woman’s imagination broke in a small vain wave.
Her view that it’s impossible to go back now might show how much she felt everything had changed. Her relationship with each of her friends was different, and it forced her to realize that acting as she might have in the past would be pure hypocrisy towards Amerigo and Charlotte. Lately, she understood that a trip abroad with her father would, more than anything else, have been their last expression of deep trust, and the appeal of the idea lay in that kind of greatness. Day after day, she delayed the moment of “speaking,” as she called it in her mind—speaking to her father. She felt a strange suspense, hoping he would break the silence first. She gave him time; she waited several days—morning, noon, night, and the next, and the next. She even decided that if he stayed silent any longer, it would mean he wasn’t at peace either. They would have successfully been deceiving each other, and it would finally be as if they had to look away since the protective silver mist around them had started to thin. By the end of April, she resolved that if he didn’t say anything in the next twenty-four hours, it would mean they were, in her own words, lost; there could be no real sincerity in pretending to want a trip to Spain with summer approaching and already promising to be hot. Such a suggestion from him would be his way of trying to stay consistent—his lack of desire to go anywhere besides back to Fawns only signified that he wasn’t truly content. What he wanted and didn’t want became clear to Maggie just in time to refresh her perspective. She had been dining with her husband in Eaton Square, hosted by Mr. and Mrs. Verver for Lord and Lady Castledean. The need for some kind of gathering had been a topic among their group for days, with the only question being which of the two houses should host first. The decision had been easily made—typical for situations involving Amerigo and Charlotte: Mrs. Verver, who had gone to Matcham while Maggie had stayed away, clearly had the initiative, and the evening in Eaton Square felt more personal since the dinner was planned on “intimate” terms. There were only six other guests besides the hosts of Matcham, and each of them held a special interest for Maggie due to their connection to the Easter festivities at that fabled house. Their shared memory of an event that had obviously left a lasting charm—this blissful memory, less muted in the others than in Amerigo and Charlotte—gave them an unexplainable bond against which the young woman’s imagination crashed like a small, futile wave.
It wasn’t that she wished she had been of the remembered party and possessed herself of its secrets; for she didn’t care about its secrets—she could concern herself at present, absolutely, with no secret but her own. What occurred was simply that she became aware, at a stroke, of the quantity of further nourishment required by her own, and of the amount of it she might somehow extract from these people; whereby she rose, of a sudden, to the desire to possess and use them, even to the extent of braving, of fairly defying, of directly exploiting, of possibly quite enjoying, under cover of an evil duplicity, the felt element of curiosity with which they regarded her. Once she was conscious of the flitting wing of this last impression—the perception, irresistible, that she was something for their queer experience, just as they were something for hers—there was no limit to her conceived design of not letting them escape. She went and went, again, to-night, after her start was taken; went, positively, as she had felt herself going, three weeks before, on the morning when the vision of her father and his wife awaiting her together in the breakfast-room had been so determinant. In this other scene it was Lady Castledean who was determinant, who kindled the light, or at all events the heat, and who acted on the nerves; Lady Castledean whom she knew she, so oddly, didn’t like, in spite of reasons upon reasons, the biggest diamonds on the yellowest hair, the longest lashes on the prettiest, falsest eyes, the oldest lace on the most violet velvet, the rightest manner on the wrongest assumption. Her ladyship’s assumption was that she kept, at every moment of her life, every advantage—it made her beautifully soft, very nearly generous; so she didn’t distinguish the little protuberant eyes of smaller social insects, often endowed with such a range, from the other decorative spots on their bodies and wings. Maggie had liked, in London, and in the world at large, so many more people than she had thought it right to fear, right even to so much as judge, that it positively quickened her fever to have to recognise, in this case, such a lapse of all the sequences. It was only that a charming clever woman wondered about her—that is wondered about her as Amerigo’s wife, and wondered, moreover, with the intention of kindness and the spontaneity, almost, of surprise.
She didn’t wish she had been part of the remembered group or held its secrets; she didn’t care about those secrets—right now, the only secret she was focused on was her own. What happened was that she suddenly realized how much more she needed from herself and how much she could possibly get from these people; this sparked a desire to possess and use them, even to the point of daring, defying, directly exploiting, and maybe even enjoying the curiosity they felt toward her. Once she sensed this last impression—that she was something for their unusual experience just as they were something for hers—there was no limit to her plans for not letting them go. That night, she went after her initial impulse; she moved forward just as she had felt herself moving three weeks earlier, when the image of her father and his wife together in the breakfast room had been so definitive. In this scenario, it was Lady Castledean who was crucial, who ignited the light, or at least the heat, and who triggered her nerves; Lady Castledean, whom she oddly didn’t like, despite many reasons—those enormous diamonds in the richest blonde hair, the longest lashes on the prettiest, most deceptive eyes, the oldest lace on the most vibrant velvet, the proper demeanor on the most misguided assumption. Her ladyship assumed that she held every advantage at all times—it made her beautifully soft, almost generous; so she didn’t distinguish the small, pokey eyes of lesser social creatures, often with such a range, from other decorative features on their bodies and wings. Maggie had liked so many more people in London and in the wider world than she felt it was right to fear or judge, which intensified her frustration at recognizing such a break in that pattern in this case. It was simply that a charming, clever woman was curious about her—that is, curious about her as Amerigo’s wife and curious with a kind intention and almost a sense of surprise.
The point of view—that one—was what she read in their free contemplation, in that of the whole eight; there was something in Amerigo to be explained, and she was passed about, all tenderly and expertly, like a dressed doll held, in the right manner, by its firmly-stuffed middle, for the account she could give. She might have been made to give it by pressure of her stomach; she might have been expected to articulate, with a rare imitation of nature, “Oh yes, I’m HERE all the while; I’m also in my way a solid little fact and I cost originally a great deal of money: cost, that is, my father, for my outfit, and let in my husband for an amount of pains—toward my training—that money would scarce represent.” Well, she WOULD meet them in some such way, and she translated her idea into action, after dinner, before they dispersed, by engaging them all, unconventionally, almost violently, to dine with her in Portland Place, just as they were, if they didn’t mind the same party, which was the party she wanted. Oh she was going, she was going—she could feel it afresh; it was a good deal as if she had sneezed ten times or had suddenly burst into a comic song. There were breaks in the connection, as there would be hitches in the process; she didn’t wholly see, yet, what they would do for her, nor quite how, herself, she should handle them; but she was dancing up and down, beneath her propriety, with the thought that she had at least begun something—she so fairly liked to feel that she was a point for convergence of wonder. It wasn’t after all, either, that THEIR wonder so much signified—that of the cornered six, whom it glimmered before her that she might still live to drive about like a flock of sheep: the intensity of her consciousness, its sharpest savour, was in the theory of her having diverted, having, as they said, captured the attention of Amerigo and Charlotte, at neither of whom, all the while, did she so much as once look. She had pitched them in with the six, for that matter, so far as they themselves were concerned; they had dropped, for the succession of minutes, out of contact with their function—had, in short, startled and impressed, abandoned their post. “They’re paralysed, they’re paralysed!” she commented, deep within; so much it helped her own apprehension to hang together that they should suddenly lose their bearings.
The perspective—that one—was what she noticed in their relaxed observations, among all eight of them; there was something about Amerigo that needed explaining, and she was handed around, all gently and skillfully, like a dressed-up doll held properly by its stuffed middle, waiting for the account she could provide. It was as if she was expected to express, with a rare imitation of reality, “Oh yes, I’m HERE all the time; I’m also, in my way, a solid little fact and I originally cost a lot of money: that is, my father spent on my outfit, and my husband invested effort—toward my training—that money could hardly represent.” Well, she WOULD respond to them in some way like that, and she turned her idea into action, after dinner, before they left, by inviting them all, casually, almost aggressively, to dinner with her in Portland Place, just as they were, if they didn’t mind the same group, which was the group she wanted. Oh, she was going, she was going—she could feel it again; it was a lot like she had sneezed ten times or had suddenly started singing a funny song. There were interruptions in the connection, as there would be bumps in the process; she didn’t fully see yet what they would do for her, nor quite how she should handle them; but she was bubbling with excitement beneath her composed exterior, thrilled that she had at least started something—she really liked feeling that she was a point of fascination. It wasn’t really that THEIR fascination mattered too much—that of the six who felt cornered, whom she sensed she might still direct like a flock of sheep: the intensity of her awareness, its sharpest flavor, was in the idea of having diverted, as they said, captured the attention of Amerigo and Charlotte, neither of whom did she look at even once. She had included them with the six, for that matter, as far as they themselves were concerned; they had dropped, for those few minutes, out of touch with their role—had, in short, been startled and impressed, abandoning their positions. “They’re frozen, they’re frozen!” she thought to herself; it helped her own understanding to stay intact that they should suddenly lose their sense of direction.
Her grasp of appearances was thus out of proportion to her view of causes; but it came to her then and there that if she could only get the facts of appearance straight, only jam them down into their place, the reasons lurking behind them, kept uncertain, for the eyes, by their wavering and shifting, wouldn’t perhaps be able to help showing. It wasn’t of course that the Prince and Mrs. Verver marvelled to see her civil to their friends; it was rather, precisely, that civil was just what she wasn’t: she had so departed from any such custom of delicate approach—approach by the permitted note, the suggested “if,” the accepted vagueness—as would enable the people in question to put her off if they wished. And the profit of her plan, the effect of the violence she was willing to let it go for, was exactly in their BEING the people in question, people she had seemed to be rather shy of before and for whom she suddenly opened her mouth so wide. Later on, we may add, with the ground soon covered by her agitated but resolute step, it was to cease to matter what people they were or weren’t; but meanwhile the particular sense of them that she had taken home to-night had done her the service of seeming to break the ice where that formation was thickest. Still more unexpectedly, the service might have been the same for her father; inasmuch as, immediately, when everyone had gone, he did exactly what she had been waiting for and despairing of—and did it, as he did everything, with a simplicity that left any purpose of sounding him deeper, of drawing him out further, of going, in his own frequent phrase, “behind” what he said, nothing whatever to do. He brought it out straight, made it bravely and beautifully irrelevant, save for the plea of what they should lose by breaking the charm: “I guess we won’t go down there after all, will we, Mag?—just when it’s getting so pleasant here.” That was all, with nothing to lead up to it; but it was done for her at a stroke, and done, not less, more rather, for Amerigo and Charlotte, on whom the immediate effect, as she secretly, as she almost breathlessly measured it, was prodigious. Everything now so fitted for her to everything else that she could feel the effect as prodigious even while sticking to her policy of giving the pair no look. There were thus some five wonderful minutes during which they loomed, to her sightless eyes, on either side of her, larger than they had ever loomed before, larger than life, larger than thought, larger than any danger or any safety. There was thus a space of time, in fine, fairly vertiginous for her, during which she took no more account of them than if they were not in the room.
Her understanding of appearances was therefore out of sync with her understanding of the underlying causes. But it occurred to her at that moment that if she could just get the facts of appearance straight and forcefully fit them into place, the reasons hidden behind them—made unclear by their flickering and shifting—might end up showing through. It wasn’t that the Prince and Mrs. Verver were surprised to see her polite to their friends; it was more that polite was exactly what she wasn’t. She had completely moved away from any customary delicate approach—approaching with a permissible tone, a suggested “if,” an accepted vagueness—allowing the people involved to dismiss her if they wanted. The advantage of her plan, and the impact of the boldness she was willing to pursue, came from them actually being those specific people, individuals she had seemed a bit hesitant around before, and for whom she suddenly opened up so much. Later on, we might add, as she moved forward with an agitated but determined stride, it wouldn’t matter who they were or weren’t; but for now, the particular sense of them that she had taken home tonight had helped break the ice where it was thickest. Even more unexpectedly, this could have helped her father too; because, as soon as everyone had left, he did exactly what she had been hoping for and feeling hopeless about—and he did it, as he did everything, with a simplicity that made any effort to dig deeper, to draw him out more, or to go, in his frequent words, "behind" what he said, completely pointless. He stated it directly, making it boldly and beautifully irrelevant, apart from the concern of what they would lose by breaking the spell: “I guess we won’t go down there after all, will we, Mag?—just when it’s getting so nice here.” That was it, with no buildup; but it was done for her in an instant, and done, even more so, for Amerigo and Charlotte, on whom the immediate impact, as she secretly and almost breathlessly assessed it, was tremendous. Everything now connected so well that she could sense the impact as immense even while sticking to her plan of not giving the couple any glance. There were about five extraordinary minutes during which they stood, in her unseeing eyes, on either side of her, larger than they had ever appeared before, larger than life, larger than thought, larger than any danger or safety. In summary, there was a span of time that was quite dizzying for her, during which she paid no more attention to them than if they weren’t even in the room.
She had never, never treated them in any such way—not even just now, when she had plied her art upon the Matcham band; her present manner was an intenser exclusion, and the air was charged with their silence while she talked with her other companion as if she had nothing but him to consider. He had given her the note amazingly, by his allusion to the pleasantness—that of such an occasion as his successful dinner—which might figure as their bribe for renouncing; so that it was all as if they were speaking selfishly, counting on a repetition of just such extensions of experience. Maggie achieved accordingly an act of unprecedented energy, threw herself into her father’s presence as by the absolute consistency with which she held his eyes; saying to herself, at the same time that she smiled and talked and inaugurated her system, “What does he mean by it? That’s the question—what does he mean?” but studying again all the signs in him that recent anxiety had made familiar and counting the stricken minutes on the part of the others. It was in their silence that the others loomed, as she felt; she had had no measure, she afterwards knew, of this duration, but it drew out and out—really to what would have been called in simpler conditions awkwardness—as if she herself were stretching the cord. Ten minutes later, however, in the homeward carriage, to which her husband, cutting delay short, had proceeded at the first announcement, ten minutes later she was to stretch it almost to breaking. The Prince had permitted her to linger much less, before his move to the door, than they usually lingered at the gossiping close of such evenings; which she, all responsive, took for a sign of his impatience to modify for her the odd effect of his not having, and of Charlotte’s not having, instantly acclaimed the issue of the question debated, or more exactly, settled, before them. He had had time to become aware of this possible impression in her, and his virtually urging her into the carriage was connected with his feeling that he must take action on the new ground. A certain ambiguity in her would absolutely have tormented him; but he had already found something to soothe and correct—as to which she had, on her side, a shrewd notion of what it would be. She was herself, for that matter, prepared, and she was, of a truth, as she took her seat in the brougham, amazed at her preparation. It allowed her scarce an interval; she brought it straight out.
She had never, ever treated them that way—not even just now, when she had engaged with the Matcham band; her current behavior was a stronger exclusion, and the atmosphere was thick with their silence while she conversed with her other companion as if he were the only one that mattered. He had surprisingly given her the note by hinting at the enjoyment of such an occasion as his successful dinner, which could serve as their incentive for giving up; it felt as if they were speaking selfishly, hoping for a repeat of such experiences. Maggie thus took an unprecedented action, stepping into her father’s presence with a determination that held his gaze; at the same time she smiled and chatted and started her plan, she thought to herself, “What does he mean by that? That’s the question—what does he mean?” while analyzing all the signals in him that recent stress had made familiar and counting the tense moments from the others' side. In their silence, the others became more prominent to her; she later realized she had no real sense of how long it had gone on, but it stretched on—really to what would normally have been considered awkward—as if she were stretching a string. Ten minutes later, however, in the carriage on the way home, which her husband had hurried into at the first chance, she would stretch that string nearly to breaking point. The Prince had allowed her to linger much less before he moved to the door than they typically did at the chatty end of such evenings; she took this, all responsive, as a sign of his eagerness to change the odd feeling that he and Charlotte hadn’t immediately celebrated the resolution of the discussed issue. He had become aware of the impression this might leave on her, and his almost pushing her into the carriage was tied to his sense that he needed to act on this new situation. Any uncertainty in her would have really bothered him; but he had already found something to calm and correct—which she had a sharp sense of what it would be. For that matter, she was ready, and truly, as she took her seat in the carriage, she was surprised at how prepared she was. It gave her hardly any time; she brought it up directly.
“I was certain that was what father would say if I should leave him alone. I HAVE been leaving him alone, and you see the effect. He hates now to move—he likes too much to be with us. But if you see the effect”—she felt herself magnificently keeping it up—“perhaps you don’t see the cause. The cause, my dear, is too lovely.”
“I was sure that’s what Dad would say if I left him alone. I HAVE been leaving him alone, and you can see the effect. He hates to move now—he loves being with us too much. But if you see the effect”—she felt like she was doing a great job of holding it together—“maybe you don’t see the cause. The cause, my dear, is too wonderful.”
Her husband, on taking his place beside her, had, during a minute or two, for her watching sense, neither said nor done anything; he had been, for that sense, as if thinking, waiting, deciding: yet it was still before he spoke that he, as she felt it to be, definitely acted. He put his arm round her and drew her close—indulged in the demonstration, the long, firm embrace by his single arm, the infinite pressure of her whole person to his own, that such opportunities had so often suggested and prescribed. Held, accordingly, and, as she could but too intimately feel, exquisitely solicited, she had said the thing she was intending and desiring to say, and as to which she felt, even more than she felt anything else, that whatever he might do she mustn’t be irresponsible. Yes, she was in his exerted grasp, and she knew what that was; but she was at the same time in the grasp of her conceived responsibility, and the extraordinary thing was that, of the two intensities, the second was presently to become the sharper. He took his time for it meanwhile, but he met her speech after a fashion.
Her husband, as he settled next to her, stayed silent for a minute or two, which she sensed; he neither spoke nor acted, seeming to think, wait, and decide. Yet it was still before he spoke that, as she felt, he definitely took action. He wrapped his arm around her and pulled her close—enjoying the moment, the long, firm embrace with his single arm, the intense pressure of her entire body against his, which such moments often prompted. Held tightly, and as she could easily feel, deeply stirred, she had said what she intended and desired to say, and she felt, even more than anything else, that she mustn't be irresponsible about whatever he might do. Yes, she was in his strong grasp, and she understood what that meant; but at the same time, she felt the weight of her own responsibility, and the extraordinary thing was that, between the two feelings, the second would soon become the more intense. He took his time with it, but he responded to her words in his own way.
“The cause of your father’s deciding not to go?”
“The reason your father decided not to go?”
“Yes, and of my having wanted to let it act for him quietly—I mean without my insistence.” She had, in her compressed state, another pause, and it made her feel as if she were immensely resisting. Strange enough was this sense for her, and altogether new, the sense of possessing, by miraculous help, some advantage that, absolutely then and there, in the carriage, as they rolled, she might either give up or keep. Strange, inexpressibly strange—so distinctly she saw that if she did give it up she should somehow give up everything for ever. And what her husband’s grasp really meant, as her very bones registered, was that she SHOULD give it up: it was exactly for this that he had resorted to unfailing magic. He KNEW HOW to resort to it—he could be, on occasion, as she had lately more than ever learned, so munificent a lover: all of which was, precisely, a part of the character she had never ceased to regard in him as princely, a part of his large and beautiful ease, his genius for charm, for intercourse, for expression, for life. She should have but to lay her head back on his shoulder with a certain movement to make it definite for him that she didn’t resist. To this, as they went, every throb of her consciousness prompted her—every throb, that is, but one, the throb of her deeper need to know where she “really” was. By the time she had uttered the rest of her idea, therefore, she was still keeping her head and intending to keep it; though she was also staring out of the carriage-window with eyes into which the tears of suffered pain had risen, indistinguishable, perhaps, happily, in the dusk. She was making an effort that horribly hurt her, and, as she couldn’t cry out, her eyes swam in her silence. With them, all the same, through the square opening beside her, through the grey panorama of the London night, she achieved the feat of not losing sight of what she wanted; and her lips helped and protected her by being able to be gay. “It’s not to leave YOU, my dear—for that he’ll give up anything; just as he would go off anywhere, I think, you know, if you would go with him. I mean you and he alone,” Maggie pursued with her gaze out of her window.
“Yes, and I wanted to let it work for him quietly—I mean without pushing him.” She paused, feeling like she was fighting against something huge. It was a strange feeling for her, completely new, like suddenly having a special advantage that at that moment, in the carriage, she could either let go of or hold onto. It felt incredibly strange—she realized that if she let it go, she would somehow lose everything forever. And what her husband’s grip really meant, which she felt deep in her bones, was that she SHOULD let it go: that’s exactly why he had used his reliable charm. He KNEW how to charm—he could be, at times, as she had learned recently, such a generous lover: all of this was part of the princely side she had always seen in him, a part of his effortless charm, his knack for connection, for expression, for life. She only had to lean her head back on his shoulder in a certain way for him to understand that she wasn’t resisting. Every pulse of her awareness urged her toward this—every pulse except one, the pulse of her deeper need to know where she actually stood. By the time she expressed the rest of her thoughts, she was still holding her ground and planning to keep doing so; yet she was also staring out of the carriage window with tears of pain welling up in her eyes, indistinguishable, perhaps fortunately, in the dusk. She was trying hard, which hurt her deeply, and since she couldn’t cry out, her eyes were swimming in silence. Still, through the small gap beside her, through the gray landscape of the London night, she managed to keep her focus on what she wanted; and her lips helped protect her by appearing cheerful. “It’s not to leave YOU, my dear—for he’ll give up anything for that; just like I think he would go anywhere if you went with him. I mean just you and him,” Maggie continued, gazing out of her window.
For which Amerigo’s answer again took him a moment. “Ah, the dear old boy! You would like me to propose him something—?”
For which Amerigo’s answer took him a moment again. “Ah, the dear old guy! You want me to suggest something to him—?”
“Well, if you think you could bear it.”
“Well, if you think you can handle it.”
“And leave,” the Prince asked, “you and Charlotte alone?”
“And leave,” the Prince asked, “you and Charlotte by yourselves?”
“Why not?” Maggie had also to wait a minute, but when she spoke it came clear. “Why shouldn’t Charlotte be just one of MY reasons—my not liking to leave her? She has always been so good, so perfect, to me—but never so wonderfully as just now. We have somehow been more together—thinking, for the time, almost only of each other; it has been quite as in old days.” And she proceeded consummately, for she felt it as consummate: “It’s as if we had been missing each other, had got a little apart—though going on so side by side. But the good moments, if one only waits for them,” she hastened to add, “come round of themselves. Moreover you’ve seen for yourself, since you’ve made it up so to father; feeling, for yourself, in your beautiful way, every difference, every air that blows; not having to be told or pushed, only being perfect to live with, through your habit of kindness and your exquisite instincts. But of course you’ve seen, all the while, that both he and I have deeply felt how you’ve managed; managed that he hasn’t been too much alone and that I, on my side, haven’t appeared, to—what you might call—neglect him. This is always,” she continued, “what I can never bless you enough for; of all the good things you’ve done for me you’ve never done anything better.” She went on explaining as for the pleasure of explaining—even though knowing he must recognise, as a part of his easy way too, her description of his large liberality. “Your taking the child down yourself, those days, and your coming, each time, to bring him away—nothing in the world, nothing you could have invented, would have kept father more under the charm. Besides, you know how you’ve always suited him, and how you’ve always so beautifully let it seem to him that he suits you. Only it has been, these last weeks, as if you wished—just in order to please him—to remind him of it afresh. So there it is,” she wound up; “it’s your doing. You’ve produced your effect—that of his wanting not to be, even for a month or two, where you’re not. He doesn’t want to bother or bore you—THAT, I think, you know, he never has done; and if you’ll only give me time I’ll come round again to making it my care, as always, that he shan’t. But he can’t bear you out of his sight.”
“Why not?” Maggie had to pause for a moment, but when she spoke, it was clear. “Why shouldn’t Charlotte be just one of MY reasons—my reason for not wanting to leave her? She has always been so good, so perfect, to me—but never more wonderfully than right now. We’ve somehow been more connected—thinking, for the moment, almost only about each other; it feels just like the old days.” And she went on beautifully, feeling it was genuine: “It’s like we’ve been missing each other, like we’ve gotten a little apart—though moving through life side by side. But the good moments, if you just wait for them,” she quickly added, “tend to come on their own. Plus, you’ve seen for yourself, now that you’ve reconciled with father; feeling, in your beautiful way, every difference, every subtle change; not needing to be told or pushed, just being wonderful to be around, thanks to your kindness and your amazing instincts. But of course, you’ve seen all along how deeply both he and I have felt about how you’ve handled things; managed that he hasn’t been too alone and that I, on my part, haven’t seemed to—what you might call—neglect him. This is always,” she continued, “what I can never thank you enough for; of all the good things you’ve done for me, you’ve never done anything better.” She kept explaining, enjoying the moment of explaining—even knowing he must recognize, as part of his easygoing nature, her portrayal of his generosity. “Your taking the child down yourself during those times, and your coming each time to bring him back—nothing in the world, nothing you could’ve thought up, would have kept father more enchanted. Besides, you know how well you’ve always matched with him, and how beautifully you’ve made it seem to him that he matches with you. But lately, it’s been like you wanted—just to please him—to remind him of that again. So there it is,” she concluded; “it’s your doing. You’ve made him want not to be, even for a month or two, where you’re not. He doesn’t want to bother or annoy you—THAT, I think, you know he never has; and if you’ll just give me some time, I’ll get back to making sure, as always, that he doesn’t. But he can’t stand to be out of your sight.”
She had kept it up and up, filling it out, crowding it in; and all, really, without difficulty, for it was, every word of it, thanks to a long evolution of feeling, what she had been primed to the brim with. She made the picture, forced it upon him, hung it before him; remembering, happily, how he had gone so far, one day, supported by the Principino, as to propose the Zoo in Eaton Square, to carry with him there, on the spot, under this pleasant inspiration, both his elder and his younger companion, with the latter of whom he had taken the tone that they were introducing Granddaddy, Granddaddy nervous and rather funking it, to lions and tigers more or less at large. Touch by touch she thus dropped into her husband’s silence the truth about his good nature and his good manners; and it was this demonstration of his virtue, precisely, that added to the strangeness, even for herself, of her failing as yet to yield to him. It would be a question but of the most trivial act of surrender, the vibration of a nerve, the mere movement of a muscle; but the act grew important between them just through her doing perceptibly nothing, nothing but talk in the very tone that would naturally have swept her into tenderness. She knew more and more—every lapsing minute taught her—how he might by a single rightness make her cease to watch him; that rightness, a million miles removed from the queer actual, falling so short, which would consist of his breaking out to her diviningly, indulgently, with the last happy inconsequence. “Come away with me, somewhere, YOU—and then we needn’t think, we needn’t even talk, of anything, of anyone else:” five words like that would answer her, would break her utterly down. But they were the only ones that would so serve. She waited for them, and there was a supreme instant when, by the testimony of all the rest of him, she seemed to feel them in his heart and on his lips; only they didn’t sound, and as that made her wait again so it made her more intensely watch. This in turn showed her that he too watched and waited, and how much he had expected something that he now felt wouldn’t come. Yes, it wouldn’t come if he didn’t answer her, if he but said the wrong things instead of the right. If he could say the right everything would come—it hung by a hair that everything might crystallise for their recovered happiness at his touch. This possibility glowed at her, however, for fifty seconds, only then to turn cold, and as it fell away from her she felt the chill of reality and knew again, all but pressed to his heart and with his breath upon her cheek, the slim rigour of her attitude, a rigour beyond that of her natural being. They had silences, at last, that were almost crudities of mutual resistance—silences that persisted through his felt effort to treat her recurrence to the part he had lately played, to interpret all the sweetness of her so talking to him, as a manner of making love to him. Ah, it was no such manner, heaven knew, for Maggie; she could make love, if this had been in question, better than that! On top of which it came to her presently to say, keeping in with what she had already spoken: “Except of course that, for the question of going off somewhere, he’d go readily, quite delightedly, with you. I verily believe he’d like to have you for a while to himself.”
She had kept it up, filling it out, crowding it in; and all of it was really easy for her because every word was, thanks to a long evolution of feelings, what she had been completely filled with. She created the picture, forced it on him, put it in front of him; remembering, happily, how one day, with the help of the Principino, he had gone so far as to suggest the Zoo in Eaton Square, planning to take both his older and younger companion there, with the latter of whom he had pretended they were introducing Granddaddy, who was nervous and somewhat reluctant, to lions and tigers roaming around. Touch by touch, she dropped into her husband’s silence the truth about his kindness and good manners; and it was this demonstration of his virtue that made it all the more strange, even for her, that she still wouldn’t yield to him. It would only take the simplest act of surrender, a little nerve twitch, just a slight movement; but the act became significant between them simply because she was doing nothing, nothing but speaking in a tone that would usually draw her into tenderness. She increasingly understood—every passing minute taught her—how, with a single right word, he could make her stop watching him; that rightness, completely unattainable from the odd reality that would involve him breaking through to her understanding, indulgently, with the last blissful nonchalance. “Come away with me, somewhere, YOU—and then we wouldn’t have to think or even talk about anything or anyone else:” five words like that would have been enough to break her down completely. But those were the only words that would work. She waited for them, and there was a moment when, by the expression of his whole being, she felt those words in his heart and on his lips; but they never came, and this made her wait again, making her watch even more intently. This in turn showed her that he too was watching and waiting, and how much he had hoped for something he now sensed wouldn’t come. Yes, it wouldn’t come if he didn’t respond to her; if he said the wrong things instead of the right ones. If he could say the right things, everything would fall into place—it was hanging by a thread that everything might crystallize for their restored happiness at his touch. This possibility glowed at her for about fifty seconds, only to then turn cold, and as it slipped away from her, she felt the chill of reality and realized again, almost pressed to his heart and with his breath on her cheek, the strictness of her stance, a strictness beyond her natural self. They ended up having silences that felt almost like clashes of mutual resistance—silences that lingered despite his effort to interpret her return to the role he had recently played, to see all the sweetness of her talking to him as a way of making love to him. Ah, it was no such way, heaven knew, for Maggie; she could make love, if that had been the case, much better than this! On top of that, it occurred to her to add, keeping in line with what she had already said: “Except of course, when it comes to the idea of going off somewhere, he’d go eagerly, quite happily, with you. I truly believe he’d like to have you all to himself for a while.”
“Do you mean he thinks of proposing it?” the Prince after a moment sounded.
“Do you mean he’s thinking about proposing it?” the Prince asked after a moment.
“Oh no—he doesn’t ask, as you must so often have seen. But I believe he’d go ‘like a shot,’ as you say, if you were to suggest it.”
“Oh no—he doesn’t ask, like you must have seen so many times. But I believe he’d go ‘like a shot,’ as you say, if you suggested it.”
It had the air, she knew, of a kind of condition made, and she had asked herself while she spoke if it wouldn’t cause his arm to let her go. The fact that it didn’t suggested to her that she had made him, of a sudden, still more intensely think, think with such concentration that he could do but one thing at once. And it was precisely as if the concentration had the next moment been proved in him. He took a turn inconsistent with the superficial impression—a jump that made light of their approach to gravity and represented for her the need in him to gain time. That she made out, was his drawback—that the warning from her had come to him, and had come to Charlotte, after all, too suddenly. That they were in face of it rearranging, that they had to rearrange, was all before her again; yet to do as they would like they must enjoy a snatch, longer or shorter, of recovered independence. Amerigo, for the instant, was but doing as he didn’t like, and it was as if she were watching his effort without disguise. “What’s your father’s idea, this year, then, about Fawns? Will he go at Whitsuntide, and will he then stay on?”
It had the feel, she realized, of a sort of situation they had created, and she found herself wondering as she spoke if it would make him let her go. The fact that he didn’t suggested to her that he had suddenly started thinking even more intensely, concentrating so much that he could only focus on one thing at a time. It was as if that concentration had immediately shown itself in him. He shifted in a way that contradicted the first impression—making a move that disregarded their gradual approach to a serious matter and indicated to her his need to buy some time. She figured that was his flaw—the warning from her had come to him, and to Charlotte, way too abruptly. They were facing the need to rearrange things; that was all clear to her again. Yet to do what they wanted, they needed to experience a brief moment, however long or short, of regained independence. For the moment, Amerigo was doing something he didn’t want to do, and it felt like she was watching his struggle without any pretense. “What’s your father’s plan this year about Fawns? Is he going to go at Whitsuntide, and will he stay on afterward?”
Maggie went through the form of thought. “He will really do, I imagine, as he has, in so many ways, so often done before; do whatever may seem most agreeable to yourself. And there’s of course always Charlotte to be considered. Only their going early to Fawns, if they do go,” she said, “needn’t in the least entail your and my going.”
Maggie went through the motions of thinking. “I imagine he will do what he has done so many times before: whatever seems most agreeable to him. And of course, we always have to consider Charlotte. Just because they’re going to Fawns early, if they decide to go,” she said, “doesn’t mean that you and I have to go too.”
“Ah,” Amerigo echoed, “it needn’t in the least entail your and my going?”
“Ah,” Amerigo replied, “it doesn’t have to involve you and me going at all?”
“We can do as we like. What they may do needn’t trouble us, since they’re by good fortune perfectly happy together.”
“We can do whatever we want. What they do doesn’t have to concern us since they’re, by a stroke of luck, completely happy together.”
“Oh,” the Prince returned, “your father’s never so happy as with you near him to enjoy his being so.”
“Oh,” the Prince replied, “your father is never as happy as when you’re close by to share in his joy.”
“Well, I may enjoy it,” said Maggie, “but I’m not the cause of it.”
“Well, I might enjoy it,” Maggie said, “but I'm not the reason for it.”
“You’re the cause,” her husband declared, “of the greater part of everything that’s good among us.” But she received this tribute in silence, and the next moment he pursued: “If Mrs. Verver has arrears of time with you to make up, as you say, she’ll scarcely do it—or you scarcely will—by our cutting, your and my cutting, too loose.”
“You’re the reason,” her husband said, “for most of the good between us.” But she accepted this compliment in silence, and the next moment he continued, “If Mrs. Verver needs to make up for lost time with you, as you mentioned, she probably won’t be able to—or you won’t—by us distancing ourselves, you and me both.”
“I see what you mean,” Maggie mused.
“I get what you're saying,” Maggie thought.
He let her for a little to give her attention to it; after which, “Shall I just quite, of a sudden,” he asked, “propose him a journey?”
He allowed her a moment to focus on it; after which, he asked, “Should I suddenly suggest a trip to him?”
Maggie hesitated, but she brought forth the fruit of reflection. “It would have the merit that Charlotte then would be with me—with me, I mean, so much more. Also that I shouldn’t, by choosing such a time for going away, seem unconscious and ungrateful, seem not to respond, seem in fact rather to wish to shake her off. I should respond, on the contrary, very markedly—by being here alone with her for a month.”
Maggie hesitated, but she expressed her thoughts clearly. “The benefit would be that Charlotte would then be with me—actually with me, so much more. Plus, if I chose this time to leave, I wouldn’t seem careless or ungrateful, I wouldn’t appear to ignore her, or even make it look like I wanted to get away from her. Instead, I would respond very clearly—by being here alone with her for a month.”
“And would you like to be here alone with her for a month?”
“And would you want to be here alone with her for a month?”
“I could do with it beautifully. Or we might even,” she said quite gaily, “go together down to Fawns.”
"I could really use it nicely. Or we could even," she said cheerfully, "go together down to Fawns."
“You could be so very content without me?” the Prince presently inquired.
"You could be perfectly fine without me?" the Prince then asked.
“Yes, my own dear—if you could be content for a while with father. That would keep me up. I might, for the time,” she went on, “go to stay there with Charlotte; or, better still, she might come to Portland Place.”
“Yeah, my dear—if you could be okay with spending some time with dad. That would help me out. I could, for a while,” she continued, “go stay there with Charlotte; or even better, she could come to Portland Place.”
“Oho!” said the Prince with cheerful vagueness.
“Oho!” said the Prince with a happy ambiguity.
“I should feel, you see,” she continued, “that the two of us were showing the same sort of kindness.”
“I should feel, you see,” she continued, “that the two of us were showing the same kind of kindness.”
Amerigo thought. “The two of us? Charlotte and I?”
Amerigo thought, “Just the two of us? Charlotte and me?”
Maggie again hesitated. “You and I, darling.”
Maggie hesitated again. “You and me, sweetheart.”
“I see, I see”—he promptly took it in. “And what reason shall I give—give, I mean, your father?”
“I understand, I understand,” he quickly absorbed it. “And what reason should I give—give, I mean, to your father?”
“For asking him to go off? Why, the very simplest—if you conscientiously can. The desire,” said Maggie, “to be agreeable to him. Just that only.”
“For asking him to leave? Well, it’s really quite simple—if you can do it honestly. The wish,” said Maggie, “to please him. That’s all it is.”
Something in this reply made her husband again reflect. “‘Conscientiously?’ Why shouldn’t I conscientiously? It wouldn’t, by your own contention,” he developed, “represent any surprise for him. I must strike him sufficiently as, at the worst, the last person in the world to wish to do anything to hurt him.”
Something in this reply made her husband think again. “‘Conscientiously?’ Why shouldn’t I be conscientious? It wouldn’t, based on what you said,” he continued, “be a surprise to him. I must seem to him, at the very least, like the last person in the world who would want to hurt him.”
Ah, there it was again, for Maggie—the note already sounded, the note of the felt need of not working harm! Why this precautionary view, she asked herself afresh, when her father had complained, at the very least, as little as herself? With their stillness together so perfect, what had suggested so, around them, the attitude of sparing them? Her inner vision fixed it once more, this attitude, saw it, in the others, as vivid and concrete, extended it straight from her companion to Charlotte. Before she was well aware, accordingly, she had echoed in this intensity of thought Amerigo’s last words. “You’re the last person in the world to wish to do anything to hurt him.”
Ah, there it was again for Maggie— the note had already been struck, the note of the intense need to avoid causing harm! Why this cautious perspective, she questioned herself again, when her father had complained, at the very least, just as little as she did? With their stillness together being so perfect, what had prompted this desire to spare them? Her inner vision focused once more on this attitude, seeing it in others, vivid and tangible, and extending it directly from her companion to Charlotte. Before she realized it, she had echoed Amerigo’s last words in this intense line of thought. “You’re the last person in the world who would want to hurt him.”
She heard herself, heard her tone, after she had spoken, and heard it the more that, for a minute after, she felt her husband’s eyes on her face, very close, too close for her to see him. He was looking at her because he was struck, and looking hard—though his answer, when it came, was straight enough. “Why, isn’t that just what we have been talking about—that I’ve affected you as fairly studying his comfort and his pleasure? He might show his sense of it,” the Prince went on, “by proposing to ME an excursion.”
She heard her own voice after she spoke, and she noticed it even more because, for a moment afterward, she felt her husband’s gaze on her face, very intense, too intense for her to actually see him. He was staring at her because he was taken aback, and he was staring hard—although his response, when it came, was straightforward enough. “Well, isn’t that exactly what we’ve been discussing—that I’ve impacted you as if I were genuinely caring about his comfort and happiness? He could show he understands that,” the Prince continued, “by suggesting an outing to ME.”
“And you would go with him?” Maggie immediately asked.
"And you would go with him?" Maggie asked right away.
He hung fire but an instant. “Per Dio!”
He hesitated for a moment. “For God!”
She also had her pause, but she broke it—since gaiety was in the air—with an intense smile. “You can say that safely, because the proposal’s one that, of his own motion, he won’t make.”
She also had her moment of hesitation, but she interrupted it—since there was a cheerful vibe around—with a bright smile. “You can say that with confidence because it’s a proposal he won’t put forward on his own.”
She couldn’t have narrated afterwards—and in fact was at a loss to tell herself—by what transition, what rather marked abruptness of change in their personal relation, their drive came to its end with a kind of interval established, almost confessed to, between them. She felt it in the tone with which he repeated, after her, “‘Safely’—?”
She couldn’t explain later—and honestly had no idea—how their personal connection suddenly changed, leading to a sort of pause that felt almost acknowledged between them. She sensed it in the way he echoed her, “‘Safely’—?”
“Safely as regards being thrown with him perhaps after all, in such a case, too long. He’s a person to think you might easily feel yourself to be. So it won’t,” Maggie said, “come from father. He’s too modest.”
“Maybe it’s safe to be around him after all, but in that case, it might be too long. He’s someone you might easily relate to. So it won’t,” Maggie said, “come from Dad. He’s too humble.”
Their eyes continued to meet on it, from corner to corner of the brougham. “Oh your modesty, between you—!” But he still smiled for it. “So that unless I insist—?”
Their eyes kept meeting across the brougham. “Oh, your modesty, you two—!” But he still smiled at that. “So, unless I insist—?”
“We shall simply go on as we are.”
“We’ll just keep going as we are.”
“Well, we’re going on beautifully,” he answered—though by no means with the effect it would have had if their mute transaction, that of attempted capture and achieved escape, had not taken place. As Maggie said nothing, none the less, to gainsay his remark, it was open to him to find himself the next moment conscious of still another idea. “I wonder if it would do. I mean for me to break in.”
“Well, we’re doing great,” he replied—although not quite with the same impact it would have had if their silent exchange, which involved trying to capture and successfully escaping, hadn't happened. Since Maggie didn’t say anything to contradict his statement, he found himself suddenly aware of yet another thought. “I wonder if it would work. I mean, for me to interrupt.”
“‘To break in’—?”
"‘To break in’—?"
“Between your father and his wife. But there would be a way,” he said—“we can make Charlotte ask him.” And then as Maggie herself now wondered, echoing it again: “We can suggest to her to suggest to him that he shall let me take him off.”
“Between your dad and his wife. But there’s a way,” he said—“we can have Charlotte ask him.” And then as Maggie herself now thought, repeating it again: “We can suggest to her to suggest to him that he should let me take him away.”
“Oh!” said Maggie.
“Oh!” Maggie said.
“Then if he asks her why I so suddenly break out she’ll be able to tell him the reason.”
“Then if he asks her why I suddenly freaked out, she’ll be able to explain the reason.”
They were stopping, and the footman, who had alighted, had rung at the house-door. “That you think it would be so charming?”
They were stopping, and the footman, who had gotten out, had rung the doorbell. “You think it would be so lovely?”
“That I think it would be so charming. That we’ve persuaded HER will be convincing.”
"Honestly, I think that would be so charming. The fact that we've convinced HER will definitely be convincing."
“I see,” Maggie went on while the footman came back to let them out. “I see,” she said again; though she felt a little disconcerted. What she really saw, of a sudden, was that her stepmother might report her as above all concerned for the proposal, and this brought her back her need that her father shouldn’t think her concerned in any degree for anything. She alighted the next instant with a slight sense of defeat; her husband, to let her out, had passed before her, and, a little in advance, he awaited her on the edge of the low terrace, a step high, that preceded their open entrance, on either side of which one of their servants stood. The sense of a life tremendously ordered and fixed rose before her, and there was something in Amerigo’s very face, while his eyes again met her own through the dusky lamplight, that was like a conscious reminder of it. He had answered her, just before, distinctly, and it appeared to leave her nothing to say. It was almost as if, having planned for the last word, she saw him himself enjoying it. It was almost as if—in the strangest way in the world—he were paying her back, by the production of a small pang, that of a new uneasiness, for the way she had slipped from him during their drive.
“I understand,” Maggie continued as the footman returned to let them out. “I understand,” she repeated, although she felt a bit unsettled. What she suddenly realized was that her stepmother might report her as being overly concerned about the proposal, which reminded her that she didn’t want her father to think she was worried about anything at all. She got out of the carriage with a slight sense of defeat; her husband, who had moved ahead to let her out, was waiting for her at the edge of the low terrace—a step high—that led to their open entrance, with one of their servants standing on each side. The feeling of an incredibly ordered and fixed life loomed before her, and there was something in Amerigo’s very face, as his eyes met hers again through the dim lamplight, that served as a conscious reminder of it. He had answered her clearly just before, leaving her with nothing to say. It was almost as if, having anticipated the last word, she saw him relishing it. It was almost as if—in the strangest way—he were returning a slight sting of a new uneasiness for how she had distanced herself from him during their drive.
XXVIII
XXVIII
Maggie’s new uneasiness might have had time to drop, inasmuch as she not only was conscious, during several days that followed, of no fresh indication for it to feed on, but was even struck, in quite another way, with an augmentation of the symptoms of that difference she had taken it into her head to work for. She recognised by the end of a week that if she had been in a manner caught up her father had been not less so—with the effect of her husband’s and his wife’s closing in, together, round them, and of their all having suddenly begun, as a party of four, to lead a life gregarious, and from that reason almost hilarious, so far as the easy sound of it went, as never before. It might have been an accident and a mere coincidence—so at least she said to herself at first; but a dozen chances that furthered the whole appearance had risen to the surface, pleasant pretexts, oh certainly pleasant, as pleasant as Amerigo in particular could make them, for associated undertakings, quite for shared adventures, for its always turning out, amusingly, that they wanted to do very much the same thing at the same time and in the same way. Funny all this was, to some extent, in the light of the fact that the father and daughter, for so long, had expressed so few positive desires; yet it would be sufficiently natural that if Amerigo and Charlotte HAD at last got a little tired of each other’s company they should find their relief not so much in sinking to the rather low level of their companions as in wishing to pull the latter into the train in which they so constantly moved. “We’re in the train,” Maggie mutely reflected after the dinner in Eaton Square with Lady Castledean; “we’ve suddenly waked up in it and found ourselves rushing along, very much as if we had been put in during sleep—shoved, like a pair of labelled boxes, into the van. And since I wanted to ‘go’ I’m certainly going,” she might have added; “I’m moving without trouble—they’re doing it all for us: it’s wonderful how they understand and how perfectly it succeeds.” For that was the thing she had most immediately to acknowledge: it seemed as easy for them to make a quartette as it had formerly so long appeared for them to make a pair of couples—this latter being thus a discovery too absurdly belated. The only point at which, day after day, the success appeared at all qualified was represented, as might have been said, by her irresistible impulse to give her father a clutch when the train indulged in one of its occasional lurches. Then—there was no denying it—his eyes and her own met; so that they were themselves doing active violence, as against the others, to that very spirit of union, or at least to that very achievement of change, which she had taken the field to invoke.
Maggie’s new discomfort had started to fade a bit, since she was aware, for several days afterward, of no new reasons to keep it alive. She was even surprised, in a completely different way, by an increase in the signs of the change she was trying to create. By the end of the week, she realized that if she had been somewhat swept up in things, her father had been just as much so—resulting in her husband and his wife suddenly closing in around them. The four of them had started to live a lively, almost cheerful, social life together, more than ever before. It might have been merely a coincidence—so at first she told herself—but a dozen chances that contributed to this whole dynamic had emerged, pleasant justifications, certainly enjoyable, especially as Amerigo made them, for shared experiences, for doing the same thing at the same time, and in the same way. It was somewhat amusing, considering how the father and daughter had hardly ever expressed strong desires for so long; yet it was quite natural that, if Amerigo and Charlotte had finally grown tired of each other's company, they would find relief not by lowering themselves to their friends' level but by wanting to draw them into their own circle. “We’re in the train,” Maggie silently thought after dinner at Eaton Square with Lady Castledean; “we’ve suddenly woken up in it and found ourselves speeding along as if we had been placed in during sleep—shoved, like two labeled boxes, into the cargo area. And since I wanted to ‘go,’ I’m definitely going,” she could have added; “I’m moving easily—they’re doing it all for us: it’s amazing how they understand and how perfectly it works.” For that was the first thing she had to recognize: it seemed just as easy for them to form a quartet as it had once seemed for them to make two couples—this latter realization coming far too late. The only hiccup in their success, day after day, was her strong urge to grab her father when the train occasionally lurched. Then—there was no denying it—his eyes and hers met; so they were, in effect, resisting that very spirit of unity, or at least that achievement of change, which she had set out to invoke.
The maximum of change was reached, no doubt, the day the Matcham party dined in Portland Place; the day, really perhaps, of Maggie’s maximum of social glory, in the sense of its showing for her own occasion, her very own, with every one else extravagantly rallying and falling in, absolutely conspiring to make her its heroine. It was as if her father himself, always with more initiative as a guest than as a host, had dabbled too in the conspiracy; and the impression was not diminished by the presence of the Assinghams, likewise very much caught-up, now, after something of a lull, by the side-wind of all the rest of the motion, and giving our young woman, so far at least as Fanny was concerned, the sense of some special intention of encouragement and applause. Fanny, who had not been present at the other dinner, thanks to a preference entertained and expressed by Charlotte, made a splendid show at this one, in new orange-coloured velvet with multiplied turquoises, and with a confidence, furthermore, as different as possible, her hostess inferred, from her too-marked betrayal of a belittled state at Matcham. Maggie was not indifferent to her own opportunity to redress this balance—which seemed, for the hour, part of a general rectification; she liked making out for herself that on the high level of Portland Place, a spot exempt, on all sorts of grounds, from jealous jurisdictions, her friend could feel as “good” as any one, and could in fact at moments almost appear to take the lead in recognition and celebration, so far as the evening might conduce to intensify the lustre of the little Princess. Mrs. Assingham produced on her the impression of giving her constantly her cue for this; and it was in truth partly by her help, intelligently, quite gratefully accepted, that the little Princess, in Maggie, was drawn out and emphasised. She couldn’t definitely have said how it happened, but she felt herself, for the first time in her career, living up to the public and popular notion of such a personage, as it pressed upon her from all round; rather wondering, inwardly too, while she did so, at that strange mixture in things through which the popular notion could be evidenced for her by such supposedly great ones of the earth as the Castledeans and their kind. Fanny Assingham might really have been there, at all events, like one of the assistants in the ring at the circus, to keep up the pace of the sleek revolving animal on whose back the lady in short spangled skirts should brilliantly caper and posture. That was all, doubtless Maggie had forgotten, had neglected, had declined, to be the little Princess on anything like the scale open to her; but now that the collective hand had been held out to her with such alacrity, so that she might skip up into the light, even, as seemed to her modest mind, with such a show of pink stocking and such an abbreviation of white petticoat, she could strike herself as perceiving, under arched eyebrows, where her mistake had been. She had invited for the later hours, after her dinner, a fresh contingent, the whole list of her apparent London acquaintance—which was again a thing in the manner of little princesses for whom the princely art was a matter of course. That was what she was learning to do, to fill out as a matter of course her appointed, her expected, her imposed character; and, though there were latent considerations that somewhat interfered with the lesson, she was having to-night an inordinate quantity of practice, none of it so successful as when, quite wittingly, she directed it at Lady Castledean, who was reduced by it at last to an unprecedented state of passivity. The perception of this high result caused Mrs. Assingham fairly to flush with responsive joy; she glittered at her young friend, from moment to moment, quite feverishly; it was positively as if her young friend had, in some marvellous, sudden, supersubtle way, become a source of succour to herself, become beautifully, divinely retributive. The intensity of the taste of these registered phenomena was in fact that somehow, by a process and through a connexion not again to be traced, she so practised, at the same time, on Amerigo and Charlotte—with only the drawback, her constant check and second-thought, that she concomitantly practised perhaps still more on her father.
The peak of change clearly happened the day the Matcham party had dinner in Portland Place; the day that might be considered Maggie’s highest moment of social glory, in terms of it being her very own occasion, with everyone else enthusiastically rallying and completely conspiring to make her the star. It was as if her father, who always took more initiative as a guest than a host, joined in the conspiracy too; and that impression was reinforced by the presence of the Assinghams, who were also very much caught up in the excitement after a previous lull, giving our young woman—at least in Fanny's eyes—a feeling of special encouragement and applause. Fanny, who hadn’t been at the other dinner due to Charlotte’s preference, made a stunning appearance at this one, wearing new orange velvet covered in turquoise, and exuding a confidence that her hostess guessed was completely different from the overly obvious sign of a diminished state she had displayed at Matcham. Maggie recognized her chance to restore this balance, which seemed, for the moment, part of a broader correction; she liked thinking that in the prestigious environment of Portland Place, a place free from petty jealousy, her friend could feel just as “good” as anyone and, at times, even seem to take the lead in recognizing and celebrating the little Princess. Mrs. Assingham gave her the impression of constantly cueing her for this; and thanks to her helpful and gratefully accepted support, the little Princess in Maggie was drawn out and emphasized. She couldn't precisely say how it happened, but she felt, for the first time in her life, that she was living up to the public and popular image of such a figure, which pressed upon her from all sides; she also found herself inwardly wondering about the strange mix of factors that allowed this public notion to be validated by such supposedly important people as the Castledeans and their peers. Fanny Assingham might have been there, in a way, like one of the assistants at a circus, helping to maintain the pace for the polished, revolving animal on whose back the lady in sparkly outfits would dazzle and perform. That was all, of course; Maggie had long forgotten, overlooked, and declined to be the little Princess on any scale that was available to her. But now that the collective hand had been extended to her so eagerly, allowing her to step into the spotlight— even if it felt to her modest mind like a show of pink stockings and a shortened white petticoat—she realized where she had gone wrong. She had invited a fresh group of guests for the later hours after her dinner, essentially the entire list of her apparent London acquaintances, which again was typical of little princesses for whom the regal art was second nature. That was what she was learning to do: to seamlessly fill out her assigned, expected, or imposed role; and, despite some underlying concerns that slightly hindered the lesson, she was getting a substantial amount of practice that night, none more successful than when, knowingly, she directed it toward Lady Castledean, who was ultimately reduced to an unprecedented state of passivity. The realization of this impressive outcome made Mrs. Assingham glow with shared joy; she sparkled at her young friend, moment after moment, almost feverishly; it was as if her young friend had, through some marvelous, sudden, subtle means, become a source of comfort for her, beautifully and divinely redeeming. The intensity of the enjoyment from these observed phenomena in fact meant that she, through a process and connection that couldn't easily be traced, simultaneously worked her magic on Amerigo and Charlotte—though she had to constantly check herself and reconsider, perhaps the most on her father.
This last was a danger indeed that, for much of the ensuing time, had its hours of strange beguilement—those at which her sense for precautions so suffered itself to lapse that she felt her communion with him more intimate than any other. It COULDN’T but pass between them that something singular was happening—so much as this she again and again said to herself; whereby the comfort of it was there, after all, to be noted, just as much as the possible peril, and she could think of the couple they formed together as groping, with sealed lips, but with mutual looks that had never been so tender, for some freedom, some fiction, some figured bravery, under which they might safely talk of it. The moment was to come—and it finally came with an effect as penetrating as the sound that follows the pressure of an electric button—when she read the least helpful of meanings into the agitation she had created. The merely specious description of their case would have been that, after being for a long time, as a family, delightfully, uninterruptedly happy, they had still had a new felicity to discover; a felicity for which, blessedly, her father’s appetite and her own, in particular, had been kept fresh and grateful. This livelier march of their intercourse as a whole was the thing that occasionally determined in him the clutching instinct we have glanced at; very much as if he had said to her, in default of her breaking silence first: “Everything is remarkably pleasant, isn’t it?—but WHERE, for it, after all, are we? up in a balloon and whirling through space, or down in the depths of the earth, in the glimmering passages of a gold-mine?” The equilibrium, the precious condition, lasted in spite of rearrangement; there had been a fresh distribution of the different weights, but the balance persisted and triumphed: all of which was just the reason why she was forbidden, face to face with the companion of her adventure, the experiment of a test. If they balanced they balanced—she had to take that; it deprived her of every pretext for arriving, by however covert a process, at what he thought.
This was indeed a danger that, for much of the time that followed, had its hours of unusual charm—times when her caution slipped so much that she felt her connection with him was more intimate than anything else. It couldn't help but be clear to them that something unique was happening—this much she repeatedly told herself; yet the comfort of it was noticeable, just as much as the potential risk, and she could think of the two of them as feeling their way, with sealed lips, but with gazes that had never been so tender, toward some kind of freedom, some fantasy, some brave notion under which they could safely discuss it. The moment would come—and it finally did with a force as striking as the sound that follows pushing an electric button—when she misinterpreted the agitation she had caused. The simplest way to describe their situation would be that, after being a family that was happily uninterrupted for a long time, they had still discovered a new happiness; a happiness for which, thankfully, her father's enthusiasm and her own had been kept alive and appreciative. This more vibrant flow of their interactions sometimes triggered in him the instinct to grasp we’ve noted; much as if he had said to her, if she didn't break the silence first: “Everything is incredibly nice, isn’t it? But where are we, really? Floating in a balloon through space, or deep in the earth, in the shining tunnels of a gold mine?” The balance, the precious state, lasted despite rearrangements; there had been a new distribution of various weights, but the equilibrium remained and prevailed: that was precisely why she couldn’t face her companion in this adventure for a test. If they balanced, they balanced—she had to accept that; it left her with no reason to uncover, even subtly, what he thought.
But she had her hours, thus, of feeling supremely linked to him by the rigour of their law, and when it came over her that, all the while, the wish, on his side, to spare her might be what most worked with him, this very fact of their seeming to have nothing “inward” really to talk about wrapped him up for her in a kind of sweetness that was wanting, as a consecration, even in her yearning for her husband. She was powerless, however, was only more utterly hushed, when the interrupting flash came, when she would have been all ready to say to him, “Yes, this is by every appearance the best time we’ve had yet; but don’t you see, all the same, how they must be working together for it, and how my very success, my success in shifting our beautiful harmony to a new basis, comes round to being their success, above all; their cleverness, their amiability, their power to hold out, their complete possession, in short, of our life?” For how could she say as much as that without saying a great deal more? without saying “They’ll do everything in the world that suits us, save only one thing—prescribe a line for us that will make them separate.” How could she so much as imagine herself even faintly murmuring that without putting into his mouth the very words that would have made her quail? “Separate, my dear? Do you want them to separate? Then you want US to—you and me? For how can the one separation take place without the other?” That was the question that, in spirit, she had heard him ask—with its dread train, moreover, of involved and connected inquiries. Their own separation, his and hers, was of course perfectly thinkable, but only on the basis of the sharpest of reasons. Well, the sharpest, the very sharpest, would be that they could no longer afford, as it were, he to let his wife, she to let her husband, “run” them in such compact formation. And say they accepted this account of their situation as a practical finality, acting upon it and proceeding to a division, would no sombre ghosts of the smothered past, on either side, show, across the widening strait, pale unappeased faces, or raise, in the very passage, deprecating, denouncing hands?
But she had her moments of feeling deeply connected to him through the strictness of their situation. When she realized that his wish to spare her feelings was what influenced him the most, this apparent lack of anything "inward" to discuss wrapped him in a sweetness that was missing, even in her longing for her husband. However, she felt powerless, completely silenced, when a sudden thought struck her. She would have liked to say to him, "Yes, this is clearly the best time we've had yet; but don’t you see how they must be working together for this, and how my success in shifting our beautiful harmony to a new foundation ultimately becomes their success, above all else? Their intelligence, their kindness, their endurance, their complete control over our lives?" How could she express that without saying so much more? Without saying, "They’ll do everything in the world that pleases us, except one thing—create a path for us that keeps them separate"? How could she even imagine softly hinting at that without giving him words that would terrify her? "Separate, my dear? Do you want them to separate? Then you want US to—just you and me? How can one separation happen without the other?" That was the question she sensed he was asking, along with a whole series of related and troubling inquiries. Their own separation was certainly possible, but only based on the most serious of reasons. The sharpest reason would be that they could no longer allow their spouses to "run" them in such a close-knit way. If they accepted this view of their situation as a final conclusion and acted on it, would they not see gloomy reminders of the unresolved past, on both sides, with pale, unappeased faces emerging across the widening divide, or would they raise deprecating, accusing hands in the very moment of parting?
Meanwhile, however such things might be, she was to have occasion to say to herself that there might be but a deeper treachery in recoveries and reassurances. She was to feel alone again, as she had felt at the issue of her high tension with her husband during their return from meeting the Castledeans in Eaton Square. The evening in question had left her with a larger alarm, but then a lull had come—the alarm, after all, was yet to be confirmed. There came an hour, inevitably, when she knew, with a chill, what she had feared and why; it had taken, this hour, a month to arrive, but to find it before her was thoroughly to recognise it, for it showed her sharply what Amerigo had meant in alluding to a particular use that they might make, for their reaffirmed harmony and prosperity, of Charlotte. The more she thought, at present, of the tone he had employed to express their enjoyment of this resource, the more it came back to her as the product of a conscious art of dealing with her. He had been conscious, at the moment, of many things—conscious even, not a little, of desiring; and thereby of needing, to see what she would do in a given case. The given case would be that of her being to a certain extent, as she might fairly make it out, MENACED—horrible as it was to impute to him any intention represented by such a word. Why it was that to speak of making her stepmother intervene, as they might call it, in a question that seemed, just then and there, quite peculiarly their own business—why it was that a turn so familiar and so easy should, at the worst, strike her as charged with the spirit of a threat, was an oddity disconnected, for her, temporarily, from its grounds, the adventure of an imagination within her that possibly had lost its way. That, precisely, was doubtless why she had learned to wait, as the weeks passed by, with a fair, or rather indeed with an excessive, imitation of resumed serenity. There had been no prompt sequel to the Prince’s equivocal light, and that made for patience; yet she was none the less to have to admit, after delay, that the bread he had cast on the waters had come home, and that she should thus be justified of her old apprehension. The consequence of this, in turn, was a renewed pang in presence of his remembered ingenuity. To be ingenious with HER—what DIDN’T, what mightn’t that mean, when she had so absolutely never, at any point of contact with him, put him, by as much as the value of a penny, to the expense of sparing, doubting, fearing her, of having in any way whatever to reckon with her? The ingenuity had been in his simply speaking of their use of Charlotte as if it were common to them in an equal degree, and his triumph, on the occasion, had been just in the simplicity. She couldn’t—and he knew it—say what was true: “Oh, you ‘use’ her, and I use her, if you will, yes; but we use her ever so differently and separately—not at all in the same way or degree. There’s nobody we really use together but ourselves, don’t you see?—by which I mean that where our interests are the same I can so beautifully, so exquisitely serve you for everything, and you can so beautifully, so exquisitely serve me. The only person either of us needs is the other of us; so why, as a matter of course, in such a case as this, drag in Charlotte?”
Meanwhile, no matter how things were, she would find herself thinking that there could be a deeper betrayal in recoveries and reassurances. She would feel alone again, just as she had felt after her high tension with her husband on their way back from meeting the Castledeans in Eaton Square. That evening had left her even more anxious, but then there was a lull—the concern was yet to be confirmed. Eventually, there came a moment, as expected, when she knew, with a chill, what she had feared and why; it had taken a month for this moment to arrive, but seeing it clearly allowed her to fully recognize it, as it sharply reminded her of what Amerigo had meant when he referred to a specific way they might utilize Charlotte for their reaffirmed harmony and prosperity. The more she thought about the tone he had used to express their enjoyment of this resource, the more it felt like a calculated way of handling her. He had been aware, at that moment, of many things—even conscious, to an extent, of wanting; and thus he needed to see how she would react in a certain situation. That situation would be if she were to a certain extent, as she might fairly interpret, THREATENED—horrible as it was to attribute any intention represented by such a word to him. She wondered why mentioning their stepmother’s potential involvement in a matter that seemed, at that moment, entirely their own business should make her feel that such a familiar and easy suggestion carried the weight of a threat. It was a strange thought that, for her, was momentarily disconnected from its origins, the adventure of an imagination within her that had likely lost its way. That was probably why she had learned to wait, as the weeks went by, with a fair, or rather indeed an excessive, imitation of regained calmness. There hadn’t been any immediate consequences to the Prince's ambiguous comment, which made it easier to be patient; still, she would ultimately have to admit, after some time, that the bread he had thrown on the waters had come back to her, thus justifying her old fears. The result was a renewed sting confronted by his remembered cleverness. To be clever with HER—what did that mean, or what might it mean, when she had never, at any point of contact with him, caused him, even by a penny’s worth, to spare, doubt, or fear her, or to have to consider her in any way? The cleverness lay in his simply referring to their use of Charlotte as if it were equally shared, and his triumph in that moment had been just in that simplicity. She couldn’t—and he knew this—speak the truth: “Oh, you ‘use’ her, and I use her, if you want to say that; but we use her in completely different ways—not at all the same or in the same degree. There’s no one we truly use together but ourselves, don’t you see?—by which I mean that where our interests align, I can beautifully, exquisitely serve you for everything, and you can beautifully, exquisitely serve me. The only person either of us truly needs is the other; so why, in a situation like this, bring Charlotte into it?”
She couldn’t so challenge him, because it would have been—and there she was paralysed—the NOTE. It would have translated itself on the spot, for his ear, into jealousy; and, from reverberation to repercussion, would have reached her father’s exactly in the form of a cry piercing the stillness of peaceful sleep. It had been for many days almost as difficult for her to catch a quiet twenty minutes with her father as it had formerly been easy; there had been in fact, of old—the time, so strangely, seemed already far away—an inevitability in her longer passages with him, a sort of domesticated beauty in the calculability, round about them, of everything. But at present Charlotte was almost always there when Amerigo brought her to Eaton Square, where Amerigo was constantly bringing her; and Amerigo was almost always there when Charlotte brought her husband to Portland Place, where Charlotte was constantly bringing HIM. The fractions of occasions, the chance minutes that put them face to face had, as yet, of late, contrived to count but little, between them, either for the sense of opportunity or for that of exposure; inasmuch as the lifelong rhythm of their intercourse made against all cursory handling of deep things. They had never availed themselves of any given quarter-of-an-hour to gossip about fundamentals; they moved slowly through large still spaces; they could be silent together, at any time, beautifully, with much more comfort than hurriedly expressive. It appeared indeed to have become true that their common appeal measured itself, for vividness, just by this economy of sound; they might have been talking “at” each other when they talked with their companions, but these latter, assuredly, were not in any directer way to gain light on the current phase of their relation. Such were some of the reasons for which Maggie suspected fundamentals, as I have called them, to be rising, by a new movement, to the surface—suspected it one morning late in May, when her father presented himself in Portland Place alone. He had his pretext—of that she was fully aware: the Principino, two days before, had shown signs, happily not persistent, of a feverish cold and had notoriously been obliged to spend the interval at home. This was ground, ample ground, for punctual inquiry; but what it wasn’t ground for, she quickly found herself reflecting, was his having managed, in the interest of his visit, to dispense so unwontedly—as their life had recently come to be arranged—with his wife’s attendance. It had so happened that she herself was, for the hour, exempt from her husband’s, and it will at once be seen that the hour had a quality all its own when I note that, remembering how the Prince had looked in to say he was going out, the Princess whimsically wondered if their respective sposi mightn’t frankly be meeting, whimsically hoped indeed they were temporarily so disposed of. Strange was her need, at moments, to think of them as not attaching an excessive importance to their repudiation of the general practice that had rested only a few weeks before on such a consecrated rightness. Repudiations, surely, were not in the air—they had none of them come to that; for wasn’t she at this minute testifying directly against them by her own behaviour? When she should confess to fear of being alone with her father, to fear of what he might then—ah, with such a slow, painful motion as she had a horror of!—say to her, THEN would be time enough for Amerigo and Charlotte to confess to not liking to appear to foregather.
She couldn’t challenge him because it would have been—and that left her frozen—the NOTE. It would have instantly translated itself for him into jealousy; and, from its echoes to consequences, it would have reached her father as a cry breaking the peace of his sleep. For many days, it had been almost as hard for her to get a quiet twenty minutes with her father as it had once been easy; in fact, not long ago—the time felt strangely distant now—there had been an inevitability in her longer visits with him, a kind of comfortable predictability in everything around them. But now Charlotte was almost always there when Amerigo brought her to Eaton Square, where Amerigo was constantly bringing her; and Amerigo was nearly always there when Charlotte brought her husband to Portland Place, where Charlotte was continually bringing HIM. The rare moments, the fleeting minutes that put them face to face, had lately barely counted for either opportunity or exposure, since the lifelong rhythm of their relationship prevented any superficial handling of deep subjects. They had never used any given quarter-hour to chat about fundamentals; they moved slowly through big, quiet spaces; they could be beautifully silent together at any time, with much more comfort than rushing to express themselves. It seemed to have become true that their common connection measured itself, in vividness, by this economy of sound; they might have appeared to be talking "at" each other when they spoke with their companions, but those companions were not in any better position to illuminate the current state of their relationship. These were some of the reasons why Maggie suspected that the fundamentals, as I’ve called them, were surfacing again—she suspected it one morning in late May when her father showed up at Portland Place alone. He had his excuse—of which she was fully aware: the Principino, two days earlier, had shown early signs, thankfully not persistent, of a bad cold and had notoriously been obliged to remain at home since then. This was reason enough for a timely inquiry; but what it wasn’t reason enough for, she quickly realized, was his managing, for the sake of his visit, to do without his wife’s company in such an unusual way—as their life had recently become arranged. It happened that she herself was, for the hour, free from her husband’s company, and it’s worth noting that the hour had its own quality when I remember how the Prince had come in to say he was going out, leading the Princess to whimsically wonder if their respective spouses might not straightforwardly be meeting; she even whimsically hoped they were both just temporarily out of the way. It was strange how, at times, she felt the need to think of them as not placing excessive importance on their rejection of the typical practice that had only a few weeks ago been considered a given. Rejections, surely, were not in the air—they hadn’t reached that point; for wasn’t she at that moment directly going against them by her own behavior? When she confessed to fear of being alone with her father, to fear of what he might then—ah, with such a slow, painful motion that horrified her!—say to her, THEN would be the right time for Amerigo and Charlotte to admit they didn’t like to appear to gather together.
She had this morning a wonderful consciousness both of dreading a particular question from him and of being able to check, yes even to disconcert, magnificently, by her apparent manner of receiving it, any restless imagination he might have about its importance. The day, bright and soft, had the breath of summer; it made them talk, to begin with, of Fawns, of the way Fawns invited—Maggie aware, the while, that in thus regarding, with him, the sweetness of its invitation to one couple just as much as to another, her humbugging smile grew very nearly convulsive. That was it, and there was relief truly, of a sort, in taking it in: she was humbugging him already, by absolute necessity, as she had never, never done in her life—doing it up to the full height of what she had allowed for. The necessity, in the great dimly-shining room where, declining, for his reasons, to sit down, he moved about in Amerigo’s very footsteps, the necessity affected her as pressing upon her with the very force of the charm itself; of the old pleasantness, between them, so candidly playing up there again; of the positive flatness of their tenderness, a surface all for familiar use, quite as if generalised from the long succession of tapestried sofas, sweetly faded, on which his theory of contentment had sat, through unmeasured pauses, beside her own. She KNEW, from this instant, knew in advance and as well as anything would ever teach her, that she must never intermit for a solitary second her so highly undertaking to prove that there was nothing the matter with her. She saw, of a sudden, everything she might say or do in the light of that undertaking, established connections from it with any number of remote matters, struck herself, for instance, as acting all in its interest when she proposed their going out, in the exercise of their freedom and in homage to the season, for a turn in the Regent’s Park. This resort was close at hand, at the top of Portland Place, and the Principino, beautifully better, had already proceeded there under high attendance: all of which considerations were defensive for Maggie, all of which became, to her mind, part of the business of cultivating continuity.
This morning, she felt a mix of dread about a specific question from him and confidence that she could, yes, even wonderfully throw him off balance with the way she responded to it, putting his restless thoughts about its significance at ease. The day was bright and gentle, carrying the essence of summer; it made them start talking about Fawns, and how they invited people in—Maggie was aware that, as they discussed this, her forced smile almost became frenzied. That was the reality, and there was some relief in accepting it: she was already deceiving him out of pure necessity, in a way she had never done before—doing it as thoroughly as she had anticipated. The necessity weighed on her, in the large, softly glowing room where he chose not to sit down but instead moved around like Amerigo; the pressing nature of it felt as intense as the charm of their old pleasantness, which was candidly returning between them. Their tenderness felt surprisingly flat, like a familiar surface, as if it had been formed by the countless number of beautifully faded, tapestried sofas where his idea of happiness had sat beside her over long, unmeasured pauses. She KNEW, from that moment on, that she must never stop, even for a second, proving that nothing was wrong with her. Suddenly, she viewed everything she might say or do through the lens of that determination and connected it to a variety of distant matters; for example, she felt that proposing a walk in Regent’s Park, to enjoy their freedom in honor of the season, was all in support of that goal. The park was nearby, at the top of Portland Place, and the Principino, looking wonderfully better, had already gone there with great fanfare. All these considerations were protective for Maggie and became part of her strategy to maintain continuity.
Upstairs, while she left him to put on something to go out in, the thought of his waiting below for her, in possession of the empty house, brought with it, sharply if briefly, one of her abrupt arrests of consistency, the brush of a vain imagination almost paralysing her, often, for the minute, before her glass—the vivid look, in other words, of the particular difference his marriage had made. The particular difference seemed at such instants the loss, more than anything else, of their old freedom, their never having had to think, where they were together concerned, of any one, of anything but each other. It hadn’t been HER marriage that did it; that had never, for three seconds, suggested to either of them that they must act diplomatically, must reckon with another presence—no, not even with her husband’s. She groaned to herself, while the vain imagination lasted, “WHY did he marry? ah, why DID he?” and then it came up to her more than ever that nothing could have been more beautiful than the way in which, till Charlotte came so much more closely into their life, Amerigo hadn’t interfered. What she had gone on owing him for this mounted up again, to her eyes, like a column of figures—-or call it even, if one would, a house of cards; it was her father’s wonderful act that had tipped the house down and made the sum wrong. With all of which, immediately after her question, her “Why did he, why did he?” rushed back, inevitably, the confounding, the overwhelming wave of the knowledge of his reason. “He did it for ME, he did it for me,” she moaned, “he did it, exactly, that our freedom—meaning, beloved man, simply and solely mine—should be greater instead of less; he did it, divinely, to liberate me so far as possible from caring what became of him.” She found time upstairs, even in her haste, as she had repeatedly found time before, to let the wonderments involved in these recognitions flash at her with their customary effect of making her blink: the question in especial of whether she might find her solution in acting, herself, in the spirit of what he had done, in forcing her “care” really to grow as much less as he had tried to make it. Thus she felt the whole weight of their case drop afresh upon her shoulders, was confronted, unmistakably, with the prime source of her haunted state. It all came from her not having been able not to mind—not to mind what became of him; not having been able, without anxiety, to let him go his way and take his risk and lead his life. She had made anxiety her stupid little idol; and absolutely now, while she stuck a long pin, a trifle fallaciously, into her hat—she had, with an approach to irritation, told her maid, a new woman, whom she had lately found herself thinking of as abysmal, that she didn’t want her—she tried to focus the possibility of some understanding between them in consequence of which he should cut loose.
Upstairs, while she left him to get dressed for going out, the thought of him waiting downstairs for her, alone in the empty house, briefly but sharply brought on one of her sudden moments of clarity, the flash of a vain imagination that almost paralyzed her, often, for a moment, in front of her mirror—the striking realization of how much his marriage had changed things. At those moments, it felt painfully like the biggest loss was their old freedom, their ability to focus solely on each other without considering anyone or anything else. It wasn’t her marriage that caused this; it had never once suggested to either of them that they needed to act diplomatically or think about another person’s presence—not even her husband’s. She groaned to herself, during the fleeting moment of her vain thoughts, “Why did he marry? Oh, why did he?” and then it hit her even more that nothing could have been more beautiful than how Amerigo hadn’t interfered until Charlotte entered their lives so closely. The gratitude she felt toward him for this stacked up in her mind like a column of numbers—or even a house of cards; her father's awful decision had toppled everything and messed up the total. Following her question, her “Why did he, why did he?” was immediately swept away by the confusing, overwhelming realization of his reason. “He did it for me, he did it for me," she lamented, “he did it so that our freedom—meaning, beloved man, simply and solely mine—should be greater instead of less; he did it, beautifully, to free me as much as possible from worrying about what happened to him.” Even in her rush, she found a moment upstairs, as she had before, to let the wonder of these realizations wash over her, making her blink: especially the question of whether she might find her answer by acting in the spirit of what he had done, by forcing her worry to decrease just as he had tried to make it. Thus, she felt the full weight of their situation press down on her again, faced unmistakably with the root of her anxious state. It all stemmed from her inability to not care— to not care about what happened to him; to not be able, without worry, to let him go his way and take his risks and live his life. She had made anxiety her foolish little idol; and right then, while she awkwardly pinned a long stick into her hat—she had, with a hint of irritation, told her maid, a new woman she had recently started to think of as incompetent, that she didn’t want her—she tried to picture a way they could understand each other so that he could break away.
Very near indeed it looked, any such possibility! that consciousness, too, had taken its turn by the time she was ready; all the vibration, all the emotion of this present passage being, precisely, in the very sweetness of their lapse back into the conditions of the simpler time, into a queer resemblance between the aspect and the feeling of the moment and those of numberless other moments that were sufficiently far away. She had been quick in her preparation, in spite of the flow of the tide that sometimes took away her breath; but a pause, once more, was still left for her to make, a pause, at the top of the stairs, before she came down to him, in the span of which she asked herself if it weren’t thinkable, from the perfectly practical point of view, that she should simply sacrifice him. She didn’t go into the detail of what sacrificing him would mean—she didn’t need to; so distinct was it, in one of her restless lights, that there he was awaiting her, that she should find him walking up and down the drawing-room in the warm, fragrant air to which the open windows and the abundant flowers contributed; slowly and vaguely moving there and looking very slight and young and, superficially, manageable, almost as much like her child, putting it a little freely, as like her parent; with the appearance about him, above all, of having perhaps arrived just on purpose to SAY it to her, himself, in so many words: “Sacrifice me, my own love; do sacrifice me, do sacrifice me!” Should she want to, should she insist on it, she might verily hear him bleating it at her, all conscious and all accommodating, like some precious, spotless, exceptionally intelligent lamb. The positive effect of the intensity of this figure, however, was to make her shake it away in her resumed descent; and after she had rejoined him, after she had picked him up, she was to know the full pang of the thought that her impossibility was MADE, absolutely, by his consciousness, by the lucidity of his intention: this she felt while she smiled there for him, again, all hypocritically; while she drew on fair, fresh gloves; while she interrupted the process first to give his necktie a slightly smarter twist and then to make up to him for her hidden madness by rubbing her nose into his cheek according to the tradition of their frankest levity.
It really seemed like it could happen—that consciousness had played its part by the time she was ready; all the energy and emotion of this moment came from the sweet nostalgia of simpler times, creating a strange connection between the look and feel of this moment and countless others from the past. She had been quick to prepare, even with the overwhelming tide sometimes taking her breath away; but she still had a moment to pause at the top of the stairs before going down to him, during which she wondered if it was practical to think she could simply let him go. She didn't think through the details of what sacrificing him would mean—she didn’t need to. It was so clear in her restless thoughts that he was down there waiting for her, pacing around the drawing room in the warm, fragrant air filled with the scent of open windows and blooming flowers; he looked young and slight, almost as easy to manage as a child, more like her child than her parent; it seemed like he had arrived just to tell her: “Sacrifice me, my love; really, do sacrifice me!” If she wanted to, if she pushed the idea, she could almost hear him pleading like a precious, spotless, exceptionally smart lamb. However, the intensity of his presence made her shake off the thought as she continued her descent. After she joined him, after she embraced him, she felt the full weight of the realization that her impossibility was entirely due to his awareness, to the clarity of his intention: this feeling washed over her while she smiled at him, all insincerely; while she put on fresh, clean gloves; while she paused to adjust his necktie and then tried to make up for her hidden madness by rubbing her nose against his cheek in their light-hearted tradition.
From the instant she should be able to convict him of intending, every issue would be closed and her hypocrisy would have to redouble. The only way to sacrifice him would be to do so without his dreaming what it might be for. She kissed him, she arranged his cravat, she dropped remarks, she guided him out, she held his arm, not to be led, but to lead him, and taking it to her by much the same intimate pressure she had always used, when a little girl, to mark the inseparability of her doll—she did all these things so that he should sufficiently fail to dream of what they might be for.
From the moment she could pin him down for what he was really planning, everything would be over, and her deceit would just have to grow stronger. The only way to betray him would be to do it without him ever suspecting why. She kissed him, adjusted his tie, made casual comments, guided him outside, and held his arm—not to be led, but to lead him. Using the same gentle pressure she had always applied as a little girl to show how attached she was to her doll, she did all this so that he wouldn't suspect what her intentions really were.
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There was nothing to show that her effort in any degree fell short till they got well into the Park and he struck her as giving, unexpectedly, the go-by to any serious search for the Principino. The way they sat down awhile in the sun was a sign of that; his dropping with her into the first pair of sequestered chairs they came across and waiting a little, after they were placed, as if now at last she might bring out, as between them, something more specific. It made her but feel the more sharply how the specific, in almost any direction, was utterly forbidden her—how the use of it would be, for all the world, like undoing the leash of a dog eager to follow up a scent. It would come out, the specific, where the dog would come out; would run to earth, somehow, the truth—for she was believing herself in relation to the truth!—at which she mustn’t so much as indirectly point. Such, at any rate, was the fashion in which her passionate prudence played over possibilities of danger, reading symptoms and betrayals into everything she looked at, and yet having to make it evident, while she recognised them, that she didn’t wince. There were moments between them, in their chairs, when he might have been watching her guard herself and trying to think of something new that would trip her up. There were pauses during which, with her affection as sweet and still as the sunshine, she might yet, as at some hard game, over a table, for money, have been defying him to fasten upon her the least little complication of consciousness. She was positively proud, afterwards, of the great style in which she had kept this up; later on, at the hour’s end, when they had retraced their steps to find Amerigo and Charlotte awaiting them at the house, she was able to say to herself that, truly, she had put her plan through; even though once more setting herself the difficult task of making their relation, every minute of the time, not fall below the standard of that other hour, in the treasured past, which hung there behind them like a framed picture in a museum, a high watermark for the history of their old fortune; the summer evening, in the park at Fawns, when, side by side under the trees just as now, they had let their happy confidence lull them with its most golden tone. There had been the possibility of a trap for her, at present, in the very question of their taking up anew that residence; wherefore she had not been the first to sound it, in spite of the impression from him of his holding off to see what she would do. She was saying to herself in secret: “CAN we again, in this form, migrate there? Can I, for myself, undertake it? face all the intenser keeping-up and stretching-out, indefinitely, impossibly, that our conditions in the country, as we’ve established and accepted them, would stand for?” She had positively lost herself in this inward doubt—so much she was subsequently to remember; but remembering then too that her companion, though perceptibly perhaps as if not to be eager, had broken the ice very much as he had broken it in Eaton Square after the banquet to the Castledeans.
There was no indication that her efforts were falling short until they were well into the Park and he unexpectedly seemed to avoid any serious search for the Principino. The way they sat down for a while in the sun was a sign of that; he chose the first secluded chairs they found and paused a bit after sitting, as if now she might finally share something more specific. This only made her acutely aware of how the specific was completely off-limits for her—how mentioning it would be like letting a dog loose to chase a scent. It would come out, just like the dog would, revealing the truth—for she believed she was in touch with the truth!—which she couldn’t even hint at. Such was the nature of her passionate caution, analyzing potential dangers, reading signs and betrayals into everything she observed, all while needing to show that she didn’t flinch. There were moments between them, in their chairs, when he might have been watching her to see how she would protect herself, trying to think of something new that could trip her up. There were pauses during which, with her affection as sweet and still as the sunshine, she could have been challenging him, like in a tough game over a table for money, refusing to get caught in the slightest complication of awareness. She felt quite proud afterward of how well she had handled this; later, at the end of the hour, when they returned to find Amerigo and Charlotte waiting for them at the house, she could tell herself that she had executed her plan successfully; even though she once again faced the challenging task of making their relationship live up to the standard of that earlier hour in their cherished past, which loomed behind them like a framed picture in a museum, a high point in the story of their old luck; that summer evening in the park at Fawns when, side by side under the trees just like now, they allowed their happy trust to soothe them with its most golden tone. There was a potential trap for her in the very idea of moving back to that place; that’s why she hadn’t been the first to bring it up, despite the sense that he was holding back to see her reaction. In her mind, she was questioning: “CAN we move back there like this? Can I take it on myself? face all the intense upkeep and stretching out, endlessly, impossibly, that our conditions in the country, as we’ve set them, would demand?” She had really lost herself in this internal doubt—something she would remember later; but also recalling that her companion, even if seeming not too eager, had broken the ice just as he had after the banquet for the Castledeans in Eaton Square.
Her mind had taken a long excursion, wandered far into the vision of what a summer at Fawns, with Amerigo and Charlotte still more eminently in presence against that higher sky, would bring forth. Wasn’t her father meanwhile only pretending to talk of it? just as she was, in a manner, pretending to listen? He got off it, finally, at all events, for the transition it couldn’t well help thrusting out at him; it had amounted exactly to an arrest of her private excursion by the sense that he had begun to IMITATE—oh, as never yet!—the ancient tone of gold. It had verily come from him at last, the question of whether she thought it would be very good—but very good indeed—that he should leave England for a series of weeks, on some pretext, with the Prince. Then it had been that she was to know her husband’s “menace” hadn’t really dropped, since she was face to face with the effect of it. Ah, the effect of it had occupied all the rest of their walk, had stayed out with them and come home with them, besides making it impossible that they shouldn’t presently feign to recollect how rejoining the child had been their original purpose. Maggie’s uneffaced note was that it had, at the end of five minutes more, driven them to that endeavour as to a refuge, and caused them afterwards to rejoice, as well, that the boy’s irrepressibly importunate company, in due course secured and enjoyed, with the extension imparted by his governess, a person expectant of consideration, constituted a cover for any awkwardness. For that was what it had all come to, that the dear man had spoken to her to TRY her—quite as he had been spoken to himself by Charlotte, with the same fine idea. The Princess took it in, on the spot, firmly grasping it; she heard them together, her father and his wife, dealing with the queer case. “The Prince tells me that Maggie has a plan for your taking some foreign journey with him, and, as he likes to do everything she wants, he has suggested my speaking to you for it as the thing most likely to make you consent. So I do speak—see?—being always so eager myself, as you know, to meet Maggie’s wishes. I speak, but without quite understanding, this time, what she has in her head. Why SHOULD she, of a sudden, at this particular moment, desire to ship you off together and to remain here alone with me? The compliment’s all to me, I admit, and you must decide quite as you like. The Prince is quite ready, evidently, to do his part—but you’ll have it out with him. That is you’ll have it out with HER.” Something of that kind was what, in her mind’s ear, Maggie heard—and this, after his waiting for her to appeal to him directly, was her father’s invitation to her to have it out. Well, as she could say to herself all the rest of the day, that was what they did while they continued to sit there in their penny chairs, that was what they HAD done as much as they would now ever, ever, have out anything. The measure of this, at least, had been given, that each would fight to the last for the protection, for the perversion, of any real anxiety. She had confessed, instantly, with her humbugging grin, not flinching by a hair, meeting his eyes as mildly as he met hers, she had confessed to her fancy that they might both, he and his son-in-law, have welcomed such an escapade, since they had both been so long so furiously domestic. She had almost cocked her hat under the inspiration of this opportunity to hint how a couple of spirited young men, reacting from confinement and sallying forth arm-in-arm, might encounter the agreeable in forms that would strike them for the time at least as novel. She had felt for fifty seconds, with her eyes, all so sweetly and falsely, in her companion’s, horribly vulgar; yet without minding it either—such luck should she have if to be nothing worse than vulgar would see her through. “And I thought Amerigo might like it better,” she had said, “than wandering off alone.”
Her mind had taken a long detour, drifting far into the idea of what a summer at Fawns, with Amerigo and Charlotte prominently present against that vast sky, would bring. Wasn’t her father just pretending to talk about it? just as she was, in a way, pretending to listen? He finally changed the subject anyway, prompted by the clear shift it had created; it had essentially interrupted her private daydream with the realization that he had started to IMITATE—oh, like never before!—the old tone of gold. It had genuinely come from him, the question of whether she thought it would be really, really good for him to leave England for a few weeks, under some pretext, with the Prince. That's when she realized that her husband’s “threat” hadn’t truly gone away, since she was faced with its impact. Ah, the impact had consumed the rest of their walk, had lingered with them, and returned home with them, making it impossible to pretend they still remembered that rejoining the child had been their original plan. Maggie’s undeniable note was that, five minutes later, it had pushed them to seek refuge in that endeavor, and made them later happy that the boy’s persistently pressing presence, eventually secured and enjoyed, along with the added time with his governess—a person expecting respect—provided cover for any awkwardness. For that’s what it all boiled down to, that the dear man had spoken to her to TEST her—just as Charlotte had tested him with the same clever idea. The Princess understood it immediately, grasping it firmly; she heard them, her father and his wife, discussing the strange situation. “The Prince tells me that Maggie has a plan for you to take a trip abroad with him, and since he likes to do everything she wants, he suggested I talk to you about it as the best chance to get you to agree. So I’m bringing it up—see?—always eager myself, as you know, to meet Maggie’s wishes. I’m speaking, but honestly not fully understanding what she has in mind this time. Why SHOULD she, all of a sudden, at this moment, want to send you off together and stay here alone with me? I admit the compliment’s directed at me, and you should decide as you wish. The Prince is clearly ready to do his part, but you’ll need to discuss it with him. I mean, you’ll need to discuss it with HER.” That’s the kind of thing that, in her mind, Maggie heard—and this, after her father had waited for her to directly appeal to him, was his invitation for her to talk it out. Well, as she reminded herself throughout the day, that’s exactly what they did while they sat in their cheap chairs; that was what they HAD done as much as they would ever, ever, resolve anything. The extent of this had been clear: each would fight to the very end for the protection, for the distortion, of any real concern. She had immediately confessed, with her disingenuous grin, not flinching an inch, meeting his eyes as gently as he met hers; she had admitted her thought that they both, he and his son-in-law, might have welcomed such an adventure, since they had both been so intensely homebound for so long. She had almost tilted her hat under the inspiration of this chance to suggest how a couple of spirited young men, breaking free from confinement and stepping out arm-in-arm, might encounter the enjoyable in ways they would find at least temporarily novel. She had felt for fifty seconds, with her eyes, all sweetly and falsely, in her companion’s, dreadfully ordinary; yet without caring—how fortunate she would be if merely being ordinary would see her through. “And I thought Amerigo might like it better,” she had said, “than wandering off alone.”
“Do you mean that he won’t go unless I take him?”
“Are you saying he won’t go unless I take him?”
She had considered here, and never in her life had she considered so promptly and so intently. If she really put it that way, her husband, challenged, might belie the statement; so that what would that do but make her father wonder, make him perhaps ask straight out, why she was exerting pressure? She couldn’t of course afford to be suspected for an instant of exerting pressure; which was why she was obliged only to make answer: “Wouldn’t that be just what you must have out with HIM?”
She had thought about it here, and never in her life had she thought so quickly and so deeply. If she put it that way, her husband might dispute her claim; and that would only make her father curious, maybe even ask directly why she was pushing. She couldn’t afford to be suspected, even for a moment, of putting pressure on anyone; that’s why she had to respond only with: “Wouldn't that be exactly what you need to discuss with HIM?”
“Decidedly—if he makes me the proposal. But he hasn’t made it yet.”
“Definitely—if he makes me the offer. But he hasn’t done that yet.”
Oh, once more, how she was to feel she had smirked! “Perhaps he’s too shy!”
Oh, once again, how she must have felt like she had smirked! “Maybe he’s just too shy!”
“Because you’re so sure he so really wants my company?”
“Because you’re so convinced he really wants to be around me?”
“I think he has thought you might like it.”
“I think he thought you might like it.”
“Well, I should—!” But with this he looked away from her, and she held her breath to hear him either ask if she wished him to address the question to Amerigo straight, or inquire if she should be greatly disappointed by his letting it drop. What had “settled” her, as she was privately to call it, was that he had done neither of these things, and had thereby markedly stood off from the risk involved in trying to draw out her reason. To attenuate, on the other hand, this appearance, and quite as if to fill out the too large receptacle made, so musingly, by his abstention, he had himself presently given her a reason—had positively spared her the effort of asking whether he judged Charlotte not to have approved. He had taken everything on himself—THAT was what had settled her. She had had to wait very little more to feel, with this, how much he was taking. The point he made was his lack of any eagerness to put time and space, on any such scale, between himself and his wife. He wasn’t so unhappy with her—far from it, and Maggie was to hold that he had grinned back, paternally, through his rather shielding glasses, in easy emphasis of this—as to be able to hint that he required the relief of absence. Therefore, unless it was for the Prince himself—!
“Well, I should—!” But with that, he looked away from her, and she held her breath, waiting to see if he would either ask her to bring up the question with Amerigo directly or if he would want to know if she would be really disappointed if he just dropped it. What had “settled” her, as she would privately call it, was that he did neither of those things, which clearly showed he was avoiding the risk of trying to get her to share her reason. To soften that impression, and almost to fill the too-large space created by his abstention, he soon offered her a reason—he had actually spared her from having to ask if he thought Charlotte wouldn’t approve. He had taken everything on himself—THAT was what had settled her. She hardly had to wait any longer to realize how much he was taking on. His point was that he showed no eagerness to put any distance, in time or space, between himself and his wife. He wasn’t unhappy with her—not at all, and Maggie would later believe he had smiled back at her, almost paternal, behind his protective glasses, to emphasize that—that he didn’t need the relief of being away. So, unless it was for the Prince himself—!
“Oh, I don’t think it would have been for Amerigo himself. Amerigo and I,” Maggie had said, “perfectly rub on together.”
“Oh, I don’t think it would have been for Amerigo himself. Amerigo and I,” Maggie had said, “get along perfectly.”
“Well then, there we are.”
“Well, there we go.”
“I see”—and she had again, with sublime blandness, assented. “There we are.”
“I see”—and she had again, with a calm indifference, agreed. “There we are.”
“Charlotte and I too,” her father had gaily proceeded, “perfectly rub on together.” And then he had appeared for a little to be making time. “To put it only so,” he had mildly and happily added—“to put it only so!” He had spoken as if he might easily put it much better, yet as if the humour of contented understatement fairly sufficed for the occasion. He had played then, either all consciously or all unconsciously, into Charlotte’s hands; and the effect of this was to render trebly oppressive Maggie’s conviction of Charlotte’s plan. She had done what she wanted, his wife had—which was also what Amerigo had made her do. She had kept her test, Maggie’s test, from becoming possible, and had applied instead a test of her own. It was exactly as if she had known that her stepdaughter would be afraid to be summoned to say, under the least approach to cross-examination, why any change was desirable; and it was, for our young woman herself, still more prodigiously, as if her father had been capable of calculations to match, of judging it important he shouldn’t be brought to demand of her what was the matter with her. Why otherwise, with such an opportunity, hadn’t he demanded it? Always from calculation—that was why, that was why. He was terrified of the retort he might have invoked: “What, my dear, if you come to that, is the matter with YOU?” When, a minute later on, he had followed up his last note by a touch or two designed still further to conjure away the ghost of the anomalous, at that climax verily she would have had to be dumb to the question. “There seems a kind of charm, doesn’t there? on our life—and quite as if, just lately, it had got itself somehow renewed, had waked up refreshed. A kind of wicked selfish prosperity perhaps, as if we had grabbed everything, fixed everything, down to the last lovely object for the last glass case of the last corner, left over, of my old show. That’s the only take-off, that it has made us perhaps lazy, a wee bit languid—lying like gods together, all careless of mankind.”
“Charlotte and I too,” her father had said cheerfully, “fit perfectly together.” Then he seemed to pause for a moment. “To put it simply,” he added, pleasantly and lightly—“to put it simply!” He spoke as if he could have said it much better but felt that a humorous understatement was enough for the moment. He had either knowingly or unknowingly played right into Charlotte’s hands; and this made Maggie’s certainty about Charlotte’s plan even more overwhelming. She had done what she wanted—his wife had—which was also what Amerigo had pushed her to do. She had prevented Maggie’s test from becoming feasible and imposed her own instead. It was almost like she knew her stepdaughter would hesitate to explain why any change would be good under even the slightest questioning; and for our young woman, it was even more striking that her father seemed to be able to calculate the importance of not asking her what was wrong. Why else, when he had such a chance, hadn’t he asked? Always from calculation—that was the reason, that was the reason. He was afraid of the question he might have opened up: “What, my dear, if you think about it, is the matter with YOU?” A minute later, he had followed up his last comment with a few gestures meant to further dispel any awkwardness, and at that moment she would truly have had to stay silent to the question. “There seems to be a kind of charm, doesn’t there? in our life—and it’s almost as if, just recently, it has somehow been renewed, awakened fresh. A sort of wicked, selfish prosperity perhaps, as if we had claimed everything, arranged everything, down to the last beautiful piece for the last display case in the last corner of my old show. That’s the only downside, that it may have made us a bit lazy, a little too relaxed—lying together like gods, unconcerned about the world.”
“Do you consider that we’re languid?”—that form of rejoinder she had jumped at for the sake of its pretty lightness. “Do you consider that we are careless of mankind?—living as we do in the biggest crowd in the world, and running about always pursued and pursuing.”
“Do you think we're lazy?”—that type of response she eagerly embraced for its charming ease. “Do you think we don’t care about people?—since we live in the largest crowd in the world, always rushing around, being chased and chasing.”
It had made him think indeed a little longer than she had meant; but he came up again, as she might have said, smiling. “Well, I don’t know. We get nothing but the fun, do we?”
It made him think a bit longer than she intended; but he returned, as she might say, smiling. “Well, I don’t know. We only get the fun, right?”
“No,” she had hastened to declare; “we certainly get nothing but the fun.”
“No,” she quickly stated; “we definitely only get the fun.”
“We do it all,” he had remarked, “so beautifully.”
“We do it all,” he had said, “so perfectly.”
“We do it all so beautifully.” She hadn’t denied this for a moment. “I see what you mean.”
“We do it all so beautifully.” She hadn't disputed that at all. “I get what you’re saying.”
“Well, I mean too,” he had gone on, “that we haven’t, no doubt, enough, the sense of difficulty.”
"Well, I mean me too," he continued, "that we definitely don’t have enough of a sense of difficulty."
“Enough? Enough for what?”
“Enough? Enough for what, though?”
“Enough not to be selfish.”
“Just enough to not be selfish.”
“I don’t think YOU are selfish,” she had returned—and had managed not to wail it.
“I don’t think YOU are selfish,” she replied—and she managed not to yell it.
“I don’t say that it’s me particularly—or that it’s you or Charlotte or Amerigo. But we’re selfish together—we move as a selfish mass. You see we want always the same thing,” he had gone on—“and that holds us, that binds us, together. We want each other,” he had further explained; “only wanting it, each time, FOR each other. That’s what I call the happy spell; but it’s also, a little, possibly, the immorality.”
“I’m not saying it’s just me—or that it’s you or Charlotte or Amerigo. But we’re selfish together—we act as a selfish group. You see, we always want the same thing,” he continued—“and that connects us, that keeps us together. We want each other,” he further explained; “but we want it, each time, FOR each other. That’s what I call the happy spell; but it’s also, in a way, possibly, a bit immoral.”
“‘The immorality’?” she had pleasantly echoed.
“‘The immorality?’” she had cheerfully repeated.
“Well, we’re tremendously moral for ourselves—that is for each other; and I won’t pretend that I know exactly at whose particular personal expense you and I, for instance, are happy. What it comes to, I daresay, is that there’s something haunting—as if it were a bit uncanny—in such a consciousness of our general comfort and privilege. Unless indeed,” he had rambled on, “it’s only I to whom, fantastically, it says so much. That’s all I mean, at any rate—that it’s sort of soothing; as if we were sitting about on divans, with pigtails, smoking opium and seeing visions. ‘Let us then be up and doing’—what is it Longfellow says? That seems sometimes to ring out; like the police breaking in—into our opium den—to give us a shake. But the beauty of it is, at the same time, that we ARE doing; we’re doing, that is, after all, what we went in for. We’re working it, our life, our chance, whatever you may call it, as we saw it, as we felt it, from the first. We HAVE worked it, and what more can you do than that? It’s a good deal for me,” he had wound up, “to have made Charlotte so happy—to have so perfectly contented her. YOU, from a good way back, were a matter of course—I mean your being all right; so that I needn’t mind your knowing that my great interest, since then, has rather inevitably been in making sure of the same success, very much to your advantage as well, for Charlotte. If we’ve worked our life, our idea really, as I say—if at any rate I can sit here and say that I’ve worked my share of it—it has not been what you may call least by our having put Charlotte so at her ease. THAT has been soothing, all round; that has curled up as the biggest of the blue fumes, or whatever they are, of the opium. Don’t you see what a cropper we would have come if she hadn’t settled down as she has?” And he had concluded by turning to Maggie as for something she mightn’t really have thought of. “You, darling, in that case, I verily believe, would have been the one to hate it most.”
“Well, we’re incredibly moral when it comes to ourselves—that is, to each other; and I won’t pretend that I know exactly whose personal expense you and I, for example, are happy about. What it comes down to, I guess, is that there’s something eerie—as if it were a bit unsettling—in being aware of our overall comfort and privilege. Unless, of course,” he went on, “it’s only me who finds that so significant in a strange way. That’s all I mean, anyway—that it’s kind of comforting; as if we were lounging on couches, with pigtails, smoking opium and having visions. ‘Let us then be up and doing’—what is it Longfellow says? That sometimes feels like it’s ringing out; like the police breaking in—into our opium den—to wake us up. But the beauty of it is, at the same time, that we ARE doing; we’re doing what we set out to do. We’re making the most of our life, our chance, whatever you want to call it, just as we saw it and felt it from the beginning. We HAVE made it work, and what more can you do than that? It means a lot to me,” he wrapped up, “to have made Charlotte so happy—to have perfectly satisfied her. YOU, for quite some time, were a given—I mean your being okay; so I needn’t worry about you knowing that my main focus since then has been on ensuring the same success, which benefits you too, for Charlotte. If we’ve worked our life, our idea really, as I said—if I can sit here and say that I’ve done my part—it hasn’t been least due to the fact that we’ve made Charlotte so comfortable. THAT has been soothing all around; that has drifted in like the biggest of the blue fumes, or whatever they are, of the opium. Don’t you see what a disaster we would have faced if she hadn’t settled down as she has?” And he finished by turning to Maggie as if for something she might not have considered. “You, darling, in that case, I honestly believe, would have been the one to dislike it the most.”
“To hate it—?” Maggie had wondered.
“To hate it—?” Maggie had thought.
“To hate our having, with our tremendous intentions, not brought it off. And I daresay I should have hated it for you even more than for myself.”
“To hate that we tried so hard but didn't succeed. And I believe I would have hated it for you even more than for myself.”
“That’s not unlikely perhaps when it was for me, after all, that you did it.”
"That's not too surprising, considering it was for me that you did it, after all."
He had hesitated, but only a moment. “I never told you so.”
He hesitated, but just for a moment. "I never said that."
“Well, Charlotte herself soon enough told me.”
“Well, Charlotte herself told me pretty quickly.”
“But I never told HER,” her father had answered.
“But I never told her,” her father had replied.
“Are you very sure?” she had presently asked.
"Are you really sure?" she had asked.
“Well, I like to think how thoroughly I was taken with her, and how right I was, and how fortunate, to have that for my basis. I told her all the good I thought of her.”
“Well, I like to think about how completely I was captivated by her, and how right I was, and how lucky I felt to have that as my foundation. I shared all the positive things I thought about her.”
“Then that,” Maggie had returned, “was precisely part of the good. I mean it was precisely part of it that she could so beautifully understand.”
“Then that,” Maggie had replied, “was exactly what was good about it. I mean it was exactly what made it so beautiful that she could understand it so well.”
“Yes—understand everything.”
“Yep—get it all.”
“Everything—and in particular your reasons. Her telling me—that showed me how she had understood.”
“Everything—and especially your reasons. Her telling me that showed me how she understood.”
They were face to face again now, and she saw she had made his colour rise; it was as if he were still finding in her eyes the concrete image, the enacted scene, of her passage with Charlotte, which he was now hearing of for the first time and as to which it would have been natural he should question her further. His forbearance to do so would but mark, precisely, the complication of his fears. “What she does like,” he finally said, “is the way it has succeeded.”
They were face to face again, and she noticed that he was blushing; it was as if he was still seeing in her eyes the clear image, the vivid scene, of her time with Charlotte, which he was now hearing about for the first time and about which it would have made sense for him to ask her more questions. His choice not to do so only highlighted the complexity of his worries. “What she really likes,” he finally said, “is how well it has gone.”
“Your marriage?”
"Your wedding?"
“Yes—my whole idea. The way I’ve been justified. That’s the joy I give her. If for HER, either, it had failed—!” That, however, was not worth talking about; he had broken off. “You think then you could now risk Fawns?”
“Yes—my entire concept. The way I’ve been validated. That’s the joy I give her. If it had failed for HER as well—!” That, though, wasn’t worth discussing; he had stopped. “So you think you could now take a chance with Fawns?”
“‘Risk’ it?”
"Are you willing to risk it?"
“Well, morally—from the point of view I was talking of; that of our sinking deeper into sloth. Our selfishness, somehow, seems at its biggest down there.”
“Well, morally—from the perspective I was discussing; that of our descending further into laziness. Our selfishness, in a way, appears to be at its peak down there.”
Maggie had allowed him the amusement of her not taking this up. “Is Charlotte,” she had simply asked, “really ready?”
Maggie had given him the pleasure of not pursuing this further. “Is Charlotte,” she had simply asked, “actually ready?”
“Oh, if you and I and Amerigo are. Whenever one corners Charlotte,” he had developed more at his ease, “one finds that she only wants to know what we want. Which is what we got her for!”
“Oh, if you, me, and Amerigo are. Whenever someone confronts Charlotte,” he continued more comfortably, “it turns out she only wants to know what we want. Which is exactly why we got her!”
“What we got her for—exactly!” And so, for a little, even though with a certain effect of oddity in their more or less successful ease, they left it; left it till Maggie made the remark that it was all the same wonderful her stepmother should be willing, before the season was out, to exchange so much company for so much comparative solitude.
“What we got her for—exactly!” So, for a bit, even though there was something odd about their somewhat awkward comfort, they moved on; they moved on until Maggie pointed out that it was truly amazing her stepmother would be willing, before the season was over, to trade so much company for so much relative solitude.
“Ah,” he had then made answer, “that’s because her idea, I think, this time, is that we shall have more people, more than we’ve hitherto had, in the country. Don’t you remember that THAT, originally, was what we were to get her for?”
“Ah,” he then replied, “that’s because her idea, I think, this time, is that we’ll have more people, more than we’ve ever had, in the country. Don’t you remember that THAT was originally why we were supposed to get her?”
“Oh yes—to give us a life.” Maggie had gone through the form of recalling this, and the light of their ancient candour, shining from so far back, had seemed to bring out some things so strangely that, with the sharpness of the vision, she had risen to her feet. “Well, with a ‘life’ Fawns will certainly do.” He had remained in his place while she looked over his head; the picture, in her vision, had suddenly swarmed. The vibration was that of one of the lurches of the mystic train in which, with her companion, she was travelling; but she was having to steady herself, this time, before meeting his eyes. She had measured indeed the full difference between the move to Fawns because each of them now knew the others wanted it and the pairing-off, for a journey, of her husband and her father, which nobody knew that either wanted. “More company” at Fawns would be effectually enough the key in which her husband and her stepmother were at work; there was truly no question but that she and her father must accept any array of visitors. No one could try to marry him now. What he had just said was a direct plea for that, and what was the plea itself but an act of submission to Charlotte? He had, from his chair, been noting her look, but he had, the next minute, also risen, and then it was they had reminded each other of their having come out for the boy. Their junction with him and with his companion successfully effected, the four had moved home more slowly, and still more vaguely; yet with a vagueness that permitted of Maggie’s reverting an instant to the larger issue.
“Oh yes—to give us a life.” Maggie had gone through the motions of remembering this, and the light of their old honesty, shining from so long ago, had seemed to reveal some things so oddly that, with the clarity of the memory, she had stood up. “Well, a ‘life’ at Fawns will definitely work.” He stayed in his seat while she looked past him; the image in her mind had suddenly become crowded. The feeling was like one of the jolts from the mysterious train she was traveling on with her companion; but this time, she had to steady herself before meeting his gaze. She had genuinely grasped the full difference between moving to Fawns because they both now knew that was what the other wanted and the pairing off, for a trip, of her husband and her father, which nobody knew either of them wanted. “More company” at Fawns would definitely be the framework that her husband and her stepmother were operating in; there was truly no question that she and her father had to accept any mix of visitors. No one could try to marry him now. What he had just said was a direct request for that, and what was the request itself but an act of submission to Charlotte? He had, from his chair, been observing her expression, but the next moment, he also stood up, and then they reminded each other that they had come out for the boy. Once they successfully reunited with him and his companion, the four of them moved home more slowly and even more vaguely; yet with a vagueness that allowed Maggie to briefly reflect on the larger issue.
“If we have people in the country then, as you were saying, do you know for whom my first fancy would be? You may be amused, but it would be for the Castledeans.”
“If we have people in the country, then, as you mentioned, do you know who my first choice would be? You might find it funny, but it would be the Castledeans.”
“I see. But why should I be amused?”
“I get it. But why should I find this funny?”
“Well, I mean I am myself. I don’t think I like her—and yet I like to see her: which, as Amerigo says, is ‘rum.’”
“Well, I mean I am who I am. I don’t think I like her—and yet I enjoy seeing her: which, as Amerigo says, is ‘strange.’”
“But don’t you feel she’s very handsome?” her father inquired.
“But don’t you think she’s really attractive?” her father asked.
“Yes, but it isn’t for that.”
“Yes, but that's not the reason.”
“Then what is it for?”
“Then what’s it for?”
“Simply that she may be THERE—just there before us. It’s as if she may have a value—as if something may come of her. I don’t in the least know what, and she rather irritates me meanwhile. I don’t even know, I admit, why—but if we see her often enough I may find out.”
“Just having her THERE—right there in front of us. It feels like she might have some kind of value—as if she could lead to something. I really have no idea what that might be, and honestly, she annoys me in the meantime. I can’t even say why, but if we see her often enough, I might figure it out.”
“Does it matter so very much?” her companion had asked while they moved together.
“Does it really matter that much?” her companion had asked as they walked together.
She had hesitated. “You mean because you do rather like her?”
She paused. “You mean because you actually like her?”
He on his side too had waited a little, but then he had taken it from her. “Yes, I guess I do rather like her.”
He had waited a bit as well, but then he took it from her. “Yeah, I suppose I do kind of like her.”
Which she accepted for the first case she could recall of their not being affected by a person in the same way. It came back therefore to his pretending; but she had gone far enough, and to add to her appearance of levity she further observed that, though they were so far from a novelty, she should also immediately desire, at Fawns, the presence of the Assinghams. That put everything on a basis independent of explanations; yet it was extraordinary, at the same time, how much, once in the country again with the others, she was going, as they used to say at home, to need the presence of the good Fanny. It was the strangest thing in the world, but it was as if Mrs. Assingham might in a manner mitigate the intensity of her consciousness of Charlotte. It was as if the two would balance, one against the other; as if it came round again in that fashion to her idea of the equilibrium. It would be like putting this friend into her scale to make weight—into the scale with her father and herself. Amerigo and Charlotte would be in the other; therefore it would take the three of them to keep that one straight. And as this played, all duskily, in her mind it had received from her father, with a sound of suddenness, a luminous contribution. “Ah, rather! DO let’s have the Assinghams.”
Which she accepted as the first time she could remember that they weren’t influenced by someone in the same way. It came back to his pretending; but she had gone far enough, and to add to her appearance of lightness, she mentioned that, although they were anything but new to her, she would also immediately want the Assinghams to join them at Fawns. That set everything on a level that didn’t depend on explanations; yet it was surprising, at the same time, how much, once back in the countryside with the others, she felt she would need the good Fanny. It was the strangest thing ever, but it seemed that Mrs. Assingham could somehow ease her awareness of Charlotte. It was as if the two would balance each other out; it brought her back to her idea of equilibrium. It would be like adding this friend to her side of the scale to make it even—alongside her father and herself. Amerigo and Charlotte would be on the other side; therefore it would take the three of them to keep that side steady. And as this played out, dimly, in her mind, it suddenly received a bright contribution from her father. “Ah, for sure! Let’s get the Assinghams.”
“It would be to have them,” she had said, “as we used so much to have them. For a good long stay, in the old way and on the old terms: ‘as regular boarders’ Fanny used to call it. That is if they’ll come.”
“It would be great to have them,” she said, “like we used to have them. For a nice long visit, the way we did before and on the same terms: ‘as regular boarders,’ Fanny used to call it. That is, if they’ll come.”
“As regular boarders, on the old terms—that’s what I should like too. But I guess they’ll come,” her companion had added in a tone into which she had read meanings. The main meaning was that he felt he was going to require them quite as much as she was. His recognition of the new terms as different from the old, what was that, practically, but a confession that something had happened, and a perception that, interested in the situation she had helped to create, Mrs. Assingham would be, by so much as this, concerned in its inevitable development? It amounted to an intimation, off his guard, that he should be thankful for some one to turn to. If she had wished covertly to sound him he had now, in short, quite given himself away, and if she had, even at the start, needed anything MORE to settle her, here assuredly was enough. He had hold of his small grandchild as they retraced their steps, swinging the boy’s hand and not bored, as he never was, by his always bristling, like a fat little porcupine, with shrill interrogation-points—so that, secretly, while they went, she had wondered again if the equilibrium mightn’t have been more real, mightn’t above all have demanded less strange a study, had it only been on the books that Charlotte should give him a Principino of his own. She had repossessed herself now of his other arm, only this time she was drawing him back, gently, helplessly back, to what they had tried, for the hour, to get away from—just as he was consciously drawing the child, and as high Miss Bogle on her left, representing the duties of home, was complacently drawing HER. The duties of home, when the house in Portland Place reappeared, showed, even from a distance, as vividly there before them. Amerigo and Charlotte had come in—that is Amerigo had, Charlotte, rather, having come out—and the pair were perched together in the balcony, he bare-headed, she divested of her jacket, her mantle, or whatever, but crowned with a brilliant brave hat, responsive to the balmy day, which Maggie immediately “spotted” as new, as insuperably original, as worn, in characteristic generous harmony, for the first time; all, evidently, to watch for the return of the absent, to be there to take them over again as punctually as possible. They were gay, they were amused, in the pleasant morning; they leaned across the rail and called down their greeting, lighting up the front of the great black house with an expression that quite broke the monotony, that might almost have shocked the decency, of Portland Place. The group on the pavement stared up as at the peopled battlements of a castle; even Miss Bogle, who carried her head most aloft, gaped a little, through the interval of space, as toward truly superior beings. There could scarce have been so much of the open mouth since the dingy waits, on Christmas Eve, had so lamentably chanted for pennies—the time when Amerigo, insatiable for English customs, had come out, with a gasped “Santissima Vergine!” to marvel at the depositaries of this tradition and purchase a reprieve. Maggie’s individual gape was inevitably again for the thought of how the pair would be at work.
“As regular residents, under the old terms—that’s what I’d like too. But I guess they’ll show up,” her companion had added in a tone that suggested more. The main implication was that he felt he would need them just as much as she would. His acknowledgment of the new terms as different from the old was, practically speaking, an admission that something had changed, and a recognition that Mrs. Assingham, interested in the situation she had helped create, would inevitably be involved in its development. It hinted, inadvertently, that he should be grateful for someone to lean on. If she had subtly tried to probe him, he had, in essence, revealed himself, and if she needed anything MORE to reassure her, this was certainly sufficient. He was holding his small grandchild as they retraced their steps, swinging the boy’s hand and not the least bit bored, as he never was, by the child’s constant questions—like a fat little porcupine, full of sharp little inquiries—so that, secretly, as they walked, she wondered again if the balance might not have been more genuine, if it might not have required a less strange arrangement, had it only been agreed that Charlotte should have a Principino of his own. She had taken hold of his other arm now, but this time she was gently, helplessly drawing him back to what they had tried, for the hour, to escape—just as he was consciously leading the child, and as the ever-reliable Miss Bogle on her left, representing the responsibilities of home, was complacently guiding HER. The responsibilities of home, when the house on Portland Place came back into view, were strikingly clear even from a distance. Amerigo and Charlotte had come inside—that is, Amerigo had; Charlotte, rather, having come outside—and the pair were perched together on the balcony, he bare-headed, she without her jacket or coat, but wonderfully adorned with a bright, bold hat, fitting for the pleasant day, which Maggie immediately noticed as new, undeniably original, and worn in a typical generous way for the first time; all clearly to await the return of those missing, to be there to welcome them back as promptly as possible. They were cheerful, they were having fun, on that lovely morning; they leaned over the rail and called down their greetings, lighting up the front of the imposing black house with expressions that broke the monotony and might almost have shocked the decorum of Portland Place. The group on the sidewalk gazed up as if at the lively battlements of a castle; even Miss Bogle, who held her head the highest, stared a bit, through the gap of space, as if at truly extraordinary beings. There hadn’t been so much wide-eyed wonder since the dingy carolers on Christmas Eve had sadly begged for pennies—the time when Amerigo, eager to embrace English customs, had come out with a gasped “Santissima Vergine!” to marvel at the guardians of this tradition and buy a reprieve. Maggie’s individual astonishment inevitably returned to the thought of how the couple would be at work.
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XXX
She had not again, for weeks, had Mrs. Assingham so effectually in presence as on the afternoon of that lady’s return from the Easter party at Matcham; but the intermission was made up as soon as the date of the migration to Fawns—that of the more or less simultaneous adjournment of the two houses—began to be discussed. It had struck her, promptly, that this renewal, with an old friend, of the old terms she had talked of with her father, was the one opening, for her spirit, that wouldn’t too much advertise or betray her. Even her father, who had always, as he would have said, “believed in” their ancient ally, wouldn’t necessarily suspect her of invoking Fanny’s aid toward any special inquiry—and least of all if Fanny would only act as Fanny so easily might. Maggie’s measure of Fanny’s ease would have been agitating to Mrs. Assingham had it been all at once revealed to her—as, for that matter, it was soon destined to become even on a comparatively graduated showing. Our young woman’s idea, in particular, was that her safety, her escape from being herself suspected of suspicion, would proceed from this friend’s power to cover, to protect and, as might be, even showily to represent her—represent, that is, her relation to the form of the life they were all actually leading. This would doubtless be, as people said, a large order; but that Mrs. Assingham existed, substantially, or could somehow be made prevailingly to exist, for her private benefit, was the finest flower Maggie had plucked from among the suggestions sown, like abundant seed, on the occasion of the entertainment offered in Portland Place to the Matcham company. Mrs. Assingham, that night, rebounding from dejection, had bristled with bravery and sympathy; she had then absolutely, she had perhaps recklessly, for herself, betrayed the deeper and darker consciousness—an impression it would now be late for her inconsistently to attempt to undo. It was with a wonderful air of giving out all these truths that the Princess at present approached her again; making doubtless at first a sufficient scruple of letting her know what in especial she asked of her, yet not a bit ashamed, as she in fact quite expressly declared, of Fanny’s discerned foreboding of the strange uses she might perhaps have for her. Quite from the first, really, Maggie said extraordinary things to her, such as “You can help me, you know, my dear, when nobody else can;” such as “I almost wish, upon my word, that you had something the matter with you, that you had lost your health, or your money, or your reputation (forgive me, love!) so that I might be with you as much as I want, or keep you with ME, without exciting comment, without exciting any other remark than that such kindnesses are ‘like’ me.” We have each our own way of making up for our unselfishness, and Maggie, who had no small self at all as against her husband or her father and only a weak and uncertain one as against her stepmother, would verily, at this crisis, have seen Mrs. Assingham’s personal life or liberty sacrificed without a pang.
She hadn't spent time with Mrs. Assingham for weeks, not until that lady returned from the Easter party at Matcham, but once the talk of moving to Fawns—when both households would be leaving at the same time—started, the break was quickly filled. Maggie immediately realized that this renewal of her relationship with an old friend, discussing the same things she’d talked about with her father, was the one chance for her to express herself without revealing too much. Even her father, who would always claim to “believe in” their old friend, wouldn’t necessarily think she was asking Fanny for help with any special matter—and especially not if Fanny acted in her usual way. Maggie’s understanding of how comfortable Fanny was would have worried Mrs. Assingham if she had known, as it would soon become clear even in a more gradual way. Maggie's main idea was that her safety—her ability to avoid coming across as suspicious—would depend on her friend's power to cover her, protect her, and even present her in a way that represented their current lives. This would surely be a big challenge, as people said, but the fact that Mrs. Assingham could exist, or be made to exist for Maggie’s private benefit, was the best outcome Maggie had gotten from all the ideas that had come up during the gathering at Portland Place for the Matcham guests. That night, Mrs. Assingham had bounced back from her sadness, full of courage and sympathy; perhaps she had recklessly revealed her deeper, darker feelings—something she could no longer take back. With a remarkable sense of revealing these truths, the Princess approached her again; she hesitated at first about what exactly she was asking, yet wasn’t at all ashamed—despite her worries—about Fanny’s awareness that she might need her for unusual reasons. Right from the start, Maggie said surprising things to her, like “You can help me, you know, my dear, when nobody else can;” or “I almost wish, honestly, that you had something wrong with you, like losing your health, your money, or your reputation (forgive me, love!) so I could be with you as much as I want, or keep you with ME, without raising eyebrows, without any remark other than that such kindnesses are ‘like’ me.” We each have our own ways of compensating for our selflessness, and Maggie, who didn’t have much of an identity compared to her husband or father, and only a weak one against her stepmother, would genuinely have been willing to sacrifice Mrs. Assingham’s personal life or freedom without a second thought.
The attitude that the appetite in question maintained in her was to draw peculiar support moreover from the current aspects and agitations of her victim. This personage struck her, in truth, as ready for almost anything; as not perhaps effusively protesting, yet as wanting with a restlessness of her own to know what she wanted. And in the long run—which was none so long either—there was to be no difficulty, as happened, about that. It was as if, for all the world, Maggie had let her see that she held her, that she made her, fairly responsible for something; not, to begin with, dotting all the i’s nor hooking together all the links, but treating her, without insistence, rather with caressing confidence, as there to see and to know, to advise and to assist. The theory, visibly, had patched itself together for her that the dear woman had somehow, from the early time, had a hand in ALL their fortunes, so that there was no turn of their common relations and affairs that couldn’t be traced back in some degree to her original affectionate interest. On this affectionate interest the good lady’s young friend now built, before her eyes—very much as a wise, or even as a mischievous, child, playing on the floor, might pile up blocks, skilfully and dizzily, with an eye on the face of a covertly-watching elder.
The attitude that her appetite had was noticeably influenced by the current feelings and struggles of her target. This person struck her as ready for almost anything; maybe not openly protesting, but certainly eager, in her own restless way, to figure out what she truly wanted. And in the end—which wasn’t long at all—there wouldn't be any trouble with that. It was as if Maggie had made it clear that she held her accountable for something. She wasn’t meticulously sorting everything out or connecting all the dots, but she treated her with a gentle assurance, as someone there to observe, understand, advise, and help. It was clear to her that this dear woman had played a role in all their fortunes from the start, so that every twist and turn in their shared lives could somehow be linked back to her early caring involvement. The good lady’s young friend now built on this affection right before her eyes—much like a clever, or even a mischievous, child playing on the floor, stacking blocks skillfully and quickly while keeping an eye on a watchful adult.
When the blocks tumbled down they but acted after the nature of blocks; yet the hour would come for their rising so high that the structure would have to be noticed and admired. Mrs. Assingham’s appearance of unreservedly giving herself involved meanwhile, on her own side, no separate recognitions: her face of almost anxious attention was directed altogether to her young friend’s so vivid felicity; it suggested that she took for granted, at the most, certain vague recent enhancements of that state. If the Princess now, more than before, was going and going, she was prompt to publish that she beheld her go, that she had always known she WOULD, sooner or later, and that any appeal for participation must more or less contain and invite the note of triumph. There was a blankness in her blandness, assuredly, and very nearly an extravagance in her generalising gaiety; a precipitation of cheer particularly marked whenever they met again after short separations: meetings during the first flush of which Maggie sometimes felt reminded of other looks in other faces; of two strangely unobliterated impressions above all, the physiognomic light that had played out in her husband at the shock—she had come at last to talk to herself of the “shock”—of his first vision of her on his return from Matcham and Gloucester, and the wonder of Charlotte’s beautiful bold wavering gaze when, the next morning in Eaton Square, this old friend had turned from the window to begin to deal with her.
When the blocks fell down, they acted just like blocks do; however, the time would come for them to rise so high that the structure would have to be noticed and admired. Mrs. Assingham’s way of fully giving herself involved, meanwhile, no separate acknowledgments from her side: her face, showing almost anxious attention, was completely focused on her young friend’s vibrant happiness; it suggested that she mostly took for granted certain vague recent improvements in that state. If the Princess was now going and going more than before, she was quick to announce that she saw her go, that she had always known she WOULD, sooner or later, and that any request for involvement must inevitably contain and invite a note of triumph. There was a blankness in her smoothness, certainly, and almost an exaggeration in her overall cheerfulness; a surge of happiness particularly noticeable whenever they met again after short separations: during the first moments of which, Maggie sometimes felt reminded of other expressions in other faces; of two oddly persistent impressions above all, the look that had played out in her husband at the shock—she had finally come to refer to it as the “shock”—of his first sight of her upon his return from Matcham and Gloucester, and the wonder of Charlotte’s beautiful, bold, wavering gaze when, the next morning in Eaton Square, this old friend had turned from the window to begin interacting with her.
If she had dared to think of it so crudely she would have said that Fanny was afraid of her, afraid of something she might say or do, even as, for their few brief seconds, Amerigo and Charlotte had been—which made, exactly, an expressive element common to the three. The difference however was that this look had in the dear woman its oddity of a constant renewal, whereas it had never for the least little instant again peeped out of the others. Other looks, other lights, radiant and steady, with the others, had taken its place, reaching a climax so short a time ago, that morning of the appearance of the pair on the balcony of her house to overlook what she had been doing with her father; when their general interested brightness and beauty, attuned to the outbreak of summer, had seemed to shed down warmth and welcome and the promise of protection. They were conjoined not to do anything to startle her—and now at last so completely that, with experience and practice, they had almost ceased to fear their liability. Mrs. Assingham, on the other hand, deprecating such an accident not less, had yet less assurance, as having less control. The high pitch of her cheer, accordingly, the tentative, adventurous expressions, of the would-be smiling order, that preceded her approach even like a squad of skirmishers, or whatever they were called, moving ahead of the baggage train—these things had at the end of a fortnight brought a dozen times to our young woman’s lips a challenge that had the cunning to await its right occasion, but of the relief of which, as a demonstration, she meanwhile felt no little need. “You’ve such a dread of my possibly complaining to you that you keep pealing all the bells to drown my voice; but don’t cry out, my dear, till you’re hurt—and above all ask yourself how I can be so wicked as to complain. What in the name of all that’s fantastic can you dream that I have to complain OF?” Such inquiries the Princess temporarily succeeded in repressing, and she did so, in a measure, by the aid of her wondering if this ambiguity with which her friend affected her wouldn’t be at present a good deal like the ambiguity with which she herself must frequently affect her father. She wondered how she should enjoy, on HIS part, such a take-up as she but just succeeded, from day to day, in sparing Mrs. Assingham, and that made for her trying to be as easy with this associate as Mr. Verver, blessed man, all indulgent but all inscrutable, was with his daughter. She had extracted from her, none the less, a vow in respect to the time that, if the Colonel might be depended on, they would spend at Fawns; and nothing came home to her more, in this connection, or inspired her with a more intimate interest, than her sense of absolutely seeing her interlocutress forbear to observe that Charlotte’s view of a long visit, even from such allies, was there to be reckoned with.
If she had allowed herself to think about it so plainly, she would have said that Fanny was scared of her, worried about something she might say or do, just like Amerigo and Charlotte had been for those brief moments, which created a shared feeling among the three of them. The difference, though, was that this expression had a quirky, constant renewal in the dear woman, while it had never once reappeared in the others. Other looks and other lights, vibrant and steady, had taken its place with the others, reaching a peak not long ago, that morning when the pair had shown up on the balcony of her house to check on what she was doing with her father. Their overall brightness and beauty, matched to the onset of summer, had seemed to radiate warmth, welcome, and the promise of protection. They were united in their intention not to startle her—and now, finally, so fully that, with experience and practice, they had almost stopped fearing their tendency to do so. Mrs. Assingham, however, despite her efforts to avoid such an incident, had even less confidence due to having less control. Consequently, the heightened cheerfulness of her tentative, adventurous expressions, like a team of skirmishers moving ahead of a baggage train, had over the course of two weeks led their young woman to repeatedly feel the urge to challenge that had cleverly waited for the right moment, though she felt no small need for relief from it in the meantime. “You’re so terrified of me possibly complaining that you keep ringing all the bells to drown my voice; but don’t shout, my dear, until you’re hurt—and above all, ask yourself how I could possibly be wicked enough to complain. What on earth could you think I have to complain about?” Such questions the Princess managed to push down for a while, partly by wondering if this ambiguity her friend had towards her wasn’t somewhat similar to the ambiguity with which she often had to treat her father. She contemplated how she would feel if he took up her case as she had just managed to spare Mrs. Assingham from, trying to be as easy with this friend as Mr. Verver, that blessed man, ever indulgent but always inscrutable, was with his daughter. Nevertheless, she had gotten a promise from her regarding the time they would spend at Fawns, if the Colonel could indeed be relied upon; and nothing struck her more in this regard, or stirred her deeper interest, than her realization that her conversation partner was holding back from recognizing that Charlotte’s idea of a long visit, even from such supporters, was definitely something to consider.
Fanny stood off from that proposition as visibly to the Princess, and as consciously to herself, as she might have backed away from the edge of a chasm into which she feared to slip; a truth that contributed again to keep before our young woman her own constant danger of advertising her subtle processes. That Charlotte should have begun to be restrictive about the Assinghams—which she had never, and for a hundred obviously good reasons, been before—this in itself was a fact of the highest value for Maggie, and of a value enhanced by the silence in which Fanny herself so much too unmistakably dressed it. What gave it quite thrillingly its price was exactly the circumstance that it thus opposed her to her stepmother more actively—if she was to back up her friends for holding out—than she had ever yet been opposed; though of course with the involved result of the fine chance given Mrs. Verver to ask her husband for explanations. Ah, from the moment she should be definitely CAUGHT in opposition there would be naturally no saying how much Charlotte’s opportunities might multiply! What would become of her father, she hauntedly asked, if his wife, on the one side, should begin to press him to call his daughter to order, and the force of old habit—to put it only at that—should dispose him, not less effectively, to believe in this young person at any price? There she was, all round, imprisoned in the circle of the reasons it was impossible she should give—certainly give HIM. The house in the country was his house, and thereby was Charlotte’s; it was her own and Amerigo’s only so far as its proper master and mistress should profusely place it at their disposal. Maggie felt of course that she saw no limit to her father’s profusion, but this couldn’t be even at the best the case with Charlotte’s, whom it would never be decent, when all was said, to reduce to fighting for her preferences. There were hours, truly, when the Princess saw herself as not unarmed for battle if battle might only take place without spectators.
Fanny distanced herself from that proposal as clearly to the Princess as she was aware of it herself, just like she would step back from the edge of a cliff she was afraid of falling into; a reality that reminded her of her constant risk of revealing her subtle methods. That Charlotte had started to limit her interactions with the Assinghams—which she had never done before, for many obviously good reasons—was a significant fact for Maggie, especially given the silence in which Fanny herself conveyed it. What made this even more thrilling was that it placed her in direct opposition to her stepmother more than she had ever been before—if she was going to support her friends for holding firm; though, of course, it also complicated things by giving Mrs. Verver the chance to ask her husband for explanations. Ah, once she was clearly CAUGHT in opposition, there was no telling how much Charlotte’s chances might increase! Maggie anxiously wondered what would happen to her father if his wife started pressuring him to rein in his daughter, and the weight of old habits—just to put it that way—might lead him to believe in this young woman no matter what. In every direction, she felt trapped by the reasons she could never explain—especially not to HIM. The house in the country belonged to him, and therefore to Charlotte; it was hers and Amerigo’s only to the extent that its rightful owners generously offered it to them. Maggie realized she saw no limit to her father’s generosity, but that couldn’t possibly be the case with Charlotte’s, who it would never be proper for, after all was said and done, to fight for her choices. There were indeed times when the Princess felt somewhat prepared for battle, but only if it could happen without an audience.
This last advantage for her, was, however, too sadly out of the question; her sole strength lay in her being able to see that if Charlotte wouldn’t “want” the Assinghams it would be because that sentiment too would have motives and grounds. She had all the while command of one way of meeting any objection, any complaint, on his wife’s part, reported to her by her father; it would be open to her to retort to his possible “What are your reasons, my dear?” by a lucidly-produced “What are hers, love, please?—isn’t that what we had better know? Mayn’t her reasons be a dislike, beautifully founded, of the presence, and thereby of the observation, of persons who perhaps know about her things it’s inconvenient to her they should know?” That hideous card she might in mere logic play—being by this time, at her still swifter private pace, intimately familiar with all the fingered pasteboard in her pack. But she could play it only on the forbidden issue of sacrificing him; the issue so forbidden that it involved even a horror of finding out if he would really have consented to be sacrificed. What she must do she must do by keeping her hands off him; and nothing meanwhile, as we see, had less in common with that scruple than such a merciless manipulation of their yielding beneficiaries as her spirit so boldly revelled in. She saw herself, in this connexion, without detachment—saw others alone with intensity; otherwise she might have been struck, fairly have been amused, by her free assignment of the pachydermatous quality. If SHE could face the awkwardness of the persistence of her friends at Fawns in spite of Charlotte, she somehow looked to them for an inspiration of courage that would improve upon her own. They were in short not only themselves to find a plausibility and an audacity, but were somehow by the way to pick up these forms for her, Maggie, as well. And she felt indeed that she was giving them scant time longer when, one afternoon in Portland Place, she broke out with an irrelevance that was merely superficial.
This last advantage for her was, unfortunately, completely out of the question; her only strength was realizing that if Charlotte didn’t want the Assinghams, it would be for reasons that also had motives and foundations. All along, she had a way to handle any objections or complaints from his wife, which her father relayed to her. She could respond to his possible “What are your reasons, my dear?” with a clearly articulated “What are hers, love, please? Isn’t that what we should know? Couldn’t her reasons be a well-founded dislike of having people around who might know things about her that she doesn’t want them to?” She could logically play that terrible card, since she was by now, at her even quicker private pace, very familiar with all the options in her hand. But she could only use it regarding the forbidden issue of sacrificing him; an issue so forbidden that it even included the horror of discovering if he would actually agree to being sacrificed. What she needed to do was to keep her hands off him; and nothing, as we can see, was less in line with that principle than the ruthless manipulation of their yielding beneficiaries that her spirit boldly enjoyed. She didn’t see herself in this connection with any detachment—she only saw others intensely; otherwise, she might have been astounded, or even amused, by her assigning such callous traits. If SHE could handle the awkwardness of her friends at Fawns sticking around despite Charlotte, she somehow looked to them for a spark of courage that would be better than her own. They weren’t just there to find their own reasons, but were also expected to help her, Maggie, with these qualities. And she really felt she was giving them little more time when, one afternoon in Portland Place, she suddenly spoke out with a remark that was just superficial.
“What awfulness, in heaven’s name, is there between them? What do you believe, what do you KNOW?”
“What on earth is going on between them? What do you believe, what do you KNOW?”
Oh, if she went by faces her visitor’s sudden whiteness, at this, might have carried her far! Fanny Assingham turned pale for it, but there was something in such an appearance, in the look it put into the eyes, that renewed Maggie’s conviction of what this companion had been expecting. She had been watching it come, come from afar, and now that it was there, after all, and the first convulsion over, they would doubtless soon find themselves in a more real relation. It was there because of the Sunday luncheon they had partaken of alone together; it was there, as strangely as one would, because of the bad weather, the cold perverse June rain, that was making the day wrong; it was there because it stood for the whole sum of the perplexities and duplicities among which our young woman felt herself lately to have picked her steps; it was there because Amerigo and Charlotte were again paying together alone a “week end” visit which it had been Maggie’s plan infernally to promote—just to see if, this time, they really would; it was there because she had kept Fanny, on her side, from paying one she would manifestly have been glad to pay, and had made her come instead, stupidly, vacantly, boringly, to luncheon: all in the spirit of celebrating the fact that the Prince and Mrs. Verver had thus put it into her own power to describe them exactly as they were. It had abruptly occurred, in truth, that Maggie required the preliminary help of determining HOW they were; though, on the other hand, before her guest had answered her question everything in the hour and the place, everything in all the conditions, affected her as crying it out. Her guest’s stare of ignorance, above all—that of itself at first cried it out. “‘Between them?’ What do you mean?”
Oh, if she judged by appearances, her visitor's sudden paleness might have taken her far! Fanny Assingham turned white at this, but there was something in that look, something in her eyes, that renewed Maggie's belief in what this companion had been expecting. She had been watching it arrive from a distance, and now that it was here, after the initial shock, they would likely soon find themselves in a more genuine relationship. It was present because of the Sunday lunch they had shared alone together; it was there, oddly enough, because of the bad weather, the chilly, stubborn June rain that made the day feel off; it represented the entire array of confusions and complexities that our young woman felt she had been navigating lately; it was there because Amerigo and Charlotte were once again spending a "weekend" visit alone together, which Maggie had sinisterly planned to promote—just to see if, this time, they actually would; it was there because she had prevented Fanny, who would clearly have been happy to pay a visit, from doing so and had instead made her come along, dumbly, blankly, and boringly, for lunch: all to celebrate the fact that the Prince and Mrs. Verver had put her in a position to describe them exactly as they were. It had suddenly struck Maggie that she needed some initial help in figuring out HOW they were; yet, on the other hand, before her guest had answered her question, everything about the hour and the setting, everything about the circumstances, compelled her to call it out. Above all, her guest’s look of ignorance—just that alone seemed to shout it. “‘Between them?’ What do you mean?”
“Anything there shouldn’t be, there shouldn’t have BEEN—all this time. Do you believe there is—or what’s your idea?”
“Anything that shouldn’t be there shouldn’t have been—this whole time. Do you believe there is—or what do you think?”
Fanny’s idea was clearly, to begin with, that her young friend had taken her breath away; but she looked at her very straight and very hard. “Do you speak from a suspicion of your own?”
Fanny’s idea was clearly, at first, that her young friend had left her speechless; but she stared at her intently. “Are you speaking from your own suspicions?”
“I speak, at last, from a torment. Forgive me if it comes out. I’ve been thinking for months and months, and I’ve no one to turn to, no one to help me to make things out; no impression but my own, don’t you see? to go by.”
“I finally speak from a place of torment. I hope you can forgive me if my words spill out. I’ve been thinking for months and months, and I have no one to turn to, no one to help me make sense of things; only my own impressions to rely on, you know?”
“You’ve been thinking for months and months?” Mrs. Assingham took it in. “But WHAT then, dear Maggie, have you been thinking?”
“You’ve been thinking for months?” Mrs. Assingham processed this. “But WHAT, then, dear Maggie, have you been thinking?”
“Well, horrible things—like a little beast that I perhaps am. That there may be something—something wrong and dreadful, something they cover up.”
"Well, terrible things—like the little monster I might be. That there could be something—something off and awful, something they're hiding."
The elder woman’s colour had begun to come back; she was able, though with a visible effort, to face the question less amazedly. “You imagine, poor child, that the wretches are in love? Is that it?”
The older woman’s color had started to return; she was able, albeit with noticeable effort, to confront the question with less astonishment. “Do you think, dear child, that those miserable people are in love? Is that what you believe?”
But Maggie for a minute only stared back at her. “Help me to find out WHAT I imagine. I don’t know—I’ve nothing but my perpetual anxiety. Have you any?—do you see what I mean? If you’ll tell me truly, that at least, one way or the other, will do something for me.”
But Maggie stared back at her for a moment. “Help me figure out WHAT I’m imagining. I don’t know—I’m just filled with constant anxiety. Do you have any?—do you see what I mean? If you’ll be honest with me, that at least, one way or another, will help me.”
Fanny’s look had taken a peculiar gravity—a fulness with which it seemed to shine. “Is what it comes to that you’re jealous of Charlotte?”
Fanny's expression had gained a strange seriousness—a depth that seemed to glow. “Are you saying that you're jealous of Charlotte?”
“Do you mean whether I hate her?”—and Maggie thought. “No; not on account of father.”
“Are you asking if I hate her?”—and Maggie thought. “No; not because of dad.”
“Ah,” Mrs. Assingham returned, “that isn’t what one would suppose. What I ask is if you’re jealous on account of your husband.”
“Ah,” Mrs. Assingham replied, “that’s not what you might think. What I’m asking is whether you’re jealous because of your husband.”
“Well,” said Maggie presently, “perhaps that may be all. If I’m unhappy I’m jealous; it must come to the same thing; and with you, at least, I’m not afraid of the word. If I’m jealous, don’t you see? I’m tormented,” she went on—“and all the more if I’m helpless. And if I’m both helpless AND tormented I stuff my pocket-handkerchief into my mouth, I keep it there, for the most part, night and day, so as not to be heard too indecently moaning. Only now, with you, at last, I can’t keep it longer; I’ve pulled it out, and here I am fairly screaming at you. They’re away,” she wound up, “so they can’t hear; and I’m, by a miracle of arrangement, not at luncheon with father at home. I live in the midst of miracles of arrangement, half of which I admit, are my own; I go about on tiptoe, I watch for every sound, I feel every breath, and yet I try all the while to seem as smooth as old satin dyed rose-colour. Have you ever thought of me,” she asked, “as really feeling as I do?”
“Well,” Maggie said after a moment, “maybe that’s all there is to it. If I’m unhappy, I’m jealous; it has to amount to the same thing. And with you, at least, I’m not scared of saying it. If I’m jealous, don’t you see? I’m tormented,” she continued, “and it gets worse when I feel powerless. And when I’m both helpless AND tormented, I stuff my handkerchief in my mouth and keep it there most of the time, day and night, so I don’t moan too loudly. But now, with you, I can’t hold it in any longer; I’ve pulled it out, and I’m practically screaming at you. They’re gone,” she concluded, “so they can’t hear; and, by some miracle, I’m not having lunch with my dad at home. I find myself surrounded by miraculous arrangements, half of which I admit are my own doing; I walk on tiptoe, I listen for every sound, I feel every breath, and yet I’m trying my best to seem as smooth as old rose-colored satin. Have you ever thought of me,” she asked, “as really feeling this way?”
Her companion, conspicuously, required to be clear. “Jealous, unhappy, tormented—? No,” said Mrs. Assingham; “but at the same time—and though you may laugh at me for it!—I’m bound to confess that I’ve never been so awfully sure of what I may call knowing you. Here you are indeed, as you say—such a deep little person! I’ve never imagined your existence poisoned, and, since you wish to know if I consider that it need be, I’ve not the least difficulty in speaking on the spot. Nothing, decidedly, strikes me as more unnecessary.”
Her companion clearly needed some clarification. “Jealous, unhappy, tormented—? No,” said Mrs. Assingham; “but at the same time—and even if you laugh at me for it!—I have to admit that I’ve never been so completely sure of what I can call knowing you. Here you are, just as you say—such a complex person! I’ve never thought of your existence as poisoned, and since you want to know if I think it has to be that way, I can say right now that nothing seems more unnecessary to me.”
For a minute after this they remained face to face; Maggie had sprung up while her friend sat enthroned, and, after moving to and fro in her intensity, now paused to receive the light she had invoked. It had accumulated, considerably, by this time, round Mrs. Assingham’s ample presence, and it made, even to our young woman’s own sense, a medium in which she could at last take a deeper breath. “I’ve affected you, these months—and these last weeks in especial—as quiet and natural and easy?”
For a moment after this, they stayed face to face; Maggie had jumped up while her friend sat comfortably, and after pacing back and forth in her intensity, she paused to absorb the light she had called forth. By this time, it had built up quite a bit around Mrs. Assingham’s ample presence, creating a space where, even for our young woman, she could finally take a deeper breath. “I’ve impacted you these past months—and especially these last few weeks—as calm, natural, and easy?”
But it was a question that took, not imperceptibly, some answering. “You’ve never affected me, from the first hour I beheld you, as anything but—in a way all your own—absolutely good and sweet and beautiful. In a way, as I say,” Mrs. Assingham almost caressingly repeated, “just all your very own—nobody else’s at all. I’ve never thought of you but as OUTSIDE of ugly things, so ignorant of any falsity or cruelty or vulgarity as never to have to be touched by them or to touch them. I’ve never mixed you up with them; there would have been time enough for that if they had seemed to be near you. But they haven’t—if that’s what you want to know.”
But it was a question that definitely needed some answering. “From the very first moment I saw you, you’ve never seemed to me anything but—in your own unique way—completely good, sweet, and beautiful. In a way, as I said,” Mrs. Assingham almost tenderly repeated, “just all your very own—nobody else’s at all. I’ve always seen you as being OUTSIDE of ugly things, so unaware of any falsehood, cruelty, or vulgarity that you’ve never had to deal with them or even touch them. I’ve never associated you with them; there would have been plenty of time for that if they had appeared to be close to you. But they haven’t—if that’s what you want to know.”
“You’ve only believed me contented then because you’ve believed me stupid?”
“You only thought I was happy because you believed I was dumb?”
Mrs. Assingham had a free smile, now, for the length of this stride, dissimulated though it might be in a graceful little frisk. “If I had believed you stupid I shouldn’t have thought you interesting, and if I hadn’t thought you interesting I shouldn’t have noted whether I ‘knew’ you, as I’ve called it, or not. What I’ve always been conscious of is your having concealed about you somewhere no small amount of character; quite as much in fact,” Fanny smiled, “as one could suppose a person of your size able to carry. The only thing was,” she explained, “that thanks to your never calling one’s attention to it, I hadn’t made out much more about it, and should have been vague, above all, as to WHERE you carried it or kept it. Somewhere UNDER, I should simply have said—like that little silver cross you once showed me, blest by the Holy Father, that you always wear, out of sight, next your skin. That relic I’ve had a glimpse of”—with which she continued to invoke the privilege of humour. “But the precious little innermost, say this time little golden, personal nature of you—blest by a greater power, I think, even than the Pope—that you’ve never consentingly shown me. I’m not sure you’ve ever consentingly shown it to anyone. You’ve been in general too modest.”
Mrs. Assingham smiled freely now as she took this stride, though it might be hidden in a graceful little skip. “If I thought you were stupid, I wouldn’t have found you interesting, and if I hadn’t found you interesting, I wouldn’t have noticed whether I ‘knew’ you, as I’ve called it, or not. What I’ve always been aware of is that you’ve hidden quite a bit of character about you; in fact, quite as much as someone of your size could carry. The only thing is,” she explained, “that since you never draw attention to it, I haven’t figured out much more about it, and I would have been vague, especially about WHERE you carry it or keep it. I would simply have said somewhere UNDER, like that little silver cross you once showed me, blessed by the Holy Father, that you always wear, out of sight, next to your skin. That relic I’ve caught a glimpse of”—with which she continued to invoke the privilege of humor. “But the precious little innermost, let’s call it little golden, personal nature of you—blessed by an even greater power than the Pope—that you’ve never willingly shown me. I’m not sure you’ve ever willingly shown it to anyone. You’ve generally been too modest.”
Maggie, trying to follow, almost achieved a little fold of her forehead. “I strike you as modest to-day—modest when I stand here and scream at you?”
Maggie, trying to keep up, almost crinkled her forehead a bit. “I seem modest to you today—modest while I’m standing here and yelling at you?”
“Oh, your screaming, I’ve granted you, is something new. I must fit it on somewhere. The question is, however,” Mrs. Assingham further proceeded, “of what the deuce I can fit it on TO. Do you mean,” she asked, “to the fact of our friends’ being, from yesterday to to-morrow, at a place where they may more or less irresponsibly meet?” She spoke with the air of putting it as badly for them as possible. “Are you thinking of their being there alone—of their having consented to be?” And then as she had waited without result for her companion to say: “But isn’t it true that—after you had this time again, at the eleventh hour, said YOU wouldn’t—they would really much rather not have gone?”
“Oh, your screaming is definitely something different. I have to figure out how to place it in this situation. The real question, though,” Mrs. Assingham continued, “is what on earth I can connect it to. Are you suggesting,” she asked, “that it has to do with our friends being, from yesterday to tomorrow, at a place where they can meet more or less without responsibility?” She spoke as if she wanted to frame things in the worst light possible. “Are you considering the fact that they’ll be there alone—somehow agreeing to it?” And then, after waiting without any response from her companion, she added: “But isn’t it true that—after you once again said you wouldn’t— they would actually prefer not to go?”
“Yes—they would certainly much rather not have gone. But I wanted them to go.”
“Yes—they definitely would have preferred not to go. But I wanted them to go.”
“Then, my dear child, what in the world is the matter?”
“Then, my dear child, what on earth is the matter?”
“I wanted to see if they WOULD. And they’ve had to,” Maggie added. “It was the only thing.”
“I wanted to see if they would. And they’ve had to,” Maggie said. “It was the only thing.”
Her friend appeared to wonder. “From the moment you and your father backed out?”
Her friend seemed curious. “Since the moment you and your dad backed out?”
“Oh, I don’t mean go for those people; I mean go for us. For father and me,” Maggie went on. “Because now they know.”
“Oh, I don’t mean to go after those people; I mean go for us. For Dad and me,” Maggie continued. “Because now they know.”
“They ‘know’?” Fanny Assingham quavered.
"They 'know'?" Fanny Assingham asked nervously.
“That I’ve been for some time past taking more notice. Notice of the queer things in our life.”
“I’ve been paying more attention lately. Attention to the strange things in our lives.”
Maggie saw her companion for an instant on the point of asking her what these queer things might be; but Mrs. Assingham had the next minute brushed by that ambiguous opening and taken, as she evidently felt, a better one. “And is it for that you did it? I mean gave up the visit.”
Maggie saw her friend about to ask her what these strange things could be, but Mrs. Assingham quickly moved past that uncertain moment and, as she clearly felt, seized a better opportunity. “So, is that why you did it? I mean, why you gave up the visit?”
“It’s for that I did it. To leave them to themselves—as they less and less want, or at any rate less and less venture to appear to want, to be left. As they had for so long arranged things,” the Princess went on, “you see they sometimes have to be.” And then, as if baffled by the lucidity of this, Mrs. Assingham for a little said nothing: “Now do you think I’m modest?”
“It’s why I did it. To let them be on their own—as they want it less and less, or at least they want to seem like they want it less and less. As they had set things up for so long,” the Princess continued, “you see they sometimes have to be.” Then, as if confused by how clear this was, Mrs. Assingham didn’t say anything for a moment: “Now do you think I’m modest?”
With time, however; Fanny could brilliantly think anything that would serve. “I think you’re wrong. That, my dear, is my answer to your question. It demands assuredly the straightest I can make. I see no ‘awfulness’—I suspect none. I’m deeply distressed,” she added, “that you should do anything else.” It drew again from Maggie a long look. “You’ve never even imagined anything?”
With time, though, Fanny could come up with clever thoughts that would help. “I think you’re mistaken. That, my dear, is my answer to your question. It definitely requires the most straightforward response I can give. I see no ‘awfulness’—I don’t believe there’s any. I’m really upset,” she added, “that you would do anything different.” This prompted Maggie to give her a long look again. “You’ve never even thought of anything?”
“Ah, God forbid!—for it’s exactly as a woman of imagination that I speak. There’s no moment of my life at which I’m not imagining something; and it’s thanks to that, darling,” Mrs. Assingham pursued, “that I figure the sincerity with which your husband, whom you see as viciously occupied with your stepmother, is interested, is tenderly interested, in his admirable, adorable wife.” She paused a minute as to give her friend the full benefit of this—as to Maggie’s measure of which, however, no sign came; and then, poor woman, haplessly, she crowned her effort.—“He wouldn’t hurt a hair of your head.”
“Ah, God forbid!—because I'm speaking just like a creative woman. There’s not a moment in my life when I’m not imagining something; and it’s because of that, sweetie,” Mrs. Assingham continued, “that I see how sincerely your husband, who you think is shamelessly involved with your stepmother, truly cares, and tenderly cares, for his amazing, wonderful wife.” She paused for a moment to let her friend fully absorb this—but there was no sign from Maggie to indicate her understanding; and then, poor woman, without much hope, she wrapped up her point. “He wouldn’t hurt a hair on your head.”
It had produced in Maggie, at once, and apparently in the intended form of a smile, the most extraordinary expression. “Ah, there it is!”
It made Maggie, all at once, and seemingly in the form of a smile, show the most amazing expression. “Ah, there it is!”
But her guest had already gone on. “And I’m absolutely certain that Charlotte wouldn’t either.”
But her guest had already moved on. “And I’m completely sure that Charlotte wouldn’t either.”
It kept the Princess, with her strange grimace, standing there. “No—Charlotte wouldn’t either. That’s how they’ve had again to go off together. They’ve been afraid not to—lest it should disturb me, aggravate me, somehow work upon me. As I insisted that they must, that we couldn’t all fail—though father and Charlotte hadn’t really accepted; as I did this they had to yield to the fear that their showing as afraid to move together would count for them as the greater danger: which would be the danger, you see, of my feeling myself wronged. Their least danger, they know, is in going on with all the things that I’ve seemed to accept and that I’ve given no indication, at any moment, of not accepting. Everything that has come up for them has come up, in an extraordinary manner, without my having by a sound or a sign given myself away—so that it’s all as wonderful as you may conceive. They move at any rate among the dangers I speak of—between that of their doing too much and that of their not having any longer the confidence, or the nerve, or whatever you may call it, to do enough.” Her tone, by this time, might have shown a strangeness to match her smile; which was still more marked as she wound up. “And that’s how I make them do what I like!”
It kept the Princess, with her weird expression, standing there. “No—Charlotte wouldn’t either. That’s why they’ve had to leave together again. They’ve been afraid not to—worried it might upset me, irritate me, or somehow affect me. Since I insisted that they had to, that we couldn’t all fail—though dad and Charlotte hadn’t really accepted it; as I said this, they had to give in to the fear that their appearing scared to move together would be a bigger risk for them: which would be the risk, you see, of me feeling wronged. Their least risk, they know, is in going along with everything that I’ve seemed to accept and that I haven’t shown any indication, at any moment, of not accepting. Everything that has come up for them has surfaced, in a remarkable way, without my having given myself away by a sound or a sign—so that it’s all as amazing as you can imagine. They move, at any rate, among the risks I mention—between doing too much and not having the confidence, or the courage, or whatever you want to call it, to do enough.” Her tone, by this point, might have shown a strangeness to match her smile; which was even more noticeable as she wrapped up. “And that’s how I make them do what I want!”
It had an effect on Mrs. Assingham, who rose with the deliberation that, from point to point, marked the widening of her grasp. “My dear child, you’re amazing.”
It impacted Mrs. Assingham, who stood up with the carefulness that, step by step, showed her increasing understanding. “My dear, you’re incredible.”
“Amazing—?”
“Awesome—?”
“You’re terrible.”
"You’re awful."
Maggie thoughtfully shook her head. “No; I’m not terrible, and you don’t think me so. I do strike you as surprising, no doubt—but surprisingly mild. Because—don’t you see?—I AM mild. I can bear anything.”
Maggie shook her head thoughtfully. “No; I’m not awful, and you don’t think I am. I might seem surprising to you, but surprisingly gentle. Because—don’t you get it?—I AM gentle. I can handle anything.”
“Oh, ‘bear’!” Mrs. Assingham fluted.
“Oh, ‘bear’!” Mrs. Assingham exclaimed.
“For love,” said the Princess.
"For love," said the Princess.
Fanny hesitated. “Of your father?”
Fanny hesitated. “About your dad?”
“For love,” Maggie repeated.
“For love,” Maggie said again.
It kept her friend watching. “Of your husband?”
It kept her friend watching. “About your husband?”
“For love,” Maggie said again.
"For love," Maggie said again.
It was, for the moment, as if the distinctness of this might have determined in her companion a choice between two or three highly different alternatives. Mrs. Assingham’s rejoinder, at all events—however much or however little it was a choice—was presently a triumph. “Speaking with this love of your own then, have you undertaken to convey to me that you believe your husband and your father’s wife to be in act and in fact lovers of each other?” And then as the Princess didn’t at first answer: “Do you call such an allegation as that ‘mild’?”
For the moment, it felt like the clarity of this could have led her companion to choose between two or three very different options. Mrs. Assingham’s response, no matter how much of a choice it was or wasn’t, was soon a victory. “So speaking from this love of yours, are you telling me that you believe your husband and your father’s wife are actually lovers?” And when the Princess didn’t respond right away, she added, “Do you really consider that claim ‘mild’?”
“Oh, I’m not pretending to be mild to you. But I’ve told you, and moreover you must have seen for yourself, how much so I’ve been to them.”
“Oh, I’m not pretending to be nice to you. But I’ve told you, and you must have seen for yourself, how much I’ve been nice to them.”
Mrs. Assingham, more brightly again, bridled. “Is that what you call it when you make them, for terror as you say, do as you like?”
Mrs. Assingham, now more cheerful, responded with a touch of indignation. “Is that what you call it when you make them, out of fear as you said, do whatever you want?”
“Ah, there wouldn’t be any terror for them if they had nothing to hide.”
“Ah, there wouldn’t be any fear for them if they had nothing to hide.”
Mrs. Assingham faced her—quite steady now. “Are you really conscious, love, of what you’re saying?”
Mrs. Assingham looked at her—completely steadied now. “Are you really aware, dear, of what you’re saying?”
“I’m saying that I’m bewildered and tormented, and that I’ve no one but you to speak to. I’ve thought, I’ve in fact been sure, that you’ve seen for yourself how much this is the case. It’s why I’ve believed you would meet me half way.”
“I’m saying that I’m confused and struggling, and that I have no one but you to talk to. I’ve thought, and I’ve actually been sure, that you’ve noticed for yourself how true this is. That’s why I believed you would meet me halfway.”
“Half way to what? To denouncing,” Fanny asked, “two persons, friends of years, whom I’ve always immensely admired and liked, and against whom I haven’t the shadow of a charge to make?”
“Halfway to what? To denouncing,” Fanny asked, “two people, friends for years, whom I’ve always greatly admired and liked, and against whom I have no accusation to make?”
Maggie looked at her with wide eyes. “I had much rather you should denounce me than denounce them. Denounce me, denounce me,” she said, “if you can see your way.” It was exactly what she appeared to have argued out with herself. “If, conscientiously, you can denounce me; if, conscientiously, you can revile me; if, conscientiously, you can put me in my place for a low-minded little pig—!”
Maggie looked at her with wide eyes. “I’d much rather you call me out than them. Call me out, call me out,” she said, “if you think it’s the right thing to do.” It was exactly what she seemed to have thought through herself. “If you can, with a clear conscience, call me out; if you can, with a clear conscience, insult me; if you can, with a clear conscience, put me in my place for being a low-minded little pig—!”
“Well?” said Mrs. Assingham, consideringly, as she paused for emphasis.
“Well?” said Mrs. Assingham, thoughtfully, as she paused for emphasis.
“I think I shall be saved.”
“I think I will be saved.”
Her friend took it, for a minute, however, by carrying thoughtful eyes, eyes verily portentous, over her head. “You say you’ve no one to speak to, and you make a point of your having so disguised your feelings—not having, as you call it, given yourself away. Have you then never seen it not only as your right, but as your bounden duty, worked up to such a pitch, to speak to your husband?”
Her friend took a moment, looking at her with serious, meaningful eyes. “You say you have no one to talk to, and you emphasize that you've hidden your feelings—saying you haven't, as you put it, given yourself away. But haven't you ever thought of it not just as your right, but as your responsibility, to the point of urgency, to talk to your husband?”
“I’ve spoken to him,” said Maggie.
“I’ve talked to him,” said Maggie.
Mrs. Assingham stared. “Ah, then it isn’t true that you’ve made no sign.”
Mrs. Assingham stared. “Oh, so it’s not true that you haven’t shown any signs.”
Maggie had a silence. “I’ve made no trouble. I’ve made no scene. I’ve taken no stand. I’ve neither reproached nor accused him. You’ll say there’s a way in all that of being nasty enough.”
Maggie was quiet. “I haven’t caused any trouble. I haven’t caused a scene. I haven’t taken a stand. I haven’t reproached or accused him. You might say that there’s a way in all of this to be pretty nasty.”
“Oh!” dropped from Fanny as if she couldn’t help it.
“Oh!” slipped out of Fanny as if she couldn't control it.
“But I don’t think—strangely enough—that he regards me as nasty. I think that at bottom—for that IS,” said the Princess, “the strangeness—he’s sorry for me. Yes, I think that, deep within, he pities me.”
“But I don’t think—strangely enough—that he sees me as mean. I believe that, at the core—because that IS,” said the Princess, “the strangeness—he feels sorry for me. Yes, I think that, deep down, he feels pity for me.”
Her companion wondered. “For the state you’ve let yourself get into?”
Her companion wondered, “For the state you've let yourself fall into?”
“For not being happy when I’ve so much to make me so.”
“For not being happy when I have so much to make me happy.”
“You’ve everything,” said Mrs. Assingham with alacrity. Yet she remained for an instant embarrassed as to a further advance. “I don’t understand, however, how, if you’ve done nothing—”
“You have everything,” Mrs. Assingham said quickly. Still, she hesitated for a moment, unsure about making another move. “I don’t get, though, how, if you haven’t done anything—”
An impatience from Maggie had checked her. “I’ve not done absolutely ‘nothing.’”
An impatience from Maggie had held her back. “I haven’t done absolutely ‘nothing.’”
“But what then—?”
“But what now—?”
“Well,” she went on after a minute, “he knows what I’ve done.”
“Well,” she continued after a moment, “he knows what I’ve done.”
It produced on Mrs. Assingham’s part, her whole tone and manner exquisitely aiding, a hush not less prolonged, and the very duration of which inevitably gave it something of the character of an equal recognition. “And what then has HE done?”
It created a hush from Mrs. Assingham, her entire tone and manner skillfully supporting it, and the length of this silence gave it a sense of mutual acknowledgment. “And what has HE done?”
Maggie took again a minute. “He has been splendid.”
Maggie paused for a minute. “He has been amazing.”
“‘Splendid’? Then what more do you want?”
“‘Splendid’? What else do you want?”
“Ah, what you see!” said Maggie. “Not to be afraid.”
“Ah, look at that!” said Maggie. “Don't be afraid.”
It made her guest again hang fire. “Not to be afraid really to speak?”
It left her guest hesitating again. “So, I shouldn’t really be afraid to speak?”
“Not to be afraid NOT to speak.”
“Don’t be afraid NOT to speak.”
Mrs. Assingham considered further. “You can’t even to Charlotte?” But as, at this, after a look at her, Maggie turned off with a movement of suppressed despair, she checked herself and might have been watching her, for all the difficulty and the pity of it, vaguely moving to the window and the view of the hill street. It was almost as if she had had to give up, from failure of responsive wit in her friend—the last failure she had feared—the hope of the particular relief she had been working for. Mrs. Assingham resumed the next instant, however, in the very tone that seemed most to promise her she should have to give up nothing. “I see, I see; you would have in that case too many things to consider.” It brought the Princess round again, proving itself thus the note of comprehension she wished most to clutch at. “Don’t be afraid.”
Mrs. Assingham thought for a moment. “Can’t you even talk to Charlotte?” But when Maggie turned away with a look of hidden despair, she caught herself and might as well have been watching her, despite the difficulty and the pity of it, as she vaguely moved toward the window to look at the street on the hill. It felt almost like she had to give up on her last hope for the specific support she had been hoping for, due to her friend's failure to respond—something she had feared most. However, Mrs. Assingham quickly continued, in a tone that seemed to promise she wouldn’t have to give up anything. “I get it, I get it; in that case, you would have too many things to think about.” This brought the Princess back to her, proving to be the understanding she wanted most to hold on to. “Don't be scared.”
Maggie took it where she stood—which she was soon able to signify. “Thank-you.”
Maggie accepted it right where she was—something she quickly made clear. “Thanks.”
It very properly encouraged her counsellor. “What your idea imputes is a criminal intrigue carried on, from day to day, amid perfect trust and sympathy, not only under your eyes, but under your father’s. That’s an idea it’s impossible for me for a. moment to entertain.”
It rightly supported her adviser. “What your suggestion implies is a deceitful scheme happening daily, with complete trust and understanding, not just in front of you, but also in front of your father. That’s an idea I can't entertain for even a second.”
“Ah, there you are then! It’s exactly what I wanted from you.”
“Ah, there you are! It’s exactly what I wanted from you.”
“You’re welcome to it!” Mrs. Assingham breathed.
“You're welcome to it!” Mrs. Assingham said.
“You never HAVE entertained it?” Maggie pursued.
“You never thought about it?” Maggie asked.
“Never for an instant,” said Fanny with her head very high.
“Not for a second,” said Fanny, holding her head high.
Maggie took it again, yet again as wanting more. “Pardon my being so horrid. But by all you hold sacred?”
Maggie took it again, wanting more. “Sorry for being so awful. But by everything you hold sacred?”
Mrs. Assingham faced her. “Ah, my dear, upon my positive word as an honest woman.”
Mrs. Assingham looked at her. “Oh, my dear, I swear as an honest woman.”
“Thank-you then,” said the Princess.
“Thanks then,” said the Princess.
So they remained a little; after which, “But do you believe it, love?” Fanny inquired.
So they stayed for a bit longer; then Fanny asked, “But do you really believe it, love?”
“I believe YOU.”
"I trust you."
“Well, as I’ve faith in THEM, it comes to the same thing.”
“Well, since I have faith in THEM, it amounts to the same thing.”
Maggie, at this last, appeared for a moment to think again; but she embraced the proposition. “The same thing.”
Maggie paused for a moment to reconsider, but ultimately accepted the suggestion. “The same thing.”
“Then you’re no longer unhappy?” her guest urged, coming more gaily toward her.
“Then you're not unhappy anymore?” her guest pressed, coming towards her more cheerfully.
“I doubtless shan’t be a great while.”
“I definitely won't be gone for long.”
But it was now Mrs. Assingham’s turn to want more. “I’ve convinced you it’s impossible?”
But now it was Mrs. Assingham’s turn to want more. “I’ve convinced you it’s impossible?”
She had held out her arms, and Maggie, after a moment, meeting her, threw herself into them with a sound that had its oddity as a sign of relief. “Impossible, impossible,” she emphatically, more than emphatically, replied; yet the next minute she had burst into tears over the impossibility, and a few seconds later, pressing, clinging, sobbing, had even caused them to flow, audibly, sympathetically and perversely, from her friend.
She stretched out her arms, and Maggie, after a moment, ran into them with a noise that was oddly a sign of relief. “No way, no way,” she replied emphatically, and even more than that; yet the next minute she was in tears over the impossibility, and a few seconds later, pressing against, holding on, sobbing, she even made her friend cry too, audibly, sympathetically, and strangely.
XXXI
XXXI
The understanding appeared to have come to be that the Colonel and his wife were to present themselves toward the middle of July for the “good long visit” at Fawns on which Maggie had obtained from her father that he should genially insist; as well as that the couple from Eaton Square should welcome there earlier in the month, and less than a week after their own arrival, the advent of the couple from Portland Place. “Oh, we shall give you time to breathe!” Fanny remarked, in reference to the general prospect, with a gaiety that announced itself as heedless of criticism, to each member of the party in turn; sustaining and bracing herself by her emphasis, pushed even to an amiable cynicism, of the confident view of these punctualities of the Assinghams. The ground she could best occupy, to her sense, was that of her being moved, as in this connexion she had always been moved, by the admitted grossness of her avidity, the way the hospitality of the Ververs met her convenience and ministered to her ease, destitute as the Colonel had kept her, from the first, of any rustic retreat, any leafy bower of her own, any fixed base for the stale season now at hand. She had explained at home, she had repeatedly reexplained, the terms of her dilemma, the real difficulty of her, or—as she now put it—of their position. When the pair could do nothing else, in Cadogan Place, they could still talk of marvellous little Maggie, and of the charm, the sinister charm, of their having to hold their breath to watch her; a topic the momentous midnight discussion at which we have been present was so far from having exhausted. It came up, irrepressibly, at all private hours; they had planted it there between them, and it grew, from day to day, in a manner to make their sense of responsibility almost yield to their sense of fascination. Mrs. Assingham declared at such moments that in the interest of this admirable young thing—to whom, she also declared, she had quite “come over”—she was ready to pass with all the world else, even with the Prince himself, the object, inconsequently, as well, of her continued, her explicitly shameless appreciation, for a vulgar, indelicate, pestilential woman, showing her true character in an abandoned old age. The Colonel’s confessed attention had been enlisted, we have seen, as never yet, under pressure from his wife, by any guaranteed imbroglio; but this, she could assure him she perfectly knew, was not a bit because he was sorry for her, or touched by what she had let herself in for, but because, when once they had been opened, he couldn’t keep his eyes from resting complacently, resting almost intelligently, on the Princess. If he was in love with HER now, however, so much the better; it would help them both not to wince at what they would have to do for her. Mrs. Assingham had come back to that, whenever he groaned or grunted; she had at no beguiled moment—since Maggie’s little march WAS positively beguiling—let him lose sight of the grim necessity awaiting them. “We shall have, as I’ve again and again told you, to lie for her—to lie till we’re black in the face.”
It seemed that the plan was for the Colonel and his wife to show up around mid-July for the “good long visit” at Fawns, which Maggie had convinced her father to insist on. It was also understood that the couple from Eaton Square would arrive earlier in the month, and just under a week after that, the couple from Portland Place would join them. “Oh, we’ll give you time to breathe!” Fanny said cheerfully about the overall situation, her tone carefree and dismissive of any criticism as she spoke to each person in turn. She maintained her upbeat attitude, even leaning towards a friendly cynicism about the punctual habits of the Assinghams. She felt the best position for her was to acknowledge her own greed, how the Ververs' hospitality suited her needs and made her life easier, especially since the Colonel had never provided her with a countryside escape, a peaceful hideaway, or any stable place to retreat as the dull season approached. She had explained at home, and had to explain again, the situation they were in—the real difficulty of her or, as she now put it, their position. When the couple had nothing else to discuss at Cadogan Place, they could still talk about marvelous little Maggie and the intriguing, almost eerie charm of having to hold their breath to watch her; a topic that the intense midnight conversation we attended had barely scratched. It resurfaced, irresistibly, at all private moments; they had planted the idea there between them, and it grew daily, making their sense of responsibility almost give way to their sense of fascination. Mrs. Assingham claimed during these times that in the interest of this admirable young girl—who she insisted she had completely “come over” to—she was willing to pass over all else, even the Prince himself, who was the focus of her ongoing and unabashed appreciation for a crass, vulgar, pestilential woman, showing her true self in her unrefined old age. The Colonel’s focused attention had, as we’ve seen, been captured, as never before, due to pressure from his wife, but she was sure this wasn’t because he felt sorry for her or was moved by her predicament. Rather, it was that once he let himself look, he couldn’t help but rest his eyes in a satisfied, almost thoughtful way on the Princess. If he was in love with HER now, then that was great; it would make it easier for both of them to handle what they needed to do for her. Mrs. Assingham returned to this point whenever he complained; she never let him lose sight of the grim reality they faced, even though Maggie’s little charm was indeed captivating. “We’ll have, as I’ve told you repeatedly, to lie for her—to lie till we’re blue in the face.”
“To lie ‘for’ her?” The Colonel often, at these hours, as from a vague vision of old chivalry in a new form, wandered into apparent lapses from lucidity.
“To lie ‘for’ her?” The Colonel often, at these hours, as if from a vague vision of old chivalry in a new form, drifted into moments of confusion.
“To lie TO her, up and down, and in and out—it comes to the same thing. It will consist just as much of lying to the others too: to the Prince about one’s belief in HIM; to Charlotte about one’s belief in HER; to Mr. Verver, dear sweet man, about one’s belief in everyone. So we’ve work cut out—with the biggest lie, on top of all, being that we LIKE to be there for such a purpose. We hate it unspeakably—I’m more ready to be a coward before it, to let the whole thing, to let everyone, selfishly and pusillanimously slide, than before any social duty, any felt human call, that has ever forced me to be decent. I speak at least for myself. For you,” she had added, “as I’ve given you so perfect an opportunity to fall in love with Maggie, you’ll doubtless find your account in being so much nearer to her.”
“Lying to her, both directly and indirectly, amounts to the same thing. It’ll involve lying to others as well: to the Prince about believing in HIM; to Charlotte about believing in HER; to Mr. Verver, dear sweet man, about believing in everyone. So we have a lot of work ahead— with the biggest lie being that we actually ENJOY being there for this purpose. We absolutely hate it—I’d rather be a coward than face it, to let everything, let everyone, selfishly and timidly slide, rather than deal with any social obligation, any genuine human call, that has ever pushed me to act decently. I can only speak for myself. As for you,” she added, “I’ve given you such a perfect opportunity to fall in love with Maggie, so you’ll probably find it worthwhile to be so much closer to her.”
“And what do you make,” the Colonel could, at this, always imperturbably enough ask, “of the account you yourself will find in being so much nearer to the Prince; of your confirmed, if not exasperated, infatuation with whom—to say nothing of my weak good-nature about it—you give such a pretty picture?”
“And what do you think,” the Colonel could always ask calmly at this, “about the account you’ll find now that you’re so much closer to the Prince; of your persistent, if not intensified, crush on him—never mind my easygoing attitude about it—you present such a lovely picture?”
To the picture in question she had been always, in fact, able contemplatively to return. “The difficulty of my enjoyment of that is, don’t you see? that I’m making, in my loyalty to Maggie, a sad hash of his affection for me.”
To the picture in question, she had always been able to reflect on it. “The problem with my enjoyment of that is, don’t you see? that in my loyalty to Maggie, I’m messing up his feelings for me.”
“You find means to call it then, this whitewashing of his crime, being ‘loyal’ to Maggie?”
“You find a way to justify it, then, this cover-up of his crime, by being ‘loyal’ to Maggie?”
“Oh, about that particular crime there is always much to say. It is always more interesting to us than any other crime; it has at least that for it. But of course I call everything I have in mind at all being loyal to Maggie. Being loyal to her is, more than anything else, helping her with her father—which is what she most wants and needs.”
“Oh, there’s always a lot to say about that specific crime. It’s always more interesting to us than any other crime; it at least has that going for it. But of course, I consider everything I’m thinking about to be loyal to Maggie. Being loyal to her means, more than anything else, helping her with her dad—which is what she wants and needs the most.”
The Colonel had had it before, but he could apparently never have too much of it. “Helping her ‘with’ him—?”
The Colonel had experienced it before, but he apparently could never get enough of it. “Helping her ‘with’ him—?”
“Helping her against him then. Against what we’ve already so fully talked of—its having to be recognised between them that he doubts. That’s where my part is so plain—to see her through, to see her through to the end.” Exaltation, for the moment, always lighted Mrs. Assingham’s reference to this plainness; yet she at the same time seldom failed, the next instant, to qualify her view of it. “When I talk of my obligation as clear I mean that it’s absolute; for just HOW, from day to day and through thick and thin, to keep the thing up is, I grant you, another matter. There’s one way, luckily, nevertheless, in which I’m strong. I can perfectly count on her.”
“Helping her against him then. Against what we’ve already talked about so much—what he doubts has to be recognized between them. That’s where my role is so clear—to support her, to support her until the end.” For a moment, Mrs. Assingham always felt a sense of pride in this clarity; yet she often immediately felt the need to clarify her perspective. “When I say my obligation is clear, I mean it’s absolute; but just HOW, day by day and through everything, to maintain that is, I admit, a different story. Fortunately, there is one way I’m definitely strong. I can completely rely on her.”
The Colonel seldom failed here, as from the insidious growth of an excitement, to wonder, to encourage. “Not to see you’re lying?”
The Colonel rarely missed an opportunity here, as the subtle rise of excitement turned into curiosity, then motivation. “You really can’t see that you’re lying?”
“To stick to me fast, whatever she sees. If I stick to her—that is to my own poor struggling way, under providence, of watching over them ALL—she’ll stand by me to the death. She won’t give me away. For, you know, she easily can.”
“To cling to me no matter what she observes. If I cling to her—that is, to my own humble, struggling way of looking after them ALL, guided by fate—she’ll remain loyal to me until the end. She won’t betray me. Because, you see, she easily could.”
This, regularly, was the most lurid turn of their road; but Bob Assingham, with each journey, met it as for the first time. “Easily?”
This was often the most shocking part of their journey; but Bob Assingham faced it like it was the first time every time. “Easily?”
“She can utterly dishonour me with her father. She can let him know that I was aware, at the time of his marriage—as I had been aware at the time of her own—of the relations that had pre-existed between his wife and her husband.”
“She can completely disgrace me with her dad. She can tell him that I knew, when he got married—as I had known when she got married—about the ties that had existed between his wife and her husband.”
“And how can she do so if, up to this minute, by your own statement, she is herself in ignorance of your knowledge?”
“And how can she do that if, up to this moment, by your own admission, she still doesn’t know what you know?”
It was a question that Mrs. Assingham had ever, for dealing with, a manner to which repeated practice had given almost a grand effect; very much as if she was invited by it to say that about this, exactly, she proposed to do her best lying. But she said, and with full lucidity, something quite other: it could give itself a little the air, still, of a triumph over his coarseness. “By acting, immediately with the blind resentment with which, in her place, ninety-nine women out of a hundred would act; and by so making Mr. Verver, in turn, act with the same natural passion, the passion of ninety-nine men out of a hundred. They’ve only to agree about me,” the poor lady said; “they’ve only to feel at one over it, feel bitterly practised upon, cheated and injured; they’ve only to denounce me to each other as false and infamous, for me to be quite irretrievably dished. Of course it’s I who have been, and who continue to be, cheated—cheated by the Prince and Charlotte; but they’re not obliged to give me the benefit of that, or to give either of us the benefit of anything. They’ll be within their rights to lump us all together as a false, cruel, conspiring crew, and, if they can find the right facts to support them, get rid of us root and branch.”
It was a question that Mrs. Assingham had always had a way of dealing with, a manner that repeated practice had turned into something almost grand; it was as if she was invited to say that she planned to excel at lying about it. But instead, she clearly stated something quite different: it could still seem a bit like a victory over his coarseness. “By acting immediately with the blind anger that, in her position, ninety-nine out of a hundred women would feel; and by making Mr. Verver respond with the same natural passion, the passion of ninety-nine men out of a hundred. They just need to agree about me,” the poor lady said; “they just need to feel united in this, feel bitterly taken advantage of, cheated and wronged; they just need to label me to each other as false and infamous, and I’ll be completely ruined. Of course, I’m the one who has been and continues to be cheated—cheated by the Prince and Charlotte; but they don’t have to give me the benefit of that, or give either of us the benefit of anything. They’ll be within their rights to lump us all together as a false, cruel, conspiring group, and, if they can find the right facts to back them up, get rid of us completely.”
This, on each occasion, put the matter so at the worst that repetition even scarce controlled the hot flush with which she was compelled to see the parts of the whole history, all its ugly consistency and its temporary gloss, hang together. She enjoyed, invariably, the sense of making her danger present, of making it real, to her husband, and of his almost turning pale, when their eyes met, at this possibility of their compromised state and their shared discredit. The beauty was that, as under a touch of one of the ivory notes at the left of the keyboard, he sounded out with the short sharpness of the dear fond stupid uneasy man. “Conspiring—so far as YOU were concerned—to what end?”
This always made things so bad that even repetition barely helped control the heat rising in her as she had to face the ugly reality of the whole situation, with all its nasty details and temporary façade, fitting together. She always felt a thrill in making her danger clear and real to her husband, especially when he almost turned pale at the thought of their compromised situation and shared disgrace. The beauty of it was that, like striking a key on a piano, he expressed himself with the sharpness of that dear, well-meaning, anxious man. “Conspiring—so far as YOU were concerned—for what purpose?”
“Why, to the obvious end of getting the Prince a wife—at Maggie’s expense. And then to that of getting Charlotte a husband at Mr. Verver’s.”
“Why, to obviously get the Prince a wife—at Maggie’s expense. And then to find Charlotte a husband for Mr. Verver.”
“Of rendering friendly services, yes—which have produced, as it turns out, complications. But from the moment you didn’t do it FOR the complications, why shouldn’t you have rendered them?”
“Sure, you offered friendly services—which ended up causing complications. But if you didn’t do it FOR the complications, why shouldn’t you have helped out?”
It was extraordinary for her, always, in this connexion, how, with time given him, he fell to speaking better for her than she could, in the presence of her clear-cut image of the “worst,” speak for herself. Troubled as she was she thus never wholly failed of her amusement by the way. “Oh, isn’t what I may have meddled ‘for’—so far as it can be proved I did meddle—open to interpretation; by which I mean to Mr. Verver’s and Maggie’s? Mayn’t they see my motive, in the light of that appreciation, as the wish to be decidedly more friendly to the others than to the victimised father and daughter?” She positively liked to keep it up. “Mayn’t they see my motive as the determination to serve the Prince, in any case, and at any price, first; to ‘place’ him comfortably; in other words to find him his fill of money? Mayn’t it have all the air for them of a really equivocal, sinister bargain between us—something quite unholy and louche?”
It was always amazing for her how, given time, he ended up expressing himself better for her than she could for herself when faced with her clear idea of the “worst.” Despite her worries, she never completely lost her amusement along the way. “Oh, isn’t what I might have interfered ‘for’—as far as it can be shown that I did—open to interpretation? I mean in the eyes of Mr. Verver and Maggie. Can’t they see my motive, in light of that understanding, as a desire to be much friendlier to others than to the victimized father and daughter?” She genuinely enjoyed keeping this going. “Can’t they see my motive as a determination to serve the Prince, no matter what, and at any cost, first; to set him up comfortably; in other words, to make sure he has plenty of money? Couldn’t it all look to them like a truly ambiguous, shady deal between us—something completely unholy and questionable?”
It produced in the poor Colonel, infallibly, the echo. “‘Louche,’ love—?”
It made the poor Colonel instinctively respond, “‘Louche,’ love—?”
“Why, haven’t you said as much yourself?—haven’t you put your finger on that awful possibility?”
“Why, haven’t you said that yourself?—haven’t you pointed out that terrible possibility?”
She had a way now, with his felicities, that made him enjoy being reminded of them. “In speaking of your having always had such a ‘mash’—?”
She now had a way with his quirks that made him enjoy being reminded of them. “Speaking of your long-standing crush—?”
“Such a mash, precisely, for the man I was to help to put so splendidly at his ease. A motherly mash an impartial look at it would show it only as likely to have been—but we’re not talking, of course, about impartial looks. We’re talking of good innocent people deeply worked upon by a horrid discovery, and going much further, in their view of the lurid, as such people almost always do, than those who have been wider awake, all round, from the first. What I was to have got from my friend, in such a view, in exchange for what I had been able to do for him—well, that would have been an equivalent, of a kind best known to myself, for me shrewdly to consider.” And she easily lost herself, each time, in the anxious satisfaction of filling out the picture. “It would have been seen, it would have been heard of, before, the case of the woman a man doesn’t want, or of whom he’s tired, or for whom he has no use but SUCH uses, and who is capable, in her infatuation, in her passion, of promoting his interests with other women rather than lose sight of him, lose touch of him, cease to have to do with him at all. Cela s’est vu, my dear; and stranger things still—as I needn’t tell YOU! Very good then,” she wound up; “there is a perfectly possible conception of the behaviour of your sweet wife; since, as I say, there’s no imagination so lively, once it’s started, as that of really agitated lambs. Lions are nothing to them, for lions are sophisticated, are blases, are brought up, from the first, to prowling and mauling. It does give us, you’ll admit, something to think about. My relief is luckily, however, in what I finally do think.”
“Such a mess, exactly, for the guy I was supposed to help feel totally at ease. An objective look would show it as likely to be just that—but we’re not talking about objective views here. We’re talking about good, innocent people who’ve been deeply shaken by a terrible discovery, and they usually see the situation in a much darker light than those who have been aware and awake from the start. What I would have gotten from my friend, in that context, in exchange for what I’d done for him—well, that would have been an equivalent, of a kind known only to me, for me to cleverly consider.” And she easily got lost each time in the anxious satisfaction of painting the full picture. “This sort of thing has been seen before, the case of the woman a man doesn’t want, or the one he’s tired of, or the one he only has use for in certain ways, and who is so infatuated, so passionate, that she helps promote his connections with other women just to keep him in her life, to maintain contact, to not lose him completely. This has happened, my dear; and even stranger things than this—as I don’t need to explain to YOU! Very well then,” she concluded; “there’s a perfectly plausible way to understand your lovely wife’s behavior; after all, there’s no imagination as vivid, once it gets going, as that of truly agitated souls. Lions are nothing compared to them because lions are sophisticated, jaded, raised from the start to stalk and attack. It certainly gives us plenty to think about. Luckily for me, my relief lies in what I ultimately decide to think.”
He was well enough aware, by this time, of what she finally did think; but he was not without a sense, again, also for his amusement by the way. It would have made him, for a spectator of these passages between the pair, resemble not a little the artless child who hears his favourite story told for the twentieth time and enjoys it exactly because he knows what is next to happen. “What of course will pull them up, if they turn out to have less imagination than you assume, is the profit you can have found in furthering Mrs. Verver’s marriage. You weren’t at least in love with Charlotte.”
He was aware enough by this point of what she really thought; however, he also found amusement in it. For someone watching their interactions, he would seem a bit like a naive child hearing his favorite story for the twentieth time, enjoying it simply because he knew what would happen next. “What will definitely surprise them, if they turn out to have less imagination than you think, is the benefit you've gained from supporting Mrs. Verver's marriage. You weren't actually in love with Charlotte.”
“Oh,” Mrs. Assingham, at this, always brought out, “my hand in that is easily accounted for by my desire to be agreeable to HIM.”
“Oh,” Mrs. Assingham always said in response, “my involvement in that is simply because I want to be agreeable to HIM.”
“To Mr. Verver?”
“To Mr. Verver?”
“To the Prince—by preventing her in that way from taking, as he was in danger of seeing her do, some husband with whom he wouldn’t be able to open, to keep open, so large an account as with his father-in-law. I’ve brought her near him, kept her within his reach, as she could never have remained either as a single woman or as the wife of a different man.”
“To the Prince—by stopping her from marrying someone, which he was worried might happen, a husband with whom he wouldn’t be able to manage such a significant obligation as he has with his father-in-law. I’ve brought her close to him, kept her within his reach, as she would never have been able to stay that way as a single woman or as the wife of another man.”
“Kept her, on that sweet construction, to be his mistress?”
“Kept her, on that sweet arrangement, to be his lover?”
“Kept her, on that sweet construction, to be his mistress.” She brought it out grandly—it had always so, for her own ear as well as, visibly, for her husband’s, its effect. “The facilities in the case, thanks to the particular conditions, being so quite ideal.”
“Kept her, on that sweet arrangement, to be his mistress.” She stated it proudly—it had always sounded so, for her own ears as well as, obviously, for her husband’s, its effect. “The circumstances in this situation, due to the specific conditions, are quite ideal.”
“Down even to the facility of your minding everything so little—from your own point of view—as to have supplied him with the enjoyment of TWO beautiful women.”
“Even with how little you seem to care about everything—from your own perspective—you’ve managed to give him the pleasure of TWO beautiful women.”
“Down even to THAT—to the monstrosity of my folly. But not,” Mrs. Assingham added, “‘two’ of anything. One beautiful woman—and one beautiful fortune. That’s what a creature of pure virtue exposes herself to when she suffers her pure virtue, suffers her sympathy, her disinterestedness, her exquisite sense for the lives of others, to carry her too far. Voila.”
“Even to that—to the absurdity of my mistake. But not,” Mrs. Assingham added, “‘two’ of anything. One beautiful woman—and one beautiful fortune. That’s what a truly virtuous person exposes herself to when she lets her pure virtue, her sympathy, her selflessness, and her keen awareness of others’ lives, take her too far. There you go.”
“I see. It’s the way the Ververs have you.”
"I get it. It's how the Ververs have you."
“It’s the way the Ververs ‘have’ me. It’s in other words the way they would be able to make such a show to each other of having me—if Maggie weren’t so divine.”
“It’s how the Ververs ‘own’ me. In other words, it’s the way they could put on such a show for each other of having me—if Maggie weren’t so amazing.”
“She lets you off?” He never failed to insist on all this to the very end; which was how he had become so versed in what she finally thought.
"Does she give you a break?" He always made sure to press on about this until the very end; that’s how he became so familiar with what she ultimately believed.
“She lets me off. So that now, horrified and contrite at what I’ve done, I may work to help her out. And Mr. Verver,” she was fond of adding, “lets me off too.”
“She lets me go. So now, horrified and regretful about what I’ve done, I can work to help her. And Mr. Verver,” she liked to add, “lets me go too.”
“Then you do believe he knows?”
“Then you really think he knows?”
It determined in her always, there, with a significant pause, a deep immersion in her thought. “I believe he would let me off if he did know—so that I might work to help HIM out. Or rather, really,” she went on, “that I might work to help Maggie. That would be his motive, that would be his condition, in forgiving me; just as hers, for me, in fact, her motive and her condition, are my acting to spare her father. But it’s with Maggie only that I’m directly concerned; nothing, ever—not a breath, not a look, I’ll guarantee—shall I have, whatever happens, from Mr. Verver himself. So it is, therefore, that I shall probably, by the closest possible shave, escape the penalty of my crimes.”
It was always clear to her, after a significant pause, that she was deeply immersed in her thoughts. “I think he would let me off if he knew—so that I could work to help HIM out. Or rather,” she continued, “that I could work to help Maggie. That would be his motive, his reason for forgiving me; just as hers, for me, in fact, her motive and her reason, is my acting to spare her father. But it’s only with Maggie that I’m directly concerned; nothing, ever—not a word, not a glance, I can guarantee—will I receive, no matter what happens, from Mr. Verver himself. So it is, therefore, that I will probably, by the closest possible margin, escape the consequences of my actions.”
“You mean being held responsible.”
“You mean being held accountable.”
“I mean being held responsible. My advantage will be that Maggie’s such a trump.”
“I mean being held accountable. My edge will be that Maggie’s such a gem.”
“Such a trump that, as you say, she’ll stick to you.”
“Such a trick that, as you say, she’ll be loyal to you.”
“Stick to me, on our understanding—stick to me. For our understanding’s signed and sealed.” And to brood over it again was ever, for Mrs. Assingham, to break out again with exaltation. “It’s a grand, high compact. She has solemnly promised.”
“Stay with me, on our agreement—stay with me. Because our agreement is signed and sealed.” And for Mrs. Assingham, to think about it again was always to feel a surge of excitement. “It’s a wonderful, important deal. She has officially promised.”
“But in words—?”
“But in words—?”
“Oh yes, in words enough—since it’s a matter of words. To keep up HER lie so long as I keep up mine.”
“Oh yes, there are plenty of words—since it’s all about words. I’ll maintain HER lie as long as I maintain mine.”
“And what do you call ‘her’ lie?”
“And what do you call ‘her’ lie?”
“Why, the pretence that she believes me. Believes they’re innocent.”
“Why, the act that she actually believes me. Believes they’re innocent.”
“She positively believes then they’re guilty? She has arrived at that, she’s really content with it, in the absence of proof?” It was here, each time, that Fanny Assingham most faltered; but always at last to get the matter, for her own sense, and with a long sigh, sufficiently straight. “It isn’t a question of belief or of proof, absent or present; it’s inevitably, with her, a question of natural perception, of insurmountable feeling. She irresistibly knows that there’s something between them. But she hasn’t ‘arrived’ at it, as you say, at all; that’s exactly what she hasn’t done, what she so steadily and intensely refuses to do. She stands off and off, so as not to arrive; she keeps out to sea and away from the rocks, and what she most wants of me is to keep at a safe distance with her—as I, for my own skin, only ask not to come nearer.” After which, invariably, she let him have it all. “So far from wanting proof—which she must get, in a manner, by my siding with her—she wants DISproof, as against herself, and has appealed to me, so extraordinarily, to side against her. It’s really magnificent, when you come to think of it, the spirit of her appeal. If I’ll but cover them up brazenly enough, the others, so as to show, round and about them, as happy as a bird, she on her side will do what she can. If I’ll keep them quiet, in a word, it will enable her to gain time—time as against any idea of her father’s—and so, somehow, come out. If I’ll take care of Charlotte, in particular, she’ll take care of the Prince; and it’s beautiful and wonderful, really pathetic and exquisite, to see what she feels that time may do for her.”
“She firmly believes they're guilty? She's come to that conclusion, and she's truly okay with it, even without evidence?” This is where Fanny Assingham always hesitated; but she always managed to clarify the matter, for her own understanding, with a long sigh. “It's not about belief or proof, whether it's absent or present; for her, it’s solely about natural perception and overwhelming emotion. She knows deep down that there's something between them. But she hasn't 'arrived' at it, like you said, not at all; that's exactly what she has not done, what she adamantly and intensely refuses to acknowledge. She keeps her distance to avoid coming to that conclusion; she maintains a safe distance from the truth, and what she really needs from me is to stay at a safe distance with her—as I just want to protect myself and not get any closer.” After that, she always let him have it all. “Rather than wanting proof—which she thinks I can provide by supporting her—she actually wants DISproof, against her own inclinations, and has remarkably asked me to go against her. It's truly impressive, when you think about it, the spirit of her request. If I can just brazenly cover them up, to make it seem like they’re as happy as can be, she'll do her part. If I can keep things quiet, in short, it will give her time—time against any ideas her father might have—and somehow, she might find a way out. If I take care of Charlotte, especially, she’ll take care of the Prince; and it’s beautiful and incredible, really touching and exquisite, to see what she believes time may do for her.”
“Ah, but what does she call, poor little thing, ‘time’?”
“Ah, but what does she refer to, poor little thing, as ‘time’?”
“Well, this summer at Fawns, to begin with. She can live as yet, of course, but from hand to mouth; but she has worked it out for herself, I think, that the very danger of Fawns, superficially looked at, may practically amount to a greater protection. THERE the lovers—if they ARE lovers!—will have to mind. They’ll feel it for themselves, unless things are too utterly far gone with them.”
“Well, this summer at Fawns, to start with. She can still get by, of course, but just barely. However, I think she has figured out that the very danger of Fawns, when looked at superficially, might actually offer greater protection. THERE the lovers—if they ARE lovers!—will need to be careful. They’ll sense it themselves, unless things are way too messed up between them.”
“And things are NOT too utterly far gone with them?”
“And things are not that hopeless with them?”
She had inevitably, poor woman, her hesitation for this, but she put down her answer as, for the purchase of some absolutely indispensable article, she would have put down her last shilling. “No.”
She couldn't help it, poor woman, her hesitation for this, but she wrote down her answer as if it were for the purchase of something absolutely essential, she would have spent her last penny. “No.”
It made him always grin at her. “Is THAT a lie?”
It always made him smile at her. “Is THAT a lie?”
“Do you think you’re worth lying to? If it weren’t the truth, for me,” she added, “I wouldn’t have accepted for Fawns. I CAN, I believe, keep the wretches quiet.”
“Do you really think you’re worth lying to? If it weren’t true for me,” she added, “I wouldn’t have agreed for Fawns. I CAN, I believe, keep the miserable people quiet.”
“But how—at the worst?”
“But how—when things are worst?”
“Oh, ‘the worst’—don’t talk about the worst! I can keep them quiet at the best, I seem to feel, simply by our being there. It will work, from week to week, of itself. You’ll see.”
“Oh, ‘the worst’—let’s not even discuss that! I can keep them calm at the best, I feel, just by our presence. It’ll sort itself out week by week. You’ll see.”
He was willing enough to see, but he desired to provide—! “Yet if it doesn’t work?”
He was open to seeing, but he wanted to give—! “But what if it doesn’t work?”
“Ah, that’s talking about the worst!”
"Ugh, that's so awful!"
Well, it might be; but what were they doing, from morning to night, at this crisis, but talk? “Who’ll keep the others?”
Well, it might be; but what were they doing, from morning to night, during this crisis, except talk? “Who’s going to take care of the others?”
“The others—?”
"The others...?"
“Who’ll keep THEM quiet? If your couple have had a life together, they can’t have had it completely without witnesses, without the help of persons, however few, who must have some knowledge, some idea about them. They’ve had to meet, secretly, protectedly, they’ve had to arrange; for if they haven’t met, and haven’t arranged, and haven’t thereby, in some quarter or other, had to give themselves away, why are we piling it up so? Therefore if there’s evidence, up and down London—”
“Who’s going to keep THEM quiet? If your couple has shared a life together, they can’t have done it completely without witnesses, without the help of a few people who must know something, have some idea about them. They’ve had to meet secretly and carefully; they’ve had to make plans. If they haven’t met, haven’t made plans, and haven’t in some way given themselves away, why are we complicating things? So if there’s evidence all over London—”
“There must be people in possession of it? Ah, it isn’t all,” she always remembered, “up and down London. Some of it must connect them—I mean,” she musingly added, “it naturally WOULD—with other places; with who knows what strange adventures, opportunities, dissimulations? But whatever there may have been, it will also all have been buried on the spot. Oh, they’ve known HOW—too beautifully! But nothing, all the same, is likely to find its way to Maggie of itself.”
“There must be people who have it, right? Oh, it’s not just that,” she always recalled, “up and down London. Some of it must link them—I mean,” she thoughtfully added, “it naturally would—with other places; with who knows what odd adventures, opportunities, or deceptions? But whatever there was, it’s all probably buried right there. Oh, they’ve known how—too wonderfully! But nothing, regardless, is likely to come to Maggie on its own.”
“Because every one who may have anything to tell, you hold, will have been so squared?” And then inveterately, before she could say—he enjoyed so much coming to this: “What will have squared Lady Castledean?”
“Because you believe that everyone who has something to share will have been so squared?” And then, before she could respond—he enjoyed this so much: “What could have squared Lady Castledean?”
“The consciousness”—she had never lost her promptness—“of having no stones to throw at any one else’s windows. She has enough to do to guard her own glass. That was what she was doing,” Fanny said, “that last morning at Matcham when all of us went off and she kept the Prince and Charlotte over. She helped them simply that she might herself be helped—if it wasn’t perhaps, rather, with her ridiculous Mr. Blint, that HE might be. They put in together, therefore, of course, that day; they got it clear—and quite under her eyes; inasmuch as they didn’t become traceable again, as we know, till late in the evening.” On this historic circumstance Mrs. Assingham was always ready afresh to brood; but she was no less ready, after her brooding, devoutly to add “Only we know nothing whatever else—for which all our stars be thanked!”
“The awareness”—she had never lost her quickness—“of having no stones to throw at anyone else’s windows. She has enough to worry about guarding her own glass. That was what she was doing,” Fanny said, “that last morning at Matcham when all of us left and she kept the Prince and Charlotte over. She helped them simply so she could be helped herself—unless, perhaps, it was more to help her ridiculous Mr. Blint, so HE could be. They put in together, therefore, of course, that day; they got it clear—and right in front of her; since they didn't become traceable again, as we know, until late in the evening.” On this notable event, Mrs. Assingham was always ready to reflect again; but she was just as ready, after her reflection, to devoutly add, “Only we know nothing else for which all our stars be thanked!”
The Colonel’s gratitude was apt to be less marked. “What did they do for themselves, all the same, from the moment they got that free hand to the moment (long after dinner-time, haven’t you told me?) of their turning up at their respective homes?”
The Colonel's gratitude was usually less obvious. "What did they really do for themselves, anyway, from the moment they got that freedom to the time (long after dinner, haven't you mentioned?) when they returned to their homes?"
“Well, it’s none of your business!”
"Well, it’s not your concern!"
“I don’t speak of it as mine, but it’s only too much theirs. People are always traceable, in England, when tracings are required. Something, sooner or later, happens; somebody, sooner or later, breaks the holy calm. Murder will out.”
“I don’t claim it as mine, but it definitely belongs to them. People can always be tracked down in England when there’s a need for tracking. Eventually, something happens; sooner or later, someone disrupts the peace. The truth will come out.”
“Murder will—but this isn’t murder. Quite the contrary perhaps! I verily believe,” she had her moments of adding, “that, for the amusement of the row, you would prefer an explosion.”
“Murder will—but this isn’t murder. Quite the opposite, maybe! I really believe,” she sometimes added, “that, for the fun of it, you would prefer an explosion.”
This, however, was a remark he seldom noticed; he wound up, for the most part, after a long, contemplative smoke, with a transition from which no exposed futility in it had succeeded in weaning him. “What I can’t for my life make out is your idea of the old boy.”
This was a comment he rarely paid attention to; he usually ended up, after a long, thoughtful smoke, with a change in perspective that no apparent uselessness managed to shake him from. “What I just can’t figure out is your view of the old guy.”
“Charlotte’s too inconceivably funny husband? I HAVE no idea.”
“Charlotte’s incredibly funny husband? I HAVE no idea.”
“I beg your pardon—you’ve just shown it. You never speak of him but as too inconceivably funny.”
“I’m sorry—you’ve just made that clear. You never talk about him without mentioning how ridiculously funny he is.”
“Well, he is,” she always confessed. “That is he may be, for all I know, too inconceivably great. But that’s not an idea. It represents only my weak necessity of feeling that he’s beyond me—which isn’t an idea either. You see he MAY be stupid too.”
“Well, he is,” she always admitted. “He might be, for all I know, incredibly great. But that’s not really an idea. It just reflects my weak need to feel that he’s above me—which isn’t an idea either. You see, he MIGHT be stupid too.”
“Precisely—there you are.”
"Exactly—there you are."
“Yet on the other hand,” she always went on, “he MAY be sublime: sublimer even than Maggie herself. He may in fact have already been. But we shall never know.” With which her tone betrayed perhaps a shade of soreness for the single exemption she didn’t yearningly welcome. “THAT I can see.”
“Yet on the other hand,” she always continued, “he might be amazing: even more amazing than Maggie herself. He might have already been. But we’ll never know.” At which point her tone revealed a hint of disappointment for the one exception she didn’t wish for. “I can see that.”
“Oh, I say—!” It came to affect the Colonel himself with a sense of privation.
“Oh, I say—!” It started to make the Colonel feel a sense of loss.
“I’m not sure, even, that Charlotte will.”
“I’m not even sure that Charlotte will.”
“Oh, my dear, what Charlotte doesn’t know—!”
“Oh, my dear, what Charlotte doesn’t know—!”
But she brooded and brooded. “I’m not sure even that the Prince will.” It seemed privation, in short, for them all. “They’ll be mystified, confounded, tormented. But they won’t know—and all their possible putting their heads together won’t make them. That,” said Fanny Assingham, “will be their punishment.” And she ended, ever, when she had come so far, at the same pitch. “It will probably also—if I get off with so little—be mine.”
But she kept thinking and thinking. “I’m not even sure the Prince will.” It seemed like hardship, in short, for all of them. “They'll be puzzled, confused, tormented. But they won’t understand—and no amount of brainstorming will change that. That,” said Fanny Assingham, “will be their punishment.” And she always concluded, when she got this far, with the same thought. “It will probably also—if I get away with so little—be mine.”
“And what,” her husband liked to ask, “will be mine?”
“And what,” her husband liked to ask, “will I get?”
“Nothing—you’re not worthy of any. One’s punishment is in what one feels, and what will make ours effective is that we SHALL feel.” She was splendid with her “ours”; she flared up with this prophecy. “It will be Maggie herself who will mete it out.”
“Nothing—you don’t deserve any. The real punishment comes from what you feel, and what will make ours meaningful is that we WILL feel.” She was magnificent with her “ours”; she lit up with this prediction. “It will be Maggie herself who will deliver it.”
“Maggie—?”
“Maggie?”
“SHE’LL know—about her father; everything. Everything,” she repeated. On the vision of which, each time, Mrs. Assingham, as with the presentiment of an odd despair, turned away from it. “But she’ll never tell us.”
“SHE’LL know—about her dad; everything. Everything,” she repeated. Each time she thought of this, Mrs. Assingham, with a strange feeling of despair, turned away from it. “But she’ll never tell us.”
XXXII
XXXII
If Maggie had not so firmly made up her mind never to say, either to her good friend or to any one else, more than she meant about her father, she might have found herself betrayed into some such overflow during the week spent in London with her husband after the others had adjourned to Fawns for the summer. This was because of the odd element of the unnatural imparted to the so simple fact of their brief separation by the assumptions resident in their course of life hitherto. She was used, herself, certainly, by this time, to dealing with odd elements; but she dropped, instantly, even from such peace as she had patched up, when it was a question of feeling that her unpenetrated parent might be alone with them. She thought of him as alone with them when she thought of him as alone with Charlotte—and this, strangely enough, even while fixing her sense to the full on his wife’s power of preserving, quite of enhancing, every felicitous appearance. Charlotte had done that—under immeasurably fewer difficulties indeed—during the numerous months of their hymeneal absence from England, the period prior to that wonderful reunion of the couples, in the interest of the larger play of all the virtues of each, which was now bearing, for Mrs. Verver’s stepdaughter at least, such remarkable fruit. It was the present so much briefer interval, in a situation, possibly in a relation, so changed—it was the new terms of her problem that would tax Charlotte’s art. The Princess could pull herself up, repeatedly, by remembering that the real “relation” between her father and his wife was a thing that she knew nothing about and that, in strictness, was none of her business; but she none the less failed to keep quiet, as she would have called it, before the projected image of their ostensibly happy isolation. Nothing could have had less of the quality of quietude than a certain queer wish that fitfully flickered up in her, a wish that usurped, perversely, the place of a much more natural one. If Charlotte, while she was about it, could only have been WORSE!—that idea Maggie fell to invoking instead of the idea that she might desirably have been better. For, exceedingly odd as it was to feel in such ways, she believed she mightn’t have worried so much if she didn’t somehow make her stepmother out, under the beautiful trees and among the dear old gardens, as lavish of fifty kinds of confidence and twenty kinds, at least, of gentleness. Gentleness and confidence were certainly the right thing, as from a charming woman to her husband, but the fine tissue of reassurance woven by this lady’s hands and flung over her companion as a light, muffling veil, formed precisely a wrought transparency through which she felt her father’s eyes continually rest on herself. The reach of his gaze came to her straighter from a distance; it showed him as still more conscious, down there alone, of the suspected, the felt elaboration of the process of their not alarming or hurting him. She had herself now, for weeks and weeks, and all unwinkingly, traced the extension of this pious effort; but her perfect success in giving no sign—she did herself THAT credit—would have been an achievement quite wasted if Mrs. Verver should make with him those mistakes of proportion, one set of them too abruptly, too incoherently designed to correct another set, that she had made with his daughter. However, if she HAD been worse, poor woman, who should say that her husband would, to a certainty, have been better?
If Maggie hadn't firmly decided never to say more than she meant about her father, either to her good friend or anyone else, she might have ended up revealing too much during the week spent in London with her husband after the others had gone to Fawns for the summer. This was due to the strange feeling of unnaturalness that surrounded the simple fact of their brief separation, influenced by the assumptions tied to their lives up until then. By this point, she was certainly accustomed to dealing with odd situations; however, she quickly lost even the peace she had managed to find when it came to the idea of her elusive father being alone with them. She envisioned him being alone with them, particularly with Charlotte—and this thought lingered, oddly enough, even while she focused fully on her wife's ability to maintain, if not enhance, their seemingly happy façade. Charlotte had managed that—under far fewer difficulties—during the months they had spent apart from England, leading up to the wonderful reunion of the couples, which was now yielding remarkable results for Mrs. Verver’s stepdaughter. It was now this much shorter interval, in a situation—and potentially in a relationship—that had changed so much; it was the new conditions of her dilemma that would challenge Charlotte’s skill. The Princess could repeatedly remind herself that the actual “relationship” between her father and his wife was something she knew nothing about and that, technically, it wasn't her concern; still, she struggled to keep calm, as she would have described it, in the face of their seemingly happy isolation. Nothing felt less peaceful than a certain strange desire that occasionally flared up within her, a desire that oddly took the place of a much more natural one. If only Charlotte could have been WORSE!—that was the idea Maggie found herself invoking instead of the thought that she could have been better. It was extremely odd to feel this way, but she thought she might not have worried so much if she didn’t somehow perceive her stepmother, under the beautiful trees and among the lovely old gardens, as overflowing with many kinds of confidence and at least twenty kinds of gentleness. Gentleness and confidence were certainly appropriate for a charming woman towards her husband, but the delicate web of reassurance woven by this lady’s hands and draped over her partner like a soft, concealing veil felt like a transparent layer through which she sensed her father’s gaze constantly resting on her. His stare reached her more directly from a distance; it made him seem even more aware, while he was down there alone, of the suspected and felt complexity of their efforts not to alarm or hurt him. She had spent weeks without blinking, tracking the extent of this pious endeavor; however, her perfect success in showing no signs—she took pride in that—would have been a completely wasted effort if Mrs. Verver ended up making the same mistakes with him, mistakes that would be too abrupt and incoherent in trying to fix a previous set that she had made with his daughter. Still, if she HAD been worse, poor woman, who could say for sure that her husband would have been better?
One groped noiselessly among such questions, and it was actually not even definite for the Princess that her own Amerigo, left alone with her in town, had arrived at the golden mean of non-precautionary gallantry which would tend, by his calculation, to brush private criticism from its last perching-place. The truth was, in this connection, that she had different sorts of terrors, and there were hours when it came to her that these days were a prolonged repetition of that night-drive, of weeks before, from the other house to their own, when he had tried to charm her, by his sovereign personal power, into some collapse that would commit her to a repudiation of consistency. She was never alone with him, it was to be said, without her having sooner or later to ask herself what had already become of her consistency; yet, at the same time, so long as she breathed no charge, she kept hold of a remnant of appearance that could save her from attack. Attack, real attack, from him, as he would conduct it was what she above all dreaded; she was so far from sure that under that experience she mightn’t drop into some depth of weakness, mightn’t show him some shortest way with her that he would know how to use again. Therefore, since she had given him, as yet, no moment’s pretext for pretending to her that she had either lost faith or suffered by a feather’s weight in happiness, she left him, it was easy to reason, with an immense advantage for all waiting and all tension. She wished him, for the present, to “make up” to her for nothing. Who could say to what making-up might lead, into what consenting or pretending or destroying blindness it might plunge her? She loved him too helplessly, still, to dare to open the door, by an inch, to his treating her as if either of them had wronged the other. Something or somebody—and who, at this, which of them all?—would inevitably, would in the gust of momentary selfishness, be sacrificed to that; whereas what she intelligently needed was to know where she was going. Knowledge, knowledge, was a fascination as well as a fear; and a part, precisely, of the strangeness of this juncture was the way her apprehension that he would break out to her with some merely general profession was mixed with her dire need to forgive him, to reassure him, to respond to him, on no ground that she didn’t fully measure. To do these things it must be clear to her what they were FOR; but to act in that light was, by the same effect, to learn, horribly, what the other things had been. He might tell her only what he wanted, only what would work upon her by the beauty of his appeal; and the result of the direct appeal of ANY beauty in him would be her helpless submission to his terms. All her temporary safety, her hand-to-mouth success, accordingly, was in his neither perceiving nor divining this, thanks to such means as she could take to prevent him; take, literally from hour to hour, during these days of more unbroken exposure. From hour to hour she fairly expected some sign of his having decided on a jump. “Ah yes, it HAS been as you think; I’ve strayed away, I’ve fancied myself free, given myself in other quantities, with larger generosities, because I thought you were different—different from what I now see. But it was only, only, because I didn’t know—and you must admit that you gave me scarce reason enough. Reason enough, I mean, to keep clear of my mistake; to which I confess, for which I’ll do exquisite penance, which you can help me now, I too beautifully feel, to get completely over.”
One silently fumbled through those questions, and it wasn't even clear to the Princess that her own Amerigo, alone with her in the city, had found the perfect balance of casual charm that, in his view, would help deflect any lingering criticism. The reality was that she had various kinds of fears, and there were moments when it hit her that these days felt like a long repeat of that night drive from weeks ago, when he had tried to win her over with his undeniable charm, aiming to push her into a moment of weakness that would make her abandon her principles. She was never alone with him without eventually questioning what had happened to her principles; yet, as long as she didn’t voice any accusations, she clung to a facade that protected her from attack. What she truly feared was a real confrontation from him, as he would handle it; she wasn’t sure she wouldn’t fall into a deep vulnerability, or reveal to him a quick way to manipulate her again. Therefore, since she had yet to give him any reason to pretend she had lost hope or suffered even a slight decline in happiness, she figured she left him with a significant advantage in all the waiting and tension. For now, she wanted him to “make up” for nothing. Who could predict where making up might lead them into consenting, pretending, or destroying their mutual blindness? She loved him too deeply to risk even slightly opening the door for him to treat her as though either of them had wronged the other. Something or someone—and who among them?—would inevitably be sacrificed in a moment of selfishness; meanwhile, what she truly needed was clarity about her path. Knowledge was both captivating and frightening; and part of the oddity of this moment was how her fear that he might openly profess something vague mixed with her desperate need to forgive him, reassure him, and respond to him without any ambiguous ground. To do so, it had to be clear to her why she was doing it; but acting with that clarity would also mean learning, painfully, what the other things had been. He might share only what he wanted, only what would appeal to her through the beauty of his charm; and the direct appeal of ANY beauty in him would lead her to submit helplessly to his terms. Thus, her temporary safety and day-to-day success depended on him neither realizing nor guessing this, thanks to the strategies she employed to keep him unaware, hour by hour, during these days of heightened exposure. Hour by hour, she genuinely expected some indication that he had decided to make a move. “Ah yes, it HAS been as you think; I've wandered off, thought I was free, given myself in different ways, with greater generosity, because I imagined you were different—different from what I now see. But it was only, only, because I didn’t know—and you must admit that you hardly gave me enough reason. Enough reason, I mean, to avoid my mistake; to which I admit, for which I will undergo exquisite penance, and you can help me now, I feel beautifully, to completely move on.”
That was what, while she watched herself, she potentially heard him bring out; and while she carried to an end another day, another sequence and yet another of their hours together, without his producing it, she felt herself occupied with him beyond even the intensity of surrender. She was keeping her head, for a reason, for a cause; and the labour of this detachment, with the labour of her keeping the pitch of it down, held them together in the steel hoop of an intimacy compared with which artless passion would have been but a beating of the air. Her greatest danger, or at least her greatest motive for care, was the obsession of the thought that, if he actually did suspect, the fruit of his attention to her couldn’t help being a sense of the growth of her importance. Taking the measure, with him, as she had taken it with her father, of the prescribed reach of her hypocrisy, she saw how it would have to stretch even to her seeking to prove that she was NOT, all the same, important. A single touch from him—oh, she should know it in case of its coming!—any brush of his hand, of his lips, of his voice, inspired by recognition of her probable interest as distinct from pity for her virtual gloom, would hand her over to him bound hand and foot. Therefore to be free, to be free to act, other than abjectly, for her father, she must conceal from him the validity that, like a microscopic insect pushing a grain of sand, she was taking on even for herself. She could keep it up with a change in sight, but she couldn’t keep it up forever; so that, really, one extraordinary effect of their week of untempered confrontation, which bristled with new marks, was to make her reach out, in thought, to their customary companions and calculate the kind of relief that rejoining them would bring. She was learning, almost from minute to minute, to be a mistress of shades since, always, when there were possibilities enough of intimacy, there were also, by that fact, in intercourse, possibilities of iridescence; but she was working against an adversary who was a master of shades too, and on whom, if she didn’t look out, she should presently have imposed a consciousness of the nature of their struggle. To feel him in fact, to think of his feeling himself, her adversary in things of this fineness—to see him at all, in short, brave a name that would represent him as in opposition— was already to be nearly reduced to a visible smothering of her cry of alarm. Should he guess they were having, in their so occult manner, a HIGH fight, and that it was she, all the while, in her supposed stupidity, who had made it high and was keeping it high—in the event of his doing this before they could leave town she should verily be lost.
As she watched herself, she sensed he might bring something out; and while she finished another day, another set of hours with him, without him ever showing it, she felt deeply engaged with him, beyond just surrender. She was holding it together for a reason, for a purpose; and the effort of this detachment, along with her struggle to keep it under control, held them tightly bound in a closeness that made simple passion feel meaningless. Her biggest risk, or at least her main reason to be cautious, was worrying that if he suspected anything, his attention to her would only make her feel more significant. Measuring her deception with him, as she had with her father, she realized it would have to stretch to even try to demonstrate that she was not, in fact, important. A single touch from him—she would definitely recognize it if it happened!—any brush of his hand, lips, or voice, fueled by his acknowledgment of her likely interest rather than pity for her apparent sadness, would completely bind her to him. So, to be free, to be able to act differently, rather than submissively, for her father, she needed to hide from him the truth that, like a tiny insect pushing a grain of sand, she was gaining even for herself. She could maintain this with a change in perspective, but she couldn’t keep it up forever; so, in fact, one striking outcome of their intense week together, which had left fresh marks, was that she started to think about their usual friends and how much relief rejoining them might bring. She was learning, almost moment by moment, to master nuances since, whenever there were potential intimacies, there were equally, due to that very fact, complexities in their interactions; but she was up against an opponent who was also a master of subtleties, and if she wasn’t careful, he would soon be aware of the nature of their struggle. To actually feel him, to consider his self-awareness, her opponent in these delicate matters—to see him at all, in short, to name him as an adversary—was almost to be overwhelmed with her alarm. If he figured out that they were having, in their secretive way, a significant conflict, and that it was actually her, in her supposed cluelessness, who had made it significant and was keeping it that way—if he realized this before they could leave town, she would definitely be lost.
The possible respite for her at Fawns would come from the fact that observation, in him, there, would inevitably find some of its directness diverted. This would be the case if only because the remarkable strain of her father’s placidity might be thought of as likely to claim some larger part of his attention. Besides which there would be always Charlotte herself to draw him off. Charlotte would help him again, doubtless, to study anything, right or left, that might be symptomatic; but Maggie could see that this very fact might perhaps contribute, in its degree, to protect the secret of her own fermentation. It is not even incredible that she may have discovered the gleam of a comfort that was to broaden in the conceivable effect on the Prince’s spirit, on his nerves, on his finer irritability, of some of the very airs and aspects, the light graces themselves, of Mrs. Verver’s too perfect competence. What it would most come to, after all, she said to herself, was a renewal for him of the privilege of watching that lady watch her. Very well, then: with the elements after all so mixed in him, how long would he go on enjoying mere spectatorship of that act? For she had by this time made up her mind that in Charlotte’s company he deferred to Charlotte’s easier art of mounting guard. Wouldn’t he get tired—to put it only at that—of seeing her always on the rampart, erect and elegant, with her lace-flounced parasol now folded and now shouldered, march to and fro against a gold-coloured east or west? Maggie had gone far, truly for a view of the question of this particular reaction, and she was not incapable of pulling herself up with the rebuke that she counted her chickens before they were hatched. How sure she should have to be of so many things before she might thus find a weariness in Amerigo’s expression and a logic in his weariness!
The potential break for her at Fawns would come from the fact that his observation there would likely lose some of its directness. This would be true mainly because her father's calm demeanor might reasonably take up more of his attention. Additionally, there would always be Charlotte to distract him. Charlotte would certainly help him study anything, whether to the right or the left, that might be telling; but Maggie could see that this very fact might help keep her own inner struggles a secret. It’s even possible that she had sensed the hint of a comfort that could deepen its impact on the Prince’s spirit, his nerves, and his finer sensitivities, influenced by some of the very qualities and manners of Mrs. Verver’s flawless competence. Ultimately, she thought to herself, it would come down to him regaining the privilege of watching that lady watch her. So, with all these mixed feelings within him, how long would he keep enjoying just watching that act? By now, she had convinced herself that in Charlotte’s presence, he leaned into Charlotte’s easier way of keeping watch. Wouldn’t he get tired—just to put it that way—of seeing her always standing tall and graceful on the rampart, her lace-trimmed parasol now folded and now resting on her shoulder, marching this way and that against a golden sunrise or sunset? Maggie had really explored the question of this particular reaction deeply, and she wasn’t above chastising herself for counting her chickens before they hatched. She knew she would have to be certain about so many things before she could find fatigue in Amerigo’s expression and reason in his weariness!
One of her dissimulated arts for meeting their tension, meanwhile, was to interweave Mrs. Assingham as plausibly as possible with the undulations of their surface, to bring it about that she should join them, of an afternoon, when they drove together or if they went to look at things—looking at things being almost as much a feature of their life as if they were bazaar-opening royalties. Then there were such combinations, later in the day, as her attendance on them, and the Colonel’s as well, for such whimsical matters as visits to the opera no matter who was singing, and sudden outbreaks of curiosity about the British drama. The good couple from Cadogan Place could always unprotestingly dine with them and “go on” afterwards to such publicities as the Princess cultivated the boldness of now perversely preferring. It may be said of her that, during these passages, she plucked her sensations by the way, detached, nervously, the small wild blossoms of her dim forest, so that she could smile over them at least with the spacious appearance, for her companions, for her husband above all, of bravely, of altogether frivolously, going a-maying. She had her intense, her smothered excitements, some of which were almost inspirations; she had in particular the extravagant, positively at moments the amused, sense of using her friend to the topmost notch, accompanied with the high luxury of not having to explain. Never, no never, should she have to explain to Fanny Assingham again—who, poor woman, on her own side, would be charged, it might be forever, with that privilege of the higher ingenuity. She put it all off on Fanny, and the dear thing herself might henceforth appraise the quantity. More and more magnificent now in her blameless egoism, Maggie asked no questions of her, and thus only signified the greatness of the opportunity she gave her. She didn’t care for what devotions, what dinners of their own the Assinghams might have been “booked”; that was a detail, and she could think without wincing of the ruptures and rearrangements to which her service condemned them. It all fell in beautifully, moreover; so that, as hard, at this time, in spite of her fever, as a little pointed diamond, the Princess showed something of the glitter of consciously possessing the constructive, the creative hand. She had but to have the fancy of presenting herself, of presenting her husband, in a certain high and convenient manner, to make it natural they should go about with their gentleman and their lady. To what else but this, exactly, had Charlotte, during so many weeks of the earlier season, worked her up?—herself assuming and discharging, so far as might be, the character and office of one of those revolving subordinate presences that float in the wake of greatness.
One of her hidden skills for handling their tension was to blend Mrs. Assingham into their daily lives as seamlessly as possible. She made sure that Mrs. Assingham would join them in the afternoons when they drove together or went out sightseeing—checking out things being almost as much a part of their lifestyle as if they were royalty opening a bazaar. Later in the day, Mrs. Assingham would also join them, along with the Colonel, for whimsical outings like opera visits, regardless of who was performing, and sudden spurts of interest in British theater. The delightful couple from Cadogan Place could always easily join them for dinner and then go on to the events that the Princess enjoyed, now oddly preferring bolder choices. During these times, she would gather her feelings on the go, nervously picking the small wildflowers from her shadowy woods, so she could at least smile about them with a sense of grandeur for her companions, especially her husband, as if they were bravely and frivolously enjoying a day out. She had her intense, suppressed thrills, some of which felt almost like inspiration; particularly, she found it exciting, even amusing, to use her friend to the fullest without having to explain anything. She resolved that she would never again have to explain anything to Fanny Assingham—who, poor woman, would forever carry the weight of that cleverness. Maggie passed everything onto Fanny, leaving it to her to evaluate the situation. More and more triumphant in her innocent selfishness, Maggie didn’t ask her any questions, thus highlighting the great opportunity she provided. She didn’t care about the dinners or arrangements the Assinghams might already have—those were minor details, and she could think without flinching about the changes and complications her presence caused them. Everything fell into place beautifully; even though she felt pressure, like a sharp diamond, the Princess radiated the spark of having a creative, constructive touch. All it took was for her to decide to present herself, and her husband, in a certain elevated and convenient way, to make it seem natural for them to be around their gentleman and lady. What else had Charlotte worked towards for so many weeks at the beginning of the season?—taking on and performing, as much as she could, the role of one of those supporting figures that linger behind greatness.
The precedent was therefore established and the group normally constituted. Mrs. Assingham, meanwhile, at table, on the stairs, in the carriage or the opera-box, might—with her constant overflow of expression, for that matter, and its singularly resident character where men in especial were concerned—look across at Amerigo in whatever sense she liked: it was not of that Maggie proposed to be afraid. She might warn him, she might rebuke him, she might reassure him, she might—if it were impossible not to—absolutely make love to him; even this was open to her, as a matter simply between them, if it would help her to answer for the impeccability he had guaranteed. And Maggie desired in fact only to strike her as acknowledging the efficacy of her aid when she mentioned to her one evening a small project for the morrow, privately entertained—the idea, irresistible, intense, of going to pay, at the Museum, a visit to Mr. Crichton. Mr. Crichton, as Mrs. Assingham could easily remember, was the most accomplished and obliging of public functionaries, whom every one knew and who knew every one—who had from the first, in particular, lent himself freely, and for the love of art and history, to becoming one of the steadier lights of Mr. Verver’s adventurous path. The custodian of one of the richest departments of the great national collection of precious things, he could feel for the sincere private collector and urge him on his way even when condemned to be present at his capture of trophies sacrificed by the country to parliamentary thrift. He carried his amiability to the point of saying that, since London, under pettifogging views, had to miss, from time to time, its rarest opportunities, he was almost consoled to see such lost causes invariably wander at last, one by one, with the tormenting tinkle of their silver bells, into the wondrous, the already famous fold beyond the Mississippi. There was a charm in his “almosts” that was not to be resisted, especially after Mr. Verver and Maggie had grown sure—or almost, again—of enjoying the monopoly of them; and on this basis of envy changed to sympathy by the more familiar view of the father and the daughter, Mr. Crichton had at both houses, though especially in Eaton Square, learned to fill out the responsive and suggestive character. It was at his invitation, Fanny well recalled, that Maggie, one day, long before, and under her own attendance precisely, had, for the glory of the name she bore, paid a visit to one of the ampler shrines of the supreme exhibitory temple, an alcove of shelves charged with the gold-and-brown, gold-and-ivory, of old Italian bindings and consecrated to the records of the Prince’s race. It had been an impression that penetrated, that remained; yet Maggie had sighed, ever so prettily, at its having to be so superficial. She was to go back some day, to dive deeper, to linger and taste; in spite of which, however, Mrs. Assingham could not recollect perceiving that the visit had been repeated. This second occasion had given way, for a long time, in her happy life, to other occasions—all testifying, in their degree, to the quality of her husband’s blood, its rich mixture and its many remarkable references; after which, no doubt, the charming piety involved had grown, on still further grounds, bewildered and faint.
The precedent was set, and the group was normally formed. Meanwhile, Mrs. Assingham, whether at the table, on the stairs, in the carriage, or in the opera box, could—given her constant overflow of expression, particularly when it came to men—look across at Amerigo in whichever way she pleased: that was not something Maggie intended to be afraid of. She could warn him, scold him, reassure him, or even—if it was impossible not to—flirt with him; that was open to her as a matter strictly between them if it would help her ensure the integrity he had promised. In fact, Maggie only wanted to convey to her that she acknowledged the effectiveness of her help when she mentioned to her one evening a small plan for the next day, a thought she had been privately nurturing—the irresistible idea of visiting Mr. Crichton at the Museum. Mr. Crichton, as Mrs. Assingham would easily recall, was the most skilled and accommodating of public officials, someone everyone knew and who knew everyone—who had, from the start, especially lent himself gladly, out of love for art and history, to become one of the steadier guides along Mr. Verver’s adventurous path. The custodian of one of the richest sections of the great national collection of precious items, he understood the sincere private collector and encouraged him even when forced to witness his capture of trophies that the country had sacrificed due to tight budgets. He extended his friendliness to the point of saying that, since London, under narrow-minded views, had to miss out on its rarest opportunities from time to time, he was almost consoled to see such lost causes eventually wander away, one by one, with the irritating tinkle of their silver bells, into the wonderful, already famous fold beyond the Mississippi. There was an irresistible charm in his "almosts," especially after Mr. Verver and Maggie had come to feel—almost, again—that they enjoyed a monopoly on them; and on this basis of envy turned into sympathy through their more familiar view of father and daughter, Mr. Crichton had learned at both homes, particularly in Eaton Square, to embody a responsive and suggestive character. It was at his invitation, as Fanny distinctly remembered, that Maggie, one day long ago, and under her direct attendance, had done the honor of visiting one of the larger shrines of the supreme exhibitory temple, an alcove filled with the gold-and-brown, gold-and-ivory of old Italian bindings, dedicated to the records of the Prince’s lineage. It had made a lasting impression; yet Maggie had sighed ever so charmingly at how superficial it had to be. She planned to go back someday, to dive deeper, to linger and savor; however, Mrs. Assingham couldn’t recall realizing that the visit had been repeated. This second visit had been overshadowed for a long time in her happy life by other events—all reflecting, to some extent, the quality of her husband’s lineage, its rich blend and its many notable references; after which, undoubtedly, the charming piety involved had grown, on even further grounds, confused and faint.
It now appeared, none the less, that some renewed conversation with Mr. Crichton had breathed on the faintness revivingly, and Maggie mentioned her purpose as a conception of her very own, to the success of which she designed to devote her morning. Visits of gracious ladies, under his protection, lighted up rosily, for this perhaps most flower-loving and honey-sipping member of the great Bloomsbury hive, its packed passages and cells; and though not sworn of the province toward which his friend had found herself, according to her appeal to him, yearning again, nothing was easier for him than to put her in relation with the presiding urbanities. So it had been settled, Maggie said to Mrs. Assingham, and she was to dispense with Amerigo’s company. Fanny was to remember later on that she had at first taken this last fact for one of the finer notes of her young woman’s detachment, imagined she must be going alone because of the shade of irony that, in these ambiguous days, her husband’s personal presence might be felt to confer, practically, on any tribute to his transmitted significance. Then as, the next moment, she felt it clear that so much plotted freedom was virtually a refinement of reflection, an impulse to commemorate afresh whatever might still survive of pride and hope, her sense of ambiguity happily fell and she congratulated her companion on having anything so exquisite to do and on being so exquisitely in the humour to do it. After the occasion had come and gone she was confirmed in her optimism; she made out, in the evening, that the hour spent among the projected lights, the annals and illustrations, the parchments and portraits, the emblazoned volumes and the murmured commentary, had been for the Princess enlarging and inspiring. Maggie had said to her some days before, very sweetly but very firmly, “Invite us to dine, please, for Friday, and have any one you like or you can—it doesn’t in the least matter whom;” and the pair in Cadogan Place had bent to this mandate with a docility not in the least ruffled by all that it took for granted.
It now seemed, nonetheless, that some renewed conversation with Mr. Crichton had energized Maggie, and she shared her plan as a personal idea that she intended to focus on that morning. Visits from gracious ladies, under his protection, brightened up what might be the most flower-loving and honey-sipping member of the bustling Bloomsbury community. Although he wasn’t directly involved in the area that his friend was longing to return to, it was easy for him to connect her with the local elegant circles. So, Maggie told Mrs. Assingham, it was decided that she would go without Amerigo. Fanny would later recall that she initially interpreted this decision as a sign of her young friend’s independence, thinking Maggie must want to go solo due to the irony that, in those uncertain times, having her husband present might overshadow any acknowledgment of his legacy. However, the next moment, it became clear to her that this planned freedom was actually a thoughtful gesture, an urge to honor whatever pride and hope still lingered. With this understanding, her doubts faded, and she congratulated her friend on having such a wonderful activity planned and for being in just the right mood to enjoy it. After the event passed, she felt reassured in her optimistic view; that evening, she realized that the time spent among the brilliant displays, the histories and illustrations, the documents and portraits, the decorated books and whispered discussions had been both enriching and inspiring for the Princess. A few days earlier, Maggie had sweetly but firmly said to her, “Please invite us for dinner on Friday and include anyone you like; it really doesn’t matter who.” The couple on Cadogan Place had accepted this request with a willingness that was completely unfazed by what it implied.
It provided for an evening—this had been Maggie’s view; and she lived up to her view, in her friend’s eyes, by treating the occasion, more or less explicitly, as new and strange. The good Assinghams had feasted in fact at the two other boards on a scale so disproportionate to the scant solicitations of their own that it was easy to make a joke of seeing how they fed at home, how they met, themselves, the question of giving to eat. Maggie dined with them, in short, and arrived at making her husband appear to dine, much in the manner of a pair of young sovereigns who have, in the frolic humour of the golden years of reigns, proposed themselves to a pair of faithfully-serving subjects. She showed an interest in their arrangements, an inquiring tenderness almost for their economies; so that her hostess not unnaturally, as they might have said, put it all down—the tone and the freedom of which she set the example—to the effect wrought in her afresh by one of the lessons learned, in the morning, at the altar of the past. Hadn’t she picked it up, from an anecdote or two offered again to her attention, that there were, for princesses of such a line, more ways than one of being a heroine? Maggie’s way to-night was to surprise them all, truly, by the extravagance of her affability. She was doubtless not positively boisterous; yet, though Mrs. Assingham, as a bland critic, had never doubted her being graceful, she had never seen her put so much of it into being what might have been called assertive. It was all a tune to which Fanny’s heart could privately palpitate: her guest was happy, happy as a consequence of something that had occurred, but she was making the Prince not lose a ripple of her laugh, though not perhaps always enabling him to find it absolutely not foolish. Foolish, in public, beyond a certain point, he was scarce the man to brook his wife’s being thought to be; so that there hovered before their friend the possibility of some subsequent scene between them, in the carriage or at home, of slightly sarcastic inquiry, of promptly invited explanation; a scene that, according as Maggie should play her part in it, might or might not precipitate developments. What made these appearances practically thrilling, meanwhile, was this mystery—a mystery, it was clear, to Amerigo himself—of the incident or the influence that had so peculiarly determined them.
It set up for an evening—this was Maggie’s perspective; and she lived up to that view in her friend's eyes by treating the occasion, more or less clearly, as something new and unusual. The good Assinghams had actually feasted at the two other tables in a way that was so out of proportion to the few requests they received from their own that it was easy to joke about how they dined at home, how they faced the issue of providing food. Maggie had dinner with them, essentially, and managed to make her husband seem to dine, much like a couple of young rulers who, in the playful spirit of their golden years of reign, presented themselves to a couple of loyal subjects. She showed interest in their plans, almost an affectionate curiosity about their frugality; her hostess, not surprisingly, attributed it all—the tone and the freedom she set the example for—to the effect of a lesson learned earlier that day at the altar of the past. Hadn’t she picked it up from a couple of anecdotes someone had brought back to her attention, that for princesses of such a lineage, there were more ways than one to be a heroine? Maggie’s way tonight was to genuinely surprise everyone with the extravagance of her friendliness. She wasn’t overly boisterous; yet, although Mrs. Assingham, as a calm critic, never doubted Maggie’s grace, she had never seen her put so much of it into being what could be considered assertive. It was all a rhythm to which Fanny’s heart could privately flutter: her guest was happy, undoubtedly happy as a result of something that had happened, but she was making the Prince not miss a beat of her laughter, though perhaps not always making it easy for him to see it as completely sensible. In public, beyond a certain extent, he was hardly the kind of man to tolerate his wife being seen as foolish; so there loomed before their friend the chance of some later scene between them, in the carriage or at home, of slightly sarcastic questioning and quickly invited explanations; a scene that, depending on how Maggie handled it, might or might not lead to further developments. What made these interactions practically thrilling, meanwhile, was this mystery—a mystery, it was obvious, to Amerigo himself—of the incident or influence that had so distinctly shaped them.
The lady of Cadogan Place was to read deeper, however, within three days, and the page was turned for her on the eve of her young confidant’s leaving London. The awaited migration to Fawns was to take place on the morrow, and it was known meanwhile to Mrs. Assingham that their party of four were to dine that night, at the American Embassy, with another and a larger party; so that the elder woman had a sense of surprise on receiving from the younger, under date of six o’clock, a telegram requesting her immediate attendance. “Please come to me at once; dress early, if necessary, so that we shall have time: the carriage, ordered for us, will take you back first.” Mrs. Assingham, on quick deliberation, dressed, though not perhaps with full lucidity, and by seven o’clock was in Portland Place, where her friend, “upstairs” and described to her on her arrival as herself engaged in dressing, instantly received her. She knew on the spot, poor Fanny, as she was afterwards to declare to the Colonel, that her feared crisis had popped up as at the touch of a spring, that her impossible hour was before her. Her impossible hour was the hour of its coming out that she had known of old so much more than she had ever said; and she had often put it to herself, in apprehension, she tried to think even in preparation, that she should recognise the approach of her doom by a consciousness akin to that of the blowing open of a window on some night of the highest wind and the lowest thermometer. It would be all in vain to have crouched so long by the fire; the glass would have been smashed, the icy air would fill the place. If the air in Maggie’s room then, on her going up, was not, as yet, quite the polar blast she had expected, it was distinctly, none the less, such an atmosphere as they had not hitherto breathed together. The Princess, she perceived, was completely dressed—that business was over; it added indeed to the effect of her importantly awaiting the assistance she had summoned, of her showing a deck cleared, so to speak, for action. Her maid had already left her, and she presented herself, in the large, clear room, where everything was admirable, but where nothing was out of place, as, for the first time in her life rather “bedizened.” Was it that she had put on too many things, overcharged herself with jewels, wore in particular more of them than usual, and bigger ones, in her hair?—a question her visitor presently answered by attributing this appearance largely to the bright red spot, red as some monstrous ruby, that burned in either of her cheeks. These two items of her aspect had, promptly enough, their own light for Mrs. Assingham, who made out by it that nothing more pathetic could be imagined than the refuge and disguise her agitation had instinctively asked of the arts of dress, multiplied to extravagance, almost to incoherence. She had had, visibly, her idea—that of not betraying herself by inattentions into which she had never yet fallen, and she stood there circled about and furnished forth, as always, in a manner that testified to her perfect little personal processes. It had ever been her sign that she was, for all occasions, FOUND ready, without loose ends or exposed accessories or unremoved superfluities; a suggestion of the swept and garnished, in her whole splendid, yet thereby more or less encumbered and embroidered setting, that reflected her small still passion for order and symmetry, for objects with their backs to the walls, and spoke even of some probable reference, in her American blood, to dusting and polishing New England grandmothers. If her apartment was “princely,” in the clearness of the lingering day, she looked as if she had been carried there prepared, all attired and decorated, like some holy image in a procession, and left, precisely, to show what wonder she could work under pressure. Her friend felt—how could she not?—as the truly pious priest might feel when confronted, behind the altar, before the festa, with his miraculous Madonna. Such an occasion would be grave, in general, with all the gravity of what he might look for. But the gravity to-night would be of the rarest; what he might look for would depend so on what he could give.
The woman from Cadogan Place was about to delve deeper, however, within three days, and the page was turned for her on the night before her young friend was set to leave London. The anticipated move to Fawns was scheduled for the next day, and Mrs. Assingham had learned in the meantime that their party of four would be dining that night at the American Embassy with a larger group; so, it was somewhat surprising for her to receive a telegram from the younger woman, dated six o’clock, asking for her immediate presence. “Please come to me right away; dress quickly, if you have to, so we’ll have time: the carriage we ordered will take you back first.” After a quick decision, Mrs. Assingham got dressed, though not perhaps with complete clarity, and by seven o’clock was at Portland Place, where her friend, “upstairs” and described to her as currently getting ready, immediately welcomed her. She recognized instantly, poor Fanny, as she would later tell the Colonel, that her dreaded moment had sprung up as if activated by a switch, that her unbearable hour was upon her. Her unbearable hour was the moment everything she had known for so long but never mentioned was about to come to light; and she had often reminded herself, in dread, and tried to prepare, that she would sense the approach of her fate like feeling a window swing open on a night of the fiercest wind and the coldest temperature. It would all be pointless to have huddled by the fire for so long; the glass would have shattered, and icy air would invade the room. If the atmosphere in Maggie’s room when she arrived wasn’t quite the freezing chill she had anticipated, it was nevertheless distinctly an environment they hadn’t experienced together before. The Princess was fully dressed—this task was done; it indeed heightened the impression of her eagerly waiting for the help she had called for, presenting a scene, so to speak, cleared for action. Her maid had already left her, and she appeared in the large, bright room, where everything looked perfect, but nothing seemed out of place, somewhat “bedizened” for the first time in her life. Had she perhaps adorned herself with too many things, overloaded with jewels, especially sporting more than usual and larger stones in her hair?—a question her visitor quickly resolved by noticing the bright red spots, as vivid as two huge rubies, glowing on her cheeks. These two aspects of her appearance shed light for Mrs. Assingham, who grasped that nothing could be more heartbreaking than the refuge and cover her distress had instinctively sought through the art of dressing, amplified to excess, almost to chaos. She had clearly intended not to reveal her turmoil through any lapses she had never experienced before, and she stood there completely adorned and prepared, as always, in a way that showcased her meticulous little habits. It had always been her trademark to be READY for any occasion, without loose ends or exposed accessories or unnecessary add-ons; a suggestion of tidiness in her whole dazzling yet somewhat burdened and elaborate setting reflected her slight yet persistent passion for order and symmetry, for items pushed against the walls, and hinted at some likely connection, in her American heritage, to the meticulous cleaning habits of New England grandmothers. If her room looked “royal” in the clarity of the fading day, she appeared as if she had been brought there ready, fully dressed and decorated, like some revered figure in a procession, left precisely to demonstrate what astonishing impact she could create under pressure. Her friend felt—how could she not?—much like a truly devoted priest would feel when faced, behind the altar, before the festa, with his miraculous Madonna. Such a moment would generally be serious, filled with the weight of what he might anticipate. But the seriousness tonight would be exceptional; what he might anticipate would depend so heavily on what he could offer.
XXXIII
XXXIII
“Something very strange has happened, and I think you ought to know it.”
“Something really odd has happened, and I think you should know about it.”
Maggie spoke this indeed without extravagance, yet with the effect of making her guest measure anew the force of her appeal. It was their definite understanding: whatever Fanny knew Fanny’s faith would provide for. And she knew, accordingly, at the end of five minutes, what the extraordinary, in the late occurrence, had consisted of, and how it had all come of Maggie’s achieved hour, under Mr. Crichton’s protection, at the Museum. He had desired, Mr. Crichton, with characteristic kindness, after the wonderful show, after offered luncheon at his incorporated lodge hard by, to see her safely home; especially on his noting, in attending her to the great steps, that she had dismissed her carriage; which she had done, really, just for the harmless amusement of taking her way alone. She had known she should find herself, as the consequence of such an hour, in a sort of exalted state, under the influence of which a walk through the London streets would be exactly what would suit her best; an independent ramble, impressed, excited, contented, with nothing to mind and nobody to talk to, and shop-windows in plenty to look at if she liked: a low taste, of the essence, it was to be supposed, of her nature, that she had of late, for so many reasons, been unable to gratify. She had taken her leave, with her thanks—she knew her way quite enough; it being also sufficiently the case that she had even a shy hope of not going too straight. To wander a little wild was what would truly amuse her; so that, keeping clear of Oxford Street and cultivating an impression as of parts she didn’t know, she had ended with what she had more or less had been fancying, an encounter with three or four shops—an old bookseller’s, an old printmonger’s, a couple of places with dim antiquities in the window—that were not as so many of the other shops, those in Sloane Street, say; a hollow parade which had long since ceased to beguile. There had remained with her moreover an allusion of Charlotte’s, of some months before—seed dropped into her imagination in the form of a casual speech about there being in Bloomsbury such “funny little fascinating” places and even sometimes such unexpected finds. There could perhaps have been no stronger mark than this sense of well-nigh romantic opportunity—no livelier sign of the impression made on her, and always so long retained, so watchfully nursed, by any observation of Charlotte’s, however lightly thrown off. And then she had felt, somehow, more at her ease than for months and months before; she didn’t know why, but her time at the Museum, oddly, had done it; it was as if she hadn’t come into so many noble and beautiful associations, nor secured them also for her boy, secured them even for her father, only to see them turn to vanity and doubt, turn possibly to something still worse. “I believed in him again as much as ever, and I felt how I believed in him,” she said with bright, fixed eyes; “I felt it in the streets as I walked along, and it was as if that helped me and lifted me up, my being off by myself there, not having, for the moment, to wonder and watch; having, on the contrary, almost nothing on my mind.”
Maggie spoke without exaggeration, but it made her guest reconsider the strength of her appeal. They both understood: whatever Fanny knew, Fanny's faith would provide for. And in just five minutes, she knew exactly what the extraordinary event was, and how it all stemmed from Maggie's amazing time, under Mr. Crichton's guidance, at the Museum. Mr. Crichton, showing his usual kindness, wanted to make sure she got home safely after the incredible show and his offer of lunch at his nearby club, especially since he noticed she had sent away her carriage when he walked her to the steps. She had done this simply for the fun of spending some time on her own. She realized that such an experience would leave her in a sort of elevated mood, and that a stroll through the London streets would be just what she needed; an independent walk, inspired, excited, and content, with no cares and no one to talk to, plus plenty of shop windows to browse if she wanted. It was a low-key enjoyment, one she hadn’t been able to indulge in for various reasons lately. She had bid him farewell with her thanks—she knew the way well enough; besides, she had a shy hope of not going too directly home. Wandering a little aimlessly was what would truly entertain her; so, avoiding Oxford Street and seeking out places she didn’t recognize, she eventually came across a few shops she had imagined—an old bookstore, an antiquities shop, and a couple of places with dim curiosities in the window—that felt unlike so many other shops, like those on Sloane Street, which she found too flashy and no longer appealing. There was also a lingering memory from Charlotte from a few months earlier—a casual remark about some “funny little fascinating” places in Bloomsbury and unexpected treasures. This sense of near-romantic opportunity was perhaps the strongest sign of how deeply Charlotte’s observations had impacted her, always remembered and cherished. Somehow, she felt more relaxed than she had in a long time; she didn’t quite know why, but her time at the Museum had changed that; it felt as if she hadn’t just engaged with noble and beautiful memories for herself and her son, and even for her father, only to see them turn into doubts or something worse. “I believed in him as much as ever, and I felt that belief,” she said, her eyes bright and focused; “I felt it in the streets as I walked, and it was as if that made me feel better and lifted me up, being alone there, not having to worry or watch; instead, I had almost nothing on my mind.”
It was so much as if everything would come out right that she had fallen to thinking of her father’s birthday, had given herself this as a reason for trying what she could pick up for it. They would keep it at Fawns, where they had kept it before—since it would be the twenty-first of the month; and she mightn’t have another chance of making sure of something to offer him. There was always the impossibility, of course, of finding him anything, the least bit “good,” that he wouldn’t already, long ago, in his rummagings, have seen himself—and only not to think a quarter good enough; this, however, was an old story, and one could not have had any fun with him but for his sweet theory that the individual gift, the friendship’s offering, was, by a rigorous law of nature, a foredoomed aberration, and that the more it was so the more it showed, and the more one cherished it for showing, how friendly it had been. The infirmity of art was the candour of affection, the grossness of pedigree the refinement of sympathy; the ugliest objects, in fact, as a general thing, were the bravest, the tenderest mementos, and, as such, figured in glass cases apart, worthy doubtless of the home, but not worthy of the temple—dedicated to the grimacing, not to the clear-faced, gods. She herself, naturally, through the past years, had come to be much represented in those receptacles; against the thick, locked panes of which she still liked to flatten her nose, finding in its place, each time, everything she had on successive anniversaries tried to believe he might pretend, at her suggestion, to be put off with, or at least think curious. She was now ready to try it again: they had always, with his pleasure in her pretence and her pleasure in his, with the funny betrayal of the sacrifice to domestic manners on either side, played the game so happily. To this end, on her way home, she had loitered everywhere; quite too deludedly among the old books and the old prints, which had yielded nothing to her purpose, but with a strange inconsequence in one of the other shops, that of a small antiquarian, a queer little foreign man, who had shown her a number of things, shown her finally something that, struck with it as rather a rarity and thinking it would, compared to some of her ventures, quite superlatively do, she had bought—bought really, when it came to that, for a price. “It appears now it won’t do at all,” said Maggie, “something has happened since that puts it quite out of the question. I had only my day of satisfaction in it, but I feel, at the same time, as I keep it here before me, that I wouldn’t have missed it for the world.”
It was almost as if everything would turn out fine, so she started thinking about her father's birthday and decided to look for something to give him. They would celebrate it at Fawns, as they had done before—since it would be the twenty-first of the month; and she might not get another chance to make sure she had something to offer him. Of course, there was always the challenge of finding anything that would be remotely "good" that he hadn't already seen himself in his past searches—and he wouldn't settle for anything less than perfect. However, this was an old story, and she couldn’t have had any fun with him except for his sweet belief that the individual gift, the offering of friendship, was destined to be flawed, and the more it was so, the more it reflected how friendly it had been. The weakness of art was the honesty of affection, the bluntness of pedigree the refinement of sympathy; typically, the ugliest items were the most heartfelt, and they were proudly displayed in glass cases, certainly deserving of a home but not of a temple—meant for the grinning, not the clear-faced, gods. Over the years, she had become quite represented in those displays; she still liked to press her nose against the thick, locked glass, finding each time everything she had tried to convince him, on successive anniversaries, he might pretend to accept or at least find interesting. She was ready to try again: they always played this game so happily, enjoying his pleasure in her pretence and her pleasure in his, along with the funny acknowledgment of the domestic sacrifices made on both sides. To this end, on her way home, she had lingered everywhere; too deludedly among the old books and prints, which had yielded nothing for her purpose, but with a strange randomness at one of the other shops, a small antiquarian, a quirky little foreign man, who had shown her various items, ultimately showing her something that, struck by its rarity, she thought would be quite extraordinary compared to some of her other attempts, so she bought it—really bought it, when it came down to it, for a price. “It seems now it won't work at all,” said Maggie, “something has happened since that makes it completely out of the question. I only had my moment of satisfaction with it, but at the same time, as I keep it here in front of me, I feel that I wouldn’t have missed it for the world.”
She had talked, from the first of her friend’s entrances coherently enough, even with a small quaver that overstated her calm; but she held her breath every few seconds, as if for deliberation and to prove she didn’t pant—all of which marked for Fanny the depth of her commotion: her reference to her thought about her father, about her chance to pick up something that might divert him, her mention, in fine, of his fortitude under presents, having meanwhile, naturally, it should be said, much less an amplitude of insistence on the speaker’s lips than a power to produce on the part of the listener herself the prompt response and full comprehension of memory and sympathy, of old amused observation. The picture was filled out by the latter’s fond fancy. But Maggie was at any rate under arms; she knew what she was doing and had already her plan—a plan for making, for allowing, as yet, “no difference”; in accordance with which she would still dine out, and not with red eyes, nor convulsed features, nor neglected items of appearance, nor anything that would raise a question. Yet there was some knowledge that, exactly to this support of her not breaking down, she desired, she required, possession of; and, with the sinister rise and fall of lightning unaccompanied by thunder, it played before Mrs. Assingham’s eyes that she herself should have, at whatever risk or whatever cost, to supply her with the stuff of her need. All our friend’s instinct was to hold off from this till she should see what the ground would bear; she would take no step nearer unless INTELLIGIBLY to meet her, and, awkward though it might be to hover there only pale and distorted, with mere imbecilities of vagueness, there was a quality of bald help in the fact of not as yet guessing what such an ominous start could lead to. She caught, however, after a second’s thought, at the Princess’s allusion to her lost reassurance.
She had talked, right from the moment her friend came in, clearly enough, even with a slight tremor that emphasized her calm; but she seemed to hold her breath every few seconds, as if contemplating and trying to show she wasn't out of breath—all of which highlighted to Fanny the intensity of her distress: her mention of thoughts about her father, her chance to find something that might distract him, and her note of his strength when receiving gifts, having, of course, much less insistence on the speaker’s part than a need to evoke from the listener the immediate response and full understanding of shared memories and sympathetic amusement. The image was fleshed out by the latter’s affectionate imagination. But Maggie was definitely prepared; she knew what she was doing and had a plan—a plan to ensure that there would be “no difference”; according to which she would still go out for dinner, without red eyes, contorted features, neglected appearance, or anything that might raise questions. Still, there was a knowledge that, to maintain her composure, she wished for, and needed, to possess; and, like silent lightning without thunder, it flashed before Mrs. Assingham’s eyes that she herself would have, no matter the risk or cost, to provide her with what she needed. All our friend’s instinct was to hold off until she could see what the situation would allow; she wouldn’t take any step closer unless she could meet her clearly, and, awkward as it might be to linger there only pale and distorted, with mere expressions of confusion, there was a blunt form of help in the fact that she hadn’t yet guessed what such a foreboding beginning could lead to. However, she quickly focused on the Princess’s reference to her lost confidence.
“You mean you were so at your ease on Monday—the night you dined with us?”
"You mean you were so comfortable on Monday—the night you had dinner with us?"
“I was very happy then,” said Maggie.
“I was really happy then,” said Maggie.
“Yes—we thought you so gay and so brilliant.” Fanny felt it feeble, but she went on. “We were so glad you were happy.”
“Yes—we thought you were so cheerful and so smart.” Fanny felt it weak, but she continued. “We were really glad you were happy.”
Maggie stood a moment, at first only looking at her. “You thought me all right, eh?”
Maggie paused for a moment, initially just gazing at her. “You thought I was fine, huh?”
“Surely, dearest; we thought you all right.”
“Of course, dear; we thought you were okay.”
“Well, I daresay it was natural; but in point of fact I never was more wrong in my life. For, all the while, if you please, this was brewing.”
“Well, I must say it felt natural; but in reality, I couldn’t have been more wrong in my life. Because, all along, if you don't mind me saying, this was brewing.”
Mrs. Assingham indulged, as nearly as possible to luxury, her vagueness. “‘This’—?”
Mrs. Assingham embraced, as close to luxury as possible, her uncertainty. “‘This’—?”
“THAT!” replied the Princess, whose eyes, her companion now saw, had turned to an object on the chimney-piece of the room, of which, among so many precious objects—the Ververs, wherever they might be, always revelled peculiarly in matchless old mantel ornaments—her visitor had not taken heed.
“THAT!” replied the Princess, whose eyes, her companion now saw, had turned to an object on the mantelpiece of the room, of which, among so many precious items—the Ververs, wherever they might be, always took particular delight in unique old mantel ornaments—her visitor had not noticed.
“Do you mean the gilt cup?”
“Are you talking about the gold-plated cup?”
“I mean the gilt cup.”
“I mean the gold cup.”
The piece now recognised by Fanny as new to her own vision was a capacious bowl, of old-looking, rather strikingly yellow gold, mounted, by a short stem, on an ample foot, which held a central position above the fire-place, where, to allow it the better to show, a clearance had been made of other objects, notably of the Louis-Seize clock that accompanied the candelabra. This latter trophy ticked at present on the marble slab of a commode that exactly matched it in splendour and style. Mrs. Assingham took it, the bowl, as a fine thing; but the question was obviously not of its intrinsic value, and she kept off from it, admiring it at a distance. “But what has that to do—?”
The piece that Fanny now recognized as new to her was a large bowl made of old-looking, strikingly yellow gold, resting on a short stem atop a wide foot. It was prominently positioned above the fireplace, where a space had been cleared of other items, especially the Louis-Seize clock that usually accompanied the candelabra. This clock now ticked away on the marble top of a matching commode that was equally impressive in beauty and style. Mrs. Assingham considered the bowl to be beautiful, but the question wasn’t really about its value, so she admired it from a distance. “But what does that have to do—?”
“It has everything. You’ll see.” With which again, however, for the moment, Maggie attached to her strange wide eyes. “He knew her before—before I had ever seen him.”
“It has everything. You’ll see.” With that, Maggie again fixed her strange wide eyes on him. “He knew her before—before I had ever met him.”
“‘He’ knew—?” But Fanny, while she cast about her for the links she missed, could only echo it.
“‘He’ knew—?” But Fanny, as she searched for the connections she was missing, could only repeat it.
“Amerigo knew Charlotte—more than I ever dreamed.”
“Amerigo knew Charlotte—more than I ever imagined.”
Fanny felt then it was stare for stare. “But surely you always knew they had met.”
Fanny felt it was a stare-off. “But you must have known they met.”
“I didn’t understand. I knew too little. Don’t you see what I mean?” the Princess asked.
“I didn’t get it. I didn’t know enough. Don’t you see what I’m saying?” the Princess asked.
Mrs. Assingham wondered, during these instants, how much she even now knew; it had taken a minute to perceive how gently she was speaking. With that perception of its being no challenge of wrath, no heat of the deceived soul, but only a free exposure of the completeness of past ignorance, inviting derision even if it must, the elder woman felt, first, a strange, barely credible relief: she drew in, as if it had been the warm summer scent of a flower, the sweet certainty of not meeting, any way she should turn, any consequence of judgment. She shouldn’t be judged—save by herself; which was her own wretched business. The next moment, however, at all events, she blushed, within, for her immediate cowardice: she had thought of herself, thought of “getting off,” before so much as thinking—that is of pitifully seeing—that she was in presence of an appeal that was ALL an appeal, that utterly accepted its necessity. “In a general way, dear child, yes. But not—a—in connexion with what you’ve been telling me.”
Mrs. Assingham wondered, in those moments, how much she really knew; it took her a minute to realize how gently she was speaking. With that realization that there was no challenge of anger, no heated reaction from a hurt soul, but just an open acknowledgment of her complete past ignorance, inviting mockery even if it had to, the older woman felt, first, a strange, almost unbelievable relief: she absorbed, as if it were the warm summer scent of a flower, the sweet certainty of not facing, no matter which way she turned, any judgment. She shouldn’t be judged—except by herself; which was her own miserable problem. The next moment, however, she felt a flush of shame for her immediate cowardice: she had thought of herself, thought of "getting off the hook," before even considering—that is, pathetically realizing—that she was responding to an appeal that was entirely an appeal, that fully accepted its necessity. “In general, yes, dear child. But not—in connection with what you’ve been telling me.”
“They were intimate, you see. Intimate,” said the Princess.
“They were close, you see. Close,” said the Princess.
Fanny continued to face her, taking from her excited eyes this history, so dim and faint for all her anxious emphasis, of the far-away other time. “There’s always the question of what one considers—!”
Fanny kept looking at her, trying to understand from her excited eyes this story, which felt so vague and distant despite all her anxious emphasis, about a long-ago time. “There’s always the question of what one considers—!”
“What one considers intimate? Well, I know what I consider intimate now. Too intimate,” said Maggie, “to let me know anything about it.”
“What does one consider intimate? Well, I know what I think is intimate now. Too intimate,” said Maggie, “for me to know anything about it.”
It was quiet—yes; but not too quiet for Fanny Assingham’s capacity to wince. “Only compatible with letting ME, you mean?” She had asked it after a pause, but turning again to the new ornament of the chimney and wondering, even while she took relief from it, at this gap in her experience. “But here are things, my dear, of which my ignorance is perfect.”
It was quiet—yes; but not so quiet that Fanny Assingham didn’t wince. “You mean only compatible with letting ME?” she had asked after a pause, turning back to the new decoration on the chimney and, even as she found it comforting, questioning this gap in her experience. “But there are things here, my dear, that I’m completely clueless about.”
“They went about together—they’re known to have done it. And I don’t mean only before—I mean after.”
“They hung out together—they’ve been known to do that. And I’m not just talking about before—I mean after.”
“After?” said Fanny Assingham.
“After?” asked Fanny Assingham.
“Before we were married—yes; but after we were engaged.”
“Before we were married—yes; but after we got engaged.”
“Ah, I’ve known nothing about that!” And she said it with a braver assurance—clutching, with comfort, at something that was apparently new to her.
“Wow, I had no idea about that!” And she said it with a more confident tone—gripping, with relief, something that seemed completely new to her.
“That bowl,” Maggie went on, “is, so strangely—too strangely, almost, to believe at this time of day—the proof. They were together all the while—up to the very eve of our marriage. Don’t you remember how just before that she came back, so unexpectedly, from America?”
“Dis bowl,” Maggie continued, “is, like, so oddly—too oddly, honestly, to believe at this time of day—the proof. They were together the whole time—right up to the very day before our wedding. Don’t you remember how, right before that, she unexpectedly came back from America?”
The question had for Mrs. Assingham—and whether all consciously or not—the oddest pathos of simplicity. “Oh yes, dear, of course I remember how she came back from America—and how she stayed with US, and what view one had of it.”
The question had for Mrs. Assingham—and whether she was aware of it or not—the strangest sense of simplicity. “Oh yes, dear, of course I remember when she returned from America—and how she stayed with us, and what our perspective was on it.”
Maggie’s eyes still, all the time, pressed and penetrated; so that, during a moment, just here, she might have given the little flare, have made the little pounce, of asking what then “one’s” view had been. To the small flash of this eruption Fanny stood, for her minute, wittingly exposed; but she saw it as quickly cease to threaten—quite saw the Princess, even though in all her pain, refuse, in the interest of their strange and exalted bargain, to take advantage of the opportunity for planting the stab of reproach, the opportunity thus coming all of itself. She saw her—or she believed she saw her—look at her chance for straight denunciation, look at it and then pass it by; and she felt herself, with this fact, hushed well-nigh to awe at the lucid higher intention that no distress could confound and that no discovery—since it was, however obscurely, a case of “discovery”—could make less needful. These seconds were brief—they rapidly passed; but they lasted long enough to renew our friend’s sense of her own extraordinary undertaking, the function again imposed on her, the answerability again drilled into her, by this intensity of intimation. She was reminded of the terms on which she was let off—her quantity of release having made its sufficient show in that recall of her relation to Charlotte’s old reappearance; and deep within the whole impression glowed—ah, so inspiringly when it came to that! her steady view, clear from the first, of the beauty of her companion’s motive. It was like a fresh sacrifice for a larger conquest “Only see me through now, do it in the face of this and in spite of it, and I leave you a hand of which the freedom isn’t to be said!” The aggravation of fear—or call it, apparently, of knowledge—had jumped straight into its place as an aggravation above all for her father; the effect of this being but to quicken to passion her reasons for making his protectedness, or in other words the forms of his ignorance, still the law of her attitude and the key to her solution. She kept as tight hold of these reasons and these forms, in her confirmed horror, as the rider of a plunging horse grasps his seat with his knees; and she might absolutely have been putting it to her guest that she believed she could stay on if they should only “meet” nothing more. Though ignorant still of what she had definitely met Fanny yearned, within, over her spirit; and so, no word about it said, passed, through mere pitying eyes, a vow to walk ahead and, at crossroads, with a lantern for the darkness and wavings away for unadvised traffic, look out for alarms. There was accordingly no wait in Maggie’s reply. “They spent together hours—spent at least a morning—the certainty of which has come back to me now, but that I didn’t dream of it at the time. That cup there has turned witness—by the most wonderful of chances. That’s why, since it has been here, I’ve stood it out for my husband to see; put it where it would meet him, almost immediately, if he should come into the room. I’ve wanted it to meet him,” she went on, “and I’ve wanted him to meet it, and to be myself present at the meeting. But that hasn’t taken place as yet; often as he has lately been in the way of coming to see me here—yes, in particular lately—he hasn’t showed to-day.” It was with her managed quietness, more and more, that she talked—an achieved coherence that helped her, evidently, to hear and to watch herself; there was support, and thereby an awful harmony, but which meant a further guidance, in the facts she could add together. “It’s quite as if he had an instinct—something that has warned him off or made him uneasy. He doesn’t quite know, naturally, what has happened, but guesses, with his beautiful cleverness, that something has, and isn’t in a hurry to be confronted with it. So, in his vague fear, he keeps off.”
Maggie’s eyes were always fixed and probing; for a moment here, she could have sparked the urge to ask what “one’s” opinion was. For that brief flash, Fanny felt exposed, but she quickly saw it stop being a threat—she could see the Princess, despite her pain, choose not to take advantage of the chance to plant a hurtful remark, which had presented itself on its own. She thought she noticed her considering the opportunity for direct accusation, then deciding to let it go; and with this, she felt a near awe at the clear higher purpose that no distress could confuse and that no revelation—since it was, in a sense, a case of “revelation”—could render any less necessary. These moments were brief—they passed quickly; but they lasted long enough to rekindle our friend’s awareness of her extraordinary challenge, the duty once again placed upon her, and the responsibility that was driven into her through this intense indication. She was reminded of the terms under which she had been let off—her level of freedom having been sufficiently shown in the recalling of her connection to Charlotte’s sudden return; and deep within the whole impression glowed—ah, so inspiring when it came down to it!—her clear recognition from the start of the beauty of her companion’s intention. It felt like a renewed sacrifice for a larger victory: “Just see me through now, do it in the face of this and despite it, and I give you a freedom that can’t be defined!” The aggravation of fear—or it might seem, knowledge—had jumped directly into its place as an irritation above all for her father; this only heightened her passion to ensure his safety—or, in other words, the forms of his ignorance—continued to be the basis of her approach and the answer to her solution. She held on tightly to these reasons and these forms, in her confirmed dread, as a rider clings to their seat on a bucking horse; and she could have been expressing to her guest that she believed she could keep going if they just didn’t “cross” anything more. Though still unaware of what exactly she had faced, Fanny felt a deep yearning for her spirit; so, without saying a word about it, she passed through mere compassionate eyes a promise to move forward and, at any intersection, with a lantern for the dark and signals for unexpected traffic, look out for dangers. Thus, Maggie had no hesitation in her response. “They spent hours together—at least a morning—the certainty of which returned to me just now, though I didn’t think about it at the time. That cup there has become a witness—by the most incredible chance. That’s why I’ve kept it visible for my husband since it arrived; placed it where it would catch his eye, almost immediately, if he came into the room. I’ve wanted him to notice it,” she continued, “and I’ve wanted to be there when he does. But that hasn’t happened yet; often lately, he has come to see me here—especially recently—but he hasn’t shown up today.” She spoke with an increasing calmness, a steady coherence that clearly helped her listen to and observe herself; there was support, and thus an awful harmony, but which also meant further direction, in the details she could piece together. “It’s almost as if he instinctively senses something—that something has warned him away or made him uneasy. He doesn’t quite know what has happened, of course, but he suspects, with his charming intelligence, that something has, and he isn’t eager to confront it. So, out of his vague fear, he stays away.”
“But being meanwhile in the house—?”
“But being in the house at the same time—?”
“I’ve no idea—not having seen him to-day, by exception, since before luncheon. He spoke to me then,” the Princess freely explained, “of a ballot, of great importance, at a club—for somebody, some personal friend, I think, who’s coming up and is supposed to be in danger. To make an effort for him he thought he had better lunch there. You see the efforts he can make”—for which Maggie found a smile that went to her friend’s heart. “He’s in so many ways the kindest of men. But it was hours ago.”
“I have no idea—I haven't seen him today, unusually, since before lunch. He talked to me then,” the Princess explained openly, “about a really important vote at a club—for someone, a personal friend, I think, who's coming up and is supposed to be in trouble. He thought it would be better to have lunch there to put in a good word for him. You can see the lengths he goes to”—which made Maggie smile in a way that warmed her friend’s heart. “He’s, in many ways, the kindest of men. But that was hours ago.”
Mrs. Assingham thought. “The more danger then of his coming in and finding me here. I don’t know, you see, what you now consider that you’ve ascertained; nor anything of the connexion with it of that object that you declare so damning.” Her eyes rested on this odd acquisition and then quitted it, went back to it and again turned from it: it was inscrutable in its rather stupid elegance, and yet, from the moment one had thus appraised it, vivid and definite in its domination of the scene. Fanny could no more overlook it now than she could have overlooked a lighted Christmas-tree; but nervously and all in vain she dipped into her mind for some floating reminiscence of it. At the same time that this attempt left her blank she understood a good deal, she even not a little shared the Prince’s mystic apprehension. The golden bowl put on, under consideration, a sturdy, a conscious perversity; as a “document,” somehow, it was ugly, though it might have a decorative grace. “His finding me here in presence of it might be more flagrantly disagreeable—for all of us—than you intend or than would necessarily help us. And I must take time, truly, to understand what it means.”
Mrs. Assingham thought, “The more dangerous it is for him to come in and find me here. I don't know what you believe you've figured out, or how that object you say is so incriminating connects to it.” Her eyes moved to this strange item, then back away, then back again: it was puzzling in its somewhat dull elegance, yet once you had assessed it, it was vivid and dominating in the room. Fanny couldn’t ignore it now any more than she could ignore a lit Christmas tree; but nervously and in vain, she searched her mind for some fleeting memory of it. Although this effort left her feeling blank, she understood quite a lot, and she even somewhat shared the Prince's mysterious concern. The golden bowl presented, upon reflection, a solid, aware stubbornness; as a “document,” it was somehow ugly, even if it had a certain decorative charm. “Him finding me here with it might be even more openly uncomfortable—for all of us—than you realize or than would really help us. And I need time, truly, to figure out what it means.”
“You’re safe, as far as that goes,” Maggie returned; “you may take it from me that he won’t come in; and that I shall only find him below, waiting for me, when I go down to the carriage.”
“You're safe, as far as that goes,” Maggie replied; “you can trust me that he won't come in; and I'll only find him downstairs, waiting for me when I go to the carriage.”
Fanny Assingham took it from her, took it and more. “We’re to sit together at the Ambassador’s then—or at least you two are—with this new complication thrust up before you, all unexplained; and to look at each other with faces that pretend, for the ghastly hour, not to be seeing it?”
Fanny Assingham took it from her, took it and more. “So, we’re sitting together at the Ambassador’s then—or at least you two are—with this new situation thrown in your faces, all mysterious; and you’re just going to look at each other with expressions that pretend, for this awful hour, not to notice it?”
Maggie looked at HER with a face that might have been the one she was preparing. “‘Unexplained,’ my dear? Quite the contrary—explained: fully, intensely, admirably explained, with nothing really to add. My own love”—she kept it up—“I don’t want anything more. I’ve plenty to go upon and to do with, as it is.”
Maggie looked at her with a face that might have been the one she was preparing. “'Unexplained,' my dear? Not at all—it's explained: fully, intensely, and admirably explained, with nothing really to add. My own love”—she continued—“I don't want anything more. I have plenty to go on and do with, as it is.”
Fanny Assingham stood there in her comparative darkness, with her links, verily, still missing; but the most acceptable effect of this was, singularly, as yet, a cold fear of getting nearer the fact. “But when you come home—? I mean he’ll come up with you again. Won’t he see it then?”
Fanny Assingham stood there in her relative darkness, with her connections, indeed, still absent; but the most noticeable effect of this was, oddly enough, a cold fear of approaching the reality. “But when you get home—? I mean, he'll come back up with you. Won't he notice it then?”
On which Maggie gave her, after an instant’s visible thought, the strangest of slow headshakes. “I don’t know. Perhaps he’ll never see it—if it only stands there waiting for him. He may never again,” said the Princess, “come into this room.”
On which Maggie gave her a strange slow headshake after a brief moment of thought. “I don’t know. Maybe he’ll never notice it—if it just sits there waiting for him. He might never come back into this room again,” said the Princess.
Fanny more deeply wondered, “Never again? Oh—!”
Fanny pondered more intensely, “Never again? Oh—!”
“Yes, it may be. How do I know? With THIS!” she quietly went on. She had not looked again at the incriminating piece, but there was a marvel to her friend in the way the little word representing it seemed to express and include for her the whole of her situation. “Then you intend not to speak to him—?”
“Yes, it might be. How can I be sure? With THIS!” she continued quietly. She hadn’t glanced at the damning piece again, but there was a wonder for her friend in how the small word representing it seemed to encapsulate her entire situation. “So, you’re not planning to talk to him—?”
Maggie waited. “To ‘speak’—?”
Maggie waited. “To ‘talk’—?”
“Well, about your having it and about what you consider that it represents.”
“Well, regarding your possession of it and what you believe it stands for.”
“Oh, I don’t know that I shall speak—if he doesn’t. But his keeping away from me because of that—what will that be but to speak? He can’t say or do more. It won’t be for me to speak,” Maggie added in a different tone, one of the tones that had already so penetrated her guest. “It will be for me to listen.”
“Oh, I don’t know if I should say anything—if he doesn’t. But him staying away from me because of that—what else could that mean but to say something? He can’t say or do more. It won’t be up to me to talk,” Maggie added in a different tone, one that had already affected her guest. “It will be up to me to listen.”
Mrs. Assingham turned it over. “Then it all depends on that object that you regard, for your reasons, as evidence?”
Mrs. Assingham flipped it over. “So, it all depends on that thing you see as proof for your reasons?”
“I think I may say that I depend on it. I can’t,” said Maggie, “treat it as nothing now.”
“I think I can say that I rely on it. I can’t,” said Maggie, “look at it as if it’s nothing now.”
Mrs. Assingham, at this, went closer to the cup on the chimney—quite liking to feel that she did so, moreover, without going closer to her companion’s vision. She looked at the precious thing—if precious it was—found herself in fact eyeing it as if, by her dim solicitation, to draw its secret from it rather than suffer the imposition of Maggie’s knowledge. It was brave and rich and firm, with its bold deep hollow; and, without this queer torment about it, would, thanks to her love of plenty of yellow, figure to her as an enviable ornament, a possession really desirable. She didn’t touch it, but if after a minute she turned away from it the reason was, rather oddly and suddenly, in her fear of doing so. “Then it all depends on the bowl? I mean your future does? For that’s what it comes to, I judge.”
Mrs. Assingham moved closer to the cup on the mantel—enjoying the fact that she was doing so without getting any closer to her companion’s sight. She gazed at the valuable item—if it truly was valuable—finding herself inspecting it as if, through her subtle nudging, she could uncover its secret instead of facing the burden of Maggie’s knowledge. It was bold and vibrant and solid, with its deep, striking hollow; and without this strange torment surrounding it, it would, because of her fondness for all things yellow, seem to her like an enviable decoration, a genuinely desirable possession. She didn’t touch it, but if after a moment she turned away from it, the reason was, quite oddly and suddenly, her fear of doing so. “So it all rests on the bowl? I mean, your future does? Because that’s what it comes down to, I think.”
“What it comes to,” Maggie presently returned, “is what that thing has put me, so almost miraculously, in the way of learning: how far they had originally gone together. If there was so much between them before, there can’t—with all the other appearances—not be a great deal more now.” And she went on and on; she steadily made her points. “If such things were already then between them they make all the difference for possible doubt of what may have been between them since. If there had been nothing before there might be explanations. But it makes to-day too much to explain. I mean to explain away,” she said.
“What matters,” Maggie replied, “is what that thing has almost miraculously allowed me to learn: how far they had initially gone together. If there was so much between them back then, there can't—given all the other signs—be much more now.” And she continued to elaborate; she clearly made her points. “If there were already things between them then, they create a big difference when it comes to any doubts about what may have happened between them since. If there had been nothing before, there could be reasons for it. But it complicates today too much to explain. I mean to explain away,” she said.
Fanny Assingham was there to explain away—of this she was duly conscious; for that at least had been true up to now. In the light, however, of Maggie’s demonstration the quantity, even without her taking as yet a more exact measure, might well seem larger than ever. Besides which, with or without exactness, the effect of each successive minute in the place was to put her more in presence of what Maggie herself saw. Maggie herself saw the truth, and that was really, while they remained there together, enough for Mrs. Assingham’s relation to it. There was a force in the Princess’s mere manner about it that made the detail of what she knew a matter of minor importance. Fanny had in fact something like a momentary shame over her own need of asking for this detail. “I don’t pretend to repudiate,” she said after a little, “my own impressions of the different times I suppose you speak of; any more,” she added, “than I can forget what difficulties and, as it constantly seemed to me, what dangers, every course of action—whatever I should decide upon—made for me. I tried, I tried hard, to act for the best. And, you know,” she next pursued, while, at the sound of her own statement, a slow courage and even a faint warmth of conviction came back to her—“and, you know, I believe it’s what I shall turn out to have done.”
Fanny Assingham was there to explain things away—she was fully aware of that; it had at least been true up until now. However, given Maggie’s display, the scale of it, even without her getting a more precise sense, might very well seem greater than ever. Besides, whether or not she was precise, every passing minute in the room only made her more aware of what Maggie herself saw. Maggie saw the truth, and that was really enough for Mrs. Assingham's relationship with it while they remained there together. The Princess had such a strong way about her that the specifics of what Fanny knew felt less important. In fact, Fanny felt a momentary shame over her need to ask for these details. “I don’t pretend to reject,” she said after a moment, “my own impressions of the different times you're referring to; any more,” she added, “than I can forget the challenges and, as it always seemed to me, the dangers that every choice—whatever I decided— posed for me. I tried, I really tried, to do what was best. And, you know,” she continued, feeling a renewed courage and a hint of conviction from her own words—“and, you know, I believe that’s what I’ll end up having done.”
This produced a minute during which their interchange, though quickened and deepened, was that of silence only, and the long, charged look; all of which found virtual consecration when Maggie at last spoke. “I’m sure you tried to act for the best.”
This created a moment where their interaction, although more intense and meaningful, was marked by silence and a long, loaded gaze; all of which felt significant when Maggie finally spoke. “I’m sure you tried to do the right thing.”
It kept Fanny Assingham again a minute in silence. “I never thought, dearest, you weren’t an angel.”
It kept Fanny Assingham silent for another minute. “I never thought, my dear, that you weren’t an angel.”
Not, however, that this alone was much help! “It was up to the very eve, you see,” the Princess went on—“up to within two or three days of our marriage. That, THAT, you know—!” And she broke down for strangely smiling.
Not that this was really much help! “It was right up until the last minute, you see,” the Princess continued—“just two or three days before our wedding. That, THAT, you know—!” And she broke down, oddly smiling.
“Yes, as I say, it was while she was with me. But I didn’t know it. That is,” said Fanny Assingham, “I didn’t know of anything in particular.” It sounded weak—that she felt; but she had really her point to make. “What I mean is that I don’t know, for knowledge, now, anything I didn’t then. That’s how I am.” She still, however, floundered. “I mean it’s how I WAS.”
“Yes, like I said, it was when she was with me. But I didn’t realize it. That is,” Fanny Assingham said, “I didn’t know of anything specific.” It sounded weak—she felt that way; but she really had her point to make. “What I mean is that I don’t know anything now that I didn’t know then. That’s just how I am.” She still, however, struggled. “I mean it’s how I WAS.”
“But don’t they, how you were and how you are,” Maggie asked, “come practically to the same thing?” The elder woman’s words had struck her own ear as in the tone, now mistimed, of their recent, but all too factitious understanding, arrived at in hours when, as there was nothing susceptible of proof, there was nothing definitely to disprove. The situation had changed by—well, by whatever there was, by the outbreak of the definite; and this could keep Maggie at least firm. She was firm enough as she pursued. “It was ON the whole thing that Amerigo married me.” With which her eyes had their turn again at her damnatory piece. “And it was on that—it was on that!” But they came back to her visitor. “And it was on it all that father married HER.”
“But don’t they, how you were and how you are,” Maggie asked, “come pretty close to the same thing?” The older woman’s words struck Maggie’s ear as off, now out of sync with their recent, but ultimately superficial understanding, reached during times when, since there was nothing that could be proven, there was also nothing definitively to disprove. The situation had changed—well, by whatever caused it, by the emergence of the obvious; and this was enough to keep Maggie steady. She was steady enough as she continued. “It was about the whole thing that Amerigo married me.” With that, her eyes returned to her damning piece. “And it was about that—it was about that!” But then she focused back on her visitor. “And it was about it all that father married HER.”
Her visitor took it as might be. “They both married—ah, that you must believe!—with the highest intentions.”
Her visitor accepted it as it was. “They both got married—oh, you have to believe this!—with the best of intentions.”
“Father did certainly!” And then, at the renewal of this consciousness, it all rolled over her. “Ah, to thrust such things on us, to do them here between us and with us, day after day, and in return, in return—! To do it to HIM—to him, to him!”
“Dad really did!” And then, as she regained this awareness, it all flooded back to her. “Ah, to push such things on us, to do them right here among us, day after day, and in return, in return—! To do it to HIM—to him, to him!”
Fanny hesitated. “You mean it’s for him you most suffer?” And then as the Princess, after a look, but turned away, moving about the room—which made the question somehow seem a blunder—“I ask,” she continued, “because I think everything, everything we now speak of, may be for him, really may be MADE for him, quite as if it hadn’t been.”
Fanny hesitated. “So, you mean it’s him you suffer for the most?” Then, as the Princess glanced at her but turned away, moving around the room—which made Fanny’s question feel like a mistake—“I ask,” she continued, “because I believe that everything we’re talking about right now might actually be for him, could really be MADE for him, just as if it hadn’t been.”
But Maggie had, the next moment faced about as if without hearing her. “Father did it for ME—did it all and only for me.”
But Maggie turned around immediately as if she hadn't heard her. "Father did it for ME—did it all and only for me."
Mrs. Assingham, with a certain promptness, threw up her head; but she faltered again before she spoke. “Well—!”
Mrs. Assingham quickly lifted her head; however, she hesitated again before she spoke. “Well—!”
It was only an intended word, but Maggie showed after an instant that it had reached her. “Do you mean that that’s the reason, that that’s A reason—?”
It was just a word she meant to say, but Maggie immediately showed it had hit home. “Are you saying that’s the reason, that that’s A reason—?”
Fanny at first, however, feeling the response in this, didn’t say all she meant; she said for the moment something else instead. “He did it for you—largely at least for you. And it was for you that I did, in my smaller, interested way—well, what I could do. For I could do something,” she continued; “I thought I saw your interest as he himself saw it. And I thought I saw Charlotte’s. I believed in her.”
Fanny initially felt the reply in this, but didn’t express everything she meant; instead, she said something else for the time being. “He did it for you—mostly for you, at least. And it was for you that I did what I could, in my smaller, interested way. Because I could do something,” she continued; “I thought I saw your interest as he did. And I thought I saw Charlotte’s. I believed in her.”
“And I believed in her,” said Maggie.
“And I believed in her,” said Maggie.
Mrs. Assingham waited again; but she presently pushed on. “She believed then in herself.”
Mrs. Assingham paused again; but soon she continued. “She had faith in herself.”
“Ah?” Maggie murmured.
“Wait, what?” Maggie murmured.
Something exquisite, faintly eager, in the prompt simplicity of it, supported her friend further. “And the Prince believed. His belief was real. Just as he believed in himself.”
Something beautiful, slightly enthusiastic, in its straightforwardness, encouraged her friend even more. “And the Prince believed. His belief was genuine. Just like he believed in himself.”
Maggie spent a minute in taking it from her. “He believed in himself?”
Maggie took a minute to take it from her. “He believed in himself?”
“Just as I too believed in him. For I absolutely did, Maggie.” To which Fanny then added: “And I believe in him yet. I mean,” she subjoined—“well, I mean I DO.”
“Just like I believed in him too. Because I really did, Maggie.” To which Fanny added: “And I still believe in him. I mean,” she continued—“well, I mean I DO.”
Maggie again took it from her; after which she was again, restlessly, set afloat. Then when this had come to an end: “And do you believe in Charlotte yet?”
Maggie took it from her once more; after which she was once again, anxiously, set adrift. Then, when this came to an end: “So, do you believe in Charlotte yet?”
Mrs. Assingham had a demur that she felt she could now afford. “We’ll talk of Charlotte some other day. They both, at any rate, thought themselves safe at the time.”
Mrs. Assingham had a hesitation that she felt she could now express. “We’ll talk about Charlotte another time. They both, at least, believed they were safe back then.”
“Then why did they keep from me everything I might have known?”
“Then why did they hide everything from me that I could have known?”
Her friend bent upon her the mildest eyes. “Why did I myself keep it from you?”
Her friend looked at her with the gentlest eyes. “Why did I keep it from you?”
“Oh, you weren’t, for honour, obliged.”
“Oh, you weren’t obligated for honor.”
“Dearest Maggie,” the poor woman broke out on this, “you ARE divine!”
“Dear Maggie,” the poor woman exclaimed, “you are amazing!”
“They pretended to love me,” the Princess went on. “And they pretended to love HIM.”
“They acted like they loved me,” the Princess continued. “And they acted like they loved HIM.”
“And pray what was there that I didn’t pretend?”
“And tell me, what was it that I didn’t pretend?”
“Not, at any rate, to care for me as you cared for Amerigo and for Charlotte. They were much more interesting—it was perfectly natural. How couldn’t you like Amerigo?” Maggie continued.
“Not, at any rate, to care for me as you cared for Amerigo and for Charlotte. They were way more interesting—it was completely natural. How could you not like Amerigo?” Maggie continued.
Mrs. Assingham gave it up. “How couldn’t I, how couldn’t I?” Then, with a fine freedom, she went all her way. “How CAN’T I, how can’t I?”
Mrs. Assingham let it go. “How could I not, how could I not?” Then, with great confidence, she continued on her way. “How CAN'T I, how can't I?”
It fixed afresh Maggie’s wide eyes on her. “I see—I see. Well, it’s beautiful for you to be able to. And of course,” she added, “you wanted to help Charlotte.”
It caught Maggie’s attention again. “I see—I see. Well, it’s great that you can do that. And of course,” she added, “you wanted to help Charlotte.”
“Yes”—Fanny considered it—“I wanted to help Charlotte. But I wanted also, you see, to help you—by not digging up a past that I believed, with so much on top of it, solidly buried. I wanted, as I still want,” she richly declared, “to help every one.”
“Yeah”—Fanny thought about it—“I wanted to help Charlotte. But I also wanted, you know, to help you—by not bringing up a past that I thought, with so much piled on it, was solidly buried. I wanted, and still want,” she passionately declared, “to help everyone.”
It set Maggie once more in movement—movement which, however, spent itself again with a quick emphasis. “Then it’s a good deal my fault—if everything really began so well?”
It got Maggie moving again—movement that, however, quickly faded away with a strong emphasis. “So it’s mostly my fault—if everything actually started off so well?”
Fanny Assingham met it as she could. “You’ve been only too perfect. You’ve thought only too much.”
Fanny Assingham responded as best as she could. “You’ve been absolutely perfect. You’ve thought about it way too much.”
But the Princess had already caught at the words. “Yes—I’ve thought only too much!” Yet she appeared to continue, for the minute, full of that fault. She had it in fact, by this prompted thought, all before her. “Of him, dear man, of HIM—!”
But the Princess had already latched onto the words. “Yes—I’ve thought about it way too much!” Yet she seemed to carry on, at least for a moment, stuck in that flaw. She had it all in front of her thanks to this prompted thought. “Of him, sweet man, of HIM—!”
Her friend, able to take in thus directly her vision of her father, watched her with a new suspense. THAT way might safety lie—it was like a wider chink of light. “He believed—with a beauty!—in Charlotte.”
Her friend, able to directly understand her perspective on her father, watched her with new suspense. That might be the way to safety—it was like a bigger beam of light. “He believed—with such beauty!—in Charlotte.”
“Yes, and it was I who had made him believe. I didn’t mean to, at the time, so much; for I had no idea then of what was coming. But I did it, I did it!” the Princess declared.
“Yes, and it was me who made him believe. I didn’t really mean to, at the time; I had no idea what was coming. But I did it, I did it!” the Princess declared.
“With a beauty—ah, with a beauty, you too!” Mrs. Assingham insisted.
“With a beauty—oh, with a beauty, you too!” Mrs. Assingham insisted.
Maggie, however, was seeing for herself—it was another matter, “The thing was that he made her think it would be so possible.”
Maggie, on the other hand, was realizing for herself—it was a different story, “The thing was that he made her believe it would be so achievable.”
Fanny again hesitated. “The Prince made her think—?”
Fanny hesitated again. “The Prince made her think—?”
Maggie stared—she had meant her father. But her vision seemed to spread. “They both made her think. She wouldn’t have thought without them.”
Maggie stared—she was thinking about her father. But her perspective seemed to widen. “Both of them made her reflect. She wouldn't have thought without them.”
“Yet Amerigo’s good faith,” Mrs. Assingham insisted, “was perfect. And there was nothing, all the more,” she added, “against your father’s.”
“Yet Amerigo’s honesty,” Mrs. Assingham insisted, “was flawless. And there was nothing, furthermore,” she added, “against your father’s.”
The remark, however, kept Maggie for a moment still. “Nothing perhaps but his knowing that she knew.”
The comment, however, made Maggie pause for a moment. “Maybe it was just that he knew she was aware.”
“‘Knew’?”
"Knew?"
“That he was doing it, so much, for me. To what extent,” she suddenly asked of her friend, “do you think he was aware that she knew?”
"That he was doing it, so much, for me. To what extent," she suddenly asked her friend, "do you think he realized that she knew?"
“Ah, who can say what passes between people in such a relation? The only thing one can be sure of is that he was generous.” And Mrs. Assingham conclusively smiled. “He doubtless knew as much as was right for himself.”
“Ah, who can say what goes on between people in a relationship like that? The only thing you can be sure of is that he was generous.” And Mrs. Assingham smiled conclusively. “He probably knew just enough for himself.”
“As much, that is, as was right for her.”
“As much as was right for her.”
“Yes then—as was right for her. The point is,” Fanny declared, “that, whatever his knowledge, it made, all the way it went, for his good faith.”
“Yes then—as was right for her. The point is,” Fanny declared, “that, no matter what he knew, it ultimately served his good faith.”
Maggie continued to gaze, and her friend now fairly waited on her successive movements. “Isn’t the point, very considerably, that his good faith must have been his faith in her taking almost as much interest in me as he himself took?”
Maggie kept staring, and her friend patiently watched her every move. “Isn’t the main point that his trust in her probably depended on her caring about me almost as much as he did?”
Fanny Assingham thought. “He recognised, he adopted, your long friendship. But he founded on it no selfishness.”
Fanny Assingham thought, "He acknowledged and embraced your long friendship. But he didn't base it on any selfishness."
“No,” said Maggie with still deeper consideration: “he counted her selfishness out almost as he counted his own.”
“No,” Maggie replied, thinking even more deeply, “he identified her selfishness almost as clearly as he recognized his own.”
“So you may say.”
"That's one way to put it."
“Very well,” Maggie went on; “if he had none of his own, he invited her, may have expected her, on her side, to have as little. And she may only since have found that out.”
“Alright,” Maggie continued; “if he didn't have any of his own, he invited her, and he might have expected her to have just as little. And she might have only just figured that out.”
Mrs. Assingham looked blank. “Since—?”
Mrs. Assingham looked confused. “Since—?”
“And he may have become aware,” Maggie pursued, “that she has found it out. That she has taken the measure, since their marriage,” she explained, “of how much he had asked of her—more, say, than she had understood at the time. He may have made out at last how such a demand was, in the long run, to affect her.”
“And he might have realized,” Maggie continued, “that she has figured it out. That since their marriage, she has gauged how much he has asked of her—more, for instance, than she understood back then. He may have finally understood how such a demand would ultimately impact her.”
“He may have done many things,” Mrs. Assingham responded; “but there’s one thing he certainly won’t have done. He’ll never have shown that he expected of her a quarter as much as she must have understood he was to give.”
“He may have done a lot of things,” Mrs. Assingham replied; “but there’s one thing he definitely wouldn’t have done. He would never have shown that he expected her to give even a fraction of what she must have understood he was supposed to provide.”
“I’ve often wondered,” Maggie mused, “what Charlotte really understood. But it’s one of the things she has never told me.”
“I’ve often wondered,” Maggie thought out loud, “what Charlotte really understood. But it’s something she has never shared with me.”
“Then as it’s one of the things she has never told me either, we shall probably never know it; and we may regard it as none of our business. There are many things,” said Mrs. Assingham, “that we shall never know.”
“Then since it’s something she’s never shared with me either, we probably won’t ever find out; and we can assume it’s not our concern. There are many things,” said Mrs. Assingham, “that we will never know.”
Maggie took it in with a long reflection. “Never.”
Maggie thought about it for a while. “Never.”
“But there are others,” her friend went on, “that stare us in the face and that—under whatever difficulty you may feel you labour—may now be enough for us. Your father has been extraordinary.”
“But there are others,” her friend continued, “that are obvious and that—no matter what challenges you might think you're facing—might be enough for us right now. Your dad has been exceptional.”
It had been as if Maggie were feeling her way; but she rallied to this with a rush. “Extraordinary.”
It was like Maggie was trying to find her path; but she quickly bounced back from this. “Amazing.”
“Magnificent,” said Fanny Assingham.
“Awesome,” said Fanny Assingham.
Her companion held tight to it. “Magnificent.”
Her companion held onto it tightly. “Awesome.”
“Then he’ll do for himself whatever there may be to do. What he undertook for you he’ll do to the end. He didn’t undertake it to break down; in what—quiet, patient, exquisite as he is—did he ever break down? He had never in his life proposed to himself to have failed, and he won’t have done it on this occasion.”
“Then he’ll take care of whatever needs to be done. What he committed to for you, he’ll see through to the end. He didn’t agree to it to give up; in what way—calm, patient, and exceptional as he is—has he ever given up? He has never in his life thought of failing, and he won’t do it this time.”
“Ah, this occasion!”—and Maggie’s wail showed her, of a sudden, thrown back on it. “Am I in the least sure that, with everything, he even knows what it is? And yet am I in the least sure he doesn’t?”
“Ah, this moment!”—and Maggie’s cry made it clear that she was suddenly confronted with it. “Am I even a bit sure that, considering everything, he actually knows what it is? And yet am I even a bit sure he doesn’t?”
“If he doesn’t then, so much the better. Leave him alone.”
“If he doesn’t, then that’s even better. Just leave him be.”
“Do you mean give him up?”
“Are you saying to give him up?”
“Leave HER,” Fanny Assingham went on. “Leave her TO him.”
“Leave her,” Fanny Assingham continued. “Leave her to him.”
Maggie looked at her darkly. “Do you mean leave him to HER? After this?”
Maggie glared at her. “Are you saying we should leave him with HER? After everything?”
“After everything. Aren’t they, for that matter, intimately together now?”
“After everything. Aren’t they, in fact, really close now?”
“‘Intimately’—? How do I know?”
"‘Intimately’—? How can I tell?"
But Fanny kept it up. “Aren’t you and your husband—in spite of everything?”
But Fanny continued. “Aren’t you and your husband—despite everything?”
Maggie’s eyes still further, if possible, dilated. “It remains to be seen!”
Maggie’s eyes opened even wider, if that’s possible. “We’ll see!”
“If you’re not then, where’s your faith?”
“If you’re not, then where’s your faith?”
“In my husband—?”
“In my husband—?”
Mrs. Assingham but for an instant hesitated. “In your father. It all comes back to that. Rest on it.”
Mrs. Assingham hesitated for a moment. “It all comes back to your father. Just think about it.”
“On his ignorance?”
"About his ignorance?"
Fanny met it again. “On whatever he may offer you. TAKE that.”
Fanny encountered it again. “Whatever he offers you, TAKE that.”
“Take it—?” Maggie stared.
“Take it—?” Maggie blinked.
Mrs. Assingham held up her head. “And be grateful.” On which, for a minute, she let the Princess face her. “Do you see?”
Mrs. Assingham raised her head. “And be grateful.” With that, she allowed the Princess to face her for a moment. “Do you see?”
“I see,” said Maggie at last.
“I get it,” Maggie finally said.
“Then there you are.” But Maggie had turned away, moving to the window, as if still to keep something in her face from sight. She stood there with her eyes on the street while Mrs. Assingham’s reverted to that complicating object on the chimney as to which her condition, so oddly even to herself, was that both of recurrent wonder and recurrent protest. She went over it, looked at it afresh and yielded now to her impulse to feel it in her hands. She laid them on it, lifting it up, and was surprised, thus, with the weight of it—she had seldom handled so much massive gold. That effect itself somehow prompted her to further freedom and presently to saying: “I don’t believe in this, you know.”
“Then there you are.” But Maggie had turned away, moving to the window, as if to hide something on her face from view. She stood there with her eyes on the street while Mrs. Assingham's gaze returned to that complicated object on the chimney, which led her to a peculiar mix of curiosity and resistance. She examined it again, looked at it anew, and gave in to the urge to touch it. She placed her hands on it, lifting it up, and was surprised by its weight—she had rarely handled so much solid gold. That feeling encouraged her to speak more freely, and she finally said, “I don't believe in this, you know.”
It brought Maggie round to her. “Don’t believe in it? You will when I tell you.”
It brought Maggie over to her. “Don’t believe in it? You will once I tell you.”
“Ah, tell me nothing! I won’t have it,” said Mrs. Assingham. She kept the cup in her hand, held it there in a manner that gave Maggie’s attention to her, she saw the next moment, a quality of excited suspense. This suggested to her, oddly, that she had, with the liberty she was taking, an air of intention, and the impression betrayed by her companion’s eyes grew more distinct in a word of warning. “It’s of value, but its value’s impaired, I’ve learned, by a crack.”
“Ah, don’t say anything! I won’t allow it,” Mrs. Assingham said. She held the cup in her hand in a way that caught Maggie’s attention; she saw in that moment a sense of excited suspense. This oddly suggested to her that, with the risk she was taking, she had an air of purpose, and the warning conveyed by her companion’s eyes became clearer. “It’s valuable, but I’ve learned that its value is diminished because of a crack.”
“A crack?—in the gold—?”
"A crack?—in the gold—?"
“It isn’t gold.” With which, somewhat strangely, Maggie smiled.
“It’s not gold.” With that, Maggie smiled oddly.
“That’s the point.”
"That's the idea."
“What is it then?”
"What is it?"
“It’s glass—and cracked, under the gilt, as I say, at that.”
“It’s glass—and cracked, under the gold, just like I said.”
“Glass?—of this weight?”
"Glass?—of this weight?"
“Well,” said Maggie, “it’s crystal—and was once, I suppose, precious. But what,” she then asked, “do you mean to do with it?”
“Well,” said Maggie, “it’s clear—and I guess it used to be valuable. But what,” she then asked, “do you plan to do with it?”
She had come away from her window, one of the three by which the wide room, enjoying an advantageous “back,” commanded the western sky and caught a glimpse of the evening flush; while Mrs. Assingham, possessed of the bowl, and possessed too of this indication of a flaw, approached another for the benefit of the slowly-fading light. Here, thumbing the singular piece, weighing it, turning it over, and growing suddenly more conscious, above all, of an irresistible impulse, she presently spoke again. “A crack? Then your whole idea has a crack.”
She had stepped away from her window, one of the three that overlooked the wide room and had a great view of the western sky, catching a glimpse of the evening glow; while Mrs. Assingham, holding the bowl and also aware of a flaw, moved toward another window to take advantage of the dimming light. Here, fiddling with the unique piece, weighing it, turning it over, and suddenly feeling more aware, especially of an overwhelming urge, she spoke again. “A crack? Then your whole idea has a crack.”
Maggie, by this time at some distance from her, waited a moment. “If you mean by my idea the knowledge that has come to me THAT—”
Maggie, now some distance away from her, paused for a moment. “If you’re referring to my idea as the knowledge that has come to me THAT—”
But Fanny, with decision, had already taken her up. “There’s only one knowledge that concerns us—one fact with which we can have anything to do.”
But Fanny, with determination, had already picked her up. “There's only one piece of knowledge that matters to us—one fact that we can engage with at all.”
“Which one, then?”
“Which one?”
“The fact that your husband has never, never, never—!” But the very gravity of this statement, while she raised her eyes to her friend across the room, made her for an instant hang fire.
“The fact that your husband has never, never, never—!” But the seriousness of this statement, as she glanced at her friend across the room, made her pause for a moment.
“Well, never what?”
“Well, never what?”
“Never been half so interested in you as now. But don’t you, my dear, really feel it?”
“Never been as interested in you as I am right now. But don’t you, my dear, really feel it?”
Maggie considered. “Oh, I think what I’ve told you helps me to feel it. His having to-day given up even his forms; his keeping away from me; his not having come.” And she shook her head as against all easy glosses. “It is because of that, you know.”
Maggie thought for a moment. “Oh, I think what I’ve shared helps me to feel it. Him giving up even his routines today; him staying away from me; him not showing up.” And she shook her head, rejecting any surface-level explanations. “It is because of that, you know.”
“Well then, if it’s because of this—!” And Fanny Assingham, who had been casting about her and whose inspiration decidedly had come, raised the cup in her two hands, raised it positively above her head, and from under it, solemnly, smiled at the Princess as a signal of intention. So for an instant, full of her thought and of her act, she held the precious vessel, and then, with due note taken of the margin of the polished floor, bare, fine and hard in the embrasure of her window, she dashed it boldly to the ground, where she had the thrill of seeing it, with the violence of the crash, lie shattered. She had flushed with the force of her effort, as Maggie had flushed with wonder at the sight, and this high reflection in their faces was all that passed between them for a minute more. After which, “Whatever you meant by it—and I don’t want to know NOW—has ceased to exist,” Mrs. Assingham said.
“Well then, if it’s because of this—!” Fanny Assingham, who had been searching for inspiration and finally found it, lifted the cup with both hands, holding it high above her head, and beneath it, she smiled at the Princess as a signal. For a moment, completely absorbed in her thoughts and actions, she held the precious vessel, and then, aware of the polished floor’s edge, bare and hard in the window nook, she boldly threw it to the ground, feeling the thrill of seeing it shatter with a loud crash. She blushed from the intensity of her action, just as Maggie blushed in wonder at the sight, and this shared expression between them lasted for a brief minute. After that, Mrs. Assingham said, “Whatever you meant by it—and I don’t want to know NOW—has ceased to exist.”
“And what in the world, my dear, did you mean by it?”—that sound, as at the touch of a spring, rang out as the first effect of Fanny’s speech. It broke upon the two women’s absorption with a sharpness almost equal to the smash of the crystal, for the door of the room had been opened by the Prince without their taking heed. He had apparently had time, moreover, to catch the conclusion of Fanny’s act; his eyes attached themselves, through the large space allowing just there, as happened, a free view, to the shining fragments at this lady’s feet. His question had been addressed to his wife, but he moved his eyes immediately afterwards to those of her visitor, whose own then held them in a manner of which neither party had been capable, doubtless, for mute penetration, since the hour spent by him in Cadogan Place on the eve of his marriage and the afternoon of Charlotte’s reappearance. Something now again became possible for these communicants, under the intensity of their pressure, something that took up that tale and that might have been a redemption of pledges then exchanged. This rapid play of suppressed appeal and disguised response lasted indeed long enough for more results than one—long enough for Mrs. Assingham to measure the feat of quick self-recovery, possibly therefore of recognition still more immediate, accompanying Amerigo’s vision and estimate of the evidence with which she had been—so admirably, she felt as she looked at him—inspired to deal. She looked at him and looked at him—there were so many things she wanted, on the spot, to say. But Maggie was looking too—and was moreover looking at them both; so that these things, for the elder woman, quickly enough reduced themselves to one. She met his question—not too late, since, in their silence, it had remained in the air. Gathering herself to go, leaving the golden bowl split into three pieces on the ground, she simply referred him to his wife. She should see them later, they would all meet soon again; and meanwhile, as to what Maggie had meant—she said, in her turn, from the door—why, Maggie herself was doubtless by this time ready to tell him.
“And what on earth, my dear, did you mean by that?”—the sound, like a spring being triggered, burst forth as the first result of Fanny’s words. It interrupted the two women’s deep focus with a sharpness almost like the shatter of glass, as the Prince had come into the room without them noticing. He seemed to have had time to catch the end of Fanny’s action; his gaze landed, through the large opening there, on the sparkling fragments at her feet. His question was aimed at his wife, but he quickly shifted his gaze to her visitor, whose eyes then locked with his in a way neither of them had managed before, likely since the time he spent at Cadogan Place the night before his wedding and the afternoon Charlotte came back. Something became possible again for these two under the weight of their unspoken connection, something that seemed to revive the promises they had exchanged. This quick exchange of unvoiced invitation and hidden reaction continued long enough to bring about more than one outcome—long enough for Mrs. Assingham to appreciate the feat of quick recovery, possibly an even more immediate recognition, that accompanied Amerigo’s view and assessment of the evidence with which she felt so excellently equipped to handle. She looked at him and looked at him—there were so many things she wanted to say right then. But Maggie was watching too—and was also watching both of them; so, for the older woman, her thoughts quickly condensed into one. She addressed his question—not too late, since it lingered in the silence. Gathering herself to leave, with the golden bowl shattered into three pieces on the floor, she simply directed him to his wife. She would see them later; they would all meet again soon; and in the meantime, regarding what Maggie meant—she said, as she stood by the door—well, Maggie herself was surely ready to explain by now.
XXXIV
XXXIV
Left with her husband, Maggie, however, for the time, said nothing; she only felt, on the spot, a strong, sharp wish not to see his face again till he should have had a minute to arrange it. She had seen it enough for her temporary clearness and her next movement—seen it as it showed during the stare of surprise that followed his entrance. Then it was that she knew how hugely expert she had been made, for judging it quickly, by that vision of it, indelibly registered for reference, that had flashed a light into her troubled soul the night of his late return from Matcham. The expression worn by it at that juncture, for however few instants, had given her a sense of its possibilities, one of the most relevant of which might have been playing up for her, before the consummation of Fanny Assingham’s retreat, just long enough to be recognised. What she had recognised in it was HIS recognition, the result of his having been forced, by the flush of their visitor’s attitude and the unextinguished report of her words, to take account of the flagrant signs of the accident, of the incident, on which he had unexpectedly dropped. He had, not unnaturally, failed to see this occurrence represented by the three fragments of an object apparently valuable which lay there on the floor and which, even across the width of the room, his kept interval, reminded him, unmistakably though confusedly, of something known, some other unforgotten image. That was a mere shock, that was a pain—as if Fanny’s violence had been a violence redoubled and acting beyond its intention, a violence calling up the hot blood as a blow across the mouth might have called it. Maggie knew as she turned away from him that she didn’t want his pain; what she wanted was her own simple certainty—not the red mark of conviction flaming there in his beauty. If she could have gone on with bandaged eyes she would have liked that best; if it were a question of saying what she now, apparently, should have to, and of taking from him what he would say, any blindness that might wrap it would be the nearest approach to a boon.
Left alone with her husband, Maggie didn’t say anything; she just felt a strong, sharp desire not to see his face again until he had time to compose himself. She had seen enough of it at that moment to clear her mind for her next move—she had seen it during the surprised stare that followed his entrance. It was then that she realized how skilled she had become at judging quickly, thanks to that vivid image seared into her memory the night he returned late from Matcham. The expression on his face at that moment, even for just a few seconds, had given her insight into its potential, one of which might have been showing itself to her before Fanny Assingham’s exit, just long enough to be recognized. What she had noticed in it was HIS recognition, stemming from his being forced, by the shock of their visitor’s demeanor and the lingering impact of her words, to acknowledge the obvious signs of the incident he had unexpectedly stumbled into. He had naturally missed the three broken pieces of what appeared to be a valuable object lying on the floor, which even from across the room reminded him, unmistakably but vaguely, of something familiar, some other unforgettable image. It was just a shock, a pain—as if Fanny’s outburst had caused a pain that was amplified and exceeded its original intent, a pain that stirred up strong emotions like a blow to the face might have done. Maggie knew as she turned away from him that she didn’t want to share in his pain; what she wanted was her own simple certainty—not the intense mark of conviction showing in his beauty. If she could have continued blindfolded, she would have preferred that; if it came down to saying what she now felt she had to say and hearing what he would respond with, any darkness that might obscure it would be the closest thing to a blessing.
She went in silence to where her friend—never, in intention, visibly, so much her friend as at that moment—had braced herself to so amazing an energy, and there, under Amerigo’s eyes, she picked up the shining pieces. Bedizened and jewelled, in her rustling finery, she paid, with humility of attitude, this prompt tribute to order—only to find, however, that she could carry but two of the fragments at once. She brought them over to the chimney-piece, to the conspicuous place occupied by the cup before Fanny’s appropriation of it, and, after laying them carefully down, went back for what remained, the solid detached foot. With this she returned to the mantel-shelf, placing it with deliberation in the centre and then, for a minute, occupying herself as with the attempt to fit the other morsels together. The split, determined by the latent crack, was so sharp and so neat that if there had been anything to hold them the bowl might still, quite beautifully, a few steps away, have passed for uninjured. But, as there was, naturally, nothing to hold them but Maggie’s hands, during the few moments the latter were so employed, she could only lay the almost equal parts of the vessel carefully beside their pedestal and leave them thus before her husband’s eyes. She had proceeded without words, but quite as if with a sought effect-in spite of which it had all seemed to her to take a far longer time than anything she had ever so quickly accomplished. Amerigo said nothing either-though it was true that his silence had the gloss of the warning she doubtless appeared to admonish him to take: it was as if her manner hushed him to the proper observation of what she was doing. He should have no doubt of it whatever: she knew and her broken bowl was proof that she knew-yet the least part of her desire was to make him waste words. He would have to think-this she knew even better still; and all she was for the present concerned with was that he should be aware. She had taken him for aware all day, or at least for obscurely and instinctively anxious-as to that she had just committed herself to Fanny Assingham; but what she had been wrong about was the effect of his anxiety. His fear of staying away, as a marked symptom, had at least proved greater than his fear of coming in ; he had come in even at the risk of bringing it with him-and, ah, what more did she require now than her sense, established within the first minute or two, that he had brought it, however he might be steadying himself against dangers of betrayal by some wrong word, and that it was shut in there between them, the successive moments throbbing under it the while as the pulse of fever throbs under the doctor’s thumb? Maggie’s sense, in fine, in his presence, was that though the bowl had been broken, her reason hadn’t; the reason for which she had made up her mind, the reason for which she had summoned her friend, the reason for which she had prepared the place for her husband’s eyes; it was all one reason, and, as her intense little clutch held the matter, what had happened by Fanny’s act and by his apprehension of it had not in the least happened to her but absolutely and directly to himself, as he must proceed to take in. There it was that her wish for time interposed-time for Amerigo’s use, not for hers, since she, for ever so long now, for hours and hours as they seemed, had been living with eternity; with which she would continue to live. She wanted to say to him, “ Take it, take it, take all you need of it ; arrange yourself so as to suffer least, or to be, at any rate, least distorted and disfigured Only see see that I see, and make up your mind, on this new basis, at your convenience. Wait-it won’t be long-till you can confer again with Charlotte, for you’ll do it much better then-more easily to both of us. Above all don’t show me, till you’ve got it well under, the dreadful blur, the ravage of suspense and embarrassment, produced, and produced by my doing, in your personal serenity, your incomparable superiority.” After she had squared again her little objects on the chimney, she was within an ace, in fact, of turning on him with that appeal; besides its being lucid for her, all the while, that the occasion was passing, that they were dining out, that he wasn’t dressed, and that, though she herself was, she was yet, in all probability, so horribly red in the face and so awry, in many ways, with agitation, that in view of the Ambassador’s company, of possible comments and constructions, she should need, before her glass, some restoration of appearances.
She silently went to where her friend—never quite so much her friend as at that moment—had gathered an amazing energy, and there, under Amerigo’s watchful eyes, she picked up the shining pieces. Dressed up and adorned in her rustling finery, she humbly paid this quick tribute to order—only to realize that she could carry only two fragments at a time. She brought them over to the mantelpiece, to the noticeable spot where the cup had sat before Fanny claimed it, and after carefully placing them down, returned for the remaining piece, the solid detached foot. With this, she went back to the mantel, positioning it deliberately in the center and then spending a moment trying to fit the other bits together. The break, marked by the hidden crack, was so sharp and neat that if there had been anything to hold them, the bowl could still, a few steps away, have looked unbroken. But with nothing to keep them together except Maggie’s hands, during the few moments she worked, she could only lay the almost equal parts of the vessel carefully beside their base and leave them like that in front of her husband. She had acted without words, yet it felt as if she was aiming for a certain effect—despite this, it seemed to her that it took far longer than anything she had ever done so quickly. Amerigo didn’t say anything either—though his silence suggested the warning she likely hoped he would heed: it was as though her demeanor silenced him to properly observe what she was doing. He should have had no doubt about it: she knew, and her broken bowl proved that she knew—but her least intention was to make him waste words. He would have to think—that much she understood even better; and all she cared about for now was that he should be aware. She had assumed he was aware all day, or at least vaguely and instinctively anxious—this she had just shared with Fanny Assingham; but what she had misunderstood was the nature of his anxiety. His fear of staying away, as a clear symptom, had proven greater than his fear of coming in; he had entered even at the risk of bringing it with him—and, oh, what more did she need now than her sense, confirmed within the first minute or two, that he had brought it, no matter how much he was steadying himself against risks of exposure by some wrong word, and that it was locked in between them, the moments throbbing under it just like a pulse of fever throbs under a doctor’s thumb. Maggie’s feeling in his presence was that even though the bowl had been broken, her reason hadn’t; the reasoning for which she had made up her mind, the reasoning for which she had called her friend, the reasoning for which she had prepared the scene for her husband’s eyes; it was all one reason, and as her tight grip held the matter, what had occurred due to Fanny’s action and his realization of it hadn’t affected her at all but directly impacted him, as he had to come to terms with it. What she wanted was time—time for Amerigo’s use, not for hers, since she had, for what felt like hours, been living with eternity; and she intended to keep living with it. She wanted to tell him, “Take it, take it, take all you need; arrange yourself to suffer least, or at least, to be less distorted and disfigured. Just see that I see, and decide on this new basis at your convenience. Wait—it won’t be long until you can talk again with Charlotte; you’ll manage much better then, it’ll be easier for both of us. Above all, don’t show me, until you’ve got it well managed, the dreadful blur, the impact of suspense and embarrassment that I’ve caused in your calmness, your incomparable superiority.” After she reorganized her small items on the mantel, she was almost about to turn to him with that appeal; besides the clarity that the moment was passing, that they were dining out, that he wasn’t dressed, and that, while she was, she was probably so horrifically red-faced and so out of sorts with agitation that, considering the Ambassador’s company and the potential comments and interpretations, she would need some restoration of appearances before her mirror.
Amerigo, meanwhile, after all, could clearly make the most of her having enjoined on him to wait—suggested it by the positive pomp of her dealings with the smashed cup; to wait, that is, till she should pronounce as Mrs. Assingham had promised for her. This delay, again, certainly tested her presence of mind—though that strain was not what presently made her speak. Keep her eyes, for the time, from her husband’s as she might, she soon found herself much more drivingly conscious of the strain on his own wit. There was even a minute, when her back was turned to him, during which she knew once more the strangeness of her desire to spare him, a strangeness that had already, fifty times, brushed her, in the depth of her trouble, as with the wild wing of some bird of the air who might blindly have swooped for an instant into the shaft of a well, darkening there by his momentary flutter the far-off round of sky. It was extraordinary, this quality in the taste of her wrong which made her completed sense of it seem rather to soften than to harden and it was the more extraordinary the more she had to recognise it; for what it came to was that seeing herself finally sure, knowing everything, having the fact, in all its abomination, so utterly before her that there was nothing else to add—what it came to was that, merely by being WITH him there in silence, she felt, within her, the sudden split between conviction and action. They had begun to cease, on the spot, surprisingly, to be connected; conviction, that is, budged no inch, only planting its feet the more firmly in the soil—but action began to hover like some lighter and larger, but easier form, excited by its very power to keep above ground. It would be free, it would be independent, it would go in—wouldn’t it?—for some prodigious and superior adventure of its own. What would condemn it, so to speak, to the responsibility of freedom—this glimmered on Maggie even now—was the possibility, richer with every lapsing moment, that her husband would have, on the whole question, a new need of her, a need which was in fact being born between them in these very seconds. It struck her truly as so new that he would have felt hitherto none to compare with it at all; would indeed, absolutely, by this circumstance, be REALLY needing her for the first one in their whole connection. No, he had used her, had even exceedingly enjoyed her, before this; but there had been no precedent for that character of a proved necessity to him which she was rapidly taking on. The immense advantage of this particular clue, moreover, was that she should have now to arrange, alter, to falsify nothing; should have to be but consistently simple and straight. She asked herself, with concentration, while her back was still presented, what would be the very ideal of that method; after which, the next instant, it had all come to her and she had turned round upon him for the application. “Fanny Assingham broke it—knowing it had a crack and that it would go if she used sufficient force. She thought, when I had told her, that that would be the best thing to do with it—thought so from her own point of view. That hadn’t been at all my idea, but she acted before I understood. I had, on the contrary,” she explained, “put it here, in full view, exactly that you might see.”
Amerigo, in the meantime, could definitely take advantage of her request for him to wait—she hinted at it through the exaggerated seriousness of her handling of the broken cup; that is, to wait until she would announce what Mrs. Assingham had promised for her. This delay, again, certainly tested her composure—though it wasn’t the pressure that made her speak right then. No matter how much she tried to avoid looking at her husband, she quickly became very aware of the tension affecting his own thoughts. There was even a moment, when her back was turned to him, when she felt again that strange urge to protect him, a feeling that had already brushed against her so many times in her turmoil, like a wild bird that might have accidentally flown into a well for just an instant, darkening the distant sky with its flutter. It was remarkable, this aspect of her pain, which made her understanding of it seem to soften rather than harden, and it became even more remarkable the more she had to acknowledge it; because what it boiled down to was that, having finally accepted everything, knowing all the facts in their ghastliness, there was nothing left to add—what it boiled down to was that simply by being there in silence with him, she felt an unexpected divide between belief and action. They had surprisingly begun to disassociate right then; belief, in fact, remained unyielding, rooting its feet deeper in the ground—but action started to float above like some lighter and larger form, eager in its very ability to stay aloft. It would be free, it would be independent, it would venture in—wouldn’t it?—for some amazing and greater adventure of its own. What would tie it, so to speak, to the weight of freedom—this flickered in Maggie's mind even now—was the growing possibility that her husband would, regarding the entire matter, have a new need for her, a need that was actually being born between them in those very seconds. It truly struck her as so novel that he had felt no need to compare with it before; indeed, absolutely, by this very turn of events, he would be REALLY needing her for the first time in their entire relationship. No, he had used her, even thoroughly enjoyed her, before this; but there had never been anything like this kind of evident necessity for him that she was quickly adopting. The great benefit of this particular clue was that she wouldn’t have to arrange, change, or distort anything; she just needed to be consistently straightforward and honest. She focused on what the ideal way to do that would be; and then, in the next moment, it all came to her and she turned to him to put it into action. “Fanny Assingham broke it—knowing it had a crack and that it would break if she applied enough force. She thought, when I told her, that would be the best course of action—thought so from her own perspective. That wasn’t my idea at all, but she acted before I realized. I had, on the contrary,” she explained, “placed it here, clearly visible, exactly so you could see it.”
He stood with his hands in his pockets; he had carried his eyes to the fragments on the chimney-piece, and she could already distinguish the element of relief, absolutely of succour, in his acceptance from her of the opportunity to consider the fruits of their friend’s violence—every added inch of reflection and delay having the advantage, from this point on, of counting for him double. It had operated within her now to the last intensity, her glimpse of the precious truth that by her helping him, helping him to help himself, as it were, she should help him to help HER. Hadn’t she fairly got into his labyrinth with him?—wasn’t she indeed in the very act of placing herself there, for him, at its centre and core, whence, on that definite orientation and by an instinct all her own, she might securely guide him out of it? She offered him thus, assuredly, a kind of support that was not to have been imagined in advance, and that moreover required—ah most truly!—some close looking at before it could be believed in and pronounced void of treachery. “Yes, look, look,” she seemed to see him hear her say even while her sounded words were other—“look, look, both at the truth that still survives in that smashed evidence and at the even more remarkable appearance that I’m not such a fool as you supposed me. Look at the possibility that, since I AM different, there may still be something in it for you—if you’re capable of working with me to get that out. Consider of course, as you must, the question of what you may have to surrender, on your side, what price you may have to pay, whom you may have to pay WITH, to set this advantage free; but take in, at any rate, that there is something for you if you don’t too blindly spoil your chance for it.” He went no nearer the damnatory pieces, but he eyed them, from where he stood, with a degree of recognition just visibly less to be dissimulated; all of which represented for her a certain traceable process. And her uttered words, meanwhile, were different enough from those he might have inserted between the lines of her already-spoken. “It’s the golden bowl, you know, that you saw at the little antiquario’s in Bloomsbury, so long ago—when you went there with Charlotte, when you spent those hours with her, unknown to me, a day or two before our marriage. It was shown you both, but you didn’t take it; you left it for me, and I came upon it, extraordinarily, through happening to go into the same shop on Monday last; in walking home, in prowling about to pick up some small old thing for father’s birthday, after my visit to the Museum, my appointment there with Mr. Crichton, of which I told you. It was shown me, and I was struck with it and took it—knowing nothing about it at the time. What I now know I’ve learned since—I learned this afternoon, a couple of hours ago; receiving from it naturally a great impression. So there it is—in its three pieces. You can handle them—don’t be afraid—if you want to make sure the thing is the thing you and Charlotte saw together. Its having come apart makes an unfortunate difference for its beauty, its artistic value, but none for anything else. Its other value is just the same—I mean that of its having given me so much of the truth about you. I don’t therefore so much care what becomes of it now—unless perhaps you may yourself, when you come to think, have some good use for it. In that case,” Maggie wound up, “we can easily take the pieces with us to Fawns.”
He stood with his hands in his pockets, looking at the fragments on the mantelpiece. She could already see the relief and support in his acceptance of her offer to think about the consequences of their friend's violence—every moment of reflection and delay now counted for him twice. It had hit her hard, this realization that by helping him—helping him to help himself, so to speak—she would also be helping herself. Hadn’t she entered his complicated situation alongside him? Wasn’t she actually in the process of placing herself right at the center of it, where, with her own instinct, she could guide him out? She was providing him a kind of support that he wouldn’t have expected, one that truly required some careful consideration before it could be trusted and seen as genuine. “Yes, look, look,” she seemed to sense him hear her say even while her spoken words were different—“look, look at the truth that still exists in those broken pieces and at the surprising fact that I'm not as foolish as you thought. Consider that since I am different, there might still be something in it for you—if you can work with me to uncover it. Of course, think about what you may need to give up, what price you might have to pay, and who you might have to deal with to unlock this advantage; but understand that there’s something for you if you don’t recklessly ruin your chance.” He didn’t approach the broken pieces but looked at them from where he stood, showing a level of recognition that was barely concealed; for her, this indicated a discernible change. Meanwhile, her words were quite different from what he might have inserted between the lines of what she had already said. “It’s the golden bowl you saw at that little antique shop in Bloomsbury so long ago—when you went there with Charlotte, when you spent those hours with her, without me knowing, just a day or two before our wedding. It was shown to both of you, but you didn’t buy it; you left it for me, and I stumbled upon it, surprisingly, by walking into the same store last Monday. I was out looking for something small and old for Dad’s birthday after my visit to the Museum, where I had my appointment with Mr. Crichton, which I told you about. They showed it to me, I was drawn to it, and I took it—without knowing anything about it then. What I know now, I learned just a couple of hours ago; I received quite an impression from it. So here it is—in its three pieces. You can touch them—don’t worry—if you want to confirm that it’s the same thing you and Charlotte saw together. Its being in pieces does affect its beauty and artistic value, but nothing else. Its other value is just the same—I mean that it has revealed so much truth about you. I don’t really care what happens to it now—unless, of course, you find it useful when you think about it. In that case,” Maggie concluded, “we can easily take the pieces with us to Fawns.”
It was wonderful how she felt, by the time she had seen herself through this narrow pass, that she had really achieved something—that she was emerging a little, in fine, with the prospect less contracted. She had done for him, that is, what her instinct enjoined; had laid a basis not merely momentary on which he could meet her. When, by the turn of his head, he did finally meet her, this was the last thing that glimmered out of his look; but it came into sight, none the less, as a perception of his distress and almost as a question of his eyes; so that, for still another minute, before he committed himself, there occurred between them a kind of unprecedented moral exchange over which her superior lucidity presided. It was not, however, that when he did commit himself the show was promptly portentous. “But what in the world has Fanny Assingham had to do with it?”
It was amazing how she felt, by the time she had made it through this narrow passage, that she had really accomplished something—that she was coming out of it a bit, with her view less restricted. She had done what her instincts told her to do; she had laid a foundation that was more than just temporary for him to engage with her. When, as he turned his head, he finally did meet her gaze, this was the last thing that flickered in his expression; yet it still appeared as a sign of his distress and almost as a question in his eyes, so that for another minute, before he committed himself, there was an unprecedented moral exchange between them that her clearer perspective guided. However, when he did decide to commit, it wasn't immediately dramatic. “But what on earth has Fanny Assingham had to do with it?”
She could verily, out of all her smothered soreness, almost have smiled: his question so affected her as giving the whole thing up to her. But it left her only to go the straighter. “She has had to do with it that I immediately sent for her and that she immediately came. She was the first person I wanted to see—because I knew she would know. Know more about what I had learned, I mean, than I could make out for myself. I made out as much as I could for myself—that I also wanted to have done; but it didn’t, in spite of everything, take me very far, and she has really been a help. Not so much as she would like to be—not so much as, poor dear, she just now tried to be; yet she has done her very best for you—never forget that!—and has kept me along immeasurably better than I should have been able to come without her. She has gained me time; and that, these three months, don’t you see? has been everything.”
She could almost smile through all her pain: his question made her feel like everything was in her hands. But it only pushed her to be more straightforward. “It’s true that I sent for her right away and that she came immediately. She was the first person I wanted to see because I knew she would understand. She knows more about what I’ve learned than I can figure out myself. I tried to figure out as much as I could by myself—I wanted to do that—but it didn’t really get me very far, and she has been a real help. Not as much as she wants to be—not as much as she just tried to be, bless her heart; but she has really done her best for you—never forget that!—and has helped me so much more than I could have managed on my own. She has given me time; and that, over these three months, has meant everything, don’t you see?”
She had said “Don’t you see?” on purpose, and was to feel the next moment that it had acted. “These three months’?” the Prince asked.
She had said “Don’t you see?” on purpose, and was about to feel in the next moment that it had worked. “These past three months?” the Prince asked.
“Counting from the night you came home so late from Matcham. Counting from the hours you spent with Charlotte at Gloucester; your visit to the cathedral—which you won’t have forgotten describing to me in so much detail. For that was the beginning of my being sure. Before it I had been sufficiently in doubt. Sure,” Maggie developed, “of your having, and of your having for a long time had, TWO relations with Charlotte.”
“Counting from the night you got home so late from Matcham. Counting from the hours you spent with Charlotte in Gloucester; your trip to the cathedral—which you definitely haven’t forgotten sharing with me in detail. That was when I became certain. Before that, I had my doubts. Sure,” Maggie went on, “that you had, and had for a long time, TWO relationships with Charlotte.”
He stared, a little at sea, as he took it up. “Two—?”
He looked puzzled as he picked it up. “Two—?”
Something in the tone of it gave it a sense, or an ambiguity, almost foolish—leaving Maggie to feel, as in a flash, how such a consequence, a foredoomed infelicity, partaking of the ridiculous even in one of the cleverest, might be of the very essence of the penalty of wrong-doing. “Oh, you may have had fifty—had the same relation with her fifty times! It’s of the number of KINDS of relation with her that I speak—a number that doesn’t matter, really, so long as there wasn’t only one kind, as father and I supposed. One kind,” she went on, “was there before us; we took that fully for granted, as you saw, and accepted it. We never thought of there being another, kept out of our sight. But after the evening I speak of I knew there was something else. As I say, I had, before that, my idea—which you never dreamed I had. From the moment I speak of it had more to go upon, and you became yourselves, you and she, vaguely, yet uneasily, conscious of the difference. But it’s within these last hours that I’ve most seen where we are; and as I’ve been in communication with Fanny Assingham about my doubts, so I wanted to let her know my certainty—with the determination of which, however, you must understand, she has had nothing to do. She defends you,” Maggie remarked.
Something about the tone gave it a sense, or an ambiguity, almost silly—making Maggie realize, in a flash, how such a consequence, a predicted misfortune, even in one of the cleverest, could be at the core of the punishment for wrongdoing. “Oh, you may have had fifty—had the same relationship with her fifty times! It’s about the kinds of relationships with her that I’m talking—how many there are doesn’t really matter, as long as there wasn’t just one kind, like my father and I thought. One kind,” she continued, “was there before us; we accepted that completely, as you saw, and took it for granted. We never imagined there could be another one, kept out of our sight. But after the evening I’m referring to, I knew there was something else. As I said, I had my own idea before that—which you never suspected I had. From the moment I’m talking about, I had more to go off of, and you and she became, vaguely yet uneasily, aware of the difference. But it’s in these last few hours that I’ve really seen where we stand; and as I’ve been in touch with Fanny Assingham about my doubts, I wanted to let her know my certainty—which, I need you to understand, she had nothing to do with. She defends you,” Maggie noted.
He had given her all his attention, and with this impression for her, again, that he was, in essence, fairly reaching out to her for time—time, only time—she could sufficiently imagine, and to whatever strangeness, that he absolutely liked her to talk, even at the cost of his losing almost everything else by it. It was still, for a minute, as if he waited for something worse; wanted everything that was in her to come out, any definite fact, anything more precisely nameable, so that he too—as was his right—should know where he was. What stirred in him above all, while he followed in her face the clear train of her speech, must have been the impulse to take up something she put before him that he was yet afraid directly to touch. He wanted to make free with it, but had to keep his hands off—for reasons he had already made out; and the discomfort of his privation yearned at her out of his eyes with an announcing gleam of the fever, the none too tolerable chill, of specific recognition. She affected him as speaking more or less for her father as well, and his eyes might have been trying to hypnotise her into giving him the answer without his asking the question. “Had HE his idea, and has he now, with you, anything more?”—those were the words he had to hold himself from not speaking and that she would as yet, certainly, do nothing to make easy. She felt with her sharpest thrill how he was straitened and tied, and with the miserable pity of it her present conscious purpose of keeping him so could none the less perfectly accord. To name her father, on any such basis of anxiety, of compunction, would be to do the impossible thing, to do neither more nor less than give Charlotte away. Visibly, palpably, traceably, he stood off from this, moved back from it as from an open chasm now suddenly perceived, but which had been, between the two, with so much, so strangely much else, quite uncalculated. Verily it towered before her, this history of their confidence. They had built strong and piled high—based as it was on such appearances—their conviction that, thanks to her native complacencies of so many sorts, she would always, quite to the end and through and through, take them as nobly sparing her. Amerigo was at any rate having the sensation of a particular ugliness to avoid, a particular difficulty to count with, that practically found him as unprepared as if he had been, like his wife, an abjectly simple person. And she meanwhile, however abjectly simple, was further discerning, for herself, that, whatever he might have to take from her—she being, on her side, beautifully free—he would absolutely not be able, for any qualifying purpose, to name Charlotte either. As his father-in-law’s wife Mrs. Verver rose between them there, for the time, in august and prohibitive form; to protect her, defend her, explain about her, was, at the least, to bring her into the question—which would be by the same stroke to bring her husband. But this was exactly the door Maggie wouldn’t open to him; on all of which she was the next moment asking herself if, thus warned and embarrassed, he were not fairly writhing in his pain. He writhed, on that hypothesis, some seconds more, for it was not till then that he had chosen between what he could do and what he couldn’t.
He had given her his full attention, and with the impression that he was genuinely reaching out to her for time—time, only time—she could easily imagine. He definitely liked her to talk, even if it meant losing nearly everything else because of it. For a moment, it was as if he was waiting for something worse; he wanted everything that was inside her to come out, any concrete detail, anything that could be precisely named, so that he too—rightfully—could know where he stood. What stirred in him most, while he followed the clear flow of her words, must have been the urge to engage with something she presented to him that he was still afraid to touch directly. He wanted to dive into it but had to keep his distance—for reasons he had already figured out; and the discomfort of his longing shone from his eyes with an alert gleam of feverish recognition. She affected him as if she were speaking for her father as well, and his eyes seemed to try to hypnotize her into giving him the answer without him asking the question. “Did HE have any ideas, and does he now, with you, have anything more?”—those were the words he had to hold back from saying, and she certainly wouldn’t do anything to make it easier. She felt, with a sharp thrill, how he was constrained and tied up, and despite the miserable pity of it, her current conscious intention to keep him that way aligned perfectly. Mentioning her father, under any sort of anxiety or hesitation, would mean doing the impossible—giving Charlotte away. Clearly, he stood apart from this, backing away as if from an open chasm that had suddenly appeared between them, which had been, alongside so much else, quite unforeseen. This history of their trust towered before her. They had built strong and tall—based on appearances—their belief that, thanks to her natural ease of many sorts, she would always, right to the end, see them as nobly sparing her. Amerigo was at least feeling a particular ugliness to avoid and a specific difficulty to deal with, finding himself as unprepared as if he were an utterly simple person, like his wife. Meanwhile, she, however simply positioned, was further realizing that no matter what he might take from her—since she was beautifully free—he would absolutely not be able, for any qualifying purpose, to name Charlotte either. As her father-in-law’s wife, Mrs. Verver, rose between them in an imposing and protective way, to guard her, defend her, or explain about her would inevitably bring her into the conversation—which would also mean bringing in her husband. But this was exactly the door Maggie wouldn’t open for him; then she was next asking herself if, warned and embarrassed, he wasn’t really twisting in his discomfort. He twisted in that assumption for a few more seconds, as it was only then that he had chosen between what he could do and what he couldn’t.
“You’re apparently drawing immense conclusions from very small matters. Won’t you perhaps feel, in fairness, that you’re striking out, triumphing, or whatever I may call it, rather too easily—feel it when I perfectly admit that your smashed cup there does come back to me? I frankly confess, now, to the occasion, and to having wished not to speak of it to you at the time. We took two or three hours together, by arrangement; it WAS on the eve of my marriage—at the moment you say. But that put it on the eve of yours too, my dear—which was directly the point. It was desired to find for you, at the eleventh hour, some small wedding-present—a hunt, for something worth giving you, and yet possible from other points of view as well, in which it seemed I could be of use. You were naturally not to be told—precisely because it was all FOR you. We went forth together and we looked; we rummaged about and, as I remember we called it, we prowled; then it was that, as I freely recognise, we came across that crystal cup—which I’m bound to say, upon my honour, I think it rather a pity Fanny Assingham, from whatever good motive, should have treated so.” He had kept his hands in his pockets; he turned his eyes again, but more complacently now, to the ruins of the precious vessel; and Maggie could feel him exhale into the achieved quietness of his explanation a long, deep breath of comparative relief. Behind everything, beneath everything, it was somehow a comfort to him at last to be talking with her—and he seemed to be proving to himself that he COULD talk. “It was at a little shop in Bloomsbury—I think I could go to the place now. The man understood Italian, I remember; he wanted awfully to work off his bowl. But I didn’t believe in it, and we didn’t take it.”
“You seem to be making huge assumptions from pretty minor things. Don’t you think, honestly, that you’re winning or whatever you want to call it, a bit too easily—especially since I openly admit that your broken cup does come to mind? I’ll be honest now—I didn’t want to bring it up with you at the time. We had planned to spend a couple of hours together; it was the night before my wedding—just as you mentioned. But that made it the night before yours too, my dear—which was exactly the point. We wanted to find you a small wedding gift at the last minute—a search for something worthwhile to give you, but also practical from other perspectives, and it seemed like I could help. You weren’t supposed to know—mainly because it was all FOR you. We set out together and looked around; we rummaged and, as I like to call it, we prowled; then, I clearly remember, we found that crystal cup—which I honestly think it’s a shame Fanny Assingham, no matter her good intentions, treated it the way she did.” He kept his hands in his pockets; he looked back at the remnants of the precious item, but now with a more content expression, and Maggie could sense him releasing a long, deep breath of relief as he explained. Deep down, it was somehow comforting for him to finally be talking with her—and he seemed to be reassuring himself that he COULD communicate. “We found it at a little shop in Bloomsbury—I think I could still find the place. The guy spoke Italian, I remember; he really wanted to sell his bowl. But I didn’t believe in it, so we didn’t buy it.”
Maggie had listened with an interest that wore all the expression of candour. “Oh, you left it for me. But what did you take?”
Maggie listened with a genuine interest on her face. “Oh, you left it for me. But what did you take?”
He looked at her; first as if he were trying to remember, then as if he might have been trying to forget. “Nothing, I think—at that place.”
He looked at her; first as if he were trying to remember, then as if he might have been trying to forget. “Nothing, I think—at that place.”
“What did you take then at any other? What did you get me—since that was your aim and end—for a wedding-gift?”
“What did you choose instead? What did you get me—since that was your goal—for a wedding gift?”
The Prince continued very nobly to bethink himself. “Didn’t we get you anything?”
The Prince kept thinking deeply. “Didn’t we get you anything?”
Maggie waited a little; she had for some time, now, kept her eyes on him steadily; but they wandered, at this, to the fragments on her chimney. “Yes; it comes round, after all, to your having got me the bowl. I myself was to come upon it, the other day, by so wonderful a chance; was to find it in the same place and to have it pressed upon me by the same little man, who does, as you say, understand Italian. I did ‘believe in it,’ you see—must have believed in it somehow instinctively; for I took it as soon as I saw it. Though I didn’t know at all then,” she added, “what I was taking WITH it.”
Maggie waited for a moment; she had been watching him closely for a while, but now her gaze drifted to the items on her mantel. “Yes; it all comes down to you getting me the bowl. I was meant to find it the other day by an incredible coincidence; to discover it in the same spot and have it offered to me by the same little man, who, as you said, knows Italian. I did ‘believe in it,’ you see—I must have believed in it instinctively because I took it the moment I saw it. Although I had no idea back then,” she added, “what I was taking along with it.”
The Prince paid her for an instant, visibly, the deference of trying to imagine what this might have been. “I agree with you that the coincidence is extraordinary—the sort of thing that happens mainly in novels and plays. But I don’t see, you must let me say, the importance or the connexion—”
The Prince considered her for a moment, clearly trying to grasp what this could mean. “I agree that the coincidence is remarkable—like something out of a novel or a play. But I don’t understand, if you'll allow me to say, the significance or the connection—”
“Of my having made the purchase where you failed of it?” She had quickly taken him up; but she had, with her eyes on him once more, another drop into the order of her thoughts, to which, through whatever he might say, she was still adhering. “It’s not my having gone into the place, at the end of four years, that makes the strangeness of the coincidence; for don’t such chances as that, in London, easily occur? The strangeness,” she lucidly said, “is in what my purchase was to represent to me after I had got it home; which value came,” she explained, “from the wonder of my having found such a friend.”
“Did I really make the purchase that you missed out on?” She quickly picked up on his words; but with her eyes on him again, she had another thought in mind, one she was still focused on no matter what he might say. “It’s not about me walking into the place after four years that makes this coincidence strange; don’t chances like that happen all the time in London? The real strangeness,” she clearly said, “is what my purchase would mean to me once I got it home; that value came,” she explained, “from the amazement of having found such a friend.”
“‘Such a friend’?” As a wonder, assuredly, her husband could but take it.
“‘Such a friend’?” As a surprise, of course, her husband could only accept it.
“As the little man in the shop. He did for me more than he knew—I owe it to him. He took an interest in me,” Maggie said; “and, taking that interest, he recalled your visit, he remembered you and spoke of you to me.”
“As the little man in the shop. He did more for me than he realized—I owe him for that. He cared about me,” Maggie said; “and by caring, he remembered your visit, he thought of you and talked about you to me.”
On which the Prince passed the comment of a sceptical smile. “Ah but, my dear, if extraordinary things come from people’s taking an interest in you—”
On that, the Prince gave a skeptical smile. “Ah, but, my dear, if amazing things happen because people are interested in you—”
“My life in that case,” she asked, “must be very agitated? Well, he liked me, I mean—very particularly. It’s only so I can account for my afterwards hearing from him—and in fact he gave me that to-day,” she pursued, “he gave me it frankly as his reason.”
“My life in that case,” she asked, “must be pretty chaotic? Well, he liked me, I mean—very specifically. That’s the only way I can explain why I heard from him later—and in fact, he gave me that today,” she continued, “he gave it to me openly as his reason.”
“To-day?” the Prince inquiringly echoed.
"Today?" the Prince inquired.
But she was singularly able—it had been marvellously “given” her, she afterwards said to herself—to abide, for her light, for her clue, by her own order.
But she was uniquely capable—it had been wonderfully "given" to her, she later told herself—to rely on her own sense of order for her guidance and direction.
“I inspired him with sympathy—there you are! But the miracle is that he should have a sympathy to offer that could be of use to me. That was really the oddity of my chance,” the Princess proceeded—“that I should have been moved, in my ignorance, to go precisely to him.”
“I made him feel sympathy—there you go! But the surprising thing is that he actually had a sympathy to give that could help me. That was truly the strange part of my luck,” the Princess continued—“that I ended up going to him, completely unaware.”
He saw her so keep her course that it was as if he could, at the best, but stand aside to watch her and let her pass; he only made a vague demonstration that was like an ineffective gesture. “I’m sorry to say any ill of your friends, and the thing was a long time ago; besides which there was nothing to make me recur to it. But I remember the man’s striking me as a decided little beast.”
He watched her so intently that it felt like the best he could do was step aside and let her go by; he only made a weak gesture that seemed useless. “I hate to speak badly about your friends, and this happened a long time ago; besides, there was no reason for me to bring it up again. But I still remember thinking that guy was a real jerk.”
She gave a slow headshake—as if, no, after consideration, not THAT way were an issue. “I can only think of him as kind, for he had nothing to gain. He had in fact only to lose. It was what he came to tell me—that he had asked me too high a price, more than the object was really worth. There was a particular reason, which he hadn’t mentioned, and which had made him consider and repent. He wrote for leave to see me again—wrote in such terms that I saw him here this afternoon.”
She shook her head slowly—as if to say, no, after thinking it over, that wasn’t the issue. “I can only see him as kind, because he had nothing to gain. In fact, he only had something to lose. It was what he came to tell me—that he had asked too high a price, more than the object was really worth. There was a specific reason, which he hadn’t mentioned, and which made him reflect and feel regret. He wrote to ask for the chance to see me again—wrote in a way that made me agree to meet him here this afternoon.”
“Here?”—it made the Prince look about him.
“Here?”—it caused the Prince to glance around him.
“Downstairs—in the little red room. While he was waiting he looked at the few photographs that stand about there and recognised two of them. Though it was so long ago, he remembered the visit made him by the lady and the gentleman, and that gave him his connexion. It gave me mine, for he remembered everything and told me everything. You see you too had produced your effect; only, unlike you, he had thought of it again—he HAD recurred to it. He told me of your having wished to make each other presents—but of that’s not having come off. The lady was greatly taken with the piece I had bought of him, but you had your reason against receiving it from her, and you had been right. He would think that of you more than ever now,” Maggie went on; “he would see how wisely you had guessed the flaw and how easily the bowl could be broken. I had bought it myself, you see, for a present—he knew I was doing that. This was what had worked in him—especially after the price I had paid.”
“Downstairs—in the little red room. While he waited, he looked at the few photographs scattered around and recognized two of them. Even though it was so long ago, he remembered the visit from the lady and the gentleman, and that connected him to them. It connected me to them too because he remembered everything and told me everything. You see, you had an impact as well; the difference is, he thought about it again—he HAD revisited it. He told me about how you both wanted to give each other gifts, but that never happened. The lady was really taken with the piece I bought from him, but you had your reasons for not accepting it from her, and you were right. He would think of you even more now,” Maggie continued; “he would see how wisely you recognized the flaw and how easily the bowl could break. I bought it myself as a gift—he knew I was doing that. This was what influenced him—especially after the price I paid.”
Her story had dropped an instant; she still brought it out in small waves of energy, each of which spent its force; so that he had an opportunity to speak before this force was renewed. But the quaint thing was what he now said. “And what, pray, WAS the price?”
Her story had paused for a moment; she still shared it in small bursts of energy, each exhausting itself; so he had a chance to speak before this energy came back. But the amusing part was what he said next. “So, what was the price?”
She paused again a little. “It was high, certainly—for those fragments. I think I feel, as I look at them there, rather ashamed to say.”
She hesitated for a moment. “It was definitely high, considering those fragments. I feel a bit embarrassed to admit that as I look at them.”
The Prince then again looked at them; he might have been growing used to the sight. “But shall you at least get your money back?”
The Prince then looked at them again; he seemed to be getting used to the sight. “But will you at least get your money back?”
“Oh, I’m far from wanting it back—I feel so that I’m getting its worth.” With which, before he could reply, she had a quick transition. “The great fact about the day we’re talking of seems to me to have been, quite remarkably, that no present was then made me. If your undertaking had been for that, that was not at least what came of it.”
“Oh, I definitely don’t want it back—I actually feel like I’m gaining from it.” With that, before he could respond, she quickly switched gears. “The important thing about that day we’re discussing seems to me to be that, quite notably, I didn’t receive any gifts. If that was your goal, it certainly didn’t end up being the outcome.”
“You received then nothing at all?” The Prince looked vague and grave, almost retrospectively concerned.
“You didn’t receive anything at all?” The Prince appeared lost in thought and serious, almost looking back with concern.
“Nothing but an apology for empty hands and empty pockets; which was made me—as if it mattered a mite!—ever so frankly, ever so beautifully and touchingly.”
“Just an apology for having nothing to offer; which was given to me—as if it mattered at all!—so honestly, so beautifully, and so touchingly.”
This Amerigo heard with interest, yet not with confusion. “Ah, of course you couldn’t have minded!” Distinctly, as she went on, he was getting the better of the mere awkwardness of his arrest; quite as if making out that he need SUFFER arrest from her now—before they should go forth to show themselves in the world together—in no greater quantity than an occasion ill-chosen at the best for a scene might decently make room for. He looked at his watch; their engagement, all the while, remained before him. “But I don’t make out, you see, what case against me you rest—”
This Amerigo listened with interest, but not confusion. “Oh, of course you wouldn’t have minded!” As she continued, he was starting to overcome the awkwardness of his arrest; it was almost as if he realized that he shouldn't let her see him suffer from her decision to arrest him now—before they went out to face the world together—any more than the situation warranted. He checked his watch; their plans were still ahead of them. “But I don’t understand what case you have against me—”
“On everything I’m telling you? Why, the whole case—the case of your having for so long so successfully deceived me. The idea of your finding something for me—charming as that would have been—was what had least to do with your taking a morning together at that moment. What had really to do with it,” said Maggie, “was that you had to: you couldn’t not, from the moment you were again face to face. And the reason of that was that there had been so much between you before—before I came between you at all.”
“About everything I’m telling you? Well, the whole situation—the fact that you’ve been able to deceive me for so long. The idea of you finding something for me—while that would have been lovely—had the least to do with you taking a morning together at that time. What really mattered,” said Maggie, “was that you had to: you couldn’t avoid it, the moment you were face to face again. And the reason for that was that so much had happened between you two before—before I ever got in the way.”
Her husband had been for these last moments moving about under her eyes; but at this, as to check any show of impatience, he again stood still. “You’ve never been more sacred to me than you were at that hour—unless perhaps you’ve become so at this one.”
Her husband had been moving around in front of her for the last few moments; but at that, as if to hide any sign of impatience, he stood still again. "You've never meant more to me than you did at that moment—unless maybe you mean even more to me now."
The assurance of his speech, she could note, quite held up its head in him; his eyes met her own so, for the declaration, that it was as if something cold and momentarily unimaginable breathed upon her, from afar off, out of his strange consistency. She kept her direction still, however, under that. “Oh, the thing I’ve known best of all is that you’ve never wanted, together, to offend us. You’ve wanted quite intensely not to, and the precautions you’ve had to take for it have been for a long time one of the strongest of my impressions. That, I think,” she added, “is the way I’ve best known.”
She noticed the confidence in his speech; his eyes met hers with such intensity that it felt like something cold and momentarily unimaginable was reaching out to her from afar, stemming from his unusual steadiness. Still, she maintained her focus. “Oh, what I’ve understood best is that you’ve never wanted to offend us together. You’ve strongly desired not to, and the efforts you’ve made to avoid that have been one of my longest-lasting impressions. I believe,” she added, “that’s how I’ve come to know you best.”
“Known?” he repeated after a moment.
“Known?” he repeated after a moment.
“Known. Known that you were older friends, and so much more intimate ones, than I had any reason to suppose when we married. Known there were things that hadn’t been told me—and that gave their meaning, little by little, to other things that were before me.”
“It's clear. I realize now that you were older friends and much closer than I ever thought when we got married. I understand there were things you hadn't shared with me—and that gradually clarified the meaning of other things I had noticed.”
“Would they have made a difference, in the matter of our marriage,” the Prince presently asked, “if you HAD known them?”
“Would it have changed anything about our marriage,” the Prince then asked, “if you HAD known them?”
She took her time to think. “I grant you not—in the matter of OURS.” And then as he again fixed her with his hard yearning, which he couldn’t keep down: “The question is so much bigger than that. You see how much what I know makes of it for me.” That was what acted on him, this iteration of her knowledge, into the question of the validity, of the various bearings of which, he couldn’t on the spot trust himself to pretend, in any high way, to go. What her claim, as she made it, represented for him—that he couldn’t help betraying, if only as a consequence of the effect of the word itself, her repeated distinct “know, know,” on his nerves. She was capable of being sorry for his nerves at a time when he should need them for dining out, pompously, rather responsibly, without his heart in it; yet she was not to let that prevent her using, with all economy, so precious a chance for supreme clearness. “I didn’t force this upon you, you must recollect, and it probably wouldn’t have happened for you if you hadn’t come in.”
She took her time to think. “I don’t agree with you—in the matter of US.” And then, as he looked at her again with his intense longing that he couldn't suppress: “The issue is much bigger than that. You see how much my understanding shapes it for me.” That was what influenced him, this repetition of her knowledge, leading to the question of its validity, the various implications of which he couldn’t trust himself to discuss, in any serious way, on the spot. What her claim meant to him—that he couldn’t help but reveal, simply as a result of the impact of the word itself, her repeated distinct “know, know,” on his nerves. She was capable of feeling sorry for his nerves at a time when he needed them for dining out, grandly, with a sense of responsibility, even though he wasn’t truly invested; yet she wouldn’t let that stop her from taking advantage of such a rare opportunity for total clarity. “I didn’t impose this on you, you ought to remember, and it probably wouldn’t have happened if you hadn’t come in.”
“Ah,” said the Prince, “I was liable to come in, you know.”
“Ah,” said the Prince, “I could have come in, you know.”
“I didn’t think you were this evening.”
“I didn’t think you were coming this evening.”
“And why not?”
"Why not?"
“Well,” she answered, “you have many liabilities—of different sorts.” With which she recalled what she had said to Fanny Assingham. “And then you’re so deep.”
“Well,” she replied, “you have a lot of responsibilities—of different kinds.” With that, she remembered what she had told Fanny Assingham. “And then you’re so complex.”
It produced in his features, in spite of his control of them, one of those quick plays of expression, the shade of a grimace, that testified as nothing else did to his race. “It’s you, cara, who are deep.”
It created in his face, despite his attempt to hide it, one of those brief expressions, a hint of a grimace, that showed more than anything else about his background. “It’s you, darling, who are deep.”
Which, after an instant, she had accepted from him; she could so feel at last that it was true. “Then I shall have need of it all.”
Which, after a moment, she accepted from him; she could finally feel that it was true. “Then I will need all of it.”
“But what would you have done,” he was by this time asking, “if I HADN’T come in?”
“But what would you have done,” he asked by this point, “if I hadn’t come in?”
“I don’t know.” She had hesitated. “What would you?”
“I don’t know.” She paused. “What would you do?”
“Oh; I oh—that isn’t the question. I depend upon you. I go on. You would have spoken to-morrow?”
“Oh; I oh—that’s not the question. I rely on you. I keep going. You would have spoken to me tomorrow?”
“I think I would have waited.”
“I think I would have waited.”
“And for what?” he asked.
“And for what?” he asked.
“To see what difference it would make for myself. My possession at last, I mean, of real knowledge.”
“To find out how it would change things for me. My own possession at last, I mean, of real knowledge.”
“Oh!” said the Prince.
“Oh!” said the Prince.
“My only point now, at any rate,” she went on, “is the difference, as I say, that it may make for YOU. Your knowing was—from the moment you did come in—all I had in view.” And she sounded it again—he should have it once more. “Your knowing that I’ve ceased—”
“My only point now, anyway,” she continued, “is the difference, as I’ve mentioned, that it might make for YOU. Your knowing was—from the moment you walked in—all I had in mind.” And she emphasized it again—he should hear it once more. “Your knowing that I’ve stopped—”
“That you’ve ceased—?” With her pause, in fact, she had fairly made him press her for it.
“That you’ve stopped—?” With her pause, she had really made him press her for it.
“Why, to be as I was. NOT to know.”
“Why, to be as I was. NOT to know.”
It was once more then, after a little, that he had had to stand receptive; yet the singular effect of this was that there was still something of the same sort he was made to want. He had another hesitation, but at last this odd quantity showed. “Then does any one else know?”
It was once again, after a while, that he had to be open to receiving; yet the strange effect of this was that there was still something similar he was made to desire. He hesitated again, but eventually this unusual amount became clear. “So does anyone else know?”
It was as near as he could come to naming her father, and she kept him at that distance. “Any one—?”
It was as close as he could get to naming her father, and she kept him at that distance. “Anyone—?”
“Any one, I mean, but Fanny Assingham.”
“Anyone, I mean, but Fanny Assingham.”
“I should have supposed you had had by this time particular means of learning. I don’t see,” she said, “why you ask me.”
“I thought by now you would have some specific ways of finding out. I don’t get it,” she said, “why you’re asking me.”
Then, after an instant—and only after an instant, as she saw—he made out what she meant; and it gave her, all strangely enough, the still further light that Charlotte, for herself, knew as little as he had known. The vision loomed, in this light, it fairly glared, for the few seconds—the vision of the two others alone together at Fawns, and Charlotte, as one of them, having gropingly to go on, always not knowing and not knowing! The picture flushed at the same time with all its essential colour—that of the so possible identity of her father’s motive and principle with her own. HE was “deep,” as Amerigo called it, so that no vibration of the still air should reach his daughter; just as she had earned that description by making and by, for that matter, intending still to make, her care for his serenity, or at any rate for the firm outer shell of his dignity, all marvellous enamel, her paramount law. More strangely even than anything else, her husband seemed to speak now but to help her in this. “I know nothing but what you tell me.”
Then, after just a moment—and only after a moment, as she saw—it clicked for him what she meant; and it strangely gave her even more clarity that Charlotte, just like him, didn’t know anything either. The image became vivid in this moment, almost glaring, for a few seconds—the image of the two others together at Fawns, with Charlotte as one of them, moving forward without really knowing anything! The picture brightened at the same time with all its essential color—that of her father’s motives possibly matching hers. He was “deep,” as Amerigo put it, so that no hint of the still air would reach his daughter; just as she had earned that description by ensuring—and still planning to ensure—that her concern for his calm, or at least for the solid outer layer of his dignity, would be her main priority. Strangely enough, her husband now seemed to speak just to support her in this. “I know nothing but what you tell me.”
“Then I’ve told you all I intended. Find out the rest—!”
“Then I’ve shared everything I meant to. Discover the rest—!”
“Find it out—?” He waited.
“Find out—?” He waited.
She stood before him a moment—it took that time to go on. Depth upon depth of her situation, as she met his face, surged and sank within her; but with the effect somehow, once more, that they rather lifted her than let her drop. She had her feet somewhere, through it all—it was her companion, absolutely, who was at sea. And she kept her feet; she pressed them to what was beneath her. She went over to the bell beside the chimney and gave a ring that he could but take as a summons for her maid. It stopped everything for the present; it was an intimation to him to go and dress. But she had to insist. “Find out for yourself!”
She stood in front of him for a moment—it took her that long to move on. Layers of her situation rose and fell within her as she looked at his face; yet somehow, instead of dragging her down, it felt like they were lifting her up. She had her footing, while it was clearly her companion who felt lost. She held her ground, pressing her feet into what was beneath her. She walked over to the bell by the chimney and rang it, signaling him to send for her maid. It paused everything for now; it was a hint for him to go and get dressed. But she had to make herself clear. “Figure it out yourself!”
PART FIFTH
XXXV
XXXV
After the little party was again constituted at Fawns—which had taken, for completeness, some ten days—Maggie naturally felt herself still more possessed, in spirit, of everything that had last happened in London. There was a phrase that came back to her from old American years: she was having, by that idiom, the time of her life—she knew it by the perpetual throb of this sense of possession, which was almost too violent either to recognise or to hide. It was as if she had come out—that was her most general consciousness; out of a dark tunnel, a dense wood, or even simply a smoky room, and had thereby, at least, for going on, the advantage of air in her lungs. It was as if she were somehow at last gathering in the fruits of patience; she had either been really more patient than she had known at the time, or had been so for longer: the change brought about by itself as great a difference of view as the shift of an inch in the position of a telescope. It was her telescope in fact that had gained in range—just as her danger lay in her exposing herself to the observation by the more charmed, and therefore the more reckless, use of this optical resource. Not under any provocation to produce it in public was her unremitted rule; but the difficulties of duplicity had not shrunk, while the need of it had doubled. Humbugging, which she had so practised with her father, had been a comparatively simple matter on the basis of mere doubt; but the ground to be covered was now greatly larger, and she felt not unlike some young woman of the theatre who, engaged for a minor part in the play and having mastered her cues with anxious effort, should find herself suddenly promoted to leading lady and expected to appear in every act of the five. She had made much to her husband, that last night, of her “knowing”; but it was exactly this quantity she now knew that, from the moment she could only dissimulate it, added to her responsibility and made of the latter all a mere question of having something precious and precarious in charge. There was no one to help her with it—not even Fanny Assingham now; this good friend’s presence having become, inevitably, with that climax of their last interview in Portland Place, a severely simplified function. She had her use, oh yes, a thousand times; but it could only consist henceforth in her quite conspicuously touching at no point whatever—assuredly, at least with Maggie—the matter they had discussed. She was there, inordinately, as a value, but as a value only for the clear negation of everything. She was their general sign, precisely, of unimpaired beatitude—and she was to live up to that somewhat arduous character, poor thing, as she might. She might privately lapse from it, if she must, with Amerigo or with Charlotte—only not, of course, ever, so much as for the wink of an eye, with the master of the house. Such lapses would be her own affair, which Maggie at present could take no thought of. She treated her young friend meanwhile, it was to be said, to no betrayal of such wavering; so that from the moment of her alighting at the door with the Colonel everything went on between them at concert pitch. What had she done, that last evening in Maggie’s room, but bring the husband and wife more together than, as would seem, they had ever been? Therefore what indiscretion should she not show by attempting to go behind the grand appearance of her success?—which would be to court a doubt of her beneficent work. She knew accordingly nothing but harmony and diffused, restlessly, nothing but peace—an extravagant, expressive, aggressive peace, not incongruous, after all, with the solid calm of the place; a kind of helmetted, trident-shaking pax Britannica.
After the little party was back at Fawns—which took about ten days for everything to settle—Maggie naturally felt even more in tune with everything that had recently happened in London. A phrase from her earlier American years came back to her: she was having, in that sense, the time of her life—she could tell by the constant pulse of this feeling of possession, which was almost too intense to recognize or hide. It was like she had emerged—that was her overall feeling; out of a dark tunnel, a thick forest, or even just a smoky room, and with it, at least for now, she had the benefit of fresh air in her lungs. It was as if she was finally reaping the rewards of her patience; she had either been more patient than she realized at the time or had been so for a longer period: the change had created as significant a shift in perspective as a slight adjustment in the position of a telescope. In fact, her telescope had gained in range—just as her risk lay in exposing herself to the scrutiny of a more captivated, and therefore more reckless, use of this optical tool. Not under any pressure to showcase it publicly was her unyielding rule; however, the challenges of deception had not diminished, while the need for it had increased. The dishonesty she had practiced with her father had been a relatively straightforward matter based on mere doubt; but the territory to navigate now was much larger, and she felt somewhat like a young actress who, initially cast for a minor role and having nervously learned her lines, suddenly found herself promoted to leading lady and required to appear in every act of the play. She had said a lot to her husband that last night about her “knowledge”; but it was exactly this amount of knowledge that, from the moment she could only pretend to hide it, added to her responsibilities and turned them all into a question of managing something precious yet precarious. There was no one to help her with it—not even Fanny Assingham now; her good friend's presence had become, inevitably, with the climax of their last conversation in Portland Place, a rather simplified role. She had her uses, oh yes, a thousand times; but it could only consist, from now on, in her clearly avoiding any discussion of—at least, with Maggie—the matters they had talked about. She was there, immensely, as a value, but as a value only for the clear negation of everything. She was their universal sign, precisely, of unspoiled happiness—and she was to maintain that somewhat challenging role, poor thing, as best she could. She might privately step back from it, if necessary, with Amerigo or Charlotte—just not, of course, even for the blink of an eye, with the master of the house. Such lapses would be her own business, which Maggie couldn't afford to think about right now. Meanwhile, she treated her young friend with no sign of any uncertainty; so from the moment she arrived at the door with the Colonel, everything between them was perfectly in sync. What had she done that last evening in Maggie's room, except bring the husband and wife closer than they seemed to have ever been? So what indiscretion would she not reveal by trying to go behind the shiny facade of her success?—which would risk undermining her positive contribution. Thus, she knew nothing but harmony and, restlessly, exuded nothing but peace—an extravagant, expressive, aggressive peace, which, after all, was not out of place with the solid calm of the setting; a sort of helmeted, trident-waving British peace.
The peace, it must be added, had become, as the days elapsed, a peace quite generally animated and peopled—thanks to that fact of the presence of “company” in which Maggie’s ability to preserve an appearance had learned, from so far back, to find its best resource. It was not inconspicuous, it was in fact striking, that this resource, just now, seemed to meet in the highest degree every one’s need: quite as if every one were, by the multiplication of human objects in the scene, by the creation, by the confusion, of fictive issues, hopeful of escaping somebody else’s notice. It had reached the point, in truth, that the collective bosom might have been taken to heave with the knowledge of the descent upon adjacent shores, for a short period, of Mrs. Rance and the Lutches, still united, and still so divided, for conquest: the sense of the party showed at least, oddly enough, as favourable to the fancy of the quaint turn that some near “week-end” might derive from their reappearance. This measured for Maggie the ground they had all travelled together since that unforgotten afternoon of the none so distant year, that determinant September Sunday when, sitting with her father in the park, as in commemoration of the climax both of their old order and of their old danger, she had proposed to him that they should “call in” Charlotte,—call her in as a specialist might be summoned to an invalid’s chair. Wasn’t it a sign of something rather portentous, their being ready to be beholden, as for a diversion, to the once despised Kitty and Dotty? That had already had its application, in truth, to her invocation of the Castledeans and several other members, again, of the historic Matcham week, made before she left town, and made, always consistently, with an idea—since she was never henceforth to approach these people without an idea, and since that lurid element of their intercourse grew and grew for her with each occasion. The flame with which it burned afresh during these particular days, the way it held up the torch to anything, to everything, that MIGHT have occurred as the climax of revels springing from traditions so vivified—this by itself justified her private motive and reconsecrated her diplomacy. She had already produced by the aid of these people something of the effect she sought—that of being “good” for whatever her companions were good for, and of not asking either of them to give up anyone or anything for her sake. There was moreover, frankly, a sharpness of point in it that she enjoyed; it gave an accent to the truth she wished to illustrate—the truth that the surface of her recent life, thick-sown with the flower of earnest endeavour, with every form of the unruffled and the undoubting, suffered no symptom anywhere to peep out. It was as if, under her pressure, neither party could get rid of the complicity, as it might be figured, of the other; as if, in a word, she saw Amerigo and Charlotte committed, for fear of betrayals on their own side, to a kind of wan consistency on the subject of Lady Castledean’s “set,” and this latter group, by the same stroke, compelled to assist at attestations the extent and bearing of which they rather failed to grasp and which left them indeed, in spite of hereditary high spirits, a trifle bewildered and even a trifle scared.
The peace, it should be noted, had developed into a lively and populated peace over the days—thanks to the presence of “company,” which Maggie had learned to use as her best resource for maintaining appearances. It was quite noticeable, in fact, that this resource seemed to perfectly meet everyone’s needs right now: as if, by increasing the number of people in the scene and creating a swirl of fictional issues, everyone was hoping to go unnoticed by someone else. It had reached a point where the collective atmosphere almost felt charged with the knowledge of Mrs. Rance and the Lutches’ temporary arrival on nearby shores—still joined together, yet still at odds, in a quest for dominance. Oddly enough, the notion of their reappearance seemed favorable for the idea of a quirky “week-end.” This measured for Maggie the journey they had all taken together since that unforgettable afternoon not too long ago, that significant September Sunday when, sitting with her father in the park to mark the peak of both their old way of life and their past dangers, she had suggested they “call in” Charlotte—just like a specialist might be summoned for a patient. Wasn’t it a sign of something significant that they were now willing to accept, as a diversion, Kitty and Dotty, whom they had once despised? This had already been the case, in truth, regarding her invitation to the Castledeans and several other members of the historic Matcham week, which she made before leaving town, always with a consistent idea in mind—since she would never approach these people again without a purpose, and since that intense aspect of their interactions only grew for her with every encounter. The passion with which it revived during those particular days, the way it illuminated anything that could have been the peak of celebrations arising from so lively a tradition—this in itself validated her private motivation and renewed her diplomacy. She had already achieved, with these people’s help, an effect of being “good” for whatever her companions were good for, without asking either of them to give up anyone or anything for her sake. Additionally, there was a certain sharpness about it that she enjoyed; it highlighted the truth she wanted to convey—the truth that the surface of her recent life, thick with the flowers of sincere effort and calm certainty, allowed no hint of struggle to emerge. It was as if, under her influence, neither side could escape the sense of obligation they felt towards each other; as if, to put it simply, she saw Amerigo and Charlotte bound to a wan consistency regarding Lady Castledean’s “set,” and this latter group, in turn, was compelled to witness affirmations whose scope and significance they barely understood, leaving them, despite their usual buoyancy, a little confused and even a bit frightened.
They made, none the less, at Fawns, for number, for movement, for sound—they played their parts during a crisis that must have hovered for them, in the long passages of the old house, after the fashion of the established ghost, felt, through the dark hours as a constant possibility, rather than have menaced them in the form of a daylight bore, one of the perceived outsiders who are liable to be met in the drawing-room or to be sat next to at dinner. If the Princess, moreover, had failed of her occult use for so much of the machinery of diversion, she would still have had a sense not other than sympathetic for the advantage now extracted from it by Fanny Assingham’s bruised philosophy. This good friend’s relation to it was actually the revanche, she sufficiently indicated, of her obscured lustre at Matcham, where she had known her way about so much less than most of the others. She knew it at Fawns, through the pathless wild of the right tone, positively better than any one, Maggie could note for her; and her revenge had the magnanimity of a brave pointing out of it to every one else, a wonderful irresistible, conscious, almost compassionate patronage. Here was a house, she triumphantly caused it to be noted, in which she so bristled with values that some of them might serve, by her amused willingness to share, for such of the temporarily vague, among her fellow-guests, such of the dimly disconcerted, as had lost the key to their own. It may have been partly through the effect of this especial strain of community with her old friend that Maggie found herself, one evening, moved to take up again their dropped directness of reference. They had remained downstairs together late; the other women of the party had filed, singly or in couples, up the “grand” staircase on which, from the equally grand hall, these retreats and advances could always be pleasantly observed; the men had apparently taken their way to the smoking-room; while the Princess, in possession thus of a rare reach of view, had lingered as if to enjoy it. Then she saw that Mrs. Assingham was remaining a little—and as for the appreciation of her enjoyment; upon which they stood looking at each other across the cleared prospect until the elder woman, only vaguely expressive and tentative now, came nearer. It was like the act of asking if there were anything she could yet do, and that question was answered by her immediately feeling, on this closer view, as she had felt when presenting herself in Portland Place after Maggie’s last sharp summons. Their understanding was taken up by these new snatched moments where that occasion had left it.
They still made, at Fawns, for numbers, for movement, for sound—they played their parts during a crisis that must have loomed for them in the long halls of the old house, like an established ghost, felt through the dark hours as a constant possibility, rather than threatening them like a boring outsider who might be encountered in the living room or seated next to at dinner. If the Princess had failed to make use of so much of the entertainment, she still had a sympathetic understanding of the advantage now taken from it by Fanny Assingham’s bruised outlook. This good friend's relationship to it was actually a comeback, as she indicated, for her dimmed brilliance at Matcham, where she had known her way around much less than most of the others. She knew it at Fawns, through the untrodden wilderness of the right tone, better than anyone else, Maggie could note for her; and her revenge had the generosity of a brave gesture pointing it out to everyone else, a wonderful, irresistible, conscious, almost compassionate support. Here was a house, she triumphantly pointed out, where she was filled with values that some of them might benefit from, due to her amused willingness to share, for those temporarily lost among her fellow guests, those who were dimly unsettled, as they had lost the key to their own. It may have been partly due to this particular sense of community with her old friend that Maggie found herself, one evening, moved to pick up their previously dropped directness of reference again. They had stayed downstairs together late; the other women in the party had gone up the “grand” staircase, which, from the equally grand hall, allowed for a pleasant observation of both retreats and advances; the men had apparently gone to the smoking-room; while the Princess, having a rare view, lingered to enjoy it. Then she saw that Mrs. Assingham was lingering a little—and as for appreciating her enjoyment; upon which they stood looking at each other across the cleared space until the older woman, only vaguely expressive and tentative now, came closer. It was like asking if there was anything she could still do, and that question was answered by her immediately feeling, with this closer view, as she had felt when appearing in Portland Place after Maggie’s last sharp summons. Their understanding was picked up by these new, fleeting moments where that occasion had left it.
“He has never told her that I know. Of that I’m at last satisfied.” And then as Mrs. Assingham opened wide eyes: “I’ve been in the dark since we came down, not understanding what he has been doing or intending—not making out what can have passed between them. But within a day or two I’ve begun to suspect, and this evening, for reasons—oh, too many to tell you!—I’ve been sure, since it explains. NOTHING has passed between them—that’s what has happened. It explains,” the Princess repeated with energy; “it explains, it explains!” She spoke in a manner that her auditor was afterwards to describe to the Colonel, oddly enough, as that of the quietest excitement; she had turned back to the chimney-place, where, in honour of a damp day and a chill night, the piled logs had turned to flame and sunk to embers; and the evident intensity of her vision for the fact she imparted made Fanny Assingham wait upon her words. It explained, this striking fact, more indeed than her companion, though conscious of fairly gaping with good-will, could swallow at once. The Princess, however, as for indulgence and confidence, quickly filled up the measure. “He hasn’t let her know that I know—and, clearly, doesn’t mean to. He has made up his mind; he’ll say nothing about it. Therefore, as she’s quite unable to arrive at the knowledge by herself, she has no idea how much I’m really in possession. She believes,” said Maggie, “and, so far as her own conviction goes, she knows, that I’m not in possession of anything. And that, somehow, for my own help seems to me immense.”
“He's never told her that I know. I’m finally okay with that.” And then as Mrs. Assingham looked surprised: “I’ve been confused since we got here, not understanding what he’s been doing or what he’s planning—not figuring out what might have happened between them. But in the last day or two, I’ve started to suspect, and this evening, for reasons—oh, too many to explain!—I’ve been certain, since it all makes sense. NOTHING has happened between them—that’s what’s really going on. It makes sense,” the Princess said emphatically; “it makes sense, it makes sense!” She spoke in a way that her listener would later describe to the Colonel, oddly enough, as calm excitement; she had turned back to the fireplace, where, in honor of a damp day and a chilly night, the stacked logs had caught fire and turned to embers; and the obvious strength of her focus on the fact she was sharing made Fanny Assingham hang on her words. This significant fact explained more, in fact, than her companion, aware of being fairly amazed with goodwill, could take in at once. The Princess, however, quickly filled in the gap for indulgence and confidence. “He hasn’t let her know that I know—and clearly, he doesn’t plan to. He’s made up his mind; he won’t say anything about it. So, since she’s completely unable to find out on her own, she has no clue how much I really know. She believes,” said Maggie, “and as far as her own belief goes, she knows that I’m not aware of anything. And that, in a way, seems huge for my sake.”
“Immense, my dear!” Mrs. Assingham applausively murmured, though not quite, even as yet, seeing all the way. “He’s keeping quiet then on purpose?”
“Wow, my dear!” Mrs. Assingham said with approval, although she still didn’t fully understand everything. “So he’s staying silent on purpose?”
“On purpose.” Maggie’s lighted eyes, at least, looked further than they had ever looked. “He’ll NEVER tell her now.”
“On purpose.” Maggie’s bright eyes seemed to see further than they ever had. “He’ll NEVER tell her now.”
Fanny wondered; she cast about her; most of all she admired her little friend, in whom this announcement was evidently animated by an heroic lucidity. She stood there, in her full uniform, like some small erect commander of a siege, an anxious captain who has suddenly got news, replete with importance for him, of agitation, of division within the place. This importance breathed upon her comrade. “So you’re all right?”
Fanny wondered; she looked around her; most of all she admired her little friend, who clearly approached this announcement with heroic clarity. She stood there, in her full uniform, like a small, upright commander of a siege, an anxious captain who had just received important news about unrest and division in the area. This significance affected her friend. “So you’re okay?”
“Oh, ALL right’s a good deal to say. But I seem at least to see, as I haven’t before, where I am with it.”
“Oh, 'ALL right' is a lot to say. But I think I finally see, like I haven't before, where I stand with it.”
Fanny bountifully brooded; there was a point left vague. “And you have it from him?—your husband himself has told you?”
Fanny thought deeply; there was one detail that remained unclear. “And you got it from him?—your husband has told you himself?”
“‘Told’ me—?”
"‘Told’ me—?"
“Why, what you speak of. It isn’t of an assurance received from him then that you do speak?”
"Why, what are you talking about? You're not referring to some assurance you got from him, are you?"
At which Maggie had continued to stare. “Dear me, no. Do you suppose I’ve asked him for an assurance?”
At which Maggie kept staring. “Oh no, do you really think I’ve asked him for some kind of guarantee?”
“Ah, you haven’t?” Her companion smiled. “That’s what I supposed you MIGHT mean. Then, darling, what HAVE you—?”
“Ah, you haven’t?” her friend smiled. “That’s what I thought you might mean. So, darling, what have you—?”
“Asked him for? I’ve asked him for nothing.”
“Asked him for? I haven’t asked him for anything.”
But this, in turn, made Fanny stare. “Then nothing, that evening of the Embassy dinner, passed between you?”
But this, in turn, made Fanny stare. “So, nothing happened between you that evening at the Embassy dinner?”
“On the contrary, everything passed.”
“On the contrary, everything went smoothly.”
“Everything—?”
“Everything—?”
“Everything. I told him what I knew—and I told him how I knew it.”
"Everything. I told him what I knew—and how I found it out."
Mrs. Assingham waited. “And that was all?”
Mrs. Assingham waited. “Is that it?”
“Wasn’t it quite enough?”
"Wasn't that enough?"
“Oh, love,” she bridled, “that’s for you to have judged!”
“Oh, love,” she retorted, “that’s for you to decide!”
“Then I HAVE judged,” said Maggie—“I did judge. I made sure he understood—then I let him alone.”
“Then I HAVE judged,” said Maggie—“I did judge. I made sure he understood—then I left him alone.”
Mrs. Assingham wondered. “But he didn’t explain—?”
Mrs. Assingham wondered. “But he didn’t explain—?”
“Explain? Thank God, no!” Maggie threw back her head as with horror at the thought, then the next moment added: “And I didn’t, either.”
“Explain? Thank God, no!” Maggie threw her head back in horror at the thought, then added a moment later: “And I didn’t, either.”
The decency of pride in it shed a cold little light—yet as from heights at the base of which her companion rather panted. “But if he neither denies nor confesses—?”
The decency of pride in it cast a cold little light—yet as if from heights at the base of which her companion was rather out of breath. “But if he neither denies nor admits—?”
“He does what’s a thousand times better—he lets it alone. He does,” Maggie went on, “as he would do; as I see now that I was sure he would. He lets me alone.”
“He does what’s a thousand times better—he leaves it alone. He does,” Maggie continued, “just like he would; as I realize now that I was sure he would. He leaves me alone.”
Fanny Assingham turned it over. “Then how do you know so where, as you say, you ‘are’?”
Fanny Assingham thought about it. “So how do you know exactly where you ‘are,’ as you put it?”
“Why, just BY that. I put him in possession of the difference; the difference made, about me, by the fact that I hadn’t been, after all—though with a wonderful chance, I admitted, helping me—too stupid to have arrived at knowledge. He had to see that I’m changed for him—quite changed from the idea of me that he had so long been going on with. It became a question then of his really taking in the change—and what I now see is that he is doing so.”
“Why, just because of that. I let him know what was different; the difference caused by the fact that I hadn’t been, after all—though I admit I had a wonderful chance that helped me—too foolish to gain understanding. He had to realize that I’ve changed for him—completely changed from the idea of me that he had been holding onto for so long. It then became a matter of him truly acknowledging the change—and what I now see is that he is doing just that.”
Fanny followed as she could. “Which he shows by letting you, as you say, alone?”
Fanny kept up as best as she could. “Which he shows by leaving you, as you say, alone?”
Maggie looked at her a minute. “And by letting her.”
Maggie stared at her for a moment. “And by allowing her.”
Mrs. Assingham did what she might to embrace it—checked a little, however, by a thought that was the nearest approach she could have, in this almost too large air, to an inspiration. “Ah, but does Charlotte let HIM?”
Mrs. Assingham did what she could to accept it—though she hesitated a bit, held back by a thought that was as close as she could get to an insight in this almost overwhelming atmosphere. “Oh, but does Charlotte allow HIM?”
“Oh, that’s another affair—with which I’ve practically nothing to do. I dare say, however, she doesn’t.” And the Princess had a more distant gaze for the image evoked by the question. “I don’t in fact well see how she CAN. But the point for me is that he understands.”
“Oh, that’s a whole different situation that I’m hardly involved in. I can’t say for sure, but I doubt she does.” The Princess looked off into the distance as the question brought up a certain image. “I really don’t see how she could. But the important thing for me is that he gets it.”
“Yes,” Fanny Assingham cooed, “understands—?”
“Yes,” Fanny Assingham cooed, “gets—?”
“Well, what I want. I want a happiness without a hole in it big enough for you to poke in your finger.”
“Well, what I want. I want a happiness without a hole in it big enough for you to poke your finger through.”
“A brilliant, perfect surface—to begin with at least. I see.”
“A brilliant, flawless surface—to start with, at least. I get it.”
“The golden bowl—as it WAS to have been.” And Maggie dwelt musingly on this obscured figure. “The bowl with all our happiness in it. The bowl without the crack.”
“The golden bowl—as it was meant to be.” And Maggie thought deeply about this shadowy image. “The bowl with all our happiness in it. The bowl without the crack.”
For Mrs. Assingham too the image had its force, and the precious object shone before her again, reconstituted, plausible, presentable. But wasn’t there still a piece missing? “Yet if he lets you alone and you only let him—?”
For Mrs. Assingham, the image had its impact, and the valuable object appeared before her once more, rebuilt, believable, and ready to be shown. But wasn’t there still a piece missing? “Yet if he leaves you alone and you just let him—?”
“Mayn’t our doing so, you mean, be noticed?—mayn’t it give us away? Well, we hope not—we try not—we take such care. We alone know what’s between us—we and you; and haven’t you precisely been struck, since you’ve been here,” Maggie asked, “with our making so good a show?”
"Could our actions be noticed, and could that expose us? Well, we hope not—we try not to let it happen—we’re really careful. We’re the only ones who know what’s going on between us—you and us; and haven’t you noticed, since you’ve been here," Maggie asked, "how well we’re putting on a show?”
Her friend hesitated. “To your father?”
Her friend paused. “To your dad?”
But it made her hesitate too; she wouldn’t speak of her father directly. “To everyone. To her—now that you understand.”
But it made her pause as well; she wouldn’t talk about her father directly. “To everyone. To her—now that you get it.”
It held poor Fanny again in wonder. “To Charlotte—yes: if there’s so much beneath it, for you, and if it’s all such a plan. That makes it hang together it makes YOU hang together.” She fairly exhaled her admiration. “You’re like nobody else—you’re extraordinary.”
It left poor Fanny in awe once more. “To Charlotte—yes: if there’s so much underneath it all for you, and if it’s all part of such a plan. That’s what makes it all connect, and it makes YOU connect.” She practically breathed out her admiration. “You’re unlike anyone else—you’re amazing.”
Maggie met it with appreciation, but with a reserve. “No, I’m not extraordinary—but I AM, for every one, quiet.”
Maggie responded with gratitude, but she held back. “No, I’m not special—but I AM, for everyone, quiet.”
“Well, that’s just what is extraordinary. ‘Quiet’ is more than I am, and you leave me far behind.” With which, again, for an instant, Mrs. Assingham frankly brooded. “‘Now that I understand,’ you say—but there’s one thing I don’t understand.” And the next minute, while her companion waited, she had mentioned it. “How can Charlotte, after all, not have pressed him, not have attacked him about it? How can she not have asked him—asked him on his honour, I mean—if you know?”
“Well, that’s exactly what’s extraordinary. ‘Quiet’ is more than I am, and you leave me far behind.” With that, Mrs. Assingham once again paused to think. “‘Now that I understand,’ you say—but there’s one thing I don’t get.” Moments later, while her companion waited, she brought it up. “How is it possible that Charlotte hasn’t confronted him, hasn’t questioned him about it? How hasn’t she asked him—asked him to tell the truth, I mean—if you know?”
“How can she ‘not’? Why, of course,” said the Princess limpidly, “she MUST!”
“How can she ‘not’? Of course,” said the Princess clearly, “she MUST!”
“Well then—?”
“Well then—?”
“Well then, you think, he must have told her? Why, exactly what I mean,” said Maggie, “is that he will have done nothing of the sort; will, as I say, have maintained the contrary.”
“Well then, you think he must have told her? What I mean,” said Maggie, “is that he will have done nothing of the sort; will, as I said, have maintained the opposite.”
Fanny Assingham weighed it. “Under her direct appeal for the truth?”
Fanny Assingham considered it. “In response to her direct request for the truth?”
“Under her direct appeal for the truth.”
“Under her direct request for the truth.”
“Her appeal to his honour?”
"Her appeal to his integrity?"
“Her appeal to his honour. That’s my point.”
“Her appeal to his honor. That’s my point.”
Fanny Assingham braved it. “For the truth as from him to her?”
Fanny Assingham faced it. “For the truth from him to her?”
“From him to any one.”
“From him to anyone.”
Mrs. Assingham’s face lighted. “He’ll simply, he’ll insistently have lied?”
Mrs. Assingham's face lit up. “He'll definitely, he'll certainly have lied?”
Maggie brought it out roundly. “He’ll simply, he’ll insistently have lied.”
Maggie stated clearly, “He’ll definitely, he’ll absolutely have lied.”
It held again her companion, who next, however, with a single movement, throwing herself on her neck, overflowed. “Oh, if you knew how you help me!”
It embraced her companion again, who then, with a swift motion, threw herself around her neck and expressed her feelings. “Oh, if you only knew how much you help me!”
Maggie had liked her to understand, so far as this was possible; but had not been slow to see afterwards how the possibility was limited, when one came to think, by mysteries she was not to sound. This inability in her was indeed not remarkable, inasmuch as the Princess herself, as we have seen, was only now in a position to boast of touching bottom. Maggie lived, inwardly, in a consciousness that she could but partly open even to so good a friend, and her own visitation of the fuller expanse of which was, for that matter, still going on. They had been duskier still, however, these recesses of her imagination—that, no doubt, was what might at present be said for them. She had looked into them, on the eve of her leaving town, almost without penetration: she had made out in those hours, and also, of a truth, during the days which immediately followed, little more than the strangeness of a relation having for its chief mark—whether to be prolonged or not—the absence of any “intimate” result of the crisis she had invited her husband to recognise. They had dealt with this crisis again, face to face, very briefly, the morning after the scene in her room—but with the odd consequence of her having appeared merely to leave it on his hands. He had received it from her as he might have received a bunch of keys or a list of commissions—attentive to her instructions about them, but only putting them, for the time, very carefully and safely, into his pocket. The instructions had seemed, from day to day, to make so little difference for his behaviour—that is for his speech or his silence; to produce, as yet, so little of the fruit of action. He had taken from her, on the spot, in a word, before going to dress for dinner, all she then had to give—after which, on the morrow, he had asked her for more, a good deal as if she might have renewed her supply during the night; but he had had at his command for this latter purpose an air of extraordinary detachment and discretion, an air amounting really to an appeal which, if she could have brought herself to describe it vulgarly, she would have described as cool, just as he himself would have described it in any one else as “cheeky”; a suggestion that she should trust him on the particular ground since she didn’t on the general. Neither his speech nor his silence struck her as signifying more, or less, under this pressure, than they had seemed to signify for weeks past; yet if her sense hadn’t been absolutely closed to the possibility in him of any thought of wounding her, she might have taken his undisturbed manner, the perfection of his appearance of having recovered himself, for one of those intentions of high impertinence by the aid of which great people, les grands seigneurs, persons of her husband’s class and type, always know how to re-establish a violated order.
Maggie had wanted her to understand, as much as that was possible; but she quickly realized how limited that possibility was, considering the mysteries she wasn't meant to explore. This lack of understanding in her wasn’t surprising, since, as we’ve seen, the Princess was only now in a position to claim she had reached the depths. Maggie lived with the awareness that she could only partially open up even to such a good friend, and her own exploration of the broader landscape of her thoughts was still ongoing. These hidden areas of her imagination had indeed been even darker; that’s one thing that could be said about them now. She had peeked into them just before she left town, almost without really seeing anything: during those moments, and also, in truth, during the days that followed, she understood little beyond the strangeness of a relationship marked primarily by whether it would continue or not—the absence of any “intimate” outcome from the crisis she had urged her husband to acknowledge. They had faced this crisis again, very briefly, the morning after the incident in her room—but the odd result was that it seemed she merely left it for him to handle. He took it from her as he might have accepted a set of keys or a list of tasks—paying attention to her directions about them, but just temporarily placing them carefully and safely in his pocket. The instructions appeared to affect his behavior so little from day to day—whether in his words or silence—that they produced very little actionable outcome so far. Right then, before dressing for dinner, he had taken everything she had to offer—after which, the next day, he asked her for more, almost as if he expected she could have replenished her supply overnight; but he had approached this with an air of extraordinary detachment and discretion, an attitude that really felt like a request that, if she had been able to put it plainly, she would have described as cool, just as he would have called it “cheeky” in someone else; it was a suggestion that she should trust him in this specific situation since she didn’t in the broader context. Neither his words nor his silence seemed to indicate anything more or less under this pressure than they had for the past few weeks; yet if she hadn't completely shut herself off from the thought that he could wound her, she might have interpreted his calm demeanor, the perfection of his apparent self-recovery, as one of those acts of great insolence that powerful people, those grandes seigneurs, like her husband’s class, always know how to use to restore a disrupted order.
It was her one purely good fortune that she could feel thus sure impertinence—to HER at any rate—was not among the arts on which he proposed to throw himself; for though he had, in so almost mystifying a manner, replied to nothing, denied nothing, explained nothing, apologised for nothing, he had somehow conveyed to her that this was not because of any determination to treat her case as not “worth” it. There had been consideration, on both occasions, in the way he had listened to her—even though at the same time there had been extreme reserve; a reserve indeed, it was also to be remembered, qualified by the fact that, on their second and shorter interview, in Portland Place, and quite at the end of this passage, she had imagined him positively proposing to her a temporary accommodation. It had been but the matter of something in the depths of the eyes he finally fixed upon her, and she had found in it, the more she kept it before her, the tacitly-offered sketch of a working arrangement. “Leave me my reserve; don’t question it—it’s all I have, just now, don’t you see? so that, if you’ll make me the concession of letting me alone with it for as long a time as I require, I promise you something or other, grown under cover of it, even though I don’t yet quite make out what, as a return for your patience.” She had turned away from him with some such unspoken words as that in her ear, and indeed she had to represent to herself that she had spiritually heard them, had to listen to them still again, to explain her particular patience in face of his particular failure. He hadn’t so much as pretended to meet for an instant the question raised by her of her accepted ignorance of the point in time, the period before their own marriage, from which his intimacy with Charlotte dated. As an ignorance in which he and Charlotte had been personally interested—and to the pitch of consummately protecting, for years, each other’s interest—as a condition so imposed upon her the fact of its having ceased might have made it, on the spot, the first article of his defence. He had vouchsafed it, however, nothing better than his longest stare of postponed consideration. That tribute he had coldly paid it, and Maggie might herself have been stupefied, truly, had she not had something to hold on by, at her own present ability, even provisional, to make terms with a chapter of history into which she could but a week before not have dipped without a mortal chill. At the rate at which she was living she was getting used hour by hour to these extensions of view; and when she asked herself, at Fawns, to what single observation of her own, in London, the Prince had had an affirmation to oppose, she but just failed to focus the small strained wife of the moments in question as some panting dancer of a difficult step who had capered, before the footlights of an empty theatre, to a spectator lounging in a box.
It was her one pure stroke of luck that she could feel pretty certain that impertinence—at least towards her—was not something he planned to indulge in; because even though he had mystifyingly avoided replying to anything, denying anything, explaining anything, or apologizing for anything, he somehow got across to her that this wasn’t due to a feeling that her situation wasn’t “worth” his time. There had been thoughtfulness in how he listened to her on both occasions, even while he maintained a strong reserve; and it was worth noting that in their second, shorter meeting in Portland Place, toward the end of this conversation, she had even imagined he was proposing a temporary compromise. It was just something in the depths of his eyes when he finally looked at her that suggested, the more she focused on it, a silently offered outline of an agreement. “Respect my privacy; don’t question it—it’s all I have right now, don’t you see? So if you can grant me the concession of leaving me with it for as long as I need, I promise you something will come of it, even if I don’t quite know what that is yet, in return for your patience.” She turned away with some unspoken words like that in her mind, and she had to convince herself she had spiritually heard them; she needed to replay them to justify her particular patience in light of his unique failure. He hadn’t even pretended to address her question about her accepted ignorance regarding the time before their marriage when his relationship with Charlotte began. As an ignorance that both he and Charlotte had been personally invested in—and had gone to great lengths to protect each other’s interests for years—her newfound awareness of its conclusion might have been a critical point in his defense. However, he had given it nothing more than his longest stare of delayed consideration. That was all he had coldly offered, and Maggie would have truly been stunned if she hadn’t had something to grasp onto with her newfound ability, even if only temporarily, to make sense of a part of history she couldn’t have faced just a week ago without feeling completely unsettled. As she continued to navigate her life, she was getting accustomed, hour by hour, to this broadening perspective; and when she asked herself at Fawns what single observation of her own in London had prompted a response from the Prince, she barely managed to picture the slightly strained wife of those moments as a breathless dancer attempting a tricky step, performing in front of an empty theater for a lone spectator lounging in a box.
Her best comprehension of Amerigo’s success in not committing himself was in her recall, meanwhile, of the inquiries he had made of her on their only return to the subject, and which he had in fact explicitly provoked their return in order to make. He had had it over with her again, the so distinctly remarkable incident of her interview at home with the little Bloomsbury shopman. This anecdote, for him, had, not altogether surprisingly, required some straighter telling, and the Prince’s attitude in presence of it had represented once more his nearest approach to a cross-examination. The difficulty in respect to the little man had been for the question of his motive—his motive in writing, first, in the spirit of retraction, to a lady with whom he had made a most advantageous bargain, and in then coming to see her so that his apology should be personal. Maggie had felt her explanation weak; but there were the facts, and she could give no other. Left alone, after the transaction, with the knowledge that his visitor designed the object bought of him as a birthday-gift to her father—for Maggie confessed freely to having chattered to him almost as to a friend—the vendor of the golden bowl had acted on a scruple rare enough in vendors of any class, and almost unprecedented in the thrifty children of Israel. He hadn’t liked what he had done, and what he had above all made such a “good thing” of having done; at the thought of his purchaser’s good faith and charming presence, opposed to that flaw in her acquestion which would make it, verily, as an offering to a loved parent, a thing of sinister meaning and evil effect, he had known conscientious, he had known superstitious visitings, had given way to a whim all the more remarkable to his own commercial mind, no doubt, from its never having troubled him in other connexions. She had recognised the oddity of her adventure and left it to show for what it was. She had not been unconscious, on the other hand, that if it hadn’t touched Amerigo so nearly he would have found in it matter for some amused reflection. He had uttered an extraordinary sound, something between a laugh and a howl, on her saying, as she had made a point of doing: “Oh, most certainly, he TOLD me his reason was because he ‘liked’ me”—though she remained in doubt of whether that inarticulate comment had been provoked most by the familiarities she had offered or by those that, so pictured, she had had to endure. That the partner of her bargain had yearned to see her again, that he had plainly jumped at a pretext for it, this also she had frankly expressed herself to the Prince as having, in no snubbing, no scandalised, but rather in a positively appreciative and indebted spirit, not delayed to make out. He had wished, ever so seriously, to return her a part of her money, and she had wholly declined to receive it; and then he had uttered his hope that she had not, at all events, already devoted the crystal cup to the beautiful purpose she had, so kindly and so fortunately, named to him. It wasn’t a thing for a present to a person she was fond of, for she wouldn’t wish to give a present that would bring ill luck. That had come to him—so that he couldn’t rest, and he should feel better now that he had told her. His having led her to act in ignorance was what he should have been ashamed of; and, if she would pardon, gracious lady as she was, all the liberties he had taken, she might make of the bowl any use in life but that one.
Her best understanding of Amerigo’s ability to avoid commitment came from remembering the questions he had asked her when they briefly returned to the topic, which he had actually prompted to bring up again. He had revisited the distinctly noteworthy incident of her meeting at home with the little shopkeeper from Bloomsbury. This story, unsurprisingly for him, needed a clearer retelling, and the Prince's attitude during it represented his closest approach to a cross-examination. The issue regarding the little man was about his motive—his motive for writing, first, in a retraction spirit, to a lady with whom he had struck a very favorable deal, and then visiting her so that his apology would be personal. Maggie felt her explanation was weak; however, the facts were the facts, and she couldn’t provide another. Left alone after the exchange, knowing that his visitor intended the object she bought as a birthday gift for her father—since Maggie openly admitted to having chatted with him almost like a friend—the vendor of the golden bowl acted on a rare scruple among vendors of any type, and almost unprecedented among the thrifty descendants of Israel. He hadn’t liked what he had done, especially since he had made such a “good thing” of it; thinking about his buyer’s good intentions and pleasant presence, contrasted with a flaw in her acquisition that would make it, indeed, as a gift to a beloved parent, something sinister and harmful, he had experienced a conscientious, almost superstitious concern, giving in to a whim that was all the more striking to his practical mind simply because it had never bothered him in other situations. She recognized the strangeness of her experience and chose to let it stand as it was. She was not oblivious, however, to the fact that if it hadn’t affected Amerigo so deeply, he would have found it amusing. He had made a strange sound, something between a laugh and a howl, when she insisted on mentioning: “Oh, most definitely, he TOLD me his reason was that he ‘liked’ me”—even though she remained uncertain whether that vague comment stemmed more from the comforts she had offered or from those that, as depicted, she had had to endure. The partner of her deal had longed to see her again, and it was clear he had eagerly seized a reason to do so; this she had frankly communicated to the Prince, not out of any annoyance or shock, but rather in a genuinely appreciative and grateful way. He had seriously wanted to return part of her money, and she had completely refused to accept it; then he expressed his hope that she hadn’t yet dedicated the crystal cup to the beautiful purpose she had, so kindly and luckily, mentioned to him. It wasn’t something to gift to someone she cared about, as she wouldn’t want to give a present that would bring bad luck. That thought had troubled him—so much so that he couldn’t rest, and he felt better now that he had shared it with her. He should have been ashamed of leading her to act in ignorance; and if she would forgive him, being the gracious lady she was, for all the liberties he had taken, she could use the bowl for any purpose in life except that one.
It was after this that the most extraordinary incident of all, of course, had occurred—his pointing to the two photographs with the remark that those were persons he knew, and that, more wonderful still, he had made acquaintance with them, years before, precisely over the same article. The lady, on that occasion, had taken up the fancy of presenting it to the gentleman, and the gentleman, guessing and dodging ever so cleverly, had declared that he wouldn’t for the world receive an object under such suspicion. He himself, the little man had confessed, wouldn’t have minded—about THEM; but he had never forgotten either their talk or their faces, the impression altogether made by them, and, if she really wished to know, now, what had perhaps most moved him, it was the thought that she should ignorantly have gone in for a thing not good enough for other buyers. He had been immensely struck—that was another point—with this accident of their turning out, after so long, friends of hers too: they had disappeared, and this was the only light he had ever had upon them. He had flushed up, quite red, with his recognition, with all his responsibility—had declared that the connexion must have had, mysteriously, something to do with the impulse he had obeyed. And Maggie had made, to her husband, while he again stood before her, no secret of the shock, for herself, so suddenly and violently received. She had done her best, even while taking it full in the face, not to give herself away; but she wouldn’t answer—no, she wouldn’t—for what she might, in her agitation, have made her informant think. He might think what he would—there had been three or four minutes during which, while she asked him question upon question, she had doubtless too little cared. And he had spoken, for his remembrance, as fully as she could have wished; he had spoken, oh, delightedly, for the “terms” on which his other visitors had appeared to be with each other, and in fact for that conviction of the nature and degree of their intimacy under which, in spite of precautions, they hadn’t been able to help leaving him. He had observed and judged and not forgotten; he had been sure they were great people, but no, ah no, distinctly, hadn’t “liked” them as he liked the Signora Principessa. Certainly—she had created no vagueness about that—he had been in possession of her name and address, for sending her both her cup and her account. But the others he had only, always, wondered about—he had been sure they would never come back. And as to the time of their visit, he could place it, positively, to a day—by reason of a transaction of importance, recorded in his books, that had occurred but a few hours later. He had left her, in short, definitely rejoicing that he had been able to make up to her for not having been quite “square” over their little business by rendering her, so unexpectedly, the service of this information. His joy, moreover, was—as much as Amerigo would!—a matter of the personal interest with which her kindness, gentleness, grace, her charming presence and easy humanity and familiarity, had inspired him. All of which, while, in thought, Maggie went over it again and again—oh, over any imputable rashness of her own immediate passion and pain, as well as over the rest of the straight little story she had, after all, to tell—might very conceivably make a long sum for the Prince to puzzle out.
It was after this that the most incredible thing had happened—he pointed to the two photographs and said that those were people he knew, and even more astonishing, he had met them years ago, right over the same item. On that occasion, the woman had decided to give it to the man, and the man, guessing and dodging quite cleverly, insisted that he wouldn’t accept something so suspicious. The little man admitted that he wouldn’t have minded—about THEM; but he had never forgotten their conversation or their faces, or the overall impression they left on him. And if she really wanted to know what moved him the most, it was the thought that she had unknowingly gone for something not good enough for other buyers. He was really struck—another point was that it was such a coincidence that, after all this time, they turned out to be her friends too: they had vanished, and this was the only insight he’d ever had about them. He had gone completely red with recognition and all his responsibility—he claimed that their connection must have had something to do, mysteriously, with the impulse he had followed. And Maggie had made no secret to her husband, who stood before her again, of the shock she had received, so suddenly and intensely. She tried hard, even while taking it all in at once, not to reveal too much; but she wouldn’t answer—no, she wouldn’t—for what she might, in her agitation, have made him think. He could think whatever he wanted—there were three or four minutes when, while she asked him one question after another, she probably cared too little. And he had recalled everything as fully as she could have wished; he had spoken, delightedly, about the “terms” on which his other guests had interacted with each other, and he had that conviction of the nature and degree of their closeness under which, despite precautions, they hadn’t been able to help leaving an impression on him. He had observed, judged, and remembered; he had been sure they were important people, but no, definitely, he hadn’t “liked” them as he liked the Signora Principessa. Certainly—she had made no ambiguity about that—he had her name and address to send her both her cup and her bill. But the others he always just wondered about—he had been sure they would never return. As for the timing of their visit, he could pinpoint it to a day—because of an important transaction recorded in his books that had happened just a few hours later. In short, he had left her, truly happy that he had made up for not being completely “fair” in their little deal by unexpectedly providing her with this information. His happiness, moreover, was—just as much as Amerigo would be!—a matter of personal interest thanks to her kindness, gentleness, grace, her charming presence, and easy humanity and familiarity. All of which, while Maggie repeatedly thought about it—oh, over any possible rashness of her own immediate emotion and pain, as well as the rest of the straightforward little story she had, after all, to tell—might very well amount to a long puzzle for the Prince to figure out.
There were meanwhile, after the Castledeans and those invited to meet them had gone, and before Mrs. Rance and the Lutches had come, three or four days during which she was to learn the full extent of her need not to be penetrable; and then it was indeed that she felt all the force, and threw herself upon all the help, of the truth she had confided, several nights earlier, to Fanny Assingham. She had known it in advance, had warned herself of it while the house was full: Charlotte had designs upon her of a nature best known to herself, and was only waiting for the better opportunity of their finding themselves less companioned. This consciousness had been exactly at the bottom of Maggie’s wish to multiply their spectators; there were moments for her, positively, moments of planned postponement, of evasion scarcely less disguised than studied, during which she turned over with anxiety the different ways—there being two or three possible ones—in which her young stepmother might, at need, seek to work upon her. Amerigo’s not having “told” her of his passage with his wife gave, for Maggie, altogether a new aspect to Charlotte’s consciousness and condition—an aspect with which, for apprehension, for wonder, and even, at moments, inconsequently enough, for something like compassion, the Princess had now to reckon. She asked herself—for she was capable of that—what he had MEANT by keeping the sharer of his guilt in the dark about a matter touching her otherwise so nearly; what he had meant, that is, for this unmistakably mystified personage herself. Maggie could imagine what he had meant for her—all sorts of thinkable things, whether things of mere “form” or things of sincerity, things of pity or things of prudence: he had meant, for instance, in all probability, primarily, to conjure away any such appearance of a changed relation between the two women as his father-in-law might notice and follow up. It would have been open to him however, given the pitch of their intimacy, to avert this danger by some more conceivable course with Charlotte; since an earnest warning, in fact, the full freedom of alarm, that of his insisting to her on the peril of suspicion incurred, and on the importance accordingly of outward peace at any price, would have been the course really most conceivable. Instead of warning and advising he had reassured and deceived her; so that our young woman, who had been, from far back, by the habit, if her nature, as much on her guard against sacrificing others as if she felt the great trap of life mainly to be set for one’s doing so, now found herself attaching her fancy to that side of the situation of the exposed pair which involved, for themselves at least, the sacrifice of the least fortunate.
Meanwhile, after the Castledeans and their guests had left, and before Mrs. Rance and the Lutches arrived, there were three or four days during which she would come to understand just how important it was for her not to be transparent. During this time, she truly felt the weight and leaned on all the support from the truth she had shared, several nights earlier, with Fanny Assingham. She had anticipated it, warning herself while the house was crowded: Charlotte had intentions toward her that were best known to herself and was merely waiting for a better moment when they found themselves less surrounded. This awareness was precisely at the root of Maggie's desire to have more observers around them; there were times when she, quite intentionally, planned to delay or evade situations that were almost as calculated as they were disguised, during which she anxiously considered the different ways—there being two or three possible options—in which her young stepmother might, if needed, try to influence her. The fact that Amerigo hadn't “told” her about his encounter with his wife gave, for Maggie, a new perspective on Charlotte’s awareness and situation—one that, because of apprehension, curiosity, and even, at times, somewhat inconsistently, a tinge of compassion, the Princess now had to contend with. She asked herself—because she was capable of such reflection—what he had meant by keeping the person who shared his guilt in the dark about something that concerned her so closely; what he had intended for this undeniably mystified individual. Maggie could envision what he meant for her—all sorts of imaginable things, whether superficial or sincere, compassionate or cautious: he probably meant, primarily, to avoid any impression of a shifted relationship between the two women that his father-in-law might notice and question. However, given the closeness of their relationship, it would have been possible for him to sidestep this risk by taking a more sensible approach with Charlotte; a heartfelt warning, in fact, full of alarm—insisting she understand the dangers of suspicion and the necessity of maintaining outward harmony at all costs—would have been the most logical course. Instead of giving a warning and advice, he had reassured and misled her; so now, our young woman, who had long been conditioned—if not by her character, then by her habits—to guard against sacrificing others, as if she sensed that life’s biggest trap was primarily set for that purpose, found herself drawn to the aspect of the exposed couple’s situation that involved, for themselves at least, the sacrifice of the less fortunate.
She never, at present, thought of what Amerigo might be intending, without the reflection, by the same stroke, that, whatever this quantity, he was leaving still more to her own ingenuity. He was helping her, when the thing came to the test, only by the polished, possibly almost too polished surface his manner to his wife wore for an admiring world; and that, surely, was entitled to scarcely more than the praise of negative diplomacy. He was keeping his manner right, as she had related to Mrs. Assingham; the case would have been beyond calculation, truly, if, on top of everything, he had allowed it to go wrong. She had hours of exaltation indeed when the meaning of all this pressed in upon her as a tacit vow from him to abide without question by whatever she should be able to achieve or think fit to prescribe. Then it was that, even while holding her breath for the awe of it, she truly felt almost able enough for anything. It was as if she had passed, in a time incredibly short, from being nothing for him to being all; it was as if, rightly noted, every turn of his head, every tone of his voice, in these days, might mean that there was but one way in which a proud man reduced to abjection could hold himself. During those of Maggie’s vigils in which that view loomed largest, the image of her husband that it thus presented to her gave out a beauty for the revelation of which she struck herself as paying, if anything, all too little. To make sure of it—to make sure of the beauty shining out of the humility, and of the humility lurking in all the pride of his presence—she would have gone the length of paying more yet, of paying with difficulties and anxieties compared to which those actually before her might have been as superficial as headaches or rainy days.
She never thought about what Amerigo might be planning without also realizing that, no matter what it was, he was leaving even more to her own creativity. He was only helping her, when it came down to it, with the polished, maybe even overly polished, facade he presented to the world as an admiring husband; and that deserved barely more than the acknowledgment of basic diplomacy. He was maintaining the right demeanor, as she had told Mrs. Assingham; it would have truly been beyond belief if, on top of everything, he had let things go wrong. She had moments of pure excitement when the significance of all this felt like an unspoken promise from him to accept whatever she could achieve or decide. In those moments, even while holding her breath in awe, she felt almost capable of anything. It was as if she had rapidly transformed from being nothing to him to being everything; as if, during these days, every turn of his head, every tone of his voice, hinted that there was only one way a proud man, brought low, could carry himself. During the times when this perspective was clearest for Maggie, the image of her husband it presented radiated a beauty she felt she was paying, if anything, far too little for. To truly seize it—to fully appreciate the beauty emerging from his humility, and the humility hidden within all his pride—she would have been willing to pay even more, facing challenges and worries that would have seemed trivial compared to those she was currently experiencing, like headaches or rainy days.
The point at which these exaltations dropped, however, was the point at which it was apt to come over her that if her complications had been greater the question of paying would have been limited still less to the liabilities of her own pocket. The complications were verily great enough, whether for ingenuities or sublimities, so long as she had to come back to it so often that Charlotte, all the while, could only be struggling with secrets sharper than her own. It was odd how that certainty again and again determined and coloured her wonderments of detail; the question, for instance, of HOW Amerigo, in snatched opportunities of conference, put the haunted creature off with false explanations, met her particular challenges and evaded—if that was what he did do!—her particular demands. Even the conviction that Charlotte was but awaiting some chance really to test her trouble upon her lover’s wife left Maggie’s sense meanwhile open as to the sight of gilt wires and bruised wings, the spacious but suspended cage, the home of eternal unrest, of pacings, beatings, shakings, all so vain, into which the baffled consciousness helplessly resolved itself. The cage was the deluded condition, and Maggie, as having known delusion—rather!—understood the nature of cages. She walked round Charlotte’s—cautiously and in a very wide circle; and when, inevitably, they had to communicate she felt herself, comparatively, outside, on the breast of nature, and saw her companion’s face as that of a prisoner looking through bars. So it was that through bars, bars richly gilt, but firmly, though discreetly, planted, Charlotte finally struck her as making a grim attempt; from which, at first, the Princess drew back as instinctively as if the door of the cage had suddenly been opened from within.
The moment when these high feelings faded was also when it hit her that if her problems had been bigger, the issue of paying wouldn’t just be about her own finances. The problems were definitely significant enough, whether in terms of cleverness or deep realizations, especially since she had to revisit them so frequently while Charlotte was grappling with even sharper secrets than her own. It was strange how this certainty repeatedly influenced and shaped her curiosity about the details; for example, how Amerigo managed to avoid the troubled woman’s questions with false explanations during their brief moments together, addressing her specific challenges and dodging—if that's what he really did—her exact demands. Even the belief that Charlotte was just waiting for a chance to offload her troubles onto her lover’s wife kept Maggie open to the imagery of gilded cages and battered wings, the spacious yet suspended enclosure, the home of endless unrest, pacing, beating, and shaking—all so futile—that her confused mind found itself trapped in. The cage symbolized the state of delusion, and Maggie, having known that feeling—rather!—understood what cages were like. She circled around Charlotte’s cage—cautiously and from a safe distance; and when they had to communicate, she felt, relatively speaking, outside, in the open air, seeing her companion’s face like that of a prisoner looking through bars. Thus, through those bars—richly gilded, but firmly, if subtly, established—Charlotte finally struck her as making a desperate effort; at first, the Princess instinctively recoiled, as if the cage door had suddenly swung open from the inside.
XXXVI
XXXVI
They had been alone that evening—alone as a party of six, and four of them, after dinner, under suggestion not to be resisted, sat down to “bridge” in the smoking-room. They had passed together to that apartment, on rising from table, Charlotte and Mrs. Assingham alike indulgent, always, to tobacco, and in fact practising an emulation which, as Fanny said, would, for herself, had the Colonel not issued an interdict based on the fear of her stealing his cigars, have stopped only at the short pipe. Here cards had with inevitable promptness asserted their rule, the game forming itself, as had often happened before, of Mr. Verver with Mrs. Assingham for partner and of the Prince with Mrs. Verver. The Colonel, who had then asked of Maggie license to relieve his mind of a couple of letters for the earliest post out on the morrow, was addressing himself to this task at the other end of the room, and the Princess herself had welcomed the comparatively hushed hour—for the bridge-players were serious and silent—much in the mood of a tired actress who has the good fortune to be “off,” while her mates are on, almost long enough for a nap on the property sofa in the wing. Maggie’s nap, had she been able to snatch forty winks, would have been of the spirit rather than of the sense; yet as she subsided, near a lamp, with the last salmon-coloured French periodical, she was to fail, for refreshment, even of that sip of independence.
They were alone that evening—alone as a group of six, and four of them, after dinner, unable to resist the suggestion, sat down to play “bridge” in the smoking room. They had moved to that space after getting up from the table, with both Charlotte and Mrs. Assingham being indulgent as always towards tobacco. In fact, they were trying to outdo each other, which, as Fanny mentioned, would have just meant a short pipe for her if the Colonel hadn’t imposed a ban out of fear that she would take his cigars. Here, cards quickly took center stage, with Mr. Verver and Mrs. Assingham as partners, and the Prince paired with Mrs. Verver. The Colonel had then asked Maggie for permission to clear his mind by writing a couple of letters for the earliest post in the morning and was busy with this task at the other end of the room. The Princess herself welcomed the relatively quiet hour—since the bridge players were serious and silent—much like a tired actress who has the luck to be "off" while her colleagues are on stage, almost long enough to grab a quick nap on the prop couch in the wings. If Maggie could manage to catch forty winks, it would be more of a mental refresh than a physical one; however, as she settled nearby a lamp with the latest salmon-colored French magazine, she wouldn’t even manage that small sip of independence for refreshment.
There was no question for her, as she found, of closing her eyes and getting away; they strayed back to life, in the stillness, over the top of her Review; she could lend herself to none of those refinements of the higher criticism with which its pages bristled; she was there, where her companions were, there again and more than ever there; it was as if, of a sudden, they had been made, in their personal intensity and their rare complexity of relation, freshly importunate to her. It was the first evening there had been no one else. Mrs. Rance and the Lutches were due the next day; but meanwhile the facts of the situation were upright for her round the green cloth and the silver flambeaux; the fact of her father’s wife’s lover facing his mistress; the fact of her father sitting, all unsounded and unblinking, between them; the fact of Charlotte keeping it up, keeping up everything, across the table, with her husband beside her; the fact of Fanny Assingham, wonderful creature, placed opposite to the three and knowing more about each, probably, when one came to think, than either of them knew of either. Erect above all for her was the sharp-edged fact of the relation of the whole group, individually and collectively, to herself—herself so speciously eliminated for the hour, but presumably more present to the attention of each than the next card to be played.
There was no doubt for her about shutting her eyes and escaping; they wandered back to reality, in the quiet, over the top of her Review; she couldn’t get into any of those nuances of high criticism that filled its pages; she was there, with her friends, more present than ever; it was as if, all of a sudden, they had become, in their personal intensity and their unique relationship, freshly demanding of her. This was the first evening without anyone else. Mrs. Rance and the Lutches were coming the next day; but for now, the facts of the situation were clear for her around the green tablecloth and the silver candelabras; the fact of her father’s wife’s lover facing his mistress; the fact of her father sitting, completely quiet and unflinching, between them; the fact of Charlotte maintaining the conversation, keeping everything going, across the table, with her husband beside her; the fact of Fanny Assingham, a remarkable woman, sitting opposite the three and probably knowing more about each of them than either of them knew about the others. Above all for her was the sharp reality of the entire group’s relationship, both individually and collectively, to herself—herself seemingly set aside for the hour, but likely more present in each person's mind than the next card to be played.
Yes, under that imputation, to her sense, they sat—the imputation of wondering, beneath and behind all their apparently straight play, if she weren’t really watching them from her corner and consciously, as might be said, holding them in her hand. She was asking herself at last how they could bear it—for, though cards were as nought to her and she could follow no move, so that she was always, on such occasions, out of the party, they struck her as conforming alike, in the matter of gravity and propriety, to the stiff standard of the house. Her father, she knew, was a high adept, one of the greatest—she had been ever, in her stupidity, his small, his sole despair; Amerigo excelled easily, as he understood and practised every art that could beguile large leisure; Mrs. Assingham and Charlotte, moreover, were accounted as “good” as members of a sex incapable of the nobler consistency could be. Therefore, evidently, they were not, all so up to their usual form, merely passing it off, whether for her or for themselves; and the amount of enjoyed, or at least achieved, security represented by so complete a conquest of appearances was what acted on her nerves, precisely, with a kind of provocative force. She found herself, for five minutes, thrilling with the idea of the prodigious effect that, just as she sat there near them, she had at her command; with the sense that if she were but different—oh, ever so different!—all this high decorum would hang by a hair. There reigned for her, absolutely, during these vertiginous moments, that fascination of the monstrous, that temptation of the horribly possible, which we so often trace by its breaking out suddenly, lest it should go further, in unexplained retreats and reactions.
Yes, under that assumption, as she perceived it, they sat—the assumption of wondering, beneath and behind all their seemingly straightforward play, if she wasn’t really watching them from her corner and consciously, as one might say, holding them in her hand. She was finally asking herself how they could tolerate it—for, although cards meant nothing to her and she couldn’t follow any move, making her always left out during such occasions, they struck her as adhering equally, in terms of seriousness and propriety, to the strict standards of the house. She knew her father was a master, one of the greatest—she had always been, in her ignorance, his minor, his only disappointment; Amerigo excelled effortlessly, as he understood and practiced every art that could charm away long stretches of free time; Mrs. Assingham and Charlotte, moreover, were considered as “good” as members of a sex incapable of the nobler consistency could be. Therefore, it was clear they weren’t all just going through the motions, whether for her sake or their own; and the level of reassurance, or at least the façade of security, represented by so complete a mastery of appearances was what precisely affected her nerves, with a kind of challenging force. For five minutes, she found herself electrified by the idea of the immense effect that, just as she sat there near them, she had at her fingertips; with the feeling that if only she were different—oh, just a little different!—all this high decorum would be hanging by a thread. During those dizzying moments, she experienced a fascination with the monstrous, a temptation to the horribly possible, which we so often observe breaking out suddenly, trying to avoid going further, in unexplained retreats and reactions.
After it had been thus vividly before her for a little that, springing up under her wrong and making them all start, stare and turn pale, she might sound out their doom in a single sentence, a sentence easy to choose among several of the lurid—after she had faced that blinding light and felt it turn to blackness, she rose from her place, laying aside her magazine, and moved slowly round the room, passing near the card-players and pausing an instant behind the chairs in turn. Silent and discreet, she bent a vague mild face upon them, as if to signify that, little as she followed their doings, she wished them well; and she took from each, across the table, in the common solemnity, an upward recognition which she was to carry away with her on her moving out to the terrace, a few minutes later. Her father and her husband, Mrs. Assingham and Charlotte, had done nothing but meet her eyes; yet the difference in these demonstrations made each a separate passage—which was all the more wonderful since, with the secret behind every face, they had alike tried to look at her THROUGH it and in denial of it.
After it had been so vividly in front of her for a moment, surprising everyone and making them start, stare, and turn pale, she could foretell their doom in a single sentence, one that was easy to pick from several grim options—after she had faced that blinding light and felt it turn to darkness, she got up from her spot, put down her magazine, and slowly walked around the room, passing by the card players and pausing momentarily behind the chairs in turn. Quiet and composed, she directed a vague, gentle expression at them, as if to imply that, even though she didn’t pay much attention to their activities, she wished them well; and she took from each of them, across the table, a solemn acknowledgment that she would carry with her when she stepped out onto the terrace a few minutes later. Her father, her husband, Mrs. Assingham, and Charlotte had only met her gaze; yet the difference in these responses made each one a distinct moment—which was even more remarkable since, with the secrets behind each face, they all tried to look at her THROUGH it and deny it at the same time.
It all left her, as she wandered off, with the strangest of impressions—the sense, forced upon her as never yet, of an appeal, a positive confidence, from the four pairs of eyes, that was deeper than any negation, and that seemed to speak, on the part of each, of some relation to be contrived by her, a relation with herself, which would spare the individual the danger, the actual present strain, of the relation with the others. They thus tacitly put it upon her to be disposed of, the whole complexity of their peril, and she promptly saw why because she was there, and there just as she was, to lift it off them and take it; to charge herself with it as the scapegoat of old, of whom she had once seen a terrible picture, had been charged with the sins of the people and had gone forth into the desert to sink under his burden and die. That indeed wasn’t THEIR design and their interest, that she should sink under hers; it wouldn’t be their feeling that she should do anything but live, live on somehow for their benefit, and even as much as possible in their company, to keep proving to them that they had truly escaped and that she was still there to simplify. This idea of her simplifying, and of their combined struggle, dim as yet but steadily growing, toward the perception of her adopting it from them, clung to her while she hovered on the terrace, where the summer night was so soft that she scarce needed the light shawl she had picked up. Several of the long windows of the occupied rooms stood open to it, and the light came out in vague shafts and fell upon the old smooth stones. The hour was moonless and starless and the air heavy and still—which was why, in her evening dress, she need fear no chill and could get away, in the outer darkness, from that provocation of opportunity which had assaulted her, within, on her sofa, as a beast might have leaped at her throat.
It all left her, as she walked away, with the strangest feeling—the sense, more than ever before, of a call, a genuine confidence, from the four pairs of eyes that was deeper than any denial. It felt like each pair was communicating a need for her to create a connection with herself, a connection that would relieve her from the risks and the current strain of dealing with the others. They were silently placing the weight of their troubles on her, and she quickly realized it was because she was there, just as she was, to take it from them; to take on their burden like an old scapegoat, who she once saw depicted in a chilling image, carrying the sins of the people and going out into the desert to collapse under the load and die. That wasn't THEIR goal or concern; they didn't want her to be crushed by it. Instead, they hoped she would live, continue somehow for their benefit, and as much as possible, be with them, proving that they had truly broken free and that she was still there to simplify things. The thought of her simplifying their struggles, which was still dim but growing clearer, held on to her while she lingered on the terrace, where the summer night was so gentle that she hardly needed the light shawl she had grabbed. Several long windows from the occupied rooms were open to the night, and soft light streamed out in vague beams, landing on the old smooth stones. The hour was moonless and starless, and the air was heavy and still—which is why, in her evening dress, she didn’t have to worry about feeling cold and could escape, into the outer darkness, from the temptation of opportunity that had lunged at her, inside, on her sofa, like a beast trying to leap at her throat.
Nothing in fact was stranger than the way in which, when she had remained there a little, her companions, watched by her through one of the windows, actually struck her as almost consciously and gratefully safer. They might have been—really charming as they showed in the beautiful room, and Charlotte certainly, as always, magnificently handsome and supremely distinguished—they might have been figures rehearsing some play of which she herself was the author; they might even, for the happy appearance they continued to present, have been such figures as would, by the strong note of character in each, fill any author with the certitude of success, especially of their own histrionic. They might in short have represented any mystery they would; the point being predominantly that the key to the mystery, the key that could wind and unwind it without a snap of the spring, was there in her pocket—or rather, no doubt, clasped at this crisis in her hand and pressed, as she walked back and forth, to her breast. She walked to the end and far out of the light; she returned and saw the others still where she had left them; she passed round the house and looked into the drawing-room, lighted also, but empty now, and seeming to speak the more, in its own voice, of all the possibilities she controlled. Spacious and splendid, like a stage again awaiting a drama, it was a scene she might people, by the press of her spring, either with serenities and dignities and decencies, or with terrors and shames and ruins, things as ugly as those formless fragments of her golden bowl she was trying so hard to pick up.
Nothing was weirder than how, after she had stayed there a bit longer, her friends, whom she watched through one of the windows, actually made her feel almost consciously and gratefully safer. They could have been—truly charming as they looked in the beautiful room, and Charlotte was, as always, incredibly attractive and exceptionally distinguished—they could have been characters rehearsing some play that she herself had written; they could even, because of the happy vibe they continued to give off, have been the kind of characters that would fill any writer with the certainty of success, especially in their own performances. They could, in short, have represented any mystery they wanted; the main point being that the key to the mystery, the key that could turn it on and off without any trouble, was right there in her pocket—or rather, no doubt, held in her hand and pressed to her chest as she walked back and forth. She walked to the end and stepped far out of the light; she returned and saw the others still where she had left them; she circled the house and peeked into the drawing-room, also lit, but now empty, and seeming to convey even more, in its own way, all the possibilities she controlled. Spacious and grand, like a stage again waiting for a drama, it was a scene she could fill, with the turn of her key, either with serenity, dignity, and decency, or with fear, shame, and ruin—things as ugly as those formless fragments of her golden bowl she was trying so hard to collect.
She continued to walk and continued to pause; she stopped afresh for the look into the smoking-room, and by this time—it was as if the recognition had of itself arrested her—she saw as in a picture, with the temptation she had fled from quite extinct, why it was she had been able to give herself so little, from the first, to the vulgar heat of her wrong. She might fairly, as she watched them, have missed it as a lost thing; have yearned for it, for the straight vindictive view, the rights of resentment, the rages of jealousy, the protests of passion, as for something she had been cheated of not least: a range of feelings which for many women would have meant so much, but which for HER husband’s wife, for HER father’s daughter, figured nothing nearer to experience than a wild eastern caravan, looming into view with crude colours in the sun, fierce pipes in the air, high spears against the sky, all a thrill, a natural joy to mingle with, but turning off short before it reached her and plunging into other defiles. She saw at all events why horror itself had almost failed her; the horror that, foreshadowed in advance, would, by her thought, have made everything that was unaccustomed in her cry out with pain; the horror of finding evil seated, all at its ease, where she had only dreamed of good; the horror of the thing HIDEOUSLY behind, behind so much trusted, so much pretended, nobleness, cleverness, tenderness. It was the first sharp falsity she had known in her life, to touch at all, or be touched by; it had met her like some bad-faced stranger surprised in one of the thick-carpeted corridors of a house of quiet on a Sunday afternoon; and yet, yes, amazingly, she had been able to look at terror and disgust only to know that she must put away from her the bitter-sweet of their freshness. The sight, from the window, of the group so constituted, TOLD her why, told her how, named to her, as with hard lips, named straight AT her, so that she must take it full in the face, that other possible relation to the whole fact which alone would bear upon her irresistibly. It was extraordinary: they positively brought home to her that to feel about them in any of the immediate, inevitable, assuaging ways, the ways usually open to innocence outraged and generosity betrayed, would have been to give them up, and that giving them up was, marvellously, not to be thought of. She had never, from the first hour of her state of acquired conviction, given them up so little as now; though she was, no doubt, as the consequence of a step taken a few minutes later, to invoke the conception of doing that, if might be, even less. She had resumed her walk—stopping here and there, while she rested on the cool smooth stone balustrade, to draw it out; in the course of which, after a little, she passed again the lights of the empty drawing-room and paused again for what she saw and felt there.
She kept walking and stopping; she paused again to look into the smoking room, and by this point—it was as if the recognition had simply frozen her in place—she saw, like a picture, the reason she had managed to feel so little from the start about the vulgar heat of her wrong. As she watched them, she might well have seen it as something she had lost; she might have longed for it, for the sharp, vengeful perspective, the rights of resentment, the fury of jealousy, the protests of passion, as if it were something she had been denied: a range of feelings that would mean so much to many women, but which for HER husband’s wife, for HER father’s daughter, felt as far from experience as a wild caravan from the East, appearing with bright colors in the sun, loud pipes in the air, and tall spears against the sky—exciting, a natural joy to engage with, but veering off just before reaching her and plunging into other paths. She understood at least why horror itself had almost eluded her; the horror that, predicted in advance, would have made everything unfamiliar in her cry out in pain; the horror of finding evil comfortably seated where she had only dreamed of good; the horror of the thing HORRIFICALLY behind, hidden beneath so much trust, so much pretended nobility, cleverness, tenderness. It was the first raw falsehood she had ever encountered in her life, to touch at all or be touched by; it had confronted her like some unattractive stranger caught in one of the plush-carpeted hallways of a quiet house on a Sunday afternoon; yet, astonishingly, she had been able to look at terror and disgust only to realize that she must push away the bittersweetness of their newness. The view from the window of that gathered group made it clear to her why, showed her how, and addressed her directly, with hard words, naming right at her, so she had to face it fully, that other possible relation to the whole situation which alone would bear down on her irresistibly. It was incredible: they truly made her realize that feeling towards them in any immediate, unavoidable, soothing ways, the ways usually open to innocence wronged and generosity betrayed, would mean giving them up, and that giving them up was, remarkably, not even to be considered. She had never, from the first moment of her newfound conviction, given them up so little as she did now; although, no doubt, as a result of a step taken a few minutes later, she might even consider the thought of doing so even less. She had resumed her walk—pausing here and there, resting on the cool smooth stone railing, to drag it out; during which, after a bit, she passed again the lights of the empty drawing room and paused once more for what she saw and felt there.
It was not at once, however, that this became quite concrete; that was the effect of her presently making out that Charlotte was in the room, launched and erect there, in the middle, and looking about her; that she had evidently just come round to it, from her card-table, by one of the passages—with the expectation, to all appearance, of joining her stepdaughter. She had pulled up at seeing the great room empty—Maggie not having passed out, on leaving the group, in a manner to be observed. So definite a quest of her, with the bridge-party interrupted or altered for it, was an impression that fairly assailed the Princess, and to which something of attitude and aspect, of the air of arrested pursuit and purpose, in Charlotte, together with the suggestion of her next vague movements, quickly added its meaning. This meaning was that she had decided, that she had been infinitely conscious of Maggie’s presence before, that she knew that she would at last find her alone, and that she wanted her, for some reason, enough to have presumably called on Bob Assingham for aid. He had taken her chair and let her go, and the arrangement was for Maggie a signal proof of her earnestness; of the energy, in fact, that, though superficially commonplace in a situation in which people weren’t supposed to be watching each other, was what affected our young woman, on the spot, as a breaking of bars. The splendid shining supple creature was out of the cage, was at large; and the question now almost grotesquely rose of whether she mightn’t by some art, just where she was and before she could go further, be hemmed in and secured. It would have been for a moment, in this case, a matter of quickly closing the windows and giving the alarm—with poor Maggie’s sense that, though she couldn’t know what she wanted of her, it was enough for trepidation that, at these firm hands, anything should be to say nothing of the sequel of a flight taken again along the terrace, even under the shame of the confessed feebleness of such evasions on the part of an outraged wife. It was to this feebleness, none the less, that the outraged wife had presently resorted; the most that could be said for her being, as she felt while she finally stopped short, at a distance, that she could at any rate resist her abjection sufficiently not to sneak into the house by another way and safely reach her room. She had literally caught herself in the act of dodging and ducking, and it told her there, vividly, in a single word, what she had all along been most afraid of.
It didn’t become clear right away; that changed when she noticed that Charlotte was in the room, standing there in the middle, looking around. It was obvious that she had just stepped away from her card game, through one of the passages, seemingly intending to join her stepdaughter. She paused when she saw the large room empty—Maggie hadn’t left the group in a way that was noticeable. This specific pursuit of hers, with the bridge party interrupted or changed for it, hit the Princess strongly, and Charlotte’s attitude and appearance, with her air of interrupted pursuit and intent, quickly added layers of meaning. This meaning was that she had decided that she was aware of Maggie’s presence all along, that she knew she would finally find her alone, and that she wanted her for some reason strong enough to likely ask Bob Assingham for help. He had taken her chair and let her go, and for Maggie, this arrangement was a clear sign of Charlotte’s seriousness; it indicated an energy that, while seemingly typical in a situation where no one was supposed to be watching each other, felt to our young woman like a breaking of barriers. The beautiful, lively creature was free; the almost ridiculous question now arose of whether, right where she was and before she could go further, she could be trapped and contained. It would mean quickly closing the windows and raising the alarm—poor Maggie felt that, even though she couldn’t know what Charlotte wanted from her, it was enough to cause anxiety that, in Charlotte’s determined grip, anything could happen. Not to mention that escaping again along the terrace would only highlight how weak such evasions were for an indignant wife. Nevertheless, it was to this weakness that the indignant wife soon turned; the best thing that could be said for her, as she finally stopped at a distance, was that she could at least resist her humiliation enough not to sneak into the house another way and safely reach her room. She had literally caught herself in the act of dodging and ducking, and it made her realize, in one clear word, what she had been most afraid of all along.
She had been afraid of the particular passage with Charlotte that would determine her father’s wife to take him into her confidence as she couldn’t possibly as yet have done, to prepare for him a statement of her wrong, to lay before him the infamy of what she was apparently suspected of. This, should she have made up her mind to do it, would rest on a calculation the thought of which evoked, strangely, other possibilities and visions. It would show her as sufficiently believing in her grasp of her husband to be able to assure herself that, with his daughter thrown on the defensive, with Maggie’s cause and Maggie’s word, in fine, against her own, it wasn’t Maggie’s that would most certainly carry the day. Such a glimpse of her conceivable idea, which would be founded on reasons all her own, reasons of experience and assurance, impenetrable to others, but intimately familiar to herself—such a glimpse opened out wide as soon as it had come into view; for if so much as this was still firm ground between the elder pair, if the beauty of appearances had been so consistently preserved, it was only the golden bowl as Maggie herself knew it that had been broken. The breakage stood not for any wrought discomposure among the triumphant three—it stood merely for the dire deformity of her attitude toward them. She was unable at the minute, of course, fully to measure the difference thus involved for her, and it remained inevitably an agitating image, the way it might be held over her that if she didn’t, of her own prudence, satisfy Charlotte as to the reference, in her mocking spirit, of so much of the unuttered and unutterable, of the constantly and unmistakably implied, her father would be invited without further ceremony to recommend her to do so. But ANY confidence, ANY latent operating insolence, that Mrs. Verver should, thanks to her large native resources, continue to be possessed of and to hold in reserve, glimmered suddenly as a possible working light and seemed to offer, for meeting her, a new basis and something like a new system. Maggie felt, truly, a rare contraction of the heart on making out, the next instant, what the new system would probably have to be—and she had practically done that before perceiving that the thing she feared had already taken place. Charlotte, extending her search, appeared now to define herself vaguely in the distance; of this, after an instant, the Princess was sure, though the darkness was thick, for the projected clearness of the smoking-room windows had presently contributed its help. Her friend came slowly into that circle—having also, for herself, by this time, not indistinguishably discovered that Maggie was on the terrace. Maggie, from the end, saw her stop before one of the windows to look at the group within, and then saw her come nearer and pause again, still with a considerable length of the place between them.
She had been worried about the specific conversation with Charlotte that would make her father’s wife confide in him, which she obviously hadn’t been able to do yet. She would need to prepare him for a statement about her wrongdoings and lay out the shame of what she was being suspected of. If she decided to do this, it would be based on a calculation that strangely brought to mind other possibilities and visions. It would suggest that she believed enough in her relationship with her husband to convince herself that, with Maggie on the defensive—essentially, Maggie’s case and words against her own—Maggie’s wouldn’t necessarily win. This glimpse of her potential plan, rooted in her own reasons, shaped by her experiences and confidence, clear to her but obscure to others, opened up as soon as it appeared. Because if the older couple still shared this solid ground, if they had maintained the beauty of appearances consistently, it was just the golden bowl, as Maggie herself understood it, that had been shattered. The break didn’t signify any disturbance among the three who were triumphant—it merely highlighted the serious distortion in her attitude toward them. Of course, she couldn’t fully grasp the implications for her just then, and it remained a troubling thought—that if she didn’t, out of her own caution, satisfy Charlotte regarding the unspoken and implied, her father would be encouraged, without a second thought, to suggest she do so. But ANY confidence, ANY underlying arrogance that Mrs. Verver still possessed, thanks to her natural resources, suddenly shimmered as a potential guiding light and seemed to offer Maggie a new foundation and a kind of new system. Maggie felt a rare tightness in her chest as she quickly realized what the new system would likely have to be—and she had practically come to that conclusion before recognizing that what she feared had already happened. Charlotte, as she broadened her search, seemed to be vaguely defining herself in the distance; after a moment, the Princess was sure of this, even though the darkness was deep, as the projected clarity from the smoking-room windows had begun to help. Her friend slowly entered that circle, also having uncovered that Maggie was on the terrace. From where she stood, Maggie saw her stop at one of the windows to observe the group inside and then saw her step closer and pause again, still with a significant space between them.
Yes, Charlotte had seen she was watching her from afar, and had stopped now to put her further attention to the test. Her face was fixed on her, through the night; she was the creature who had escaped by force from her cage, yet there was in her whole motion assuredly, even as so dimly discerned, a kind of portentous intelligent stillness. She had escaped with an intention, but with an intention the more definite that it could so accord with quiet measures. The two women, at all events, only hovered there, for these first minutes, face to face over their interval and exchanging no sign; the intensity of their mutual look might have pierced the night, and Maggie was at last to start with the scared sense of having thus yielded to doubt, to dread, to hesitation, for a time that, with no other proof needed, would have completely given her away. How long had she stood staring?—a single minute or five? Long enough, in any case, to have felt herself absolutely take from her visitor something that the latter threw upon her, irresistibly, by this effect of silence, by this effect of waiting and watching, by this effect, unmistakably, of timing her indecision and her fear. If then, scared and hanging back, she had, as was so evident, sacrificed all past pretences, it would have been with the instant knowledge of an immense advantage gained that Charlotte finally saw her come on. Maggie came on with her heart in her hands; she came on with the definite prevision, throbbing like the tick of a watch, of a doom impossibly sharp and hard, but to which, after looking at it with her eyes wide open, she had none the less bowed her head. By the time she was at her companion’s side, for that matter, by the time Charlotte had, without a motion, without a word, simply let her approach and stand there, her head was already on the block, so that the consciousness that everything had now gone blurred all perception of whether or no the axe had fallen. Oh, the “advantage,” it was perfectly enough, in truth, with Mrs. Verver; for what was Maggie’s own sense but that of having been thrown over on her back, with her neck, from the first, half broken and her helpless face staring up? That position only could account for the positive grimace of weakness and pain produced there by Charlotte’s dignity.
Yes, Charlotte had noticed that she was being watched from a distance, and had now paused to test her attention further. Her gaze was fixed on her through the night; she was like a creature that had forcefully escaped from its cage, yet there was an unmistakable, even if faintly perceived, kind of ominous intelligent stillness in her entire demeanor. She had escaped with a purpose, a purpose that was even more clearly defined because it aligned so well with calm actions. The two women, at least for those first moments, only hovered there, face to face across their distance, exchanging no signals; the intensity of their shared gaze could have pierced the night, and Maggie finally felt a jolt of fear from having given in to doubt, dread, and hesitation for a period that, without any other proof, would have completely exposed her. How long had she been staring?—just a minute or five? Long enough, in any case, to feel that her visitor had somehow imparted something to her through this silence, through this waiting and watching, through the unmistakable timing of her indecision and fear. If she had indeed felt scared and reluctant, as was clearly the case, sacrificing all past pretenses, it would have been with the immediate awareness of a considerable advantage gained that Charlotte finally saw her move forward. Maggie approached with her heart in her hands; she came forward with a clear sense, pulsing like the tick of a clock, of an unavoidable fate that was impossibly sharp and hard, but to which, after confronting it head-on, she had nonetheless lowered her gaze. By the time she reached her companion’s side, in fact, by the time Charlotte had, without any movement, without a word, simply allowed her to come closer and stand there, her head was already on the block, so that the realization that everything had now changed dulled her awareness of whether or not the axe had fallen. Oh, the “advantage”—it was certainly enough, really, with Mrs. Verver; for what did Maggie feel but that she had been tossed onto her back, with her neck, from the very beginning, half broken and her helpless face staring up at the sky? That position alone could explain the outright grimace of weakness and pain that Charlotte's dignity produced.
“I’ve come to join you—I thought you would be here.”
“I’ve come to join you—I figured you would be here.”
“Oh yes, I’m here,” Maggie heard herself return a little flatly. “It’s too close in-doors.”
“Oh yeah, I’m here,” Maggie heard herself reply a bit flatly. “It’s too cramped inside.”
“Very—but close even here.” Charlotte was still and grave—she had even uttered her remark about the temperature with an expressive weight that verged upon solemnity; so that Maggie, reduced to looking vaguely about at the sky, could only feel her not fail of her purpose. “The air’s heavy as if with thunder—I think there’ll be a storm.” She made the suggestion to carry off an awkwardness—which was a part, always, of her companion’s gain; but the awkwardness didn’t diminish in the silence that followed. Charlotte had said nothing in reply; her brow was dark as with a fixed expression, and her high elegance, her handsome head and long, straight neck testified, through the dusk, to their inveterate completeness and noble erectness. It was as if what she had come out to do had already begun, and when, as a consequence, Maggie had said helplessly, “Don’t you want something? won’t you have my shawl?” everything might have crumbled away in the comparative poverty of the tribute. Mrs. Verver’s rejection of it had the brevity of a sign that they hadn’t closed in for idle words, just as her dim, serious face, uninterruptedly presented until they moved again, might have represented the success with which she watched all her message penetrate. They presently went back the way she had come, but she stopped Maggie again within range of the smoking-room window and made her stand where the party at cards would be before her. Side by side, for three minutes, they fixed this picture of quiet harmonies, the positive charm of it and, as might have been said, the full significance—which, as was now brought home to Maggie, could be no more, after all, than a matter of interpretation, differing always for a different interpreter. As she herself had hovered in sight of it a quarter-of-an-hour before, it would have been a thing for her to show Charlotte—to show in righteous irony, in reproach too stern for anything but silence. But now it was she who was being shown it, and shown it by Charlotte, and she saw quickly enough that, as Charlotte showed it, so she must at present submissively seem to take it.
“Very—but close even here.” Charlotte remained still and serious—she had even made her comment about the temperature with a weight that felt almost solemn; so Maggie, left to look vaguely at the sky, could only sense that Charlotte wouldn’t fail to make her point. “The air feels heavy, like there’s thunder—I think a storm is coming.” She suggested this to ease an awkwardness—that was always part of her companion's advantage; but the awkwardness didn’t lessen in the silence after that. Charlotte hadn’t replied; her brow was set in a serious expression, and her elegant posture, her striking head and long neck, clearly showed their lasting grace and noble stature in the fading light. It felt as if what she had come out to do had already started, and when Maggie helplessly said, “Don’t you want something? Would you like my shawl?” it felt like everything might fall apart in the simplicity of the offer. Mrs. Verver’s quick rejection showed they weren’t there for idle chit-chat, just as her dim, serious expression, unchanged until they moved again, seemed to reflect the effectiveness with which she allowed her message to sink in. They soon headed back the way Charlotte had come, but she stopped Maggie again near the smoking-room window, making her stand where the card players would see her. Side by side, for three minutes, they created a picture of quiet harmony, its undeniable charm and, as one might say, its full significance—which, as Maggie now realized, could ultimately be just a matter of interpretation, always varying for different observers. Not long ago, when she had briefly considered it, it would have been something for her to show Charlotte—to present with righteous irony, in a reproach too stern for anything but silence. But now it was she who was being shown it, and by Charlotte, and she quickly understood that, as Charlotte displayed it, she must presently accept it.
The others were absorbed and unconscious, either silent over their game or dropping remarks unheard on the terrace; and it was to her father’s quiet face, discernibly expressive of nothing that was in his daughter’s mind, that our young woman’s attention was most directly given. His wife and his daughter were both closely watching him, and to which of them, could he have been notified of this, would his raised eyes first, all impulsively, have responded; in which of them would he have felt it most important to destroy—for HIS clutch at the equilibrium—any germ of uneasiness? Not yet, since his marriage, had Maggie so sharply and so formidably known her old possession of him as a thing divided and contested. She was looking at him by Charlotte’s leave and under Charlotte’s direction; quite in fact as if the particular way she should look at him were prescribed to her; quite, even, as if she had been defied to look at him in any other. It came home to her too that the challenge wasn’t, as might be said, in his interest and for his protection, but, pressingly, insistently, in Charlotte’s, for that of HER security at any price. She might verily, by this dumb demonstration, have been naming to Maggie the price, naming it as a question for Maggie herself, a sum of money that she, properly, was to find. She must remain safe and Maggie must pay—what she was to pay with being her own affair.
The others were lost in their game, either quiet or making comments that went unheard on the terrace. It was her father's calm face, showing none of what was in his daughter’s mind, that caught the young woman’s attention the most. Both his wife and daughter were studying him closely, and if he had been made aware, he would have instinctively looked to whichever of them he felt most compelled to reassure—what would he want to eliminate to maintain his balance? Since his marriage, Maggie had never felt so acutely that her connection to him was divided and challenged. She was watching him with Charlotte’s permission and under her guidance; it was almost as if there was a specific way she was supposed to look at him, as if she were challenged to do otherwise. It also struck her that this challenge wasn’t really for his sake or protection, but urgently, for Charlotte’s benefit, for HER security at all costs. Through this silent display, Charlotte seemed to be setting a price for Maggie, presenting it as something for her to consider—a cost that Maggie was expected to cover. Charlotte needed to feel safe, and it was up to Maggie to determine how to pay—what she paid with was her own concern.
Straighter than ever, thus, the Princess again felt it all put upon her, and there was a minute, just a supreme instant, during which there burned in her a wild wish that her father would only look up. It throbbed for these seconds as a yearning appeal to him—she would chance it, that is, if he would but just raise his eyes and catch them, across the larger space, standing in the outer dark together. Then he might be affected by the sight, taking them as they were; he might make some sign—she scarce knew what—that would save her; save her from being the one, this way, to pay all. He might somehow show a preference— distinguishing between them; might, out of pity for her, signal to her that this extremity of her effort for him was more than he asked. That represented Maggie’s one little lapse from consistency—the sole small deflection in the whole course of her scheme. It had come to nothing the next minute, for the dear man’s eyes had never moved, and Charlotte’s hand, promptly passed into her arm, had already, had very firmly drawn her on—quite, for that matter, as from some sudden, some equal perception on her part too of the more ways than one in which their impression could appeal. They retraced their steps along the rest of the terrace, turning the corner of the house, and presently came abreast of the other windows, those of the pompous drawing-room, still lighted and still empty. Here Charlotte again paused, and it was again as if she were pointing out what Maggie had observed for herself, the very look the place had of being vivid in its stillness, of having, with all its great objects as ordered and balanced as for a formal reception, been appointed for some high transaction, some real affair of state. In presence of this opportunity she faced her companion once more; she traced in her the effect of everything she had already communicated; she signified, with the same success, that the terrace and the sullen night would bear too meagre witness to the completion of her idea. Soon enough then, within the room, under the old lustres of Venice and the eyes of the several great portraits, more or less contemporary with these, that awaited on the walls of Fawns their final far migration—soon enough Maggie found herself staring, and at first all too gaspingly, at the grand total to which each separate demand Mrs. Verver had hitherto made upon her, however she had made it, now amounted.
Straighter than ever, the Princess felt it all weighing on her again, and for a brief moment, there was an intense desire for her father to just look up. It pulsed in her during those seconds as a silent plea to him—she would risk it if he would just raise his eyes and meet hers, standing together in the outer dark. Maybe he would be moved by the sight, seeing them as they were; he might give some sort of sign—she barely knew what—that would rescue her; rescue her from being the one to bear the entire burden. He might somehow show a preference—differentiate between them; he might, out of pity for her, signal that the extent of her efforts for him was more than he wanted. That was Maggie's one little slip from her usual consistency—the only slight deviation in the whole course of her plan. But that thought was gone the next instant, as the dear man’s eyes had never moved, and Charlotte’s hand, quickly slipping into her arm, had already, firmly pulled her along—quite, in fact, as if Charlotte had suddenly and equally realized the various ways their impression could be perceived. They retraced their steps along the terrace, turned the corner of the house, and soon found themselves by the other windows of the grand drawing-room, still lit and still empty. Here, Charlotte paused again, as if highlighting what Maggie had already noticed—the vivid stillness of the place, with all its grand objects set up and balanced for a formal reception, prepared for some significant event, some real matter of state. Faced with this moment, she looked at her companion once more; she gauged the effect of everything she had already shared; she indicated, with the same clarity, that the terrace and the gloomy night wouldn’t witness the fulfillment of her idea. Soon enough, inside the room, under the old Venetian chandeliers and the eyes of several grand portraits, more or less contemporary with these, waiting on the walls of Fawns for their eventual far removal—soon enough, Maggie found herself staring, and at first, too breathlessly, at the overall total of what each separate demand Mrs. Verver had placed upon her, however she had done so, now amounted to.
“I’ve been wanting—and longer than you’d perhaps believe—to put a question to you for which no opportunity has seemed to me yet quite so good as this. It would have been easier perhaps if you had struck me as in the least disposed ever to give me one. I have to take it now, you see, as I find it.” They stood in the centre of the immense room, and Maggie could feel that the scene of life her imagination had made of it twenty minutes before was by this time sufficiently peopled. These few straight words filled it to its uttermost reaches, and nothing was now absent from her consciousness, either, of the part she was called upon to play in it. Charlotte had marched straight in, dragging her rich train; she rose there beautiful and free, with her whole aspect and action attuned to the firmness of her speech. Maggie had kept the shawl she had taken out with her, and, clutching it tight in her nervousness, drew it round her as if huddling in it for shelter, covering herself with it for humility. She looked out as from under an improvised hood—the sole headgear of some poor woman at somebody’s proud door; she waited even like the poor woman; she met her friend’s eyes with recognitions she couldn’t suppress. She might sound it as she could—“What question then?”—everything in her, from head to foot, crowded it upon Charlotte that she knew. She knew too well—that she was showing; so that successful vagueness, to save some scrap of her dignity from the imminence of her defeat, was already a lost cause, and the one thing left was if possible, at any cost, even that of stupid inconsequence, to try to look as if she weren’t afraid. If she could but appear at all not afraid she might appear a little not ashamed—that is not ashamed to be afraid, which was the kind of shame that could be fastened on her, it being fear all the while that moved her. Her challenge, at any rate, her wonder, her terror—the blank, blurred surface, whatever it was that she presented became a mixture that ceased to signify; for to the accumulated advantage by which Charlotte was at present sustained her next words themselves had little to add.
“I’ve been wanting to ask you something for longer than you might think, and this seems like the best opportunity so far. It might have been easier if I’d ever felt that you were even a little inclined to give me one. I have to take it now as I find it.” They stood in the center of the huge room, and Maggie felt that the scene her imagination had created just twenty minutes earlier was now fully populated. These few straightforward words filled it to its edges, and she was fully aware of the role she was expected to play in it. Charlotte had entered boldly, dragging her elegant train; she stood there, beautiful and confident, her entire demeanor matching the strength of her words. Maggie still had the shawl she had taken with her, and, feeling nervous, she clutched it tightly, wrapping it around herself as if seeking comfort, using it to cover herself in humility. She looked out as if from under a makeshift hood—the only head covering of a poor woman standing at a wealthy person's door; she waited just like that poor woman, meeting her friend’s eyes with uncontainable recognition. She tried to sound casual—“What question then?”—but everything about her, from head to toe, signaled to Charlotte that she knew. She knew too well that she was revealing it; so that putting on an air of mystery to save some shred of her dignity from the imminent defeat was already a lost cause, and the only thing left was to try, at any cost, even at the risk of looking foolish, to seem like she wasn’t afraid. If she could just appear a little less afraid, she might also seem a bit less ashamed—not ashamed of being afraid, which was the kind of shame that could easily be placed on her, since it was fear that was driving her. Her challenge, her curiosity, her fear—the vague, blurred impression she presented became a mix that lost its meaning; because, to the edge Charlotte currently held, her next words would add little to the situation.
“Have you any ground of complaint of me? Is there any wrong you consider I’ve done you? I feel at last that I’ve a right to ask you.”
“Do you have any complaints about me? Is there something wrong that you think I’ve done to you? I finally feel like I have the right to ask you.”
Their eyes had to meet on it, and to meet long; Maggie’s avoided at least the disgrace of looking away. “What makes you want to ask it?”
Their eyes had to meet on it, and they had to hold their gaze for a while; Maggie at least avoided the embarrassment of looking away. “What makes you want to ask that?”
“My natural desire to know. You’ve done that, for so long, little justice.”
“My natural curiosity to understand. You’ve done that, for so long, very little justice.”
Maggie waited a moment. “For so long? You mean you’ve thought—?”
Maggie paused for a moment. “For that long? You mean you’ve actually thought—?”
“I mean, my dear, that I’ve seen. I’ve seen, week after week, that YOU seemed to be thinking—of something that perplexed or worried you. Is it anything for which I’m in any degree responsible?”
“I mean, my dear, that I’ve noticed. I’ve noticed, week after week, that YOU seemed to be thinking—about something that confused or troubled you. Is it something I’m at all responsible for?”
Maggie summoned all her powers. “What in the world SHOULD it be?”
Maggie gathered all her strength. “What on earth should it be?”
“Ah, that’s not for me to imagine, and I should be very sorry to have to try to say! I’m aware of no point whatever at which I may have failed you,” said Charlotte; “nor of any at which I may have failed any one in whom I can suppose you sufficiently interested to care. If I’ve been guilty of some fault I’ve committed it all unconsciously, and am only anxious to hear from you honestly about it. But if I’ve been mistaken as to what I speak of—the difference, more and more marked, as I’ve thought, in all your manner to me—why, obviously, so much the better. No form of correction received from you could give me greater satisfaction.”
“Honestly, I can’t imagine that, and I’d really hate to have to try! I don’t see any point where I might have let you down,” said Charlotte. “Nor can I think of any moment where I might have disappointed anyone you care about. If I’ve done something wrong, it was completely unintentional, and I just want you to be straightforward with me about it. But if I’ve misread the situation—this growing difference in the way you treat me—then that’s obviously a good thing. There’s no way you correcting me could make me happier.”
She spoke, it struck her companion, with rising, with extraordinary ease; as if hearing herself say it all, besides seeing the way it was listened to, helped her from point to point. She saw she was right—that this WAS the tone for her to take and the thing for her to do, the thing as to which she was probably feeling that she had in advance, in her delays and uncertainties, much exaggerated the difficulty. The difficulty was small, and it grew smaller as her adversary continued to shrink; she was not only doing as she wanted, but had by this time effectively done it and hung it up. All of which but deepened Maggie’s sense of the sharp and simple need, now, of seeing her through to the end. “‘If’ you’ve been mistaken, you say?”—and the Princess but barely faltered. “You HAVE been mistaken.”
She spoke with increasing, remarkable ease, her companion noted; it was as if hearing herself articulate everything, while also seeing how it was being received, guided her from one point to the next. She realized she was right—that this WAS the right tone for her and the right thing to do, the task which she had probably inflated in her mind with her hesitations and doubts. The difficulty was minor, and it became even smaller as her opponent continued to fade; she wasn’t just doing what she wanted but had by this point effectively completed it and set it aside. All of this only intensified Maggie’s sense of the urgent need to see her through to the finish. “‘If’ you’ve been wrong, you say?”—and the Princess barely hesitated. “You HAVE been wrong.”
Charlotte looked at her splendidly hard. “You’re perfectly sure it’s ALL my mistake?”
Charlotte looked at her intensely. “You’re absolutely sure it’s ALL my fault?”
“All I can say is that you’ve received a false impression.”
“All I can say is that you’ve been given the wrong idea.”
“Ah then—so much the better! From the moment I HAD received it I knew I must sooner or later speak of it—for that, you see, is, systematically, my way. And now,” Charlotte added, “you make me glad I’ve spoken. I thank you very much.”
“Ah, great! From the moment I got it, I knew I had to talk about it eventually—because that's just how I am. And now,” Charlotte added, “you’re making me happy I brought it up. Thank you so much.”
It was strange how for Maggie too, with this, the difficulty seemed to sink. Her companion’s acceptance of her denial was like a general pledge not to keep things any worse for her than they essentially had to be; it positively helped her to build up her falsehood—to which, accordingly, she contributed another block. “I’ve affected you evidently—quite accidentally—in some way of which I’ve been all unaware. I’ve NOT felt at any time that you’ve wronged me.”
It was odd how, for Maggie, the difficulty seemed to ease with this. Her companion’s acceptance of her denial felt like a promise not to make things worse for her than they needed to be; it actually helped her strengthen her falsehood—to which she added another piece. “I’ve clearly affected you—totally by accident—in some way that I haven’t noticed at all. I’ve NEVER felt that you’ve wronged me.”
“How could I come within a mile,” Charlotte inquired, “of such a possibility?”
“How could I come within a mile of such a possibility?” Charlotte asked.
Maggie, with her eyes on her more easily now, made no attempt to say; she said, after a little, something more to the present point. “I accuse you—I accuse you of nothing.”
Maggie, now looking at her more easily, didn't try to speak; after a moment, she said something more relevant. "I'm accusing you—I’m not accusing you of anything."
“Ah, that’s lucky!”
“Wow, that’s lucky!”
Charlotte had brought this out with the richness, almost, of gaiety; and Maggie, to go on, had to think, with her own intensity, of Amerigo—to think how he, on his side, had had to go through with his lie to her, how it was for his wife he had done so, and how his doing so had given her the clue and set her the example. He must have had his own difficulty about it, and she was not, after all, falling below him. It was in fact as if, thanks to her hovering image of him confronted with this admirable creature even as she was confronted, there glowed upon her from afar, yet straight and strong, a deep explanatory light which covered the last inch of the ground. He had given her something to conform to, and she hadn’t unintelligently turned on him, “gone back on” him, as he would have said, by not conforming. They were together thus, he and she, close, close together—whereas Charlotte, though rising there radiantly before her, was really off in some darkness of space that would steep her in solitude and harass her with care. The heart of the Princess swelled, accordingly, even in her abasement; she had kept in tune with the right, and something, certainly, something that might be like a rare flower snatched from an impossible ledge, would, and possibly soon, come of it for her. The right, the right—yes, it took this extraordinary form of her humbugging, as she had called it, to the end. It was only a question of not, by a hair’s breadth, deflecting into the truth. So, supremely, was she braced. “You must take it from me that your anxiety rests quite on a misconception. You must take it from me that I’ve never at any moment fancied I could suffer by you.” And, marvellously, she kept it up—not only kept it up, but improved on it. “You must take it from me that I’ve never thought of you but as beautiful, wonderful and good. Which is all, I think, that you can possibly ask.”
Charlotte had shared this with a sort of joyful energy, and Maggie, to continue the conversation, had to focus, with her own intensity, on Amerigo—thinking about how he, too, had to maintain his lie to her, how it was for his wife that he had done this, and how this act had given her a clue and set an example. He must have found it challenging as well, and she wasn’t, after all, falling short compared to him. It felt as if his image, alongside this admirable person in front of her, shone a powerful, clear light from afar that illuminated the remaining distance. He had given her a standard to live up to, and she hadn’t, in a thoughtless way, turned against him, or “gone back on” him as he might say, by not rising to that standard. They were connected in this way, he and she, closely unified—while Charlotte, although glowing in front of her, was really lost in some dark place that would isolate her and wear her down with worry. The Princess's heart swelled, even in her moment of humiliation; she had remained true to what was right, and something, definitely, something like a rare flower plucked from an impossible cliff, would soon come of it for her. The right, the right—yes, it took this extraordinary form of her deceiving him, as she called it, all the way through. It was just a matter of not deviating into the truth by even the slightest margin. So, she was incredibly composed. “You need to understand that your concern is based entirely on a misunderstanding. You need to know that I’ve never once believed I could be harmed by you.” And, incredibly, she maintained this—not only maintained it but built on it. “You should know that I’ve never thought of you as anything but beautiful, wonderful, and good. That’s all, I believe, that you could possibly want.”
Charlotte held her a moment longer: she needed—not then to have appeared only tactless—the last word. “It’s much more, my dear, than I dreamed of asking. I only wanted your denial.”
Charlotte held her a moment longer; she didn't want to seem tactless for needing the last word. “It’s much more than I ever dreamed of asking, my dear. I just wanted your denial.”
“Well then, you have it.”
“Well, there you go.”
“Upon your honour?”
"On your honor?"
“Upon my honour:”
"Honestly,"
And she made a point even, our young woman, of not turning away. Her grip of her shawl had loosened—she had let it fall behind her; but she stood there for anything more and till the weight should be lifted. With which she saw soon enough what more was to come. She saw it in Charlotte’s face, and felt it make between them, in the air, a chill that completed the coldness of their conscious perjury. “Will you kiss me on it then?”
And our young woman made sure not to look away. Her grip on her shawl had relaxed—she let it fall behind her; but she stood there, ready for whatever else might happen, waiting for the weight to be lifted. Soon enough, she understood what was coming. She saw it on Charlotte’s face and felt a chill between them in the air that intensified the coldness of their shared guilt. “So, will you kiss me on it then?”
She couldn’t say yes, but she didn’t say no; what availed her still, however, was to measure, in her passivity, how much too far Charlotte had come to retreat. But there was something different also, something for which, while her cheek received the prodigious kiss, she had her opportunity—the sight of the others, who, having risen from their cards to join the absent members of their party, had reached the open door at the end of the room and stopped short, evidently, in presence of the demonstration that awaited them. Her husband and her father were in front, and Charlotte’s embrace of her—which wasn’t to be distinguished, for them, either, she felt, from her embrace of Charlotte—took on with their arrival a high publicity.
She couldn’t say yes, but she didn’t say no; what mattered to her still was to gauge, in her passivity, how far Charlotte had gone to pull back. But there was something different as well, something for which, while she received the intense kiss, she had her chance—the sight of the others, who, having left their card game to join the absent members of their group, had reached the open door at the end of the room and stopped short, clearly taken aback by the scene that awaited them. Her husband and her father were at the front, and Charlotte’s embrace of her—which, she felt, couldn’t be different from her embrace of Charlotte—took on a significant public aspect with their arrival.
XXXVII
XXXVII
Her father had asked her, three days later, in an interval of calm, how she was affected, in the light of their reappearance and of their now perhaps richer fruition, by Dotty and Kitty, and by the once formidable Mrs. Rance; and the consequence of this inquiry had been, for the pair, just such another stroll together, away from the rest of the party and off into the park, as had asserted its need to them on the occasion of the previous visit of these anciently more agitating friends—that of their long talk, on a sequestered bench beneath one of the great trees, when the particular question had come up for them the then purblind discussion of which, at their enjoyed leisure, Maggie had formed the habit of regarding as the “first beginning” of their present situation. The whirligig of time had thus brought round for them again, on their finding themselves face to face while the others were gathering for tea on the terrace, the same odd impulse quietly to “slope”—so Adam Verver himself, as they went, familiarly expressed it—that had acted, in its way, of old; acted for the distant autumn afternoon and for the sharpness of their since so outlived crisis. It might have been funny to them now that the presence of Mrs. Rance and the Lutches—and with symptoms, too, at that time less developed—had once, for their anxiety and their prudence, constituted a crisis; it might have been funny that these ladies could ever have figured, to their imagination, as a symbol of dangers vivid enough to precipitate the need of a remedy. This amount of entertainment and assistance they were indeed disposed to extract from their actual impressions; they had been finding it, for months past, by Maggie’s view, a resource and a relief to talk, with an approach to intensity, when they met, of all the people they weren’t really thinking of and didn’t really care about, the people with whom their existence had begun almost to swarm; and they closed in at present round the spectres of their past, as they permitted themselves to describe the three ladies, with a better imitation of enjoying their theme than they had been able to achieve, certainly, during the stay, for instance, of the Castledeans. The Castledeans were a new joke, comparatively, and they had had—always to Maggie’s view—to teach themselves the way of it; whereas the Detroit, the Providence party, rebounding so from Providence, from Detroit, was an old and ample one, of which the most could be made and as to which a humorous insistence could be guarded.
Three days later, in a moment of calm, her father asked her how she felt about Dotty and Kitty, and the once-dominating Mrs. Rance, given their return and perhaps richer engagement. This question led them to take another walk together, away from the rest of the group and into the park, just like the last visit from these old, stirring friends. They found themselves on a secluded bench beneath one of the big trees, where they had a deep conversation, and Maggie had started to think of that moment as the "first beginning" of their current situation. Time had circled back for them again, as they faced each other while the others were gathering for tea on the terrace, and they felt that same odd yearning to "slope," as Adam Verver casually put it, just like they had on that distant autumn afternoon during their long-past crisis. It might have seemed amusing to them now that Mrs. Rance and the Lutches—who seemed less significant back then—had once created such anxiety and caution. It was funny to think that these women could ever have represented real threats that necessitated a response. They were keen to find humor and support in their present feelings; for months, they had been finding it helpful to talk passionately about all the people they weren’t really focused on and didn’t truly care about, the ones who had started to fill their lives. Now, they surrounded themselves with the memories of those three women, joking about them more enjoyably than they had during the stay of the Castledeans. The Castledeans were a relatively new punchline, and, as Maggie saw it, they'd had to learn to deal with that. On the other hand, the group from Detroit and Providence, which they had bounced back from, was an old and familiar topic, one that could be humorously examined.
Sharp and sudden, moreover, this afternoon, had been their well-nigh confessed desire just to rest together, a little, as from some strain long felt but never named; to rest, as who should say, shoulder to shoulder and hand in hand, each pair of eyes so yearningly—and indeed what could it be but so wearily?—closed as to render the collapse safe from detection by the other pair. It was positively as if, in short, the inward felicity of their being once more, perhaps only for half-an-hour, simply daughter and father had glimmered out for them, and they had picked up the pretext that would make it easiest. They were husband and wife—oh, so immensely!—as regards other persons; but after they had dropped again on their old bench, conscious that the party on the terrace, augmented, as in the past, by neighbours, would do beautifully without them, it was wonderfully like their having got together into some boat and paddled off from the shore where husbands and wives, luxuriant complications, made the air too tropical. In the boat they were father and daughter, and poor Dotty and Kitty supplied abundantly, for their situation, the oars or the sail. Why, into the bargain, for that matter—this came to Maggie—couldn’t they always live, so far as they lived together, in a boat? She felt in her face, with the question, the breath of a possibility that soothed her; they needed only KNOW each other, henceforth, in the unmarried relation. That other sweet evening, in the same place, he had been as unmarried as possible—which had kept down, so to speak, the quantity of change in their state. Well then, that other sweet evening was what the present sweet evening would resemble; with the quite calculable effect of an exquisite inward refreshment. They HAD, after all, whatever happened, always and ever each other; each other—that was the hidden treasure and the saving truth—to do exactly what they would with: a provision full of possibilities. Who could tell, as yet, what, thanks to it, they wouldn’t have done before the end?
Sharp and sudden, this afternoon, they had almost openly admitted their desire just to sit together and relax for a bit, as if from some long-felt strain that had never been named; to rest, so to speak, shoulder to shoulder and hand in hand, with each pair of eyes so longing—and indeed, how could it be anything but weary?—closed just enough to keep their collapse hidden from the other pair. It was almost as if the inner happiness of being together as daughter and father had briefly shown itself again, and they had found the perfect excuse to make it happen. They were husband and wife—oh, so much so!—when it came to others; but once they settled back on their old bench, aware that the group on the terrace, now joined by neighbors just like before, would manage perfectly without them, it was as if they had climbed into a boat and paddled away from the shore where the complexities of married life made the atmosphere too overwhelming. In that boat, they were father and daughter, and poor Dotty and Kitty provided all the oars or sails they needed for their situation. Why, on top of that—this thought struck Maggie—couldn’t they always live, as long as they lived together, in a boat? She felt on her face, with the thought, the breath of a possibility that calmed her; they only needed to KNOW each other, from now on, in an unmarried way. That other sweet evening, in the same spot, he had been as unmarried as could be—which had kept their situation, so to speak, from changing too much. Well then, that other sweet evening was what this present sweet evening would be like; with the reasonable effect of a beautiful inner refreshment. They HAD, after all, no matter what happened, always and forever each other; each other—that was the hidden treasure and the saving truth—to do exactly what they wanted with: a provision full of possibilities. Who could say, for certain, what they wouldn’t have done before it was all over, thanks to it?
They had meanwhile been tracing together, in the golden air that, toward six o’clock of a July afternoon, hung about the massed Kentish woods, several features of the social evolution of her old playmates, still beckoned on, it would seem, by unattainable ideals, still falling back, beyond the sea, to their native seats, for renewals of the moral, financial, conversational—one scarce knew what to call it—outfit, and again and for ever reappearing like a tribe of Wandering Jewesses. Our couple had finally exhausted, however, the study of these annals, and Maggie was to take up, after a drop, a different matter, or one at least with which the immediate connection was not at first apparent. “Were you amused at me just now—when I wondered what other people could wish to struggle for? Did you think me,” she asked with some earnestness—“well, fatuous?”
They had been discussing, in the warm air that surrounded the dense Kentish woods around six o’clock on a July afternoon, various aspects of the social changes of her old friends. These friends still seemed to be chasing unreachable goals, often returning across the sea to their hometowns to recharge their moral, financial, and conversational skills—whatever you might call it—reappearing like a group of wandering women. However, the couple had finally run out of things to analyze about these stories, and Maggie was about to shift to a different topic, one that didn’t initially seem related. “Did you find me amusing just now—when I wondered what other people might want to fight for? Did you think I was,” she asked earnestly, “well, foolish?”
“‘Fatuous’?”—he seemed at a loss.
“‘Fatuous’?”—he looked confused.
“I mean sublime in OUR happiness—as if looking down from a height. Or, rather, sublime in our general position—that’s what I mean.” She spoke as from the habit of her anxious conscience something that disposed her frequently to assure herself, for her human commerce, of the state of the “books” of the spirit. “Because I don’t at all want,” she explained, “to be blinded, or made ‘sniffy,’ by any sense of a social situation.” Her father listened to this declaration as if the precautions of her general mercy could still, as they betrayed themselves, have surprises for him—to say nothing of a charm of delicacy and beauty; he might have been wishing to see how far she could go and where she would, all touchingly to him, arrive. But she waited a little—as if made nervous, precisely, by feeling him depend too much on what she said. They were avoiding the serious, standing off, anxiously, from the real, and they fell, again and again, as if to disguise their precaution itself, into the tone of the time that came back to them from their other talk, when they had shared together this same refuge. “Don’t you remember,” she went on, “how, when they were here before, I broke it to you that I wasn’t so very sure we, ourselves had the thing itself?”
“I mean sublime in OUR happiness—as if looking down from a height. Or, rather, sublime in our overall position—that’s what I mean.” She spoke from the habit of her anxious conscience, something that made her frequently reassure herself about the state of the “books” of the spirit. “Because I really don’t want,” she explained, “to be blinded or made ‘sniffy’ by any sense of a social situation.” Her father listened to this declaration as if her general caution could still, despite revealing itself, hold surprises for him—not to mention a touch of delicacy and beauty; he might have been curious to see how far she could go and where, in an emotional way, she would end up. But she paused for a moment—as if feeling nervous because he depended too much on what she said. They were avoiding serious topics, stepping back anxiously from reality, and they fell, again and again, as if to hide their caution, into the tone of the era that echoed back from their earlier conversations, when they had shared this same escape. “Don’t you remember,” she continued, “how, when they were here before, I told you that I wasn’t so sure we actually had the real thing?”
He did his best to do so. “Had, you mean a social situation?”
He did his best to do so. “You mean a social situation?”
“Yes—after Fanny Assingham had first broken it to me that, at the rate we were going, we should never have one.”
“Yes—after Fanny Assingham first told me that, at the pace we were going, we would never have one.”
“Which was what put us on Charlotte?” Oh yes, they had had it over quite often enough for him easily to remember.
“Which was what got us involved with Charlotte?” Oh yes, they had discussed it often enough for him to easily remember.
Maggie had another pause—taking it from him that he now could both affirm and admit without wincing that they had been, at their critical moment, “put on” Charlotte. It was as if this recognition had been threshed out between them as fundamental to the honest view of their success. “Well,” she continued, “I recall how I felt, about Kitty and Dotty, that even if we had already then been more ‘placed,’ or whatever you may call what we are now, it still wouldn’t have been an excuse for wondering why others couldn’t obligingly leave me more exalted by having, themselves, smaller ideas. For those,” she said, “were the feelings we used to have.”
Maggie paused again, accepting that he could now both acknowledge and confess without flinching that they had, at their crucial moment, been “set up” by Charlotte. It was as if they had worked through this understanding as essential to honestly viewing their success. “Well,” she went on, “I remember how I felt about Kitty and Dotty; even if we had already been more 'established,' or whatever you want to call what we are now, it still wouldn’t have justified wondering why others couldn’t make me feel more important by having smaller ideas themselves. Because those,” she said, “were the feelings we used to have.”
“Oh yes,” he responded philosophically—“I remember the feelings we used to have.”
“Oh yeah,” he replied thoughtfully—“I remember the emotions we used to have.”
Maggie appeared to wish to plead for them a little, in tender retrospect—as if they had been also respectable. “It was bad enough, I thought, to have no sympathy in your heart when you HAD a position. But it was worse to be sublime about it—as I was so afraid, as I’m in fact still afraid of being—when it wasn’t even there to support one.” And she put forth again the earnestness she might have been taking herself as having outlived; became for it—which was doubtless too often even now her danger—almost sententious. “One must always, whether or no, have some imagination of the states of others—of what they may feel deprived of. However,” she added, “Kitty and Dotty couldn’t imagine we were deprived of anything. And now, and now—!” But she stopped as for indulgence to their wonder and envy.
Maggie seemed to want to defend them a bit, looking back fondly—as if they had been respectable too. “I thought it was pretty awful not to have any sympathy in your heart when you had a position. But it was even worse to act like it was fine—something I was so scared of being and still am—when there was nothing there to back me up.” She once again expressed the seriousness that she might have thought she had moved past; she became, perhaps too often, almost preachy about it. “You have to have some understanding of what others might be going through—what they could feel they’re missing. Still,” she added, “Kitty and Dotty couldn’t possibly think we were missing anything. And now, and now—!” But she paused, almost seeking their understanding of their wonder and jealousy.
“And now they see, still more, that we can have got everything, and kept everything, and yet not be proud.”
“And now they see, even more, that we can have everything, and keep everything, and still not be proud.”
“No, we’re not proud,” she answered after a moment. “I’m not sure that we’re quite proud enough.” Yet she changed the next instant that subject too. She could only do so, however, by harking back—as if it had been a fascination. She might have been wishing, under this renewed, this still more suggestive visitation, to keep him with her for remounting the stream of time and dipping again, for the softness of the water, into the contracted basin of the past. “We talked about it—we talked about it; you don’t remember so well as I. You too didn’t know—and it was beautiful of you; like Kitty and Dotty you too thought we had a position, and were surprised when I thought we ought to have told them we weren’t doing for them what they supposed. In fact,” Maggie pursued, “we’re not doing it now. We’re not, you see, really introducing them. I mean not to the people they want.”
“No, we’re not proud,” she replied after a moment. “I’m not sure we’re quite proud enough.” But she quickly changed the topic again. She could only do this by reflecting back—as if it had captivated her. She might have been hoping, under this renewed and even more compelling thought, to hold onto him while revisiting the past and easing back into the gentle flow of what was. “We talked about it—we talked about it; you don’t remember it as well as I do. You also didn’t know—and it was sweet of you; like Kitty and Dotty, you thought we had a standing, and were surprised when I thought we should have told them we weren’t providing for them what they believed. In fact,” Maggie continued, “we’re not doing it now. We’re not, you see, really introducing them. I mean not to the people they want.”
“Then what do you call the people with whom they’re now having tea?”
“Then what do you call the people they’re having tea with now?”
It made her quite spring round. “That’s just what you asked me the other time—one of the days there was somebody. And I told you I didn’t call anybody anything.”
It made her feel quite lively. “That’s exactly what you asked me last time—one of the days when someone was here. And I told you I didn’t call anyone anything.”
“I remember—that such people, the people we made so welcome, didn’t ‘count’; that Fanny Assingham knew they didn’t.” She had awakened, his daughter, the echo; and on the bench there, as before, he nodded his head amusedly, he kept nervously shaking his foot. “Yes, they were only good enough—the people who came—for US. I remember,” he said again: “that was the way it all happened.”
“I remember that those people, the ones we welcomed so warmly, didn’t ‘count’; Fanny Assingham knew that they didn’t.” She had triggered, in his daughter, the echo; and on the bench there, just like before, he nodded his head with amusement, nervously shaking his foot. “Yes, they were only good enough—the people who came—for US. I remember,” he said again, “that’s how it all happened.”
“That was the way—that was the way. And you asked me,” Maggie added, “if I didn’t think we ought to tell them. Tell Mrs. Rance, in particular, I mean, that we had been entertaining her up to then under false pretences.”
“That's how it was—that's how it was. And you asked me,” Maggie continued, “if I didn’t think we should tell them. Tell Mrs. Rance, specifically, that we had been hosting her until now under false pretenses.”
“Precisely—but you said she wouldn’t have understood.”
“Exactly—but you said she wouldn’t have gotten it.”
“To which you replied that in that case you were like her. YOU didn’t understand.”
“To which you replied that if that was the case, you were like her. YOU didn’t understand.”
“No, no—but I remember how, about our having, in our benighted innocence, no position, you quite crushed me with your explanation.”
“No, no—but I remember how, in our naive innocence, we had no real standing, and your explanation totally overwhelmed me.”
“Well then,” said Maggie with every appearance of delight, “I’ll crush you again. I told you that you by yourself had one—there was no doubt of that. You were different from me—you had the same one you always had.”
“Well then,” said Maggie, looking completely thrilled, “I’ll beat you again. I told you that you alone had one—there was no doubt about that. You were different from me—you had the same one you’ve always had.”
“And THEN I asked you,” her father concurred, “why in that case you hadn’t the same.”
“And THEN I asked you,” her father agreed, “so why didn’t you have the same thing?”
“Then indeed you did.” He had brought her face round to him before, and this held it, covering him with its kindled brightness, the result of the attested truth of their being able thus, in talk, to live again together. “What I replied was that I had lost my position by my marriage. THAT one—I know how I saw it—would never come back. I had done something TO it—I didn’t quite know what; given it away, somehow, and yet not, as then appeared, really got my return. I had been assured—always by dear Fanny—that I COULD get it, only I must wake up. So I was trying, you see, to wake up—trying very hard.”
“Then you really did.” He had turned her face towards him before, and now he held it there, his own face illuminated by her bright expression, a sign that they could, in conversation, reconnect like they used to. “What I said was that I lost my job because of my marriage. That one—I know how I viewed it—would never come back. I had done something to it—I wasn’t entirely sure what; somehow, I had given it away, but at the same time, it didn’t seem like I really got anything in return. I had been told—always by dear Fanny—that I could get it back, but I had to wake up. So, you see, I was trying to wake up—really trying hard.”
“Yes—and to a certain extent you succeeded; as also in waking me. But you made much,” he said, “of your difficulty.” To which he added: “It’s the only case I remember, Mag, of you ever making ANYTHING of a difficulty.”
“Yes—and to some degree, you succeeded; just like in waking me. But you really emphasized,” he said, “how hard it was for you.” He added, “It's the only time I recall, Mag, that you ever made a big deal out of a difficulty.”
She kept her eyes on him a moment. “That I was so happy as I was?”
She looked at him for a moment. “That I was as happy as I was?”
“That you were so happy as you were.”
“That you were as happy as you were.”
“Well, you admitted”—Maggie kept it up—“that that was a good difficulty. You confessed that our life did seem to be beautiful.”
“Well, you admitted”—Maggie continued—“that was a tough situation. You acknowledged that our life did seem beautiful.”
He thought a moment. “Yes—I may very well have confessed it, for so it did seem to me.” But he guarded himself with his dim, his easier smile. “What do you want to put on me now?”
He thought for a moment. “Yeah—I might have admitted it, because that’s how it seemed to me.” But he protected himself with his faint, more relaxed smile. “What are you trying to put on me now?”
“Only that we used to wonder—that we were wondering then—if our life wasn’t perhaps a little selfish.” This also for a time, much at his leisure, Adam Verver retrospectively fixed. “Because Fanny Assingham thought so?”
“Only that we used to wonder—that we were wondering then—if our life wasn’t perhaps a little selfish.” This also for a time, much at his leisure, Adam Verver looked back on. “Was it because Fanny Assingham thought so?”
“Oh no; she never thought, she couldn’t think, if she would, anything of that sort. She only thinks people are sometimes fools,” Maggie developed; “she doesn’t seem to think so much about their being wrong—wrong, that is, in the sense of being wicked. She doesn’t,” the Princess further adventured, “quite so much mind their being wicked.”
“Oh no; she never thought, she couldn’t think, if she would, anything of that kind. She just thinks people can be fools sometimes,” Maggie continued; “she doesn’t seem to worry so much about them being wrong—wrong, in the sense of being evil. She doesn’t,” the Princess added, “really mind their being wicked that much.”
“I see—I see.” And yet it might have been for his daughter that he didn’t so very vividly see. “Then she only thought US fools?”
“I get it—I get it.” And yet it might have been for his daughter that he didn’t see things so clearly. “So she just thought we were fools?”
“Oh no—I don’t say that. I’m speaking of our being selfish.”
“Oh no—I don’t mean that. I’m talking about our being selfish.”
“And that comes under the head of the wickedness Fanny condones?”
“And that falls under the category of the bad behavior Fanny accepts?”
“Oh, I don’t say she CONDONES—!” A scruple in Maggie raised its crest. “Besides, I’m speaking of what was.”
“Oh, I don’t say she approves—!” A concern in Maggie surfaced. “Besides, I’m talking about what happened before.”
Her father showed, however, after a little, that he had not been reached by this discrimination; his thoughts were resting for the moment where they had settled. “Look here, Mag,” he said reflectively—“I ain’t selfish. I’ll be blowed if I’m selfish.”
Her father quickly proved that this distinction hadn’t affected him; his thoughts were back where they had landed. “Listen, Mag,” he said thoughtfully—“I’m not selfish. I’ll be damned if I’m selfish.”
Well, Maggie, if he WOULD talk of that, could also pronounce. “Then, father, I am.”
Well, Maggie, if he would talk about that, he could also say it clearly. “Then, father, I am.”
“Oh shucks!” said Adam Verver, to whom the vernacular, in moments of deepest sincerity, could thus come back. “I’ll believe it,” he presently added, “when Amerigo complains of you.”
“Oh shucks!” said Adam Verver, to whom the everyday language, in moments of deep sincerity, could still return. “I’ll believe it,” he added, “when Amerigo complains about you.”
“Ah, it’s just he who’s my selfishness. I’m selfish, so to speak, FOR him. I mean,” she continued, “that he’s my motive—in everything.”
“Ah, it’s just that he’s my selfishness. I’m selfish, so to speak, FOR him. I mean,” she continued, “that he’s my reason—for everything.”
Well, her father could, from experience, fancy what she meant. “But hasn’t a girl a right to be selfish about her husband?”
Well, her father could, from experience, understand what she meant. “But doesn’t a girl have the right to be selfish about her husband?”
“What I DON’T mean,” she observed without answering, “is that I’m jealous of him. But that’s his merit—it’s not mine.”
“What I DON’T mean,” she noted without replying, “is that I’m jealous of him. But that’s his strength—it’s not mine.”
Her father again seemed amused at her. “You COULD be—otherwise?”
Her father seemed amused by her again. “You could be—otherwise?”
“Oh, how can I talk,” she asked, “of otherwise? It ISN’T, luckily for me, otherwise. If everything were different”—she further presented her thought—“of course everything WOULD be.” And then again, as if that were but half: “My idea is this, that when you only love a little you’re naturally not jealous—or are only jealous also a little, so that it doesn’t matter. But when you love in a deeper and intenser way, then you are, in the same proportion, jealous; your jealousy has intensity and, no doubt, ferocity. When, however, you love in the most abysmal and unutterable way of all—why then you’re beyond everything, and nothing can pull you down.”
“Oh, how can I talk,” she asked, “about anything else? Luckily for me, it’s not anything else. If everything were different”—she continued her thought—“of course everything would be.” And then again, as if that were just part of it: “My idea is this: when you only love a little, you’re naturally not jealous—or you’re only a little jealous, so it doesn’t matter. But when you love more deeply and intensely, then your jealousy is just as intense; it carries weight and, without a doubt, ferocity. However, when you love in the deepest and most profound way of all—then you’re beyond everything, and nothing can bring you down.”
Mr. Verver listened as if he had nothing, on these high lines, to oppose. “And that’s the way YOU love?”
Mr. Verver listened as if he had nothing to argue against on these high points. “So that’s how YOU love?”
For a minute she failed to speak, but at last she answered: “It wasn’t to talk about that. I do FEEL, however, beyond everything—and as a consequence of that, I dare say,” she added with a turn to gaiety, “seem often not to know quite WHERE I am.”
For a moment, she couldn’t find her words, but finally she replied, “That’s not what I wanted to discuss. I do feel, though, more than anything—and because of that, I guess,” she added with a cheerful twist, “I often seem to not quite know WHERE I am.”
The mere fine pulse of passion in it, the suggestion as of a creature consciously floating and shining in a warm summer sea, some element of dazzling sapphire and silver, a creature cradled upon depths, buoyant among dangers, in which fear or folly, or sinking otherwise than in play, was impossible—something of all this might have been making once more present to him, with his discreet, his half shy assent to it, her probable enjoyment of a rapture that he, in his day, had presumably convinced no great number of persons either of his giving or of his receiving. He sat awhile as if he knew himself hushed, almost admonished, and not for the first time; yet it was an effect that might have brought before him rather what she had gained than what he had missed.
The subtle, intense pulse of passion in it, the feeling of a being consciously floating and shimmering in a warm summer sea, some aspect of dazzling blue and silver, a creature supported by deep waters, buoyant amidst dangers, where fear or foolishness, or sinking for any reason other than play, was impossible—something like this might have reminded him once again, with his reserved, somewhat shy acceptance of it, of her likely enjoyment of a bliss that he, in his time, had probably convinced very few people he was either capable of giving or of receiving. He sat for a while as if he was aware of being quiet, almost warned, and not for the first time; yet it was a feeling that might have highlighted more what she had gained than what he had lost.
Besides, who but himself really knew what he, after all, hadn’t, or even had, gained? The beauty of her condition was keeping him, at any rate, as he might feel, in sight of the sea, where, though his personal dips were over, the whole thing could shine at him, and the air and the plash and the play become for him too a sensation. That couldn’t be fixed upon him as missing; since if it wasn’t personally floating, if it wasn’t even sitting in the sand, it could yet pass very well for breathing the bliss, in a communicated irresistible way—for tasting the balm. It could pass, further, for knowing—for knowing that without him nothing might have been: which would have been missing least of all.
Besides, who really knew what he had or hadn't gained? The beauty of her situation was keeping him, regardless of how he felt, in view of the sea, where, even though his personal experiences were over, everything could still shine at him, and the air and the waves and the playfulness could become a feeling for him too. That couldn’t be seen as something he was lacking; since, even if it wasn't something he was personally immersed in, or even sitting on the beach, it could still very well feel like breathing in the joy, in an irresistibly shared way—like tasting the comfort. It could also feel like knowing—for knowing that without him, nothing might have happened: which would have been the least of the things missing.
“I guess I’ve never been jealous,” he finally remarked. And it said more to her, he had occasion next to perceive, than he was intending; for it made her, as by the pressure of a spring, give him a look that seemed to tell of things she couldn’t speak.
“I guess I’ve never been jealous,” he finally said. And it meant more to her, he realized, than he intended; because it made her, like a spring being compressed, give him a look that seemed to convey things she couldn’t articulate.
But she at last tried for one of them. “Oh, it’s you, father, who are what I call beyond everything. Nothing can pull YOU down.”
But she finally went for one of them. “Oh, it’s you, dad, who I think is above everything. Nothing can bring YOU down.”
He returned the look as with the sociability of their easy communion, though inevitably throwing in this time a shade of solemnity. He might have been seeing things to say, and others, whether of a type presumptuous or not, doubtless better kept back. So he settled on the merely obvious. “Well then, we make a pair. We’re all right.”
He matched the gaze with the friendly ease of their conversation, though this time there was an undeniable seriousness about it. He might have had deeper thoughts to share, and some things, no matter how bold, were probably better left unsaid. So he chose to stick with the obvious. “Well then, we make a pair. We’re good.”
“Oh, we’re all right!” A declaration launched not only with all her discriminating emphasis, but confirmed by her rising with decision and standing there as if the object of their small excursion required accordingly no further pursuit. At this juncture, however—with the act of their crossing the bar, to get, as might be, into port—there occurred the only approach to a betrayal of their having had to beat against the wind. Her father kept his place, and it was as if she had got over first and were pausing for her consort to follow. If they were all right; they were all right; yet he seemed to hesitate and wait for some word beyond. His eyes met her own, suggestively, and it was only after she had contented herself with simply smiling at him, smiling ever so fixedly, that he spoke, for the remaining importance of it, from the bench; where he leaned back, raising his face to her, his legs thrust out a trifle wearily and his hands grasping either side of the seat. They had beaten against the wind, and she was still fresh; they had beaten against the wind, and he, as at the best the more battered vessel, perhaps just vaguely drooped. But the effect of their silence was that she appeared to beckon him on, and he might have been fairly alongside of her when, at the end of another minute, he found their word. “The only thing is that, as for ever putting up again with your pretending that you’re selfish—!”
“Oh, we’re all good!” she declared, emphasizing her point while rising with determination and standing there as if their little outing didn’t need any further discussion. However, at that moment—when they were crossing the bar to reach the shore—there was a hint that their journey had been tough against the wind. Her father stayed where he was, almost as if she had advanced first and was now waiting for him to catch up. If they were all good; then they were all good; yet he seemed to hesitate, waiting for something more to be said. His eyes met hers meaningfully, and only after she smiled at him, a smile that was unwavering, did he speak from the bench where he reclined, raising his face toward her, his legs stretched out a bit tiredly and his hands gripping the sides of the seat. They had struggled against the wind, and she looked fresh; they had struggled against the wind, and he, perhaps the more worn-down one, seemed somewhat deflated. But their silence suggested she was encouraging him to continue, and he might have been almost next to her when, after another minute, he found the words. “The only thing is that, as far as dealing with your pretending to be selfish—!”
At this she helped him out with it. “You won’t take it from me?”
At this, she assisted him with it. “You won’t take it from me?”
“I won’t take it from you.”
“I won’t accept it from you.”
“Well, of course you won’t, for that’s your way. It doesn’t matter, and it only proves—! But it doesn’t matter, either, what it proves. I’m at this very moment,” she declared, “frozen stiff with selfishness.”
“Well, of course you won't, because that's just how you are. It doesn’t matter, and it just proves—! But honestly, it doesn’t matter what it proves, either. Right now,” she declared, “I'm completely frozen with selfishness.”
He faced her awhile longer in the same way; it was, strangely, as if, by this sudden arrest, by their having, in their acceptance of the unsaid, or at least their reference to it, practically given up pretending—it was as if they were “in” for it, for something they had been ineffably avoiding, but the dread of which was itself, in a manner, a seduction, just as any confession of the dread was by so much an allusion. Then she seemed to see him let himself go. “When a person’s of the nature you speak of there are always other persons to suffer. But you’ve just been describing to me what you’d take, if you had once a good chance, from your husband.”
He faced her for a while longer in the same way; it was, oddly enough, as if this sudden pause, by their acknowledgment of the unspoken, or at least their reference to it, practically made them stop pretending—it felt like they were committed to something they had been deeply avoiding, but the fear of which was, in a way, enticing, just like any confession of that fear was a hint. Then she seemed to notice him relax. “When someone has the nature you’re talking about, there are always others who end up suffering. But you just described to me what you would take, given a good chance, from your husband.”
“Oh, I’m not talking about my husband!”
“Oh, I’m not talking about my husband!”
“Then whom, ARE you talking about?”
“Then who are you talking about?”
Both the retort and the rejoinder had come quicker than anything previously exchanged, and they were followed, on Maggie’s part, by a momentary drop. But she was not to fall away, and while her companion kept his eyes on her, while she wondered if he weren’t expecting her to name his wife then, with high hypocrisy, as paying for his daughter’s bliss, she produced something that she felt to be much better. “I’m talking about YOU.”
Both the response and the reply came faster than anything exchanged before, and they were followed by a brief pause from Maggie. But she wasn't going to back down, and while her companion kept his eyes on her, as she wondered if he was expecting her to name his wife then, with false virtue, as responsible for his daughter’s happiness, she said something that she believed was much better. “I’m talking about YOU.”
“Do you mean I’ve been your victim?”
“Are you saying I’ve been your victim?”
“Of course you’ve been my victim. What have you done, ever done, that hasn’t been FOR me?”
“Of course you’ve been my victim. What have you ever done that hasn’t been for me?”
“Many things; more than I can tell you—things you’ve only to think of for yourself. What do you make of all that I’ve done for myself?”
“Many things; more than I can share with you—things you just have to consider for yourself. What do you think of everything I’ve done for myself?”
“‘Yourself’?—” She brightened out with derision.
“‘Yourself’?—” She responded with a mocking smile.
“What do you make of what I’ve done for American City?”
“What do you think about what I’ve done for American City?”
It took her but a moment to say. “I’m not talking of you as a public character—I’m talking of you on your personal side.”
It took her just a moment to say, “I’m not talking about you as a public figure—I’m talking about you personally.”
“Well, American City—if ‘personalities’ can do it—has given me a pretty personal side. What do you make,” he went on, “of what I’ve done for my reputation?”
“Well, American City—if ‘personalities’ can do it—has given me a pretty personal side. What do you think,” he continued, “of what I’ve done for my reputation?”
“Your reputation THERE? You’ve given it up to them, the awful people, for less than nothing; you’ve given it up to them to tear to pieces, to make their horrible vulgar jokes against you with.”
“Your reputation THERE? You've handed it over to them, those terrible people, for nothing at all; you've let them tear it apart and make their awful, crude jokes about you.”
“Ah, my dear, I don’t care for their horrible vulgar jokes,” Adam Verver almost artlessly urged.
“Ah, my dear, I don’t care for their terrible vulgar jokes,” Adam Verver almost casually insisted.
“Then there, exactly, you are!” she triumphed. “Everything that touches you, everything that surrounds you, goes on—by your splendid indifference and your incredible permission—at your expense.”
“Then there you are!” she exclaimed triumphantly. “Everything that affects you, everything around you, continues—thanks to your amazing indifference and your unbelievable permission—at your cost.”
Just as he had been sitting he looked at her an instant longer; then he slowly rose, while his hands stole into his pockets, and stood there before her. “Of course, my dear, YOU go on at my expense: it has never been my idea,” he smiled, “that you should work for your living. I wouldn’t have liked to see it.” With which, for a little again, they remained face to face. “Say therefore I HAVE had the feelings of a father. How have they made me a victim?”
Just as he had been sitting, he looked at her for a moment longer; then he slowly got up, his hands slipping into his pockets, and stood there in front of her. “Of course, my dear, YOU go on at my expense: I’ve never thought it should be your job to earn a living. I wouldn’t have liked to see that,” he smiled. They stood facing each other for a little while longer. “So, I’ve had the feelings of a father. How have they made me a victim?”
“Because I sacrifice you.”
“Because I sacrifice you.”
“But to what in the world?”
“But to what in the world?”
At this it hung before her that she should have had as never yet her opportunity to say, and it held her for a minute as in a vise, her impression of his now, with his strained smile, which touched her to deepest depths, sounding her in his secret unrest. This was the moment, in the whole process of their mutual vigilance, in which it decidedly most hung by a hair that their thin wall might be pierced by the lightest wrong touch. It shook between them, this transparency, with their very breath; it was an exquisite tissue, but stretched on a frame, and would give way the next instant if either so much as breathed too hard. She held her breath, for she knew by his eyes, the light at the heart of which he couldn’t blind, that he was, by his intention, making sure—sure whether or no her certainty was like his. The intensity of his dependence on it at that moment—this itself was what absolutely convinced her so that, as if perched up before him on her vertiginous point and in the very glare of his observation, she balanced for thirty seconds, she almost rocked: she might have been for the time, in all her conscious person, the very form of the equilibrium they were, in their different ways, equally trying to save. And they were saving it—yes, they were, or at least she was: that was still the workable issue, she could say, as she felt her dizziness drop. She held herself hard; the thing was to be done, once for all, by her acting, now, where she stood. So much was crowded into so short a space that she knew already she was keeping her head. She had kept it by the warning of his eyes; she shouldn’t lose it again; she knew how and why, and if she had turned cold this was precisely what helped her. He had said to himself “She’ll break down and name Amerigo; she’ll say it’s to him she’s sacrificing me; and its by what that will give me—with so many other things too—that my suspicion will be clinched.” He was watching her lips, spying for the symptoms of the sound; whereby these symptoms had only to fail and he would have got nothing that she didn’t measure out to him as she gave it. She had presently in fact so recovered herself that she seemed to know she could more easily have made him name his wife than he have made her name her husband. It was there before her that if she should so much as force him just NOT consciously to avoid saying “Charlotte, Charlotte” he would have given himself away. But to be sure of this was enough for her, and she saw more clearly with each lapsing instant what they were both doing. He was doing what he had steadily been coming to; he was practically OFFERING himself, pressing himself upon her, as a sacrifice—he had read his way so into her best possibility; and where had she already, for weeks and days past, planted her feet if not on her acceptance of the offer? Cold indeed, colder and colder she turned, as she felt herself suffer this close personal vision of his attitude still not to make her weaken. That was her very certitude, the intensity of his pressure; for if something dreadful hadn’t happened there wouldn’t, for either of them, be these dreadful things to do. She had meanwhile, as well, the immense advantage that she could have named Charlotte without exposing herself—as, for that matter, she was the next minute showing him.
At this moment, it struck her that she had a unique opportunity to speak, and it held her for a minute like a vise, her impression of him now, with his strained smile, touching her deeply, revealing his secret unrest. This was the moment, in their ongoing mutual vigilance, where it was hanging by a thread that their thin barrier might be pierced by the slightest wrong move. It shook between them, this transparency, with each breath; it was a delicate fabric, but stretched on a frame, ready to give way the next moment if either of them so much as breathed too hard. She held her breath, knowing from his eyes, the light at the center of which he couldn't hide, that he was intentionally making sure—confirming whether her certainty matched his. The intensity of his reliance on this at that moment—it completely convinced her so that, as if she were precariously poised before him and under the full glare of his gaze, she balanced there for thirty seconds, almost swaying: she might have been, in that moment, the very embodiment of the balance they were, in their own ways, both trying to maintain. And they were maintaining it—yes, they were, or at least she was: that was still the critical issue, she thought, as she felt her dizziness subside. She steadied herself; it had to be done, once and for all, by her acting here and now. So much was packed into such a brief moment that she already knew she was keeping her composure. She had managed it by the warning in his eyes; she wouldn’t lose it again; she knew how and why, and if she felt cold, it was precisely what helped her. He had told himself, “She’ll break down and mention Amerigo; she’ll say she’s sacrificing me for him; and it’s what that will confirm my suspicion—along with many other things.” He was watching her lips, searching for signs of the words; and as long as those signs didn’t show, he wouldn’t gain anything that she didn’t intend to give him. She had quickly regained her composure to the point where she knew she could have made him name his wife more easily than he could have made her name her husband. It was clear to her that if she pushed him just NOT to consciously avoid saying “Charlotte, Charlotte,” he would have revealed himself. But just knowing this was enough for her, and with each passing moment, she saw more clearly what they were both doing. He was doing what he had been steadily approaching; he was practically OFFERING himself, pressing himself upon her, as a sacrifice—he had understood her best potential; and where had she already, for weeks and days past, planted her feet if not on her acceptance of the offer? Indeed, she felt herself turning colder and colder as she endured this intimate view of his stance without letting it weaken her. That was her very certainty, the intensity of his pressure; for if something terrible hadn’t happened, there wouldn’t, for either of them, be these terrible things to confront. Meanwhile, she also had the huge advantage that she could have named Charlotte without revealing her own vulnerability—as, in fact, she was showing him the next minute.
“Why, I sacrifice you, simply, to everything and to every one. I take the consequences of your marriage as perfectly natural.”
“Why, I’m sacrificing you, plain and simple, to everything and everyone. I see the consequences of your marriage as totally normal.”
He threw back his head a little, settling with one hand his eyeglass. “What do you call, my dear, the consequences?”
He tilted his head back slightly, adjusting his eyeglass with one hand. “What do you think, my dear, are the consequences?”
“Your life as your marriage has made it.”
“Your life is shaped by your marriage.”
“Well, hasn’t it made it exactly what we wanted?” She just hesitated, then felt herself steady—oh, beyond what she had dreamed. “Exactly what I wanted—yes.”
“Well, hasn’t it turned out to be exactly what we wanted?” She paused for a moment, then felt herself steady—oh, even more than she had imagined. “Exactly what I wanted—yes.”
His eyes, through his straightened glasses, were still on hers, and he might, with his intenser fixed smile, have been knowing she was, for herself, rightly inspired. “What do you make then of what I wanted?”
His eyes, peering through his adjusted glasses, were still on hers, and with his more intense fixed smile, he might have realized she was genuinely inspired. “So, what do you think about what I wanted?”
“I don’t make anything, any more than of what you’ve got. That’s exactly the point. I don’t put myself out to do so—I never have; I take from you all I can get, all you’ve provided for me, and I leave you to make of your own side of the matter what you can. There you are—the rest is your own affair. I don’t even pretend to concern myself—!”
“I don’t create anything, just like you don’t create anything. That’s the whole point. I don’t bother to do that—I never have; I take from you all I can, everything you’ve given me, and I leave you to deal with your side of things however you want. That’s it—what happens next is up to you. I don’t even pretend to care—!”
“To concern yourself—?” He watched her as she faintly faltered, looking about her now so as not to keep always meeting his face.
“To worry about yourself—?” He observed her as she slightly hesitated, glancing around now to avoid constantly facing him.
“With what may have REALLY become of you. It’s as if we had agreed from the first not to go into that—such an arrangement being of course charming for ME. You can’t say, you know, that I haven’t stuck to it.”
“With what may have REALLY become of you. It’s as if we had agreed from the start not to go into that—such an arrangement being, of course, delightful for ME. You can’t say, you know, that I haven’t stuck to it.”
He didn’t say so then—even with the opportunity given him of her stopping once more to catch her breath. He said instead: “Oh, my dear—oh, oh!”
He didn’t say it then—even with the chance he had when she paused again to catch her breath. Instead, he said: “Oh, my dear—oh, oh!”
But it made no difference, know as she might what a past—still so recent and yet so distant—it alluded to; she repeated her denial, warning him off, on her side, from spoiling the truth of her contention. “I never went into anything, and you see I don’t; I’ve continued to adore you—but what’s that, from a decent daughter to such a father? what but a question of convenient arrangement, our having two houses, three houses, instead of one (you would have arranged for fifty if I had wished!) and my making it easy for you to see the child? You don’t claim, I suppose, that my natural course, once you had set up for yourself, would have been to ship you back to American City?”
But it didn't matter, no matter how much she knew about the past—still so recent yet so far away—it referenced; she stuck to her denial, warning him off from ruining the truth of her argument. “I never got involved, and you see I don’t; I’ve kept on loving you—but what does that mean, from a good daughter to such a father? It’s just a matter of convenience, us having two houses, three houses, instead of one (you would have set up fifty if I had wanted it!) and me making it easy for you to see the child? You don’t seriously think that my natural choice, once you established your own life, would have been to send you back to American City?”
These were direct inquiries, they quite rang out, in the soft, wooded air; so that Adam Verver, for a minute, appeared to meet them with reflection. She saw reflection, however, quickly enough show him what to do with them. “Do you know, Mag, what you make me wish when you talk that way?” And he waited again, while she further got from him the sense of something that had been behind, deeply in the shade, coming cautiously to the front and just feeling its way before presenting itself. “You regularly make me wish that I had shipped back to American City. When you go on as you do—” But he really had to hold himself to say it.
These were straightforward questions that echoed in the soft, wooded air; so for a moment, Adam Verver seemed to ponder them. However, she quickly noticed that he figured out how to respond. “You know, Mag, when you talk like that, it makes me wish I had gone back to American City.” He paused again, as she sensed something that had been lurking in the background, cautiously coming forward and testing the waters before revealing itself. “You really make me wish—” but he had to restrain himself to say it.
“Well, when I go on—?”
"Well, when I continue—?"
“Why, you make me quite want to ship back myself. You make me quite feel as if American City would be the best place for us.”
“Wow, you really make me want to go back home. You make me feel like American City would be the perfect place for us.”
It made her all too finely vibrate. “For ‘us’—?”
It made her feel intensely alive. “For 'us'—?”
“For me and Charlotte. Do you know that if we should ship, it would serve you quite right?” With which he smiled—oh he smiled! “And if you say much more we WILL ship.”
“For me and Charlotte. Do you know that if we were to get together, it would be totally your fault?” With that, he smiled—oh, he smiled! “And if you say any more, we WILL get together.”
Ah, then it was that the cup of her conviction, full to the brim, overflowed at a touch! THERE was his idea, the clearness of which for an instant almost dazzled her. It was a blur of light, in the midst of which she saw Charlotte like some object marked, by contrast, in blackness, saw her waver in the field of vision, saw her removed, transported, doomed. And he had named Charlotte, named her again, and she had MADE him—which was all she had needed more: it was as if she had held a blank letter to the fire and the writing had come out still larger than she hoped. The recognition of it took her some seconds, but she might when she spoke have been folding up these precious lines and restoring them to her pocket. “Well, I shall be as much as ever then the cause of what you do. I haven’t the least doubt of your being up to that if you should think I might get anything out of it; even the little pleasure,” she laughed, “of having said, as you call it, ‘more.’ Let my enjoyment of this therefore, at any price, continue to represent for you what I call sacrificing you.”
Ah, at that moment, her conviction, overflowing, tipped over with the slightest touch! THERE was his idea, which, for a brief instant, almost blinded her with its clarity. It was a burst of light, in the middle of which she saw Charlotte, starkly contrasted in darkness, saw her flicker in her vision, saw her distant, carried away, doomed. And he had named Charlotte, called her out again, and she had MADE him—which was all she needed: it was like holding a blank letter to the fire and having the writing appear even bigger than she expected. It took her a few seconds to recognize it, but when she finally spoke, it was as if she were folding these valuable lines and putting them back in her pocket. “Well, I’ll still be the reason for what you do. I have no doubt you’ll go for it if you think I might get something out of it; even just the small joy,” she laughed, “of having said, as you put it, ‘more.’ So let my pleasure in this, whatever the cost, always represent for you what I call sacrificing you.”
She had drawn a long breath; she had made him do it ALL for her, and had lighted the way to it without his naming her husband. That silence had been as distinct as the sharp, the inevitable sound, and something now, in him, followed it up, a sudden air as of confessing at last fully to where she was and of begging the particular question. “Don’t you think then I can take care of myself?”
She took a deep breath; she had made him do everything for her, guiding him to it without him mentioning her husband. That silence had been as clear as a sharp, unavoidable sound, and now, something in him seemed to catch up with it, a sudden feeling of finally confessing where he stood and of asking the specific question. “Don’t you think I can take care of myself?”
“Ah, it’s exactly what I’ve gone upon. If it wasn’t for that—!”
“Ah, it’s exactly what I’ve been through. If it weren’t for that—!”
But she broke off, and they remained only another moment face to face. “I’ll let you know, my dear, the day I feel you’ve begun to sacrifice me.”
But she stopped, and they stayed just another moment face to face. “I’ll let you know, my dear, the day I feel you’ve started to sacrifice me.”
“‘Begun’?” she extravagantly echoed.
“‘Begun’?” she dramatically echoed.
“Well, it will be, for me, the day you’ve ceased to believe in me.”
“Well, it will be, for me, the day you stop believing in me.”
With which, his glasses still fixed on her, his hands in his pockets, his hat pushed back, his legs a little apart, he seemed to plant or to square himself for a kind of assurance it had occurred to him he might as well treat her to, in default of other things, before they changed their subject. It had the effect, for her, of a reminder—a reminder of all he was, of all he had done, of all, above and beyond his being her perfect little father, she might take him as representing, take him as having, quite eminently, in the eyes of two hemispheres, been capable of, and as therefore wishing, not—was it?—illegitimately, to call her attention to. The “successful,” beneficent person, the beautiful, bountiful, original, dauntlessly wilful great citizen, the consummate collector and infallible high authority he had been and still was—these things struck her, on the spot, as making up for him, in a wonderful way, a character she must take into account in dealing with him either for pity or for envy. He positively, under the impression, seemed to loom larger than life for her, so that she saw him during these moments in a light of recognition which had had its brightness for her at many an hour of the past, but which had never been so intense and so almost admonitory. His very quietness was part of it now, as always part of everything, of his success, his originality, his modesty, his exquisite public perversity, his inscrutable, incalculable energy; and this quality perhaps it might be—all the more too as the result, for the present occasion, of an admirable, traceable effort—that placed him in her eyes as no precious a work of art probably had ever been placed in his own. There was a long moment, absolutely, during which her impression rose and rose, even as that of the typical charmed gazer, in the still museum, before the named and dated object, the pride of the catalogue, that time has polished and consecrated. Extraordinary, in particular, was the number of the different ways in which he thus affected her as showing. He was strong—that was the great thing. He was sure—sure for himself, always, whatever his idea: the expression of that in him had somehow never appeared more identical with his proved taste for the rare and the true. But what stood out beyond everything was that he was always, marvellously, young—which couldn’t but crown, at this juncture, his whole appeal to her imagination. Before she knew it she was lifted aloft by the consciousness that he was simply a great and deep and high little man, and that to love him with tenderness was not to be distinguished, a whit, from loving him with pride. It came to her, all strangely, as a sudden, an immense relief. The sense that he wasn’t a failure, and could never be, purged their predicament of every meanness—made it as if they had really emerged, in their transmuted union, to smile almost without pain. It was like a new confidence, and after another instant she knew even still better why. Wasn’t it because now, also, on his side, he was thinking of her as his daughter, was TRYING her, during these mute seconds, as the child of his blood? Oh then, if she wasn’t with her little conscious passion, the child of any weakness, what was she but strong enough too? It swelled in her, fairly; it raised her higher, higher: she wasn’t in that case a failure either—hadn’t been, but the contrary; his strength was her strength, her pride was his, and they were decent and competent together. This was all in the answer she finally made him.
With that, and still looking at her with his glasses on, hands in his pockets, hat tilted back, legs slightly apart, he seemed to steady himself for a kind of confidence he figured he might as well give her, since they had nothing else to discuss before changing the subject. For her, it served as a reminder—a reminder of who he was, what he had done, and everything he represented beyond just being her perfect little father, as if he had been, in the eyes of two areas of the world, capable of something significant and wanting, perhaps not inappropriately, to draw her attention to it. The “successful,” generous person, the charming, abundant, unique, boldly determined great citizen, the ultimate collector and reliable authority he had been and still was—these aspects struck her, right then, as building up an impressive character she had to consider in her feelings for him, whether out of pity or envy. He truly, under that impression, seemed to loom larger than life for her, allowing her to see him during those moments in a way that had sparkled for her many times in the past but had never felt so intense or almost cautionary. His composed nature added to it all, as it always did, to his success, creativity, humility, his exquisite public defiance, his mysterious, unpredictable energy; and perhaps because of a clear, notable effort for this occasion, it placed him in her view as no treasured piece of art had likely ever been positioned in his own. There was a long moment where her impression kept growing, just like that of someone enchanted, standing before a prized and polished object in a quiet museum. What was particularly extraordinary was the many different ways he affected her. He was strong—that was the main thing. He was confident—confident in himself, always, regardless of his thoughts: that confidence in him had somehow never seemed more aligned with his proven taste for the unique and genuine. But what stood out most was that he was always, wonderfully, young—which only enhanced his entire appeal to her imagination at that moment. Before she realized it, she was lifted by the awareness that he was simply a remarkable, deep, little man, and that loving him tenderly was no different at all from feeling pride in him. It came to her, strangely, as a sudden, immense relief. The realization that he wasn’t a failure, and could never be, purified their situation of all smallness—it made it feel as if they had truly emerged, in their transformed connection, to smile almost without pain. It felt like a newfound confidence, and after another moment, she understood even better why. Wasn’t it because, on his side too, he was thinking of her as his daughter, considering her, during these silent seconds, as the child of his blood? Oh then, if she wasn’t with her little conscious passion the child of any weakness, what was she but strong enough as well? It swelled within her, entirely; it lifted her higher, higher: she wasn’t a failure in that case either—hadn’t been, but the opposite; his strength was her strength, her pride was his, and they were decent and capable together. This was all in the response she finally gave him.
“I believe in you more than any one.”
“I believe in you more than anyone else.”
“Than any one at all?”
"Than anyone at all?"
She hesitated, for all it might mean; but there was—oh a thousand times!—no doubt of it. “Than any one at all.” She kept nothing of it back now, met his eyes over it, let him have the whole of it; after which she went on: “And that’s the way, I think, you believe in me.”
She hesitated, considering what it might mean; but there was—oh a thousand times!—no doubt about it. “More than anyone else.” She didn’t hold anything back now, met his gaze directly, gave him everything; after which she continued: “And that’s how I believe you feel about me.”
He looked at her a minute longer, but his tone at last was right. “About the way—yes.”
He stared at her for another minute, but finally, his tone was just right. “About the way—yeah.”
“Well then—?” She spoke as for the end and for other matters—for anything, everything, else there might be. They would never return to it.
“Well then—?” She spoke as if it were the end and about other things—for anything, everything else that could exist. They would never come back to it.
“Well then—!” His hands came out, and while her own took them he drew her to his breast and held her. He held her hard and kept her long, and she let herself go; but it was an embrace that, august and almost stern, produced, for all its intimacy, no revulsion and broke into no inconsequence of tears.
“Well then—!” He reached out his hands, and as she took them, he pulled her close to his chest and held her tightly. He held her firmly and for a long time, and she allowed herself to relax; but it was a hug that, dignified and almost serious, created, despite its closeness, no feeling of discomfort and didn’t lead to any pointless tears.
XXXVIII
XXXVIII
Maggie was to feel, after this passage, how they had both been helped through it by the influence of that accident of her having been caught, a few nights before, in the familiar embrace of her father’s wife. His return to the saloon had chanced to coincide exactly with this demonstration, missed moreover neither by her husband nor by the Assinghams, who, their card-party suspended, had quitted the billiard-room with him. She had been conscious enough at the time of what such an impression, received by the others, might, in that extended state, do for her case; and none the less that, as no one had appeared to wish to be the first to make a remark about it, it had taken on perceptibly the special shade of consecration conferred by unanimities of silence. The effect, she might have considered, had been almost awkward—the promptitude of her separation from Charlotte, as if they had been discovered in some absurdity, on her becoming aware of spectators. The spectators, on the other hand—that was the appearance—mightn’t have supposed them, in the existing relation, addicted to mutual endearments; and yet, hesitating with a fine scruple between sympathy and hilarity, must have felt that almost any spoken or laughed comment could be kept from sounding vulgar only by sounding, beyond any permitted measure, intelligent. They had evidently looked, the two young wives, like a pair of women “making up” effusively, as women were supposed to do, especially when approved fools, after a broil; but taking note of the reconciliation would imply, on her father’s part, on Amerigo’s, and on Fanny Assingham’s, some proportionate vision of the grounds of their difference. There had been something, there had been but too much, in the incident, for each observer; yet there was nothing any one could have said without seeming essentially to say: “See, see, the dear things—their quarrel’s blissfully over!” “Our quarrel? What quarrel?” the dear things themselves would necessarily, in that case, have demanded; and the wits of the others would thus have been called upon for some agility of exercise. No one had been equal to the flight of producing, off-hand, a fictive reason for any estrangement—to take, that is, the place of the true, which had so long, for the finer sensibility, pervaded the air; and every one, accordingly, not to be inconveniently challenged, was pretending, immediately after, to have remarked nothing that any one else hadn’t.
Maggie would come to realize, after this moment, how both she and Charlotte had been supported by the fact that just a few nights before, she had been caught in the familiar embrace of her father’s wife. His return to the bar happened to perfectly coincide with this scene, which was also noted by her husband and the Assinghams, who had left the billiard room with him during their card game. At the time, she was keenly aware of how the impression it made on others could potentially impact her situation; yet, since no one seemed eager to break the silence about it, it acquired a notable weight from the shared quiet. The effect was almost awkward—the immediate distance she put between herself and Charlotte, as if they had been caught in an embarrassing moment, became clear the second she noticed the audience. Conversely, the spectators—at least that's how it appeared—might not have thought them, given their current relationship, inclined to show affection for each other; nevertheless, caught between a sense of sympathy and amusement, they must have realized that any spoken comment or laughter could only avoid sounding crass if it came across as exceptionally clever. The two young wives obviously looked like a couple of women happily reconciling, as women were expected to do, especially when foolishly approved, after a spat; however, acknowledging the reconciliation would require her father, Amerigo, and Fanny Assingham to have some understanding of why they had quarreled in the first place. There was something—too much, really—in the incident for every observer; yet no one could have said anything without effectively implying: “Look, look, the sweethearts—their dispute is delightfully resolved!” “Our dispute? What dispute?” the sweethearts themselves would surely have asked in reply, thus putting the observers in a position to think on their feet. No one was able to quickly come up with a made-up reason for any rift—to substitute for the real issue that had long, for those with a finer sensibility, hung in the atmosphere; so everyone, to avoid any tricky questions, pretended right afterward that they hadn’t noticed anything different from what everyone else had.
Maggie’s own measure had remained, all the same, full of the reflection caught from the total inference; which had acted, virtually, by enabling every one present—and oh Charlotte not least!—to draw a long breath. The message of the little scene had been different for each, but it had been this, markedly, all round, that it reinforced—reinforced even immensely—the general effort, carried on from week to week and of late distinctly more successful, to look and talk and move as if nothing in life were the matter. Supremely, however, while this glass was held up to her, had Maggie’s sense turned to the quality of the success constituted, on the spot, for Charlotte. Most of all, if she was guessing how her father must have secretly started, how her husband must have secretly wondered, how Fanny Assingham must have secretly, in a flash, seen daylight for herself—most of all had she tasted, by communication, of the high profit involved for her companion. She FELT, in all her pulses, Charlotte feel it, and how publicity had been required, absolutely, to crown her own abasement. It was the added touch, and now nothing was wanting—which, to do her stepmother justice, Mrs. Verver had appeared but to desire, from that evening, to show, with the last vividness, that she recognised. Maggie lived over again the minutes in question—had found herself repeatedly doing so; to the degree that the whole evening hung together, to her aftersense, as a thing appointed by some occult power that had dealt with her, that had for instance—animated the four with just the right restlessness too, had decreed and directed and exactly timed it in them, making their game of bridge—however abysmal a face it had worn for her—give way, precisely, to their common unavowed impulse to find out, to emulate Charlotte’s impatience; a preoccupation, this latter, attached detectedly to the member of the party who was roaming in her queerness and was, for all their simulated blindness, not roaming unnoted.
Maggie’s own perspective, though, was still filled with the insights derived from the overall situation; it had practically allowed everyone present—and especially Charlotte—to take a deep breath. Each person had interpreted the little scene differently, but it clearly reinforced—immensely so—the ongoing effort, which had been more successful lately, to act and talk as if nothing in life was wrong. However, while this reflection was directed at her, Maggie’s awareness focused on the degree of success it represented for Charlotte. Most importantly, she considered how her father must have been secretly taken aback, how her husband must have privately pondered, and how Fanny Assingham must have momentarily realized the truth for herself—most of all, she sensed, through connection, the significant benefit it had for her companion. She felt, in every fiber of her being, Charlotte’s realization and how much visibility had been necessary to complete her own embarrassment. It was the final touch, and now nothing was missing—which, to give her stepmother credit, Mrs. Verver seemed to want to demonstrate, with the utmost clarity, that she recognized. Maggie replayed those moments in her mind repeatedly; to the extent that the entire evening felt, in hindsight, like it had been orchestrated by some unseen force that had influenced her, that had, for instance—animated all four of them with just the right amount of restlessness, had dictated and guided their actions, and had perfectly timed their interactions, making their game of bridge—no matter how bleak it appeared to her—give way precisely to their shared, unspoken desire to understand and mirror Charlotte’s impatience; this obsession was particularly linked to the person in the group who was wandering in her oddness and, despite their pretense of ignorance, was not being overlooked.
If Mrs. Verver meanwhile, then, had struck her as determined in a certain direction by the last felicity into which that night had flowered, our young woman was yet not to fail of appreciating the truth that she had not been put at ease, after all, with absolute permanence. Maggie had seen her, unmistakably, desire to rise to the occasion and be magnificent—seen her decide that the right way for this would be to prove that the reassurance she had extorted there, under the high, cool lustre of the saloon, a twinkle of crystal and silver, had not only poured oil upon the troubled waters of their question, but had fairly drenched their whole intercourse with that lubricant. She had exceeded the limit of discretion in this insistence on her capacity to repay in proportion a service she acknowledged as handsome. “Why handsome?” Maggie would have been free to ask; since if she had been veracious the service assuredly would not have been huge. It would in that case have come up vividly, and for each of them alike, that the truth, on the Princess’s lips, presented no difficulty. If the latter’s mood, in fact, could have turned itself at all to private gaiety it might have failed to resist the diversion of seeing so clever a creature so beguiled. Charlotte’s theory of a generous manner was manifestly to express that her stepdaughter’s word, wiping out, as she might have said, everything, had restored them to the serenity of a relation without a cloud. It had been, in short, in this light, ideally conclusive, so that no ghost of anything it referred to could ever walk again. What was the ecstasy of that, however, but in itself a trifle compromising?—as truly, within the week, Maggie had occasion to suspect her friend of beginning, and rather abruptly, to remember. Convinced as she was of the example already given her by her husband, and in relation to which her profession of trust in his mistress had been an act of conformity exquisitely calculated, her imagination yet sought in the hidden play of his influence the explanation of any change of surface, any difference of expression or intention. There had been, through life, as we know, few quarters in which the Princess’s fancy could let itself loose; but it shook off restraint when it plunged into the figured void of the detail of that relation. This was a realm it could people with images—again and again with fresh ones; they swarmed there like the strange combinations that lurked in the woods at twilight; they loomed into the definite and faded into the vague, their main present sign for her being, however, that they were always, that they were duskily, agitated. Her earlier vision of a state of bliss made insecure by the very intensity of the bliss—this had dropped from her; she had ceased to see, as she lost herself, the pair of operatic, of high Wagnerian lovers (she found, deep within her, these comparisons) interlocked in their wood of enchantment, a green glade as romantic as one’s dream of an old German forest. The picture was veiled, on the contrary, with the dimness of trouble; behind which she felt, indistinguishable, the procession of forms that had lost, all so pitifully, their precious confidence. Therefore, though there was in these days, for her, with Amerigo, little enough even of the imitation, from day to day, of unembarrassed references—as she had foreseen, for that matter, from the first, that there would be—her active conception of his accessibility to their companion’s own private and unextinguished right to break ground was not much less active than before. So it was that her inner sense, in spite of everything, represented him as still pulling wires and controlling currents, or rather indeed as muffling the whole possibility, keeping it down and down, leading his accomplice continually on to some new turn of the road. As regards herself Maggie had become more conscious from week to week of his ingenuities of intention to make up to her for their forfeiture, in so dire a degree, of any reality of frankness—a privation that had left on his lips perhaps a little of the same thirst with which she fairly felt her own distorted, the torment of the lost pilgrim who listens in desert sands for the possible, the impossible, plash of water. It was just this hampered state in him, none the less, that she kept before her when she wished most to find grounds of dignity for the hard little passion which nothing he had done could smother. There were hours enough, lonely hours, in which she let dignity go; then there were others when, clinging with her winged concentration to some deep cell of her heart, she stored away her hived tenderness as if she had gathered it all from flowers. He was walking ostensibly beside her, but in fact given over, without a break, to the grey medium in which he helplessly groped; a perception on her part which was a perpetual pang and which might last what it would—for ever if need be—but which, if relieved at all, must be relieved by his act alone. She herself could do nothing more for it; she had done the utmost possible. It was meantime not the easier to bear for this aspect under which Charlotte was presented as depending on him for guidance, taking it from him even in doses of bitterness, and yet lost with him in devious depths. Nothing was thus more sharply to be inferred than that he had promptly enough warned her, on hearing from her of the precious assurance received from his wife, that she must take care her satisfaction didn’t betray something of her danger. Maggie had a day of still waiting, after allowing him time to learn how unreservedly she had lied for him—of waiting as for the light of she scarce knew what slow-shining reflection of this knowledge in his personal attitude. What retarded evolution, she asked herself in these hours, mightn’t poor Charlotte all unwittingly have precipitated? She was thus poor Charlotte again for Maggie even while Maggie’s own head was bowed, and the reason for this kept coming back to our young woman in the conception of what would secretly have passed. She saw her, face to face with the Prince, take from him the chill of his stiffest admonition, with the possibilities of deeper difficulty that it represented for each. She heard her ask, irritated and sombre, what tone, in God’s name—since her bravery didn’t suit him—she was then to adopt; and, by way of a fantastic flight of divination, she heard Amerigo reply, in a voice of which every fine note, familiar and admirable, came home to her, that one must really manage such prudences a little for one’s self. It was positive in the Princess that, for this, she breathed Charlotte’s cold air—turned away from him in it with her, turned with her, in growing compassion, this way and that, hovered behind her while she felt her ask herself where then she should rest. Marvellous the manner in which, under such imaginations, Maggie thus circled and lingered—quite as if she were, materially, following her unseen, counting every step she helplessly wasted, noting every hindrance that brought her to a pause.
If Mrs. Verver had come across as determined in a certain direction due to the happiness that had blossomed that night, our young woman still recognized that she wasn’t entirely at ease permanently. Maggie had clearly seen her express the desire to rise to the occasion and be impressive—she had observed her decide that the right way to do this was to prove that the reassurance she had extracted there, under the bright, cool light of the salon, sparkling with crystal and silver, had not only calmed the turbulent waters of their issue but had thoroughly soaked their entire interaction with that comfort. She had crossed the line of discretion by insisting on her ability to repay a favor she acknowledged was generous. “Why generous?” Maggie could have asked; since if she had been honest, the favor certainly wouldn’t have been significant. In that case, it would have become clear to both of them that the truth, on the Princess’s lips, posed no challenges. If the Princess's mood could have shifted to private amusement, it might have struggled to resist the pleasure of seeing such a clever person so deceived. Charlotte's theory of a generous demeanor was clearly to convey that her stepdaughter’s words, which she might have claimed wiped away everything, had returned them to the peace of a relationship without any clouds. In short, from this perspective, it was ideally conclusive, so that no remnants of anything it referred to could ever linger again. However, the ecstasy of that was, in itself, a little compromising—indeed, within the week, Maggie had reason to suspect her friend was starting, rather abruptly, to remember. Despite her confidence in the example set by her husband, and in connection to which her expression of trust in his mistress had been a calculated act of conformity, her imagination still sought in the subtle play of his influence the reason for any change in surface, any shift in expression or intention. Throughout life, as we know, there were few occasions where the Princess’s imagination could run free; but it broke free when it dove into the intricate details of that relationship. This was a realm it could populate with images—again and again with new ones; they crowded in like the strange combinations that hide in the woods at twilight; they emerged into the clear and faded into the murky, their main signal to her being, though, that they were always there, that they were dimly, restlessly agitated. Her earlier vision of a blissful state, made insecure by the very intensity of the bliss—this had slipped away; she no longer saw, as she lost herself, the pair of operatic, high Wagnerian lovers (she found, deep inside herself, these comparisons) intertwined in their enchanted woods, a green glade as dreamy as one’s vision of an old German forest. The picture was, instead, shrouded in the dimness of trouble; behind which she sensed, indistinctly, the procession of forms that had pitifully lost their precious confidence. Therefore, even though there was little imitation of unembarrassed exchanges in her days with Amerigo, as she had anticipated from the beginning, her active awareness of his accessibility to their companion’s own private and lingering right to break new ground was not much less vigorous than before. So, despite everything, her inner sense portrayed him as still tugging at strings and controlling currents, or rather, indeed, as suppressing the entire possibility, keeping it down and down, continuously leading his accomplice to some new direction. Concerning herself, Maggie had become increasingly aware week by week of his clever intentions to make up for their significant loss of any real frankness—a deprivation that had left perhaps a trace of the same thirst on his lips that she felt in her own distorted state, the torment of the lost traveler who listens in desert sands for the possible, impossible splashes of water. It was just this hindered condition in him, nonetheless, that she kept in mind when she most wanted to find reasons for the dignity of the hard little passion that nothing he had done could extinguish. There were plenty of lonely hours when she let dignity slip away; then there were other times when, clinging with her focused attention to some deep part of her heart, she stored away her gathered tenderness as if she had picked it all from flowers. He was walking obviously beside her, but in reality, he was completely lost in the gray medium in which he helplessly fumbled; a perception on her part that was a constant ache and might last as long as it needed to—even forever, if it came to that—but which, if relieved at all, could only be relieved by his action alone. She herself could do nothing more for it; she had done all that was possible. It was also not made any easier to endure by the fact that Charlotte seemed dependent on him for guidance, even taking it from him in bitter doses, and yet lost with him in winding depths. Nothing was more apparent than that he had promptly warned her, after hearing about the precious reassurance he had received from his wife, that she must be careful that her satisfaction didn’t reveal something of her danger. Maggie had a day of silent waiting, after allowing him time to learn how completely she had lied for him—waiting for the light of she scarcely knew what slow-emerging reflection of this knowledge in his personal attitude. What delayed evolution, she wondered during these hours, might poor Charlotte unknowingly have set in motion? She was again feeling for poor Charlotte even while her own head was bowed, and the reason for this kept coming back to the idea of what would have secretly passed. She saw her, face to face with the Prince, taking in the chill of his sternest warning, with the deeper difficulties it represented for both of them. She heard her ask, irritated and somber, what tone she was then supposed to adopt, since her bravery didn’t suit him; and, by way of a fanciful leap of intuition, she heard Amerigo reply, in a voice with every fine note, familiar and admirable, echoing in her mind, that one must really manage such prudences a bit for oneself. It was clear in the Princess that for this, she drew Charlotte’s cold air—turning away from him in it with her, turning with her, growing in compassion, this way and that, hovering behind her as she wondered where she should then find her rest. It was remarkable how, under such thoughts, Maggie circled and lingered—almost as if she were, physically, following her unseen, counting every step she helplessly wasted, noting every obstacle that caused her to pause.
A few days of this, accordingly, had wrought a change in that apprehension of the instant beatitude of triumph—of triumph magnanimous and serene—with which the upshot of the night-scene on the terrace had condemned our young woman to make terms. She had had, as we know, her vision of the gilt bars bent, of the door of the cage forced open from within and the creature imprisoned roaming at large—a movement, on the creature’s part, that was to have even, for the short interval, its impressive beauty, but of which the limit, and in yet another direction, had loomed straight into view during her last talk under the great trees with her father. It was when she saw his wife’s face ruefully attached to the quarter to which, in the course of their session, he had so significantly addressed his own—it was then that Maggie could watch for its turning pale, it was then she seemed to know what she had meant by thinking of her, in the shadow of his most ominous reference, as “doomed.” If, as I say, her attention now, day after day, so circled and hovered, it found itself arrested for certain passages during which she absolutely looked with Charlotte’s grave eyes. What she unfailingly made out through them was the figure of a little quiet gentleman who mostly wore, as he moved, alone, across the field of vision, a straw hat, a white waistcoat and a blue necktie, keeping a cigar in his teeth and his hands in his pockets, and who, oftener than not, presented a somewhat meditative back while he slowly measured the perspectives of the park and broodingly counted (it might have appeared) his steps. There were hours of intensity, for a week or two, when it was for all the world as if she had guardedly tracked her stepmother, in the great house, from room to room and from window to window, only to see her, here and there and everywhere, TRY her uneasy outlook, question her issue and her fate. Something, unmistakably, had come up for her that had never come up before; it represented a new complication and had begotten a new anxiety—things, these, that she carried about with her done up in the napkin of her lover’s accepted rebuke, while she vainly hunted for some corner where she might put them safely down. The disguised solemnity, the prolonged futility of her search might have been grotesque to a more ironic eye; but Maggie’s provision of irony, which we have taken for naturally small, had never been so scant as now, and there were moments while she watched with her, thus unseen, when the mere effect of being near her was to feel her own heart in her throat, was to be almost moved to saying to her: “Hold on tight, my poor dear—without TOO MUCH terror—and it will all come out somehow.”
A few days of this, in turn, had changed her initial excitement about the immediate bliss of victory—of a victory that was generous and calm—that had forced our young woman to negotiate her feelings. She had experienced, as we know, the vision of the gilded bars bending, the cage door being pushed open from the inside, and the creature inside wandering freely—a movement from the creature that was briefly beautiful, but whose limits, in another regard, became clear during her last conversation under the big trees with her father. It was when she saw his wife’s face sadly connected to the section he had so pointedly directed his attention toward during their talk—it was then that Maggie could recognize its paling, and it was then she seemed to realize what she meant by calling her “doomed” in the shadow of his most foreboding remark. As I mentioned, her attention now lingered day after day, but it was particularly fixated at certain moments when she looked through Charlotte’s serious eyes. What she consistently noticed there was the figure of a quiet little man who typically wore, as he moved alone through her line of sight, a straw hat, a white vest, and a blue tie, a cigar in his mouth and his hands in his pockets, who more often than not displayed a somewhat thoughtful back as he slowly measured the park's perspectives and appeared to broodfully count his steps. There were intense hours, for about a week or two, when it seemed like she had cautiously tracked her stepmother around the large house, from room to room and window to window, only to see her everywhere, testing her uneasy outlook, questioning her situation and fate. Something had clearly arisen for her that had never arisen before; it represented a new complication and had given rise to new anxiety—these were things she carried with her wrapped in the napkin of her lover’s accepted rebuke, as she futilely searched for a place to set them down safely. The hidden seriousness and fruitless nature of her search might have appeared absurd to a more cynical perspective; but Maggie’s sense of irony, which we’ve assumed was naturally minimal, was never so lacking as it was now, and there were moments when watching her, in this way unseen, made her own heart feel like it was in her throat, almost prompting her to say to her: “Hang in there, my poor dear—without too much fear—and it will all work out somehow.”
Even to that indeed, she could reflect, Charlotte might have replied that it was easy to say; even to that no great meaning could attach so long as the little meditative man in the straw hat kept coming into view with his indescribable air of weaving his spell, weaving it off there by himself. In whatever quarter of the horizon the appearances were scanned he was to be noticed as absorbed in this occupation; and Maggie was to become aware of two or three extraordinary occasions of receiving from him the hint that he measured the impression he produced. It was not really till after their recent long talk in the park that she knew how deeply, how quite exhaustively, they had then communicated—so that they were to remain together, for the time, in consequence, quite in the form of a couple of sociable drinkers who sit back from the table over which they have been resting their elbows, over which they have emptied to the last drop their respective charged cups. The cups were still there on the table, but turned upside down; and nothing was left for the companions but to confirm by placid silences the fact that the wine had been good. They had parted, positively, as if, on either side, primed with it—primed for whatever was to be; and everything between them, as the month waned, added its touch of truth to this similitude. Nothing, truly, WAS at present between them save that they were looking at each other in infinite trust; it fairly wanted no more words, and when they met, during the deep summer days, met even without witnesses, when they kissed at morning and evening, or on any of the other occasions of contact that they had always so freely celebrated, a pair of birds of the upper air could scarce have appeared less to invite each other to sit down and worry afresh. So it was that in the house itself, where more of his waiting treasures than ever were provisionally ranged, she sometimes only looked at him—from end to end of the great gallery, the pride of the house, for instance—as if, in one of the halls of a museum, she had been an earnest young woman with a Baedeker and he a vague gentleman to whom even Baedekers were unknown. He had ever, of course, had his way of walking about to review his possessions and verify their condition; but this was a pastime to which he now struck her as almost extravagantly addicted, and when she passed near him and he turned to give her a smile she caught—or so she fancied—the greater depth of his small, perpetual hum of contemplation. It was as if he were singing to himself, sotto voce, as he went—and it was also, on occasion, quite ineffably, as if Charlotte, hovering, watching, listening, on her side too, kept sufficiently within earshot to make it out as song, and yet, for some reason connected with the very manner of it, stood off and didn’t dare.
Even about that, she could think, Charlotte might have said it was easy to say; it still didn’t hold much meaning as long as the little thoughtful man in the straw hat kept appearing with his indescribable vibe of casting his spell, doing it all on his own. No matter where you looked on the horizon, he was always seen lost in this activity; and Maggie would eventually realize there were a couple of extraordinary moments when he hinted that he understood the effect he had on others. It wasn’t until after their recent long conversation in the park that she fully understood how deeply and thoroughly they had connected—so that they would remain, for now, like a couple of casual drinkers who lean back from the table where they’ve rested their elbows and drained their respective cups to the last drop. The cups were still on the table, but turned upside down; and all that was left for them was to confirm through calm silences that the wine had been good. They had parted, definitely, as if, on both sides, charged with it—ready for whatever was next; and everything between them, as the month went by, added its touch of truth to this comparison. Nothing, truly, existed between them except for the fact that they were looking at each other with infinite trust; it really needed no further words, and when they met during the warm summer days, even without witnesses, when they kissed morning and evening, or at any of those other moments of connection they had always celebrated so freely, a pair of birds in the open sky could hardly have been less likely to sit down and fret over anything. So it was that in the house itself, where more of his waiting treasures than ever were temporarily arranged, she sometimes just looked at him—from one end of the grand gallery, the pride of the house, for instance—like in one of the halls of a museum, where she was an eager young woman with a guidebook, and he was a vague gentleman unfamiliar with even guidebooks. He always had his way of wandering around to check on his possessions and their condition; but now it struck her that he seemed almost excessively devoted to this pastime, and when she passed by and he turned to give her a smile, she caught—or so she believed—the deeper ongoing hum of his contemplation. It was as if he were softly singing to himself as he walked—and it also felt, at times, quite ineffably, that Charlotte, hovering, observing, listening from her side too, stayed close enough to hear it as a song, yet for some reason, related to the very way of it, she kept her distance and didn’t dare get closer.
One of the attentions she had from immediately after her marriage most freely paid him was that of her interest in his rarities, her appreciation of his taste, her native passion for beautiful objects and her grateful desire not to miss anything he could teach her about them. Maggie had in due course seen her begin to “work” this fortunately natural source of sympathy for all it was worth. She took possession of the mound throughout its extent; she abounded, to odd excess, one might have remarked, in the assumption of its being for her, with her husband, ALL the ground, the finest, clearest air and most breathable medium common to them. It had been given to Maggie to wonder if she didn’t, in these intensities of approbation, too much shut him up to his province; but this was a complaint he had never made his daughter, and Charlotte must at least have had for her that, thanks to her admirable instinct, her range of perception marching with his own and never falling behind, she had probably not so much as once treated him to a rasping mistake or a revealing stupidity. Maggie, wonderfully, in the summer days, felt it forced upon her that that was one way, after all, of being a genial wife; and it was never so much forced upon her as at these odd moments of her encountering the sposi, as Amerigo called them, under the coved ceilings of Fawns while, so together, yet at the same time so separate, they were making their daily round. Charlotte hung behind, with emphasised attention; she stopped when her husband stopped, but at the distance of a case or two, or of whatever other succession of objects; and the likeness of their connection would not have been wrongly figured if he had been thought of as holding in one of his pocketed hands the end of a long silken halter looped round her beautiful neck. He didn’t twitch it, yet it was there; he didn’t drag her, but she came; and those indications that I have described the Princess as finding extraordinary in him were two or three mute facial intimations which his wife’s presence didn’t prevent his addressing his daughter—nor prevent his daughter, as she passed, it was doubtless to be added, from flushing a little at the receipt of. They amounted perhaps only to a wordless, wordless smile, but the smile was the soft shake of the twisted silken rope, and Maggie’s translation of it, held in her breast till she got well away, came out only, as if it might have been overheard, when some door was closed behind her. “Yes, you see—I lead her now by the neck, I lead her to her doom, and she doesn’t so much as know what it is, though she has a fear in her heart which, if you had the chances to apply your ear there that I, as a husband, have, you would hear thump and thump and thump. She thinks it MAY be, her doom, the awful place over there—awful for HER; but she’s afraid to ask, don’t you see? just as she’s afraid of not asking; just as she’s afraid of so many other things that she sees multiplied round her now as portents and betrayals. She’ll know, however—when she does know.”
One of the things she showed him right after their marriage was her genuine interest in his unique collectibles, her appreciation for his taste, her natural passion for beautiful items, and her eager desire not to miss anything he could teach her about them. In due time, Maggie noticed her capitalizing on this natural connection for all it was worth. She claimed the space entirely; she excessively assumed that it was all for her, creating the finest, clearest atmosphere shared with her husband. Maggie wondered if, in these moments of strong approval, she was limiting his exploration too much; but this was a complaint he never voiced to his daughter. Charlotte must have given him reason to see that, thanks to her admirable instincts and her understanding matching his, she likely never made a serious mistake or committed a foolish blunder in his presence. Wonderfully, during summer days, Maggie felt it was a way to be a warmhearted wife; and this realization struck her particularly during the rare moments she encountered the newlyweds, as Amerigo referred to them, under the vaulted ceilings of Fawns, as they together yet separately made their daily rounds. Charlotte stayed a bit behind, paying focused attention; she halted when her husband halted, though always at a little distance, and their connection could be aptly visualized as him holding one end of a long silk rope looped around her lovely neck. He didn’t pull it, but it was there; he didn’t drag her, yet she followed him; and the subtle signals I previously described that the Princess found remarkable in him were just a couple of silent facial expressions he directed at his daughter that his wife’s presence couldn’t keep him from using—nor prevent his daughter, as she passed by, from slightly blushing at receiving them. They might have been nothing but a wordless smile, but that smile felt like the gentle tug of the twisted silk rope, and Maggie’s interpretation of it, kept in her heart until she distanced herself, only came out, as if it had been overheard, when a door closed behind her. “Yes, you see—I guide her now by the neck, I lead her to her fate, and she doesn’t even realize what it is, even though she has a fear in her heart which, if you could listen closely as I, as a husband, do, you would hear thumping and thumping and thumping. She thinks it COULD be, her fate, the terrifying place over there—terrifying for HER; but she’s scared to ask, don’t you see? just as she’s scared not to ask; just as she’s scared of so many other things she now sees multiplied around her as signs and betrayals. She’ll understand, though—when she finally does.”
Charlotte’s one opportunity, meanwhile, for the air of confidence she had formerly worn so well and that agreed so with her firm and charming type, was the presence of visitors, never, as the season advanced, wholly intermitted—rather, in fact, so constant, with all the people who turned up for luncheon and for tea and to see the house, now replete, now famous, that Maggie grew to think again of this large element of “company” as of a kind of renewed water-supply for the tank in which, like a party of panting gold-fish, they kept afloat. It helped them, unmistakably, with each other, weakening the emphasis of so many of the silences of which their intimate intercourse would otherwise have consisted. Beautiful and wonderful for her, even, at times, was the effect of these interventions—their effect above all in bringing home to each the possible heroism of perfunctory things. They learned fairly to live in the perfunctory; they remained in it as many hours of the day as might be; it took on finally the likeness of some spacious central chamber in a haunted house, a great overarched and overglazed rotunda, where gaiety might reign, but the doors of which opened into sinister circular passages. Here they turned up for each other, as they said, with the blank faces that denied any uneasiness felt in the approach; here they closed numerous doors carefully behind them—all save the door that connected the place, as by a straight tented corridor, with the outer world, and, encouraging thus the irruption of society, imitated the aperture through which the bedizened performers of the circus are poured into the ring. The great part Mrs. Verver had socially played came luckily, Maggie could make out, to her assistance; she had “personal friends”—Charlotte’s personal friends had ever been, in London, at the two houses, one of the most convenient pleasantries—who actually tempered, at this crisis, her aspect of isolation; and it wouldn’t have been hard to guess that her best moments were those in which she suffered no fear of becoming a bore to restrain her appeal to their curiosity. Their curiosity might be vague, but their clever hostess was distinct, and she marched them about, sparing them nothing, as if she counted, each day, on a harvest of half crowns. Maggie met her again, in the gallery, at the oddest hours, with the party she was entertaining; heard her draw out the lesson, insist upon the interest, snub, even, the particular presumption and smile for the general bewilderment—inevitable features, these latter, of almost any occasion—in a manner that made our young woman, herself incurably dazzled, marvel afresh at the mystery by which a creature who could be in some connexions so earnestly right could be in others so perversely wrong. When her father, vaguely circulating, was attended by his wife, it was always Charlotte who seemed to bring up the rear; but he hung in the background when she did cicerone, and it was then perhaps that, moving mildly and modestly to and fro on the skirts of the exhibition, his appearance of weaving his spell was, for the initiated conscience, least to be resisted. Brilliant women turned to him in vague emotion, but his response scarce committed him more than if he had been the person employed to see that, after the invading wave was spent, the cabinets were all locked and the symmetries all restored.
Charlotte’s only chance to show the confidence she had once mastered—matching perfectly with her strong and charming personality—came from the visitors who were always coming by, especially as the season progressed. With all the people dropping in for lunch, tea, and to see the house—now filled and well-known—Maggie started to think of this constant company as a kind of renewed water supply, keeping them afloat like a group of thirsty goldfish. It clearly helped them connect with one another, easing the weight of many silences that might have dominated their intimate exchanges. Sometimes, it was even beautiful and wonderful for her, as these visits highlighted the potential heroism in everyday tasks. They learned to navigate the routine, spending as many hours in it as possible; it eventually resembled a spacious central room in a haunted house, a large, arched, and well-lit space where cheerfulness could exist, yet its doors led to dark, circular hallways. Here, they showed up for one another, as they liked to say, with neutral expressions that masked any discomfort about their arrival; they carefully closed countless doors behind them—all except the one linking this area, like a direct corridor, to the outside world, thus encouraging the influx of society, similar to how a parade of elaborately dressed performers enters the circus ring. The significant social role Mrs. Verver had played, Maggie noticed, actually helped her now; she had "personal friends"—Charlotte’s close friends had always been, in London, at both houses, one of the most convenient perks—who softened her sense of isolation at this moment. It wouldn’t have been hard to guess that her best moments were those when she didn’t worry about being boring enough to hold back her charm. Their curiosity might have been vague, but their clever hostess was anything but, leading them around, holding nothing back, as if she counted on reaping rewards each day. Maggie encountered her again in the gallery at the strangest hours with the guests she was entertaining; she heard her school them, emphasize the significance, even put down certain assumptions and smile through the general confusion—unavoidable elements of nearly any event—in a way that left the young woman, herself perpetually amazed, in awe of the mystery of how someone could be so right in certain scenarios and so wrong in others. When her father was vaguely mingling, accompanied by his wife, it was always Charlotte who seemed to trail behind; but he stayed in the background when she took the lead, and at those moments, perhaps more than ever, as he subtly moved back and forth around the edges of the gathering, his presence, for those who understood, was least resistible. Brilliant women turned to him with uncertain feelings, but his reactions barely committed him more than if he were just there to ensure that, after the rush of guests had passed, the showcases were all locked up and everything was back in order.
There was a morning when, during the hour before luncheon and shortly after the arrival of a neighbourly contingent—neighbourly from ten miles off—whom Mrs. Verver had taken in charge, Maggie paused on the threshold of the gallery through which she had been about to pass, faltered there for the very impression of his face as it met her from an opposite door. Charlotte, half-way down the vista, held together, as if by something almost austere in the grace of her authority, the semi-scared (now that they were there!) knot of her visitors, who, since they had announced themselves by telegram as yearning to inquire and admire, saw themselves restricted to this consistency. Her voice, high and clear and a little hard, reached her husband and her step-daughter while she thus placed beyond doubt her cheerful submission to duty. Her words, addressed to the largest publicity, rang for some minutes through the place, every one as quiet to listen as if it had been a church ablaze with tapers and she were taking her part in some hymn of praise. Fanny Assingham looked rapt in devotion—Fanny Assingham who forsook this other friend as little as she forsook either her host or the Princess or the Prince or the Principino; she supported her, in slow revolutions, in murmurous attestations of presence, at all such times, and Maggie, advancing after a first hesitation, was not to fail of noting her solemn, inscrutable attitude, her eyes attentively lifted, so that she might escape being provoked to betray an impression. She betrayed one, however, as Maggie approached, dropping her gaze to the latter’s level long enough to seem to adventure, marvellously, on a mute appeal. “You understand, don’t you, that if she didn’t do this there would be no knowing what she might do?” This light Mrs. Assingham richly launched while her younger friend, unresistingly moved, became uncertain again, and then, not too much to show it—or, rather, positively to conceal it, and to conceal something more as well—turned short round to one of the windows and awkwardly, pointlessly waited. “The largest of the three pieces has the rare peculiarity that the garlands, looped round it, which, as you see, are the finest possible vieux Saxe, are not of the same origin or period, or even, wonderful as they are, of a taste quite so perfect. They have been put on at a later time, by a process of which there are very few examples, and none so important as this, which is really quite unique—so that, though the whole thing is a little baroque, its value as a specimen is, I believe, almost inestimable.”
One morning, just before lunch and shortly after a group of neighbors—who had traveled ten miles—arrived and Mrs. Verver had taken charge of them, Maggie paused at the threshold of the gallery she was about to enter. She hesitated at the sight of his face as it appeared from an opposite door. Charlotte, halfway down the hall, held together a slightly anxious group of visitors, who, now that they were there, saw themselves limited to maintaining a certain demeanor, despite having expressed their desire to inquire and admire via telegram. Her voice, high, clear, and a bit sharp, reached her husband and stepdaughter as she confirmed her cheerful commitment to her duty. Her words, meant for the entire audience, echoed through the space for several minutes, with everyone listening in silence as if they were in a church lit by candles, and she was participating in a hymn. Fanny Assingham looked like she was deeply focused—Fanny Assingham, who hardly ever left this friend for more than she left her host, the Princess, the Prince, or the Principino; she remained nearby, slowly circling, quietly affirming her presence in those moments, and as Maggie moved closer after a brief hesitation, she couldn't help but notice Fanny's serious, inscrutable expression, her eyes deliberately raised to avoid showing any reaction. However, she revealed one when Maggie drew near, lowering her gaze to meet Maggie's, as if to silently plead. “You know, don’t you, that if she didn’t do this, who knows what she might do?” This playful remark from Mrs. Assingham came as Maggie found herself unresistingly swayed, feeling uncertain again, and then, trying not to show it—or rather, actively concealing it along with something more—she abruptly turned to one of the windows and awkwardly, aimlessly waited. “The largest of the three pieces has the unusual feature that the garlands looping around it, which are the finest vieux Saxe, aren’t from the same origin or time, or even, as stunning as they are, of such perfect taste. They were added later, through a process of which there are few examples, and none as significant as this, which is truly quite unique—so, while the entire piece might be a bit baroque, its value as a specimen is, I believe, almost immeasurable.”
So the high voice quavered, aiming truly at effects far over the heads of gaping neighbours; so the speaker, piling it up, sticking at nothing, as less interested judges might have said, seemed to justify the faith with which she was honoured. Maggie meanwhile, at the window, knew the strangest thing to be happening: she had turned suddenly to crying, or was at least on the point of it—the lighted square before her all blurred and dim. The high voice went on; its quaver was doubtless for conscious ears only, but there were verily thirty seconds during which it sounded, for our young woman, like the shriek of a soul in pain. Kept up a minute longer it would break and collapse—so that Maggie felt herself, the next thing, turn with a start to her father. “Can’t she be stopped? Hasn’t she done it ENOUGH?”—some such question as that she let herself ask him to suppose in her. Then it was that, across half the gallery—for he had not moved from where she had first seen him—he struck her as confessing, with strange tears in his own eyes, to sharp identity of emotion. “Poor thing, poor thing”—it reached straight— “ISN’T she, for one’s credit, on the swagger?” After which, as, held thus together they had still another strained minute, the shame, the pity, the better knowledge, the smothered protest, the divined anguish even, so overcame him that, blushing to his eyes, he turned short away. The affair but of a few muffled moments, this snatched communion yet lifted Maggie as on air—so much, for deep guesses on her own side too, it gave her to think of. There was, honestly, an awful mixture in things, and it was not closed to her aftersense of such passages—we have already indeed, in other cases, seen it open—that the deepest depth of all, in a perceived penalty, was that you couldn’t be sure some of your compunctions and contortions wouldn’t show for ridiculous. Amerigo, that morning, for instance, had been as absent as he at this juncture appeared to desire he should mainly be noted as being; he had gone to London for the day and the night—a necessity that now frequently rose for him and that he had more than once suffered to operate during the presence of guests, successions of pretty women, the theory of his fond interest in whom had been publicly cultivated. It had never occurred to his wife to pronounce him ingenuous, but there came at last a high dim August dawn when she couldn’t sleep and when, creeping restlessly about and breathing at her window the coolness of wooded acres, she found the faint flush of the east march with the perception of that other almost equal prodigy. It rosily coloured her vision that—even such as he was, yes—her husband could on occasion sin by excess of candour. He wouldn’t otherwise have given as his reason for going up to Portland Place in the August days that he was arranging books there. He had bought a great many of late, and he had had others, a large number, sent from Rome—wonders of old print in which her father had been interested. But when her imagination tracked him to the dusty town, to the house where drawn blinds and pale shrouds, where a caretaker and a kitchenmaid were alone in possession, it wasn’t to see him, in his shirtsleeves, unpacking battered boxes.
So the high voice trembled, aiming for effects that went way over the heads of the staring neighbors; the speaker, building it up and not holding back, as less involved judges might have remarked, seemed to validate the faith with which she was regarded. Meanwhile, Maggie, by the window, sensed something strange was happening: she suddenly felt like crying, or was at least on the verge of it—the lit square in front of her blurred and dimmed. The high voice continued; its tremor was surely meant for attentive ears only, but during those thirty seconds, it sounded to our young woman like the scream of a soul in pain. If it went on for another minute, it would break and fall apart—so Maggie felt herself, the next moment, turning to her father with a start. “Can’t she be stopped? Hasn’t she done it ENOUGH?”—some kind of question like that popped into her mind. Then, from across half the gallery—since he hadn’t moved from where she’d first seen him—he seemed to share, with strange tears in his own eyes, an intense emotion. “Poor thing, poor thing”—it hit her directly—“ISN’T she, for the sake of one’s reputation, just showing off?” After that, as they held this strained moment together for another minute, the shame, the pity, the deeper understanding, the stifled protest, the sensed anguish all overwhelmed him, and blushing deeply, he abruptly turned away. Although it lasted only a few muffled moments, this brief connection lifted Maggie as if she were floating—so much, for her own deep reflections too, it made her think about. There was undeniably a terrible mix of things, and it wasn’t lost on her after sensing such moments—we have indeed seen it emerge in other instances—that the deepest penalty of all in recognizing it was that you couldn’t be certain some of your regrets and agonies wouldn’t come off as laughable. Amerigo, that morning, for example, had been as distracted as he now appeared to want to be noticed as being; he had gone to London for the day and night—a necessity that frequently arose for him and that he had allowed to happen even while guests were present, a succession of lovely women, the theory of his interest in whom had been publicly promoted. It had never crossed his wife’s mind to think of him as disingenuous, but eventually, there came a bright, muted August dawn when she couldn’t sleep and, wandering restlessly around and breathing in the cool air from her window overlooking the wooded acres, she noticed the faint blush of the east, along with the realization of that other almost equally astonishing fact. It painted her vision rosily that—even as he was, yes—her husband could sometimes sin by being too honest. He wouldn’t have otherwise given as his reason for going to Portland Place during those August days that he was organizing books there. He had purchased many recently and had had a large number sent over from Rome—rare old prints that her father had been interested in. But when her imagination followed him to the dusty town, to the house with drawn blinds and pale shrouds, where a caretaker and a kitchenmaid were the only ones present, it wasn’t to see him, in his shirtsleeves, unpacking battered boxes.
She saw him, in truth, less easily beguiled—saw him wander, in the closed dusky rooms, from place to place, or else, for long periods, recline on deep sofas and stare before him through the smoke of ceaseless cigarettes. She made him out as liking better than anything in the world just now to be alone with his thoughts. Being herself connected with his thoughts, she continued to believe, more than she had ever been, it was thereby a good deal as if he were alone with HER. She made him out as resting so from that constant strain of the perfunctory to which he was exposed at Fawns; and she was accessible to the impression of the almost beggared aspect of this alternative. It was like his doing penance in sordid ways—being sent to prison or being kept without money; it wouldn’t have taken much to make her think of him as really kept without food. He might have broken away, might easily have started to travel; he had a right—thought wonderful Maggie now—to so many more freedoms than he took! His secret was of course that at Fawns he all the while winced, was all the while in presences in respect to which he had thrown himself back, with a hard pressure, on whatever mysteries of pride, whatever inward springs familiar to the man of the world, he could keep from snapping. Maggie, for some reason, had that morning, while she watched the sunrise, taken an extraordinary measure of the ground on which he would have HAD to snatch at pretexts for absence. It all came to her there—he got off to escape from a sound. The sound was in her own ears still—that of Charlotte’s high coerced quaver before the cabinets in the hushed gallery; the voice by which she herself had been pierced the day before as by that of a creature in anguish and by which, while she sought refuge at the blurred window, the tears had been forced into her eyes. Her comprehension soared so high that the wonder for her became really his not feeling the need of wider intervals and thicker walls. Before THAT admiration she also meditated; consider as she might now, she kept reading not less into what he omitted than into what he performed a beauty of intention that touched her fairly the more by being obscure. It was like hanging over a garden in the dark; nothing was to be made of the confusion of growing things, but one felt they were folded flowers, and their vague sweetness made the whole air their medium. He had to turn away, but he wasn’t at least a coward; he would wait on the spot for the issue of what he had done on the spot. She sank to her knees with her arm on the ledge of her window-seat, where she blinded her eyes from the full glare of seeing that his idea could only be to wait, whatever might come, at her side. It was to her buried face that she thus, for a long time, felt him draw nearest; though after a while, when the strange wail of the gallery began to repeat its inevitable echo, she was conscious of how that brought out his pale hard grimace.
She noticed that he was less easily fooled than before—saw him wandering around the dim, closed-off rooms, moving from spot to spot, or else, for long stretches, lounging on deep sofas, staring into space through the smoke of endless cigarettes. She understood that he preferred nothing more than being alone with his thoughts. Since she was connected to his thoughts, she believed now more than ever that it was almost as if he were alone with HER. She perceived him as taking a break from the constant pressure of the routine he faced at Fawns; and she was struck by the almost pitiful look of this situation. It was like he was doing penance in grim ways—being imprisoned or living without money; it wouldn’t have taken much for her to think of him as truly being starved. He could have easily broken free, could have started traveling; he had a right—thought wonderful Maggie now—to so many more freedoms than he actually claimed! His secret was that at Fawns, he was always flinching, constantly in the presence of people that he had backed away from, pushing himself hard against whatever mysteries of pride, whatever inner triggers familiar to a worldly person, he could keep from breaking. For some reason, that morning while she watched the sunrise, Maggie had taken a keen measure of the situation he would have had to grasp at excuses to be absent. It all clicked for her—he left to escape a sound. The sound was still in her ears—the high-pitched, forced quaver of Charlotte’s voice before the cabinets in the quiet gallery; the voice that had pierced her the day before, like that of a creature in pain, and which had made tears come to her eyes while she sought refuge at the foggy window. Her understanding soared so high that she marveled at how he didn’t feel the need for longer breaks and thicker walls. Before THAT admiration, she also pondered; no matter how hard she thought, she kept reading just as much into what he skipped as into what he did, a beauty of intention that oddly moved her even more because it was unclear. It was like hovering over a garden in the dark; nothing could be made of the tangle of growing things, but one sensed they were hidden flowers, and their faint sweetness filled the air. He had to turn away, but he wasn’t a coward; he would wait right there for the consequence of what he had done. She sank to her knees with her arm on the ledge of her window seat, shielding her eyes from the harsh brightness of the realization that his only thought could be to wait, whatever might come, by her side. It was to her buried face that she felt him draw closest for a long time; though after a while, when the eerie wail from the gallery began to echo inevitably, she became aware of how it highlighted his pale, hard grimace.
XXXIX
XXXIX
The resemblance had not been present to her on first coming out into the hot, still brightness of the Sunday afternoon—only the second Sunday, of all the summer, when the party of six, the party of seven including the Principino, had practically been without accessions or invasions; but within sight of Charlotte, seated far away, very much where she had expected to find her, the Princess fell to wondering if her friend wouldn’t be affected quite as she herself had been, that night on the terrace, under Mrs. Verver’s perceptive pursuit. The relation, to-day, had turned itself round; Charlotte was seeing her come, through patches of lingering noon, quite as she had watched Charlotte menace her through the starless dark; and there was a moment, that of her waiting a little as they thus met across the distance, when the interval was bridged by a recognition not less soundless, and to all appearance not less charged with strange meanings, than that of the other occasion. The point, however, was that they had changed places; Maggie had from her window, seen her stepmother leave the house—at so unlikely an hour, three o’clock of a canicular August, for a ramble in garden or grove—and had thereupon felt her impulse determined with the same sharpness that had made the spring of her companion’s three weeks before. It was the hottest day of the season, and the shaded siesta, for people all at their ease, would certainly rather have been prescribed; but our young woman had perhaps not yet felt it so fully brought home that such refinements of repose, among them, constituted the empty chair at the feast. This was the more distinct as the feast, literally, in the great bedimmed dining-room, the cool, ceremonious semblance of luncheon, had just been taking place without Mrs. Verver. She had been represented but by the plea of a bad headache, not reported to the rest of the company by her husband, but offered directly to Mr. Verver himself, on their having assembled, by her maid, deputed for the effect and solemnly producing it.
The similarity hadn’t struck her when she first stepped out into the hot, still brightness of the Sunday afternoon—only the second Sunday of the entire summer when the group of six, or seven including the Principino, had hardly seen any new arrivals or interruptions. But while watching Charlotte, sitting far away exactly where she expected to find her, the Princess began to wonder if her friend wouldn’t be affected just like she had been that night on the terrace under Mrs. Verver’s insightful attention. Their positions had shifted today; Charlotte was watching her approach through patches of lingering afternoon light, just as she had seen Charlotte confront her through the starless dark; and there was a moment, while they waited to meet across the distance, when they bridged the gap with a silent recognition filled with strange meanings, similar to that other occasion. The crucial point was that they had switched places; Maggie had seen her stepmother leave the house at such an unusual hour, three o'clock during the hottest part of August, for a stroll in the garden or grove—and this had sparked her own impulse with the same sharpness that had driven her companion three weeks earlier. It was the hottest day of the season, and people who were comfortable would have preferred a shaded siesta; yet our young woman perhaps hadn’t fully realized that such leisurely moments among them made up the empty chair at the feast. This was all the more clear as the feast, literally in the dim dining room, the cool, ceremonious version of lunch, had just taken place without Mrs. Verver. She had only been represented by the excuse of a bad headache, not communicated to the rest by her husband, but given directly to Mr. Verver himself by her maid, who was there to deliver it in a serious manner.
Maggie had sat down, with the others, to viands artfully iced, to the slow circulation of precious tinkling jugs, to marked reserves of reference in many directions—poor Fanny Assingham herself scarce thrusting her nose out of the padded hollow into which she had withdrawn. A consensus of languor, which might almost have been taken for a community of dread, ruled the scene—relieved only by the fitful experiments of Father Mitchell, good holy, hungry man, a trusted and overworked London friend and adviser, who had taken, for a week or two, the light neighbouring service, local rites flourishing under Maggie’s munificence, and was enjoying, as a convenience, all the bounties of the house. HE conversed undiscouraged, Father Mitchell—conversed mainly with the indefinite, wandering smile of the entertainers, and the Princess’s power to feel him on the whole a blessing for these occasions was not impaired by what was awkward in her consciousness of having, from the first of her trouble, really found her way without his guidance. She asked herself at times if he suspected how more than subtly, how perversely, she had dispensed with him, and she balanced between visions of all he must privately have guessed and certitudes that he had guessed nothing whatever. He might nevertheless have been so urbanely filling up gaps, at present, for the very reason that his instinct, sharper than the expression of his face, had sufficiently served him—made him aware of the thin ice, figuratively speaking, and of prolongations of tension, round about him, mostly foreign to the circles in which luxury was akin to virtue. Some day in some happier season, she would confess to him that she hadn’t confessed, though taking so much on her conscience; but just now she was carrying in her weak, stiffened hand a glass filled to the brim, as to which she had recorded a vow that no drop should overflow. She feared the very breath of a better wisdom, the jostle of the higher light, of heavenly help itself; and, in addition, however that might be, she drew breath this afternoon, as never yet, in an element heavy to oppression. Something grave had happened, somehow and somewhere, and she had, God knew, her choice of suppositions: her heart stood still when she wondered above all if the cord mightn’t at last have snapped between her husband and her father. She shut her eyes for dismay at the possibility of such a passage—there moved before them the procession of ugly forms it might have taken. “Find out for yourself!” she had thrown to Amerigo, for her last word, on the question of who else “knew,” that night of the breaking of the Bowl; and she flattered herself that she hadn’t since then helped him, in her clear consistency, by an inch. It was what she had given him, all these weeks, to be busy with, and she had again and again lain awake for the obsession of this sense of his uncertainty ruthlessly and endlessly playing with his dignity. She had handed him over to an ignorance that couldn’t even try to become indifferent and that yet wouldn’t project itself, either, into the cleared air of conviction. In proportion as he was generous it had bitten into his spirit, and more than once she had said to herself that to break the spell she had cast upon him and that the polished old ivory of her father’s inattackable surface made so absolute, he would suddenly commit some mistake or some violence, smash some windowpane for air, fail even of one of his blest inveteracies of taste. In that way, fatally, he would have put himself in the wrong—blighting by a single false step the perfection of his outward show.
Maggie had sat down with the others to beautifully arranged food, to the slow sharing of elegant jugs, and to notable references in many directions—poor Fanny Assingham herself barely peeking out of her cushioned nook. A shared sense of fatigue, which could almost be mistaken for a collective anxiety, dominated the scene—only broken by the sporadic attempts of Father Mitchell, a good, pious, hungry man, a trusted and overworked friend and advisor from London, who had taken on, for a week or two, the light local duties that thrived under Maggie’s generosity, and was enjoying, as a convenience, all the luxuries of the house. He conversed without losing heart—mainly engaging with the undefined, wandering smiles of the hosts, and the Princess’s feeling that he was overall a blessing for these occasions wasn’t diminished by her awareness that she had, from the beginning of her troubles, managed without his guidance. Sometimes she wondered if he suspected how subtly, and even oddly, she had done without him, weighing the visions of what he must have privately guessed against the certainty that he had guessed nothing at all. Nevertheless, he might have been filling in the gaps in conversation precisely because his instinct, sharper than his facial expressions, had made him aware of the figurative thin ice and the lingering tension around him, largely foreign to the circles where luxury was seen as virtuous. Someday, in a happier time, she would confess to him that she hadn’t come clean, even though she carried so much on her conscience; but right now she was holding in her weak, stiffened hand a glass filled to the brim, having vowed that not a single drop would spill. She was afraid of a better understanding, the impact of higher insights, of heavenly help itself; and, no matter how that was, she was breathing that afternoon like never before, in an atmosphere heavy with oppression. Something serious had happened, somehow and somewhere, and she had, God knows, plenty of theories: her heart stopped when she considered if the bond between her husband and her father might finally have broken. She closed her eyes at the thought of such a possibility—imagining the procession of unpleasant forms it might have taken. “Find out for yourself!” she had told Amerigo as her last word on who else “knew” that night when the Bowl broke; and she took pride in the fact that she hadn’t helped him, in her clear consistency, by a fraction since then. It was what she had given him to think about for all these weeks, and she had often lain awake, obsessed with his uncertainty ruthlessly and endlessly messing with his dignity. She had left him in a state of ignorance that couldn’t even try to be indifferent and yet wouldn’t project itself into the clear air of certainty. The more generous he was, the more it gnawed at his spirit, and more than once she told herself that to break the spell she had cast on him—the polished old ivory of her father’s unassailable demeanor making it so absolute—he would suddenly make some mistake or act violently, shatter some windowpane for air, or fail to maintain one of his cherished tastes. In that way, he would have fatally put himself in the wrong—destroying, with a single misstep, the perfection of his outward appearance.
These shadows rose and fell for her while Father Mitchell prattled; with other shadows as well, those that hung over Charlotte herself, those that marked her as a prey to equal suspicions—to the idea, in particular, of a change, such a change as she didn’t dare to face, in the relations of the two men. Or there were yet other possibilities, as it seemed to Maggie; there were always too many, and all of them things of evil when one’s nerves had at last done for one all that nerves could do; had left one in a darkness of prowling dangers that was like the predicament of the night-watcher in a beast-haunted land who has no more means for a fire. She might, with such nerves, have supposed almost anything of any one; anything, almost, of poor Bob Assingham, condemned to eternal observances and solemnly appreciating her father’s wine; anything, verily, yes, of the good priest, as he finally sat back with fat folded hands and twiddled his thumbs on his stomach. The good priest looked hard at the decanters, at the different dishes of dessert—he eyed them, half-obliquely, as if THEY might have met him to-day, for conversation, better than any one present. But the Princess had her fancy at last about that too; she was in the midst of a passage, before she knew it, between Father Mitchell and Charlotte—some approach he would have attempted with her, that very morning perhaps, to the circumstance of an apparent detachment, recently noted in her, from any practice of devotion. He would have drawn from this, say, his artless inference—taken it for a sign of some smothered inward trouble and pointed, naturally, the moral that the way out of such straits was not through neglect of the grand remedy. He had possibly prescribed contrition—he had at any rate quickened in her the beat of that false repose to which our young woman’s own act had devoted her at her all so deluded instance. The falsity of it had laid traps compared to which the imputation of treachery even accepted might have seemed a path of roses. The acceptance, strangely, would have left her nothing to do—she could have remained, had she liked, all insolently passive; whereas the failure to proceed against her, as it might have been called, left her everything, and all the more that it was wrapped so in confidence. She had to confirm, day after day, the rightness of her cause and the justice and felicity of her exemption—so that wouldn’t there have been, fairly, in any explicit concern of Father Mitchell’s, depths of practical derision of her success?
These shadows rose and fell for her while Father Mitchell chatted away; there were other shadows too, the ones that loomed over Charlotte herself, marking her as someone subjected to equal doubts—especially regarding a change, a change she didn’t dare to confront, in the relationships between the two men. Or there were other possibilities, it seemed to Maggie; there were always too many, and all of them felt negative when one’s nerves had finally worn thin; they had left her in a darkness filled with lurking dangers that resembled the plight of a night watchman in a place haunted by beasts, with no more means to make a fire. With nerves like that, she could have imagined almost anything about anyone; almost anything about poor Bob Assingham, stuck in endless rituals and seriously savoring her father’s wine; indeed, anything about the good priest, as he sat back with his hands folded and twiddled his thumbs on his stomach. The good priest looked intently at the decanters and the various dessert dishes—he glanced at them, almost sideways, as if THEY might be more suitable companions for conversation today than anyone else there. But the Princess eventually formed her own idea about that too; she found herself, before she realized it, in a back-and-forth with Father Mitchell and Charlotte—perhaps he would have broached the topic with her that very morning, concerning the noticeable distance he had recently observed in her from any practice of devotion. He may have drawn an innocent conclusion from this—interpreted it as a sign of some hidden inner turmoil and pointed out, quite naturally, that the way out of such a situation wasn’t through neglecting the grand remedy. He might have suggested contrition—though he certainly rekindled that false sense of calm that her own actions had misguidedly led her to embrace. The deception of it had laid traps that made even the accusation of treachery seem like a bed of roses. Strangely, accepting the accusation would have left her with nothing to do—she could have remained, if she chose, completely passive; whereas failing to act against her, as it might have been termed, left her with everything, and even more so because it was so shrouded in confidence. She had to validate, day after day, the correctness of her stance and the justice and happiness of her exemption—so wouldn't there have been, in any overt concern from Father Mitchell, layers of practical mockery regarding her success?
The question was provisionally answered, at all events, by the time the party at luncheon had begun to disperse—with Maggie’s version of Mrs. Verver sharp to the point of representing her pretext for absence as a positive flight from derision. She met the good priest’s eyes before they separated, and priests were really, at the worst, so to speak, such wonderful people that she believed him for an instant on the verge of saying to her, in abysmal softness: “Go to Mrs. Verver, my child—YOU go: you’ll find that you can help her.” This didn’t come, however; nothing came but the renewed twiddle of thumbs over the satisfied stomach and the full flush, the comical candour, of reference to the hand employed at Fawns for mayonnaise of salmon. Nothing came but the receding backs of each of the others—her father’s slightly bent shoulders, in especial, which seemed to weave his spell, by the force of habit, not less patiently than if his wife had been present. Her husband indeed was present to feel anything there might be to feel—which was perhaps exactly why this personage was moved promptly to emulate so definite an example of “sloping.” He had his occupations—books to arrange perhaps even at Fawns; the idea of the siesta, moreover, in all the conditions, had no need to be loudly invoked. Maggie, was, in the event, left alone for a minute with Mrs. Assingham, who, after waiting for safety, appeared to have at heart to make a demonstration. The stage of “talking over” had long passed for them; when they communicated now it was on quite ultimate facts; but Fanny desired to testify to the existence, on her part, of an attention that nothing escaped. She was like the kind lady who, happening to linger at the circus while the rest of the spectators pour grossly through the exits, falls in with the overworked little trapezist girl—the acrobatic support presumably of embarrassed and exacting parents—and gives her, as an obscure and meritorious artist, assurance of benevolent interest. What was clearest, always, in our young woman’s imaginings, was the sense of being herself left, for any occasion, in the breach. She was essentially there to bear the burden, in the last resort, of surrounding omissions and evasions, and it was eminently to that office she had been to-day abandoned—with this one alleviation, as appeared, of Mrs. Assingham’s keeping up with her. Mrs. Assingham suggested that she too was still on the ramparts—though her gallantry proved indeed after a moment to consist not a little of her curiosity. She had looked about and seen their companions beyond earshot.
The question was temporarily answered, at least by the time the lunch party started to break up—with Maggie’s take on Mrs. Verver sharp enough to suggest her excuse for missing it was really a complete escape from mockery. She caught the priest’s gaze just before they parted, and priests were really, at the worst, such amazing people that she believed for a moment he was about to say to her, in a gentle tone: “Go to Mrs. Verver, my child—YOU go: you’ll find that you can help her.” However, that didn’t happen; nothing came except the familiar fidgeting with thumbs over satisfied stomachs and the playful honesty of remarks about the hand that made the salmon mayonnaise at Fawns. Nothing came but the fading figures of the others—especially her father’s slightly hunched shoulders, which somehow seemed to cast his usual spell, as if by habit, calm and patient even without his wife around. Her husband was indeed present, feeling whatever there was to feel—which was probably exactly why he quickly decided to imitate such a clear example of “sloping.” He had his own tasks—maybe even organizing books back at Fawns; besides, the idea of a nap didn’t need to be loudly suggested. Maggie ended up alone for a moment with Mrs. Assingham, who, after ensuring it was safe, seemed eager to make a point. The stage of “talking things over” had long passed for them; now when they communicated, it was about real issues; but Fanny wanted to show she was paying attention and didn’t miss anything. She was like a kind lady who, lingering at the circus while the rest of the audience loudly rushes out, notices the overworked little trapeze artist—the likely support for demanding parents—and offers her, as an overlooked yet talented performer, a sense of caring encouragement. What stood out most in our young woman’s thoughts was the feeling of being left to handle everything whenever needed. She was fundamentally there to shoulder the weight of everyone’s omissions and evasions, and it was precisely that role she had today been left to fulfill—with the one bright spot being Mrs. Assingham’s company. Mrs. Assingham implied she too was still on guard—though her bravery, it turned out, consisted mostly of her curiosity. She looked around and noticed their companions were out of earshot.
“Don’t you really want us to go—?”
“Do you really not want us to go—?”
Maggie found a faint smile. “Do you really want to—?”
Maggie gave a slight smile. “Do you really want to—?”
It made her friend colour. “Well then—no. But we WOULD, you know, at a look from you. We’d pack up and be off—as a sacrifice.”
It made her friend blush. “Well then—no. But we WOULD, you know, at a glance from you. We’d pack up and leave—as a sacrifice.”
“Ah, make no sacrifice,” said Maggie. “See me through.”
“Don't make any sacrifices,” Maggie said. “Just support me.”
“That’s it—that’s all I want. I should be too base—! Besides,” Fanny went on, “you’re too splendid.”
"That’s it—that’s all I want. I shouldn’t be so low—! Besides,” Fanny continued, “you’re too amazing.”
“Splendid?”
"Awesome?"
“Splendid. Also, you know, you ARE all but ‘through.’ You’ve done it,” said Mrs. Assingham. But Maggie only half took it from her.
“That's great. Also, you know, you’re basically ‘done.’ You did it,” said Mrs. Assingham. But Maggie only partially accepted it from her.
“What does it strike you that I’ve done?”
“What do you think I’ve done?”
“What you wanted. They’re going.”
“What you wanted. They’re leaving.”
Maggie continued to look at her. “Is that what I wanted?”
Maggie kept looking at her. “Is that really what I wanted?”
“Oh, it wasn’t for you to say. That was his business.”
“Oh, that wasn’t for you to say. That was his business.”
“My father’s?” Maggie asked after an hesitation.
"My father's?" Maggie asked after a pause.
“Your father’s. He has chosen—and now she knows. She sees it all before her—and she can’t speak, or resist, or move a little finger. That’s what’s the matter with HER,” said Fanny Assingham.
“Your father’s. He’s made his choice—and now she knows. She sees everything before her—and she can’t speak, resist, or even move a single finger. That’s what’s wrong with HER,” said Fanny Assingham.
It made a picture, somehow, for the Princess, as they stood there—the picture that the words of others, whatever they might be, always made for her, even when her vision was already charged, better than any words of her own. She saw, round about her, through the chinks of the shutters, the hard glare of nature—saw Charlotte, somewhere in it, virtually at bay, and yet denied the last grace of any protecting truth. She saw her off somewhere all unaided, pale in her silence and taking in her fate. “Has she told you?” she then asked.
It created an image for the Princess as they stood there—the kind of image that words from others always painted for her, even when her own vision was already filled, better than anything she could express herself. She noticed, through the gaps in the shutters, the harsh brightness of the outside world—she saw Charlotte, somewhere in it, almost cornered, yet stripped of the final comfort of any protective truth. She saw her alone, pale in her silence, accepting her fate. “Has she told you?” she then asked.
Her companion smiled superior. “I don’t need to be told—either! I see something, thank God, every day.” And then as Maggie might appear to be wondering what, for instance: “I see the long miles of ocean and the dreadful great country, State after State—which have never seemed to me so big or so terrible. I see THEM at last, day by day and step by step, at the far end—and I see them never come back. But NEVER—simply. I see the extraordinary ‘interesting’ place—which I’ve never been to, you know, and you have—and the exact degree in which she will be expected to be interested.”
Her companion smiled condescendingly. “I don’t need to be told either! I see something, thank God, every day.” And then, noticing that Maggie seemed to be wondering what exactly, he continued: “I see the endless miles of ocean and the vast, terrifying country, State after State—which has never seemed so huge or so frightening to me. I see them at last, day by day and step by step, at the far end—and I see them never come back. But NEVER—plain and simple. I see the incredibly ‘interesting’ place—which I’ve never been to, you know, but you have—and the exact level of interest she’s expected to have.”
“She WILL be,” Maggie presently replied. “Expected?”
“She will be,” Maggie replied. “Expected?”
“Interested.”
“I'm interested.”
For a little, after this, their eyes met on it; at the end of which Fanny said: “She’ll be—yes—what she’ll HAVE to be. And it will be—won’t it? for ever and ever.” She spoke as abounding in her friend’s sense, but it made Maggie still only look at her.
For a moment after this, their eyes locked on it; at the end of which Fanny said: “She’ll be—yes—what she has to be. And it will be—won’t it? forever and ever.” She spoke with confidence in her friend's feelings, but it only made Maggie continue to look at her.
These were large words and large visions—all the more that now, really, they spread and spread. In the midst of them, however, Mrs. Assingham had soon enough continued. “When I talk of ‘knowing,’ indeed, I don’t mean it as you would have a right to do. You know because you see—and I don’t see HIM. I don’t make him out,” she almost crudely confessed.
These were big words and big ideas—all the more so now, as they really started to expand. In the middle of it all, though, Mrs. Assingham quickly continued, “When I talk about ‘knowing,’ I definitely don’t mean it in the way you would be justified in thinking. You know because you see—and I don’t see HIM. I can’t figure him out,” she admitted almost bluntly.
Maggie again hesitated. “You mean you don’t make out Amerigo?”
Maggie hesitated again. “Wait, you don't hook up with Amerigo?”
But Fanny shook her head, and it was quite as if, as an appeal to one’s intelligence, the making out of Amerigo had, in spite of everything, long been superseded. Then Maggie measured the reach of her allusion, and how what she next said gave her meaning a richness. No other name was to be spoken, and Mrs. Assingham had taken that, without delay, from her eyes—with a discretion, still, that fell short but by an inch. “You know how he feels.”
But Fanny shook her head, and it was almost as if, as a challenge to one's intelligence, the understanding of Amerigo had, despite everything, been long replaced. Then Maggie gauged the depth of her reference, and how what she said next added layers to her meaning. No other name was to be mentioned, and Mrs. Assingham had quickly removed that from her gaze—with a discretion that was just shy of perfect. “You know how he feels.”
Maggie at this then slowly matched her headshake. “I know nothing.”
Maggie then slowly shook her head to match. “I don’t know anything.”
“You know how YOU feel.”
"You know how you feel."
But again she denied it. “I know nothing. If I did—!”
But again she denied it. “I don’t know anything. If I did—!”
“Well, if you did?” Fanny asked as she faltered.
"Well, what if you did?" Fanny asked as she hesitated.
She had had enough, however. “I should die,” she said as she turned away.
She had reached her limit, though. “I should die,” she said as she turned away.
She went to her room, through the quiet house; she roamed there a moment, picking up, pointlessly, a different fan, and then took her way to the shaded apartments in which, at this hour, the Principino would be enjoying his nap. She passed through the first empty room, the day nursery, and paused at an open door. The inner room, large, dim and cool, was equally calm; her boy’s ample, antique, historical, royal crib, consecrated, reputedly, by the guarded rest of heirs-apparent, and a gift, early in his career, from his grandfather, ruled the scene from the centre, in the stillness of which she could almost hear the child’s soft breathing. The prime protector of his dreams was installed beside him; her father sat there with as little motion—with head thrown back and supported, with eyes apparently closed, with the fine foot that was so apt to betray nervousness at peace upon the other knee, with the unfathomable heart folded in the constant flawless freshness of the white waistcoat that could always receive in its armholes the firm prehensile thumbs. Mrs. Noble had majestically melted, and the whole place signed her temporary abdication; yet the actual situation was regular, and Maggie lingered but to look. She looked over her fan, the top of which was pressed against her face, long enough to wonder if her father really slept or if, aware of her, he only kept consciously quiet. Did his eyes truly fix her between lids partly open, and was she to take this—his forebearance from any question—only as a sign again that everything was left to her? She at all events, for a minute, watched his immobility—then, as if once more renewing her total submission, returned, without a sound, to her own quarters.
She went to her room, moving through the quiet house; she lingered there for a moment, uselessly picking up a different fan, then made her way to the shaded rooms where, at this time, the little prince would be napping. She passed through the first empty room, the nursery, and paused at an open door. The inner room, large, dim, and cool, was equally serene; her boy’s spacious, antique, royal crib, said to be blessed by the peaceful rest of heirs-apparent and a gift from his grandfather early on, dominated the scene, and in the stillness, she could almost hear the child’s soft breathing. The main guardian of his dreams was beside him; her father sat there completely still—with his head thrown back and supported, eyes seemingly closed, the fine foot that often showed signs of nervousness resting peacefully on his other knee, with the unfathomable heart tucked in the constant pristine freshness of his white waistcoat, which could always fit his solid thumbs in its armholes. Mrs. Noble had gracefully faded away, and the whole place marked her temporary departure; yet the actual scene was ordinary, and Maggie only lingered to look. She peered over her fan, which was pressed against her face, long enough to wonder if her father really was asleep or if he was just being quiet because he knew she was there. Did his eyes really fix on her between his partially open lids, and should she take this—his silence about any questions—as a signal that everything was in her hands? In any case, she watched his stillness for a minute—then, as if reaffirming her complete submission, she returned quietly to her own space.
A strange impulse was sharp in her, but it was not, for her part, the desire to shift the weight. She could as little have slept as she could have slept that morning, days before, when she had watched the first dawn from her window. Turned to the east, this side of her room was now in shade, with the two wings of the casement folded back and the charm she always found in her seemingly perched position—as if her outlook, from above the high terraces, was that of some castle-tower mounted on a rock. When she stood there she hung over, over the gardens and the woods—all of which drowsed below her, at this hour, in the immensity of light. The miles of shade looked hot, the banks of flowers looked dim; the peacocks on the balustrades let their tails hang limp and the smaller birds lurked among the leaves. Nothing therefore would have appeared to stir in the brilliant void if Maggie, at the moment she was about to turn away, had not caught sight of a moving spot, a clear green sunshade in the act of descending a flight of steps. It passed down from the terrace, receding, at a distance, from sight, and carried, naturally, so as to conceal the head and back of its bearer; but Maggie had quickly recognised the white dress and the particular motion of this adventurer—had taken in that Charlotte, of all people, had chosen the glare of noon for an exploration of the gardens, and that she could be betaking herself only to some unvisited quarter deep in them, or beyond them, that she had already marked as a superior refuge. The Princess kept her for a few minutes in sight, watched her long enough to feel her, by the mere betrayal of her pace and direction, driven in a kind of flight, and then understood, for herself, why the act of sitting still had become impossible to either of them. There came to her, confusedly, some echo of an ancient fable—some vision of Io goaded by the gadfly or of Ariadne roaming the lone sea-strand. It brought with it all the sense of her own intention and desire; she too might have been, for the hour, some far-off harassed heroine—only with a part to play for which she knew, exactly, no inspiring precedent. She knew but that, all the while—all the while of her sitting there among the others without her—she had wanted to go straight to this detached member of the party and make somehow, for her support, the last demonstration. A pretext was all that was needful, and Maggie after another instant had found one. She had caught a glimpse, before Mrs. Verver disappeared, of her carrying a book—made out, half lost in the folds of her white dress, the dark cover of a volume that was to explain her purpose in case of her being met with surprise, and the mate of which, precisely, now lay on Maggie’s table. The book was an old novel that the Princess had a couple of days before mentioned having brought down from Portland Place in the charming original form of its three volumes. Charlotte had hailed, with a specious glitter of interest, the opportunity to read it, and our young woman had, thereupon, on the morrow, directed her maid to carry it to Mrs. Verver’s apartments. She was afterwards to observe that this messenger, unintelligent or inadvertent, had removed but one of the volumes, which happened not to be the first. Still possessed, accordingly, of the first while Charlotte, going out, fantastically, at such an hour, to cultivate romance in an arbour, was helplessly armed with the second, Maggie prepared on the spot to sally forth with succour. The right volume, with a parasol, was all she required—in addition, that is, to the bravery of her general idea. She passed again through the house, unchallenged, and emerged upon the terrace, which she followed, hugging the shade, with that consciousness of turning the tables on her friend which we have already noted. But so far as she went, after descending into the open and beginning to explore the grounds, Mrs. Verver had gone still further—with the increase of the oddity, moreover, of her having exchanged the protection of her room for these exposed and shining spaces. It was not, fortunately, however, at last, that by persisting in pursuit one didn’t arrive at regions of admirable shade: this was the asylum, presumably, that the poor wandering woman had had in view—several wide alleys, in particular, of great length, densely overarched with the climbing rose and the honeysuckle and converging, in separate green vistas, at a sort of umbrageous temple, an ancient rotunda, pillared and statued, niched and roofed, yet with its uncorrected antiquity, like that of everything else at Fawns, conscious hitherto of no violence from the present and no menace from the future. Charlotte had paused there, in her frenzy, or what ever it was to be called; the place was a conceivable retreat, and she was staring before her, from the seat to which she appeared to have sunk, all unwittingly, as Maggie stopped at the beginning of one of the perspectives.
A strange urge was strong in her, but it wasn’t the desire to shift her weight. She couldn’t have slept any more than she could have slept that morning, days before, when she watched the first dawn from her window. Facing east, this side of her room was now in shade, with the two wings of the casement folded back, and she always felt a certain charm in her seemingly perched position—like her view from atop the high terraces was that of some castle tower on a rock. When she stood there, she leaned over the gardens and woods—all of which were drowsing below her, in the vastness of light. The miles of shade seemed hot, the flower beds looked dim; the peacocks on the balustrades let their tails hang limply, and the smaller birds hid among the leaves. Nothing would have appeared to stir in the brilliant emptiness if Maggie, just as she was about to turn away, hadn’t spotted a moving shape, a clear green sunshade coming down a flight of steps. It moved down from the terrace, fading from view at a distance, and was held in such a way as to hide the head and back of its owner; but Maggie quickly recognized the white dress and the specific way this person moved—she realized that Charlotte, of all people, had chosen the bright noon to explore the gardens, and that she must be heading towards some unexplored area deep within or beyond them, which she had already marked as a superior refuge. The Princess kept her in sight for a few minutes, watched her long enough to sense, from the way she moved and where she was going, that she was almost fleeing, and then understood for herself why it had become impossible for either of them to sit still. An echo of an old fable came to her mind—some image of Io driven by the gadfly or of Ariadne wandering a lonely beach. It brought her the full sense of her own intention and desire; she too could be, for that hour, some distant harassed heroine—only with a role to play for which she knew, exactly, no inspiring example. She realized that, all along—all the time she had been sitting there among others without her—she had wanted to go straight to this isolated member of the group and somehow, for her support, make one last gesture. She only needed a pretext, and Maggie quickly found one. She had caught a glimpse, before Mrs. Verver disappeared, of her carrying a book—just made out, half hidden in the folds of her white dress, the dark cover of a volume that would explain her purpose in case she was met with surprise, and the matching volume of which, exactly, now lay on Maggie’s table. The book was an old novel that the Princess had mentioned a couple of days earlier, having brought it down from Portland Place in its charming original three-volume form. Charlotte had feigned an interest in the opportunity to read it, and so, the next day, Maggie directed her maid to take it to Mrs. Verver’s rooms. She later observed that this messenger, either clueless or careless, had taken only one of the volumes, which happened not to be the first. So, while Charlotte, fantastically heading out at such an hour to nurture romance in a gazebo, was helplessly equipped with the second, Maggie prepared to venture out with help. All she needed was the right volume, along with a parasol—in addition, of course, to the courage of her grand idea. She walked through the house again, unnoticed, and emerged onto the terrace, which she followed, staying in the shade, feeling that she was turning the tables on her friend, as we’ve already noted. But wherever she went, after stepping into the open and beginning to explore the grounds, Mrs. Verver had gone even further—what was odd was that she had traded the safety of her room for these exposed and bright spaces. However, fortunately, there would eventually be areas of wonderful shade if she kept pursuing; this was likely the refuge that the poor wandering woman had in mind—several long, wide paths, in particular, densely covered with climbing roses and honeysuckle, converging in separate green vistas at a sort of shaded temple, an ancient rotunda, with pillars, statues, and niches, yet with its unaltered age, like everything else at Fawns, unaware until now of any violence from the present or any threat from the future. Charlotte had paused there, in her frenzy, or whatever it could be called; the spot was a plausible retreat, and she was staring ahead from the seat she seemed to have collapsed into, completely unaware, as Maggie stopped at the start of one of the pathways.
It was a repetition more than ever then of the evening on the terrace; the distance was too great to assure her she had been immediately seen, but the Princess waited, with her intention, as Charlotte on the other occasion had waited—allowing, oh allowing, for the difference of the intention! Maggie was full of the sense of THAT—so full that it made her impatient; whereupon she moved forward a little, placing herself in range of the eyes that had been looking off elsewhere, but that she had suddenly called to recognition. Charlotte had evidently not dreamed of being followed, and instinctively, with her pale stare, she stiffened herself for protest. Maggie could make that out—as well as, further, however, that her second impression of her friend’s approach had an instant effect on her attitude. The Princess came nearer, gravely and in silence, but fairly paused again, to give her time for whatever she would. Whatever she would, whatever she could, was what Maggie wanted—wanting above all to make it as easy for her as the case permitted. That was not what Charlotte had wanted the other night, but this never mattered—the great thing was to allow her, was fairly to produce in her, the sense of highly choosing. At first, clearly, she had been frightened; she had not been pursued, it had quickly struck her, without some design on the part of her pursuer, and what might she not be thinking of in addition but the way she had, when herself the pursuer, made her stepdaughter take in her spirit and her purpose? It had sunk into Maggie at the time, that hard insistence, and Mrs. Verver had felt it and seen it and heard it sink; which wonderful remembrance of pressure successfully applied had naturally, till now, remained with her. But her stare was like a projected fear that the buried treasure, so dishonestly come by, for which her companion’s still countenance, at the hour and afterwards, had consented to serve as the deep soil, might have worked up again to the surface, to be thrown back upon her hands. Yes, it was positive that during one of these minutes the Princess had the vision of her particular alarm. “It’s her lie, it’s her lie that has mortally disagreed with her; she can keep down no longer her rebellion at it, and she has come to retract it, to disown it and denounce it—to give me full in my face the truth instead.” This, for a concentrated instant, Maggie felt her helplessly gasp—but only to let it bring home the indignity, the pity of her state. She herself could but tentatively hover, place in view the book she carried, look as little dangerous, look as abjectly mild, as possible; remind herself really of people she had read about in stories of the wild west, people who threw up their hands, on certain occasions, as a sign they weren’t carrying revolvers. She could almost have smiled at last, troubled as she yet knew herself, to show how richly she was harmless; she held up her volume, which was so weak a weapon, and while she continued, for consideration, to keep her distance, she explained with as quenched a quaver as possible. “I saw you come out—saw you from my window, and couldn’t bear to think you should find yourself here without the beginning of your book. THIS is the beginning; you’ve got the wrong volume, and I’ve brought you out the right.”
It was more than ever a repeat of that evening on the terrace; the distance was too far for her to be sure she had been seen right away, but the Princess waited, with her intent, just as Charlotte had on the previous occasion—allowing, oh allowing for the difference in their intentions! Maggie was acutely aware of THAT—so much so that it made her impatient; so she moved a little closer, putting herself in the line of sight of the eyes that had been focused elsewhere, but that she had suddenly drawn back to attention. Charlotte clearly hadn’t expected to be followed, and instinctively, with her pale gaze, she braced herself for a protest. Maggie could see that—as well as noticing that her second impression of her friend’s approach instantly affected her demeanor. The Princess came closer, gravely and silently, but paused again to give her time for whatever she wanted to do. Whatever she wanted, whatever she could do, was what Maggie hoped for—wanting especially to make it as easy for her as possible. That wasn’t what Charlotte had wanted the other night, but that never mattered—the important thing was to allow her, to genuinely create in her a sense of having a choice. At first, it was clear she had been frightened; she quickly realized she hadn’t been pursued without some design on the part of her pursuer, and what might she be thinking, aside from how she had, when she was the pursuer, made her stepdaughter understand her spirit and intent? That hard insistence had struck Maggie at the time, and Mrs. Verver had felt it, seen it, and heard it sink in; that remarkable memory of successfully applied pressure had naturally stayed with her until now. But her gaze resembled a projected fear that the buried treasure, acquired so dishonestly, for which her companion's still expression had consented to serve as the deep soil, might have resurfaced to be thrust back into her hands. Yes, it was clear that during one of these moments, the Princess envisioned her particular alarm. “It’s her lie, it’s her lie that has fundamentally disagreed with her; she can’t suppress her rebellion against it any longer, and she has come to retract it, to reject it and denounce it—to confront me with the truth instead.” This thought made Maggie feel a helpless gasp—but only to reinforce the indignity and pity of her own situation. She could only tentatively hover, display the book she was holding, make herself look as harmless as possible, remind herself of people she had read about in western stories, who raised their hands in certain situations to show they weren’t carrying guns. She could almost smile in her troubled state, to demonstrate how thoroughly harmless she was; she held up her book, which was such a weak weapon, and while she maintained her distance for consideration, she explained with as subdued a quaver as she could manage. “I saw you come out—saw you from my window, and I couldn’t stand the thought of you being here without the beginning of your book. THIS is the beginning; you’ve got the wrong volume, and I’ve brought you the right one.”
She remained after she had spoken; it was like holding a parley with a possible adversary, and her intense, her exalted little smile asked for formal leave. “May I come nearer now?” she seemed to say—as to which, however, the next minute, she saw Charlotte’s reply lose itself in a strange process, a thing of several sharp stages, which she could stand there and trace. The dread, after a minute, had dropped from her face; though, discernibly enough, she still couldn’t believe in her having, in so strange a fashion, been deliberately made up to. If she had been made up to, at least, it was with an idea—the idea that had struck her at first as necessarily dangerous. That it wasn’t, insistently wasn’t, this shone from Maggie with a force finally not to be resisted; and on that perception, on the immense relief so constituted, everything had by the end of three minutes extraordinarily changed. Maggie had come out to her, really, because she knew her doomed, doomed to a separation that was like a knife in her heart; and in the very sight of her uncontrollable, her blinded physical quest of a peace not to be grasped, something of Mrs. Assingham’s picture of her as thrown, for a grim future, beyond the great sea and the great continent had at first found fulfilment. She had got away, in this fashion—burning behind her, almost, the ships of disguise—to let her horror of what was before her play up without witnesses; and even after Maggie’s approach had presented an innocent front it was still not to be mistaken that she bristled with the signs of her extremity. It was not to be said for them, either, that they were draped at this hour in any of her usual graces; unveiled and all but unashamed, they were tragic to the Princess in spite of the dissimulation that, with the return of comparative confidence, was so promptly to operate. How tragic, in essence, the very change made vivid, the instant stiffening of the spring of pride—this for possible defence if not for possible aggression. Pride indeed, the next moment, had become the mantle caught up for protection and perversity; she flung it round her as a denial of any loss of her freedom. To be doomed was, in her situation, to have extravagantly incurred a doom, so that to confess to wretchedness was, by the same stroke, to confess to falsity. She wouldn’t confess, she didn’t—a thousand times no; she only cast about her, and quite frankly and fiercely, for something else that would give colour to her having burst her bonds. Her eyes expanded, her bosom heaved as she invoked it, and the effect upon Maggie was verily to wish she could only help her to it. She presently got up—which seemed to mean “Oh, stay if you like!” and when she had moved about awhile at random, looking away, looking at anything, at everything but her visitor; when she had spoken of the temperature and declared that she revelled in it; when she had uttered her thanks for the book, which, a little incoherently, with her second volume, she perhaps found less clever than she expected; when she had let Maggie approach sufficiently closer to lay, untouched, the tribute in question on a bench and take up obligingly its superfluous mate: when she had done these things she sat down in another place, more or less visibly in possession of her part. Our young woman was to have passed, in all her adventure, no stranger moments; for she not only now saw her companion fairly agree to take her then for the poor little person she was finding it so easy to appear, but fell, in a secret, responsive ecstasy, to wondering if there were not some supreme abjection with which she might be inspired. Vague, but increasingly brighter, this possibility glimmered on her. It at last hung there adequately plain to Charlotte that she had presented herself once more to (as they said) grovel; and that, truly, made the stage large. It had absolutely, within the time, taken on the dazzling merit of being large for each of them alike.
She stayed after speaking, like she was negotiating with a potential enemy, and her intense, little smiling expression was asking for permission to come closer. “Can I move a bit closer now?” she seemed to ask. However, in the next moment, she watched as Charlotte’s response went through a strange process, something sharp and complex that she could clearly follow. After a minute, the fear had faded from her face; although it was evident that she still couldn’t fully accept that she had, in such a bizarre way, been deliberately approached. If she had been approached, at least it was with a purpose—the idea that first struck her as inherently risky. The fact that it wasn’t—insistently wasn’t—shone from Maggie with a force that finally couldn’t be ignored; and on that realization, on the immense relief that followed, everything changed remarkably by the end of three minutes. Maggie had come to her because she sensed her own impending separation, which felt like a knife in her heart; and just seeing her desperate pursuit of a peace that was out of reach fulfilled Mrs. Assingham’s earlier portrayal of her as being cast away, for a grim future, beyond the ocean and the vast continent. She had escaped, figuratively burning the bridges of disguise behind her, to let her horror about what lay ahead show itself without witnesses; and even after Maggie’s approach presented an innocent front, it was still unmistakable that she was bristling with signs of her extremity. They couldn't be said to be wrapped up at this moment in any of her usual graces; revealed and nearly unashamed, they appeared tragic to the Princess despite the pretense that, with the return of a bit more confidence, was quickly set into motion. How tragic, in essence, the very change became apparent, the instant tightening of her pride’s defenses—this for possible defense if not possible aggression. Indeed, pride had quickly become the shield taken up for protection and defiance; she wrapped it around herself as a denial of any loss of freedom. To be doomed meant in her case that she had earned it extravagantly, so admitting to misery was, by that same token, admitting to a falsehood. She wouldn’t admit it, she didn’t—a thousand times no; she only searched around her, openly and fiercely, for something else that would validate her breaking free. Her eyes widened, her chest heaved as she called for it, and the effect on Maggie was truly a wish that she could help her achieve it. She eventually stood up—which seemed to mean “Oh, stay if you want!”—and when she wandered about aimlessly, looking away, focusing on anything but her visitor; when she remarked on the weather and claimed she loved it; when she expressed her thanks for the book, which, a bit incoherently, with her second volume, she perhaps found less clever than she had expected; when she allowed Maggie to come close enough to lay, untouched, the tribute in question on a bench and pick up its unnecessary twin: after she did all of this, she sat down in another spot, more or less visibly in control of her role. Our young woman was not to have passed any stranger moments in all her adventure; for she not only saw her companion reasonably accepting her then as the poor little person she found it easy to portray, but she also fell into a secret, shared excitement, wondering if there wasn’t some profound humiliation that might inspire her. Vague, but growing brighter, this possibility sparkled in her mind. It eventually became clear to Charlotte that she had once again presented herself to (as they would say) grovel; and that truly made the stage seem grand. It had definitely taken on, in that time, the dazzling quality of being expansive for both of them alike.
“I’m glad to see you alone—there’s something I’ve been wanting to say to you. I’m tired,” said Mrs. Verver, “I’m tired—!”
“I’m glad to see you by yourself—there’s something I’ve been wanting to say. I’m tired,” said Mrs. Verver, “I’m tired—!”
“Tired—?” It had dropped the next thing; it couldn’t all come at once; but Maggie had already guessed what it was, and the flush of recognition was in her face.
“Tired—?” It had dropped the next thing; it couldn’t all come at once; but Maggie had already guessed what it was, and the flush of recognition was in her face.
“Tired of this life—the one we’ve been leading. You like it, I know, but I’ve dreamed another dream.” She held up her head now; her lighted eyes more triumphantly rested; she was finding, she was following her way. Maggie, by the same influence, sat in sight of it; there was something she was SAVING, some quantity of which she herself was judge; and it was for a long moment, even with the sacrifice the Princess had come to make, a good deal like watching her, from the solid shore, plunge into uncertain, into possibly treacherous depths. “I see something else,” she went on; “I’ve an idea that greatly appeals to me—I’ve had it for a long time. It has come over me that we’re wrong. Our real life isn’t here.”
“Tired of this life—the one we’ve been living. You like it, I know, but I’ve dreamed another dream.” She held her head high now; her bright eyes gleamed triumphantly; she was finding and following her path. Maggie, influenced by the same force, sat nearby, aware of something she was protecting, something she alone could judge; and for a long moment, even with the sacrifice the Princess was about to make, it felt a lot like watching her, from solid ground, dive into uncertain, possibly dangerous waters. “I see something else,” she continued; “I have an idea that really resonates with me—I’ve had it for a long time. It has occurred to me that we’re mistaken. Our true life isn’t here.”
Maggie held her breath. “‘Ours’—?”
Maggie held her breath. “‘Ours’—?”
“My husband’s and mine. I’m not speaking for you.”
“My husband’s and mine. I’m not speaking for you.”
“Oh!” said Maggie, only praying not to be, not even to appear, stupid.
“Oh!” said Maggie, just hoping not to be, not even to look, stupid.
“I’m speaking for ourselves. I’m speaking,” Charlotte brought out, “for HIM.”
“I’m speaking for us. I’m speaking,” Charlotte pointed out, “for HIM.”
“I see. For my father.”
"I get it. For my dad."
“For your father. For whom else?” They looked at each other hard now, but Maggie’s face took refuge in the intensity of her interest. She was not at all even so stupid as to treat her companion’s question as requiring an answer; a discretion that her controlled stillness had after an instant justified. “I must risk your thinking me selfish—for of course you know what it involves. Let me admit it—I AM selfish. I place my husband first.”
“For your father. Who else would it be for?” They stared at each other intensely, but Maggie’s expression found comfort in her deep interest. She wasn’t even close to being foolish enough to treat her companion’s question as needing an answer; a moment of her composed silence confirmed that. “I have to risk you thinking I’m selfish—because you know what that implies. Let me just admit it—I AM selfish. I put my husband first.”
“Well,” said Maggie smiling and smiling, “since that’s where I place mine—!”
“Well,” said Maggie, smiling and grinning, “since that’s where I put mine—!”
“You mean you’ll have no quarrel with me? So much the better then; for,” Charlotte went on with a higher and higher flight, “my plan is completely formed.”
“You mean you won’t have any issues with me? That’s great; because,” Charlotte continued to soar higher, “my plan is all set.”
Maggie waited—her glimmer had deepened; her chance somehow was at hand. The only danger was her spoiling it; she felt herself skirting an abyss. “What then, may I ask IS your plan?”
Maggie waited—her excitement had intensified; her opportunity was somehow within reach. The only risk was her ruining it; she felt like she was teetering on the edge. “So, may I ask, what is your plan?”
It hung fire but ten seconds; it came out sharp. “To take him home—to his real position. And not to wait.”
It paused for just ten seconds; it came out clear. “To bring him home—to his true place. And not to delay.”
“Do you mean—a—this season?”
“Are you referring to this season?”
“I mean immediately. And—I may as well tell you now—I mean for my own time. I want,” Charlotte said, “to have him at last a little to myself; I want, strange as it may seem to you”—and she gave it all its weight “to KEEP the man I’ve married. And to do so, I see, I must act.”
“I mean right now. And—I might as well tell you—I'm talking about my own time. I want,” Charlotte said, “to finally have him a little for myself; I want, as strange as it may sound to you”—and she emphasized it all “to KEEP the man I’ve married. And to do that, I realize, I need to take action.”
Maggie, with the effort still to follow the right line, felt herself colour to the eyes. “Immediately?” she thoughtfully echoed.
Maggie, trying hard to stay on track, felt herself blush. “Right now?” she said, echoing it thoughtfully.
“As soon as we can get off. The removal of everything is, after all, but a detail. That can always be done; with money, as he spends it, everything can. What I ask for,” Charlotte declared, “is the definite break. And I wish it now.” With which her head, like her voice rose higher. “Oh,” she added, “I know my difficulty!”
“As soon as we can leave. Getting rid of everything is just a detail, really. That can always be done; with money, as he uses it, anything can be. What I’m asking for,” Charlotte declared, “is a clear break. And I want it now.” With that, her head, like her voice, rose higher. “Oh,” she added, “I know what my problem is!”
Far down below the level of attention, in she could scarce have said what sacred depths, Maggie’s inspiration had come, and it had trembled the next moment into sound. “Do you mean I’M your difficulty?”
Far down below the level of attention, in what she could hardly define as some sacred depths, Maggie’s inspiration had emerged, and it had soon turned into sound. “Are you saying I’M your problem?”
“You and he together—since it’s always with you that I’ve had to see him. But it’s a difficulty that I’m facing, if you wish to know; that I’ve already faced; that I propose to myself to surmount. The struggle with it—none too pleasant—hasn’t been for me, as you may imagine, in itself charming; I’ve felt in it at times, if I must tell you all, too great and too strange, an ugliness. Yet I believe it may succeed.”
“You and he together—since it’s always been with you that I’ve seen him. But it’s a challenge I’m dealing with, if you want to know; one I’ve already faced; one I plan to overcome. The struggle with it—definitely not enjoyable—hasn’t been, as you might imagine, charming for me; I’ve felt at times, if I’m being honest, an overwhelming and unusual ugliness in it. But I believe it can work out.”
She had risen, with this, Mrs. Verver, and had moved, for the emphasis of it, a few steps away; while Maggie, motionless at first, but sat and looked at her. “You want to take my father FROM me?”
She had stood up, with this, Mrs. Verver, and had moved, to emphasize her point, a few steps away; while Maggie, initially still, sat and looked at her. “You want to take my father AWAY from me?”
The sharp, successful, almost primitive wail in it made Charlotte turn, and this movement attested for the Princess the felicity of her deceit. Something in her throbbed as it had throbbed the night she stood in the drawing-room and denied that she had suffered. She was ready to lie again if her companion would but give her the opening. Then she should know she had done all. Charlotte looked at her hard, as if to compare her face with her note of resentment; and Maggie, feeling this, met it with the signs of an impression that might pass for the impression of defeat. “I want really to possess him,” said Mrs. Verver. “I happen also to feel that he’s worth it.”
The sharp, successful, almost primitive wail in it made Charlotte turn, and this movement confirmed for the Princess the joy of her deceit. Something inside her pulsed as it had the night she stood in the drawing room and lied about not having suffered. She was ready to lie again if her companion would just give her the chance. Then she would know she had done everything. Charlotte looked at her intently, as if to compare her expression with her tone of resentment; and Maggie, sensing this, responded with signs of an impression that could be seen as defeat. “I really want to have him,” said Mrs. Verver. “I also feel that he’s worth it.”
Maggie rose as if to receive her. “Oh—worth it!” she wonderfully threw off.
Maggie stood up as if to greet her. “Oh—totally worth it!” she exclaimed joyfully.
The tone, she instantly saw, again had its effect: Charlotte flamed aloft—might truly have been believing in her passionate parade. “You’ve thought YOU’VE known what he’s worth?”
The tone, she immediately realized, had its impact again: Charlotte seemed to ignite—really could have believed in her enthusiastic display. “You think YOU know what he’s worth?”
“Indeed then, my dear, I believe I have—as I believe I still do.”
“Really, my dear, I think I have—as I believe I still do.”
She had given it, Maggie, straight back, and again it had not missed. Charlotte, for another moment, only looked at her; then broke into the words—Maggie had known they would come—of which she had pressed the spring. “How I see that you loathed our marriage!”
She gave it back to Maggie right away, and once more it hit the mark. Charlotte, for a moment longer, just stared at her; then she burst out with the words—Maggie had known they would come—that she had been holding in. “I can see how much you hated our marriage!”
“Do you ASK me?” Maggie after an instant demanded.
“Do you ASK me?” Maggie asked immediately.
Charlotte had looked about her, picked up the parasol she had laid on a bench, possessed herself mechanically of one of the volumes of the relegated novel and then, more consciously, flung it down again: she was in presence, visibly, of her last word. She opened her sunshade with a click; she twirled it on her shoulder in her pride. “‘Ask’ you? Do I need? How I see,” she broke out, “that you’ve worked against me!”
Charlotte looked around, picked up the parasol she had set on a bench, grabbed one of the forgotten novels mechanically, and then, more intentionally, tossed it aside: she was clearly facing her final decision. She opened her sunshade with a snap and twirled it on her shoulder, proud of herself. “‘Ask’ you? Do I need to? It's clear,” she exclaimed, “that you've been working against me!”
“Oh, oh, oh!” the Princess exclaimed.
“Oh, wow!” the Princess said.
Her companion, leaving her, had reached one of the archways, but on this turned round with a flare. “You haven’t worked against me?”
Her companion, leaving her, had reached one of the archways, but then turned around dramatically. “You didn’t work against me, right?”
Maggie took it and for a moment kept it; held it, with closed eyes, as if it had been some captured fluttering bird pressed by both hands to her breast. Then she opened her eyes to speak. “What does it matter—if I’ve failed?”
Maggie took it and for a moment held it close, with her eyes shut, as if it were a captured, fluttering bird pressed against her chest. Then she opened her eyes to say, “Does it really matter—if I’ve failed?”
“You recognise then that you’ve failed?” asked Charlotte from the threshold.
“You realize now that you’ve failed?” Charlotte asked from the doorway.
Maggie waited; she looked, as her companion had done a moment before, at the two books on the seat; she put them together and laid them down; then she made up her mind. “I’ve failed!” she sounded out before Charlotte, having given her time, walked away. She watched her, splendid and erect, float down the long vista; then she sank upon a seat. Yes, she had done all.
Maggie waited; she looked, just like her companion had moments earlier, at the two books on the seat; she put them together and set them down; then she made up her mind. “I’ve failed!” she called out before Charlotte, who, having given her some time, walked away. Maggie watched her, beautiful and tall, move down the long path; then she sank onto a seat. Yes, she had done everything.
PART SIXTH.
XL
XL
“I’ll do anything you like,” she said to her husband on one of the last days of the month, “if our being here, this way at this time, seems to you too absurd, or too uncomfortable, or too impossible. We’ll either take leave of them now, without waiting—or we’ll come back in time, three days before they start. I’ll go abroad with you, if you but say the word; to Switzerland, the Tyrol, the Italian Alps, to whichever of your old high places you would like most to see again—those beautiful ones that used to do you good after Rome and that you so often told me about.”
“I’ll do whatever you want,” she said to her husband on one of the last days of the month. “If being here, like this, at this time feels too ridiculous, too uncomfortable, or just impossible to you, we can either leave right now without waiting—or we can come back in time, three days before they start. I’ll go abroad with you, just say the word; to Switzerland, the Tyrol, the Italian Alps, to whichever of your favorite spots you want to see again—those beautiful places that used to lift your spirits after Rome that you always told me about.”
Where they were, in the conditions that prompted this offer, and where it might indeed appear ridiculous that, with the stale London September close at hand, they should content themselves with remaining, was where the desert of Portland Place looked blank as it had never looked, and where a drowsy cabman, scanning the horizon for a fare, could sink to oblivion of the risks of immobility. But Amerigo was of the odd opinion, day after day, that their situation couldn’t be bettered; and he even went at no moment through the form of replying that, should their ordeal strike her as exceeding their patience, any step they might take would be for her own relief. This was, no doubt, partly because he stood out so wonderfully, to the end, against admitting, by a weak word at least, that any element of their existence WAS, or ever had been, an ordeal; no trap of circumstance, no lapse of “form,” no accident of irritation, had landed him in that inconsequence. His wife might verily have suggested that he was consequent—consequent with the admirable appearance he had from the first so undertaken, and so continued, to present—rather too rigidly at HER expense; only, as it happened, she was not the little person to do anything of the sort, and the strange tacit compact actually in operation between them might have been founded on an intelligent comparison, a definite collation positively, of the kinds of patience proper to each. She was seeing him through—he had engaged to come out at the right end if she WOULD see him: this understanding, tacitly renewed from week to week, had fairly received, with the procession of the weeks, the consecration of time; but it scarce needed to be insisted on that she was seeing him on HIS terms, not all on hers, or that, in other words, she must allow him his unexplained and uncharted, his one practicably workable way. If that way, by one of the intimate felicities the liability to which was so far from having even yet completely fallen from him, happened handsomely to show him as more bored than boring (with advantages of his own freely to surrender, but none to be persuadedly indebted to others for,) what did such a false face of the matter represent but the fact itself that she was pledged? If she had questioned or challenged or interfered—if she had reserved herself that right—she wouldn’t have been pledged; whereas there were still, and evidently would be yet a while, long, tense stretches during which their case might have been hanging, for every eye, on her possible, her impossible defection. She must keep it up to the last, mustn’t absent herself for three minutes from her post: only on those lines, assuredly, would she show herself as with him and not against him.
Where they were, under the conditions that led to this offer, it might indeed seem ridiculous that, with the stale London September approaching, they should just stay put. The emptiness of Portland Place looked more desolate than ever, and a sleepy cab driver, looking for a fare, could easily lose track of the risks of being inactive. But Amerigo stubbornly believed, day after day, that their situation couldn't improve; and he never even pretended to respond that, if their struggle seemed to test her patience too much, any action they might take would solely be for her relief. This was partly because he was so intent on never admitting, not even with a weak word, that any part of their lives WAS, or had ever been, a struggle; no circumstance, no lapse in “form,” no irritating accident had led him to that conclusion. His wife might have thought that he was rigidly maintaining a facade, one he had created and continued to uphold, perhaps too much at HER expense; but, as luck would have it, she wasn't the type to suggest such a thing, and the strange unspoken agreement between them seemed based on an intelligent comparison of the types of patience each of them could manage. She was committed to supporting him—he had promised to come through if she would support him: this understanding, quietly reaffirmed week after week, had gradually gained the legitimacy of time; but it hardly needed emphasizing that she was supporting him on HIS terms, not entirely on hers, meaning she had to accept his unexplained and uncharted, yet practically workable, way. If that way, through one of the subtle joys he was still capable of experiencing, happened to show him as more bored than boring (with benefits of his own willingly given, but with no debts to others), what did that misleading appearance amount to but the fact that she was committed? If she had questioned, challenged, or intervened—if she had reserved that right—she wouldn’t have been committed; whereas there still remained, and it was clear there would be for a while yet, long, tense moments during which their situation could be scrutinized by every glance, waiting for her possible, even impossible, departure. She had to maintain her role to the end, couldn’t step away from her position for even three minutes: only in that way, certainly, could she show herself to be with him and not against him.
It was extraordinary how scant a series of signs she had invited him to make of being, of truly having been at any time, “with” his wife: that reflection she was not exempt from as they now, in their suspense, supremely waited—a reflection under the brush of which she recognised her having had, in respect to him as well, to “do all,” to go the whole way over, to move, indefatigably, while he stood as fixed in his place as some statue of one of his forefathers. The meaning of it would seem to be, she reasoned in sequestered hours, that he HAD a place, and that this was an attribute somehow indefeasible, unquenchable, which laid upon others—from the moment they definitely wanted anything of him— the necessity of taking more of the steps that he could, of circling round him, of remembering for his benefit the famous relation of the mountain to Mahomet. It was strange, if one had gone into it, but such a place as Amerigo’s was like something made for him beforehand by innumerable facts, facts largely of the sort known as historical, made by ancestors, examples, traditions, habits; while Maggie’s own had come to show simply as that improvised “post”—a post of the kind spoken of as advanced—with which she was to have found herself connected in the fashion of a settler or a trader in a new country; in the likeness even of some Indian squaw with a papoose on her back and barbarous bead-work to sell. Maggie’s own, in short, would have been sought in vain in the most rudimentary map of the social relations as such. The only geography marking it would be doubtless that of the fundamental passions. The “end” that the Prince was at all events holding out for was represented to expectation by his father-in-law’s announced departure for America with Mrs. Verver; just as that prospective event had originally figured as advising, for discretion, the flight of the younger couple, to say nothing of the withdrawal of whatever other importunate company, before the great upheaval of Fawns. This residence was to be peopled for a month by porters, packers and hammerers, at whose operations it had become peculiarly public—public that is for Portland Place—that Charlotte was to preside in force; operations the quite awful appointed scale and style of which had at no moment loomed so large to Maggie’s mind as one day when the dear Assinghams swam back into her ken besprinkled with sawdust and looking as pale as if they had seen Samson pull down the temple. They had seen at least what she was not seeing, rich dim things under the impression of which they had retired; she having eyes at present but for the clock by which she timed her husband, or for the glass—the image perhaps would be truer—in which he was reflected to her as HE timed the pair in the country. The accession of their friends from Cadogan Place contributed to all their intermissions, at any rate, a certain effect of resonance; an effect especially marked by the upshot of a prompt exchange of inquiries between Mrs. Assingham and the Princess. It was noted, on the occasion of that anxious lady’s last approach to her young friend at Fawns, that her sympathy had ventured, after much accepted privation, again to become inquisitive, and it had perhaps never so yielded to that need as on this question of the present odd “line” of the distinguished eccentrics.
It was remarkable how few signs she had encouraged him to show of being, of truly having been at any point, “with” his wife: that realization she wasn’t immune to as they now, in their anticipation, waited—an awareness under which she recognized that she had, in relation to him as well, had to “do all,” to go the full distance, to keep moving, tirelessly, while he remained as fixed in his spot as a statue of one of his ancestors. The implication seemed to be, she thought during quiet moments, that he HAD a place, and that this was an attribute somehow undeniable, unyielding, which imposed on others—from the moment they genuinely wanted anything from him—the obligation to take more of the steps he could, to circle around him, to remember for his sake the famous relationship of the mountain to Mahomet. It was odd, if you really thought about it, but a place like Amerigo’s seemed designed for him in advance by countless facts, facts mostly of the historical kind, created by ancestors, examples, traditions, habits; while Maggie’s reality appeared simply as that improvised “post”—a post of the sort referred to as advanced—with which she found herself connected like a settler or a trader in a new land; even reminiscent of some Native woman with a child on her back and handmade beadwork to sell. Maggie’s own, in short, would have been impossible to locate in the most basic map of social relations as such. The only geography marking it would surely be that of fundamental emotions. The “end” that the Prince was holding out for was represented by his father-in-law’s announced departure for America with Mrs. Verver; just as that upcoming event had initially suggested, for the sake of discretion, the escape of the younger couple, not to mention the removal of any other intrusive company, before the significant upheaval of Fawns. This residence was to be filled for a month by porters, packers, and workers, in whose activities it had become particularly evident—evident for Portland Place—that Charlotte was to be in charge; operations whose incredibly daunting planned scale and style had never loomed so large in Maggie’s mind as it did one day when the dear Assinghams reappeared to her sight, dusted with sawdust and looking as pale as if they had witnessed Samson bring down the temple. They had at least seen what she wasn’t seeing, rich vague things that had sent them retreating; she having eyes only for the clock by which she timed her husband, or for the mirror—the image perhaps would be more accurate—in which he was reflected to her as HE timed the couple in the countryside. The arrival of their friends from Cadogan Place added a certain effect of resonance to all their pauses; an effect especially marked by the result of a quick exchange of inquiries between Mrs. Assingham and the Princess. It was noted, during that anxious lady’s last approach to her young friend at Fawns, that her sympathy had dared, after much accepted deprivation, to become curious again, and it had perhaps never so surrendered to that need as on this topic of the current peculiar “line” of the distinguished eccentrics.
“You mean to say really that you’re going to stick here?” And then before Maggie could answer: “What on earth will you do with your evenings?”
“You really mean to say that you’re going to stay here?” And then before Maggie could respond: “What on earth are you going to do with your evenings?”
Maggie waited a moment—Maggie could still tentatively smile. “When people learn we’re here—and of course the papers will be full of it!—they’ll flock back in their hundreds, from wherever they are, to catch us. You see you and the Colonel have yourselves done it. As for our evenings, they won’t, I dare say, be particularly different from anything else that’s ours. They won’t be different from our mornings or our afternoons—except perhaps that you two dears will sometimes help us to get through them. I’ve offered to go anywhere,” she added; “to take a house if he will. But THIS—just this and nothing else—is Amerigo’s idea. He gave it yesterday” she went on, “a name that, as, he said, described and fitted it. So you see”—and the Princess indulged again in her smile that didn’t play, but that only, as might have been said, worked—“so you see there’s a method in our madness.”
Maggie paused for a moment—she could still manage a tentative smile. “When people find out we’re here—and the papers will definitely be buzzing about it!—they’ll come rushing back in droves from wherever they are to see us. You see, you and the Colonel have already done that. As for our evenings, I doubt they’ll be any different from the rest of our time together. They won’t be different from our mornings or afternoons—except maybe that you two will help us get through them sometimes. I’ve offered to go anywhere,” she added; “to rent a house if he agrees. But THIS—just this and nothing else—is Amerigo’s idea. He gave it a name yesterday that, as he said, described and suited it perfectly. So you see”—and the Princess smiled again, a smile that didn’t quite reach her eyes, but that worked in its own way—“so you see there’s a method to our madness.”
It drew Mrs. Assingham’s wonder. “And what then is the name?”
It amazed Mrs. Assingham. “So what’s the name?”
“‘The reduction to its simplest expression of what we ARE doing’—that’s what he called it. Therefore as we’re doing nothing, we’re doing it in the most aggravated way—which is the way he desires.” With which Maggie further said: “Of course I understand.”
“‘The simplification of what we ARE doing’—that’s what he called it. So, since we’re doing nothing, we’re doing it in the most annoying way—which is exactly how he wants it.” To which Maggie replied: “Of course I get it.”
“So do I!” her visitor after a moment breathed. “You’ve had to vacate the house—that was inevitable. But at least here he doesn’t funk.”
“Me too!” her visitor said after a moment. “You had to leave the house—that was bound to happen. But at least here he doesn’t chicken out.”
Our young woman accepted the expression. “He doesn’t funk.”
Our young woman accepted the comment. “He doesn’t back down.”
It only, however, half contented Fanny, who thoughtfully raised her eyebrows. “He’s prodigious; but what is there—as you’ve ‘fixed’ it—TO dodge? Unless,” she pursued, “it’s her getting near him; it’s—if you’ll pardon my vulgarity—her getting AT him. That,” she suggested, “may count with him.”
It only, however, somewhat satisfied Fanny, who thoughtfully raised her eyebrows. “He’s amazing; but what is there—as you’ve ‘fixed’ it—to avoid? Unless,” she continued, “it’s her getting close to him; it’s—if you’ll excuse my crudeness—her reaching him. That,” she suggested, “might matter to him.”
But it found the Princess prepared. “She can get near him here. She can get ‘at’ him. She can come up.”
But it found the Princess ready. “She can get close to him here. She can reach him. She can approach.”
“CAN she?” Fanny Assingham questioned.
“Can she?” Fanny Assingham questioned.
“CAN’T she?” Maggie returned.
"Can’t she?" Maggie replied.
Their eyes, for a minute, intimately met on it; after which the elder woman said: “I mean for seeing him alone.”
Their eyes met for a moment, and then the older woman said, “I mean to see him alone.”
“So do I,” said the Princess.
“So do I,” said the Princess.
At which Fanny, for her reasons, couldn’t help smiling. “Oh, if it’s for THAT he’s staying—!”
At that, Fanny couldn't help but smile for her own reasons. "Oh, if that's why he's staying—!"
“He’s staying—I’ve made it out—to take anything that comes or calls upon him. To take,” Maggie went on, “even that.” Then she put it as she had at last put it to herself. “He’s staying for high decency.”
“He's staying—I figured it out—to handle whatever comes his way. To take,” Maggie continued, “even that.” Then she expressed it as she had finally come to terms with it herself. “He's staying for the sake of integrity.”
“Decency?” Mrs. Assingham gravely echoed.
"Decency?" Mrs. Assingham replied seriously.
“Decency. If she SHOULD try—!”
“Decency. If she tries—!”
“Well—?” Mrs. Assingham urged.
"Well—?" Mrs. Assingham pressed.
“Well, I hope—!”
"Well, I hope—!"
“Hope he’ll see her?”
“Hope he sees her?”
Maggie hesitated, however; she made no direct reply. “It’s useless hoping,” she presently said. “She won’t. But he ought to.” Her friend’s expression of a moment before, which had been apologised for as vulgar, prolonged its sharpness to her ear—that of an electric bell under continued pressure. Stated so simply, what was it but dreadful, truly, that the feasibility of Charlotte’s “getting at” the man who for so long had loved her should now be in question? Strangest of all things, doubtless, this care of Maggie’s as to what might make for it or make against it; stranger still her fairly lapsing at moments into a vague calculation of the conceivability, on her own part, with her husband, of some direct sounding of the subject. Would it be too monstrous, her suddenly breaking out to him as in alarm at the lapse of the weeks: “Wouldn’t it really seem that you’re bound in honour to do something for her, privately, before they go?” Maggie was capable of weighing the risk of this adventure for her own spirit, capable of sinking to intense little absences, even while conversing, as now, with the person who had most of her confidence, during which she followed up the possibilities. It was true that Mrs. Assingham could at such times somewhat restore the balance—by not wholly failing to guess her thought. Her thought, however, just at present, had more than one face—had a series that it successively presented. These were indeed the possibilities involved in the adventure of her concerning herself for the quantity of compensation that Mrs. Verver might still look to. There was always the possibility that she WAS, after all, sufficiently to get at him—there was in fact that of her having again and again done so. Against this stood nothing but Fanny Assingham’s apparent belief in her privation—more mercilessly imposed, or more hopelessly felt, in the actual relation of the parties; over and beyond everything that, from more than three months back, of course, had fostered in the Princess a like conviction. These assumptions might certainly be baseless—inasmuch as there were hours and hours of Amerigo’s time that there was no habit, no pretence of his accounting for; inasmuch too as Charlotte, inevitably, had had more than once, to the undisguised knowledge of the pair in Portland Place, been obliged to come up to Eaton Square, whence so many of her personal possessions were in course of removal. She didn’t come to Portland Place—didn’t even come to ask for luncheon on two separate occasions when it reached the consciousness of the household there that she was spending the day in London. Maggie hated, she scorned, to compare hours and appearances, to weigh the idea of whether there hadn’t been moments, during these days, when an assignation, in easy conditions, a snatched interview, in an air the season had so cleared of prying eyes, mightn’t perfectly work. But the very reason of this was partly that, haunted with the vision of the poor woman carrying off with such bravery as she found to her hand the secret of her not being appeased, she was conscious of scant room for any alternative image. The alternative image would have been that the secret covered up was the secret of appeasement somehow obtained, somehow extorted and cherished; and the difference between the two kinds of hiding was too great to permit of a mistake. Charlotte was hiding neither pride nor joy—she was hiding humiliation; and here it was that the Princess’s passion, so powerless for vindictive flights, most inveterately bruised its tenderness against the hard glass of her question.
Maggie hesitated; she didn’t give a direct answer. “It’s pointless to hope,” she finally said. “She won’t. But he should.” Her friend’s earlier expression, which had been dismissed as crude, lingered with a sharpness in her mind—like the sound of an electric bell under constant pressure. Stated so plainly, how truly terrible was it that there was now doubt about whether Charlotte could reach the man who had loved her for so long? Strangest of all was Maggie’s concern about what might help or hinder that situation; even stranger was how she sometimes found herself vaguely considering the possibility, with her husband, of directly bringing up the topic. Would it be too outrageous for her to suddenly say to him, alarmed by the passing weeks: “Doesn’t it seem like you’re honor-bound to do something for her, privately, before they leave?” Maggie was capable of weighing the risks of this venture for her own spirit, able to slip into intense daydreams, even while talking with the person she trusted most, during which she contemplated the options. It was true that Mrs. Assingham could somewhat restore balance during these moments—by not completely failing to guess her thoughts. However, Maggie’s thoughts at that moment had many facets—each presenting a different angle. These were indeed the possibilities involved in her concern for how much compensation Mrs. Verver might still expect. There was always the possibility that she COULD reach him after all—she had, in fact, done it again and again. In contrast, there was only Fanny Assingham’s apparent belief in her isolation—more mercilessly imposed, or more hopelessly felt, in the actual relationship among the parties; over and above everything that, for more than three months, had contributed to the Princess sharing a similar belief. These assumptions might certainly be unfounded—considering there were hours and hours of Amerigo’s time that he had no habit or pretense to account for; also, Charlotte had, more than once, with the couple in Portland Place knowing all about it, been required to come up to Eaton Square, from where many of her personal belongings were being collected. She didn’t come to Portland Place—didn’t even come to ask for lunch on two separate occasions when the household there realized she was spending the day in London. Maggie hated, and was contemptuous of, comparing hours and appearances, weighing whether there had been moments during those days when a meeting, in relaxed conditions, a quick chat, in an atmosphere cleared of prying eyes, might have perfectly worked out. But the very reason for this was partly because, haunted by the idea of the poor woman bravely carrying the burden of not being satisfied, she realized there was little room for any alternative image. The alternative image would have been that the secret she was concealing was of some satisfaction somehow achieved, somehow forced and treasured; and the difference between the two kinds of concealment was too significant to allow for confusion. Charlotte was hiding neither pride nor joy—she was hiding humiliation; and it was here that the Princess’s passion, so powerless for vindictive retaliation, deeply bruised its tenderness against the hard reality of her question.
Behind the glass lurked the WHOLE history of the relation she had so fairly flattened her nose against it to penetrate—the glass Mrs. Verver might, at this stage, have been frantically tapping, from within, by way of supreme, irrepressible entreaty. Maggie had said to herself complacently, after that last passage with her stepmother in the garden of Fawns, that there was nothing left for her to do and that she could thereupon fold her hands. But why wasn’t it still left to push further and, from the point of view of personal pride, grovel lower?—why wasn’t it still left to offer herself as the bearer of a message reporting to him their friend’s anguish and convincing him of her need?
Behind the glass was the entire history of the relationship she had pressed her nose against to understand—the glass Mrs. Verver might have been frantically tapping from inside, as a desperate plea. After that last interaction with her stepmother in the garden at Fawns, Maggie had told herself with satisfaction that there was nothing more she could do and that she could simply rest her hands. But why couldn’t she still push further and, from a sense of personal pride, lower herself even more? Why couldn’t she still offer to deliver a message about their friend’s distress and persuade him of her need?
She could thus have translated Mrs. Verver’s tap against the glass, as I have called it, into fifty forms; could perhaps have translated it most into the form of a reminder that would pierce deep. “You don’t know what it is to have been loved and broken with. You haven’t been broken with, because in your RELATION what can there have been, worth speaking of, to break? Ours was everything a relation could be, filled to the brim with the wine of consciousness; and if it was to have no meaning, no better meaning than that such a creature as you could breathe upon it, at your hour, for blight, why was I myself dealt with all for deception? why condemned after a couple of short years to find the golden flame—oh, the golden flame!—a mere handful of black ashes?” Our young woman so yielded, at moments, to what was insidious in these foredoomed ingenuities of her pity, that for minutes together, sometimes, the weight of a new duty seemed to rest upon her—the duty of speaking before separation should constitute its chasm, of pleading for some benefit that might be carried away into exile like the last saved object of price of the emigre, the jewel wrapped in a piece of old silk and negotiable some day in the market of misery.
She could have interpreted Mrs. Verver’s tapping on the glass, as I’ve called it, in countless ways; perhaps she could have translated it most effectively as a reminder that would cut deep. “You don’t know what it’s like to be loved and then have that love shatter. You haven’t experienced heartbreak because in your RELATION, what could possibly have been worth mentioning that would cause a break? Ours encompassed everything a relationship could be, overflowing with the richness of awareness; and if it was meant to have no significance, no better significance than that a person like you could cast a shadow over it, at your moment, why was I subjected to all this deception? Why must I, after just a few short years, discover the golden flame—oh, the golden flame!—is nothing but a handful of black ashes?” At times, our young woman was so swayed by the slyness of these doomed subtleties of her sympathy that for several minutes, it felt like a new responsibility weighed on her—the responsibility to speak before separation created an unbridgeable gap, to advocate for some reassurance that she could take away like the last precious belonging of an exile, the jewel wrapped in an old piece of silk, which could someday be traded in the market of suffering.
This imagined service to the woman who could no longer help herself was one of the traps set for Maggie’s spirit at every turn of the road; the click of which, catching and holding the divine faculty fast, was followed inevitably by a flutter, by a struggle of wings and even, as we may say, by a scattering of fine feathers. For they promptly enough felt, these yearnings of thought and excursions of sympathy, the concussion that couldn’t bring them down—the arrest produced by the so remarkably distinct figure that, at Fawns, for the previous weeks, was constantly crossing, in its regular revolution, the further end of any watched perspective. Whoever knew, or whoever didn’t, whether or to what extent Charlotte, with natural business in Eaton Square, had shuffled other opportunities under that cloak, it was all matter for the kind of quiet ponderation the little man who so kept his wandering way had made his own. It was part of the very inveteracy of his straw hat and his white waistcoat, of the trick of his hands in his pockets, of the detachment of the attention he fixed on his slow steps from behind his secure pince-nez. The thing that never failed now as an item in the picture was that gleam of the silken noose, his wife’s immaterial tether, so marked to Maggie’s sense during her last month in the country. Mrs. Verver’s straight neck had certainly not slipped it; nor had the other end of the long cord—oh, quite conveniently long!—disengaged its smaller loop from the hooked thumb that, with his fingers closed upon it, her husband kept out of sight. To have recognised, for all its tenuity, the play of this gathered lasso might inevitably be to wonder with what magic it was twisted, to what tension subjected, but could never be to doubt either of its adequacy to its office or of its perfect durability. These reminded states for the Princess were in fact states of renewed gaping. So many things her father knew that she even yet didn’t!
This imagined service to the woman who could no longer take care of herself was one of the traps laid for Maggie’s spirit at every turn; the click that caught and held her divine nature was followed by a flutter, a struggle of wings, and even, one might say, a scattering of fine feathers. These yearnings of thought and expressions of sympathy quickly felt the impact that couldn’t bring them down—the pause caused by the remarkably distinct figure that, at Fawns, had been steadily crossing the far end of any observed view for the past few weeks. It was a mystery whether Charlotte, with her business in Eaton Square, had hidden other opportunities under that guise; it all provided fuel for the quiet contemplation that the little man, who maintained his wandering path, had made his own. It was part of the very nature of his straw hat and white waistcoat, the way his hands were tucked in his pockets, and the detachment he displayed by concentrating on his slow steps behind his secure pince-nez. One consistent aspect of the scene was the gleam of the silken noose, his wife’s immaterial tether, which stood out clearly to Maggie during her last month in the country. Mrs. Verver’s straight neck had certainly not slipped it; nor had the other end of the long cord—oh, quite conveniently long!—disengaged from the hooked thumb that her husband kept hidden, his fingers wrapped around it. To recognize, despite its fineness, the movement of this gathered lasso might lead one to wonder about the magic of its twist, the tension it was under, but it could never lead to doubting either its effectiveness or its durability. These reminded states for the Princess were really moments of renewed surprise. So many things her father knew that she still didn’t!
All this, at present, with Mrs. Assingham, passed through her in quick vibrations. She had expressed, while the revolution of her thought was incomplete, the idea of what Amerigo “ought,” on his side, in the premises, to be capable of, and then had felt her companion’s answering stare. But she insisted on what she had meant. “He ought to wish to see her—and I mean in some protected and independent way, as he used to—in case of her being herself able to manage it. That,” said Maggie with the courage of her conviction, “he ought to be ready, he ought to be happy, he ought to feel himself sworn—little as it is for the end of such a history!—to take from her. It’s as if he wished to get off without taking anything.”
All this, right now, went through Mrs. Assingham in quick waves. While she was still working through her thoughts, she had expressed the idea of what Amerigo "should" be capable of in this situation, and then she felt her companion’s searching gaze. But she held firm to what she meant. "He should want to see her—and I mean in some safe and independent way, like he used to—if she can manage it. That," said Maggie with the confidence of her beliefs, "he should be willing, he should be glad, he should feel obligated—though it’s a small thing for the end of such a story!—to accept from her. It’s as if he wants to walk away without taking anything."
Mrs. Assingham deferentially mused. “But for what purpose is it your idea that they should again so intimately meet?”
Mrs. Assingham thoughtfully asked, “But what’s your reason for thinking they should meet so closely again?”
“For any purpose they like. That’s THEIR affair.”
“For whatever they want. That’s THEIR business.”
Fanny Assingham sharply laughed, then irrepressibly fell back to her constant position. “You’re splendid—perfectly splendid.” To which, as the Princess, shaking an impatient head, wouldn’t have it again at all, she subjoined: “Or if you’re not it’s because you’re so sure. I mean sure of HIM.”
Fanny Assingham laughed out loud, then inevitably returned to her usual stance. “You’re amazing—absolutely amazing.” To which, as the Princess shook her head in annoyance and refused to hear it again, she added: “Or if you’re not, it’s because you’re so confident. I mean confident about HIM.”
“Ah, I’m exactly NOT sure of him. If I were sure of him I shouldn’t doubt—!” But Maggie cast about her.
“Ah, I’m really not sure about him. If I were sure about him, I wouldn’t doubt—!” But Maggie looked around her.
“Doubt what?” Fanny pressed as she waited.
“Doubt what?” Fanny pressed as she waited.
“Well, that he must feel how much less than she he pays—and how that ought to keep her present to him.”
“Well, he has to realize how much less he contributes than she does—and how that should keep her focused on him.”
This, in its turn, after an instant, Mrs. Assingham could meet with a smile. “Trust him, my dear, to keep her present! But trust him also to keep himself absent. Leave him his own way.”
This, after a moment, Mrs. Assingham could respond with a smile. “Trust him, my dear, to ensure she has a present! But also trust him to stay out of sight. Let him do things his way.”
“I’ll leave him everything,” said Maggie. “Only—you know it’s my nature—I THINK.”
“I’ll leave him everything,” said Maggie. “Just— you know how I am— I THINK.”
“It’s your nature to think too much,” Fanny Assingham a trifle coarsely risked.
“It’s in your nature to overthink,” Fanny Assingham said a little bluntly.
This but quickened, however, in the Princess the act she reprobated. “That may be. But if I hadn’t thought—!”
This quickly intensified, however, in the Princess the action she condemned. “That may be. But if I hadn’t thought—!”
“You wouldn’t, you mean, have been where you are?”
"You wouldn't, you mean, have been where you are?"
“Yes, because they, on their side, thought of everything BUT that. They thought of everything but that I might think.”
"Yes, because they thought of everything EXCEPT that. They considered everything except the possibility that I might think."
“Or even,” her friend too superficially concurred, “that your father might!”
“Or even,” her friend casually agreed, “that your dad might!”
As to this, at all events, Maggie discriminated. “No, that wouldn’t have prevented them; for they knew that his first care would be not to make me do so. As it is,” Maggie added, “that has had to become his last.”
As far as that goes, Maggie understood. “No, that wouldn’t have stopped them; because they knew that his first concern would be to avoid making me do that. As it is,” Maggie continued, “that has had to become his last concern.”
Fanny Assingham took it in deeper—for what it immediately made her give out louder. “HE’S splendid then.” She sounded it almost aggressively; it was what she was reduced to—she had positively to place it.
Fanny Assingham understood it more profoundly—for what it immediately compelled her to express more emphatically. “HE’S amazing then.” She conveyed it almost confrontationally; it was what she had come to—it was necessary for her to assert it.
“Ah, that as much as you please!”
“Ah, go ahead, as much as you want!”
Maggie said this and left it, but the tone of it had the next moment determined in her friend a fresh reaction. “You think, both of you, so abysmally and yet so quietly. But it’s what will have saved you.”
Maggie said this and walked away, but her tone triggered a new reaction in her friend. “You both think so deeply and yet so calmly. But that’s what will save you.”
“Oh,” Maggie returned, “it’s what—from the moment they discovered we could think at all—will have saved THEM. For they’re the ones who are saved,” she went on. “We’re the ones who are lost.”
“Oh,” Maggie replied, “it’s what—from the moment they realized we could think at all—will have saved THEM. Because they’re the ones who are saved,” she continued. “We’re the ones who are lost.”
“Lost—?”
"Lost?"
“Lost to each other—father and I.” And then as her friend appeared to demur, “Oh yes,” Maggie quite lucidly declared, “lost to each other much more, really, than Amerigo and Charlotte are; since for them it’s just, it’s right, it’s deserved, while for us it’s only sad and strange and not caused by our fault. But I don’t know,” she went on, “why I talk about myself, for it’s on father it really comes. I let him go,” said Maggie.
“Lost to each other—my dad and I.” And then, as her friend seemed to hesitate, “Oh yes,” Maggie stated clearly, “we're lost to each other much more than Amerigo and Charlotte are; because for them, it’s just, it’s right, it’s deserved, while for us, it’s only sad and strange and not because of anything we did. But I don’t know,” she continued, “why I’m talking about myself, because it really affects my dad. I let him go,” Maggie said.
“You let him, but you don’t make him.”
“You allow him to, but you don’t force him to.”
“I take it from him,” she answered.
“I’ll take it from him,” she replied.
“But what else can you do?”
“But what else can you do?”
“I take it from him,” the Princess repeated. “I do what I knew from the first I SHOULD do. I get off by giving him up.”
“I take it from him,” the Princess repeated. “I do what I knew from the first I should do. I let go by giving him up.”
“But if he gives you?” Mrs. Assingham presumed to object. “Doesn’t it moreover then,” she asked, “complete the very purpose with which he married—that of making you and leaving you more free?”
"But what if he gives you?" Mrs. Assingham dared to object. "Doesn’t this then," she asked, "serve the very purpose for which he married you—that of making you more free and leaving you that way?"
Maggie looked at her long. “Yes—I help him to do that.”
Maggie stared at her for a while. “Yeah—I help him with that.”
Mrs. Assingham hesitated, but at last her bravery flared. “Why not call it then frankly his complete success?”
Mrs. Assingham hesitated, but finally her courage sparked. “Why not just say it’s his total success?”
“Well,” said Maggie, “that’s all that’s left me to do.”
“Well,” said Maggie, “that’s all I have left to do.”
“It’s a success,” her friend ingeniously developed, “with which you’ve simply not interfered.” And as if to show that she spoke without levity Mrs. Assingham went further. “He has made it a success for THEM—!”
“It’s a success,” her friend cleverly pointed out, “that you haven’t interfered with at all.” And to prove she wasn’t joking, Mrs. Assingham added, “He has made it a success for THEM—!”
“Ah, there you are!” Maggie responsively mused. “Yes,” she said the next moment, “that’s why Amerigo stays.”
“Ah, there you are!” Maggie said thoughtfully. “Yes,” she added a moment later, “that’s why Amerigo stays.”
“Let alone it’s why Charlotte goes.” that Mrs. Assingham, and emboldened, smiled “So he knows—?”
“Let alone that’s why Charlotte goes,” Mrs. Assingham said, smiling confidently. “So he knows—?”
But Maggie hung back. “Amerigo—?” After which, however, she blushed—to her companion’s recognition.
But Maggie hung back. “Amerigo—?” After that, though, she blushed—due to her companion’s acknowledgment.
“Your father. He knows what YOU know? I mean,” Fanny faltered—“well, how much does he know?” Maggie’s silence and Maggie’s eyes had in fact arrested the push of the question—which, for a decent consistency, she couldn’t yet quite abandon. “What I should rather say is does he know how much?” She found it still awkward. “How much, I mean, they did. How far”—she touched it up—“they went.”
“Your dad. Does he know what YOU know? I mean,” Fanny hesitated—“well, how much does he know?” Maggie’s silence and her eyes had actually stopped her from pushing the question further—which, for the sake of being consistent, she couldn’t fully let go. “What I should say instead is, does he know how much?” She still found it awkward. “How much, I mean, they did. How far”—she refined it—“they went.”
Maggie had waited, but only with a question. “Do you think he does?”
Maggie had waited, but only with a question. “Do you think he really does?”
“Know at least something? Oh, about him I can’t think. He’s beyond me,” said Fanny Assingham.
“Do you know anything about him? I can’t think of a thing. He’s just not my type,” said Fanny Assingham.
“Then do you yourself know?”
“Do you know yourself?”
“How much—?”
"How much is it?"
“How much.”
“How much is it?”
“How far—?”
"How far?"
“How far.”
“How far away?”
Fanny had appeared to wish to make sure, but there was something she remembered—remembered in time and even with a smile. “I’ve told you before that I know absolutely nothing.”
Fanny seemed to want to confirm something, but there was something she recalled—something she remembered just in time and even with a smile. “I’ve told you before that I don’t know anything at all.”
“Well—that’s what I know,” said the Princess.
"Well—that’s what I know," said the Princess.
Her friend again hesitated. “Then nobody knows—? I mean,” Mrs. Assingham explained, “how much your father does.”
Her friend hesitated again. “So nobody knows—? I mean,” Mrs. Assingham explained, “how much your dad knows.”
Oh, Maggie showed that she understood. “Nobody.”
Oh, Maggie made it clear that she understood. “Nobody.”
“Not—a little—Charlotte?”
"Not a little Charlotte?"
“A little?” the Princess echoed. “To know anything would be, for her, to know enough.”
“A little?” the Princess repeated. “For her, knowing anything would be knowing enough.”
“And she doesn’t know anything?”
“And she doesn’t know anything?”
“If she did,” Maggie answered, “Amerigo would.”
“If she did,” Maggie replied, “Amerigo would.”
“And that’s just it—that he doesn’t?”
“And that’s the point—he doesn't?”
“That’s just it,” said the Princess profoundly.
"That's exactly it," said the Princess thoughtfully.
On which Mrs. Assingham reflected. “Then how is Charlotte so held?”
On which Mrs. Assingham thought. “So how is Charlotte so attached?”
“Just by that.”
“Just by that.”
“By her ignorance?”
“Because of her ignorance?”
“By her ignorance.” Fanny wondered. “A torment—?”
“By her ignorance,” Fanny wondered. “A torment—?”
“A torment,” said Maggie with tears in her eyes.
“A torment,” Maggie said, tears in her eyes.
Her companion a moment watched them. “But the Prince then—?”
Her companion watched them for a moment. “But what about the Prince then—?”
“How is HE held?” Maggie asked.
“How is he held?” Maggie asked.
“How is HE held?”
“How is he being held?”
“Oh, I can’t tell you that!” And the Princess again broke off.
“Oh, I can’t tell you that!” And the princess stopped again.
XLI
XLI
A telegram, in Charlotte’s name, arrived early—“We shall come and ask you for tea at five, if convenient to you. Am wiring for the Assinghams to lunch.” This document, into which meanings were to be read, Maggie promptly placed before her husband, adding the remark that her father and his wife, who would have come up the previous night or that morning, had evidently gone to an hotel. The Prince was in his “own” room, where he often sat now alone; half-a-dozen open newspapers, the “Figaro” notably, as well as the “Times,” were scattered about him; but, with a cigar in his teeth and a visible cloud on his brow, he appeared actually to be engaged in walking to and fro. Never yet, on thus approaching him—for she had done it of late, under one necessity or another, several times—had a particular impression so greeted her; supremely strong, for some reason, as he turned quickly round on her entrance. The reason was partly the look in his face—a suffusion like the flush of fever, which brought back to her Fanny Assingham’s charge, recently uttered under that roof, of her “thinking” too impenetrably. The word had remained with her and made her think still more; so that, at first, as she stood there, she felt responsible for provoking on his part an irritation of suspense at which she had not aimed. She had been going about him these three months, she perfectly knew, with a maintained idea—of which she had never spoken to him; but what had at last happened was that his way of looking at her, on occasion, seemed a perception of the presence not of one idea, but of fifty, variously prepared for uses with which he somehow must reckon. She knew herself suddenly, almost strangely, glad to be coming to him, at this hour, with nothing more abstract than a telegram; but even after she had stepped into his prison under her pretext, while her eyes took in his face and then embraced the four walls that enclosed his restlessness, she recognised the virtual identity of his condition with that aspect of Charlotte’s situation for which, early in the summer and in all the amplitude of a great residence, she had found, with so little seeking, the similitude of the locked cage. He struck her as caged, the man who couldn’t now without an instant effect on her sensibility give an instinctive push to the door she had not completely closed behind her. He had been turning twenty ways, for impatiences all his own, and when she was once shut in with him it was yet again as if she had come to him in his more than monastic cell to offer him light or food. There was a difference none the less, between his captivity and Charlotte’s—the difference, as it might be, of his lurking there by his own act and his own choice; the admission of which had indeed virtually been in his starting, on her entrance, as if even this were in its degree an interference. That was what betrayed for her, practically, his fear of her fifty ideas, and what had begun, after a minute, to make her wish to repudiate or explain. It was more wonderful than she could have told; it was for all the world as if she was succeeding with him beyond her intention. She had, for these instants, the sense that he exaggerated, that the imputation of purpose had fairly risen too high in him. She had begun, a year ago, by asking herself how she could make him think more of her; but what was it, after all, he was thinking now? He kept his eyes on her telegram; he read it more than once, easy as it was, in spite of its conveyed deprecation, to understand; during which she found herself almost awestruck with yearning, almost on the point of marking somehow what she had marked in the garden at Fawns with Charlotte—that she had truly come unarmed. She didn’t bristle with intentions—she scarce knew, as he at this juncture affected her, what had become of the only intention she had come with. She had nothing but her old idea, the old one he knew; she hadn’t the ghost of another. Presently in fact, when four or five minutes had elapsed, it was as if she positively, hadn’t so much even as that one. He gave her back her paper, asking with it if there were anything in particular she wished him to do.
A telegram arrived early, addressed to Charlotte—“We're coming to ask you for tea at five, if that works for you. I'm wiring for the Assinghams to join us for lunch.” Maggie immediately showed this message to her husband, noting that her father and his wife, who would have come either the night before or that morning, had clearly gone to a hotel. The Prince was in his “own” room, where he often sat alone now; half a dozen open newspapers, notably the “Figaro” and the “Times,” were scattered around him. With a cigar in his mouth and a troubled look on his face, he seemed to be pacing back and forth. Never before, on approaching him this way—something she had done several times recently—had a particular impression hit her so strongly, especially as he turned sharply when she entered. The reason was partly the expression on his face—a flush like that of fever—which reminded her of Fanny Assingham’s recent comment under this roof about her “thinking” too deeply. That word had stuck with her and made her reflect even more, so that initially, as she stood there, she felt responsible for stirring up a sense of suspense in him that she hadn’t intended. She knew for the past three months she had maintained an idea about him—one she had never told him; but what had ultimately happened was that his way of looking at her sometimes seemed to acknowledge not just one idea, but dozens, all prepared for different uses he somehow had to account for. She felt unexpectedly happy to be approaching him at this time with nothing more serious than a telegram. But even after she entered his space under the guise of her message, while her eyes took in his face and absorbed the four walls that surrounded his restlessness, she recognized how similar his situation was to Charlotte’s, for which early in the summer, in the spaciousness of a large house, she had easily found a likeness to a locked cage. He struck her as trapped, the man who couldn’t instinctively push the door she hadn’t fully closed without immediately affecting her feelings. He had been pacing in various directions, driven by his own frustrations, and when she was finally alone with him, it felt like she had come to him in his almost monastic cell to offer him light or sustenance. However, there was still a distinction between his confinement and Charlotte’s—the distinction, perhaps, of his being there by his own action and choice; the acknowledgment of which had already been evident in his reaction when she entered, as if even this was somehow an intrusion. That revealed, for her, practically, his fear of her myriad ideas, and it began, after a moment, to make her want to deny or clarify her thoughts. It was more extraordinary than she could express; it was as if she was succeeding with him beyond her actual intent. For these brief moments, she felt he was overreacting, that the implication of her having a purpose had risen too high in him. She had begun, a year earlier, by asking herself how she could encourage him to think more of her; but what was he really considering now? He kept his eyes on her telegram, reading it more than once; despite its somewhat dismissive tone, it was easy to understand. During this, she felt an almost overwhelming yearning, nearly on the verge of noting what she had already recognized in the garden at Fawns with Charlotte—that she was genuinely coming to him unarmed. She wasn’t bristling with intentions—she barely knew, as he affected her at that moment, what had happened to the only intention she had come with. She had nothing but her old idea, the one he was familiar with; she didn’t have the faintest hint of another. After about four or five minutes had passed, it was as though she really didn’t have even that one. He handed her back the paper and asked if there was anything specific she wanted him to do.
She stood there with her eyes on him, doubling the telegram together as if it had been a precious thing and yet all the while holding her breath. Of a sudden, somehow, and quite as by the action of their merely having between them these few written words, an extraordinary fact came up. He was with her as if he were hers, hers in a degree and on a scale, with an intensity and an intimacy, that were a new and a strange quantity, that were like the irruption of a tide loosening them where they had stuck and making them feel they floated. What was it that, with the rush of this, just kept her from putting out her hands to him, from catching at him as, in the other time, with the superficial impetus he and Charlotte had privately conspired to impart, she had so often, her breath failing her, known the impulse to catch at her father? She did, however, just yet, nothing inconsequent—though she couldn’t immediately have said what saved her; and by the time she had neatly folded her telegram she was doing something merely needful. “I wanted you simply to know—so that you mayn’t by accident miss them. For it’s the last,” said Maggie.
She stood there, looking at him, folding the telegram as if it were something precious while holding her breath. Suddenly, somehow, just by having these few written words between them, something extraordinary happened. He was there with her as if he belonged to her, to a degree and on a scale that felt both new and strange, like a tide breaking free and making them feel they were floating. What was it that kept her from reaching out to him, from grasping him like she often felt the urge to do with her father, especially back then, with the superficial push he and Charlotte had conspired to create? Yet, she didn't do anything impulsive—though she couldn't have explained what held her back; by the time she had neatly folded her telegram, she was just doing something necessary. “I wanted you to know—so that you won’t accidentally miss them. It’s the last one,” Maggie said.
“The last?”
"The final one?"
“I take it as their good-bye.” And she smiled as she could always smile. “They come in state—to take formal leave. They do everything that’s proper. Tomorrow,” she said, “they go to Southampton.”
“I see this as their goodbye.” And she smiled as she always could. “They come with great ceremony—to take their formal leave. They do everything that’s expected. Tomorrow,” she said, “they’re heading to Southampton.”
“If they do everything that’s proper,” the Prince presently asked, “why don’t they at least come to dine?”
“If they do everything that’s right,” the Prince then asked, “why don't they at least come over for dinner?”
She hesitated, yet she lightly enough provided her answer. “That we must certainly ask them. It will be easy for you. But of course they’re immensely taken—!”
She paused for a moment, but then she gave her answer with a light tone. “We definitely need to ask them. It should be easy for you. But of course, they're really interested—!”
He wondered. “So immensely taken that they can’t—that your father can’t—give you his last evening in England?”
He wondered, “So incredibly busy that he can’t—your dad can’t—give you his last evening in England?”
This, for Maggie, was more difficult to meet; yet she was still not without her stop-gap. “That may be what they’ll propose—that we shall go somewhere together, the four of us, for a celebration—except that, to round it thoroughly off, we ought also to have Fanny and the Colonel. They don’t WANT them at tea, she quite sufficiently expresses; they polish them off, poor dears, they get rid of them, beforehand. They want only us together; and if they cut us down to tea,” she continued, “as they cut Fanny and the Colonel down to luncheon, perhaps it’s for the fancy, after all, of their keeping their last night in London for each other.”
This was harder for Maggie to handle; still, she wasn't entirely left without a backup plan. “That might be their suggestion—that we all go somewhere together, the four of us, to celebrate—except, to really complete it, we should also include Fanny and the Colonel. They clearly don’t want them at tea; she makes that pretty obvious; they send them off, poor things, before it starts. They just want the four of us together; and if they limit us to tea,” she went on, “like they limited Fanny and the Colonel to lunch, maybe it’s just because they want to save their last night in London for each other.”
She said these things as they came to her; she was unable to keep them back, even though, as she heard herself, she might have been throwing everything to the winds. But wasn’t that the right way—for sharing his last day of captivity with the man one adored? It was every moment more and more for her as if she were waiting with him in his prison—waiting with some gleam of remembrance of how noble captives in the French Revolution, the darkness of the Terror, used to make a feast, or a high discourse, of their last poor resources. If she had broken with everything now, every observance of all the past months, she must simply then take it so—take it that what she had worked for was too near, at last, to let her keep her head. She might have been losing her head verily in her husband’s eyes—since he didn’t know, all the while, that the sudden freedom of her words was but the diverted intensity of her disposition personally to seize him. He didn’t know, either, that this was her manner—now she was with him—of beguiling audaciously the supremacy of suspense. For the people of the French Revolution, assuredly, there wasn’t suspense; the scaffold, for those she was thinking of, was certain—whereas what Charlotte’s telegram announced was, short of some incalculable error, clear liberation. Just the point, however, was in its being clearer to herself than to him; her clearnesses, clearances—those she had so all but abjectly laboured for—threatened to crowd upon her in the form of one of the clusters of angelic heads, the peopled shafts of light beating down through iron bars, that regale, on occasion, precisely, the fevered vision of those who are in chains. She was going to know, she felt, later on—was going to know with compunction, doubtless, on the very morrow, how thumpingly her heart had beaten at this foretaste of their being left together: she should judge at leisure the surrender she was making to the consciousness of complications about to be bodily lifted. She should judge at leisure even that avidity for an issue which was making so little of any complication but the unextinguished presence of the others; and indeed that she was already simplifying so much more than her husband came out for her next in the face with which he listened. He might certainly well be puzzled, in respect to his father-in-law and Mrs. Verver, by her glance at their possible preference for a concentrated evening. “But it isn’t—is it?” he asked—“as if they were leaving each other?”
She said these things as they came to her; she couldn't hold them back, even though, as she listened to herself, it felt like she might be throwing everything away. But wasn’t that the right way to share his last day of captivity with the man she loved? It felt more and more to her as if she were waiting with him in his prison—waiting with a glimmer of remembrance of how noble captives during the French Revolution used to celebrate or have deep conversations with their last few resources. If she had broken with everything now, every rule from the past months, she had to just accept it—accept that what she had worked for was finally so close that she couldn’t keep her composure. She might have genuinely been losing her mind in her husband’s eyes—since he didn’t realize, all this time, that the sudden freedom of her words was just her intense desire to reach out to him. He didn’t know, either, that this was her way—now that she was with him—of boldly overcoming the suspense. For the people of the French Revolution, there wasn’t any suspense; the scaffold was a certainty for those she was thinking of—while what Charlotte’s telegram announced was, barring some unforeseen error, clear liberation. The point, however, was that her understanding was clearer to her than it was to him; her realizations—the ones she had worked so hard for—threatened to overcome her like a crowd of angelic heads, the beams of light pouring down through iron bars, that occasionally inspire the fevered visions of those in chains. She felt she would know later—she would know with regret, no doubt, by the very next day—how strongly her heart had raced at this hint of their being left together: she would be able to reflect on the surrender she was making to the awareness of the complications about to be physically lifted. She would consider even that eagerness for a resolution which was downplaying any complications except for the unavoidable presence of others; and indeed she was already simplifying much more than her husband realized as he looked at her. He could certainly be confused about her glance towards his father and Mrs. Verver, referencing their possible preference for a quiet evening. “But it isn’t—is it?” he asked—“as if they were leaving each other?”
“Oh no; it isn’t as if they were leaving each other. They’re only bringing to a close—without knowing when it may open again—a time that has been, naturally, awfully interesting to them.” Yes, she could talk so of their “time”—she was somehow sustained; she was sustained even to affirm more intensely her present possession of her ground. “They have their reasons—many things to think of; how can one tell? But there’s always, also, the chance of his proposing to me that we shall have our last hours together; I mean that he and I shall. He may wish to take me off to dine with him somewhere alone—and to do it in memory of old days. I mean,” the Princess went on, “the real old days; before my grand husband was invented and, much more, before his grand wife was: the wonderful times of his first great interest in what he has since done, his first great plans and opportunities, discoveries and bargains. The way we’ve sat together late, ever so late, in foreign restaurants, which he used to like; the way that, in every city in Europe, we’ve stayed on and on, with our elbows on the table and most of the lights put out, to talk over things he had that day seen or heard of or made his offer for, the things he had secured or refused or lost! There were places he took me to—you wouldn’t believe!—for often he could only have left me with servants. If he should carry me off with him to-night, for old sake’s sake, to the Earl’s Court Exhibition, it will be a little—just a very, very little—like our young adventures.” After which while Amerigo watched her, and in fact quite because of it, she had an inspiration, to which she presently yielded. If he was wondering what she would say next she had found exactly the thing. “In that case he will leave you Charlotte to take care of in our absence. You’ll have to carry her off somewhere for your last evening; unless you may prefer to spend it with her here. I shall then see that you dine, that you have everything, quite beautifully. You’ll be able to do as you like.”
“Oh no; it’s not like they’re breaking up. They’re just wrapping up—a time that has been, of course, really interesting for them—without knowing when it might start again.” Yes, she could talk like this about their “time”—it somehow gave her strength; it even made her more determined to hold on to her current position. “They have their reasons—so many things to think about; who can say? But there’s also always the chance he might suggest we spend our last hours together; I mean just him and me. He might want to take me out to dinner somewhere just the two of us—to remember the good old days. I mean,” the Princess continued, “the real good old days; before my grand husband was a thing and, even more so, before his grand wife was too: those amazing times when he was first really interested in what he later accomplished, his initial big plans and opportunities, discoveries and deals. The times we stayed up late, really late, in foreign restaurants that he used to love; how in every city in Europe we lingered on and on, elbows on the table, with most lights turned off, talking about things he had seen or heard or made offers on that day, the things he had secured or turned down or lost! There were places he took me to—you wouldn’t believe!—when often he could only have left me with staff. If he takes me away tonight, for old times’ sake, to the Earl’s Court Exhibition, it will be a little—just a very, very little—like our youthful adventures.” After that, while Amerigo was watching her, and really because of it, she had a spark of inspiration, to which she quickly gave in. If he was wondering what she would say next, she had found the perfect thing. “In that case, he’ll leave you to take care of Charlotte while we’re gone. You’ll have to take her somewhere for your last evening together; unless you’d prefer to spend it here with her. I’ll make sure you have a nice dinner, that everything is just perfect. You’ll be able to do as you wish.”
She couldn’t have been sure beforehand, and had really not been; but the most immediate result of this speech was his letting her see that he took it for no cheap extravagance either of irony or of oblivion. Nothing in the world, of a truth, had ever been so sweet to her, as his look of trying to be serious enough to make no mistake about it. She troubled him—which hadn’t been at all her purpose; she mystified him—which she couldn’t help and, comparatively, didn’t mind; then it came over her that he had, after all, a simplicity, very considerable, on which she had never dared to presume. It was a discovery—not like the other discovery she had once made, but giving out a freshness; and she recognised again in the light of it the number of the ideas of which he thought her capable. They were all, apparently, queer for him, but she had at least, with the lapse of the months, created the perception that there might be something in them; whereby he stared there, beautiful and sombre, at what she was at present providing him with. There was something of his own in his mind, to which, she was sure, he referred everything for a measure and a meaning; he had never let go of it, from the evening, weeks before, when, in her room, after his encounter with the Bloomsbury cup, she had planted it there by flinging it at him, on the question of her father’s view of him, her determined “Find out for yourself!” She had been aware, during the months, that he had been trying to find out, and had been seeking, above all, to avoid the appearance of any evasions of such a form of knowledge as might reach him, with violence or with a penetration more insidious, from any other source. Nothing, however, had reached him; nothing he could at all conveniently reckon with had disengaged itself for him even from the announcement, sufficiently sudden, of the final secession of their companions. Charlotte was in pain, Charlotte was in torment, but he himself had given her reason enough for that; and, in respect to the rest of the whole matter of her obligation to follow her husband, that personage and she, Maggie, had so shuffled away every link between consequence and cause, that the intention remained, like some famous poetic line in a dead language, subject to varieties of interpretation. What renewed the obscurity was her strange image of their common offer to him, her father’s and her own, of an opportunity to separate from Mrs. Verver with the due amount of form—and all the more that he was, in so pathetic a way, unable to treat himself to a quarrel with it on the score of taste. Taste, in him, as a touchstone, was now all at sea; for who could say but that one of her fifty ideas, or perhaps forty-nine of them, wouldn’t be, exactly, that taste by itself, the taste he had always conformed to, had no importance whatever? If meanwhile, at all events, he felt her as serious, this made the greater reason for her profiting by it as she perhaps might never be able to profit again. She was invoking that reflection at the very moment he brought out, in reply to her last words, a remark which, though perfectly relevant and perfectly just, affected her at first as a high oddity. “They’re doing the wisest thing, you know. For if they were ever to go—!” And he looked down at her over his cigar.
She couldn't have been sure beforehand, and honestly wasn't; but the immediate result of his speech was that he showed her he didn't see it as some cheap joke or forgetfulness. Nothing in the world had ever felt sweeter to her than his serious attempt to avoid misunderstanding it. She troubled him—which hadn’t been her intention at all; she mystified him—which was unintentional and, to some extent, didn't bother her; then it occurred to her that he actually had a considerable simplicity that she had never dared to assume. It was a discovery—not like the other revelation she had once made, but fresh and new; and she recognized again, in light of it, how many ideas he thought she was capable of. They all seemed strange to him, but at least, over the months, she had created the awareness that there might be something valuable in them; which is why he stared at her, beautiful and serious, at what she was currently offering him. There was something in his mind to which she was sure he measured everything against for understanding; he had held onto it since that evening weeks ago when she had tossed it at him in her room, addressing his encounter with the Bloomsbury cup, with her determined "Find out for yourself!" She had been aware, during the months, that he had been trying to discover the truth, while trying above all to avoid the appearance of any evasions of knowledge that could come to him either with force or through more sneaky means from another source. However, nothing had reached him; nothing he could make sense of had come out of even the abrupt announcement of their companions’ final departure. Charlotte was in pain, Charlotte was in distress, but he had given her plenty of reason for that; and in terms of her obligation to follow her husband, that person and she, Maggie, had completely mixed up every link between cause and effect, leaving the intention like some famous line of poetry in a dead language, open to many interpretations. What added to the uncertainty was her odd image of their joint offer to him, her father’s and her own, of a chance to separate from Mrs. Verver with the proper procedures—and especially since he was, in such a touching way, unable to give himself the luxury of a quarrel over it based on taste. His sense of taste was now adrift; for who could say that one of her fifty ideas, or maybe even forty-nine of them, wouldn't be exactly that taste by itself, the taste he had always adhered to, which now meant nothing? If, meanwhile, he felt her as serious, that gave her even more reason to take advantage of it, as she might never get a chance like this again. She was reflecting on that very moment he responded to her last words with a comment that, though completely relevant and accurate, struck her as highly unusual at first. “They’re doing the wisest thing, you know. For if they were ever to go—!” And he looked down at her over his cigar.
If they were ever to go, in short, it was high time, with her father’s age, Charlotte’s need of initiation, and the general magnitude of the job of their getting settled and seasoned, their learning to “live into” their queer future—it was high time that they should take up their courage. This was eminent sense, but it didn’t arrest the Princess, who, the next moment, had found a form for her challenge. “But shan’t you then so much as miss her a little? She’s wonderful and beautiful, and I feel somehow as if she were dying. Not really, not physically,” Maggie went on—“she’s so far, naturally, splendid as she is, from having done with life. But dying for us—for you and me; and making us feel it by the very fact of there being so much of her left.”
If they were ever going to leave, it was definitely time to do so, considering her father's age, Charlotte's need for guidance, and the enormous task ahead of them to settle in and adapt, learning to embrace their unique future—it was time for them to muster their courage. This was common sense, but it didn’t stop the Princess, who immediately found a way to express her challenge. “But won’t you miss her at all? She’s amazing and beautiful, and I can't shake the feeling that she’s fading away. Not really, not physically,” Maggie continued—“she is still, of course, wonderfully alive, but in a way, she’s dying for us—for you and me; and we feel it simply because there’s still so much of her left.”
The Prince smoked hard a minute. “As you say, she’s splendid, but there is—there always will be—much of her left. Only, as you also say, for others.”
The Prince took a deep drag for a moment. “As you said, she’s amazing, but there is—there will always be—much of her that remains. Just as you mentioned, it's meant for others.”
“And yet I think,” the Princess returned, “that it isn’t as if we had wholly done with her. How can we not always think of her? It’s as if her unhappiness had been necessary to us—as if we had needed her, at her own cost, to build us up and start us.”
“And yet I think,” the Princess replied, “that it’s not like we’re completely done with her. How can we not always think about her? It feels like her unhappiness was essential to us—as if we needed her, at her own expense, to help us grow and get started.”
He took it in with consideration, but he met it with a lucid inquiry. “Why do you speak of the unhappiness of your father’s wife?”
He took it in with thought, but he responded with a clear question. “Why do you talk about your father’s wife being unhappy?”
They exchanged a long look—the time that it took her to find her reply. “Because not to—!”
They exchanged a long glance—the time it took her to come up with her answer. “Because not to—!”
“Well, not to—?”
“Well, not to—?”
“Would make me have to speak of him. And I can’t,” said Maggie, “speak of him.”
“Would make me have to talk about him. And I can’t,” said Maggie, “talk about him.”
“You ‘can’t’—?”
"You 'can't'—?"
“I can’t.” She said it as for definite notice, not to be repeated. “There are too many things,” she nevertheless added. “He’s too great.”
“I can’t.” She said it as if it were a final decision, not to be questioned again. “There are too many things,” she still added. “He’s too important.”
The Prince looked at his cigar-tip, and then as he put back the weed: “Too great for whom?” Upon which as she hesitated, “Not, my dear, too great for you,” he declared. “For me—oh, as much as you like.”
The Prince looked at the tip of his cigar, and then as he put the cigar down: “Too much for whom?” When she hesitated, he said, “Not, my dear, too much for you.” He added, “For me—oh, as much as you want.”
“Too great for me is what I mean. I know why I think it,” Maggie said. “That’s enough.”
“It's too much for me to handle. I know why I feel this way,” Maggie said. “That's enough.”
He looked at her yet again as if she but fanned his wonder; he was on the very point, she judged, of asking her why she thought it. But her own eyes maintained their warning, and at the end of a minute he had uttered other words. “What’s of importance is that you’re his daughter. That at least we’ve got. And I suppose that, if I may say nothing else, I may say at least that I value it.”
He looked at her once more as if she had sparked his curiosity; she felt he was about to ask her why she thought that. But her own eyes kept their warning, and after a minute, he said something else. “What matters is that you’re his daughter. That’s something we have for sure. And I suppose that, if I can’t say anything else, I can at least say that I value that.”
“Oh yes, you may say that you value it. I myself make the most of it.”
“Oh yes, you can say that you value it. I personally get the most out of it.”
This again he took in, letting it presently put forth for him a striking connection. “She ought to have known you. That’s what’s present to me. She ought to have understood you better.”
This again he absorbed, letting it soon reveal a striking connection to him. “She should have known you. That’s what I’m thinking. She should have understood you better.”
“Better than you did?”
“Better than you did?”
“Yes,” he gravely maintained, “better than I did. And she didn’t really know you at all. She doesn’t know you now.”
"Yeah," he said seriously, "better than I did. And she didn't really know you at all. She doesn't know you now."
“Ah, yes she does!” said Maggie.
“Ah, yes she does!” Maggie said.
But he shook his head—he knew what he meant. “She not only doesn’t understand you more than I, she understands you ever so much less. Though even I—!”
But he shook his head—he knew what he meant. “She not only doesn’t understand you more than I do, she understands you way less. Though even I—!”
“Well, even you?” Maggie pressed as he paused. “Even I, even I even yet—!” Again he paused and the silence held them.
“Well, what about you?” Maggie urged as he hesitated. “Even me, even me still—!” Again he hesitated, and the silence surrounded them.
But Maggie at last broke it. “If Charlotte doesn’t understand me, it is that I’ve prevented her. I’ve chosen to deceive her and to lie to her.”
But Maggie finally admitted it. “If Charlotte doesn’t understand me, it’s because I didn’t let her. I chose to deceive her and to lie to her.”
The Prince kept his eyes on her. “I know what you’ve chosen to do. But I’ve chosen to do the same.”
The Prince kept his eyes on her. “I know what you’ve decided to do. But I’ve decided to do the same.”
“Yes,” said Maggie after an instant—“my choice was made when I had guessed yours. But you mean,” she asked, “that she understands YOU?”
“Yes,” Maggie replied after a moment—“I made my choice when I figured out yours. But you mean,” she asked, “that she understands YOU?”
“It presents small difficulty!”
“It’s a little difficult!”
“Are you so sure?” Maggie went on.
“Are you really that sure?” Maggie continued.
“Sure enough. But it doesn’t matter.” He waited an instant; then looking up through the fumes of his smoke, “She’s stupid,” he abruptly opined.
“Sure enough. But it doesn’t matter.” He paused for a moment; then looking up through the smoke, “She’s dumb,” he suddenly stated.
“O—oh!” Maggie protested in a long wail.
“O—oh!” Maggie cried out in a long wail.
It had made him in fact quickly change colour. “What I mean is that she’s not, as you pronounce her, unhappy.” And he recovered, with this, all his logic. “Why is she unhappy if she doesn’t know?”
It had made him quickly change color. “What I mean is that she’s not, as you say, unhappy.” And with this, he regained all his logic. “Why is she unhappy if she doesn’t know?”
“Doesn’t know—?” She tried to make his logic difficult.
“Doesn’t know—?” She tried to make his reasoning complicated.
“Doesn’t know that YOU know.”
“Doesn’t know that you know.”
It came from him in such a way that she was conscious, instantly, of three or four things to answer. But what she said first was: “Do you think that’s all it need take?” And before he could reply, “She knows, she knows!” Maggie proclaimed.
It hit her in a way that made her aware, right away, of three or four things she needed to respond to. But what she said first was: “Do you think that’s all it takes?” And before he could answer, Maggie declared, “She knows, she knows!”
“Well then, what?”
"Alright, what now?"
But she threw back her head, she turned impatiently away from him. “Oh, I needn’t tell you! She knows enough. Besides,” she went on, “she doesn’t believe us.”
But she threw her head back and turned away from him in frustration. “Oh, I don't need to tell you! She knows enough. Besides,” she continued, “she doesn’t believe us.”
It made the Prince stare a little. “Ah, she asks too much!” That drew, however, from his wife another moan of objection, which determined in him a judgment. “She won’t let you take her for unhappy.”
It made the Prince pause for a moment. “Oh, she asks for too much!” That, however, caused his wife to let out another sound of disapproval, which led him to make a decision. “She won’t allow you to see her as unhappy.”
“Oh, I know better than any one else what she won’t let me take her for!”
“Oh, I know better than anyone else what she won’t allow me to take her for!”
“Very well,” said Amerigo, “you’ll see.”
“Alright,” Amerigo said, “you’ll see.”
“I shall see wonders, I know. I’ve already seen them, and I’m prepared for them.” Maggie recalled—she had memories enough. “It’s terrible”—her memories prompted her to speak. “I see it’s ALWAYS terrible for women.”
“I know I’ll see amazing things. I’ve already seen some, and I’m ready for more.” Maggie remembered—she had enough memories. “It’s awful”—her memories made her say it. “I see it’s ALWAYS awful for women.”
The Prince looked down in his gravity. “Everything’s terrible, cara, in the heart of man. She’s making her life,” he said. “She’ll make it.”
The Prince looked down seriously. “Everything’s awful, dear, in the heart of man. She’s building her life,” he said. “She’ll succeed.”
His wife turned back upon him; she had wandered to a table, vaguely setting objects straight. “A little by the way then too, while she’s about it, she’s making ours.” At this he raised his eyes, which met her own, and she held him while she delivered herself of some thing that had been with her these last minutes.
His wife turned back to him; she had walked over to a table, absentmindedly arranging things. “Oh, and by the way, while she’s at it, she’s making ours.” At this, he looked up, his eyes meeting hers, and she held his gaze as she expressed something that had been on her mind for the past few minutes.
“You spoke just now of Charlotte’s not having learned from you that I ‘know.’ Am I to take from you then that you accept and recognise my knowledge?”
“You just mentioned that Charlotte hasn’t learned from you that I ‘know.’ Should I take that to mean you accept and acknowledge my knowledge?”
He did the inquiry all the honours—visibly weighed its importance and weighed his response. “You think I might have been showing you that a little more handsomely?”
He approached the question with great respect—clearly considered how important it was and measured his reply. “Do you think I could have presented that to you a bit more gracefully?”
“It isn’t a question of any beauty,” said Maggie; “it’s only a question of the quantity of truth.”
“It’s not about beauty,” Maggie said; “it’s just about how much truth there is.”
“Oh, the quantity of truth!” the Prince richly, though ambiguously, murmured.
“Oh, the amount of truth!” the Prince said richly, though ambiguously.
“That’s a thing by itself, yes. But there are also such things, all the same, as questions of good faith.”
“That’s one thing, yes. But there are also, nonetheless, issues of good faith.”
“Of course there are!” the Prince hastened to reply. After which he brought up more slowly: “If ever a man, since the beginning of time, acted in good faith!” But he dropped it, offering it simply for that.
“Of course there are!” the Prince quickly replied. Then he added more slowly, “If there’s ever been a man who acted in good faith since the beginning of time!” But he let it go, mentioning it just to put it out there.
For that then, when it had had time somewhat to settle, like some handful of gold-dust thrown into the air—for that then Maggie showed herself, as deeply and strangely taking it. “I see.” And she even wished this form to be as complete as she could make it. “I see.”
For that moment, when it had settled a bit, like a handful of gold dust thrown into the air—this was when Maggie revealed herself, fully and oddly absorbing it. “I see.” And she even wanted this form to be as complete as she could make it. “I see.”
The completeness, clearly, after an instant, had struck him as divine. “Ah, my dear, my dear, my dear—!” It was all he could say.
The wholeness, clearly, after a moment, felt divine to him. “Ah, my love, my love, my love—!” It was all he could say.
She wasn’t talking, however, at large. “You’ve kept up for so long a silence—!”
She wasn’t talking, though, for the most part. “You’ve stayed quiet for so long—!”
“Yes, yes, I know what I’ve kept up. But will you do,” he asked, “still one thing more for me?”
“Yes, yes, I know what I’ve been up to. But will you do,” he asked, “just one more thing for me?”
It was as if, for an instant, with her new exposure, it had made her turn pale. “Is there even one thing left?”
It was as if, for a moment, her new exposure made her go pale. “Is there even one thing left?”
“Ah, my dear, my dear, my dear!”—it had pressed again in him the fine spring of the unspeakable. There was nothing, however, that the Princess herself couldn’t say. “I’ll do anything, if you’ll tell me what.”
“Ah, my dear, my dear, my dear!”—it had stirred within him the deep feeling of the unspeakable. There was nothing, however, that the Princess herself couldn’t express. “I’ll do anything if you just tell me what.”
“Then wait.” And his raised Italian hand, with its play of admonitory fingers, had never made gesture more expressive. His voice itself dropped to a tone—! “Wait,” he repeated. “Wait.”
“Then wait.” His raised Italian hand, with its warning fingers, had never made a more expressive gesture. His voice lowered to a tone—! “Wait,” he repeated. “Wait.”
She understood, but it was as if she wished to have it from him. “Till they’ve been here, you mean?”
She got it, but it felt like she wanted to hear it from him. “Until they've been here, you mean?”
“Yes, till they’ve gone. Till they’re away.”
“Yes, until they’re gone. Until they leave.”
She kept it up. “Till they’ve left the country?” She had her eyes on him for clearness; these were the conditions of a promise—so that he put the promise, practically, into his response. “Till we’ve ceased to see them—for as long as God may grant! Till we’re really alone.”
She maintained her stance. “Until they’ve left the country?” She looked at him intently for clarity; these were the terms of a promise—so he effectively included the promise in his reply. “Until we no longer see them—for as long as God allows! Until we’re truly alone.”
“Oh, if it’s only that—!” When she had drawn from him thus then, as she could feel, the thick breath of the definite—which was the intimate, the immediate, the familiar, as she hadn’t had them for so long—she turned away again, she put her hand on the knob of the door. But her hand rested at first without a grasp; she had another effort to make, the effort of leaving him, of which everything that had just passed between them, his presence, irresistible, overcharged with it, doubled the difficulty. There was something—she couldn’t have told what; it was as if, shut in together, they had come too far—too far for where they were; so that the mere act of her quitting him was like the attempt to recover the lost and gone. She had taken in with her something that, within the ten minutes, and especially within the last three or four, had slipped away from her—which it was vain now, wasn’t it? to try to appear to clutch or to pick up. That consciousness in fact had a pang, and she balanced, intensely, for the lingering moment, almost with a terror of her endless power of surrender. He had only to press, really, for her to yield inch by inch, and she fairly knew at present, while she looked at him through her cloud, that the confession of this precious secret sat there for him to pluck. The sensation, for the few seconds, was extraordinary; her weakness, her desire, so long as she was yet not saving herself, flowered in her face like a light or a darkness. She sought for some word that would cover this up; she reverted to the question of tea, speaking as if they shouldn’t meet sooner. “Then about five. I count on you.”
“Oh, if that’s all it is—!” After she had drawn that from him, she felt the heavy breath of something definite—which was intimate, immediate, and familiar, something she hadn't experienced in so long. She turned away again and put her hand on the doorknob. But her hand rested there without actually grasping it; she needed to make one more effort, the effort of leaving him, and everything that had just happened between them, his presence, which was irresistible and overwhelming, made it even more difficult. There was something—she couldn’t quite put her finger on it; it was as if, locked together, they had crossed a line—too far for where they were right now; so that just the act of her walking away from him felt like trying to reclaim something lost. She had taken in something that, in those ten minutes, especially in the last three or four, had slipped away from her—which now seemed pointless, didn’t it? to try to grasp or recover. That awareness actually hurt, and she lingered for a moment, almost terrified by her capacity to surrender. He only had to push a little for her to give in inch by inch, and she knew, even while looking at him through her haze, that the admission of this precious secret was right there for him to take. The feeling, for those few seconds, was incredible; her weakness, her desire, while she wasn’t yet saving herself, blossomed on her face like a light or a shadow. She searched for a word to conceal it; she went back to talking about tea, speaking as if they wouldn’t meet again any time soon. “So around five. I’m counting on you.”
On him too, however, something had descended; as to which this exactly gave him his chance. “Ah, but I shall see you—! No?” he said, coming nearer.
On him too, however, something had come over him; and this is exactly what gave him his opportunity. “Ah, but I will see you—! No?” he said, stepping closer.
She had, with her hand still on the knob, her back against the door, so that her retreat, under his approach must be less than a step, and yet she couldn’t for her life, with the other hand, have pushed him away. He was so near now that she could touch him, taste him, smell him, kiss him, hold him; he almost pressed upon her, and the warmth of his face—frowning, smiling, she mightn’t know which; only beautiful and strange—was bent upon her with the largeness with which objects loom in dreams. She closed her eyes to it, and so, the next instant, against her purpose, she had put out her hand, which had met his own and which he held. Then it was that, from behind her closed eyes, the right word came. “Wait!” It was the word of his own distress and entreaty, the word for both of them, all they had left, their plank now on the great sea. Their hands were locked, and thus she said it again. “Wait. Wait.” She kept her eyes shut, but her hand, she knew, helped her meaning—which after a minute she was aware his own had absorbed. He let her go—he turned away with this message, and when she saw him again his back was presented, as he had left her, and his face staring out of the window. She had saved herself and she got off.
She had her hand still on the doorknob, her back against the door, so that her retreat, as he approached, was less than a step, yet she couldn’t, for the life of her, push him away with her other hand. He was so close now that she could touch him, taste him, smell him, kiss him, hold him; he almost pressed against her, and the warmth of his face—whether frowning or smiling, she couldn’t tell; only that it was beautiful and strange—loomed over her like objects do in dreams. She shut her eyes to it, and in that instant, against her own wishes, she reached out her hand, which found his and which he held. At that moment, from behind her closed eyes, the right word came. “Wait!” It was the expression of his own distress and plea, the word for both of them, all they had left, their only lifeline in the vast sea. Their hands were locked, and she repeated, “Wait. Wait.” She kept her eyes closed, but she knew her hand conveyed her meaning—which after a moment, she realized he had understood. He let go of her—he turned away with this message, and when she saw him again, his back was turned, just as he had left her, and his face was staring out of the window. She had saved herself and managed to escape.
XLII
XLII
Later on, in the afternoon, before the others arrived, the form of their reunion was at least remarkable: they might, in their great eastward drawing-room, have been comparing notes or nerves in apprehension of some stiff official visit. Maggie’s mind, in its restlessness, even played a little with the prospect; the high cool room, with its afternoon shade, with its old tapestries uncovered, with the perfect polish of its wide floor reflecting the bowls of gathered flowers and the silver and linen of the prepared tea-table, drew from her a remark in which this whole effect was mirrored, as well as something else in the Prince’s movement while he slowly paced and turned. “We’re distinctly bourgeois!” she a trifle grimly threw off, as an echo of their old community; though to a spectator sufficiently detached they might have been quite the privileged pair they were reputed, granted only they were taken as awaiting the visit of Royalty. They might have been ready, on the word passed up in advance, to repair together to the foot of the staircase—the Prince somewhat in front, advancing indeed to the open doors and even going down, for all his princedom, to meet, on the stopping of the chariot, the august emergence. The time was stale, it was to be admitted, for incidents of magnitude; the September hush was in full possession, at the end of the dull day, and a couple of the long windows stood open to the balcony that overhung the desolation— the balcony from which Maggie, in the springtime, had seen Amerigo and Charlotte look down together at the hour of her return from the Regent’s Park, near by, with her father, the Principino and Miss Bogle. Amerigo now again, in his punctual impatience, went out a couple of times and stood there; after which, as to report that nothing was in sight, he returned to the room with frankly nothing else to do. The Princess pretended to read; he looked at her as he passed; there hovered in her own sense the thought of other occasions when she had cheated appearances of agitation with a book. At last she felt him standing before her, and then she raised her eyes.
Later in the afternoon, before the others arrived, their reunion was quite notable: in their large east-facing drawing room, they could have been nervously sharing notes in anticipation of a formal visit. Maggie’s restless mind even toyed with the idea; the cool, high room, shaded in the afternoon light, with its old, uncovered tapestries and the perfectly polished wide floor reflecting the bowls of fresh flowers as well as the silver and linen on the prepared tea table, prompted her to remark on the whole effect and something in the Prince’s movements as he paced and turned slowly. “We’re definitely bourgeois!” she said a bit grimly, echoing their past together; though to an outsider, they might have appeared to be the privileged couple they were thought to be—if only they were seen as waiting for a Royal visit. They could have been ready, upon receiving a word in advance, to head together to the foot of the staircase—the Prince slightly in front, even moving to the open doors and going down, despite his position, to greet the dignified arrival when the carriage stopped. Admittedly, it was a stale time for significant events; the September stillness filled the end of the dull day, and a couple of the long windows stood open to the balcony overlooking the desolation—the same balcony from which Maggie had seen Amerigo and Charlotte looking down together when she returned from Regent's Park in the spring with her father, the Principino, and Miss Bogle. Amerigo, in his habitual impatience, went outside a couple of times to stand there; after which he returned to the room, clearly with nothing to report. The Princess pretended to read; he glanced at her as he passed by; she was reminded of other times she had masked her agitation with a book. Finally, she felt him standing before her, and she lifted her eyes.
“Do you remember how, this morning, when you told me of this event, I asked you if there were anything particular you wished me to do? You spoke of my being at home, but that was a matter of course. You spoke of something else,” he went on, while she sat with her book on her knee and her raised eyes; “something that makes me almost wish it may happen. You spoke,” he said, “of the possibility of my seeing her alone. Do you know, if that comes,” he asked, “the use I shall make of it?” And then as she waited: “The use is all before me.”
“Do you remember how this morning, when you told me about this event, I asked if there was anything specific you wanted me to do? You mentioned me being at home, but that was a given. You talked about something else,” he continued, while she sat with her book on her lap and her eyes raised; “something that makes me almost hope it will happen. You mentioned,” he said, “the possibility of me seeing her alone. Do you realize, if that happens,” he asked, “what I will do with it?” And as she waited: “The possibilities are all clear to me.”
“Ah, it’s your own business now!” said his wife. But it had made her rise.
“Ah, it’s your own thing now!” said his wife. But it had made her stand up.
“I shall make it my own,” he answered. “I shall tell her I lied to her.”
“I'll make it mine,” he replied. “I'll tell her I lied to her.”
“Ah no!” she returned.
“Ah no!” she replied.
“And I shall tell her you did.”
“And I’ll tell her you did.”
She shook her head again. “Oh, still less!”
She shook her head again. “Oh, definitely not!”
With which therefore they stood at difference, he with his head erect and his happy idea perched, in its eagerness, on his crest. “And how then is she to know?”
With that, they found themselves at odds, he with his head held high and his bright idea proudly perched, eager on his mind. “So how is she supposed to know?”
“She isn’t to know.”
“She doesn't need to know.”
“She’s only still to think you don’t—?”
"She’s still thinking you don’t—?"
“And therefore that I’m always a fool? She may think,” said Maggie, “what she likes.”
“And so she thinks I’m always a fool? Let her think what she wants,” said Maggie.
“Think it without my protest—?”
"Think it without my objections?"
The Princess made a movement. “What business is it of yours?”
The Princess moved slightly. “What’s it to you?”
“Isn’t it my right to correct her—?”
“Isn’t it my right to correct her?”
Maggie let his question ring—ring long enough for him to hear it himself; only then she took it up. “‘Correct’ her?”—and it was her own now that really rang. “Aren’t you rather forgetting who she is?” After which, while he quite stared for it, as it was the very first clear majesty he had known her to use, she flung down her book and raised a warning hand. “The carriage. Come!”
Maggie let his question hang in the air—long enough for him to reflect on it; only then did she respond. “’Correct’ her?”—and her voice now had a true authority. “Aren’t you forgetting who she is?” After that, while he looked at her in surprise, since it was the first time he’d seen her use such clear confidence, she dropped her book and raised a hand in warning. “The carriage. Let’s go!”
The “Come!” had matched, for lucid firmness, the rest of her speech, and, when they were below, in the hall, there was a “Go!” for him, through the open doors and between the ranged servants, that matched even that. He received Royalty, bareheaded, therefore, in the persons of Mr. and Mrs. Verver, as it alighted on the pavement, and Maggie was at the threshold to welcome it to her house. Later on, upstairs again, she even herself felt still more the force of the limit of which she had just reminded him; at tea, in Charlotte’s affirmed presence—as Charlotte affirmed it—she drew a long breath of richer relief. It was the strangest, once more, of all impressions; but what she most felt, for the half-hour, was that Mr. and Mrs. Verver were making the occasion easy. They were somehow conjoined in it, conjoined for a present effect as Maggie had absolutely never yet seen them; and there occurred, before long, a moment in which Amerigo’s look met her own in recognitions that he couldn’t suppress. The question of the amount of correction to which Charlotte had laid herself open rose and hovered, for the instant, only to sink, conspicuously, by its own weight; so high a pitch she seemed to give to the unconsciousness of questions, so resplendent a show of serenity she succeeded in making. The shade of the official, in her beauty and security, never for a moment dropped; it was a cool, high refuge, like the deep, arched recess of some coloured and gilded image, in which she sat and smiled and waited, drank her tea, referred to her husband and remembered her mission. Her mission had quite taken form—it was but another name for the interest of her great opportunity—that of representing the arts and the graces to a people languishing, afar off, in ignorance. Maggie had sufficiently intimated to the Prince, ten minutes before, that she needed no showing as to what their friend wouldn’t consent to be taken for; but the difficulty now indeed was to choose, for explicit tribute of admiration, between the varieties of her nobler aspects. She carried it off, to put the matter coarsely, with a taste and a discretion that held our young woman’s attention, for the first quarter-of-an-hour, to the very point of diverting it from the attitude of her overshadowed, her almost superseded companion. But Adam Verver profited indeed at this time, even with his daughter, by his so marked peculiarity of seeming on no occasion to have an attitude; and so long as they were in the room together she felt him still simply weave his web and play out his long fine cord, knew herself in presence of this tacit process very much as she had known herself at Fawns. He had a way, the dear man, wherever he was, of moving about the room, noiselessly, to see what it might contain; and his manner of now resorting to this habit, acquainted as he already was with the objects in view, expressed with a certain sharpness the intention of leaving his wife to her devices. It did even more than this; it signified, to the apprehension of the Princess, from the moment she more directly took thought of him, almost a special view of these devices, as actually exhibited in their rarity, together with an independent, a settled appreciation of their general handsome adequacy, which scarcely required the accompaniment of his faint contemplative hum.
The “Come!” matched the clarity and firmness of the rest of her speech, and when they were downstairs in the hall, there was a “Go!” for him, through the open doors and among the lined-up servants, that matched even that. He received Royalty, bareheaded, in the forms of Mr. and Mrs. Verver, as they stepped onto the pavement, and Maggie was at the threshold to welcome them to her house. Later, back upstairs, she felt even more the weight of the limit she had just reminded him of; at tea, with Charlotte’s affirmed presence—as Charlotte affirmed it—she took a deep breath of relief. It was the strangest impression once again; but what she felt most, for the next half-hour, was that Mr. and Mrs. Verver made the occasion easy. They were somehow united in it, together in a way Maggie had never seen before; and soon there was a moment when Amerigo’s gaze met hers in a recognition he couldn’t hide. The question of how much correction Charlotte had exposed herself to rose and lingered for a moment, only to sink, weighed down by its own heaviness; she seemed to elevate the unconsciousness of questions and radiated a serene calm. The aura of authority she possessed, in her beauty and confidence, never faltered; it felt like a cool, elevated refuge, like the deep, arched alcove of some colorful and gilded image, where she sat and smiled, waited, drank her tea, referred to her husband, and remembered her mission. Her mission had taken shape—it was just another name for the interest of her great opportunity: representing the arts and graces to a people far away in ignorance. Ten minutes earlier, Maggie had clearly indicated to the Prince that she didn’t need any explanation about what their friend wouldn’t want to be taken for; but now the challenge was to choose, for explicit admiration, among her various admirable qualities. To put it bluntly, she managed it with a taste and discretion that held our young woman’s attention for the first fifteen minutes, even diverting it from her overshadowed, almost overshadowed companion. But Adam Verver benefited during this time, even with his daughter, from his peculiar talent for seeming to have no definitive stance; and as long as they were in the same room, she felt him weaving his web and extending his long fine thread, aware of this unspoken process much like she had been at Fawns. He had a way, the dear man, of moving quietly around the room wherever he was, seeing what it contained; and his now returning to this habit, knowing the objects already in view, clearly signaled his intention to leave his wife to her own devices. It did even more than that; it suggested, in the Princess’s perception, once she thought more directly of him, a specific viewpoint of these devices, as they were displayed in their rarity, along with an independent, settled appreciation of their overall impressive adequacy, which hardly needed the accompaniment of his soft, contemplative hum.
Charlotte throned, as who should say, between her hostess and her host, the whole scene having crystallised, as soon as she took her place, to the right quiet lustre; the harmony was not less sustained for being superficial, and the only approach to a break in it was while Amerigo remained standing long enough for his father-in-law, vaguely wondering, to appeal to him, invite or address him, and then, in default of any such word, selected for presentation to the other visitor a plate of petits fours. Maggie watched her husband—if it now could be called watching—offer this refreshment; she noted the consummate way—for “consummate” was the term she privately applied—in which Charlotte cleared her acceptance, cleared her impersonal smile, of any betrayal, any slightest value, of consciousness; and then felt the slow surge of a vision that, at the end of another minute or two, had floated her across the room to where her father stood looking at a picture, an early Florentine sacred subject, that he had given her on her marriage. He might have been, in silence, taking his last leave of it; it was a work for which he entertained, she knew, an unqualified esteem. The tenderness represented for her by his sacrifice of such a treasure had become, to her sense, a part of the whole infusion, of the immortal expression; the beauty of his sentiment looked out at her, always, from the beauty of the rest, as if the frame made positively a window for his spiritual face: she might have said to herself, at this moment, that in leaving the thing behind him, held as in her clasping arms, he was doing the most possible toward leaving her a part of his palpable self. She put her hand over his shoulder, and their eyes were held again, together, by the abiding felicity; they smiled in emulation, vaguely, as if speech failed them through their having passed too far; she would have begun to wonder the next minute if it were reserved to them, for the last stage, to find their contact, like that of old friends reunited too much on the theory of the unchanged, subject to shy lapses.
Charlotte sat elegantly between her hostess and her host, the whole scene clicking into place as soon as she took her spot, giving it a quiet glow. The harmony was no less present for being surface-level, and the only hint of disruption was when Amerigo stood for a moment, prompting his father-in-law, who was puzzled, to appeal to him, but in the absence of words, he instead picked a plate of petits fours to present to the other guest. Maggie observed her husband—if it could even be called watching—offering this treat; she noted the flawless way—she privately called it "flawless"—in which Charlotte accepted with an impersonal smile that revealed no trace of awareness or emotion. Then she felt the slow rise of a thought that, after a minute or two, led her across the room to where her father stood, gazing at a painting, an early Florentine religious piece, that he had given her on her wedding day. He seemed to be silently bidding farewell to it; she knew he held it in the highest regard. The affection he showed by letting go of such a treasure had become a part of the whole essence of the moment for her; the beauty of his feelings shone through in everything else, as if the frame created a window into his spiritual self. At that moment, she might have told herself that by leaving the painting behind, cradled in her arms, he was doing his utmost to leave her a piece of his tangible self. She placed her hand on his shoulder, and their eyes connected once more in shared happiness; they smiled at each other, vaguely, as if words failed them because they had ventured too far apart; she considered wondering if, in the end, their final reunion would involve rediscovering their connection, much like old friends who reconnect but are hesitant due to the passage of time.
“It’s all right, eh?”
“It’s all good, right?”
“Oh, my dear—rather!”
“Oh, my dear—definitely!”
He had applied the question to the great fact of the picture, as she had spoken for the picture in reply, but it was as if their words for an instant afterwards symbolised another truth, so that they looked about at everything else to give them this extension. She had passed her arm into his, and the other objects in the room, the other pictures, the sofas, the chairs, the tables, the cabinets, the “important” pieces, supreme in their way, stood out, round them, consciously, for recognition and applause. Their eyes moved together from piece to piece, taking in the whole nobleness—quite as if for him to measure the wisdom of old ideas. The two noble persons seated, in conversation, at tea, fell thus into the splendid effect and the general harmony: Mrs. Verver and the Prince fairly “placed” themselves, however unwittingly, as high expressions of the kind of human furniture required, esthetically, by such a scene. The fusion of their presence with the decorative elements, their contribution to the triumph of selection, was complete and admirable; though, to a lingering view, a view more penetrating than the occasion really demanded, they also might have figured as concrete attestations of a rare power of purchase. There was much indeed in the tone in which Adam Verver spoke again, and who shall say where his thought stopped? “Le compte y est. You’ve got some good things.”
He had asked the question about the main point of the picture, just like she had responded regarding the picture, but for a moment it felt like their words represented something deeper, making them look around at everything else to provide context. She linked her arm with his, and the other items in the room—the other pictures, the sofas, the chairs, the tables, the cabinets, the "important" pieces, each significant in their own way—stood out around them, almost asking for recognition and admiration. Their eyes moved together from item to item, absorbing the overall elegance—as if he were meant to appreciate the wisdom of old ideas. The two distinguished people sitting together, engaged in conversation over tea, naturally blended into the beautiful scene and overall harmony: Mrs. Verver and the Prince seemed to effortlessly embody the kind of refined presence aesthetically necessary for such a setting. The way they merged with the decorative aspects, enhancing the triumph of selection, was complete and commendable; although upon closer inspection, which the occasion didn’t necessarily call for, they could also have appeared as tangible proof of a unique purchasing power. There was certainly something notable in the way Adam Verver spoke again, and who can say where his thoughts ended? "The account checks out. You’ve got some good pieces."
Maggie met it afresh—“Ah, don’t they look well?” Their companions, at the sound of this, gave them, in a spacious intermission of slow talk, an attention, all of gravity, that was like an ampler submission to the general duty of magnificence; sitting as still, to be thus appraised, as a pair of effigies of the contemporary great on one of the platforms of Madame Tussaud. “I’m so glad—for your last look.”
Maggie encountered it anew—“Wow, don’t they look great?” Their friends, hearing this, paused in their slow conversation to give them a serious look, which felt like a deeper respect for the overall sense of grandeur; sitting still to be evaluated, like a couple of figures of today’s celebrities on a platform at Madame Tussaud’s. “I’m so glad—for your final look.”
With which, after Maggie—quite in the air—had said it, the note was struck indeed; the note of that strange accepted finality of relation, as from couple to couple, which almost escaped an awkwardness only by not attempting a gloss. Yes, this was the wonder, that the occasion defied insistence precisely because of the vast quantities with which it dealt—so that separation was on a scale beyond any compass of parting. To do such an hour justice would have been in some degree to question its grounds—which was why they remained, in fine, the four of them, in the upper air, united in the firmest abstention from pressure. There was no point, visibly, at which, face to face, either Amerigo or Charlotte had pressed; and how little she herself was in danger of doing so Maggie scarce needed to remember. That her father wouldn’t, by the tip of a toe—of that she was equally conscious: the only thing was that, since he didn’t, she could but hold her breath for what he would do instead. When, at the end of three minutes more, he had said, with an effect of suddenness, “Well, Mag—and the Principino?” it was quite as if that were, by contrast, the hard, the truer voice.
After Maggie casually mentioned it, the tone was set; it captured that strange acceptance of finality in relationships, from couple to couple, which avoided awkwardness simply by not trying to cover it up. Yes, it was surprising that the occasion resisted any pressure precisely because of the significant emotions involved—so much so that separation felt larger than any usual goodbye. To fully appreciate that moment would have meant questioning its foundations—which is why the four of them stayed suspended in that moment, united in their refusal to apply any pressure. There was no visible point where either Amerigo or Charlotte pushed; and Maggie hardly needed to remind herself how unlikely she was to do so. She was also fully aware that her father wouldn’t budge, not even in the slightest: the only thing was that, since he didn’t move, she could only hold her breath for what he would do next. After three more minutes, he suddenly said, “Well, Mag—and the Principino?” and it felt, by contrast, like the real, raw truth.
She glanced at the clock. “I ‘ordered’ him for half-past five—which hasn’t yet struck. Trust him, my dear, not to fail you!”
She looked at the clock. “I 'scheduled' him for five-thirty—which hasn’t happened yet. Trust him, my dear, to come through for you!”
“Oh, I don’t want HIM to fail me!” was Mr. Verver’s reply; yet uttered in so explicitly jocose a relation to the possibilities of failure that even when, just afterwards, he wandered in his impatience to one of the long windows and passed out to the balcony, she asked herself but for a few seconds if reality, should she follow him, would overtake or meet her there. She followed him of necessity—it came, absolutely, so near to his inviting her, by stepping off into temporary detachment, to give the others something of the chance that she and her husband had so fantastically discussed. Beside him then, while they hung over the great dull place, clear and almost coloured now, coloured with the odd, sad, pictured, “old-fashioned” look that empty London streets take on in waning afternoons of the summer’s end, she felt once more how impossible such a passage would have been to them, how it would have torn them to pieces, if they had so much as suffered its suppressed relations to peep out of their eyes. This danger would doubtless indeed have been more to be reckoned with if the instinct of each—she could certainly at least answer for her own—had not so successfully acted to trump up other apparent connexions for it, connexions as to which they could pretend to be frank.
“Oh, I don’t want him to let me down!” Mr. Verver replied, but he said it with such a light-hearted attitude towards the possibility of failure that even when he impatiently wandered over to one of the long windows and stepped out onto the balcony, she only paused for a few seconds to wonder if reality, should she follow him, would catch up or meet her there. She felt compelled to follow him—it felt almost like he was inviting her, as he stepped into a brief detachment, to give the others a taste of the chance that she and her husband had discussed so dramatically. Next to him, as they looked down over the large, dull space—now clear and almost colorful, touched with the strange, melancholy, “old-fashioned” look that empty London streets take on in the fading afternoons at the end of summer—she was reminded once more of how impossible such a moment would have been for them, how it would have broken them apart if they had allowed its unspoken connections to show in their eyes. This risk would undoubtedly have been more significant if each of their instincts—she could certainly speak for her own—hadn't worked so effectively to create other seemingly genuine connections for it, connections they could pretend to be open about.
“You mustn’t stay on here, you know,” Adam Verver said as a result of his unobstructed outlook. “Fawns is all there for you, of course—to the end of my tenure. But Fawns so dismantled,” he added with mild ruefulness, “Fawns with half its contents, and half its best things, removed, won’t seem to you, I’m afraid, particularly lively.”
“You really shouldn’t stay here,” Adam Verver said, taking in the view. “Fawns is available for you, of course—until my time here is up. But Fawns is so changed,” he added with a hint of disappointment, “Fawns with half its items and half its best stuff gone, I’m afraid, won’t feel particularly vibrant to you.”
“No,” Maggie answered, “we should miss its best things. Its best things, my dear, have certainly been removed. To be back there,” she went on, “to be back there—!” And she paused for the force of her idea.
“No,” Maggie replied, “we would miss out on its best parts. Its best parts, my dear, have definitely been taken away. To go back there,” she continued, “to go back there—!” And she paused to let the weight of her thought sink in.
“Oh, to be back there without anything good—!” But she didn’t hesitate now; she brought her idea forth. “To be back there without Charlotte is more than I think would do.” And as she smiled at him with it, so she saw him the next instant take it—take it in a way that helped her smile to pass all for an allusion to what she didn’t and couldn’t say. This quantity was too clear—that she couldn’t at such an hour be pretending to name to him what it was, as he would have said, “going to be,” at Fawns or anywhere else, to want for HIM. That was now—and in a manner exaltedly, sublimely—out of their compass and their question; so that what was she doing, while they waited for the Principino, while they left the others together and their tension just sensibly threatened, what was she doing but just offer a bold but substantial substitute? Nothing was stranger moreover, under the action of Charlotte’s presence, than the fact of a felt sincerity in her words. She felt her sincerity absolutely sound—she gave it for all it might mean. “Because Charlotte, dear, you know,” she said, “is incomparable.” It took thirty seconds, but she was to know when these were over that she had pronounced one of the happiest words of her life. They had turned from the view of the street; they leaned together against the balcony rail, with the room largely in sight from where they stood, but with the Prince and Mrs. Verver out of range. Nothing he could try, she immediately saw, was to keep his eyes from lighting; not even his taking out his cigarette-case and saying before he said anything else: “May I smoke?” She met it, for encouragement, with her “My dear!” again, and then, while he struck his match, she had just another minute to be nervous—a minute that she made use of, however, not in the least to falter, but to reiterate with a high ring, a ring that might, for all she cared, reach the pair inside: “Father, father—Charlotte’s great!”
“Oh, to be back there without anything good—!” But she didn’t hesitate now; she shared her idea. “To be back there without Charlotte is more than I think I could handle.” As she smiled at him while saying this, she noticed him taking it in a way that made her smile seem like a reference to something she couldn’t fully articulate. It was clear that at this moment she couldn’t pretend to express what he would have called “going to be” at Fawns or anywhere else, especially when it came to HIM. That reality was now—and in a way that felt elevated and profound—beyond their reach and their discussion. So, what was she doing while they waited for the Principino, while the others were together and the tension was starting to become noticeable? She was only offering a bold yet genuine substitute. It was particularly odd, influenced by Charlotte’s presence, that she genuinely felt her words were sincere. She felt her sincerity was completely genuine—she expressed it for all it was worth. “Because Charlotte, dear, you know,” she said, “is truly incomparable.” It took thirty seconds, but when those ended, she realized she had said one of the happiest things of her life. They had turned away from the view of the street; they leaned together against the balcony rail, with the room largely visible from where they stood, but with the Prince and Mrs. Verver out of sight. She immediately realized that nothing he could do would prevent his eyes from lighting up; not even when he took out his cigarette case and asked before saying anything else: “May I smoke?” She responded, for encouragement, with her “My dear!” again, and then, while he struck his match, she had just another minute to feel nervous—a minute that she used, however, not to hesitate but to reaffirm with a strong voice, a voice that she hoped would reach the pair inside: “Father, father—Charlotte’s amazing!”
It was not till after he had begun to smoke that he looked at her. “Charlotte’s great.”
It wasn't until he started smoking that he looked at her. “Charlotte’s awesome.”
They could close upon it—such a basis as they might immediately feel it make; and so they stood together over it, quite gratefully, each recording to the other’s eyes that it was firm under their feet. They had even thus a renewed wait, as for proof of it; much as if he were letting her see, while the minutes lapsed for their concealed companions, that this was finally just why—but just WHY! “You see,” he presently added, “how right I was. Right, I mean, to do it for you.”
They could get close to it—whatever foundation they could immediately sense it had made; and so they stood over it together, feeling grateful, each showing the other’s eyes that it was solid beneath them. In this way, they had a moment of renewed anticipation, as if he were letting her understand, while time passed for their hidden companions, that this was exactly why—but just WHY! “You see,” he then added, “how right I was. Right, I mean, to do this for you.”
“Ah, rather!” she murmured with her smile. And then, as to be herself ideally right: “I don’t see what you would have done without her.”
“Ah, definitely!” she said with a smile. Then, to make sure she was perfectly clear: “I don’t know what you would have done without her.”
“The point was,” he returned quietly, “that I didn’t see what you were to do. Yet it was a risk.”
“The point was,” he replied softly, “that I didn’t understand what you were going to do. Still, it was a risk.”
“It was a risk,” said Maggie—“but I believed in it. At least for myself!” she smiled.
“It was a risk,” said Maggie—“but I believed in it. At least for myself!” she smiled.
“Well NOW,” he smoked, “we see.”
“Well now,” he said, taking a puff, “we see.”
“We see.”
"We understand."
“I know her better.”
“I know her well.”
“You know her best.”
“You know her the best.”
“Oh, but naturally!” On which, as the warranted truth of it hung in the air—the truth warranted, as who should say, exactly by the present opportunity to pronounce, this opportunity created and accepted—she found herself lost, though with a finer thrill than she had perhaps yet known, in the vision of all he might mean. The sense of it in her rose higher, rose with each moment that he invited her thus to see him linger; and when, after a little more, he had said, smoking again and looking up, with head thrown back and hands spread on the balcony rail, at the grey, gaunt front of the house, “She’s beautiful, beautiful!” her sensibility reported to her the shade of a new note. It was all she might have wished, for it was, with a kind of speaking competence, the note of possession and control; and yet it conveyed to her as nothing till now had done the reality of their parting. They were parting, in the light of it, absolutely on Charlotte’s VALUE—the value that was filling the room out of which they had stepped as if to give it play, and with which the Prince, on his side, was perhaps making larger acquaintance. If Maggie had desired, at so late an hour, some last conclusive comfortable category to place him in for dismissal, she might have found it here in its all coming back to his ability to rest upon high values. Somehow, when all was said, and with the memory of her gifts, her variety, her power, so much remained of Charlotte’s! What else had she herself meant three minutes before by speaking of her as great? Great for the world that was before her—that he proposed she should be: she was not to be wasted in the application of his plan. Maggie held to this then—that she wasn’t to be wasted. To let his daughter know it he had sought this brief privacy. What a blessing, accordingly, that she could speak her joy in it! His face, meanwhile, at all events, was turned to her, and as she met his eyes again her joy went straight. “It’s success, father.”
“Oh, of course!” As the truth of it hung in the air—the truth confirmed, as if to say, exactly by the chance to speak, this chance created and embraced—she found herself lost, but with a deeper thrill than she had perhaps ever known, in the idea of what he might mean. The feeling in her grew stronger, rising with each moment he invited her to see him linger; and when, after a little while, he had said, still smoking and looking up, with his head thrown back and hands resting on the balcony rail, at the grey, stark front of the house, “She’s beautiful, beautiful!” her sensitivity picked up on a new tone. It was everything she could have wished for, as it carried, with a kind of assertive confidence, the tone of possession and control; and yet it conveyed to her, like nothing before, the reality of their parting. They were parting, based on Charlotte’s VALUE—the value that filled the room they had stepped out of to let it breathe, and with which the Prince, on his side, was perhaps becoming better acquainted. If Maggie had wanted, at this late hour, some last definitive comfort to put him into a category for dismissal, she might have found it here in his focus on high values. Somehow, when all was said and done, and with the memory of her gifts, her variety, her power, so much of Charlotte’s remained! What else had she meant three minutes earlier by calling her great? Great for the world ahead of her—that he suggested she should be: she was not to be wasted on his plan. Maggie clung to this—that she wasn’t to be wasted. To let his daughter know, he sought this brief privacy. What a blessing, therefore, that she could express her joy in it! His face, in any case, was turned toward her, and as she met his eyes again, her joy was unwavering. “It’s success, father.”
“It’s success. And even this,” he added as the Principino, appearing alone, deep within, piped across an instant greeting—“even this isn’t altogether failure!”
“It’s success. And even this,” he added as the Principino, appearing alone, deep within, gave a quick greeting—“even this isn’t completely a failure!”
They went in to receive the boy, upon whose introduction to the room by Miss Bogle Charlotte and the Prince got up—seemingly with an impressiveness that had caused Miss Bogle not to give further effect to her own entrance. She had retired, but the Principino’s presence, by itself, sufficiently broke the tension—the subsidence of which, in the great room, ten minutes later, gave to the air something of the quality produced by the cessation of a sustained rattle. Stillness, when the Prince and Princess returned from attending the visitors to their carriage, might have been said to be not so much restored as created; so that whatever next took place in it was foredoomed to remarkable salience. That would have been the case even with so natural, though so futile, a movement as Maggie’s going out to the balcony again to follow with her eyes her father’s departure. The carriage was out of sight—it had taken her too long solemnly to reascend, and she looked awhile only at the great grey space, on which, as on the room still more, the shadow of dusk had fallen. Here, at first, her husband had not rejoined her; he had come up with the boy, who, clutching his hand, abounded, as usual, in remarks worthy of the family archives; but the two appeared then to have proceeded to report to Miss Bogle. It meant something for the Princess that her husband had thus got their son out of the way, not bringing him back to his mother; but everything now, as she vaguely moved about, struck her as meaning so much that the unheard chorus swelled. Yet THIS above all—her just being there as she was and waiting for him to come in, their freedom to be together there always—was the meaning most disengaged: she stood in the cool twilight and took in, all about her, where it lurked, her reason for what she had done. She knew at last really why—and how she had been inspired and guided, how she had been persistently able, how, to her soul, all the while, it had been for the sake of this end. Here it was, then, the moment, the golden fruit that had shone from afar; only, what were these things, in the fact, for the hand and for the lips, when tested, when tasted—what were they as a reward? Closer than she had ever been to the measure of her course and the full face of her act, she had an instant of the terror that, when there has been suspense, always precedes, on the part of the creature to be paid, the certification of the amount. Amerigo knew it, the amount; he still held it, and the delay in his return, making her heart beat too fast to go on, was like a sudden blinding light on a wild speculation. She had thrown the dice, but his hand was over her cast.
They went in to welcome the boy, and when Miss Bogle introduced him to the room, Charlotte and the Prince got up—seemingly with a gravity that made Miss Bogle hold back on her own entrance. She had stepped away, but the Principino’s presence alone was enough to ease the tension. The decrease in tension in that large room ten minutes later was like the quiet that follows a long series of rattles. The stillness, when the Prince and Princess came back from seeing the visitors off to their carriage, could be described as something that wasn’t just restored but created; whatever happened next stood out remarkably. That would have been true even for something as ordinary, yet pointless, as Maggie stepping out to the balcony to watch her father leave. The carriage was gone—she had taken too long to solemnly come back inside, and she gazed for a while at the vast gray space, where dusk had settled, casting shadows over both the outside and the room. At first, her husband hadn’t rejoined her; he had come up with the boy, who was holding his hand and as usual overflowing with comments worth recording in the family archives; but they seemed to have gone to report back to Miss Bogle. It meant something to the Princess that her husband had taken their son away, not returning him to her; but everything around her, as she moved aimlessly, felt significant, the silent chorus inside her growing. Yet above all—just being there and waiting for him to come in, the freedom to be together—this was the clearest meaning: she stood in the cool twilight, absorbing the reason for her actions. She finally understood why—and how she had been inspired and guided, how she had consistently been able, how, all along, it had been for this purpose. Here it was, the moment, the golden reward she had glimpsed from a distance; only, what would these things mean for the hand and lips, when examined, when experienced—what were they as a reward? Closer than ever to understanding the measure of her journey and the full truth of her actions, she felt a rush of dread that always comes before the one being paid verifies the amount after a period of uncertainty. Amerigo knew the amount; he still held it, and his delay in returning made her heart race too fast to bear, like a sudden blinding flash on a wild gamble. She had taken a chance, but his hand was over her throw.
He opened the door, however, at last—he hadn’t been away ten minutes; and then, with her sight of him renewed to intensity, she seemed to have a view of the number. His presence alone, as he paused to look at her, somehow made it the highest, and even before he had spoken she had begun to be paid in full. With that consciousness, in fact, an extraordinary thing occurred; the assurance of her safety so making her terror drop that already, within the minute, it had been changed to concern for his own anxiety, for everything that was deep in his being and everything that was fair in his face. So far as seeing that she was “paid” went, he might have been holding out the money-bag for her to come and take it. But what instantly rose, for her, between the act and her acceptance was the sense that she must strike him as waiting for a confession. This, in turn, charged her with a new horror: if that was her proper payment she would go without money. His acknowledgment hung there, too monstrously, at the expense of Charlotte, before whose mastery of the greater style she had just been standing dazzled. All she now knew, accordingly, was that she should be ashamed to listen to the uttered word; all, that is, but that she might dispose of it on the spot forever.
He finally opened the door—he hadn't been gone for more than ten minutes; and then, as she saw him again with renewed intensity, it felt like she had a view of the whole situation. Just his presence, as he paused to look at her, somehow made everything seem important, and even before he spoke, she felt like she was getting what she deserved. In fact, with that realization, something extraordinary happened; the knowledge that she was safe made her fear drop away so much that, within a minute, she started to worry about his own anxiety, for everything that was deep inside him and everything that was attractive about his face. As far as knowing that she was “paid” went, he might as well have been offering her a bag of money to come and take it. But what immediately came to her mind, between his offer and her acceptance, was the feeling that he must think she was waiting for a confession. This, in turn, filled her with a new kind of dread: if that was what he thought she deserved, she would leave empty-handed. His acknowledgment hung there, too overwhelmingly, at the expense of Charlotte, whose mastery of the greater style had just left her astonished. So, all she knew now was that she would feel ashamed to listen to his words; all, that is, except for the fact that she could choose to forget it immediately.
“Isn’t she too splendid?” she simply said, offering it to explain and to finish.
“Isn’t she amazing?” she just said, offering it to explain and to finish.
“Oh, splendid!” With which he came over to her.
“Oh, awesome!” With that, he walked over to her.
“That’s our help, you see,” she added—to point further her moral.
"That's our help, you see," she added, emphasizing her point further.
It kept him before her therefore, taking in—or trying to—what she so wonderfully gave. He tried, too clearly, to please her—to meet her in her own way; but with the result only that, close to her, her face kept before him, his hands holding her shoulders, his whole act enclosing her, he presently echoed: “‘See’? I see nothing but you.” And the truth of it had, with this force, after a moment, so strangely lighted his eyes that, as for pity and dread of them, she buried her own in his breast.
It kept him focused on her, trying to take in what she was so wonderfully offering. He tried too hard to please her—to meet her on her own terms—but the result was that, close to her with her face right in front of him, his hands on her shoulders, and his whole being encompassing her, he ended up saying: “‘See’? I see nothing but you.” The truth of that, struck with such intensity, strangely lit up his eyes, making her bury her own in his chest out of pity and fear.
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